,,! ,,inside ,,( ,,! ,,cup  ,by ,w9/on  
,*ur*ill   ,volume #g4  ,,xxiii4  ,,!   
,,*oice ,,xxiv4   ,,! ,,ve/ry ,,meets   
,,xxv4    ,,rise1 ,,cr[n$ ,,) ,,light6  
,,xxvi4   ,,! ,,curr5t ,,( ,,life       
,,*apt] ,,xxiii  ,,! ,,*oice   ,i       
,pond]+ ov] ,alison's note1 he sudd5ly  
recall$ & v]ifi$ "s phrases :i* _h /ruck
 him t summ] on read+ ,h>nack's         
celebrat$ ,hi/ory ( ,dogma1 & ar\nd ^!  
he fram$ 8 reply4 ,to act z if fai? 9   
et]nal life & 9 ! liv+ ,*ri/ 0 ! simple/
 ?+ 9 ! _w1 or a dogma to :i* "o has to 
submit1 is irreligi\s4 4 4 ,x is        
,*ri/ian to pray t ,god w\ld give ! ,_s 
to make u /rong to ov]come ! feel+s & ! 
d\bts ( nature4 4 4 ,:]e ?is fai?1      
obta9$ 9 ?is way1 exi/s1 x has always   
be5 support$ by ! conviction t ! ,man   
lives :o br\ght life & immortality to   
light4 ,to hold fa/ ?is fai? is ! goal (
 life1 = only :at we consci\sly /rive = 
is 9 ?is matt] our own4 ,:at we ?9k we  
possess is v soon lo/4  ,! feel+s & !   
d\bts ( nature6 ,! ,div9e ,discont5t1 ! 

/riv+ aga9/ ! d\bt t e hone/ s\l        
exp]i5ces & admits4 ,?us ! contra/      
betwe5 h] & ^! o!rs :o accept$ & w5t _! 
sev]al ways 0 br\ght home to him4  ,he  
long$ to talk to h]1 b 8 days 7 full4   
,yet ! v ?\ght ( h] help$ to be> him up 
z 8 trials1 8 problems accumulat$2 nor  
w\ld he at any "t h ex*ang$ !m = ! =m]  
false peace :i* _h be5 b\ght 7he p]ceiv$
 m & m cle>ly7 at ! price ( compromise4 
,! wor/ ( ^! trials1 p]haps1 0 a        
conspicu\s article 9 a newspap] conta9+ 
a g>bl$ acc\nt ( 8 s]mon & ( ! s5sation 
x _h produc$ among/ 8 fa%ionable        
p>i%ion]s4 ,he _h refus$ to see !       
report]1 b he _h be5 made out a h]o1 a  
sociali/ic *ampion ( ! poor4 ,! black   
headl9es 7 nauseat+2 & beside !m1 9     
juxtaposition1 7 p5 portraits ( himself 
& ( ,eldon ,p>r4 ,!re 7 rum\rs t ! bank]
 _h left ! *ur* until ! recalcitrant    
rector %\ld be driv5 out ( x2 ! usual   
long li/ ( ,mr4 ,p>r's b5efactions 0    
includ$1 & c]ta9 veil$ p>agraphs conc]n+
 8 f9ancial op]ations4 ,mr4 ,f]guson1   

,mr4 ,plimpton1 ,mr4 ,con/able1 did n   
escape1--al?\gh !y1 too1 _h refus$ to be
 int]view$ 4 4 4 4  ,! article br\ght to
 ! p>i% h\se a bevy ( report]s :o _h to 
be f\ght (f1 & ano!r bat* ( lett]s1 _m (
 !m f m9i/]s1 9 approval or             
condemnation4  ,8 fell[-cl]gym5 call$1  
"s to express sympa?y & enc\ragem5t1 m (
 !m to voice 9 p]son indignant &        
horrifi$ prote/s4 ,dr4 ,annesley (      
,calv>y--a c\nt]p>t ( ^: rubicund face  
might h be5 f\nd 9 ! ,c\ncil ( ,tr5t or 
9 m$iaeval fi%-m>kets --pron\nc$ 8      
ana!mas ) 8 h&s fold$ com=tably ov] 8   
/oma*1 b ev5tually ?rew to ! w9ds e     
ve/ige ( 8 ecclesia/ical dignity 4 4 4 4
  ,!n !re came a note f ! old bi%op1 :o 
0 travel+4 ,a k9dly note1 )al1 if       
non-committal1--to ! effect t he _h     
receiv$ c]ta9 communications1 b t 8     
physician w\ld n p]mit him to return =  
ano!r t5 days or s4 ,he w\ld !n be glad 
to see ,mr4 ,hold] & talk ) him4  ,:at  
w\ld ! bi%op d8 ,hold]'s relations ) him
 _h be5 m ?an fri5dly1 b :e!r ! bi%op's 

views 7 suffici5tly lib]al to support   
him 9 ! extreme /& he _h tak5 he c\ld n 
surmise4 ,= x meant t ! bi%op1 too1 mu/ 
ent] into a conflict ) ! fir/ layman ( 8
 diocese1 ( ^: hospitality he _h s (t5  
p>tak51 ^: contributions _h be5 on s    
lordly a scale4 ,! bi%op 0 9 8 sev5tie? 
ye>1 & _h hi!rto successfully f\ght any 
attempt to supply him ) an              
assi/ant1--coadjutor or suffragan4  ,at 
su* times ! fe> grew ^u ,hodd] t he     
might be recomm5d$ = trial1 =c$ to ab&on
 8 fight to free ! ,*ur* f ! fett]s t   
b\nd h]3 t ! implacable ho/ility ( 8    
enemies w\ld rob him ( 8 opportunity4   
,?us ties 7 brok51 _m h>d ?+s 7 said &  
br\ght to 8 e>s4 ,!re 7 vacancies 9 !   
classes & guilds1 abs5ces t pa9$ him1   
sil5ces t wrung him4 4 4 4  ,( all !    
conv]sations he held1 t ) ,mrs4         
,con/able 0 p]haps ! mo/ illum9at+ &    
di/ress+4 ,z on t o!r occasion1 :5 he _h
 gone to h]1 ?is visit 0 "u ! seal (    
confession1 unkn[n to h] husb&4 ,&      
,hodd] _h be5 tak5 aback1 on see+ h]    

ent] 8 (fice1 by ! v trag$y 9 h] face--!
 trag$y he _h mom5t>ily beheld once     
be=e4 ,he drew up a *air = h]1 & :5 %e  
_h sat d[n %e gaz$ at him "s mom5ts )\t 
speak+4  ,i _h to come1 %e said2 !re are
 "s ?+s ,i feel ,i mu/ ask y4 ,= ,i h   
be5 v mis]able s9ce ,i he>d y on        
,sunday4  ,he nodd$ g5tly4  ,i knew t y 
w\ld *ange y\r views--become broad]1    
great]4 ,y may rememb] t ,i pr$ict$ x4  
,yes1 he said4  ,i ?\ght y w\ld gr[ m   
lib]al1 less bigot$1 if y w all[ me to  
say s4 ,b ,i didn't anticipate-- %e     
hesitat$1 & look$ up at him aga94  ,t ,i
 w\ld take ! extreme position ,i h tak51
 he assi/$ h]4  ,oh1 ,mr4 ,hodd]1 %e    
cri$ impulsively1 0 x necess>y to g s   
f>8 & all at once4 ,i am "h n only      
because ,i am mis]able1 b ,i am conc]n$ 
on y\r acc\nt4 ,y hurt me v mu* t day y 
came to me1 b y made me y\r fri5d4 ,& ,i
 wond] if y really und]/& ! t]rible1    
bitt] feel+ y h ar\s$1 ! p[]ful enemies 
y h made by speak+ s--s unres]v$ly8  ,i 
0 prep>$ = x1 he answ]$4 ,surely1 ,mrs4 

,con/able1 once ,i h arriv$ at :at ,i   
believe to be ! tru?1 y w\ld n h me     
temporize8  ,%e gave him a wan smile4   
,9 "o respect1 at lea/1 y h n *ang$1 %e 
told him4 ,i am afraid y are n !        
temporiz+ k9d4 ,b wasn't !re1--mayn't   
!re /ill be a way to deal ) ?is fe>ful  
situation8 ,y h made x v h>d = u--= !m4 
,y h giv5 !m no loophole ( escape4 ,&   
!re are _m1 l me1 :o d n wi% to see y\r 
c>e] ru9$1 ,mr4 ,hodd]4  ,w\ld y pref]1 
he ask$1 to see my s\l de/roy$8 ,& y\r  
own8  ,h] lips twit*$4  ,isn't !re any  
o!r way b t8 ,c't ?is trans=mation1 :i* 
y say is necess>y & vital1 come         
gradually8 ,y c>ri$ me away z ,i li/5$  
to y1 ,i 0 n myself :5 ,i came out ( !  
*ur*4 ,b ,i h be5 ?9k+ ev] s9ce4        
,consid] my husb&1 ,mr4 ,hodd]1 h] voice
 falt]$4 ,i %all n m9ce matt]s ) y--,i  
"k y w n pret5d to misund]/& me4 ,i h   
nev] se5 him s upset s9ce s9ce t "t     
,g]trude 0 m>ri$4 ,he is 9 a mo/ cruel  
position4 ,i confess$ to y once t ,mr4  
,p>r _h made = u all ! money we possess4

 ,ev]ett is fond ( y1 b if he esp\ses   
y\r cause1 on ! ve/ry1 we %all be ru9$4 
,hodd] 0 greatly mov$4  ,x is n my      
cause1 ,mrs4 ,con/able1 he said4        
,surely1 ,*ri/ianity is n s h>% &       
uncompromis+ z t6 ,& d y q d ju/ice     
to--to "s ( ^! m58 ,!re 0 no "o to tell 
!m ! wrongs !y 7 committ+--if !y 7 inde$
 wrongs4 ,our civilization is f> f      
p]fect4  ,! ,*ur* may h be5 remiss1     
mi/ak51 ! rector repli$4 ,b !           
,*ri/ianity %e has taught1 adult]at$    
?\gh x 71 has nev] condon$ ! acts :i* h 
become commonplace 9 mod]n f9ance4 ,!re 
mu/ h be5 a "t1 9 ! life ( e "o ( ^! m51
 :5 !y _h to take t fir/ /ep aga9/ :i*  
_! consci5ces revolt$1 :5 !y realiz$ t  
fraud & tak+ advantage ( ! ignorant &   
weak 7 wrong4 ,!y h delib]ately pref]r$ 
gratification 9 ?is life to spiritual   
developm5t--if inde$ !y believe 9 any   
future :atsoev]4 ,= ':osoev] w save 8   
life %all lose x' is z true to-day z x  
ev] 04 ,!y h _h _! *oice--!y /ill h x4  
,i am to blame1 %e cri$4 ,i drove my    

husb& to x1 ,i made him ?9k ( ri*es1 x 0
 ,i :o cultivat$ ,mr4 ,p>r4 ,& oh1 ,i   
suppose ,i am ju/ly puni%$4 ,i h nev]   
be5 happy = "o in/ant s9ce t day4  ,he  
wat*$ h]1 pity+ly1 z %e wept4 ,b        
pres5tly %e rais$ h] face1 wond]+ly4  ,y
 d believe 9 ! future life aft]--aft]   
:at y h be5 ?r\gh8  ,i d1 he answ]$     
simply4  ,yes--,i am sure y d4 ,x is t1 
:at y are1 conv9ces me y d4 ,ev5 !      
rem>kable & s5sible explanation y gave (
 x :5 y int]pret$ ! p>able ( ! tal5ts is
 n s p[]ful z ! impression t y y\rself  
believe aft] ?9k+ x out = y\rself --n   
accept+ ! old explanations4 ,& !n1 %e   
add$1 ) a note z ( surprise1 y are will+
 to sacrifice ev]y?+ = x6  ,& y8 he     
ask$4 ,_c y1 too1 believe to t ext5t8   
,ev]y?+8 %e repeat$4 ,x w\ld            
mean--pov]ty4 ,no--,god help me --,i _c 
face x4 ,i h become too h>d4 ,i _c d )\t
 ! _w4 ,& ev5 if ,i c\ld6 ,oh1 y _c "k  
:at y ask ,ev]ett1 my husb&--,i mu/ say 
x1 y make me tell y ev]y?+--is n free4  
,he is little bett] ?an a slave to      

,eldon ,p>r4 ,i hate ,eldon ,p>r1 %e    
add$1 ) />tl+ inconsequ5ce4  ,if ,i _h  
only kn[n :at x w\ld lead to :5 ,i made 
,ev]ett :at he is6 ,b ,i knew no?+ (    
bus9ess1 & ,i want$ money1 position to  
satisfy my crav+ at ! loss (--t o!r ?+4 
,& n[ ,i c\ldn't *ange my husb& if ,i   
w\ld4 ,he hasn't ! c\rage1 he hasn't !  
vision4 ,:at !re 0 ( him1 long ago1 has 
be5 kill$--& ,i kill$ x4 ,he            
isn't--anybody1 n[4  ,%e relaps$ aga9   
into weep+4  ,& !n x might n mean only  
pov]ty--x might mean disgrace4          
,disgrace6 ! rector involunt>ily took up
 ! ^w4  ,!re are "s ?+s he has done1 %e 
said 9 a l[ voice1 :i* he ?\ght he 0    
oblig$ to d :i* ,eldon ,p>r made him d4 
,b ,mr4 ,p>r1 too--8 ,hodd] began4  ,oh1
 x 0 to %ield ,eldon ,p>r4 ,!y c\ld nev]
 be trac$ to him4 ,& if !y ev] came out1
 x w\ld kill my husb&4 ,tell me1 %e     
implor$1 :at c ,i d8 ,:at %all ,i d8 ,y 
are responsible4 ,y h made me m bitt]ly 
unhappy ?an ev]4  ,are y will+1 he ask$1
 aft] a mom5t1 to make ! supreme        

r5unciation8 to face pov]ty1 & p]haps   
disgrace1 to save y\r s\l & o!rs8       
,&--o!rs8  ,yes4 ,y\r sacrifice w\ld n1 
c\ld n be 9 va94 ,o!rwise ,i %\ld be    
m]ely urg+ on y ! individualism :i* y   
once advocat$ ) me4  ,r5unciation4 ,%e  
pron\nc$ ! ^w que/ion+ly4 ,c ,*ri/ianity
 really mean t--r5unciation ( ! _w8 ,mu/
 we take x 9 ! dra/ic s5se ( ! ,*ur* ( !
 e>ly c5turies-! ,*ur* ( ! ,m>tyrs8     
,*ri/ianity dem&s all ( u1 or no?+1 he  
repli$4 ,b ! false int]pretation (      
r5unciation ( ! e>ly ,*ur* has ca/ its  
blight on ,*ri/ianity ev5 to our day4   
,ori5tal asceticism1 ,/oicism1 ,philo & 
o!r influ5ces di/ort$ ,*ri/'s mean+4    
,r5unciation does n mean asceticism1    
retirem5t f ! _w1 a d5ial ( life4 ,& !  
e>ly ,*ri/ian1 s9ce he 0 n a citiz51    
s9ce he took ! view t ?is mortal exi/5ce
 0 ess5tially bad & kept 8 eyes         
/eadfa/ly fix$ on ano!r1 0 ! victim at  
once ( false philosophies & ( ! lit]al  
messianic prophecies ( ! ,jews1 :i* 7   
tak5 ov] ) ,*ri/ianity4 ,! e>?ly k+dom  

:i* 0 to come 0 to be ! result ( "s k9d 
( a cataclysm4 ,p]sonally1 ,i believe   
our ,"l m]ely us$ ! ,messianic lit]ature
 z a conv5i5t framework = 8 spiritual   
,k+dom ( heav51 & t ! ,gospels          
mis9t]pret 8 mean+ on ?is po9t4         
,r5unciation is n ! )drawal f1 ! d5ial (
 life1 b ! fulfilm5t ( life1 !          
submission to ! div9e w & guidance 9    
ord] t our "w may be %[n u4 ,r5unciation
 is ! assumption1 at once1 ( heav5ly &  
e>?ly citiz5%ip1 ( responsibility =     
ourselves & our fell[-m54 ,x is !       
realization t ! o!r _w1 ! inn]1         
spiritual _w1 is "h1 n[1 & t ! s\l may  
dwell 9 x be=e dea?1 :ile ! body & m9d  
"w = ! com+ ( :at may be call$ !        
collective k+dom4 ,life look$ ^u 9 t way
 is n bad1 b good1--n mean+less1 b      
lum9\s4  ,%e _h li/5$ hungrily1 h] eyes 
fix$ ^u 8 face4  ,& = me8 %e que/ion$4  
,= y1 he answ]$1 lean+ =w>d & speak+ ) a
 conviction t %ook h] pr(\ndly1 if y    
make ! sacrifice ( y\r pres5t           
unhapp9ess1 ( y\r mis]y1 all w be       

reveal$4 ,! lab\r :i* y h %irk$1 :i* is 
n[ hidd5 f y1 w be disclos$1 y w ju/ify 
y\r exi/5ce by tak+ y\r place z an      
elem5t ( ! community4 ,y w be able to   
say ( y\rself1 at la/1 ',i am ( use4'   
,y mean--social "w8  ,! lik5ess ( ?is to
 ,mrs4 ,plimpton's "q /ruck him4 ,%e _h 
call$ x *>ity4 ,h[ f> _h !y w&]$ 9 _!   
tea*+ f ! ,revelation ( ! ,ma/]1 s9ce x 
0 z new & incompreh5sible to ^! s-call$ 
,*ri/ians z to ,nicodemus himself6  ,all
 ,*ri/ian "w is social1 ,mrs4 ,con/able1
 b x is f\nd$ on love4 ',?\ %aft love ?y
 neighb\r z ?yself4' ,y hold y\r own s\l
 preci\s1 s9ce x is ! %r9e ( ,god4 ,& = 
t reason y hold equally preci\s y\r     
neighb\r's s\l4 ,love comes fir/1 z     
revelation1 z imp>t$ k1 z ! div9e gi/ ( 
autonomy--self-gov]nm5t4 ,& !n "o _c    
help work+1 socially1 at ! task = :i* we
 are made by nature mo/ effici5t4 ,& 9  
ord] to discov] :at t task is1 we mu/   
wait4  ,:y did n "s "o tell me ?is1 :5  
,i 0 "y8 %e ask$--n speak+ to him4 ,x   
seems s simple4  ,x is simple4 ,!       

difficult ?+ is to put x into           
practice--! mo/ difficult ?+ 9 ! _w4    
,bo? c\rage & fai? are requir$1 fai? t  
is cont5t to tru/ z to ! nature ( !     
rew>d4 ,x is ! wisdom ( fooli%ness4 ,h y
 ! c\rage8  ,%e press$ h] h&s toge!r4   
,alone--p]haps ,i %\ld h4 ,i don't "k4  
,b my husb&6 ,i 0 able to influ5ce him  
to 8 de/ruction1 & n[ ,i am p[]less4    
,d>kness has clos$ ar\nd me4 ,he w\ld   
n--he w n li/5 to me4  ,y h tri$8  ,i h 
attempt$ to talk to him1 b ! :ole ( my  
life contradicts my words4 ,he _c see me
 except z1 ! woman :o drove him into    
mak+ money4 ,sometimes ,i ?9k he hates  
me4  ,hodd] recall$1 z 8 eyes re/$ on h]
 compassionately1 ! suff]+s ( t o!r     
woman 9 ,dalton ,/reet4  ,w\ld y h me   
des]t him--aft] all ^! ye>s8 %e :isp]$4 
,i (t5 ?9k he w\ld be happi]1 ev5 n[4   
,i w\ld h y d no?+ save t :i* ,god      
himself w reveal to y4 ,g home1 g into !
 *ur* & pray--pray = k4 ,i ?9k y w f9d t
 y are held responsible = y\r husb&4    
,pray t t :i* y h brok51 y may m5d aga94

  ,d y ?9k !re is a *ance8  ,hodd] made 
a ge/ure4  ,god alone c judge z to !    
ext5t ( 8 puni%m5ts4  ,%e got to h]     
feet1 we>ily4  ,i feel no hope--,i feel 
no c\rage1 b--,i w try4 ,i see :at y    
mean--t my puni%m5t is my p[]lessness4  
,he b5t 8 head4  ,y are s /rong--p]haps 
y c help me4  ,i %all always be ready1  
he repli$4  ,he escort$ h] d[n ! /eps to
 ! d>k blue br\gham ) up/&+1 *e/nut     
horses :i* 0 wait+ at ! curb4 ,b ,mrs4  
,con/able turn$ to ! footman1 :o held   
op5 ! door4  ,y may /ay "h a:ile1 %e    
said to him1 & gave ,hodd] h] h&4444    
,%e w5t into ! *ur* 4 4 4 4    ,,ii     
,asa ,w>+ & 8 son-9-law1 ,phil ,goodri*1
 _h be5 to see ,hodd] on ! subject ( !  
approa*+ ve/ry meet+1 & bo? _h gone away
 n a little a/oni%$ & impress$ by !     
calmness ) :i* ! rector look$ =w>d to ! 
conflict4 ,o!rs ( 8 p>i%ion]s1 "s ( :om 
7 m discreet 9 _! expressions ( sympa?y1
 7 no less surpris$ by 8 attitude2 & ev5
 8 !ological adv]s>ies1 su* z ,gordon   
,att]bury1 paid him a reluctant tribute4

 ,?anks1 p]haps1 to ! newspap] comm5ts z
 mu* z to any o!r factor1 9 ! m9ds ( ^? 
( all %ades ( op9ion 9 ! p>i% ! issue _h
 cry/alliz$ into a duel betwe5 ! rector 
& ,eldon ,p>r4 ,bitt]ly z !y res5t$ !   
gl>e ( publicity into :i* ,/4 ,john's _h
 be5 dragg$1 ! fir/ layman ( ! diocese 0
 n belov$2 & ! fair]-m9d$ ( ,hodd]'s    
oppon5ts1 ?\gh appall$1 7 =c$ to admit 9
 _! he>ts t ! me?ods by :i* ,mr4 ,p>r _h
 made 8 =tune & ga9$ 8 asc5d5cy w\ld n  
be> scrut9y 4 4 4 4 ,"s ( !m 7 di/urb$1 
inde$1 by ! discov]y t !re _h come ab\t 
9 !m1 by imp]ceptible degrees1 9 ! la/  
few ye>s a new & critical attitude t[>ds
 ! ways ( mod]n f9ance3 moat ( !m _h an 
uncom=table feel+ t ,hodd] 0 someh[     
"r1--a feel+ :i* !y s\ght to /ifle :5 !y
 reflect$ ^u ! consequ5ces ( fac+ x4 ,= 
?is w\ld mean a disagreeable %ak+ up (  
_! own lives4 ,few ( !m 7 9 a position  
:5ce !y might ca/ /ones at ,eldon ,p>r 4
 4 4 4  ,:at ^! did n grasp 0 ! fact t t
 :i* !y felt /irr+ )9 !m 0 ! new &      
spiritual product ( ! dawn+ tw5tie?     

