---------------------------------------- -------------------------------- ,transcrib]'s ,note3 ,?is v]sion ( ! text _c repres5t c]ta9 typographical effects4 ,italics are delimit$ ) ! #8' "* z italic4 ,errors1 :5 reasonably attributable to ! pr9t]1 h be5 correct$4 ,please see ! transcrib]'s note at ! end ( ?is text = details4 ,corrections made to ! text are summ>iz$ !re4 ,fr5* passages did n include diacritical m>ks 7) a s+le appe>ance ( #8' on p4 #ed71 & are pres5t$ "h z pr9t$4 ---------------------------------------- -------------------------------- ,illu/ration3 ,c4 ,,*9iquy ,,fifty ,,ye>s ,,9 ,,! ,,*ur* ,,( ,,rome4 ,,by ,,fa!r ,,*9iquy1 ,,! ,,apo/le ,,( ,,temp]ance ,,( ,,canada4 ,,au?or ,,( 8,,! ,,manual ,,( ,,temp]ance10 8,,! ,,prie/1 ,,! ,,woman1 ,,& ,,! ,,confessional10 8,,papal ,,idolatry10 8,,rome ,,& ,,education10 ,,etc4 ,,flem+ ,h4 ,,revell ,,company1 ,,new ,,york4 ,,*icago4 ,,toronto4 ,publi%]s ( ,evangelical ,lit]ature4 ---------------------------------------- -------------------------------- ,,copyright1 #ahhf1 ,,by ,,rev4 ,,*>les ,,*9iquy1 ,,/4 ,,anne1 ,,kankakee ,,co41 ,,ill4 ---------------------------------------- -------------------------------- ,,d$ication4 ,,to ,,colonel ,,edw9 ,a4 ,,%]man4 ,all[ me to m5tion y\r "n ! fir/ among ! _m to :om ,i d$icate ?is book4 ,i owe ?is to y z a tok5 ( gratitude = y\r help 9 my rese>*es aft] ! true murd]]s ( our m>tyr$ ,presid5t ,abraham ,l9coln4 ,i f\nd y z wise & honorable 9 y\r c\nsels z our c\ntry f\nd y brave on ! battlefields ( ,lib]ty4 ,,to ,,! ,,orangem5 ,,( ,,! ,,unit$ ,,/ates1 ,,canada1 ,,great ,,brita91 ,,au/ralia1 ,,tasmania ,,& ,,new ,,zeal&1,a ?is book is also d$icat$ by ! humble/ ( _! bre?r54 ,orangem56 ,read ?is book3 y w n only und]/& ,romanism z y nev] did1 b y w f9d _m new reasons to be1 m ?an ev]1 vigilant1 fe>less & devot$1 ev5 to dea?1 9 ! dis*>ge ( ! sacr$ duties impos$ ^u y by y\r love = y\r c\ntry1 y\r bre?r5 & y\r ,god4 ----- ,footnote ,a3 ,l4 ,o4 ,a4 ,b4 ,a4 ,,boyne ,l4 ,o4 ,l4 ,no4 #dja4 ,montreal1 #bj? ,sept41 #ahgh4 ,?is is to ,c]tify t ,bro4 ,c4 ,*9iquy 0 duly initiat$ into ,boyne ,l4 ,o4 ,l4 ,no4 #dja1 & is a memb] 9 good /&+1 & we d !re=e reque/ all ,bre?r5 to receive him z su*1 :]e( witness our h& & seal h]eto affix$4 ,,ma/] ,no4 #dja4 ,,john ,,hamilton1 ,secret>y4 ----- ,,to ,,! ,,hone/ ,,& ,,lib]ty-,,lov+ ,,p ,,( ,,! ,,unit$ ,,/ates1 ,i also d$icate ?is book4 ,am]icans6 ,y are sleep+ on a volcano1 & y d n suspect x6 ,y are press+ on y\r bosom a vip] :i* w bite y to dea?1 & y d n "k x4 ,read ?is book1 & y w see t ,rome is ! sworn1 ! mo/ implacable1 ! absolutely irreconcilable & deadly enemy ( y\r s*ools1 y\r in/itutions1 y\r s de>ly b\ght rights & lib]ties4 ,read ?is book1 & y w n only und]/& t x is to ,rome y owe ! riv]s ( blood & ! unspeakable horrors ( ! la/ civil w>3 b y w le>n t ,romanism & ,lib]ty c n live on ! same gr\nd4 ,?is has be5 decl>$ by ! ,popes1 hundr$s ( times4 ,read ?is book3 ,& y w n only see t ,abraham ,l9coln 0 murd]$ by ,rome1 b y w le>n t ,romanism1 "u ! mask ( religion1 is no?+ b a p]man5t political conspiracy aga9/ all ! mo/ sacr$ rights ( man & ! mo/ holy laws ( ,god4 ,9 ^? pages y w n le>n to hate ! ,roman ,ca?olics4 ,no6 ,b y w le>n to be m ?an ev] wat*ful 9 gu>d+ ! preci\s treasures ( ,fre$om be/[$ ^u y by y\r fa!rs4 ,y w le>n nev] to let !m fall into ! h&s ( ^? :o1 ) ! sacr$ "n ( ,lib]ty on _! lips1 & ! mask ( ,lib]ty on _! faces1 are sworn to de/roy all ,lib]ty4 ,,to ,,all ,,! ,,fai?ful ,,m9i/]s ,,( ,,! ,,gospel1 ,i also1 d$icate ?is book4 ,v5]able ,m9i/]s ( ! ,gospel6 ,rome is ! great dang] ahead = ! ,*ur* ( ,*ri/1 & y d n und]/& x en\gh4 ,! atmosph]e ( light1 hone/y1 tru? & hol9ess 9 :i* y are born1 & :i* y h brea!d s9ce y\r infancy1 makes x almo/ impossible = y to realize ! d>k my/]ies ( idolatry1 immorality1 degrad+ slav]y1 hatr$ ( ! ,^w ( ,god1 conceal$ beh9d ! walls ( t mod]n ,babylon4 ,y are too hone/ to suspect !m2 & y\r preci\s "t is too mu* tak5 up by ! sacr$ duties ( y\r m9i/ry1 to /udy ! long labyr9? ( argum5tations :i* =m ! bulk ( ! great] numb] ( controv]sial books4 ,besides t1 ! majority ( ! books ( controv]sy aga9/ ,rome are ( su* a dry "* t1 ?\gh _m beg9 to read !m1 v few h ! c\rage to g to ! end4 ,! consequ5ce is an ignorance ( ,romanism :i* becomes m & m deplorable & fatal1 e day4 ,x is ignorance :i* paves ! way to ! triumph ( ,rome1 9 a ne> future1 if !re is n a complete *ange 9 y\r views1 on t subject4 ,x is t ignorance :i* p>alyzes ! arm ( ! ,*ur* ( ,*ri/1 & makes ! glori\s ^w 8,prote/ant0 s5seless1 almo/ a dead & ridicul\s ^w4 ,= :o does really prote/ aga9/ ,rome1 to-day8 :]e are ^? :o s\nd ! trumpet ( al>m8 ,:5 ,rome is /rik+ y to ! he>t by curs+ y\r s*ools & wr5*+ ! ,bible f ! h&s ( y\r *ildr52 :5 %e is n only batt]+ y\r doors1 b scal+ y\r walls & /orm+ y\r citadels1 h[ few d>e g to ! brea* & repulse ! audaci\s & sacrilegi\s foe8 ,:y s8 ,because mod]n ,prote/ants h n only =gott5 :at ,rome 01 :at %e is1 & :at %e w =ev] be3 ! mo/ irreconcilable & p[]ful enemy ( ! ,gospel ( ,*ri/2 b !y consid] h] almo/ a bran* ( ! *ur* ^: corn]-/one is ,*ri/4 ,fai?ful m9i/]s ( ! ,gospel6 ,i pres5t y ?is book t y may "k t ! mon/] ,*ur* ( ,rome1 :o %$ ! blood ( y\r =efa!rs1 is /ill at "w1 to-day1 at y\r v door1 to en*a9 y\r p to ! feet ( h] idols4 ,read x1 & = ! fir/ "t1 y w see ! inside life ( ,pop]y ) ! exactness ( ,photography4 ,f ! supreme art ) :i* ! m9d ( ! "y & timid *ild is fett]$1 en*a9$ & p>alyz$1 to ! unspeakable degradation ( ! prie/ "u ! iron heel ( ! bi%op1 ev]y?