,,! ,,inside ,,( ,,! ,,cup ,by ,w9/on ,*ur*ill ,volume #b4 ,v4 ,,! ,,rector ,,has ,,m ,,food ,,= ,,?\ght4 ,,vi4 ,,wat*man1 ,,:at ,,( ,,! ,,night ,,vii4 ,,! ,,k+doms ,,( ,,! ,,_w ,,viii4 ,,! ,,l9e ( ,,lea/ ,,resi/ance4 ,,*apt] ,v ,,! ,,rector ,,has ,,m ,,food ,,= ,,?\ght ,i ,sunday aft] ,sunday ,hodd] look$ ^u ! same picture1 ! w9t] light filt]+ ?r\gh emblazon$ w9d[s1 fall+ a?w>t /one pill>s1 & /a9+ ) ri* col\rs ! m>ble ( ! c5tre aisle4 ,! organ roll$ out hymns & an!ms1 ! voices ( ! :ite rob$ *oir e*o$ among ! ar*es4 ,& ,hodd]'s eye1 sweep+ ov] ! decor\s congregation1 grew to recognize c]ta9 l&m>ks3 ,eldon ,p>r1 rigid at "o end ( 8 empty pew2 little ,ev]ett ,con/able1 com=tably1 b always pomp\sly settl$ at "o end ( 81 8 :ite-hair$ & di/+ui%$-look+ wife at ! o!r4 ,! space betwe5 !m _h once be5 fill$ by _! *ildr54 ,!re 0 ,mr4 ,f]guson1 :o occasionally /rok$ 8 black :isk]s ) a prodigi\s solemnity2 ,mrs4 ,f]guson1 respl5d5t & always a little w>m1 & _! daught] ,nan1 da9ty & appeal+1 h] eyes uplift$ & que/ion+4 ,! ,plimptons1 ) _! rubicund & aggressively heal?y (fspr+1 7 always 9 evid5ce4 ,& !re 0 ,mrs4 ,l>rabbee4 ,:at betwe5 weal? & y\?1 indep5d5ce & initiative1 a wid[hood n[ em]g$ f a m\rn+ unexceptionable1 an elegance s unobtrusive z to bord] on my/]y1 %e nev] fail$ to agitate any atmosph]e %e ent]$1 ev5 t ( pray]4 ,f "t to "t1 ,hodd] himself 0 uncom=tably aw>e ( h] pres5ce1 & he read 9 h] upturn$ face an int]e/ :i*1 by a little /ret* ( ! imag9ation1 might h be5 deem$ p]sonal 4 4 4 4 ,ano!r 0 ,gordon ,att]bury1 /ill kn[n z "y ,gordon1 ?\gh 8 fa!r 0 dead1 & he 0 9 ! ve/ry4 ,he 0 unm>ri$ & =ty-five1 & ,mrs4 ,l>rabbee _h said he rem9d$ h] ( a %rivell+ se$ set aside f a once fruitful crop4 ,he wore1 inv>iably1 *eck$ tr\s]s & a black cutaway coat1 eyeglasses t fell (f :5 he squ9t$1 & 7 sav$ f de/ruction by a gold *a94 ,no w$d+ or fun]al 0 complete )\t him4 ,& "o morn+1 z he jo9$ ,mr4 ,p>r & ! o!r g5tlem5 :o respond$ to ! appeal1 ,let y\r light s %9e be=e m51 a /range1 ironical "q ent]$ ! rector's m9d--0 ,gordon ,att]bury ! logical product ( ^? doctr9es :i* he1 ,hodd]1 prea*$ ) su* feel+ & conviction8 ,none1 at lea/1 0 s f]v5t a def5d] ( ! fai?1 s punctili\s 9 all obs]vances1 s con/ant at ! alt> rail2 none s v]s$ 9 rubrics1 ritual1 & canon law2 none _h su* a k ( ! ,*ur* fa!rs4 ,mr4 ,att]bury delight$ to discuss !m ) ! rector at ! d9n] p>ties :]e !y met2 none 0 m zeal\s = =eign missions4 ,he 0 ! treasur] ( ,/4 ,john's4 ,x %\ld und\bt$ly h be5 a consolation to any rector to possess ,mr4 ,att]bury's unqualifi$ approval1 to li/5 to 8 some:at delphic complim5ts1--h]ald$ by a cle>+ ( ! ?roat4 ,he repres5t$ ! fai? z deliv]$ to ! sa9ts1 & he spoke = ^? 9 ! congregation to :om x 0 preci\s4 ,:y 0 x t1 to ,hodd]1 he %\ld gradually h assum$ some?+ ( ! aspect ( a ,c]b]us8 ,:y 0 x t he incit$ a p]v]se desire to utt] h]esies8 ,hodd] inv>iably turn$ f 8 contemplation ( ,gordon ,att]bury to ! d\ble bl>+ pew1 :i* w5t f aisle to aisle4 ,9 8 he>t1 he w\ld h pref]r$ ! approval ( ,eleanor ,goodri* & h] husb&1 & ( ,asa ,w>+4 ,in/9ct spoke to him "h2 he seem$ to read 9 _! faces t he fail$ to /rike 9 !m responsive *ords4 ,he 0 drawn to !m3 ! conviction grew ^u him t he did n rea* !m1 & x tr\bl$ him1 z he ?\ght1 disproportionately4 ,he c\ld n expect to rea* all4 ,b !y 7 ! type to :i* he mo/ wi%$ to appeal2 ( all ( 8 flock1 ?is family seem$ be/ to pres]ve ! vitality & ideals ( ! city & nation4 ,asa ,w>+ 0 a spl5did1 uncompromis+ survival2 8 pi]c+ eyes sometimes met ,hodd]'s across ! *ur*1 & !y held = him a "q & a riddle4 ,eleanor ,goodri* bore on h] features ! /amp ( true nobility ( "*1 & h] husb&1 ,hodd] knew1 0 a man among m54 ,9 addition to a respect$ l9eage1 he possess$ an unusual bl5d+ ( aggressiv5ess & p]sonal *>m t m5 f\nd irresi/ible4 ,! rector's (fice 9 ! p>i% h\se 0 a bus9esslike room on ! fir/ floor1 fitt$ up ) a desk1 a table1 /raight-back$ *airs1 & a revolv+ bookcase4 ,& to x1 "o w9dy morn+ 9 ,m>*1 came ,eleanor ,goodri*4 ,hodd] rose to greet h] ) an eag]ness :i*1 f 8 k9dly yet p5etrat+ glance1 %e did n suspect4 ,am ,i int]rupt+ y1 ,mr4 ,hodd]8 %e ask$1 a little brea?lessly4 ,n at all1 he said1 draw+ up a *air4 ,won't y sit d[n8 ,%e obey$4 ,!re 0 an awkw>d pause dur+ :i* ! col\r sl[ly rose to h] face4 ,i want$ to ask y "o or two ?+s1 %e began1 n v /eadily4 ,z p]haps y may "k1 ,i 0 br\ght up 9 ?is *ur*1 baptiz$ & confirm$ 9 x4 ,i've come to fe> t1 :5 ,i 0 confirm$1 ,i wasn't old en\gh to "k :at ,i 0 do+4 ,%e took a deep brea?1 amaz$ at h] boldness1 = ?is wasn't 9 ! lea/ h[ %e _h meant to beg94 ,& %e gaz$ at ! rector anxi\sly4 ,to h] surprise1 he did n appe> to be inord9ately %ock$4 ,d y "k any bett] n[8 he ask$4 ,p]haps n1 %e admitt$4 ,b ! ?+s ( :i* ,i 0 sure at t "t ,i am n sure ( n[4 ,my fai? is--is n z complete4 ,fai? may be lik5$ to an egg1 ,mrs4 ,goodri*1 he said4 ,x mu/ be kept :ole4 ,if ! %ell is *ipp$1 x is spoil$4 ,eleanor pluck$ up h] c\rage4 ,eggs1 %e decl>$1 _h be5 us$ z illu/rations by cons]vatives be=e n[4 ,hodd] reliev$ h] by smil+ 9 ready appreciation4 ,columbus _h ref]5ce to ?is _w1 he said4 ,i 0 ?9k+ ( a m p]fect cue4 ,oh6 %e cri$1 ,i d>e say !re is a m p]fect "o4 ,i %\ld hate to ?9k !re wasn't--b ,i c't imag9e x4 ,!re's no?+ 9 ! ,bible 9 ! way ( description ( x to make me really wi% to g !re4 ,! ,new ,j]usalem is too insipid1 too mat]ial4 ,i'm sure ,i'm %ock+ y1 b ,i mu/ be hone/1 & say :at ,i feel4 ,if "s o!rs 7 z hone/1 said ! rector1 ! problems ( cl]gym5 w\ld be mu* easi]4 ,& x is precisely because p w n tell u :at !y feel t we are left 9 ! d>k & _c help !m4 ,( c\rse1 ! language ( ,/4 ,john ab\t ! future is figurative4 ,figurative1--yes1 %e cons5t$1 b n figurative 9 a way t helps me1 a mod]n ,am]ican woman4 ,! figures1 to be ( any use1 ought to appeal to my imag9ation--oughtn't !y8 ,b !y don't4 ,i c't see any utility 9 su* a heav5--x seems p[]less to ent] z a factor into my life4 ,x is probable t we are n meant to "k any?+ ab\t ! future4 ,!n ,i wi% x hadn't be5 made s explicit4 ,its v def9it5ess is someh[--/ultify+4 ,&1 ,mr4 ,hodd]1 if we 7 n meant to "k its details1 x seems to me t if ! h]eaft] is to h any real value & influ5ce ov] our lives "h1 we %\ld "k some?+ ( its conditions1 because x mu/ be 9 "s s5se a cont9uation ( ?is4 ,i'm n sure t ,i make myself cle>4 ,admirably cle>4 ,b we h our ,"l's example ( h[ to live "h4 ,if we c\ld be sure1 said ,eleanor1 j :at t example meant4 ,hodd] 0 sil5t a mom5t4 ,y mean t y _c accept :at ! ,*ur* tea*es ab\t 8 life8 he ask$4 ,no1 ,i c't1 %e falt]$4 ,y h help$ me to say x4 ,i want to h ! ,*ur*'s side bett] expla9$1--t's :y ,i'm "h4 ,%e glanc$ up at him1 hesitat+ly1 ) a puzzl$ wond]1 su* a positive1 dynamic repres5tative ( t tea*+ did he appe>4 ,& my husb& c't1--s _m p ,i "k c't1 ,mr4 ,hodd]4 ,only1 "s ( !m don't m5tion ! fact4 ,!y accept x4 ,& y say ?+s ) su* a c]ta9ty-- %e paus$4 ,i "k1 he repli$1 ,i "k4 ,i h felt x s9ce ,i h come "h m ?an ev] be=e4 ,he did n add t he _h felt x p>ticul>ly ab\t h]1 ab\t h] husb&3 nor did he give voice to 8 in/9ctive conviction t he respect$ & admir$ ^! two m ?an a hundr$ o!rs ^: pr(ess$ or?odoxy 0 )\t a flaw4 ,:at is x 9 p>ticul>1 he ask$1 tr\bl$1 t y _c accept8 ,i w d my be/ to help y4 ,well-- %e hesitat$ aga94 ,please cont9ue to be frank1 he begg$4 ,i c't believe 9 ! doctr9e ( ! virg9 bir?1 %e respond$ 9 a l[ voice2 x seems to me s--s mat]ial4 ,& ,i feel ,i am /at+ a difficulty t _m h1 ,mr4 ,hodd]4 ,:y %\ld x h be5 ?\ght necess>y = ,god to h dep>t$ f :at is really a sacr$ & sublime fact 9 nature1 to resort to a mat]ial pro( 9 ord] to conv9ce a d\bt+ humanity t ,jesus 0 8 ,son8 ,oughtn't ! pro( ( ,*ri/'s ess5tial ,god-%ip to lie 9 8 life1 to be disc]n$ by ! spiritual2 & wasn't he cont9ually rebuk+ ^? :o dem&$ mat]ial pro(8 ,! v acceptance ( a mat]ial pro(1 x seems to me1 is a d5ial ( fai?1 s9ce fai? ceases to h any wor? :atev] ! mom5t ! dem& = su* pro( is gratifi$4 ,k puts fai? out ( ! "q1 = fai? to me means a tru/+ on spiritual gr\nds4 ,& surely ! acceptance ( scriptural /atem5ts l t ( ! miracul\s bir? )\t inve/igation is n fai?--x is m]e cr$ulity4 ,if ,jesus _h be5 born 9 a miracul\s way1 ! disciples mu/ h kn[n x4 ,joseph mu/ h kn[n x :5 he he>d ! answ] ',i mu/ be ab\t my fa!r's bus9ess1' & _! d\bts are unexpla9$4 ,i see y h be5 inve/igat+1 said ! rector4 ,yes1 repli$ ,eleanor1 ) an unconsci\s %ade ( defiance1 p want to "k1 ,mr4 ,dodd]1--!y want to "k ! tru?4 ,& if y consid] ! prepond]ance ( ! evid5ce ( ! ,gospels !mselves--my bro!r-9-law says--y w f9d t ! miracul\s bir? has v little to /& on4 ,take out ! fir/ two *apt]s ( ,mat!w & ,luke1 & ! re/ ( ! f\r ,gospels practically contradict x4 ,! g5ealogies diff]1 & !y bo? trace ?r\gh ,joseph4 ,i ?9k p suff] 9 ^! days f giv+ too mu* weight to ! critics ( ,*ri/ianity1 said ! rector1 f n pond]+ m deeply on its und]ly+ tru?s4 ,d n ?9k t ,i am accus+ y ( sup]ficiality1 ,mrs4 ,goodri*2 ,i am sure y wi% to g to ! bottom1 or else y w\ld be satisfi$ ) :at y h already read & he>d4 ,i d1 %e murmur$4 ,& ! m "o reflects on ! life ( our ,"l1 ! m "o is conv9c$ t ! doctr9e ( ! virg9 bir? is a vital ess5tial2 )\t x ,*ri/ianity falls to pieces4 ,let u g at ! matt] ! o!r way r\nd4 ,if we attribute to our ,"l a natural bir?1 we come at once to ! dilemma ( hav+ to admit t he 0 m]ely an individual human p]son1--9 an unsurpass$ relation%ip ) ,god1 x is true1 b /ill a human p]son4 ,t doctr9e makes ,*ri/ hi/orical1 "s "o to g back to1 in/ead ( ! ev]-pres5t1 preexi/5t ,son ( ,god & mank9d4 ,i w g z f> z to ass]t t if ! virg9 bir? _h nev] be5 m5tion$ 9 ! ,gospels1 x w\ld nev]!less inevitably h become a fundam5tal doctr9e ( ! ,*ri/ian fai?4 ,su* a tru? is too va/1 too f>-rea*+ to h be5 neglect$1 & x has a mu* high] significance ?an ! m]e record ( a fact4 ,9 spite ( ! contradictions ( sci5ce1 x expla9s z no?+ else c ! my/]y ( ! div9ity z well z ! humanity ( ! ,savi\r4 ,eleanor 0 unconv9c$4 ,%e felt1 z %e li/5$1 ! pressure ( 8 s9c]ity & =ce1 & _h to /rive to prev5t h] ?\ghts f becom+ confus$4 ,no1 ,mr4 ,hodd]1 ,i simply c't see any reason = resort+ to a physical miracle 9 ord] to expla9 a spiritual my/]y4 ,i c see :y ! anci5ts dem&$ a sign ( div9ity z x 74 ,b = u x has ceas$ ev5 to be t4 ,x c't be prov$4 ,y ask me1 9 ! face ( ov]:elm+ evid5ce aga9/ x1 to tea* my *ildr5 t ! ,inc>nation dep5ds on x1 b :5 !y gr[ up & g to college & f9d x discr$it$ !y run ! risk ( los+ ev]y?+ else ) x4 ,& = my "p1 ,i fail utt]ly to see :y1 if ) ,god all ?+s are possible1 x isn't q z believable1 z we ga!r f ,/4 ,m>k's ,gospel1 t he inc>nat$ himself 9 "o naturally born4 ,if y rea* ! conclusion t ,jesus 0 n a m]e individual human p]son1 y rea* x ?r\gh ! contemplation ( 8 life & dea?4 ,!n x isn't ! physical miracle y object to1 especially8 he ask$4 ,x's ! uselessness ( x1 = ?is age1 %e exclaim$4 ,i ?9k cl]gym5 don't und]/& ! h>m x is do+ 9 conc5trat+ ! att5tion on su* a vuln]able & non-ess5tial po9t4 ,^? ( u :o are /riv+ to reorganize our beliefs & make !m t5able1 d n bo!r our heads ab\t miracles4 ,!y may be true1 or may n1 or "s ( !m may be4 ,we are beg9n+ to see t ! virg9 bir? does n add any?+ to ,*ri/4 ,we are beg9n+ to see t p]fection & individuality are n incompatible1--"o is div9e1 & ! o!r human4 ,& isn't x by 8 v individuality t we are able to recognize ,jesus to-day8 ,y h evid5tly ?\ght & read a great deal1 ,dodd] said1 g5u9ely surpris$4 ,:y didn't y come to me e>li]8 ,eleanor bit h] lip4 ,he smil$ a little4 ,i ?9k ,i c answ] t = y1 he w5t on2 y believe we are prejudic$1--,i've no d\bt _m ( u are4 ,y ?9k we are b\nd to /& up = c]ta9 dogmas1 or g d[n1 & t our m9ds are consequ5tly clos$4 ,i am n blam+ y1 he add$ quickly1 z %e gave a sign ( prote/1 b ,i assure y t mo/ ( u1 s f> z my obs]vation has gone1 are hone/ly try+ to proclaim ! tru? z we see x4 ,ins9c]ity is ! la/ ?