,illu/ration3 ,boxall delt4 ,c4 ,m>r sculpt4 ,,/4 ,,leon1 8,i took h] h& & by my c>esses endeav\r$ to soo! & compose h]40 ,page #fe4 ,london1 ,publi%$ by ,h5ry ,colburn ,ri*>d ,b5tley1 #ahca4 ,,/4 ,,leon1 ,,by ,,william ,,godw94 ,illu/ration3 ,he put 8 h& to ! w\nd2 ! ,animal /irr$ n4 ,page #bgc4 ,,london4 ,,colburn ,,& ,,b5tley1 ,,new ,,burl+ton ,,/reet4 #ahca4 ,,/4 ,,leon3 ,a ,,tale ,,( ,,! ,,sixte5? ,,c5tury4 ,,by ,,william ,,godw94 ,f]d9& ,m5dez ,p9to 0 b a type ( !e1 ?\ li> ( ! fir/ magnitude4 ,,congreve4 ,,london3 ,,h5ry ,,colburn ,,& ,,ri*>d ,,b5tley1 ,,new ,,burl+ton ,,/reet2 ,,bell ,,& ,,bradfute1 ,,ed9burgh ,,& ,,cumm+1 ,,dubl94 #ahca4 ,,london3 ,pr9t$ by ,a4 ,r4 ,spottiswoode1 ,new-,/reet-,squ>e4 ,,adv]tisem5t4 ,! ,publi%]s ( ! ,collection ( 8,,/&>d ,,novels0 are extremely desir\s t ,i %\ld furni% !m ) a few l9es1 by way ( introduction to ! appe>ance ( ,,/4 ,,leon 9 its pres5t =m4 ,i am h[ev] at a loss h[ to oblige !m4 ,9 ! orig9al ,preface ,i frankly /at$ ! s\rces ^u :i* ,i _h drawn = ! idea & conduct ( ! "w4 ,i h !re=e no rem>ks to (f]1 b ^! :i* foll[3-- ,9 #agid ,i produc$ ! novel ( ,caleb ,williams4 ,i believ$ myself =tunate 9 ! selection ,i _h made ( ! gr\nd-plot ( t "w4 ,an atroci\s crime committ$ by a man previ\sly ( ! mo/ exempl>y habits1 ! annoyance he suff]s f ! immeasurable & ev]-wakeful curiosity ( a raw y\? :o is plac$ ab\t 8 p]son1 ! /ate ( d\bt 9 :i* ! read] might = a "t be z to ! tru? ( ! *>ges1 & ! consequ5ces gr[+ out ( ^! causes1 seem$ to me to af=d scope = a n>rative ( no common int]e/4 ,i 0 n disappo9t$4 ,caleb ,williams 0 hon\r$ ) ! public fav\r4 ,! consequ5ce 0 t ,i 0 solicit$ to try my h& aga9 9 a "w ( fiction4 ,i hesitat$ long4 ,i despair$ ( f9d+ aga9 a topic s ri* ( int]e/ & passion4 ,9 ^? days x 0 deem$ a mo/ d>+ ?\ght to attempt to write a novel1 ) ! hope t x might h]eaft] rank among ! classics ( a language4 ,! mo/ successful ,engli% writ]s 9 t prov9ce ( lit]ature _h sc>cely gone beyond ?ree4 ,x _h n !n be5 conceiv$ t ! same au?or might produce tw5ty or ?irty1 at ! rate ( two or ?ree p] annum1 & might /ill at lea/ reta9 8 hold ^u ! p>tiality ( 8 contempor>ies4 ,to ,sir ,walt] ,scott we are indebt$ = ?is discov]y4 ,at l5g?1 aft] hav+ pass$ "s ye>s 9 a /ate ( diffid5ce & irresolution1 ,i v5tur$ on ! task4 ,x /ruck me t if ,i c\ld 8mix human feel+s & passions ) incr$ible situations10 ,i might ?us atta9 a sort ( novelty t w\ld conciliate ! pati5ce1 at lea/1 ev5 ( "s ( ! sev]e/ judges4 ,to ?is way ( ?9k+ ,,/4 ,,leon 0 indebt$ = a 8local habitation1 & a "n40 ,"o ( my mo/ valu$ fri5ds ,mr4 ,nor?cote has (t5 told me1 t ! public may sometimes be int]e/$ 9 ! p]usal ( a book1 b t !y nev] give !mselves any tr\ble ab\t ! au?or4 ,he !re=e k9dly advis$ me on no occasion to say any ?+ 9 pr9t ab\t myself4 ,! pres5t race ( read]s seem sc>cely dispos$ to v]ify ?is maxim4 ,!y are und]/ood to be desir\s to le>n some?+ ( ! peculi>ities1 ! 8life1 "*1 & behavi\r10 ( an au?or1 be=e !y consign him to ! gulph ( oblivion1 & are will+ to le>n f 8 own te/imony :at tra9 ( ?\ghts induc$ him to adopt ! p>ticul> subject & plan ( ! "w1 ^u ! p]usal ( :i* !y are engag$4 ,june1 #ahca4 ,,preface4 ,! foll[+ passage f a "w1 said to be writt5 by ! late ,dr4 ,john ,campbel1 & entitl$ ,h]mippus ,r$ivivus1 sugge/$ ! fir/ h9t ( ! pres5t p]=mance3-- 8,!re happ5$ 9 ! ye> #afhg1 an odd accid5t at ,v5ice1 t made a v great /ir !n1 & :i* ,i ?9k des]ves to be rescu$ f oblivion4 ,! great fre$om & ease ) :i* all p]sons1 :o make a good appe>ance1 live 9 t city1 is kn[n suffici5tly to all :o are acqua9t$ ) x2 su* w n !re=e be surpris$1 t a /rang]1 :o w5t by ! "n ( signor ,gualdi1 & :o made a consid]able figure !re1 0 admitt$ into ! be/ company1 ?\gh nobody knew :o or :at he 04 ,he rema9$ at ,v5ice = "s mon?s2 & ?ree ?+s 7 rem>k$ 9 8 conduct4 ,! fir/ 01 t he _h a small collection ( f9e pictures1 :i* he readily %[$ to any body t desir$ x2 ! next1 t he 0 p]fectly v]s$ 9 all arts & sci5ces1 & spoke on e subject ) su* read9ess & sagacity1 z a/oni%$ all :o he>d him2 & x 01 9 ! ?ird place1 obs]v$1 t he nev] wrote or receiv$ any lett]1 nev] desir$ any cr$it1 or made use ( bills ( ex*ange1 b paid = e ?+ 9 ready money & liv$ dec5tly1 ?\gh n 9 spl5d\r4 8,?is g5tleman met "o day at ! c(fee-h\se ) a ,v5etian nobleman1 :o 0 an extraord9>y good judge ( pictures3 he _h he>d ( signor ,gualdi's collection1 & 9 a v polite mann] desir$ to see !m1 to :i* ! o!r v readily cons5t$4 ,aft] ! ,v5etian _h view$ signor ,gualdi's collection1 & express$ 8 satisfaction1 by tell+ him t he _h nev] se5 a f9]1 consid]+ ! numb] ( pieces ( :i* x consi/$2 he ca/ 8 eye by *ance ov] ! *amb]-door1 :]e hung a picture ( ?is /rang]4 ,! ,v5etian look$ ^u x1 & !n ^u him4 #8,?is picture 0 drawn = y1 sir1' says he to signor ,gualdi1 to :i* ! o!r made no answ]1 b by a l[ b[4 #8,y look1' cont9u$ ! ,v5etian1 #8l a man ( fifty1 & yet ,i "k ?is picture to be ( ! h& ( ,titian1 :o has be5 dead "o hundr$ & ?irty ye>s1 h[ is ?is possible8'--#8,x is n easy1' said signor ,gualdi1 gravely1 #8to "k all ?+s t are possible2 b !re is c]ta9ly no crime 9 my be+ l a picture drawn by ,titian4' ,! ,v5etian easily p]ceiv$1 by 8 mann] ( speak+1 t he _h giv5 ! /rang] (f5ce1 & !re=e took 8 leave4 8,he c\ld n =be> speak+ ( ?is 9 ! ev5+ to "s ( 8 fri5ds1 :o resolv$ to satisfy !mselves by look+ ^u ! picture ! next day4 ,9 ord] to h an opportunity ( do+ s1 !y w5t to ! c(fee-h\se ab\t ! "t t signor ,gualdi 0 wont to come ?i!r2 & n meet+ ) him1 "o ( !m1 :o _h (t5 conv]s$ ) him1 w5t to 8 lodg+s to enquire aft] him1 :]e he he>d1 t he _h set out an h\r be=e = ,vi5na4 ,?is affair made a great noise1 & f\nd a place 9 all ! newspap]s ( t "t40#a ,x is well kn[n t ! philosoph]'s /one1 ! art ( transmut+ metals into gold1 & ! elixir vit1 :i* 0 to re/ore y\?1 & make him t possess$ x immortal2 =m$ a pr9cipal object ( ! /udies ( ! curi\s = c5turies4 ,_m /ories1 beside ?is ( signor ,gualdi1 h be5 told1 ( p]sons :o 7 suppos$ to be 9 possession ( ^? wond]ful secrets1 9 se>* ( :i* hundr$s ( un=tunate adv5tur]s wa/$ _! =tunes & _! lives4 ,x has be5 said ( ,%akespe>1 t he ,exhau/$ worlds1 & !n imag9$ new#b3 b ! bur!n su/a9$ by ,%akespe> 0 too heavy = ! %\ld]s ( any o!r individual4 ,i leave ! fir/ "p ( ! task above m5tion$ to be divid$ among ^? celebrat$ noveli/s1 liv+ & dead1 :o h attempt$ to del9eate ! sc5es ( real life4 ,9 ?is little "w ,i h endeav\r$ to ga9 foot+ 9 "o neglect$ track ( ! latt] prov9ce4 ,! he>ts & ! curiosity ( read]s h be5 assail$ 9 s _m ways1 t we1 writ]s :o br+ up ! re> ( our illu/ri\s pr$ecessors1 mu/ be cont5t$ to arrive at novelty 9 :atev] mode we are able4 ,! f\ndation ( ! foll[+ tale is su* z1 x is n to be suppos$1 ev] exi/$4 ,b1 if ,i h mix$ human feel+s & passions ) incr$ible situations1 & ?us r5d]$ !m impressive & int]e/+1 ,i %all ent]ta9 "s hope to be p>don$ ! boldness & irregul>ity ( my design4 ,"s read]s ( my grav] productions w p]haps1 9 p]us+ ^! little volumes1 accuse me ( inconsi/5cy2 ! affections & *>ities ( private life be+ e :]e 9 ?is publication a topic ( ! w>me/ eulogium1 :ile 9 ! ,enquiry conc]n+ ,political ,ju/ice !y seem$ to be treat$ ) no great degree ( indulg5ce & fav\r4 ,9 answ] to ?is objection1 all ,i ?9k x necess>y to say on ! pres5t occasion is1 t1 = m ?an f\r ye>s1 ,i h be5 anxi\s = opportunity & leisure to modify "s ( ! e>li] *apt]s ( t "w 9 con=mity to ! s5tim5ts inculcat$ 9 ?is4 ,n t ,i see cause to make any *ange respect+ ! pr9ciple ( ju/ice1 or any ?+ else fundam5tal to ! sy/em !re deliv]$2 b t ,i appreh5d dome/ic & private affections insep>able f ! nature ( man1 & f :at may be /yl$ ! culture ( ! he>t1 & am fully p]suad$ t !y are n incompatible ) a pr(\nd & active s5se ( ju/ice 9 ! m9d ( him t *]i%es !m4 ,true wisdom w recomm5d to u individual atta*m5ts2 = ) !m our m9ds are m ?or\ghly ma9ta9$ 9 activity & life ?an !y c be "u ! privation ( !m2 & x is bett] t man %\ld be a liv+ be+1 ?an a /ock or a /one4 ,true virtue w sanction ?is recomm5dation2 s9ce x is ! object ( virtue to produce happ9ess1 & s9ce ! man :o lives 9 ! mid/ ( dome/ic relations w h _m opportunities ( conf]r+ pleasure1 m9ute 9 ! detail1 yet n trivial 9 ! am\nt1 )\t int]f]+ ) ! purposes ( g5]al b5evol5ce4 ,nay1 by k9dl+ 8 s5sibility1 & h>monis+ 8 s\l1 !y may be expect$1 if he is end[$ ) a lib]al & manly _s1 to r5d] him m prompt 9 ! s]vice ( /rang]s & ! public4 ,nov4 #bf1 #agii4 ,,travels ,,( ,,/4 ,,leon4 ,,*apt] ,i4 ,!re is no?+ t human imag9ation c figure brilliant & enviable1 t human g5ius & skill d n aspire to realize4 ,9 ! e>ly ages ( antiquity1 "o ( ! fav\rite topics ( speculation 0 a p]fect sy/em ( civil policy2 & no soon] _h ,plato del9eat$ 8 imag9>y republic1 ?an he s\ght = a spot ( e>? ^u :i* to execute 8 plan4 ,9 my own times1 & = upw>ds ( a c5tury be=e !m1 ! subject :i* has *iefly occupi$ m5 ( intrepid & p]sev]+ /udy1 has be5 ! great secret ( nature1 ! opus magnum1 9 its two gr& & insep>able bran*es1 ! art ( multiply+ gold1 & ( defy+ ! inroads ( infirmity & dea?4 ,x is notori\s t uncommon tal5ts & unp>allel$ indu/ry h be5 engag$ 9 ?is mighty task4 ,x has1 ,i "k1 be5 disput$ by ! audaci\s adv]s>ies ( all sob] & reasonable evid5ce1 :e!r ^! tal5ts & indu/ry h 9 any case atta9$ ! object !y s\ght4 ,x is n to my purpose to asc]ta9 ! numb] ( ^? ^: victory ov] ! p[]s & in]tness ( matt] has be5 complete4 ,x is en\gh t ,i am a liv+ in/ance ( ! exi/5ce ( su* m54 ,to ^! two secrets1 if !y are to be consid]$ z two1 ,i h be5 = ye>s 9 ! habit ( resort+ = my gratification4 ,i h 9 my possession ! *oice ( be+ z weal?y z ,i please1 & ! gift ( immortal life4 ,e ?+ t ,i see almo/1 ,i c )\t difficulty make my own2 = :at palaces1 pictures1 p>ks or g>d5s1 r>ities ( art or nature1 h n a price at :i* _! own] w cons5t to yield !m8 ,! luxuries ( e qu>t] ( ! _w are empti$ at my feet4 ,i c comm&1 to an ext5t almo/ inconceivable1 ! passions ( m54 ,:at he>t c )/& ! assault ( pr9cely magnific5ce8 ,:at man is inaccessible to a bribe8 ,add to ^! advantages1 t ,i am invuln]able to disease4 ,e sun t rises1 f9ds ! circulations ( my frame 9 ! mo/ p]fect ord]4 ,decrepitude c nev] approa* me4 ,a ?\s& w9t]s want ! p[] to furr[ my c\nt5ance ) wr9kles1 or turn my hairs to silv]4 ,exhau/less weal? & et]nal y\? are ! attributes by :i* ,i am di/+ui%$ f ! re/ ( mank9d4 ,i d n sit d[n n[ to write a treatise ( natural philosophy4 ,! condition by :i* ,i hold my privileges is1 t !y mu/ nev] be imp>t$4 ,i sit d[n purely to relate a few ( ^? extraord9>y ev5ts t h be5 produc$1 9 ! p]iod ( my life :i* is already elaps$1 by ! circum/ances & ! peculi>ity to :i* ,i h j allud$4 ,x is s obvi\s1 z to make x almo/ improp] to specify x1 t ! pursuit 9 :i* s _m ( my contempor>ies are engag$1 & ! end ( :i* ,i h s s+ul>ly a*iev$1 is 9 its appe>ance inf9itely m gr& & int]e/+ ?an t :i* occupi$ ! ?\ghts ( ,plato & ! mo/ em95t writ]s ( antiquity4 ,:at is political lib]ty comp>$ ) unb\nd$ ri*es & immortal vig\r8 ,! imm$iate application ( political lib]ty is1 to r5d] a man's patrimony or ! fruits ( 8 indu/ry completely 8 own1 & to pres]ve !m f ! invasion ( o!rs4 ,b ! petty detail ( pres]vation or gradual acquisition c nev] ent] into competition ) ! great secret1 :i* end[s a man 9 a mom5t ) e ?+ t ! human he>t c wi%4 ,consid]$ 9 ?is light1 h[ mean & contemptible does ! ambition ( ! boa/$ anci5ts appe>1 comp>$ ) ours8 ,:at adept or probation] ( ! pres5t day w\ld be cont5t to resign ! /udy ( ,god & ! pr(\nd] secrets ( nature1 & to b\nd 8 ard\r to ! inve/igation ( 8 own mis]able exi/5ce8 ,x may seem p]haps to _m1 t ! hi/ory ( a p]son possess$ ( advantages s unp>allel$ z m9e1 mu/ be1 l ! hi/ory ( p>adise1 or ( ! future happ9ess ( ! bless$1 too calm & motionless1 too mu* ( "o inv>iable texture & exempt f vicissitude1 to excite ! att5tion or int]e/ ! passions ( ! read]4 ,if he w h pati5ce1 & apply to ! p]usal ( my n>rative1 he w 9 no long "t p]ceive h[ f> 8 conjecture is f\nd$ 9 sagacity & reason4 ,"s p]sons may be curi\s to "k :at motives c h induc$ a man ( su* enorm\s weal?1 & s e way qualifi$ to revel 9 delights1 to take ! tr\ble ( p5n+ 8 memoirs4 ,! immortality ) :i* ,i am end[$ seems to put out ( ! "q ! common motives t relate to po/hum\s fame4 ,! curiosity "h m5tion$1 if x really exi/s1 ,i _c cons5t to gratify4 ,i w anticipate no?+4 ,9 ! progress ( my /ory1 my motive = record+ x w probably become evid5t4 ,i am desc5d$ f "o ( ! mo/ anci5t & hon\rable families ( ! k+dom ( ,france4 ,i 0 ! only *ild ( my fa!r1 :o di$ :ile ,i 0 an infant4 ,my "m 0 a woman ( r a mascul9e und]/&+1 & full ( ! prejudices ( nobility & magnific5ce4 ,h] :ole s\l 0 9 a mann] conc5trat$ 9 ! ambition to r5d] me ! wor?y successor ( ! c\nts de ,/4 ,leon1 :o _h figur$ ) di/+ui%$ reputation 9 ! w>s ( ! ,holy ,l&4 ,my fa!r _h di$ fight+ gallantly 9 ! pla9s ( ,italy "u ! /&>d ( ,l\is ! ,twelf?2 a pr9ce ^: "n 0 nev] repeat$ to me unaccompani$ ) ! praises due to 8 milit>y pr[ess1 & to ! s+ul> humanity ( disposition by :i* he acquir$ ! title ( ,! fa!r ( 8 p4 ,my "m's m9d 0 inflam$ ) ! greatness ( my ance/ors1 & %e indefatigably s\ght to k9dle 9 my bosom a simil> flame4 ,x has be5 a long-e/abli%$ cu/om = ! b>ons & feudal vassals ( ! k+s ( ,france to ent] ) great p]sonal exp5se into ! brilliant & dazzl+ exp$itions ( _! sov]eigns2 & my fa!r greatly impair$ 8 =tune 9 prep>ations = t v campaign 9 :i* he t]m9at$ 8 life4 ,my "m indu/ri\sly appli$ h]self to ! re/oration ( my patrimony2 & ! long p]iod ( my m9ority af=d$ h] scope = t purpose4 ,x 0 impossible = any boy to be treat$ ) m k9dness & consid]ate indulg5ce ?an ,i 0 dur+ ! p]iod ( my adolesc5ce4 ,my "m lov$ me to ! v utmo/ limits p]haps ( human affection4 ,i 0 h] d>l+ & h] pride1 h] wak+ /udy1 & h] nightly dream4 ,yet ,i 0 n pamp]$ into corporeal imbecility1 or suff]$ to ru/ 9 inactivity ( m9d4 ,i 0 provid$ ) ! be/ ma/]s4 ,i 0 excit$1 & successfully excit$1 zeal\sly to apply myself to ! lessons !y taught4 ,i became intimately acqua9t$ ) ! ,italian writ]s ( ! twelf? & ?irte5? c5turies4 ,i 0 initiat$ 9 ! /udy ( ! classics1 to ! cultivation ( :i* ! revival ( lett]s at ?is "t gave p>ticul> ard\r4 ,i 0 in/ruct$ 9 ! pr9ciples ( ! f9e arts4 ,!re 0 no species ( accompli%m5t at t "t 9 vogue1 t my "m 0 n anxi\s ,i %\ld make my own4 ,! only sci5ce ,i neglect$ 0 ! v sci5ce :i* has s9ce giv5 rise to ! mo/ extraord9>y ev5ts ( my life4 ,b ! object to :i* my att5tion 0 pr9cipally call$1 0 ! pursuit ( milit>y ex]cises1 & ! cultivation ( e ?+ t c\ld add to ! /r5g?1 agility1 or grace ( my body1 & to ! adv5tur\sness & ent]prise ( my m9d4 ,my "m lov$ my hon\r & my fame m ?an %e lov$ my p]son4 ,a circum/ance t t5d$ p]haps m ?an any o!r to fix ! yet fluctuat+ "* ( my y\?ful m9d1 0 my be+ pres5t z a spectator at ! celebrat$ meet+ betwe5 ,francis ! ,fir/ & ,h5ry ! ,eigh?1 k+ ( ,engl&1 9 a field betwe5 ,ardres & ,gu9es4 ,my "m refus$ to accompany me1 be+ already arriv$ at an age 9 :i* curiosity & ! love ( fe/ive sc5es are usually dim9i%$1 & ! exp5ses incurr$ by all ! nobility :o att5d$ ^u ?is sc5e be+ incompatible ) ! economy to :i* %e rigidly adh]$4 ,i 0 !re=e plac$ "u ! protection ( ! ,m>quis de ,vill]oy1 h] bro!r1 &1 ) two s]vants :o att5d$ me1 =m$ a "p ( 8 suite4 ,i 0 at ?is "t fifte5 ye>s ( age4 ,my contemplations _h be5 famili> ) ideas ( magnific5ce & gr&eur1 b my life _h be5 sp5t 9 ! mo/ seque/]$ retirem5t4 ,?is contra/ _h a p>ticul> effect ^u my disposition2 x irritat$ to a v high degree my passion = spl5d\r & di/9ction2 ,i liv$ 9 ! fairy fields ( vision>y greatness1 & 0 m ?an indiff]5t to ! major "p ( ! objects ar\nd me4 ,i p9$ = e ?+ ! rev]se ( my pres5t condition2 ,i cultivat$ ! ex]cises 9 :i* ,i 0 engag$1 only z !y 7 calculat$ to prep>e me = future a*ievem5ts4 ,by ! incid5t ,i h m5tion$1 ,i 0 transport$ at once f a sc5e ( mode/ obscurity1 to a sc5e ( ! mo/ lavi% spl5d\r t ! _w p]haps ev] contemplat$4 ,i nev] rememb]$ to h se5 ev5 ,p>is itself4 ,! prevail+ ta/e ( ,europe has = "s "t l$ v mu* to co/l9ess 9 dress4 ,?is ta/e1 9 its pres5t pr(usion1 ,i believe took its rise 9 ! field ( ! ,vale ( ,ardres4 ,! two k+s 7 bo? 9 ! vig\r ( _! y\?1 & 7 said to be ! h&some/ m5 ( ! age 9 :i* !y liv$4 ,! beauty ( ,h5ry 0 /urdy & muscul>2 t ( ,francis m ref9$ & elegant1 )\t subtract+ 9 any consid]able degree f ! firmness ( 8 make4 ,h5ry 0 f\r ye>s old] ?an 8 bro!r mon>*4 ,! fir/ ( !m might h be5 tak5 z a model to repres5t a y\?ful ,h]cules1 & ! la/ an ,apollo4 ,! spl5d\r ( dress t 0 worn ^u ?is occasion exce$s almo/ all cr$ibility4 ,e p]son ( di/9ction might be said 9 a mann] to c>ry an e/ate ^u 8 %\ld]s2 nor 0 ! v>iety ( g>m5ts inf]ior to ! ri*ness4 ,wolsey1 a man ^: magnific5ce ( disposition 0 only surpass$ by ! pride ( 8 s\l1 0 = ! mo/ "p ! director ( ! :ole4 ,he possess$ ! mo/ absolute asc5dancy ov] ! m9d ( 8 ma/]1 at ! same "t t ,francis artfully indulg$ 8 caprice1 t he might claim f him 9 return a simil> indulg5ce 9 weighti] matt]s4 ,! pomp ( processions1 & ! c]emony ( op5+ ?is memorable fe/ival1 w5t fir/2 a sort ( solemn & half-mov+ pageant1 :i* ! eye took 9 at leisure1 & took 9 till x 0 fill$4 ,?is 0 succe$$ by e ?+ t 0 rapid1 animat$1 & int]e/+3 masques & exhibitions ( all k9ds2 &1 :i* 0 /ill m to me1 & :i* my s\l dev\r$ ) indescribable ard\r1 j\/+s1 tilts1 & t\rnam5ts )\t end4 ,! beauty ( ! arm\r1 ! cap>isons ( ! /e$s1 ! mettle ( ! animals !mselves1 & ! ard\r & grace ( ! combatants1 surpass$ e ?+ t my fancy _h ev] pa9t$4 ,^! sc5es 7 act$ 9 ! mid/ ( a va/ amphi!atre ( spectators1 :]e all t 0 noble & em95t ( ei!r c\ntry 0 assembl$--! manl9ess ( aspir+ y\?1 & ! b\ndless v>ieties ( female attraction4 ,all 7 9 _! gaye/ attire2 e eye 0 light$ up ) complac5cy & joy4 ,if ,h]aclitus1 or any o!r morose philosoph] :o has expatiat$ on ! univ]sal mis]y ( mank9d1 _h ent]$ ! field ( ,ardres1 he mu/ h retract$ 8 ass]tions1 or fl$ f ! sc5e ) confusion4 ,! k+s 7 plac$ at ei!r end ( ! li/s1 surr\nd$ ) _! c\rti]s4 ,e eye ?r\gh ?is va/ assembly 0 fix$ ^u ! combatants2 ! body ( e "o pres5t 0 incl9$ ?is way or t1 9 unconsci\s sympa?y ) ! r$\bt$ knights4 ,f "t to "t1 z ! fav\rites ( ei!r p>ty prevail$1 ! air 0 r5t ) %\ts & acclamations4 ,:at add$ to ! fasc9ation ( all t ,i h yet m5tion$1 0 t n[1 = ! fir/ "t 9 an equal degree p]haps = c5turies1 ! /iffness ( unwieldy =m 0 laid aside1 & ! he>t ( man exp&$ itself ) g5]osity & confid5ce4 ,x bur/ ! fett]s ( ages2 &1 hav+ bur/ !m1 x seem$ to revel 9 its new-f\nd lib]ty4 ,x is well kn[n t1 aft] a few days ( idle precaution & speci\s imprisonm5t on bo? sides1 ,francis "o morn+ m\nt$ 8 horse1 & appe>$1 )\t gu>ds or any previ\s notice1 be=e ! t5t ( ,h5ry4 ,! example 0 contagi\s1 & f ?is "t all c]emony 0 laid aside4 ,! k+s !mselves ent]$ p]sonally into ! combats ( _! subjects4 ,x 0 a delightful & a ravi%+ spectacle1 to witness ! fre$om ( ! old ,roman mann]s1 almo/ ( ! old ,roman ,saturnalia1 poli%$ & ref9$ ) all t 0 graceful & humane 9 ! age ( *ivalry4 ,x may easily be imag9$ :at an effect a sc5e l ?is 0 calculat$ to produce ^u a y\? ( my age & my education4 ,i recollect$ ) angui% t ! immaturity ( my ye>s preclud$ me f tak+ any active "p 9 ! spectacle4 ,my appe>ance h[ev] 0 suffici5tly advantage\s4 ,i 0 pres5t$ to ,francis ! ,fir/4 ,he did me ! hon\r to "q me respect+ my /udies2 &1 f9d+ 9 me "s k ( ^? arts & t lit]ature1 ( :i* he 0 himself s zeal\s a fav\r]1 he express$ to my uncle a great satisfaction ) my figure & acquisitions4 ,i might f ?is "t h be5 tak5 to c\rt1 & made "o ( ! pages to ?is illu/ri\s mon>*4 ,b ! plan ( my "m 0 diff]5t4 ,%e did n wi% = ! pres5t t my eye %\ld be satiat$ ) public sc5es1 or t ! public %\ld gr[ too famili>ly acqua9t$ ) my p]son4 ,%e rightly judg$ t my passion = ! !atre ( glory w\ld gr[ m impetu\s1 by be+ )held = "s "t f ! gratifications = :i* x pant$4 ,%e wi%$ t ,i %\ld pres5t myself = ! fir/ "t among ! nobility ( ,france an accompli%$ cavali]1 & n suff] ! disadvantage ( hav+ expos$ 9 ! eye ( ! _w ^? false /eps & frailties1 f :i* ! inexp]i5ce ( y\? is nev] entirely free4 ,^! motives be+ expla9$ to ! k+1 he 0 graci\sly pleas$ to sanction !m ) 8 approbation4 ,i accord+ly return$ to f9i% ! c\rse ( my education at my pat]nal *teau ^u ! banks ( ! ,g>onne4 ,! /ate ( my m9d dur+ ! ?ree succe$+ ye>s amply ju/ifi$ ! sagacity ( my "m4 ,i 0 m eag] = improvem5t ?an ,i _h ev] yet be54 ,i _h be=e =m$ "s conceptions ( ! c>e] ( hon\r f ! books ,i _h read1 & f ! conv]sation ( ?is excell5t matron4 ,b my rev]ies 7 impot5t & little1 comp>$ ) :at ,i _h n[ se54 ,l ! au?or ( our holy religion1 ,i _h sp5t my =ty days )\t food 9 ! wild]ness1 :5 sudd5ly my eyes 7 op5$1 & ,i 0 pres5t$ ) all ! k+doms ( ! _w1 & all ! glory ( !m4 ,! fairy sc5e cont9u$ = a mom5t1 & !n vani%$2 leav+ no?+ beh9d x on all sides1 b ! same b>r5ness & gloom by :i* x _h be5 prec$$4 ,i nev] %ut my eyes )\t view+ 9 imag9ation ! combats ( knights & ! tra9 ( ladies4 ,i _h be5 reg>d$ ) di/9ction by my sov]eign2 & ,francis ! ,fir/ /ood be=e my m9d ! ab/ract & model ( p]fection & greatness4 ,i congratulat$ myself ^u be+ born 9 an age & c\ntry s fav\rable to ! acquisition ( all t my s\l desir$4 ,i 0 already eighte5 ye>s ( age1 :5 ,i exp]i5c$ ! fir/ mis=tune t ev] befel me4 ,x 0 ! dea? ( my "m4 ,%e felt ! approa* ( h] dissolution sev]al weeks be=e x arriv$1 & held repeat$ conv]sations ) me1 respect+ ! feel+s ,i ought to ent]ta91 & ! conduct x w\ld become me to pursue1 :5 %e %\ld be no m4 8,my son10 said %e1 8y\r "*1 & ! promise ( y\r e>ly ye>s1 h con/itut$ my only consolation s9ce ! dea? ( y\r excell5t fa!r4 ,our m>riage 0 ! result ( a mo/ s9c]e & exclusive atta*m5t2 & nev] did man m des]ve to be lov$ ?an ,reg9ald de ,/4 ,leon4 ,:5 he di$1 ! :ole _w w\ld h be5 no?+ to me b "o va/ blank1 if he _h n left beh9d him ! repres5tative ( 8 p]son1 & ! heir to 8 virtues4 ,:ile ,i 0 busi$ 9 y\r education1 ,i seem$ to be dis*>g+ ! la/ duty to ! memory ( my husb&4 ,! occupation 0 sacr$ to ! hon\r ( ! dead1 ev5 be=e x became s peculi>ly pleas+ to me ^u its own acc\nt1 z ,i aft]w>ds f\nd x4 ,i hope ,i h 9 "s measure dis*>g$ ! task1 9 ! mann] 9 :i* my "l y\r fa!r w\ld h wi%$ x to h be5 dis*>g$1 if he _h liv$4 ,i am ?ankful to ,heav51 t ,i h be5 sp>$ s long = s de> & hon\rable a purpose4 8,y mu/ n[1 my son1 /& by y\rself1 & be ! arbitrator ( y\r own actions4 ,i c\ld h wi%$ t ?is necessity might h be5 a little fur!r def]r$2 b ,i tru/ y\r education has n be5 ( t sort :i* is calculat$ to r5d] a "y man helpless & contemptible4 ,y h be5 taught to "k y\r rank 9 society1 & to respect y\rself4 ,y h be5 in/ruct$ 9 e ?+ t might mo/ effectually =w>d y 9 ! c>e] ( glory4 ,!re is n a "y cavali] among all ! nobility ( ,france m accompli%$1 or t promises to d great] hon\r to 8 "n & 8 c\ntry4 ,i %all n live to witness ! p]=mance ( ?is promise1 b ! anticipation ev5 n[1 p\rs a long /ream ( sun%9e on my dep>t+ h\r4 8,f>ewell1 my son6 ,y no long] /& 9 ne$ ( my mat]nal c>e4 ,:5 ,i am gone1 y w be compell$ m vividly to feel t s+l5ess & self-dep5d5ce :i* are ! s\rce ( all virtue4 ,be c>eful ( y\rself4 ,be c>eful t y\r c>e] may be bo? spotless & illu/ri\s4 ,hold y\r life z a ?+ ( no acc\nt1 :5 x ent]s into competition ) y\r fame4 ,a true knight ?9ks no sacrifice & suff]+ h>d1 t hon\r dem&s4 ,be humane1 g5tle1 g5]\s1 & intrepid4 ,be prompt to foll[ :]ev] y\r duty calls y4 ,rememb] y\r ance/ors1 knights ( ! ,holy ,cross4 ,rememb] y\r fa!r4 ,foll[ y\r k+1 :o is ! mirror ( val\r3 & be ev] ready = ! s]vice ( ! di/ress$4 ,may ,provid5ce be y\r gu>dian4 ,may ,heav5 %[] d[n a ?\s& bless+s1 ^u y\r innoc5ce1 & ! gallantry ( y\r s\l60 ,! dea? ( my "m 0 a sev]e bl[ to my he>t4 ,= "s "t all ! visions ( greatness & r5[n :i* _h hi!rto be5 my *os5 delight appe>$ di/a/eful to me4 ,i hung ov] h] ins5sible corpse4 ,:5 x _h be5 committ$ to ! e>?1 ,i repair$ e day to ! spot :]e x 0 deposit$1 at ! h\r ( dusk1 :5 all visible objects fad$ f ! eye1 :5 nature assum$ h] sadde/ t9ts1 & ! :ole _w seem$ ab\t to be wrapp$ 9 ! d>kness ( ! tomb4 ,! dew ( night drizzl$ unhe$$ on my head2 & ,i did n turn aga9 t[>ds ! turrets ( ! *teau1 till ! h\r ( midnight _h already s\nd$ ?r\gh ! /illness ( ! sc5e4 ,"t is ! heal] ( almo/ e grief1 p>ticul>ly 9 ! sprightly season ( e>ly y\?4 ,9 no long p]iod ,i *ang$ ! oppression ( inactive sorr[1 = ! affectionate & pi\s recollection ( my "m's la/ in/ructions4 ,i _h be5 too deeply imbu$ ) s5tim5ts ( glory1 = x to be possible1 :5 ! fir/ excess ( grief 0 ov]1 t ,i %\ld rema9 9 indol5ce4 ,! t5d] remembrance ( my "m itself1 9 no long "t1 furni%$ a new /imulus to my ambition4 ,i =got ! melan*oly spectacle ( ! la/ /ruggles ( h] expir+ life2 ,i ev5 became accu/om$ no long] to he> h] voice1 no long] to expect h] pres5ce1 :5 ,i return$ to ! *teau f a %ort excursion4 ,h] la/ advice 0 n[ all t surviv$ ( ! au?or ( my exi/5ce4 ,,*apt] ,,ii4 ,i 0 9 ?is /ate ( m9d1 :5 e>ly "o morn+ 9 ! beg9n+ ( summ]1 soon aft] ,i rose1 ,i 0 />tl$ by ! s\nd ( trumpets 9 ! pla9 ne> ! *teau4 ,! bugle at ! gate 0 pres5tly s\nd$2 ! drawbridge 0 let d[n2 & ! ,m>quis de ,vill]oy ent]$ ! c\rt-y>d1 accompani$ by ab\t ?irty knights 9 complete arm\r4 ,i salut$ him ) respect1 & ! t5d]ness excit$ by rec5t grief4 ,he took me by ! h&1 aft] a %ort repa/ 9 ! hall1 & l$ me to my closet4 8,my son10 said he1 8x is "t to ?r[ (f ! effem9acy ( sorr[1 & to prove y\rself a true soldi] ( ! /&>d ( ,france40 8,i tru/1 my "l10 repli$ ,i1 ) mode/ e>ne/ness1 8t y well "k1 !re is no?+ aft] :i* my he>t s ard5tly aspires4 ,!re is no?+ t ,i "k wor? liv+ = b hon\r4 ,%[ me ! pa? t leads to x1 or r %[ me ! occasion t af=ds scope = ! love ( hon\r to display itself1 & y %all !n see :e!r ,i am backw>d to embrace x4 ,i h a passion p5t up )9 me1 t fe$s ^u my vitals3 x disda9s spee*2 x burns = some?+ m unambigu\s & sub/antial40 8,x is well10 rejo9$ my uncle4 8,i expect$ to f9d y ?us4 ,y\r reply to my admonition is wor?y ( ! blood ( y\r ance/ors1 & ( ! mat]nal in/ructions ( my si/]4 ,&1 7 y z dull z ! v /ones y tread on1 :at ,i h to tell y might ev5 !n r\se y into animation & ard\r40 ,aft] ?is %ort preface my uncle proce$$ to relate a tale1 e ^w ( :i* inflam$ my spirits1 & rais$ all my passions 9 arms4 ,i _h he>d some?+ imp]fectly ( ! /ate ( my c\ntry2 b my "m c>efully kept me 9 ignorance1 t my ambition might n be excit$ too soon1 & t1 :5 excit$1 x might be ) ! fulle/ effect4 ,:ile ,i impati5tly long$ = an occasion ( glory1 ,i 0 f> f appreh5d+1 :at ,i n[ f\nd to be true1 t ! occasion :i* at ?is p]iod pres5t$ itself1 0 su*1 t all ! lic5ce ( fiction c\ld sc>cely h improv$ x4 ,! ,m>quis de ,vill]oy describ$ to me ! league n[ subsi/+ aga9/ ,france4 ,he reviv$ 9 my memory1 by t]ms ( ! mo/ f]v5t loyalty1 ! accompli%m5ts & tal5ts ( my royal ma/]4 ,he spoke ) av]sion ( ! phlegmatic & crafty disposition ( 8 imp]ial rival#c2 &1 ) ! language ( gl[+ indignation1 inveigh$ aga9/ ! fickl5ess ( ! caprici\s ,h5ry4#d ,he describ$ ! tra9 ( disa/]s1 :i* _h at l5g? induc$ ! k+ to take ! field 9 p]son4 ,he contra/$1 ) great effect1 ! /ory ( ! gallant ,*evali] ,bay>d1 ! knight )\t fe> & )\t reproa*1 ^: blood 0 /ill fre% 9 ! pla9s ( ! ,milanese1 ) t ( ! ,con/able ( ,b\rbon1 ! /a9 ( *ivalry1 :om +lori\s res5tm5t & ungov]n$ ambition _h urg$ to jo9 ! enemies ( 8 c\ntry1 9 neglect ( 8 loyalty & 8 oa?4 ,he /imulat$ me by ! example ( ! "o1 & ! infamy ( ! o!r2 & assur$ me t !re nev] 0 an opportunity m fav\rable = acquir+ immortal r5[n4 ,i want$ no prompt] 9 a passion ( ?is sort2 & imm$iately set ab\t collect+ ! :ole =ce ( my cli5ts & reta9]s4 ,i %ook (f ! +lori\s s(tness ( my melan*oly1 & 0 all activity & animation4 ,! lessons ( my y\? 7 n[ call$ into play4 ,i judg$ x necess>y to invite ! assi/ance ( "s p]son ( exp]i5ce to assi/ me 9 m>%all+ my m52 b ,i did mu* ( :at 0 to be done myself1 & ,i did x well4 ,x 0 my fir/ employm5t 9 ! morn+3 & ! la/ t 0 witness$ by ! sett+ sun4 ,my excell5t "m _h left my rev5ues 9 ! be/ ord]1 & ,i sp>$ no exp5se 9 ! gratification ( my fav\rite passion4 ,h[ev] eag] ,i felt myself to take ! field1 ! desire to appe> 9 a mann] wor?y ( a ,c\nt de ,/4 ,leon re/ra9$ me2 & ,i did n jo9 ! royal army till ! ,imp]iali/s1 hav+ brok5 up ! siege ( ,m>seilles1 & retreat$ ) precipitation into ,italy1 ! k+ _h already cross$ ! ,alps1 ent]$ ! ,milanese1 & ga9$ unconte/$ possession ( ! capital4 ,f ,milan ,francis proce$$ to ,pavia4 ,glory 0 ! idol ( 8 he>t2 & he 0 ! m p[]fully excit$ to ! attack ( t place1 because x 0 ! /ronge/ & be/ =tifi$ po/ 9 ! :ole du*y4 ,! m he display$ ( milit>y pr[ess1 ! m firmly he believ$ he %\ld fix himself 9 8 newly acquir$ dom9ions2 ! inhabitants w\ld submit to him ! m will+ly1 & ! enemy be less enc\rag$ to ent] into a fre% cont5tion = :at he _h acquir$4 ,su* at lea/ 7 ! motives t he assign$ = 8 proce$+s3 9 reality p]haps he 0 pr9cipally induc$ by ! brilliancy :i* he conceiv$ w\ld att5d on ! und]tak+4 ,x 0 a few weeks aft] ! op5+ ( ! siege1 t ,i pres5t$ myself to my royal ma/]4 ,he receiv$ me ) ^? w9n+ & impressive mann]s by :i* he 0 s em95tly di/+ui%$4 ,he recollect$ imm$iately all t _h pass$ at our int]view 9 ! ,vale ( ,ardres1 & w>mly express$ ! obligations :i* ,france _h at v>i\s times ow$ to my ance/ors4 ,he spoke ) e>ne/ respect ( ! virtues & wisdom ( my "m1 & comm5d$ ! resolution by :i* %e _h 9 =m] in/ances held me back f ! public !atre4 8,"y g5tleman10 said ! k+1 8,i d\bt n ! gallantry ( y\r _s2 ,i see ! impati5ce ( a m>tial temp] writt5 9 y\r face3 ,i expect y to act 9 a mann] wor?y ( y\r illu/ri\s race1 & ( ! in/ructions ( a woman :o des]v$ to be h]self a patt]n to all ! matrons ( ,france4 ,fe> n t ,i %all suff] y\r accompli%m5ts to ru/ 9 obscurity4 ,i %all employ y4 ,i %all assign y ! po/ ( dang] & ( r5[n4 ,fill x nobly2 & f t h\r ,i %all rank y 9 ! catalogue ( my *os5 fri5ds40 ,! siege ( ,pavia prov$ inde$ to be a transaction1 9 ! c\rse ( :i* milit>y hon\r might well be acquir$4 ,x 0 def5d$ by a small1 b vet]an g>rison1 & by "o ( ! able/ capta9s t ,europe at t "t possess$4#e ,he int]rupt$ ! approa*es ( ! besieg]s by frequ5t & furi\s sallies4 ,9 va91 by ! aid ( our excell5t artill]y1 did we make wide & repeat$ brea*es 9 ! =tifications4 ,no soon] did we attempt to ent] by ! passage we _h op5$1 ?an we f\nd ourselves enc\nt]$ by a body compos$ ( ! *oice/ & brave/ soldi]s ( ! g>rison4 ,! gov]nor ( ! city1 :o1 ?\gh grey-head$ & advanc$ 9 ye>s1 0 pr(use ( e y\?ful ex]tion1 0 ord9>ily at ! head ( ?is body4 ,if we def]r$ our attack1 or1 n hav+ succe$$ 9 x1 propos$ to comm5ce x anew ) ! dawn ( ! foll[+ day1 we 7 sure to f9d a new wall sprung up 9 ! room ( ! o!r1 z if by en*antm5t4 ,frequ5tly ! gov]nor anticipat$ ! success ( our batt]ies2 & ! old =tification 0 no soon] demoli%$1 ?an we beheld1 to our a/oni%m5t & mortification1 a new wall1 :i* 8 prud5ce & skill _h erect$ at a small int]val )9 ! l9e ( ! =m]4 ,"o ( ^! attacks took place on ! second day aft] my arrival at ! camp ( our sov]eign4 ,e ?+ t ,i saw 0 new to me1 & inflam$ me ) ard\r4 ,! noise ( ! cannon1 :i* _h prec$$ ! attack1 & :i* 0 n[ hu%$2 ! inspir+ s\nds ( m>tial music :i* succe$$ t noise2 ! /&>ds float+ 9 ! air2 ! firm & equal tread ( ! battalion t advanc$2 ! arm\r ( ! knights2 ! rugg$1 resolute1 & intrepid c\nt5ances ( ! infantry2--all swell$ my s\l ) transport hi!rto unexp]i5c$4 ,i _h beheld ! smoke ( ! artill]y1 9 ! mid/ ( :i* e ?+ 0 lo/ & conf\nd$2 ,i _h wait$ 9 awful susp5se till ! obscurity %\ld be dissipat$2 ,i saw ) pleasure & surprise ! ru9 ( ! wall1 & ! wid5ess ( ! brea*4 ,all t _h be5 record$ ( ! milit>y feats ( ,*ri/ian val\r seem$ !n to /& cr[d$ 9 my busy bra92 ! g5]osity1 ! condesc5sion1 ! k9dness1 ) :i* ! k+ _h address$ me ! day be=e1 urg$ me to treble ex]tion4 ,i 0 9 ! =emo/ rank4 ,we surm\nt$ ! dit*4 ,we 7 resi/$ by a *os5 body ( ,spani>ds4 ,! cont5tion 0 ob/9ate2 brave m51 g5]\s & ent]pris+ spirits1 fell on ! "o side & ! o!r4 ,i seiz$ ! clo? ( a /&>d1 z1 9 ! play+ ( ! w9d1 x 0 br\ght ne> to my h&4 ,betwe5 me & ! ,spani>d t held x !re ensu$ an ob/9ate /ruggle4 ,i wat*$ my opportunity1 & ) my sword sev]$ ! flag f its /aff4 ,at ?is mom5t ! trumpets ( ! k+ s\nd$ a retreat4 ,i _h receiv$ two sev]e w\nds1 "o 9 ! %\ld] & ! o!r 9 ! ?igh1 9 ! conte/4 ,i felt myself fa9t ) ! loss ( blood4 ,a ,fr5* (fic]1 ( a rude appe>ance & gigantic /ature1 acco/+ me ) ! appellation ( boy2 comm&$ me to surr5d] ! /&>d to him4 ,i refus$2 &1 to conv9ce him ,i 0 9 e>ne/1 proce$$ to wrap x r\nd my body1 & fa/5$ x "u my arm4 ,soon aft] ,i became ins5sible1 & 9 ?is situation 0 accid5tally f\nd by my uncle & 8 companions1 :o imm$iately took me & my prize "u _! c>e4 ,z soon z ,i 0 a little recov]$ ( my w\nds1 ! k+ seiz$ an opportunity1 aft] hav+ be/[$ l\d comm5dations ^u my gallantry1 ( conf]r+ ! hon\rs ( knigh?ood ^u me 9 ! face ( ! :ole army4 ,:ile our t5ts 7 pit*$ "u ! walls ( ,pavia1 ,i 0 cont9ually ext5d+ ! circle ( my acqua9tance among ! "y g5try ( ,france1 :o1 l myself1 _h att5d$ _! sov]eign 9 ?is memorable exp$ition4 ,i _h "s enemies1 made su* by ! di/9ctions ,i obta9$ dur+ ! siege4 ,b !y 7 few2 ! great] "p c\rt$ me ! m1 ! m ,i %[$ myself wor?y ( _! atta*m5t4 ,envy is n a passion t f9ds easy root 9 a ,fr5*man's bosom4 ,i 0 "o ( ! y\nge/ ( ^? :o att5d$ on ! siege2 b my bro!rs 9 arms 7 g5]\s rivals1 :o 9 ! field ob/9ately /rove ) me = sup]ior glory1 b ov] ! convivial bo>d =got _! mutual competitions1 & op5$ _! he>ts to b5evol5ce & fri5d%ip4 8,let u n10 0 a s5tim5t ,i he>d (t5 repeat$1 8=get ! object t l$ u f our pleasant homes to p\r f ! heights ( ! ,alps ^u ! fields ( ,italy4 ,x is to humble ! imp]i\s ,spani>d--to puni% ! disloyal ,b\rbon--to v9dicate ! hon\r ( our belov$ & illu/ri\s mon>*4 ,^? walls cov] ! enemy2 yond] m\nta9s s]ve to hide !m f our assault2 let no ,fr5*man mi/ake him :o m>*es "u ! same /&>d = an adv]s>y40 ,! tr5*es _h n be5 op5$ be=e ,pavia till ab\t ! beg9n+ ( ,novemb]4 ,! w9t] ov]took u1 & ! siege 0 yet 9 progress2 ) "s app>5t advantage inde$ to our side ( ! "q1 b by no means promis+ an in/ant conclusion4 ,! season set 9 ) unusual sev]ity2 & bo? (fic] & soldi] 7 glad1 z mu* z possible1 to f5ce out its rig\r by ! indulg5ces ( ! g5ial bo>d4 ,my f9ances1 z ,i h said1 7 at ! comm5cem5t ( ! exp$ition 9 excell5t ord]3 ,i _h br\ght ) me a consid]able sum2 & x 0 n sp>$ ^u ! pres5t occasion4 ,!re 7 h[ev] o!r ?+s to be att5d$ to1 beside ! dem&s ( conviviality4 ,! k+ became impati5t ( ! delays ( ! siege4 ,! g>rison & ! inhabitants 7 r$uc$ to great extremities2 b ! gov]nor discov]$ no symptoms ( a purpose to surr5d]4 ,9 ! mean "t intellig5ce 0 br\ght1 t ,b\rbon 0 mak+ ! mo/ extraord9>y ex]tions 9 ,g]many1 & promis$ to lead to ! enemy a re9=cem5t ( twelve ?\s& m5 f t c\ntry2 :ile ! imp]ial g5]als1 by mortgag+ _! rev5ues1 & pawn+ _! jewels1 & /ill m by _! eloqu5ce & influ5ce ) ^? "u _! comm&1 7 able to keep toge!r ! rema9s ( a di%e>t5$ & defeat$ army 9 expectation ( 8 arrival4 ,!re 0 "s dang] !re=e1 if ! siege 7 n spe$ily t]m9at$1 t ! k+ might ultimately be oblig$ to raise x ) ignom9y1 or to fight ! enemy "u e disadvantage4 ,francis h[ev] 0 n to be det]r$ f 8 und]tak+4 ,he swore a solemn oa?1 t ,pavia %\ld be 81 or he w\ld p]i% 9 ! attempt4 ,?us circum/anc$1 he conceiv$ a v extraord9>y project4 ,pavia is def5d$ on "o side by ! ,tes9o1 ! sc5e ( ! fir/ ( ! f\r fam\s battles by :i* ,hannibal signalis$ 8 invasion ( ,italy4 ,! k+ believ$ t if ?is riv] c\ld by ! lab\r ( 8 army be div]t$ f its c\rse1 ! t[n mu/ in/antly fall into 8 h&s4 ,he 0 enc\rag$ to ! und]tak+1 by recollect+ a /ratagem ( a simil> nature by :i* ,cyrus =m]ly made himself ma/] ( ! city ( ,babylon4 ,x 0 a ?\ght highly flatt]+ to ! gr&eur ( 8 s\l1 to imag9e t po/]ity w\ld 9 ?is in/ance in/itute a p>allel betwe5 him & ,cyrus ! ,great4 ,! plan = div]t+ ! c\rse ( ! ,tes9o produc$ a new & extraord9>y sc5e4 ,x 01 z may well be believ$1 a "w ( uncommon lab\r4 ,a new *annel 0 to be scoop$ out & deep5$2 &1 :ile ! /ream 0 turn$ into ?is *annel1 piles 7 to be sunk1 & an imm5se m\nd ( e>? creat$1 z an effectual imp$im5t to ! wat]s resum+ _! =m] c\rse4 ,?is 0 a heavy bur!n to ! soldi]1 9 addition to ! disadvantage ( be+ encamp$ dur+ ! c\rse ( a w9t] rem>kably sev]e = ! climate 9 :i* we f\ght4 ,by any o!r army ! task w\ld h be5 p]=m$ ) cl\d9ess & discont5t1 if n compla9$ ( ) rep9+ & murmurs4 ,b "h ! gaiety ( ! ,fr5* "* display$ itself4 ,! nobility ( ,france1 :o att5d$ _! sov]eign 9 great numb]s1 accompani$ ! infantry 9 _! lab\r4 ,we laid aside ! indulg5ce ( ! m>que1 ( tape/ry & c>pets2 we ?rew (f our upp] g>m5ts2 & ea* seiz$ a spade1 a b>r[ ( e>?1 or a mattock4 ,we put our h&s to ! eng9es1 & refus$ no ef=t "u pret5ce t x 0 sordid or sev]e4 ,:ile ! trees 7 leafless1 & nature appe>$ b\nd up 9 fro/1 sweat ran d[n our faces & b$ew$ our limbs4 ,! army 7 enc\rag$ by our example4 ,an employm5t :i*1 "u o!r circum/ances1 w\ld h be5 reg>d$ z rigid1 0 ?us made a s\rce ( new hil>ity & amusem5t4 ,x 0 a memorable sight to behold ! v5]able & grey-head$ lead]s ( ! ,fr5* army endeav\r+ to ex]t ! /r5g? & activity ( _! e>ly ye>s4 ,to me1 :o _h b lately arriv$ at ! /ature ( manhood1 & :o 0 accu/om$ to all ! ex]cises :i* give /r5g? & vig\r to ! frame1 ?is new employm5t 0 9 no degree burd5some4 ,i felt 9 x ! satisfaction t a swift man exp]i5ces :5 he ent]s ! li/s ( ! race2 ,i congratulat$ myself ^u ! nature ( my education2 if x be a s9 to covet hon\r1 t guilt 0 m9e2 &1 s great 0 my appetite = x1 t ,i 0 inexpressibly rejoic$ to obs]ve ! v>i\s ways 9 :i* x might be gratifi$4 ,/range z x may seem1 ?is sc5e ( a w9t]-camp1 9 ! mid/ ( blood & sweat1 surr\nd$ ) dang]s1 & call$ on = unp>allel$ ex]tions1 appe>s to me1 ?r\gh ! vi/a ( ye>s t is n[ int]pos$ betwe51 to h be5 "o ( ! happie/ ( my life4 ,! gay lab\rs & surprises ( ! day 7 succe$$ by a convivial ev5+1 9 :i* we did n ! less op5 our he>ts1 ?\gh frequ5tly liable to be int]rupt$ 9 our midnight revels by ! inexhau/ible activity & /ratagems ( ! enemy4 ,9 ?is v>i\s & ev]-%ift+ sc5e1 ,i =got ! disa/]s t occurr$1 & ! blood t fl[$ ar\nd me4 ,all s5se ( a l>ge & imp>tial morality 01 = ! "t at lea/1 dead5$ 9 my brea/4 ,i 0 ev] ^u ! al]t4 ,! div]sity ( ev5ts nei!r suff]$ my spirits to flag1 nor reflection to awake4 ,x is only ^u su* occasions1 or occasions l ^!1 t a man is able fully to feel :at life is1 & to revel 9 its exub]ance4 ,above all1 ,i 0 delight$ ) ! society & fri5d%ip ( my bro!r-(fic]s4 ,!y hon\r$ me2 !y lov$ me4 ,i seem$ to feel :at sympa?y 02 & to h consci\s pleasure 9 mak+ "o 9 a race ( be+s l myself4 ,su* 7 my s5sations4 ,x mu/ n1 h[ev]1 be imag9$1 t all ab\t me felt 9 ^! respects z ,i did4 ,i 0 deeply indebt$ 9 ?is p>ticul> to my y\? & my =tune4 ,! old endeav\r$ to brace !mselves 9 va92 !y sunk "u ! cont9ual pressure4 ,! poor soldi] f ! ranks lab\r$ incessantly1 & ,i lab\r$ z mu* z he2 b he _h little opportunity to recruit 8 vig\r & r5ovate 8 /r5g?4 ,!re 0 yet ano!r class ( p]sons 9 ! camp1 ^: gaiety 0 mu* less int]rupt$ ?an m9e4 ,^! 71 ! k+1 & ! g5]als :o comm&$ "u him4 ,!y c\ld n be entirely devoid ( ?\ght & consid]ation4 ,!y suff]$ mu* anxiety f ! l5g? ( ! siege2 & felt t e p]iod ( delay increas$ ! d\btfulness ( ! ev5t4 ,antonio de ,leyva1 gov]nor ( ! city1 necess>ily felt himself al>m$ at ! extraord9>y project 9 :i* we 7 engag$1 & made e ex]tion to prev5t x4 ,"o ev5+ ! k+ s5t = me to 8 t5t1 & told me 9 confid5ce t ! enemy int5d$ t v night to make ?ree sev]al attacks ^u our m\nd1 "o on ea* side ( ! /ream1 & "o by means ( boats 9 ! c5tre4 ,two ( ^!1 he said1 7 m]ely int5d$ z fe9ts2 ! we/ bank ( ! ,tes9o 0 ! po9t aga9/ :i* _! pr9cipal ex]tions w\ld be direct$4 ,on t side he 0 resolv$ to comm& 9 p]son2 ! boats ) :i* he propos$ to resi/ _! flota he confid$ to "o ( ! mo/ fam\s & valuable (fic]s ( 8 army2 ! deta*m5t on ! ea/ bank he purpos$ to intru/ to my uncle & myself4 ,he obs]v$1 t ! deta*m5t he c\ld sp>e = t purpose1 aft] hav+ =m$ ! o!r two bodies1 & res]v$ a suffici5t numb] = ! def5ce ( ! camp & ! works1 w\ld be small2 & he w>n$ me to ! ex]tion ( a p>ticul> vigilance4 ,x w\ld be d\bly un=tunate1 if a body1 ! attack ^u :i* 0 to be m]ely a feign$ "o1 %\ld nev]!less be r\t$4 8,g10 add$ he1 8fulfil my expectations2 deport y\rself answ]ably to ! m]it ( y\r fir/ a*ievem5t2 & dep5d ^u x t y w prove h]eaft] "o ( ! mo/ em95t support]s ( ! m>tial glory ( ,france40 ,! ,m>quis de ,vill]oy divid$ our little =ce into two bodies3 ) ! l>g] he lay 9 wait = ! enemy ne> ! sc5e ( ! expect$ attack3 ! small] he confid$ to my direction1 & plac$ s t we might be able to fall ^u ! re> ( ! g>rison-troops z soon z !y %\ld be fully engag$ ) our comrades4 ,9 ! situation assign$ me ,i took advantage ( ! skirts ( a wood1 :i* enabl$ me to approa* v ne> to ! expect$ r\te ( our assailants1 )\t be+ p]ceiv$ by !m4 ,! night 0 extremely d>k1 yet ! vic9ity ( my position 0 su*1 t ,i c\ld c\nt ! numb]s ( ! adv]s>y z !y pass$ along be=e my hid+-place4 ,i 0 al>m$ to f9d t !y am\nt$ to at lea/ ! triple ( :at we _h be5 taught to expect4 ,!y 7 no soon] pa/1 ?an ,i despat*$ to ! k+ a "y knight1 my p>ticul> fri5d1 :o happ5$ to be ) me1 to urge ! necessity ( a re9=cem5t4 ,at ! same "t ,i s5t a mess5g] to my uncle1 by a circuit\s r\te1 to in=m him ( :at ,i _h obs]v$1 & ! /ep ,i _h tak51 & to entreat him to def] ! attack z long z consi/5tly ) propriety x %\ld be possible4 ,! enemy1 h[ev]1 _h no soon] arriv$ at ! place ( 8 de/9ation1 ?an ! troops ( ! m>quis1 no long] capable ( re/ra9t1 ru%$ to engage4 ,! ,spani>ds 7 at fir/ surpris$1 b a %ort "t l$ !m to suspect ! weakness ( _! assailants2 nor 0 ! assi/ance ,i br\ght to my uncle suffici5t to turn ! =tune ( ! fight4 ,we lo/ _m ( our m52 ! re/ app>5tly gave gr\nd2 & x 0 a va9 attempt1 amid/ ! d>kness ( ! night1 to endeav\r to re/ore ord] & rally !m to ! assault4 ,we 7 already almo/ completely ov]p[]$1 :5 ! succ\rs we expect$ rea*$ u4 ,!y 71 h[ev]1 unable to di/+ui% fri5d f enemy4 ,a /orm ( m+l$ ra9 & sn[ _h come on1 :i* b5umb$ our limbs1 drove fi]cely 9 our faces1 & r5d]$ e object alike viewless4 ,! c>nage :i* 9 ?is situation took place 0 t]rible4 ,our bl[s 7 /ruck at r&om4 ,a ,fr5*man 0 n less dreadful ?an a ,spani>d4 ,:5 ! battle ceas$1 sc>cely "o ( ! enemy 0 left alive2 b we obs]v$ ) a/oni%m5t & horror ! numb] ( ! besieg]s :o _h probably1 9 ! mid/ ( ! confusion1 be5 cut to pieces by _! own c\ntrym54 ,i am n[ arriv$ at ! p]iod :i* put an end to ! fe/ivity & jocundness ( ! campaign4 ,all aft] ?is 0 "o cont9u$ s]ies ( disa/]4 ,ab\t ! close ( ,janu>y1 our "w1 ?\gh n :olly int]rupt$1 0 consid]ably ret>d$ by a succession ( heavy ra9s4 ,?is 0 injuri\s to u 9 _m ways2 our project1 :i* 0 execut$ 9 ! mid/ ( wat]s1 r5d]$ additional damp a matt] ( s]i\s consid]ation4 ,we 7 also seiz$ ) an appreh5sion ( /ill great] magnitude1 :i* 0 spe$ily realis$4 ,! sn[s be+ at l5g? completely dissolv$1 & ! quantity ( wat] cont9ually increas+1 we p]ceiv$ "o aft]noon /rong symptoms t our m\nd1 ! pr9cipal subject ( our lab\r & s\rce ( our hope1 0 giv+ way 9 v>i\s places4 ,! next morn+ at daybreak1 x ru%$ d[n e :]e at once ) wond]ful viol5ce & noise4 ,x is difficult to describe ! s5sation ( angui% :i* 0 in/antly & univ]sally diffus$4 ,! lab\r ( _m weeks 0 ov]?r[n 9 a mom5t4 ,z we _h proce$$ 9 our "w1 we e day saw ourselves ne>] ! object to :i* we aspir$4 ,at ?is "t our project 0 almo/ complet$1 & ,pavia 0 9 imag9ation already 9 our h&s1 to ga9 possession ( :i* _h co/ u su* unremitt$ ex]tions1 ! display ( s mu* gallantry1 & ! loss ( s _m soldi]s4 ,we 7 conf\nd$ at ! cata/rophe we saw4 ,we gaz$ at ea* o!r1 ea* 9 want ( enc\ragem5t1 & e "o unable to af=d x4 ,/ill1 h[ev]1 we 7 n de/itute ( advantages4 ,! g>rison began to be 9 want bo? ( ammunition & provisions4 ,!y 7 9 a g5]al /ate ( discont5t1 almo/ ( mut9y1 :i* sc>cely all ! address & au?ority ( ! gov]nor 7 able to suppress4 ,if ! t[n cont9u$ long] unreliev$1 x 0 sure to fall into our h&s4 ,b ev5 ?is our la/ hope 0 consid]ably dim9i%$ by ! intellig5ce we receiv$ ! v day aft] ! de/ruction ( our m\nd1 t ! imp]ial army1 aft] hav+ receiv$ l>ge re9=cem5ts1 0 approa*+ 9 consid]able =ce4 ,! k+ _h "s "t be=e1 9 ! height ( 8 confid5ce1 & elation ( 8 he>t1 s5t (f a deta*m5t ( six ?\s& m5 to invade ! k+dom ( ,naples2 = ^u t1 z well z ! ,milanese1 he _h inh]it$ pret5sions f 8 imm$iate pr$ecessors4 ,b1 ?\gh ! enemy 0 sup]ior 9 numb]s1 & a "p p]haps ( _! =ces bett] discipl9$ ?an ours1 !y lab\r$ "u sev]al disadvantages to :i* we 7 n expos$4 ,! ,emp]or1 ?\gh 8 dom9ions 7 m ext5sive1 did n d]ive f !m a rev5ue equal to t ( ,francis4 ,z he did n take ! field 9 p]son1 ! w> appe>$ to 8 subjects only a common w>1 proce$+ ^u ! ord9>y motives ( w>4 ,b my c\ntrym5 7 l$ by _! sov]eign1 7 fre% f ! rec5t insol5ce ( an invasion ( _! own t]ritory1 & f\ght at once = p]sonal glory & _! c\ntry's hon\r4 ,! k+1 :o comm&$ !m1 seem$ expressly =m$ to obta9 _! atta*m5t & affection4 ,8 nobles became en?usia/ic by ! example ( 8 en?usiasm1 & will+ly disburs$ _! rev5ues to give prosp]ity & clat to ! campaign4 ,! fir/ "q t arose ^u ! approa* ( ! enemy 01 :e!r we %\ld break up ! siege1 & att5d 9 "s /rong po/ ! sl[1 b sure1 effect ( _! want ( money1 & ! consequ5t disp]sion ( _! troops1 or wait _! attack 9 our pres5t po/ure4 ,! =m] advice 0 safe2 b to ! gallant _s ( ,francis x appe>$ ignom9i\s4 ,he 0 ^u all occasions ! p>tisan ( rapid measures & decisive proce$+s2 & 8 temp]1 ) ! exception ( a few w>y & delib]ate c\nsellors1 accord$ ) t ( our :ole army4 ,= "s days we congratulat$ ourselves ^u ! wisdom ( our *oice2 we pres5t$ to ! enemy s =midable an appe>ance1 t1 not)/&+ ! cog5t motives he _h to proce$1 he hesitat$ long be=e he v5tur$ to attack u4 ,at l5g?1 h[ev]1 ! day came t 0 pregnant ) s mom5t\s expectation4 ,if ?r\gh ! :ole limits ( our camp !re 0 n a man t did n feel himself r\s$ ^u ?is glori\s occasion1 to me x 0 especially int]e/+4 ,! sc5e accord$ ) ! :ole purpose ( my education1 & novelty made x impressive4 ,i liv$ only 9 ! pres5t mom5t4 ,i _h n a ?\ght1 a wi%1 a /raggl+ imag9ation1 t w&]$ beyond ! circuit ( ! day4 ,my s\l 0 fill$2 at "o m9ute wild ) expectation1 & at ano!r aw$ into solemnity4 ,!re is some?+ indescribably delici\s 9 ?is conc5tration ( ! m9d4 ,x raises a man above himself2 & makes him feel a c]ta9 nobl5ess & elevation ( "*1 ( ! possession ( :i* he 0 to t h\r unconsci\s4 ,fe> & pa9 7 ideas t c\ld f9d no h>b\r 9 my bosom3 ,i reg>d$ ?is z ! mo/ memorable ( days1 & myself z ! mo/ =tunate ( mortals4 ,f> inde$ 0 ,i f anticipat+ ! disgraceful ev5t1 9 :i* ?is elation ( he>t spe$ily t]m9at$4 ,! sun rose bright 9 a cl\dless sky4 ,! cold ( ! season 0 su*1 z only to give new lightness & ela/icity to ! muscles & animal spirits4 ,i saw few ( ^? objects ( nature1 :i* 9 ?is delightful climate gave s sacr$ a pleasure to ! human s\l4 ,b 9 my pres5t temp] !re 0 no object ( sight s ravi%+1 z ! firm & equal /eps ( ! m>tial b&s1 ! impati5ce ( ! w>-horse1 & ! display ( milit>y /&>ds2 nor any music s en*ant+1 z ! %rillness ( ! pipe1 ! clangor ( ! trumpet1 ! neigh+ ( /e$s1 & ! ro>+ ( cannon4 ,x is ?us t man disguises to himself ! real nature ( 8 occupation2 & clo!s t :i* is ( all ?+s ! mo/ nef>i\s or mo/ to be lam5t$1 ) ! semblance ( jubilee & fe/ival4 ,! ,imp]iali/s 7 at fir/ unable to )/& ! ef=ts ( ,fr5* val\r4 ,!y gave way on e side2 we pursu$ our advantage ) impetuosity4 ,to ! slaught] ( :ole ranks m[$ d[n ) trem5d\s cel]ity1 to ! agonies ( ! dy+1 ,i 0 bl9d2 _! groans _h no effect on my organ1 = my s\l 0 occupi$ 9 ano!r direction4 ,my horse's heels spurn$ _! mangl$ limbs1 & 7 r$ ) _! blood4 ,i f\ght n m]ely ) val\r1 b ) fury2 ,i animat$ ^? ar\nd me by my example & my acclamations4 ,x may seem contr>y to delicacy to speak ) ?is fre$om ( my own praises2 b ,i am at my pres5t writ+ totally *ang$ & remov$ f :at ,i 01 & ,i write ) ! fre$om ( a g5]al hi/orian4 ,x is ?is simplicity & +5u\sness t %all p]vade ! :ole ( my n>rative4 ,! =tune ( ! day spe$ily *ang$4 ,! c[>dice & des]tion ( our ,swiss allies gave ! fir/ signal ( adv]sity4 ,! gallant comm&] ( ! g>rison ( ,pavia salli$ out 9 ! mid/ ( ! fight1 & sudd5ly attack$ u 9 ! re>4 ,a /ratagem ( ! ,imp]ial g5]al effect$ ! r\t ( our cavalry4 ,! :ole face ( ! field 0 utt]ly rev]s$4 ,x w\ld be 9 va9 = me to attempt to describe ev5 ! small "p t ,i beheld ( ! calamity & slaught] ( ! ,fr5* army4 ,at ?is di/ance ( "t1 ! recollection ( x op5s afre% ! almo/ oblit]at$ w\nds ( my he>t4 ,i saw my fri5ds cut d[n1 & p]i% on e side4 ,^? :o1 toge!r ) myself1 _h m>*$ out 9 ! morn+1 swell$ ) exultation & hope1 n[ lay welt]+ 9 _! blood4 ,_! desires1 _! ?\ghts1 _! exi/5ce1 7 br\ght to a fatal t]m9ation4 ,! common soldi]s 7 hew$ & cut to pieces by hundr$s1 )\t note & obs]vation4 ,_m ( ! fir/ nobility ( ,france1 made desp]ate by ! *ange ( ! battle1 ru%$ into ! ?icke/ ( ! foe1 & became s _m volunt>y sacrifices2 *oos+ r to p]i%1 ?an to turn _! backs ) di%on\r4 ,9 ! battle ,i _h two horses kill$ "u me4 ,! fir/ ( !m suff]$ a sort ( gradual de/ruction4 ,he _h already receiv$ "o w\nd 9 ! no/rils1 & ano!r 9 ! neck1 :5 a ?ird %ot c>ri$ away two ( 8 feet1 & laid him pro/rate on ! e>?4 ,b]n>d91 my fai?ful att5dant1 obs]v$ :at 0 pass+1 & imm$iately br\ght me a fre% *>g]2 b ,i _h n long m\nt$ him1 :5 he receiv$ a w\nd :i* kill$ him on ! spot4 ,i 0 myself hurt 9 sev]al places1 & at l5g? ! /roke ( a sabre br\ght me to ! gr\nd4 ,"h ,i rema9$ = a long "t ins5sible4 ,:5 ,i recov]$1 & look$ ar\nd me1 ,i f\nd myself 9 entire solitude1 & c\ld at pres5t p]ceive no trace ei!r ( ! enemy or ( my own p4 ,soon1 h[ev]1 ,i recollect$ :at _h pass$1 & 0 b too well assur$ ( ! defeat my c\ntrym5 _h su/a9$4 ,weak & batt]$ z ,i 01 ,i attempt$ to retire to a place ( great] security4 ,i _h sc>cely *ang$ my gr\nd1 be=e ,i saw a troop] ( ! enemy ru%+ t[>ds me1 ) ! int5tion to take away my life4 ,=tunately ,i obs]v$ a tree at h&1 to ! %elt] ( :i* ,i ha/5$2 &1 p>tly by mov+ ! bran*es to & fro1 & p>tly by %ift+ my position1 ,i baffl$ my adv]s>y1 till he became we>y ( ! attempt4 ,a mom5t aft]1 ,i saw "o ( my mo/ intimate & famili> companions kill$ be=e my eyes4 ,x 0 n long1 h[ev]1 be=e a p>ty ( fugitive ,fr5* came up to ! spot :]e ,i /ood1 & ,i1 l ! re/1 0 hurri$ f ! field4 ,my uncle p]i%$ 9 ! battle4 ,x is wond]ful h[ m5 c h>d5 _! he>ts aga9/ su* sc5es z ,i !n witness$4 ,x is wond]ful h[ !y c be br\ght to co-op]ate 9 su* demoniac fury1 & m ?an demoniac mis*ief1 b>b>ity1 & murd]4 ,b !y are br\ght to x2 & ent]1 n f a deplorable necessity1 b z to a fe/ival1 9 :i* ea* man is eag] to occupy 8 place1 & %>e ! amusem5ts4 ,x seem$ to me at t "t1 z x seems to me n[1 t x %\ld be en\gh = a man to contemplate su* a field z ,i saw at ,pavia1 to induce him to abjure ! trade ( viol5ce = ev]1 & to commit 8 sword once m to ! b[els ( ! e>?1 f :i* x 0 torn = s nef>i\s a purpose4 ,^! s5sations1 ?\gh n[ f9ally e/abli%$ 9 my m9d1 71 at ! "t ( :i* ,i am writ+1 b ( fleet+ duration4 ,! =ce ( education1 & ! fir/ b5t ( my m9d1 7 too /rong4 ,! horror :i* ov]:elm$ me 9 ! fir/ mom5ts ( ?is great national defeat subsid$2 & ! milit>y passion return$ ^u me 9 its orig9al ard\r4 ,my convictions1 & ! moral integrity ( my s\l1 7 tempor>y2 & ,i became myself a monum5t ( t incon/ancy & t wond]1 to :i* ,i h j allud$4 ,v>i\s circum/ances1 h[ev]1 prev5t$ ?is passion f its direct op]ation4 ,! "* ( ,france 0 alt]$ by ! battle ( ,pavia1 ?\gh m9e rema9$ ! same4 ,x 0 9 ! fulle/ degree decisive ( ! =tune ( ! w>4 ,milan1 & e o!r place 9 ! du*y1 op5$ _! gates to ! conqu]or2 &1 9 a =tnight1 n a ,fr5*man 0 left 9 ! fields ( ,italy4 ,( ! :ole army only a small body effect$ an ord]ly retreat1 "u ! comm& ( ! ,duke ( ,al5on4 ,_m p]sons ( ! highe/ di/9ction p]i%$ 9 ! battle3 _m 7 made prison]s by ! enemy4 ,france by ?is ev5t f\nd ! li/ ( h] noblesse consid]ably r$uc$ 9 numb]s2 add to :i*1 ^? ^: loss %e su/a9$1 7 almo/ all ( !m tak5 f among ! mo/ di/+ui%$ & m]itori\s 9 ! catalogue4 ,b :at con/itut$ ! pr9cipal feature 9 ?is memorable ev5t 01 t ! k+ himself 0 f\nd 9 ! numb] ( ! prison]s2 nor 0 he releas$ by 8 ung5]\s competitor till aft] m ?an a twelvemon?'s conf9em5t4 ,dur+ ?is p]iod ,francis ta/$ ( ! dregs ( adv]sity4 ,incl9$ 9 ! fir/ in/ance to judge ( 8 rival by himself1 he expect$ a lib]al treatm5t4 ,9 ?is he 0 deeply disappo9t$4 ,aft] a det5tion ( _m mon?s 9 ! ,milanese1 ! sc5e ( 8 =m] successes1 he 0 transf]r$ to ,madrid4 ,he 0 p]sonally neglect$ by ! emp]or1 :ile 8 disloyal subject#f 0 treat$ ) s+ul> di/9ction4 ,! mo/ rigor\s t]ms 7 propos$ to him4 ,all ?is _h ! effect1 9 "o in/ance1 ( s9k+ him into a disease ( languor & dejection :i* he 0 n expect$ to survive2 &1 9 ano!r1 ( induc+ him to execute an in/rum5t by :i* he abdicat$ ! cr[n1 & decl>$ 8 resolution ( rema9+ a prison] = life4 ,8 conf9em5t 0 at l5g? t]m9at$ by 8 solemnly engag+ to compulsory articles1 :i* he 0 det]m9$ to break z soon z he f\nd himself at lib]ty2 an alt]native peculi>ly grat+ to ! lib]ality ( 8 _s4 ,?is rev]se ( =tune mat]ially *ang$ 8 "*4 ,! f9e _s ( 8 ambition 0 f ?is "t evaporat$2 &1 :ile he /ill reta9$ ! indefeasible qualities ( 8 s\l1 & 0 gallant1 k9d-he>t$1 & g5]\s1 he b>t]$1 z f> z 0 compatible ) 8 disposition1 ! ent]pris+ & audaci\s temp] he _h previ\sly manife/$1 = ! w>y & phlegmatic sy/em ( 8 m =tunate competitor4 ,8 g5ius c[]$ be=e t ( ,*>les2 & ! defeat ( ,pavia may1 p]haps1 be consid]$ z hav+ giv5 a deadly w\nd to ! reign ( *ivalry1 & a secure f\ndation to t ( craft1 dissimulation1 corruption1 & comm]ce4 ,,*apt] ,,iii4 ,! li/s ( milit>y ambition !n be+ clos$1 if n p]man5tly1 at lea/ = a "t1 my m9d took a new bias2 &1 )\t dismiss+ its mo/ *]i%$ & d>l+ passion1 pursu$ a pa? 9 ! pres5t em]g5cy1 to :i* ! accid5ts ( my y\? _h also guid$ me4 ,if my "m _h surviv$1 %e w\ld probably ei!r n h cons5t$ to my s]v+ at ! siege ( ,pavia1 or at lea/ w\ld h recall$ me to ! obscurity ( my pat]nal *teau z soon z ! campaign 0 at an end4 ,i _h n fully complet$ ! tw5tie? ye> ( my age1 at ! p]iod ( ! memorable battle 9 :i* my sov]eign 0 made prison]4 ,i 0 left )\t advis] or guide2 ev5 ! ,m>quis de ,vill]oy1 my "m's bro!r1 ( :atev] consequ5ce 8 admonitions to me might h prov$1 0 tak5 f me 9 ?is fatal engagem5t4 ,! k+ himself1 p]haps1 _h x n be5 = ! dreadful calamities 9 :i* he 0 n[ involv$1 might h condesc5d$ to int]e/ himself 9 "s degree 9 my welf>e4 ,by ! c\rse ( ev5ts1 ,i 0 left1 yet a m9or1 & ) an ample rev5ue at my disposition1 to be :olly guid$ by ! sugge/ions ( my own m9d4 ,9 ! portion ( 8 reign already elaps$1 ! spl5did & int]e/+ qualities ( ,francis _h giv5 a new spr+ to ! s5tim5ts ( ! nation4 ,he 0 ! mo/ accompli%$ & amiable pr9ce ( ! "t 9 :i* he liv$4 ,!re 0 b "o ( all ! sov]eigns ( ,*ri/5dom t c\ld cope ) him 9 p[]1--! ,emp]or ,*>les2 & z ,*>les's peculi>ities 7 ( a sort t ,fr5*m5 7 accu/om$ to reg>d ) av]sion & contempt1 s !re _h n be5 a d\bt among my compatriots1 ( ! side ^u :i* ! sup]iority w\ld ultimately re/4 ,by ! ev5ts ( ! day ( ,pavia !y 7 conf\nd$ & ov]:elm$4 ,!y did n despair ( _! c\ntry2 !y soon felt1 & felt to its utmo/ ext5t1 ! rank :i* ,france held among ! ,european /ates4 ,b ! *a9 ( _! ideas 0 int]rupt$2 !y c\ld n b be consci\s t ! =tune ( ! k+dom _h receiv$ a griev\s *eck4 ,! illu/ri\s c>e] :i* !y _h 9 fancy already trav]s$1 0 po/pon$ to a di/ant p]iod4 ,! consequ5ces :i* fl[ f a suppress$ ambition may easily be imag9$4 ,! nobility ( ,france ex*ang$ ! activity ( ! field = ! indulg5ces ( ! table3 t conc5trat$ _s :i* _h s\ght to exp& itself ^u ! wide/ /age1 n[ f\nd v5t 9 ! exhibition ( individual exp5se3 &1 above all1 ! sordid & +lori\s passion = gam+1 a vice em95tly *>act]i/ic ( ! age1 n[ especially ga9$ /r5g?1 & drew multitudes into its de/ructive vortex4 ,x 01 p]haps1 impossible = a "y man to h ent]$ ! !atre ( ! _w "u less fav\rable auspices4 ,9 :at ,i h already writt51 ,i felt myself prompt$ to enl>ge ) complac5cy ^u ! s5tim5ts & sc5es ( my y\?2 & ,i h yield$ to ! sugge/ion4 ,! same int]nal admonition makes me %r9k f ent]+ ) m9ut5ess into ! detail ( my ru94 ,i recollect my infatuation ) abhorr5ce2 ,i fly f ! memory ) s5sations inexpressibly pa9ful2 ,i reg>d x z a cl\d t ov]%ad[$ & black5$ = ev] ! fair prospects ( my e>li] ye>s4 ,i %all n enum]ate all my y\?ful companions1 or all my y\?ful follies4 ,i committ$ a mi/ake obvi\s en\gh1 at ?is immature p]iod ( my exi/5ce1 :5 ,i mi/ook pr(usion & extravagance = spl5d\r & dignity2 & ! prud5t economy :i* my "m _h practis$1 s]v$1 9 ! pres5t in/ance1 z ! p&] to my vices4 ,! :ole t5d5cy ( my education _h be5 to inspire me ) a pr\d & re/less desire ( di/9ction2 & ,i 0 n cont5t to play a second "p 9 ! c>e] ( my vices1 z ,i %\ld n h be5 cont5t to play a second "p 9 ! g5u9e !atre ( hon\r & fame4 ,9 all t 0 ?\ghtlessly spirit$ & gaily pr(ligate1 ,i l$ ! way to my compe]s1 & 0 con/antly held up by !m z an example4 ,by ?is conduct ,i incurr$ ! c5sure ( ! rigor\s & ! old2 b ! voice ( c5sure rea*$ me mu* seldom] ?an t ( adulation4 ,my p]son & demean\r 7 ! topics ( g5]al applause4 ,i 0 tall & well-proportion$2 my frame 0 sl5d] & agile1 b ) an appe>ance ( ! fulle/ heal?2 my c\nt5ance 0 op51 comm&+1 & animat$3 my rank & situation 9 ! _w gave me confid5ce2 ! fire & impetuosity ( my temp] r5d]$ my ge/ures easy1 rapid1 expressive1 & graceful4 ,! consequ5ce ( all ?is 01 to confirm me 9 a plan ( life :i* ,i e>ly laid d[n to myself1 & f :i* ,i nev] 9 any in/ance deviat$4 ,i put aside ^? rules1 z spl5etic & hyp]critical1 :i* confessors prea*1 & ) :i* ! preceptors ( "y m5 are accu/om$ to we>y & ali5ate ! m9ds ( _! pupils4 ,! *>ge ( be+ disord]ly & un?9k+ ,i despis$2 t ( imprud5ce1 ev5 :5 meant = blame1 s\nd$ 9 my e> l ! voice ( encomium4 ,b1 accu/om$ f education to s5tim5ts ( hon\r1 & f habit to ! language ( eulogy1 x is difficult = any man to be m firmly b5t ?an ,i 0 to incur no brea? ( di%on\r1 or to draw ! l9e m p]emptorily betwe5 ! follies ( y\? & ! ab]rations ( a gross & unpr9cipl$ _s4 ,x may be alleg$1 inde$1 & ) consid]able ju/ice1 t ! habit ( gam+ is an exception to ?is /atem5t4 ,x 0 ) hesitation & reluctance t ,i ent]$ into ?is habit4 ,i saw x z x 01 & z e +5u\s & undebau*$ m9d mu/ see x1 base & sordid4 ,! possession ( "s degree ( weal? ,i reg>d$1 inde$1 z indisp5sable to a man :o w\ld fill a l(ty & respectable "* 9 ! _w2 a "* t1 by unit+ ! advantages ( ext]ior appe>ance ) ! actions ( a h]o1 %\ld extort ! homage ( 8 species4 ,b1 9 ! picture ,i drew ( ?is man 9 my m9d1 ,i consid]$ weal? z an accid5t1 ! att5dant on 8 bir?1 to be disp5s$ ) dignity1 n to be adv]t$ to ) m9ut5ess ( att5tion4 ,deep play is c]ta9ly suffici5tly inconsi/5t ) ?is "*4 ,! direct purpose ( ! game/] is to transf] money f ! pocket ( 8 neighb\r into 8 own4 ,he r\ses 8 sleepy & we>i$ att5tion by ! mo/ sordid ( all motives4 ,! fe> ( los+ pi]ces 8 he>t ) angui%2 & to ga9--to obta9 an advantage = himself :i* c sc>cely exce$1 & :i* seldom equals1 ! injury 8 competitor suff]s1--is ! circum/ance :i* mo/ transports 8 he>t ) delight4 ,= ?is he wat*es2 = ?is he calculates4 ,an hon\rable game/] does n seize ) prem$itation ! mom5t :5 8 adv]s>y is depriv$1 by w9e or any o!r cause1 ( 8 usual self-possession4 ,he does n seek ) sob] malice to play ^u 8 passions4 ,he does n ent] ) avidity into ! conte/ ) an unpractis$ b presum+ rival3 b he _c avoid rejoic+1 :5 he f9ds t accid5t has giv5 him an unusual advantage4 ,i h (t5 ?\ght t ,i c\ld bett] und]/& h[ a man ( hon\r c\ld reconcile himself to ! accurs$ & murd]\s trade ( w>1 ?an to ! sy/em ( ! gam+ table4 ,9 w>1 he fights ) a /rang]1 a man ) :om he has no habits ( k9dness1 & :o is fairly appris$ t he comes aga9/ him ) ru9\s int5t4 ,b 9 play1 he robs1 p]haps1 8 bro!r1 8 fri5d1 ! p>tn] ( 8 bosom2 or1 9 e ev5t1 a man s$uc$ into ! sn>e ) all ! arts ( c\rtesy1 & :om he smiles ^u1 ev5 :ile he /abs4 ,i am talk+ "h ! m]e reason & common s5se ( ! "q z x relates to mank9d 9 g5]al4 ,b x is ) o!r feel+s t ,i reflect ^u ! conc]n ,i h myself individually 9 ! subject4 ,ye>s roll on 9 va92 ages !mselves are useless "h2 look+ =w>d1 z ,i d1 to an exi/5ce t %all endure till "t %all be no m2 no "t c wipe away ! remembrance ( ! bitt] angui% t ,i h endur$1 ! consequ5ce ( gam+4 ,x is torture6 ,x is madness6 ,pov]ty1 ,i h dra9$ ?y cup to ! dregs6 ,i h se5 my wife & my *ildr5 look+ to me 9 va9 = bread6 ,:i* is ! mo/ intol]able di/ress8--t ( ! p]iod1 9 :i* all ! com=ts ( life gradually left me2 9 :i* ,i caught at e fragm5t ( promise1 & e fragm5t fail$2 9 :i* ,i rose e morn+ to pamp] myself ) empty delusions2 9 :i* ,i ate ! apples ( purgatory1 fair )\t1 b )9 bitt]ness & a%es2 9 :i* ,i toss$1 ?r\gh endless1 sightless nights1 ^u ! c\* ( disappo9tm5t & despair8--or ! p]iod1 :5 at l5g? all my hopes 7 at an end2 :5 ,i fl$ ) horror to a =eign climate2 :5 my family1 t %\ld h be5 my com=t1 gave me my mo/ poignant agony2 :5 ,i look$ ^u !m1 nak$1 de/itute1 & exiles1 ) ! trem5d\s ?\ght1 :at & :o x 0 t _h caus$ _! ru98 ,adv]sity1 )\t consolation1--adv]sity1 :5 its /+ is remorse1 self-abhorr5ce & self-contempt1--hell has no mis]y by :i* x c be ?r[n into %ade or exce$$6 ,:y d ,i dwell ^u1 or at lea/ :y d ,i anticipate1 ?is dete/$ circum/ance ( my /ory8 ,let me add "o rem>k 9 ?is place1 & pass on to ! o!r p>ticul>s ( ?is epo* ( my prodigality4 ,x is true1 ,i mu/ take ?is %ameful appellation to myself--,i 0 a game/]4 ,b1 9 ! beg9n+1 ,i took no conc]n 9 t species ( sci5ce :i* is (t5 impli$ 9 ! appellation4 ,my games 7 games ( haz>d1 n ( skill4 ,x appe>$ to my di/emp]$ appreh5sion to be only a mode 9 :i* = a man to display 8 =titude & philosophy2 ,i 0 flatt]$ ) ! practice ( gam+1 because ,i saw 9 x1 :5 gracefully pursu$1 ! magnanimity ( ! /oic1 comb9$ ) ! mann]s ( a man ( ! _w2 a magnanimity t no success is able to intoxicate1 & no vicissitude to subv]t4 ,i committ$ my prop]ty to ! haz>d ( ! die2 & ,i plac$ my ambition 9 laugh+ alike at ! fav\rs ( =tune & h] fr[ns4 ,9 ! sequel1 h[ev]1 ,i f\nd myself deceiv$4 ,! fickle goddess suffici5tly prov$ t %e _h ! p[] ( mak+ me s]i\s4 ,b 9 h] mo/ trem5d\s rev]ses1 ,i 0 nev] influ5c$ to d any ?+ t ! mo/ scrupul\s game/] reg>ds z di%on\rable4 ,i say n ?is = ! purpose ( giv+ col\r & speci\sness to my tale4 ,i say x1 because ,i h laid x d[n to myself 9 ?is n>rative z a sacr$ pr9ciple1 to relate ! simple1 unalt]$ tru?4 ,ano!r *>act]i/ic ( ! reign ( ,francis ! ,fir/1 is its gallantries4 ,x is well kn[n h[ mu* ! k+ 0 himself occupi$ ) atta*m5ts ( ?is sort2 8 gov]nm5t 0 r ! gov]nm5t ( wom5 ?an ( politicians2 & ! mann]s ( ! sov]eign /rongly t5d$ to fix ! habits ( 8 subjects4 ,a v "y man r takes ! tone ( 8 passions f ^? ab\t him1 ?an =ms "o t is prop]ly 8 own2 & ?is 0 my case 9 ! pres5t in/ance z well z 9 ! prec$+4 ,orig9ally ( an amor\s con/itution1 ,i %\ld p]haps h quiet$ ! re/lessness ( my appetites )\t o/5tation & clat1 _h n ! conduct ( my y\?ful associates 9 g5]al l$ me to reg>d gallantry z an accompli%m5t indisp5sably necess>y 9 a "y man ( rank4 ,x mu/ be confess$1 inde$1 t ?is (f5ce aga9/ ! rig\r ( discipl9e has a ?\s& advantages ov] t ( gam+4 ,few wom5 ( regul> & reputable lives h t ease ( mann]s1 t fl[ ( fancy1 & t graceful intrepidity ( ?9k+ & express+ !mselves1 t is sometimes to be f\nd among ^? :o h dis*>g$ !mselves f ! tyranny ( cu/om4 ,!re is some?+ irresi/ibly captivat+ 9 t voluptu\sness :i*1 :ile x assumes a c]ta9 air ( fre$om1 uni=mly & ) pref]5ce con=ms itself to ! dictates ( unsophi/icat$ delicacy4 ,a judici\s & limit$ voluptu\sness is necess>y to ! cultivation ( ! m9d1 to ! poli%+ ( ! mann]s1 to ! ref9+ ( s5tim5t & ! developem5t ( ! und]/&+2 & a woman defici5t 9 ?is respect may be ( use = ! gov]nm5t ( our families1 b c nei!r add to ! enjoym5ts1 nor fix ! p>tiality1 ( a man ( animation & ta/e4 ,b :atev] !re may be 9 ^! consid]ations1 c]ta9 x is t ! conduct ,i pursu$ 9 matt]s ( gallantry l$ me into great & s]i\s exp5ses4 ,! mi/resses ) :om ,i *anc$ to associate _h nei!r ! inexpressible captivation ( madame de ,*ateaubriant1 nor ! aspir+ & impressive mann]s ( ! du*ess d',etampes#g4 ,!y _h1 h[ev]1 beauty & vivacity1 frolic )\t rud5ess1 & s(tness )\t timidity4 ,!y _h paid "s reg>d to po9ts ( k & ta/e1 consid]+ ^! z additional means = fix+ ! p>tiality ( _! p>am\rs1 & kn[+ t !y _h no security = ! p]man5ce ( _! prosp]ity b 9 ! v>iety ( _! attractions4 ,9 _! society ,i 0 l$ into new tra9s ( reflection1 a nic] consid]ation ( human passion & ! v>ieties ( human "*1 &1 above all1 into a great] quickness & delicacy 9 matt]s ( intellectual ta/e4 ,my h\rs1 = ! mo/ "p1 roll$ swiftly & easily away1 sometimes 9 ! society ( ! "y1 ! gay & ! ambiti\s ( my own sex1 & sometimes 9 ! s(t] & m delici\s int]c\rse ( ! fair4 ,i liv$ 9 ! mid/ ( all t ,p>is c\ld at t "t furni% ( spl5did & luxuri\s4 ,?is sy/em ( liv+ 0 calculat$ to lull me 9 pleas+ dreams1 & to wa/e away exi/5ce 9 deliri\s s(tness4 ,x suffici5tly accord$ ) ! sad p]iod ( our sov]eign's captivity1 :5 my "y compatriots s\ght to dr[n ! s5se ( public & patriotic consid]ations 9 copi\s draughts ( pleasure2 nor did ! mon>*'s return imm$iately re/ore to ,france h] =m] haught9ess & pride4 ,! c\rse ( s5suality 9 :i* ,i 0 n[ engag$1 ?\gh x did n absolutely s9k into grossness1 may well be suppos$ to h trodd5 ^u ! v edge ( lic5ce4 ,i & my companions 7 "y2 we 7 made fe>less & presum+ by =tune & by rank2 we _h laid aside ^? m rigor\s re/ra9ts :i* r5d] ! sob]] "p ( mank9d plausible & dec5t1 by mak+ !m timid & trite4 ,i w n contam9ate ! m9ds ( my innoc5t & inexp]i5c$ read]s by ent]+ into ! detail ( ! follies 9 :i* ,i engag$4 ,"o ?+ x is necess>y to rem>k1 z ess5tial to ! ma9 ?read ( my /ory4 ,my exp5ses ( all k9ds1 dur+ ?is p]iod ( self-des]tion1 dra9$ my res\rces1 b did n t>ni% my good "n4 ,my excesses 7 reg>d$ by "s z ornam5tal & becom+1 b by all 7 admitt$ z v5ial4 ,! laurels ,i _h won 9 ! field ( milit>y hon\r 7 n obscur$ by my subsequ5t conduct4 ,i 0 univ]sally rank$ among ! mo/ promis+ & hon\rable ( ! "y noblem5 ( ,france4 ,i _h "s rivals2 ,i did n pass ?r\gh ?is turbul5t & div]sifi$ sc5e )\t disputes2 b no "o ca/ a reflection ^u my "n1 no "o v5tur$ to speak ( me ) sup]cili\sness & opprobrium4 ,nor 0 my temp] m injur$ ?an my reputation4 ,f e dispute ,i extricat$ myself ) grace & propriety2 ,i /udi$ ! pleasure & ease ( all ) :om ,i associat$2 & no man enjoy$ m ext5sively ?an ,i did ! sweets ( fri5d%ip1 z f> z ! sweets ( fri5d%ip c be ext5sively enjoy$4 ,,*apt] ,,iv4 ,i _h be5 n[ two ye>s 9 habits ( life & a mode ( exp5se extremely injuri\s to my patrimony1 :5 a circum/ance occurr$1 :i* promis$ completely to deliv] me f ! ru9\s consequ5ces ( my own folly4 ,?is 0 no o!r ?an my enc\nt] ) t incomp>able woman1 :o aft]w>ds became ! p>tn] ( my life1 & ! "m ( my *ildr54 ,i _c ev5 n[ recollect h] )\t te>s3 ! s5tim5t :i* h] v "n excites 9 my m9d is a m+l$ feel+1 on ! "o h&1 ( ! mo/ exquisite & unspeakable delight1 a feel+ t elevates & exp&s & electrifies my ?robb+ he>t2 &1 on ! o!r1 ( ! bitt]e/ angui% & regret4 ,i mu/ develope ! s\rce ( ?is feel+4 ,m>gu]ite ,l\ise ,isabeau de ,damville 01 at ! p]iod ( our fir/ meet+1 9 ! n9ete5? ye> ( h] age4 ,h] complexion 0 ( ! mo/ p]fect transp>5cy1 h] eyes black & sp>kl+1 & h] eyebr[s d>k & long4 ,su* 7 ! p]fect smoo?ness & cle>ness ( h] sk91 t at n9ete5 %e appe>$ five ye>s y\ng] ?an %e 01 & %e long reta9$ ?is extreme juv5ility ( =m4 ,h] /ep 0 airy & light z t ( a "y fawn1 yet at ! same "t firm1 & indicative ( /r5g? ( body & vig\r ( m9d4 ,h] voice1 l ! :ole ( h] ext]nal appe>ance1 0 expressive ( undesign+1 ,i _h almo/ said *ildi%1 simplicity4 ,yet1 ) all ?is playfulness ( appe>ance1 h] und]/&+ 0 bold & correct4 ,h] m9d 0 well furni%$ ) e ?+ t c\ld add to h] accompli%m5ts z a wife or a "m4 ,h] indulg5t p>5ts _h procur$ h] e advantage ( education1 & circum/ances _h be5 uncommonly fav\rable to h] improvem5t4 ,%e 0 enc\rag$ & assi/$ 9 ! art ( draw+1 = :i* %e discov]$ a v e>ly tal5t1 by ,leon>do da ,v9ci2 & %e =m$ h] poetical ta/e f ! conv]sation & in/ructions ( ,clem5t ,m>ot4 ,b1 amid/ ! s+ul> assemblage ( h] intellectual accompli%m5ts1 !re 0 no?+ by :i* %e 0 s mu* di/+ui%$1 z ! uncommon prud5ce ( h] judgm5ts1 & ! unalt]able amiabl5ess ( h] mann]s4 ,?is 0 ! woman de/9$ to cr[n my happ9ess1 & consummate my mis]y4 ,if ,i _h nev] kn[n h]1 ,i %\ld nev] h ta/$ true pleasure2 if ,i _h be5 guid$ by h] c\nsels1 ,i %\ld n h dra9$ to ! v dregs ! cup ( angui%4 ,! h\se ( h] fa!r1 ! ,m>quis de ,damville1 0 ! resort ( all ! mo/ em95t wits & s*ol>s ( t p]iod1 p>ticul>ly ( ,m>ot1 ,rabelais1 ,erasmus & ,scalig]4 ,?is 0 my fir/ inducem5t to frequ5t x4 ,my education _h inspir$ me ) an inext+ui%able love ( lit]ature2 & ! dissipation 9 :i* ,i 0 at ?is "t involv$ c\ld n entirely int]rupt ! prop5sity4 ,! mo/ ?\ghtless & extravagant p]iod ( my life _h occasional int]vals ( /udy & reflection2 & ! gay1 animat$1 & +5i\s conv]sation ( ! m5 ,i h m5tion$1 _h always peculi> *>ms = me4 ,i _h cont9u$ = "s "t to visit at ! ,m>quis's hotel1 be=e ,i enc\nt]$ ! beautiful ,m>gu]ite4 ,! fir/ "t ,i saw h]1 %e made a deep impression ^u me4 ,! ,m>quis1 :o 0 "o ( ! mo/ b5evol5t & enlight5$ ( mank9d1 _h be5 l$ by my "* & mann]s to conceive a w>m fri5d%ip = me4 ,he saw ! ru9 9 :i* ,i 0 he$lessly involv+ myself1 & believ$ t x 0 n yet too late to save me4 ,z he ?\ght t !re 0 no me?od s likely to effect my re=mation z ! int]position ( dome/ic affections1 he 0 n unwill+ to enc\rage ! atta*m5t ,i began to feel = 8 daught]4 ,on my "p ,i want$ b little enc\ragem5t4 ,i no soon] obs]v$ h] mann]s1 & became acqua9t$ ) h] m]its1 ?an my he>t 0 unalt]ably fix$4 ,i became z x 7 a new man4 ,i 0 l "o1 :o1 aft] 8 eyes _h gr[n imp]ceptibly dim till at l5g? e object appe>$ indi/9ct & ( a gloomy g5]al hue1 has 8 sight in/antane\sly re/or$1 & beholds ! fabric ( ! univ]se 9 its g5u9e cle>ness1 brilliancy1 & tru?4 ,i 0 a/oni%$ at my own folly1 t ,i c\ld s long h f\nd gratification 9 pleasures mean & s5sual4 ,i 0 a%am$ ( my own degradation4 ,i c\ld n endure ! comp>ison betwe5 ! %[y1 unsub/antial attractions ( ! wom5 ,i _h hi!rto frequ5t$1 & ! *>ms ( ! adorable ,m>gu]ite4 ,! purity ( h] m9d seem$ to give a cele/ial brilliancy & s(tness to ! beauties ( h] p]son4 ,! gross & brutal pursuits ( ! debau*ee are (t5 inde$ describ$ by ! same epi!ts z ! virtu\s & ref9$ passion ) :i* ,i 0 n[ = ! fir/ "t inspir$2 b exp]i5ce conv9c$ me t !y diff]$ 9 _! mo/ ess5tial features4 ,! ,m>quis saw ! /ate ( my m9d1 & address$ me ?us4 8,c\nt10 said he1 8,i feel ! mo/ ard5t fri5d%ip = y4 ,i am inexpressibly conc]n$ = y\r welf>e4 ,y w be conv9c$ ( ?is1 :5 ,i h furni%$ y ) a clue to my late conduct t[>ds y4 ,i reg>d y1 if n z a ru9$ man1 at lea/ z a man 9 ! high road to ru94 ,y\r pres5t habits are ( ! mo/ dang]\s sort2 !y appe> to y p]fectly con=mable to pr9ciples ( ! /ricte/ hon\r2 nay1 !y come recomm5d$ to y by a c]ta9 clat & dignity ) :i* !y seem to be surr\nd$4 ,i c\ld say to y1 ,recollect y\rself4 ,be n misl$ by delusive appe>ances4 ,consid] ! pres5t /ate ( y\r =tune1 & ! /ate 9 :i* y\r "m left x4 ,y _c be ignorant h[ greatly x is impair$4 ,h[ has ?is circum/ance aris58 ,h y\r rev5ues be5 exp5d$ 9 ! s]vice ( y\r c\ntry8 ,h y pur*as$ any ?+ by !m t w conf] on y la/+ r5[n8 ,put toge!r ! sum ( actions1 :i*1 piece by piece1 y h be5 will+ to reg>d z indiff]5t & innoc5t1 if n z graceful & becom+4 ,y _c b be /ruck ) _! mon/r\s de=mity4 ,is x possible t y c be ignorant ( ! nature ( pov]ty8 ,!re is su* a ?+ z hon\rable pov]ty4 ,! pov]ty ( ,c9c9natus 0 hon\rable1 :o impov]i%$ himself by pay+ ! f9e :i* 0 facti\sly impos$ on 8 son1 & !n 0 cont5t$ to pass 8 "t alt]nately betwe5 ! highe/ situations & ! mo/ rigid simplicity4 ,! pov]ty ( a man ( g5ius1 su* z ,rabelais1 if n hon\rable1 is int]e/+1 :5 we comp>e 8 m]its & wor? ) t ( _m ( ^? p]sons ^u :om =tune has bl9dly lavi%$ h] fav\rs4 ,x is hon\rable1 if he h decl9$ ! means ( enri*+ himself by ! sacrifice ( 8 indep5d5ce & 8 pr9ciples4 ,b ( all e>?ly ?+s ! mo/ contemptible is ! man :o1 hav+ wa/$ 8 goods 9 riot\s liv+1 yet hung]s aft] ! luxuries t h prov$ 8 bane1 & fea/s himself ^u ! /eam ( da9ties ( :i* he has lo/ ! sub/ance4 ,pov]ty1 always suffici5tly disadvantage\s 9 a deg5]ate age1 :]e att5tion & c\rt%ip are dol$ =? ) scales ( gold1 is trem5d\s to him4 ,he is ! scorn ( all mank9d4 ,:]ev] he is a gue/1 he is invit$ only to be trampl$ ^u & insult$4 ,he is capable ( no?+1 & is a burd5 to society & mank9d4 ,! helplessness ( age advances ^u him ) /eal+ /eps1 & he is de/9$ to ga!r all its mis]ies & none ( its consolations4 8,i might h talk$ to y ?us1 b ,i refus$ x4 ,i appreh5d some?+ ( ! nature ( advice4 ,i "k t x c seldom be att5d$ ) its g5u9e effect1 & w nev] be receiv$ ) def]5ce & pleasure1 :]e its motives are capable ( miscon/ruction4 ,if ,i _h talk$ to y ?us1 ,i might h appe>$ to be indulg+ ! tyranny ( age2 ,i might h seem$ to assume an unbecom+ air ( sup]iority & comm&3 x c\ld n h be5 cle> t ,i 0 hone/ly int]e/$ 9 t1 ab\t :i* ,i affect$ s mu* conc]n4 ,i d\bt n ! +5u\sness ( y\r nature4 ,i d\bt n t y w\ld h be5 /ruck ) ! picture4 ,b ,i mu/ be p]mitt$ to d\bt ! adequate & la/+ effect ( my expo/ulation4 ,i 0 n will+ by my =w>dness & loquacity to we> out "o ( ! great spr+s ( human improvem5t4 8,i h det]m9$ on y\r re=m4 ,= t purpose ,i ?9k x necess>y to comb9e my remon/rances & advice1 ) a *ange ( y\r habits & situation4 ,y h ta/$ l>gely ( :at are commonly call$ ! pleasures ( life1 b !re are pleasures t y h n ta/$4 ,at ?is mom5t y anticipate !m2 & anticipate !m ) ! ard\r ( a lov]4 ,b y "k n yet all ! gratifications t att5d ^u dome/ic affections4 8,i am will+ to be/[ ^u y my daught]4 ,i cons5t to prove ! purity ( my advice1 & ! s9c]ity ( my reg>d1 by committ+ h] happ9ess to ! risk4 ,%e is a treasure1 ! equal ( :i* p]haps ! _w does n hold4 ,i speak n ( h] p]sonal attractions4 ,b 9 und]/&+1 accompli%m5ts1 & virtue1 ,i firmly believe no woman liv+ c comp>e ) h]4 ,9 possess+ h]1 y w be bless$ beyond ! lot ( pr9ces4 ,b1 at ! same "t t ,i %all ?us put happ9ess )9 y\r grasp1 rememb] t ,i commit to y\r disposal ! happ9ess ( ,m>gu]ite4 ,y are a wor?y & an hon\rable man2 y\r tal5ts & y\r virtues w con/itute h] felicity4 ,h] portion w r$eem ! injury :i* y\r patrimony has suff]$ f y\r excesses1 & y w h en\gh = y\rselves1 & = y\r mutual (fspr+4 ,i _c believe t1 ) su* a deposit intru/$ to y1 y w cons5t to br+ h] to mis]y & ru94 8,i h "o condition1 h[ev]1 to /ipulate ) y4 ,i require ( y1 z ! pl$ge ( h] happ9ess1 t y break (f y\r pres5t modes ( life2 t y sep>ate y\rself f y\r connections1 & retire into ! c\ntry ^u y\r pat]nal e/ate4 ,y are yet too "y to be 9 dang] f t tyranny ( cu/om1 :i* (t5 r5d]s m5 m advanc$ 9 life incapable ( reli%+ ! simple & g5u9e pleasures4 ,y w f9d cont5tm5t & joy 9 ! society ( my daught]1 & 9 ! bosom ( y\r ris+ family4 ,y w be happy 9 ! circle ( y\r own he>?1 & h little to ask ( ! re/ ( mank9d4 ,if1 9 any ill-om5$ & inauspici\s mom5t1 ! allurem5ts ( y\r pres5t vices 7=give ! pla9ness ( my spee*7 %\ld resume _! p[] ov] y1 ,i hope at lea/ t ,i %all nev] live to see x2 t ,i %all n be taught by bitt] exp]i5ce1 t ,i h sacrific$ to ! dis9t]e/$ness ( my fri5d%ip ! happ9ess ( my daught] & ( my po/]ity60 ,my he>t weeps blood1 :ile ,i record ! admonitions ( ?is noble & g5]\s man4 ,a nobl] ,france did n conta9 ?r\gh all h] b\nd>ies4 ,ref9$ by lit]ature1 poli%$ by ! be/ society 8 age c\ld af=d1 gr[n grey 9 ! field ( hon\r1 & p>ticul>ly di/+ui%$ by ! p]sonal atta*m5t & confid5ce ( 8 sov]eign4 ,:at 0 all ?is advice to me8 ,:at return did ,i make to ?is unp>allel$ k9dness & fri5d%ip8 ,i ru9$ ?is admirable woman6 ,i involv$ h] 9 pov]ty & %ame6 ,) ! mo/ savage b>b>ity ,i prep>$ = h] an immature grave6 ,c ,i =get ?is8 ,( :at avail to me are immortal life & immortal y\?8 ,oh1 ,m>gu]ite1 ,m>gu]ite6 ,= ev] ?y image haunts me6 ,= ev] ?y gho/ upbraids me6 ,h[ little h ,i prov$ myself wor?y ( su* a p>tn]6 ,r :at puni%m5t1 :at plagues1 :at %ame & dete/ation h ,i n des]v$6 ,prais$ be ,heav51 ! la/ pray] ( ! ,m>quis ( ,damville at lea/ 0 grant$6 ,he did n live to witness my relapse1 my pr(ligacy1 & insanity4 ,i resume ! ?read ( my /ory4--,i li/5$ to ! address ( ! ,m>quis ) rev]5ce & admiration4 ,i accept$ 8 conditions ) joy4 ,i m>ri$ 8 adorable daught]1 & conduct$ h] to my pat]nal e/ate 9 ! ,b\rdelois4 ,n[ only x 0 t ,i ta/$ ( p]fect happ9ess4 ,to judge f my own exp]i5ce 9 ?is situation1 ,i %\ld say1 t nature has aton$ = all ! disa/]s & mis]ies %e s copi\sly & incessantly p\rs ^u h] sons1 by ?is "o gift1 ! transc5d5t enjoym5t & nameless delights :i*1 :]ev] ! he>t is pure & ! s\l is ref9$1 wait on ! atta*m5t ( two p]sons ( opposite sexes4 ,my belov$ ,m>gu]ite guid$ & direct$ me1 at ! same "t t %e 0 ev] /udy+ my gratification4 ,i in/ruct$ h] by my exp]i5ce1 :ile %e enlight5$ me by ! rectitude & decision ( h] ta/e4 ,ours 0 a sob] & dignifi$ happ9ess1 & its v sobriety s]v$ to give x additional voluptu\sness4 ,we _h ea* our sep>ate pursuits1 :e!r = ! cultivation ( our m9ds1 or ! promotion ( our mutual int]e/s4 ,sep>ation gave u respectability 9 ea* o!r's eyes1 :ile x prep>$ u to ent] ) fre% ard\r into society & conv]sation4 ,9 company ) ea* o!r1 h\rs pass$ ov] u1 & appe>$ b m9utes4 ,x has be5 said to be a peculi> felicity = any "o to be prais$ by a man :o is himself em95tly a subject ( praise3 h[ mu* happi] to be priz$ & lov$ by a p]son wor?y ( love8 ,a man may be priz$ & valu$ by 8 fri5d2 b 9 h[ diff]5t a /yle ( s5tim5t f ! reg>d & atta*m5t t may reign 9 ! bosom ( 8 mi/ress or 8 wife8 ,self-complac5cy & self-satisfaction may p]haps be numb]$ among ! pr9cipal s\rces ( cont5tm5t4 ,x is necess>y = him :o w\ld endure exi/5ce ) pati5ce1 t he %\ld conceive himself to be some?+1--t he %\ld be p]suad$ he is n a ciph] 9 ! mu/]-roll ( man4 ,h[ bitt] is ! angui% we are sometimes doom$ to su/a9 9 ?is respect f ! m>ks we receive ( o!r m5's indiff]5ce & contempt8 ,to feel t we are lov$ by "o ^: love we h des]v$1 to be employ$ 9 ! mutual int]*ange ( ! m>ks ( ?is love1 habitually to /udy ! happ9ess ( "o by :om our happ9ess is /udi$ 9 return1 ?is is ! mo/ desirable1 z x is ! g5u9e & unadult]at$ condition ( human nature4 ,i mu/ h "s "o to sympa?ise )2 ,i _c be> to be cut (f f all relations3 ,i desire to exp]i5ce a confid5ce1 a concord1 an atta*m5t1 t _c rise betwe5 common acqua9tance4 ,9 e /ate we long = "s fond bosom on :i* to re/ our we>y head2 "s speak+ eye ) :i* to ex*ange ! glances ( intellig5ce & affection4 ,!n ! s\l w>ms & exp&s itself2 !n x %uns ! obs]vation ( e o!r behold]2 !n x melts ) feel+s t are inexpressible1 b t ! he>t und]/&s )\t ! aid ( words2 !n ! eyes swim ) rapture2 !n ! frame langui%es ) enjoym5t2 !n ! s\l burns ) fire2 !n ! two p]sons ?us ble/ are no long] two2 di/ance vani%es1 "o ?\ght animates1 "o m9d in=ms !m4 ,?us love acts2 ?us x is rip5$ to p]fection2 nev] does man feel himself s mu* alive1 s truly e!rial1 z :51 bur/+ ! bonds ( diffid5ce1 unc]ta9ty & res]ve1 he p\rs himself entire into ! bosom ( ! woman he adores4 ,m>gu]ite de ,damville 0 p>ticul>ly di/+ui%$ f e o!r woman ,i ev] knew by ! ju/ness ( h] ta/e & ! vividness ( h] feel+s4 ,?is circum/ance 0 a fund ( inexhau/ible delight & improvem5t to me4 ,we 7 bo? ( u well acqua9t$ ) ! mo/ em95t poets & f9e writ]s ( mod]n times4 ,b :5 we came to read !m toge!r1 !y pres5t$ !mselves 9 a po9t ( view 9 :i* !y _h nev] be5 se5 by u be=e4 ,x is1 p]haps1 m important t poetry1 & e ?+ t excites ! imag9ation or appeals to ! he>t1 %\ld be read 9 solitude1 ?an 9 society4 ,b ! true way to und]/& our au?or 9 ^! cases1 is to employ ea* ( ^! modes 9 succession4 ,! t]rible1 ! maje/ic1 ! voluptu\s & ! melt+1 are all ( !m1 9 a consid]able degree1 affairs ( sympa?y2 & we nev] judge ( !m s infallibly1 or ) s mu* satisfaction1 z :51 9 ! pres5ce ( ea* o!r1 ! emotion is k9dl$ 9 ei!r bosom at ! same in/ant1 ! eye-beams1 pregnant ) s5tim5t & mean+1 involunt>ily meet & m+le2 ! voice ( ! read] becomes modulat$ by ! ideas ( 8 au?or1 & t ( ! he>]1 by an accid5tal int]jection ( mom5t>y comm5t or applause1 confesses its accord4 ,x 0 9 ?is mann] t we read toge!r ! admirable sonnets ( ,petr>*1 & pass$ 9 review ! sublime effusions ( ,dante4 ,! lett]s ( ,eloisa to ,abel>d af=d$ u s+ul> delight4 ,we se>*$ into ! effusions ( ! ,tr\bad\rs1 &1 among all _! absurdities & inequality1 we f\nd a wildness1 a d>+ p\r+ =? ( ! s\l1 an unprun$ ri*ness ( imag9ation1 &1 f "t to "t1 a gr&eur ( conception & audaci\s ecc5tricity ( ?\ght1 t fill$ u ) unlook$ = transport4 ,at o!r times1 :5 n regul>ly engag$ 9 ?is species ( read+1 we w\ld repeat passages to ea* o!r1 communicate ! discov]ies ( ?is sort t ei!r _h made 9 solitude1 & po9t out unobs]v$ beauties1 t p]haps nei!r ( u w\ld h rem>k$1 b = ! sugge/ions ( ! o!r4 ,x is impossible = two p]sons to be con/itut$ s mu* alike1 b t "o ( !m %\ld h a m g5u9e & in/antane\s reli% = "o sort ( excell5ce1 & ano!r = ano!r4 ,?us we add$ to ea* o!r's /ores1 & acquir$ a l>g5ess ( conception & lib]ality ( judgm5t t nei!r ( u w\ld h arriv$ at if sep>ate4 ,x is difficult to imag9e h[ prolific ?is k9d ( amusem5t prov$ ( true happ9ess4 ,we 7 mutually delight$ to rem>k ! accord ( our feel+s1 & /ill m s1 z we p]ceiv$ t accord to be h\rly increas+1 & :at /ruck ei!r z a blemi% 9 ! o!r1 we>+ out & disappe>+4 ,we 7 also l$ by ! same means to adv]t to ! p[]s ( m9d exi/+ 9 ea*1 ! rectitude ( judgm5t & delicacy ( feel+4 ,z our atta*m5t h\rly increas$1 we rejoic$ 9 ?is reciprocation ( b5efits1 :ile ea* gave or receiv$ some?+ t add$ to value ( m9d & wor? ( "*4 ,mutual e/eem 0 incessantly kept alive1 & mutual e/eem is ! only sub/antial basis ( love4 ,ea* ( u h\rly bless$ our common lot1 :ile ea* believ$ x impracticable else:]e to h f\nd s mu* wor? bl5d$ ) s mu* sweetness4 ,b we did n conf9e ourselves to ! libr>y & fireside4 ,we walk$1 we rode1 we travell$ toge!r2 we obs]v$ toge!r ! beauties ( nature1 & ! sy/em ( ! univ]se2 we trav]s$ _m prov9ces ( ,france1 & "s p>ts ( ,italy & ,spa92 we exam9$ ! *>act]s ( mank9d1 z !y are modifi$ by ! v>ieties ( natural desc5t1 or ! div]sities ( political gov]nm5t4 ,9 all ?is we f\nd peculi> gratification4 ,!re is some?+ 9 ! sc5t & impression ( a balmy atmosph]e1 9 ! lu/re ( sun%9e1 9 ! azure heav5 & ! purple cl\ds1 9 ! op5+ ( prospects on ?is side & on t1 9 ! contemplation ( v]dure & f]tility1 & indu/ry & simplicity & *e]fulness1 9 all _! v>iations1 9 ! v act & ex]cise ( travell+1 peculi>ly cong5ial to ! human frame4 ,x exp&s ! he>t1 x makes ! _s dance1 & exquisitely disposes u = social enjoym5t4 ,! m9d becomes m elevat$ & ref9$1 x assumes a microscopical & unwont$ s5sibility2 x feels ?+s :i*1 9 ord9>y mom5ts1 are unhe$$ & unkn[n2 x enjoys ?+s too evanesc5t = a "n1 & too m9ute to be arre/$2 x trembles ) pleasure ?r\gh e fibre & e articulation4 ,"o ?+ is necess>y to be m5tion$ 9 ?is place1 ?\gh1 :ile x adds to ! fidelity ( del9eation1 ,i am aw>e x breaks ! tone ( feel+1 & ! h>mony ( ! picture4 ,b x is n my int5tion 9 ?is hi/ory to pass myself = bett] ?an ,i am4 ,i h laid d[n to myself ! sacr$ maxim ( absolute tru? & imp>tiality4 ,i mu/ confess1 !re=e1 ) :atev] angui%1 my extreme inf]iority to my incomp>able p>tn]4 ,%e _h all ! simplicity ( g5u9e ta/e4 ,! m %e deliv]$ h]self up to nature1 ! great] 0 h] cont5t4 ,all sup]flu\s app5dages & %[ appe>$ to h] z s _m ob/acles to enjoym5t4 ,%e d]iv$ h] happ9ess f ! tone ( h] own m9d1 & /ood 9 no ne$ ( ! gap+ admiration & /upid wond] ( o!rs to make h] feel h]self happy4 ,b ,i reta9$ ! orig9al vice ( my m9d4 ,! ge/ures ( wor%ip & ! voice ( applause 7 necess>y to me4 ,i did n suffice to myself4 ,i 0 n satisfi$ ) ! tranquil & +lori\s fruition ( g5u9e pleasures1 =gett+ ! va9 & anxi\s tumult ( ! _w1 & =gott5 by ^? :o figur$ on its !atre4 ,x may be1 t ,m>gu]ite c\ld1 & ought1 by ins5sible degrees1 to h root$ out ?is disease ( my m9d4 ,b ,i am conc]n$ only ) ! /atem5t ( facts2 & ,i "k t no su* ?+ 0 ! effect ( our int]c\rse4 ,?is absurd passion did n1 h[ev]1 at ?is "t1 lead me to any fatal extremities4 ,x cont5t$ itself ) ! frivol\s gratification result+ f a c]ta9 portion ( o/5tation & exp5se4 ,i ma9ta9$ a consid]able tra9 ( s]vants3 my ap>tm5ts 7 magnific5t1 & my furniture spl5did4 ,:5 we travell$1 x 0 ) an att5dance little %ort ( pr9cely4 ,idiot t ,i 01 to reg>d ?is z an addition to ! g5u9e pleasures :i* ,i h above enum]at$6 ,:5 we 7 at home1 e accid5tal gue/ 0 receiv$ & ent]ta9$ ) extraord9>y pomp1 a pomp n direct$ to add to 8 accommodation1 b t 0 design$ to leave him impress$ ) a/oni%m5t & admiration at ! _s ( 8 ho/4 ,(t51 inde$1 did ,i feel ?is o/5tation an encumbrance3 (t5 did ,i langui% = ! ease & fre$om :i* result f a m$iocrity ( circum/ances4 ,b ?is ,i call$1 do+ hon\r to my ance/ors & my c\ntry1 & v9dicat+ ! consid]ation due to ! h\se ( ,/4 ,leon4 ,to quit ?is pa9ful recollection4--,a circum/ance :i* t5d$ at ?is "t to fill ! measure ( my happ9ess1 consi/$ 9 ! de> pl$ges :i* ,m>gu]ite bore me ( our mutual affection4 ,x is impossible = him :o has n exp]i5c$ x1 to conceive ! accumulation :i* a g5u9e t5d]ness d]ives f ?is s\rce4 ,! difficulties are _m t att5d ^u pregnancy2 trifles are at t p]iod s\rces ( fatigue & injury2 x is necess>y t ! p]son %\ld be protect$1 & ! m9d tranquil4 ,we love to wat* ov] a delicate plant1 t appe>s to call = all our anxiety & att5tion4 ,!re is 9 ?is case ! s5tim5t1 )\t ! repulsive circum/ances t att5ds ^u our sympa?y ) a dang]\s & al>m+ disease4 ,m>gu]ite1 by h] s5sibility & gr[+ atta*m5t1 abundantly rew>d$ my c>es4 ,at l5g? ! critical p]iod arrives1 :5 an ev5t s extraord9>y occurs1 z _c fail to put ! human frame 9 consid]able jeop>dy4 ,nev] %all ,i =get ! int]view betwe5 u imm$iately subsequ5t to h] fir/ p>turition1 ! effusion ( s\l ) :i* we met ea* o!r aft] all dang] seem$ to h subsid$1 ! k9dness :i* animat$ u1 increas$ z x 0 by ideas ( p]il & suff]+1 ! sacr$ s5sation ) :i* ! "m pres5t$ h] infant to h] husb&1 or ! complac5cy ) :i* we read 9 ea* o!r's eyes a common s5tim5t ( melt+ t5d]ness & inviolable atta*m5t6 ,?is1 %e seem$ to say1 is ! jo9t result ( our common affection4 ,x p>takes equally ( bo?1 & is ! %r9e 9 :i* our sympa?ies & our life h be5 p\r$ toge!r1 nev] to be sep>at$4 ,let o!r lov]s te/ify _! engagem5ts by pres5ts & tok5s2 we record & /amp our atta*m5t 9 ?is preci\s creature1 a creature ( t species :i* is m admirable ?an any ?+ else ! _w has to boa/1 a creature susceptible ( pleasure & pa91 ( affection & love1 ( s5tim5t & fancy1 ( wisdom & virtue4 ,?is creature w daily /& 9 ne$ ( an aid we %all delight to af=d2 w require our m$itations & ex]tions to =w>d its improvem5t1 & confirm its m]its & its wor?4 ,we %all ea* bl5d our ex]tions1 = t purpose1 & our union1 confirm$ by ?is common object ( our lab\r & affection1 w e day become m sacr$ & indissoluble4--,all ?is ! pres5t weakness ( my belov$ ,m>gu]ite w\ld n all[ h] to say4 ,b all ?is occurr$ to my reflections2 &1 :5 we _h "t tranquilly to comp>e our recollection ( ! ev5t1 x pla9ly appe>$ t 9 all ?is our he>ts & conceptions _h mo/ truly sympa?is$4 ,! possess+ a ?ird object1 a common c5tre ( anxiety to bo?1 is f> f weak5+ ! reg>d ( su* a c\ple = ea* o!r4 ,x does n sep>ate or div]t !m2 x is a new l9k ( connection4 ,ea* is atta*$ to x ! m = ! sake ( ei!r2 ea* reg>ds x z a sort ( bran* or scion1 repres5t+ ! p>5t2 ea* rejoices 9 its heal?1 its good hum\r1 its smiles1 its increase 9 size1 9 /r5g?1 & 9 faculties1 pr9cipally f ! idea ( ! gratification !y w communicate to ! o!r4 ,7 x n = ?is idea1 7 x possible ! pleasure %\ld n be mutual1 ! s5tim5t w\ld be /ripp$ ( its pr9cipal elevation & ref9em5t2 x w\ld be comp>atively cold1 selfi%1 solit>y1 & inane4 ,9 ! fir/ t5 ye>s ( our m>riage my wife br\ght me five *ildr51 two sons & ?ree daught]s4 ,! second son only di$ 9 8 infancy4 ,my pr$om9ant passion at ?is "t 0 t ( dome/ic pleasures & employm5ts1 & ,i devot$ myself1 jo9tly ) ! "m1 to ! cultivation ( ! m9ds ( my *ildr54 ,!y all 9 a consid]able degree rew>d$ our c>e2 !y 7 all amiable4 ,taught by ! example ( _! p>5ts1 !y liv$ 9 uncommon h>mony & affection4 ,*>les1 ! elde/1 0 a lad ( a bold & active disposition2 b ! s5tim5ts ( virtue & hon\r t 7 infus$ into him1 bo? by ,m>gu]ite & myself1 f\nd a fav\rable reception1 & promis$ to r5d] ^? qualities1 :i*1 if left to !mselves1 might h be5 turbul5t & dang]\s1 productive ( ! happie/ consequ5ces4 ,julia1 8 elde/ si/]1 0 uncommonly mild & affectionate1 alive to ! slighte/ v>iations ( treatm5t1 pr(\ndly depress$ by e m>k ( unk9dness1 b exquisitely s5sible to demon/rations ( sympa?y & atta*m5t4 ,%e appe>$ little =m$ to /ruggle ) ! difficulties ( life & ! fr[ns ( ! _w2 b1 9 p]iods ( quietness & tranquillity no?+ c\ld exce$ ! sweetness ( h] "* & ! fasc9ation ( h] mann]s4 ,h] *ief atta*m5t 0 to h] "m1 ?\gh %e 0 by no means capable ( h] "m's active b5efic5ce & h]oic =titude4 ,l\isa1 ! second daught]1 resembl$ h] "m 9 p]son1 & promis$ to resemble h] 9 "*4 ,m>gu]ite1 ! y\nge/1 diff]$ f ! :ole family1 9 ! playfulness & frolic ( h] disposition4 ,h] vivacity 0 inexhau/ible1 & 0 cont9ually display+ itself 9 innoc5t tricks1 & sm>t1 unexpect$ sallies4 ,no?+ c\ld possibly be m +5u\s ?an ?is admirable infant2 no?+ m k9d1 consid]ate1 & en?usia/ic 9 h] t5d]ness & grief1 :5 an occasion occurr$ to call =? ^! s5tim5ts4 ,b ! mom5t ! sorr[ful occasion 0 ov]1 %e w\ld resume all h] vivacity2 & ev5 sometimes1 9 ! mid/ ( h] te>s1 "s trait ( h] native hum\r w\ld escape4 ,i "k n :e!r all ! family 7 n m atta*$ to ! little ,m>gu]ite ?an to any o!r individual memb]1 z %e c]ta9ly (t5e/ contribut$ to _! amusem5t & pleasure4--,su* 0 ! amiable circle1 "o & all ( :om h be5 involv$ by me 9 ! mo/ trem5d\s ru9 & disgrace4 ,,*apt] ,v4 ,*>les 0 n[ n9e ye>s ( age4 ,8 "m & myself _h delight$ ourselves ) obs]v+ & =w>d+ ! op5+ ( 8 infant m9d1 & _h hi!rto be5 cont5t$ ) ! assi/ance ( a neighb\r+ prie/ by way ( preceptor4 ,b1 z he 0 our only son1 we 7 desir\s t he %\ld obta9 e advantage ( education4 ,we 7 nei!r ( u illit]ate2 b1 9 ! c\rse ( tw5ty-?ree ye>s1 :i* _h elaps$ s9ce ,i 0 myself ( ,*>les's age1 ! progress ( lit]ature & ! lit]>y passion 9 ,europe _h be5 a/oni%+ly great1 & ,i 0 anxi\s t he %\ld realise 9 8 own p]son e b5efit :i* ! =tunate & illu/ri\s p]iod ( human affairs 9 :i* he began to exi/ seem$ to hold out to him4 ,beside1 !re 0 an impetuosity & =w>dness 9 8 "*1 t seem$ ill to brook ! pr(\nd solitude & retirem5t 9 :i* 8 "m & ,i 7 cont5t$ to live4 ,8 case dem&$ companions ( 8 own age1 a little _w ( fell[-be+s1 ) :om he might engage 9 _! petty bus9ess & c>es1 ) ^: passions 8 own might jo/le or might sympa?ise1 :o might k9dle 8 emulation1 & op5 to him ! field ( frat]nal associations & amity4 ,!re 01 h[ev]1 a consid]able difficulty att5dant on ?is "q4 ,! s*ools ( real lit]ature 9 ,france1 :]e languages 7 prop]ly taught1 & sci5ce might be acquir$1 7 at ?is "t exce$+ly few4 ,! ne>e/ univ]sity 0 t ( ,t\l\se1 at ! di/ance ( tw5ty-six leagues4 ,?is 01 practically speak+1 z f> f u z ,p>is itself4 ,0 !n our d>l+ *ild to be torn f 8 p>5ts1 f all he 0 accu/om$ to see1 & all by :om he 0 lov$1 to be plant$ 9 ! mid/ ( /rang]s1 to h 8 m9d excit$ to obs]vation1 & ! _s ( g5]\s cont5tion r\s$1 at ! risk ( suppress+ ! t5d] affections ( 8 s\l1 & ! s5tim5ts ( duty1 reliance1 & love8 ,!re seem$1 h[ev]1 to be no alt]native4 ,x 0 necess>y t a tempor>y sep>ation %\ld take place4 ,intellectual improvem5t 0 a po9t by all means to be pursu$2 & we mu/ direct our ef=ts to keep alive along ) x ^? w9n+ qualities1 & t s(tness ( he>t1 :i* _h hi!rto r5d]$ ,*>les s em95tly our delight4 ,su* 7 our fond speculations & projects = ! future4 ,x 0 at l5g? det]m9$ t ,i %\ld proce$ along ) him to ,p>is4 ,i c\ld !re obs]ve ^u ! spot ! /ate ( ! univ]sity1 & ! means ( le>n+ t exi/$ 9 ! metropolis2 & c\ld consult ) "s ( ^? em95t lum9>ies ) :om ,i _h become acqua9t$ at ! h\se ( ! ,m>quis de ,damville4 ,m>gu]ite decl9$ accompany+ me ^u ?is occasion4 ,h] fa!r 0 dead3 %e c\ld n ?9k ( quitt+ h] daught]s = any consid]able "t2 & our nuptial engagem5t ( resid+ always 9 ! c\ntry gave h] a repugnance to ! remov+ ) h] :ole family to ,p>is4 ,x 0 left probable t %e might come to me :5 ! bus9ess 0 settl$1 if at t "t x 0 det]m9$ to leave h] son at ! capital2 & t %e might !n reconduct me to ! place1 :i* _h be5 ! sc5e ( all my happ9ess1 b :i* ,i 0 de/9$ nev] to revisit 9 peace4 ,prelim9>ies be+ at l5g? fully adju/$ 9 ! mann] t appe>$ suitable to ! importance ( ! occasion1 ,i set (f = ! metropolis ( my c\ntry1 :i* ,i _h se5 only once1 & t = a v %ort p]iod1 9 ! c\rse ( t5 ye>s4 ,t visit _h be5 produc$ by a v melan*oly circum/ance1 ! dea? ( ! ,m>quis de ,damville4 ,m>gu]ite & myself _h !n be5 summon$1 & arriv$ at 8 hotel b a few days be=e he expir$4 ,?\gh extremely weak5$ by ! mortal disease "u :i* he lab\r$1 he reta9$ all ! faculties ( 8 m9d1 & conv]s$ ) u 9 ! mo/ affectionate & ende>+ t]ms4 ,he congratulat$ u ^u our mutual felicity2 nor c\ld ! situation 9 :i* we f\nd him1 ^u ! br9k ( an ev]la/+ oblivion ( all e>?ly ?+s1 abate ! s9c]ity & f]v\r ( 8 delight4 ,he ?ank$ me = my c>riage & conduct z a husb&1 :i*1 he said1 might ) propriety be held up z a model to ! human species4 ,he applaud$ himself = t m+l$ disc]nm5t & det]m9ation1 :i*1 z he affirm$1 _h s opportunely secur$ my virtue & 8 daught]'s happ9ess4 ,he tru/$ t ,i 0 n[ suffici5tly wean$ f ^? habits :i* _h =m]ly giv5 him s mu* al>m4 ,at ! same "t he conjur$ me1 by e motive t an ov]fl[+ en?usiasm c\ld sugge/1 to p]si/ 9 my good resolutions1 & nev] to *ange t resid5ce1 :]e ,i _h f\nd e degree ( delight ( :i* ! human m9d is 9 its pres5t condition susceptible4 8,d n10 said he1 8be drawn aside by ambition2 d n be dazzl$ by ! glitt] ( idle pomp & decoration2 d n ent] ! remote/ circle ( ! vortex ( dissipation6 ,live 9 ! mid/ ( y\r family2 cultivate dome/ic affection2 be ! solace & joy ( y\r wife2 wat* = ! pres5t & future welf>e ( y\r *ildr52 & be assur$ t y w !n be f\nd no contemptible or unb5eficial memb] ( ! community at l>ge60 ,su* 7 ! la/ advices ( ! ,m>quis de ,damville4 ,excell5t man6 h[ ill 7 y\r lessons rememb]$6 h[ ill y\r k9dness remun]at$6 ,he di$ 9 ! six? ye> ( our m>riage4 ,! s]i\s impression :i* ?is ev5t produc$ 9 my m9d gave me small incl9ation to ent] into any species ( society1 & dispos$ me to quit ,p>is z soon z e respect _h be5 paid to ! obsequies ( ! deceas$4 ,^u my arrival 9 ! metropolis on ! pres5t occasion1 ,i imm$iately s\ght to r5ew my acqua9tance ) ^? amiable & em95t p]sons1 :o _h = ! mo/ "p con/itut$ ! circle ( ! ,m>quis de ,damville4 ,!y receiv$ me ) t int]e/ & att5tion t ,i h usually f\nd att5dant on a cultivat$ m9d4 ,! pleasure 0 consid]able1 t result$ f meet+ !m ?us aga91 aft] t5 ye>s' cessation ( int]c\rse4 ,a few ( !m1 inde$1 7 dead1 & o!rs disp]s$ by v>i\s accid5ts 9 diff]5t p>ts ( ,france or ( ,europe4 ,! great] "p1 h[ev]1 ,i /ill f\nd 9 t celebrat$ city1 :i* might well be consid]$ z ! metropolis ( ! civilis$ _w4 ,! k+ _h e>ly be5 di/+ui%$ by 8 love ( lett]s & ! arts2 & add$ ye>s1 :ile !y abat$ 9 8 m9d ! eag]ness ( ambition & glory1 gave new /r5g? to 8 m cultivat$ prop5sities4 ,! lib]ality ( 8 conduct1 & ! poli%$ ease t *>act]is$ 8 mann]s1 produc$ a g5]al pr$ilection 9 fav\r ( ! capital 9 :i* he resid$4 ,i f\nd all my =m] fri5ds matur$ & improv$ by ! sil5t influ5ce ( "t4 ,_! k 0 increas$2 _! views r5d]$ wid]2 _! conv]sation 0 m amus+ & in/ructive1 _! mann]s m bl& & unaffect$4 ,b1 if _! *>act]s _h exp]i5c$ revolution1 m9e 0 m mat]ially *ang$4 ,i _h be=e enc\nt]$ !m ) all ! heat & presumption ( y\?1 ) no views s mu* pres5t to my m9d z ^? ( *ivalry & a factiti\s hon\r1 ) no exp]i5ce b t ( a camp4 ,i 0 impetu\s1 volatile1 & dissipat$4 ,i _h n re/$ long en\gh ^u any "o ( ! fl[]s ( intellect to extract its honey2 & my m9d 0 kept 9 a /ate ( pret]natural agitation by ! passions ( a game/]4 ,x 0 n[ become cool1 mod]ate1 & tranquil4 ,! society ( ,m>gu]ite _h contribut$ mu* to ! improvem5t ( my "*2 ,i _h liv$ 9 no idle & bruti% solitude1 b 9 ! mid/ ( contemplation & lett]s2 & ,i _h ! passions ( a husb& & a fa!r1 9 ! extreme/ degree atta*$ to 8 family4 ,^! passions w be f\nd1 p]haps1 to be ! true s*ool ( humanity3 ! man1 ^: situation cont9ually ex]cises 9 him ! s(te/ & mo/ amiable *>ities ( our nature1 w almo/ infallibly surpass 8 bre?r5 9 k9dness to sympa?ise )1 & promptness to relieve1 ! di/resses ( o!rs4 ,w x be acc\nt$ /range t1 9 ,p>is1 surr\nd$ by p]sons ( v>i\s k & lib]al b5evol5ce1 ,i f\nd myself "u ! influ5ce ( o!r feel+s1 ?an any ,i _h lately exp]i5c$8 ,i 0 l a man :o _h suff]$ long calamity 9 a fami%$ vessel or a t[n besieg$1 & is imm$iately aft] introduc$ into ! mid/ ( luxury1 to a table load$ ) ! mo/ co/ly da9ties4 ,e vi& has to 8 appreh5sion an exquisite reli%1 & e w9e a delici\s flav\r1 t he nev] p]ceiv$ 9 !m be=e4 ,let no "o inf] t my love = ,m>gu]ite 0 dim9i%$2 x has already suffici5tly appe>$ 9 ! c\rse ( my n>rative1 t no happ9ess c\ld be m consummate ?an m9e 0 ) ?is admirable woman4 ,_h ,i be5 call$ ^u to *oose = ! seat ( my future life1 betwe5 my pat]nal *teau 9 ! ,bordelois1 ) ,m>gu]ite to grace my abode1 on ! "o h&2 & all ! gratifications t ,p>is c\ld af=d1 on ! o!r1 ,i %\ld n h hesitat$ ev5 = an in/ant4 ,b ! m9d ( man is made capaci\s ( v>i\s pleasures2 & a p]son ( s\nd & uncorrupt$ judgm5t w p]haps always enjoy ) emotion ! delights :i* = a long "t be=e he _h n enc\nt]$1 h[ev] enviable 8 cont5t may h be5 "u _! abs5ce4 ,i delight$ to conv]se ) ! m5 ( g5ius & ref9em5t ) :om ,p>is at ?is "t ab\nd$4 ,x 0 a fea/ ( s\l ( :i* ,i _h r>ely p>tak5 9 my rural retreat4 ,i delight$ to comb9e excell5ce ) numb]1 &1 to a consid]able degree at lea/1 v>iety ( int]c\rse ) s5tim5ts ( reg>d & fri5d%ip4 ,9 ^! select societies ,i f\nd no cold suppressions & res]ve4 ,_! memb]s 7 bre?r5 9 disposition1 simil> 9 _! pursuits1 & cong5ial 9 _! s5tim5ts4 ,:5 any "o spoke1 x 0 t ! p]son to :om he address$ himself might appreh5d :at 0 pass+ 9 8 ?\ghts4 ,!y p>ticipat$ ) s9c]ity & a lib]al m9d 9 ea* o!r's feel+s1 :e!r ( gay delight or melan*oly disappo9tm5t4 ,?us situat$1 ,i =got = a "t my engagem5ts ) ,m>gu]ite4 ,! sc5es ( ,/4 ,leon1 its fields1 its walks1 its woods & its /reams1 fad$ f my m9d4 ,i =got ! pleasure ) :i* ,i _h view$ my *ildr5 sport+ on ! gre51 & ! delici\s1 rural supp]s :i* ,i _h s (t5 p>tak5 ) my wife b5ea? my v9es & my fig-trees at ! p]iod ( ! sett+ sun4 ,:5 ,i set out = ,p>is1 ^! images _h dwelt ^u my m9d1 & sadd5$ my fancy4 ,at e /age ,i felt myself remov$ /ill fur!r f ! sc5e :]e my treasures & my affections 7 deposit$4 ,b1 %ortly aft]1 new sc5es & new employm5ts engag$ my ?\ghts4 ,! pleasures :i* ,i s\ght b weakly at fir/1 e "t !y 7 ta/$ increas$ my p>tiality = !m4 ,i seem$ = a "t to be "u ! influ5ce ( an oblivion ( my =m] life4 ,?us circum/anc$1 ! folly :i* _h s deep a root 9 my "*1 took hold ( me4 ,i hir$ a magnific5t hotel1 & ent]ta9$ at my own exp5se ^? p]sons 9 ^: society ,i pr9cipally delight$4 ,my circles became m num]\s ?an ^? ( ! ,m>quis de ,damville1 & 7 conduct$ 9 a v diff]5t /yle ( spl5d\r & pr(usion4 ,i correspond$ ) ,m>gu]ite2 b ,i cont9ually f\nd "s new pretext = l5g!n+ my /ay2 & %e on h] "p1 ?\gh ! k9de/ & mo/ indulg5t ( wom51 became s]i\sly al>m$ & unhappy4 ,z my p>ties 7 m num]\s ?an ^? ( ! ,m>quis de ,damville _h be51 !y 7 m mix$4 ,among o!rs1 ,i occasionally associat$ ) "s ( ^? noblem5 :o _h be5 ! companions ( my =m] dissipation & gam+4 ,an obvi\s consequ5ce result$ f ?is4 ,p>ties ( play 7 occasionally propos$ to me4 ,i resi/$--,i yield$4 ,my fir/ compliances 7 timid1 hesitat+1 & pa9ful4 ,i recollect$ ! lessons & exhortations ( my excell5t fa!r-9-law4 ,at l5g?1 h[ev]1 my al>ms abat$4 ,i reproa*$ myself ) ! want ( an hon\rable confid5ce 9 my own firmness1 & ! c[>dice ( suppos+ t ,i 0 n to be tru/$ ) ! direction ( my conduct4 ,"o ev5+ ,i v5tur$ beyond ! cauti\s limits ,i _h at fir/ prescrib$ myself1 & won a consid]able sum4 ,?is incid5t produc$ a /rong impression ^u me1 & fill$ my m9d ) tumult & agitation4 ,!re 0 a secret t ,i _h conceal$ almo/ f myself1 b :i* n[ recurr$ to me ) t5fold viol5ce4 ,i 0 liv+ beyond ! means ,i _h to dis*>ge my exp5ses4 ,my prop5sity ( ?is sort seem$ to be fatal & irresi/ible4 ,my m>riage ) ,m>gu]ite _h occurr$ opportunely1 to heal ! brea*es ,i _h at t "t made 9 my =tune1 & to take f me ! consci\sness ( emb>rassm5ts :i* ,i %\ld o!rwise h deeply felt4 ,! dea? ( ! ,m>quis1 h[ev] deplorable 9 o!r respects1 happ5$ at a p]iod :5 ! _s ( pr(usion & magnific5ce :i* *>act]is$ me _h aga9 involv$ my affairs 9 consid]able difficulty4 ,x might be suppos$ t ^! two cases ( exp]i5ce w\ld h suffic$ to extirpate my folly2 b !y _h r ! contr>y effect4 ,9 ea* ( !m ! ev5t 0 su* z to prev5t extravagance & ?\ghtlessness f produc+ _! g5u9e results2 &1 ( consequ5ce1 !y appe>$ less crim9al & mis*iev\s 9 my eyes ?an o!rwise !y probably w\ld h appe>$4 ,i r increas$ ?an dim9i%$ my e/abli%m5t ^u ! dea? ( my fa!r-9-law4 ,i _h no reasonable prospect ( any prop]ty h]eaft] to desc5d to me1 t %\ld exon]ate me f ! consequ5ces ( fur!r prodigality4 ,b ,i did n adv]t to ?is4 ,i saw myself surr\nd$ by my *ildr52 !y 7 ! delight & solace ( my life2 & yet ,i 0 ne$less ( _! int]e/s4 ,sometimes ,i resolv$ ^u a m rigid economy3 b economy is a pr9ciple t does n easily lay hold ( any b a he>t fram$ to receive x4 ,x is a bus9ess ( att5tive & vigilant detail4 ,x easily escapes ! m9d1 amid/ ! impetuosity ( ! passions1 ! ob/9acy ( root$ prop5sities1 & ! s$uction ( long e/abli%$ habits4 ,m>gu]ite1 inde$1 did n %>e ) me 9 ^! follies2 ! simplicity & +5u\sness ( h] m9d 7 su*1 t %e w\ld h be5 z happy 9 a cottage z a palace2 b1 ?\gh %e did n p>take my vices1 an ill-judg$ =be>ance & t5d]ness = my feel+s did n p]mit h] effectually to c\nt]act !m4 ,?is is1 p]haps1 ! only defect ( "* ,i am able to impute to h]4 ,aft] ,i _h won ! sum to :i* ,i h allud$1 ,i retir$ to my hotel full ( anxi\s ?\ghts4 ,x produc$ ^u me1 9 "s degree1 ! same effect z ord9>ily belongs to a great calamity4 ,i lay all night sleepless & di/urb$4 ,ru9 & despair pres5t$ !mselves to my m9d 9 a ?\s& =ms4 ,he$less prodigality & dilapidat$ rev5ues pass$ 9 review be=e me4 ,i c\nt$ ! ye>s ( my life4 ,i _h complet$ ! ?irty-second ye> ( my age3 ?is 0 sc>cely half ! probable duration ( human exi/5ce4 ,h[ 0 ,i to support ! rema9+ p]iod1 a p]iod little assort$ to difficulties & exp$i5ts2 & :i*1 9 ! close ( x1 seems imp]i\sly to call = e indulg5ce8 ,hi!rto1 an int]val ( f\r or five ye>s _h repeat$ly suffic$ to involve me 9 s]i\s emb>rassm5t4 ,my *ildr5 7 gr[+ up ar\nd me2 my family 0 likely to become /ill l>g]2 z my (fspr+ increas$ 9 ye>s1 _! dem&s ^u my rev5ues w\ld be m consid]able4 ,7 ^! dem&s to be slight$8 ,7 my daught]s1 nay1 0 ! heir ( my rank & my "n1 to be committ$ to ! compassion ( ! _w1 unprovid$ & =lorn8 ,:at a *e]less prospect6 ,:at a gloomy & disconsolate hue did ^! ideas spread ^u t future1 :i* ! heal? ( ! human m9d requires to h gild$ ) ! beams ( hope & expectation8 ,i _h already tri$ ! exp$i5t ( economy2 & ,i _h uni=mly f\nd ?is ine/imable & only %eet-an*or ( prud5ce glid+ f my delud$ grasp4 ,c\ld ,i promise myself bett] success 9 future8 ,!re seem$ to be some?+ 9 my habits1 :e!r ( inatt5tion1 o/5tation1 or inconsi/5cy1 t baffl$ ! /ronge/ motives by :i* p>simony & frugality c be en=c$4 ,:y did ^! ?\ghts importunately recur to me 9 ! pres5t mom5t8 ,!y 7 ! sugge/ions ( a malignant g5ius1--?\ghts1 ! de/9ation ( :i* 0 to lead me into a gulf ( mis]y & guilt6 ,:ile ,i 0 go+ on 9 a regul> tra9 ( exp5se1 :ile ,i 0 scoop+ ! m9e t 0 to swall[ me & my hopes toge!r1 ,i _h ! art to keep ^! reflections at bay4 ,n[ t ,i _h met ) an unexpect$ piece ( good =tune1 !y ru%$ ^u me ) irresi/ible viol5ce4 ,un=tunate co9cid5ce6 ,mis]able1--r let me say1 guilty1 ab&on$ miscreant6 ,z soon z ,i rose 9 ! morn+1 ,i w5t to ! closet :]e1 ! ev5+ be=e1 ,i _h deposit$ my rec5t acquisitions4 ,i spread out ! gold be=e me4 ,i gaz$ ^u x ) int5tness4 ,my eyes1 a mom5t aft]1 roll$ 9 vacancy4 ,i trav]s$ ! ap>tm5t ) impati5t /eps4 ,all ! demon seem$ to make 8 desc5t ^u my s\l4 ,?is 0 ! fir/ "t t ,i _h ev] felt ! /ruggle ( consci\s guilt & di%on\r4 ,i 0 f> inde$ f anticipat+ t species ( guilt1 & t species ( ru91 :i* soon aft] ov]:elm$ me4 ,my m9d did n once recur to ! possibility ( any s]i\s mis*ief4 ,i dwelt only1 z game/]s p]haps usually d1 ^u ! alt]native betwe5 acquisition & no acquisition4 ,i did n take into ! acc\nt ! ungov]nabl5ess ( my own passions4 ,i assum$ x z unque/ionable1 t ,i c\ld /op :5 ,i pleas$4 ,! ?\ghts t tortur$ me 71 9 ! fir/ place1 ^? ( a sangu9e & unexp]i5c$ adv5tur] 9 a lott]y1 ^: m9d re/s n = a mom5t ^u ! sum he has risk$1 b :o1 hav+ 9 fancy ! pr9cipal prize already 9 8 possession1 & hav+ di/ribut$ x to v>i\s objects & purposes1 sometimes fe>fully recurs to ! possibility ( 8 disappo9tm5t1 & anticipates ) t]ror :at w be 8 situation1 if depriv$ ( ?is imag9>y weal?4 ,i _h n[1 = ! fir/ "t1 op5$ my eyes to ! real /ate ( my affairs1 & ,i clung ) proportionable vehem5ce to ?is plank :i* 0 to be> me f ! /orm4 ,9 ! second place1 ,i felt1 ?\gh d>kly & unwill+ly1 ! immorality ( my conception4 ,to game may1 9 "s in/ances1 n be 9 diametrical opposition to lib]ality ( m9d2 b he :o games = ! express purpose ( improv+ 8 circum/ances mu/ be an idiot1 if he does n sometimes recollect t ! money lo/ may be z s]i\s a mis*ief to 8 neighb\r1 z ! money ga9$ c possibly be a b5efit to himself4 ,x is pa/ a "q1 t he :o ?us turns 8 amusem5t into 8 bus9ess loses ! dignity ( a man ( hon\r1 & puts himself ^u a level ) ! mo/ av>ici\s & usuri\s m]*ant4 ,?\gh ,i 0 f> f hav+ dige/$ a specific plan ( enri*+ myself by ^! discr$itable means1 yet ! v tumult ( my ?\ghts op]at$ /rongly to lead me once m to ! gam+-table4 ,i 0 9 no hum\r to busy myself ) my own ?\ghts2 ! calmness ( lit]>y discussion1 & ! poli%$ int]*ange ( wit1 :i* _h lately s mu* delight$ me1 _h n[ no attraction = my he>t2 ! turbul5ce ( a sc5e ( high play alone _h p[] to di/ract my att5tion f ! /orm )94 ,i won a second "t4 ,i felt ! rapidity & int5s5ess ( my contemplations /ill fur!r accel]at$4 ,i w n ov] aga9 detail :at !y 74 ,suffice x to say1 t my hopes became m ard5t1 my conception ( ! necessity ( ?is res\rce m impressive1 & my al>m le/ ?is la/ exp$i5t %\ld fail me m torm5t+4 ,! next "t ,i lo/ half z mu* z ! sum ( my w9n+s4 ,i !n proce$$ = sev]al days 9 a ne>ly regul> alt]nation ( ga9 & loss4 ,?is1 z soon z ! fact unavoidably =c$ itself ^u my m9d1 only s]v$ to r5d] my ?\ghts m desp]ate4 ,no1 exclaim$ ,i1 x 0 n = ?is t ,i ent]$ ^u s torm5t+ a pursuit4 ,x is n = ?is t ,i h des]t$ ! le>n$ societies :i* 7 lately my delight1 & committ$ myself to a sea ( disquiet & anxiety4 ,i came n "h1 l a boy1 = amusem5t2 or1 l "o :o has be5 br$ 9 ! lap ( ignorance & weal?1 to seek a relief f ! burd5 ( exi/5ce1 & to f9d a /imulus to animate my torpid spirits4 ,am ,i !n to be = ev] baffl$8 ,am ,i to cultivate a tract ( l&1 :i* is to pres5t me no?+ 9 return b unv>i$ b>5ness8 ,am ,i cont9ually to w9d up my passions1 & new-/r+ my att5tion 9 va98 ,am ,i a m]e in/rum5t to be play$ ^u by endless hopes & fe>s & torm5t+ wi%es8 ,am ,i to be ! sport ( ev5ts1 ! fool ( promise1 always agitat$ ) ne> approa*+ good1 yet always delud$8 ,?is frame ( m9d l$ me on ins5sibly to ! mo/ extravagant adv5tures4 ,x ?rew me 9 ! fir/ place into ! h&s ( notori\s gambl]s4 ,m5 ( real prop]ty %runk f ! /akes ,i propos$2 z1 ?\gh !y 7 9 "s degree infect$ ) ! v5om ( gam+1 _! infection 0 n s deep z m9e1 nor ) my desp]ation ( ?\ght4 ,! play]s ) :om ,i engag$ 7 = ! mo/ "p well kn[n to e "o b myself1 n to be able to pay ! sums !y play$ =1 if !y lo/2 nay1 ?is fact might be said 9 "s s5se to be kn[n to me z well z ! re/1 ?\gh ,i ob/9ately /eel$ myself aga9/ ! recollection ( x4 ,"o ev5+ ,i won ( "o ( ^! p]sons a v l>ge sum1 = :i* ,i suff]$ him to play ) me ^u hon\r4 ,! consequ5ce 0 simple4 ,! next morn+ he took 8 dep>ture f ,p>is1 & ,i he>d ( him no m4 ,be=e ?is1 h[ev]1 ! tide ( success _h set /rongly aga9/ me4 ,i _h su/a9$ "s s]i\s vicissitudes2 &1 :ile ,i 0 play+ ) ! wret* ,i h j m5tion$1 my eag]ness increas$ z my good luck began1 & ,i flatt]$ myself t ,i %\ld n[ av5ge myself ( =tune = "s ( h] late unk9dnesses4 ,my angui%--:y %\ld ,i call ! ?+ by a disproportionate & trivial appellation8--my agony--0 by s mu* ! great]1 :5 ,i f\nd t ?is p]son1 ! v individual :o _h already /ripp$ me ( consid]able sums1 _h disappe>$1 & left me )\t ! smalle/ b5efit f my imag9>y w9n+s4 ,no man :o has n felt1 c possibly image to himself ! tortures ( a game/]1 ( a game/] l me1 :o play$ = ! improvem5t ( 8 =tune1 :o play$ ) ! recollection ( a wife & *ildr5 de>] to him ?an ! blood t bubbl$ ?r\gh ! art]ies ( 8 he>t1 :o might be said1 l ! savages ( anci5t ,g]many1 to make ^! relations ! /ake = :i* he ?rew1 :o saw all my own happ9ess & all !irs ?r\gh ! long vi/a ( life1 dep5d+ on ! turn ( a c>d6 ,hell is b ! *im]a ( prie/s1 to bubble idiots & c[>ds4 ,:at h !y inv5t$1 to come into competition ) :at ,i felt6 ,_! alt]nate int]*ange ( flames & ice is b a feeble image ( ! et]nal v>ieties ( hope & fe>4 ,all bodily racks & torm5ts are no?