+ w be reveal$ to y z x has nev] be5 be=e4 ,! sup]/itions1 ! ridicul\s & humiliat+ practices1 ! secret & m5tal agonies ( ! monks1 ! nuns & ! prie/s1 w be %[n to y z !y 7 nev] %[n be=e4 ,9 ?is book1 ! sophisms & errors ( ,romanism are discuss$ & refut$ ) a cle>ness1 simplicity & evid5ce :i* my tw5ty-five ye>s ( prie/hood only c\ld tea* me4 ,x is n 9 boa/+ t ,i say ?is4 ,!re c be no boa/+ 9 me = hav+ be5 s _m ye>s an abject slave ( ! ,pope4 ,! book ,i (f] y is an ars5al fill$ ) ! be/ weapons y ev] _h to fight1 &1 ) ! help ( ,god1 conqu] ! foe4 ,! le>n$ & zeal\s *ampion ( ,prote/antism 9 ,great ,brita9 ,rev4 ,d4 ,bad5o*1 :o has revis$ ! manuscript1 wrote to a fri5d3 8,i d n ?9k !re is a ,prote/ant "w m ?rill+ 9 int]e/ & m important at ! pres5t "t4 ,x is n only full ( incid5ts1 b also ( argum5ts1 on ! side ( tru? ) all classes ( ,romani/s1 f ! bi%ops to ! p>i% prie/s4 ,i "k ( no "w :i* gives s graphically ! spr+s ( ,roman ,ca?olic life1 & at ! same "t1 meets ! plausible objections to ,prote/antism 9 ,roman ,ca?olic circles4 ,i wi% ) all my he>t t ?is "w w\ld be publi%$ 9 ,great ,brita940 ,! v5]able1 le>n$ & s well kn[n ,rev4 ,dr4 ,kemp1 ,pr9cipal ( ! ,"y ,ladies' ,college ( ,ottawa1 ,canada1 only a few days be=e 8 premature dea?1 wrote3 8,mr4 ,*9qiuy has submitt$ e *apt] ( 8 #8,fifty ,ye>s 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,rome' to me3 ,i h read x ) c>e & ) ! deepe/ int]e/2 & ,i comm5d x to ! public favor 9 ! highe/ t]ms4 ,x is ! only book ,i "k t gives any?+ l a full & au!ntic acc\nt ( ! inn] work+s ( ,pop]y on ?is cont95t1 & s effectively unmasks its pret5ce to sanctity4 ,besides ! mo/ int]e/+ biographical incid5ts1 x conta9s incisive refutations ( ! mo/ plausible assumptions & deadly errors ( ! ,romi% ,*ur*4 ,x is well fitt$ to awak5 ,prote/ants to ! insidi\s designs ( ! ar*-enemy ( _! fai? & lib]ties1 & to ar\se !m to a decisive opposition4 ,x is writt5 9 a k9dly & ,*ri/ian _s1 does n indulge 9 d5unciations1 &1 :ile speak+ 9 tru?1 x does s 9 love4 ,its /yle is lively & its ,engli% good1 ) only a delicate flavor ( ! au?or's native ,fr5*40 ,,to ,,! ,,bi%ops1 ,,prie/s ,,& ,,p ,,( ,,rome1 ?is book is also d$icat$4 ,9 ! "n ( y\r immortal s\ls1 ,i ask y1 ,roman ,ca?olics1 to read ?is book4 ,by ! m]cy ( ,god1 y w f9d1 9 its pages1 h[ y are cruelly deceiv$ by y\r va9 & ly+ traditions4 ,y w see t x is n ?r\gh y\r c]emonies1 masses1 confessions1 purgatory1 indulg5ces1 fa/+s1 etc41 y are sav$4 ,y h no?+ to d b to believe1 rep5t & love4 ,salvation is a gift6 ,et]nal life is a gift6 ,=giv5ess ( s9 is a gift6 ,*ri/ is a gift6 ,read ?is book1 pres5t$ by ! mo/ devot$ ( y\r fri5ds1 &1 by ! m]cy ( ,god1 y w see ! errors ( y\r ways--y w look to ! ,,gift--y w accept x--& 9 its possession y w feel ri* & happy = "t & et]nity4 ,,special ,,notice ,,to ,,new ,,edition4 ------------------ ,s9ce ! publication ( ! second edition ( 8,fifty ,ye>s 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,rome10 ! inc5di>y tor* ( ! foe has twice r$uc$ into a%es ! electrotype plates1 ) _m volumes already pr9t$1 & ab\t to be deliv]$ to subscrib]s4 ,?\gh ^? two disa/]s h completely ru9$ me f9ancially1 !y h n disc\rag$ me1 = my tru/ 0 9 ,god1 & 9 ,him alone4 ,rely+ on ,8 div9e & pat]nal protection1 ,i (f] ?is ,new ,edition to my bre?r51 ) ! pray]ful hope t ! ,good ,ma/] w bless x = ,8 glory1 & ! good ( ,8 elect1 :]ev] x may g4 ,i h no words to suffici5tly bless ! fri5ds :o h ext5d$ to me a help+ h& to raise ! book f its fi]y grave2 & ,i _c suffici5tly ?ank ! ,press1 bo? religi\s & secul>1 ( ,europe & ,am]ica1 = ! k9d appreciation giv51 almo/ ev]y:]e1 to my humble labor4 ,may ?is book1 ) ! help ( ,god1 be ! means ( giv+ lib]ty to ^? :o are held 9 ! bondage ( ignorance1 sup]/ition & idolatry1 is ! s9c]e desire ( _! fri5d1 ,c4 ,,*9iquy4 ,,li/ ,,( ,,illu/rations4 ,,page ,,frontispiece-,,fa!r ,,*9iquy1 0 0 0 ,,9 ,,prie/',s ,,robes1 ,,fe/ivities ,,9 ,a ,,p>sonage1 #ed ,,gr& ,,d9n] ,,( ,,! ,,prie/s1 #bje ,,c>d9al ,,newman1 #dje ,,fall ,,( ,,! 8,,holy ,,fa!rs10 #dcf ,,leo ,,xiii41 ,,pres5t ,,pope1 #fgf ,,abraham ,,l9coln1 #fic ,,cont5ts4 ,page4 ,,title #a ,,d$ication #c-g ,,preface ,,to ,,?ird ,,edition #h ,,*apt] ,i4 ,! ,bible & ! ,prie/ ( ,rome #i-ac ,,*apt] ,,ii4 ,my fir/ s*ool-days at ,/4 ,?omas--,! ,monk & #ad-ba ,celibacy ,,*apt] ,,iii4 ,! ,confession ( ,*ildr5 #bb-cj ,,*apt] ,,iv4 ,! ,%eph]d :ipp$ by 8 ,%eep #ca-dj ,,*apt] ,v4 ,! ,prie/1 ,purgatory1 & ! poor ,wid['s ,c[ #da-dh ,,*apt] ,,vi4 ,fe/ivities 9 a ,p>sonage #di-ef ,,*apt] ,,vii4 ,prep>ation = ! ,fir/ ,communion--,initiation to #eg-fj ,idolatry ,,*apt] ,,viii4 ,! ,fir/ ,communion #fa-fe ,,*apt] ,,ix4 ,intellectual ,education 9 ! ,roman ,ca?olic #ff-gd ,college ,,*apt] ,x4 ,moral & ,religi\s ,in/ruction 9 ! ,roman #ge-he ,ca?olic ,colleges ,,*apt] ,,xi4 ,prote/ant ,*ildr5 9 ! ,conv5ts & ,nunn]ies #hf-ic ( ,rome ,,*apt] ,,xii4 ,rome & ,education--,:y does ! ,*ur* ( ,rome #id-aag hate ! ,common ,s*ools ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 & wants to de/roy !m8--,:y does %e object to ! read+ ( ! ,bible 9 ! ,s*ools8 ,,*apt] ,,xiii4 ,!ology ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome3 its ,anti-,social #aah-abh & ,anti-,*ri/ian ,"* ,,*apt] ,,xiv4 ,! ,v[ ( ,celibacy #abi-adj ,,*apt] ,,xv4 ,! ,impurities ( ! ,!ology ( ,rome #ada-aec ,,*apt] ,,xvi4 ,! ,prie/ ( ,rome & ! ,holy ,fa!rs2 or1 h[ ,i #aed-afb swore to give up ! ,^w ( ,god to foll[ ! ^w ( ,m5 ,,*apt] ,,xvii4 ,! ,roman ,ca?olic ,prie/hood1 or ,anci5t & #afc-agb ,mod]n ,idolatry1 ,,*apt] ,,xviii4 ,n9e ,consequ5ces ( ! ,dogma ( #agc-ahb ,transub/antiation--,! old ,paganism "u a ,*ri/ian "n ,,*apt] ,,xix4 ,vic>age1 & ,life at ,/4 ,*>les1 ,rivi]re ,boy] #ahc-aid ,,*apt] ,,xx4 ,pap9eau & ! ,patriots 9 #ahcc--,! burn+ ( #aie-bjc 8,le ,canadi50 by ! ,curate ( ,/4 ,*>les ,,*apt] ,,xxi4 ,gr& ,d9n] ( ! ,prie/s--,! ,maniac si/] ( #bjd-bae ,rev4 ,mr4 ,p]ras ,,*apt] ,,xxii4 ,i am appo9t$ ,vic> ( ! ,curate ( #baf-bbf ,*>lesb\rgh--,! ,piety1 ,lives & ,dea?s ( ,fa!rs ,b$>d & ,p]ras ,,*apt] ,,xxiii4 ,! ,*ol]a ,morbus ( #ahcd--;,admirable c\rage & #bbg-bce self-d5ial ( ! ,prie/s ( ,rome dur+ ! epidemic ,,*apt] ,,xxiv4 ,i am nam$ a ,vic> ( ,/4 ,ro*1 ,quebec ,city--,! #bcf-bda ,rev4 ,mr4 ,tetu--,t]tullian--,g5]al ,c>go--,! ,seal ,sk9s ,,*apt] ,,xxv4 ,simony--,/range & sacrilegi\s traffic 9 ! #bdb-bea s-call$ ,body & ,blood ( ,*ri/--,enorm\s sums ( ,money made by ! sale ( ,masses--,! ,society ( ?ree ,masses aboli%$ & ! ,society ( "o ,mass e/abli%$ ,,*apt] ,,xxvi4 ,cont9uation ( ! trade 9 ,masses #beb-bfj ,,*apt] ,,xxvii4 ,quebec ,m>9e ,hospital--,! fir/ "t ,i c>ri$ #bfa-bfg ! 