+ ,i %\ld h accus$ y (1 ,mr4 ,hodd]1 %e said flu%+4 ,z ,i told y1 y seem s sure4 ,i don't pret5d to infallibility1 except s f> z ,i ma9ta9 t ! ,*ur* is ! gu>dian ( c]ta9 tru?s :i* human exp]i5ce has v]ifi$4 ,let me ask y if y h ?\ght out ! diff]5ce y\r conception ( ! ,inc>nation2--! lack ( a pat5tly div9e commission1 z x 71--makes 9 ! doctr9e ( grace8 ,yes1 ,i h1 %e answ]$1 a little4 ,x gives me m hope4 ,i _c ?9k ,i am totally deprav$4 ,i d n believe t ,god wi%es me to ?9k s4 ,& :ile ,i am /ill aw>e ( ! di/ance betwe5 ,*ri/'s p]fection & my own imp]fection1 ,i feel t ! possibility is great] ( less5+ t di/ance4 ,x gives me m self-respect1 m self-reliance4 ,george ,bridges says t ! logical conclusion ( t old doctr9e is :at philosoph]s call det]m9ism--,calv9i/ic pr$e/9ation4 ,i c't believe 9 t4 ,! k9d ( grace ,god gives me is ! grace to help myself by draw+ =ce f ! elem5t ( him 9 my s\l4 ,he gives me ! satisfaction ( develop+4 ,( "o ?+ ,i am assur$1 ,mrs4 ,goodri*1 ,hodd] repli$1 t ! logical result ( indep5d5t ?9k+ is an>*y4 ,"u ?is mod]n t5d5cy t[>d individual cre$s1 ! ,*ur* has split & split aga9 until1 if x keeps on1 we %all h no ,*ur* at all to c>ry on ! "w ( our ,"l on e>?4 ,hi/ory proves t to take any?+ away f ! fai? is to atrophy1 to de/roy x4 ,! answ] to y\r argum5ts is to be se5 on e side1 a!ism1 hypocrisy1 vice1 mis]y1 insane & cruel grasp+ aft] weal?4 ,!re is only "o rem$y ,i c see1 he add$1 inflexibly1 yet ) a t\* ( sadness1 believe4 ,:at if we c't believe8 %e ask$4 ,y c4 ,he spoke ) un%ak5 conviction4 ,y c if y make ! ef=t1 & ,i am sure y w4 ,my exp]i5ce is t 9 ! e>ly /ages ( spiritual developm5t we are imp]vi\s to c]ta9 tru?s4 ,w y p]mit me to recomm5d to y c]ta9 books deal+ ) ^! que/ions 9 a mod]n way8 ,i w read !m gladly1 %e said1 & rose4 ,& !n1 p]haps1 we may h ano!r talk1 he add$1 look+ d[n at h]4 ,give my reg>ds to y\r husb&4 ,yet1 z he /ood 9 ! w9d[ look+ aft] h] retreat+ figure1 !re gradually grew ^u him a vague & uncom=table feel+ t he _h n be5 satisfactory1 & ?is 0 curi\sly c\pl$ ) ! realization t ! visit _h add$ a consid]able increm5t to 8 already pron\nc$ lik+ = ,eleanor ,goodri*4 ,%e 01 p>adoxically1 8 k9d ( a p]son--su* 0 ! =m ! puzzle took4 ,& s ably _h %e pres5t$ h] difficulties t1 at "o po9t ( ! discussion1 x _h ironically occurr$ to him to ref] h] to ,gordon ,att]bury4 ,mr4 ,att]bury's fai? 0 l an egg1 & he took preci\s c>e n to h x brok5 or *ipp$4 ,hodd] f\nd himself smil+4 ,x 0 p]haps inevitable t he began at once to contra/ ,mrs4 ,goodri* ) o!r fem99e p>i%ion]s :o _h s\ght him out1 & :o _h surr5d]$ unconditionally4 ,!y _h ev9c$ an equally di/urb+ t5d5cy1--a will+ness to be ov]borne4 ,= _h he n1 inde$1 ov]borne !m8 ,he c\ld n help suspect+ ^! o!r ladies ( a crav+ = ! luxury ( ! confessional4 ,"o ?+ 0 c]ta91--he _h mu* less respect = !m ?an = ,eleanor ,goodri* 4 4 4 4 ,t aft]noon he s5t h] ! li/ ( books4 ,b ! weeks pass$1 & %e did n come back4 ,once1 :5 he met h] at a d9n] ( ,mrs4 ,pre/on's1 bo? avoid$ ! subject ( h] visit1 bo? 7 consci\s ( a con/ra9t4 ,%e did n "k h[ (t51 unse5 by h]1 8 eyes _h s\ght h] out f ! *ancel4 ,= %e cont9u$ to come to *ur* z frequ5tly z be=e1 & (t5 br\ght h] husb&4 ,,ii ,"o bright & boi/]\s aft]noon 9 ,m>*1 ,hodd] alight$ f an electric c> amid a swirl ( du/ & /ood gaz+ = a mom5t at ! /one gate-h\ses ( t 'rus 9 urbe'1 ,wav]ley ,place1 & at ! gold block-lett]s writt5 !reon1 ,no ,?or\ghf>e4 ,aga9/ ^? gates & _! contigu\s grill ! rude onw>d ru% ( ! city _h beat5 9 va91 &1 baffl$1 _h swept ar\nd _! s]5e enclosure1 we/w>d4 ,)91 a silv]y sunlight lit up ! grass ( ! isl& runn+ d[n ! middle1 & 9 ! b$s ! s(t5+ e>? _h already be5 brok5 by ! crocus %eaves4 ,! b>e bran*es ( ! trees sway$ 9 ! gu/s4 ,z ,hodd] p5etrat$ ?is hall[$ prec9ct he recogniz$1 on ei!r h&1 ! resid5ces ( sev]al ( 8 p>i%ion]s1 ea* 9 its ample allott$ space3 ,mrs4 ,l>rabbee's2 ! ,laure/on ,greys'2 ,?ur/on ,gore's1 ( :i* ,mr4 ,wallis ,plimpton 0 n[ ! ma/]1--,mr4 ,plimpton1 be=e ^: p]t9acity ! walls ( ,j]i*o _h fall52 & f9ally ! que]1 twi/$ ,ri*>dson mansion ( ! ,ev]ett ,con/ables1 :i!r he 0 b\nd1 ) its recess$ doorway & t9y w9d[s peep+ out f "u m$iaeval p5?\ses4 ,he 0 u%]$ into a libr>y :]e ! %ades 7 already drawn1 :]e a-:ite-clo!d tea-table 0 set be=e ! fire1 ! r$ rays danc+ on ! silv] tea-kettle4 ,on ! c5tre-table he 0 always sure to f9d1 neatly set 9 a rack1 ! books ab\t :i* ! _w 0 talk+1 or r w\ld soon beg9 to talk2 & beside !m 7 rang$ magaz9es2 ,fr5*1 ,engli%1 & ,am]ican1 ,pun*1 ! ,spectator1 ! ,nation1 ! ',revue des deux ,mondes'4 ,l ! able g5]al %e 01 ,mrs4 ,con/able kept h] communications op51 & h] acqua9tance 0 by no means conf9$ to ! city ( h] nativity4 ,& if a celebrity 7 pass+ ?r\gh1 x 7 pretty safe1 if 9 d\bt1 to address him 9 h] c>e4 ,hodd] lik$ & admir$ h]1 b someh[ %e gave him ! impression ( hav+ atta9$ h] asc5dancy at a price1 an asc5dancy :i* _h app>5tly be5 ga9$ by impress+ ^u h] environm5t a new note --lit]>y1 ae/hetic1 cosmopolitan4 ,%e held h]self1 & ^? %e c>ri$ ) h]1 abrea/ ( ! times1 & he 0 at a loss to see h[ s cong5ial an ef=t c\ld h left despite h] sweetness--! little m>k ( h>dness he disc]n$1 ( worldl9ess4 ,= %e 0 z well born z any woman 9 ! city1 & h] husb& 0 a ,con/able4 ,he _h inh]it$1 s ! rector _h be5 in=m$1 "o ( ^? mode/ =tunes t 7 deem$ afflu5ce 9 ! eighties4 ,8 keep+ abrea/ ( ! times 0 ! enigma1 & ,hodd] _h (t5 wond]$ h[ f9ancial g5ius _h contriv$ to h\se itself 9 ! well-dress$1 g5tly pomp\s little man ^: lack ( =ce seem$ at times s pa9fully evid5t4 ,& yet he 0 rat$ "o ( ! ri* m5 ( ! city1 & 8 "n ,hodd] _h read on _m bo>ds ) ,mr4 ,p>r's6 ,a p]son m v]s$ 9 ! mod]n _w ( affairs ?an ! late rector ( ,brem]ton w\ld n h be5 s long 9 arriv+ at ! answ] to ?is riddle4 ,hodd] 0 a/ute1 he saw into p m ?an !y suspect$1 b he 0 n sophi/icat$4 ,he /ood pictur+1 n[1 ! woman 9 answ] to ^: summons he _h come4 ,) h] f9ely *isell$ features1 h] abundant :ite hair1 h] slim figure & erect c>riage %e rem9d$ him always ( a ,vigee ,lebrun portrait4 ,he turn$ at ! s\nd ( h] voice beh9d him4 ,h[ good ( y to come1 ,mr4 ,hodd]1 :5 y 7 s busy1 %e said1 tak+ 8 h& z %e seat$ h]self beh9d ! tea-kettle4 ,i want$ ! *ance to talk to y1 & x seem$ ! be/ way4 ,:at is t y h1 ,sot]'s book8 ,i p9k$ x up on ! table1 he expla9$4 ,!n y hav5't read x8 ,y ought to4 ,z a cl]gyman1 x w\ld int]e/ y4 ,religion treat$ f ! economic side1 y "k1 ! effect ( lack ( nutrition on "*4 ,v unor?odox1 ( c\rse4 ,i f9d t ,i h v little "t to read1 he said4 ,i sometimes take a book along 9 ! c>s4 ,y\r pr(ession is n s leisurely z x once 01 ,i (t5 ?9k x su* a pity4 ,b y1 too1 are pay+ ! p5alty ( complexity4 ,%e smil$ at him sympa!tically4 ,h[ is ,mr4 ,p>r8 ,i hav5't se5 him = sev]al weeks4 ,he seem$ well :5 ,i saw him la/1 repli$ ,hodd]4 ,he's a wond]ful man2 ! am\nt ( "w he accompli%es )\t app>5t ef=t is /up5d\s4 ,mrs4 ,con/able ca/ :at seem$ a t5tative glance at ! p[]ful head1 & h&$ him 8 tea4 ,i want$ to talk to y ab\t ,g]trude1 %e said4 ,he look$ un5light5$4 ,ab\t my daught]1 ,mrs4 ,w>r54 ,%e lives 9 ,new ,york1 y "k --on ,long ,isl&4 ,!n he _h rememb]$ some?+ he _h he>d4 ,yes1 he said4 ,%e met y1 at ! ,f]gusons'1 j = a mom5t1 :5 %e 0 out "h la/ autumn4 ,:at really nice & simple p ! ,f]gusons are1 ) all _! money6 ,v nice inde$1 he agre$1 puzzl$4 ,i h be5 sorry = !m 9 ! pa/1 %e w5t on ev5ly4 ,!y _h r a h>d "t--p]haps y may h he>d4 ,nobody appreciat$ !m4 ,!y 7 entomb$1 s to speak1 9 a hide\s big h\se ov] on ! ,s\? ,side1 :i* =tunately burn$ d[n1 & !n !y b\ght 9 ,p>k ,/reet1 & took a pew 9 ,/4 ,john's4 ,i suppose ! idea ( t huge dep>tm5t /ore 0 r difficult to get us$ to4 ,b ,i made up my m9d x 0 nons5se to draw ! l9e at dep>tm5t /ores1 especially s9ce ,mr4 ,f]guson's 0 su* a useful & rem>kable "o1 s ,i w5t across & call$4 ,mrs4 ,f]guson 0 s grateful1 x 0 almo/ pa!tic4 ,& %e's a v good fri5d--%e came "h ev]yday :5 ,g5evieve _h app5dicitis4 ,%e's a good woman1 ! rector said4 ,& ,nan1--,i adore ,nan1 ev]ybody adores ,nan4 ,%e rem9ds me ( "o ( ^? exquisite1 blue-ey$ dolls h] fa!r imports4 ,n[ if ,i 7 a ba*elor1 ,mr4 ,hodd]--6 ,mrs4 ,con/able left ! re/ to 8 imag9ation4 ,he smil$4 ,i'm afraid ,miss ,f]guson has h] own ideas4 ,runn+ ?r\gh ,hodd]'s m9d1 a tr\bl$ curr5t1 7 c]ta9 memories connect$ ) ,mrs4 ,w>r54 ,0 %e ! divorc$ daught]1 or 0 %e n8 ,b ,i 0 go+ to speak to y ab\t ,g]trude4 ,%e's _h su* a h>d "t1 poor de>1 my he>t has bl$ = h]4 ,!re 0 a b>ely p]ceptible tremor 9 ,mrs4 ,con/able's voice4 ,all t publicity1 & ! inevitable suff]+ connect$ ) x6 ,& no "o c "k ! mis]y %e w5t ?r\gh1 %e is s s5sitive4 ,b n[1 at la/1 %e has a *ance = happ9ess--! real ?+ has come4 ,! real ?+6 he e*o$4 ,yes4 ,%e's go+ to m>ry a spl5did man1 ,eldridge ,sumn]4 ,i "k ! family well4 ,!y h always /ood = public _s1 & ?is ,mr4 ,summ]1 al?\gh he is little ov] ?irty1 0 *airman ( t ,vice ,commission :i* made su* a /ir 9 ,new ,york a ye> ago4 ,he's a lawy]1 ) a f9e future1 & !y're madly 9 love4 ,& ,g]trude realizes n[1 aft] h] exp]i5ce1 ! true values 9 life4 ,%e 0 only a *ild :5 %e m>ri$ ,victor ,w>r54 ,b ,mr4 ,w>r51 ,hodd] manag$ to say1 is /ill liv+4 ,i sometimes wond]1 ,mr4 ,hodd]1 %e w5t on hurri$ly1 :e!r we c realize h[ diff]5t ! _w is today f :at x 0 tw5ty ye>s ago1 until some?+ ( ?is k9d is actually br\ght home to u4 ,i %all nev] =get h[ di/ress$1 h[ ov]:elm$ ,mr4 ,con/able & ,i 7 :5 ,g]trude got h] divorce4 ,i "k t !y are reg>d+ su* ?+s diff]5tly 9 ! ,ea/1 b out "h6--,we nev] dream$ t su* a ?+ c\ld happ5 to u1 & we reg>d$ x z a disgrace4 ,b gradually-- %e hesitat$1 & look$ at ! motionless cl]gyman --gradually ,i began to see ,g]trude's po9t ( view1 to und]/& t %e _h made a mi/ake1 t %e _h be5 too "y to compreh5d :at %e 0 do+4 ,victor ,w>r5 _h be5 ru9$ by money1 he wasn't fai?ful to h]1 b an extraord9>y ?+ has happ5$ 9 8 case4 ,he's m>ri$ aga91 & ,g]trude tells me he's absurdly happy1 & has two *ildr54 ,z he li/5$1 ,hodd]'s dom9at+ feel+ 0 amazem5t t su* a c\rse z h] daught] _h tak5 %\ld be condon$ by ?is middle-ag$ lady1 a prom95t memb] ( 8 congregation & ! wife ( a ve/ryman1 :o _h be5 nurtur$ & /eep$ 9 ,*ri/ianity4 ,& n only t3 ,mrs4 ,con/able 0 pla9ly def5d+ a fur!r /ep1 :i* 9 8 op9ion involv$ a brea* ( ! ,sev5? ,comm&m5t6 ,to h invad$ ^! prec9cts1 ! muddy1 turbul5t riv] ( individualism _h ris5 high] ?an he w\ld h ?\ght possible 4 4 4 4 ,wait6 %e implor$1 *eck+ 8 spee*1--%e _h be5 wat*+ him ) :at 0 pla9ly anxiety1 don't say any?+ yet4 ,i h a lett] "h :i* %e wrote me--at ! "t4 ,i kept x4 ,let me read a "p ( x to y1 t y may und]/& m fully ! trag$y ( x4 ,mrs4 ,con/able ?ru/ h] h& into h] lap & drew =? a ?ickly cov]$ %eet4 ,x 0 writt5 j aft] %e left him--x is an answ] to my prote/1 %e expla9$1 & began to read3 ,i "k ,i promis$ to love ,victor1 "m1 b h[ c "o promise to d a ?+ ov] :i* "o has no control8 ,i lov$ him aft] he /opp$ lov+ me4 ,he wasn't a bit suit$ to me--,i see t n[--he 0 attract$ by ! outside ( me1 & ,i nev] knew :at he 0 l until ,i m>ri$ him4 ,8 "* seem$ to *ange completely2 he grew morose & quick-temp]$ & secretive1 & no?+ ,i did pleas$ him4 ,we l$ a cat-&-dog life4 ,i nev] let y "k--& yet ,i see n[ we might h got along 9 any o!r relation%ip4 ,we 7 v fri5dly :5 we p>t$1 & ,i'm n a bit jeal\s because he c>es = ano!r woman :o ,i c see is mu* bett] suit$ to him4 ',i c't hone/ly regret leav+ him1 & ,i'm n consci\s ( hav+ done any?+ wrong4 ,i don't want to %ock y1 & ,i "k h[ t]ribly y & fa!r mu/ feel1 b ,i c see n[1 someh[1 t ,i _h to g ?r\gh ?is exp]i5ce1 t]rible z x 01 to f9d myself4 ,if x 7 ?irty ye>s ago1 be=e p began to be lib]al 9 su* matt]s1 ,i %udd] to ?9k :at might h become ( me4 ,i %\ld n[ be "o ( ^? t]rible wom5 betwe5 fifty & sixty :o h tri$ "o frivolity & excess aft] ano!r--b ,i'm n com+ to t6 ,& my fri5ds h really be5 awfully k9d1 & support$ me--ev5 ,victor's family4 ,don't1 don't ?9k t ,i'm n respectable6 ,i "k h[ y look at su* ?