+ comp>$ ) c]ta9 /ates ( ! human m9d4 ,! game/] w\ld be ! mo/ pitiable1 if he 7 n ! mo/ despicable creature t exi/s4 ,arrange t5 bits ( pa9t$ pap] 9 a c]ta9 ord]1 & he is ready to g wild ) ! extravagance ( 8 joy4 ,he is only re/ra9$ by "s rema9s ( %ame1 f danc+ ab\t ! room1 & display+ ! vil5ess ( 8 _s by e sort ( freak & absurdity4 ,at ano!r "t1 :5 8 hopes h be5 gradually work$ up into a p>oxysm1 an unexpect$ turn arrives1 & he is made ! mo/ mis]able ( m54 ,nev] %all ,i cease to recollect ! s5sation ,i h repeat$ly felt1 9 ! in/antane\s s9k+ ( ! spirits1 ! consci\s fire t spread ov] my visage1 ! ang] 9 my eye1 ! burn+ dryness ( my ?roat1 ! s5tim5t t 9 a mom5t 0 ready to ov]:elm ) curses ! c>ds1 ! /ake1 my own exi/5ce1 & all mank9d4 ,h[ e malignant & insuff]able passion seem$ to ru% ^u my s\l6 ,:at nights ( dreadful solitude & despair did ,i repeat$ly pass dur+ ! progress ( my ru96 ,x 0 ! night ( ! s\l6 ,my m9d 0 wrapp$ 9 a gloom t c\ld n be pi]c$6 ,my he>t 0 oppress$ ) a weight t no p[] human or div9e 0 equal to remove6 ,my eyelids seem$ to press d[nw>d ) an inv9cible burd56 ,my eyeballs 7 ready to />t & crack _! sockets6 ,i lay motionless1 ! victim ( ineffable horror6 ,! :ole endless night seem$ to be fill$ ) "o va/1 appall+1 immovable idea6 ,x 0 a /upor1 m insupportable & trem5d\s ?an ! utmo/ :irl ( pa91 or ! fi]ce/ agony ( exquisite p]ception6 ,"o day t my m9d 0 9 a /ate ( excessive angui% & remorse 7,i _h already contriv$ by ?is inf]nal means to dispossess myself ( ! half ( my prop]ty71 my son came unexpect$ly into my *amb]4 ,= "s "t ,i _h sc>cely ev] se5 him3 su* is a game/]6 ,all ! night1 :ile he slept1 ,i 0 engag$ 9 ^! haunts ( demons4 ,all ! day1 :ile he 0 awake1 & /udy+ ) 8 ma/]s1 or amus+ himself1 ,i 0 9 my b$-*amb]1 endeav\r+ to c\rt a few brok5 h\rs ( sleep4 ,:51 not)/&+ ! opposition ( our habits1 ,i _h ! opportunity ( see+ him1 ,i r %unn$ to use1 ?an s\ght to embrace x4 ,! sight ( him _h a sav\r ( bitt]ness 9 x1 t m ?an balanc$ all ! solace ( natural affection4 ,x br\ght be=e me ! image ( 8 "m & 8 si/]s2 x pres5t$ to my s\l a frightful tale ( des]t$ duties2 x 0 m gall+ & env5om$ ?an ! /+ ( scorpions4 ,/>t+ at ! s\nd ( ! op5+ door1 ,i call$ out abruptly1 & ) "s h>%ness1 8,:o is !re8 ,:at d y want80 8,x is ,i1 sir10 repli$ ! boy2 8x is ,*>les1 come to pay 8 duty to y60 8,i d n want y n[2 y %\ld n come1 b :5 y "k ,i am at leisure10 answ]$ ,i some:at di/urb$4 8,v well1 sir2 v well3 ,i am go+40 ,z he spoke 8 voice seem$ suffocat$ ) te>s4 ,he 0 on ! po9t ( %utt+ ! door1 & leav+ me to myself4 8,*>les60 said ,i1 n well kn[+ :at x 0 ,i int5d$ to d4 ,he return$4 8,come "h1 my de> boy60 ,i took 8 h&1 ,i drew him betwe5 my knees1 ,i hid my face 9 8 neck1 ,i %ook ) ! viol5ce ( my emotion4 8,g1 g1 boy3 y p]ceive ,i _c talk to y40 ,i pu%$ him g5tly f me4 8,papa60 cri$ he1 8,i d n l to leave y4 ,i "k ,i am b a boy1 & c be b ( little use to y4 ,if mamma 7 ) y1 ,i w\ld n be tr\blesome4 ,i %\ld cry :5 ,i saw y 7 griev$1 b ,i w\ld ask no que/ions1 & w\ld leave y1 because y desir$ x4 ,i hope y h n _h any bad news80 8,no1 my boy1 no4 ,come to me to-morr[1 & ,i w be at leisure1 & w talk a great deal to y40 8,ah1 papa1 to-morr[6 ,e day t ,i did n see y1 ,i ?\ght x w\ld be to-morr[6 ,& !re 0 "o to-morr[1 & ano!r to-morr[1 & s _m1 t x seem$ z if y _h =gott5 to speak to me at all40 8,:y1 ,*>les1 y d n d\bt my ^w8 ,i tell y t to-morr[ y %all see me z long z y please40 8,well1 well1 ,i w wait6 ,b d !n let x be all day6 ,i w n g to college1 & x %all be a holiday4 ,papa1 ,i d n l my lessons half s well z ,i did1 s9ce ,i h nei!r y nor mamma t ,i c tell :at !y are ab\t40 8,good-bye1 ,*>les6 ,be a good boy6 rememb] to-morr[6 ,good-bye60 8,papa6 n[ ,i am sure y look a good deal bett] ?an y did at fir/4 ,let me tell y some?+ ab\t ! lesson ,i read ?is morn+4 ,x 0 a /ory ( ,zaleucus ! ,locrian1 :o put out "o ( 8 own eyes1 t he might pres]ve eye-sight to 8 son40 ,?is artless /ory1 ?us innoc5tly introduc$1 cut me to ! s\l4 ,i />t$ 9 my *air1 & hid my face ^u ! table4 8,papa1 :at is ! matt]8 ,inde$ y fright5 me60 8,zaleucus 0 a fa!r6 ,:at !n am ,i80 8,yes1 ,zaleucus 0 v good inde$6 ,b1 d y "k1 8 son 0 v naughty4 ,x 0 8 disob$i5ce & wick$ness t made him liable to su* a puni%m5t4 ,i w\ld n = ! _w be l ,zaleucus's son4 ,i hope1 papa1 y w nev] suff] f my wilfulness4 ,y %all n1 papa1 inde$1 inde$60 ,i caught ! boy 9 my arms4 8,no1 y are v good6 y are too good6 ,i _c be> x60 8,well1 papa1 ,i wi% ,i 7 able to %[ y t ,i love y z well z ev] ,zaleucus lov$ 8 son60 ,i 0 melt$ ) ! +5u\sness ( ! boy's expression4 ,i quitt$ him4 ,i pac$ up & d[n ! room4 ,sudd5ly1 z if by p>oxysm ( insanity1 ,i seiz$ my *ild by ! arm1 ,i seat$ myself1 ,i drew him t[>ds me1 ,i put my eye ^u him4 8,boy1 h[ d>e y talk to me ( ,zaleucus8 ,d y mean to ins9uate a reproa*8 ,d ,i n dis*>ge a fa!r's duty8 ,if ,i d n1 "k1 ur*91 ,i w n be insult$ by my *ild60 ,! boy 0 a/oni%$4 ,he bur/ into te>s1 & 0 sil5t4 ,i 0 mov$ by 8 evid5t di/ress4 8,no1 *ild1 y h no fa!r4 ,i am afraid y h n4 ,y d n "k my bas5ess4 ,y d n "k t ,i am ! deadlie/ foe y h 9 ! _w40 8,de> papa1 d n talk ?us6 ,d n ,i "k t y are ! be/ ( m58 ,d n ,i love y & mamma bett] ?an e body else put toge!r80 8,well1 ,*>les10 cri$ ,i1 endeav\r+ to compose myself1 8we w talk no m n[4 ,did n ,i tell y1 y %\ld n come to me b :5 y knew x 0 a prop] "t8 ,i hope y w nev] h reason to hate me40 8,i nev] w hate y1 papa1 d to me :at y w60 ,he saw ,i wi%$ to be alone1 & left me4 ,,*apt] ,,vi4 ,9 ! ev5+ ( ! same day1 my belov$ ,m>gu]ite arriv$ unexpect$ly at ,p>is4 ,9 ! beg9n+ ( our sep>ation1 ,i _h be5 to ! la/ degree punctual 9 my lett]s4 ,i _h no pleasure s great1 z retir+ to my closet1 & p\r+ out my s\l to ! mo/ adorable ( wom54 ,by degrees ,i relax$ 9 punctuality4 ,ord9>y occupations1 h[ev] closely pursu$1 h a me?od 9 !m1 t easily comb9es ) regul>ity 9 po9ts ( an incid5tal nature4 ,b gam+1 :5 pursu$ ) avidity1 subv]ts all ord]1 & =ces e avocation f ! place assign$ x4 ,:5 my insane project ( supply+ ! inadequat5ess ( my =tune by ?is exp$i5t began to produce an effect exactly opposite1 ,i c\ld n1 b ) ! extreme/ difficulty1 /r+ my m9d to write to ! mi/ress ( my s\l4 ,i endeav\r$ n to ?9k1 ) di/9ctness & att5tion1 ( ! p]sons ^: happ9ess 0 mo/ ne>ly involv$ ) m9e4 ,i said to myself1 ,yet ano!r v5ture mu/ be tri$2 =tune %all *ange ! animosity ) :i* %e has lately pursu$ me2 ,i w repair ! brea*es t h be5 su/a9$2 & ,i %all !n return ) t5fold avidity to subjects t at pres5t ,i d>e n fix my m9d ^u4 ,my lett]s 7 accord+ly %ort1 unfrequ5t1 & unsatisfactory2 & ^? ( ,m>gu]ite discov]$ increas+ angui%1 p]turbation1 & anxiety4 ,:at a *ange 9 ! m9ds ( bo? _h ! lapse ( a few mon?s produc$6 ,n t my atta*m5t _h suff]$ ! dim9ution ( a s+le p>ticle2 b t atta*m5t1 :i* _h lately be5 ! s\rce ( our mutual felicity1 0 n[ fraught only ) di/ress4 ,my m9d 0 fill$ ) horrors2 & ,m>gu]ite expect$ f me an enc\ragem5t & consolation 9 abs5ce1 :i*1 alas1 ,i _h x n 9 my p[] to give6 ,i _h n[ cont9u$ 9 ,p>is = a "t va/ly great] ?an ,i _h orig9ally propos$4 ,aft] hav+ rema9$ m ?an t5 days )\t receiv+ "o ^w ( intellig5ce1 a lett] ( m9e 0 deliv]$ to ,m>gu]ite1 m %ort1 my/]i\s1 & di/ress+ to h] feel+s1 ?an any t _h prec$$4 ,! t5 days' sil5ce1 f me :o at fir/ _h nev] miss$ an opportunity ( p\r+ out my s\l to h]1 & contribut+ to h] pleasure1 0 exquisitely pa9ful4 ,!re is sc>cely any ?+ t produces su* a sickness ( ! he>t z ! repeat$ prorogation ( hope4 ,b1 :5 ! lett] arriv$ t _h be5 s anxi\sly look$ =1 :5 ! h&-writ+ ( ! sup]scription 0 recognis$1 :5 ! lett] 0 treasur$ up = ! impati5tly desir$ mom5t ( solitude1 t ! sacr$ emotions ( ! he>t might suff] no int]ruption1 & :5 x at la/ appe>$ s cold1 s om9\s1 s )]+ to ! buds ( affection1 ! det]m9ation ( ,m>gu]ite 0 spe$ily =m$4 ,! relations t b\nd u toge!r 7 ( too mighty a value to be disp5s$ or to be trifl$ )4 ,%e felt !m z ! v cords ( exi/5ce4 ,= t5 ye>s %e _h kn[n no solace t 0 disconnect$ f my idea1 no c>e b ( our own happ9ess & t ( our (fspr+4 ,b5evol5t %e 0 almo/ beyond human example1 & int]e/$ = ! welf>e ( all %e knew2 b ^! 7 brief & mutable conc]ns2 !y 7 n incorporat$ ) ! /am9a ( h] exi/5ce4 ,i 0 ! :ole _w to h]2 %e _h no idea ( satisfaction )\t me4 ,h] firmness _h be5 suffici5tly tri$ by ! int]posal ( sep>ation & abs5ce4 ,h[ 0 %e to int]pret ! obscurity t _h n[ aris58 ,_h ,i =gott5 my family & my wife8 ,_h ,i be5 corrupt$ & debau*$ by t ,p>is1 ! effects ( :i* ^u my "* h] fa!r _h s deeply appreh5d$8 ,_h ,i1 9 contempt ( e ?+ sacr$1 ent]$ into "s new atta*m5t8 ,_h ! attractions ( "s new beauty 9 ! metropolis made me indiff]5t to ! virtue ( my *ildr51 & ! life ( _! "m8 ,p]haps ! l5g? ( our atta*m5t _h infect$ me ) satiety1 & ! incon/ancy ( my temp] _h be5 r\s$ by ! *>ms ( novelty4 ,p]haps ! c]ta9ty ( h] k9dness & reg>d _h no long] allurem5ts = me2 & ,i might be excit$ to ! pursuit ( ano!r by ! pleasures ( hope comb9$ ) unc]ta9ty1 & ( a coyness1 t seem$ to promise compliance h]eaft]1 ev5 :ile x pron\nc$ a pres5t d5ial4 ,^! 7 ! images t haunt$ h] m9d2 !y eng5d]$ all ! wildness1 & all ! torm5ts1 ( a deliri\s p>oxysm2 %e resolv$ t no "t %\ld be sacrific$ to ne$less unc]ta9ty1 & t no ef=t ( h]s %\ld be unex]t$ to prev5t ! mis*ief %e fe>$4 ,x 0 ev5+ :5 %e arriv$4 ,i 0 ^u ! po9t ( repair+ to t sc5e ( nightly resort1 ! s\rce ( all my guilt & all my mis]ies4 ,i enquir$ ( my son's valet :]e he 01 & h[ he _h be5 9 ! c\rse ( ! day4 ,he 0 gone to b$3 he _h appe>$ unusually sad1 sometimes 9 te>s2 &1 :ile he 0 undress+1 _h sigh$ deeply two or ?ree times4 ,:ile ,i 0 collect+ ?is acc\nt 9 my own ap>tm5t1 ! gates ( ! hotel op5$1 & a numb] ( horsem5 ent]$ ! c\rt-y>d4 ,i 0 some:at surpris$2 because1 ?\gh ,i 0 accu/om$ to see mu* company1 few ( my acqua9tance visit$ me at s late an h\r1 except on ! ev5+s appropriat$ to receive !m4 ,i cross$ ! saloon to enquire4 ,"o ( ! s]vants exclaim$1 8,x is ,b]n>d9's voice3 x mu/ be my mi/ress t is come60 ,no?+ c\ld be fur!r f my m9d ?an ! ?\ght ( h] arrival4 ,i flew ?r\gh ! passage2 ,i 0 on ! spot ! mom5t t ! s]vant prep>$ to conduct 8 mi/ress f ! litt]2 ,i receiv$ ,m>gu]ite 9 my arms1 & l$ h] into ! h\se4 ,if ,i _h expect$ h] arrival1 ,i %\ld infallibly h met h] at ?is mom5t ) anxiety & confusion2 ,i %\ld h gone r\nd ! circle ( my ?\ghts1 & %\ld n h _h confid5ce to enc\nt] ! beam ( h] eye4 ,b ! ev5t 0 s unexpect$ z to drive all o!r ideas f my m9d2 &1 9 consequ5ce1 ,i enjoy$ sev]al m9utes1--ages1 r let me say1--( ! s9c]e/ transport4 ,i kiss$ ! mi/ress ( my s\l ) ec/asy2 ,i gaz$ ^u h] well kn[n l9eam5ts & features2 ,i li/5$ to ! pleas+ melody ( h] voice2 ,i 0 intoxicat$ ) delight4 ,^u occasions l ?is1 x seems z if e =m] joy t _h m>k$ ! v>i\s p]iods ( int]c\rse di/ill$ its v _s & ess5ce1 to compose a draught1 t5 times m delici\s & ref9$ ?an _h ev] be=e be5 ta/$4 ,our meet+ 0 l awak+ f ! dead2 x 0 ! emancipation ( ! we>y captive1 :o ex*anges ! dungeon's gloom = ! lu/re ( ! morn+1 & :o feels a cele/ial exhil>ation ( he>t1 ! v memory ( :i* _h be5 ins5sibly we>+ away f 8 trea*]\s bra94 ,all my s5ses p>took ( ! rapture4 ,m>gu]ite seem$ to %$ ambrosial od\rs r\nd h]2 h] t\* 0 ?rill+2 h] lips 7 nect>2 h] figure 0 t ( a desc5d$ deity6 ,h] pleasure 0 n less ?an m9e4 ,x is inde$ absurd1 x may be t]m$ pr(anation1 to talk ( solit>y pleasure4 ,no s5sation ord9>ily di/+ui%$ by t epi!t c endure ! te/ ( a mom5t's inspection1 :5 comp>$ ) a social enjoym5t4 ,x is !n only t a man is truly pleas$1 :5 pulse replies to pulse1 :5 ! eyes disc\rse eloqu5tly to ea* o!r1 :5 9 responsive tones & words ! s\l is communicat$4 ,altoge!r1 we are consci\s ( a sob]1 a *a/e1 & dignifi$ intoxication1 an elevation ( _s1 t does n b]eave ! m9d ( itself1 & t endures long en\gh = u to analyse & sav\r ! causes ( our joy4 ,= "s "t we re/$ on a s(a1 ea* fill$ & occupi$ ) ! obs]vation ( ! o!r4 ,my eyes assur$ ,m>gu]ite ( ! con/ancy ( my affection2 my kisses 7 ^? ( *a/e1 undivid$1 entire atta*m5t4 ,our words 7 insignificant & idle1 ! brok5 & incoh]5t phrases ( a happ9ess t c\ld n be sil5t4 ,at l5g? ,m>gu]ite exclaim$1 8,x is en\gh2 my fe>s are vani%$2 ,i h no que/ions to ask1 no d\bts to remove4 ,yet :y1 my ,reg9ald1 did y suff] ^? d\bts to ga!r1 ^? fe>s to accumulate8 ,surely y knew ! s+l5ess ( my affection6 ,h[ _m pa9ful days & h\rs might y h sav$ me1 almo/ by a ^w60 8,=give me1 my love10 repli$ ,i4 8,wa/e n ! gold5 h\r ( meet+ 9 recrim9ation6 ,feel+1 z y\r angelic goodness n[ makes me feel1 ,i wond] at myself1 t ,i c\ld = "o mom5t h cons5t$ to sep>ation2 t ,i c\ld h ?\ght any ?+ b ?is exi/5ce2 or t1 hav+ exp]i5c$ ! joys t y h be/[$1 ,i c\ld lose all image ( ! pa/1 &1 dwell+ 9 a des]t1 imag9e x p>adise60 8,recrim9ation60 rejo9$ ,m>gu]ite4 8,no1 my love2 y make me too happy to leave room = any ?+ b gratitude & affection6 ,=give me1 ,reg9ald1 if ,i pret5d t1 9 meet+ y ?us1 ,i f9d myself y\r sup]ior 9 happ9ess & love4 ,y only awake f le?>gy1 =getfulness ( y\rself &--( me2 b ,i awake f angui%1 a sep>ation1 t ,i desir$ n at fir/1 & ( :i* ,i h\rly wi%$ to see an end1 f d\bts t w\ld intrude1 & refus$ to be expell$1 f ! incessant contemplation & regret ( a felicity1 once possess$1 b possess$ no long]6 ,melan*oly ideas1 gloomy progno/ics ov]spread my sleepless nights1 & b$ew$ my pill[ ) te>s6 ,?is x is1 t1 at la/1 has driv5 me f my family & daught]s1 resolv$ to obta9 ! c]ta9ty ( despair1 or ! disp]sion ( my fe>s6 ,h ,i kn[n all ?is1 & ?9k y t ,i d n enjoy ) rapture ?is blissful mom5t80 ,:ile we 7 ?us conv]s+1 ,*>les ent]$ ! room4 ,he 0 n yet asleep :5 8 "m arriv$3 he he>d h] voice2 & ha/5$ to put on 8 clo!s1 t he might ru% into h] arms4 ,! pleasure ,m>gu]ite _h conceiv$ f our meet+1 & ! affectionate s]5ity t _h tak5 possession ( h] s\l1 infus$ d\ble ard\r into ! embraces %e be/[$ on h] son4 ,he gaz$ e>ne/ly 9 h] face2 he kiss$ h] ) f]v5cy2 b 0 sil5t4 8,:y1 ,*>les60 said %e1 8:at is ! matt] ) y8 ,are n y glad to see me80 8,t ,i am1 mamma6 ,s glad1 t ,i d n "k :at to d ) myself6 ,i 0 afraid ,i nev] %\ld h be5 glad aga960 8,pooh1 boy6 :at d y mean8 ,y 7 n "m-sick1 7 y80 8,yes1 inde$1 ,i 0 sick1 sick at he>t6 ,n t ,i am a c[>d6 ,i ?9k t ,i c\ld h be5 satisfi$ to h be5 )\t ei!r my fa!r or y = a little :ile4 ,b papa is s alt]$1 y _c ?9k6 ,he nev] smiles & looks happy2 &1 :5 ,i see him1 in/ead ( mak+ me joyful1 z x us$ to d1 x makes me sad60 8,de> ,reg9ald60 repli$ ! "m1 look+ at me1 8is x possible t1 :ile my he>t 0 haunt$ ) fe> & suspicions1 sep>ation alone %\ld h _h su* an effect on y80 8,i d>e say x 0 t10 int]pos$ ! boy4 8,i c\ld n make papa smile1 all ,i c\ld d3 b1 n[ y are come1 he w soon be well6 ,h[ mu* he mu/ love y1 mamma60 ,! artless prattle ( my son /ruck angui% to my s\l2 & awak5$ a :ole tra9 ( torm5t+ ?\ghts4 ,alas6 ?\ght ,i1 c x inde$ be love1 t ?us contrives aga9/ ! peace ( its object8 ,w\ld to ,god1 my *ild6 t my ?\ghts 7 z simple & pure z ?y innoc5t bosom6 8,& yet10 add$ ! boy1 z if recollect+ himself1 8if he c\ld n see y1 sure t 0 no reason = him to avoid me8 ,he seem$ z mu* afraid ( me1 z ,i h se5 "s ( my play-fell[s ( a snake6 ,inde$1 mamma1 x 0 a sad ?+ t1 :5 ,i want$ him to kiss me & press me to 8 bosom1 he %runk away f me6 ,!re n[6 x 0 j s1 z he looks n[1 t papa us$ to fr[n ^u me1 ,i _c tell h[ (t56 ,n[ is n t ugly1 mamma80 ,i c\ld no long] gov]n ! tumult ( my ?\ghts4 8,peace1 ur*960 cri$ ,i4 8,:y did y come to m> ! transport ( our meet+8 ,j n[1 ,m>gu]ite1 ,i =got myself1 & 0 happy6 ,n[ all ! villa9 rises 9 my s\l60 ,my wife 0 s a/oni%$ at ! p]turbation ( my mann]1 & at ! words ,i utt]$1 t %e 0 sc>cely able to articulate4 8,reg9ald60 9 brok5 acc5ts %e exclaim$--8my love6--my husb&60 8,no matt]10 said ,i4 8,x %all yet be well6 ,my he>t assures me x %all6--,be n di/urb$1 my love6 ,i w nev] cause y a mom5t's angui%6 ,i w\ld soon] die a ?\s& dea?s6--,=get ! odi\s ?\ghts t poor ,*>les has excit$ 9 me s unseasonably6 ,!y 7 m]e idle words6 ,dep5d ^u x !y 760 ,:ile ,i 0 speak+1 ,m>gu]ite hid h] face ^u ! s(a4 ,i took h] h&1 & by my c>esses endeav\r$ to soo! & compose h]4 ,at l5g?1 turn+ to me1--8,reg9ald60 said %e1 9 a voice ( angui%1 8d y !n endeav\r to hide f me ! real /ate ( y\r ?\ghts8 ,0 ! joy t att5d$ our meet+ p]i%able & deceitful8 ,aft] t5 ye>s ( unb\nd$ affection & confid5ce1 am ,i d5i$ to be ! p>tn] ( y\r bosom80 8,no1 ,m>gu]ite1 no6 ?is 0 b ! ?\ght ( a mom5t6 ,by to-morr['s dawn x %all h no exi/5ce 9 my bosom4 ,:y %\ld ,i torm5t y ) :at s soon %all h no exi/5ce to myself8 ,mean:ile1 be assur$1 my love 7in/ead ( suff]+ dim9ution7 is m full1 m f]v5t & entire1 ?an x ev] 060 ,at ?is in/ant my m9d exp]i5c$ an extraord9>y impression4 ,in/ead ( be+ wean$1 by ! pres5ce ( ?is admirable woman1 f my passion = gam+1 x became /rong] ?an ev]4 ,if ,*>les _h n ent]$ at ! critical mom5t he did1 ,i %\ld h rema9$ ) ,m>gu]ite1 &1 amid/ ! s long unta/$ solace ( love1 h1 at lea/ = ?is night1 =gott5 my c>es4 ,b t occurr5ce _h ov]turn$ e ?+1 _h uncov]$ ! w\nds ( my bosom1 & awak5$ conceptions t refus$ to be laid to sleep aga94 ,! arms ( my wife1 t 7 ab\t to embrace me1 sudd5ly became to me a ne/ ( scorpions4 ,i c\ld z soon h re/$ & enjoy$ myself ^u ! top ( ,vesuvius1 :5 x flam$4 ,new z ,i 0 to ?is species ( angui%1 tranquilly & full ( virtu\s cont5tm5t z ,i _h hi!rto pass$ ! ye>s ( my m>ri$ /ate1 ! pangs ( a guilty consci5ce ,i 0 :olly unable to be>4 ,i rose f my seat1 & 0 ^u ! po9t ( quitt+ ! room4 ,m>gu]ite p]ceiv$ by my mann] t !re 0 some?+ extraord9>y pass+ 9 my m9d4 8,:]e are y go+1 ,reg9ald80 said %e4 ,i answ]$ ) a slight nod4 8,n f>10 ,i repli$1 attempt+ an air ( apa?y & unconc]n4 ,%e 0 n satisfi$4 8,y are n go+ out80 %e enquir$4 ,i return$ to :]e ,i _h be5 sitt+4 8,my love1 ,i 0 go+ out at ! mom5t ( y\r arrival4 ,x is necess>y1 ,i assure y4 ,i hope ,i %all soon be back4 ,i am sorry ,i am oblig$ to leave y4 ,compose y\rself4 ,y are 9 want ( re/1 & _h bett] g to b$40 8,/op1 ,reg9ald6 ,af=d me a m9ute's leisure be=e y dep>t6 ,leave u1 ,*>les6 ,good night1 my de> boy6 ,kiss me2 rememb] t y\r "m is n[ 9 ! same h\se ) y2 & sleep 9 peace40 ,! boy quitt$ ! room4 8,reg9ald60 said ! "m1 8,i h no wi% to control y\r desires1 or be a spy ^u y\r actions2 b y\r conduct seems s extraord9>y 9 ?is in/ance1 z to disp5se me f ! obs]vation ( common rules4 ,i h always be5 a comply+ wife2 ,i h nev] set myself 9 contradiction to y\r w2 ,i appeal to y\rself = ! tru? ( ?is4 ,i despise1 h[ev]1 ^? delicacies1 an adh]5ce to :i* w\ld entail ^u u ! sacrifice ( all t is mo/ valuable 9 human life4 ,c ,i %ut my e>s ^u ! my/]i\s expressions :i* ,*>les's compla9ts h extort$ f y8 ,c ,i be ins5sible to ! extraord9>y purpose y decl>e ( leav+ me1 :5 ,i h yet be5 sc>cely half an h\r "u ! ro( ) y8 ,be=e ,*>les came 91 y seem to h ent]ta9$ no su* design40 8,my love10 repli$ ,i1 8h[ s]i\sly y comm5t ^u ! mo/ insignificant incid5t6 ,is x extraord9>y t y\r unexpect$ arrival %\ld at fir/ h made me =get an engagem5t t ,i n[ recollect80 8,/4 ,leon10 answ]$ my wife1 8be=e y indulge 9 surprise at my e>ne/ness1 recollect ! circum/ances t imm$iately prec$$ x4 ,?r\gh successive weeks ,i h wait$ = "s satisfactory & agreeable intellig5ce f y4 ,i _h a "r be=e ?is to h expect$ y\r return4 ,unc]ta9ty & a ?\s& fe>ful appreh5sions h at l5g? driv5 me f my home1 & br\ght me to ,p>is4 ,i am come "h = satisfaction to my d\bts1 & peace to my anxi\s he>t4 ,wond] n1 !re=e1 if y f9d some?+ m e>ne/ & det]m9$ 9 my proce$+s n[1 ?an ^u ord9>y occasions4 ,give me1 ,i conjure y1 give me ease & relief1 if y are able6 ,if n1 at lea/ all[ me ?is consolation1 to "k ! wor/60 8,be pacifi$1 ,m>gu]ite60 ,i rejo9$4 8,i am griev$1 ,heav5 kn[s h[ deeply griev$1 to h occasion$ y a mom5t's pa94 ,b1 s9ce y lay s mu* /ress ^u ?is circum/ance1 dep5d ^u x1 ,i w po/pone ! bus9ess ,i 0 go+ ab\t1 & /ay ) y40 ,?is concession1 volunt>y & s9c]e1 produc$ an effect t ,i _h n =ese54 ,m>gu]ite gaz$ = a mom5t 9 my face1 & !n ?rew h]self ^u my neck4 8,=give me1 my belov$ husb&60 %e cri$4 8,y inde$ make me a%am$ ( myself4 ,i feel myself inexcusable4 ,i feel t ,i h be5 brood+ ov] imag9>y evils1 & creat+ ! mis]y t corrod$ my he>t4 ,h[ inexpressibly y rise my sup]ior6 ,b ,i w conqu] my weakness4 ,i insi/ ^u y\r go+ to ! engagem5t y h made1 & w h5ce=? place ! mo/ entire confid5ce 9 y\r prud5ce & hon\r40 ,e ^w ( ?is spee* 0 a dagg] to my he>t4 ,:at 7 my feel+s1 :ile ?is admirable woman 0 tak+ %ame to h]self = h] suspicions1 & p\r+ out h] s\l 9 comm5dation ( my integrity6 ,i look$ inw>d1 & f\nd e ?+ !re ! rev]se ( h] appreh5sion1 a sc5e ( desolation & remorse4 ,i embrac$ h] 9 sil5ce4 ,my he>t pant$ ^u h] bosom1 & seem$ bur/+ ) a secret t x 0 dea? to reveal4 ,i ought1 9 return = h] g5]osity1 to h giv5 up my feign$ engagem5t1 & devot$ ?is night at lea/ to console & pacify h]4 ,b ,i c\ld n1 & ,i d>$ n4 ,! w\nd ( my bosom 0 op5$1 & w\ld n be clos$4 ,! m ,i lov$ h] = h] confid5ce1 ! less ,i c\ld endure myself 9 h] pres5ce4 ,to play ! hypocrite = s _m h\rs1 to assume a face ( tranquillity & joy :ile all )9 0 tumult & horror1 0 a task too mighty = human p[]s to execute4 ,i accept$ ( ,m>gu]ite's p]mission1 & left h]4 ,ev5 9 ! %ort int]val be=e ,i quitt$ ! h\se1 my c>riage 0 ne> to betray+ me4 ,i c\ld p]ceive h] wat*ful ( my c\nt5ance1 z if aga9 suspici\s t "s fatal secret lurk$ 9 my m9d4 ,%e said no?+ fur!r ^u ! subject h[ev]1 & ,i pres5tly escap$ ! inquisition ( h] eye4 ,x is sc>cely necess>y to describe ! /ate ( my m9d z ,i pass$ along ! /reets4 ,x is suffici5t to say t e ?+ ,i _h felt be=e f ! passion ( gam+ 0 trivial to ! s5sations t n[ occupi$ me4 ,n[ fir/ x /ood confess$ be=e me1 a demon t poison$ all my joys1 t *ang$ ! transport ( a meet+ ) ! ador$ ( my s\l into angui%1 t drove me =? f h] yet unta/$ *>ms a solit>y w&]] on ! face ( ! e>?4 ,my busy s\l drew =? at l5g? ! picture ( :at ?is enc\nt] w\ld h be51 if x _h be5 sanctifi$ ) ! /amp ( consci\s innoc5ce4 ,at "o mom5t ,i felt myself ! mo/ accurs$ ( mank9d2 ,i believ$ t he :o c\ld f9d1 z ,i did1 b>r5ness & bla/+ 9 ! *oice/ ( ,heav5's bless+s1 mu/ be mis]able beyond prec$5t or hope4 ,%ortly aft]1 h[ev]1 ,i review$ aga9 ! image ( my poison1 & f\nd 9 x ! promise ( a cure4 ,! m desp]ate my case appe>$ to me1 ) ! great] insanity ( expectation did ,i assure myself t ?is "o night %\ld retrieve all my mis=tunes4 ,9 giv+ to x ?is de/9ation inde$1 ,i %\ld afflict ! g5tle bosom ( my wife b too probably ) "s h\rs ( uneas9ess4 ,b ! ev5t w\ld ri*ly repay h] = s transitory a suff]+2 ,i w\ld !n op5 my :ole m9d to h]4 ,i w\ld practise no m res]ves2 ,i %\ld no long] be driv5 to ! refuge ( a vile hypocrisy4 ,i w\ld bid f>ewell to ! fr[ns & ! c>esses ( =tune4 ,i w\ld require ( h] no fur!r k9dnesses4 ,if ,i 7 incapable myself ( a rigid economy1 ,i w\ld commit implicitly to ,m>gu]ite ! disposal ( my income1 :om ,i knew to be e way qualifi$ = ! (fice4 ,) ^! reflections ,i n]v$ my m9d to ! mo/ decisive adv5tures4 ,:y %\ld ,i ent] into a long detail ( ! incid5ts ( ?is crisis8 ,soon1 ?\gh n imm$iately1 ,i began to lose consid]able sums4 ,i br\ght ) me 9 ! fir/ in/ance a p5etrat+ eye1 a collect$ m9d1 an intellect prep>$ = un9t]mitt$ ex]tion4 ,mis=tune subv]t$ all ?is4 ,my eye grew wild1 my s\l tempe/u\s1 my ?\ghts incoh]5t & di/ract$4 ,i 0 incapable ( any ?+ judici\s2 b ,i 0 det]m9$ to p]sev]e4 ,i play$ till morn+1 nor c\ld ! light ( morn+ induce me to desi/4 ,! sett+ sun ( t day beheld me a begg>6 ,!re is a degree ( mis]y1 :i*1 z x admits ( no description1 s does x leave no di/9ct traces 9 ! memory4 ,x seems z if ! weakness ( ! human m9d alike incapacitat$ x to support ! delirium ( joy1 & ! extremity ( sorr[4 ,( :at imm$iately succe$$ ! p]iod to :i* ,i h conduct$ my n>rative ,i h no recollection1 b a horror beyond all names ( horror1 wild1 inexplicable1 un9telligible4 ,let no "o1 h[ev]1 imag9e1 t ! tempor>y des]tion ( ! s\l is any alleviation ( its mis]y4 ,! m9d t s9ks "u its suff]+ does n by t conduct %ake (f its burd54 ,r1 t5 ?\s& times r1 w\ld ,i endure all ! calamities t h ev] yet receiv$ a "n1 ! s5sations & hi/ory ( :i* are capable ( be+ del9eat$1 ?an su/a9 t :i* has no words by :i* to express itself1 & ! conception ( :i* mu/ be tru/$ solely to ! faculties & sympa?y ( ! read]4 ,:]e is ! cold & inappreh5sive _s t talks ( madness z a refuge f sorr[8 ,oh1 dull & unconceiv+ beyond all belief6 ,i _c speak ( e species ( madness2 b ,i also h be5 mad6 ,?is ,i "k1 t !re is a vacancy ( s\l1 :]e all appe>s buri$ 9 /upidity1 & sc>cely des]ves ! "n ( ?\ght1 t is m intol]able ?an ! bitt]e/ reflections4 ,?is ,i "k1 t !re is an incoh]5ce1 9 :i* ! m9d seems to w&] )\t rudd] & pilot1 t laughs to scorn ! sup]/iti\s fictions ( design+ prie/s4 ,oh1 h[ _m sleepless days & weeks did ,i endure6 ! ?\ghts frantic1 ! tongue rav+6 ,:ile we c /ill adh]e1 if ,i may s express myself1 to ! me?od ( mis]y1 !re is a sort ( nameless complac5cy t lurks "u all t we c endure4 ,we are /ill consci\s t we are m52 we wond] at & admire our p[]s ( be+ mis]able2 b1 :5 ! ma/s & tackle ( ! intellectual vessel are all swept away1 !n is ! true sadness4 ,we h no consci\sness to su/a9 u1 no s5tim5t ( dignity1 no secret admiration ( :at we are1 /ill cl++ to our he>ts4 ,all ?is ,i v5ture to affirm1 ) ! full recollection ( :at ,i suff]$1 :5 re/or$ to my s5ses1 pres5t to my m9d4 ,:5 ! acc\nt 0 clos$1 & ! loss ( my la/ /ake _h f9i%$ ! sc5e1 ,i rose1 &1 quitt+ ! fatal spot :]e ^! transactions _h pass$1 ent]$ ! /reet1 ) a he>t oppress$1 & a bur/+ head4 ,my eyes gl>$1 b ,i saw no?+1 & c\ld ?9k ( no?+4 ,x 0 already ne>ly d>k2 & ! day :i* _h be5 tempe/u\s1 0 succe$$ by a heavy & settl$ ra94 ,i w&]$ = "s "t1 n kn[+ :i!r ,i w5t4 ,my pace1 :i* _h at fir/ be5 sl[1 gradually increas$1 & ,i trav]s$ ! :ole city ) a hurri$ & impati5t /ep4 ,! /reets :i* _h conta9$ few p]sons at fir/1 gradually lo/ ^? few4 ,i 0 almo/ alone4 ,i saw occasionally ragg$ & h\seless mis]y %r9k+ "u ! cov] ( a mis]able %$2 ,i saw ! midnight robb]1 wat*+ = 8 prey1 & ready to />t ^u ! unw>y pass5g]4 ,f me he fl$2 !re 0 some?+ 9 my air t impell$ ev5 desp]ate violation to %r9k f ! enc\nt]4 ,i cont9u$ ?is incessant1 unmean+ ex]tion = h\rs4 ,at l5g?1 by an accid5tal glance ( ! eye1 ,i f\nd myself at ! gate ( my own hotel4 ,he$less ( :at ,i did1 ,i ent]$2 &1 z nature 0 n[ completely exhau/$ )9 me1 sunk d[n 9 a sort ( ins5sibility at ! foot ( ! gr& /aircase4 ,?is /upor1 aft] a consid]able int]val1 gradually subsid$4 ,i op5$ my eyes1 & saw v>i\s figures flitt+ ab\t me2 b ,i seem$ to myself equally incapable ( collect+ my ?\ghts1 & ( spee*4 ,my und]/&+ inde$ %ortly became cle>]1 b an insup]able reluctance to volunt>y ex]tion hung ^u me4 ,i expla9$ myself only 9 monosyllables2 a sort ( in/9ctive t]ror ( disclos+ :at _h pass$ to ! admirable woman ,i _h sacrific$ ma9ta9$ 9 me ?is p]petual res]ve4 ,= sev]al days toge!r ,i sat f morn+ till night 9 "o immovable po/ure1 nor 0 any ?+ ( =ce en\gh to awak5 me to ex]tion4 ,,*apt] ,,vii4 ,x 0 n long be=e ! unhappy p>tn] ( my =tunes 0 in=m$ ( :at _h pass$4 ,! wret*es :o _h /ripp$ me ( my all soon made _! appe>ance to claim :at 0 no long] m9e4 ,:at w\ld h be5 _! reception1 if ,i _h suffici5tly possess$ myself to p>ley ) !m on ! subject1 ,i am unable to det]m9e4 ,i c\ld n h pres]v$ ! wreck ( my prop]ty f _! grasp1 b at ! exp5se ( an indelible /a9 ^u my hon\r2 yet my desp]ation w\ld probably h l$ me to a conduct equally extravagant & useless4 ,9 ! condition 9 :i* ,i 01 ! :ole direction ( ! bus9ess devolv$ ^u ,m>gu]ite2 & nev] did human creature demean h]self ) great] magnanimity & propriety4 ,%e saw at once t %e c\ld n resi/ _! claims b at ! exp5se ( my reputation2 = h]self %e valu$ n ri*es1 & _h no dread ( pov]ty2 &1 ?us circum/anc$1 %e _h ! c\rage h]self to br+ to me ! pap]s !y (f]$1 ! object ( :i* ,i sc>cely und]/ood1 & to cause me to annex t signature :i* 0 to /rip h] & h] *ildr5 ( all e>?ly =tune4 ,h] purpose 01 z soon z ?is bus9ess 0 ov]1 to cause u to quit ,france1 & retire into "s sc5e ( virtu\s obscurity4 ,b %e w\ld n leave beh9d h] = ! la/ desc5dants ( ! c\nts de ,/4 ,leon any avoidable disgrace4 ,h] mode ( reason+ ^u ! subject 0 extremely simple4 ,obscurity %e reg>d$ z no mis=tune2 & em95t situation1 :]e x fairly pres5t$ itself1 z a responsibility x w\ld be base to %r9k f3 ignom9y alone %e consid]$ z ! prop] !me ( abhorr5ce4 ,= ! fickl5ess & incon/ancy ( =tune x is impossible to answ]2 by "o ( ^? rev]ses 9 :i* %e appe>s to delight1 %e might yet re/ore u to ! lu/re ( our =m] condition2 b1 if ! "n ( ,/4 ,leon 0 h5ce=? to disappe> f ! annals ( ,france1 %e 0 desir\s at lea/1 z f> z dep5d$ on h]1 t x %\ld expire1 l ! f> fam$ bird ( ,arabia1 9 ! mid/ ( p]fumes4 ,:5 ! :ole situation ( ,m>gu]ite is tak5 into consid]ation1 ! read]1 l myself1 w /& a/oni%$ at ! =titude ( h] conduct4 ,%e _h come to ,p>is1 unable any long] to tranquillise ! agitation ( h] m9d1 & exhau/$ ) fe>s1 suspicions1 & al>ms4 ,:5 %e arriv$1 %e exp]i5c$ inde$ "o delusive mom5t ( transport & joy4 ,b t 0 soon ov]4 ,x 0 succe$$ by reflections & conjectures respect+ ! my/]i\sness ( my behavi\r2 x 0 succe$$ by my unexpect$ dep>ture1 & ! h\rly expectation ( my return4 ,aft] ! lapse ( a night & a day1 ,i return$ inde$1 b 9 :at a condition6 ,dr5*$ ) ra91 trembl+ ) inanition1 spee*less & alone4 ,sc>cely _h %e receiv$ notice ( my arrival1 & come =w>d to meet me1 ?an %e saw me fall1 motionless & ins5sible1 at h] feet4 ,%e wat*$ my recov]y1 & hung ) indescribable expectation ov] my c\*4 ,%e 0 only call$ away by ! wret*es1 :o came to advance _! accurs$ claims1 & to visit h] ) ! intellig5ce ( our ru91 z ) a ?und]bolt4 ,already enfeebl$ & al>m$ by all ! prec$+ circum/ances1 !y spoke ) no consid]ation to h] weakness1 !y /oop$ to no qualifications & palliatives1 b disclos$ ! :ole 9 ! mo/ abrupt & %ock+ mann]4 ,any o!r woman w\ld h sunk "u ?is accumulation ( ill4 ,m>gu]ite only borr[$ vig\r f h] situation1 & rose 9 proportion to ! pressure ( ! calamity4 ,%e took h] resolution at once1 & answ]$ !m 9 ! mo/ firm & decisive language4 ,! p]iod ( inactivity & /upor t at fir/ seiz$ me 0 succe$$ by a p]iod ( fr5zy4 ,x 0 9 ?is condition t ,m>gu]ite conduct$ me & my *ildr5 to an obscure retreat 9 ! canton ( ,soleure1 9 ! republic ( ,switz]l&4 ,*eapness 0 ! fir/ object2 = ! mo/ mis]able pittance 0 all %e _h sav$ f ! wreck ( our =tune4 ,%e _h n *os5 = beauty ( situation1 or magnific5ce ( prospects4 ,! %ock h] m9d _h su/a9$ 0 n s great z to de/roy h] activity & =titude1 b x left h] little leisure = ! wantonness ( /udi$ indulg5ce4 ,! sc5e 0 remote & some:at /]ile4 ,%e conceiv$ t1 :5 ,i recov]$ my s5ses1 an ev5t :i* %e did n cease to promise h]self1 solitude w\ld be mo/ grateful1 at lea/ to ! fir/ /age ( my return+ reason4 ,hi!r !n x 0 t %e l$ me1 our son1 & ?ree daught]s4 ,imm$iately ^u our arrival %e pur*as$ a small & obscure1 b neat1 cottage1 & attir$ h]self & h] *ildr5 9 habits simil> to ^? ( ! neighb\r+ peasants4 ,my pat]nal e/ates1 z well z ^? :i* _h fall5 to me by m>riage1 _h all be5 swall[$ up 9 ! gulf1 :i* my accurs$ conduct _h prep>$4 ,m>gu]ite made a g5]al sale ( our moveables1 our ornam5ts1 & ev5 our clo!s4 ,a few books1 guid$ by ! atta*m5t to lit]ature :i* _h always att5d$ me1 7 all t %e sav$ f ! wreck4 ,a consid]able "p ( ! sum ?us produc$ 0 appropriat$ by my cr$itors4 ,m>gu]ite _h ! prud5ce & skill to satisfy !m all1 & 0 cont5t$ to reta9 t only :i* rema9$ :5 _! dem&s 7 dis*>g$4 ,?is 0 ! la/ dictate ( h] pride & ! high-born integrity ( h] nature1 at ! "t t %e ?us dep>t$ a volunt>y exile f h] native c\ntry4 ,two s]vants accompani$ u 9 our flight1 ^: atta*m5t 0 s great1 t ev5 if _! att5dance _h n be5 necess>y1 x w\ld h be5 f\nd some:at difficult to %ake !m (f4 ,m>gu]ite1 h[ev]1 0 gov]n$ by ! /ricte/ pr9ciples ( economy2 &1 :atev] ! /ruggle might h be5 ) ! importunity ( humble affection 9 dismiss+ ^! la/ rema9s ( our pr(use & luxuri\s h\sehold1 %e w\ld h ?\ght h]self oblig$ to proce$ ev5 to ?is extreme1 if judici\s p>simony _h dem&$ x f h]4 ,b x did n4 ,our y\nge/ daught] 0 at ?is "t only twelve mon?s old1 & x w\ld h be5 sc>cely possible = ! "m1 h[ev] resolute 9 h] ex]tions1 to h dis*>g$ ! c>es due to su* a family1 at a "t :5 ! fa!r ( x 0 suff]+ "u s heavy an affliction4 ,"o female s]vant %e reta9$ to assi/ h] 9 ^! (fices4 ,%e c\ld n disp5se h]self f a v assidu\s att5tion to me4 ,%e c\ld nev] o!rwise h be5 satisfi$1 t e ?+ 0 done t ought to be done1 t e t5d]ness 0 ex]cis$ t might be dem&$ by my humiliat+ situation1 or t suffici5t sagacity & skill 7 employ$ 9 wat*+ & enc\rag+ ! gleams ( return+ reason4 ,! viol5ce ( my p>oxysms1 h[ev]1 0 frequ5tly su* z to r5d] a manual =ce great] ?an h]s necess>y to prev5t me f effect+ "s desp]ate mis*ief4 ,b]n>d91 a tru/y s]vant1 ne>ly ( my own age1 & :o _h att5d$ ^u my p]son almo/ f infancy1 0 reta9$ by ,m>gu]ite = ?is purpose4 ,i 0 greatly indebt$ = ! recov]y :i* spe$ily foll[$ to ! affectionate anxiety & enlight5$ c>e ( ?is incomp>able woman4 ,x is inconceivable to ^? :o h nev] be5 l$ to a practical exam9ation ( ! subject1 h[ mu* may be effect$ 9 ?is respect by an atta*m5t ev] on ! wat*1 & an und]/&+ judici\s to comb9e1 :]e hir$ att5dance w\ld sleep1 & ! co>s5ess ( a blunt ins5sibility w\ld irritate1 nay1 p]haps1 mortally injure4 ,x is sc>cely possible to imag9e a wife m int]e/+ & admirable ?an ,m>gu]ite appe>$ ^u ! pres5t occasion4 ,fall5 f ! highe/ rank to ! l[e/ pov]ty1 %e did n all[ h]self a mean & pitiful regret4 ,no rev]se c\ld be m complete & abrupt1 b %e did n s9k "u x4 ,%e prov$1 9 ! mo/ conv9c+ mann]1 t h] elevation 0 n ! (fspr+ ( weal? or rank1 b 0 prop]ly h] own4 ,%e gave a grace1 ev5 a lu/re1 to pov]ty1 :i* x c only receive f ! emanations ( a cultivat$ m9d4 ,h] *ildr5 7 reconcil$ & enc\rag$ by h] example1 & soon =got ^? indulg5ces :i* _h n yet _h "t to emasculate _! spirits4 ,! deplorable situation to :i* ! fa!r ( ! family 0 r$uc$ 0 f> f induc+ h] to cease f h] ef=ts 9 ! bitt]ness ( despair4 ,%e det]m9$ = ! pres5t to be bo? a fa!r & a "m to h] *ildr54 ,%e look$ =w>d ) confid5ce to my spe$y recov]y4 ,?\gh ,i 0 ! au?or ( h] calamities1 %e did n p]mit ?is consid]ation to subtract f ! purity ( h] affection1 or ! t5d]ness ( h] anxiety4 ,%e resolv$ t no ^w or look ( h]s %\ld ev] reproa* me ) my misconduct4 ,%e _h be5 accu/om$ to desire rank1 & afflu5ce1 & indulg5ce = h] *ildr52 t h] son might run ! c>e] ( glory :i* 8 =efa!rs ran1 & t h] daught]s might unite _! fates ) :at 0 mo/ illu/ri\s & hon\rable 9 _! native c\ntry4 ,b1 if %e 7 disappo9t$ 9 ?is1 %e det]m9$1 z f> z x %\ld be 9 h] p[]1 to give !m virtue & *e]fulness & cont5t1 a m9d t %\ld f9d res\rces )9 itself1 & call =? reg>d & e/eem f ! re/ ( mank9d4 ,my recov]y 0 fitful & prec>i\s1 sometimes appe>+ to be rapidly on ! advance1 & at o!rs to ?reat5 a total relapse4 ,among ! exp$i5ts t ,m>gu]ite employ$ to re-excite ! slumb]+ sp>k ( reason 0 t ( pat]nal affection4 ,ev] on ! wat* = a fav\rable opportunity1 %e sometimes br\ght to me h] own little namesake1 :o1 ?\gh only twelve mon?s old1 did n fail to discov] unequivocal m>ks ( t playfulness & gaiety :i* made s consid]able a "p ( h] con/itutional "*4 ,h] innoc5t smiles1 h] frolic & c>eless laught]1 produc$ a responsive vibration t rea*$ to my inmo/ he>t4 ,!y 71 n unfrequ5tly1 p[]ful en\gh to *eck ! c>e] ( my fury1 or to raise me f ! l[e/ pit* ( despond5ce4 ,julia wept = me1 & ,l\isa endeav\r$ to copy ! (fices ( k9dness %e 0 accu/om$ to see h] "m p]=m3 ,*>les1 :o conceiv$ m fully ?an ! re/ ! nature ( my indisposition1 0 ^u all occasions solicit\s to be admitt$ into my pres5ce1 & att5d$ me = ! mo/ "p ) spee*less anxiety1 :ile 8 wat*ful1 gli/5+ eye utt]$ volumes1 )\t ! assi/ance ( words4 ,8 "m at l5g? yield$ to 8 importunity1 & he became e/abli%$ ! regul> assi/ant ( ,b]n>d9 9 ! c>e ( my p]son4 ,! re/lessness & impetuosity he _h hi!rto manife/$ seem$ ^u ?is occasion entirely to subside3 h\r aft] h\r he will+ly cont9u$ %ut up 9 my *amb]1 eag] = e opportunity ( usefulness1 & gratifi$ ) t complaisance ) :i* ! human m9d nev] fails to be impress$1 :5 x reg>ds its actions z b5efic5t1 or approves its temp] z compassionate4 ,! re/oration ( my heal? 0 greatly ret>d$ by ! melan*oly impressions :i* necess>ily (f]$ !mselves to my m9d :5 recollection resum$ h] seat4 ,x 0 =tunate = me t ?is sort ( retrospection appe>s n to be ! fir/ ?+ t occurs aft] a p>oxysm ( insanity4 ,:5 ! tide ( incoh]5t ideas subsides1 ! s\l is left 9 a /ate ( exhau/ion2 & seems1 by a sort ( in/9ct1 to %un ! influx ( tumultu\s emotions1 & to dwell ^u su* feel+s z are mild1 tranquil1 & re/orative4 ,once1 h[ev]1 :5 ,i 0 ne>ly recov]$1 ! ?\ght ( :at ,i _h be51 & ! recollection ( :at ,i 01 viol5tly sugge/+ !mselves to my m9d1 br\ght on a relapse1 att5d$ ) m al>m+ & disc\rag+ symptoms ?an my orig9al ali5ation4 ,at t mom5t ,m>gu]ite 01 = ! fir/ "t1 irresi/ibly /ruck ) ! conception t m9e 0 an incurable lunacy2 &1 z %e aft]w>ds assur$ me1 at no p]iod d[n to t in/ant _h %e felt h]self s truly inconsolable4 ,b ev5 a s5tim5t ( ! la/ despair 0 incapable ( sup]s$+ ! active b5efic5ce ( ,m>gu]ite4 ,h] assiduities1 s f> z relat$ to ?is fatal calamity1 7 at l5g? cr[n$ ) success4 ,h] gloomy progno/ics 7 n realis$1 & ! di/emp] ( my und]/&+ quitt$ me = ev]4 ,wret*$1 h[ev]1 z ,i h already rem>k$1 beyond all common notions ( wret*$ness1 7 my ?\ghts1 :5 my s\l return$ to its prop] bias1 & ,i fully survey$ ! nature ( my pres5t situation4 ,m>gu]ite1 :o1 by h] sagacity & pati5ce1 _h recov]$ me f a /ate ( ! mo/ dreadful disease1 n[ ex]t$ h]self to effect ! m ardu\s task ( reconcil+ me to myself4 ,%e assur$ me t %e =gave me f h] inmo/ he>t2 nay1 t %e 0 ?ankful to ,provid5ce1 :i*1 9 ! mid/ ( :at ! _w calls great calamities1 _h pres]v$ to h] :at %e mo/ valu$1 my affection1 entire4 ,%e contra/$ :at _h be5 ! subject ( h] appreh5sions be=e %e came to ,p>is1 ) :at _h prov$ to be ! /ate ( ! case aft]w>ds4 ,%e av]r$1 t ! wor/ t _h happ5$ 0 trivial & tol]able1 comp>$ ) ! image t h] fe>s _h del9eat$4 ,%e _h fe>$ to f9d my he>t ali5at$ f h]1 & h]self a wid[$ "m to orphan *ildr54 ,%e dread$ le/ ,i %\ld h prov$ myself wor?less 9 h] eyes1 le/ ,i %\ld h be5 f\nd to h committ$ to oblivion ! mo/ sacr$ ( all duties2 &1 = ! gratification ( a l[ & contemptible caprice1 to h sacrific$ all pret5sions to hon\r & "*4 ,= t1 inde$1 h] he>t w\ld h bl$2 aga9/ t1 all ! pride %e d]iv$ f h] ance/ry & my own w\ld h revolt$2 t w\ld h produc$ a revulsion ( h] frame1 snapp+ ! *a9 ( all h] habits1 & putt+ a viol5t close ^u all ! s5tim5ts %e _h mo/ fondly n\ri%$4 ,%e dread$1 inde$1 t %e %\ld n h surviv$ x4 ,b ! mi/ake ,i _h committ$ 0 ( a v diff]5t nature4 ,i _h nei!r =gott5 t ,i 0 a husb& nor a fa!r2 ,i _h only made an injudici\s & un=tunate *oice ( ! way ( dis*>g+ :at 0 due to ^! *>act]s4 ,:at _h pass$ 0 incapable ( impea*+ ei!r ! con/ancy ( my affections or ! integrity ( my pr9ciples4 ,%e =gave me1 & x 0 incumb5t ^u me to =give myself4 ,%e assur$ me t pov]ty1 9 h] appreh5sion1 0 a v slight evil2 & %e appeal$ to my own und]/&+ = ! s\ndness ( h] judgm5t4 ,%e bid me look r\nd ^u ! peasantry ( ! neighb\rhood1 ^u a foot+ ) :om we 7 n[ plac$1 & ask my own he>t :e!r !y 7 n happy4 ,"o disadvantage1 inde$1 !y 7 subject$ to1--! abs5ce ( cultivation & le>n+4 ,%e c\ld nev] br+ h]self to believe t ignorance 0 a b5efit2 %e saw ! contr>y ( ?is practically illu/rat$ 9 h] own case1 9 m9e1 & 9 t ( all ! p]sons to :om1 ?r\gh life1 %e _h be5 mo/ ard5tly atta*$4 ,%e wi%$ h] *ildr5 to atta9 intellectual ref9em5t1 possess fully ! attributes ( a rational nature1 & to be z f> remov$ z possible f ! condition ( /ocks & /ones1 by accumulat+ a magaz9e ( ?\ghts1 & by a ri* & cultivat$ s5sibility4 ,b ! want ( =tune did n 9 our case1 z 9 ! case ( s _m o!rs1 %ut !m out f ?is advantage3 x 0 9 our own p[] to be/[ x ^u !m4 ,x 0 ! "p ( a reasonable man1 %e told me1 n to wa/e 8 /r5g? 9 useless regrets = :at 0 pa/1 & _h already elud$ 8 grasp2 b to adv]t to ! bless+s he _h /ill 9 possession4 ,if we did ?is 9 our pres5t situation1 we %\ld f9d e reason = cont5tm5t & joy4 ,our pleasure 9 ea* o!r1 & ! con/ancy ( our atta*m5t1 0 unassail$ & unimpair$4 ,:]e 7 !re two m>ri$ p]sons1 %e w\ld v5ture to ask1 :o _h m reason to applaud _! connection1 or to :om _! connection 0 pregnant ) s v>i\s gratifications8 ,f ourselves we _h only to turn our ?\ghts to our *ildr52 & we 7 surely z s+ul>ly =tunate 9 ?is respect z 9 ea* o!r4 ,*>les1 :o _h always be5 ! subject ( our pride1 _h lately exhibit$ su* an example ( pati5t sympa?y & filial affection1 z p]haps _h nev] be5 equall$ 9 a *ild s "y4 ,! s5sibility ( ,julia1 ! und]/&+ ( ,l\isa1 & ! vivacity ( ,m>gu]ite1 7 all ( !m s _m gr[+ s\rces ( inexhau/ible delight4 ,our *ildr5 7 intellig5t1 affectionate1 & virtu\s4 ,?us circum/anc$1 %e entreat$ me n to indulge t jaundice ( ! imag9ation1 :i* %\ld create to itself a s5tim5t ( melan*oly & discont5t 9 ! mid/ ( ?is t]re/rial p>adise4 ,mo/ virtu\s ( wom51 n[ p]haps ! pure/ & ! brighte/ among ! sa9ts 9 heav56 :y 0 ,i deaf to ! s\ndness ( y\r exhortations1 & ! g5]osity ( y\r s5tim5ts8 ,deaf1 inde$1 ,i 06 ,a prey to ! deepe/ dejection1 !y appe>$ to me ! (fspr+ ( misappreh5sion & p>adox6 ,suppos+1 9 ! mean "t1 t !y 7 reasonable & j 9 ! m\? ( h] :o utt]$ !m1 ,i felt !m z totally =eign to my own situation4 ,! language1 z !y 71 ( innoc5ce2 x 0 n wond]ful t to an innoc5t he>t !y spoke tranquillity & peace4 ,m>gu]ite look$ r\nd ^u ! pres5t ru/icity & pla9ness ( our condition1 & e ?+ t %e saw talk$ to h] ( h] m]it & h] wor?4 ,if we 7 r$uc$1 %e 0 9 no way acc\ntable = t r$uction2 x _h be5 ! te/ ( h] magnanimity1 h] pati5ce1 & ! immutabl5ess ( h] virtue4 ,%e smil$ at ! assaults ( adv]sity1 & felt a m]it 9 h] smiles4 ,h[ diff]5t 0 my situation6 ,e ?+ t ,i saw rem9d$ me ( my guilt1 & upbraid$ me ) crimes t x 0 hell to recollect4 ,my own g>b1 & t ( my wife & *ildr51 ! des]tion 9 :i* we liv$1 ! simple b5*es1 ! unhewn raft]s1 ! nak$ walls1 all told me :at x 0 ,i _h done1 & 7 s _m e*oes to my consci5ce1 repeat+1 )\t int]mission & )\t end1 its he>t-break+ reproa*es4 ,sleep 0 almo/ a /rang] to me2 ^! incessant monitors conf\nd$ my s5ses 9 a degree sc>cely %ort ( madness itself4 ,x is ! prop]ty ( vice to conv]t e ?+ t %\ld be consolation into an additional s\rce ( angui%4 ,! beauty1 ! capacity1 & ! virtue ( my *ildr51 ! affection ) :i* !y reg>d$ me1 ! pati5ce & att5tiv5ess & =be>ance ( _! excell5t "m1 7 all s _m aggravations ( ! mis*ief ,i _h p]petrat$4 ,i c\ld almo/ h wi%$ to h be5 ! object ( _! taunts & execration4 ,i c\ld h wi%$ to h be5 dis5gag$ f ! de>e/ *>ities ( our nature1 & to h borne ! weight ( my crimes alone4 ,x w\ld h be5 a relief to me if my *ildr5 _h be5 cov]$ ) ! mo/ loa?some diseases1 de=m$ & mon/r\s4 ,x w\ld h be5 a relief to me1 if !y _h be5 abortive 9 und]/&+1 & odi\s 9 prop5sities1 if _! he>ts _h teem$ ) e vice1 & e day _h m>k$ !m ! pr$e/9$ victims ( infamy4 ,! guilt ( hav+ /ripp$ !m ( e ext]nal advantage w\ld !n h sat light ^u me4 ,b ?us to h ru9$ ! mo/ lovely family p]haps t exi/$ on ! face ( ! e>?1 ! mo/ exempl>y ( wom51 & *ildr5 9 :om ,i di/9ctly m>k$ ! bud ( e excell5ce & e virtue1 0 a conduct t ,i c\ld nev] =give ev5 to myself4 ,oh1 ,damville1 ,damville6 be/ ( m56 true/ ( fri5ds6 :y did/ ?\ put ?y tru/ 9 su* a wret* z ,i am6 ,had/ ?\ no pres5tim5t ( ! fatal consequ5ces8 ,w]t ?\ emp[]$ to commit ?y only *ild & all h] possible (fspr+ to s dreadful a risk8 ,inde$1 x 0 n well done6 ,x 0 meant 9 k9dness2 b x 0 ! cruelle/ mis*ief t c\ld h be5 inflict$ on me4 ,i 0 n a creature qualifi$ = su* de> & t5d] connections4 ,i 0 de/9$ by nature to w&] a solit>y outca/ on ! face ( ! e>?4 ,= t only1 t fe>ful mis]y1 0 ,i fitt$4 ,:y1 misguid$1 misjudg+ man6 did/ ?\ n leave me to my fate8 ,ev5 t w\ld h be5 less dreadful ?an :at ,i h exp]i5c$6--,wret* t ,i am6 ,:y d ,i reproa* my be/ b5efactor8 ,no1 let me turn ! :ole curr5t ( my invective ^u myself6 ,damville 0 actuat$ by ! noble/ & mo/ g5]\s s5tim5t t ev] ent]$ ! human m9d4 ,:at a return !n h ,i made1 & to :at a b5efit6 ,all ! previ\s habits ( my m9d _h taught me to feel my pres5t circum/ances ) ! utmo/ acut5ess4 ,m>gu]ite1 ! g5]\s ,m>gu]ite1 /ood1 ) a s\l almo/ indiff]5t1 betwe5 ! opposite ideas ( ri*es & pov]ty4 ,n s h] husb&4 ,i _h be5 =m$1 by e accid5t ( my life1 to ! love ( spl5d\r4 ,high h]oic feats1 & n ! tranquillity ( rural retirem5t1 or ! pursuits ( a "* pr(ess$ly lit]>y1 _h be5 ! food ( my imag9ation1 ev] s9ce ! faculty ( imag9ation 0 unfold$ 9 my m9d4 ,! field ( ! clo? ( gold1 ! siege & ! battle ( ,pavia1 7 = ev] pres5t to my recollection4 ,francis ! ,fir/1 ,bay>d1 & ,b\rbon1 et]nally =m$ ! subject ( my visions & rev]ies4 ,^! prop5sities _h inde$ deg5]at$ into an infant9e ta/e = magnific5ce & exp5se2 b ! roots did n embrace _! soil ! less =cibly1 because ! bran*es 7 press$ d[n & div]t$ f _! g5u9e p]p5dicul>4 ,t f a "l1 desc5d$ f "s ( ! mo/ illu/ri\s h\ses 9 ,france1 & myself amply imbu$ ) ! high & disda9ful _s incid5t to my rank1 ,i %\ld become a peasant1 0 itself a suffici5t degradation4 ,b ,i call ! heav5s to witness t ,i c\ld h endur$ ?is ) pati5ce1 if ,i _h endur$ x alone4 ,i %\ld h reg>d$ x z ! j retribution ( my follies1 & submitt$ ) ! mo/ exempl>y resignation4 ,b ,i c\ld n1 ) an equal m9d1 behold my wife & *ildr5 involv$ 9 my puni%m5t4 ,i turn$ my eyes ^u ! p>tn] ( my life1 & recall$ ) g5u9e angui% ! magnific5ce to :i* %e 0 accu/om$1 & ! hopes to :i* %e 0 born4 ,i look$ ^u my *ildr51 ! fruit ( my lo9s1 & once ! pride ( my he>t1 & recollect$ t !y 7 paup]s1 ru/ics1 exiles4 ,i c\ld =esee no return to rank1 b = !m & _! po/]ity an int]m9able succession ( obscurity & meanness4 ,a real p>5t c support ! calamity ( p]sonal degradation1 b he _c be> to witness & anticipate ?is corruption ( 8 blood4 ,at "s times ,i hon\r$ ,m>gu]ite = h] equanimity4 ,at o!rs ,i almo/ despis$ h] = ?is integrity ( h] virtues4 ,i accus$ h] 9 my he>t ( be+ de/itute ( ! sp>k ( true nobility4 ,h] pati5ce ,i consid]$ z little less ?an meanness & vulg>ity ( _s4 ,x w\ld h become h] bett]1 ,i ?\ght1 l me1 to h curs$ h] fate1 & ! au?or ( t fate2 l me1 to h spurn$ indignant at ! slav]y to :i* we 7 condemn$2 to h refus$ to be pacifi$2 & to h wa/$ ! la/ dregs ( exi/5ce 9 impati5ce & regret4 ,i c\ld act t :i* _h involv$ u 9 ?is dire rev]se2 b ,i c\ld n enc\nt] ! consequ5ces ( my act4 ,! /ate ( my m9d 0 9 ! utmo/ degree deject$ & =lorn4 ,i c>ri$ an arr[ 9 my he>t1 :i* ! k9dness ( my wife & *ildr5 prov$ inadequate to extract1 & ! rankl+s ( :i* "t itself _h n ! p[] to assuage4 ,! w\nd 0 n mortal2 b1 l ! w\nd ( ,philoctetes1 poison$ ) ! blood ( ! ,l]nean hydra1 ,i dragg$ x ab\t ) me f ye> to ye>1 & x r5d]$ my exi/5ce a gall+ burd5 h>dly to be support$4 ,a great portion ( my "t 0 pass$ 9 a deep & m\rnful sil5ce1 :i* all ! soo?+s t 7 address$ to me c\ld n prevail on me to break4 ,n t 9 ?is sil5ce !re 0 ! lea/ p>ticle ( ill hum\r or sull5ness4 ,x 0 a mild & passive situation ( ! m9d2 affectionate1 z f> z x 0 any ?+1 to ! p]sons ar\nd me2 b x 0 a species ( disability2 my s\l _h n =ce en\gh to give motion to ! organs ( spee*1 or sc>cely to raise a f+]4 ,my eye only1 & t only = a mom5t at a "t1 plead$ = =be>ance & p>don4 ,i seem$ l a man 9 t species ( di/emp]1 9 :i* ! pati5t suff]s a wa/+ ( ! bones1 & at l5g? pres5ts to u ! %ad[1 )\t ! p[]s1 ( a human body4 ,?is 0 at "s times my condition4 ,b my /upor w\ld at o!rs sudd5ly subside4 ,me*anically1 & 9 a mom5t1 z x 71 ,i %ook (f my sup95ess1 & s\ght ! m\nta9s4 ,! wildness ( an untam$ & savage sc5e be/ accord$ ) ! temp] ( my m9d4 ,i sprung f cliff to cliff among ! po9ts ( ! rock4 ,i ru%$ d[n precipices t to my sob]$ s5se appe>$ 9 a mann] p]p5dicul>1 & only pres]v$ my life1 ) a sort ( inborn & unelective c>e1 by cat*+ at ! roots & %rubs :i* occasionally broke ! /eepness ( ! desc5t4 ,i hung ov] ! tops ( rocks /ill m fe>ful 9 _! declivities1 & c\rt$ ! gidd9ess & :irl ( _s :i* su* spectacles are accu/om$ to produce4 ,i c\ld n resolve to die3 dea? _h too _m *>ms to suit ! self-condemnation t pursu$ me4 ,i f\nd a horrible satisfaction 9 det]m9+ to live1 & to av5ge ^u myself ! guilt ,i _h incurr$4 ,i 0 f> f imag9+ t ! evils ,i _h yet suff]$ 7 a m]e sport & o/5tation ( mis]y1 comp>$ ) ^? t 7 9 res]ve = me4 ,! /ate ( m9d ,i am "h describ+ 0 n madness1 nor su* z c\ld be mi/ak5 = madness4 ,i nev] =got myself1 & :at ,i 04 ,i 0 nev] 9 t delirium ( ?\ght1 9 :i* ! pati5t is re/less & active )\t kn[+ :at x is t he does1 & f :i*1 :5 r\s$1 he sudd5ly />ts1 %akes (f ! dream t engag$ him1 & /&s a/oni%$ at himself4 ,m9e 0 a rage1 guid$ & me?odis$ by ! discipl9e ( despair4 ,i bur/ into no fits ( rav+2 ,i attempt$ no injury to any "o4 ,m>gu]ite !re=e c\ld n reconcile h]self to ! plac+ me "u any re/ra9t4 ,i frequ5tly return$ home1 ) my clo!s sme>$ ) ! soil1 & torn by ! bri>s4 ,b my family soon became accu/om$ to my return+ 9 p]sonal safety2 & !re=e1 :atev] 0 ! uneas9ess my wife felt f my excursions1 %e pref]r$ ! endur+ x1 to ! idea ( impos+ on me any species ( viol5ce4 ,! /ate ( my family pres5t$ a s+ul> contra/ ) t ( its head4 ,m>gu]ite 0 c]ta9ly n ins5sible to ! opposition betwe5 h] =m] & h] pres5t mode ( life2 b %e submitt$ to ! *ange ) su* an unaffect$ *e]fulness & composure1 z might h extort$ admiration f malignity itself4 ,%e w\ld p]haps h dismiss$ f h] ?\ghts all retrospect to our =m] gr&eur1 _h n ! dejection & despair t seem$ to h tak5 possession ( my m9d =cibly & cont9ually recall$ x to h] memory4 ,= my suff]+s ,i am well assur$ %e felt ! true/ sympa?y2 b !re 0 "o consid]ation att5d+ !m t imp]i\sly compell$ h] to task h] =titude4 ,!y depriv$ me ( ! ability ( 9 any degree provid+ = & sup]9t5d+ my family2 x became !re=e incumb5t ^u h] to ex]t h]self = ! welf>e ( all4 ,_h we nev] fall5 "u ?is a/oni%+ rev]se1 ,i might h sp5t my :ole life 9 daily int]c\rse ) ?is admirable woman1 )\t becom+ acqua9t$ ) half ! treasures ( h] m9d4 ,%e 0 my /ew>d2 & f ! result ( h] own reflections made ! mo/ judici\s disposition ( my prop]ty4 ,%e 0 my physician2 n by adm9i/]+ m$ic9es to my body1 b by c>efully /udy+ & ex]t+ h]self to remove ! di/emp] ( m9d4 ,un=tunately no di/emp]s are s ob/9ate z m5tal ones2 yet1 _h my di/emp] _h any light] s\rce ?an an upbraid+ consci5ce1 ,i am p]suad$ ! wisdom ( ,m>gu]ite w\ld h bani%$ x4 ,%e 0 ! in/ructor ( my *ildr52 h] daught]s felt no want ( a gov]ness2 & ,i am ev5 ready to d\bt :e!r ! lessons ( 8 "m did n amply supply to ,*>les 8 loss ( an education 9 ! univ]sity ( ,p>is4 ,! love ( ord]1 ! activity1 ! indu/ry1 ! *e]fulness (1 let me say1 ?is illu/ri\s matron1 became contagi\s to all ! inhabitants ( my ro(4 ,once & aga9 h ,i /ol5 a glance at !m1 or view$ !m f a di/ance busi$1 sometimes gravely1 sometimes gaily1 9 ! pla91 & h :isp]$ to my bur/+ he>t1 8,h[ mis]able am ,i6 h[ happy !y6 ,s insurm\ntable is ! b>ri] t divides innoc5ce f guilt4 ,!y may brea! ! same air2 !y may dwell "u ! same ro(2 !y may be ( "o family & "o blood2 !y may associate ) ea* o!r e day & e h\r2 b !y c nev] assimilate1 nev] h any g5u9e contact4 ,is !re a happi] family ?an m9e 9 all ! valley ( ?is f>-fam$ republic8 ,is !re a family m virtu\s1 or m cultivat$ ) all ! ref9em5ts t conduce to ! true dignity ( man8 ,i1 ,i only am its burd5 & its /a96 ,! pleasure ) :i* ,i am surr\nd$ on e side f9ds a repell5t quality 9 my he>t t w n suff] its approa*4 ,to :atev] is connect$ ) me ,i communicate mis=tune4 ,:5ev] ,i make my appe>ance1 ^? c\nt5ances t at all o!r times spoke cont5tm5t & hil>ity fall into sadness4 ,l a pe/il5tial w9d1 ,i appe> to brea! bla/ to ! fruits ( nature1 & sickl9ess to its aspect40 ,m>gu]ite expo/ulat$ ) me 9 ! mo/ soo?+ mann] ^u ! ob/9acy ( my malady4 8,my ,reg9ald6 my love60 said %e1 8cease to be unhappy1 or to reproa* y\rself6 ,y 7 ra% 9 ! exp]im5t y made ^u ! res\rces ( y\r family4 ,b h y done u mis*ief1 or h y conf]r$ a b5efit8 ,i m ?an half incl9e to ! latt] op9ion4 ,let u at l5g? dismiss artificial ta/es1 & idle & vision>y pursuits1 t d n fl[ 9 a direct l9e f any ( ! g5u9e pr9ciples ( our nature6 ,"h we are surr\nd$ ) s\rces ( happ9ess4 ,"h we may live 9 true patri>*al simplicity4 ,:at is *ivalry1 :at are milit>y pr[ess & glory8 ,believe me1 !y are ! passions ( a m9d deprav$1 t ) ambiti\s ref9em5t seeks to be wise beyond ! dictates ( s5tim5t or reason6 ,!re is no happ9ess s solid1 or s p]fect1 z t :i* disda9s ^! ref9em5ts4 ,y1 l me1 are fond ( ! luxuriant & romantic sc5es ( nature4 ,"h we are plac$ 9 ! mid/ ( !m4 ,h[ idle x w\ld be1 to wi% to *ange our arb\rs1 our v]dant lanes & ?ickets1 = vault$ ro(s1 & gloomy halls1 & massy plate6 ,alas1 ,reg9ald6 x is1 ,i fe>1 too true1 t ! spl5d\r 9 :i* we lately liv$ has its basis 9 oppression2 & t ! sup]fluities ( ! ri* are a boon extort$ f ! hung] & mis]y ( ! poor6 ,"h we see a peasantry m peaceful & less oppress$ ?an p]haps any o!r tract ( ! e>? c exhibit4 ,!y are erect & indep5d5t1 at once fri5dly & fe>less4 ,is n ?is a refre%+ spectacle8 ,i n[ beg9 practically to p]ceive t ! cultivators ( ! fields & ! v9ey>ds are my bre?r5 & my si/]s2 & my he>t b\nds ) joy1 z ,i feel my relations to society multiply4 ,h[ cumbr\s is magnific5ce6 ,! mod]ate man is ! only free4 ,he :o r$uces all b5ea? him to a /ate ( s]vitude becomes himself ! slave ( 8 e/abli%m5t1 & ( all 8 dome/ics4 ,to dim9i% ! cases 9 :i* ! assi/ance ( o!rs is felt absolutely necess>y is ! only g5u9e road to indep5d5ce4 ,we c n[ move :]ev] we please )\t wait+ ! leisure ( o!rs4 ,our simple repa/s require no t$i\s prep>ation1 & d n imprison u 9 saloons & eat+ rooms4 ,yet we p>take ( !m ) a m g5u9e appetite1 & rise f !m m truly refre%$1 ?an f ! mo/ sumptu\s fea/4 ,i prep>e = my meal by indu/ry & ex]cise2 & :5 x is ov]1 amuse myself ) my *ildr5 9 ! fields & ! %ade4--,?\gh ,i love ! sight ( ! peasants1 ,i w\ld n be a peasant4 ,i w\ld h a l>g] /ock ( ideas1 & a wid] field ( activity4 ,i love ! sight ( peasants only = _! accessories1 or by comp>ison4 ,!y are comp>atively m secure ?an any o!r l>ge masses ( m51 & ! sc5es 9 ! mid/ ( :i* !y are plac$ are delightful to s5se4 ,b ,i w\ld n sacrifice 9 prone oblivion ! be/ *>act]i/ics ( my nature4 ,i put 9 my claim = ref9em5ts & luxuries2 b !y are ! ref9em5ts & purify+ ( intellect1 & ! luxuries ( unco/ly1 simple ta/e4 ,i w\ld incite ! :ole _w1 if ,i knew h[ to d x1 to put 9 a simil> claim4 ,i w\ld improve my m9d2 ,i w\ld enl>ge my und]/&+2 ,i w\ld contribute to ! in/ruction ( all connect$ ) me1 & to ! mass ( human k4 ,! pleasures ,i w\ld pursue & dissem9ate1 ?\gh n dep5d5t on a l>ge prop]ty1 are su* z c\ld n be und]/ood by ! ru/ic & ! savage4--,our son1 br$ 9 ^! fields1 inde$1 w probably nev] become a preux *evali]1 or figure 9 ! roll ( milit>y h]oes2 b he may become some?+ happi] & bett]4 ,he may improve 8 m9d1 & cultivate 8 ta/e4 ,he may be ! c\nsellor & protector ( 8 si/]s4 ,he may be ! ornam5t ( ! di/rict 9 :i* he resides4 ,he may in/itute 9 8 adoptive c\ntry new def5ces = lib]ty1 new sy/ems ( public b5efit1 & new improvem5ts ( life4 ,!re is no "* m admirable ?an ! patriot-yeoman1 :o unites ) ! utmo/ simplicity ( g>b & mann]s an und]/&+ fraught ) in=mation & s5tim5t & a he>t burn+ ) ! love ( mank9d4 ,su* 7 ,fabricius & ,regulus among ! anci5ts1 & su* 0 ,tell1 ! f\nd] ( ! ,helvetic lib]ty4 ,= my "p1 ,i am incl9$ to be ?ankful1 t ?is unexpect$ rev]se 9 our circum/ances has made me acqua9t$ ) new pleasures1 & op5$ to my m9d an invaluable lesson4 ,if y c\ld b be prevail$ on to ent] into our pleasures1 to dismiss idle reproa*es & p]nici\s prop5sities1 our happ9ess w\ld !n be complete40 ,! expo/ulations ( ,m>gu]ite (t5 excit$ my att5tion1 (t5 my respect1 & sometimes produc$ a sort ( imp]fect conviction4 ,b ! conviction 0 transi5t1 & ! feel+s ,i h already describ$ z prop]ly my own return$1 :5 ! fre% & vivid impression ( :at ,i _h he>d 0 gone4 ,x 0 9 va9 t ,i he>d ! praises ( simplicity & innoc5ce4 ,i 0 well pleas$ to see ^? :o 7 ne>e/ to me n affect+ cont5tm5t1 b really cont5t$ ) ^! ?+s4 ,b ,i c\ld n be cont5t$ = !m4 ,! lessons ( my education _h left too deep an impression4 ,i c\ld myself h surr5d]$ my claim to admiration & homage1 z a p5ance = my misde$s2 b ,i c\ld n figure to myself a g5u9e satisfaction unaccompani$ by ^! accessories3 & ?is satisfaction ,i ob/9ately & impati5tly covet$ = ^? ,i lov$4 ,,*apt] ,,viii4 ,:ile ,i murmur$ 9 bitt]ness ( s\l at ! l[ness to :i* my family 0 r$uc$1 a /ill heavi] calamity imp5d$1 z if 9 v5geance aga9/ ! fanta/ic ref9em5ts ( di/ress ov] :i* ,i brood$4 ,i 0 w&]+1 z ,i _h (t5 done1 ) a gloomy & rebelli\s _s1 among ! rocks1 a few miles di/ant f ! place ( our habitation4 ,x 0 ! middle ( summ]4 ,! wea!r _h be5 rem>kably f9e2 b ,i disda9$ to all[ ! gratifications :i* arise f a pure atmosph]e & a s]5e sky to f9d entrance 9 my s\l4 ,my excursions _h = "s days be5 incessant2 & ! sun1 :i* matur$ ! corn & black5$ ! grapes ar\nd1 _h imbr[n$ my visage1 & boil$ 9 my blood4 ,i drank 9 fi]c5ess & desp]ation f ! f]v\r ( 8 beams4 ,"o night1 z 9 sull5 mood ,i wat*$ 8 sett+ f a po9t ( ! rock1 ,i p]ceiv$ ! cle>ness ( ! day subsid+ 9 a ?reat5+ ev5+4 ,! cl\ds ga!r$ 9 ! we/2 &1 z night approa*$1 7 ov]spread ) a deep dye ( ! fi]ce/ crimson4 ,! w9d rose2 &1 dur+ ! h\rs ( d>kness1 its ro>+s 7 holl[ & tempe/u\s4 ,9 ! morn+ ! cl\ds 7 hurri$ rapidly along1 & ! air 0 *ang$ f a long s]ies ( sultr9ess to a nipp+ cold4 ,?is *ange ( ! atmosph]e ,i disreg>d$1 & pursu$ my rambles4 ,a little be=e noon1 h[ev]1 ! air sudd5ly grew s d>k1 z to produce a s5sation p]fectly trem5d\s4 ,i felt z if ! d>ke/ night _h nev] exce$$ x4 ,! impetu\s motion to :i* ,i _h be5 impell$1 p>tly by ! fev] 9 my blood1 & p>tly by ! turbul5ce ( ! season1 0 susp5d$4 ,me*anically ,i look$ r\nd me = %elt]4 ,b ,i c\ld ill di/+ui% ! objects t 7 ne> me1 :5 a fla% ( lightn+1 blue & sulphure\s1 came directly 9 my face1 ) a brightness t ?reat5$ to ext+ui% ! organ ( vision4 ,! ?und] t foll[$ 0 ( a l5g? & l\dness to admit ( no comp>ison f any object ) :i* ,i am acqua9t$4 ,! bur/s 7 s frequ5t z almo/ to conf\nd !mselves ) ea* o!r4 ,at pres5t ,i ?\ght only ( myself2 & ! rec5t habits ( my m9d 7 n calculat$ to make me peculi>ly accessible to fe>4 ,i /ood awe-/ruck2 b r ) ! awe t inh]es to a cultivat$ imag9ation1 ?an t :i* consi/s 9 appreh5sion4 ,i seem$ ready to m\nt amid/ ! cl\ds1 & p5etrate ! veil ) :i* nature conceals h] op]ations4 ,i w\ld h plung$ into ! recesses 9 :i* ! /orm 0 eng5d]$1 & b>$ my bosom to ! /ream+ fire4 ,mean:ile my ?\ghts 7 solemnis$ & fix$ by obs]v+ ! div]sifi$ dance ( ! lightn+s ^u ! po9ts ( ! rocks1 contra/+ z !y did 9 ! /ronge/ mann] ) ! d>kness 9 :i* ! re/ ( ! sc5e 0 envelop$4 ,?is add$ cont5tion ( ! elem5ts did n1 h[ev]1 susp5d ! rag+ ( ! w9d4 ,pres5tly a /orm ( m+l$ hail & ra9 p\r$ f ! cl\ds1 & 0 driv5 ) inconceivable impetuosity4 ,! hail/ones 7 ( s a/oni%+ a magnitude1 t1 be=e ,i 0 aw>e1 ,i 0 beat5 by !m to ! gr\nd4 ,n d>+ to attempt to rise aga91 ,i simply endeav\r$ to place myself 9 su* a mann] z might be/ protect me f _! viol5ce4 ,i !re=e rema9$ pro/rate1 li/5+ to ! =ce ) :i* !y /ruck ^u ! e>?1 & feel+ ! reb\nd ( _! bl[s f diff]5t p>ts ( my body4 ,9 ab\t tw5ty m9utes ! %[] abat$1 & 9 half an h\r 0 entirely ov]4 ,:5 ,i began to move1 ,i 0 surpris$ at ! s5sation ( sor5ess :i* ,i felt 9 e "p ( me4 ,i rais$ myself ^u my elb[1 & saw ! hail/ones1 9 "s places ly+ 9 heaps l hillocks ( ice1 :ile 9 o!rs !y _h pl\gh$ up ! surface1 & buri$ !mselves 9 ! e>?4 ,z ,i look$ fur!r1 ,i p]ceiv$ imm5se trees torn f _! roots1 & ?r[n to a great di/ance ^u ! declivity4 ,to ! noise t !y made 9 _! desc5t1 :i* mu/ h be5 a/oni%+ly great1 ,i _h be5 at ! "t ins5sible4 ,su* 7 ! m>ks :i* ! tempe/ _h left ^u ! m\nta9s4 ,9 ! pla9 x 0 /ill worse4 ,i c\ld p]ceive ! soil = long spaces toge!r conv]t$ into a morass1 ! /&+ corn beat5 d[n & buri$ 9 ! mud1 ! v9es torn into a ?\s& pieces1 ! fruit trees demoli%$1 & ev5 9 "s places ! animals !mselves1 lambs1 %eep1 & c[s1 /rew+ ! fields ) _! mangl$ c>casses4 ,! :ole hopes ( ! ye> ov] :i* my eyes _h glanc$ a few m9utes be=e1 = x 0 ne> ! p]iod ( h>ve/1 7 conv]t$ into ! mo/ b>r5 & dre>y sc5e t any qu>t] ( ! globe ev] witness$4 ,i 0 m\nt$ ^u a consid]able em95ce1 & _h an ext5sive prospect ( ?is horrible deva/ation4 ,z ,i /ood gaz+ 9 mute a/oni%m5t1 sudd5ly a fe> came ov] me t /ruck dampness to my v he>t4 ,:at 0 ! situation ( my own family & _! little rema9+ prop]ty1 amid/ ?is dreadful ru98 ,i 0 9 a position :]e1 ?\gh ,i ne>ly fac$ our habitation1 a po9t ( ! rock int]cept$ x f my sight4 ,! ob/acle 0 b a small "o1 yet x w\ld require a consid]able circuit to ov]come4 ,i flew along ! pa? ) a spe$ t sc>cely p]mitt$ me to brea!4 ,:5 ,i _h pass$ ! upp] rock1 ! :ole ext5sive sc5e op5$ ^u me 9 an in/ant4 ,:at 7 my s5sations1 :5 ,i p]ceiv$ t ! deva/ation _h be5 ev5 m complete "h ?an on ! side :]e ,i fir/ view$ x6 ,my own cottage 9 p>ticul>1 :i* t v morn+ _h conta9$1 & ,i hop$ cont9u$ to conta91 all t 0 mo/ de> to my he>t1 seem$ to /& an entire solitude 9 ! mid/ ( an imm5se swamp4 ,m>gu]ite1 ^: idea1 ^u our retreat into ,switz]l&1 _h be5 t ( con=m+ )\t res]ve to ! new situation t 0 allott$ u1 _h imm$iately exp5d$ ! :ole ( :at rema9$ f ! %ipwreck ( our =tune1 9 ! pur*ase ( ! cottage 9 :i* we dwelt1 & a small portion ( l& ar\nd x1 suffici5t ) economy = ! support ( our family4 ,"u h] direction ! hills _h be5 cov]$ ) v9es1 & ! fields ) corn4 ,%e _h pur*as$ c[s to furni% u ) milk1 & %eep ) _! fleeces1 & _h =m$ h] e/abli%m5t ^u ! model ( ! ,swiss peasantry 9 our neighb\rhood4 ,rev]t+ to ! simplicity ( nature1 appe>$ to h] l build+ ^u an immovable basis1 :i* ! cla% ( nations c\ld n de/roy1 & :i* 0 too humble to fe> ! trea*]y ( c\rts1 or ! caprice ( artificial ref9em5t4 ,x 0 all swept away 9 a mom5t4 ,our little prop]ty look$ z if x _h be5 p>ticul>ly a m>k = ! v5geance ( ,heav51 & 0 m utt]ly de/roy$ ?an any ( ! surr\nd+ sc5es4 ,!re 0 n a tree left /&+2 !re 0 n a h$ge or a limit t rema9$ )9 or ar\nd x2 *aos _h "h resum$ 8 empire1 & av5g$ himself ( ! extraord9>y ord] & beauty x _h lately display$4 ,i 0 n ov]:elm$ ) ?is a/oni%+ spectacle4 ,at t mom5t nature f\nd h] way to my he>t1 & made a man ( me4 ,i made light ( ^! petty accessories ( our exi/5ce2 & ! ?\ght ( my wife & my *ildr51 simply z !y 7 9 !mselves1 fill$ e av5ue ( my he>t4 ,= !m1 & !m alone1 ,i 0 int]e/$3 x 0 a "q = _! lives4 ,to conceive :at !y might p]sonally h su/a9$ 0 a horror t seem$ to freeze up all ! art]ies ( my he>t4 ,i desc5d$ f ! m\nta94 ,x 0 ) ! greate/ difficulty1 & n )\t _m circuit\s deviations1 t ,i proce$$2 s mu* 0 ! surface *ang$1 & s deep & miry ! swamps4 ,my t]ror increas$1 z ,i pass$ ne> to ! c>casses ( ! animals :o _h fall5 victims to ?is convulsion ( ! elem5ts4 ,i obs]v$1 ) inconceivable al>m1 t ! dead or w\nd$ bodies ( "s human be+s 7 int]m+l$ ) ! brute de/ruction4 ,i /ay$ n to enquire :e!r !y 7 yet 9 a /ate to require assi/ance2 ! idea t _h tak5 possession ( me left no room = ! s5tim5t ( g5]al humanity4 ,a little fur!r on ,i di/9ctly rem>k$ ! body ( a woman at "s di/ance f any habitation1 :o appe>$ to be dead1 de/roy$ by ! /orm4 ,ne> h] lay a female infant1 app>5tly ab\t six ye>s ( age4 ,my att5tion 0 involunt>ily arre/$2 ,i ?\ght ( ,l\isa1 t sweet & amiable *ild1 s l h] admirable "m4 ,! figure 0 h]s2 ! col\r ( ! robe correspond$ to t 9 :i* ,i la/ saw h]4 ,! *ild 0 ly+ on h] face4 ,) all ! impati5t emotions ( a fa!r1 ,i /oop$ d[n4 ,i turn$ ov] ! body1 t ,i might id5tify my *ild4 ,x 0 /ill w>m2 life _h sc>cely des]t$ x4 ,i gaz$ ^u ! visage2 x 0 di/ort$ ) ! agonies ( dea?3 b en\gh to conv9ce me /ill rema9$ disc]nible2 x 0 n ,l\isa6 ,i c sc>cely recollect a p]iod ?r\gh all ! /range vicissitudes ( my exi/5ce to be comp>$ ) ?is4 ,if ,i _h n felt :at ,i !n felt1 ,i c\ld nev] h conceiv$ x4 ,human nature is s con/itut$1 t ! highe/ degree ( angui%1 an angui% 9 :i* ! he>t /ret*es itself to take 9 ! might9ess ( its woe1 c be felt b = a few in/ants4 ,:5 ! calamity we fe>$ is already arriv$1 or :5 ! expectation ( x is s c]ta9 z to %ut out hope1 !re seems to be a pr9ciple )9 u by :i* we look ) misan?ropic composure on ! /ate to :i* we are r$uc$1 & ! he>t sull5ly contracts & accommodates itself to :at x mo/ abhorr$4 ,our hopes )]2 & our pride1 our self-complac5ce1 all t taught u to rejoice 9 exi/5ce1 )] along ) !m4 ,b1 :5 hope yet /ruggles ) despair1 or :5 ! calamity abruptly ann\nces itself1 !n is ! true cont5tion1 ! tempe/ & upro> ( ! s\l too va/ to be endur$4 ,?is s5tim5t ( ineffable wret*$ness ,i exp]i5c$1 :5 ,i /oop$ d[n ov] ! body ( ! imag9>y ,l\isa1 & :5 ,i ha/5$ to obta9 ! c]ta9ty :i* 0 ( all ?+s mo/ t]rible to me4 ,! t]m9ation ( su* a mom5t ( horror is sc>cely less memorable ?an its intr9sic greatness4 ,9 an in/ant ! s\l recov]s its balance1 & ! ?\ght is z if x has nev] be54 ,i clapp$ my h&s 9 an ec/asy at once ( joy & a/oni%m5t1 s sure did ,i seem to h made myself ( my mis=tune2 ,i quitt$ ! body ) an unburd5$ he>t2 ,i flew t[>ds my home1 t ,i might asc]ta9 :e!r ,i 0 prematurely speak+ com=t to my _s4 ,at l5g? ,i rea*$ x4 ,i saw ! happy gr\p assembl$ at ! door4 ,m>gu]ite _h ent]ta9$ ! same t]rors = me1 ) :i* ,i _h myself s lately be5 impress$4 ,we flew into ea* o!r's arms4 ,%e hid h] face 9 my neck1 & sobb$ audibly4 ,i embrac$ ea* ( ! *ildr5 9 turn1 b ,l\isa ) ! mo/ he>tfelt delight4 8,are y safe1 papa80--8,are y safe1 my *ild80 7 e*o$ on e side4 ,a spectator1 unacqua9t$ ) :at 0 pass+ 9 our he>ts1 w\ld c]ta9ly h /ood a/oni%$ to see ! transport ) :i* we exult$1 surr\nd$ z we 7 ) desolation & ru94 ,aft] an int]val1 h[ev]1 we op5$ our eyes1 & began to rum9ate ^u ! new condition 9 :i* we 7 plac$4 ,m>gu]ite & myself wat*$ ea* o!r's c\nt5ances ) anxiety1 to discov] :at 7 likely to be ! feel+s ( ei!r 9 ?is t]rible crisis4 8,be ( good he>t1 my love10 said ,m>gu]ite2 8d n suff] ! accid5t :i* has happ5$ entirely to ov]come y40 ,!re 0 a mix$ compassion1 t5d]ness1 & anxiety 9 ! tone ( voice ) :i* %e utt]$ ^! words1 t 0 inexpressibly delightful4 8,no1 ,m>gu]ite10 repli$ ,i1 ) en?usia/ic impetuosity1 8,i am n ca/ d[n2 ,i nev] %all be ca/ d[n aga94 ,ru9 is no?+ to me1 s long z ,i am surr\nd$ ) y & our de> *ildr54 ,i h = "s "t be5 a fool4 ,9 ! mid/ ( e real bless+1 ,i h fa%ion$ = myself imag9>y evils4 ,b my eyes are n[ op5$4 ,h[ easily is ! human m9d induc$ to =get ^? b5efits ) :i* we are con/antly surr\nd$1 & our possession ( :i* we reg>d z secure6 ,! feel+s ( ?is morn+ h awak5$ me4 ,i am n[ cur$ ( my folly4 ,i h le>n$ to value my dome/ic bless+s z ,i ought4 ,hav+ pres]v$ !m1 ,i e/eem myself to h lo/ no?+4 ,:at are gold & jewels & preci\s ut5sils8 ,m]e dross & dirt4 ,! human face & ! human he>t1 reciprocations ( k9dness & love1 & all ! nameless sympa?ies ( our nature1--^! are ! only objects wor? be+ atta*$ to4 ,:at are rank & /ation8--! homage ( ! multitude & ! applause ( fools4 ,let me judge = myself6 ,! value ( a man is 9 8 intr9sic qualities2 9 t ( :i* p[] _c /rip him1 & :i* adv]se =tune _c take away4 ,t = :i* he is indebt$ to circum/ances1 is m]e trapp+ & t9sel4 ,i %\ld love ^! preci\s & +5u\s creatures be=e me bett]1 ?\gh 9 rags1 ?an ! *ildr5 ( k+s 9 all ! pomp ( ornam5t4 ,i am pr\d to be _! fa!r4 ,:atev] may be my p]sonal faults1 ! _w is my debtor = hav+ be5 ! occasion ( _! exi/5ce4 ,b !y are ende>$ to me by a bett] pr9ciple ?an pride4 ,i love !m = _! qualities4 ,he t loves1 & is lov$ by1 a race ( pure & virtu\s creatures1 & t lives cont9ually 9 ! mid/ ( !m1 is an idiot1 if he does n ?9k himself happy4 ,surr\nd$ z ,i am n[ surr\nd$1 ,i feel z irremovable z ! pill>s ( creation4 ,no?+ t does n /rike at _! exi/5ce c affect me ) t]ror40 ,m>gu]ite view$ me ) surprise & joy4 8,n[ inde$10 said %e1 8y are ! man ,i took y =1 & ! man ,i %all h5ce=? be pr\d] ?an ev] to call my husb&4 ,! sorr[ 9 :i* y lately indulg$ 0 a luxury2 & we mu/ h done ) luxuries4 ,y w be our protector & our support40 ,?us say+1 %e took me by ! h&1 & motion$ me to view ) h] ! deva/ation t _h be5 committ$4 ,!re 0 "o pa? ,i _h discov]$1 9 :i* we might proce$ "s way ) tol]able ease4 ,! sc5e 0 t]rible4 ,we 7 inde$ begg>s4 ,a :ole prov9ce _h be5 de/roy$3 all ! corn & ! fruits ( ! e>?2 mo/ ( ! trees2 9 _m places cattle2 9 "s places m54 ,p]sons :o _h be5 ri* 9 ! morn+ saw all ! produce ( _! fields annihilat$1 & 7 unable ev5 to guess by :at process f]tility 0 to be re-e/abli%$4 ,! comp>atively weal?y sc>cely knew h[ !y 7 to obta9 imm$iate subsi/5ce2 ! humbl] class1 :o always live by ! exp$i5ts ( ! day1 saw no?+ be=e !m b ! prospect ( p]i%+ ) hung]4 ,we witness$1 9 "o or two in/ances1 ! angui% ( _! despair4 ,our prospect 0 sc>cely 9 any respect bett] ?an !irs2 yet we felt diff]5tly4 ,we 7 m impress$ ) ! joy ( our p]sonal escape4 ,z my error respect+ ! value ( ext]nals _h be5 uncommonly great1 ! sudd5 revolution ( op9ion ,i exp]i5c$ 0 equally memorable4 ,! survey1 inde$1 t we took ( ! g5]al di/ress some:at sadd5$ our he>ts2 b ! sadness x gave 0 t ( sobriety1 n ( dejection4 ,x 0 incumb5t ^u u to make a /rict exam9ation into ! am\nt ( our prop]ty1 & our imm$iate res\rces2 & 9 ?is (fice ,i unit$ myself ) ,m>gu]ite1 n only ) a degree ( *e]fulness & application1 ! p]fect contra/ ( my :ole conduct ev] s9ce our arrival 9 ,switz]l&1 b :i* greatly exce$$ any ?+ ,i _h ev] be=e exhibit$ 9 a bus9ess ( ?is nature4 ,we f\nd t1 ?\gh all our hopes ( a h>ve/ 7 annihilat$1 yet we 7 n de/itute ( ! in/ant means ( subsi/5ce4 ,! res\rces we possess$1 :e!r 9 money or provisions1 t 7 our dep5d5ce till ! p]iod :5 ! new produce %\ld supply _! place1 7 un9jur$4 ,our implem5ts ( husb&ry rema9$ z be=e4 ,! l& 0 n impov]i%$1 b _h r d]iv$ additional f]tility f ! effects ( ! /orm4 ,:at we _h lo/ 0 *iefly ! produce ( our capital = "o ye>1 toge!r ) a "p ( t capital itself 9 ! live /ock t _h be5 de/roy$4 ,?is 0 a loss :i* a c]ta9 degree ( c>e & scope 9 our ext]nal circum/ances might easily h enabl$ u to supply4 ,b ! pr9ciple ( supply 0 d5i$ u4 ,x 0 ) consid]able difficulty t all ! economy ( ,m>gu]ite _h enabl$ h] to support our family e/abli%m5t1 :ile e ?+ ( ?is k9d _h gone on prosp]\sly4 ,su* a %ock z ! pres5t we 7 totally disqualifi$ to surm\nt4 ,x compell$ u to a complete revolution ( our affairs4 ,_m inde$ ( our neighb\rs _h sc>cely any great] advantage 9 _! private affairs ?an ourselves4 ,b !y possess$ "o sup]iority t prov$ ( ! greate/ importance 9 ?is conjuncture2 !y 7 natives ( ! /ate 9 :i* !y resid$4 ,9 ! cantons ( ,switz]l&1 ! de/ruction ( ! fruits ( ! e>?1 occasion$ by inclem5t seasons & tempe/s1 is by no means unfrequ5t2 & x is !re=e cu/om>y1 9 pl5tiful ye>s1 to lay up corn 9 public magaz9es1 t ! p may n p]i% 9 p]iods ( sc>city4 ,^! magaz9es are plac$ "u ! inspection & disposal ( ! magi/racy2 & ! inhabitants look$ to !m ) confid5ce = ! supply ( _! ne$4 ,no /orm1 h[ev]1 _h occurr$ 9 ! memory ( man s t]rible & ru9\s z ! pres5t2 & x became evid5t t ! magaz9es w\ld prove a res\rce too feeble = ! ext5t ( ! em]g5cy4 ,! /orm _h spread itself ov] a space ( _m leagues 9 circumf]5ce1 n only 9 ! canton ( ,soleure1 b 9 ! neighb\r+ cantons1 p>ticul>ly t ( ,b]ne4 ,! suff]]s1 9 our own canton only1 am\nt$ to sc>cely less ?an t5 ?\s&4 ,:ile ! wom5 & *ildr51 = ! mo/ "p1 rema9$ at home1 ! h\ses hav+ 9 g5]al suff]$ little o!r damage ?an ! de/ruction ( _! w9d[s1 ! fa!rs ( families repair$ to ! seat ( gov]nm5t to put 9 _! claims = national relief2 & ^! alone =m$ an imm5se troop1 t ?reat5$ little less ?an to besiege ! public magaz9es & ! magi/rates4 ,an accurate inve/igation 0 ent]$ into ( ! losses ( ea*1 x be+ ! purpose ( gov]nm5t1 z f> z its p[] ext5d$1 n only to supply ! p ) ! means ( imm$iate subsi/5ce1 b also1 by disbursem5ts f ! public treasury1 to recruit ! /ock ( cattle1 & to assi/ e "o to return1 ) reviv$ hopes & expectation1 to ! sph]e ( 8 indu/ry4 ,! purpose 0 no d\bt b5evol5t2 b1 9 ! mean "t1 ! unhappy victims f\nd 9 unc]ta9ty & expectation a real & corrod+ angui%4 ,i advanc$ my claim ) ! re/1 b met ) a p]emptory refusal4 ,! h>% & rigor\s answ] ,i receiv$ 01 t !y _h n en\gh = _! own p1 & c\ld sp>e no?+ to /rang]s4 ,^u ?is occasion ,i 0 compell$ to feel :at x 0 to be an ali51 & h[ diff]5t ! condition 9 :i* ,i 0 n[ plac$ f t ,i _h fill$ 9 my native c\ntry4 ,!re ,i _h liv$ 9 ! mid/ ( a p1 to :om ! v5]ation ( my ance/ry & "n seem$ a "p ( _! nature4 ,!y _h witness$ = sev]al ye>s ! respectable mann] 9 :i* ,i liv$2 ! virtues ( ,m>gu]ite 7 famili> to !m2 & !y took an int]e/ 9 e ?+ t conc]n$ u1 a s5tim5t t confess$ u at once = k9dr$ & patrons4 ,x 0 ! turn ( m9d only :i* is g5]at$ by rank1 t _h compell$ u to quit _! vic9ity2 we might h cont9u$ 9 x1 if n 9 afflu5ce1 at lea/ enjoy+ ! gratifications t arise f g5]al affection & respect4 ,b "h we 7 beheld ) an eye ( jeal\sy & di/a/e4 ,we _h no prejudice ( bir? & habit 9 our fav\r2 inde$1 9 ! rev]se ( =tune :i* _h br\ght u hi!r1 ,m>gu]ite _h be5 less desir\s ( obtrud+1 ?an ( )draw+ f ! public eye1 ! circum/ance ( our rank4 ,we 7 too rec5t inmates to h secur$1 by any ?+ ( a p]sonal nature1 an advantage\s op9ion among our neighb\rs4 ,!y saw only a mis]able & di/ract$ fa!r ( a family1 & a "m :o1 9 spite ( ! simplicity %e cultivat$1 suffici5tly ev9c$ t %e _h be5 accu/om$ to a m elevat$ situation4 ,! prepossessions ( mank9d are cle>ly unfav\rable to a new-com]1 an emigrant :o has quitt$ 8 =m] connections & ! sc5es ( 8 y\?4 ,!y are unavoidably impell$ to believe1 t 8 tak+ up 8 abode 9 ano!r c\ntry mu/ be ow+ to a weak & discr$itable caprice1 if x be n ow+ to some?+ /ill m disadvantage\s to 8 "*4 ,! calamity !re=e :i* we _h suff]$ 9 common ) mo/ ( ! inhabitants ( ! prov9ce1 f9ally r$uc$ u to ! necessity ( a second emigration4 ,! jeal\sy ) :i* we 7 reg>d$1 daily became m visible & ?reat5+4 ,?\gh1 9 consequ5ce ( ! di/ribution made by ord] ( ! /ate1 ! price ( commodities 0 n s mu* increas$ z might h be5 expect$1 we 7 consid]$ z int]lop]s ^u ! portion ( ! natives2 ! sell]s c\ld ) difficulty be p]suad$ to accommodate u1 & ! by/&]s treat$ u ) murmurs & revil+4 ,:ile we 7 delib]at+ :at c\rse to pursue 9 ?is em]g5cy1 c]ta9 (fic]s ( gov]nm5t "o morn+ ent]$ our habitation1 produc+ an ord] ( ! s5ate = our imm$iate removal out ( ! t]ritory4 ,x is ( ! ess5ce ( co]cive regulations1 to expel1 to imprison1 & turn out ( prison1 ! individuals x is ?\ght prop] to control1 )\t any c>e z to ! mis*iefs !y may suff]1 & :e!r !y p]i% "u or survive ! evil inflict$ on !m4 ,we 7 accord+ly all[$ only f six 9 ! morn+ till noon1 to prep>e = our dep>ture4 ,our gu>ds inde$ (f]$ to p]mit me to rema9 ?ree days to w9d up my affairs1 ^u condition t my wife & *ildr5 7 in/antly remov$ into ano!r c\ntry1 z a sort ( ho/ages = my own dep>ture4 ,?is indulg5ce h[ev] w\ld h be5 useless4 ,9 ! pres5t /ate ( ! c\ntry no pur*as] c\ld be f\nd = ! little e/ate ,i possess$2 & if !re c\ld1 x mu/ d\btless h be5 dispos$ ( to great disadvantage at su* an em]g5cy4 ,i "k n h[ we %\ld h extricat$ ourselves out ( ^! difficulties1 if a memb] ( ! s5ate1 :o1 be+ "o ( my ne>e/ neighb\rs1 _h be5 /ruck ) admiration ( ! virtues ( ,m>gu]ite1 & ) compassion = my family1 _h n paid me a visit %ortly aft] ! arrival ( ! (fic]s1 & g5]\sly (f]$ to take ^u himself ! c>e ( my prop]ty1 & to advance me :at money might be necess>y = my emigration4 ,?is (f]1 :i* at any o!r "t might h be5 reg>d$ z purely a matt] ( c\rse1 "u ! pres5t circum/ances1 :5 capital 0 s necess>y = ! revival ( agriculture 9 ! desolat$ c\ntry1 impli$ a lib]al & dis9t]e/$ _s4 ,i accept$ ! k9dness ( my neighb\r 9 bo? its p>ts1 b = ! reimbursem5t ( 8 loan ref]r$ him to ! ,fr5* m9i/] to ! ,unit$ ,cantons1 :o1 "u all ! circum/ances ( ! case1 & tak+ my e/ate z security = ! money advanc$1 ,i ?\ght x reasonable to believe w\ld att5d to my application4 ,,*apt] ,,ix4 ,my affairs be+ ?us f> adju/$1 ,i took leave ( my late habitation1 & set (f ) my wife & *ildr5 ! same aft]noon4 ,9 ! ev5+ we arriv$ at ,basle1 :]e we 7 p]mitt$ to rema9 t night2 & ! next morn+ 7 conduct$ 9 =m out at ! nor? gate ( ! city1 :]e our att5dants quitt$ u1 ) a fre% prohibition "u ! sev]e/ p5alties1 if we 7 f\nd )9 ! ensu+ twelve mon?s 9 any ( ! t]ritories ( ! ,helvetic republic4 ,m>gu]ite & myself _h already =m$ our plan4 ,we began ) dismiss+ bo? our s]vants4 ,an att5dant 0 no long] necess>y to me1 nor a nurse = ! infant4 ,! sugge/ion ( ?is measure orig9at$ 9 myself4 ,my temp] at ?is "t1 z ,i h already said1 und]w5t a /rik+ *ange4 ,i 0 resolv$ to be happy2 ,i 0 resolv$ to be active4 ,x 0 h>d to "p ) p]sons s long famili> to u1 & :o appe>$ r 9 ! "* ( humble fri5ds ?an dome/ics2 b an imp]i\s necessity dem&$ x4 8,let u10 said ,i to ,m>gu]ite1 8increase & secure our happ9ess by dim9i%+ our wants4 ,i w be y\r husb&man & y\r lab\r]2 y may dep5d ^u my p]sev]ance4 ,my education has fitt$ me to endure h>d%ip & fatigue1 ?\gh ! h>d%ips !n ?\ght ( 7 ( a diff]5t nature4 ,y h ev] delight$ 9 active usefulness2 & w n1 ,i "k1 rep9e at ?is accumulation ( employm5t4 ,let u accommodate ourselves to our circum/ances4 ,our *ildr51 ,i p]ceive1 are fat$ to be peasants1 & w !re=e be em95tly b5efit$ by ! example ( pati5ce & indep5d5ce we %all set be=e !m40 ,! next object ( our plan relat$ to ! *oice ( our future place ( resid5ce4 ,?is orig9at$ ) ,m>gu]ite4 ,%e _h he>d mu* ( ! beauty & ri*ness ( ! c\ntry bord]+ on ! lake ( ,con/ance1 & %e ?\ght t1 :ile we d5i$ ourselves exp5sive pleasures1 or r :ile !y 7 plac$ out ( our rea*1 !re w\ld be a propriety 9 our procur+ = ourselves a /ock ( ^? pleasures :i* w\ld co/ u no?+4 ,?is 0 a ref9em5t beyond me1 & s]ves to ev9ce ! sup]iority :i* ,m>gu]ite's virtue & =ce ( m9d /ill reta9$ ov] m9e4 ,! virtue ,i _h s rec5tly adopt$ 0 a /r5u\s ef=t4 ,i r resolv$ to be happy1 ?an c\ld /rictly be said to be happy4 ,i lov$ my *ildr5 inde$ ) an unfeign$ affection4 ,x 0 ) s9c]ity t ,i pr(ess$ to pref] !m to all e>?ly possessions4 ,b vanity & o/5tation 7 habits wr\ght into my s\l1 & might be said to =m "p ( its ess5ce4 ,i c\ld n1 b by ! =ce ( con/ant recollection1 keep !m out ( my wi%es & hopes = ! future4 ,i c\ld n1 l ,m>gu]ite1 suff] my ?\ghts1 z x 71 to riot & wanton 9 ! pleasures ( pov]ty4 ,i c\ld only reconcile myself to my fate by a sort ( gloomy firmness4 ,! tranquillity ,i seem$ to h atta9$1 0 an unnatural /ate ( my s\l1 to :i* x 0 necess>y t ,i %\ld resolutely hold myself d[n1 & f :i* my ?\ghts appe>$ ev] ^u ! al]t to escape4 ,bitt] exp]i5ce _h at l5g? taught me a h>d lesson2 & t lesson ,i 0 det]m9$ to practise1 :atev] pangs my resignation might co/ me4 ,we proce$$ )\t hesitation 9 ! direction we _h resolv$ to pursue4 ,our :ole j\rney exce$$ ! space ( =ty leagues 9 ext5t1 & ! exp5se necess>ily att5dant ^u x 7our family1 ev5 aft] its r$uction1 consi/+ ( no less ?an six p]sons71 dra9$ our purse ( a great "p ( ! money :i* _h be5 suppli$ to u by ! b5evol5t s5ator4 ,b he _h agre$ to und]take ! dispos+ ( ! prop]ty we 7 oblig$ to leave beh9d u1 & 9 ! mean "t1 if any consid]able int]val occurr$ be=e t 0 accompli%$1 to furni% u ) ! sums t %\ld be necess>y = our subsi/5ce4 ,we plac$ ! utmo/ reliance ^u 8 fidelity1 & dismiss$ f our m9ds all anxiety respect+ ! int]val :i* our bani%m5t _h int]pos$ betwe5 u & ! res\rces necess>y = our future settlem5t4 ,^u our arrival at ,con/ance1 we f\nd a lett] f our fri5d2 & ?\gh he transmitt$ to u no fre% supply1 ! complexion ( 8 communication 0 ^u ! :ole s enc\rag+1 z to det]m9e u1 ) no o!r delay ?an t ( f\r days' re/ f our j\rney1 to pass to ! o!r side ( ! lake1 & explore = ourselves a situation suitable to our design4 ,! we/]n bank ( ! lake1 ) ! exception only ( ! city ( ,con/ance1 0 "p ( ! pays conquis ( ! ,unit$ ,cantons2 ! ea/]n bank 0 a t]ritory dep5d5t on ! gov]nm5t ( t city4 ,x 0 9 ?is t]ritory t we purpos$ fix+ our resid5ce2 & we tru/$1 t our affairs w\ld %ortly be put 9 a tra9 to enable u to take possession ( ! spot we %\ld select4 ,?us driv5 once m into flight by ! pressure ( mis=tune1 & compell$ to ex*ange = a l& unkn[n ! sc5es :i* famili>ity might h ende>$1 or t5d] recollections h made int]e/+1 we did n s9k "u ! weight ( our adv]sity4 ,?is removal 0 n l our la/4 ,switz]l& 0 to none ( u ende>$ l ! vales ( ,/4 ,leon4 ,i 0 n n[ goad$ & torm5t$ by consci\s guilt 9 ! degree ,i _h !n be52 ,m>gu]ite 0 n afflict$ by ! spectacle ( my mis]y4 ,our pres5t *ange1 ?\gh x might be d5om9at$ a fall1 0 light 9 comp>ison ) ! =m]4 ,! composure ,i _h ga9$ 0 new to me1 & _h to my own m9d all ! gloss ( novelty4 ,to my companions x prov$ contagi\s2 !y 7 a/oni%$ at my s]5ity1 & drew f x an unwont$ lightness ( he>t4 ,?us circum/anc$1 our t\r _h its *>ms = u all2 & !re are few passages ( my life t ,i h felt m agreeably4 ,! lake itself is uncommonly beautiful1 & its environs are f]tile & int]e/+4 ,x is surr\nd$ ) an abundance ( t[ns1 villages1 c\ntry seats1 & mona/]ies1 suffici5t to adorn & div]sify ! view1 b n to exclude ! sweetness ( a rural sc5]y1 or ! gr& features ( nature4 ,we coa/$ a consid]able "p ( ! lake1 t we might judge 9 "s degree1 previ\sly to our l&+1 :i* "p ( ! %ore promis$ be/ to yield u ! object we s\ght4 ,! autumn 0 n[ comm5c+2 ! air 0 liquid & sweet2 ! foliage 0 ri* & v>i$2 & ! v9e-cov]$ hills exhibit$ a w>m? & luxuriance ( col\r+1 t no o!r object ( nature or art is able to cope )4 ,surr\nd$ ) ^! objects1 ,i sat 9 my boat 9 ! mid/ ( my *ildr52 &1 z ,i 0 b j awak5$ to an obs]vation ( _! wor? & my own happ9ess1 ,i view$ !m ) a transport t w\ld be ill illu/rat$ by be+ comp>$ ) ! transport ( a mis] ov] 8 new-recov]$ treasure f ! b[els ( ! deep4 ,o pov]ty6 exclaim$ ,i1 ) elevat$ & unconqu]able emotion1 if ^! are ! delights t att5d !e1 will+ly w ,i resign ! pomp ( palaces & ! spl5d\r ( rank to :oev] %all deem !m wor? 8 acceptance6 ,h5ce=? ,i desire only to d$icate myself to ! simplicity ( nature & ! g5u9e s5tim5ts ( ! he>t4 ,i w enjoy ! beauty ( sc5es cultivat$ by o!r h&s ?an m9e1 or t are spread out be=e me by ! ,au?or ( ! univ]se4 ,i w sit 9 ! mid/ ( my *ildr51 & revel 9 ! luxury ( dome/ic affections2 pleasures ^!1 t may be incumb]$1 b _c be height5$1 by all t weal? has 9 its p[] to be/[6 ,weal? s]ves no o!r purpose ?an to deprave ! s\l1 & adult]ate ! f\nta9s ( g5u9e delight4 ,su* 0 ! _s ( exultation ) :i* my m9d 0 at ?is "t fill$4 ,i am s5sible t x 0 only calculat$ to be transitory4 ,i might le>n to be cont5t$2 ,i 0 n =m$ to be satisfi$ 9 obscurity & a l[ e/ate4 ,?us happy1 & ?us amus$1 we sp5t two days 9 coa/+ ! lake1 l&+ frequ5tly = ! purposes ei!r ( v>iety or enquiry1 & regul>ly pass+ ! night on %ore4 ,on ! ev5+ ( ! second day we 7 /ruck ) ! neat appe>ance & pleas+ situation ( a cottage1 :i* we discov]$ 9 our rambles1 ab\t a mile & a half f ! lake4 ,we f\nd t x 0 to be sold1 & x seem$ precisely to correspond ) ! wi%es we _h =m$4 ,x 0 at a consid]able di/ance f any popul\s neighb\rhood1 ! ne>e/ t[n be+ t ( ,m]spurg1 ! usual resid5ce ( ! bi%ops ( ,con/ance1 :i* 0 di/ant f ?is spot n less ?an ?ree leagues4 ,! cottage 0 situat$ 9 a valley2 ! hills be+ = ! mo/ "p cr[n$ ) ri* & v]dant foliage1 _! sides cov]$ ) v9ey>ds & corn1 & a cle> transp>5t rivulet murmur+ along f ea/ to we/4 ,9 ! di/ance a few simil> cottages discov]$ !mselves1 & 9 front !re 0 an op5+ betwe5 ! hills1 j wide en\gh to %[ u a few sails z !y float$ along ! n[ ev5 surface ( ! lake4 ,we approa*$ ! cottage1 & f\nd 9 x only "o p]son1 an int]e/+ girl ( n9ete51 :o _h resid$ !re f h] bir?1 & _h be5 employ$ = ! la/ f\r ye>s 9 att5dance ^u ! clos+ sc5e ( h] "m4 ,h] "m _h be5 dead only a few weeks1 & %e 0 ^u ! po9t ( remov+1 z %e told u1 to ! h\se ( a bro!r1 ! be/ creature 9 ! _w1 :o 0 already m>ri$1 & _h a family ( *ildr54 ,:ile we 7 talk+ ) h]1 we p]ceiv$ a f9e boy ( ab\t elev5 ye>s ( age skipp+ along ! mead[4 ,he prov$ to be h] nephew1 & ha/5$ to say t 8 fa!r & ,mr4 ,h5ry 7 j beh9d1 & w\ld be ) h] 9 a few m9utes4 ,we wait$ _! arrival2 & x 0 easy to see t ,mr4 ,h5ry 0 by no means an indiff]5t object 9 ! eyes ( ! beautiful orphan3 %e _h probably condition$ t he %\ld p]mit h] to rema9 s+le z long z %e c\ld be ( any use to h] "m4 ,! lov]s 7 well satisfi$ t ! girl's bro!r %\ld be tak5 aside1 t ,i might talk ov] ) him ! affair ( ! cottage4 ,we made a t\r ( ! fields t 7 "p ( ! prop]ty ( ! deceas$1 & ! t]ms ( our int5d$ pur*ase 7 easily adju/$4 ,?\gh we _h n[ accompli%$ ! imm$iate purpose ( our exp$ition1 yet1 z we _h f\nd unusual exhil>ation & sweetness 9 ! objects x pres5t$ to u1 we came to a resolution ( cont9u+ x /ill fur!r1 & complet+ ! circuit ( ! lake4 ,we 7 aw>e t x w\ld be va9 z yet to expect to receive ! money requisite = complet+ our pur*ase2 & z no pleasure1 m]ely 9 ! way ( relaxation1 c\ld be m delightful ?an t we 7 n[ enjoy+1 s 0 x impossible t we c\ld fill up our "t 9 a m frugal mann] ?an 9 ?is little voyage4 ,our gratification 0 n less1 b m p]fect1 because x consi/$ ( simple1 in>tificial1 unb\ght amusem5ts4 ,! sc5es ar\nd u 7 refre%+ & invigorat+2 !y 7 calculat$1 tempor>ily at lea/1 to inspire gaiety & y\? into decrepitude itself4 ,amid/ ^! sc5es we =got our sorr[s2 !y 7 a k9d ( /ream1 9 :i* we>9ess & dejection plung$ _! limbs1 & came =? untir$ & al]t4 ,!y awak5$ 9 ! m9d all its mo/ pleas+ associations4 ,hav+ already1 z we believ$1 *os5 ! place ( our future resid5ce1 we busi$ ourselves 9 imag9+ all ! accompanim5ts t w\ld gr[ out ( x4 ,we det]m9$ t pov]ty ) heal? w\ld n fail to be att5d$ ) its portion ( pleasures4 ,! sc5es ( nature 7 all our own2 nor c\ld weal? give !m a m p]fect1 or a firm]1 appropriation4 ,! affections & *>ities ( habitude & consangu9ity we tru/$ we %\ld feel un9t]rupt$2 un9cumb]$ ) ! c]emonies & trapp+s ( life1 & 9 t rural pla9ness :i* is _! g5ial soil4 ,aft] a leisurely & delightful voyage ( six days1 we return$ to ,con/ance4 ,we expect$ to h f\nd on our return "s fur!r intellig5ce f ! b5efic5t s5ator1 b 9 ?is we 7 disappo9t$4 ,! imag9ation h[ev] easily sugge/$ to u a v>iety ( circum/ances t might h delay$ ! bus9ess he _h und]tak52 & x 0 no =c$ inf]5ce to suppose t he def]r$ writ+1 because he _h no?+ important to communicate4 ,at fir/ !re=e we suff]$ little uneas9ess f ! delay2 b z "t proce$$1 & ! sil5ce ( our protector cont9u$1 ! affair began to assume a m s]i\s aspect4 ,! little /ock we _h br\ght ) u 9 our exile 0 9 a rapid progress ( decay4 ,we _h manag$ x ) frugality2 ?\gh n at fir/ ) t anxi\s solicitude1 ! necessity ( :i* we n[ began to appreh5d4 ,we _h procur$ = ourselves two small & inconv5i5t ap>tm5ts 9 an obscure alley ( ! city ( ,con/ance4 ,we 7 9 ! act ( m$itat+ :at /eps x w\ld be necess>y to take 9 ?is un=tunate em]g5cy1 :5 intellig5ce 0 br\ght u ( ! sudd5 decease ( ! p]son ^u ^: k9dness & ex]tions we dep5d$4 ,he 0 succe$$ 9 8 e/ate by 8 nephew1 a man ( :om we _h he>d some?+ dur+ our resid5ce 9 ! neighb\rhood1 & ^: habits we und]/ood to be diametrically ! rev]se ( 8 pr$ecessor's4 ,9 %ort1 he _h be5 repres5t$ to u z illib]al1 morose1 selfi%1 & litigi\s2 a man :o1 hav+ suff]$ 9 "o "p ( 8 life ! h>d%ips ( pov]ty1 scrupl$ no means1 hon\rable or o!rwise1 ( remov+ x to ! greate/ practicable di/ance4 ,he _h already reap$ ! succession "s weeks1 :5 we he>d ( ! ev5t t put him 9 possession ( x2 & ! lett]s :i* ,i _h m ?an once address$ to our protector _h probably fall5 into 8 h&s4 ,^! circum/ances af=d$ no fav\rable augury ( ! treatm5t we might expect f him4 ,! fir/ ?+ :i* seem$ prop] 0 to write to him1 :i* ,i accord+ly did4 ,i acqua9t$ him ) ! nature ( ! transaction betwe5 myself & 8 uncle1 & signifi$ h[ necess>y x 0 t we %\ld come to a conclusion z spe$ily z possible4 ,i repres5t$ to him pa!tically ! condition to :i* ,i 0 born1 & ! opul5ce 9 :i* ,i _h pass$ _m ye>s ( my life1 toge!r ) ! contra/ af=d$ by ! pres5t r$uc$ & urg5t circum/ances ( my family4 ,i entreat$ him to ex]t 8 g5]osity & ju/ice 9 behalf ( an un=tunate exile1 :om unt[>d ev5ts _h depriv$ ( ! p[] ( do+ ju/ice to himself4 ,to ?is lett] ,i receiv$ no answ]4 ,unc]ta9 z to ! cause ( my correspond5t's sil5ce1 or ev5 :e!r my lett] _h be5 receiv$1 ,i wrote aga94 ,my he>t 0 wrung ) ?is new adv]sity4 ,i 0 =bidd51 "u pa9 ( p]petual imprisonm5t1 to return to ! t]ritories ( ! republic1 & ,i _h no fri5d to solicit 9 my behalf4 ,9 ,con/ance ,i 0 utt]ly a /rang]4 ,9 ,switz]l&1 my un=tunate habits ( life1 ! depression & solitude 9 :i* ,i _h be5 m]g$1 depriv$ me ( ! opportunity ( =m+ connections4 ,! deceas$ 0 ! only p]son :o _h be5 dispos$ to int]f]e = me4 ,x 0 too probable t ! sil5ce ( 8 successor 0 an indication ( ! ho/ility ( 8 views4 ,i saw no?+ be=e me b ! prospect ( my family p]i%+ ) want1 depriv$ ( _! la/ res\rce1 exiles & p5nyless4 ,?us de/itute & =lorn1 :at c\ld we d8 to :at plan c\ld we h rec\rse8 ,we _h n s mu* z ! means ( provid+ ourselves ) ! implem5ts ( ! humble/ lab\r4 ,if we _h1 c\ld ,i1 "u my circum/ances1 resolve ^u ?is8 ,c\ld ,i give up ! la/ sl5d] pittance ( my *ildr5 :ile !re 0 a *ance ( recov]+ x2 &1 by surr5d]+ !m to ! slav]y ( p]petual lab\r1 devote !m to ! l[e/ degree ( ignorance & degradation8 ,no2 ,i /ill clung to ?is f9al hope1 & 0 resolv$ to und]take any ?+1 h[ev] desp]ate1 r ?an "p ) x4 ,su* 7 my feel+s2 &1 9 ! new lett] :i* ,i n[ despat*$1 ,i p\r$ out all ! angui% ( my s\l4 ,a reply to ?is lett] 0 at l5g? v\*saf$4 ,! heir ( my protector in=m$ me1 t he knew no?+ ( ! bus9ess to :i* ,i allud$2 t he _h come into possession ( ! l&s ,i describ$1 toge!r ) ! o!r prop]ty ( 8 late uncle1 & reg>d$ himself z hold+ !m by ! same t5ure2 t he f\nd 9 ! acc\nts ( ! e/ate a sum ( money advanc$ to me1 :i* he might ) ! /ricte/ ju/ice reg>d z a debt1 & pursue me = x accord+ly4 ,he %\ld be lib]al en\gh h[ev] s f> to give cr$it to my /ory1 & to consid] ! sum 9 "q z advanc$ ^u a pl$ge ( l&3 9 t case1 ,i might reg>d myself z suffici5tly =tunate 9 hav+ obta9$ ev5 t am\nt at a "t :51 b = ! humanity or weakness ( 8 uncle1 my e/ate w\ld n h sold = a f>?+4 ,mean:ile1 ! =be>ance :i* he pr(f]$ w\ld1 he obs]v$1 dep5d ^u my conduct1 & be retract$ if ,i af=d$ him cause = res5tm5t4 ,he add$1 t he despis$ my m5aces & comm&s1 & t1 if ,i took a s+le /ep aga9/ him1 ,i %\ld f9d x t]m9ate 9 my utt] ru94 ,no?+ c\ld be m pr(ligate ?an ! /yle ( 8 lett]4 ,b its impot5ce 0 equal to its wick$ness4 ,x 0 absurd to ?reat5 to inflict ru9 on a man :om ru9 _h already ov]tak54 ,be=e ! lett] arriv$1 ,i _h disburs$ ! :ole sum ,i br\ght ) me f ,switz]l&4 ,?is entire annihilation ( my res\rces seem$ to /eal on me unp]ceiv$4 ,f9d+ t all reply to my importunity 0 ei!r refus$1 or def]r$ to an unc]ta9 p]iod1 ,i w\ld will+ly at all risks h s\ght ! villa9 :o ?us obdurately devot$ me & my family to de/ruction1 & h endeav\r$ to obta9 ju/ice 9 p]son4 ,b x 0 n[ too late4 ,be=e ,i felt ! case ?us desp]ate1 my f9ances 7 s f> r$uc$ z to make x impracticable = me to leave my wife & *ildr5 en\gh to support !m 9 my abs5ce1 ev5 if ,i _h det]m9$ myself to set out ^u ?is p]il\s exp$ition p5nyless4 ,i resolv$ t1 if we did p]i%1 we w\ld p]i% toge!r4 ,p5ury 0 n[ advanc+ ^u u ) su* rapid /rides1 t ! l[e/ & mo/ scanty res\rces no long] admitt$ ( neglect4 ,_h a case ?us desp]ate be5 enc\nt]$ ) timely att5tion1 x is n improbable t "s ( ! v>i\s tal5ts ,i _h acquir$ 9 ! c\rse ( my education w\ld h furni%$ me ) a means ( subsi/5ce n altoge!r plebeian or incompet5t4 ,b1 ) ! unc]ta9ty ( my situation1 & totally unaccu/om$ z ,i 0 to reg>d my p]son or m9d z a ma*9e fitt$ = productive lab\r1 ,i _h n look$ to ?is "q1 till ! urg5cy ( ! case depriv$ me ( e advantage ,i might o!rwise h seiz$4 ,i 0 glad !re=e to h rec\rse to m5ial occupation1 & s\ght employm5t "u ! g>d5] ( ! episcopal palace1 = ^: s]vice ,i 0 suffici5tly qualifi$ by my t5 ye>s' retreat 9 ! ,bordelois4 ,t ,i might bett] adapt myself to ! pa9ful necessity ( my situation1 ,i previ\sly ex*ang$ "s ( my own clo!s = g>m5ts m suitable to ! bus9ess ,i n[ solicit$4 ,x 0 n till ,i _h arriv$ )9 a v few days to ! end ( my res\rces2 t ev5 ?is exp$i5t1 by a sort ( accid5t1 recurr$ to my m9d4 ,m>gu]ite1 ?\gh fully aw>e ( ! urg5cy ( ! case1 _h1 z %e aft]w>ds told me1 impos$ on h]self a compulsory sil5ce1 fe>+ = ! inflam$ & irritat$ frame ( my m9d1 & aw>e t ! c\rse ( ev5ts w\ld ultimately lead me to a po9t ) :i* %e dread$ to int]m$dle4 ,?is 0 = h] a try+ mom5t2 my lately recov]$ insanity oblig+ h] to contemplate 9 sil5ce our gr[+ di/ress1 & to wait ! attack ( hung] & want t ?reat5$ to de/roy u1 ) an app>5t tranquillity & *e]fulness4 ,= me1 s entire a revolution _h tak5 place 9 my s5tim5ts1 t ,i spurn$ ) contempt1 s f> z relat$ to myself1 t pride ( rank & romantic gallantry ( hon\r1 :i* _h =m]ly be5 my idols4 ,i submitt$ ) a sort ( gloomy cont5tm5t to ! situation ^u :i* my de/9y drove me4 ,i reg>d$ x z ! natural result ( my =m] misconduct2 & d]iv$ a s5tim5t ( ease & relief f ?us expiat+1 z x 71 ) ! sweat ( my br[1 ! temptations to :i* ,i _h yield$4 ,_h ,i be5 myself only r$uc$ ?us l[1 or _h ! produce ( my lab\r be5 suffici5t to pur*ase compet5ce = my wife & ! means ( in/ruction = my family1 ,i c safely affirm t ,i %\ld h f\nd no consequ5ce s direct f my own degradation z ! means ( sil5c+ ! reproa*es ( consci5ce & reconcil+ me to myself4 ,b :5 ,i return$ 9 ! ev5+ ) ! e>n+s ( my day's lab\r1 & f\nd x incompet5t to ! procur+ = ^? :o dep5d$ on me ! simple/ means ( subsi/5ce1 !n inde$ my s5sations 7 diff]5t4 ,my he>t di$ )9 me4 ,i did n return aft] ! fatigues ( ! day1 :i*1 to me :o _h n be5 accu/om$ to unremitt$ lab\r1 & :o n[ began to feel t ,i 0 n s "y z ,i _h be5 at ! siege ( ,pavia1 7 extremely try+1--,i did n return1 ,i say1 to a night ( repose4 ,i became a v woman :5 ,i look$ =w>d1 & endeav\r$ to picture to myself ! future situation ( my family4 ,i wat]$ my pill[ ) my te>s4 ,(t51 :5 ,i imag9$ t my :ole family 7 asleep1 ,i gave v5t to my p]turbat$ & di/ract$ m9d 9 groans3 ,m>gu]ite w\ld sometimes ov]he> me2 & ) ! g5tle/ sugge/ions ( h] admirable m9d w\ld endeav\r to soo! my ?\ghts to peace4 ,= ! pres5t1 z ,i h said1 my e>n+s 7 incompet5t1 & we f\nd x necess>y to supply ! defici5cy by ! sale ( ! few g>m5ts1 n 9 imm$iate use1 t we /ill possess$4 ,:at !n w\ld be ! case :5 ^! 7 gone1 & :51 9 addition to ?is1 x w\ld be necess>y to pur*ase n only food to eat1 & a ro( to %elt]1 b also clo!s to cov] u8 ,,*apt] ,x4 ,^! defici5cies ,i anxi\sly anticipat$2 b !re 0 ano!r evil1 ^u :i* ,i _h n calculat$1 t 0 /ill ne>] & m ov]:elm+4 ,! mode ( life 9 :i* ,i 0 n[ engag$1 s diff]5t f any ?+ to :i* ,i _h be5 accu/om$1 excessive fatigue1 toge!r ) ! occasional heat ( ! wea!r1 ! uneas9ess ( my m9d1 & ! sleeplessness ( my nights1 all comb9$ to ?r[ me into a fev]1 :i*1 ?\gh x did n la/ long1 _h rag$ s furi\sly dur+ ! p]iod ( its cont9uance1 z to leave me 9 a /ate ( ! mo/ complete debility4 ,:ile ! disord] 0 ^u me1 ,i 0 s5sible ( my dang]2 &1 z ! brilliant & consolatory prospects ( life seem$ = ev] clos$ ^u me1 ,i at fir/ reg>d$ my approa*+ dissolution ) complac5cy1 & long$ to be releas$ f a s]ies ( woes1 9 :i* ,i _h be5 orig9ally involv$ by my own folly4 ,?is frame ( m9d h[ev] 0 ( no great duration2 ! m ne>ly ,i contemplat$ ! idea ( sep>ation f ^? ,i lov$1 ! small] 0 my resignation4 ,i 0 unwill+ to quit ^? de> objects by :i* ,i /ill held to ?is mortal sc5e2 ,i %runk ) av]sion f t b>ri] :i* sep>ates u f all t is new1 my/]i\s1 & /range4 ,ano!r tra9 ( ideas succe$$ ?is1 & ,i began to despise myself = my impati5ce & c[>dice4 ,x 0 by my vices t my family 0 involv$ 9 a long tra9 ( mis=tunes2 c\ld ,i %r9k f p>tak+ :at ,i _h n fe>$ to create8 ,! great] 7 ! adv]sities = :i* !y 7 res]v$1 ! m ought ,i to desire to suff] ) !m4 ,i _h already committ$ ! evil2 9 :at rema9$1 x 0 reasonable to suppose ,i %\ld prove _! b5efactor & n _! foe4 ,x 0 incumb5t on me to soo! & to animate !m1 to enri* _! m9ds ) *e]fulness & c\rage1 & to set be=e !m an example ( philosophy & pati5ce4 ,by my faculties ( indu/ry ,i 0 _! pr9cipal hope2 &1 :atev] we might suff] comb9$1 x 0 probable _! suff]+s w\ld be inf9itely great]1 if depriv$ ( my assi/ance4 ,^! reflections gave me en]gy2 & x seem$ z if ! resolute pr$ilection ,i _h conceiv$ = life contribut$ mu* to my recov]y4 ,"o ?+ :i* /rongly confirm$ ! *ange my m9d und]w5t 9 ?is respect1 0 a conv]sation t ,i ov]he>d at a "t :5 ,i 0 suppos$ to be completely 9 a /ate ( ins5sibility1 b :51 ?\gh ,i 0 too mu* r$uc$ to give almo/ any tok5s ( life1 my faculties ( he>+ & und]/&+ :at pass$ ar\nd me 7 entire4 ,*>les came up to my b$side1 laid 8 h& ^u m9e z if to feel ! /ate ( ! sk91 &1 ) a h&k]*ief t 0 ne>1 wip$ away ! moi/ure t b$ew$ my face4 ,he _h be5 fitt$ = _m nurse-l (fices by ! unwe>i$ att5tion he _h ex]t$ t[>ds me 9 ! p>oxysm ( my insanity4 ,hav+ f9i%$ 8 task1 he )drew f ! b$1 & bur/ into te>s4 ,8 "m came up to him1 drew him to ! fur!/ "p ( ! room1 & 9 a l[ voice began ! conv]sation4 8,d1 my de> boy1 g d[n /airs1 & get y\rself some?+ to eat4 ,y see1 y\r papa is quiet n[40 8,i am afraid t w n la/ long2 & !n he w be s re/less1 & toss ab\t s1 x is dreadful to see him40 8,i w wat*1 ,*>les1 & let y "k40 8,inde$1 mamma1 ,i _c eat n[4 ,i w by & by40 8,y mu/ try to eat1 ,*>les1 or else y w make y\rself q ill4 ,if y 7 ill too1 x w\ld be m ?an ,i c\ld support40 8,i w n be ill1 mamma4 ,i assure y ,i w n4 ,b1 besides t ,i h no /oma*1 ,i _c be> to eat :5 !re is h>dly en\gh = my si/]s40 8,eat1 boy4 ,d n tr\ble y\rself ab\t t4 ,we %all get m :5 t is gone4 ,god is good1 & w take c>e ( u40 8,i "k t ,god is good2 b = all t1 "o mu/ n expect to h e ?+ "o wi%es4 ,?\gh ,god is good1 !re are dreadful mis=tunes 9 ! _w1 & ,i suppose we %all h our %>e ( !m40 8,come1 ,*>les1 ?\gh y are b a boy1 y are ! be/ boy 9 ! _w4 ,y are n[ almo/ my only com=t2 b y w n be able to com=t me if y d n take c>e ( y\rself40 8,de> mamma6--,d y "k1 mamma1 ,i he>d t naughty man bel[ /airs c\nt up la/ night h[ mu* r5t y ow$ him =1 & swe> y %\ld n /ay any long] if y did n pay him4 ,if ,i 7 a little bigg]1 ,i w\ld talk to him s t he %\ld n d>e to insult u 9 our di/ress4 ,b1 n be+ big en\gh1 ,i op5$ ! door1 & w5t into ! room1 & begg$ him = ,god's sake n to add to y\r di/ress4 ,&1 ?\gh he is s ugly1 ,i took hold ( 8 h&1 & kiss$ x4 ,b x felt l iron1 :i* put me 9 m9d ( 8 iron he>t1 & ,i cri$ ready to bur/ ) mortification4 ,he did n say h>dly a ^w40 8,he mu/ be paid1 ,*>les3 he %all be paid40 8,d y "k1 mamma1 z soon z ,i left him ,i w5t to ! bi%op's g>d5s1 & spoke to ! g>d5]8 ,i ask$ him1 if he _h he>d t my papa 0 ill1 & he said he _h4 ,he said1 too1 he 0 v sorry1 & want$ to "k :at h& we made ( x = want ( ! wages4 ,i told him1 we 7 sadly (f1 & ! man ( ! h\se _h j be5 affront+ me ab\t 8 r5t4 ,b1 said ,i1 _c y give me some?+ to d1 to we$ or to rake8 ,i c dig a little too1 & scatt] se$4 ,he ask$1 if ,i knew we$s f fl[]s4 ,oh1 t ,i d6 said ,i4 ,well !n1 said he1 !re is n mu* y c d2 b y are a good boy1 & ,i w put y on ! bi%op's li/4 ,b n[1 mamma1 ,i h n ! he>t to "w1 till ,i see :e!r papa w get well aga940 ,:ile poor ,*>les told 8 artless tale1 ,m>gu]ite wept ov] him1 & kiss$ him aga9 & aga94 ,%e call$ him ! be/ *ild 9 ! _w1 & said t1 if ,i 7 b s =tunate z to recov]1 ) su* a husb& & su* a son1 %e %\ld yet be ! happie/ ( wom54 8,oh1 my poor fa!r60 exclaim$ ,*>les4 8,ev] s9ce ! great hail-/orm1 ,i h e h\r lov$ him bett] ?an be=e4 ,i ?\ght t 0 impossible1 b he is s g5tle1 s k9d1 s good-hum\r$1 & s pati5t6 ,i lov$ him :5 he 0 h>%1 & :5 he 0 out ( 8 m9d2 b no?+ s well !n z ,i h done s9ce4 ,p t are k9d & smile always d "o good2 b nobody's smiles are l my fa!r's4 ,x makes me cry ) joy sometimes1 :5 ,i d b ?9k ( !m4 ,pray1 papa10 add$ he1 com+ up to ! b$side1 & :isp]+1 yet ) a hurri$ & passionate acc5t1 8get well6 ,d b get well1 & we w be s happy6 ,nev] 0 !re a family s happy or s lov+ z we w be60 ,:ile he spoke ?us1 ,i endeav\r$ to put out my h&1 b ,i c\ld n2 ,i endeav\r$ to smile1 b ,i 0 unable3 my he>t 0 9 a feeble1 yet soo?+1 tranquillity4 ,! acc5ts ( love ,i _h he>d1 dwelt ^u my memory4 ,!y _h talk$ ( di/ress1 b ! s5tim5t ( love 0 upp]mo/ 9 my recollection4 ,i 0 too weak ( frame to suff] intellectual di/ress2 no acc5ts b ^? :i* c>ri$ balm to my _s1 seem$ capable ( re/+ ^u my e>4 ,f ?is h\r ,i regul>ly grew bett]1 &1 z ,i recov]$1 seem$ to feel m & m vividly h[ enviable x 0 to be ! head ( a lov+ & h>moni\s family4 ,my recov]y h[ev] 0 exce$+ly sl[1 & x 0 sev]al weeks be=e ,i _h s f> recruit$ my /r5g? z to be capable ( my ord9>y occupations4 ,9 ! mean "t ! pecuni>y difficulties to :i* we 7 expos$ h\rly increas$1 & ! *e]ful b insignificant lab\rs ( ,*>les c\ld contribute little to ! support ( a family4 ,! melan*oly nature ( our situation might p]haps h be5 expect$ to prev5t ! re/oration ( my heal?4 ,at fir/ h[ev] x _h n t effect4 ,! debilitat$ /ate ( my animal functions l$ me1 by a sort ( irresi/ible in/9ct1 to reject ideas & reflections :i* ,i %\ld !n h be5 unable to endure4 ,i saw ! anxiety & affection ( my family1 & ,i 0 com=t$4 ,i saw ! smiles ( ,m>gu]ite1 & ,i seem$ ins5sible to ! languor1 ! sadd5$ *e]fulness1 !y express$4 ,i did n p]ceive t1 :ile ,i 0 provid$ ) e ?+ necess>y 9 my condition1 my family 7 9 want ( ! v bread t %\ld su/a9 exi/5ce4 ,my heal? 9 ! mean "t improv$1 & my p]ceptions became proportionably cle>]4 ,symptoms ( desolation & fam9e1 ?\gh z mu* z possible cov]$ f my sight1 obtrud$ !mselves1 & 7 rem>k$4 ,"o day 9 p>ticul> ,i obs]v$ v>i\s tok5s ( ?is nature 9 sil5ce1 & ) t sort ( bewild]$ und]/&+ :i* at once lab\rs = compreh5sion & resi/s belief4 ,! day clos$2 & :at ,i _h p]ceiv$ press$ ^u my m9d1 & exclud$ sleep4 ,n[ = ! fir/ "t ,i ex]t$ myself to recollect 9 a me?odical way ! /ate ( my affairs2 = ! sev]ity ( my illness _h at l5g? succe$$ to bani% f me all ideas & feel+s b :at relat$ to ! s5sations x produc$1 & to ! objects ar\nd me2 & x 0 n )\t ef=t t ,i c\ld once m fully call to m9d ! sc5es 9 :i* ,i _h be5 engag$4 ,! tru? !n by regul> degrees rose completely to view2 & ,i began to be a/oni%$1 t my poor wife & *ildr5 _h be5 able 9 any mann] to get ?r\gh ! horrible evils to :i* !y mu/ h be5 expos$4 ,?is ?\ght ,i revolv$ 9 my m9d = ne> two h\rs2 & ! long] ,i dwelt ^u x1 ! m p]turb$ & re/less ,i grew4 ,at l5g? x became impossible = me to hold my contemplations p5t up 9 my own bosom4 ,i turn$ to ,m>gu]ite1 & ask$ h]1 :e!r %e 7 asleep4 ,%e answ]$ 9 ! negative3 %e _h be5 rem>k+ my re/lessness1 & t5d]ly enquir$ respect+ its cause4 8,h[ long10 said ,i1 8is x s9ce ,i 0 tak5 ) ! fev]80 8,a mon? to-morr[10 repli$ %e4 8,x 0 ( ! mo/ malignant & di/ress+ k9d :ile x la/$1 & ,i did n expect y to live4 ,b x has left y a =tnight2 & ,i hope1 ,reg9ald1 y f9d y\rself gett+ /rong aga940 8,& s we are "h 9 ,con/ance1 & we h left ,switz]l&----80 8,?ree mon?s1 my love60 8,i rememb] v well ! lett] we receiv$ f monsieur ,grimseld2 has any fur!r intellig5ce rea*$ u f t qu>t]80 8,none40 8,none6 ,no supply ( any k9d has rea*$ y80 8,my de> ,reg9ald1 talk ( some?+ else6 ,y w soon1 ,i hope1 be well3 our *ildr5 are all alive2 & ! calamity1 t has n succe$$ to sep>ate u1 or to dim9i% our circle ( love ev5 by a s+le memb]1 we w le>n to be>4 ,let u fix our att5tion on ! bett] prospects t op5 be=e u60 8,/ay1 ,m>gu]ite6 ,i h o!r que/ions to ask4 ,be=e y require me to be> ! calamities t h ov]tak5 u1 let me und]/& :at ^! calamities are4 ,:ile we wait$ = intellig5ce f ,switz]l&1 we exp5d$ ! :ole sum t we br\ght ) u1 & ,i 0 oblig$ to hire myself to ! episcopal g>d5] = bread2 0 x n s80 8,inde$1 ,reg9ald1 y are to blame6 ,pray "q me no fur!r60 8,?is 0 our condition "s "t ago2 & n[1 = a mon? pa/1 ,i h be5 incapable ( lab\r4 ,m>gu]ite1 :at h y done80 8,inde$1 my love1 ,i h be5 too anxi\s = y1 to ?9k mu* ( any ?+ else4 ,we _h /ill "s ?+s1 y "k1 t we c\ld contrive to d )\t2 & ^? ,i h sold4 ,*>les too1 our excell5t-he>t$ son1 has lately hir$ himself to ! g>d5]1 & has e night br\ght u home a little1 ?\gh x 0 b little40 8,de> boy6 ,:at *ildr51 :at a wife1 h ,i br\ght to de/ruction6 ,our r5t too1 surely y h n be5 able to pay t80 8,n entirely4 ,9 "p ,i h be5 oblig$ to pay x40 8,ah6 ,i well rememb] h[ fl9ty-he>t$ a wret* has got ! p[] ov] u 9 t respect60 8,he has n turn$ u out ( doors4 ,he ?reat5$ h>d sev]al times4 ,at la/ ,i saw x 0 necess>y to make an ef=t1 & ! day be=e ye/]day ,i paid him half 8 dem&4 ,if ,i c\ld h avoid$ t1 we might h _h a supply ( food a little long]4 ,i intreat$ e>ne/ly = a little fur!r indulg5ce1 b x 0 9 va94 ,x w5t aga9/ ! pride & indep5d5ce ( my s\l to sue to ?is man2 b x 0 = y & = my *ildr560 8,remorseless wret*6 ,!n e petty res\rce we _h is gone80 8,inde$ ,i d n "k t we h any ?+ m to sell4 ,i se>*$ n>r[ly ye/]day2 b ,i w exam9e aga9 to-day4 ,! poor *ildr5 mu/ h some?+ to support !m1 & _! f>e has ( late be5 dreadfully scanty40 8,_! f>e6 ,:at h !y eat580 8,bread2 no?+ else = ! la/ =tnight60 8,& y\rself80 8,oh1 ,reg9ald6 x 0 necess>y1 y "k1 t ,i %\ld keep myself alive4 ,b1 ,i assure y1 ,i h robb$ !m z little z ,i c\ld40 8,horror1 horror6 ,m>gu]ite1 :at is x y dream (8 ,i see my wife & *ildr5 dy+ ( hung]1 & y talk to me ( hope & ( prospects6 ,:y has ?is detail ( mis]ies be5 conceal$ f me8 ,:y h ,i be5 suff]$1 ) accurs$ & unnatural appetite1 to fe$ on ! vitals ( all ,i love80 8,reg9ald6 ev5 selfi%ness itself w\ld h taught u t6 ,x is to y\r recov]y t we look = our future support60 8,mock me n1 ,i adjure y1 ) s5seless words6 ,y talk idly ( ! future1 :ile ! trem5d\s pres5t b>s all prospect to t future4 ,we are p]i%+ by in*es4 ,we h no provision = ! com+ day6 ,no1 no2 some?+ desp]ate1 some?+ yet un?\ght (1 mu/ be attempt$6 ,i w n sit inactive1 & see my (fspr+ ar\nd me die 9 succession4 ,no1 by ,heav56 ,?\gh ,i am />v+ l ,ugol9o1 ,i am n1 l ,ugol9o1 %ut up 9 a dungeon6 ,! _w is op52 its sc5es are wide2 ! res\rces x (f]s are1 to ! bold & despair+1 innum]able6 ,i am a fa!r1 & w %[ myself wor?y ( ! "n60 8,reg9ald6 torture me n by language l ?is6 ,?9k :at x is to be inde$ a fa!r1 & make y\rself t6 ,be c>eful ( y\rself2 complete y\r recov]y1--& leave ! re/ to me6 ,i h conduct$ x ?us f>1 nor am ,i yet )\t hope4 ,eight days ago ,i appli$ to ! secret>y ( ! palace1 repres5t+ y\r case z a reta9] ( ! bi%op1 disabl$ by sickness1 & ) a family unprovid$ =4 ,till ye/]day ,i got no answ] to my memorial2 & !n he in=m$ me1 t y _h be5 s %ort a "t 9 employ1 t no?+ c\ld be done = y4 ,b to-day ,i w ?r[ myself at ! feet ( ! bi%op himself1 :o arriv$ la/ night only f ! o!r side ( ! lake40 ,e ^w t ,m>gu]ite utt]$ w5t to my he>t4 ,x 0 n long be=e ! dawn ( ! day1 & ! tru?s ,i _h he>d 7 fur!r confirm$ to me by ! organ ( sight4 ,! s5tim5ts ( ?is night produc$ a total revolution 9 me1 & ,i 0 no long] ! feeble convalesc5t t ! sett+ sun ( ! prec$+ day _h left me4 ,! film 0 remov$ f my eyes1 & ,i survey$ n ! objects ar\nd me ) a glassy eye & unappreh5sive obs]vation4 ,all ! p[]s ,i possess$ 7 al]t & 9 motion4 ,to my suspici\s & hurri$ gaze ! ap>tm5t appe>$ /ripp$ ( its moveables1 & left nak$1 a mansion 9 :i* = despair to take up 8 abode4 ,my *ildr5 approa*$ me2 ,i seem$ to read ! wan & emaciat$ traces ( dea? 9 _! c\nt5ances4 ,?is p]haps 0 9 "s degree ! pa9t+ ( my too consci\s ?\ghts4 ,b !re ne$$ no exagg]ation to awak5 torture 9 my bosom1 :51 ?us /imulat$1 ,i obs]v$ = ! fir/ "t ! dreadful *ange t _h tak5 place 9 ,m>gu]ite4 ,h] col\r 0 gone2 h] *eeks 7 sunk2 h] eye _h ! quickness & discomposure expressive ( debility4 ,i took hold ( h] h&1 & f\nd x cold1 emaciat$1 & :ite4 ,i press$ x to my lips ) agony2 a te> unbidd5 fell f my eye1 & re/$ ^u x4 ,hav+ f9i%$ my exam9ation1 ,i took my hat1 & 0 ha/5+ to escape into ! /reet4 ,m>gu]ite not$ my motions1 & anxi\sly int]pos$ to prev5t my design4 ,%e laid h] h& on my arm g5tly1 yet 9 a mann] full ( irresi/ible expo/ulation4 8,:]e w\ld y g8 ,:at h y purpos$8 ,d n1--,oh1 d n1 de/roy a family1 to :om y\r life1 y\r sobriety1 & prud5ce1 are indisp5sable60 ,i took h] h& )9 bo? m9e4 8,compose y\rself1 my love6 ,i h be5 y\r enemy too mu* already1 to be capable n[1 s mu* z 9 ?\ght1 ( add+ to my guilt6 ,i ne$ an int]val = mus+ & det]m9ation4 ,i w return 9 a v %ort "t1 & y %all be ! confidant ( my ?\ghts60 ,) wild & impati5t _s ,i repass$ 9 idea ! :ole hi/ory ( my life4 ,b pr9cipally ,i dwelt 9 recollection ^u ! m>quis de ,damville1 t g5]\s fri5d1 t munific5t b5efactor1 ^: confid5ce ,i _h s ill repaid4 8,damville60 exclaim$ ,i1 8y tru/$ to me y\r daught]1 ! de>e/ ?+ y knew on e>?2 y believ$ t ! wret* did n live :o c\ld be unju/ to s ri* a pl$ge4 ,look d[n1 look d[n1 ,o be/ ( m56 f ! heav5 to :i* y\r virtues h rais$ y1 & see ( h[ mu* bas5ess man--yes1 ! man y disda9$ n to call y\r fri5d--is capable6 ,b1 no6 a sight l ?is might well conv]t ! heav5 y dwell 9 to hell6 ,y tru/$ h] to me2 ,i h robb$ h]6 ,y enri*$ h] m9d ) ! noble/ end[m5ts2 ,i h buri$ !m 9 ! mire ( ! vile/ condition6 ,all h] g5]\s1 h] unwe>i$ ex]tions are fruitless2 by my evil g5ius !y are bla/$6 ,i h made h] a "m1 only t %e might behold h] *ildr5 p]i%+ ) hung]6 ,!y /ret* out _! h&s to me = ! smalle/ portion ( t inh]itance1 :i* ,i h squ&]$ 9 m ?an demoniac vice6 ,?is1 ?is is ! fruit ( my misde$s6 ,i am n[ dra9+ ! la/ dregs ( t mis*ief1 ( :i* ,i h s wick$ly1 s basely1 be5 ! au?or60 ,z ,i return$ ,i met ,m>gu]ite1 :o 0 come f h] attempt ^u ! bi%op4 ,he _h receiv$ h] pap]1 & deliv]$ x to 8 secret>y1 t v secret>y :o _h already disappo9t$ all h] expectations f t qu>t]4 ,%e _h attempt$ to speak1 to adjure ! bi%op1 :atev] he did1 n to deliv] h] ov] to a man by :om h] hopes _h be5 s cruelly fru/rat$2 b ! tumult ( ! sc5e dr[n$ h] voice1 & ! hurry & confusion ov]p[]$ h] ef=ts4 ,!y1 h[ev]1 drew su* a degree ( att5tion on h]1 t1 9 ! diss5tions :i* religi\s broils at t "t spread 9 ,con/ance1 %e 0 suspect$ ( press+ ?us e>ne/ly t[>ds ! p]son ( ! bi%op ) no good design1 & 9 f9e 0 rudely ?ru/ out ( ! palace4 ,%e _h n recov]$ f ! agitation into :i* %e _h be5 ?r[n1 :5 ,i met h]4 ,i eag]ly enquir$ into ! cause ( h] app>5t di/ress2 b %e %ook h] head m\rnfully1 & 0 sil5t4 ,i easily und]/ood :]e %e _h be51 & ! failure ( h] exp]im5t4 8,all !n10 said ,i1 8is at an end4 ,n[1 ,m>gu]ite1 y mu/ give up y\r exp]im5ts1 & leave to me ! cure ( evils ( :i* ,i only am ! au?or4 ,i w return ?is in/ant to ! g>d5 ( ! palace1 & resume ! situation ,i =m]ly occupi$40 8,= ,god's sake1 ,reg9ald1 :at is x y mean8 ,y h j acquir$ /r5g? to seek ! b5efit ( air4 ,! lea/ ex]tion fatigues y4 ,at ?is mom5t1 ! little walk y h tak5 has cov]$ y ) p]spiration4 ,y c\ld n dig or /oop = a qu>t] ( an h\r )\t be+ utt]ly exhau/$40 8,m>gu]ite1 ,i w n sit d[n tamely1 & see my family expire4 ,9 _m cases x is reasonable to bid a valetud9>ian take c>e ( himself4 ,b our situation is beyond t4 ,i mu/ d some?