c5tury--! ,social ,consci5ce4 ,!y wi%$  
he>tily t ! new rector :o _h develop$   
?is disquiet+ p]sonality w\ld peacefully
 resign & leave !m to ! =m]1 ev5 t5or ( 
_! lives4 ,!y did n = "o mom5t d\bt !   
outcome ( 8 /ruggle ) ,eldon ,p>r4 ,!   
great bank] 0 kn[n to be rel5tless1 8 "n
 0 synonym\s ) victory4 ,& yet1         
p>adoxically1 ,hodd] compell$ _! inn]   
sympa?y & admiration6 4 4 4  ,"s ( !m1  
:o did n attempt p]emptorily to *oke ! a
 processes made ! />tl+ discov]y t !y 7 
n1 aft] all1 s %ock$ by 8 doctr9es z !y 
_h at fir/ suppos$4 ,! tr\ble 0 t !y    
c\ld n cont9ue to li/5 to him1 z =m]ly1 
) com=t4444 ,"o ?+ 0 c]ta91 t !y _h nev]
 expect$ to look =w>d to a ve/ry meet+ )
 su* brea?less int]e/ & anxiety4 ,?is   
cl]gyman _h sudd5ly accompli%$ !        
surpris+ feat ( reviv+ ! ,*ur* z a      
burn+1 vital factor 9 ! life ( !        
community6 ,he _h disc]n$ h] enemy1 &   
defi$ 8 p[] 4 4 4 4  ,z = ,hodd]1 s     
absorb$ _h he be5 by 8 exp]i5ces1 s     
wrung by ! human contacts1 ! p]sonal    

problems :i* he _h s\ght to ent]1 t he  
_h actually giv5 no ?\ght to ! battle   
be=e him until ! autumn aft]noon1 heavy 
) smoke1 _h settl$ d[n into d>kness4 ,! 
wea!r 0 damp & cold1 & he sat mus+ on ! 
ordeal n[ abruptly confront+ him be=e 8 
/udy fire :5 he he>d a /ep beh9d him4   
,he turn$ to recognize1 by ! gl[ ( !    
emb]s1 ! heavy figure ( ,nelson         
,langmaid4  ,i hope ,i'm n di/urb+ y1   
,hodd]1 he said4 ,! janitor said y 7 91 
& y\r door is op54  ,n at all1 repli$ ! 
rector1 ris+4 ,z he /ood = a mom5t fac+ 
! lawy]1 ! ?\ght ( _! fri5d%ip1 & h[ x  
_h begun 9 ! little rectory ov]look+ !  
lake at ,brem]ton1 0 upp]mo/ 9 8        
m9d1--yes1 & ! memory ( _m fri5dly1     
lit]>y discussions 9 ! same room :]e !y 
n[ /ood1 ( pleasant d9n]s at ,langmaid's
 h\se 9 ! ,we/ ,end1 :5 ! two ( !m _h   
(t5 sat talk+ until late into ! nights4 
,i mu/ seem v inhospitable1 said ,hodd]4
 ,i'll light ! lamp--x's pleasant] ?an !
 electric light4  ,! add$ illum9ation at
 fir/ reveal$ ! lawy] 9 8 famili>       

aspect1 ! broad %\ld]s1 ! big1 r$di%    
be>d1 ! dome-l head1 --! g5]\s p]son t  
seem$ to radiate s*ol>ly b5ignity1      
peace1 & good-w4 ,b almo/ in/antly !    
rector became aw>e ( a new & tr\bl$1    
puzzl$ glance f beh9d ! r\nd spectacles4
 4 4  ,i ?\ght ,i'd drop 9 a mom5t on my
 way up t[n-- he began4 ,& ! note (     
unc]ta9ty 9 8 voice1 too1 0 new4 ,hodd] 
drew t[>ds ! fire ! big *air 9 :i* x _h 
be5 ,langmaid's wont to sit1 & p]haps x 
0 ! sight ( ?is op]ation t loos$ !      
lawy]'s tongue4  ,conf\nd x1 ,hodd]6 he 
exclaim$1 ,i l y--,i always h lik$ y4 ,&
 y've got a hundr$ times ! ability ( !  
av]age cl]gyman4 ,:y 9 ! _w did y h to g
 & make all ?is tr\ble8  ,by s          
*>act]i/ic a rem>k ,hodd] 0 bo? amus$ & 
mov$4 ,x reveal$ s p]fectly ! po9t (    
view & pr$icam5t ( ! lawy]1 & x 0 also  
an expression ( an affection :i* !      
rector cordially1 return$ 4 4 4 4 ,be=e 
answ]+1 he plac$ 8 visitor 9 ! *air1 & !
 delib]ation ( ! act 0 a revelation ( ! 
unconsci\s poise ( ! cl]gyman4 ,!       

spectacle ( ?is self-comm& on ! br9k (  
su* a crucial ev5t z ! ve/ry meet+ _h   
tak5 ,langmaid aback m ?an he c>$ to %[4
 ,he _h lo/ ! old s5se ( comrade%ip1 (  
easy equality2 & he _h ! odd feel+ (    
deal+ ) a new man1 at once famili> &    
unfamili>1 :o _h someh[ lift$ himself   
out ( ! ev]yday elem5t 9 :i* !y h]et(ore
 _h met4 ,! cl]gyman _h contriv$ to /ep 
out ( 81 ,langmaid's1 exp]i5ce3 _h      
actually set him--:o all 8 life _h kn[n 
no difficulty 9 deal+ ) m5--to grop+ = a
 m$ium ( communication 4 4 4 4  ,hodd]  
sat d[n on ! o!r side ( ! fireplace4    
,he1 too1 seem$ to be /riv+ = a common  
foot+4  ,x 0 a "q ( proclaim+ ! tru? :5 
at la/ ,i came to see x1 ,langmaid4 ,i  
c\ld n help do+ :at ,i did4 ,matt]s (   
policy1 ( a false consid]ation =        
individuals c\ld n ent] into x4 ,if ?is 
7 n s1 ,i %\ld gladly admit t y _h a j  
grievance1 a peculi> "r to dem& :y ,i _h
 n rema9$ ! /rictly or?odox p]son :om y 
induc$ to come "h4 ,y _h e reason to    
congratulate y\rself t y 7 gett+ :at y  

d\btless w\ld call a safe man4  ,i'll   
admit ,i _h a tw+e ( uneas9ess aft] ,i  
came home1 ,langmaid confess$4  ,hodd]  
smil$ at 8 frankness4  ,b t disappe>$4  
,yes1 x disappe>$4 ,y seem$ to suit 'em 
s p]fectly4 ,i'll own up1 ,hodd]1 t ,i 0
 a little hurt t y did n come & talk to 
me j be=e y took ! extraord9>y--be=e y  
*ang$ y\r op9ions4  ,w\ld x h done any  
good8 ask$ ! rector1 g5tly4 ,w\ld y h   
agre$ ) me any bett] ?an y d n[8 ,i am  
p]fectly will+1 if y wi%1 to discuss ) y
 any views ( m9e :i* y may n indorse4 ,&
 x w\ld make me v happy1 ,i assure y1 if
 ,i c\ld br+ y to look ^u ! matt] z ,i  
d4  ,?is 0 a pos]4 ,& :e!r x 7 +5u\s1 or
 _h 9 x an elem5t ( ! scriptural wisdom 
( ! s]p5t1 ,langmaid c\ld n h said4 ,z a
 lawy]1 he admir$ x4  ,i wasn't 9 *ur*1 
z usual1--,i didn't he> ! s]mon1 he     
repli$4 ,& ,i nev] c\ld make head or    
tail ( !ology--,i always told y t4 ,:at 
,i deplore1 ,hodd]1 is t y've contriv$  
to make a hornets' ne/ out ( ! mo/      
peaceful & cont5t$ congregation 9       

,am]ica4 ,c\ldn't y h manag$ to /ick to 
religion in/ead ( gett+ mix$ up )       
socialism8  ,s y h be5 giv5 ! idea t my 
s]mon 0 sociali/ic8 ! rector said4      
,sociali/ic & h]etical1--x seems4 ,(    
c\rse ,i'm n mu* ( an au?ority on h]esy1
 b !y claim t y w5t out ( y\r way to    
knock "s ( _! mo/ *]i%$ & sacr$ beliefs 
9 ! head4  ,b suppose ,i h come to !    
hone/ conclusion t 9 ! fir/ place ^!    
s-call$ *]i%$ beliefs h no f\ndation 9  
fact1 & no influ5ce on ! lives ( !      
p]sons :o *]i%$ !m1 no real connection )
 ,*ri/ianity8 ,:at w\ld y h me d1 z a   
man8 ,cont9ue to prea* !m = ! sake ( !  
le?>gic peace ( :i* y speak8 leave !    
*ur* p>alyz$1 z ,i f\nd x8  ,p>alyz$6   
,y've got ! mo/ influ5tial p 9 ! city4  
,hodd] reg>d$ him = a :ile )\t reply+4  
,s has ! ,willesd5 ,club1 he said4      
,langmaid laugh$ a little1 uncom=tably4 
,if ,*ri/ianity1 z "o ( ! anci5t popes  
is said to h rem>k$1 7 m]ely a pr(itable
 fable1 ! rector cont9u$1 !re might be  
some?+ 9 y\r cont5tion t ,/4 ,john's1 z 

a *ur*1 _h rea*$ ! p9nacle ( success4 ,b
 let u ignore ! spiritual side ( ?is    
matt] z non-vital1 & consid] x f !      
practical side4 ,we h ! mo/ influ5tial p
 9 ! city1 b we h n _! *ildr54 ,t does n
 promise well = ! future4 ,! *ildr5 get 
m pr(it out ( ! c\ntry clubs4 ,& !n !re 
is ano!r "q3 is x go+ to cont9ue to be  
pr(itable8 ,is x z pr(itable n[ z x 01  
say1 tw5ty ye>s ago8  ,y've got out ( my
 dep?1 said ,nelson ,langmaid4  ,i'll   
try to expla94 ,z a man ( affairs1 ,i   
?9k y w admit1 if y reflect1 t ! return 
( ,/4 ,john's1 consid]+ ! l>ge am\nt (  
money inve/$1 is sc>cely wor? consid]+4 
,& ,i am surpris$ t z a/ute a man z ,mr4
 ,pair has n be5 able to see ?is long   
ago4 ,if we cle> all ! cobwebs away1 :at
 is ! real function ( ?is *ur* z at     
pres5t con/itut$8 ,:y ?is heavy         
exp5diture to ma9ta9 religi\s s]vices = 
a h&ful ( p8 ,is x n1 :5 we come d[n to 
facts1 an increas+ly futile ef=t to br+ 
! influ5ces ( religion--( sup]/ition1 if
 y w--to be> on ! s-call$ l[] classes 9 

ord] t !y may rema9 cont5t$ ) _! lot1 ) 
t /ation & condition 9 ! _w :]e--x is   
argu$--x has pleas$ ,god to call !m8 ,if
 t 7 n s1 9 my op9ion !re are v few ( ! 
privileg$ classes :o w\ld inve/ a doll> 
9 ! ,*ur*4 ,& ! pro( ( x is t ! mom5t a 
cl]gyman raises 8 voice to proclaim !   
true message ( ,*ri/ianity !y are up 9  
arms ) ! cry ( socialism4 ,!y h ! s5se  
to see t _! privileges are imm$iately   
?reat5$4  ,look+ at x f ! f9ancial side1
 x w\ld be *eap] = !m to close up _!    
*ur*es4 ,x is a m]e wa/e ( "t & money1  
because ! influ5ce on _! less =tunate   
bre?r5 9 a worldly s5se has dw9dl$ to   
no?+4 ,few ( ! poor come ne> _! *ur*es 9
 ^! days4 ,! pr(itable fable is almo/   
play$ out4  ,hodd] _h spok5 )\t         
bitt]ness1 yet 8 irony 0 by no means lo/
 on ! lawy]4 ,langmaid1 if ! tru? be    
told1 f\nd himself = ! mom5t 9 ! unusual
 pr$icam5t ( be+ at a loss1 = ! rector  
_h put =w>d ) m or less precision ! v   
cynical view :i* he himself _h be5 clev]
 en\gh to evolve4  ,hav5't !y ! "r1 he  

ask$1 some:at lamely to dem& ! k9d (    
religion !y pay =8  ,provid$ y don't    
call x religion1 said ! rector4         
,langmaid smil$ 9 spite ( himself4  ,see
 "h1 ,hodd]1 he said1 ,i've always      
confess$ frankly t ,i knew little or    
no?+ ab\t religion4 ,i've come "h ?is   
ev5+ z y\r fri5d1 )\t au?ority f        
anybody1 he add$ significantly1 to see  
if ?is ?+ c\ldn't someh[ be adju/$      
peaceably1 = y\r sake z well z o!rs'4   
,come1 y mu/ admit !re's a gra9 ( ju/ice
 9 ! cont5tion aga9/ y4 ,:5 ,i w5t on to
 ,brem]ton to get y ,i _h no real reason
 = suppos+ t ^! views w\ld develop4 ,i  
made a contract ) y 9 all good fai?4  ,&
 ,i ) y1 answ]$ ! rector4 ,p]haps y d n 
realize1 ,langmaid1 :at has be5 ! *ief  
factor 9 develop+ ^! views4  ,! lawy] 0 
sil5t1 f caution4  ,i mu/ be frank ) y4 
,x 0 ! discov]y t ,mr4 ,p>r & o!rs ( my 
*ief p>i%ion]s 7 s f> f be+ ,*ri/ians z 
to indulge1 :ile !y support$ ! ,*ur* (  
,*ri/1 9 op]ations l t ( ! ,consolidat$ 
,tractions ,company1 wrong+ _! fell[-m5 

& condemn+ !m to mis]y & hate4 ,& t y1 z
 a lawy]1 us$ y\r tal5ts to make t      
op]ation possible4  ,hold on6 cri$      
,langmaid1 n[ pla9ly agitat$4 ,y h no   
"r--y c "k no?+ ( t affair4 ,y d n      
und]/& bus9ess4  ,i'm afraid1 repli$ !  
rector1 sadly1 t ,i und]/& "o side ( x  
only too well4  ,! ,*ur* has no "r to   
m$dle outside ( h] sph]e1 to dictate to 
politics & bus9ess4  ,h] sph]e1 said    
,hold]1--is ! _w4 ,if %e does n *ange ! 
_w by s5d+ out ,*ri/ians into x1 %e w\ld
 bett] close h] doors4  ,well1 ,i don't 
int5d to qu>rel ) y1 ,hold]4 ,i suppose 
x c't be help$ t we look at ^! ?+s      
diff]5tly1 & ,i don't int5d to ent] into
 a def5ce ( bus9ess4 ,x w\ld take too   
long1 & x w\ldn't help any4 ,he got to 8
 feet4 ,:atev] happ5s1 x won't int]f]e )
 our p]sonal fri5d%ip1 ev5 if y ?9k me a
 highwayman & ,i ?9k y a--  ,a fanatic1 
,hold] suppli$4 ,he _h ris51 too1 &     
/ood1 ) a smile on 8 face1 gaz+ at !    
lawy] ) an odd scrut9y4  ,an ideali/1 ,i
 0 go+ to say1 ,langmaid answ]$1 return+

 ! smile1 ,i'll admit t we ne$ !m 9 !   
_w4 ,x's only :5 "o ( !m gets 9 !       
ge>-box 4 4 4 4  ,! rector laugh$4 ,&   
?us !y /ood1 fac+ ea* o!r4  ,langmaid1  
,hold] ask$1 don't y ev] get tir$ &     
disgu/$ ) ! ,jugg]naut c>8  ,! big lawy]
 cont9u$ to smile1 b a %eepi%1 almo/    
boyi% expression came ov] 8 face4 ,he _h
 n cr$it$ ! cl]gyman ) s mu* a/ut5ess4  
,bus9ess1 n[adays1 is--bus9ess1 ,hold]4 
,! ,jugg]naut c> claims u all4 ,x has   
become-if y w p]mit me to cont9ue to put
 my similes into slang--! mod]n b&      
wagon4 ,& we lawy]s h to get on x1 or   
fall by ! wayside4  ,hold] />$ into !   
fire4  ,i appreciate y\r motive 9 com+  
"h1 he said1 at l5g?1 & ,i d y ! ju/ice 
( believ+ x 0 fri5dly1 t ! fact t y are1
 9 a way1 responsible = me to--to !     
congregation ( ,/4 ,john's did n ent]   
into x4 ,i realize t ,i h made matt]s   
p>ticul>ly awkw>d = y4 ,y h giv5 !m 9   
me1 & 9 good fai?1 some?+ !y didn't     
b>ga9 =4 ,y hav5't said s1 b y want me  
to resign4 ,on ! "o h&1 y don't c>e to  

see me tilt+ at ! w9dmills1 or1 bett]1  
draw+ d[n on my head ! ?und]bolts ( y\r 
gods4 ,on ! o!r h&1 y are j a little    
afraid = y\r gods4 ,if ! "q 9 dispute 7 
m]ely an academic "o1 ,i'd accommodate y
 at once4 ,b ,i c't4 ,i've ?\ght x all  
out1 & ,i h made up my m9d t x is my    
cle> duty to rema9 "h &1 if ,i am /rong 
en\gh1 wre/ ?is *ur* f ! grip ( ,eldon  
,p>r & ! m5 :om he controls4  ,i am     
speak+ pla9ly1 & ,i und]/& ! situation  
?or\ghly4 ,y w probably tell me1 z o!rs 
h done1 t no "o has ev] oppos$ ,eldon   
,p>r :o has n be5 cru%$4 ,i g 9 ) my    
eyes op51 ,i am will+ to be cru%$1 if   
necess>y4 ,y h come "h to w>n me1 & ,i  
appreciate y\r motive4 ,n[ ,i am go+ to 
w>n y1 9 all s9c]ity & fri5d%ip4 ,i may 
be beat51 ,i may be driv5 out4 ,b !     
victory w be m9e nev]!less4 ,eldon ,p>r 
& ! m5 :o /& ) him 9 ! /ruggle w nev]   
recov] f ! bl[ ,i %all give !m4 ,i %all 
leave !m crippl$ because ,i h ! tru? on 
my side1 & ! tru? is irresi/ible4 ,& !y 
%all n be able to injure me p]man5tly4  

,& y1 ,i regret deeply to say1 w be     
hurt1 too4 ,i beg y1 = no selfi% reason1
 to consid] aga9 ! "p y int5d to play 9 
?is affair4  ,su* 0 ! conviction1 su* ! 
unlook$-= fire ) :i* ! rector spoke t   
,langmaid 0 visibly %ak5 & tak5 aback 9 
spite ( himself4  ,d y mean1 he dem&$1  
:5 he _h caught 8 brea?1 t y int5d to   
attack u publicly8  ,is t ! only        
puni%m5t y c conceive (8 ! rector ask$4 
,! reproa* 9 8 voice 0 9 itself a d5ial4
  ,i beg y\r p>don1 ,hodd]1 said !      
lawy]1 quickly4 ,& ,i am sure y hone/ly 
believe :at y say1 b--  ,9 y\r he>t y1  
too1 believe x1 ,langmaid4 ,!           
retribution has already begun4          
,nev]!less y w g on--= a :ile4 ,he held 
out 8 h&1 :i* ,langmaid took            
me*anically4 ,i be> y no ill-w4 ,i am   
sorry t y _c yet see ) suffici5t        
cle>ness to save y\rself4  ,langmaid    
turn$ & pick$ up 8 hat & /ick & left !  
room )\t ano!r ^w4 ,! bewild]$1 wi/ful  
look :i* _h replac$ ! ord9>ily b5ign &  
*e]ful expression haunt$ ,hodd] long    

aft] ! lawy] _h gone4 ,x 0 ! look ( a   
man :o has someh[ lo/ 8 consci\sness (  
p[]4     ,,*apt] ,,xxiv  ,,! ,,ve/ry    
,,meets  ,at n9e o'clock t ev5+ ,hodd]  
/ood alone 9 ! ar*$ ve/ry room1 & !     
sight ( ! heavy ,go?ic *airs rang$ ab\t 
! long table br\ght up memories (       
com=table1 g5ial meet+s prolong$ by *at 
& bant]4444 ,! noise ( feet1 ( subdu$   
voices beside ! coat room 9 ! corridor1 
ar\s$ him4 ,all ( ! ve/ry w\ld seem to h
 arriv$ at once4  ,he reg>d$ !m ) a     
deta*$ curiosity z !y ent]$1 read+ !m ) 
a new insight4 ,! trace ( (f-h&$ness 9  
,mr4 ,plimpton's =m] cordiality 0 n lo/ 
^u him--an intimation t 8 /> _h set4    
,mr4 ,plimpton _h se5 _m brea*es        
heal$--_h heal$ _m himself4 ,b he _h    
nev] be5 kn[n z a *ampion ( lo/ causes4 
,well1 "h we are1 ,mr4 ,hodd]1 on !     
/roke1 he rem>k$4 ,z a ve/ry1 ,i ?9k    
we're entitl$ to ! fir/ prize =         
promptness4 ,h[ ab\t x1 ,ev]ett8        
,ev]ett ,con/able 0 sil5t4  ,good ev5+1 
,mr4 ,hodd]1 he said4 ,he did n (f] to  

%ake h&s1 z ,mr4 ,plimpton _h done1 b   
sat d[n at ! f> end ( ! table4 ,he look$
 tir$ & worn2 sick1 ! rector ?\ght1 &   
felt a sudd5 swell+ ( compassion = !    
pomp\s little man ^: fibre 0 n z t\gh z 
t ( ^! o!r condotti]i3 z ,francis       
,f]guson's1 = in/ance1 al?\gh 8 s(t h& &
 p9k & :ite face fram$ 9 ! black :isk]s 
w\ld seem to belie any fibre :atev]4    
,gordon ,att]bury hemm$ & haw$1--,ah1   
,mr4 ,hodd]1 & seat$ himself beside ,mr4
 ,con/able1 9 a *air design$ to         
accommodate a portly bi%op4 ,bo? ( !m   
/>t$ n]v\sly z ,asa ,w>+1 hold+ 8 head  
high1 z a man %\ld :o has kept 8        
bir?right1 w5t directly to ! rector4    
,i'm glad to see y1 ,mr4 ,hodd]1 he     
said1 & turn+ defiantly1 survey$ ! room4
 ,!re 0 an awkw>d sil5ce4 ,mr4 ,plimpton
 edg$ a little ne>]4 ,! decree might h  
gone =? = ,mr4 ,hodd]'s de/ruction1 b   
,asa ,w>+ 0 a man ^: displeasure 0 n to 
be lightly incurr$4  ,:at's ?is ,i he>  
ab\t y\r mov+ out ( ,hamilton ,place1   
,mr4 ,w>+8 ,y'd bett] come up & take !  

