,,! ,,inside ,,( ,,! ,,cup  ,by ,w9/on  
,*ur*ill    ,volume #h4   ,,xxvii4      
,,retribution ,,xxviii4 ,,light         
,,*apt] ,,xxvii  ,,retribution   ,i  ,! 
,bi%op's ,h\se 0 a com=table1 d\ble     
dwell+ ( a smoo?1 bright r$ brick &     
l>ge1 plate-glass w9d[s1 situat$ 9 a    
plot at ! we/]n end ( ,wav]ley ,place4  
,x _h be5 b\ght by ! ,diocese 9 !       
n9eties1 & 0 repres5tative ( t          
transitional p]iod 9 ,am]ican           
ar*itecture :5 ! mans>d ro( _h be5      
repudiat$1 :5 z yet no def9ite types _h 
em]g$ to take its place4 ,! h\se _h     
po9t$ gables1 & a t9y & utt]ly useless  
por* t s]v$ only to d>k5 ! front door1  
made ( heavy pieces ( wood fanta/ically 
curv$4  ,x 0 precisely t5 o'clock 9 !   
morn+ :5 ,hodd] rang ! bell & 0 %[n into
 ! ample /udy :i* he _h ent]$ on o!r &  
less vital occasions4 ,he f\nd          
difficulty 9 realiz+ t ?is pleasant     
room1 l9$ ) well-worn books & ov]look+ a
 back lawn :]e ! clo!s ( ! episcopal    
family hung 9 ! yell[ autumn sun1 0 to  

be 8 judgm5t seat1 :5ce he might be     
committ$ to trial = h]esy4  ,& ?is 0 !  
tw5tie? c5tury6 ,! full =ce ( !         
prepo/]\s fact smote him1 & a           
consci\sness ( ! di/ance he himself _h  
travell$ s9ce ! comp>atively rec5t days 
( 8 own or?odoxy4 ,& sudd5ly he 0 full  
aga9 ( a res5tful impati5ce1 n only t he
 %\ld be call$ away f 8 lab\rs1 8 c>es1 
! /rang]s :o 7 crav+ 8 help1 to answ]   
*>ges ( su* an absurd triviality1 b t ! 
p]=mance ( ! great task to :i* he _h set
 8 h&1 ) ,god's help1 %\ld dep5d ^u x4  
,w\ld 8 enemies be p]mitt$ to drive him 
out ?us easily8  ,! old bi%op came 91   
walk+ by ! aid ( a cane4 ,he smil$ at   
,hodd]1 :o greet$ him respectfully1 &   
bidd+ him sit d[n1 took a *air himself  
beh9d 8 writ+ table1 f :5ce he gaz$     
a:ile e>ne/ly & contemplatively at !    
rugg$ features & /rong %\ld]s ( ! rector
 ( ,/4 ,john's4 ,! effect ( ! look 0 t (
 a visual ef=t to h>monize ! man ) ! de$
 he _h done1 ! /ir he _h creat$ 9 ! city
 & ! diocese2 to readju/ impressions4   

,a h9t ( hum\r crept into ! bi%op's blue
 eyes1 :i* 7 wat]y1 yet /rong1 ) heavy  
creases 9 ! corn]s4 ,he indicat$ by a   
little ge/ure ?ree bundles ( envelopes1 
b\nd by rubb] b&s1 on ! corn] ( 8       
blott]4  ,hodd]1 he said1 see :at a lot 
( tr\ble y h made = me 9 my old age6    
,all ^? are ab\t y4  ,! rector's        
expression c\ld n h be5 deem$ /]n1 b x  
_h met ! bi%op's look unfl9*+ly4 ,n[ x  
relax$ into a respond+ smile1 :i* 0 n   
)\t s]i\sness4  ,i am sorry1 sir1 ,hodd]
 answ]$1 to h caus$ y any worry--or     
inconv5i5ce4  ,p]haps1 said ! bi%op1 ,i 
h _h too mu* smoo? sail+ = a s]vant (   
,*ri/4 ,inde$1 ,i h come to t           
conclusion4  ,hodd] did n reply4 ,he 0  
mov$1 ev5 m by ! bi%op's mann] & voice  
?an 8 words4 ,& ! op5+ to _! conv]sation
 0 unexpect$4 ,! old man put on 8       
spectacles1 & drew f ! top ( "o ( !     
bundles a lett]4  ,?is is f "o ( y\r    
ve/rym51 ,mr4 ,gordon ,att]bury1 he     
said1 & proce$$ to read x1 sl[ly4 ,:5 he
 _h f9i%$ he laid x d[n4  ,is t1 accord+

 to y\r recollection1 ,mr4 ,hodd]1 a    
fairly accurate summ>y ( ! s]mon y gave 
:5 y resum$ ! pulpit at ! end ( ! summ]8
  ,yes1 sir1 answ]$ ! rector1 x is      
surpris+ly accurate1 ) ! exception ( two
 or ?ree inf]5ces :i* ,i %all expla9 at 
! prop] mom5t4  ,mr4 ,att]bury is to be 
congratulat$ on 8 memory1 ! bi%op obs]v$
 a little dryly4 ,& he has sav$ me !    
tr\ble ( read+ m4 ,n[ :at are ! inf]5ces
 to :i* y object8  ,hodd] /at$ !m4 ,!   
mo/ s]i\s "o1 he add$1 is t :i* he draws
 f my attitude on ! virg9 bir?4 ,mr4    
,att]bury insi/s1 l o!rs :o cl+ to t    
dogma1 t ,i h become :at he vaguely     
calls an ,unit>ian4 ,he seems incapable 
( grasp+ my mean+1 t ! only true ,god ! 
age kn[s1 ! _w has ev] kn[n1 is ! ,god 9
 ,*ri/1 is ! ,_s 9 ,*ri/1 & is !re n by 
any mat]ial pro(1 b because we recognize
 x spiritually4 ,& t doctr9e & dogma1   
anci5t speculations z to h[1 def9itely1 
t _s came to be 9 ,*ri/1 are fruitless &
 mis*iev\s to-day4 ,mr4 ,att]bury & o!rs
 seem actually to res5t my id5tification

 ( our ,"l's ,_s ) ! social consci5ce z 
well z ! individual consci5ce ( our "t4 
,! bi%op nodd$4  ,hodd]1 he dem&$       
abruptly1 lean+ =w>d ov] 8 desk1 h[ did 
?is ?+ happ58  ,y mean1 sir--  ,!re 01 9
 ! bi%op's voice1 a note almo/ pa!tic4  
,oh1 ,i d n mean to ask y any?+ y may   
deem too p]sonal4 ,& ,god =bid1 z ,i    
look at y1 z ,i h kn[n y1 t ,i %\ld d\bt
 y\r s9c]ity4 ,i am n y\r inquisitor1 b 
y\r bi%op & y\r fri5d1 & ,i am ask+ =   
y\r confid5ce4 ,six mon?s ago y 71      
app>5tly1 "o ( ! mo/ or?odox rectors 9 !
 diocese4 ,i recognize t y are n an     
impulsive1 s5sational man1 & ,i am all !
 m anxi\s to le>n f y\r own lips some?+ 
( ! influ5ces1 ( ! processes :i* h *ang$
 y1 :i* h be5 /rong en\gh to impel y to 
risk ! position y h a*iev$4  ,by ?is    
unlook$-= appeal ,hodd] 0 n only dis>m$1
 b smitt5 ) self-reproa* at ! ?\ght ( 8 
=m] misjudgm5t & und]e/imation ( ! man 9
 ^: pres5ce he sat4 ,& x came ov] him1 n
 only ! ext5t to :i*1 =m]ly1 he _h      
reg>d$ ! bi%op z too tol]ant & easygo+1 

b ! fact t he _h arriv$ "h today prep>$ 
to f9d 9 8 sup]ior any?+ b ! attitude he
 0 %[+4 ,consid]+ ! bi%op's age1 ,hodd] 
_h be5 ready = a lack ( und]/&+ ( ! /ep 
he _h tak51 ev5 = qu]ul\s reproa*es &   
rebuke4  ,he _h1 !re=e1 to pull himself 
toge!r1 to adju/ himself to ! unexpect$ 
greatness ( s\l ) :i* he 0 be+ receiv$  
be=e he began to sket* ! misgiv+s he _h 
felt f ! e>ly days ( 8 rector%ip ( ,/4  
,john's2 ! helplessness & failure :i* by
 degrees _h come ov] him4 ,he relat$ h[ 
x _h become app>5t to him t by f> !     
great] "p ( 8 ri* & fa%ionable          
congregation 7 ,*ri/ians only 9 "n1 :o  
kept _! religion 9 a small & imp]vi\s   
comp>tm5t :]e x did n int]f]e ) _!      
lives4 ,he pictur$ ! ye>n+ & p]plexity (
 ^? :o _h come to him = help1 :o c\ld n 
accept ! old explanations1 & _h gone    
away empty2 & he _h n be5 able to make  
,*ri/ians ( ! poor :o att5d$ ! p>i%     
h\se4 ,f9ally1 tru/+ 9 ! bi%op's        
discretion1 he spoke ( ! revelations he 
_h une>!d 9 ,dalton ,/reet1 & h[ ^! _h  

completely de/roy$ 8 confid5ce 9 !      
,*ri/ianity he _h prea*$1 & h[ he _h put
 8 old fai? to ! te/ ( unprejudic$ mod]n
 criticism1 philosophy1 & sci5ce4 4 4   
,! bi%op li/5$ int5tly1 8 head b5t1 8   
eyes on he rector4  ,& y h come         
out--conv9c$8 he ask$ tremul\sly4 ,yes1 
yes1 ,i see y h4 ,x is en\gh4  ,he      
relaps$ into ?\ght1 8 wr9kl$ h& ly+ idly
 on ! table4  ,i ne$ n tell y1 my fri5d1
 he resum$ at l5g?1 t a great deal (    
pressure has be5 br\ght to be> ^u me 9  
?is matt]1 m ?an ,i h ev] be=e exp]i5c$4
 ,y h mortally (f5d$1 among o!rs1 ! mo/ 
p[]ful layman 9 ! diocese1 ,mr4 ,p>r1 :o
 compla9s t y h presum$ to take him to  
task conc]n+ 8 private affairs4  ,i told
 him1 answ]$ ,hold]1 t s long z he      
cont9u$ to live ! life he leads1 ,i c\ld
 n accept 8 contributions to ,/4        
,john's4  ,i am an old man1 said !      
bi%op1 & :atev] usefulness ,i h _h is   
almo/ f9i%$4 ,b if ,i 7 "y to-day1 ,i   
%\ld pray ,god = ! c\rage & insight y h 
%[n1 & ,i am ?ankful to h liv$ long     

en\gh to h kn[n y4 ,x has1 at lea/1 be5 
giv5 "o to realize t times h *ang$1 t we
 are on ! v]ge ( a mighty future4 ,i w  
be frank to say t t5 ye>s ago1 if ?is _h
 happ5$1 ,i %\ld h recomm5d$ y = trial4 
,n[ ,i c only wi% y ,godspe$4 ,i1 too1 c
 see ! light1 my fri5d4 ,i c see1 ,i    
?9k1 ?\gh dimly1 ! beg9n+s ( a bl5d+ (  
all sects1 ( all religions 9 ! increas+ 
vision ( ! tru? reveal$ 9 ,jesus ,*ri/1 
/ripp$1 z y say1 ( dogma1 ( fruitless   
attempts at rational explanation4 ,9    
,japan & ,*9a1 9 ,india & ,p]sia1 z well
 z 9 ,*ri/ian c\ntries1 x is com+1 com+ 
by "s work+ ( ! ,_s ! my/]y ( :i* is    
beyond u4 ,& nations & m5 :o ev5 yet "k 
no?+ ( ! ,gospels are %[+ a will+ness to
 adopt :at is ,*ri/'s1 & ! ,god ( ,*ri/4
  ,hold] 0 sil5t1 f %e] inability to    
speak4  ,if y _h ne$$ an advocate ) me1 
! bi%op cont9u$1 y c\ld n h _h "o to ^: 
c\nsel ,i w\ld m will+ly h li/5$1 ?an t 
( ,horace ,b5tley4 ,he wrote ask+ to    
come & see me1 b ,i w5t to him 9 ,dalton
 ,/reet ! day ,i return$4 ,& x gives me 

satisfaction1 ,mr4 ,hold]1 to confess to
 y freely t he has taught me1 by 8 life1
 m ( true ,*ri/ianity ?an ,i h le>n$ 9  
all my exp]i5ce else:]e4  ,i _h ?\ght1  
exclaim$ ! rector1 wond]+ly1 t ,i ow$   
him m ?an any o!r man4  ,!re are _m :o  
?9k t--hundr$s1 ,i %\ld say1 ! bi%op    
repli$ 4 4 4 4 ,eldon ,p>r ru9$ him1    
drove him f ! *ur*4444 ,x is /range h[1 
outside ( ! *ur*1 8 influ5ce has sil5tly
 & cont9u\sly gr[n until x has borne    
fruit 9--?is4 ,ev5 n[1 he add$ aft] a   
pause1 ! cauti\sness1 ! dread ( *ange   
:i* comes ) old age might1 ,i ?9k1 lead 
me to be afraid ( x if ,i--didn't       
p]ceive beh9d x ! _s ( ,horace ,b5tley4 
,x /ruck ,hold]1 sudd5ly1 :at an        
unconsci\s b real s\rce ( confid5ce ?is 
?\ght _h likewise be5 to him4 ,he spoke 
( x4  ,x is n t ,i w\ldn't tru/ y1 !    
bi%op w5t on4 ,i h wat*$ y1 ,i h talk$  
to ,asa ,w>+1 ,i h read ! newspap]s4 ,9 
spite ( x all1 y h kept y\r head1 y h n 
compromis$ ! dignity ( ! ,*ur*4 ,b oh1  
my fri5d1 ,i beg y to be> 9 m9d t y are 

laun*$ ^u deep wat]s1 t y h rais$ up _m 
enemies --enemies ( ,*ri/--:o seek to   
de/roy y4 ,y are /ill "y4 ,& !          
uncompromis+ exp]im5t to :i* y are      
pl$g$1 ( free+ y\r *ur*1 ( plac+ h] 9 ! 
position ( p[] & influ5ce 9 ! community 
:i* is rightfully h]s1 is z yet untri$4 
,& no /one w be left unturn$ to         
disc\rage & ov]come y4 ,y h fai?1--y h  
made me feel x z y sat "h1--a fai? :i* w
 save y f bitt]ness 9 p]sonal defeat4 ,y
 may n reap ! victory1 or ev5 see x 9   
y\r lifetime4 ,b ( ?is ,i am sure1 t y w
 be able to say1 ) ,paul1 ',i h plant$1 
,apollos wat]$1 b ,god gave ! increase4'
 ,:atev] happ5s1 y may c\nt ^u my       
confid5ce & support4 ,i c only wi% t ,i 
7 y\ng]1 t my arm 7 /rong]1 & t ,i _h   
always p]ceiv$ ! tru? z cle>ly z ,i see 
x n[4  ,hold] _h ris5 involunt>ily :ile 
^! words 7 be+ spok54 ,!y 7 inde$ a     
b5$iction1 & ! int5sity ( 8 feel+ w>n$  
him ( ! inadequacy ( any reply4 ,!y 7   
pron\nc$ 9 sorr[1 yet 9 hope1 & !y      
br\ght home to him1 %>ply1 ! nobility ( 