+4 ,extraord9>y circum/ances (t5 br+ along ) !m extraord9>y /r5g?4 ,no man kn[s1 till ! exp]im5t1 :at he is capable ( effect+4 ,i feel at ?is mom5t no debility2 & ,i d\bt n t ! despair ( my m9d w give r$\bl$ en]gy to my ef=ts40 ,:ile ,i spoke ?us1 ,i 0 consci\s t ,i _h little m ?an ! /r5g? ( a new-born *ild4 ,b ,i c\ld n endure at su* a "t to rema9 9 inactivity4 ,i felt z mu* a%am$ ( ! debilitat$ /ate 9 :i* my fev] _h left me1 z ,i c\ld h done ( ! mo/ +lori\s effem9acy & c[>dice ( s\l4 ,i det]m9$ to relieve my family1 or p]i% 9 ! attempt4 ,if all my ef=ts 7 va91 ,i c\ld n bett] f9i% my c>e]1 ?an exhau/$1 s9k+1 expir+ "u a la/ ex]tion1 to dis*>ge ! duties ( my /ation4 ,we return$ into ! h\se4 ,m>gu]ite took f a closet ! la/ remnant ( provisions we _h1 ! pur*ase ( poor ,*>les's lab\r ( ! prec$+ day4 ,!re 0 a g5]al conte/ :o %\ld escape f receiv+ any "p 9 ! di/ribution4 ,*>les _h )drawn himself1 & 0 n to be f\nd4 ,julia endeav\r$ to abscond1 b 0 /opp$ by ,l\isa & h] "m4 ,%e _h wept s mu*1 t inanition seem$ m dang]\s = h]1 ?an p]haps = any o!r ( ! circle4 ,no "o c conceive1 :o has n felt x1 h[ affect+ a conte/ ( ?is k9d mu/ appe> to me1 s5sible z ,i 0 to ! dang] t _! virtue & g5]\s affection 7 ! prelude only to _! common de/ruction4 ,i said1 !re 0 a g5]al conte/ :o %\ld avoid all %>e 9 ! di/ribution2 b ,i recollect t ! little ,m>gu]ite1 two ye>s & a half old1 exclaim$ at fir/1 8,i am s hungry1 mamma60 ,b wat*+1 z %e c>efully did1 e ?+ t pass$1 %e pres5tly laid d[n h] bread ^u ! table 9 sil5ce1 & almo/ unt\*$2 & be+ ask$1 ,:y %e did s8 %e repli$1 9 a tone ( speak+ s5sibility1 8,?ank y1 ,i am n hungry n[60 ,?is sc5e made an impression on my m9d nev] to be =gott54 ,x bla/$ & corrupt$ all ! pulses ( my s\l4 ,a little be=e1 ,i _h reconcil$ myself to pov]ty2 ,i _h ev5 br\ght myself to reg>d x ) *e]fulness4 ,b ! s5tim5t 0 n[ rev]s$4 ,i c\ld endure x1 ,i c\ld /eel myself aga9/ its attacks2 b nev] f ?is h\r1 9 ! wilde/ p>oxysms ( en?usiasm1 has x be5 ! topic ( my exultation or my panegyric4 ,no *ange ( circum/ances1 no inundation ( weal?1 has _h ! p[] to oblit]ate f my recollection :at ,i !n saw4 ,a family p]i%+ ) hung]2 all t is de>e/ to y 9 ! _w s9k+ "u ! mo/ dreadful ( all ! sc\rges ) :i* ?is sublun>y sc5e is ev] afflict$2 no help ne>2 no prospect b ( /ill accumulat+ di/ress2 a dea?1 ! sl[e/1 yet ! mo/ c]ta9 & ! mo/ agonis+1 t c befall u3 no1 !re is no?+ t has p[] to r5d all ! /r+s ( ! he>t l ?is6 ,f ?is mom5t1 ! :ole set ( my feel+s 0 *ang$4 ,av>ice desc5d$1 & took possession ( my s\l4 ,haunt$1 z ,i p]petually 01 by images ( ! plague ( fam9e1 no?+ appe>$ to me s valuable z weal?2 no?+ s desirable z to be plac$ at ! utmo/ possible di/ance f want4 ,an appetite ( ?is k9d is insatiable2 no di/ance seems suffici5tly great2 no ob/acles1 m\nta9s on m\nta9s ( gold1 appe> an inadequate security to b> f u ! approa* ( ! mon/] we dread4 ,:ile ,i speak ( ! s5tim5ts :i* 9 ! sequel 7 g5]at$ 9 my m9d by :at ,i n[ saw1 ,i am susp5d+ my n>rative 9 a crisis at :i* a family1 int]e/+1 amiable & virtu\s1 is r$uc$ to ! l[e/ /ate ( humiliation & di/ress4 ,!y are mom5ts l ^!1 t h>d5 ! human he>t1 & fill u ) inext+ui%able hatr$ & contempt = our species4 ,!y te> (f ! trapp+s & decoration ( poli%$ society1 & %[ x 9 all its hide\sness4 ,! wanton eye ( pamp]$ pride pleases itself ) ! spectacle ( cities & palaces1 ! /ately column & ! swell+ ar*4 ,x obs]ves at h& ! busy sc5e1 :]e all are occupi$ 9 ! v>i\s pursuits ( pleasure or indu/ry2 & admires ! conc]t1 ! wide-spread+ conf$]acy1 by means ( :i* ea* aft] 8 mode is unconsci\sly promot+ ! objects ( o!rs4 ,*eat$ by ! outside ( ?+s1 we d5om9ate ?is a va/ comb9ation = g5]al b5efit4 ,! poor & ! fami%$ man contemplates ! sc5e ) o!r ?\ghts4 ,unbrib$ to admire & applaud1 he sees 9 x a conf$]acy ( ho/ility & g5]al oppression4 ,he sees e man pursu+ 8 selfi% ends1 reg>dless ( ! wants ( o!rs4 ,he sees himself contemptu\sly driv5 f ! circle :]e ! re/ ( 8 fell[-citiz5s are busily & pr(itably engag$4 ,he lives 9 ! mid/ ( a cr[d1 )\t "o fri5d to feel an int]e/ 9 8 welf>e4 ,he lives 9 ! mid/ ( pl5ty1 f ! p>ticipation ( :i* he is driv5 by brutal m5aces & viol5ce4 ,no man :o has n be5 plac$ 9 8 situation c imag9e ! s5sations1 ) :i*1 ov]:elm$ z he is ) dome/ic ru9 & despair1 he beholds ! riot1 ! prodigality1 ! idiot o/5tation1 ! s5seless exp5se1 ) :i* he is surr\nd$ on e side4 ,:at 7 we to d8 ,7 we to beg along ! /reets8 ,7 we to 9 treat = wret*$ (fals at ri* m5's doors8 ,alas6 ?is1 x 0 to be fe>$1 ev5 if we /oop$ to ! mis]able attempt1 in/ead ( satisfy+ wants = ev] new1 w\ld only prolong 9 ! bitt]ness ( angui% ! fate = :i* we 7 res]v$6---- ,an unexpect$ relief at ?is "t pres5t$ itself4 ,:ile ! scanty meal ,i h m5tion$ 0 yet unf9i%$1 a lett] 0 pres5t$ me inclos+ "u its cov] a bill ( "o hundr$ cr[ns4 ,! lett] 0 f ,b]n>d91 ! fai?ful s]vant :om we f\nd x necess>y to dismiss ?ree mon?s be=e1 :5 we quitt$ our resid5ce 9 ,switz]l&4 ,x in=m$ u t1 z soon z he _h p>t$ f u1 he _h set out on 8 return to 8 native t[n1 next adjac5t to my pat]nal resid5ce2 t he f\nd 8 fa!r _h di$ a %ort "t be=e1 & t1 f ! sale ( 8 effects1 he _h reap$ an inh]itance to triple ! am\nt ( ! sum he _h n[ =w>d$ to u4 ,he _h he>d by accid5t ( ! dea? ( our fri5d 9 ,switz]l&1 & ! "* ( 8 successor1 & dread$ t ! consequ5ces might prove highly injuri\s to u4 ,he _h /ill "s bus9ess to settle ) ! surviv+ bran*es ( 8 family1 b t w\ld be ov] 9 a few weeks2 & !n1 if we w\ld all[ him1 he w\ld return to 8 de> ma/]1 & af=d u e assi/ance 9 8 p[]4 ,! little prop]ty t _h n[ fall5 to him w\ld prev5t him f be+ a bur!n2 & he w\ld hire a spot ( l&1 & rema9 ne> u1 if we refus$ him ! consolation ( return+ to 8 =m] employm5t4 ,:at a reproa* 0 x to me1 t1 desc5d$ f "o ( ! mo/ illu/ri\s families 9 ,europe1 ! heir ( an ample patrimony1 & receiv+ a /ill l>g] =tune 9 m>riage1 ,i %\ld1 by ! total neglect & pr(ligate defiance ( ! duties incumb5t on me1 h r$uc$ myself s l[ z to be indebt$ to a peasant & a m5ial = ! means ( sav+ my family f in/ant de/ruction6 ,?is 0 a deep & fatal w\nd to ! pride ( my s\l4 ,!re 0 h[ev] no alt]native1 no possibility ( reject+ ! supply af=d$ u at s ev5tful a mom5t4 ,we det]m9$ to use x = ! pres5t1 & to repay x ) ! e>lie/ opportunity2 & 9 ! foll[+ week1 9 spite ( ! remon/rances ( ,m>gu]ite1 ! yet feeble /ate ( my heal?1 & ! p5alties annex$ to ! proce$+1 ,i set (f = ! canton ( ,soleure1 det]m9$1 if possible1 to wre/ ! little /aff ( my family f ! h& t s basely deta9$ x4 ,i pass$ ?r\gh ,zuri* & a "p ( ! canton ( ,basle )\t ob/acle2 ^! p>ts ( ,switz]l& _h n suff]$ f ! calamity :i* _h occasion$ our exile4 ,9 proce$+ fur!r1 ,i f\nd x necess>y to assume a disguise1 & to avoid l>ge t[ns & frequ5t$ roads4 ,i rea*$ at l5g? ! well kn[n sc5e 9 :i* ,i _h s lately consum$ twelve mon?s ( my life2 9 :i* ,i fir/ began to brea! 7to brea!1 n to be refre%$7 f ru91 begg>y1 & exile4 ,!re 0 no pleas+ recollection annex$ to ?is spot2 x 0 a remembranc] ( %ame1 sorr[1 & remorse4 ,yet1 su* is ! p[] ( objects once famili>1 revisit$ aft] abs5ce1 t my eye ran ov] !m ) delight1 ,i felt light5$ f ! we>9ess ( ! j\rney1 & f\nd t ! recollection ( pa9s pa/ ov] & subdu$ 0 capable ( be+ made a s\rce ( gratification4 ,! m\nta9s among :i* ,i _h w&]$1 & consum$1 z x 71 ! la/ dregs ( my insanity1 surr\nd$ me2 ! pa? 9 :i* ,i 0 travell+ l$ along "o ( _! ridges4 ,i _h p]=m$ ?is "p ( my j\rney by night2 & ! fir/ gleams ( day n[ began to /reak ! horizon4 ,i look$ t[>ds ! cottage1 ! di/ant view ( :i* _h s (t51 9 mom5ts ( ! deepe/ despair1 awak5$ 9 my he>t ! soo?+s ( sympa?y & affection4 ,i saw t z yet x rema9$ 9 its =lorn condition1 & _h und]gone no repair2 :ile ! l&s ar\nd1 :i* _h lately exp]i5c$ ! sup]9t5d5ce ( ,m>gu]ite1 _h met ) m att5tion1 & began to resume ! m>ks ( culture4 ,i sigh$ = ! return ( ^? days & t situation1 :i*1 :ile pres5t to me1 _h pass$ unhe$$ & un5joy$4 ,i repair$ to ! h\se ( my late protector1 n[ ! resid5ce ( monsieur ,grimseld4 ,he 0 a meagre %rivell$ figure2 &1 ?\gh sc>cely arriv$ at ! middle ( human life1 exhibit$ all ! m>ks ( a premature old age4 ,i disclos$ myself to him1 & began w>mly to expo/ulate ) him ^u ! pr(ligacy ( 8 conduct4 ,he *ang$ col\r1 & betray$ symptoms ( confusion1 ! mom5t ,i ann\nc$ myself4 ,:ile ,i press$ him ) ! b>b>ity ( 8 conduct1 ! dreadful effects x _h already produc$1 & ! inconte/ible ju/ice ( my claim1 he /amm]$1 & began to propose t]ms ( accommodation4 ,dur+ ?is conv]sation we 7 alone4 ,aft] "s "t1 h[ev]1 a s]vant ent]$ ! room1 & ! c\nt5ance ( ! ma/] assum$ an expression ( satisfaction & confid5ce4 ,he eag]ly seiz$ on ! occasion :i* pres5t$ itself1 &1 in/antly *ang+ 8 tone1 call$ on 8 s]vant to assi/ him 9 secur+ a crim9al aga9/ ! /ate4 ,i at fir/ resi/$1 b ,grimseld p]ceiv+ ?is1 appli$ to 8 bell ) great vehem5ce1 & ?ree o!r s]vants made _! appe>ance1 ^: employm5t 0 9 ! field1 b :o _h n[ accid5tally come into ! h\se = refre%m5t4 ,i _h arms2 b ,i f\nd x impracticable to effect my escape2 & ,i soon felt t1 by yield+ to ! impulse ( indignation1 & puni%+ ,grimseld on ! spot = 8 p]fidy1 ,i might ru9 b c\ld n =w>d ! affair 9 :i* ,i 0 engag$4 ,i 0 conduct$ to prison2 & ! ?\ghts produc$ 9 me by ?is sudd5 rev]se 7 extremely melan*oly & disc\rag+4 ,grimseld 0 a man ( opul5ce & p[]2 ,i 0 )\t fri5ds1 or ! means ( procur+ fri5ds4 ,! law expressly condemn$ my return2 & :at _h ,i n to fe> f law1 :5 abett$ & in=c$ by ! h& ( p[]8 ,i might be imprison$ = t5 ye>s2 ,i might be imprison$ = life4 ,i began e>ne/ly to wi% t ,i _h rema9$ ) my family1 & giv5 up at lea/ all pres5t hopes ( r$ress4 ,x w\ld be a dreadful accumulation ( all my calamities1 if n[ at la/ ,i & my *ildr5 7 de/9$ to suff]1 p]haps to p]i%1 9 a /ate ( sep>ation2 & ! la/ consolations ( ! wret*$1 ^? ( suff]+1 sympa?is+1 & condol+ ) ea* o!r1 7 d5i$ u4 ,full ( ^! tragical =ebod+s1 ,i ?rew myself at fir/ on ! floor ( my cell 9 a /ate little %ort ( ! mo/ absolute despair4 ,i exclaim$ ^u my adv]se =tune1 :i* 0 nev] we>y ( p]secut+ me4 ,i apo/rophis$1 ) t5d] & di/ract$ acc5ts1 my wife & *ildr51 f :om ,i n[ seem$ to be cut (f by an ev]la/+ divorce4 ,i call$ ^u dea? to put an end to ^! tumults & emotions ( ! s\l1 :i* 7 no long] to be borne4 ,9 a %ort "t h[ev] ,i recov]$ myself1 procur$ ! implem5ts ( writ+1 & drew up1 9 ! /rong & impressive language ( tru?1 a memorial to ! c\ncil ( ! /ate4 ,i 0 next to consid] h[ ?is 0 to rea* its de/9ation2 = !re 0 "s dang] t x might be int]cept$ by ! vigilance & malignity ( my adv]s>y4 ,i desir$ to speak ) ! keep] ( ! prison4 ,he _h "s recollection ( me1 & a /ill m di/9ct "o ( my family4 ,he concurr$ ) ! g5]al s5tim5t1 9 a /rong av]sion to ! "* ( ,grimseld4 ,z ,i press$ ^u him ! h>d%ip ( my case1 & ! fatal consequ5ces ) :i* x might be att5d$1 ,i c\ld p]ceive t he fully ent]$ into ! feel+ ) :i* ,i wi%$ him to be impress$4 ,he blam$ my ra%ness 9 return+ to ,switz]l& 9 defiance ( ! positive prohibition t _h be5 issu$2 b promis$ at all ev5ts t my pap] %\ld be deliv]$ to ! presid5t to-morr[ morn+4 ,i rema9$ ?ree days )\t an answ]1 & ^! days 7 to me an et]nity4 ,i anticipat$ e k9d ( mis=tune2 ,i believ$ t law & malice _h succe$$ to ! subv]sion ( equity4 ,at l5g? h[ev] ,i 0 deliv]$ f my appreh5sions & p]plexity1 & summon$ to appe> be=e ! c\ncil4 ,x 0 well = me p]haps t ,i _h to d ) a gov]nm5t s simple & mod]ate z t ( ,switz]l&4 ,i obta9$ r$ress4 ,x 0 ref]r$ to an arbitration ( neighb\rs to set a fair price on my prop]ty1 & !n decre$1 t if monsieur ,grimseld refus$ ! pur*ase1 ! sum %\ld be paid me out ( ! c(f]s ( ! /ate4 ,he 0 also condemn$ 9 a c]ta9 f9e = ! fraud he _h attempt$ to commit4 ,! affair1 ?us put 9 tra91 0 soon complet$2 & ,i return$ ) joy1 hav+ effect$ ! object ( my j\rney1 to my anxi\s & expect+ family4 ,soon aft]1 we remov$ to ! spot we _h *os5 on ! ea/]n bank ( ! lake1 :]e we rema9$ = ! six foll[+ ye>s 9 a /ate ( peace & tranquillity4 ,,*apt] ,,xi4 ,x 0 9 ! ev5+ ( a summ]'s day 9 ! latt] end ( ! ye> fifte5 hundr$ & =ty-f\r1 t a /rang] arriv$ at my habitation4 ,he 0 feeble1 emaciat$1 & pale1 8 =ehead full ( wr9kles1 & 8 hair & be>d z :ite z sn[4 ,c>e 0 writt5 9 8 face2 x 0 easy to p]ceive t he _h suff]$ mu* f di/ress ( m9d2 yet 8 eye 0 /ill quick & lively1 ) a /rong expression ( suspici\sness & anxiety4 ,8 g>b1 :i* ext]nally consi/$ ( no?+ m ?an a robe ( russet br[n1 ) a girdle ( ! same1 0 co>se1 ?readb>e1 & ragg$4 ,he support$ 8 tott]+ /eps ) a /aff2 &1 hav+ lo/ 8 =etee?1 8 spee* 0 indi/9ct & difficult to be compreh5d$4 ,8 wret*$ appe>ance excit$ my compassion1 at ! same "t t ,i c\ld easily disc]n1 b5ea? all its disadvantages1 t he 0 no common begg> or ru/ic4 ,ru9$ & squalid z he appe>$1 ,i ?\ght ,i c\ld p]ceive traces 9 8 c\nt5ance ( :at _h =m]ly be5 d>+ ent]prise1 pr(\nd m$itation1 & g5]\s humanity4 ,i saw t he 0 mu* fatigu$1 & ,i invit$ him to re/ himself ^u ! b5* be=e ! door4 ,i set be=e him bread & w9e1 & he p>took ( bo?4 ,i ask$ him 8 "n & 8 c\ntry4 ,he told me t he 0 a ,v5etian1 & t 8 "n1 z ne>ly z ,i c\ld collect1 0 signor ,francesco ,zampi]i4 ,he seem$ h[ev] av]se to speak+1 & he reque/$ me to suff] him to pass ! night 9 my habitation4 ,!re 0 no?+ s+ul> 9 ! reque/1 a hospitality ( ?is sort be+ ! practice ( ! neighb\rhood2 & humanity w\ld h prompt$ my compliance1 if ,i _h n be5 /ill m /rongly urg$ by an undef9able curiosity t began to spr+ up 9 my bosom4 ,i prep>$ = him a camp-b$ 9 a summ]-h\se at ! end ( my g>d54 ,z soon z x 0 ready1 he desir$ to be left alone1 t he might seek 9 re/ "s relief f ! fatigue he _h und]gone4 ,he retir$ e>ly2 & !re=e1 soon aft] daybreak ! next morn+1 ,i wait$ on him to enquire h[ he _h re/$4 ,he l$ me out into ! fields2 ! morn+ 0 g5ial & exhil>at+4 ,we proce$$1 till we came to a retir$ spot :i* _h frequ5tly be5 ! sc5e ( my solit>y m$itations1 & !re seat$ ourselves ^u a bank4 ,we _h be5 mutually sil5t dur+ ! walk4 ,z soon z we 7 seat$1 ! /rang] began3 8,y are1 ,i und]/&1 a ,fr5*man1 & y\r "n ! c\nt de ,/4 ,leon80 ,i b[$ ass5t4 8,/4 ,leon10 said he1 8!re is some?+ 9 y\r c\nt5ance & mann] t prepossesses me 9 y\r fav\r4 ,! only ?+ ,i h left to d 9 ! _w is to die2 & :at ,i seek at pres5t1 is a fri5d :o w take c>e t ,i %all be suff]$ to die 9 peace4 ,%all ,i tru/ y8 ,w y be t fri5d to me80 ,i 0 a/oni%$ at ?is way ( comm5c+ 8 confid5ce 9 me2 b ,i did n hesitate to promise t he %\ld n f9d me defici5t 9 any ?+ t became a man ( humanity & hon\r4 8,y d n1 ,i ?9k1 live alone8 ,y h a wife & *ildr540 8,i h40 8,yet none ( !m 7 at home :5 ,i arriv$ la/ night4 ,y br\ght y\rself to ! summ]-h\se e ?+ t 0 necess>y = my accommodation40 8,i did s4 ,b ,i h a wife to :om ,i h be5 m>ri$ sev5te5 ye>s1 & ) :om ,i h no res]ves4 ,i told h] ( y\r arrival2 ,i spoke ( y\r appe>ance2 ,i m5tion$ y\r "n40 8,x is no matt]4 ,%e has n se5 me4 ,my "n is n ,zampi]i2 ,i am no ,v5etian40 8,:o are y !n80 8,t y %all nev] "k4 ,x makes no "p ( ! confid5ce ,i design to repose 9 y4 ,my "n %all be buri$ ) me 9 ! grave2 nor %all any "o :o has hi!rto kn[n me1 "k h[1 at :at "t1 or on :at spot ( e>?1 ,i %all t]m9ate my exi/5ce4 ,! cl\d ( oblivion %all %elt] me f all human curiosity4 ,:at ,i require ( y is t y pl$ge y\r hon\r1 & ! fai? ( a man1 t y w nev] reveal to y\r wife1 y\r *ildr51 or any human be+1 :at y may h]eaft] "k ( me1 & t no p>ticul> t relates to my hi/ory %all be disclos$1 till at lea/ "o hundr$ ye>s aft] my decease40 8,^u ^! conditions ,i am sorry t ,i mu/ decl9e y\r confid5ce4 ,my wife is a "p ( myself2 = ! la/ six ye>s at lea/ ,i h _h no ?\ght 9 :i* %e has n p>ticipat$2 & ^! h be5 ! mo/ tranquil & happy ye>s ( my life4 ,my he>t 0 =m$ by nature = social ties2 habit has confirm$ _! prop5sity2 & ,i w n n[ cons5t to any ?+ t %all infr+e on ! happ9ess ( my s\l40 ,:ile ,i spoke1 ,i c\ld p]ceive t my companion grew di/urb$ & angry4 ,at l5g?1 turn+ t[>ds me a look ( ineffable contempt1 he repli$-- 8,feeble & effem9ate mortal6 ,y are nei!r a knight nor a ,fr5*man6 ,or r1 hav+ be5 bo?1 y h =gott5 9 +lori\s obscurity e ?+ wor?y ( ei!r6 ,0 ev] gallant action a*iev$ by him :o 0 incapable ( sep>at+ himself f a woman8 ,0 ev] a great discov]y prosecut$1 or an important b5efit conf]r$ ^u ! human race1 by him :o 0 incapable ( /&+1 & ?9k+1 & feel+1 alone8 ,"u ! usurp+ & di%on\r$ "n ( virtue1 y h sunk into a slav]y bas] ?an t ( ! en*antress ,alc9a4 ,9 va9 might hon\r1 wor?1 & immortal r5[n pr(f] _! fav\rs to him :o has made himself ! base/ ( all sublun>y ?+s--! puppet ( a woman1 ! play?+ ( h] pleasure1 wa/+ an +lori\s life 9 ! gratification ( h] wi%es & ! p]=mance ( h] comm&s60 ,i felt t ,i 0 n :olly unmov$ at ?is expo/ulation4 ,! /rang] t\*$ ^u ! fir/ & =emo/ passions ( my s\l2 passions ! op]ation ( :i* _h long be5 susp5d$1 b :i* 7 by no means ext+ui%$ 9 my bosom4 ,he proce$$3-- 8,b x is well6 ,ye>s h pass$ ov] my head 9 va91 & ,i h n le>nt to di/+ui% a man ( hon\r f a slave4 ,?is is only "o additional sorr[ to ^? 9 :i* my life has be5 sp5t4 ,i h w&]$ ?r\gh e region ( ! e>?1 & h f\nd only disappo9tm5t4 ,i h ent]$ ! c\rts ( pr9ces2 ,i h accompani$ ! m>* ( armies2 ,i h p9$ 9 ! putridity ( dungeons4 ,i h ta/$ e vicissitude ( spl5d\r & meanness2 five times h ,i be5 l$ to ! scaffold1 & ) difficulty escap$ a public execution4 ,hat$ by mank9d1 hunt$ f ! face ( ! e>?1 pursu$ by e atroci\s calumny1 )\t a c\ntry1 )\t a ro(1 )\t a fri5d2 ! addition t c be made to su* mis=tunes sc>cely des]ves a ?\ght40 ,:ile he spoke1 curiosity1 resi/less curiosity1 pres5t$ itself z a new motive1 9 aid ( ! s5se ( %ame :i* ! /rang] _h j be=e k9dl$ 9 my bosom4 ,8 mann] 0 inconceivably impressive2 8 voice1 ?\gh in>ticulate f age1 _h an irresi/ible melody & volume ( s\nd1 :i* aw$1 :ile x won1 ! he>t4 ,8 front appe>$ op51 l>ge1 & comm&+2 &1 ?\gh he compla9$1 8 compla9ts seem$ to be ^? ( consci\s dignity & innoc5ce4 ,he w5t on3-- 8,f>ewell1 ,/4 ,leon6 ,i g1 & y %all see me & he> ( me no m4 ,y w rep5t1 :5 x is too late1 ! folly ( ?is day's det]m9ation4 ,i appe> mean & insignificant 9 y\r eyes4 ,y ?9k my secrets b5ea? y\r curiosity1 & my b5efits n wor? y\r acceptance4 ,"k t my b5efits are su* z k+s w\ld b>t] _! ?rones to pur*ase1 & t my weal? exce$s ! weal? ( empires4 ,y are degrad$ f ! rank y once held among mank9d2 y\r *ildr5 are de/9$ to live 9 ! +lori\s condition ( peasants4 ,?is day y might h r$eem$ all y\r mis=tunes1 & rais$ y\rself to a /ation m illu/ri\s ?an t to :i* y 7 born4 ,f>ewell6 ,de/9y has m>k$ out y & y\rs = obscurity & oblivion1 & y d well to reject magnific5ce & di/9ction :5 !y pr(f] !mselves = y\r acceptance40 8,/op10 cri$ ,i1 8my/]i\s /rang]6 ,grant me a mom5t's leisure to reflect & det]m9e40 ,he _h ris5 to dep>t1 ) a ge/ure ( resolution & contempt4 ,at my exclamation he paus$1 & aga9 turn$ himself t[>ds me4 ,my s\l 0 9 tumults4 8,answ] me1 mo/ ambigu\s & imp5etrable ( mortals6 ,:at is ?y /ory8 & :at ! secrets1 ! disclosure ( :i* is pregnant ) consequ5ces s extraord9>y80 8,d y recollect ! conditions ^u :i* only ! disclosure c be made80 8,:at c ,i say8 ,%all ,i det]m9e to "p ) t :i* = ye>s has con/itut$ ! only consolation ( my life8 ,%all ,i suppress ! curiosity :i* n[ torm5ts me1 & reject ! boon y pret5d to h ! p[] to conf]80 8,i grant y ! int]val = reflection y dem&4 ,i refuse to place fur!r confid5ce 9 y1 till y h maturely exam9$ y\rself1 & r\s$ all ! en]gies ( y\r _s to enc\nt] ! task y und]take40 8,"o ^w m4 ,y "k n1 inde$ y "k n1 :at a woman y exclude f y\r confid5ce4 ,%e is m wor?y ( x ?an ,i am4 ,ref]r+ to my own exp]i5ce & k ( ! _w1 ,i c safely pron\nce h] ! fir/ ( h] sex1 p]haps ! fir/ ( human be+s4 ,indulge me 9 ?is2 include h] 9 y\r confid5ce2 & ,i am cont5t40 8,be sil5t6 ,i h made my det]m9ation2 d y make y\rs6 ,"k ,i w\ld n if ,i c\ld1 & _c if ,i w\ld1 repose ! secrets t press ^u me 9 m ?an a s+le bosom4 ,x 0 ^u ?is condition ,i receiv$ ! communication2 ^u ?is condition only c ,i imp>t x4 ,i am resolv$2 to die is ! election ( my s\l--a consummation = :i* ,i impati5tly wait4 ,hav+ det]m9$ !re=e to )draw myself f ! p[]s committ$ to me1 ,i am at lib]ty to imp>t !m2 ^u ! same condition1 & no o!r1 y may "o day1 if y desire x1 seek ! relief ( confid5ce40 ,hav+ ?us spok51 ! /rang] rose f 8 seat4 ,x 0 yet e>ly morn+1 nor 0 x likely we %\ld meet any "o 9 our walk4 ,he h[ev] employ$ ! precaution ( caus+ me to explore ! pa?1 & to see t we %\ld return un9t]rupt$4 ,we came back to ! summ]-h\se4 ,! w9d[-%utt]s 7 /ill clos$2 ! /rang] det]m9$ !y %\ld rema9 s4 ,:5 ,i _h come to him z soon z ,i rose1 ,i _h f\nd ! door secur$2 nor _h he admitt$ me1 till he recognis$ my voice1 & _h asc]ta9$ t ,i 0 alone4 ,^! precautions sc>cely excit$ my att5tion at ! "t2 b1 aft] ! conv]sation t _h j pass$1 !y return$ di/9ctly to my memory4 ,! rema9d] ( ! day :i* _h be5 op5$ by ?is extraord9>y sc5e 0 pass$ by me 9 great anxiety4 ,i rum9at$ ) unceas+ wond] & p]turbation ^u ! words ( ! /rang]4 ,%all ,i %ut ^u myself ! gate ( k & in=mation8 ,is x n ! "p ( a feeble & effem9ate m9d to refuse in/ruction1 because he is n at lib]ty to communicate t in/ruction to ano!r--to a wife8 ,! /rang] pr(esses to be able to raise me to ! utmo/ height ( weal? & di/9ction4 ,%all ,i refuse ! gift1 :i* 9 a =m] in/ance ,i =feit$1 b = :i*1 ?\gh contemplat$ z at an impracticable di/ance1 my :ole s\l longs8 ,if !re is any ?+ di%on\rable connect$ ) ! p>ticipation ( ?is weal?1 ,i %all /ill be at lib]ty to refuse x4 ,!re c be no crime 9 he>+ :at ?is man has to communicate4 ,i %all /ill1 & always1 be ma/] ( myself2 nor c ,i h any ?+ p]sonally to fe> f a man s feeble1 s decrepit1 s emaciat$4 ,yet :at c be ! gifts wor?y ( acceptance ( a man :o1 :ile he possesses !m1 is tir$ ( life1 & desires to die8 or :at ! weal? ( him :o be>s ab\t him e ext]nal symptom ( pov]ty & desolation8 ,! conv]sation ,i _h j held reviv$ 9 my m9d ! true feel+ ( my pres5t situation4 ,! w\nds ( my s\l _h be5 lull$ into tempor>y ins5sibility2 b !y 7 9 a /ate 9 :i* ! slighte/ accid5t 0 capable ( mak+ !m ble$ afre%1 & ) all _! =m] viol5ce4 ,i _h r /eel$ my m9d to endure :at seem$ unavoidable1 ?an reconcil$ myself to my fate4 ,! y\?ful passions ( my s\l1 :i* my e>ly ye>s _h writt5 !re 9 *>act]s s deep1 7 by no means effac$4 ,i c\ld n contemplate ! spl5d\r ( rank ) an imp>tial eye4 ,i c\ld n ?9k ( ! alt]native ( di/9ction or obscurity = my *ildr5 ) indiff]5ce4 ,b1 mo/ ( all1 ! mom5t ,i _h exp]i5c$ = !m ( hung]1 & imp5d+ de/ruction by fam9e1 _h produc$ an indelible impression4 ,x _h de/roy$ all romance1 ,i _h almo/ said all dignity1 9 my m9d = ev]4 ,x _h snapp$1 z by ! t\* ( a r$-hot iron1 all ! f9] & m e!rialis$ s9ews ( my frame4 ,x _h plant$ ! sordid love ( gold 9 my he>t1 !re1 by its baneful vegetation1 to poison e nobl] & m salubri\s feel+4 ,:5 ,i return$ to ! h\se1 ,m>gu]ite enquir$ ( me respect+ ! /rang]1 b my answ]s 7 %ort & emb>rass$4 ,%e seem$ to wond] t he did n come into ! h\se1 & p>take ( "s refre%m5t 9 ! mid/ ( my family4 ,%e ask$1 :e!r he 7 indispos$8 & :e!r he did n /& 9 ne$ ( "s assi/ance t %e might af=d him8 ,p]ceiv+ h[ev] t ,i 0 desir\s ( say+ z little z possible respect+ him1 %e pres5tly became sil5t4 ,i c\ld see t %e 0 hurt at my incommunicativ5ess1 yet ,i c\ld n prevail ^u myself to ent] into an explanation ( ! causes ( my taciturnity4 ,ours 0 a family ( love2 & ,i c\ld obs]ve t ! *ildr5 sympa?is$ ) _! "m1 & secretly 7 surpris$ at & lam5t$ my res]ve4 ,!re w\ld h be5 little 9 ?is1 9 p]haps any o!r family ?an ours4 ,b ! la/ six ye>s _h be5 sp5t by u 9 su* primeval simplicity1 t sc>cely "o ( u _h a ?\ght b :at 0 kn[n to ! re/4 ,m>gu]ite *]i%$ my frankness & unres]ve ) peculi> zeal2 %e rememb]$ ) bitt]ness ( s\l ! p]iods 9 :i* ,i fo/]$ conceptions only prop] to myself--p]iods ( dreadful calamity1 or ( root$ melan*oly & sadness4 ,%e c\ld n help reg>d+ ! sil5ce into :i* = ! pres5t occasion ,i relaps$1 z a port5t ( evil augury4 ,*>les1 :o 0 n[ sixte5 ye>s ( age1 recollect$ ! p]iod ( our ru9$ =tunes :5 he _h be5 alone ) me at ,p>is1 & p>took ( 8 "m's feel+s4 ,a trifl+ circum/ance1 at ?is "t occasion$ by ! little ,m>gu]ite1 n[ eight ye>s ( age1 r5d]$ ! re/ra9t "u :i* ,i lab\r$ m memorable & /rik+4 ,%e _h left a little book ( fairy tales1 9 :i* %e _h be5 read+ ! day be=e1 9 ! summ]-h\se4 ,at fir/ %e did n recollect :at 0 become ( x1 & employ$ h]self 9 se>*+ = x ) great assiduity4 ,( a sudd5 h[ev] %e rememb]$ :]e %e _h read 9 x la/2 &1 exclaim+ ) exultation1 8,x is 9 ! summ]-h\se60 sprang =w>d to fet* x4 ,i deta9$ h]1 & told h] !re 0 a sick g5tleman !re t %e w\ld di/urb6 8,!n1 de> ,julia60 rejo9$ %e1 8be s good z to get x = me2 y are s quiet & c>eful1 y nev] di/urb any body40 8,my love10 answ]$ ,i1 8nobody mu/ get x = y4 ,! g5tleman *ooses to be alone1 & w n let any body come to him4 ,y %all h x aft] d9n]40 8,ah1 b1 papa1 ,i want x n[4 ,i put x away1 j :]e ! naughty giant _h %ut up ! g5tleman 9 ! dungeon1 :o came to take away ! lady4 ,i 0 oblig$ to put x away !n1 because mamma call$ me to g to b$2 b ,i want s to "k :at w become ( !m1 y _c ?9k40 8,well1 de> ,m>gu]ite1 ,i am sorry y mu/ wait2 b y mu/ le>n to h pati5ce40 8,d y "k1 papa1 ,i walk$ 9 ! g>d5 be=e breakfa/3 & s1 n ?9k+ ( any ?+1 ,i came to ! summ]-h\se2 & ,i tri$ to op5 ! door1 b ,i c\ld n4 ,i f\nd x 0 lock$4 ,s ,i ?\ght ,julia 0 !re2 & ,i knock$1 & call$ ,julia1 b nobody answ]$4 ,s !n ,i knew ,julia 0 n !re1 = ,i 0 sure %e w\ld h op5$ ! door4 ,s ,i climb$ ^u ! /ump ( ! pe>-tree1 & tri$ to look 9 at ! w9d[2 b ! %utt]s 7 %ut1 & ,i c\ld n get to see ov] ! top ( !m4 ,& ,i walk$ all r\nd ! summ]-h\se1 & all ! %utt]s 7 %ut4 ,papa1 ,i wi% y w\ld n let a man get into ! summ]-h\se1 :o %uts all ! %utt]s1 & locks ! door4 ,y always us$ to let me g into e room ,i lik$2 &1 d y "k1 ,i ?9k none b bad p lock & bolt !mselves up s4 ,x puts m9d ( ! giants ) _! drawbridges & _! pitfalls2 ,i %all be q afraid ( ?is frightful old man40 ,?is prattle ( ! *ild 0 no?+2 yet x increas$ ! emb>rassm5t ( my situation1 & made ! peculi>ity ( ! case m conspicu\s4 ,f9d+ h] p]t9aci\s 9 insi/+ ^u a topic t 0 disagreeable to me1 h] "m call$ h] f me1 & put h] ^u "s occupation t s]v$ to div]t h] att5tion4 ,i felt l a p]son t 0 guilty ( "s crime2 & ?is consid]ation & k9dness ( my wife1 :5 ,i seem$ to myself to des]ve h] reproa*1 _h n ! p[] to calm my uneas9ess4 ,^! little occurr5ces appe>$ l ! beg9n+ ( a sep>ation ( int]e/s1 & e/rangem5t ( he>ts4 ,i task$ myself sev]ely4 ,i summon$ ! :ole =ce ( my m9d1 t ,i might /rictly consid] :at x 0 9 :i* ,i 0 ab\t to engage4 ,if ?is slight & casual h9t ( a secret is felt by bo? ,m>gu]ite & myself ) s mu* uneas9ess & emb>rassm5t1 :at w be our situation1 if ,i g on to accept ! /rang]'s confid5ce1 & become ! depository ( an arcanum s important z he repres5ts 8 to be8 ,he decl>es himself able to be/[ ^u me ! highe/ opul5ce2 :at w be ! feel+s ( my wife & *ildr5 :5 !y see my condition sudd5ly *ang$ f its pres5t humble appe>ance to spl5d\r & weal?1 )\t be+ able to assign ! s\rce ( ?is extraord9>y accession8 ,x is difficult to conceive a family picture m enviable t ?an to :i* ,i 0 n[ cont9ually pres5t1 & ( :i* ,i =m$ a "p4 ,we _h be5 happy on ! banks ( ! ,g>onne1 & we _h pictur$ to ourselves a plan ( happ9ess imm$iately on our arrival 9 ! city ( ,con/ance4 ,b ^! 7 little & imp]fect1 comp>$ ) :at ,i n[ enjoy$4 ,9 ! fir/ situation my *ildr5 7 infants1 & 9 ! second ! elde/ 0 b t5 ye>s ( age4 ,! "m 0 n[ ?irty-five2 & %e _h lo/1 9 my eyes at lea/1 none ( h] p]sonal attractions4 ,h] intellectual accompli%m5ts 7 mu* great] ?an ev]4 ,h] und]/&+ 0 matur$1 h] judgm5t decid$1 h] exp]i5ce m compreh5sive4 ,z %e _h a great] compass ( mat]ials to "w ^u1 h] fancy 0 m playful1 h] conv]sation ri*]1 & h] reflections m amus+ & pr(\nd4 ,! matron "* %e _h acquir$1 _h _h no o!r effect on h] feel+s1 ?an to r5d] !m m deep1 m true & magnetical4 ,h] disposition 0 m entirely affectionate ?an x _h be5 ev5 9 ! fir/ ye> ( our cohabitation4 ,h] atta*m5t to h] *ildr5 0 exempl>y1 & h] vigilance un9t]rupt$2 &1 = myself1 %e 0 accu/om$1 9 all t relat$ to our mutual love1 to ent] into my s5tim5ts & incl9ations ) s j a tone ( equality & k9dness1 t we seem$ to be two bodies animat$ by a s+le s\l4 ,if ! "m 7 improv$1 ! *ildr5 7 /ill m improv$4 ,9 _! e>ly ye>s we are atta*$ to our (fspr+1 m]ely because !y are ours1 & 9 a way t has l$ sup]ficial speculators to consid] ! atta*m5t1 less z ! necess>y op]ation ( a s5sible & consci\s m9d1 ?an z a wise provision ( nature = ! p]petuation ( ! species4 ,b z !y gr[ up1 ! case is diff]5t4 ,our p>tiality is !n confirm$ or dim9i%$ by qualities visible to an imp>tial by/&] z really z to ourselves4 ,!y !n cease to be m]ely ! objects ( our solicitude1 & become our companions1 ! p>tn]s ( our s5tim5ts1 & ! c\nsellors ( our und]tak+s4 ,su* at lea/ 0 my case at ! pres5t p]iod4 ,*>les1 :o 0 n[ sixte51 0 manly beyond 8 ye>s2 :ile ! native fire ( 8 disposition 0 temp]$ by adv]sity1 by an humble situation1 & by ! ard\r ( filial & frat]nal affection4 ,julia1 :o 0 two ye>s y\ng]1 became daily m int]e/+ by ! mildness ( h] disposition & ! t5d]ness ( h] s5sibility4 ,l\isa 0 only twelve2 b1 z %e 0 extremely notable1 & _h an uncommonly quick & accurate _s ( imitation1 %e r5d]$ h]self exce$+ly useful to h] "m4 ,m>gu]ite1 ! play?+ & amusem5t ( ! family1 _h1 z ,i h said1 j complet$ ! eigh? ye> ( h] age4 ,"o exquisite s\rce ( gratification1 :5 x is n a s\rce ( uneas9ess1 to speak f my own exp]i5ce1 :i* a p>5t f9ds 9 ! society ( 8 *ildr51 is _! individuality4 ,!y are n puppets1 mov$ ) wires1 & to be play$ on at w4 ,almo/ f ! h\r ( _! bir? !y h a w ( _! own1 to be consult$ & negotiat$ )4 ,we may say to !m1 z ,adam to ! g5]al "m ( mank9d1 8,b n[1 ?\ w]t fle% ( my fle%1 & bone ( my bone2 &1 ev5 n[1 ?\ /&e/ be=e me ve/$ 9 ! pr]ogatives ( s5tim5t & reason2 a liv+ be+1 to be reg>d$ ) att5tion & def]5ce2 to be c\rt$1 n compell$2 susceptible ( ! v>i\s catalogue ( human passions2 capable ( res5tm5t & gratitude1 ( indignation & love1 ( p]v]s5ess & submission4 ,x is because ?\ art ?us =m$ t ,i love !e4 ,i _c be int]e/$ ab\t objects inanimate or brute4 ,i require a some:at t %all ex]cise my judgm5t1 & awak5 my moral feel+s4 ,x is necess>y to me to approve myself1 & be approv$ by ano!r4 ,i rejoice to /& be=e y1 at once ! def5dant & ! judge4 ,i rejoice 9 ! re/ra9t to :i* y\r indep5d5t "* subjects me1 & x w be my pride to cultivate t indep5d5ce 9 y\r m9d4 ,i w\ld negotiate = y\r affections & confid5ce1 & n be lov$ by y1 b 9 proportion z ,i %all h done some?+ to des]ve x4 ,i c\ld n congratulate myself ^u y\r correspond5ce to my wi%es1 if x _h n be5 9 y\r p[] to )hold x40 ,:ile ,i indulge ?is ve9 ( reflection1 ,i seem aga9 to see my family1 z !y surr\nd$ me 9 ! ye> fifte5 hundr$ & =ty-f\r2 ,m>gu]ite ! p>tn] ( my life1 ,*>les ! bro!r ( my c>es1 ! bloom+ ,julia1 ! sage ,l\isa1 & ! playful cadette ( ! family4 ,h[ ri*ly furni%$1 h[ *e]ful1 h[ he>t-reviv+1 appe>$ to me ! ap>tm5t 9 :i* !y 7 assembl$6 ,i dwell ^u ! image ) fond affection & l+]+ delight4 ,:]e are !y n[8 ,h[ has all ?is happ9ess be5 malici\sly und]m9$1 & irrevocably de/roy$6 ,to look back on x1 x seems l ! idle fabric ( a dream4 ,i awake1 & f9d myself alone6 ,7 !re really su* p]sons8 ,:]e are !y disp]s$8 ,:i!r are !y gone8 ,oh1 mis]able solitude & des]tion1 to :i* ,i h s long be5 condemn$6 ,i see no?+ ar\nd me b spee*less walls1 or human faces t say z little to my he>t z ! walls !mselves6 ,h[ palsi$ is my s\l6 ,h[ )]$ my affections6--,b ,i w n anticipate4 ,,*apt] ,,xii4 ,i c>ri$ food to ! /rang] z occasion requir$ 9 ! c\rse ( ! day4 ,he seem$ indispos$ to speak1 & we ex*ang$ sc>cely m ?an two or ?ree words4 ,! next morn+ 0 ! impli$ "t to :i* ! "q ( 8 confid5ce 0 def]r$1 & ,i w5t to him ) ! full resolution ( refus+ x4 ,:e!r x 7 t he disc]n$ ?is resolution 9 my c\nt5ance1 or t1 9 ! int]val t elaps$1 he _h =m$ a mean] op9ion ( my "*1 & ?\ght me unfit = ! purposes he int5d$ ,i %\ld answ]1 c]ta9 x is t he anticipat$ me4 ,at ! same "t he magnifi$ ! importance ( ! gifts he _h to communicate4 ,he express$ himself a/oni%$ at ! precipitat5ess ( 8 ye/]day's conduct4 ,x 0 n till aft] mu* trial & long probation t he c\ld *oose himself a confidant4 ,i 0 n at pres5t fit = ! "*1 nor p]haps ev] %\ld be4 ,! tal5t he possess$ 0 "o ^u :i* ! fate ( nations & ( ! human species might be made to dep5d4 ,god _h giv5 x = ! be/ & highe/ purposes2 & ! vessel 9 :i* x 0 deposit$ mu/ be purifi$ f ! alloy ( human frailty4 ,x might be abus$ & appli$ to ! mo/ atroci\s designs4 ,x might bl9d ! und]/&+ ( ! wise/1 & corrupt ! integrity ( ! noble/4 ,x might ov]turn k+doms1 & *ange ! :ole ord] ( human society into an>*y & b>b>ism4 ,x might r5d] its possessor ! univ]sal plague or ! univ]sal tyrant ( mank9d4 8,g1 ,/4 ,leon60 add$ ! /rang]1 8y are n qualifi$ = s important a tru/4 ,y are n yet purg$ ( imbecility & weakness4 ,?\gh y h pass$ ?r\gh mu*1 & _h consid]able exp]i5ce1 y are yet a *ild4 ,i _h he>d y\r hi/ory1 & expect$ to f9d y a diff]5t man4 ,g2 & le>n to "k y\rself = :at y are1 frivol\s & insignificant1 wor?y to h be5 born a peasant1 & n fitt$ to adorn ! rolls ( *ivalry1 or ! rank to :i* y 7 de/9$60 ,!re 0 some?+ s impressive 9 ! rebuke & contempt ( ?is v5]able sage1 t made x impossible to cont5d ) !m4 ,nev] 0 !re a man m s+ul>1 & 9 :om 7 unit$ great] app>5t contradictions4 ,obs]ve him 9 a quiet & unanimat$ mom5t1 y might almo/ take him = a common begg>2 a poor1 mis]able wret*1 9 :om life l+]$1 & ins5sate /upidity reign$4 ,b :5 8 s\l 0 t\*$ 9 any ( ^? po9ts on :i* x 0 mo/ alive1 he rose at once1 & appe>$ a giant4 ,8 voice 0 ! voice ( ?und]2 &1 roll+ 9 a ri* & sublime swell1 x arre/$ & /ill$1 :ile x )]$ all ! n]ves ( ! s\l4 ,8 eye-beam sat ^u y\r c\nt5ance1 & seem$ to look ?r\gh y4 ,y wi%$ to escape f its p5etrat+ p[]1 b y _h n ! /r5g? to move4 ,i began to feel z if x 7 "s my/]i\s & sup]ior be+ 9 human =m1 & n a mortal1 ) :om ,i 0 conc]n$4 ,:at a /range & contradictory be+ is man6 ,i _h gone to ! summ]-h\se ?is morn+1 ) a firm resolution to refuse ! gifts & ! communication ( ! /rang]4 ,i felt z if light5$ f a bur!n :i* ! :ole prec$+ day _h oppress$ me1 :ile ,i =m$ ?is resolution3 ,i 0 *e]ful1 & consci\s ( rectitude & /r5g? ( m9d4 ,h[ *eaply we prize a gift :i* we imag9e to be already 9 our p[]6 ,) :at philosophical indiff]5ce d we turn x on e side1 depreciate its wor?1 magnify its disadvantages1 & !n pique ourselves ^u ! sobriety & ju/ice ( ! e/imate we h made6 ,?us x 0 ) me 9 ! pres5t transaction2 b :5 ,i _h receiv$ ! *eck ( ! /rang]1 & saw ! propos$ b5efit remov$ to a va/ & unc]ta9 di/ance1 !n x resum$ all its *>ms2 !n ! contra/ ( weal? & pov]ty fla%$ full ^u my s\l4 ,be=e1 ,i _h que/ion$ ! reality ( ! /rang]'s pret5sions1 & consid]$ :e!r he might n be an artful impo/or2 b n[ all 0 cle>ness & c]ta9ty3 ! advantages ( weal? pass$ 9 full review be=e my r\s$ imag9ation4 ,i saw horses1 palaces1 & _! furniture2 ,i saw ! spl5d\r ( exhibition & ! tra9s ( att5dants1--objects :i* _h be5 = ev] de> to my pu]ile imag9ation2 ,i contemplat$ ! hon\r1 love1 ob$i5ce1 troops ( fri5ds1 :i* are s apt to att5d ^u weal?1 :5 disburs$ ) a mod]ate degree ( dignity & munific5ce4 ,:5 ,i comp>$ ?is ) my pres5t pov]ty & des]tion1 ! meanness ( our appe>ance1 our daily lab\rs1 ! dang] t an unt[>d accid5t might s9k u 9 ! deepe/ di/ress1 & ! hopelessness t my son or 8 po/]ity %\ld ev] rise to t hon\r & di/9ction to :i* !y _h once be5 de/9$1 ! effect 0 too p[]ful4 ,ano!r feel+ came /ill fur!r 9 aid ( ?is3 x 0 ! humiliat+ impression :i* ! /rang] _h left ^u my m9d3 ?is seem$ to be 8 great art1 if 9 reality 8 conduct is to be imput$ to art4 ,!re is no enemy to virtue s fatal z a s5se ( degradation4 ,self-applause is our pr9cipal support 9 e lib]al & elevat$ act ( virtue4 ,if ?is ally c be turn$ aga9/ u2 if we c be made to ascribe bas5ess1 effem9acy1 want ( _s & adv5ture1 to our virtu\s resolutions2 we %all !n inde$ feel ourselves %ak54 ,?is 0 precisely my situation3 ! figure ,i made 9 my own eyes 0 mean2 ,i 0 impati5t ( my degradation2 ,i believ$ t ,i _h %[n myself uxori\s & effem9ate1 at a "t t mu/ h r\s$ 9 me ! _s ( a man1 if !re _h be5 a sp>k ( manly _s lat5t 9 my brea/4 ,?is impati5ce co-op]at$ ) ! temptations ( ! /rang]1 & made me anxi\s to possess :at he (f]$ to my acceptance4 ,i reason$ ?us ) myself3 :at excites my scruples is simply ! idea ( hav+ "o s+le secret f my wife & family4 ,?is scruple is creat$ by ! s+ul> & unprec$5t$ confid5ce 9 :i* we h be5 accu/om$ to live4 ,o!r m5 h _! secrets3 nor d !y f9d _! dome/ic tranquillity brok5 by t circum/ance4 ,! m]*ant does n call 8 wife into consultation ^u 8 v5tures2 ! /atesman does n unfold to h] 8 policy & 8 projects2 ! w>rior does n take h] advice ^u ! plan ( 8 campaign2 ! poet does n conc]t ) h] 8 flights & 8 episodes4 ,to o!r m5 ! dome/ic sc5e is ! relaxation ( _! c>es2 :5 !y ent] x1 !y dismiss ! bus9ess ( ! day1 & call ano!r cause4 ,i only h conc5trat$ 9 x ! :ole ( my exi/5ce4 ,by ?is means ,i h ext+ui%$ 9 myself ! true en]gy ( ! human "*4 ,a man c nev] be respectable 9 ! eyes ( ! _w or 9 8 own1 except s f> z he /&s by himself & is truly indep5d5t4 ,he may h fri5ds2 he may h dome/ic connections2 b he mu/ n 9 ^! connections lose 8 individuality4 ,no?+ truly great 0 ev] a*iev$1 t 0 n execut$ or plann$ 9 solit>y seclusion4 ,b if ^! reasons are suffici5t to prove t ! plan ,i h lately pursu$ is fundam5tally wrong1 h[ mu* m w ! importance ( :at is propos$ by ! /rang] plead my excuse = deviat+ f x8 ,h[ bitt]ly h ,i lam5t$ ! degradation ( my family6 ,%all ,i n seize ?is opportunity ( re-in/all+ !m 9 _! h]$it>y hon\rs8 ,i deem$ ! ru9 ,i _h br\ght ^u !m irrep>able2 %all ,i n embrace ! occasion ( aton+ = my fault8 ,no man despises weal?1 :o fully und]/&s ! advantages x conf]s4 ,does x n conf] ! means ( cultivat+ our p[]s8 ,does x n op5 to u ! c>e] ( hon\r1 :i* is %ut aga9/ ! unkn[n & obscure8 ,does x n conciliate ! prepossessions ( mank9d1 & ga9 = u an indulg5t & lib]al con/ruction8 ,does x n inspire u ) graceful confid5ce1 & animate u to g5]\s adv5ture8 ,! poor man is d5i$ e advantage ( education1 & we>s out 8 life 9 lab\r & ignorance4 ,f (fices ( tru/1 f opportunities ( di/9ction1 he is ignom9i\sly ?ru/ aside2 & ?\gh he %\ld sacrifice 8 life = ! public cause1 he dies unhon\r$ & unkn[n4 ,if by any accid5t he comes into possession ( ^? qualities :i*1 :5 disc]n$ & ackn[l$g$1 comm& ! applause ( mank9d1 :o w li/5 to him8 ,8 appe>ance is mean2 & ! fa/idi\s auditor turns f him ere half 8 words are utt]$4 ,he has no equipage & att5dants1 no "o to bl[ ! trumpet be=e him & proclaim 8 rank2 h[ c he propose any ?+ t %all be wor?y ( att5tion8 ,aw>e ( ! prepossession ( mank9d 9 ?is respect1 he is al>m$ & ov]:elm$ ) confusion be=e he op5s 8 lips4 ,fill$ ) ! consci5ce ( 8 wor?1 he anticipates ! unm]it$ contempt t is prep>$ to oppress him1 & 8 v he>t dies )9 him4 ,add to ^! circum/ances1 ! con/itution ( our nature1 ! v>i\s pleasures ( :i* x is adapt$ to p>take1 & h[ _m ( ^! pleasures x is 9 ! p[] ( weal? to procure4 ,yes2 an object l ?is w suffici5tly apologise = me to ^? = ^: sake alone x 0 e/imable 9 my sight4 ,x is1 inde$1 no?+ b our pov]ty & ! l[ness ( our /ation t h ?us produc$ 9 u an habitual & unres]v$ communication ( s5tim5ts4 ,weal? w\ld1 to a c]ta9 degree1 de/roy our contact1 & take (f ! wond] t we _h ea* our ?\ghts t 7 n put into ! common /ock4 ,^! consid]ations decid$ my *oice4 ,i 0 n inde$ )\t "s v>iations ( m9d1 & "s compunction ( he>t = ! resolution ,i _h esp\s$4 ,! long] ! /rang] rema9$ ) me1 ! m evid5t x 0 t !re 0 some?+ my/]i\s betwe5 u2 & ! unres]v$ affection & union t _h lately reign$ "u my ro( suff]$ mat]ially ! effects ( x4 ,! /rang] _h be5 l$ to my cottage1 9 ! fir/ in/ance1 by ! entire solitude 9 :i* x 0 plac$4 ,!re 0 no?+ ab\t :i* he 0 s solicit\s z concealm5t2 ! mo/ atroci\s crim9al c\ld n be m al>m$ at ! idea ( be+ discov]$4 ,i 0 unable to acc\nt = ?is2 b ,i 0 n[ too anxi\s = 8 /ay & ! promis$ rew>d1 n to be al]t 9 gratify+ all 8 wi%es4 ,! mo/ inviolable secrecy1 !re=e1 0 enjo9$ to ! :ole family2 & ! y\ng] bran*es ( x1 p>ticul>ly ! little ,m>gu]ite1 x 0 necess>y to keep almo/ immur$1 to prev5t ! dang] ( _! report+ any ?+ out ( ! h\se1 t might be displeas+ to ! /rang] & fatal to my expectations4 ,^u ! :ole my situation 0 em95tly an uneasy "o4 ,no exp]im5t c be m prec>i\s ?an t ( a half-confid5ce2 & no?+ b ! s9c]e affection t 0 ent]ta9$ = me c\ld h r5d]$ x successful 9 ?is in/ance4 ,my family felt t !y 7 tru/$ by me only 9 po9ts :]e x 0 impossible to avoid x1 & t ,i 0 n !re=e prop]ly entitl$ to _! co-op]ation2 ,i 0 consci\s ( +ratitude 9 mak+ !m no return = _! fidelity4 ,!y kept my secret because !y 7 solicit\s to oblige me1 n f any conviction t !y 7 conf]r+ on me a b5efit2 b1 on ! contr>y1 suspect+ t ! object z to :i* !y 7 bl9dly assi/+ me w\ld prove injuri\s to me z well z to !mselves4 ,! heal? ( ! /rang] visibly decl9$2 b ?is 0 a circum/ance :i* he evid5tly reg>d$ ) complac5cy4 ,x 0 ! only s\rce ( consolation ( :i* he appe>$ susceptible2 8 m9d 0 torn ) pa9ful remembrances1 & agitat$ ) t]rible =ebod+s4 ,he abhorr$ solitude1 & yet f\nd no consolation 9 society4 ,i c\ld n be mu* ) him2 my duty to my family1 :o 7 pr9cipally support$ by my lab\r1 0 a call too imp]i\s to be neglect$4 ,ev5 :5 ,i 0 ) him1 he commonly te/ifi$ no desire = conv]sation4 8,/ay ) me10 he 0 accu/om$ to say2 8give me z mu* ( y\r "t z y c2 b d n talk40 ,^u ^! occasions he w\ld sit sometimes ) 8 arms fold$1 & ) ! mo/ melan*oly expression imag9able4 ,he w\ld !n knit 8 br[s1 wr+ 8 h&s ) a sadness t might h excit$ pity 9 ! h>de/ brea/1 or1 ) bo? h&s clos$1 ! "o clasp+ ! o!r1 /rike himself impati5tly on ! =ehead4 ,at o!r times he w\ld rise f 8 seat1 pace ! room ) hurri$ & unquiet /eps1 & !n aga9 ?r[ himself on 8 c\* 9 ! greate/ agitation4 ,8 features 7 (t5 convuls$ ) agony4 ,(t5 h ,i wip$ away ! sweat1 :i* w\ld sudd5ly bur/ out 9 l>ge drops on 8 =ehead4 ,at ^? seasons he w\ld cont9ually mutt] words to himself1 ! s5se ( :i* x 0 impossible = me to collect4 ,i c\ld p]ceive h[ev] t he (t5 repeat$ ! names ( ,cl>a6--,h5ry6--a wife6--a fri5d6 a fri5d6----& !n he w\ld groan z if 8 he>t 7 bur/+4 ,sometimes1 9 ! mid/ ( ^! recollections1 he w\ld pass ! back ( 8 h& ov] 8 eyes2 & !n1 look+ at x1 %ak+ 8 head1 & bit+ 8 "u lip1 exclaim ) a pite\s acc5t1 8,dry6--dry6--all ! moi/ure ( my frame is p]i%$60 ,!n1 z if recov]+ himself1 he w\ld cry ) a />tl$ & t]rifi$ voice1 8,:o is !re8 ,/4 ,leon8 ,come to me6 ,let me feel t !re is a human be+ ne> me6 ,i (t5 call = y2 b ,i f9d myself alone1 des]t$1 fri5dless6--fri5dless60 ,at times :5 8 recollection 0 m complete1 he w\ld say1 8,i "k ,i tire y6 ,:y %\ld ,i tire y8 ,:at gratification c x be to me to occasion emotions ( disgu/80 ,^u ^! occasions ,i endeav\r$ to soo! him1 & assur$ him ,i f\nd pleasure 9 adm9i/]+ to 8 relief4 ,b he repli$1 8,no1 no3 d n flatt] me6 ,x is long s9ce ,i h he>d ! voice ( flatt]y6 ,i nev] lov$ x6 ,no2 ,i "k ,i am preclud$ f ev] excit+ fri5d%ip or sympa?y6 ,:y am ,i n dead8 ,:y d ,i live1 a bur!n to myself1 useful to none8 ,my secret ,i c\ld almo/ resolve %\ld die ) me2 b y h e>n$1 & y %all receive x40 ,! /rang] 0 n always 9 ?is /ate ( extreme angui%1 nor always indispos$ to conv]se4 ,he _h lucid int]vals2 & c\ld beguile ! sorr[ ( 8 he>t ) social communication4 ,we sometimes talk$ ( v>i\s sci5ces & bran*es ( le>n+2 he appe>$ to be well in=m$ 9 !m all4 ,8 obs]vations 7 +5i\s2 8 language copi\s2 8 illu/rations fanciful & picturesque2 8 mann] bold & p5etrat+4 ,x 0 easy to obs]ve 9 him ! m>ks ( a vigor\s & mascul9e g5ius4 ,sometimes we discuss$ ! ev5ts at t "t go+ on 9 ! _w4 ,:5 we disc\rs$ ( ev5ts t _h pass$1 & p]sons t _h di$1 m ?an a c5tury be=e1 ! /rang] (t5 spoke ( !m 9 a mann] z if he _h be5 an eye-witness1 & directly acqua9t$ ) ! objects ( our disc\rse4 ,?is ,i ascrib$ to ! vividness ( 8 conceptions1 & ! animation ( 8 language4 ,he h[ev] (t5 *eck$ himself 9 ?is peculi>ity1 & always c>efully avoid$ :at c\ld lead to any ?+ p]sonal to himself4 ,i describ$ to him ! sc5es ( my y\?1 & relat$ my subsequ5t hi/ory2 he on 8 "p 0 inv9cibly sil5t on e circum/ance ( 8 c\ntry1 8 family1 & 8 adv5tures4 ,! long] ,i 0 acqua9t$ ) him1 ! m my curiosity grew4 ,i 0 re/less & impati5t to le>n some?+ respect+ a man :o ?us wrapp$ himself up 9 my/]y & res]ve4 ,(t5 ,i ?rew out1 z x 71 a l9e by :i* to fa?om 8 secret4 ,i talk$ ( v>i\s c\ntries1 ,i m5tion$ diff]5t k9ds ( calamities & ev5 ( crimes1 t by "s incid5tal allusion ,i might discov] at unaw>es 8 c\ntry1 8 connections1 or ! nature ( 8 /ory4 ,:5 any ?+ t (f]$ seem$ to lead to ! desir$ po9t1 ,i d\bl$ my que/ions1 & endeav\r$ to con/ruct !m ) ! skill ( a crafty litigant 9 a c\rt ( ju/ice4 ,!re 7 "s subjects1 ! v m5tion ( :i* gave him uneas9ess1 & ^u :i* he imm$iately sil5c$ me2 b ^! 7 n ( !mselves en\gh to af=d me a clue1 or to furni% mat]ials out ( :i* = me to con/ruct ! hi/ory ( ! /rang]4 ,he did n always p]ceive ! drift ( my que/ions & sn>es2 b1 :5 he did1 he g5]ally became l\d1 res5tful1 & furi\s4 ,!re 0 no?+ else t s completely r\s$ 8 indignation4 8,/4 ,leon60 said he to me "o day1 8sil5ce ?is inquisitive temp] ( y\rs2 *eck y\r ra% & rude curiosity4 ,! only secret ,i h t c be ( any importance to y1 y %all "o day "k4 ,b my c\ntry1 my family1 my adv5tures1 ,i h once told y1 & ,i tell y aga91 y %all nev] "k4 ,t k c be ( mom5t to no "o1 & x %all nev] be disclos$4 ,:5 ?is he>t ceases to beat1 t tale %all cease to h a place on ! face ( ! e>?4 ,:y %\ld my di/resses & disgraces be publi%$ to any "o8 ,is x n en\gh t !y h lac]at$ my bosom1 t !y h depriv$ me ( fri5ds1 t !y h visit$ me ) e adv]sity & e angui%1 t !y h b[$ me d[n to ! e>?1 t !y h made ?\ght1 & remembrance1 & life itself1 a bur!n too heavy to be borne8 ,y\r pres5t injudici\s conduct1 if p]si/$ 91 w h ! effect ( driv+ me f y\r ro(1 ( turn+ me once m ^u ! _w1 ^u t _w t ,i hate1 ^u t _w ^: bruises & ill treatm5t ,i feel 9 e fibre ( my frame2 ( expos+ me aga9 to fre% p]secutions1 & caus+ me to p]i% mis]ably 9 a dungeon1 or die ^u a scaffold4 ,sp>e me1 my g5]\s ho/2 ,i "k y are capable ( g5]osity4 ,inde$ ,i h endur$ en\gh to satiate ! rage ( malice itself4 ,y see :at ,i suff] f ! rage & tempe/ ( my own ?\ghts1 ev5 )\t ! assi/ance ( any ext]nal foe4 ,let me die 9 t degree ( tranquillity ,i am able to atta94 ,i w n tr\ble y long40 ,at ano!r "t he address$ me 9 a diff]5t /yle4 8,y see1 ,/4 ,leon1 t ! angui% ( m9d ,i endure is su* z is ord9>ily attribut$ to ! recollection ( great crimes2 & y h v probably conjectur$ t 9 my case x arises f ! same s\rce4 ,if y h1 ,i =give y2 b ,i assure y t y are mi/ak54 ,take f y\rself t uneas9ess1 if x has ev] visit$ y2 y are n giv+ sanctu>y to a villa96 ,i am innoc5t4 ,i c take no crime to my *>ge4 ,i h suff]$ m almo/ ?an man ev] suff]$2 b ,i h s9n$ little4 ,! cause ( my uneas9ess & prime s\rce ( all my mis=tunes1 ,i d>e n disclose to y4 ,be cont5t$ ) ! plan ( my conduct4 ,i h dige/$ my purpose3 ,i h det]m9$ :]e to speak & :]e to be sil5t40 ,! m ,i saw ( ?is man1 ! m /range & unacc\ntable appe>$ to me e ?+ t relat$ to him4 ,:y 0 he s poor1 possess+1 z he pret5d$1 inexhau/ible weal?8 ,:y 0 he unhappy1 ) s great tal5ts & g5ius1 & su* v>i\s in=mation8 ,:y 0 he fri5dless1 be+1 z he solemnly assur$ me1 s p]fectly innoc5t1 & ( consequ5ce s respectable8 ,t he 0 an impo/or1 e ?+ t ,i saw ( him =bade me to believe4 ,8 sorr[s 7 too pr(\nd & excruciat+1 = x to be possible = me to rank !m among ! actions t a man may play4 ,! greatness ( 8 p[]s1 ! dignity ( 8 c>riage1 ! irresi/ible appe>ance ( s9c]ity t sp>kl$ 9 8 eye & modulat$ 8 voice1 fully conv9c$ me t he really 0 :at he pret5d$ to be4 ,i _h he>d ( m5 :o1 "u ! pret5ce ( al*emy1 fa/5$ !mselves ^u p]sons possess+ sums ( money2 &1 beguil+ !m ) a delusive expectation ( weal?1 r$uc$ !m to begg>y & ru94 ,"o su* p]son ,i _h _h a brief connection ) dur+ my resid5ce 9 ! ,bordelois1 ?\gh1 f9d+ ! incid5t by no means ess5tial to ! progress ( my hi/ory1 ,i h pass$ x ov]1 toge!r ) _m o!rs1 9 sil5ce4 ,b no?+ c\ld be m unlike ?an t man & ! p]son respect+ :om ,i 0 n[ conc]n$4 ,9 reality ,i possess$ at t "t1 if ,i may be all[$ to say s1 a m ?an common insight into ! *>act]s ( mank9d1 s z to be little likely1 except "u ! tyranny ( passion1 z 9 ! in/ance ( gam+1 to be made ! prey ( imposition4 ,i _h /udi$ my species z x exhibits itself 9 hi/ory1 & _h mix$ ) x 9 v>i\s sc5es & "u dissimil> aspects4 ,i _h accord+ly1 9 ! transaction ,i h j allud$ to1 soon detect$ ! plans ( ! villa9 :o expect$ to delude me4 ,b :at c\ld be ! purpose ( ! /rang] 9 ?is respect8 ,! pret5d$ al*emi/ 9 ,france _h obta9$ a c]ta9 sum ( money ( me1 & dem&$ m4 ,! /rang] nev] made su* a dem& ( me2 & p]fectly knew t1 ev5 if ,i _h be5 incl9$1 ,i 0 n able to supply him4 ,! al*emi/ _h amus$ me ) descriptions ( v>i\s processes = ! transmutation ( metals1 _h exhibit$ 8 crucibles & retorts1 & employ$ a sort ( dramatic c\p d'il = ! purpose ( awak5+ my curiosity & /imulat+ my passions4 ,! /rang] _h simply /at$1 9 ! pla9e/ & mo/ direct mann]1 t x 0 9 8 p[] to enri* me2 b _h be5 sil5t z to ! mann] ( produc+ ! weal? he promis$1 & _h ab/a9$ f e ef=t to intoxicate my m9d4 ,i felt !re=e 9 ?is in/ance ! effect1 t1 )\t be+ able to solve ! difficulties & contr>ieties t hung ab\t him1 ,i yet believ$ 8 ass]tions2 nor 0 ! inscrutability ( 8 hi/ory & 8 motives capable ( %ak+ my confid5ce4 ,"o day1 dur+ ! p]iod ( 8 concealm5t1 c]ta9 (fic]s ( ! bi%op ( ,con/ance1 accompani$ by a =eign] 9 a ,neapolitan habit1 came to my h\se1 &1 z x prov$1 ) ! express purpose ( se>*+ = ! man :o _h put himself "u my protection4 ,*>les & myself 7 at "w 9 ! fields )9 sight ( ! lake4 ,_! appe>ance fir/ caught ! att5tion ( ,*>les z !y approa*$ ! %ore1 & he enquir$ ( me respect+ ! habit ( ! =eign]1 :i* 0 diff]5t f any he _h be5 accu/om$ to see4 ,:ile we 7 yet speak+1 ,i obs]v$ 9 !m an int5tion to l& )9 sight ( my cottage4 ,?is 0 an uncommon circum/ance2 our privacy 0 r>ely invad$1 & we liv$ almo/ z mu* out ( ! _w z we %\ld h done 9 ! remote/ isl& ( ! ,atlantic ocean4 ,i reason$ 9 my own m9d ^u _! appe>ance3 !y _h little resemblance to a p>ty ( pleasure2 ! habit ( ! (fic]s ( ju/ice ,i 0 p]fectly acqua9t$ )2 & ! suspicion ( ! real nature ( _! err& imm$iately d>t$ on my ?\ghts4 ,)\t say+ a ^w to ,*>les on ! subject1 ,i ha/5$ ) all ! spe$ ,i c\ld ex]t to ! ap>tm5t ( ! /rang]1 & acqua9t$ him ) :at ,i _h se54 ,he concurr$ ) me 9 ! ideas ,i _h =m$1 & appe>$ mu* %ock$ at ! intellig5ce4 ,!re 0 h[ev] no "t to be lo/2 &1 aft] hav+ = a mom5t giv5 v5t to an angui% :i* 0 too p[]ful to be suppress$1 he )drew z ha/ily z he c\ld f ! summ]-h\se1 & betook himself to ! woods4 ,he recomm5d$ to me to leave him1 tell+ me t he c\ld conceal himself mo/ effectually alone1 & obs]v+ t x w\ld be necess>y = me to meet ! (fic]s1 & endeav\r z mu* z possible to remove _! suspicions4 ,accord+ly1 z soon z he 0 gone1 ,i ?rew op5 ! w9d[s ( ! summ]-h\se1 remov$ ! %utt]s1 & took f x z effectually z ,i c\ld all appe>ance ( hav+ s]v$ z a place ( concealm5t4 ,?is 0 a precaution :i* ! /rang] _h on a =m] occasion recomm5d$ to me4 ,x =tunately happ5$ t ,julia & ! little ,m>gu]ite 7 gone out toge!r 9 ! fields on ! ea/]n side ( my cottage2 o!rwise infallibly ! *ild by h] innoc5t prattle1 & p]haps ,julia by ! appreh5sive s5sibility ( h] temp]1 w\ld h betray$ our secret1 or at lea/ h sugge/$ to ! (fic]s a feel+ z if1 by a long] /ay & a m dilig5t se>*1 !y might possibly succe$ 9 ! object ( _! exp$ition4 ,z x 01 ,i receiv$ !m at ! door1 & le>n$ f _! own m\?s ! nature ( _! err&4 ,( ,*>les1 :om !y _h cross$ 9 ! fields1 !y _h simply ask$ :e!r !y 7 "r z to ! "n ( ! p]son :o 0 proprietor ( ! cottage be=e !m4 ,!y describ$ to me ) great accuracy ! appe>ance ( ! /rang]1 & insi/$ t he _h be5 an inhabitant ( my cottage4 ,!y told me1 !y 7 well in=m$ t ! summ]-h\se 9 my g>d5 _h c>efully be5 %ut up = m ?an a mon? pa/1 & t "s p]son _h be5 conceal$ !re4 ,i 0 int]e/$ 9 ! di/ress ( ! /rang]2 ,i 0 impress$ ) ! dignity ( 8 "*2 ,i implicitly confid$ 9 8 ass]tions ( innoc5ce1 & ! unju/ p]secution t he suff]$2 ,i 0 n ins5sible to ! propos$ rew>d1 ! realis+ ( :i* probably dep5d$ on 8 safety4 ,b1 mo/ ( all1 ,i consid]$ my hon\r z pl$g$ = ! protection ( ! man :o _h ?us ca/ himself ^u my fidelity1 & believ$ t ,i %\ld be ev]la/+ly disgrac$ if he suff]$ any evil ?r\gh trea*]y or neglect on my "p4 ,i !re=e answ]$ confid5tly to ! (fic]s t !y 7 mis9=m$1 & (f]$ to conduct !m ov] e "p ( my h\se & demesnes1 t !y might satisfy !mselves by inspection t !re 0 no p]son conceal$ any :]e )9 my possessions4 ,i %\ld h be5 bett] pleas$1 op5ly to h defi$ _! int]rogatories1 & to h ask$ !m :e!r1 all[+ _! suspicions to be j1 !y 7 entitl$ to believe t ,i 0 su* a villa9 z to betray a man :o _h ?r[n himself ^u my g5]osity8 ,b ?\gh ?is conduct w\ld h _h a great] appe>ance ( gallantry1 ,i believ$ x w\ld h less ( ! reality1 z x w\ld h /r5g!n$ _! idea ( my p>ticipation1 & increas$ ! dang] ( ! p]son ,i 0 b\nd to protect4 ,!y accept$ my (f] ( submitt+ to _! se>*1 & made a /rict exam9ation ( e place ab\t my habitation 9 :i* ! /rang] c\ld be conceal$4 ,disappo9t$ "h1 !y endeav\r$ by ?reats to discov] :e!r ,i 0 able to give !m any in=mation4 ,to ^! ,i calmly answ]$1 t !y _h mi/ak5 my "*2 t1 ?\gh ,i 0 a poor man1 ,i _h n =gott5 t ,i 0 noble2 t !y 7 already 9 possession ( my spontane\s answ] to _! enquiries2 & t1 9 no case1 & ^u no supposition1 %\ld tyranny & ill treatm5t extort f me :at ,i 0 n 9 ! fir/ in/ance dispos$ to give4 ,my wife 0 pres5t dur+ ?is conv]sation1 &1 ,i c\ld p]ceive1 felt an al>m = my dang] t %e w\ld h be5 incapable ( feel+ = a dang] to h]self4 ,?\gh ,i 0 extremely anxi\s t ^! m5 %\ld be disappo9t$ 9 ! object ( _! exp$ition1 yet ,i did n neglect ?is opportunity ( endeav\r+ to obta9 satisfaction = my own curiosity4 ,i rem>k$ at fir/ t ! ,neapolitan 0 an inquisitor1 & ?is circum/ance _h giv5 additional poignancy to ! uneas9ess ( ,m>gu]ite4 ,b ! accusations ( :i* ! inquisition at ?is "t took cognisance 7 s num]\s--! ecclesia/ical p[] cont9ually usurp+ ^u ! civil--t ,i 0 little assi/$ 9 ! judgm5t ,i 0 desir\s to frame by any inf]5ce to be d$uc$ f ?is circum/ance4 ,i que/ion$ directly1 ) an air z if x 7 m]ely 9 ! way ( conv]sation1 :at 0 ! crime ( ! man ( :om !y 7 9 pursuit8 & :at 0 ! cause =cible en\gh to induce a ,neapolitan inquisitor to foll[ s decrepit & =lorn an individual z he describ$1 beyond ! ,alps1 & almo/ to ! banks ( ! ,danube8 ,to ?is he answ]$ r\ghly1 t ?\gh he 0 n able to discov] ! object ( 8 se>*1 he 0 by no means conv9c$ t ,i 0 n 8 abettor & accomplice2 & t z to 8 crime1 t 0 n to be nam$2 ! welf>e ( ,*ri/5dom dem&+ t ! crim9al1 & ! memory ( 8 (f5ces1 %\ld be buri$ toge!r4 ,at ! same "t he w>n$ me to consid] well :at ,i did1 be=e ,i expos$ myself to be ov]:elm$ by ! v5geance ( ! c\rt ( :i* he 0 a memb]4 ,to ?is ,i answ]$ haughtily1 t ,i _h already condesc5d$ to repel 8 suspicion1 & t no o!r man ?an an inquisitor w\ld h _h ! /upidity or ! audaci\sness to "q my v]acity4 ,i add$1 t ,i 0 p]fectly acqua9t$ ) ! nature ( 8 c\rt1 :i* 0 an object ( abhorr5ce to ! :ole ,*ri/ian _w2 b t he 0 mi/ak5 if he suppos$ t ! dete/able nature ( its proce$+s w\ld enable him to practise e sort ( outrage ) impunity4 ,! (fic]s )drew into ! little inclosure 9 front ( my cottage1 & ,i ov]he>d !m consult+ :e!r1 hav+ fail$ 9 _! pr9cipal object1 !y %\ld c>ry me a prison] along ) !m4 ,! firmness ( my mann] h[ev] _h aw$ !m1 & ! fe>lessness ,i express$ seem$ to !m to arise f a consci\sness ( innoc5ce4 ,!y at l5g? dep>t$ z !y came4 ,i wat*$ !m f my cottage z !y desc5d$ to ! %ore1 & x 0 ) no little pleasure t ,i p]ceiv$ !m re-emb>k1 & /& (f = ! opposite side ( ! lake4 ,?is spectacle = a "t entirely engag$ me1 & :5 ,i turn$ f ! door ,i obs]v$ t my belov$ ,m>gu]ite _h be5 9 te>s4 ,%e endeav\r$ to hide ?is circum/ance f my sight4 ,i took h] affectionately by ! h&1 &1 press+ h] to my bosom1 entreat$ h] n to make h]self uneasy4 8,ah1 ,reg9ald60 said %e1 8h[ c ,i avoid be+ uneasy1 :5 ,i see y expos$ to ?is imm95t dang]8 ,i ?\ght t1 9 =feit+ our =tune & our rank1 & retir+ to ?is obscure & seque/]$ situation1 we might at lea/ promise ourselves ! bless+ ( ! poor--oblivion & security2 & t %\ld h consol$ me = all ,i h lo/4 ,:o is ?is man t is ?us my/]i\sly hidd5 among u8 ,:at is ! guilt f ! puni%m5t ( :i* he ?us anxi\sly )draws himself8 ,:at c be ! nature ( y\r connection ) su* a man8 ,& :at w be ! issue ( s p]il\s an adv5ture80 ,i hesitat$4 ,i knew n :at to answ] to s e>ne/ an anxiety4 ,i 0 melt$ at ! di/ress & ! affection ( ,m>gu]ite4 ,%e saw my emb>rassm5t1 & proce$$3-- 8,mi/ake me n1 my belov$60 said %e4 8,i h no desire to pry into :at y are will+ to conceal4 ,=give ! p]turbation :i* has p\r$ itself out 9 ^! involunt>y que/ions4 ,i repose an entire confid5ce 9 y4 ,i w\ld soon] die ?an int]f]e ) any object y h at he>t4 ,g on accord+ to ! dictates ( y\r own judgm5t1 undi/urb$ by me4 ,i w n d\bt t y h suffici5t reasons = :at y communicate1 & :at y suppress4 ,i am griev$ inde$ at ! int]ruption ( our obscure & unambiti\s tranquillity2 b ,i _h resolv$ n to tr\ble y ) my uneas9ess & appreh5sions4 ,! incid5t ( ?is morn+ has extort$ !m f me2 b ,i w behave bett] 9 future40 ,?is sc5e 0 extremely di/ress+ to me4 ,my wife 0 oppress$ ) fe>s1 & ,i _h no?+ to answ] h]4 ,! consolations t rose up 9 my own m9d ,i 0 prev5t$ f communicat+4 ,! m g5]\sly %e confid$ 9 me1 ! m ,i felt ! ungraci\s & disagreeable nature ( ! concealm5t ,i practis$4 ,i endeav\r$ h[ev] to enc\rage myself ) ! idea1 t ! lab\r w\ld n be long1 & ! h>ve/ w\ld prove abundant4 ,i said 9 my own m9d1 ,! wor/ is n[ ov]2 ! bus9ess has be5 comm5c$2 ! %ock to my own family has actually occurr$2 ,i mu/ g on resolutely1 & %ut my eyes to ! tempor>ily displeas+ circum/ances t may be connect$ ) ! complet+ my object4 ,,*apt] ,,xiii4 ,ano!r s\rce ( uneas9ess 0 add$ to ! di/raction my m9d already endur$4 ,! /rang] did n appe>4 ,x 0 9 ! morn+ t ! (fic]s ( ju/ice arriv$2 !y dep>t$ ab\t noon2 & 9 two h\rs aft]w>ds ,i ent]$ ! wood 9 se>* ( my gue/4 ,! wood 0 ( "s leagues 9 ext5t2 x 0 int]sect$ by pa?s 9 v>i\s directions2 x 0 int]sp]s$ ) cav]ns2 its gr[? 0 ( all k9ds1--9 "s places l(ty trees t seem$ to =m a support = ! cl\ds1 9 o!rs an und]wood imp5etrable alike to ! feet & to ! eye4 ,z ,i ent]$ ! wood1 ,i h[ev] conceiv$ t ! discov]y ( ! /rang]1 to me :o 0 acqua9t$ ) its lurk+-places1 w\ld be an affair ( little toil2 8 feebl5ess & decrepitude w\ld n suff] him to proce$ to any great di/ance4 ,9 ?is ,i 0 mi/ak54 ,i look$ c>efully on all sides2 ,i exam9$ e recess & corn] ) :i* ,i 0 acqua9t$3 b ,i f\nd no trace ( ! /rang]4 ,! sc5e 0 s complicat$ & involv$1 t ev5 ?is 0 a lab\r ( consid]able duration4 ,at l5g? ,i became satisfi$ t he 0 n 9 ! ne>] division ( ! wood4 ,i paus$4 ,i felt at once t x 0 little less ?an a ,h]culean task to hunt ?r\gh ! :ole ( its dim5sions4 ,x w\ld probably be ( little use to call1 & endeav\r by t means to discov] 8 retreat4 ,i knew ( no "n by :i* he 0 to be recognis$2 &1 if my own voice 0 b a slight res\rce to p5etrate ?is imm5se labyr9? ( foliage1 ! voice ( ! /rang]1 weak5$ by age1 & n[ probably /ill m enfeebl$ by hung] & fatigue1 c\ld n be expect$ to make itself he>d4 ,beside :i*1 z ,i knew n :at ! s\rce ( in=mation _h be5 to ! (fic]s :o _h j left me1 ,i 0 unwill+ to expose my gue/ to ! dang] t might arise f ?is mode ( seek+ him4 ,i c\ld n ev5 be sure1 ?\gh ,i _h se5 _! boat /& (f f ! %ore1 t !y might n aft]w>ds l& "o or m ( _! p>ty1 & be at ?is v mom5t )9 e>-%ot ( me4 ,i !re=e proce$$ 9 anxiety & sil5ce4 ,my se>* 0 no m successful 9 ! "p ( ! wood ) :i* ,i 0 little acqua9t$1 ?an 9 ! "p ) :i* ,i 0 mo/ famili>4 ,i _h already be5 engag$ f\r h\rs 9 ! task1 & night began to come on4 ,x %ut 9 ) heavy cl\ds1 t on all sides appe>$ deeply load$ ) ra94 ,i n[ began to consid] my own situation2 &1 by comp>+ circum/ances1 f\nd t ,i 0 at a great di/ance f my own habitation4 ,!re 0 no direct pa? by :i* = me to return4 ,i _h proce$$ to ! "r & ! left1 backw>d & =w>d1 sometimes by m op5 pa?s1 & sometimes =c+ my way ?r\gh bri>s & bru%wood1 z caprice1 or ! hope ( effect+ ! object ( my se>*1 happ5$ to guide me4 ,x 0 !re=e no easy matt] to guess h[ ,i 0 to return1 or ev51 n[ t ! l[]+ cl\ds _h cov]$ ! horizon ) "o uni=m t9t1 9 :i* direction lay ! cottage or ! lake4 ,:ile ,i /ood contemplat+ :at 0 to be done1 ,i he>d ! h[l+ ( ! wolves at a di/ance2 & _! h[l _h t p>ticul> melan*oly & discomfit+ s\nd :i* is well kn[n to prec$e a com+ /orm4 ,!re 0 no "t to be lo/1 & accord+ly ,i set out4 ,i 0 less anxi\s to be at home on my own acc\nt1 ?an = ! sake ( quiet+ ! al>ms ( my family1 to :om ,i _h already occasion$ too great a portion ( uneas9ess4 ,i _h n proce$$ f> be=e ! ra9 desc5d$ 9 torr5ts1 int]m+l$ ) peals ( ?und] & %eets ( lightn+4 ,! ?und]1 int]rupt$1 z x 71 f "t to "t1 ) ! noise ( ! wild bea/s t inhabit$ ! wood1 deaf5$ me1 :ile ! excessive & in/antane\s brilliancy ( ! lightn+ occasion$ me an intol]able a*+ 9 ! organ ( sight4 ,x ra9$ incessantly = two h\rs1 & ,i f\nd myself dr5*$ & fatigu$ ) ! wet4 ,dur+ ?is "t my progress 0 small2 & ,i 0 ev] & anon int]cept$ by ! und]wood1 & c\ld n )\t repeat$ exp]im5ts discov] ! means ( proce$+4 ,at l5g? ! ra9 subsid$1 & seem$ to give place to a gloomy & motionless calm4 ,soon aft]1 ,i discov]$ a light at a di/ance1 & advanc$ t[>ds x4 ,z ,i approa*$1 ,i p]ceiv$ t x proce$$ f a set ( b&itti1 to ! am\nt ( f\rte5 or fifte5 p]sons1 sitt+ r\nd a fire 9 ! m\? ( a cav]n4 ,i 0 glad to turn my /eps ano!r way1 & 0 = "s "t afraid t ! noise ,i made 9 occasionally =c+ my way ?r\gh ! bu%es w\ld al>m !m1 & co/ me my life4 ,i h[ev] =tunately escap$ _! notice4 ,?is 0 9 a "p ( ! wood remote f ! pa? ,i ought to h tak51 & ne> ! road to ,l9dau4 ,! day began to dawn be=e ,i rea*$ my own habitation4 ,! conjecture ,i _h made1 :5 ,i 0 unaw>es ^u ! po9t ( fall+ into ! h&s ( ! b&itti1 t ! road ( ,l9dau 0 on ! o!r side ( _! retreat1 0 ( "s s]vice to me z an indication :]e to f9d ! cottage & ! lake4 ,?is road skirt$ ! wood on ! side ne>ly opposite to t by :i* ,i ent]$ x4 ,! difficulties h[ev] ,i _h to enc\nt] 7 inconceivably great1 9 endeav\r+ to pres]ve my l9e ( direction4 ,aft] hav+ be5 compell$ f\r or five times to deviate f ! l9e1 x is seldom t a travell] w f9d himself "r 9 8 conjecture z to ! direction he is pursu+1 unless he has "s s5sible object z a sort ( pole-/> by :i* to gov]n 8 r\te4 ,x happ5$ 9 ?is in/ance t ,i 0 m =tunate ?an ,i 0 entitl$ to expect4 ,i lab\r$ inde$ till daybreak )\t gett+ out ( ! labyr9? t inclos$ me4 ,b ! sun no soon] began to l5d an imp]fect light1 ?an ,i recognis$ c]ta9 objects :i* ^u "s =m] occasions ,i _h obs]v$1 & p]ceiv$ t my j\rney 0 ne>ly at an end4 ,i ent]$ my cottage1 & f\nd ,m>gu]ite alone awake & expect+ me4 ,%e _h be5 some:at uneasy on acc\nt ( my abs5ce1 bo? f ! extreme tempe/u\sness ( ! night1 & 9 consequ5ce ( ! pa9ful s5sations ! ev5ts ( ! prec$+ morn+ _h introduc$1--ev5ts ) :i* x 0 almo/ unavoidable = h] to imag9e t my abs5ce 0 9 "s way connect$4 ,! p]iod ( my insanity 9 ,switz]l& might inde$ h accu/om$ h] to ! irregul>ity ( my motions1 b a t]m ( m ?an six ye>s :i* _h int]v5$1 _h produc$ 9 h] expectations & habits ( a diff]5t sort4 ,i relat$ to ?is admirable woman ! adv5tures ( ! night & ! fruitlessness ( ! se>* 9 :i* ,i _h be5 engag$2 & ?is op5ness ( communication1 unresembl+ ! nature ( ! int]c\rse :i* _h lately exi/$ betwe5 u1 reliev$ 9 "s degree my bur!n$ he>t1 & *e]$ ! droop+ spirits ( ,m>gu]ite4 ,%e dropp$ "s consolatory & sadly pleas+ te>s2 & h] mann] seem$ to say1 ?\gh %e w\ld n suff] h] tongue to give ! idea words1 ,h[ sweet are cordiality & confid5ce6 ,oh6 d n let our situation1 :i* has depriv$ u ( _m o!r com=ts1 ev] aga9 be robb$ ( ?is com=t1 :i* is alone wor? all ! re/6 ,?\gh %e necess>ily felt ! pres5ce ( ! /rang] z an evil1 ! bane ( our dome/ic peace1 yet x 0 impossible = h] n to compassionate 8 fate1 & suff] "s di/ress f 8 /range & abrupt disappe>ance4 ,aft] ! conv]sation :i* _h s em95tly s]v$ z a relief to our m9ds1 ,m>gu]ite left me to repose myself f ! extraord9>y fatigue ,i _h und]gone4 ,b my m9d 0 too mu* di/urb$ to suff] me to s9k into ! arms ( =getfulness4 ,i felt some?+ tragical 9 ! sad de/9y ( my un=tunate gue/4 ,x 0 b too probable t1 9 8 peculi>ly weak /ate ( body1 & ) 8 decl9+ heal?1 ! be+ ?us expos$ = a day & a night to ! effects ( hung]1 ( ! inclem5cy ( ! air1 & ! tempe/u\sness ( ! elem5ts1 w\ld put a close to 8 exi/5ce4 ,i 0 det]m9$ soon to recomm5ce my se>*4 ,b h[ c\ld ,i be sure t ,i %\ld be m =tunate to-day1 ?an ! day be=e8 ,if ,i f\nd him1 x 0 mo/ likely ,i %\ld f9d him ei!r dead or dy+4 ,! degree ( int]c\rse t _h tak5 place betwe5 u _h made him occupy a consid]able space 9 my ?\ghts4 ,! prospects he _h op5$ to me1 ! conduct he _h induc$ me to adopt1 ! pa9ful effects & dissatisfaction ( m9d :i* _h be5 produc$ by t conduct z x respect$ my family1 all comb9$ to give me an int]e/ 9 8 fate4 ,i _h se5 8 tal5ts2 ,i _h felt 8 asc5dancy2 ,i _h exp]i5c$ t sort ( conflict1 :i* appe>ances ( guilt on ! "o h&1 & assev]ations ( innoc5ce on ! o!r1 are calculat$ to produce 9 ! ?\ghts & emotions ( a by/&]4 ,he 0 no common man2 ! expectations & conjectures he excit$ 7 ( no ord9>y sort2 & ,i felt t an army might be de/roy$1 & a spaci\s pla9 cov]$ ) ! w\nd$ & ! dy+1 )\t produc+ great] commotion 9 my s\l4 ,9 ! anxi\s & di/urb$ /ate ( m9d 9 :i* ,i 01 ! ?\ghts fl[ ) extraord9>y rapidity4 ,x w be f\nd att5d$ ) a /range1 &1 previ\sly to ! exp]im5t1 incr$ible mixture ( reason+ & passion1 ( philosophis+ & fury4 ,i 0 accord+ly consci\s at ?is mom5t ( ! tru? ( ! /rang]'s ass]tion1 t 9 me he _h a protector1 n a fri5d4 ,fri5d%ip is an object ( a peculi> sort2 ! smalle/ res]ve is deadly to x4 ,i may inde$ feel ! emotions ( a fri5d t[>ds a man :o 9 "p conceals f me ! ?\ghts ( 8 he>t2 b !n ,i mu/ be unconsci\s ( ?is concealm5t4 ,! in/ant ,i p]ceive ?is limitation ( confid5ce1 he drops into ! class ( ord9>y m53 a divorce is effect$ betwe5 u3 our he>ts1 :i* grew toge!r1 suff] amputation2 ! art]ies are clos$2 ! blood is no long] mutually transfus$ & conf\nd$4 ,i %all be consci\s ( all 8 qualities1 = ,i /& 9 ! place ( an imp>tial umpire4 ,i consid] him z a ma*9e capable ( s mu* utility to myself1 & s mu* utility to o!r m54 ,b ,i d n reg>d him z ! bro!r ( my s\l3 ,i d n feel t my life is b\nd up 9 83 ,i d n feel z if1 7 he to die1 ! :ole _w w\ld be at an end to me1 & t my happ9ess w\ld be buri$ ) him = ev] 9 ! d>kness ( ! grave4 ,i am n consci\s ( ^? emotions :i* are ! mo/ exquisite & indescribable ! human m9d c exp]i5ce2 & :i*1 be+ communicat$ by a sort ( electrical /roke to him :o is _! object1 con/itute ! solace ( all 8 c>es1 ! alleviator ( all 8 calamities1 ! only nect> & true/ balm ( human life4 ,= me1 he /&s alone 9 ! _w1 hav+ companions & associates1 ! connections1 z x 71 ( m]cantile selfi%ness1 or casual jollity & good hum\r1 b no fri5d4 ,x 0 ?us t ,i ?\ght ( ! /rang]4 ,he obta9$ f me ! compassion due to a human be+1 & ! respect extort$ by 8 qualities1 b no?+ calculat$ radically to di/urb ! equilibrium ( ! m9d4 ,i look$ =w>d to 8 dea? ) unruffl$ ?\ghts & an unmoi/5$ eye4 ,!re 0 "o ?+ inde$ t %ook me m deeply2 ! ?\ght ( los+ ! promis$ rew>d1 & ( hav+ expos$ myself to ! evil ( an unquiet & dissatisfi$ m9d 9 va94 ,i re/$ b a few h\rs be=e ,i set out aga9 ^u ! se>*1 to :i* ! int]position ( ! d>kness ( ! prec$+ night _h put an abrupt close4 ,i _h ! precaution to take ) me a slight provision ( food & cordials1 believ+ t1 if ,i f\nd ! /rang]1 he w\ld at lea/ be 9 ! greate/ ne$ ( some?+ reviv+ & re/orative4 ,*>les e>ne/ly intreat$ to assi/ me 9 ! se>*1 b ^u ?is ,i put a p]emptory prohibition4 ,x w\ld h be5 9 direct contradiction to :at ! /rang] _h mo/ solemnly requir$ ( me4 ,i _h already sp5t sev]al h\rs 9 anxi\sly trac+ ! wood 9 e direction2 & ! p]iod ( noon 0 pa/1 :51 approa*+ an obscure & almo/ imp5etrable ?icket1 my e> 0 caught by a l[ & melan*oly s\nd1 :i* at fir/ ,i knew n to :at ,i 0 to ascribe4 ,x h[ev] arre/$ my att5tion1 & caus$ me to assume an attitude ( li/5+4 ,aft] ! lapse ( little m ?an a m9ute1 ! same s\nd 0 repeat$4 ,i n[ di/9ctly p]ceiv$ t x 0 ! groan ( "s creature 9 a v feeble & exhau/$ /ate1 & imm$iately suspect$ t x 0 ! /rang]4 ,i w5t almo/ r\nd ! ?icket be=e ,i c\ld disc]n an entrance1 &1 ?\gh ,i look$ ) ! utmo/ c>e1 c\ld p]ceive no?+ t ! ?icket inclos$4 ,! groan 0 repeat$ a ?ird "t4 ,! long int]vals betwe5 ! groans gave a peculi> melan*oly to ! effect1 & ea* seem$ s mu* l[] ?an ! groan be=e1 t no?+ b ! e> ( anxi\s att5tion w\ld h caught x2 at ! same "t t ! tone convey$ an idea ( /upifi$1 yet vital1 angui%4 ,at l5g? ,i p]ceiv$ ! legs & some?+ ( ! g>b ( a man4 ,x 0 ! /rang]6 ,he appe>$ to h crept into ! ?icket ^u 8 h&s & knees4 ,:5 ,i =c$ my way to him1 he seem$ 9 ! v act ( expir+4 ,he 0 ly+ on 8 face1 & ,i rais$ him a little4 ,8 eyes 7 fix$2 8 m\? 0 op52 8 lips & tongue 7 p>*$ & dry4 ,i infus$ a few drops ( a cordial into 8 m\?4 ,= a mom5t x appe>$ to produce no s5sation1 b pres5tly my pati5t utt]$ a deep & long-drawn sigh4 ,i repeat$ my application4 ,z a pr9cipal cause ( ! condition 9 :i* ,i f\nd him 0 inanition1 ! /imulant ,i adm9i/]$ produc$ a p[]ful effect4 ,he mov$ 8 h&s1 %udd]$1 turn$ 8 eyes languidly ^u me1 &1 hav+ appe>$ to recognise me1 %ut !m ha/ily aga94 ,i mov$ him sl[ly & s(tly into a fre] air1 & ba!d 8 temples ) "o ( ! liquids ,i _h ab\t me4 ,by ?is "t he look$ up1 & !n sudd5ly r\nd him ) a wild & hurri$ air4 ,he spoke n h[ev]2 he 0 spee*less4 ,9 ab\t a qu>t] ( an h\r he relaps$ into convulsions1 9 :i* x seem$ probable he w\ld expire4 ,!y la/$ a consid]able "t1 & he !n sunk into a /ate ( ins5sibility4 ,i ?\ght he 0 dead4 ,?us circum/anc$1 x 0 "s relief to my humanity to h f\nd him yet alive1 & to h receiv$ 8 p>t+ brea?4 ,b 9 a mom5t 8 secret & 8 promises recurr$ to me ) inexpressible angui%1 & ,i inw>dly reproa*$ him = hav+ def]r$ 8 communication s long1 z n[ to preclude its ev] be+ made4 ,i _c describe ! ke5ness1 ! burn+ & intol]able bitt]ness1 ( my s5sation4 ,ke5 x may well be suppos$ to h be51 f its hav+ s in/antane\sly & =cibly recurr$ at a "t :5 o!r objects seem$ to press ^u my s5ses4 ,no "o :o has n felt :at x is to fall 9 a mom5t f hope1 or1 z ,i %\ld r say1 f assur$ possession ( :at 8 s\l mo/ lov$ & desir$1 into black & int]m9able despair1 c imag9e :at 0 !n ! /ate ( my m9d4 ,! body ( my pati5t slid$ f my n]veless arms2 ,i lift$ up ! eyes ( rage & phr5sy1 z if to curse ! ,au?or ( my be+2 & !n fell helpless & immoveable by ! side ( ! /rang]4 ,i felt him move2 ,i he>d him sigh4 ,i lift$ up my head1 & p]ceiv$ /rong] m>ks ( life & s5se ab\t him ?an _h yet display$ !mselves4 ,i ?rew my arms ab\t him2 ,i press$ him to my he>t4 ,! emphatical ge/ure ,i us$ seem$ to h a sort ( magnetical =ce to r\se 8 dy+ p[]s4 ,) a little assi/ance f me he sat upright4 ,my assiduity produc$ wond]s3 x =tunately happ5$ t ?is ?icket 0 b a half a mile f my habitation1 & inde$ 0 "o ( ! spots :i* ,i _h se>*$ )\t success ! day be=e4 ,ab\t ! h\r ( sunset1 p>tly by lead+1 & p>tly by support+ him1 ,i re/or$ my gue/ to 8 =m] ap>tm5t4 ,he rema9$ spee*less1 or ne>ly s4 ,he v5t$ 8 s5sations 9 sighs1 9 inw>d & in>ticulate s\nds2 & ev5 :5 he arriv$ at ! p[] ( mak+ himself und]/ood by words1 x 0 only by monosyllables & half s5t5ces t he convey$ to me 8 mean+4 ,i n[ gave up my "t almo/ entirely to an assidu\s att5dance on ! /rang]4 ,e day ,i expect$ to be 8 la/2 e day 0 m or less int]sp]s$ ) symptoms t seem$ to m5ace 8 in/ant dissolution4 ,dur+ all ?is "t ,i rema9$ 9 ! anxi\s susp5se ( cont5d+ hope & fe>4 ,0 x probable t he w\ld ev] recov] /r5g? en\gh to conf] on me ! legacy he _h ann\nc$8 ,! p>ticul>s ( 8 secret ,i knew n2 b1 judg+ f :at ,i _h he>d ( ! pret5ces & pursuits ( al*emy1 x 0 natural to suppose t he _h a process to communicate1 :i* w\ld require on 8 "p consid]able accuracy ( recollection1 z well z ! p[] ( deliv]+ himself 9 a me?odical & ord]ly disc\rse4 ,i 0 =tunate en\gh h[ev] to p]ceive1 aft] a torm5t+ & t$i\s crisis1 t he appe>$ to be 9 a progress ( convalesc5ce1 & t 8 /r5g? bo? ( body & m9d 7 recruit$ daily4 ,aft] ! lapse ( a =tnight f ! adv5ture ( ! wood1 he "o ev5+ address$ me 9 ! foll[+ mann]3-- 8,/4 ,leon1 ,i h be5 to blame4 ,i h put y to a suffici5t trial2 ,i h receiv$ f y e assi/ance & k9dness t my situation dem&$2 ,i h impos$ on y mu* tr\ble & anxiety2 ,i h excit$ y\r expectations by ann\nc+ to y 9 "p :at x 0 9 my p[] to be/[2 & ,i h f9ally risk$ ! defraud+ y\r hopes & y\r humanity ( _! j rew>d4 ,d me ! ju/ice h[ev] to rememb]1 t ,i _h no pres5tim5t ( ! ev5t :i* has s inauspici\sly come betwe5 y & y\r hopes4 ,fool t ,i 01 ,i imag9$ ,i _h suff]$ en\gh1 & t1 z ,i _h obta9$ a long] respite f ext]nal p]secution ?an ,i almo/ ev] exp]i5c$1 ,i %\ld be p]mitt$ to sp5d ! %ort rema9d] ( my days un9t]rupt$6 ,i n[ h[ev] look back ^u ?is la/ assault ) complac5cy4 ,x has cut (f some?+ f ! la/ remnant ( a life to ! close ( :i* ,i look =w>d ) inexpressible long+2 at ! same "t t ,i am /ill 9 prospect ( obta9+ ! f9al wi% ( my he>t--! /eal+ out ( ! _w unp]ceiv$1 & ?us 9 "s measure elud+ ! la/ malice ( my enemies4 ,aft] my dea? ,i h b "o injunction to leave ) y--! injunction ( ,h]cules to ,philoctetes--t no inducem5t may move y to betray to mortal man ! place 9 :i* y %all h deposit$ my a%es4 ,bury !m 9 a spot :i* ,i w describe to y3 x is n f>1 & is only recomm5d$ to me by its almo/ inaccessible situation3 & t once done1 speak ( me &1 if possible1 ?9k ( me no m4 ,nev] on any acc\nt m5tion me or allude to me2 nev] describe me1 or relate ! mann] ( our meet+1 or ! adv5ture :i* has at l5g? br\ght on ! desir$ close ( my exi/5ce4 8,believe me1 9 ! feeble & helpless condition 9 :i* ,i h sp5t ! la/ =tnight1 y\r wi%es & expectations h be5 upp]mo/ 9 my m9d1 & !re is no?+ ,i h felt ) s mu* compunction z ! dang] ( leav+ !m unsatisfi$4 ,to y p]haps ,i at pres5t appe> to be rapidly recov]+1 ,i feel ! d>t ( dea? 9 my vitals2 ,i "k ,i %all n live f\r days4 ,x is necess>y !re=e t ,i %\ld f9i% )\t delay all t rema9s = me to f9i%4 ,i w devote ?is night to ! arrang+ my ?\ghts & putt+ 9 ord] :at ,i h to communicate1 t no mi/ake or omission may h "p 9 a transaction s important4 ,come to me to-morr[ morn+2 ,i w be prep>$ = y40 ,z soon z ,i he>d ?is disc\rse1 & provid$ ! /rang] ) e ?+ he c\ld want dur+ ! night1 ,i )drew4 ,my he>t 0 big ) expectation2 my ?\ghts all night 7 wild & tumultu\s4 ,:5 ! h\r ( assignation arriv$1 ,i ha/5$ along ! g>d5 to ! summ]-h\se1 consci\s t ^u t h\r dep5d$ all ! col\r ( my future life4 ,s9ce ! /rang] _h be5 9 8 pres5t dang]\s condition1 ! door 0 n bolt$2 x 0 only lock$3 ! key 0 9 my possession1 & rema9$ night & day atta*$ to my p]son4 ,i op5$ ! door2 ,i pant$ & 0 brea?less4 ,i imm$iately saw t ! /rang] _h und]gone "s great alt]ation = ! worse4 ,he _h suff]$ a sort ( p>alytic affection4 ,he lift$ up 8 face z ,i ent]$2 x 0 pal] ?an ,i _h ev] se5 x4 ,he %ook 8 head m\rnfully1 & intimat$ by signs ! disappo9tm5t :i* ?is morn+ mu/ witness4 ,he 0 spee*less4 8,fate6 fate60 exclaim$ ,i 9 an agony ( despair1 8am ,i to be = ev] baffl$8 ,is ! prize s mu* long$ = & s ard5tly expect$ at la/ to escape me80--,x is n to be imag9$ h[ mu* ^! successive1 endless disappo9tm5ts increas$ my impati5ce1 & magnifi$ 9 my eyes ! donation ,i s\ght4 ,! :ole ( ?is & ! foll[+ day ! /rang] rema9$ spee*less4 ,! ?ird day1 9 ! morn+1 he murmur$ _m s\nds1 b 9 a mann] s excessively in>ticulate1 t ,i 0 n able to und]/& "o ^w 9 six t he said4 ,i recollect$ 8 pr$iction t he %\ld die on ! f\r? day4 ,! fev] ( my s\l 0 at its height4 ,mortal s9ews & fibres c\ld su/a9 no m4 ,if ! /rang] _h di$ ?us1 x is mo/ probable t ,i %\ld h ?r[n myself 9 angui% & rage ^u 8 corpse1 & h expir$ 9 ! same h\r4 ,9 ! ev5+ ( ! ?ird day ,i visit$ him aga94 ,he _h ?r[n 8 robe ar\nd him1 & 0 sitt+ on ! side ( 8 c\*4 ,! ev5+ sun %ot 8 la/ beams ov] ! w9d[-%utt]s4 ,!re 7 ab\t eight in*es betwe5 ! %utt] & ! top ( ! w9d[2 & "s bran*es ( v9es1 ) _! grapes already ripe1 broke ! uni=mity ( ! light4 ,! side ( ! c\* fac$ ! we/1 & ! beams play$ ^u ! old man's c\nt5ance4 ,i _h nev] se5 x s s]5e4 ,! light1 already s(t5$ by ! decl9e ( day1 gave x a peculi> animation3 & a smile t seem$ to betok5 r5ovation & ! y\? ( angels sat ^u x4 ,he beckon$ me to approa*4 ,i plac$ myself beside him on ! c\*2 he took my h& 9 81 & lean$ 8 face t[>ds me4 8,i %all nev] witness ! light ( ! sett+ sun aga960 7 ! fir/ words he utt]$4 ,i imm$iately p]ceiv$ t he spoke m collect$ly1 & ) bett] articulation ?an at any "t s9ce ! p>alytic /roke4 ,/ill h[ev] x 0 no easy matt] to develop 8 words4 ,b ,i w\nd up e faculty ( my frame to cat* !m2 &1 assi/$ z ,i 0 by ! habit ( li/5+ to 8 spee* = _m weeks1 :i* dur+ ! :ole ( t "t _h nev] be5 di/9ct1 ,i 0 successful en\gh to make out 8 entire disc\rse4 ,x cont9u$1 ?\gh ) v>i\s int]ruptions1 = m ?an half an h\r4 ,he expla9$ ) wond]ful accuracy ! :ole ( 8 secrets1 & ! process ) :i* !y 7 connect$4 ,my s\l 0 r\s$ to ! utmo/ /ret* ( att5tion & a/oni%m5t4 ,8 secrets1 z ,i h already ann\nc$ 9 ! comm5cem5t ( ?is hi/ory1 consi/$ ( two pr9cipal p>ticul>s2 ! art ( multiply+ gold1 & ! p[] ( liv+ = ev]4 ,! detail ( ^! secrets ,i omit2 into t ,i am =bidd5 to ent]4 ,my design 9 writ+ ?is n>rative1 ,i h said1 is n to tea* ! art ( :i* ,i am 9 possession1 b to describe ! adv5tures x produc$ to me4 ,! m ,i li/5$1 ! m my a/oni%m5t grew4 ,i look$ at ! old man be=e me2 ,i obs]v$ ! wret*$ness ( 8 appe>ance1 ! meanness ( 8 attire1 8 app>5t old age1 8 extreme feebl5ess1 ! *>act]s ( approa*+ dea? t 7 writt5 on 8 c\nt5ance4 ,aft] :at ,i _h j he>d1 ,i survey$ ^! ?+s ) a s5sation ( novelty1 z if ,i _h nev] rem>k$ !m 9 him be=e4 ,i said to myself1 ,is ?is ! man t possesses m9es ( weal? inexhau/ible1 & ! capacity ( liv+ = ev]8 ,obs]v+ t he _h f9i%$ 8 disc\rse1 ,i address$ to him ^! words1 by a sort ( uncontrollable impulse1 & ) all ! vehem5ce ( unsat$ & insuppressible curiosity4 8,tell me1 ,i adjure y by ! liv+ ,god1 :at use h y made ( ^! extraord9>y gifts8 & ) :at ev5ts has t use be5 att5d$80 ,z ,i spoke ?us1 ! c\nt5ance ( ! old man und]w5t a surpris+ *ange4 ,its s]5ity vani%$2 8 eyes roll$ ) an expression ( agony2 & he answ]$ me ?us3-- 8,be sil5t1 ,/4 ,leon6 ,h[ (t5 mu/ ,i tell y t no s+le incid5t ( my /ory %all ev] be repeat$6 ,h ,i no claim ^u y\r =be>ance8 ,c y be b>b>\s & inhuman en\gh to di/urb my la/ sc5e ) ^! bitt] recollections80--,i 0 sil5t4 ,?is is all t is mat]ial t pass$ at our int]view4 ,! /rang] di$ ! next day1 & 0 buri$ accord+ to 8 in/ructions4 ,,*apt] ,,xiv4 ,f ! mom5t ( my la/ int]view ) ! /rang] ,i 0 ano!r creature4 ,my ?\ghts incessantly roll$ ^u 8 communications4 ,!y fill$ me ) a/oni%m5t & joy1 almo/ to bur/+4 ,i 0 unable to conta9 myself2 ,i 0 unable to rema9 9 any po/ure or any place4 ,i c\ld sc>cely comm& myself suffici5tly to p]=m ! la/ duties to 8 body 9 ! mann] he _h direct$4 ,i pac$ ) eag] /ep ! s&s ( ! lake2 ,i climb$ ! neighb\r+ hills1 & !n desc5d$ ) inconceivable rapidity to ! vales bel[2 ,i trac$ ) fi]ce impati5ce ! endless mazes ( ! wood 9 :i* ,i s h>dly recov]$ my bewild]$ gue/4 ,! un9t]rupt$ness & cel]ity ( bodily motion seem$ to communicate "s ease to my swell+ he>t4 ,yet !re 0 "o ?+ ,i want$4 ,i want$ "s fri5dly bosom into :i* to p\r out my feel+s1 & ?us by p>ticipation to r5d] my transports balsamic & tol]able4 ,b ?is 0 = ev] d5i$ me4 ,no human e> mu/ ev] be a/oni%$ ) ! /ory ( my end[m5ts & my privileges4 ,i may :isp] x to ! woods & ! wat]s1 b n 9 ! face ( man4 ,n only am ,i b\nd to suppress ! k ( ! important secret ,i possess1 b ev5 ! feel+s1 ! rum9ations1 ! visions1 t are = ev] float+ 9 my s\l4 ,x is b a va9 & frivol\s di/9ction ^u :i* ,i act1 :5 ,i commit to ?is pap] my hi/ory1 & n ! sci5ce :i* is its corn]-/one4 ,! reason :y ! sci5ce may n be divulg$ is obvi\s4 ,exhau/less weal?1 if communicat$ to all m51 w\ld be b an exhau/less heap ( pebbles & du/2 & nature w n admit h] ev]la/+ laws to be s abrogat$1 z !y w\ld be by r5d]+ ! :ole race ( sublun>y man immortal4 ,b ,i am b\nd1 z f> z possible1 n only to hide my secrets1 b to conceal t ,i h any to hide4 ,s5seless pap]6 be ?\ at lea/ my confidant6 ,to !e ,i may imp>t :at my s\l spurns ! task to suppress4 ,! human m9d insatiably ?ir/s = a confidant & a fri5d4 ,x is no matt] t ^! pages %all nev] he survey$ by o!r eyes ?an m9e4 ,!y af=d at lea/ ! semblance ( communication & ! unbur!n+ ( ! m9d2 & ,i w press ! illusion fondly & = ev] to my he>t4 ,to return to ! explanation ( my feel+s imm$iately aft] receiv+ possession ( my gr& acquisition2 =1 )\t t explanation1 ! _s & mean+ ( my subsequ5t n>rative w sc>cely be suffici5tly appreh5d$4 8,happy1 happy1 happy man60 exclaim$ ,i1 9 ! mid/ ( my w&]+s & rev]ies4 8,weal?6 ?y p[] ,is unb\nd$ & inconceivable4 ,all m5 b[ d[n to !e2 ! mo/ /ubborn w is by !e r5d]$ pliant z wax2 all ob/acles are melt$ d[n & dissolv$ by ! ard\r ( ?y beams6 ,! man t possesses !e1 f9ds e pa? level be=e him1 & e creature burn+ to anticipate 8 wi%es3 b if ^! are ! advantages t weal? imp>ts to su* z possess only ^? scanty portions :i* /ates & nations all[ to ! ri*e/1 h[ enviable mu/ 8 condition be1 ^: weal? is lit]ally exhau/less & inf9ite6 ,he possesses really ! bless+1 :i* prie/craft & sup]/ition h ly+ly pron\nc$ ^u ! *>itable3 he may give away ! rev5ues ( pr9ces1 & n be ! poor]4 ,he possesses ! attribute :i* we are accu/om$ to ascribe to ! ,creator ( ! univ]se3 he may say to a man1 #8,be ri*1' & he is ri*4 ,he c be/[ ) equal facility ! smalle/ gifts & ! greate/4 ,palaces1 z if !y 7 ! native exhalations ( ! soil1 rise out ( ! e>? at 8 bidd+4 ,he holds ! fate ( nations & ( ! _w 9 8 h&4 ,he c remove =e/s1 & level m\nta9s1 dra9 m>%es1 ext5d canals1 turn ! c\rse ( riv]s1 & %ut up ! sea ) doors4 ,he c assign to e individual 9 a nation ! task he pleases1 c improve agriculture1 & e/abli% manufactures1 c f\nd s*ools1 & hospitals1 & infirm>ies1 & univ]sities4 ,he c /udy ! g5ius ( e man1 & enable e man to pursue ! b5t ( 8 m9d4 ,poets & philosoph]s w be fo/]$1 ! sublime/ flights ( g5ius be produc$1 & ! mo/ admirable discov]ies effect$1 "u 8 auspici\s patronage4 ,! :ole _w are 8 s]vants1 & he1 if 8 temp] be noble & upright1 w be ! s]vant ( ! :ole _w4 ,nay1 x _c happ5 o!rwise4 ,he has z few temptations to obliquity z omnipot5ce itself4 ,weakness & want are ! p>5ts ( vice4 ,b he possesses e ?+2 he _c bett] 8 situation2 no man c come into rival%ip or competition ) him4 ,i ?ank ,god1 ,i h kn[n ! extremes ( pov]ty1 & !re=e am prop]ly qualifi$ to enjoy my pres5t happ9ess4 ,i h felt a rev]se ( =tune1 driv+ me 9 "o in/ance to insanity1 9 ano!r in/ance ?reat5+ to de/roy me1 my wife1 & *ildr5 toge!r1 ) ! plague ( hung]4 ,my he>t has be5 rack$ ) nev]-dy+ remorse2 because1 by my guilt & folly1 my *ildr5 h be5 depriv$ ( ! di/9ction & rank to :i* !y 7 born1 & plung$ 9 rem$iless obscurity4 ,heav5 has se5 my suff]+s1 & at l5g? has graci\sly said1 #8,x is en\gh4' ,because ,i h endur$ m ?an man ev] endur$ f ! privation ( =tune1 ,god 9 8 ju/ice has res]v$ = me ?is secret ( ! transmutation ( metals4 ,i c nev] aga9 fall into t wret*$ness1 by :i* my und]/&+ 0 subv]t$1 & my he>t 0 brok540 ,f ?is "p ( ! legacy ( ! /rang]1 my m9d rev]t$ to ! o!r4 ,i survey$ my limbs1 all ! jo9ts & articulations ( my frame1 ) curiosity & a/oni%m5t4 8,:at60 exclaim$ ,i1 8^! limbs1 ?is complicat$ b brittle frame1 %all la/ = ev]6 ,no disease %all attack x2 no pa9 %all seize x2 dea? %all )hold f x = ev] 8 abhorr$ grasp6 ,p]petual vig\r1 p]petual activity1 p]petual y\?1 %all take up _! abode ) me6 ,"t %all g5]ate 9 me no decay1 %all n add a wr9kle to my br[1 or conv]t a hair ( my head to grey6 ,?is body 0 =m$ to die2 ?is edifice to crumble into du/2 ! pr9ciples ( corruption & mortality are mix$ up 9 e atom ( my frame4 ,b = me ! laws ( nature are susp5d$2 ! et]nal :eels ( ! univ]se roll backw>d2 ,i am de/9$ to be triumphant ov] fate & "t6 8,mon?s1 ye>s1 cycles1 c5turies6 ,to me all ^! are b z indivisible mom5ts4 ,i %all nev] become old2 ,i %all always be1 z x 71 9 ! por* & infancy ( exi/5ce2 no lapse ( ye>s %all subtract any ?+ f my future duration4 ,i 0 born "u ,l\is ! ,twelf?2 ! life ( ,francis ! ,fir/ n[ ?reat5s a spe$y t]m9ation2 he w be ga!r$ to 8 fa!rs1 & ,h5ry 8 son w succe$ him4 ,b :at are pr9ces & k+s & g5]ations ( m5 to me8 ,i %all become famili> ) ! rise & fall ( empires2 9 a little :ile ! v "n ( ,france1 my c\ntry1 w p]i% f ! face ( ! e>?1 & m5 w dispute ab\t ! situation ( ,p>is1 z !y dispute ab\t ! site ( anci5t ,n9eveh & ,babylon & ,troy4 ,yet ,i %all /ill be "y4 ,i %all take my mo/ di/ant po/]ity by ! h&2 ,i %all accompany !m 9 _! c>e]2 &1 :5 !y are worn out & exhau/$1 %all %ut up ! tomb ov] !m1 & set =w>d40 ,!re 0 some?+ h[ev] 9 ?is "p ( my speculation t did n entirely please me4 ,me?\ght ! race ( mank9d look$ too insignificant 9 my eyes4 ,i felt a degree ( uneas9ess at ! immeasurable di/ance t 0 put betwe5 me & ! re/ ( my species4 ,i f\nd myself alone 9 ! _w4 ,mu/ ,i = ev] live )\t a companion1 a fri5d1 any "o ) :om ,i c associate ^u equal t]ms1 ) :om ,i c h a community ( s5sations1 & feel+s1 & hopes1 & desires1 & fe>s8 ,i exp]i5c$ some?+1 less ?an a wi%1 yet a some?+ v capable ( damp+ my joy1 t ,i also 7 subject to mortality4 ,i c\ld h be5 well cont5t to be p>tak] ) a race ( immortals1 b ,i 0 n satisfi$ to be s+le 9 ?is respect4 ,i 0 n pleas$ to recollect h[ trivial w\ld appe> to me ^? conc]ns ( a few ye>s1 ab\t :i* ! passions ( m5 are s eag]ly occupi$4 ,i did n l ! deadness ( he>t t seem$ to ?reat5 me4 ,i began to be afraid ( vacancy & torpor1 & t my life w\ld become too uni=mly quiet4 ,nor did x suffici5tly console me to recollect t1 z "o set ( fri5ds di$ (f ! /age1 ano!r race w\ld arise to be sub/itut$ 9 _! /ead4 ,i felt t human affections & passions are n made ( ?is transf]able /uff1 & t we c love no?+ truly1 unless1 we devote ourselves to x he>t & s\l1 & our life is1 z x1 71 b\nd up 9 ! object ( our atta*m5t4 ,x 0 worse :5 ,i recollect$ my wife & my *ildr54 ,:5 ,i consid]$ = ! fir/ "t t !y 7 n[ 9 a mann] no?+ to me1 ,i felt a s5sation t might be said to m\nt to angui%4 ,h[ c a man atta* himself to any ?+1 :5 he comes to consid] x z ! m]e play?+ & amusem5t ( ! mom5t6 ,9 ?is /atem5t h[ev] ,i am n accurate4 ,habit is m pot5t ?an any !oretical speculation4 ,pa/ times _h atta*$ me deeply1 irrevocably1 to all ! memb]s ( my family4 ,b ,i felt t ,i %\ld survive !m all4 ,!y w\ld die "o by "o1 & leave me alone4 ,i %\ld drop into _! graves ! /ill r5ew+ te> ( angui%4 ,9 t tomb w\ld my he>t be buri$4 ,nev]1 nev]1 ?r\gh ! c\ntless ages ( et]nity1 %\ld ,i =m ano!r atta*m5t4 ,9 ! happy age ( delusion1 happy & auspici\s at lea/ to ! cultivation ( ! passions1 :5 ,i felt t ,i also 0 a mortal1 ,i 0 capable ( a community ( s5tim5ts & a go+ =? ( ! he>t4 ,b h[ c\ld ,i1 an immortal1 hope ev] h]eaft] to feel a s]i\s1 an elevat+ & expansive passion = ! ephem]on ( an h\r6 ,z ! fir/ tumult ( my ?\ghts subsid$1 ,i began1 z is usual ) p]sons ^: m9ds are turn$ loose 9 ! se>* ( vision>y happ9ess1 to picture to myself1 m /eadily & ) great] m9ut5ess1 ! objects ,i w\ld resolve e>ly to accompli%4 ,i w\ld 9 ! fir/ place return to ,france1 my ador$ c\ntry1 ! resid5ce ( my ance/ors1 ^: annals !y _h adorn$1 ^: pla9s _h witness$ _! h]oic feats1 & ^: e>? enclos$ _! a%es4 ,to ,france ,i 0 ende>$ by e tie t b9ds ! human he>t2 h] language _h be5 ! prattle ( my infancy2 h] national mann]s & temp] 7 tw9$ ) ! fibres ( my con/itution1 & c\ld n be root$ out2 ,i felt t e ,fr5*man t liv$ 0 my bro!r4 ,bani%m5t _h only caus$ ^! prejudices to /rike _! t5drils deep] 9 my he>t4 ,i knew n t ,i %\ld f9ally limit my abode to ,france4 ,a man :o1 l ,mel*is$ec1 is 8)\t end ( life10 may well consid] himself z be+ also1 l him1 8)\t fa!r1 )\t "m1 & )\t desc5t40 ,b at all ev5ts ,i w\ld fir/ fix my *ildr51 :o did n p>ticipate 9 my privileges1 9 _! native soil4 ,i w\ld reside !re myself1 at lea/ till !y 7 fully dispos$ (1 & till ! admirable p>tn] ( ! la/ sev5te5 ye>s ( my life _h resign$ h] brea?4 ,i w\ld imm$iately repur*ase ! prop]ty ( my ance/ors1 :i* _h be5 s di/ressfully resign$4 ,! exile %\ld return f 8 sev5 ye>s' bani%m5t 9 triumph & spl5d\r4 ,i w\ld return to ! c\rt ( my old patron & fri5d1 ! gallant ,francis1 & pres5t to him my boy1 ! future repres5tative ( my family1 n[ "o ye> old] ?an ,i _h be5 at ! field ( ! ,clo? ( ,gold4 ,?\gh an exile f my c\ntry1 ,i _h n be5 an inatt5tive witness ( h] =tunes4 ,! ye> fifte5 hundr$ & =ty-f\r 0 a rem>kable & int]e/+ ye> 9 ! hi/ory ( ,france4 ,! endless animosities ( ,francis & ! emp]or _h brok5 out ) new fury ab\t two ye>s be=e4 ,9 ! spr+ ( ! pres5t ye>1 ! c\nt d',angui5 _h won a battle 9 ,pi$mont#h1 9 :i* t5 ?\s& imp]iali/s 7 left dead ^u ! field1 & :i* might be consid]$ z hav+ at l5g? effac$ ! defeat ( ,pavia1 9 ! same "p ( ! _w n9ete5 ye>s be=e4 ,! mom5t x _h be5 ann\nc$ t a battle 0 resolv$ on1 ! "y nobility ( ,france1 ) _! *>act]i/ic ard\r1 _h hurri$ to ! sc5e1 & ! c\rt ( ,p>is 01 9 an in/ant z x 71 turn$ into a des]t4 ,on ! o!r h&1 ! emp]or & ! k+ ( ,engl& _h conc]t$ = ! same season a =midable plan ( attack aga9/ our nor!rn fronti]4 ,) an army ( tw5ty-five ?\s& m5 respectively1 ! "o on ! side ( ,*ampagne1 & ! o!r ( ,pic>dy1 !y agre$ to advance directly into ! he>t ( ! k+dom1 & to unite _! =ces 9 ! neighb\rhood ( ,p>is4 ,! la/ intellig5ce t _h rea*$ me 01 t ,*teau ,?i]ry1 ab\t tw5ty leagues f ! metropolis1 0 9 ! h&s ( ! emp]or1 & t ! inhabitants ( ! capital1 fill$ ) con/]nation1 7 seek+ _! safety by flight 9 e direction4 ,^! circum/ances _h pass$ idly by me1 & left little impression1 s long z ,i consid]$ myself z an obscure peasant cut (f = ev] f ! bosom ( my c\ntry4 ,b1 ve/$ ) ! extraord9>y p[]s n[ intru/$ to me1 ! case 0 alt]$4 ,i felt ev5 a great] int]e/ 9 my sov]eign1 n[ press$ d[n ) disease & calamity1 yet reta9+ ! orig9al alacrity & confid5ce ( 8 s\l1 ?an ,i _h done1 :5 ,i saw him 9 all ! pride ( y\?1 & all ! spl5d\r ( prosp]ity4 ,i 0 anxi\s t ,*>les %\ld n[ ent] into 8 s]vice2 & ,i det]m9$ once aga9 to assume ! cuirass & ! fal*ion1 t ,i might be ! in/ructor ( 8 y\?1 & 8 patt]n 9 feats ( w>4 ,i resolv$ t my %eph]d-boy1 br$ 9 obscurity among woods & m\nta9s1 %\ld bur/ ) sudd5 spl5d\r ^u 8 c\ntrym51 & prove 9 ! field 8 noble blood & g5]\s /ra94 ,i also propos$ to myself1 bo? out ( sympa?y = my k+1 & to give great] clat to my son's entrance into life1 to repl5i% ) my treasures ! empty c(f]s ( ,france1 & ?us to furni% :at at ?is p]iod seem$ to be ! ma9 spr+ ^u :i* ! =tune ( w> dep5d$4 ,) ! advantages ,i c\ld af=d him1 ! c>e] ( ,*>les c\ld n fail to be rapid & illu/ri\s1 & he w\ld und\bt$ly obta9 ! /aff ( con/able ( ,france1 ! possessor ( :i*1 ,montmor5cy1 0 n[ 9 disgrace4 ,i w\ld m>ry my daught]s to su* ( ! "y nobility z ,i %\ld f9d mo/ di/+ui%$ 9 tal5ts & spotless 9 "*4 ,:51 by ! dea? ( h] ,i mo/ lov$1 my affections %\ld be wean$ f my c\ntry1 & ! sc5es to :i* ,i _h be5 accu/om$ 7 r5d]$ pa9ful & di/ress+1 ,i w\ld !n set out ^u my travels4 ,i w\ld travel ) su* spl5d\r & pr(usion ( exp5se 7= ?is1 ?\gh mortifi$ 9 me by a rev]se ( _m ye>s' duration1 cont9u$ to be ! foible ( my he>t7 z %\ld sup]s$e ! necessity ( lett]s ( recomm5dation1 & secure me a fav\rable reception :]ev] ,i appe>$4 ,i might sp5d a life1 9 a mann]1 9 e c\ntry t 0 =tunate en\gh to allure my /ay1 spread+ improvem5ts1 disp5s+ bless+s1 & caus+ all di/ress & calamity to vani% f be=e me4 ,,*apt] ,,xv4 ,my m9d 0 occupi$ 9 ^! & simil> rev]ies = sev]al weeks aft] ! dea? ( ! /rang]4 ,my wife & *ildr5 _h hop$1 aft] t ev5t1 t ,i %\ld h return$ to ! habits :i* _h p]vad$ ! la/ six ye>s ( my exi/5ce1 & :i* !y _h felt s em95tly productive ( gratification & delight4 ,9 ?is hope !y f\nd !mselves deceiv$4 ,my dome/ic "* 01 = ! pres5t at lea/1 :olly de/roy$4 ,i _h a subject ( contemplation t did n admit ( a p>tak]1 & f ?is subject ,i c\ld n )draw my ?\ghts1 s mu* z = an in/ant4 ,i _h no pleasure b 9 t retirem5t1 :]e ,i c\ld be unse5 & unhe>d by any human eye or e>4 ,if at any "t ,i 0 compell$ to jo9 ! dome/ic circle1 ,i despat*$ ! occasion t br\ght me !re z spe$ily z possible2 & ev5 :ile ,i rema9$ 9 x1 0 sil5t & abs5t1 engross$ ) my own contemplations1 & he$less & unobs]vant ( e ?+ ar\nd me4 ,my ab/raction 0 n h[ev] s entire z to prev5t me f sometimes /eal+1 9 a sort ( mom5t>y int]regnum ( ?\ght1 9 t pause :]e ! m9d re/s ^u ! *a9 already pass$ ov]1 & seems passively to wait = ! sequel1 a glance at my family4 ,i look$ at !m )\t kn[+ :at x 0 t ,i did1 & )\t ! int5tion to notice :at ,i saw4 ,yet1 ev5 9 ?is /ate ( m5tal ab/raction1 visible objects w sometimes succe$ 9 mak+ _! impression4 ,i p]ceiv$ t my wife & *ildr5 suff]$ f my behavi\r4 ,i rem>k$ a g5]al air ( disconsolat5ess1 & a mild unexpo/ulat+ submission1 to :at nev]!less ! he>t deeply deplor$4 ,!y did n presume to int]rupt me2 !y did n by pry+ & inquisitive spee*es attempt to extort f me ! secret ( ! alt]ation !y saw2 b x 0 manife/ !y conceiv$ "s great & radical calamity _h poison$ ! he>t ( our dome/ic joy4 ,x 0 ^! symptoms ?us rem>k$ by me1 t fir/ r\s$ me f ! inebriation ( my new condition4 ,i 0 compell$ to suspect t1 :ile ,i revell$ 9 visions ( future enjoym5t1 ,i 0 inflict+ sev]e & unm]it$ pa9s on ^? ,i lov$4 ,x 0 necess>y1 if ,i valu$ _! happ9ess1 t ,i %\ld desc5d f ! cl\ds ( speculation & fancy1 & ent] ^u ! _w ( realities4 ,b "h ,i fir/ f\nd a difficulty to :i*1 dur+ ! reign ( my intoxication1 ,i _h be5 utt]ly ins5sible4 ,i 0 ri*2 ,i c\ld raise my family1 z f> z ! p[] ( money ext5d$1--money1 :i* may 9 "s s5se be /yl$ ! empress ( ! _w1--to :at heights ,i pleas$4 ,i _h hi!rto committ$ ! fault1 s common to projectors1 ( look+ only to ultimate objects & great re/+ places1 & neglect+ to consid] ! /eps betwe54 ,?is 0 an omission ( high importance4 ,e ?+ 9 ! _w is conduct$ by gradual process4 ,?is seems to be ! great pr9ciple ( h>mony 9 ! univ]se4 ,no?+ is abrupt2 "o ?+ is s bl5d$ & s(t5$ into ano!r1 t x is impossible to say :]e ! =m] ends & ! latt] beg9s4 ,?is rem>k is fully applicable to ! situation :i* 0 n[ be=e me4 ,ye/]day ,i 0 poor2 to-day ,i 0 possessor ( treasures inexhau/ible4 ,h[ 0 ?is alt]ation to be ann\nc$8 ,to dissipate ! rev5ues ( pr9ces1 to pur*ase imm5se e/ates1 to laun* into co/ly e/abli%m5ts1 are tasks to :i* ! mo/ vulg> m9d is equal4 ,b no man /&s alone 9 ! _w1 )\t all trace ( :at he has be51 & ) no "o ne>1 t ?9ks himself entitl$ to scrut9ise 8 proce$+s & 8 condition4 ,lea/ ( all 0 ?is my case4 ,i 0 b\nd to c]ta9 o!r p]sons by ! mo/ sacr$ obligations2 ,i c\ld n sep>ate myself f !m2 ,i c\ld n r5d] myself a m]e enigma 9 _! eyes2 ?\gh1 9 ! language ( ! _w1 ! head ( my family1 !y 7 my natural c5sors & judges4 ,i 0 acc\ntable to !m = my conduct2 x 0 my duty1 p>am\nt to all o!r duties1 to /& z a fair1 upright1 & hon\rable "* 9 _! e/imation4 ,if ^! rem>ks be true tak5 9 a g5]al view1 !y are mu* m s :5 appli$ to my p>ticul> case4 ,!re are m5 :o live 9 ! mid/ ( _! families l an ea/]n despot surr\nd$ ) 8 subjects4 ,!y are some?+ too sacr$ to be approa*$2 _! conduct is n to be reason$ ^u2 ! am\nt ( _! receipts & disbursem5ts is n to be inspect$2 _! res\rces are unkn[n2 no "o mu/ say to !m1 ,:at do/ ?\8 or1 :y ha/ ?\ ?us conduct$ ?yself8 ,ev5 ^! p]sons w n escape ! tax to :i* all m5 are liable4 ,!y _c kill ! g5]al _s ( enquiry2 ! my/]y 9 :i* !y wrap !mselves w (t5 s]ve z an additional /imulus2 !y w f9ally enc\nt] ! judgm5t & v]dict ( all4 ,= myself1 ,i _h liv$ 9 ! mid/ ( my family ^u a sy/em ( pat]nal & amicable comm]ce4 ,i _h suff]$ too deeply f a mom5t>y season ( sep>ation & my/]y1 n to h be5 induc$ to r5\nce x decisively & = ev]4 ,firm1 h[ev]1 z ,i _h imag9$ my r5unciation to h be51 ,i 0 n[ ?r[n back ^u :at ,i _h mo/ avoid$4 ,i _h a secret s\rce ( advantage1 ! effects ( :i* 7 to be p>ticipat$ by ^? ,i lov$1 :ile ! spr+ 0 to rema9 = ev] unkn[n4 ,:at ,i mo/ s\ght ^u ?is occasion1 01 t my family %\ld %>e my good =tune1 & at ! same "t be prev5t$ f s mu* z suspect+ t !re 0 any ?+ my/]i\s connect$ ) x4 ,to effect ?is1 ,i pres5tly conceiv$ t x w\ld be necess>y to sacrifice ! sudd5 & in/antane\s prosp]ity ,i _h propos$ to myself1 & introduce ! rev]se ( our condition by sl[1 &1 z f> z possible1 ins5sible degrees4 ,"o ?+ on :i* ,i det]m9$1 prep>atory to ! o!r measures ,i _h 9 view1 0 to remove f my pres5t habitation1 & take up my resid5ce = a "t 9 ! city ( ,con/ance4 ,9 ! cottage ( ! m\nta9s x 0 impossible to make any mat]ial alt]ation 9 my e/abli%m5t4 ,my prop]ty 0 ( ! n>r[e/ ext5t2 nor w\ld x be easily practicable 9 a c\ntry1 ! inhabitants ( :i* 7 accu/om$ to a humble allotm5t1 consid]ably to enl>ge x4 ,my h\se 0 frugal1 if n mean2 &1 unless x 7 fir/ pull$ d[n & built ov] aga91 ! idea ( introduc+ s]vants1 equipage1 or spl5d\r into x1 w\ld be absurd4 ,my design 0 n to make a long abode :]e ,i n[ 02 b1 z soon z my family %\ld be suffici5tly prep>$ = ! transition1 to return to my native c\ntry4 ,i believ$ 9 ! mean "t1 t1 9 ! capital ( ! bi%opric1 :]e my "n 0 sc>cely rememb]$ by a s+le individual1 ,i %\ld be m at lib]ty to proce$ z circum/ances sugge/$1 ?an 9 my pres5t rural situation1 :]e e neighb\r reg>d$ himself z ve/$ ) a sort ( inquisitorial p[] ov] all ar\nd him4 ,to acc\nt = ?is measure to my family1 ,i felt x incumb5t on me to confess to !m a c]ta9 pecuni>y acquisition4 ,! /ory t mo/ readily sugge/$ itself1 0 t ( ! /rang] hav+ left beh9d him a c]ta9 sum ( :i* he made a donation to me4 ,?is1 ?\gh 9 ! pla9 & direct s5se ( ! t]ms x 7 false1 yet 9 its _s bore a c]ta9 resemblance to ! tru?2 &1 ) t resemblance1 9 spite ( ! rigid adh]5ce to v]acity1 t fir/ ornam5t ( a g5tleman1 t mo/ ess5tial pr]equisite to ! reg>d & affection ( o!rs1 :i* ,i _h hi!rto ma9ta9$1 ,i 0 induc$ to cont5t myself4 ,:at c\ld ,i d8 ,i 0 compell$ to acc\nt = appe>ances2 ,i 0 =bidd5 by ! mo/ solemn injunctions to unfold ! tru?4 ,i %\ld inde$ h felt little complac5ce 9 ! disclosure2 ,i %\ld h be5 reluctant to ann\nce a circum/ance :i*1 z ,i began to feel1 introduc$ a p]man5t diff]5ce & sep>ation betwe5 me & my family4 ,! sum at :i* ,i fix$ ! legacy ( ! /rang] 0 ?ree ?\s& cr[ns4 ,i 0 n inatt5tive to ! future2 ,i %\ld h be5 glad1 by my pres5t acc\nt1 to h furni%$ a m ample solution = circum/ances :i* might occur h]eaft]4 ,b "s reg>d 0 due to probability4 ,an unkn[n1 a solit>y man1 brok5 ) age1 :o arriv$ on foot1 & :o decl9$ all aid & att5dance1 mu/ n be repres5t$ z possess+ m9es ( treasure4 ,x 0 "s "t be=e ,i c\ld prevail on myself to break my /ory to ! inhabitants ( my cottage4 ,z ! "t approa*$ :5 ,i 0 to bid an ev]la/+ f>ewell to rural obscurity & a humble /ation1 !y seem$ to adorn !mselves 9 new *>ms4 ,i 0 l ! son ( a k+1 :o _h hi!rto be5 told by 8 att5dants t he 0 a m]e villag]1 & :o1 :ile 8 y\?ful imag9ation is dazzl$ by ! spl5d\r t awaits him1 yet looks back ) a wi/ful eye ^u 8 mir?ful sports1 8 =m] companions1 & ! simple *>ms ( h] :o fir/ obta9$ 8 guileless love4 ,i ann\nc$ my acquisition & my purpose ) a falt]+ tongue & a beat+ he>t4 ,i c\ld p]ceive t my tale produc$ few emotions ( pleasure 9 ^? :o he>d x4 ,julia & h] "m1 especially1 7 w>mly atta*$ to _! retirem5t2 & ! sc5es :i* _h witness$ s _m pleasurable incid5ts & emotions4 ,*agr91 9 spite ( !mselves1 made a transi5t abode ^u _! c\nt5ances2 b ! unresi/+ mildness ( ! "o1 & ! consid]ate atta*m5t ( ! o!r1 prev5t$1 = ! pres5t1 _! s5sations f break+ out into words4 ,! feel+s1 h[ev]1 t !y consign$ to sil5ce1 did n entirely escape ! notice ( ! lively little ,m>gu]ite4 ,%e sympa?is$ ) !m1 probably )\t be+ aw>e t !y 7 sad4 ,%e came t[>ds me1 &1 ) mu* anxiety 9 h] enquir+ face1 ask$ :y we mu/ g away f ! cottage8 ,if ,i _h got "s money ,i might g to ! t[n1 & buy sweetmeats1 & rib&s1 & new clo!s1 & a hundr$ m pretty ?+s1 & br+ !m home4 ,= h] "p1 %e %\ld be bett] pleas$ to put on h] f9]y1 & make h] fea/ 9 ! pretty old summ]-h\se1 n[ %e 0 aga9 p]mitt$ to g & play 9 x1 ?an 9 a palace all /uck ov] ) em]alds & rubies4 ,h] "m wip$ away a te> at ! innoc5t spee* ( h] d>l+1 kiss$ h]1 & bid h] g & fe$ ! h5 & h] *ick5s4 ,*>les 0 ! only "o 9 :om ,i c\ld obs]ve any pleasure at my intellig5ce4 ,he 0 n z yet skilful en\gh to calculate ! advantages t ?ree ?\s& cr[ns c\ld pur*ase4 ,b ,i c\ld see joy sp>kle 9 8 eyes1 z ,i ann\nc$ my int5tion ( bidd+ adieu to retirem5t1 & tak+ up my re/ 9 ! capital ( ! di/rict4 ,8 ve9s swell$ ) ! blood ( 8 ance/ors2 8 m9d 0 inur$ to ! contemplation ( _! pr[ess4 ,already sixte5 ye>s ( age1 he _h secretly burn$ to g =? into ! _w1 to behold ! mann]s ( 8 species1 & to e/abli% = himself a claim to "s rank 9 _! e/imation4 ,he _h p9$ 9 ?\ght at ! m$iocrity ( our circum/ances1 & ! app>5t impossibility ( em]g+2 = he reg>d$ ! duty ( contribut+ 8 lab\r to ! subsi/5ce ( ! family1 z ! fir/ ( all obligations2 & ! m ! b5t ( 8 _s /ruggl$ aga9/ x1 ! m resolutely he set himself to comply4 ,! re/ ( ! family 7 no soon] retir$1 ?an ,m>gu]ite1 f9d+ 9 :at ,i _h j ann\nc$ to all1 an occasion f ! use ( :i* %e c\ld n excuse h]self1 took ?is opportunity ( unbur!n+ ! grief :i* _h long be5 accumulat+ 9 h] m9d4 8,/4 ,leon10 said %e1 8li/5 k9dly to :at ,i am go+ to say to y1 & assure y\rself t ,i am actuat$ by no sple51 res5tm5t1 or ill-hum\r1 b by ! true/ affection4 ,i p]ceive ,i h lo/1 9 y\r appreh5sion1 ! "r ( advis+ y4 ,i am no long] ! p>tn] ( y\r c\nsels2 ,i am no long] ! confid5t ( y\r ?\ghts4 ,y communicate no?+ b :at y _c suppress2 & t y communicate to y\r :ole family assembl$4 ,heav5 kn[s h[ de> to me is e individual ( t family6 b my love = !m does n hide f me :at is due to myself4 ,i "k t a husb&1 :o felt z a husb& ought1 &1 give me leave to say1 z ,i h des]v$ y %\ld feel t[>ds me1 c\ld n act z y h act$ to-night4 8,y mu/ excuse my rem9d+ y ( "s ?+s :i* y seem to h =gott54 ,i w\ld n m5tion !m1 if !y _h n be5 =gott5 :5 !y ought to h be5 rememb]$4 ,i h liv$ sev5te5 ye>s ) y2 my :ole /udy _h be5 y\r advantage & pleasure4 ,h y any ?+ to reproa* me )8 ,po9t out to me1 if 9 any ?+ ,i c\ld h add$ to y\r pleasure1 & h neglect$ x6 ,:at ,i h done1 has n be5 ! c]emoni\s dis*>ge ( a duty2 x has be5 ! pure emanation ( an atta*m5t t knew no b\nds4 ,i h pass$ ) y ?r\gh good =tune & ill =tune4 ,:5 we 7 ri*1 ,i ent]$ ) my :ole he>t into y\r pleasures1 because !y 7 y\rs4 ,:5 we 7 poor1 ,i endur$ e h>d%ip )\t a murmur2 ,i wat*$ by y1 ,i consol$ y1 ,i reconcil$ y to y\rself4 ,i d n mean to make a m]it ( all ?is3 no6 ,reg9ald6 ,i c\ld n h act$ o!rwise if ,i w\ld4 8,d me ! ju/ice to recollect1 t ,i h n be5 a compla9+ or irritable companion4 ,9 all our adv]sities1 9 ! loss ( =tune1 & ! bitt] consequ5ces ( t loss1 ,i nev] utt]$ a reproa*ful ^w4 ,:at pov]ty1 sorr[1 hung] & fam9e nev] extort$ f me1 y h at l5g? wrung f my ble$+ he>t4 ,/4 ,leon6 ,i h kn[n y\r bosom-?\ghts4 ,9 no =m] in/ance has y\r affection or y\r confid5ce be5 ali5at$ f me2 & t consol$ me = all ! re/4 ,b n[1 = ?ree mon?s1 ! case has be5 entirely alt]$4 ,y h dur+ all t "t be5 busy1 p5sive1 & agitat$2 b ,i h be5 z mu* a /rang] to y\r m$itations z if ,i _h nev] be5 accu/om$ to be _! depository4 ,y h n scrupl$ to inflict a w\nd ^u me t no subsequ5t *ange w ev] be able to cicatrise4 ,nor inde$ d ,i see any likelihood ( a *ange4 ,y ann\nce our removal to ,con/ance2 :at we are to d next1 ) :at views1 or = :at purpose1 ,i am ignorant4 8,i h made my election4 ,my he>t is =m$ = affection1 & mu/ always feel an uneasy void & desolation )\t x4 ,if y _h ?us robb$ me ( y\r atta*m5t 9 an e>ly p]iod ( our int]c\rse1 ,i "k n ^u :at extremity my disappo9tm5t & angui% might h driv5 me4 ,!y are h>d] to be> n[2 b ,i submit4 ,x is too late ei!r = relief or rem$y4 ,:at rema9s ( my p[]s & my /r5g? ,i owe to my *ildr54 ,i w n s$uce !m f _! fa!r4 ,!y may be b5efit$ by 8 purse or 8 und]/&+1 ?\gh1 l me1 !y %\ld be depriv$ ( 8 affection4 ,y may be _! fri5d :5 ,i am no m4 ,i feel t ?is w n la/ long4 ,i feel t ! ma9 l9k t b\nd me to exi/5ce _c be snapp$1 & ?us snapp$ by unk9dness worse ?an dea?1 )\t promis+ soon to put a p]iod to my mis]ies4 ,i %all be y\r victim 9 dea?1 aft] hav+ devot$ my life to y1 9 a way 9 :i* few wom5 7 ev] devot$ to _! husb&s4 8,b ?is is n :at ,i purpos$ *iefly to say4 ,?is is :at my situation & my feel+s h unwill+ly wrung f me4 ,?\gh y h injur$ me 9 ! t5d]e/ po9t1 ,i /ill recollect :at y 7 to me4 ,i /ill feel deeply int]e/$ 9 y\r welf>e1 & ! fair fame y are to transmit to y\r *ildr54 ,i entreat y !n to reflect deeply1 be=e y proce$ fur!r4 ,y seem to me to /& ^u a precipice2 nor d ! alt]ation t has tak5 place 9 y\r mann]s1 & ! revolution ( y\r he>t1 lead me to augur fav\rably ( ! plans y h =m$4 ,:at is ?is /rang]8 ,:5ce came he8 ,:y did he hide himself1 & :y 0 he pursu$ by ! (fic]s ( ju/ice8 ,_h he no relations8 ,0 8 beque/ ( ! sum he _h ab\t him 8 own act1 & :o is ! witness to its delib]at5ess or its fre$om8 ,y mu/ n ?9k t ! _w is inatt5tive to ! actions ( m5 or _! circum/ances2 if x 71 ! fame we prize w\ld be an empty bauble4 ,no1 sir1 a fair fame c only be secur$ by unequivocal proce$+s4 ,:at w1 :at c1 be ?\ght ( y\r giv+ %elt] to an unkn[n1 a man accus$ ( crimes1 a man nev] beheld ev5 by an individual ( y\r own family1 & ^u ! /r5g? ( ^: alleg$ beque/ y are ab\t to *ange ! :ole mode ( y\r life8 8,nor1 ,reg9ald1 mu/ y ?9k me cr$ul\s en\gh to imag9e t y h n[ disclos$ ! :ole or ! precise tru?4 ,?ree ?\s& cr[ns is n a sum suffici5t to acc\nt = :at y propose1 = ! long agitation ( y\r ?\ghts1 or = ! *ange ( "* y h su/a9$4 ,y mu/ ei!r be totally depriv$ ( rational judgm5t1 or !re mu/ be some?+ beh9d1 t y h n communicat$4 ,:at d y purpose 9 go+ to reside 9 ! mid/ ( a city =eign to ! mann]s ( a ,fr5*man1 di/ract$ ) int]nal broils1 & embitt]$ to u by ! recollection ( ! extremities we p]sonally suff]$ 9 x8 ,is y\r ambition sunk s l[1 t x c be gratifi$ by su* a transition8 ,no2 y mean m ?an y h ann\nc$2 y mean some?+ y are unwill+ to decl>e4 ,consid] t mean+ well6 ,put me out ( ! "q6 ,i am no?+1 & no long] desire to be any ?+4 ,b d n involve y\rself 9 indelible disgrace1 or entail ^u y\r memory ! curses ( y\r *ildr560 ,:at a di/ress 0 m9e1 :o1 9 return to s g5]\s & noble an expo/ulation1 c\ld imp>t no confid5ce1 & indulge no s9c]ity6 ,i felt a mis]y1 ( :i*1 till ?is h\r1 ,i _h be5 unable to =m a conception4 ,fool t ,i 01 ,i _h imag9$ t1 :5 end[$ ) ! beque/s ( ! /rang]1 no fur!r evil c\ld approa* me6 ,i _h1 9 my vision>y mood1 creat$ ca/les & palaces1 & expatiat$ 9 ! mo/ di/ant futurity6 & "h ,i 01 /opp$ & disappo9t$ at ! ?re%old1 9 ! v fir/ /ep ( my proce$+s4 ,:at ,i c\ld h[ev] ,i did2 ,i p\r$ =? to ,m>gu]ite1 n ! secrets ( my und]/&+1 b ! ov]p[]+ emotions ( my s\l4 8,be/1 mo/ adorable ( wom560 cri$ ,i1 8h[ y r5d my he>t ) ! nobl5ess ( y\r remon/rances6 ,nev] 0 man bless$ ) a p>tn] s accompli%$ & exempl>y z ,i h be56 ,d y ?9k y\r m]its c ev] be oblit]at$ f my memory8 ,d y ?9k ! feel+s ( gratitude & admiration c ev] be weak5$ 9 my bosom1 or t ! /r5g? & s+l5ess ( my atta*m5t c suff] decay8 ,be> me witness1 ,heav56 ,i "k no creature on ! face ( ! e>? t c ent] into competition ) y2 !re is n ! ?+ 9 nature t ,i prize 9 comp>ison4 ,i love y a ?\s& times bett] ?an myself1 & w\ld die ) joy to pur*ase y\r ease & satisfaction4 ,i c nev] repay ! b5efits y h conf]r$ on me2 ,i c nev] rise to an equality ) y4 8,:at angui% !n d y inflict ^u me1 :5 y talk ( becom+ ! victim ( my unk9dness8 ,believe y ,i c endure1 aft] hav+ dissipat$ y\r patrimony & drawn y ) me into exile1 aft] hav+ exp]i5c$ f y a t5d]ness su* z man nev] 9 any o!r in/ance obta9$ f woman1 to ent]ta9 ! idea ( embitt]+ ! rema9d] ( y\r life1 & %ort5+ y\r exi/5ce8 ,i %\ld reg>d myself z ! mo/ execrable ( mon/]s4 ,i c\ld n live "u ! recollection ( s unhe>d-( a guilt4 ,if y w\ld n h me abhor myself & curse exi/5ce1 live1 confide 9 me1 & be happy6 8,oh1 ,m>gu]ite6 h[ wret*$ & pitiable is my situation6 ,make "s all[ance = me6 ,i h a secret t ,i w\ld give worlds to utt]1 b d>e n4 ,d n imag9e t !re is1 or c be1 any decay 9 my affection6 ,confide 9 me6 ,all[ to necessity1 :at nev]1 nev] c\ld be ! result ( *oice6 ,9 all ?+s else1 y %all "k my inmo/ he>t1 z y possess ! b\ndless & unalt]able affections ( my s\l40 ,m>gu]ite 0 some:at1 b n :olly1 soo!d by ! e>ne/ness ( my prote/ations4 ,%e saw1 = ! presci5ce ( ! he>t is nev] deceiv$1 t a bl[ 0 giv5 to ! entir5ess ( our affection1 f :i* x w\ld nev] recov]4 ,%e felt1 = 9 tru? & delicacy ( s5tim5t %e 0 mu* my sup]ior1 t ! res]ve1 9 :i* ,i p]si/$1 & = :i* ,i deprecat$ excuse1 might be suffici5tly consi/5t ) a vulg> atta*m5t1 b w\ld totally *ange ! nature ( ours4 ,%e 0 aw>e t x relat$ to no ord9>y po9t1 t x =m$ ! pole-/> ( my conduct1 t x mu/ pres5t itself afre% f day to day1 & t 9 its op]ation x am\nt$ to a divorce ( ! he>t4 ,%e submitt$ h[ev]1 & endeav\r$ to appe> *e]ful4 ,?