,illu/ration3 ,,! ,,m>e*ale 99,,! ,,m>e*ale99 7,,ca!r9e ,,boo?-,,clibborn7 ,,by ,,james ,,/rahan ,,au?or ,,( ,,hebrew ,,ideals1 ,,! ,,book ,,( ,,job1 ,,etc4 ,,hodd] ,,/\ghton ,,new ,,york ,,george ,h4 ,,doran ,,company ,,copyright1 #aiad1 ,,by ,,george ,h4 ,,doran ,,company ,! "r ( translation is res]v$ ,d$icat$ ,,) ,,rev]5ce ,,& ,,affection ,,to ,,!odore ,,monod ,,:o ,,taught ,,u ,,to ,,say ,,to ,,our ,,div9e ,,ma/] ,,none ,,( ,,self ,,& ,,all ,,( ,,!e 99,,preface99 ,?is book is ! unexpect$ result ( a brief visit :i* ! ,m>e*ale paid h] daught] & ! writ] 9 ! spr+ ( ?is ye>4 ,%e 0 daily p]suad$1 n s mu* to talk ( ! pa/1 z to live p>ts ( h] life ov] aga91 = 9 h] case ! tell+ ( a /ory is ! enact+ ( a drama4 ,at a meal-"t %e r>ely keeps h] seat1 ?\gh %e is app>5tly unconsci\s ( leav+ x & surpris$ t %e requires to return to x4 ,%e beg9s to describe an incid5t1 to recall a conv]sation1 to sket* a "*1 & /raightway %e is suit+ ! ^w to ! action1 ! action to ! ^w1 hold+ ! mirror up to nature1 us+ h] brilliant dramatic gift1 :i* is z natural to h] z s++ is to birds1 to call up faces1 to br+ back voices1 to re/ore sc5es1 :i* are all1 :e!r grave or gay1 summon$ out ( a dead pa/ t has sudd5ly1 z by ! wave ( a magician's w&1 become once m alive4 ,"o day ,i said to h]1 ,h y nev] ?\ght ( giv+ all ?is to ! _w8 ,%e answ]$1 ,i am (t5 ask$ to d s1 & "s day ,i may4 ,soon aft] %e surpris$ me by say+1 ,i h come to ! conclusion t some?+ ought to be writt5 n[1 & y mu/ write x4 ,a mass ( mat]ials 9 ,engli%1 ,fr5* & ,g]man--reports1 lett]s1 di>ies1 magaz9es1 & o!r docum5ts--has !re=e be5 put at my disposal4 ,i h n us$ a ti! ( :at ,i h receiv$1 & mu* ( :at is left is z good z :at has be5 tak54 ,m w ere long1 ,i d\bt n1 see ! light4 ,"o ( my be/ s\rces ( in=mation has be5 ! ,m>e*ale's own ph5om5al memory1 :i* ,i h te/$ times )\t numb]1 & f\nd inv>iably accurate1 except 9 dates4 ,ev5ts are apt to be associat$ 9 h] m9d n s mu* ) ye>s z ) homes & *ildr51 :i* are mu* m int]e/+4 ,) reg>d to ! subject ( ! f\rte5? *apt]1 ! ,m>e*ale w\ld h pref]r$ n to break ! sil5ce :i* %e has ma9ta9$ = a numb] ( ye>s1 b aft] read+ h] lett]s & di>ies ,i h urg$ h] to let a brief /atem5t be publi%$1 fir/ because ,i feel t %e owes some?+ to h] old comrades 9 ! fight1 & second = ! sake ( h] own & h] family's future "w4 ,memb]s ( ! family :o h be5 consult$1 z well z o!r fri5ds1 desire ?is ev5 m /rongly ?an ! writ] does4 ,?is book consi/s ( a few sections f a life :i*1 l ,mrs4 ,br[n+'s pomegranate1 %[s )9 a he>t blood-t9ctur$4 ,to a he>t ( love add a _s ( fire1 & y h ! ,m>e*ale4 ,blood & fire--t is :at %e 0 at ! beg9n+1 & t is :at %e w be to ! end4 ,"o has (t5 he>d h] say t %e has nev] be5 m 9 h] elem5t ?an :51 on ent]+ "s t[n1 %e has f\nd h]self confront$1 9 a !at] or cas9o1 by all ! devils ( ! place4 ,%e is happy :5ev] ,jesus is go+ to h a *ance = a night4 ,9 ! natural c\rse ( ?+s h] greate/ battles are /ill be=e h]4 ,engl& has ne$ ( h]1 ,france p]haps /ill great] ne$4 ,may x be long be=e ! ,m>e*ale rea*es h] la/ campaign6 ,mean:ile ! old battle-cry1 ,en ,avant6 ,! subject ( ?is sket*--writt5 dur+ a brief respite f o!r "w--is at pres5t f> away1 b ,i "k t :at %e desires to give to ! _w is a s5se ( ! ,div9e1 ! miracle-work+ p[] :i* rew>ds a *ild-l fai?1 & t %e w be glad if e read] closes ! book ) a ,gloire a ,dieu6 ,j4 ,s4 99,,cont5ts99 ,,*apt] ,i ,f9ely ,t\*$ to ,f9e ,issues ,,*apt] ,,ii ,a ,girl ,evangeli/ ,,*apt] ,,iii ,! ,secret ( ,evangelism ,,*apt] ,,iv ,*ri/ 9 ,p>is ,,*apt] ,v ,fre$om to ,wor%ip ,god ,,*apt] ,,vi ,! ,s\l ( ,france ,,*apt] ,,vii ,woman's ,vocation ,,*apt] ,,viii ,! ,r5unciation ( ,home ,,*apt] ,,ix ,! ,fri5d%ip ( ,*ri/ ,,*apt] ,x ,! ,burn+ ,"q ,,*apt] ,,xi ,! ,prodigal ,son ,,*apt] ,,xii ,s ,great ,fai? ,,*apt] ,,xiii ,beauty = ,a%es ,,*apt] ,,xiv ,to ,?9e ,own ,self ,be ,true ,,*apt] ,,xv ,sursum ,corda6 99,,li/ ,,( ,,portraits99 ,! ,m>e*ale 4 4 4 ,frontispiece ,ca!r9e ,boo? 4 4 4 #cb 7,f a draw+ by ,edw>d ,clif=d1 exhibit$ 9 ! ,royal ,academy & pres5t$ to ,mrs4 ,boo?7 ,! ,m>e*ale 9 ! ,cafe 4 4 4 #aad 7,f ! pa9t+ ( ,b>on ,c$]/roem7 ,! ,m>e*ale 4 4 4 #afj 7,f a photo tak5 9 ,p>is1 circa #ahij7 ,! ,m>e*ale 4 4 4 #cjb 7,f a photo tak5 9 ,london 9 #aiac7 99,,*apt] ,i99 99,,f9ely ,,t\*$ ,,to ,,f9e ,,issues99 ,9 ! summ] ( #ahfe ,william ,boo?1 ,evangeli/1 f\nd 8 life-"w4 ,= "s "t back 8 imag9ation _h be5 m ?an usually active4 ,he c\ld n help ?9k+ t all 8 pa/ ef=ts _h be5 b t5tative solutions ( a difficult problem4 ,he felt ! spur ( a vague discont5t4 ,he seem$ to be grop+ 8 way t[>ds an unrealis$ ideal4 ,at l5g? he got ! inn] light he ne$$4 ,:ile he 0 conduct+ a s]ies ( meet+s 9 a t5t pit*$ on ! disus$ ,quak] bury+-gr\nd at ,bak]'s ,r[1 ,:ite*apel1 he saw 8 heav5ly vision & he>d 8 div9e call4 ,he accept$ a mission :i* 0 no less real ?an ^? ( ,hebrew ,prophets & ,*ri/ian ,apo/les4 ,! words 9 :i* he describes 8 vocation =m "p ( ! hi/ory ( ,*ri/ianity 9 ,engl&4 ,i f\nd my he>t1 he says1 /rongly & /rangely drawn out on behalf ( ! million p liv+ )9 a mile ( ! t5t1 n9ety out ( e hundr$ ( :om1 !y told me1 nev] he>d ! s\nd ( ! prea*]'s voice f ye> to ye>4 ',"h is a sph]e6' 0 be+ :isp]$ cont9ually 9 my inw>d e> by an inw>d voice 444 & ,i 0 cont9ually haunt$ ) a desire to (f] myself to ,jesus ,*ri/ z an apo/le = ! hea!n ( ,ea/ ,london4 ,! idea or heav5ly vision or :atev] y may call x ov]came me2 ,i yield$ to x2 & :at has happ5$ s9ce is1 ,i ?9k1 n only my ju/ification1 b an evid5ce t my (f] 0 accept$4 ,?us x 0 t on a memorable ,june night1 hav+ end$ 8 meet+ & aft]-meet+1 he ru%$ home1 tir$ z usual1 b ) a /range light 9 8 face :i* indicat$ an unusual gl[ 9 8 he>t4 ,d>l+1 he exclaim$ to 8 wife1 ,i h f\nd my de/9y6 ,8 unexpect$ words1 l ! t\* ( ,i?uriel's spe>1 prov$ ! quality ( 8 life-mate's womanhood4 ,= a mom5t %e trembl$ "u ! te/4 ,:ile h] husb& p\r$ out 8 burn+ words ab\t ! hea!nism ( ,london1 & express$ 8 conviction t x 0 8 duty to /op & prea* to ^! ,ea/ ,end multitudes1 %e sat gaz+ into ! empty fireplace4 ,! voice ( ! tempt]--s %e imag9$--:isp]$ to h]1 ,?is means ano!r new dep>ture1 ano!r />t 9 life4 ,%e ?\ght ( five little heads asleep on _! pill[s up/airs1 & rememb]$ t %e _h already pass$ ?r\gh m ?an "o "t ( dome/ic anxiety4 ,b no woman liv+ at t "t 0 m ready = acts ( d>+ fai?2 few1 if any1 7 s animat$ by scorn ( mis]able aims t end 9 self4 ,aft] sil5tly ?9k+ & pray+ = "s m9utes1 %e said3 ,well1 if y feel y ought to /ay1 /ay4 ,we h tru/$ ! ,"l once = our support & we c tru/ ,him aga94 ,?us ! die 0 ca/1 & ! day end$ ) "o ( ^? sc5es by :i* our common humanity is ennobl$4 ,toge!r1 he says1 we humbl$ ourselves be=e ,god1 & d$icat$ our lives to ! task t x seem$ we _h be5 pray+ = = tw5ty-five ye>s4 ,h] he>t came ov] to my he>t4 ,we resolv$ t ?is poor1 subm]g$1 giddy1 c>eless p %\ld h5ce=? become our p & our ,god _! ,god z f> z we c\ld induce !m to accept ,him1 & = ?is end we w\ld face pov]ty1 p]secution1 or :atev] ,provid5ce might p]mit 9 our consecration to :at we believ$ to be ! way ,god _h mapp$ out = u4 ,"o feels p]fectly c]ta9 t ^! two mod]n apo/les w\ld h fulfill$ _! de/9y ev5 if !y _h /ood alone2 b x c\ld sc>cely h be5 s ample & glori\s a de/9y if ,god _h n giv5 !m *ildr5 :o inh]it$ _! gifts & help$ !m to realise _! ideals4 ,x is ! simple tru? t ! rul+ passion ( ea* ( _! eight sons & daught]s has be5 ! love ( s\ls2 ea* ( !m has exult$ to sp5d & be sp5t 9 ! s]vice ( ,*ri/1 :i* is ! s]vice ( humanity2 & if "o ( !m has be5 too feeble 9 h] heal? to be a militant ,salvationi/1 ! great ,capta9 ( our salvation accepts ! w = ! de$4 ,among all ! bold & orig9al acts by :i* ! brea? & ! flame ( a new life h be5 br\ght into ! mod]n ,*ur*1 none is m /rik+1 & yet none m simple & natural1 ?an ! revival1 aft] all ^! c5turies1 ( ! apo/olic m9i/ry ( wom54 ,l ,philip ! ,evangeli/ ( ,caes>ea1 ,william & ,ca!r9e ,boo? _h f\r daught]s :o did prophesy2 brave & gift$ ,engli% girls :o1 baptis$ ) ! ,holy ,_s1 us$ _! d[] ( burn+ eloqu5ce to br+ s9n]s to ! m]cy-seat4 ,if to-day ! wom5 t publi% ! tid+s are a great ho/1 ! fact illu/rates ! p[] ( example4 ,9 e new movem5t !re mu/ be d>+ pione]s & self-sacrific+ lead]s4 ,= woman's lib]ty ( prophesy+1 z = e o!r =m ( fre$om1 ! price has _h to be paid4 ,! purpose ( ?is little book is to sket* ! life ( ! elde/ ( ,g5]al ,boo?'s f\r daught]-evangeli/s1 :o 0 call$ to c>ry ! _s ( ! ,gospel--,*ri/'s own _s ( love--fir/ into _m ( ! cities ( ,engl&1 & aft]w>ds1 9 fulfilm5t ( h] di/9ctive life-"w1 into ,france & ,switz]l&1 ,holl& & ,belgium4 ,if h] /ory c\ld be told z x des]ves to be1 x w\ld /& out z "o ( ! mo/ rem>kable mod]n records ( ,*ri/ian "w1 = !re is p]haps no "o liv+ to-day :o has se5 s mu* ( :at ,h5ry ,drummond us$ to call ! contempor>y activities ( ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,ca!r9e ,boo? ! eld]1 ! ,"m ( ! ,army1 0 already 9 h] ?irty-second ye> :5 %e wrote h] fam\s bro*ure ^u ,female ,m9i/ry1 &1 n )\t fe> & trembl+1 deliv]$ h] fir/ evangeli/ic address 9 ! ,be!sda ,*apel at ,gate%ead-on-,tyne1 :]e h] husb& 0 m9i/]4 ,little ,ca!r9e1 :o _h be5 baptis$ 9 t *apel1 0 9 h] second ye> :5 h] "m began public speak+1 & 9 h] sev5? :5 h] fa!r f\nd 8 de/9y4 ,probably no *ild ev] _h great] privileges ?an %e enjoy$4 ,h] e>?ly home 0 a h\se ( ,god & a gate ( heav52 & f ! fir/ %e seem$ to respond to all t 0 highe/ & be/ 9 h] environm5t4 ,%e 0 "o ( ^? happy s\ls :o h no memory ( _! conv]sion1 :o _c recall a "t :5 !y did n he>tily love ! ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,h] fa!r 0 ! c5tre ( all h] *ildi% ?\ghts & mo/ vivid recollections1 & no?+ c\ld ev] really dislodge him f ! fir/ place 9 h] affections4 ,an int]e/+ page f h] e>lie/ memories may be reproduc$4 ,:5 %e 0 ?ree or f\r ye>s old1 h] fa!r 0 a ,wesleyan ,pa/or 9 ,cornwall1 :]e 8 m9i/ry l$ to a revival 9 :i* hundr$s ( s\ls f\nd salvation4 ,"o night ,katie 0 tak5 by h] nurse to ! meet+1 &1 on arrival1 f\nd h]self be=e a flight ( /eps lead+ up to ! gall]y4 ,?9k+ h]self q a big girl1 %e wi%$ to climb1 b nurse1 fe>+ ! cr[d1 snat*$ h] up & c>ri$ h] to ! top4 ,at l5g? !y 7 inside1 & :at ! *ild !n saw & he>d rema9$ = ev] vividly impress$ on h] imag9ation4 ,! great build+ 0 cramm$4 ,away d[n on ! plat=m /ood h] fa!r1 ) h] "m sitt+ beside him4 ,he 0 lead+ ! s++1 keep+ "t ) 8 fold$ umbrella1 & ?is 0 ! *orus3 ,let ! w9ds bl[ high1 or ! w9ds bl[ l[1 ,x's a pleasant sail to ,canaan1 hallelujah6 ,h[ well did ! eag]-he>t$ little maid enjoy t voyage1 & h[ pr\d %e 0 ( h] capta96 ,! w9ds blew l[ & ! sun %one ^u h] 9 ^? days4 ,b x c\ld n always be fair wea!r4 ,(t5 s9ce t f>-(f ,corni% "t h ! w9ds bl[n high1 & sometimes ! m>9] has felt h]self toss$1 *>tless & rudd]less1 on d>k tempe/u\s seas2 b ev] ! w9ds h fall51 ! sun has %one out aga9 ov] ! waves2 & to h[ _m t5s ( ?\s&s has ?is daught] ( music sung1 ) sweet v>iations1 h] fa!r's song--,x's a pleasant sail to ,canaan1 hallelujah6 ,! ,boo? *ildr5 7 left 9 no mi/ ( d\bt z to _! future4 ,!re 0 an end1 a po9t1 a purpose1 9 _! life4 ,!y grew up 9 an atmosph]e ( decision4 ,_m *ildr5 are made timid1 diffid5t1 ineffective by _! tra9+4 ,!y are con/antly told h[ naughty !y are1 till !y beg9 to believe t !y are good = no?+4 ,! ,boo? p>5ts act$ on a diff]5t pr9ciple4 ,!y _h fai? 9 _! *ildr5 & = _! *ildr54 ,:5 ,katie 0 /ill a little girl 9 socks1 h] "m w\ld say to h]1 ,n[1 ,katie1 y are n "h 9 ?is _w = y\rself4 ,y h be5 s5t = o!rs4 ,! _w is wait+ = y4 ,:at a phrase t 0 to s5d a little girl to b$ )6 ,!re %e turn$ ! words ov] & ov] 9 h] own m9d4 ,"m says ! _w is wait+ = me4 ,oh1 ,i mu/ be good4444 ,h[ selfi% ,i 0 9 tak+ t orange6 ,! lesson 0 wor? ,l#ajjj to a *ild4 ,9 ! developm5t ( ,katie's m9d & "* h] "m's influ5ce 0 naturally v /rong4 ,! fell[%ip betwe5 !m soon became peculi>ly intimate1 & x 0 ! "m's joy to f9d h] alt] ego 9 ! daught] :o bore h] "n4 ,katie's memories ( h] e>ly ,london life 7 b\nd up ) ! ,*ri/ian ,mission4 ,h& 9 h& ) h] si/] ,emma1 & (t5 s++ ) h] ,i mean ) ,jesus ,*ri/ to dwell1 w y g8 %e walk$ e ,sunday morn+ along ! great road lead+ to ,:ite*apel4 ,ineffaceable impressions 7 made on h] s5sitive m9d by ! op5-air prea*+ at ,mile ,end ,wa/e1 ,be?nal ,gre5 & ,hackney2 by ! apo/olic _s ( holy en?usiasm2 by ! ,friday morn+ pray]-meet+s1 :]e ! (fic]s met alone to plead ) ,god & wre/le 9 te>s = m p[]4 ,all ?is became ! w>p & wo( ( h] own spiritual life1 prep>+ h] = h] high call+4 ,&1 ?\gh %e c\ld n rememb] ! day ( h] new bir?1 %e cle>ly recall$ sev]al times :5 %e consecrat$ h]self1 body & s\l1 to ,god4 ,9 a great :itewa%$ build+ 9 ! ,ea/ ,end h] fa!r prea*$ on ,! ,k+'s daught]s are all glori\s )91 & %e pray$ t %e might h ! inn] purity :i* w\ld make h] a *ild ( ,god4 ,f a meet+ ( ,*ri/ian work]s %e ran home to h] room1 %ut h]self 91 & delib]ately gave h] he>t & life to ,*ri/4 ,%e c\ld n1 p]haps1 realise all t h] cov5ant meant1 b "o ?+ %e und]/ood--t %e 0 call$ to yield h]self completely to d ,8 w & to save s\ls4 ,!re 0 pl5ty ( laught] & fun 9 t home4 ,! ,boo? *ildr5 7 all born ) ! dramatic in/9ct1 & ! _s ( ! ,*ri/ian ,mission invad$ ! nurs]y4 ,n only 7 ! great dramas ( ! ,bible--,joseph & 8 bro!rs1 ,david & ,golia?1 ,daniel & ! lions1 & a score ( o!rs--enact$ !re1 b ! meet+ & ! p5it5t =m1 ! drunk>d & ! backslid]1 ! hopeful & ! desp]ate case 7 all reproduc$ 9 ! plays ( ! *ildr54 ,katie & ,emma br\ght _! babies to ! meet+1 & ! babies g5]ally insi/$ on cry+1 to ! despair ( ,bramwell or ,ball+ton1 :o /opp$ prea*+ to give ! /]n ord]1 ,take ! babies out ( ! !atre1 aga9/ :i* ! mo!rs indignantly prote/$1 ,papa w\ld n h /opp$1 papa w\ld h gone on prea*+ anyh[4 ,b ! dramatic ma/]piece 0 ,ball+ton deal+ ) an int]e/+ case--g5]ally a pill[--coax+1 dragg+1 bang+ ! poor reluctant p5it5t to ! m]cy-seat & exclaim+1 ,ah6 ?is is a good case1 bless him6 444 ,give up ! dr9k1 bro!r4 ,t is a sc5e :i* is /ill sometimes re-enact$ to ! delight ( new g5]ations4 ,jesus ,himself wat*$ ! games ( ! *ildr5 :o pip$ & m\rn$ 9 ! m>ket-place4 ,life is none ! less /r5u\s = its int]ludes ( mir?4 ,ca!r9e1 :o 0 dramatic to ! f+]-tips1 0 v e>ly ma/]$ by a s5se ( ! sacr$ness ( duty4 ,! moral ideal set be=e h] 0 ! highe/1 & h] consci5ce 0 tremul\sly s5sitive4 ,%e 0 oppress$ ) ! s5se ( :at ought to be1 & inconsolable :5 %e fail$ to atta9 x4 ,a ^w ( rebuke cut h] l a knife1 & %e w\ld sometimes weep f> into ! night if %e ?\ght %e _h put pleasure be=e duty4 ,x is a great ?+ to make religion real to *ildr51 & especially to give !m a s5se ( ! obligation to please ,*ri/ 9 ev]y?+4 ,mrs4 ,boo? f\nd ,katie ready to g all l5g?s ) h]1 & ev5 to outrun h]1 9 h] ideas ( :at 0 "r & :at 0 wrong = ,*ri/ians4 ,x is amus+ to he> t :5 ! "m 0 go+ out "o day to buy new frocks = h] little girls1 ,katie's words to h] 7 n ,d buy u some?+ pretty6 b ,m9d y get some?+ ,*ri/ian6 & t :5 ,mrs4 ,boo? came home ) h] pur*ases1 & ,katie ru%$ d[n/airs to meet h]1 ! *ild's fir/ inquiry 01 ,are !y ,*ri/ian8 ,b ! s5se ( duty may become morbid if x is n transmut$ by love4 ,_m s]vants ( ,god nev] le>n ! secret :i* makes ,*ri/'s yoke easy & ,8 burd5 light4 ,!y h to confess to !mselves t !y _c say1 ,to d ,?y w1 ,o ,"l1 ,i take delight4 ,x w\ld h be5 /range if any ( ! ,boo? *ildr5 _h n le>n$ ! secret4 ,ca!r9e discov]$ x e>ly1 le>n$ x ?or\ghly1 & x became 9 aft] ye>s "o ( ! hidd5 s\rces ( h] p[]4 ,z a *ild %e liv$ 9 union ) ,*ri/2 %e practis$ & felt ! ,real ,pres5ce2 %e und]/ood t ,*ri/ianity is a ,div9e ,s]vice transfigur$ by a ,div9e ,fri5d%ip4 ,9 ,victoria ,p>k !re 0 a %ady alley :]e %e 0 9 ! habit ( walk+1 because ,"s ,"o walk$ beside h]6 ,9 ,clifton1 :]e %e liv$ = a "t1 %e _h a t9y upp] room 9 :i* %e felt t %e 0 nev] alone6 ,t 0 h] *ildhood's religion1 :i* %e nev] ne$$ to *ange4 ,%e f\nd x to be utt]ly indep5d5t ( "t & place1 =m & c]emony4 ,9 ! gl>e ( public life1 9 ! /orm ( p]secution1 9 ! h\r ( temptation & dang]1 %e _h always a ca!dral into :i* %e c\ld retire t %e might f9d peace4 ,%e 0 spiritually ak9 ) ! ,hebrew my/ics :o liv$ 9 ! secret place ( ! ,mo/ ,high1 :o _h at all times a pavilion f ! /rife ( tongues4 ,9 h] ,neu*atel prison %e wrote "s simple words :i* s5t a ?rill ?r\gh ! he>t ( ,*ri/ian ,europe3 ,be/ ,belov$ ( my s\l1 ,i am "h alone ) ,!e2 ,& my prison is a heav51 ,s9ce ,?\ %>e/ x ) me4 99,,*apt] ,,ii99 99,a ,,girl ,,evangeli/99 ,:5 ! he>t is w>m & full ! lips become eloqu5t4 ,jesus expects ea* ( ,8 foll[]s to te/ify = ,him4 ,8 r$eem$ ones %\ld ne$ little p]suasion to plead ,8 cause4 ,e g5u9e conv]sion creates a new advocate = ,8 side4 ,dumbness is "o ( ! signs ( unreality 9 religion4 ,! s9 ( sil5ce receiv$ due ca/igation1 9 public & 9 private1 f ! tongues ( fire :i* ! ,_s gave to ,william & ,ca!r9e ,boo?4 ,_! *ildr5 !re=e le>n$ t x is e ,*ri/ian's call+ to speak 9 season & out ( season = ,*ri/1 to press ,8 claims ^u ! will+ & ! unwill+ alike4 ,katie1 x appe>s1 began among h] little companions 9 ! ,victoria ,p>k4 ,h] old nurse /ill rememb]s h[ %e w\ld ga!r little gr\ps ab\t h] & tell !m ( ! ,savi\r's love4 ,:5 %e 0 9 h] twelf? ye>1 %e liv$ = "s "t ) a family 9 ,clifton1 along ) :om %e att5d$ ! ,*ur* ( ,engl&4 ,"o ,sunday ev5+ ! ,vic>1 :o _h notic$ h] e>ne/ gaze fix$ on 8 face1 s5t = h] t he might h a little talk ) h]4 ,he ask$ h] :at %e lik$ be/ 9 ! ,bible1 & %e answ]$ ,! ,atonem5t4 ,he 0 s /ruck by h] intellig5ce t he (f]$ h] a *ildr5's class1 :i* soon grew l>ge4 ,week by week %e talk$ to ! little ones ( s9 & ! ,savi\r4 ,lett+ /ory-books g1 %e w5t = _! conv]sion4 ,hav+ to return home on h] twelf? bir?day--! la/ day on :i* %e c\ld travel ) a half-ticket--%e told h] "m ( h] great long+ to cont9ue h] "w among *ildr54 ,h] "m readily cons5t$1 & soon !re 0 a weekly ga!r+ ( "y folk 9 a d[n/airs room ( ! ,gore ,road h\se4 ,aft] a :ile ,katie _h ! assi/ance ( h] si/] ,emma1 :o 0 h] junior by little m ?an a ye>4 ,te>s 7 %$1 confessions made1 & lives *ang$ 9 t room4 ,& !re two ( ! mo/ brilliant evangeli/s ( our "t fir/ le>n$ to deal ) s\ls4 ,!y 7 9 e way k9dr$ spirits4 ,long aft]w>ds "o f9ds ,emma writ+ to ,ca!r9e3 ,we w always be 'special si/]s4' ,we 7 ,ma's two fir/ girls1 & 7 br\ght up side by side--& side by side we w lab\r & love till we /& ) our *ildr5 9 h] pres5ce aga9 be=e ! ,?rone6 ,katie 0 ?irte5 :5 %e fir/ spoke 9 public4 ,no "o ask$ h] to d x2 %e yield$ to an irresi/ible inw>d impulse4 ,h] elde/ bro!r 0 conduct+ an op5-air meet+ opposite a l[ public-h\se at ! corn] ( ,cat & ,mutton ,bridge 9 ,hackney4 ,katie 0 beside him1 & :isp]$1 ,i w say a few words4 ,h] bro!r 0 delight$1 & %e deliv]$ h] message ) a directness & flu5cy :i* compell$ att5tion & prov$ h] a born speak]4 ,n v long aft]1 %e spoke 9 ! he>+ ( ! ,g5]al1 :o wrote to 8 wife1 ,i don't "k :e!r ,i told y h[ pleas$ ,i 0 ) de> ,katie speak+ 9 ! /reets on ,sunday morn+4 ,x 0 v nice & effective4 ,bless h]6 ,f ?is "t1 says ,mr4 ,boo? 9 a docum5t ( great importance1 %e cont9u$ occasionally to speak 9 public meet+s1 b x 0 n until %e 0 betwe5 f\rte5 & fifte51 :5 %e 0 ) me 9 ,ryde1 ,isle ( ,wight1 t ,i fully realis$ & settl$ ! "q4 ,dur+ t "t my elde/ son jo9$ u = a few days1 &1 ) ano!r fri5d or two1 held op5-air meet+s2 on "o ( ^! occasions ,ca!r9e accompani$ !m1 & h] bro!r induc$ h] to say a few words1 :i* x appe>s fell ) extraord9>y p[] ^u ! li/5+ cr[d ( m5 & o!rs1 su* z usually comprise ! visitors at ^! places4 ,on _! return my son describ$ to me ! effects ( h] address1 b1 n be+ fully emancipat$ f my old ideas ( propriety1 ,i remon/rat$ & urg$ su* objections z ,i presume any o!r "m1 consecrat$ b n fully enlight5$1 might h urg$ aga9/ h] be+ ?ru/ into su* a public position at su* an e>ly age4 ,my son1 gaz+ at me ) great solemnity & t5d]ness1 said1 ',mamma1 de>1 y w h to settle ?is "q ) ,god1 = %e is z surely call$ & inspir$ by ,him = ?is p>ticul> "w z y\rself4' ,^! words 7 ,god's message to my s\l1 & help$ me to pull myself up z to ! gr\nd ( my objection4 ,i retir$ to my room1 &1 aft] p\r+ out my he>t to ,god1 settl$ ! "q t h5ce=? ,i w\ld raise no b>ri] betwe5 any ( my *ildr5 & ! c>ry+ out ( ,8 w conc]n+ !m1 try+ to rejoice t !y1 n less ?an myself1 %\ld be c\nt$ wor?y to suff] %ame = ,8 "n4 ,f t "t ,ca!r9e's pa? 0 cle>ly m>k$ out4 ,:ile %e cont9u$ h] education1 :i* includ$ a special lik+ = ,fr5*1 %e gradually und]took m & m public "w4 ,h] fa!r's delight 9 h] rip5+ p[]s f\nd frequ5t utt]ance1 & h] companion%ip ) him dur+ ! next six ye>s ( "w is "o ( ! mo/ beautiful ?+s 9 ! lit]ature ( evangelism4 ,william1 said ,mrs4 ,boo? ab\t ?is "t1 writes t he is utt]ly amaz$ at ,katie2 he _h no idea t %e c\ld speak z %e does4 ,he says t %e is a born lead]1 & w if %e keeps "r see ?\s&s sav$4444 ,praise ,8 "n t %e c /& 9 my /ead1 & be> ,8 "n to p]i%+ s\ls4 ,aft] hold+ meet+s 9 diff]5t p>ts ( ,london1 f ,/rat=d & ,popl> to ,hamm]smi?1 ,ca!r9e began1 j be=e %e 0 sev5te51 to conduct evangeli/ic campaigns 9 _m ( ! o!r great cities ( ,engl&1 sometimes la/+ ?ree weeks or a mon?4 ,! l>ge/ build+ 9 ! t[n d5sely cr[d$ ,sunday aft] ,sunday1 & frequ5tly on week nights z well2 hundr$s ( p to speak to ab\t _! s\ls' salvation e week2 correspond5ce & travel2 ceaseless lab\r & responsibility--^! ?+s absorb$ all h] en]gies ( body & m9d4 ,%e 0 b a frail girl1 & suff]$ = a "t f a curvature ( sp9e1 :i* compell$ h] to lie on h] back 9 great weakness & pa94 ,if %e yet ov]came1 x is evid5t t %e 0 m>vell\sly help$4 ,9 #ahgf ,katie 0 "o ( ! speak]s at ! annual ,conf]5ce 9 ! ,p's ,hall1 ,:ite*apel4 ,z %e appe>$ on ! plat=m1 %e 0 describ$ by h] lifelong fri5d1 ,r4 ,c4 ,morgan ( ,! ,*ri/ian1 z a fragile1 ladylike girl ( sev5te51 half woman1 half *ild1 a *>act]i/ic product ( ! ,*ri/ian ,mission1 ^: words fell l summ] ra9 ^u ! upturn$ faces ( ! cr[d4 ,?is 0 ! ,conf]5ce at :i* ! epo*-mak+ measure 0 adopt$ ( appo9t+ wom5 evangeli/s to ! sole *>ge ( /ations4 ,miss ,boo? 0 res]v$ = g5]al evangeli/ic t\rs4 ,x is int]e/+ to glance ?r\gh ! numb]s ( ! old ,*ri/ian ,mission ,magaz9e & light ^u brief reports ( ,ca!r9e's "w4 ,f ,hamm]smi? 7#ahge73 ,miss ,kate ,boo? age #af sp5t a ,sabba? ) u1 prea*+ twice ) great acceptance4 ,a l>ge audi5ce 0 deeply impress$1 & "s1 we tru/1 7 truly conv]t$ to ,god4 ,f ,popl>3 ,mr4 ,bramwell & ,miss ,c4 ,boo? 7 ) u4 ,on ! ,sunday & ,monday ev5+ ! hall 0 cr[d$1 & "s ?irty s\ls at ! two s]vices s\ght salvation4444 ,on ,ea/] ,sunday "o si/]'s face 0 cut ) a /one1 & heavy /ones fell ^u "s on _m occasions ( late2 b we endure z see+ ,him :o is invisible4 ,f ,portsm\?3 ,miss ,boo?1 assi/$ by ,w4 ,bramwell ,boo?1 comm5c$ a s]ies ( special s]vices1 :i* ,god own$ & bless$ to ! salvation ( _m preci\s s\ls4 ,9 ! morn+ ,miss ,boo? prea*$1 & all felt x good to be !re4 ,!n a love-fea/ 0 conduct$ by ,w4 ,b4 ,boo? 9 ! aft]noon4444 ,9 ! ev5+ ,miss ,boo? prea*$ 9 ! music-hall to upw>ds ( ?ree ?\s& p4 ,! ,_s appli$ ! ,^w ) p[]1 & sev5te5 broke away f ! ranks ( s9 & enli/$ "u ! bann] ( ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,aga9 f ,portsm\?1 "s mon?s lat]3 ,we _h a visit f ,miss ,boo? ) h] bro!r ,mr4 ,bramwell1 & aga9 ! de> ,"l bless$ _! lab\rs 9 ?is t[n4 ,ea* s]vice 0 fraught ) ,div9e p[]2 _m trembl$ "u ! ,^w1 & anxi\s ones came =w>d seek+ =giv5ess ( s9s1 until ! p5it5t-rail & ve/ry 7 fill$ ) ^? :o1 9 bitt]ness ( s\l1 s\ght p>don & peace ?r\gh ,jesus4 ,f ,limeh\se 7#ahgf73 ,we _h de> ,miss ,boo? & h] bro!r1 & a bless$ day4 ,9 ! ev5+ %e prea*$ ) wond]ful p[]1 & t5 or twelve came out = ,god4 ,may !y be kept fai?ful6 ,f ,portsm\?3 ,miss ,boo?'s visit 0 made ( ! ,"l a great bless+ to u all4 ,v few :o li/5$ to h] 9 ! morn+ w =get h[ %e plead$ ) u to pres5t our bodies a liv+ sacrifice4 ,oh1 may ,god bless h] & make h] a mighty bless+1 = ,*ri/'s sake4 ,f ,:ite*apel 7#ahgg73 ,an e>ne/ appeal 0 made at "o ( our ,sunday ev5+ s]vices by ,miss ,boo?1 f ',run1 speak to t "y man4' ,al?\gh 9 v delicate heal?1 ! ,"l bless$ly assi/$ h]4 ,! ^w 0 ) p[]1 & elev5 s\ls decid$ = ,jesus1 among :om 0 ! conv]t$ ,potman4 ,?is "y man 0 a lead] 9 petty & mis*iev\s annoyances4 ,! g5u95ess ( 8 conv]sion 0 evid5c$ by 8 giv+ up ! public-h\se "w to seek m hon\rable employm5t4 ,f ,middlesbro' 7#ahgh73 ,miss ,boo? visit$ u = five days1 & _m blood-b\ght s\ls h be5 bless$ & sav$4 ,h] fir/ ,sunday ) u 0 a day ( p[]1 & x w n be soon =gott5 by ^? pres5t4 ,x 0 a gr& sight to see a l>ge hall fill$ to ! door ) anxi\s he>]s1 :ile hundr$s w5t away2 b ! gr&e/ sight ( all 0 to see old & "y flock+ to ! p5it5t =m4 ,f ,leice/]3 ,miss ,boo?'s s]vices may be summ>is$ 9 ! /atem5t t %e _h tw5ty-two s\ls ! fir/ ,sunday ev5+1 & increas+ victory !reaft] "r on to ! end4 ,at ,:itby !re 0 a six weeks' campaign1 organis$ by ,capta9 ,cadman4 ,on ! fir/ ,sunday ! l>ge hall1 :i* holds ?ree ?\s&1 0 well fill$1 & 9 ! aft] s]vice _m s\ls 7 br\ght to ,jesus4 ,on ! second ,sunday ,miss ,boo? 0 li/5$ to ) brea?less att5tion4 ,9 ! aft] s]vice we drew ! net to l&1 hav+ a multitude ( fi%es1 & among !m we f\nd we _h caught a fox-hunt]1 a dog-fanci]1 drunk>ds1 a ,roman ,ca?olic1 & _m o!rs4 ,9 ! week-night s]vices s\ls 7 sav$ e night4 ,! proprietor ( ! hall _h got "s l>ge bills out ann\nc+ ',tr\pe ( ,arctic ,skat]s 9 ! ,congress ,hall = a week1' b he put !m (f by tell+ !m x 0 no use com+1 z all ! t[n 0 be+ evangelis$4 ,! conclud+ s]vices drew great cr[ds f all p>ts ( t[n & c\ntry1 ri* & poor1 until ! hall 0 s fill$ t !re 0 no /&+ room4 ,9 a ,consecration meet+1 ,aft] ,miss ,boo?'s address we =m$ a l>ge r+ 9 ! c5tre ( ! hall1 :i* br\ght ! p[] d[n ^u u2 hundr$s look$ on ) a/oni%m5t & te>s 9 _! eyes1 :il/ o!rs gave !mselves :olly to ,god4444 ,m9i/]s1 l ,nicodemus ( old1 came to see by :at p[] ^! miracles 7 wr\ght1 &1 go+ back to _! congregations1 resolv$ to s]ve ,god bett]1 & to prea* ! gospel m fai?fully 9 ! future4 ,f ,le$s3 ,miss ,boo? 9 ! ,circus4 ,a glori\s mon?4 ,h>d-he>t$ s9n]s brok5 d[n4 ,be/ ( all1 our own p h be5 gett+ bless$ly ne> to ,god4 ,on ,sunday morn+s love fea/s f n9e to t54444 ,x w\ld be impossible to give ev5 an outl9e ( ! v>i\s & glori\s cases ( conv]sion t h come "u our notice ?r\gh ! mon? :i* is pa/4 ,= truly ,*ri/ has be5 br++ to ,8 fold ri* & poor1 "y & old4 ,f ,c>diff3 ,! "q1 ',does ?is "w /&8' receiv$ a magnific5t reply on ,sunday4 ,! cr[ds :o fill$ ! ,/u>t ,hall1 to he> ,miss ,boo?1 7 ! l>ge/ any "o c rememb] see+ dur+ all ! f\r ye>s ( ! ,mission's hi/ory !re4 ,f ,k+'s ,lynn3 ,miss ,boo?'s ,mission4 ,! t[n has _h a royal visit f ! ,"l ( ,lords & ,k+ ( ,k+s4 ,!re has be5 a great awak5+1 & trembl+1 & turn+ to ! ,"l4 ,:ole families h be5 sav$1 & :ole c\rts h s\ght salvation4 ,our hol9ess meet+ w nev] be =gott54444 ,! "w "h rolls on glori\sly4 ,n only 9 ,lynn b = miles r\nd ! t[n x is well kn[n t a m>vell\s "w has be5 done & is /ill go+ =w>d4 ,all ^! battles & victories 7 naturally foll[$ by ! ,g5]al ) int5se int]e/1 & z (t5 z x 0 possible he 0 at 8 daught]'s side4 ,mrs4 ,boo? jo9$ !m :5 !y 7 op5+ a campaign toge!r at ,/ockton-on-,tees1 & s5t h] impressions to a fri5d4 ,pa & ,katie _h a bless$ beg9n+ ye/]day4 ,!atre cr[d$ at night1 & fifte5 cases4 ,i he>d ,katie = ! fir/ "t s9ce we 7 at ,c>diff4 ,i 0 a/oni%$ at ! advance %e _h made4 ,i wi% y _h be5 !re1 ,i ?9k y w\ld h be5 z pleas$ z ,i 04 ,x 0 sweet1 t5d]1 =cible1 & ,div9e4 ,i c\ld only adore & weep4 ,%e look$ l an angel1 & ! p 7 melt$1 & spellb\nd l *ildr54 ,! ,g5]al began to call h] 8 ,blue*]1 = %e help$ to w9 _m a h>d-f\ght battle :i* he might o!rwise h lo/4 ,:5 ! r[dies ?reat5$ to take ! upp] h& at a meet+1 he w\ld say1 ,put on ,katie1 %e's our la/ c>d2 if %e fails we'll close ! meet+4 ,i rememb]1 wrote h] elde/ bro!r1 a /rik+ in/ance ( ?is occurr+ 9 a c]ta9 nor!rn t[n on a ,sunday night4 ,a cr[d assembl$ at ! doors ( ! !atre1 compos$ ( ! l[e/ & r\ghe/ ( ! t[n1 :o1 ov]p[]+ ! doorkeep]s1 press$ into ! build+ & took complete possession ( "o ( ! gall]ies1 s t by ! "t ! rema9d] ( ! !atre 0 occupi$ ?is portion ( x repres5t$ a sc5e m l a cr[d$ tap-room ?an ! gall]y ( :at 0 = ! mom5t a place ( wor%ip4 ,r[s ( m5 sat smok+ & spitt+1 o!rs 7 talk+ & laugh+ al\d1 :ile _m ) hats on 7 /&+ 9 ! aisles & passages1 b&y+ to & fro jokes & criticisms ( ! co>se/ "*4 ,all ?is cont9u$ ) little int]mission dur+ ! op5+ ex]cises1 & ! m timid among u _h practically giv5 up hope ab\t ! meet+1 :5 ,miss ,boo? rose1 & /&+ 9 front ( ! little table j be=e ! footlights1 comm5c$ to s+1 ) su* feel+ & unction z x is impossible to describe ) p5 & ink1 ',! rocks & ! m\nta9s w all flee away4 ,& y w ne$ a hid+-place t day4' ,!re 0 in/antane\s sil5ce ov] ! :ole h\se2 aft] s++ two or ?ree /anzas1 %e /opp$ & ann\nc$ h] text1 ',let me die ! dea? ( ! righte\s & let my la/ end be l ,84' ,:ile %e did s ne>ly e head 9 ! gall]y 0 uncov]$1 & )9 fifte5 m9utes bo? %e & e "o ( ! fifte5 hundr$ p pres5t 7 completely absorb$ 9 h] subject1 & = =ty m9utes no "o /irr$ or spoke among t unruly cr[d1 until %e made h] conclud+ appeal1 & call$ = volunte]s to beg9 ! new life ( righte\sness1 :5 a great big navvy-look+ man rose up1 & 9 ! mid/ ( ! ?rong 9 ! gall]y exclaim$1 ',i'll make "o6' ,he 0 foll[$ by ?irty o!rs t night4 ,illu/ration3 ,,ca!r9e ,,boo? 7,f a portrait by ,edw>d ,clif=d1 exhibit$ at ! ,royal ,academy & pres5t$ to ,mrs4 ,boo?7 ,well might ! ,g5]al's hopes reg>d+ ! "y s\l-w9n] be high & confid5t4 ,papa1 wrote ,mrs4 ,boo?1 says he felt v pr\d ( h] ! o!r day z %e walk$ by 8 side at ! head ( a procession ) an imm5se cr[d at _! heels4 ,he turn$ to h] & said1 ',ah1 my lass1 y %all we> a cr[n by-&-by4' ,) :at desires & pray]s ! "m ( ?is ,wund]k9d foll[$ su* a c>e] is indicat$ by h] lett]s4 ,oh1 x seems to me t if ,i 7 9 y\r place--"y--no c>es or anxieties--) su* a />t1 su* influ5ce1 & su* a prospect1 ,i %\ld n be able to conta9 myself = joy4 ,i %\ld inde$ aspire to be '! bride ( ! ,lamb1' & to foll[ ,him 9 conflict = ! salvation ( poor1 lo/ & mis]able man4444 ,i don't want y to make any v[s 7unless1 inde$1 ! ,_s leads y to d s71 b ,i want y to set y\r m9d & he>t on w9n+ s\ls1 & to leave ev]y?