,spauld+ lot1 9 ,wav]ley1 across f u4   
,i am an old man1 ,mr4 ,plimpton1 ,asa  
,w>+ repli$4 ,i d n move z easily z "s  
o!r p 9 ^! days4  ,ev]ett ,con/able     
produc$ 8 h&k]*ief & rubb$ 8 nose       
viol5tly4 ,b ,mr4 ,plimpton 0 app>5tly  
undaunt$4  ,i h always said1 he obs]v$1 
t !re 0 some?+ v f9e 9 y\r /ick+ to t   
neighb\rhood aft] y\r fri5ds _h gone4   
,"h's ,phil6  ,phil ,goodri* look$      
positively bellig]5t1 & z he took 8 /&  
on ! o!r side ( ,hodd] 8 fa!r-9-law     
smil$ at him grimly4 ,mr4 ,goodri* took 
hold ( ! rector's arm4  ,i miss$ "o or  
two meet+s la/ spr+1 ,mr4 ,hodd]1 he    
said1 b ,i'm go+ to be on h& aft] ?is4  
,my fa!r1 ,i believe1 nev] miss$ a ve/ry
 meet+ 9 8 life4 ,p]haps t 0 because !y 
us$ to hold mo/ ( 'em at 8 h\se4  ,&    
s]ve port & cig>s1 ,i'm told1 ,mr4      
,plimpton put 94  ,t 0 an inducem5t1    
,wallis1 ,i'll admit1 answ]$ ,phil4 ,b  
!re are ev5 great] inducem5ts n[4  ,9   
view ( ,phil ,goodri*'s well-kn[n lik+ =
 a fight1 ?is 0 too po9t$ to admit ( a  

reply1 b ,mr4 ,plimpton 0 sp>$ ! attempt
 by ! entrance (4 ,nelson ,langmaid4 ,! 
lawy]1 z he greet$ !m1 seem$ to be      
preoccupi$1 nor did he seek to relieve !
 t5sion ) 8 cu/om>y joke4 ,a few mom5ts 
( sil5ce foll[$1 :5 ,eldon ,p>r 0 se5 to
 be /&+ 9 ! doorway1 survey+ !m4  ,good 
ev5+1 g5tlem51 he said coldly1 & )\t m  
ado w5t to 8 cu/om>y *air1 & sat d[n 9  
x4 ,imm$iately foll[$ a scrap+ ( o!r    
*airs4 ,!re 0 a dom9at+ quality ab\t !  
man n to be ga9said4  ,! rector call$ ! 
meet+ to ord] 4 4 4 4  ,dur+ ! r\t9e    
bus9ess none ( ! little asides occurr$  
:i* produce laught]4 ,e man 9 ! room 0  
aw>e ( ! int5sity ( ,eldon ,p>r's       
animosity1 & yet he betray$ x nei!r by  
voice1 look1 or ge/ure4 ,!re 0 some?+   
uncanny 9 ?is self-control1 ?is sang    
froid ) :i* he 0 wont to sit at bo>ds   
wait+ unmov$ = ! "t :5 he %\ld draw 8   
net ab\t 8 enemies1 & /rangle !m )\t    
pity4 ,x got on ,langmaid's n]ves--h>d5$
 z he 0 to x4 ,he _h se5 _m m5 9 t net2 
"s _h /ruggl$1 "s _h tak5 _!            

annihilation /oically2 hone/ m]*ants1   
freeboot]s1 & brig&s4 ,mo/ ( !m _h gone 
out1 ) _! families1 into t prec>i\s     
bord]-l& ( exi/5ce 9 :i* ! to-morr[s are
 ev] dread$4  ,yet "h1 someh[1 0 a      
diff]5t case4 ,langmaid f\nd himself go+
 back to ! days :5 8 "m _h tak5 him to  
*ur*1 & he c\ld n be> to look at1       
,hodd]4 ,s9ce six o'clock t aft]noon--_h
 8 companions b kn[n x--he _h pass$     
?r\gh "o ( ! wor/ p]iods ( 8 exi/5ce4 4 
4 4  ,aft] ! regul> bus9ess _h be5      
dispos$ ( a brief int]val 0 all[$1 = !  
sake ( dec5cy1 to ensue4 ,t ,eldon ,p>r 
w\ld n lead ! *>ge 9 p]son 0 a =egone   
conclusion4 ,:om1 !n1 w\ld he put =w>d8 
,= obvi\s reasons1 n ,wallis ,plimpton  
or ,langmaid1 nor ,francis ,f]guson4    
,hodd] f\nd 81 glance unconsci\sly fix$ 
^u ,ev]ett ,con/able1 :o1 mov$ n]v\sly &
 sl[ly pu%$ back 8 *air4 ,he 0 call$ ^u1
 9 ?is h\r & 9 ! *ur* 8 fa!r _h help$ to
 f\nd1 to make ! supreme paym5t = ! ye>s
 ( f9ancial prosp]ity4 ,al?\gh a little 
man1 ) 8 %\ld]s ?r[n back & 8 head high1

 he g5]ally look$ impressive :5 he      
spoke1 & 8 f9e features & cle>-cut      
,engli% contribut$ to ! effect4 ,b n[ 8 
face 0 /ra9$1 & 8 voice seem$ to lack   
comm& z he b[$ & m5tion$ ! rector's "n4 
,eldon ,p>r sat back4  ,g5tlem51 ,mr4   
,con/able began1 ,i feel x my duty to   
say some?+ ?is ev5+1 some?+ t di/resses 
me4 ,l "s ( y :o are "h pres5t1 ,i h be5
 on ?is ve/ry = _m ye>s1 & my fa!r 0 on 
x be=e me4 ,i 0 br\ght up "u ,dr4       
,gilman1 ( :om ,i ne$ n speak4 ,all "h1 
except our pres5t rector1 knew him4 ,?is
 *ur*1 ,/4 ,john's1 has be5 a           
"p--a--l>ge "p--( my life4 ,& any?+ t   
seems to t\* its welf>e1 t\*es me4  ,:5 
,dr4 ,gilman di$1 aft] s _m ye>s (      
fai?ful s]vice1 we fac$ a grave         
problem1--t ( obta9+ a "y man ( ability1
 an active man :o w\ld be able to assume
 ! responsibilities ( a l>ge & gr[+     
p>i%1 & at ! same "t c>ry on its        
traditions1 preci\s to u all2 "o :o     
believ$ 9 & prea*$1 ,i ne$ sc>cely add1 
! accept$ doctr9es ( ! ,*ur*1 :i* we h  

be5 taught to ?9k are sacr$ & necess>y  
to salvation4 ,& 9 ! discov]y ( !       
,rev]5d ,mr4 ,hodd]1 we _h reason to    
congratulate ourselves & ! p>i%4 ,he 0  
all t we _h hop$ =1 & m4 ,8 s]mons 7 at 
once a pleasure & an in/ruction4  ,i wi%
 to make x cle>1 he cont9u$1 t 9 spite (
 ! pa9 ,mr4 ,hodd]'s words ( la/ ,sunday
 h giv5 me1 ,i respect & hon\r him /ill1
 & wi% him e success4 ,b1 g5tlem51 ,i   
?9k x is pla9 to all ( y t he has *ang$ 
8 religi\s convictions4 ,z to ! causes  
?r\gh :i* t *ange has come ab\t1 ,i d n 
pret5d to "k4 ,to say ! lea/1 !         
transition is a />tl+ "o1 "o = :i* "s ( 
u 7 totally unprep>$4 ,to speak         
re/ra9$ly1 x 0 a %ock--a %ock :i* ,i    
%all rememb] z long z ,i live4  ,i ne$ n
 g into ! doctr9al "q "h1 except to     
express my op9ion t ! fundam5tal facts (
 our religion 7 contradict$4 ,& we h    
also to consid] ! effect ( ?is prea*+ on
 com+ g5]ations = :om we are            
responsible4 ,!re are1 no d\bt1 o!r     
fields = ,mr4 ,hodd]'s usefulness4 ,b ,i

 ?9k x may safely be tak5 z a pr9ciple t
 ?is p>i% has ! "r to dem& f ! pulpit t 
or?odox tea*+ :i* suits x1 & to :i* x   
has be5 accu/om$4 ,& ,i v5ture fur!r to 
give x z my op9ion--to put x mildly t   
o!rs h be5 z di/urb$ & %ock$ z ,i4 ,i h 
se5 _m1 talk$ ) _m1 s9ce ,sunday4 ,= ^! 
reasons1 ) mu* sorr[ & regret1 ,i v5ture
 to sugge/ to ! ve/ry t ,mr4 ,hodd]     
resign z our rector4 ,& ,i may add :at  
,i believe to be ! feel+ ( all pres5t1 t
 we h no?+ b good w = him1 al?\gh we ?9k
 we might h be5 in=m$ ( :at he int5d$ to
 d4  ,& t 9 reque/+ him to resign we are
 act+ = 8 own good z well z our own1 &  
are ?us avoid+ a situation :i* ?reat5s  
to become impossible1--"o :i* w\ld br+  
s]i\s reflection on him & calamity on ! 
*ur*4 ,we already1 9 c]ta9 articles 9 ! 
newspap]s1 h _h an indication ( !       
intol]able notoriety we may expect1     
al?\gh ,i hold ,mr4 ,hodd] innoc5t 9    
reg>d to ^? articles4 ,i am sure he w h 
! good s5se to see ?is situation z ,i   
see x1 z ! majority ( ! p>i% see x4     

,mr4 ,con/able sat d[n1 brea?+ h>d4 ,he 
_h n look$ at ! rector dur+ ! :ole ( 8  
spee*1 nor at ,eldon ,p>r4 ,!re 0 a     
heavy sil5ce1 & !n ,philip ,goodri*     
rose1 squ>e1 clean-cut1 aggressive4  ,i1
 too1 g5tlem51 h _h life-long           
association ) ?is *ur*1 he began        
delib]ately4 ,& = ,mr4 ,hodd]'s sake ,i 
am go+ to give y a little ( my p]sonal  
hi/ory1 because ,i ?9k x typical ( ?\s&s
 ( m5 ( my age all ov] ?is c\ntry4 ,x 0 
nobody's fault1 p]haps1 t ,i 0 taught t 
! ,*ri/ian religion dep5d$ on a c]ta9   
s]ies ( nature miracles & a *a9 (       
hi/orical ev5ts1 & :5 ,i w5t ,ea/ to    
s*ool ,i _h m ( ?is same sort (         
in/ruction4 ,i h nev]1 p]haps1 be5      
ov]burd5$ ) intellect1 b ! "t arriv$    
nev]!less :5 ,i began to ?9k = myself4  
,"s ( ! old] boys w5t once1 ,i rememb]1 
to ! rector ( ! s*ool--a de> old man--& 
frankly /at$ our tr\bles4 ,to use a     
mod]n expression1 he /ood pat on ev]y?+4
 ,i d n say x 0 a consci\sly crim9al    
act1 he probably saw no way out himself4

 ,at any rate1 he made u all agno/ics at
 "o /roke4  ,:at ,i le>n$ 9 college (   
sci5ce & hi/ory & philosophy m]ely      
confirm$ me 9 my agno/icism4 ,z a       
complete sy/em = ! mak+ ( a!i/s &       
mat]iali/s1 ,i comm5d ! education :i* ,i
 receiv$4 ,if !re is any man "h :o      
believes religion to be an ess5tial     
factor 9 life1 ,i ask him to ?9k ( 8    
*ildr5 or gr&*ildr5 be=e he comes =w>d  
to ! support ( ,mr4 ,con/able4  ,9 t    
s]mon :i* he prea*$ la/ ,sunday1 ,mr4   
,hodd]1 = ! fir/ "t 9 my life1 made     
,*ri/ianity intelligible to me4 ,i want 
him to "k x4 ,& !re are o!r m5 & wom5 9 
t congregation :o feel z ,i d4 ,g5tlem51
 !re is no?+ ,i w\ld n give to h _h     
,*ri/ianity put be=e me 9 t simple &    
inspir+ way :5 ,i 0 a boy4 ,& 9 my      
op9ion ,/4 ,john's is m =tunate to-day  
?an x ev] has be5 9 its exi/5ce4 ,mr4   
,hodd] %\ld h an unanim\s te/imonial (  
appreciation f ?is ve/ry = 8 c\rage4 ,& 
if ! vote reque/+ him to resign         
prevails1 ,i v5ture to pr$ict t !re is n

 a man on ?is ve/ry :o w n live to      
regret x4  ,phil ,goodri* gl>$ at ,eldon
 ,p>r1 :o rema9$ unmov$4  ,p]mit me to  
add1 he said1 t ?is controv]sy1 9 o!r   
respects ?an doctr9e1 is m befitt+ to ! 
,middle ,ages ?an to ! tw5tie? c5tury1  
:5 ?is ,*ur* & o!r d5om9ations are pass+
 resolutions 9 _! national conv5tions ) 
a view to unity & fre$om ( belief4  ,mr4
 ,langmaid1 ,mr4 ,plimpton1 & ,mr4      
,con/able sat /ill4 ,mr4 ,f]guson made  
no move4 ,x 0 ,gordon ,att]bury :o ru%$ 
into ! brea*1 & prov$ t ! extremi/s are 
allies ( d\btful value4  ,he _h1        
app>5tly1 n be5 idle s9ce ,sunday1 & 0  
arm$ cap-a pie ) "t-worn argum5ts t ne$ 
n be set d[n4 ,all ( :i* w5t to %[ t    
,mr4 ,goodri* _h n ref]r$ to ! ,middle  
,ages 9 va94 ,= ,gordon ,att]bury 0 a   
born s*ool-man4 ,b he f9i%$ by decl>+1  
at ! end ( tw5ty m9utes 7mu* z he       
regrett$ ! necessity ( say+ x71 t ,mr4  
,hodd]'s cont9uance z rector w\ld mean !
 ru9 ( ! *ur* 9 :i* all pres5t took su* 
a pride4 ,t ! great majority ( its      

memb]s w\ld nev] submit to :at 0 s      
pla9ly h]esy4  ,x 0 !n t ,mr4 ,plimpton 
ga!r$ c\rage to p\r oil on ! wat]s4 ,!re
 0 no?+1 9 8 op9ion1 he rem>k$ smil+ly1 
9 8 function z peacemak]1 to w>rant     
any?+ b ! mo/ fri5dly int]*ange ( views4
 ,he 0 second to none 9 8 reg>d = ,mr4  
,hodd]1 9 8 admiration = a man :o _h !  
c\rage ( 8 convictions4 ,he _h n ! lea/ 
d\bt t ,mr4 ,hodd] did n desire to rema9
 9 ! p>i% :5 x 0 s app>5t t ! doctr9es  
:i* he n[ prea*$ 7 n acceptable to mo/ (
 ^? :o support$ ! *ur*4 ,& he add$ 7)   
sublime magnanimity7 t he wi%$ ,mr4     
,hodd] ! success :i* he 0 sure he       
des]v$1 & gave him e assurance ( 8      
fri5d%ip4  ,asa ,w>+ 0 ab\t to rise1 :5 
he p]ceiv$ t ,hodd] himself 0 on 8 feet4
 ,& ! eyes ( e man1 save "o1 7 fix$ on  
him irresi/ibly4 ,! rector seem$ unaw>e 
( x4 ,x 0 ,philip ,goodri* :o rem>k$ to 
8 fa!r-9-law1 z !y walk$ home aft]w>ds1 
( ! s5se he _h _h at t mom5t t !re 7 j  
two m5 9 ! room1--,hodd] & ,eldon ,p>r4 
,all ! re/ 7 ciph]s2 all _h lo/1        

mom5t>ily1 _! feel+s ( p>tisan%ip & 7   
consci\s only ( ^! two int5se1 radiat+1 
oppos+ c5tres ( =ce2 & no man1 oddly    
en\gh1 c\ld say :i* 0 ! /rong]4 ,!y     
seem+ly met on equal t]ms4 ,!re c\ld n  
be ! slighte/ d\bt t ! rector did n mean
 to yield1 & yet !y might h be5 puzzl$  
if !y _h ask$ !mselves h[ !y _h read !  
fact 9 8 face or mann]4 ,= he betray$   
nei!r ang] nor impati5ce4  ,no m did !  
f9anci] reveal 8 own feel+s4 ,he /ill   
sat back 9 8 *air1 unmov$1 9 app>5t     
contemplation4 ,! po/ure 0 famili> to   
,langmaid4  ,w\ld he de/roy1 too1 ?is   
cl]gyman8 ,= ! fir/ "t 9 8 life1 & z he 
look$ at ,hodd]1 ! lawy] wond]$4 ,hodd] 
did n def5d himself1 made no apologies4 
,*ri/ianity 0 n a collection ( doctr9es1
 he rem9d$ !m1--b a mode ( life4 ,if    
any?+ 7 cle> to him1 x 0 t ! pres5t     
situation 0 n1 ) ! majority ( !m1 a     
matt] ( doctr9es1 b ( unwill+ness to    
accept ! message & precept ( ,jesus     
,*ri/1 & lead ,*ri/ian lives4 ,!y _h    
made use ( ! doctr9es z a /alk+-horse4  

,!re 0 a /ir at ?is1 & ,hodd] paus$ a   
mom5t & glanc$ ar\nd ! table4 ,b no "o  
int]rupt$4  ,he 0 fully aw>e ( 8 rights1
 & he _h no int5tion ( resign+4 ,to     
resign w\ld be to ab&on ! "w = :i* he 0 
responsible1 n to !m1 b to ,god4 ,& he 0
 p]fectly will+--nay1 eag] to def5d 8   
,*ri/ianity be=e any ecclesia/ical c\rt1
 %\ld ! bi%op decide t a c\rt 0         
necess>y4 ,! day ( fre$om1 ( a tru]     
vision 0 at h&1 ! day ( ,*ri/ian unity  
on ! vital tru?s1 & no bett] pro( ( x   
c\ld be br\ght =w>d ?an ! *ange 9 him4  
,9 8 ignorance & bl9dness he _h hi!rto  
p]mitt$ compromise1 b he w\ld no long]  
all[ ^? :o made only an outw>d pret5ce (
 be+ ,*ri/ians to direct ! spiritual    
affairs ( ,/4 ,john's1 to say :at %\ld &
 :at %\ld n be prea*$4 ,?is 0 to cont9ue
 to p>alyze ! usefulness ( ! *ur*1 to   
set at naught h] mission1 to ali5ate ^? 
:o mo/ _h ne$ ( h]1 :o hung]$ & ?ir/$   
aft] righte\sness1 & w5t away           
unsatisfi$4  ,he _h h>dly resum$ 8 seat 
:5 ,ev]ett ,con/able got up aga94 ,he   

rem>k$1 some:at un/eadily1 t to prolong 
! controv]sy w\ld be useless & pa9ful to
 all conc]n$1 & he inf9itely regrett$ ! 
necessity ( putt+ 8 sugge/ion t ! rector
 resign 9 ! =m ( a resolution 4 4 4 4 ,!
 vote 0 tak54 ,six m5 rais$ _! h&s 9    
fav\r ( 8 resignation--,nelson ,langmaid
 among !m3 two1 ,asa ,w>+ & ,philip     
,goodri*1 7 aga9/ x4 ,aft] ann\nc+ !    
result1 ,hodd] rose4  ,= ! reason ,i h  
/at$1 g5tlem51 ,i decl9e to resign1 he  
said4 ,i /& ^u my canonical rights4     
,francis ,f]guson arose1 8 voice        
actually trembl+ ) ang]4 ,!re is some?+ 
uncanny 9 ! passion ( a man ^: life has 
be5 ord]$ by ! inexorable rules (       
comm]ce1 :o has be5 wont to decide all  
que/ions f ! /&po9t ( doll>s & c5ts4 ,if
 "o ( 8 own wax models _h sudd5ly become
 animat$1 ! effect c\ld n h be5 m />tl+4
  ,9 ! c\rse ( ?is discussion1 he       
decl>$1 ,mr4 ,hodd] _h se5 fit to make  
grave & 9 8 op9ion unw>rant$ *>ges      
conc]n+ ! lives ( "s1 if n all1 ( !     
g5tlem5 :o sat "h4 ,x surpris$ him t ^! 

rem>ks _h n be5 res5t$1 b he prais$ a   
,*ri/ian =be>ance on ! "p ( 8 colleagues
 :i* he 0 unable to a*ieve4 ,he _h no   
d\bt t _! object _h be5 to sp>e ,mr4    
,hodd]'s feel+s z mu* z possible1 b ,mr4
 ,hodd] _h %[n no disposition to sp>e _!
 own4 ,he _h outrag$ !m1 ,mr4 ,f]guson  
?\ght1--wantonly s4 ,he _h made ^!      
prepo/]\s & un*ri/ian *>ges an excuse = 
8 det]m9ation to rema9 9 a position :]e 
8 usefulness _h ceas$4  ,no "o1         
un=tunately1 0 p]fect 9 ?is life1--n ev5
 ,mr4 ,hodd]4 ,he1 ,francis ,f]guson1 0 
f> f claim+ to be s4 ,b he believ$ t ?is
 arraignm5t ( ! m5 :o /ood highe/ 9 !   
city = dec5cy1 law1 & ord]1 :o support$ 
! ,*ur*1 :o rev]$ its doctr9es1 :o tri$ 
to live ,*ri/ian lives1 :o gave _! "t & 
_! money freely to x & to *>ities1 t ?is
 arraignm5t 0 an arrogant accusation &  
affront to be repudiat$4 ,he dem&$ t    
,mr4 ,hodd] be def9ite4 ,if he _h any   
*>ges to make1 let him make !m "h & n[4 
,! con/]nation1 ! horror :i* succe$$ su*
 a /upid & unexpect$ tactical blund] on 