\gh %e felt ! worm ( sorr[ gnaw+ h] vitals1 %e 0 unwill+ to occasion me an uneas9ess x 0 9 h] p[] to )hold4 ,%e 0 /ruck ) ! consi/5cy & det]m9ation ( my resi/ance1 & expo/ulat$ no m4 ,we w5t to ,con/ance4 ,we bade adieu to ! sc5e ( a six ye>s' happ9ess1 su* z ! e>? has seldom witness$4 ,i alone _h occasion$ "s imp]fection 9 t happ9ess4 ,!re 7 times inde$ :51 sitt+ 9 affectionate communion ) my wife1 & surr\nd$ by my *ildr51 my s5sations _h be5 z delici\s z ! /ate ( human exi/5ce ev] _h to boa/4 ,i felt my he>t exp&2 ,i 0 consci\s to ! unres]v$ union t subsi/$ among u2 ,i felt myself id5tifi$ ) all t ,i lov$1 & all = :om my he>t 0 anxi\s4 ,b ! curse entail$ ^u me f ! e>lie/ p]iod to :i* my memory c rea*1 op]at$ ev5 9 ! cottage ( ! lake4 ,i 0 n =m$ to enjoy a sc5e ( pa/oral simplicity4 ,ambition /ill haunt$ me2 an uneas9ess1 sc>cely def9$ 9 its object1 f "t to "t recurr$ to my m9d4 ,if ,i ?\ght ,i want$ no?+ = myself1 ,i deem$ a c>e] ( hon\r due to my *ildr54 ,aga91 :5 ,i reg>d$ hon\r z an empty phantom1 & p]suad$ myself t all conditions ( life 7 intr9sically equal1 ,i recollect$ ! fe>ful sc5e :]e hung] & de/ruction _h hung ov] u 9 ,con/ance1 & 9 imag9ation (t5 pictur$ to myself t sc5e z on ! po9t ( be+ r5ew$4 ,! sword ( ! demon1 fam9e1 seem$ to my di/urb$ appreh5sion to be susp5d$ ov] u by a hair4 ,su* _h be5 ! draught ( bitt]ness t occasionally detract$ f ?is mo/ enviable1 z 9 retrospect ,i am will+ to d5om9ate x1 p]iod ( my exi/5ce4 ,we quitt$ our rural retreat1 & took up our abode 9 a prosp]\s m]cantile city4 ,i hir$ commodi\s ap>tm5ts 9 "o ( ! gr& squ>es1 n f> f ! spot :]e ! fairs are usually held4 ,und\bt$ly !re 0 no?+ 9 ?is resid5ce v cong5ial to ! b5t ( my disposition1 or ! projects t f]m5t$ 9 my m9d4 ,i _h m]ely *os5 x by way ( int]val1 & to s(t5 ! transition f :at ,i _h be51 to :at ,i purpos$ to be4 ,9 ! multitude ( irresolute ?\ghts ) :i* ,i lab\r$1 ! small di/ance ( ,con/ance f ! cottage ( ! lake1 made me feel z if ! removal ?i!r 0 "o ( ! g5tle/ & mo/ mod]ate measures to :i* ,i c\ld h rec\rse4 ,i _h nev] be5 less happy & at peace ) myself ?an ,i 0 n[4 ,f g5]al society & ! ord9>y int]c\rse ( acqua9tance ,i _h long be5 e/rang$1 & x 0 9 va9 t ,i endeav\r$ to return to habits ( t sort4 ,! society :i* ! city ( ,con/ance af=d$ _h few *>ms = me4 ,x _h no pret5sions to ! polit5ess1 ! elegance1 ! le>n+ or ! g5ius1 an int]c\rse ) :i* _h once be5 famili> to me4 ,x sc>cely conta9$ )9 its walls any b su* z 7 occupi$ 9 m]*&ise or manufacture4 ,! att5tion ( its inhabitants 7 divid$ betwe5 ^! objects1 & ! encroa*m5ts :i* 7 mak+ ^u ! anci5t religion by ! ,confession ( ,augsburg & ! dogmas ( ,calv94 ,! majority ( ! inhabitants 7 prote/ants2 &1 a few ye>s be=e1 !y _h expell$ _! bi%op & ! canons ( _! ca!dral4 ,hav+ h[ev] misc>ri$ 9 a religi\s w> into :i* !y _h ent]$1 ^! dignit>ies _h be5 re9/all$ 9 _! functions & emolum5ts4 ,! situation ?us produc$ 0 an unnatural "o2 & a /orm 0 evid5tly brew+ m viol5t ?an any :i* ! city _h yet su/a9$4 ,! gloomy temp] & melan*oly au/]ity ( ! re=m]s 7 z little cong5ial to my temp]1 z ! sordid ignorance & selfi%ness ( ! trad+ _s ( ! community4 ,i !re=e liv$ 9 a /ate ( seclusion4 ,i endeav\r$ to seek amusem5t 9 su* novelties & occupations z might pres5t !mselves to a p]son dis5gag$ f ! g5]al vortex4 ,b1 if ! di/+ui%$ sph]e 9 :i* ,i _h once mov$ disqualifi$ me = tak+ an int]e/ 9 ^! pu]ilities1 ! anticipations 9 :i* ,i indulg$ ( ! future disqualifi$ me /ill m4 ,my dome/ic sc5e too no long] af=d$ me ! consolation & relief ,i _h be5 accu/om$ to d]ive f x4 ,m>gu]ite ex]t$ h]self to appe> *e]ful & cont5t$2 b x 0 an ex]tion4 ,i began to fe> t ! arr[ ( disappo9tm5t _h inde$ /ruck h] to ! he>t4 ,i 0 anxi\sly occupi$ 9 consid]+ :at ,i 0 to d next4 ,i hop$ t our next /ep might op]ate to revive h] gaiety1 & by additional spl5d\r amuse h] solicitude4 ,i began to fe> t ,i _h tak5 a wrong me?od1 & ent]$ ! c>e] ( a bett] =tune ) too mu* caution & timidity4 ,at all ev5ts ,i felt t we no long] liv$ toge!r z we _h done4 ,!re 0 no m op5+ ( ! he>t betwe5 u1 no m infant9e guilelessness & s9c]ity1 no m ( t unappreh5sive exposure ( e ?\ght ( ! s\l1 t adds ! pure/ ze/ to ! pleasures ( dome/ic life4 ,we /ood 9 awe ( ea* o!r2 ea* 0 to ! o!r 9 "s degree an intrusive & unwelcome spy ^u :at 0 secretly pass+ 9 ! m9d4 ,!re may be p]sons :o reg>d ?is z an evil v capable ( be+ endur$2 b !y mu/ be su* z nev] knew ! dome/ic joys ,i once exp]i5c$4 ,! fall f "o ( ^! conditions ( life to ! o!r 0 too bitt]4 ,,*apt] ,,xvi4 ,anxi\s to div]t my ?\ghts f :at ,i hop$ 0 only a tempor>y evil1 ,i det]m9$1 accompani$ by ,*>les1 to make a t\r ( "s ( ! cities ( ,g]many4 ,dresd5 0 ! capital to :i* ,i 0 mo/ desir\s ( conduct+ him4 ,maurice1 duke ( ,saxony1 :o held 8 c\rt !re1 & :o 0 n[ only tw5ty-?ree ye>s ( age1 0 incomp>ably ! mo/ accompli%$ pr9ce ( ! empire4 ,desir\s z ,i 0 t my only son %\ld fill a di/+ui%$ c>e]1 ,i ?\ght ,i c\ld n bett] prep>e him = ! !atre ( 8 native c\ntry1 ?an by ?us initiat+ him be=eh& 9 sc5es ( di/9ction & greatness4 ,he 0 delight$ ) 8 t\r4 ,we _h n proce$$ _m leagues f ,con/ance1 be=e1 indulg+ 9 ! b5t ( my m9d1 ,i laid aside ! humbl5ess ( our appe>ance1 & ! obscure /yle 9 :i* we travell$2 & hav+ procur$ a num]\s cavalcade ( horses & s]vants1 ,i set =w>d ) consid]able magnific5ce4 ,we pass$ ?r\gh ,muni*1 ,ratisbon1 & ,prague4 ,at ,muni* we f\nd ! c\rt ( ! elector palat9e2 ! diet ( ! empire 0 sitt+ at ,ratisbon1 :5 we arriv$ at t city4 ,*>les _h be5 almo/ entirely a /rang] to e ?+ pr9cely & magnific5t f ! "t he 0 n9e ye>s ( age2 & he 0 n[ exactly at t p]iod ( human life :5 ext]nal appe>ances are apt to make ! /ronge/ impression4 ,to him e ?+ t occurr$ seem$ l transportation into a new _w4 ,! figure we made procur$ u1 z /rang]s1 unque/ion$ admission into e circle4 ,we mix$ ) pr9ces1 ourselves 9 g>b & figure conf\nd$ ) ^? we saw4 ,i _h liv$ too mu* & too long 9 ! mo/ spl5did society1 to f9d difficulty 9 resum+ ! unemb>rass$ & c\rtly mann]s :i* ,i _h = ye>s laid aside2 & ,*>les might be said to see 8 fa!r 9 a new "*4 ,novelty prompt$ 8 admiration2 he 0 intoxicat$ ) wond]4 ,8 disposition _h always l$ him to bold & adv5tur\s conceptions2 no?+ less ?an an imp]i\s s5se ( duty c\ld h re/ra9$ him f quitt+ our cottage1 & ca/+ himself ^u ! _w 9 se>* ( hon\r & di/9ction4 ,8 g5]\s he>t _h beat to bur/ away f ! obscurity ( 8 /ation2 & x 0 ) impati5ce & discont5t t he look$ =w>d to ! life ( a swa94 ,yet he knew n h[ to break ?r\gh ! ob/acles t conf9$ him4 ,x 0 !re=e ) transports ( pleasure t he saw !m vani%+ z ( !mselves1 & ! c>e] ( glory op5+1 z if by en*antm5t1 to 8 eag] /eps4 ,! c\rt ( ,dresd5 0 inf9itely m delightful to him ?an ! c\rt ( ,muni*1 or ! imp]ial display at ,ratisbon4 ,"h ,*>les saw a "y pr9ce 9 ! fl[] ( 8 age1 ^: tal5ts & _s r5d]$ him ! univ]sal object ( att5tion & adoration4 ,he rem>k$1 9 ! fire ( 8 eyes1 ! vivacity ( 8 ge/ures1 & ! gr&eur ( 8 port1 some?+ inexpressibly diff]5t f ^? pr9ces1 ( :om x is necess>y t _! rank %\ld be ann\nc$ to y by "s extr9sic circum/ance1 t y may n mi/ake !m = a m]*ant's cl]k or a city magi/rate4 ,! s5tim5t t he brea!d1 z x 7 in/9ctively1 z we return$ f ! fir/ "t ( our see+ duke ,maurice1 01 8,at tw5ty-?ree ye>s ( age may ,i1 9 appe>ance1 accompli%m5ts1 & _s1 resemble ?is man60 ,"h ,i 0 desir\s ( mak+ a long] /ay ?an at ! cities ?r\gh :i* we _h previ\sly pass$1 & ( procur+ = my son "s p]sonal int]c\rse ) ?is great ornam5t ( ! age4 ,i judg$ ?is to be ! m easy1 z1 9 our fir/ visit to ! palace1 ,i _h p]ceiv$ "s ,fr5* noblem5 ( ! ,prote/ant p]suasion1 :o _h resort$ to ! duke's c\rt 9 se>* ( employm5t4 ,!y appe>$ n to "k me2 b t 0 little to be wond]$ at1 consid]+ t ,i _h be5 sev5 ye>s abs5t f my c\ntry1 & t ! calamities by :i* ,i _h be5 ov]tak5 m ?an once dur+ t p]iod1 might be suppos$ to h produc$ a great] effect ^u me ?an ! m]e lapse ( ye>s w\ld h done4 ,among ! re/ ,i rem>k$ ,gasp> de ,coligny1 :o 0 only tw5ty-"o ye>s ( age at ! "t ,i quitt$ ,france1 & _h !n be5 rem>k$ z "o ( ! mo/ promis+ "y m5 8 c\ntry _h to boa/4 ,8 /ay "h 0 expect$ to be %ort2 8 hopes 9 8 own c\ntry1 f ! greatness ( 8 connections1 7 ( ! highe/ class2 & he _h only come to ,dresd5 at ! e>ne/ invitation ( duke ,maurice1 :o ent]ta9$ an ard5t affection = him4 ,my he>t l$ me t[>ds him2 policy concurr$ 9 dictat+ ! application1 z1 if ,i 7 =tunate en\gh to ga9 8 fav\r1 my son c\ld n h a fri5d bett] qualifi$ ei!r to =m 8 "* or =w>d 8 advancem5t4 ,i wrote to ,coligny to ann\nce my reque/ to him1 & 9 a few h\rs aft] ! deliv]y ( my lett] t "y nobleman came 9 p]son to wait on me4 ,he in=m$ me t he _h done s1 because he _h some?+ ( delicacy to m5tion1 :i* he did n *oose to tru/ to ! int]mission ( a ?ird p]son1 & ^u :i*1 z he hop$ ,i c\ld remove 8 scruple1 he did n l ev5 to be/[ ! =mality ( putt+ x on pap]4 8,i am a g5tleman ( ,france10 said ,coligny2 8y w excuse my frankness4 ,i am a g5tleman ( ,france2 y w n wond] at ! nic5ess ( my hon\r4 ,mix+ 9 society1 ,i d n pret5d m9utely to inve/igate ! "* ( e p]son ) :om ,i conv]se2 b :at y ask ( me obliges me to consult my und]/&+1 & enquire into facts4 ,i _c cons5t to v\* = any man's "* to ano!r1 till ,i h paid "s att5tion to ! gr\nd ^u :i* t "* re/s4 8,i rememb] ! c\nt de ,/4 ,leon ) pleasure & advantage at ! c\rt ( my own sov]eign4 ,e "o admir$ 8 accompli%m5ts1 8 gallantry1 & 8 le>n+2 e "o spoke ( him ) respect4 ,un=tunate circum/ances1 z we all und]/ood1 depriv$ y ( y\r patrimony2 t is no?+ to me2 ,i respect a nobleman 9 mis=tune1 z mu* z :5 he is surr\nd$ ) weal? & spl5d\r4 ,y retir$ into volunt>y exile2 ,i he>d1 ) great grief1 ( "s subsequ5t calamities t h ov]tak5 y4 ,b1 "h 9 ,saxony1 ,i see y resum+ all y\r =m] spl5d\r1 & com+ =w>d ) ! magnific5ce ( a pr9ce4 ,o!r ( y\r c\ntrym5 h rem>k$ x1 z well z myself1 & feel !mselves at a loss to acc\nt = :at !y see4 8,excuse me1 c\nt6 by y\r application to me1 y oblige me to speak freely4 ,i d>e say y c cle> up ! difficulty1 & acc\nt = ?is second revolution 9 y\r =tune1 ^u :i* ,i %all !n be ! fir/ to congratulate y4 ,i _c suspect a man1 ) y\r high desc5t & ! illu/ri\s "* y =m]ly ma9ta9$1 ( any ?+ di%on\rable4 ,b y h n suffici5tly consid]$ ! acc\nt we all owe to "o ano!r1 & ! cle>ness ( proce$+ we are oblig$ to ma9ta91 n only to our own he>ts1 b 9 ! face ( ! _w4 ,! pres5t occasion is1 ,i tru/1 =tunate = y2 &1 :5 y h assi/$ me 9 comply+ ) ! rules by :i* e hon\rable man gov]ns himself1 ,i %all be eag] to publi% y\r ju/ification1 & r5d] y all ! s]vice 9 my p[]40 ,i 0 ready to bur/ ) a/oni%m5t & vexation dur+ ?is repres5tation ( ,coligny4 ,i c\ld feel my col\r *ange f pale to r$1 & f r$ to pale4 ,i c\ld only answ] ) suffocation & inw>d rage1 t ,i 0 mu* oblig$ to him2 ,i w\ld consid] :at he said2 ,i w\ld acqua9t him ) my ju/ification2 &1 :5ev] x 0 made1 he might be assur$ x %\ld be an ample "o4--,i 0 cauti\s z to :at ,i utt]$2 ,i c\ld n imm$iately =esee :at x 0 eligible1 or :at x 0 possible1 to d2 & ,i 0 resolv$ t ,i w\ld n1 by an idle or ha/y expression1 preclude myself1 9 a matt] ( s mu* mom5t1 f ! b5efits ( future delib]ation4 ,if :at ,i _h j he>d _h come f any o!r p]son1 ,i %\ld probably h despis$ x2 b ,i felt at once t ,gasp> de ,coligny might be consid]$1 9 a case ( ?is sort1 z ! repres5tative ( all t 0 mo/ hon\rable & illu/ri\s 9 my native c\ntry4--,f9d+ t ,i 0 indispos$ to any fur!r communication on ! subject1 he took a polite leave1 & dep>t$4 ,i 0 no soon] alone ?an ,i felt myself ov]:elm$ ) mortification & %ame4 ,i _h rejoic$ 9 ! beque/s ( ! /rang]1 because ,i reg>d$ !m z ! means ( re/or+ me to spl5d\r1 & replac+ my *ildr5 9 ! situation to :i* !y 7 entitl$ by _! bir?4 ,0 t :i* ,i _h reg>d$ z ! in/rum5t ( _! glory1 to become ! m$ium ( _! ignom9y & disgrace8 ,i _h suff]$ all o!r mis=tunes1 b ! :isp] ( di%on\r _h nev] be5 brea!d aga9/ me4 ,i 0 a son ( hon\r1 desc5d$ ( a race ( h]oes1 & cradl$ 9 ! lap ( glory & fame4 ,:5 we quitt$ ,p>is 9 ! ye> #aecg1 my incomp>able wife _h set to sale our entire prop]ty1 resolv$ t1 ?\gh driv5 into exile1 we w\ld n leave x 9 ! p[] ( ! meane/ individual to controv]t ! sacr$ att5tion we yield$ to e j obligation4 ,s9ce t "t ,i _h decl9$ f ! spl5d\r ( rank to ! humble situation ( a ru/ic1 cultivat+ my little prop]ty ) my own h&s2 nay1 ,i _h ev51 = a %ort "t1 hir$ myself z a lab\r] 9 ! g>d5 ( ! bi%op ( ,con/ance4 ,b ! same disda9 ( e ?+ disgraceful _h foll[$ me to my cottage & my truckle b$1 :i* ,i _h orig9ally le>n$ 9 ! halls ( *ivalry & ! ca/le ( my ance/ors4 ,accord+ly ,i _h uni=mly reta9$ ! same hon\rable "* & spotless fame4 ,/4 ,leon1 ! virtu\s cottag]1 _h 9 no?+ blemi%$ ! "n ( ,/4 ,leon1 surr\nd$ ) glory 9 ! siege ( ,pavia4 ,(t51 & ) pride1 _h ,i po9t$ out ?is circum/ance to my son1 add+1 ,:]ev] =tune calls y1 = :atev] sc5es y may be res]v$1 rememb] t y\r fa!r 0 un=tunate1 b t ?r\gh life he nev] act$ a de$ nor conceiv$ a ?\ght1 t %\ld /a9 y\r manly *eeks ) ! blu% ( %ame6 ,i /& be=e y a culprit1 z hav+ robb$ y ( y\r patrimony1 b ,i h pres]v$ = y entire ! inh]itance ( our hon\r6 ,?is _h be5 ! fir/ lesson impr9t$ ^u my infant m9d4 ,all o!r possessions ,i _h ev] held *eap & wor?less 9 comp>ison ) t ( an illu/ri\s "n4 ,my indignation at ! attack x n[ su/a9$ 0 b\ndless4 ,! m ,i ?\ght1 ! m intol]able x appe>$4 ,i 0 impati5t & furi\s1 l a lion /ruggl+ 9 ! toils4 ,i c\ld ) joy h trampl$ "u my feet :oev] asp]s$ me4 ,i c\ld h wanton$ 9 blood1 & defi$ my adv]s>ies to mortal combat4 ,alas1 all my fury 0 useless "h6 ,x 0 no tale :isp]$ 9 ! d>k t ,i _h to cont5d )2 x 0 ! comm5t>y ( ! _w ^u inconte/able facts4 ,?\gh a hecatomb ( s\ls %\ld be sacrific$ at ! %r9e ( my bla/$ "n1 ! facts w\ld /ill rema91 ! my/]y /ill require to be solv$4 ,coligny1 ! virtu\s ,coligny1 _h made no obs]vations on ! circum/ances he m5tion$2 he m]ely propos$ a difficulty1 & wait$ my answ]4 ,i 0 call$ ^u to ex]cise ! :ole ( my delib]ative p[]s z to ! reply :i* 0 to be return$1 or ! conduct to be held1 ^u ! "q ( ,coligny4 ,e ?+ ,i mo/ valu$ 0 n[ at issue2 & a false /ep tak5 "u ! pres5t circum/ances c\ld nev] be retriev$4 ,i _h ano!r sort ( p>ty to deal ) "h1 ?an :5 ,i _h told ,m>gu]ite ! tale ( ! /rang] & 8 legacy4 ,no?+ w\ld pass n[1 b :at bore an op51 fair1 & unequivocal appe>ance4 ,i mu/ v5t no ass]tion t c\ld n be> to be sift$ to ! bottom1 & t did n fully accord ) all ! v\*]s ) :i* x c\ld be collat$4 ,i _h writt5 to ,m>gu]ite1 imm$iately aft] laun*+ into ! exp5se ) :i* our t\r _h be5 att5d$1 t ,i _h receiv$ an unexpect$ acquisition f ! dea? ( a relation ( my own family 9 ,france4 ,i knew t ! /ory ( ! ?ree ?\s& cr[ns w\ld no long] acc\nt = ! /yle 9 :i* ,i 0 proce$+1 & ?is fabrication sugge/$ itself ^u ! spur ( ! mom5t4 ,i hat$ to ?9k ( ! difficulties 9 ! way ( explanation 9 :i* ,i 0 involv$2 ,i abhorr$ ! sy/em ( falsehood ,i 0 driv5 to practise4 ,x did n occur to me at ! "t1 infatuat$ z ,i 06 t ,i %\ld h occasion to acc\nt = ?is accession ( weal? to any "o out ( my own family4 ,m>gu]ite1 ,i well knew1 _h no correspond5ce 9 ,france1 nor !re=e any obvi\s means ( v]ify+ or refut+ ?is second deception4 ,b su* a /ory c\ld n be told to noblem5 ( ,france1 )\t be+ in/antly liable to be comp>$ ) kn[n facts1 & ev5tually inve/igat$ ^u ! spot :]e ! sc5e 0 laid4 ,m>gu]ite h]self1 ,i well knew1 _h li/5$ ) incr$ulity to ! explanation ,i _h made1 & ! alleg$ legacy ( ! /rang]2 :at c\ld ,i expect f indiff]5t he>]s8 ,!y might n all possess h] good s5se & sagacity 9 judg+2 b !y 7 de/itute ( t p]sonal k9dness & p>tiality :i* 7 calculat$ to induce h] to cr$it :atev] ,i affirm$4 ,mo/ m5 h a malignant pleasure 9 ! detection ( speci\s pret5ces1 9 humbl+ ! importunate sup]iority t obscures _! claims1 & remov+ ! rival :o might o!rwise acquire ! prize ( :i* !y are 9 pursuit4 ,my m9d 0 /ill torn & di/ract$ ) ^! contemplations1 :5 9 ! aft]noon ( ! same day on :i* ,i _h receiv$ ! visit ( ,coligny1 my att5tion 0 sudd5ly r\s$ by ! abrupt entrance ( my son into ! *amb] :]e ,i 0 sitt+4 ,he op5$ ! door ) a hurri$ action z he ent]$1 &1 hav+ clos$ x impetu\sly aft] him1 advanc$ directly t[>ds me4 ,he !n /opp$ himself2 &1 turn+ f me1 ,i c\ld p]ceive a ru% ( crimson 9 8 face l t ( a man suffocat$4 ,a passion ( te>s succe$$ t %ook 8 frame1 & suffici5tly prov$ t 8 feel+s _h su/a9$ "s extraord9>y %ock4 ,my :ole s\l 0 al>m$ at :at ,i saw2 &1 foll[+ him z he retir$ to ! o!r side ( ! room1 9 ! g5tle/ acc5ts ,i endeav\r$ to soo! him1 :ile ,i enquir$ ) e>ne/ness & trepidation into ! cause ( 8 grief4 ,,*apt] ,,xvii4 ,he repell$ me4 8,sit d[n1 sir1 sit d[n6 ,d n foll[ me1 ,i beg ( y2 b sit d[n60 ,8 mann] 0 e>ne/ & emphatical4 ,me*anically & )\t kn[+ :at ,i did1 ,i obey$ 8 direction4 ,he came t[>ds me4 8,i h no "t10 add$ he1 8= qualify+ & =m4 ,tell me6 am ,i ! son ( a man ( hon\r or a villa980 ,he saw ,i 0 %ock$ at ! unexpect$ rud5ess ( 8 "q4 8,=give me1 my fa!r6 ,i h always be5 affectionate & dutiful2 ,i h ev] look$ up to y z my model & my oracle4 ,b ,i h be5 insult$6 ,x nev] 0 "o ( y\r lessons to tea* me to be> an insult60 8,is x10 repli$ ,i1 ) ! /]nness t ! "* ( a fa!r w seldom fail to inspire "u su* circum/ances1 8because y h be5 insult$1 t y ?9k y\rself au?oris$ to come home & insult him to :om y owe no?+ b respect & rev]5ce80 8,/op1 sir6 ,be=e y claim my rev]5ce1 y mu/ %[ y\r title to x1 & wipe (f ! asp]sions "u :i* y at pres5t lab\r40 8,insol5t1 presumptu\s boy6 ,"k t ,i am n by y to be in/ruct$ 9 my duty1 & w n answ] s rude a que/ion]6 ,! d[n z yet sc>cely %ades y\r s*ool-boy's *eek2 & h y s =gott5 ! dec5cies ( life z to sc(f y\r fa!r80--,8 eye bright5$ z ,i spoke4 8,y are "r1 sir4 ,x gives me pleasure to see y\r blood rise 9 return to my passion4 ,y\r acc5t is ! acc5t ( innoc5ce4 ,b1 inde$6 ! m innoc5t & noble y %all prove y\rself1 ! m readily w y =give my indignation40 8,i _c tell4 ,my temp] does n fit me to be> ! rud5ess ( a son4 ,nor d ,i ?9k t su* behavi\r z ?is c be any cr$it to y1 :atev] may h be5 ! provocation4 ,tell me h[ev] :at is ! insult t has ?us deeply %ak5 y80 8,i w5t ?is aft]noon to ! t5nis-c\rt ne> ! riv]1 & play$ sev]al games ) ! "y c\nt ,luitmann4 ,:ile we 7 play+1 came 9 ! *evali] ,dupont1 my c\ntryman4 ,! insol5ce ( 8 nature is a subject ( g5]al rem>k2 & he has1 ?\gh ,i "k n = :at reason1 conceiv$ a p>ticul> animosity to me4 ,a trifl+ dispute arose betwe5 u4 ,we gradually w>m$4 ,he ?reat5$ to turn me out ( ! c\rt2 ,i res5t$ ! insult2 & he passionately answ]$1 t ! son ( an adv5tur] & a %>p] _h no bus9ess !re1 & he w\ld take c>e ,i %\ld nev] be admitt$ aga94 ,i attempt$ to /rike him1 b 0 prev5t$2 & pres5tly le>n$ t ! sudd5 & unexpla9$ way 9 :i* we h em]g$ f pov]ty 0 ! gr\nd ( 8 asp]sion4 ,z ,i ga9$ "t1 & reflect$ m di/9ctly ^u :at 0 alleg$1 ,i felt t p]sonal viol5ce c\ld nev] remove an accusation ( ?is sort4 ,i saw too1 ?\gh1 intoxicat$ z ,i _h idly be5 ) ! unwont$ spl5d\r to :i* ,i 0 introduc$1 ,i _h n adv]t$ to x at ! "t1 t ! case 0 ( a nature t requir$ explanation4 ,i _h be5 accu/om$ to rev]5ce & an implicit fai? 9 ! wisdom & rectitude ( my p>5ts1 & !re=e enc\nt]$ 9 sil5t submission ! revolution ( our =tune4 ,b ?is neutrality w suffice no long]4 8,to y1 sir1 ,i resort = explanation4 ,s5d me back to ! insol5t y\? & 8 companions1 ) a pla9 & unansw]able tale1 t may put to sil5ce = ev] ^! brutal sc(fs & reproa*es4 ,let x be se5 ?is night :i* ( ! two has mo/ fully m]it$ to be ?ru/ out ( hon\rable society4 ,i tru/ ,i h n s demean$ myself b t our mutual companions w jo9 to compel ?is unmann]$ boor to retract 8 asp]sions40 8,*>les1 y are too w>m & impetu\s60-- 8,too w>m1 sir6 :5 ,i he> my fa!r load$ ) ! f\le/ appellations80 8,y are "y & ill qualifi$ to t]m9ate 9 ! prop] way a bus9ess ( ?is s]i\s aspect3 leave x to me60 8,excuse me1 my fa!r6 ,?\gh ! names ,i h repeat$ 7 be/[$ ^u y1 x 0 aga9/ me t ! insult 0 employ$4 ,i mu/ return imm$iately1 & obta9 ju/ice4 ,?is is a mom5t t mu/ 9 "s degree fix my "* = =titude & det]m9ation1 & ,i _c )draw f ! duty x imposes4 ,only tell me :at ,i h to say4 ,furni% me ) a direct & unambigu\s explanation ( :at ,dupont has object$ to u1 & ,i und]take = ! re/40 8,i see1 my son1 t y are mov$1 & ,i w tru/ y60 ,he seiz$ my h&1 he gaz$ e>ne/ly 9 my face1 he seem$ prep>$ to dev\r e ^w ,i %\ld utt]4 8,gasp> de ,coligny1 ! fl[] ( ! ,fr5* nobility1 has be5 ) me ?is morn+4 ,he has /at$ to me 9 an +5u\s & fri5dly way ! same difficulty ) :i* ,dupont has s brutally taunt$ y4 ,i 0 m$itat+ & arrang+ my answ] b n[1 :5 y ent]$ ! room40 ,z ,i utt]$ ^! words1 ,*>les let g my h&1 & )drew 8 eyes1 ) evid5t tok5s ( disappo9tm5t & *agr94 ,he paus$ = a few mom5ts1 & !n resum$3-- 8,:y d y tell me ( m$itation & arrangem5t6 ,:y did y s5d away ,coligny unansw]$1 or :y baffle & evade ! e>ne/ness ( my enquiries8 ,i "k n all ! s\rces ( weal?2 b ,i _c d\bt t ! m$ium ?r\gh :i* weal? has hon\rably fl[$ may1 )\t ef=t & prem$itation1 easily be expla9$4 ,a j & a brave man acts fe>lessly & ) explicitness2 he does n %un1 b c\rt1 ! scrut9y ( mank9d2 he lives 9 ! face ( day1 & ! :ole _w confesses ! cle>ness ( 8 _s & ! rectitude ( 8 conduct4 8,sir1 ,i h j set my foot on ! ?re%old ( life4 ,!re is "o lesson y h taught me1 :i* ,i swe> nev] to =get1--to hold life & all its pleasures *eap1 9 comp>ison ) an hon\rable fame4 ,my s\l burns ) ! love ( di/9ction4 ,i am impati5t to bur/ away f ! goal1 & comm5ce ! illu/ri\s c>e]4 ,i feel t ,i h a h& & a he>t capable ( execut+ ! purposes t my s\l conceives4 ,un9ur$ to di%on\r1 or to any ?+ t %\ld control ! passion ( my bosom1 ?9k1 sir1 :at are my emotions at :at has j occurr$6 8,i 0 br$ 9 obscurity & a humble /ation4 ,i ow$ ?is disadvantage1 y tell me1 to y\r error4 ,i =gave y2 ,i 0 cont5t2 ,i felt t x 0 incumb5t on me by my sword & my own ex]tions to hew my way to di/9ction4 ,y h s9ce ex*ang$ ! l[ness ( our situation = ri*es & spl5d\r4 ,at ?is revolution ,i felt no displeasure2 ,i 0 well satisfi$ to />t ^u m advantage\s t]ms 9 ! race ,i det]m9$ to run4 ,b1 sir1 :5ce came ^! ri*es8 ,ri*es & pov]ty are comp>atively indiff]5t to me2 b ,i 0 n born to be a m>k = %ame to po9t h] f+] at4 ,a little :ile ago y 7 poor2 y 7 ! au?or ( y\r own pov]ty2 y dissipat$ y\r pat]nal e/ate4 ,did ,i reproa* y8 ,no2 y 7 poor1 b n di%on\r$6 ,i att5d$ y\r c\* 9 sickness2 ,i ex]t$ my manual lab\r to support y 9 affliction4 ,i hon\r$ y = y\r affection to my "m2 ,i li/5$ ) transport to ! hi/ory ( y\r y\?2 ,i 0 conv9c$ ,i %\ld nev] blu% to call ,reg9ald de ,/4 ,leon my fa!r4 ,i believ$ t lessons ( hon\r1 s impressive z ^? y in/ill$ into my infant m9d1 c\ld nev] fl[ b f an hon\rable _s4 ,oh1 if !re is any ?+ equivocal or ignoble 9 ! ri*es we h display$1 re/ore me1 in/antly re/ore me1 to unblemi%$ & virtu\s pov]ty60 ,i 0 a/oni%$ at ! firmness & manl9ess ( _s t ,*>les ^u ?is occasion discov]$4 ,i c\ld sc>cely believe t ^! 7 ! ?\ghts & words ( a y\? "u sev5te5 ye>s ( age4 ,i felt t e ?+ illu/ri\s & excell5t might be augur$ ( "o :o1 at ^! immature ye>s1 manife/$ s l(ty & g5]\s a s\l4 ,i c\ld h press$ him 9 my arms1 h indulg$ my emotions 9 sobs & te>s ( transport1 & congratulat$ myself t ,i 0 fa!r to s wor?y a son4 ,b 8 temp] & mann]s aw$1 & held me at a di/ance4 ,?is 0 "o consequ5ce ( ! legacies ( ! /rang]6 8,*>les60 said ,i1 8y\r virtues extort my confid5ce4 ,= ! _w a tale mu/ be prep>$ t %all s]ve to elude its curiosity & its malice4 ,b to y ,i confess1 !re is a my/]y annex$ to ! acquisition ( ?is weal? t c nev] be expla9$40 ,he /ood agha/ at my words4 8,am ,i to believe my e>s8 ,a tale prep>$8 ,a my/]y nev] to be expla9$8 ,i adjure y by all t y love1 & all t y hold sacr$----60 ,8 voice 0 dr[n$ 9 a sudd5 gu% ( te>s4 ,) an action ( e>ne/ness & deprecation1 he took hold ( my h&4 8,no1 sir1 no artful tale1 no disguise1 no hypocrisy6----0 ,z he spoke1 8 voice sudd5ly *ang$1 8 acc5t became cle> & det]m9$4--8,w y cons5t ?is v h\r to quit ! c\rt ( ,dresd51 & to resign fully & )\t res]ve ?is accurs$ weal?1 = ! acquisition ( :i* y refuse to acc\nt80 8,:5ce10 repli$ ,i1 8h y ! insol5ce to make su* a proposal8----,no1 ,i w n60 8,!n ,i swe> by ! omnipres5t & et]nal ,god1 y %all nev] see or he> ( me m60 ,i p]ceiv$ t ?is 0 no "t = ! ass]tion ( pat]nal au?ority4 ,i saw t ! poor boy 0 /rangely & deeply mov$1 & ,i endeav\r$ to soo! him4 ,i felt t ! :ole c\rse ( 8 education _h inspir$ him ) an uncontrollable & indep5d5t _s1 & t x 0 too late to endeav\r to repress x4 8,my de> ,*>les10 said ,i1 8:at is come to y8 ,:5 ,i li/5 to a language l ?is f y\r lips1 ,i sc>cely "k y = my son4 ,?is imp]t95t ,dupont has put y q beside y\rself4 ,ano!r "t we w talk ov] ! matt] calmly2 & dep5d ^u x1 e ?+ %all be made out to y\r satisfaction40 8,d n imag9e1 sir1 t my self-possession is n p]fect & complete4 ,i "k :at ,i d1 & my resolution is unalt]able4 ,if y h any explanation to give1 give x n[4 ,if y w yield to my proposal1 decl>e y\r ass5t1 & ,i am aga9 y\r son4 ,b to be> ! insults ( my fell[s unansw]$1 or to live b5ea? ! consci\sness ( an artful & fictiti\s tale1 no consid]ation on e>? %all induce me4 ,i love y1 sir2 ,i _c =get y\r lessons or y\r virtues4 ,i love my "m & my si/]s2 no words c tell h[ de>ly & h[ mu*4 ,b my resolution is tak52 ,i sep>ate myself f y all & = ev]4 ,no?+ 9 my m9d c come 9 competition ) a life ( unblemi%$ hon\r40 8,& are y su* a novice1 z to ne$ ! be+ told t hon\r is a prize altoge!r out ( ! rea* ( an unkn[n & desolate w&]]1 su* z y propose to become8 ,my weal?1 boy1 is unlimit$1 & c buy sil5ce f ! malici\s1 & %\ts & applause f all ! _w4 ,a gold5 key unlocks ! c>e] ( glory1 :i* ! mean & ! p5nyless are nev] all[$ to ent]40 8,i am n su* a novice1 z n to h he>d ! language ( vice1 ?\gh ,i nev] expect$ to he> x f a fa!r4 ,pov]ty ) integrity %all cont5t me4 ,! re/less eag]ness ( my _s is s great1 t ,i w tru/ to its sugge/ions1 & hope to surm\nt ! ob/acles ( ext]nal appe>ance4 ,if ,i am disappo9t$ 9 ?is1 & de/9$ to p]i% unhe>d ( & unrememb]$1 at lea/ ,i w escape reproa*4 ,i w nei!r be *>g$ ) ! de$s1 nor give utt]ance to ! maxims1 ( di%on\r40 8,*>les10 repli$ ,i1 8be n ! calumniator ( y\r fa!r6 ,i swe> to y by e ?+ t is sacr$2 & y "k my integrity2 nev] did ! brea? ( falsehood pollute ^! lips2----0 ,he passionately int]rupt$ me4 8,did ! /rang] bequea? y ?ree ?\s& cr[ns8 ,h y lately receiv$ an unexpect$ acquisition by ! dea? ( a ne> relation 9 ,france80 ,i 0 sil5t4 ,?is 0 n a mom5t = trifl+ & equivocation4 8,oh1 my fa!r1 h[ is y\r "* *ang$ & subv]t$8 ,y say true4 ,= sixte5 ye>s ,i nev] he>d a brea? ( falsehood f y\r lips2 ,i tru/$ y z ,i w\ld ! oracles ( et]nal tru?4 ,b x is pa/6 ,a few %ort mon?s h pollut$ & defac$ a :ole life ( integrity6 ,9 h[ _m obscurities & fabul\s inconsi/5cies h y entangl$ y\rself8 ,nor is x ! lea/ ( ! calamities "u :i* my he>t sick5s at ?is mom5t1 t ,i am r$uc$ to hold language l ?is to a fa!r60 ,:at mis]y 0 m9e1 to he> myself ?us arraign$ by my own son1 & to be unable to utt] "o ^w 9 reply to 8 accusations6 ,to be ?us triumph$ ov] by a /ripl+2 & to feel ! mo/ cruel degradation1 9 ! manife/ation ( an excell5ce t ought to h swell$ my he>t ) gratulation & transport6 ,i _h recollect$ my habitual feel+s = ne> =ty ye>s ( exi/5ce2 ,i _h dropp$ f my memory my rec5t disgrace1 & d>$ to appeal to my ackn[l$g$ v]acity2 :5 ?is retort f my son came to plunge me t5fold deep] 9 a sea ( %ame4 ,he proce$$3-- 8,i am no long] y\r son6 ,i am compell$ to disclaim all aff9ity ) y6 ,b ?is is n all4 ,by y\r di%on\r y h cut me (f f ! :ole l9e ( my ance/ors4 ,i _c claim aff9ity ) !m1 )\t ackn[l$g+ my relation to y4 ,y h ext+ui%$ abruptly an illu/ri\s h\se4 ,! sun ( ,/4 ,leon is set = ev]6 ,/&+ z ,i d a c&idate = hon\rable fame1 ,i mu/ h5ce=? /& by myself1 z if a man c\ld be au?or ( 8 own exi/5ce1 & mu/ expect no aid1 no fav\r1 no prepossession1 f any e>?ly consid]ation1 save :at ,i am1 & :at ,i %all p]=m40 8,my son10 repli$ ,i1 8y cut me to ! he>t4 ,su* is ! virtue y display1 t ,i mu/ confess myself nev] to h be5 wor?y ( y1 & ,i beg9 to fe> ,i am n[ less wor?y ( y ?an ev]4 ,yet y mu/ suff] me to f9i% :at ,i 0 ab\t to say :5 y s passionately int]rupt$ me4 ,i swe> !n1 by e ?+ t is sacr$1 t ,i am innoc5t4 ,:atev] int]pretation ! _w may put ^u my sudd5 weal?1 !re is no %ad[ ( di%one/y or guilt connect$ ) its acquisition4 ,! circum/ances ( ! /ory are su* t !y mu/ nev] be disclos$2 ,i am b\nd to secrecy by ! mo/ inviolable obligations1 & ?is has l$ me to utt] a =g$ & inconsi/5t tale4 ,b my consci5ce has no?+ ) :i* to reproa* me4 ,if !n1 ,*>les1 my son1 once my fri5d1 my be/ & de>e/ consolation60--,i press$ 8 h&1 & my voice falt]$ z ,i spoke1--8if y are resolute to sep>ate y\rself f me1 at lea/ take ?is recollection ) y :]ev] y g1--,:atev] may be my ext]nal e/imation1 ,i am n ! slave ( vice1 y\r fa!r is n a villa960 8,alas1 my fa!r60 rejo9$ ,*>les1 m\rnfully1 8:at am ,i to believe8 ,:at secret c be involv$ 9 s /range a rev]se ( =tune1 t is n di%on\rable8 ,y h giv5 utt]ance to diff]5t fictions on ! subject1 fictions t y n[ confess to be su*2 h[ am ,i to be conv9c$ t :at y say at ?is mom5t is n dictat$ m by a reg>d = my tranquillity1 ?an by ! simplicity ( consci\s tru?8 ,if ,i believe y1 ,i am afraid my cr$it w be ! (fspr+ r ( incl9ation1 ?an ( probability4 ,& inde$1 if ,i believe y1 :at avails x8 ,! _w w n believe4 ,y\r "* is bla/$2 y\r hon\r is de/roy$2 &1 unless ,i sep>ate myself f y1 & dis[n y\r "n1 ,i %all be involv$ 9 ! same disgrace40 ,say+ ?us1 he left me1 & 9 ab\t half an h\r return$4 ,8 return ,i _h n =ese52 ,i _h made no use ( 8 abs5ce4 ,my m9d 0 ov]come1 my und]/&+ 0 /upifi$1 by a situation & ev5ts ,i _h s little expect$4 ,i _h /ood1 unmov$1 lean+ aga9/ ! wall1 f ! in/ant ( 8 dep>ture4 ,i seem$ root$ to ! spot1 incapable ( call+ up my =titude1 or arrang+ my ideas4 ,my eyes _h roll$1--my br[ 0 knit1--,i _h bit my lips & my tongue ) agony4 ,f "t to "t ,i _h mutt]$ a few words1--8,my son6 my son6--weal?6 weal?6--my wife6--my son60 b !y 7 incoh]5t & )\t mean+4 ,*>les re-ent]$ ! ap>tm5t :]e ! prec$+ conv]sation _h pass$1 & ! noise he made 9 ent]+ r\s$ me4 ,he _h 8 hat 9 8 h&1 :i* he ?rew f him1 & exclaim$ ) an acc5t ( dejection & angui%1 8,my fa!r6--f>ewell60 8,cruel1 cruel boy6 c y p]si/ 9 y\r h>% & calamit\s resolution8 ,if y h no affection = me1 yet ?9k ( y\r "m & y\r si/]s60 ,seek n1 sir1 to turn me f my purpose6 ,! /ruggle aga9/ x 9 my own bosom has be5 suffici5tly sev]e2 b x mu/ be execut$48--,8 voice1 z he spoke1 0 inw>d1 /ifl$1 & brok5 ) ! weight ( 8 feel+s4 8,!n--f>ewell60 ,i repli$4 8,yet take ) y "s provision = y\r long & p]il\s adv5ture4 ,"n ! sum y w accept1 &1 :atev] is its am\nt1 x %all in/antly be y\rs40 8,i w h no?+4 ,x is ?is weal?1 ) ^: spl5d\r ,i 0 at fir/ *ild en\gh to be dazzl$1 t has de/roy$ u4 ,my f+]s %all n be contam9at$ ) an atom ( x4 ,:at is to be my fate1 z yet1 ,i "k n4 ,b ,i am "y1 & /rong1 & ent]pris+1 & c\rage\s4 ,! lessons ( hon\r & nobility live 9 my bosom4 ,?\gh my in/ructor is lo/1 8 in/ructions %all n be va96 8,once m f>ewell6 ,f my he>t ,i ?ank y = y\r prote/ations ( innoc5ce4 ,nev] w ,i "p ) ?is la/ consolation1 to believe !m4 ,i h recollect$ ! mann] 9 :i* !y 7 utt]$2 x 0 ! mann] ( tru?4 ,if !re be any evid5ce ( a contr>y t5d5cy1 t ,i w =get4 ,?\gh to ! _w ,i %all be )\t fa!r & )\t relatives1 ,i w /ill reta9 ?is sacr$ consolation = my h\rs ( retirem5t & solitude1 t my ance/ors 7 hon\rable1 & my fa!r1 9 spite ( all presumptions to ! contr>y1--0 innoc5t4 8,h[ h>d x is to quit = ev] a family ( love & affection1 z ours has be56 ,be> witness = me1 h[ deeply1 ,i sympa?is$ ) y at ,p>is1 9 ,switz]l&1 9 ,con/ance6 ,?\gh n[ y dissolve ! tie betwe5 u1 yet1 till n[1 nev] _h a son great] reason = gratitude to a fa!r4 ,y & my "m h made me :at ,i am2 & t ,i may pres]ve :at y h made me1 ,i n[ ca/ myself ^u an untri$ _w4 ,! recollection ( :at ,i f\nd y 9 ! pa/ p]iod ( my life1 %all be = ev] *]i%$ 9 my memory6 8,i quit my "m & my si/]s )\t leave-tak+ or adieu4 ,x w be a fruitless & pa9ful addition to :at ea* p>ty mu/ le>n to be>4 ,de>1 excell5t1 pe]less protector & companions ( my e>ly ye>s6 my wi%es are y\rs1 my pray]s %all = ev] be p\r$ out = y6 ,y1 sir1 :o rob !m ( a son & a bro!r1 be c>eful to make up to !m a loss1 :i* ,i d\bt n !y w acc\nt griev\s6 ,i c d no?+ = !m4 ,i c ?r[ myself into ! arms ( pov]ty2 x is my duty4 ,b1 9 do+ s1 ,i mu/ sep>ate myself f !m1 assur$ly innoc5t1 & wor?y ( m & great] b5efits ?an ,i c\ld ev] conf] on !m6--,f>ewell60 ,say+ ?is1 he ?rew himself into my arms1 & ,i felt ! agonies ( a p>t+ embrace4 ,,*apt] ,,xviii4 ,= "s "t ,i c\ld n believe him dep>t$4 ,:5 ,i retir$ to re/1 ,i felt ! want ( ,*>les to press my h&1 & wi% me refre%+ slumb]s2 & ,i pass$ on1 sad & solit>y1 to my *amb]4 ,:5 ,i came next morn+ into ! breakfa/+ room1 ,*>les 0 n !re1 to greet me ) looks ( affection & duty2 & ! gild+ & ornam5ts ( ! ap>tm5t 7 to me no less disconsolate ?an ! damps & soot9ess ( a dungeon4 ,i hop$ he w\ld return4 ,i knew h[ t5d]ly he 0 atta*$ to 8 "m & 8 si/]s2 ,i 0 fully conv9c$ t ! affection = me :i* _h be5 ! p]petual habit ( 8 m9d1 c\ld n be entirely eradicat$ f 8 he>t4 ,i m5tion$ him n 9 my lett]s to ,con/ance2 ! p5 l+]$1 my h& trembl$1 :5 ,i ?\ght ( him2 ,i c\ld nei!r pret5d t he 0 ) me1 nor ann\nce ! cata/rophe ( 8 abs5ce4 ,b ,i op5$ ! lett]s ( ,m>gu]ite ) /ill increas+ impati5ce4 ,f9d+ t he did n return to me1 ,i hop$ t "s alt]ation ( ! extraord9>y resolution he _h =m$1 w\ld lead him to ,con/ance4 ,9 va9 ,i hop$6 ,!re rea*$ me1 by no conveyance1 f no qu>t]1 tid+s ( my son6 ,h[ surpris+ an ev5t6 ,a y\?1 n sev5te5 ye>s ( age1 =m+ & execut+ 9 ! same in/ant ! purpose ( fly+ f 8 p>5ts & 8 family6 ,des]t+ all 8 hopes1 all 8 atta*m5ts1 all 8 =tune6 ,refus+ ! smalle/ p>ticle ( assi/ance or provision 9 8 entrance ^u ! wide sc5e ( ! _w6 ,oh1 ,*>les6 exclaim$ ,i1 y are inde$ an extraord9>y & admirable y\?6 ,b are y =tifi$ aga9/ all ! temptations ( ! _w & all its h>d%ips8 ,d y\r t5d] ye>s qualify y to /ruggle ) its unk9dness1 its indiff]5ce1 & its insults8 ,9 h[ few qu>t]s is m]it ev] treat$ ) ! att5tion & b5evol5ce x des]ves6 ,h[ (t5 is x r$uc$ to tremble ) indignation1 at ! sc(fs & brutality to :i* x is expos$1 & at ! sight ( folly & vice exalt$ 9 its /ead1 & appo9t$ its despot & its ma/]6 ,my son1 my son6 :at w be y\r fate8 ,is y\r unseason$ frame res]v$ to p]i% by hung]1 9 b>r5 des]ts & b5ea? inclem5t skies8 ,w y n 9 "s h\r ( bitt] disappo9tm5t & unpiti$ lonel9ess1 lay y\rself d[n 9 despair & die8 ,w y n be made ! slave ( "s caprici\s tyrant = bread8 ,g5]\s z is y\r nature1 w x be et]nally pro( aga9/ reit]at$ temptation8 ,^u :at a _w are y turn$ adrift6 a _w ( :i* y "k z little1 z ! poor affright$ s\l ( a dy+ man kn[s1 :5 laun*+ into ! my/]i\s1 imp5etrable abyss ( et]nity6 ,unnatural fa!r1 to h r$uc$ my only son to ?is cruel alt]native6 ,i %\ld ) a less a*+ & agonis+ he>t h accompani$ 8 s5seless rema9s to ! grave4 ,dreadful z t p>t+ is1 !re at lea/ ! anxi\s m9d ( ! survivor has re/4 ,!re are no ?\ghts & devices 9 ! sil5ce ( ! tomb4 ,!re all our prospects end1 & we are no long] s5sible to pa91 to p]secution1 to insult1 & to agony4 ,b ,*>les1 ?us dep>t$1 w&]+ on ! face ( ! globe1 )\t protector1 advis] or res\rce1 no lapse ( ye>s c put a close ^u my anxiety = him6 ,if ,i am 9 ease & prosp]ity1 ,i _c reli% !m1 = my expos$ & liv+ son may be at t mom5t 9 ! dep? ( mis]y6 ,if ,i am myself oppress$ & suff]+1 ! ?\ght ( :at may be 8 fate w =m a dreadful addition to all my o!r calamities6 ,:at am ,i to say ( him ^u my return to ,con/ance8 ,if he _h di$1 ?is 0 a natural casualty2 &1 :atev] grief x might occasion1 "t no d\bt w\ld mollify & abate x4 ,b :at acc\nt c n[ be r5d]$ ( him to 8 disconsolate "m & t]rifi$ si/]s8 ,h[ c ,i lift up my head 9 _! pres5ce1 or meet ! glance ( _! reproa*ful eyes6 ,! idea _h occurr$ to me1 9 ! in/ant ( ,*>les's dep>ture1 & imm$iately aft] 8 exit1 ( deta9+ or br++ him back by =ce4 ,he 0 by 8 extreme y\?1 accord+ to ! maxims ( ! _w1 /ill 9 a /ate ( gu>dian%ip1 & unqualifi$ to be ! *oos] ( 8 own actions4 ,b to ?is mode ( proce$+1 h[ev] deeply ,i felt ! cata/rophe :i* _h tak5 place1 ,i c\ld nev] cons5t4 ,x 0 9 utt] ho/ility to ! lessons ( *ivalry & hon\r1 ) :i* ,i _h be5 famili>is$ f my e>lie/ infancy4 ,!re might be cases1 9 :i* ?is re/ra9t laid by a fa!r ^u 8 *ild w\ld be salut>y4 ,b ! idea :i* _h occasion$ ! secession ( ,*>les1 0 decisive 9 ?is in/ance4 ,:at "r _h ,i to *a9 him to di%on\r8 ,! :ole b5t ( 8 education _h be51 to impress him ) ! feel+s by :i* he 0 n[ actuat$4 ,if ,i deta9$ him = a %ort "t1 0 !re any vigilance on e>? t c\ld f9ally prev5t him f execut+ a purpose ^u :i* 8 :ole s\l 0 resolv$8 ,or1 suppose !re 71 mu/ n ! consequ5ce be to break 8 _s1 to deprive him ( all manl9ess & en]gy1 & to r5d] him ! m]e droop+ & s\lless %ad[ ( t conspicu\s h]o ,i _h be5 anxi\s to make him8 ,x might be said inde$1 t ?is 0 ! det]m9ation ( a boy1 =m$ 9 an h\r1 & t1 if ,i deta9$ him only long en\gh = delib]ation & revisal1 he w\ld ( 8 own accord retract s desp]ate a project4 ,b ,i felt t x 0 a resolution =m$ to endure1 & 0 built ^u pr9ciples t c\ld n *ange s long z an atom ( 8 m9d rema9$4 ,no2 ,i 0 r dispos$ to say1 h[ev] griev\s 0 ! w\nd he inflict$ on me1 ,g1 my son6 ,act ^u ! dictates ( y\r *oice1 z ,i h act$ on m9e6 ,i admire y\r resolution1 ?\gh ,i _c imitate x4 ,y\r purpose is l(ty & godlike2 & he t h>b\rs x1 0 n born to be a slave4 ,be free2 & may e p[] propiti\s to g5]osity & virtue smoo? y\r pa? ?r\gh life1 & smile ^u y\r desires6 ,! angui% ,i felt = hav+ lo/ my son1 & 9 ?is pa9ful & reproa*ful mann]1 0 n dim9i%$ to me ei!r by society or amusem5t4 ,i d>$ n g out ( my h\se4 ,i saw no "o b my own att5dants4 ,i _h n ! c\rage to meet ! aspect ( a human creature4 ,i knew n h[ f> p]sons 9 ,dresd5 might h he>d ! injuri\s reports :i* occasion$ ! flight ( my son1 or ev5 h be5 acqua9t$ ) ! nature ( t flight4 ,i _h promis$ to see ,coligny aga92 b1 alas6 ! affair :i* _h at fir/ l$ me to wi% to see him1 0 n[ at an end4 ,i _h no he>t to seek him2 nor inde$ did ,i "k :at /ory ,i 0 to tell him1 or h[ ,i 0 to remove ! suspicions he _h urg$ aga9/ me4 ,! ma*9e ( human life1 ?\gh con/itut$ ( a ?\s& p>ts1 is 9 all its p>ts regul>ly & sy/ematically connect$2 nor is x easy to ins]t an additional memb]1 ! spuri\sness ( :i* an accurate obs]vation w n readily detect4 ,h[ 0 ,i to assign a s\rce ( my weal? diff]5t f ! true1 :i* w\ld n be liable to inve/igation1 &1 :5 inve/igat$1 w\ld n be se5 to be c\nt]feit8 ,?is inde$ is ! prime s\rce ( individual security 9 human affairs1 t :atev] any man does1 may be subject$ to exam9ation1 & :atev] does n admit ( be+ satisfactorily acc\nt$ =1 exposes him :om x conc]ns to ! mo/ injuri\s suspicions4 ,?is law ( our nature1 s salut>y 9 its g5]al op]ation1 0 ! fir/ s\rce ( all my mis=tunes4 ,i began n[ s]i\sly to consid] :at judgm5t ,i 0 to pass ^u ! beque/s ( ! /rang]4 ,7 !y to be reg>d$ z a b5efit or a mis=tune8 ,ought !y to be class$ ) ! poison$ robe ( ,nessus1 :i*1 be+ s5t z a tok5 ( affection1 0 f\nd1 9 ! exp]im5t1 to eat into ! fle% & burn up ! vitals ( him t wore x8 ,%\ld ,i f ?is in/ant reject _! use1 &1 return+ to ! modes ( life e/abli%$ among my fell[ m51 cont5t myself ) ! affection ( ^? ) :om ,i _h int]c\rse1 ?\gh pov]ty & h>d%ips m+l$ ) ! balm8 ,! exp]im5t ,i _h made ( ^! extraord9>y gifts 0 a %ort "o2 b h[ contr>y 7 all ! results ,i _h arriv$ at1 f ^? ,i look$ =8 ,:5 ! /rang] _h appe>$ six mon?s be=e at ! cottage ( ! lake1 he _h f\nd me a poor man inde$1 b ri* 9 ! confid5ce1 & happy 9 ! security & cont5t1 ( e memb] ( my family4 ,i liv$ 9 ! bosom ( nature1 surr\nd$ ) ! luxuriance ( its gifts & ! sublimity ( its features1 :i* ! romantic elevation ( my s\l p>ticul>ly fitt$ me to reli%4 ,9 my dome/ic sc5e ,i beheld ! gold5 age r5ew$1 ! simplicity ( pa/oral life )\t its grossness1 a situation remote f cities & c\rts1 f traffic & hypocrisy1 yet n unadorn$ ) ta/e1 imag9ation1 & k4 ,nev] 0 a family m unit$ 9 s5tim5ts & affection4 ,n[ all ?is beaute\s sc5e 0 defac$6 ,all 0 sil5ce1 suspicion1 & res]ve4 ,! "o p>ty d>$ n be +5u\s1 & ! o!r felt t all ! p>adise ( atta*m5t 0 dw9dl$ to an empty "n4 ,no que/ions 7 ask$2 = no hone/ answ] 0 giv5 or expect$4 ,?\gh corporeally we might sit 9 ! same ap>tm5t1 9 m9d a gulf1 wide1 impassable1 & trem5d\s1 gap$ betwe5 u4 ,my wife p9$ 9 spee*less grief1 &1 x 0 to be fe>$1 _h su/a9$ a mortal bl[4 ,my son1 my only son1 a y\? ( su* promise t ,i w\ld n h ex*ang$ him = empires1 _h disappe>$1 &1 z he _h solemnly prote/$1 = ev]4 ,my he>t 0 *ildless3 my bosom 0 b]eav$ ( its de>e/ hope4 ,x 0 = him pr9cipally t ,i _h accept$1 t ,i _h rejoic$ 9 ! gifts ( ! /rang]4 ,my d>l+ vision 0 to see him clo!d 9 ! h>ness1 surr\nd$ ) ! insignia1 ( a h]o4 ,!re 0 no?+ ,i s e>ne/ly desir$ z t 8 m]its1 grac$ ) ! fav\rs ( =tune1 might cause him to /& confess$ ! fir/ subject ( ,france2 a situation m enviable ?an t ( its mon>*1 s9ce he :o holds x is rais$ by de$s1 & ! o!r only by bir?2 & if less respect$ by int]e/$ c\rti]s1 is c]ta9 to be m hon\r$ by ! imp>tial voice ( hi/ory4 ,b1 if ,i felt ?us desolate & he>tbrok5 = ! loss ( my son1 :at w\ld be ! s5tim5ts ( 8 "m1 m susceptible to feel1 &1 9 h] pres5t weakness ( spirits1 less vigor\s to be>1 ?an myself1 :5 ! dreadful tid+s %\ld be communicat$ to h]8 ,yet ,i c\ld n resolve to r5\nce donations :i* ,i _h s de>ly appropriat$4 ,i held x to be a base & c[>dly to surr5d] gifts s invaluable1 ^u s insuffici5t an exp]im5t4 ,he1 ,i ?\ght1 mu/ be a man ( ignoble & grovell+ _s1 :o c\ld easily be prevail$ on to "p ) unb\nd$ weal? & immortal life4 ,i _h b j ent]$ ! va/ field t 0 op5$ to me4 ,x 0 ( ! nature ( all great und]tak+s to be att5d$ ) difficulties & ob/acles 9 ! comm5cem5t1 to pres5t a face calculat$ to disc\rage ! man t is infirm ( purpose4 ,b x became my desc5t1 my "* & pret5sions1 to %[ myself s]5e 9 ! mid/ ( /orms4 ,p]sev]ance & con/ancy are ! virtues ( a man4 ,affairs ( ?is ext5sive compass (t5 prove 9 ! issue ! rev]se ( :at !y seem$ 9 ! outset4 ,! tempe/ might be expect$ to disp]se1 difficulties to unravel !mselves1 & unlook$-= concurr5ces to arise4 ,all opposition & ho/ile appe>ance give way be=e him :o goes calmly onw>d1 & scorns to be dismay$4 ,,*apt] ,,xix4 ,x 0 ?us t ,i spurr$ myself to p]si/ 9 ! pa? ^u :i* ,i _h ent]$4 ,hav+ rema9$ "s "t at ,dresd51 flatt]+ myself ) ! hope t ,*>les might yet jo9 me be=e ,i quitt$ t city1 ,i began to ?9k ( once m turn+ my /eps t[>ds ! resid5ce ( my family4 ,?is 0 no *e]ful ?\ght2 b ^u :at 0 ,i to det]m9e8 ,i _h a wife :om ,i ard5tly lov$1 & ?ree daught]s ! d>l+s ( my he>t4 ,because ,i _h lo/ a belov$ son 0 ,i to e/range myself f ^!8 ,i already felt mo/ pa9fully ! deta*m5t & wid[hood to :i* ,i 0 r$uc$1 & ,i clung ) imp]i\s affection to :at rema9$ ( my race4 ,! meet+ ,i purpos$ mu/ be a melan*oly "o2 b1 9 ! sorr[s ( ! he>t !re is a pur] & nobl] gratification ?an 9 ! mo/ tumultu\s pleasures :]e affection is sil5t4 ,i look$ =w>d inde$ to sc5es ( endless v>iety & attraction1 b 9 ! mean "t :at seem$ fir/ to dem& my att5tion 0 ! belov$ circle ,i _h left beh9d 9 ! city ( ,con/ance4 ,i retrac$1 ^u ! pres5t occasion1 ! r\te ,i _h lately pursu$ ) my son4 ,h[ diff]5t 7 n[ my s5sations6 ,my he>t 0 !n inde$ pa9fully impress$ ) ! v>iance & dissolution ( confid5ce t _h aris5 betwe5 me & 8 "m4 ,x 0 p]haps pr9cipally = ! sake ( bani%+ ?is impression t ,i _h _h rec\rse to ! spl5d\r ( equipage & att5dance :i* 0 fir/ assum$ ^u ! j\rney f ,con/ance to ,dresd54 ,nor1 frivol\s z ?is exp$i5t may appe> 9 ! unattractive dispassionat5ess ( n>rative1 _h x be5 by any means weak ( effect at ! "t x 0 employ$4 ,:5 ,*>les 0 once m\nt$ on 8 pr\d & impati5t /e$1 & decorat$ 9 ri* & co/ly attire1 ,i felt1 z x 71 ! sluggi%ness ( my imag9ation r\s$2 ,i survey$ 8 %ape & 8 c\nt5ance ) inexpressible complac5ce2 & already anticipat$ ! p]iod :5 he 0 to become ! fav\rite ( 8 sov]eign & 8 c\ntry's pride4 ,n[ ,i return$ ) ! same ret9ue2 b ! place t _h be5 occupi$ by my son 0 empty4 ,i s\ght him ) frantic & re/less gaze2 ,i figur$ him to my di/urb$ & furi\s imag9ation1 till ! s5sations & phantoms ( my bra9 became intol]able2 ,i rav$ & imprecat$ curses on myself4 ,i endeav\r$ to div]t my ?\ghts by obs]v+ ! sc5es t pass$ be=e me4 ,!y talk$ to me ( ,*>les2 !y _h be5 po9t$ out by ea* to ea*1 & _h be5 ! subject ( our mutual comm5t4 ,?\gh ,*>les 0 end[$ ) a high reli% = ! beauties ( nature1 &1 9 our little retreat on ! bord]s ( ! lake1 _h liv$ 9 ! mid/ ( !m1 he _h se5 little ( ! v>iety ( h] features2 & ! j\rney we made ?r\gh ! he>t ( ,g]many _h furni%$ him ) cont9ual food = admiration & delight4 ,nor did ! sc5es ,i beheld m]ely rem9d me ( ! s5sations !y produc$ 9 ,*>les2 !y l$ me ?r\gh a wid] field4 ,i recollect$ long conv]sations & digressive excursions :i* _h be5 />t$ by ! impression !y made4 ,i recollect$ _m passages & occurr5ces to :i* !y _h n ! slighte/ ref]5ce1 b :i*1 hav+ aris5 :ile !y con/itut$ ! visible sc5e1 7 =cibly reviv$ by its re-appe>ance4 ,?us1 f v>i\s causes1 my lo/ & lam5t$ son 0 n a mom5t out ( my ?\ghts dur+ ! j\rney4 ,:ile ,i cont9u$ at ,dresd51 ,i seem$ daily to expect 8 return2 b no soon] did ,i quit t city ?an despair took possession ( my he>t4 ,?us1 anxi\s & di/ress$1 ,i arriv$ at ,prague1 & soon aft] at ,ratisbon4 ,i travell$ sl[ly1 because1 ?\gh ,i 0 desir\s ( return+ to ,con/ance1 ,i anticipat$ my arrival !re ) little complac5ce4 ,z ,i drew ne>] to my family1 ,i felt m di/9ctly ! impossibility ( pres5t+ myself be=e !m1 )\t fir/ endeav\r+ to take (f ! %ock !y w\ld su/a9 at see+ me return )\t my son4 ,i !re=e resolv$ to s5d =w>d a s]vant f ,ratisbon1 :om ,i direct$ to make all practicable spe$1 z ,i design$ to wait = an answ] he %\ld br+ me at ! city ( ,muni*4 ,to attempt to write to ,m>gu]ite on ?is subject 0 a sev]e trial to me4 ,! :ole h[ev] t ,i propos$ to myself 01 to remove ! surprise :i* w\ld be occasion$ by see+ me alone1 & to anticipate que/ions t x w\ld be impossible = me to he> )\t angui% ( m9d & p]turbation ( c\nt5ance4 ,i !re=e took c>e to express myself 9 su* t]ms z %\ld lead ,m>gu]ite to believe t ,i _h volunt>ily left h] son 9 ,saxony1 & t 9 no v long "t he w\ld rejo9 8 family4 ,i tru/$ to subsequ5t ev5ts to unfold ! pa9ful cata/rophe1 & c\ld n prevail on myself to %ock h] mat]nal feel+s s mu* z ,i mu/ necess>ily d1 if ,i in=m$ h] ( ! :ole at once4 ,*>les _h n be5 m5tion$ b 9 ord9>y t]ms & ! accu/om$ language ( affection1 9 ! lett]s ,i _h rec5tly receiv$ f ,con/ance2 & ,i 0 !re=e conv9c$ t he _h nei!r gone to t place1 nor _h convey$ ?i!r any acc\nt ( 8 proce$+s4 ,! answ] ,i receiv$ f ,m>gu]ite by my mess5g] 0 z foll[s3-- 8,y\r abs5ce has be5 long & critical1 & ! welf>e ( y\r daught]s seems to require t we %\ld rejo9 ea* o!r z spe$ily z may be4 ,:e!r we %\ld meet "h or at any o!r place y mu/ det]m9e4 ,x is1 h[ev]1 "r ,i %\ld in=m y t1 dur+ y\r abs5ce1 rum\r has be5 busy ) y\r reputation4 ,:at ! ext5t or importance ( ! ill reports circulat$ ( y may be1 ,i am sc>cely compet5t to judge4 ,we h liv$ 9 uni=m privacy1 & x is natural to suppose t ! portion ( c5sure t has rea*$ u is b a small "p ( :at really exi/s4 ,! mode 9 :i* y h proce$$1 & ! extraord9>y figure y h made 9 a progress ?r\gh ,g]many1 h giv5 weight to ^! ins9uations4 ,b x is n my int5tion to comm5t on :at y h done4 8,y appe> to design t ,i %\ld und]/& y h left my son beh9d y 9 ,saxony4 ,poor ,*>les6 ,i _h a lett] f him ?ree weeks ago1 9 :i* he in=ms me ( :at has happ5$1 & apologises 9 ! mo/ pa!tic t]ms = any seem+ want ( reg>d to me 9 8 conduct1 at ! v mom5t t 8 he>t ble$s = my fate4 ,i did n ?9k x necess>y to communicate ?is circum/ance to y4 ,i h done ) compla9+4 ,n[ t ,i h fall5 into ! wor/ & mo/ unlook$-= mis=tunes1 ,i h a gratification t ,i d n *oose to "p )1 9 %utt+ up my sorr[s 9 my own brea/4 8,oh1 ,*>les6 my son1 my idol6 ,:at is become ( y8 ,= :at calamities are y res]v$8 ,he tells me x is necess>y t ,i %\ld nev] see or he> ( him aga94 ,nev]--,i--8 "m6--,reg9ald1 !re are "s w\nds t we may endeav\r to =give2 b !y leave a s5tim5t 9 ! he>t1 ! demon/rations ( :i* may p]haps be re/ra9$1 b :i* x is n 9 nature :olly to subdue4 ,if ,i did b "k :]e to f9d or to write to my poor boy1 ,i w\ld take my girls ) me1 & p>take 8 hone/ & hon\rable pov]ty1 & nev] aga9 jo9 ! %ad[ ( him :o 0 my husb&4 ,=give me1 ,reg9ald6 ,i did n int5d to say ?is4 ,if ,i %\ld prove unable to control ! impati5ce ( my grief1 d n inflict ! puni%m5t ( my (f5ce on y\r innoc5t daught]s6 8,z to y\r fiction ( volunt>ily leav+ him beh9d = fur!r improvem5t1 x corresponds ) e ?+ y h lately attempt$ to make me believe4 ,i no long] expect tru? f y4 ,= sev5te5 ye>s ,i _h a husb&4 ,well1 well6 ,i ought n p]haps to rep9e4 ,i h _h my %>e ( ! happ9ess :i* ! pres5t life is calculat$ to af=d4 8,reg9ald6 ,i h n long to live4 ,:5 ,i tell y ?is1 ,i am n giv+ way to melan*oly pres5tim5t4 ,i w ex]t myself = ! b5efit ( my girls4 ,!y w h a griev\s loss 9 me2 & = _! sake ,i w live z long z ,i c4 ,b ,i feel t y h /ruck me to ! he>t4 ,my nights are sleepless2 my fle% is wa/$2 my appetite is entirely gone4 ,y w pres5tly be able to judge :e!r ,i am deceiv+ myself4 ,! prospect = ^! poor creatures1 :o are at pres5t all my c>e1 is a dismal "o4 ,i "k n = :at !y are res]v$2 b ,i c hope = no?+ good4 ,:5 ,i am dead1 rememb]1 & be a fa!r to !m4 ,i ask no?+ = myself2 ,i h no long] any conc]n ) life2 b1 if my dy+ reque/ c h weight ) y1 make up to !m ! duty y h brok5 to me4 ,by all out pa/ loves1 by ! cordiality & confid5ce 9 :i* we h s long liv$1 by ! s+l5ess & s9c]ity ( our affection1 by ! pure delights1 s seldom exp]i5c$ 9 m>ri$ life1 t h att5d$ our union1 ,i conjure y li/5 to me & obey me 9 ?is40 ,if ,i 7 deeply di/ress$ = ! loss ( my son1 if ,i look$ =w>d ) a m+l$ s5sation ( eag]ness & al>m to ! approa*+ int]view ) my family1 x may easily be imag9$ t ?is lett] =m$ a heavy addition to my m5tal angui%4 ,i confess ,i ?\ght x a cruel "o4 ,m>gu]ite might well suppose1 t ! dep>ture ( ,*>les 0 a circum/ance ,i mu/ /rongly feel2 & %e %\ld n h ?us aggravat$ ! rec5t w\nds ( pat]nal grief4 ,"s all[ance1 h[ev]1 0 to be made = a "m4 ,:5 we are ourselves rack$ ) intol]able pa91 t c]ta9ly is n ! "t at :i* we c rationally be expect$ to ex]t ! nice/ & mo/ vigilant consid]ation = ano!r4 ,add to :i*1 %e 0 innoc5t ( ! calamities %e suff]$1 & c\ld n b "k t ,i 0 _! sole au?or4 ,b1 :atev] may be decid$ z to ! propriety ( ! lett]1 its effect ^u my m9d 0 em95tly salut>y4 ,i in/antly det]m9$ on ! conduct x became me to pursue4 ,i lo/ n a mom5t4 ,f ,dresd5 to ,muni* ,i _h advanc$ ) sl[ & unwill+ /eps2 f ,muni* to ,con/ance ,i proce$$ z rapidly z ! modes ( travell+ & ! nature ( ! roads w\ld p]mit4 ,i left my ret9ue at ! gates ( ! t[n1 & flew in/antly to ! ap>tm5ts ( my family4 ,i ha/5$ up /airs1 &1 z ,i ent]$ ! sitt+-room1 ,i saw ! fir/ & mo/ exempl>y ( matrons surr\nd$ by h] bloom+ daught]s4 ,i in/antly p]ceiv$ a great alt]ation 9 h] appe>ance4 ,h] look 0 deject$2 h] =m emaciat$2 h] c\nt5ance sickly & pale4 ,%e lift$ up h] eyes z ,i ent]$1 b imm$iately dropp$ !m aga91 )\t any disc]nible expression1 ei!r ( congratulation or res5tm5t4 ,i embrac$ my *ildr5 ) undescribable emotion2 ,i said )9 myself1 ! love & affection ,i _h res]v$ = ,*>les %all be divid$ among y1 & add$ to ! %>e y ea* possess ( my he>t6 ,hav+ salut$ !m 9 turn1 ,i address$ myself to ,m>gu]ite1 tell+ h] t ,i mu/ h "s conv]sation ) h] in/antly4 ,my mann] 0 e>ne/3 %e l$ ! way into ano!r ap>tm5t4 ,i felt my he>t ov]fl[+ at my tongue4 8,i am come to y10 cri$ ,i1 8a rep5t+ prodigal4 ,take me & m\ld me at y\r pleasure60 ,%e look$ up4 ,%e 0 /ruck ) ! hone/ f]v\r ( my expression4 ,%e answ]$ 9 almo/ =gott5 t]ms1 & ) a peculi> fulness ( mean+1 8,my husb&60--,x seem$ z if ! be/ ye>s & ! be/ emotions ( our life 7 sudd5ly r5ew$4 8,mo/ adorable ( wom560 ,i cont9u$3 8d y ?9k ,i c be> t y %\ld die1 & ,i y\r murd]]8 ,no man 9 any age or climate ( ! _w ev] ow$ s mu* to a human creature z ,i owe to y2 no woman 0 ev] s ard5tly lov$6 no woman ev] s mu* des]v$ to be lov$6 ,if y 7 to die1 ,i %\ld nev] "k peace aga94 ,if y 7 to die ! victim ( any miscalculation ( m9e1 ,i %\ld be ! blacke/ ( crim9als60 8,reg9ald60 repli$ %e1 8,i am afraid ,i h be5 wrong4 ,i am afraid ,i h writt5 h>%ly to y4 ,y h a feel+ he>t1 & ,i h be5 too sev]e4 ,=give me6 x 0 ! effect ( love4 ,affection _c view ) a tranquil eye ! faults ( ! object belov$40 8,let !m be =gott56 ,let ! la/ six mon?s be blott$ f our memory1 be z ?\gh !y _h nev] exi/$60 ,%e look$ at me4 ,h] look seem$ to say1 ?\gh %e w\ld n give ! s5tim5t words1 t c nev] be2 ! loss ( ,*>les1 & c]ta9 o!r calamities ( t p]iod1 are irretrievable6 8,i resign myself into y\r h&s6 ,i h be5 guilty2 ,i h _h secrets2 m$itations eng5d]$ & %ut up 9 my own bosom2 b x %all be s no m6 ,! tide ( affection kept back f its natural *annel1 n[ fl[s ) d\ble impetu\sness4 ,nev] did ,i love y1 n :5 y fir/ came a virg9 to my arms1 n on ! banks ( ! ,g>onne1 n 9 ! cottage ( ! lake1 s f]v5tly1 s entirely1 z ,i love y n[6 ,be my director2 d ) me z y please6 ,i h nev] be5 ei!r wise or virtu\s b :5 ,i h be5 implicitly guid$ by y6 8,i h weal?2 ,i am =bidd5 by ! mo/ solemn obligations to discov] ! s\rce ( t weal?4 ,?is only ,i may n communicate2 9 all ?+s else gov]n me despotically6 ,%all ,i resign x all8 ,%all ,i return to ! cottage ( ! lake8 ,%all ,i g1 a h\seless & helpless w&]]1 to ! f>!/ qu>t] ( ! globe8 ,speak ! ^w only1 & x %all be done6 ,i pref] y\r affection1 y\r cordial reg>d1 9 ! mo/ obscure & meane/ retreat1 to all t weal? c pur*ase or k+s c give60 8,reg9ald1 ,i ?ank y6 ,i ackn[l$ge 9 y\r pres5t language & e>ne/ness ! object ( my fir/ & only love4 ,?is return to y\r true "* gives me all ! pleasure ,i am n[ capable ( receiv+4 ,b x is too late ,my son is lo/2 t _c be retriev$4 ,y\r reputation is bla/$2 ,i am sorry y are return$ hi!r2 ,con/ance is 9 arms aga9/ y1 & ,i w n answ] = ! consequ5ce4 ,= myself2 ,i grieve to tell y s2 ,i am a%am$ ( my weakness2 b--my he>t is brok56 ,i lov$ y s entirely1 t ,i 0 n able to be> any susp5sion ( our confid5ce4 ,i _h pass$ ) y ?r\gh all o!r mis=tunes1 & ! firmness ( my temp] 0 n %ak54 ,= ?is "o mis=tune1 t seem$ ! entire dissolution ( our atta*m5t1 ,i 0 n prep>$4 ,i feel1 e morn+ z ,i rise1 ! w>n+s ( my decease4 ,my nights are sleepless2 my appetite is gone f me40 8,oh1 ,m>gu]ite1 talk n ?us2 di/ract me n ) ! mo/ fatal ( images6 ,our confid5ce %all return2 all ! causes ( y\r malady %all be remov$6 ,) ! causes1 ! symptoms1 dep5d on x1 w disappe>4 ,y\r y\?1 y\r tranquillity1 y\r happ9ess1 %all be r5ew$6 ,oh1 no1 y %all n die6 ,we w yet live to love & peace60 8,flatt] n y\rself ) va9 hopes1 my love6 ,i feel some?+ wrong )9 me1 :i* is rapidly we>+ my body to decay4 ,reconcile y\r m9d to :at v soon mu/ happ56 ,prep>e y\rself = be+ ! only p>5t to y\r rema9+ (fspr+6 ,i h compos$ my _s1 & calmly wait my fate4 ,y h n[ adm9i/]$ to me ! only consolation ,i aspir$ to1 by ?is return to y\r true "*1 :i* af=ds me a sangu9e hope t y w fai?fully dis*>ge ! duty to y\r (fspr+1 :i*1 :5 ,i am gone1 w be d\bly urg5t on y40 ,i 0 griev$ to see t ! m9d ( ,m>gu]ite 0 s deeply impress$ ) ! notion t %e _h b a %ort "t to live4 ,i c\ld n be> to imag9e = a mom5t t h] progno/ic 0 j4 ,! ?\ght seem$ capable ( driv+ me to di/raction4 ,i h[ev] conceiv$ t ! be/ ?+ t c\ld be done = ! pres5t1 0 to turn ! conv]sation to "s o!r topic4 8,well1 well1 my love60 ,i answ]$4 8,!re are "s ?+s t are imm$iately press+4 ,direct me1 direct a husb& s amply conv9c$ ( y\r discretion1 :at ,i am to d at pres5t6 ,%all ,i in/antly annihilate all t has made ?is un=tunate brea* betwe5 u2 %all ,i resign my weal?1 f :atev] s\rce d]iv$8 ,:i!r %all we g8 ,%all we return to ! cottage ( ! lake8 ,%all we retreat into "s di/ant "p ( ! _w80 8,h[ c y expect me10 said ,m>gu]ite1 fa9tly smil+1 8to advise y respect+ ! disposal ( a weal?1 ( ! am\nt ( :i* ,i am un9=m$1 & ! s\rce ( :i* is invisible8 ,b ,i guess y\r secret4 ,! /rang] :o di$ y\r gue/ 0 9 possession ( ! philosoph]'s /one1 & he has bequea!d to y 8 discov]y4 ,i h he>d ( ?is art1 ?\gh ,i confess ,i 0 n mu* incl9$ to cr$it x4 ,i d n ask y to confirm my conjecture3 ,i d n wi% t y %\ld violate my engagem5ts into :i* y h ent]$4 ,b1 ^u putt+ circum/ances toge!r1 :i* ,i h be5 inevitably compell$ to d1 ,i appreh5d x c be no?+ else4 ,i am a/oni%$ t a conjecture s obvi\s %\ld h (f]$ itself to my m9d s late4 8,if y\r weal? is ( any o!r nature1 ample z x app>5tly is1 x is a natural "q to ask1 to :om is x to be resign$8 ,! ord9>y weal? ( ! _w is some?+ real & sub/antial1 & c nei!r be creat$ nor dissipat$ ) a brea?4 ,b if y\r weal? be ( ! k9d ,i h nam$1 let me ask1 is x possible to resign x8 ,a secret is a ?+ ) :i* we may *oose :e!r we w become acqua9t$2 b1 once kn[n1 we _c become unacqua9t$ ) x at pleasure4 ,y\r weal?1 ^u my supposition1 w always be at y\r beck2 & x is p]haps beyond ! /r5g? ( human nature to refuse1 "u "s circum/ances1 at lea/ 9 "s em]g5cies1 to use ! weal? :i* is )9 our rea*4 8,x has be5 our mutual mis=tune t su* an eng9e has be5 put into y\r h&s4 ,x has be5 y\r fault to make an indiscreet use ( x4 ,gladly w\ld ,i return to ! tranquil & unsuspect$ pov]ty ( ! cottage ( ! lake4 ,b t is impossible4 ,y h lo/ y\r son2 y h lo/ y\r hone/ fame2 ! life ( y\r ,m>gu]ite is und]m9$ & p]i%+4 ,if x 7 possible = u to return to our =m] situation & our =m] peace1 /ill1 my ,reg9ald6 =give me if ,i say1 ,i d\bt ! inflexibl5ess ( y\r resolution4 ,! gift ( unb\nd$ weal?1 if y possess x1 &1 ) weal?1 app>5tly at lea/1 di/9ction & greatness1 is too p[]ful a temptation4 ,nor1 ?\gh ,i %\ld tru/ y\r resi/ance1 c\ld ,i be pleas$ 9 a husb& ) ! possession ( ^! extraord9>y p[]s4 ,x sets too great a di/ance betwe5 ! p>ties4 ,x de/roys t communion ( _s :i* is ! s\l ( ! m>riage-tie4 ,a consort %\ld be a human be+ & an equal4 ,b to ?is equality & simple humanity x is no long] 9 y\r p[] to return4 8,circum/anc$ !n z we n[ are1 ! m>riage union1 y mu/ all[ me to say1 irrep>ably dissolv$1 y\r son lo/1 y\r fair fame de/roy$1 y\r orphan daught]s to be provid$ =1 ,i "k n if ,i %\ld advise y to =get ! pr]ogative t has be5 b\ght = y at s dreadful a price4 ,beside1 if ,i am n mi/ak51 !re are great trials 9 res]ve = y4 ,i am afraid y\r pres5t situation is extremely critical4 ,i am afraid ! suspicions y h excit$ w co/ y de>4 ,at all ev5ts ,i believe x to be b a necess>y precaution t we %\ld fly f ,con/ance4 ,i h no?+ !re=e to recomm5d to y on ! subject ( weal?1 b discretion4 ,i %all n long live to be y\r advis]4 ,i %all always reg>d ! donation y h receiv$1 y _c wond] t ,i %\ld s reg>d x1 z "o ( ! mo/ fe>ful calamities to :i* a human be+ c be expos$4 ,if y _h us$ y\r pr]ogative ) discretion1 y might p]haps1 ?\gh ,i confess ,i d n see h[1 h escap$ ! obloquy ( ! _w4 ,into y\r dome/ic sc5e1 :]e ! int]e/ is m lively1 & ! wat* ^u y m unremitt$1 x mu/ h introduc$ ali5ation & di/ru/4 ,z x is1 ,i see y surr\nd$ ) dang]s ( a ?\s& d5om9ations4 ,police has its eyes ^u y2 sup]/ition w reg>d y z ! famili> ( demons2 av>ice w turn ^u y a reg>d ( jeal\sy & insatiable appetite4 ,if ,i c\ld recov] f ! weakness t at pres5t besets me1 & cont9ue to live1 ,i =esee m & sev]] trials1 bo? at home & abroad1 ?an any ,i h yet su/a9$2 & ,i am almo/ ?ankful to t ,provid5ce :i* has decre$ to take me away f ! evil to come4 8,"o ?+ fur!r let me add4 ,i w speak x1 n 9 ! "* ( a c5sor1 b a fri5d4 ,x mu/ ev] be "r & useful1 t a man %\ld be undeceiv$ 9 any errone\s e/imate he may make ( himself4 ,i h lov$ y mu*2 ,i f\nd 9 y _m good qualities2 my imag9ation decorat$ y 9 ! virtues t y _h n2 b y h remov$ ! veil4 ,an adept & an al*emi/ is a l[ "*4 ,:5 ,i m>ri$ y1 ,i suppos$ myself unit$ to a nobleman1 a knight1 & a soldi]1 a man :o w\ld h revolt$ ) disda9 f e ?+ t 0 poor-spirit$ & base4 ,i liv$ ) y long & happily4 ,i saw faults2 ,i saw imbecilities4 ,i did n see !m ) indiff]5ce2 b ,i endeav\r$1 & ) a degree ( success1 to =get & to =give !m2 !y did n contam9ate & corrupt ! vitals ( hon\r4 ,at l5g? y h completely rev]s$ ! sc5e4 ,= a soldi] y pres5t me ) a projector & a *emi/1 a cold-blood$ mortal1 rak+ 9 ! a%es ( a crucible = a selfi% & solit>y advantage4 ,"h is an end ( all g5u9e dignity1 & ! true/ g5]osity ( s\l4 ,y _c be +5u\s2 = all y\r deal+s are secrecy & d>kness4 ,y _c h a fri5d2 = ! mortal lives n t c sympa?ise ) y\r ?\ghts & emotions4 ,a g5]\s _s1 ,reg9ald1 delights to live ^u equal t]ms ) 8 associates & fell[s4 ,he w\ld disda91 :5 (f]$ to him1 excessive & cl&e/9e advantages4 ,equality is ! s\l ( real & cordial society4 ,a man ( rank inde$ does n live ^u equal t]ms ) ! :ole ( 8 species2 b 8 he>t also c exult1 = he has 8 equals4 ,h[ unhappy ! wret*1 ! mon/] r let me say1 :o is )\t an equal2 :o looks ?r\gh ! _w1 & 9 ! _w _c f9d a bro!r2 :o is end[$ ) attributes :i* no liv+ be+ p>ticipates ) him2 & :o is !re=e cut (f = ev] f all cordiality & confid5ce1 c nev] unb5d himself1 b lives ! solit>y1 joyless t5ant ( a prison1 ! mat]ials ( :i* are em]alds & rubies6 ,h[ unhappy ?is wret*6 ,h[ weak & ignoble ! man t volunt>ily accepts ^! laws ( exi/5ce60 ,9 ! advice ( ,m>gu]ite ,i saw t s\nd wisdom & disc]nm5t1 by :i* 9 all ! p]iods ( our connection %e _h be5 s em95tly *>act]is$4 ,) h] views ( ! future ,i 0 n dispos$ to accord4 ,i reg>d$ !m z obscur$ & discol\r$ by ! un=tunate /ate ( h] heal?4 ,i c\ld n inde$ refuse to believe t ! pr]ogative ,i _h receiv$ _h be5 ! p>5t ( mu* dome/ic unhapp9ess4 ,will+ly w\ld ,i h resign$ all t ,i _h d]iv$ f ! /rang]1 to be replac$ 9 ! situation 9 :i* 8 p]nici\s legacies _h f\nd me4 ,he _h robb$ me ( my son2 he _h de/roy$ my dome/ic peace2 he _h und]m9$ ! tranquillity & heal? ( ! p>tn] ( my life4 ,^! calamities press$ ) a heavy & intol]able weight at my he>t4 ,b1 if1 z ,m>gu]ite affirm$1 !y 7 irretrievable1 or if !y c\ld once be remov$1 & ! dome/ic advantages ,i _h h]et(ore enjoy$ be re/or$1 ,i 0 n dispos$ to fe> ^? ext]nal mis*iefs :i* ,m>gu]ite s feel+ly pr$ict$4 ,i c\ld n believe t ,i %\ld h su* a league ( =eign enemies to enc\nt]1 nor c\ld ,i easily image to myself any ext]nal evils :i* x 0 n 9 ! p[] ( gold to rem$y4 ,^! consid]ations ,i urg$ to my belov$ p>tn]1 & by en=c+ !m endeav\r$ to remove ^? gloomy appreh5sions1 f ! preval5ce ( :i* ,i fe>$ mu* injury to h] heal?4 ,!re 0 ano!r circum/ance ,i 0 l$ p>ticul>ly to insi/ on2 ,i mean ! nature ( ! secret intru/$ to me4 8,i admire y\r disc]nm5t & +5uity1 ,m>gu]ite10 said ,i1 89 y\r conjecture respect+ ! s\rce ( my weal?4 ,i admire y\r delicacy 9 n press+ me to decide ^u ! tru? ( y\r conjecture4 ,?is only ,i mu/ be p]mitt$ to say on t subject4 ,x is a secret2 & y w p]ceive t ! same reasons1 :atev] !y are1 :i* make t secret obligatory on me1 require t x %\ld be respect$ by y4 ,! same evils t my own indiscretion may draw on me1 ,i %all be equally expos$ to by any error or miscalculation ( y\rs4 ,i h !re=e mo/ e>ne/ly & solemnly to conjure y1 :atev] mis=tunes may h]eaft] befall me1 9 :atev] p]il\s situation ,i may be involv$1 t y w nev] utt] a syllable on ?is subject2 & t1 z ,i am ! select$ depository ( ?is secret1 & alone "k ) c]ta9ty :at is its nature1 y w tru/ our prosp]ity 9 ?is po9t to me40--,m>gu]ite engag$ to conduct h]self z ,i desir$4 ,! night :i* succe$$ ?is explanation1 0 p>ticul>ly soo?+ & grateful to me4 ,i 0 reliev$ f a great & oppressive bur!n4 ,i 0 consci\s ( t p>ticul> species ( pleasure :i* arises f ! resolute dis*>ge ( an h]oic duty4 ,! peace ,i felt )9 %$ its gay & reviv+ beams ^u all ar\nd me4 ,reconcil$ to myself1 ,i 0 fill$ ) sangu9e & agreeable visions ( ! future4 ,my m9d ob/9ately reject$ all d>k & hateful presages4 ,i _h intru/$ myself & ! direction ( my conduct1 z f> z x 0 possible1 to t bett] pilot1 "u ^: guidance1 if ,i _h n avoid$ ! rocks & quicks&s ( life1 ,i _h at lea/ escap$ ) little comp>ative injury4 ,i felt !re=e z if my dome/ic enjoym5ts 7 re/or$1 & ! pleasures ( my bett] ye>s 7 ab\t to run ov] aga9 _! auspici\s c>e]4 ,n s ,m>gu]ite4 ,%e 0 mild1 g5tle1 & soo?+4 ,displeasure & res5tm5t t[>ds me 7 bani%$ f h] m9d4 ,%e endeav\r$ to conqu] h] melan*oly1 & to =get ! w\nds t _h be5 s fatal to h] hopes4 ,b h] endeav\rs 7 fruitless4 ,a fix$ dejection clung to h] he>t3 nor c\ld ! g5]\s sweetness t p]vad$ h] mann]s hide f me entirely :at 0 pass+ 9 h] bosom4 ,dur+ ?is int]val we _h talk$ ov] ! plan ( our future op]ations4 ,m>gu]ite 0 exce$+ly urg5t ) me to quit ,con/ance2 nor did ,i1 ?\gh n impress$ ) h] pres5tim5ts1 feel any reluctance to t *ange ( sc5e1 :i*1 ,i believ$1 w\ld mat]ially contribute to ! s]5ity ( h] m9d & ! re/oration ( h] heal?4 ,we det]m9$ on "s ( ! cities ( ,italy z ! next place ( our resid5ce1 &1 fix$1 if possible1 to set out "s "t 9 ! next day or ! day aft]4 ,! plan ( proce$+ to ,france1 :i* _h lately be5 a fav\rite ) me1 0 a fav\rite no long]4 ,t _h be5 ! project ( *e]ful & wanton prosp]ity4 ,x _h _h = its object ! re-e/abli%m5t ( my family hon\rs1 & ! elevation ( my son4 ,n[ my son 0 lo/1 my wife 0 oppress$ ) languor & disease1 my h\se 0 ov]:elm$ ) sorr[4 ,?is 0 no "t = wantonness & triumph4 ,if ,i c\ld ev] hope to resume ! plans my frolic fancy _h sket*$1 an int]val at lea/ ( sob]] hue mu/ fir/ be suff]$ to elapse4 ,my m9d at ?is "t su/a9$ a revolution suffici5tly rem>kable1 b ( :i* ! urg5cy ( ev5ts t imm$iately succe$$ prev5t$ me f ev] asc]ta9+ :e!r x w\ld h prov$ tempor>y or p]man5t4 ,:5 ,i fir/ receiv$ ! donation ( ! /rang]1 my ?\ghts1 z ,i h already said1 7 9 a /ate ( en?usia/ic transport2 &1 amid/ ! gold5 visions 9 :i* my fancy revell$1 ,i became 9 a consid]able degree ali5at$ f dome/ic s5tim5ts & pleasures4 ,if ,i /ill lov$ my wife & *ildr51 x 0 ! love ( habit r ?an sympa?y2 m an anxiety = _! prosp]\s success 9 ! _w1 ?an an e>ne/ crav+ = _! pres5ce & int]c\rse4 ,?is /ate ( intoxication & rapture _h n[ subsid$4 ,! ev5ts ( ! few la/ weeks _h sob]$ my ?\ghts4 ,hav+ lo/ my son1 & be+ ?reat5$ ) ! loss ( 8 "m1 ,i 0 r\s$ to a s5se ( _! value4 ,! influx ( weal? & sup]natural gifts _h gr[n famili> to my m9d1 & n[ only occupi$ ! back-gr\nd ( ! picture4 ,i 0 once m a man1 & ,i hop$ to p>take ( ! privileges & advantages ( a man4 ,! fate res]v$ = ^! hopes w spe$ily be se54 ,"s read]s w p]haps ask me :y1 anxi\s z ,i 0 = ! life ( ,m>gu]ite1 & visible z 0 ! decl9e ( h] heal?1 ,i did n adm9i/] to h] ( ! elixir ( immortality :i* 0 "o ( my peculi> end[m5ts4 ,su* read]s ,i h only to rem9d1 t ! pivot ^u :i* ! hi/ory ,i am compos+ turns1 is a my/]y4 ,if !y w n accept ( my communication ^u my own t]ms1 !y mu/ lay aside my book4 ,i am engag$ 9 relat+ ! incid5ts ( my life2 ,i h no int5tion to furni% ! remote/ h9t respect+ ! sci5ce ( :i* ,i am ! depository4 ,t sci5ce af=ds abundant reasons :y ! elixir 9 "q might n1 or r c\ld n1 be imbib$ by any o!r ?an an adept4 ,,*apt] ,,xx4 ,! morn+ aft] my return to my family1 z ,i sat surr\nd$ ) my girls1 & endeav\r+ to make myself _! playmate & companion1 c]ta9 (fic]s ( ju/ice belong+ to ! supreme tribunal ( ! city ent]$ my ap>tm5t4 ,!y 7 s5t1 z !y in=m$ me1 to conduct me to prison4 ,my blood at ?is intellig5ce m\nt$ into my face4 8,to prison80 cri$ ,i--8:]e=e8--:at h ,i done8--,i am no citiz5 ( y\r /ate4 ,:at is ! *>ge aga9/ me8 ,lead me n to prison3 lead me to y\r *ief magi/rate60 8,y w be call$ up = exam9ation1 :5 8 hon\r is at leisure to he> y3 9 ! mean "t y mu/ g to prison40 8,d ^? :o s5t y "k t ,i am a native & a g5tleman ( ,france8 ,!y w be made to rep5t ?is insol5ce4 ,^u :at pret5ce d !y d>e to act ?us80 8,y w please n to talk ( insol5ce to u4 ,if y d n demean y\rself quietly----0 8,sil5ce1 fell[60 answ]$ ,i fi]cely4 8,lead ! way60 ,by ?is "t ! *ildr51 a/oni%$ at a sc5e s al>m+ & un9telligible to !m1 began to express _! t]ror 9 v>i\s ways4 ,julia1 :o 0 ready to fa9t1 occupi$ ! att5tion ( h] "m4 ,! little ,m>gu]ite clung r\nd my knees1 & express$ h] emotions by %rieks & cries4 ,to see h] fa!r ab\t to be torn f h] by f\r /rang]s1 ! peculi>ity ( ^: g>b ( (fice aggravat$ ! rud5ess ( _! c\nt5ances & ! p]emptor9ess ( _! behavi\r1 0 a spectacle :i* ! affectionat5ess ( h] nature 0 unable to endure4 8,i w g ) y pres5tly10 said ,i to ! (fic]s4 8,see1 h[ y h t]rifi$ ! *ildr560 8,nay1 sir1 if y w behave civilly1 & make x wor? our :ile1 we d n desire to hurry y40 ,i 0 /ung ) ! brutal assurance ) :i* !y ?us set ! lib]ty ( a few mom5ts at a price to me4 ,b ,i *eck$ my impati5ce4 ,i felt t x w\ld be bo? fooli% & degrad+ to ent] into cont5tion ) su* wret*es4 ,i turn$ f !m pr\dly1 & took my *ild 9 my arms4 8,i w n be long gone1 my love60 said ,i4 8,^! p h made a mi/ake1 & ,i %all soon be able to rectify x40 8,i fancy n10 mutt]$ "o ( !m surlily4 8,!y %all n take y away1 papa2 t !y %all n6 ,i w hold y1 & w n let y g60 8,y are a good girl1 ,m>gu]ite6 ,b ,i "k be/ :at is prop]1 & y mu/ n ?9k to control me4 ,! m5 w n d me any h>m1 *ild2 !y d>e n4 ,p]haps ,i %all be back to d9n]1 & mamma w !n tell me h[ good y h be540 ,z ,i spoke1 %e look$ /eadfa/ly 9 my face2 & !n1 fl++ h] arms r\nd my neck1 cri$1 8,good-by1 papa60 & bur/ into a flood ( te>s4 ,i embrac$ ! o!r *ildr5 & _! "m2 &1 say+ to ! latt] significantly1 8,fe> no?+2 y "k ,i h no?+ to fe>60--dep>t$ ) my conductors4 ,! way to ! citadel lay ?r\gh ! m>ket-place4 ,! sc5e 0 already cr[d$2 & ,i _h ! mortification to be l$ along z a crim9al1 9 ! mid/ ( a ?\s& gaz+ eyes & enquir+ tongues4 ,new z e ?+ connect$ ) my pres5t situation 0 to me1 ,i _h n anticipat$ ?is vexation4 ,i 0 /ung ) %ame & impati5ce4 8,to my dungeon60 said ,i to my conductors /]nly4 8,if y _h %[n y\rself bett] hum\r$10 cri$ ! mo/ brutal ( !m1 8we w\ld h l$ y r\nd by ! back way40 ,! ma/] ( ! prison 0 some:at less a savage ?an 8 (fic]s4 ,he knew my p]son1 & _h he>d ( my weal?4 8,does monsieur *oose ! be/ ap>tm5t80 said he4 8,any :]e t ,i c be alone60 answ]$ ,i ha/ily4 ,he hesitat$ a mom5t4 ,i look$ 9 8 face3 8,oh1 yes1 y w be paid60 ,he b[$1 & %[$ me to a room4 ,i %ut ! door z he retir$4 ,:at _h happ5$ to me 0 ( little importance 9 itself4 ,! imp]t95ce ( bailiffs & ?ief-tak]s is ( no m real mom5t ?an ! /++ ( a gnat4 ,b ,i 0 s utt]ly unacqua9t$ ) sc5es ( ?is nature6 ,! pride ( rank t swell$ )9 me made e appe>ance ( re/ra9t gall+ to my s5se4 ,f ! in/ant ,i 0 able to write1 man1 no "o1 except 9 ! volunt>y compact ( milit>y s]vice1 _h ev] said to me1 ,g !re6 or1 ,d ?is6 ,& n[1 0 ,i to be direct$ by ! v refuse ( ! species8 ,0 ,i to le>n ! prud5ce ( n reply+ to _! insults8 ,0 ,i to pur*ase1 at a /ipulat$ price1 _! pati5ce & =be>ance8--,i reque/ ! read] to p>don me = tr\bl+ him ) my noviciate feel+s3 ,i soon le>n$ to und]/& ! _w--! _w ( a prison--bett]6 ,b1 :at 0 ( m importance1 ,i 0 appreh5d$ z a crim9al3 ,i _h be5 dragg$ a prison] ( ju/ice ?r\gh ! /reets ( ,con/ance2 ,i 01 by & by1 to be subject$ to ! int]rogatories ( ! municipal tribunal4 ,i c\ld sc>cely cr$it my s5ses1 t su* an indignity _h happ5$ to ! blood ( ,/4 ,leon4 ,x is true1 ,i 0 innoc5t4 ,i 0 consci\s1 :atev] might be my imprud5ces & (f5ces t[>ds my own family1 t ,i _h done no?+ to m]it ! animadv]sion ( public ju/ice4 ,b ?is 0 ( no consequ5ce4 ,no?+1 9 my op9ion1 c\ld wipe away ! disgrace ( be+ int]rogat$1 exam9$6 ( hav+ = an in/ant imput$ to me ! possibility ( be+ a crim9al6 ,i wri!d "u ?is di%on\r1 & felt x z a sev]] attack ?an ! "q1 :i* 0 comp>atively ( c]emony & etiquette1 t _h oppress$ me 9 my resid5ce at ,dresd54 ,! next day1 :5 ,i 0 br\ght up = exam9ation1 ,i _h expect$ to be ! compla9ant1 9 dem&+ r$ress = ! injury ,i _h su/a9$4 ,b ,i 0 mi/ak54 ,i ent]$ ! room haughtily1 & ) ! air ( a man t felt himself aggriev$4 ,( ?is h[ev] ! magi/rate took no notice4 8,d y "k1 sir10 said ,i1 8t ,i am a citiz5 & a g5tleman ( ,france8 ,are y acqua9t$ ) ! treatm5t ,i h exp]i5c$8 ,h y l5t y\r au?ority to t treatm5t80 8,wait a few m9utes10 repli$ he ) an imp]i\s tone1 8& ,i %all be at leisure to att5d to y40 ,i 0 sil5t4 ,aft] ! int]val ( ne>ly a qu>t] ( an h\r1 he resum$-- 8,y call y\rself ! c\nt de ,/4 ,leon60 8,i d40 8,p]haps1 sir1 y are un9=m$ ( ! purity ) :i* ju/ice is adm9i/]$ 9 ! city )9 ^: jurisdiction y n[ /&4 ,our /ate is a small "o1 & its magi/rates are !re=e enabl$ to dis*>ge ! (fice ( a p>5t1 n only to its prop] citiz5s1 b to all /rang]s t place !mselves "u its protection40 8,i rememb]1 sir1 t sev5 ye>s ago1 ,i & my wife & f\r *ildr51 sick & unfri5d$1 7 ^u ! po9t ( p]i%+ ) hung] )9 ! walls ( ?is city60--,! fact ,i m5tion$ 0 :olly =eign to ! po9t ) :i* ,i 0 at pres5t conc]n$2 b ! p>ad+ arrogance ( ! man br\ght x =cibly to my memory1 & wrung x f my lips4 8,monsieur le comte10 repli$ he1 8y are petulant4 ,x is n ! (fice ( a /ate to fe$ ! s\ls x conta9s2 x c\ld n d t )\t mak+ !m slaves4 ,its prop] conc]n is to ma9ta9 !m 9 t security & fre$om ( action1 :i* may be/ enable !m to support !mselves40 ,i suppress$ ! emotions :i* ! tone ( ?is spee* excit$4 ,i 0 unwill+ to ent] into cont5tion ) a man :om ,i reg>d$ z inexpressibly my inf]ior4 8,is x10 cri$ ,i /]nly1 8a "p ( ! ju/ice y boa/ (1 to drag a man ( rank & a /rang] f 8 home1 )\t any intimation ( ! cause ( 8 be+ s treat$1 & !n1 in/ead ( inve/igat+ imm$iately ! *>ge aga9/ him1 to s5d him to prison unhe>d8 ,i disda9 to m5tion ! behavi\r ( y\r (fic]s3 ^? ?+s naturally gr[ out ( ! abuses practis$ by _! sup]iors40 8,! mode ( our proce$+10 repli$ he1 8dep5ds ^u ! s]i\sness ( ! crime imput$4 ,if a man ( di/9ction lab\rs "u a slight accusation only1 we !n treat him ) all prop] =be>ance & respect4 ,b1 :5 he is suspect$ ( a crime ( m ?an ord9>y magnitude1 t alt]s ! case4 ,! man :o has ceas$ to respect himself1 mu/ look = no respect f o!rs40 ,i 0 = a mom5t ?und]/ruck & spee*less4 ,at l5g? fi]cely ,i cri$1 8,produce my accus]s60 8,t is n ! mode ( proce$+ 9 ,con/ance4 ,i h c]ta9 que/ions to prop\nd to y4 ,:5 y h answ]$ !m1 we %all see :at is to be done next40 8,c>ry me be=e ! pr9ce-bi%op ( y\r city6 ,if ,i am to be exam9$ fur!r1 let x be by y\r sov]eign60 8,! pr9ce-bi%op1 mov$ by ! /ate ( our affairs 9 matt]s ( religion1 has be5 prevail$ on to delegate 8 juridical au?ority4 ,i am ! p]son to :om ! cognisance ( y\r bus9ess belongs2 & at c]ta9 times1 aid$ by my assessors1 h ! p[] ( life & dea? )9 ?is city4 ,y h _h e indulg5ce to :i* y are entitl$1 & x w be y\r wisdom to be no fur!r refractory40 8,propose y\r que/ions60 8,a p]son1 app>5tly greatly advanc$ 9 ye>s1 arriv$ 9 ! autumn ( la/ ye> at a mis]able f>m y at t "t cultivat$1 call$ ! ,cottage ( ! ,lake4 ,x is to him t my que/ions w pr9cipally relate40 ,i /ood agha/4 ,! words ( ! magi/rate 7 mo/ unwelcome s\nds4 ,i rememb]$ t ! /rang] _h said to me1 8,:5 ,i am once buri$1 speak ( me1 &1 if possible1 ?9k ( me no m40 ,i repli$ ) eag]ness & al>m-- 8,( t p]son ,i h no?+ to say4 ,sp>e y\r que/ions3 ,i h no answ] to return y60 8,:at 0 8 "n80 8,i "k n40 8,8 c\ntry80 8,i _c in=m y40 8,x is und]/ood t he di$1 or 9 "s mann] disappe>$1 :ile "u y\r protection4 ,yet 9 ! regi/]s ( ! *ur* !re is no notice ( t ev5t4 ,if he di$1 no application 0 made = ! rites ( religion to him dy+1 or to 8 body :5 8 _s _h des]t$ x4 ,y are requir$ to answ]1 :at became ( him or 8 rema9s80 8,i h already told y1 t f me y w obta9 no in=mation40 8,"o "q m1 sir4 ,sev5 ye>s ago1 y tell me1 y & y\r family 7 p]i%+ ) hung]4 ,soon aft]1 y remov$ f obscure lodg+s 9 ?is city to ! cottage ( ! lake1 & seem$ to be laudably employ$ 9 e>n+ = y\rself a scanty livelihood ) ! lab\r ( y\r h&s4 ,b )9 ! la/ six mon?s ! sc5e is :olly *ang$4 ,y appe> to h sudd5ly gr[n ri*1 & "h1 & 9 o!r p>ts ( ,g]many1 h actually disburs$ consid]able sums4 ,:5ce comes ?is *ange80 ,! tra9 ( que/ions ?us propos$ to me1 impell$ me to a s]i\s reply4 8,monsieur le juge10 said ,i1 8,i am a /rang]1 a native ( ,france1 & a man ( rank 9 my own c\ntry4 ,i h paid y\r /ate ! complim5t ( *oos+ x = my resid5ce4 ,i h exp5d$ my indu/ry1 ,i exp5d my weal? among y4 ,i h comport$ myself z a peaceable inhabitant4 ,no action ( my life has br\ght sc&al ^u y\r /ate1 or di/urb$ ! peace & tranquillity ( y\r affairs4 ,i _c collect f any ?+ y h said1 t ,i h any accus]1 or t any *>ge has be5 alleg$ aga9/ me4 ,till t happ5s1 ,i _c fall "u y\r animadv]sion4 ,i am a man ( g5]\s bir? & hon\rable s5tim5ts4 ,to myself & my own consci5ce only am ,i acc\ntable = my exp5diture & my income4 ,i disda9 to answ] to any tribunal on e>? an enquiry ( ?is sort4 ,& n[1 sir1 9 conclusion1 :at ,i dem& ( y is1 fir/1 my lib]ty2 & secondly1 an ample rep>ation = ! int]ruption ,i h su/a9$1 & ! insults to :i* ,i h causelessly be5 expos$40 8,y are mi/ak51 sir10 said ! magi/rate4 8,:at y m5tion may be ! rule ( adm9i/]+ ju/ice 9 "s /ates4 ,!y may decide1 if !y ?9k prop]1 t "s op5 act1 app>5tly ( a crim9al description1 mu/ be alleg$ aga9/ a man1 be=e he c become an object ( animadv]sion to ! /ate4 ,b 9 ,con/ance1 z ,i h already told y1 ! gov]nm5t assumes to act ! "p ( a p>5t to its subjects4 ,i sit "h1 n m]ely to inve/igate & exam9e def9ite acts1 b z a c5sor morum2 & ,i %\ld violate ! oa? ( my (fice1 if ,i did n l5d a vigilant att5tion to ! behavi\r & conduct ( e "o )9 my jurisdiction4 ,! city ( ,con/ance requires t no?+ immoral1 lic5ti\s1 or ( suspici\s "*1 %all be transact$ )9 its walls4 ,y\r proce$+s h escap$ notice too long2 mu* long] ?an !y w\ld h done b = y\r late abs5ce4 ,9 cases :]e :at is committ$ is m]ely immoral or lic5ti\s1 we cont5t ourselves ) s5d+ ! (f5d] out ( our walls4 ,b y\r case is ( a complicat$ nature4 ,x has sc&alis$ all ! inhabitants ( our virtu\s & religi\s city4 ,unless y answ] my enquiries1 & give a cle> & satisfactory acc\nt ( y\r weal?1 ,i am b\nd to believe t !re is some?+ 9 ! bus9ess t w n be> ! light4 ,! co9cid5ce ( times obliges me to connect ! disappe>ance ( y\r gue/1 & ! sudd5 gr[? ( y\r =tune4 ,?is connection gives rise to ! mo/ al>m+ suspicions4 ,i h !re=e to in=m y t1 unless y hon\rably cle> up ^! suspicions by ! mo/ ample communication1 my duty directs me to rem& y to prison1 & to assure y t y w n be lib]at$ !nce till y h satisfi$ ! :ole ( my int]rogatories40 8,?9k delib]ately10 answ]$ ,i1 8( y\r decision be=e y =m x4 ,y\r prisons ,i despise2 b ,i w n suff] my reputation & my hon\r to be trifl$ )4 ,i came be=e y will+ly1 ?\gh ,i c\ld easily h avoid$ do+ s2 because ,i 0 eag] to cle> my fame4 ,i expect$ accus]s1 & ,i knew ,i c\ld conf\nd accusation4 ,b :at is ?is t y call ju/ice8 ,y put toge!r circum/ances 9 y\r own m9d3 y =m conjectures2 & !n1 )\t in=mation1 accus]1 or oa?1 )\t ! semblance ( guilt1 y condemn me to prison1 & expect to extort f me confession4 ,9 defect ( articles ( *>ge ,i disda9 to answ]3 ! only return a man ( hon\r %\ld make to loose conjectures & r&om calumnies is sil5ce4 ,i am desc5d$ f a race ( h]oes1 knights ( ! cross1 & *ampions ( ,france2 & _! blood has n deg5]at$ 9 my ve9s4 ,i feel myself animat$ by ! s\l ( hon\r1 & incapable ( crime4 ,i "k my innoc5ce1 & ,i re/ ^u x ) confid5ce4 ,y\r vulg> citiz5s1 habituat$ to none b ! grovel+ notions ( traffic & b>t]1 are n ! pe]s ( ,/4 ,leon1 nor able to compreh5d ! views & s5tim5ts by :i* he is guid$40 8,y are mighty well-spok51 monsieur ,/4 ,leon10 repli$ ! magi/rate1 8& y\r words are big & s\nd+2 b we "k t ! devil c assume ! =m ( an angel1 & t ! mo/ infam\s & pr(ligate "* c pron\nce ) emphasis s5tim5ts ( ! pure/ virtue4 ,y are pleas$ to decide t ! presumptions aga9/ y are no?+ b calumnies4 ,is x no?+ t1 hav+ receiv$ a /rang] & reta9$ him ) y = mon?s1 y endeav\r$ to conceal ?is fact1 & nev] suff]$ him to be se5 by a human creature8 ,is 8 f9al disappe>ance no?+8 ,is x no?+ t1 suppos+ him to be dead1 z he probably is1 y d5i$ to 8 rema9s ! rites ( fun]al1 & refuse to tell :at is become ( ! body8 ,is x no?+ t1 ^u ! dea? ( ?is /rang]1 y1 :o 7 be=e 9 a /ate almo/ ( p5ury1 sudd5ly appe> to be possess$ ( unb\nd$ ri*es8 ,:]e is ! w ( ?is /rang]8 ,9 :at ar*ives h y deposit$ ! decl>ation ( 8 weal?8 ,let me tell y1 sir1 t ^! presumptions1 :i* y call no?+1 =m a body ( circum/antial evid5ce t1 9 _m c\ntries1 w\ld h l$ y to ! scaffold z a murd]]4 ,b ! laws ( ,con/ance1 :i* y audaci\sly revile1 are ! milde/ 9 ! univ]se4 ,"h we nev] put a man to dea? b on 8 own confession4 ,we simply condemn him to p]petual imprisonm5t1 or until he makes a decl>ation ( 8 guilt4 ,y refuse to decl>e ! "n or c\ntry ( ! man :om y are suspect$ ( murd]+1 & !n h ! assurance to boa/ t no private accus] rises aga9/ y4 ,no1 sir1 we "k !re c be no private accus]1 :]e ! connections ( ! p>ty c be successfully conceal$4 ,b %all ?is concealm5t1 :i* is an aggravation ( ! murd]1 prove its security8 ,9 conclusion1 y boa/ ( y\r blood & h]oic s5tim5ts1 & rail at our citiz5s z %opkeep]s & m]*ants4 ,let me tell y1 sir1 %opkeep]s & m]*ants ?\gh we are1 we %\ld scorn to conduct ourselves 9 ! obscure & suspici\s mann] t y h done4 ,&1 n[ ,i h tak5 ! tr\ble to refute y\r flimsy pret5ces1 :i* x 0 :olly unnecess>y = me to d1 ,i h done ) y4 ,y "k y\r de/9ation1 unless y are prep>$ imm$iately to give a satisfactory acc\nt ( y\rself & y\r proce$+s40 ,f9d+ x impossible to make on ?is man ! impression ,i desir$1 ,i decl9$ ent]+ into fur!r p>ley2 &1 tell+ him t ,i %\ld convey a repres5tation ( my case to my native sov]eign1 & did n d\bt soon to make him feel ! ra%ness ( 8 proce$+1 ,i )drew1 9 ! cu/ody ( ! (fic]s :o _h conduct$ me to ! sc5e ( audi5ce4 ,i 01 ,i confess1 /ruck ) ! co9cid5ce ( circum/ances1 :i* ! magi/rate _h plac$ 9 a fight equally unexpect$ & =cible1 & :i* ,i n[ saw calculat$ to subject me to ! mo/ injuri\s suspicions4 ,i 0 n dispos$ 9 ! smalle/ degree to yield to ! attack1 b ,i felt a desire to act delib]ately & ) caution4 ,! :ole ( :at ,i _h he>d 0 utt]ly un=ese51 & x 0 ) peculi> angui% t ,i became aw>e ( ?is new consequ5ce ( ! /rang]'s p]nici\s donation4 ,?is 0 a consequ5ce t no resignation1 no abjuration ( 8 beque/s c\ld cure2 & t mu/ be /ood up to ) manly c\rage1 if any hope 7 ent]ta9$ ( av]t+ x4 ,,*apt] ,,xxi4 ,! appe>ance ( weal? t accompani$ me _h by ?is "t made its impression ^u my keep]s2 & "o ( !m n[ in=m$ me1 t monsieur ,monluc1 an ag5t ( ! c\rt ( ,france1 :o 0 mak+ a t\r ( sev]al ( ! ,g]man /ates by ord] ( 8 sov]eign1 _h arriv$ ! night be=e at ! city ( ,con/ance4 ,!re 0 no repres5tative ( my c\ntry regul>ly resid5t "h1 & ,i imm$iately felt ! pres5ce ( ,monluc to be ! mo/ =tunate ev5t t c\ld h occurr$ = effect+ my hon\rable deliv]ance4 ,selfi%ness & av>ice1 x may be ?\ght1 w\ld r h impell$ ! p]sons :o _h me 9 cu/ody to conceal f me a circum/ance calculat$ to deprive !m ( an advantage\s prey4 ,b 9 ^? grovel+ s\ls f :om ri*es nev] fail to extort homage1 h[ev] /range x may seem1 ! homage (t5 appe>s dis9t]e/$4 ,!y pay x by a sort ( irresi/ible in/9ct2 &1 admir+ :at !y covet1 at an awful di/ance1 ) difficulty assume ! c\rage to pollute _! wor%ip ) ideas ( calculation & ga94 ,i imm$iately address$ a memorial to ?is gallant soldi]1 ) ^: p]son inde$ ,i 0 unacqua9t$1 b ! fame ( ^: _s & ent]prise _h n fail$ to h rea*$ me4 ,i repres5t$ to him t ,i 0 a ,fr5*man ( family & di/9ction2 t ,i _h be5 seiz$ ^u & 0 reta9$ 9 prison by ! magi/rates "h1 )\t accus] or ! hope ( a trial2 t ,i _h n be5 guilty ( ! %ad[ ( a crime2 & t ,i knew ! b5ignity & c\rage ( my sov]eign w\ld nev] p]mit a subject ( ,france to langui% "u calumny & oppression 9 a =eign c\ntry4 ,i add$1 t he w\ld d an acceptable s]vice to k+ ,francis1 to :om ,i _h ! hon\r to be kn[n1 by int]f]+ 9 my fav\r2 & !re=e entreat$ him to obta9 = me imm$iate ju/ice & deliv]ance4 ,monluc return$ me an answ] by ! be>] ( my memorial1 assur+ me t he w\ld lose no "t 9 enquir+ into ! m]its ( my case1 & t ,i might dep5d ^u receiv+ e assi/ance f him t a man ( hon\r c\ld desire4 ,! w>m? & frankness ( ?is answ] fill$ me ) hope1 = !re 0 no deliv]ance f my pres5t situation t ,i c\ld contemplate ) satisfaction1 b su* a "o z %\ld be accompani$ ) rep>ation & clat4 ,?ree days h[ev] elaps$ be=e ,i he>d aga9 f ! ,fr5* envoy4 ,on ! morn+ ( ! f\r? he ann\nc$ 8 int5tion ( visit+ me2 &1 ab\t an h\r aft]1 arriv$ at ! prison4 ,8 appe>ance 0 /rik+4 ,he 0 tall1 sl5d]1 & well made1 ) a fre$om ( c>riage1 n d]iv$ f ! poli% ( c\rts1 b :i* appe>$ to fl[ f ! manl9ess & active en]gies ( 8 m9d4 ,8 hair & complexion 7 d>k2 ! =m]1 ?\gh he 0 /ill "y1 r scantily %ad$ a high & ample =ehead4 ,8 features 7 expressive ( ! sangu9e & adu/ temp] ( 8 m9d2 &1 ?\gh 8 eye 0 animat$1 8 c\nt5ance1 z he ent]$1 /ruck me z p>ticul>ly solemn4 8,y are ! c\nt de ,/4 ,leon80 said he4 8,i am40 8,y s5t me a memorial a few days ago compla9+ ( ! tribunal ( ?is city3 ,i am afraid1 sir1 ,i c d no?+ = y40 ,my c\nt5ance fell z he spoke2 ,i gasp$ = brea?4 ,i _h conceiv$ a mo/ fav\rable anticipation z he ent]$1 & my disappo9tm5t 0 p>ticul>ly cruel4 ,i _h said 9 my he>t1 ,?is is ! v man to rescue my injur$ fame4 8,i see1 sir1 y are disappo9t$10 resum$ he4 8,i h n giv5 up ! affair3 if ,i _h1 ?is visit1 :i* ,i design z a m>k ( att5tion1 w\ld be an insult4 ,! mom5t ,i receiv$ y\r memorial1 ,i paid ! utmo/ reg>d to x4 ,if ! affair _h be5 z y repres5t$ x1 ,i "k ,i c\ld n d any ?+ m acceptable to my sov]eign ?an int]f]e 9 y\r behalf4 ,i h sp5t ! :ole int]val 9 inve/igat+ ! case4 ,i h se5 ! magi/rate :o committ$ y2 ,i h visit$ ! spot :]e y\r crime is alleg$ to h be5 p]petrat$2 ,i h _h an int]view ) y\r wife40 8,well1 sir10 cri$ ,i1 al>m$ & impati5t--8well1 sir1 & ! result80 8,appe>ances are uncommonly /rong aga9/ y3 !y c sc>cely he /rong]4 ,b y h a "r to be he>d2 x is = ! sake ( dis*>g+ t la/ act ( ju/ice t y see me ?is morn+40 8,great ,god60 exclaim$ ,i1 ov]:elm$ ) *agr91 8is if possible t my c\ntryman1 ! man to :om ,i 0 pr\d & happy to appeal1 ! gallant ,monluc1 %\ld believe me a murd]]8 ,i swe> by e ?+ t is sacr$1 by ! blood ( him t di$ = me on ! cross1 & by my et]nal salvation1 t ,i am z innoc5t z ! *ild unborn60 8,i am glad to he> y express y\rself ) ?is emphasis & f]v\r4 ,i _c b say t to my own feel+s x has great weight4 ,b ,i mu/ n suff] myself z a man1 & /ill less 9 ! public capacity 9 :i* ,i /&1 to be ov]come & conf\nd$ by y\r assev]ations4 ,!re is a connect$ & mo/ unfav\rable /ory aga9/ y3 ?is x is incumb5t on y to cle> up40 8,& y say1 y h se5 my wife80 ,i 0 di/ract$ & ov]:elm$ by ,monluc's way ( putt+ ! "q4 ,i 0 divid$ betwe5 my anxiety to be ju/ifi$1 & ! solemn my/]y ( ! affair to :i* 8 enquiries l$2 & ,i probably spoke ?us f an unconsci\s desire to ga9 "t4 8,yes1 t is ano!r presumption 9 y\r fav\r4 ,madame de ,/4 ,leon is p]haps ! mo/ /rik+ & extraord9>y woman ,i ev] saw4 ,( ! husb& ( su* a woman1 especially :5 he appe>s to be ! object ( h] atta*m5t1 ,i %\ld be always incl9$ to ?9k well4 ,madame de ,/4 ,leon plead$ = y ) e>ne/ness & affection4 ,b1 amid/ all h] ard\r1 ,i c\ld p]ceive t %e felt !re 0 some?+ my/]i\s & unpleasant 9 ! affair1 t %e 0 unable to develope40 ,z ,monluc spoke1 ,i saw t ,i _h fail$ 9 "o ( ! ma9 an*ors ( my hope4 ,i ?\ght t no "o c\ld h talk$ ) my belov$ ,m>gu]ite1 & h left h] ) ! op9ion t ,i 0 a murd]]4 ,h[ did ?is happ58 ,0 %e lukew>m & unfai?ful 9 my v9dication8 8,:at %e10 cont9u$ my c\ntryman1 8,i c\ld see1 0 n only unable to expla91 b did n fully und]/&1 x is y alone c cle>2 ! concealm5t ( ! /rang]1 8 disappe>ance1 :at became ( ! body1 & y\r own sudd5 transition f pov]ty to weal?40 ,i 0 by ?is "t fully s5sible ( ! nature ( my situation4 ,i summon$ my =titude2 ,i felt t ,i _h no long] any hope b 9 ! dignity ( innoc5ce4 8,y call on me = explanation10 repli$ ,i4 8,c y n conceive1 gallant ,monluc1 t ,i may be able to resolve y\r d\bts1 & yet t ,i w n8 ,explanation is n ! bus9ess ( a man ( hon\r4 ,he _c /oop to x4 ,he w w9 ! applause & approbation ( mank9d1 if won1 9 sil5ce4 ,he w hold on ! ev5 c\rse ( a g5]\s _s1 & turn nei!r to ! "r nor to ! left1 to c\rt ! suffrage1 or deprecate ! condemnation ( a giddy multitude4 ,su*1 my brave c\ntryman1 h be5 ! maxims ( my pa/ life2 su* w be ! maxims ( my future40 8,i admire10 answ]$ ,monluc1 8at lea/ ! gallantry ( ^! s5tim5ts1 ?\gh ,i may be incl9$ to d\bt _! prud5ce4 ,b1 if su* is y\r det]m9ation1 p]mit me to say1 y h no conc]n ) me4 ,he :o resolutely )holds explanation1 mu/ arm himself ) pati5ce1 & ei!r wait ! op]ation ( "t1 or re/ satisfi$ ) ! consci\sness ( 8 innoc5ce40 8,& is t all8 ,w !re n be "s noble spirits1 :o1 sep>at+ !mselves f ! h]d1 w judge ( him by :at !y feel 9 _! own brea/s1 & be drawn to him ) an irresi/ible impulse8 ,0 x n natural t ,i %\ld expect ,monluc to be "o ( ^!8 ,x w\ld be h>d inde$1 if he :o disda9s to temporise ) popul>ity1 & to v9dicate himself f ! ung5]\s con/ructions ( sordid m9ds1 %\ld n by t v proce$+ secure ! fri5d%ip & sympa?y ( ^?1 ^: fri5d%ip x w be mo/ grateful to him to possess40 8,! fri5ds ( an innoc5t man1 :om a comb9ation ( circum/ances has expos$ to ! mo/ pa9ful suspicions1 mu/ always be few4 ,he c sc>cely expect ! acquittal & sympa?y ( a /rang]4 ,i mu/ "k1 ,i mu/ h felt & obs]v$ 9 a man a ?\s& virtues1 be=e ,i c be entitl$ to treat accumulat$ presumptions aga9/ him z no?+40 8,& ?us !n are to end my hopes 9 ,monluc8 ,he does n feel t ,i am innoc5t8 ,he does n recognise 9 me ! c\nt5ance1 ! voice1 ! turn ( ?\ght1 ( a bro!r1 a man no less incapable ?an himself ( e ?+ disgraceful & ignom9i\s8 ,be x s6 ,i w1 z y advise me1 re/ ^u ! consci\sness ( my innoc5ce4 ,a ,fr5*man1 ! desc5dant ( illu/ri\s ance/ors1 long an exile1 long ! victim ( adv]sity1 b at all times consci\s ( ! purity ( my s5tim5ts & ! integrity ( my conduct1 ,i w n suff] myself to be ov]:elm$ ) ?is la/ des]tion1 ?is ultimate refusal ( ju/ice60 8,c\nt de ,/4 ,leon6 y\r appeal is full ( en]gy4 ,9 :atev] way ,i decide1 x w leave an unpleasant s5sation 9 my brea/4 ,let u suppose t1 z a private man1 ,i c\ld take y to my arms1 & dismiss e unfav\rable appe>ance f my m9d4 ,y mu/ rememb] t ,i am "h 9 a public "*1 & t only 9 a public "* am ,i capable ( af=d+ y assi/ance4 ,?us situat$1 ,i am b\nd to resi/ ! impulses ( a romantic & irregul> confid5ce1 & to d no?+ ( :i* ,i %all n be able to r5d] a cle> & intelligible acc\nt4 8,let u n "p ?us6 ,x is n ! v9dication ( y\r "* to ! _w1 ) :i* we are at pres5t conc]n$4 ,x is only necess>y t y %\ld furni% a suffici5t gr\nd to ju/ify me to myself = int]f]+ 9 y\r behalf4 ,expla9 to me ! p>ticul>s ( y\r case1 9 confid5ce if y w1 b fully & )\t res]ve4 ,i w n abuse y\r confid5ce4 ,i w make no use ( y\r communication1 b su* z y %all y\rself approve4 ,only enable me to h a reason = act+1 t is n m]ely capable ( be+ felt1 b t ,i may "k is 9 its own nature capable ( be+ /at$ to ano!r4 ,x is ^u me t y call to take c]ta9 measures2 y mu/ enable me to judge ( _! propriety4 8,y are mi/ak5 :5 y suppose ! appe>ances aga9/ y to be slight4 ,x is n a slight circum/ance1 t y pr(ess to be ignorant (1 or h refus$ to disclose1 ! c\ntry1 ! connections1 & ev5 ! "n ( ! /rang] :om y s anxi\sly conceal$4 ,! disappe>ance ( 8 body is /ill m extraord9>y4 ,:at intelligible motive1 except a guilty "o1 c ,i assign = t8 ,b y\r sudd5 weal? imm$iately aft] ?is disappe>ance1 is especially mat]ial4 ,x is a broad & gl>+ fact1 t m5 _c %ut _! eyes on1 if !y w\ld4 ,! *a9 & comb9ation ( ev5ts1 t proce$s sy/ematically f l9k to l9k1 is ! crit]ion ( guilt & ! protector ( reputation4 ,y\r case1 z x n[ /&s1 is sc>cely to be t]m$ equivocal3 ^u ! supposition ( y\r crim9ality all is pla9 & easy to be acc\nt$ =2 ^u any o!r supposition x appe>s an inscrutable my/]y4 ,place b ! balance ev52 pres5t to me an exposition ( ^! facts1 t %all make y\r innoc5ce n less probable ?an y\r guilt2 &1 z ,i feel myself int]e/$ = y & y\r family1 & z ! presumption1 :5 matt]s are d\btful1 ought always to be on ! fav\rable side1 ,i cons5t to be y\r fri5d60 8,h[ un=tunate10 ,i exclaim$1 8am ,i doom$ to be6 ,y\r proposal is lib]al & g5]\s2 b ,i mu/ refuse x6 ,my /ory is an unhappy "o3 p>ticul>s h be5 repos$ 9 my fidelity1 :i* ,i am n at lib]ty to communicate1 b :i*1 if communicat$1 y w\ld n reg>d z di%on\rable4 ,i may be made ! m>tyr ( infamy1 & ! abhorr5ce ( my species2 ,i c endure adv]sity & angui%2 ,i c die2 b t :i* y dem& f me nev] c be confid$ to any mortal e>60 8,z y please10 rejo9$ ,monluc4 8,! secrets ( a dead man1 to be pres]v$ aft] 8 dea?1 & t to ! ru9 ( him :o is _! depository1 mu/1 ,i believe1 be villan\s secrets2 & ! secret ( a villa9 no "o is b\nd to obs]ve4 ,y mu/ fur!r give me leave to tell y1 t1 :atev] a high-/ra9$ s5se ( hon\r might dictate 9 t po9t1 ! =tune y possess is y\r own affair1 & to dissipate or n ! my/]y :i* hangs ^u t is :olly at y\r discretion4 ,b ,i h already advanc$ z f>1 p]haps fur!r1 ?an circum/ances or propriety c\ld ju/ify1 & !re c n[ be no m p>ley betwe5 u40 8,monluc10 cri$ ,i1 8,i submit6 ,h[ev] h>% y\r decision is z t[>ds me1 h[ev] pa9ful & un=tunate its consequ5ces1 ,i w admit x to be t :i* duty prescribes to y4 ,i /ruggle1 ,i cont5d1 no fur!r4 ,"o ?+ only ,i w\ld will+ly obta9 ( y1 t y w\ld int]pose y\r influ5ce to obta9 = me ! society & int]c\rse ( my family4 ,! transaction ( ?is day w !n be rememb]$ by me ) respect t[>ds y1 & a melan*oly regret t ,i c\ld n entitle myself to y\r e/eem4 ,i %all recollect ) pleasure t ,i owe some?+ to ! g5]osity ( ,monluc40 8,incr$ible p]t9acity60 exclaim$ my visitor1 ) a voice ( p]plexity & a/oni%m5t4 8,:at am ,i to conceive ( y8 ,"u :at appe>ance %all ,i consid] y 9 ! records ( my memory8 ,y\r sil5ce is ! indication ( guilt1 & 9 t indication ,i ought to acquiesce4 ,yet ! =titude ( y\r mann]1 & some?+1 ,i "k n :at1 ( emotion1 t y\r mann] produces 9 my own bosom1 w\ld fa9 p]suade me y are innoc5t4 ,:y w y leave me a prey to ?is cont5tion ( ?\ght8 ,if all m51 con/itut$ z ,i am1 7 to feel 9 y1 z x 71 ! magnetism ( innoc5ce1 %ame1 ! simple inf]5ce ( und]/&+1 & ! g5]al s5se ( mank9d1 w\ld oblige !m to treat y z guilty4 ,:at ,i c h[ev]1 be assur$ ,i w *e]fully d = y4 ,i _c deliv] y f prison1 b ,i w n fail to obta9 ! mitigation y ask4 ,f>ewell60 ,su* 0 ! issue ( my int]view ) ,monluc4 ,x 0 cle> t my reputation 0 w\nd$ beyond ! p[] ( rem$y4 ,:ile ! "q _h only be5 ( a magi/rate1 haughty1 sup]cili\s1 insol5t & unfeel+1 ,i flatt]$ myself t ! h>%ness ( ! conclusions t 7 drawn1 might be ascrib$ to ! depravity ( 8 "*4 ,b ,monluc 0 ! rev]se ( ?is man4 ,he 0 n less g5]\s & h]oic ?an ! magi/rate 0 gross & illib]al4 ,8 desire to relieve me 0 n less app>5t ?an ! magi/rate's eag]ness to oppress4 ,yet 8 conclusion 0 ! same1 & 0 felt by me s mu* ! m bitt]ly1 9 proportion to ! humanity1 ! k9dness1 ! intrepidity1 & ! virtue1 ( ! man f :om x fl[$4 ,virtue & vice1 b>b>ism & ref9em5t1 7 equally engag$ 9 ! conc]t aga9/ me1 & !re 0 no *ance ,i %\ld triumph 9 a cont5tion ) s _m enemies4 ,i might n[ be said to h rea*$ ! end ( my adv5ture3 ,i _h clos$ "o gr& exp]im5t ^u ! donation ( ! /rang]4 ,:at _h x produc$ to me8 ,n "o atom ( ! b5efits ,i anticipat$2 n a p>ticle ( ^? advantages :i* a little :ile ago _h made ! intoxications ( my wak+ dreams4 ,its fruits _h be5 di/a/eful & loa?some4 ,:e!r ,i look$ to my p]son1 my family1 or my fame1 ,i _h felt 9 all ! mis]able effects ( ?is trea*]\s & delusive gift4 ,my p]son 0 %ut up 9 prison2 & ,i 0 n[ to make an exp]im5t :e!r1 by cl&e/9e & secret proce$+s1 weal? c\ld re/ore to me ! lib]ty ( :i* weal? _h depriv$ me4 ,my family 0 bla/$2 my wife 0 /ruck to ! he>t1 & no mortal skill c\ld re/ore ! w\nd %e _h suff]$2 my son 0 gone unaid$ into volunt>y exile1 t he might %un ! contagion ( my follies2 :at 0 ,i to d ) ! poor rema9s ( my h\se1 =lorn1 deject$1 & wret*$8 ,! w\nd my good "n _h receiv$1 0 ( ! mo/ decisive species4 ,:5 ,i fir/ enc\nt]$ contumely at ,dresd51 & 0 call$ on = explanation by ,coligny1 ! difficulties ( my condition /ruck angui% to my s\l4 ,b :at 7 !y1 comp>$ ) :at _h n[ ov]tak5 me8 ,i 0 *>g$ ) robb]y & murd]1 ) e ?+ t comb9es ! :ole species aga9/ ! p]petrator1 & det]m9es !m1 )\t s5se ( compunction1 to extirpate him f ! face ( ! e>?4 ,p]haps x 0 only by ! c\rtesy ( ! laws ( ?is /ate1 t ,i 0 p]mitt$ my *oice betwe5 an ignom9i\s dea? & p]petual imprisonm5t4 ,i might possibly inde$ escape f my conf9em5t2 ,i might pass into a di/ant c\ntry2 ,i might be =tunate en\gh to cut (f all connection betwe5 my pa/ & my future life1 & ?us ent] ^u a new c>e]4 ,b ?is to a man ( hon\rable m9d is a mis]able exp$i5t4 ,) :at feel+s does he recollect1 t !re is a spot :]e 8 "n is abhorr$1 :]e a /ory is told aga9/ him to excite ! wond] ( ! ignorant1 & ! torpid feel+s ( ! sluggi% s\l1 a /ory to d>k5 ) new infamy ! records ( guilt1 & to infect ! imag9ation ( ! solit>y man ) nameless horrors8 ,to be ! !me ( su* a tale1 is no common evil4 ,no matt] h[ f> ! man to :om x relates1 %all remove f ! dete/$ spot2 ! spot itself ) all its *a9 ( circum/ances1 w (t5 recur2 ! voices t repuls$ & humbl$ him w r+ 9 8 e>2 ! degrad$ figure he made w rise = ev] fre% to 8 imag9ation4 ,he _c asc5d to any free & l(ty s5tim5t2 he _c atta9 ! heal?ful tone ( unblemi%$ virtue2 :]ev] he goes1 he c>ries ! arr[ ( disgrace 9 8 bosom1 &1 :5 he w\ld erect 8 head on high1 x rem9ds him ( ! pa/1 & /+s him to ! he>t4 ,if ! consci\sness ( all ?is w\ld h be5 pa9ful to any o!r man1 :at 0 x to me1 :o _h be5 br\ght up f my infancy 9 ! op9ion t fame 0 ! fir/ ( all human possessions1 & to :om hon\r & an unimpea*$ integrity _h ev] be5 m necess>y ?an my daily food1 or ?an ! life :i* t food support$8 ,:at w\ld ,i n h giv5 c\ld ,i h return$ to ! situation 9 :i* ! inauspici\s arrival ( ! /rang] _h f\nd me8 ,b t 0 impossible4 ,if all t ,i _h rec5tly pass$ ?r\gh c\ld b h prov$ a dream1 if ,i c\ld h awak5$ & fre$ myself f ! phantoms ( ?is horrible vision1 h[ happy beyond all names ( happ9ess %\ld ,i by su* an ev5t h be5 made6 ,:at a lesson w\ld x h taught me ( ! empt9ess & futility ( human wi%es6 ,:at a sov]eign contempt w\ld x h impress$ ^u me = weal? & all its tra9 ( o/5tation6 ,h[ pr(\nd a feel+ ( cont5tm5t ) humble circum/ances & a n>r[ /ation w\ld x h produc$ 9 my m9d6 ,alas1 ! conception ( ^? advantages & t peace 0 ! illusion1 & n ! evils ,i _h su/a9$1 & f :i* ,i c\ld n escape6 ,,*apt] ,,xxii4 ,mean:ile x 0 necess>y t ,i %\ld make ! be/ ( ! pres5t circum/ances4 ,my he>t 0 w\nd$2 my _s 0 9 a mann] brok52 b n s utt]ly )]$ & de/roy$ z to make me re/ sup9e 9 p]petual imprisonm5t4 ,i felt ) equal conviction & pung5cy t my "* & my happ9ess _h su/a9$ ! deepe/ injuries2 b ,i felt x incumb5t on me to collect & improve ! fragm5ts t rema9$4 ,= "s days inde$ aft] ! conf]5ce ) ,monluc1 ,i 0 sunk 9 ! deepe/ dejection4 ,b1 z t dejection subsid$1 ,i began to turn a /eady att5tion ^u ! future4 ,i recollect$ t an et]nal & inexhau/ible gift des]v$ to be made ! subject ( m ?an "o exp]im5t1 be=e a decision 0 =m$ ^u its m]its4 ,i %all become wis]1 said ,i1 z ,i g =w>d4 ,exp]i5ce1 h[ev] bitt]1 w tea* me sagacity & discrim9ation4 ,my next exp]im5t %all be made ) m prud5ce & a sob]] gradation4 ,i w remove to "s di/ant c\ntry1 :]e ! disadvantages ( my pa/ adv5tures %all n foll[ me4 ,i w take a new "n4 ,i %all !n enjoy ! b5efit ( a tyro j ent]+ a sc5e1 to all ! p]sonages ( :i* he is :olly unkn[n4 ,i %all be l a s]p5t t has /ripp$ its t>ni%$ & wr9kl$ sk91 & comes =? 9 all ! gloss & sleekness ( y\?4 ,surely1 9 an unkn[n l&1 ) ! prejudice ( weal? 9 my fav\r1 & no prejudices aga9/ me1 ,i %all "k h[ to conduct myself s z to obta9 hon\r & respect4 ,x is impossible t inexhau/ible weal? & immortal y\?1 gifts s e>ne/ly covet$ by e creature t lives1 gifts :i* if ,i 7 kn[n to possess1 my :ole species f ! m]e impulses ( envy w\ld probably comb9e to murd] me1 z n able to endure ! sight ( "o s elevat$ above 8 bre?r51--x is impossible t su* gifts %\ld n be pregnant ) v>iety ( joy4 ,m>gu]ite greatly contribut$ to raise me f ! dejection1 into :i* my imprisonm5t & ! conf]5ce ( ,monluc _h sunk me4 ,%e 0 my bett] g5ius4 ,i _h be5 s accu/om$ to receive consolation f h] lips 9 ! mo/ try+ circum/ances1 t n[ ! v s\nd ( h] voice 0 able to smoo? my wr9kl$ br[1 & calm my agitat$ _s4 ,i li/5$ z to ! s\nd ( an angelic lyre2 ,i 0 all e>2 ,i drank 9 ! acc5ts ( h] tongue2 &1 9 ! de> delight1 my c>es 7 hu%$1 & my sorr[s at an end4 ,%e talk$ to me ( h] daught]s1 :om %e repres5t$ z ab\t to h no protector b _! fa!r2 %e urg$ me to wat* ov] !m1 & to take su* /eps z %\ld mo/ conduce to _! future virtue & happ9ess2 %e po9t$ out ! practicability ( escape1 & recomm5d$ to me to fly to "s di/ant c\ntry3 ! dreams ( future prosp]ity f ! gifts ( ! /rang] 7 n h]s2 !y 7 all my own4 ,x 0 inexpressibly affect+ at ?is "t to receive consolation f h]1 :o _h no consolation 9 h] own brea/1 :o _h bid f>ewell to all ! gay attractions ( ! _w1 & talk$ famili>ly ( h] dea? z a ?+ c]ta9 to happ5 9 no v long "t4 ,%e _h lo/ ! pure/ gratifications ( ! dome/ic sc5e2 %e _h lo/ h] son2 h] he>t 0 brok52 yet ) h] dy+ acc5ts %e s\ght to dispel retrospect1 & inspire *e]fulness1 9 ! brea/ ( h] husb&4 ,! read] may p]haps imag9e t ,i 0 some?+ too sangu9e1 :51 surr\nd$ ) jailors & all ! precautions ( a prison1 ,i plann$ ! nature & sc5e ( my next resid5ce exactly z if ,i _h be5 a p]son at l>ge4 ,b ,i took x = grant$ t ! p[] ( money ,i possess$ w\ld easily unlock to me ! gates ( my captivity4 ,i believ$ t1 ^u ! l[e/ calculation1 p]sonal lib]ty 0 cle>ly includ$ among ! gifts ( ! /rang]4 ,impress$ ) ?is op9ion1 ,i fix$ ^u a negro1 a s]vant ( ! prison1 & :o _h ! keys ( my ap>tm5t1 z ! subject ( my pecuni>y exp]im5t4 ,! idea ( apply+ to him _h p]haps fir/ occurr$ to me1 f ! m]e circum/ance ( my see+ him m frequ5tly ?an any o!r att5dant ( ! prison4 ,:5 ,i ?\ght fur!r ( ! matt]1 ,i judg$1 f ! meanness ( 8 rank & 8 app>5t pov]ty1 t ,i c\ld n h *os5 bett]4 ,s f> z relat$ to ! sum to be paid z ! price ( my lib]ty1 x 0 inde$ indiff]5t to me1 :e!r x 7 l>ge or small4 ,i _h h[ev] suff]$ s mu* f ! inconsid]ate lavi%+ ( weal?1 t ,i _h no incl9ation on ! pres5t occasion to make o/5tation ( m ?an 0 necess>y4 ,b1 :at 0 ( mo/ importance to me1 ,i 0 desir\s t my fir/ exp]im5t %\ld be a successful "o4 ,?\gh n unaw>e ( ! p[] ( gold1 ,i conceiv$ t1 among p]sons ( middl+ rank & easi] circum/ances1 !re might be v>ieties ( disposition1 & ,i might be mi/ak5 9 my *oice4 ,"s might h ! :im ( integrity1 or might place a /urdy sort ( pride 9 %[+ t !y 7 cont5t ) :at !y _h1 & 7 too high = a bribe4 ,!re might be p]sons :o1 ?\gh ( plebeian rank1 might value reputation z mu* z ev] ,i _h done1 & be ( op9ion t no advance ( /ation c\ld comp5sate = ! "n or ! consci\sness ( di%on\r4 ,^! di/9ctions may seem an idle & sup]flu\s ref9em5t1 :5 x is consid]$ t ,i _h ! p[] ( rais+ my bribe to ! level ( any man's hone/y or pride1 be x z great z x might2 & x may be ?\ght t my (f] might be s increas$ z to be too dazzl+ = mortal firmness to resi/4 ,be t z x w1 ,i am m]ely /at+ ! reflections t pass$ ?r\gh my m9d1 n ent]+ into _! v9dication4 ,tak+ ! fir/ opportunity !n ( acco/+ ?is man :5 he 0 alone ) me1 ,i address$ him ?us3-- 8,my good fri5d1 are n y poor80 8,yes1 sir40 8,w\ld n y readily d me a k9dness80 8,if my ma/] give me leave1 ,i w40 8,y mi/ake me4 ,w\ld y be my fri5d80 8,i d n "k :at y mean1 sir4 ,i h be5 us$ to call ! man ,i love my fri5d4 ,if y mean t1 y "k ,i _c *oose :e!r ,i w be a man's fri5d2 x comes ( itself40 8,c ,i n make y my fri5d80 8,t is1 make me love y80 ,i 0 surpris$ at ! propriety ( 8 answ]s4 ,i am unable at ?is di/ance ( "t to recall ! defects ( 8 language3 & ,i disda9 ! mimic toil ( inv5t+ a j>gon = him suitable to ! l[ness ( 8 condition3 ! s5se ( :at he said ,i fai?fully report4 ,i _h be=e be5 /ruck ) a c]ta9 correctness ( ?9k+ 9 him2 b ,i n[ exam9$ 8 c\nt5ance m att5tively ?an ,i _h ev] be=e done1 & ?\ght ,i c\ld di/9ctly trace 9 x ! indications ( a s\nd und]/&+ & an excell5t he>t4 8,i d n "k1 sir10 cont9u$ he4 8,if ,i see t y are a good man1 ,i believe ,i %all love y4 ,b if x happ5$ t y 7 good & g5]\s to me1 ,i am sure ,i %\ld love y v mu*40 8,y are v poor80 8,s !y tell me4 ,i nev] _h m ?an a %ill+ or two at a "t 9 my life40 8,x is a v sad ?+ to be poor80 8,:y1 yes1 s ,i h he>d1 sir4 ,b1 = my own "p1 ,i am always m]ry & gay40 8,my good fell[1 ,i w make y ri*40 8,?ank y1 sir6 ,b :at good w t d me80 8,y are a s]vant3 ,i w make y a ma/] ( s]vants40 8,n[1 t ,i %\ld n l at all4 ,i am m]ry1 because ,i am light-he>t$4 ,if ,i _h money1 & prop]ty to take c>e (1 & s]vants to direct1 ,i am afraid !y w\ld make me grave & suspici\s1 & 9 e respect unlike :at y see me40 8,is x possible y %\ld be pleas$ ) y\r pres5t situation1 "u ! ord]s ( "o man 9 a h\se1 & oblig$ to play ! tyrant to ! re/80 8,:y1 z y say1 sir1 !re may be m agreeable situations ?an ! life ( a jail4 ,b1 z to be+ "u ord]s1 ,i h no objection to t4 ,i nev] knew any o!r condition1 & !re=e ,i am cont5t$4 ,x is n pleasant inde$ to h a ma/] :o is always scold+ & dissatisfi$2 b ! g5tleman ,i s]ve at pres5t is reasonable2 ,i "k h[ to cont5t him1 &1 :5 ,i h done t1 he leaves me to please myself4 ,y (f] me money3 n[1 sir1 t is n :at ,i call be+ g5]\s2 ,i c\nt no?+ = mu*1 except :5 a man %[s me has b[els1 & conv9ces me t he ?9ks ju/ice due ev5 to a negro4 ,i d>e say h[ev] y design$ x = g5]osity1 & expect$ some?+ f me 9 return4 ,tell me :at x is y want1 & :atev] ,i c d ) propriety1 y may dep5d on x ,i w40 8,d y approve ( a man's be+ depriv$ ( 8 lib]ty80 8,w y please to tell me :at y mean by lib]ty8 ,y (f]$ me j n[ :at y call$ lib]ty & indep5d5ce2 & ,i am cont5t to be a s]vant40 8,w\ld y be pleas$1 in/ead ( be+ a turnkey1 to h ! key turn$ on y\rself80 8,t ,i %\ld n4 ,i und]/& ! disagreeabl5ess ( t well en\gh1 = :5 ,i fir/ ent]$ ?is place1 x 0 z a prison]40 8,if !n1 my good fell[1 y 7 conv9c$ t ,i 0 a man dispos$ to be g5]\s to y 9 y\r own way1 & to des]ve y\r atta*m5t & love1 surely y w\ld n refuse to deliv] me f a situation :i* y h y\rself felt to be s disagreeable & calamit\s40 8,i und]/& y n[1 sir4 ,i h already a ma/] ) :om ,i am satisfi$1 & ,i d n wi% to *ange my s]vice4 ,:5 ,i 0 a prison]1 he f\nd out t ,i 0 innoc5t2 he got me cle>$1 & gave me employm5t4 ,i am put "h = ! express purpose ( see+ ! prison]s 9 safe cu/ody4 ,t is ! contract betwe5 me & my ma/]4 ,:5 ,i took ! keys1 by t action ,i pl$g$ myself to be fai?ful to my tru/2 & ! nobl5ess ( my ma/]'s behavi\r to me 9 remov+ me f be+ a prison] to be a free s]vant1 is a d\ble bond ^u my fidelity4 ,i w\ld soon] cons5t to be torn limb f limb1 ?an fail 9 :at is expect$ f me4 ,y may be g5]\s to a h>mless /rang]2 y h mo/ reason to be g5]\s to a man y love2 b1 if y w\ld heap b5efits ^u me m]ely because ,i prov$ myself a villa91 ,i c only say x w\ld be disgraceful to be ! object ( y\r fav\r40 ,?us say+1 he quitt$ me1 & )drew f fur!r p>ley4 ,! conv]sation 9 :i* we _h engag$1 ?\gh ,i _h _h consid]able exp]i5ce 9 ! _w1 0 altoge!r new to me1 & ov]:elm$ me ) a/oni%m5t4 ,i f\nd 9 ?is trial1 t ! p[] ( money 0 subject to limitations1 ( :i* previ\sly ,i _h n be5 9 ! slighte/ degree aw>e4 ,i ?\ght t no?+ b ! mo/ extraord9>y degree ( resolution & self-d5ial c\ld enable a man to resi/ its enticem5ts2 & ,i _h ev5 be5 told1 ?\gh ,i did n believe1 t e man _h 8 price1 & a bribe capable ( indef9ite augm5tation mu/ be 9 all cases victori\s4 ,yet "h 0 a poor creature utt]ly exempt f its op]ation4 ,he _h no s5se ( ^? attractions1 :i* s (t5 degrade ! be/1 & conv]t virtue into ! mo/ %ameless pr(ligacy4 ,x co/ him no ef=t to be hone/1 & he utt]$ s5tim5ts t w\ld h giv5 lu/re to ! mo/ h]oic "*1 )\t any consci\sness ( _! greatness4 ,:at ,i _h se51 l$ me also to reflect on ano!r s+ul>ity ,i disc]n$ 9 him4 ,9 ! mid/ ( ! admirable1 ,i _h almo/ said ! sublime1 integrity he discov]$1 7= is x n a crit]ion ( ! sublime to be great )\t an ef=t87 he 0 de/itute ( k1 ( intellectual cultivation1 & all ^? exquisite s5sations t mo/ di/+ui% ! man f ! brute4 ,he pass$ on quietly 9 ! road ( ord9>y life1 & ?\ght n ( ! ambition to be wise or great1 to be hon\r$ by ?\s&s1 or a b5efactor to ages yet unborn4 ,k+s might h confess$ _! inf]iority to ?is man4 ,b is he to be reg>d$ z ! model ( :at a human creature %\ld be wi%$ to be8 ,oh1 no6 ,b ! mo/ memorable feel+ impress$ ^u me by ?is conv]sation1 0 a conviction ( :at ,i _h be5 backw>d to confess1 t knaves 7 ! p]sons to ^: assi/ance & conc]t ,i mu/ look1 & t ,i mu/ be ^u my gu>d aga9/ an hone/ man4 ,no "o 0 qualifi$ to be my coadjutor1 till he _h prov$ himself unwor?y ( all j & hon\rable society4 ,! fri5d ,i mu/ seek1 0 a man ^: v s\l melt$ at a bribe1 :om money w\ld s$uce to p]petrate :atev] 8 judgm5t mo/ abhorr$4 ,hon\r & integrity 9 ! mo/ ref9$ & ! rude/ /ate1 ,monluc & ! negro1 bo? refus$4 ,x is impossible to conceive a s5sation m pa9ful & humiliat+1 ?an 0 ?is conviction to my m9d4 ,i 0 n long at leisure = ^! reflections4 ,9 a few m9utes ! ma/] ( ! prison ent]$ my ap>tm5t1 & ) him ! negro :om ,i _h endeav\r$ to prevail on to assi/ 9 re/or+ me to lib]ty4 ,! ma/] began to reproa* me 9 v h>% t]ms = attempt+ to s$uce 8 s]vant f 8 duty1 & ask$ me :at sort ( enjoym5t or satisfaction a man c\ld h 9 life1 if he c\ld n dep5d ^u ! p he put into 8 employm5t8 ,to ?is ,i answ]$ ) /]nness1 8t ,i %\ld hold no debate ab\t "r & wrong ) a jailor2 t he might dep5d ^u x ,i w\ld leave no /one unturn$ to set myself free1 &1 :at 0 m1 t ,i w\ld be free2 & t1 = 8 "p1 x 0 8 bus9ess to keep me if he c\ld1 b n to insult me40 ,i !re=e insi/$ ^u 8 quitt+ ! room4 8,:at use10 repli$ ! fell[1 8d y ?9k n[ !re is 9 putt+ y\rself 9 a passion8 ,if ,i h n a "r to speak to y1 ,i "k :at ,i h a "r to d1 put y 9 ! /rong room1 & load y ) irons40 ,i turn$ my back ^u him4 8,& h[ came y10 said ,i to ! negro1 8to g & betray me8 ,i %\ld h expect$ bett] ?