8,bon ,dieu0 7! waf] god7 9 my ve/ pocket--,! ,gr& ,oy/] ,soiree at ,mr4 ,buteau's--,! ,rev4 ,l4 ,p>5t & ! 8,bon ,dieu0 at ! ,oy/] ,soiree ,,*apt] ,,xxviii4 ,dr4 ,d\glas--,my ,fir/ ,lesson on ,temp]ance--,/udy ( #bfh-bhb ,anatomy--,work+ ( ,alcohol 9 ! ,human ,frame--,! ,murd]ess ( h] own ,*ild--,i =ev] give up ! use ( ,intoxicat+ ,dr9ks ,,*apt] ,,xxix4 ,conv]sions ( ,prote/ants to ! ,*ur* ( #bhc-bic ,rome--,rev4 ,an?ony ,p>5t1 ,sup]ior ( ! ,sem9>y ( ,quebec3 ,8 peculi> way ( f9d+ access to ! ,prote/ants & br++ !m to ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*--,h[ he spies ! ,prote/ants ?r\gh ! ,confessional--,i p]suade n9ety-?ree ,families to become ,ca?olics ,,*apt] ,,xxx4 ,! ,murd]s & ,!fts 9 ,quebec f #ahce to #bid-cjc #ahhf--,! night ,excursion ) two ,?ieves--,! ,re/itution--,! ,dawn ( ,light ,,*apt] ,,xxxi4 ,*amb]s & 8 ,accomplices ,condemn$ to #cjd-cab dea?--,ask$ me to prep>e !m = _! t]rible ,fate--,a week 9 _! ,dungeon--,_! ,s5t5ce ( ,dea? *ang$ to ,deportation to ,botany ,bay--,_! ,dep>ture = exile--,i meet "o ( !m a s9c]e ,conv]t1 v ri*1 9 a high & honorable position 9 ,au/ralia 9 #ahgh ,,*apt] ,,xxxii4 ,! ,miracles ( ,rome--,attack ( ,typhoid #cah-ccd ,fev]--,app>ition ( ,/4 ,anne & ,/4 ,philom5e--,my ,sudd5 ,cure--,! ,curate ( ,/4 ,anne ,du ,nord1 ,mons4 ,ranvoise1 almo/ a disguis$ ,prote/ant ,,*apt] ,,xxxiii4 ,my ,nom9ation z ,curate ( ,beauport--,degradation #cce-cdb & ,ru9 ( t place ?r\gh ,drunk5ness--,my opposition to my nom9ation useless--,prep>ation to ,e/abli% a ,temp]ance ,society--,i write to ,fa!r ,ma!w = advice ,,*apt] ,,xxxiv4 ,! ,h& ( ,god 9 ! e/abli%m5t ( a #cdc-cej ,temp]ance ,society 9 ,beauport & ,vic9ity ,,*apt] ,,xxxv4 ,f\ndation ( ,temp]ance ,societies 9 ! #cea-cei neighbor+ ,p>i%es--,provid5tial arrival ( ,monsignor ,de ,=b9 ,janson1 ,bi%op ( ,nancy--,he publicly def5ds me aga9/ ! ,bi%op ( ,quebec & =ev] breaks ! opposition ( ! ,cl]gy ,,*apt] ,,xxxvi4 ,! ,god ( ,rome eat5 by ,rats #cfj-cfg ,,*apt] ,,xxxvii4 ,visit ( a ,prote/ant /rang]--,he ?r[s an ,arr[ #cfh-cgc into my ,prie/ly ,s\l nev] to be tak5 out ,,*apt] ,,xxxviii4 ,erection ( ! ,column ( ,temp]ance--,s*ool #cgd-chc ,build+s--,a noble & t\*+ act ( ! p at ,beauport ,,*apt] ,,xxxix4 ,s5t to succe$ ,rev4 ,mr ,v>91 ,curate ( #chd-cic ,kam\raska--,/]n opposition ( t ,curate & ! surr\nd+ ,prie/s & ,p--,h\rs ( ,desolation 9 ,kam\raska--,! good ,ma/] allays ! ,tempe/1 & bids ! ,waves be /ill ,,*apt] ,,xl4 ,organization ( ,temp]ance ,societies 9 ,kam\raska #cid-djc & surr\nd+ ,c\ntry--,! ,girl 9 ! ,g>b ( a man 9 ! s]vice ( ! ,curates ( ,quebec & ,eb\lem5ts--,fright5$ by ! ,sc&als se5 ev]y:]e--,give up my ,p>i% ( ,kam\raska to jo9 ! 8,oblates ( ,m>y ,immaculate ( ,longueuiel40 ,,*apt] ,,xli4 ,p]v]sions ( ,dr4 ,newman to ! ,*ur* ( ,rome 9 #djd-dcj ! light ( 8 own explanations1 ,common ,s5se & ! ,^w ( ,god ,,*apt] ,,xlii4 ,noviciate 9 ! ,mona/]y ( ! ,oblates ( ,m>y #dca-ddi ,immaculate ( ,longueuiel--,"s ( ! ?\s& ,acts ( ,folly & ,idolatry :i* =m ! life ( a ,monk--,! ,deplorable ,fall ( "o ( ! ,fa!rs--,fall ( ! ,gr& ,vic> ,quibli]--,sick 9 ! ,hotel ,dieu ( ,montreal--,si/] ,urtubise1 :at %e says ( ,m>ia ,monk--,! two ,mission>ies to ! ,lumb]m5--,fall & ,puni%m5t ( a ,fa!r ,oblate--,:at "o ( ! be/ ,fa!r ,oblates ?9ks ( ! ,monks & ! ,mona/]y ,,*apt] ,,xliii4 ,i accept ! hospitality ( ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,brass>d #dej-def ( ,longueuiel--,i ,give my reasons = leav+ ! ,oblates to ,bi%op ,b\rget--,he pres5ts me ) a spl5did ,crucifix bless$ by 8 ,hol9ess = me1 & accepts my s]vices 9 ! cause ( ,temp]ance 9 ! ,diocese ( ,montreal ,,*apt] ,,xliv4 ,prep>ation = ! la/ ,conflict--,wise ,c\nsel1 #deg-dfi ,te>s & ,di/ress ( ,fa!r ,ma!w--,longueuiel ! fir/ to accept ! great re=m ( ,temp]ance--,! :ole ,di/rict ( ,montreal1 ,/4 ,hyac9! & ,?ree ,riv]s ,conqu]$--,! ,city ( ,montreal ) ! ,sulpicians take ! ,pl$ge--,gold ,m$al--,(ficially nam$ ,apo/le ( ,temp]ance 9 ,canada--,gift ( #ejj f ,p>liam5t ,,*apt] ,,xlv4 ,my ,s]mon on ! ,virg9 ,m>y--,complim5ts ( ,bi%op #dgj-dhc ,pr9ce--,/ormy ,night--,fir/ s]i\s d\bts ab\t ! ,*ur* ( ,rome--,fai?ful discussion ) ! ,bi%op--,! ,holy ,fa!rs oppos$ to ! mod]n ,wor%ip ( ! ,virg9--,! ,bran*es ( ! ,v9e ,,*apt] ,,xlvi4 ,! ,holy ,fa!rs--,new m5tal tr\bles at n #dhd-dif f9d+ ! ,doctr9es ( my ,*ur* 9 _! writ+s--,purgatory & ! ,suck+ ,pig ( ! ,poor ,man ( ,v>5nes ,,*apt] ,,xlvii4 ,lett] f ! ,rev4 ,bi%op ,v&eveld ( #dig-eje ,*icago--,va/ project ( ! ,bi%op ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates to take possession ( ! ,ri* ,valley ( ! ,mississippi & ! ,prairies ( ! ,we/1 to rule t ,great ,republic--,!y want to put me at ! head ( ! ,"w--,my ,lecture on ,temp]ance at ,detroit--,intemp]ance ( ! ,bi%ops & ,prie/s ( t ,city ,,*apt] ,,xlviii4 ,my visit to ,*icago 9 #aheg--;,bi%op ,v&eveld--,8 #ejf-eba ,pr$ecessor ,poison$--,magnific5t ,prairies ( ! ,we/--,return to ,canada--,bad ,feel+s ( ,bi%op ,b\rget--,i decl9e s5d+ a ri* ,woman to ! ,nunn]y to enri* ! ,bi%op--,a ,plot to ,de/roy me ,,*apt] ,,xlix4 ,! ,plot to ,de/roy me--,! ,int]dict--,! ,retreat #ebb-ecd at ! ,jesuits' ,college--,! ,lo/ ,girl1 ,employ$ by ! ,bi%op1 retracts--,! ,bi%op ,conf\nd$1 sees 8 ,inju/ice1 makes am5ds--,te/imonial ,lett]s--,! ,*alice--,! ,b5$iction be=e ,i leave ,canada ,,*apt] ,l4 ,address pres5t$ me at ,longueuil--,i arrive at #ece-eda ,*icago--,i select ! spot = my ,colony--,i build ! fir/ ,*apel--,jeal\sy & ,opposition ( ! ,prie/s ( ,b\rbonnais & ,*icago--,great ,success ( ! ,colony ,,*apt] ,,li4 ,intrigues1 ,impo/ures1 & ,crim9al life ( ! #edb-eec ,prie/s 9 ,b\rbonnais--,indignation ( ! ,bi%op--,! ,p ignom9i\sly turn out ! ,crim9al ,prie/s f _! ,p>i%--,frightful ,sc&al--,fai? 