! "p ( ! usually a/ute ,mr4 ,f]guson 7  
felt r ?an visually disc]n$4 ,!         
atmosph]e might h be5 describ$ z        
panicky4 ,asa ,w>+ & ,phil ,goodri*     
smil$ z ,wallis ,plimpton1 aft] a       
mom5t's hu%1 scrambl$ to 8 feet1 8 face 
pale1 8 cu/om>y eas9ess & non*alance n[ 
! result ( an obvi\s ef=t4 ,he1 too1    
tri$ to smile1 b swall[$ in/ead z he    
rememb]$ 8 prop]ty 9 ,dalton ,/reet 4 4 
4 4 ,nelson ,langmaid smil$1 9 spite (  
himself4 4 4 ,mr4 ,plimpton implor$ 8   
fell[-memb]s n to br+ p]sonalities into 
! debate1 & he 0 aw>e all ! :ile ( !    
curi\s1 pity+ expression ( ! rector4 ,he
 brea!d a sigh ( relief at ! op5+ words 
( ,hodd]1 :o foll[$ him4  ,g5tlem51 he  
said1 ,i h no int5tion ( be+ p]sonal1   
ev5 by unanim\s cons5t4 ,b if ,mr4      
,f]guson w come to me aft] ?is meet+ ,i 
%all h n ! lea/ objection to discuss+   
?is matt] ) him 9 s f> z he himself is  
conc]n$4 ,i c only assure y n[ t ,i h n 
spok5 )\t w>rant4  ,!re 01 oddly en\gh1 
no acceptance ( ?is (f] by ,mr4         

,f]guson4 ,ano!r sil5ce ensu$1 brok51 at
 la/1 by a voice = :i* !y _h all be5    
unconsci\sly wait+2 a voice :i*1 ?\gh   
unemotional1 cold1 & matt]-(-fact1 0    
nev]!less comm&+1 & long accu/om$ to    
speak ) an ov]:elm+ au?ority4 ,eldon    
,p>r did n rise4  ,mr4 ,hodd]1 he said1 
9 "o respect seems to be "u ! delusion t
 we are /ill 9 ! ,middle ,ages1 in/ead (
 ! tw5tie? c5tury1 s9ce he assumes ! "r 
to m$dle ) ! lives ( 8 p>i%ion]s1 to be 
! sole judge ( _! actions4 ,t assumption
 w n1 be tol]at$ by free m54 ,i1 = "o1  
g5tlem51 d n1 propose to h a sociali/ = 
! rector ( ! *ur* :i* ,i att5d &        
support4 ,& ,i ma9ta9 ! privilege ( an  
,am]ican citiz5 to set my own /&>ds1 )9 
! law1 & to be ! sole arbitr> ( ^?      
/&>ds4  ,good6 mutt]$ ,gordon ,att]bury4
 ,langmaid mov$ uncom=tably4  ,i %all n 
wa/e words1 ! f9anci] cont9u$4 ,!re is 9
 my m9d no "q t we are ju/ifi$ 9 dem&+ f
 our rector ! ,*ri/ian doctr9es to :i*  
we h giv5 our ass5t1 & :i* are /at$ 9 ! 
,cre$s4 ,t !y %all be subject to ! :ims 

( ! rector is beyond argum5t4 ,i d n    
pret5d to1 und]/& ei!r1 g5tlem51 !      
nature ( ! extraord9>y *ange t has tak5 
place 9 ! rector ( ,/4 ,john's4 ,i am n 
well v]s$ m psy*ology4 ,i am incapable (
 flights myself4 ,"o effect ( ?is *ange 
is an attitude on :i* reasonable        
consid]ations w\ld seem to h no effect4 
,our res\rces1 =tunately1 are n yet at  
an end4 ,x has be5 my hope1 on acc\nt ( 
my =m] fri5d%ip ) ,mr4 ,hodd]1 t an     
ecclesia/ical trial might n be necess>y4
 ,x n[ seems inevitable4 ,9 ! meantime1 
s9ce ,mr4 ,hodd] has se5 fit to rema9 9 
spite ( our prote/1 ,i d n int5d to ent]
 ?is *ur*4 ,i 0 prep>$1 g5tlem51 z "s ( 
y no d\bt "k1 to sp5d a consid]able sum 
9 add+ to ! beauty ( ,/4 ,john's & to ! 
*>itable activities ( ! p>i%4 ,mr4      
,hodd] has n disapprov$ ( my gifts 9 !  
pa/1 b ow+ to 8 pres5t scruples conc]n+ 
my wor?9ess1 ,i naturally hesitate to   
press ! matt] n[4 ,mr4 ,p>r indulg$ 9 ! 
semblance ( a smile4 ,i fe> t he mu/    
take ! responsibility ( delay+ ?is      

b5efit1 ) ! o!r responsibilities he has 
assum$4  ,8 voice *ang$4 ,x became %>p]4
  ,9 %ort1 ,i propose to )hold all      
contributions = :atev] purpose f ?is    
*ur* :ile ,mr4 ,hodd] is rector1 & ,i   
advise ^? ( y :o h vot$ = 8 resignation 
to d ! same4 ,9 ! meantime1 ,i %all give
 my money to ,calv>y1 & att5d its       
s]vices4 ,& ,i %all (f] fur!r a         
resolution--:i* ,i am in=m$ is )9 our   
"r--to discont9ue ,mr4 ,hodd]'s sal>y4  
,!re 0 t 9 ! unp>allel$ audacity (      
,eldon ,p>r t compell$ ,hodd]'s unwill+ 
admiration4 ,he sat gaz+ at ! f9anci]   
dur+ ?is spee*1 speculat+ curi\sly on ! 
inn] consci\sness ( ! man :o c\ld utt]  
x4 ,0 x possible t he _h no s5se (      
guilt8 ,ev5 s1 he _h %[n a rem>kable    
a/ut5ess 9 rely+ on ! conviction t he   
7,hodd]7 w\ld n betray :at he knew4  ,he
 0 sudd5ly aw>e t ,asa ,w>+ 0 /&+ beside
 him4  ,g5tlem51 said ,mr4 ,w>+1 ,i h   
li/5$ to ?is discussion z long z ,i c   
be> x ) pati5ce4 ,_h ,i be5 told ( x1 ,i
 %\ld h ?\ght x incr$ible t ! me?ods ( !

 money *ang]s %\ld be appli$ to !       
direction & control ( ! h\se ( ,god4 ,9 
my op9ion !re is b "o ^w :i* is suitable
 = :at has pass$ "h to-night1 & ! ^w is 
p]secution4 ,p]haps ,i h liv$ too long  
,i h liv$ to see hon\rable1 upright m5  
depriv$ ( :at 0 rightfully !irs1 driv5 f
 _! livelihood by ! rapacity ( ^? :o    
/rive to conc5trate ! weal? & p[] ( !   
nation into _! h&s4 ,i h se5 ?is p[]    
ga!r+ /r5g?1 /ret*+ its arm little by   
little ov] ! in/itutions ,i f\ght to    
pres]ve1 & :i* ,i *]i% ov] our politics1
 ov] our gov]nm5t1 yes1 & ev5 ov] our   
c\rts4 ,i h se5 x poison+ ! bus9ess     
hon\r 9 :i* we =m]ly took su* a pride1  
,i h se5 x ree/abli%+ a slav]y m        
p]nici\s ?an t :i* millions di$ to      
efface4 ,i h se5 x compel a subs]vi5ce  
:i* makes me a%am$1 z an ,am]ican1 to   
witness4  ,8 glance1 a )]+ moral scorn1 
d>t$ f "u ! grizzl$ eyebr[s & alight$ on
 "o man aft] ano!r1 & none met x4       
,ev]ett ,con/able c\gh$1 ,wallis        
,plimpton %ift$ 8 position1 ! o!rs sat l

 /ones4 ,asa ,w>+ 0 giv+ v5t at la/ to !
 p5t-up feel+s ( _m ye>s4  ,& n[ t p[]1 
:i* respects no?+1 has crept into !     
sanctu>y ( ! ,*ur*4 ,our rector         
recognizes x1 ,i recognize x1--!re is n 
a man "h :o1 9 8 he>t1 misund]/&s me4 ,&
 :5 a man is f\nd :o has ! c\rage to /& 
up aga9/ x1 ,i hon\r him ) all my s\l1 &
 a hope t 0 almo/ dead revives 9 me4 ,= 
!re is "o =ce1 & "o =ce alone1 able to  
ov]come ! p[] ( :i* ,i speak1 --! ,_s ( 
,*ri/4 ,& ! mission ( ! ,*ur* is to     
dissem9ate t _s4 ,! ,*ur* is ! *ampion  
on :i* we h to rely1 or give up all hope
 ( victory4 ,! ,*ur* mu/ tra9 !         
recruits4 ,& if ! ,*ur* h]self is       
betray$ into ! h&s ( ! enemy1 ! battle  
is lo/4  ,if ,mr4 ,hodd] is =c$ out (   
?is *ur*1 x w\ld be bett] to lock !     
doors4 ,/4 ,john's w be held up1 &      
rightfully1 to ! scorn ( ! city4 ,all ! 
money 9 ! _w w n save h]4 ,?\gh crippl$1
 %e has surviv$ "o disgrace1 :5 %e w\ld 
n give free %elt] to ! man :o above all 
o!rs express$ h] true _s1 :5 %e drove   

,horace ,b5tley f h] doors aft] he _h   
be5 depriv$ ( ! =tune :i* he 0 sp5d+ = 8
 fell[-m54 ,%e w n survive ano!r4  ,i h 
no d\bt ,mr4 ,p>r's motion to take f    
,mr4 ,hodd] 8 liv+ w g ?r\gh4 ,& /ill ,i
 urge him n to resign4 ,i am n a ri*    
man1 ev5 :5 su* prop]ty z ,i h is comp>$
 to mod]ate =tunes ( ^! days1 b ,i w\ld 
pay 8 sal>y will+ly out ( my own pocket 
r ?an see him g 4 4 4 4  ,i call !      
att5tion ( ! ,*airman1 said ,eldon ,p>r1
 aft] a c]ta9 int]val 9 :i* no "o _h    
v5tur$ to speak1 to ! motion be=e !     
ve/ry relat+ to ! discont9uance ( ,mr4  
,hodd]'s sal>y4  ,x 0 !n t ! unexpect$  
happ5$4 ,gordon ,att]bury r$eem$        
himself4 ,8 respect = ,mr4 ,w>+1 he     
said1 made him hesitate to take issue ) 
him4  ,he c\ld speak = himself & = a    
numb] ( p 9 ! congregation :5 he        
reit]at$ 8 op9ion t !y 7 hone/ly %ock$  
at :at ,mr4 ,hodd] _h prea*$1 & t ?is 0 
8 sole motive 9 reque/+ ,mr4 ,hodd] to  
resign4 ,he ?\ght1 "u ! circum/ances1 t 
?is 0 a matt] :i* might safely be left )

 ! bi%op4 ,he w\ld n vote to deprive    
,mr4 ,hodd] ( 8 sal>y4  ,! motion 0     
c>ri$ by a vote ( five to ?ree4 ,=      
,eldon ,p>r well knew t 8 w ne$$ no     
re5=cem5t by argum5t4 ,& ?is mu* 0 to be
 said = him1 t aft] he _h ent]$ a battle
 he nev] hesitat$1 nev] "u any          
circum/ances reconsid]$ ! probable      
effect ( 8 c\rse4  ,z = ! o!rs1 ^? :o _h
 support$ him1 !y 7 ca/ 9 a less h]oic  
m\ld4 ,ev5 ,francis ,f]guson4 ,z betwe5 
! devil & ! deep sea1 he 0 compell$1 ) z
 good a grace z possible1 to *oose !    
devil4 ,he 0 utt]ly unable to           
contemplate ! disa/] :i* might ensue if 
c]ta9 f9ancial ties1 :i* 7 ?ick] ?an    
cables1 7 snapp$4 ,b 8 affection = !    
devil 0 n increas$ by ?us be+ l$ into a 
*>ge f :i* he w\ld will+ly h drawn back4
 ,asa ,w>+ might mean no?+ to ,eldon    
,p>r1 b he meant a great deal to        
,francis ,f]guson1 :o _h by no means    
=gott5 8 s5sations ( satisfaction :5    
,mrs4 ,w>+ _h made h] fir/ call 9 ,p>k  
,/reet on ,francis ,f]guson's wife4 ,he 

left ! room 9 su* a /ate (              
abs5t-m9d$ness z actually to pass ,mr4  
,p>r 9 ! corridor )\t speak+ to him4  ,!
 case ( ,wallis ,plimpton 0 ev5 worse4  
,he _h m>ri$ ! ,gores1 b he _h s\ght to 
b9d himself ) hoops ( /eel to ! ,w>+s4  
,he _h always secretly admir$ t old     
,roman quality 7:i* ! ,goodri*es --_!   
connections--%>$7 ( hold+ fa/ to _!     
c\rse unm9dful & r scornful ( influ5ce  
:i* sway$ _! neighb\rs4 ,! clan 0       
suffici5t unto itself1 satisfi$ ) a     
mod]ate prosp]ity & a cont9ually        
increas+ numb] ( desc5dants4 ,! "n 0    
un/a9$4 ,su* are ! /range incongruities 
9 ! he>ts ( m51 t few realiz$ ! ext5t to
 :i* ,wallis ,plimpton _h p>tak5 ( !    
g5]al h]o-wor%ip ( ,phil ,goodri*4 ,he  
_h assidu\sly cultivat$ 8 reg>d1 at     
times discreetly boa/$ ( x1 & yet _h    
nev] be5 sure ( x4 ,& n[ fate1 9 ! =m ( 
8 ma/]1 ,eldon ,p>r _h ironically       
compell$ him at "o /roke to undo ! "w ( 
ye>s4 ,z soon z ! meet+ broke up1 he    
cross$ ! room4  ,i c't tell y h[ mu* ,i 

regret ?is1 ,phil1 he said4 ,*>lotte has
 v /rong convictions1 y "k1 & s h ,i4 ,y
 c und]/&1 ,i am sure1 h[ c]ta9 articles
 ( belief might be necess>y to "o p]son1
 & n to ano!r4  ,yes1 said ,phil1 ,i c  
und]/&4 ,we ne$n't m5tion ! articles1   
,wallis4 ,& he turn$ 8 back4  ,he nev]  
knew ! pa9 he inflict$4 ,wallis         
,plimpton look$ at ! rector1 :o /ood    
talk+ to ,mr4 ,w>+1 & = ! fir/ "t 9 8   
life recoil$ f an ov]ture4  ,some?+ 9 ! 
faces ( bo? m5 w>n$ him away4  ,ev5     
,ev]ett ,con/able1 z !y w5t home 9 ! c>s
 toge!r1 0 brief ) him1 & pass$ no      
comm5ts :5 ,mr4 ,plimpton recov]$       
suffici5tly to elaborate on !           
ju/ification ( _! act1 & ^u !           
extraord9>y /& tak5 by ,phil ,goodri* & 
,mr4 ,w>+4  ,!y might h told u :at !y 7 
go+ to d4  ,ev]ett ,con/able ey$ him4   
,w\ld x h made any diff]5ce1 ,plimpton8 
he dem&$4  ,aft] t !y rode 9 sil5ce1    
until !y came to a c]ta9 ,we/ ,end      
corn]1 :]e !y bo? desc5d$4 ,little ,mr4 
,con/able's s5sations 71 if any?+1 less 

enviable1 & he _h n ,mr4 ,plimpton's    
recup]ative p[]s4  ,he _h sold t night1 
= a mess ( pottage1 ! fri5d%ip & respect
 ( ?ree g5]ations4 ,& he _h f\ght1 =    
pay1 aga9/ 8 own p4  ,& la/ly1 !re 0    
,langmaid1 ^: feel+s almo/ defy         
analysis4 ,he *ose to walk ?r\gh ! /ill 
night ! f\r miles--t sep>at$ him f 8    
home4 ,& he w5t back ov] ! ye>s ( 8 life
 until he f\nd1 9 ! rubbi% ( ! pa/1 a   
=gott5 & t>ni%$ jewel4 ,! discov]y pa9$ 
him4 ,= t jewel 0 ! ideal he _h c>ri$   
away1 z a y\?1 f ! old law s*ool at !   
bottom ( ,hamilton ,place1 --a gift f no
 less a man ?an ! great lawy] &         
public-spirit$ citiz51 ,judge ,h5ry     
,goodri*--,philip ,goodri*'s gr&fa!r1 ^:
 seat$ /atue m>k$ ! entrance ( ! libr>y4
 ,he1 ,nelson ,langmaid1 --_h gone =? f 
t s*ool resolv$ to foll[ 9 ! foot/eps ( 
t man1--b someh[ he miss$ ! pa?4 ,someh[
 ! jewel _h lo/ its fire4 ,!re _h come a
 tempt+ (f]1 & a /ruggle--j "o3 a       
readju/m5t on ! plea t ! _w _h *ang$    
s9ce ! days ( ,judge ,goodri*1 ^:       

uncompromis+ figure _h begun to fade3 an
 excit+ discov]y t he1 ,nelson          
,langmaid1 possess$ ! gift ( draw+ up   
agreem5ts :i* _h ! faculty ( pass+      
magically ?r\gh ! me%es ( ! ,/atutes4   
,afflu5ce _h foll[$1 & fame1 & ev5 t    
high (fice :i* ! ,judge himself _h held1
 ! ,presid5cy ( ! ,/ate ,b>             
,association4 ,9 all t "t1 "o rem>k1 :i*
 he _h tri$ to =get1 _h cut him to !    
quick4 ,b$loe ,hubbell _h said on !     
political plat=m t ,langmaid got "o     
hundr$ ?\s& doll>s a ye> = keep+ ,eldon 
,p>r out ( jail4  ,once he /opp$ 9 !    
/reet1 8 m9d sudd5ly go+ back to !      
action ( ! f9anci] at ! ve/ry meet+4    
,conf\nd him6 he said al\d1 he has be5 a
 fool = once4 ,i told him n to d x4  ,he
 /ood at la/ 9 ! ample ve/ibule ( 8     
h\se1 s+l+ out 8 lat*-key1 :5 sudd5ly ! 
door op5$1 & 8 daught] ,hel5 appe>$4    
,oh1 dad1 %e cri$1 :y are y s-late8     
,i've be5 wat*+ = y4 ,i "k y've let ,mr4
 ,hodd] /ay4  ,%e gaz$ at him ) wid5$   
eyes4  ,don't tell me t y've made him   

resign4 ,i c't--,i won't believe x4  ,he
 isn't go+ to resign1 ,hel51 ,langmaid  
repli$1 9 an odd voice4  ,he--he refus$ 
to4     ,,*apt] ,,xxv  ,,rise1 ,,cr[n$  
,,) ,,light6   ,i  ,! ,*ur* ( ,/4       
,john's1 aft] a peaceful exi/5ce ( s _m 
ye>s1 _h sudd5ly become ! /age on :i*   
rapid & bewild]+ dramas 7 play$3 !      
/orm-c5tre ( *aotic =ces1 hi!rto        
unp]ceiv$1 drawn f ! atmosph]e ar\nd h]4
 ,= !re _h be5 m publicity1 m adv]tis+4 
,! ,rector ( ,/4 ,john's w n talk--su*  
_h be5 "o headl9e3 nei!r w\ld ! ve/ry   
talk4 ,& yet1 despite all ?is secrecy1 !
 :ole /ory ( ! susp5sion ( ,hodd]'s     
sal>y 0 9 pr9t1 & an editorial 7:i* 0   
s5t to him7 f a popul> & s5sational     
j\rnal1 on ta9t$ money1 9 :i* ,hodd] 0  
held up to ! public z a m>tyr because he
 refus$ any long] to accept = ! ,*ur*   
ill-gott5 ga9s f ,consolidat$ ,tractions
 & ! l4  ,?is _h op5$ aga9 ! floodgates 
( ! mails1 & x seem$ z ?\gh e p]son :o  
_h a real or fanci$ grievance aga9/     
,eldon ,p>r _h writt5 him4 ,nor did o!rs

 ( 8 congregation escape4 ,! press (    
visitors at ! p>i% h\se sudd5ly increas$
 once m1 m5 & wom5 came to p\r into 8   
e>s an appall+ a]ies ( confessions2     
wrongs :i*1 l ,g>v9's1 _h eng5d]$ bitt] 
hatr$s2 woes1 temptations1 bewild]m5ts4 
,hodd] /rove to keep 8 feet1 s\ght      
wisdom to deal pati5tly ) all1 ?\gh at  
times he 0 tri$ to ! utt]mo/4 ,& he held
 /eadfa/ly be=e 8 m9d ! great ?+1 t !y  
did come4 ,x 0 :at he _h long$ =1 pray$ 
=1 despair$ (4 ,he 0 no long] cry+ 9 !  
empty wild]ness1 b at la/ 9 t\*-9       
natural t\* ) life3 ) life 9 all its    
sorr[1 its crudity & horror4 ,he _h     
contriv$1 by ! grace ( ,god1 to make !  
connection = 8 *ur*4  ,t *ur* might h   
be5 lik5$ to a %ip sail+ out ( ! snug   
h>b\r 9 :i* %e _h la9 s long to range   
h]self gallantly beside ^? :om %e _h    
=m]ly beheld1 ) complac5t c[>dice1      
fight+ h] fight3 "y m5 & wom51 enli/$ "u
 o!r bann]s ?an h] own1 do+ _! "p 9 !   
battle ( ! tw5tie? c5tury = humanity4   
,h] rector 0 h] capta94 ,x 0 he :o _h   

cut h] cables1 quell$1 = a "t at lea/1  
h] mut9e]s2 & s\ght to he>t5 ^? ( h]    
little crew :o wav]$1 :o %rank back     
appall$ z !y realiz$ some?+ ( ! imm5sity
 ( ! conflict 9 :i* h] de/9y 0 to be    
wr\ght out4  ,to c>ry on ! figure1      
,philip ,goodri* might h be5 deem$ h]   
fir/ (fic]4 ,he1 at lea/1 0 n appall$1 b
 grimly consci\s ( ! greatness ( ! task 
to :i* !y _h set _! h&s4 ,! sudd5       
trans=mation ( cons]vative ,/4 ,john's 0
 no m amaz+ ?an t ( ! son ( a family :i*
 _h nev] be5 )\t influ5ce 9 ! community4
 ,b t influ5ce _h always be5            
cons]vative4 ,& ,phil ,goodri* _h hi!rto
 tak5 b a li/less int]e/ 9 ! *ur* ( 8   
fa!rs4 ,=tune _h smil$ ^u him1 tru/s _h 
come to him uns\ght4 ,he _h inh]it$ !   
family tal5t = ! law1 ! fre$om to       
practise :5 & :]e he *ose4 ,8 love (    
active sport _h l$ him into _m          
vacations1 :5 he tramp$ ?r\gh m>% &     
?icket aft] game1 & at five & =ty !re 0 
n an ounce ( sup]flu\s fle% on 8 h>d    
body4 ,9 spite ( 8 pla9 speak+1 an      

ov]:elm+ popul>ity at college _h foll[$ 
him to 8 native place1 & no             
organization1 sport+ or s]i\s1 0 =m$ 9 !
 city t ! "q 0 n ask$1 ,:at does        
,goodri* ?9k ab\t x8  ,8 :ole-s\l$      
enli/m5t 9 ! cause ( :at 0 reg>d$ z     
radical religion became1 !re=e1 !       
subject ( amaz$ comm5t 9 ! _m clubs he  
n[ neglect$4 ,! squabble 9 ,/4 ,john's1 
z x 0 g5]ally ref]r$ to1 _h be5 air$ 9 !
 press1 b su* 0 ! magic 9 a "n made )\t 
consci\s ef=t t ,phil ,goodri*'s        
p>ticipation 9 ! /ruggle _h a palpably  
dis>m+ effect3 & !re 7 n a few m5 :o    
commonly sp5t _! ,sunday morn+s beh9d   
plate-glass w9d[s1 surr\nd$ by          
newspap]s1 z well z "s 9 ! a?letic club 
7^: conte/s ,mr4 ,goodri* sometimes     
ref]e$7 :o w5t to ,/4 ,john's out (     
curiosity & :o wait$1 aft]w>ds1 = an    
int]view ) ,phil or ! rector4 ,! rem>k (
 "o ( ^! 0 typical ( o!rs4 ,he _h nev]  
tak5 mu* /ock 9 religion1 b if ,goodri* 
w5t 9 = x he ?\ght he'd g & look x ov]4 
,sc>cely a day pass$ t ,phil did n drop 