+s ( y4 ,if y refus$ to s]ve me1 at lea/ y ne$$ n h endeav\r$ to hurt me40 8,i did no?+ b my duty1 sir4 ,i h no wi% to hurt y3 b x is my bus9ess1 n m]ely to take c>e ( my ma/]'s int]e/s myself1 b to see t !y are n injur$ by any body else4 ,if he 0 n put on 8 gu>d1 y might h be5 m successful ) ! next turnkey y endeav\r$ to bribe40 8,y w f9d x m to y\r int]e/1 monsieur10 int]pos$ ! jailor1 8to talk to me ?an to my s]vant4 ,y are det]m9$ to be free1 y say4 ,if t is ! case1 & x is to happ51 :o has s good a "r to b5efit by y\r resolution z ,i h80 ,my eyes 7 op5$ 9 a mom5t4 ,i saw t ! knave ^: rig\r & /]nness c\ld n hold out aga9/ ! w>m? ( a bribe1 ! fri5d ( ^: assi/ance ,i 0 9 want1 /ood be=e me4 8,i d n wond]10 proce$$ he1 8t y pref]r$ apply+ to "o ( my s]vants4 ,_! hone/y mu/ be expect$ to be _h at a *eap] m>ket4 ,b1 = my "p1 ,i am det]m9$ t no man %all ev] pass ^! walls1 )\t my be+ ! ri*]4 ,if !n y\r escape is a ?+ t mu/ happ51 let u see :at y c af=d to give me = x40 8,de> ma/]10 int]pos$ ! negro1 8y surely w n li/5 to ! g5tleman's (f]4 ,:5 ,i refus$ to betray my tru/1 x is impossible y %\ld cons5t to betray y\rs60 8,hold y\r tongue1 blockhead60 said ! o!r4 8,d n y see t monsieur is det]m9$ to escape8 ,i "k he is ri*4 ,?\gh y h refus$ a bribe1 ,i am sure t all y\r fell[s w n4 ,! ?+ w happ5 soon] or lat] 9 spite ( e ?+ ,i c d2 & !re c be no h>m 9 my help+ to br+ ab\t1 :at x is impossible ,i %\ld prev5t40 ,a morality l ?is seems exactly 9 its place 9 ! brea/ ( a jailor4 ,we _h already made "s progress 9 adju/+ ! t]ms ( our contract1 :5 ! keep] ( ! prison int]pos$3-- 8,b1 monsieur1 y w please to rem>k1 t ?is is an affair :i* w be att5d$ ) difficulty4 ,:atev] passes betwe5 y & me mu/ be a secret4 ,y\r escape w be a ?+ op5 & notori\s1 & y mu/ h a conf$]ate1 t ,i may n be> ! blame ( x4 ,y mu/ !re=e take my black "h along ) y1 t 8 flight may cause all ! blame to fall ^u him40 8,o1 pray1 ma/]10 said ! negro1 8d n "p ) me6 ,i love y1 & w d any ?+ 9 ! _w1 if y w let me /ay4 ,y sav$ my life = aught ,i "k1 & made a man ( me aga92 y _c ?9k :at good x does me to s]ve a ma/] t has be5 s k9d to me60 8,get y gone60 repli$ 8 own]4 8,y are ( no use to me2 y are n fit = a jail2 y are s simple1 ,i _c tell :at to d ) y60 8,inde$ ,i d n l to g ) ?is g5tleman2 x w break my he>t4 ,he said he w\ld be g5]\s & k9d to me1 if ,i turn$ a villa92 ,i %all nev] be able1 & %all nev] desire to e>n 8 k9dness3 b y rew>d$ me because ,i 0 innoc5t4 ,he said he w\ld make a ma/] ( me2 & ,i am bett] z ,i am2 ,i _h mu* r be a s]vant40 ,! difficulties ( ?is poor fell[ 7 soon sil5c$ by ! p]emptor9ess ( 8 ma/]4 ,! jailor told him t he w\ld d him a great s]vice1 by ?us giv+ 8 ma/] an opportunity ( repres5t+ him z ! traitor2 &1 ) ?is consid]ation1 ! negro dri$ 8 te>s1 & ) a reluctant he>t cons5t$ to accompany me4 ,?us 7 8 exempl>y fidelity & affection rew>d$6 ,s little d "s m5 seem capable ( feel+ ! value ( atta*m5t6 ,! "* ( ! ma/] 0 a s+ul> "o4 ,! meanness & m]c5>9ess ( 8 _s 7 unr$eem$ by a s+le virtue4 ,he 0 av>ice p]sonifi$4 ,b he _h f\nd or imag9$ an int]e/ 9 tak+ ?is negro1 :o _h be5 want only ?r[n into prison by a =m] tyrant1 = 8 s]vant2 & ?is ! poor fell[1 9 ! simplicity ( 8 he>t1 _h mi/ak5 = an act ( exalt$ g5]osity4 ,8 av>ice _h swall[$ up all 8 o!r passions2 & 8 s]vants _h nei!r impati5ce nor insol5ce to enc\nt] f him3 weigh$ !re=e 9 ! balance ( ! negro's exp]i5ce1 he appe>$ a miracle ( mildness & b5evol5ce4 ,our b>ga9 0 at l5g? conclud$2 &1 ! next "t ,m>gu]ite came to visit me1 ,i ann\nc$ to h] ! success ( my negotiation4 ,be=e we p>t$1 we s5t = ! jailor1 & discuss$ ) him ! road ,i %\ld take4 ,my purpose 0 to pass into ,italy2 & ,m>gu]ite und]took by midnight to h e ?+ prep>$ to convey u to ! foot ( ! m\nta9s4 ,?is po9t be+ adju/$1 ! keep] ( ! prison left u2 &1 t5d]ly embrac+ ,m>gu]ite1 ,i bes\ght h] to congratulate me ^u ! recov]y ( my lib]ty4 ,%e _h he>d h[ev] ( ! infam\s nature ( ! *>ge aga9/ me1 &1 ?\gh %e yield$ x no cr$it1 ,i c\ld easily p]ceive t x r5d]$ yet heavi] ! depression "u :i* %e lab\r$4 ,%e return$ my embrace2 ! te>s /ole d[n h] *eeks2 b %e 0 sil5t4 ,i endeav\r$ to div]t h] ?\ghts & re-animate h] spirits1 by h9t+ at ! new sc5es be=e u1 & ! di/ant c\ntry to :i* we 7 ab\t to remove2 b 9 va94 8,i w n reproa* y1 ,reg9ald60 said %e2 8,i w n des]t my duty :ile ,i h p[] to p]=m x2 y may dep5d ^u my do+ e ?+ ,i am able bo? = ! *ildr5 & y\rself60 ,%e left me 9 a v melan*oly frame ( m9d4 ,i _h n expect$ to see h] ?us languid & disconsolate2 & ^u ! eve ( my lib]ation1 ,i felt x l caprice4 ,incomp>able woman6 ,%e 0 incapable ( giv+ int5tional pa93 b1 ) h] exquisitely susceptible m9d1 %e 0 unable to support ! dreadful rev]se 9 :i* ,i _h involv$ h]1 or ev5 at times to assume ! ge/ures ( *e]fulness & tranquillity2 ge/ures t1 at ! be/1 b ill disguis$ ! grief )96 ,i 0 busily reflect+ on :at _h j occurr$1 :5 ! keep] ( ! prison re-ent]$ my ap>tm5t4 8,i am come1 monsieur10 said he1 8to take my leave ( y4 ,z ,i d n at all int5d to lose my place1 x is n prop] t ,i %\ld see y any m4 ,y und]/& me80 ,two days _h already elaps$ s9ce ! conclusion ( our contract1 & ,i _h provid$ myself = ?is & su* o!r dem&s z seem$ likely to be imm$iately imp5d+4 ,i %\ld h pref]r$ inde$ to h delay$ ?is paym5t till ! mom5t ( my dep>ture3 b :at ! jailor sugge/$ appe>$ reasonable2 & ,i c\ld n assign1 ev5 to my own m9d1 any cause :y ,i %\ld be reluctant to comply ) x4 ,i paid to ?is wret* ! price ( 8 villany4 ,i n[ began to c\nt ! h\rs1 & eag]ly to anticipate ! arrival ( midnight4 ,?\gh ! mom5t ( my lib]ty 0 s ne>1 ,i yet contemplat$ ) unspeakable loa?+ ! sc5e ( my conf9em5t1 :i* 0 associat$ ) ! deepe/ disgrace & ! blacke/ *>ges t are incid5t to a human creature4 ,i felt z if1 9 proportion z ,i remov$ f ! hat$ spot1 ,i %\ld at lea/ %ake (f a "p ( ! bur!n t oppress$ me1 & gr[ comp>atively "y aga94 ,"t 0 f> f mov+ inde$ ) ! rapidity my impati5ce requir$2 b ! h\r ( appo9tm5t at la/ 0 ne>1 & ,i expect$ e mom5t ! fai?ful negro to appe>1 & ann\nce to me my fre$om4 ,! ca!dral bell n[ s\nd$ twelve2 ,i he>d ! noise ( /eps along ! gall]y2 & pres5tly a key 0 appli$ to ! door ( my ap>tm5t4 ,x op5$2 & ?ree p]sons1 :om ,i knew = s]vants ( ! prison1 ent]$4 8,come1 sir10 said "o ( !m2 8y mu/ foll[ me40 8,:]e is my fri5d ! negro80 said ,i4 8,ask no que/ions2 speak nev] a ^w2 b come40 ,x 0 /range t ! ma/] ( ! prison1 ^: temp] 0 s full ( anxiety & caution1 %\ld unnecess>ily tru/ ?ree ( 8 p1 :o might easily h be5 kept ignorant ( ?is haz>d\s secret6 ,?is circum/ance h[ev] did n /rike me at fir/ s /rongly z x ought to h done4 ,i _h p]fect confid5ce 9 8 fidelity to 8 pr(ligate b>ga91 & expect$ e mom5t to meet ! negro :o 0 to be my guide4 ,my conductors l$ me by a way :i* ,i soon p]ceiv$ did n lead to ! ord9>y entrance ( ! prison4 8,:]e are we go+80 said ,i4 8,hold y\r tongue1 or y w spoil all20 repli$ "o ( !m r\ghly4 ,i be?\ght me t !re might be an objection to ! dismiss+ me by ! public gate2 ,i recollect$ to h he>d t !re 7 sev]al subt]ranean outlets to ! citadel2 ,i judg$ f ! words ,i _h j he>d t my conductors 7 acqua9t$ ) ! plan t _h be5 =m$2 & = all ^! reasons ,i proce$$ ) tol]able ease & security4 ,i 0 n mu* long] h[ev] p]mitt$ to d\bt4 ,i 0 conduct$ to "o ( ! dungeons ( ! prison1 & told t !re ,i 0 to rema94 ,at fir/ ,i remon/rat$ l\dly1 & told !m 8t ,i _h be5 promis$ my lib]ty1 & n a treatm5t l ?is40 8,we "k t1 sir10 repli$ !y1 8& t is ! reason y are br\ght "h4 ,x is our bus9ess to tea* y t ! greate/ (f5ce t c be committ$ by a man 9 prison is to attempt to escape40 ,! %ock & surprise t s unexpect$ an issue to my adv5ture produc$1 r5d]$ me outrage\s4 ,i 0 no long] able to control my fury2 &1 )\t kn[+ :at ,i propos$1 ,i knock$ d[n two ( my att5dants be=e !y _h an opportunity to secure me1 & ru%$ up ! flight ( /eps by :i* we _h desc5d$4 ,! ?ird h[ev] contriv$ to int]cept me2 &1 :ile we /ruggl$1 ! o!r two came to 8 assi/ance4 ,!y load$ me ) fett]s & *a9$ me to ! wall4 ,i 0 !n left 9 utt] d>kness4 ,i felt myself sore ) ! bruises ,i _h receiv$ 9 ! conte/2 b :at 0 inf9itely worse1 ,i f\nd ! expectations ( fre$om ,i _h s confid5tly ent]ta9$1 baffl$ & disappo9t$4 ,m>gu]ite & my *ildr5 7 at ?is mom5t wait+ = me to jo9 !m4 ,!y w\ld probably wait h\r aft] h\r 9 va94 ,to :at cause w\ld !y attribute my fail+ ( my appo9tm5t8 ,to :at cause 0 ,i myself to attribute my misc>riage8 ,my hopes 9 ?is in/ance _h be5 9 ! utmo/ degree sangu9e2 :at 0 ,i to c\nt ^u = ! future8 ,0 money useless 9 e in/ance 9 :i* mank9d agre$ to ?9k its p[] unque/ionable8 ,:at 0 ! s\rce ( ! pres5t cata/rophe & ! h>% treatm5t ,i endur$8 ,0 ! keep] ( ! prison discov]$1 & dismiss$ f 8 (fice8 ,_h ! negro gone & giv5 in=mation aga9/ him8 ,i =m$ a ?\s& conjectures z to :at might h happ5$2 b ,i 0 unable to re/ 9 any4 ,i _h rema9$ ab\t twelve h\rs 9 ?is situation1 full ( angry & disconsolate ?\ghts1 :5 ! pr9cipal jailor ent]$ my dungeon4 ,i look$ at him ) a/oni%m5t2 ! cl\d vani%$ f my und]/&+1 & ,i began to compreh5d ! solution ( ! enigma4 8,are y at l>ge80 cri$ ,i1 ) indignation3 8:y !n am ,i "h80 8,y are "h by my ord]s40 8,execrable villa960 said ,i4 8,did y n promise me my fre$om8 ,h y n receiv$ ! price ( x8 ,h[ d>e y %[ y\rself 9 my pres5ce80 ,z ,i spoke1 ,i %ook my *a9s1 ,i cl5*$ my fi/s1 ,i trembl$ ) res5tm5t & rage4 8,if y are n p]fectly quiet & reasonable10 said he1 8,i %all leave y to y\r fate & return no m40 ,no?+ is m s+ul> 9 a /ate ( great m5tal eff]vesc5ce1 ?an ! rapidity ) :i* our ideas succe$ ea* o!r4 ,at su* times we seem to ?9k m 9 m9utes ?an at o!r times 9 h\rs4 ,i felt h[ mis]able a slave a man is1 ! mom5t he falls completely into ! p[] ( ano!r4 ,! wret* :o /ood be=e me 0 m vacant ( human affections ?an any "o ,i ev] saw4 ,yet ,i 0 8 creature1 to be m\ld$ z he pleas$4 ,a ?\s& injuries he c\ld inflict ^u me1 = :i* nei!r ! in/itutions ( society nor ! extraord9>y end[m5ts ,i d]iv$ f ! /rang] c\ld af=d a rem$y4 ,he might s torture my m9d & baffle my wi%es1 z to kill 9 me e sp>k ( l(ty adv5ture & g5]\s pride4 ,my lib]ty might1 = aught ,i knew1 be = ye>s at 8 disposal4 ,i felt h[ev] t my be/ c\rse 0 to reg>d him ) contempt1 & use him z ,i w\ld a spade or a file1 to execute my purposes1 )\t suff]+ him to awak5 my passions4 ,i imm$iately grew m calm1 & he p]ceiv$ ! revolution ( my s5tim5ts4 8,y seem to wond]10 cont9u$ he1 8t ,i did n keep my engagem5t ) y8 ,i pride myself ^u be+ sup]ior to ! prejudices1 by :i* o!r m5 are fright5$1 l *ildr5 ) a bugbe>4 ,i h !re=e no rule b my int]e/3 & ,i did n see h[ my int]e/ b\nd me to keep my engagem5t ) y40 8,& :at became ( ! c\ntess80 8,i nei!r "k nor c>e4 ,i suppose %e /ay$ all night "u ! walls2 ,i knew %e dur/ n di/urb ! prison40 ,i felt ,i _h /ill emotions to suppress4 ,i curb$ my tongue1 b !y %[$ !mselves 9 my eyes4 8,h[ d y int5d to dispose ( me80 8,keep y 9 close cu/ody4 ,i h got y\r ?\s& p\nds2 ! next ?+ = me to take c>e ( is1 t ,i d n lose my place40 8,& = :at purpose d y come to me n[80 8,:y to tell y a secret1 ,i h n q det]m9$ :at conduct to pursue1 & !re=e ,i came "h t ,i might h a bett] opportunity ( judg+40 8,are y n afraid t ,i %\ld in=m ! gov]nm5t h[ y h *eat$ me80 8,y in=m6 ,h n ,i got y "u lock & key8 ,i w>rant y1 ,i w take c>e :at goes out ( ^! walls to ! gov]nm5t40 8,! c\ntess has a lic5ce to visit me40 8,:at c>e ,i = t8 ,i c keep h] at bay z long z ,i w4 ,%e w n easily g to ! gov]nm5t2 & %e is n su* a fool z n to "k1 t to lodge a compla9t aga9/ me1 is n ! way to procure ! lib]ty ( a man condemn$ to p]petual imprisonm5t4 ,i c at any "t trump up a /ory ( y\r attempt+ to corrupt ! turnkeys1 & be sure1 :5 ,i d1 ,i w n want = pro(s4 ,t w cov] any ?+ ,i c d to annoy y1 & answ] any accusation y c make aga9/ me4 ,d y ?9k t ! ^w ( a jailor w n be tak51 be=e t ( ! murd]] he has 9 cu/ody80 8,i c br+ y\r own s]vants z witnesses1 ?ree ( :om assault$ me la/ night40 8,dunce1 d y ?9k ,i tru/$ !m ) my secret8 ,!y h no?+ to tell1 & appreh5d no?+ b a plot betwe5 y & my black1 :o has be5 put into ! p5it5ti>y = 8 (f5ce4 ,he is my only confid5t2 & ,i tru/ him1 because 8 /upidity answ]s to me = 8 fai?40 8,suppose ,i 7 to d\ble ! bribe = :i* y sold me my lib]ty1 :at security %\ld ,i h t y w\ld abide by y\r b>ga980 8,oh1 if y 7 to d t1 x w\ld alt] ! case40 8,might y n !n deta9 ! money1 & defy me1 z y h done n[80 8,suppose t a ?+ :i* might happ53 c y help y\rself8 c y d bett]80 ,i saw !re 0 no rem$y1 & ,i 0 con/ra9$ to all[ ! success ( ?is tw(old p]fidy4 ,x 0 ) an ill grace1 & an attempt at sull5ness & indiff]5ce1 t ! jailor accept$ my proposal4 ,! second ?\s& h[ev] _h irresi/ible *>ms2 &1 9 spite ( himself1 ! s5sation t made 8 he>t dance1 relax$ 8 muscles1 & play$ ab\t 8 m\?4 ,he 0 puzzl$ :at to ?9k ( me4 ,! facility ) :i* ,i produc$ ! sums he dem&$1 ) less app>5t ef=t ?an !y might h come f a duke or a sov]eign pr9ce1 />tl$ & /agg]$ him4 ,he _h /ill 8 qualms1 & evid5tly d\bt$ :e!r he %\ld n raise 8 price a ?ird "t4 ,i saw no safety b 9 p]t9acity & firmness1 & _h ! good =tune ultimately to *eck 8 d\btful1 half-=m$ exp]im5ts4 ,i 0 l$ by ! accid5ts :i* h j be5 relat$1 into fur!r & deep] reflections on ! p[] ( money1 z well z on ! nature ( ! situation 9 :i* ,i f\nd myself plac$ by ! legacy ( ! /rang]4 ,my pres5t exp]im5t _h be5 made ^u a subject app>5tly ! mo/ fav\rable t c\ld h be5 devis$1 ^u a man ^: brea/ ! love ( gold occupi$ )\t a rival3 yet ) ?is man ,i v h>dly succe$$4 ,i 0 n inde$ s bl9d$ by ! pres5t dejection ( my _s & sickness ( my he>t1 z to imag9e t ,i _h n a secure game ) ?is base-m9d$ wret*1 if ,i cons5t$ to play x4 ,i _h only to enl>ge my bribe1 to *ange x f ! limit$ sum ( two ?\s& p\nds to ! m brilliant (f] ( two ?\s& p] annum1 & no d\bt ,i might h l$ him ) me to ! extremity ( ! globe4 ,h[ev] he might h demurr$1 h[ev] he might h d\bt$1 h[ev] curiosity1 :ett$ ev5 to agony by ! goad+s ( av>ice1 might h prompt$ him to an incessant enquiry )9 himself z to ! solution ( my "* & my p[]s1 8 grasp+ _s w\ld infallibly h *a9$ 8 tongue1 & be5 surety = 8 fidelity4 ,b ,i c\ld n yet prevail ^u myself to end[ su* grovel+ & noxi\s prop5sities ) s ri* a rew>d4 ,i consid]$1 9 ! language ( ! /rang]1 t ! tal5t ,i possess$ 0 ( ! mo/ mom5t\s nature1 & be/[$ by ! gov]nor ( ! univ]se = ! highe/ purposes2 & ,i %\ld h held myself unju/ifiable 9 enri*+ by its means1 h[ev] urg5t ! necessity might appe>1 ! mo/ wor?less ( mank9d4 ,! s5tim5ts ( my tyrant v>i$ e h\r2 he 0 fickle1 anxi\s1 & undet]m9$2 h>ass$ ) ! d\ble fe> ( los+ ! sum already obta9$1 & ( n secur+ ! :ole ( :at 0 capable ( be+ acquir$4 ,he p>t$ ) me at la/ ) all ! pangs ( a lov]1 :o witnesses ! c]emony ( 8 mi/ress's tak+ ! mona/ic veil1 & be+ sund]$ f him = ev]4 ,i 0 8 ,=tunatus's purse1 & ?is 0 ! la/ day he 0 to enjoy ! use ( x2 ,i 0 to him z ! buri$ treasure ( "s long-=gott5 ho>d]1 & he fe>$ he %\ld quit 8 digg+ be=e he _h c>ri$ (f e ?+ t ! field conceal$4 ,at l5g? h[ev] he began to appreh5d t he _h urg$ ! ref9em5t ( an unpr9cipl$ av>ice z f> z x w\ld g2 & !re=e 9 a few days1 ! negro be+ already dis*>g$ f 8 p5ance1 he suff]$ u to escape toge!r4 ,,*apt] ,,xxiii4 ,hav+ rejo9$ ! rema9d] ( my family1 we set out toge!r = ! pla9s ( ,italy4 ,my fir/ int]view ) ,m>gu]ite aft] my return f ,dresd5 _h be5 melan*oly4 ,b our situation 0 n[ su* z to give additional angui% to h] s]i\s ?\ghts4 ,%e _h !n reg>d$ me z ambigu\s1 my/]i\s1 & imp5etrable1 qualities f :i* ! frankness ( h] nature spontane\sly revolt$2 %e saw 9 me ! de/roy] ( h] son1 ! idol ( h] he>t2 %e believ$ me an al*ymi/1 a "* :i* %e view$ z base1 degrad+1 & ins5sible2 %e _h he>d t rum\r _h be5 busy ) my fame4 ,b n[ %e saw 9 me a man ( bla/$ reputation1 arraign$ & imprison$ = robb]y & murd]4 ,%e did n cr$it ^! imputations4 ,b did ! +5u\s & noble-m9d$ ,m>gu]ite de ,damville ev] ?9k to f9d h]self alli$ to a be+ ?us load$ ) ! _w's abhorr5ce2 t %e %\ld be compell$ to hon\r ) ! sacr$ "n ( husb& a fugitive1 a prison-break]1 & an outlaw8 ,if ,i _h suff]$ ^! ?+s 9 ! def5ce ( my *ildr51 my religion1 or my c\ntry1 ! case w\ld h be5 widely diff]5t4 ,if1 :ile enc\nt]+ ! contempt ( m51 ,i _h c>ri$ )9 me ! glori\s feel+1 t :at !y reg>d$ z my disgrace 0 inde$ my immortal hon\r1 ,m>gu]ite de ,damville1 beyond all wom51 0 prep>$ to despise _! s5seless blame1 & pr\dly to dem& h] %>e 9 su* a di%on\r4 ,i "k !re are m5 :o w li/5 ) fretful impati5ce to a detail ( su* sorr[s z h]s1 & :o w cry out1 8,if we mu/ be di/ress$1 give u m sub/antial & g5u9e s\rces ( di/ress60 ,!y w reg>d ! dejection ( ,m>gu]ite z an idle wilfulness ( grief1 bett] entitl$ to av]sion ?an to sympa?y2 & w tell me t no?+ b ! mo/ deplorable bl9dness c\ld h prev5t$ h] f disc]n+ ! happ9ess ( h] condition2 t %e _h ! _w be=e h]1 a ri*1 a brave1 & an ent]pris+ husb&1 ) a lovely family ( *ildr52 t !y c\ld move f c\ntry to c\ntry1 & f climate to climate1 c>ry+ ) !m ! means ( luxury1 indulg5ce1 homage1 & usefulness4 ,to su* moralis]s ,i write n4 ,= ^? :o are incapable ( sympa?is+ ) ! delicate s5sations ( ,m>gu]ite1 ,i am z little qualifi$ to ent] into _! feel+s z !y into m9e4 ,9 ! sequel ( ! /ory h[ev] x is n impossible !y may meet ) _! gratification4 ,i am ha/5+ to ev5ts corporeal & palpable4 ,i & my family did w&] f c\ntry to c\ntry1 & f climate to climate4 ,) :at result+ success w spe$ily be se54 ,our de/9ation at ! pres5t mom5t l$ u ?r\gh ! t]ritory ( ! ,grisons1 & ov] a limb ( ! ,rhetian ,alps1 to ,como1 ,milan1 ,piac5za1 ,p>ma1 & ,pisa1 9 ! neighb\rhood ( :i* latt] city we resolv$ to take up our imm$iate resid5ce4 ,9 ?is passage we met ) few adv5tures t m]it to be record$ 9 my hi/ory4 ,"o h[ev] seems entitl$ to a place1 bo? z x t5ds to display ! s+ul> wor? ( a dumb & unpret5d+ brute1 & z x is 9 "s sort connect$ ) ! =tunes ,i enc\nt]$ 9 ! ,pisan t]ritory4 ,x occurr$ 9 our j\rney ov] ! ,alps4 ,"o ev5+1 9 ! wilde/ & mo/ desolate "p ( ! m\nta91 aft] hav+ lodg$ my family 9 an inn1 ,i w&]$ =? to take a survey ( ! neighb\r+ sc5]y4 ,x 0 moonlight2 our travel ( ! day _h be5 %ort1 & _h left on me no impression ( fatigue2 :ile ! romantic appe>ance ( e ?+ ar\nd1 tempt$ me to ext5d my excursion fur!r ?an ,i _h orig9ally purpos$4 ,/ories ( robb]ies & murd]s 9 ! vic9ity _h be5 repeat$ to u1 & ,m>gu]ite _h employ$ ! precaution ( desir+ ,hector1 su* 0 ! "n :i* ! caprice ( 8 =m] ma/]s _h be/[$ on my fai?ful negro1 to foll[ my /eps & hold me 9 sight4 ,no anticipations ( dang] h[ev] di/urb$ my contemplations4 ,i resign$ myself1 z all my life ,i _h be5 accu/om$ to d1 to ! impressions ( ! mom5t1 & s\ght to %ut out memory & ! _w f all my ?\ghts4 ,! sc5e 0 inexpressibly beautiful2 ! sil5ce 0 un9t]rupt$ & awful4 ,! spl5d\r ( ! moon gave a sob] & silv]y t9t to e ?+ by :i* its light 0 caught2 s(t :ite cl\ds 7 scatt]$ 9 ! deep azure ( ! sky2 ! %ades 7 ( a blackness & pr(undity t c\ld n be surpass$4 ,e ?+ 0 calculat$ to soo! & subdue ! m9d1 to inspire a gr& & expansive tranquillity4 ,! en?usiasm x spoke occupi$ e *annel ( my he>t4 ,i /ood /ill4 ,x seem$ z if motion w\ld h j>r$ & brok5 ! spell t seiz$ me2 ,i yield$ ) eag] transport to ! s5tim5t t %r[d$ & envelop$ me 9 its ample embrace4 ,i _h rema9$ motionless = above half an h\r1 :5 a sudd5 & eag] s\nd bur/ ^u my e>4 ,x seem$ to be ! %riek ( "s human creature 9 di/ress4 ,x 0 repeat$ sev]al times4 ,my fir/ impulse 0 to fly to ! spot f :i* ! s\nd appe>$ to proce$4 ,mean:ile ,hector came up to me1 & endeav\r$ to deta9 me by viol5ce4 ,8 fir/ pr9ciple 0 ob$i5ce to e j & lawful comm&2 & ! err& ^u :i* he 0 commission$1 0 to pres]ve me f ! approa* ( dang]4 ,he repres5t$ to me ! /ories ( b&itti we _h rec5tly he>d4 ,he told me t we %\ld too probably fall 9 ) a num]\s p>ty ( ^! desp]adoes1 aga9/ :om all our ef=ts1 ei!r = ourselves or = ^? ,i 0 desir\s to succ\r1 w\ld be nugatory4 ,:at w\ld become ( my *ildr58 :at w\ld become ( 8 mi/ress1 if my ra%ness 7 succe$$ by a fatal ev5t8 ,:ile he 0 ?us speak+1 & ex]t+ himself to deta9 me1 ! cries ceas$4 ,i believ$ !y 7 ^? ( a p]son assass9at$4 ,i conceiv$ t ,i %\ld be ! vile/ ( poltroons if ,i suff]$ any consid]ation to prev5t me f endeav\r+ to af=d to ?is un=tunate ! relief 9 my p[]4 ,i _h n advanc$ f>1 be=e ,i p]ceiv$ com+ t[>ds u1 9 ! same direction f :i* ! s\nd _h rea*$ my e>1 a dog1 entirely black1 & ( uncommon /ature & /r5g?4 ,he 0 alone4 ,hav+ caught sight ( u1 he increas$ 8 pace1 & _h no soon] rea*$ ! spot on :i* we /ood1 ?an he seiz$ ! flap ( my coat1 & pull$ x ) consid]able viol5ce4 ,i 0 some:at al>m$ at 8 size & action1 ! latt] ( :i* ,i appreh5d$ to h a ho/ile design2 &1 hav+ %ak5 him (f1 ,i put myself 9 a po/ure ( def5ce ) a cane t ,i c>ri$ 9 my h&4 ,undet]r$ h[ev] by my ge/ure1 he return$ to ! attack1 only pull+ ) some?+ less ex]tion ( /r5g? ?an he _h done be=e4 ,m accurate att5tion conv9c$ me t he _h no int5tion to injure me1 & ,i )held ! action ( ,hector1 :o _h rais$ 8 h& to /rike 9 def5ce ( 8 ma/]4 ,i suff]$ him to guide me2 &1 aft] a consid]able circuit :i* ! nature ( ! road oblig$ u to take1 he l$ me to a spot :]e ,i f\nd a man ly+ on ! gr\nd1 & welt]+ 9 8 blood1 b ) no p]son ne>1 to :om to impute ! viol5ce he _h su/a9$4 ,8 blood fl[$ copi\sly f two or ?ree diff]5t w\nds1 "o ( !m 9 p>ticul> ne> 8 left brea/2 & my fir/ c>e 0 to /op ! effusion4 ,= ?is purpose we /ripp$ him ( 8 clo!s1 & tore 8 l95 into b&ages4 ,:5 we f\nd him1 he 0 ins5sible2 b ! angui% ( b9d+ 8 w\nds reviv$ him a little1 ?\gh only en\gh to extort f him sighs & groans4 ,?is accompli%$1 ,i dismiss$ ,hector to ! inn to procure some?+ 9 ! nature ( a litt]1 by :i* he might m easily be convey$ )9 rea* ( effectual assi/ance4 ,i 0 n[ left = six h\rs ) no o!r companions ?an ! w\nd$ g5tleman & 8 dog1 ^u ! v spot ^u :i* he _h j be=e su/a9$ s f]oci\s a treatm5t1 probably f ! h&s ( b&itti4 ,!y might e mom5t be expect$ to return4 ,?is 0 no agreeable notion to a p]son circum/anc$ z ,i 04 ,i 0 compell$ to feel t a man possess$ ( b\ndless & illimitable weal?1 & ( ! p[] ( repell+ old age & disease1 did n 9 ^! advantages possess e ?+4 ,not)/&+ ! disappo9tm5ts & mortifications ,i _h su/a9$1 ,i 0 yet atta*$ to life3 & ?\gh ! beque/s ( ! /rang] _h hi!rto produc$ to me no?+ b evil1 ,i /ill look$1 ) almo/ pu]ile eag]ness & beat+ ( he>t1 = ! "t :5 ,i might spread out ! :ole ext5t ( my treasures )\t p>simony or ! dread ( rev]se4 ,dur+ ! int]val :i* ,i employ$ 9 ^! reflections1 ! w\nd$ man 0 = ! mo/ "p 9 a /ate ( ins5sibility1 & con/antly spee*less4 ,i expect$ 8 dea? e mom5t1 & ,i p]ceiv$1 z ,i ?\ght ) c]ta9ty1 t !re 0 no hope ( 8 recov]y4 ,:ile we _h dress$ 8 w\nds1 ! dog _h wat*$ our motions ) ! mo/ re/less att5tion1 &1 n[ t x 0 ov]1 he came & lick$ my h&s1 & laid himself d[n at my feet4 ,! lea/ motion h[ev]1 s mu* z a ru/l+ among ! leaves1 />tl$ him3 he rose1 look$ r\nd1 & seem$ to enquire into ! cause ( ! di/urbance2 b he ab/a9$ f b>k+ & e k9d ( noise2 :e!r x 7 t he 0 consci\s ( ! advantage ( quiet to a p]son 9 8 ma/]'s condition1 or t he _h ! s5se to "k1 9 ! situation 9 :i* we 7 plac$1 t :atev] produc$ al>m1 might ev5tually expose u to undiscov]$ dang]4 ,x 0 broad daylight be=e ,hector re-appe>$1 & sev]al o!r p]sons 9 8 company4 ,hector 0 n ( a temp] to h rec$$ f any ?+ he und]took1 & ! au?ority ( ,m>gu]ite _h 9 ?is in/ance second$ 8 remon/rances ) ! surly & inactive peasants ( ! place4 ,i _h at ?is "t only "o o!r male s]vant2 b1 :5 ,hector return$1 he br\ght ) him a crazy k9d ( litt]1 & a recruit ( f\r m\nta9e]s4 ,! w\nd$ man /ill liv$1 & 0 convey$ alive to ! place at :i* ,i _h tak5 up my lodg+4 ,he surviv$ ?ree days2 &1 dur+ ! :ole ( t p]iod1 ! dog c\ld nei!r be mov$ by =ce1 nor prevail$ on by entreaties1 to quit ! ap>tm5t ( 8 ma/]4 ,be=e 8 dea? my un=tunate gue/ recov]$ ! p[] ( spee*4 ,he told me t 8 "n 0 ,&rea ,filosanto1 &1 :i* /ruck me z some:at extraord9>y1 t he 0 ( ,pisa1 ! v place at :i* ,i purpos$ to take up my abode4 ,he _h a bro!r resid5t 9 t city1 & _h himself be5 ab\t to m>ry a v beautiful & accompli%$ "y lady1 an heiress1 ( ! h\se ( ,c>racciuoli 9 ,pisa4 ,previ\sly to 8 m>riage1 he resolv$ to make a visit to 8 "m1 :o _h esp\s$ to h] second husb& a ,fr5* nobleman ( ,langu$oc4 ,he _h travell$ accompani$ only by "o s]vant1 contr>y to ! p]suasions bo? ( 8 bro!r & ! family ( 8 int5d$ bride2 b t s]vant1 ?\gh he _h be5 a v %ort "t 9 8 employm5t1 0 active1 +5i\s1 & oblig+1 & _h e/abli%$ himself /rongly 9 ! fav\r ( 8 ma/]4 ,signor ,filosanto _h tak5 ) him a sum ( money1 ! produce ( "o ye>'s income ( ! d[] ( 8 "m2 & x 0 b too probable t ! ri*ness ( ! *>ge he bore1 _h be5 fatal to ! life ( ! be>]4 ,8 s]vant _h disappe>$ f 8 side n a qu>t] ( an h\r be=e 8 be+ attack$ by ! b&itti2 & v>i\s concurr+ circum/ances seem$ to fix on ?is s]vant ! accusation ( be+ an accomplice ) ! murd]]s4 ,hav+ he>d f ! un=tunate suff]] ! tale ( trea*]y ( 8 human att5dant1 ,i relat$ to him ! extraord9>y example ( fidelity & atta*m5t %[n by 8 dog4 ,! ma/] 0 /ruck ) ! /ory ,i told1 & call$ ! dog to him ^u 8 b$4 ,! poor animal fir/ leap$ up ^u ! foot ( ! b$1 & !n w>ily & ) great caution crawl$ to 8 ma/]'s face4 ,filosanto embrac$ ! dog1 :o by 8 mann] %[$ himself fully s5sible ( ! purport ( ! action4 ,t v ev5+1 hav+ reque/$ me to convey 8 rema9s to ! tomb ( 8 ance/ors at ,pisa1 ! ma/] expir$4 ,! dog 9 dumb & con/ant grief wat*$ by ! corpse1 & foll[$ ! vehicle 9 :i* x 0 convey$ to ,pisa4 ,aft] ! fun]al1 he made ! *oice1 f :i* he c\ld n be div]t$1 ( liv+ ) me1 & n ) ! bro!r & relations ( 8 ma/]1 to :om he 0 almo/ :olly a /rang]1 b :o w\ld gladly h receiv$ him4 ,"o ( ! advantages ,i d]iv$ f ?is adv5ture1 0 ! fri5d%ip & protection ( ! ,filosanti & ,c>racciuoli1 two ( ! mo/ p[]ful families 9 ,pisa4 ,i h n yet f9i%$ ! hi/ory ( my dog4 ,a few mon?s aft] our e/abli%m5t 9 ! ,pisan t]ritory1 ! valet ( ! deceas$ _h ! audacity to appe> 9 t city4 ,he believ$ himself to be entirely unkn[n !re1 8 ma/] hav+ tak5 him into 8 s]vice dur+ 8 resid5ce z a /ud5t 9 ! univ]sity ( ,bologna2 & hav+ ord]$ him1 previ\sly to 8 project$ t\r into ,france1 to /ay beh9d & settle 8 debts & o!r affairs at t place4 ,he f\nd h[ev] an adv]s>y 9 ,pisa t 9 all 8 anticipations _h nev] occurr$ to 8 ?\ghts4 ,! dog saw him at a di/ance 9 ! /reet1 ran t[>ds him ) incr$ible swiftness1 & fell ^u him ) savage viol5ce & f]ocity4 ,! man 0 n extricat$ f 8 grip1 till he _h be5 sev]ely & dang]\sly w\nd$4 ,?us assail$1 all ! t]rors ( sup]/ition & an accus+ consci5ce seiz$ on ?is devot$ villa92 he own$ :o he 01 & confess$ t he _h made "o among ! assass9s & plund]]s ( 8 ma/]1 visible probably to ! dog1 ?\gh unse5 by ! un=tunate ,filosanto4 ,he decl>$1 t he knew n :at motive _h br\ght him to ,pisa1 t he seem$ to himself "u ! guidance ( an impulse :i* he _h n p[] to resi/1 & t he rejoic$ t ,provid5ce _h ?us conduct$ him to ! expiation ( 8 guilt4 ,he 0 br\ght to 8 trial1 & suff]$ dea? = 8 crime4 ,*>on1 su* 0 ! "n by :i* my dog 0 di/+ui%$1 %[$ himself 9 all 8 actions wor?y ( ! "* = atta*m5t & sagacity :i* he _h 9 ^! in/ances acquir$4 ,he 0 !re=e ! fav\rite ( my :ole family1 & p>ticul>ly ( ,hector4 ,b 8 own p>tiality 0 ) ! nice/ discrim9ation res]v$ = me4 ,! rul+ passion ( 8 prec$+ ma/] _h be5 ! sports ( ! field1 & 8 lead+ s+ul>ity an uncommon famili>ity & fri5d%ip t[>ds 8 brute att5dants4 ,by ?is conduct he _h won ! affections1 & p]haps awak5$ ! und]/&+ & virtues1 ( ! fai?ful ,*>on4 ,i own my weakness4 ,i c\ld n resi/ ! assiduities & reg>d ( ?is g5]\s brute2 &1 ?\gh ,i _h nev] be=e conceiv$ any extraord9>y p>tiality = creatures ( 8 species1 8 sagacity & nobl5ess ( nature took a /rong hold ( my affection4 ,i admir$ 8 =m & agility z he b\nd$ & gambol$ be=e me ^u ! pla94 ,9 ! mid/ ( 8 gaye/ frolics he 0 all att5tion1 & ! lea/ sign ,i made him w\ld in/antly div]t 8 ex]tions to a diff]5t pursuit4 ,he 0 accu/om$ to salute me ) hone/1 undesign+ homage e morn+ z ,i came f my *amb]1 & ,i %\ld h miss$ 8 pres5ce ) heav9ess ( he>t ^u ?is pla9 & homely occasion4 ,he 0 ! associate ( my solit>y walks1 & my companion :5 p5sive m$itations induc$ me to )draw f all human society4 ,i became accu/om$ at su* p]iods to obs]ve him by my side1 & %\ld h felt t all 0 n "r if he 7 n !re4 ,i 0 int]e/$ 9 8 heal?1 8 well-be+ & 8 enjoym5ts2 &1 if any calamity befell him1 0 prep>$ to feel x m sev]ely ?an a wise man is sometimes will+ to confess4--,x w\ld sc>cely be necess>y to add to ?is simple hi/ory ( my fai?ful ,*>on1 ! circum/ance ( 8 hav+ sav$ ! life ( a beautiful little boy ( t5 ye>s old1 :o _h unluckily slipp$ into ! ,arno1 & :om he seiz$ by 8 g>m5ts & drew to ! %ore1 _h x n "s connection ) :at ,i %all spe$ily h occasion to relate4 ,,*apt] ,,xxiv4 ,to return to ! ?read ( my n>rative1 :i* 9 /at+ ^! p>ticul>s ,i h 9 "s po9ts anticipat$4--,i sat d[n1 z ,i h already said1 9 ! environs ( ! city ( ,pisa4 ,m>gu]ite1 z well z myself1 _h a p[]ful atta*m5t to ! retirem5t ( rural life1 & ,i judg$ x equally eligible = ! heal? & intellectual improvem5t ( my daught]s4 ,i accord+ly pur*as$ a small doma91 delightfully situat$1 b ( simple appe>ance1 on ! banks ( ! ,arno4 ,"h ,i propos$ to rema9 dur+ ! indisposition ( my wife1 :i* ,i flatt]$ myself retirem5t1 tranquillity1 att5tion & k9dness1 w\ld 9 no long "t be able to cure4 ,to ?is object ,i resolv$ to devote my ex]tions4 ,well did %e m]it ?is return f me1 :o _h re/or$ me 9 ! guilty ru9 ( my =tunes1 & rais$ me f ! abyss ( insanity4 ,odi\s & dete/able 9 ! utmo/ degree %\ld ,i h appe>$ 9 my own eyes1 if ,i c\ld h neglect$ any means ,i 0 able to devise1 to heal a mis*ief ( :i* my own precipitation1 selfi%ness1 & folly 7 ! only causes4 ,e little1 cont9ual1 nameless c>e ,i ex]t$1 0 z a drop ( heal+ balm to ! burn+ fev] & remorse ( my consci5ce4 ,no?+ inde$ c\ld eradicate my di/emp]2 ,i felt ! ev]-liv+ worm ( p]petrat$ guilt gnaw+ at my he>t4 ,b my solicitudes = ,m>gu]ite1 at lea/ dur+ ! mom5ts !y 7 9 action1 mitigat$ my angui%2 & ?is transitory relief1 h[ev] insignificant x may appe> 9 ! eyes ( o!rs1 ,i *]i%$ beyond ! weal? ( k+doms4 ,m>gu]ite & myself appe>$ at ?is "t to h *ang$ *>act]s4 ,%e 0 languid1 indispos$ 9 body & m9d1 h] ?\ghts gloomy1 h] hopes bla/$1 h] wi%es bankrupt4 ,/ill h[ev] %e ma9ta9$ h] sup]iority to :at ,i _h be5 9 a simil> condition4 ,%e endeav\r$ to make ! be/ ( :at yet rema9$ to h]1 ?\gh %e decl9$ ! va9 attempt ( =gett+ :at %e _h lo/4 ,%e hung ov] h] daught]s ) inexpressible ende>m5t4 ,%e consol$ !m2 %e reason$ ) !m2 %e endeav\r$ to /eel _! m9ds = :atev] ill might be yet 9 /ore4 ,%e cultivat$ _! und]/&+s2 %e brea!d into !m m+l$ s5tim5ts ( resignation & en]gy4 ,!re 0 9 h] conv]sation ) !m a /rik+ tone ( cele/ial & div9e4 ,h] eloqu5ce 0 copi\s2 h] mann] ri*1 unaffect$1 & fl[+2 h] spee* simple1 free f exagg]ation & turbul5ce1 b mild1 affectionate1 & w9n+4 ,x sank deep into ! he>ts ( h] he>]s1 & seem$ to give a new turn to _! temp]s & disposition4 ,x r5d]$ ! "* ( ,julia at once m di/9ctive1 & yet m *a/is$2 x inspir$ an unwont$ mildness & s5sibility to t ( ,l\isa2 & r5d]$ ! cadette ( ! family unusually grave1 ?\ghtful1 & s$ate4 ,b ^u me 7 devolv$ ! m active occupations ( our e/abli%m5t4 ,m>gu]ite _h =m]ly be51 ,i 0 n[1 ! /ew>d4 ,e k9d ( sup]9t5d5ce1 f :i* ! di/9ction ( sex did n unavoidably exclude me1 0 resign$ to me by ! lovely victim ( my indiscretions4 ,m>gu]ite _h be5 my nurse1 ,i 0 n[ ambiti\s to be h]s4 ,i made myself ! s*oolma/] ( my *ildr52 ,m>gu]ite conf9$ h] communications to g5]al topics & ! culture ( ! he>t4 ,i initiat$ !m 9 music1 draw+1 geography1 sev]al diff]5t languages ( ,europe1 & 9 e accompli%m5t t ,i believ$ w\ld be really ornam5tal or improv+ to !m4 ,i might1 x is true1 h hir$ diff]5t ma/]s to in/ruct !m 9 ea* ( ^! bran*es1 & x is n impossible t !y might !n h be5 bett] taught1 ?\gh ,i 0 myself no incompet5t preceptor4 ,b ,i _h an hone/ artifice = my guide 9 ! plan ,i adopt$3 ,i 0 desir\s ( remov+ out ( ! sight ( my wife e ?+ t might rem9d h] ( ! fatal legacy1 ! effects ( :i* %e 0 induc$ s bitt]ly to deplore4 ,9 "s p>ticul>s ,i may affirm ( myself t ,i 0 n[ a bett] & a k9d] husb&1 ?an ,i _h be5 9 ! days ( our gaye/ prosp]ity1 or ! sc5e ( our infant loves4 ,i /udi$ ) assiduity ! temp] ( ,m>gu]ite2 ,i wat*$ h] looks2 ,i endeav\r$ to anticipate h] e wi%4 ,i m$itat$ ) c>e ! plan ( life1 :i* h] simple & feel+ he>t1 if solely consult$1 w\ld h l$ h] orig9ally to h *os52 & ,i copi$ out 9 ! :ole arrangem5t ( our h\sehold ! idea pa9t$ 9 my m9d4 ,f> f u 7 n[ ! o/5tation & pomp ( ! family-*teau on ! banks ( ! ,g>onne4 ,we liv$ n[1 n to awak5 admiration & envy 9 ! bosom ( gue/s & spectators3 we liv$ = ourselves4 ,e ?+ 0 elegant2 e ?+ 0 ta/eful2 b n an article f\nd its place 9 our resid5ce1 t did n re/ its claim to be !re ^u a plea ( usefulness4 ,?\gh1 by ! nature ( my situation1 ,i 0 sup]ior to all re/ra9t f a consid]ation ( exp5se1 yet our compet5t bo>d & ord]ly habitation approa*$ ne>] 9 _! appe>ance to ! hone/ pla9ness ( a ru/ic1 ?an to ! sumptu\sness ( h]$it>y nobility4 ,a table set out ) /rik+ propriety & neatness 0 pref]r$ to ! ri*ness ( plate & ! spl5d\r ( porcela9 & lu/res4 ,i 0 anxi\s t ,m>gu]ite %\ld =get ! *ange ( our situation & ! ext5t ( my res\rces4 ,! objects ( my pres5t pursuit 7 obscurity & cont5t4 ,t ,m>gu]ite might =get my acquisition1 ,i 0 /udi\s to appe> to h =gott5 x myself4 ,if a /rang] _h ent]$ our habitation1 & survey$ our economy1 he w\ld h judg$ t our rev5ues am\nt$ to a dec5t compet5ce1 & t we disburs$ !m ) a judici\s discretion4 ,no?+ 0 to be se5 t w\ld h betray$ ! possessor ( ! p[d] ( projection4 ,we _h no gue/s4 ,we cultivat$ no acqua9tance4 ,we 7 =m$ to suffice to ea* o!r )9 our little circle2 &1 b = ! importunate recurr5ce ( disquiet+ reflections1 we %\ld h done s4 ,to look at ! ext]ior ( our h\sehold1 x might h be5 ?\ght t we _h arriv$ at t sweet =getfulness ( anxi\s c>e1 t delici\s leisure & unbrok5 retreat1 :i* h 9 all ages be5 ! !me ( panegyric to poets & philosoph]s4 ,b x 0 n s4 ,our reciprocal relations 7 *ang$2 & ! hope ( ! h\se ( ,/4 ,leon 0 no long] 9 ! mid/ ( u1 to *e]1 to enlight51 & to w>m our bosoms4 ,a life ( leisure is (t5 an active & a busy life4 ,! gr&1 ,i might almo/ say ! s+le1 object ( pres5t att5tion to me1 0 ! re/oration ( ! heal? & tranquillity ( ,m>gu]ite4 ,= t ,i wat*$ ) unwe>i$ assiduity4 ,subord9ate to ?is occupation 7 ! diff]5t arts & accompli%m5ts 9 :i* ,i in/ruct$ my daught]s4 ,yet nei!r ! =m] nor ! latt] ( ^! engagem5ts fill$ up all ! "t ( a m9d s re/less & rapid z m9e 04 ,int]vals occurr$1 9 :i* my att5tions to ,m>gu]ite w\ld h be51 n soo?+1 b tr\blesome1 & 9 :i* ,i c\ld no long] imp>t a lesson to my daught]s1 )\t relax+ & weak5+ ! spr+ ( progression 9 _! m9ds4 ,^! int]vals ,i sometimes d$icat$ to *emi/ry & ! op]ations ( natural magic4 ,! m effectually to hide ^! pursuits f ! eye ( ,m>gu]ite1 ,i occupi$1 unkn[n to h]1 a sort ( grotto1 buri$ almo/ f human obs]vation 9 a holl[ on ! banks ( ! riv]1 & :i* 0 connect$1 by a w9d+ pa? & a conceal$ subt]ranean passage1 ) ! g>d5 ( my own habitation4 ,! secrets ( ! /rang] _h giv5 me a p>ticul> reli% = ?is k9d ( pursuit4 ,!re are habits ( ! m9d & modes ( occupy+ ! att5tion1 9 :i*1 :5 once we h engag$1 !re seems a sort ( physical impossibility ( ev] )draw+ ourselves4 ,?is 0 my case 9 ! pres5t in/ance4 ,my habit 0 ( no long /&+4 ,b no read+ ( my /ory1 no m]e p[] ( language & words1 c enable a by/&] to imag9e h[ deep x 0 sunk into my he>t1 h[ inextricably x 0 twi/$ ) all ! fibres ( my bosom4 ,t he may 9 "s degree ent] into my situation1 ,i entreat ! read] to consid] :at are ! mo/ imp]i\s passions ( ! human m9d4 ,!y h rudely be5 describ$ to be weal?1 p[]1 & pleasurable s5sation4 ,h[ allur+ to e "o ( u are ! vision>y conceptions ( ! m9d respect+ ^! mo/ pot5t excitem5ts6 ,b m9e 7 no visions4 ,i _h grasp$ !m 9 my h&1 & kn[n _! reality4 ,i _h felt t ! weal? ( ! :ole _w 0 at my disposal1 & t ,i held my life by a t5ure indep5d5t & imp]ial4 ,^! are n ( ! class ( conceptions t fade & p]i% f ! m9d4 ,we _c wake f !m z f a dream1 & =get t ev] su* ?+s 74 ,!y _h *ang$ ! :ole con/itution ( my nature4 ,x w\ld h requir$ a miracle1 great] ?an all ! consecrat$ leg5ds ( our *ur* record1 to h re/or$ me to :at ,i =m]ly 04 ,if !n ,i c\ld h resolv$ nev] h5ce=? to use ! gifts ,i _h receiv$1 ,i yet firmly believe t ,i nev] c\ld h refra9$ f ! composition & decomposition ( simples1 & f exp]im5ts on ! nature ( sub/ances1 *emical & metallic4 ,i 0 h[ev] f> f hav+ =m$ any su* resolution z t ,i h nam$4 ,my pres5t =be>ance to br+ =? ! secret treasure ( my p[]s 0 purely an accommodation to ! unhappy condition ( my wife2 & ,i felt x z a m]itori\s ex]tion ?us to po/pone ! use ( ! faculties ,i possess$4 ,9 ! mean "t ! amusem5t ,i s\ght1 t ,i reg>d$ z prop]ly & entirely my own1 consi/$ 9 ^! exp]im5ts4 ,:ile ,i 0 busi$ ) my crucible1 ,i 0 able m vividly to pres5t to myself my seem+ sup]iority to ! re/ ( my species4 ,i us$ ! employm5ts ( my grotto1 z a sort ( />t+-po/ f :i* to set =? 9 a s]ies ( intoxicat+ rev]ies2 n to m5tion t to improve 9 ! facility ( my secret op]ations might become a valuable subsidi>y to ! pursuits ( my future life4 ,i took occasionally z my companion at ^! p]iods ! negro ( ! prison ( ,con/ance4 ,i f\nd him suffici5tly adapt$ = my purpose2 8 innoc5ce & implicit ob$i5ce to :omev] he s]v$1 r5d]+ me secure t he w\ld anticipate no?+1 t he w\ld conjecture no?+1 t he w\ld re/ 9 :at he saw1 t ,i might almo/ exhibit my :ole process "u 8 eye1 )\t once awak5+ ! busy fi5d ( curiosity 9 a m9d to :i* sci5ce _h nev] unveil$ h] *>ms4 ,he 0 =m$ to be a pure1 passive ma*9e 9 ! h&s ( 8 employ]1 only ) ?is s+ul> diff]5ce f ! lifeless ma*9e ( ! eng9e] or me*anical inv5tor1 t he 0 susceptible ( atta*m5t & affection1 z well z ( a c]ta9 species ( cont5tm5t & a c]ta9 species ( goodness & virtue4 ,a feature ( my individual "* :i* has already frequ5tly pres5t$ itself to ! att5tion ( ! read] is ! love ( admiration & spontane\s def]5ce4 ,i am at ?is mom5t a%am$ ( my vices & my follies2 b x mu/ be recollect$1 9 ! fir/ place1 t !y are human1 & 9 ! second t ,i am writ+1 n _! v9dication1 b _! hi/ory4 ,9 ! mid/ ( my exp]im5ts & *emical lucubrations1 ,i c\ld n help sometimes o/5tati\sly exhibit+ to ,hector ! wond]s ( my art1 & ^? extraord9>y effects :i* h 9 all ages drawn ^u ! m em95t op]ators ( natural magic ! reproa* ( be+ necromanc]s & conjur]s4 ,?is ,i did1 p>tly p]haps t my att5dant might le>n to look up to me ) a k9d ( nameless respect & awe1 b p>tly also t ,i might div]t myself ) ! simplicity ( 8 nature1 & ! gap+ & motionless a/oni%m5t ) :i* he view$ my p]=mances4 ,if ,i _h n done ?is1 or digress$ into idle & o/5tati\s exp]im5ts1 he w\ld o!rwise h se5 en\gh1 9 ! op]ations 9 :i* 8 assi/ance1 if n absolutely necess>y1 0 extremely conv5i5t1 to h induc$ a p]son1 s void ( ! meane/ ,european in=mation1 to reg>d me z assi/$ by & 9 league ) invisible p[]s4 ,! prejudice aga9/ me1 ) :i* ?is poor fell[ _h be5 impress$ at ! comm5cem5t ( our int]c\rse did n long hold out1 9 8 +5u\s m9d1 aga9/ ! m fav\rable s5tim5ts :i* my pres5t situation & mode ( liv+ 7 calculat$ to inspire4 ,! specim5s he _h hi!rto se5 ( ,european society 7 ( ! mo/ unfav\rable k9d4 ,8 fir/ ma/] 0 a wret* ( brutal disposition1 f]oci\s & insol5t2 disda9+ to reason himself1 & impati5t ( remon/rance 9 o!rs4 ,?is man _h ex]cis$ ! temp] ( 8 humble & hone/ att5dant ) e v>iety ( savage caprice2 &1 hav+ tir$ ! re/lessness ( 8 own gloomy tyranny1 )\t be+ able to exhau/ ! mode/ & unexampl$ pati5ce ( 8 s]vant1 _h f9i%$ by ?r[+ him into gaol1 ^u a wanton & gr\ndless *>ge ( di%one/y4 ,?is1 :i* 0 int5d$ z a fur!r ex]cise ( tyranny1 des]v$ to be hail$ by ! poor suff]] z a p]iod ( jubilee & deliv]ance4 ,8 innoc5ce1 z ,i h already relat$1 0 spe$ily recognis$ by 8 new task-ma/]1 :o accord+ly ex]t$ himself to obta9 ju/ice = ! fri5dless victim2 & f a reput$ ?ief propos$ to elevate him to ! rank ( a turnkey4 ,hector _h nei!r k9dr$ nor patron to assi/ him2 ! outca/ ( a gaol1 he mu/ aga9 h ent]$ ! _w ) a bla/$ "*4 ,?us circum/anc$1 & influ5c$ beside by gratitude to ! unlook$-= lib]ality ( 8 deliv]]1 he will+ly accept$ ! situation propos$ to him4 ,) 8 new ma/]1 :o1 n less unpr9cipl$1 0 less tyrannical ?an 8 pr$ecessor1 ! humbl5ess ( 8 hopes taught him to be cont5t$4 ,yet 9 ! bosom ( ! gaol] all 8 fidelity & reg>d c\ld n enable him to detect "o positive virtue2 &1 )9 ! walls ( ! prison1 !re _h exi/$ no?+ t c\ld by any possibility *]i% & refre% ! human he>t4 ,! sc5e pres5t$ to ,hector's obs]vation 9 our little retreat1 on ! banks ( ! ,arno1 0 ( a v diff]5t nature4 ,to 8 frank & affectionate _s1 x appe>$ a p]fect p>adise4 ,he _h yet sc>cely be5 acqua9t$ ) any b ! refuse ( mank9d1 f ! infection ( ^: vices 8 unappreh5sive & inv9cible simplicity _h be5 8 only safegu>d2 & he 0 n[ sudd5ly introduc$ to ! pres5ce & int]c\rse ( ! mo/ p]fect ( h] sex4 ,he lov$ h] z a b5efactor1 & he wor%ipp$ h] z a god4 ,!re is no receipt = begett+ affection 9 o!rs1 s infallible z a w>m & susceptible he>t4 ,hector accord+ly soon became 9 a rem>kable degree ! fav\rite ( my daught]s4 ,8 temp] 0 naturally *e]ful & gay2 &1 w>m$ by _! enc\ragem5t1 x became a ?\s& times m s4 ,:5 he _h complet$ ! occupations ( ! day1 ! lightness ( 8 _s w\ld prompt him to s+ & dance = ev]4 ,he exhibit$ ! :ole circle ( 8 sportive games = _! amusem5t4 ,! infant9e innoc5ce ( 8 und]/&+ rem>kably adapt$ him to be ! butt ( _! little wagg]ies & mis*iefs4 ,:atev] tricks 7 play$ ^u him1 7 h[ev] temp]$ by ! =be>ance & reg>d 8 wor? dem&$2 :ile ! ob/rep]\s *e]fulness ) :i* he w\ld second _! mir?1 :5 mo/ ignorant ( its occasion1 gave uncommon ze/ to ! amusem5t1 & furni%$ et]nal provocation to ! prolong+ & v>y+ its features4 ,let n ! fa/idi\s read] compla9 ( ! inconsi/5cy ( ?is "p ( my picture1 or c5sure ! levity ( my daught]s4 ,i am n writ+ a trag$y1 b a hi/ory4 ,sad grief & melan*oly _c1 & ought n1 = ev] to reign 9 ! human face or ! human he>t4 ,no daught]s ev] lov$ a "m m entirely1 m f]v5tly1 ?an ,m>gu]ite 0 lov$ by h] *ildr54 ,!y 7 unwe>i$ 9 _! att5tion to h]3 (t5 0 _! pill[ wat]$ ) te>s1 occasion$ by ! sad pres5tim5t ( ! loss !y 7 de/9$ to su/a94 ,b ! human m9d1 p>ticul>ly 9 ! season ( y\?1 has an unconqu]able pr9ciple ( ela/icity 9 its frame4 ,! b[ _c be kept = ev] on ! /ret*2 &1 :5 ! :ole s\l appe>s to be b5t d[n by calamity to ! grave1 x w (t5 surpris+ly recov] its vig\r & r5ew its /r5g?4 ,! +5u\s nature ( ^! poor girls l$ !m inde$ occasionally to reproa* !mselves ) ^! mom5ts ( *e]fulness z ) a crime4 ,b x 0 no crime4 ,none b ! un*>itably rigor\s & morose w *>ge x ^u !m z a crime4 ,x int]f]$ ) no duty2 x dim9i%$ no affection2 x _h no t5d5cy to h>d5 _! he>ts4 ,x 0 a tax !y paid to ! imp]fectness ( our nature2 x 0 a tribute ( gratitude to t ,god :o1 :ile he deals out to u ! mo/ t]rible calamities1 fails n to mix ) ! copi\s draught "s solit>y drops ( b5efic5ce4 ,julia alone1 ^: temp] 0 con/itutionally s]i\s & s(t1 ent]$ little into ^! sports1 ( :i* h] y\nge/ si/] 0 ! et]nal lead] & untir$ p>tak]4 ,yet ev5 ^u ! grave c\nt5ance ( ,julia !y w\ld sometimes provoke an unwill+ smile1 :i* ^u h] c\nt5ance sat ) uncommon lu/re4 ,! hil>ity & lovel9ess :i* ,hector f\nd 9 ! mid/ ( my family in/igat$ & increas$ ! atta*m5t he began to feel = myself4 ,he c\ld n believe t ! fa!r ( su* daught]s1 & ! *os5 husb& ( su* a consort1 c\ld be de/itute ( a title to be lov$4 ,he reason$ 9 8 own way ^u ! attempt ,i _h made to corrupt 8 fidelity1 an attack :i* he nev] ?or\ghly dige/$4 ,i h reason to believe t 8 att5dance ^u my *emical processes1 & ! wond]s ,i occasionally %[$ to excite 8 a/oni%m5t1 did n t5d to elevate me 9 8 good op9ion4 ,b he c\ld n avoid witness+ 9 me _m ( ! virtues ( a good husb& & a good fa!r1 & ^!1 s new to 8 obs]vation1 /rongly impress$ him 9 my fav\r4 ,! regul>ity ( my habits & ! mildness ( my c>riage 7 also calculat$ to w9 8 affection & e/eem4 ,nev] _h ! poor fell['s affections be5 s =cibly call$ out z !y 7 9 8 new situation2 & he w\ld *e]fully h /ret*$ out 8 neck to ! assass9's knife1 to h w>d$ (f imp5d+ evil f ! meane/ ( u4 ,prosp]ity & ease h (t5 be5 f\nd ! p>5ts ( wi%es & incl9ations unfelt be=e4 ,adv]sity is ! season ( sob] ?\ght1 calls home ! erratic m9d1 & tea*es u to be *eaply satisfi$4 ,b ! man :o has _m gratifications is apt to w&] 9 imag9ation f daily & famili> joys1 & confid5tly to rea* aft] ?+s yet untri$4 ,su* 0 ! situation ( ,hector3 ,hector 0 9 love4 ,our sweet & simple mansion 0 di/ant sc>cely m ?an two hundr$ y>ds f a *>act]i/ic ,italian village4 ,! maid ( a little alb]go 9 ?is place _h caught 8 inexp]i5c$ he>t4 ,he _h be5 invit$ by "s peasants to a moonlight fe/ivity on ! lawn ( ! alb]go2 &1 ?\gh ,i %\ld h be5 bett] pleas$ t my s]vants %\ld decl9e ?is sort ( amusem5t1 ,i c\ld n h ! he>t to d5y him4 ,x 01 s f> z ,i knew1 ! fir/ & ! la/ "t t ,hector _h ev] resort$ to x4 ,b ,i 0 deceiv$4 ,hector _h prov$ ! gaye/ & mo/ amus+ ( ! :ole circle4 ,8 *e]fulness 0 inexhau/ible1 & 8 mir? 9 ! utmo/ degree h>mless & good hum\r$4 ,he _h play$ a ?\s& antics1 & danc$ ) an agility t knew no end4 ,9 a ^w1 ! accompli%m5ts ( ,hector1 9 spite ( ! jetty hue t /a9$ 8 face1 _h won ! he>t1 or r\s$ ! coquetry1 ( ! plump & rosy b>-maid4 ,! ov]tures %e made & ! lures %e ?rew out 7 too gl>+ to escape ! notice ev5 ( ! mode/ ,hector4 ,he felt himself flatt]$1 su* is human nature1 at sudd5ly becom+ an object ( admiration & pref]5ce to a woman1 :om 8 imag9ation1 /imulat$ by h] visible p>tiality1 attir$ 9 a hundr$ *>ms4 ,he own$ himself h]s1 9 all fair & hone/ fealty1 to ! _w's end4 ,love taught ,hector a lesson :i* he _h nev] le>n$ be=e4 ,9 nature he 0 frank1 &1 z f> z fidelity to 8 ma/] p]mitt$ x1 wore 8 he>t z nak$ z 8 face4 ,love taught him dissimulation4 ,a vulg> footman or cl[n is z =w>d z ! mo/ empty beau1 9 boa/+ ( ! triumphs he has ga9$ ov] ! female he>t1 & 9 sacrific+ ! reputation ( ^? :o h lov$ him at ! %r9e ( 8 vanity4 ,n su* 0 ,hector4 ,he %ut ,up 8 new s5sations & rev]ies z a sacr$ deposit 9 8 bosom4 ,nature work$ )9 him1 & he w\ld h be5 a%am$ to speak1 & di/ress$ to he>1 ( emotions1 n[ felt1 till n[ nev] exp]i5c$4 ,8 artless & +5u\s temp] 9 ?is "o p>ticul> assum$ ! guise ( cunn+4 ,nev] did he tell 8 love 9 ! e> ( any indiff]5t auditor2 assidu\sly did he avoid pron\nc+ ev5 ! "n ( h] to :om he 0 atta*$4 ,9 any o!r case he w\ld h ann\nc$ to me 8 incl9ations1 & previ\sly dem&$ my leave ( abs5ce = 8 excursions4 ,b love seem$ to him imp]i\sly to comm& privacy1 & he employ$ e imag9able precaution to prev5t me & all human be+s f kn[+ :i!r he w5t1 or t he 0 abs5t at all4 ,9 "o ( 8 visits to 8 fair donzella1 he happ5$ incauti\sly to drop "s v remote h9t ( ! sc5es 9 :i* he _h j be5 engag$ ) me 9 my secret grotto4 ,! curiosity ( ! girl 0 /rongly r\s$2 %e que/ion$ him fur!r4 ,he />t$1 & 0 t]rifi$ to recollect :at he _h said4 ,i _h /rictly enjo9$ him secrecy t[>ds e memb] ( my family3 my precaution _h ext5d$ no fur!r2 =1 z ,i h said1 ,i sc>cely knew t he _h ! mo/ casual int]c\rse ) any p]son beyond my own ro(4 ,b ,hector naturally dread$ t :at ,i 0 s e>ne/ to conceal f e "o 9 my h\se he w\ld be highly to blame to communicate to a /rang]4 ,he !re=e p]emptorily refus$1 & ) _m signs ( di/ress1 to say ano!r ^w on ! subject4 ,! donzella1 piqu$ at 8 resi/ance1 _h rec\rse to female arts4 ,%e 0 cruel2 %e utt]$ words ( %>p displeasure & disda92 %e knew t a p]son :o refus$ h] su* a trifle c\ld n h an atom ( reg>d = h]2 %e comm&$ him nev] to see h] m4 ,unsuccessful 9 ^! exp$i5ts1 %e _h rec\rse to exp$i5ts ( a diff]5t sort4 ,%e wept2 %e call$ him base1 false-he>t$ & unk9d2 %e saw he 0 det]m9$ to be ! dea? ( h]2 %e 0 seiz$ ) /rong fits ( sobb+ & hy/]ical affection4 ,9 ! mid/ ( all ?is he 0 z unmov$ z a rock ( m>ble4 ,he int]pret$ e ?+ t pass$ 9 its mo/ lit]al =m2 he felt m sev]ely h] unk9dness1 & sympa?is$ m truly 9 h] di/ress1 ?an p]haps any human creature w\ld h done4 ,b no fur!r c\ld %e ga9 ^u him4 ,! confid5ce ( 8 ma/] 0 9 "q1 & he w\ld soon] h di$ ^u ! rack1 ?an run ! slighte/ risk ( betray+ x4 ,f ^! arts %e desc5d$ to arts m cong5ial to ! habits ( h] life4 ,%e summon$ all h] skill to p]plex him ) cunn+ & insidi\s que/ions4 ,f h] que/ions he ought to h fl$2 b ( ?is ,hector 0 incapable4 ,he 0 di/ress$ by h] sev]ity1 he griev$ = ! un9t5tional pa9 he _h caus$ h]4 ,all ^! circum/ances melt$ 8 he>t2 & he c\ld n resolve ^u any ?+ t 0 n consid]ate & respectful t[>ds h]4 ,z ! fram+ ( artful que/ions 0 ! /rong-hold ( ! donzella1 & %e might h *all5g$ 9 ?is article ! mo/ ho>y practition] ( ! quibbl+ b>1 s x 0 exactly ! weake/ side ^u :i* poor ,hector c\ld be attack$4 ,8 simplicity yield$ him up a def5celess prey to ! assailant2 lea/ ( all human und]tak+s 0 he capable ( detect+ ! v>i\s faces ( a d\btful "q1 & ( gu>d+ himself aga9/ ! traps ( an insidi\s foe4 ,x 0 n till ! f\r? int]view f ,hector's orig9al h9t1 t ! donzella _h rec\rse to ?is species ( attack2 & %e did n )draw h] =ces1 till %e _h extort$ f him all he knew4 ,:5 ,hector f\nd t all 8 gu>ds 7 baffl$ & put to flight1 he _h !n rec\rse to ! only exp$i5t t rema9$1 conjur+ h] by e ?+ sacr$ & e ?+ trem5d\s1 n to betray a tru/ %e _h s ung5]\sly obta9$ f him4 ,%e readily promis$ e ?+ he desir$4 ,soo!d by h] compliance1 he det]m9$ n to m5tion to me ! lapse ( :i* he _h be5 guilty4 ,x w\ld 9 8 op9ion h be5 little less ?an treason1 to suspect 8 ,dulc9ea ( indiscretion or frailty4 ,9 ! brea/ ( ?is miracle ( nature 0 n 8 loyalty z secure z x c\ld be ev5 9 8 own8 ,:y !n %\ld he betray ! secret ( 8 love1 :i* _h nev] yet be5 confid$ ev5 to ! s5seless air8 ,:y %\ld he subject himself to ! inconceivable angui% & confusion1 ( own+1 :]e my int]e/s1 or :]e my wi%es 7 conc]n$1 t he _h be5 f\nd tripp+ & imp]fect8 ,:y %\ld he inflict a pa91 or cause 9 me a fe>1 :i* he knew1 & he only c\ld "k1 0 gr\ndless8 ,?us x happ5$ t ,i _h "o m confid5t ( :at ,i purpos$ %\ld be secret1 ?an ,i 0 myself 9 ! smalle/ degree adv]tis$ (4 ,! consequ5ces ( ?is indiscretion ( my s]vant 7 n sl[ 9 r5d]+ !mselves visible4 ,! donzella 0 by no means s scrupul\s or delicate 9 h] s5tim5ts1 z my humble1 b fai?ful1 att5dant4 ,z %e _h giv5 h] company to ,hector1 %e _h _h an opportunity ( obs]v+ 9 him su* integrity & goodness ( he>t1 z c\ld n fail to extort ! e/eem ( any human be+4 ,%e really hon\r$ him2 %e 0 unwill+ to give him any cause ( uneas9ess4 ,b %e _h ano!r lov]2 p]haps %e _h m4 ,! laws ( *a/ity %e reg>d$ z prejudices1 & believ$ !y 7 nev] =m$ = p]sons 9 h] situation 9 society4 ,%e 0 ( op9ion t ! m lov]s %e _h1 provid$ %e satisfi$ !m all1 ! m completely did %e improve ! tal5ts ) :i* ,heav5 _h end[$ h]4 ,few wom5 h any secrets = ! man !y admit to _! embraces4 ,9 an h\r ( amor\s dalliance %e communicat$ to ,ago/9o1 ! o/l]1 all t %e knew ( ! conjurations & spells ( ,monsieur ,boismor&1 su* 0 ! "n ,i _h assum$ ^u my entrance into ,italy4 ,h] communication 0 probably att5d$ ) cautions1 imitat$ f ^? ) :i* ,hector _h s indu/ri\sly load$ ! donzella 9 ! prec$+ example4 ,p]haps ! illu/rissimo ,ago/9o _h ano!r mi/ress1 ) :om he ?\ght x w\ld be unju/ to practise great] res]ves ?an ! donzella _h done ) him4 ,be t z x w1 ! rum\rs :i* 7 :isp]$ to my prejudice spe$ily got air2 &1 x may be1 7 repeat$ ) ! great] avidity1 on acc\nt ( ! my/]y t att5d$ !m1 & ! injunctions ( secrecy ) :i* !y 7 accompani$4 ,,*apt] ,,xxv4 ,italy may be consid]$ z ! v focus & p>5t ( sup]/iti\s cr$ulity4 ,! mat]ials :i* ,hector _h furni%$1 aft] all ! int]rogations ( ! donzella1 7 slight comp>$ ) ! sup]/ructure :i* 0 pres5tly erect$ on !m4 ,my grotto 0 said to be ! appropriat$ haunt :]e a ?\s& devils held _! inf]nal sabba?4 ,! t]rifi$ imag9ation ( ! ru/ics1 li/5+ ) a temp] horribly di/ract$ betwe5 curiosity & al>m1 creat$ to itself fictiti\s h[l+s & %rieks1 & saw pale & sulphure\s flames danc+ ^u ! surface ( ! /ream4 ,poor ,hector 0 e>ly ! victim ( _! cruel & untam$ ignorance2 !y believ$ t ! peculi>ity ( 8 complexion r5d]$ him a s+ul>ly agreeable int]cessor betwe5 me & my inf]nal famili>s4 ,! col\r ( ,*>on 0 simil> to t ( my confid5tial att5dant2 & he1 l ,hector1 fell "u ! calumni\s miscon/ructions ( ! affright$ villag]s4 ,conspicu\sly noble1 affectionate & useful z he 01 ! jaundic$ eye ( sup]/ition metamorphos$ him into a devil4 ,! /orms ( ?und] & lightn+ to :i* ! climate 9 :i* ,i resid$ is p>ticul>ly subject acquir$ new t]ror f ! ill fame :i* n[ pursu$ ! "n ( ,monsieur ,boismor&4 ,at ^? times ! %apeless =m ( mon/]s vomit+ smoke & flames 7 visible to ! neighb\rhood1 sometimes scudd+ along ! blue tops ( ! di/ant hills1 & at o!rs1 ) audaci\sness incr$ible1 bru%+ ev5 at ! elb[ ( ! almo/ lifeless cl[ns & dairy-maids1 & !n sudd5ly dissolv+ into air1 _! place no long] m>k$ b by ! noisome & deadly /5* !y left beh9d4 ,all ! mis=tunes ( ! di/rict 7 imput$ to me1 ! mortality ( cattle1 ! convulsions & dea? ( *ildr51 & ! pale & l+]+ decay ( p]sons rec5tly advanc$ to an age ( pub]ty4 ,innoc5t & blameless 0 my conduct to all ar\nd u2 (t5 0 ,i =w>d & eag] = ! relief ( ! poor & afflict$2 nev] 0 ,i ! au?or ( ! slighte/ inconv5i5ce or prejudice to any4 ,yet no?+ m]ely human c\ld be hat$ 9 ! degree 9 :i* ,i 0 hat$2 few 7 d>+ & intrepid en\gh to repeat ! v "n ,i bore2 &1 :5 x 0 inadv]t5tly pron\nc$1 x produc$ ?r\gh ! :ole ext5t ( ! a/oni%$ circle an involunt>y & sup]natural %udd]4 ,ago/9o1 ! fir/ lov] :o _h made an impression on ! he>t ( ,hector's donzella1 01 z ,i aft]w>ds f\nd1 a fell[ ( a gloomy & f]oci\s disposition1 a true ,italian spadacc9o1 det]m9$ t none %\ld p]petrate an affront aga9/ him ) impunity1 b %\ld expiate1 9 "s ref9$ & cruel v5geance1 ! levity by :i* !y _h be5 s un=tunate z to give bir? to 8 hatr$4 ,he by no means reli%$ or approv$ ! lib]al & good-hum\r$ s5tim5ts ( ! donzella2 (t5 _h !y inflict$ on him ! d>ke/ torm5ts ( jeal\sy2 nor _h he fail$1 at lea/ 9 "o prec$+ in/ance1 to make 8 rival ! victim ( 8 res5tm5t4 ,! donzella h[ev] w5t on 9 h] c>e]2 %e 0 light ( he>t1 gay 9 temp]1 & c>eless ( consequ5ces4 ,%e _h always hi!rto succe$$1 by playful bl&i%m5ts1 or m s]i\s demon/rations ( contrition1 9 mollify+ ! temp] ( h] brute2 & e p>don %e receiv$ op]at$ ) h] z a new p]mission to (f5d4 ,%e did n suffici5tly consid] t %e 0 ?us cont9ually rais+ to a high] pit* ! fr5zy ( 8 malice4 ,hector 9 ! mean "t 0 utt]ly unconsci\s & ignorant ( ! p]il\s situation 9 :i* he /ood2 :ile1 to ! appreh5sion ( ,ago/9o1 ! giv+ him a negro = a rival1 :om 8 pride reg>d$ z belong+ to an inf]ior species ( be+s1 & 8 dev\t ignorance lik5$ to ! lead] ( ! inf]nal squadrons1 0 ! la/ & mo/ intol]able insult4 ,8 malice 0 +5i\s & subtle4 ,he disda9$ ! vulg> rev5ge ( /abb+ 8 antagoni/ 9 ! d>k1 & suppos+ t 8 enmity c\ld be gorg$ by a bl[4 ,:5 ! v5om ( 8 nature 0 ?or\ghly put 9 motion1 no?+ c\ld re/ore x to quietness & tranquillity b "s mighty /roke1 to excite ! wond] ( e by/&]1 & t %\ld leave beh9d x a track ( desolation1 nev] to be fill$ up aga9 & eras$4 ,he he>d !re=e ) unsat$ appetite & eag] joy ! tale ( necromancy & inf]nal ma*9ation repeat$ to him f ,hector by ! donzella4 ,! impression :i* ! n>rative produc$ ^u him 0 a mix$ s5tim5t ( transport at ! appreh5sion ( su* an in/rum5t ( v5geance & ( palpitat+ hatr$2 sup]/ition tea*+ him to believe & to view ) abhorr5ce t :i* he desir$ to r5d] t5fold m an object ( fai? & av]sion to 8 neighb\rs4 ,he /ruck an auspici\s & augu/ alliance betwe5 8 rev5ge & 8 religion2 8 religion excit+ him to ext]m9ate t1 ! de/ruction ( :i* w\ld produce inexpressible gratification to 8 rev5ge4 ,! d>kness ( 8 _s l$ him to proce$ ) d\ble caution & vigilance 9 8 correspond5ce ) ! donzella4 ,he discov]$ no?+ to h] ( ! d>k project :i* 0 eng5d]+ 9 8 m9d2 & only betray$ s mu* ( 8 sup]/iti\s feel+s & fe>s z1 by giv+ new emotion1 might /imulate h] to gratify 8 curiosity & h] own by a detection ( fur!r p>ticul>s4 ,he 0 assidu\s 9 ! und]h& & s9i/] propagation ( ! tale1 to :i* he did n fail to give 8 own col\r+ & affix 8 own feel+s4 ,he 0 desir\s t ! tra9 %\ld be laid 9 sil5ce1 & t ! explosion he design$ %\ld be free f all pre-signification ( ! ev5t4 ,?us an individual1 ( ^: animosity ,i _h no appreh5sion1 & ! meanness ( ^: appe>ance w\ld probably h made me neglect all precaution aga9/ him1 gave me?od & direction to an evil1 ( :i* h[ev]1 ^u a review1 ,i am n incl9$ to d\bt ,i %\ld h be5 ! victim1 if ! enmity & indu/ry ( ?is individual _h be5 :olly )drawn4 ,! mis*ief 0 long 9 prep>ation1 be=e ,i receiv$ 9 any way ! slighte/ intimation ( ! pr$icam5t 9 :i* ,i /ood4 ,! fir/ circum/ance at all calculat$ to excite al>m 9 my m9d1 0 ! s+ul> mann] 9 :i* ,i f\nd myself reg>d$1 if ,i ent]$ any ( ! neighb\r+ villages1 or met ! ru/ics & _! dames1 z ,i /ray$ along ! roads or ! fields4 ,!y fl$ my approa*1 des]t$ ! /reets1 & c>efully %ut !mselves up 9 _! h\ses1 till ,i _h pass$4 ,:]e x 0 impossible to avoid me1 !y b[$ !mselves to ! e>? 9 ! mo/ submissive guise be=e me1 :ile ! mo/ lively t]ror 0 pa9t$ 9 _! c\nt5ances1 dread+ le/ !y %\ld excite ! res5tm5t ( a trem5d\s & inexorable foe4 ,^! tok5s h[ev] 7 f> f inspir+ me ) a conception ( ! tru?4 ,!y p]plex$1 !y a/oni%$1 !y di/ress$ me4 ,sore z ,i 0 ) my rec5t afflictions1 my m9d 0 b too fully prep>$ = anticipations ( evil4 ,i _h suff]$ f suspicions1 ,i _h suff]$ f calumni\s imputations1 ,i _h suff]$ f ! malignant effects ( popul> rum\r4 ,_h ,i yield$ my confid5ce to any p]son b su* a "o z ,hector1 x is probable my suspicions w\ld h turn$ on t side4 ,b my reliance on him 0 n less ?an t :i* ,alex&] ! ,great yield$ to ,philip ! physician3 ,i knew 8 rectitude1 8 simplicity1 8 fidelity1 & ! s+l5ess ( 8 he>t2 & ,i c\ld n h>b\r ! %ad[ ( a d\bt respect+ him4 ,my reliance 0 ( t entire & p]fect sort1 :i* did n express itself by a recollection ( ! physical possibility & an acquittal f\nd$ 9 delib]ation1 b by a total vacancy ( d\bt1 or ( retrospect t way direct$1 j su* z ! /ate ( my m9d w\ld h appe>$1 if ! ?+ _h be5 naturally impossible4 ,i 0 n h[ev] ignorant & raw en\gh to be deceiv$ by ! ext]ior ( homage ,i h describ$2 ,i suffici5tly knew t :at ,i beheld 0 ! (fspr+ ( hatr$4 ,to feel "o's self hat$ is 9 all in/ances a pa9ful & humiliat+ /ate ( ! human m9d4 ,to me x 0 especially s4 ,i 0 n =m$ to retaliate ?is species ( injury2 ,i c\ld n hate 9 my turn4 ,i 0 =m$ to love4 ,i c\ld n look ^u my species ) d>k & gloomy contemplations2 ,i 0 prompt to admire _! virtues1 & p]haps ev5 too prompt to ext5uate _! errors4 ,x may1 ,i believe1 be laid d[n z a rule1 t !y :o _c hate c lea/ endure to be made objects ( hatr$4 ,fett]$ h[ev] z ,i n[ 01 by ! t5d]e/ consid]ation = ! heal? & tranquillity ( ,m>gu]ite1 ,i ?\ght x be/ to temporise & submit 9 sil5ce4 ,my pr9cipal anxiety 0 to hide ^! symptoms f ! notice ( my family4 ,?is ,i c\ld n completely effect2 "s ( !m 7 too gl>+ & obtrusive1 entirely to escape ! obs]vation ( my daught]s 9 _! walks4 ,b ! filial =be>ance !y felt t[>ds _! "m l$ !m implicitly & )\t any conc]t$ plan to concur ) me 9 my ex]tions = h] quiet4 ,! animosity ( ,ago/9o 0 re/less & inext+ui%able4 ,8 plans did n t]m9ate 9 excit+ aga9/ me a secret & cov]$ abhorr5ce2 !y aim$ at no?+ less ?an my utt] de/ruction4 ,! next ex]tion ( ! conspiracy :i* 0 eng5d]+ aga9/ me 0 ( a tragical nature4 ,x happ5$ "o night1 aft] all my family 0 retir$ to re/1 & ,i 0 myself sunk into a slumb]1 t ,i 0 sudd5ly al>m$ at ! report ( a musket1 :i* seem$ to be fir$ almo/ "u ! w9d[ ( my *amb]4 ,?is 0 a v s+ul> circum/ance1 & calculat$ to convey an impression ( dang]4 ,i leap$ f my b$1 & ran to ! w9d[4 ,! night 0 extremely d>k1 & e ?+ seem$ p]fectly quiet4 ,pres5tly ,i disc]n$ a glimm]+ light1 l t ( a lant]n1 :i* h[ev] appe>$ to be gradually retir+ to a great] di/ance4 ,i 0 n ?us satisfi$1 b det]m9$ to ha/5 d[n /airs1 & inve/igate ! cause ( ! di/urbance4 ,m>gu]ite1 :o _h he>d ! fir+ ( ! musket z well z myself1 n[ call$ me to h]1 & entreat$ me n to expose myself to unnecess>y dang]4 ,9 compliance ) h] remon/rances ,i promis$1 ?\gh unwill+ly1 n to g out into ! c\rt or ^u ! lawn1 b to cont5t myself ) exam9+ ! /ate ( e "p ( ! h\se4 ,:5 ,i came to ! /aircase & ! hall1 ,i f\nd t ! al>m _h communicat$ to almo/ e p]son 9 ! family1 :o pres5tly assembl$ r\nd me4 ,we patrol$ ! h\se1 b f\nd e ?+ 9 ! situation 9 :i* x _h be5 left1 & n[h]e any appe>ance ( viol5ce4 ,i op5$ sev]al ( ! w9d[s1 b all 0 d>kness & sil5ce4 ,hav+ ?us f> satisfi$ myself1 ,i li/5$ ) a degree ( amusem5t to ! conjectures & sage rem>ks ( sev]al ( ! s]vants1 a rank ( society :o may usually be f\nd to d]ive a degree ( enjoym5t f incid5ts ( ?is sort1 :i*1 = ! mom5t1 /rik+ly t5d to level all artificial di/9ctions1 & conf] on e "o ! lib]ty ( utt]+ 8 reflections )\t appreh5sion or con/ra9t4 ,i did n h[ev] feel myself entirely easy2 ! circum/ance :i* _h j occurr$1 comb9$ ) ! =ebod+s :i* _h lately impress$ me1 _h fill$ me ) undef9able t]ror & al>m4 ,hector w\ld will+ly h gone ov] ! gr\nds contigu\s to ! h\se1 to see if he c\ld discov] any ?+ t relat$ to or c\ld expla9 ! incid5t2 b ,i _h promis$ ,m>gu]ite t ,i w\ld se>* no fur!r1 & ! temp] ( my m9d w\ld n suff] me to expose ano!r to a dang]1 :i* ,i ab/a9$ f enc\nt]+ 9 my own p]son4 ,x 0 m ?an an h\r be=e ! conclave 9 :i* we 7 assembl$ broke up1 & e "o retir$1 fatigu$ ) att5tion1 & prep>$ to fall into ! s\nde/ sleep4 ,my dreams 7 uneasy & di/urb$2 my m9d 0 9 a tumult ( imag9>y calamities2 & ,i pass$ ! great] "p ( ! night 9 a /ate ( s+ul> anxiety4 ,9 ! morn+ ,i 0 sc>cely sunk into a refre%+ slumb]1 be=e ,i 0 sudd5ly r\s$ f sleep by a repetition ( %rieks ( a/oni%m5t & di/ress4 ,i put on my clo!s z quickly z ,i c\ld1 & ha/5$ t[>ds ! spot f :i* ! s\nds appe>$ to proce$4 ,! fir/ object ,i beheld 0 ! little boy ( t5 ye>s' old1 :om ,*>on _h a %ort "t be=e dragg$ out ( ! riv]1 /ret*$ along ^u ! lifeless body ( ?is fai?ful & g5]\s animal4 ,! musket1 ! report ( :i* _h al>m$ u ! night be=e1 _h no d\bt be5 aim$ aga9/ ,*>on1 & ! great] "p ( its cont5ts appe>$ to be lodg$ 9 8 body4 ,z no fur!r s\nd _h succe$$ ! fir+1 he _h probably be5 kill$ on ! spot4 ,he 0 at a small di/ance f ! h\se1 ne> a private footpa?1 :]e he _h be5 f\nd 9 ! morn+ by ! lad ^: life he _h rec5tly pres]v$4 ,! poor boy _h n at fir/ und]/ood :at _h happ5$ to 8 b5efactor1 b only ?\ght him asleep1 &1 prompt$ by affection = ! g5]\s creature1 _h quietly sat d[n by him till he %\ld awake4 ,he _h n sat long h[ev]1 be=e he disc]n$ ab\t him ! m>ks ( blood4 ,he put 8 h& to ! w\nd2 ! animal /irr$ n4 ,he pass$ to 8 head2 he saw 8 eyes fi]y & />t+1 & 8 lips di/ort$4 ,he endeav\r$ to awake him1 z "o w\ld awake a human be+ to :om "s mis*ief _h happ5$ ( :i* he 0 n aw>e4 ,all 8 ef=ts 7 fruitless4 ,he f\nd 8 body motionless1 & 8 jo9ts /iff 9 dea?4 ,! appreh5sion ( :at _h occurr$ !n sudd5ly fla%$ on 8 m9d4 ,he bur/ out into %rieks ( a/oni%m5t & angui%4 ,hector 0 ! fir/ p]son :o caught ! s\nd1 & ha/5$ to ! spot2 ,i imm$iately foll[$4 ,! poor negro1 :o1 9 ! innoc5ce ( 8 he>t 0 un9itiat$ 9 ! pr\d di/9ctions by :i* civilis$ man is taught to place s va/ a b>ri] betwe5 ! human nature & ! brute1 0 /ruck spee*less ) sorr[ & amazem5t4 ,he recognis$ ! dead be+ be=e him = 8 fell[-creature4 ,he recollect$ 9 him 8 fri5d1 8 companion1 8 intimate acqua9tance1 betwe5 :om & himself !re _h = "s "t pass$ an un9t]rupt$ reciprocation ( acts ( k9dness & assi/ance4 ,a morose & fa/idi\s read] p]haps w ask me :y ,i lay s great a /ress ^u s petty & insignificant an incid5t z ! dea? ( a dog4 ,x might h be5 little to o!r p]sons2 x 0 n little to u4 ,let ! read] recollect 8 +5uity 9 procur+ aid = 8 dy+ ma/]1 8 gratitude to ! p]son by :om t aid 0 af=d$1 & 8 unconqu]able antipa?y to 8 ma/]'s murd]]4 ,^! are n common traits4 ,!re are _m m5 ^: premature fate has be5 ! mo/ unrel5t+ly av5g$1 t 9 moral & useful qualities c\ld n h /ood ! comp>ison ) my g5]\s ,*>on4 ,x surely 0 no common cause = regret1 t a creature :o _h di/+ui%$ himself by a conduct s peculi>ly admirable1 %\ld h enc\nt]$ s premature & unm]it$ a fate4 ,8 conduct ! read] may 9 "s degree compreh5d & appreciate2 b ,i %\ld 9 va9 attempt to del9eate ^? admirable qualities 9 ?is fai?ful dome/ic1 :i* d n fall )9 ! prov9ce ( n>rative1 & :i* to h ju/ly appreciat$ y mu/ h be5 p]sonally & famili>ly acqua9t$ ) him4 ,beside1 ours 0 a family ( love4 ,z we 7 affectionately atta*$ to ea* o!r1 s we nev] admitt$ a s]vant "u our ro(1 :o did n prove himself by 8 conduct utt]ly unwor?y1 to :om we did n ext5d a %>e ( t fri5d%ip & affection1 :i* seem$ to be ! "r ( e "o t dwelt 9 our family4 ,feel+ does n /ay to calculate ) weights & a balance ! importance & magnitude ( e object t excites x2 x fl[s impetu\sly f ! he>t1 )\t consult+ ! cool] responses ( ! und]/&+4 ,!re 0 ano!r circum/ance :i* r5d]$ ! cata/rophe ( ?is g5]\s animal ( great mom5t to u4 ,x 0 a cle> pro( t !re 0 some:]e a /rong animosity at "w aga9/ 8 ma/]4 ,x 0 impossible he c\ld himself h provok$ 8 fate4 ,nev] 0 a creature m g5tle & in(f5sive4 ,?\gh 8 bulk 0 great1 & 8 /r5g? uncommon1 ! en]gies he possess$ 7 always employ$ 9 acts ( ju/ice & b5efic5ce1 nev] 9 acts ( aggression4 ,b if a hatr$ 7 at "w s busy & fi]ce z to prompt an action l ?is1 h[ 7 we to e/imate x8 ,:at 0 its s\rce1 & :i!r did x t5d8 ,^! 7 v int]e/+ & s]i\s consid]ations4 ,we h[ev] dwelt = "s "t long] 9 ! c5tre ( g5]al antipa?y & abhorr5ce1 )\t be+ able 9 ! smalle/ degree to expla9 to ourselves :at we saw4 ,z we knew n 9 :at we _h (f5d$1 we 7 unable to atone = our fault1 or ev5 to gu>d ourselves aga9/ ! repetition ( x2 nor 7 we by any means prep>$ to compreh5d ! ext5t ( our dang]4 ,happily ,m>gu]ite1 ^: heal? 0 n[ 9 a rapid decl9e1 0 lea/ expos$ to ! obs]vation ( ?is new mis*ief2 ?\gh %e felt en\gh ( x to confirm h] 9 ! s5tim5t1 t %e _h no?+ =tunate & happy to look =w>d to 9 ! small rema9d] ( h] exi/5ce4 ,!re 0 inde$ "o idea p]petually pres5t to h]1 :i* r5d]$ ! impression ( ord9>y occurr5ces extremely feeble ^u h] m9d3--,*>les1 ,*>les1 w&]+ alone 9 ! _w1 unkn[+ & unkn[n1 )\t a fri5d1 a relative1 a c\nsellor1 or a protector1 )\t money & )\t a "n6 ,?is melan*oly image foll[$ h] :]ev] %e w5t1 haunt$ h] nightly 9 h] dreams1 att5d$ h] 9 all h] occupations1 fill$ all h] int]vals ( leisure2 &1 ?\gh %e laid x d[n z a law to h]self nev] to repeat 8 belov$ "n 9 my pres5ce1 %e c\ld ?9k ( no?+ else4 ,,*apt] ,,xxvi4 ,x 0 no long "t aft] ! dea? ( ,*>on1 t ,hector came home "o ev5+ 9 a /ate ( ! mo/ viol5t anxiety & trepidation4 ,he bur/ ^u me 9 my /udy1 :]e ,i 0 sitt+ alone1 buri$ 9 "o ( ^? deep rev]ies :i*1 especially s9ce ! legacy ( ! /rang]1 _h be5 among ! mo/ frequ5t habits ( my m9d4 ,8 p]turbation 0 su* z to r5d] x impossible = him to impose on himself ! smalle/ degree ( caution & re/ra9t4 ,! noise he made 9 ent]+ ! ap>tm5t />tl$ me4 ,i look$ up1 & p]ceiv$ 8 features swell$1 8 face bruis$1 & 8 g>m5ts disfigur$ ) blood4 8,= heav5's sake1 ,hector10 exclaim$ ,i1 8:at is ! matt]80 ,he answ]$ n4 ,he advanc$ t[>ds ! upp] end ( ! room1 he took d[n a pi/ol1 "o ( ^? :i* ,i always kept load$ 9 my ap>tm5t1 he came t[>ds me1 he fell ^u 8 knees1 he t5d]$ ! pi/ol to my acceptance4 8,hector60 cri$ ,i1 8:at am ,i to und]/&8 :at is ! mean+ ( ?is80 8,kill me1 de> ma/]6 ,= ,*ri/'s sake ,i entreat y to kill me60 ,i took ! pi/ol f 8 h&2 x po9t$ t[>ds ! floor4 8,& w y n kill me80 9 a m\rnful acc5t exclaim$ he4 8,:at h y done1 t des]ves t ,i %\ld kill y80 8,kill me6 only kill me6 pray kill me60 ,he spread out 8 h&s t[>ds me ) a ge/ure ( intreaty4 8,hector1 :at means ?is agitation8 :at has happ5$8 ,y t]rify me beyond expression40 8,mu/ ,i speak80 repli$ he4 8,mu/ ,i be ! accus] ( my guilty self80 ,he bur/ into an agony ( te>s4 8,w\ld ,i 7 dead6 ,w\ld ,i _h be5 torn into a ?\s& pieces1 be=e ?is _h happ5$6 ,inde$1 sir1 ,i am innoc5t6 ,i ?\ght no h>m6 ,inde$ x is n my fault60 8,:at h y done8 ,:5ce come ^! bruises & ?is w\nd80 8,x is all my fault6 ,x is all my do+1--nobody else6 ,:y w y n kill me80 8,hector1 ,i _c be> ?is unc]ta9ty4 ,recollect y\rself6 ,be pacifi$6 & tell y\r /ory60 8,w y =give me80 8,=give y :at8 ,:at h y done to des]ve my ang]80 8,no1 no1 ,i d n wi% to be =giv56 ,i only wi% y to abhor1 to dete/1 to curse & to kill me60 8,?is is beyond all pati5ce40 8,i nev] lov$ any body b y1 & my mi/ress1 & my de> "y ladies4 ,i nev] did any body else ! lea/ atom ( mis*ief2 & n[ my folly w be ! ru9 ( y all6 8,p>don me1 sir6 ,i w torm5t y no long]4 ,i w get ! bett] ( myself1 & tell y all t has happ5$40 ,he !n in=m$ me1 ?\gh ) _m breaks & passionate int]ruptions1 ( :at he _h j discov]$1 my evil repute z a necromanc]1 ! _m /range & t]rible /ories t 7 circulat$ ( me1 ! antipa?y univ]sally ent]ta9$ aga9/ me1 ! active f]oci\sness ) :i* ?is antipa?y 0 accompani$1 & ! consequ5ces t he fe>$ w\ld result4 ,he ascrib$ ! :ole to 8 own imprud5ce1 & to ! p>ticul>s :i* ! sup]ior cunn+ ( ! donzella1 9 spite ( 8 inv9cible refusal to acqua9t h] ) a s+le circum/ance1 _h wrung f him4 ,hector _h collect$ sev]al ( ^! p>ticul>s accid5tally f a neighb\r+ ru/ic1 & _h be5 vehem5t 9 my def5ce4 ,:ile !y 7 eag] 9 debate1 o!rs _h jo9$ !m1 b ,hector _h f\nd !m all oppon5ts1 n "o a support]4 ,irritat$ ) ! conte/1 & ! opprobri\s language heap$ ^u himself & 8 ma/]1 ,hector _h be5 provok$ to /rike ! mo/ insol5t ( ! disputants4 ,imm$iately sev]al _h fall5 ^u him at once1 & x 0 ow+ to ! uncommon /r5g? & dext]ity he possess$1 t he _h escap$ alive out ( _! h&s4 ,beside innum]able bl[s ) fi/1 foot1 & /ick1 he _h receiv$ two or ?ree /abs 9 diff]5t p>ts ( ! body1 f ! knives ) :i* ! ,italian is too mu* accu/om$ to assail 8 adv]s>y4 ,x 0 easy to see t ! gallant & g5]\s def5ce ( ,hector _h consid]ably augm5t$ ! dang] ( my situation4 ,!y dismiss$ him ) a ?\s& execrations aga9/ bo? him & myself1 & v[s t !y w\ld signalise _! v5geance by sett+ fire to my h\se4 ,hav+ relat$ 8 /ory1 ,hector conclud$ ) aga9 e>ne/ly conjur+ me to kill him1 t s he might expiate ! imprud5ce & folly by :i* he _h made himself ! au?or ( my calamity4 ,! excessiv5ess ( ! poor fell['s di/ress excit$ me to employ e ef=t to pacify 8 m9d4 8,hector10 said ,i1 8y h be5 v imprud5t1 b ,i =esee no su* consequ5ces z y\r t]rifi$ imag9ation has l$ y to =ebode4 ,! idle ?reats ( cl[ns 9 ! mid/ ( _! brawls are entitl$ to little reg>d4 ,i am n s weak & infirm ( s\l z to be mov$ f my tranquillity by _! s5seless prate4 ,i ent]ta9 no d\bt ( y\r fidelity & affection4 ,i am n angry ) y4 ,! fault y h be5 guilty (1 arose f no defect ( vigilance or atta*m5t4 ,y did :at y c\ld1 & :]e y fail$1 x 0 only 9 t to :i* y\r p[]s 7 n comm5surate4 ,y h done well & wisely n[1 9 acqua9t+ me ) p>ticul>s & ! :ole ext5t ( ! dang]3 d\bt n b ,i w employ su* precautions & be s awake to my situation1 z to =e/all ! possibility ( mis*ief40 ,?us ,i endeav\r$ to assuage hone/ ,hector's p]turbation1 b ) no adequate effect4 ,he hung 8 head 9 sorr[1 & refus$ to be com=t$4 ,%ame & t]ror assail$ him toge!r1 & he knew n h[ to support _! unit$ pressure4 ,he intreat$ me n to lull myself 9 fanci$ security1 & fall bl9dfold on my ru94 ,he entreat$ me n to =give him4 ,my clem5cy & =be>ance s]v$ only to make him reg>d ) great] horror ! crime ( :i* he _h be5 guilty4 ,if h[ev] ,i refus$ to puni% him1 & by p5ance or dea? to light5 ! remorse t hung ^u 8 he>t1 he w\ld at lea/ devote himself 9 opposition to ! evil he _h creat$1 & die r ?an x %\ld t\* a hair ( our heads4 ,?is idea he seem$ to view ) "s complac5cy2 b ! pleasure x gave 0 a glimm]+ & mom5t>y light2 he c\ld n rema9 9 any place = an in/ant2 he wrung 8 h&s ) angui%1 & exhibit$ e feature ( ! deepe/ despair4 ,i exam9$ 8 bruises & w\nds1 ! latt] ( :i*1 ?\gh att5d$ ) a copi\s effusion ( blood1 did n appe> to be dang]\s4 ,i w>n$ him to be guilty ( no fur!r indiscretion1 to betray no?+ ( :at _h happ5$ to any "o ( my family1 & to engage 9 no fur!r controv]sies & broils 9 my v9dication4 ,?\gh ,i endeav\r$ to make light ( :at ,i he>d 9 compassion to ! di/ress ( my s]vant1 yet1 :5 ,i came to reconsid] ! subject 9 solitude1 x by no means appe>$ to me 9 a light & trivial po9t ( view4 ,"o "p ( ,hector's /ory _h relat$ to ! dea? ( ,*>on1 :o1 ,i n[ f\nd1 _h ow$ 8 fate to ! sup]/ition ( my uncultivat$ neighb\rs4 ,i _h always ent]ta9$ a =midable idea ( ! "* ( an ,italian populace1 :om ,i reg>d$ z m suspici\s1 sangu9>y1 & viol5t ?an any o!r race ( m5 9 ! _w4 ,i deplor$ my fate t expos$ me to _! rage4 ,i deplor$ my folly t _h admitt$ any confidant into my individual pursuits1 ?\gh my confid5ce _h be5 s limit$1 & its receiv] s tru/wor?y1 t ,i c\ld n h imag9$ any evil w\ld h result$4 ,i det]m9$ t ,i w\ld n expose myself to ! risk ( su* s9i/] consequ5ces1 z 9 my op9ion might 9 my pres5t situation easily ov]take me4 ,i griev$ = ! t5d] heal? & ! d\btful /ate ( m9d ( my belov$ ,m>gu]ite1 :i* alone oppos$ !mselves to ! adoption ( an imm$iate *ange ( sc5e4 ,9 ! /ate ( h] heal? ,i _h be5 griev\sly disappo9t$4 ,i _h look$ = am5dm5t2 ,i f\nd decay4 ,! decay h[ev] 0 gradual1 almo/ imp]ceptible2 f "t to "t ,i _h ev5 flatt]$ myself t ! progress 0 9 an opposite direction2 b ! delusion 0 soon bani%$4 ,ano!r difficulty arose 9 addition to ! re/2 ,m>gu]ite appe>$ pregnant2 a circum/ance t n[ fir/ pres5t$ itself aft] a cessation ( t5 ye>s4 ,! morn+ aft] ! accid5t & disclosure ( ,hector ,i w5t to ,pisa1 det]m9$ to consult ) ! m>*ese ,filosanto1 eld] bro!r ( ! un=tunate ,&rea1 :o 0 probably m accurately acqua9t$ ) ! ,italian "* ?an myself1 & und]/ood ! %ades ( t "*1 z !y 7 modifi$ 9 ! p>ticul> t]ritory 9 :i* ,i resid$4 ,! m>*ese 0 a man univ]sally admir$ = subtlety ( reason+1 vigor\sness ( compreh5sion1 & ref9em5t ( ta/e4 ,9 ! /ructure ( 8 m9d he 0 sc>cely an ,italian4 ,he _h resid$ sev]al ye>s 9 ,engl&1 & 0 ! intimate fri5d ( ,h5ry ,h[>d e>l ( ,surrey1 :o "s "t aft] fell a victim to ! jeal\s tyranny ( 8 native sov]eign1 k+ ,h5ry ! ,eigh?4 ,! m>*ese 0 frank1 g5]\s & dis9t]e/$1 & possess$ m fully ! affections ( e "o )9 ! circle ( 8 fri5d%ip ?an any o!r man ,i ev] knew4 ,he 0 ( a sangu9e temp]1 always contemplat+ ! _w on its brighte/ side2 &1 f ! g5]osity ( 8 own he>t1 incapable ( cr$it+ a di/ant dang]1 or ( disc]n+ ! /orm 9 ! embryo cl\d :]e x 0 sil5tly eng5d]+4 ,9 ! conf]5ce we held1 ,i 0 influ5c$ too implicitly by my consci\sness ( 8 integrity & ! gigantic p[]s ( 8 m9d1 & did n suffici5tly adv]t to ^? peculi>ities 9 8 temp] :i* ,i h n[ describ$4 ,! ext]nal facts ) :i* ! n>rative ( ,hector _h furni%$ me ,i fully detail$ to him2 z to my p>ticul> pursuits1 ,i cont5t$ myself ) /at+ t ,i indulg$ freely 9 ! /udy ( *emi/ry1 & 0 ( ^? p]sons1 ord9>ily acc\nt$ vision>ies1 :o amus$ !mselves ) ! expectation ( f9d+ ! philosoph]'s /one4 ,hav+ he>d my /ory to an end1 ! m>*ese ridicul$ my appreh5sions4 ,he saw no?+ 9 ! facts t al>m$ me1 b a c[>dly sup]/ition ^: utmo/ flight rea*$ no high] ?an ! %oot+ a dog1 & a squabble betwe5 a boi/]\s ru/ic1 & a s]vant too acutely s5sitive = ! reputation ( 8 ma/]4 ,he assur$ me t ! days ( su* sup]/ition z ,i contemplat$ 7 long s9ce pa/1 & t 8 c\ntrym5 less des]v$ ! imputation ?an any o!rs1 z1 liv+ at ! v c5tre & s\rce ( ca?olic imposition1 !y saw deep] into ! my/]y1 & 7 n expos$ to ! advantage :i* di/ance possesses = augm5t+ our rev]5ce4 ,he expatiat$ ) great eloqu5ce on ! vice ( a suspici\s temp]4 ,a _s ( al>m & cont9ual appreh5sion1 l ! jeal\sy ( lov]s1 he said1 made ! meat x f$ on4 ,x brood$ ov] plots t _h no exi/5ce b 9 ! w&]+s ( a di/urb$ imag9ation4 ,x 0 cont9ually int]rupt+ ! quiet ( its own]1 & ! tranquillity ( society2 &1 = ! sake ( avoid+ imag9>y evils1 (t5 plung$ into su* z 7 real4 ,he advis$ me to g home & be cont5t$4 ,he recomm5d$ to me to cle> up ! cl\ds ( my m9d1 & cultivate a light he>t1 a *e]ful temp]1 & a g5]\s confid5ce 9 ! hone/ sympa?ies ( mank9d4 ,9 f9e1 he bade me cont9ue my pursuits1 avoid clat1 & tru/ 9 8 sagacity t no ill consequ5ces w\ld ensue4 ,! remon/rances ( ! m>*ese ,filosanto l$ me to suspect t ,i _h be5 idly cr$ul\s4 ,i _h too easily p>ticipat$ ! feel+s & appreh5sions ( a poor un9/ruct$ negro1 & _h suff]$ ! secret griefs t brood$ 9 my he>t1 to discol\r my p]ceptions1 & aggravate ! features ( circum/ances 9 !mselves trifl+ or indiff]5t4 ,i began to be half a%am$ ( ! gloom9ess ( my conceptions4 ,i c\ld n1 alas6 foll[ ! advice ( ! m>*ese z to ! *e]fulness ( my he>t2 b ,i c\ld ex]t myself to prev5t my pres5t melan*oly f disfigur+ to me e ?+ ,i saw4 ,! influ5ce ex]cis$ ov] my conceptions by p]sons ( em95t intellect has always be5 great4 ,n t ! judgm5t ,i =m$ ( ! p[]s ( my own m9d 0 peculi>ly humble2 b ,i reason$ ?us4 ,p]haps ! p]son ,i consult is z well in=m$ 9 ! subject "u consid]ation z ,i am1 9 t case 8 decision is z fully entitl$ to att5tion z my own2 & ?us1 )\t c[>dly self-contempt on my "p1 ! g5]al balance ( ! argum5t 0 mat]ially alt]$4 ,p]haps1 )\t be+ on ! :ole my sup]ior1 he may be m compet5t to ?is p>ticul> "q4 ,9 ei!r case my idea ( its m]its became p]ceptibly modifi$4 ,i nev] li/5$ to ! s5tim5ts ( a man ( tal5ts :5 !y diff]$ f my own1 unless :]e he 0 evid5tly vision>y & irrational1 )\t be+ %ak5 z to ! cr$it due to my own view ( ! subject4 ,su* !n 0 ! effect produc$ on me by ! m>*ese's expo/ulation4 ,i %ook (f my appreh5sions1 & laugh$ at my fe>s4 ,i 0 a%am$ ( ! want ( gallantry t _h possess$ me1 :5 ,i m$itat$ flight f s trivial a m5ace4 ,i conclud$ t dang]s1 p>ticul>ly su* z arise f ! irrational passions ( a caprici\s multitude1 7 increas$ :5 symptoms ( appreh5sion discov]$ !mselves1 & abat$1 :5 receiv$ ) neglect or repell$ ) a magnanim\s s]5ity4 ,,*apt] ,,xxvii4 ,mean:ile ! unrel5t+ ,ago/9o 0 fix$ 9 8 purpose & incessant 9 8 ma*9ations4 ,he believ$ t ! de/ructive m9e 0 n[ suffici5tly prep>$1 & t he might proce$ 9 all surety to ! ultimate explosion4 ,he appreh5d$ t he _h advanc$ too f> to retract1 t ! dea? ( ,*>on & ! assault ^u ,hector 7 calculat$ suffici5tly to ann\nce :at 0 to foll[1 & t x w\ld be injudici\s & idle to grant me mu* respite = reflection4 ,! passions ( 8 associates 7 wr\ght up to a fr5zy ( horror1 & ne$$ only a bold & artful director to urge !m to any po9t ( fury & de/ruction4 ,implicitly z ,i _h confid$ 9 ! decision ( ! m>*ese1 ,i _h spe$ily reason to "k t x 0 ! dictate ( too sangu9e & presumptu\s a _s4 ,on my return f 8 palace1 &1 on sev]al subsequ5t occasions1 ,i f\nd ! mann]s ( ! populace alt]$ respect+ me4 ,!y no long] view$ me ) a sort ( rev]5tial awe1 or fl$ my approa*4 ,!y insult$ me ) _! eyes1 !y mutt]$ curses ^u me 9 a voice suffici5tly audible to be und]/ood1 !y broke =? 9 ge/ures ( abhorr5ce & d]ision4 ,!y reg>d$ me ) looks ( f]oci\s hatr$2 & :5 ,i _h pass$ !m1 _! murmurs gradually swell$ into %\ts ( triumphant contumely4 ,^! symptoms h[ev] 7 progressive2 ea* day became m odi\s & intol]able ?an ! la/4 ,!y :o h nev] be5 plac$ 9 a situation l m9e1 w nev] be able to d ju/ice to my grievance4 ,!y w p]haps say1 t ! calamity ,i n[ endur$ 0 a trifl+ "o1 & t a weak m9d only c be elevat$ by ! acclamations & huzzas ( ! multitude1 or depress$ by _! hisses & scorn4 ,i did n1 & ,i c\ld n1 feel x s4 ,!re is no pleasure m cong5ial to ! human he>t1 ?an ! approbation & affection ( our fell[s4 ,i call heav5 to witness t ,i c\ld m\nt ! scaffold1 surr\nd$ ) an innum]able multitude to applaud my =titude1 & to feel z x 7 on _! own neck ! bl[ t end$ me1 & c\nt x a fe/ival4 ,b ,i _c be> to be surr\nd$ ) tok5s ( abhorr5ce & scorn4 ,i _c be> to look r\nd me ?r\gh an ext5d$ circle1 & see ! impati5ce ( despite 9 e face4 ,man 0 n born to live alone4 ,he is l9k$ to 8 bre?r5 by a ?\s& ties2 &1 :5 ^? ties are brok51 he ceases f all g5u9e exi/5ce4 ,_! complac5ce is a food m invigorat+ ?an ambrosia2 _! av]sion is a torm5t worse ?an t ( ! damn$4 ,:ile ,i write1 ,i seem aga9 to he> res\nd+ 9 my e>s ! hoot+s & clam\rs ( ^! infatuat$ peasants4 ,:5 he>d inde$1 !y w5t to my he>t1 & sat !re cold] ?an ! aspic's v5om3 !y rose to my ?roat ) a s5sation bitt]] ?an wormwood4 ,!y un/rung all my muscles & n]ves4 ,i c\ld n /ay2 ,i c\ld n fly4 ,i wi%$ myself buri$ deep 9 ! c5tre ( ! e>?4 ,i felt some?+ worse1 m revolt+1 m opposite to all ! prejudices & prop5sities ( ! s\l1 ?an annihilation4 ,i h kn[n 9 v>i\s situations & conditions ( human life1 :at x 0 to be di/ress$1 to be deject$1 to be mis]able2 b nev] 9 any o!r situation h ,i felt a mis]y s conc5trat$1 s gnaw+ & insuff]able4 ,i began h[ev]1 l ! critics ,i am figur+ to myself1 to despise ! pusillanimity ( my submission1 & to believe t1 if ,i w\ld only make a /& & turn r\nd ^u my enemy1 ,i %\ld subdue him4 ,?is resolution ,i c\ld ) difficulty h tak5 9 ! mom5t ( attack2 x 0 =m$ 9 an int]val ( retrospect & reflection4 ,hav+ =m$ x1 ! contempt ,i %\ld h felt = myself w\ld h be5 too exquisite1 if ,i _h fail$ to put x 9 execution4 ,i 0 n long at a loss = an opportunity4 ,9 "o ( my walks ,i f\nd myself pursu$ by a num]\s populace ) a peculi> degree ( invet]acy4 ,i yield$ = "s "t1 till ,i came to a place t appe>$ conv5i5t = ! purpose ( h>angu+ !m4 ,x 0 a b5*1 plac$ ^u a ris+ gr\nd & %elt]$ beh9d by a ?icket1 :i* _h be5 erect$ = ! purpose ( comm&+ a neighb\r+ prospect4 ,i /opp$2 ,i /epp$ ^u ! b5*2 ,i wav$ my h& t[>ds ! multitude4 ,!y p]ceiv$ my purpose ) "s degree ( confusion & surprise2 !y drew ne>]4 8,d n li/5 to him6 ,d n he> a ^w he has to say60 cri$ "s ( !m4 8,oh1 he> him6 he> him60 exclaim$ o!rs4 ,i obta9$ an audi5ce4 8,:at is ! cause10 said ,i1 8( all ?is hatr$ & p]secution80 8,because y are a wiz>d1 a necromanc]1 a deal] 9 ! black art2 because y are 9 league ) hell1 & h sold y\rself to ! devil60 answ]$ tw5ty voices at once4 8,he> me10 repli$ ,i1 8& ,i w conv9ce y ( my innoc5ce3 b he> me 9 sil5ce1 & d n int]rupt me40 8,= myself1 ,i h no belief 9 ! exi/5ce ( su* an art40 ,?is rem>k produc$ a g5]al groan4 8,:y %\ld ,i h sold myself to ! foe ( mank9d8 ,:at c\ld he give me1 t %\ld comp5sate me = consign+ myself ov] to him = ev] h]eaft]8 ,! p[] ( exhibit+ /range & extraord9>y tricks4 ,:at a pitiful recomp5ce8 ,b1 if ,i _h b\ght ?is p[] at s de> a price1 %\ld ,i hide x8 ,%\ld ,i n take e opportunity ( excit+ y\r rev]5ce & a/oni%m5t8 ,:o has se5 me p]=m any wond]ful feat8 ,i live quietly among y1 & give no cause ( (f5ce to any4 ,i live retir$ 9 ! mid/ ( my family4 ,i =m no p>ty or connections4 ,i d n intrude into any ( y\r affairs1 political or private4 ,i d n ev5 ent] into conf]5ces ) any ( y1 unless induc$ by ! app>5t occasion ( do+ "s good & b5evol5t action4 8,quit !n ?is ung5]\s p]secution6 ,d n turn ! fury ( y\r res5tm5t ^u a h>mless /rang]6 ,y are ,italians1 ! mo/ poli%$ & +5i\s p on ! face ( ! e>?3 ! mo/ glori\s monum5ts ( art1 9 build+1 9 /atu>y1 & 9 pa9t+1 are to be f\nd 9 ! mid/ ( y3 anci5t ,italy gov]n$ ! _w by h] arms2 mod]n ,italy gov]ns ! _w ?r\gh ! m$ium ( t pure & sublime religion ( :i* ,provid5ce has graci\sly made h] ! repository4 ,d n /a9 ! glory ( ?is "*6 ,%[ y\rselves wor?y ( ! hon\r ) :i* y\r "n is he>d 9 e corn] ( ! habitable _w60 ,:ile ,i 0 yet speak+1 a l>ge clot ( mud rea*$ me1 & /ruck me on ! face & ! upp] "p ( my brea/4 ,i calmly endeav\r$ to free myself f its effects ) my h&k]*ief2 &1 look+ r\nd me1 dem&$1 9 ! sacr$ _s ( consci\s innoc5ce1 8,h[ h ,i des]v$ ?is treatm5t80 ,?us f> ,i _h be5 he>d ) a d\btful s5tim5t ( murmur & approbation1 & ,i began to feel t ,i 0 r ga9+ gr\nd ^u my audi5ce4 ,b ?is new insult seem$ to turn ! tide ( popul> impression 9 an in/ant4 8,villa91 r5egado1 accurs$ ( ,god60 ,i he>d f e side2 8did n y bewit* my c[8 did n y en*ant my *ild8 h n y kill$ my daught]8 ,d[n ) him6 ext]m9ate him6 d n suff] him to live60 ,i cont9u$ my ef=ts to be he>d4 ,x 0 a critical mom5t1 a la/ exp]im5t ^u ! p[] ( firmness & innoc5ce to control ! madness ( infuriat$ sup]/ition4 ,x 0 9 va94 ,i 0 deaf5$ ) ! noise t assail$ me4 ,x 0 no long] %\ts & clam\rs ( disapprobation4 ,x 0 ! ro>+ ( tig]s1 & ! %riek ( cannibals4 ,/icks1 /ones1 & e k9d ( missile weapon t (f]$ itself1 fell 9 %[]s ar\nd me4 ,x seem$ a sort ( miracle t ,i escap$ in/ant de/ruction4 ,i elud$ _! pursuit3 aft] "s "t ,i v5tur$ to return to my own h\se4 ,i _h 9 ! int]val t]rifi$ myself ) ! idea t1 hav+ miss$ my p]son1 !y might h hurri$ ?i!r1 & execut$ "s t]rible v5geance on my helpless family4 ,i f\nd !m h[ev] 9 safety3 ! mob _h = ?is "t cont5t$ itself to disp]se )\t fur!r mis*ief4 ,z soon z x 0 d>k1 ,i ha/5$ to ,pisa1 & relat$ :at _h j occurr$ to my fri5d ! m>*ese4 ,he 0 surpris$2 b he /ill adh]$ to 8 op9ion4 ,he _h nev] suppos$1 he told me1 t a noisy & clamor\s mob 0 a prop] subject ^u :i* to make exp]im5t ( ! en]gy ( tru?2 & he laugh$ at my attempt to reason !m out ( _! sup]/ition4 ,b !y meant no?+ by all t _h pass$4 ,x 0 ! m]e foam & fury ( a mom5t1 p\r$ out ) vehem5ce1 & !n dissipat$ 9 air4 ,a c]ta9 set ( politicians _h = _! p>ticul> ends repres5t$ a mob z a t]rific & =midable eng9e3 alas6 !y 7 r to be piti$ ?an condemn$4 ,!re 0 no malice 9 _! he>ts4 ,!y 7 9 reality a m]e mat]ial ma*9e1 l$ on )\t reflection1 &1 :5 !y _h committ$ a mom5t>y ravage1 a/oni%$ !mselves ! mo/ at ! injury !y _h p]petrat$4 ,!y 7 z light & v>iable z a fea!r1 driv5 ) e brea?2 & no?+ c\ld argue great] obliquity ( intellect ?an to suppose1 because !y 7 9 a c]ta9 temp] & s5tim5t to-day1 t !y w\ld be f\nd 9 a simil> temp] & s5tim5t to-morr[4 ,! m>*ese h[ev] wi%$1 he said1 to relieve me f ! appreh5sion ( ?is imag9>y dang]1 & !re=e (f]$ me ! :ole suite ( 8 s]vants = ! def5ce ( my h\se4 ,he add$ t1 among 8 fri5ds & reta9]s 9 ! city ( ,pisa1 he did n d\bt 9 an h\r's "t to be able to raise a troop ( f\r hundr$ m52 &1 :atev] p[] ( t sort he possess$1 he assur$ me 0 :olly at my s]vice4 ,i 0 n conv9c$ by ! m>*ese's argum5ts1 b ,i decl9$ 8 (f]4 ,i c\ld n be> to ?9k t blood %\ld be spill$1 & ! lives ( ^! poor ignorant wret*es sacrific$1 = ! pres]vation ( a ?+ s wor?less 9 my eyes z ! local prop]ty ,i possess$4 ,i !re=e told ! m>*ese1 t ,i might p]haps wait yet a day or two long] be=e ,i =m$ my resolution2 b t1 ! in/ant ,i saw "o fre% symptom ( ! ho/ility ( ! villag]s1 ,i 0 det]m9$ to take my family ) me1 & remove f> beyond ! rea* bo? ( _! t]rors & _! hatr$4 ,i /aid two h\rs ) ! m>*ese1 & !n set out to my own h\se4 ,! way ,i took 0 by a private road1 op5 only to ! neighb\r+ g5try1 b ( :i* my s]vant c>ri$ ! key4 ,x l$ along ! high] gr\nd1 & comm&$ a view ( ! common highway4 ,consid]ably be=e ,i rea*$ my own habitation1 ,i 0 /ruck ) ! appe>ance ( p]sons pass+1 9 consid]able numb]s1 & 9 a tumultu\s mann]1 along ! public road4 ,"s ( !m 7 arm$ ) clubs1 & o!rs ) tor*es4 ,_! m>* h[ev] l$1 n t[>ds my h\se1 b 9 an opposite direction4 ,i m5d$ my pace1 t]rifi$ ) a sort ( vague appreh5sion ( :at might h happ5$1 ?\gh ,i did n disguise to myself t :at ,i saw 0 n precisely t :i* ,i might h expect$ to see1 if !y _h be5 return$ f demoli%+ my prop]ty1 & burn+ my h\se4 ,:5 ,i arriv$1 ,i f\nd inde$ t no mis*ief _h be5 actually committ$1 b t ,i 0 indebt$ = ! pres]vation ( my h\se1 & p]haps = ! lives ( my wife & *ildr51 to ! sagacity & pres5ce ( m9d ( ,b]n>d91 ! s]vant ( my e>ly ye>s4 ,my resid5ce _h be5 ! object aga9/ :i* ! m>* ( ! populace _h be5 direct$4 ,b]n>d91 p]ceiv+ _! int5tions1 _h ) great difficulty prevail$ ^u ,hector to keep out ( sight4 ,no?+ c\ld be m adv]se to ! feel+s & incl9ation ( my fai?ful negro2 b1 ,b]n>d9 hav+ conv9c$ him t 8 appe>ance w\ld only exasp]ate ! rage ( ! assailants1 & t p]haps e ?+ ( importance to 8 ma/]'s s]vice & happ9ess dep5d$ at pres5t ^u 8 concealm5t1 ,hector yield$ to 8 repres5tations4 ,?is accompli%$1 ,b]n>d9 next assembl$ ! g>d5] & "o or two lab\r]s 9 my employm5t1 :o happ5$ to be at h&2 &1 hav+ furni%$ !m ) fire-arms1 /ation$ !m at diff]5t w9d[s1 9 ! front ( ! h\se4 ,) ^! prep>ations1 :5 ! mob arriv$ he resolutely told !m t he w\ld fire on ! fir/ p]son t attempt$ to break 94 ,!y 7 /agg]$3 furi\s z !y appe>$ ! mom5t be=e1 ?is ?reat held !m 9 awe4 ,!y p>ad$ two or ?ree times r\nd ! h\se1 clatt]+ _! arms1 & p\r+ out vehem5t execrations2 & !n )drew1 solemnly promis+ t !y w\ld return ! foll[+ night1 & level ! h\se ) ! gr\nd4 ,i no long] yield$ ! smalle/ degree ( cr$it to ! unsuspici\s & confid+ philosophy ( ! m>*ese ,filosanto4 ,i s5t (f my wife & *ildr5 be=e daybreak = ,lucca1 det]m9$ to take %ipp+ at ! fir/ conv5i5t port1 & pass ov] into ,spa94 ,i 0 little solicit\s1 = reasons ) :i* ! read] is already acqua9t$1 ab\t my prop]ty & moveables3 ,i _h no motive to induce me to fett] & clog my retreat1 at ?is h\r ( p]il & t]ror1 ) a s+le article ( r>ity & price4 ,my furniture inde$ 0 n spl5did1 b x 0 h&some & valuable2 & ! indiff]5ce ) :i* ,i resign$ ! :ole to ! m]cy ( *ance1 0 a matt] ( "s surprise to ! p]sons ar\nd me4 ,my s]vants (f]$ to def5d my possessions1 at ! p]il ( _! lives2 b ,i p]emptorily =bade x4 ,i w\ld n ev5 cons5t to _! tak+ away c]ta9 articles1 by way ( appropriat+ !m to _! p]sonal use4 ,i believ$ t if ,i admitt$ a s+le act ( t sort1 ,i %\ld f9d x no easy matt] to set limits to _! avidity2 &1 z ,i _h det]m9$ to take none ( my pres5t s]vants ) me1 ! negro & ,b]n>d9 except$1 ,i fe>$ t ! app>5t possession ( a s+le article t _h be5 m9e might h]eaft] m>k its proprietor a victim to ! s5seless rage ( bl9dfold sup]/ition4 ,i c\ld easily make up to ^! hone/ & fai?ful dep5dants ! injury !y might su/a9 f ! seem+ sev]ity ( ?is ord]4 ,i det]m9$ to %ut up my h\se1 ) all its pres5t cont5ts1 z ,jo%ua1 ! capta9 ( ! ,jews1 drew a l9e ( sep>ation r\nd ! pr(ane possessions ( ,a*an2 & to leave ! villag]s1 if s x seem$ good to !m1 to make ( ! :ole a burnt-(f]+1 to propitiate ! wra? ( _! av5g+ div9ity4 ,! directions ,i issu$ be+ unhesitat+ & p]emptory1 met ) a ready submission f all my o!r dome/ics3 ,hector only1 ! mild & comply+ ,hector1 ( :om ob$i5ce _h hi!rto appe>$ to con/itute ! v s\l1 met my comm&s ) a resolute refusal4 ,! pres5t di/ress$ appe>ance ( my =tunes seem$ to h work$ ! poor fell['s m9d to a p>oxysm ( insanity4 ,he consid]$ himself z ! sole au?or ( my calamity4 ,he revil$ himself 9 ! bitt]e/ t]ms ( compunction & abhorr5ce4 ,! language :i* ! agony ( 8 s\l =c$ f 8 lips1 0 su* z c\ld n fail to impress ^u my o!r s]vants a conviction ( ! ju/ice ( ! imputations t 7 n[ br\ght aga9/ u4 ,?is h[ev] 0 ( little importance4 ,i mu/ at all ev5ts h be5 cont5t$ to leave beh9d me1 9 my pres5t neighb\rhood1 a "n load$ ) ! execrations ( religi\s fanaticism4 ,hector imprecat$ ^u himself a ?\s& curses1 if1 s long z he cont9u$ to live1 ! populace %\ld lay h&s ^u a /raw ( my prop]ty4 ,he w\ld n move s mu* z an in* f ! def5ce ( my h\se4 ,he w\ld ei!r1 by pres]v+ x1 expiate 9 "s degree ! mis*ief 9 :i* he _h involv$ me1 or fall & be cru%$ to dea? 9 ! mid/ ( its ru9s4 ,argum5ts & expo/ulations 7 useless "h3 8 m9d 0 work$ up to too high a tone1 to be susceptible ( ! pati5ce necess>y = he>+ or und]/&+ any reason+ t 0 address$ to him4 ,au?ority itself 0 ( no avail3 = ! fir/ & ! la/ "t he ?rew (f ! "* ( a s]vant1 & appe>$ ob/9ate1 self-will$1 & ungov]nable4 ,x 0 only by direct viol5ce t he c\ld be =c$ f ! spot4 ,i gave him 9 *>ge1 ) ! mo/ /rict ord]s n to suff] him to escape f _! cu/ody1 to two ( 8 fell[s4 ,?is bus9ess be+ despat*$1 ,i w5t1 at ! invitation ( ! m>*ese1 to a small cottage he possess$ at no great di/ance f my own h\se4 ,its situation 0 s private & retir$1 t few p]sons knew or c\ld p]ceive t !re 0 any build+ on ! spot4 ,"h !re=e ,i c\ld rema9 9 ! mo/ p]fect safety4 ,i felt myself unacc\ntably impell$ to /ay & witness ! cata/rophe ( ! trag$y4 ,i %\ld n h be5 satisfi$ to cont9ue 9 unc]ta9ty z to :at x w\ld prove4 ,aft] all t _h pass$1 l ! m>*ese1 ,i %\ld h be5 apt to accuse myself ( c[>dice1 & a m9d s\r$ & deg5]ate1 if ! mob _h n put _! ?reats 9 execution4 ,! m>*ese himself 0 well pleas$ ) my det]m9ation 9 ?is respect4 ,he 0 n yet conv9c$ t ,i _h n pa9t$ to myself a dang]1 :i* _h no adequate c\nt]p>t 9 ! _w ( realities4 ,i _h n long to wait4 ,! night _h no soon] spread an ev5-col\r$ & almo/ imp]vi\s veil ov] ! _w1 ?an ! m>*ese1 z if mov$ by a secret impulse to witness :at he yet refus$ to believe1 came to me at ! cottage4 ,he _h sc>cely arriv$1 :5 he he>d ! confus$ murmurs & turbul5ce ( ! populace2 = we 7 ne> en\gh to di/+ui% almo/ e ?+4 ,z !y did n meet ) ! def5ce ( ! prec$+ ev5+1 ! "w !y _h und]tak5 0 pres5tly despat*$4 ,we saw ! flames asc5d4 ,we recognis$ ! %\ts ( inf]nal joy ) :i* !y witness$ ! cata/rophe4 ,:5 ! m>*ese beheld :at1 till se51 he w\ld nev] admit to be possible1 he bur/ out into a sort ( transport ( misan?ropy4 ,he exclaim$ t no innoc5ce1 & no m]it1 c\ld def5d a man f ! unrel5t+ antipa?y ( 8 fell[s4 ,he saw t !re 0 a pr9ciple 9 ! human m9d de/9$ to be et]nally at w> ) improvem5t & sci5ce4 ,no soon] did a man devote himself to ! pursuit ( discov]ies :i*1 if asc]ta9$1 w\ld prove ! highe/ b5efit to 8 species1 ?an 8 :ole species became arm$ aga9/ him4 ,! midnight oil 0 held to be ! signal ( inf]nal ma*9ations4 ,! pal5ess ( /udy & ! furr[s ( ?\ght 7 adjudg$ to be ! tok5s ( diabolical alliance4 ,he saw1 9 ! transactions ( t night1 a pl$ge ( ! et]nal triumph ( ignorance ov] wisdom4 ,above all1 he regrett$ t 8 c\ntrym51 8 de> ,italians1 %\ld = ev] blot _! hon\r & _! "* by su* savage outrages4 ,?\gh myself ! pr9cipal suff]]1 ,i 0 oblig$ to p]=m ! "p ( ! com=t] & consol]1 & endeav\r to calm ! transport ( agony t seiz$ ^u ! susceptible ,filosanto4 ,he 0 a/oni%$1 %ock$1 & beside himself3 ,i view$ ! :ole ) ! gloomy firmness ( a desp]ate resolution4 ,! wor/ ev5t ( ?is dete/$ ev5+ rema9s yet unrecord$4 ,ev5 n[ ,i tremble1 :ile ,i attempt to commit ! /ory to my h>mless pap]4 ,s f> z relat$ to ! m]e de/ruction ( my prop]ty1 ,i look$ on ) a philosophical indiff]5ce4 ,i _h no reason1 & ,i disda9$ to regret ! loss ( t :i* ,i _h x 9 my p[] to repair 9 a mom5t4 ,i ?\ght ,i _h tak5 c>e t no human life %\ld be risqu$ ^u ?is critical occasion4 ,b ,i 0 mi/ak54 ,i le>n$ ! next morn+ ) angui% inexpressible t ,hector1 ! negro ( ! prison ( ,con/ance1 0 no m4 ,he _h elud$ ! vigilance ( 8 keep]s4 ,no soon] 0 he at lib]ty1 !n he ha/5$1 unkn[n to e "o1 to die1 z he _h decl>$ he w\ld1 9 ! def5ce ( my h\se4 ,! mob _h bur/ into ! h\se2 !y seiz$ him alive4 ,!y dragg$ him out 9 ! mid/ ( !m2 !y insult$ ov] him1 z ! special fav\rite ( ! inf]nal k+4 ,!y inflict$ on him e species ( mock]y & ( torture2 !y kill$ him jo9t by jo9t1 & limb by limb4----,! p5 drops f my lifeless h&4 ,:at "r _h ,i to make ?is man ! victim ( my idle & unhall[$ pursuits8 ,:at has ! art & multiplication ( gold 9 x1 t %\ld comp5sate ! de/ruction ( s +5u\s1 s simple-he>t$1 s noble a creature8 ,if ,i _h myself fall5 into ! h&s ( ! populace1 x _h be5 well3 ,i 0 a crim9al1 wor?y ( e retribution !y c\ld inflict ^u me6 ,"s m5 p]haps w ask1 :y ,i lam5t$ s bitt]ly ov] s uncultivat$ & un9=m$ an individual z ?is negro4 ,!re 0 h[ev] some?+ s truly tragical 9 ! fate to :i* ?is creature 9 8 g5]osity & remorse devot$ himself1 t ,i believe = ! mom5t ,i felt a %>p] pang 9 x1 ?an 9 ! /range & extraord9>y loss ( my only son1 or p]haps 9 ! premature dea? ( my belov$ ,m>gu]ite4 ,,*apt] ,,xxviii4 ,be=e ! dawn ( ! succe$+ morn+ ,i turn$ my face t[>ds ,lucca4 ,i beheld ! la/ cl\d ( m+l+ smoke & flame asc5d f ! a%es ( my villa4 ,! blaze sunk1 its mat]ials 7 ne>ly consum$1 & x yield$ an unc]ta9 & fitful light only1 :5 ,i )drew f be+ any long] ! melan*oly & he>t-w\nd$ spectator ( ! ru94 ,i took an ev]la/+ leave ( ! m>*ese4 ,i _h be5 introduc$ to him "u a fri5dly aspect1 z ! man :o _h _h c\rage to p]=m ! la/ (fices ( humanity to 8 un=tunate bro!r2 & he _h conceiv$ a w>m affection = me4 ,! pa9ful nature ( ! cata/rophe he _h witness$ melt$ 8 he>t1 & he e>ne/ly press$ me to draw ^u him = any supplies ,i want$1 or r to receive f him a sum equival5t to ! damage ! sup]/ition ( 8 c\ntrym5 _h inflict$ on me4 ,?is ,i positively refus$2 b ,i f\nd x impossible to sil5ce 8 importunity1 till ,i submitt$ to ! duplicity ( promis+ t1 if ,i f\nd myself r$uc$ to any necessity1 ,i w\ld n fail to apply to him4 ,x 0 9 ! v mom5t ( our sep>ation t intellig5ce 0 br\ght me ( ! fate ( ,hector4 ,! read] may imag9e ) h[ heavy a he>t ,i set out on my j\rney4 ,lucca is ab\t sev5te5 miles f ! city ( ,pisa2 f ! place :]e ,i _h sp5t ! great] "p ( ?is memorable night x 0 tw5ty4 ,! m>*ese made me promise to take a s]p5t9e & circuit\s r\te1 ! m completely to elude ! possibility ( future dang]4 ,an adv5ture occurr$ to me 9 ?is passage1 ) ! relation ( :i* ,i w n int]rupt my n>rative1 :i* prev5t$ me f arriv+ at ,lucca till ! noon ( ! foll[+ day4 ,suffice x to say1 t x 0 ( su* a nature1 t1 impati5t z ,i 0 "u my pres5t extraord9>y circum/ances to rejo9 my family1 ,i %\ld h held myself de/itute ( e atom ( humanity1 if ,i _h n submitt$ to ?is %ort delay4 ,%ort z x 01 ,i f\nd1 :5 ,i rea*$ ,lucca1 t my evil g5ius _h be5 busy to accumulate = me new mis=tunes4 ,m>gu]ite & h] daught]s 7 :olly unkn[n 9 ?is place2 & ! intellig5ce ( ! ,pisan riot hav+ rea*$ ,lucca 9 ! c\rse ( ! day1 x 0 relat$ to my wife1 z to a he>] unconc]n$1 ) all its horrid circum/ances & ! calamit\s fate ( our g5]\s ,hector1 by ! ho/ess ( ! inn4 ,! rapidity ( ev5ts1 dur+ ! la/ "p ( our resid5ce 9 ! ,pisan t]ritory1 0 su* z to h oblig$ me to say little ( ! effect !y produc$ ^u ,m>gu]ite4 ,b ! read] c sc>cely be s inadv]t5t & unreflect+1 z n easily to imag9e to himself t %e felt !m 9 ! highe/ degree pa9ful & ov]:elm+4 ,?is la/ bl[ 0 too mu*4 ,m>gu]ite _h be5 "s mon?s pregnant4 ,%e 0 imm$iately seiz$ ) ! pa9s ( lab\r1 & deliv]$ ( a dead *ild4 ,! fir/ intellig5ce communicat$ to me ^u my arrival 0 t my wife 0 dy+4 ,lucca h[ev] did n witness ! p]iod ( h] exi/5ce4 ,aft] hav+ cont9u$ = sev]al days ^u ! v extremity1 z x 71 betwe5 life & dea?1 %e grew p]ceptibly bett]2 & 9 a week m1 ?\gh 9 a v feeble /ate1 x became app>5t t h] case 0 n a rapid "o4 ,we agre$ to proce$ ^u our ,spani% voyage4 ,x appe>$ n improbable t ! sea-air might be f\nd b5eficial1 & ! exp]im5t 0 w>mly recomm5d$ by h] physicians4 ,!y 7 n h[ev] aw>e ( ! :ole ext5t ( h] disord]4 ,dur+ ! voyage h] crisis return$ ) su* malignant symptoms1 z sc>cely to p]mit u ! hope %e w\ld rea* ! l& alive4 ,we deb>k$ at ,b>celona on ! #ad? ( ,april #aedf4 ,we _h no soon] tak5 up our abode 9 ?is city ?an1 fully aw>e ( ! /ate ( h] disease1 %e assembl$ h] daught]s1 & p\r$ =? to !m )\t re/ra9t t flood ( affection1 t ard5t _s ( love1 by :i* %e 0 di/+ui%$ & elevat$ above e creature t liv$4 ,h] m9d 0 cle>1 h] intellectual p[]s 7 complete & entire4 ,! en?usiasm ) :i* %e n[ express$ h]self 0 n ( t inconsid]ate nature :i* %\ld t5d to make !m feel ) great] acut5ess ! loss !y 7 ab\t to su/a94 ,x 0 bright1 uncl\d$ & s]5e4 ,x 0 ! eloqu5ce z ( a disembodi$ _s1 fre$ f ! p]turbation & alloy ( human passions4 ,%e rem9d$ !m t !y 7 si/]s1 & exhort$ ea* to fulfil ! duties ( a si/] & a "m to ! o!r two4 ,if wise & good1 !y w\ld be happy 9 ea* o!r1 & _! little association w\ld be a s*ool1 prep>+ !m = ! m g5u9e & v5]able duties = :i* nature _h de/9$ !m4 ,h] views ( all human ?+s 7 alt]$ by h] pres5t situation on ! br9k ( ! grave4 ,our res]ves & misund]/&+s _h wrung h] he>t2 b %e =gave me4 ,?+s :i* _h lately appe>$ ( ! highe/ magnitude & mom5t1 fad$ 9 ! di/ance1 & m+l$ ) ! vulg> cr[d ( human conc]ns :i* 0 n[ retir+ f h] view3 %e mu/ aga9 return1 %e said1 to life1 be=e %e c\ld aga9 feel ! passions & ! int]e/s ( ?is petty sc5e4 ,= ! sake ( h] daught]s %e _h lately desir$ to live4 ,%e 0 n[ reconcil$ & cont5t to die4 ,%e _h =m$ ! *a9 & l9k ( connection betwe5 me & my girls2 p]haps x 0 bett] t we %\ld bur/ our fett]s & be free4 ,on ! f\r? day aft] our arrival at ,b>celona ,m>gu]ite expir$4 ,!re is no?+ 9 ! va/ v>iety ( objects :i* ?is wret*$ _w pres5ts to our view s dreadful & di/ress+ z ! sight ( "o we h lov$1 b :o is n[ no m4 ,i saw1 ^! eyes beheld1 ! lifeless corse ( ,m>gu]ite4 ,great ,god ( heav56 :at is man8 & ( :at are we made8 ,)9 t petty frame resid$ = ye>s all t we wor%ip1 = !re resid$ all t we "k & c conceive ( excell5ce4 ,t he>t is n[ /ill4 ,)9 ! :ole ext5t ( t frame !re exi/s no ?\ght1 no feel+1 no virtue4 ,x rema9s no long]1 b to mock my s5se & sc(f at my sorr[1 to r5d my bosom ) a woe1 complicat$1 mat*less & inexpressible4 ,! *eek is pale & livid2 ! eyes are sunk & circl$ ) blackness4 ,corruption & ru9 h already seiz$ _! prey & turn$ x into horror4 ,draw1 = heav5's sake1 draw ! pall ov] ^? lifeless features6 ,bury1 bury !m deep 9 ! b[els ( ! e>?6 ,let n my imag9ation foll[ !m into ! *amb]s ( ! grave1 & dwell amid/ pe/il5tial damps & all ! s]ies ( de/ruction6 ,let me recollect all t ,m>gu]ite 0 z %e liv$1 h] num]\s accompli%m5ts1 h] unp>allel$ virtues1--ay1 9 all ! magnitude & weal? ( _! detail1--= t is a div9e & cele/ial madness3 b let me n recollect h] z ,i saw h] on ! bi]1 le/ ,i become rav+ & blaspheme6 ,i h no p[] to talk ( ! situation 9 :i* ,i 0 n[ plac$1 & ! read] mu/ !re=e expla9 x = himself1--if he c4 ,i nev] lov$ b once2 ,i nev] lov$ b ,m>gu]ite4 ,all o!r affection is /illness & ice comp>$ ) ?is4 ,?is is ! great crisis ( my hi/ory1 ! gap betwe5 life & dea?1 ! gulf t cut me (f = ev] f e ?+ t des]ves ! "n ( human4 ,su* 0 ! legacy ( ! /rang]6 my son an exile1 myself publicly arraign$ z a murd]]1 ! unm]it$ & tragical dea? ( ,hector1 ! premature & self-d]iv+ loss ( ! bett] half ( my s\l6 ,:o w\ld h believ$ t ?is env5om$ gift w\ld1 9 less ?an two ye>s1 h ?us dreadfully *ang$ ! face ( my affairs1 & de/roy$ e ?+ t compos$ ! happ9ess ( my life8 ,aft] "s delay 9 ?is wret*$ & ill-om5$ t[n ( ,b>celona 7su* x has ev] s9ce appe>$ to my ?\ghts71 we proce$$ to ,madrid4 ,! read] w give me cr$it1 :5 ,i tell him t1 h[ev] eag] ,i _h lately felt to exhibit my magnific5ce & my weal?1 ,i _h no su* eag]ness n[4 ,i speak no m ( ! "* ( ,m>gu]ite2 ,i attempt n to compose h] panegyric4 ,! /ory ( h] life is ! be/ record ( h] virtues4 ,h] defects1 if defects %e _h1 drew _! p$igree f rectitude ( s5tim5t & p]ception1 f ! mo/ g5]\s s5sibility1 f a he>t p]vad$ & leav5$ ) t5d]ness4 ,a simple /one 9 ! we/]n aisle ( ! great *ur* at ,b>celona records h] p]sonal & h] family "n1 ) ?is s+le addition1 ,,! ,,pres]v] ,,( ,,h] ,,family ,,9 ,,pov]ty ,,& ,,ru91 ,,! ,,victim ,,( ,,h] ,,disconsolate ,,& ,,rep5tant ,,husb&',s ,,unhall[$ ,,weal?4 ,b1 dismiss+ = ev]1 & h5ce=? consign+ to unviolat$ sil5ce h] excell5cies1 c\ld ,i avoid feel+ t ,i c\ld nev] aga9 =m a simil>1 or inde$ any real union1 s long z ,i exi/$8 ,be+ n[ inde$ m ?an =ty ye>s ( age1 hav+ sp5t ne> tw5ty ( t =ty 9 a mo/ enviable w$lock1 & be+ bless$ ) a suffici5tly num]\s (fspr+1 x may be ?\ght p]haps ,i might be cont5t$4 ,b1 )\t discuss+ ! propriety ( su* a maxim z x relates to ! species 9 g5]al1 x mu/ be recollect$ 9 my case t my y\? 0 to be recomm5c$ by a p]petual s]ies ( r5ewals4 ,i nev] gave cr$it to t axiom ( a sickly s5sibility1 t x is a sacrilege1 9 him :o has be5 engag$ 9 "o cordial & happy union1 ev] to turn 8 ?\ghts to ano!r4 ,mu* m reasonable ?an ?is is ! ,indian doctr9e1 t ! survivor ought to leap into ! flames1 & p]i% ^u ! fun]al pyre ( ! deceas$4 ,:ile we live1 x is "o ( our mo/ imp]i\s duties to seek our happ9ess4 ,he t d$icates 8 days to an endless sorr[ is ! wor/ & mo/ degrad$ ( suicides4 ,x is an important "q 9 ! economy ( human life1 up to :at age we %\ld all[ ourselves to contract engagem5ts to a wife & a probable (fspr+3 b1 sep>ately f ?is consid]ation1 ,i %\ld hold t 9 _m cases he :o ent]$ into a second m>riage1 by t action yield$ a pure & hon\rable homage to ! manes ( ! fir/4 ,b f g5u9e m>riage ,i 0 h5ce=? = ev] deb>r$4 ,an immortal c =m no true & real atta*m5t to ! insect ( an h\r4 ,m\rn+1 a depress+ & spee*less regret1 0 yet ! inmate ( our h\se4 ,grief does n commonly lay a /rong & inv9cible hold ( u 9 ! morn+ ( our days2 &1 ?\gh ! temp] ( ,julia 0 p]haps at h] age ! mo/ t5d] & susceptible ,i ev] knew1 ev5 %e1 :o 0 n[ 9 h] sev5te5? ye>1 reap$ ! b5efit ( t ela/icity :i* 9 e>ly life is ! portion ( humanity4 ,no?+ mat]ial occurr$ to u 9 ! fir/ ?ree mon?s ( our resid5ce 9 ,madrid4 ,x 0 impossible = any "o to be surr\nd$ ) a m lovely & bloom+ family ?an ,i 04 ,yet f happ9ess ,i 0 immeasurably di/ant4 ,exclusively ( my rec5t & 9 e s5se irrep>able loss1 my m9d 0 full ( d>k & gloomy =ebod+s4 ,i fe>$ n = myself1 b ,i _h an unconqu]able al>m & appreh5sion = my *ildr54 ,my y\nge/ 0 b t5 ye>s ( age2 ! elde/ 0 n sev5te54 ,sweet1 t5d] blossoms1 t ! cruelty & h>dness ( mank9d might s easily blight1 & t requir$ a concurr5ce ( fav\rable circum/ances to rip5 into all !y 7 capable ( becom+6 ,:5 ,i recollect$ :at _h happ5$ 9 ! c\rse ( ! la/ two ye>s1 ,i c\ld n flatt] myself t our mis=tunes 7 at an end1 or t ,i _h n1 to speak mod]ately1 _m fi]ce trials yet to enc\nt]4 ,i seem$1 l ! f>-fam$ tree ( ,java1 to be de/9$ to %elt] only to de/roy1 & to prove a deadly poison to :atev] s\ght its refuge "u my protect+ bran*es4 ,9 ?is melan*oly frame ( m9d ! la/ words ( my ador$ ,m>gu]ite pass$ & repass$ t5 ?\s& times ?r\gh my recollection4 8,%e _h =m$ ! *a9 & l9k ( connection betwe5 me & my girls2 p]haps x 0 bett] t we %\ld bur/ our fett]s & be free40 ,:atev] %e _h said 0 sacr$ to ! pres5t temp] ( my imag9ation3 h] la/ behe/ ,i w\ld h di$ to execute4 ,! idea conta9$ 9 ! s5t5ce ,i h j repeat$ 0 ambigu\s & obscure1 r h9t$1 ?an express$4 ,b 0 x wor?y ( ! less att5tion1 because its au?or1 ) h] usual g5tl5ess & sweetness1 _h mode/ly sugge/$ an advice1 in/ead1 :i* %e 0 well entitl$ to h done1 ( prescrib+ a w8 ,i det]m9$ to "p ) my *ildr51 t ,i might no long] be to !m a s\rce ( corrod+ mis]y & affliction4 ,i believ$ t ! cl\d t n[ oppress$ me 0 transitory4 ,i seem$ pursu$ = ! pres5t by a malignant g5ius2 b a man1 end[$ z ,i 0 ) unb\nd$ weal? & immortal vig\r1 _c easily be r$uc$ to despair4 ,:5 ! tide ( my prosp]ity %\ld unfold its ri* & ample curr5t1 ,i might easily communicate ( its b\nty to my daught]s4 ,if ,i p>t$ ) !m n[1 ,i did n lose !m z ,i _h p]haps lo/ _! bro!r = ev]4 ,i c\ld turn to a p>ticul> po9t1 & say1 8,!re lies my s\l60 ,i c\ld ca/ my eye ^u a projection ( ! globe1 & put my f+] ^u _! resid5ce4 ,:]ev] ,i w&]$1 :e!r ,i 7 plung$ 9 a dungeon or m\nt$ a ?rone1 my he>t1 l ! m>9]'s ne$le1 w\ld tremble t[>ds t po9t z its cynosure4 ,i _h /ill some?+ to love1 some?+ to pant =1 some?+ to dream ab\t1 & be happy4 ,hav+ rum9at$ insatiably ^u ! la/ expressions ( ,m>gu]ite1 hav+ =m$ my comm5t>y1 & fix$ my pr$ilection1 ,i recollect$ a p]son1 !n a "y woman ^u my pat]nal e/ate1 = :om my wife _h conceiv$ a rem>kable fri5d%ip4 ,%e 0 ! daught] ( a peasant1 h] bir? _h be5 l[1 & h] education conf9$4 ,b %e _h ta/e1 %e _h discretion1 %e _h integrity1 ,i ?9k ,i may add1 %e _h g5ius4 ,z ,m>gu]ite _h discov]$ h] m]its1 & di/+ui%$ h] f h] equals1 %e _h be5 ( great use to ?is extraord9>y ru/ic 9 unfold+ h] m9d1 & guid+ h] prop5sities4 ,?is 0 n s mu* a matt] ( delib]ate & m$itat$ purpose 9 la dame du seigneur2 x rose out ( ! circum/ances ( _! situation4 ,!y 7 almo/ ( an age2 & ,m>gu]ite frequ5tly invit$ h] to be ! associate ( h] /udies & amusem5ts4 ,m>iana1 t 0 h] "n1 did n p]haps resemble my wife consid]ably 9 h] features1 b h] /ature 0 ! same1 h] complexion & ! col\r ( h] hair4 ,! simil>ity 9 c>riage & ge/ure1 ,m>iana hav+ nev] _h an opportunity ( contemplat+ ! accompli%m5ts %e admir$ 9 any "o b madame de ,/4 ,leon1 0 /ill m /rik+4 ,!re 7 po9ts inde$ 9 :i* no human creature c\ld comp>e ) ,m>gu]ite1 ! expressive & flexible tone ( h] voice1 & ^? cad5ces1 :i* sprung f1 & communicat$ to e susceptible he>]1 ! div9e/ s5sibility4 ,"o ( ! unhappy consequ5ces ( our exile f ! ,bordelois 0 ! mis=tunes ( ,m>iana4 ,h] fa!r _h fall5 to decay4 ,to relieve 8 di/ress %e _h contract$ a m>riage1 n ( s5tim5t & pr$ilection1 b ) a man :o _h promis$ h] t h] fa!r %\ld nev] come to want4 ,?is m>riage _h be5 unhappy4 ,! husb& 0 a prodigal & a pr(ligate4 ,a p]iod ( sev5 ye>s h[ev] deliv]$ h] f h] ,egyptian bondage4 ,%e _h b lately become a wid[2 & ! prud5ce & integrity ( h] conduct _h r5d]$ ?is alliance1 :i* to _m wom5 w\ld h prov$ a rock ( de/ruction1 an additional s\rce ( hon\r & respect4 ,m>iana1 at ! dea? ( h] husb&1 _h no *ildr52 %e _h buri$ h] fa!r2 %e 0 consequ5tly entirely alone4 ,x 0 ?is woman ,i fix$ ^u z ! protector ( my daught]s4 ,i 0 bett] pleas$ ) ! meanness ( h] extraction1 ?an ,i %\ld h be5 ) "o ( ! high-born desc5dants ( ! h\ses ( ,/4 ,leon or ,damville1 _h x be5 my =tune to h _h 9 ! female l9e any ne> relations on ei!r side4 ,my daught]s 7 no long] *ildr52 !y 7 s+ul>ly prud5t1 consid]ate1 & unimpea*able 9 _! conduct & prop5sities4 ,!y want$ a protector 9 ! eye ( ! _w2 x 0 desirable = !m t !y %\ld h an advis]2 b ,i %\ld h be5 griev$ & mortifi$ to give !m a dictator4 ,i wrote to ,m>iana ,*abot1 communicat+ my project1 & reque/+ h] to give u ! meet+ at ,/4 ,lizi] on ! fronti]s ( ,france4 ,%e 0 delight$ ) ! (fice ,i t5d]$ to h] acceptance1 & readily cons5t$ to e ?+ ,i requir$4 ,i conduct$ my daught]s to ! place ( r5dezv\s )\t imp>t+ to !m ! design by :i* ,i 0 actuat$2 ,i believ$ t !y w\ld ( _! own motion conceive a p>tiality = ! fri5d ( _! "m4 ,i 0 n deceiv$ 9 my progno/ic2 ! meet+ 0 an int]e/+ "o4 ,! eyes ( ,m>iana ov]fl[$ at meet+1 aft] s long an int]val1 ! husb& & prog5y ( ! de>e/ & mo/ rev]$ fri5d %e _h ev] kn[n2 ! m\rn+ we wore rem9d$ h] h[ lately h] incomp>able patroness _h be5 committ$ to ! grave4 ,my girls 7 /ruck ) ! resemblance ( ,m>iana to _! "m4 ,accid5t _h prev5t$ u f cultivat+ almo/ any intimate connections out ( our own family f ! p]iod ( our exile2 my girls _h !re=e nev] met ) a p]son :o approa*$ 9 any degree s ne> _! "m 9 accompli%m5ts1 9 skill1 9 turn ( ?9k+ & op9ion4 ,m>iana came up to my w>me/ hopes z a protector & companion = my *ildr52 h] unhappy m>riage1 by conc5trat+ h] ?