+ else ) ! ,"l4 ,:5 y d ?is y w be happy--oh1 s happy6 ,y\r s\l w !n f9d p]fect re/4 ,! ,"l grant x y1 my de> *ild4444 ,i h be5 'c>eful ab\t _m ?+s4' ,i want y to c>e only = ! "o ?+4444 ,look =w>d1 my *ild1 into et]nity--on1 & ,,on1 & ,,on4 ,y are to live = ev]4 ,?is is only ! infancy ( exi/5ce--! s*ool-days1 ! "t4 ,!n is ! gr&1 great1 glori\s et]nal h>ve/4 ,:atev] gifts 7 ! d[] ( ! "y evangeli/1 %e refus$ to reg>d h]self z diff]5t 9 ,god's sight f ! poore/ & meane/ ( s9n]s4 ,if ,god lov$ h]1 ,he lov$ all ) an equal love4 ,t conviction 0 ! motive-p[] ( all h] evangelism4 ,a limit$ atonem5t 0 to h] un?9kable4 ,h[ (t5 %e has made va/ audi5ces s+ h] fa!r's great hymn1 ,o b\ndless salvation1 s full & s free6 ,:5 %e 0 conduct+ a rem>kable campaign 9 ,portsm\?1 %e f\nd h]self "o day among a numb] ( ! m9i/]s ( ! t[n1 "o ( :om 9 8 admiration ( h] & h] "w p]si/$ 9 call+ h] "o ( ! elect4 ,?is l$ to an animat$ discussion on election4 ,katie li/5$ = a :ile1 b lo/ pati5ce at la/1 &1 ris+1 deliv]$ h]self ?us3 ,i am n "o ( ! elect1 & ,i don't want to be4 ,i w\ld r be ) ! poor devils outside ?an ) y inside4 ,hav+ dis*>g$ ?is bomb%ell %e flew up/airs to h] "m4 ,oh6 %e cri$1 :at h ,i done8 ,:5 %e repeat$ :at %e _h said1 h] "m1 ^: laugh 0 always he>ty1 scream$ ) delight4 ,election z commonly taught 0 rank poison to ! ,"m ( ! ,army4 ,! doctr9e t ,god has out ( ,8 m]e good pleasure elect$ "s to et]nal life made h] wild ) indignation4 ,:5 h] son ,bramwell 0 /ay+ = a "t 9 ,scotl&1 %e wrote him3 ,x seems a peculi>ity ( ! awful doctr9e ( ,calv9ism t x makes ^? :o hold x f> m int]e/$ 9 & anxi\s ab\t its propagation ?an ab\t ! dim9ution ( s9 & ! salvation ( s\ls4444 ,x may be ,god w bless y\r sl+ & /one to deliv] ,8 s]vant out ( ! paw ( ?is be> ( hell--,calv9ism4 ,"o naturally asks :at became ( ,ca!r9e's education all ?is "t4 ,on ?is subject also ,mrs4 ,boo? held /rong views4 ,:5 h] daught] 0 sixte5 %e wrote to h]3 ,y mu/ n ?9k t we d n rightly value education1 or t we are indiff]5t on ! subject4 ,we h d5i$ ourselves ! common necess>ies ( life to give y ! be/ 9 our p[]1 & ,i ?9k ?is has prov$ t we put a "r value on x4 ,b we put ,god & righte\sness fir/ & education second1 & if ,i _h life to beg9 ov] aga9 ,i %\ld be /ill m p>ticul>4444 ,i w\ld l y to le>n to put y\r ?\ghts toge!r =cibly & well1 to ?9k logically & cle>ly1 to speak p[]fully1 i4e4 ) good b simple language1 & to write legibly & well1 :i* w h m to d ) y\r usefulness ?an half ! useful k y w\ld h to sp5d y\r "t ov] at ,college4 ,:5 ! pr9cipal ( a ,ladies' ,college1 :o _h att5d$ ,mrs4 ,boo?'s meet+s & be5 bless$1 (f]$ to receive ,ca!r9e & educate h] gratuit\sly1 ,mrs4 ,boo?1 aft] visit+ ! ,college & brea?+ ! atmosph]e ( ! place1 decl9$ ! tempt+ (f] ) ?anks4 ,"s w1 ( c\rse1 be dispos$ to "q ! wisdom ( ! "m's decision4 ,x %\ld n be impossible to comb9e ! noble/ le>n+ ) ! mo/ f]v5t fai?4 ,yet e discipl9e mu/ be judg$ by its fruits4 ,h[ _m ,ca!r9e ,boo?s h hi!rto be5 produc$ by ,newnham & ,girton8 ,long aft] ,ca!r9e ! second _h left h] home-l&1 %e cont9u$ to receive lett]s f h] ,engli% conv]ts1 & :51 aft] _m ye>s1 %e resum$ h] evangeli/ic "w 9 ,engl&1 p :om %e _h nev] se5 & nev] he>d ( be=e w\ld come & tell h] t !y _h be5 sav$ ?r\gh h] mission at ?is or t place4 ,all ^! te/imonies 7 l bells r++ 9 h] s\l4 ,"o out ( _m may be res\nd$4 ,writ+ to ,p>is 9 #ahif1 ,h5ry ,h[>d1 n[ ! ,*ief ( ,/aff 9 ! ,army1 said3 ,i h c]ta9ly nev] =gott5 y\r ,ilke/on campaign ( sixte5 ye>s ago1 :5 ,god made y\r s\l a mess5g] to my s\l4 ,y l$ me t[>ds an op5 door :i* ,i am pleas$ to rememb] ,i w5t 9 at1 & dur+ ^! _m ye>s y\r own %>e 9 my life's trans=mation has (t5 be5 ! subject ( grateful praise4 99,,*apt] ,,iii99 99,,! ,,secret ,,( ,,evangelism99 ,aft] _m victories at home1 ,william & ,ca!r9e ,boo? began to look abroad4 ,!y realis$ t ! field is ! _w1 & !y long$ to comm5ce op]ations on ! ,cont95t4 ,9 ! summ] ( #ahha1 ) high hopes & "s natural fe>s1 !y d$icat$ _! elde/ daught] to ,france4 ,9 giv+ h] !y gave _! be/4 ,delicate girl ?\gh %e 01 %e _h become "o ( ! greate/ spiritual =ces 9 ,engl&4 ,%e sway$ va/ multitudes by some?+ high] ?an m]e eloqu5ce4 ,:]ev] %e w5t revivals broke out & hundr$s 7 conv]t$4 ,!re 0 a pa?os & a p[] 9 h] appeals :i* made !m irresi/ible4 ,at ! "t ( h] dep>ture %e receiv$ _m lett]s f fri5ds :om %e _h spiritually help$1 & :o realis$ h[ mu* !y w\ld miss h] 9 ,engl&4 ,n[h]e _h %e done m good1 n[h]e c\ld h] abs5ce create a great] blank1 ?an 9 h] own home4 ,h] si/] ,eva wrote3 ,i _c be> ! ?\ght t y are gone4 ,y h always und]/ood me4 ,i hope "o day to be ( "s use to y1 9 return = all y h done = me4 ,& h] bro!r ,h]b]t wrote h]3 ,y _c "k h[ mu* ,i felt y\r leav+4 ,! bl[ came s sudd5ly4 ,y 7 gone4 ,only ,god & myself "k h[ mu* ,i _h lo/ 9 y4 ,i c tru?fully say t y h be5 ev]y?+ to me1 & if x _h n be5 = y ,i %\ld nev] h be5 :]e & :at ,i am spiritually at pres5t4 ,god bless y a ?\s& ?\s& times4 ,oh6 h[ ,i long to be ( "s little s]vice to y aft] all y h be5 to me4444 ,?\s&s ^u ?\s&s ( true1 lov+ he>ts are be>+ y up at ! ,et]nal ?rone1 m9e among !m4 ,y h a *ance t m5 ( ! pa/ w\ld h giv5 _! blood =1 & t ! v angels 9 ,heav5 covet4 ,!re 0 no ,ent5te ,cordiale 9 ^? days1 & at ! ?\ght ( p>t+ ) ,katie1 & lett+ h] g to live 9 ! slums ( ,p>is1 ,mrs4 ,boo? confess$ t %e felt unutt]able ?+s4 ,9 a lett] to a fri5d %e wrote3 ,! pap]s ,i read on ! /ate ( ,society 9 ,p>is make me %udd]1 & ,i see all ! dang]s to :i* our d>l+ w be expos$6 ,b if h] fe>s 7 great1 h] fai? 0 great]4 ,ask$ by ,lady ,cairns h[ %e d>$ to s5d a girl s "y & unprotect$ into su* surr\nd+s1 %e answ]$1 ,h] innoc5ce is h] /r5g?1 & ,katie kn[s ! ,"l4 ,& if ,katie h]self 0 ask$ to def9e ,*ri/ianity1 %e answ]$1 ,*ri/ianity is h]oism6 ,= a girl ( ?is _s1 0 !re1 aft] all1 any?+ s =midable 9 ! ,fr5* p8 ,0 !re n r a pre-e/abli%$ h>mony betwe5 h] & ! pleasant l& ( ,france1 z h] rem>kable pr$ilection = ! ,fr5* language already seem$ to indicate8 ,is any nation 9 ! _w s *ivalr\s z ! ,fr5*8 any nation s s5sitive to ! *>m ( mann]1 ! magnetic p[] ( p]sonality8 any nation--9 spite ( all its hatr$ ( cl]icalism--gift$ ) s infallible a s5se ( ! beauty ( true hol9ess8 ,c\rage1 cam>ade6 ,:at 7 ! ideas ) :i* ,ca!r9e began h] "w 9 ,p>is8 ,:at 0 h] plan ( campaign8 ,h[ did %e hope to conqu]8 ,on ^! po9ts let u li/5 to h]self4 ,i saw1 %e says1 t ! bridge to ,france 0--mak+ ! ,fr5* p believe 9 me4 ,t is :at ! ,prote/ants d n und]/&4 ,!y prea* ! ,bible1 !y write books1 !y (f] tracts4 ,b t does n d ! "w4 ',curse y\r bibles1 y\r books1 y\r tracts6' cry ! ,fr5*4 ,i h se5 ?\s&s ( te/am5ts giv5 away to v little purpose4 ,i h se5 !m torn up to light cig>s4 ,& ! conviction t took %ape 9 my m9d 0 t1 unless ,i c\ld inspire fai? 9 me1 !re 0 no hope4 ,only if ,jesus is lift$ up 9 fle% & blood1 w ,he to-day draw all m5 to ,him4 ,if ,i _c give ,him1 ,i %all fail4 ,france has n wait$ till n[ = religion1 = prea*+1 = eloqu5ce4 ,some?+ m is ne$$4 ',i t speak unto !e am ,he'--!re is a s5se 9 :i* ! _w is wait+ = t to-day4 ,y may say t ?is leads to fanaticism1 to all sorts ( error2 & yet ,i always come back to x4 ,*ri/'s prim>y idea1 ,8 means ( sav+ ! _w1 is1 aft] all1 p]sonality4 ,! face1 ! "*1 ! life ( ,jesus is to be se5 9 m5 & wom54 ,?is is ! bridge to ! see?+ masses :o believe 9 no?+1 :o hate religion1 :o cry ',d[n ) ,jesus ,*ri/6' ,:at sympa?y ,i felt ) !m z ,i li/5$ to _! angry cries aga9/ some?+ :i* !y _h nev] really se5 or kn[n4 ,!y %\t ',jesuits1' b !y h nev] se5 ,jesus4 ,c\ld !y b see ,him1 !y w\ld /ill 'receive ,him gladly4' ,x is ! prie/s' religion t has made !m bitt]4 ',money to be baptis$6 ,money to be m>ri$6 ,money to be buri$6' 0 :at ,i he>d !m mutt]4 ,ah6 !y are quick to recognise ! com$ian 9 religion1 & equally quick to recognise ! real ?+4 ,france is m s5sitive to dis9t]e/$ love ?an any nation ,i h ev] kn[n4 ,france w nev] accept a religion )\t sacrifice4 ,^! 7 ! convictions ) :i* ,i began ! "w 9 ,p>is1 &1 if ,i _h to beg9 x ov] aga9 to-day1 ,i w\ld g on ! same l9es4 ,:5 ,i knew :at ,i _h to d1 my m9d 0 at re/4 ,i said1 ',we w lay ourselves out = !m2 !y %all "k :]e we live1 !y c wat* u day & night1 !y %all see :at we d & judge u4' ,& ! wond]ful ?+ 9 ^? fir/ ye>s ( our "w 9 ,france & ,switz]l& 0 ! flame4 ,we light$ x all along ! l9e4 ,:]ev] we w5t we br\ght ! fire ) u1 we fann$ x1 we communicat$ x4 ,we c\ld n help do+ s1 because x 0 9 u1 & t 0 :at made u suff]]s4 ,! fire _h to be burn+ 9 u day & night4 ,t is our symbol--! fire1 ! fire6 ,seigneur1 ce que mon coeur reclame1 ,c'e/ le ,feu 444 ,le seul secret de la ,victoire1 ,c'e/ le ,feu4 ,we all "k :at ! fire is4 ,x w>ms & x burns2 x scor*es ! ,ph>isees & makes ! c[>ds fly4 ,b ! poor1 tempt$1 unhappy _w kn[s by :om x is k9dl$1 & says3 ',i "k ,!e :o ,?\ art--! ,holy ,"o ( ,god6' ,t 0 :at fill$ ! halls at ,havre & ,r\51 ,nimes & ,bordeaux1 ,brussels & ,liege4 ,we p]sonifi$ ,"s ,"o1 & t 0 ! attraction4 ,i h n ! insuff]able conceit to suppose t x 0 any?+ 9 me t drew !m4 ,:at am ,i8 ,du/ & a%es4 ,b if y h ! fire1 x draws1 x melts2 x consumes all selfi%ness2 x makes y love z ,he loves2 x gives y a he>t ( /eel to y\rself1 & ! t5d]e/ ( he>ts to o!rs2 x gives y eyes to see :at no "o else sees1 to he> :at o!rs h nev] giv5 !mselves ! tr\ble to li/5 to4 ,& m5 ru% to y because y are :at y are2 y are z ,he 0 9 ! _w2 y h ,8 sympa?y1 ,8 ,div9e love1 ,8 ,div9e pati5ce4 ,!re=e ,he gives y ! victory ov] ! _w2 & :at is money1 :at are h\ses1 l&s1 any?+1 comp>$ ) t8 ,?is 0 ! "o attraction4 ,:5 ,i w5t to ,france ,i said to ,*ri/3 ',i 9 ,y & ,y 9 me6' & _m a "t 9 confront+ a laugh+1 sc(f+ cr[d1 s+le-h&$1 ,i h said1 ',y & ,i are en\gh = !m4 ,i won't fail ,y1 & ,y won't fail me4' ,t is some?+ ( :i* we h only t\*$ ! fr+e4 ,t is a tru? almo/ h]metically seal$4 ,x w\ld be sacrilege1 x w\ld be desecration1 x w\ld be wrong1 unfair1 unju/ if ,div9e p[] 7 giv5 on any o!r t]ms ?an absolute self-ab&onm5t4 ,:5 ,i w5t to ,france ,i said to ,jesus1 ',i w suff] any?+ if ,y w give me ! keys4' ,& if ,i am ask$ :at 0 ! secret ( our p[] 9 ,france1 ,i answ]3 ,fir/1 love2 second1 love2 ?ird1 love4 ,& if y ask h[ to get x1 ,i answ]3 ,fir/1 by sacrifice2 second1 by sacrifice2 ?ird1 by sacrifice4 ,*ri/ lov$ u passionately1 & loves to be lov$ passionately4 ,he gives ,himself to ^? :o love ,him passionately4 ,& ! _w has yet to see :at c be done on ^! l9es4 99,,*apt] ,,iv99 99,,*ri/ ,,9 ,,p>is99 ,9 ! e>ly spr+ ( #ahha ,capta9 ,ca!r9e ,boo? & h] intrepid lieut5ants1 ,flor5ce ,sop]1 ,adelaide ,cox & ,elizabe? ,cl>k1 :o enjoy$ ! privilege ( h] example & tra9+1 began life 9 ,p>is4 ,lat] on !y 7 jo9$ by ,ru? ,patrick1 ,lucy ,johns & o!rs4 ,soon aft] !y 7 jo9$ by ! ,g5]al's y\nge/ son1 ,h]b]t ,boo?1 :o is pr\d ( hav+ receiv$ 8 fir/ black eye 9 assi/+ 8 si/] dur+ ^? e>ly fights1 & ,ar?ur ,sydney ,clibborn1 :o liv$ a life ( unp>allel$ devotion & h]oism1 & lat] became ! ,m>e*ale's husb&4 ,ye>s be=e ,canon ,b>nett & 8 b& ( ,ox=d m5 7 attract$ to ,:ite*apel1 ^! fre% "y ,engli% girls settl$ 9 a simil> qu>t] ( ! ,fr5* capital4 ,:at quixotic impulses c>ri$ !m ?i!r8 ,!y _h no social or political ideals to realise4 ,!y _h n be5 p]suad$ t altruism is bett] ?an egoism1 t ! en?usiasm ( humanity is nobl] ?an ! pursuit ( pleasure or ! love ( culture4 ,!y 7 n we>y ( ! conv5tions ( society & seek+ a new s5sation 9 slumm+4 ,!y 7 n play+ at soldi]s4 ,b !y1 too1 _h _! dreams & visions4 ,!y lov$ ,*ri/1 & !y wi%$ to see ,*ri/ victori\s 9 ,p>is4 ,com+ into a wild]ness ( pov]ty1 squalor & vice1 !y d>$ to believe t !y c\ld make ! des]t to rejoice & blossom z ! rose4 ,!y _h ! fai? :i* laughs at impossibilities4 ,! fir/ lett] ,ca!r9e receiv$ f h] fa!r aft] %e set foot 9 ,france brea!d t5d] affection & ard5t hope4 ,oh1 my he>t does ye>n ov] y6 ,h[ c\ld y fe> = a s+le mom5t t y w\ld be any less ne> & de> to me on acc\nt ( y\r brave go+ =? to a l& ( /rang]s to help me 9 ! great purpose & /ruggle ( my life8 ,my d>l+1 y are ne>] & de>] ?an ev]4444 ,france is hang+ on y to an ext5t fe>ful to contemplate1 & y mu/ reg>d y\r heal?1 see+ t we _c g on )\t y4 ,we %all anxi\sly await in=mation z to :5 y make a />t4 ,ev]ybody :o has he>d y & kn[s y feels ! fulle/ confid5ce 9 ! result4 ,nev]!less ,i %all be glad = y to get to "w1 see+ t ,i "k y won't be easy 9 y\r m9d until y h se5 a few ,fr5* s9n]s sma%$ up at ! p5it5t =m4 ,) h] own h& ,ca!r9e rais$ ! flag at ,rue d',ang\leme #ff1 9 ,belleville4 ,"h 0 a hall = six hundr$1 situat$ 9 a c\rt approa*$ by a n>r[ /reet4 ,! bulk ( ! audi5ce t ga!r$ !re night aft] night 7 ( ! artisan class4 ,"s 7 "y m5 ( a l[] type1 & f ^! came :at di/urbance !re 04 ,! ,fr5* s5se ( hum\r is ke51 & !re 7 _m lively sallies at ! exp5se ( ! speak]s & s+]s on ! plat=m4 ,e false acc5t1 e wrong idiom1 e unexpect$ utt]ance or ge/ure 0 receiv$ ) an outbur/ ( laught]4 ,b ! mir? 0 sup]ficial1 & ! expression on ! faces ( ! tir$ m51 h>ass$ wom51 & pale *ildr5 0 "o ( settl$ melan*oly4 ,ca!r9e in/9ctively felt t :at !y ne$$ 0 a gospel ( joy2 c]ta9ly n ! prea*+ ( hell1 = did !y n live 9 hell8 ,^! toil+ si/]s & bro!rs 7 ! multitudes on :om ,jesus _h compassion4 ,meet+s 7 held night aft] night1 & = six mon?s ! ,capita9e 0 nev] abs5t except on ,saturdays4 ,^? 7 days ( fight1 & %e f\ght1 to use h] own phrase1 l a tig]4 ,%e _h to fight fir/ h] own he>t4 ,%e knew h] capacity1 & ,god _h done great ?+s ?r\gh h] 9 ,engl&4 ,! *ange f an audi5ce ( five ?\s& spellb\nd he>]s 9 ! circus ( ,le$s to a h&ful ( gib+ ouvri]s 9 ! ,belleville qu>t] ( ,p>is 0 inde$ a cla%+ anti!sis4 ,a =tnight pass$ )\t a s+le p5it5t1 & ,ca!r9e 0 all ! "t s ill t x 0 d\btful if %e w\ld be able to rema9 9 ! field4 ,t =tnight 0 probably "o ( ! supreme trials ( h] fai?4 ,! "w appe>$ s hopeless6 ,!re 0 no?+ to see4 ,b = ! ,capita9e fai? meant go+ on4 ,x meant say+ to h] he>t1 ,y may suff]1 y may ble$1 y may break1 b y %all g on4 ,%e w5t on1 believ+1 pray+1 fight+1 & at la/ ! tide ( battle turn$4 ,! beg9n+ ( :at prov$ a memorable meet+ 0 m ?an usually unpromis+4 ,"o ( ! torm5tors1 a t]rible woman1 kn[n z ! devil's wife1 excell$ h]self t night4 ,%e 0 ( imm5se size1 & us$ to /& 9 ! hall ) arms akimbo & sleeves roll$ up above ! elb[s1 & ) "o w9k ( h] eye w\ld set ev]ybody scream+ & yell+4 ,on ?is occasion !re 0 n a ?+ t %e did n turn to ridicule4 ,! fun grew fa/ & furi\s1 & "s ( ! audi5ce got up & began to dance4 ,! meet+ seem$ to be lo/2 b by a ma/]-/roke ! lead] turn$ defeat into victory4 ,?r\gh ! d9 %e cri$1 ,mes amis6 ,i w give y tw5ty m9utes to dance1 if y w !n give me tw5ty m9utes to speak4 ,are y agre$8 ,a tall1 d>k1 h&some ouvri]1 9 a blue bl\se1 :o _h be5 a r+lead] 9 ! di/urbances1 jump$ up & said1 ,citiz5s1 x is only fair play2 & !y all agre$4 ,s !y _h _! dance1 & at ! end ( ! appo9t$ "t ! ouvri]1 /&+ ) wat* 9 h&1 cri$1 ,"t up1 citiz5s2 x is ! ,capita9e's turn6 ,! b>ga9 0 kept4 ,ev]ybody sat d[n1 & an extraord9>y sil5ce fill$ ! place4 ,n = tw5ty1 b = an h\r & tw5ty m9utes ! lead] _h ! meet+ 9 ! holl[ ( h] h&4 ,:5 ! audi5ce fil$ out1 ! tall ouvri] rema9$ beh9d1 & ,ca!r9e w5t d[n to :]e he 0 sitt+ 9 ! back ( ! hall4 ,) 8 *isell$ face & firm-set m\?1 he look$ l a man :o c\ld h se5 "o burn$ alive )\t mov+ a muscle4 ,?ank y1 said ! ,capita9e1 y h help$ me to-night4 ,h y und]/ood :at ,i h be5 say+8 ,i believe t y believe :at y say4 ,oh6 ( c\rse ,i believe4 ,well1 ,i 0 n sure be=e4 ,) a sigh he add$1 ,h y "t to li/58 ,yes1 c]ta9ly4 ,x 0 midnight & !y 7 alone4 ,z he began 9 s(te/ tones to tell ! /ory ( 8 inn] life1 %e felt ! delicacy ( ! s\l t is hidd5 "u ! r\ghe/ ext]ior4 ,he said1 ,i _h ! happie/ home 9 all ,p>is4 ,i m>ri$ ! woman ,i lov$1 & aft] twelve mon?s a little boy came to our home4 ,?ree weeks aft]1 my wife lo/ h] reason1 & n[ %e is 9 an asylum4 ,b !re 0 /ill my little boy4 ,he 0 a beautiful *ild4 ,we ate toge!r1 slept toge!r1 walk$ & talk$ toge!r4 ,he 0 all ! _w to me4 ,he 0 ! fir/ to greet me 9 ! morn+1 & ! fir/ to welcome me 9 ! ev5+ :5 ,i came home f "w4 ,?is w5t on till ! six? ye> /ruck1 & !n4444 ,8 lips twit*$1 & he turn$ 8 face away4 ,8 he>] s(tly said1 ,he di$4 ,he gave a sc>cely p]ceptible nod1 & smo!r$ a groan4 ,& !n1 he cont9u$1 ,i w5t to ! devil4 ,be=e ! op5 grave 9 ! ,p]e ,la*aise cemet]y1 ) hundr$s ( my comrades ab\t me1 ,i lift$ my h& to heav5 & cri$1 ',if !re be a ,god1 let ,him /rike me dead6' ,b ,he did n /rike y dead8 ,no4 ,he is v g5tle & pati5t ) u all4 ,& n[ y h come "h to-night4 ,does x n seem to y a /range ?+ t y out ( all ! millions ( ,france1 & ,i out ( all ! millions ( ,engl& %\ld be all alone toge!r "h at midnight8 ,h[ d y acc\nt = x8 ,isn't x because ,god ?\ght ( y1 & loves y8 444 ,d y ev] pray8 ,i pray8 ,oh1 nev]6 ,p]haps ,i pray$ z a *ild1 b nev] n[4 ,b ,i pray1 said ! ,capita9e1 &1 kneel+ d[n1 %e pray$ a d\ble pray]1 = h]self z well z = him4 ,%e want$ ?is man's salvation = h] own sake & ! "w's sake4 ,= weeks %e _h be5 fight+ & pray+ = a break1 & %e felt z if on ! issue ( ?is wre/l+ = a s+le s\l dep5d$ ! :ole future ( ! "w 9 ,france4 ,:ile %e pray$ = 8 salvation f s9 %e 0 sil5tly pray+ = h] own deliv]ance f d\bt & fe> & disc\ragem5t4 ,& bo? pray]s 7 he>d4 ,:5 %e op5$ h] eyes1 %e saw 8 face ba!d 9 te>s4 ,%e knew t 8 he>t 0 melt$1 & %e spoke to him ( ! love ( ,god4 ,b ,i h hat$ ,him4 ,i h hat$ religion2 ,i h come "h to mock y2 ,i h call$ y ,jesuits4 ,yet ,god loves y4 ,b :y did ,he all[ my wife to lose h] reason8 ,:y did ,he take my *ild if ,he is love8 ,i _c answ] ^! que/ions4 ,y w "k :y "o day4 ,b ,i "k ,he loves y4 ,is x possible t ,he c =give a poor s9n] l me8 ,x is c]ta94 ,emile 0 won4 ,"s nights aft]w>d he gave 8 te/imony1 & = sev5 ye>s he always /ood by ! ,m>e*ale4 ,he 0 h] be/ help]4 ,:5 he us$ to get up to speak1 !re 0 imm$iate att5tion4 ,citiz5s1 he w\ld say1 y all "k me4 ,y h he>d me _m times4 ,?is ,god :om ,i once hat$ ,i n[ love1 & ,i want to speak to y ab\t ,him4 ,aft] ?is1 conv]sions became frequ5t4 ,! m]cy-seat 0 r>ely empty4 ,"o ( ! fir/ ,fr5* songs ( ,ca!r9e's composition conta9$ ! mo/ curi\s idioms3 ,qu& je suis s\ffrant1 ,ent5dez mon cri1 etc4 --,donnez moi ,jesus4 ,b %e sang x ) su* feel+ t x 0 ! means ( ! conv]sion ( a clev] "y gov]ness1 :o became "o ( h] mo/ devot$ (fic]s4 ,!n ano!r /rik+ conque/ 0 made4 ,"o night a r\gh fell[1 p>tly drunk1 approa*$ ! ,capita9e & said a vile ^w to h] 9 ! he>+ ( ! devil's wife1 :o dealt him a bl[ t s5t him reel+ across ! hall cry+1 ,y d>e n t\* h]1 %e is too pure = u6 7,elle e/ trop pure p\r n\s67 ,ca!r9e ru%$ betwe5 !m & /opp$ ! fight4 ,?us la femme du diable 0 won1 & f t "t %e got two or ?ree o!rs to jo9 h] 9 =m+ ,ca!r9e's bodygu>d1 :o nightly escort$ h] & h] comrades ?r\gh ! ,rue d',allemagne1 :i* 0 a haunt ( crim9als1 & saw h] safe at ! door ( h] flat 9 ! ,av5ue ,p>m5ti]4 ,:5 ,b>on ,c$]/roem 0 seek+ local col\r = 8 pa9t+ ,! ,m>e*ale 9 ! ,cafe1#a he drove d[n ) 8 wife to a meet+ 9 ! ,rue d',ang\leme4 ,z !y approa*$ ! hall1 ! ,b>oness caught sight ( "s ( ! faces & took fright4 #a ,?is pa9t+ is n[ 9 ! picture gall]y ( ,/ockholm4 ,! arti/1 z is well kn[n1 aft]w>ds m>ri$ ,madame ,patti4 ,g back1 g back6 %e %\t$ to ! coa*man4 ,! ,b>on tri$ 9 va9 to reassure h]4 ,give me my salts6 %e cri$1 feel+ z if %e w\ld fa9t4 ,i nev] saw su* faces 9 my life4 ,!y are all murd]]s & brig&s4 ,to ,ca!r9e1 :o came out to welcome h]1 %e exclaim$1 ,i am sure ! good ,god won't s5d y to ,purgatory1 = y h x "h6 ,y h no?+ to fe>1 0 ! answ]2 ,i am "h e night4 ,b z ! ,b>oness 0 l$ up to ! front seats1 %e /ill ca/ sc>$ looks at ! p %e pass$4 ,"s ( ! politically dang]\s classes did give tr\ble = a "t4 ,knives 7 display$ & "s blood 0 %$4 ,an excit$ s]geant ( police decl>$ "o night t half ! cut-?roats ( ,p>is 7 9 t hall1 & by ord] ( ! au?orities x 0 clos$4 ,soon1 h[ev]1 ! meet+s 7 aga9 9 full sw+1 & :5 ,ca!r9e's elde/ bro!r ,bramwell1 h] comrade 9 _m an ,engli% campaign1 paid h] a fly+ visit ?ree mon?s aft] %e left home1 he 0 delight$ ) all t he saw4 ,! meet+s1 he wrote1 are held e night4 ,! congregations v>y f #aej to #djj4444 ,on ,sunday1 at ?ree1 ,i att5d$ ! te/imony meet+1 :i* is only = conv]ts & fri5ds4 ,ab\t sev5ty 7 pres5t4 ,miss ,boo? took ! c5tre1 & ga!r$ r\nd h] a little company4 ,i _c describe t meet+4 ,:5 ,i he>d ^? ,fr5* conv]ts s++ t fir/ hymn1 ',ne>] to heav51 ne>] to heav51' ,i wept = joy1 & dur+ ! season ( pray] :i* foll[$ my he>t ov]fl[$4 ,"h1 us+ ano!r tongue1 among a /range p1 almo/ alone1 ?is little b& h tru/$ ! ,"l & triumph$4444 ,!n te/imonies 7 invit$4444 ,i wept & rejoic$1 & wept aga94 ,i glorifi$ ,god4 ,_h ,i n he>d ^! sev5te5 p speak 9 _! own language ( ,god's sav+ p[] 9 ,p>is dur+ ^? few weeks6 ,i require all :o read ?is to rejoice4 ,i believe !y w4 ,rememb] h[ great a task x is to awak5 ! consci5ce be=e ,*ri/ c be (f]$2 to conv9ce ( s9 z well z ( righte\sness2 to call to rep5t5ce z well z fai?4444 ,on ! foll[+ night #cjj 7 pres5t4444 ,miss ,boo? /epp$ (f ! plat=m z %e conclud$ h] address1 & came d[n1 z s _m ( u h se5 h] come d[n at home1 into ! mid/ ( ! p4 ,h] clos+ appeal seem$ to g ?r\gh !m4 ,_m 7 deeply mov$4 ,"s ( ^? sitt+ at ! back1 :o _h evid5tly come l>gely = fun1 quail$ be=e "o's v eyes1 & seem$ subdu$ & s(t5$4 ,god 0 work+4 ,lat] 9 ! ye> ! new headqu>t]s on ! ,quai de ,valmy 7 op5$4 ,"h !re 0 a hall = #abjj4 ,no o!r =m ( religion c\ld draw su* an assembly ( ! l[e/ class ( ,p>isians z nightly met 9 x4 ,! m5 came 9 _! bl\ses1 kept _! caps on _! heads1 &--except t !y ab/a9$ f smok+1 9 ob$i5ce to a notice at ! door--behav$ ) ! fre$om & ease ( a music-hall audi5ce4 ,b ! e>ne/ way 9 :i* mo/ ( ^? pres5t jo9$ 9 ! hymns prov$ t !y 7 n m]e spectators1 & x 0 a/oni%+ t _m r\gh1 unkempt1 & ev5 brutal-look+ m5 soon le>n$ to s+ he>tily )\t us+ ! book4 ,!re 7 a hundr$ conv]ts 9 ! fir/ ye> & ano!r five hundr$ 9 ! second4 ,p>is h]self began to te/ify t a good "w _h be5 begun 9 h] mid/4 ,on ! way to & f ! hall 9 ! ,rue d',ang\leme ,ca!r9e1 :o by ?is "t _h begun to be ende>+ly kn[n z ! ,m>e*ale1 ! highe/ milit>y title 9 ,france1 us$ (t5 to meet a prie/1 to :om %e always said ,bon j\r1 mon p]e4 ,"o day he paus$ & said1 ,madame la ,m>e*ale1 ,i want to tell y t s9ce y began y\r "w 9 ?is qu>t] ! moral atmosph]e ( ! :ole place has *ang$4 ,i meet ! fruits ev]y:]e1 & ,i c tell bett] ?an y :at y are do+4 ,%e felt t ,god s5t h] t ^w ( enc\ragem5t4 ,"o ( h] lett]s ( ?is "t indicates :at k9d ( impression h] "w 0 mak+4 ,!re is a man1 %e wrote1 :o has att5d$ our meet+s mo/ regul>ly4 ,he li/5s ) brea?less att5tion1 & sometimes ! te>s fl[ d[n 8 *eeks4 ,he 0 visit$1 & s5t me #gj francs = our "w1 ) a message t he desir$ to see me4 ,i saw him1 & he gave me #hj m1 ) ! words ',sauvez la jeunesse'6 7',save ! "y6'7 ,i f\nd him v d>k & hopeless ab\t himself4444 ,! next week he aga9 call$ me aside 9 ! hall1 put #ej francs into my h&1 say+ he hop$ soon we %\ld h a hall 9 e qu>t] ( ,p>is4 ',save ! "y p6' he aga9 said4 ,i said ',yes1 b ,i want to see y sav$4' ',t w come1' he said1 & left ! hall4 ,la/ ,sunday aft]noon1 ,i notic$ him weep+ 9 a corn] ( ! hall1 z our "y p 7 witness+ = ,jesus1 &1 aft] ! s]vices1 he ask$ if he might speak to me = two m9utes2 ?is "t he h&$ me #fj francs1 tell+ me to g on pray+ = him4 ,he has liv$ a bad life & is tr\bl$ ) ! ?\ght ( ! pa/4 ,x began to be commonly believ$ t ! ,m>e*ale c\ld "w c]ta9 k9ds ( miracles4 ,a woman :o _h att5d$ ! meet+s1 & be5 bless$ 9 h] s\l1 became conv9c$ t ! ,engli% lady _h p[] to ca/ out devils1 & "o day %e br\ght a neighb\r to ! physician ( s\ls1 introduc+ h] ) ! rem>k1 ,%e has n only "o b sev5 devils4 ,! new-com] _h a frightful face4 ,%e 0 s drunk51 immoral & viol5t t nobody c\ld live ) h]4 ,yet %e1 too1 _h a s\l4 ,! ,m>e*ale made h] get d[n on h] knees1 put bo? h] h&s on h] head1 & pray$ t ! devils might all be ca/ out4 ,%e's n[ ano!r woman1 0 ! te/imony soon aft] borne by all h] neighb\rs4 ,"o ( ! sure/ indications ( ! success ( ! "w 9 ,p>is is f\nd 9 ! fact t1 be=e ! end ( ! fir/ ye> !re 0 a g5]al dem& = a newspap] correspond+ 9 "s degree to ! ,engli% ,w> ,cry4 ,t 0 a memorable day on :i* ! ,m>e*ale & h] (fic]s sat 9 _! ,av5ue ,p>m5ti] flat1 l a cot]ie ( ,fleet ,/reet j\rnali/s1 gravely discuss+ _! new v5ture4 ,x 0 indicative ( ! holy simplicity ( ! editor-9-*ief t %e ?\ght at fir/ ( *ang+ ,! ,w> ,cry into ,am\r4 ,%e did n realise ! s5sation :i* ! cry ,am\r1 un s\6 w\ld h creat$ 9 ! ,b\lev>ds4 ,h] proposal 0 ov]rul$1 b h] second sugge/ion1 to call ! pap] ,en ,avant1 0 receiv$ ) acclamation4 ,?is 0 a real inspiration4 ,! pap] duly appe>$ 9 ! beg9n+ ( #ahhb1 & has gone on successfully ev] s9ce4 ,! %\t+ ( its "n 9 ! /reets set all ! _w & 8 wife a-?9k+ & a-talk+4 ,:at if ! ,man ( ,naz>e? is aft] all f> ahead ( our mod]n philosoph]s & /atesm51 & if ?is h&ful ( ,engli% girls is come to lead u all =w>d to true lib]ty1 equality & frat]nity8 ,! reports ( ! "w 9 ,france 7 receiv$ ) feel+s ( gratitude at home4 ,to ,my de> ,kitt5s--a family pet-"n--h] bro!r ,bramwell wrote3 ,we are m ?an satisfi$ ) y\r progress4 ,! ,g5]al says t s f> z he c judge y\r rate ( advance 9 mak+ p is great] ?an 8 own 0 at ! beg9n+4 ,i am sure y ought to feel only ! livelie/ confid5ce & greate/ enc\ragem5t all ! "t4 ,& to ,my d>l+ ,blue*] ! ,g5]al himself wrote1 ,i appreciate & admire & daily ?ank ,god = y\r c\rage & love & endurance4 ,god w & mu/ bless y4 ,we pray = y4 ,i feel ,i live ov] aga9 9 y4 ,we all s5d y our he>tie/ greet+s & our mo/ t5d] affection4 ,look up4 ,don't =get my sympa?y4 ,don't tr\ble to answ] my scrawls4 ,i nev] l to see y\r h&writ+ because ,i "k x means y\r poor back4 ,rememb] me to all y\r comrades4 ,i feel ,i live ov] aga9 9 y4 ,! ?\ght 0 evid5tly habitual 9 ! ,g5]al's m9d4 ,he bids me tell y1 wrote ,emma1 t y are 8 second self4 ,! resemblance 0 physical z well z spiritual4 ,) h] tall figure1 h] *isell$ face1 h] aquil9e nose1 h] p5etrat+ blue eyes1 ,ca!r9e became1 z "t w5t on1 m & m /rik+ly l h] fa!r4 ,"o ( h] sons1 :o saw h] /oop+ ov] ! ,g5]al ! day be=e he di$1 said t ! two pallid faces 7 l facsimiles 9 m>ble4 99,,*apt] ,v99 99,,fre$om ,,to ,,wor%ip ,,god99 ,9 ! autumn ( #ahhc ! ,m>e*ale sudd5ly leapt into fame z a latt]-day ,portia1 brilliantly & successfully plead+ 9 a ,swiss law-c\rt1 be=e ! eyes ( ,europe1 ! sacr$ cause ( civil & religi\s lib]ty4 ,! l& ( ,tell1 ! olde/ ( mod]n republics1 has always be5 reg>d$ z a %r9e ( fre$om4 ,x has %[n itself hospitable to all k9ds ( ideas1 ev5 ! newe/1 ! /range/1 ! mo/ anti-,*ri/ian1 ! mo/ anti-social4 ,!re is a natural aff9ity betwe5 free ,engl& & free ,switz]l&4 ,two ,voices are !re2 "o is ( ! sea1 ,"o ( ! m\nta9s2 ea* a mighty ,voice3 ,9 bo? f age to age ?\ did/ rejoice2 ,!y 7 ?y *os5 music1 ,lib]ty4 ,9 ! ,treaty ( ,fri5d%ip betwe5 ,great ,brita9 & ,switz]l&1 drawn up 9 #ahee1 x 0 agre$ t ! subjects & citiz5s ( ei!r ( ! two contract+ p>ties %all1 provid$ !y con=m to ! laws ( ! c\ntry1 be at lib]ty1 ) _! families1 to ent]1 e/abli% !mselves1 reside & rema9 9 any "p ( ! t]ritories ( ! o!r4 ,yet ! pres5ce ( a few ,engli% evangeli/s 9 ,switz]l& evok$ a /orm ( p]secution 9 :i* ! fir/ pr9ciples ( religi\s lib]ty 7 z mu* violat$ z ev] !y _h be5 9 ! days ( ! ,hugu5ots4 ,:5 ! ,m>e*ale & "s comrades accept$ an urg5t invitation to ,switz]l&1 %e little ?\ght t %e w\ld be ! h]o9e ( an hi/orical trial4 ,%e w5t to prea* ! gospel4 ,%e obs]v$ ! laws ( ! l&1 & respect$ ! religi\s susceptibilities ( its p4 ,:5 %e ent]$ ,g5eva1 %e publi%$ only "o po/]1 & t aft] x _h be5 duly vise2 %e all[$ no processions1 bann]s or brass b&s 9 ! /reets4 ,h] only crime 0 t %e s\ght to ga9 ! e>s ( ^? :o nev] ent]$ a place ( wor%ip1 & t %e m>vell\sly succe$$4 ,if good ord] 0 n always ma9ta9$ at h] meet+s1 x 0 n h] fault1 b t ( ! au?orities :o refus$ to d _! duty4 ,hi/ory repeats itself4 ,z 9 anci5t ,!ssalonica dur+ ! visit ( ,/4 ,paul1 s 9 mod]n ,g5eva1 "s citiz5s1 mov$ ) jeal\sy1 took unto !mselves c]ta9 vile fell[s ( ! rabble1 & ga!r+ a cr[d set ! city on an upro>4 ,! r+lead]s ( ! di/urbance 7 paid by not$ traffick]s 9 vice1 :o 7 !mselves (t5 se5 9 ! meet+s incit+ ! audi5ce to riot4 ,"o ( ! fir/ conv]ts1 a /ud5t1 confess$ t he _h got tw5ty francs a night1 & z mu* :isky z he c\ld dr9k1 to make a r[4 ,! ,dep>tm5t ( ,ju/ice & ,police *anc$ at t "t to h z its presid5t a ,c\ncillor ( ,/ate1 ,m4 ,h]idi]1 :o ?