9 at ! p>i% h\se4444 ,& he set himself1 
) all ! vig\r ( an unsqu&]$ manhood1 to 
help ,hodd] to solve ! multitude ( new  
problems by :i* !y 7 beset4  ,a free    
*ur* 0 a magnific5t ideal1 b h[ 0 x to  
be c>ri$ on )\t an ,eldon ,p>r1 a       
,f]guson1 a ,con/able1 a ,mrs4          
,l>rabbee1 or a ,gore :o w\ld make up ! 
deficit at ! end ( ! ye>8 ,c\ld weekly  
contributions1 on ! envelope sy/em1 be  
reli$ ^u1 provid$ ! p cont9u$ to come & 
fill ! pews ( abs5t & outrag$ p>i%ion]s8
 ,! music 0 ! mo/ exp5sive 9 ! city1    
al?\gh ,mr4 ,taylor1 ! organi/1 _h come 
to ! rector & (f]$ to cut 8 sal>y 9     
half1 & to leave t 9 abeyance until !   
f9ances c\ld be adju/$4 ,& 8 example _h 
be5 foll[$ by "s ( ! high-paid m5 9 !   
*oir4 ,o!rs _h (f]$ to s+ )\t pay4 ,&   
!re 7 ! exp5ses ( ! p>i% h\se1 an al>m+ 
sum n[ ,eldon ,p>r _h )drawn3 ! sal>ies 
( ! assi/ants4 ,hodd]1 :o _h sav$ a     
c]ta9 sum 9 pa/ ye>s1 w\ld take no?+ = !
 pres5t 4 4 4 4 ,asa ,w>+ & ,phil       
,goodri* borr[$ on _! own responsibility

 4 4 4    ,,ii  ,some?+ ( ! ov]:elm+    
nature ( ! =ces ,hodd] _h summon$ 0     
visibly app>5t on t fir/ ,sunday aft]   
:at _m _h call$ 8 apo/asy4 ,in/ead ( !  
ord]ly1 sprucely-dress$ gr\ps ( p :i* 7 
wont to l+] 9 greet+s be=e ! doors ( ,/4
 ,john's1 a motley cr[d ?rong$ ! pavem5t
 & /ream$ into ! *ur*1 press+ up !      
aisles & invad+ ! sacr$ prec9cts :]e    
decor\s p>i%ion]s _h = s _m ye>s knelt 9
 com=t & seclusion4 ,! famili> figure ( 
,gordon ,att]bury 0 n[h]e to be se51 & !
 ,att]bury pew 0 occupi$ by %op-girls 9 
gaudy hats4 ,eldon ,p>r's pew 0 fill$1  
,ev]ett ,con/able's1 ,wallis            
,plimpton's2 & ! u%]s :o _h ha/ily be5  
mu/]$ 7 awe/rick5 & p[]less4 ,su* a     
resi/less invasion by ! hordes ( !      
unkn[n might well h /ruck ) t]ror "s (  
^? :o hi!rto _h _h ! c\rage to /&up     
loyally 9 ! rector's support4 ,x _h a   
di/9ct flav\r ( revolution3 conta9$1 =  
"s1 a grim sugge/ion ( a "t :5 t vague1 
irresponsible1 & re/less mon/]1 ! mob1  
w\ld rise 9 its might & brutally &      

inexorably take possession ( all        
prop]ty4  ,alison _h met ,eleanor       
,goodri* 9 ,burton ,/reet1 & z ! two    
made _! way into ! cr[d$ ve/ibule !y    
enc\nt]$ ,m>?a ,pre/on1 ^: husb& 0      
,alison's c\s91 9 ! act ( flight4  ,y're
 n go+ 96 %e exclaim$4  ,( c\rse we are4
  ,mrs4 ,pre/on />$ at ,alison 9        
amazem5t4  ,i didn't "k y 7 /ill "h1 %e 
said1 irrelevantly4 ,i'm pretty lib]al1 
my de>1 z y "k1--b ?is is m ?an ,i c /&4
 ,look at !m6 ,%e drew up h] skirts z a 
woman bru%$ aga9/ h]4 ,i believe 9 !    
poor com+ to *ur*1 & all t1 b ?is is m]e
 vulg> curiosity1 ! result ( all t odi\s
 adv]tis+ 9 ! newspap]s4 ,my pew is     
fill$ ) !m4 ,if ,i _h /ay$1 ,i %\ld h   
fa9t$4 ,i don't "k :at to ?9k ( ,mr4    
,hodd]4  ,mr4 ,hodd] is n to blame = !  
newspap]s1 repli$ ,alison1 w>mly4 ,%e   
glanc$ ar\nd h] at ! p pu%+ pa/1 h] eyes
 %9+1 h] col\r high1 & !re 0 ! r+ (     
passion 9 h] voice :i* _h d ,m>?a       
,pre/on a peculi>ly disquiet+ effect4 ,i
 ?9k x's spl5did t !y are "h at all6 ,i 

don't c>e :at br\ght !m4  ,mrs4 ,pre/on 
/>$ aga94 ,%e 0 a pretty1 intellig5t    
woman1 at ^: d9n] table "o 0 sure to he>
 ! discussion ( "s mod]n problem3 %e    
believ$ h]self to be a sociali/4 ,h]    
eyes s\ght ,eleanor ,goodri*'s1 :o /ood 
by1 alight ) excitem5t4  ,b surely y1   
,eleanor-y're n go+ 96 ,y'll nev] be    
able to /& x1 ev5 if y f9d a seat4 ,!   
few p we "k :o've come are leav+4 ,i j  
saw ! ,allan ,p5dletons4  ,h y se5      
,phil8 ,eleanor ask$4  ,oh1 yes1 he's 9 
!re1 & ev5 he's helpless4 ,& z ,i came  
out poor ,mr4 ,bradley 0 jamm$ up aga9/ 
! wall4 ,he seem$ p]fectly /unn$ 4 4 4 4
  ,at ?is mom5t !y 7 ?ru/ ap>t4 ,eleanor
 quiv]$ z %e 0 c>ri$ ?r\gh ! sw++ doors 
into ! *ur*4  ,i ?9k y're "r1 %e :isp]$ 
to ,alison1 x is spl5did4 ,!re's some?+ 
ab\t x t takes hold ( me1 t c>ries "o   
away4 ,x makes me wond] h[ x c be       
guid$--:at w come ( x8  ,!y caught sight
 ( ,phil pu%+ 8 way t[>ds !m1 & 8 face  
bore ! set look ( bellig]5cy :i*        
,eleanor knew s well1 b he return$ h]   

smile4 ,alison's he>t w>m$ t[>ds him4   
,:at d y ?9k ( ?is8 he dem&$4 ,mo/ ( our
 respectable fri5ds :o d>$ to come h    
left 9 a t[]+ rage--to in/itute         
lawsuits1 probably4 ,at t9y rate1       
/rang]s are n be+ made to wait until t5 
m9utes aft] ! s]vice beg9s4 ,t's "o     
b>b>\s cu/om aboli%$4  ,/rang]s seem to 
h tak5 matt]s 9 _! own h&s = once       
,eleanor smil$4 ,we've made up our m9ds 
to /ay1 ,phil1 ev5 if we h to /&4  ,t's 
! "r _s1 decl>$ h] husb&1 glanc+ at     
,alison1 :o _h rema9$ sil5t1 ) approval 
& by no means a conceal$ surprise4 ,i   
?9k ,i "k ( a place :]e ,i c squeeze y  
91 ne> ,pr(essor ,bridges & ,sally1 on !
 side aisle4  ,are ,george & ,sally "h8 
,eleanor exclaim$4  ,hodd]1 said ,phil1 
is conv]t+ ! hea!n4 ,y c\ldn't h kept   
,george away4 ,& x 0 ,george :o made    
,sally /ay6  ,pres5tly !y f\nd !mselves 
e/abli%$ betwe5 a rawbon$ "y work+man :o
 smell$ /rongly ( soap1 ^: hair 0 pla/]$
 tightly aga9/ 8 =ehead1 & a "y woman :o
 lean$ aga9/ ! wall4 ,! black 9 :i* %e 0

 dress$ enhanc$ ! :it5ess & we>9ess ( h]
 face1 & %e sat gaz+ ahead ( h]1        
app>5tly unconsci\s ( ^? :o surr\nd$ h]1
 h] h&s tightly fold$ 9 h] lap4 ,9 _!   
imm$iate vic9ity1 inde$1 might h be5    
f\nd all ! v>iety ( type se5 9 ! ord9>y 
/reet c>4 ,& 9 tru? !re 7 "s :o seem$   
sc>cely to realize !y 7 n 9 a public    
vehicle4 ,an elaborately dress$ female 9
 front ( !m1 ^: expansive hat bru%$ h]  
neighb\rs1 made audible comm5ts to a /\t
 man ) a r$ neck :i* 0 set 9 a crease   
above 8 l[ coll>4  ,!y tell me ,eldon   
,p>r's pew has a gold plate on x4 ,i wi%
 ,i knew :i* x 04 ,x a9't ?is "o1       
anyway1 ,i'll bet4  ,say1 !y m>* 9 9 ?is
 k9d ( a *ur*1 don't !y8 "s "o said     
beh9d !m4  ,eleanor1 ) h] lips tightly  
press$1 op5$ h] pray] book4 ,alison's   
lips 7 slightly p>t$ z %e gaz$ ab\t h]1 
across ! aisle4 ,h] exp]i5ce ( ! ,sunday
 be=e1 deep & t5se z x _h be51 seem$ z  
no?+ comp>$ to ?is2 ! pres5ce ( all ^! p
 /imulat$ h] inexpressibly1 fir$ h]2 &  
%e felt ! blood puls+ ?r\gh h] body z %e

 contra/$ ?is ga!r+ ) ! dignifi$1       
scatt]$ congregation %e _h kn[n4 ,%e    
sc>cely recogniz$ ! *ur* itself 4 4 4   
,%e speculat$ on ! homes f :i* ^! _h    
come1 & ! motives :i* _h br\ght !m4  ,= 
a second ! p]fume ( ! woman 9 front1    
m+l+ ) o!r less def9able od\rs1 almo/   
sick5$ h]1 evok+ sugge/ions ( tawdry1   
trivial1 vulg> lives1 f$ on s5sation &  
excitem5t2 b ! feel+ 0 almo/ imm$iately 
swept away by a r5ew$ s5se ( ! bigness (
 ! ?+ :i* %e beheld1--( :i*1 inde$1 %e 0
 a "p4 ,& h] ?\ghts turn$ m def9itely to
 ! man :o _h br\ght x all ab\t4 ,c\ld he
 control x1 subdue x8 ,"h 0 ,opportunity
 sudd5ly ^u him1 l a huge1 curv+1       
pond]\s wave4 ,c\ld he ride x8 or w\ld x
 cru% him remorselessly8  ,s5sitive1    
al]t1 quick5$ z %e 01 %e began to be    
aw>e ( o!r values3 ( ! int5se spiritual 
hung] 9 ! eyes ( ! woman 9 black1 !     
ye>n+ ( b>r51 hopeless exi/5ces4 ,& "h &
 !re ,alison's look fell ^u m prosp]\s  
individuals ^: expressions proclaim$    
incr$ulity1 a c]ta9 cynical amusem5t at 

! spectacle3 o!rs seem$ uneasy1 z hav+  
got m ?an !y _h b>ga9$ =1 delib]at+ :e!r
 to flee 4 4 4 & !n1 j z h] susp5se 0   
becom+ almo/ unbe>able1 ! s]vice began4 
4 4 4  ,h[ x _h be5 accompli%$1 ! ?+ %e 
lat] felt1 0 beyond ! range (           
intellectual analysis4 ,nor c\ld %e h   
told h[ mu* lat]1 s9ce ! passage ( "t _h
 gone unnotic$4 ,curiosities1 d\bts1    
passions1 long+s1 antagonisms--all ^!   
seem$--z ! mo/ natural ?+ 9 ! _w--to h  
be5 fus$ into "o common b ineffable     
emotion4 ,su*1 at lea/1 0 ! impression  
to :i* ,alison />tl+ly awoke4 ,all !    
:ile %e _h be5 consci\s ( ,hodd]1 f !   
mom5t %e _h he>d 8 voice 9 ! *ancel2 b  
someh[ ?is consci\sness ( him _h melt$1 
imp]ceptibly1 into t ( ! great          
congregation1 once divid$ aga9/ itself1 
:i* _h n[ a*iev$ unity ( s\l4  ,! my/]y 
z to h[ ?is _h be5 effect$ 0 ! m elusive
 :5 %e consid]$ ! abs5ce ( all me?ods   
:i* might h be5 deem$ revivali/ic4 ,few 
( ^? ar\nd h] ev9c$ a famili>ity ) !    
hi/oric s]vice4 ,& !n occurr$ to h] 8   

explanation ( p]sonality z ! m$ium by   
:i* all tru? is reveal$1 by :i* ! curr5t
 ( religion1 ! motive p[] 9 all hi/ory1 
is transmitt$4 ,surely ?is 0 !          
explanation1 if x might be call$ "o6 ,t 
t+l+ s5se ( a p]vad+ _s :i* 0 81--& yet 
n 84 ,he 0 ! inc&esc5t m$ium1 & yet1    
p>adoxically1 ga9$ 9 id5tity &          
individuality & 0 insep>able f ! ?+     
itself4  ,%e c\ld n see him4 ,a pill>   
hid ! *ancel f h] view4  ,! s]vice1 to  
:i* %e _h object$ z ar*aic1 became      
subord9ate1 spiritualiz$1 dom9at$ by !  
p]sonality4 ,hodd] _h dep>t$ f ! usual  
cu/om by giv+ out ! page ( ! psalt]3 & !
 v]ses1 ! ?robb+ responses :i* arose f e
 corn] ( ! *ur*1 assum$ a new           
significance1 ! vision ( ! anci5t se]   
reviv$4 ,"o v]se he read res\nd$ )      
prophecy4  ,?\ %alt deliv] me f ! /riv+s
 ( ! p3 & ?\ %alt make me ! head ( !    
hea!n4  ,& ! reply3  ,a p :om ,i h n    
kn[n %all s]ve me4  ,! work+-man next to
 ,alison _h no pray]-book4 ,%e ?ru/ h]  
own into 8 h&1 & !y read f x toge!r 4 4 

4 4  ,:5 !y came to ! second hymn !     
woman 9 front ( h] _h wond]fully %$ h]  
vulg>ity4 ,h] voice--a really good      
"o--p\r$ itself out3         ,see a long
 race ?y spaci\s c\rts adorn1           
,see future sons1 & daught]s yet unborn1
         ,9 cr[d+ ranks on e side arise1
         ,dem&+ life1 impati5t = !      
skies4  ,once ,alison w\ld h be5        
critical ( ! words ,%e 0 beyond t1 n[4  
,:at did x matt]1 if ! ess5tial ,?+ 7   
pres5t8  ,! s]mon 0 a surprise4 ,& ^? :o
 _h come = excitem5t1 = ! s5sation (    
he>+ a d5unciation ( a class !y envi$ & 
!re=e hat$1 & nev]!less /rove to        
imitate1 7 !mselves rebuk$4 ,7 n _!     
/&>ds ! same8 ,& if ! /&>d 7 false1 x   
foll[$ inevitably t ! life 0 false also4
  ,hodd] fairly />tl$ ^! out ( _!       
preconceiv$ notions ( ,*ri/ianity4 ,let 
!m %ake out ( _! m9ds ev]y?+ !y _h ?\ght
 x to mean1 *ur*go+1 acceptance ( cre$ &
 dogma1 contributive *>ity1 )drawal f ! 
_w1 rites & c]emonies3 x 0 none ( ^!4   
,! motive 9 ! _w to-day 0 ! acquisition 

( prop]ty2 ! motive ( ,*ri/ianity 0     
absolutely & uncompromis+ly oppos$ to   
?is4 ,%ock _! practical s5se z x might1 
,*ri/ianity look$ =w>d ) /eadfa/ fai? to
 a "t :5 ! inc5tive to amass prop]ty    
w\ld be done away )1 s9ce x 0 a s\rce ( 
evil & a curse to mank9d4 ,if !y w\ld be
 ,*ri/ians1 let !m face t4 ,let !m ent] 
into life1 into ! /ruggles go+ on ar\nd 
!m to-day aga9/ gre$1 corruption1       
slav]y1 pov]ty1 vice & crime4 ,let !m   
prote/1 let !m fight1 ev5 z ,jesus ,*ri/
 _h f\ght & prote/$4 ,= z sure z !y sat 
!re ! day w\ld come :5 !y w\ld be call$ 
to acc\nt1 w\ld be ask$ ! "q--:at _h !y 
done to make ! ,unit$ ,/ates ( ,am]ica a
 bett] place to live 98  ,!re 7 9 !     
,apo/olic writ+s & tradition            
mis9t]pretations ( life :i* _h done mu* 
h>m4 ,e>ly ,*ri/ianity _h kept its eyes 
fix$ on ano!r _w1 & _h ignor$ ?is3 _h   
ov]look$ ! fact t e man & woman 0 put "h
 to d a p>ticul> "w4 ,9 ! fir/ epi/le ( 
,pet] ! advice 0 giv51 submit y\rselves 
to e ord9ance ( man = ! ,"l's sake4 ,b  

,*ri/ _h prea*$ democracy1              
responsibility1 _h =ese5 a mill5nium1 ! 
fulfilm5t ( 8 ,k+dom1 :5 all m51 inspir$
 by ! ,_s1 w\ld make & keep 9 _s !      
ord9ances ( ,god4  ,be=e !y c\ld d      
,god's "w & man's "w !y mu/ fir/ be     
awak5$1 fill$ ) desire4 ,desire 0 p[]4  
,& he pray$ t "s ( !m1 on ?is day1 w\ld 
receive t desire1 t p[] :i* no?+ c\ld   
resi/4 ,! desire :i* w\ld lead ea* & e  
"o to ! gates ( ! ,inn] ,_w :i* 0       
limitless & et]nal1 fill$ ) dazzl+ light
 4 4 4 4  ,let !m h fai? !n4 ,n cr$ulity
 9 a vague ,god !y c\ld n imag9e1 b fai?
 9 ! ,_s ( ! ,univ]se1 humanity1 9      
,jesus ,*ri/ :o _h be5 ! complete human 
revelation ( t ,_s1 :o _h suff]$ & di$ t
 man might n live 9 ignorance ( x4 ,to  
d\bt humanity1--su* 0 ! ,great ,refusal1
 ! s9 aga9/ ! ,holy ,gho/1 ! repudiation
 ( ! only true ,god6  ,aft] a pause1 he 
spoke simply ( 8 hope = ,/4 ,john's4 ,if
 he rema9$ "h 8 ambition 0 t x w\ld be !
 free temple ( humanity1 ( ,jesus ,*ri/1
 support$ n by a few1 b by all1--ea* 9  

accordance ) 8 means4 ,( ^? :o c\ld af=d
 no?+1 no?+ w\ld be requir$4 ,p]haps ?is
 did n s\nd practical1 nor w\ld x be s  
if ! trans=m+ inspiration fail$4 ,he    
c\ld only tru/ & try1 hold up to !m !   
vision ( ! ,*ur* z a community ( will+  
work]s = ! ,k+dom 4 4 4    ,,iii  ,aft] 
! s]vice 0 ov] ! p l+]$ 9 ! *ur*1 /&+ 9 
! pews & aisles1 z ?\gh loa? to leave4  
,! woman ) ! p]fume & ! elaborate hat 0 
he>d to utt] a succ9ct rem>k4  ,say1    
,*>lie1 ,i guess he's all "r4 ,i nev] _h
 x put l t4  ,! ?ick-neck$ man's reply 0
 inaudible4  ,eleanor ,goodri* 0 sil5t &
 a little pale z %e press$ close to     
,alison4 ,h] imag9ation _h be5 /ret*$1 z
 x 71 & %e 0 /ill held 9 awe by !       
va/ness ( :at %e _h he>d & se54 ,va/]   
ev5 ?an ev]1--s x appe>$ n[1--dem&+     
great] sacrifices ?an %e _h dream$ (4   
,%e look$ back ^u ! old z at rec$+      
%ores4  ,alison1 ) absorb$ fasc9ation1  
wat*$ ! p2 enc\nt]$1 "h & !re1          
recognitions f m5 & wom5 ) :om %e _h    
once danc$ & d9$ 9 :at n[ seem$ a       

previ\s exi/5ce4 ,:y _h !y come8 & h[ _h
 !y receiv$ ! message8 ,%e ran into a   
little man1 a deal] 9 arti/s' supplies  
:o once _h sold h] pa9ts & bru%es1 :o   
/>$ & b[$ unc]ta9ly4 ,%e surpris$ him by
 tak+ 8 h&4  ,did y l x8 %e ask$1       
impulsively4  ,x's :at ,i've be5 ?9k+ = 
ye>s1 ,miss ,p>r1 he respond$1 ?9k+ &   
feel+4 ,b ,i nev] knew x 0 ,*ri/ianity4 
,& ,i nev] ?\ght-- he /opp$ & look$ at  
h]1 al>m$4  ,oh1 %e said1 ,i believe 9  
x1 too--or try to4  ,%e left him1       
m5tally gasp+ 4 4 4 4 ,)\t1 on !        
sidewalk1 ,eleanor ,goodri* 0 engag$ 9  
conv]sation ) a /ockily built man1      
incl9$ to /\tness2 he _h a br[n face & a
 clipp$1 bri/ly mu/a*e4 ,alison paus$   
involunt>ily1 & saw him />t & hesitate z
 8 cle>1 direct gaze met h] own4  ,b$loe
 ,hubbell 0 "o ( ^? :o _h once s\ght to 
m>ry h]4 ,%e recall$ him z an amiable & 
aimless boy2 & aft] %e _h gone ,ea/ %e  
_h receiv$ ) incr$ulity & !n ) amusem5t 
! news ( 8 v5ture into altrui/ic        
politics4 ,x 0 8 effici5cy %e _h d\bt$1 