\ghts & expectations 9 h]self1 _h p]haps r5d]$ h] m exempl>y 9 c>riage1 & m elevat$ 9 s5tim5t1 ?an %e w\ld ev] h be5 )\t x4 ,at ,/4 ,lizi] ,i pass$ myself = monsieur ,valmi]1 ! gu>dian ( ! orphan heiresses ( ,/4 ,leon4 ,x =tunately happ5$ t my pat]nal e/ate 0 at ?is "t ^u sale4 ,i det]m9$ to become ! pur*as]1 & to settle my girls 9 ! sc5e ( _! nativity4 ,i procur$ an ag5t1 & despat*$ him ) an ample commission = t purpose4 ,hav+ adju/$ ?is po9t1 ,i resolv$ to make a t\r ) my daught]s1 ?r\gh ,langu$oc1 ,dauph91 & ! prov9ces usually kn[n by ! d5om9ation ( ! s\? ( ,france4 ,i wi%$ to famili>ise !m to ! society ( madame ,*abot1 & to assi/ !m 9 disc]n+ h] m]its "u a v>iety ( po9ts ( view4 ,i ask$ !m :e!r !y w\ld n be delight$ to obta9 h] z a companion1 :o might assi/ & conduct !m 9 su* po9ts z only a woman ( und]/&+ & exp]i5ce is compet5t to4 ,!y1 e "o ( !m1 li/5$ to ! idea ) pleasure4 ,at l5g? ,i receiv$ ! in=mation t ! pur*ase ( ,/4 ,leon 0 complet$1 & ,i proce$$ to ! critical disclosure t my daught]s 7 on ! po9t ( be+ sep>at$ f _! fa!r4 ,!y li/5$ to ! communication ) a/oni%m5t & t]ror4 ,!y _h ent]$ successively into ! feel+s ( _! deceas$ "m1 & ,i am well p]suad$ felt a less ard5t atta*m5t to my p]son ?an !y _h done at ! cottage ( ! lake ( ,con/ance4 ,b1 culpable & crim9al z ,i _h be51 ,i 0 n de/itute ( e virtue1 & !y c\ld n ext+ui% 9 !mselves ! respect !y _h s long ent]ta9$ = me4 ,habit has a resi/less empire ov] ! human m9d2 &1 :5 we reflect ) h[ mu* reluctance we cons5t to ! removal ( a tree or a h$ge1 to ! sight ( :i* we h be5 accu/om$1 x w n be wond]$ at t my daught]s c\ld n calmly ?9k ( s complete a sep>ation f _! fa!r4 ,! impression ( _! "m's dea? 0 yet gre51 & to lose me1 0 to become orphans a second "t4 ,b ,i _h fully m$itat$ my plan1 & 0 p]emptory4 ,t ,i might )hold f !m no advantage x 0 9 my p[] to conf]1 ,i gave !m ,b]n>d9 = _! sup]9t5d+ bailiff & /ew>d ( _! prop]ty4 ,our p>t+ 0 n less pa9ful & melan*oly1 ?an its occasion 0 extraord9>y & its mode uncommon4 ,x took place at ! t[n ( ,montauban4 ,i saw my de> *ildr5 set =w>d on _! j\rney1 & ,i knew n t ,i %\ld ev] behold !m m4 ,i 0 det]m9$ nev] aga9 to see !m to _! injury2 & ,i c\ld n take to myself ! consolation1--on su* a day1 9 su* a mon?1 or ev5 aft] su* a lapse ( ye>s1 ,i w aga9 h ! joy to embrace !m4 ,9 a little :ile !y 7 out ( sight1 & ,i 0 alone4 ,! read] w p]haps agree ) me1 t no man _h m exquisitely enjoy$ ! de>e/ ties ( society ?an ,i _h1 & t p]haps few m5 7 ev] bett] =m$ to enjoy !m4 ,?is complete & dreadful sep>ation1 ?is /roke t seem$ to cut me (f abruptly f e ?+ mo/ valuable t ! e>? conta9s1 0 n ! result ( any ( ! ord9>y necessities ( human life4 ,/ill less 0 x ! dictate ( ali5ation or indiff]5ce4 ,no2 x 0 ! pure effect ( love1 ( a love s /rong1 complete1 & uncontrollable1 z inflexibly to refuse e ?+ t c\ld be injuri\s to its objects4 ,i own ,i c\ld n ?us h p>t$ ) ,m>gu]ite4 ,h] idea 0 m+l$ ) ! vital spr+s ( my exi/5ce2 & sc>cely any p[] less resi/less ?an dea? c\ld h made me cons5t to pass an entire day )\t h] society4 ,b !n x is to be consid]$1 t my daught]s 7 9 ! morn+ ( life2 _! hopes 7 unt>ni%$1 _! prospects n obscur$ by a s+le cl\d2 & t ! crime w\ld probably h be5 great]1 ob/9ately to h made !m ! p>tn]s ( my mis=tunes & disgrace4 ,!re are p]sons :o w reg>d ?is passage 9 my hi/ory z culpable1 & ! te/imony ( a cold & unsusceptible he>t4 ,i contemplate x1 ev5 at ?is di/ance ( "t1 z ! noble/ & mo/ virtu\s ef=t ( my life2 & a ?\s& circum/ances h occurr$ s9ce1 to induce me to congratulate myself t ,i _h ! c\rage to a*ieve my purpose4 ,,*apt] ,,xxix4 ,n9ete5 ye>s _h n[ elaps$ f ! day t _h witness$ my union ) ,m>gu]ite de ,damville4 ,9 all t "t ,i _h nev] be5 alone4 ,alone 9 a c]ta9 s5se inde$ ,i _h /ood at ,p>is 9 ! p]iod t _h l$ to my exile1 & at ,soleure 9 t :i* imm$iately succe$$ x4 ,9 ea* case ,i 0 solit>y1 & my solitude 0 unhappy4 ,b my unhapp9ess 0 !n 9 a c]ta9 s5se spontane\s2 my solitude 0 a luxury 9 :i* ,i felt myself impell$ to indulge4 ,he t has exp]i5c$ bo?1 w readily ackn[l$ge ! extreme diff]5ce betwe5 ! mis]y we embrace & ! mis]y f :i* we %r9k ) abhorr5ce & loa?+4 ,i rel9qui%$ 9 ! =m] in/ances my de>e/ connections1 my prop] po/ & situation2 b ,i felt t ,i c\ld return to ! "o & resume ! o!r at pleasure4 ,i repeat x !re=e1 ,!n ,i _h n be5 alone1 & n[ ,i 0 alone4 ,! same motive1 :i* 9 ?is in/ance made me cut myself (f f my daught]s t ,i might n be ! cause ( _! mis]y1 =bad me to be ! p>5t ( a future (fspr+ ^u :om ,i might entail simil> mis=tune4 ,tell me !n1 0 ,i n alone8 ,i recollect$ ! words ( ! /rang]1 wrung f him by ! excess ( 8 mis]y at ! summ]-h\se ( ! lake1 8,alone--alone6--fri5dless--fri5dless60 ,i began to p5etrate ! enigma ( 8 hi/ory4 ,i fix$ my daught]s ) an ample rev5ue 9 ! *teau ( ,/4 ,leon2 ,i re-pur*as$ = !m all my pat]nal prop]ty4 ,i wait$ "s "t at ,montauban to he> ( ! ev5t ( my project1 & _! f9al settlem5t4 ,i le>n$ ) pleasure t !y f\nd _! situation peaceful1 easy1 & reputable2 ,i enjo9$ !m t !y %\ld speak & ?9k ( me z dead4 ,i l$ !m to suppose1 :5 ,i left ,montauban1 t ,i %\ld set out ^u an ext5sive t\r1 t ,i %\ld trav]se ! ,indus & ! ,ganges1 & p5etrate into ! fur!/ extremities ( ! ,ea/4 ,h[ uncommon1 h[ pitiable a fate6 ,i became prematurely dead to my c\ntry & my race1 because ,i 0 de/9$ nev] to die6 ,! fir/ s5sation ,i d]iv$ f _! prosp]ity1 z ,i h already said1 0 pleasure3 my second 0 t :i* ! devil might h felt1 :5 he ent]$ p>adise = ! s$uction ( our fir/ p>5ts4 ,i contemplat$ ) "s degree ( malignant envy a happ9ess ( :i* x 0 little probable ,i %\ld ev] p>take4 ,let me n be c5sur$ = ?is3 let any man put himself 9 my situation1 & say1 :e!r ! pleasure he feels at contemplat+ ! sep>at$ happ9ess ( ^? he loves be n a m+l$ s5sation8 ,) heavy he>t ,i s\ght aga9 ! road ( ,madrid4 ,?\gh my spirits und]w5t an extreme depression1 ,i det]m9$ n to des]t myself or ! advantages ,i _h pur*as$ at s ine/imable a price4 ,i ex]t$ myself to %ake (f my le?>gy1 & r\se ! faculties ( my s\l4 ,i refus$ to give way to om5s ( evil port5t1 & resolv$ to see :at might yet be made ( my end[m5ts4 ,!re is no mis=tune t has n 9 x "s slight mixture ( good4 ,my be+ n[ alone1 & deta*$ f e relative tie1 left me at lib]ty to pursue my projects ) a bold] ent]prise4 ,! mi/ake ( :i* ,i accus$ myself 9 ! =m] in/ance1 0 ! ent]+ too precipitately into ! ex]cise ( ! gifts ( ! /rang]1 be=e ,i _h prop]ly measur$ my /r5g?1 & inve/igat$ ! use & application ( my tools4 ,i _h suff]$ suffici5tly f ! pa/ unc]ta9ty & irresolut5ess ( my m>*4 ,i det]m9$1 z f> z human precaution c\ld secure its ends1 to enc\nt] no m mis=tunes1 to subject myself to no fur!r misc>riages1 b to take c>e t h5ce=? ! tide ( my pursuits %\ld move smoo?ly onw>d4 ,i d$icat$ ! six mon?s imm$iately succe$+ my sep>ation f my daught]s1 to ! jo9t contemplation ( morals & natural philosophy4 ,i 0 resolv$ to asc]ta9 ! simple/ mode ( manufactur+ weal?1 ! wise/ me?ods = lull+ ! suspicions & controll+ ! passions ( mank9d1 & ! true sci5ce ( ! use ( ri*es4 ,alas6 ,i _h 9 ! sequel frequ5t occasions to confess1 t1 ?\gh ,i _h =tuit\sly ent]$ into possession ( ! lead+ secrets ( natural magic1 ,i 0 a m]e tyro 9 ! sci5ce ( man1 at lea/ 9 ! degree 9 :i* ! ex]cise ( ^! secrets requir$ ! possession ( x4 ,no?+ mat]ial occurr$ to int]rupt ! occupations ( ! w9t]4 ,my apa?y--intellectual activity1 palsy ( ! he>t1--w5t ev5ly =w>d4 ,i made no acqua9tance2 ,i 0 a m]e spectator ( ! busy sc5es t pass$ ar\nd me4 ,i 0 resolv$ n to entangle myself ) ra%ly =m$ connections2 & x w commonly be f\nd1 t he1 ^: contemplations are pr9cipally employ$ ^u "s secret & gu>d$ ho>d ( reflection1 has little prop5sity to communicate ^u idle & indiff]5t matt]s4 ,a slight incid5t inde$ di/urb$ me = a few days dur+ ?is int]val2 b x pass$ away1 & = ! pres5t ,i ?\ght ( x no m4 ,dur+ ! fe/ival ( ,*ri/mas x happ5$ t ,i felt an incl9ation to be ! spectator ( a celebrat$ bull-fight1 t 0 exhibit$ be=e ! emp]or & 8 c\rt4 ,= ! mo/ "p ,i 0 /udi\s ( privacy2 ,i !re=e felt ! less scruple 9 indulg+ ?is unusual caprice4 ,at ! comm5cem5t ( ! spectacle1 ,i 0 att5tive only to ! exhibition4 ,i 0 delight$ ) ! =m & beauty ( ! animals1 ) ! fre$om & gr&eur ( _! motion1 ) ! t]rible en]gy ( _! assault & repulse4 ,x 0 n long1 h[ev]1 be=e my eye 0 transi5tly caught by an individual1 :o sat 9 a gall]y at no great di/ance1 & :o seem$ to view me att5tively4 ,8 figure bespoke "s degree ( ref9em5t2 b 8 eye 0 fi]y1 malici\s1 & savage4 ,pres5tly h[ev] ,i turn$ aga9 t[>ds ! area1 & ?\ght ( him no m4 ,"s "t aft] by m]e accid5t ,i look$ t[>ds ! same gall]y1 & obs]v$ ?is man /ill 9 an attitude to exam9e me4 ,x seem$ z if he _h n remov$ 8 eyes f me dur+ ! :ole int]val4 ,?is 0 repeat$ ?ree or f\r times4 ,)\t kn[+ :y1 ,i became anxi\s & uneasy4 ,i _h a confus$ feel+ t ,i _h se5 ! man be=e1 b :e!r 9 ,france1 ,switz]l&1 or ,italy1 ,i c\ld n tell4 ,i exp]i5c$ t sort ( disagreeable s5sation f look+ at 8 face1 :i* arises 9 ! m9d f an association ( ! object pres5t1 ) "s mis*ief or suff]+ t 0 contempor>y ) its be+ p]ceiv$ 9 a prec$+ in/ance4 ,i am n[ p]suad$ t ?is man 0 "o ( ! multitude to :om ,i _h address$ myself f ! b5* on ! hill a %ort "t be=e my flight f ,pisa1 & t he 0 among ! mo/ eag] to int]rupt & mole/ me4 ,b he 0 app>5tly a ,spani>d by bir?1 & ,i c\ld n at ?is "t develope ! my/]y t hung ab\t 8 features4 ,f9d+ t ,i c\ld nei!r rid myself ( 8 curi\s & wat*ful obs]vation1 nor ( ! di/urbance x gave me1 ,i )drew f ! gall]y :]e ,i _h hi!rto be5 sitt+1 & remov$ to ano!r gall]y on ! opposite side ( ! area4 ,ab\t half an h\r aft]1 look+ accid5tally r\nd1 ,i saw ?is v man at my elb[4 ,i !n acco/$ him ) ! enquiry1 8,d y "k me1 sir80 to :i* he imm$iately return$1 ) a pure ,ca/ilian acc5t1 8,no1 seor60 ,he !n began to be m res]v$ 9 8 att5tion to me1 )\t h[ev] entirely )draw+ x4 ,z soon z ! ent]ta9m5t 0 ov]1 ,i w5t away1 & saw no m ( my ,spani>d4 ,i began to tax myself ) pusillanimity 9 suff]+ s insignificant an incid5t to di/urb me4 ,a few days aft] h[ev] ,i sudd5ly light$ ^u him 9 ! /reet4 ,he 0 talk+ to ?ree or f\r ( 8 c\ntrym51 & 9 ! progress ( 8 disc\rse frequ5tly po9t$ to me4 ,i c\ld n[ p]ceive some?+ p>ticul>ly ho/ile & f]oci\s 9 8 c\nt5ance4 ,! fir/ impulse ,i felt 01 t ,i w\ld no long] suff] ! unquietness & anxiety ! sight ( him produc$ 9 me1 b w\ld g up to him1 & =ce him to an explanation4 ,i believ$ h[ev] t1 9 ! temp] he indicat$1 ?is c\ld n be done )\t involv+ myself 9 a qu>rel2 & ,i ?\ght x wis] to endeav\r to conqu] 9 sil5ce an unreasonable s5sation4 ,i !re=e pass$ on2 he imm$iately broke f 8 company1 & attempt$ to foll[ me4 ,?is ,i det]m9$ n to endure4 ,i laid my h& on my sword ) a p]emptory look1 & wav$ to him to desi/4 ,8 c\nt5ance !n assum$ an air ( diabolical malignity1 he %ook 8 head furi\sly1 & turn$ d[n ano!r /reet4 ,a /range sort ( animosity ?is1 betwe5 two p]sons utt] /rang]s to ea* o!r1 & :i* _h z yet n deign$ to express itself by a ^w6 ,b su* is ! _w6 ,we hate we "k n :y4 ,we are ready to cut ea* o!r's ?roats1 because we d n l ! turn ( a feature1 or ! adju/m5t ( a sword-knot4 ,prejudice1 p>ty1 diff]5ce ( c\ntries1 diff]5ce ( religions1 & a ?\s& wild *im]as ( fanaticism or sup]/ition1 are cont9ually arm+ u aga9/ a man1 ( ^: virtues & qualities we are ignorant1 & into ^: b5evol5t or evil int5tions we disda9 to enquire4 ,i saw ?is ,spani>d b once m4 ,x 0 z ,i 0 on ! po9t ( ent]+ ! h\se1 a "p ( :i* ,i occupi$4 ,i 0 p>ticul>ly mortifi$ at ?is circum/ance4 ,x 0 pla9 ! man ent]ta9$1 = :atev] reason1 a det]m9$ animosity aga9/ me2 & ,i 0 griev$ to furni% him ) t advantage = injur+ me1 :i* consi/$ 9 be+ acqua9t$ ) ! place ( my resid5ce4 ,i w\ld h turn$ away & gone d[n ! /reet2 b ,i _h too fully m>k$ my design ( ent]+ ! h\se1 be=e ,i reconnoit]$ my enemy4 ,! displeasure ,i felt 0 s unacc\ntably great1 t x 0 ) difficulty my c\rage got ! bett] ( x2 & ,i det]m9$ n to *ange ! place ( my abode4 ,9 a %ort "t h[ev]1 z ,i h already said1 ,i ?\ght ( ?is incid5t no m4 ,t x %\ld h di/urb$ & unh+$ me1 9 ! degree t x _h done1 ev5 = a mom5t1 0 a ?+ ,i c\ld n acc\nt =4 ,_h ! calamities 9 :i* ! legacy ( ! /rang] involv$ me1 conv]t$ me 9 s %ort a "t1 f a knight & a soldi]1 into a "* ( t morbid timidity1 z to tremble at e %ad[8 ,or1 is !re 9 "s human c\nt5ances a fasc9ation1 a sort ( my/]i\s sympa?y & pres5tim5t1 t makes u c[] & quail :5ev] we meet _! eye-beams8 ,sev]al weeks n[ pass$ away1 & ,i _h ne>ly =gott5 all ! circum/ances ( ?is seem+ly fooli% /ory1 :51 9 a little excursion ,i *anc$ to make f ,madrid to a place ab\t twelve miles di/ant1 ,i 0 ov]tak5 ^u ! road by a cavali] ( respectable appe>ance1 :o pres5tly took occasion to ent] into conv]sation ) me4 ,he expla9$ to me sev]al ( ! objects t pres5t$ !mselves on ei!r side1 told ! names ( ! diff]5t nobility & gr&ees :o occupi$ ! villas we saw1 & sometimes ent]$ into ! p>ticul>s ( _! hi/ory4 ,i at fir/ gave little enc\ragem5t to ?is communicative travell]2 b !re 0 some?+ s polite 9 8 mann]1 & intellig5t 9 8 disc\rse1 t ,i c\ld n prevail ^u myself to treat him ) rud5ess or disrespect4 ,aft] hav+ talk$ = "s "t ^u indiff]5t topics1 he l$ to ! g5]al /ate ( lit]ature 9 ,europe4 ,few subjects c\ld appe> less dang]\s ?an ?is1 z !re 7 few ^u :i* ,i felt myself bett] qualifi$ to conv]se4 ,by degrees ,i ?rew (f "s ( my orig9al res]ve1 & ,i f\nd my companion well in=m$ & +5i\s1 lively 9 8 mann]1 & p]t95t 9 8 rem>ks4 ,by ?is "t ! unkn[n1 hav+ discov]$ t ,i _h only come f ,madrid = a day's relaxation1 invit$ himself to d9e ) me at my inn4 ,i dep>t$ f my e/abli%$ sy/em ( conduct on ?is occasion1 & admitt$ 8 ov]ture4 ,aft] d9n] he gave me "s acc\nt ( himself & 8 family1 & seem$ to expect f me a simil> explicitness4 ,i 0 less pleas$ ) him 9 ?is p>ticul>1 ?an ,i _h be5 ) 8 frank & undesign+ conv]sation on ! road4 ,/rictly speak+ h[ev] ! expectation impli$ 0 only a brea* ( polit5ess2 ,i _h no reason to suppose t he =esaw x to be p>ticul>ly (f5sive to me4 ,obs]v+ my backw>dness1 he imm$iately *ang$ ! subject4 ,pres5tly he rem>k$1 t by my physiognomy & acc5t he p]ceiv$ ,i 0 a ,fr5*man1 & ask$ me if ,i _h kn[n ,cornelius ,agrippa1 :o di$ ab\t twelve ye>s be=e at ,gr5oble4 ,i answ]$ 9 ! negative4 ,! unkn[n !n ent]$ into a w>m eulogium ( ! tal5ts ( ,agrippa1 inveigh$ aga9/ ! illib]al treatm5t he _h exp]i5c$ 9 consequ5ce ( 8 suppos$ pr(ici5cy 9 magic1 & spoke ) great asp]ity ( ! prie/s & inquisitors :o _h be5 8 p]secutors4 ,i became att5tive1 wat*ful1 & suspici\s4 ,he w5t on to expatiate ^u ! praises ( ! art magic1 :i* no?+1 he said1 b ! jeal\sy ( *ur*m5 _h br\ght into disrepute2 affirm$ t x _h be5 treat$ ) respect1 & c\nt$ illu/ri\s1 by ! anci5ts1 9 ! in/ance ( ,py?agoras1 ,apollonius ,tyaneus1 & o!rs2 & express$ a great desire to become a /ud5t ( ! art himself4 ,?is k9d ( disc\rse made me rep5t t ,i _h be5 drawn 9 s f> z to sit d[n ) ?is unkn[n1 & admit him z my companion ( ! day4 ,dur+ ! :ole "t he 0 ! pr9cipal speak]4 ,sometimes he paus$1 ) a seem+ desire to he> my s5tim5ts4 ,b ,i _h n[ =m$ my resolution1 & gave him no enc\ragem5t4 ,pres5tly aft] ,i call$ = my horse4 ,i %\ld h obs]v$1 t 8 s]vant :o foll[$ him engag$ 9 conv]sation ) m9e1 at ! same "t t ! dialogue began betwe5 _! ma/]s4 ,see+ me ab\t to dep>t1 ! unkn[n motion$ z if to accompany me4 ,^u ?is ,i became s]i\s4 8,seor caball]o10 said ,i1 8,i h n[ _h ! pleasure ( y\r company to d9n]3 ,i am go+ home1 & h ! hon\r to bid y f>ewell4 ,x is nei!r my disposition1 nor ! habit ( ! grave & dignifi$ nation among :om ,i at pres5t reside1 to =m p]man5t acqua9tances ^u casual r5c\nt]s3 y w n !re=e ?9k ,i violate ! hospitality = :i* ,i am indebt$ to !m1 if ,i intimate to y my desire to return alone40 ,all ?is ,i said ) ! grave & =mal tone becom+ a ,spani>d1 & ! unkn[n _h no?+ to reply4 ,x 0 evid5t h[ev] t my dryness *agr9$ him2 & he ev5 mutt]$ words ( res5tm5t betwe5 8 tee?4 ,i c\ld obs]ve n[ a degree ( ho/ility & fury 9 8 c\nt5ance1 :i* rem>kably contra/$ ) ! pliancy & oblig+ness ( 8 prec$+ demean\r4 ,i took no notice h[ev] ( ^! circum/ances1 & rode away4 ,i h s9ce _h suffici5t reasons to conv9ce me t ^! two p]sons1 ^: /ory1 b = t explanation1 may appe> to ! read] exce$+ly frivol\s1 7 ! "o an in=m]1 & ! o!r a spy ( ! holy inquisition4 ,! man :o _h se5 me at ,pisa _h 8 imag9ation t]rifi$ & 8 sup]/ition set 9 arms by all t he _h he>d ( me 9 t place2 & ?\ght he c\ld n p]=m a m m]itori\s "w1 ?an by giv+ intellig5ce to ! fa!rs :at sort ( p]son _h tak5 refuge 9 ! metropolis ( ?is mo/ ,ca?olic k+dom4 ,x 0 ) ?is view he _h wat*$ me1 & at l5g?1 by an accid5t he deem$ peculi>ly =tunate1 lodg$ me 9 my prop] habitation4 ,hav+ giv5 9 8 d5unciation1 my travell+ companion 0 next fa/5$ on me by ! contrivance & zeal ( ! fa!rs inquisitors4 ,he 0 a famili> ( ! holy (fice2 & x is well kn[n t p]sons ( ! faire/ prospects & mo/ polite education 9 ,spa9 are l$ by _! religi\s impressions to place a pride 9 p]=m+ m5ial & ev5 p]fidi\s (fices 9 ! s]vice ( ! inquisition4 ,! k9d ( di%on\r ,i put ^u him 9 p>t+1 ?\gh ( a nature he c\ld n op5ly res5t1 ,i fe> conspir$ ) 8 zeal = ,god's & ! *ur*'s hon\r1 to induce him to relate a /ory conc]n+ me1 m modell$ by ! bitt]ness ( 8 p]sonal feel+s1 ?an di/+ui%$ by a reg>d to tru?4 ,su* 0 ! sn>e1 wov5 & draw+ close r\nd me on all sides = my de/ruction4 ,i 0 made uneasy by ! r5c\nt] ( ! travell]1 b by no means aw>e ( ! :ole ext5t ( ! mis*ief t imp5d$ ov] me4 ,:5 ,i came to retrace1 po9t by po9t1 ! disc\rse he _h held1 ,i c\ld n conceive t ! turn x _h tak5 orig9at$ 9 accid5t4 ,i p]ceiv$1 ) no little grief ( he>t & conc]n1 t ,i 0 kn[n4 ,x 0 h[ev] necess>y t ,i %\ld reflect maturely ^u ! conduct to be pursu$ by me4 ,i ought n gratuit\sly to expose myself to dang]4 ,b !n1 on ! o!r h&1 x is a po9t ( g5]al wisdom1 & 0 p>ticul>ly incumb5t 9 my extraord9>y circum/ances1 n to suff] vigilance to deg5]ate into re/less anxiety4 ,x w\ld be easy = me1 if ,i 7 n /rictly on my gu>d1 cont9ually to f9d food = suspicion1 & to surr\nd myself ) imag9>y plots & dang]s4 ,?is 0 a vice t ,i 0 will+ en\gh to pity 9 o!rs2 b !re 0 no "* t ,i m cordially disda9$ = myself4 ,!re 0 none m po9t$ly 9 opposition to t gallant1 g5]\s1 confid+ _s1 :i* _h di/+ui%$ ^? milit>y h]oes ( my native soil1 :o _h be5 ! exclusive object ( my e>lie/ admiration1 & :om1 9 my pres5t deject$ & des]t$ situation1 ,i /ill desir$ to resemble4 ,:5 ,i came to reflect1 ,i easily p]ceiv$ t ?is vice 0 p>ticul>ly alli$ to a life ( solitude2 & t he :o is cut (f f ! g5u9e & happy connections ( husb&1 fa!r1 & fri5d1 is ( all m5 mo/ liable1 9 _! abs5ce1 to conjure up = himself ! unnatural int]c\rses & reciprocations ( ho/ility4 ,x 0 ?us t ,i artificially reconcil$ myself to my situation1 & ob/9ately clos$ my eyes ^u ^? equivocal demon/rations ( dang] :i* f "t to "t 7 pres5t$ to my view4 ,,*apt] ,,xxx4 ,su* 0 ! /ate ( my m9d1 :5 x happ5$1 "o gloomy ev5+ 9 ! latt] end ( ,m>*1 t my valet ann\nc$ to me ?ree g5tlem5 :o 7 come to visit me4 ,x 0 /range3 ,i _h no visitors2 ,i indulg$ no relaxation b t ( ! /reet1 & ( public places4 ,d y "k :o !y are8 said ,i4 ,i accid5tally look$ up1 & saw pal5ess & t]ror writt5 9 8 c\nt5ance4 ,he _h n h[ev] "t to reply1 be=e !y bur/ into ! room4 ,!y 7 alguazils ( ! inquisition4 ,!y told me _! err& 0 to conduct me to ! holy (fice4 ,i submitt$1 & accompani$ !m4 ,x 0 already d>k4 ,!y put me into a litt] ) ! curta9s drawn1 & !n arrang$ !mselves 9 sil5ce1 "o on ea* side1 :ile "o br\ght up ! re>4 ,i 0 tak5 by surprise3 no?+ c\ld be fur!r f my expectation ?an su* an ev5t4 ,z we pass$ along1 ,i rum9at$ ) myself on ! l9e ( conduct x 0 incumb5t on me to pursue4 ,to make an imm$iate exp]im5t ( ! fidelity ( my guides 0 a d\btful attempt4 ,if1 = want ( "t & ! opportunity ( a tranquil he>+1 ,i misc>ri$ ) !m1 ! trial w\ld be conv]t$ into evid5ce aga9/ me4 ,if ,i succe$$1 ,i _h !n to escape out ( ,spa91 9 ! c5tre ( :i* ,i n[ 01 f ! ho/ility ( a tribunal1 :i* 0 said to surpass all ! tribunals on ! face ( ! e>? 9 activity & vigilance4 ,i knew ( no?+ t ! fa!rs ( ! inquisition c\ld h aga9/ me4 ,i _h liv$ 9 ! mo/ entire seclusion2 & ,i c\ld defy any "o to report a s+le action ( m9e1 s9ce ,i _h ent]$ ,spa91 to my prejudice4 ,i _h be5 :olly occupi$ ) melan*oly reflections on ! pa/1 & solit>y inv5tions & devices :i* ,i purpos$ to br+ =w>d = ! future4 ,i det]m9$ n to live = ev] ! slave ( fe>4 ,i believ$ t ! be/ me?od = defeat+ a dang]1 9 _m cases1 0 undaunt$ly to enc\nt] x2 & ,i did n imag9e t ,i c\ld h a m fav\rable opportunity = t purpose ?an ! pres5t4 ,i _h he>d mu* inde$ ( ! t]rors ( ! inquisition2 b a g5]\s & lib]al _s l5ds no v att5tive e> to horrors1 ! trite & vulg> rum\r ( :i* only has rea*$ him4 ,i disda9$ to be bl[n d[n ) a brea?4 ,i believ$ t ! inquisition itself w\ld n v5ture to proce$ crim9ally aga9/ a man aga9/ :om no?+ crim9al _h be5 alleg$4 ,9 e ev5t1 ,i believ$ x w\ld nev] be too late to h rec\rse to my peculi> pr]ogatives4 ,^u ent]+ ! prison ( ! inquisition ,i 0 fir/ conduct$ to a solit>y cell4 ,x is n my int5tion to treat ( ^? p>ticul>s ( ! holy (fice :i* are already to be f\nd 9 innum]able publications4 ,i h no pleasure 9 reviv+ ! images ( ?is soj\rn ( horrors4 ,i "k x is unreasonable to despise a man = ! mis]ies & wret*$ness he has endur$2 b ,i "k t su* is ! human he>t1 & ,i w n expose myself to be sc(f$ at & trampl$ ^u = my mis=tunes4 ,i f\nd myself "u ! necessity1 :ile 9 ! inquisition1 ( submitt+ to t mo/ pr(ligate ( all impositions1 an oa? ( secrecy z to :at ,i _h se51 & :at ,i _h suff]$2 &1 :atev] may be ! /rict morality ( su* an obligation1 ,i w n ambiti\sly ?ru/ myself =w>d 9 violation ( x4 ,i w re/rict ! /ory ,i h to relate to ! peculi>ities t *>act]is$ my case1 & ent] z little z possible into ! g5]al policy ( ?is fronti] intr5*m5t ( ! ,*ri/ian fai?4 ,:5 ,i 0 br\ght up to be int]rogat$1 ,i 0 assail$ ) innum]able que/ions1 ! obvi\s purport ( :i* 01 z mu* z possible1 to extort f me evid5ce ( e k9d t might be injuri\s to my cause4 ,! object ( ! inquisition is to def5d our holy "m1 ! *ur*1 f :atev] might defile h] sanctity & :it5ess4 ,e ?+ t calls into "q ! tru? ( h] doctr9es1 t pollutes & turns f _! orig9al purpose any ( h] ord9ances1 or t implies comm]ce & league ) ! invisible enemy ( sa9ts1 x is its peculi> prov9ce to inve/igate4 ,! fa!rs are !re=e p>ticul>ly cauti\s t !y may n1 by conf9+ _! que/ions too mu* to a s+le object1 preclude !mselves f ! *ance ( discov]+ dang] "u all ! =ms x may assume4 ,x is presum$ t he :o is a corrupt memb] ( ! *ur* ( ,*ri/ 9 "o po9t is uns\nd & unfai?ful 9 o!rs4 ,! inquisitor :o exam9$ me1 fir/ dem&$1 :e!r ,i 7 in=m$ = :at cause ,i 0 br\ght be=e t tribunal8 ,:e!r ,i did n f9d myself able to conjecture ! nature ( my (f5ce8 ,:e!r ,i did n "k ! sort ( crimes = :i* m5 7 deta9$ 9 t prison8 ,he !n desir$ me to recollect myself1 & consid]1 :e!r ,i 7 n consci\s ( (f5ce aga9/ ! holy ,ca?olic *ur*8 ,:e!r ,i _h nev] ass]t$ or ma9ta9$ any doctr9es contr>y to :at "m *ur* ass]ts & ma9ta9s8 ,:e!r ,i _h nev]1 to my k1 defil$ any ( ! ord9ances ( ,god1 or appli$ ?+s sacr$ to unholy & pr(ane purposes8 ,:e!r ,i _h nev] invocat$ ! devil8 ,:e!r ,i _h nev] held any comm]ce1 or ent]$ into any league1 ) ! enemy ( sa9ts8 ,:e!r ,i _h nev] p]=m$1 or s\ght to p]=m1 pret]natural & miracul\s acts by unholy means8 ,:e!r ,i _h nev] vex$1 or s\ght to vex1 ^? aga9/ :om ,i _h enmity1 by secret & =bidd5 arts8 ,:e!r ,i _h nev] resid$ 9 c\ntries ! inhabitants ( :i* 7 h]etics1 & :e!r ,i _h nev] li/5$ to _! disc\rses & argum5ts8 ,:e!r1 :5 ,i inhabit$ su* c\ntries1 ,i _h nev] assi/$ at ! celebration ( div9e ord9ances p]=m$ by h]etics1 or 9 a =m :i* holy *ur* disapproves or condemns8 ,f9d+ t he c\ld ga9 no?+ ^u me by ^! g5]al int]rogatories1 ! inquisitor next desc5d$ to p>ticul>s4 ,he enquir$ conc]n+ ! incid5ts ( my ,pisan /ory1 :i*1 hav+ fir/ assur$ myself f ! tra9 ( 8 que/ions t "s repres5tation ( t un=tunate affair _h rea*$ 8 e>1 ,i will+ly relat$1 to ! same ext5t t ,i _h previ\sly done to ! m>*ese ,filosanto4 ,he !n proce$$ to a great numb] ( que/ions1 ! s\rce ( :i* is to be trac$ to ! commonly receiv$ notions respect+ sorc]]s & necromanc]s4 ,!y 7 s artfully contriv$1 & s l>ge 9 _! scope1 t x 0 n easy to guess :e!r !y relat$ to any p>ticul> accusation alleg$ aga9/ me1 or 7 =m$ entirely on g5]al pr9ciples4 ,yet "s ( !m 7 s m9ute1 s connect$1 & arrang$ s p]fectly 9 s]ies1 t ,i c\ld n b believe !y 7 an e*o ( ! calumnies inv5t$ aga9/ me at ,pisa1 ( :i*1 h[ev]1 z ,i _h nev] collect$ any regul> & detail$ acc\nt1 ,i c\ld n accurately trace ! influ5ce on ! pres5t occasion4 ,! inquisitor dem&$ ( me1 ,:e!r ,i _h nev] se5 or held conv]sation ) any sup]natural be+1 or ! _s ( a man dep>t$8 ,:e!r ,i _h nev] practis$ diabolical arts to raise ! dead8 ,:e!r ,i _h nev] _h a famili> 9 ! =m ( "s insect1 dome/ic animal1 or reptile8 ,he 0 p>ticul>ly subtle & copi\s 9 8 que/ions respect+ ! hi/ory ( my un=tunate dog1 endeav\r+ to surprise me 9 "s slip or contradiction 9 :at ,i affirm$ on ! subject4 ,he ask$1 ,:e!r ,i _h nev] assum$ a =m diff]5t f my real "o1 ei!r a diff]5t age & appe>ance1 or a diff]5t species ( animal8 ,:e!r ,i _h nev]1 by ! ag5cy ( my demon1 inflict$ sickness1 convulsion-fits1 or dea?8 ,:e!r ,i _h nev] caus$ ! mortality ( cattle8 ,:e!r ,i _h n ! p[] ( be+ 9 two places at once8 ,:e!r ,i _h nev] be5 se5 rid+ ?r\gh ! air8 ,:e!r ,i _h nev] be5 w\nd$ 9 my abs5ce1 by a bl[ aim$ at my a/ral _s or app>ition8 ,:e!r ,i _h nev] possess$ books ( conjuration or ! art magic8 ,:e!r x _h nev] happ5$ to me t an indiff]5t p]son1 indiscreetly p]us+ a spell or incantation 9 my possession1 _h be5 maim$ or kill$ by ! spirits he _h undesign$ly evok$8 ,a fur!r object p>ticul>ly pursu$ 9 my int]rogatory1 0 ! detection ( my prop]ty2 & ! que/ions con/ruct$ = ?is purpose 7 uncommonly artful & multipli$4 ,! inquisitor told me t ! holy (fice 01 by ! nature ( its in/itution1 ! gu>dian & adm9i/rator ( e p]son t fell "u its animadv]sion4 ,%ut up1 he said1 z ,i mu/ be1 dur+ ! p5d5cy ( my cause1 & sep>at$ f ! re/ ( mank9d1 ,i 0 :olly incapable ( sup]9t5d+ my worldly affairs1 :i*1 unless !y 7 prop]ly look$ into1 might 9 ! int]val be mat]ially injur$4 ,i ought !re=e implicitly & )\t res]ve to ref] myself 9 ?is po9t to ! c>e ( ! fa!rs4 ,if my innoc5ce 7 e/abli%$1 z he hop$1 & e>ne/ly pray$ to ! "m ( ,god1 & ! sa9ts ( ,jesus1 might ultimately happ51 ,i %\ld f9d ! holy (fice a fai?ful & qualifi$ /ew>d4 ,if1 on ! contr>y1 ,i %\ld be prov$ a h]etic & an ali5 to ! ,mo/ ,high1 ,i ought !n to rejoice 9 ! b5efic5t int]f]5ce ( ! fa!rs1 :o1 by d$icat+ my weal? to consecrat$ purposes1 w\ld mitigate 9 ! eye ( ! j ,judge ( heav5 & e>? ! duration or fi]c5ess ( my puni%m5ts 9 a future _w4 ,! inquisitor _h app>5tly he>d v>i\s reports ( my ri*es1 & 0 inexpressibly *agr9$ t he %\ld be f\nd s unskilful a memb] ( 8 pr(ession1 z n to be able to extort f me a full confession on t head4 ,aft] hav+ employ$ e artifice ( m5ace & t]ror1 aft] hav+ endeav\r$ to soo! & cajole me by bl&i%m5ts & p]suasion1 & f9d+ all 8 exp$i5ts fruitless1 he p\r$ ^u me ! full /orm ( 8 indignation4 ,he said1 x 0 app>5t t ,i 0 deal+ dis+5u\sly & fraudul5tly ) ! delegat$ gu>dians ( religion2 x 0 impossible t ! exp5diture ,i 0 well kn[n m or less to h incurr$ c\ld be support$ )\t consid]able funds2 & my evid5t duplicity & concealm5t 9 ?is po9t mu/ be reg>d$ z a full confirmation ( e crime my accus]s _h alleg$ aga9/ me4 ,9 ! c\rse ( my exam9ations1 ! inquisitor :o que/ion$ me gave himself ! tr\ble ( ent]+ into a full v9dication ( ! tribunal ( :i* he 0 a memb]4 ,he said1 t e ?+ t 0 valuable to mank9d1 n only 9 a future /ate1 b also 9 ! pres5t1 dep5d$ ^u pres]v+ 9 full vig\r & /r5g? ! sacr$ in/itutions ( ! ,*ri/ian fai?2 & t ^? :o 7 end[$ ) p[]s suffici5t = t purpose w\ld be 9 ! highe/ degree inexcusable 9 ! sight ( ,god1 if !y did n vigilantly & inflexibly ma9ta9 ! ex]tion ( ^? p[]s4 ,x 0 an egregi\s mi/ake ( self-will$ & op9ionat$ m51 to suppose t ! ma9t5ance ( our holy religion 0 suffici5tly provid$ = by ! cle>ness ( its evid5ce4 ,x 0 no less dang]\s1 to pret5d t ! /ability & duration ( ! *ur* ( ,*ri/ might be confid$ to ! provid5ce ( ,god4 ,provid5ce acts by human means2 & x 0 presumptu\s = ^? :o neglect$ ! means to tru/ t !y %\ld nev]!less see ! end adequately secur$4 ,:y _h ,provid5ce ?\ght prop] to g5]ate an alliance betwe5 *ur* & /ate1 & to place ! p[]s & au?ority ( human society 9 ! h&s ( ! adh]5ts ( ! ,*ri/ian fai?8 ,magi/rates & gov]nm5ts 7 ?us made ! vic>s ( ,heav51 & great w\ld be _! condemnation if !y neglect$ ! tru/ repos$ 9 !m4 ,! great adv]s>y ( mank9d 0 incessantly wat*ful = ! de/ruction ( s\ls2 &1 :ile he spread abroad 8 delusions1 x 0 folly to imag9e t evid5ce alone 0 p[]ful en\gh to c\nt]act !m4 ,:at judges 7 ! great mass ( mank9d ( ! integrity & validity ( evid5ce8 ,! je/ ( ! scorn] 0 ev] at h& to turn into ridicule ! mo/ sacr$ my/]ies4 ,! oppos]s ( our holy fai? 7 indefatigable 9 _! indu/ry1 & z anxi\s 9 _! ex]tions to deprive _! fell[-m5 ( e com=t & hope1 z if infidelity1 :i* 0 ! curse ( ! human species1 7 ! greate/ bless+ t c\ld be conf]r$ on !m4 ,! devil 0 a h>d task-ma/]1 & grant$ no vacation1 night or day1 to ^? :o enli/$ !mselves 9 ! support ( 8 cause4 ,x might answ] well en\gh ! purpose ( ! va9-glori\s !ori/1 to suppose t man 0 a rational animal2 b !y :o _h reg>d$ human society ) an obs]v+ eye knew t x 0 o!rwise4 ,delusion w\ld ev] be too h>d = evid5ce1 & ! grosse/ falsehoods prove victori\s ov] ! mo/ sacr$ tru?s1 if :at 0 illib]ally & malici\sly /yl$ p]secution 7 n br\ght 9 aid ( ! cause ( religion4 ,! passions ( mank9d 7 on ! side ( falsehood2 man1 unre/ra9$ by law1 0 a wild1 f]oci\s1 & mo/ p]nici\s bea/1 &1 7 x n = ! :olesome curb ( au?ority1 w\ld spe$ily ?r[ (f all ties & limitations1 human & div9e4 ,no?+ c\ld m cle>ly prove1 t ! h]etical foll[]s ( ,lu!r & ,calv91 :o _h lately sprung up = ! plague ( mank9d1 :atev] !y might pret5d1 7 9 reality ! det]m9$ enemies ( all revelation1 ?an _! cont9ual dem&1 t ! cause %\ld be tri$ by discussion1 & t e man %\ld be def5d$ 9 ! ex]cise ( 8 private judgm5t4 ,!y c\ld n b "k1--e man n totally robb$ ( all p[] ( disc]nm5t mu/ "k1--t1 if ?is dem& 7 once grant$1 x w\ld prove a bl[ at ! root ( e s5tim5t ( religion4 ,! inquisition !re=e 0 ! mo/ salut>y in/itution t _h ev] be5 devis$2 & ! future welf>e ( mank9d :olly dep5d$ ^u ! ma9t5ance ( its p[]s & its maxims4 ,by a mod]ate & judici\s exhibition ( t]ror1 x sup]s$$ ! necessity ( innum]able puni%m5ts4 ,! inquisition 0 n caprici\s & unc]ta9 9 its policy2 x act$ "u ! direction ( immutable laws2 x held a t5d]1 b a firm re9 ^u ! extravagances & madness ( mank9d4 ,no?+ 0 m notori\s1 ?an t a regul> & sy/ematical proce$+ 0 bo? m effectual & m g5]\s ?an "o t 0 fickle4 ,he defi$ ! :ole hi/ory ( ! _w to produce an example ( s m]ciful a tribunal4 ,! great end ( its policy 0 ! reclaim+ ( s9n]s & ! multiplication ( p5it5ts1 :o1 aft] a g5tle & salut>y discipl9e1 7 aga9 by holy *ur* receiv$ into h] bosom2 & ev5 :5 !y deliv]$ ! f9ally imp5it5t to ! flames1 x 0 to ! flames ( a purify+ fire1 :i* by de/roy+ ! fle% r$eem$ or dim9i%$ ! puni%m5ts ( a future _w4 ,he knew t an outcry _h be5 artfully rais$ aga9/ ! proce$+s ( ! holy (fice4 ,b x 0 easy to see t its enemies1 "u ! pret5ce ( compassion = its victims1 conceal$ an invet]ate animosity aga9/ prop]ty1 religion1 & civil society4 ,! anabapti/s _h ?r[n (f ! mask1 & discov]$ _! true designs2 & ! re/ 7 only m plausible & speci\s1 9 proportion z !y 7 m timid4 ,! pres5t 0 ! mo/ important crisis t ev] occurr$ 9 ! hi/ory ( ! _w4 ,!re 0 a _s at "w1 t aim$ at dissolv+ all ! bonds ( civil society1 & conv]t+ mank9d into bea/s & savages4 ,:o _h n he>d ( ! levell]s1 mill5>ians1 & fif?-mon>*y-m51 :o1 "u ! speci\s guise ( dis9t]e/$ness & an univ]sal love ( mank9d1 _h no?+ 9 view b ! mo/ sacrilegi\s & unpr9cipl$ depr$ations8 ,x 0 true t ! prea*]s ( ^! doctr9es 7 utt]ly contemptible bo? = numb]s & tal5t3 b x w\ld be f\nd a %ort-sight$ policy1 to ov]look ^! desp]ate assailants on acc\nt ( ! poorness & meanness ( _! qualifications4 ,= 8 own "p he did n hesitate to say1 t human society w\ld owe its pres]vation1 if x 7 pres]v$1 to ! m]ciful yet vigor\s proce$+s ( ! c\rt ( inquisition4 ,! misrepres5tations t 7 invidi\sly made ( ! pres5t firm & vigilant sy/em ( policy w\ld be he>d = a day1 & !n univ]sally ab&on$4 ,po/]ity1 he 0 well assur$1 w\ld d full ju/ice to ! sagacity & s\ndness ( ! conduct ( ?is calumniat$ & mu* injur$ in/itution4 ,! read] w =give me if ! panegyric ?us elaborately pron\nc$ by ! inquisitor :o exam9$ me1 ^u ! c\rt ( :i* he 0 a memb]1 _h n all ! weight ) my m9d at ! mom5t ,i he>d x :i* he w probably ascribe to x 9 ! calmness ( ! closet4 ,x is s difficult to be imp>tial 9 our own cause6 ,! c&id m9d w no d\bt make a l>ge all[ance = ! unhappy situation 9 :i* ,i n[ /ood1 & ! bitt] & gall+ ?\ghts t prey$ ^u my memory4 ,b1 if ,i am *>geable ) tempor>y inju/ice 9 ! judgm5t ,i !n pass$ on ! argum5ts ( ! inquisitor1 ,i flatt] myself t ,i h be5 able1 aft] ! int]val t has elaps$1 to give a true & adequate /atem5t ( !m4 ,beside ^! reason+s on ! necessity ( a :olesome re/ra9t on ! privileges ( speak+ & writ+1 ! fa!r 9 ano!r ( my exam9ations condesc5d$ to del9eate to me ! my/]ies ( ! _w ( spirits4 ,he rem9d$ me t 9 ! fir/ gr& rebellion ^u record1 t ( ! fall5 angels1 ( :i* he consid]$ ! pres5t defection "u ,lu!r & ,calv9 z 9 "s measure a c\nt]p>t1 a ?ird ( ! ho/ ( heav5 _h be5 ?ru/ out ( ! cele/ial mansions4 ,^! accurs$ spirits _h s9ce be5 p]mitt$ to pursue _! ma*9ations on ! face ( our e>?4 8,! devil1 l a ro>+ lion1 goe? ab\t1 seek+ :om he may dev\r40 ,! oracles ( ! hea!ns1 ! temptations ( ,job & ( our ,savi\r1 & ! demoniacs ( sacr$ writ1 7 examples ( ! ext5sive p[] :i* ,heav5 _h ?\ght fit to all[ him4 ,m5 ( a sceptical & feeble und]/&+ _h be5 tempt$ to d\bt :e!r ?is 0 consi/5t ) ! wisdom & goodness ( ,god4 ,b1 ?\gh x 0 9 va9 = u to pret5d to fa?om ! dep? ( ! div9e my/]ies1 !re 7 c]ta9 reasons t 7 suffici5tly obvi\s to e +5u\s m9d4 ,!re 7 p]sons 9 all ages ( ! _w1 :o1 l ! ,sadducees 9 ! "t ( our bless$ ,savi\r1 7 incl9$ to affirm 8t !re 0 no resurrection1 nei!r angel1 nor _s20 & ,god p]mitt$ ! ly+ wond]s ( inf]nal ag5ts ! m completely to conf\nd ! unbelief ( 8 enemies4 ,he :o witness$ ! wond]ful op]ations ( wit*craft1 or saw ! gho/ ( a man dep>t$1 c\ld n d\bt ( ! int]f]5ce ( invisible ag5ts 9 ! conc]ns ( our ne!r _w2 &1 if !re 7 devils & app>itions1 x w\ld be to ! la/ degree unreasonable to d5y ! exi/5ce ( ,god1 or ! miracles ( ,*ri/4 ,^! 7 to be receiv$ z ! gr\nds ( ! div9e p]mission ( sorc]]s1 necromanc]s1 & wit*es4 ,b ! rules ( ! div9e conduct 7 n to con/itute ! rules ( ours4 ,he might p]mit ! ag5cy ( invisible malice1 because he saw ?+s ^u an unlimit$ scale1 8 judgm5ts 7 infallible1 & he c\ld say to ,beelzebub himself1 8,?us f> %alt ?\ g1 & no fur!r40 ,^? to ^: c>e 0 intru/$ ! welf>e ( mank9d "h or h]eaft] 7 b\nd z f> z possible to oppose !mselves to ! empire ( ,satan4 ,8 p[] 0 giv5 him only = a "t1 &1 if n /rictly re/ra9$ ( ,god & ! p[]s orda9$ ( ,god1 x w\ld ov]-run e ?+1 & replunge all ?is beautiful sc5e ( creation 9 its orig9al *aos4 ,!re 0 an endless & et]nal w> betwe5 ,god & ! devil1 & ! gov]nors ( ! *ur* 7 ,heav5's field-(fic]s & pione]s = c>ry+ x on4 ,( all ! crimes1 he add$1 to :i* ! depravity ( human nature _h giv5 bir?1 ! mo/ a/oni%+ & ! mo/ horrible 0 t ( diabolical comm]ce4 ,t human creatures %\ld be s f> infatuat$1 z to ent] into league ) ! decl>$ enemy ( s\ls1 & = ! possession ( a %ort-liv$ & prec>i\s p[] to sign away _! spirits to et]nal damnation1 0 s extraord9>y z to h be5 :olly unwor?y ( cr$it1 7 x n support$ by evid5ce z /rong & irresi/ible z t ( ! miracles ( ,jesus ,*ri/ himself4 ,! p]sons :o ?us volunt>ily made !mselves accurs$ be=e ,god des]v$ to be reg>d$ ) ali5ation & horror by ! :ole human race4 ,e man t saw !m 0 b\nd by 8 baptismal engagem5ts to de/roy !m2 & :oev] adm9i/]$ to !m ! smalle/ portion ( food1 dr9k1 or com=t1 !reby r5d]$ himself a p>ty to _! guilt4 ,! inquisition especially _h decl>$ aga9/ ?is race ( m5 et]nal w>1 & consid]$ _! crime z m complicat$1 audaci\s1 & pe/il5tial1 ?an any o!r bran* ( h]esy4 ,hav+1 = 8 own "p1 no d\bt t ,i 0 "o ( ^! noxi\s & enorm\s reprobates1 he exhort$ me to make a volunt>y confession ( my evil de$s1 &1 by submitt+ readily to ! tortures & puni%m5ts ( ?is _w1 endeav\r to free myself1 if x 7 yet possible1 f ^? ( ! _w to come4 ,^! disc\rses ( ! inquisitor 7 v>i\sly int]sp]s$ ?r\gh ! ?ree exam9ations to :i* ,i 0 subject$ a %ort "t aft] ,i became an inhabitant ( ! holy h\se4 ,on my "p ,i endeav\r$ to ! be/ ( my p[] to repel ! imputations ca/ ^u me1 to e/abli% my innoc5ce1 & to conf\nd ! sev]ity ( my oppressors4 ,i told ! inquisitor1 :atev] might be ! =ce ( 8 argum5ts respect+ h]esy & deal+s ) ! devil1 !y 7 no?+ to me4 ,i 0 no ,lu!ran1 no anabapti/1 no necromanc]1 no und]m9] ( ! fai? ( o!rs1 or ally ( ! pr9ce ( ! inf]nal regions4 ,i pr\dly & e>ne/ly dem&$ to be confront$ ) my accus]s4 ,i ask$ my exam9] 9 8 turn1 ,:at sort ( ju/ice t 01 :i* pret5d$ to proce$ capitally aga9/ its prison]s ^u secret & unav[$ accusations8 ,he endeav\r$ to /op me4 ,he told me t ,i 0 n br\ght !re to arraign ! me?ods & practices ( _! c\rt2 t x did n become a prison] put ^u 8 def5ce to insult 8 judges2 t ?is contumacy c\ld n be reg>d$ b z an aggravation ( my guilt2 & t ,i 0 b\nd /rictly & simply to answ] ! int]rogatories t 7 propos$ to me4 ,! rebuke ( ! inquisitor 0 unavail+4 ,my _s 0 wr\ght to too high a pit* to be ?us re/ra9$2 ,i 0 too firmly resolv$ to give ! utmo/ =ce ( m9d & tru? to ! topics ( my j def5ce4 ,x is ! practice ( ! inquisition = ! prison] to sit dur+ 8 exam9ation4 ,i />t$ ^u my feet4 8,! mode ( y\r proce$+10 cri$ ,i1 8is ! mock]y ( a trial4 ,f y\r fatal b> no man c g =? acquitt$4 ,h[ is a /ory to be refut$1 :5 h>dly & ) difficulty y suff] y\r prison] to collect ! slighte/ fragm5ts ( x8 ,if ,i w\ld detect a calumny1 is x n requisite t ,i %\ld be acqua9t$ ) its hi/ory1 & "k its au?ors & propagators8 ,!n ,i may p]haps be able to conf\nd _! =g]ies1 to %[ ! gr\ndlessness ( _! allegations1 to expose ! bas5ess ( _! purposes & ! pr(ligacy ( _! *>act]s4 ,i am in=m$ ( no?+2 yet ,i am bid1 fir/ to be my own accus]1 & !n to answ] ! accusations ( o!rs4 ,x is only by foll[+ a falsehood ?r\gh all its d\bl+s t x c be effectually de/roy$4 ,y bid me unravel a web1 & w n suff] me to t\* x ) "o ( my f+]s4 ,! def5ce ( ! pure/ innoc5ce is (t5 difficult1 sometimes impossible1 aga9/ ! artfulness ( a malici\s tale1 or ! =tuit\s concurr5ce ( unfav\rable appe>ances4 ,b y /rip innoc5ce ( ^? consecrat$ weapons by :i* only x c be def5d$4 ,give to an accusation ! p>ticul>s ) :i* :at really happ5s mu/ always be att5d$1 give to x ! circum/ances ( place & ( "t1 lay aside ! ambiguity & g5]alities 9 :i* y %elt] y\rselves1 & !n1 p]haps !n only1 x c be victori\sly repell$4 ,y ask me a ?\s& v>i\s & artfully con/ruct$ que/ions4 ,:at sort ( a man d y imag9e me to be8 ,i am n a fool1 t ,i %\ld be inveigl$2 ,i am n a boy1 t ,i %\ld be m5ac$ into confessions4 ,cease y\r base & unpr9cipl$ arts6 ,i w furni% no mat]ials aga9/ myself4 ,if y "k any?+ aga9/ me1 av[ x6 ,propose x1 & ,i w answ]4 ,?9k n to pat* up a mis]able accusation out ( ! words :i* inadv]t5ce or we>9ess may cause me to utt]4 ,%ame on y\r in/itution6 ,may infamy ov]take ! sy/em ( y\r proce$+s6 ,t religion :i* is support$ by su* means is vil] ?an a!ism4 ,t civilisation :i* has its basis 9 despotism1 is m wor?less & hateful ?an ! /ate ( savages runn+ wild 9 _! woods4 8,d y n p]ceive t ! language ,i am n[ hold+ to y is ! exclusive privilege ( consci\s innoc5ce8 ,! indignation ,i express is no artificial rage1 /udi\sly contriv$ to ov]be> accusation4 ,y h x1 z x fl[s spontane\sly to my tongue1 w>m f ! prompt+s ( an hone/ he>t4 ,if ,i c\ld h consult$ a fri5d1 x is probable he w\ld h dissuad$ me f my pres5t demean\r z impolitic4 ,if ,i 7 gov]n$ by ! dictates ( an ord9>y prud5ce1 ,i %\ld h display$ less ard\r1 less res5tm5t4 ,b ,i am will+ to try :e!r %ame _c yet be light$ up ev5 9 ! *eek ( an inquisitor40 ,! fa!r :o exam9$ me1 hav+ 9 va9 endeav\r$ to *eck ! curr5t ( my invective1 *ang$ 8 mann]1 & assum$ a tone diametrically ! rev]se ( m9e4 ,he pr(ess$ t he felt mu* compassion & int]e/ = my mis=tune1 & %\ld deem himself happy if he c\ld be ! in/rum5t ( my deliv]ance4 ,! language ,i _h utt]$ 0 highly indecor\s1 & su* z seem$ 9 itself to call = a rigor\s p5ance4 ,b he %\ld n ?9k himself wor?y ! "n ( a man1 if he did n make suitable all[ance = ! bitt] & extravagant s5tim5ts1 t w\ld occasionally f9d _! way into ! m9d ( "o 9 my un=tunate situation4 ,s circum/anc$1 m5 w\ld (t5 mi/ake _! fri5ds = _! enemies4 ,i reg>d$ ! inquisition z my enemy3 x 0 9 reality my firm & dis9t]e/$ fri5d2 zeal\sly wat*ful = my body1 my s\l1 & my e/ate4 ,o!r c\rts _h o!r maxims ( proce$+1 because _! motives ( action 7 diff]5t2 & x 0 b j t !y %\ld furni% _! prison]s ) a def5ce aga9/ _! frailty4 ,b ! brea/ ( an inquisitor 0 accessible to no s5tim5t b t ( love2 a burn+ love ( ,god2 love ( ! *ur*2 love ( ! prison]1 :o might be wrongfully accus$2 love ( ! p5it5t1 :om he reconcil$ to our common "m1 ! *ur*2 love ev5 ( ! incorrigible h]etic ^: body he burn$ = ! good ( 8 s\l4 ,! inquisitor did n discov] to ! prison] ! evid5ce adduc$ aga9/ him2 t 0 betwe5 ,god & ! inquisitor's consci5ce4 ,b ! suppression :i* 0 ?us practis$ r5d]$ him d\bly scrupul\s & sceptical z to ! evid5ce he receiv$2 he sift$ x ) a sev]ity t ! prison] w\ld 9 va9 endeav\r to imitate2 & ! rules ( evid5ce 9 t c\rt 7 s gu>d$1 punctili\s1 & m9ute1 z to r5d] any mi/ake 9 its proce$+s altoge!r impossible4 ,= a man to be once a prison] ( ! c\rt ( inquisition1 by a salut>y prejudice :i* prevail$ ?r\gh ! ca?olic _w1 r5d]$ him = ev] infam\s4 ,?is 0 ano!r cause ( ! extreme w>9ess & caution1 ) :i* t c\rt 0 accu/om$ to proce$4 ,!y fir/ li/5$ to ! accus]1 :o 0 oblig$ to give 9 8 in=mation on oa?4 ,!y !n in/itut$ a secret enquiry aga9/ ! p>ty accus$2 &1 till !y _h collect$ abundant gr\nd = _! proce$+1 !y did n v5ture to t\* a hair ( 8 head4 ,!y elaborately class$ all ! diff]5t degrees ( evid5ce into half pro(1 full pro(1 pro( less ?an half1 & pro( less ?an full4 ,:5 ^! ?+s 7 duly consid]$1 x w\ld appe> c]ta9 t no c\rt t _h at any "t exi/$ on e>?1 _h ev] be5 s t5d] 9 its proce$+s1 s pure 9 its incitem5ts1 & s e way sup]ior to ! attacks ( calumny & malice1 z ! c\rt ( inquisition4 ,) respect to myself 9 p>ticul>1 he said1 !y _h n appreh5d$ me & put me ^u my def5ce1 )\t previ\sly assembl+ a l>ge body ( miscellane\s & circum/antial evid5ce4 ,! evid5ce !y _h drawn f myself 0 negative only1 b x 0 /rong3 ! obscurity t hung ab\t my p]son1 :o ,i 01 & :5ce ,i came2 & ! obscurity t hung ab\t my =tune1 a great visible exp5diture 9 ,spa9 or 9 ,italy1 & no visible means4 ,^! 7 n ! signatures & tok5s ( innoc5ce4 ,!y t5d$ /rongly to confirm ! accusation "u :i* ,i lab\r$4 ,yet s t5d] 0 ! inquisition 9 its proce$+1 & s *>y ( its reputation1 t ^u ^! accumulat$ pro(s & presumptions1 !y 7 n prep>$ to pron\nce aga9/ me4 ,!y w\ld he> me aga9 & aga94 ,!y w\ld give me "t to recollect myself1 & = ?is purpose !y w\ld ord] = me a co>se & scanty f>e1 & a solit>y cell4 ,i might dep5d ^u x my contumacy %\ld be ov]come4 ,! fundam5tal pr9ciple ( _! proce$+s 0 borr[$ f t humane & compassionate maxim ( ! old ,roman law1 ,de vita hom9is nulla cunctatio e/ longa2 & ,i %\ld accord+ly f9d !m free f all precipitation & impati5ce1 & ready to indulge me ) a resid5ce1 h[ev] long1 9 _! prisons1 till my case _h be5 sift$ to ! bottom4 ,,*apt] ,,xxxi4 ,! indulg5ce ?us o/5tati\sly proclaim$ by ! fa!r-inquisitor 0 n exactly to my ta/e4 ,f9d+ t all ! en]gy ( m9d ,i c\ld apply to my def5ce 0 va91 ,i det]m9$ to h rec\rse to a diff]5t mode ( proce$+4 ,i receiv$ ?ree admonitions1 z !y call !m1 ! sub/ance ( :i* ,i h already recit$1 9 ! c\rse ( ! fir/ t5 days ( my conf9em5t1 & ,i !n = "s "t he>d ( ! inquisitor no m4 ,i und]/ood t x 0 frequ5tly ! practice1 aft] ?ree admonitions1 n to br+ up ! prison] = fur!r he>+ dur+ a :ole ye>2 & x appe>$ suffici5tly probable f ! la/ words address$ to me by my judge1 t ?is policy 0 int5d$ to be employ$ 9 my case4 ,)\t fur!r delay !re=e ,i resolv$ to recur to ! exp$i5t 9 ! use ( :i* my p[] 0 unb\nd$1 & by a brilliant (f] at once to subdue ! scruples1 & secure ! fidelity1 ( ! p]son or p]sons ^u :om my safe cu/ody might be f\nd to dep5d4 ,all t 0 necess>y 0 to conv9ce ! p>ty to :om ,i %\ld propose ! assi/+ me1 ( ! reality ( my p[]s2 & !n to put c>te blan*e into 8 h&s1 or r to asc]ta9 at once ! ext5t ( 8 hopes & dem&s1 & by a spirit$ & p]emptory conduct to yield !m all4 ,9 ! p]iod :i*1 imm$iately previ\s to my pres5t imprisonm5t1 ,i _h devot$ to ! m$itation ( my future plans & ! review ( my pa/1 ,i _h sev]ely accus$ myself ( half measures1 & _h det]m9$ to abjure all hesitation & irresolut5ess = ! "t to come4 ,x is n inde$ to be wond]$ at1 t1 possess+ a p[] s utt]ly remote f common ideas & conceptions1 & :i*1 speak+ f exp]i5ce1 ,i d n hesitate to affirm no m]e ef=t ( imag9ation is adequate to repres5t1 ,i %\ld h act$ bel[ ! pr]ogatives & dem&s ( my situation4 ,?is mi/ake ,i w\ld make no m4 ,i w\ld ov]:elm opposition by ! spl5d\r ( my proce$+s1 & conf\nd scruples by ! dignity & pr9cely magnific5ce ( my appe>ance4 ,un%ackl$ z ,i 0 ) connections1 & risk+ no "o's happ9ess b my own1 ,i propos$ to compel ! human species to view me f an awful di/ance1 & to oblige e "o t approa*$ me to feel 8 inf]iority4 ,x w\ld be to ! la/ degree disgraceful & contemptible 9 me1 be+ rais$ s f> above my pe]s 9 my privileges1 if ,i 7 to fall bel[ ! ord9>y /&>d ( a gallant man 9 ! decision & firmness ( my sy/em ( conduct4 ,decision & firmness 7 ! pr9ciples to be ex]cis$ by me n[2 dignity & magnific5ce mu/ await _! turn h]eaft]4 ,x 0 n long be=e ,i embrac$ an opportunity ( speak+ to ! man :o wait$ on me ) my daily allotm5t ( provisions1 & ,i design$ z %ortly z possible to proce$ to t species ( argum5t1 9 :i* ,i pr9cipally confid$ to engage him 9 my cause4 ,b he did n suff] me to utt] a s5t5ce be=e ) a v expressive ge/ure he int]rupt$ me4 ,i _h rem>k$ already ! sil5ce :i* seem$ = ev] to p]vade ?is dismal abode2 b ,i _h n ascrib$ importance en\gh to ?is circum/ance1 to suppose t x c\ld mat]ially int]f]e ) ! project ,i _h =m$4 ,i n[ p]ceiv$ ! c\nt5ance ( my att5dant to be ov]spread ) t]ror & al>m4 ,he put 8 h& ^u my m\?1 & by 8 attitude seem$ e>ne/ly to insi/ ^u my con=m+ to ! rules ( ! prison4 ,i 0 n h[ev] to be ?us div]t$ f my purpose4 ,i seiz$ 8 h&s1 & began aga9 to pursue ! disc\rse ,i _h m$itat$4 ,?is proce$+ on my "p induc$ him to break ! sil5ce he _h hi!rto pres]v$4 ,he told me t if ,i did n in/antly set him at lib]ty1 he w\ld al>m ! prison4 ,i loos$ 8 h&s4 ,i !n by e ge/ure ,i c\ld devise endeav\r$ to prevail on him to approa* me1 to suff] me to conf] ) him 9 ! l[e/ :isp]1 & assur$ him t he %\ld h no reason to rep5t 8 compliance4 ,i might z well h address$ myself to ! walls t inclos$ me4 ,he w\ld n /ay an in/ant2 he w\ld yield 9 no?+4 ,he bur/ f me abruptly1 &1 clos+ ! door ( my cell1 left me 9 solitude & d>kness4 ,9 ! ev5+ ( ! day ( ?is attempt ! keep] ( ! prison ent]$ my ap>tm5t4 ,:5 he appe>$1 ,i began to flatt] myself t 9 ?is man ,i %\ld f9d a bett] subject = my purpose ?an 9 ! poor turnkey :o _h giv5 me s unfav\rable a progno/ic ( my success4 ,i lo/ no "t 9 say+ to him t ,i _h some?+ important to communicate2 b he p]emptorily comm&$ me to be sil5t1 & li/5 to :at he 0 ab\t to say to me4 ,he told me t ,i _h already be5 compla9$ aga9/ = spee*1 & ,i 0 n[ repeat+ my (f5ce4 ,he advis$ me to pond] well ! consequ5ces ( :at ,i 0 do+4 ,! ord]s ( ! inquisition 7 rigor\s & inflexible4 ,! cells 7 n s sub/antially sep>at$ b t a voice might be he>d f "o to ! o!r2 yet x _h happ5$ m ?an once1 t a husb& & wife1 a fa!r & *ild1 _h = ye>s be5 lodg$ next to ea* o!r1 )\t ! smalle/ suspicion on ei!r "p ( ! proximity ( _! situation4 ,he 0 a/oni%$ at ! p]t9acity ( my behavi\r4 ,!re 0 no gov]nm5t on ! face ( ! e>?1 he w\ld v5ture to say1 t _h subjects m ob$i5t1 m dutiful & exempl>y ?an ! holy inquisition4 ,n a murmur 0 ev] he>d2 n a discont5t ev] express$4 ,all 0 humbl5ess1 ?ankfulness1 & gratitude4 ,he recomm5d$ to me to con=m myself to my situation1 & let him he> no fur!r compla9ts ( me4 ,he _h no soon] f9i%$ 8 h>angue1 ?an he left me z abruptly z 8 s]vant _h done4 ,x is n possible to imp>t any adequate image ( ! inflexibility ( 8 features1 or ! /]n composure ( 8 demean\r4 ,i n[ saw my situation 9 a diff]5t po9t ( view4 ,brib]y 0 ( no use1 :]e all int]c\rse 0 d5i$4 ,great ,god6 into :at position 0 ,i got8 ,9 ! mid/ ( a great & popul\s city1 at ?is "t p]haps ! metropolis ( ! _w1 ,i he>d occasionally f beyond ! limits ( my prison ! hum ( busy ?rongs1 or ! %\ts ( a tumultu\s populace4 ,yet ,i 0 myself 9 ! deepe/ solitude4 ,l ! wret*$ m>9]s ,i h some:]e read (1 %ipwreck$ ^u a des]t %ore1 ,i might rema9 encag$1 till ,i lo/ all recollection ( ,european language1 & all acqua9tance ) ! s\nd ( my own voice4 ,a jailor f "t to "t ent]$ my ap>tm5t2 b to me he 0 simply a mov+ & brea?+ /atue1 8 features nev] m\ld$ into ! expression ( a mean+1 nor 8 m\? op5$ = ! utt]ance ( a s\nd4 ,f ! fir/ ,i _h be5 /ruck ) ! extreme & dea?-l sil5ce t *>act]is$ ! place ( my conf9em5t2 b my m9d 0 occupi$ ) o!r ?\ghts1 & ,i _h n adv]t$ to ! cause ( ! ph5om5on4 ,i _h !n felt little incl9ation to ! conv]se ( a jailor2 my natural disposition 0 some:at s+ul> = a ,fr5*man1 & incl9$ to taciturnity3 ,i _h resolv$ to make a fair & ample trial ( ! p[] ( a j def5ce1 :]e my innoc5ce 0 s complete & ,i 0 entirely dis5gag$ f ^? unfav\rable appe>ances :i* _h con/itut$ my mis=tune at ,con/ance2 & ,i ev5 rejoic$1 t a sil5ce1 :i* ,i reg>d$ z casual & individual1 deliv]$ me f all fe> ( imp]t95ce 9 my att5dant4 ,) h[ diff]5t a temp] d we contemplate an incid5t :i*1 we p]suade ourselves1 cont9ues to op]ate only because we want incl9ation to remove x2 & an incid5t :i* is viol5tly impos$1 & to :i*1 ) ! utmo/ ex]tion ( our /r5g?1 we _c succe$ to imp>t ! slighte/ %ock6 ,! ext]nal object is ! same2 its picture 9 ! intellectual s5sorium h[ unlike6 ,:at a pr(\nd & inconceivable ref9em5t 9 ! art ( tyranny is ?is sil5ce6 ,! jailor might well tell me1 t b5ea? 8 ro(s !re 0 nei!r compla9t nor murmur1 t ! v s\l ( its inhabitants 0 subdu$1 & t !y suff]$ ! mo/ unhe>d ( oppressions )\t a/oni%m5t or indignation4 ,?is is ! peculi> pr]ogative ( despotism3 x produces _m symptoms ( ! same g5]al appe>ance z ^? :i* are d]iv$ f lib]ty & ju/ice4 ,!re are no remon/rances2 !re is no impati5ce or viol5ce2 !re is a calm1 a fatal & accurs$ tranquillity t p]vades ! :ole4 ,! spectator ent]s1 & = a "t mis9t]prets e object he sees2 he p]ceives human bodies /&+ or mov+ ar\nd him2 & x is ) ! utmo/ surprise1 if he has leisure & opportunity to obs]ve a little fur!r1 t he f9ds at la/ ! ?+s he sees to be ! m]e %ades ( m51 cold1 in]t1 gl>+ bodies1 :i* ! heav5-born s\l has long s9ce des]t$4 ,wond]ful1 ,i hesitate n to affirm1 is ! g5u9e & direct p[] ( su* a situation z t 9 :i* ,i 0 n[ plac$1 ^u ! human imag9ation4 ,:at 0 x !n to me1 to :om spee* 0 n m]ely "o ( ^? ?+s1 misnam$ indulg5ces1 misnam$ luxuries1 ^u :i* ! desirabl5ess & ! heal? ( human exi/5ce dep5d2 b :o _h look$ to x z ! only & ! assur$ means ( my rescue f ?is sc5e ( horrors6 ,i intreat ! read] to p>don me1 :5 ,i confess1 t ! op]ation ( ! discov]y ,i made 0 s ov]:elm+ & app>5tly desp]ate1 t x 0 "s weeks1 ,i might say mon?s1 be=e my m9d recov]$ its wont$ bias & activity4 ,x 0 t[>ds ! close ( ! p]iod ,i h nam$1 t a new incid5t1 concurr+ ) t famili>ity :i* s]ves 9 "s measure to dis>m e mis*ief ( its /+1 re/or$ & re-awak5$ my m9d4 ,i _h vegetat$ n[ = "s "t1 if ! metaphor c ) propriety be appli$ to exi/5ce 9 a noxi\s & empoison$ air1 by :i* all vegetation w\ld h be5 und]m9$1 & :i* ! vital pr9ciple 9 man is sc>cely compet5t to surm\nt2 & 9 all ?is p]iod _h enc\nt]$ no?+ f )\t1 nor receiv$ any intimation1 t c\ld 9 ! slighte/ degree int]rupt ! progressive de/ruction & wa/e ( ! s\l4 ,"o day1 at ! cu/om>y h\r ( my be+ att5d$ by my w>d]1 ,i 0 surpris$ to see him br+ ) him a visit] to my cell4 ,! unkn[n 0 a man ) grey hairs & a silv] be>d3 ?\gh once tall1 he n[ /oop$ consid]ably1 & support$ himself ) a /aff3 8 dress 0 simple & neat1 & 8 :ole appe>ance prepossess+4 ,a sweet s]5ity 0 diffus$ ov] 8 c\nt5ance2 yet !re 7 occasionally a fire1 & a contemplative grasp ( ?\ght1 express$ 9 8 eyes1 :i* suffici5tly prov$ to me t 8 s]5ity 0 n ! result ( vacancy4 ,all ?is ,i disc]n$ by ! fa9t & unc]ta9 light ( a small lamp :i* ! w>d] _h br\ght ) him1 & plac$ ^u my table4 ,! introduction 0 p]=m$ 9 sil5ce1 & ! w>d] left u alone4 ,! unkn[n beckon$ me to be seat$1 = ! fir/ emotion ( surprise at ! entrance ( a /rang] _h caus$ me to />t on my feet2 &1 op5+ a fold+ /ool he _h receiv$ f my att5dant1 he plac$ himself beside me4 ,he !n address$ me 9 a l[ voice1 & told me1 t ! humanity ( ! fa!rs ( ! inquisition _h giv5 him p]mission to visit me1 & t1 if ,i w\ld be s oblig+1 9 con=mity to ! regulations ( ! prison1 z to l[] my voice to ! /&>d ( 81 we 7 at lib]ty to conf] toge!r4 ,he hop$ ! conf]5ce w\ld be "s relief to my solitude1 if n lead to my complete lib]ation4 ,he !n unfold$ to me 8 /ory4 ,he told me t he1 l myself1 _h be5 committ$ to ! prisons ( ! inquisition ^u an accusation ( sorc]y4 ,hav+ advanc$ ?us f>1 he /opp$4 ,he talk$ miscellane\sly & digressively ( wiz>ds & _! famili>s1 ( possessions & demons1 ( *>ms1 spells1 talismans & incantations1 ev5 ( ! elixir vit & ! philosoph]'s /one4 ,sometimes 9 ! progress ( ?is disc\rse ,i c\ld p]ceive him obs]v+ me ) ! utmo/ n>r[ness1 z if he w\ld dive into my s\l2 & aga91 p>ticul>ly :5 he caught a glance ( suspicion 9 my eye1 ) inf9ite address *ang+ 8 attitude & tone1 & assum+ a surpris+ air ( +5u\sness & gaiety4 ,9 a ^w he 0 a consummate actor4 ,x 0 evid5t1 :e!r 8 designs 7 ho/ile or fri5dly1 t 8 purpose 0 to make himself ma/] ( my secret4 ,i ask$ him :e!r ! accusation ( sorc]y :i* _h be5 pref]r$ aga9/ him1 7 well f\nd$ or a calumny4 ,he evad$ t "q1 & 0 only influ5c$ by x to talk m copi\sly & flu5tly on o!r topics1 ) ! app>5t design ( mak+ me =get ! enquiry ,i _h made4 ,he avoid$ anticipation1 le/ he %\ld miscalculate & take wrong gr\nd 9 my affair2 &1 ?\gh sup]ficially he seem$ communicative1 ,i f\nd t he sc>cely told me respect+ himself any "o ?+ def9ite & cle>4 ,he celebrat$ ! clem5cy ( ! fa!rs ( ! inquisition4 ,he said1 !y seem$ to reg>d !mselves z ! adoptive p>5ts ( ^? !y held 9 _! cu/ody1 & 7 anxi\s solely = ! re/oration ( s\ls4 ,9 _! ext]ior !y 7 au/]e1 & _h un=tunately contract$ a =bidd+ mann]2 b he _h soon f\nd1 ^u a clos] inspection ( _! "*1 t ! only way to deal successfully ) !m 0 to repose 9 !m a p]fect confid5ce4 ,?is panegyric 0 n resort$ to till he _h exhau/$ ! v>i\s topics by :i* he _h hop$ himself to extort my secret f me4 ,i ask$ him1 :e!r ! effect ( 8 repos+ confid5ce _h be5 an abjuration ( sorc]y1 & reconciliation to ! *ur*8 ,b ?is "q exp]i5c$ ! fate ( e o!r t ,i address$ to him4 ,he only told me g5]ally1 t he _h e reason to be satisfi$ )1 & to speak well (1 ! treatm5t he _h exp]i5c$ 9 ! h\se ( ! inquisition4 ,he possess$1 or r1 z ,i believ$1 affect$1 a "* ( ?\ghtless g>rulity & loquacity1 well adapt$ to cov] ! /range deviations & abrupt transitions t m>k$ 8 disc\rse4 ,x 0 c]ta9ly s+ul>ly contra/$ ) t close & p5etrat+ air :i* f "t to "t ,i rem>k$ 9 him4 ,! read] may deem x surpris+ & unacc\ntable2 b c]ta9 x is ,i took uncommon delight 9 ?is man's company4 ,i press$ him e>ne/ly to repeat 8 visits1 & w\ld sc>cely suff] him to dep>t1 till he _h promis$ to come to me aga9 ! next day or ! day aft]4 ,yet ,i look$ on him z my mortal enemy1 & _h no d\bt t he 0 "o ( ! infam\s wret*es1 employ$ by ! policy ( ! inquisition1 & well kn[n b5ea? ^? hat$ ro(s by ! appellation ( moscas4 ,v>i\s reasons may be assign$ = my conduct 9 ?is p>ticul>4 ,let x fir/ be rememb]$ t ,i 0 alone1 & = mon?s _h n he>d ! s\nd ( my own voice4 ,no incid5t m>k$ my days2 no object arre/$ my att5tion4 ,a dull1 heavy1 pe/il5tial1 s\l-depress+ monotony =m$ ! hi/ory ( my life4 ,if 9 ?is situation ,i _h be5 visit$ by a m\se or a rat1 ,i %\ld indefatigably h s\ght to get )9 rea* ( x1 ,i %\ld h put x to my bosom1 & h felt ) exultation ! beat ( an animal pulse1 ! w>m? ( animal life press+ responsively on my he>t4 ,) :at eag] appetite ,i %\ld h mix$ 9 sc5es ( calamity & cruelty1 intol]able to any o!r eye1 glad = myself t ev5 ^u su* t]ms ,i c\ld escape ! fro/b\nd w9t] ( ! s\l6 ,h[ ,i %\ld h rejoic$1 l k+ ,ri*>d ( ,engl&1 to see f\r grim & dea?-deal+ assass9s ent] my cell1 l him to /ruggle & wre/le & cont5d ) my murd]]s1 ?\gh1 z 9 8 case1 w\nds & a fatal end %\ld be ! result6 ,?us feel+ !n1 x is little wond]ful t ,i %\ld h hail$ ) pleasure ! visit ( ! mosca4 ,b ?is 0 n all4 ,:ile ,i conf]r$ )1 or r li/5$ to my visit]1 t pride & self complac5cy1 :i* ,i suspect to be ! ma91 or at lea/ ! indisp5sable1 +r$i5t ( all our pleasures1 reviv$ 9 my he>t4 ,i believ$ t he 0 set ^u me by ^! insatiable bloodsuck]s ( ! inquisition1 t he might ensn>e me ) 8 que/ions1 & trea*]\sly inveigle me to ! faggot & ! /ake4 ,i felt a la/1 lamb5t intimation ( pride )9 me1 :5 my he>t :isp]$ me1 8,?is man %all n atta9 8 ends40 ,i secretly defi$ 8 arts1 & amus$ myself ) baffl+ 8 mo/ cunn+ devices4 ,i _h n[ "s "o ) :om to measure myself4 ,! comp>ison1 ,i own1 = a desc5dant ( ! c\nts ( ,/4 ,leon1 0 a humble "o2 b x is n p]mitt$ a prison] 9 ! jails ( ! inquisition to be fa/idi\s 9 8 pleasures4 ,?is man ,i play$ ) at my ease1 & laugh$ at 8 /ratagems4 ,i !re=e felt t ,i 0 8 sup]ior1 &1 :i* 0 a s5sation ,i _h n lately be5 accu/om$ to1 t ,i 0 somebody4 ,^! feel+s recomm5d$ to me 8 visits4 ,b :at 0 mu* m mat]ial1 ,i look$ fur!r1 & propos$ an ultimate end to ?is occurr5ce4 ,let x be recollect$ :at 0 my unhapp9ess1 :5 ,i f\nd myself1 if ,i may be all[$ ! expression1 sudd5ly depriv$ ( spee*1 & !n x w easily be und]/ood h[ s9c]ely ,i rejoic$ to h ?is faculty re/or$ to me4 ,spee*1 z ,i h already said1 ,i _h reg>d$ z ! only & assur$ means ( my deliv]ance f ?is sc5e ( horrors4 ,i !re=e d\bt$ n t f ?is mis]able tool ( my oppressors ,i w\ld obta9 my enl>gem5t4 ,i /ood firmly on my gu>d4 ,i p]mitt$ him to run out ! :ole l5g? ( 8 own project )\t int]ruption4 ,by ?is delay ,i %\ld bett] und]/& 8 "*1 & f9ally seize x ) a m decisive grasp4 ,?us purpos+1 ,i all[$ ?ree or f\r visits to pass be=e ,i op5$ to ! mosca my own proposal4 ,i design$ unexpect$ly to turn ! tables ^u him1 to surprise & f9i% ) him at once4 ,i knew n t all ?is precaution 0 necess>y1 b ,i play$ = too deep a /ake1 n to be anxi\s to omit no?+1 :i* h]eaft] 9 retrospect ,i might reproa* myself t ,i _h omitt$4 ,! "t 0 at l5g? come1 at :i* ,i judg$ x conv5i5t to execute :at ,i _h plann$ 9 my m9d4 ,i began ) an attempt to mortify & humble my gue/ 9 8 own eyes1 t he might lose ! pride to make ! smalle/ resi/ance to my proposal4 8,d y ?9k1 my good sir10 cri$ ,i1 8t ,i h n p]fectly und]/ood y\r int5tions all ?is :ile8 ,y h pret5d$ to be my fri5d1 & to come to me = my good4 ,i "k t e secret ,i repos$ 9 y\r fidelity1 e ^w t ,i might ungu>d$ly h dropp$1 e look & ge/ure t c\ld h be5 int]pret$ to my disadvantage1 w\ld h be5 in/antly report$ to ! fa!rs ( ! inquisition4 ,:y1 :at a poor & mis]able fool mu/ y h imag9$ me to be6 ,h[ came y into my cell8 ,_h y a secret key by :i* y f\nd y\r way hi!r unkn[n8 ,c\ld y ev] h come into my ap>tm5t1 if y _h n be5 employ$8 ,y fawn ^u me1 & are ! tame & passive ag5t ( my m]ciless de/roy]s6 ,%ame on su* base & p]fidi\s proce$+s6 ,is ?is religion1 t y %\ld flatt] & cajole & lie to a man1 purely t y may h ! gratification at la/ ( burn+ him alive8 ,if y or y\r ma/]s c make out any ?+ to my disadvantage1 let !m make x out 9 ! way ( fair & op5 trial1 by ! production ( direct evid5ce1 & call+ on me = my def5ce4 ,!y /yle !mselves ! *ampions ( ,*ri/5dom & ornam5ts ( our holy fai?2 !y pret5d to an extraord9>y degree ( sanctity1 & w\ld h all m5 b[ d[n 9 mute rev]5ce & a/oni%m5t at _! godl9ess2 & yet !y h rec\rse to means s base1 t ! mo/ pr(ligate & ab&on$ tyrant ^u record w\ld h disda9$ to employ !m4 ,b1 base z are ! judges & assessors ( ! c\rt 9 ^: prison ,i /&1 ev5 !y scorn ! meanness ( ! p]fidi\s task 9 :i* y h engag$40 ,! vehem5ce ,i put into ! suppress$ & "u-tone ) :i* ,i deliv]$ ^! reproa*es1 seem$ to produce no emotion 9 my gue/4 ,he dropp$ 8 /aff ^u 8 %\ld]2 he meekly fold$ 8 arms ^u 8 bosom1 & answ]$1 t he _h long s9ce le>n$ to be> e contumely = ! cause ( ,god & ! ,r$eem]3 !y 7 heav5-direct$ *a/isem5ts1 :i* 8 manifold s9s & iniquities _h amply des]v$4 8,hypocrite60 repli$ ,i1 8w\ld y make me believe t a consci5ti\s motive c prompt su* conduct z y\rs1 c m\ld y\r features into a trea*]\s expression ( k9dness1 & fill y\r m\? ) lies & deceptions innum]able80 8,no proce$+s10 rejo9$ he1 ) an unalt]$ air1 8are base1 t ,god & 8 *ur* prescribe4 ,i take up ! cross ) *e]fulness1 & glory 9 my %ame4 ,! m ignom9i\s 9 ! eyes ( an unreg5]ate _w is my conduct1 ! m entire & implicit does x prove my ob$i5ce to be40 ,my he>t swell$ )9 me z he talk$4 ,i c\ld l5d no att5tion to su* despicable cant1 & 0 a%am$ to see ! mo/ pr(ligate conduct assum+ to itself ! pret5sions to an extraord9>y degree ( sanctity & dis9t]e/$ness4 8,come1 come10 said ,i1 8dissembl]2 ,i "k t no?+ c\ld buy a man to s loa?some an (fice b money4 ,y are "s galley-slave1 "s wret*1 :o by y\r complicat$ crimes h =feit$ y\r life to ! community1 & are n[ p]mitt$ to e>n a mis]able exi/5ce by ly+ 9 wait = ! un=tunate1 & engag+ 9 arts at :i* humanity %udd]s4 ,i take y ^u y\r own t]ms2 y are ! man ,i want4 ,assi/ me to escape2 g ) me to "s saf] & less cruel c\ntry2 ,i w rew>d y to ! ext5t ( y\r wi%es4 ,give me y\r h&2 an e/ate ( six ?\s& pi/oles p] annum1 )\t fur!r condition1 waits y\r acceptance4 ,i invoke all ! p[]s1 sacr$ to tru? & puni%]s ( deceit1 to witness1 t ,i h ability to make good ! :ole ( :at ,i promise40 ,:ile ,i spoke1 ,i c\ld p]ceive an extraord9>y revolution tak+ place 9 my gue/4 ,! meekness & tranquillity ( 8 c\nt5ance subsid$2 8 eye became animat$ & alive4 ,i hail$ ! auspici\s om52 ,i urg$ my proposal ) all ! impetuosity ,i c\ld ex]t & all ! argum5ts ,i c\ld devise4 ,at l5g? ,i paus$4 ,i look$ aga9 at ! c\nt5ance ( ! mosca2 ,i 0 less pleas$ ?an be=e4 ,! expression did n seem to be t ( ass5t & congratulation2 x 0 r ( horror & al>m4 8,/4 ,jago1 & all ! sa9ts & angels ( heav51 protect me60 exclaim$ he4 8,:at d ,i he>8 ,a full confession ( guilt6 ,& art ?\ !n ! conf$]ate ( ! pr9ce ( ! p[]s ( d>kness8 ,if we 7 n "h1 9 ! holy h\se ( inquisition1 ,i %\ld die at ?is mom5t ) fe> t ! ro( w\ld fall & cru% u toge!r4 ,i %\ld expect hell to swall[ me alive1 = be+ f\nd 9 ?y unhall[$ society40 ,he trembl$ ) e expression ( ! s9c]e/ t]ror & av]sion4 8#8,?y money p]i% ) !e1' ?\ second ,elymas1 l him #8full ( all subtlety & mis*ief1 *ild ( ! devil1 enemy ( all righte\sness6' ,bla/$ be ?y (f]s6 ,h ,i = ?is devot$ myself to ! s]vice ( ,god1 assidu\sly s\ght out ! base/ & vile/ (fices ( t s]vice1 & load$ myself ) ignom9y "h1 t ,i might obta9 a cr[n ( glory h]eaft]8 & am ,i n[ to be assault$ ) ! wor/ ( ,satan's temptations8 ,ev5 s1 ,"l1 if su* be ?y w6 ,oh1 poor1 mis]able1 delud$ victim ( ! ar*-deceiv] ( mank9d1 :at has ! devil done = !e8 ,he has p]suad$ !e t ?\ art ri*2 & ?\ wante/ e joy & e necess>y ( life4 ,he has promis$ to be ?y fri5d2 & he br+s !e to ! faggot & flames 9 ?is _w1 z an e>ne/ ( ?y et]nal damnation h]eaft]40 ,my visit] _h no soon] ?us p\r$ out ! tumult & agitation ( 8 s\l1 ?an he left me abruptly1 & ,i saw him no m4 ,su* 0 ! ev5t ( my attempt to bribe ! (fic]s ( ! inquisition4 ,9 my fir/ exp]im5t ,i c\ld n ev5 obta9 a he>+2 9 :at foll[$1 my proposals 7 reject$ ) all ! transports ( religi\s abhorr5ce4 ,:at ,i (f]$ inde$1 h[ev] dazzl+ 9 ! /atem5t1 _h n 9 fact ! nature ( a temptation4 ,he to :om ,i address$ x gave no cr$it to my ass]tions2 he ?\ght t ,i 0 ! m]e drivell+ dupe ( him he call$ ! ar*-deceiv] ( mank9d1 or t my money1 :5 possess$1 w\ld soon *ange its figure1 & f seem+ pieces ( solid co9 be conv]t$ into pieces ( horn or ( %ells4 ,ev5 if he _h n appreh5d$ su* a metamorphosis1 he w\ld yet h reg>d$ e d\bloon he receiv$ z ! price ( 8 cont9ual adv]sity "h1 & damnation h]eaft]4 ,i ga9$ no?+ fav\rable = my situation by ! trial ,i _h made1 b ,i add$ a new *apt] to my k ( human nature4 ,i f\nd1 t to be a knave1 x 0 n necess>y to be an infidel3 ,i correct$ ! too ha/y conclusion :i* ,i _h adopt$ ) ! re/ ( my contempor>ies1 t he ^: conduct 0 infam\s1 mu/ inevitably be de/itute ( religi\s impressions & belief2 & ,i became satisfi$ t a man1 :ile he practis$ e vice t c disgrace human nature1 might imag9e he 0 do+ ,god s]vice4 ,en\gh ( ! int]ior ( ! prison ( ! inquisition4 ,i rema9$ a t5ant ( ?is wret*$ mansion twelve ye>s4 ,?\gh ! wret* :o _h be5 plac$ ^u me z a spy1 01 f my proposal to him1 satisfi$ ( my guilt1 8 sup]iors 7 n s4 ,!y f\nd no?+ 9 :at he report$ def9itive z to ! nature ( my unlawful practices1 & !y c\ld extort f me no fur!r confession4 ,!y !re=e adh]$ to _! fav\rite maxim1 to avoid ! precipitate mi/akes ( o!r tribunals1 & to all[ _! prison] full "t to develop 8 guilt1 or1 z !y pret5d$1 to e/abli% 8 innoc5ce4 ,p]haps too ! temp] ( ! pr9ce :o n[ fill$ ! ,spani% ?rone1 contribut$ to my safety4 ,!y c\ld n cont5t !mselves ) a less puni%m5t = s ob/9ate & incorrigible a h]etic1 ?an t ( ! flames2 b1 dur+ ! reign ( ! emp]or ,*>les1 ?is species ( puni%m5t = h]esy 0 r>ely inflict$1 & only "o or two contumaci\s1 at int]vals1 7 deliv]$ ov] to ! execution] at a "t4 ,! in/itution ^: victim ,i _h become1 look$ = a ri*] & m abundant h>ve/ f ! well-kn[n piety & zeal ( 8 successor4 ,i pass ov] ! re/ ( ! ye>s ( my t$i\s imprisonm5t ,!y _h 9 !m a sad & dea?-l uni=mity4 ,:at surpris+ or agreeable adv5tures c be expect$ f a man clos$ up )9 ! f\r walls ( a dungeon8 ,yet x is n altoge!r ! uni=mity ( ?is p]iod t det]m9es me n to dwell ^u & exp& x4 ,twelve ye>s _c pass 9 ! life ( man )\t _m memorable incid5ts & occurr5ces4 ,he t %\ld be buri$ alive 9 ! deepe/ cav]n ( ! e>?1 if he 7 n an idiot1 or incapable ( ! task ( n>ration1 & c\ld subsi/ twelve ye>s 9 t situation1 c\ld tell ( ?+s t occurr$ to him1 t might fill ! busy man ( ! _w ) ?\ghts & speculation almo/ to bur/+4 ,i might unfold ! secrets ( my prison-h\se1 b t ,i w n4 ,i refuse ! consequ5ces ( t /ory bo? to my read]s & myself4 ,i h no incl9ation to drive ! mo/ delicate or susceptible ( my read]s mad ) horrors4 ,i c\ld conv9ce su*1 if su* !re are1 :o suppose my faculties 7 altoge!r b5umb$ or dead1 t x 0 n s4 ,i did inde$ pass days1 p]haps weeks1 9 a condition ( t sort4 ,b at o!r times my m9d 0 r\s$1 & became busy1 re/less1 impati5t1 & inv5tive4 ,!re 0 no mode ( escape t ,i did n rum9ate ^u or attempt2 n to m5tion t1 ?\gh my body 0 re/ra9$1 my m9d occasionally so>$ to ! fur!/ regions ( ! empyrean1 or plung$ into ! deepe/ ( ! recesses 9 :i* nature conceals h] op]ations4 ,all sy/ems ( philosophis+ became famili> to me4 ,i revolv$ e diff]5t fable t has be5 con/ruct$ respect+ ! invisible p[]s t sup]9t5d ! ev5ts ( ! b\ndless univ]se2 & ,i fe>lessly trac$ out & develop$ ! bolde/ conjectures & ass]tions ( demonism or a!ism4 ,z ! hum\r ( ! mom5t l$ me1 ,i d]iv$ mis]y or consolation f ea* ( ^! sy/ems 9 _! turn4--,b memory1 bitt] memory1 unp]ceiv$ by its "l1 is seiz+ my p51 & runn+ away ) my n>rative4 ,en\gh1 en\gh ( ! int]ior ( ! prison ( ! inquisition6 ,,*apt] ,,xxxii4 ,philip ! ,second1 k+ ( ,spa91 succe$$ to ! ?rone ( t mon>*y ab\t ! close ( ! ye> #aeee2 b 8 affairs 9 ,engl& & ! ,ne!rl&s long )held him f visit+ 8 belov$ c\ntry1 & he did n rea* its %ores1 aft] a sev5 ye>s' abs5ce1 till ! tw5ty-n9? ( ,augu/1 #aeei4 ,x may be ?\ght t a public ev5t ( ?is sort c\ld be little int]e/+ to me1 a =gott5 prison]1 immur$ 9 ! dungeons ( ! inquisition4 ,! fact 0 o!rwise4 ,! k+ 0 desir\s ( di/+ui%+ 8 arrival on 8 native soil by "s spl5did exhibition or memorable ev5t1 t %\ld at once express 8 piety to ,god1 & conduce to ! felicity ( 8 p3 & he c\ld ?9k ( no?+ t s signally unit$ ^! *>act]s z an ,auto de ,f4 ,! ,lu!ran h]esy1 :i* 9 ! c\rse ( =ty ye>s _h spread its poison s widely 9 ! diff]5t c\ntries ( ,europe1 _h n fail$ to scatt] a few ( its noxi\s se$s ev5 9 ?is1 ! pure/ & mo/ ,ca?olic ( all its divisions4 ,b ,philip _h e>ly proclaim$ 8 ho/ility aga9/ ?is innovation2 &1 pro/rat+ himself be=e ! image ( 8 ,savi\r1 _h e>ne/ly bes\ght ! div9e maje/y1 8t he might nev] suff] himself to be1 or to be call$1 ! "l ( ^? 9 any corn] ( ! globe1 :o %\ld d5y ,him ! ,"l40 ,previ\sly to 8 arrival 9 ,spa91 directions _h be5 giv51 & arrangem5ts made1 respect+ ! pi\s & solemn exhibition he dem&$4 ,=m]ly ^? :o by ! fa!rs ( ! inquisition _h be5 deliv]$ ov] to ! secul> arm1 _h be5 execut$ 9 ! diff]5t places :]e _! crimes _h be5 committ$1 or _! trials be5 held3 b n[ x 0 propos$ t all ^? ?r\gh\t ! k+dom1 :o 7 f\nd prop]ly qualifi$ to satisfy by _! dea?s ! sublime ta/e ( ! royal sa9t1 %\ld be divid$ into two troops1 & s5t1 ! "o to ,seville1 long ! capital ( an illu/ri\s mon>*y1 & ! o!r to ,valladolid1 :i* _h ! hon\r to be ! bir?place ( ! pres5t sov]eign4 ,! troop de/9$ to fe$ ! flames at ,seville 0 compos$ ( fifty p]sons1 _m ( !m di/+ui%$ = _! rank1 _! tal5ts1 or _! virtues4 ,! troop to be escort$ to ,valladolid1 ( :i* ,i 0 a memb]1 am\nt$ only to ?irty3 b to comp5sate ?is defici5cy1 ,philip himself _h signifi$ 8 graci\s int5tion to be pres5t1 toge!r ) ! heir app>5t & 8 :ole c\rt1 at t exhibition4 ,! ,spani% nation1 rejoic+ 9 ! approa* ( a mon>* :o 0 born among !m1 ^: mann]s & temp] happily accord$ ) !irs1 & :om !y believ$ ab\t to fix 8 p]petual resid5ce 9 _! l&1 expect$ him ) all ! long+s ( ! mo/ ard5t atta*m5t4 ,we1 ! unhappy victims ( pi\s & inquisitorial tyranny1 also expect$ him4 ,our he>ts did n pant ) a less beat+ quickness2 ?\gh our anxiety arose f emotions ( a diff]5t nature4 ,valladolid is di/ant f ! metropolis eighty-f\r miles4 ,we _h already be5 "s weeks prep>$ = ?is j\rney1 & pi\sly direct$ to hold ourselves 9 read9ess to take our "p 9 ! solemn national sacrifice4 ,we wait$ h[ev] to receive a previ\s notice ( ! day on :i* ! mon>* w\ld ent] ! place ( 8 bir?1 s9ce s great 0 8 royal zeal = ! cause ( religion & civil society1 t he w\ld n cons5t to be abs5t f any "p ( ! spectacle2 & accord+ly x 0 n all[$ u to ent] ! sc5e ( our f9al de/9ation1 till ! k+ ( ,spa9 & ! ,indies %\ld be already on ! spot1 & prep>$ to receive u4 ,! auto da f p]=m$ at ,seville _h ! prec$5ce ( ours3 x took place on ! tw5ty-f\r? ( ,septemb]2 & we 7 indulg$ ) an accurate acc\nt ( x1 & 7 pres5t at a public read+ ( ! record ( ! act1 9 ! *apel ( our prison1 previ\sly to our removal f ! metropolis4 ,i w n ent] into a m9ute detail ( ! sc5e ( ?is read+1 ?\gh ! recollection w nev] be effac$ f my memory4 ,( ! p]sons pres5t :o 7 de/9$ to suff] capital puni%m5t1 eight 7 wom54 ,f\r ( !m 7 tak5 f a s+le family1 be+ a gr&mo!r1 a "m1 & two daught]s ( ! noble h\se ( ,alcala4 ,!y _h all be5 beautiful ( p]son1 & ( a graceful figure2 ! y\nge/ ( ! daught]s 0 9 ! n9ete5? ye> ( h] age4 ,_! crime1 toge!r ) t ( ! majority ( _! fell[-suff]]s1 0 ob/9ate & imp5it5t ,lu!ranism4 ,! seats ( ! wom5 7 sep>at$ f ! re/1 & front$ ) a close lattice4 ,! m5 7 tw5ty-two 9 numb]1 & _! appe>ance 0 truly impressive4 ,_! p]sons 7 neglect$1 & _! figures emaciat$2 _! eyes 7 sunk & gha/ly1 & _! complexions ( a sall[ & dea?-l :ite4 ,mo/ ( !m 7 crippl$ by _! long conf9em5t & ! sev]ities !y _h endur$1 & 7 support$ to _! seats1 ^u an elevat$ scaffold+ ) b5*es rais$ "o above ano!r1 by two app>ators1 "o on ea* side ( ! condemn$ h]etic4 ,god ( m]cy & b5evol5ce6 is x possible t ?is sc5e %\ld be reg>d$ z ?y triumph1 & ! execution de/9$ to foll[1 z a sacrifice acceptable 9 ?y sight8 ,if ^! pap]s ( m9e are ev] produc$ to light1 may x n happ5 t !y %all fir/ be read by a di/ant po/]ity1 :o w refuse to believe t _! fa!rs 7 ev] mad en\gh to subject ea* o!r to s horrible a treatm5t1 m]ely because !y 7 unable to adopt ea* o!r's op9ions8 ,oh1 no6 human affairs1 l ! waves ( ! ocean1 are m]ely 9 a /ate ( ebb & fl[3 8!re is no?+ new "u ! sun30 two c5turies p]haps aft] ,philip ! ,second %all be ga!r$ to 8 ance/ors he di$ 9 #aeih1 m5 %all le>n ov] aga9 to p]secute ea* o!r = consci5ce sake2 o!r anabapti/s or levell]s %all furni% pretexts = new p]secutions2 o!r inquisitors %all arise 9 ! mo/ enlight5$ tracts ( ,europe2 & pr(essors f _! *air1 %elt]+ _! intol]ance "u ! great names ( ,ari/otle & ,cic]o1 %all in/ruct _! s*ol>s1 t a het]odox doctr9e is ! wor/ ( crimes1 & t ! philan?ropy & purity ( he>t 9 :i* x is ma9ta9$1 only r5d] its def5d]s ! m wor?y to be extirpat$4 ,:at 7 ! ideas & reflections ( my fell[s1 seat$ on ! b5*es above1 bel[1 & on ei!r side ( me1 ,i am unable to affirm2 my own c\ld n fail to be pung5t & di/ress+4 ,i und]/ood cont9ually m & m ( ! my/]i\s & unutt]$ hi/ory1 ( ! /rang] :o di$ 9 ! summ]-h\se ( ! lake ( ,con/ance3 ,i f\nd t ,i 0 only act+ ov] aga9 :at he _h exp]i5c$ be=e me4 ,8 legacies _h s]v$ to involve me 9 ! bitt]e/ & mo/ unhe>d ( mis]ies1 b 7 :olly de/itute ( ability to rescue f ! evils !mselves creat$4 ,unb\nd$ weal? ,i f\nd to h no p[] to bribe ! da/>d slaves ( religi\s bigotry2 & ! elixir ( immortality1 ?\gh x c\ld cure disease1 & put to flight ! approa*es ( age1 0 impot5t to repel ! f]v\r ( dev\r+ flames4 ,i might h be5 happy----,i 0 happy :5 ! /rang] f\nd me4 ,i might h liv$ to a virtu\s & v5]able old age1 & h di$ 9 ! arms ( my po/]ity4 ,! /rang] _h giv5 me weal?1 & ,i 0 n[ poor] ?an ! peasant :o w&]s amid/ pol> sn[s4 ,! /rang] _h giv5 me immortality1 & 9 a few days ,i 0 to expire 9 excruciat+ tortures4 ,he f\nd me tranquil1 cont5t$1 9 ! mid/ ( simple1 yet ine/imable pleasures2 he brea!d into me ! re/less s5tim5t ( ambition2 & x 0 t s5tim5t :i* at l5g? _h plac$ me on high 9 ! *apel ( ! prison ( ! ,ca?olic ,inquisition4 ,our progress to ,valladolid 0 sl[ & solemn1 & occupi$ a space ( no less ?an f\r days4 ,on ! ev5+ ( ! f\r? day we approa*$ t city4 ,! k+ & 8 c\rt came out to meet u4 ,he salut$ ! inquisitor g5]al ) all ! demon/rations ( ! deepe/ submission & humility2 & !n1 hav+ yield$ him ! place ( hon\r1 turn$ r\nd 8 horse1 & accompani$ u to ,valladolid4 ,! cavalcade t att5d$ ! k+ broke into two files1 & receiv$ u 9 ! mid/ ( !m4 ,! :ole city seem$ to empty itself on ?is memorable occasion2 & ! multitudes t cr[d$ along ! road1 & 7 scatt]$ 9 ! neighb\r+ fields1 7 innum]able4 ,! day 0 n[ clos$2 & ! procession w5t =w>d amid/ ! light ( a ?\s& tor*es4 ,we1 ! condemn$ ( ! inquisition1 _h be5 conduct$ f ! metropolis ^u tumbrils2 b1 z we arriv$ at ! gates ( ,valladolid1 we 7 comm&$1 = ! great] humiliation1 to alight & proce$ on foot to ! place ( our conf9em5t1 z _m z c\ld n walk )\t assi/ance be+ support$ by ! att5dants4 ,we 7 nei!r *a9$ nor b\nd2 ! practice ( ! inquisition be+ to deliv] ! condemn$ ^u su* occasions into ! h&s ( two sureties ea*1 :o plac$ _! *>ge 9 ! middle betwe5 !m2 & m5 ( ! mo/ respectable *>act]s 7 accu/om$ f religi\s motives to sue = ?is melan*oly (fice4 ,deject$ & despair+ ,i ent]$ ! /reets ( ! city1 no object pres5t to ! eyes ( my m9d b t ( my approa*+ execution4 ,! cr[d 0 va/2 ! confusion inexpressible4 ,z we pass$ by ! end ( a n>r[ lane1 ! horse ( "o ( ! gu>ds :o rode exactly 9 a l9e ) me1 plung$ & re>$ 9 a viol5t mann]1 & at l5g? ?rew 8 rid] ^u ! pavem5t4 ,o!rs ( ! horse-gu>ds attempt$ to cat* ! bridle ( ! enrag$ animal4 ,!y ru%$ aga9/ ea* o!r4 ,sev]al ( ! cr[d 7 ?r[n d[n1 & trampl$ "u ! horses' feet4 ,! %rieks ( ^!1 & ! l\d cries & exclamations ( ! by/&]s1 m+l$ 9 confus$ & discordant *orus4 ,no s\nd1 no object c\ld be di/+ui%$4 ,f ! excess ( ! tumult a sudd5 ?\ght d>t$ into my m9d1 :]e all1 an in/ant be=e1 _h be5 relaxation & despair4 ,two or ?ree ( ! horses pu%$ =w>d 9 a p>ticul> direction4 ,a mom5t aft] !y resil$ ) equal viol5ce1 & left a wide1 b transitory gap4 ,my project 0 no soon] conceiv$ ?an execut$4 ,weak z ,i _h j n[ felt myself1 a sup]natural tide ( /r5g? seem$ to come ov] me4 ,i sprung away ) all imag9able impetuosity1 & ru%$ d[n ! lane ,i h j m5tion$4 ,e "o amid/ ! confusion 0 att5tive to 8 p]sonal safety1 & sev]al m9utes elaps$ be=e ,i 0 miss$4 ,,*apt] ,,xxxiii4 ,9 ! lane e ?+ 0 sil5t1 & ! d>kness 0 extreme4 ,man1 woman1 & *ild 7 gone out to view ! procession4 ,= "s "t ,i c\ld sc>cely di/+ui% a s+le object2 ! doors & w9d[s 7 all clos$4 ,i n[ *anc$ to come to an op5 door2 )9 ,i saw no "o b an old man1 :o 0 busy ov] "s metallic "w at a *af+-di% ( fire4 ,i _h no room = *oice2 ,i expect$ e mom5t to he> ! myrmidons ( ! inquisition at my heels4 ,i ru%$ 92 ,i impetu\sly clos$ ! door1 & bolt$ x2 ,i !n seiz$ ! old man by ! coll> ( 8 %irt ) a det]m9$ grasp1 & swore vehem5tly t ,i w\ld annihilate him t in/ant1 if he did n cons5t to af=d me assi/ance4 ,?\gh = "s "t ,i _h p]haps be5 feebl] ?an he1 ! t]ror t n[ drove me on1 r5d]$ me comp>atively a giant4 ,he intreat$ me to p]mit him to brea!1 & promis$ to d :atev] ,i %\ld desire4 ,i look$ r\nd ! ap>tm5t1 & saw a rapi] hang+ aga9/ ! wall1 ( :i* ,i in/antly proce$$ to make myself ma/]4 ,:ile ,i 0 do+ ?is1 my involunt>y ho/1 :o 0 extremely t]rifi$ at my proc$ure1 nimbly attempt$ to slip by me & ru% into ! /reet4 ,) difficulty ,i caught hold ( 8 arm1 &1 pull+ him back1 put ! po9t ( my rapi] to 8 brea/1 solemnly assur+ him t no consid]ation on e>? %\ld save him f my fury1 if he attempt$ to escape a second "t4 ,he imm$iately dropp$ on 8 knees1 & ) ! mo/ pite\s acc5ts intreat$ me to sp>e 8 life4 ,i told him t ,i 0 no robb]1 t ,i did n int5d him ! slighte/ h>m1 & t1 if he w\ld implicitly yield to my direction1 he might assure himself he nev] %\ld h reason to rep5t 8 compliance4 ,by ?is decl>ation ! t]rors ( ! old man 7 some:at appeas$4 ,i took ! opportunity ( ?is calm to g to ! /reet door1 :i* ,i in/antly lock$1 & put ! key 9 my bosom4 ,no?+ b ! mo/ =tunate concurr5ce ( circum/ances c\ld h ?us =w>d$ my escape4 ,! re>+ ( ! horse ( ! life-gu>dsman 0 purely accid5tal4 ,! conc\rse & press ( ! cr[d f all sides c\ld alone h r5d]$ ?is circum/ance ( any magnitude4 ,! gap :i* 0 made by ! pu%+ =w>ds & resil+ ( ! horses cont9u$ b>ely long en\gh = me to spr+ ?r\gh1 & clos$ aga9 9 an in/ant4 ,x is a/oni%+ t ! ?\ght ( escape %\ld h ?us sudd5ly d>t$ into my m9d1 :i*1 b a mom5t be=e1 0 9 a /ate ( dejection1 equally incompatible ) activity & ) hope4 ,t 9 ! lane d[n :i* ,i ru%$ ,i %\ld h met no human creature1 & t ! fir/ op5 door ,i saw %\ld lead to ! resid5ce ( a decrepid old man1 :o appe>$ to be its s+le inhabitant1 7 occurr5ces equally extraord9>y1 yet seem to h be5 bo? indisp5sable to my safety4 ,"o po9t m concurr$ ) ?is =tunate tra91 & assi/$ to /ill ! palpitations ( my beat+ he>t3 ,i p]ceiv$1 by c]ta9 indications 9 ! c\nt5ance ( my ho/1 t he 0 by p>5tage a ,jew4 ,i pres5tly conclud$1 t he 0 :at 9 ,spa9 !y d5om9ate a new *ri/ian2 = t o!rwise he w\ld n h be5 all[$ to reside at l>ge 9 a ,spani% city4 ,b1 ^u t supposition1 ,i did n believe t *ri/ianity 0 v deeply m+l$ up 9 him ) ! vital pr9ciple3 ! conv]ts ( ! inquisition are n conspicu\s = _! s9c]ity4 ,n[1 !n1 = ! fir/ "t ,i ?\ght1 9 ! c\rse ( twelve ye>s1 ,i _h opportunity to communicate ) a man1 ^: s\l 0 n enslav$ to ! blood-?ir/y sup]/ition ( ?is devot$ c\ntry4 ,all ,i _h se5 dur+ ! p]iod ( my conf9em5t 7 hy5as1 tig]s1 & crocodiles--!y 7 n m54 ,i _h no soon] soo!d my ho/ into a temp] to li/5 to my /ory1 ?an ,i told him ) all imag9able frankness :5ce ,i came1 & to :at ,i _h be5 de/9$4 ,! m5tion ( sorc]y h[ev]1 & pret]natural practices1 ,i suppress$2 = ,i suspect$ t p]sons ( all religions ent]ta9$ an equal horror aga9/ ^!4 ,i suff]$ him to imag9e t ! allegation aga9/ me _h be5 ! crime ( h]esy3 all sects ( ! *ri/ian sup]/ition might be suppos$ equally obnoxi\s or acceptable to a ,jew4 ,i emphatically appeal$ to ! p]secutions :i* _h be5 s long direct$ aga9/ ! religion ( 8 ance/ors1 & obs]v$ h[ disgraceful x w\ld be 9 him to assi/ ! op]ation ( a pr9ciple1 ! effects ( :i* 8 fa!rs _h s deeply deplor$1 & s p]fectly abhorr$4 ,i assur$ him t ,i w\ld br+ him into no dang]1 & t all ,i ask$ 0 ! protection ( a few h\rs3 ,i w\ld leave him 9 ! c\rse ( ! foll[+ day1 & he %\ld he> ( me no m4 ,i rem9d$ him1 t ! dang] he _h to fe> 0 9 betray+1 n 9 protect+ me4 ,! inquisition look$ ^u e new *ri/ian ) an eye ( ! sev]e/ jeal\sy2 & ! m]e fact1 if kn[n1 t ,i _h tak5 refuge 9 8 h\se1 w\ld infallibly subject him to ! purgation ( a tempor>y imprisonm5t 9 _! dungeons4 ,x w\ld be 9 va9 = him to affirm t he _h no *oice 9 :at _h occurr$2 he 0 )\t a witness to confirm 8 relation1 & ! ass]tions ( a man born ( ,jewi% p>5ts nev] obta9$ cr$it 9 ! c\rt ( ! inquisition4 ,i add$1 ) solemn assev]ations1 t ! mom5t ,i set foot beyond ! t]ritory ( ,spa91 ,i w\ld remit to him ! sum ( six hundr$ pi/oles z an ackn[l$gm5t = 8 k9dness4 ,dur+ ! :ole ( my disc\rse1 ,i wat*$ 8 c\nt5ance ) ! utmo/ m9ut5ess4 ,x gradually relax$ f ! t]ror :i* _h at fir/ appe>$ 9 x1 to expressions ( compassion & complac5ce4 ,i saw no?+ t ought to al>m me4 ,:5 x 0 8 turn to speak1 he e>ne/ly assur$ me t he took a w>m int]e/ 9 my /ory1 & w\ld *e]fully p]=m e ?+ ,i requir$4 ,he 0 happy t my fav\rable />s _h l$ me to 8 habitation1 & w\ld rejoice1 to ! late/ h\r ( 8 exi/5ce1 if !y r5d]$ him in/rum5tal 9 pres]v+ ! life ( a human be+ f s deplorable a cata/rophe4 ,:ile ,i talk$ to him1 ,i easily p]ceiv$ t ! argum5ts ,i us$1 :i* produc$ ! mo/ s5sible effect ^u 8 features1 7 ^? ( ! dang]s aris+ to him f betray+ me1 & ! rew>d ( six hundr$ pi/oles :i* ,i promis$ him 9 ! ev5t ( my success4 ,8 motives h[ev] 7 bl5d$ toge!r 9 8 m9d2 & he _h no soon] =m$ a det]m9ation1 gr\nd$ p]haps ^u ! meane/ consid]ations1 ?an he became eloqu5t 9 a panegyric ( 8 own b5evol5ce1 by :i* he 0 n1 ,i believe1 m anxi\s to impose ^u me1 ?an to put ! *ange ^u himself4 ,i consid]$ all t he said1 8 ge/ures1 & ! v tones ( 8 voice1 ) eag] anxiety2 ! t]ror ( ! inquisition p5etrat$ to ! m>r[ 9 my bones2 & ! fate aw>d$ aga9/ me by t c\rt became inexpressibly m horrible to my ?\ghts1 n[ t ,i saw ! probability ( escap+ x4 ,e ?+ t ,i obs]v$ 9 ! ,jew 0 app>5tly fair1 plausible1 & enc\rag+2 b no?+ _h p[] to quell ! agitations ( my appreh5sive s\l4 ,we 7 /ill engag$ 9 discuss+ ! topics ,i h m5tion$1 :5 ,i 0 sudd5ly al>m$ by ! noise ( "s "o /irr+ 9 ! inn] ap>tm5t4 ,i _h look$ into ?is room1 & _h p]ceiv$ no?+ b ! b$ ^u :i* ! old man nightly repos$ himself4 ,i sprung up h[ev] at ! s\nd1 &1 p]ceiv+ t ! door _h a bolt on ! outside1 ,i eag]ly fa/5$ x4 ,i !n turn$ to ,mordecai1 su* previ\sly to 8 conv]sion _h be5 ! "n ( my ho/3 8,wret*10 said ,i1 8did n y assure me t !re 0 no "o b y\rself 9 ! h\se80 8,oh10 cri$ ,mordecai1 8x is my *ild6 x is my *ild6 %e w5t into ! inn] ap>tm5t1 & has fall5 asleep on ! b$40 8,bew>e60 ,i answ]$2 8! slighte/ falsehood m %all in/antly be expiat$ 9 y\r blood40 8,i call ,abraham to witness10 rejo9$ ! once m t]rifi$ ,jew1 8x is my *ild6 only my *ild60 8,tell me10 cri$ ,i1 ) sev]ity ( acc5t1 8h[ old is ?is *ild80 8,only five ye>s10 said ,mordecai3 8my de> ,leah di$ :5 h] babe 0 no m ?an a ye> old2 &1 ?\gh we _h sev]al *ildr51 ?is s+le "o has surviv$ h]40 8,speak to y\r *ild2 let me he> h] voice60 ,he spoke to h]1 & %e answ]$1 8,fa!r1 ,i want to come out40 ,i 0 satisfi$ x 0 ! voice ( a little girl4 ,i turn$ to ! ,jew3 8,take c>e10 said ,i1 8h[ y deceive me n[2 is !re no o!r p]son 9 t room80 ,he imprecat$ a curse on himself if !re 73 ,i op5$ ! door ) caution1 & ! little girl came =w>d4 ,z soon z ,i saw h]1 ,i seiz$ h] ) a rapid motion1 & retir$ back to a *air4 8,man10 said ,i1 8y h trifl$ ) me too ra%ly2 y h n consid]$ :at ,i am escap$ f1 & :at ,i h to fe>2 f ?is mom5t ?is *ild %all be ! pl$ge ( my safety2 ,i w n "p ) h] an in/ant z long z ,i rema9 9 y\r h\se2 & ) ?is rapi] 9 my h& ,i w pi]ce h] to ! he>t1 ! mom5t ,i am l$ to imag9e t ,i am no long] 9 safety40 ,! ,jew trembl$ at my resolution2 ! emotions ( a fa!r work$ 9 8 features1 & gli/5$ 9 8 eye4 8,at lea/ let me kiss h]60 said he4 8,be x s60 repli$ ,i3 8"o embrace1 & !n1 till ! dawn ( ! com+ day1 %e rema9s ) me40 ,i releas$ my hold2 ! *ild ru%$ to h] fa!r1 & he caught h] 9 8 arms4 8,my de> ,leah10 cri$ ,mordecai1 8n[ a sa9t$ _s 9 ! bosom ( our fa!r ,abraham6 ,i call ,god to witness betwe5 u1 t1 if all my caution & vigilance c prev5t x1 n a hair ( ?is *ild %all be injur$6 ,/rang]1 y little "k by h[ /rong a motive y h n[ engag$ me to y\r cause4 ,we poor ,jews1 hunt$ on ! face ( ! e>?1 ! abhorr5ce & execration ( mank9d1 h no?+ b family affections to support u "u our multipli$ disgraces2 & family affections are entw9$ ) our exi/5ce1 ! fonde/ & be/-lov$ "p ( ourselves4 ,! ,god ( ,abraham bless y1 my *ild6 ,n[1 sir1 speak6 :at is x y require ( me80 ,i told ! ,jew t ,i mu/ h a suit ( clo!s con=mable to ! appe>ance ( a ,spani% cavali]1 & c]ta9 m$ical +r$i5ts t ,i nam$ to him1 toge!r ) 8 *af+-di% ( coals to prep>e !m2 &1 t done1 ,i w\ld !n impose on him no fur!r tr\ble4 ,hav+ receiv$ 8 in/ructions1 he imm$iately set out to procure :at ,i dem&$4 ,he took ) him ! key ( ! h\se2 &1 z soon z he 0 gone1 ,i retir$ ) ! *ild into ! inn] ap>tm5t1 & fa/5$ ! door4 ,at fir/ ,i appli$ myself to tranquillise ! *ild1 :o _h be5 some:at al>m$ at :at %e _h he>d & se53 ?is 0 no v difficult task4 ,%e pres5tly left me1 to amuse h]self ) "s play?+s t lay scatt]$ 9 a corn] ( ! ap>tm5t4 ,my he>t 0 n[ comp>atively at ease2 ,i saw ! p[]ful hold ,i _h on ! fidelity ( ! ,jew1 & firmly p]suad$ myself t ,i _h no trea*]y to fe> on 8 "p4 ,?us circum/anc$1 ! ex]tion & activity ) :i* ,i _h lately be5 imbu$ left me2 & ,i ins5sibly sunk into a sort ( slumb]4 ,! night 0 n[ f> advanc$1 & ,i 0 /ill recl9$ ins5sible ^u ,mordecai's b$1 :5 sudd5ly a j>gon ( v>i\s s\nds seem$ f all sides to assail me4 ,my m9d 0 confus$2 ,i he>d some?+1 b seem$ :olly unconsci\s :at ,i 01 & :]e4 ,i want$ to escape f ! di/urbance2 b x cont9u$1 & ev5 increas$4 ,at l5g? ,i 0 =c$ to comm& my att5tion2 & ! fir/ ?+ ,i p]ceiv$ 0 a beat+ at ! door ( ! *amb]4 ,! little girl 0 come to ! b$side1 & endeav\r+ to %ake me4 8,sir1 sir10 %e cri$ 9 an eag] acc5t1 8my fa!r wants to come 91 & ,i _c slip ! bolt ( ! door40 ,by sl[ degrees ,i began to compreh5d my situation1 & to recollect :at _h happ5$ imm$iately be=e4 ,i felt greatly al>m$2 ,i fe>$ by ! di/urbance t ,mordecai _h n return$ alone4 ,i essay$ to speak2 my organs refus$ _! (fice4 ,i endeav\r$ to move2 my limbs felt palsi$1 & absolutely lifeless4 ,i exp]i5c$ a s9k+ & sickness ( he>t t seem$ to be ! imm$iate precursor ( dea?4 ,by li/5+ occasionally to ! disc\rse :i* ! fa!r & ! daught] began to hold ) ea* o!r1 ,i became satisfi$ t ,mordecai 0 )\t a companion4 ,i endeav\r$ to make ! little girl und]/& t ,i 0 incapable ( ris+ f ! b$2 &1 hav+ at l5g? succe$$1 %e communicat$ ! in=mation to h] fa!r4 ,) consid]able tr\ble he loos5$ ! door at its h+es1 & ent]$ ! room4 ,i f\nd myself 9 ! extreme/ degree feeble & languid2 ! ,jew h[ev] assidu\sly adm9i/]$ to me ( cordials he _h 9 8 possession1 & by degrees ,i felt myself consid]ably re/or$4 ,n[1 = ! fir/ "t1 ,i 0 at leisure to att5d to ! /ate ( my /r5g? & my heal?4 ,my conf9em5t 9 ! inquisition1 & ! treatm5t ,i _h exp]i5c$1 _h be=e r5d]$ me feeble1 & almo/ helpless2 b ^! appe>$ to be circum/ances sc>cely wor?y ( att5tion1 9 ! situation 9 :i* ,i 0 !n plac$4 ,! impulse ,i felt1 9 ! mid/ ( ! confusion 9 ! gr& /reet ( ,valladolid1 produc$ 9 me an en]gy & p[] ( ex]tion :i* no?+ b ! actual exp]i5ce ( ! fact c\ld h p]suad$ me 0 possible4 ,?is en]gy1 once begun1 appe>$ to h ! faculty ( prolong+ itself2 & ,i did n relapse into imbecility1 till ! occasion seem$ to be exhau/$ :i* call$ = my ex]tion4 ,i exam9$ myself by a mirror ) :i* ,mordecai furni%$ me3 ,i f\nd my hair z :ite z sn[1 & my face pl\gh$ ) a ?\s& furr[s4 ,i 0 n[ fifty-f\r1 an age :i*1 ) mod]ate ex]cise & a vigor\s con/itution1 (t5 appe>s l ! prime ( human exi/5ce2 b :oev] _h look$ ^u me 9 my pres5t condition1 w\ld n h hesitat$ to affirm t ,i _h rea*$ ! eightie? ye> ( my age4 ,i exam9$ ) dispassionate rem>k ! /ate ( my intellect3 ,i 0 p]suad$ t x _h subsid$ into *ildi%ness4 ,my m9d _h be5 z mu* cribb$ & immur$ z my body4 ,i 0 ! m]e %ad[ ( a man1 ( no m p[] & wor? ?an t :i* a magic lant]n produces ^u a wall4 ,^! are ?y works1 ,sup]/ition6--?is ! g5u9e & prop] op]ation ( :at is call$ ,*ri/ianity6 ,let ! read] judge ( :at ,i _h pass$ ?r\gh & kn[n )9 ^? curs$ walls by ! effects2 ,i h already refus$1 ,i cont9ue to refuse1 to tell :at ,i suff]$1 & h[ ^? effects 7 produc$4 ,en\gh ( compassion1 en\gh ( compla9t3 ,i w conf9e myself1 z f> z ,i am able1 to simple hi/ory4 ,be+ recov]$1 z f> z ! cordials & att5tion ( ,mordecai 7 capable ( recov]+ me1 ,i desir$ = ! rema9d] ( ! night to be alone1 except t ,i 0 /ill resolv$ to reta9 ! little ,jewess z ! pl$ge ( my safety4 ,i 0 greatly oblig$ to my ho/ = ! punctuality he _h already display$3 he _h f\nd consid]able difficulty 9 procur+ ! articles ( :i* ,i /ood 9 ne$1 ow+ p>tly to ! lat5ess ( ! h\r1 & p>tly to ! pres5ce ( ! k+1 & ! g5]al hurry & confusion :i* _h be5 produc$ by ! solemn entry ( ! inquisition4 ,8 ef=ts too to recov] me f ! languor & le?>gy into :i* ,i _h sunk1 _h a "* ( g5]osity2 & p]haps ,i ought n[ to h tru/$ him )\t a ho/age4 ,b my he>t 0 too e>ne/ly b5t ^u accompli%+ its pres5t object1 to af=d h>b\r to ! punctilios ( delicacy4 ,! same e>ne/ness caus$ me to insi/ ^u ,mordecai's repair+ ! injury :i* ! h+es ( ! door _h su/a9$2 & ,i 0 c>eful to satisfy myself t e ?+ 0 re/or$ to a /ate ( p]fect security4 ,i 0 n[ once aga9 alone4 ,! little girl1 :o _h be5 unusually di/urb$1 & r\s$ at an unseasonable h\r1 sunk into a pr(\nd sleep4 ,i he>d ! noise :i* ,mordecai made 9 undress+ himself1 & compos+ 8 limbs ^u a mattrass1 :i* he _h dragg$ = ! pres5t occasion into ! front room1 & spread be=e ! he>?4 ,i soon f\nd by ! h>dness ( 8 brea?+ t he also 0 asleep4 ,i unfold$ ! pap]s he _h br\ght me2 !y consi/$ ( v>i\s m$ical +r$i5ts ,i _h direct$ him to procure2 !re 7 also two or ?ree vials1 conta9+ syrups & ess5ces4 ,i _h ne> me a pair ( scales ) :i* to weigh my +r$i5ts2 a vessel ( wat]2 ! *af+-di% ( my ho/1 9 :i* ! fire 0 ne>ly ext+ui%$2 & a small tap]1 ) "s *>coal to relight ! fire1 9 case ( necessity4 ,:ile ,i 0 occupi$ 9 survey+ ^! articles & arrang+ my mat]ials1 a sort ( torpor came sudd5ly ov] me1 s z to all[ me no "t = resi/ance4 ,i sunk ^u ! b$4 ,i rema9$ ?us = ab\t half an h\r1 seem+ly )\t ! p[] ( collect+ my ?\ghts4 ,at l5g? ,i />t$1 felt al>m$1 & appli$ my utmo/ =ce ( m9d to r\se my ex]tions4 ,:ile ,i drove1 or attempt$ to drive1 my animal spirits f limb to limb1 & f "p to "p1 z if to enquire into ! g5]al condition ( my frame1 ,i became conv9c$ t ,i 0 dy+4 ,let n ! read] be surpris$ at ?is3 twelve ye>s' imprisonm5t1 9 a n>r[ & un:olesome cell1 may well acc\nt = s sudd5 a cata/rophe4 ,/range & p>adoxical z x may seem1 ,i believe x w be f\nd 9 ! exp]im5t t ! calm & security :i* succe$ to great int]nal injuries are m dang]\s ?an ! pangs & h>d%ips t w5t be=e4 ,i 0 n[ ?or\ghly al>m$3 ,i appli$ myself1 ) all vigilance & exp$ition to ! comp\nd+ my mat]ials4 ,! fire 0 gone out2 ! tap] 0 glimm]+ 9 ! socket3 to swall[ ! julep :5 ,i _h prep>$ x1 seem$ to be ! la/ ef=t ( :i* my organs & muscles 7 capable4 ,x 0 ! elixir ( immortality1 exactly made up accord+ to ! prescription ( ! /rang]4 ,:e!r f ! pot5cy ( ! m$ic9e1 or ! effect ( imag9ation1 ,i felt reviv$ ! mom5t ,i _h swall[$ x4 ,i plac$ myself delib]ately 9 ,mordecai's b$1 & drew ov] me ! b$-clo!s4 ,i fell asleep almo/ in/antly4 ,i believe my fir/ sleep 0 p]fectly s\nd & ins5sible2 b 9 no long "t ,i 0 visit$ ) ! pleasante/ dreams imag9able4 ,no?+ 0 di/9ct2 no?+ 0 att5d$ ) ! consci\sness ( my =m] id5tity2 b e ?+ 0 gay1 *e]ful1 invigorat+1 & delici\s4 ,i w&]$ amid/ v]dant lawns1 & fl[]-enamell$ g>d5s4 ,i 0 salut$ ) ! s++ ( a ?\s& birds1 & ! murmur+ ( a ?\s& f\nta9s4 ,kids1 fawns1 & lambs frisk$ & gambol$ be=e me4 ,at a di/ance1 ?r\gh an op5+ 9 ! trees1 ,i disc]n$ nymphs & _! swa9s danc+ a v>iety ( antic measures4 ,i advanc$ t[>ds !m2 !y approa*$ t[>ds me4 ,fifes1 oboes1 record]s1 & in/rum5ts ( a hundr$ names1 comm5c$ a *e]ful & melodi\s conc]t4 ,myself & ! danc]s n[ 7 met2 !y plac$ me 9 ! mid/ ( !m4 ,!y began a *oral song2 ! motion ( _! limbs con=m$ to _! numb]s4 ,i 0 ! !me ( ! g5]al *aunt2 !y ascrib$ to me ! beauty ( ,apollo1 ! /r5g? ( ,h]cules1 ! inv5tion ( ,m]cury1 & ! y\? ( ,bac*us4 ,my sleep 0 n long2 9 a few h\rs ,i awak5$4 ,) difficulty ,i recognis$ ! objects ab\t me1 & recollect$ :]e ,i _h be54 ,x seem$ to me t my he>t _h nev] beat s vigor\sly1 nor my spirits fl[$ s gay4 ,i 0 all ela/icity & life2 ,i c\ld sc>cely hold myself quiet2 ,i felt impell$ to b\nd & leap l a kid ^u ! m\nta9s4 ,i p]ceiv$ t my little ,jewess 0 /ill asleep2 %e _h be5 unusually fatigu$ ! night be=e4 ,i "k n :e!r ,mordecai's h\r ( ris+ 7 come2 if x 71 he 0 c>eful n to di/urb 8 gue/4 ,i put on ! g>m5ts he _h prep>$2 ,i gaz$ ^u ! mirror he _h left 9 my ap>tm5t4 ,i c recollect no s5sation 9 ! c\rse ( my life1 s unexpect$ & surpris+ z :at ,i felt at t mom5t4 ,! ev5+ be=e1 ,i _h se5 my hair :ite1 & my face pl\gh$ ) furr[s2 ,i look$ f\rscore4 ,:at ,i beheld n[ 0 totally diff]5t1 yet altoge!r famili>2 x 0 myself1 myself z ,i _h appe>$ on ! day ( my m>riage ) ,m>gu]ite de ,damville2 ! eyes1 ! m\?1 ! hair1 ! complexion1 e circum/ance1 po9t by po9t1 ! same4 ,i leap$ a gulf ( ?irty-two ye>s4 ,i wak$ f a dream1 tr\blesome & di/ressful beyond all description2 b x vani%$1 l ! %ades ( night ^u ! bur/ ( a glori\s morn+ 9 ,july1 & left n a trace beh9d4 ,i knew n h[ to take away my eyes f ! mirror be=e me4 ,i soon began to consid] t1 if x 7 a/oni%+ to me t1 ?r\gh all ! regions ( my c\nt5ance1 ,i c\ld discov] no trace ( :at ,i _h be5 ! night be=e1 x w\ld be /ill m a/oni%+ to my ho/4 ,?is sort ( s5sation ,i _h n ! smalle/ ambition to produce3 "o ( ! advantages ( ! metamorphosis ,i _h su/a9$1 consi/$ 9 its t5d5cy1 9 ! eyes ( all t saw me1 to cut (f e species ( connection betwe5 my pres5t & my =m] self4 ,x =tunately happ5$ t ! room 9 :i* ,i slept1 be+ con/ruct$ ^u ! model ( _m o!rs 9 ,spa91 _h a /air at ! fur!r end1 ) a trap-door 9 ! ceil+1 = ! purpose ( enabl+ ! inhabitant to asc5d on ! ro( 9 ! cool ( ! day4 ,! ro(s 7 flat1 & s con/ruct$1 t !re 0 little difficulty 9 pass+ along !m f h\se to h\se1 f "o end ( ! /reet to ! o!r4 ,i avail$ myself ( ! opportunity1 & took leave ( ! resid5ce ( my l& ho/ 9 a way p]fectly unc]emoni\s1 det]m9$ h[ev] spe$ily to transmit to him ! rew>d ,i _h promis$4 ,x may easily be believ$ t ,mordecai 0 n less rejoic$ at ! abs5ce ( a gue/ :om ! vigilance ( ! inquisition r5d]$ an uncommonly dang]\s "o1 ?an ,i 0 to quit 8 habitation4 ,i clos$ ! trap aft] me1 & clamb]$ f ro( to ro( to a consid]able di/ance4 ,at l5g? ,i enc\nt]$ ! occasion ( an op5 w9d[1 & =tunately desc5d$1 unse5 by any human be+1 into ! /reet4 ,hav+ ) difficulty succe$$1 on ?is occasion ( public solemnity1 9 engag+ an ap>tm5t 9 "o ( ! hotels ( ,valladolid1 ,i s5t into x1 z soon z ,i 0 able1 a *e/1 conta9+ e necess>y ( app>el1 & p>ticul>ly a suit ( clo!s4 ,i !n *ang$ my dress1 & ?rew ! clo!s :i* ,mordecai _h provid$ into ! *e/ ,i _h pur*as$4 ,z long z !y cont9u$ safely lock$ up1 & ! key 9 my possession1 no faculty possess$ by any human creature c\ld detect my id5tity1 & expose me afre% to my =m] jailors4 ,! only p]il "u :i* ,i _h be=e lab\r$1 0 f ,mordecai1 :o1 if he _h se5 me 9 ! g>m5ts he _h procur$1 might h recognis$ !m2 &1 ?\gh a p]il f ?is s\rce came b>ely )9 ! limits ( possibility1 x 0 easily avoid$1 & ,i !re=e *ose to avoid x4 ,i pass$ ! :ole ( ?is day 9 a species ( enjoym5t1 :i*1 z x has no p>allel 9 ! ord9>y transactions ( mank9d1 s are !re no t]ms 9 ! receiv$ languages ( ! _w t are adequate to ! description ( x4 ,x has (t5 be5 a subject ( melan*oly & compla9t among mortals1 t1 :ile ! :ole vegetable sy/em conta9s 9 x a pr9ciple ( p]petual r5ewal1 man alone1--! ornam5t & "l ( ! univ]se1 man1--kn[s no return to y\?4 ,:5 ! sun decl9es 9 ! we/1 ! fl[]s droop1 & fold up _! frail & delicate leaves2 b soon ! eyelids ( ! morn are aga9 op5$1 & aga9 !y rejoice 9 8 invigorat+ beams4 ,^u ! approa* ( w9t]1 ! bee*1 ! a%1 & ! mon>*-oak1 scatt] _! )]$ foliage ov] ! pla9s2 b spr+ reappe>s1 & nak$ness is no long] _! reproa*1 & !y clo! !mselves anew 9 _! leafy hon\rs4 ,) :at a melan*oly s5sation does ! old man survey 8 decay+ limbs6 ,to me1 he cries1 !re is no second morn+1 & no return+ spr+4 ,my head1 press$ d[n ) ye>s1 %all nev] aga9 erect itself 9 consci\s manhood4 ,^! ho>y locks %all no m be adorn$ ) ! auburn ( glossy y\?4 ,my wea!r-beat5 trunk %all at no "t clo! itself ) a smoo!r r9d4 ,a recruit$ m>r[ %all nev] fill ^! bones1 nor a m vigor\s sap circulate ?r\gh my un/rung limbs4 ,i recollect :at ,i 0 9 ! prime ( manhood1 ) va9 regrets2 ! memory answ]s no o!r end ?an to torm5t & upbraid me4 ,! useless wi% ( ! old man1 ! object ( 8 hopeless sigh1 0 m9e4 ,common & e-day bless+s h little value 9 ! eye ( _! possessor4 ,! "y man squ&]s ! end[m5ts ( y\?1 & kn[s n to prize !m4 ,if ! "y man _h once be5 old1 if ! old man c\ld aga9 be "y1 !n1 & !n only1 !y w\ld ju/ly e/imate _! weal?4 ,! spr+y limb1 ! b\nd+ frame1 ! vig\r t sets fatigue at defiance1 & revels 9 pleasures unexhau/$1 w\ld !n by ! ne> & consci\s comp>ison1 ( feebl5ess & lassitude1 ! droop+ limb1 ! a*+ head1 & ! frame decay$ 9 all its s5ses1 be well und]/ood4 ,su* 0 my situation4 ,ye/]day ,i 0 f\rscore2 to-day ,i 0 tw5ty4 ,ye/]day ,i 0 a prison]1 crippl$ 9 e articulation2 to-day ,i 0 a citiz5 ( ! _w1 capable ( all its delights4 ,to-morr[ ,i 0 de/9$ to h be5 dragg$ to ! /ake ) ignom9y1 & to suff] intol]able angui% amid/ ! %\ts & huzzas ( an unfeel+ populace2 to-morr[ ,i 0 at lib]ty to employ z ,i pleas$1 to *oose ! !atre ^u :i* x %\ld be sp5t1 & ! gratifications t %\ld be cr[d$ into x4 ,:at 0 mo/ mat]ial1 my m9d 0 gr[n "y ) my body4 ,we>y ( et]nal /ruggle1 ,i _h lately resign$ ! conte/1 & sunk "u ! ill-=tune t rel5tlessly pursu$ me4 ,n[ ,i felt )9 me a sup]fluity ( vig\r2 ,i pant$ = some?+ to cont5d )1 & some?+ to conqu]4 ,my s5ses unfold$ !mselves to all ! curiosity ( rem>k2 my ?\ghts seem$ capable ( indu/ry unwe>i$1 & inve/igation ! mo/ con/ant & inv9cible4 ,ambition reviv$ 9 my bosom2 ,i long$ = new engagem5ts & new relations2 ,i desir$ to p]=m some?+1 t ,i might myself reg>d ) complac5ce1 & t ,i might see ! _w />t at & applaud4 ,i det]m9$1 = reasons t ,i %all pres5tly h occasion to unfold1 t my fir/ visit %\ld be to my daught]s at my pat]nal e/ate ( ,/4 ,leon4 ,i propos$ to sp5d two or ?ree days 9 prep>ations = ?is j\rney4 ,by m]e accid5t1 by a mo/ c5surable he$lessness1 ,i became 9 "s degree a spectator ( ! auto da f 9 :i* ,i 0 de/9$ to h be5 a victim4 ,unaw>es ,i _h become entangl$ 9 ! cr[d1 & c\ld ) difficulty escape1 or ev5 prev5t my be+ c>ri$ ne>] ! c5tre ( ! sc5e4 ,i saw ! gall]ies & accommodations t _h be5 erect$ = ! spectators3 ,i saw ! w9d[s & ro(s ( ! h\ses cr[d$ ) behold]s4 ,! %rieks ( ! suff]]s ,i c\ld n he>2 !y 7 dr[n$ 9 ! inf]nal exultations ( ! multitude4 ,b :at 0 wor/ ( all1 ,i disc]n$ "s ( ! condemn$1 fix$ z !y 7 ^u small bo>ds1 ne> ! top ( /akes ab\t f\r y>ds high1 & !re=e greatly above ! heads ( ! assembly1 :ile ! flames1 abundantly f$ ) faggots & dry fuel1 climb$ al(t1 & seem$ eag] to embrace _! victims4 ,z ,i h already said1 !re 7 ?irty ( ^! dea?-devot$ frames2 &1 if my eye did n c\nt !m all1 my fancy well suppli$ :at s5se 0 unable to discov]4 ,! impression ,i felt at t mom5t 0 horrible beyond all conception4 ,i ex]t$ my new-f\nd /r5g?1 & pu%$ out ( ! press ) irresi/ible vig\r4 ,if at t in/ant ,i c\ld h felt exultation1 ev5 9 ! consci\sness ( my own safety1 ,i %\ld reg>d myself z ! mo/ execrable ( mon/]s4 ,,*apt] ,,xxxiv4 ,! fir/ employm5t 9 :i* ,i purpos$ to engage my new-f\nd lib]ty & y\?1 0 a visit to my daught]s4 ,i n[ c>ri$ a disguise p]petually ab\t ) me1 t w\ld r5d] my j\rney incapable ( prov+ injuri\s to !m4 ,my daught]s 7 all t rema9$1 if inde$ !y /ill rema9$1 ( my once idolis$ family4 ,= twelve ye>s ,i _h cont9u$ totally ignorant ( _! =tune1 & ev5 ( _! exi/5ce4 ,"p ( ! plan ,i _h adopt$ = _! advantage necess>ily preclud$ me f all correspond5ce or communication ) !m or any "o ne> !m1 t might satisfy & tranquillise ! anxieties ( a fa!r4 ,if x _h be5 o!rwise1 depriv$1 z ,i _h be51 ( ! common b5efits ( light & air1 & ca/ out f ! society ( mank9d1 ,i c\ld h obta9$ no intellig5ce ( _! welf>e4 ,9 visit+1 ,i det]m9$ n to make myself kn[n to !m2 yet1 not)/&+ ! greatness ( ?is disadvantage1 ,i felt t "o ( ! mo/ exquisite gratifications ! e>? c\ld af=d me 0 to behold my *ildr54 ,:at a multitude ( adv5tures & incid5ts might !y n h enc\nt]$ 9 ! space ( twelve ye>s6 ,imag9ation & affection dwell impati5tly on ! int]val2 nor c any ?+ quiet ! conjectures ( him t loves1 %ort ( ! mo/ complete in=mation4 ,:at a diff]5ce mu/ twelve ye>s h produc$ 9 ! v p]sons & figures ( creatures s "y8 ,) :at m+l$ & exquisite emotions does ! fa!r contemplate 8 daught]1 :om he left a *ild1 gr[n up into a woman8 ,he sees h] ) a/oni%m5t & rapture1 display+ matur] beauties1 discov]+ 9 h] c\nt5ance new traces ( k & s5tim5t1 & 9 h] ge/ure & mann]s a "* f9i%$1 matronly1 & s$ate4 ,! v circum/ance t ,i %\ld visit !m unkn[n1 & conv]se intimately ) !m )\t be+ discov]$1 :ile x cut me (f f _m pure & +5u\s pleasures1 add$ 9 "s respects a new reli% to ! indulg5ce2 = x gave x a "*1 s+ul>1 & p]haps unprec$5t$1 9 ! hi/ory ( mank9d4 ,i anticipat$ ) eag] transport ! h\r at :i* ,i %\ld revisit ! place ( my bir?1 w&] amid/ ! %ades :]e my c>eless infancy _h /ray$1 recognise objects made sacr$ to my he>t by associations ) my v5]able "m & my adorable wife1 n[ illum9$ ) ! pres5ce ( my *ildr51 & /eal a joy1 unsuspect$ & unkn[n1 to :i* ! v secrecy ) :i* x 0 ravi%$ w\ld give a t5fold gu/4 ,i embrac$ ! ne>e/ r\te1 by ,pampeluna & ! ,pyr5ees1 to ! banks ( ! ,g>onne4 ,"o p>ticul> pleasure t ,i reap$ dur+ ?is t\r1 :i* ! climate & sc5]y might alone h r5d]$ delightful1 consi/$ 9 ! y\?ful s5sation ) :i* e ?+ ,i saw 0 enjoy$4 ,e "o :o c call to m9d ! amusem5ts ( 8 *ildhood w be consci\s t dur+ t p]iod all 8 s5ses 7 9 a tone adapt$ to convey ! mo/ exquisite gratification4 ,?is is n m]ely1 z is vulg>ly suppos$1 ! result ( ! novelty & fre%ness ) :i* at t "t e ?+ /rikes u4 ,! extremities ( ! n]ves are 9 a /ate ( ! mo/ delicate susceptibility1 ^u :i* no t\*1 h[ev] slight & evanesc5t1 is lo/1 & :i* makes u1 ^u e occasion fav\rable to enjoym5t1 gasp & tremble ) ! pleasure we imbibe4 ,we feel x ?rill+ ?r\gh e pulse1 & communicat+ its tone to e "p4 ,our att5tion is engross$ by a s+le object2 or1 if we are s5sible to accompany+ incid5ts1 x spreads ov] !m an animat+ sun%9e1 & totally v>ies _! appe>ance & hue4 ,age1 on ! contr>y1 imp]ceptibly br+s along ) x callosity & sluggi%ness ( s5sation1 our gratifications are coldly reli%$1 & our desires feebly awak5$4 ,su* is ! diff]5ce 9 our p]ception1 ( delici\s fruits1 ( fragrant smells1 ( smoo? & glossy surfaces1 ( ! vividness ( col\r1 & ! heav5ly sweetness ( s\nd4 ,if ?is be a j acc\nt1 ,i leave ! read] to imag9e h[ ,i enjoy$ my t\r f ,valladolid to ! beautiful & romantic retirem5t ( ,/4 ,leon4 ,!re 0 h[ev] "o s5tim5t ) :i* ,i 0 at ?is "t impress$1 t ,i %all f9d x difficult to make ! read] und]/& 9 ! ext5t 9 :i* ,i felt x1 & t =m$ a p[]ful drawback ^u ! pleasures ,i h j describ$4 ,a %ort "t ago ,i _h be5 old2 n[ ,i 0 "y3 ,i _h quaff$ ( ! elixir ( immortality4 ,! revolution ?is _h produc$ 9 my s5tim5ts 0 n less memorable ?an t :i* x _h effect$ 9 my corporeal l9eam5ts & my m5tal ela/icity4 ,x is s diff]5t a ?+ to conceive a proposition !oretically1 & to exp]i5ce x 9 practice6 ,! case is p>allel to t ( ! expectation :i* an ord9>y ,*ri/ian ent]ta9s ( et]nal bliss4 ,x is an article 9 8 cre$2 he repeats x e night :5 he lies d[n1 & e morn+ :5 he rises4 ,he w\ld be bo? (f5d$ & surpris$ if y told him he 0 n p]suad$ ( x2 & yet h[ fa9t & indi/9ct a picture x produces 9 8 intellectual ret9a6 ,! affairs ( ! _w /rike him ) all ! =ce ( vision2 to !m he _c make himself a /rang] & a pilgrim2 he _c transf] all 8 affections to ! m]e creature ( 8 imag9ation1 eng5d]$ 9 solitude1 & nurtur$ by en?usiasm1--heav54 ,h[ diff]5t mu/ h be5 ! feel+s ( ! celebrat$ apo/le1 :o _h be5 tak5 up into ! ?ird heav51 & _h beheld ! new ,j]usalem ) all its jasp]s1 its *rysolites1 its em]alds1 & its sapphires6 ,my situation 0 simil> to ?is4 ,i _h long kn[n1 z f> z reflection c\ld assure me ( x1 t ,i possess$ ! elixir ( immortality4 ,b nev] till n[ _h ,i felt ! julep t+l+ 9 my ve9s1 & kn[n ! effects ( x 9 e jo9t & articulation ( my frame4 ,i be=e believ$1 ,i n[ felt1 t ,i 0 immortal4 ,! consequ5ce ( ?is intimate p]suasion 0 n )\t its portion ( melan*oly4 ,i /ill bore ! figure & l9eam5ts ( a human creature2 b ,i knew t ,i 0 n :at ,i seem$4 ,!re 0 a great] di/ance betwe5 me & ! be/ con/ruct$ & mo/ consummate ( ! human species1 ?an !re is betwe5 him & an ant or a muskito1 cru%$ by ! fir/ accid5tal tread1 or consum$ by ! fir/ sp>k waft$ by ! w9d4 ,i c no long] *eat my fancy2 ,i "k t ,i am alone4 ,! creature does n exi/ ) :om ,i h any common language1 or any g5u9e sympa?ies4 ,society is a bitt] & gall+ mock]y to my he>t2 x only %[s 9 m gl>+ col\rs my desolate condition4 ,! ne>] ,i attempt to draw any ( ! nom9al ties ( our nature1 ! m !y />t & %r9k f my grasp4 ,f ?is mom5t ,i c\ld n %ake (f ! t]rible impression ( my lonel9ess2 no1 n = an h\r4 ,(t5 does ?is impression induce me to reg>d my immortality ) loa?+ indescribable2 (t5 d ,i wi% to %elt] myself f x 9 ! sweet oblivion ( ! grave4 ,f ?is h\r ,i _h no passions1 no int]e/s1 no affections2 my he>t has nev] exp&$ ) "o natural emotion2 ,i h nev] deliv]$ myself up to ! repose ( "o g5u9e amusem5t4 ,if at any "t ,i h _h a glimpse ( pleasure1 x has irritat$1 only to deceive2 x has increas$ ! appetite1 :ile x display$ 9 /rong] col\rs my impot5ce to gratify x4 ,:at is worse1 e add$ ye> has /ill subtract$ some?+ f ! little poignancy & reli% :i* ! b[l ( human life cont9u$ to reta94 ,i h ! p[] ( assum+ a y\?ful & glossy appe>ance :5ev] ,i ?9k prop]2 b ?is is only a bitt] mock]y ( ! furr[s pl\gh$ 9 my he>t4 ,9 s mu* ( my adv5tures z rema9s = me to describe1 ,i feel t ,i %all be oblig$ to employ ! e/abli%$ t]ms ( human description4 ,i _c int]rupt ! hi/ory ( my s5sations1 by a recital ( ^? pangs by :i* !y h be5 e mom5t int]rupt$4 ,! t]ms ,i mu/ use may delude ! read] into an imag9ation t ,i /ill p>ticipate ( enjoym5t & ( hope4 ,be x s2 !y may *eat ! read]2 !y _c *eat myself6 ,previ\sly to my arrival 9 ! vic9ity ( ! ,g>onne1 ,i equipp$ myself 9 ! habit ( an ,arm5ian1 & assum$ ! "* ( a m]*ant travell+ f c\ntry to c\ntry = ! sale ( 8 commodities4 ,x 0 9 ! close ( a w9try day 9 ! bleak & *e]less mon? ( ,decemb]1 t ,i fir/ view$ f a di/ance ! turrets ( ,/4 ,leon4 ,i procur$ myself accommodations = ! night 9 ! adjo9+ village4 ,be+ n[1 aft] s long an abs5ce1 )9 rea* ( ! resid5ce ( ^! lovely treasures1 ,i s\ght1 )\t any direct consci\sness ( ! s5tim5t1 to delay our int]view4 ,:5 ,i ent]$ ! little aub]ge1 %elt]$ "u a small plantation ( olives1 ,i dread$ to he> ! repetition ( my family "n4 ,i long$ mo/ f]v5tly to be in=m$ ( ! welf>e ( my daught]s1 yet ,i c\ld h di$ soon] ?an utt] a s+le "q on ! subject4 ,i f\nd t t ard5t love :i* _h urg$ me ) rapid /eps f ,valladolid to ,/4 ,leon1 gradually1 z ! di/ance grew little1 *ang$ f an impetu\s vehem5ce to he> (1 & to see !m1 to fe>ful1 awe-/ruck1 motionless anxiety4 ,_! light & airy figures1 z ,i la/ saw !m at ,montauban 9 #aedg1 danc$ be=e ! eyes ( my imag9ation3 :at casualties1 :at calamities might n h ov]tak5 !m s9ce6 ,i 0 afraid almo/ to brea!1 le/ ,i %\ld dissolve ! unreal sc5e t play$ ar\nd me4 ,h[ did ,i "k t ,i did n indulge ?is *e]ful imag9ation = ! la/ "t8 ,aga9 & aga9 9 ! c\rse ( ! ev5+1 ,i felt z if ,i c\ld h wa/$ ages 9 ?is aub]ge & ! neighb\r+ fields1 /ill believ+ t my daught]s inhabit$ yond] t[]s1 /ill hov]+ r\nd _! fanci$ resid5ce1 b nev] d>+ to utt] _! "n1 le/ x %\ld be f\nd ! prelude to "s fatal intellig5ce4 ,h[ ri* & ref9$ a repa/ 9 "s cases is unc]ta9ty6 ,x _h ! p[] to imp>t to ^! preci\s pl$ges a %>e ( t immortality ( :i* ,i 0 ! de/9$ monopoli/4 ,:y _h ,i n ! c\rage nev] to ov]pass ! limit at :i* ,i 0 n[ arriv$1 &1 :]ev] ,i aft]w>ds w&]$ on ! v>i\s surface ( ! globe1 /ill to be able to repeat to myself ! complac5t :isp]1 8,i h visit$ my daught]s 9 _! sep>at$ abode1 & my visit 0 productive ( none b agreeable s5sations80 ,my passions 7 too mu* afloat to suff] me really to re/ 9 ?is pati5t1 contemplative gratification4 ,be=e ! morn+'s dawn1 ,i walk$ =?1 & turn$ my eyes t[>ds ! ca/le4 ,i loit]$ f bank to bank1 & f po9t to po9t4 ,daylight sl[ly broke 9 ^u me1 b all 0 sil5t & quiet 9 my pat]nal *teau4 8,! family is n yet /irr+10 said ,i to myself4 ,i turn$ my /eps to ! spot :]e ! a%es ( my "m 7 m+l$ ) _! p>5t e>?4 ,! "t t _h int]v5$ s9ce h] decease1 ! v>i\s =tunes & impressions ,i _h exp]i5c$1 _h some:at oblit]at$ ! vividness ( h] picture 9 my memory1 & dead5$ ! trembl+ness ( s5sation ) :i* ,i once ?