+s4' ,mrs4 ,con/able clos$ ! lett] abruptly4 ,i did look at su* ?+s 9 t way1 %e add$1 b ,i've *ang$4 ,t lett] help$ to *ange me1 & ! fact t x 0 ,g]trude :o _h be5 ?r\gh ?is4 ,if y only knew ,g]trude1 ,mr4 ,hodd]1 y c\ldn't possibly ?9k ( h] z any?+ b sweet & pure4 ,al?\gh ! ext5t ( ,hodd]'s acqua9tance ) ,mrs4 ,w>r5 _h be5 b five m9utes1 ! lett] _h surpris+ly ret\*$ to some?+ l brilliancy h] fad$ portrait1 ! gl[ 9 h] *eeks1 ! iris blue 9 h] eyes4 ,he recall$ ! little %ock he _h exp]i5c$ :5 told t %e 0 divorc$1 = h] appeal _h la9 9 h] v fre%ness1 h] frank & confid+ mann]4 ,%e 0 "o ( ^? wom5 :o seem to say1 ,"h ,i am1 y c't b l me3 ,& he _h respond$--he rememb]$ t--he _h lik$ h]4 ,& n[ h] lett]1 despite 8 resi/ance1 _h made its appeal1 s g5u9ely human 0 x1 s hone/1 al?\gh x express$ a philosophy he abhorr$4 ,mrs4 ,con/able 0 wat*+ him mutely1 /riv+ to read 9 8 grave eyes ! effect ( h] plead+s4 ,y are tell+ me ?is1 ,mrs4 ,con/able--:y8 he ask$4 ,because ,i wi%$ y to "k ! exact situation be=e ,i ask$ y1 z a great fav\r to me1 to ,mr4 ,con/able1 to--to m>ry h] 9 ,/4 ,john's4 ,( c\rse1 %e w5t on1 controll+ h] ris+ agitation1 & anticipat+ a sign ( prote/1 we %\ldn't expect to h any p1 ---& ,g]trude wasn't m>ri$ 9 ,/4 ,john's be=e2 t w$d+ 0 at ,passumset our sea%ore place4 ,oh1 ,mr4 ,hodd]1 be=e y answ]1 ?9k ( our feel+s1 ,mr4 ,con/able's & m9e6 ,if y c\ld see ,mr4 ,con/able1 y w\ld "k h[ he suff]s--?is ?+ has upset him m ?an ! divorce4 ,8 family h su* pride4 ,i am s worri$ ab\t him1 & he doesn't eat any?+ & looks s hagg>d4 ,i told him ,i w\ld see y & expla9 & t seem$ to com=t him a little4 ,%e is1 aft] all1 our *ild1 & we don't want to feel1 s f> z our *ur* is conc]n$1 t %e is an ,i%maelite2 we don't want to h ! spectacle ( h] hav+ to g ar\nd1 outside1 to f9d a cl]gyman--t w\ld be too dreadful6 ,i "k h[ /rict1 h[ unfl9*+ y are1 & ,i admire y = x4 ,b ?is is a special case4 ,%e paus$1 brea?+ deeply1 & ,hodd] gaz$ at h] ) pity4 ,:at he felt 0 m ?an pity2 he 0 exp]i5c+1 inde$1 b ) a deep] emotion1 some?+ ( t same confusion ( values into :i* ,eleanor ,goodri*'s visit _h ?r[n him4 ,at ! same "t x _h n escap$ 8 logical m9d t ,mrs4 ,con/able _h made h] f9al plea on ! score ( respectability4 ,x gives me great pa9 to h to refuse y1 he said g5tly4 ,oh1 don't1 %e said %>ply1 don't say t6 ,i c't h made ! case cle>4 ,y are too big1 too compreh5d+1 ,mr4 ,hodd]1 to h a h>d-&-fa/ rule4 ,!re mu/ be times--ext5uat+ circum/ances--& ,i believe ! canons make x optional = a cl]gyman to m>ry ! innoc5t p]son4 ,yes1 x is optional1 b ,i d1 n believe x %\ld be4 ,! "q is left to ! cl]gyman's' consci5ce4 ,accord+ to my view1 ,mrs4 ,con/able1 ! ,*ur*1 z ! ag5t ( ,god1 effects an indissoluble bond4 ,& mu* z ,i %\ld l to d any?+ 9 my p[] = y & ,mr4 ,con/able1 y h ask$ ! impossible1--believ+ z ,i d1 !re c be no special case1 no ext5uat+ circum/ance4 ,& x is my duty to tell y x is because p to-day are los+ _! beliefs t we h ?is l5i5t attitude t[>d ! sacr$ ?+s4 ,if !y /ill held ! conviction t m>riage is ( ,god1 !y w\ld lab\r to make x a success1 in/ead ( fly+ ap>t at ! fir/ sign ( :at !y *oose to call incompatibility4 ,b surely1 %e said1 we ought n to be puni%$ = our mi/akes6 ,i _c believe t ,*ri/ himself int5d$ t 8 religion %\ld be s inela/ic1 s h>d & fa/1 s cruel z y imply4 ,surely !re is en\gh unhapp9ess )\t mak+ m4 ,y speak ( incompatibility --b is x 9 all cases su* an insignificant matt]8 ,we are beg9n+ to realize 9 ^! days some?+ ( ! effects ( "* on "*1--det]iorat+ effects1 9 _m in/ances4 ,) c]ta9 p]sons we are lift$ up1 inspir$ to face ! battle ( life & ov]come its difficulties4 ,i h kn[n f9e m5 & wom5 ^: lives h be5 /ultifi$ or ru9$ because !y 7 badly mat$4 ,& ,i _c see t ! "* ( my own daught] has det]iorat$ because %e has got a divorce f a man ) :om %e 0 pr(\ndly out ( sympa?y--( h>mony4 ,on ! contr>y1 %e seems m ( a p]son ?an %e 02 %e has cle>]1 san] views ( life2 %e has made h] mi/ake & pr(it$ by x4 ,h] views *ang$--,victor ,w>r5's did n4 ,%e began to realize t "s o!r woman might h an influ5ce ov] 8 life--%e _h none1 simply because he did n love h]4 ,& love is n a ?+ we c compel4 ,y are mak+ x v h>d = me1 ,mrs4 ,con/able1 he said4 ,y are n[ advocat+ an individualism ) :i* ! ,*ur* c h no sympa?y4 ,*ri/ianity tea*es u t life is probation>y1 & if we seek to avoid ! trials s5t u1 in/ead ( ov]com+ !m1 we f9d ourselves f>!r ?an ev] f any solution4 ,we h to /& by our mi/akes4 ,if m>riage is to be a m]e trial ( compatibility1 :y g ?r\gh a c]emony ?an :i* !re is none m b9d+ 9 human & div9e in/itutions8 ,"o ei!r believes 9 x1 or "o does n4 ,&1 if belief be lack+1 ! /ate provides = ! legalization ( m>riages4 ,oh6 %e exclaim$4 ,if p]sons wi% to be m>ri$ 9 *ur* 9 ^! days m]ely because x is respectable1 if su* be _! only reason1 !y are committ+ a great wrong4 ,!y are tak+ an oa? be=e ,god ) res]vations1 kn[+ t public op9ion w release !m if ! m>riage does n fulfil _! expectations4 ,= a mom5t %e gaz$ at him ) p>t$ lips1 & press+ h] h&k]*ief to h] eyes began sil5tly to cry4 ,! sudd5 spectacle1 9 ?is condition1 ( a self-controll$ woman ( ! _w 0 inf9itely di/ress+ to ,hodd]1 ^: sympa?ies 7 ev5 m s5sitive ?an 79 h] attempt to play ^u !m7 %e _h suspect$4 4 4 ,%e 0 aw>e t he _h got to 8 feet1 & 0 /&+ beside h]1 speak+ ) an oddly p5etrat+ t5d]ness4 ,i did n mean to be h>%1 he said1 & x is n t ,i d n und]/& h[ y feel4 ,y h made my duty peculi>ly difficult4 ,%e rais$ up to him a face f :i* ! mask _h fall51 f :i* ! illusory look ( y\? _h fl$4 ,he turn$ away4 4 4 ,& pres5tly %e began to speak aga92 9 disconnect$ s5t5ces4 ,i s want h] to be happy--,i _c ?9k1 ,i w n ?9k t %e has wreck$ h] life--x w\ld be too unju/1 too cruel4 ,y _c "k :at x is to be a woman6 ,be=e ?is cry he 0 sil5t4 ,i don't ask any?+ ( ,god except t %e %all h a *ance1 & x seems to me t he is mak+ ! _w bett]--less h>% = wom54 ,he did n reply4 ,& pres5tly %e look$ up at him aga91 /eadfa/ly n[1 se>*+ly4 ,! b>ri]s ( ! conv5tions 7 d[n1 %e _h ca/ h] pride to ! w9ds4 ,he seem$ to read 9 h] a c]ta9 relief4 ,i am go+ to tell y some?+1 ,mr4 ,hodd]1 :i* y may ?9k /range1 b ,i h a reason = say+ x4 ,y are /ill a "y man1 & ,i feel in/9ctively t y h an unusual c>e] be=e y4 ,y int]e/$ me ! fir/ "t y /epp$ into ! pulpit ( ,/4 ,john's --& x w d me good to talk to y1 ?is once1 frankly4 ,y h reit]at$ to-day1 9 no unc]ta9 t]ms1 doctr9es :i* ,i once believ$1 :i* ,i 0 br\ght up to ?9k infallible4 ,b ,i h liv$ s9ce !n1 & life itself has made me d\bt !m4 ,i recognize 9 y a humanity1 a sympa?y & bread? :i* y are y\rself probably n aw>e (1 all ( :i* is great] ?an ! rule :i* y s confid5tly apply to fit all cases4 ,x seems to me t ,*ri/ did n int5d u to h su* rules4 ,he w5t beyond !m1 into ! _s4 ,"u ! conditions ( society--( civilization to-day1 mo/ m>riages are m]ely a matt] ( *ance4 ,ev5 judgm5t _c =esee ! developm5t ( "* br\ght ab\t by circum/ances1 by environm5t4 ,& 9 _m m>riages ,i h kn[n ab\t intimately bo? ! man & ! woman h miss$ ! mo/ preci\s ?+ t life c give some?+ ,i _c b ?9k--,god int5ds u to h4 ,y see1--%e smil$ at him sadly--,i am /ill a little ( an ideali/4 ,i miss$--! ?+ ,i am talk+ ab\t1 & x has be5 ! great sorr[ ( my life--n only on my acc\nt1 b on my husb&'s4 ,& s f> z ,i am conc]n$1 ,i am tell+ y ! tru? :5 ,i say ,i %\ld h be5 cont5t to h liv$ 9 a log cab9 if--if ! gift _h be5 m9e4 ,n all ! money 9 ! _w1 nor ! intellect1 nor ! philan?ropy--! s-call$ int]e/s ( life1 w satisfy me = its d5ial4 ,i am a disappo9t$ woman1 ,i sometimes ?9k a bitt] woman4 ,i c't believe t life is meant to be s4 ,^? en]gies h gone into ambition :i* %\ld h be5 absorb$ by--by some?+ m wor? :ile4 ,& ,i c see s pla9ly n[ t my husb& w\ld h be5 f>1 f> happi] ) ano!r k9d ( woman4 ,i drew him away f ! only "w he ev] enjoy$--8 pa9t+4 ,i d n say he ev] c\ld h be5 a great arti/1 b he _h a little ( ! div9e sp>k1 9 8 en?usiasm at lea/--9 8 assiduity4 ,i %all nev] =get our fir/ trip abroad1 aft] we 7 m>ri$--he 0 l a boy 9 ! gall]ies1 9 ! /udios4 ,i c\ld n und]/& x !n4 ,i _h no real sympa?y ) art1 b ,i tri$ to make sacrifices1 :at ,i ?\ght 7 ,*ri/ian sacrifices4 ,! motive p[] 0 lack+1 & no matt] h[ h>d ,i tri$1 ,i 0 only half-he>t$1 & he realiz$ x in/9ctively--no am\nt ( feign+ c\ld deceive him4 ,some?+ deep 9 me1 :i* 0 a "p ( my nature1 0 antagoni/ic1 /ultify+ to ! ess5tials ( 8 own be+4 ,( c\rse nei!r ( u saw t !n1 b ! results 7 n long 9 develop+4 ,to him1 art 0 a sacr$ ?+1 & x 0 impossible = me to reg>d x ) equal s]i\sness4 ,he drew into himself1--clos$ up1 z x 71--no long] discuss$ x4 ,i 0 hurt4 ,& :5 we came home he kept on 9 bus9ess--he /ill _h 8 fa!r's affairs to look aft]--b he _h a little workroom at ! top ( ! h\se :]e he us$ to g 9 ! aft]noon 4 4 4 4 ,x 0 a "q :i* "o ( u %\ld be w>p$1--:i* p]sonality %\ld be annihilat$1 s to speak1 & ,i 0 ! /rong]4 ,& z ,i look back1 ,mr4 ,hodd]1 :at occurr$ seems to me absolutely inevitable1 giv5 ! +r$i5ts1 z inevitable z a *emical process4 ,we 7 bo? /riv+ aga9/ ea* o!r1 & ,i won--at a trem5d\s co/4 ,! conflict1 "o might say1 0 subconsci\s1 in/9ctive r ?an delib]ate4 ,my attitude =c$ him back into bus9ess1 al?\gh we _h en\gh to live on v com=tably1 & !n ! scale ( life began to increase1 luxuries =m]ly un?\ght ( seem$ to become necessities4 ,& :ile x 0 /ill af> (f ,i saw a great wave roll+ t[>d u1 ! wave ( t new prosp]ity :i* ?reat5$ to subm]ge u1 & ,i seiz$ ! buoy fate _h plac$ 9 our h&s1--or r1 by sugge/ion1 ,i induc$ my husb& to seize x--8 "n4 ,i recogniz$ ! g5ius1 ! future ( ,eldon ,p>r at a "t :5 he 0 n yet indep5d5t & supreme1 :5 association ) a ,con/able meant mu* to him4 ,mr4 ,p>r made u1 z ! say+ goes4 ,ne$less to say2 money has n br\ght happ9ess1 b a ho/ ( h>d1 false ambitions :i* culm9at$ 9 ,g]trude's m>riage ) ,victor ,w>r54 ,i set my he>t on ! mat*1 help$ x 9 e1 way1 & until n[ no?+ b sorr[ has come ( x4 ,b my po9t--is ?is1--,i see s cle>ly1 n[ t x is too late1 t two excell5t p]sons may demoralize ea* o!r if !y are ill-mat$4 ,x may be possible t ,i _h ! g]ms ( false ambition 9 me :5 ,i 0 a girl1 yet ,i 0 consci\s only ( ! ideal :i* is 9 mo/ wom5's he>ts 4 4 4 4 ,y mu/ n ?9k t ,i h laid my s\l b>e 9 ! hope ( *ang+ y\r m9d 9 reg>d to ,g]trude4 ,i recognize cle>ly1 n[1 t t is impossible4 ,oh1 ,i "k y d n s misjudge me1 %e add$1 read+ 8 quick prote/ 9 8 face4 ,inde$1 ,i _c analyze my reasons = tell+ y some?+ ( :i* ,i h nev] spok5 to any "o else4 ,mrs4 ,con/able reg>d$ him fix$ly4 ,y are ! /ronge/ reason4 ,y h someh[ drawn x out ( me 4 4 4 4 ,& ,i suppose ,i wi% "s "o to pr(it by x4 ,y c1 ,mr4 ,hodd]1--,i feel sure ( t4 ,y may insi/ n[ t my argum5t aga9/ y\r pres5t conviction ( ! indissolubility ( m>riage is m]e individualism1 b ,i want y to ?9k ( :at ,i h told y1 n to answ] me n[4 ,i "k y\r argum5t by he>t1 t ,*ri/ian "* develops by submission1 by suff]+1 t x is ! woman's place to submit1 to efface h]self4 ,b ! root ( ! matt] goes deep] ?an t4 ,i am f> f deplor+ sacrifice1 yet common-s5se tells u t our sacrifice %\ld be guid$ by judgm5t1 t fooli% sacrifices are worse ?an useless4 ,& !re are times :5 ! v limitations ( our individuality --necess>y limitation's = u--prev5t our sacrifices f c\nt+4 ,i 0 wrong1 ,i grant y1 griev\sly wrong 9 ! c\rse ,i took1 ev5 ?\gh x 7 n consci\sly delib]ate4 ,b if my husb& _h be5 an arti/ ,i %\ld always h rema9$ sep>at$ f 8 real life by a limitation ,i _h no p[] to remove4 ,! m ,i tri$1 ! m app>5t my lack ( insight became to him1 ! m irritat$ he grew4 ,i /udi$ 8 sket*es1 ,i /udi$ ma/]pieces1 b x 0 all hopeless4 ,! ?