n 8 s9c]ity4 ,lat] tid+s1 contemptu\s & 
ev5tually irritable utt]ances ( h] own  
fa!r1 toge!r ) acc\nts 9 ! ,new ,york   
newspap]s ( 8 campaign1 _h conv9c$ h] 9 
spite ( h]self t ,b$loe ,hubbell _h     
actually %ak5 ! seats ( p[]4 ,& someh[1 
z %e n[ took him 91 he look$ x4  ,8     
trans=mation 0 "o ( ! signs1 "o ( !     
my/]ies ( ! times4 ,! ridicule & abuse (
 ! press1 ! opposition & enmity ( 8     
*ildhood fri5ds1 _h develop$ ! man ( =ce
 %e n[ beheld1 & :o came =w>d to greet  
h]4  ,alison6 he exclaim$4 ,he _h *ang$ 
9 "o s5se1 & n 9 ano!r4 ,h] col\r deep5$
 z ! s\nd ( 8 voice br\ght back ! laps$ 
memories ( ! old intimacy4 ,= %e _h be5 
k9d to him1 k9d] ?an to any o!r2 & !    
news ( 8 m>riage--to a woman f !        
,pacific coa/--_h actually induc$ 9 h]  
c]ta9 long+s & regrets4 ,:5 ! c>ds _h   
rea*$ h]1 ,new ,york & ! excitem5t ( !  
life into :i* %e _h be5 weakly1 if      
some:at unwitt+ly1 drawn _h already     
begun to pall4  ,i'm s glad to see y1 %e
 told him4 ,i've he>d--s _m ?+s4 ,& ,i'm

 v mu* 9 sympa?y ) :at y're do+4  ,!y   
cross$ ! /reet1 & walk$ away f ! *ur*   
toge!r4 ,%e _h surpris$ him1 & made him 
uncom=table4  ,y've be5 away s long1 he 
manag$ to say1 p]haps y d n realize--   
,oh1 yes1 ,i d1 %e int]rupt$4 ,i am on !
 o!r side1 on y\r side4 ,i ?\ght ( writ+
 y1 :5 y ne>ly won la/ autumn4  ,y see  
x1 too8 he exclaim$4  ,yes1 ,i've *ang$1
 too4 ,n s mu* z y1 %e add$1 %yly4 ,i   
always _h a c]ta9 sympa?y1 y "k1 ) !    
,rob9 ,hoods4  ,he laugh$ at h]         
designation1 bo? pleas$ & tak5 aback by 
h] praise4 4 4 ,b he wond]$ if %e knew !
 ext5t ( 8 criticism ( h] fa!r4  ,t     
rector is a wond]ful man1 he broke out1 
irrelevantly4 ,i c't get ov]' him--,i   
c't q grasp ! fact t he exi/s1 t he has 
d>$ to d :at he has done4  ,?is br\ght  
h] col\r back1 b %e fac$ him bravely4 ,y
 ?9k he is wond]ful1 !n8  ,don't y8 he  
dem&$4  ,%e ass5t$4 ,b ,i am curi\s to  
"k :y y d4 ,someh[1 ,i nev] ?\ght (--y--
  ,z religi\s1 he suppli$4 ,& y8 ,if ,i 
rememb] rightly--  ,yes1 %e int]rupt$1  

,i revolt$1 too4 ,b ,mr4 ,hodd] puts x s
 --x makes "o wond]4  ,he has n only    
made me wond]1 decl>$ ,b$loe ,hubbell1  
emphatically1 ,i nev] knew :at religion 
0 until ,i he>d ?is man la/ ,sunday4    
,la/ ,sunday6  ,until !n1 ,i hadn't be5 
inside ( a *ur* = fifte5 ye>s1--except  
to get m>ri$4 ,my wife takes ! *ildr51  
occasionally1 to a ,presbyt]ian *ur* ne>
 u4  ,& :y1 did y g !n8 %e ask$4  ,i am 
a little a%am$ ( my motive1 he confess$4
 ,!re 7 rum\rs --,i don't pret5d to "k  
h[ !y got ab\t-- he hesitat$1 once m    
aw>e ( delicate gr\nd4 ,wallis ,plimpton
 said some?+ to a man :o told me4 ,i    
believe ,i w5t out ( %e] curiosity to   
he> :at ,hodd] w\ld h to say4 ,& !n1 ,i 
_h be5 read+1 wond]+ :e!r !re 7 any?+ 9 
,*ri/ianity1 aft] all4  ,yes8 %e said1  
c>eless n[ z to :at cause he might      
attribute h] eag]ness4 ,& he gave y     
some?+8  ,x 0 !n %e grasp$ ! tru? t ?is 
sudd5 r5ew$ intimacy 0 ! result ( !     
impression ,hodd] _h left ^u ! m9ds (   
bo?4  ,he gave me ev]y?+1 ,b$loe        

,hubbell repli$4 ,i am will+ to         
ackn[l$ge x freely4 ,9 8 explanation ( !
 p>able ( ! ,prodigal ,son1 he gave me !
 clew to our mod]n times4 ,:at 0 = me an
 inextricable puzzle has become cle> z  
day4 ,he has made me und]/&1 at la/1 !  
=ce :i* /irr$ me1 :i* goad$ me until ,i 
0 fairly compell$ to emb>k 9 ! movem5t  
:i* ! majority ( our citiz5s /ill       
cont9ue to reg>d z quixotic4 ,i did n   
id5tify t =ce ) religion1 !n1 & :5 ,i   
look$ back on ! fir/ crazy campaign we  
emb>k$ ^u1 ) ! :ole city laugh+ at me & 
at ! obscure & impractical p]sonnel we  
_h1 !re 7 mom5ts :5 x seem$             
incompreh5sible folly4 ,i _h no?+ to    
ga91 & ev]y?+ to lose by su* a v5ture4  
,i 0 lazy & easy-go+1 z y "k4 ,i belong$
 to ! privileg$ class1 ,i _h suffici5t  
money to live 9 comp>ative luxury all my
 days1 ,i _h no grudge aga9/ ^! m5 :om  
,i _h kn[n all my life4  ,b x mu/ h _h  
"s beg9n+1 said ,alison4  ,i 0 urg$ to  
run = ! city c\ncil1 by ^! v m54 ,b$loe 
,hubbell smil$ at ! recollection4 ,!y   

accuse me n[ ( hav+ indulg$ once 9 !    
same practice1 = :i* ,i am condemn+ !m4 
,our company did accept rebates1 & we   
s\ght fav\rs f ! city gov]nm5t4 ,i h    
confess$ x freely on ! plat=m4 ,ev5 dur+
 my fir/ few mon?s 9 ! c\ncil :at may be
 call$ ! old political practices seem$  
natural to me4 ,b gradually ! iniquity (
 x all began to dawn on me1 & !n ,i     
c\ldn't re/ until ,i _h done some?+     
t[>ds /opp+ x4  ,at l5g? ,i began to    
see1 he cont9u$1 t education ( ! masses 
0 to be our only pres]v]1 t we %\ld h to
 s9k or swim by t4 ,i began to see1     
dimly1 t ?is 0 true = o!r movem5ts go+  
on to-day4 ,n[ comes ,hodd] ) :at ,i    
s9c]ely believe is ! key4 ,he compels m5
 l me to recognize t our movem5ts are n 
m]ely moral1 b religi\s4 ,religion1 z   
yet unid5tifi$1 is ! =ce beh9d ^!       
port5t\s /irr+s ( politics 9 our c\ntry1
 f sea to sea4 ,he aims1 n to br+ !     
,*ur* into politics1 b to make h] ! fe$]
 ( ^! movem5ts4 ,m5 jo9 !m to-day f all 
motives1 b ! religi\s is ! only "o to   

:i* !y may safely be tru/$4 ,he has     
rescu$ ! jewel f ! du/-heap ( tradition1
 & holds x up1 %9+1 be=e our eyes4      
,alison look$ at h] companion4  ,t1 %e  
said1 is a v beautiful phrase4  ,b$loe  
,hubbell smil$ que]ly4  ,i don't "k :y  
,i'm tell+ y all ?is4 ,i c't usually    
talk ab\t x4 ,b ! sight ( t congregation
 ?is morn+1 mix$ z x 01 & ! way he      
manag$ to weld x toge!r4  ,ah1 y notic$ 
t6 %e exclaim$ %>ply4  ,notic$ x6  ,i   
"k4 ,x 0 a "q ( feel+ x4  ,!re 0 a      
sil5ce4  ,w he succe$8 %e ask$ pres5tly4
  ,ah1 said ,b$loe ,hubbell1 h[ is x    
possible to pr$ict x8 ,! =ces aga9/ him 
are trem5d\s1 & x is usually ! pione] :o
 suff]s4 ,i agree absolutely ) 8        
def9ition ( fai?1 ,i h x4 ,& ! "w he has
 done already c nev] be undone4 ,! "t is
 ripe1 & x is some?+ t he has m5 l ,phil
 ,goodri* beh9d him1 & ,mr4 ,w>+4 ,i'm  
go+ to enli/1 & f n[ on ,i int5d to get 
e man & woman ^u :om ,i h any influ5ce  
:atev] to g to t *ur* 4 4 4 4 ,a little 
lat] ,alison1 m>vell+1 left him4        

,,*apt] ,,xxvi  ,,! ,,curr5t ,,( ,,life 
,i  ,! ye> :5 ,hodd] _h gone ea/--to    
,brem]ton & ,b> ,h>bor1 he _h read 9 !  
tra9 a magaz9e article :i* _h set fire  
to 8 imag9ation4 ,x _h to d ) ! lives ( 
! m51 ! eng9e]s :o d>$ to deal ) ! wild 
& t]rible p[] ( ! we/]n hills1 :o       
h>ness$ & conqu]$ ro>+ riv]s1 & s5t !   
p[] hundr$s ( miles ov] ! wild]ness1 by 
flimsy wires1 to turn ! :eels ( indu/ry 
& light ! d>k places ( ! cities4 ,&1 l  
all m5 :o came into t\* ) elem5tal      
my/]ies1 !y _h _! mom5ts ( pure ec/asy1 
ga9+ a t+l+1 int5s] life f ! contact )  
dynamic ?+s2 & o!r mom5ts :51 9 _!      
/ruggle = ma/]y1 !y 7 buffet$ ab\t1     
scor*$1 & almo/ ov]:elm$4  ,9 ^! days ! 
remembrance ( t article came back to    
,hodd]4 ,x 0 z ?\gh he1 too1 7 seek+ to 
deflect & guide a =ce --! ,=ce ( =ces4  
,he1 too1 0 buffet$1 scor*$1 & bruis$1  
at p]iods sc>ce giv5 "t to recov]       
himself 9 ! onw>d ru% he himself _h     
/>t$1 & :i* he s\ght to control4        
,problems arose :i* dem&$ ! quick ?9k+ (

 em]g5cy4 ,he1 too1 _h 8 mom5ts ( rew>d1
 ! rew>d ( ! man :o is 9 t\* ) reality4 
,he liv$1 f day to day1 9 a bewild]+    
succession ( enc\ragem5ts & trials1 all 
unprec$5t$4 ,if he rema9$ at ,/4        
,john's1 an entire new organization w\ld
 be necess>y 4 4 4 4 ,he did n z yet see
 x cle>ly2 & 9 ! meantime1 ) 8 ve/ry    
ali5at$1 await+ ! bi%op's decision1 he  
c\ld make no def9ite plans1 ev5 if he _h
 _h ! leisure4 ,:olesale des]tions _h   
occurr$ 9 ! guilds & societies1 !       
activities ( :i* _h almo/ ceas$4 ,little
 ,tomk9son1 ! second assi/ant1 _h       
resign$2 & ,mc,crae1 :o work$ h>d] ?an  
ev] be=e1 0 already m>k$1 ,hodd] knew1 =
 dismissal if he himself 7 defeat$4  ,& 
!n !re 0 ! ev] pres5t "q ( money4 ,x    
rema9$ to be se5 :e!r a sy/em ( volunt>y
 (f]+s 7 practicable4 ,= ,hodd] _h made 
"s inquiries into ! s-call$ free *ur*es1
 only to discov] t !re 7 b5efactors     
beh9d !m1 b5efactors ! ,*ri/ianity ( ^: 
lives 0 (t5 d\btful4  ,"o morn+ he      
receiv$ 9 ! mail ! long-expect$ note f !

 bi%op1 mak+ an appo9tm5t = ! next day4 
,hodd]1 z he read x ov] aga91 smil$ to  
himself4 4 4 ,he c\ld ga!r no?+ ( ! m9d 
( ! writ] f ! cont5ts4  ,! piece ( news 
:i* came to him on ! same morn+ swept   
completely ! contemplations ( ! approa*+
 int]view f 8 m9d4 ,sally ,grov] /opp$ 9
 at ! p>i% h\se on h] way to bus9ess4   
,kate ,m>cy's gone1 %e ann\nc$1 9 h]    
abrupt fa%ion4  ,gone6 he exclaim$1 &   
/>$ at h] 9 dismay4 ,gone :]e8  ,t's j  
x1 said ,miss ,grov]4 ,i wi% ,i knew4 ,i
 reckon we'd got into ! habit ( tru/+ h]
 too mu*1 b x seem$ ! only way4 ,%e     
wasn't 9 h] room la/ night1 b ,ella     
,f9ley didn't f9d x out until ?is morn+1
 & %e ran ov] sc>$ to dea?1 to tell u   
ab\t x4  ,involunt>ily ! rector rea*$ = 
8 hat4  ,i've s5t out ^w among our      
fri5ds 9 ,dalton ,/reet1 ,sally cont9u$4
 ,an e>?quake c\ld n h di/urb$ h] out]1 
matt]-(-fact calmness4 ,b ,hodd] 0 n    
deceiv$3 he knew t %e 0 z pr(\ndly      
griev$ & disc\rag$ z himself4 ,& ,i've  
got old ,gratz1 ! cab9et-mak]1 on ! job4

 ,if %e's 9 ,dalton ,/reet1 he'll f9d   
h]4  ,b :at--8 ,hodd] began4  ,sally    
?rew up h] h&s4  ,y nev] c tell1 ) t    
k9d4 ,b x /icks 9 my m9d %e's done      
some?+ fooli%4  ,fooli%8  ,sally twit*$1
 n]v\sly4  ,someh[ ,i don't ?9k x's a   
spree--b z ,i say1 y c't tell4 ,%e's    
full ( impulses4 ,y rememb] h[ %e       
fright5$ u once be=e1 :5 %e w5t (f &    
/ay$ all night ) ! woman %e us$ to "k 9 
! flat h\se1 :5 %e he>d %e 0 sick8      
,hodd] nodd$4  ,y've inquir$ !re8  ,t   
woman w5t to ! hospital1 y "k4 ,%e may  
be ) ano!r "o4 ,if %e is1 ,gratz ought  
to f9d h]4 4 4 ,y "k !re 0 a "t1 ,mr4   
,hodd]1 :5 ,i didn't h mu* hope t we'd  
pull h] ?r\gh4 ,b we got hold ( h] ?r\gh
 h] feel+s4 ,%e'd d any?+ = ,mr4 ,b5tley
 --%e'd d any?+ = y1 & ! way %e /uck to 
t embroid]y 0 f9e4 ,i don't say %e 0    
cur$1 b :5ev] %e'd feel "o ( ^? fits    
com+ on %e'd let u "k ab\t x1 & we'd    
wat* h]4 ,& ,i nev] saw "o ( t k9d *ange
 s4 ,:y1 %e mu/ be almo/ z good look+ n[
 z %e ev] 04  ,y don't ?9k %e has done  

any?+--desp]ate8 ask$ ,hodd]1 sl[ly4    
,sally compreh5d$4  ,well--someh[ ,i    
don't4 ,%e us$ to say if %e ev] got     
drunk aga9 %e'd nev] come back4 ,b %e   
didn't h any money--%e's giv5 ,mr4      
,b5tley e c5t ( x4 ,& we didn't h any   
w>n+4 ,%e 0 z *e]ful z c\ld be ye/]day  
morn+1 ,mrs4 ,mc,quillen says4  ,x might
 n d any h>m to notify ! police1 repli$ 
,hodd]1 ris+4 ,i'll g ar\nd to          
headqu>t]s n[4  ,he 0 glad ( ! excuse = 
action4 ,he c\ld n h sat /ill4 ,& z he  
walk$ rapidly across ,burton ,/reet he  
realiz$ ) a pang h[ mu* 8 he>t _h be5   
set on ,kate ,m>cy's r$emption4 ,9 spite
 ( ! fact t e mom5t ( 8 "t dur+ ! pa/   
=tnight _h be5 absorb$ by ! c>es1       
responsibilities1 & trials ?ru/ ^u him1 
he reproa*$ himself = n hav+ gone (t5]  
to ,dalton ,/reet4 ,& yet1 if ,mr4      
,b5tley & ,sally ,gr[] _h be5 unable to 
=esee & prev5t ?is1 :at c\ld he h done8 
,at police headqu>t]s he got no news4 ,!
 *ief receiv$ him def]5tially1          
sympa!tically1 took d[n ,kate ,m>cy's   

description1 w5t s f> z to rem>k1       
sagely1 t too mu* mu/n't be expect$ ( ^!
 wom51 & said he w\ld notify ! rector if
 %e 7 f\nd4 ,! *ief knew & admir$ ,mr4  
,b5tley1 & decl>$ he 0 glad to meet ,mr4
 ,hodd]4 4 4 ,hodd] left1 too preoccupi$
 to draw any significance f ! nature ( 8
 welcome4 ,he w5t at once to ,mr4       
,b5tley's4  ,! old g5tleman 0 incl9$ to 
be hopeful1 to take ,sally ,gr[]'s view 
( ! matt]4 4 ,he tru/$1 he said1        
,sally's in/9ct4 ,& ,hodd] came away    
less uneasy1 n a little com=t$ by a     
communion :i* nev] fail$ to =tify him1  
to make him m>vel at ! calmness ( t _w 9
 :i* 8 fri5d liv$1 a calmness f :i* no  
vic>i\s sorr[ 0 exclud$4 ,& be=e ,hodd] 
left1 ,mr4 ,b5tley _h drawn f him "s    
acc\nt ( ! m rec5t complexities at !    
*ur*4 ,! v pressure ( 8 h& seem$ to     
imp>t c\rage4  ,y won't /ay & h d9n] )  
me8  ,! rector regretfully decl9$4  ,i  
he> ! bi%op has return$1 said ,mr4      
,b5tley1 smil+4  ,hodd] 0 surpris$4 ,he 
_h nev] he>d ,mr4 ,b5tley speak ( !     

bi%op4 ,( c\rse he mu/ "k him4  ,i h my 
talk ) him to-morr[4  ,mr4 ,b5tley said 
no?+1 b press$ 8 h& aga9 4 4 4 4  ,on   
,t[] ,/reet1 f ! direction ( ! *ur*1 he 
beheld a "y man & a "y woman approa*+   
him absorb$ 9 conv]sation4 ,ev5 at a    
di/ance bo? seem$ famili>1 & pres5tly he
 id5tifi$ ! li! & da9ty figure 9 ! blue 
dress z t ( ! daught] ( 8 ve/ryman1     
,francis ,f]guson4 ,pres5tly %e turn$ h]
 face1 alight ) animation1 f h]         
companion1 & recogniz$ him4  ,x's ,mr4  
,hodd]6 %e exclaim$1 & 0 sudd5ly ov]tak5
 ) a crimson %yness4 ,! "y man seem$    
equally emb>rass$ z !y /ood fac+ !      
rector4  ,i'm afraid y don't rememb] me1
 ,mr4 ,hodd]1 he said4 ,i met y at ,mr4 
,f]guson's la/ spr+4  ,!n x came to him4
 ,?is 0 ! "y man :o _h made ! faux pas  
:i* _h caus$ ,mrs4 ,f]guson s mu*       
con/]nation1 & :o _h s manfully         
apologiz$ aft]w>ds4 ,8 puzzl$ expression
 relax$ into a smile1 & he took ! "y    
man's h&4  ,i 0 go+ to write to y1 said 
,nan1 z %e look$ up at ! rector f "u !  

wide brim ( h] hat4 ,our engagem5t is to
 be ann\nc$ ,w$nesday4  ,hodd]          
congratulat$ !m4 ,!re 0 a brief sil5ce1 
:5 ,nan said tremul\sly3  ,we're com+ to
 ,/4 ,john's6  ,i'm v glad1 ,hodd]      
repli$1 gravely4 ,x 0 "o ( ^? comp5sat+ 
mom5ts1 = him1 :5 8 tribulations vani%$2
 & ! tributes ( ! y\ng] g5]ation 7 ^? to
 :i* 8 he>t mo/ freely respond$4 ,b !   
situation1 9 view ( ! attitude (        
,francis ,f]guson1 0 too delicate to be 
dwelt ^u4  ,i came to he> y la/ ,sunday1
 ,mr4 ,hodd]1 ! "y man volunte]$1 ) t   
mixture ( awkw>dness & /raight=w>dness  
:i* (t5 *>act]ize 8 sex & age 9 ref]r+  
to su* matt]s4 ,& ,i _h an idea ( writ+ 
y1 too1 to tell y h[ mu* ,i lik$ :at y  
said4 ,b ,i "k y mu/ h _h _m lett]s4    
,y've made me ?9k4  ,he flu%$1 b met !  
rector's eye4 ,nan /ood reg>d+ him )    
pride4  ,y've made me ?9k1 too1 %e add$4
 ,& we int5d to pit* 9 & help y1 if we c
 be ( any use4  ,he p>t$ f !m1 wond]+4  
,& x 0 n until he _h rea*$ ! p>i% h\se t
 x occurr$ to him t he 0 z yet          

un5light5$ z to ! "y man's "n 4 4 4 4   
,8 second reflection br\ght back to 8   
m9d ,kate ,m]cy1 = x 0 ) a portion (    
,nan ,f]guson's g5]\s *eck t h] bo>d _h 
be5 paid4 ,& he recall$ ! girl's hope1 z
 %e _h giv5 x to him1 t he w\ld f9d "s  
"o 9 ,dalton ,/reet to help 4 4 4 4     
,,ii  ,!re might1 to ! mundane eye1 h   
be5 an elem5t ( ! ridicul\s 9 !         
spectacle ( ! rector ( ,/4 ,john's c\nt+
 8 ga9s1 s9ce he _h *os5--) e indication
 ( insanity--to br+ ! pill>s ( 8 c>e]   
cra%+ d[n on 8 own head4 ,by no means ! 
lea/1 h[ev]1 ( ! treasures flung into 8 
lap 0 ! tie :i* n[ b\nd him to ! ,philip
 ,goodri*es1 :i* o!rwise w\ld nev] h be5
 possible4 ,& z he made 8 way ?i!r on   
?is p>ticul> ev5+1 a r5ew$ s5se came ^u 
him ( 8 emancipation f ! dre>y1 useless 
h\rs he _h be5 wont to sp5d at o!r d9n] 
tables4 ,t exi/5ce appe>$ to him n[ z ! 
glitt]+1 fev]i% unreality ( a nightm>e  
fill$ ) re/less wom5 & tir$ m5 :o drank 
*ampagne1 ?us gradually a*iev+--by ! "t 
cig>s 7 rea*$--an artificial vivacity4  