\ght x "r n to puni% ! (f5d]s b to bani% _! victims4 ,9 a sitt+ ( ! ,gr& ,c\ncil he said1 ,we h be5 petition$ to call out a company ( g5d>m]ie to protect ^! =eign]s1 & to prev5t brawls & r[s4 ,i w n cons5t to take su* a /ep4 ,!re are already eight police ag5ts 9 ^! places e ev5+ :o h a v h>d "t ( x4444 ,^! ag5ts might be do+ m useful "w else:]e1 & ,i am j ab\t to )draw !m4 ,t meant h&+ ov] ! /rang]s to ! t5d] m]cies ( ! mob4 ,x 0 a gross brea* ( ! laws ( hospitality & *ivalry z well z ( ! con/itution ( a free c\ntry4 ,! city ( ,calv9 did n "k ! day ( its visitation4 ,! ,m>e*ale & h] comrades began _! meet+s 9 ! ,cas9o on ,decemb] #bb1 #ahhb4 ,! hall 0 cr[d$1 & soon !re 0 rag+ a great battle betwe5 ! p[]s ( light & d>kness4 ,a di/urbance _h evid5tly be5 organis$4 ,a b& ( /ud5ts 9 col\r$ caps1 :o _h come e>ly & tak5 possession ( ! front ( ! gall]ies & o!r prom95t positions1 7 on _! wor/ behavi\r4 ,! fir/ hymn 0 int]rupt$ by cries & ribald songs1 & ! pray] :i* foll[$ 0 almo/ dr[n$4 ,b ! ,m>e*ale 0 nev] m calm & confid5t ?an :5 fac+ su* music4 ,at e slight lull 9 ! /orm1 %e utt]$1 9 cle>1 p5etrat+ tones1 "s po9t$ words :i* pi]c$ _m a he>t4 ,)9 an h\r %e n only _h subdu$ h] audi5ce b 0 invit+ ^? :o desir$ salvation to come =w>d to ! p5it5t =m4 ,sc(f]s ( half an h\r ago left _! places1 trembl+ "u ! s5se ( guilt1 & z !y knelt d[n ! ,m>e*ale sang1 9 s(t notes1 ! hymn3 ,revi5s1 revi5s1 pauvre pe*eur1 ,ton ,p]e encore t'att5d2 ,veux-tu languir lo9 du bonheur1 ,et pe*] plus longtemps8 ,o6 revi5s a ton ,sauveur1 ,revi5s ce soir1 ,il veut te recevoir1 ,revi5s a ton ,sauveur6 ,a /range influ5ce /ole ov] ! meet+1 hu%+ ! cr[d into pr(\nd sil5ce1 & ! ,_s did ,8 "w 9 _m he>ts4 ,! ,m>e*ale conduct$ a simil> s]vice ! foll[+ night1 & on ,*ri/mas ,eve %e fac$ an audi5ce ( #cjjj 9 ! ,salle de la ,re=mation4 ,its composition 0 entirely to h] m9d1 = %e 0 nev] s inspir$ ) div9e pity & p[] z :5 %e 0 confront+ ! wor/ elem5ts ( a t[n4 ,! !atres1 ! cab>ets1 ! danc+ saloons1 ! dr9k+ d5s1 & ! r5dezv\s ( pro/itution _h p\r$ _! cont5ts into ! hall4 ,sociali/s :o _h f\nd refuge 9 ,g5eva--m5 ( _m nationalities--came en masse4 ,a l>ge "p ( ! audi5ce 7 s entirely /rang]s to ! idea ( wor%ip or ( a ,div9e ,be+1 t ! s\nd ( pray] call$ =? l\d d]isive laught]1 ) que/ions & cries ( surprise & scorn4 ,b ! soldi]s ( ,*ri/1 clad 9 arm\r ( light1 7 m ?an a mat* = ! p[]s ( d>kness4 ,_m a w+$ ^w f\nd its m>k1 & ! aft]-meet+ 9 ! small] hall1 into :i* ?ree hundr$ 7 cr[d$1 0 p]vad$ by a dea?-l /illness1 9 :i* _m s\ght & f\nd salvation4 ,"s ( ! r+lead]s ( ! di/urbance _h pu%$ _! way into ?is room2 b !y rema9$ p]fectly quiet1 evid5tly subdu$ & ov]-aw$1 ) an expression on _! faces ( int5se int]e/1 :i* %[$ t !y felt !y 7 9 pres5ce ( a reality 9 religion :i* !y _h n be=e enc\nt]$4 ,! ,m>e*ale sang h] own hymn ,je vi5s a ,toi1 dans ma mis]e1 & _m jo9$ 9 ! *orus3 ,ote t\s mes pe*es6 ,agneau de ,dieu1 je vi5s a ,toi1 ,ote t\s mes pe*es4 ,"o ( ^? :o 7 melt$ by ! words wrote3 ,i 0 l ! demoniac ( ,gad>a4 ,i may say ,i 0 possess$2 ,i 0 *a9$ = fifte5 ye>s to a frightful life4444 ,x 0 !n t y came4 ,i 0 at fir/ a/oni%$2 !n remorse seiz$ me4 ,!n foll[$ a frightful torm5t 9 my s\l--a real hell4 ,i resolv$ to put an end to x "o way or ano!r4 ,yet ,i ?\ght ,i w\ld g & he> y once m4 ,i _h be5 9 d>kness & angui% s9ce ! day ( ! fir/ meet+4 ,no ^w _h ,i be5 able to recall ( t day's tea*+1 except ! words ( ! sacr$ song ',ote t\s mes pe*es' 7,take all my s9s away74 ,^! s\nd$ 9 my he>t & bra9 ?r\gh ! day & ! sleepless night--^! & ^! only4 ,b[$ d[n ) grief & despair1 aga9 ,i came to ! ,re=mation ,hall1 & to ! aft]-meet+4 ,! fir/ s\nds :i* fell on my e> 7 aga9 ^? v words1 ',ote t\s mes pe*es1' & !n y spoke on ! words1 ',?\gh y\r s9s be z sc>let1 !y %all be :ite z sn['2 y seem$ to speak to me alone1 to reg>d me alone--& ,i felt x 0 ,god :o _h s5t me !re to he> ^? words4 ,hundr$s ( su* lett]s 7 writt54 ,evid5ce came f all sides ( bless+ receiv$ 9 _m homes1 ( wild sons reclaim$1 ( drunk>ds & vici\s m5 trans=m$ by ! p[] ( ,god1 ( light & joy br\ght into families ov] :i* a cl\d _h hung4 ,n only an>*i/s & prodigals1 b /ud5ts ( !ology & ! *ildr5 ( pa/ors _h _! lives trans=m$4 ,9 a meet+ = wom5 only1 at :i* #cjjj 7 pres5t1 ! daught] ( ,pa/or ,napoleon ,r\ssel began ! new life4 ,h] bro!r _h be5 "o ( ! conv]ts 9 ! fir/ meet+ 9 ! ,re=mation ,hall4 ,mlle4 ,r\ssel 0 to be ! ,m>e*ale's secret>y = five ye>s1 & accompany h] 9 a great ,am]ican t\r4 ,a div9ity /ud5t :o att5d$ a night ) ,jesus on ,new ,ye>'s ,eve1 wrote3 ,i pass$ a long night ( wat*1 :i* ,i %all nev] =get4 ,s9ce !n ,i am ev] happy1 & c say ',glory to ,god' e h\r ( ! day4 ,b z ! tide ( ,div9e bless+ rose1 ! tide ( human hatr$ also rose1 & 9 ! beg9n+ ( ,febru>y ! ex]cises ( ! ,army 7 by ,cantonal decree =bidd54 ,a week lat]1 ! ,m>e*ale1 ) a "y companion1 ,miss ,maud ,*>leswor?1 n[ ,mrs4 ,g54 ,ball+ton ,boo?1 0 expell$ f ! ,canton ( ,g5eva4 ,dur+ h] six weeks 9 ! city %e _h be5 us$ to br+ ab\t probably ! greate/ revival :i* x _h witness$ s9ce ! days ( ! ,re=m]s4 ,"o ( ! mo/ em95t lawy]s ( ,g5eva1 ,edmond ,pictet1 :o _h himself be5 greatly bless$ dur+ ^? /irr+ weeks1 help$ h] to draw up an ,appeal 7,rec\rs7 to ! ,gr& ,c\ncil4 ,he f\nd1 h[ev]1 t %e ne$$ b little help1 & (t5 rem>k$ t ) ! w>m he>t ( an evangeli/ %e comb9$ ! lucid intellig5ce ( an advocate4 ,:5 ! ,c\ncil ( ,/ate _h deput$ two or ?ree ( its memb]s to he> h] on ! subject ( h] ,appeal1 %e came back to ,g5eva "u a safe-conduct to meet !m4 ,9 ! c\rse ( ! int]view1 at :i* ! ,briti% ,consul 9 ! city 0 pres5t1 ! lead+ ,c\ncillor said1 ,y are a "y woman2 x is n 9 accordance ) our ideas & cu/oms t "y wom5 %\ld appe> 9 public4 ,we are sc&alis$ 7froisses7 by x4 ,! rejo9d] :i* he receiv$ 0 s rem>kable a def5ce ( ! ,prophesy+ ( ,wom5 t we give x 9 full4 ,li/5 to me1 ,i beg ( y1 sir4 ,x is contr>y1 y tell me1 to y\r s5se ( :at is "r & becom+ t "y wom5 %\ld prea* ! ,gospel4 ,n[1 if ,miss ,*>leswor? & ,i _h come to ,g5eva to act 9 "o ( y\r !atres1 ,i h no d\bt we %\ld h met ) sympa?y & approval f y\r public4 ,we c\ld h sung & danc$ on y\r /age2 we c\ld h dress$ 9 a mann] v diff]5t f1 & mu* less mode/ ?an1 t 9 :i* y see u dress$2 we c\ld h appe>$ be=e a miscellane\s audi5ce1 m5 & wom51 "y & old1 & ( e class2 memb]s ( ! ,gr& ,c\ncil1 ,m4 ,h]di] himself & o!rs1 w\ld h come to see u act2 we %\ld h got money2 ,g5eva w\ld h paid ungrudg+ly 9 t case2 & y w\ld all h sat & approv$2 y w\ld h clapp$ y\r h&s & *e]$ u2 y w\ld h br\ght y\r wives & daught]s to see u1 & !y also w\ld h applaud$4 ,!re w\ld h be5 no?+ to froiss] y1 no immorality 9 all t1 accord+ to y\r ideas & cu/oms4 ,! noise 7bruit7 we %\ld h ?us made w\ld n h caus$ our expulsion4 ,b :5 wom5 come to try & save "s ( ! =ty or fifty ?\s& ( y\r mis]able1 sc(f+1 irreligi\s population :o nev] ent] any place ( wor%ip1 :5 !y come ) he>ts full ( pity & love = ! ignorant & s9ful1 & /& up to tell ! glad tid+s ( salvation to ^! rebels1 ?is mob1 among :om _m accept ! tid+s ) eag] joy--!n y cry out t ?is is unseemly & immode/4 ,y w\ld n br+ y\r wives & daught]s to he> u speak ( ,jesus1 ?\gh y w\ld br+ !m to he> u if we danc$ & sang ^u ! /age ( y\r !atre4 ,n[ y h expell$ u2 b /ill !re are ^? multitudes 9 ,g5eva :o are d>k1 lo/1 unsav$2 & y "k x4 ,!re !y are2 !y exi/4 ,:at w y d ) !m8 ,say--:at w y d8 ,are !y n a dang]8 ,does n _! lo/ condition cry out aga9/ y8 ,! ,c\ncillor 0 n only sil5c$1 b sank into 8 *air 9 a /ate ( tempor>y lapse4 ,= ! mom5t1 at lea/1 ! reality ( ! picture pres5t$ to him _h t\*$ 8 he>t4 ,nev]!less ! ,m>e*ale's ,appeal 0 reject$1 & ,m4 ,pictet wrote to h]3 ,! wret*$ /orm ( ang] & prejudice :i* y witness$ & :i* y\r fri5ds deplore s mu*1 has n bl[n ov] by any means4 ,i1 = "o1 despair ( ev] see+ my fell[-citiz5s prop]ly und]/& :at religi\s lib]ty & respect ( o!r p's op9ion mean1--!re=e ! only c\rse left to ! ,army seems to be ! "o indicat$ 9 ,/4 ,mat!w x4 #bc6 ,y h done y\r duty1 y _c be expect$ to d m ?an ,paul & ,b>nabas did 7,acts xiii4 #ea74 ,meantime ! enemies ( righte\sness rejoic$4 ,! !atrical pap] ( ,g5eva complim5t$ ! au?orities ^u ! expulsion4 ,our !atre1 x said1 has lo/ a =midable rival1 & ! cr[d is beg9n+ to f9d its way back to u4 ,at t critical "t x 0 n only ! civil b ! spiritual lead]s :o 7 weigh$ & f\nd want+4 ,inju/ice c\ld sc>cely h be5 pu%$ s f> _h n ! ,*ur*es sanction$ x by _! attitude ( sil5ce or op5 ho/ility4 ,_m religi\s p took ! side ( ! p]secut+ gov]nm5t & ! godless populace4 ,! bitt]e/ pamphlet aga9/ ! ,armee du ,salut 0 writt5 by ,madame la ,comtesse de ,gasp>91 :om ! delight$ mob hail$ z a ,*ri/ian if ev] !re 0 "o4 ,b ! mo/ /range & humiliat+ fact ( all 0 t ! ,swiss bran* ( ! ,evangelical ,alliance resolv$1 aft] due delib]ation1 to refra9 f utt]+ a s+le ^w 9 def5ce ( religi\s lib]ty4 ,no wond] t a numb] ( its mo/ influ5tial memb]s sorr[fully )drew f its fell[%ip4 ,bani%$ f ,g5eva1 ! ,evangeli/s f\nd refuge = a "t 9 ,neu*atel4 ,com+ on ! sc5e j aft] ! au?orities _h =bidd5 ev5+ meet+s1 ! ,m>e*ale gave notice ( a morn+ "o to be held ! next day4 ,! hall 0 fill$1 & ! meet+s w5t on e morn+ & aft]noon1 all ?r\gh ! week4 ,at six o'clock on ,sunday morn+ ! ro>+ ( a cr[d ( r\ghs com+ up ! /reet rea*$ ! e>s ( ^? :o _h already ga!r$ inside ! hall4 ,:ile ! noise grew l\d] & l\d]1 ! ,m>e*ale said to h] (fic]s1 ,wait "h & pray2 ,i w g & meet !m4 ,on /epp+ outside ! door1 %e 0 at once surr\nd$ by r\gh fell[s 9 _! %irt sleeves1 arm$ ) /icks & =ks & /ones1 :o began to dem& :at %e want$ 9 _! t[n1 & p\r$ ^u h] ! s5seless accusations ( ! tap-rooms4 ,g away6 cri$ "o1 we've got our pa/ors4 ,my fri5d1 0 ! reply1 y don't d !m mu* cr$it4 ,"h is my god6 7,voila mon dieu671 said ano!r1 pull+ out 8 pipe & br&i%+ x 9 ! ,m>e*ale's face4 ,y w ne$ ano!r :5 y come to die4 ,y want our money6 %\t$ a ?ird4 ,:at d y say8 ,y say t aga96 ,say x6 ,y d>e n1 y d n believe x1 y "k t x is a lie4 ,& tak+ ?is man by ! %irt coll>1 ! ,m>e*ale l$ him into ! hall & up to ! front seat1 :]e he sat li/5+ mo/ att5tively = two h\rs4 ,two r[s ( p5it5ts s\ght p>don at ! close ( ! meet+4 ,9 ,june ! ,gr& ,c\ncil ( ,nau*atel vot$ = ! suppression ( ! ,armee du ,salut2 & ,zuri* & ,canton du ,vaud soon foll[$ suit4 ,x !n became cle> t ! only hope ( gett+ ^! uncon/itutional decrees resc9d$ lay 9 disobey+ !m4 ,juri/s :o 7 consult$ held t ?is 0 ! be/ way to compel ! au?orities to retrace _! /eps4 ,_m ,swiss conv]ts 7 ready to suff] = consci5ce' sake1 b ! ,m>e*ale resolv$ t %e w\ld h]self1 z a subject ( ,que5 ,victoria1 ass]t h] "r to wor%ip ,god on ,swiss soil4 ,9 a new =m %e w\ld raise ! ,apo/le's "q1 ,is x lawful = y to sc\rge a man t is a ,roman & uncondemn$8 ,! int]e/ ( ! situation 0 height5$ by ! fact t x 0 n[ a woman's "q4 ,all ! _s ( ! mod]n _w 0 9 ! ,m>e*ale's bold decl>ation1 ,i am a ,briti% citiz54 ,aft] work+ = "s mon?s 9 ! s\? ( ,france1 %e return$ to ,nau*atel & delib]ately infr+$ ! ,cantonal decree4 ,on ! aft]noon ( ,sunday1 ,septemb] #i1 %e conduct$ a meet+ at ,prise-,im]1 9 ! ,jura =e/1 "s five miles above ! lake4 ,9 a lett] to ,engl& %e describ$ ! sc5e4 ,x 0 a day nev] to be =gott54 ,long be=e ! h\r ! p met1 & we _h upw>ds ( #ejj :o _h come out ( ,nau*atel to praise ,god4 ,! wea!r 0 beautiful4 ,aft] s mu* tr\ble1 fatigue & a long j\rney1 we c\ld meet to talk ( ! ?+s ( ,god4 ,he>ts & voices rose toge!r1 & x *e]$ me mu* to look into ! faces ( our brave soldi]s4 ,!re 0 no mi/ak+ _! zeal & det]m9ation to g =w>d4 ,:ile ! hymn ,come1 ,?\ burn+ ,_s1 come 0 be+ sung "u ! tall p9e trees1 a s5t9el :o _h be5 /ation$ on ! outskirts ( ! =e/ ann\nc$ t ! ,prefect 9 8 c>riage1 att5d$ by sixte5 policem51 0 approa*+4 ,! ,m>e*ale gave ! news to ! audi5ce1 & call$ on ev]ybody to be calm & confid5t4 ,take no notice4 ,we %all h a glori\s meet+ all ! same4 ,! g5d>mes f\nd ! congregation kneel+1 & =m$ a r+ r\nd x1 ! ,prefect himself tak+ 8 /& close to ! ,m>e*ale4 ,he & 8 foll[]s 7 all ov]aw$4 ,= ov] two h\rs !y li/5$ z m5 spellb\nd4 ,!y he>d ! ,m>e*ale pray = ! ,gov]nm5t1 = ! nation ( ,switz]l&1 = !mselves4 ,!y he>d h] speak ( ! end & aim ( ! ,armee du ,salut--to save ! lo/1 to make all ?ieves1 drunk>ds1 outca/s1 & plagues ( society peaceful & loyal citiz5s1 ?r\gh ! p[] ( ,jesus to lead ! nations to ,god4 ,!n !y he>d ! te/imonies ( conv]t$ crim9als1 "o ( :om told ( 8 ?ree ye>s' imprisonm5t4 ,po9t+ to a pla9-clo!s detective1 he said1 ,t policeman ov] !re kn[s me2 he took me to jail2 b n[ ,i am a *ang$ man4 ,no wond] t ! ,prefect ( ,police 0 pr(\ndly impress$4 ,at ! end ( ! s]vice1 he took out 8 w>rant ) trembl+ h&s1 & /amm]$-- ,i h "h 444 ,i ought444 ,yes1 ,i "k4 ,y h a decree = my arre/4 ,:y didn't y give x me be=e8 ,well1 ,i c\ld n4 ,yes1 a high] ,p[] ?an man 0 "h to re/ra9 y4 ,he c\ld n )hold 8 tribute ( admiration4 ,?is is a magnific5t "w1 if x does b la/4 ,y d no?+ b good4 ,i besee* y n to hold me responsible = ?is act4 ,i1 l o!rs1 _h judg$ y )\t see+ or he>+ y4 ,he _h1 h[ev]1 to obey 8 ord]s4 ,! ,m>e*ale & ,capta9 ,becquet1 "o ( h] (fic]s1 7 put "u arre/4 ,z !y 7 leav+ t pleasant place1 %e exclaim$1 ,h[ /range t we are n to be all[$ to wor%ip ,god 9 ^! beautiful woods6 ,:at a pity to see !m /&+ sil5t & unus$6 ,to "s ( ^? :o he>d h] voice t ,sunday ev5+1 ! spot 0 = ev] holy gr\nd4 ,9 ! audi5ce 0 a "y ,switz]1 ,con/ant ,jeanmonod1 "o ( nature's g5tlem51 :o f\nd salvation on t day1 gave himself body & s\l to ,god1 & aft]w>ds became "o ( ! ,m>e*ale's mo/ devot$ fri5ds & comrades 9 _m a h>d campaign4 ,he is n[ at ! head ( ! "w 9 ,belgium4 ,! ,m>e*ale & ,capta9 ,becquet 7 br\ght d[n to ,nau*atel & conduct$ to ! h\se ( ,m4 ,comtesse1 ,presid5t ( ! ,c\ncil ( ,/ate1 :o said to !m1 ,y are my prison]s1 & x is my duty to h y lock$ up ?is night4 ,! ,m>e*ale1 h[ev]1 _h j receiv$ a telegram begg+ h] to att5d ! fun]al ( a brave "y ,g5eva conv]t1 :o _h brea!d a dy+ reque/ t %e %\ld speak at 8 grave-side4 ,%e ask$ p]mission to fulfil ?is sacr$ duty1 & 0 lib]at$ on bail ( #fjjj francs4 ,next morn+ a s]vice 0 held 9 ! g>d5 ( ! f>mh\se ne> ,g5eva :]e ,*>les ,wyssa _h di$1 & !re ! ,m>e*ale f\nd a lifelong fri5d4 ,mrs4 ,joseph9e ,butl] 0 pres5t1 & gave a brief address :i* liv$ long 9 ! memory ( ^? :o he>d x4 ,hav+ spok5 ( h] pr(\nd sympa?y ) ! "w ( ! ,armee du ,salut 9 ,switz]l&1 %e made a mov+ ref]5ce to ! fact t %e _h lo/ h] only & de>ly-lov$ daught]1 :om %e _h nam$ ,evangel9e 9 ! hope t h] life w\ld be d$icat$ to evangelisation4 ,"o fatal ev5+1 :51 ! "m return$ home aft] a long j\rney1 h] little daught] came runn+ d[n/airs to meet & welcome h]4 ,9 h] extreme eag]ness to see h] "m aga91 ! *ild =got all dang]1 slipp$ ov] ! /aircase balu/rade1 & 0 tak5 up cru%$ & unconsci\s4 ,9 less ?an an h\r h] g5tle _s _h fl$4 ,at ! c(f9 ( t *ild1 said ,mrs4 ,butl]1 ,i consecrat$ my life to ! relief ( my suff]+ & oppress$ bro!rs & si/]s4 ,my great desire 0 t %e %\ld become a prea*] ( ! ,^w ( ,god4 ,& n[1 add$ ! "m1 ?r[+ h] arms r\nd ! ,m>e*ale1 by ano!r new c(f9 ,i h f\nd my long-lo/ daught]1 an ,evangeli/ *os5 & bless$ ( ,god4 ,:5 ! ,m>e*ale _h daught]s ( h] own1 %e call$ ! elde/ ,ca!r9e ,evangel9e & ! y\nge/ ,joseph9e4 ,f t g>d5 ! company mov$ to ! *ur*y>d1 :]e ! ,m>e*ale spoke on ! beautiful words1 ,:o are ^! :i* are array$ 9 :ite robes1 & :5ce came !y8 ,j z ,john ,wyssa1 ! y\ng] bro!r ( ,*>les1 0 ?r[+ a h&ful ( e>? on ! c(f91 & murmur+ ! words ,au revoir1 mon fr]e1 ! ,mayor ( ! ,commune approa*$ 9 ord] to arre/ ,miss ,boo?4 ,at ?is juncture ,col4 ,clibborn int]pos$1 say+1 ,sir6 ?is is a fun]al4 ,he 0 a co>se1 brutal fell[1 v diff]5t f ! ,prefect ( ,police 9 ,neu*atel4 ,! mayor n he$+ 0 putt+ 8 h& ^u ,miss ,boo?'s arm1 :5 %e turn$ ^u him ) fla%+ eyes1 & said1 ,h&s (f6 ?is is holy gr\nd6 ,don't y see t we are 9 ! pres5ce ( ! dead8 ,i f9i% ?is s]vice1 & !n w speak ) y4 ,:5 ! fun]al rites 7 end$1 ! ,mayor ?\ght 8 turn 0 at la/ come4 ,he 0 ab\t to proce$ ) ! arre/1 :5 ! ,m>e*ale /ill object$4 ,y c't arre/ me6 ,! ,mayor />$ 9 bewild]m5t4 ,i say y c't arre/ me6 ,may ,i ask :y8 ,because ) ! be/ w 9 ! _w ,i c't g to two prisons 9 two ,cantons at ! same "t4 ,i am due 9 ,nau*atel4 ,! ,mayor saw t %e 0 "r1 & retir$ cre/fall54 ,! ,m>e*ale return$ to ,nau*atel & surr5d]$ to h] bail4 ,! iron gates ( ! grim jail clos$ ^u h]4 ,! imprisonm5t 0 %>$ by h] fai?ful lieut5ant1 ,kate ,patrick1 :o refus$ to leave h]4 ,x 0 twelve days be=e ! trial came on4 ,! ,m>e*ale 0 9 delicate heal?1 & frequ5tly became sick4 ,! hung]-/rik+ & =cible fe$+ ( ^! latt] days w\ld soon h kill$ h]4 ,%e tri$ to eat1 b _h little appetite1 & :at little %e _h 0 de/roy$ by ! g>lic 9 ! food4 ,mice di/urb$ h] nights & 9 ! e>ly morn+ ! od\rs :i* came f ! passages 7 insupportable4 ,! only way 9 :i* %e c\ld get any relief 0 by putt+ h] face betwe5 ! iron b>s ( ! w9d[ & brea?+ ! air :i* came up f ! lake4 ,%e 0 always ?ankful t h] face 0 ?9 & j w5t ?r\gh ! cold b>s4 ,"o morn+ at five or six o'clock %e 0 awak5$ by happy voices s++ de> famili> *oruses outside ! prison walls4 ,%e 0 v ill1 b %e dragg$ h]self f h] h>d b$ to ! w9d[1 wav$ h] h&1 & cri$ ,am56 ,!n %e atta*$ h] h&k]*ief to a b>1 & let x flutt] l a flag4 ,! signal 0 receiv$ ) %\ts ( ,am51 ,m>e*ale--be ( good *e]--hold on--hallelujah6 ,z ! "t pass$1 %e 0 ?r[n 9 ^u h]self1 & w5t ?r\gh a great s\l-/ruggle4 ,%e _h lately be5 ! victim ( a /++ article1 grossly ignorant & cruelly unju/1 :i* _h appe>$ 9 a religi\s pap]1 writt51 rum\r said1 by ! wife ( a ,swiss pa/or4 ,x _h accus$ h] ( unwomanl9ess1 immode/y1 & vanity4 ,%e made ! pa9ful discov]y t %e c\ld n yet say1 ,none ( ^! ?+s move me4 ,! poison$ arr[s _h gone deep1 =c+ te>s f h] eyes & attack+ h] peace ( m9d4 ,*anc+ to notice a little slate hang+ on ! wall ( h] cell1 %e took x d[n & began to write on x all ! accusations :i* h] enemies might br+ aga9/ h]1 ask+ h]self z %e did s1 ,c\ld y write y\r "n & say y accept t1 & t8 ,h] consci5ce compell$ h] to answ] ,no1 !re are "s ?+s :i* ,i c\ld n endure4 ,%e 0 appall$ z %e ?\ght ( m & great] trials :i* ,god might ask h] to und]go4 ,he might deprive h] ( heal?4 ,he might s5d h] to ,japan4 ,he might take away h] reputation & make x impossible = h] to def5d h]self4 ,c\ld %e be> su* ?+s8 ,no1 %e c\ld n yet sign h] "n "u ! t]rible words %e wrote4 ,) sorr[ %e put ! slate back 9 its place1 & = two days x hung aga9/ ! wall ) its li/ ( cruel ?+s :i* %e c\ld n accept4 ,b dur+ ^? days %e pond]$ & pray$4 ,%e rebuk$ h] d\bts & fe>s4 ,h[ c\ld %e ev] di/ru/ h] ,"l1 :o _h l$ h] ) su* inf9ite t5d]ness8 ,h[ imag9e t ,he w\ld ev] lay ^u h] m ?an ,he w\ld give h] p[] to be>8 ,%e soon crept up close to ,8 arms1 & realis$ t no?+ 0 really unbe>able except d\bt4 ,tak+ h] slate d[n1 %e read ov] aga9 all t %e might be call$ ^u to suff]1 & sign$ ,ca!r9e ,boo?4 ,!n ! ,angels ( ,god fill$ ! prison cell2 ! peace & joy ( heav5 flood$ h] s\l2 & f t h\r h] communion ) h] ,"l 0 s sweet t %e kiss$ ! walls ( h] dungeon be=e %e 0 l$ =? to h] trial4 ,on t day 7,septemb] #ai7 %e wrote h] exquisite prison song1 ,be/ belov$ ( my s\l1 & s5t x to h] fa!r4 ,x 0 sung1 :ile %e 0 /ill 9 prison1 at a great meet+ = pray]1 9 ,exet] ,hall1 at :i* ,mrs4 ,butl] spoke4 ,x 0 fir/ writt5 9 ,fr5*1 ! language 9 :i* %e n[ habitually ?\ght1 & translat$ by h]self into ,engli%4 ,! latt] is well-kn[n1 & _m read]s w be glad to h ! ,fr5*4 ,o ,toi que mon ame adore1 ,je ne suis pas seule ici1 ,c> je ,t'y retr\ve encore1 ,et je suis au ciel a9si1 ,ma vie e/ a ,ton s]vice1 ,je ,t'app>ti5s sans ret\r2 ,corps et ame en sacrifice1 ,je ,te suivrai nuit et j\r4 ,combattons dans la s\ffrance1 ,et les yeux baignes de pleurs2 ,bi5 pres e/ la delivrance1 ,voici l',homme de d\leurs6 ,sa voix *asse ma tri/esse1 ,mon *agr9 s'e/ dissipe2 ,je *ante avec allegresse1 ,mon ca*ot e/ trans=me6 ,au milieu de la tempete ,ri5 ne peut tr\bl] ma paix2 ,son am\r que ri5 n'arrete ,peut me g>d] a jamais4 ,le combat e/ dur1 t]rible1 ,l'enf] rugit contre n\s2 ,mais l',armee e/ inv9cible3 ,avec ,dieu n\s va9crons t\t4 ,dur+ ! twelve days ( h] imprisonm5t ! ,m>e*ale receiv$ _m lett]s ( sympa?y & good *e] f ,swiss fri5ds1 ^: words prov$ to h] h[ deep & real _h be5 ! "w ( ! ,armee du ,salut 9 ! c\ntry4 ,"o ( ! mo/ int]e/+ 0 sign$ by sev5ty-two mo!rs1 :o bore glad te/imony to ! conv]sion ( _! sons & daught]s1 & two m 7 sign$ by a numb] ( wives prais+ ,god = ! conv]sion ( _! husb&s4 ,m intimate lett]s came to ,ca!r9e f home1 all brea?+ w>m love1 t5d] solicitude1 & ard5t hope t good w\ld come out ( evil4 ,i q see ) y1 wrote h] "m1 z to ,god's h& be+ 9 all ?is1 & x appe>s t :5 communities or nations get sodd5 9 s9 & d>kness1 !re is no way ( ar\s+ !m b by su* a fla%+ ( ! tru? 9 _! mid/ z w provoke p]secution4 ,god wants ! att5tion ( ! p1 & ?is is ! be/ way to secure x1 no d\bt4444 ,p]haps y are "r ab\t plead+ y\r own cause1 only y %\ld h "s "o at y\r elb[ :o kn[s ! law4 ,y w n be up on po9ts ( law1 ,i fe>1 o!rwise ,i h no d\bt t ,god w give y :at y %\ld say4 ,i feel x a great ?+ to h a *ild 9 prison = ,jesus' sake2 !re c\ld be only "o great]1 namely to be !re myself2 b "o w\ld h>dly h ?\ght x possible 9 ?is age4 ,h[ true t ! devil hates real sa9ts z mu* z ev] he did1 & t ! _s ( p]secution only ne$s ! real pres5ce ( ! ,_s ( ,god to call x =?4444 ,t ! ,"l com=t & keep y & reveal ,himself to y m & m & make y a "m ( nations1 prays y\r lov+ & sympa?is+ "m4 ,ca!r9e ,boo?4 ,! next lett] admirably reveals bo? ! fa!r's & ! ,g5]al's he>t4 ,) ! deepe/ conc]n = 8 belov$ daught] !re is comb9$ a lively s5se ( ! fact t 8 enemies are ov]rea*+ !mselves & do+ him & 8 cause ! greate/ possible s]vice4 ,he wrote3 ,my d>l+1 no "o c tell ! anxieties we h all gone ?r\gh conc]n+ y dur+ ?is week4444 ,we 7 awak5$ by telegraph mess5g] ) a wire f ,g5eva to say ',blue*] deta9$ till trial4 ,patrick ) h]--c>$ =4' ,! la/ s5t5ce fills u ) relief4 ,we int]pret x to mean ,patrick is ) y z y\r secret>y or maid1 & y h all y\r wants suppli$ & no h>d%ips4444 ,enclos$ is ?is morn+'s ,times4 ,all ! pap]s h notices ( x1 s t x is fly+ all ov] ! _w4 ,if y d n suff] 9 y\r heal?1 ,i don't c>e4 ,x w all "w = good4 ,b y\r heal? is ( m importance to me 9 my e/imation ?an all ,switz]l&4 ,if y c only get assurance ( ?is6 ,i am all unc]ta9 :e!r ?is w rea* y4 ,!re w be a /orm directly & no mi/ake if ^! ,swiss g on at ?is rate4 ,we all s5d y all our he>t's love & heaps ( pray]s & sympa?y4 ,god bless & keep y6 ,rememb] me to ,lieut4 ,patrick4 ,y\r affectionate fa!r1 ,william ,boo?4 ,mrs4 ,bramwell ,boo?1 :o z ,miss ,flor5ce ,sop] _h be5 "o ( ! ,m>e*ale's fir/ comrades 9 ,p>is1 wrote h]3 ,i feel z if y _h m\nt$ away to a l& :]e ,i c call y ',katie' no m4 ,b ,i w say1 & ,i d say 9 my he>t ( inn]mo/ he>ts1 my ,sa9t ,ca!r9e1 c\nt$ wor?y to suff]4444 ,if only ,i c\ld besee* y to rememb] t y\r heal? is ev]y?+4 ,?is is ! dawn+ ( a glori\s morn+ 9 y\r "w--! =]unn] ( a glori\s victory4 ,w y s5d "s ^w ?r\gh ,patrick ( ! :ole tru?--j let me "k---j y\r ,flo--if x is z bad z a prison cell1 & is x do+ y\r body ! lea/ bit ( h>m8 444 ,i wi% y c\ld "k1 9 y\r solitude1 h[ we all love y--,i wi% ! breezes ov] ! lake c\ld br+ y "s :isp]s ( :at we h said ( y4 ,! glori\s ,god is our ,god = ev] & ev]1 & ,8 *>iots ( fire are ) y--,8 invisible army is ar\nd y4 ,y\r own ,flo4 #bj4 #i4 '#hc4 ,h] si/] ,emma1 :o 0 n[ at ! head ( ! ,tra9+ ,s*ool at ! ,congress ,hall1 wrote3 ,:at c be said at su* times comp>$ ) :at is felt8 ,i w n attempt to write4 ,i am pray+4 ,all he>ts "h hold y up ceaselessly--y\r example is be=e u6 ,9 ! night & ! day ,i am ) y--9 y\r sorr[ ,i f9d y\r joy 9 :at is to come out ( all4 ',!y "k n :at !y d1' & out ( _! v ef=ts to h9d] & /op ,god's "w %all x spread beyond re/ra9t4 ,! loss is great1 my preci\s si/]1 b ! rew>d w be inf9itely great]1 & 9 bo? y w h be5 all[$ to %>e4 ,x w\ld h be5 easi] to be ) y1 b ,i'll fight h>d] ?an ev] 9 my corn] "h4 ,fill$ ) deepe/ sympa?y & ye>n+ desire = ,8 k+dom to come 9 ,switz]l&6 ,devot$ly1 ,emma4 ,,ps4 ,x is y\r back ,i mo/ tremble =--y\r poor back6 ,i wond] if y h pill[s4 ,bless y\r de> little ,pattie ,miss ,patrick4 ,oh1 ea* mom5t ,i am ) y6 ,,jesus is--,he does love & *oose & w hon\r y6 ,among ^? :o wrote to ! prison] 0 ,george ,railton1#a :om %e reg>d$ almo/ z an eld] bro!r4 ,he _h liv$ ) ! family dur+ h] *ildhood1 & :5 %e 0 a girl ( twelve & onw>ds %e us$ to get up at six 9 ! morn+--slipp+ d[n/airs on h] b>e feet 9 ord] n to awak5 "m--to h a ,bible lesson ) him4 ,%e always reg>d$ ! talks 9 ^? morn+ h\rs z among ! great =mative influ5ces 9 h] life4 ,railton1 :o became ! ,g5]al's fir/ commission]1 wat*$ h] c>e] ) pr(\nd & affectionate int]e/4 ,he wrote on ,septemb] #be3 ,de> ,m>e*ale ,prison]1 ,i h j come f t trem5d\s pray] meet+ 9 ,exet] ,hall1 held z a prote/ aga9/ h] imprisonm5t1 "o ( ! bigge/ & be/ ?is _w has ev] se54444 ,! way ! volleys bur/ out at ! "r "t & w5t r++ all r\nd ! ,hall s\nd$ spl5did4 ,& ! sight ( ?\s&s /&+ up to give !mselves to ,god1 hundr$s & hundr$s = =eign s]vice1 & all = s]vice some:]e1 0 magnific5t4444 ,my impression is t z !y ! ,swiss h outrag$ law all along !y may v likely d x :5 x comes to s5t5ce4444 ,god only kn[s :at is com+ next1 b anyh[ we %all w94 #a ,s9ce ^! pages 7 writt51 ?is rem>kable man has di$--z he wi%$--) 8 arm\r on1 & be5 promot$ to glory4 ,t[>ds ! end ( h] imprisonm5t ,ca!r9e wrote3 ,god w op5 ! door = u ?r\gh ?is /orm4 ,my w is ,god's4 ,all ,i want is to accompli% ,8 desire = ! _w4 ,d n worry at all4 ,jesus is "h4 ,!re is su* wond]ful victory ahead t all my cry is1 ,"l1 make u equal to x6--ready 9 e way6 ,ev] fight+1 9 jail z well z on ! field1 foll[+ on to "k ,him4 ,i h be5 look+ at t wond]ful sight--,calv>y4 ,i mu/ ev] live 9 sight ( x4 ,! trial took place at ,b\dry on ,saturday ! #be? & ,monday ! #bg? ,septemb]4 ,x excit$ ! greate/ int]e/ 9 ,switz]l& & f> beyond x4 ,! ,j\rnal de ,g5eve said3 ,?is prosecution at ,b\dry has an imm5se political significance 9 ! highe/ s5se ( t ^w1 & ! decision1 :atev] x may be1 w take its place 9 ! hi/ory ( ,republican rights4 ,ev5 ! mo/ sangu9e sc>cely hop$ = ! acquittal ( ! accus$4 ,b ! unexpect$ happ5$1 & ! triumph ( righte\sness 0 a woman's triumph4 ,! ,public ,prosecutor sp5t mu* "t 9 prov+ t ,salvationi/s 7 m\ntebanks & fanatics4 ,a "y ,engli%woman _h flung an insult 9 ! face ( ! ,gr& ,c\ncil1 accus+ !m ( violat+ ! con/itution4 ,h] contempt = ! law 0 ! m surpris+ z ! ,engli% nev] rebel aga9/ ! law1 h[ev] unju/ x may be 7674 ,if ! ,armee du ,salut 0 n suppress$ !y w\ld h to enl>ge _! asylums4 ,*ri/1 :o 01 p]haps1 ! mo/ religi\s man :o ev] liv$1 fav\r$ private r ?an public pray]4 ,sil5t communion ) ,god 0 bett] ?an gett+ up & %\t+ ,i am sav$6 ,:ile ! accus$ plac$ h]self above ! law1 ! ,que5 ( ,engl& 0 oblig$ to submit to ,acts ( ,p>liam5t4 ,hav+ n only ignor$1 b delib]ately violat$ ! decree1 ! ,saluti/es mu/ be> ! consequ5ces1 & no d\bt !y w\ld be happy to receive ! cr[n ( m>tyrdom6 ,on ! second day ( ! trial1 aft] a spee* 9 ! def5ce by ,m4 ,monni]1 ! ,m>e*ale rose to plead h] own cause4 ,?\gh %e _h pass$ twelve days 9 prison1 & sat _m h\rs 9 ! suffocat+ atmosph]e ( a cr[d$ c\rt-h\se1 %e ov]came h] exhau/ion1 h] _s subdu+ ! frail body4 ,%e _h be5 accu/om$ to face great cr[ds s9ce %e 0 sixte51 & %e 0 nev] m completely ma/] ( h]self or h] audi5ce ?an %e 0 9 t critical h\r4 ,h] voice 0 nev] cle>]1 nor h] mann] m comm&+4 ,h] bro!r ,h]b]t1 :o 0 9 ! c\rt1 said he 0 amaz$ at h] p[]4 ,z %e plead$ ! cause ( religi\s lib]ty1 h] he>]s felt t %e _h n come to be judg$ b = judgm5t ^u !m all4 ,"s extracts w s]ve to indicate ! quality ( h] spee*4 ,:at is ! ne$ ( ! ,armee du ,salut8 ,all[ me to read a passage f "o ( y\r own j\rnals3 ',cantonal ,gov]nm5ts w see ) al>m ! flood ( demoralisation ris+ m5ac+ly high] & high]2 & in/ead ( seek+ to de/roy ! causes ( ?is deluge1 !y only take away ! rema9+ dams4' ,x is ne$less to enl>ge on ! necessity = an ,armee du ,salut 9 ! face ( ^! facts4 ,! ,prosecutor has said1 9 speak+ ( ! "w1 t x mov$ ! entire population1 & t !re mu/ be a cause = ?is4 ,he has reason to say s4 ,i agree ) him2 !re mu/ be a cause1 f> deep] ?an any t has be5 m5tion$ "h to-day4 ,x is at ?is cause t we /rike--:i* exi/s 9 ! he>t ( man4 ,z to our aim1 we are try+ to br+ ^! p :o outrage y\r laws1 :o fight aga9/ ,god1 to ! feet ( ,him :o alone c *ange !m1 to ! only hope t exi/s = !m1 ! ,savi\r ( ! _w4 ,we "w1 we live1 we suff] to d ?is4 ,?is is our "o hope & object--to br+ ! _w to ! great ,deliv]]1 ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,ah6 ,! "q ( all que/ions1 ! "q :i* e intellig5t man ought to face1 is--,:at are we to d ) ! masses8 ,if !y are n rea*$ by ! p[] ( ! ,gospel1 a day w come :5 !y w turn r\nd aga9/ y1 occasion+ t]rible tr\ble & disord]1 & awful w be ! consequ5ces4 ,!n1 g5tlem51 y w h reason to regret y\r action 9 ?is matt]4 ,if ^! di/urb]s are capable ( manife/+ su* hatr$1 su* rage aga9/ citiz5s :o pray to ,god1 !y w also be capable ( manife/+ ! same rebelli\s _s aga9/ any o!r op9ions1 or any o!r law1 :i* may n please !m4 ,we h n made ! p l ?is4 ,be> 9 m9d t we h n creat$ ?is t]rible /ate ( b>b>ism1 :i* 0 let loose ar\nd t hall1 & :i* has made my he>t ble$ _m times 9 witness+4 ,:o is responsible = ?is8 ,we _c be1 = we h only be5 9 y\r t[n a few mon?s4 ,al?\gh we h suff]$ t]ribly ?r\gh misrepres5tations t h be5 wilfully circulat$ ab\t u1 we are n disc\rag$6 ,we "k t tru? & ju/ice w soon triumph4 ,i love ,switz]l& all ! m = :at we h endur$ 7,applause74 ,a little :ile & ,switz]l& w love u4 ,we %all w9 ?\s&s to righte\sness1 peace & heav54 ,! ,prosecutor ref]r$ to ! ,que5 say+ t ev5 %e 0 subject to ! decrees ( ,p>liam5t1 b t ,i plac$ myself above h] 9 refus+ to become subject to ! decrees ( ! ,gr& ,c\ncil4 ,!re is no p>allel betwe5 ,h] ,maje/y & myself4 ,no act has be5 pass$ to =bid h] pray+ 9 a wood1 or ,i ?9k ,h] ,maje/y w\ld h some?