+ wasn't 9 me1 & he knew x wasn't4 ,e rem>k made him quiv]4 ,! ,*ur*1 ,i ?9k1 w gr[ m lib]al1 mu/ gr[ m lib]al1 if x wi%es to keep 9 t\* ) p 9 an age :5 !y are ?9k+ out ^! que/ions = !mselves4 ,! law _c fit all cases1 ,i am sure ! ,gospel c4 ,& sometimes wom5 h an in/9ct1 a k9d ( second sight into p]sons1 ,mr4 ,hodd]4 ,i _c expla9 :y ,i feel t y h 9 y elem5ts ( gr[? :i* w ev5tually br+ y m into sympa?y ) ! po9t ( view ,i h set =?1 b ,i d feel x4 ,hodd] did n attempt to refute h]--%e _h1 inde$1 made discussion impossible4 ,%e knew 8 argum5ts1 z %e _h decl>$1 & he _h ! intellig5ce to realize t a repetition ( !m1 on 8 "p1 w\ld be useless4 ,%e br\ght home to him1 z nev] be=e1 a s5se ( ! anomali/ic position ( ! ,*ur* 9 ^! mod]n days1 ( its appall+ly less5$ weight ev5 ) its own memb]s4 ,z a successor ( ! ,apo/les1 he _h no p[] ov] ?is woman1 or v little2 he c\ld nei!r rebuke h]1 nor s5t5ce h] to p5ance4 ,%e recogniz$ 8 au?ority to m>ry h] daught]1 to baptize h] daught]'s *ildr51 b n to int]f]e 9 any way ) h] spiritual life4 ,x 0 z a p]sonality he _h mov$ h]--a p]sonality app>5tly n 9 h>mony ) 8 doctr9e4 ,wom5 _h h9t$ at ?is be=e4 ,& :ile ,mrs4 ,con/able _h n1 z %e p]ceiv$1 %ak5 8 conviction1 ! v vividness & unexpect$ness ( a confession f h]--_h /irr$ him to ! m>r[1 _h op5$ doors1 p]=ce1 :i* he1 himself _h m>k$ =bidd51 & giv5 him a glimpse beyond be=e he c\ld l[] 8 eyes4 ,0 !re1 aft] all1 some?+ 9 him t respond$ 9 spite ( himself8 ,he sat gaz+ at h]1 8 head b5t1 8 /rong h&s on ! arms ( ! *air4 ,we nev] c =esee h[ we may *ange1 he answ]$1 a light 9 8 eyes t 0 l a smile1 yet hav+ no sugge/ion ( levity4 ,& 8 voice--despite 8 disagreem5t--ma9ta9$ ! quality ( 8 sympa?y4 ,nei!r felt ! oddity1 !n1 ( ! abs5ce ( a j>r+ note4 ,y may be sure1 at lea/1 ( my confid5ce1 & ( my gratitude = :at y h told me4 ,8 tone beli$ ! =mality ( 8 spee*4 ,mrs4 ,con/able return$ 8 gaze 9 sil5ce1 & be=e words came aga9 to ei!r1 a /ep s\nd$ on ! ?re%old & ,mr4 ,con/able ent]$4 ,hodd] look$ at him ) a new vision4 ,8 face 0 inde$ l9$ & worn1 & d>k circles "h "u 8 eyes4 ,b at ,mrs4 ,con/able's ,"h's ,mr4 ,hodd]1 de>1 he came =w>d briskly to welcome ! cl]gyman4 ,h[ d y d8 he said cordially4 ,we don't see y v (t54 ,i h be5 tell+ ,mr4 ,hodd] t mod]n rectors ( big p>i%es h f> too _m duties1 said 8 wife4 ,& aft] a few m9utes ( desultory conv]sation1 ! rector left4 ,,*apt] ,,vi ,,wat*man1 ,,:at ,,( ,,! ,,night8 ,x 0 "o ( ^? moi/ nights ( spr+ :5 ! air is pung5t ) ! od\r ( ! s(t5$ e>?1 & ! g5tle brea?s t /irr$ ! curta9s 9 ,mr4 ,p>r's big d9+-room waft$1 f ! g>d51 ! p]fumes ( a reviv$ creation1--delici\s1 ho?\se smells4 ,at int]vals1 %[]s might be he>d patt]+ on ! walk outside4 ,! rector ( ,/4 ,john's 0 d9+ ) 8 great p>i%ion]4 ,"h inde$ 7 a subject = "s mod]n ma/]1 a *ance to picture = g5]ations to come an aspect ( a mighty age1 an age t may "s day be deem$ b a grotesque & anomali/ic survival ( a m anci5t logic2 a g>goyle c>v$ out ( *aos1 t be>s on its features a resemblance to ! pa/ & ! future4 ,our sc5e might almo/ be m$iaeval ) its encircl+ gloom1 ?r\gh :i* ! heavy tape/ries & %ad[y corn]s ( ! huge ap>tm5t may be dimly made out4 ,9 ! c5t]1 ! s(t r$ gl[ ( ! c&les1 ! gleam+ silv]1 ! %9+ clo?1 ! ,*ur* on "o side--& :at on ! o!r8 ,no "n giv5 x n[1 no royal "n1 b /ill ,p[]4 ,! two are /ill 9 apposition1 n yet 9 opposition1 b ! disc]n+ may p]*ance read a prophecy 9 ! sali5t features ( ! prie/4 ,! ,man ( ,p[] ( ! beg9n+ ( ! tw5tie? c5tury dem&s a subtl] analysis1 pres5ts an enigma to :i* ! immortal portraits ( =gott5 ,m$icis & ,capets give no clew4 ,imag9e1 if y c1 a ,lor5zo or a ,gr& ,l\is 9 a tightly-button$ frock coat6 ,!re mu/ be "s logical connection betwe5 ! habit & ! age1 s9ce crimson velvet & gold brocade w\ld h made ,eldon ,p>r m]ely ridicul\s4 ,he is by no means ridicul\s1 yet take him out ( ! sett+ & put him 9 ! /reet1 & y might pass him a doz5 times )\t notic+ him4 ,nature1 & p]haps unconsci\s art1 h provid$ him ) a protective ext]ior2 he is ! col\r ( 8 jungle4 ,aft] he has crippl$ y --if y survive--y w nev] =get him4 ,y w rememb] 8 eye1 :i* c be un%ea!d l a rapi]2 y w recall 8 lips z ! expression ( a rel5tless negative4 ,! significance ( ! slight bridge on ! n>r[ nose is less easy to def9e4 ,he is nei!r tall nor %ort2 8 face is clean-%av51 save = scanty1 unobtrusive r$di% tufts high on ! *eeks2 8 hair is ?94 ,x mu/ be borne 9 m9d1 h[ev]1 t our rector did n see him 9 8 jungle1 & p]haps 9 ! traditional nobility ( ! lion !re is a c]ta9 tru?4 ,an int]e/+ biography ( "s ( ! p[]ful ( ?is e>? might be writt5 f ! po9t ( view ( ! confessor or ! physician1 :o f9d some?+ to love1 some?+ to pity1 & no?+ to fe>--?us rev]s+ ! s5tim5ts ( ! public4 ,yet ! fri5d%ip betwe5 ,john ,hodd] & ,eldon ,p>r defi$ any def9ite analysis on ! rector's "p1 & 0 p]haps ! /range/--& mo/ disquiet+ elem5t t _h z yet come into ,hodd]'s life4 ,! nature ( 8 intimacy ) ! bank]1 if intimacy x might be call$1 might h surpris$ 8 o!r p>i%ion]s if !y c\ld h be5 hidd5 spectators ( "o ( ^! d9n]s4 ,!re 7 long sil5ces :5 ! m$ium ( communication1 t5u\s at be/1 seem$ to snap1 & ! two sat gaz+ at ea* o!r z f m\nta9 peaks across impassable valleys4 ,) all ! w 9 ! _w1 _! s\ls lo/ t\*1 ?\gh ! s5se 9 ! cl]gyman ( ! o!r's vague ye>n+ = human companion%ip 0 nev] abs5t4 ,x 0 ?is ye>n+ t attract$ ,hodd]1 :o f\nd 9 x a deep pa?os4 ,aft] "o ( ^! int]vals ( sil5ce1 ,eldon ,p>r look$ up f 8 cl>et4 ,i congratulate y1 ,hodd]1 on ! /& y took 9 reg>d to ,con/able's daught]1 he said4 ,i didn't suppose x 0 kn[n1 answ]$ ! rector1 9 surprise4 ,con/able told me4 ,i h reason to believe t he doesn't sympa?ize ) 8 wife 9 h] attitude on ?is matt]4 ,x's pull$ him d[n1 --y've notic$ t he looks badly8 ,yes1 said ! rector4 ,he did n c>e to discuss ! affair2 he _h hop$ x w\ld n become kn[n2 & he %unn$ ! congratulations ( ,gordon ,att]bury1 :i* 9 su* case w\ld be inevitable4 ,& 9 spite ( ! conviction t he _h done 8 duty1 ! memory ( 8 talk ) ,mrs4 ,con/able nev] fail$ to make him1 uncom=table4 ,exasp]ation crept into ,mr4 ,p>es voice4 ,i c't ?9k :at's got into wom5 9 ^! times--at ,mrs4 ,con/able's age !y ought to "k bett]4 ,no?+ re/ra9s !m4 ,!y h rea*$ a po9t :]e !y don't ev5 respect ! ,*ur*4 ,& :5 t happ5s1 x is s]i\s inde$4 ,! ,*ur* is ! gov]nor on our social eng9e1 & x is suppos$ to impose a re/ra9t ^u ! lawless4 ,hodd] c\ld n refra9 f smil+ a little at ! bank]'s conception4 ,doesn't t r$uce ! ,*ur* some:]e to ! level ( ! police =ce8 he ask$4 ,n at all1 said ,eldon ,p>r1 ^: feel+s seem$ to be ris+4 ,i am sorry = ,con/able4 ,he feels ! %ame ( ?is ?+ ke5ly1 & he ought to g away = a :ile to "o ( ^! quiet resorts4 ,i (f]$ him my c>4 ,sometimes ,i ?9k t wom5 h no morals4 ,at any rate1 ?is mod]n notion ( giv+ !m _! lib]ty is %e] folly4 ,look :at !y h done ) x6 ,in/ead ( rema9+ at home1 :]e !y belong1 !y are go+ out into ! _w & turn+ x topsy-turvy4 ,& if a man doesn't let !m h a free h&1 !y get a divorce & m>ry "s idiot :o w4 ,mr4 ,p>r pu%$ back 8 *air & rose abruptly1 />t+ = ! door4 ,! rector foll[$ him1 =cibly /ruck by ! unusual bitt]ness 9 8 tone4 ,if ,i h spok5 /rongly1 x is because ,i feel /rongly1 he said 9 a /range1 ?ick5$ voice4 ,hodd]1 h[ w\ld y l to live 9 ?is h\se--alone8 ,! rector look$ d[n ^u him ) ke51 compreh5d+ eyes1 & saw ,eldon ,p>r z he only1 ( all m51 _h se5 him4 ,= he himself did n und]/& 8 own /range p[] ( draw+ =? ! _s f its %ell1 ( compell+ ! inn]1 suff]+ ?+ to reveal itself4 ,?is poison1 ,eldon ,p>r w5t on unev5ly1 has eat5 into my own family4 ,my daught]1 :o might h be5 a com=t & a companion1 s9ce %e *ose n to m>ry1 0 c>ri$ away by x1 & ?\ght x incumb5t ^u h] to h a c>e] ( h] own4 ,& n[ ,i h a *oice ( ?irty rooms1 & n a s\l to %>e !m )4 ,sometimes1 at night1 ,i make up my m9d to sell ?is h\se4 ,b ,i c't d x--some?+ holds me back1 hope1 sup]/ition1 or :atev] y've a m9d to call x4 ,y've nev] se5 all ( ! h\se1 h y8 he ask$4 ,! rector sl[ly %ook 8 head1 & ! movem5t might h be5 "o t he w\ld h us$ 9 acquiesc5ce to ! odd :im ( a *ild4 ,mr4 ,p>r l$ ! way up ! wide /aircase to ! corridor above1 trav]s+ *amb] aft] *amb]1 turn+ on ! lights4 ,^! 7 my wife's rooms1 he said1 !y are j z %e left !m4 ,& ^! my daught] ,alison's1 :5 %e *ooses to pay me a visit4 ,i didn't realize t ,i %\ld h to sp5d ! la/ ye>s ( my life alone4 ,& ,i meant1 :5 ,i gave my wife a h\se1 to h x ! be/ 9 ! city4 ,i sp>$ no?+ on x1 z y see1 nei!r c>e nor money4 ,i _h ! be/ ar*itect ,i c\ld f9d1 & us$ ! be/ mat]ial4 ,& :at good is x to me8 ,only a rem9d]--( :at might h be54 ,b ,i've got a boy1 ,hodd]1--,i don't "k :e!r ,i've ev] spok5 ( him to y--,pre/on4 ,he's gone away1 too4 ,b ,i've always _h ! hope t he might come back & get dec5tly m>ri$1 & live1 "h4 ,t's :y ,i /ay4 ,i'll %[ y 8 picture4 ,!y climb$ to ! ?ird floor1 & :ile ,mr4 ,p>r way se>*+ = ! electric swit*1 a lightn+ fla% broke ov] ! =e/s ( ! p>k1 prematurely reveal+ ! room4 ,x 0 a boy's room1 hung ) photographs ( s*ool & college crews & teams & gr\ps ( intimates1 ) deep w9d[ seats1 & drap$ p5nons ( ,h>v>d ,univ]sity ov] ! fireplace4 ,eldon ,p>r turn$ to "o ( ! gr\ps on ! w1 ! e>lie/ tak5 at s*ool4 ,!re he is1 he said1 po9t+ out a sunny little face at ! bottom1 a boy ( twelve1 b>ehead$1 ) %ort1 crisp+ yell[ hair1 smil+ lips & laugh+ eyes4 ,& "h he is aga91 indicat+ ano!r gr\p4 ,?us he trac$ him ?r\gh succe$+ ye>s until !y came to ^? ( college4 ,!re he is1 said ! rector4 ,i ?9k ,i c pick him out n[4 ,yes2 t's ,pre/on1 said 8 fa!r1 />+ h>d at ! picture4 ,! face _h develop$1 ! body _h gr[n almo/ to man's e/ate1 b ! h9t ( crispness 0 /ill 9 ! hair1 ! mis*iev\s laught] 9 ! eyes4 ,! rector gaz$ e>ne/ly at ! face1 rememb]+ 8 own boyhood1 8 own y\?1 8 m9d dwell+1 too1 on :at he _h he>d ( ! orig9al ( ! portrait4 ,:at _h happ5$ to ! boy1 to br+ to naught ! fair promise ( ?is e>li] pres5tm5t8 ,he 0 ar\s$ by ! voice ( ,eldon ,p>r1 :o _h sunk into "o ( ! lea!r *airs4 ,i c see him n[1 he 0 say+1 z he us$ to come runn+ d[n t long flight ( /one /eps 9 ,ransome ,/reet to meet me :5 ,i came home4 ,su* laught]6 ,& once1 9 8 eag]ness1 he fell & cut 8 =ehead4 ,i %all nev] =get h[ ,i felt4 ,& :5 ,i pick$ him up he tri$ to laugh /ill1 ) ! te>s roll+ d[n 8 face4 ,y "k ! way a *ild's brea? cat*es1 ,hodd]8 ,he 0 always laugh+4 ,& h[ he us$ to cl+ to me1 & beg me to take him out1 & %[ su* an int]e/ 9 ev]y?+6 ,he 0 a bright boy1 a rem>kable *ild1 ,i ?\ght1 b ,i suppose x 0 my fooli%ness4 ,he analyz$ all he saw1 & :5 he us$ to g (f 9 my c>1 ,br5nan1 ! eng9e]1 w\ld always beg to h him 9 ! cab4 ,& su* sympa?y6 ,he knew 9 an in/ant :5 ,i 0 worri$4 ,i _h dreams ( :at t boy w\ld become1 b ,i 0 too sure ( x4 ,i w5t on do+ o!r ?+s--!re 7 s _m ?+s1 & ,i 0 a slave to !m4 ,& be=e ,i knew x1 he'd gone (f to s*ool4 ,t 0 ! ye> ,i mov$ up "h1 & my wife di$4 ,& aft] t1 all seem$ to g wrong4 ,p]haps ,i 0 too sev]e2 p]haps !y didn't und]/& him at bo>d+-s*ool2 p]haps ,i didn't pay en\gh att5tion to him4 ,at any rate1 ! fir/ ?+ ,i knew 8 :ole nature seem$ to h *ang$4 ,he got into scrape aft] scrape at ,h>v>d1 & lat] he came )9 an ace ( m>ry+ a woman4 ,he's my weakness to-day4 ,i c say no to ev]ybody 9 ! _w b to him1 & :5 ,i try to rememb] him z he us$ to come d[n ^? /eps on ,ransome ,/reet 4 4 4 4 ,he nev] knew h[ mu* ,i c>$--t :at ,i 0 do+ 0 all = him1 build+ = him1 t he might c>ry on my "w4 ,i _h dreams ( develop+ ?is city1 ! great ,s\?we/1 & aft] ,i _h gone ,pre/on 0 to br+ !m to fruition4 ,= "s reason ,i nev] 0 able to tell him all ?is--z ,i am tell+ y4 ,! words w\ld n come4 ,we _h gr[n ap>t4 ,& he seem$ to ?9k--,god kn[s :y6--he seem$ to ?9k ,i dislik$ him4 ,i _h ,langmaid talk to him1 & o!r m5 ,i tru/$--tell him :at an unp>allel$ opportunity he _h to be ( use 9 ! _w4 ,once ,i ?