! bi%op's own sacrifice4  ,& y1 sir8 he 
ask$4  ,ah1 answ]$ ! bi%op1 ) ?is ,i    
%all h _h my life4 ,i am cont5t4 4 4 4  
,y w come to me aga91 ,hodd]8 "s o!r    
day1 he said1 aft] an int]val1 t we may 
talk ov] ! new problems4 ,!y are        
con/ructive1 creative1 & ,i am anxi\s to
 he> h[ y propose to meet !m4 ,= "o ?+1 
to f9d a new basis = ! support ( su* a  
p>i%4 ,i und]/& !y h depriv$ y ( y\r    
sal>y4  ,i h en\gh to live on1 = a ye>  
or s1 repli$ ! rector1 quickly4 ,p]haps 
m4  ,i'm afraid1 said ! bi%op1 ) a smile
 9 8 old eyes1 t y w ne$ x1 my fri5d4 ,b
 :o c say8 ,y h /r5g?1 y h confid5ce1 & 
,god is ) y4    ,,ii  ,life1 z ,hodd] n[
 grasp$ x1 0 a rapidly :irl+ :eel :i*   
gave him no *ance to cat* up ) !        
impressions & exp]i5ces ?r\gh :i* x 0   
dragg+ him4 ,"h1 = in/ance1 7 two       
f>-rea*+ & mom5t\s ev5ts1 "o cr[d+ ^u ! 
o!r1 & n an h\r = reflection1           
realization1 or adju/m5t6 ,he _h1 inde$1
 aft] 8 return f ! bi%op's1 snat*$ a few
 m9utes to write ,alison ! unexpect$    

result ( t int]view4 ,b ev5 z he wrote &
 rang = a mess5g] to c>ry ! note to ,p>k
 ,/reet1 he 0 consci\s ( an ef=t to     
seize ^u & hold ! fact t ! woman he _h s
 int5sely desir$ 0 n[ 8 helpmate2 & _h1 
( h] own freewill1 unit$ h]self ) him4  
,a /rong s5se ( ! dignity ( _!          
relation%ip alone prev5t$ 8 call+ h] on 
! telephone--z x d\btless _h prev5t$ h]4
 ,:ile %e rema9$ 9 h] fa!r's h\se1 he   
c\ld n4 4 4  ,9 ! little room next to ! 
(fice sev]al p]sons 7 wait+ to see him4 
,b z he w5t d[n/airs he halt$ on !1 l&+1
 8 h& go+ to 8 =ehead1 a reflex movem5t 
significant ( a f9al attempt to a*ieve !
 hi!rto unatta9able feat ( imag9+ h] z 8
 wife4 ,if he might only speak to h]    
aga9--n[1 ?is morn+6 ,& yet he knew t he
 ne$$ no confirmation4 ,! reality 0 !re1
 9 ! backgr\nd2 & ?\gh refus+ to come   
=w>d to be t\*$1 x _h already graft$    
itself z an actual & vital "p ( 8 be+1  
nev] to be elim9at$4  ,*>act]i/ically   
p]fect+ 8 own ideal1 %e _h come to him 9
 ! h\r :5 8 horizon _h be5 mo/ obscure4 

,& he exp]i5c$ n[ an exultation1 ?\gh   
solemn & sacr$1 t h] fai? _h s f> be5   
rew>d$ 9 ! tid+s he n[ confid$ to !     
mess5g]4 ,he 0 n1 z yet1 to be driv5 out
 f ! task1 to be depriv$ ( ! tal5t1 !   
opportunity intru/$ to him by ,"l--!    
emancipation ( ! p>i% ( ,/4 ,john's4  ,!
 fir/ to greet him1 :5 he ent]$ 8 (fice1
 0 "o :o1 unkn[n to himself1 _h be5     
fight+ ! battle ( ! ,god 9 ,*ri/1 & :o  
n[1 ?anks to ,john ,hodd]1 _h id5tifi$ !
 ,_s z ! trans=m+ =ce4 ,b$loe ,hubbell  
_h come to (f] 8 s]vices to ! ,*ur*4 ,! 
t5d] 0 unqualifi$4  ,i %\ld ev5 be      
will+1 ,mr4 ,hodd]1 he said ) a smile1  
to v5ture occasionally into a pulpit4 ,y
 h n only *ang$ my conception (         
religion1 b y h made x = me some?+ :i*  
,i c n[ speak ab\t naturally4  ,hodd] 0 
/ruck by ! sugge/ion4  ,ah1 we %all ne$ 
! laym5 9 ! pulpits1 ,mr4 ,hubbell1 he  
said quickly4 ,a great spiritual movem5t
 mu/ be prim>ily a lay movem5t4 ,& ,i   
promise y y %all n lack = opportunity4  
,,iii  ,at n9e o'clock t ev5+1 :5 a     

reprieve came1 ,hodd] w5t out4 ,anxiety 
on ! score ( ,kate ,m>cy1 z well z a    
desire to see ,mr4 ,b5tley & tell him ( 
! conv]sation ) ! bi%op1 direct$ 8 /eps 
t[>d ,dalton ,/reet4 ,& ,hodd] _h1      
inde$1 an int5tion ( confid+ to 8 fri5d1
 z "o em95tly entitl$ to x1 ! news ( 8  
engagem5t to ,alison ,p>r4  ,no?+1      
h[ev]1 _h be5 he>d ( ,kate4 ,%e 0 n 9   
,dalton ,/reet1 ,mr4 ,b5tley fe>$4 ,!   
se>* ( ,gratz1 ! cab9et-mak]1 _h be5    
fruitless4 ,& ,sally ,grov] _h ev5 gone 
to see ! woman 9 ! hospital1 :om ,kate  
_h befri5d$1 9 ! hope ( gett+ a possible
 clew4 ,!y sat close toge!r be=e ! fire 
9 ,mr4 ,b5tley's com=table libr>y1      
debat+ ^u ! possibility ( o!r me?ods (  
proc$ure1 :5 a c>riage 0 he>d rattl+ ov]
 ! pitt$ asphalt )\t4 ,z x pull$ up at !
 curb1 a sil5ce fell betwe5 !m4 ,!      
door-bell rang4  ,hold] f\nd himself    
sitt+ erect1 rigidly att5tive1 li/5+ to 
! muffl$ s\nd ( a woman's voice 9 !     
entry4 ,a few mom5ts lat] came a knock  
at ! libr>y door1 & ,sam ent]$4 ,! old  

d>ky 0 pla9ly fright5$4  ,x's ,miss     
,kate1 ,m>se ,ho'ace1 :o y b9 try9' to  
f9'1 he /amm]$4  ,hold] sprang to 8 feet
 & made 8 way rapidly ar\nd ! table1 :]e
 he /ood confront+ ! woman 9 ! doorway4 
,!re %e 01 p]ceptibly sway+1 z ?\gh !   
floor "u h] 7 rock$ by an e>?quake4 ,h] 
h&some face 0 :ite z *alk1 h] pupils    
wid5$ 9 t]ror4 ,x 0 curi\s1 at su* an   
in/ant1 t he %\ld h tak5 9 h]           
co/ume1--yet x 0 "p ( ! my/]y4 ,%e wore 
a new1 close-fitt+1 pat5tly exp5sive    
suit ( d>k blue clo? & a small hat1 :i* 
7 lit]ally trans=m+ 9 _! effect1 dem&+ a
 palpable initial ef=t ( id5tification4 
,he seiz$ h] by ! arm4  ,:at is x8 he   
dem&$4  ,oh1 my ,god6 %e cri$4 ,he--he's
 out !re--9 ! c>riage4  ,%e lean$       
heavily aga9/ ! doorpo/1 %iv]+ 4 4 4 4  
,hold] saw ,sally ,grov] com+ d[n !     
/airs4  ,take h]1 he said1 & w5t out ( !
 front door1 :i* ,sam _h left op54 ,mr4 
,b5tley 0 beh9d him4  ,! driv] _h       
desc5d$ f ! box & 0 pe]+ into ! d>kness 
( ! vehicle :5 he he>d !m1 & turn$4 ,at 

sight ( ! tall cl]gyman1 an expression (
 relief came into 8 face4  ,i don't l ! 
looks ( ?is1 sir1 he said4 ,i ?\ght he 0
 pretty bad :5 ,i w5t to fet* him--     
,hold] pu%$ pa/ him & look$ into !      
c>riage4 ,lean+ back1 motionless1 9 !   
corn] ( ! seat 0 ! figure ( a man4 ,= a 
t]rible mom5t ( premonition1 (          
enlight5m5t1 ! rector gaz$ at x4  ,!y   
s5t = me f a family hotel 9 ,ay]s       
,/reet1 ! driv] 0 expla9+4 ,mr4         
,b5tley's voice int]rupt$ him4  ,he mu/ 
be br\ght 91 at once4 ,d y "k :]e ,dr4  
,latim]'s (fice is1 on ,t[] ,/reet8 he  
ask$ ! man4 ,g !re1 & br+ ?is doctor    
back ) y z quickly z possible4 ,if he is
 n 91 get ano!r1 physician4  ,betwe5 !m1
 ! driv] & ,hold] got ! burd5 out ( !   
c>riage & up ! /eps4 ,! light f !       
hallway confirm$ ! rector's fe>4  ,x's  
,pre/on ,p>r1 he said4  ,! next mom5t 0 
too dreadful = surprise1 b nev] _h !    
s5se ( trag$y s pi]c$ ! inn]mo/ dep?s ( 
,hold]'s be+ z n[1 :5 ,horace ,b5tley's 
calmness seem$ to h =sak5 him2 & z he   

gaz$ d[n ^u ! features on ! pill[1 he   
wept 4 4 4 4 ,hold] turn$ away4 ,:atev] 
memories ^? features evok$1 memories ( a
 pa/ t /ill ?robb$ ) life ^! 7 too sacr$
 = intrusion4 ,! ye>s ( exile1 (        
uncompla9+ s]vice to o!rs 9 ?is sordid  
/reet & ov] ! wide city _h n yet suffic$
 to allay ! pa91 to heal ! w\nd ( y\?4  
,nay1 loyalty _h kept x fre%--a loyalty 
t 0 ! h&maid ( fai?4 4 4  ,! rector     
s(tly left ! room1 only to be confront$ 
) ano!r h>r[+ sc5e 9 ! libr>y1 :]e a    
frantic woman 0 /ruggl+ 9 ,sally        
,grov]'s grasp4 ,he w5t to h] assi/ance4
 4 4 ,words ( com=t1 ( entreaty 7 ( no  
avail1--,kate ,m>cy did n seem to he>   
!m4 ,h]s1 9 contra/ to t o!r1 0 !       
unmean+ grief1 ! ov]:elm+ s5se (        
inju/ice ( ! *ild2 & ) h] rega9$        
physical /r5g? ! two _h all !y c\ld d to
 re/ra9 h]4  ,i w g to him1 %e sobb$1   
betwe5 h] p>oxysms1 y've got no "r to   
keep me--he's m9e 4 4 4 he came back to 
me--he's all ,i ev] _h 4 4 4 4  ,s int5t
 7 !y t !y did n notice ,mr4 ,b5tley /&+

 beside !m until !y he>d 8 voice4  ,:at 
%e says is true1 he told !m4 ,h] place  
is 9 !re4 ,let h] g4  ,kate ,m>cy rais$ 
h] head at ! words1 & look$ at him a    
/range1 half-compreh5d+1 half-cr$ul\s   
gaze4 ,!y releas$ h]1 help$ h] t[>ds !  
b$room1 & clos$ ! door g5tly beh9d h]4 4
 4 ,! ?ree sat 9 sil5ce until ! c>riage 
0 he>d return+1 & ! doctor ent]$4  ,!   
exam9ation 0 brief1 & two words1        
laconically spok51 suffic$ = an         
explanation--apoplexy1 alcohol4 ,!      
pro/rate1 quiv]+ woman 0 left :]e !y _h 
f\nd h]4  ,dr4 ,latim] 0 a fri5d ( ,mr4 
,b5tley's1 & betray$ no surprise at a   
situation :i* o!rwise might h a/oni%$   
him4 ,x 0 only :5 he le>n$ ! dead man's 
"n1 & 8 p>5tage1 t he look$ up quickly f
 8 note book4  ,! matt] c be arrang$ )\t
 a sc&al1 he said1 aft] an in/ant4 ,c y 
tell me some?+ ( ! circum/ances8  ,x 0  
,hodd] :o answ]$4  ,pre/on ,p>r _h be5 9
 love ) ?is woman1 & sep>at$ f h]4 ,%e 0
 "u ,mr4 ,b5tley's c>e :5 he f\nd h]    
aga91 ,i inf]1 by accid5t4 ,f :at !     

driv] says1 !y 7 toge!r 9 a hotel 9     
,ay]s ,/reet1 & he di$ aft] he _h be5   
put 9 a c>riage4 ,9 h] t]ror1 %e 0 br++ 
him to ,mr4 ,b5tley4  ,! doctor nodd$4  
,poor woman6 he said unexpect$ly4 ,w y  
be good en\gh to let ,mr3 ,p>r "k t ,i w
 see him at 8 h\se1 to-night8 he add$1 z
 he took 8 dep>ture4    ,,iv  ,sally    
,gr[] w5t out ) ! physician1 & x 0 ,mr4 
,b5tley :o answ]$ ! "q 9 ! rector's m9d1
 :i* he hesitat$ to ask4  ,mr4 ,p>r mu/ 
come "h1 he said4  ,z ! rector turn$1   
me*anically1 to pick up 8 hat1 ,mr4     
,b5tley add$  ,y w come back1 ,hodd]8   
,s9ce y wi% x1 sir1 ! rector said4      
,once 9 ! /reet1 he fac$ a pr$icam5t1 b 
swiftly decid$ t ! telephone 0          
impossible "u ! circum/ances1 t !re c\ld
 be no dec5t proc$ure )\t go+ himself to
 ,p>k ,/reet4 ,x 0 only a little aft]   
t54 ,! electric c> :i* he caught seem$  
to lag1 ! /ops 7 int]m9able4 ,8 ?\ghts  
flew hi!r & ?i!r4 ,%\ld he try fir/ to  
see ,alison8 ,he 0 ne>e/ to h] n[ ( all 
! _w1 & he c\ld n suff] ! ?\ght ( h]    

hav+ ! news o!rwise4 ,yes1 he mu/ tell  
h]1 s9ce %e knew no?+ ( ! exi/5ce (     
,kate ,m>cy4  ,hav+ settl$ t1--?\gh !   
?\ght ( ! bl[ %e 0 to receive lay l a   
weight on 8 he>t1--,mr4 ,b5tley's reason
 = summon+ ,eldon ,p>r to ,dalton ,/reet
 came to him4 ,t ! feel+s ( ,mr4 ,b5tley
 t[>ds ! f9anci] 7 ^? ( ,*ri/ian        
=giv5ess 0 n = a mom5t to be d\bt$3 b a 
meet+1 p>ticul>ly "u su* circum/ances1  
c\ld n b be pa9ful inde$4 ,x mu/ be1 x  
01 ,hodd] saw1 = ,kate ,m>cy's sake2    
yes1 & = ,eldon ,p>r's z well1 t he be  
giv5 ?is opportunity to deal ) ! woman  
:om he _h driv5 away f 8 son1 & ru9$4   
,! moon1 :i* _h %$ spl5d\rs ov] ! _w !  
night be=e1 0 obscur$ by a l[-drift+ mi/
 z ,hodd] turn$ 9 betwe5 ! ornam5tal    
lamps t m>k$ ! gateway ( ! ,p>k ,/reet  
mansion1 & by "s undisc]n$              
?\ght--sugge/ion he pictur$ ! he>t-brok5
 woman he _h left beside ! body ( "o :o 
_h be5 heir to all ?is magnific5ce4     
,useless n[1 /one & iron & glass1       
pictures & /atu>y4 ,all ! lab\r1 all !  