+ to say on t subject 7,s5sation74 ,"o ^w 9 conclusion4 ,y may puni% u2 y may imprison u2 y may prosecute u z long z y are p]mitt$2 b :at y _c d is to /op ?is "w--to suppress x4 ,bew>e :at y d = y\r c\ntry's sake1 = ,jesus ,*ri/'s sake4 ,take c>e t 9 bani%+ u y d n bani% ! light1 t y d n bani% ,jesus ,*ri/1 & 9 t great day :5 y are call$ to give an acc\nt y be f\nd guilty ( fight+ aga9/ ,god4 ,su* plead+ 0 irresi/ible4 ,! jury _h n ! c\rage to en=ce ! law4 ,to _! hon\r1 !y let !mselves be sway$ by consid]ations ( equity4 ,!y f\nd t :ile ! accus$ _h violat$ ! decree %e _h n act$ ) culpable int5tion4 ,9 consequ5ce ( ?is v]dict %e 0 acquitt$4 ,! s5t5ce 0 receiv$ by h] fri5ds 9 ! c\rt ) a bur/ ( f]v5t ,am5s4 ,& ! ,m>e*ale des]v$ ! ?anks ( e ,swiss patriot4 ,by h] bold & successful claim ( "r %e _h made hi/ory4 ,at a "t :5 ! old ,republic 0 =getful ( its noble/ traditions1 untrue to itself1 %e re/or$ its ideal4 ,%e v9dicat$ = e man & woman fre$om to wor%ip ,god accord+ to _! consci5ce4 ,%e br\ght back to ! hills & valleys ( ,switz]l& ! cr[n rights ( ! ,r$eem]4 ,no "o appreciates or speaks m en?usia/ically to-day ?an ! ,m>e*ale ( ! devotion & brav]y ( h] comrades1 ,colonel ,clibborn fir/ & =emo/1 & spiritual *ildr5 at ?is "t4 99,,*apt] ,,vi99 99,,! ,,s\l ,,( ,,france99 ,x is n easy to rea* ! ideal & spiritual elem5ts ( "* :i* are mask$ by ! light laught] or ! polite scorn ( ! typical ,fr5*man1 :o believes1 or pret5ds to believe1 t religion is only = prie/s & wom54 ,at ! op5+ ( a new hall 9 ! ,rue ,ob]kamff1 a big fell[ %ook 8 fi/ 9 ! ,m>e*ale's face & said1 ,an ,engli%man may accept religion--a ,g]man--or a hea!n1 b a ,fr5*man--nev]6 ,o ,god1 if ,y exi/1 save my s\l1 if ,i h "o6 0 ! pray] ( ano!r man1 :o _h att5d$ ! meet+s = "s "t1 & :o indicat$ ) a /range pa?os ! bewild]$ /ate ( m9d into :i* _m ( ! educat$1 z well z ! ignorant1 _h sunk4 ,let !re be no mi/ake1 said a ,fr5* writ]1 ,l\ise de ,croisilles2 x is by no means unnatural t ! ,army %\ld h tak5 root 9 ,india1 or ev5 "u ,africa's burn+ sun1 b t x %\ld be accept$ 9 ,p>is1 ! c5tre ( free-?\ght & unbelief1 t is a ?+ incr$ible4 ,nev]!less ! ,fr5*man suff]s f ! malady ( ! ideal1 ev5 z o!r m54 ,8 he>t is re/less until x re/s 9 ,god1 & x is %e] fai?lessness to say t he _c be won by ! grace ( ,god4 ,if he is sceptical1 x is because he has no conception ( ! fasc9at+ lovel9ess ( ,*ri/ianity2 if he is a sc(f]1 x is because he has nev] come 9 contact ) human lives :i* sugge/ to him ! inf9ite goodness ( ,god4 ,aft] ! ,m>e*ale's great legal victory1 :i* 0 really a triumph ( ! ,gospel ov] its enemies1 %e return$ to ,p>is & quietly resum$ h] tasks4 ,%e 0 9 n[ise *ang$1 ?\gh public op9ion reg>d+ h] 0 und\bt$ly *ang$4 ,%e _h become a p]son ( note4 ,editors ( newspap]s & magaz9es s5t report]s to h] meet+s at ! ,quai de ,valmy1 or at ! new headqu>t]s 9 ! ,rue ,aub]1 & f\nd piquant acc\nts ( h] say+s & do+s to be excell5t copy4 ,visitors to ! city came to he> h]4 ,arti/s begg$ = ! hon\r ( pa9t+ h] portrait = ! ,salon1 an hon\r :i* %e /eadily refus$4 ,! son ( ,g>ibaldi invit$ h] to visit ,italy1 :]e1 he said1 %e w\ld be welcom$ & n treat$ z %e _h be5 9 ,switz]l&4 ,none ( ^! ?+s1 h[ev]1 mov$ h]4 ,z %e _h promis$ ,god 9 h] prison t %e w\ld nev] be depress$ by ! calumnies ( m51 s n[ %e pray$ t %e might nev] be elat$ by _! praises4 ,) a /rong] fai? & a m ard5t hope1 %e plung$ aga9 into absorb+ "w4 ,"o sees t %e work$ ) h] imag9ation2 t %e obey$ h] intuitions2 t %e prov$ ! orig9ality & inv5tiv5ess ( love2 & h] ef=ts 7 s rew>d$ t #ahhd 0 h] annus mirabilis1 at ! end ( :i* %e wrote3 ,c y imag9e ! bewild]m5t t comes ov] me :5 ,i sit d[n to convey "s idea ( ! wond]ful way 9 :i* ,god has l$ & help$ u dur+ ! ye>8 444 ,x is n too mu* to say t dur+ ! pa/ twelve mon?s we h pass$ f ! position ( a small & almo/ unkn[n mission to t ( a great spiritual p[]1 recognis$ & felt ?r\gh\t ,france & ,switz]l&4 ,a s]ies ( fre% inspirations contribut$ to ?is result4 ,! fir/ ( ^! 0 ! visitation ( ! cafes ( ,p>is4 ,"o w9t] night ! ,m>e*ale & two "y comrades1 ,blan*e ,"y & ,kate ,patrick1 w5t out ) %awls on _! heads1 & made _! way to "o ( ! b\lev>d cafes4 ,! lead] pass$ ! door1 & pass$ x aga94 ,%e turn$ to h] lieut5ants & said1 ,y h nev] kn[n y\r ,m>e*ale till n[2 y see :at a c[>d %e is6 ,illu/ration3 ,,! ,,m>e*ale ,,9 ,,! ,,cafe 7,f ! pa9t+ ( ,b>on ,c$]/roem1 n[ 9 ! ,picture ,gall]y ( ,/ockholm7 ,no1 no1 no6 !y bo? prote/$4 ,at la/ %e put h] h& on ! door1 pu%$ x op51 & w5t 94 ,a man 9 a :ite apron 0 sell+ dr9k4 ,go+ up to him1 %e said1 ,may ,i s+ some?+8 ,he />$ op5-m\!d4 ,trembl+ f head to foot1 %e repeat$1 ,i %\ld l to s+ some?+4 ,v well6 ,%e began3 ,le ciel e/ ma belle patrie1 ,les anges y font leur sej\r2 ,le soldat qui lutte et qui prie ,y s]a bi5tot a son t\r4 ,:ile %e sang1 ,blan*e *im$ 9 ) h] guit> & h] second voice4 ,z !y proce$$1 ! smok+1 dr9k+1 & c>d-play+ ceas$1 & e face 0 turn$ t[>ds !m4 ,!y sang on3 ,en m>*e1 en m>*e1 ,soldats1 v]s la patrie6 ,en m>*e1 en m>*e1 ,soldats1 v]s la patrie6 ,:5 !y _h f9i%$ ! hymn1 ! ,m>e*ale ?ank$ h] audi5ce1 add+ t !y c\ld he> h] aga9 at ,rue ,aub] ,hall2 & t %e knew a ,fri5d1 ( :om %e wi%$ to tell !m4 ,z %e & h] comrades turn$ to walk out1 ! man 9 ! :ite apron b[$1 z if !y _h done him a s]vice4 ,may ,i come ano!r "t8 said ! ,m>e*ale4 ,c]ta9ly1 ,mademoiselle6 ,!y visit$ sixte5 cafes t night1 & :5 %e got home %e felt %e _h nev] be5 happi] 9 h] life1 nev] ne>] to ,jesus4 ,%e _h tri$ 9 h] own way to obey ,8 comm&1 ,let y\r light %9e be=e m54 ,s9ce !n1 ?\s&s & ?\s&s ( cafes h be5 visit$1 & mu* good has ?us be5 done4 ,let "o case /& = _m4 ,!re us$ to be a well-kn[n resort 9 ,p>is call$ ! ,cafe de l',enf]1 ! w9d[s & walls ( :i* 7 pa9t$ ) lurid sc5es repres5t+ hell4 ,!re r\g$ & p[d]$ s++ girls ent]ta9$ p ( ! d>e-devil type1 :o sat dr9k+ & smok+ at little tables4 ,f an op5 c(f9 a grim skeleton />$ at ev]ybody1 & prizes 7 giv5 = ! mo/ audaci\s witticisms ab\t dea?4 ,! m outrage\s ! blasphemies 71 ! l\d] 7 ! ro>s ( applause ) :i* !y 7 receiv$4 ,b ! ,m>e*ale & h] "y lieut5ants1 arm$ 9 complete /eel--! panoply ( ,god--7 n afraid ( ! gates ( hell4 ,hav+ obta9$ p]mission to s+1 !y m\nt$ ! e/rade1 & r5d]$ "s ( _! mo/ attractive "p-songs4 ,! cafe or*e/ra at once took up ! airs z if x _h be5 paid to d s4 ,! songs ( ,p>adise 7 well receiv$ ev5 9 ^? regions1 & !n ! ,m>e*ale1 /epp+ =w>d1 made a little spee*3 ,y are v clev] "h4 ,y play v well4 ,b x is a role t y play4 ,y\r laught] is n real2 ,i c tell y ! s\rce ( true laught] & true joy4 ,?is is n life1 x is dea?2 ,i c tell y :at real life is4 ,?is is n peace1 x is an ef=t to dr[n c>e & =get tr\ble2 ,i c tell y ! secret ( peace4 ,let me give y my address1 :]e y c he> u s+ aga94 ,x requir$ z mu* moral c\rage to deliv] t spee* z to face all ! juri/s ( ,helvetia4 ,:5 ! ,m>e*ale 0 leav+1 %e pass$ a lovely girl1 9 ^: e> %e :isp]$1 ,:at are y do+ "h8 y ought to be 9 b$4 ,:o w give me a supp] or a b$8 ! girl pla9tively ask$4 ,i w6 exclaim$ ! ,m>e*ale2 come ) me1 quick6 ,%e hail$ a cab1 put ! girl 91 & drove away4 ,! poor *ild1 eighte5 ye>s ( age1 _h a sad tale to tell4 ,%e _h noble blood 9 h] ve9s1 & h] "m & %e _h bo? be5 cruelly wrong$4 ,! ,m>e*ale l$ h] to ,*ri/ & ultimately secur$ = h] a position 9 "o ( ! be/ colleges ( ,am]ica1 :]e %e 0 univ]sally respect$4 ,n long aft] %e 0 in/all$ !re1 %e s5t ! ,m>e*ale #ejj francs1 ) ! pa!tic message1 ,save ano!r1 z y sav$ me4 ,! ,m>e*ale's me?ods naturally gave (f5ce to ^? :o _h n ! c\rage to adopt !m4 ,late "o night %e & "s comrades 7 /&+ at ! door ( a !atre :ile x 0 empty+4 ,"o ( h] "y (fic]s cri$ 9 cle>1 p5etrat+ tones1 ,prep>e to meet ?y ,god6 ,! words seem$ to s5d an electric %ock ?r\gh ! gay cr[d4 ,!reupon a g5tleman came =w>d to ! ,m>e*ale & said3 ,mademoiselle1 y are evid5tly "y girls ( good family1 & ,i am sc&alis$ to see y "h at ?is h\r4 ,i1 too1 occupy myself ) prea*+1 b ,i am %ock$ at y\r behavi\r4 ,really8 %e repli$1 & ,i am sc&alis$ t y are sc&alis$4 ,y pr(ess to believe ! ,gospel4 ,h[ are y to get ^! indiff]5t t5s ( ?\s&s to he> ( ! ,savi\r8 ,!y won't come to li/5 to y4 ,:at m natural & m 9 accord ) ! pr9ciples ( ,jesus1 ?an to g to !m & compel !m to he>8 ,t5 m9utes aft]1 ! g5tleman return$ & slid a five-franc piece into h] h&1 say+3 ,x is y :o are "r6 ,x 0 impossible = "y girls to be 9 ! b\lev>ds t[>ds midnight )\t be+ sometimes mole/$4 ,b ! lead] w\ld in/ruct h] soldi]s ?us3 ,if !y say ! vile/ ?+s 9 ! _w to y1 rememb] t is only ! outside4 ,?9k ( _! s\ls :i* co/ s de> to ,*ri/4 ,say "o or two s5t5ces t w rema9 ) !m1 & pass on4 ,m ?an once %e prov$ ?is me?od ( deal+ to be v effective4 ,9 a corn] ( "o ( ! b\lev>ds a g5tleman approa*$ h] & ask$ = a r5dezv\s4 ,%e look$ at him 9 sil5ce1 :i* he took = cons5t4 ,:]e8 he ask$1 tak+ out 8 p5cil & note-book4 ,devant le ,trone de ,dieu6 7,be=e ! ,?rone ( ,god67 ,! man took to 8 heels1 & ran4 ,t w5t all ov] ,france4 ,"o day ! same sword w pi]ce ! consci5ce ( e r\e 9 ! univ]se4 ,! ,m>e*ale's second orig9al idea 0 to beg9 a s]ies ( ,conf]5ces 7,meet+s7 9 ! fa%ionable ,lecture ,hall ( ! ,b\lev>d des ,capuc9es4 ,h] increas+ popul>ity only deep5$ h] s5se ( duty to ! city ( h] adoption1 & sugge/$ to h] ! possibility ( br++ ,*ri/ to ! ,b\lev>ds z well z to ! ,villette4 ,%e c\ld n live 9 gay ,p>is )\t pr(\ndly pity+ ! ?\ghtless1 infidel ,ri*1 = :om x is prov]bially s h>d to ent] ! k+dom ( heav54 ,h] idea ( attack+ ! c5tral /ronghold ( ! _w's fa%ion & pleasure 0 a d>+ "o = a woman1 especially = a woman ( ! ,m>e*ale's y\?ful ye>s4 ,ab\t ?is "t %e read ! ,life ( ,napoleon1 & f\nd 9 8 a/oni%+ c>e] _m lessons = an evangeli/4 ,%e 0 especially /ruck by 8 fai? 9 8 />1 & 8 contempt = ce bete de mot1 impossible4 ,%e knew t %e _h some?+ bett] to tru/ ?an a />1 & /rong] reason = hold+ t all ?+s are possible4 ,h] new plan ( campaign 0 great alike 9 its conception & its execution4 ,f ! v fir/ ! ,conf]5ces = m5 7 a/oni%+ly successful1 & !y 7 r5ew$ ye> aft] ye>4 ,! audi5ces 7 v diff]5t f a ,keswick or ,nor?field congregation1 9 :i* ! prea*+ is mo/ly to ! conv]t$4 ,p]haps ! be/ p>allel to ! ,m>e*ale's ,conf]5ces is to be f\nd 9 ,pr(essor ,drummond's ,sunday ev5+ meet+s = /ud5ts 7m5 only7 9 ! ,oddfell[s ,hall1 ,ed9burgh1 :i*1 by a /range co9cid5ce1 began 9 ! same ye>4 ,hav+ enjoy$ ! fri5d%ip ( bo? ^! evangeli/s1 & li/5$ to !m _m scores ( times1 ,i h (t5 be5 =cibly /ruck by _! lik5ess to ea* o!r1 & = p[] to rivet ! att5tion & inspire ! confid5ce ( cultivat$ m5 ( ! _w ,i h met nobody to comp>e ) !m4 ,:5 ! ,m>e*ale came to hold h] fir/ ,conf]5ce1 ! proprietor ( ! hall ent]$ h] ante-room & advis$ h] to deliv] a sort ( e?ical lecture1 r ?an speak ( salvation1 z x 0 ! worldly fa%ionable public :o w\ld assemble1 & he 0 afraid !y w\ld n be pleas$ if !y he>d too mu* ( religion4 ,b !y li/5$ ) rapt att5tion :ile %e spoke on ! text ,)\t ,god & )\t hope 9 ! _w4 ,( ! second ,conf]5ce ,galignani's ,mess5g] said1 ,! subject1 ',! ,greate/ ,s91' 0 treat$ ) a =ce ( religi\s argum5ts :i* made a visible impression on _m p]sons 9 ! audi5ce4 ,! att5tion 0 deep & respectful4 ,! ,hall 0 cr[d$1 & ! doors 7 va9ly besieg$ by a num]\s cr[d1 ! great] "p ( :om rema9$ outside ! op5 w9d[s to he> ! address4 ,ano!r lead+ j\rnal said1 ,%e has pr(\ndly a/oni%$ ! citiz5 sceptic1 :o has be5 out ( ! habit ( be+ a/oni%$ = a long "t4 ,h] bro!r ,ball+ton 0 pres5t at a lat] meet+1 & describ$ ! impression made on himself z "o :o did n "k ,fr5*4 ,i _h to cov] my face m ?an once :ile our ,m>e*ale spoke4 ,h] words1 ?\gh 9 a =eign language1 yet seem$ und]/&able4 ,! ,_s does n conf9e ,himself to words alone4 ,he speaks ?r\gh ! c\nt5ance1 & eyes1 & h&s--,he fills ! ,temples ( ,8 *ildr54 ,?ree ?+s /ruck me 9 t meet+3 fir/1 ! rapt att5tion & int]e/ ( ! audi5ce1 & !re seem$ few :o 7 n impress$ at ! close2 second1 ! mann] 9 :i* ! p rema9$ 9 ! aft]-meet+ on to ! end2 ?ird1 ! utt] amazem5t1 & yet p]fect solemnity ( ! congregation1 :5 "s s9n] came up ?r\gh ! aisles to seek peace1 ev5 ris+ z ?\gh to make sure t :at !y saw 0 a fact4 ,!n he adds--& "o notes ! beautiful transition--,i 0 also pres5t & took "p 9 meet+s at ,p>is 9 :i* ! v poore/ 7 att5d+ by hundr$s1 & at :i* ,i saw m5 ( ! vile/ ca/e & life gett+ sav$4 ,no small "p ( ! ,m>e*ale's *>m lay 9 h] flexibility & adaptability--h] ,paul9e habit ( becom+ all ?+s to all m5--to ! ri* & to ! poor1 to ! wise & to ! unwise--t %e might w9 "s4 ,at a lat] "t ! ,m>e*ale deliv]$ some:at simil> addresses 9 o!r cities ( ,france su* z ,nimes1 ,m>seilles1 ,havre1 ,r\51 ,lyons--& %e 0 ev]y:]e a/oni%$ to f9d t ! ,fr5*1 :o seem ! mo/ ?\ghtless1 are yet among ! mo/ ?\ghtful p 9 ! _w4 ,! result ( su* ,conf]5ces z ^! _c be tabulat$4 ,= "o ?+1 !y made ! ,m>e*ale m ?an ev] a "m-confessor & spiritual director4 ,! ?\ghts ( _m he>ts 7 reveal$ to h] at private int]views ( :i* no record 0 kept1 & 9 lett]s1 "o ( :i* may be giv5 z conta9+ ! secret ( ! ,m>e*ale's p[]--h] possession ( ,*ri/'s ,_s--a second z %[+ ! abyss ( d\bt f :i* _m ( h] he>]s _h to be rescu$1 & "s o!rs z indicat+ ! wond]ful success :i* (t5 att5d$ h] ef=ts4 ,! fir/ runs z foll[s3 ,i am glad y accept my reque/ to visit my home4 ,y w consid] ! int5tion 9 ask+ y to come "u my ro(1 l ,"o be=e y1 :o _h ! noble/ ,he>t :i* ev] beat = mank9d4 ,x is because ?is ,great ,he>t has possess$ y\rs to ! degree ( r5d]+ y l ,himself1 t y h pr(\ndly mov$ me & made me bett]4 ,c]ta9ly ,i w speak ) y on ^! vital subjects1 b ,i ne$ m & m ! moral & spiritual atmosph]e ( ! meet+s3 ?is op5s ! he>t & at ! same "t dead5s ! opposition ( ! m9d4 ,oh1 if ! latt] c\ld hold its peace6 444 ,i h liv$ mu* 9 solitude1 & naturally ^! problems h be5 always ) me4 ,i may say t ! ,inf9ite has tortur$ me = tw5ty ye>s3 lately ,i h arriv$ at ! conclusion t "o c "k no?+4 ,s ,i %all be glad to speak ) y & at l5g?4 ,a second correspond5t wrote3 ,y\r m>vell\s fai?1 y\r simple & p[]ful eloqu5ce s deeply mov$ me t ,i _c b ?ank y4 ,i ?ank y z an arti/1 z a s9c]e admir] ( beautiful "w1 ( great *>act]s2 ,i ?ank y z a man blase1 sceptical1 b5umb$ & dead5$4 ,z a *ild ,i ador$ ,jesus1 & n[1 aft] hav+ ?\ght mu* & suff]$ inf9ite pa9s :i* y _c und]/&1 ,i h said adieu to fai? & also adieu to hope6 ,i h become "o ( ^? y call sceptics4 ,ah6 d n say 't]rible' sceptic1 b un=tunate1 pitiable1 unhappy sceptic4 ,y are1 ,madame1 a great1 beautiful1 g5]\s he>t1 & if ev] e>ne/ good wi%es h be5 wor? any?+1 ,i h *]i%$ !m = y1 y\r "w1 & ^? :o fight by y\r side4 ,y w believe me1 an unbeliev]1 :o envies y1 admires y1 & ideally loves y4 ,a ?ird ( h] he>]s wrote succ9ctly3 ,two ( y\r meet+s h suffic$ to de/roy infidel convictions ( tw5ty ye>s' /&+4 ,a f\r?1 aft] te/ify+ to 8 respect & confid5ce1 said3 ,:at y\r s\l ye>ns = is conv]sion4 ,y w\ld l me to add1 ,i am conv]t$4 ,i _c say t ,i am4 ,b y h made an incr$ible impression on me1 & y h made me love ! ,*ri/ ,i nev] lov$4 ,he evid5tly c\ld n re/ !re1 & soon he s5t a second lett]1 describ+ ) ?ankfulness h[ "o night1 9 pray] & agonis+ m5tal controv]sy1 he _h receiv$ a manife/ation ( ! ,holy ,_s1 :i* _h f9ally sla9 8 d\bt & made him a believ] 9 ,god4 ,! tw(old purpose ( ! ,conf]5ces 0 to conqu] ! feel+s & ta/es1 ! etiquette & conv5tionality1 ( p ( ! _w1 & to awak5 fai? 9 unbeliev]s4 ,"o day a v bad man ?ru/ "s bank-notes into ! ,m>e*ale's h&1 say+ :ile he did s3 ,i believe 9 no?+4 ,y believe 9 no?+1 & yet y give me ^! bank-notes6 ,he repli$1 ,i believe 9 y1 & ,i wi% y _h a hall 9 e t[n & hamlet & village 9 my c\ntry4 ,pull out y\r wat*1 %e said4 ,i believe 9 y\r wat*1 ,i believe t x keeps "t1 b ,i d n believe 9 its mak]6 444 ,i am naturally j z great a lov] ( ease & com=t z y are4 ,! motive p[]--la =ce motrice--( my life1 ! spr+ ^u :i* ev]y?+ turns1 is ! love ( ,*ri/4 ,y believe 9 me2 believe 9 ,him :o has made me :at ,i am4 ,! ,m>e*ale's ?ird new dep>ture 0 p]haps ! mo/ important ( all--! f\nd+ ( an ,ecole ,militaire1 or s*ool = cadets1 some:at simil> to ! ,milit>y ,s*ool at ,clapton1 ov] :i* h] si/] ,emma at t "t presid$4 ,:5 ,ca!r9e fir/ w5t to ,france1 a v not$ ,prote/ant pa/or said to h]1 ,y w nev] get ?ree ,fr5*wom5 to live toge!r 9 peace4 ,b at ! ,tra9+ ,home1 ,av5ue ,lumi]e #c1 9 ! ,villette1 :]e ! ,m>e*ale liv$ all ! ye> r\nd ) h] (fic]s1 !re 7 z _m z =ty or fifty "y wom5--among :om1 at "o "t1 a ,pr9cess's daught]s 7 side by side ) scull]y maids--& ! h>mony1 ! love1 ! _s ( nev] m9d me1 :i* prevail$ 0 "o ( ! miracles ( ! "w 9 ,france4 ,to ! tra9+ ( company aft] company ( "y cadets--,fr5*1 ,swiss1 ,engli%1 ,belgian1 ,g]man1 ,italian & ,russian--! ,m>e*ale gave a great deal ( h] "t & /r5g?1 h] patt]n be+ ev] our ,"l's own tra9+ ( ! ,twelve4 ,all obey$ h] joyfully & )\t "q4 ,%e realis$ intuitively t ! highe/ ?+ 9 tra9+ is n discipl9e1 b some?+ :i* discipl9e foll[s z light foll[s ! sun4 ,t some?+ is ! _s1 ! atmosph]e1 :i* m5 & wom5 are br\ght into & :i* trans=ms !m4 ,9 ! ,ecole ,militaire x 0 ! selflessness ( p :o did n c>e :at became ( !m4 ,:]e t _s takes possession ( any "o1 !re is no ne$ to say to him1 ,y %all d ?is or t4 ,! law ( ! _s ( life makes him ob$i5t )\t con/ra9t4 ,! _s ( ! ,m>e*ale's lead]%ip is some:at express$ 9 ,g>ibaldi's call to arms (t5 quot$ by h]4 ,8 foll[]s und]/ood 8 motives1 realis$ 8 dis9t]e/$ness1 saw t rew>ds & hon\rs 7 no?+ to ! man :o 0 seek+ ! ,lib]ty ( ,italy4 ,!re=e !y lov$ him s mu* t !y w\ld h di$ = him4 ,!re 0 no m>k$ diff]5ce betwe5 ! ,/aff & ! ,field1 & yet !re 0 discipl9e1 ob$i5ce1 devotion su* z ! _w has sc>cely ev] se5 equall$4 ,t 0 ! _s :i* ! ,m>e*ale s\ght to imp>t to ! ,ecole ,militaire4 ,ev]y?+ else--h[ to /udy ! ,bible1 h[ to conduct meet+s1 h[ to use ! voice1 h[ to deal ) s\ls--0 subord9at$ by h] to ! "o ?+ ne$ful--! _s ( sacrifice4 ,we are sometimes told1 %e once wrote1 t our uni=ms1 our "y wom5 speak+ 9 public1 our tamb\r9es & our processions br+ contempt ^u religion4 ,x is a mi/ake4 ,t :i* is ! laugh+-/ock ( ! _w & ( hell is a religion )\t sacrifice4 ,p w nev] believe 9 ,*ri/ians :o1 :ile pr(ess+ to be disciples ( ,him :o _h n :]e to lay ,8 head1 live 9 luxury1 seek fir/ ! com=t ( _! family1 ! heal? & position ( _! *ildr51 & let _! s\ls p]i% = lack ( t ,gospel :i* !y pr(ess to believe4 ,!re is ! secret ( ! unbelief ( ,france2 t is :at makes ! "y :o are 9 se>* ( ! tru? cry ',com$y6' ,on ! o!r h&1 ^? faces :i* radiate ! light f on high1 ^? "y p :o rise up to give !mselves to ,god in/ead ( ! _w1 ^? m5 & wom5 :o decl>e1 ) a s9c]ity :i* leaves no room = d\bt1 t !y consecrate _! life to ,god = ! sav+ ( s\ls1 are m eloqu5t ?an ! mo/ beautiful disc\rses4 ,! faces ( (fic]s & cadets :o surr\nd$ ! ,m>e*ale on h] plat=m und\bt$ly con/itut$ a l>ge elem5t ( h] p[]4 ,r5ee ,gange1 ! ,sociali/1 wrote a f9e appreciation ( h] & h] comrades1 9 :i* %e confesses t :at %e f9ds rem>kable among ^! "y girls1 pretty z well z pla91 is ! complete abs5ce ( ! ord9>y fem99e expression4444 ,9 look+ ) se>*+1 scrut9is+ eye at ! faces envelop$ 9 ?is ugly bonnet1 we h n deciph]$ ! lea/ ve/ige ( ?is expression1 nei!r timidity1 nor awkw>dness1 nor re/lessness1 nor ! consci\sness t p are ?9k+ ( !m4 ,no?+4 ,^! faces are ! free faces ( free creatures4 ,"o day a ,fr5* ,b>on1 :o _h receiv$ a great bless+ at ! ,m>e*ale's ,conf]5ces1 said to h] 9 ! great hall at ! ,rue ,aub]1 ,:at y lack "h is pictures2 = in/ance1 ! sa9ts4 ,^? beautiful faces1 ) _! sweet cele/ial expressions1 diffuse a s5tim5t ( rev]5ce & quietness1 & !y w\ld =m su* a beautiful backgr\nd to y4 ,y %\ld h ! ,virg91 & ,sa9t ,francis1 & _m o!rs4 ,t is :at y lack 9 all y\r halls3 c\ld we n d some?+8 ,b>on1 said ! ,m>e*ale1 w y come "h next ,sunday ev5+8 ,yes1 c]ta9ly4 ,are y go+ to speak8 ,he nev] lo/ a *ance ( he>+ h]4 ,yes2 be sure y d n miss x4 ,next ,sunday ev5+ %e m>%all$ h] little gr\p ( (fic]s4 ,%e fil$ !m 91 m5 on "o side1 wom5 on ! o!r4 ,%e /ood 9 ! mid/ ( !m & spoke4 ,at ! end ( ! meet+ ! ,b>on came =w>d4 ,m>e*ale1 he said1 y h no ne$ ( pictures4 ,^? figures6 ^? faces6 !y are y\r pictures4 ,h] fri5d ,frank ,crossley 0 greatly /ruck by ?is incid5t4 ,he wrote3 ,i 0 specially int]e/$ 9 ! rem>k ^u inspir$ faces4 ,i once he>d ,r5del ,h>ris say ( ! biblical critics1 t !y might te> ! volume into %r$s1 b nev] c\ld rub (f ! light ( ,god f ! faces ( ,8 p4 ,"o ( ! cadets ( ! ,ecole ,militaire 0 ,con/ance ,monod1 daught] ( ! great ,prote/ant prea*] ^: hymn1 ,oh1 ! bitt] %ame & sorr[1 is kn[n ev]y:]e4 ,hav+ receiv$ salvation & ri* spiritual bless+s f att5d+ ! ,m>e*ale's meet+s1 %e became "o ( h] mo/ devot$ (fic]s & w>me/ fri5ds4 ,%e 0 "o day put up to speak to a v r\gh audi5ce ( lewd1 l[ m51 & "o ( ! r\ghe/ & lewde/ ( !m said1 ) te>s 9 8 eyes3 ,oh1 :at extraord9>y purity 9 t face6 ,t 0 ! expression :i* gave s _m ( ! cadets _! p[] 9 ! cafes & 9 ! slums4 ,x 0 :at !y 71 f> m ?an :at !y said1 t did ! "w4 ,among ! new cadets !re 0 always a great he>t-se>*+4 ,7 !y sure ( _! vocation8 ,_h !y a due s5se ( ! s]i\sness1 ! sacr$ness1 ! responsibility1 ! opportunity ( ! call to "w & fight = ,god8 ,if !y 7 n "r !re1 ev]y?+ 0 wrong4 ,b if !y _h really left ! _w1 & come to le>n to "k ,,god1 ,he reveal$ ,himself to !m1 & x 0 m>vell\s h[ rapidly !y grew 9 t he>t-k :i* is always s mu* deep] ?an head-k4 ,:5ev] tr\bles & difficulties arose1 ! ,m>e*ale's me?od 0 n to evade !m1 b to grip ?+s at ! bottom4 ,an invitation to come & h a cup ( tea w\ld lead to e>ne/ talk & pray]1 by :i* %e nipp$ _m an evil 9 ! bud4 ,^! p]sonals1 z su* int]views 7 call$1 7 rememb]$ ev] aft]w>ds ) gratitude4 ,! conque/ ( self1 ! triumph ( ! _s ( love1 0 illu/rat$ 9 small matt]s z well z 9 great4 ,"o day a ,fr5*man1 ,francois1 refus$ to clean ! boots ( ano!r cadet1 :o 0 a ,g]man4 ,i clean a ,g]man's boots8 ,nev]6 nev]6 ,! ,m>e*ale quietly said3 ,! boots w be clean$4 ,nev] by me6 ,by y4 ,well1 n n[1 let !m wait6 ,! :ole day pass$1 & ! boots 7 n clean$4 ,! ,m>e*ale knew :at ,francois suff]$ inw>dly1 & got him alone 9 ! ev5+4 ,jesus di$ = ! ,g]mans1 %e said4 ,8 lips rema9$ tightly press$4 ,he suff]$1 & %e suff]$ ) him4 ,aft] a mom5t's sil5ce he bur/ into a torr5t4 ,we h endur$ too mu*6 ,?9k ( ! siege ( ,p>is4 ,t bea/ ( a ,bism>ck6 ,oh6 our c\ntry has suff]$4 ,clean a ,g]man's boots8 ,nev]6 ,he rav$4 ,! ,m>e*ale 0 quiet & li/5$ = a "t4 ,!n %e said3 ,all t may be true2 b y are go+ to h a great] victory ov] ! ,g]mans ?an ev] ! ,g]mans won ov] y4 ,! triumph :i* !y _h ov] ,france 0 a flea-bite 9 comp>ison4 ,%e got 8 e>1 & talk$ to him ( ! highe/ ?+s4 ,! victory :i* ,jesus won on ,calv>y ov] ,pilate & ! ,prie/s & ,judas1 ?is mu/ be ,francois' victory4 ,g back to y\r trade unless y c w9 ?is victory4 ,?is makes an apo/le ( ,francois1 & no?+ else4 ,^! boots are only a detail1 b !y h br\ght to light some?+ 9 y t is h9d]+ ! great victory4 ,& s !y talk$4 ,%e w\ld n =ce him4 ,next morn+ %e gave a lecture1 at ! end ( :i* he came into h] room & sat d[n4 ,!re 0 a mom5t's sil5ce1 & !n he collaps$1 fall+ all ( a heap & sobb+ l a *ild4 ,m>e*ale1 he said1 ,i w clean ! boots6 ,su* tra9+ inside ! ,ecole made ! cadets ready = any conflict outside1 & ! triumph ( ! _s ( love 0 9 "s in/ances a prep>ation = dea?4 ,! fir/ ( ! ,m>e*ale's cadets to w9 ! m>tyr's cr[n 0 ,l\is ,jeanmonod4 ,he 0 a ,swiss y\?1 f9ely built1 ne>ly six foot1 & tw5ty-"o ye>s ( age2 a true soldi]1 devot$1 c\rage\s1 t5d]-he>t$4 ,8 mon?s ( tra9+ 7 almo/ ov]1 & 9 ! la/ ?ree weeks he develop$ wond]fully4 ,he visit$ ! cafes ) great success1 s++ & speak+1 hold+ 8 auditors 9 brea?less sil5ce4 ,he _h great p[] 9 convict+ p1 & (t5 8 oppon5ts w\ld become 8 fri5ds & ask him to cont9ue to speak to !m4 ,on a ,janu>y night 9 #ahhe he 0 gu>d+ ! door ( ! ,hall at ! ,quai de ,valmey1 :5 "o ( ! r\ghs ran at him head =emo/ & butt$ him viol5tly 9 ! /oma*4 ,l\is manag$ to %ut ! door1 & next day w5t on bravely ) 8 "w1 ev5 sell+ ! ,en ,avant 9 ! ev5+1 till ! pa9 became v sev]e4 ,! doctor f\nd t a quantity ( blood _h already settl$ 9 8 lungs1 & soon aft] pron\nc$ 8 case beyond all human skill4 ,l\is 0 = a "t deliri\s1 b he _h nev] 9 8 pa/ life play$ ! fool1 & he utt]$ no ^w t 8 "m w\ld n h wi%$ to he>4 ,he always seem$ to be />t+ on a campaign4 ,7 ! caps1 ! bags1 & ev]y?+ else ready8 ,oh6 :at glori\s times 7 com+6 ,:5 ! delirium pass$1 & 8 m9d became calm1 8 pallid face %one ) a /range light4 ,z soon z ! ,m>e*ale came to 8 b$side1 he salut$ & said-- ,am51 ,m>e*ale1 am56 ,:at 7 8 ?\ghts ( ! ruffian :o _h dealt ! deadly bl[8 ,he _h only a s+le ?\ght--,"o day he w be sav$4 ,detectives came to receive ! dy+ man's description ( ! assailant4 ,a message f !m to ?is effect 0 convey$ to ,l\is1 :o answ]$ x 9 a s+le ^w3 ,jamais6 7,nev]67 ,b he describ$ ! guilty man to ! ,m>e*ale1 t %e might "k him & pray = him4 ,seek+ h] h& :5 ! end drew ne>1 he said-- ,oh1 ,i love s mu* to hold y\r f+]s4 ,jesus w take y\r h&s1 ,l\is1 & guide y into ! port4 ,i w--let myself--be guid$--by ,him4 ,! ,m>e*ale pray$1 & ) ! _s ( ,sa9t ,/eph5 9 8 brea/ & ! words ,x is too beautiful6 on 8 lips1 he w5t to be ) ,*ri/4 ,belleville & ! ,villette 7 /irr$ to ! dep?s by a m>tyr's fun]al1 & at ! grave ,!odore ,monod spoke words :i* mov$ ! he>ts ( all4 ,! "y ,m>e*ale :o ga!r$ r\nd h] m5 & wom5 ( ?is /amp--a will+ p 9 ! day ( ! ,"l's p[]1 ready = ev]y?+1 fai?ful unto dea?--evid5tly possess$ high qualities ( lead]%ip1 & ere long ! _s ( ! ,ecole ,militaire 0 to be f\nd 9 e /ation ( ! ,army ?r\gh\t ,france & ,switz]l&4 ,speak+ at "o ( ! ,g5]al's great meet+s 9 ,scotl&1 ,pr(essor ,h5ry ,drummond said t aft] travell+ all ov] ! ,s\? ( ,europe1 visit+ _m ca!drals & he>+ fam\s orators1 he _h l&$ at ,m>seilles1 & felt m ( ! pres5ce & p[] ( ,*ri/ 9 ! ,salvation ,army meet+-place ( t t[n ?an he _h exp]i5c$ 9 all 8 w&]+s4 ,! ,g5]al repeat$ ?is to ! ,m>e*ale1 & %e f\nd t ! meet+ :i* _h s pr(\ndly impress$ ! ,pr(essor _h be5 conduct$ by a "y (fic]1 ,mlle4 ,dormois1 :o _h rec5tly left ! ,tra9+ ,s*ool 9 ,p>is4 ,t ! au?orities at home prais$ ,god = ! ,m>e*ale's "w sc>cely ne$s say+4 ,h] fa!r's appreciation f\nd expression 9 e lett]4 ,"h are brief extracts f ?ree ( !m4 ,my de> girl1 my v preci\s girl1 ,i "k y are aft] my own he>t4 ,i place b\ndless confid5ce 9 y\r judgm5t & resolutions4 ,d n be afraid ( any?+ or any "o4 ,y are a true h]o9e1 a ,joan ( ,arc1 inde$4 ,y mu/ h a fe>ful /ra9 ^u y4 ,/ill a great "p ( y\r bus9ess is to keep y\rself quiet & free f we>+ c>e4 ,to be cool & /eady "u fire is ! quality ( ! v be/ soldi]s4 ,i fe> ,i h n excell$ 9 ?is direction1 & x is a v difficult prop]ty 9 our family1 see+ h[ full ( sympa?y & feel+ our he>ts & lives are1 b ,god c d mu* = u4 ,e lett] f h] elde/ bro!r ,bramwell1 :o 0 ! ,*ief ( ,/aff1 0 a ,well done6 f ov] ! sea4 ,writ+ 9 #ahhe--! ye> ( 8 & ,/ead's h]oic crusade aga9/ vice--he said3 ,i get m & m dissatisfi$ ) ?+s human e day4 ,! _w is all gone mad4 ,if x 0 only bad1 & n mad1 we c\ld m5d x1 b be+ bo? ,i get less & less hope in/ead ( m6 ,we w n[ att5d to quality m4 ,if we c\ld get bett] p surely we %\ld g fa/]4 ,i solemnly believe y are ahead ( u on ! ,cont95t 9 ?is direction4 ,9 ! foll[+ ye> he wrote3 ,d n ?9k y w ev] be less de> to me ?an y h be54 ,y _c be4 ,i love & admire y1 & if y 7 my g5]al to-morr[ ,i %\ld foll[ y to ! la/ gasp & /ick :ile !re 0 "o limb ( me left4 99,,*apt] ,,vii99 99,,woman',s ,,vocation99 ,!re c be nei!r ,jew nor ,greek2 !re c be nei!r bond nor free2 !re c be no male & female3 = ye are all "o 9 ,*ri/ ,jesus4 ,aft] ! lapse ( _m c5turies ?is great apo/olic say+ is beg9n+ to yield up its mean+ & its bless+4 ,! ,"m ( ! ,army 0 "o ( ! fir/ to ass]t woman's lib]ty1 & h] daught]s ent]$ into a sacr$ h]itage4 ,hav+ become a public speak] at f\rte51 & se5 ! "w ( fai? rew>d$ ) c\ntless signs foll[+1 ! ,m>e*ale c\ld nev] h>b\r any secret fe> t h] m9i/ry might be griev+ ! ,_s ( ,god4 ,x 0 impossible1 h[ev]1 t %e %\ld "w = ye>s )\t enc\nt]+ _m :o _h /rong prejudices4 ,our ,"l's disciples m>vell$ t ,he spake ) a woman1 & !re are /ill disciples :o m>vel :5 a woman speaks = ,him4 ,9 ! summ] ( h] ?ird ye> 9 ,france1 ! ,m>e*ale attack$ ! old city ( ,nimes1 9 ! l>gely ,prote/ant ,g>d--! fir/ ( a s]ies ( campaigns :i* 7 ! means ( br++ a bless+ to a numb] ( ! prov9ces ( ,france4 ,on h] arrival %e f\nd t ,m4 ,peyron1 an em95t judge1 :o _h greatly b5efit$ f he>+ h] be=e1 _h arrang$ a prelim9>y meet+ ( ! or?odox ( ,nimes--pa/ors & _! wives & o!r ,prote/ant work]s--to ! numb] ( ab\t #abj4 ,he 0 anxi\s t !y %\ld be won be=e h] campaign began1 b he _h no idea t he _h prep>$ = h] "o ( ! battles royal ( h] life4 ,! meet+ be+ ?r[n op51 ! doctr9e ( hol9ess--,god's p[] to keep ,8 *ildr5 f s9n+--fir/ came up1 & 0 viol5tly attack$ by sev]al pa/ors :o conf\nd$ x ) p]fectionism4 ,_! rem>ks 7 l\dly applaud$1 & "o lady scream$ above ! re/-- ,let him t is )\t s9 get up & te/ify4 ,greatly d>+1 ! ,m>e*ale :isp]$ to a comrade :o sat beside h]1 ,rise1 ,bisson1 :i* he did1 & 9 a few simple words te/ifi$1 n inde$ to 8 own p]fection1 b to ,god's p[] to sanctify & keep z well z ju/ify4 ,aft] a mom5t>y lull1 ! /orm became fi]c] ?an ev]1 & ! m9i/ry ( wom5 0 n[ ! cause ( w>4 ,! ,m>e*ale allud$ to h] "m's manife/o on ! subject4 ,we h read x1 said a lady1 & we d n agree ) x4 ,wom5 are meant = ! home4 ,!y are comm&$ to be sil5t 9 ! *ur*es4 ,besides1 cri$ ano!r1 y are n old en\gh4 ,! ,m>e*ale quot$ ! words1 ,let no man despise ?y y\?4 ,b t1 retort$ a pa/or's wife1 0 said to a man4 ,!reupon ! babel ( voices became deaf5+4 ,pretty & prepossess+ girls1 a matron 0 he>d to say1 %\ld n %[ !mselves 9 public4 ,if y d speak1 said a pa/or1 skill$ 9 di/9ctions1 y %\ld speak to wom5 only1 & n be=e m54 ,all ?r\gh ! /orm ! c5tral figure 0 quiet & self-possess$4 ,b %e 0 ?9k+ h>d4 ,! idea ( a di/9ction 9 sex _h nev] come be=e h] z a speak]2 x 0 new & /range to h]4 ,:5 %e at l5g? spoke aga91 %e put ! result ( h] ?9k+ into a simple1 memorable1 unansw]able dictum3 ,b !re is no sex 9 s\l4 ,p]haps somebody _h said ! same ?