\ght ,i _h him />t$ /raight & !n a woman came along--(f ! /reets1 or little bett]4 ,he insi/$ on m>ry+ h] & wreck+ 8 life1 & :5 ,i got h] out ( ! way1 z any fa!r w\ld h done1 he left me4 ,he has nev] =giv5 me4 ,mo/ ( ! "t ,i hav5't ev5 ! satisfaction ( kn[+ 7 he is--,london1 ,p>is1 or ,new ,york4 ,i try n to ?9k ( :at he does4 ,i ought to cut him (f1--,i c't d x--,i c't d x1 ,hodd]--he's my "o weakness /ill4 ,i'm afraid--he'd s9k out ( sight entirely1 & x's ! "o hold ,i h left on him4 ,eldon ,p>r paus$1 ) a groan t betok5$ n only a poignant sorr[1 b also some?+ ( relief--= ! tortures ( n be+ able to unburd5 himself _h pla9ly become intol]able4 ,he glanc$ up & met ! compassionate eyes ( ! rector1 :o /ood lean+ aga9/ ! mantel4 ,) ,alison x 0 diff]5t1 he said4 ,i nev] und]/ood h]--ev5 :5 %e 0 a *ild--& ,i us$ to look at h] & wond] t %e c\ld be my daught]4 ,%e 0 moody1 int5se1 ) a ye>n+ = affection ,i've s9ce sometimes ?\ght--%e c\ld n express4 ,i did n feel ! ne$ ( affection 9 ^? days1 s absorb$ 0 ,i 9 build+ up1 --s absorb$ & driv51 y might say4 ,i suppose ,i mu/ accept my puni%m5t z j4 ,b ! *ild 0 always di/ant ) me1 & ,i always rememb] h] 9 rebellion2 a d>k little ?+ ) a quiv]+ lip1 hair awry1 & eyes t fla%$ ?r\gh h] te>s4 ,%e w\ld take any am\nt ( puni%m5t r ?an admit %e _h be5 9 ! wrong4 ,i recall %e _h once a fox t]ri] t nev] left h]1 t f\ght all ! dogs 9 ! neighb\rhood & de/roy$ ! rugs & cu%ions 9 ! h\se4 ,i got rid ( x "o summ] :5 %e 0 at ! sea1 & ,i ?9k %e nev] =gave me4 ,! fir/ "q %e ask$ :5 %e came home 0 = t dog--,mis*ief1 8 "n 0--= ,mis*ief4 ,i told h] :at ,i _h done4 ,x took m c\rage ?an ,i _h ?\ght4 ,%e w5t to h] room1 lock$ h]self 91 & /ay$ !re1 & we c\ldn't get h] to come out = two days2 %e w\ldn't ev5 eat4 ,p]haps %e 0 jeal\s ( ,pre/on1 b %e nev] ackn[l$g$ x4 ,:5 %e 0 little %e us$ once 9 a :ile to come %yly & sit on my lap1 & look at me )\t say+ any?+4 ,i hadn't ! slighte/ notion :at 0 9 ! *ild's m9d1 & h] res]ve increas$ z %e grew old]4 ,%e seem$ to h develop$ a sort ( philosophy ( h] own ev5 be=e %e w5t away to s*ool1 & to h c]ta9 /rongly def9$ ta/es4 ,%e lik$1 = in/ance1 to li/5 to music1 & = t v reason w\ld nev] le>n to play4 ,we c\ldn't make h]1 z a *ild4 ,bad music1 %e said1 (f5d$ h]4 ,%e pa9t$1 %e 0 passionately fond ( fl[]s1 & h] room 0 always fill$ ) !m4 ,:5 %e came back f s*ool to live ) me1 %e built a /udio up/airs4 ,aft] ! fir/ w9t]1 %e didn't c>e to g out mu*4 ,by s pron\nc$ a "*1 "y m5 9 g5]al 7 n attract$1 b !re 7 a few :o fell "u a sort ( spell4 ,i c ?9k ( no o!r words /rong en\gh1 & ,i us$ to wat* !m :5 !y came "h ) a curi\s int]e/4 ,i didn't approve ( all ( !m4 ,alison w\ld dismiss !m or ignore !m or be k9d to !m z %e happ5$ to feel1 yet x didn't seem to make any diff]5ce4 ,"o ,i suspect %e 0 9 love ) --a fell[ )\t a c5t4 ,!n !re 0 ,b$loe ,hubbell4 ,i h reason en\gh to be ?ankful n[ t %e didn't c>e = him4 ,!y've made him presid5t1 y "k1 ( ?is idiotic ,municipal ,league1 z !y call x4 ,b 9 ^? days he hadn't develop$ any nons5se1 he 0 mak+ a good />t at ! b>1 & 0 well (f4 ,8 fa!r 0 ,elias ,hubbell1 :o gave ! ,botanical ,g>d5 to ! city4 ,i want$ h] to m>ry ,gordon ,att]bury4 ,he hung on long] ?an any ( !m--five or six ye>s2 b %e w\ldn't he> ( x4 ,t 0 h[ ! real diff]5ce develop$ betwe5 u1 al?\gh ! tr\ble 0 deep root$1 = we nev] really und]/ood ea* o!r4 ,i _h set my he>t on x1 & p]haps ,i 0 too dictatorial & insi/5t4 ,i don't "k4 ,i meant ! be/ = h]1 ,god kn[s 4 4 4 4 ,gordon nev] got ov] x4 ,x dri$ him up4 4 4 4 4 ,irritation 0 creep+ back into ! bank]'s voice4 ,!n x came into ,alison's head t %e want$ to 'make some?+ ( h] life1'--z %e express$ x4 ,%e said %e 0 wa/+ h]self1 & began go+ to lectures ) a lot ( faddi% wom51 became saturat$ ) ^! nons5sical ideas ab\t h] sex t are do+ s mu* h>m n[adays4 ,i suppose ,i 0 wrong 9 my treatm5t f ! fir/4 ,i nev] knew h[ to h&le h]1 b we grew l fl9t & /eel4 ,i'll say ?is = h]1 %e kept quiet en\gh1 b %e us$ to sit opposite me at ! table1 & ,i knew all ! "t :at %e 0 ?9k+ (1 & !n ,i'd break out4 ,( c\rse %e'd def5d h]self1 b %e _h h] temp] "u bett] control ?an ,i4 ,%e want$ to g away = a ye> or two & /udy l&scape g>d5+1 & !n come back & e/abli% h]self 9 an (fice "h4 ,i w\ldn't li/5 to x4 ,& "o morn+1 :5 %e 0 late to breakfa/1 ,i deliv]$ an ultimatum4 ,i gave h] a lecture on a woman's place & a woman's duty1 & told h] t if %e didn't m>ry %e'd h to /ay "h & live quietly ) me1 or ,i'd dis9h]it h]4 ,hodd] _h become absorb$ 9 ?is portrait ( ,alison ,p>r1 drawn by h] fa!r ) su* unconsci\s vividness4 ,& !n8 he ask$4 ,9 spite ( ! tone ( bitt]ness 9 :i* he _h spok51 ,eldon ,p>r smil$4 ,x 0 a reluctant tribute to 8 daught]4 ,i got an ultimatum 9 return1 he said4 ,alison %\ld h be5 a man4 ,8 ang] m\nt$ quickly z he recall$ ! sc5e4 ,%e said %e _h ?\ght x all out3 t our relation%ip _h become impossible2 t %e _h no d\bt x 0 l>gely h] fault1 b t 0 ! way %e 0 made1 & %e c\ldn't *ange4 ,%e _h1 naturally1 an affection = me z h] fa!r1 b x 0 v pla9 we c\ldn't get along toge!r3 %e 0 conv9c$ t %e _h a "r to individual fre$om1--z %e spoke ( x1--to develop h]self4 ,%e knew1 if %e cont9u$ to live ) me on ! t]ms ,i dem&$1 t h] "* w\ld det]iorate4 ,c]ta9 k9ds ( sacrifice %e 0 capable (1 %e ?\ght1 b :at ,i ask$ w\ld be a useless "o4 ,p]haps ,i didn't realize x1 b x 0 slav]y4 ,slav]y6 he repeat$1 ! k9d ( slav]y h] "m _h liv$ 4 4 4 4 ,he took a turn ar\nd ! room4 ,s f> z money 0 conc]n$1 %e 0 indiff]5t to x4 ,%e _h en\gh f h] "m to la/ until %e began to make m4 ,%e w\ldn't take any f me 9 any case4 ,i laugh$1 yet ,i h nev] be5 s angry 9 my life4 ,nor 0 x :olly ang]1 ,hodd]1 b a que] tangle ( feel+s ,i c't describe4 ,!re 0 affection mix$ up 9 x--,i realiz$ aft]w>d--b ,i long$ to take h] & %ake h] & lock h] up until %e %\ld come to h] s5ses3 ,i c\ldn't4 ,i didn't d>e4 ,i 0 helpless4 ,i told h] to g4 ,%e didn't say any?+ m1 b !re 0 a det]m9$ look 9 h] eyes :5 %e kiss$ me z ,i left = ! (fice4 ,i sp5t a mis]able day4 ,m ?an once ,i made up my m9d to g home1 b pride /opp$ me4 ,i really didn't ?9k %e meant :at %e said4 ,:5 ,i got back to ! h\se 9 ! aft]noon %e _h left = ,new ,york4 ,!n ,i began to look =w>d to ! "t :5 h] money w\ld give out4 ,%e w5t to ,p>is ) ano!r "y woman1 & /udi$ !re1 & !n to ,engl&4 ,%e came back to ,new ,york1 hir$ an ap>tm5t & a /udio1 & has made a success4 ,! rector seem$ to detect an unwill+ note ( pride at ! magic ^w4 ,x isn't ! k9d ( success ,i ?9k mu* (1 b x's :at %e />t$ out to d4 ,%e comes out to see me1 once 9 a :ile1 & %e design$ t g>d54 ,he halt$ 9 front ( ! cl]gyman4 ,i suppose y ?9k x's /range1 my tell+ y ?is1 he said4 ,x has come to ! po9t1 he decl>$ vehem5tly1 :]e x relieves me to tell somebody1 & y seem to be a man ( discretion & common-s5se4 ,hodd] look$ d[n into ,mr4 ,p>r's face1 & 0 sil5t4 ,p]haps he recogniz$1 z nev] be=e1 ! futility ( ! traditional words ( com=t1 ( rebuke4 ,he beheld a s\l 9 torture1 & realiz$ ) sudd5 %>pness h[ limit$ 0 8 k ( ! conditions ( exi/5ce ( 8 own "t4 ,ev]y:]e individualism re>$ its ugly head1 ev]y:]e x seem$ plausible to plead ju/ification2 & once m he enc\nt]$ t incompatibility ( :i* ,mrs4 ,con/able _h spok56 ,he might blame ! son1 blame ! daught]1 yet he c\ld n condemn !m utt]ly 4 4 4 4 ,"o ?+ he saw cle>ly1 t ,eldon ,p>r _h slipp$ into :at 0 /ill1 = him1 a mean+less hell4 ,! bank]'s mann] sudd5ly *ang$1 rev]t$ to :at x _h be54 ,he arose4 ,i've tri$ to d my duty z ,i saw x1 & x comes to ?is--t we :o h sp5t ! be/ ye>s ( our lives 9 /riv+ to develop ?is c\ntry h no ?anks f our *ildr5 or f any "o else4 ,) 8 h& on ! electric swit*1 he fac$ ,hodd] almo/ defiantly z he spoke ^! words1 & sudd5ly snapp$ (f ! light1 z ?\gh ! matt] admitt$ ( no discussion4 ,9 semi-d>kness !y grop$ d[n ! upp] flight ( /airs 4 4 4 4 ,,*apt] ,,vii ,,! ,,k+doms ,,( ,,! ,,_w ,i ,:5 summ] arriv$1 ! birds ( brilliant plumage ( ,mr4 ,hodd]'s flock arose & flew lightly away1 ?us rev]s+ ! seasons4 ,only ! sob]] ones came flutt]+ into ! cool *ur* out ( ! bl9d+ heat1 & settl$ "h & !re ?r\gh\t ! nave4 ,! ample ,mr4 ,bradley1 p]spir+ 9 an alpaca coat1 took up ! meagre collection on ! "r ( ! c5tre aisle2 = ,mr4 ,p>r1 prop]ly h]ald$1 _h gone abroad on "o ( ^? p]iodical1 ?\gh lonely t\rs t s5t anticipatory %iv]s ( delight d[n ! sp9es ( =eign picture-deal]s4 ,! fai?ful ,gordon ,att]bury 0 wor%ipp+ at ! sea1 & ev5 ,mr4 ,con/able & ,mr4 ,plimpton1 :5 recall$ to ! city by f9ancial c>es1 succumb$ to ! pagan influ5ce ( ! sun1 & 7 usually to be f\nd on ,sunday morn+s on ! wide v]&a ( ! c\ntry club1 ) glasses conta9+ liquid & ice beside !m1 & surr\nd$ by heaps ( newspap]s4 ,to judge by ,/4 ,john's1 ! city 0 empty4 ,b on occasions1 be=e he himself some:at t>dily dep>t$1--drawn ?i!r by a morbid ?\gh impell+ attraction1 ,hodd] occasionally walk$ ?r\gh ,dalton ,/reet ( an ev5+4 ,if n 9 ,/4 ,john's1 summ] 0 ! season 9 ,dalton ,/reet4 ,x flung op5 its doors & w9d[s & mov$ out on ! /eps & ! pavem5ts1 & ev5 on ! asphalt2 & ! music ( its cafes & dance-halls ?robb$ fev]i%ly ?r\gh ! hot nights4 ,dalton ,/reet resort$ nei!r to c\ntry club nor *ur*4 ,mr4 ,mc,crae1 ,hodd]'s assi/ant1 seem$ to reg>d ^! annual ph5om5a ) a grim philosophy1--a relic1 p]haps1 ( ! ,calv9i/ic det]m9ism ( 8 ance/ors4 ,he prea*$ ! same indef9ite s]mons1 ) ! same imp]turbability1 to ! dw9dl$ congregations 9 summ] & ! enl>g$ ones 9 w9t]4 ,b ,hodd] 0 capable ( no su* resignation --if resignation x 71 = ! self-conta9$ assi/ant cont9u$ to be an enigma2 & x 0 n )\t compunction t he left1 ab\t ! middle ( ,july1 on 8 own vacation4 ,he 0 tir$1 & yet he seem$ to h accompli%$ no?+ 9 ?is fir/ ye> ( ! city p>i% :]e( he _h dream$4 ,& x 01 no d\bt1 = t v reason t he 0 consci\s ( a depress+ exhau/ion z 8 tra9 roll$ ea/w>d ov] t same high bridge t spann$ ! hot & muddy wat]s ( ! riv]4 ,he felt a fugitive4 ,9 no mon?s s9ce he _h left ! !ological sem9>y1 _h he seem+ly accompli%$ s little2 9 no mon?s _h he _h s magnific5t an opportunity4 ,aft] he _h rea*$ ! peaceful hills at ,brem]ton--:]e he _h gone on ,mrs4 ,:itely's invitation--he began to look back ^u ! spr+ & w9t] z a k9d ( mad nightm>e1 a p]iod ( ceaseless1 di/ract$1 & dissipat$ activity1 ( ru%+ hi!r & ?i!r ) no results4 ,he _h be5 aw>e ( invisible b>ri]s1 re/rict+1 hemm+ him 9 on all sides4 ,!re _h be5 no "t = reflection2 & n[ t he _h a brea?+ space1 he 0 unable to see h[ he might reorganize 8 "w 9 ord] to make x m effici5t4 ,!re 7 o!r p]plexities1 br\ght ab\t by ! glimpses he _h _h into ! lives & beliefs--or r unbeliefs--( 8 new p>i%ion]s4 ,& sometimes1 9 an unwont$ mom5t ( pessimism1 he ask$ himself :y !y ?\ght x necess>y to keep all t ma*9]y go+ :5 x _h s little app>5t effect on _! lives8 ,he sat wi/fully 9 ! *ancel ( ! little ,brem]ton *ur* & look$ into ! famili> faces ( ^? he _h f\nd 9 x :5 he came to x1 & ( ^? he _h br\ght into x1 wond]+ :y he _h be5 fooli% en\gh to ?9k himself end[$ = ! l>g] "w4 ,"h1 he _h be5 a factor1 a =ce 9 ! community1 _h ent]$ into its life & affections4 ,:at 0 he !re8 ,nor did x t5d to ease 8 m9d t he 0 treat$ z "o :o has pass$ on to high] ?+s4 ,i 0 afraid y'd "w too h>d1 said ,mrs4 ,:itely1 9 h] mo!rly way4 ,i w>n$ y aga9/ x1 ,mr4 ,hodd]4 ,y nev] sp>$ y\rself1 b 9 a big city p>i% x's diff]5t4 ,b y've made su* a success1 ,nelson tells me1 & ev]ybody likes y !re4 ,i knew !y w\ld1 ( c\rse4 ,t is our only com=t 9 los+ y1 t y h gone to ! great] "w4 ,b we d miss y4 ,,ii ,! air ( ,brem]ton1 & lat] ! air ( ,b> ,h>bor _h a c]ta9 reviv+ effect4 ,& ,john ,hodd]1 al?