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,rome s]i\sly ,%ak5 ,,*apt] ,,lii4 ,correspond5ce ) ! ,bi%op #eed-efi ,,*apt] ,,liii4 ,! ,immaculate ,conception ( ! ,virg9 ,m>y #egj-egi ,,*apt] ,,liv4 ,! ,abom9ation ( ,auricul> ,confession #ehj-fjb ,,*apt] ,,lv4 ,! ,ecclesia/ical ,retreat--,conduct ( ! #fjc-faf ,prie/s--,! ,bi%op ,=bids me to ,di/ribute ! ,bible ,,*apt] ,,lvi4 ,public ,acts ( ,simony--,!fts & ,brig&age ( #fag-fbi ,bi%op ,o',regan--,g5]al ,cry ( ,indignation--,i det]m9e to resi/ him to 8 face--,he employs ,mr4 ,sp9k aga9 to s5d me to ,gaol1 & he fails--,drags me z a ,prison] to ,urbana 9 ! ,spr+ ( #ahef & fails aga9--,abraham ,l9coln def5ds me--,my de> ,bible becomes m ?an ev] my ,light & my ,c\nselor ,,*apt] ,,lvii4 ,bi%op ,o',regan sells ! ,p>sonage ( ! ,fr5* #fcj-fdb ,canadians ( ,*icago1 pockets ! money1 & turns !m out :5 !y come to compla9--,he det]m9es to turn me out ( my ,colony & s5d me to ,kahokia--,he =gets x next day & publi%es t he has ,int]dict$ me--,my ,p s5d a ,deputation to ! ,bi%op--,8 ,answ]s--,! ,%am ,excommunication by ?ree drunk5 ,prie/s ,,*apt] ,,lviii4 ,address f my ,p1 ask+ me to rema9--,i am #fdc-ffg aga9 dragg$ z a prison] by ! ,%]iff to ,urbana--,abraham ,l9coln's anxiety ab\t ! issue ( ! ,prosecution--,my ,di/ress--,! ,rescue--,miss ,philom5a ,m(fat s5t by ,god to save me--,le,belle's ,confession & ,di/ress--,my ,innoc5ce ackn[l$g$--,noble ,words & ,conduct ( ,abraham ,l9coln--,! ,oa? ( ,miss ,philom5a ,m(fat ,,*apt] ,,lix4 ,a mom5t ( ,int]ruption 9 ! ,?read ( my #ffh-fhg 8,fifty ,ye>s 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,rome10 to see h[ my sad ,previsions ab\t my def5d]1 ,abraham ,l9coln1 7 to be realiz$--,rome ! ,implacable ,enemy ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates ,,*apt] ,,lx4 ,! ,fundam5tal ,pr9cipals ( ! ,con/itution ( #fhh-gaj ! ,unit$ ,/ates drawn f ! ,gospel ( ,*ri/--,my fir/ visit to ,abraham ,l9coln to w>n him ( ! ,plots ,i knew aga9/ 8 ,life--,! ,prie/s circulate ! news t ,l9coln 0 born 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,rome--,lett] ( ! ,pope to ,jeff ,davis--,my la/ visit to ! ,presid5t--,8 admirable ref]5ce to ,moses--,8 will+ness to die = 8 ,nation's ,sake ,,*apt] ,,lxi4 ,abraham ,l9coln a true man ( ,god1 & a true #gaa-gce ,disciple ( ! ,gospel--,! ,assass9ation by ,boo?--,! tool ( ! ,prie/s--,john ,surratt's h\se--,! ,r5dezv\s & ,dwell+ ,place ( ! ,prie/s--,john ,surratt ,secret$ by ! ,prie/s aft] ! murd] ( ,l9coln--,! ,assass9ation ( ,l9coln kn[n & publi%$ 9 ! t[n ?ree h\rs be=e its occurr5ce ,,*apt] ,,lxii4 ,deputation ( two ,prie/s s5t by ! ,p & #gcf-gej ! ,bi%ops ( ,canada to p]suade u to submit to ! w ( ! ,bi%op--,! ,deputies ackn[l$ge publicly t ! ,bi%op is wrong & t we are "r--,= peace sake1 ,i cons5t to )draw f ! conte/ on c]ta9 conditions accept$ by ! ,deputies--,"o ( ! ,deputies turns false to 8 promise1 & betrays u1 to be put at ! head ( my ,colony--,my la/ int]view ) him & ,mr4 ,brass>d ,,*apt] ,,lxiii4 ,mr4 ,desaulni] is nam$ ,vic> ,g5]al ( ,*icago #gea-ggc to cru% u--,our ,p m unit$ ?an ev] to def5d _! rights--,lett]s ( ! ,bi%ops ( ,montreal aga9/ me1 & my answ]--,mr4 ,brass>d =c$1 aga9/ 8 consci5ce1 to condemn u--,my answ] to ,mr4 ,brass>d--,he writes to beg my p>don ,,*apt] ,,lxiv4 ,i write to ! ,pope ,pius ,,ix1 & to ,napoleon1 #ggd-ghc ,emp]or ( ,france1 & s5d !m ! ,legal & ,public ,docum5ts prov+ ! bad conduct ( ,bi%op ,o',regan--,gr& ,vic> ,dunn s5t to tell me ( my victory at ,rome1 & ! end ( our tr\ble--,i g to ,dubuque to (f] my submission to ! ,bi%op--,! peace seal$ & publicly proclaim$ by ,gr& ,vic> ,dunn ! #bh? ( ,m>*1 #aheh ,,*apt] ,,lxv4 ,excell5t te/imonial f my ,bi%op--,my #ghd-hjj ,retreat--,gr& ,vic> ,saur9 & 8 assi/ant1 ,rev4 ,m4 ,grang]--,gr& ,vic> ,dunn writes me ab\t ! new /orm prep>$ by ! ,jesuits--,vision--,*ri/ (f]s ,himself z a ,gift--,i am =giv51 ri*1 happy & sav$--,back to my ,p ,,*apt] ,,lxvi4 ,! ,solemn ,responsibilities ( my ,new ,position--,we #hja-hag give up ! ,"n ( ,roman ,ca?olic to call ourselves ,*ri/ian ,ca?olics--,dismay ( ! ,roman ,ca?olic ,bi%ops--,my ,"l ,duggan1 ,coadjutor ( ,/4 ,l\is1 hurri$ to ,*icago--,he comes to ,/4 ,anne to p]suade ! ,p to submit to 8 ,au?ority--,he is ignom9i\sly turn$ out1 & runs away 9 ! mid/ ( ! ,cries ( ! ,p ,,*apt] ,,lxvii4 ,bird's-eye ,view ( ! ,pr9cipal ,ev5ts f my #hah-hcb ,conv]sion to ?is day--,my ,n>r[ ,escapes--,! end ( ! ,voyage ?r\gh ! ,des]t to ! ,promis$ ,l& ,illu/ration ,,*apt] ,i4 ,,! ,,bible ,,& ,,! ,,prie/ ,,( ,,rome4 ,my fa!r1 ,*>les ,*9iquy1 born 9 ,quebec1 _h /udi$ 9 ! ,!ological ,sem9>y ( t city1 to prep>e himself = ! prie/hood4 ,b a few days be=e mak+ 8 v[s1 hav+ be5 ! witness ( a great iniquity 9 ! high qu>t]s ( ! *ur*1 he *ang$ 8 m9d1 /udi$ law & became a not>y4 ,m>ri$ to ,re9e ,p]rault1 daught] ( ,mit*el ,p]rault1 9 #ahjh1 he settl$ at fir/ 9 ,kamoraska1 :]e ,i 0 born on ! #cj? ,july1 #ahji4 ,ab\t f\r or five ye>s lat]1 my p>5ts emigrat$ to ,murray ,bay4 ,t place 0 !n 9 its infancy1 & no s*ool _h yet be5 e/abli%$4 ,my "m 01 !re=e1 my fir/ tea*]4 ,be=e leav+ ! ,sem9>y ( ,quebec my fa!r _h receiv$ f "o ( ! ,sup]iors1 z a tok5 ( 8 e/eem1 a beautiful ,fr5* & ,lat9 ,bible4 ,t ,bible 0 ! fir/ book1 aft] ! ,a ,b ,c1 9 :i* ,i 0 taught to read4 ,my "m select$ ! *apt]s :i* %e consid]$ ! mo/ int]e/+ = me2 & ,i read !m e day ) ! greate/ att5tion & pleasure4 ,i 0 ev5 s mu* pleas$ ) sev]al *apt]s1 t ,i read !m ov] & ov] aga9 till ,i knew !m by he>t4 ,:5 eight or n9e ye>s ( age1 ,i _h le>n$ by he>t ! hi/ory ( ! creation & ! fall ( man2 ! deluge2 ! sacrifice ( ,isaac2 ! hi/ory ( ,moses2 ! plagues ( ,egypt2 ! sublime hymn ( ,moses aft] cross+ ! ,r$ ,sea2 ! hi/ory ( ,samson2 ! mo/ int]e/+ ev5ts ( ! life ( ,david2 sev]al ,psalms2 all ! spee*es & p>ables ( ,*ri/2 & ! :ole hi/ory ( ! suff]+s & dea? ( our ,savi\r z n>rat$ by ,john4 ,i _h two bro!rs1 ,l\is & ,a*ille2 ! fir/ ab\t f\r1 ! second ab\t eight ye>s y\ng] ?an myself4 ,:5 !y 7 sleep+ or play+ toge!r1 h[ _m delici\s h\rs ,i h sp5t by my "m's side1 9 read+ to h] ! sublime pages ( ! div9e book4 ,sometimes %e int]rupt$ me to see if ,i und]/ood :at ,i read2 & :5 my answ]s _h made h] sure t ,i und]/ood x1 %e us$ to kiss me & press me on h] bosom z an expression ( h] joy4 ,"o day1 :ile ,i 0 read+ ! hi/ory ( ! suff]+s ( ! ,savi\r1 my "y he>t 0 s mu* impress$ t ,i c\ld h>dly enunciate ! words1 & my voice trembl$4 ,my "m1 p]ceiv+ my emotion1 tri$ to say some?+ on ! love ( ,jesus = u1 b %e c\ld n utt] a ^w--h] voice 0 suffocat$ by h] sobs4 ,%e lean$ h] head on my =ehead1 & ,i felt two /reams ( te>s fall+ f h] eyes on my *eeks4 ,i c\ld n conta9 myself any long]4 ,i wept also2 & my te>s 7 mix$ ) h]s4 ,! holy book fell f my h&s1 & ,i ?rew myself into my de> "m's arms4 ,no human words c express :at 0 felt 9 h] s\l & 9 m9e 9 t mo/ bless$ h\r6 ,no6 ,i w nev] =get t solemn h\r1 :5 my "m's he>t 0 p]fectly bl5d$ ) m9e at ! feet ( our dy+ ,savi\r4 ,!re 0 a real p]fume f heav5 9 ^? my "m's te>s :i* 7 fl[+ on me4 ,x seem$ !n1 z x does seem to me to-day1 t !re 0 a cele/ial h>mony 9 ! s\nd ( h] voice & 9 h] sobs4 ,?\gh m ?an half a c5tury has pass$ s9ce t solemn h\r :5 ,jesus1 = ! fir/ "t1 reveal$ to me some?+ ( ,8 suff]+ & ( ,8 love1 my he>t leaps ) joy e "t ,i ?9k ( x4 ,we 7 "s di/ance f ! *ur*1 & ! roads1 9 ! ra9y days1 7 v bad4 ,on ! ,sabba? days ! neighbor+ f>m]s1 unable to g to *ur*1 7 accu/om$ to ga!r at our h\se 9 ! ev5+4 ,!n my p>5ts us$ to put me up on a l>ge table 9 ! mid/ ( ! assembly1 & ,i deliv]$ to ^? good p ! mo/ beautiful p>ts ( ! ,old & ,new ,te/am5ts4 ,! brea?less att5tion1 ! applause ( our gue/s1 &--may ,i tell x--(t5 ! te>s ( joy :i* my "m tri$ 9 va9 to conceal1 support$ my /r5g? & gave me ! c\rage ,i want$1 to speak :5 s "y be=e s _m p4 ,:5 my p>5ts saw t ,i 0 gr[+ tir$1 my "m1 :o _h a f9e voice1 sang "s ( ! beautiful ,fr5* hymns ) :i* h] memory 0 fill$4 ,sev]al times1 :5 ! f9e wea!r all[$ me to g to *ur* ) my p>5ts1 ! f>m]s w\ld take me into _! cale*es 7buggies7 at ! door ( ! temple1 & reque/ me to give !m "s *apt] ( ! ,gospel4 ,) a mo/ p]fect att5tion !y li/5$ to ! voice ( ! *ild1 :om ! ,good ,ma/] _h *os5 to give !m ! bread :i* comes f heav54 ,m ?an once1 ,i rememb]1 t :5 ! bell call$ u to ! *ur*1 !y express$ _! regret t !y c\ld n he> m4 ,on "o ( ! beautiful spr+ days ( #ahah1 my fa!r 0 writ+ 9 8 (fice1 & my "m 0 work+ ) h] ne$le1 s++ "o ( h] favorite hymns1 & ,i 0 at ! door1 play+ & talk+ to a f9e rob9 :i* ,i _h s p]fectly tra9$ t he foll[$ me :]ev] ,i w5t4 ,all ( a sudd5 ,i saw ! prie/ com+ ne> ! gate4 ,! sight ( him s5t a ?rill ( uneas9ess ?r\gh my :ole frame4 ,x 0 8 fir/ visit to our home4 ,! prie/ 0 a p]son bel[ ! common /ature1 & _h an unpleasant appe>ance--8 %\ld]s 7 l>ge & he 0 v corpul5t2 8 hair 0 long & uncomb$1 & 8 d\ble *9 seem$ to groan "u ! weight ( 8 flabby *eeks4 ,i ha/ily ran to ! door1 & :isp]$ to my p>5ts1 8,m4 le cure arrive0 78,mr4 ,curate is com+074 ,! la/ s\nd 0 h>dly out ( my lips1 :5 ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,c\rtois 0 at ! door1 & my fa!r1 %ak+ h&s ) him1 gave him a welcome4 ,t prie/ 0 born 9 ,france1 :]e he _h a n>r[ escape1 hav+ be5 condemn$ to dea? "u ! bloody adm9i/ration ( ,robespi]re4 ,he _h f\nd a refuge1 ) _m o!r ,fr5* prie/s 9 ,engl&1 :5ce he came to ,quebec1 & ! bi%op ( t place _h giv5 him ! *>ge ( ! p>i% ( ,murray ,bay4 ,8 conv]sation 0 animat$ & int]e/+ = ! fir/ qu>t] ( an h\r4 ,x 0 a real pleasure to he> him4 ,b ( a sudd5 8 c\nt5ance *ang$ z if a d>k cl\d _h come ov] 8 m9d1 & he /opp$ talk+4 ,my p>5ts _h kept !mselves on a respectful res]ve ) ! prie/4 ,!y seem$ to h no o!r m9d ?an to li/5 to him4 ,! sil5ce :i* foll[$ 0 exce$+ly unpleasant = all ! p>ties4 ,x look$ l ! heavy h\r :i* prec$es a /orm4 ,at l5g? ! prie/1 address+ my fa!r1 said1 8,mr4 ,*9iquy1 is x true t y & y\r *ild read ! ,bible80 8,yes1 sir10 0 ! quick reply1 8my little boy & ,i read ! ,bible1 & :at is /ill bett]1 he has le>n$ by he>t a great numb] ( its mo/ int]e/+ *apt]s4 ,if y w all[ x1 ,mr4 ,curate1 he w give y "s ( !m40 8,i did n come = t purpose10 abruptly repli$ ! prie/2 8b d y n "k t y are =bidd5 by ! holy ,c\ncil ( ,tr5t to read ! ,bible 9 ,fr5*80 8,x makes v little diff]5ce to me :e!r ,i read ! ,bible 9 ,fr5*1 ,greek or ,lat910 answ]$ my fa!r1 8= ,i und]/& ^! languages equally well40 8,b are y ignorant ( ! fact t y _c all[ y\r *ild to read ! ,bible80 repli$ ! prie/4 8,my wife directs h] own *ild 9 ! read+ ( ! ,bible1 & ,i _c see t we commit any s9 by cont9u+ to d 9 future :at we h done till n[ 9 t matt]40 8,mr4 ,*9iquy10 rejo9$ ! prie/1 8y h gone ?r\gh a :ole c\rse ( !ology2 y "k ! duties ( a curate2 y "k x is my pa9ful duty to come "h1 get ! ,bible f y & burn x40 ,my gr&fa!r 0 a fe>less ,spani% sailor 7our orig9al "n 0 ,et*9iquia71 & !re 0 too mu* ,spani% blood & pride 9 my fa!r to he> su* a s5t5ce ) pati5ce 9 8 own h\se4 ,quick z lightn+ he 0 on 8 feet4 ,i press$ myself1 trembl+1 ne> my "m1 :o trembl$ also4 ,at fir/ ,i fe>$ le/ "s v un=tunate & viol5t sc5e %\ld occur2 = my fa!r's ang] at t mom5t 0 really t]rible4 ,b !re 0 ano!r ?