+ be=e1 b x 0 none ! less orig9al on h] "p4 ,!n %e exp&$ ! tru?3 ,! ne$s ( a man's s\l are ! same z a woman's1 & vice v]sa4 ,y d n get up & say !re are s _m m5 & s _m wom5 9 a meet+4 ,!y all ne$ salvation1 p>don1 purity1 peace2 all ! gifts & graces ( ! ,_s are = m5 & wom5 alike4 ,( c\rse1 %e cont9u$1 if any woman is s light & frivol\s t %e makes su* a di/9ction1 t c]ta9ly proves t %e has no vocation to be an evangeli/1 & ,i %\ld s5d h] home by ! next tra94 ,%e felt t ! atmosph]e ( ! room 0 horrible4 ,religi\s controv]sies1 l religi\s w>s1 create a m frightful _s ?an any o!r qu>rels4 ,in/ead ( prolong+ ! discussion1 ! ,m>e*ale sank on h] knees & began to pray4 ,%e _h won by pray] _m victories :i* 7 rememb]$ aft] long ye>s4 ,:5 %e 0 a *ild ( f\rte51 %e att5d$ a meet+ ( h] "m's at ,ryde 9 ! ,isle ( ,wight4 ,%e sat f> back beside ! door1 li/5+ till ! address 0 end$1 & !n %e he>d h] "m ask if "s bro!r or si/] w\ld pray4 ,z nobody respond$1 & ! sil5ce became too oppressive to be>1 ,katie rose & p\r$ out h] he>t to ,god 9 tones ( passionate e>ne/ness1 seek+ = a victory ere ! meet+ end$4 ,:5 %e got home1 %e 0 fold$ 9 h] "m's arms & cov]$ ) kisses2 & =ty ye>s aft]1 :5 %e 0 h]self conduct+ a mission at ,ryde1 a sa9tly lady ( n9ety-two told h] t no pray] liv$ 9 h] memory l t *ild's pray]4 ,x 0 su* a pray]--long1 int5se1 passionate--t ! ,m>e*ale pray$ among ! or?odox ( ,nimes4 ,t night ! elde/ daught] ( ,m4 ,peyron1 a beautiful1 worldly girl1 0 won = ,*ri/4 ,at sev5 o'clock on ! foll[+ morn+ two pa/ors1 ,,mm4 ,*all& & ,babut1 along ) ,m4 ,peyron1 awoke ! ,m>e*ale4 ,!y _h come to say1 = !mselves & o!rs1 h[ !y deplor$ ! sc5e ( ! prec$+ night1 & to beg =giv5ess4 ,on ,sunday morn+ ! campaign prop] 0 begun 9 ! ,alcas>1 :i* 0 pack$1 & ! wives ( sev]al pa/ors 7 among ^? :o came 9 te>s to ! p5it5t =m4 ,alb9 ,peyron1 junior1 :o is to-day ! lead] ( ! ,army 9 ,switz]l&1 began ! new life at a ,night ) ,jesus :i* 0 held aft] t meet+4 ,9 8 y\? he 0 ! f\nd] ( ,la ,petite ,armee1 :i* did mu* good "w among ! *ildr5 ( ,nimes & o!r t[ns ( ,s\!rn ,france4 ,:ile ! ,m>e*ale 0 always at home 9 cr[ds1 %e lov$ quiet int]views ) individuals if possible /ill m4 ,9 _m ( ^! talks ! subject 0 ! victory ( fai?4 ,dur+ "o ( h] t\rnees1 %e 0 conduct+ meet+s 9 a !atre at ,cannes4 ,on a lovely ,septemb] ev5+ %e 0 walk+ t[>ds ! sea1 lo/ 9 admiration ( ! sunset4 ,fatigu$ ) h] ,sunday morn+'s "w1 %e 0 seek+ a little repose4 ,%e obs]v$ a prie/ sl[ly proce$+ t[>ds ! hill on :i* /ood a little ,ca?olic *ur*4 ,8 appe>ance /ruck h]2 he look$ at once s di/+ui%$ & s sad4 ,an inn] voice said to h]1 ,speak to t prie/4 ,i _c1 %e said1 he w\ld ?9k me mad4 ,b ! voice said ! same words a second "t1 & !n %e in/antly obey$4 ,hurry+ t[>ds ! prie/1 %e said-- ,good-ev5+1 mon p]e4 ,i presume y are go+ to ! *ur* on ! hill4 ,may ,i accompany y1 = ,i w\ld speak ) y on spiritual subjects8 ,uncov]+ 8 head1 & b[+ ) great respect1 he answ]$1 ,c]ta9ly1 madame4 ,!y walk$ on = a little 9 sil5ce4 ,!n %e said-- ,:at mu/ ,i d to be sav$1 my fa!r8 ,keep ! t5 comm&m5ts1 he answ]$ at once4 ,b ! ri* "y man :o came to ,jesus c\ld say ) 8 h& on 8 he>t t he _h kept !m all1 & yet _h no assurance ( salvation4 ,he 0 9 great tr\ble4 ,he said1 ',:at mu/ ,i d to be sav$8' ,oh1 !n y mu/ take ! holy ,eu*>i/ v (t54 ,b ^? :o take x1 my fa!r1 are !y sav$ f s9n+8 ,are !y n ! victims ( ! p[] ( evil1 ! same z o!rs8 ,oh6 yes1 madame1 b !n !re is ! ,confessional4 ,b does n ! same ?+ apply to ! ,confessional1 my fa!r8 ,y mu/ "k t !re are t5s ( ?\s&s 9 ,france :o confess1 b fall aga9 ! next day4 ,!y h n f\nd re/4 ,is n ,*ri/ ready to save u if we are ready to be sav$8 ,alas6 madame1 we %all s9 always1 always1 to ! v end ( our lives4 ,b1 my fa!r1 7 n ,/4 ,augu/9e1 ,/4 ,francis ( ,assisi1 ,/4 ,ca!r9e ( ,si5a1 ,f5elon & _m o!rs1 deliv]$ f ! slav]y ( s9 & self8 ,!y atta9$ to some?+ def9ite--to hol9ess4 ,he turn$ ) vehem5ce & said1 rais+ 8 voice-- ,ah6 madame1 b ^? 7 extraord9>y lives4 ,^? p 7 sa9ts4 ,no1 my fa!r1 !y 7 m5 & wom5 l y & me4 ,:at ,god did = ,/4 ,augu/9e or ,/4 ,ca!r9e ( ,si5a1 c ,he n d x = me if ,i am ready to fulfil ! conditions :i* ,he lays d[n8 ,:at does religion d1 :at is x wor?1 if x _c deliv] u f s98 ,he did n answ]4 ,he 0 sil5tly ?9k+4 ,%e w5t on1 ,is ,*ri/ a ,savi\r1 yes or no8 ,oh1 yes1 yes1 yes1 ,he is6 ,has ,he sav$ y1 my fa!r8 ,!y /ood /ill = a mom5t1 & he turn$ 8 face away1 ) a look ( poignant sadness4 ,!n foll[$ a confession--"o ( ! deepe/1 mo/ he>tfelt cries %e _h ev] li/5$ to--end+ ) ! words1 ,alas1 alas6 all ! days ( my life ,i s91 & ,i expect to s9 to my late/ brea?4 ,! ,m>e*ale 0 pr(\ndly mov$1 & felt t %e /ood ^u holy gr\nd4 ,at la/ %e spoke-- ,!n ,calv>y is ! greate/ fiasco ! _w has ev] se54 ,/ret*+ out 8 h&1 he said1 ,oh1 madame1 d n say t2 x is blasphemy4 ,b1 my fa!r1 we are 9 ! pres5ce ( facts1 n fancies4 ,y h left :at m5 prize mo/4 ,y h liv$ up to y\r light4 ,& :at d ,i f9d8 ,torm5t in/ead ( re/1 conflict in/ead ( assurance1 bondage in/ead ( deliv]ance4 ,surely1 my fa!r1 ,jesus did n come to increase our burd5s1 b to relieve !m4 ,y rememb] ,8 ^w1 ',come unto me & ,i w give y re/4' ,he said1 ',my yoke is easy & my burd5 is light4' ,are ^! !ories to be prea*$ 9 pulpits1 or are !y realities8 ,by ?is "t !y /ood on ! summit ( ! hill1 & %e said-- ,y are go+ to prea* to-night1 mon p]e8 ,yes4 ,w\ld y l t we %\ld g d[n ! hill toge!r & resume our conv]sation8 ,x w\ld be a great pleasure1 madame4 ,he prea*$ "o ( ! be/ s]mons %e _h ev] he>d1 p>tly inspir$1 %e c\ld n help ?9k+1 by _! intimate talk4 ,z ! congregation mov$ out1 %e /epp$ into a ,confessional box to wait = him4 ,%e saw him turn+ ?is way & t ) a look ( disappo9tm5t1 &1 /epp+ out1 said to him-- ,i am "h1 mon p]e4 ,!y began to desc5d ! hill toge!r4 ,my fa!r1 %e said1 ,i greatly enjoy$ y\r s]mon4 ,b h[ c y %[ o!rs ! way ( deliv]ance if y h n f\nd x y\rself8 ,h[ c y unb9d if y are n unb\nd8 ,h[ c y heal if y are n heal$8 ,h[1 my fa!r8 ,d y n see t all ?is is only f ! head1 n f ! life1 ! he>t8 ,x is true6 ,b ,i try1 oh1 my ,god1 ,i try6 ,b x does n come 9 t way--by our /ruggles4 ,!n h[8 he exclaim$ 9 a tone ( despair4 ,does ,he n say1 ',abide 9 me1 & ask :at y w1 & x %all be done unto y'8 ,does n ,/4 ,paul te/ify1 ',i c d all ?+s ?r\gh ,*ri/ :i* /r5g!n$ me4' ,h[ _m h giv5 praise to ,him :o is 'able to save to ! utt]mo/' & 'able to pres5t u faultless'6 ,put ,him to ! pro(4 ,if any "o has ! "r to salvation1 surely y h4 ,!y paus$ "u a tree 9 ! /illness ( ev5+1 &1 :ile he /ood ) b[$ head1 %e knelt beside him & pray$4 99,,*apt] ,,viii99 99,,! ,,r5unciation ,,( ,,home99 ,e>ly 9 #ahhg ! ,m>e*ale became ! wife ( ,mr4 ,ar?ur ,sydney ,clibborn1 an ,iri% g5tleman ( ,quak] extraction1 l9eally desc5d$ f ,b>clay ( ,ury1 ! h]o ( "o ( ,:itti]'s f9e/ poems4 ,br\ght up 9 ,bessbrook1 :i* 0 call$ ! model t[n f ! fact t !re 0 no public-h\se1 police b>racks or pawn%op 9 x1 he r5\nc$ excell5t bus9ess prospects 9 answ] to a call :i* fir/ came to him ?r\gh a simple1 e>ne/ ,quak] m9i/]1 ,sydney1 w !e n come ) u8 ,! visit ( "s repres5tatives ( ,salvationism to ,bessbrook turn$ ! curr5t ( 8 ?\ghts 9 a new direction1 mak+ him exclaim1 ,"h is primitive ,quak]ism1 primitive ,wesleyanism1 primitive ,*ri/ianity6 ,z he _h sp5t "s ye>s at s*ool 9 ,switz]l&1 & become pr(ici5t 9 ,fr5* & ,g]man1 he 0 s5t by ,g5]al ,boo? to assi/ ! ,m>e*ale 9 ,france1 & act$ z h] *ief ( /aff until _! m>riage4 ,he 0 a man ( great c\rage1 & receiv$ a m$al f ! ,fr5* ,presid5t = sav+ life f dr[n+4 ,z a s]vant ( ,god he w\ld1 "o _c b ?9k1 h made a spl5did ,hugu5ot or ,cov5ant]4 ,8 h]oic ideal 0 ! p]secut$ ,quak] ^: blood he _h 9 8 ve9s4 ,9 ! ,salvation ,army's e>ly days ( conflict he 0 ! brave/ ( ! brave4 ,he 0 /on$ & cov]$ ) mud 9 ! /reets ( ,g5eva4 ,he 0 pursu$ by a ,p>isian mob t h[l$ ,d[n ) ,jesus ,*ri/6 ,8 life 0 attempt$ _m times1 & he 0 condemn$ to dea? by ! ,nihili/s "u ! seal ( ! ,p>is headqu>t]s2 b he nev] w5t out ( 8 way to avoid dea? or use c>nal weapons4 ,mr4 ,boo?-,clibborn has be5 specially us$ ( ,god 9 remov+ ! difficulties ( ^? tr\bl$ ) intellectual d\bt & 9 op5+ ! eyes ( a l>ge numb] :o 7 9 spiritual d>kness4 ,! ,m>e*ale 0 n[ oblig$ to leave ! ,tra9+ ,home1 :]e h] vie apo/olique among h] belov$ (fic]s & cadets1 ^: e conflict & dang] %e %>$1 _h (t5 seem$ to h] l life 9 an e>?ly p>adise4 ,b :atev] new duties & c>es came to h] 9 h] little home 9 ! ,rue d',allemagne1 %e nev] all[$ !m to int]f]e ) h] vocation4 ,9 ! c\rse ( f\rte5 ye>s ,god gave h] five sons & five daught]s1 among :om life 0 inf9itely sweet to h]1 yet all h] public activities 7 ma9ta9$1 :ile h] passion = s\ls burn$ ) a cle> & /eady flame4 ,loyalty to ,*ri/ n[ assum$ a new aspect1 & ! conditions ( disciple%ip an add$ /r+5cy4 ,a great s5t5ce 9 ! ,gospel--,v]ily ,i say unto y1 !re is no man t ha? left h\se1 or bre?r51 or si/]s1 or fa!r1 or "m1 or wife1 or *ildr51 or l&s1 = my sake1 & ! ,gospel's1 b he %all receive an hundr$fold n[ 9 ?is "t1 h\ses & bre?r5 & si/]s & mo!rs & *ildr5 & l&s1 ) p]secutions1 & 9 ! _w to come et]nal life--burn$ itself into ! ,m>e*ale's s\l1 & %e nev] d\bt$ t %e receiv$ h] c5tuple j because %e paid ! price4 ,:5 %e w5t to any ( ! t[ns ( ,france to und]take a difficult campaign1 x 0 impossible = h] to d h] duty unless %e fix$ h] :ole m9d & he>t ^u ! "w4 ,hav+ to deal ) ! mass ( s9 conc5trat$ 9 a l>ge mix$ audi5ce su* z %e _h to face 9 ^! t[ns1 & kn[+1 z %e us$ to say1 t e p]son _h a skeleton 9 ! cupbo>d1 %e felt t %e mu/ become1 z x 71 ! scapegoat to be> ! s9s ( ^! p4 ,!re 0 a s5se 9 :i* %e _h to be l ,*ri/ 9 ?is respect1 & s co-op]ate & suff] ) ,him 7,col4 i4 #bd74 ,%e mu/ g & set h]self ap>t to lift up h&s to ,god 9 fav\r ( ! city4 ,%e mu/ say to e preoccupation1 e e>?ly tie1 ,/& ?\ !re :ile ,i g yond] to pray4 ,%e mu/ live = t t[n & t p = six weeks1 or two or ?ree mon?s4 ,%e might d a c]ta9 k9d ( "w )\t giv+ h] life1 b x w\ld n be ( ! apo/olic k9d4 ,to get ! hundr$fold ( :i* ,*ri/ spoke %e mu/ leave fa!r & "m1 home & *ild4 ,9 "s v real way %e mu/ sacrifice & suff]4 ,%e _h felt ?is f h] *ildhood1 & %e n[ saw x m cle>ly ?an ev]2 !re 0 always a price to pay4 ,! secret ( success 9 su* cases 0 ! consci\sness ( a vocation & a passionate love too1 & ! p]sonal deal+ ) ! ,*ri/ ( ,calv>y4 ,illu/ration3 ,,! ,,m>e*ale 7,f a photograph by ,fr$4 ,boissonnas1 ,p>is1 circa #ahhj7 ,h[ h>d x became = ! ,m>e*ale to accept ?is cross may be indicat$ by a t\*+ sc5e depict$ by h] secret>y1 ,miss ,gugelman1 :o is n[ "o ( ! brave/ soldi]s ( salvation 9 ,india4 ',seek ye fir/ ! ,k+dom ( ,god4' ,h[ cle>ly ?is 0 illu/rat$ :51 at a late h\r "o ev5+1 j at ! close ( h] mon?'s meet+s 9 ,p>is1 ! ,m>e*ale b5t ov] h] little ones' cots to bid !m good-bye be=e />t+ on h] ?ree-mon?s' t\r ?r\gh ,france & ,switz]l&4 ,evangel9e1 ! elde/1 _h kept awake1 = %e knew t h] mamma 0 go+ away4 ,! little arms 7 flung r\nd ! w>rior-"m's neck1 :51 rais+ h] sweet te>-/a9$ face1 little ,evangel9e /amm]$1 ',maman1 /ay ) me1 or take me ) y on y\r t\rnees4' ,our lead]'s all too human te>s fill$ h] eyes2 %e kiss$ ! little plead]1 & !n wrapp$ h] up 9 a blanket1 & br\ght h] into ! /udy to see u (f4 ,x 0 pa9fully cle> to u :o 7 wat*+ h]1 t ! leav+ ( h] little ones = ! w>'s sake 0 a heavy cross to ! ,m>e*ale4 ,?ank ,god1 %e %irks x n4 ,suppress+ h] feel+s1 %e w5t out into ! cold & damp1 & />t$ h] long all-night j\rney4 ,t 0 9 ,febru>y #ahid1 & lat] 9 ! same ye> %e _h two ( ! f9e/ campaigns ( h] life--at ,havre & ,r\54 ,! turbul5t beg9n+ at ,havre 0 graphically describ$ by h] fri5d ! ,pr9cess ,malz(f1 :o accompani$ ! ,m>e*ale 9 ord] to h a ta/e ( ! vie apo/olique4 ,!re 0 a great tumult 9 ! ',lyre ,havraise4' ,! ,m>e*ale _h come to publi% ! ^w ( love & salvation4 ,an imm5se cr[d =c$ itself into ! hall1 & :o w\ld h d>$ believe t !y _h all come simply to pres5t ! _w ) ! mo/ sc&al\s1 ! mo/ vulg> & odi\s spectacle t "o c imag9e8 ,:5 ! ,m>e*ale rose ) great dignity & calm 444 %e c\ld n make h]self he>d4 ,e ^w 0 int]rupt$2 "o c\ld see t x 0 a prep>$ /roke4 ,"o might imag9e oneself to be 9 an asylum4 ,b %e did n let h]self be disc\rag$2 %e p]sev]$2 %e walk$ /raight into ! mid/ ( ! infuriat$ cr[d4 ,%e did n tame ^! wild bea/s1 b %e came out victori\s all ! same4 ,tall1 beautiful1 calm1 su/a9$ by h] div9e conviction & ) ! /r5g? ( a great he>t1 %e came back aga9 & aga9--our admirable ,m>e*ale6 444 ,9 ! mid/ ( ?is inf]nal & ridicul\s tumult a few elite s\ls felt a noble en?usiasm = ?is "y woman :o battl$ alone aga9/ a ho/ile & wick$ cr[d4 ,!y came to grasp h] h&1 to express _! admiration = h] & _! %ame = ^? :o _h brok5 ! simple/ laws ( hospitality1 polit5ess & civilisation4 ,bless$ be our ,m>e*ale2 9 h] ! :ole ,armee du ,salut 0 p]sonifi$ t night 9 its /r5g?1 its fai?1 its p]sev]+ love4 ,tributes to ! ,m>e*ale "u fire 7 extort$ f all ! report]s4 ,aft] two or ?ree meet+s ! atmosph]e 0 *ang+ & ! tide ( battle turn+1 :5 tid+s came f ,p>is1 t ,augu/9e1 ! ,m>e*ale's little son ( two summ]s1 0 al>m+ly ill4 ,!n came an indescribable m5tal conflict1 :i* end$ 9 h] decid+ to rema9 at lea/ ano!r night & hope = bett] news 9 ! morn+4 ,%e call$ h] (fic]s = pray]1 & t night spoke ) a p[] & t5d]ness :i* held ! va/ audi5ce z ) a spell2 aft] :i* %e _h ,havre = six weeks 9 ! holl[ ( h] h&4 ,next morn+ %e receiv$ a reassur+ wire f home1 &1 sitt+ alone on ! bea*1 %e wrote a hymn t gives p]fect expression to ! ?\ght ( ! ,great] ,love--a hymn t has ende>$ itself 9 ,france z mu* to ,ca?olics z to ,prote/ants4 ,x beg9s3 ,qui quitte famille et t]re ,p\r mon ,nom1 p\r suivre mes pas2 ,qui quitte enfants1 p]e ou m]e1 ,recoit le c5tuple ici-bas4 ,:5 ?is hymn 0 sung 9 ! ,lyre ,havraise a night or two aft]w>ds by "o ( ! ,m>e*ale's "y comrades1 ,mme4 ,jeanmonod1 :o _h a beautiful soprano voice1 x 0 receiv$ ) a bur/ ( sympa!tic applause1 & _h to be sung ov] & ov] aga91 till ! audi5ce knew x4 ,!n !re 0 a great h>ve/ ( s\ls to reap4 ,a lett] writt5 at ! "t gives an idea ( ! int5sity ( _s ) :i* ! lead] ?rew h]self into ! "w4 ,meet+ sup]b6 ,no?+ ( its k9d s9ce ! days ( ,g5eva & ,nimes1 & ev5 bett] 9 a s5se ?an t1 z ! infidels ru% to he> me4 ,p]fect ord] & p plead+ to get 94 ,9 ^! fir/ audi5ces x has be5 too risky & excitable to all[ any to speak b me4 ,!y applaud ev]y?+1 t is1 :5 ,i h f9i%$ speak+1 & ,i nev] felt m free & reg>dless ( man's op9ion4 ,i am /rong] ) ! r\gh elem5t alone 9 my weakness1 s mu* /rong] z ,i ?r[ myself on !m4 ,yes1 ,i am fill$ ) ! life & p[] ( ,god = ?is t[n4 ,?is h\r may nev] come aga94 ,my s\l is on ! full /ret*4444 ,d y "k :at ! ',c5tuple' is = me8 ,t my *ildr5 %all become apo/les6 ,oh1 ,i claim t ( ,god1 & d y "k !re is an assurance 9 my he>t4 ,9 addition to ! nightly cr[ds at ! ,cas9o1 ! ,m>e*ale held aft]noon meet+s = wom5 only1 at :i* %e spoke on su* subjects z ,! ,role ( ,woman1 ,! ,"m ( ,jesus1 ,! ,:ite ,robe4 ,no?+ impress$ ,havre m ?an ! midnight supp]s %e gave to ! filles p]dues ( ! t[n1 n a few ( :om 7 con/ra9$ to ab&on ! life ( s94 ,& s g5]\s 7 ! ri* citiz5s 9 _! (f]+s t at ! close ( ! campaign ! ,m>e*ale 0 at l5g? able to realise "o ( h] *]i%$ ideas--! f\ndation ( a ,rescue ,home 9 ,p>is4 ,aft] ,havre1 ! ,m>e*ale _h a %ort brea?+-space at home1 & !n ,r\5 _h to be fac$4 ,aga9 ! %ad[ ( ! ,cross fell ^u little he>ts & lives4 ,victoire1 :o 0 ne>ly five1 plead$ ) up/ret*$ arms1 ,don't g1 "m6 /ay ) u6 7,ne p>s pas1 ,maman6 ,re/e avec n\s67 ,evangel9e1 :o _h j turn$ six1 _h le>n$ ! lesson ( sep>ation1 &1 ?r[+ h] arms ar\nd h] "m1 said1 ,maman1 if y d g to ,r\51 w "s s\ls be sav$ t w\ld n be sav$ if y did n g8 ,yes2 mo/ likely s4 ,!n g1 ,maman6 ,& ,maman w5t4 ,:ile ! good ,ca?olic ( ,r\5 0 %ock$1 ! man 9 ! /reet 0 amus$1 at ! idea ( wor%ipp+ ,god 9 ! ,!atre ,francais in/ead ( ! /ately ca!dral1 & betwe5 !m !y contriv$ to make ! ?+ impossible4 ,:at1 !y ask$1 c\ld be m grotesque ?an prea*+ & s++ hymns on ! /age8 ,at ! op5+ meet+ ! ,m>e*ale h]self obta9$ a fairly good he>+1 b a ho/ile elem5t 0 pres5t :i* e n[ & !n convuls$ ! audi5ce ) laught] by "s comical exclamation2 & :5 "o ( h] comrades attempt$ to close ! meet+ ) pray]1 ! r\t 0 complete4 ,pray] 9 a !atre 0 ! limit1 & next day ! ,m>e*ale 0 in=m$ by ! ,mayor t he mu/ pacify ! public by t]m9at+ ^! proce$+s4 ,! great ,cas9o1 at ! corn] ( ! squ>e 9 :i* ,joan ( ,arc 0 burn$1 0 !n secur$1 & ! ,m>e*ale began to deliv] a s]ies ( addresses on ,! ,holy ,"m ( ,jesus1 ,n9ete5? ,c5tury ,miracles1 ,confession1 ,re/itution1 ,! ,sa9ts1 ,! ,pat] ,no/]1 ,my ,cr$o1 ,! ,alt>4 ,! cr[ds t fill$ ! hall to ov]fl[+ 7 amaz$ to f9d t ^! subjects 7 all dealt ) q unecclesia/ically1 & ) su* an exclusive application to ! individual he>t & life t sac]dotalism became1 z x 71 non-exi/5t1 :ile ! s9n] & ! ,savi\r 7 made manife/ & left face to face4 ,! p :o came ) m9ds al]t left ) he>ts melt$ & consci5ces ar\s$4 ,soon !re 7 great numb]s ( s\ls seek+ spiritual help1 & ! ,m>e*ale ann\nc$ t %e w\ld meet ! convict$ & anxi\s 9 "o ( ! rooms ( ! ,cas9o4 ,no few] ?an f\r hundr$ s\ght private int]views 9 t place1 :i* ?us became a confessional ( ! simple1 primitive ord]4 ,n by prie/ly absolution1 b ?r\gh p]sonal contact ) ! "o ,high ,prie/ & ,m$iator1 0 s9 remitt$ & salvation won4 ,s _m ,ca?olics 7 conv]t$ t ! head ( "o ( ! sem9>ies ?\ght x necess>y to prea* aga9/ ! ,armee du ,salut4 ,an influ5tial abbe1 on ! o!r h&1 said3 ,i _c1 ( c\rse1 agree ) ! ,salvationi/s1 b ,i am absolutely conv9c$ ( _! s9c]ity1 & ,i am c]ta9 !y are f> ne>] salvation ?an ! majority ( ,ca?olics4 ,! cure ( ! l>ge/ p>oisse att5d$ "o day 9 8 s\tane1 gave an (f]+ = ! mission1 & b\ght ! publications at ! door4 ,:5 ! ,m>e*ale 0 ab\t to speak to wom5 alone on ! ,holy ,"m1 two prie/s express$ _! desire to be pres5t1 & %e _h !m conceal$ beh9d a curta94 ,at ! end !y 7 deeply mov$1 & assur$ h] !y _h n he>d a s+le ^w ) :i* !y 7 n 9 he>tie/ agreem5t4 ,su* 0 ! deep spiritual impression made ^u ! t[n t a newspap] 0 publi%$ conta9+ no?+ b acc\nts ( h] meet+s & ! "w go+ on 9 ! ,cas9o4 ,dur+ all h] ye>s 9 ,france ! ,m>e*ale nev] pos$ z a ,prote/ant & nev] attack$ ,ca?olicism4 ,cre$s1 c]emonies1 p5ances1 pilgrimages--^! ?+s 7 to h] nei!r "h nor !re4 ,%e always w5t = ! real1 & %e f\nd 9 ,*ri/ n only true div9ity b p]fect humanity4 ,h] s]mon on ! ,virg9 melt$ ?\s&s ( ,ca?olic he>ts1 & h] fundam5tal doctr9e ( sacrifice nev] fail$ to evoke a response f ! ,lat9 races4 ,%e 0 an eag] /ud5t--s f> z ! apo/olic life p]mitt$--( ! writ+s ( ,ca!r9e ( ,si5a1 ,?omas a ,kempis1 ,madame ,guyon & ,f5elon1 claim+ k9%ip ) all :o lov$ ! ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/ 9 s9c]ity & tru?4 ,?us %e _h great p[] ov] ,ca?olics z well z ,prote/ants & infidels4 ,"o ( h] mo/ devot$ (fic]s1 ,m4 le ,r\x1 _h1 aft] a brilliant c>e] z a ,ca?olic /ud5t1 complet$ 8 prep>ation = ! prie/hood & receiv$ ! tonsure1 :5 he came "u h] influ5ce & f\nd 8 life completely *ang$4 ,& ! foll[+ lett] receiv$ f a lady-pr(essor 9 ,r\5 indicates ! k9d ( impression :i* 0 made on _m ,ca?olic m9ds4 ,de> ,m>e*ale1 ,i wi% to d :at ,i h n yet d>$ to d :5 face to face ) y--t is1 to express ! pleasure :i* ,i h f\nd 9 y\r *>m+ ,conf]5ces4 ,!y h mov$ & tr\bl$ me to su* an ext5t1 h ?r[n su* light 9 my he>t & m9d1 t ,i ask myself :at is go+ on )9 me4 ,y\r addresses1 s simple & yet s high1 s suit$ to y\r he>]s1 s consecutive1 h influ5c$ me m ?an all ! beautiful s]mons ( ! monks4 ,y h made me und]/& t ,god asks some?+ else f u ?an outw>d practices & empty c]emonial1 & ,i feel t y h r5ew$ a fai? 9 me t _h ne>ly disappe>$4 ,y h made me ta/e1 ?anks to y\r deep convictions & ! w>m? ( y\r spee*1 "o ( ! pure/ joys ,i h ev] kn[n4444 ,be bless$ a ?\s& times1 ,m>e*ale1 = hav+ reveal$ my religion to be "u a new light1 = hav+ %ak5 ?is apa?y :i* r5d]$ me incapable ( e g5]\s impulse1 = hav+ made me m s5sitive to ! suff]+s ( o!rs4 ,be bless$ 9 y\r *ildr51 :o "o day ,i hope w rew>d y nobly = all y\r sacrifices4 ,be bless$ 9 humanity1 ! great family :i* y h elect$ to live = & :i* is ! object ( y\r c>e4 ,does su* a revival z ?is leave solid & la/+ results8 ,let "o case out ( _m be pres5t$ z evid5ce t x does4 ,m4 ,matt] 0 a di/+ui%$ eng9e] & an (fic] 9 ! ,fr5* army4 ,extracts f two ( 8 lett]s tell :at ! ,r\5 campaign did = him4 ,belov$ ,m>e*ale1 ,?ree ye>s ago tonight a poor man ent]$ ! ,cas9o ?r\gh :at appe>$ m]e *ance4 ,he 0 burd5$ ) sorr[1 ke5ly consci\s ( 8 s9s1 b nev] dream+ ( ask+ ! ,armee du ,salut--:i* did n ev5 excite 8 curiosity--to help him1 h>dly believ+ any m 9 ! possibility ( salvation = him4 ,god inspir$ y2 ! ,holy ,_s made y\r words p5etrate ev5 und]nea? ! brea/plate ( s9 :i* cov]$ my poor he>t4 ,two days aft] ,i 0 born to a new life4 ,f t mom5t ,god has /r5g!n$1 protect$ & direct$ me4 ,i seek to love ,him ) all my he>t1 & ,i treasure a deep & lov+ gratitude to y4 ,& six ye>s lat]3 ,i h made a pilgrimage at night 9 ! des]t$ /reets to ! ,cas9o :]e ,god f\nd me & :]e y 7 ,8 ambassador4 ,?is g5tleman is n[ well kn[n all ov] ,france = 8 "w among crim9als & drunk>ds1 & 8 s]vices h be5 recognis$ by ! ,fr5* gov]nm5t4 ,he gets into p]sonal t\* ) hundr$s ( convicts 9 ord] to speak to !m ( ! love ( ,god1 & d[n 9 ! ,arde*e he has a ,home = f\r hundr$ little waifs1 mo/ly ! *ildr5 ( crim9als1 :om he calls ! ,m>e*ale's gr&*ildr51 he himself be+ h] spiritual son4 ,! la/ "t %e visit$ him 9 ,p>is1 !y 7 engag$ 9 eag] & intimate talk1 :5 he said1 ,d y see t ivory pipe8 ,i h engrav$ on x ! day ( my conv]sion at ,r\52 b s9ce t "t ,i h nev] _h any incl9ation to smoke x4 ,& d y see t pile ( lett]s8 ,^! are f my boys 9 prison4 ,let me read "o ( !m to y4 ,!n he read ! words ( a convict :o spoke ( prison walls light$ up ) ! glory ( ,*ri/'s pres5ce4 ,& he add$1 ,d y rememb] y said to me :5 ,i 0 9 despair ov] my pa/ life1 ',^! h&s1 :i* h done s mu* evil1 w br+ bless+ & salvation :]e ,i c nev] g4' ,y\r words h lit]ally come true4 99,,*apt] ,,ix99 99,,! ,,fri5d%ip ,,( ,,*ri/99 ,"o night a little c>d 0 plac$ on ! table d'hote ( ! ,hotel ,meurice1 9 ! ,rue de ,rivoli1 intimat+ to ! gue/s t ! ,m>e*ale w\ld speak at an in=mal meet+ 9 ! salon aft] d9n]4 ,among ^? :o came to see & he> h] 0 a little ,russian lady ) deep & ?\ghtful hazel eyes4 ,%e 0 ! celebrat$ ,pr9cess ,nancy 7prop]ly ,ana/asia7 ,malz(f ( ! ,russian c\rt4 ,"o ( ! ,cz>9as di$ 9 h] arms4 ,%e 0 a fri5d ( ,k+ ,edw>d ,,vii1 & h] brilliant wit made h] a welcome figure 9 e c\rt ( ,europe4 ,%e spoke eight languages4 ,%e 0 n[ well advanc$ 9 life1 & ?\ght %e _h kn[n ev]ybody wor? kn[+ & se5 ev]y?+ wor? see+ 9 ! _w4 ,b t ev5+ 0 ! beg9n+ ( a new life ( peace & joy su* z %e _h nev] dream$ (4 ,f ! mom5t ! ,m>e*ale op5$ h] lips1 %e 0 fasc9at$1 fir/ by ! speak]1 & !n /ill m by ! message4 ,next morn+ %e came 9 h] c>riage to ! ,villette4 ,! ,m>e*ale 0 sc>cely well en\gh to receive h]1 b %e w\ld n take a ,no4 ,:5 %e ent]$ ! ,m>e*ale's room1 %e ?rew h]self by ! b$side & exclaim$1 ,oh6 tell me1 h[ did y get to "k ,him8 ,?is 0 ! comm5cem5t ( a sev5 ye>s' fri5d%ip1 & dur+ all t "t %e 0 nev] out ( rea* )\t writ+ ! ,m>e*ale e second day4 ,! ,pr9cess 0 a memb] ( ! or?odox ,greek ,*ur*4 ,h] "m _h m>ri$ h] (f at sixte51 & %e _h elev5 *ildr5 by ! "t %e 0 tw5ty-eight4 ,:5 %e f\nd t h] husb& _h become unfai?ful1 %e dismiss$ him ) an emphatic ,c'e/ f9i6 & = m ?an a qu>t] ( a c5tury %e _h nev] se5 him4 ,! ,m>e*ale li/5$ ) deep sympa?y to ! /ory ( h] life1 & !n said1 ,y mu/ =give him1 if y w\ld be =giv54 ,nev]1 nev]6 ,yes1 if y want ,*ri/1 =give him4 ,nev] m9d :at he has done1 y mu/ =give him4 ,! ,pr9cess c\ld n4 ,a /ruggle w5t on 9 h] m9d = six weeks4 ,%e began to come to ! meet+s at ! ,rue ,aub]1 b %e _h no peace4 ,! ,m>e*ale op5$ ! "q aga94 ,come n[1 ,i want y to write & invite him to meet y at y\r hotel1 to d9e ) him1 & to =give him4 ,a t]rible inn] controv]sy ensu$1 & ! ,pr9cess became ill ov] x4 ,"o c sc>cely imag9e :at x all meant to h]1 & yet ?\s&s h to g ?r\gh ! same4 ,call+ "o day1 ! ,m>e*ale f\nd h] 9 a cl\d ( cig>ette smoke4 ,pr9cess1 h[ d>e y smoke l ?is8 ,well1 ,i am surr\nd$ by a ?\s& devils1 blue1 black & yell[4 ,y h be5 neglect+ me4 ,a ceaseless conflict 0 rag+ 9 h] brea/1 & ere !y p>t$ t day %e wrote a lett] & said %e w\ld s5d x4 ,! ,m>e*ale call$ aga91 & f\nd t ! lett] _h n be5 s5t4 ,!n ! crisis came4 ,pr9cess1 y are lo/4 ,if y d n =give1 y\r heav5ly ,fa!r w n =give y4 ,i _c1 ,i _c4 ,%e 0 9 agony ( s\l4 ,pr9cess1 said ! ,m>e*ale1 are y p]fect8 ,f ! little ,i "k ( y ,i %\ld ?9k y h a v bad temp]4 ,x is true1 x is true4 ,y\r s9s h n be5 81 b !y are s9s be=e ,god1 & h caus$ suff]+ to o!rs4 ,if y want ,god to =give y\r bad temp]1 y mu/ =give him4 ,! ,m>e*ale pray$1 & bade h] look to ! ,cross & see h[ ,*ri/ =gave4 ,!n %e told h] aga9 :at to d4 ,d>l+1 y are to invite him to y\r ap>tm5ts2 y are to h a sweet little d9n] = him & fl[]s on ! table1 & :5 he comes y are to kiss him4 ,b ,i _c6 ,yes1 y w2 & rememb] x is no =giv5ess unless y kiss him4 ,=giv5ess means kiss+4 ,=give him1 & ,i "k peace w come4 ,v well1 ,i w1 ,i w6 ,! ,m>e*ale *anc$ to be leav+ ,p>is = a "t1 & said-- ,y w s5d me a wire :5 y h done x4 ,! ,pr9cess invit$ h] husb&4 ,he made a long night j\rney4 ,%e kiss$ him & =gave him4 ,next day ! ,m>e*ale receiv$ a wire :i* made h] dance = joy4 ,x ran3 ,t\t s'e/ passe comme v\s l'avez dit1 et la paix du ,*ri/ m'inonde3 ,malz(f 7,all is done z y said1 & ! peace ( ,*ri/ floods my s\l47 ,h] husb& di$ aft] a few mon?s1 & h] ?ankfulness = :at %e _h done 0 pr(\nd4 ,! la/ ye>s ( h] own life 7 beautiful4 ,9 a lett] :i* %e wrote to ,g5]al ,boo? 9 reg>d to h] fri5d's heal? %e said3 ,i owe a great deal to ! ,m>e*ale4 ,%e has giv5 me a treasure great] ?an all ! treasures ( ?is _w--%e has giv5 me a liv+ ,*ri/2 %e has put ,him n ne> me1 b 9 me1 9 my s\l1 & ! gratitude ,i feel = t bless+ is great4 ,an article f h] p5 on ! ,army's "w 9 ,p>is conta9s ^! words3 ,! ,salle ,aub] is to me n[ a holy place4 ,i feel ! pres5ce ( ,*ri/ !re--,*ri/ :o has p]sonally become a liv+ ,savi\r to me s9ce ! ,m>e*ale br\ght me to ,him & committ$ me to ,8 ,div9e arms4 ,hundr$s ( lett]s1 ! la/ ( :i* 0 writt5 9 ,/4 ,pet]sburg on ! day be=e h] dea?1 reveal an int5sely ard5t nature1 & prove t ! he>t :i* truly loves nev] gr[s old4 ,we translate a few extracts4 ,i w use all my moral =ces to prove to y t our mutual affection has advanc$ me 9 ! pa? ( hol9ess :i* y op5$ to me ! v fir/ mom5ts ,i he>d y speak4 ,god _h pity ^u me & s5t y on my via dolorosa to op5 to me a new horizon1 a new heav54 ,he c>ri$ my he>t to y ) an int5sity ( :i* ,i did n ?9k myself capable4 ,i h f\nd 9 y two be+s equally preci\s to me--! fir/ is a fri5d ,i love l a de>ly belov$ daught]2 ! second ! ,m>e*ale ( my ,salvation1 ^: "w1 vocation & p[] ,i admire--t moral p[] :i* y only 9 ! :ole _w ex]cise ov] me4 ,if ,i _h kn[n y e>li]1 y w\ld h made a sa9t ( me4 ,n any affection 9 ! _w1 n ev5 my *ildr5's1 c replace y\rs = me4 ,:at does x matt] ?\gh ev]ybody loves me if y d n8 ,i "k t x is because ,i h n yet r5\nc$ my 'self1' my 'moi1' t y\r abs5ce makes me suff]1 b ,i _c help x--x is beyond my p[]4 ,i "k also t ! day my 'self' w be *as$ away--:i* is d\btful--,i %all love no "o1 = to love "o mu/ be a self1 "o mu/ h "o's own he>t4 ,i d\bt if !re are any o!rs :o be> y su* a deep1 complete1 liv+1 w>m & lum9\s affection4 ,n t y d n des]ve x1 b all natures are n alike1 & y "k ! fault ( m9e4 ,i _c love by halves4 ',love wisely1' "s "o advises4 ,t ^w 'wise' hurts me4 ,i d n want to be wise 9 my love = y4 ,i pref] to love madly1 & t is :at ,i d1 & y feel x1 don't y8 ,wisdom to ! devil :5 x is a "q ( ! he>t4 ,i _c believe t ,he mu/ deta* u f ev]y?+ to atta* u to ,himself--t w\ld make me v sad4 ,on ! contr>y ,i feel t x is only human love1 dis9t]e/$ love1 b deep & liv+1 :i* c make u und]/& ,div9e love4 ,x is only ?r\gh human exp]i5ce t we c appreciate ,8 great1 ,8 mighty1 ,8 et]nal love = u4 ,all ! life ( ,jesus is fill$ ) t palpable love = ,8 creatures1 & t is :y ,he is s ne> to u4 ,let me !re=e love y )\t deta*m5t1 & ! m ,i love y ! m ,i w love ,him4 ,"o ( h] lett]s is peculi>ly int]e/+3 ,i w see ! ,emp]or 9 ^! days1 & ,i w seek /r5g? to speak to him4 ,y see1 my d>l+1 speak+ is n en\gh1 "o mu/ 9 su* a case p\r out "o's s\l & feel t a sup]ior =ce guides "o & speaks = "o4 ,x turn$ out z %e hop$4 ,"o night %e 0 at ! ,palace 9 ,/4 ,pet]sburg4 ,aft] d9n] ! ,cz> came & seat$ himself beside h]4 ,soon !y 7 deep 9 intimate conv]sation4 ,%e began tell+ him :at h] new-f\nd fri5d 9 ,p>is _h done = h]4 ,%e talk$ wisely z he li/5$ att5tively4 ,at l5g? he said-- ,b1 ,nancy1 y h always be5 good1 always "r4 ,no1 %e answ]$2 till n[ ,i h nev] kn[n ! ,*ri/4 ,%e has made ,him real to me1 br\ght ,him ne> to me1 & ,he has become :at ,he nev] 0 be=e--my p]sonal ,fri5d4 99,,*apt] ,x99 99,,! ,,burn+ ,,"q99 ,x 0 ! (t5 express$ wi% ( ,mrs4 ,joseph9e ,butl] t ! ,m>e*ale might be able to jo9 h] crusade aga9/ ! infam\s ,:ite ,slave ,traffic4 ,9 "o ( h] e>lie/ lett]s to h] fri5d %e said3 ,de>e/ ,ca!r9e1 ! wick$ p>ty1 z y "k1 h triumph$ 9 ! elections 9 ,switz]l&1 & ! ,g5eva gov]nm5t has pass$ t evil ,law :i* our fri5ds 7 try+ to /op4444 ,h[ nice x w\ld be if y & ,i c\ld /& up toge!r 9 ,g5eva1 & d5\nce _! wick$ness & proclaim ! ,savi\r4 ,i %\ld love to d s4 ,at a lat] "t %e wrote ( h] "y fri5d1 ,oh1 ,i sometimes ?9k if %e 7 9 ! "w ( our ,f$]ation1 :at a h>ve/ %e might br+ u 91 or r br+ 9 = ,god6 ,! ,m>e*ale reg>d$ ! wi% ( t sa9tly & *ivalr\s woman z involv+ a k9d ( sacr$ tru/4 ,h] own he>t 0 e>ly & deeply tr\bl$ by ! d>k] aspects ( our mod]n civilisation4 ,:5 %e & h] two brave comrades1 ,flor5ce ,sop] & ,adelaide ,cox1 took _! fir/ flat 9 ,p>is1 !y 7 %ock$ to le>n t !y _h z _! ne>e/ neighb\rs--above & b5ea?1 to ! "r & to ! left--families unconsecrat$ by any m>riage tie2 & 9 ! c\rse ( _! ord9>y "w !y f\nd !mselves h\rly confront$ by all ! devils ( vice4 ,! lurid facts1 ( :i* mo/ ,*ri/ians1 happily = _! own peace ( m9d1 "k little or no?