c>e & cunn+1 all ! /eal?y plann+ to get 
ahead ( o!rs _h be5 9 va96 ,:at inde$ 7 
left to ,eldon ,p>r6 ,x 0 he :o ne$$    
pity1--n ! woman :o _h s9n$ & _h be5    
absolv$ because ( h] great love2 n !    
wayw>d1 vice-driv5 boy :o lay dead4 ,! v
 horror ( :at ,eldon ,p>r 0 n[ to suff] 
turn$ ,hodd] cold z he rang ! bell &    
li/5$ = ! s(t tread ( ! s]vant :o w\ld  
answ] 8 summons4  ,! man :o flung op5 ! 
door knew him1 & did n conceal 8        
a/oni%m5t4  ,w y take my c>d to ,miss   
,p>r1 ! rector said1 if %e has n retir$1
 & tell h] ,i h a message8  ,miss ,p>r  
is /ill 9 ! libr>y1 sir4  ,alone8  ,yes1
 sir4 ,! man prec$$ him1 b be=e 8 "n _h 
be5 ann\nc$ ,alison 0 /&+1 h] book 9 h] 
h&1 gaz+ at him ) />tl$ eyes1 8 "n ris+1
 a l[ cry1 to h] lips4  ,john6  ,he took
 ! book f h]1 g5tly1 & held h] h&s4     
,some?+ has happ5$6 %e said4 ,tell      
me--,i c be> x4  ,he saw in/antly t h]  
dread 0 = him1 & x made 8 task ! h>d]4  
,x's y\r bro!r1 ,alison4  ,pre/on6 ,:at 
is x8 ,he's done some?+----  ,hodd] %ook

 8 head4  ,he di$--to-night4 ,he is at  
,mr4 ,b5tley's4  ,x 0 l h] t %e did n   
cry out1 or ev5 speak1 b /ood /ill1 h]  
h&s tight5+ on 81 h] brea/ heav+4 ,%e 0 
n1 he knew1 a woman :o wept easily1 & h]
 eyes 7 dry4 ,& he _h x to be ?ankful = 
t x 0 giv5 him to be ) h]1 9 ?is sacr$  
relation%ip1 at su* a mom5t4 ,b ev5 n[1 
su* 0 ! my/]y t ev] veil$ h] s\l1 he    
c\ld n read h] feel+s1 nor "k :at ^!    
might be t[>ds ! bro!r ^: dea? he       
ann\nc$4  ,i want to tell y1 fir/1      
,alison1 to prep>e y1 he said4  ,h]     
sil5ce 0 eloqu5t4 ,%e look$ up at him   
bravely1 tru/fully1 9 a way t made him  
w9ce4 ,:atev] ! exact nature ( h]       
suff]+1 x 0 too deep = spee*4 ,& yet %e 
help$ him1 made x easi] = him by reason 
( h] v tru/1 once giv5 n to be )drawn4  
,x gave him a p>adoxical und]/&+ ( h]   
:i* 0 beyond def9ition4  ,y mu/ "k--y   
w\ld h sometime to "k t !re 0 a woman he
 lov$1 :om he int5d$ to m>ry--b %e 0    
sep>at$ f him4 ,%e 0 n :at is call$ a   
bad woman1 %e 0 a work+ girl4 ,i f\nd   

h]1 ?is summ]1 & %e told me ! /ory1 & %e
 has be5 "u ! c>e ( ,mr4 ,b5tley4 ,%e   
disappe>$ two or ?ree days ago4 ,y\r    
bro!r met h] aga91 & he 0 /rick5 )      
apoplexy :ile ) h] ?is ev5+4 ,%e br\ght 
him to ,mr4 ,b5tley's h\se4  ,my        
fa!r--b\ght h] & s5t h] away4  ,y knew8 
,i he>d a little ab\t x at ! "t1 by     
accid5t4 ,i h always rememb]$ x 4 4 4 4 
,i h always felt t some?+ l ?is w\ld    
happ54  ,h] s5se ( fatality1 ano!r      
impression %e gave ( liv+ 9 ! deep]1    
in/9ctive curr5ts ( life1 _h nev] be5   
/rong] ^u him ?an n[4 4 4 4 ,%e releas$ 
8 h&s4  ,h[ /range1 %e said1 t ! end    
%\ld h come at ,mr4 ,b5tley's6 ,he lov$ 
my "m--%e 0 ! only woman he ev] lov$4   
,x came to ,hodd] z ! complet+ t\* ( !  
revelation he _h half glimps$ by !      
b$side4  ,ah1 he c\ld n help exclaim+1 t
 expla9s mu*4  ,%e _h look$ at him aga91
 ?r\gh sudd5 te>s1 z ?\gh div9+ 8       
ref]5ce to ,mr4 ,b5tley's grief1 :5 a   
/ep make !m turn4 ,eldon ,p>r _h ent]$ !
 room4 ,nev]1 n ev5 9 t la/ int]view1 _h

 8 h>dness seem$ s concretely app>5t z  
n[4 ,aga91 pity seem$ nev] m out (      
place1 yet pity 0 ,hodd]'s dom9ant feel+
 z he met ! coldness1 ! rel5tlessness ( 
! glance4 ,! ?+ t /ruck him1 t mom5t>ily
 kept clos$ 8 lips1 0 ! awful1          
unconsci\s timel9ess ( ! man's entrance1
 & 8 unprep>$ness to meet ! bl[ t 0 to  
cru% him4  ,may ,i ask1 ,mr4 ,hodd]1 he 
said1 9 an unemotional voice1 :at y are 
do+ 9 ?is h\se8  ,/ill ,hodd] hesitat$1 
an unwill+ execution]4  ,fa!r1 said     
,alison1 ,mr4 ,hodd] has come ) a       
message4  ,nev]1 p]haps1 _h ,eldon ,p>r 
giv5 su* complete pro( ( 8 lack (       
spiritual intuition4 ,! atmosph]e1 *>g$ 
) presage = him1 gave him no?+4  ,mr4   
,hodd] takes a /range way ( deliv]+ x1 0
 8 comm5t4  ,m]cy took prec$5ce ov] h]  
natural directness4 ,%e laid h] h& g5tly
 on 8 arm4 ,& %e _h1 at t in/ant1 no    
?\ght ( ! long ye>s he _h neglect$ h] = 
h] bro!r4  ,x's ab\t--,pre/on1 %e said4 
,pre/on6 ,! "n came %>ply f ,eldon      
,p>r's lips4 ,:at ab\t him8 ,speak1 c't 

y8  ,he di$ ?is ev5+1 said ,alison1     
simply4  ,hodd] pla9ly he>d ! tick+ ( ! 
clock on ! mantel 4 4 4 4 ,& ! drama t  
occurr$ 0 ! m horrible because x 0      
hidd52 play$1 z x 71 beh9d clos$ doors4 
,= ! spectators1 !re 0 only ! black     
wall1 & ! sil5ce4 ,eldon ,p>r lit]ally  
did no?+1 --made no ge/ure1 utt]$ no    
cry4 ,! dea?1 !y knew1 0 tak+ place 9 8 
s\l1 yet ! man /ood be=e !m1 naturally1 
= :at seem$ an int]m9able "t 4 4 4 4    
,:]e is he8 he ask$4  ,at ,mr4          
,b5tley's1 9 ,dalton ,/reet4 ,x 0       
,alison :o repli$ aga94  ,ev5 !n he gave
 no sign t he read retribution 9 !      
co9cid5ce1 betray$ no agitation at !    
m5tion ( a "n :i*1 9 su* a connection1  
might well h /ruck ! t]ror ( judgm5t    
into 8 he>t4 ,!y wat*$ him :ile1 ) a    
firm /ep1 he cross$ ! room & press$ a   
button 9 ! wall1 & wait$4  ,i want !    
clos$ automobile1 at once1 he said1 :5 !
 s]vant came4  ,i beg p>don2 sir1 b ,i  
?9k ,gratton has gone to b$4 ,he _h no  
ord]s4  ,!n wake him1 said ,eldon ,p>r1 

in/antly4 ,& s5d = my secret>y4  ,) a   
glance :i* he p]ceiv$ ,alison           
compreh5d$1 ,hodd] made 8 way out ( !   
room4 ,he _h f ,eldon ,p>r1 z he pass$  
him1 nei!r "q1 ackn[l$gm5t1 nor         
recognition4 ,:atev] ! bank] might h    
felt1 or :e!r 8 body _h n[ become a m]e 
ma*9e me*anically c>ry+ on a life-long  
habit ( action1 ! impression 0 "o ( !   
trem5d\sness ( ! man's consi/5cy4 ,a    
great ef=t 0 dem&$ to summon up ! n[    
almo/ unimag9able exp]i5ce ( 8          
confid5ce2 ( ! ev5+ :51 almo/ on t v    
spot1 he _h reveal$ to ,hodd] ! "o      
weakness ( 8 life4 ,& yet ! ef=t 0 n to 
be1 pres5tly1 )\t />tl+ results4 ,9 !   
d>kness ( ! /reet ! picture sudd5ly grew
 di/9ct on ! scre5 ( ! rector's m9d1 !  
face ( ! bank] subtly drawn ) pa9 z he  
_h look$ d[n on x 9 compassion2 ! voice 
) its und]curr5t ( agony3  ,he nev] knew
 h[ mu* ,i c>$--t :at ,i 0 do+ 0 all =  
him1 build+ = him1 t he might c>ry on my
 "w4    ,v  ,s swift 0 ! trolley t t5   
m9utes _h elaps$1 aft] ,hodd]'s arrival1

 be=e ! purr ( an eng9e & ! %riek ( a   
brake broke ! /illness ( upp] ,dalton   
,/reet & ann\nc$ ! /opp+ ( a heavy motor
 be=e ! door4 ,! rector _h f\nd ,mr4    
,b5tley 9 ! libr>y1 alone1 seat$ ) b5t  
head 9 front ( ! fire1 & _h simply      
ann\nc$ ! int5tion ( ,eldon ,p>r to     
come4 ,f ! *air ,hodd] _h unobtrusively 
*os51 ne> ! w9d[1 8 eyes re/$ on ! noble
 pr(ile ( 8 fri5d4 ,:at 8 ?\ghts 71     
,hodd] c\ld n surmise2 = he seem$ aga91 
m>vell\sly1 to h rega9$ ! outw>d peace  
:i* 0 ! symbol ( bani%m5t f ! inn] man (
 all ?\ght ( self4  ,i h prep>$ h] =    
,mr4 ,p>r's com+1 he said to ,hodd] at  
l5g?4  ,& yet he _h left h] !re6 ,hodd] 
recall$ ! words ,mr4 ,b5tley _h spok51  
,x is h] place4 ,h] place1 ! fall5      
woman's1 ! place %e _h e>n$ by a great  
love & a great r5unciation1 ( :i* no    
e>?ly p[] might h5ce=? deprive h] 4 4 4 
4  ,!n came ! motor1 ! r+ at ! door1 !  
entrance ( ,eldon ,p>r into ! libr>y4   
,he paus$1 a p]ceptible mom5t1 on !     
?re%old z 8 look fell ^u ! man :om he _h

 depriv$ ( home & =tune1--yes & ( ! "o  
woman 9 ! _w = !m bo?4 ,mr4 ,b5tley _h  
ris51 & /ood fac+ him4 ,t %9+1          
compassionate gaze %\ld h be5 inde$ a   
difficult "o to meet4 ,v5geance 0 !     
,"l's1 9 tru?6 ,:at ordeal t ,horace    
,b5tley 9 ang] & retribution might h    
devis$ c\ld h equall$ ?is6  ,& yet      
,eldon ,p>r did meet x--) an ef=t4      
,hodd]1 f 8 corn]1 detect$ ! ef=t1 ?\gh 
x 7 b>ely disc]nible1 & w\ld h pass$ a  
scrut9y less rigid1--! fir/ outw>d &    
visible sign ( ! lesion )94 ,= a brief  
in/ant ! bank]'s eyes enc\nt]$ ,mr4     
,b5tley's look ) a fla% ( ! old         
defiance1 & fell1 & !n swept ! room4  ,w
 y come ?is way1 ,mr4 ,p>r8 ,mr4 ,b5tley
 said1 indicat+ ! door ( ! b$room4      
,alison foll[$4 ,h] eyes1 wet ) unhe$$  
te>s1 _h nev] left ,mr4 ,b5tley's face4 
,%e put out h] h& to him 4 4 4 4  ,eldon
 ,p>r _h halt$ abruptly4 ,he knew f     
,alison ! circum/ances 9 :i* 8 son _h   
di$1 & h[ he _h be5 br\ght hi!r to ?is  
h\se1 b ! sight ( ! woman beside ! b$   

fann$ into flame 8 fury aga9/ a _w :i*  
_h *eat$ him1 by su* ignom9i\s means1 ( 
8 de>e/ wi%4 ,he grew :ite ) sudd5      
passion4  ,:at is %e do+ "h8 he dem&$4  
,kate ,m>cy1 :o _h n seem$ to he> 8     
entrance1 rais$ up to him a face f :i*  
all fe> _h fl$1 a face :i*1 by its      
sugge/ive p[]1 compell$ him to realize !
 absolute despair clut*+ n[ at 8 own    
s\l1 & aga9/ :i* he 0 fight+ wildly1    
hopelessly4 ,x 0 ly+ 9 wait = him1 ,)   
hide\s pati5ce1 9 ! com+ wat*es ( !     
night4 ,p]haps he read 9 ! face ( ?is   
woman :om he _h condemn$ to suff] all   
degradation1 & ov] :om he 0 n[ p[]less1 
some?+ :i* w\ld ultimately save h] f !  
hell n[ yawn+ = him2 a r$eem+ elem5t 9  
h] grief ( :i* %e h]self 7 n z yet      
consci\s1 a light %9+ 9 ! d>kness ( h]  
s\l :i* 9 et]nity w\ld become lum9\s4 ,&
 he saw no light = him--,he ?ra%$ 9     
d>kness4 ,he _h no?+1 n[1 to give1 no   
p[] long] to deprive4 ,%e _h giv5 all %e
 possess$1 ! memorial ( h] k9d :i* w\ld 
outla/ monum5ts4  ,x 0 ,alison :o cross$