\ght ( h]4 ,yet en\gh 0 left1 to make x an int]e/+ mom5t to me1 :5 ,i kneel$ at h] tomb4 ,:y1 oh :y1 z x _h be5 ) my great =efa!rs1 0 x n a mom5t ( exultation to me1 :5 ,i ?us feel+ly salut$ ! %ade ( a p>5t6 ,he t exults 9 su* an h\r1 mu/ feel t he has illu/rat$ 8 bir?1 & hon\r$ 8 prog5itors4 ,i _h done no?+ ( ?is3 ,i 0 an exile on ! face ( ! e>?1 _h acquir$ no trophies1 & accumulat$ no fame4 ,i _h none to hon\r1 none ev5 to "k me2 ,i _h no family1 ,i _h no fri5d6 ,^! bitt] recollections />t$ up 9 array be=e me1 & cut me to ! he>t4 ,! _s ( my "m fr[n$ ^u h] son2 & ,i return$ along ! pa? by :i* ,i came1 disgrac$ & disconsolate4 8,i am n[10 said ,i1 89 a fit temp] to le>n intellig5ce ( my daught]s3 if !y h be5 unhappy1 to he> x w n make me m =lorn2 if !y h be5 =tunate1 t k1 & t alone1 may revive my c\rage40 ,i ha/5$ t[>ds ! av5ue4 ,i look$ into ! ?ickets & w9d+ pa?s1 z ,i pass$4 ,!y communicat$ to me m+l$ pictures ( my own boyi% days1 & ( ! amusem5ts ( ! pres5t inhabitants4 ,i told ! nature ( my pret5d$ traffic to ! s]vants ( ! h\se1 & propos$ an exhibition ( my commodities2 ,i 0 admitt$1 z ,i desir$1 to ! ap>tm5t ( _! mi/resses4 ,i saw two "y ladies1 :o appe>$ to be respectively ab\t tw5ty-eight & tw5ty-f\r ye>s ( age1 & :om )\t mu* difficulty ,i recognis$ = my daught]s ,l\isa & ,m>gu]ite4 ,_! situation & _! ages id5tifi$ !m2 & :5 aft]w>ds ,i came to p]use _! features att5tively1 ,i c\ld easily discov] traits ( ! amiable "y woman & ! playful *ild !y _h be5 :5 la/ we p>t$4 ,i f\nd !m employ$ ^u a piece ( embroid]y2 a comely & respectable look+ "y woman1 a s]vant1 0 sew+ 9 ano!r "p ( ! room4 ,e ?+ ab\t ! ladies bespoke ! ease ( _! circum/ances1 & ! propriety ( _! s5tim5ts4 ,bo? _h on an elegant morn+-habit2 bo? _h an air ( s$at5ess & sobriety1 t to my appreh5sion told t !y _h n liv$ un*a/5$ by mis=tune4 ,!y ea* slightly look$ up1 z ,i 0 u%]$ into ! ap>tm5t2 !y salut$ me ) a graceful & condesc5d+ b5d ( ! head1 su* z we are accu/om$ to use to an inf]ior :om we are will+ to put at 8 ease4 ,:at 7 my s5sations1 a fa!r1 disguis$ & unkn[n1 9 ! pres5ce ( 8 *ildr56 ,i attempt$ to /&1 z is usual = a tradesman1 :5 he waits on 8 cu/om]s at _! own h\se4 ,i attempt$ to speak4 ,my tongue refus$ its (fice2 my legs tott]$ z if su/a9+ an unusual weight4 ,l\isa obs]v$ me1 & desir$ me to be seat$4 ,i _h no p[] ( *oice2 ,i accept$ h] civility4 ,no soon] 0 ,i seat$1 ?an 9 spite ( myself a flood ( te>s gu%$ f my eyes4 ,%e 0 a/oni%$2 %e begg$ to "k if ,i 7 indispos$2 %e reque/$ me to make use ( e assi/ance ! h\se c\ld af=d4 ,i n[ f\nd my spee*4 ,i apologis$ = my behavi\r2 said ,i _h felt sudd5ly ill1 b t ! te>s ,i %$ w\ld prove ! mo/ effectual relief to me4 ,my appe>ance1 x may be prop] to m5tion1 0 n t ( a vulg> p$l>2 x 0 tall1 graceful1 & +5u\s1 ) a c]ta9 air ( ref9em5t & polit5ess2 my ,arm5ian dress1 ?\gh =m$ ( unco/ly mat]ials1 0 su* z to display my p]son to consid]able advantage4 ,bo? ! "y ladies %[$ !mselves int]e/$ 9 ! symptoms ( my di/ress4 ,aft] a few m9utes int]nal /ruggle1 ,i rose1 made an excuse = ! abruptness ( my dep>ture1 & reque/$ p]mission to repeat my visit 9 ! aft]noon1 :5 ,i %\ld h some?+ n unimportant to communicate to !m4 ,i _h se5 two ( my daught]s2 ,i _h be5 satisfi$ t !y /ill exi/$2 ,i _h witness$ _! ext]ior heal? & beauty4 ,z ,i )drew1 ,i laid my h& ^u my he>t1 & congratulat$ myself3 8,?us f>10 said ,i1 8x is well60 ,i felt reliev$ f "p ( ! weight t lay !re4 ,) my "r h& ,i /ruck ^u my =ehead3 8b1 oh1 :]e10 cri$ ,i1 8is my o!r daught]80 ,! ?\ght came ov] me ) ! =ce ( a demon/ration3 %e is dead6 ,a s]vant 0 att5d+ me to ! door2 ,i reque/$ to speak to ! h\sekeep]2 ,i 0 introduc$ to ,m>iana ,*abot4 ,%e 0 /ruck ) my appe>ance1 z ,i believe my daught]s _h be51 z if my features 7 ^? ( "s p]son ) :om %e 0 intimately acqua9t$4 ,%e w\ld probably h mi/ak5 me = my own son1 b t ,i look$ consid]ably too "y4 ,i intreat$ h] to p>don my curiosity2 b1 ,i assur$ h]1 ,i _h a p>ticul> reason to int]e/ myself 9 ! family ( ,monsieur ,/4 ,leon1 & ,i !re=e reque/$ t %e w\ld h ! goodness to in=m me ( _! affairs1 z f> z %e c\ld ) propriety communicate !m to a p]son :o 0 n s happy z to be 9 ! catalogue ( _! acqua9tance4 ,i told h] t ,i _h j se5 two ( h] ladies1 b t ,i _h und]/ood !re _h be5 ?ree1 & ,i p>ticul>ly desir$ "s in=mation z to ! "y lady :o _h n made h] appe>ance 9 ! p>l\r4 ,my pres5tim5t 0 true2 ! impression t smote me :5 ,i left ! p>l\r1 0 h] fun]al knell2 my belov$ ,julia 0 dead2 %e _h be5 dead f\r ye>s6 ,if x _h n be5 = ! agitation ( my m9d :5 ,i visit$ ! tomb ( my v5]able p>5t1 ,i %\ld h discov]$ h] monum5t ne> t ( h] gr&mo!r4 ,t w\ld h be5 too ov]:elm+ a mode ( le>n+ ! pa9ful intellig5ce2 ,i 0 glad at lea/ to h escap$ t6 ,9 ?is & "s subsequ5t conv]sations ,i held ) ?is respectable matron1 ,i le>n$ a v>iety ( p>ticul>s respect+ my daught]s4 ,madame ,*abot express$ h]self sorry t %e _h no?+ pleas+ to communicate4 ,h] "y ladies _h be5 pursu$ by a tra9 ( mis=tunes1 ?\gh1 heav5 knew1 !y _h m]it$ e happ9ess4 ,a few ye>s aft] !y _h be5 settl$ at ,/4 ,leon1 ,julia _h be5 address$ by a lov] 9 e s5se wor?y ( h]4 ,he 0 ri*1 noble1 ( a gallant _s1 ( a cultivat$ und]/&+1 & a truly k9d & affectionate he>t4 ,_! atta*m5t _h be5 long & tri$2 habit & exp]i5ce ( ea* o!r's virtues _h caus$ x to take a deep root4 ,! fa!r ( ! "y man _h de/9$ him to m>ry ! daught] ( a duke & pe] ( ! k+dom2 b1 f9d+ 8 affections unalt]ably fix$1 he _h at l5g? yield$1 & sanction$ _! mutual passion ) 8 cons5t4 ,e ?+ 0 n[ prep>$ = ! nuptials2 a day 0 fix$1 & ! appo9t$ "t 0 fa/ approa*+4 ,j at ?is juncture1 ! fa!r *ang$ 8 m9d1 & became m ob/9ate & inexorable ?an ev]4 ,a report _h begun to be circulat$ t monsieur ,/4 ,leon1 ! fa!r ( ! "y ladies1 0 /ill alive4 ,madame ,*abot express$ h] fe> t ?is report _h orig9at$ 9 "s indiscretion ( ,b]n>d91 :o1 h[ev]1 _h always prov$ himself a mo/ zeal\s & fai?ful s]vant1 & :o _h s9ce paid ! debt ( nature4 ,be t z x might1 ! fa!r ( ! lov] ( ,julia 0 f\nd no long] accessible to expo/ulation or entreaty4 ,he 0 ( an av>ici\s disposition1 & he reg>d$ ! =tune ( ! "y lady1 :i* w\ld o!rwise h be5 consid]able1 z entirely ali5at$ & annihilat$ by ?is flaw 9 ! title4 ,b :at 0 m mat]ial1 x by no means accord$ ) 8 ideas ( nobility & hon\r1 t ! fa!r-9-law ( 8 only son %\ld be a fugitive & a w&]]1 ) ^: resid5ce no "o 0 acqua9t$1 & ( :om no "o c\ld tell :e!r he 7 liv+ or dead4 ,! mann] 9 :i* ! ladies _h ent]$ into ! repossession ( _! pat]nal e/ate1 :5 m9utely inve/igat$1 0 ?\ght to h some?+ 9 x ( an ambigu\s & unpleasant nature4 ,x 0 well kn[n t monsieur ,/4 ,leon _h left ! c\ntry 9 consequ5ce ( 8 hav+ ru9$ himself by ! vice ( gam+4 8,surely10 said "s1 8x is a little my/]i\s1 h[ 8 *ildr5 came1 aft] an int]val ( n9e ye>s1 to be able to repur*ase all he ev] possess$40 ,9 %ort1 ! m ! old vicomte 0 reason$ )1 ! m furi\s he grew4 ,at l5g? he made use ( ! p[] :i* ! gov]nm5t ( ,france ve/s 9 ! fa!r ( a family1 & %ut up 8 son 9 "o ( ! royal prisons4 ,?is 0 a fatal bl[ bo? to ! *evali] & 8 mi/ress4 ,disappo9t$ 9 ! object ( 8 w>me/ affections1 maltreat$ & disgrac$ by ! sev]ity ( a fa!r1 8 heal? s5sibly decl9$4 ,no?+ h[ev] c\ld %ake ! inflexibility ( ! vicomte2 he w\ld release 8 son ^u no o!r t]ms ?an a r5unciation ( 8 love1 t]ms :i* ! s5se ( dignity & hon\r 9 ! "y g5tleman1 equally ) 8 passion1 =bade him to accept4 ,to all repres5tations ( ! necessity ( grant+ lib]ty to 8 son1 if he w\ld n make himself answ]able = 8 dea?1 ! vicomte /]nly repli$1 8t he pref]r$ 8 dy+ to ! idea ( 8 connect+ himself ) a family ( di%on\r40 ,x 0 n till a few weeks be=e he expir$1 t ! fa!r _h cons5t$ to 8 release f prison1 & _h remov$ him to "o ( 8 ca/les 9 a remote prov9ce4 ,b ! malady ( ! *evali] 0 f\nd incurable2 ! vital pr9ciples ( ! sy/em 7 fatally d]ang$4 ,! lov] di$2 & ! consequ5ces ( ?is unhappy affair _h put a premature close to ! exi/5ce ( ! un=tunate ,julia4 ,madame ,*abot add$ t1 ! circum/ance ( ?is /ory hav+ become a subject ( public animadv]sion1 x _h _h a mo/ unfav\rable effect on ! prospects ( ! surviv+ si/]s4 ,!y bore _! situation ) dignity2 b !y c\ld n b feel ! unhappy co9cid5ce1 :i* cut !m (f f ! happie/ condition ( human life1 an hon\rable & well assort$ settlem5t 9 m>riage4 ,:ile madame ,*abot relat$ to me ! tragical hi/ory ( ,julia1 ,i felt convuls$ ) passion1 & m ?an once bur/ into an agony ( te>s4 ,fatal legacy6 atroci\s secrets ( m$ic9e & *emi/ry6 e day op5$ to my a/oni%$ & t]rifi$ sight a wid] prospect ( _! wa/eful effects6 ,a common degree ( p5etration might h %[n me1 t secrets ( ?is "* cut (f _! possessor f ! de>e/ ties ( human exi/5ce1 & r5d] him a solit>y1 cold1 self-c5t]$ individual2 8 he>t no long] able to p\r itself into ! bosom ( a mi/ress or a fri5d2 8 bosom no long] qualifi$ to receive ^u equal t]ms ! ov]fl[+ ( a k9dr$ he>t4 ,b no m]e ex]cise ( imag9ation1 no?+ %ort ( ! actual exp]i5ce ?r\gh :i* ,i _h pass$1 c\ld h adequately repres5t$ ! mis*iefs ( a ?\s& v>i\s names1 t issu$ f ?is ,p&ora's box1 ?is extract ( a univ]sal panacea4 ,i reg>d$ myself z ! murd]] ( ^! two lov]s1 ?an :om ,i conclud$1 f my p]sonal obs]vation ( ! "o1 & all t ,i he>d ( ! o!r1 two pur] & m affectionate be+s1 m s+ul>ly qualifi$ to =m ea* o!r's happ9ess1 _h nev] exi/$4 ,i felt z truly haunt$ ) ! gho/s ( ^? ,i _h murd]$1 z ,n]o or ,caligula might h be52 my wife1 my son1 my fai?ful negro2 & n[1 9 addition to ^!1 ! t5d] ,julia & h] unalt]able admir]4 ,i possess$ ! gift ( immortal life2 b ,i look$ on myself z a mon/] t did n des]ve to exi/4 ,x is ) difficulty t ,i %all be able to make ! read] und]/& h[ mu* m sev]e ! impression ( ?is la/ cata/rophe 0 made to me1 by ! place & "t 9 :i* ,i receiv$ ! intellig5ce4 ,we are creatures ( s5sation3 our wor/ calamities d]ive z mu* ( _! pung5cy f ! accessories by :i* !y are accompani$1 z !y d f _! intr9sic evil4 ,if ,i _h he>d ?is /ory at any o!r p]iod1 ,i am p]suad$ its effects w\ld n h be5 half s pa9ful4 ,! idea ( my daught]s 0 fad$ 9 my s5sorium1 & :atev] relat$ to !m1 ?\gh really felt1 & felt l a fa!r1 w\ld h be5 felt ) a less ov]p[]+ int]e/4 ,b n[ ,i _h j\rney$ f ,valladolid to ! ,g>onne to behold !m2 ,i _h survey$ ! ca/le !y inhabit$2 ,i _h view$ ! g>d5 :i* !y arrang$ ) _! h&s2 ,i _h ent]$ ! p>l\r :i* !y adorn$ ) _! pres5ce4 ,all ?is controll$ ! op]ation ( abs5ce & ( di/ance2 ,i felt at ?is mom5t z if ,i _h be5 accu/om$ to see !m e day1 & to reg>d !m z insep>able f my exi/5ce4 ,i exp]i5c$1 z x 71 ! unit$ effect ( famili>ity & novelty2 ,i felt ! melan*oly fate ( ,julia1 ) all ! ke5ness ( an inmate1 & all ! surprise ( a long abs5t travell]4 ,! v metamorphosis ,i _h und]gone gave new poignancy to my di/ress4 ,madame ,*abot tortur$ me delib]ately & at leisure1 )\t ! slighte/ consci\sness ( :at %e 0 do+2 %e believ$ %e 0 p\r+ a tale ( p]sons unkn[n into ! e>s ( a native ( ! o!r hemisph]e1 at ! mom5t t %e 0 call+ up 9 arms ! /ronge/ & mo/ excruciat+ feel+s ( a fa!r = 8 *ild4 ,i on ! o!r h& _h ! mo/ viol5t /ruggle ) myself1 :ile ,i endeav\r$ to suppress ! appe>ances ( an emotion1 :i* to ! p]son :o witness$ !m mu/ h be5 = ev] unacc\ntable4 ,z x 01 & 9 spite ( all my ef=ts1 madame ,*abot betray$ no little amazem5t at ! agitation ) :i* ,i li/5$ to a /ory1 9 :i*1 z %e appreh5d$1 ,i c\ld h no p]sonal int]e/4 ,:at ,i he>d f madame ,*abot sugge/$ to me a conduct1 :i* ,i resolv$ to adopt "u ! pres5t circum/ances4 ,9 my next int]view ,i told ,l\isa t ,i w\ld n[ acc\nt to h] = emotions :i*1 at ! "t !y occurr$1 mu/ h appe>$ some:at extraord9>y4 ,i own$ t ,i _h be5 acqua9t$ ) h] fa!r2 ,i said t ,i _h fir/ met ) him 9 a j\rney1 9 :i* ,i 0 !n engag$ ?r\gh ! prov9ce ( ,mesopotamia2 t ,i _h receiv$ f him1 ?\gh a /rang]1 a s+ul> obligation2 t a s9c]e fri5d%ip betwe5 u _h be5 ! result ( ?is ev5t2 t he di$ ab\t two ye>s s9ce2 t ,i _h att5d$ him 9 8 la/ mom5ts2 t he _h *>g$ me ) 8 dy+ recomm5dations & reque/s2 & t my pres5t j\rney into ,france _h pr9cipally be5 in/igat$ by a desire to visit 8 *ildr54 ,i !n deliv]$ into h] h&s v>i\s lett]s & pap]s1 :i* ,i _h c\nt]feit$ *iefly ) ! int5tion ( supply+ my daught]s ) legal evid5ce ( ! decease ( _! fa!r4 ,l\isa li/5$ to :at ,i relat$ ) ^? m>ks ( affection & sorr[1 :i* are insep>able f ! habits ( a well con/itut$ m9d4 ,! emotion %e discov]$ l$ me f>!r ?an ,i fir/ int5d$4 ,i 0 urg$ by an irresi/ible impulse to practise1 beyond :at ! occasion dem&$1 ^u ! feel+s ( h] virtu\s m9d4 ,i "k n :e!r ?is is to be consid]$ z a va9 ref9em5t & a crim9al curiosity2 b--,i ?9k--e g5]\s _s w excuse me1 :5 x is recollect$ t ?is cov]t & imp]fect proce$+ 0 all t 0 left me to soo! ! impati5t crav+s ( a fa!r's he>t4 ,f "t to "t ,i rem9d$ h] ( p>ticul>s t x 0 sc>cely possible any "o b h] fa!r %\ld "k2 ,i conjur$ up pa/ sc5es2 ,i made all ! revolutions ( h] y\? pass successively 9 review be=e h]2 ,i t\*$ all ! pulses ( h] s\l4 ,sometimes %e 0 fix$ 9 mute a/oni%m5t at ! exactness ( my in=mation1 & 0 ready to d me homage z "s a]ial g5ius1 :o condesc5d$ to clo! himself 9 ?is e>?ly figure2 at o!r times a/oni%m5t 0 swall[$ up 9 feel+1 h] s\l dissolv$ 9 t5d]ness1 & %e appe>$ ready to fa9t into my arms4 ,x is sc>cely possible to depict ! pleasurable s5sations ,i drew f ^! int]c\rses2 ,i "k n :e!r !y 7 entirely innoc5t2 b ?is ,i "k1 t 9 me !y produc$ a s5tim5t ( innoc5ce1 & a s5tim5t ( p>adise4 ,i felt sometimes z if ,i c\ld h wa/$ ages 9 ?is sort ( gratification4 ,z ! executor ( _! fa!r1 my daught]s receiv$ me ) e m>k ( respect2 b1 aft] hav+ already protract$ my visit to !m = ! space ( _m days1 ,i felt t ,i %\ld be guilty ( some?+ alike ho/ile to _! decorum & reputation1 if ,i did n spe$ily br+ x to a t]m9ation4 ,i 0 a p]son unkn[n & almo/ )\t a "n2 nor c\ld x be prop] = a "y woman to cont9ue to receive ! visits ( a p]son ( h] own age & a diff]5t sex1 ^u ! intimate & confid5tial foot+ ^u :i* my visits 7 paid1 except 9 ! case ( him :om %e int5ds to make h] husb&4 ,to consid]ations ( ?is sort ,i 0 oblig$ to sacrifice ! gratifications 9 :i* ,i _h lately be5 indulg+4 ,my pr9cipal conc]n at ,/4 ,leon1 f ! "t 9 :i* madame ,*abot _h communicat$ to me ! real nature ( my daught]'s situation1 0 to remove ^? disadvantages 9 :i* my de/9y & my errors _h involv$ !m3 x w\ld !re=e h be5 ! extreme ( inconsi/5cy 9 me1 :ile ,i 0 heal+ "o mis*ief1 to prep>e = !m ano!r4 ,x is n inde$ probable t ,i %\ld long h be5 cont5t$ = myself ) ?is anomal\s & neutral situation1 9 :i* ,i m resembl$ a piece ( furniture end[$ ) ! faculty ( not+ ! s5sations ( ^? ar\nd me1 ?an ! memb] ( any human society4 ,x 0 high "t1 z ,i ?\ght1 ev5 9 ?is po9t ( view1 t ,i %\ld put an end to ! +lori\s sc5e1 %\ld appe> 9 "s real "*1 & engage 9 "s real und]tak+4 ,influ5c$ by ^! consid]ations1 ,i n[ quitt$ ! resid5ce ( my daught]s4 ,i _h satisfi$ ! long+ curiosity ( a fa!r1 _h se5 _! situation1 _h witness$ _! beauty1 _! accompli%m5ts1 & _! virtues4 ,if ,i _h be5 afflict$ at he>+ ( ! premature fate ( my elde/ daught]1 if ,i _h be5 agonis$ by ! reflection t ,i might ju/ly reg>d myself z h] murd]]1 :o 0 s fitt$ to suff] ?is angui% z myself8 ,! outca/ ( my species1 :at "r _h ,i to expect to be happy 9 my own p]son1 or prosp]\s 9 any ( my relations8 ,! guilty cause ( all ?is mis*ief1 x 0 b suitable t x %\ld be br\ght home to my own bosom1 t x %\ld te> & di/ract my own bra96 ,add to ?is1 ,i 0 n )\t a hope t my j\rney w\ld n be f\nd useless to ! survivors4 ,by furni%+ to !m ! prop] docum5ts to c]tify ! dea? ( _! fa!r1 ,i flatt]$ myself t ,i _h cut !m (f m effectually ?an be=e f all connection ) my unpropiti\s de/9y1 & _h plac$ !m ne>ly ^u a foot+ ) ! o!r noble & unm>ri$ heiresses ( _! native c\ntry4 ,i h no?+ fur!r to relate 9 reg>d to ^! two amiable & excell5t si/]s4 ,f ! "t t ,i quitt$ ,/4 ,leon ^u ?is occasion1 to ! "t 9 :i* ,i am n[ writ+1 ! opportunity ( mak+ fur!r enquiries respect+ !m has n occurr$ to me4 ,if ev] x does occur1 ,i h only ?is "o wi% to ent]ta91 :i*1 if grant$1 w1 ,i am sure1 satisfy my fonde/ hopes1--,may ,i f9d !y h be5 z happy1 z !y s well des]ve to be6 ,! p>t+ betwe5 me & my daught]s 0 n an unaffect+ "o4 ,on my "p1 ^: bosom 0 fraught ) a ?\s& t5d] feel+s1 to :i* ,i c\ld give no language1 & ( :i* ^? :om !y pr9cipally conc]n$ _h n ! slighte/ suspicion1 x c\ld n be unaffect+4 ,nor did ,l\isa & h] y\ng] si/] look ) an indiff]5t eye ^u ! be>] ( ! la/ s5tim5ts ( _! fa!r1 ! witness ( 8 dea?1 ! executor ( 8 w4 ,!re 0 some?+ 9 ! features ( my c\nt5ance1 a peculi> sort ( con=mation1 a family resemblance to !mselves1 :i* x is probable !y did n adv]t to1 b :i* ,i am p]suad$ wr\ght )9 !m to ! full ext5t ( ! my/]i\s sympa?ies ( our nature4 ,i pret5d$ to h be5 ! famili> confid5t ( _! fa!r2 ,i told !m ( ?+s at :i* !y />t$ & almo/ blu%$ to ?9k t any "o beyond ! circuit ( _! de>e/ relations %\ld h be5 privy4 ,9 ! h\r ( our sep>ation1 !y %$ _m te>s1 & embrac$ me ) a w>m? t might h well become si/]s to a bro!r4 ,yet1 %all ,i confess my weakness1 a weakness 9 :i* ,i d n appreh5d myself to be s+ul>8 ,x happ5s to few m5 to witness ! mann] 9 :i* ! /ory ( _! own dea?s is receiv$4 ,if x did1 ,i believe we all ( u h en\gh ( vanity & p]sonal feel+1 h[ev] s9c]e a grief might %[ itself 9 ! demean\r ( survivors1 to f9d x fall+ %ort ( our appetites & dem&4 ,?is ,i "k1 ,i 0 myself a p>ty to ?is unreasonabl5ess4 ,my daught]s receiv$ ! intellig5ce ( my dea? ) a decorum & s5sibility1 :i* 9 ! eyes ( e imp>tial spectator w\ld h reflect$ hon\r on _! *>act]s1 a s5sibility beyond :at c\ld h be5 imag9$ 9 daught]s :o n[ _h n se5 _! fa!r = twelve ye>s4 ,yet x 0 an unpleas+ reflection to me1 ?us to h occasion to gauge _! love1 & to say1 ,?is is ! exact measure ( _! affection4 ,i rema9$ 9 ?is "p ( ! _w long en\gh to see my *ildr5 consol$1 & myself =gott54 ,self-importance ( man1 ^u h[ slight a basis d ?y gigantic erections repose6 ,,*apt] ,,xxxv4 ,f ,/4 ,leon ,i proce$$ to ! k+dom ( ,hung>y4 ,to complete ?is j\rney ,i mu/ pass ?r\gh ne> tw5ty degrees ( longitude4 ,b t 0 a trivial consid]ation3 :at ,i mo/ desir$ 0 to ga9 a new situation1 & ent] ^u an untri$ sc5e4 ,i _h det]m9$ 9 my next exp]im5t ^u ! end[m5ts ( ! /rang]1 to make no half-=m$ ef=ts1 & to suff] no mis*iefs t drew _! s\rce f my own irresolution4 ,i det]m9$1 z ,i h said1 to =e/all all opposition by my firmness1 & to sil5ce all objectors by ! display ( a m ?an pr9cely magnific5ce4 ,i ?\ght x !re=e eligible to remove to a sc5e1 :]e no enc\nt] ) any "o ,i _h ev] kn[n might aba% me1 & no relation ( any adv5ture ,i _h ev] met %\ld foll[ me4 ,! *ange ( my figure1 x is true1 w\ld r5d] an enc\nt] ( ?is sort ( little mom5t to my lib]ty or my reputation2 b ,i 0 a new man1 & ,i 0 desir\s to engross & to feel ! b5efits t att5d ^u novelty4 ,!re 0 ano!r motive h[ev] secretly work+ at my he>t1 ( a gr&] & m exalt$ ca/1 t made me pref] ,hung>y to all ! c\ntries ( ! e>?4 ,hung>y _h be5 n[1 = upw>ds ( a c5tury1 ! great fronti] ( ! ,*ri/ian _w1--! !atre ^u :i* ! foll[]s ( ,mahomet cont5d$ aga9/ ! foll[]s ( ,jesus = de/ruction & = empire4 ,my m9d _h f "t to "t brood$ ov] ?is picture 9 ! solitude & =lornness ( my dungeon4 ,i rum9at$ on all ! calamities ( ,hung>y1 f ! battle ( ,w>na 9 #addd1 to ! battle ( ,mohacz 9 #aebf2 9 bo? ( :i* ?is g5]\s nation _h unsuccessfully a*iev$ prodigies ( val\r1 &1 ev5 by _! defeats1 _h protract$ ! date ( _! own indep5d5ce1 & co-op]at$ = ! def5ce ( ! population & arts ( ,europe aga9/ a b>b>\s & blood-delight+ foe4 ,my ?\ghts dwelt ) raptur\s admiration ^u ! exploits ( ! h]oic ,huniades & 8 great] son4 ,9 ! c\rse ( my _m-col\r$ exp]i5ce ,i _h se5 some?+ ( w>1 & 0 n totally unacqua9t$ ) its nev]-fail+ consequ5ces4 ,m$itat+ z ,i _h done 9 ! dungeons ( ! inquisition1 if ev] ,i recov]$ my p]sonal lib]ty & my fre$om ( action1 a j\rney into ,hung>y1 my imag9ation _h gr[n famili> ) captur$ t[ns & smok+ villages2 ) ! gallant soldi] /ret*$ lifeless on ! pla91 & ! def5celess "m & h] (fspr+ brutally insult$ & massacr$2 ) fields laid wa/e1 & a p lift+ up _! h&s = bread4 ,det]m9$ z ,i 0 to op5 at once all ! /ores ( my weal?1 ,i ?\ght ,i c\ld n f9d a nobl] sc5e = its display4 ,i resolv$ to p\r ! entire /ream ( my ri*es1 l a mighty riv]1 to f]tilise ^! wa/$ pla9s1 & revive _! fa9t+ inhabitants4 ,?us proce$+1 %\ld ,i n h a "r to expect to f9d myself gu>d$ by ! fai?ful love ( a p :o w\ld be indebt$ to my b5efic5ce = e brea? !y drew8 ,?is 0 ! prop] sc5e 9 :i* = ! possessor ( ! philosoph]'s /one to take up 8 abode4 ,he :o c\ld feel 8 ambition satisfi$ 9 a m /rait5$ field w\ld1 by s do+1 prove himself unwor?y ( ! mighty bless+4 ,no?+ occurr$ to me 9 my j\rney ( importance en\gh to obta9 a place 9 ?is hi/ory4 ,:5 ,i arriv$1 ,i f\nd ! condition ( ! inhabitants ev5 m wret*$ ?an ! lawlessness ( my imag9ation _h repres5t$ x4 ,9 ! battle ( ,mohacz ! la/ ( ! l9e ( _! native sov]eigns1 toge!r ) ! fl[] ( 8 nobility1 _h fall5 a victim to ! m]ciless plague ( w>4 ,:at surviv$ ( em95t p]sons 9 ! /ate assembl$ soon aft] 9 national diet1 & elect$1 z !y _h be5 accu/om$ to d1 "o ( ! mo/ illu/ri\s among !mselves to preside ov] ! c\ncils & to conduct ! battles ( _! c\ntry4 ,b ! pr9ces ( ! h\se ( ,au/ria1 ev] on ! wat* = ! aggr&isem5t ( _! family1 seiz$ ! opportunity ( _! disa/r\s situation to enslave ! ,hung>ians to _! sceptre4 ,*>les ! ,fif? caus$ 8 bro!r ,f]d9&1 ^: consort 0 only si/] to ! deceas$ mon>*1 to advance 8 claim to ! vacant ?rone1 & to ent] ! c\ntry ) an imp]ial army4 ,! native & elect$ sov]eign f\nd himself1 9 ! weak5$ condition ( 8 realm1 unable to resi/ ! ,au/rian arms1 & 0 f9ally driv5 to ! desp]ate exp$i5t ( call+ 9 ! ,turk to 8 assi/ance4 ,f ?is "t1 = n[ upw>ds ( ?irty ye>s1 ! k+dom _h be5 a prey to two =eign invad]s1 alt]nately tak+ & retak+ h] mo/ consid]able t[ns1 & di/ribut+ ) ! /ricte/ imp>tiality ! mis]ies ( w> to h] devot$ inhabitants4 ,solyman ! ,magnific5t1 ! pres5t ,ottoman emp]or1 9 no long "t ?rew (f ! mask2 &1 l 8 rival ,f]d9&1 pr(ess$ to fight only = ! enl>gem5t ( 8 own dom9ions2 :ile ! claims1 ! lib]ties1 ! con/itution1 & ! prosp]ity ( ,hung>y1 7 alike trodd5 "u foot 9 ! protract$ & sangu9>y /ruggle4 ,at ! p]iod at :i* ,i ent]$ ?is un=tunate realm1 ! ,turk 0 9 possession ( ,buda1 ,gran1 ,temesw>1 & _m ( ! mo/ consid]able cities2 & ,f]d9&1 :o _h n[ succe$$ ,*>les 9 ! imp]ial dignity1 _h be5 oblig$ to )draw ! seat ( ! national gov]nm5t f ! fir/ ( ^! t[ns1 ! anci5t metropolis1 to ! comp>atively insignificant city ( ,presburg4 ,! w> betwe5 ! two p>ties _h m ?an once be5 int]rupt$2 n inde$ by ! m /able accommodations ( a treaty ( peace1 b by a truce v>i\sly conclud$ = ! t]ms ( six or ( eight ye>s4 ,%ort z 0 ! p]iod assign$ to ! susp5sion ( arms1 x 0 nev] suff]$ to rea* its natural t]m9ation2 b1 aft] ! int]val ( "o or two summ]s1 ho/ilities did n fail to break out aga91 ) aggravat$ symptoms ( res5tm5t & animosity4 ,! w>f>e t 0 n[ c>ri$ on _h m 9 x ( passion ?an vig\r3 x 0 ( little mom5t to ! int]e/ ( ei!r ( ! pr9ces "u ^: bann]s x 0 conduct$2 b x 0 n on t acc\nt ! less1 b r ! m1 vexati\s & di/ress+ to ! ,hung>ian p4 ,x obey$ no rule2 x op]at$ 9 e direction2 no place1 no prov9ce1 no t[n1--nei!r ! *ur* nor ! palace1 nei!r ! cottage nor ! ca/le1--c\ld assure safety to ^? :o s\ght its protection4 ,a fly+ p>ty1 :i* 0 to-day 9 ! we/1 w\ld almo/ ! next day make its appe>ance 9 ! ea/]n extremity ( ! k+dom4 ,arts 7 neglect$2 civilisation 0 de/roy$2 ! /]n & haughty b>on1 free f re/ra9t1 w\ld sally f 8 ca/le1 sometimes 9 pursuit ( plund]1 sometimes ( private res5tm5t & rev5ge2 ! />v+ peasantry gladly enli/$ 9 ! b& ( a f]oci\s p>tisan = bread2 ! gangs ( robb]s1 :i* ! vigilant policy ( bett] times _h almo/ annihilat$1 rose aga9 9 importance1 & swell$ into regim5ts2 &1 :ile !y assum$ at pleasure ! d5om9ation ( adh]5ts to ,f]d9& or to ,solyman1 p]petrat$ e species ( excess ) impunity4 ,:5 a reflect+ spectator surveys a c\ntry 9 a condition l ?is1 he is tempt$ to wond] t ! inhabitants /ill reta9 ! c\rage to be/[ on _! fields any sort ( cultivation1 & t ! lic5s$ or ! unlic5s$ robb] /ill f9ds some?+ ov] :i* to ext5d ! fangs ( 8 rapacity4 ,i _h n long pass$ ! gates ( ,vi5na1 be=e ,i began to obs]ve ! symptoms ( t1 :i* ,i _h come f ! ,pyr5ees & ! ,g>onne to visit4 ,! f>!r ,i advanc$1 ! m melan*oly 0 ! sc5e ,i beheld4 ,! c\ntry 9 "s places entirely des]t$2 villages laid 9 a%es2 cities r$uc$ to ! dim5sions & insignificance ( villages2 fields f]tilis$ or made rank ) ! manure ( human blood2 ! roads brok5 up2 ! erections ( human +5uity almo/ oblit]at$2 mills ?r[n d[n2 riv]s *ok$ up & r5d]$ /agnant2 a few solit>y plots ( cultivation scatt]$ amid/ ! mighty wa/e4 ,! inhabitants ,i saw1 appe>$ t]rifi$1 sickly1 deject$1 & despair+2 !re 0 sc>cely "o :o e>li] or lat] _h n lo/ a fa!r or a bro!r1 ^: wife _h n be5 made ! victim ( brutal lu/1 or :o _h n se5 8 *ildr5 but*]$ be=e 8 face4 ,p]sons ( ! m opul5t classes c\ld n travel ! c\ntry 9 safety1 )\t be+ arm$ & associat$ 9 companies & c>avans4 ,i 0 myself oblig$ to obta9 ! protection ( p>ties ( soldi]s1 :o f "t to "t happ5$ to be m>*+ 9 ! r\te ,i pursu$4 ,! savage neglect into :i* e ?+ 0 decl9+1 produc$ 9 repeat$ in/ances a contagi\s air & pe/il5tial diseases2 :ile de>? & fam9e unrel5t+ly haunt$ ! /eps ( ^? :om ! sword & ! pe/il5ce _h sp>$4 ,su* is w>3 su* are ! evils nations will+ly plunge into1 or are compell$ to endure1 to pamp] ! s5seless luxury or pride ( a ,f]d9& & a ,solyman6 ,i proce$$1 z ,i _h orig9ally det]m9$ to d1 to ,buda1 ! metropolis ( ! k+dom4 ,x 0 9 ! h&s ( ! ,turk4 ,x 0 ( little importance to me :e!r ! mon>* ( ! soil 7 a ,mahometan or a ,*ri/ian2 my m9d 0 engross$ by consid]ations ( a v diff]5t magnitude4 ,i came to relieve & assi/1 to ! utmo/ ( my p[]1 ! inhabitants ( ! c\ntry 9 ! extremity ( _! di/ress4 ,i _h n proce$$ ?us f>1 )\t be/[+ a c]ta9 /rictness ( reflection on ! subject4 ,i easily saw t1 if ,i w\ld conf] a sub/antial b5efit on ?is un=tunate nation1 ,i _h sc>cely any o!r means = ! purpose1 ?an t ( reviv+ among !m a _s ( indu/ry4 ,i 0 aw>e t1 9 ! /rictness ( ! t]m1 money 0 n weal?2 t x c\ld be nei!r eat5 nor drunk2 t x w\ld n ( itself ei!r clo! ! nak$ or %elt] ! h\seless2 & t x 0 unable1 b by a circuit\s op]ation1 to increase ! quantity ( provisions or commodities t ! c\ntry af=d$4 ,x 0 my bus9ess !re=e n to proce$ idly 9 ! di/ribution ( gold1 b to m$itate s]i\sly my plan ( op]ations4 ,i fix$ myself 9 a spaci\s & beautiful mansion 9 ! capital4 ,?is 9 ! pres5t di/ress$ & depopulat$ condition ( ,hung>y1 x 0 n difficult to procure4 ,! h\se ,i select$ _h = c5turies be5 ! pr9cipal resid5ce ( ! illu/ri\s family ( ,ragotski2 b ! pres5t repres5tative ( t family1 aft] hav+ se5 8 sons1 "o aft] ano!r1 kill$ 9 ! battles ( 8 c\ntry1 & 8 e/ates ru9$ by milit>y depr$ation1 _h f\nd himself compell$ to fly 9 8 old age1 & _h tak5 refuge ) a di/ant bran* ( ! same h\se 9 ! great du*y ( ,li?uania4 ,x 0 n necess>y = me to proce$ to any great ext5t 9 ! fir/ in/ance 9 ! manufacture ( my weal?2 ,i _h e facility = add+ to my /ore f "t to "t z circum/ances %\ld dem&4 ,i det]m9$ to op5 my op]ations ) ! article ( build+4 ,!re 0 suffici5t ne$ ( x4 ,"o half ( ! h\ses1 ?r\gh mo/ ( ! di/ricts ( ,l[]1 or ,we/]n ,hung>y 9 p>ticul>1 7 ru9$ & unt5antable4 ,i did n beg9 ) erect+ palaces2 ,i felt t ! fir/ claimants 9 ! pres5t em]g5cy 7 ! peasant & ! cultivator4 ,i 0 m desir\s t ! ru/ic ?an ! pr9ce %\ld be well lodg$ & accommodat$1 provid$ ) ! means ( re/ aft] fatigue1 & secur$ aga9/ ! invasion ( ung5ial seasons4 ,my reasons = beg9n+ ) build+ 7 ^!3--,x 0 my purpose to /imulate & revive ! indu/ry ( ! nation3 ,i 0 desir\s ( do+ ?is ) ! lea/ practicable viol5ce ^u ! incl9ations & fre$om ( ! inhabitants4 ,_h ,i requir$ ( ^? to :om ,i address$ myself1 t !y %\ld f]tilise ! e>?1 ! se$s ) :i* x %\ld be impregnat$ might be want+3 ,i %\ld h a nice balance to adju/ betwe5 :at 0 necess>y = imm$iate subsi/5ce1 & :at might be appli$ z ! basis ( future2 a po9t bett] left to its spontane\s level3 ,i might be imp$$ & controll$ by a ?\s& circum/ances & at e /ep4 ,b ! mat]ials ( build+ are to be f\nd 9 e c\ntry2 no seasons c impair1 no malignity ( man c annihilate !m4 ,:]ev] !re are qu>ries1 !re is /one2 :]ev] !re is clay1 !re are ! means ( manufactur+ bricks4 ,i 0 anxi\s to leave ! re/ ( ! great process ( human accommodation to its c\rse4 ,:ile ,i employ$ lab\r]s1 & paid !m _! wages1 !re w\ld be1 9 ! milde/ & mo/ salut>y mode1 a cont9ual influx ( money into ! m>ket4 ,! increase ( ! preci\s metals w\ld give new alacrity to ! op]ations ( traffic2 ! buy]s w\ld come =w>d ) d\ble confid5ce2 ! v5d]s w\ld be eag] to meet ! activity & _s ( ! dem&4 ,ard\r & hope w\ld revisit ! human m9d2 & ! indu/ry ,i creat$1 & ! accommodations ( "o k9d at lea/ to :i* ,i gave bir?1 w\ld inoculate ! o!r dep>tm5ts ( ! community ) a simil> indu/ry4 ,i came into ,hung>y 9 ! spr+ ( #aefj2 ! season 0 fav\rable to se$+ & cultivation2 ,i seem$ to ent] on my und]tak+ ) ! happie/ auspices4 ,"s "t h[ev] mu/ necess>ily elapse betwe5 ! p]iod ( impregnat+ ! soil1 & t ( ! future h>ve/4 ,?\gh ,i laid x d[n !re=e z a law to myself1 to commit ! lea/ practicable viol5ce ^u ! g5u9e action ( human society 9 pursuit ( ! means ( subsi/5ce1 ,i ?\ght prop] 9 a c]ta9 degree to engage 9 ! importation ( corn f ,pol&1 ,silesia1 & o!r neighb\r+ c\ntries4 ,?is seem$ an eligible measure1 if x 7 only t ,i might %[ o!rs ! way1 & excite !m by my example4 ,i procur$ ag5ts2 ,i ext5d$ my conc]ns 9 v>i\s directions ov] ! navigable riv]s2 ,i =m$ magaz9es4 ,x w\ld h be5 contr>y to ! g5ius ( my und]tak+1 ei!r to make a gratuit\s di/ribution ( :at ,i pur*as$1 or to sell x at su* l[ prices z to drive o!r speculators1 ^: _s ( ent]prise might happily co-op]ate ) m9e1 out ( ! m>ket4 ,h[ev] indiff]5t ,i might feel to ! receipt ( pecuni>y comp5sation1 x 0 necess>y t1 9 ! conc]ns ( b>t] & trade1 ,i %\ld assume ! ext]ior ( a m]*ant4 ,nor did ,i :olly conf9e my ex]tions )9 ! occupations ( an ar*itect & a corn-deal]4 ,^!1 or r ! =m] ( ! two1 ,i reg>d$ z my true & g5u9e prov9ce2 b ,i did n s f> enslave myself to my own maxims1 z to negative 9 all in/ances ! direct dem&s ( want4 ,i 0 n anxi\s to conv]t a nation or an army ( m5 into my p]sonal adh]5ts & reta9]s3 ,i 0 r desir\s to avoid ?is z a dang]\s s\rce ( obloquy4 ,i did n !re=e always decl9e1 by pret5d$ loans to assi/ o!r m5 to employ lab\r]s z well z myself1 to act ^u _! own designs1 & prosecute _! own =tune4 ,! cries ( ! poor man1 ! wid[1 & ! orphan1 7 sometimes too importunate1 & too well ju/ifi$ by _! unque/ionable necessities1 to all[ me to )hold f !m my alms4 ,9 a few in/ances ,i convey$ my supplies anonym\sly to p]sons1 ^: dignity ( bir? or ^: pr\d indep5d5ce w\ld h be5 too griev\sly w\nd$ if !y _h kn[n _! b5efactor4 ,i 0 cauti\s & appreh5sive z to ! direct disp5s+ ( money1 b n entirely b5t aga9/ x2 ,i reg>d$ x z a prec>i\s1 b 9 "s cases a necess>y int]f]5ce4 ,! impulse :i*1 by ^! v>i\s measures1 ,i 0 =tunate en\gh to g5]ate1 seem$ to h ! effect1 s f> at lea/ z ! sph]e ( my activity ext5d$1 to revive ! almo/ expir+ life ( ! c\ntry4 ,dejection & hopeless indol5ce1 :5 ,i comm5c$ my op]ations1 7 writt5 9 e face2 ! mis]able inhabitants crawl$ along ! roads or ! /reet1 _! h&s idly relax$ by _! side1 & _! sl[ & pa9ful /eps sc>cely support+ _! lifeless trunk4 ,:5 my plan became kn[n1 & ,i _h already 9 a few in/ances r$uc$ my maxims into practice1 x 0 z if ! mell[ & _s-/irr+ bla/ ( a trumpet _h wak5$ _! sleep+ s\ls4 ,_! eyes light5$ ) intellig5ce2 ! te> ( angui% 0 wip$ f _! fad$ *eeks2 ! smile ( hope sl[ly expell$1 & fa9tly succe$$ to1 ! bitt] expression ( despair4 ,busy & active ?\ghts gave new motion to _! limbs & quickness to _! /eps2 ! lab\r] 0 se5 ha/5+ f place to place2 ! s\nd ( ! hamm]1 ! saw1 & ! v>i\s tools ( ! workman1 0 to be he>d f e side4 ,! conduct ,i pursu$ necess>ily fix$ ^u me a consid]able portion ( public att5tion4 ,i 0 a =eign]1 de/itute ( connections1 & hav+ no previ\s acqua9tance ) any individual 9 ! c\ntry4 ,i 0 9 appe>ance a m]e boy1 a "y man 9 all ! fl[] & bloom ( adolesc5ce1 & :o mu/ be suppos$ to h j ent]$ into possession ( 8 patrimony4 ,^! ?+s t5d$ to increase ! public wond]1 & to r5d] ! my/]y ( my proce$+s m p]plex+ & obscure4 ,9 ! age ( g5ial w>m? & melt+ s(tness1 ,i did n appe> accessible to ^? passions :i* haunt ! days1 & too (t5 und]m9e ! virtues1 ( y\?4 ,y\? is ! season ( b5evol5ce2 b b5evol5ce is r>ely1 z seem$ to be my case1 ! only fruit t y\? is f\nd to produce4 ,!re 0 a maturity & a ju/ness ( adaptation 9 my plans1 n less =eign f :at ^? :o surr\nd$ me w\ld h expect$ me to display4 ,! app>5t dis9t]e/$ness & mode/y ( my proce$+s 7 n lo/ ^u ! spectators4 ,! consequ5ce ( all ?is 01 t ! sieur de ,*atillon1 su* 0 ! "n ,i at ?is "t assum$1 0 reg>d$ z a ph5om5on :i* c\ld n be too mu* admir$1 or too l\dly extoll$4 ,:]ev] ,i appe>$1 ! p foll[$ me ) _! gratitude & bless+s2 ballads 7 writt5 9 my praise2 ! v *ildr5 7 taught ) _! infant tongues to lisp ! virtues ( ! savi\r ( ,hung>y4 ,my doors 7 besieg$2 my /eps 7 wat*$2 ,i c\ld move no :]e )\t public obs]vation4 ,i 0 importun$ ) petitions )\t end2 yet1 if any petition] %[$ himself presumptu\s & intrusive1 ! :ole multitude ( by/&]s 0 ready to repress 8 indiscretion1 & tea* him ! respect t 0 due to _! g5]\s b5efactor1 :o nev] refus$ any ?+1 b :at x w\ld be improp] & injuri\s to grant4 ,su* 0 ! treatm5t ,i exp]i5c$ 9 ,buda & ! neighb\r+ di/ricts4 ,:e!r ,i look$ )9 or )\t1 ,i 0 equally pres5t$ ) incitem5ts to self-approbation4 ,i s5t =? lab\r1 accompani$ ) h] be/ & lovelie/ companions1 pl5ty & heal?1 congratulation & cont5tm5t1 to scatt] bless+s ?r\gh ! l&4 ,i felt t ,i 0 prompt$ to ?is conduct by none ( ! motives ( vulg> ambition4 ,i desir$ nei!r lord%ips nor e/ates1 nei!r elevation ( rank1 nor ext5sion ( pr]ogative4 ,suffici5t to myself1 if ,i effect$ ! happ9ess ( ! p1 & !y confess$ me _! b5efactor1 my e passion w\ld !n be gratifi$4 ,! utmo/ b\nd>y ( my p]sonal wi%es proce$$ no f>!r ?an ?is1 t ,i might be hon\r$ & lov$4 ,:at ,i desir$1 ,i obta9$2 ! y\? ,i _h procur$ to myself ?r\gh ! m$ium ( ! opus magnum1 0 l :at we are told ( ! y\? ( ,job3--8,:5 ,i w5t out ?r\gh ! gate ( ! city1 ! "y m5 saw me & hid !mselves1 & ! ag$ arose & /ood up2 ! nobles refra9$ f talk+1 & ! pr9ces laid _! h&s ^u _! m\?s4 ,:5 ! e> he>d me1 !n x bless$ me2 & :5 ! eye saw me1 x gave witness to my actions40 ,"h x may be ?\ght ,i _h asc5d$ to t sph]e :i* x 0 fit ! possessor ( ! philosoph]'s /one %\ld fill1 & reap$ ! rew>ds to :i* a man ?us end[$ ought to be =w>d to entitle himself4 ,nor w ,i affirm t ,i 0 ins5sible to ! gratifications ( my pres5t situation4 ,?\gh ,i s\ght to escape f ! applause t pursu$ me1 yet !re is some?+ 9 ! nature ( ! human m9d1 t makes x impossible = u to he> x )\t complac5ce4 ,x 0 n h[ev] a boi/]\s & obtrusive acclamation t satisfi$ me4 ,a c]ta9 inwr\ght mode/y ( nature made me li/5 to noisy comm5dations ) a s5tim5t ( %ame4 ,!y seem$ to be m ?an any ?+ ,i _h done c\ld des]ve2 or !y seem$ to be 9 a tone f :i* ! delicacy ( a virtu\s m9d %r9ks back displeas$4 ,!y 7 s ob/rep]\s1 z to take f me ! p[] ( he>+ ! sweet] v]dict ( my own consci5ce4 ,no2 x 0 ! unbidd5 te> t gli/5$ 9 ! eye ( my b5efici>ies2 ! tongue t falt]$ b5ea? ! essays ( gratitude2 ! ov]:elm$ he>t t _h no p[] to express itself2 ! h& ( ! p>5t t 0 /ret*$ out to 8 *ildr51 & dumbly said1 ,^!1 ^! %all ?ank y6--x 0 ^! ?+s1 t ,i felt )9 z ! balsam ( my life1 & ! ambrosia ( heav54 ,,*apt] ,,xxxvi4 ,yet1 ?us surr\nd$1 & regal$ ) ?is animat$ praise1 ,i 0 n cont5t2 ,i want$ a fri5d4 ,i 0 alone amid/ ! innum]able multitudes ( ^? ,i _h bless$4 ,i knew no cordiality2 ,i c\ld repose no confid5ce2 ,i c\ld f9d no equal4 ,i 0 l a ,god1 :o disp5ses 8 b\nties pr(usely ?r\gh tw5ty climates1 b :o at ! same "t sits1 sep>ate1 elevat$1 & alone1 9 ! highe/ heav54 ,! read] may1 if he pleases1 despise me = ! confession2 b ,i felt t ,i 0 n =m$ = ! happ9ess ( a ,god4 ,i 0 n h[ev] long suffici5tly at leisure1 ?us to ref9e ^u ! defici5cies ( my situation4 ,i _h engag$ 9 a task ( extreme delicacy1 9 :i* ! smalle/ failure w\ld draw along ) x ! mo/ s]i\s consequ5ces4 ,m9e 0 n an und]tak+ t _h = its object1 to supply ^? ar\nd me ) luxuries1 or to augm5t ! /ock ( _! *e]ful relaxations & amusem5ts2 ! v exi/5ce ( my b5efici>ies dep5d$ on its success4 ,i _h put myself 9 a consid]able degree1 ) :atev] diffid5ce & caution1 9 ! room ( ! c\rse ( nature1 & _h tak5 ! adm9i/ration ( ! common b5efits ( human society into my h&s4 ,! populace are ev] ready to con/rue ?is delegation 9 ! /ricte/ s5se3 unqualifi$ to trace ! :eels & comb9ations ( ! great ma*9e1 if prosp]ity is _! lot1 !y will+ly ascribe x to _! protectors & gov]nors2 & if !y are un=tunate1 x is aga9/ !m t ! /orm ( _! res5tm5t is direct$4 ,! mom5t !y are ?us irritat$1 _! impati5ce is too great to admit ( correctives & rem$ies2 9 ! fury ( _! disappo9tm5t1 !y di/urb e ?+1 & r5d] t irrep>able & fatal1 :i* 0 at fir/ only d\btful & unpromis+4 ,my proce$+s1 z ,i h already said1 bore 9 ! comm5cem5t ! mo/ b5ignant face1 & seem$ a revival ( ?is despair+ & un=tunate nation little less ?an miracul\s4 ,! regul> lab\rs 9 :i* ! inhabitants became engag$1 re/or$ a heal?ful tone to _! m9ds2 ! paym5ts !y duly receiv$ seem$ to dis*>ge !m f all anxi\s solicitude2 &1 z by my own ef=ts & ! ent]prises ( o!rs1 ! m>ket 0 suppli$ ) provisions1 !y _h no difficulty 9 ex*ang+ ^! paym5ts = ! necess>ies ( life4 ,! supply ( ! m>ket at fir/ 0 easy2 ! univ]sal dejection t prec$$1 ?\gh x _h n prev5t$ all ex]tions = t purpose1 _h r5d]$ ^? ex]tions too feeble = ext5sive success4 ,! /r5u\s ef=ts t 7 n[ made 7 productive ( a copi\s supply2 b !y r5d]$ ea* importation m difficult ?an ! importation be=e4 ,! dem& cont9u$ ! same2 ! relief 0 e day m dim9utive & prec>i\s4 ,! h>ve/ 0 h[ev] advanc+ ) ! happie/ auspices3 &1 ?\gh "s "t mu/ yet be consum$ 9 expectation1 x 0 probable frugality & =titude might enable ! inhabitants to hold out till ! season ( pl5ty %\ld arrive4 ,b =titude is n ! virtue ( a populace4 ,! high] _h be5 _! hopes1 & ! m unexpect$ _! deliv]ance1 ) s mu* ! m blank & melan*oly a c\nt5ance !y beheld ?is unexpect$ delay & retrogression4 ,n und]/&+ ! p[]s by :i* ,i act$1 !y bl9dly ascrib$ to me ! faculty ( do+ :atev] ,i pleas$4 ,z long z e ?+ w5t on prosp]\sly1 !y 7 grateful2 ! mom5t a rev]se occurr$1 !y 7 incl9$ to murmur4 ,!y made no all[ance = ! limit$ capacities ( a human creature3 !y imput$ :atev] 0 unpleas+ to indiff]5ce or ill w4 ,! price ( commodities1 aft] hav+ = a :ile become mod]ate1 n[ rapidly rose aga93 ?is 0 p>tly ! consequ5ce ( ! increas$ quantity ( ! preci\s metals1 by means ( :i* any assignable sum bore a less proportion to ! provisions ( ! m>ket ?an x _h done be=e4 ,bread 0 at a v high price2 & x occasionally happ5$ to buy]s :o did n come e>ly en\gh1 t !re 0 no bread to be pur*as$4 ,! doors ( ! h\ses :]e x 0 sold1 7 besieg$2 ! indu/ri\s poor appe>$ be=e !m ) ! fir/ fa9t dawn ( ! morn+'s light4 ,"h !y consum$ h\rs ( pa9ful expectation1 9 griev\s addition to ! h\rs ( _! cu/om>y fatigue4 ,! :ole 0 a sc5e ( angui% & calamity2 ! passions ( ^? :o compos$ x1 m+l$ ) ! di/ress1 & r5d]$ x too heavy to be borne4 ,anticipat+ fam9e1 !y felt ! mis*iefs ( x be=e x arriv$4 ,nev] 0 ! dem& s urg5t2 x seem$ z if ! capacity ( m5's appetites 0 enl>g$1 & ! crav+s ( hung] became m insatiable1 9 proportion to ! smallness ( ! supply4 ,to p ?us circum/anc$1 x w\ld h be5 va9 to recomm5d frugality & mod]ation4 ,!y dev\r$ ! food ) _! eyes1 :ile x 0 yet beyond ! rea* ( _! h&s2 & ! lesson y read !m1 w\ld h s\nd$ 9 _! e>s z if y _h bid !m die to-day1 to escape ! dang] ( dy+ to-morr[4 ,! cr[ds :i* ! necessity ( pur*as+ bread br\ght toge!r at c]ta9 h\rs1 :5 assembl$1 naturally ent]$ into ! discussion ( _! pres5t discont5ts4 ,!y 7 n satisfi$ ) ! disc\rse & jo/l+ ( ! morn+2 ! habits produc$ by ^! noisy assemblies _h a secret *>m ) !m1 & drew !m toge!r at seasons ( less urg5t dem&4 ,!y patrol$ ! /reets3 !y 7 l\d 9 ! expressions ( _! dissatisfaction4 ,) ! inconsequ5ce incid5t to ! l[] ord]s ( mank9d1 !y ?reat5$ to de/roy ! mills1 ! m>kets1 ! places ( sale1 ! means & mat]ials by :i* _! wants 7 to be suppli$4 ,9 ! mid/ ( ^! sc5es ( tumult & confusion1 x is n to be imag9$ t ,i escap$ unc5sur$4 ,f> o!rwise3 9 proportion to ! gratitude & adoration ) :i* !y _h lately reg>d$ me1 7 _! dete/ation & abhorr5ce n[4 ,my int]f]5ce 0 spok5 ( ) contempt & execration4 ,= :at purpose _h ,i1 a =eign]1 come into _! c\ntry1 & intrud$ myself into _! affairs8 ,:y _h ,i impi\sly tak5 !m out ( ! h&s ( _! heav5ly ,fa!r1 ^: c>e 0 s con/ant1 & ^: relief s c]ta98 ,x 0 on my "p a despicable vanity & presumption1 :i* ! ju/ice ( ,provid5ce c\ld n fail to av5ge2 & !y mu/ n[ suff] ! puni%m5t ( my blasphemy4 ,b !y did n /op "h4 ,!re 0 no horrible calumny :i* !y did n inv5t1 or give cr$it to1 aga9/ me4 ,!y imput$ to me ! base/ p]sonal motives = :at ,i _h done4 ,"u ! hypocritical pret5ce1 !y cri$1 ( be+ _! b5efactor & savi\r1 ,i 0 us+ !m only = my private ends4 ,i _h become a pur*as] & v5d] ( corn1 = ! s+le purpose ( increas+ my =tune4 ,! pres5t sc>city1 !y 7 well assur$1 0 artificial1 & ( my own contriv+4 ,i _h magaz9es 9 diff]5t /ations on ! bord]s1 :i*1 :5 ! price 0 ris5 to ! /&>d ( my av>ice1 & :5 half ! p _h fall5 victims to my inhumanity1 ,i purpos$ to dispose ( to an imm5se pr(it4 ,su* 7 ! asp]sions to :i* my "* became g5]ally expos$4 ,by ! populace1 :o n[ exp]i5c$ ! unsatisfi$ crav+s ( hung]1 & 9 :om my proce$+s _h excit$ hope1 only to be foll[$ by a m cruel disappo9tm5t1 !y 7 gre$ily cr$it$4 ,_m :o knew _! falsehood1 7 yet zeal\s to propagate !m4 ,%ort z _h be5 my resid5ce 9 ,hung>y1 ,i _h made _m enemies4 ,x is to be fe>$ t no man c be assidu\s & indefatigable 9 ! s]vice ( o!rs1 )\t incurr+ t consequ5ce4 ,i employ$ a great numb] ( workm52 e "o :om = :atev] reason ,i refus$ to employ1 e "o :o1 be+ unqualifi$ = ! s]vice ,i requir$1 look$ ) an envi\s eye on ! bett] =tune ( 8 neighb\r1 0 well dispos$ to be my enemy4 ,p]sons ( no contemptible acc\nt 9 ! community _h be5 excit$ by expectations ( pr(it to engage 9 ! importation ( corn3 ^! p]sons view$ my ef=ts 9 ! same dep>tm5t ) a suspici\s eye1 & reg>d$ a man :o1 h[ev] cauti\s 9 8 proce$+s1 0 n regulat$ by ! same motive1 z a mo/ p]nici\s rival4 ,my sudd5 elevation & importance 9 ! c\ntry 7 view$ ) n m a/oni%m5t ?an av]sion by ^? ^: importance ,i obscur$4 ,!y c\ld n he> ) pati5ce ( an up/>t1 a boy1 a /rang]1 "o univ]sally unkn[n1 elb[+ out ! influ5ce ( all t 0 mo/ illu/ri\s & v5]able 9 ! community1 & robb+ !m daily ( _! adh]5ts & reta9]s4 ,all ^! p]sons left no ef=t untri$ to defame my "*4 ,! impulse once giv51 ! turbul5t disposition ( ! populace became e day m =midable4 ,x is mu* easi] to dissem9ate a temp] ( ?is sort ?an to quell x3 my opul5t foes might take al>m at its excesses1 & desire to undo :at !y _h done2 b x 0 beyond _! p[]4 ,e day ,i fe>$ le/1 f ?reats & invectives1 ! populace %\ld proce$ to viol5ce3 e night ,i ?\ght ,i _h reason to congratulate myself1 t ! day _h pass$ )\t wa/e & spoil committ$ by !m on ! means ( _! subsi/5ce1 or 0 n m>k$ ) ! de/ruction ( _! *ampion & b5efactor4 ,9 "s places a sort ( petty s$ition broke out among ! lab\r]s ,i employ$3 9 ! morn+ !y refus$ to "w3 :y %\ld a man "w1 !y mutt]$1 :5 aft] all he may />ve ) ! wages ( 8 lab\r 9 8 possession8 ,at night !y became impati5t & furi\s1 & dem&$ f my sup]9t5d5ts & /oreh\se-m5 ! food1 :i* 9 ! morn+ !y _h refus$ to e>n1 & 7 !re=e n[ unable to pur*ase4 ,i _h already _h "s exp]i5ce 9 ! nature ( popul> tumults2 ,i _h n[ no m>*ese ,filosanto at h& to p]suade me ( _! inefficacy2 &1 if ,i _h1 ,i %\ld no long] h l5t an e> to 8 s]5e & unsuspici\s g5]osity4 ,i felt ! reality ( ! dang]2 ,i saw ! /orm z x black5$ 9 my horizon1 & 0 deeply conv9c$ :at x w\ld be if x bur/ ^u my head4 ,x may be imag9$ ) :at feel+s ,i view$ my :ole design on ! po9t to be subv]t$1 by ! unrul9ess ( ^? = ^: b5efit x _h be5 plann$4 ,x is true ,i _h n[ no d>l+ relations to be involv$ 9 my fate1 no incomp>able wife1 no daught]s illu/ri\s 9 innoc5ce & beauty2 yet my feel+s 7 sc>cely less pung5t ?an !y _h be5 at ! p]iod ( my cata/rophe at ,pisa4 ,i _h blam$ myself 9 review1 t1 9 my exp]im5ts at ,con/ance1 at ,dresd51 at ,pisa1 & at ,madrid1 ,i _h n comm5c$ ^u a suffici5tly ample scale1 b _h suff]$ myself to be fru/rat$ by ! +lori\sness ( my precautions4 ,t _h n be5 my error 9 ! pres5t in/ance2 yet my success n[ promis$ to be sc>cely m flatt]+ ?an ^u =m] occasions4 ,i _h look$ = happ9ess z ! result ( ! b5evol5ce & philan?ropy ,i 0 ex]t+2 ,i f\nd only anxiety & a well gr\nd$ fe> ev5 = my p]sonal safety4 ,let no man build on ! expect$ gratitude ( ^? he sp5ds 8 /r5g? to s]ve6 ,let him be b5efic5t if he w2 b let him n dep5d = 8 happ9ess on ! conviction ( 8 rectitude & virtue t is to be impress$ on ! m9ds ( o!rs6 ,!re is a pr9ciple 9 ! human brea/1 t easily induces !m to reg>d e ?+ t c be done = !m1 z no m ?an _! due1 & spe$ily dis*>ges !m f ! oppressive consci\sness ( obligation4 ,!re is a levity 9 ! g5]ality ( m51 t entails on !m a cont9ual oblivion ( pa/ b5efits1 & makes "o rec5t disappo9tm5t ( m importance 9 _! eyes ?an an et]nity ( k9dnesses & condesc5sion4 ,i %all h o!r in/ances ( +ratitude to display 9 :at yet rema9s to be relat$ ( my /ory4 ,my nights 7 re/less2 my ?\ghts 7 9 arms4 ,:at 0 x t x became me to d 9 ! pres5t em]g5cy8 ,sometimes1 9 ! bitt]ness ( my he>t1 hat+ myself1 hat+ ! end[m5ts ( ! /rang]1 hat+ a race ( be+s :o d5i$ all cr$it to ! mo/ unhe>d-( ex]tions = _! advantage1 ,i det]m9$ to )draw unobs]v$ f my att5dants & cli5ts1 & bid adieu to ,hung>y = ev]4 ,b :i!r 0 ,i to fly8 ,:at 0 ,i to d next8 ,:at exp]im5t c\ld ,i make ( ! purposes to :i* to apply ! philosoph]'s /one1 t ,i _h n already made8 ,^! que/ions1 to none ( :i* ,i c\ld give a satisfactory answ]1 *eck$ ! c>e] ( my passion1 & gave pause to my ?\ghts4 ,:atev] ,i did1 ,i 0 det]m9$ to d no?+ ra%ly1 nor to quit a great exp]im5t )\t its hav+ be5 fully tri$4 ,x 0 no light conc]n1 no trivial *ild's-play1 9 :i* ,i _h emb>k$4 ,i _h tak5 ! welf>e1 p]haps ! exi/5ce1 ( a great & h]oic nation "u my protection4 ,9 ?is glori\s vocation x did n become me to be lightly disc\rag$4 ,:at if ^? ,i s]v$ & sav$ did n %[ !mselves suffici5tly s5sible to ! ex]tions ,i made = !m8 ,i ought to purify my bosom1 on an occasion l ?is1 f base & ignoble motives1 & to deem myself suffici5tly recomp5s$ by my consci\s virtue4 ,:at if ! s]vice 9 :i* ,i _h engag$ n[ appe>$ to be a s]vice ( haz>d & p]il8 ,is !re any great und]tak+ t c be sep>at$ f ?is condition8 ,if ha/ily1 f c[>dice1 f pique1 or f any o!r motive1 ,i des]t$ ! bus9ess on :i* ,i _h ent]$1 :at 0 to become ( my mi/ak5 inde$1 b 9 t case mo/ un=tunate cli5ts8 ,! great] 0 ! crisis to :i* !y 7 expos$1 ! m 7 unremitt$ vigilance & uncommon p[]s necess>y to guide !m amid/ its rocks & its quicks&s4 ,i saw ?\s&s ( m5 :o = sev]al weeks _h f$1 z x 71 f ! /ores ( my b\nty4 ,by a prop5sity insep>able f ! human he>t1 ,i became atta*$ to ! "w ( my m$itations1 & ! lab\r ( my ?\ghts4 ,all _! fickl5ess1 _! inju/ice1 ev5 ! atroci\s calumnies !y admitt$ & propagat$ aga9/ me1 c\ld n wean my atta*m5t f be+s1 a great portion ( :om1 b = my int]f]5ce1 w\ld1 ,i believ$1 long ere ?is h expir$ ( hung]4 ,9 ! peculi> & urg5t circum/ances 9 :i* ,i f\nd myself1 no exp$i5t 0 s obvi\s z t ( call+ 9 ! int]f]5ce ( ! gov]nm5t "u :i* ,i liv$4 ,x 0 necess>y t ! res\rces ( national subsi/5ce %\ld be def5d$ f ! wanton spoil ( ^? :o1 :5 !y 7 annihilat$1 mu/ inevitably p]i%4 ,x 0 necess>y t ! b5efactor ( ,hung>y1 :o1 ,i flatt]$ myself1 0 /ill able to wat* effectively = h] advantage1 %\ld be protect$ f h] misguid$ res5tm5t4 ,! alt]native 0 s+ul>ly pa9ful to my feel+s4 ,! pride ) :i* my unp>allel$ end[m5ts inspir$ me1 0 deeply w\nd$1 :5 ,i 0 compell$ to confess t ,i 0 n alone equal to ! task ,i _h und]tak51 & t ,i mu/ submit to call 9 a =eign auxili>y4 ,i augur$ little fav\rable f ! int]f]5ce ( gov]nm5t1 :i*1 if ,i implor$1 ,i c\ld sc>cely expect to guide1 :i* 0 n likely to submit to my pr9ciple ( r5d]+ its int]f]5ce ! milde/ & smalle/ t ! nature ( ! case w\ld admit2 b1 puff$ up ) presumption1 & intoxicat$ ) au?ority1 w\ld probably leave no conc]n ( ! public welf>e un9vad$4 ,lea/ ( all1 c\ld ,i anticipate mu* ( good f a ,turki% gov]nm5t4 ,b :at c\ld ,i d8 ,i c\ld discov] no o!r exp$i5t4 ,influ5c$ by ! views ,i h recit$1 ,i _h hi!rto kept myself z f> f ! obs]vation ( ! political directors ( ! /ate z ,i c\ld4 ,b my cauti\sness & res]ve 7 n[ at an end4 ,) my eyes op5 ,i expos$ myself to all ! evils t might att5d on my proce$+4 ,i det]m9$ to apply to ! ba%aw ( ! prov9ce4 ,previ\sly to my tak+ ?is /ep1 ,i _h ! precaution to enquire 8 "*4 ,he 0 ! g5u9e (fspr+ ( ! ,turki% sy/em ( gov]nm5t4 ,8 "n 0 ,muzaff] ,bey4 ,he 0 orig9ally a ,circassian slave2 !n a ,janiss>y2 &1 ris+ by ins5sible gradation1 _h at l5g? be5 appo9t$ ba%aw ( ,buda1 :i*1 z be+ ! imm$iate fronti] betwe5 ,au/ria & ! ,porte1 0 at ?is "t ! mo/ ardu\s situation 9 ! gift ( ! sultan4 ,he 0 e/eem$ a good soldi]2 he _h be5 e>ly di/+ui%$ by 8 dext]ity 9 milit>y ex]cises2 he _h s9ce se5 mu* s]vice2 &1 9 e situation 9 :i* he 0 plac$1 _h e>n$ comm5dation & hon\r4 ,he 0 ab/emi\s & h>dy2 = himself1 he nei!r pamp]$ 8 appetites nor %runk f sev]ity2 & he _h z little indulg5ce = ^? "u 8 comm& z = 8 own p]son4 ,yet he 0 indebt$ = 8 pres5t em95ce m to ! arts ( ! c\rti]1 ?an to 8 m]its 9 ! field4 ,8 *ief c>e _h ev] be5 to recomm5d himself to ^? above him1 & to obta9 ! good w ( 8 equals2 = ! op9ion ( 8 inf]iors he gave himself little conc]n4 ,) consid]able ability1 he lab\r$ "u no *eck f ei!r pr9ciple or +5u\s pride2 & !re=e 0 extremely successful 9 8 attacks on ! incl9ation ( ^? he s\ght4 ,! habits ( 8 m9d _h modifi$ ! l9es ( 8 c\nt5ance & ! tones ( 8 voice4 ,except to 8 dep5dants & ! poor he almo/ always spoke ) a smile ^u 8 face1 & 8 enunciation 0 silv]-tongu$1 oily1 copi\s1 & ins9uat+4 ,if he ev] adopt$ a diff]5t mann]1 ! v>iation 0 only 9 ! means n ! end2 &1 :5 he seem$ to travel by an opposite road1 ! goal at :i* he aim$ 0 ! same4 ,he nev] consult$ any oracle b t ( 8 app>5t int]e/2 if he _h any insol5ce 9 8 nature1 he reg>d$ 8 slaves & ^? "u 8 milit>y comm& z af=d+ a suffici5t sph]e = its ex]cise2 he _h no affections to di/urb him f 8 b5t2 he _h no passions b ! self-complac5cy ( sup]ior cunn+1 & ! sordid love ( pelf4 ,?is acc\nt ( ! man ) :om ,i _h to deal 0 f> f enc\rag+2 b ,i _h no alt]native4 ,i s5t to signify my desire to conf] ) him2 or1 to speak m accurately1 to ask1 9 ! ,ea/]n mann] :5 x w\ld be agreeable to him to receive a pres5t ( :i* ,i reque/$ 8 acceptance4 ,he appo9t$ ! morn+ ( ! foll[+ day4 ,i prep>$ a gift1 su* z might t5d to conciliate 8 fav\r1 )\t m>k+ 9 ! donor ! possession ( immod]ate weal?4 ,x consi/$ ( silks & musl9s1 ) a small piece ( plate ( exquisite workman%ip4 ,my pres5t 0 borne by two ( my s]vants4 ,we 7 u%]$ to ! ba%aw 9 8 private ap>tm5t2 !re 7 two or ?ree p]sons 9 att5dance ^u him4 ,!y exam9$ my pres5t toge!r2 &1 )\t condesc5d+ to express mu* approbation1 ,i c\ld nev]!less disc]n t ! ba%aw 0 pleas$ ) x4 ,?is c]emony conclud$2 ,muzaff] ord]$ :at ,i _h br\ght to be tak5 into a diff]5t ap>tm5t2 &1 e o!r p]son )draw+1 we 7 left alone4 ,:ile ! ba%aw 0 exam9+ my gift1 ,i took ! opportunity ( consid]+ 8 p]son4 ,he appe>$ to be ab\t sixty ye>s ( age2 8 complexion d>k & muddy2 8 features co>se & di/ort$2 8 mu/a*oes rem>kably l>ge2 8 p]son1 ?\gh bony & muscul>1 consid]ably bel[ ! middle size2 & 8 figure unga9ly & ungraceful4 ,i felt surpris$ t su* a man %\ld ev] h be5 an excell5t soldi]1 or h ris5 f a l[ rank to "o ( ! fir/ situations ( ! empire4 ,to look at him1 he seem$ bett] =m$ = ! vice ( a com$y1 ?an ! rul] ( a nation4 ,he rais$ 8 eyes t[>ds me askance1 z he sat lean+ on 8 elb[1 & said1 8,y call y\rself--80 8,! sieur de ,*atillon40 8,& y\r age--80 8,is two & tw5ty40 8,i am glad y are come to me4 ,i int5d$ to h s5t = y1 & y h sav$ me ! tr\ble40 ,i made _m apologies = my intrusion1 b add$ t ,i _h a petition to pref]1 & ,i hop$ he w\ld fav\r me ) a he>+4 8,n at all1 n at all2 d n call x an intrusion3 x is necess>y ,i %\ld be acqua9t$ ) y40 ,he proce$$3-- 8,y h und]tak5 to conf] great b5efits on ! subjects ( ! gr& signior1 my ma/]2 to rescue !m f fam9e4 ,"y1 ri*1 a /rang]1 unkn[n to my ma/]1 unkn[n to 8 subjects1 ,i und]/& t y h sp>$ no lab\r or exp5se to br+ ab\t _! welf>e4 ,?is is really a v extraord9>y case2 y\r m]it is unprec$5t$2 ,i d n feel myself compet5t to rew>d x40 ,i answ]$ t ,i laid no claim to uncommon m]it2 t e temp] _h its p>ticul> gratifications2 & t ,i f\nd z real a luxury 9 ! proce$+s he _h rem>k$1 z o!r m5 did 9 ! excesses ( ! table1 or ! promiscu\s enjoym5ts ( ! h>em4 8,x is out ( my p[]10 cont9u$ he1 8to remun]ate y z y des]ve2 ,i mu/ s5d y to ,con/ant9ople40 ,i p]ceiv$ t ?is 0 ! fir/ essay ( 8 artifice4 ,i in=m$ him :i* ,i h no d\bt he knew well en\gh be=e1 t ,i _h no desire to g to ,con/ant9ople4 ,i wi%$ to rema9 :]e ,i 01 & to f9i% :at ,i _h begun4 8,:at1 y h n done !n80 sudd5ly & ) an abrupt voice exclaim$ ! ba%aw4 8,by ,mahomet1 a man ( a reasonable appetite 9 y\r place might be satisfi$4 ,h n y fill$ ! /reets ) riots1 & ! c\ntry ) rebellion8 ,d n ! populace assemble 9 cr[ds1 insult+ e "o !y meet1 & talk+ ( no?+ b fire & deva/ation1 ! b[/r+ & ! cimet]8 ,be s good1 my de> sir2 z to in=m me :at fur!r y may h 9 view80 8,rev]5d ba%aw10 cri$ ,i ) submission1 yet ) firmness1 8,i h none ( ^! ?+s 9 view4 ,b a mom5t ago y did ju/ice to my int5tions4 ,!y are ^? ( b5efic5ce1 & b5efic5ce only40 8,i "k no?+ ab\t t4 ,i h no?+ to d ) hone/ m5's blund]s2 ,i look to ! effects !y produce40 8,^! effects1 mo/ mighty sir1 are tempor>y2 !y are ! cl\ds t w (t5 obscure = an in/ant ! brighte/ sun%9e4 ,condesc5d to l5d me y\r g5]\s assi/ance1 & all w be well40 8,d n tell me ( cl\ds & sun%9e4 ,?is is1 to my ?9k+1 n an ,april %[]1 b an e>?quake & a hurricane4 ,if we are all to be swall[$ up or :irl$ into ! air1 x is no consolation to me1 t ! day aft] we are gone1 e ?+ %all be z fair & s]5e z p>adise itself40 8,rememb]1 sir1 t :5 ,i came into ,hung>y1 ,i f\nd its inhabitants 9 ! mo/ desp]ate condition1 mis]able1 wa/$ & />v+4 ,h ,i n already susp5d$ ?is evil = mon?s80 8,yes1 ,i d rememb]4 ,y are "o ( ^? busy-bodies1 :o nev] see an evil )\t imag9+ !y are ! p]sons to correct x1 intrud+ into e ?+1 & subv]t+ e ?+4 ,! sup]9t5d5ce ( ! public welf>e is a my/]y to :i* none are compet5t1 b ^? :om ,mahomet has rais$ to ! situation ( /atesm54 ,y\r int]f]5ce is blasphemy aga9/ ! _s ( our religion1 & des]ves to be enc\nt]$ ) ! mo/ exempl>y puni%m5t40 8,good ,god6 !n1 is x 9 ?is c\ntry a crime to fe$ ! hungry1 to clo! ! nak$1 & %elt] ! h\seless80 8,sieur de ,*atillon10 retort$ ! ba%aw1 8y appe> to be unacqua9t$ ) ! maxims ( ,turki% policy1 ! wise/ & mo/ b5efic5t 9 ! _w4 ,if none ( ! di/urbances _h happ5$ at :i* ,i h s mu* reason to be al>m$1 /ill1 9 reliev+ ! p 9 ! mann] y h done1 y h incurr$ ! guilt ( high treason aga9/ ! sultan4 ,"k1 sir1 t1 ?r\gh ! :ole ext5t ( 8 dom9ions1 !re is b "o proprietor1 & t is our illu/ri\s mon>*4 ,y say1 t y wi% to be ! b5efactor ( 8 subjects1 & ! judge ( y\r own proce$+s3 su* s5tim5ts are direct rebellion aga9/ ! glori\s con/itution ( ,ottoman4 ,! sov]eign ( ,con/ant9ople w h no b5efactor 9 ! c\ntries he presides ov]1 b himself4 ,l ! invisible rul] ( ! univ]se1 he acts by second causes2 he all[s 8 m9i/]s to be ! in/rum5ts ( 8 b5efic5ce2 b all mu/ be ascrib$ to him1 mu/ fl[ f 8 w1 & be plac$ "u 8 control4 ,y1 :o h =m$ a plan ( public b5efit )\t consult+ him1 & h presum$1 l a lum9>y ( ! _w1 to move 9 an orbit ( y\r own1 h 9 /rictness ( con/ruction =feit$ y\r life to 8 ju/ice2 & ,i consult r ! clem5cy ( 8 nature ?an ! maxims ( 8 policy1 if ,i suff] y to g f ?is palace ) y\r head ^u y\r %\ld]s40 ,)\t p]mitt+ myself to be too mu* mov$ by ! imp]i\s language address$ to me1 ,i compla9$ to ! ba%aw ( ! rigor\s & arbitr>y "* ( :at he /at$ to be ! maxims ( ! ,turki% gov]nm5t4 ,i solemnly prote/$ t ,i _h no private or p]sonal object 9 view4 ,! effect ( my op]ations w\ld be to give new /r5g? & en]gy to 8 ma/]'s dom9ions4 ,by diffus+ happ9ess among 8 subjects1 by reviv+ indu/ry1 & scatt]+ pl5ty1 prosp]ity1 & ease1 all disaffection w\ld be root$ out2 & ! p1 :o are nev] m9ute 9 scann+ ! cause ( _! enjoym5ts1 w\ld bless ! sceptre "u :i* !y 7 made to p>ticipate su* manifold b5efits4 ,if ! policy ( ! divan l$ !m 9 any degree to int]f]e1 !y ought r to cr[n my measures ) _! applause1 ?an wantonly to ?r[ ob/acles 9 ! way ( :at ,i purpos$4 ,i ask$ h[ev] no rew>d1 ,i dem&$ no fav\r = myself2 all ,i desir$ 0 t ! sultan w\ld assi/ me 9 secur+ to 8 p ^? b5efits1 ! dissem9ation ( :i* ,i _h s auspici\sly begun4 ,! ba%aw1 )\t tak+ any direct notice ( ?is expo/ulation1 answ]$1 t ,i 0 n aw>e ( ! maxims ( 8 gov]nm5t1 to :i*1 9 consid]ation ( my seem+ g5]osity & rectitude1 he 0 will+ to give ! milde/ int]pretation4 8,x is h[ev]10 cont9u$ he1 8to ! la/ degree idle 9 y to imag9e1 t y c be p]mitt$ to g on unobs]v$1 & t ! sultan & 8 repres5tatives are to take no acc\nt ( y\r proce$+4 ,! great in/rum5t = rul+ mank9d is by _! passions & _! op9ions4 ,! man f :om !y believe !y h ! mo/ to fe> & ! mo/ to hope1 w always be _! ma/]4 ,:atev] be y\r secret or y\r pr(ess$ designs1 y g on f day to day mak+ y\rself p>tisans1 & enli/+ ! subjects ( ! sultan among y\r p]sonal reta9]s4 ,:at security has he = y\r submission & loyalty8 ,h[ %all he "k t1 :5 y h acquir$ ! advantages ( a p[]ful lead]1 y w n g ov] to ! enemy1 or1 9 ! pres5t di/ract$ condition ( ! prov9ce1 ev5 h ! audacity to set up = y\rself8 ,if !re=e1 by an unexampl$ clem5cy ( con/ruction1 ,i decl9e to r$uce y into ! passive ma*9e ( my ma/]'s w1 x is at lea/ incumb5t on me1 t ,i %\ld take acc\nt ( y\r p[]s1 & possess myself ( ! s*$ule ( y\r prop]ty4 ,by ?is means only c ,i wat* y\r progress1 & take c>e t y d n sudd5ly become too p[]ful = a subject4 ,are y prep>$ to satisfy me on ?is head80 ,on ?is "q ,i hesitat$ = a mom5t2 ,i _h n exactly anticipat$ ! enquiry2 at l5g? ,i reque/$ ! delay ( a few days1 & !n ,i promis$ t all 8 dem&s %\ld be satisfi$4 ,! ba%aw resum$3-- 8,sieur de ,*atillon1 ,i rem>k y\r hesitation1 & ,i draw f x no fav\rable augury4 ,^! indirect & involunt>y indications are m wor?y ( my att5tion ?an all ! /udi$ & elaborate in=mation y %all ?9k prop] to give me4 ,sir1 y are a man ( d>kness1 & e ?+ t relates to y is envelop$ 9 my/]y4 ,y come hi!r ) no app>5t motive2 y h no connections ( blood 9 ,hung>y2 y h no acqua9tance ) any em95t p]son ( ! ,hung>ian nation4 ,i h _h my spies on y1 ?\gh ,i h n hi!rto ?\ght prop] to summon y to my pres5ce4 ,y h pur*as$ no prop]ty 9 ! prov9ce2 ,i _c le>n t y h any correspond5ces or res\rces f abroad4 ,i h be5 at ! pa9s to procure an acc\nt ( y\r exp5diture dur+ ! ?ree mon?s y h resid$ among u2 mu* ( t exp5diture has be5 obscure1 cl&e/9e1 & indirect2 b ,i believe y w f9d my e/imate1 :i* y are at lib]ty to inspect & rem>k ^u1 tol]ably correct4 ,y\r disbursem5ts = ?ree mon?s1 exce$ ! am\nt ( two ye>s' income ( ! ri*e/ subject t ev5 ! cr$ul\s mon>*s ( ,*ri/5dom suff] )9 _! dom9ions4 ,:at am ,i to ?9k ( ?is8 ,h[ c ,i be suffici5tly vigilant respect+ a man1 ^: exp5diture is imm5se1 & ^: weal? c nei!r be trac$ to its s\rce1 nor asc]ta9$ 9 its am\nt80 ,i 0 n sl[ 9 conjectur+ ! result :i* ! ba%aw propos$ to himself f our pres5t conf]5ce4 ,i 0 confirm$ 9 my conjecture by ! circum/ance ( 8 *oos+ t ! discussion betwe5 u %\ld be ap>t f all witnesses4 ,he reg>d$ me z a boy1 & _h !re=e practis$ ^u me all ^? arts :i* might mo/ effectually excite 9 me fe> & al>m4 ,he f\nd h[ev] t1 "u ! ext]nal indications ( y\? & inexp]i5ce1 ,i possess$ ! w>9ess t add$ ye>s mo/ p[]fully inculcate1 & ! self-possession ( a m9d ?or\ghly awake to its situation & its res\rces4 ,?is mu/ h be5 to ! m9i/] be=e :om ,i /ood a memorable ph5om5on4 ,b curiosity is n a ,turki% passion2 & ! s+le object ( ! ba%aw 9 ! pres5t in/ance1 0 to make ! my/]i\sness ( my circum/ances a pretext = extort+ money4 ,i submitt$ ) z little seem+ reluctance z possible to ! necessity ( ! case2 ,i reque/$ ! good (fices ( ,muzaff] to protect my b5efactions2 & begg$ p]mission to make him ! complim5t ( a h&some sum ( money1 by way ( conv9c+ him t ,i 0 wor?y ( 8 fri5d%ip4 ,?is bus9ess 0 easily adju/$ betwe5 u4 ,i f\nd him p]fectly skill$ 9 ! duties ( a public (fice1 & by no means "u ! dom9ion ( vision>y scruples4 ,he told me he 0 n[ conv9c$ t ,i 0 a well mean+ man1 & a good subject2 he said1 t no?+ c\ld t5d m effectually to demon/rate my innoc5ce1 ?an my %[+ t ,i und]/ood ! duties & conc]ns ( a m9i/] ( /ate2 & t = 8 own "p he 0 nev] s happy1 z :5 he 0 ?us able to reconcile 8 private int]e/s ) ! good & fai?ful s]vice ( 8 ma/]4 ,!re 0 no?+ t dem&$ a m unremitt$ vigilance1 or a m skilful managem5t1 ?an su* a situation z 82 & x w\ld be mo/ unreasonable1 ei!r 9 ! sov]eign t appo9t$ him1 or ! subjects ov] :om he 0 plac$1 to expect him to be indiff]5t to ! emolum5ts & p]quisites ( 8 function4 ,he complim5t$ me w>mly ^u ! dis9t]e/$ness & lib]ality ( my ex]tions4 ,he ?\ght himself p>ticul>ly =tunate 9 hav+ s public-spirit$ an individual )9 ! circuit ( 8 jurisdiction4 ,9 f9e1 he hop$ he %\ld be hon\r$ ) my p]sonal acqua9tance1 & assur$ me t no?+ c\ld make him m happy ?an ! frequ5t repetition ( my visits4 ,we n[ p]fectly und]/ood "o ano!r2 & x 0 app>5t t ,i _h to d ) a man1 :o1 = :at he deem$ an adequate consid]ation1 w\ld will+ly l5d me ! au?ority & c\nt5ance ( 8 (fice1 & suff] me to guide him 9 any ( ! functions ,i might conceive necess>y = ! execution ( my projects4 ,gu>ds 7 agre$ to be plac$ ^u ! magaz9es :]e corn 0 /ill conta9$1 & f place to place on ! banks ( ! riv]s1 :]e ! depr$ations ( a misguid$ populace 7 mo/ to be appreh5d$4 ,f9d+ ! ba%aw s p]fectly will+ to comply ) my requisitions1 ,i fur!r obta9$ f him ! direction ( sev]al squadrons ( cavalry = ! protection ( ! crops1 :i* f ! consequ5ces ( my int]f]5ce n[ began on all sides to v>iegate ! sc5e4 ,?is 0 a mo/ important s]vice4 ,:5 ! corn 0 fir/ committ$ to ! e>?1 x 0 out ( ! rea* ( milit>y deva/ation4 ,b1 z "t glid$ sil5tly on1 ! case became mat]ially alt]$2 ! enemy might f =eca/ desire to reap ! h>ve/ ( :at he _h n s[n1 or f malice to de/roy t )\t :i* ! ,turk w\ld p]haps be unable to reta9 8 newly acquir$ t]ritory4 ,?is _h 9 reality be5 ! pr9cipal cause1 be=e my arrival 9 ,hung>y1 ( ! v g5]al neglect into :i* agriculture _h fall54 ,muzaff]1 ?an :om no p]son c\ld n[ be m polite & condesc5d+1 all[$ me to det]m9e ! numb] & nature ( ! troops ,i requir$2 & add$ t1 ?\gh he c\ld n op5ly put !m "u my direction1 ! slighte/ intimation ,i might ?9k prop] to convey to him1 %\ld at any "t decide _! m>*1 & regulate _! qu>t]s4 ,,*apt] ,,xxxvii4 ,9 my conf]5ce ) ! ba%aw ,i may seem to h secur$ m ?an "o po9t ( mat]ial importance2 yet x 0 difficult = any man to be 9 a /ate less consolatory or m full ( dang] & m5ace1 ?an ,i 0 at ?is mom5t4 ,by my vigilance & ! p[] :i* ?us ,i _h acquir$1 ,i prev5t$ inde$ ! inhabitants f wantonly de/roy+ ! means ( _! own subsi/5ce2 b1 ! m ,i 0 _! b5efactor1 ! m ,i appe>$ to become odi\s to _! ?\ghts4 ,my negotiation ) ! ba%aw1 :atev] o!r b5efit might accrue f x1 did n t5d to increase ! res\rces ( ! c\ntry2 ,i 0 oblig$ to witness _m sc5es ( wret*$ness4 ,he t w\ld assi/ mank9d 9 _! adv]sity1 mu/ h>d5 8 he>t to be ! spectator ( ! di/ress t he c1 & t he _c1 relieve4 ,b :atev] ,i beheld ( ?is sort1 ! majority ( ! by/&]s ob/9ately p]si/$ to ascribe to my delib]ate malignity4 ,! milit>y aid ,i f\nd myself necessitat$ to introduce by no means t5d$ to dis>m ! prejudices ( my cli5ts4 ,9 "o or two in/ances1 b no m1 slight tumults arose1 & a few ( ! riot]s fell a prey to _! own wick$ness & folly4 ,^! mis=tunes 7 ca/ z reproa* ^u me2 & ,i 0 pursu$ ) clam\rs & curses4 ,i f\nd x requisite to obta9 a gu>d = my p]son4 ,i 0 abhorr$ by ^? = :om all my vigilance 0 ex]t$1 & insult$ by ! m\?s t ,i suppli$ ) ! necess>ies ( exi/5ce4 ,nor 0 ?is my only s\rce ( al>m & uneas9ess 9 my pres5t situation4 ,i 0 by no means a dupe to ! o/5tati\s civility ( ! ba%aw4 ,i p]fectly und]/ood 8 ins9uation :5 he invit$ ! frequ5t repetition ( my visits4 ,i knew t1 h[ev] de>ly ,i pur*as$ 8 fri5d%ip & patronage1 ,i %\ld /ill h to pur*ase !m aga9 & aga94 ,8 extortions ^u me admitt$ ( no limits1 except f 8 own mode/y1 or ! e/imate he might =m ( my invisible res\rces4 ,brib]y itself af=d$ me no complete security2 &1 n[ t ,i _h become an object ( curiosity & rem>k1 he _h suffici5tly %[n me ,i 0 at ! m]cy ( 8 caprice1 or t ( 8 ma/]1 = my lib]ty1 & ev5 = my life4 ,yet1 c\ld ,i h resolv$ to quit ,hung>y1 & seek ! protection ( "s m regul> gov]nm5t1 :at b5efit %\ld ,i d]ive f a removal8 ,my/]y 0 ! great & unconqu]able bane ( my situation1 & f ! poison\s influ5ce ( my/]y1 ! mo/ regul> sy/em ( gov]nm5t 0 n compet5t to protect me4 ,x w\ld be idle to imag9e t1 9 any c\ntry on e>?1 a /rang] w\ld be p]mitt$ to laun* into su* exp5ses z ^? 9 :i* ,i 0 engag$1 )\t becom+ an object ( suspicion1 & be+ made liable to cont9ual int]ruption 9 8 measures4 ,yet1 unless all[$ to use ! res\rces ,i possess$1 ( :at advantage 0 x to be ! depository ( weal? )\t a b\nd8 ,0 x to be wi%$ = a man "u my circum/ances1 to h a family1 or to be )\t a family8 ,:5 ,i _h "o1 ,i f\nd ! legacy ( ! /rang] robb+ me ( e com=t ( t sort1 ) ! mo/ calamit\s aggravations4 ,:5 ,i 0 /ripp$ ( wife & *ildr51 ?\gh no man c\ld prize ^? b5efits m de>ly ?an ,i priz$ !m1 ,i took to myself ! consolation1 t at lea/ n[ ,i %\ld risk no "o's happ9ess b my own2 & t1 = a p]son ex]cis+ my end[m5ts1 x 0 p]haps requisite to be free f e %ackle & incumbrance4 ,i f\nd h[ev] ! topic f :i* ,i _h consol$ myself1 9 reality ! s\rce ( a new mis=tune4 ,i _h ! weal? ( a nobleman2 b ,i 0 depriv$ ( 8 adv5titi\s attributes4 ,i _h no illu/ri\s ance/ry to boa/2 ,i _h nei!r l9eage nor p>5t2 ,i _h nei!r wife nor *ildr51 9 :om mutually to reflect & see reflect$ ! elevat$ness & g5]osity ( my /ation4 ,i _h n ev5 ! ord9>y advantage1 :i* is )9 ! rea* ( almo/ e man1 ( connections & acqua9tance1 fri5ds h&$ d[n to me z a bran* ( my patrimonial inh]itance1 fri5ds ^: value exp]i5ce enabl$ me to asc]ta91 & fri5ds ) :om long habits ( famili>ity _h giv5 bir? to reciprocal ende>m5t4 ,! ba%aw _h imput$ to me ! design ( =m+ a p>ty4 ,alas6 ^!1 :i* are ! great mat]ials = cem5t+ p>ty atta*m5ts1 7 totally d5i$ me4 ,i _h no bonds ( alliance b ^? :i* money af=d$1 ! co>se/1 ! meane/1 ! lea/ flatt]+1 & ! mo/ brittle ( ^? ligatures1 t af=d ! semblance ( unit+ man ) man4 ,,*apt] ,,xxxviii4 ,aw>e ( ! difficulties :i* unavoidably sprung out ( ! nature ( my situation1 ,i resolv$ imm$iately to endeav\r to supply !m to ! be/ ( my p[]4 ,i conceiv$ t !re 0 no consid]ation s urg5t ^u me at ! pres5t mom5t1 z t ,i %\ld )\t loss ( "t create to myself connections t might balance & keep at bay ! sallies ( arbitr>y rule1 & t ,i %\ld weave ) my own h& ! cords ( fri5d%ip4 ,i _h no soon] =m$ ?is project1 ?an an individual sugge/$ himself to my reflections1 :om ,i judg$ to be1 by a s+ul> concurr5ce ( circum/ances1 happily fitt$ to be ! subject ( my exp]im5t1 & admirably qualifi$ to af=d me protection 9 ! mo/ unfav\rable ev5ts4 ,! "n ( ?is man 0 ,be?lem ,gabor4 ,he _h be5 "s "t be=e br\ght to me by "o ( 8 fri5ds1 & he 0 a man :om = a ?\s& reasons x 0 impossible to see & conv]se )1 )\t receiv+ ! mo/ indelible impression4 ,he 0 ! l9eal repres5tative ( "o ( ! mo/ illu/ri\s h\ses 9 ,hung>y4 ,8 vocation1 l t ( ! majority ( ! ,hung>ian nobility1 _h be5 arms2 b1 9 ! mid/ ( a frat]nity all ( :om 7 w>like1 he /ood conspicu\s & alone4 ,8 c\rage1 ?\gh cool & delib]ate1 almo/ m\nt$ to a degree ( desp]ate ra%ness2 & ! f]tility ( 8 inv5tion1 & ! v>iety ( 8 /ratagems did n fall %ort ( 8 c\rage4 ,! cel]ity ( 8 measures 0 equally di/+ui%$2 di/ance 0 no b> to him2 & he _h no soon] conceiv$ a project1 h[ev] ardu\s1 ?an x 0 execut$4 ,he _h =m$ "u 8 own eye a b& ( m5 l himself1 impetu\s yet delib]ate1 swift 9 execution1 sil5t 9 m>*1 inv9cible to h>d%ip1 contemn]s ( fatigue1 ( difficulties1 ( hung]1 & ( ?ir/4 ,:5 introduc$ to me1 he 0 upw>ds ( fifty ye>s ( age4 ,he 0 m ?an six feet 9 /ature2 & yet he 0 built z if x _h be5 a colossus1 de/9$ to su/a9 ! weight ( ! />ry heav5s4 ,8 voice 0 l ?und]2 & he nev] utt]$ a ^w1 b x seem$ to %ake 8 manly *e/4 ,8 head & *9 7 clo!d ) a ?ick & %aggy hair1 9 col\r a dead black4 ,he _h suff]$ consid]able mutilation 9 ! s]vices ?r\gh :i* he _h pass$2 ( "o ( 8 h&s ?ree f+]s 7 gone2 ! sight ( 8 "r eye 0 ext+ui%$1 & ! *eek half %ot away1 :ile ! same explosion _h burn$ 8 complexion into a col\r t 0 univ]sally dun or black4 ,8 nose 0 sc>r$1 & 8 lips 7 ?ick & l>ge4 ,be?lem ,gabor1 ?\gh univ]sally respect$ = ! hon\r & magnanimity ( a soldi]1 0 n less rem>kable = habits ( res]ve & taciturnity4 ,b ^! habits mis=tune _h caus$ to become m deeply +raft$ 9 8 nature4 ,dur+ "o ( 8 milit>y excursions1 a p>ty ( m>aud]s _h 9 8 abs5ce surpris$ 8 ca/le1 burn$ x to ! gr\nd1 & savagely murd]$ 8 wife & *ildr51 & e liv+ creature )9 ! walls4 ,! same /roke t r5d]$ him *ildless made him also a begg>4 ,he _h be5 reg>d$ = 8 proce$+s z an adh]5t to ! ,turki% /&>d1 b he _h always t5aci\sly ma9ta9$ ! mo/ complete indep5d5ce4 ,! adv]sity t _h n[ fall5 ^u him 0 too great4 ,he w\ld n become a p5sion] ( ! sultan2 despair _h tak5 fa/ possession ( 8 he>t4 ,he disb&$ ! body ( m5 he _h =m$1 & w&]$ a solit>y outca/ ^u ! face ( 8 c\ntry4 ,= "s "t he seem$ to h a savage complac5ce 9 conceiv+ t ! evil he _h suff]$ 0 pa/ all rem$y1 & 9 spurn+ at ^? palliations & disguises ) :i* vulg> s\ls are accu/om$ to assuage _! woe4 ,yet ! en]gy ( 8 nature w\ld n suff] him to re/3 he w&]$ an outca/2 b e day eng5d]$ "s new ?\ght or passion3 & x appe>$ probable t he w\ld n yet quit ! /age ( exi/5ce till he _h left beh9d him ! remembrances ( a t]rible & desolat+ rev5ge4 ,x may seem /range t su* a man z ,i h describ$ %\ld be ! individual ,i select$ out ( ! :ole ,hung>ian nation to make my fri5d4 ,x may seem t 8 qualities 7 bett] adapt$ to repel ?an attract4 ,my *oice w\ld n appe> /range1 if ! read] c\ld h conv]s$ ) him1 z ,i did4 ,he 0 hide\s to ! sight2 & he nev] address$ himself to speak1 t ,i did n feel my v he>t %udd] )9 me4 ,seldom did he all[ himself to op5 8 ?\ghts2 b1 :5 he did1 great ,god6 :at sup]natural eloqu5ce seem$ to inspire & en%r\d him6 ,n t ^u su* occasions he 0 copi\s & ,cic]onian1 b t e muscle & e limb seem$ to live1 & to quiv] ) ! ?\ghts he express$4 ,! he>] c\ld n refuse to v5]ate1 z well z fe> him4 ,i nev] piti$ him2 ,be?lem ,gabor's 0 a s\l t so>$ to a sightless di/ance above ! sph]e ( pity2 ,i c sc>cely say ,i sympa?is$ ) him2 b1 :5 ,i li/5$ to 8 compla9ts1 r let me say 8 invectives1 ,i 0 a/oni%$1 ov]:elm$1 & motionless4 ,! secret ( ! effects he ?us produc$1 lay 9 8 own way ( feel+ ! incid5ts he describ$4 ,look at him1 :5 he sat alone1 wrapp$ 9 m$itation1 y w\ld say1 8,t is a man ( iron2 ?\gh adv]sity p\r h] fi]ce/ d>ts ^u him1 he is invuln]able2 he is ( too colossal a /ructure to be accessible to human feel+s & human affections40 ,li/5 to 8 n>rative1 or r to ! bur/s ( passion1 :i* ) him suppli$ ! place & p]=m$ ! functions ( n>rative1 y w\ld soon confess y\r mi/ake4 ,:ile he spoke1 he ceas$ to be a man1 & became some?+ m amaz+4 ,:5 he allud$ to :at he _h endur$1 y did n compassionate him1 = y felt t he 0 a creature ( ano!r nature2 b y confess$1 t nev] man seem$ to h suff]$ s mu*1 or to sav\r ) su* bitt]ness ! cup ( woe4 ,he did n love 8 wife or 8 *ildr5 z any o!r man w\ld d2 he probably nev] d&l$ or fondl$ !m2 8 love 0 spee*less2 & disda9+ ! common modes ( exhibition1 x might sometimes be mi/ak5 = indiff]5ce4 ,b x brood$ ov] & clung r\nd 8 he>t2 &1 :5 x 0 di/urb$1 :5 ! /rong ties ( dome/ic *>ity 7 by ! m]ciless h& ( w> snapp$ asund]1 y !n saw its volum9\s folds spread & convuls$ be=e y1 gigantic & immeasurable4 ,he curs$ _! murd]]s2 he curs$ mank9d2 he rose up 9 fi]ce defiance ( et]nal provid5ce2 & y\r blood curdl$ )9 y z he spoke4 ,su* 0 ,be?lem ,gabor3 ,i c\ld n help admir+ him3 8 greatness excit$ my wond] & my rev]5ce2 &1 :ile 8 mann]s aw$ & ov]:elm$ me1 ,i felt an inexplicable atta*m5t to 8 p]son /ill increas+ 9 my bosom4 ,on 8 "p1 my k9dness & p>tiality appe>$ sc>cely less pleas+ to ,be?lem ,gabor1 ?an 8 "* & disc\rse 7 fasc9at+ to me4 ,he _h f\nd himself )\t a confidant or a fri5d4 ,8 wife & 8 *ildr5 9 a c]ta9 degree und]/ood him2 &1 ?\gh he _h an atmosph]e ( repulsion beyond :i* no mortal ev] p5etrat$1 !y came to ! edge ( t1 & re/$ !re2 !y trembl$ involunt>ily at 8 aspect1 b at ! same "t !y ador$ & !y lov$ him4 ,! re/ ( ! _w view$ him f a m fe>ful di/ance2 respect$ him1 b d>$ n ev5 9 fancy be famili> ) him4 ,:5 !re=e he lo/ 8 family1 he lo/ 8 all4 ,he roam$ ! e>? 9 solitude1 & all m5 made room = him z he pass$4 ,i 0 ! fir/ :o1 s9ce ! fatal ev5t t _h made him *ildless & a begg>1 _h c\rt$ 8 society1 & invit$ 8 communications4 ,i _h d>$ to take ! lion by ! paw1 & seat myself next him 9 8 d54 ,!re 0 a simil>ity 9 our =tunes t secretly ende>$ him to me4 ,we _h ea* by ! malice ( a ho/ile de/9y1 ?\gh 9 a v diff]5t mann]1 be5 depriv$ ( our families2 we 7 ea* ( u alone4 ,fat$ ea* to be h]eaft] = ev] alone2 we bl5d$ ourselves ! "o ) ! o!r z p]fectly z we c\ld4 ,(t5 ov] our gloomy b[l we m+l$ groans1 & sweet5$ our draught z we drank x ) mal$ictions4 ,9 ! s*ool ( ,be?lem ,gabor ,i became acqua9t$ ) ! delights ( melan*oly--- ( a melan*oly1 n t contract$1 b t swell$ ! s\l--( a melan*oly t look$ d[n ^u ! _w ) indignation1 & t reliev$ its secret load ) curses & execrations4 ,we frequ5tly cont9u$ :ole nights 9 ! p>ticipation ( ^! bitt] joys2 & 7 surpris$1 /ill at our s]i\s bo>d1 by ! light ( ! morr['s sun4 ,i h n[1 ,i believe1 fully acc\nt$ = our intimacy1 & display$ ! ligatures t secretly b\nd u to ea* o!r4 ,x is sc>cely necess>y to add1 t my und]/&+ confirm$ :at my he>t impell$4 ,be?lem ,gabor appe>$ to me ! fitte/ man 9 ! _w ^u :om to fix = my fri5d4 ,we 7 qualifi$ mutually to b5efit ea* o!r4 ,my k9dness1 my unremitt$ att5tions1 ! e>ne/ness ) :i* ,i li/5$ to & soo!d 8 griefs1 mitigat$ _! agony4 ,i propos$1 :5 ,i c\ld once m reconcile & incite him to activity1 to repair 8 ca/le1 & re/ore 8 =tune4 ,on ! o!r h&1 he 01 ( all ! p]sons ,i c\ld h pit*$ ^u1 ! able/ to protect me4 ,by 8 bir? he rank$ among ! fir/ m5 ( 8 c\ntry2 by 8 ability1 at lea/ z a p>tisan soldi]1 a "* at t "t highly e/eem$1 he rose above !m all4 ,= "s "t ,i reg>d$ ,be?lem ,gabor z entirely my fri5d1 & ,i consult$ him 9 e ?+1 9 :i*1 compatibly ) ! legacy ( ! /rang] ( ! summ]-h\se1 ,i c\ld consult him4 ,i told him ( ! suspicions ( ! ba%aw1 & ! prec>i\sness ( my safety4 ,i dem&$ 8 advice z to ! be/ me?od ( secur+ x4 ,ought ,i to reg>d x z a m effectual or z a *eap] exp$i5t1 to attempt to pur*ase ! c\nt5ance ( ! sultan1 in/ead ( condesc5d+ to bribe 8 m9i/]8 ,ought ,i to set up = myself1 & by r5d]+ myself ! indep5d5t pr9ce ( "o ( ! ,hung>ian prov9ces1 defy ! ,turk1 or at lea/ endeav\r to negotiate ) him f a m respectable & comm&+ situation8 ,i said m ?an en\gh "u ^! heads1 z x aft]w>ds appe>$1 to awak5 /range imag9ations 9 a m9d ( s mu* p5etration z t ( ,be?lem ,gabor4 ,9 f9e1 ,i dem&$ ( him :e!r1 9 case ( any great & =midable dang] fall+ on me1 he w\ld to ! utmo/ ( 8 p[] af=d me protection8 ,:5 ! "q 0 fir/ />t$1 he swore to me ) 8 cu/om>y impressiv5ess & en]gy t he w\ld4 ,:ile ,i 0 ?us employ$ 9 consult+ him1 & op5+ to him z f> z 0 practicable my prospects & fe>s1 ,i did n less succe$ 9 dissipat+ or susp5d+ ! despair ( 8 melan*oly4 ,x 0 ( b5efit to him 9 ?is respect1 t1 by op5+ to him my affairs1 ,i f "t to "t call$ (f 8 att5tion f 8 p]sonal mis=tunes4 ,i propos$ to him ! rebuild+ 8 ca/le1 & ,i at l5g? obta9$ 8 p]mission to s5d (f a corps ( workm5 = t purpose4 ,beside ! ca/le 9 :i* 8 wife & *ildr5 _h be5 murd]$1 & :i* ! m>aud]s _h ne>ly de/roy$1 he _h "o consid]ably /rong]1 ?\gh void ( all recomm5dation f *e]fulness or beauty1 9 ! m nor!rly "p ( ! k+dom4 ,?is we visit$ toge!r4 ,i re/or$ ! condition ( 8 fields2 ) consid]able difficulty ,i replac$ ! cattle he _h lo/1 by pur*ases 9 ,pol&2 & ,i reviv$ 8 dilapidat$ rev5ues4 ,at fir/ he felt an inv9cible repugnance to ! receiv+ any advantage f ! b\nty ( ano!r2 b by cont9ual remon/rances ,i 0 able to p]suade him1 t he ow$ me no?+1 & t :at ,i did 0 no m ?an 0 requir$ f me by a reg>d = my own safety4 ,if ev] on ! face ( ! e>? !re liv$ a misan?rope1 ,be?lem ,gabor 0 ! man4 ,nev] = a mom5t did he =get or =give ! sangu9>y cata/rophe ( 8 family2 & = 8 own mis=tunes he seem$ to h v[$ v5geance aga9/ ! :ole human race4 ,he almo/ hat$ ! v face ( man2 &1 :5 expressions ( *e]fulness1 peace1 & cont5tm5t discov]$ !mselves 9 8 pres5ce1 ,i c\ld see1 by ! hide\s work+ ( 8 features1 t 8 _s exp]i5c$ intol]able agonies4 ,to him su* expressions 7 tones horribly discordant2 all 0 upro> & havoc )9 8 own bosom1 & ! gaiety ( o!r m5 inspir$ him ) s5tim5ts ( inv9cible antipa?y4 ,he nev] saw a fe/ive bo>d )\t an incl9ation to ov]turn x2 or a fa!r encircl$ ) a smil+ family1 )\t feel+ 8 s\l ?rill ) sugge/ions ( murd]4 ,some?+1 ,i "k n :at1 )held 8 h&3 x might be "s rema9+ atom ( humanity3 x might be--= 8 :ole "* 0 contemplative & close--x might be t he reg>d$ t z a pitiful & impot5t rev5ge1 :i* %\ld cause him ! next h\r to be lock$ up z a madman1 or put to dea? z crim9al4 ,horrible z 0 8 p]sonal aspect1 & wild & savage z 0 8 m9d1 yet1 z ,i h already said1 ,i felt myself atta*$ to him4 ,i knew t all ! unsocial prop5sities t animat$ him1 7 ! (fspr+ ( love1 7 ! s5tim5ts ( a lioness b]eav$ ( h] "y2 & ,i f\nd an undescribable & exhau/less pleasure 9 exam9+ ! sublime desolation ( a mighty s\l4 ,be?lem ,gabor _h at fir/ reg>d$ me ) "s degree ( p>tiality4 ,k9dness 9 almo/ all cases begets k9dness2 he c\ld n see h[ mu* ,i int]e/$ myself ab\t & h[ mu* ,i c\rt$ him1 )\t feel+ = me a s5tim5t diff]5t f t he confess$ = o!r m54 ,i saw h[ev] aft] "s "t1 ) inexpressible grief1 t 8 reg>d = me1 in/ead ( increas+1 suff]$ p]ceptible dim9ution4 ,our prop5sities 7 oppos$ to ea* o!r4 ,he rejoic$ 9 disord] & desolation z 9 8 cong5ial elem5t2 my pres5t pursuit 0 ! re/oration ( public ord] & prosp]ity4 ,he repeat$ly expo/ulat$ ) me on ?is4 ,i _h sometimes 9 our conv]sations1 9 ! bitt]ness ( my recollections1 exclaim$ on myself z ! mo/ un=tunate & mo/ p]secut$ ( m51 ?\gh )\t ent]+ into an explanation ( my suff]+s4 ,he rem9d$ me ( ^! exclamations4 ,he reproa*$ me z a contemptible & pusillanim\s wret*1 t ,i did n1 l him1 resolve amply & memorably to rev5ge my own suff]+s ^u my species at l>ge4 ,9 8 e/imate1 ! poore/ & mo/ s]vile ( all maxims 01 t ( ! au?or ( ! *ri/ian religion1 to repay injury ) fav\r1 & curses ) b5$iction4 ,i p]ceiv$ ) grief t ! k9dness t[>ds me t _h be5 excit$ 9 ,be?lem ,gabor's m9d1 r decl9$ ?an augm5t$2 b ,i 0 v f> f be+ aw>e ( ! degree 9 :i*1 z ,i aft]w>ds f\nd1 ?is s5tim5t _h relaps$ into its opposite4 ,x seems1 ,i inflict$ on him a daily torture by my daily ef=ts = ! dissem9ation ( happ9ess4 ,( ^! he _h n be5 at fir/ completely aw>e4 ,8 m9d _h be5 too mu* absorb$ 9 its own feel+s to att5d v di/9ctly to any ?+ ,i did1 unless x 7 done 9 8 pres5ce4 ,b1 9 proportion z ,i soo!d 8 sorr[s1 & made him my confidant1 ! film 0 remov$2 & all t he saw _h ! peculi> mis=tune to excite at once 8 contempt & 8 rage4 ,! f9i%+ /roke t ,i gave to ! animosity :i*1 unkn[n to me1 0 n[ brood+ & eng5d]+ 9 8 brea/1 consi/$ 9 my be/[+ an important b5efit ^u "o1 aga9/ :om he _h ent]ta9$ a long & et]nal feud4 ,,*apt] ,,xxxix4 ,:ile ,be?lem ,gabor became e day m confirm$ 9 8 antipa?y aga9/ me1 ,i repos$ 9 him an unsuspect+ confid5ce--a confid5ce m ext5sive ?an ,i _h1 s9ce ! s+ul> & fatal acquisition ,i _h made1 repos$ 9 any o!r man4 ,frequ5tly = a consid]able "t toge!r he resid$ "u my ro(2 frequ5tly we w5t =? toge!r 9 ^? excursions :i* ei!r my projects or 8 views r5d]$ x necess>y = u to make4 ,9 8 "* ( a nobleman ( great consid]ation 9 8 native c\ntry1 he 0 n[ ris+ l a phnix f its a%es4 ,8 ca/les 7 repair+2 8 prop]ty 0 re/or$2 ! li/ ( 8 reta9]s daily became m num]\s2 he reviv$ & c>efully recruit$ ! m>tial b&1 :i*1 9 ! fir/ exac]bations ( 8 despair1 he _h dismiss$ f 8 s]vice4 ,my purse & all t ,i _h 7 82 he nev] made a dem& ^u me t ,i did n in/antly supply2 ,i reap$ a p>ticul> pleasure f ! l>g5ess & frequ5cy ( 8 requisitions2 !re 0 no?+ = :i* ,i 0 m anxi\s1 ?an to b9d him to me 9 indissoluble ties ( gratitude & affection4 ,little1 alas6 did ,i und]/& ! comp\nd ( t5d]ness & f]ocity1 ( decisiv5ess & inscrutability1 ) :i* ,i 0 n[ conc]n$4 ,my fri5d1 su* ,i e/eem$ him1 _h be5 abs5t "s "t2 ,i expect$ 8 return to my resid5ce at ,buda2 & anxi\s to pay him e m>k ( att5tion & respect1 ,i set out to meet him4 ,x 0 sc>cely safe1 dur+ ! exi/+ ho/ilities betwe5 ! ,au/rians & ! ,turks1 to travel any :]e )\t a gu>d2 ,i _h ! precaution 9 ! pres5t in/ance to take ) me an att5dance ( tw5ty m54 ,x 0 aft] hav+ p>tak5 ( a slight & e>ly d9n] t ,i set out on my excursion4 ,! season 0 rem>kably f9e1 & ! air g5ial & balsamic4 ,i sc>cely ev] comm5c$ any t\r ) m agreeable s5sations4 ,! h>ve/ 0 already ripe2 &1 z ,i pass$ along1 ,i saw reap]s f "t to "t ent]+ ^u ! fir/ essay ( _! int]e/+ occupation4 ,i felt t ,i _h at l5g? surm\nt$ "o ( ^? difficulties1 ) :i* ,i _h be5 s /rongly assail$1 & to :i* ,i _h refus$ to yield4 ,if ,i 7 n free f appreh5sions f ! arbitr>y nature ( ! gov]nm5t "u :i* ,i liv$1 ,i believ$ h[ev] t ,i _h no?+ fur!r to dread f ! miscon/ruction & animosity ( ! nation ,i pres]v$4 ,my anxiety z to :e!r ,i %\ld be able to sub/antiate ! b5efit ,i _h s\ght to conf]1 0 at an end2 & ,i _h little d\bt t1 ) ! pl5te\s crops :i* 7 on ! po9t ( be+ ga!r$1 my popul>ity w\ld return1 & ! gratitude ( my cli5ts become m ard5t ?an ev]4 ,x 0 a delici\s enjoym5t t ,i n[ exp]i5c$2 ! pleasures t ! eye unavoidably takes 9 f ! spectacle ( a luxuriant autumn1 became bl5d$ 9 my m9d ) ! ideas ( fam9e put to flight1 my own rectitude v9dicat$1 & ! b5evol5t purposes realis$1 ! prosecution ( :i* _h co/ me s pr(\nd a he>ta*e4 ,we at l5g? pass$ ! l9es ( ! soldi]s plant$ = ! def5ce ( ! soil aga9/ ! depr$ations ( ! enemy4 ,i _h calculat$ t ,i %\ld meet my gue/ a few leagues f ,buda2 ,i 0 deceiv$ 9 my e/imate4 ,! day h[ev] ( 8 arrival 0 fix$2 ,i c\ld n be mi/ak5 9 8 r\te2 ,i resolv$ n to turn back )\t meet+ him4 ,! road ,i took l$ ^u ! bord]s ( t "p ( ,hung>y :i* own$ ! ,au/rian yoke2 ! %ades ( night 7 fa/ ga!r+ r\nd u1 & we he>d at a di/ance ! al>m-guns & ! drums ( ! enemy4 ,i 0 n h[ev] a novice 9 ! appe>ances ( a c\ntry1 ! seat ( milit>y excursions & w>2 &1 if my m9d 7 n :olly free f p]turbation & unc]ta9ty1 ,i at lea/ resolv$ n to be turn$ aside f my purpose4 ,we travell$ two h\rs long]2 /ill no notice ( ! approa* ( ,be?lem ,gabor4 ,at l5g? a "q 0 />t$ :e!r we 7 /ill 9 ! "r road1 & ,i ?\ght x advisable to hold a sort ( c\ncil ( w> to delib]ate respect+ our fur!r proce$+s4 ,hav+ assembl$ my att5dants = t purpose1 ,i 0 n[ fir/ /ruck ) ! appreh5sions & timidity :i* !y unanim\sly betray$4 ,!y _h be5 drawn out r = %[1 & to keep accid5tal /raggl]s 9 awe1 ?an ) ! expectation ( actual s]vice4 ,i became s5sible t no?+ 0 to be hop$ f _! resi/ance 9 ! ev5t ( an action2 & ! utmo/ ,i c\ld aim at 0 9 ! mean "t to hold !m toge!r by ! s5tim5t ( a common dang]4 ,x 0 resolv$ to return2 ,i began to be appreh5sive t ,be?lem ,gabor _h be5 prev5t$ by "s unexpect$ occurr5ce f obs]v+ 8 appo9tm5t4 ,sc>cely _h we fac$ ab\t1 be=e we he>d a body ( cavalry approa*+ u4 ,i call$ to my p>ty to halt4 ,i soon disc]n$1 f symptoms n difficult to be rem>k$ by a c>eful obs]v]1 t ! p>ty at h& 0 compos$ ( ,au/ro-,hung>ians4 ,we _h e ?+ to fe> f !m4 ,i held myself b\nd "u ^! circum/ances fir/ to make exp]im5t ( ! fleetness ( our horses4 ,i h[ev] *>g$ my p to keep toge!r1 & n to suff] ! enemy1 by means ( our inadv]t5ce & folly1 to make an easy prize ( u "o aft] ano!r4 ,9 a %ort "t ,i f\nd t our pursu]s s5sibly ga9$ gr\nd ^u u4 ,i 0 m\nt$ ^u an excell5t bea/1 & c\ld easily h rode away f my troop1 :ile !y w\ld h be5 plac$ z a sort ( int]cept+ object betwe5 me & ! enemy4 ,b ,i _h too mu* ( a milit>y _s n in/antly to reject s +lori\s an exp$i5t4 ,i call$ a second "t to my att5dants to halt4 ,i judg$ t ! p>ty ( our antagoni/s 0 less num]\s ?an ours4 ,i 0 conv9c$ t our common safety dep5d$ ^u our conc]t$ resi/ance4 ,fill$ ) ! gallantry t my situation inspir$1 ,i did n p]ceive1 till x 0 too late1 t my pres5t call to halt 0 att5d$ to by few2 ev5 ^? few r hung back1 divid$ betwe5 appreh5sion & %ame4 ,i 0 ! =emo/1 &1 be=e ,i 0 aw>e1 ,i f\nd myself1 ?r\gh ! means ( ! d>kness1 envelop$ by ! enemy4 ,f my appe>ance !y judg$ t ,i 0 ! ma/]1 & ! re/ my att5dants2 !y cont5t$ !mselves !re=e ) ! prize !y _h made1 & did n give !mselves ! tr\ble to pursue ! fugitives4 ,!y eag]ly enquir$ ( me :o ,i 02 &1 comp>+ my answ]s ) v>i\s circum/ances :i* rum\r _h br\ght to _! e>1 !y easily conclud$ t ,i 0 ! ri* /rang] ( ,buda4 ,! "* !y _h he>d ( me did n produce 9 ^! freeboot]s any s5tim5ts ( =be>ance1 or demon/rations ( respect2 ! only po9t ab\t :i* p]sons ( _! habits 7 conc]n$1 0 h[ !y %\ld make ! greate/ advantage ( :at ! =tune ( w> _h ?r[n 9 _! way4 ,:ile !y 7 consult+1 & v>i\s exp$i5ts 7 />t$ by "o & ano!r = ?is purpose1 a second al>m 0 giv51 & "o ( ! p>ty be+ despat*$ to reconnoitre1 pres5tly return$ ) intellig5ce1 t ! p]sons approa*+ 7 horsem5 ( ! enemy1 & t !y am\nt$1 z he guess$1 to =ty 9 numb]4 ,^u ?is in=mation ! p>ty ^: prison] ,i 01 agre$ to return ) all exp$ition by ! way !y _h come1 & comm&$ me ^u pa9 ( dea? to proce$ 9 _! company4 ,?is m5ace _h n ! effect to deprive me ( c\rage or pres5ce ( m9d2 & ,i easily conceiv$ t ! readie/ way to deliv] myself f my emb>rassm5t w\ld be to jo9 at ! fir/ opportunity ! b& ( ,turco-,hung>ians1 ^: approa* _h occasion$ our sudd5 retreat4 ,! d>kness ( ! night 0 fav\rable to my purpose2 &1 tak+ advantage ( a sudd5 w9d+ 9 ! road1 ,i slack5$ all at once ! pace ( my horse )\t be+ obs]v$ by my companions1 :o1 z ! enemy approa*$1 _h n[ _! ?\ghts almo/ :olly int5t ^u ! safety ( _! retreat4 ,!y pass$ me2 & ,i no soon] p]ceiv$ t to be ! case1 ?an1 cov]$ f _! obs]vation by ! int]v5+ inclosure1 ,i turn$ my horse1 & gradually1 z my di/ance f my keep]s increas$1 urg$ him to a full] spe$4 ,x 0 n long be=e ,i came up ) ! b& :i* _h produc$ our al>m2 & hail+ !m ) ! acclamation1 8,long live ! mighty sultan60 0 )\t difficulty admitt$ into _! troop4 ,i in/antly und]/ood to my great joy t ?is 0 ! p>ty ( ,be?lem ,gabor t ,i _h come out to meet4 ,he receiv$ me ) mu* cordiality1 & seem$ greatly rejoic$ t =tune _h made him ! in/rum5t ( my rescue4 ,he propos$ h[ev] t1 hav+ met on ! road1 ,i %\ld n[1 in/ead ( proce$+ to ,buda1 return ) him to 8 nor!rn ca/le1 f :i* our di/ance 0 sc>cely great] ?an f ! metropolis4 ,! proposal 0 su* z ,i _h n expect$1 nor c\ld ,i well compreh5d ! purpose ) :i* x 0 made4 ,b ! habitual demean\r ( ,be?lem ,gabor nei!r accord$ ) 8 m9utely assign+ a reason = :at he did1 nor 0 calculat$ to enc\rage enquiry 9 ano!r4 ,i saw no mat]ial objection1 & !re=e felt little scruple 9 yield+ to 8 desires4 ,our brief consultation on ?is po9t pass$ at "s little di/ance f ! re/ ( ! troop4 ,:5 ! morn+ broke1 ! fir/ ?+ t excit$ my att5tion 0 ! appe>ance ( 8 foll[]s4 ,!y 7 full =ty 9 numb]1 well m\nt$1 ( a l>ge & a?letic figure1 ) sun-burnt faces1 imm5se :isk]s & a f]oci\s c\nt5ance4 ,i ?\ght ,i _h nev] se5 s trem5d\s a b&4 ,to me !y 7 e "o ( !m /rang]s2 ( all ! p]sons t surr\nd$ me1 ! only "o ( :om ,i _h ! slighte/ k 0 ,be?lem ,gabor himself4 ,i "k n :y x 01 b ,i no soon] beheld my situation ?an ,i 0 /ruck ) al>m4 ,i saw myself completely 9 ! p[] ( a man :o ?ree mon?s be=e 0 ignorant ev5 ( my exi/5ce4 ,i _h n a s+le att5dant ( my own1 n an individual ) me ov] :om ,i _h p]sonal au?ority or comm&4 ,i _h no reason to di/ru/ my ho/2 t[>ds me 8 demean\r _h ev] be5 frank1 confid5tial1 & manly2 ,i _h e imag9able claim ^u 8 g5]osity & 8 gratitude4 ,b our s5ses are (t5 ! ma/]s ( our m9d1 & reason va9ly opposes itself to ! livel9ess ( _! impressions4 ,e "t t ,i lift$ my eyes1 & saw myself hemm$ 9 by ^! b>b>ians1 my he>t seem$ involunt>ily to fail me4 ,be?lem ,gabor too appe>$ to neglect me2 he _h nev] %[n himself s little oblig+ & att5tive z at ?is mom5t2 &1 aid$ by ! re/ ( ! sc5e1 ,i ?\ght ,i _h nev] beheld him s de=m$ or s trem5d\s4 ,i 0 m ?an half incl9$ to wi% myself aga9 a prison] ) ! ,au/rians4 ,:5 we arriv$ at ! ca/le1 we 7 all ( u fatigu$ & hungry2 we _h roam$ dur+ ! :ole night4 ,a repa/ 0 prep>$2 we sat d[n to p>take ( x4 8,excuse me10 said ,be?lem ,gabor1 9 a l[ voice z he pass$ me1 8t ,i ?is night (f] y ! f>e ( a soldi]2 to-morr[ y %all be accommodat$ 9 a diff]5t mann]40 ,! words 7 innoc5t2 ! proce$+ natural2 b !re 0 a my/]i\s gloom1 at lea/ z ,i ?\ght1 9 ! tone 9 :i* he spoke1 t electrifi$ me4 ,! hall 9 :i* we supp$ 0 spaci\s & l(ty2 ! nak$ walls & raft]s 7 imbr[n$ ) age4 ,?\gh x 0 daybreak z we ent]$1 ! w9d[s 7 /ill d>k5$1 & ! ap>tm5t 0 illum9at$ only by ! p>tial gl>e ( lamps dep5d+ f ! ro(4 ,z ,i sat at table ) ! troop ( my ho/1 ,i appe>$ to myself z if inclos$ 9 a cav]n ( b&itti4 ,?\gh excell5t p>tisans1 skilful 9 execution1 & p]fect 9 _! discipl9e1 !y 7 unpoli%$ 9 _! mann]s & brutal 9 _! conv]sation4 ,i _h be5 inur$ f infancy to all ! ref9em5t t ! age 9 :i* ,i liv$ _h any :]e to boa/2 &1 amid/ ! v>i\s evils ,i _h suff]$1 t ( be+ associat$ ) ! vulg> & ! base _h nev] pres5t$ itself4 ,:ile !y utt]$1 n[ a loa?some je/1 & n[ a sangu9>y ejaculation1 ,i became a%am$ ( my species1 & ! pride ( manhood p]i%$ )9 me4 ,!y h[ev] paid little att5tion ei!r to my feel+s or my p]son2 &1 accu/om$ z ,i _h be51 :e!r ) fri5ds or enemies1 to be reg>d$ z ( "s importance1 ,i f\nd myself unacc\ntably & sudd5ly dw9dl$ into a ciph]4 ,i felt x l a release f ! /ate ( a galley-slave1 :5 ,be?lem ,gabor propos$ t we %\ld break up our meet+ & retire to re/4 ,,*apt] ,,xl4 ,a succession ( gloomy ?\ghts revolv$ 9 my m9d = "s "t aft] ,i 0 left to myself4 ,i 0 h[ev] ov]come ) fatigue1 &1 aft] an int]val ( h>ass+ m$itations1 ins5sibly fell asleep4 ,i 0 awak5$ aft] "s h\rs' repose1 by ! pres5ce ( ,be?lem ,gabor /&+ by ! side ( my c\*4 ,he invit$ me to rise1 &1 :5 ,i _h attir$ myself1 />t$ ! plan ( our visit+ toge!r ! v>i\s ap>tm5ts ( ! ca/le1 a small "p ( :i* only _h be5 se5 by me :5 ,i 0 la/ at ?is place4 ,among o!r ?+s1 he told me1 !re 0 a subt]ranean ( mo/ wond]ful ext5t1 int]sp]s$ ) a v>iety ( cells & lurk+ places1 ( :i* no man _h to 8 k ev] asc]ta9$ ! numb]4 ,! same dre>y complexion ( ?\ght foll[$ me to-day1 :i* _h be5 fir/ produc$ 9 me ^u my reception into ! troop ( ,be?lem ,gabor ! prec$+ night4 ,my s5sations 7 ( ! mo/ depress+ & discomfit+ nature2 ,i felt z if ,i 7 ! slave ( "s d>k1 my/]i\s tyrant1 & dragg$ along sup9ely :]ev] he motion$ me to g4 ,i task$ myself s]i\sly2 ,i reason$ ) myself4 ,i felt t x 0 no idle & e-day "p t ,i 0 call$ to su/a92 & ,i resolv$ t ,i w\ld n be ru9$ by my own inactivity & c[>dice4 ,yet1 :5 ,i exam9$ ! "q dispassionately1 ,i c\ld n f9d t ,i _h any occasion = c\rage1 & ,i confess$ t x 0 n less c5surable1 to discov] a useless _s ( mi/ru/ & defiance1 ?an to des]t "o's pres]vation :]e resi/ance 0 dem&$4 ,:at reason _h ,i to suspect a man betwe5 :om & myself !re _h prevail$ s mu* mutual confid5ce8 ,none1 none1 ,i repli$1 b ! causeless & sup]/iti\s misgiv+s ( my own m9d6 ,ev5 if ,i _h gr\nd to di/ru/ him1 :at rem$y _h ,i aga9/ 8 ill fai?1 plac$ z ,i 0 9 ! mid/ ( 8 own doma9s1 & surr\nd$ by m5 devot$ to 8 s]vice8 ,to discov] appreh5sion "u su* circum/ances1 0 to excite animosity4--,^! reason+s p>ticul>ly occurr$ to my m9d1 z ,i /ood wait+ = ! tor*1 :i* he _h himself gone to procure t he might att5d me to ! subt]ranean cav]ns4--,i _h z yet se5 no "o1 s9ce we broke up f our nightly repa/1 b my ho/4 8,we w breakfa/10 said he1 8:5 we return f view+ ^! curiosities40 ,we crept along a succession ( d>k & gloomy vaults1 almo/ 9 sil5ce4 ,be?lem ,gabor1 ?\gh he l$ me on1 & dis*>g$ ! (fice ( a guide1 seem$ to h small incl9ation to assume t ( an int]pret]4 ,?is 0 suffici5tly 9 unison ) 8 ord9>y "*1 to h little claim to excite surprise4 ,yet ! read] w n on reflection greatly wond] t my pres5t situation 0 f> f agreeable4 ,i 0 alone 9 passages :i*1 to judge f any discov]able tok51 y w\ld sc>cely imag9e _h = ages be5 trod by a human creature4 ,! voice 0 lo/ amid/ ! damps ( ^! imm5se cav]ns2 nor 0 x possible by any ex]tion to call ! h& ( man to y\r aid4 ,my guide 0 an individual :om calamity _h prompt$ to qu>rel ) ! _w2 ( /rong feel+s inde$1 ( capaci\s ?\ght2 b rugg$1 f]oci\s1 brutal1 & inaccessible to pray]4 ,i _h *os5 him = my protector & ally2 ,i _h nev] int5d$ to put myself 9 8 p[]4 ,!re 0 a my/]y 9 8 c>riage1 a some?+ n to be expla9$1 a %ell t no human =ces c\ld p5etrate1 t 0 mortal to confid5ce1 & might quail ! /\te/4 ,i ?\ght !re w\ld be no end to our pilgrimage4 ,at l5g? we came to a /rong door1 cross-b>r$ & secur$ ) a frame ( iron4 ,be?lem ,gabor unlock$ x4 ,we _h no soon] ent]$1 t x impetu\sly clos$ beh9d u4 8,:at is t80 said ,i1 />tl$ at ! l\dness ( ! report4 8,come on10 cri$ my ho/2 8x is only ! w9d :i/l+ ?r\gh ! cav]ns3 ! spr+-bolt is %ot1 b ,i h ! key 9 my h&60 ,at ! opposite end ( ! ap>tm5t 0 ano!r door ) an asc5t ( five /eps lead+ to x4 ,be?lem ,gabor unlock$ t also1 & !n fac$ ab\t ) ! tor* 9 8 h&3 ,i 0 close beh9d him4 8,/ay :]e y are60 said he ) a furi\s acc5t1 & ?ru/ me viol5tly f him4 ,! viol5ce 0 unexpect$3 ,i /agg]$ f ! top ( ! /eps to ! bottom4 ,?is door clos$ ) z l\d a report z ! o!r2 ,be?lem ,gabor disappe>$2 ,i 0 left 9 d>kness4 ,= an in/ant ,i d\bt$ :e!r ! situation 9 :i* ,i ?us f\nd myself 7 ! result ( design or ( accid5t4 ,! %utt+ ( ! door might be ascrib$ to ! latt]3 ! action h[ev]1 & ! words ( my ho/ did n admit ( t int]pretation4 ,i /ood motionless1 a/oni%$1 & almo/ incapable ( reflection4 ,:at an incr$ible rev]se 0 ?us ! creature ( a mom5t6 ,ye/]day ,i possess$ unb\nd$ treasures1 & ! he>ts ( ! :ole ,turco-,hung>ian nation4 ,ye/]day1 z ,i rode =? on ?is fatal excursion1 ,i beheld ! food ( a mighty p1 mature = consumption1 ! gr[? ( my ex]tions2 & x w n be ?\ght surpris+ t my he>t leap$ )9 me at ! sight4 ,:o w\ld n h envi$ ! unp>allel$ em95ce at :i* ,i _h arriv$8 ,my triumphs 7 att5d$ ) no melan*oly exceptions to damp _! joy4 ,!y 7 ! *ildr5 ( no intrigue2 !y 7 manly1 frank1 +5u\s1 & hon\rable4 ,my laurels 7 /a9$ ) no drop ( blood1 7 t>ni%$ ) no te>s ( ! wid[ & ! orphan4 ,h[ mu* m noble to rescue mank9d f fam9e & dea?1 ?an to violate ! hone/ pride ( _! nature ) ! exhibition ( victories & trophies6 ,yet1 truly consid]$1 !re 0 no?+ abrupt 9 ! rev]se "u :i* ,i 0 n[ suff]+4 ,! :ole 0 a *a91 e l9k ( :i* 0 indissolubly connect$ f "o end to ! o!r4 ,my attempt to rescue a p f ! horrors ( fam9e necess>ily expos$ me to unfav\rable accid5ts & miscon/ruction4 ,x inevitably l$ to my application to ! gov]nm5t = its aid4 ,x c\ld n fail to excite ! al>ms & jeal\sies ( gov]nm5t z to ! t5d5cy ( my proce$+s4 ,by exhibit+ me z ! possessor ( imm5se weal?1 ) v limit$ means = ! protection ( t weal?1 x m>k$ me a prey to a rapaci\s vic]oy or 8 m despotic ma/]4 ,:5 ,i became s5sible ( ! prec>i\s situation 9 :i* ,i /ood t[>ds ! p[]s ( ! /ate1 c\ld ,i h fall5 ^u a m natural exp$i5t1 ?an ! endeav\r to cov] myself ) ! %ield ( fri5d%ip & gratitude 9 ! p]son ( "o ( its nobles8 ,b ?is exp$i5t w\ld almo/ infallibly lead to ! plac+ myself soon] or lat] 9 ! p[] ( ! man ^: fri5d%ip ,i s\ght4 ,i _h done s1 & ?is 0 ! t]m9ation ( my views & my projects6 ,i n[ well und]/ood ! purpose ( t inatt5tion & neglect ) :i* ,be?lem ,gabor _h treat$ me ! prec$+ ev5+1 ! uneas9ess result+ f :i* ,i _h blam$ 9 myself at ! "t1 z ! dictate ( weakness & unwor?y suspicion4 ,ye/]day ,i _h be5 plac$ "u ! safegu>d ( a nation2 e man 9 ,buda & its environs 0 famili> ) my p]son2 e man w\ld h be5 ready almo/ to sacrifice 8 life to procure my safety4 ,n[ ,i 0 f> f ! sc5e ( my philan?ropical ex]tions2 no "o 9 ! troop ( ,be?lem ,gabor knew :o ,i 02 he _h appe>$ to treat me ! prec$+ ev5+ ) indiff]5ce & contempt2 if !y saw me no m1 no curiosity w\ld by t circum/ance be excit$ 9 _! m9ds4 ,my cli5ts on ! o!r h& 9 ! vic9ity ( ! metropolis1 h[ev] great an int]e/ !y might take 9 my =tune1 _h no clue t c\ld lead !m to ! k ( x4 ,!y mu/ suppose me a prison] ) ! ,au/rians1 or t ,i _h be5 kill$1 9 resi/+ to become _! prison]4 ,i 0 cut (f f all assi/ance & discov]y1 & left z mu* 9 ! p[] ( my trea*]\s ally1 z if ,i _h be5 alone ) him1 oppress$ ) ! utmo/ disp>ity ( p]sonal =ce1 9 ! remote/ isl& ( ! ,pacific ,ocean4 ,su* 7 ! reflections t e>ly sugge/$ !mselves to my m9d 9 ! solitude & d>kness 9 :i* ,i 0 ?us unexpect$ly involv$4 ,mean:ile "o t$i\s h\r succe$$ to ano!r1 & ,i rema9$ un9trud$ on & unnotic$4 ,i c\ld =m no conjecture z to ! object ( ,be?lem ,gabor 9 ! atroci\s p]fidy he _h committ$4 ,c\ld he h any res5tm5t aga9/ me1 & did he m$itate rev5ge8 ,he _h receiv$ f me no?+ b b5efits4 ,did he employ re/ra9t on my p]son z ! means ( extortion8 ,i c\ld n conceive t he c\ld h any clue lead+ him to ! discov]y ( my gr& secret2 &1 %ort ( ?is1 my b\nties _h be5 s exub]ant1 z1 ,i imag9$1 left him no?+ to wi%4 ,9 ?is wild]ness ( conjecture ,i h[ev] fix$ ^u extortion z a motive less incr$ible ?an rev5ge4 ,i impati5tly wait$1 till ! appe>ance ( my tyrant %\ld free me f "s "p ( my pres5t unc]ta9ty4 ,he did n appe>4 ,9 ! mean "t ,i 0 9 a condition feeble & exhau/$4 ,! ex]cise ( ye/]day1 ! h\rly-baffl$ expectation ( meet+ him :om ,i _h call$ my fri5d1 ! alt]nation ( be+ fir/ tak5 prison] & aft]w>ds rescu$1 _h extremely fatigu$ me4 ,we _h travell$ dur+ ! :ole night4 ,yet ! unacc\ntable dejection ( m9d "u :i* ,i lab\r$ on our arrival at ,be?lem ,gabor's ca/le _h prev5t$ me f tak+ almo/ any %>e 9 ! co>se repa/ t _h !n be5 set be=e u4 ,! entrance ( my ho/ 9 ! morn+ _h r5d]$ my slumb]s %ort4 ,z ,i foll[$ him to my dungeon1 unconsci\s :i!r ,i w5t1 my limbs a*$1 & my he>t a*$ /ill m4 ,i 0 ill prep>$ = a fa/ ( ?irty-six h\rs :i* ! brutality ( my jailor inflict$ ^u me4 ,aft] hav+ long expect$ him 9 va91 ,i gave myself up to despair4 ,:at a t]m9ation ( life = him :o possess$ ! philosoph]'s /one6 ,i _c d ju/ice to ! s5sations t n[ took possession ( my m9d4 ,x 0 n ! deadly calm ( despair1 = ,i /ill expect$ e mom5t :5 ,be?lem ,gabor w\ld appe>4 ,i believ$ ?an he w\ld1 & ,i believ$ t he w\ld n1 leave me to p]i%4 ,i li/5$ ) eag] att5tion to e s\nd1 & my s\l float$ on ! h[l+ w9ds4 ,9 va96 no?+ came ( x2 !re 0 no alt]ation 9 ! s\nd1 or only ^? vicissitudes to :i* ! h[l+ ( ! w9d is unavoidably subject4 ,i !n turn$ away 9 angui%2 ,i curs$2 ,i /amp$ ) my feet2 ,i smote my =ehead ) my clos$ h&2 ,i tore my hair4 ,anon ano!r s\nd arre/$ my att5tion2 x 0 a diff]5t h[l+2 x seem$ to be l a human voice2 my fancy creat$ to me ! tread ( a human foot4 ,i li/5$ ) m int5tness ( s\l ?an ev]4 ,x 0 aga9 9 va96 ,no1 no2 he w n come6 he w nev] come4 ,:y %\ld ,i agitate myself to no purpose8 ,let me lie d[n & die6--,i reason$ ) myself4 ,:y %\ld ,i wi% to live8 ,i am no?+ to any human be+3 ,i am alone 9 ! b\ndless univ]se2 ,i h no tie to exi/5ce4 ,/4 ,leon has no wife2 ,/4 ,leon has no *ild2 he has nei!r connection nor fri5d 9 ! _w4 ,ev5 9 ?is wret*$ vision ( ! philosoph]'s /one1 h ,i n tri$ x en\gh8 h ,i any hopes f x8 is x n "t t ,i %\ld ?r[ away t & exi/5ce toge!r8--,my m$itations 7 ineffectual4 ,i suppose x is ! case ) all m5 ?us viol5tly ?ru/ out ( life 9 ! full possession ( _! faculties--,i "k x 0 ! case ) me1--! m p]emptory 0 my summon]1 ! m ob/9ately ,i clung to ! wor?less toy4 ,at l5g? ,i laid myself d[n on ! floor2 &1 if ,i occasionally li/5$1 ,i no long] ran to ! walls & ! doors to cat* ! unc]ta9 s\nds4 ,! gnaw+s ,i n[ felt )9 7 intol]able4 ,!y 7 at "o p]iod s sev]e1 t ,i c comp>e !m to no?+1 b ! s5sation ( hav+ swall[$ a gl[+ emb]4 ,aft]w>ds1 ! weakness ( nature w\ld no long] fe$ ?is excruciat+ pa91 & x subsid$ into a />t+ & convulsive ?rob2 ! pa9 0 div]sifi$ ) int]vals ( a dea?-l & insupportable sickness4--,b1 no2 ,i w n attempt to describe ! horrors ( hung] sublim$ by despair1 :]e ! torture ( ! m9d gives new pung5cy & upro> to ! corporeal angui%4 ,! image1 z x n[ pres5ts itself to my recollection1 is too dreadful4 ,at la/ ,i sunk into a /ate ( ins5sibility2 & ! agony ,i _h suff]$ seem$ drawn to its f9al close4 ,! busy turmoil1 ! fev]i% dream ( human exi/5ce 0 at an end4 ,i %ut my eyes1 & ,i believ$ ,i %\ld op5 !m no m4 ,,*apt] ,,xli4 ,h[ long ,i endur$ ?is susp5sion ( ! vital faculties ,i _c tell4 ,! next impression on my s5sorium1 subsequ5t to ^? ,i h describ$1 0 a sort ( ext]nal twit*+ & viol5ce t seem$ to p]secute me4 ,x 0 an importunity f :i* ,i felt desir\s to escape2 ,i long$ to be undi/urb$ & at re/4 ,! intrud] on my quiet w\ld n leave me2 & ,i at l5g? r\s$ myself1 z if to put away my cause ( mole/ation4 ,my ?\ghts 7 all conf\nd$ & obscure2 ,i knew n :]e1 ,i c\ld sc>cely be said to "k :o1 ,i 04 ,a little m ef=t br\ght ) x a fur!r capacity ( p]ception2 ,i saw be=e me1 :at 0 n[ ! *ief object ( my mortal av]sion1 ! figure ( ,be?lem ,gabor4 ,x 0 "s "t long]1 be=e ,i became aw>e t he _h be5 employ$ 9 tak+ up my app>5tly lifeless corpse1 plac+ x on a /one-b5* 9 ! side ( ! cave1 & *a9+ x to ! wall4 ,he obs]v$ ! motions t indicat$ 9 me return+ life3 he rem>k$ ! />e ( my glassy & rayless eyes2 he n[ spoke ) a /]n & unpity+ voice--8,!re is food2 !re is a light2 eat60 ,hav+ ?us said1 he left me4 ,:at a cruel & remorseless treatm5t6 ,he c>$ n = my life2 he disda9$ to make ! slighte/ ex]tion to re/ore me2 he left x to *ance :e!r ,i %\ld revive or p]i%4 ,! figure ( a dy+ man t ,i pres5t$1 did n make "o fibre ( 8 bosom b5d or quiv]4 ,i reviv$2 ,i ate4 ,by degrees ,i recov]$ f ! deadly languor :i* _h invad$ my s5ses4 ,9 ab\t twelve h\rs long] ,be?lem ,gabor return$ ) a new supply ( su/5ance4 ,i 0 n[ /rong en\gh to be able to conv]se ) him4 ,i he>d ! heavy s\nd ( op5+ locks & remov+ bolts be=e he ent]$1 & ,i summon$ my faculties to expo/ulate ) him4 8,:y am ,i "h8 ,:at is ! mean+ ( ! unwor?y way 9 :i* y treat me80 8,x is10--he reg>d$ me ) a trucul5t aspect1 z if he w\ld pi]ce ?r\gh my he>t1--8because ,i hate y60 8,y hate me8 ,good ,god6 is x possible8 ,:at evil h ,i done to y8 ,:at good h ,i n done y8 ,:at supplies h ,i refus$ y8 ,:at occasions h ,i neglect$ ( /udy+ y\r advantage1 y\r int]e/1 & y\r hon\r8 ,if ?us y\r hatr$ is pur*as$1 h[ %all t man demean himself :o is to pur*ase y\r love80 8,oh1 ?9k n my hatr$ idle or caprici\s6 ,heav5 kn[s1 ,i w\ld h refra9$ f hat+ y if ,i _h be5 able2 ,i /ruggl$ aga9/ x ) all ! en]gies ( my s\l4 ,b y h committ$ t[>ds me ! mo/ mortal (f5ces t man ev] endur$4 ,!re is an antipa?y betwe5 y\r nature & m9e1 t all ! m5/ruums 9 ! _w c\ld nev] br+ to coalesce40 8,et]nal ,provid5ce6 & :at is ! s\rce ( ?is antipa?y80 8,& d y pr(ess ignorance8 ,h y n gone on day aft] day ) ! full consci\sness & w to torm5t me8 ,h ,i n w>n$ y1 & expo/ulat$ ) y times )\t numb]80 8,( :at h y w>n$ me80 8,i hate mank9d4 ,i 0 n born to hate !m4 ,i h no native obliquity ( "*4 ,i h no diabolical malici\sness ( con/itution4 ,b !y h =c$ me to hate !m1 & ! debt ( abhorr5ce %all be amply paid4 8,i lov$ z nev] mortal lov$4 ,no human he>t 0 ev] s devot$1 & c5tr$1 & envelop$ 9 ! k9dly affections ( family & p>5tage z m9e has be54 ,0 n my wife1 7 n my *ildr51 murd]$8 ,:5 ,i came home to fea/ my eyes & tranquillise my s\l ) ! sight ( !m1 did ,i n f9d all wa/e & desolation8 ,did ,i n f9d _! bodies nak$1 pale1 disfigur$ ) w\nds1 plung$ 9 blood1 & already putrid8 ,?is 0 ! welcome ,i look$ =6 ,?is 0 ! object ,i s spe$$ to see6 ,no1 nev] 0 a mom5t l t6 ,my :ole nature 0 *ang$ 9 an in/ant4 ,my eyes 7 bla/$ & dri$ to horn4 ,my blood froze 9 my well /or$ ve9s4 ,i h no long] delight b 9 human mis]y4 8,my rev5ge is n causeless2 ?is 0 n ! act ( individuals4 ,all m51 9 ! place ( ^! murd]]s1 w\ld h done z !y did4 ,!y are 9 a league toge!r4 ,human pity & =be>ance nev] _h a h>b\r b 9 my brea/2 & ,i h n[ abjur$ !m4 ,) some?+ m ( inwr\ght vig\r & en]gy1 ,i w become l to my bre?r54 ,all m5 are excit$ by ! same motives1 urg$ by ! same temptations1 influ5c$ by ! same inducem5ts4 ,:y %\ld ,i attempt a futile di/9ction1 :5 nature _h made none8 ,all m5 be> ! same figure2 ,i _c view ! human figure )\t a torture ! mo/ dreadful40 8,i always knew10 answ]$ ,i1 8y\r g5]al hatr$ ( mank9d2 b y\r mann]s & y\r behavi\r p]suad$ me t y exempt$ me f ! g5]al c5sure40 8,i wi%$ to d s2 y made ! attempt impossible4 ,y told me1 t y _h suff]$ ! same mis=tunes :i* ,i _h2 t y1 by ! inju/ice & p]secutions ( m51 _h also lo/ y\r wife & y\r *ildr54 ,i hail$ y z a bro!r2 9 my he>t ,i swore to y et]nal fri5d%ip2 ,i said1 we w c>ry on ?is holy w>f>e toge!r4 ,we communicat$ to ea* o!r our mutual sorr[s2 ) y1 & y only1 ,i f\nd mom5ts ( consolation4 8,soon ,i discov]$ my mi/ake4 ,in/ead (1 l me1 seek+ occasions ( glori\s mis*ief & v5geance1 y took ^u y\rself to be ! b5efactor & p>5t ( mank9d4 ,:at vocation _h y to ! task8 ,) ! _s ( a slave :o1 ! m he is beat51 becomes ! m s]vile & submissive1 y remun]at$ injuries ) b5efits4 ,i f\nd t !re 0 n )9 y "o atom ( g5]\s s5tim5t1 "o hone/ gl[ ( f]v5t indignation4 ,*ick5-he>t$ wret*6 poor1 s\lless poltroon6 to say ! be/ ( y1 to y\r ins5sate he>t x 0 ! same :e!r y 7 treat$ ) rev]5ce or scorn4 ,i saw y hunt$1 hoot$ at1 & pursu$ by ! p y f$2 y held on y\r c\rse1 & f$ !m /ill4 ,i 0 compell$ to witness or to he> ( y\r s5seless lib]alities e day ,i liv$4 ,c\ld ,i submit to ?is torm5t1 & n endeav\r to remove x8 ,i hate ! man 9 :om k9dness produces no responsive affection1 & inju/ice no swell1 no gl[ ( res5tm5t4 ,i hat$ y ! m1 because1 hav+ suff]$ :at ,i _h suff]$1 y\r feel+s & conduct on ! occasion h be5 ! rev]se ( m9e4 ,y\r "*1 ,i ?ank ,god6 is ( all be+s ! mo/ opposite to t ( ,be?lem ,gabor4 8,at l5g? y fill$ up ! measure ( ! v>i\s ?w>t+s ) :i* y daily insult$ me4 ,!re 0 "o native ( ,hung>y betwe5 :om & me !re subsi/$ an op5 & et]nal w>4 ,i relate 9 no human e> ! cause ( my animosity to t man4 ,suffice x1 t x 0 deep1 immeasurable1 inexpiable4 ,) a ref9em5t ( cruelty & insult difficult to conceive1 y *ose t man = "o ( ! objects ( y\r b5efic5ce4 ,w\ld ,i cons5t to see my "n jo9$ 9 p5sion li/ ) my mortal enemy8 ,! injury y inflict$ on me w\ld h be5 less if y _h /abb$ me to ! he>t4 ,less8 ,t w\ld h be5 a bless+4 ,i impose on myself ! task ( liv+ = my rev5ge3 b nev] %all ,i deem t man my foe1 :o %\ld rid me ( all ?is tumult ( passions1 & ?is insupportable load ( exi/5ce toge!r4 8,y h he>d my motives4 ,y may wond] at1 y may c5sure !m3 b !y are human4 ,i h no?+ fur!r to say to y n[3 y h no ne$ to recur to expo/ulation2 expo/ulation nev] mov$ ! he>t ( ,be?lem ,gabor4 ,h]eaft] y %all he> m60 ,?us speak+1 he left me2 & ,i mu/ confess1 ) :atev] disgrace to my sagacity1 he op5$ ^u me a new _w4 ,i conceiv$ n1 till n[1 ! fa9te/ suspicion ( :at _h be5 lab\r+ 9 8 bosom4 ,amid/ all my exp]i5ce ( ! v>ieties ( human "*1 ?is 0 a species t _h nev] fall5 "u my obs]vation be=e4 ,:at a pa9ful & mortify+ occurr5ce is x 9 human life1 :5 we h liv$ ) a man f day to day1 :5 we h conv]s$ ) him famili>ly1 & se5 him 9 all ! *anges ( circum/ance1 & :5 we flatt] ourselves we h p5etrat$ all ! recesses ( 8 he>t1 sudd5ly to />t ^u some?+ port5t\s t brood$ !re1 ( :i* to t mom5t we _h n ! lighte/ suspicion6 ,i am n ! only individual to :om ?is ev5t has occurr$4 ,9 a subsequ5t visit ( ,be?lem ,gabor to my cell 7= he only att5d$ me ) provisions1 he w\ld intru/ ! secret ( my conf9em5t to no o!r mortal71 ,i intreat$ him to in=m me ) :at int5tion he reta9$ me a prison]1 & to fix a price on my ransom4 ,to ?is ov]ture he appe>$ to yield "s degree ( att5tion4 ,he made no explicit answ]1 b ask$ ) an inquisitive & sev]e tone1 9 :at mann] ,i imag9$ ,i c\ld procure money 9 my dungeon8 8,let u agree ^u ! t]ms1 & set me at l>ge4 ,y h nev] f\nd me deceitful1 & y %all n f9d me deceitful n[40 8,d n hope ,i w cons5t to t4 ,i ask y aga91 9 :at mann] d y imag9e y c procure money 9 y\r dungeon80 ,i reflect$ = a mom5t4 ,lib]ty is ineffably sweet2 & :atev] foll[$1 ^u ! pres5t ov]ture1 ,i 0 det]m9$ n to neglect ! fa9te/ prospect t l$ to a t]m9ation ( my conf9em5t4 8,!re is10 answ]$ ,i1 89 my mansion at ,buda1 a *e/ :i*1 if x c be br\ght to me hi!r1 w enable me to supply y\r dem&s4 ,i h ! key 9 my cu/ody1 & no key b my own w unlock ! treasure40 8,give me ! key60 repli$ ,be?lem ,gabor4 8,no10 rejo9$ ,i1 8x is 9 my cu/ody2 x is n ^u my p]son3 ,i h tak5 c>e ( t4 ,no human h& %all t\* x b my own40 8,& h[ c ,i cause ?is *e/ to be br\ght to y )\t risk+ a discov]y ( y\r situation1 or t ,i _h a conc]n 9 y\r disappe>ance80 8,( t10 said ,i1 8judge = y\rself4 ,i h made a proposition to y1 & ,i h done en\gh4 ,i w h no %>e 9 ! detail ( its execution40 8,well10 said ,be?lem ,gabor1 aft] hav+ rum9at$ a mom5t1 8! *e/ y %all h2 ,i und]take t4 ,describe x40 ,i describ$ ! *e/1 & its situation 9 my h\se1 ) a m9ut5ess t made mi/ake impossible4 ,aft] a consid]able "t x 0 br\ght to me4 ,x 0 too bulky & pond]\s to be introduc$ into my cell by a s+le arm4 ,b ,be?lem ,gabor1 hav+ fir/ caus$ me unconsci\sly to swall[ a p[]ful opiate1 f\nd no difficulty1 ei!r to conceal my p]son 9 ! d>k %ad[s ( ?is ragg$ subt]ranean1 or to cause "s ( 8 foll[]s to place ! *e/ )9 my rea*1 believ+ t !y plac$ x 9 a vacant ap>tm5t4 ,i awoke1 & f\nd x at h&4 ,i 0 secure t ! lock 0 su* a "o z c\ld n be =c$2 b ,i exam9$ ! diff]5t surfaces1 to see :e!r viol5ce ( any o!r sort _h be5 ex]cis$ on x4 ,!re 7 m>ks ( damage1 b n suffici5tly unequivocal to enable me to =m a c]ta9 judgm5t on ?is po9t4 ,! *e/ conta9$1 n gold1 b ! implem5ts = mak+ & fa%ion+ gold4 ,all[+ = ! di/ance f :i* x 0 br\ght1 !y appe>$ to be pretty exactly 9 ! /ate 9 :i* ,i left !m4 ,i _h nev] plac$ mu* confid5ce 9 ?is exp$i5t = s(t5+ ! he>t ( ,be?lem ,gabor2 b ,i p]ceiv$ t x w\ld s]ve at wor/ to div]t my ?