+ :i* affect$ me4 ,i fe>$ le/ ! prie/ %\ld lay 8 h&s on my de> ,bible1 :i* 0 j be=e him on ! table2 = x 0 m9e1 z x _h be5 giv5 to me ! la/ ye> z a ,*ri/mas gift4 ,=tunately1 my fa!r _h subdu$ himself aft] ! fir/ mom5t ( 8 ang]4 ,he 0 pac+ ! room ) a d\ble-quick /ep2 8 lips 7 pale & trembl+1 & he 0 mutt]+ betwe5 8 tee? words :i* 7 un9telligible to any "o ( u4 ,! prie/ 0 closely wat*+ all my fa!r's movem5ts2 8 h&s 7 convulsively press+ 8 heavy cane1 & 8 face 0 giv+ ! sure evid5ce ( a too well-gr\nd$ t]ror4 ,x 0 cle> t ! ambassador ( ,rome did n f9d himself infallibly sure ( 8 position on ! gr\nd he _h s fooli%ly *os5 to take2 s9ce 8 la/ words he _h rema9$ z sil5t z a tomb4 ,at la/1 aft] hav+ pac$ ! room = a consid]able "t1 my fa!r sudd5ly /opp$ be=e ! prie/1 & said1 8,sir1 is t all y h to say "h80 8,yes1 sir10 said ! trembl+ prie/4 8,well1 sir10 add$ my fa!r1 8y "k ! door by :i* y ent]$ my h\se2 please take ! same door & g away quickly40 ,! prie/ w5t out imm$iately4 ,i felt an inexpressible joy :5 ,i saw t my ,bible 0 safe4 ,i ran to my fa!r's neck1 kiss$ & ?ank$ him = 8 victory4 ,& to pay him1 9 my *ildi% way1 ,i jump$ ^u ! l>ge table & recit$1 9 my be/ /yle1 ! fight betwe5 ,david & ,golia?4 ,( c\rse1 9 my m9d1 my fa!r 0 ,david & ! prie/ ( ,rome 0 ! giant :om ! little /one f ! brook _h /rick5 d[n4 ,?\ kn[e/1 ,o ,god1 t x is to t ,bible1 read on my "m's knees1 ,i owe1 by ?y inf9ite m]cy1 ! k ( ! tru? to-day2 t ,bible _h s5t1 to my "y he>t & intellig5ce1 rays ( light :i* all ! sophisms & d>k errors ( ,rome c\ld nev] completely ext+ui%4 ,,*apt] ,,ii4 ,,my ,,fir/ ,,s*ool-,,days ,,at ,,/4 ,,?omas--,,! ,,monk ,,& ,,celibacy4 ,9 ! mon? ( ,june1 #ahah1 my p>5ts s5t me to an excell5t s*ool at ,/4 ,?omas4 ,"o ( my "m's si/]s resid$ !re1 :o 0 ! wife ( an indu/ri\s mill]1 call$ ,/eph5 ,es*5ba*4 ,!y _h no *ildr51 & !y receiv$ me z _! own son4 ,! beautiful village ( ,/4 ,?omas _h already1 at t "t1 a consid]able population4 ,! two f9e riv]s :i* unite _! rapid wat]s 9 its v mid/ be=e !y fall into ! magnific5t bas9 f :i* !y fl[ into ! ,/4 ,lawr5ce1 suppli$ ! wat]-p[] = sev]al mills & factories4 ,!re 0 9 ! village a consid]able trade 9 gra91 fl\r & lumb]4 ,! fi%]ies 7 v pr(itable1 & ! game 0 abundant4 ,life 0 really pleasant & easy4 ,! families ,ta*ez1 ,cazeault1 ,f\rni]1 ,dubord1 ,fre*ette1 ,tetu1 ,dupuis1 ,c\ill>d1 ,dub]ges1 :i* 7 among ! mo/ anci5t & notable ( ,canada1 7 at ! head ( ! intellectual & mat]ial movem5ts ( ! place1 & !y 7 a real honor to ! ,fr5* ,canadian "n4 ,i met !re ) "o ( my ance/ors on my "m's side ^: "n 0 ,f4 ,am\r des ,pla9es4 ,he 0 an old & brave soldi]1 & w\ld sometimes %[ u ! num]\s w\nds he _h receiv$ 9 ! battles 9 :i* he _h f\ght = 8 c\ntry4 ,?\gh ne>ly eighty ye>s old1 he sang to u ! songs ( ! good old times ) all ! vivacity ( a "y man4 ,! s*ool ( ,mr4 ,all5 ,jones1 to :i* ,i _h be5 s5t1 0 wor?y ( its wide-spread reputation4 ,i h nev] kn[n & tea*] :o des]v$ m1 or :o enjoy$ 9 a high] degree1 ! respect & confid5ce ( 8 pupils4 ,he 0 born 9 ,engl&1 & belong$ to "o ( ! mo/ respectable families !re4 ,he _h receiv$ ! be/ education :i* ,engl& c\ld give to h] sons4 ,aft] hav+ gone ?r\gh a p]fect c\rse ( /udy at home1 he _h gone to ,p>is1 :]e he _h also complet$ an academical c\rse4 ,he 0 p]fectly ma/] ( ! ,fr5* & ,engli% languages4 ,& x 0 n )\t good reasons t he 0 surr\nd$ by a great numb] ( s*ol>s f e corn] ( ,canada4 ,! *ildr5 ( ! be/ families ( ,/4 ,?omas 7 ) me1 att5d+ ! s*ool ( ,mr4 ,jones4 ,b he 0 a ,prote/ant1 ! prie/ 0 mu* oppos$ to him1 & e ef=t 0 made by t prie/ to induce my relatives to take me away f t s*ool & s5d me to "o "u 8 c>e4 ,! "n ( ! prie/ 0 ,lorang]4 ,he _h a sw>?y c\nt5ance1 & 9 p]son 0 lean & tall4 ,8 prea*+ _h no attraction1 & he 0 f> f be+ popul> among ! intellig5t "p ( ! p ( ,/4 ,?omas4 ,dr4 ,ta*ez1 ^: high capacity aft]w>ds br\ght him to ! head ( ! ,canadian ,gov]nm5t1 0 ! lead+ man ( ,/4 ,?omas4 ,be+ unit$ by ! bonds ( a s9c]e fri5d%ip ) 8 nephew1 ,l4 ,cazeault1 :o 0 aft]w>d plac$ at ! head ( ! ,univ]sity ( ,laval1 9 ,quebec1 ,i _h _m opportunities ( go+ to ! h\se ( ,mr4 ,ta*ez1 :]e my "y fri5d 0 bo>d+4 ,9 ^? days1 ,dr4 ,ta*ez _h no ne$ ( ! influ5ce ( ! prie/s1 & he frequ5tly gave v5t to 8 supreme contempt = !m4 ,once a week !re 0 a meet+ 9 8 h\se ( ! pr9cipal citiz5s ( ,/4 ,?omas1 :]e ! highe/ que/ions ( hi/ory & religion 7 freely & w>mly discuss$2 b ! premises z well z ! conclusion ( ^! discussions 7 inv>iably adv]se to ! prie/s & religion ( ,rome1 & too (t5 to e =m ( ,*ri/ianity4 ,?\gh ^! meet+s _h n entirely ! "* or exclusiv5ess ( secret societies1 !y 7 secret to a great ext5t4 ,my fri5d ,cazeault 0 punctual 9 tell+ me ! days & h\rs ( ! meet+1 & ,i us$ to g ) him to an adjo9+ room1 f :i* we c\ld he> ev]y?+ )\t be+ suspect$4 ,f :at ,i he>d & saw 9 ^! meet+s1 ,i mo/ c]ta9ly w\ld h be5 ru9$1 _h n ! ,^w ( ,god1 ) :i* my "m _h fill$ my "y m9d & he>t1 be5 my %ield & /r5g?4 ,i 0 (t5 /ruck ) t]ror & fill$ ) disgu/ at :at ,i he>d at ^? meet+s4 ,b :at a /range & deplorable ?