 ! room swiftly4 ,%e laid h] h&         
protect+ly on ,kate ,m>cy's %\ld]1 &    
/oop$1 & kiss$ h]4 ,%e turn$ to h] fa!r4
  ,x is h] "r1 %e said4 ,he belong$ to  
h]1 n to u4 ,& we mu/ take h] home ) u4 
,no1 answ]$ ,kate ,m>cy' ,i don't want  
to g4 ,i w\ldn't live1 %e add$ )        
unexpect$ int5sity1 ) him4  ,y w\ld live
 ) me1 said ,alison4  ,i don't want to  
live6 ,kate ,m>cy got up f ! *air ) an  
en]gy !y _h n ?\ght h] to possess1 a    
revival ( ! _s :i* _h upheld h] :5 %e _h
 cont5d$1 s+ly1 ) a remorseless _w4 ,%e 
address$ h]self to ,eldon ,p>r4 ,y took 
him f me1 & ,i 0 a fool to let y4 ,he   
might h sav$ me & sav$ himself4 ,i li/5$
 to y :5 y told me lies z to h[ x w\ld  
ru9 him 4 4 4 4 ,well1--,i _h him y nev]
 did4  ,! sudd51 intol]able s5se ( wrong
 done to h] love1 ! swift ang] :i*      
foll[$ x1 ! ju/ness ( h] claim ( him :o 
n[ lay 9 ! dignity ( dea? clo!d h]--:o 9
 life _h be5 cru%$ & blott$ out--) a    
dignity n to be ga9said4 ,9 ?is mom5t ( 
f9al self-ass]tion %e became ! dom9at+  

p]son 9 ! room1 knew = once ! bir?right 
( human wor?4 ,!y wat*$ h] 9 sil5ce z %e
 turn$ & gave "o la/1 l+]+ look at !    
features ( ! dead2 /ret*$ out h] h&     
t[>ds !m1 b did n t\* !m 4 4 4 & !n w5t 
sl[ly t[>ds ! door4 ,beside ,alison %e  
/opp$4  ,y are 8 si/]8 %e said4  ,yes4  
,%e se>*$ ,alison's face1 wi/fully4  ,i 
c\ld h lov$ y4  ,& c y n--/ill8  ,kate  
,m]cy did n answ] ! "q4  ,x is because y
 und]/&1 %e said4 ,y're l ^? ,i've come 
to "k--"h4 ,& y're l him 4 4 4 4 ,i     
don't mean 9 looks4 ,he1 too1 0 good--& 
squ>e4 ,%e spoke ! words a little       
defiantly1 z ?\gh *all5g+ ! v]dict ( !  
_w4 ,& he w\ldn't h be5 wild if he c\ld 
h got go+ /raight4  ,i "k1 said ,alison1
 9 a l[ voice4  ,yes1 said ,kate ,m]cy1 
y look z if y did4 ,he ?\ght a lot ( y1 
he said he 0 only beg9n+ to f9d out :at 
y 04 ,i'd l y to ?9k z well ( me z y c4 
,i c\ld n ?9k bett]1 ,alison repli$4    
,kate ,m]cy %ook h] head4  ,i got ab\t z
 l[ z any woman ev] got1 %e said  ,mr4  
,hodd] w tell y4 ,i want y to "k t ,i   

w\ldn't m>ry --y\r bro!r1 %e hesitat$   
ov] ! "n4 ,he want$ me to--he 0 mad ) me
 to night1 because ,i w\ldn't--:5 ?is   
happ5$4  ,%e snat*$ h] h& free f        
,alison's1 & fl$ out ( ! room1 into !   
hallway4  ,eldon ,p>r _h mov$ t[>ds !   
b$1 seem+ly unaw>e ( ! words !y _h      
spok54 ,p]haps1 z he gaz$ ^u ! face1 he 
rememb]$ 9 8 agony ! sunny1 smil+ *ild  
:o ne$ to come hurry+ d[n ! /eps 9      
,ransome ,/reet to meet him4  ,9 !      
libr>y ,mr4 ,b5tley & ,john ,hodd]1 kn[+
 no?+ ( h] flight1 he>d ! front door    
close on ,kate ,m>cy =ev] 4 4 4 4       
,,*apt] ,,xxviii  ,,light   ,i  ,two    
days aft] ! fun]al1 :i* _h tak5 place f 
,calv>y1 & n f ,/4 ,john's1 ,hodd] 0 no 
little a/oni%$ to receive a note f      
,eldon ,p>r's secret>y reque/+ ! rector 
to call 9 ,p>k ,/reet4 ,9 ! same mail 0 
a lett] f ,alison4 ,i h _h1 %e wrote1 a 
talk ) my fa!r4 ,! initiative 0 84 ,i   
%\ld n h ?\ght ( speak+ to him ( my     
affairs s soon aft] ,pre/on's dea?4 ,x  
seems t he /rongly suspect$ our         

engagem5t1 :i* ( c\rse ,i at once       
ackn[l$g$1 tell+ him t x 0 y\r int5tion1
 at ! prop] "t1 to speak to him y\rself4
  ,i 0 surpris$ :5 he said he w\ld ask y
 to call4 ,i confess t ,i h n an idea ( 
:at he int5ds to say to y1 ,john1 b ,i  
tru/ y absolutely1 z always4 ,y w f9d   
him1 already1 t]ribly *ang$4 ,i _c      
describe x--y w see = y\rself4 ,& x has 
all seem$ to happ5 s sudd5ly4 ,z ,i     
wrote y1 he sat up bo? nights1 )        
,pre/on--he c\ld n be induc$ to leave ! 
room4 ,& aft] ! fir/ night he 0 diff]5t4
 ,he has h>dly spok5 a ^w1 except :5 he 
s5t = me ?is ev5+1 & he eats no?+ 4 4 4 
4 ,& yet1 someh[1 ,i d n ?9k t ?is w be 
! end4 ,i feel t he w g on liv+4 4 4 4 4
  ,i did n realize h[ mu* he /ill hop$  
ab\t ,pre/on4 ,& on ,monday1 :5 ,pre/on 
s unexpect$ly came home1 he 0 happi] ?an
 ,i h kn[n him = ye>s4 ,x 0 /range & sad
 t he c\ld n see1 z ,i saw1 t :atev] w  
p[] my bro!r _h _h 0 gone4 ,he c\ld n   
read x 9 ! face ( 8 own son1 :o 0 s     
quick to detect x 9 all o!rs6 ,& !n came

 ! trag$y4 ,oh1 ,john1 d y ?9k we %all  
ev] f9d t girl aga98--,i "k y are try+ b
 we mu/n't re/ until we d4 ,d y ?9k we  
ev] %all8 ,i %all nev] =give myself = n 
foll[+ h] out ( ! door1 b1 ,i ?\ght %e  
_h gone to y & ,mr4 ,b5tley4  ,hodd]    
laid ! lett] d[n1 & took x up aga94 ,he 
knew t ,alison felt1 z he felt1 t !y    
nev] w\ld f9d ,kate ,m>cy 4 4 4 4 ,he   
read on4  ,my fa!r wi%$ to speak to me  
ab\t ! money4 ,he has plans = mu* ( x1 x
 appe>s1 ev5 n[4 ,oh4 ,john1 he w nev]  
und]/&4 ,i want s mu* to see y1 to talk 
to y--!re are times :5 ,i am actually   
afraid to be alone1 & )\t y4 ,if x be   
weakness to confess t ,i ne$ y\r        
reassurance1 y\r /r5g? & com=t          
con/antly1 !n ,i am weak4 ,i once ?\ght 
,i c\ld /& alone1 t ,i _h solv$ all     
problems = myself1 b ,i "k n[ h[ fooli% 
,i 04 ,i h be5 face to face ) su*       
dreadful1 unimag9$ ?+s1 & 9 my ignorance
 ,i did n conceive t life held su*      
t]rors4 ,& :5 ,i look at my fa!r1 !     
?\ght ( immortality turns me fa9t4 ,aft]

 y h come "h ?is aft]noon !re c be no   
long] any reason :y we %\ld n meet1 &   
all ! _w "k x4 ,i w g ) y to ,mr4       
,b5tley's4  ,( c\rse ,i ne$ n tell y t  
,i refus$ to inh]it any?+4 ,b ,i believe
 ,i %\ld h cons5t$ if ,i possibly c\ld h
 done s4 ,x seem$ s cruel--,i c ?9k ( no
 o!r ^w--to h1 to refuse at su* a mom5t4
 ,p]haps ,i h be5 cruel to him all my   
life--,i don't "k4 ,z ,i look back ^u   
ev]y?+1 all our relations1 ,i _c see h[ 
,i c\ld h be5 diff]5t4 ,he w\ldn't let  
me4 ,i /ill believe to h /ay$ ) him w\ld
 h be5 a fooli% & useless sacrifice 4 4 
4 ,b he look$ at me s que]ly1 z ?\gh he1
 too1 _h _h a glimm]+ ( :at we might h  
be5 to ea* o!r aft] my "m di$4 ,:y is   
life s h>d8 ,& :y are we always gett+   
glimpses ( ?+s :5 x is too late8 ,x is  
only hone/ to say t if ,i _h x to d all 
ov] aga91 ,i %\ld h left him z ,i did4  
,x is h>d to write y ?is1 b he actually 
made ! condition ( my acceptance ( !    
inh]itance t ,i %\ld n m>ry y4 ,i really
 d n believe ,i conv9c$ him t y w\ldn't 

h me take ! money "u any circum/ances4  
,& ! dreadful side ( x all 0 t ,i _h to 
make x pla9 to him--aft] :at has happ5$ 
t my desire to m>ry y wasn't ! ma9      
reason ( my refusal4 ,i _h to tell him t
 ev5 ?\gh y _h n be5 9 "q1 ,i c\ldn't h 
tak5 :at he wi%$ to give me1 s9ce x _h n
 be5 hone/ly made4 ,he ask$ me :y ,i w5t
 on eat+ ! food b\ght ) su* money1 liv+ 
"u 8 ro(8 ,b ,i _c1 ,i w n leave him j  
yet 4 4 4 4 ,x is two o'clock4 ,i _c    
write any m to-night4    ,,ii  ,!       
appo9t$ "t 0 at ! ,novemb] dusk1 hurri$ 
=w>d ne>ly an h\r by ! fall+ panoply (  
smoke driv5 we/w>d ov] ! ,p>k by ! wet  
ea/ w9d4 ,& ! rector 0 conduct$1 ) due  
c]emony1 to ! (fice up/airs :i* he _h   
nev] aga9 expect$ to ent]1 :]e t o!r    
memorable int]view _h tak5 place4 ,!    
curta9s 7 drawn4 ,& if ! gre5-%ad$      
lamp--! only light 9 ! room--_h be5     
arrang$ by a ma/] ( dramatic effect1 x  
c\ld n h bett] s]v$ ! sett+4  ,9 spite (
 ,alison's lett]1 ,hold] 0 unprep>$ = ! 
ravages a few days _h made 9 ! face (   

,eldon ,p>r4 ,n t he appe>$ old]3 !     
impression 0 less natural1 m s9i/]4 ,!  
sk9 _h drawn %>ply ov] ! *eek-bones1 &  
/rangely ! eyes bo? contradict$ &       
h>moniz$ ) ! trans=mation ( ! features4 
,^!1 too1 _h *ang$4 ,!y 7 n dead &      
lu/reless1 b gleam$ out ( ! %ad[y cav]ns
 into :i* !y _h sunk1 unyield+1         
indomitable 9 torm5t1--eyes ( a _s      
rebelli\s 9 ! fumes 4 4 4 4  ,?is _s    
someh[ produc$ ! s5sation ( its be+     
sep>at$ f ! body1 = ! movem5t ( ! h&1   
invit+ ,hold] to seat himself1 seem$    
almo/ automatic4  ,i und]/&1 said ,eldon
 ,p>r1 t y wi% to m>ry my daught]4  ,x  
is true t ,i am to m>ry ,alison1 ,hold] 
answ]$1 & t ,i int5d$1 lat] on1 to come 
to in=m y ( ! fact4  ,he did n m5tion ! 
dea? ( ,pre/on4 ,condol5ces1 "u !       
circum/ances1 7 utt]ly out ( ! "q4  ,h[ 
d y propose to support h]8 ! bank]      
dem&$4  ,%e is ( age1 & indep5d5t ( y4  
,y w p>don me if ,i reply t ?is is a    
matt] betwe5 ourselves1 ,hold] said4  ,i
 _h made up my m9d t ! day %e m>ri$ y ,i

 w\ld n only dis9h]it h]1 b refuse      
absolutely1 to h any?+ to d ) h]4  ,if y
 _c p]ceive :at %e p]ceives1 t y h      
already by y\r own life cut h] (f f y   
absolutely & t see+ h] w n m5d matt]s   
:ile y rema9 rel5tless1 no?+ ,i c say w 
conv9ce y4 ,hold] did n speak rebuk+ly4 
,! utt] uselessness ( x 0 nev] m app>5t4
 ,! man 0 condemn$ beyond all pres5t    
reprieve1 at lea/4  ,%e left me1        
exclaim$ ,eldon ,p>r1 bitt]ly4  ,%e left
 y1 to save h]self4  ,we ne$ n discuss  
t4  ,i am f> f wi%+ to discuss x1 ,hold]
 repli$4  ,i d n "k :y y h ask$ me to   
come "h1 ,mr4 ,p>r4 ,x is cle> t y\r    
attitude has n *ang$ s9ce our la/       
conv]sation4 ,i tri$ to make x pla9 to y
 :y ! *ur* c\ld n accept y\r money4 ,y\r
 own daught]1 _c accept x4  ,!re 0 a "t1
 retort$ ! bank]1 :5 y did n refuse to  
accept x4  ,yes1 ,hold] repli$1 t is    
true4 ,x came to him vividly !n t x _h  
be5 ,alison h]self :o _h ca/ ! enlight5+
 gleam :i* reveal$ 8 inconsi/5cy4 ,b he 
did n def5d himself4  ,i c see no?+ 9   

all ?is1 ,mr4 ,hodd]1 b a species (     
insanity1 said ,eldon ,p>r1 & !re crept 
into 8 tone bo? qu]ul\sness & int5se    
exasp]ation4 ,9 ! fir/ place1 y insi/ ^u
 m>ry+ my daught] :5 nei!r %e nor y h   
any dep5dable means ( support4 ,%e nev] 
sp>$ h] criticisms ( me1 & y presume to 
condemn me1 a man :o1 if he has neglect$
 8 *ildr51 has done s because he has    
sp5t too mu* ( 8 "t 9 s]v+ 8 community &
 8 c\ntry1 & :o has--if ,i h to say x   
myself--built up ! prosp]ity :i* y &    
o!rs are do+ y\r be/ to te> d[n1 & :i* c
 only result 9 ! spread ( mis]y4 ,y     
pr(ess to h a sympa?y ) ! masses1 b y d 
n "k !m z ,i d4 ,!y _c control !mselves1
 !y require a /rong h&4 ,b ,i am n ask+ 
= y\r sympa?y4 ,i h be5 misund]/ood all 
my life1 ,i h become us$ to +ratitude1  
ev5 f my *ildr51 & f ! rector ( ! *ur* =
 :i* ,i h done m ?an any o!r man4       
,hodd] />$ at him 9 amazem5t4  ,y really
 believe t6 he exclaim$4  ,believe x6   
,eldon ,p>r repeat$4 ,i h _h my tr\bles1
 z heavy b]eavem5ts z a man c h4 ,all ( 