\ghts1 &1 by excit+ 9 me "s %>e ( expectation1 might call (f my att5tion f ! mis]ies ( my pres5t condition4 ,embrac+ ! occasions :5 ,i 0 mo/ secure aga9/ ! intrusion ( my jailor1 ,i provid$ myself ) ! sum t _h be5 previ\sly agre$ on betwe5 u4 ,my task be+ f9i%$1 ,i c>efully display$ ! produce ( my lab\r1 aga9/ ! next "t ,be?lem ,gabor %\ld visit my cell4 ,he view$ x ) an air ( sull5 & gloomy triumph2 he remov$ x f ! cave :i* 0 my habitation1 to an ap>tm5t ( ?is subt]rane\s abode1 little di/ant f my own4 ,:5 he _h conclud$ ?is employm5t1 x seem$ to be a j inf]5ce1 t he 0 to give me my lib]ty4 ,he did no su* ?+4 ,)\t utt]+ a ^w1 he clos$ ! door ( my cav]n1 lock$ x1 & dep>t$4 ,:5 ,be?lem ,gabor next ent]$ my cell1 ,i reproa*$ him ) ?is1 z ) ! brea* ( a solemn engagem5t4 ,8 fir/ answ] 0 an inf]nal laugh1 expressive ( d]ision1 h>d-he>t$ness1 & contempt4 ,by & by1 h[ev]1 he condesc5d$ to expla9 himself m fully4 8,i made no engagem5t10 cri$ he4 8,y talk$ ( a ransom1 & ,i suff]$ y to talk4 ,i made y no answ]2 ,i gave y no enc\ragem5t4 ,boy1 ,i deceiv$ y n6 ,no2 ?\gh my he>t pants = v5geance & = mis]y1 ,i w nev] be guilty ( trea*]y2 ,i w break no engagem5ts2 ,i am a knight & a soldi]4 ,y h giv5 me t5 ?\s& ducats2 :at are t5 ?\s& ducats to me8 ,d y ?9k ,i am un9=m$ ( y\r secret8 ,i op5$ y\r *e/2 ,i f\nd no gold2 its cont5ts 7 crucibles1 m9]als1 *emical prep>ations1 & ! tools ( an arti/4 ,y are possess$ ( ! gr& arcanum1 ! philosoph]s /one4 ,if ,i _h a d\bt ( x be=e1 ! transaction ( ye/]day conv]t$ conjecture into c]ta9ty4 ,& did y suppose1 idiot1 drivell] t y are1 t ,i w\ld take t5 ?\s& ducats 9 commutation = weal? inexhau/ible8 ,no2 y are my prison]1 & may *oose1 9 ?is infallible dilemma1 :e!r y w rema9 my slave1 to supply me daily res\rces z ,i %all daily ?9k prop] to dem&1 or at once make ov] to me y\r :ole my/]y1 & place me 9 ?is respect on a level ) y\rself40 ,x 0 n[ my "p to be p]emptory & firm4 8,i refuse10 said ,i1 8e "p ( y\r dilemma1 & all t y c propose to me4 ,d y talk ( my rema9+ y\r slave1 to supply y ) daily res\rces8 ,d y imag9e t1 %ut up 9 ?is dungeon1 ,i w nev]!less lab\r = y\r gratification8 ,d y believe t t gift1 :i* ,i receiv$ z ! in/rum5t ( my own happ9ess & ! b5efit ( mank9d1 %all be made ! pl$ge ( my p]petual imprisonm5t8 8,) reg>d to imp>t+ to y ! secret y suppose me to possess1 ,i answ] )\t hesitation1 t1 de>ly z ,i prize lib]ty1 & num]\s z are ! motives y may ?9k ,i h to prize x1 ,i w n pur*ase my lib]ty at t rate4 ,i w\ld r sp5d ! days ( et]nity 9 ?is cav]n1 ?an comply ) y\r proposal4 ,! gift ( ! philosoph]'s /one1 ! mom5t a man possesses x1 purifies 8 m9d f sordid & ignoble inducem5ts4 ,! end[m5t :i* raises him s mu* above 8 species1 makes him glory 9 8 sup]iority1 & *]i% 8 innoc5ce4 ,he _c1 if he w\ld1 m+le 9 ! l[ passions & pursuits ( ! g5]ality ( mank9d4 ,= myself1 ,i value too mu* ! v]dict ( my own he>t1 ev] to all[ myself to be influ5c$ 9 ! ma9 conc]ns ( my exi/5ce by m5aces & compulsion4 ,beside1 ?is gift ,i receiv$ = holy & b5efic5t purposes2 to su* x is consecrat$2 & if ,i ev] imp>t x1 ,i mu/ select its depository ) all ! assiduity & p5etration x is practicable = me to ex]t4 ,y ,i w h5ce=? b5efit no m4 ,y hate me2 my disapprobation ( y is fix$ & irrevocable4 ,i weep to ?9k h[ mu* ,i h be5 deceiv$ 9 y2 ,i weep to ?9k h[ _m high & h]oic qualities 9 y\r brea/ are n[ conv]t$ into malignity & v5om4--,y ! possessor ( ! philosoph]'s /one6 ,y tell me1 ! sole pursuit ( ! re/ ( y\r life is rev5ge & human mis]y4 ,:at an image d y raise 9 my m9d1 if1 ) su* dispositions1 y possess$ ! means :i* ! acquisition ( ri*es inexhau/ible w\ld conf] on y8 ,& d y believe t any consid]ation on e>? c\ld induce me to realise su* an image80 8,z y please10 repli$ ,be?lem ,gabor indignantly4 8,i h no?+ to propose to y4 ,?9k y t1 ei!r z my enemy or my slave1 & ,i hold y = bo?1 ,i w\ld desc5d to negotiate ) y8 ,i simply told y y\r situation4 ,y\rs be ! consequ5ces ( y\r wilfulness & folly6 8,"o mi/ake h[ev] t ,i see y make respect+ my purposes1 ,i w remove4 ,y seem to suppose t1 if y 7 to communicate to me y\r secret1 ,i w\ld !n set y at lib]ty4 ,no1 by heav5s6 ,?is cav]n is y\r abode = ev]4 ,y %all nev] g =? f x alive2 &1 :5 y are dead1 "h y\r fle% %all m\ld]1 & y\r skeleton %all re/1 z long z ! _w rema9s4 ,look r\nd y\r walls6 ,ent] fully into possession ( y\r f9al home6 ,i "k t to keep y "h & alive my prison]1 ,i mu/ 9 a c]ta9 s5se imprison myself4 ,b at t ,i d n murmur4 ,i %all h ! gratification ( behold+ my foe1 & see+ him daily )] 9 disappo9tm5t4 ,y wi% to be a fa!r to ! human race2 & ,i %all deem ! scope ( my misan?ropy almo/ satisfi$1 :ile1 9 y\r re/ra9t1 ,i image myself z mak+ ! human race an orphan4 ,nev] %all ,be?lem ,gabor set at l>ge a man ( y\r unnatural & gall-less disposition1 & y\r p[]s = ! indulg5ce ( t disposition4 8,sieur de ,*atillon1 ,i d n want y\r secret3 x suffices t ,i "k y possess x4 ,h ,i n y\rself 9 my keep+8 ,x w be m joy to me rudely to issue my comm&s1 & to see y comply+ ) !m 9 spite ( ! mo/ he>tfelt reluctance1 ?an to possess ! ri*e/ gift on e>? 9 ! fulle/ indep5d5ce4 ,?9k y ,be?lem ,gabor incompet5t to tame ! t5ant ( ?is wret*$ cav]n8 ,boy1 y are my prison]2 y %all be my creature4 ,i w humble y at my feet1 & tea* y to implore my b\nty = ! mo/ mis]able pittance4 ,look to x6 ,y "k y\r de/9y6 ,d n provoke my fury1 )\t a =esight ( ! consequ5ces60 ,i w ent] into little fur!r detail ( ?is my wret*$ imprisonm5t 9 ! wilds ( ,hung>y4 ,x 0 n de/itute ( its v>ieties2 & ,i c\ld1 if ,i pleas$1 fill a volume ) ! artifices & ! viol5ce ( my gloomy sup]9t5d5t4 ,i c\ld fill volumes ) ! detail ( ! multipli$ exp$i5ts1 ! furi\s m5aces1 ! gigantic />ts & rhapsodies ( passion1 by :i* he alt]nately urg$ me to compliance & concession4 ,b ,i w n4 ,i w br+ to an end ! hi/ory ( ,be?lem ,gabor2 & !n1 hav+ detail$ ! surpris+ ev5ts t imm$iately foll[$ x1 w close ! page ( ,/4 ,leon's hi/ory = ev]4 ,i /ood l a rock4 ,%ut out f all o!r gratifications1 ,i at lea/ resolv$ to accumulate 9 my own p]son all ! en]gies ( resi/ance4 ,if ,i 7 to unfold ! /ory1 ,i c\ld comm& ! read]'s a/oni%m5t1 8 admiration2 b ! object ( ^! pap]s is to record1 n my m]its1 b my fate4 ,h[ diff]5t 0 my imprisonm5t 9 ! cav]n ( ! man-abhorr+ palat9e1 f t :i* ,i _h exp]i5c$ 9 ! dungeons ( ! inquisition6 ,!re an inexorable apa?y prevail$3 my tyrants 7 indiff]5t :e!r ,i di$ or liv$2 fill$ ) ! s5se ( _! religi\s elevation1 !y held on ! ev5 gravity ( _! c\rse1 & c\nt$ my groans & my te>s nei!r = remorse nor pleasure4 ,! v>iety ,i exp]i5c$ 9 _! dungeons 0 ! gr[? ( my own ?\ghts3 f )\t ,i enc\nt]$ no int]ruption2 x 0 n to be ascrib$ to ^? :o held me 9 durance1 if my faculties 7 n le?>gi$ into dea?4 ,be?lem ,gabor possess$ no %>e ( _! apa?y2 8 malice 0 ev] alive1 8 hatr$ ev] +5i\s & new 9 its devices4 ,he _h a purpose to answ]1--to extort f me ! supply ( 8 necessities & projects4 ,x 0 n s mu* p]haps t he /ood 9 ne$ ( ?is1 z t he plac$ a pride 9 x1 & _h fi]cely resolv$ to %[ me t ,i 0 unres]v$ly 8 slave4 ,8 animosity aga9/ me 0 s fix$ & insatiable1 t no?+ t 0 pa9 to me 0 indiff]5t to him4 ,if at any "t he saw me subsid+ into ins5sibility1 he fail$ n to ex]t himself to /+ me into life aga94 ,! consequ5ce ( ?is 0 some:at diff]5t f :at ,be?lem ,gabor expect$4 ,despond+ z ,i 01 we>y ( life1 & almo/ f9ally ali5at$ f ! all-covet$ gift ( ! philosoph]'s /one1 if he _h left me to myself1 ,i %\ld v probably h s\ght 9 ins5sibility relief f ! torm5t ( my own ?\ghts4 ,b he taught me a bett] lesson4 ,refus+ me ! indulg5ce ( torpor1 he oblig$ me to /r+ myself to resi/ance4 ,he gave me a passion2 he gave me an object2 he gave me comp>ative happ9ess4 ,i 0 r\s$ to opposition2 ,i 0 resolv$ t1 plac$1 z ,i seem$ to be1 at 8 m]cy1 ,i w\ld yield him no atom ( 8 desires4 ,?us employ$1 ,i f\nd 9 my employm5t pride4 ,p]petual occasion pres5t$ itself = =titude2 & ,i gradually asc5d$ to ! sweets ( consi/5cy1 p]sev]ance1 & self-gratulation4 ,i _h = ye>s be5 inur$ to satisfy myself ) a sp>+ /ock ( pleasures2 & ,i 0 less at a loss to exp& & ramify ^? :i* ,i n[ possess$1 ?an almo/ any o!r man w\ld h be5 9 my situation4 ,if my att5dant tra9 ( s5sations 0 scanty1 ,be?lem ,gabor took c>e to af=d !m a p]petual supply ( food & employm5t1 & ,i 0 comp>atively little expos$ to ! pa9 ( vacuity4 ,:5 he saw t ,i 0 inflexible1 & t he c\ld no long] ga9 f me ! smalle/ compliance ) 8 w1 he rag$ aga9/ me ) t]rify+ fury4 ,0 x a crime 9 me1 t ?is fury 9 my tyrant produc$ ! op]ation ( a s$ative & a cordial8 ,!re 0 no malignity 9 ! joy x gave me4 ,i _h mu* av]sion = ,be?lem ,gabor1 b no hatr$4 ,i took no pleasure 9 8 agonies1 because !y 7 agonies4 ,my sympa?ies t[>ds him n[1 ,i confess1 7 small2 b ! joy ,i felt 0 because 8 fury told me1 0 ! unwill+ evid5ce ( my own value4 ,i left him to assail ! m\nd ,i oppos$ to 8 desires z he pleas$2 x rema9$ /rong & unaffect$ z ! sea-beat5 promontory4--,f ! inefficacy ( 8 ef=ts1 ,i sometimes took occasion to remon/rate ) my jailor1 & dem& ! re/oration ( my lib]ty2 b ,be?lem ,gabor 0 n a man :om argum5ts & expo/ulations l ^! c\ld move4 ,9 spite ( himself h[ev] ,i comm&$ 8 wond]1 if n 8 e/eem4 ,he reg>d$ ! contra/ z almo/ incr$ible1 betwe5 ! boy-aspect "u :i* he saw me1 & ! inflexibility & res\rces ( my "t-in/ruct$ m9d4 ,! cont5tm5t t ,i h "h describ$ 9 myself1 0 h[ev] a creature ( ! imag9ation1 ! =c$ prog5y ( uncommon ef=t4 ,x 0 no natural /ate ( ! s\l4 ,my m9d w\ld sometimes w&] beyond ! limits ( my cav]n1 & rememb] t !re 7 o!r p]sons beside ,be?lem ,gabor & myself 9 ! _w4 ,i recollect$ ! situation 9 :i* ,i _h left my great project = ! revivisc5ce ( ,hung>y1 & rejoic$ to rememb] t x 0 already 9 su* =w>dness1 z1 ,i hop$1 no long] to /& 9 absolute ne$ ( my assi/ance4 ,yet :at ,i _h done 0 b a small portion1 a dismemb]$ bran*1 ( :at ,i _h m$itat$ to d1 & :at e p]son ( a g5]\s & ent]pris+ m9d1 :o _h be5 9 possession ( ! philosoph]'s /one1 w\ld h design$4 ,:y 0 ,i ?us /opp$ 9 ! comm5cem5t ( a c>e] s auspici\sly begun1 & to :i* an ard5t fancy1 w\ld prescribe no limits8 ,:y 0 e p[] ( ! social con/itution1 e caprice ( ! multitude1 e insidi\s project ( ! noble1 ?us in/antly 9 arms aga9/ s lib]al & gr& an und]tak+8 ,nor c\ld ,i help rep9+ at ! p]v]s5ess ( my fate1 :i* _h decre$ t ,i %\ld sav\r all ! bitt]ness incid5tally result+ f my plan1 & n be p]mitt$ s mu* z to ta/e ! applause & rew>d t ought to gr[ out ( its completion4 ,?\s&s ( m5 7 at ?is in/ant indebt$ to my g5]osity & ex]tions = e bless+ !y enjoy$2 & ,i 0 ca/ =? z ! refuse ( ! e>?1 p9+ "u ! alt]nate succession ( solitude1 neglig5ce1 & malice1 my v exi/5ce & ! mann] ( x unkn[n1 except to "o individual1 :o _h1 f ! /range/ & mo/ unexpect$ motives1 sworn et]nal ho/ility to me4 ,be?lem ,gabor _h resolv$ t1 s long z he liv$1 ,i %\ld rema9 a prison]3 :5 he di$1 if he cont9u$ my only jailor1 ! s+le individual acqua9t$ ) ! place ( my conf9em5t1 ! probable issue 0 t ,i %\ld p]i% ) hung]4 ,twelve ye>s be=e1 ,i %\ld h contemplat$ ?is attitude & condition ( exi/5ce ) indescribable horror4 ,b )9 t "t ,i _h be5 bett] taught4 ,i _h receiv$ an education1 ,i ?ank !m1 9 ! dungeons ( ! ,spani% inquisition2 &1 if t be prop]ly consid]$1 x w n be wond]$ at t ,i 0 sup]ior to ord9>y t]rors4 ,e>ly 9 my pres5t situation ! pres5tim5t _h sugge/$ itself to me t1 by "s /rik+ ev5t1 ,i %\ld be rescu$ f my pres5t conf9em5t2 &1 improbable z ! sugge/ion 01 x made an indelible impression on my m9d4 ,i _h orig9at$ 91 or x _h produc$1 a dream1 ! sc5es ( :i* _h appe>$ p>ticul>ly lum9\s & vivid4 ,i imag9$ ,i saw a knight1 cas$ complete 9 pro(1 ent] my prison4 ,a smile ( angelic k9dness beam$ on 8 c\nt5ance4 ,he embrac$ me ) ard\r2 he made a sign to me to foll[ him4 ,i felt t ,i _h se5 him some:]e1 t he _h be5 my intimate fri5d4 ,yet all ! ef=ts ,i made 9 sleep1 or aft]w>ds :5 ,i 0 awake1 7 unavail+ to remove ! my/]y t hung ^u 8 features4 ,i rose to obey him2 ! gr\nd trembl$ "u my feet l an e>?quake4 ,pres5tly1 ) ! incoh]5cy usually att5dant on a dream1 ! figure *ang$ to t ( a female ( unblemi%$ grace & beauty2 x unfold$ a pair ( radiant w+s2 we asc5d$ toge!r 9 ! air2 ,i look$ d[n1 & saw ! ca/le ( ,be?lem ,gabor a prey to dev\r+ flames4--,"h end$ my dream4 ,i soon felt t ,i c\ld reason myself out ( all confid5ce 9 ! presages ( ?is wild & incongru\s vision4 ,b ,i refus$ to d x2 my consolations 7 n s pl5te\s 9 ?is frightful solitude z t ,i %\ld will+ly "p ) "o s delici\s4 ,reason1 ?us appli$1 ,i contemplat$ z an abhorr$ intrud]4 ,x 01 = a long "t1 "p ( my occupation 9 e day to rum9ate on ?is vision1 n ) ! /]nness ( a syllogi/1 b ) ! col\r+ ( a pa9t]1 & ! rapture ( a b>d4 ,f ?us ob/9ately dwell+ on x 9 ! day1 x happ5$ t x became aga9 & aga9 & aga9 my vision ( ! night4 ,slumb]s l ^! 7 truly refre%+1 & arm$ & n]v$ me = ! cont5tions ( my tyrant4 ,sacr$ & adorable p[] ( fancy1 t c ?us purify & irradiate ! damps ( a dungeon1 & extract f midnight glooms & imp]vi\s d>kness p]ceptions m lovely & inspirit+ ?an noontide spl5d\r6 ,,*apt] ,,xlii4 ,i _h n[ cont9u$ "h = sev]al mon?s1 & 9 all t "t _h receiv$ no ext]nal impressions b su* z relat$ to ! cell ,i inhabit$1 & ! misan?ropical savage by :om x 0 visit$4 ,"o ev5+ t ,be?lem ,gabor ent]$ my dungeon1 ,i obs]v$ 9 him an air ( unusual di/urbance4 ,:]e apa?y reigns1 ! int]c\rse betwe5 ^? ov] :om x presides w be m>k$ ) a dea?-l uni=mity2 b :]ev] ! furi\s passions take _! turn1 !y w occasionally subside into a semblance ( famili>ity & b5evol5ce4 ,!re 0 some?+ 9 ! c\nt5ance ( my tyrant t made me = a mom5t =get ! complicat$ injuries ,i _h receiv$ f him4 8,:at is x t has di/urb$ y80 cri$ ,i4 ,!re 0 no answ]4 ,!re 0 a knitt+ 9 8 br[1 & a contraction 9 8 features1 t %[$ me 8 sil5ce 0 an ef=t4 ,he dep>t$ h[ev]1 & _h already pass$ ! ?re%old ( my dungeon4 ,! door 0 9 8 h&4 ,he return$4 8,*atillon10 said he1 8p]haps y w nev] see me m60 8,my ca/le is besieg$4 ,i h pass$ ?r\gh dang]s ( a ?\s& names1 & ,i ought n to be made s]i\s by t :i* n[ assails me4 ,b a gloomy pres5tim5t hangs ^u my m9d4 ,! busy phantom ( life has la/$ too long1 & ,i am sick at he>t4 ,9 ! wor/ ev5t ,i w n be made a prison]2 ,i w die fight+4 8,i feel z if ?is 7 ! la/ day ( my exi/5ce2 &1 ^u ! br9k ( ! grave1 animosity & f]oci\sness die away 9 my s\l4 ,9 ?is solemn mom5t1 my orig9al "* returns "h 7/rik+ 8 he>t7 to take possession ( its native home2 a "*1 /]n & s]i\s1 if y w2 b n sangu9>y1 n cruel1 n trea*]\s or unju/4 ,betwe5 y & me !re is a deadly antipa?y2 b y did n make y\rself2 y int5d$ me fri5d%ip & advantage2 ! suff]+s y h exp]i5c$ f me 9 return h be5 suffici5tly sev]e4 ,if ,i die def5d+ my walls1 & y rema9 ?us1 y w p]i% ) hung]4 ,i _h int5d$ x %\ld be s2 b ,i am n[ will+ to remit ?is "p ( y\r fate4 ,i w ent] into a compromise ) y2 ,i w tru/ to y\r fidelity1 & y\r hon\r4 ,i w take (f y\r *a9s2 ,i w br+ y a timepiece & tor*es2 ,i w leave ) y ! key ( ! spr+ lock ( y\r cav]n1--provid$ y w engage y\r ^w to me t y w n attempt to make use ( y\r advantages till ! expiration ( tw5ty-f\r h\rs40 ,to ^! t]ms ,i ass5t$ )\t hesitation4 ,! *a9s fell f my wri/s & my ancles2 ,i /ood up once m un%ackl$1 & 9 respect ( my limbs a free man4 ,:5 ,be?lem ,gabor 0 on ! po9t to dep>t1 my s\l melt$ )9 me4 ,i took hold ( 8 h&2 my f+]s trembl$2 ,i grasp$ & press$ ! f+]s ( my tyrant4 ,i _c describe :at !n pass$ 9 my bosom4 ,no man c und]/& my s5sations1 :o _h n be5 9 my situation1 :o _h n pass$ ?r\gh a treatm5t1 arbitr>y1 f]oci\s1 & inhuman1 & _h n !n se5 ! be+ :o _h w\nd$ him s unp>donably1 sudd5ly *ang+ 8 "*1 commis]at+ 8 fate1 & rescu+ him f de/ruction4 ,f ?is "t ,i saw ,be?lem ,gabor no m2 he di$1 z he _h sworn to d1 9 ! la/ dike ( 8 =tress4 ,8 self-balanc$ & mighty s\l c\ld n submit to ! condition ( a prison]2 he 0 no?+1 if he 7 n free z ! air1 & wild z ! w9ds4 ,i may be mi/ak52 b ?is appe>s to me to h be5 a great & admirable man4 ,he _h )9 him all ! +r$i5ts ( sublimity2 & surely ! +r$i5ts ( sublimity are ! mat]ials ( h]oic virtue4 ,i h mu* cause ( compla9t aga9/ him2 he conceiv$ t[>ds me an animosity ! mo/ b>b>\s & unprovok$2 b1 9 writ+ ?is n>rative1 ,i h plac$ my pride 9 controll+ ! sugge/ions ( res5tm5t1 & ,i h endeav\r$ to d him ju/ice4 ,i _h engag$ to wait tw5ty-f\r h\rs2 ,i wait$ only six4 ,i "k n h[ ! read] w decide ^u ! morality ( my conduct2 b ,i own ,i _h n ! =ce1 ,i believe ,i may call x ! ins5sibility1 to rema9 9 my dungeon any long]4 ,!re 0 no d\bt t1 if ,be?lem ,gabor return$ a conqu]or1 ! t]m ( my imprisonm5t w\ld be r5ew$1 & all 8 =m] m5aces cont9u$ 9 =ce4 ,:at %\ld ,i des]ve to h ?\ght ( me1 if ,i c\ld sit d[n idly1 & tamely wait ! return ( my jailor8 ,no6 lib]ty is "o ( ! rights t ,i put on :5 ,i put on ! =m ( a man1 & no ev5t is ( p[] to dissolve or abdicate t "r4 ,( :at validity 0 ! promise t ,be?lem ,gabor extort$ f me by compulsion1 & z ! condition ( t :i* he _h no title to )hold8 ,:at gratitude did ,i owe to ?is man1 :o treat$ me ) e contumely1 & %runk f no?+ b ! ?\ght ( caus+ me to p]i% ) hung]8 ,:atev] became ( my attempt to escape1 ,i c\ld at lea/ 9 ?is va/ subt]ranean hide myself f ! face ( him :o _h injur$ me4 ,i _h a provision ( phosphorus 9 my *e/2 & c\ld !re=e ext+ui% my tor* ^u ! slighte/ al>m1 & relume x at pleasure4 ,:at 0 ! value ( life1 situat$ z ,i 0 situat$8 ,x 0 bett] to p]i% 9 ! attempt to escape1 ?an l+] on = ev] 9 p]petual imprisonm5t4 ,z a fur!r res\rce ,i left a billet 9 my dungeon 7= = ?is also ,i _h implem5ts7 intreat+ ,be?lem ,gabor by e motive ( compassion & humanity to provide = me ! means ( su/5ance z usual4 ,hav+ tak5 ^! precautions1 ,i light$ a fre% tor*2 &1 unlock+ ! door1 & ?ru/+ ! key into my girdle1 set out ^u my exp$ition4 ,?\gh ,be?lem ,gabor _h /ipulat$ = tw5ty-f\r h\rs1 ! siege might ev5 n[ be ov]1 & ,i trembl$ e in/ant le/ my jailor %\ld return4 ,i w&]$ = a consid]able "t among ! alleys & w9d+s ( ?is immeasurable cav]n4 ,i _h ! precaution to m>k ! sides ( ! vault ) *>act]s & tok5s z ,i pass$1 t1 if necess>y1 ,i might be able to f9d ! way back to my dungeon3 ?is might prove an indisp5sable res\rce1 to prev5t me f p]i%+ ) hung]4 ,once or twice ,i *ang$ my r\te1 inf]r+ f a comp>ison ( circum/ances1 ! be/ ,i c\ld make1 t ,i 0 n 9 ! direction ( ! ca/le f :i* ,be?lem ,gabor _h l$ me to my imprisonm5t4 ,9 all ?is w&]+ ,i _h se5 no?+1 ,i _h he>d no?+1 :i* c\ld demon/rate to me t ,i 0 approa*+ ! habitation ( man4 ,i _h grop$ my way = ne> two h\rs1 :5 on a sudd5 ,i he>d a l\d & trem5d\s %\t t almo/ /unn$ me1 & t f its uncommon %ock c\ld be at no great di/ance f ! place :]e ,i /ood4 ,?is 0 succe$$ by a t]rify+ gl>e ( light4 ,i ext+ui%$ my tor*1 bo? t ,i might be bett] qualifi$ to obs]ve1 & t ,i might be less 9 dang] ( discov]y by any "o :o %\ld approa* me unaw>es4 ,! %\ts 7 sev]al times repeat$4 ,! light ,i f\nd to proce$ f t end ( ! vault t[>ds :i* ,i _h be5 advanc+1 &1 by ! be/ conjectures ,i c\ld =m1 ,i conclud$ ! outlet into ! ca/le to be at no great di/ance4 ,i he>d ! crackl+ ( ! flames1 & ! fall ( raft]s & beams4 ,pres5tly ,i disc]n$ a volume ( smoke approa*+ me1 & f\nd t1 if ,i rema9$ long 9 my pres5t /ation1 ,i %\ld incur ! risk ( be+ suffocat$4 ,i =m$ my resolution4 ,i conclud$ t ,be?lem ,gabor's ca/le 0 tak51 & set on fire by ! ,au/rians4 ,i believ$ t my p]secutor 0 already no m3 to ?is fai? ,i 0 und\bt$ly prompt$ by ! pres5tim5t :i* he _h communicat$ to me4 ,i saw t x w\ld be impossible = me to em]ge into light1 till ! flames %\ld abate4 ,i once m !re=e light$ my tor*1 & return$ by ! /raighte/ road ,i c\ld f9d to my dungeon4 ,arriv$ !re1 ,i propos$ to pass ! int]val quietly1 9 ! cav]n :]e ,i _h s long felt ! weight ( ! ,hung>ian's *a9s4 ,sudd5ly h[ev] ! sugge/ion occurr$ to me1 may n my conjectures be false8 may n ,be?lem ,gabor yet repel ! enemy1 & return to me f amid/ ! ru9s ( 8 fall+ ca/le8 ,! ?\ght 0 sickness & ext9ction to my he>t4 ,hope6 beautiful z are ?y visions1 9 h[ mu* angui% & agony d !y clo! ! t]rors ( disappo9tm5t6 ,nev] _h ,be?lem ,gabor be5 half s dreadful to me z n[4 ,i %runk away2 ,i took ) me ! fragm5ts ( provision t yet rema9$2 ,i hid myself2 ,i deem$ no cell remote en\gh to conceal me f ! inhuman p]secution ( my tyrant4 ,i cont9u$ 9 ! subt]ranean all t day & all ! succe$+ night4 ,once 9 ?is p]iod ,i attempt$ to reconnoitre ! av5ue ( my escape1 b ,i f\nd ! situation /ill s heat$ & suffocat+ t ,i did n v5ture to proce$4 ,at l5g? ,i came =? f ?is d5 ( horrors1 & aga9 beheld ! light ( ! sun4 ,! pa? _h already be5 suffici5tly explor$ by me1 & ,i no long] f\nd any mat]ial ob/acles4 ,i n[ saw t my conjectures 7 true3 ! ca/le ( my f]oci\s adv]s>y 0 a pile ( ru9s4 ,! walls inde$ = ! mo/ "p rema9$1 b *ok$ ) fragm5ts ( ! fall+ edifice1 black5$ ) ! flames1 & p5etrat$ 9 e direction by ! light ( day4 ,) difficulty ,i climb$ ov] ! ru9s1 :i* oppos$ my egress f ! subt]ranean1 & r5d]$ my passage to ! outside ( ! ca/le an affair ( p]il & caution4 ,"h ! fir/ object t /ruck me 0 "s t5ts1 probably ( ! soldi]s :o _h be5 employ$ 9 ?is "w ( de/ruction4 ,i 0 hail$ by a s5t9el1 & ,i dem&$ t he w\ld conduct me to 8 comm&]4 ,he l$ me to ! c5tre ( ! little encampm5t1 & ,i /ood 9 ! pres5ce ( 8 *ief4 ,i lift$ my eye to behold him1 & 0 petrifi$ ) su* a/oni%m5t z till t h\r ,i _h nev] felt4 ,x 0 ,*>les1 my son1 my only son1 ! d>l+ ( 8 "m1 ! idol ( my s\l6 ,,*apt] ,,xliii4 ,x may seem extraord9>y t ,i %\ld in/antly h kn[n him4 ,he 0 sitt+ at a table1 cov]$ ) pap]s1 & ) "o or two aides-de-camp wait+ to receive 8 ord]s4 ,he 0 clo!d 9 complete arm\r1 & 8 casque 0 re/+ on ! gr\nd by 8 side4 ,:5 ,i ent]$1 8 eye 0 fix$ on a despat* t day receiv$ f ! great palat9e ( ,hung>y2 b1 9 little m ?an a m9ute1 he rais$ 8 head1 & 8 c\nt5ance 0 completely pres5t$ to my view4 ,x 0 fifte5 ye>s s9ce ,i _h beheld x2 he 0 !n sc>cely above half 8 pres5t age1 a m]e /ripl+1 9 :om ! fir/ blu% ( manhood _h awak5$ ! s5tim5t ( indep5d5ce & an hon\r impati5t ( a %ade2 he 0 n[ a lead] ( w>like b&s1 8 complexion oliv$ ov] ) s]vice1 & 8 eye r5d]$ /eady ) obs]vation & ?\ght4 ,b ,i knew him2 ,i knew him 9 a mom5t4 ,my s\l1 ) ! rapidity ( lightn+1 told me :o he 04 ,n all ! arts 9 ! _w c\ld h hid him f me2 n all ! tales t delusion ev] fram$ c\ld h baffl$ me2 ,i c\ld h *all5g$ him aga9/ ! e>?6 ,i h already _h occasion to expla9 ! complexity ( my feel+s1 :51 aft] a long abs5ce1 ,i visit$ ! heiresses ( ! h\se ( ,/4 ,leon4 ,! sweets ( recognition1 t transport+ eff]vesc5ce ( ! m9d1 :]e ! he>t b\nds to meet a k9dr$ he>t1 :]e emotions & te>s m+le 9 spee*less enc\nt]1 :]e all is gaz+ love & /rict embrace1--^! pleasures 7 d5i$ me4 ,i /ood /iff & motionless 9 ! pres5ce ( my *ild4 ,my he>t might bur/2 b x mu/ n1 & x c\ld n communicate its feel+s4 ,aft] an in/ant's pause ( ov]:elm+ s5sation1 ,i sunk back on myself1 & consid]$ my own figure4 ,x happ5$ t1 exactly opposite to me1 9 ! t5t ( my son1 hung 8 arm\r1 & ov] ! re/ 8 poli%$ %ield1 9 :i* ,i saw my own p]son cle>ly reflect$4 ,! y\? ( my figure inde$ 0 /ill visible2 b ! h>d%ips ( my dungeon _h impr9t$ !mselves 9 gl>+ *>act]s on my face4 ,my be>d 0 neglect$1 my hair 0 matt$ & %aggy1 my complexion 0 ( a /rong & deadly yell[4 ,my appe>ance to a consid]able degree told my /ory )\t ! ne$ ( words4 ,*>les enquir$ ( ^? :o br\ght me1 :]e !y _h f\nd ?is wret*$ & unhappy figure2 & 0 told t ,i _h be5 se5 a few m9utes be=e com+ out f ! ru9s ( ,be?lem ,gabor's ca/le4 ,he humanely & naturally conclud$1 t ,i 0 a victim on :om ! tyrant _h ex]cis$ 8 f]ocity1 & t ,i _h be5 %ut up 9 "s dungeon ( ! =tress3 x 0 impossible t any p]son above gr\nd 9 ! ca/le %\ld h come out alive f ! op]ation ( ! flames4 ,he comm&$ t ,i %\ld be l$ to a neighb\r+ t5t & tak5 c>e (4 ,aft] hav+ be5 refre%$ ) food & re/1 & attir$ ) o!r app>el1 he direct$ t ,i %\ld be br\ght to him aga91 t he might he> my /ory4 ,"u ^! circum/ances !re 0 no?+ = :i* ,i 0 m anxi\s1 ?an t ,i might recruit myself1 & %ake (f z quickly z possible ! effects ( my conf9em5t4 ,cordials 7 br\ght me1 & ,i ta/$ ( !m3 ,i ba!d 9 a neighb\r+ /ream3 "o ( my son's att5dants remov$ my be>d1 & arrang$ my hair4 ,i n[ desir$ to be left alone1 t ,i might take "s ne$ful repose4 ,i c\ld n sleep2 b ,i recl9$ my limbs ^u a c\*1 & began to collect my ?\ghts4 ,i saw myself 9 "o h\r ! sport ( ! mo/ complete rev]se ( =tune t c\ld happ5 to a mortal4 ,i _h be5 ! prison] ( a cav]n s wild & pa?less1 z almo/ to defy ! utmo/ ext5t ( human sagacity to explore its recesses4 ,f ?is cav]n1 b = ! sudd5 & extraord9>y ev5t :i* _h j occurr$1 ,i c\ld nev] h come =? alive4 ,all sob] calculation w\ld h taught me to expect t ,i %\ld h rema9$ !re1 *a9$ up l a savage tig] 9 8 cage1 z long z ,be?lem ,gabor exi/$2 & t1 :5 he di$1 ,i %\ld p]i%1 unhe>d1 unkn[n2 no creature t liv$ suspect+ my situation1 no lapse ( ages ev] br++ to light my dismal cata/rophe4 ,! remorse & rel5t+ ( ,be?lem ,gabor t[>ds me seem$ s little to accord ) any ?+ t ,i _h p]sonally witness$ ( 8 habits & 8 m9d1 t ev5 n[ ,i feel myself totally unable to acc\nt = x4 ,z x 0 h[ev]1 ,i 0 once aga9 free4 ,f ! /ate ( an outlaw imprison$ = life1 ,i sudd5ly saw myself at l>ge1 inspirit$ by ! light ( ! sun1 & refre%$ by 8 g5ial rays1 9 ! full possession ( y\? & all its faculties1 enabl$ to return amid/ my cli5ts ( ,buda1 or to seek "s new adv5ture1 9 any corn] ( ! e>? to :i* my incl9ation l$ me4 ,!re is no man1 h[ev] ov]:elm$ ) calamities1 h[ev] p]secut$ ) endless disappo9tm5t1 h[ev] disgu/$ ) life & all its speci\s allurem5ts1 to :om s sudd5 & admirable a *ange w\ld n convey "s portion ( ela/icity & joy4 ,b !re 0 "o ?\ght t entirely occupi$ me4 ,i _c describe h[ my s\l ye>n$ t[>ds ?is my only son3 ! s5tim5t1 ev5 n[ z ,i write1 is an oppression ,i am sc>cely able to su/a94 ,will+ly1 mo/ will+ly1 w\ld ,i h trav]s$ e region ( ! globe1 if s ,i might h discov]$ 8 unkn[n retreat3 & n[ sudd5ly1 )\t ! smalle/ ef=t on my "p1 he 0 plac$ be=e me4 ,8 la/ solemn p>t+1 8 abjuration ( my society & int]c\rse = ev]1 rose to my memory1 & gave a ze/ inexpressible to our pres5t enc\nt]4 ,at ! ?\ght t my son 0 9 ! neighb\r+ t5t1 all e>?ly objects beside fad$ f my m9d1 & appe>$ un9t]e/+ & contemptible4 ,i in/antly resolv$ to devote myself to 8 s]vice1 & to place all my enjoym5t 9 ! contemplation ( 8 happ9ess1 & ! secret consci\sness ( promot+ x4 ,he _h1 if ,i may s express myself1 9 my own p]son =bidd5 me 8 pres5ce3 9 my n[ alt]$ figure ,i might disobey 8 injunction )\t fe>+ 8 rebuke4 ,let n ! read] condemn me1 t1 end[$ z ,i 0 ) unlimit$ p[]s ( action1 ,i pref]r$ a s+le individual1 my own son1 to all ! _w beside4 ,philan?ropy is a godlike virtue1 & c nev] be too l\dly comm5d$1 or too ard5tly enjo9$2 b natural affection w9ds itself 9 s _m folds ab\t ! he>t1 & is ! p>5t ( s complicat$1 s v>i\s & exquisite emotions1 t he :o %\ld attempt to dive/ himself ( x1 w f9d t he is dive/+ himself ( all t is mo/ to be covet$ 9 exi/5ce4 ,x is n a selfi% prop5sity2 on ! contr>y1 ,i w v5ture to affirm t ! g5]osity x brea!s is its greate/ *>m4 ,beside1 9 my case ,i consid]$ my own exi/5ce z bla/$2 & ,i c\ld !re=e f9d no?+ bett] ?an to =get myself 9 my son4 ,i _h made a suffici5t exp]im5t ( ! philosoph]'s /one1 & all my exp]im5ts _h misc>ri$4 ,my late/ trials 9 attempt+ to be ! b5efactor ( nations & mank9d1 n only _h be5 !mselves abortive1 b conta9$ 9 !m %rewd indications t no simil> plan c\ld ev] succe$4 ,i !re=e disc>d$1 = ! pres5t at lea/1 all ambiti\s & compreh5sive views1 & believ$ t ,i ought to be well cont5t1 if ,i c\ld prove ! unkn[n b5efactor ( ! son ( ,m>gu]ite de ,damville4 ,i ent]$ into a solemn engagem5t ) myself t ,i w\ld =get & trample ^u e p]sonal conc]n1 & be ! victim & ! sacrifice1 if ne$ 71 ( ! happ9ess ( my *ild4 ,dismiss+ my project ( becom+ a factor = ! ,hung>ian p1 ,i det]m9$ to lay aside ! "n ( ,*atillon1 & cut (f e indication t might connect my pres5t exi/5ce ) t ( ! ri* /rang] ( ,buda4 ,"o ( ! advantages ,i possess$ = t purpose 01 t no creature 9 ,hung>y _h ! slighte/ suspicion t ! sieur de ,*atillon _h ev] be5 ! prison] ( ,be?lem ,gabor4 ,hav+ ?us arrang$ my ?\ghts1 ,i n[ call$ = ! g>m5ts t _h be5 assign$ me4 ,!y 7 suppli$ me f ! /ock ( my son2 &1 :5 ,i _h put !m on1 ,i ov]he>d ! att5dants :isp]+ to ea* o!r _! a/oni%m5t1 at ! /rik+ resemblance betwe5 _! ma/] & myself4 ,:5 ,i came once m into ! t5t ( _! capta91 & /ood z 9 ! =m] in/ance be=e 8 %ield1 ,i did n wond] at _! rem>k4 ,! co9cid5ce ( our features 0 s great1 t1 _h we pass$ ?r\gh a /range place 9 ea* o!r's company1 ,i %\ld infallibly h be5 reg>d$ z 8 y\ng] bro!r4 ,yet !re 0 some?+ ( ,m>gu]ite 9 ! c\nt5ance ( ,*>les t ,i want$4 ,:5 ,i recov]$1 z 9 a %ort "t aft]w>ds ,i did1 my vig\r & heal?1 ,i 0 m bloom+ ?an he2 b !re 0 some?+ graceful1 +5u\s & prepossess+ 9 8 aspect1 :i* ,i c\ld by no means boa/ 9 an equal degree1 & :i* might h c>ri$ him unhurt & hon\r$ ?r\gh ! _w4 ,we %all see "s ( ! effects ( ?is 9 :at ,i %all pres5tly h occasion to relate4 ,:5 my son requir$ ( me to decl>e :o ,i 01 ,i told him1 z ,i _h already det]m9$ to d1 t ,i 0 a cadet ( ! h\se ( ,aubigny 9 ,france2 t1 aft] hav+ pass$ ?r\gh sev]al o!r c\ntries1 ,i _h come into ,pol& ) ! float+ & half =m$ purpose ( ent]+ z a volunte] aga9/ ! ,turk2 b t1 be=e my plan 0 completely arrang$1 hav+ be5 l$1 by my juv5ile ard\r 9 a hunt+ p>ty1 f> )9 ! fronti] ( ,hung>y1 ,i _h be5 s un=tunate z to become a prison] to ! troop]s ( ,be?lem ,gabor4 ,i add$ t1 :5 introduc$ to _! *ief1 ,i _h giv5 him s mu* (f5ce1 by ! firmness ( my mann]1 & my refus+ to comply ) c]ta9 propositions he made me1 t he _h ?ru/ me into a dungeon1 f :i*1 b = ! gallant ex]tions ( ! pres5t deta*m5t1 ,i %\ld nev] h come out alive4 ,*>les he>d my /ory ) att5tion & int]e/4 ,he call$ on me to resume my c\rage & my hopes1 & to be confid5t t my suff]+s 7 n[ at an end4 ,he told me1 t he 0 a ,fr5*man z well z myself1 & l myself1 _h be5 a soldi] ( =tune4 ,he felt1 he said1 a p[]ful sympa?y 9 my tale2 !re 0 some?+ 9 my c\nt5ance t irresi/ibly won 8 k9dness2 &1 if ,i w\ld put myself "u 8 protection1 he did n d\bt to be ! means ( my future success4 ,he spoke ) great asp]ity ( ,be?lem ,gabor1 :o1 z an intrepid1 indefatigable & sangu9>y p>tisan1 _h be5 ! au?or ( great] mis*iefs to ! ,*ri/ian cause1 ?an any ( ! imm$iate s]vants ( ! sultan ( ,con/ant9ople4 ,he congratulat$ himself t ! same action t _h deliv]$ ! _w f s murd]\s a r5egado1 _h r5d]$ him ! pres]v] ( a y\? ( s mu* ent]prise & wor?1 z he d\bt$ n ,i %\ld prove4 ,he said1 !re 0 b "o o!r man 9 ,hung>y1 :o _h be5 s effectual an enemy to ! cause ( tru? & ,*ri/ianity z ,be?lem ,gabor4 ,! "n ( ?is man he und]/ood 0 ,*atillon1 & he griev$ to say t he bore ! appellation ( a ,fr5*man4 ,to ! et]nal disgrace ( ! nation t gave him bir?1 he _h jo9$ ! ,turki% /&>d1 &1 by ex]tions difficult to be compreh5d$1 _h rescu$ ! infidels f fam9e at a "t :51 b = 8 inauspici\s int]f]5ce1 ,buda1 & p]haps e /rong t[n 9 ,hung>y1 7 on ! po9t ( fall+ into ! h&s ( ! ,*ri/ians4 ,x 0 ?is same man :o _h reviv$ ! res\rces ( ,be?lem ,gabor1 aft] !y _h once be=e1 by 8 own =tunate ex]tions1 be5 r\t$ out2 & :om ,i might !re=e 9 "s s5se consid] z ! au?or ( my calamities1 z well z ! invet]ate foe ( ,*ri/5dom4 ,su* a wret* z ?is 0 sc>cely entitl$ to ! common b5efit ( ! laws ( w>3 & he w\ld n answ] = himself if ,*atillon _h fall5 into 8 p[]1 to :at extremity 8 holy res5tm5t aga9/ ?is deg5]ate fell[-c\ntryman might h hurri$ him4 ,provid5ce h[ev] _h ov]tak5 him 9 8 impi\s c>e]2 & he _h fall5 obscurely1 z he _h liv$ basely1 9 a night skirmi% ) a p>ty ( m>aud]s f ! ,au/rian camp4--,! read] may believe t ,i did n a little rejoice t1 9 ann\nc+ myself a few mom5ts be=e1 ,i _h tak5 ! "n1 n ( ,*atillon1 b ,d',aubigny4 ,:at ,i he>d h[ev] occasion$ 9 me a pr(\nd reflection on ! caprici\sness ( hon\r & fame1 & ! /range contr>ieties ) :i* opposite prejudices cause ! same action to be view$4 ,i c\ld n repress ! vehem5ce ( my emotions1 :ile ,i 0 ?us calumniat$ & vilifi$ = actions1 :i* ,i _h firmly believ$ no malice c\ld misrepres5t1 & fondly suppos$ t all sects & ages1 z f> z _! record ext5d$1 w\ld agree to admire4 ,9 ano!r po9t ( view1 ! invective :i* my son ?us unconsci\sly p\r$ 9 my e>s1 _h ! effect ( mak+ me reg>d ) a m complac5t satisfaction ! plan ,i _h =m$ ( devot+ myself to 8 s]vice4 ,"h ,i pursu$ no delusive meteor ( fame2 ! v ess5ce ( my project lay 9 its obscurity4 ,k+s & prelates1 armies & *ur*es1 w\ld no long] f9d an int]e/ 9 disput+ ab\t my measures2 ,i %\ld indulge ! secret prompt+s ( my s\l1 undi/urb$ alike by ! c5sure ( ! _w1 & its applause4 ,x 0 ?us t1 "u e *ange ( =tune1 ,i cont9u$ to soo! my s\l ) delusive dreams4 ,mean:ile my project w5t on ) ! happie/ auspices4 ,! fri5d%ip betwe5 me & ,*>les cont9u$ h\rly to increase4 ,z a ,fr5*man1 :om *ance _h introduc$ to 8 acqua9tance 9 a di/ant c\ntry1 x 0 natural t he %\ld feel a /rong bias ( affection t[>ds me4 ,b t sort ( frat]nal resemblance :i* ! mo/ inatt5tive spectator rem>k$ 9 u1 op]at$ =cibly to ! increase ( ,*>les's atta*m5t4 ,he w\ld (t51 9 ! +5u\s op5+ ( 8 s\l t[>ds me1 call me 8 bro!r1 & swe> t ,i %\ld = ev] exp]i5ce f him a bro!r's love4 ,*>les _h by ?is "t complet$ ! ?irty-second ye> ( 8 age2 ,i 01 9 appe>ance1 at lea/ t5 ye>s y\ng] ?an he4 ,!re is some?+ 9 ?is degree ( disp>ity1 t greatly contributes to ! cultivation ( k9dness1 & is adapt$ to ! eng5d]+ a ?\s& int]e/+ s5tim5ts4 ,frequ5tly w\ld he exclaim1 8,our =tunes1 my de> ,h5ry10 t 0 ! "n ,i assum$1 8h be5 9 a consid]able degree simil>3 we 7 bo? ( u e>ly ca/ on ! _w2 ,i inde$ at ! immature age ( sev5te54 ,i ent]$ ! _w )\t an advis] or a fri5d2 b my de/9y 0 fav\rable1 & ,i escap$ its quicks&s & its rocks4 ,i h n[ by a concurr5ce ( happy circum/ances obta9$ a place among hon\rable m5 & soldi]s1 & = :at is to come may reasonably reg>d myself ) "s degree ( confid5ce4 ,y are yet 9 "o ( ! mo/ dang]\s p]iods ( human life2 y\r "w is all to d2 y\r battles are yet to fight4 ,suff] me1 my de> fri5d1 to repres5t y\r bett] g5ius1 & act an eld] bro!r's "p4 ,y %all f9d me no ignorant ,m5tor1 & no ung5tle "o40 ,no?+ c\ld be m gratify+ to me ?an to see ! %oots ( affection ?us spr++ up spontane\sly 9 ,*>les's bosom4 ,i will+ly hum\r$ ! g5]\s deception t he 0 putt+ on himself1 & he>d ) transports inconceivable 8 assurances ( k9dness & protection4 ,we rode1 & we walk$ toge!r2 we 7 9 a mann] insep>able4 ,:5 he w5t out to reconnoitre1 ,i 0 8 *os5 companion2 :5 he inspect$ ! discipl9e & condition ( 8 soldi]s1 he appli$ t opportunity to initiate me 9 ! sci5ce ( w>2 :5 he expect$ to enc\nt] ! enemy1 he plac$ me imm$iately by 8 side4 ,sometimes he w\ld op5 8 he>t to me1 & dwell ) a melan*oly delight ^u 8 secret sorr[s4 8,x is no wond]1 my ,h5ry10 he w\ld say1 8t ,i feel ?is uncommon atta*m5t to y4 ,i am alone 9 ! _w4 ,i h no fa!r1 no "m1 & no bre?r54 ,i am an exile f my c\ntry1 & cut (f = ev] f ^? ( my own l9eage & blood4 ,x is ) inexpressible delight t ,i ?us *eat ! malice ( my fate1 & hold y to my bosom z if y 7 inde$ my bro!r4 ,i w\ld n "p ) ! fiction = ! m9es ( ,p]u2 & ,i "k n :e!r ,i d n cultivate x m assidu\sly1 & reg>d x ) a s5tim5t ( m anxiety & zeal1 because x is a fiction1 ?an ,i %\ld d if x 7 a reality4 ,i _h inde$10 add$ ,*>les1 8a "m60--,&1 :5 he _h />t$ ?is !me1 he w\ld dwell = ev] on h] praises4 ,i easily saw t nev] son lov$ a "m m cordially1 ?an ,*>les lov$ ! all-accompli%$ ,m>gu]ite4 ,) :at s5tim5ts did ,i he> h] eulogium8 ,i c\ld n jo9 9 h] praises2 ,i c\ld n be suppos$ to "k h]4 ,i /ood !re1 z ! /atue ( ,prome!us might h done1 if1 aft] be+ in=m$ ) a liv+ s\l1 ! ,gods _h se5 fit to *a9 its limbs 9 ev]la/+ m>ble4 ,! passion )9 me pant$ & lab\r$ = a v5t2 b ,i 0 inv9cibly sil5t4 ,) :at s5tim5ts did ,i he> h] eulogium8 ,e ^w ( x 0 a dagg] to my he>t2 e ^w said1 8,& ?\1 villa91 w]t n ?\ h] murd]]80 m pa9fully1 ?an ! fi]ce/ reproa*es c\ld h done4 ,:5 ,*>les _h celebrat$ ) an eloqu5ce truly div9e ?is incomp>able "m1 a sudd5 pang ( memory w\ld make him />t into rage4----8,& ?is "m ,i left6 ,( ?is "m ,i _c tell :e!r %e is alive or dead6 ,:at %all ,i say8 ! crime1 or ! n less fatal error ( my fa!r1 sep>at$ me f ?is "m6 ,i lov$ my fa!r3 ,i lov$ him because he 0 my fa!r2 ,i _h great obligations to him2 he once _h virtues4 ,b my "m1--if ,i c\ld h f\nd h] 9 ! wilde/ des]t ( ,africa1 & h kn[n h] virtues1 a /rang] to my blood1 desc5d$ f ! remote/ tribe ( ! human race1 ,i %\ld h *os5 h] = my fri5d1 my preceptress & my guide1 beyond all t y\? & beauty1 ) _! mo/ radiant *>ms1 c\ld t5d] to my acceptance60 ,?us unconsci\sly1 yet +5i\sly1 did my de> son f "t to "t torture 8 fa!r's he>t4 ,i c\ld n ev5 deliv] him f ! gloomy & wret*$ unc]ta9ty1 :e!r ?is "m 7 alive or dead4 ,) "o ^w ,i c\ld h compos$ 8 s\l into a sob] grief2 ,i c\ld h said1 ,y\r adorable "m at l5g? re/s f h] sorr[s2 %e is no long] ! victim ( a misguid$ & a cruel fa!r2 y h no long] occasion to brood ov] t mo/ disconsolate ( reflections1 8,i "k n :at angui% may be at ?is mom5t suff]$ by h] :o is entitl$ to all my duty & all my affection40 ,) "o ^w ,i might h told ?is2 & t ^w ,i d>$ n utt]4 ,,*apt] ,,xliv4 ,my son relat$ to me 8 hi/ory1 & made me ! depository ( 8 feel+s & reflections4 ,! "n ( ,/4 ,leon inde$ nev] pass$ 8 lips2 ,i felt t he _h consign$ t to inviolable oblivion4 ,! appellation he bore 9 ! army 0 ! *evali] de ,damville4 ,soon aft] he ab&on$ me at ,dresd51 he _h ent]$ z a volunte] 9 ! imp]ial army4 ,*>les ! ,fif? 0 at t "t assembl+ =ces to enc\nt] ! conf$]ates ( ! league ( ,smalcalde4 ,9 ?is situation my son 0 em95tly =tunate4 ,he 0 di/+ui%$ = uncommon ent]prise & c\rage 9 "s ( ! fir/ actions ( ! w>1 & e>ly attract$ ! notice ( ,gian-,batti/a ,ca/aldo1 c\nt ( ,piad5a1 :o held an em95t comm& "u ! emp]or4 ,9 ?is army my son 0 a p>ty to ! decisive battle ( ,muhlb]g1 9 ,april1 #aedg4 ,f\r ye>s aft]w>ds1 ,ca/aldo 0 appo9t$ comm&] 9 *ief aga9/ ! ,turks 9 ,hung>y1 & ! ,fr5* *evali] accompani$ 8 patron to ?is new sc5e ( milit>y ent]prise4 ,*>les _h felt dissatisfi$ ) ! gr\nds & motives ( w> betwe5 ! ,ca?olics & ,prote/ants ( ,g]many1 m5 wor%ipp+ ! same ,savi\r1 & appeal+ to ! same au?orities1 b _m ( !m at lea/1 f ! mo/ upright & +5u\s scruples1 diff]+ 9 _! int]pretation ( ^? au?orities4 ,b1 9 _! cont5tions betwe5 ! cresc5t & ! cross1 he ent]$ ) unb\nd$ en?usiasm into all ! feel+s t con/itute a *ampion or a m>tyr4 ,he conceiv$ t :atev] 0 de> to ! human race 9 ?is _w or ! next hung on ! issue2 he reg>d$ ! gr&eur ( ! cause z purify+ 8 ef=ts & consecrat+ 8 "n2 &1 :5 he lift$ 8 sword 9 v9dication ( an expir+ ,god1 he felt himself /eel$ ) m ?an mortal en]gy4 ,my son dwelt on ! m]its ( 8 patron ) a degree ( v5]ation & love t knew no b\nds4 ,ca/aldo 0 rank$ by ! cons5t+ voice ( mank9d ) ! mo/ accompli%$ g5]als ( ! age 9 :i* he liv$4 8,i knew him10 said ,*>les1 89 8 mo/ private h\rs1 & /ood next to & obs]v$ him 9 ! greate/ & mo/ critical occasions ( 8 life4 ,x 0 ! lea/ ( 8 m]its t he di/+ui%$ me1 t he took me up fri5dless & an orphan1 t "u e circum/ance he 0 m ?an a fa!r to me2 t he correct$ my faults1 t he guid$ me ) 8 advice1 t he in/ruct$ me ) 8 wisdom1 & support$ me by 8 c\nt5ance4 ,ca/aldo 0 ! mo/ p]sev]+ & indefatigable ( mank9d2 no difficulties c\ld und]m9e 8 app>5t s]5ity2 no accumulation ( dang]s c\ld appal or p]plex him4 ,victory nev] robb$ him ( 8 caution2 mis=tune & defeat nev] de/roy$ ! gr&eur & ela/icity ( 8 s\l4 ,i firmly believe t no g5]al _h ev] a m disc\rag+ v>iety ( c\nt]actions to /ruggle )4 ,! enemy 0 b>b>\s & sangu9>y1 yet firm & undismay$1 9 ! full vig\r ( _! political heal?1 "u ! rule ( ! able/ ( _! sov]eigns4 ,! nobles ( ! c\ntry ,ca/aldo _h to def5d _h almo/ all ( !m be5 ali5at$1 "o aft] ano!r1 by ! trick+ & ill-judg$ politics ( ! h\se ( ,au/ria4 ,! nation 0 ru9$1 h\seless & />v+4 ,_m ( ! (fic]s :o s]v$ "u my g5]al 7 ! base/ ( poltroons2 b !y 7 impos$ ^u him by 8 c\rt2 he 0 compell$ to place !m 9 important tru/s2 &1 ev5 :5 9 ! mo/ da/>dly way !y betray$ ^? tru/s1 !y 7 by "s pitiful intrigue %elt]$ f 8 discipl9e & 8 ju/ice4 ,! =ces ( ,ca/aldo 7 mut9\s & ungov]nable2 & he 0 almo/ con/antly d5i$ ! funds requisite = _! pay4 8,= two ye>s ! c\nt ( ,piad5a /ruggl$ ) ^! complicat$ difficulties4 ,:5 he _h obta9$ a h>d-e>n$ advantage at "o extremity ( ! k+dom1 he f\nd x r5d]$ useless by "s trea*]y or incapacity 9 ! o!r extremity1 :i* x 0 in/antly necess>y he %\ld ha/5 to repair4 ,he quell$ f\r al>m+ mut9ies by 8 firmness1 8 res\rces1 & ! prud5t comb9ation ( 8 calmness & sev]ity4 ,9 ! mid/ ( "o ( 8 mo/ ardu\s situations he sudd5ly receiv$ intellig5ce t ! /ates ( ,hung>y1 :i* 7 at t "t assembl$1 7 debat+ :e!r !y %\ld ent] into a treaty ) ,solyman = ! purpose ( plac+ _! c\ntry "u ! ,turki% sceptre4 ,he imm$iately flew to ! place ( c\ncil2 ! decision 9 fav\r ( ,solyman 0 drawn up & ready to be adopt$2 b ,ca/aldo1 by 8 pres5ce1 8 au?ority1 & 8 eloqu5ce1 recall$ ! /ates to _! duty1 & prev5t$ !m f et]nally /a9+ ! ,*ri/ian "n4 ,surr\nd$ ) ^! difficulties1 oppos$ to an enemy _m times m num]\s ?an ! =ces he c\ld br+ aga9/ !m1 & ^: wants 7 all pl5tifully suppli$1 ,ca/aldo by 8 s+le abilities kept ! balance ev51 or r caus$ x to incl9e 9 fav\r ( ! ,*ri/ian scale4 ,b :at10 add$ ,*>les1 8avails ! mo/ consummate m]it6 ,h[ may ! mo/ incessant & undaunt$ ex]tions be %ad[$ by ! veil ( obscurity6 ,! _w judges by ev5ts2 success is necess>y to procure ! palm ( fame4 ,aft] two ye>s ( su* lab\rs z ,i witness$ & glory to describe1 a mut9y broke out among ! m]c5>y troops1 m =midable ?an any t prec$$2 x 0 no long] ev5 9 ! abilities ( ,ca/aldo to quell4 #8,we hon\r & respect y1' said ! mut9e]s1 #8b we w no m s]ve )\t pay3 we h be5 baffl$ two ye>s2 we w m>* to ! gates ( ,vi5na1 & dem& f ,f]d9&1 our sov]eign1 :y we are ?us d5i$ ! arre>s t are due to u4' ,!y *ose lead]s = ?is exp$ition among !mselves4 ,! great ,ca/aldo1 ^: peculi> tal5t x is to accommodate himself to ev5ts1 & nev] by any mis=tune to be depriv$ ( 8 inv5tion & res\rces1 saw :at x 0 t became him4 ,hav+ 9 va9 tri$ e me?od = reta9+ 8 troops 9 ,hung>y1 he (f]$ himself to lead !m to ,vi5na4 ,!n 0 se5 ! true asc5dancy ( a noble m9d4 ,goad$ ) want & di/ress1 !y _h be5 deaf to ! remon/rances ( _! g5]al :5 he s\ght to direct !m aga9/ ! enemy4 ,b1 :5 !y saw him submitt+ himself to _! rage & impati5ce1 & fe>lessly intru/+ 8 safety to ^? :o _h be=e refus$ ev5 to li/5 to him1 & :o _h reason to fe> 8 retribution z _! accus] & judge1 !y 7 aw$ & spee*less4 ,!y almo/ rep5t$ ( _! fr5zy1 & 7 half det]m9$ to return to _! duty4 ,_! remorse inde$ 0 imp]fect & ineffectual2 b ,ca/aldo l$ ?is b& ( mut9e]s ?r\gh ! he>t ( ! k+dom1 ) z _m symptoms ( regul>ity1 mode/y1 & ord]1 z if !y _h be5 ! be/ paid1 ! prompte/ & mo/ loyal army 9 ! _w40 ,my son spoke 9 t]ms ( ! w>me/ en?usiasm ( ! def5ce ( ,erlau1 9 ! p]iod ( ,ca/aldo's la/ & mo/ ardu\s campaign aga9/ ! ,turks4 ,9 respect ( =tifications ! t[n 0 sc>cely compet5t to resi/ ! feeble/ enemy2 b its defici5cy 9 ?is po9t 0 suppli$ by ! con/ancy & val\r ( its g>rison & inhabitants4 ,! v wom5 display$ an ent]prise1 t ! m vigor\s sex h seldom exhibit$4 ,9 "o in/ance1 a h]o9e ( ?is sort 0 se5 fight+ 9 ! pres5ce ( h] "m & h] husb&4 ,h] husb& fell dead by h] side4 8,let u1 my daught]10 said ! "m1 8remove ! body1 & devote ! re/ ( our c>e to its hon\rable fun]al40--8,may ,god10 return$ ! impassion$ wid[1 8nev] suff] ! e>? to cov] my husb&'s corse1 till 8 dea? has be5 amply rev5g$2 ?is is ! h\r ( battle1 n a "t = fun]al & = te>s60 ,s speak+1 & seiz+ ! sword & %ield ( ! brea?less *ampion1 %e ru%$ ^u ! enemy2 nor did %e quit ! brea* till1 by ! slaught] ( ?ree ,turks :o 7 asc5d+ ! scal+ ladd]s1 %e _h appeas$ ! fury 9 h] brea/1 & ! gho/ ( h] dep>t$ husb&4 ,!n rais+ ! corpse1 & press+ x to h] bosom1 %e drew x to ! great *ur* ( ! city1 & paid to x ! la/ hon\rs ) all possible magnific5ce4#i ,_m o!r examples ( a h]oism n inf]ior to ?is 7 display$ on ! same occasion4 8,& %all ,i10 add$ ,*>les1 9 a sally ( glori\s en?usiasm1 8ev] des]t a cause :i* has be5 ?us hon\r$8 ,%all ,i betray a soil :i* has be5 immortalis$ by su* illu/ri\s actions8 ,%all ,i jo9 myself to ! r5egado ,be?lem ,gabor1 & ! execrable ,*atillon8 ,no3 su* virtue z ,i h describ$ nev] c\ld h be5 conceiv$1 b 9 ! bosom ( tru?6 ,great z is ! pi\s devotion ,i feel = t ,god :o di$ on ! cross = ! salvation ( mank9d1 ,i own my weakness1 if x be a weakness1 8 cause is sc>cely less ende>$ to me by ! sublime ex]tions ( 8 h]oic foll[]s1 ?an by 8 own adorable condesc5sion & m]cy4 8,:5 ! glori\s ,ca/aldo dep>t$ ) 8 rebelli\s army = ! metropolis ( ,g]many1 !re 0 no?+ ,i m e>ne/ly desir$ ?an to accompany 8 m>*4 ,= sev5 ye>s he _h conf]r$ on me ! b5efits1 & %[n t[>ds me ! affection1 ( a fa!r2 & ,i c\ld n ?9k ( be+ sep>at$ f him )\t ! extreme/ angui%4 ,beside1 ,i reg>d$ x z little less ?an sacrilege1 to quit 8 side at a "t t he 0 expos$ to ! furi\s sugge/ions ( a ho/ ( robb]s & b&itti4 ,b he w\ld n all[ me to ab&on my po/4 #8,"s "t1' said he1 #8we mu/ sep>ate1 & y mu/ /& alone4 ,i h be5 long en\gh y\r in/ructor2 &1 if my lessons or my example c produce improvem5t 9 y1 !y mu/ h p]=m$ t (fice already4' ,he treat$ ) disda9 ! ?\ght ( ! dang] to :i* he might be expos$1 & 8 ne$ ( a fai?ful gu>d2 a ?\ght :i* he _h detect$ 9 ! mid/ ( my anxieties1 b :i* ,i _h n ! c\rage to m5tion4 #8,?is1' said he1 #8is y\r g5u9e sph]e4 ,y are a "y man1 burn+ ) ! zeal ( tru? & religion4 ,y are inspir$ ) ! en?usiasm ( a *ampion & a m>tyr4 ,heav5 kn[s h[ will+ly ,i w\ld h sp5t my blood = ! ov]?r[ ( ,mahomet & 8 blasphem\s impieties4 ,to me ?is is n p]mitt$2 to y x is4 ,i %all be engag$ 9 ! pa9ful sc5es ( civil cont5tion betwe5 ,*ri/ian & ,*ri/ian1 misguid$ & inflam$ by ! human inv5tions ( ,lu!r & ( ,calv94 ,y h be=e y a cle>] & a bright] field2 &1 ,i confid5tly p]suade myself1 y w be f\nd wor?y ( y\r happi] de/9y4'--,! c\nt ( ,piad5a be/[$ me1 s he 0 pleas$ to express himself1 ^u ,nada/i1 ! great palat9e ( ! realm1 z ! mo/ preci\s pl$ge ( 8 fri5d%ip t x 0 9 8 p[] to conf]4 8,s9ce ! retreat ( ,ca/aldo1 ! ,*ri/ian /&>d has obta9$ little m ei!r ( att5tion or aid f our lawful sov]eign1 n[ ! possessor ( ! imp]ial ?rone4 ,f]d9& = a great "p ( ?is "t has _h 8 negotiators at ,con/ant9ople1 :om ! insult+ ,turk has condesc5d$ nei!r s9c]ely to treat )1 nor to dismiss4 ,! ,*ri/ian army 9 ,hung>y has be5 left to its own res\rces2 b zeal has suppli$ ! place ( magaz9es1 & religi\s ard\r has taught u to omit no occasion ( annoy+ & di/ress+ ! enemy4 ,! mo/ consid]able occurr5ce ( ?is p]iod1 has be5 ! siege ( ,ziget ab\t f\r ye>s ago4 ,solyman1 tak+ advantage ( c]ta9 facti\s broils among our h]$it>y nobility1 appo9t$ at t "t "o ( 8 eunu*s ba%aw ( ,buda2 &1 hav+ plac$ a num]\s army "u 8 comm&1 dismiss$ him f ! foot ( 8 ?rone ) ?is arrogant injunction1 n to ent] ! capital ( 8 prov9ce1 till he _h fir/ s5t ! keys ( ,ziget z an (f]+ to 8 royal ma/]4 ,horvati1 ! ,*ri/ian gov]nor ( ?is =tification1 is "o ( ! mo/ accompli%$ & ! brave/ ( our native comm&]s2 &1 ,nada/i hav+ s5t him a re9=cem5t ! bett] to enable him to support ! ?reat5$ siege1 ,i 0 9 ! numb] ( ! soldi]s appo9t$ on ?is s]vice4 ,! tr5*es 7 op5$ e>ly 9 ,june1 & ! siege cont9u$ = ! space ( sev5 weeks4 ,! ba%aw1 ?\gh an eunu*1 9 p]son /unt$1 & ( mon/r\s de=mity1 0 di/+ui%$ = an uncommon degree ( audacity & p]sev]ance4 ,f\r times he fill$ ! dikes ( ! =tification ) wood & e>?2 & z (t51 by means ( a furi\s sally ( ! besieg$1 ! mat]ials1 :i* _h ?us ) va/ exp5se ( indu/ry & lab\r be5 accumulat$1 7 set fire to & consum$4 ,on ! twelf? day ( ! siege he ga9$ possession ( ! t[n1 & drove u back into ! citadel2 b on ! day foll[+ we recov]$ ! gr\nd we _h lo/1 & f t "t ! t[n 0 8 no m4 ,! actions ( ^! days 7 ! sev]e/ ( ! :ole siege2 we f\ght ! enemy /reet by /reet1 & in* by in*2 ! great f\nta9 9 ! m>ket-place ran ) blood2 we asc5d$ hills ( ! dead1 :i* ! infidels oppos$ z a b>ri] to our fur!r progress2 ,i seiz$ two ,turki% /&>ds2 &1 ?\gh w\nd$1 pursu$ ! enemy ?r\gh ! ea/]n gate1 & return$ 9 triumph4 ,nada/i 9 ! six? week ( ! siege m>*$ to our relief2 b he 0 met & wor/$ by ! ba%aw1 :o return$ victori\s to ! foot ( ! walls4 ,dur+ ! :ole ( ! siege mutual animosity 0 *]i%$ by e species ( contrivance1 & ! heads ( ! di/+ui%$ dead 7 exhibit$ on bo? sides z spectacles ( abhorr5ce & t]ror4 ,! inflam$ passions ( ! combatants sev]al times f\nd a v5t 9 li/$ duels3 ,horvati1 ! gov]nor1 kill$ 9 "o ( ^! enc\nt]s a gigantic ,turk1 :o _h s5t a pr\d defiance to our ho/4 ,i procur$ myself hon\r ^u a simil> occasion2 & ! sc>f :i* ,i n[ we>1 compos$ ! turban ( ! infidel ,i slew4 ,at l5g? ! disappo9t$ ba%aw 0 oblig$ to raise ! siege2 & he soon aft] di$ ( grief & mortification 9 8 palace at ,buda4 ,i confess ,i recollect ! ,*ri/ian exploits 9 ! def5ce ( ,ziget1 9 :i* ,i also _h a %>e1 ) rapture & delight2 !y w s]ve to awak5 9 me new animation1 :5 h]eaft] ! coldness ( ord9>y life might /rike palsy to my s\l4 ,i %all nev] ?9k ,i h liv$ 9 va91 aft] hav+ contribut$1 9 h[ev] humble a place1 to arre/ ! c>e] ( insol5ce & impiety :i*1 "u ! /&>d ( ! cresc5t1 ?reat5$ to ov]-run ! :ole ,*ri/ian _w40 ,su* 7 ! adv5tures & su* ! s5tim5ts ( ! gallant *evali] de ,damville4 ,i _h be5 a w>rior 9 my y\?1 & ! disc\rse he held 0 suffici5tly cong5ial to my e>lie/ prop5sities4 ,i saw inde$ t he _h ga9$1 9 ! zeal ( a soldi] ( ! cross1 a s\rce ( m>tial h]oism1 to :i* my milit>y hi/ory _h be5 a /rang]4 ,b1 ?\gh ,i c\ld n entirely ent] into ?is s5tim5t ( 81 & inde$ reg>d$ x z an infatuation & delusion1 ,i did n ! less admire ! gr&eur ( s\l ) :i* ?is h]oic fable inspir$ him4 ,!re 0 no pres5t prop5sity 9 my he>t t l$ me to delight 9 de$s ( blood & w>2 ,i saw !m 9 _! g5u9e col\rs )\t v>ni% or disguise2 ,i hat$ & loa!d !m f my v inmo/ s\l2 b1 not)/&+ ?is1 ,i 0 s5sible to ! lu/re :i* milit>y zeal ca/ r\nd ! "* ( my son4 ,nor is ?is incr$ible or absurd2 ! qualities ( a g5]\s & ent]pris+ *ampion are truly admirable1 ?\gh ! direction !y h receiv$ %\ld be wor?y ( et]nal regret4 ,*>les de ,damville 0 my fri5d2 &1 :5 ,i say ?is1 ,i _c help /opp+ a mom5t = ! indulg5ce ( reflect+ on ! contra/ betwe5 my pres5t int]c\rse ) my son1 & my late connection ) ,be?lem ,gabor4 ,i _h s\ght ! fri5d%ip ( ! ,hung>ian p>tisan1 p>tly because ,i want$ a protector & an ally1 b p>tly also because 9 my s\l ,i look$ up to & admir$ ! man4 ,i call$ ,be?lem ,gabor my fri5d2 ,i p]suad$ myself t ,i _h cog5t reasons = call+ him s4 ,b !re 0 little sympa?y betwe5 u2 he 0 wrapp$ up 9 8 own contemplations2 he 0 )]$ by 8 own calamities2 our s\ls sc>cely t\*$ 9 a s+le po9t4 ,no1 no2 ?is is n fri5d%ip4 ,fri5d%ip is a necessity ( our nature1 ! /imulat+ & re/less want ( e susceptible he>t4 ,h[ wret*$ an impo/ure 9 ?is po9t ( view does human life = ! mo/ "p appe>6 ,) boyi% eyes1 full ( sangu9e spirits & hope1 we look r\nd u = a fri5d2 we s9k into ! grave1 brok5 d[n ) ye>s & infirmities1 & /ill h n f\nd ! object ( our se>*4 ,we talk to "o man1 & he does n und]/& u2 we address ourselves to ano!r1 & we f9d him ! unreal similitude only ( :at we believ$ him to be4 ,we ally ourselves to a man ( intellect & ( wor?2 ^u fur!r exp]i5ce we _c d5y him ei!r ( ^! qualities2 b ! m we "k ea* o!r1 ! less we f9d ( resemblance2 he is cold1 :]e we are w>m2 he is h>%1 :]e we are melt$ into ! t5d]e/ sympa?y2 :at fills u ) rapture1 is reg>d$ by him ) indiff]5ce2 we f9i% ) a di/ant respect1 :]e we look$ = a comm+l+ s\l3 ?is is n fri5d%ip4 ,we "k ( o!r m51 we h view$ _! c\nt5ances1 we h occasionally sat 9 _! society3 we believe x is impossible we %\ld n f9d 9 !m ! object we s\ght4 ,b disp>ity ( situation & dissimilitude ( connections prove z effectual a b>ri] to intimacy1 z if we 7 inhabitants ( diff]5t planets4 ,x is "o ( ! mo/ /rik+ *>act]i/ics ( ! nature ( man1 t we are et]nally apt to gr[ dead & ins5sible to ! ?+ we h n4 ,half our faculties become palsi$1 be=e we are 9 ! slighte/ degree aw>e t we are n :at we 71 & :at we might be4 ,!re are philosoph]s :o reg>d ?is z ! peculi> privilege ( man1 a wise provision ( ,provid5ce to r5d] u cont5t$ & easy ) our lot 9 exi/5ce4 ,= my "p1 ,i d n envy1 & ,i h nev] aspir$ to1 ! happ9ess ( ignorance & /upidity4 ,b1 be x a bless+ or a curse1 ! ph5om5on is und\bt$4 ,pres5t me ) "s ine/imable b5efit1 t my nature fitt$ me to enjoy1 b t my =tune has long d5i$ me to p>take1 & ,i in/antly rise z f an oppressive le?>gy4 ,be=e1 x may be1 ,i felt myself uneasy2 b ,i knew ( no rem$y1 ,i dream$ x 0 my nature1 ,i did n put =? a f+] = relief4 ,b n[1 t ,i h drawn ! unexpect$ prize1 ,i gr[ a/oni%$ at my =m] bl9dness2 ,i become sudd5ly s5sible ( my p[]s & my wor?2 ! blood t slept 9 my he>t1 circulates1 & di/5ds e ve92 ,i tread on air2 ,i feel a calm1 yet ravi%+ delight2 ,i "k :at k9d ( an end[m5t life is1 to a be+ 9 :om s5tim5t & affection are awak5$ to _! g5u9e action4 ,?is 0 ! effect ( ! mutual atta*m5t produc$ betwe5 me & ,*>les4 ,i look$ into him1 & saw a man2 ,i saw expansive p[]s ( intellect & true s5sibility ( he>t4 ,to be e/eem$ & lov$ & protect$ by su* a man2 to h him to take "o by ! h&1 to enquire into "o's sorr[s1 to int]e/ himself 9 "o's anxieties1 to exult 9 "o's good =tune & "o's joys2 ?is & ?is only des]ves ! "n ( exi/5ce4 ,i _h h[ev] a pa9ful drawback ^u my satisfaction4 ,x 0 my fate s9ce ! visit ( ! /rang] ( ! lake ( ,con/ance1 to rejoice = mom5ts & to lam5t = ye>s4 ,i c\ld n at fir/ asc5d to t purity & em95ce ( fri5d%ip to =get myself2 ,i c\ld n b pa9fully feel ! contra/ betwe5 me & my son4 ,h[ happy 0 ,*>les1 h[ respectable1 h[ self-approv+1 h[ *e]ful ( he>t3 ,i %all pres5tly h occasion to speak ( a /ill fur!r addition to 8 happ9ess6 ,i look$ inde$ "y1 fair1 bloom+1 a /rang] to c>e3 b ,i _h a secret worm gnaw+ at my vitals4 ,?is v deceitfulness ( my c\nt5ance 0 a bitt] aggravation to my remorse4 ,i nev] saw my features reflect$ 9 ! poli%$ %ield )\t feel+ myself /ruck to ! core4 ,*>les _h walk$ "r onw>d 9 ! pa?s ( hon\r2 he fe>$ no detection2 he _h no secret consci\sness t gave ! lie to ! voice ( applause1 p>tiality1 & fri5d%ip4 ,b ,i 0 all a lie2 ,i 0 no y\?2 ,i 0 no man2 ,i 0 no memb] ( ! great community ( my species4 ,! pa/ & ! future 7 equally a bur!n to my ?\ghts4 ,to ! eye t saw me ,i 0 a y\? flu%$ ) hope1 & pant+ = exi/5ce4 ,9 my s\l ,i knew1 & ,i only knew1 t ,i 0 a worn out vet]an1 batt]$ ) ! /orms ( life1 hav+ tri$ e ?+ & reject$ e ?+1 & disc>d$ = ev] by hope & joy4 ,:5 ,i walk$ =? lean+ on ! arm ( him :o delight$ to call me 8 y\ng] bro!r1 ?is 0 ! consci\sness t hunt$ my /eps & bla/$ me ) its aspect :i*ev] way we turn$4 ,,*apt] ,,xlv4 ,among ! v>i\s confid5ces repos$ 9 me by my son1 "o 0 8 love4 ,! object ( 8 atta*m5t 0 a "y lady ( quality1 nam$ ,p&ora1 niece to ,nada/i1 great palat9e ( ,hung>y4 ,9 consequ5ce ( ! e>ne/ recomm5dation ( ,ca/aldo 9 #aeec1 ,nada/i _h tak5 my son "u 8 p>ticul> protection1 & ,*>les's pr9cipal home at ! p]iods :5 ! army 0 disp]s$ 9 w9t]-qu>t]s 0 at ! palat9e's h\se 9 ! city ( ,presburg4 ,"h 8 mann]s _h become m poli%$1 & 8 ta/e m ref9$4 ,till !n1 br$ 9 t5ts1 & liv+ amid/ ! clang\r ( arms1 he _h be5 a m]e soldi]1 r\gh1 g5]\s1 manly1 & brave4 ,b ,nada/i 0 an elegant s*ol>1 smitt5 ) t ard5t love ( classical & anci5t lore :i* has s em95tly di/+ui%$ ! sixte5? c5tury4 ,he assembl$ r\nd him m5 ( lett]s f v>i\s p>ts ( ,europe2 &1 "u 8 auspices1 ! days ( ,mat?ias ,corv9us1 k+ ( ,hung>y1 seem$ to be reviv$1 ^: love ( lit]ature 0 su*1 t he kept ?ree hundr$ transcrib]s 9 8 h\se1 con/antly employ$ 9 multiply+ copies ( ! preci\s relics ( ,roman & ,a!nian le>n+4 ,! consort ( ,nada/i 0 "o ( ! mo/ accompli%$ matrons ( ! age 9 :i* %e liv$1 & h] ?ree daught]s 7 patt]ns ( e polite & amiable accompli%m5t4 ,su* 0 ! s*ool into :i* ! *evali] de ,damville ent]$ at ! age ( tw5ty-five1 imm$iately aft] ! retreat ( ,ca/aldo4 ,?is may seem an age some:at late = new-modell+ ! "*1 b ,*>les _h an ent]pris+ & aspir+ temp]2 & he soon became a di/+ui%$ ornam5t ( c\rts & ! society ( ladies4 ,ca/aldo _h taught him all he knew1 ! temp]1 ! mann]s1 & ! sci5ce ( a milit>y *iefta93 ! palace ( ,nada/i f9i%$ & complet$ ! education ( my son4 ,p&ora 0 only f\rte5 ye>s ( age :5 ,*>les de ,damville fir/ became a sort ( inmate ( ! h\se ( h] uncle4 ,%e at t "t liv$ ) h] fa!r2 b he be+ aft]w>ds kill$ 9 ! battle :i* ,nada/i f\ght = ! relief ( ,ziget1 ,p&ora occupi$ an ap>tm5t 9 ! palat9e palace4 ,f ! fir/ h\r he saw h]1 a m]e *ild z x 71 accompani$ by h] gov]ness1 ,*>les confess$ to me t he _h beheld h] ) eyes ( di/9ction4 ,he _h said to himself1 ,?is little girl w h]eaft] be a jewel wor?y ( ! cr[n ( an emp]or4 ,he _h f\nd some?+ inexpressibly attractive 9 ! />ry brightness ( h] complexion2 h] air he reg>d$ z bo? light] & m graceful ?an any ?+ he _h ev] be=e se52 & h] speak+ & humid eye seem$ to him ! v emblem ( s5sibility & sweetness4 ,if1 at ! girli% & immature season ( f\rte51 he _h ascrib$ to h] all ^! p]fections1 x w easily be suppos$ t1 z %e increas$ 9 /ature z ! beauties ( =m unfold$ !mselves 9 h]1 & %e advanc$ 9 s5tim5t & a lovely consci\sness ( h] wor?1 ! p>tiality ( ,*>les became m deep & unalt]able4 ,b ! orphan niece ( ,nada/i 0 altoge!r )\t a portion2 & ! great palat9e w\ld h se5 ) m complac5cy ! *evali] de ,damville address+ 8 pret5sions to "o ( 8 daught]s4 ,*>les confess$ to me t ! passion he n\ri%$ _h be5 fruitful ( pleasures & griefs1 ( hope & p]plexity4 ,x 0 n[ almo/ a ye> s9ce ,p&ora & himself _h confess$ a mutual affection4 ,! confession _h n be5 ! result ( design on ei!r side3 bo? _h wi%$ to suppress x2 ,p&ora f virg9 dignity & res]ve2 & ,*>les1 because he saw n h[ _! affection c\ld be cr[n$ ) success1 & he dread$1 m ?an any mis]y to himself1 to be ! au?or ( degradation & mis]y to h] he lov$4 ,b :at is ev] upp]mo/ 9 ! he>t w at "s "t or o!r betray itself4 ,_! sympa!tic & accordant feel+s ^u a po9t s deeply int]e/+ to bo?1 r5d]$ !m eagle-ey$ to disc]n ! smalle/ indications4 ,!y _h _h a ?\s& opportunities1 & a ?\s& opportunities _h be5 resi/$4 ,!y became m ?an usually sil5t & res]v$ t[>ds ea* o!r2 !y %unn$ to meet1 &1 :5 !y met1 avoid$ ea* o!r's eyes4 ,"o day a casual enc\nt] 9 a solit>y retreat1 :i* ea* _h s\ght pr9cipally ) int5tion to escape ! pres5ce ( ! o!r1 _h tak5 !m (f _! gu>d4 ,!y 7 mutually hesitat+ & p]plex$2 ea* disc]n$ m unequivocal indications ?an _h ev] occurr$ be=e ( ! /ate ( ! o!r's s5tim5ts2 ! entire accord snapp$ z x 7 at once ! *a9s ( res]ve2 & ea*1 aft] a %ort int]val ( hesitation1 spoke ) an eloqu5ce1 hi!rto untri$1 ! language ( love4 ,! diff]5ce ( ye>s betwe5 !m gave a ze/ to ! communication4 ,p&ora seem$ to be ?r[+ h]self ^u ! protection ( an eld] bro!r1 ( a gu>dian1 "o 9 ^: prud5ce %e confid$ z ! antidote ( h] inexp]i5ce2 ,*>les felt 8 matur] ye>s z impos+ on him m sev]ely t sacr$ integrity1 ! obligation ( :i*1 at lea/ z society is at pres5t con/itut$1 seems 9 ! majority ( cases to gr[ out ( ! relative situation ( ! sexes1 ( ! protector%ip ( ! "o1 & ! dep5d5ce ( ! o!r4 8,& n[10 exclaim$ ,*>les1 8:at am ,i to d8 :at am ,i to desire8 ,x w\ld be affectation 9 me to conceal f myself on an occasion l ?is1 t ! reputation ,i h acquir$ bo? 9 ! arts ( peace & w> is su*1 z to h caus$ ,nada/i to set 8 he>t ^u my becom+ 8 son-9-law4 ,! great palat9e1 ?\gh 9 _m respects g5]\s & lib]al1 has t inflexibl5ess ( op9ion1 :i* is p]haps m apt to gr[ up 9 ! he>ts ( s*ol>s1 ?an 9 o!r dep>tm5ts ( society4 ,he is grave & solemn2 all 8 habits are ( a maje/ic & lordly nature2 & ,i h small reason to hope t ,i %all f9d him accessible to my repres5tations4 ,he is little subject to sallies ( passion2 8 own prop5sities are :olly "u ! control ( 8 judgm5t2 & x is n likely t he w make all[ance = ! ard5t affections ( o!r m9ds4 ,p&ora is entirely dep5d5t on him2 9 any case ! portion %e w\ld receive f him w\ld be v inadequate to h] wor?2 b1 disc>d$ & disc\nt5anc$ by him :o has ! absolute rule ( ,*ri/ian ,hung>y1 :at c %e expect8 ,i am myself de/itute ( =tune2 my provision z a soldi] w be v inadequate to ! wants ( ! fir/ & s(te/ ( h] sex4 ,b ev5 ( t provision ,nada/i w deprive me1 if ,i m>ry 9 opposition to 8 pleasure4 ,%all ,i make ,p&ora ! inhabitant ( t5ts & encampm5ts2 %all ,i expose h] to all ! *anges & haz>ds ( a milit>y life2 %all ,i drag h] z ! att5dant ( a soldi] ( =tune ?r\gh e climate ( ,europe8 ,no1 by heav5s6 ,i %\ld reg>d myself z ! mo/ selfi% & ! base/ ( mank9d1 if ,i c\ld delib]ate on su* a "q4 ,nev] %all ! *>m] ( my s\l owe a s+le privation to h] ,*>les4 ,i love h] ) s pure & entire a passion1 t ,i pref] h] prosp]ity to e e>?ly good4 ,nor is x m]ely necess>y to my atta*m5t t %e %\ld live 9 pl5ty & ease2 ,i require t my ,p&ora %\ld be se5 9 h] native lu/re1 t %e %\ld be surr\nd$ ) e app5dage due to h] m]it1 t %e %\ld comm& applause f ! m]c5>y1 & homage f ! sup]ficial4 ,h] praise is ! only music ,i enjoy4 ,i c\ld n be> to he> h] "n c\pl$ ) levity & scorn4 ,i c\ld n be> t1 :]e %e appe>$1 e eye %\ld n be turn$ to h] ) rev]5ce & hon\r4 ,my passion1 ,i confess x1 is t ( a disciple ( lib]al arts & a nobleman1 n t ( an ,arcadian40 ,! p]iod ( ! campaign n[ drew to an end1 & ,*>les1 hav+ reque/$ me to accompany him1 set out = 8 usual w9t] retreat 9 ! city ( ,presburg4 ,i saw ,p&ora4 ,nev] 9 my life _h ,i beheld any ?+ s sweetly simple4 ,i _h always be5 an admir] ( ! sex2 b ! p]fections ( ,p&ora 7 ( a nature t ,i _h n obs]v$ 9 any o!r woman4 ,h] symmetry 0 s p]fect1 ! pe>ly lu/re ( h] sk9 s admirable1 & h] =m & c>riage s light & e!real1 t at fir/ view x 0 difficult to p]suade "o's self t %e 0 fram$ ( ! same gross mat]ials z ! re/ ( ! species4 ,%e seem$ n con/ruct$ to endure ! %ocks ( ! _w1 & ! rude assaults ( ill hum\r or neglect1 ( c5sure or adv]sity4 ,h] voice 0 ( ! sweete/1 ! cle>e/ & s(te/ tone ,i ev] he>d4 ,!re 0 a peculi> navet 9 h] acc5ts1 t rivet$ y\r s\l 9 irresi/ible fett]s4 ,h] conv]sation1 = 9 ! sequel ,i enjoy$ mu* ( h] conv]sation1 _h a v uncommon ze/4 ,%e seem$ to h no art1 & :at %e utt]$ appe>$ z if :olly un*eck$ by consid]ation or res]ve4 ,y 7 p]suad$ t %e always deliv]$ )\t re/ra9t ! fir/ ?+ t occurr$ to h] m9d2 yet 9 :at %e said !re 0 s mu* good s5se1 s mu* true feel+1 &1 z ! occasion all[$1 s mu* :im & imag9ation1 t y c\ld n discov] h[ any ( h] words c\ld be *ang$ b = a worse4 ,?is circum/ance /rik+ly contra/$ ) ! *ildi% simplicity1 or r ! fem99e s(tness & sylph-l delicacy1 ( h] mann] & h] tone4 ,! opposition ( appe>ance betwe5 h] & my son made a /rong impression ^u me4 ,he 0 a p]fect soldi]1 ) an ample *e/1 broad %\ld]s1 & a figure1 ?\gh graceful & well proportion$1 yet s /rong1 t x seem$ fram$ to cont5d ) & to conqu] ! wre/l]s 9 ! ,grecian games4 ,8 complexion1 %ad$ ) luxuriant curls ( manly hair1 0 itself made br[n ) ! rig\rs ( climate4 ,p&ora 0 s heav5ly fair1 s sweetly delicate & sl5d]1 t y w\ld h ?\ght %e w\ld be )]$ & de/roy$ 9 8 embrace1 l ! fraile/ ornam5t ( ! g>d5 be=e ! nor!rn breeze4 ,b c\rage to *oose :at is rugg$ & manlike is (t5 *>act]i/ic ( ! s(te/ ( h] sex4 ,i spe$ily contract$ an intimate comm]ce ) ! beautiful ,p&ora4 ,i 0 naturally desir\s to be z consummate a judge z possible ( ^? p]fections1 :i* ,i believ$ fat$ to det]m9e ! future happ9ess ( my son4 ,:5 suffici5tly satisfi$ 9 t respect1 ,i /ill cont9u$ ! indulg5ce1 & f\nd a pure & exquisite pleasure 9 ! daily contemplation ( accompli%m5ts t 7 to prove ! mat]ials ( 8 gratification & delight1 ^: gratification ,i pref]r$ to my own4 ,i _h a /ill fur!r view 9 ?is comm]ce4 ,i 0 anxi\s to be p]fectly in=m$ ( ! connections & family ( ,p&ora1 t ^u !m ,i might build a project ,i _h deeply at he>t1 ( be/[+ on h]1 9 ! lea/ que/ionable & exceptionable mann]1 a d[ry1 t %\ld place h] ^u an equality ) h] c\s9s1 ! daught]s ( ,nada/i1 & deliv] my son f all appreh5sion ( ! unpleas+ consequ5ces to result f ! res5tm5t ( ! great palat9e4 ,nada/i 0 opul5t1 & ! portions ( 8 daught]s v consid]able2 &1 h[ev] incl9$1 ,i c\ld n exce$ ?is limit )\t risk+ ! entire misc>riage ( my project4 ,*>les ?\ght no?+ too ri* ei!r 9 situation or income to d hon\r to ! mi/ress ( 8 s\l2 b1 sep>ately f ?is en?usia/ic s5tim5t1 bo? he & ,p&ora _h too j a ta/e1 n to pref] ! simple maje/y ( anci5t nobility1 to ! exp5sive o/5tations ( mod]n ref9em5t4 ,hav+ dige/$ my plan ,i 0 oblig$ to travel z f> z ,v5ice = ! execution ( x4 ,! "m ( ,p&ora _h be5 a ,v5etian1 & ! uncle ( h] "m 0 "o ( ! adv5tur]s :o _h sail$ ) ,piz>ro = ! conque/ ( ,p]u4 ,he _h di$ be=e ! completion ( t bus9ess1 & _h left beh9d him no relative s ne> to him 9 blood z ! lovely ,p&ora4 ,by a s+ul> piece ( good =tune1 ,i enc\nt]$ at ,v5ice an individual :o _h sail$ 9 ! same %ip ) ! "y lady's uncle4 ,! uncle hav+ di$ prematurely1 ! %>e he might o!rwise h obta9$ ( ! spoils ( ,p]u 0 sunk 9 ! %>es ( ! re/1 & no?+ 0 all[$ to rema9 t might h desc5d$ to 8 heirs4 ,8 fri5d & c\ntryman ,i f\nd1 ?\gh once ri* ) ! booty he made1 _h by a s]ies ( calamities1 be=e he rea*$ 8 native home1 be5 r$uc$ to a /ate ( pov]ty4 ,! vicissitudes he exp]i5c$1 _h produc$ 9 him ! effect ( a v uncommon eag]ness = acquisition4 ,?is man ,i fix$ on = my in/rum5t2 ,i op5$ to him my plan1 & (f]$ him a v ample gratification1 provid$ he act$ successfully ! "p ,i assign$ him4 ,9 conc]t ) ea* o!r we dige/$ & =g$ ! v>i\s docum5ts t 7 be/ calculat$ to give cr$ibility to ! tale4 ,hav+ complet$ our arrangem5t1 ,i set out = ,presburg )\t a mom5t's delay1 & direct$ my ,v5etian n to foll[ till aft] a /ipulat$ int]val4 ,he 0 n to ent] into full possession ( 8 rew>d till he _h complet$ ! task he _h und]tak54 ,x 0 fix$ t no p]son 9 ,hung>y %\ld be acqua9t$ ) my visit to ,v5ice1 b only be all[$ to und]/& g5]ally1 t ,i _h be5 engag$ = a c]ta9 "t 9 an excursion ( amusem5t4 ,s h>d is ! fate ( ! possessor ( ! philosoph]'s /one1 & s limit$ 8 p[]1 z to h r5d]$ all ^! precautions on my "p indisp5sably necess>y4 ,_h n ! v>i\s circum/ances concurr$1 ! detail ( :i* is "h /at$1 ! bir? ( ,p&ora's "m 9 a m>itime /ate1 ! exp$ition ( ,piz>ro to ,p]u1 h] uncle's engag+ 9 ?is exp$ition & dy+ be=e x 0 complet$1 & my own casual r5c\nt] ) 8 compagnon du voyage1 my project w\ld too probably h be5 baffl$4 ,a direct gift ( ! =tune ,i design$ w\ld nev] h be5 admitt$ (2 &1 _h n ! co9cid5ce be5 em95tly fav\rable1 ev5 ?\gh ,i %\ld h succe$$ 9 mislead+ e o!r p>ty1 ,i c\ld n hope to h elud$ ! p]spicacity & jeal\s hon\r ( my son4 ,:5 ,i return$ to ,presburg1 ,i aga9 r5ew$ my int]c\rse ) ,p&ora4 ,! passion ent]ta9$ by ,damville = ! beautiful orphan 0 a secret to e p]son at c\rt2 !y _h manag$ s discreetly z to h avoid$ e h9t ( suspicion2 &1 z x 0 univ]sally kn[n t ! great palat9e _h an eye on ?is gallant soldi] = "o ( 8 daught]s1 few p]sons ent]ta9$ a d\bt t my son w\ld spe$ily decl>e 8 election among ! co-heiresses ( ,nada/i4 ,on ! o!r h&1 9 ! fri5dly int]c\rse betwe5 me & ,p&ora1 nei!r %e nor myself felt t !re 0 any ?+ to conceal1 & x 0 !re=e a matt] ( complete notoriety4 ,my bloom+ y\? ( appe>ance 0 rem>k$2 by ! majority ( by/&]s we 7 judg$ =m$ = ea* o!r2 &1 be=e ,i 0 aw>e1 ! beautiful ,hung>ian 0 aw>d$ to me by ! g5]al voice z my de/9$ bride4 ,:5 h[ev] ,i became acqua9t$ ) ! rum\r1 ,i 0 cont5t$ to smile at x2 ! consci\sness 9 my own brea/ h[ f> ! public sagacity _h w&]$ 9 its guess1 gave to t guess1 9 my appreh5sion1 a c]ta9 air ( :imsical & amus+4 ,,*apt] ,,xlvi4 ,su* 0 ! situation ( ! affair ( ,p&ora1 & ,i daily look$ = ! arrival ( my ,v5etian conf$]ate1 :5 sudd5ly ,i rem>k$ an alt]ation 9 ! c>riage ( my beautiful ally4 ,%e _h hi!rto1 on all occasions1 s\ght my conv]sation2 %e n[ appe>$ s$ul\sly to avoid me4 ,h] mann] _h be5 *>act]is$ by ! gaiety1 ! sprightl9ess & g5]al good hum\r1 incid5t to h] age1 & cong5ial to h] disposition4 ,%e 0 n[ melan*oly4 ,h] melan*oly assum$ a tone correspond5t to ! habits ( h] m9d1 & 0 peculi> & individual4 ,x _h an +5u\s & def5celess air1 inexpressibly calculat$ to excite int]e/4 ,x seem$ to ask1 :at h ,i done to des]ve to be melan*oly8 ,y felt = h]1 z = a spotless lily depress$ by ! unpity+ /orm4 ,y saw1 t ^? en*ant+ features 7 nev] made = a face ( sorr[1 & t t bewit*+ voice ought nev] to h be5 modulat$ into an expression ( heav9ess4 ,i 0 9 ! highe/ degree anxi\s to le>n ! cause ( ?is revolution1 & 0 ! f>!/ 9 ! _w f suspect+ its real f\ndation4 ,i pursu$ ,p&ora ) s mu* importunity1 & dem&$ an int]view ) su* irresi/ible e>ne/ness1 t %e at l5g? cons5t$ to grant x4 ,we met 9 a remote "p ( ! g>d54 8,:y1 ,h5ry10 said %e1 8d y ?us p]secute me8 ,y are my evil g5ius1 ! cause ( ! greate/ calamity t c\ld ev] h ov]tak5 me40 ,i />t$4 8,= heav5's sake1 beautiful ,p&ora1 :at d y mean80 8,i love ! *evali] de ,damville4 ,i h lov$ him long2 he is de>] to me ?an life2 & he has ca/ me (f = ev]60 8,& am ,i ! cause80 8,yes1 y1 & y alone4 ,i _h = "s "t obs]v$ a *ange 9 8 behavi\r1 t he 0 uncommonly grave1 s]i\s1 & res]v$4 ,i endeav\r$ to soo! him2 ,i r$\bl$ my bl&i%m5ts 9 our next season ( unres]v$ disc\rse2 ,i t5d]ly enquir$ into ! s\rce ( 8 grief4 8,= a long "t he resi/$ my importunity4 ,at l5g?1 #8,fai?less girl1' said he1 #8h y ! cruelty to ask ! mean+ ( my depression8 ,?is is ! extremity ( insult4 ,is x n en\gh t ,i "k y\r incon/ancy8 ,is x n en\gh t ,i h f\nd y1 l ! re/ ( y\r frivol\s sex1 ! m]e slave ( y\r s5se ( sight1 reg>dless ( v[s1 reg>dless ( an affection :i* despis$ all int]e/s b t ( t5d]ness & love1 caught by ! fir/ appe>ance ( some?+ y\ng]1 s(t]1 & m c\rtly1 ?an ,i pret5d or desire to be8 ,w no?+ satisfy y b ! confession ( my unhapp9ess f my own m\?8 ,d y require expo/ulation1 intreaty1 & despair1 f y\r disc>d$ lov]1 to fill up ! measure ( y\r triumph8' 8,= a long "t ,i 0 totally at a loss to appreh5d my de> *evali]'s mean+4 8#8,no1' cont9u$ he1 #8,i am n jeal\s4 ,!re is no temp] ,i hold 9 su* sov]eign contempt z jeal\sy4 ,i am n ( a disposition easily to conceive umbrage1 or lightly to d\bt ! prote/ations ( ! woman ,i adore4 ,i h be5 bl9d too long4 ,b ,i see t y are et]nally toge!r4 ,i see t y take advantage ( ! di/ance at :i* ! despotic temp] ( ,nada/i keeps u f ea* o!r1 to give all y\r "t to my fav\r$ rival4 ,y seem nev] to be happy out ( 8 society4 ,i 0 fir/ l$ to ?r[ (f ! dulness ( my unsuspect+ security1 by ! g5]al voice ( ! public4 ,! :ole c\rt gives y to ea* o!r4 ,n a creature x holds1 b has disc]n$ t passion1 :i* y h ! insol5ce to expect to conceal f me4 ,s9ce ,i h be5 awak5$ f my security1 ,i h se5 x a ?\s& times4 ,i h se5 y\r eyes seek & enc\nt] ea* o!r4 ,i h se5 !m sudd5ly light$ up by y\r int]*ang+ glances4 ,i h se5 ! signs ( y\r mutual intellig5ce4 ,i h se5 ) :at impati5ce1 ! mom5t y c\ld escape f ! cr[d$ circle1 y h jo9$ ea* o!r1 & retir$ toge!r4 ,ung5]\s ,p&ora6 8#8,b d n imag9e ,i w ent] ! li/s ) ! gaudy butt]fly :o has n[ attract$ y\r fav\r4 ,i h told y already t ,i am n =m$ = jeal\sy4 ,i am n ! sort ( man y h suppos$ me to be4 ,i h lov$ y mu*2 ,i h lov$ y long4 ,b ,i w\ld te> out my he>t f my manly brea/1 if ,i believ$ x yet reta9$ an atom ( passion = y4 ,i "k :at x 0 ,i lov$2 ,i lov$ a "* ( frankness1 ( +5u\sness1 ( simplicity1 :i* ,i fondly imag9$ 0 y\rs1 b :i* ,i n[ f9d 0 ! creature ( my own fancy4 ,! ,p&ora t /&s be=e me2 ! *ild ( art2 ! base wret* t c\ld take advantage ( my =be>ance 9 reg>d to h] uncle1 :i* 0 adopt$ purely out ( love to h]2 ! unfeel+ coquette t w\ld wi% to reta9 me 9 h] *a9s :5 %e _h disc>d$ me f h] affections2 ?is creature ,i nev] did love1 & ,i nev] w4 ,i "k h[ deeply root$ ! habit has be5 9 my bosom ( reg>d+ y z ! ?+ y are n2 ,i "k h[ bitt] x is to a temp] l m9e to detect s unlook$-= a delusion2 ,i "k :at x w co/ me to ca/ y (f = ev]4 ,b ,i nev] yet propos$ to myself a conque/ ov] my own weakness t ,i did n ga91 nor w ,i n[4 ,if y 7 to disc>d ?is wret*$ ,d',aubigny to-morr[1 if y 7 conv9c$ ( & contrite = y\r error1 ,i mu/ +5u\sly tell y1 no "t1 no p5it5ce c\ld re/ore y to my admiration4 ,i _h set up an imag9>y idol 9 my bosom2 b y h conv9c$ me ( its brittl5ess1 & da%$ x to pieces4' 8,i endeav\r$10 cont9u$ ,p&ora1 8by e imag9able prote/ation to conv9ce my late fai?ful lov] ( 8 mi/ake4 ,b x 0 to no purpose2 all ,i c\ld say only t5d$ to swell ! tide ( 8 fe>ful res5tm5t40 8#8,be sil5t1' cri$ he3 #8add no fur!r to ! catalogue ( y\r wanton & causeless delusions4 ,d n make me hate too mu* :at ,i once s bl9dly & ard5tly ador$4 ,i feel t ,i h an enemy )9 me1 t w\ld fa9 co-op]ate ) y\r deceptions & hypocrisy4 ,i f9d t man1 trea*]\s to himself1 is =m$ by nature to be ! fool ( y\r artful sex4 ,b ,i w subdue ?is prop5sity 9 me1 ?\gh ,i die = x4 ,i may be wret*$2 b ,i w n despise myself4 ,h ,i n se5 y\r falsehood8 ,h n all my s5ses be5 witnesses ( y\r guilt8 ,! miracle is t ,i c\ld h be5 dup$ s long4 ,i h he>d ?is /ripl+ lov] ( y\rs inexhau/ible 9 y\r praises1 & dwell+ ^u !m ) an ard\r t no?+ b passion c\ld h inspir$4 ,i h se51 z ,i h already told y1 ! intellig5ce ( y\r eyes4 ,i h se5 ^? melt+ glances1 ,i h he>d ^? t5d] & famili> tones betwe5 y1 t bespoke ! mo/ p]fect confid5ce & ! mo/ entire m+l+ ( he>t4 ,if ,i did n believe ?is1 ,i %\ld believe worse ( y4 ,i %\ld ?9k y\r he>t n m]ely caprici\s1 b an absolute pro/itute2 prep>$ to be/[ ^u hundr$s ^? sweet1 ^? nameless t5d]nesses ( acc5t & c\nt5ance1 :i* ,i fondly imag9$ 7 res]v$ = me alone4 ,i %\ld reg>d y z ! wor/ & mo/ p]nici\s acquisition t c\ld fall to ! lot ( a man4 #8,g1 ,p&ora1' add$ he3 #8my he>t is *a/e2 my s\l is firm4 ,i c no long] be deceiv$ by y2 ,i w n dispute y\r *>ms ) ! idle boy y h n[ ?\ght prop] to fav\r4' ,&1 say+ ?us1 he bur/ f me 9 an agony ( impati5ce4 8,alas60 cont9u$ ! sweet & +5u\s ,p&ora1 8my de> ,h5ry1 :at %all ,i d8 ,h[ %all ,i remove ! unreasonable imag9ations ( ?is noble m9d8 ,be> me witness1 ,heav56 no?+ c\ld be m innoc5t ?an ! correspond5ce ,i all[$ myself to hold ) y4 ,my adorable ,*>les 0 cont9ually call+ y bro!r2 ,i sc>cely ev] he>d him speak ( y by any o!r appellation4 ,i reg>d$ ,*>les z my husb&2 ,i already view$ y 9 anticipation z ! bro!r ( my "l4 ,exclud$ z ,i 0 f frequ5t conv]sation ) him :om ,i mo/ lov$1 ,i endeav\r$ to supply ! defici5cy by an unres]v$ communication ) y4 ,! extreme resemblance ( y\r p]sons increas$ my gratification4 ,y 7 8 picture1 8 speak+ image4 ,:ile ,i look$ at y1 ,i said1 #8,su* once 0 my ,*>les1 be=e he 0 ! great man1 ! gallant soldi]1 ! accompli%$ cavali]1 ! ador$ object1 t n[ engrosses my affections4' ,beside1 ,i knew t ,*>les lov$ y z mu* z he did any man on e>?1 & t k made y de> to me4 ,y 7 con/antly eag] to dwell ^u & describe 8 excell5ces2 c\ld ,i fail to be pleas$ ) y\r conv]sation8 ,i own t ! pleasure ,i took 9 x 0 unb\nd$1 & ! emotions x awak5$ 9 my affectionate he>t delici\s4 ,b all ?is1 c&idly expla9$1 0 only an additional pro( ( ! t5d]ness & con/ancy ( my e>lie/ atta*m5t4 8,& n[1 ev] s9ce ! fatal day 9 :i* ?is conv]sation pass$ ) my ,*>les1 he is abs5t f c\rt1 & ,i "k n :i!r he is gone4 ,he has disda9$ to seek any fur!r explanation1 nor d ,i "k h[ to appeal to 8 calm] feel+s & m delib]ate m9d4 ,"o ?+ h[ev] ,i _h det]m9$ on1 & t 01 ,h5ry1 /rictly to avoid y\r society4 8,i tru/1 :]ev] my ,*>les is1 he w he> ( ?is4 ,i owe ?is expiation to 8 agonis$ feel+s1 & to ! appe>ances t 9 "s degree ju/ify 8 miscon/ruction4 ,i w wait pati5tly1 till ! simplicity & s+l5ess ( my conduct h cle>$ my fai?4 ,if ,i %\ld o!rwise h f\nd pleasure & relief 9 y\r society1 ,i w make a m]it ) myself ( sacrific+ ?is to ! appreh5sive delicacy ( my ,*>les's m9d4 ,9 ?is s+le in/ance y\r importunity has prevail$ ) me to disp5se ) my rule3 y 7 n to blame1 & ,i ?\ght ^u m mature reflection t ,i ow$ y an explanation4 ,b h5ce=?1 if y h any k9dness = me1 or value = him :o has act$ & felt t[>ds y l a bro!r1 ,i mu/ entreat y to co-op]ate ) me 9 ?is1 & t1 :e!r 9 public or private1 we may be/[ no notice on ea* o!r1 & avoid all opportunities ( communication4 ,to p]suade y to ?is1 0 inde$ a pr9cipal inducem5t ) me s f> to deviate f ! rule ,i _h laid d[n to myself1 z to admit ?is conv]sation40 ,i 0 extremely affect$ ) ! unhapp9ess ( ,p&ora4 ,i ex]t$ myself to console h]4 ,i promis$ t no?+ on my "p %\ld be want+ to remove e %ad[ ( d\bt t hung ^u h] fidelity1 & ,i exhort$ h] to believe t e ?+ w\ld infallibly t]m9ate 9 ! way mo/ hon\rable & gratify+ to h]self4 ,p&ora li/5$ to me1 & dri$ h] te>s4 ,! conv]sation 0 int]e/+ & soo?+ to u bo?2 we reg>d$ x z ! la/ unres]v$ & sympa!tic communication we %\ld ev] h ) ea* o!r2 x ins5sibly grew long] & long]1 & we knew n h[ to put an end to x4 ,we 7 /ill 9 ?is /ate ( irresolution :51 look+ up1 ,i p]ceiv$ ,*>les de ,damville approa*+ f ! fur!r end ( ! walk t l$ to ! alcove4 ,i w\ld h )drawn4 ,i 0 anxi\s to remove ! unju/ suspicion t hung ^u 8 m9d2 b ! in/ant t pres5t$ to him s /rong an app>5t confirmation ( !m1 ! in/ant t by s do+ mu/ h work$ up 8 s\l into tumult1 did n appe> a fav\rable "o = explanation4 ,to )draw 0 impossible4 ,p&ora _h disc]n$ h] lov] at ! same mom5t ) myself4 ,%e 0 seiz$ ) a fa9tness4 ,%e w\ld h sunk to ! gr\nd2 b ,i caught h] 9 my arms4 ,i re/$ ) "o knee on ! e>?2 h] head 0 recl9$ on my bosom4 ,*>les approa*$ ) a quick] pace4 8,rise10 said he4 8,?is is beyond my hopes4 ,i left ,presburg ) ! purpose ( n revisit+ x = ye>s2 b1 z ,i proce$$ fur!r & fur!r f a place :i* _h lately be5 ! c5tre ( my affections1 ,i began to d\bt :e!r ,i _h n act$ ) precipitation1 & to believe t !re 0 yet "s unc]ta9ty hang+ on my fate4 ,! seem+ly e>ne/ prote/ations ( ?is delusive syr5 rung 9 my e>s2 me*anically1 )\t any =m$ resolution1 ,i *ang$ my c\rse1 & return$ on my /eps4 ,my d\bts are n[ at an end4 ,i f9d y tak+ in/ant advantage ( my abs5ce to ?r[ y\rselves into ea* o!r's arms4 ,! feel+s ,i s lately utt]$ 9 y\r pres5ce1 ,p&ora1 w\ld h kept y ap>t1 if my feel+s _h be5 9 ! lea/ sacr$ 9 y\r eyes1 if all my surmises _h n be5 too true40--,he took by ! h& ! weep+ ,p&ora1 & l$ h] to ! seat :i* a little be=e %e _h quitt$4 8,:y all ?is artifice8 ,:y all ?is deceit8 ,x is said t we are n ma/]s ( our own he>ts1 & t no human passion is =m$ to endure = ev]4 ,influ5c$ by ^! maxims1 ,i c\ld h p>don$ y\r incon/ancy1 too fair1 too fickle ,p&ora6 b :y /ra9 e n]ve1 to make me believe y /ill reta9$ a passion y _h disc>d$1 to subject me to ! l+]+ torture ( deceit1 in/ead ( communicat+ to me a tru?1 agonis+ inde$ to human frailty1 b calculat$ to inspire =titude & decision8 ,?is ,i _c excuse3 ?is racks me ) ! bitt]e/ ( disappo9tm5ts1 disappo9tm5t 9 ! virtues ,i _h ascrib$ to y2 & conv9ces me1 t y are nei!r wor?y ( me1 nor wor?y ( happ9ess4 8,& y too1 ,d',aubigny1 y h act$ a "p 9 ?is unwor?y plot1 ,i rescu$ y f prison1 f a dungeon f :i*1 a few h\rs be=e1 y _h no hope ( com+ =? alive4 ,i took y "u my protection1 :5 y _h no fri5d2 ,i plac$ y next myself2 ,i conceiv$ = y ! affection ( a bro!r2 ,i lov$ y1 next 9 degree to ! mi/ress ( my s\l4 ,9 return = all t ,i h done1 & all t ,i felt = y1 y h ) insidi\s he>t & e base disguise1 s$uc$ f me ! woman ( my *oice4 ,:y n frankly & +5u\sly h dem&$ h] at my h&s8 ,! he>t is free2 y\r reciprocal passion1 ?\gh ,i might h regrett$ x1 ,i %\ld h be5 unable to blame2 x is ! cloak t y h drawn ov] x1 t proves ! bas5ess ( its orig94 ,d y ?9k ,i _h n ! c\rage *e]fully & )\t a murmur to resign to y ?is illu/ri\s fair "o8 ,i feel t ,i 0 wor?y to be op5ly treat$4 ,_h ,i se5 9 y a mutual & +5u\s passion1 ,i w\ld n h be5 ! b> to its j consummation4 ,i w\ld n h s\ght ! p]son ( a woman1 ^: he>t1 9 spite p]haps ( h] bett] resolutions1 0 giv5 to ano!r4 ,i %\ld loa! myself = ev]1 7 ,i capable ( su* a "p4 ,x 0 ! sympa!tic s5tim5t t[>ds me1 beat+ 9 accord to ! s5tim5t ( my own bosom1 t ,i once saw 9 ,p&ora1 & n ei!r h] pe]less beauties1 or ! excell5ces ,i imput$ to h] m9d1 t =m$ ! ma/]-*>m :i* fasc9at$ my s\l4 ,i feel t ,i _h ! =ce1 9 ! negation ( my own happ9ess1 to h drawn com=t & comp5sation f ! happ9ess ( two creatures ,i s de>ly lov$1 z ,d',aubigny & ,p&ora4 8,b ?is alleviation 9 ! mid/ ( :at y h condemn$ me to suff]1 y h ung5]\sly d5i$ me40---- ,i s\ght to int]rupt my son4 ,i c\ld no long] be> to see him involv$ 9 s pa9ful an error1 & n ex]t e n]ve to rescue him f x4 ,b 8 passions 7 wr\ght high] ?an m9e3 he w\ld n suff] me to speak4 8,be sil5t1 ,d',aubigny6 ,i _c brook to be int]rupt$ n[4 ,my he>t is full2 & ,i mu/ h leave to utt] ! s5tim5ts t agitate & di/5d x40 ,he advanc$ t[>ds ,p&ora4 ,he took hold ( h] h&4 8,rise1 madam4 ,i %all n long tr\ble y ) ! boi/]\s impetu\sness ( my passions4 ,d n resi/ me n[60 ,%e rose1 & foll[$ him2 h] face /ill cov]$ ) h] h&k]*ief1 & dr[n$ 9 te>s4 ,he l$ h] to ! front ( ! alcove3 he motion$ me to approa*2 ) 8 o!r h& he took hold ( m9e4 ,he seem$ to lift ,p&ora's h& to 8 lips1 z if to kiss x2 ) a sudd5 />t he put x d[n aga92 he held x bel[ ! level ( 8 brea/4 ,dur+ ?is sc5e1 ,p&ora & myself 7 spee*less4 ,mo/ wom51 9 ! situation ( ,p&ora1 w\ld1 ,i suppose1 h spok51 & h be5 eag] to v9dicate !mselves f s gr\ndless an imputation4 ,b :at %e did 0 peculi> to ! delicacy & def5celessness ( h] p]sonal "*4 ,%e 0 ov]:elm$1 & incapable ( ef=t4 ,= my own "p1 my feel+s 7 uncommonly complicat$4 ,my app>5t situation 0 a pla9 "o1 ! situation ( a y\? mi/ak5 by 8 fri5d = ! s$uc] ( ! mi/ress ( t fri5d2 & _h my feel+s be5 m]ely relative to ?is situation1 ,i c\ld und\bt$ly h spok5 )\t emb>rassm5t4 ,b ) ?is 7 involv$ ! s5tim5ts orig9at+ 9 my secret "*1 ! s5tim5ts ( a man anxi\s to b5efit1 & :o _h devot$ himself to ! int]e/s ( ano!r2 ( a fa!r trembl+ly alive to ! happ9ess ( 8 son1 & eag] to dive into 8 s\l1 t he might ! m s5sibly admire 8 virtues1 & ) a m enlight5$ skill secure 8 =tune4 ,i 0 sil5t3 ,*>les de ,damville proce$$3-- 8,?us10 said he1 8,i jo9 y\r h&s2 ?us ,i )draw all my claims ^u ,p&ora2 ?us ,i remove e imp$im5t to y\r wi%es4 ,?is1 ,p&ora1--?is1 ,d',aubigny1 ,i 0 capable (1 if y _h treat$ me hon\rably1 & av[$ an hone/ passion4 ,y d n "k ,*>les de ,damville4 ,y h treat$ me1 z none b ! mo/ grovel+ s\l c\ld des]ve to be treat$4 ,_h y be5 +5u\s1 ,i %\ld h a consolation 9 :at ,i am do+1 t n[ ,i _c h4 ,i c no long] p]suade myself t ,i am jo9+ two wor?y he>ts to ea* o!r4 ,i c no long] relieve ! bitt]ness ( my own disappo9tm5t1 by ! image ( y\r future felicity4 ,may ,i be mi/ak56 ,may y be truly happy 9 ea* o!r6 ,y _c be happy beyond ! wi%es =m$ 9 y\r fav\r1 by him :o w rememb]1 to ! late/ h\r ( 8 exi/5ce1 h[ mu* 8 he>t 0 devot$ to y bo?40 ,say+ ?is1 he bur/ away f u abruptly1 & disappe>$4 ,at fir/1 z ,i li/5$ to ! h]oic language ( my son1 ,i ask$ myself :e!r x 7 ! expression ( a w>m he>t or a cold "o4 ,x co/s no?+ to a cold he>t to ape ! language ( h]oism1 & to pret5d to make ! greate/ sacrifices1 :5 its con/itution has r5d]$ all ef=t unnecess>y to ! feat4 ,b ,i look$ 9 ! face ( ,*>les1 & =got my d\bts4 ,8 voice he _h inde$ w\nd up to ! tone ( 8 spee*2 x 0 a little tremul\s1 b 9 ! ma9 firm1 s]i\s1 delib]ate1 & elevat$4 ,b 8 c\nt5ance 0 ! picture ( di/ress4 ,!re sat en?ron$1 defy+ all bani%m5t & disguise1 ! angui% ( 8 s\l4 ,8 eye 0 hagg>d2 8 complexion 0 col\rless & wan4 ,he _h be5 abs5t sev]al days f ,presburg2 8 appe>ance told me t he c\ld sc>cely ei!r h eat5 or slept dur+ ! p]iod ( 8 abs5ce4 ,he might talk ( ! g5]osity ) :i* he c\ld resign ,p&ora2 ,i read 9 8 face :at t resignation _h co/1 & w\ld g on to co/ him4 ,+5u\s1 noble-he>t$ ,*>les6 ,i d\bt$ :e!r1 b = a rev]se ( ! ev5ts he appreh5d$1 he w\ld be able to survive x4 ,he _h no soon] left u1 ?an ,i appli$ myself to com=t ,p&ora4 ,i swore to h] t1 9 spite ( e tempor>y cl\d1 ,i w\ld yet witness ! union ( h] & h] ador$ *evali]4 ,i assur$ h] t ,i w\ld n re/1 till ,i _h =c$ ,damville to he> me1 & compell$ him to cr$it ! s9c]ity ( my tale4 ,h[ _m ?+s 7 !re1 t1 9 ! sc5e :i* _h j pass$1 ,i might h urg$ 9 answ] to ,damville1 b respect+ :i* my situation impos$ ^u me ! mo/ rigor\s sil5ce6 ,i might h said1 8,y call y\rself my protector1 my b5efactor1 my patron2 ! real relation betwe5 u is ! rev]se ( ! picture y h drawn4 ,i want n y\r protection2 ,i am qualifi$1 if ,i please1 to be a patron to all ! _w4 ,i am m$itat+ ! mo/ g5]\s ?+s 9 y\r behalf3 ?is p]fidi\s fri5d1 z y deem him1 has devot$ all 8 ?\ghts1 & po/pon$ all 8 gratifications1 t he might prove himself sub/antially & 9 ! mo/ important p>ticul>s y\r fri5d40 ,m ?an ?is ,i might h said4 ,i might h said1 8,i am y\r fa!r4 ,i h no incl9ations1 no passions contrav5+ y\r gratification4 ,i love y ) m ?an a fa!r's love2 ,i transf] to y all ! affection ,i ent]ta9$ = y\r pe]less1 murd]$ "m6 ,all my /udy is y\r happ9ess4 ,y are to me ! :ole _w1 & m ?an ! :ole _w4 ,ext5sive & s+ul> z are my pr]ogatives1 ,i fold !m up2 ,i =get !m all2 & ?9k ( y alone40 ,i _c give a /rong] pro( ?an is conta9$ 9 :at ,i h "h /at$1 ( ! mis]y ( my condition4 ,i 0 *eat$1 z ,i h once be=e rem>k$1 ) ! =m ( a man1 b _h no?+ ( ! sub/ance4 ,i 0 end[$ ) ! faculty ( spee*1 b 0 cut (f f its prop] & g5u9e use4 ,i 0 utt]ly alone 9 ! _w1 sep>at$ by an insurm\ntable b>ri] f e be+ ( my species4 ,no man c\ld und]/& me2 no man c\ld sympa?ise ) me2 no man c\ld =m ! remote/ guess at :at 0 pass+ 9 my brea/4 ,i _h ! use ( words2 ,i c\ld address my fell[-be+s2 ,i c\ld ent] into dialogue ) !m4 ,i c\ld disc\rse ( e indiff]5t ?+ t ! univ]se conta9$2 ,i c\ld talk ( e ?+ b my own feel+s4 ,?is1 & n ! dungeon ( ,be?lem ,gabor1 is ! true solitude4 ,let no man1 aft] me1 pant = ! acquisition ( ! philosoph]'s /one6 ,*>les de ,damville _h aga9 left ,presburg1 ! v in/ant he quitt$ ! alcove4 ,:5 ,i inquir$ = him 9 ! palace1 ,i receiv$ ?is afflict+ intellig5ce4 ,i did n hesitate a mom5t 9 resolv+ t ,i w\ld pursue 8 /eps4 ,x 0 ( ! utmo/ consequ5ce t ,i %\ld ov]take him2 all t 0 mo/ int]e/+ to me hung ^u our int]view4 ,! prep>ations h[ev] ( my j\rney1 ?\gh foll[$ ) ard\r1 inevitably r$uc$ me to ! be+ "s h\rs 9 ! re> ( my son4 ,i 0 cont9ually 9 8 track1 b c\ld n come up ) him3 to judge f ev5ts1 y w\ld h suppos$ t he _h z /rong a motive to fly1 z ,i _h to pursue4 ,he l$ me along ! c\rse ( ! ,danube1 to ! s\rce ( t f>-fam$ & munific5t riv]4 ,i rea*$ ! passage ( ! ,rh9e1 & 0 on ! po9t ( cross+ into ,alsace4 ,b "h ,i lo/ all notice ( ,*>les2 no enquiry ,i c\ld make 0 effectual to procure me ! slighte/ intellig5ce4 ,he _h n cross$ ! riv]2 he _h proce$$ nei!r to ! "r nor ! left along its banks4 ,i 0 disappo9t$1 mortifi$1 & di/ress$4 ,:at 0 ,i to d next8 ,c\ld ,i return to ,p&ora8 ,:at tale mu/ ,i relate to ?is adorable creature1 :om ,i _h urg$ to dep5d ^u my ex]tions8 ,c\ld ,i leave h] h[ev] to ! angui% & unc]ta9ty t mu/ foll[ ^u h] he>+ no m ei!r f h] lov] or myself8 ,i ?9k ,i nev] felt m truly depress$ ?an 9 ?is conjuncture4 ,mo/ amply1 mo/ critically did ! curse ( ! opus magnum att5d ^u my projects1 & r5d] all my ex]tions abortive4 ,x 0 ! same1 :e!r my plans 7 =m$ ^u a l>g] or a small] scale4 ,:5 ,i endeav\r$ to live 9 total obscurity 9 ,madrid1 :5 ,i und]took to be ! /ew>d & ! fa!r ( ! p ( ,hung>y1 & n[ t1 ) a *a/is$ ambition ,i s\ght1 :at is p]mitt$ to all o!r human creatures1 to provide = ! hon\rable settlem5t ( my only son1 /ill1 /ill my evil g5ius pursu$ me1 & bla/$ e conc]n 9 :i* ,i presum$ to int]f]e4 ,i _h intrud$ betwe5 two fai?ful lov]s3 un=tunate !y _h be5 inde$1 & consid]able ob/acles 7 int]pos$ to _! felicity2 b ob/acles are commonly f\nd to yield to firmness & con/ancy2 &1 )\t my fatal int]f]5ce1 ,*>les & ,p&ora w\ld "o day h be5 happy4 ,if by adv]se fates !y _h hi!rto be5 kept asund]1 /ill !y und]/ood ea* o!r1 & rejoic$ 9 _! mutual confid5ce & atta*m5t4 ,?is1 ! consolation ( all _! sorr[s & disappo9tm5ts1 x 0 m9e to h de/roy$4 ,! globe1 = aught ,i knew1 w\ld spe$ily be int]pos$ betwe5 !m1 & "h ,i /ood 9 ! middle po9t1 l "o ( ^? inv9cible repulsive p[]s hid 9 ! /oreh\se ( nature1 =bidd+ to !m all future retrogression to ea* o!r4 ,,*apt] ,,xlvii4 ,! picture :i* my di/ract$ fancy ?us set be=e ! eye ( my m9d1 0 n altoge!r v]ifi$ 9 ! ev5t4 ,aft] a ?\s& fruitless inquiries & p]quisitions1 ,i f\nd1 to my utt] a/oni%m5t1 t ,*>les1 arre/+ 8 c>e] at ! t[n ( ,frib\rg1 _h return$ ^u 8 /eps1 & s\ght a second "t ! metropolis ( ,au/rian ,hung>y4 ,?is 0 ( ! class ( ^? ev5ts :i* we sometimes meet ) 9 ! _w1 t baffle all calculation1 & /rike u l magic1 or l madness1 9 _! au?ors4 ,i _h no?+ to d1 z ,i conceiv$1 on ?is occasion1 b to foll[ ! example ( my son1 & l him to resume ! r\te ( ,presburg4 ,i yet hop$ to witness1 if n to co-op]ate 91 ! reconciliation ( ,*>les & ,p&ora4 ,my spirits 9 ?is respect 7 reviv$1 & my prospects made bright]1 by ! ?\ghts t ^! virtu\s & m]itori\s lov]s 7 at la/ likely to be once aga9 inclos$ )9 ! c9cture ( ! same city4 ,add to :i*1 my ,v5etian conf$]ate _h n yet made 8 appe>ance at ,presburg2 & n only 0 ,i "u engagem5ts to give him ! meet+ !re1 b x 0 also cle> t 8 err& c\ld n be br\ght to its prop] close )\t my assi/ance4 ,i once m ent]$ ! city to :i* ,p&ora ow$ h] bir?4 ,*>les de ,damville _h prec$$ my arrival sev]al days4 ,i %\ld )\t delay h repair$ to 8 ap>tm5ts1 b t ,i f\nd at my own lodg+s a lett] f ,b5$etto ,cabri]a ( ,v5ice1 in=m+ me t he 0 n[ 9 ,presburg1 & to avoid all cause = suspicion1 _h tak5 up 8 resid5ce 9 a remote qu>t] ( ! t[n4 ,f ! enquiries ,i made1 ,i became satisfi$ t my son _h 9 "s degree resum$ 8 usual occupations1 & t !re 0 no appe>ance ( 8 aga9 imm$iately quitt+ ! metropolis4 ,i !re=e felt my transaction ) ,cabri]a m urg5t ?an an imm$iate conf]5ce ) ,*>les4 ,?\gh ,i _h s\ght t conf]5ce ) e>ne/ exp$ition1 yet ,i dread$ x4 ,x might require ! mature/ consid]ation & ! nice/ managem5t1 to r5d] x effectual = ! purposes ,i s\ght4 ,i f\nd f c]ta9 intellig5ce t ,damville & ,p&ora _h yet _h no explanation ) ea* o!r4 ,i !re=e reg>d$ my ex]tions = t purpose z a f9al ef=t2 & ,i 0 will+ t e ?+ %\ld be 9 tra91 & ! portion ( ,p&ora fully adju/$1 be=e ,i ent]$ ^u t int]e/+ sc5e4 ,) ,cabri]a ,i _h little difficulty4 ,! docum5ts & evid5ces ( 8 tale we _h conc]t$ at ,v5ice2 & ,i pres5tly f\nd t he told 8 /ory s plausibly1 & support$ x s consi/5tly1 t x 0 admitt$ by e "o )\t ! smalle/ suspicion4 ,no soon] _h ,cabri]a op5$ 8 bus9ess to ! p>ties to :om ! cognisance ( x mo/ prop]ly belong$1 ?an ,i once m pres5t$ myself to ! beautiful & engag+ niece ( ,nada/i4 ,! in/ant ,i ent]$ h] ap>tm5t1 ,i 0 %ock$ ) ! extreme *ange ( h] p]sonal appe>ance4 ,all ! air9ess1 al]tness & vivacity1 t _h once s exquisitely adorn$ h]1 7 gone4 ,! roses 9 h] *eek 7 fad$1 & _h giv5 place to a delicate1 b sickly pal5ess4 ,h] arms1 ?\gh always :at is call$ :ite1 _h be=e be5 r\nd1 & _h be5 di/+ui%$ by ! pure/ hue ( heal?4 ,!y 7 n[ emaciat$1 sk9ny1 & col\rless4 ,h] eyes 7 holl[1 & h] eyelids inflam$ ) weep+4 ,all ^! *anges _h tak5 place 9 ab\t five weeks t _h elaps$ s9ce ,i saw h] la/4 ,i 0 s /ruck ) ! sight1 t ,i involunt>ily />t$1 & c\ld sc>cely comm& myself en\gh to refra9 f te>s4 ,x 0 pla9 t %e c>ri$ an arr[ 9 h] bosom1 :i* "o h& only 9 ! univ]se c\ld extract ) safety4 ,z ,i approa*$1 %e rais$ h] lovely head t _h be5 depress$ ) grief1 & lift$ h] :ite arms ) an expression ( despair4 8,come ne>]1 my sweet ,h5ry10 said %e1 8,i rejoice to see y2 ?\gh y h prov$ my wor/ enemy1 ! de/roy] ( my peace4 ,b y\r int5tions1 my k9d boy1 my bro!r1 = su* ,i w /ill call y1 h always be5 good & innoc5t4 ,b1 ah1 ,h5ry1 y h delud$ me2 y urg$ me to bani% despair2 & e day ,i see m reason to despair40 ,i ask$ if %e _h n se5 ! *evali] s9ce 8 return to ,presburg4 8,x 7 bett] = me10 repli$ ,p&ora1 8if ,i _h n se5 him4 ,:at has really happ5$1 is worse ?an if ,i _h be5 d5i$ to see him4 ,i h met him e day 9 ! ap>tm5ts ( my aunt4 ,to an indiff]5t eye x w\ld h appe>$ z if he nei!r s\ght nor avoid$ me4 ,he c>ries himself t[>ds me ) a cold & con/ra9$ civility4 ,b he nei!r dem&s an int]view1 nor all[s me ! opportunity to utt] a ^w to him 9 private4 ,oh1 ,d',aubigny1 ,i see too well t ,i h lo/ him = ev]4 ,:5 he fl$ my pres5ce1 :5 he resolv$ to seek "s di/ant region1 cruel z t conduct 01 x conv9c$ me t ,i 0 ( "s importance to him4 ,b n[ he passes by me 9 /]n neglect2 he has utt]ly driv5 me f 8 he>t4 ,inde$1 my bro!r1 ?is la/ bl[ is too mu*2 ,i feel t ,i %all nev] recov] x40 8,& does ! *evali]10 cri$ ,i1 8appe> at 8 ease8 ,does he exhibit ! wont$ symptoms ( 8 heal? & triumphant _s80 8,away2 too pleas+ delud]60 repli$ ,p&ora4 8,*eat me n ) false hopes6 flatt] me n ) unreal expectations6 ,damville does n appe> to be well or happy4 ,b y h deceiv$ me too mu*2 ! disappo9tm5ts t y prep>$ = me are too excruciat+4 ,i feel n[ at no "t s high a degree ( gloomy satisfaction & composure1 z :5 ,i press despair firmly to my brea/4 8,b y1 ,h5ry10 cont9u$ %e1 8are probably un9=m$ ( my la/ & sev]e/ mis=tune4 ,i _h a great uncle 9 ! li/ ( ! adv5tur]s t a*iev$ ! conque/ ( ,p]u2 he has di$1 & unexpect$ly bequea!d me a =tune1 t sets ! portionless ,p&ora ^u a level ) ! weal?y heiresses ( ! great palat9e himself4 ,= a long "t want ( =tune 0 ! only ob/acle t /ood betwe5 me & all my hopes ( happ9ess4 ,n[ t pov]ty is no long] an evil to me1 & weal? no long] desirable1 ,i h obta9$ ?is unwelcome acquisition4 ,y c h no conception h[ pa9ful a s5sation is produc$ by ?is mock]y1 ! gift ( ample possessions to ! vot>y ( despair40 ,i endeav\r$ some:at to enc\rage ,p&ora2 b %e ob/9ately reject$ my soo?+s4 ,i 0 ! less importunate on ?is subject1 z1 s9ce ! return ( my son1 ,i p]si/$ to p]suade myself t ,i %\ld soon h some?+ m sub/antial to (f] h] on 8 "p1 ?an m]e guesses & conjectures4 ,! day aft] ?is conv]sation1 ,i boldly s\ght ! pres5ce ( ! *evali]4 ,till !n1 ,i _h1 s9ce our return to ,presburg1 avoid$ to meet him4 ,i n[ resolv$ to =ce f him a he>+2 to assure him1 ) ! mo/ solemn assev]ations1 ( my own innoc5ce1 & ! con/ancy ( 8 mi/ress2 to repres5t to him 9 h[ em95t a degree ! newly acquir$ e/ate ( ,p&ora 0 calculat$ to facilitate _! mutual wi%es2 & f9ally1 to (f] him any pl$ge he %\ld desire ( ! s9c]ity ( my decl>ations1 ev5 to ! bani%+ myself f ! pres5ce & int]c\rse ( him & ! lovely ,p&ora = ev]4 ,:5 ,i saw my son1 8 appe>ance & air advanc$ a =cible claim on my compassion4 ,i w n n[ describe !m4 ,suffice x1 t !y completely prov$1 h[ true 0 ! sympa?y1 ev5 to ! m9ute/ p>ticul>s1 betwe5 him & 8 mi/ress4 ,! diff]5ce 0 only 9 k9d1 & n 9 degree3 h]s a def5celess1 a delicate & truly fem99e grief2 :ile 81 amid/ all its aggravations1 _h some?+ 9 x ( ! *ampion & ! h]o4 ,:5 he felt mo/ sev]ely1 he seem$ to disda9 himself = :at he felt2 &1 ?\gh 8 /ruggles 7 excruciat+1 he resolutely smoo!d 8 manly front1 & ! l(t9ess ( 8 _s produc$ on 8 *eek a g5]\s & a settl$ blu%4 ,i h j said t ,i _h resolv$ to =ce f him a he>+4 ,i 0 mi/ak5 9 my calculations on ?is po9t4 ,deject$ z 8 habits _h lately be51 he no soon] saw me1 ?an he advanc$ t[>ds me ) a fi]ce & imp]ative demean\r1 t absolutely />tl$ me4 8,h[ is x1 man60 cri$ he1 8t y are at ?is h\r out ( cu/ody80 8,cu/ody60 int]dict$ & a/oni%$1 repeat$ ,i4 8,yes1 cu/ody6 ,if su* a wret* z ?\ art1 be p]mitt$ to g at l>ge1 :at human in/itution1 :at human possessions1 %all ev] be secure80 8,good ,god10 said ,i1 8:at am ,i to und]/& by y\r pres5t rage8 ,i "k t y h consid]$ me z y\r p]sonal enemy & ! und]m9] ( y\r happ9ess4 ,b1 :5 fir/ y accus$ me ( ?is crime1 y treat$ me 9 a mann] less viol5t & disda9ful ?an t :i* y n[ employ40 8,i brook n to expla94 ,read t lett]4 ,i receiv$ x at ,frib\rg4 ,t lett] br\ght me back f ! conf9es ( ,france to ! spot :]e n[ we meet40 ,i took up ! lett]4 ,its cont5ts 7 ne>ly z foll[3-- ,,lett]4 8,my de> ,fri5d1--,y w p]mit me to call y s1 s9ce to me1 & me only1 y h rec5tly ?\ght prop] to confide y\r projects1 & y\r un=tunate passion = ! *>m+ ,p&ora4 ,:at y relat$ to me on ! subject conv9c$ me h[ mu* %e 0 unwor?y ( y\r love1 & h[ basely %e has conduct$ h]self t[>ds y4 ,yet y w y\rself feel "s compassion = h]1 :5 y le>n :o x is ^u :om %e has be/[$ ?is unm]it$ pref]5ce4 ,"k !n t ?is wret*$ ,d',aubigny is no o!r ?an ! notori\s ,*atillon1 ! infam\s impo/or1 :o1 by 8 ma*9ations ab\t a ye> ago pres]v$ ! ,turki% prov9ces ( ,hung>y f be+ conqu]$ by ! *ri/ian arms4 ,! man is moreov] a magician1 ! pret5d$ or real possessor ( ! philosoph]'s /one4 ,he is !re=e d\bly wor?y ( dea?1 fir/ z a traitor1 ! abettor & com=t] ( ! common enemy ( ! *ri/ian fai?1 &1 secondly1 z a deal] 9 ! black art1 & a man notori\sly sold & deliv]$ ov] to ! devil4 8,i h receiv$ ?is in=mation f ! mo/ unque/ionable au?ority4 ,a soldi] 9 my old corps1 :o has lately escap$ f a ,turki% prison1 no soon] saw him ?an he id5tifi$ 8 p]son4 ,i happ5$ to be ne> ! fell[ at ! mom5t1 :51 by an unexpect$ exclamation1 he betray$ 8 discov]y4 ,x imm$iately /ruck me t ! circum/ance might be ( importance to y\r int]e/s2 &1 !re=e1 tak+ ! soldi] aside1 ,i *>g$ him n to m5tion to any "o :at he _h obs]v$4 ,to r5d] 8 secrecy ! m secure1 ,i h s9ce remov$ him to a g>rison at "s di/ance f ,presburg2 & ,i h myself m5tion$ ! circum/ance to no liv+ creature1 t ,i might fir/ receive y\r in/ructions on ! subject1 & act 9 all respects conc]n+ x z y %all judge prop]4 ,! blackness ( ! "* ( ! man sets all exagg]ation at defiance4 ,?is v individual1 :om y lib]at$ f ! b[els ( ! e>?1 :o by ! mo/ trea*]\s arts won y\r confid5ce1 & ^u :om y lavi%ly heap$ e imag9able di/9ction1 0 all ! :ile consci\s to himself1 t he 0 ! "* t ( all t live y hat$ mo/2 9 "o ^w1 ! r5egado ,*atillon4 ,he act$ consi/5tly ) 8 prec$+ conduct & 8 rec5t dis+5u\sness1 :5 he s$uc$ f y ! affections ( ! woman ( y\r *oice4 8,i am conc]n$ to add1 t1 on ! v day t ,i made ?is discov]y1 ?is ,*atillon ,d',aubigny disappe>$ f ,presburg1 nor c ,i by any ef=t le>n :i!r he is gone4 ,x is impossible he %\ld h be5 in=m$ by any human means ( ! detection t _h happ5$4 ,b inde$ x is va9 to attempt to =m any reasonable conjecture1 respect+ a "* s my/]i\s & inexplicable4 8,y\r devot$ fri5d1 8,,&rew1 c\nt ( ,,ba?ori40 8,well1 sir10 see+ ,i _h f9i%$ ! p]usal1 8& :at h y n[ to allege8 ,:5 ,i saw y simply z ! fav\r$ lov] ( ,p&ora1 h[ev] trea*]\s & di%on\rable ,i might deem y\r conduct t[>ds me1 ,i quitt$ ! field4 ,i did n tru/ myself to be a judge 9 my own cause4 ,i did n confide 9 my e/imate ( y\r unwor?9ess1 :5 ,i 0 myself :olly conc]n$4 ,i _h "s "t be=e receiv$ an invitation f ! duke d',aumale1 :o 0 collect+ a numb] ( g5]\s & high-spirit$ nobles to accompany ,m>y que5 ( ,scots to ! b>b>\s fields ( h] native realm4 ,i at fir/ decl9$1 ,i n[ accept$1 ! invitation2 ,i set out = ,p>is to jo9 him4 ,i f\nd t lett] wait+ my arrival at ,frib\rg1 & ,i return$4 ,deeply z ,p&ora has sunk 9 my e/eem1 ,i det]m9$ ,i w\ld nev] all[ h] to be ?r[n away ^u ! infam\s ,*atillon4 8,y haunt my /eps4 ,i he>d ( y aga9 & aga9 on my r\te z ,i return$ f ,frib\rg4 ,i arrive at ,presburg1 & pres5tly aft] y aga9 make y\r appe>ance4 ,:at fur!r villanies h y to act8 ,:at new trea*]ies h y devis$ aga9/ me8 ,?is morn+ ,i cons5t$ to ! repres5tations ( c\nt ,ba?ori1 & agre$ t y %\ld be deliv]$ up to ju/ice4 ,:y !n are y n 9 cu/ody8 8,:5 ,i consid] ! my/]y & inscrutabl5ess ( y\r "*1 ,i am lo/ 9 conjecture4 ,y are said to be a magician1 a deal] 9 ! unhall[$ secrets ( al*ymy & ! elixir vit4 ,9 cases l ?is1 all ! ord9>y rules ( human sagacity & prud5ce are sup]s$$1 ! wise/ man is a fool1 & ! noble/ _s feels ! v gr\nd he /ood on /ruck f "u 8 feet4 ,h[ c ,i "k t ! s$uction ( ,p&ora's affections is n ow+ to magical incantations1 :o 9 t case is r an object = compassion ?an = c5sure8 ,h[ c ,i tell t ! frat]nal resemblance borne by y\r features to my own1 & ! sudd5 & ard5t p>tiality t rose 9 my brea/ :5 fir/ ,i saw y1 h n be5 produc$ by ! mo/ dete/$ arts8 ,magic dissolves ! :ole pr9ciple & arrangem5t ( human action1 subv]ts all g5]\s en?usiasm & dignity1 & r5d]s life itself loa?some & intol]able4 8,?is is to me ! mo/ pa9ful ( all subjects4 ,i _h a fa!r :om ,i affectionately lov$3 he became ! dupe ( ^! inf]nal secrets4 ,i _h a "m1 ! p>agon ( ! creation3 t fa!r murd]$ h]4 ,all ! angui% ,i ev] felt1 has d]iv$ its s\rce f al*ymy & magic4 ,:ile ! infam\s ,*atillon ?us /&s be=e me1 ,i feel all ! long-=gott5 w\nds ( my he>t new op5$1 & ! blood bur/+ afre% f e ve94 ,i h re/$1 & be5 at peace2 & n[ ! r$ & v5om$ plague1 t t>ni%$ ! ye>s ( my op5+ y\?1 returns to bla/ me4 ,begone1 infam\s1 ?rice-damn$ villa96 & let me nev] see !e m6 8,wret* t y are60 cont9u$ ,*>les2 = he saw me motion+ to )draw1--,i felt t all fur!r expo/ulation & discussion on my "p 0 useless1--8wret* t y are6 :at is x t y are ab\t to d8 ,?9k no to escape my v5geance6 ,9 ! mid/ ( all ! tumultu\s passions y wak5 9 my brea/1 ,i /ill feel 9 myself ! soldi] & ! man ( hon\r4 ,i am n a ?ief-tak] or a bailiff4 ,y are )9 my p[]1 & t is y\r pres5t protection4 ,i w n n[ deliv] y up to ! ju/ice ( ! /ate1 b w hurl aga9/ y my p]sonal defiance4 ,i am will+ to meet y man to man3 ,i ?ir/ to enc\nt] y z my wor/ & mo/ mortal foe1 :o has p]petrat$ aga9/ me ! base/ injuries1 & excit$ 9 my bosom ! mo/ hateful s5sations4 ,?\gh y 7 f5c$ ) all ! legions ( hell1 ,i fe> y n2 & see+ t1 aft] all t is pa/1 y h once aga9 intrud$ into my pres5ce1 ,i "h b9d myself by all t is sacr$ to pursue y to ! dea?40 ,:at c\ld ,i answ] to su* an attack8 ,i saw at once t ! case1 z to all future h>mony betwe5 me & my son 0 desp]ate & irrem$iable4 ,:at hope c\ld ,i ent]ta9 fur!r8 ,:at _h hi!rto be5 ! result ( our ill-fat$ int]c\rse8 ,e (f5ce & prejudice t c gall ! human m9d _h be5 br\ght =w>d 9 x 9 turn4 ,i _h w\nd$ ,damville 9 ! mo/ s5sible po9t ( private life1 & _h bla/$ 8 hopes !re :]e he /or$ !m all4 ,i _h (f5d$ 8 mo/ root$ political prepossessions1 by aid+ ! ,turk1 & fe$+ a nation t p]i%$ ) hung]4 ,i 0 an equivocal "*1 assum+ diff]5t names1 & w&]+ ov] ! _w ) diff]5t pret5ces4 ,la/ ( all1 ,i _h reviv$ 9 8 m9d ! images ( 8 fa!r & 8 "m1--all t _h once be5 mo/ de>1 & n[ 0 mo/ pa9ful1 to 8 recollection2 & _h tortur$ 8 fancy ) nameless horrors4 ,^! s5tim5ts c\ld nev] be remov$4 ,all ! explanations 9 ! _w c\ld nev] reconcile me to 8 m9d2 & ,i felt t ,i _h t )91 :i*1 9 :at 0 to come1 z x _h 9 :at 0 pa/1 mu/ = ev] annihilate all confid5ce betwe5 u4 ,at once !re=e ,i accept$ 8 *all5ge1 arrang$ ) him ! t]ms ( a ho/ile enc\nt] on ! foll[+ morn+1 & imm$iately aft] bid adieu to ,presburg1 & to ! sight ( e s\l conta9$ )9 its walls1 = ev]4 ,?is is1 ,i p[]fully feel1 ! la/ adv5ture t ,i %all ev] h ! c\rage to commit to writ+4 ,a few m9utes m1 & ,i w lay d[n my p51 & resolve 9 ! mo/ solemn & sacr$ mann] nev] to compose ano!r l9e4 ,inde$1 all o!r adv5tures mu/ necess>ily be frigid & un9t]e/+1 comp>$ ) t :i* ,i h n[ describ$4 ,great ,god1 :at a fate 0 m9e6 ,anxi\s z ,i _h be5 to prove myself 9 ! mo/ mom5t\s respects ! b5efactor ( my son1 dismiss+ all o!r ?\ghts & c>es f my m9d1 j\rney+ ) ?is sole object 9 view1 f ,presburg to ,v5ice1 & f ,v5ice to ,presburg1 f ,hung>y to ! banks ( ! ,rh9e1 & f ! banks ( ! ,rh9e back aga9 to ,hung>y1--! :ole sc5e 0 n[ t]m9at$ by a decl>ation on 8 "p1 t no?+ c\ld appease ! animosity he *]i%$ aga9/ me1 %ort ( riot+ 9 ! blood ( 8 fa!r's he>t4 ,i 0 r$uc$ to ! necessity ei!r ( lift+ my sword aga9/ my son1 ( runn+ myself ^u ! po9t ( 8 weapon1 or ( =feit+ ! engagem5t betwe5 u1 & suff]+ him to br& me z a c[>d 9 ! face ( ,*ri/5dom4 ,i m5tion n ?is1 because ! v>iety ( objects ( *oice produc$ 9 me ! slighte/ hesitation4 ,we>y z ,i 0 ( life1 ,i c\ld *e]fully h cons5t$ to die1 b n to /a9 ! sword ( ,*>les de ,damville ) my vital blood4 ,i prev5t$ him f be+ ! assass9 ( 8 fa!r's life2 ,i c\ld n prev5t him f be+ ! assass9 ( 8 fa!r's "*4 ,he 0 assidu\s & indefatigable 9 spread+ aga9/ me ! blacke/ invectives1 :i* he reg>d$ z ! mo/ un]r+ tru?s4 ,all ,hung>y has res\nd$ = ?irty ye>s ) ! atrocities ( ! sieur de ,*atillon2 :at is "h record$ conta9s ! :ole & unv>ni%$ tru? on ! subject4 ,?is n>rative h[ev] %all nev] see ! light1 till ! melan*oly h\r :5 ,*>les de ,damville %all be no m4 ,yet 9 ! mid/ ( ! angui%1 ! disappo9tm5t ( e *]i%$ hope1 :i* r5ds my s\l1 ,i h "o consolation1 & t an invaluable "o1 9 ! virtues1 ! glory1 & ! happ9ess ( my son4 ,i said ,i w\ld =get e gratification & s5tim5t ( my own 9 him2 ,i am n[ m ?an ev] in/igat$ to d s4 ,:5 ,i quitt$ ,presburg1 ,i left ,cabri]a beh9d me 9 t city1 & ,i took c>e to obta9 a p>t+ int]view ) him4 ,he aft]w>ds gave me ! meet+1 z we !n conc]t$1 at ,trie/e 9 ! du*y ( ,c>niola4 ,x happ5$1 z ,i _h flatt]$ myself ! ev5t w\ld prove1 t1 ! visible s\rce ( umbrage be+ remov$1 ,*>les & ,p&ora 9 no long "t came to a mutual und]/&+1 & 7 f9ally made happy 9 ea* o!r4 ,i _h be5 ! =tunate means ( supply+ to ?is excell5t & incomp>able creature ! only defect "u :i* %e lab\r$1 a want ( =tune2 h] uncle1 hav+ no long] a pret5ce to oppose _! mutual passion1 unit$ _! h&s2 &1 at ! "t ( :i* ,i am speak+1 !y 7 reg>d$ z ! mo/ graceful & accompli%$ c\ple 9 ! :ole ,hung>ian dom9ions4 ,! *evali] de ,damville is consid]$ 9 t c\ntry z ! great bulw>k ( ! ,*ri/ian fronti]1 & ! mo/ g5]\s & illu/ri\s pupil 9 ! s*ool ( ! ,bay>ds & ! ,sc&]begs4 ,cabri]a1 worn out ) ye>s & fatigues1 b /ill grasp+ & av>ici\s to 8 late/ h\r1 expir$ 9 my arms 9 ! city ( ,trie/e2 & by 8 dea? yield$ me ?is cont5tm5t1 t h5ce=? ! only obvi\s means = detect+ my b5efic5t fraud 9 secur+ ! d[] ( ,p&ora 0 = ev] remov$4 ,t ! read] may ent] ! m fully into my s5tim5t ( congratulation ^u ! happ9ess ( my son1 & rise f ! p]usal ( my n>rative ) a m soo?+ & pleasurable s5sation1 ,i w "h %ortly recapitulate ! good qualities t _h be5 unfold$ 9 ?is truly extraord9>y "y man f 8 e>lie/ infancy4 ,he 0 a *ild1 only n9e ye>s ( age1 at ! p]iod ( ! truly affect+ & exempl>y behavi\r ! read] may rememb] him to h display$1 :ile ,i 0 at ,p>is squ&]+ ! prop]ty ( my family at ! gam+-table4 ,9 ! ali5ation ( m9d produc$ 9 me by t dreadful cata/rophe1 he 0 my con/ant att5dant1 my c>eful nurse1 & my affectionate fri5d4 ,:51 twelve mon?s aft]1 we 7 driv5 by our calamities out ( ,switz]l&1 & ,i lay ext5d$ to all human appe>ance on ! b$ ( dea?1 ,*>les 0 ! com=t] ( 8 "m1 ! fri5d ( 8 si/]s1 & ev51 "y z he 01 contribut$ to ! ma9t5ance ( my />v+ family by ! lab\r ( 8 infant h&s4 ,at ,dresd51 z yet no m ?an sev5te5 ye>s ( age1 he 0 assail$ by "o ( ! sev]e/ trials ) :i* ! m9d ( man c 9 any case be beset4 ,b he hesitat$ n a mom5t4 ,oblig$ to *oose betwe5 pov]ty & innoc5ce1 ) ! sacrifice ( all 8 habitudes1 & ! loss ( e fri5d1 on ! "o side1 & weal?1 new to 8 enjoym5t1 ) ignom9y or an equivocal "*1 on ! o!r1 8 det]m9ation 0 in/ant & unalt]able4 ,ca/1 at s immature an age1 alone & portionless1 ^u ! _w1 he almo/ imm$iately1 by 8 gallantry1 8 w9n+ qualities1 & 8 virtues1 ga9$ to himself a fri5d 9 "o ( ! greate/ capta9s ( ! age4 ,unaid$ by ! brilliancy ( family or =tune1 he acquir$ ! "* ( ! brave/ soldi] 9 ,hung>y1 :]e all 7 brave4 ,?is la/ trial1 to :i* ,i _h be5 ! undesign+ means ( subject+ him1 0 none ( ! lea/ ardu\s4 ,love (t5 entails imbecility on ! noble/ ( mank9d3 b ,*>les surm\nt$ ! mo/ p]il\s attacks ( ?is all-conqu]+ passion4 ,:5 he ?\ght ,p&ora unwor?y1 he tore himself f h]1 & w\ld n admit a /ruggle4 ,:5 he believ$ %e lov$ ano!r1 he disda9$ to claim a he>t t seem$ ali5at$ f him1 & himself jo9$ ! h&s ( 8 mi/ress & 8 rival4 ,he might h di$2 he c\ld n disgrace himself4 ,i 0 ! h]o's fa!r6--b no6 ,i am n bl9d$ by pat]nal p>tiality2--b no6 he 0 inde$ :at ,i ?\ght him1 z ne> ! climax ( dignity & virtue z ! frailty ( our nature w admit4 ,8 virtue 0 at l5g? cr[n$ ) ! mo/ enviable rew>d ! e>? has to boa/1--! fai?ful atta*m5t ( a noble-m9d$ & accompli%$ woman4 ,i am happy to close my ev5tful & some:at melan*oly /ory ) s pleas+ a t]m9ation4 ,:atev] may h be5 ! result ( my p]sonal exp]i5ce ( human life1 ,i c nev] recollect ! fate ( ,*>les & ,p&ora )\t confess+ ) exultation1 t ?is busy & anxi\s _w ( ours yet conta9s some?+ 9 its /ores t is wor? liv+ =4 ,,! ,,end4 ,,footnotes #a ,to ?is /ory1 9 ! book f :i* ,i h quot$ x1 is subjo9$ ! foll[+ ref]5ce3--8,mmoires ,hi/oriques1 #afhg1 tom4 i4 p4 #cfe40 ,be+ desir\s ( giv+ my extract f ! olde/ au?ority1 ,i caus$ ! ,briti% ,museum1 & ! libr>ies ( ,ox=d & ,cambridge1 to be se>*$ = ?is publication1 b 9 va94 ,! /ory & ! ref]5ce are1 n improbably1 bo? ( !m ! fictions ( ! ,engli% writ]4 #b ,johnson's ,occasional ,prologue on ,g>rick's assum+ ! managem5t ( ,drury-lane ,!atre4 #c ,*>les ,v4 #d ,h5ry ,,viii4 #e ,antonio de ,leyva4 #f ,! con/able ( ,b\rbon4 #g ,mi/resses ( ,francis ,i4 #h ,! battle ( ,c]isolles4 #i ,?is incid5t is told1 ne>ly 9 ! words ( ,/4 ,leon1 by ,?uanus1 ,hi/ori ,sui ,temporis1 lib4 #b4 cap4 #ad4 ,,london3 ,pr9t$ by ,a4 ,r4 ,spottiswoode1 ,new-,/reet-,squ>e4