\gh he might be ca/ d[n1 _h nev] once ent]ta9$ ! notion ( surr5d]4 ,he 0 incl9$ to attribute ! depression ?r\gh :i* he _h pass$1 ! disappo9tm5t he _h und]gone z a j puni%m5t = an ov]abundance ( ego1--only ,hodd] us$ ! !ological t]m = ! same s94 ,_h he n1 aft] all1 lab\r$ l>gely = 8 own glory1 & n ,gods8 ,_h he ev] =gott5 himself8 ,_h ! idea ev] be5 f> f 8 ?\ghts t x 0 he1 ,john ,hodd]1 :o w\ld build up ! p>i% ( ,/4 ,john's into a liv+ organization ( fai? & works8 ,! curi\s ?+ 0 t he _h ! p[]1 & save 9 mom5ts ( we>9ess he felt x 9 him4 ,he mu/ try to rememb] always t ?is p[] 0 f ,god4 ,b :y _h he be5 unable to apply x8 ,& !re rema9$ di/urb+ly 9 8 memory c]ta9 phrases ( ,mrs4 ,con/able's1 su* z elem5ts ( gr[?4 ,he w\ld *ange1 %e _h said2 & he _h appe>$ to h] z "o ) dep?s4 ,unsuspect$ dep?s--pockets t held ! /eam1 :i* 0 increas+ 9 pressure4 ,at ,brem]ton1 x _h n ga!r$ 9 ! pockets1 he _h us$ x all--all _h c\nt$2 b 9 ! fev]i%1 ceaseless activity ( ! city p>i% he _h nev] once felt t int5se satisfaction ( empty+ himself1 nor1 ! sweet we>9ess t foll[s x4 ,8 seem$ ! we>9ess ( futility4 ,& introspection 0 reveal+ a crack--aft] s _m ye>s--9 t self t he _h believ$ to be s /rongly weld$4 ,su* 0 ! /ra9 ( ! p5t-up =ce4 ,he recogniz$ ! dang]-signal4 ,! same ph5om5on _h driv5 him into ! ,*ur*1 :]e ! /eam _h f\nd an outlet--until n[4 ,& yet1 s f> z 8 exam9ation w5t1 he _h n lo/ 8 beliefs1 b ! p[] ( communicat+ !m to o!rs4 ,brem]ton1 & ! sight ( ano!r c>ry+ on ! "w 9 :i* he _h be5 happy1 weigh$ ^u him1 & ,b> ,h>bor (f]$ di/raction4 ,mrs4 ,l>rabbee _h n hesitat$ to rem9d him ( 8 promise to visit h]4 ,if ! gall]y ( portraits ( ! congregation ( ,/4 ,john's 7 to be pa9t$1 ?is lady's1 at ! age ( ?irty1 w\ld n be ! lea/ int]e/+4 ,x w\ld h be5 out ( place 9 no ance/ral hall1 & _m ( h] fri5ds 7 surpris$1 aft] h] husb&'s dea?1 t %e did n *oose "o :]e9 to hang x4 ,%e might h4 ,= %e 0 ! qu9tess5ce ( t fem99e product ( our c\ntry at :i* ,europe has nev] ceas$ to wond]1 & to give h] hi/ory w\ld no m acc\nt = h] ?an ! process ( manufacture expla9s ! mo/ delicate ( sc5ts4 ,h] poise1 h] quick detection ( %am 9 o!rs n s =tunate1 h] absolute conviction t all ?+s 7 z !y ought to be2 h] *>ity1 h] int]e/ 9 its recipi5ts2 h] smile1 :i* 0 k9dness itself2 h] delicate features1 h] :ite sk9 ) its natural bloom2 ! grace ( h] movem5ts1 & h] hair1 :i* _h a diff]5t color 9 *ang+ lights--su* an ensemble is n to be depict$ save by a skill$ h&4 ,! late ,mr4 ,l>rabbee's "n 0 /ill pr9t$ on millions ( bright labels encircl+ cubes ( tobacco1 n[ manufactur$ by a ,tru/4 ,h[ev]1 s9ce ! k9d t ent]$ ,mrs4 ,l>rabbee's h\se1 or h\ses1 0 all import$ f ,egypt or ,cuba1 :at might h be5 9 ! nature ( an unpleasant rem9d] 0 remote f h] sight1 & %e nev] drove into ! nor!rn "p ( ! city1 :]e "s hundr$s ( "y wom5 b5t all day ov] ! cutt+-ma*9es4 ,to ent] too def9itely into ,mrs4 ,l>rabbee's hi/ory1 !re=e1 7 m]ely to be crude1 = %e is n a lady to c>icature4 ,h] fa!r _h be5 a /eamboat capta9--once an hon\r$ call+ 9 ! city ( h] nativity--a dev\t ,presbyt]ian :o believ$ 9 ! mo/ rigid simplicity4 ,few :o rememb]$ ! gau*]ies ( ,capta9 ,cor+ton's daught] on h] fir/ pres5tation to 8 family's fri5ds c\ld recognize h] 9 ! cosmopolitan ,mrs4 ,l>rabbee4 ,:y1 ) ,new ,york & ,london at h] disposal1 %e elect$ to rema9 9 ! ,middle ,we/1 puzzl$ !m1 ?\gh !y f\nd h] answ]1 t %e belong$ !re1 satisfy+ ,grace ,l>rabbee's cosmopolitanism 0 ( t app]ception t kn[s ! value ( roots1 & dur+ h] wid[hood %e _h be5 ?ru/+ !m out4 ,mrs4 ,l>rabbee foll[$ by ( 0 mu* m important ?an j ,mrs4 ,l>rabbee4 ,& %e 01 moreov]1 g5u9ely atta*$ to h] roots4 ,h] girlhood %yness--rud5ess1 "s call$ x1 mi/ak+ ! effect = ! cause--_h ref9$ into a mann] t might be *>act]iz$ z 'difficile'1 ?\gh ,hodd] _h nev] f\nd h] s4 ,%e lik$ direct m52 to discov] no guile on fir/ acqua9tance w5t a long way ) h]1 & n ! lea/ ( ! new rector's social triumphs _h be5 8 simple conque/4 ,envelop$ 9 :ite flannel1 %e met 8 e>ly tra9 at ! ,f]ry2 an unusual complim5t to a gue/1 _h he b kn[n x1 b he accept$ x z a tribute to ! ,*ur*4 ,i 0 s afraid y w\ldn't come1 %e said1 9 a voice t convey$ inde$ m ?an a p]functory expression4 ,%e glanc$ at him z he sat beside h] on ! cu%ions ( ! fly+ motor boat1 8 /range eyes fix$ ^u ! blue m\nta9s ( ! isl& :i!r !y 7 b\nd1 8 unruly hair fann$ by ! w9d4 ,:y8 he ask$1 smil+ at ! face b5ea? ! fly+ veil4 ,y ne$ ! re/4 ,i believe 9 m5 tak+ _! "w s]i\sly1 b n s s]i\sly z y d4 ,%e 0 s undisguis$ly glad to see him t he c\ld sc>cely h be5 human if he _h n respond$4 ,& %e gave him1 9 t =tnight1 a glimpse ( a life t 0 new & di/ract+3 at times made him =get --& he 0 will+ to =get--! l[] =ms ( :i* x 0 ! qu9tess5ce1--! factories t humm$1 ! =ges t flung _! fires into ! night 9 ord] t x might exi/2 ! ,dalton ,/reets t w5t )\t4 ,! effluvia f hot asphalt bore no resemblance to ! salt-lad5 air t rattl$ ! ,v5etian bl9ds ( ! big b$room to :i* he 0 assign$4 ,h] villa 0 set high above ! curv+ %ore1 fac+ a %elt]$ t]race-g>d5 respl5d5t 9 its ,augu/ glory2 to seaw>d1 isl&s danc$ 9 ! haze2 & beh9d ! h\se1 9 ! sunlight1 7 mass$ spruces ( a brilliant ars5ic gre5 ) purple cones4 ,! flutt]+ awn+s 7 /rip$ c>d9al & :ite4 ,nature & man seem$ to h conspir$ to make ?is place vividly unreal1 z a toy village comes pa9t$ f ! %op4 ,!re 7 no half-tones1 no pov]ty--9 sight1 at lea/2 no litt]4 ,on ! /reets & roads1 at ! cas9o atta*$ to ! swimm+-pool & at ! golf club 7 to be se5 bewild]+ arrays ( well-dress$1 well-f$ wom5 int5t ^u pleasure & ex]cise4 ,"s ( !m gave him glances t seem$ to say1 ,y belong to u1 & almo/ succe$$ 9 e/abli%+ ! delusion4 ,! :ole effect ^u ,hodd]1 9 ! /ate ( m9d 9 :i* he f\nd himself1 0 react+1 /imulat+1 disquiet+4 ,at lun*eons & d9n]s1 he 0 :at is kn[n z a success--always t magic ^w4 ,he resi/$1 & none s quick z wom5 to sc5t resi/ance4 ,8 v unb5d+ attitude ar\s$ _! inh]5t crav+ = rigidity 9 8 pr(ession2 he 0 nei!r pla/ic1 unctu\s1 nor subs]vi5t2 8 v homel9ess1 r$eem$ by ! eyes & m\?1 compell$ _! att5tion4 ,"o ( !m told ,mrs4 ,l>rabbee t t rector ( h]s w\ld d some?+4 ,b :at1 he ask$ himself1 0 he resi/+8 ,he 0 by no means a ,puritan2 & :ile he look$ ^u a reasonable asceticism z hav+ its place 9 ! fai? t he pr(ess$1 x 0 no asceticism t prev5t$ a m complete acquiesc5ce on 8 "p 9 ! mad c>nival t surr\nd$ him4 ,i'm afraid y don't :olly approve ( ,b> ,h>bor1 8 ho/ess rem>k$2 "o morn+4 ,at fir/ sight1 x is some:at /agg]+ to ! prov9cial m9d1 he repli$4 ,%e smil$ at him1 yet ) knitt$ br[s4 ,y are always putt+ me (f--,i nev] c tell :at y ?9k4 ,& yet ,i'm sure y h op9ions4 ,y ?9k ^! p frivol\s1 ( c\rse4 ,mo/ ( !m are s1 he answ]$1 b t is a v sup]ficial criticism4 ,! "q is1 :y are !y s8 ,! sight ( ,b> ,h>bor leads a /rang] to ! reflection t ! c>nival mood has become p]man5t ) our c\ntrym51 & especially our c\ntrywom54 ,! c>nival mood1 %e repeat$ ?\ghtfully1 yes1 t expresses x4 ,we are light1 we are always try+ to get away f ourselves1 & sometimes ,i wond] :e!r !re are any selves to get away f4 ,y ought to atop u1 %e add$1 almo/ accus+ly1 to br+ u to our s5ses4 ,t's j x1 he agre$1 :y don't we8 ,:y c't we8 ,if m cl]gym5 7 l y1 ,i ?9k p]haps y might4 ,8 tone1 8 expression1 7 revelations4 ,i--6 he exclaim$ %>ply1 & controll$ himself4 ,b 9 t mom5t ,grace ,l>rabbee _h a glimpse ( ! man :o _h come to ar\se 9 h] an int5se curiosity4 ,= an in/ant a tongue ( ! fires ( ,vulcan _h %ot =?1 fires t %e _h suspect$4 ,ar5't y too ambiti\s8 %e ask$ g5tly4 ,& aga91 al?\gh %e did n (t5 blund]1 %e saw him w9ce4 ,i don't mean ambiti\s = y\rself4 ,b surely y h made a rem>kable beg9n+ at ,/4 ,john's4 ,ev]ybody admires & respects y1 has confid5ce 9 y4 ,y are s sure ( y\rself1 %e hesitat$ a mom5t1 = %e _h nev] v5tur$ to discuss religion ) him1 ( y\r fai?4 ,cl]gym5 ought n to be apologetic1 & y\r conviction _c fail1 9 ! long run1 to h its effect4 ,its effect1--on :at8 he ask$4 ,mrs4 ,l>rabbee 0 sudd5ly1 at sea4 ,& %e prid$ h]self on a lack ( t vagu5ess g5]ally attribut$ to h] sex4 ,on--on ev]y?+4 ,on :at we 7 talk+ ab\t1--! c>nival feel+1 ! levity1 on ! unbelief ( ! age4 ,isn't x because ! control has be5 tak5 (f8 ,he saw an opportunity to slip into smoo!r wat]s4 ,! eng9e has lo/ its gov]nor8 ,exactly6 cri$ ,mrs4 ,l>rabbee4 ,:at a clev] simile6 ,x is ,mr4 ,p>es1 said ,hodd]4 ,only he 0 speak+ ( o!r symptoms1 ,socialism1 & its opposite1 individualism1--n c>nivalism4 ,poor man1 said ,mrs4 ,l>rabbee1 accept+ ! new gr\nd z saf]1 yet ) a baffl$ feel+ t ,hodd] _h evad$ h] once m1 he has _h 8 %>e ( individualism & c>nivalism4 ,8 son ,pre/on 0 "h la/ mon?1 & 0 tak5 out to ! ya*t e night 9 an unspeakable /ate4 ,& ,alison hasn't be5 :at might be call$ a bless+4 ,%e mu/ be unusual1 said ! rector1 mus+ly4 ,oh1 ,alison is a ,p]son4 ,%e has become q ! fa%ion1 & has m "w ?an %e c possibly att5d to4 ,v few wom5 ) h] good looks c\ld h done :at %e has )\t sev]e criticism1 & some?+ worse1 p]haps4 ,! mo/ extraord9>y ?+ ab\t h] is h] contempt = :at h] fa!r has ga9$1 & = conv5tionalities4 ,x always amuses me :5 ,i ?9k t %e might h be5 ! wife ( ,gordon ,att]bury4 ,! ,goddess ( ,lib]ty l9k$ to--:at8 ,hodd] ?\ght in/9ctively ( ! ,*ur*4 ,b he rema9$ sil5t4 ,z a rule1 m5 are su* fools ab\t ! wom5 !y wi% to m>ry1 %e cont9u$4 ,%e w\ld h l$ him a dance = a ye> or two1 & !n calmly & inexorably left him4 ,& !re 0 h] fa!r1 ) all 8 ability & g5ius1 c\ldn't see x ei!r1 b fondly imag9$ t ,alison z ,gordon ,att]bury's wife1 w\ld magically become an ,att]bury & a b\rgeoise1 see t ! corn]s 7 du/$ 9 ! big h\se1 sew und]we> = ! poor1 & fa/ 9 ,l5t4 ,& %e is happy--:]e %e is8 he inquir$ some:at naively4 ,%e is self-suffici5t1 said ,mrs4 ,l>rabbee1 ) unusual feel+1 & t is j :at mo/ wom5 are n1 9 ^! days4 ,oh1 :y has life become su* a problem8 ,sometimes ,i ?9k1 ) all t ,i h1 ,i'm n1 s well (f z "o ( ^? salesgirls 9 ,f]guson's1 at home4 ,i'm always se>*+ = ?+s to d--no?+ is ?ru/ on me4 ,!re are ! *>ities--,galt ,h\se1 & all t1 b ,i nev] seem to get at any?+1 at ! p ,i'd l to help4 ,x's l s5d+ money to ,*9a4 ,!re is no direct t\* any m4 ,x's l see+ "o's opportunities ?r\gh an iron grat+4 ,hodd] />t$ at ! phrase1 s exactly _h %e express$ 8 own case4 ,ah1 he said1 ! iron grat+ b>s ! pa? ( ! ,*ur*1 too4 ,& j :at 0 ! iron grat+8 ,!y _h _m mom5ts ( intimacy dur+ t =t night1 ?\gh none 9 :i* ! plumb ( _! conv]sation desc5d$ to su* a dep?4 ,= he 01 z %e _h said1 always putt+ h] (f4 ,0 x because he c\ldn't satisfy h] crav+8 give h] ! solution = :i*--he began to see--%e ?ir/$8 ,:y didn't t religion t %e seem$ outw>dly to pr(ess & accept )\t qualification--! religion he taught set h] at re/8 %[ h] ! pa?8 ,d[n 9 8 he>t he knew t he fe>$ to ask4 ,t ,mrs4 ,l>rabbee 0 /ill ano!r revelation1 t %e 0 n at re/1 0 gradually reveal$ to him z ! days pass$4 ,h] _s1 too1 l 8 own1 l ',mrs ,con/able's1 l ,eldon ,p>r's1 l ,eleanor ,goodri*'s1 0 divid$ aga9/ itself2 & ?is ph5om5on 9 ,mrs4 ,l>rabbee 0 p]haps a great] %ock to him1 s9ce he _h always reg>d$ h] z ess5tially 9 equilibrium4 ,"o ( 8 reasons1 inde$1 --9 addition to ! fri5d%ip t _h gr[n up betwe5 !m1--= com+ to visit h] _h be5 to ga9 ! effect ( h] poise on 8 own4 ,poise 9 a mod]n woman1 lead+ a mod]n life4 ,x 0 ?us %e attract$ him4 ,x 0 n t he ignor$ h] frivol\s side2 x 0 nicely balanc$ by ! o!r1 & t o!r seem$ gr[+4 ,! social1 %e accept$ at :at appe>$ to be its own wor?4 ,unlike ,mrs4 ,plimpton1 = in/ance1 %e 0 s innately a lady t %e _h met ) no resi/ance 9 ! ,ea/]n wat]+ places1 & h] s5se ( values _h rema9$ ! tru] = x4 ,he did n admire h] ! less n[ he _h discov]$ t ! poise 0 n s adju/$ z he _h ?\ght x1 b 8 feel+ ab\t h] *ang$1 grew m p]sonal1 m complicat$4 ,%e 0 %[+ an al>m+ t5d5cy to lean on him at a "t :5 he 0 exam9+ ) "s conc]n 8 own supports4 ,%e possess$ intellig5ce & fasc9ation1 %e 0 a woman ^: att5tions w\ld h flatt]$ & di/urb$ any man ) a sp>k ( virility1 & ,hodd] _h con/antly be=e 8 eyes ! spectacle ( o!rs pay+ h] c\rt4 ,"h 7 dang]-signals aga96 ,mrs4 ,plaice1 a middle-ag$ ,engli% lady /ay+ 9 ! h\se1 nev] appe>$ until noon4 ,breakfa/ 0 set out 9 ! til$ & %elt]$ loggia1 :]e !y 7 fann$ by ! cool airs ( a s(tly brea?