!m1 ev5 ?is ( my son's dea?1 all !      
+ratitude & lack ( sympa?y ,i h         
exp]i5c$-- 7he look$ delib]ately at     
,hodd]7 h n prev5t$ me1 d n prev5t me   
to-day f reg>d+ my =tune z a tru/4 ,y h 
depriv$ ,/4 ,john's1 at lea/ s long z y 
rema9 !re1 ( "s ( its b5efits1 & !      
responsibility = t is on y\r own head4  
,& ,i am n[ mak+ arrangem5ts to give to 
,calv>y ! settlem5t h\se :i* ,/4 ,john's
 %\ld h _h4  ,! words 7 spok5 ) su* an  
air ( conviction1 ( unconsci\s          
plausibility1 z x 71 t x 0 impossible = 
,hodd] to d\bt ! g5u95ess ( ! attitude  
!y express$4 ,& yet x 0 m ?an 8 m9d c\ld
 grasp 4 4 4 4 ,horace ,b5tley1 ,ri*>d  
,g>v91 & ! mis]able woman ( ! /reets :om
 he _h driv5 to de/roy h]self _h made   
absolutely no impression :atev]6 ,!     
gifts1 ! b5efactions ( ,eldon ,p>r to 8 
fell[-m5 w\ld g on z be=e6  ,y ask me :y
 ,i s5t = y1 ! bank] w5t on4 ,x 0       
prim>ily because ,i hop$ to impress ^u y
 ! folly ( m>ry+ my daught]4 ,& 9 spite 
( all ! injury & inju/ice y h done me1  

,i d n =get t y 7 once 9 a relation%ip  
to me :i* has be5 unique 9 my life4 ,i  
tru/$ y1 ,i admir$ y1 = y\r ability1 =  
y\r faculty ( gett+ on ) m54 ,at t "t y 
7 wise en\gh n to attempt to pass comm5t
 ^u accid5ts 9 bus9ess affairs :i* are1 
if deplorable1 inevitable4  ,eldon      
,p>r's voice gave a mom5t>y sign (      
break+4  ,i w be frank ) y4 ,my son's   
dea? has l$ me1 p]haps weakly1 to make  
"o m appeal4 ,y h ru9$ y\r c>e] by ^!   
*im]ical1 sociali/ic notions y h tak5   
up1 & :i* y mi/ake = ,*ri/ianity4 ,z a  
practical man ,i c tell y1 positively1 t
 ,/4 ,john's w run d[nhill until y are  
bankrupt4 ,! p :o come to y n[ are 9    
se>* ( a new s5sation1 & :5 t gr[s /ale 
!y w fall away4 ,ev5 if a respectable   
numb] rema9 9 y\r congregation1 aft] ?is
 excitem5t & publicity h di$ d[n1 ,i h  
reason to "k t x is impossible to       
support a l>ge city *ur* on             
contributions4 ,x has be5 tri$ aga9 &   
aga91 & fail$4 ,y h borr[$ money = !    
,*ur*'s pres5t ne$s4 ,:5 t is gone ,i   

pr$ict t y w f9d x difficult to get m4  
,?is _h e indication ( be+ a ?reat1 b   
,hodd]1 out ( %e] curiosity1 did n      
int]rupt4 ,& x 0 evid5t t ! bank] drew a
 wrong conclusion f 8 sil5ce1 :i* he may
 actually h tak5 = reluctant            
acquiesc5ce4 ,8 tone grew m ass]tive4   
,! ,*ur*1 ,mr4 ,hodd]1 _c d )\t !       
sub/antial bus9ess m54 ,i h told ! bi%op
 s1 b he is fail+ s rapidly f old age t 
,i might z well n h wa/$ my brea?4 ,he  
ne$s an assi/ant1 a suffragan or        
coadjutor1 & ,i int5d to make x my      
affair to see t he gets "o4 ,:5 ,i      
rememb] him z he 0 t5 ye>s ago1 ,i f9d x
 h>d to believe t he is t\*$ ) ^!       
fancies4 ,to be *>itable1 x is s5ile    
decay4 ,he seems to =get :at ,i h done =
 him1 p]sonally1 made up 8 sal>y1 paid 8
 exp5ses at diff]5t times1 & no appeal =
 ! diocese to me 0 ev] 9 va94 ,b aga91  
,i w let t g4  ,:at ,i am gett+ at is   
?is4 ,y h made a mess ( ! affairs ( ,/4 
,john's1 y h made a mess ( y\r life4 ,i 
am will+ to give y ! cr$it = s9c]ity4   

,"s ( my fri5ds might n be4 ,y want to  
m>ry my daught]1 & %e is app>5tly       
det]m9$ to m>ry y4 ,if y are s5sible &  
resign f ,/4 ,john's n[ ,i w settle on  
,alison a suffici5t sum to all[ y bo? to
 live 9 com=t & dec5cy ! re/ ( y\r      
lives4 ,i w n h x said ( me t ,i p]mitt$
 my daught] to become de/itute4  ,aft]  
he _h f9i%$1 ! rector sat = s long a "t 
t ! bank] n]v\sly %ift$ 9 8 *air4 ,!    
cl]gyman's look _h a cumulative quality1
 an int5sity :i* seem$ to increase z !  
sil5ce cont9u$4 ,!re 0 no ang] 9 x1 no  
fanaticism4 ,on ! contr>y1 ! high]      
sanity ( x 0 di/urb+2 & its extraord9>y 
implication--gradually borne 9 ^u ,eldon
 ,p>r--0 t he himself 7 n 9 8 "r m9d4 ,!
 words1 :5 !y came1 7 a confirmation (  
?is inf]5ce4  ,x is :at ,i fe>$1 ,mr4   
,p>r1 he said4 ,y are z yet incapable ( 
compreh5d+4  ,:at d y mean8 ask$ !      
bank]1 j]k+ 8 h& f ! table4  ,! rector  
%ook 8 head4  ,if ?is great *a/isem5t ) 
:i* y h be5 visit$ has giv5 y no h9t ( !
 true mean+ ( life1 no?+ ,i c say w     

avail4 ,if y w n yet li/5 to ! ,_s :i*  
is try+ to make y compreh5d1 h[ !n w y  
li/5 to me8 ,h[ am ,i to op5 y\r eyes to
 ! p>adox ( tru?1 t he :o w\ld save 8   
life %all lose x1 t x is easi] = a camel
 to g ?r\gh ! eye ( a ne$le1 ?an = a ri*
 man to ent] into ! ,k+dom ( ,god8 ,if y
 w n believe him :o said t1 y w n       
believe me4 ,i c only beg ( y1 /rive to 
und]/&1 t y\r he>t _m be s(t5$1 t y\r   
suff]+ s\l may be releas$4  ,x is to be 
record$1 /rangely1 t ,eldon ,p>r did n  
gr[ angry 9 8 turn4 ,! burn+ eyes look$ 
out at ,hodd] curi\sly1 z at a be+ ^u   
:om ! vials ( wra? 7 someh[ wa/$1 aga9/ 
:om ! weapons ( p[] 7 ( no acc\nt4 ,!   
fanatic _h become a ph5om5on :i* _h     
mom5t>ily /ill$ passion to ar\se int]e/4
 4 4 ,art ?\ a ma/] ( ,israel1 & kn[e/ n
 ^! ?+s8  ,d y mean to say--su* 0 ! "q t
 sprang to ,eldon ,p>r's lips--t y take 
! ,bible lit]ally8 ,:at is y\r po9t (   
view8 ,y speak ab\t ! salvation ( s\ls1 
,i h he>d t k9d ( talk all my life4 ,& x
 is easy1 ,i f9d1 = m5 :o h nev] kn[n ! 

responsibilities ( weal? to criticize & 
advise4 ,i reg>d indiscrim9ate giv+ z   
no?+ less ?an a crime1 & ,i h always    
tri$ to be pa9/ak+ & judici\s4 ,if ,i _h
 tak5 ! words y quot$ at _! face value1 
,i %\ld h no weal? to di/ribute to-day4 
,i1 too1 ,mr4 ,hodd]1 odd z x may seem  
to y1 h _h my dreams--( do+ my %>e (    
mak+ ?is c\ntry ! be/ place 9 ! _w to   
live 94 ,x has pleas$ provid5ce to take 
away my son4 ,he 0 n fitt$ to c>ry on my
 "w1--t is ! way--) dreams4 ,i 0 to h   
taught him to build up1 & to give1 z ,i 
h giv54 ,y ?9k me embitt]$1 h>d1 because
 ,i seek to d good1 to int]pret !       
,gospel 9 my own way4 ,be=e ?is ye> is  
out ,i %all h retir$ f all active       
bus9ess4  ,i int5d to sp5d ! re/ ( my   
life 9 giv+ away ! money ,i h e>n$--all 
( x4 ,i d n int5d to sp>e myself1 & giv+
 w be h>d] ?an e>n+4 ,i %all f\nd       
in/itutions = rese>* ( disease1         
hospitals1 playgr\nds1 libr>ies1 &      
s*ools4 ,& ,i %all make ! univ]sity "h  
"o ( ! be/ 9 ! c\ntry4 ,:at m1 may ,i   

ask1 w\ld y h me d8  ,ah1 repli$ !      
rector1 x is n :at ,i w\ld h y d4 ,x is 
n1 inde$1 a "q ( 'do+1' b ( see+4  ,(   
see+8 ! bank] repeat$4 ,z ,i say1 ( us+ 
judgm5t4  ,judgm5t1 yes1 b ! judgm5t :i*
 has n yet dawn$ = y1 ! enlight5m5t :i* 
is ! k ( ,god's w4 ,worldly wisdom is a 
rule ( ?umb _m m5 may acquire1 ! o!r    
wisdom1 ! wisdom ( ! s\l1 is p]sonal--! 
rew>d ( revelation :i* spr+s f desire4  
,y ask me :at ,i ?9k y %\ld d4 ,i w tell
 y--b y w n d x1 y w be p[]less to d x  
unless y see x = y\rself1 unless ! "t   
%all come :5 y are will+ to give up     
ev]y?+ y h held de> 9 life1--n y\r      
money1 b y\r op9ions1 ! v judgm5t &     
wisdom y value1 until y h ga9$ ! fai?   
:i* proclaims ^! wor?less1 until y are  
ready to receive ! ,k+dom ( ,god z a    
little *ild4 ,y are n ready1 n[4 ,y\r   
attitude1 y\r v words1 proclaim y\r     
bl9dness to all t has happ5$ y1 y\r     
det]m9ation to c>ry out1 s f> z x is    
left to y1 y\r own w4 ,y may die )\t    
see+4  ,crazy z x all s\nd$1 a slight   

tremor %ook ,eldon ,p>r4 ,!re 0 some?+ 9
 ! eyes1 9 ! p[]ful features ( !        
cl]gyman t kept him /ill1 t made him    
li/5 ) a fasc9ation :i* _h he tak5      
cognizance ( x--0 ak9 to fe>4 ,t ?is man
 believ$ x1 t he w\ld impress x ^u o!rs1
 nay1 _h already done s1 ! bank] did n  
!n d\bt4  ,y speak ( giv+1 ,hodd]       
cont9u$1 & y h no?+ to give --no?+4 ,y  
are poor] to-day ?an ! humble/ man :o   
has se5 ,god4 ,b y h mu*1 y h all to    
re/ore4 ,)\t rais+ 8 voice1 ! rector _h 
contriv$ to put a mighty emphasis on !  
^w4 ,y speak ( ! lab\r ( giv+1 b if y   
seek y\r ,god & haply f9d him y w n re/ 
night or day :ile y live until y h      
re/or$ e doll> possible ( t :i* y h     
wrongfully tak5 f o!rs4  ,john ,hodd]   
rose & rais$ 8 arm 9 effective prote/   
aga9/ ! int]ruption ,eldon ,p>r 0 ab\t  
to make4 ,he bore him d[n4  ,i "k :at y 
are go+ to say1 ,mr4 ,p>r1--t x is n    
practical4 ,t ^w 'practical' is ! b>ri] 
betwe5 y & y\r ,god4 ,i tell y t ,god c 
make any?+ practical4 ,y\r consci5ce1 ! 