+1 7 burn$ into ! s\ls ( ^! noble wom51 ea* ( :om d$icat$ h]self to a battle a outrance aga9/ ?is mo/ appall+ =m ( evil4 ,& h !y n fai?fully kept _! v[8 ,are !re any liv+ ,engli%wom5 :o h done s mu* to protect our innoc5t *ildr5 & raise our fall5 si/]s z ^! ?ree1 :o fir/ toil$ & suff]$ & pray$ toge!r ?irty ye>s ago 9 ! ,villette ( ,p>is8 ,9 r$eem+ h] pl$ge1 ! ,m>e*ale n only gave midnight supp]s to ! filles de*ues ( ! great cities 9 :i* %e conduct$ h] campaigns1 n only f\nd$ ,rescue ,homes 9 ,p>is1 ,nimes1 ,lyons & ,brussels1 b endeav\r$ to make ! problem ( purity a national "q1 to be dealt ) 9 a /atesmanlike mann] by e patriotic citiz54 ,%e frequ5tly address$ great meet+s ( ! m5 ( ,p>is & o!r cities on ?is subject1 mak+ irresi/ible appeals to ! he>t & consci5ce4 ,x 0 a/oni%+ h[ %e c>ri$ ! mo/ critical audi5ces along ) h]1 ?\gh n[ & !n an indignant he>] w\ld leap to 8 feet & da% out ( ! hall or !atre 9 :i* h] meet+ 0 held4 ,%e /eadily refus$ to believe t no?+ c\ld be done = ! morale ( ,fr5*m51 & h] fai? 9 ! innate *ivalry ( ! p 0 amply ju/ifi$4 ,! respect ) :i* %e 0 he>d 0 a tribute n only to ! p]sonal magnetism ( a consecrat$ life1 b to ! ,*ri/ian ideal ( *a/ity4 ,%e 0 (t5 told by j\rnali/s t any "o else1 man or woman1 d>+ to utt] half ! home tru?s to :i* %e gave expression w\ld h be5 hiss$ out ( ! t[n4 ,expla9 x z "o w1 :5 %e plead$ ! sacr$ cause ( womanhood1 m5 applaud$ to _! own hurt4 ,g5tlem51 %e w\ld exclaim1 ,i am n ,fr5*1 b ,i love y\r nation4 ,i h made y\r c\ntry m9e1 & ,i realise :at ,france might be b = ! worm :i* gnaws at ! root ( y\r national life4 ,x makes me %udd] to ?9k--x makes me lit]ally sick to see--h[ _m ?\s&s ( my si/]s1 & y\r si/]s1 9 y\r beautiful city are m9i/]s ( vice4 ,s _m1 y\r policem5 tell me1 "u tw5ty1 s _m "u sev5te51 s _m "u fifte51 & !re are ev5 ^? kn[n to ! police :o are n 9 _! te5s4 ,g5tlem51 !y d n s9 alone1 = we are all solidaires4 ,!y are l y\r own girls1 y\r wives1 y\r sweet little daught]s4 ,!y h he>ts1 !y h bra9s1 !y are intellig5t1 !y w\ld make beautiful mo!rs1 our comrades 9 life's j\rney1 help+ u & %>+ our burd5s4 ,&1 alas1 :at h y made ( !m8 ,any nation :i* c look at t go+ on 9 its cities day by day & night by night1 )\t a ^w1 )\t a prote/--:i* c see ?is spl5did asset1 woman1 :o %\ld be> its sons & daught]s1 sacrific$ & sold to vice1 disease1 & e>ly dea?1--t nation is on ! decl9e4 ,d n tell me t a man wor?y ( ! "n c be sil5t 9 face ( ^! /up5d\s facts4 ,su* a man is n a ,fr5*man4 ,i am told t ?+s h always be5 s1 & w always be s4 ,i he> x said on e h& t ?is vice is a necessity4 ,t "s wom5--t ! daught]s ( ! poor--%\ld be sacrific$ is reg>d$ z inevitable4 ,well1 !n1 g5tlem51 z y say x is = ! public utility1 foll[ y\r reason+ to its own logical conclusion1 be j to ^! poor creatures2 d n despise !m1 d n call !m lo/1 fall51 pro/itutes2 be hone/ & ackn[l$ge !m2 all[ !m to /& at lea/ on ! same level z our soldi]s :o sacrifice !mselves = _! c\ntry4 ,f> f be+ a%am$ ( !m1 hon\r !m = _! s]vice to our sons & our nation4 ,b y say 'x is only une fille1' & "o ( y\r s5ators has publicly said t 'we are come to a f9e pass if an hone/ man _c buy himself une bonne =tune4' ,only a fille6 ,y\r mo!rs 7 once only filles1 y\r wives 7 only filles1 & :at are y\r own daught]s8 ,:]e9 lies ! diff]5ce8 ,an hone/ man6 ,i am n a nun2 ,i am n a man-hat] /alk+ ?r\gh ! _w4 ,i rev]e man4 ,he is half a god4 ,look at 8 works 9 e doma9--! k+ ( creation1 giv5 t wond]ful comm& to subdue & rule1 hav+ ev]y?+ "u 8 feet4 ,:5 he rises to 8 de/9y1 & becomes a co-work] ) ,god1 & puts 8 life & example--t wond]ful miracle call$ influ5ce--on ! side ( righte\sness1 he rises to ! sublime4 ,! sum ( happ9ess1 ( pure joy & peace1 t "o good man c br+ to ! little gr\p at home1 & !n to ! community1 to ! city1 to ! _w1 _c be e/imat$4 ,& ! sum ( mis]y1 ! curse1 ! blight t "o man c br+ to a woman1 to *ildr51 to e "o he t\*es--t1 too1 _c be e/imat$4 ,an hone/ man6 ,he does n ev5 /op :]e ! c[s & horses d4 ,he goes a ?\s& miles b5ea? !m6 ,& yet ! indulg5ce ( ! passions is no m a necessity ?an ! dr9k+ ( alcohol is a necessity = an infant ( a ye> old4 ,x is society t awak5s ^? evil desires1 & !y unfold !mselves "u ! influ5ce ( a baneful education4 ,g5tlem51 y say t a bad woman is worse ?an a bad man4 ,h y ev] reflect$ t ! wrongs done to h] are f> deep]8 ,h y realis$ t h] make-up is a ?\s& times m delicate & complex ?an y\rs1 & t z a consequ5ce ?is s9 makes %ort] "w ( h]8 ,h] despair is black] & %e is reckless4 ,y take f h] ! hope ( ev] hav+ a little home ( h] own1 ( ev] hav+ a real husb&1 ( ev] he>+ h]self call$ "m4 ,y h done t be=e %e c realise :at y h done4 ,%e does n wait1 does n e/imate4 ,! realisation comes to h] lat] on 9 life4 ,& :5 x comes1 is x any wond] t %e flies to dr9k & becomes a demon8 ,w\ld n ,i8 ,w\ld n y8 ,say all t y please aga9/ woman4 ,reckon up ! s9s on y\r side & on h]s4 ,/ill y\r page is black z ink comp>$ ) h]s4 ,?9k ( ! g5]\s1 ! absolute1 ! totally bl9d ways %e loves4 ',woman's he>t runs d[n to love ,z riv]s run to seas4' ,y h y\r life1 y\r "w1 y\r amusem5ts2 b love is h] :ole exi/5ce4 ,%e is creat$ 9 t way4 ,t makes y\r s9 9 deceiv+ a tru/+ he>t inf9itely great]4 ,y may g & h a good m>riage aft]w>ds1 & be pr\d ( y\r *>m+ wife's sweet looks1 b does n ! vision ( ano!r1 a pale face sometimes flit across y\r m9d8 ,& :5 y look at y\r little cot1 d y n see ano!r baby face--ano!r little life y h nev] own$1 ( :i* y are ! au?or1 & :i* is equally y\rs be=e ,god8 ,a woman's he>t has be5 brok51 & !re w be retribution4 ,:ile ! ,m>e*ale /ood alone1 plead+ z a woman ! cause ( woman1 h] audi5ces ( educat$ ,fr5*m5 7 sometimes s deeply /irr$ & convict$ t !y w\ld rock & sob "u ! p[] ( emotion2 & :5 !y rose at ! end to s+ a hymn t %e wrote z a "y girl--a hymn :i* has be5 translat$ into _m languages-- ,ote t\s mes pe*es6 ,ote t\s mes pe*es6 ,agneau de ,dieu1 je vi5s a toi1 ,ote t\s mes pe*es1 ! words & music w\ld sweep ov] ! audi5ce l a wave1 s5d+ _m away ) consci5ces tortur$ & faces ba!d 9 te>s4 ,"o morn+1 aft] su* a meet+1 !re 0 a r+ at ! ,m>e*ale's door1 & a lady 0 u%]$ into h] pres5ce4 ,com+ =w>d )\t a ^w1 %e took ! ,m>e*ale's face betwe5 h] h&s1 & w>mly embrac$ h] 9 ! ,fr5* fa%ion by kiss+ bo? h] *eeks4 ,! ,m>e*ale inquir$ :at 0 ! mean+ ( ?is sweet affection4 ,oh6 said ! /rang]1 y h re/or$ to me my husb&4 ,he 0 li/5+ to y la/ night1 & :5 he came home he fell at my feet & begg$ me to p>don him1 v[+ t he w\ld nev] aga9 be untrue to me4 ,t 0 b "o ( ! _m fruits ( ^! addresses4 ,sometimes ! ,m>e*ale w\ld read to elite audi5ces a lett] :i* a man ( high social /&+ wrote to a *>m+ "y girl :om he ought to h made 8 wife4 ,hav+ met h] at ,c>nival1 he awoke 9 h] he>t an ador+ love1 deceiv$ h] ) a promise ( m>riage1 put a r+ on h] f+]1 & aft] ?ree ye>s ab&on$ h] & h] baby boy4 ,! ,m>e*ale took ! lett] to an em95t juri/ & s5ator1 :o confess$ t = cold-blood$ cruelty he _h nev] se5 any?+ to equal x2 b he sorr[fully add$--su* are ! laws ( ,*ri/ian l&s--t no?+ c\ld be done to "r ! wrong4 ,! lett] ran z foll[s-- ,,little ,,m>ie1 ,once aga9 ,i mu/ ask p>don = all ! h>m ,i h done y4 ,i hope1 h[ev]1 t y w be /rong 9 tr\ble1 /rong] ?an y h be5 up to ! pres5t4 ,?is w be a v great consolation to me4 ,i owe _m ?anks = ! resolutions t ! good little ,m>ie made ye/]day1 9 spite ( h] he>t & all h] feel+s4 ,believe t ,i %all nev] =get x1 & t x co/ me mu* be=e decid+ to break y\r ideal--b1 z ,i told y1 ,i pref] to be s9c]e4 ,z long z my he>t 0 free f o!r passion ,i always consid]$ y z ! be/ fri5d ,i possess$4 ,if ,i 0 n completely happy1 x 0 t liv+ )\t love 0 n to live--b y1 poor little ,m>ie1 y suff]$6 ,y are wor? a hundr$ times m ?an ,i1 & precisely on acc\nt ( t we c\ld n und]/& ea* o!r4 ,y :o are s good--too good--p]meat$ ) ! mo/ delicate s5tim5ts1 y c\ld n conqu] an ambiti\s man1 = ,i am v ambiti\s4 ,:il/ y dream$ ( a simple1 quiet life ) me1 y mu/ und]/& t viol5t passions1 ri*es1 & a luxuri\s life are = me ess5tial4 ,9 a ^w1 our ideals are completely diff]5t1 & x is a divorce ( s\ls :i* ,i h accompli%$ 9 leav+ y4 ,fate made u meet1 & fate sep>ates u4 ,don't h any ill-feel+ t[>ds me4 ,my dream n[ is to create = myself q a new life made up ( goodness1 ( love1 & above all fai?fulness 9 a s]i\s affection4 ,i sacrifice y1 x is true1 b if x 7 o!rwise1 ?9k ( ! torture y w\ld h inflict$ on me4 ,is x n bett] to sep>ate1 ea* ( u keep+ a good memory ( :at made our union8 ,?9k also h[ my life is insupportable 9 ?is muddle n[ t ,i love truly4 ,y are good1 ,m>ie2 be c\rage\s n[4 ,! sacrifice t ,i ask ( y is enorm\s1 ,i "k1 b d x = love ( me1 & ,i w be et]nally oblig$ to y4 ,y w put all y\r t5d]ness 9 ! little ,gu/ave1 :om ,i %all nev] =get1 & above all rememb] t he :o loves well *a/ises well4 ,au revoir--au revoir6 ,once aga9 p>don me1 & don't suff] too mu* by y\r exile4 ,my only hope is t ,gu/ave w recomp5se y l>gely = all ! suff]+ y h endur$1 s little m]it$ dur+ ^! long ye>s4 ,i rema91 ,y\r devot$----4 ,m>ie 0 human1 & :5 ! m>riage day drew ne> !re 0 a fi]ce flam+-up ( res5tm5t 9 h] "y he>t4 ,%e ?\ght ( mak+ a sc5e at ! *ur* & spoil+ ! bridegroom's joy4 ,h] bro!r fann$ h] burn+ s5se ( wrong1 & promis$ to back h] up if %e w\ld seek rev5ge4 ,b ! ,m>e*ale plead$ ) h]1 ! love ( ! ,crucifi$ con/ra9$ h]1 & on ! morn+ ( ! w$d+ %e wrote ! foll[+ pa!tic little note3 ,he is to be m>ri$ to-day4 ,! w$d+ bells are r++4444 ,x is all ov]1 de> ,m>e*ale1 & ,i am on my knees 9 my little room4 ,all is well2 ! peace ( ,*ri/ is 9 my he>t1 & ,i h ! victory4 ,?is is no romance1 b a bit ( real life4 ,:i* ( u w\ld h done z little ,m>ie did8 ,%e did n "k x1 b %e 0 wor?y t morn+ ( ! m9i/ry ( angels--! %9+ ones :o h nev] s9n$ & nev] suff]$4 ,sometimes ! ,m>e*ale w\ld tell h] audi5ce a /ory to prove :at wells ( love !re /ill are 9 ! he>ts ( ! mo/ ab&on$4 ,dur+ a ?ree mon?s' campaign at ,lyons1 result+ 9 "o ( ! mo/ rem>kable revivals 9 :i* %e ev] took "p1 %e 0 giv+ a midnight supp]4 ,h] (fic]s _h gone to ! mo/ notori\s h\ses & left a c>d conta9+ ! words3 ,a lady :o is devot$ to ! cause ( wom5 desires to speak to !m on subjects :i* deeply int]e/ !m1 9 ---- ,hall1 at twelve to-night4 ,supp]1 music & s++4 ,! city _h be5 mov$1 & ! ri* demon/rat$ _! sympa?y ) ?is ef=t4 ,hav+ _h frequ5t exp]i5ces ( ! risks att5d+ midnight ga!r+s1 ! ,m>e*ale enli/$ ! int]e/ ( ! police1 :o on ?is occasion gave h] all possible assi/ance4 ,late 9 ! ev5+ ! table 0 cov]$ ) damask clo?s & adorn$ ) fl[]s4 ,a supp] ( roa/ beef1 vegetables1 fruit & black c(fee 0 prep>$4 ,t[>ds midnight ! piano began to be play$1 t ^? :o ent]$ ! hall might be welcom$ ) *e]ful music4 ,"s girls came 9 laugh+1 & quickly w5t out aga91 evid5tly ?9k+ !re mu/ be "s deception4 ,!y did n believe t banquets 7 spread = no?+4 ,sometimes x 0 v difficult to conv9ce !m t ! ?+ 0 n a f>ce4 ,pres5tly a horrible old hag appe>$--x w\ld be difficult to imag9e a m ugly1 repulsive woman4 ,com+ up to ! ,m>e*ale %e said-- ,y are ! ,holy ,virg94 ,i "k x4 ,oui1 v\s etes la ,sa9te ,vi]ge1 je le sais4 ,! ,m>e*ale did n "k :at to say1 s mu* 0 %e tak5 aback4 ,y are ! ,holy ,virg91 ! old woman repeat$4 ,come along & h a talk ) me1 said ! ,m>e*ale1 & take supp]4 ,i am delight$ to see y4 ,! woman laugh$4 ,no1 no1 no1 x isn't me t y want--,ce n'e/ pas moi qu'il v\s faut4 ,yes1 x is y4 ,i am happy1 believe me ,i am s happy1 to see y4 ,x is y :om ,i want4 ,d sit d[n4 ,at la/1 ) great difficulty1 %e 0 p]suad$ to be seat$4 ,b %e /ay$ only a m9ute4 ,! ,m>e*ale turn$ to speak to somebody1 & ! old woman d>t$ out ( ! hall4 ,%e 0 gone l a fla%4 ,we won't see h] aga91 ,m>e*ale1 said "o ( ! (fic]s4 ,! ,m>e*ale began to blame h]self4 ,:y did %e n inspire ! poor creature ) confid5ce8 ,:y c\ld "o n make h] feel at re/8 ,:y _h %e run away8 ,%e _h seem$ to suspect some?+4 ,x 0 a sore disappo9tm5t4 ,aft] "s wait+1 ! girls began to come1 & ! tables fill$ up1 b e "t ! door op5$ ! ,m>e*ale turn$ h] eye t[>ds x 9 ! hope ( see+ h] old woman return4 ,a gloom _h be5 ca/ ov] h] _s because t woman _h gone out1 n believ+ t %e 0 welcome1 ?9k+ %e 0 too old & too ugly4 ,! beautiful grace1 ,n\s ,te b5issons1 0 sung1 pray] 0 (f]$1 & sweet music fill$ ! air :ile ! plates 7 h&$ r\nd4 ,"s ( ! gue/s 7 pretty & "s ugly1 "s "y & "s old1 "s clad 9 rags & "s dress$ 9 ! height ( fa%ion4 ,"s poor fami%$ creatures ask$ = a plate ( meat f\r or five times1 :ile o!rs1 hav+ already supp$1 m]ely t\*$ a little fruit ) _! da9ty f+]s & sipp$ a cup ( black c(fee4 ,! supp] 0 ne>ly end$1 & ! ,m>e*ale 0 prep>+ to speak1 :5 ! door bur/ op51 & 9 came our old woman1 ) a pretty "y girl1 fair z a lily1 on "o arm1 & a d>k "o1 equally "y & beautiful1 on ! o!r4 ,up %e came to ! ,holy ,virg91 ) h] de> old face radiant4 ,voila6 ,i h gone & f\nd !m4 ,x's ^! t y want6 ,= me x is too late1 b %[ !m ! o!r side ( ! m$al4 ,! ,m>e*ale c\ld n speak4 ,h] eyes fill$ ) te>s4 ,! words cut h] ?r\gh4 ,! woman did n "k :at an act %e _h done1 nor :at an un=gettable phrase--le rev]s de la m$aille--%e _h us$4 ,i h sp5t a long "t 9 seek+ !m1 %e said4 ,i am pleas$--,je suis cont5te4 ,& ,i1 too1 am happy1 said ! ,m>e*ale1 b especially because y h come4 ,moi66 = me x is f9i%$4 ,= me x is too late4 ,b ^!--!y are "y1 !y are pretty1 !y h life be=e !m4 ,x is ^! t y want6 ,! ?ree sat d[n1 ! ,m>e*ale tak+ ! old woman next to h]4 ,& %e nev] s]v$ a cup ( c(fee ) su* pleasure 9 h] life4 ,9 aft] ye>s %e w\ld sometimes tell ! /ory ( t old woman on a ,sunday morn+ to an ,engli% congregation1 & !n ask ! se>*+ "q1 ,:i* ( y has ev] sp5t two h\rs day or night seek+ = a lo/ s\l z %e did8 99,,*apt] ,,xi99 99,,! ,,prodigal ,,son99 ,b>on ,x1 ! elde/ son ( ! ,b>on ( t "n1 0 born at ,bordeaux1 & br\ght up 9 a family ( /rict ,ca?olic traditions4 ,he /udi$ at ! ,college de ,tivoli & ! ,lycee1 b he c>$ = little except sport & pleasure4 ,aft] he _h wa/$ mu* ( 8 fa!r's sub/ance 9 riot\s liv+1 he 0 in=m$ t 8 all[ance w\ld be entirely cut (f unless he w5t abroad = a "t4 ,leav+ home 9 disgrace1 he sail$ = ,new ,york1 & 0 beg9n+ to ta/e ! bitt]ness ( exile1 :51 *anc+ "o day to ent] a big re/aurant1 he 0 a/oni%$ to meet 8 c\s91 ! ,visc\nt ( ,x41 :o1 hav+ inh]it$ a =tune ( two million francs1 0 mak+ ha/e to squ&] x4 ,fall+ ^u ea* o!r's necks1 !y at once became companions 9 pleasure4 ,giv+ !mselves up to all k9ds ( insanity1 !y sp5t imm5se sums 9 a few mon?s4 ,b>on ,x 0 afraid to give himself a s+le mom5t ( reflection on ! enormity ( 8 errors4 ,he 0 inw>dly mis]able1 & f\nd t ev]ybody else :o 0 pursu+ pleasure 0 z unhappy z himself4 ,"o night1 at a dance 9 ,montreal1 he said to ! que5 ( ! ball1 admir$ by ev]ybody = h] beauty & *>m-- ,w\ld t ,i c\ld f9d out h[ to enjoy myself aga96 ,%e answ]$1 ,if ,i seem to be gay1 ,i h no reason = be+ s4 ,oh1 h[ ,i suff]6 ,! "y man felt t exi/5ce became m & m me*anical1 ! days succe$+ "o ano!r 9 an endless monotony ( unsatisfy+ amusem5ts4 ,he seem$ to be liv+ 9 a bad dream4 ,aft] a :ile he return$ to ,france1 & "o ev5+ he 0 sitt+1 sad at he>t1 on ! balcony ( ! ,cafe de la ,paix1 wond]+ to :at place ( pleasure he %\ld turn 8 /eps1 :5 "s ,salvationi/ girls came to (f] _! j\rnal to ! cu/om]s4 ,!y 7 greet$ ) ! usual pleasantries4 ,b>on ,x ask$ ! wait] if he knew :o ^! p 74 ,oh1 yes1 ,monsieur1 !y are ! ,saluti/es1 & if y want to h a good laugh1 y h only to g to ! ,rue ,aub]1 :i* is q ne> by2 !y h a hall !re :]e y c\ld sp5d a good ev5+4 ,8 curiosity awak5$1 ,b>on ,x w5t to ! place indicat$1 tak+ a fille de joie ) him4 ,! fair-hair$ "y man & 8 companion sat at ! bottom ( ! hall laugh+4 ,t ev5+ !re 7 te/imonies1 :i* someh[ arre/$ ,b>on ,x's att5tion4 ,he c\ld n help ask+ himself h[ ^! "y p seem$ s happy4 ,!n a "y (fic] read ! words1 ,! wages ( s9 is dea?1 b ! free gift ( ,god is et]nal life ?r\gh ,*ri/ ,jesus our ,"l1 & deliv]$ an address :i* 0 n correct 9 language1 b extremely incisive4 ,b>on ,x said to himself1 ,he kn[s my hi/ory1 & speaks to me4 ,z he w5t out1 he b\ght "s publications :i* 7 expos$ = sale at ! door1 & sp5t ! night 9 read+ !m4 ,he came next ev5+ alone1 & a great spiritual conflict began4 ,he cont9u$ to come1 & "o night rema9$ beh9d1 be+ 9 an agony ( s\l4 ,sobb+ al\d1 he confess$ t he _h l$ a wild & wick$ life1 di%on\r$ 8 "n1 & brok5 8 "m's he>t4 ,at "o o'clock 9 ! morn+ he gave himself to ,god4 ,! ,m>e*ale saw t he 0 afraid ( himself 9 ,p>is1 & op5$ h] doors to him4 ,= six mon?s he liv$ p>tly at h] h\se & p>tly at ! headqu>t]s 9 ! ,rue ,aub]4 ,%e soon came to "k him ?r\gh & ?r\gh1 & 0 /ruck by 8 simplicity & absolute s9c]ity4 ,he _h brok5 completely ) ! pa/1 & nev] _h "o arri]e p5see4 ,he 0 ready = any sacrifice & = ! humble/ s]vice4 ,"o day a police ag5t came to tell ! ,m>e*ale t %e _h somebody liv+ 9 h] h\se & we>+ ! uni=m ( ! ,armee de ,salut1 :o 0 pass+ himself (f z ! son ( ,b>on ,x4 ,%e call$ ,b>on ,x1 &1 :ile ! two m5 />$ at ea* o!r1 said1 ,?is is ! son ( ,b>on ,x4 ,! (ficial apologis$ & )drew4 ,b>on ,x _h writt5 to tell 8 p>5ts ( 8 conv]sion1 b receiv$ no answ]4 ,aft] six mon?s ! ,m>e*ale _h to beg9 a t\rnee at ,bordeaux1 & told ,b>on ,x t %e w\ld seize ! opportunity to g & visit 8 p>5ts4 ,he 0 ov]joy$4 ,he hop$ = mu*1 & said he w\ld pray4 ,:5 ! ,m>e*ale1 clad 9 uni=m1 drew ne> to ! gates ( ! ,b>on's *ateau1 a complete /rang] /opp$ h] & exclaim$1 ,my poor *ild1 :at are y go+ to d 9 t h\se8 ,%e only smil$ & walk$ on1 b ! "q came back to h] m9d aft]w>ds4 ,r++ ! bell1 %e 0 %[n into a luxuri\s room1 & pres5tly ! ,b>on1 ! ,b>oness1 & _! daught] appe>$4 ,%e 0 receiv$ z /iffly z if %e _h be5 ! repres5tative ( ! ,que51 & f\nd x h>d to beg94 ,mak+ an ef=t1 %e said !y _h probably le>n$ f _! son t a wond]ful *ange _h tak5 place 9 8 life4 ,%e 0 happy to be able to confirm x4 ,= six mon?s %e & h] (fic]s _h witness$ 8 life1 & _h notic$ no?+ 9 ^w or look or act inconsi/5t ) ?is m>vell\s *ange4 ,!re 0 no answ]4 ,! p>5ts & daught] simply />$ at _! visitor4 ,%e cont9u$-- ,i "k t 8 life has be5 bad1 b ,i ?\ght t y w\ld be glad to he> ( 8 conv]sion4 ,!n ! ,b>oness c\ld no long] conta9 h]self4 ,a torr5t ( words fell f h] lips4 ,%e depict$ ! sc&al\s life ( h] son1 :o _h be5 a real prodigal 9 e s5se ( ! ^w1 gambl+ away _! weal?1 br++ 8 mi/ress into _! h\se1 & disgrac+ _! "n4 ,b1 said ! ,m>e*ale1 t 0 be=e 8 *ange4 ,d n br+ up :at he once 04 ,?9k ( :at he is n[4 ,he has be5 liv+ among my *ildr51 & ,i c tru/ him to g 9 & out ) !m4 ,i "k some?+ ( real conv]sions1 & ,i ?9k ,i c judge4 ,i assure y t he has become a new man1 ) new desires1 new aspirations1 a new nature4 ,^! assurances only l$ to ano!r reali/ic description ( 8 s9s4 ,b1 plead$ ! ,m>e*ale1 t 0 :5 he 0 ,saul2 n[ he is ,paul4 ,!y />$ & did n compreh5d ! mean+ ( h] words4 ,let him come back to ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*1 said ! ,b>on4 ,t 8 son %\ld pr(ess to h be5 sav$ outside ! holy ,"m ,*ur* 0 evid5tly a la/ bl[ to 8 pride4 ,t is surely a second>y matt]1 said ! ,m>e*ale4 ,consid]+ :at a s9n] he has be51 y %\ld n m9d by :om ! *ange has come4 ,he has be5 conv]t$ 9 ! ,armee du ,salut1 b !re is only "o ,god & "o ,savi\r4 ,ca?olic & ,prote/ant are alike if !y h no life4 ,b ! ,b>oness drew h]self up 9 h] beautiful robe1 & said-- ,let him come back to ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*1 or he w nev] receive ano!r s\ f u4 ,! ,m>e*ale saw t x 0 "t to end ! int]view4 ,v well1 ,b>oness1 %e said1 ris+1 ,i w be y\r son's "m4 ,i w buy y\r son clo!s & boots4 ,) t %e left _! h\se disappo9t$ & we>y1 hav+ sp5t h\rs "u _! ro( plead+ _! son's cause1 b !y _h nev] (f]$ h] s mu* z a cup ( tea4 ,on h] return to ,p>is1 %e call$ ,b>on ,x4 ,8 face fell :5 %e began to speak4 ,%e bade him be brave1 describ$ to him h] int]view ) 8 p1 & end$ by say+1 ,i w be a "m to y1 & y %all nev] lack = any?+4 ,he work$ on ) h] 9 ,p>is = "s mon?s1 & !n he receiv$ a telegram1 ,come quickly1 fa!r dy+4 ,! ,m>e*ale ru%$ him (f1 & he aft]w>ds gave h] an acc\nt ( 8 ev5tful j\rney4 ,:5 he got home1 he f\nd ! h\se sil5t1 e s\nd muffl$ )\t & )94 ,am ,i too late8 he ask$4 ,no1 hu%6 ,he has be5 ask+ = y all ! "t4 ,come quickly4 ,up/airs he w5t to 8 fa!r's room4 ,ent]+1 he saw two ?9 :ite h&s on ! cov]let1 & he>d a voice-- ,is x my son8 ,yes1 fa!r6 ,) "o b\nd he 0 at ! b$-side1 & fell on 8 knees4 ,) brea? com+ ?ick & fa/1 8 fa!r said fa9tly-- ,oh1 my son1 y\r religion is bett] ?an m9e4 ,=give y\r old fa!r = n =giv+ y4 ,hold+ 8 h&1 8 son spoke to him ( ! ,savi\r1 & sang to him "s ( ! *oruses he _h le>n$ 9 ! ,army4 ,fa!r & son 7 a ?\s& miles away f ,ca?olicism & ,prote/antism4 ,!y 7 simply 9 ! pres5ce ( ! ,savi\r4 ,) words ( salvation 9 8 e>s1 & filial arms ar\nd him1 ! old ,b>on pass$ away4 ,himself n[ ,b>on ,x1 he came into 8 =tune4 ,h[ev] bad an elde/ son has be51 he _c1 by ,fr5* law1 be dis9h]it$4 ,= ! next f\r ye>s ,b>on ,x 0 an (fic] 9 ! ,armee du ,salut4 ,9 ,p>is & ,nimes1 ,engl& & ,belgium he work$ ) ard\r = ! salvation ( s\ls4 ,he 0 ) ! ,m>e*ale 9 h] ,brussels campaign4#a #a ,describ$ 9 *ap4 xiii4 ,he m>ri$ ,mlle4 ,babut1 ! daught] ( ! well-kn[n pa/or 9 ,nimes4 ,z a girl %e _h be5 brilliantly clev]1 b v wilful1 clos+ h] he>t to all :o s\ght to influ5ce h] = good4 ,:5 ! ,m>e*ale came to ,nimes %e w5t1 l ev]ybody else1 to ! meet+s1 tak+ ) h] girl fri5ds :om %e excit$ to mock & laugh4 ,b a /range p[] seiz$ h]4 ,9 va9 %e tri$ to escape by ridicul+ :at %e he>d4 ,"o ev5+1 to use h] own words1 ! ,m>e*ale--direct$ by ,god--turn$ h] eyes full on me & said1 ',"y woman1 y h n ! "r to wa/e y\r life4' ,cle>1 po9t$1 cutt+ l a sword1 ?is tru? p5etrat$ me1 & ) x ! conviction1 ',i ought to yield to ,god "h & n[4' ,?ree mon?s lat] %e 0 9 ! ,tra9+ ,home 9 ,p>is4 ,! ,b>on ,x & 8 wife aft]w>ds became mission>ies 9 ,madagasc>4 ,!y gave !mselves he>t & s\l to ! "w4 ,:5 ,b>on ,x's heal? began to fail1 !y return$ home1 & he cont9u$ to lab\r = ,*ri/ z long z he _h any /r5g? left4 ,8 end came 9 #aiaa4 ,pa/or ,babut said he _h be5 att5d+ dea?-b$s = fifty ye>s1 b _h nev] se5 any?+ s beautiful z ! ,b>on's latt] end4 ,c\rage1 said "s "o to ! dy+ man4 ,c\rage8 ,i d n ne$ x :5 heav5 is op5 to me4 ,d y see ! ,"l ,jesus ne> y8 ,b ,i am ) ,him6 ,god has us$ y to "w = ,him4 ,all ,i h done c\nts = no?+1 only ! imm5se grace & love ( ,god rema94 99,,*apt] ,,xii99 99,,s ,,great ,,fai?99 ,x 0 mid-w9t]1 & ! gr\nd 0 cov]$ ) sn[4 ,!re 0 no little anxiety at ! ,villette4 ,=ty hungry m\?s _h to be fill$ at ! ,ecole ,militaire1 & !re 0 no?+ = d9n]4 ,! simple fact 0 t ! ca%-box 0 empty1 & x 0 difficult n to h a heavy he>t4 ,b ! maxim ( a ,saluti/e is ,keep believ+6 ,god _h nev] =sak5 ! ,m>e*ale :5 %e tru/$ 9 ,him4 ,depression & melan*oly %e reg>d$ z lack ( fai?4 ,%e bade h] secret>y call a fiacre4 ,:5 !y got 91 ! (fic] said-- ,y h ! f>e1 ,m>e*ale8 ,no6 ,b----- ,! ,"l h m]cy ^u y6 ,:]e is y\r fai?8 ,get d[n on y\r knees & pray6 ,! (fic] in/antly obey$4 ,!y bo? pray$--x 0 real pray]--& _! he>ts became light]4 ,! fiacre drew up at ! gate ( a beautiful h\se 9 ! ,*amps ,elysees4 ,x _h to be kept wait+1 = !re 0 no money to pay ! co*]4 ,! ,m>e*ale 0 u%]$ into a luxuri\s ap>tm5t1 & 0 soon talk+ ) a ,russian ,c\ntess ab\t h] s\l4 ,!y _h nev] met be=e1 b !y f\nd common gr\nd4 ,i too1 said ! ,c\ntess1 adore ! ,*ri/6 ,come & see4444 ,look1 ! ,*ri/6 ,!y /ood be=e a beautiful picture ( ! ?orn-cr[n$ ,r$eem]4 ,i adore ,him6 %e repeat$4 ,b x is "o ?+1 said ! ,m>e*ale1 to adore ,him "h 9 ^! *>m+ surr\nd+s1 & ano!r ?+ to adore ,him amid/ ! fil?1 ! immorality & ! mis]y ( ! ,villette1 :]e ,i live night & day among ! poor & ! dy+1 & :]e ,i h devot$ "y comrades :o h left com=table homes & bright prospects1 & are n[ lab\r+ = ,*ri/ & receiv+ no?+ = x4 ,:at is y\r ador+ ,*ri/ comp>$ ) !irs8 ,! ,c\ntess 0 sil5t1 & evid5tly felt bad4 ,%e _h sudd5ly receiv$ a new ray ( light ^u ! adoration ( ,jesus1 &1 realis+ t de$s are bett] ?an words1 %e left ! room = a m9ute1 to return ) an (f]+ ( #ejj francs4 ,x 0 by su* gifts t ! ,army 0 ma9ta9$ on ! ,cont95t4 ,! ,m>e*ale1 x is some:at /range to discov]1 0 n only ! apo/le b ! f9anci] ( ! ,armee du ,salut 9 ,france4 ,o!rs1 ( c\rse1 c\ld adm9i/] ! funds1 b on h] fell ! burd5 ( repl5i%+ ! ex*equ]4 ,z ye>s pass$ & ! "w ext5d$1 ! task became m & m heavy4 ,(fic]s _h to be support$1 ! r5t ( h\ses & halls paid1 ! ,tra9+ ,home1 ! ,rescue ,homes1 ! ,orphanages1 ! ,homes ( ,re/ ma9ta9$1 & to meet all ?is outlay ! ,m>e*ale toil$1 travell$1 & wrote c\ntless lett]s4 ,^? :o ador$ ! ,*ri/ s5t h] _! gifts f _m l&s4 ,:ile !re 7 _m g5]\s support]s ( ! ,army 9 ,france & ,switz]l&1 ! l>ge/ contributions came f ! home-c\ntry4 ,we h not$ t ! ,g5]al did n l to see ,ca!r9e's h&-writ+1 because he ?\ght ( h] weak sp9e4 ,yet 9 "o day %e & h] secret>y w\ld sometimes write ov] a hundr$ lett]s ) _! own h&s1 :i* at ! end 7 too cramp$ to g on ) m4 ,exp]i5ce _h taught h] ! value ( a p]sonal application4 ,_m a well-wi%] :o w\ld h giv5 ,l#e 9 response to a typewritt5 lett]1 did mu* bett] on receiv+ a w>m appeal 9 ! lead]'s own h&writ+4 ,%e ev5 made x a rule to write receipts h]self4 ,lean mon?s te/$ ! _s ( ! ,tra9+ ,home4 ,?\gh !re 0 no?+ to eat b a plate ( cabbage-s\p & a potato1 ! cadets nev] murmur$4 ,c'e/ la vie apo/olique1 !y *e]fully said "o to ano!r4 ,& x 0 easy to be> any h>d%ip :5 _! lead] %>$ x ) !m4 ,"o :o 0 an (fic] ) h] = ye>s wrote3 ,9 all ?+s %e 0 our example4 ,if y wi%$ to incur h] displeasure1 y _h b to give h] some?+ to eat :i* ! work]s did n h4 ,z %e 0 9 delicate heal?1 sometimes ^? ar\nd h] w\ld try to get a little luxury to tempt h] appetite or /r5g!n h]4 ,!y w\ld be met ) ! answ]3 ',:atev] is ?is8 ,x is n = me1 ,i hope1 because1 ?\gh x is v good ( y1 ,i did n want x1 & w n h any?+ ( ! sort4' ,!n %e w\ld %>e x all r\nd4 ,:5ev] x became kn[n t ! ex*equ] 0 almo/ empty1 ! (fic]s & cadets knew t ?is 0 a call to pray]4 ,on "o occasion ! r5ts ( ! ,rue ,aub] & ,quai de ,valmy halls 7 due2 !re 0 no?+ to meet !m2 & !re 7 b ?ree days ( grace4 ,^! 7 days ( agony4 ,all ! (fic]s :o _h any?+ to sp>e gave x4 ,! *ildr5 9 ! orphanage gave ?ree francs & t5 c5times4 ,b :5 ! be/ _h be5 done1 n a ti! ( ! necess>y #cjjj francs 0 9 h&4 ,ev]ybody met = pray]4 ,! ,m>e*ale spoke on ! words1 ,?\gh ! fig-tree %all n blossom1 nei!r %all fruit be 9 ! v9es 444 ! flock %all be cut (f f ! fold1 & !re %all be no h]d 9 ! /alls3 yet w ,i rejoice 9 ! ,"l4 ,%e rang ! *anges on t rejoice1 ask+1 ,are we !re8 ,yes1 !y 7 all !re--anxi\s = no?+1 b 9 ev]y?+ by pray] ) ?anksgiv+ tell+ ,god _! ne$s4 ,at su* times ! lead] ( ! little b& felt t ,god _h to take c>e ( ,8 "n1 ,8 hon\r2 ,he _h to s5d :at 0 requir$4 ,:o w call su* a fai? 9 "q8 ,did n ! ,g]man p say ( ,lu!r1 ,look1 !re is ! man :o gets f ,god :atev] he asks8 ,:5 ! ,m>e*ale 0 travell+ ) h] secret>y 9 a ?ird-class c>riage 9 ! ,we/ ( ,france1 ! poor p got 9 ) _! baskets ( vegetables1 & "o ( !m said 9 a l\d :isp]1 ,take c>e :at y say2 ^! p :5 !y pray get f ,god all !y want4 ,to return4 ,on ! morn+ ( ! la/ day ( grace ! ,m>e*ale receiv$ a lett] f ,scotl& conta9+ a draft = ,l#ajj1 a ,god bless y1 & no?+ m4 ,%e nev] knew :at k9d human he>t _h be5 mov$ to s5d ! lett]4 ,b %e nev] d\bt$ t ,god _h s5t x4 ,su* occurr5ces 7 n solit>y4 ,"h is ! te/imony ( ,m4 ,gr&jean1 :o 0 = ye>s "o ( ! ,m>e*ale's be/ (fic]s4 ,i ?9k ) gratitude to ,god ( ! difficult days 9 :i* our fai? 0 sev]ely te/$1 :5 ,i 0 ca%i] 9 ,quai de ,valmy1 & ,i _h n a %ill+1 & we _h to pay ! #fjjj francs = r5ts & o!r exp5ses4 ,i %all nev] =get my ov]:elm+ joy :5 "o night ,i appeal$ to ! cadets :o c\ld pray ) fai?1 & :5 five or six ( u pray$ ) me 9 ! little kit*5 ( ! ,quai de ,valmy4 ,! next day ! ,m>e*ale receiv$ by ! fir/ po/ a *eque ( #fjjj francs f "s "o :o did n "k t we 7 9 ne$4 ,9 "o ( h] t\rnees ! ,m>e*ale 0 lab\r+ d[n 9 ! ,s\? ( ,france4 ,?\gh %e 0 9 ! greate/ ne$ & _h a heavy he>t1 %e w5t on ) h] meet+s1 :5 a lady :o _h be5 wond]fully bless$1 & two ( ^: *ildr5 _h be5 sav$ ?r\gh h] m9i/ry1 0 mov$ to give h] a ?ank(f]+ ( #ejjj francs4 ,hav+ to travel all night on ! way back to ,p>is1 & f9d+ h]self alone among a lot ( work+-m5 ! ,m>e*ale put ! money 9 h] bosom & pray$1 ,n[ keep ,?y little "o1 b did n d>e to sleep4 ,among ! ,army's unfail+ support]s 9 ,france 7 ! ,m>e*ale's p]sonal fri5ds4 ,"o ( ! de>e/ ( ^! 0 ,madame de ,buns51 nee ,wadd+ton1 :o wrote ,9 ,?ree ,legations4 ,!y fir/ met 9 ,cannes1 :]e ! ,m>e*ale 0 conduct+ a campaign 9 ! !atre2 & a great bundle ( lett]s1 p>tly 9 ,fr5* & p>tly 9 ,engli%1 te/ifies to ! w>m? ( _! fri5d%ip4 ,madame de ,buns5 once p]suad$ ! ,m>e*ale to re/ = "s weeks 9 h] ca/le on ! ,rh9e2 & ano!r "t %e tri$ to induce h] to visit ,flor5ce1 b ! ,m>e*ale c\ld nev] q get ov] ! feel+ t tak+ holidays 0 backslid+4 ,ano!r ( h] con/ant support]s 0 ,mr4 ,frank ,crossley1 t high-s\l$ man ( bus9ess ^: ,life has be5 admirably writt5 by ,r5del ,h>ris4 ,soon aft] ! ,m>e*ale w5t to ,france he wrote to express 8 ard5t sympa?y ) h] "w4 ,i h1 he said1 met & kn[n well sev]al ,*ri/ian work]s--,d4 ,l4 ,moody1 ,miss ,ellice ,hopk9s1 ,miss ,mitt5dorff1 & o!rs--b ,i w tell y t p]haps none ( ^! h creat$ ! same impression t y h done4 ,9 "o ( h] la/ lett]s %e wrote ,tell me1 h[ is x t :at seems s f> (f to u is ne> to y4 ,%e 0 a beautiful s\l & f\nd peace 9 ,*ri/4 he receiv$ hundr$s ( lett]s f him1 & !y are v int]e/+ read+4 ,:at *iefly attract$ him to ! ,m>e*ale 0 h] intimacy ) ,*ri/1 :i* 0 ! rew>d1 z he saw1 ( self-sacrifice4 ,8 words on ?is !me g v deep4 ,x is a /ruggle h>d & long1 b x is only ! /ruggl+1 :o sp5d _! life-blood 9 ! cause1 t c claim blood-relation%ip ) ! ,"l ,jesus4 ,! re/ are second-c\s9s or n ev5 z ne> z t4 ,!y don't "k ,him v intimately or feel mu* at home ) ,him :5 !y pay ,him a morn+ call4444 ,he makes ! entrance high & ! gate /rait t x may be priz$ :5 ga9$--,i believe t is ! key to ! my/]y ( life1 or at lea/ to a l>ge "p ( x4 ,to let u up to ! top = ! pray] ( a mom5t & ! sacrifice ( no?