+6 ,my consci5ce 0 condemn+ me e "t ,i li/5$ to ^! impi\s discussions1 :ile !re 0 a /rong crav+ 9 me to he> !m t ,i c\ld n resi/4 ,!re 0 !n 9 ,/4 ,?omas a p]sonage :o 0 unique 9 8 "*4 ,he nev] mix$ ) ! society ( ! village1 b 01 nev]!less1 ! object ( mu* respectful att5tion & inquiry f e "o4 ,he 0 "o ( ! =m] monks ( ,canada1 kn[n "u ! "n ( ,capuc9 or ,recollets1 :om ! conque/ ( ,canada by ,great ,brita9 _h =c$ to leave _! mona/]y4 ,he 0 a clockmak]1 & liv$ honorably by 8 trade4 ,8 little :ite h\se1 9 ! v mid/ ( ! village1 0 ! p]fection ( neatness4 ,bro!r ,m>k1 z he 0 call$1 0 a rem>kably well-built man2 high /ature1 l>ge & spl5did %\ld]s1 & ! mo/ beautiful h&s ,i ev] saw4 ,8 long black robe1 ti$ ar\nd 8 wai/ by a :ite sa%1 0 rem>kable = its cleanl9ess4 ,8 life 0 really a solit>y "o1 always alone ) 8 own si/]1 :o kept 8 h\se4 ,e day t ! wea!r 0 propiti\s1 ,bro!r ,m>k sp5t a c\ple ( h\rs 9 fi%+1 & z ,i 0 myself exce$+ly fond ( t ex]cise1 ,i us$ to meet him (t5 along ! banks ( ! beautiful riv]s ( ,/4 ,?omas4 ,8 pres5ce 0 always a good om5 to me2 = he 0 m exp]t ?an ,i 9 f9d+ ! be/ places = fi%+4 ,z soon z he f\nd a place :]e ! fi% 0 abundant1 he w\ld make signs to me1 or call me at ! top ( 8 voice t ,i might %>e 9 8 good luck4 ,i appreciat$ 8 delicate att5tion to me1 & repaid him ) ! m>ks ( a s9c]e gratitude4 ,! good monk _h entirely conqu]$ my "y he>t1 & ,i *]i%$ a s9c]e reg>d = him4 ,he (t5 invit$ me to 8 solit>y b neat little home1 & ,i nev] visit$ him )\t receiv+ "s pro(s ( a s9c]e k9dness4 ,8 good si/] rivall$ him 9 ov]:elm+ me ) su* m>ks ( att5tion & love z ,i c\ld only expect f a de> "m4 ,!re 0 a mixture ( timidity & dignity 9 ! mann]s ( bro!r ,m>k :i* ,i h f\nd 9 no "o else4 ,he 0 fond ( *ildr53 & no?+ c\ld be m graceful ?an 8 smile e "t t he c\ld see t ,i appreciat$ 8 k9dness1 & t ,i gave him any pro( ( my gratitude4 ,b t smile1 & any o!r expression ( joy1 7 v transi5t4 ,on a sudd5 he w\ld *ange1 & x 0 obvi\s t a my/]i\s cl\d 0 pass+ ov] 8 he>t4 ,! ,pope _h releas$ ! monks ( ! mona/]y to :i* he belong$1 f _! v[s ( pov]ty & ob$i5ce4 ,! consequ5ce 0 t !y c\ld become sic & ev5 ri*1 by _! own indu/ry4 ,x 0 9 _! p[] to rise to a respectable position 9 ! _w by _! honorable ef=ts4 ,! pope _h giv5 !m ! p]mission !y want$1 t !y might e>n an hone/ liv+4 ,b :at a /range & incr$ible folly to ask ! p]mission ( a pope to be all[$ to live honorably on ! fruits ( "o's own indu/ry6 ,^! poor monks1 hav+ be5 releas$ f _! v[s ( ob$i5ce1 7 no long] ! slaves ( a man3 b 7 n[ p]mitt$ to g to heav5 on ! sole condition t !y w\ld obey ! laws ( ,god & ! laws ( _! c\ntry6 ,b into :at a frightful abyss ( degradation m5 mu/ h fall51 to believe t !y requir$ a lic5se f ,rome = su* a purpose4 ,?is is1 nev]!less1 ! simple & nak$ tru?4 ,t excess ( folly1 & t supreme impiety & degradation are among ! fundam5tal dogmas ( ,rome4 ,! infallible pope assures ! _w t !re is no possible salvation = any "o :o does n s9c]ely believe :at he tea*es 9 ?is matt]4 ,b ! pope :o _h s graci\sly reliev$ ! ,canadian monks f _! v[s ( ob$i5ce & pov]ty1 _h be5 inflexible 9 ref]5ce to _! v[s ( celibacy4 ,f ?is !re 0 no relief4 ,! hone/ desires ( ! good monk to live accord+ to ! laws ( ,god1 ) a wife :om heav5 might h giv5 him1 _h become an impossibility--! pope veto$ x4 ,! un=tunate monk 0 b\nd to believe t he w\ld be =ev] damn$ if he d>$ to accept z a gospel tru? ! ,^w ( ,god :i* says3-- 8,propt] =nicationem antem1 unusquisque uxorem suam habeat1 unaquaque virum suum habeat4 7,vulgate ,bible ( ,rome47 ,nev]!less to avoid =nication let e man h 8 own wife1 & let e woman h h] own husb&40 7#a ,cor41 vii43 #b74 ,t %9+ light :i* ! ,^w conta9s & :i* gives life to man1 0 entirely %ut out f bro!r ,m>k4 ,he 0 n all[$ to "k t ,god himself _h said1 8,x is n good t man %\ld be alone1 ,i w make him an help-meet = him10 7,g54 #b3 #ah74 ,bro!r ,m>k 0 end[$ ) su* a lov+ he>t6 ,he c\ld n be kn[n )\t be+ lov$2 & he mu/ h suff]$ mu* 9 t celibacy :i* 8 fai? 9 ! pope impos$ ^u him4 ,f> away f ! regions ( light1 tru? & life1 t s\l1 ti$ to ! feet ( ! implacable mod]n ,div9ity1 :i* ! ,romani/s wor%ip "u ! "n ( ,sov]eign ,pontiff1 0 try+ 9 va9 to annihilate & de/roy ! in/9cts & affections :i* ,god himself _h implant$ 9 him4 ,"o day1 z ,i 0 amus+ myself1 ) a few o!r "y fri5ds1 ne> ! h\se ( bro!r ,m>k1 sudd5ly we saw some?+ cov]$ ) blood ?r[n f ! w9d[1 & fall+ at a %ort di/ance f u4 ,at ! same in/ant we he>d l\d cries1 evid5tly com+ f ! monk's h\se3 8,o my ,god6 ,h m]cy on me6 ,save me6 ,i am lo/60 ,! si/] ( bro!r ,m>k ru%$ out ( doors & cri$ to "s m5 :o 7 pass+ by3 8,come to our help6 ,my poor bro!r is dy+6 ,= ,god's sake make ha/e1 he is los+ all 8 blood60 ,i ran to ! door1 b ! lady %ut x abruptly & turn$ me out1 say+1 8we d n want *ildr5 "h40 ,i _h a s9c]e affection = ! good bro!r4 ,he _h inv>iably be5 s k9d to me6 ,i insi/$ & respectfully reque/$ to be all[$ to ent]4 ,?\gh "y & weak1 x seem$ t my fri5dly feel+s t[>ds ! suff]+ bro!r w\ld add to my /r5g?1 & enable me to be ( "s s]vice4 ,b my reque/ 0 /]nly reject$1 & ,i _h to g back to ! /reet among ! cr[d :i* 0 fa/ ga!r+4 ,! s+ul> my/]y 9 :i* !y 7 try+ to wrap ! poor monk1 fill$ me ) tr\ble & anxiety4 ,b t tr\ble 0 soon *ang$ into an unspeakable confusion :5 ,i he>d ! convulsive laugh+ ( ! l[ p1 & ! %ameful jokes ( ! cr[d1 aft] ! doctor _h told ! nature ( ! w\nd :i* 0 caus+ ! un=tunate man to ble$ almo/ to dea?4 ,i 0 /ruck ) su* horror t ,i fl$ away2 ,i did n want to "k any m ( t trag$y4 ,i _h already kn[n too mu*6 ,poor bro!r ,m>k _h ceas$ to be a man--he _h become an eunu*4 ,o cruel & ,godless *ur* ( ,rome6 ,h[ _m s\ls ha/ ?\ deceiv$ & tortur$6 ,h[ _m he>ts ha/ ?\ brok5 ) t celibacy :i* ,satan alone c\ld inv5t6 ,?is un=tunate victim ( a mo/ degrad+ religion1 did n1 h[ev]1 die f 8 ra% action2 he soon recov]$ 8 usual heal?4 ,hav+1 mean:ile1 ceas$ to visit him2 "s mon?s lat] ,i 0 fi%+ along ! riv] 9 a v solit>y place4 ,! fi% 7 abundant1 & ,i 0 completely absorb$ 9 cat*+ !m1 :51 on a sudd51 ,i felt on my %\ld] ! g5tle pressure ( a h&4 ,x 0 bro!r ,m>k's4 ,i ?