_s1 tortures y to-day1 b y h n _h en\gh 
torture1 y /ill ?9k to escape easily1 to
 keep ! sympa?y ( a _w :i* despises y4  
,y are afraid to d :at ,god w\ld h y d4 
,y h ! opportunity1 ?r\gh grace1 by y\r 
example to leave ! _w bett] ?an y f\nd  
x1 to d a ?+ ( su* magnitude z is giv5  
to few m51 to confess be=e all t y\r    
life has be5 bl9d & wick$4 ,t is :at !  
,_s is try+ to tea* y4 ,b y fe> !       
ridicule ( ! o!r bl9d m51 y h n ! fai?  
to believe t _m eyes w\ld be op5$ by y\r
 act4 ,! v %ame ( su* a confession1 y   
?9k1 is n to be borne4  ,suppose ,i     
ackn[l$ge1 :i* ,i d n1 y\r prepo/]\s    
*>ge1 h[ w\ld y propose to d ?is ?+8  ,x
 is v simple1 said ! rector1 s f> z !   
actual me?od ( proc$ure goes4 ,y h only 
to e/abli% a bo>d ( m5 9 :om y h        
confid5ce1--a c\rt ( claims1 s to       
speak1--to pass ^u ! validity ( e       
application1 n f a bus9ess /&po9t alone1
 b f "o ( a broad ju/ice & equity4 ,& n 
only t4 ,i %\ld h x an important "p ( ! 
duties ( ?is bo>d to discov] = !mselves 

o!r claimants :o may n1 = v>i\s reasons1
 come =w>d4 ,9 ! case ( ! ,consolidat$  
,tractions1 = in/ances !re are d\btless 
_m m5 l ,g>v9 :o inve/$ _! sav+s l>gely 
on ! /r5g? ( y\r "n4 ,y _c br+ him back 
to life1 re/ore him to 8 family z he 0  
be=e y embitt]$ him1 b x w\ld be a      
comp>atively easy matt] to return to 8  
wid[1 ) comp\nd int]e/1 ! sum :i* he    
inve/$4  ,= ! sake ( argum5t1 said      
,eldon ,p>r1 :at w\ld y d ) ! innum]able
 impo/ors :o w\ld ov]:elm su* a bo>d )  
claims t !y _h b\ght & sold /ock at a   
loss8 ,& t is only "o case ,i c\ld      
m5tion4  ,w\ld x be s dreadful a ?+1    
ask$ ,hodd]1 ,to run ! risk ( mak+ a few
 mi/akes8 ,x w\ld n be bus9ess1 y say4  
,if y _h ! desire to d ?is1 y w\ld      
dismiss su* an obsession f y\r bra91 y  
w\ld pref] to err on ! aide ( ju/ice &  
m]cy4 ,& no matt] h[ able y\r bo>d1 9   
mak+ re/itution y c\ld at be/ expect to 
m5d only a fraction ( ! wrongs y h done4
  ,i %all waive1 = ! mom5t1 my cont5tion
 t ! ,consolidat$ ,tractions ,company1  

_h x succe$$1 w\ld greatly h b5efit$ !  
city4 ,ev5 if x _h be5 ! iniquit\s1     
piratical transaction y sugge/1 :y %\ld 
,i assume ! responsibility = all :o 7   
conc]n$ 9 x8  ,if ! grace 7 giv5 y to d 
?is1 t "q w\ld answ] itself1 ! rector   
repli$4 ,! awful s5se ( responsibility1 
:i* y n[ lack1 w\ld ov]:elm y4  ,y h    
made me out a rascal & a *>latan1 said  
,eldon ,p>r1 & ,i h li/5$' pati5tly 9 my
 desire to be fair1 to le>n f y\r own   
lips :e!r !re 7 any?+ 9 ! extraord9>y   
philosophy y h tak5 up1 & :i* y are     
pleas$ to call ,*ri/ianity4 ,if y w     
p]mit me to be z frank z y h be51 x     
appe>s to me z %e] nons5se & folly1 & if
 x 7 put into practice ! _w w\ld be     
r$uc$ at once to *aos & an>*y4  ,!re is 
no dang]1 ,i am sorry to say1 ( its be+ 
put into practice at once1 said ,hodd]1 
smit+ sadly4  ,i hope n1 answ]$ ! bank]1
 dryly4 ,utopia is a dream 9 :i* ^? :o d
 ! r\gh "w ( ! _w _c af=d to indulge4 ,&
 !re is "o m "q4 ,y w1 no d\bt1 d]ide x 
z practical1 b to my m9d x is v mu* to !

 po9t4 ,y condemn ! bus9ess practices 9 
:i* ,i h engag$ all my life z utt]ly    
un*ri/ian4 ,if y are logical1 y w admit 
t no man or woman :o owns /ock 9 a mod]n
 corporation is1 accord+ to y\r         
def9ition1 ,*ri/ian1 &1 to use y\r own  
phrase1 c ent] ! ,k+dom ( ,god4 ,i c    
tell y1 z "o :o kn[s1 t !re is no       
corporation 9 ?is c\ntry :i*1 9 !       
/ruggle to ma9ta9 itself1 is n =c$ to   
adopt ! natural law ( ! survival ( !    
fitte/1 :i* y condemn4 ,y\r own sal>y1  
:ile y _h x1 came f m5 :o _h made !     
money 9 corporations4 ,bus9ess is       
bus9ess1 & admits ( no s5tim5tal        
consid]ations4 ,if y c get ar\nd t fact1
 ,i w gladly b[ to y\r g5ius4 ,%\ld y   
succe$ 9 ree/abli%+ ,/4 ,john's on :at y
 call a free basis --& 9 my op9ion y w  
n--ev5 !n ! money1 y w\ld live on1 & :i*
 support$ ! *ur*1 w\ld be directly or   
indirectly d]iv$ f corporations4  ,i d n
 propose to ent] into an economics      
argum5t ) y1 ,mr4 ,p>r1 b if y tell me t
 ! flagrant practices indulg$ 9 by ^? :o

 organiz$ ! ,consolidat$ ,tractions     
,company c be excus$ "u any code (      
morals1 any conception ( ,*ri/ianity1 ,i
 tell y !y _c4 ,:at d we see today 9 y\r
 bus9ess _w8 ,bo>ds ( directors1 tru/$  
by /ockhold]s1 betray+ _! tru/1 )hold+  
in=mation 9 ord] to pr(it !reby1 buy+ & 
sell+ /ock secretly2 /ock wat]+1 sell+  
to ! public dilut$ values1--all k9ds (  
iniquity & abuse ( p[] :i* ,i ne$ n g   
into4 ,d y mean to tell me1 on ! plea t 
bus9ess is bus9ess & h5ce a dep>tm5t by 
itself1 t deception1 *eat+1 & /eal+ are 
ju/ifi$ & necess>y8 ,! awak5$ consci5ce 
( ! public is condemn+ y4  ,! "t is at  
h&1 ?\gh nei!r y nor ,i may live to see 
x1 :5 ! public consci5ce itself is      
beg9n+ to p]ceive ?9 high] ju/ice hidd5 
f y4 ,& y are attempt+ to mislead :5 y d
 n di/+ui% betwe5 ! m5 :o1 = _! own ga9 
& p[]1 mismanage su* corporations z are 
mismanag$1 & ^? :o own /ock & are misl$4
  ,! public consci5ce ( :i* ,i speak is 
! leav5 ( ,*ri/ianity at "w4 ,& we mu/  
be cont5t to "w ) x1 to await its       

fulfilm5t1 to realize t no "o ( u c     
*ange ! _w1 b c only d 8 "p 9 mak+ x    
bett]4 ,! lea/ we c d is to refuse to   
indulge 9 practices :i* jeop>dize our   
own s\ls1 to rema9 poor if we _c make   
weal? hone/ly4 ,say :at y w1 ! ,*ri/ian 
gov]nm5t we are approa*+ w n recognize  
prop]ty1 because x is gradually becom+  
cle> t ! hold+ ( prop]ty delays ! ,k+dom
 at :i* y sc(f1 giv+ ! man :o owns x a  
p[] ov] ! body ( ! man :o does n4       
,prop]ty produces slav]y1 s9ce x compels
 ^? :o h none to "w = ^? :o h4  ,!      
possession ( prop]ty1 or ( suffici5t    
prop]ty to give "o individual an        
advantage ov] 8 fell[s is inconsi/5t )  
,*ri/ianity4 ,h5ce x w be done away )1 b
 only :5 en\gh h be5 emancipat$ to c>ry 
?is into effect4 ,h5ce ! say+ ( our ,"l 
ab\t ! ne$le's eye--! dang] to ! s\l (  
him :o owns mu* prop]ty4  ,& h[ ab\t y\r
 ,*ri/ian view ( ! _w z a vale ( te>s8  
,eldon ,p>r inquir$4  ,s long z humanity
 exi/s1 !re w always be te>s1 admitt$ ! 
rector4 ,b x is a false ,*ri/ianity :i* 

does n bid u "w = our fell[-m51 to      
relieve _! suff]+ & make ! _w bright]4  
,x is becom+ cle> t ! way to d ?is      
effectively is ?r\gh communities1       
coop]ation1 ?r\gh nations1 & n          
individuals4 ,& ?is1 if y l1 is         
practical1--s practical t ! m5 l y1 :o h
 ga9$ unexampl$ privilege1 fe> x m & m4 
,! old ,*ri/ian misconception1 t ! _w is
 ess5tially a bad place1 & :i* has s]v$ 
! ends ( y\r privilege1 is go+ by =ev]4 
,& ! motto ( ! citiz5s ( ! future w be !
 ,*ri/ian motto1 ',i am my bro!r's      
keep]4' ,! _w is a good place because ! 
,_s is cont9ually work+ 9 x1 to make x  
bett]4 ,& life is good1 if only we take 
! "r view ( x1--! reveal$ view4  ,:at y 
say is all v f9e1 said ,eldon ,p>r4 ,&  
,i h he>d x be=e1 f ! discont5t$1 !     
sociali/s4 ,b x does n take into acc\nt 
! "o ess5tial elem5t1 human nature4  ,on
 ! o!r h&1 y\r s*eme ( life fails to    
reckon ) ! great] factor1 div9e nature1 
,hodd] repli$4  ,:5 y h liv$ z long z ,i
 h1 p]haps y w ?9k diff]5tly1 ,mr4      

,hodd]4 ,eldon ,p>r's voice _h abruptly 
gr[n metallic1 z ?\gh ! full realization
 _h come ov] him ( ! sev]ity ( !        
cl]gyman's arraignm5t2 ! audacity ( !   
man :o _h v5tur$ to oppose him &        
mom5t>ily defeat$ him1 :o _h won !      
allegiance ( 8 own daught]1 :o _h d>$   
condemn him z an evil-do] & give advice 
z to 8 future c\rse4 ,he1 ,eldon ,p>r1  
:o _h be5 us$ to settle ! de/9ies ( m56 
,8 ang] 0 sudd5ly at :ite heat2 & 8     
voice1 :i* he /rove to control1 betray$ 
x4  ,s9ce y h reject$ my (f]1 :i* 0 made
 9 k9dness1 s9ce y are b5t on ru9+ my   
daught]'s life z well z y\r own1 & %e   
has disreg>d$ my wi%es1 ,i refuse to see
 ei!r ( y1 no matt] to :at /raits y may 
come1 z long z ,i live4 ,t is und]/ood4 
,& %e leaves ?is h\se to-day1 nev] to   
ent] x aga94 ,x is useless to prolong   
?is conv]sation1 ,i ?9k4  ,q useless1 z 
,i fe>$1 ,mr4 ,p>r4 ,d y "k :y ,alison  
is will+ to m>ry me8 ,x is because !    
/r5g? has be5 giv5 me to oppose y 9 ! "n
 ( humanity1 & ?is 9 spite ( ! fact t h]

 love = y to-day is great] ?an x has ev]
 be5 be=e4 ,x is a "p ( ! heavy puni%m5t
 y h inflict$ on y\rself t y _c believe 
9 h] purity4 ,y insi/ on ?9k+ t ! "t w  
come :5 %e w return to y = help4 ,9     
s5seless ang] & pride y are driv+ h]    
away f y :om y w "s day ne$4 ,& 9 t day1
 %\ld ,god grant y a rel5t+ he>t to make
 ! sign1 %e w come to y1--b to give     
com=t1 n to receive x4 ,& ev5 z y h     
?reat5$ me1 ,i w w>n y1 yet n 9 ang]4   
,except a man be born aga91 he _c see ! 
,k+dom ( ,god1 nor und]/& ! motives ( ^?
 :o w\ld ent] into x4 ,seek & pray =    
rep5tance4  ,infuriat$ ?\gh he 01 be=e !
 comm&+ yet compassionate be>+ ( !      
rector he rema9$ spee*less4 ,& aft] a   
mom5t's pause1 ,hodd] turn$ & left !    
room 4 4 4 4    ,,iii  ,:5 ,hodd] _h    
rea*$ ! foot ( ! /airs1 ,alison came out
 to him4 ,! m\rn+ %e wore made h] seem  
ev5 tall]4 ,9 ! face upturn$ to 81 fram$
 9 ! black veil & pal] ?an he _h kn[n x1
 7 traces ( te>s2 9 ! eyes a sad1 yet   
que/ion+ & tru/ful smile4 ,!y gaz$ at   

ea* o!r an in/ant1 be=e speak+1 9 !     
lum9\s ec/asy ( p]fect communion :i*    
%one = !m1 undimm$1 9 ! surr\nd+ gloom (
 trag$y4 ,& ?us1 !y felt1 x w\ld always 
%9e4 ,( t trag$y ( ! _w's s9 & sorr[ !y 
w\ld ev] be consci\s4 ,)\t d>kness !re  
c\ld be no light4  ,i knew1 %e said1    
read+ 8 tid+s1 x w\ld be ( no use4 ,tell
 me ! wor/4  ,if y m>ry me1 ,alison1 y\r
 fa!r refuses to see y aga94 ,he insi/s 
t y leave ! h\se4  ,!n :y did he wi% to 
see y8  ,x 0 to make an appeal4 ,he     
?9ks1 ( c\rse1 t ,i h made a failure (  
life1 & t if ,i m>ry y ,i %all drag y   
d[n to pov]ty & disgrace4  ,%e rais$ h] 
head1 pr\dly4  ,b he kn[s t x is ,i :o  
insi/ ^u m>ry+ y6 ,i expla9$ x all to   
him--h[ ,i _h ask$ y4 ,( c\rse he did n 
und]/&4 ,he ?9ks1 ,i suppose1 t x is    
simply an infatuation4  ,9 spite ( !    
solemnity ( ! mom5t1 ,hodd] smil$ d[n at
 h]1 t\*$ by ! confession4  ,t1 my de>1 
doesn't relieve me ( responsibility4 ,i 
am j z responsible z ?\gh ,i _h spok5   
fir/1 in/ead ( y4  ,b1 ,john1 y         

didn't--8 ,a sudd5 fe> made h] sil5t4   
,he took h] h& & press$ x reassur+ly4   
,give y up8 ,no1 ,alison1 he answ]$     
simply4 ,:5 y came to me1 ,god put y 9  
my keep+4  ,%e clung to him sudd5ly1 9 a
 passion ( relief4  ,oh1 ,i nev] c\ld   
give y up1 ,i nev] w\ld unless y y\rself
 told me to4 ,!n ,i w\ld d x1--= y4 ,b y
 won't ask me1 n[8  ,he put 8 arm ar\nd 
h] %\ld]s1 & ! /r5g? ( x seem$ to calm  
h]4  ,no1 de>4 ,i w\ld make ! sacrifice1
 ask y to make x1 if x w\ld be ( any    
good4 ,z y say1 he does n und]/&4 ,& y  
c\ldn't g on liv+ ) him & lov+ me4 ,t   
solution is impossible4 ,we c only hope 
t ! "t w come :5 he w realize 8 ne$ ( y1
 & s5d = y4  ,& did he n ask y any?+ m8 
,hodd] hesitat$4 ,he _h int5d$ to sp>e  
h] t 4 4 4 4 ,h] div9ation />tl$ him4   
,i "k1 ,i "k )\t y\r tell+ me4 ,he (f]$ 
y money1 he cons5t$ to our--m>riage if y
 w\ld give up ,/4 ,john's4 ,oh1 h[ c\ld 
he1 %e cri$4 ,h[ c\ld he s misjudge &   
insult y6  ,x is n me he misjudges1     
,alison1 x is mank9d1 x is ,god4 ,t is 8