,! caprice & sup]ficiality ( ! "o sex1 !
 inability to dwell ^u or ev5 p5etrate a
 s]i\s subject1 ! bl9dness to :at 0 go+ 
on ar\nd !m2 ! mat]ialism1 ! money /&>d 
( bo?1 7 nauseat+ 9 ! retrospect4  ,h[1 
inde$1 _h life once appe>$ s di/ort$ to 
him1 a pr(ess$ s]vant ( humanity1 z to  
lead him 9 ! "n ( duty into t galley8   
,su* 0 ! burd5 ( 8 ?\ght :5 ! homelike  
front ( ! ,goodri* h\se greet$ him 9 !  
d>kness1 its en%r\d$ w9d[s gleam+ )     
fri5dly light4 ,z ! door op5$1 ! m]ry   
s\nd ( *ildr5's laught] float$ d[n !    
/airs1 & x seem$ to ,hodd] z ?\gh a     
curse _h be5 lift$4 4 4 4 ,! l9tel ( ?is
 h\se _h be5 m>k$ = salvation1 ! sc\rge 
_h pass$ x by3 ! sc\rge ( social /riv+  
:i* lay l a blight on a free p4  ,)91 ! 
note ( g5tility1 ( t in/9ctive good ta/e
 to :i* _m great] mansions aspir$ 9 va91
 0 su/a9$4 ,! furniture1 ! pictures1 !  
walls & c>pets 7 true expressions ( !   
individuality ( ma/] & mi/ress1 ( !     
unity ( ! life liv$ toge!r2 & ! rector  
smil$ z he detect$1 9 a corn] ( ! hall1 

a /urdy b dim9utive hobby-horse--"h !   
f9al1 h>moni\s t\*4 ,!re 0 ! s\nd ( a   
scuffle1 treble %rieks ( ec/asy f above1
 & ,eleanor ,goodri* came out to welcome
 him4  ,its ,phil1 %e told him 9 laugh+ 
despair1 he upsets all my discipl9e1 &  
gets !m s excit$ !y don't g to sleep =  
h\rs444  ,seat$ 9 front ( ! fire 9 !    
draw+-room1 he f\nd ,alison ,p>r4 ,h]   
coolness1 h] radiancy1 h] complete      
acceptance ( ! situation1 all ?is & m he
 felt f ! mom5t he t\*$ h] h& & look$   
into h] face4 ,& nev] _h %e s di/9ctly  
repres5t$ to him ! my/]i\s ess5ce (     
fate4 ,:y %e %\ld h made ! f\r? at ?is  
intimate ga!r+1 & :e!r or n %e 0 or _h  
be5 an especial fri5d ( ,eleanor        
,goodri* he did n "k4 ,!re 0 no         
explanation4444  ,a b[l ( sup]b         
*rysan!mums occupi$ ! c5tre ( ! table4  
,eleanor lift$ !m (f & plac$ !m on !    
sidebo>d4  ,i've got us$ to look+ at    
,phil1 %e expla9$1 & cran+ is s pa9ful4 
,! effect at fir/ 0 to increase !       
int5sity ( ! intimacy4 ,!re 0 no        

reason--he told himself--:y ,alison's   
self-possession %\ld h be5 di/urb$2 & z 
he glanc$ at h] f "t to "t he p]ceiv$ t 
x 0 n4 ,s completely 0 %e mi/ress (     
h]self t pres5tly he felt a c]ta9 fa9t  
res5tm5t ris+ )9 him1--yet he ask$      
himself :y %e %\ld n h be54 ,x 0 curi\s 
t 8 imag9ation w\ld n rise1 n[1 to a    
realization ( t int]c\rse on :i*1 at    
times1 8 fancy _h dwelt ) su* vividness4
 ,! v int]e/1 ! eag]ness ) :i* %e took  
"p 9 _! discussions seem$ to him 9 !    
nature ( an emphatic repudiation ( any  
ties to him :i* might h be5 b9d+4  ,all 
?is 0 only1 on ,hodd]'s "p1 to be aw>e (
 ! />tl+ discov]y z to h[ /rong 8 s5se (
 possession _h be51 & h[ irrational1 h[ 
unw>rant$4  ,= he _h believ$ himself1 z 
reg>d+ h]1 to h made ! supreme          
r5unciation ( 8 life4 ,& ! v fact t he  
_h n consult$1 c\ld n consult h] feel+s 
& h] attitude made t r5unciation no less
 difficult4 ,all ef=t1 all attempt at   
a*ievem5t ( ! only woman = :om he _h ev]
 felt ! sublime h>mony ( desire--!      

h>mony ( ! m9d & ! fle%--0 cut (f4  ,to 
be "h1 fac+ h] aga9 9 su* close         
proximity1 0 at once a pleasure & a     
torture4 ,& gradually he f\nd himself   
yield+ to ! pleasure1 to ! illusion (   
p]man5cy creat$ by h] pres5ce4 ,&1 :5   
all 0 said1 he _h z mu* to be grateful =
 z he c\ld reasonably h wi%$2 yes1 & m4 
,! bond 7!re 0 a bond1 aft] all67 :i*   
unit$ !m 0 unbreakable4 ,!y _h =g$ x    
toge!r4 ,! future w\ld take c>e (       
itself4  ,! range ( ! conv]sation ^u :i*
 !y at l5g? emb>k$ 0 a tacit ackn[l$gm5t
 ( a relation%ip :i* n[ unit$ f\r p]sons
 :o1 six mon?s be=e1 w\ld h believ$     
!mselves to h _h no?+ 9 common4 ,& x 0  
*>act]i/ic ( ! new int]e/ t x transc5d$ 
! limits ( ! p>i% ( ,/4 ,john's1 t\*$ ^u
 ! great] affairs to :i* t p>i%--if _!  
prote/ prevail$--w\ld n[ be d$icat$4 ,n 
t ! *ur* 0 at once m5tion$1 b subtly    
impli$ z n[ enli/$1--& emancipat$ h5ce=?
 f all ecclesia/ical n>r[ness 4 4 4 4 ,!
 amaz+ ?+ by :i* ,hodd] 0 sudd5ly /ruck 
0 ! naturalness ) :i* ,alison seem$ to  

fit into ! new s*eme4 ,x 0 z ?\gh %e    
int5d$ to rema9 !re1 & _h ab&on$ all    
int5tion ( return+ to ! life :i*        
app>5tly %e _h once p]man5tly &         
def9itely *os54444  ,b$loe ,hubbell's   
campaign 0 ano!r topic4 ,& ,phil _h     
obs]v$1 ) ! e>ne/ness :i* m>k$ 8 m s]i\s
 /atem5ts1 t x w\ldn't surprise him if  
"y ,c>t]1 ,hubbell's c&idate = mayor1   
ov]turn$ t autumn ! ,beatty ma*9e4  ,oh1
 d y ?9k s6 ,alison exclaim$ )          
exhil>ation4  ,!y're fright5$ & out (   
brea?1 said ,phil1 !y _h no idea t      
,b$loe w\ld /ick aft] !y _h lick$ him 9 
?ree campaigns4 ,two ye>s ago !y tri$ to
 buy him (f by (f]+ to s5d him to !     
,s5ate1 & ,wallis ,plimpton has nev] got
 ?r\gh 8 head to ?is :y he refus$4      
,plimpton's head1 ,eleanor decl>$ dryly1
 0 imp]vi\s to a c]ta9 k9d ( idea4  ,i  
wond] if y "k1 ,mr4 ,hodd]1 :at an      
admir] ,mr4 ,hubbell is ( y\rs8 ,alison 
ask$4 ,he is mo/ anxi\s to h a talk ) y4
  ,hodd] did n "k4  ,well1 said ,phil1  
en?usia/ically1 to ! rector1 t's ! be/  

tribute y've _h yet4 ,i c't say t ,b$loe
 0 a m unreg5]ate hea!n ?an ,i 01 b he 0
 pretty bad4  ,?is l$ !m1 all save      
,hodd]1 into comm5ts on ! "* ( !        
congregation ! ,sunday be=e1 9 ! mid/ ( 
:i* ! rector 0 call$ away to !          
telephone4 ,sally ,grov] _h promis$ to  
let him "k :e!r or n !y _h f\nd ,kate   
,m>cy1 & 8 face 0 grave :5 he return$ 4 
4 4 4 ,he 0 /ill preoccupi$1 an h\r     
lat]1 :5 ,alison arose to g4  ,b y\r    
c>riage isn't "h1 said ,phil1 go+ to !  
w9d[4  ,oh1 ,i pref]r$ to1 walk1 %e told
 him1 x isn't f>4    ,,iii  ,a blood-r$ 
,octob] moon %$ ! fulness ( its light on
 ! sil5t h\ses1 & ! trees1 /ill cl++ to 
leaf1 ca/ black %ad[s across ! lawns &  
des]t$ /reets4 ,! v e*oes ( _! foot/eps 
on ! pavem5t seem$ to enhance !         
unreality ( _! surr\nd+s3 ,"s ( !       
resid5ces 7 already clos$ = ! night1    
al?\gh ! h\r 0 n late1 & ! gl[ beh9d !  
bl9ds ( ! o!rs 0 nullifi$ by ! radiancy 
f above4 ,to ,hodd]1 ! s5se ( _!        
isolation _h nev] be5 m complete4       

,alison1 :ile repudiat+ ! notion t an   
escort 7 ne$$ 9 a neighb\rhood ( su*    
propriety & peace1 _h n refus$ 8 (f] to 
accompany h]4 ,& ,hodd] felt            
in/9ctively1 z he took 8 place beside   
h]1 a s5se ( climax4 ,?is situation1 l  
^? ( ! pa/1 0 n ( 8 own mak+4 ,x 0 "h2  
confront+ him1 & a c]ta9 inevitable     
intoxication at be+ once1 m alone ) h]  
prev5t$ him f =m+ any policy ) :i* to   
deal ) x4 ,he might ei!r tru/ himself1  
or else he might n4 ,& z %e said1 !     
di/ance 0 n great4 ,b he c\ld n help    
wond]+1 dur+ ^? fir/ mom5ts ( sil5ce1   
:e!r %e compreh5d$ ! /r5g? ( !          
temptation to :i* %e subject$ him 4 4 4 
4  ,! night 0 w>m4 ,%e wore a coat1 :i* 
0 op51 & f "t to "t he caught ! gleam ( 
! moonlight on ! knott$ pe>ls at h]     
?roat4 ,ov] h] head %e _h flung1        
mantilla-l1 a black lace sc>f1 ! effect 
( :i* 01 9 ! s(t lum9osity encircl+ h]1 
to add to ! quality ( my/]y nev]        
exhau/$4 ,if by acquiesc+ 9 8 company %e
 _h own$ to a tie betwe5 !m1 ! lace %awl

 fall+ ov] ! tails ( h] d>k hair & fram+
 9 its folds h] face1 _h someh[ made h] 
once m a /rang]4 ,nor 0 x until %e      
pres5tly look$ up into 8 face ) a smile 
t ?is impression 01 if n at once :olly  
dissipat$1 at lea/ contradict$4  ,h] "q1
 inde$1 0 intimate4  ,:y did y come )   
me8  ,:y8 he repeat$1 tak5 aback4  ,yes4
 ,i'm sure y h some?+ y wi% to d1 some?+
 :i* p>ticul>ly worries y4  ,no1 he     
answ]$1 apprais+ h] intuition ( him1 !re
 is no?+ ,i c d1 to-night4 ,a "y woman 9
 :om ,mr4 ,b5tley is int]e/$1 9 :om ,i  
am int]e/$1 has disappe>$4 ,b we h tak5 
all ! /eps possible t[>ds f9d+ h]4  ,x 0
 no?+--m s]i\s1 !n8 ,t1 ( c\rse1 is     
s]i\s en\gh4 ,no?+1 ,i mean1 directly   
affect+ y\r prospects ( rema9+--:]e y   
are8  ,no1 he answ]$4 ,he rejoic$       
fi]cely t %e %\ld h ask$ him4 ,! "q 0 n 
bold1 b a natural resumption ( ! old    
foot+ ,n t ,i mean to imply1 he add$1   
return+ h] smile1 t ^? prospects' are 9 
any way improv$4  ,are !y any worse8 %e 
said4  ,i see ! bi%op to-morr[4 ,i h no 

idea :at position he w take4 ,b ev5 if  
he %\ld decide n to recomm5d me = trial 
_m difficult problems /ill rema9 to be  
solv$4  ,i "k4 ,x's f9e1 %e cont9u$1    
aft] a mom5t1 ! way y are go+ ahead z if
 !re 7 no "q ( y\r n rema9+2 & gett+ all
 ^? p into ! *ur* & influ5c+ !m z y did 
:5 !y _h come = all sorts ( reasons4 ,d 
y rememb]1 ! fir/ "t ,i met y1 ,i told y
 ,i c\ld n ?9k ( y z a cl]gyman4 ,i _c  
n[--less ?an ev]4  ,:at d y ?9k ( me z8 
he ask$4  ,i don't "k1 %e consid]$4 ,y  
are unlike any p]son ,i h ev] kn[n4 ,x  
is curi\s t ,i _c n[ ev5 ?9k ( ,/4      
,john's z a *ur*4 ,y h trans=m$ x into  
some?+ t seems new4 ,i'm afraid ,i c't  
describe :at ,i mean1 b y h op5$ x up1  
let 9 ! fre% air1 rid x ( ! mu/y &      
dead5+ atmosph]e :i* ,i h always        
associat$ ) *ur*es4 ,i want$ to see y1  
be=e ,i w5t away1 %e w5t on /eadily1 &  
:5 ,eleanor m5tion$ t y 7 com+ to h]    
h\se to-night1 ,i ask$ h] to invite me4 
,d y ?9k me %ameless8  ,! emphasis ( 8  
ge/ure 0 suffici5t4 ,he c\ld n tru/     

himself to speak4  ,writ+ seem$ s       
unsatisfactory1 aft] :at y _h done = me1
 & ,i nev] c express myself 9 writ+4 ,i 
seem to congeal4  ,aft] :at ,i h done = 
y6 he exclaim$3 ,:at c ,i h done8  ,y h 
done m ?an y "k1 %e answ]$1 9 a l[      
voice4 ,m1 ,i ?9k1 ?an ,i "k4 ,h[ are   
su* ?+s to be measur$1 put into words8  
,y h effect$ "s *ange 9 me :i* defies   
analysis1 a *ange ( attitude1--to       
attempt to dogmatize x w\ld ru9 x4 ,i   
pref] to leave x undef9$--n ev5 to call 
x an acquisition ( fai?4 ,i h fai?1 %e  
said1 simply1 9 :at y h become1 & :i*   
has made y d>e1 sup]bly1 to ca/ ev]y?+  
away4 4 4 ,x is t1 m ?an any?+ y h said4
 ,:at y are4  ,= ! in/ant he lo/ control
 ( himself4  ,:at y are1 he repli$4 ,d y
 realize--c y ev] realize :at y\r fai? 9
 me has be5 to me8  ,%e appe>$ to ignore
 ?is4  ,i did n mean to say t y h n made
 _m ?+s cle>1 :i* once 7 obscure1 z ,i  
wrote y4 ,y h conv9c$ me t true belief1 
= in/ance1 is ! h>de/ ?+ 9 ! _w1 ! d5ial
 ( practically all ^! p1 :o pr(ess to   

believe1 repres5t4 ,! majority ( !m     
insi/ t humanity is n to be tru/$4 4 4  
,!y _h rea*$1 9 an incr$ibly brief "t1 !
 corn] ( ,p>k ,/reet4  ,:5 are y leav+8 
he ask$1 9 a voice t s\nd$ h>% 9 8 own  
e>s4  ,come6 %e said g5tly1 ,i'm n go+ 9
 yet1 = a :ile4  ,! ,p>k lay be=e !m1 an
 empty1 g>d5 fill$ ) *ecqu]$ light &    
%ad[s "u ! moon4 ,he foll[$ h] across ! 
gravel1 gli/5+ ) dew1 pa/ ! /atue ( !   
mute /atesman ) arm uprais$1 into       
pa/oral /ret*es--a delectable c\ntry :i*
 0 !irs alone4 ,he did n take x 91 save 
z "o expression ( ! brea?+ woman at 8   
side4 ,he 0 b p>tly consci\s ( a        
direction he _h n *os54 ,8 blood ?robb$ 
viol5tly1 & a feel+ ( actual physical   
fa9tness 0 ^u him4 ,he 0 be+ l$1        
helplessly1 all volition gone1 & ! v    
idea ( resi/ance became *im]ical 4 4 4 4
  ,!re 0 a seat "u a tree1 beside a /ill
 lake burni%$ by ! moon4 ,x seem$ z ?\gh
 he c\ld n be> ! curr5t ( h] t\*1 & yet 
! ?\ght ( its removal 7 less be>able 4 4
 4 ,= %e _h put h] own h& out1 n %yly1 b

 ) a movem5t s fraught ) grace1 s       
natural t x 0 b ! cr[n+ be/[al4         
,alison6 he cri$1 ,i c't ask x ( y4 ,i h
 no "r--  ,y're n ask+ x1 %e answ]$4 ,x 
is ,i :o am ask+ x4  ,b ,i h no         
future--,i may be an outca/ to-morr[4 ,i
 h no?+ to (f] y4 ,he spoke m firmly n[1
 m comm&+ly4  ,don't y see1 de>1 t x is 
j because y\r future z obscure t ,i c d 
?is8 ,y nev] w\ld h done x1 ,i "k1--& ,i
 c\ldn't face t4 ,don't y und]/& t ,i am
 dem&+ ! great sacrifice8  ,sacrifice6  
he repeat$4 ,8 f+]s turn$1 & clos$      
convulsively on h]s4  ,yes1 sacrifice1  
%e said g5tly4 ,isn't x ! brav] ?+8     
,/ill he fail$ to cat* h] mean+4        
,brav]1 %e expla9$1 ) h] wond]ful       
c\rage1 brav] if ,i love y1 if ,i ne$ y1
 if ,i _c d )\t y4  ,he took h] 9 8     
arms1 cru%+ h] to him 9 8 /r5g?1 9 "o   
ineffable brief mom5t f9d+ h] lips1     
inhal+ ! fa9t p]fume ( h] smoo? ak94 ,h]
 li! figure lay passively aga9/ him1 9  
m>vell\s1 unbelievable surr5d]4  ,i see 
:at y mean1 he said1 at l5g?1 ,i %\ld h 

be5 a c[>d4 ,b ,i c\ld n be sure t y    
lov$ me4  ,s ne> 0 h] face t he c\ld    
detect1 ev5 "u ! obscurity ( ! bran*es1 
a smile4  ,& s ,i 0 r$uc$ to ?is6 ,i    
?rew my pride to ! w9ds1 %e :isp]$4 ,b  
,i don't c>e4 ,i 0 det]m9$1 selfi%ly1 to
 take happ9ess4  ,& to give x1 he add$1 
b5d+ d[n to h]4 ,! supreme quality ( its
 ess5ce 0 /ill to be d\bt$1 a bright    
/>-du/ :i* dazzl$ him1 to evaporate be=e
 8 wak+ eyes4 ,&1 try z he w\ld1 he c\ld
 n realize to ! full dep? ! boy (       
contact ) a be+ :om1 by discipl9e1 he _h
 tra9$ 8 m9d to look ^u z ! unatta9able4
 ,!y _h spok5 ( ! future1 yet 9 ^!      
mom5ts any consid]ation ( x 0 blott$    
out4 4 4 ,x 0 only by degrees t he      
collect$ himself suffici5tly to be able 
to return to x4 4 4 ,alison took up !   
?read4  ,surely1 %e said1 sacrifice is  
useless unless x means some?+1 unless x 
be a realization4 ,x mu/ be discrim9at+4
 ,& we %\ld bo? ( u h rema9$ incomplete 
if we _h n tak5--?is4 ,y w\ld always1 ,i
 ?9k1 h be5 ! "o man = me1--b we %\ld h 

lo/ t\*4 ,he felt h] tremble4 ,& ,i ne$$
 y4 ,i h ne$$ y all my life--"o 9 :om h 
might h absolute fai?4 ,t is my fai?1 ( 
:i* ,i c\ld n tell y a:ile ago4 ,is     
x--sacrilegi\s8  ,%e look$ up at him4   
,he %ook 8 head1 ?9k+ ( 8 own4 ,x seem$ 
! v di/illation ( ! div9e4 ,all my life1
 %e w5t on1 ,i h be5 wait+ = ! "o :o    
w\ld risk ev]y?+4 ,oh1 if y _h falt]$ ! 
lea/ little bit1 ,i don't "k :at ,i %\ld
 h done4 ,t w\ld h de/roy$ :at 0 left ( 
me1 put out1 ,i ?9k1 ! flick]+ fire t   
rema9$1 in/ead ( fann+ x into flame4 ,y 
_c "k h[ ,i wat*$ y1 h[ ,i pray$6 ,i ?9k
 x 0 pray]--,i am sure x 04 ,& x 0      
because y did n falt]1 because y risk$  
all1 t y ga9$ me4 ,y h ga9$ only :at y  
y\rself made1 m ?an ,i ev] 01 m ?an ,i  
ev] expect$ to be4  ,alison6 he         
remon/rat$1 y mu/n't say t4  ,%e        
/raight5$ up & gaz$ at him1 tak+ "o ( 8 
h&s 9 h] li! f+]s4  ,oh1 b ,i mu/6 ,x is
 ! tru?4 ,i felt t y c>$--wom5 are sur] 
9 su* matt]s ?an m54 ,i mu/ conceal no?+
 f y--no?+ ( my craft9ess4 ,wom5 are    