+ ocean4 ,! _w1 on ^! morn+s1 _h a sp>kl+ unreality1 ! cold1 cobalt sea /ret*+ to sun-lit isles1 & beyond1 ! vividly pa9t$ %ore1--! sett+ ( luxury _h nev] be5 s complete4 ,& ! woman :o sat opposite him seem$1 l "o ( h] own nect>9es1 to be ! fruit t cr[n$ x all4 ,:y n yield to ! en*antm5t8 ,:y rebel1 :5 nobody else compla9$8 ,7 x n m simple to accept :at life s5t 9 its ord]ly c\rse in/ead ( /riv+ = an impossible & %ad[y ideal8 ,v %ad[y inde$6 ,& to :at end 7 8 lab\rs 9 t smoky1 we/]n city1 ) its he$less ,dalton ,/reets1 :i* w5t _! inevitable ways8 ,= he _h ! *oice4 ,to d him ju/ice1 he 0 sl[ 9 arriv+ at a realization t seem$ to him s incr$ible1 s prepo/]\s4 ,he 0 h] rector6 ,& he _h accept$1 all unconsci\sly1 ! worldly po9t ( view z to ,mrs4 ,l>rabbee1--t %e 0 res]v$ = a worldly mat*4 ,a cl]gyman's wife6 ,:at w\ld become ( ! cl]gyman8 ,& yet o!r cl]gym5 _h m>ri$ ri* wom51 despite ! w>n+ ( ! ne$le's eye4 ,%e drove him 9 h] buckbo>d to ,jordan's ,pond1 set1 l a jewel 9 ! hills1 & ev5 to ! deep1 cliff bord]$ inlet beyond ,nor? ,ea/1 :i* rem9d$ h]1 %e said1 ( a ,norway fiord4 ,& sometimes !y walk$ toge!r ?r\gh wood$ pa?s t l$ !m to beetl+ %ores1 & sat li/5+ to ! waves cra%+ f> bel[4 ,sil5ces & commonplaces became ! rule in/ead ( ! eag] discussions ) :i* !y _h begun1--on su* saf] topics z ! problem ( ! social "w ( mod]n *ur*es4 ,h] aromatic pres5ce1 & 9 ?is sett+1 cont9ually di/urb$ him3 nature's p]fumes1 m def9able1 --exhalations ( ! sea & spruce1--m+l$ ) h]s1 anae/hetics compell+ le?>gy4 ,he felt himself dr[n+1 ev5 wi%$ to dr[n1 --& yet /rangely resi/$4 ,i mu/ g to-morr[1 he said4 ,to-morr[--:y8 ,!re is a d9n]1 y "k1 & ,mrs4 ,wat]man wi%$ s p>ticul>ly to meet y4 ,he did n look at h]4 ,! undisguis$ note ( pa9 f\nd an e*o )9 him4 ,& ?is 0 ,mrs4 ,l>rabbee6 ,i am sorry1 b ,i mu/1 he told h]1 & %e may n h suspect$ ! ext5t to :i* ! firmness 0 feign$4 ,y h promis$ to make o!r visits8 ,! ,f]gusons1--!y said !y expect$ y4 ,i'm go+ we/--home1 he said1 & ! ^w s\nd$ odd4 ,at ?is season6 ,b !re is nobody 9 *ur*1 at lea/ only a few1 & ,mr4 ,mc,crae c take c>e ( ^?--he always does4 ,he likes x4 ,hodd] smil$ 9 spite ( himself4 ,he might h told h] t ^? outside ! *ur* 7 tr\bl+ him4 ,b he did n1 s9ce he _h small confid5ce 9 be+ able to br+ !m 94 ,i h be5 away too long1 ,i am gett+ spoil$1 he repli$1 ) an attempt at lightness4 ,he =c$ 8 eyes to meet h]s1 & %e read 9 !m an unalt]able resolution4 ,x is my op9ion y are too consci5ti\s1 ev5 = a cl]gyman1 %e said1 & n[ x 0 h] lightness t hurt4 ,%e prote/$ no m4 ,& z %e l$ ! way homew>d ?r\gh ! n>r[ =e/ pa?1 h] head erect1 /ill ma9ta9+ ?is light] tone1 he wond]$ h[ deeply %e _h read him2 h[ f> h] intuition _h c>ri$ h] bel[ ! surface2 :e!r %e guess$ ! pres5ce ( t /ifl$ ?+ 9 him :i* 0 cry+ feebly = life2 :e!r x 0 t %e _h discov]$1 or some?+ else8 ,he mu/ give x ! *ance x crav$4 ,he mu/ get away--he mu/ ?9k4 ,to surr5d] n[ w\ld mean de/ruction4 4 4 ,e>ly ! next morn+1 z he left ! pi] 9 ! motor boat1 he saw a p9k sc>f wav+ high above him f ! loggia4 ,& he flung up 8 h& 9 return4 ,m+l$ ) a fa9t s5se ( fre$om 0 int5se sadness4 ,,*apt] ,,viii ,,! ,,l9e ,,( ,,lea/ ,,resi/ance ,f ! vantage po9t ( 8 rooms 9 ! p>i% h\se1 ,hodd] review$ ! situation4 ,& despite ! desires ?rong+ aft] him 9 8 flight he _h ! feel+ ( once :o1 9 ! d>k1 has be5 v ne> to annihilation4 ,:at _h %ak5 him mo/ 0 ! revelation ( an old enemy :i*1 wat*+ its *ance1 _h beset him at ! fir/ opportunity2 & at a "t :5 ! s*eme ( life1 :i* he flatt]$ himself to h solv$ =ev]1 0 ?reat5+ once m to resolve itself into fragm5ts4 ,he _h1 z if by a miracle1 escap$ de/ruction 9 "s insidi\s =m4 ,he %rank in/9ctively f an analysis ( ! woman 9 reg>d to :om 8 feel+s 71 s complicat$1 & yet by no means lack+ 9 t5d]ness4 ,b z "t w5t on1 he recogniz$ m & m t %e _h come into 8 life at a mom5t :5 he 0 peculi>ly vuln]able4 ,%e _h tak5 him (f 8 gu>d4 ,t ! brilliant ,mrs4 ,l>rabbee %\ld h desir$ him--or :at %e believ$ 0 him--0 food en\gh = ?\ght1 0 an indication ( an idealism 9 h] nature t he w\ld n h suspect$4 ,f a worldly po9t ( view1 ! m>riage w\ld h comm5d$ itself to none ( h] fri5ds4 ,yet ,hodd] p]ceiv$ cle>ly t he c\ld n h giv5 h] :at %e desir$1 s9ce ! m>riage w\ld h kill$ x 9 him4 ,%e (f]$ him ! o!r ?+4 ,once aga9 he _h manag$ someh[ to cl+ to 8 dream ( :at ! relation%ip betwe5 man & woman %\ld be1 & he saw m & m di/9ctly t he _h covet$ n only ! jewel1 b its sett+4 ,he c\ld n see h] out ( x--%e fad$4 ,nor c\ld he see himself 9 x4 ,luxury1--( c\rse1--t 0 :at he _h spurn$4 ,luxury 9 contra/ to ,dalton ,/reet1 to ! :irr+ factories ne> ! *ur* :i* dis*>g$1 at nightfall1 _! quotas ( wan wom5 & /unt$ *ildr54 ,& yet "h he 0 cat]+ to luxury1 provid+ religion = x6 ,religion6 ,e>ly 9 ,novemb] he he>d t ,mrs4 ,l>rabbee _h sudd5ly decid$ to g abroad )\t return+ home4 4 4 4 ,t w9t] ,hodd] might h be5 lik5$ to a ,niag>a = en]gy2 an unh>ness$ ,niag>a--su* w\ld h be5 8 own comm5t4 ,he seem$ to turn no :eels1 or only a few at lea/1 & feebly4 ,& :ile ! spectacle ( _! rector's zeal 0 no d\bt an edify+ "o to 8 p>i%ion]s1 !y gave him to und]/& t !y w\ld h be5 satisfi$ ) less4 ,!y admir$1 b *id$ him g5tly2 & 9 ,febru>y ,mr4 ,p>r (f]$ to take him to ,florida4 ,he 0 tir$1 & x 0 l>gely because he dread$ ! reflection inevitable 9 a p]iod ( re/1 t he refus$4 4 4 4 ,& ?r\gh\t ^! mon?s1 ! feel+ recurr$1 ) increas$ /r5g?1 t ,mc,crae 0 /ill wat*+ him1 --! notion p]si/$ t 8 assi/ant held to a !ory ( 8 own1 if he c\ld b be induc$ to reveal x4 ,hodd] refra9$ f mak+ ! appeal4 ,sometimes he 0 on ! po9t ( los+ pati5ce ) ?is enigmatic p]son4 ,congratulations on ! fact t 8 congregation 0 increas+ br\ght him little com=t1 s9ce a cold analysis ( ! newcom]s :o 7 r5t+ pews 0 9 itself an indication ( ! lack ( t ?+ he s va9ly s\ght4 ,! decor\s families :o 7 n[ ally+ !mselves ) ,/4 ,john's did s at ! exp5se ( o!r *ur*es ei!r m radical or less fa%ionable4 ,:at 0 x he s\ght8 ,:at did he wi%8 ,to fill ! *ur* to ov]fl[+ ) ! poor & ne$y z well z ! ri*1 & to ent] into ! lives ( all4 ,yet at a c]ta9 po9t he met a resi/ance t 0 no less firm because x 0 baffl+4 ,! ,^w1 on 8 lips at lea/1 seem$ to h lo/ x efficacy4 ,! poor he$$ x n1 & he prea*$ to ! ri* z f beh9d a glass4 ,!y w5t on ) _! c>nival4 ,:y ?is insatiate ambition on 8 "p 9 an age ( unbelief8 ,o!r cl]gym51 n half s =tunate1 7 app>5tly satisfi$2 or else--f 8 conv]sation ) !m--ei!r oddly optimi/ic or resign$4 ,:y n he8 ,x 0 /range1 9 spite ( ev]y?+1 t hope sprang up )9 him1 a recurr5t geys]4 ,gradually1 almo/ imp]ceptibly1 he f\nd himself turn+ m & m t[>ds t l9e ( lea/ resi/ance :i* o!r *ur*es 7 foll[+1 z ! "o ,mod]n ,solution1--in/itutional "w4 ,aft] all1 9 ! rescu+ ( bodies "s me?od might yet be discov]$ to revive ! s\ls4 ,& !re 7 ! *ildr56 ,hodd] might h be5 lik5$ to an explor]1 seek+ a direct pa? :5 !re 0 none--a royal road4 ,& if ?is 7 oblique x (f]$1 at lea/1 a def9ite outlet = 8 en]gy4 ,su* 01 approximately1 ! /ate ( 8 m9d e>ly 9 ,m>* :5 ,gordon ,att]bury came back f a conf]5ce 9 ,new ,york on in/itutional "w1 & fill$ ) en?usiasm4 ,/4 ,john's 0 incr$ibly beh9d ! times1 s he told ,hodd]1 & lat] ! ve/ry4 ,n[ t !y _h1 9 ,mr4 ,hodd]1 a man ( action & ability--ahem6 !re 0 no excuse = a p>i% z weal?y z ,/4 ,john's1 a p>i% ) _! opportunities1 consid]+ ! proximity ( ,dalton ,/reet neighb\rhood1 n enl>g+ & mod]niz+ ! p>i% h\se1 n build+ a settlem5t h\se ) k9d]g>t5s1 s*ools1 work%ops1 libr>ies1 a disp5s>y & day nurs]ies4 ,x w\ld und\bt$ly be an exp5se--& ,mr4 ,att]bury look$ at ,mr4 ,p>r1 :o drumm$ on ! ve/ry table4 ,!y w\ld ne$ extra assi/ants1 deaconesses1 tra9$ nurses1 & all t4 ,b !re 7 o!r *ur*es 9 ! city t 7 ahead ( ,/4 ,john's--a reproa* --ahem6 ,mr4 ,p>r repli$ t he _h told ! rector t he /ood ready to contribute to su* a s*eme :5 he1 ! rector2 %\ld be ready to approve x4 ,& he look$ at ,mr4 ,hodd]4 ,mr4 ,hodd] said he _h be5 consid]+ ! matt] ev] s9ce 8 arrival4 ,he _h only "o criticism ( in/itutional "w1 t 9 8 obs]vation x did n br+ ! p :om x rea*$ into ! ,*ur* 9 any great numb]s4 ,p]haps t 7 too mu* to ask1 9 ^! days4 ,= 8 "p he w\ld will+ly assume ! extra burd51 & he 0 f> f d5y+ ! positive good su* "w accompli%$ ?r\gh association & by ! rais+ ( /&>ds4 ,mr4 ,f]guson decl>$ 8 read9ess to help4 ,_m ( 8 salesgirls1 he said1 liv$ 9 ?is "p ( ! city1 & he w\ld be glad to d any?+ 9 8 p[] t[>ds keep+ !m out ( ! dance-halls & su* places4 ,a committee 0 f9ally appo9t$ consi/+ ( ,mr4 ,p>r1 ,mr4 ,att]bury1 & ! rector1 to consult ar*itects & to decide ^u a site4 ,hodd] began a correspond5ce ) exp]ts 9 o!r cities1 collect$ plans1 pamphlets1 /ati/ics2 sp5t h\rs ) ! great *ild-speciali/1 ,dr4 ,j>vis1 & ) c]ta9 cl]gym5 :o believ$ 9 in/itutionalism z ! hope ( ! future4 ,b ,mc,crae 0 provok+ly non-committal4 ,oh1 !y may try x1 he ass5t$ some:at grudg+ly1 "o day :5 ! rector _h laid out = 8 inspection ! ar*itects' sket* = ! settlem5t h\se4 ,no d\bt x w help _m poor bodies along4 ,is !re any?+ else8 ! rector ask$1 look+ se>*+ly at 8 assi/ant4 ,x may z well be t1 repli$ ,mc,crae4 ,! suspicion began to dawn on ,hodd] t ! ,scot* man's ideals 7 z high z 8 own4 ,bo? ( !m1 secretly1 reg>d$ ! new s*eme z a compromise1 a yield+ to ! inevitable 4 4 4 4 ,mr4 ,f]guson's rem>k t an enl>g$ p>i% h\se & a new settlem5t h\se might help to keep "s ( ! "y wom5 employ$ 9 8 dep>tm5t /ore out ( ! dance-halls int]e/$ ,hodd]1 :o conceiv$ ! idea ( a dance-hall ( _! own4 ,= ! rector1 9 ! c\rse ( 8 ba*elor %opp+1 (t5 resort$ to ! emporium ( 8 ve/ryman1 to /& on ! /airway :i* c>ri$ him upw>d )\t lift+ 8 feet1 to roam1 fasc9at$1 ?r\gh ! mazes ( its aisles1 :]e he inv>iably got lo/1 & 0 rescu$ by suave floor-walk]s or p]t "y wom5 9 black g[ns & :ite coll>s & cuffs4 ,b !y 7 n all p]t--!re 7 _m *>act]s1 _m types4 ,& he (t5 wond]$ :e!r !y did n get tir$ /&+ on _! feet all day long1 hesitat+ to ask !m2 speculat$ on _! lives--flung z mo/ ( !m 7 on a he$less city1 & left to %ift = !mselves4 ,:y 0 x t ! ,*ur* :i* c>$ = ,mr4 ,f]guson's s\l 0 unable to get 9 t\* )1 or make an appeal to1 ^? ( 8 ?\s& employees8 ,x might inde$ h be5 said t ,francis ,f]guson c>$ = 8 own s\l1 z he c>$ = ! re/ ( 8 prop]ty1 & kept x c>efully insur$1--some:at1 p]haps1 on ! pr9ciple ( ,pascal's wag]4 ,t he _h be5 a b5efactor to 8 city no "o w\ld d5y :o _h se5 ! facade t cov]$ a :ole block 9 ! bus9ess di/rict f ,t[] to ,v9e1 surm\nt$ by a r$ /&>d ) ! famili> motto1 ,:5 9 d\bt1 g to ,f]guson's4 ,at ,f]guson's y c\ld buy any?+ f a p5-wip] to a piano or a ,p>is g[n2 sit 9 a cool re/aurant 9 summ] or 9 a palm g>d5 9 w9t]2 leave y\r baby--if y _h "o--9 *>ge ( ! mo/ capable tra9$ nurses2 if y\r ta/e 7 lit]>y1 mull ov] ! novels 9 ! ,book ,dep>tm5t2 if y 7 /\t1 y might be r$uc$ 9 ! ,hygi5e ,dep>tm5t1 unkn[n to y\r husb& & intimate fri5ds4 ,9 %ort1 if !re 7 any virtu\s human wi% 9 ! p[] ( g5ius to gratify1 ,f]guson's 0 ! place4 ,!y1 ev5 taught y h[ to cook4 ,x 0 a mod]n ,aladd9's palace3 &1 l ev]y?