 t]rible mis=tune4 ,hodd] releas$ h]    
t5d]ly4 ,y mu/ see him--y mu/ tell him t
 :5 he ne$s y1 y w come4  ,i w see him  
n[1 %e said4 ,y w wait =1 me8  ,n[8 he  
repeat$1 tak5 aback by h] resolution1   
?\gh x 0 *>act]i/ic4  ,yes1 ,i w g z ,i 
am4 ,i c s5d = my ?+s4 ,my fa!r has giv5
 me no *oice1 no reprieve1--n t ,i ask  
"o4 ,i h y1 de>4 ,i w /ay ) ,mr4 ,b5tley
 to-night1 & leave = ,new ,york         
to-morr[1 to d :at ,i h to d--& !n y w  
be ready = me4  ,yes1 he said1 ,i %all  
be ready4  ,he l+]$ 9 ! well-rememb]$   
hall 4 4 4 4 ,& :5 at la/ %e came d[n   
aga9 h] eyes %one bravely ?r\gh h] te>s1
 h] look answ]$ ! "q ( 8 own4 ,!re 0 no 
ne$ = spee*4 ,) n s mu* z a look beh9d  
%e left1 ) him1 h] fa!r's h\se4         
,outside1 ! mi/ _h become a drizzle1 & z
 !y w5t d[n ! walk toge!r beside !      
driveway %e slipp$ h] arm into 81 press+
 close to 8 side4 ,h] intuition 0       
p]fect1 ! c\rage ( h] love sublime4  ,i 
h y1 de>1 %e :isp]$1 nev] 9 my life be=e
 h ,i be5 ri*4  ,alison6  ,x 0 all he   

c\ld say1 b ! int5sity ( 8 m+l$ feel+   
w5t into ! syllables ( h] "n4 ,an       
impulse made !m pause & turn1 & !y /ood 
look+ back toge!r at ! great h\se :i*   
loom$ ! great] 9 ! ?ick5+ d>kness1 its  
w9d[s edg$ ) gl[4 ,nev]1 z 9 ?is mom5t  
:5 ! cold ra9 wet _! faces1 _h ! ?\ght (
 its com=t & w>m? & luxury /ruck him s  
vividly2 yes1 & ( its t]ror & lonel9ess 
n[1 ( ! tortur$ _s 9 x t f\nd no re/4   
,oh1 ,john1 %e cri$1 if we only c\ld6   
,he und]/ood h]4 ,su* 0 ! p]fect quality
 ( _! sympa?y t %e _h voic$ 8 ?\ght4    
,:at 7 ra9 & cold1 ! inclem5cy ( !      
elem5ts to !m8 ,:at ! beauty & ! w>m? ( 
^? great1 empty rooms to ,eldon ,p>r8   
,out ( ! heav5 ( _! happ9ess !y look$   
d[n1 helpless1 into ! horrors ( ! luxury
 ( hell4  ,x mu/ be1 he answ]$ h]1 9    
,god's good "t4  ,life is t]rible6 %e   
said4 ,?9k ( :at he mu/ h done to suff] 
s1 to be condemn$ to ?is6 ,& :5 ,i w5t  
to him1 j n[1 he w\ldn't ev5 kiss me    
good-by4 ,oh1 my de>1 if ,i hadn't _h y 
to take me1 :at %\ld ,i h done8 4 4 4 ,x

 nev] 0 a home to me--to any ( u4 ,& z  
,i look back n[1 all ! tr\bles began :5 
we mov$ into x4 ,i c only ?9k ( x z a   
huge prison1 all ! m s9i/] = its        
co/l9ess4  ,a prison6 ,x _h once be5 8  
own conceit4 ,he drew h] g5tly away1 &  
!y walk$ toge!r along ,p>k ,/reet t[>ds 
! di/ant arc-light at ! corn] :i* flung 
a gleam+ b& along ! wet pavem5t4        
,p]haps x 0 because ,i 0 too "y to "k   
:at tr\ble 0 :5 we liv$ 9 ,ransome      
,/reet1 %e cont9u$4 ,b ,i c rememb] n[  
h[ sad my "m 0 at times--x almo/ seem$ z
 ?\gh %e _h a premonition4 ,alison's    
voice caught 4 4 4 4  ,! c> :i* came    
ro>+ ?r\gh ! d>kness1 & :i* /opp$       
prote/+ly at _! corn]1 0 ablaze )       
electricity1 almo/ fill$ ) pass5g]s4 ,a 
"y man ) a bundle *ang$ 8 place 9 ord] t
 !y might sit toge!r 9 "o ( ! little    
b5*es bord]+ ! aisle2 opposite !m 0 a   
laugh+1 clay-soil$ gr\p ( lab\r]s go+   
home f "w2 9 front1 a "y c\ple ) a *ubby
 *ild4 ,he /ood betwe5 8 p>5ts1 fac+    
ab\t1 gaz+ 9 unemb>rass$ wond] at ! d>k 

lady ) ! veil4 ,alison's smile seem$    
only to increase ! solemnity ( 8        
adoration1 & pres5tly he attempt$ to    
climb ov] ! b>ri] betwe5 !m4 ,hodd]     
caught him1 & ! "m turn$ 9 al>m1        
recaptur+ him4  ,y mu/n't bo!r ! lady1  
,jimmy1 %e said1 :5 %e _h ?ank$ !       
rector4 ,%e _h dimpl$ *eeks & sp>kl+    
blue eyes1 b _! expression *ang$ z !y   
fell on ,alison's face1 express+ some?+ 
( ! wond] ( ! *ild's4  ,oh1 he isn't    
bo!r+ me1 ,alison prote/$4 ,d let him   
/&4  ,he don't make up to ev]ybody1     
expla9$ ! "m1 & ! mann] ( h] spee* 0 su*
 a frank tribute t ,alison flu%$4 ,!re  
_h be51 too1 9 ! look ! quick sympa?y = 
b]eavem5t ( ! poor4  ,ar5't !y nice8    
,alison lean$ ov] & :isp]$ to ,hodd]1 :5
 ! woman _h turn$ back4 ,"o ?+1 at lea/1
 ,i %all nev] regret1--t ,i %all h to   
ride ! re/ ( my life 9 ! /reetc>s4 ,i   
love !m4 ,t is probably my only         
qualification1 de>1 = a cl]gyman's wife4
  ,hodd] laugh$4 ,x /rikes me1 he said1 
z ! supreme "o4  ,!y came at l5g? to    

,mr4 ,b5tley's door1 flung op5 9 its    
usual wide hospitality by ,sam4 ,:atev] 
!i/ =tunes1 !y w\ld always be welcome "h
 4 4 4 4 ,b x turn$ out1 9 answ] to _!  
"q1 t _! fri5d 0 n at home4  ,no1 sah1  
said ,sam1 b[+ & smil+ b5ignantly1 b he 
done tole me to say1 :5 y & ,miss       
,alison come1 hit 0 to make no diffunce1
 dat y b(e 0 to h supp] heah4 ,& ,i'se  
done cook$ x--yassah4 ,w y k9dly /ep    
into ! liba'y1 suh1 & ,miss ,alison8 ,d>
 0 a lady 'cro/ de city1 ,m>se ,ho'ace  
said--yassah4  ,john1 said ,alison ) a  
que/ion+ smile1 :5 !y 7 alone be=e !    
fire1 ,i believe he w5t out on          
purpose1--don't y8--j t we might be "h  
alone4  ,he knew we 7 com+8  ,i wrote   
him4  ,i ?9k he might be convict$ on !  
evid5ce1 ,hodd] agre$4 ,b--8 ,8 "q      
rema9$ unask$4  ,alison w5t up to him4  
,he _h wat*$ h]1 absorb$ & fasc9at$1 z )
 h] r\nd arms gracefully lift$ 9 front (
 ! old mirror %e _h tak5 (f h] hat &    
veil2 smoo?+1 by a few deft t\*es1 ! d>k
 cr[n ( h] hair4 ,! unwont$ intimacy ( !

 mom5t1 invok+ z x did an endless       
reflection ( o!r simil> mom5ts 9 _!     
future life toge!r1 0 9 its effect      
ov]:elm+1 br++ ) x at la/ a conviction n
 to be d5i$4 ,h] col\r rose z %e fac$   
him1 h] la%es fell4  ,did y s]i\sly ?9k1
 de>1 t we c\ld h deceiv$ ,mr4 ,b5tley8 
,!n y are n z clev] z ,i ?\ght y4 ,z    
soon z x happ5$ ,i s5t him a note8 t v  
night4 ,= ,i felt t he ought to be told 
fir/ ( all4  ,& z usual1 ,hodd] answ]$1 
y 7 "r4  ,supp] 0 b a cont9uation ( t   
delici\s s5se ( intimacy4 ,& ,sam1 beam+
 9 8 />*$ %irt & swall[-tail1 _h an air 
( presid+ ov] a banquet ( /ate4 ,& = t  
matt]1 none _h ev] gone away hungry f   
?is table1 ei!r = meat or love4 ,x 01   
inde$1 a consecrat$ meal1--consecrat$ = 
be+ j !re4 ,su* 0 ! tact :i* ! old d>ky 
_h acquir$ f 8 ma/] t he left ! di%es on
 ! %9+ mahogany bo>d1 & b[$ himself out4
  ,:5 y wants me1 ,miss ,alison1 des r+ 
de bell4  ,%e 0 seat$ upright yet *>m+ly
 graceful1 beh9d ! old ,engli% c(fee    
s]vice :i* _h be5 ,mr4 ,b5tley's "m's4  

,& x 0 %e :o1 by h] wond]ful            
self-possession1 by ! reassur+ smile %e 
gave him z %e h&$ him 8 cup1 end[$ x all
 ) reality4  ,x's /range1 %e said1 b x  
seems z ?\gh ,i _h be5 do+ x all my     
life1 in/ead ( j beg9n+4  ,& y d x z    
?\gh y _h1 he decl>$4  ,:i* is a pro(1  
%e repli$1 ( ! sup]ior adaptability (   
wom54  ,he did n d5y x4 ,he w\ld n !n1 9
 tru?1 h disput$ h] wilde/ /atem5t4 4 4 
,b pres5tly1 aft] !y _h gone back into !
 libr>y & 7 seat$ side by side be=e !   
coals1 !y spoke aga9 ( s]i\s ?+s1       
m>vell+ once m at a happ9ess :i* c\ld be
 t+$ & yet unm>r$ by vic>i\s sorr[4     
,!irs 0 ! sob]]1 pr(\nd] happ9ess (     
gratitude & wond]1 too wise to exult1 b 
:i* ( itself is exalt$2 ! happ9ess :i*  
praises1 & passes und]/&+4  ,!re are _m 
?+s ,i want to say to y1 ,john1 %e told 
him1 once1 & !y tr\ble me a little4 ,x  
is only because ,i am s utt]ly devot$ to
 y t ,i wi% y to "k me z ,i am4 ,i h    
always _h que] views1 & al?\gh mu* has  
happ5$ to *ange me s9ce ,i h kn[n & lov$

 y1 ,i am n q sure h[ mu* ^? views h    
*ang$4 ,love1 %e add$1 plays su* havoc )
 "o's op9ions4  ,%e return$ 8 smile1 b )
 knitt$ br[s4  ,x's really s]i\s--y     
ne$n't laugh4 ,& x's only fair to y to  
let y "k ! k9d ( a wife y are gett+1    
be=e x is too late4 ,= in/ance1 ,i      
believe 9 divorce1 al?\gh ,i c't imag9e 
x = u4 ,"o nev] c1 ,i suppose1 9 ?is    
condition--t's ! tr\ble4 ,i h se5 s _m  
immoral m>riages t ,i c't ?9k ,god      
int5ds p to live degrad$4 ,& ,i'm sick &
 tir$ ( ! argum5t t an indissoluble     
m>riage "u all conditions is good =     
society4 ,t a man or woman1 ! units (   
society1 %\ld violate ! div9e 9 !mselves
 = ! sake ( society is absurd4 ,!y are  
m]ely sett+ an example to _! *ildr5 to d
 ! same ?+1 :i* means t society 9 t     
respect w nev] get any bett]4 ,9 ?is    
love t has come to u we h a*iev$ an     
ideal :i* ,i h nev] ?\ght to rea*4 ,oh1 
,john1 ,i'm sure y won't misund]/& me :5
 ,i say t ,i w\ld r die ?an h to l[] x4 
,no1 he answ]$1 ,i %all n misund]/& y4  

,ev5 ?\gh x is s difficult to put into  
words :at ,i mean4 ,i don't feel t we   
really ne$ ! m>riage s]vice1 s9ce ,god  
has already jo9$ u toge!r4 ,& x is n    
?r\gh our own wills1 someh[1 b ?r\gh 84 
,divorce w\ld n only be a crime aga9/ ! 
_s1 x w\ld be an impossibility :ile we  
feel z we d4 ,b if love %\ld cease1 !n  
,god himself w\ld h divorc$ u1 puni%$ u 
by tak+ away a priceless gift ( :i* we 7
 n wor?y4 ,he w\ld h %ut ! gates ( ,ed5 
9 our faces because we _h s9n$ aga9/ !  
,_s4 ,x w\ld be q z true to say ':om    
,god has put asund] no man may jo9      
toge!r4' ,am ,i hurt+ y8  ,h] h& 0 on ! 
arm ( 8 *air1 & ! act ( lay+ 8 own on x 
0 an assurance /rong] ?an words4 ,alison
 sigh$4  ,yes1 ,i believ$ y w\ld und]/&1
 ev5 ?\gh ,i express$ myself badly1--t y
 w\ld help me1 t y h f\nd a solution4 ,i
 us$ to reg>d ! m>riage s]vice z a      
compromise1 z a l[]+ ( ! ideal1 z some?+
 me*anical & rational put 9 ! place ( ! 
spiritual2 t x 0 mak+ ! ,*ur*1 & !re=e  
,god1 con=m to ! human notion ( :at !   

welf>e ( society ought to be4 ,& x is   
absurd to promise to love4 ,we h no     
control ov] our affections4 ,!y are 9   
,god's h&s1 to grant or )draw4  ,& yet  
,i am sure--?is is new s9ce ,i h kn[n   
y--t if su* a great love z ours be      
)drawn x w\ld be an unp>donable wrong = 
ei!r ( u to m>ry aga94 ,t is :at puzzles
 me--conf\nds ! wisdom ,i us$ to h1 &   
:i* 9 my littl5ess & pride ,i ?\ght s   
suffici5t4 ,i didn't believe 9 ,god1 b  
n[ ,i feel him1 ?r\gh y1 ?\gh ,i _c     
def9e him4 ,& "o ( _m reasons :y ,i c\ld
 n believe 9 ,*ri/ 0 because ,i took x =
 grant$ t he taught1 among o!r ?+s1 a   
cont9uation ( ! m>riage relation aft]   
love _h ceas$ to ju/ify x4  ,hodd] did n
 imm$iately reply4 ,nor did ,alison     
int]rupt 8 sil5ce1 b sat ) ! /illness   
:i* at times s m>k$ h] p]sonality1 h]   
eyes tru/fully fix$ on him4 ,! curr5t   
puls+ betwe5 !m 0 unbrok54 ,hodd]'s own 
look1 z he gaz$ into ! grate1 0 t ( a   
se]4  ,yes1 he said at l5g?1 x is by !  
_s & n ! lett] ( our ,"l's tea*+ t we   

are guid$4 ,! ,_s :i* we draw f !       
,gospels4 ,& ev]y?+ writt5 d[n !re t    
does n h>monize ) x is ! mi/ak5         
int]pretation ( m54 ,once ! ,_s         
possesses u truly1 we are no long]      
tr\bl$ & confus$ by texts4  ,! alpha &  
omega ( ,*ri/'s message is rebir? into !
 k ( t ,_s1 & h5ce submission to its    
guidance4 ,& t is :at ,paul meant :5 he 
said t x fre$ u f ! law4 ,y are "r1     
,alison1 :5 y decl>e x to be a violation
 ( ! ,_s = a man & woman to live toge!r 
:5 love does n exi/4 ,*ri/ %[s u t laws 
7 made = ^? :o are n reborn4 ,laws are !
 rules ( society1 to be foll[$ by ^? :o 
h n f\nd ! inn] guidance1 :o live & die 
9 ! fle%4 ,b ! pa? :i* ^? :o live "u !  
control ( ! ,_s are to take is op5$ up  
to !m z !y j\rney4 ,if all m5 & wom5 7  
reborn we %\ld h ! p>adox1 :i* only !   
reborn c und]/&1 ( :at is be/ = !       
individual be+ be/ = society1 because "u
 ! w ( ! ,_s none c transgress ^u !     
rights & happ9ess ( o!rs4 ,! ,_s w\ld   
make ! laws & rules sup]flu\s4  ,& !    