+ w\ld 9 _m cases at any rate be impossible & useless4 ,tell me soon m ( h[ to climb4 ,i am a sl[ le>n]4 ,mr4 ,crossley's nature _h a p5sive /ra9 :i* ! ,m>e*ale's fri5d%ip help$ to modify4 ,reg>d+ su* a matt] he felt t spee* %\ld n g ne> ! l5g? ( feel+1 b ere long we f9d him writ+1 ,das hallelujah ,voegele9 s+t 9 me9em ,h]z54 ,8 donations to ! "w ( ! ,army bo? at home & 9 ,france 7 v g5]\s4 ,he gave ! ,m>e*ale _m ?\s& p\nds a ye>4 ,8 lib]ality 0 "p ( 8 wor%ip ( ,*ri/4 ,no?+ c\ld be f9] ?an ! foll[+3 ,i "k y w be ?9k+ x is a s]i\s slice (f my capital4 ,well1 x is a bran* (f ! tree4 ',!y broke (f bran*es f ! palm trees & /rew$ !m 9 ! way & %\t$ ,hosanna1' & s d ,i4 ,& aga93 ,y are v grateful to me = :at ,i h be5 able to give y1 b if y knew h[ indebt$ & grateful ,i also felt to y1 y w\ld see h[ ,god makes u unequal t we may tea* ourselves by ! aid & necess>y s]vices ,he enables u to r5d]4 ,mr4 ,crossley wi%$ ! ,m>e*ale to accept a gift ( ,l#aj1jjj = ! ma9t5ance ( h] family1 t %e might be p]sonally free f f9ancial c>e1 & also (f]$ to build h] a home outside ,p>is1 b %e decl9$ bo? ^! (f]s1 n wi%+ to be 9 a diff]5t position f ! o!r (fic]s ( ! ,army4 ,9 #ahia ! ,m>e*ale w5t to ,am]ica to raise funds = ! "w 9 ,france4 ,accompani$ by h] secret>y1 ,mme4 ,peyron--:o 0 h] ,g5eva conv]t ,mlle4 ,r\ssel--%e sail$ 9 ,octob] by ! ,columbia = ,new ,york1 & visit$ tw5ty-eight ( ! pr9cipal cities ( ! ,/ates & ,canada1 hold+ sixty meet+s1 travell+ sometimes = ?irty or =ty h\rs at a /ret*1 & once ) ! add$ exp]i5ce ( be+ sn[$ up = twelve h\rs4 ,%e 0 ev]y:]e v cordially receiv$1 & all ! build+s 9 :i* %e spoke 7 d5sely cr[d$4 ,m9i/]s (f]$ h] *ur*es 9 :i* a woman _h nev] spok5 be=e4 ,aft] "o meet+ %e receiv$ invitations f a ,bi%op & sev5te5 pa/ors to address congregations on h] "w4 ,! report]s ev]y:]e f\nd h] & h] utt]ances good copy4 ,%e 0 n able to see repres5tatives ( ! press 9 ,new ,york1 al?\gh !y came by doz5s1 z "o le>ns f ! ,bo/on man :o claim$ to be h] fir/ ,am]ican int]view]4 ,he f\nd t h] life 9 ,france has giv5 a ,gallic twi/ to ?is ,engli%woman's tongue4 ,%e is q z ,fr5* 9 mann] z h] /aff-capta91 ,madame ,peyron1 ! d>k-ey$ ,fr5*woman :o travels ) h]4 ,"o morn+ %e got a great reception f ! div9ity /ud5ts ( ,yale1 to :om %e spoke at l5g? on ! qualifications necess>y = sav+ s\ls1 namely1 ! possession ( a pure he>t & ! baptism ( ! ,holy ,_s4 ,:5 %e _h f9i%$ h] address %e said %e 0 will+ to answ] any que/ions !y might h to ask1 & = half an h\r ! /ud5ts & sev]al ( ! pr(essors p\r$ a ho/ ( que/ions ^u h] t w\ld h emb>rass$ & muddl$ ! cle>e/-bra9$ m9i/]s ( ! c\ntry "u simil> circum/ances4 ,%e1 h[ev]1 %[$ t %e _h answ]$ que/ions be=e1 & gave answ]s t br\ght bo? laught] & applause1 = h] wit is ke5ly cultivat$4 ,x is int]e/+ to see h] ?r\gh ,yale eyes4 ,h] face is a /udy ! l ( :i* an arti/ or a sculptor might seek = ye>s )\t f9d+4 ,9 repose x rem9ds "o ( ! pictures ( ! ,madonnas ( ,mi*ael ,angelo1 b :5 %e speaks its e>ne/ness is s int5se t x is almo/ /]n4 ,h] voice is "o t any actress might well covet = its dep? & /r5g?4 ,x is ! equal ( ! great ,b]nh>dt's1 & yet x is sweet & s(t1 & has none ( ! h>%ness ( ! mascul9e tone4 ,h] acc5t is some?+ *>m+1 = x has all ! attractiv5ess ( ! ,engli% tongue made ev5 m sweet by long famili>ity ) ! ,fr5* language4 ,f h] long acqua9tance ) ! l[] classes1 ! sociali/s & all free-?9k]s ( ,france1 %e has acquir$ t fi]y directness & ease & attractiv5ess 9 h] speak+ :i* is s *>act]i/ic ( ,fr5* oratory & s fasc9at+ to ,am]icans4 ,x is no inju/ice to ?is rem>kable woman to say t1 _h %e *os5 ! /age = h] role 9 life1 h] "n w\ld h c]ta9ly be5 z fam\s 9 t pr(ession z x is to-day z ! ,m>e*ale ( ! ,fr5* ,salvation ,army4 ,9 ,am]ica %e _h ! imm5se happ9ess ( be+ reunit$ ) h] bro!r ,ball+ton1 :o1 be+ a ye> old] ?an h]self1 _h be5 h] *um 9 *ildhood1 & 8 wife1 nee ,maud ,*>leswor?1 :o _h be5 h] brave girl-comrade 9 ! fir/ days ( p]secution 9 ,switz]l&4 ,9 ! end ( ,janu>y1 #ahib1 ! ,m>e*ale return$ to ,france1 aft] an abs5ce ( ?ree mon?s & a half4 ,am]ica _h giv5 h] #fj1jjj = h] "w1 & memories ( unlimit$ k9dness4 99,,*apt] ,,xiii99 99,,beauty ,,= ,,a%es99 ,y h add$ a new ^w to ! ,fr5* language1 said ,m4 ,s>cey1 ! fam\s critic1 to ! ,m>e*ale2 ,i mean ! ^w ',saluti/e4' ,9 #ahha !re 0 n a s+le ,salvationi/ 9 ,france or ,switz]l&4 ,aft] fifte5 ye>s !re 7 #bbj /ations & outpo/s1 ov] #djj (fic]s1 headqu>t]s 9 five cities1 & f\r weekly pap]s4 ,b ^! b>e facts only feebly indicate :at ! ,m>e*ale did = ,france4 ,9 a mom5t ( depression at ! ?\ght ( ,fr5* infidelity1 ! ,pr9cess ,malz(f once rem>k$ to h]-- ,! ,fr5* h no s\l4 ,h[ d>e y1 ask$ ! ,m>e*ale1 say su* a ?+8 ,h] fri5d repli$ ) *>m+ inconsi/5cy1 ,b y h f\nd ! s\l ( ,france6 ,t 0 p]haps ! highe/ tribute ev] paid to h]4 ,if "o asks "s ,fr5*man :o knew ! ,m>e*ale 9 ^? days h[ %e won ! he>t ( ,france1 "o gets ! answ]1 ,b x is natural--%e has ! ,fr5* temp]am5t2 &1 besides1 elle aime la ,france4 ,if "o asks "s conv]t ( h]s h[ %e f\nd ! s\l ( ,france1 ! reply is1 ,ah6 %e br\ght u ! ,*ri/1 :o is victori\s ev]y:]e4 ,bo? que/ions 7 answ]$ toge!r by "o :o1 speak+ = _m1 said1 ,%e b\ght u at ! price ( te>s & sacrifice4 ,:5 %e 0 at ! z5i? ( h] p[] 9 ,france1 an admirable appreciation ( h] 0 writt5#a by "o ( ! sa9ts ( ! mod]n cal5d>1 ,miss ,frances ,e4 ,will>d4 ,we extract a few s5t5ces4 ,%e inh]its1 x is said1 beyond any o!r ( ! end[$ & consecrat$ eight *ildr5 ( ! ,g5]al & ,mrs4 ,boo?1 _! special gifts1 graces1 & grace4444 ,! ,m>e*ale's c>e] already fulfils h] fa!r's prophecy t wom5 w1 if once left free 9 _! action1 develop adm9i/rative p[]s fully equal & (t5times sup]ior to ^? ( m54444 ',i love ,france1' %e said to me1 ) sp>kl+ eyes3 'x is a great & wond]ful c\ntry1 & ,i love its p e bit z mu* z ev] ,i lov$ my own4 ,i h become famili> ) its peasants 9 ! prov9ces2 h sat d[n ) ! ,fr5* wom5 :o clatt] ab\t 9 sabots2 h %>$ _! *e/nuts ) !m1 he>d ( _! sorr[s z well z _! joys1 &1 believe me1 ! human he>t is j ! same 9 ,france z x is ev]y:]e2 & if y classify ! sa9ts ^: hi/ories h come d[n to u1 ,france w\ld occupy ! front rank4 ,! nation t has produc$ a ,lacodaire1 a ,pascal1 a ,f5elon1 & a ,madame ,guyon1 does n lack ! g]ms ( spiritual life4' #a ,! ,review ( ! ,*ur*es1 ,feb4 #ahid4 ,9 #ahif1 h[ev]1 h] c>e] 9 ,france came to an end4 ,%e receiv$ ! comm& to g & devote h]self to ! "w ( ! ,army 9 ,holl&1 & loyally prep>$ to obey4 ,ca?olics & ,prote/ants alike 7 dismay$ at ! news4 ,"o ( h] de>e/ fri5ds1 ! ,ca?olic s*ol> ,m4 ,lassaire1 ^: exquisite translation ( ! f\r ,gospels _h ! hon\r ( be+ put ^u ! ,index ,expurgatorius1 came to h] & said-- ,y ought n to leave u4 ,god has giv5 y ! e> ( ! nation z x is giv5 only once 9 a hundr$ ye>s4 ,b ,i am comm&$4 ,if ! angel ,gabriel desc5d$ f heav5 & bade y g1 y ought n to leave ,france6 ,!odore ,monod1 ^: own family _h be5 greatly bless$ ?r\gh ! ,m>e*ale1 deeply sympa?is$ ) h]1 & griev$ ov] h] dep>ture almo/ z if %e _h be5 8 own daught]1 b tri$ to com=t h] by say+1 ,y leave u y\r hymns6 ,! day on :i* ! ,m>e*ale left ,france 0 "o ( ! two or ?ree d>k days ( h] life4 ,%e felt some:at l ! "y ,scotti% ,que5 :o said z %e gaz$ at ! rec$+ %ores ( ,calais-- ,adieu6 mon *>mant pays de ,france1 ,adieu6 te quitt] c'e/ m\rir4 ,& yet %e believ$ 9 h] he>t t ,god w\ld "w out ,8 graci\s purpose1 :i* no circum/ances c ev] alt]4 ,t %e lov$ ,france ) a deep1 pure1 passionate love does n ne$ to be said4 ,h[ ,france appreciat$ h] 9 return may be indicat$ n only by ,m4 ,s>cey's emphatic dictum1 ,! devil take ! c\ntry :]e %e 0 born6 %e is ,fr5* 9 h] s\l1 b by any lett] tak5 at r&om f hundr$s :i* %e receiv$ f m5 & wom5 ( ,france4 ,! foll[+ extract1 fai?fully translat$1 %[s ! calibre ( ! p :om ! ,m>e*ale 0 able to rea*1 z well z ! w>m1 g5]\s /yle 9 :i* ! ,lat9 races habitually express !mselves4 ,! ev5+ 9 :i* y spoke ( ! sc5e on ,calv>y & ! words ( ! p5it5t ?ief1 ',rememb] me1' t simple /ory1 told by a believ+ s\l1 _h m effect ^u me ?an all ! !ses1 quotations & !ological argum5ts ( all ! doctors ,i h ev] he>d4 ,t expression1 t attitude1 t conviction1 t c]titude1 t assurance1 t liv+ fai? :i* affirm$ itself be=e me 9 an apo/le1 a new disciple ( ,*ri/1 & t melodi\s voice1 complet$ my trans=mation4 ,i believ$ t ,i 0 ! p5it5t ?ief & y ! ,*ri/ :o said to me1 ',:5 ,i am 9 ,heav5 ,i w rememb] !e1' & t affirmation transport$ me4444 ,i m>vel at ! c\rage ) :i* y endure fatigue1 mock]y1 j\rneys1 lab\rs ( all k9ds to conqu] = tru? & light ! millions ( savages :o are /ill 9 ,france1 plung$ 9 ! d>kness ( error & sup]/ition4 ,p]mit me to express once aga9 my s9c]e admiration1 & to (f] y 9 ! "n ( my c\ntry 7,i am p]haps a little presumptu\s to speak 9 ! "n ( ,france1 b ,i h ! "r1 z mu* z ! o!r t5 millions ( citiz5s7--9 ! "n ( my c\ntry1 & 9 ! "n ( civilisation1 my w>m gratitude4 ,deign to accept ! homage 444 ( a v humble soldi] & disciple ( ,*ri/4 ,swiss love1 too1 0 n[ deep & /rong1 z w be suffici5tly prov$ by a s+le lett]1 :i* enclos$ a ?ank(f]+4 ,de> ,m>e*ale--7,h[ mu* t ^w conta9s ( affection1 admiration1 & v5]ation1 ,i _c express71--,^! ?\s& francs fulfil _! end :]e !y d ! mo/ good & give y ! greate/ pleasure4 ,y always ?9k ( y\rself la/1 if y ?9k ( y\rself at all2 t is :y o!rs mu/ ?9k ( y4 ,i w\ld h lik$ to relieve y1 de> ,m>e*ale1 y p>ticul>ly & p]sonally4 ,b y are dev\r$ by ! zeal ( y\r div9e "w1 & all goes t way4 ,be x s6 ,god w relieve y directly by ,8 h&4 ,he w1 b d n =get y\rself entirely1 ,i beg ( y4 ,c>e = y\rself1 = ! sake ( ^? :o love y1 & :o ne$ y\r help1 & :o f9d s mu* happ9ess 9 y\r heav5ly affection4444 ,9 ! love ( ,*ri/1 y\r devot$1 ,a4,s4 ,9 ! end ( t ye> ! ,m>e*ale ne$$ words ( good *e]1 & !y 7 n lack+4 ,h] si/] ,eva 0 "o ( h] com=t]s1 s5d+ _m t5d] messages across ! ,atlantic4 ,j aft] ,*ri/mas ,day--,eva's own bir?day--%e wrote3 ,i _c say h[ mu* y h be5 9 my ?\ghts4 ,i wi%$ ,i c\ld h popp$ 9 & _h a si/]'s bir?day kiss & a good talk1 b ! ,"l came v ne> to me1 & ,i 0 *e]$ t ,8 bir?day f\nd me v busy on m9e seek+ ! poor lo/ s\ls ( m54 ,! ye>s pass1 b !n :at matt]s8 ,e day br+s u ne>] our ,et]nal home1 does x n1 & !n we w live & love toge!r = ev] & ev]1 all ( u4 ,de>1 d>l+ ,katie1 ,i don't l to he> y say ! ye> has be5 a sad "o4 ,y are treasur$ by u all1 by ,god & ! _w1 & h[ mu* y h done = ! ,k+dom z well4444 ,!re are "s fond memories ,i treasure :i* h to d ) y & me1 :5 ,i made y laugh & gave y bak$ potatoes6 ,i w write aga9 soon4 ,till !n & = ev] aft] always ! same1 ,eva4 ,commission]s ,e4,d4 & ,lucy ,boo?-,hellb]g--! ,g5]al's y\nge/ daught]--:o took ov] ! comm& ( ! ,army 9 ,france & ,switz]l&1 wrote 9 _! fir/ ,annual ,report 7#ahif73 ,"o ( ! la/ l9ks 9 ! long *a9 ( desp]ate ef=ts = ! salvation ( ,france1 put =? ) undim9i%$ love & fai? by ! ,m>e*ale1 0 ! ,lyons campaign1 :i* la/$ = six weeks dur+ ! mon?s ( ,janu>y & ,febru>y4 ,support$ by a numb] ( believ+ & h>d-work+ (fic]s1 %e conduct$ a s]ies ( truly rem>kable meet+s 9 ! ,salle ,philh>monique1 :i* 0 fill$ on e occasion ) an att5tive & l>gely sympa!tic audi5ce4 ,! results ( ! campaign 7 mo/ enc\rag+ & ( a decid$ly p]man5t nature4 ,! local corps1 :i* up till !n _h l$ a v /ruggl+ exi/5ce1 receiv$ a p[]ful lift & is n[ 9 a heal?y condition4 ,fur!rmore a consid]able am\nt ( prejudice aga9/ our "w 0 remov$ & a numb] ( fri5ds & sympa?is]s 7 made1 ! imm$iate result ( :i* 0 ! e/abli%m5t ( a ,rescue ,home = wom5 9 t city4 ,lat] on ,lucy wrote to ! ,m>e*ale1 ,d>l+1 y\r love = ,france is wond]ful2 y _c und]/& x4 ,_h ! ,m>e*ale be5 s5t to ano!r ( ! ,lat9 races--= example1 ! ,italians or ! ,spani>ds--h] gifts might /ill h be5 us$ to ! highe/ advantage4 ,%e once conduct$ a brief campaign 9 a great hall at ,tur94 ,at ! beg9n+ %e enc\nt]$ a /orm ( opposition4 ,:ile %e d$icat$ ! *ild ( "o ( h] =m] (fic]s1 h] voice 0 dr[n$ 9 an upro> :i* turn$ ! solemn s]vice into a fiasco4 ,! audi5ce got completely out ( h&1 &1 z a f9al /roke ( devilry1 a troop ( /ud5ts1 head$ by a big fell[ ) an evil1 cynical face1 came m>*+ up ! aisle1 %\t+1 yell+ & br&i%+ /icks4 ,! r+lead] _h made a bet t he w\ld kiss ! ,m>e*ale4 ,h] (fic]s began to ?9k x 0 high "t to close ! meet+4 ,b %e 0 n ne> ! end ( h] res\rces4 ,giv+ h] famili> ord]1 ,leave !m to me1 & pray6 %e /epp$ to ! edge ( ! plat=m1 &1 :5 ! lead] 0 )9 a foot ( h]1 fix$ h] eyes on 8 face1 rais$ h] f+]1 & sang--#b ,si tu savais comme ,il t'aime1 ,sans t>d] tu vi5drais a ,lui1 ,tu vi5drais a l'heure meme1 ,tu vi5drais des auj\rd'hui4 #b ,?is hymn 0 compos$ by "o ( h] (fic]s1 ,m4 ,gr&jean4 ,! tune 0 "o ( ! sweete/ op]atic airs ( ! day4 ,! cle>1 sweet notes w5t vibrat+ ?r\gh ! great hall1 & ,italy kn[s ! p[] ( song4 ,! r+lead] /ood />+ z if he _h be5 petrifi$1 & 8 foll[]s did n advance ano!r /ep4 ,:ile ! ,m>e*ale sang on1 %e 0 he>d 9 brea?less sil5ce4 ,!n %e spoke = an h\r4 ,! aft]-meet+ la/$ till midnight1 & ! lead] ( ! /ud5ts1 completely brok5 d[n & sobb+ l a *ild1 said1 ,oh1 /ay ) u1 y w make angels ( u all6 ,9 ,holl&1 :]e ! ,m>e*ale lab\r$ six ye>s1 %e 0 heavily h&icapp$ by ! fact t mo/ ( h] speak+ _h to be done ?r\gh an int]pret]4 ,%e _h n t ,op5 ,sesame to ! he>t ( a p--! ma/]y ( its language4 ,%e le>n$1 h[ev]1 to s+ beautifully 9 ,dut*1 & ! translation ( h] addresses 0 admirably done by h] secret>y4 ,if %e c\ld n d5y t h] he>t 0 /ill 9 ! ,rue ,aub] ( ,p>is1 %e repress$ h] te>s & took h] new task--a v tangl$ "o--resolutely 9 h&1 do+ "s deep & la/+ spiritual "w 9 ,am/]dam & o!r t[ns1 :]e %e sometimes _h z _m z =ty or fifty p5it5ts 9 "o night4 ,%e 0 lack+ 9 :at a /atesman call$ ,batavian grace1 be+ ca/ 9 a v diff]5t m\ld1 yet %e came ere long to feel q at home among ! w>m-he>t$ ,dut* p4 ,%e _h taught ,p>is to s+ h] hymn1 ,aimez t\j\rs1 et malgrez t\t aimez t\j\rs1 & n[ %e put ! lesson into practice 9 ,holl&4 ,prea*+ & liv+ ! gospel ( love1 %e _h _m tok5s ( success among all classes4 ,be/ ( all1 %e awoke 9 o!rs ! wi/ful desire to imitate h] example4 ,"o ( ,que5 ,wilhelm9a's cab9et m9i/]s br\ght 8 daught]1 a ?\ghtful "y girl1 to a meet+ conduct$ by ! ,m>e*ale1 & :5 ^? :o 7 will+ to give !mselves to ,*ri/ & ,8 s]vice 7 invit$ to %[ x 9 "s way1 up w5t ! h& ( ?is eag] girl4 ,h] fa!r at once :isk$ h] out ( ! meet+4 ,b ! de$ 0 done1 & n[ !re is no "o :o is do+ a nobl] "w among ! poor & sunk5 classes ( ,holl& ?an ,miss ,rose ,pi]son4 ,( t happy day 9 h] life %e wrote long aft]w>ds3 ,:5 ,i fir/ he>d ! ,m>e*ale speak ,i 0 a girl ( sev5te54 ,i rememb] /ill e ^w %e spoke4 ,i "k x 0 a revelation to me :at a reality ,*ri/ c\ld be to a s\l4 ,i believe t 0 :at impress$ me--h] p]fect assurance ( ,*ri/'s pres5ce & h] own ard5t love ( s\ls4 ,holl& gave ! ,m>e*ale two ( h] mo/ effici5t secret>ies1 ,miss ,van d] ,w]k5 & ,miss de ,zwaan1 :o ideally fulfill$ all ! requirem5ts ( ! (fice--ability & will+ness to nurse a babe1 make a cup ( tea1 write a lett]1 cook a dec5t d9n]1 talk 9 two or ?ree languages1 keep ! door ( a hall1 prea* a s]mon1 & g5]ally make ! be/ ( ev]y?+6 ,x is possible t ! ,m>e*ale's exile f ,france deep5$ & enri*$ h] nature1 draw+ out /ops n s (t5 us$ be=e1 especially ! vox humana--! voice ( sympa?y ) all human pa9 & sorr[4 ,at ! same "t %e began to h a m tragic s5se ( ! _w's s91 :i* prompt$ "o ( h] /range/ & yet mo/ *>act]i/ic impulses1 & issu$ 9 :at 0 9 "s ways ! mo/ rem>kable ( all h] campaigns4 ,"o midnight1 :ile %e lay awake 9 ,am/]dam1 %e he>d a cle> inn] voice say+ to h]1 ,g to ,brussels2 g 9 sackclo? & a%es2 g & tell ( s92 let ev]y?+ 9 y\r p]son speak ( s9 & awak5 consci5ce2 !n proclaim1 ,behold ! ,lamb ( ,god1 t take? away ! s9 ( ! _w4 ,)\t wait+ to take c\nsel ) fle% & blood1 %e w5t ) h] nurse-secret>y ,swaan & h] babe ,frida1 ! *ild ( peace1 to ,brussels1 & hir$ = ?ree weeks ! mo/ beautiful hall 9 ! city1 ! ,salle de la ,gr&e ,h>monic--! same 9 :i* fair wom5 & brave m5 danc$ on ! eve ( ,wat]loo4 ,:5 %e at l5g? divulg$ to "o ( h] comrades ! fact t %e 0 to appe> 9 sackclo? & a%es1 he answ]$-- ,y _c6 nev]6 ,i mu/1 x is s comm&$4 ,s a robe de bure 0 made = h]--a s+le-seam$ g>m5t ( ! co>se br[n /uff worn by monks1 ) a hole cut out = ! neck & two = ! arms1 & a hemp5 rope = ! wai/4 ,be=e ! op5+ meet+ %e _h intimate deal+s ) h] (fic]s4 ,x is necess>y1 %e said1 t "o die = ! p4 ,i want to br+ t ?\ghtless1 frivol\s city into t\* ) ,god4 ,i wi% y\r faces to speak ( ano!r _w4 ,x is y\r m9ds & he>ts t ,i seek4 ,if y are go+ to ?9k ( y\r own p & y\r own conc]ns1 if y are go+ to be preoccupi$ ) a hundr$ & "o ?+s1 g back at once4 ,i am go+ to live ^! ?ree weeks z if !y 7 ! la/ on e>?4 ,i h left home & little ones & am go+ to exi/ = ?is t[n4 ,if ,*ri/ laid d[n ,8 life = u1 we h got to lay d[n our lives = ! salvation ( ,brussels4 ,!re 7 he>t-se>*+s & confessions & te>s among ! (fic]s2 fre% alliances 7 made ) ,god2 & ! ,m>e*ale believ$ t ?is 0 "o ( ! secrets ( ! wond]ful success ( t campaign4 ,on ! ev5+ ( ! fir/ meet+1 %e clo!d h]self 9 ! robe de bure1 & put real a%es on h] head4 ,b if ev] ! devil 9 p]son attack$ any poor s\l1 ! ,m>e*ale felt h]self s assail$ 9 ^? mom5ts :5 ! great hall 0 fill+ & %e 0 wait+4 ,:at %afts ( ridicule 7 hurl$ at h] z by a spiritual foe6 ,c\ld any dress he m ridicul\s1 any realism m contemptible8 ,h[ comical 0 t assumption ( ! role ( prophet6 ,:at a mis]able fiasco ! :ole p]=mance w\ld prove6 ,%e 0 seiz$ ) a p>alys+ fe>1 & :5 ,antom>*i--h] ,/4 ,francis--came to ann\nce t ! audi5ce 0 ready1 he f\nd h] :ite z a %eet & %ak+ f head to foot4 ,h ,i made a mi/ake8 %e ask$4 ,no6 ,m>e*ale1 g on6 g on6 x is all "r6 ,tell !m to s+ & pray1 & !n ,i w come4 ,h] s\l ga!r$ /r5g? f ! /ra9s ( h] own hymn1 ,o toi6 bi5-aime fils de l'homme1 ) ! *orus-- ,vi5s1 ,jesus t'appelle2 ,ne sois plus rebelle4 ,vi5s au bi5-aime ,fils de ,dieu1 ,crois en sa t5dresse et]nelle-- z well z f ! succe$+ sil5ce 9 :i* %e knew t fai?ful he>ts 7 pray+ = h]4 ,! cl\ds vani%$1 ! fe> ( m5 0 gone1 & only ! awe ( ! unse5 _w rema9$ ^u h] _s4 ,sl[ly %e walk$ onto ! plat=m1 n rais+ h] eyes f ! gr\nd4 ,! audi5ce seem$ petrifi$ by ! /range app>ition4 ,aft] a mom5t ( dea?ly sil5ce1 h] cle>1 p5etrat+ voice s\nd$ ?r\gh ! hall4 ',he 0 despis$ & reject$ ( m51 a man ( sorr[s & acqua9t$ ) grief 444 & we e/eem$ ,him n4 ,n\s n'en avons fait aucun cas4' ,if ,i we> m\rn+ to-night1 x is ! bett] to express ! feel+s :i* are 9 ! dep?s ( my he>t4 ,y\r p1 :o are capable ( great ?+s1 are go+ to _! ru94 ,on all h&s !re are nameless mis]ies1 despair+ cries ( wom5 & *ildr5 )\t def5ce & expos$ to %ame & ! mo/ frightful mis]y1 & :y8 ,because y h made ,him--,*ri/--( no acc\nt4 ,i m\rn y\r s9s1 ! s9s ( y\r c\ntry2 ! drunk5ness1 ! debau*]y1 ! selfi%ness1 ! wrongs :i* are se5 ev]y:]e2 y\r rejection ( ! ,*ri/ ( ,god1 ! ,savi\r ( ! _w4 ,?is fills me ) sorr[1 & ?is1 unless x is =sak51 w br+ ^u y ! judgm5ts ( ,god4 ,?us %e unburd5$ h] s\l1 & ?us began n a ?ree weeks' b a two mon?s' campaign1 :i* f ! fir/ mom5t--9 s /range contra/ to ! tumultu\s op5+s at ,havre & ,r\5--0 m>k$ by a beautiful rev]5ce & solemnity4 ,! s]vices ( ! police 7 nev] requir$ dur+ ! :ole "t4 ,f\r or five ev5+ meet+s 7 held e week1 besides aft]noon ga!r+s1 salon meet+s1 & midnight supp]s4 ,all ,brussels 0 mov$4 ,an em95t /atesman said to ! ,m>e*ale1 ,ev]ybody has be5 ridicul$ "h except y4 ,ridicule kills ev]y?+2 y h kill$ ridicule4 ,9 ! full tide ( ! mission %e wrote to h] fa!r3 ,mo/ m>vell\sly is ,god work+ "h 9 ,brussels4 ,la/ night ,i _h ! conc]t-hall cr[d$ & a great numb] 7 turn$ back at ! door4 ,! sil5ce1 ! att5tion is unbrok51 & !re is conviction among all k9d ( p]sons4 ,worldly & ,ca?olic pap]s speak beautifully ( u4 ,f\r j\rnals h giv5 lead+ articles to me4 ,praise ,god1 x is all ,8 "w6 ,?is morn+ ,i _h a conv]sation ) a s5ator :o is at ! head ( ! p>ty ( progress "h1 & he says t ! movem5t is ! mo/ rem>kable ! city has se5 = a hundr$ ye>s & t ! effects are pr(\nd & a/oni%+4 ,ano!r s5ator has s5t me ,l#bj4 ,i feel m ?an ev] n[ ,i ought to cont9ue & pu% ! battle4 ,we %all be able to d some?+ extraord9>y & put ,belgium on a new foot+4 ,! fir/ s5ator ref]r$ to 9 ! lett] 0 ,m4 le ,jeune1 :o said to ! ,m>e*ale-- ,! b>1 ! arti/ _w1 society1 ,ca?olic & ,prote/ant--!y h all come to he> y4 ,y are univ]sal1 ,madame4 ,yes1 %e answ]$1 ! ,*ri/ is univ]sal4 ,dur+ ^! two mon?s %e _h daily int]views ) m5 & wom5 cru%$ "u ! burd5 ( all k9ds ( s9--a burd5 t weigh$ s heavily on h] own _s t sometimes1 in/ead ( deliv]+ an address1 %e c\ld only fall on h] knees & cry to ,god to =give all ! s9s t come f ! he>t ( man--murd]s1 adult]ies1 !fts1 uncleanness1 lies1 blasphemies--all ( :i* _h be5 confess$ to h]4 ,x 0 a "t ( wond]ful spiritual bless+ = all h] comrades1 :o1 l h]1 lit]ally liv$ = ! p4 ,"o ( !m said1 ,we h gr[n z mu* ) y 9 ^! weeks z 9 tw5ty ye>s4 ,to a ?\s& m5 ( ! elite ( ,brussels %e deliv]$ an address--:i* 0 aft]w>ds publi%$--on ,! ,greate/ ,inju/ice ( ! ,c5tury4 ,x 0 a woman's m\rnful1 t5d]1 passionate prote/ aga9/ man's s9s 9 a city :i* _h its twelve ?\s& s-call$ filles de joie1 _m ( !m ( ! t5d]e/ ye>s4 ,"o ( h] audi5ce1 a typical ,brussels man ( ! _w1 cov]+ 8 face ) a h& on :i* fla%$ a diamond r+1 & %ak+ ) great sobs ( angui%1 cri$1 ,i am a lep]--damn$ already6 ,madame1 said an editor1 !y w\ld hiss anybody else :o said ^! ?+s to !m4 ,!y be> !m f y1 because !y feel y love !m4 ,"o day %e receiv$ an invitation to d9e ) a doz5 an>*i/s4 ,h] comrades told h] ( ! dang] ( bombs1 etc41 b %e w5t1 &1 _m ye>s aft] :5 ask$ by an ,engli% ,div9e1 ,h[ did y get into su* society8 %e answ]$1 ,extremes meet4 ,s y are come to talk to u1 said ,elisee ,recluse#c ) a smile1 ( ju/ification by fai? & sanctification by fai?1 etc4 #c ,exil$ f ,france z an an>*i/1 he _h become a ,pr(essor 9 ,brussels4 ,he _h be5 tra9$ z a ,prote/ant ,pa/or4 ,he 0 ! greate/ geograph] ( mod]n times1 ! writ] ( ,une n\velle geographie univ]selle 7#ai vols474 ,oh1 no1 no6 ,i d n talk ( doctr9es4 ,!y nev] tr\bl$ me 9 my life4 ,i c>e only = realities4 ,y h suff]$2 ,i too h suff]$4 ,let u beg9 !re1 & comp>e notes4 ,"s ( y h be5 9 prison2 ,i h be5 9 prison4 ,y h be5 exil$2 s h ,i4 ,y h wept ov] ! inju/ice & cruelties ( ! _w2 s h ,i wept1 s d ,i weep4 ,& ?us !y f\nd common gr\nd1 agree+ 9 _! diagnosis ( ! diseases ( society2 diff]+ only z to ! rem$y4 ,y believe 9 an>*y1 said ! ,m>e*ale4 ,"o ( y\r numb] said at "o ( my meet+s t an>*y is ! mo/ beautiful ( all religions4 ,i "k a m excell5t way--a %ort] cut to mak+ ! _w bett]4 ,y fl+ y\r bombs to de/roy life2 h[ c p be conv]t$ :5 _! heads are gone8 ,*ri/ said ',foll[ me to ,calv>y6' ,he %$ ,8 own blood4 ,no "o else's4 ,he bids u save ! _w by d5y+ ourselves & tak+ up ! ,cross4 ,t ev5+ ,elisee ,recluse drove h] 9 8 c>riage to h] meet+ at ! ,salle ,h>monie1 & 9 h] little ante-room !y pray$ toge!r4 ,a ,brussels sculptor begg$ ! ,m>e*ale to pose = him 9 h] robe de bure1 b %e decl9$4 ,r5ee ,gange1 ! h]o9e ( ! ,belgian sociali/s1 aft] passionately embrac+ h] be=e a ?\s& eyes1 publi%$ a *>m+ p5-&-ink portrait ( ?is enigmatic woman1 comp>+ h] to a s]5e1 calm /atue t almo/ smiles4 ,! f9e & sl5d] figure ( ! ,m>e*ale w long rema9 "o ( ! mo/ curi\s1 ! mo/ /range app>itions 9 ! mid/ ( our society ( money-mak]s & ma*9e-con/ructors4 ,! prophet1 ! my/ic1 ! sa9t w always be a my/]y to ! art & sci5ce1 n to speak ( ! s9 & selfi%ness1 ( ! _w4 ,?is tru? 0 f9ely express$ by a writ] 9 ,l',art mod]ne ( ,brussels4 ,! ,m>e*ale does n seek to 'demon/rate' any?+4 ,i h se5 h] %rug h] %\ld]s a little & smile :5 "s "o wi%$ to reason or discuss ) h]4 ,%e c\ld d x1 = %e is intellig5t & m]veilleusem5t intuitive4 ,b h] fai? does n 'demon/rate' itself4 ,x lives & exp&s itself4 ,x affirms itself4 ,& ^? :o1 n[ num]\s1 h "s psy*ological tact h felt t ?is woman obey$ some?+ m p[]ful ?an h]self4 ,p]haps %e is ! happy & unconsci\s in/rum5t ( an expansive =ce too mu* ignor$1 too little recognis$ & obey$1 z necess>y = our pres]vation z ! law ( self-pres]vation itself4444 ,h] addresses are nei!r weigh$ nor balanc$4 ,b !y h ! col\r1 ! life1 ! /rong sugge/iv5ess1 ! mov+ s9c]ity ( an inspiration come f "o kn[s n :]e1 f above u1 f outside u--my/]i\s impulses ( ?+s et]nal4 99,,*apt] ,,xiv99 99,,to ,,?9e ,,own ,,self ,,be ,,true99 ,9 ! ye> #aijb ! ,m>e*ale & h] husb& sev]$ _! connection ) ! ,salvation ,army4 ,conc]n+ ! causes t l$ to ?is1 x is _! unit$ wi% t no?+ %\ld be said t w\ld int]rupt ! good feel+ t has always exi/$1 & /ill exi/s betwe5 !m & ?\s&s ( _! old & de>ly lov$ comrades 9 t organization4 ,!re are ^? :o h misjudg$ ! ,m>e*ale 9 ?is matt]1 z hav+ tak5 ?is /ep = p]sonal advantage1 & )\t due reg>d to its effect on h] fa!r & 8 "w4 ,h[ little d !y "k ! tru?4 ,to "o :o has read ! correspond5ce ( ^? days1 & all o!r days s9ce1 :o has wat*$ )9 ! inn] circle ( ! home1 ov]he>+ ! mo/ confid5tial conv]sations1 no?+ c\ld be s %ock+ a contrav5tion ( ! tru? z to accuse ?is devot$ daught] ei!r ( p>5tal disreg>d1 or self-will$ unconc]n = ! welf>e ( ! ,k+dom ( ,*ri/4 ,?is /ep co/ he>t's blood to ! ,m>e*ale4 ,katie1 said ! ,g5]al 9 ,victoria ,/ation1 :5 %e 0 />t+ on h] second j\rney to ,france1 y h rem>kable in/9cts2 foll[ !m1 & y w nev] g wrong4 ,tw5ty ye>s aft]1 h] fri5d ,mlle4 ,con/ance ,monod1 ! daught] ( ! great ,fr5* prea*]1 wrote to h]1 ,i w\ld besee* y to tru/ y\rself1 tru/ y\r div9e in/9ct1 :i* ,god has develop$ s1 s wond]fully 9 y4 ,h]$ity1 tra9+ & exp]i5ce _h comb9$ to give h] ! in/9cts ( a prophetic s\l-w9n]4 ,! grace ( ,god _h imp>t$ to h] a _s ( wisdom & revelation4 ,h] intuitions 7 at once h] /r5g? & h] safety4 ,h] in/9ctive love ( ! true1 ! beautiful1 & ! good1 h] in/9ctive hatr$ ( ! false1 ! sordid1 & ! selfi%1 =m$ ! t\*/one to :i* %e br\ght ev]y?+ 9 ! moral1 social & religi\s life ( ,france4 ,great numb]s ( ! elite ( ,p>is & o!r cities1 :o 7 te*nically f> bett] educat$ ?an %e1 came & sat at h] feet1 because !y b[$ to ! au?ority ( ! ,*ri/-,_s 9 h]4 ,& h] in/9cts ( sympa?y ) poor1 sick1 suff]+ s\ls drew multitudes :o 7 outside ! pale ( ! ,*ur* to ! ,savi\r4 ,%e always ma9ta9$ t %e w5t on h] mission z a simple ,engli% girl1 do+ only :at any o!r girl1 ) ! same opportunities & ! same fai?1 might h done4 ,!re is a div9e p[] 9 a woman's in/9cts ( purity & righte\sness :i* puts ! bas5ess ( m5 to %ame4 ,t p[]1 _m believe1 w be ! *ief factor 9 ! salvation ( ! mod]n ,*ur* & mod]n society4 ,ours is an age :i* ne$s ,deborahs & ,huldahs ) _! div9e in/9cts4 ,! ,song ( ,songs tells h[ a simple ,hebrew girl1 tempt$ by ! glory ( ! _w1 b /rong 9 h] passion ( holy love1 m]it$ ! wond]ful ascription1 ,fair z ! moon1 cle> z ! sun1 t]rible z an army ) bann]s4 ,if ! ,*ri/ian womanhood ( ! tw5tie? c5tury rises to t level1 ! future ( ! ,k+dom ( ,god w be f> m glori\s ?an its pa/4 ,! ,m>e*ale's in/9cts = ! beautiful 9 nature & 9 art d\btless con/itut$ no small "p ( h] *>m = ! ,lat9 races4 ,%e look$ at all ! glory ( heav5 & e>? ) a poet's eyes4 ,dur+ h] e>ly cr[d$ life ( evangelism 9 ,engl&1 h] fa!r once took h] on a t\r ?r\gh ! ,trossa*s ( ,scotl&1 & ! memory ( t vision ( beauty at ! age ( sixte5 ev] aft]w>ds haunt$ h] l a passion4 ,let me /ay "h6 %e said to ! ,g5]al1 ^: reply1 call+ a soldi] to arms1 equally rema9$ 9 h] memory3 ,m5 are m int]e/+ ?an sc5]y4 ,if %e sc>cely ev] took holidays 9 aft] life1 x 0 n t %e did n sometimes sigh = ! w+s ( a dove t %e might fly away & be at re/4 ,!re 0 a lifelong conflict betwe5 ! natural & ! ascetic 9 h]4 ,%e _h nev] _h "t to cultivate any art except music1 b h] s5se ( ev]y?+ lovely 9 =m & col\r & s\nd 0 exquisite1 & %e became )\t /udy a supreme arti/ 9 at lea/ "o dep>tm5t4 ,at ! "t ( ! coronation ( ,que5 ,wilhelm9a ( ,holl&1 !re 0 a gr& ,exhibition ( all t wom5 c d 9 ! mod]n _w4 ,a deputation wait$ on ! ,m>e*ale & begg$ h] to give an address along ) two o!r well-kn[n lady speak]s4 ,%e agre$ to come1 provid$ %e %\ld be all[$ to *oose h] own subject4 ,cons5t 0 readily giv51 & %e deliv]$ an address 9 ,fr5* ^u :at ,*ri/ has done = ,woman & :at ,woman = ,*ri/4 ,%e gave no ?\ght to ! mann] ( deliv]y2 %e m]ely realis$ t %e _h a gold5 opportunity ( proclaim+ h] ,savi\r to a magnific5t audi5ce4 ,%e _h nev] 9 h] life receiv$ a lesson 9 elocution1 & to h done s might h seem$ to h] wick$ backslid+4 ,b %e 0 aw>d$ ! palm ( eloqu5ce4 ,if h] s*ola/ic education 0 some:at defective1 %e 0 wond]fully guid$ by h] in/9cts 9 h] lat] self-education4 ,dur+ h] ,am]ican t\r %e 0 tak5 "o day by ?ree :ite-hair$ pr(essors to see ! greate/ libr>y 9 ! ,/ates4 ,h] unsophi/icat$ m9d 0 bewild]$ by all t mass ( le>n+4 ,surely1 %e said1 x mu/ /rike despair into ! m9ds ( ! /ud5ts6 ,"o ( h] guides que/ion$ h] ab\t h] own fav\rite books4 ,well1 %e answ]$1 ,i h nev] be5 a read]2 ,i ?9k ,i h only two4 ,:at might !y be8 ,"o ( !m y "k4 ,yes1 ! ,bible2 :at is ! second8 ,! ,he>t ( ,man4 ,i am always at x1 on l& & sea1 9 ! /reets & 9 railway c>riages1 morn+1 noon & night4 ,x helps me ) my fir/ book bett] ?an any comm5t>y4 ,%e came to "k ! ,bible ) a ?or\ghness :i* n "o man 9 t5 ?\s& ev] atta9s4 ,h] spiritual in/9ct seiz$1 & h] extraord9>y memory reta9$1 ! vital & ! ess5tial4 ,%e nev] /udi$ ! ,bible 9 ! ord9>y way1 sitt+ d[n ) lexicon & concordance4 ,!re 0 no "t = t 9 h] busy life4 ,%e took h] spiritual food f ! ,bible z ! bee sips honey f fl[]s4 ,! ,bible 0 h] companion & %e read x = pleasure4 ,%e absorb$ & assimilat$ x )\t ef=t4 ,t %e knew mu* ( x by he>t 0 ( less importance ?an ! fact t x became "p ( h]self4 ,!re9 lay h] p[] ( exp\nd+ & apply+ x4 ,no?