+ else mod]n1 mu* m wond]ful ?an ! orig9al4 ,& ! soda might be lik5$ to ! wat]s ( ,trevi1--to p>take ( :i* is to return4 ,:5 9 d\bt1 g to ,f]guson6 ,?us ,mrs4 ,l>rabbee & o!r ladies int]e/$ 9 good works _h alt]$ 8 motto4 ,he 0 "o ( ! support]s ( ,galt ,h\se1 into :i* "s ( 8 own "y saleswom5 _h occasionally /ray$2 & none1 save ,mr4 ,p>r alone1 _h be5 s lib]al 9 8 gifts4 ,hold] inv>iably f\nd x difficult to reconcile ! unassum+ man1 ^: conv]sation 0 s commonplace1 ) ! titanic g5ius :o _h creat$ ,f]guson's2 nor inde$ ) ! own] ( ! impos+ m>ble mansion at ,numb] #e1 ,p>k ,/reet4 ,! rector occasionally d9$ !re4 ,he _h acquir$ a real affection = ,mrs4 ,f]guson1 :o resembl$ a burgoma/]'s wife 9 h] ev5+ g[ns & jewels1 & ^: simple social ambitions _h be5 gratifi$ beyond h] dreams4 ,h] he>t _h n %runk5 9 ! process1 nor _h %e =gott5 h] some:at het]og5e\s acqua9tances 9 ! s\!rn "p ( ! city4 ,& x 0 true t :5 ,g]trude ,con/able _h ne>ly di$ ( app5dicitis1 x 0 on ?is lady's broad bosom t ,mrs4 ,con/able _h wept4 ,mrs4 ,f]guson _h haunt$ ! h\se1 reg>dless ( criticism1 & actually quiv]+ ) sympa?y4 ,h] m important d9n] p>ties might h be5 lik5$ to ill-mat*$ f\rs-9-h&1 & ,hold] _h sometimes felt m ( pity ?an ( amusem5t z %e sat ) an expression ( t]ror on h] face1 helplessly wat*+ c]ta9 unruly individuals tak+ _! bits 9 _! tee? & gallop+ madly d[nhill4 ,on "o occasion1 :5 he sat beside h]1 a "y man1 :o %all be nameless1 0 sudd5ly he>d to rem>k 9 ! mid/ ( an accid5tal lull3 ,i nev] g to *ur*4 ,:at's ! use8 ,i'm afraid mo/ ( u don't believe 9 hell any m4 ,a sil5ce foll[$3 ( ! sort t *ills4 ,& ! "y man1 glanc+ d[n ! long bo>d at ! cl]gyman1 became z r$ z ! c>nation 9 8 buttonhole1 & 9 8 extremity gulp$ d[n m *ampagne4 ,?+s are 9 a dreadful /ate n[adays6 ,mrs4 ,f]guson gasp$ to a p>alyz$ company1 & turn$ an agoniz$ face to ,hold]4 ,i'm s sorry1 %e said1 ,i don't "k :y ,i ask$ him to-night1 except t ,i h to h a "y man = ,nan1 & he's j come to ! city1 & ,i 0 sorry = him4 ,he's v promis+ 9 a bus9ess way2 he's 9 ,mr4 ,plimpton's tru/ company4 ,please don't let x tr\ble y4 ,hold] turn$ & smil$ a little1 & add$ :imsically3 ,we may z well face ! tru?4 ,oh1 ,i %\ld expect y to be good ab\t x1 b x 0 unp>donable1 %e cri$ 4 4 4 4 ,9 ! int]vals :5 he ga9$ h] att5tion he /rove1 by talk+ lightly ( o!r ?+s1 to take h] m9d (f ! incid5t1 b someh[ x _h left him /rangely &--he felt--disproportionately depress$1 --al?\gh he _h believ$ himself capable ( fac+ m or less philosophically t condition :i* ! speak] _h s frankly express$4 ,yet ! rem>k1 someh[1 _h _h an illum9at+ effect l a fla%light1 reveal+ to him ! isolation ( ! ,*ur* z nev] be=e4 ,& aft] d9n]1 z !y 7 go+ to ! smok+-room1 ! (f5d] acco/$ him %amefac$ly4 ,i'm awfully sorry1 ,mr4 ,hold]1 he /amm]$4 ,t ! tall rector's reg>d 0 k9dly did n relieve 8 discom=t4 ,hodd] laid a h& on 8 %\ld]4 ,don't worry ab\t x1 he answ]$1 ,i h only "o regret z to :at y said--t x is true4 ,! o!r look$ at him curi\sly4 ,x's mighty dec5t ( y to take x ?is way1 he laid4 ,fur!r spee* fail$ him4 ,he 0 a nice-look+ "y man1 ) firm :ite tee?1 & hone/y 0 writt5 all ov] 8 boyi% face4 ,& ! palpable fact t 8 regret 0 m on ! cl]gyman's acc\nt ?an = ! social faux pas drew ,hold] ! m1 s9ce x bespoke a g5u95ess ( "*4 ,he did n see ! ye>n+ 9 ! rector's eyes z he turn$ away4 4 4 ,:y 0 x !y c\ld n be /&+ side by side1 fight+ ! same fight8 ,! ,*ur* _h lo/ him1 & ?\s&s l him1 & %e ne$$ !m2 c\ld n1 inde$1 d )\t !m4 ,:]e1 inde$1 7 ! "y m58 ,!y did n bo!r _! heads ab\t spiritual matt]s any m4 ,b 7 !y n1 he ask$ himself1 frank] ?an _m ( ^! o!rs1 ! s-call$ pill>s ( ! spiritual /ructure8 ,mr4 ,plimpton acco/$ him4 ,i congratulate y ^u ! new plans1 ,mr4 ,hodd]1--!y're great1 he said4 ,mr4 ,p>r & our ho/ are com+ d[n h&somely1 eh8 ,:5 we get ! new settlem5t h\se we'll h a plant z up-to-date z any *ur* 9 ! c\ntry4 ,:5 d y break gr\nd8 ,n until autumn1 ,i believe1 ,hodd] repli$4 ,!re are a good _m details to decide ^u yet4 ,well1 ,i congratulate y4 ,mr4 ,plimpton 0 =ev] congratulat+4 ,up-to-date--plant6 ,m illum9at+ words1 eloqu5t ( ,mr4 ,plimpton's ideals4 ,/4 ,john's d[n at ! heels1 to be br\ght up to ! /ate ( effici5cy ( ,mr4 ,plimpton's tru/ company6 ,x 0 by no means ! fir/ "t he _h he>d mod]n attributes on ,mr4 ,plimpton's lips appli$ to a sacr$ in/itution1 b to-night !y _h a pr(\ndly disquiet+ effect4 ,to-night1 a c]ta9 clairvoyance _h be5 v\*saf$ him1 & he beheld ^! m51 8 associates & support]s1 ) a deta*m5t nev] be=e a*iev$4 ,!y settl$ 9 gr\ps ab\t ! room1 :i* 0 squ>e & high1 & panell$ 9 ,italian walnut1 ) flut$ pila/]s1--! capitals ( :i* 7 elaborately c>v$4 ,& ,hodd] f\nd himself on a deep lea!r s(a 9 a corn] engag$ 9 a desultory & automatic conv]sation ) ,ev]ett ,con/able4 ,mr4 ,plimpton1 ) a l>ge cig> betwe5 8 lips1 0 ! radiat+ c5tre ( "o ( ! livelie/ gr\ps1 & ( him ! rector _h fall5 into a consid]ation1 piec+ toge!r bits ( in=mation t hi!rto _h float$ mean+lessly 9 8 m9d4 ,x 0 ,mrs4 ,l>rabbee :o _h giv5 "* to ! c>e] ( ! /ill comp>atively y\?ful & unque/ionably en]getic presid5t ( ! ,*amb] ( ,comm]ce by lik5+ x to a great spiral1 />t+ some:]e 9 out] regions ( twilight1 & gradually draw+ ne>] to ! c5tre1 f :i* he _h nev] tak5 8 eyes4 ,at ! c5tre 7 ,eldon ,p>r & ,*>lotte ,gore4 ,wallis ,plimpton _h made himself indisp5sable to bo?4 ,8 campaign = ! daught] ( ,?ur/on ,gore _h be5 comp>able to "o ( ! great sieges ( hi/ory1 = ,mr4 ,plimpton 0 a laugh+-/ock :5 he sat d[n be=e t =tress4 ,at ! end ( t5 ye>s1 ,*>lotte _h capitulat$1 ) a sigh ( relief1 realiz+ at la/ h] de/9y4 ,%e _h become slightly /\t1 reveal+1 z "t w5t on1 no wr9kles--a pro( t ! union 0 f\nd$ on some?+ m endur+ ?an poetry3 ,/atesman%ip--t 0 ! secret6 ,/ep by /ep1 sl[ly b surely1 ! memor&a 9 t matrimonial portfolio 7 gr[+ into accompli%$ facts2 all ev5ts1 su* z displacem5ts ( p[]1 7 =ese52 & ! ,plimptons1 l ,bism>ck1 _h only to indicate1 9 case ( sudd5 news1 ! pigeonhole :]e ! plan ( any p>ticul> campaign 0 fil$4 ,mrs4 ,l>rabbee's temptation to be witty at ! exp5se ( ^? = :om %e _h no lik+ _h l$ ,hodd] to disc\nt ! sket*4 ,he _h n dislik$ ,mr4 ,plimpton1 :o _h done him _m little k9dnesses4 ,he 0 good-natur$1 nev] ruffl$1 widely tol]ant1 hail-fell[-well-met ) ev]ybody1 & he _h enliv5$ _m a ve/ry meet+ ) 8 /ories4 ,x 7 hyp]critical to accuse him ( a lack ( orig9ality4 ,& if by tak+ ?\ght1 he _h arriv$1 f n[h]e1 at 8 pres5t position ( ease & em95ce1 success _h n turn$ to a%es 9 8 m\?4 ,he fairly exhal$ well-be+1 happ9ess1 & good *e]4 ,life _h gone well ) him1 he wi%$ ! same to o!rs4 ,b to-night1 f 8 corn]1 ,hodd] seem$ to see ,mr4 ,plimpton ) new eyes4 ,n t he /ood reveal$ a villa91 :i* he 0 f> f be+2 x 0 ! air ( sophi/ication1 ( good-natur$ if cynical acceptance ( ?+s z !y 7--& pl5ty good en\gh1 too6--t j>r$ ^u ! rector 9 8 new mood1 & x 0 made manife/ to him z nev] be=e :y 8 appeals f ! pulpit _h lack$ efficacy4 ,mr4 ,plimpton didn't want ! _w *ang$6 ,& 9 ?is desire he repres5t$ ! m5 9 t room1 & ! majority ( ! congregation ( ,/4 ,john's4 ,! rector _h felt some?+ ( ?is be=e1 & x seem$ to him a/oni%+ t ! revelation _h n come to him soon]4 ,did any "o ( !m1 9 8 he>t1 c>e any?+ = ! ideals & aspirations ( ! ,*ur*8 ,z he gaz$ at !m ?r\gh ! ga!r+ smoke !y _h become /rang]s1 rec$$ all at once to a great di/ance4 4 4 4 ,across ! room he caught ! "n1 ,b$loe ,hubbell1 pron\nc$ ) peculi> bitt]ness by ,mr4 ,f]guson4 ,at 8 side ,ev]ett ,con/able 0 al]t1 li/5+4 ,t5 ye>s ago1 said a /\t ,mr4 ,v>num1 ! ,presid5t ( ! ,?ird ,national ,bank1 if y'd told me t t man 0 to become a demagogue & a re=m]1 ,i w\ldn't h believ$ y4 ,:y1 8 company us$ to take rebates f ! ,l4 ,g41 & ! ,s\!rn--,i "k x4 ,he emphasiz$ ! /atem5t ) a bl[ on ! table t made ! liqueur glasses dance4 ,& n[1 ) 8 ,municipal ,league1 he's go+ to clean up ! city1 is he8 ,put 9 a re=m mayor4 ,%[ up :at he calls ! ,consolidat$ ,tractions ,company sc&al4 ,pooh6 ,y got out all "r1 ,v>num4 ,y won't be lock$ up1 said ,mr4 ,plimpton1 bant]+ly4 ,s did y1 retort$ ,v>num4 ,s did ,f]guson1 s did ,con/able4 ,s did ,eldon ,p>r1 rem>k$ ano!r man1 amid/ a climax ( laught]4 ,langmaid h&l$ t pretty well4 ,hodd] felt ,ev]ett ,con/able fidget4 ,b$loe's all "r1 b he's a dream]1 ,mr4 ,plimpton volunte]$4 ,!n ,i wi% he'd /op dream+1 said ,mr4 ,f]guson1 & !re 0 m laught]1 al?\gh he _h spok5 savagely4 ,t's :at he is1 a dream]1 ,v>num ejaculat$4 ,say1 he told ,george ,c>t] ! o!r day t pro/itution wasn't necess>y1 t 9 fifty ye>s we'd h l>gely done away ) x4 ,?9k ( t1 & x's z old z ,sodom & ,gomorrah6 ,if ,hubbell _h 8 way1 he'd make ?is t[n look l a ,connecticut hill village--he'd drive all ! prosp]ity out ( x4 ,all ! railroads w\ld h to ab&on _! t]m9als--!re'd be no m traffic1 & y'd h to walk across ! bridge to get a dr9k4 ,well1 said ,mr4 ,plimpton1 ,tom ,beatty's good en\gh = me1 = a :ile4 ,beatty1 ,hodd] knew1 0 ! boss1 ( ! city1 ) headqu>t]s 9 a d[nt[n saloon4 ,beatty's be5 malign$1 ,mr4 ,v>num decl>$4 ,i don't say he's a sa9t1 b he's run ! t[n pretty well1 on ! :ole1 & kept ! vice :]e x belongs1 out ( sight4 ,he's made 8 pile1 b he's entitl$ to some?+ we all are4 ,y always "k :]e y /& ) ,beatty4 ,b say1 if ,hubbell & 8 cr[d-- ,don't worry ab\t ,b$loe1--he'll get call$ 91 he'll come home to roo/ l ! re/ ( !m1 said ,mr4 ,plimpton1 *e]fully4 ,! p c't gov]n !mselves1--only ,b$loe doesn't "k x4 ,"s day he'll f9d x out4 4 4 4 ,! ,fr5* w9d[ beside him 0 op51 & ,hodd] slipp$ out1 unnotic$1 into ! w>m night & /ood />+ at ! d>kness4 ,8 "o desire _h be5 to get away1 out ( he>+1 & he press$ =w>d ov] ! til$ pavem5t until he /umbl$ aga9/ a /one balu/rade t gu>d$ a drop ( five feet or s to ! lawn bel[4 ,at ! same "t he he>d 8 "n call$4 ,is t y1 ,mr4 ,hodd]8 ,he />t$4 ,! voice _h a wi/ful tremul\sness1 & might almo/ h be5 ! e*o ( ! leaves /irr+ 9 ! night air4 ,!n he p]ceiv$1 9 a %aft ( light f "o ( ! draw+-room w9d[s ne> by1 a girl /&+ beside ! balu/rade2 & z %e came t[>ds him1 ) t5tative /eps1 ! light play$ conjur]1 cat*+ ! silv]y gauze ( h] dress & /rik+ an aura ?r\gh ! film ( h] hair4 ,x's ,nan ,f]guson1 %e said4 ,( c\rse1 he exclaim$1 collect+ himself4 ,h[ /upid ( me n to h recogniz$ y6 ,i'm s glad y came out1 %e w5t on impulsively1 yet %yly1 ,i want$ to tell y h[ sorry ,i 0 t t ?+ happ5$ at ! table4 ,i l t "y man1 he said4 ,d y8 %e exclaim$1 ) unexpect$ gratitude4 ,s d ,i4 ,he really isn't--s bad z he mu/ seem4 ,i'm sure ( x1 said ! rector1 laugh+4 ,i 0 afraid y'd ?9k him wick$1 said ,nan4 ,he works awfully h>d1 & he's s5d+ a bro!r ?r\gh college4 ,he isn't a bit l--"s o!rs ,i "k4 ,he wants to make some?+ ( himself4 ,& ,i feel responsible1 because ,i _h "m ask him to-night4 ,he read h] secret4 ,no d\bt %e meant him to d s4 ,y "k we're go+ away next week1 = ! summ]--t is1 "m & ,i1 %e cont9u$4 ,fa!r comes lat]4 ,& ,i d hope y'll make u a visit1 ,mr4 ,hodd]--we 7 disappo9t$ y c\ldn't come la/ ye>4 ,nan hesitat$1 & ?ru/+ h] h& into h] g[n drew =? an envelope & held x out to him4 ,i int5d$ to give y ?is to-night1 to use--= any?+ y ?\ght be/4 ,he took x gravely4 ,%e look$ up at him4 ,x seems s little--su* a selfi% way ( dis*>g+ "o's obligations1 j to write out a *eque1 :5 !re is s mu* tr\ble 9 ! _w t dem&s human k9dness z well z mat]ial help4 ,i drove up ,dalton ,/reet ye/]day1 f d[nt[n4 ,y "k h[ hot x 06 ,& ,i c\ldn't help ?9k+ h[ t]rible x is t we :o h ev]y?+ are s he$less ( all t mis]y4 ,! ?\ght ( x took away all my pleasure4 ,i'd d some?+ m1 some?+ p]sonal1 if ,i c\ld4 ,p]haps ,i %all be able to1 next w9t]4 ,:y is x s difficult = all ( u to "k :at to d8 ,we h tak5 a /ep =w>d1 at any rate1 :5 we "k t x is difficult1 he said4 ,%e gaz$ up at him fix$ly1 h] att5tion caught by an indef9able some?+ 9 8 voice1 9 8 smile1 t ?rill$ & vaguely di/urb$ h]4 ,%e rememb]$ x long aft]w>ds4 ,x sudd5ly made h] %y aga92 z if1 9 f>+ =? into ! d>kness1 %e _h come to ! ?re%old ( a my/]y1 ( a revelation )held2 & x br\ght back ! s5se ( adv5ture1 ( ! palpitat+ fe> & d>+ ) :i* %e _h come to meet him4 ,x is some?+ to "k1 %e repeat$1 half compreh5d+4 ,! scrap+ ( *airs )9 al>m$ h]1 & %e /ood ready to fly4 ,b ,i hav5't ?ank$ y = ?is1 he said1 hold+ up ! envelope4 ,x may be t ,i %all f9d "s "o 9 ,dalton ,/reet-- ,oh1 ,i hope s1 %e falt]$1 brea?lessly1 hesitat+ a mom5t4 ,& !n %e 0 gone1 into ! h\se4