great crime ( ! ,*ur*1 = :i* %e is pay+ 
s heavy an expiation1 is t h] fai?      
wav]$1 & %e =sook ! ,_s & resum$ ! law  
h] ,ma/] _h condemn$4 ,%e no long]      
insi/$ on t :i* ,*ri/ proclaim$ z       
imp]ative1 rebir?4 ,%e became1 z y say1 
a me*anical organization1 sub/itut+1 z !
 ,jews _h done1 h>d & fa/ rules =       
inspiration4 ,%e ab&on$ ! ,communion (  
,sa9ts1 sold h] bir?right = a mess (    
pottage1 = worldly1 temporal p[] :5 %e  
decl>$ t inspiration _h ceas$ ) !       
,apo/les1 :5 %e fail$ to see t          
inspiration is p]sonal1 & comes ?r\gh   
rebir?4 ,= ! sake ( increas+ h]         
memb]%ip1 ( dom9at+ ! affairs ( m51 %e  
has p]mitt$ millions :o liv$ 9 ! law & !
 fle%1 :o p]si/$ 9 =c+ m5 to live by !  
conv5tions & cu/oms ,*ri/ repudiat$1 & s
 /ultify !mselves1 to act 9 ,*ri/'s "n4 
,! unp>donable s9 aga9/ ! ,_s is to d\bt
 its work+s1 to ma9ta9 t society w be   
ru9$ if x be sub/itut$ = ! rules &      
regulations suppos$ to make = ! mat]ial 
com=ts ( ! nations1 b :i* 9 reality     

suppress & enslave ! weak4  ,nev]!less 9
 spite ( ! ,*ur*1 m>vell\sly ?r\gh !    
,*ur* ! g]m ( our ,"l's message has come
 d[n to u1 & ! age 9 :i* we live is     
beg9n+ to realize its purport1 to       
condemn ! ,*ur* = h] subs]vi5t          
rationalism4  ,let u apply ! rule ( !   
,_s to m>riage4 ,if we exam9e ! ideal we
 %all see cle>ly t ! m>riage-s]vice is b
 a symbol4 ,l baptism1 x is a wor?less &
 mean+less rite unless ! man & ! woman h
 be5 born aga9 into ! ,_s1 releas$ f !  
law4 ,if !y are /ill1 z ,/4 ,paul w\ld  
say1 9 ! fle%1 let !m h1 if !y wi%1 a   
civil p]mit to live toge!r1 = ! ,_s c h 
no?+ to d ) su* an union4 ,true to      
h]self1 ! ,*ur* symbolizes ! union ( h] 
memb]s1 ! reborn4 ,%e has no?+ to d )   
laws & conv5tions :i* are suppos$ly = ! 
good ( society1 nor is any union        
accompli%$ if ^? :om %e suppos$ly jo9s  
are n reborn4 ,if !y are1 ! ,*ur* c     
nei!r make x or dissolve x1 b m]ely     
confirm & ackn[l$ge ! "w ( ! ,_s4 ,& e  
"w ( ! ,_s is a sacram5t4 ,n baptism &  

communion & m>riage only1 b e act (     
life4  ,oh1 ,john1 %e exclaim$1 h] eyes 
light+1 ,i c believe t6 ,h[ beautiful a 
?\ght6 ,i see n[ :at is meant :5 x is   
said t man %all n live by bread alone1 b
 by e ^w t proce$e? out ( ! m\? ( ,god4 
,t is ! h\rly guidance :i* is indep5d5t 
( ! law4 ,& h[ t]rible to ?9k t all !   
spiritual beauty ( su* a religion %\ld h
 be5 h>d5$ into *apt] & v]se &          
regulation4 ,y h put into language :at  
,i ?9k ( ,mr4 ,b5tley1 --t has acts are 
sacram5ts 4 4 4 4 ,x is s simple :5 y   
expla9 x ?is way4 ,& yet ,i c see :y x 0
 said1 too1 t we mu/ become z *ildr5 to 
und]/& x4  ,! difficult ?+1 repli$      
,hold]1 gravely1 is to reta9 x1 to hold 
x aft] we h und]/ood x--ev5 aft] we h   
exp]i5c$ x4 ,to cont9ue to live 9 ! ,_s 
dem&s all our ef=t1 all our c\rage &    
pati5ce & fai?4 ,we _c1 z y say1 promise
 to love = life4 ,b ! m>riage s]vice1   
int]pret$1 means t we w use all our     
human endeav\r1 ) ! help ( ! ,_s1 to    
rema9 9 :at may be call$ ! reborn /ate1 

s9ce x is by ! ,_s alone t true m>riage 
is sanctifi$4 ,:5 ! ,_s is )drawn1 man &
 woman are inde$ divorc$4  ,! words 'a  
s5se ( duty' belong to moral philosophy 
& n to religion4 ,love annuls !m4 ,i d n
 mean to decry !m1 b ! reborn are lift$ 
f> above !m by ! subv]sion ( ! w by :i* 
our w is submitt$ to ,god's4 ,x is s we 
develop1 & become1 z x 71 ,god4 ,& h5ce 
^? :o are n m>ri$ 9 ! ,_s are n         
spiritually man & wife4 ,no consecration
 has tak5 place1 ,*ur* or no ,*ur*4 ,if 
rebir? occurs lat]1 to ei!r or bo?1 !   
individual consci5ce--:i* is ! ,_s1 mu/ 
decide :e!r1 z reg>ds ea* o!r1 !y are   
b\nd or free1 & we mu/ /& or fall by t4 
,m5 object t ?is is op5+ ! door to      
individualism4 ,:at !y fail to see is t 
! door is op51 wide1 to-day & c nev]    
aga9 be clos$3 t ! law ( ! naturally    
born is los+ its p[]1 t ! worn-out      
au?ority ( ! ,*ur* is be+ set at naught 
because t au?ority 0 devis$ by man to   
keep 9 *eck ^? :o 7 n reborn4 ,! only   
*eck to mat]ial individualism is        

spiritual individualism1 & ! reborn man 
or woman _c act to ! detrim5t ( 8       
fell[-creatures4  ,9 h] turn %e 0 sil5t1
 /ill gaz+ at him1 h] brea? com+ deeply1
 = %e 0 greatly mov$4  ,yes1 %e said    
simply1 ,i c see n[ :y divorce betwe5 u 
w\ld be a sacrilege4 ,i felt x1 ,john1 b
 ,i c\ldn't reason x out4 ,x is !       
consecration ( ! ,_s t ju/ifies ! union 
( ! fle%4 ,= ! ,_s1 9 t s5se1 does n d5y
 ! fle%4  ,t w\ld be to d5y life1 ,hodd]
 repli$4  ,i see4 ,:y 0 x all s hidd56  
,! exclamation 0 n address$ to him--%e 0
 />+ p5sively into ! fire4 ,b pres5tly1 
) a swift movem5t1 %e turn$ to him4  ,y 
w prea* ?is1 ,john1--all ( x6  ,x 0 n a 
"q1 b ! cry ( a new & wid] vision ( 8   
task4 ,h] face 0 transfigur$4 ,& h]     
voice1 l[ & vibrat+1 express$ no d\bts4 
,oh1 ,i am pr\d ( y6 ,& if !y put y out 
& p]secute y ,i %all always be pr\d1 ,i 
%all nev] "k :y x 0 giv5 me to h ?is1 & 
to live4 ,d y rememb] say+ to me once t 
fai? comes to u 9 "s human =m we love8  
,y are my fai?4 ,& fai? 9 y is my fai? 9

 humanity1 & fai? 9 ,god4  ,ere he c\ld 
speak ( 8 own fai? 9 h]1 9 mank9d1 by   
grace ( :i* he _h be5 lift$ f ! abyss1  
!re came a knock at ! door4 ,& ev5 z !y 
answ]$ x a deep] k filt]$ into _! he>ts4
  ,horace ,b5tley /ood be=e !m4 ,& !    
light f 8 face1 t %one d[n ^u !m1 0 _!  
b5$iction4     ,,aft]word  ,al?\gh ^!   
pages h be5 publi%$ s]ially1 x is ) a   
feel+ ( reluctance t ,i s5d !m out into 
! _w1 = bett] or worse1 betwe5 ! cov]s (
 a book4 ,!y h be5 writt5 ) rev]5ce1 & !
 read+ ( ! pro(s has br\ght back to me  
vividly ! long w9t]s 9 :i* ,i pond]$ ov]
 ! matt] !y conta91 & wrote & rewrote ! 
*apt]s4  ,i _h n ?\ght to add any?+ to  
!m by way ( an aft]word4 ,no?+ c\ld be  
f>!r f my m9d ?an to pose z a !ologian2 
&1 7 x n = "o or two ( ! lett]s ,i h    
receiv$1 ,i %\ld h suppos$ t no read]   
c\ld h ?\ght ( mak+ ! accusation t ,i   
presum$ to speak = any "o except myself4
 ,9 a book ( ?is k9d1 ! sett+ =? ( a    
p]sonal view ( religion is n only       
unavoidable1 b necess>y2 s9ce1 if ,i    

wrote s9c]ely1 ,mr4 ,hodd]'s solution   
mu/ co9cide ) my own--s f> z ,i h be5   
able to "w "o out4 ,su* z x is1 x       
repres5ts _m ye>s ( exp]i5ce &          
reflection4 ,& ,i c only crave ! l5i5cy 
( any tra9$ !ologian :o may happ5 to    
p]use x4  ,no "o realizes1 p]haps1 !    
incomplet5ess ( ! religi\s              
int]pretations "h pres5t$ m ke5ly ?an   
,i4 ,m significant1 m vital elem5ts ( ! 
tru? are ! rew>ds ( a m9d :i* se>*es &  
craves1 especially 9 ^! days :5 ! fruit 
( s _m able m9ds lies on ! %elves (     
libr>y & book%op4 ,s9ce ! la/ *apt] 0   
writt51 _m sugge/ions h come to me :i*  
,i %\ld l to h ! "t to develop = ?is    
volume4 ,b ! nature ( ^! elem5ts is     
positive1--,i c ?9k ( no?+ ,i %\ld c>e  
to subtract4  ,"h1 !n1 s f> z :at may be
 call$ religi\s doctr9e is conc]n$1 is  
m]ely a p]sonal solution4 ,we are 9 an  
age :5 ! tru? is be+ work$ out ?r\gh _m 
m9ds1 a process :i* seems to me bo?     
,*ri/ian & ,democratic4 ,yet a g5tleman 
has s f> misund]/ood ?is t he has       

already accus$ me1 9 a newspap]1 (      
committ+ all ! h]esies condemn$ by !    
,c\ncil ( ,*alc$on1--& m6  ,i h no d\bt 
t he is "r4 ,my consolation mu/ be t ,i 
h z company--9 "s ( my h]esies1 at      
lea/--a goodly array ( g5tlem5 :o we> ! 
clo? ( ! or?odox *ur*es ^: doctr9es he  
accuses me ( d5y+4 ,! publi%$ writ+s (  
^! cl]gym5 are accessible to all4 ,!    
same critic decl>es t my int]pretations 
are )\t au?ority4 ,?is dep5ds1 ( c\rse2 
on "o's view ( au?ority4 ,b 8 accusation
 is true equally aga9/ _m m5 :o--if my  
obs]vation be correct--are do+ an       
incalculable s]vice = religion by giv+  
to ! _w _! own p]sonal solutions1       
int]pret+ ,*ri/ianity 9 t]ms ( mod]n    
?\ght4 ,no d\bt ^!1 too1 are (f5d+ !    
*ampions ( ! ,c\ncil ( ,*alc$on4  ,&    
does ! g5tleman1 may ,i ask1 ev] read ! 
pages ( ! ,hibb]t ,j\rnal8  ,f9ally1 ,i 
h to meet a m s]i\s *>ge1 t ,mr4 ,hodd] 
rema9s 9 ! ,*ur* because ( ! dread (    
p>t+ ) ! old1 /rong an*orage1 ! fe> (   
ana!ma & criticism1 ! ?\ght ( sorr[+ &  

disapprov+ fri5ds4 ,or p]haps he inf]s t
 x is ,i :o keep ,mr4 ,hodd] 9 ! ,*ur* =
 ^! p]sonal reasons4 ,alas1 ! conc]n (  
society is n[ = ^? ^u :om ! ,*ur* has   
lo/ h] hold1 :o are seek+ = a solution  
!y c accept4 ,& ! dang] to-day is n f ! 
side ( h]esy4 ,! rector ( ,/4 ,john's1 z
 a result ( 8 /ruggle1 ga9$ :at ,i      
believe to be a high] & sur] fai? ?an t 
:i* he =m]ly held1 & 9 addition to ?is !
 realization ( ! pres5ce ( a condition  
:i* 0 p>alyz+ ! ,*ur*'s influ5ce4  ,"o  
?+ ,i _h hop$ to make cle>1 t if ,mr4   
,hodd] _h left ! ,*ur* "u ^!            
circum/ances he w\ld h made ! ,great    
,refusal4 ,! situation :i* he fac$ dem&$
 some?+ ( ! sublime c\rage ( 8 ,ma/]4   
,la/ly1 may ,i be p]mitt$ to add t x is 
f> f my int5tion to reflect ^u any      
p>ticul> d5om9ation4 ,! in/ance :i* ,i h
 tak5 is p]haps a pron\nc$ r ?an a      
p>ticul> case ( ! problem to :i* ,i h   
ref]r$1 & :i* is caus+ ! grave/ conc]n  
to ?\ghtful cl]gym5 & laym5 ( all       
d5om9ations4   ,,w9/on ,,*ur*ill        

,,santa ,,b>b>a1 ,,cali=nia ,m>*        
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