+1 said ,dr4 ,munroe ,gibson aft] li/5+ to h] nightly = a week1 *>m$ our p m ?an h] expositions ( ,scripture4 ,! tru?s by :i* %e liv$ came to h] intuitively4 ,h] religion did n consi/ ( comm&m5ts & dogmas4 ,x 0 life1 light1 lib]ty1 & above all love4 ,alike 9 :at %e accept$ & :at %e reject$1 %e act$ in/9ctively--%e c\ld d no o!r4 ,%e _h an av]sion to religi\s controv]sy4 ,argum5ts made little or no impression ^u h] m9d4 ,%e might sometimes be ov]:elm$ ) !ological doctr9es1 ! tru? ( :i* %e c\ld nei!r affirm nor d5y1 b 9 ! end %e w\ld em]ge ) ! naive rem>k1 ,i am a v simple *ild1 & ,i mu/ h a *ild's religion4 ,%e always held t ,*ri/'s religion is = ! multitude1 & t ! multitude are *ildr54 ,! ess5ce ( ,*ri/ianity c be assimilat$ by boys & girls :o d n "k h[ to read & write1 & !y may become sa9ts & savi\rs4 ,a glance at ! ,m>e*ale's well-us$ ,bible suffices to prove t = h] ! he>t ( ! ,old ,te/am5t is 9 ,hosea1 ! prophet ( love1 & ,isaiah ! prophet ( atonem5t1 :ile ! he>t ( ! ,new ,te/am5t is 9 ! /ory ( ! return+ prodigal or ! p5it5t ,magdal5e4 ,g5ius is nev] easy to und]/&4 ,its weakness is (t5 relat$ to its /r5g?4 ,x has :at ! ,fr5* call ! defects ( its qualities4 ,a great "p ( ! ,m>e*ale's p[] c]ta9ly lay 9 h] *ildlike humility4 ,z a s\l-w9n] %e nev] gave ! impression ( condesc5d+4 ,%e did n ne$ to /oop2 by nature & by grace %e 0 meek & l[ly 9 he>t4 ,:at drew multitudes ( poor s9n]s to h] 0 _! assurance t %e w\ld he> ) human sympa?y _! tales ( s9 & sorr[4 ,at "o ( h] midnight supp]s a ,fr5* lady said to h]1 ,i h be5 "h all ^! ye>s try+ to br+ ^! poor girls toge!r4 ,h[ is x t y succe$ :]e ,i fail1 9 gett+ !m to op5 _! he>ts to y8 ,p]haps1 said ! ,m>e*ale1 x is because ,i d n make !m feel t !re is a diff]5ce betwe5 !m & me4 ,) h] humility !re 0 b\nd up a c]ta9 measure ( self-di/ru/4 ,9 h]1 z 9 h] fa!r1 :om %e resembl$ s /rongly 9 _s z well z 9 features1 !re 0 an extraord9>y comb9ation ( confid5ce & diffid5ce4 ,x us$ to be said by ^? :o knew ! ,g5]al mo/ intimately t1 :ile he comm&$ an ,army1 he 0 apologetic to 8 cook4 ,& if ! ,m>e*ale _h a spl5did moral c\rage1 z h] mann] ( deal+ ) ho/ile cr[ds abundantly prov$1 %e _h also a womanly timidity 9 :i* !re lay a c]ta9 subtle dang]4 ,s long z %e _h fai? 9 h] ,god-giv5 in/9cts1 & 9 ! individual guidance ( ! ,holy ,_s1 %e 0 unconqu]able1 b if any?+ und]m9$ !m h] p[] 0 = ! "t be+ p>alys$4 ,= ! criticisms ( ! _w %e c>$ little or no?+1 b ! real love & und]/&+ ( h] comrades 0 z ! brea? ( life to h]4 ,f !m %e 0 always eag] to le>n1 & sometimes %e let ! judgm5t ( o!rs obscure h] spiritual & womanly intuitions4 ,%e w\ld sit at ! feet ( ?is or t tea*] :o spoke ) an air ( wisdom & au?ority1 :5 9 n9e cases out ( t5 ! relation ( tea*] & taught ought to h be5 rev]s$4 ,z a rule1 h] in/9cts made h] a swift & un]r+ disc]n] ( spirits1 b !re 7 exceptional cases 9 :i* x almo/ seem$ disloyalty to try ! spirits :e!r !y are ( ,god4 ,"o ( h] life-long fri5ds1 ,mr4 ,w4 ,t4 ,/ead1 :o w5t d[n on ! ill-fat$ ,titanic1 knew bo? sides ( h] "*--h] lion-l boldness z well z h] dove-l g5tl5ess4 ,he us$ to relate h[ %e "o day invad$ ! (fice ( ! ,pall ,mall ,gazette1 & summon$ him ) all ! categorical imp]i\sness ( h] nature & h] mission to quit politics & edit ! ,w> ,cry4 ,yet he us$ to say to h]1 ) a s]i\sness t 0 n altoge!r assum$1 ,y are damn$ by y\r humility6 ,x is well kn[n t ! ,m>e*ale's husb& 0 = a "t a believ] 9 ,dr4 ,d[ie1 ! ,scotsman :o f\nd$ ,zion ,city beside ,*icago4 ,f9d+ t c]ta9 doctr9es su* z ,fai? ,heal+1 ! ,second ,adv5t1 ! ,rapture ( ! ,sa9ts1 :i* 7 to him1 z to ?\s&s ( o!rs1 ( vital importance1--7 be+ fai?fully prea*$ by "o :o claim$ to be ! second ,elijah1 ! ,=]unn] ( ,*ri/1 ,mr4 ,boo?-,clibborn became a memb] ( ! ,*ri/ian ,ca?olic ,*ur*4 ,hav+ be5 a ,quak] m9i/] be=e 8 tw5ty ye>s ( fai?ful s]vice 9 ! ,salvation ,army1 he also *]i%$ ! hope ( p]fect+ ,zionism by add+ to x 8 own peace pr9ciples4 ,! ,m>e*ale c\ld n accept ,dr4 ,d[ie's claims1 b 9 h] int5se desire = family unity %e cons5t$ to g ) h] husb& to see ,zion ,city1 tak+ h] two elde/ daught]s1 ,evangel9e & ,victoria1 !n f\rte5 & ?irte5 ye>s ( age1 & baby ,joseph9e1 :o 0 b f\r mon?s old1 ) h]4 ,!y rema9$ !re f\r mon?s1 ,july to ,octob]1 #aijb4 ,! di>y & lett]s :i* %e wrote dur+ t visit are psy*ologically & ,spiritually among ! mo/ int]e/+ human docum5ts ,i h ev] se51 & suffici5tly indicate h] attitude ( m9d at ?is "t4 ,b let u draw a veil1 except = "o or two incid5ts & extracts1 ov] ! d>k angui% ( s\l1 ! torture ( unc]ta9ty1 & ! dep?s ( despair :i* %e !n pass$ ?r\gh4 ,%e implor$ ,dr4 ,d[ie to take h] husb& & orda9 him )\t h]1 b he emphatically refus$ to d s4 ,! foll[+ p>agraph1 tak5 f h] di>y1 %[s 9 :at a pa9ful pr$icam5t %e f\nd h]self4 ,speak+ ( a fri5dly advis]1 %e says3 ,he said1 z ,i 0 ! wife1 ! responsibility 0 on my husb&1 & ,i mu/ /& by him1 ev5 if he 0 9 error1 & ,god w\ld =give me if x 0 a mi/ake4 ,i felt s mu* tak5 aback by ! way he look$ at ! matt] t ,i turn$ ! key ( my he>t4 ,to "o ( h] de>e/ fri5ds %e wrote a long lett]1 :i* 0 a cry out ( ! dep?s3 ,i am n easily giv5 to disc\ragem5t or despair1 b my position mu/ make angels weep1 if !y c weep4 ,i _c br+ myself to accept ,d[ie1 s mu* 9 him violates ! highe/ spiritual in/9cts ,i h4444 ,! =c+ ( me outw>dly does n conv9ce me4 ,i h yield$ all along ! l9e1 & n[ "h ,i am 444 b ,i am n 9 despair4 ,i h be54 ,x seems to me z if ,god1 :o has se5 ! long agony1 w himself op5 ! door4 ,i _c g fur!r 9 ?is direction4444 ,i feel a fe> ov] ev]y?+4 ,i nev] 0 s unutt]ably unhappy 9 my life1 nev]4 ,oh1 w y n help me8 ,"o day ! prophet 0 attack+ "s not$ evangeli/s ( ! day4 ,pres5tly he began to fulm9ate aga9/ ! ,salvation ,army1 & accus$ ! ,g5]al ( fail+ to reprove ! s9s ( ! ri*4 ,! ,m>e*ale leapt to h] feet1 & fac+ ! prophet ) out/ret*$ f+] & fla%+ eye1 an image ( outrag$ ju/ice1 exclaim$1 ,t is an untru?6 ,no man has be5 m fai?ful 9 reprov+ ! ri* ?an my fa!r & x is c[>dly ( y to attack a man :o is n "h to def5d himself4 ,! prophet visibly quail$ "u ! )]+ rebuke4 ,x 0 ! fir/ "t any "o _h )/ood him to ! face4 ,) an h\r ( ?und]+ oratory he tri$ to oblit]ate ! impression made on ! va/ audi5ce1 b = once he 0 evid5tly *eckmat$4 ,at l5g? ,dr4 ,d[ie1 see+ he c\ld n ov]come ! ,m>e*ale's opposition1 & t h] unwill+ pres5ce 9 ! city 0 a di/urb+ factor among 8 p1 reque/$ h] & h] husb& to )draw4 ,mr4 ,boo?-,clibborn1 ( ^: absolute s9c]ity !re c be no d\bt1 0 ke5ly disappo9t$ at hav+ to turn 8 back ^u ,zion1 :i* _h become to him1 z ! ,salvation ,army 9 its e>ly days a cause to live =1 & if ne$ be to die =4 ,! /ra9 on ! ,m>e*ale _h be5 s great t :5 %e arriv$ 9 ,engl& %e 0 utt]ly pro/rat$4 ,two de> old c\s9s ( h] husb&'s1 ! ,misses ,susan & ,e/h] ,bell1 9 ,ea/b\rne1 nurs$ h] back to life4 ,!n came two d>k1 sil5t ye>s 9 ,brussels4 ,! ,m>e*ale look$ = a fri5d & f\nd none4 ,all ! _w believ$ t %e _h jo9$ ,zion4 ,! ,fr5* pap]s ann\nc$ t %e _h burn$ 7brule7 ! pr9ciples = :i* %e _h once f\ght4 ,h] daught] ,victoria1 :o 0 ) h] 9 ^? ye>s ( lonely sorr[1 writes3 ,gradually h] /r5g? left h]4 ,%e suff]$ dumbly1 va9ly hop+ = "s deliv]ance4 ,0 ?is ! ,m>e*ale :o _h l$ h] army to battle & fac$ ! h[l+ mob ) a smile on h] face8 ,h] sorr[ _h cru%$ & sapp$ h] c\rage :i* ! /orm ( p]secution only s]v$ to quick54 ,h] *ildr5 _h />vation />+ !m 9 ! face2 ano!r t]rible illness1 br\ght on by h\sehold c>e1 laid h] l[2 h] _s 0 exhau/$ by ! tortur+ /ra9 ( ye>s2 & %e c\ld hold out no long]4 ,9 a bl9d fai?1 )\t conviction1 %e 0 receiv$ into ,zion ,*ur*4 ,brok5 on ! :eel ( life1 /ret*$ too long ^u ! rack ( ?is t\gh _w1 %e accept$--l ,savon>ola & ,galileo1 l ,cranm] & ,jeanne d',arc--an ali5 cre$1 )\t h] reason be+ conv9c$ or h] he>t won4 ,b--aga9 l ^?--n = long4 ,h] deliv]ance came 9 a />tl+ fa%ion4 ,soon aft] h] removal ) h] family to ,p>is1 h] husb& began to suff] f ! effects ( a neglect$ influ5za :i* settl$ 9 8 knee4 ,true to 8 pr9ciples1 he refus$ to see a doctor4 ,:5 he 0 at ! br9k ( dea?1 ! ,m>e*ale br\ght 9 a physician 9 ! guise ( a fri5d4 ,! sick man's case 0 at fir/ pron\nc$ to be hopeless1 b ?ree ( ! f9e/ surgeons ( ,p>is 7 ha/ily summon$1 p]=m$ f\r op]ations1 & sav$ 8 life1 leav+ him1 h[ev]1 crippl$ = ! re/ ( 8 days4 ,! dismissal ( ,mr4 ,boo?-,clibborn foll[$ z a matt] ( c\rse4 ,he _h violat$ ! /ricte/ laws ( ,zion by accept+ ! aid ( surg]y4 ,two ( 8 own conv]ts1 n[ foll[]s ( ,dr4 ,d[ie1 invad$ ! sick room1 & h&$ him ! fateful docum5t4 ,"s "t aft]w>d he wrote3 ,d[ie 0 a good man at "o "t4 ,s 0 ! devil4 ,d[ie fell ?r\gh ! same s9--,pride4 ,9 addition to a /atem5t :i* 0 publi%$ 9 f\r c\ntries1 he has rec5tly borne ! foll[+ conclusive te/imony3 ,! ,m>e*ale w\ld nev] h _h any?+ to d ) ,dr4 ,d[ie b = me4 ,:5 %e came ne> him x 0 on e occasion unwill+ly4 ,%e suff]$ unutt]able angui%1 pa9 & grief1 f ! fact t f ! fir/ all h] in/9cts1 z well z ! consci\sness ( h] true religi\s int]e/1 7 aga9/ ,dr4 ,d[ie's spiritual p]sonality1 8 ways1 8 claims1 8 /yle ( gov]nm5t4 ,if1 9 a k9d ( despair1 %e w5t ) me into x1 ?\gh %e 0 9 x %e 0 n ( x4 ,x 0 nev] s\ght1 x 0 endur$4 ,! only com=t 9 ! endur+ 0 ! possibility ( do+ a little good mean:ile to p 9 x1 & ( ultimately help+ 9 ! op5+ ( my eyes4 99,,*apt] ,,xv99 99,,sursum ,,corda699 ,all ! ,m>e*ale's he>]s rememb] h] p5etrat+ gaze4 ,no "o ev] enc\nt]$ h] eyes & saw !m %ift4 ,?\s&s h felt z if %e 7 look+ ?r\gh all disguises into _! v s\ls1 & h] tap]+ index f+] has (t5 made ! brave/ quail4 ,all ?r\gh ! night1 wrote a convict$ s9n]1 ,i saw h] f+] po9t+ /raight at me4 ,& "o feels c]ta9 t h] look 0 nev] m direct1 nev] m se>*+1 ?an :5 x 0 turn$ inw>d4 ,%e has always _h a passion = see+ ?+s z !y are1 especially ! ?+s ( ! _s4 ,we are n surpris$1 !re=e1 at h] (t5 repeat$ words3 ,?is exp]i5ce has taught me ! folly ( violat+ ,god-giv5 in/9ct1 & all[+ ! inn] light ( ,god's ,holy ,_s to be d>k5$ by man4 ,:5 ,i comp>e myself ) :at ,i 0 9 ! pa/1 9 _m respects x seems z if t p]son 0 dead6 ,drawn by ! cords ( love1 held by ties too sacr$ to be brok51 worn by ye>s ( pov]ty & sickness1 & mov+ at la/ 9 a k9d ( trance1 m dead ?an alive1 "o ( ,god's true/ & brave/ s]vants bl9dly /umbl$ on till %e f\nd h]self1 = a "t ( agony1 9 a spiritual prison-h\se f :i* !re seem$ to be no escape4 ,h] greate/ dang] lay 9 a k9d ( fatali/ic submission1 :i* w\ld h meant p]man5t disloyalty to h] own ideals & convictions1 z well z ! ab&onm5t ( h] vocation4 ,%e read ! lett]s ( ,p]e ,didon1 ^: h]oic acceptance ( 8 de/9y influ5c$ h] 9 ! direction ( s9k+ h] individuality4 ,& "o _c und]/& ! exquisite torture ( h] position unless "o realises t h] m9d _h (t5 be5 made an ar5a ( conflict betwe5 ! app>5tly irreconcilable claims ( ! dome/ic & ! apo/olic life4 ,& yet1 ,fa!r ,hyac9? once said to h] 9 ,p>is1 ,y are ! only woman ,i h ev] met :o has reconcil$ ! vocation ( a "m ) t ( an apo/le4 ,x may be appropriate to say "h t ! pray]s ( bo? fa!r & "m h be5 answ]$ 9 ! conv]sion ( _! t5 *ildr51 :o h ( _! own free w consecrat$ !mselves to ! s]vice ( ,*ri/4 ,f\r sons & ?ree daught]s are already engag$ 9 active evangeli/ic "w1 & h be5 us$ ( ,god = ! conv]sion ( _m s\ls4 ,to br+ ! ,m>e*ale back to lib]ty1 ,god us$ ! voices ( nature1 ( *ildr5 & ( fri5ds4 ,%e _h always _h a poet's s5sitive e> = e>?'s ?\s& voices ( praise1 &1 sitt+ 9 a g>d5 on a spr+ morn+1 %e wrote3 ,! pa/1 :oev] 0 "r or wrong1 %all be buri$4 ,let ! dead bury _! dead4 ,leave x1 & ?is beautiful spr+-tide let u beg9 aga94 ,! crocuses & sn[drops 9 ?is lovely g>d5 all say1 ',new ,resurrection life6' ,h] own *ildr5's voices call$ h] back into ! ?ick ( ! old spiritual battle4 ,n[ = ! *ildr51 %e wrote2 !y mu/ all see "s salvation "w1 & !y w feel ! gl[ ( ! heav5ly fire4 ,x w w>m !m1 & say some?+ f> m ?an all ! ,bible lessons 9 ! _w4 ,h] elde/ daught]s1 at t "t girls ( sixte5 & fifte51 b ) a wisdom f> beyond _! ye>s1 lit]ally pu%$ h] into ! w>1 & if ev] %e 0 unable to g !y buckl$ on _! arm\r & took h] place4 ,"m writes me1 says ,victoria 9 h] j\rnal1 t ,evangel9e held a beautiful meet+ on ,sunday because %e h]self 0 too ill to g4 ,poor "m1 x is difficult = h] to keep up h] c\rage4 ,?is di>i/ ( fifte5 ?us philosophises on ! mean+ ( h] "m's sorr[4 ,ev]ybody c und]/& :y ,god lets p ( ! _w1 ! infidels1 ! self-seek]s1 ! indiff]5t1 suff]4 ,x is to br+ !m to ,himself ?r\gh disappo9tm5ts 9 ! _w1 9 !mselves1 & 9 o!rs4 ,b :y ,he all[s ,8 *ildr5 t love ,him1 ^? ^: greate/ wi% is to s]ve ,him--:y ,he all[s !m to suff] is a my/]y4 ,p]haps x is to br+ !m into /ill clos] communion ) ,himself1 s t !y may become "o ) ,him--,81 body1 s\l & _s1 )\t res]ve4 ,! ,m>e*ale's fri5ds help$ to br+ h] back to h] pr$e/9$ "w ( s\l-w9n+4 ,dur+ a "t ( awful sil5ce1 9 :i* %e nev] receiv$ a call & r>ely a lett]1 %e _h n c\rage to visit any ( h] old comrades 9 ,p>is4 ,once1 9 h] great sorr[1 %e want$ to get away to "s sympa?is+ fri5d & op5 h] he>t4 ,at fir/ %e c\ld ?9k ( no "o1 b sudd5ly %e rememb]$ a humble work+ woman1 &1 tak+ ! tra9 to ,p>is1 %e we>ily climb$ to ! fif? /ory ( a h\se 9 ! ,villette1 sat d[n 9 ?is woman's little room1 & bur/ into a flood ( te>s4 ,h] fri5d tri$ to com=t h] &1 n q und]/&+ ?is passionate grief1 made h] lie d[n 9 h] own b$ :ile %e prep>$ = h] a delici\s little ,fr5* meal4 ,tw5ty ye>s be=e1 on a d>k w9t] night1 ! ,m>e*ale 0 pass+ along ! ,se9e embankm5t on ! way to h] place ( meet+ on ! ,quai de ,valmy4 ,%e notic$ a girl gaz+ at ! d>k1 cold wat]s1 & a voice told h] t %e 0 m$itat+ suicide4 ,t\*+ h] arm %e said-- ,don't look at ^? black1 cruel wat]s4 ,come ) me & h a nice cup ( c(fee4 ,y seem to be 9 tr\ble4 ,! girl1 ^: face 0 d>k & sull51 look$ at h] suspici\sly1 & did n speak4 ,! ,m>e*ale g5tly plead$ ) h] to come & he> a lady s+4 ,%e s+s beautifully1 & y w f9d light & w>m? & com=t1 & y w h a good cup ( c(fee4 ,d come ) me4 ,! girl at l5g? cons5t$ & came4 ,%e he>d ! ,m>e*ale h]self s+4 ,%e sat "r ?r\gh ! s]vice )\t op5+ h] lips & ) a h>d look on h] face4 ,at ! end ! ,m>e*ale w5t d[n beside h]1 ask$ if %e _h enjoy$ ! meet+1 & said a ^w to h] ab\t ! goodness ( ,god4 ,at ! m5tion ( ! "n ( ,god1 ! girl bur/ into passionate spee*4 ,god6 ,don't talk to me ( ,god6 ,i hate ,him4 ,:at has ,he done = me8 ,:y did ,he take my "m8 ,he doesn't c>e = me4 ,if ,he did ,he w\ld n h let me be born 9 prison4 ,:at h ,i done to des]ve su* a life z ?is8 ,x isn't my fault4 ,b1 :ile ! ,m>e*ale talk$ ) h] & pray$ ) h]1 ! girl's he>t 0 s(t5$4 ,%e began to att5d ! meet+s1 & soon gave h] he>t to ! ,"l ,jesus4 ,born 9 a prison1 & sav$ f suicide 9 ! ,se9e1 %e became 9 turn h] rescu]'s be/ com=t] 9 an h\r ( supreme sorr[4 ,:5 ! ,m>e*ale at l5g? pluck$ up he>t to revisit ,engl&1 aft] a long abs5ce & sil5ce1 h] /eps 7 direct$ to ! home ( a de> fri5d & k9dr$ _s 9 ,s\? ,london4 ,x 0 9 e>ly girlhood t ,mrs4 ,holman ( ,j]vi/on 0 fir/ attract$ to ! ,m>e*ale4 ,h] "m _h1 z ,lady ,mayoress1 invit$ ,miss ,boo?1 be=e ! "w began 9 ,france1 to address a draw+-room meet+ 9 h] h\se1 & ! indelible impressions made on a receptive m9d on t day prov$ an inspiration to a lifetime ( quiet & devot$ s]vice ( ,*ri/4 ,b s timid & deject$ _h ! ,m>e*ale become t %e dread$ ! reception t might await h] ev5 9 ! home ( a lifelong fri5d6 ,%e trembl$ z %e dragg$ h]self across ,/rea?am ,common4 ,%e sat d[n on a seat &--h] rul+ passion /rong z ev]--spoke to a begg> ab\t 8 s\l1 feel+ a c]ta9 new k9%ip ) all outca/s & p>iahs4 ,:5 %e /ood be=e h] fri5d's door %e sc>cely _h c\rage to r+ ! bell1 & if %e _h be5 told to g to ! kit*5 & h a cup ( tea ) ! s]vants1 %e w\ld h answ]$ q simply1 ,yes1 ,i w g4 ,b ,mr4 ,holman himself op5$ ! door1 & 8 he>ty welcome & ! outfl[ ( a p]fect sympa?y at once ca/ all h] fe>s to ! w9ds4 ,h] fri5ds 7 m9i/]+ angels to h]4 ,!y nurs$ h] back to heal?1 dri$ h] te>s1 & made h] smile4 ,_! little daught]--n[ "o ( ! sweete/ s+]s 9 ,london--c>oll$ to h] e morn+ & awoke ! hallelujah bird aga9 9 h] own brea/4 ,& ,god ,himself 0 mean:ile do+ = h] :at ev5 ! be/ ( fri5ds c\ld n d--giv+ h] ! ,resurrection ,life1 re-animat+ h] hope1 baptis+ h] afre% ) ! ,_s1 n ( fe>1 b ( p[] & ( love1 break+ all %ackles & mak+ h] free--free f ! ensn>+ fe> ( man1 free to obey ! ,div9e call %e _h receiv$ ev5 z a *ild--woman's ,p5teco/al call to prophesy = ,*ri/1 h] "o & only ,ma/]4 ,all] ,an fang i/ s*w]1 & ! difficulties :i* ! ,m>e*ale enc\nt]$ at ! resumption ( h] "w 7 en\gh to make any b ! /\te/ he>t fa9t4 ,if %e _h 9 ! pa/ %[n a brav]y transc5d+ t ( ev5 ! brave/ all ?is 0 ( small acc\nt comp>$ to ! h]oism n[ requir$ ( h]4 ,9 ! pa/ %e _h ! help ( h] own p1 h] spiritual *ildr51 & a /rong organization back ( h]4 ,n[ %e 0 utt]ly alone1 ?\s&s all ov] ! _w _h an errone\s conception ( ! entire situation1 & _m ev5 believ$ %e _h made %ipwreck ( h] fai?4 ,h] daught] ,victoria /&s out dur+ t lonely p]iod ( beg9n+s4 ,) rem>kably cle> judgm5t1 disc]nm5t & sympa?y %e *e]$ & inspir$ h] "m ) h] own en?usia/ic hopefulness & vivid fai?4 ,! greate/ s]vice anyone c\ld r5d] ! ,m>e*ale 0 to bid h] g on1 fulfil h] de/9y1 believe t ,god w\ld aga9 mightily use & bless h]4 ,x might seem a small ?+ to say1 ,be ( good *e]1 yet x 0 "o ( ^? little no?+s = :i* %e 0 ev] aft]w>ds pr(\ndly grateful4 ,i rememb] h] com+ "o ev5+ into my ,*elsea /udy 9 a mood ( depression1 baffl$ by life's insoluble my/]ies4 ,wond]+ :at w\ld light5 = h] ! burd5 & ! we>y weight1 ,i took d[n ,br[n+ & began to read ,rabbi b5 ,ezra1 :i* 0 new to h]4 ,f ! op5+ words-- ,! be/ is yet to be1 ,! la/ ( life1 = :i* ! fir/ 0 plann$-- to ! magnific5t close1 t inspir$ ,sursum ,corda ?rill$ h] z a message direct f ! great ,he>t ( ,god4 ,only 9 "o ?+ did %e v5ture to diff] f ! poet4 ,he sees 8 heav5 beyond1 %e said2 ,i want m9e d[n "h 9 ! salvation ( s\ls4 ,z soon z %e resum$ h] "w1 %e _h h] rew>d 9 signs foll[+ ev]y:]e4 ,doors op5$ to h]1 fir/ 9 ,engl&1 !n 9 ,scotl&1 ,irel& & ,wales4 ,%e br\ght ! brea? ( life into _m *ur*es1 rek9dl$ ! zeal ( _m work]s = ,*ri/1 & broke ! *a9s :i* _h b\nd multitudes ( s\ls to an evil pa/4 ,h] own exp]i5ce _h giv5 h]1 z a physician ( s\ls1 p]haps a deep] sympa?y1 a sur] insight1 a great] p[] to grapple ) e =m ( evil ?an ev] %e _h be=e4 ,x became h] mission to save p f !mselves by conv9c+ !m t only "o ?+ is entirely wor? do+--liv+ l ,*ri/ by lett+ ,*ri/ live 9 !m4 ,!re are c]ta9ly few evangeli/s :o h *ang$ ! :ole curr5t ( s _m lives 9 our c\ntry4 ,"y ladies ab\t to pass )9 conv5t walls h f\nd a m excell5t way by receiv+ ! liv+ ,*ri/ into _! he>ts4 ,actors & s+]s h consecrat$ _! gifts to ,*ri/ & ,8 k+dom4 ,"y m5 ( ! _w h he>d ! call ( ,god & resolv$ to ent] ! m9i/ry or g to ! mission-field4 ,god's gift ( life has reveal$ to _m que/ion+ eyes its glori\s possibilities4 ,multitudes :o _h no fai? h he>d ano!r say t %e has fai? = !m--a fai? :i* has someh[ dispell$ ! mi/s ( d\bt & error & br\ght !m into ! sunlight ( ,div9e love4 ,at ! same "t h] ev]-deep5+ k ( h] two books1 ! ,bible & ! ,he>t ( ,man1 h made h] a unique prea*] to prea*]s4 ,"o night at ,keswick1 9 ! summ] ( #aijg1 a brilliant "y ,scotti% m9i/]1 :o 0 a memb] ( a l>ge h\se-p>ty ( cl]gym5 att5d+ ! annual ,conv5tion1 came home late = supp]4 ,excuse me1 he said1 z he sat d[n1 b ,i c\ld n te> myself away f ! op5-air meet+ 9 ! ,squ>e4 ,i nev] he>d su* speak+ 9 my life4 ,i /ood transfix$4 ,! prea*] 0 ! daught] ( ,g5]al ,boo?1 & ,i nev] knew ! ,engli% language 0 su* a magnific5t weapon until to-night4 ,h] prea*+ 0 extraord9>y4 ,next day1 ?r\gh ,dr4 ,h>ry ,gu9ness1 :o 0 h] ho/1 %e 0 invit$ to address t h\se-p>ty4 ,ano!r prea*] :o 0 pres5t has record$ 8 impressions4 ,aft] tea we all ga!r$ our *airs 9 a circle r\nd h] z %e op5$ up "s sacr$ *apt]s 9 h] life4 ,h\r aft] h\r sp$4 ,no "o ?\ght ( mov+ to g to ! ,t5t meet+s4 ,!re we sat spellb\nd1 ?r\gh a long ev5+1 feel+ we _h nev] come across su* a be+ be=e4 ,?is 0 ! fir/ ( _m su* meet+s1 to :i* z _m outsid]s 7 invit$ z ! l>ge draw+-room c\ld hold4 ,:at ev5+s ^! 76 ,highl& wor?ies sat gaz+ at h] ) op5-m\!d wond]1 held by h] wit*]y1 h] /range tales f actual life1 by h] wisdom & pa?os4 ,h] voice1 ri* & sweet1 sometimes fell to dreamy cad5ces1 & sometimes rose to ! bugl+ ( a gale4 ,x ?rill$ p & x melt$ !m4 ,h] eyes 7 wond]ful4 ,sometimes !y re/$ on "o p]son 9 ! audi5ce ) a s(t & appeal+ look2 !n !y gleam$ & blaz$ ) holy passion4 ,h] long arms ) _! f9e tap]+ f+]s--h[ !y help$ to express h] m9d6 ,b x 0 ! face t 0 ! great expon5t1 & z emotions play$ on h] own mobile features %e also t\*$ ! deep *ords ( e m9i/]'s he>t4 ,:at /ruck u mo/ 0 ! access %e won to ! he>ts ( p5it5ts4 ,! "m-love 9 h] 0 s deep & real t we all felt z if we1 too1 c\ld give h] our sacr$ confid5ces4 ,a fav\rite ^w ( h]s 0 f ,/4 ,augu/9e1 ',love1 & d z y l1' & e man 9 our company felt %e 0 a liv+ illu/ration ( x4 ,h] beautiful & *oice language1 simple1 fre%1 exquisitely fitt+1 & us$ ) sup]b ease & ma/]y1 0 a con/ant amazem5t4 ,%e nev] attempt$ addresses or expositions1 b h] talks1 = no o!r "n w\ld %e apply1 7 n[ & aga9 gemm$ ) texts :i* came z ) a fla% ( diamonds1 flam+4 ,?us %e reveal$ h]self to m5 :o "k t ! c>e ( all c>es is ! cure ( s\ls--cura cur>um cura anim>um4 ,%e w>n$ !m t ! apo/olic life1 ! mo/ ,*ri/-l ( all vocations1 is only = ^? :o are will+ to fill up t :i* is lack+ ( ! suff]+s ( ,*ri/4 ,pray] & fa/+1 love & sacrifice1 real asceticism comb9$ ) joyful en?usiasm are ! conditions ( success 9 ! nev]-end+ w>f>e ) evil4 ,! _w w always be a broad field ( battle4 ,b ! liv+ ,*ri/ gives s mu* ( ,8 real pres5ce t ,8 s]vice is lib]ty & ,8 rew>ds are sure4 ,no brea? ( human praise c comp>e ) ! f]v5t & life-long gratitude :i* s\ls rescu$ f ! p[]s ( d>kness be> to _! deliv]]4 ,s9ce ! ,m>e*ale laid aside ! ,fr5* language---p]haps only = a "t--& resum$ h] "m-tongue1 %e has receiv$ lit]ally ?\s&s ( ,engli% lett]s f bo? cont95ts te/ify+ to bless+s receiv$ ?r\gh h] m9i/ry4 ,i "h give a few c>efully select$ extracts f ^! lett]s ) a few words ( introduction4 ,"o ,sunday morn+1 z ! ,m>e*ale 0 ab\t to address a l>ge congregation1 ! m9i/] :isp]$ to h]3 ,y see ^? two "y ladies 9 black1 if y c d any?+ ) !m1 x w\ld be a miracle4 ,9 "o ( ! aft]-meet+s ( ! mission1 ! ,m>e*ale approa*$ ! eld] ( ^! ladies & v5tur$ to speak ) h]1 b int5se res]ve on h] "p made conv]sation impossible4 ,a cl\d ( utt] despair seem$ to h settl$ on h] _s4 ,! look 9 h] eyes reveal$ sorr[ too deep = words4 ,?is is h] /ory3 ,at twelve o'clock "o night ,i 0 return+ home f bus9ess ) my "m & only si/]4 ,i f\nd ! body ( my fa!r hang+ 9 ! corridor6 ,i 0 s horrifi$ t = a mom5t ,i c\ld n move1 !n1 recov]+ my pres5ce ( m9d1 ,i put out ! lights & call$ my "m & si/] to ano!r door1 j 9 "t to prev5t !m see+ ! sight4 ,b ,i c nev] =get x6 ,!n my "m's heal? broke d[n1 & = f\r ye>s ,i fai?fully wat*$ & c>$ = h]4 ,dur+ ?is second pa9ful trial ,i receiv$ ! />tl+ news t my de>e/ & only bro!r _h met ) a s]i\s accid5t :ile driv+ 8 own automobile4 ,on arriv+ at ! hospital 9 all ha/e ,i 0 met ) ! words1 ',too late4' ,he 0 gone6 ,! sc5e :i* foll[$ is too t]rible = me to speak (4 ,we ador$ him6 ,! effects ( ! %ock ha/5$ my "m's dea?4 ,we said good-bye to h]1 & oh1 ! recollection ( x haunts me /ill4 ,aft] my "m's dea? my si/] & ,i left ! h\se ( trag$y1 brok5 d[n ) sorr[ & grief4 ,^! bl[s 7 beyond my p[]s ( endurance4 ,9 va9 did ,i seek "s ray ( com=t4 ,!n ,i grew c>eless6 ,w9e began to get a hold on me2 & ,i sank into dep?s ( despair1 ( :i* y only "k4 ,i really ?\ght !re 0 no ,god1 & contemplat$ end+ my own exi/5ce4 ,?r\gh x all ! ,"l 0 look+ d[n 9 t5d] compassion & love4 ,he s5t y at ?is critical "t 9 my sad c>e]4 ,:5 ,i look back on ! pa/ ,i c only praise ,god = :at ,he has done = me1 ?r\gh y4 ,i am n[ consci\s ( ! fact t ,he has wa%$ & r$eem$ me ?r\gh ! preci\s blood4 ,jesus is v de> to me4 ,he is ! ,lily ( ! ,valley1 ! faire/ ( t5 ?\s& to my s\l4 ,! pleasures ( ! _w h h5ce=? no attraction = me1 9 ,him ,i c ov]come all temptations4 ,! foll[+ is f a g5tleman 9 ,am]ica1 :o1 = ?irty-five ye>s1 _h nev] ent]$ a *ur*4 ,he happ5$ to he> ! ,m>e*ale once1 &1 ru%+ into ! ve/ry1 he broke d[n utt]ly & told h] ! tragical /ory ( 8 life4 ,he 0 an illegitimate *ild1 & 8 "m (t5 us$ to beat him until ! blood ran4 ,z a lad he /ruggl$ h>d to be good1 &1 al?\gh he 0 sometimes l$ a/ray ?r\gh ! dr9k1 he always %unn$ any?+ ( an immoral "*4 ,he m>ri$ a sweet ,g]man girl1 & by hone/ lab\r obta9$ a v good position 9 ,new ,york1 :]e he 0 e/eem$ by all :o knew him4 ,at ?is juncture he met ! ,fr5* woman :o ru9$ 8 life4 ,he told ! ,m>e*ale betwe5 8 sobs t 8 wife naturally refus$ to h him back4 ,remorse & angui% ( m9d _h driv5 him twice to attempt suicide1 b he 0 miracul\sly rescu$4 ,9 ,janu>y1 #aiad1 he writes3 ,de> ,m>e*ale & honor$ ,spiritual ,"m3 ,x 0 ) joy t ,i receiv$ y\r de> lett]4 ,god has inde$ be5 wond]fully good to me1 an undes]v+ s9n]6 ,he has roll$ away ! /one f a he>t heavy ) s9 & sorr[4 ,i ?ank ,him daily = ,8 m]cy1 & wond] h[ ,i c\ld ev] h liv$ s long )\t ,him4 ,no wond] ,i fail$ & w\ld h be5 lo/1 _h ,i n f\nd ,him at la/ ?r\gh y1 de> ,m>e*ale4 ,life has a new mean+ = me4 ,x is a pleasure to live n[1 & be=e x 0 a curse4 ,! musicians are play+ ragtime :ile ,i am writ+ ?is1 b ,god is play+ ano!r melody 9 my he>t4 ,i ?ank ,him = ! opportunity ,i h "h to d good4 ,god has inde$ *ang$ me4 ,he has giv5 me great p[] ov] ! m9ds ( my m54 ,! *ange :i*1 ) ,8 help1 ,i h be5 able to effect 9 _! natures 9 two %ort weeks is wond]ful to see4 ,i am happy1 v happy4 ,!re is surely a devil1 = he has sorely tempt$ me1 b ,i %ake him (f l a fea!r1 smil+ happily 9 my ,god-giv5 /r5g?4 ,i say to him1 ',i fe> y n1 = ,i belong to ,*ri/ ,jesus =ev]4' ,i am inde$ 9 an unholy place4 ,x is giv5 ov] to ! devil 9 e =m1 b :at matt]s1 ,i belong to ,*ri/ = all "t4 ,9 pray] & humility ,i ?ank & greet !e1 ,belov$ ,m>e*ale4 ,a beautiful girl 9 society writes ! foll[+3 ,all night long ,i h :isp]$ y\r "n ov] & ov] aga9 to myself1 say+1 ',y h giv5 me life1 ,m>e*ale1 d y he> me8 ,,life6666' ,i 0 dy+ ( remorse & fe>4 ,i %udd] :5 ,i ?9k ( :at w\ld h become ( me if ,i _h n come to y4 ,i us$ to say to myself1 ',oh1 well1 :at's ! use1 ,i h s9n$ beyond recall1 s :y n s9 aga91 & aga91 & aga98 ,i am de/9$ = ,hell anyway1 ,i may j z well get !re z fa/ z ,i c'--t is :at y h sav$ me f4 ,i wond] h[ _m times ,i h pray$ ',let me =get1 only let me =get1' & ! m ,i w\ld pray1 ! m ,i w\ld rememb]1 & ! m ,i w\ld rememb] ! m t]rifi$ ,i w\ld get1 until life seem$ to slip away f me1 & ,i w\ld fall d[n1 d[n1 d[n1 into a bottomless pit ( horror4444 ,& n[ ,i ,,live6666 ,oh1 ,m>e*ale 7h[ ,i love t "n1 x s\nds l music to me67 ,my "m gave life to my poor mis]able body1 b y gave life to my s\l4 ,my "m w\ld n m9d me lov+ y s if %e knew t y gave me back to h]4 ,aga9 %e writes3 ,i h liv$ alone1 absolutely alone4 ,god only kn[s h[ utt]ly alone ,i h be56 ,b n[ ,i h ,him1 a ,"s ,"o :o c>es6 ,is x n wond]ful1 ,m>e*ale1 ,i am no long] alone = ,i h my ,*ri/8 ,! w>m ?+ t flames 9 my s\l is ! k t ,he loves me6 ,n[ ,i "k :y all ^! ye>s ,i h se>*$ ) empty h&s = some?+4 ,i h x n[1 ,i ,,live6666 ,a "y g5tleman ^: life 0 trans=m$ ?r\gh att5d+ ! meet+s held by ! ,m>e*ale's family 9 ,keswick writes f ,beyr\t1 ,syria3 ,oh6 :at a responsibility x is = u to be ! ambassadors ( ,*ri/1 to repres5t ,him to ^? :o d n "k ,him1 to be ,8 ,images6 ,if x 7 n = u ,*ri/ians1 :o s (t5 /& 9 ,8 way1 ,*ri/ might h a *ance4 ,"s ( ! college m5 are meet+ daily 9 my room to pray & ,i wi% y c\ld he> !m pray+ 9 ,engli%1 ,arabic1 ,turki%1 ,arm5ian & ev5 ,abyss9ian4 ,y w\ld n und]/& ! words1 b y c\ld nev] mi/ake ! _s4 ,to-day ,i invit$ a man :om ,i "k is 9 ! hold ( a t]rible vice4 ,he came1 & dur+ ! half h\r he look$ z ?\gh he _h made a mi/ake 9 com+1 b1 be=e he left1 he _h l$ 9 pray] = /r5g? to ov]come temptation4 ,don't y ?9k ,am]ica is a f9e c\ntry8 ,& yet1 ) all its great res\rces1 opportunities & ph5om5al progress1 x is a v wick$ c\ntry 9 _m p>ts4 ,races1 nations & individuals may prosp] & succe$ 9 plans = bett]m5t & /ill be )\t ! realisation ( ,god1--!y may be ',good b ,godless4' ,illu/ration3 ,,! ,,m>e*ale 7,f a photograph tak5 at ! ,ga9sbor\gh ,/udio1 ,ox=d ,/reet1 ,london1 ,w41 9 #aiac7 ,) ! tribute ( "o grateful he>t ?is sket* may fitly close4 ,i h be5 us$ 9 ! pa/ 9 ! conv]sion ( hundr$s ( s\ls1 b ,i made a compromise & x has spelt ru9 to my s\l4 ,no "o kn[s h[ vile ,i h be51 m]it+ des]tion by ,god & man4444 ,i _h resolv$ to end my exi/5ce1 b someh[ ,i 0 br\ght to t meet+ to he> ab\t t ,russian lady4 ,ev5 !n ,i det]m9$ y %\ld n influ5ce me1 b ,god someh[ ?r\gh y gripp$ my life4 ,i saw myself 9 ! true light z 7,i say ! words n 9 _! usual s5se7 a 'bla/$ hypocrite4' ,don't =get to e*o & re-e*o ! words t rea*$ me1 ',compromise ) ! _w spells ru94' ,t burnt into my s\l4444 ,i rememb] :ile y spoke a big lump ris+ 9 my ?roat1 & j z y 7 clos+ y\r address ! ?\ght came1 ',i wond] if %e w\ld und]/&4' ,ay1 m1 ,i rememb] h[ y receiv$ me t day4 ,god bless y4 ,i came out ( hell4 ,i h a cle> sky4 ,i want to let y "k t ! consci\sness ( =giv5ess ( ! pa/ has come ) almo/ an ov]:elm+ =ce1 & an awful load has gone4 ,no daught] ev] lov$ "m m ?an ,i love y1 ,i "k t4 ,:y is x8 ,because ,god made y ! means ( my salvation4 ,my he>t j bur/s ) love & gratitude4 ,s ,i am y\rs1 & at t la/ great day y w see x if ,i come ?r\gh at la/4444 ,de> "o1 h y ev] ?\ght ( ?is--"s "o by a gallant ef=t rescues lives f fire or %ipwreck2 ! _w applauds & hon\rs ! deliv]]4 ,y 7by ! grace ( ,god7 rescu$ me f %ipwreck ( s\l4 ,*ri/ w own x be=e ,8 ,fa!r & all ! c\ntless multitudes4 ,,! ,,end