crafty1 y "k4 ,& suppose y fail8 ,ah1 ,i
 d n mean failure--y _c fail1 n[4 ,y h  
put y\rself =ev] beyond failure4 ,b :at 
,i mean is1 suppose y 7 compell$ to     
leave ,/4 ,john's1 & ,i came to y !n z  
,i h come n[1 & begg$ to take my place  
beside y8 ,i 0 afraid to risk x4 ,i 0   
afraid y w\ld n take me1 ev5 n[1        
to-night4 ,d y realize h[ au/]e y are at
 times1 h[ y h fright5$ me8  ,t ,i %\ld 
ev] h done t6 he said4  ,:5 ,i look$ at 
y 9 ! pulpit y seem$ s f> f me1 ,i c\ld 
sc>cely be> x4 ,z if ,i _h no %>e 9 y1 z
 if y _h already gone to a place beyond1
 :]e ,i c\ld n g1 :]e ,i nev] c\ld4 ,oh1
 y w take me ) y1 n[1--y won't leave me 
beh9d6  ,to ?is cry e fibre ( 8 s\l     
respond$4 ,he _h ?\ght himself1 9 ^!    
m9utes1 to h kn[n all feel+s1 all       
?rills1 b n[1 z he ga!r$ h] to him aga91
 he 0 to "k /ill ano!r1 ! mo/ exquisite 
( all4 ,t x 0 conf]r$ ^u him to give ?is
 woman protection1 to %ield & lift h]1  
inspire h] z %e inspir$ him--?is        
consci\sness 0 ! mo/ exquisite ( all1   

transc5d+ all conception ( ! love (     
woman4 ,& ! v fulness ( h] 0 beyond him4
 ,a lifetime 7 insuffici5t to exhau/ h] 
4 4 4 4  ,i want$ to come to y n[1      
,john4 ,i want to %>e y\r failure1 if x 
comes--all y\r failures4 ,because !y w  
be victories--don't y see8 ,i h nev] be5
 able to a*ieve t k9d ( victory--real   
victory1 by myself4 ,i h always         
succumb$1 tak5 ! bas]1 ! easi] ?+4 ,h]  
*eek 0 wet4 ,i wasn't /rong en\gh1 by   
myself1 & ,i nev] knew ! /rong] "o 4 4 4
 4  ,see :at my tru/ 9 y has be56 ,i    
knew t y w\ld n refuse me 9 spite ( !   
fact t ! _w may misund]/&1 may sne] at  
y\r tak+ me4 ,i knew t y 7 big en\gh ev5
 = t1 :5 y und]/ood x1 com+ f me4 ,i    
want$ to be ) y1 n[1 t we might fight x 
out toge!r4  ,:at h ,i done to des]ve s 
priceless a ?+8 he ask$4  ,%e smil$ at  
him aga91 h] lip trembl+4  ,oh1 ,i'm n  
priceless1 ,i'm only real1 ,i'm only    
human--human & tir$4 ,y are s /rong1 y  
c't "k h[ tir$4 ,h y any idea :y ,i came
 out "h1 ?is summ]8 ,x 0 because ,i 0   

desp]ate--because ,i _h almo/ decid$ to 
m>ry "s "o else4  ,%e felt him />t4  ,i 
0 afraid ( x2 he said4  ,7 y8 ,did y    
?9k1 did y wond] a little ab\t me8 ,!re 
0 a vibrant note ( triumph to :i* he    
react$4 ,%e drew away f him4 a little4  
,p]haps1 :5 y "k h[ sordid my life has  
be51 y won't want me4  ,is--,is t y\r   
fai?1 ,alison8 he dem&$4 ,god =bid6 ,y h
 come to a man :o also has confessions  
to make4  ,oh1 ,i am glad4 ,i want to "k
 all ( y--all1 d y und]/&8 ,t w br+ u   
ev5 clos] toge!r4 ,& x 0 "o ?+ ,i felt  
ab\t y 9 ! beg9n+1 t day 9 ! g>d51 t y  
_h _h mu* to conqu]--m ?an mo/ m54 ,x 0 
a "p ( y\r =ce & ( y\r k ( life4 ,y 7 n 
a sexless ascetic :o prea*$ a m]e       
neutral goodness4 ,does t %ock y8  ,he  
smil$ 9 turn4  ,i w5t away f "h1 z ,i   
once told y1 full ( a high resolution n 
to trail ! hon\r ( my art--if ,i a*iev$ 
art--9 ! du/4 ,b ,i h n only trail$ my  
art--,i trail$ myself4 ,9 ,new ,york ,i 
became contam9at$1 --! poison ( ! place1
 ( ! p ) :om ,i came 9 contact1 got into

 my blood4 ,little by little ,i         
yield$--,i want$ s to succe$1 to be able
 to conf\nd ^? :o _h d\bt$ & ridicul$   
me6 ,i wasn't cont5t to wait to d5y     
myself = ! ideal4 ,success 0 9 ! air4 ,t
 0 ! poison1 & ,i only began to realize 
x aft] x 0 too late4  ,please don't ?9k 
,i am ask+ pity--,i feel t y mu/ "k4 ,f 
! v fir/ my success--:i* 0 really       
failure--began to come 9 ! wrong way4 ,z
 my fa!r's daught] ,i c\ld n be obscure4
 ,i 0 s\ght out1 ,i 0 :at 0 call$       
picturesque1 ,i suppose4 ,! wom5 pett$  
me1 al?\gh "s ( !m hat$ me1 & ,i _h a   
fasc9ation = a c]ta9 k9d ( m5--! wrong  
k9d4 ,i began go+ to d9n]s1 h\se p>ties1
 to recognize1 t advantages came t way 4
 4 4 4 ,x seem$ q natural4 ,x 0 :at _m  
o!rs ( my pr(ession tri$ to d1 & !y     
envi$ me my opportunities4  ,i ought to 
say1 9 ju/ice to myself1 t ,i 0 n 9 !   
lea/ cynical ab\t x4 ,i believ$ ,i 0    
cl++ to ! ideal ( art1 & t all ,i want$ 
0 a *ance4 ,& ! p ,i w5t ) _h ! same    
*>act]i/ics1 only int5sifi$1 z ^? ,i _h 

kn[n "h4 ,( c\rse ,i 0 actually no bett]
 ?an ! wom5 :o 7 /riv+ frivol\sly to get
 away f !mselves1 & ! m5 :o 7 fight+ to 
get money4 ,only ,i didn't "k x4  ,well1
 my *ance came at la/4 ,i _h done sev]al
 little ?+s1 :5 an eld]ly man :o is     
trem5d\sly ri*1 ^: "n y w\ld recognize  
if ,i m5tion$ x1 gave me an ord]4 ,=    
weeks1 ne>ly e day1 he came to my /udio 
= tea1 to talk ov] ! plans4 ,i 0 really 
unsophi/icat$ !n--b ,i c see n[--well1 t
 ! g>d5 0 a second>y consid]ation 4 4 4 
4 ,& ! fact t ,i did x = him gave me a  
/&+ ,i %\ld n o!rwise h _h 4 4 4 4 ,oh1 
x is sick5+ to look back ^u1 to ?9k :at 
an idiot ,i 0 9 h[ little ,i saw4444  ,t
 g>d5 laun*$ me1 & ,i began to h m "w   
?an ,i c\ld d4 ,i 0 consci5ti\s ab\t x  
tri$--tri$ to make e g>d5 bett] ?an !   
la/4 ,b ,i 0 a "y woman1 unconv5tionally
 liv+ alone1 & by degrees ! h&icap ( my 
sex 0 br\ght home to me4 ,i did n feel !
 pressure at fir/1 & !n--,i am a%am$ to 
say--x _h 9 x an elem5t ( excitem5t1 a  
s5se ( p[]4 ,! poison 0 at "w4 ,i 0     

amus$4 ,i ?\ght ,i c\ld c>ry x ?r\gh1 t 
! _w _h advanc$ suffici5tly = a woman to
 d any?+ if %e only _h ! c\rage4 ,& ,i  
believ$ ,i possess$ a true broadness (  
view1 & c\ld impress x1 s f> z ,i 0     
conc]n$1 on o!rs 4 4 4 4  ,z ,i look    
back ^u x all1 ,i believe my reputation 
= coldness sav$ me1 yet x 0 t v         
reputation :i* increas$ ! pressure1 &   
sometimes ,i 0 fairly driv5 into a      
corn]4 ,x seem$ to madd5 "s m5--& !     
disillusionm5ts began to come4 ,( c\rse 
x 0 my fault --,i don't pret5d to say x 
wasn't4 ,!re 7 _m :om1 in/9ctively1 ,i 0
 on my gu>d aga9/1 b "s ,i ?\ght really 
nice1 :om ,i tru/$1 reveal$ a side ,i _h
 n suspect$4 ,t 0 ! t]rible ?+6 ,& yet  
,i held to my ideal1 tatt]$ z x 04 4 4  
,alison 0 sil5t a mom5t1 /ill cl++ to 8 
h&1 & :5 %e spoke aga9 x 0 ) a tremor ( 
agitation4  ,x is h>d1 to tell y ?is1 b 
,i wi% y to "k4 ,at la/ ,i met a man1   
comp>atively "y1 :o 0 mak+ 8 own way 9  
,new ,york1 a*iev+ a reputation z a     
lawy]4 ,%all ,i tell y t ,i fell 9 love 

) him8 ,he seem$ to br+ a new fre%ness  
into my life :5 ,i 0 beg9n+ to feel !   
/al5ess ( x4 ,n t ,i surr5d]$ at once1 b
 ! res]vations ( :i* ,i 0 consci\s at ! 
fir/ gradually disappe>$--or r ,i ignor$
 !m4 ,he _h *>m1 a magnific5t           
self-confid5ce1 b ,i ?9k ! lib]ality ( !
 op9ions he express$1 9 reg>d to wom51  
mo/ appeal$ to me4 ,i 0 weak on t side1 
& ,i h (t5 wond]$ :e!r he knew x4 ,i    
believ$ him incapable ( a great refusal4
  ,he agre$1 if ,i cons5t$ to m>ry him1 
t ,i %\ld h my fre$om --fre$om to live 9
 my own life & to c>ry on my pr(ession4 
,=tunately1 ! engagem5t 0 nev] ann\nc$1 
nev] ev5 suspect$4 ,"o day he h9t$ t ,i 
%\ld return to my fa!r = a mon? or two  
be=e ! w$d+ 4 4 4 4 ,! mann] 9 :i* he   
said x sudd5ly turn$ me cold4 ,oh1      
,alison exclaim$1 ,i 0 q will+ to g     
back1 to pay my fa!r a visit1 z ,i _h   
done ne>ly e ye>1 b--h[ c ,i tell y8--he
 c\ld n believe t ,i _h def9itely giv5  
up-my fa!r's money 4 4 4 4  ,i sat /ill 
& look$ at him1 ,i felt z if ,i 7 froz51

 turn$ to /one4 ,& aft] a long :ile1    
s9ce ,i w\ld n speak to him1 he w5t out4
 4 4 ,?ree mon?s lat] he came back &    
said t ,i _h misund]/ood him1 t he      
c\ldn't live )\t me4 ,i s5t him away4444
 ,only ! o!r day he m>ri$ ,amy ,grant1  
"o ( my fri5ds 4 4 4 4  ,well1 aft] t1  
,i 0 tir$--s tir$6 ,ev]y?+ seem$ to g   
out ( life4 ,x wasn't t ,i lov$ him any 
long]1--all _h be5 cru%$4 ,b ! illusion 
0 gone1 & ,i saw myself z ,i 04 ,& = !  
fir/ "t 9 my life ,i felt def5celess1   
helpless4 ,i want$ refuge4 ,did y ev]   
he> ( ,j5n+s ,h[e8  ,! ar*itect8        
,alison nodd$4 ,( c\rse y mu/ h--he is s
 well kn[n4 ,he has be5 a wid[] = sev]al
 ye>s4 ,he lik$ my "w1 saw its defects1 
& 0 always frank ab\t !m1 & ,i design$ a
 good _m g>d5s 9 connection ) 8 h\ses4  
,he himself is above all ?+s an arti/1 &
 he fell into ! habit ( com+ to my /udio
 & giv+ me fri5dly advice1 9 ! nice/    
way4 ,he seem$ to und]/& t ,i 0 go+     
?r\gh "s sort ( a crisis4 ,he call$ x   
'too mu* society4' ,& !n1 )\t any w>n+1 

he ask$ me to m>ry him4  ,t is :y ,i    
came out "h--to ?9k x ov]4 ,i didn't    
love him1 & ,i told him s1 b ,i respect$
 him4  ,he nev] compromis$ 9 8 art1 & ,i
 h kn[n him ov] & ov] to refuse h\ses   
because c]ta9 conditions 7 /ipulat$4 ,to
 m>ry him 0 an ackn[l$gm5t ( defeat4 ,i 
realiz$ t4 ,b ,i _h come to ! extremity 
:]e ,i want$ peace--peace & protection4 
,i want$ to put myself irrevocably      
beyond ! old life1 :i* simply c\ld n h  
gone on1 & ,i saw myself 9 ! advanc+    
ye>s becom+ tawdry & worn1 los+ little  
by little :at ,i _h ga9$ at a price4  ,s
 ,i came "h--to reflect1 to see1 z x 71 
if ,i c\ld f9d some?+ left 9 me to take 
hold (1 to build ^u1 to beg9 ov] aga91  
p]haps1 by go+ back to ! old            
associations4 ,i c\ld ?9k ( no bett]    
place1 & ,i knew t my fa!r w\ld1 be go+ 
away aft] a few weeks1 & t ,i %\ld be   
lone1 yet ) an atmosph]e back ( me1--my 
old atmosph]e4 ,t 0 :y ,i w5t to *ur* ! 
fir/ ,sunday1 9 ord] to feel m def9itely
 t atmosph]e1 to summon up m completely 

! image ( my "m4 ,m & m1 z ! ye>s h     
pass$1 ,i h ?\ght ( h] 9 mom5ts (       
tr\ble4 ,i h recov]$ h] z ,i nev] _h    
hop$ to d 9 ,mr4 ,b5tley4 ,isn't x      
/range1 %e exclaim$ wond]+ly1 t he %\ld 
h come into bo? our lives1 ) su* an     
influ5ce1 at ?is "t8  ,& !n ,i met y1   
talk$ to y t aft]noon 9 ! g>d54 ,%all ,i
 make a complete confession8 ,i wrote to
 ,j5n+s ,h[e t v week t ,i c\ld n m>ry  
him4  ,y knew6 ,hodd] exclaim$3 ,y knew 
!n8  ,ah1 ,i c't tell :at ,i knew--or   
:54 ,i knew1 aft] ,i _h se5 y1 t ,i     
c\ldn't m>ry him6 ,isn't t en\gh8  ,he  
drew 9 8 brea? deeply4  ,i %\ld be less 
?an a man if ,i refus$ to take y1       
,alison4 ,&--no matt] :at happ5s1 ,i c &
 w f9d "s hone/ "w to support y4 ,b oh1 
my de>1 :5 ,i ?9k ( x1 ! nobility &     
g5]osity ( :at y h done appalls me4     
,no1 no6 %e prote/$1 y mu/n't say t6 ,i 
ne$$ y m ?an y ne$ me4 ,& hav5't we bo? 
discov]$ ! _w1 & r5\nc$ x8 ,i c at lea/ 
g s f> z to say t1 ) all my he>t4 ,&    
isn't m>riage tru] & high] :5 man & wife

 />t ) difficulties & problems to solve 
toge!r8 ,x is t ?\ght t br+s me !       
greate/ joy1 t ,i may be able to help y 
4 4 4 4 ,didn't y ne$ me1 j a little8   
,n[ t ,i h y1 ,i am unable to ?9k ( !   
empt9ess :i* might h be54 ,y came to me1
 l ,beatrice1 :5 ,i _h lo/ my way 9 !   
d>kness ( ! wood4 ,& l ,beatrice1 y %[$ 
me ! pa?1 & hell & heav54  ,oh1 y w\ld h
 f\nd ! pa? )\t me4 ,i _c claim t4 ,i   
saw f ! fir/ t y 7 de/9$ to f9d x4 ,&1  
unlike ,beatrice1 ,i too 0 lo/1 & x 0 y 
:o lift$ me up4 ,y mu/n't idealize me4 4
 4 4 ,%e /ood up4 ,come6 %e said4 ,he   
too /ood1 gaz+ at h]1 & %e lift$ h] h&s 
to 8 %\ld]s 4 4 4 4 ,!y mov$ out f "u ! 
tree & walk$ = a :ile 9 sil5ce across ! 
dew-dr5*$ grass1 t[>ds ,p>k ,/reet4 ,!  
moon1 :i* _h ridd5 ov] a great space 9 !
 sky1 hung r$ above ! blackness ( ! =e/ 
to ! we/4  ,d y rememb] :5 we 7 "h      
toge!r1 ! day ,i met ,mr4 ,b5tley8 ,& y 
nev] w\ld h spok56  ,h[ c\ld ,i1        
,alison8 he ask$4  ,no1 y c\ldn't4 ,&   
yet--y w\ld h let me g6  ,he put 8 arm 9

 h]s1 & drew h] t[>ds him4  ,i mu/ talk 
to y\r fa!r1 he said1 "s day--soon4 ,i  
ought to tell him--( our int5tions4 ,we 
_c g on l ?is4  ,no1 %e agre$1 ,i       
realize x4 ,& ,i _c /ay1 mu* long]1 9   
,p>k ,/reet4 ,i mu/ g back to ,new      
,york1 until y s5d = me1 de>4 ,& !re are
 ?+s ,i mu/ d4 ,d y "k1 ev5 ?\gh ,i     
antagonize him s--my fa!r1 ,i mean--ev5 
?\gh he suspects & bitt]ly res5ts any   
int]e/ 9 y1 my affection = y1 & t ,i h  
l+]$ because ( y1 ,i believe1 9 8 way1  
he has lik$ to h me "h4  ,i c und]/& x1 
,hodd] said4  ,x's because y are bigg]  
?an ,i1 al?\gh he has qu>rell$ ) y s    
bitt]ly4 ,i don't "k :at def9ite wrongs 
he has done to o!r p]sons4 ,i don't wi% 
to "k4 ,i don't ask y to tell me :at    
pass$ betwe5 y t night4 ,once y said t y
 _h an affection = him --t he 0 lonely4 
,he is lonely4 ,9 ^! la/ weeks1 9 spite 
( 8 ang]1 ,i c see t he suff]s t]ribly4 
,x is a trag$y1 because he w nev] give  
94  ,x is a trag$y4 ,hodd]'s tone 0     
agitat$4  ,i wond] if he realizes a     

little %e began1 & paus$4 ,n[ t ,pre/on 
has come home--  ,y\r bro!r8 ,hodd]     
exclaim$4  ,yes4 ,i =got to tell y4 ,i  
don't "k :y he came1 %e falt]$4 ,i      
suppose he has got into "s new tr\ble4  
,he seems *ang$4 ,i c't describe x n[1 b
 ,i w tell y ab\t x 4 4 4 4 ,x's ! fir/ 
"t we've all ?ree be5 toge!r s9ce my "m 
di$1 = ,pre/on wasn't back f college :5 
,i w5t to ,p>is to /udy 4 4 4 4  ,!y    
/ood toge!r on ! pavem5t be=e ! massive 
h\se1 fraught ) s _m & v>i$ associations
 = ,hodd]4 ,& z he look$ up at x1 8 eye 
involunt>ily re/$ ^u ! w9d[s ( ! boy's  
room :]e ,eldon ,p>r _h made 8          
confession4 ,alison />tl$ him by        
pron\nc+ 8 "n1 :i* came ) su* unaccu/om$
 sweetness f h] lips4 ,y w write me     
to-morr[1 %e said1 aft] y h se5 ! bi%op8
  ,yes1 at once4 ,y mu/n't let x worry  
y4  ,i feel z if ,i _h ca/ (f t k9d (   
worry =ev]4 ,x is only --! o!r worries f
 :i* we d n escape1 f :i* we d n wi% to 
escape4  ,) a wond]ful smile %e _h      
dropp$ 8 h&s & gone 9 at ! entrance1 :5 

a s\nd made !m turn1 ! humm+ ( a motor4 
,& ev5 z !y look$ x swung into ,p>k     
,/reet4  ,x's a taxicab6 %e said4 ,z %e 
spoke x drew up almo/ beside !m1 in/ead 
( turn+ 9 at ! driveway1 ! door op5$1 & 
a man alight$4  ,pre/on6 ,alison        
exclaim$4  ,he />t$1 turn+ f ! driv]1   
:om he 0 ab\t to pay4 ,z = ,hodd]1 he 0 
n only und]go+ a c]ta9 %ock ?r\gh !     
sudd5 contact1 at su* a mom5t1 )        
,alison's bro!r3 !re 0 an additional    
%ock t ?is 0 ,alison's bro!r & ,eldon   
,p>r's son4 ,n t 8 appe>ance 0 %ock+1   
al?\gh ! well-clad1 a?letic figure 0    
gr[+ a trifle heavy1 & ! light f ! side 
lamps ( ! c> reveal$ dissipation 9 a    
/ill h&some face4 ,! effect 0 a subtl]  
"o1 n to be analyz$1 & due to a         
multitude ( preconceptions4  ,alison    
came =w>d4  ,?is is ,mr4 ,hodd]1        
,pre/on1 %e said simply4  ,= a mom5t    
,pre/on cont9u$ to />e at ! rector )\t  
speak+4 ,sudd5ly he put out 8 h&4  ,mr4 
,hodd]1 ( ,/4 ,john's8 he dem&$4  ,yes1 
answ]$ ,hodd]4 ,8 surprise deep5$ to    

p]plexity at ! w>m? ( ! h&clasp t       
foll[$4  ,a smile t br\ght back vividly 
to ,hodd] ! sunny expression ( !        
s*oolboy 9 ! picture light5$ ! features 
( ! man4  ,i'm v glad to see y1 he said1
 9 a tone t left no d\bt ( its g5u9e    
quality4  ,?ank y1 ,hodd] repli$1 meet+ 
8 eye ) k9dness1 yet ) a scrut9y t s\ght
 to p5etrate ! secret ( an unexpect$    
cordiality4 ,i1 too1 h hop$ to see y4   
,alison1 :o /ood by wond]+1 felt a mean+
 beh9d ! rector's words4 ,%e press$ 8 h&
 z he bade h]1 once m1 good night4      
,won't y take my taxicab8 ask$ ,pre/on4 
,x is go+ d[n t[n anyway4  ,i ?9k ,i'd  
bett] /ick to ! /reet c>s1 ,hodd] said4 
,8 refusal 0 n ungraceful1 b firm4      
,pre/on did n insi/4  ,9 spite ( ! ev5ts
 ( t ev5+1 :i* he w5t ov] aga9 & aga9 z 
! midnight c> c>ri$ him ea/w>d1 9 spite 
( a new-born happ9ess ! actuality ( :i* 
0 /ill difficult to grasp1 ,hodd] 0     
vaguely tr\bl$ :5 he ?\ght ( ,pre/on    
,p>r4