\ght ,i w\ld fa9t ?r\gh ! opposite s5tim5ts ( surprise1 ( pa9 & joy1 :i* at ! same "t cross$ my m9d4 ,) an affectionate & trembl+ voice he said to me1 8,my de> *ild1 :y d y n come to see me any m80 ,i did n d>e to look at him aft] he _h address$ me ^! words4 ,i lik$ him on acc\nt ( 8 acts ( k9dness to me4 ,b ! fatal h\r :51 9 ! /reet be=e ! door1 ,i _h suff]$ s mu* on 8 acc\nt--t fatal h\r 0 on my he>t z a m\nta9 :i* ,i c\ld n put away--,i c\ld n answ] him4 ,he !n ask$ me aga9 ) ! tone ( a crim9al :o sues = m]cy2 8,:y is x my de> *ild1 t y d n come any long] to see me8 ,y "k t ,i love y40 8,de> bro!r ,m>k10 ,i answ]$ 8,i w nev] =get y\r k9dness to me4 ,i w =ev] be grateful to y2 ,i wi% t x w\ld be 9 my p[] to cont9ue1 z =m]ly1 to g & see y4 ,b ,i _c1 & y ought to "k ! reason :y ,i _c40 ,i _h pron\nc$ ^! words ) d[n-ca/ eyes4 ,i 0 a *ild1 ) ! timidity & happy ignorance ( a *ild4 ,b ! action ( t un=tunate man _h /ruck me ) su* a horror t ,i c\ld n ent]ta9 ! idea ( visit+ him any m4 ,he sp5t two or ?ree m9utes )\t say+ a ^w1 & )\t mov+4 ,b ,i he>d 8 sobs & 8 cries1 & 8 cries 7 ^? ( despair & angui%1 ! l ( :i* ,i h nev] he>d s9ce4 ,i c\ld n conta9 myself any long]1 ,i 0 suffocat+ ) suppress$ emotion1 & ,i w\ld h fall5 ins5sible to ! gr\nd if two /reams ( te>s _h n bur/ f my eyes4 ,^? te>s did me good--!y did him good also--!y told him t ,i 0 /ill 8 fri5d4 ,he took me 9 8 arms & press$ me to 8 bosom--8 te>s 7 mix$ ) m9e4 ,b ,i c\ld n speak--! emotions ( my he>t 7 too mu* = my age4 ,i sat on a damp & cold /one1 9 ord] n to fa9t4 ,he fell on 8 knees by my side4 ,ah6 if ,i 7 a pa9t] ,i w\ld make a mo/ /rik+ tableau ( t sc5e4 ,8 eyes1 swoll5 & r$ ) weep+1 7 rais$ to heav51 8 h& lift$ up 9 ! attitude ( supplication2 he 0 cry+ out ) an acc5t :i* seem$ z ?\gh x w\ld break my he>t4 8,mon ,dieu6 ,mon ,dieu que je suis malheureux40 ,my ,god6 ,my ,god6 :at a wret*$ man ,i am6 99 99 99 99 99 ,! tw5ty-five ye>s t ,i h be5 a prie/ ( ,rome1 h reveal$ to me ! fact t ! cries ( desolation ,i he>d t day1 7 b ! e*o ( ! cries ( desolation :i* g out f almo/ e nunn]y1 e p>sonage & e h\se :]e human be+s are b\nd by ! ties ( ! ,romi% ,celibacy4 ,god kn[s t ,i am a fai?ful witness ( :at my eyes h se5 & my e>s h he>d1 :5 ,i say to ! multitudes :i* ! ,*ur* ( ,rome has bewit*$ ) h] en*antm5ts4 ,:]ev] !re are nuns1 monks & prie/s :o live 9 =c$ violation ( ! ways :i* ,god has appo9t$ = man to walk 91 !re are torr5ts ( te>s1 !re are desolat$ he>ts1 !re are cries ( angui% & despair :i* say 9 ! words ( bro!r ,m>k3 8,oh6 que je suis malheureux60 ,oh6 h[ mis]able & wret*$ ,i am6 ,,*apt] ,,iii ,,! ,,confession ,,( ,,*ildr54 ,no words c express to ^? :o h nev] _h any exp]i5ce 9 ! matt]1 ! con/]nation1 anxiety & %ame ( a poor ,romi% *ild1 :5 he he>s1 = ! fir/ "t1 8 prie/ say+ f ! pulpit1 9 a grave & solemn tone1 8,?is week1 y w s5d y\r *ildr5 to confession4 ,make !m und]/& t ?is action is "o ( ! mo/ important ( _! lives1 t = e "o ( !m1 x w decide _! et]nal happ9ess or mis]y4 ,fa!rs & mo!rs1 if1 ?r\gh y\r fault1 or 8 own1 y\r *ild is guilty ( a bad confession--if he conceals 8 s9s & comm5ces ly+ to ! prie/1 :o holds ! place ( ,god himself1 ?is s9 is (t5 irrep>able4 ,! devil w take possession ( 8 he>t3 he w become accu/om$ to lie to 8 fa!r confessor1 or r to ,jesus ,*ri/1 ( :om he is a repres5tative4 ,8 life w be a s]ies ( sacrileges2 8 dea? & et]nity ^? ( ! reprobate4 ,tea* him1 !re=e1 to exam9e ?or\ghly 8 actions1 words & ?\ghts1 9 ord] to confess )\t disguise40 ,i 0 9 ! *ur* ( ,/4 ,?omas :5 ^? words fell ^u me l a ?und]bolt4 ,i _h (t5 he>d my "m say1 :5 at home1 & my aunt1 s9ce ,i _h come to ,/4 ,?omas1 t ^u ! fir/ confession dep5d$ my et]nal happ9ess or mis]y4 ,t week 01 !re=e1 to decide ab\t my et]nity4 ,pale & dismay$1 ,i left ! *ur*1 & return$ to ! h\se ( my relatives4 ,i took my place at ! table1 b c\ld n eat1 s mu* 0 ,i tr\bl$4 ,i w5t to my room = ! purpose ( comm5c+ my exam9ation ( consci5ce & to try to recall my s9ful actions1 words1 & ?\ghts4 ,al?\gh sc>cely ov] t5 ye>s ( age1 ?is task 0 really ov]:elm+ = me4 ,i knelt d[n to pray to ! ,virg9 ,m>y = help2 b ,i 0 s mu* tak5 up ) ! fe> ( =gett+ some?+1 & ( mak+ a bad confession1 t ,i mutt]$ my pray]s )\t ! lea/ att5tion to :at ,i said4 ,x became /ill worse :5 ,i comm5c$ c\nt+ my s9s4 ,my memory became confus$1 my head grew dizzy2 my he>t beat ) a rapidity :i* exhau/$ me1 & my br[ 0 cov]$ ) p]spiration4 ,aft] a consid]able l5g? ( "t sp5t 9 ^! pa9ful ef=ts1 ,i felt bord]+ on despair1 f ! fe> t x 0 impossible = me to rememb] ev]y?+4 ,! night foll[+ 0 almo/ a sleepless "o2 & :5 sleep did come1 x c\ld sc>cely be call$ a sleep1 b a suffocat+ delirium4 ,9 a frightful dream1 ,i felt z if ,i _h be5 ca/ into hell1 = n hav+ confess$ all my s9s to ! prie/4 ,9 ! morn+1 ,i awoke1 fatigu$ & pro/rat$ by ! phantoms ( t t]rible night4 ,9 simil> tr\bles ( m9d 7 pass$ ?ree days :i* prec$$ my fir/ confession4 ,i _h con/antly be=e me ! c\nt5ance ( t /]n prie/ :o _h nev] smil$ ^u me4 ,he 0 pres5t 9 my ?\ghts dur+ ! day1 & 9 my dreams dur+ ! night1 z ! m9i/] ( an angry ,god1 ju/ly irritat$ aga9/ me on acc\nt ( my s9s4 ,=giv5ess _h inde$ be5 promis$ to me1 on condition ( a good confession2 b my place _h also be5 %[n to me 9 hell1 if my confession 0 n z ne> p]fection z possible4 ,n[1 my tr\bl$ consci5ce told me t !re 7 n9ety-n9e *ances aga9/ "o1 t my confession w\ld be bad1 :e!r by my own fault ,i =got "s s9s1 or ,i 0 )\t t contrition ( :i* ,i _h he>d s mu*1 b ! nature & effects ( :i* 7 a p]fect *aos to my m9d4 ,?us x 0 t ! cruel & p]fidi\s ,*ur* ( ,rome took away f my "y he>t ! good & m]ciful ,jesus1 ^: love & compassion _h caus$ me to %$ te>s ( joy :5 ,i 0 beside my "m4 ,! ,savi\r :om t *ur* made me to wor%ip1 ?r\gh fe>1 0 n ! ,savi\r :o call$ little *ildr5 unto ,him1 to bless !m & take !m 9 ,8 arms4 ,h] impi\s h&s 7 soon to torture & defile my *ildi% he>t1 & place me at ! feet ( a pale & sev]e look+ man--wor?y repres5tative ( a pitiless ,god4 ,i 0 made to tremble ) t]ror at ! foot/ool ( an implacable div9ity1 :ile ! gospel ask$ ( me only te>s ( love & joy1 %$ at ! feet ( ! incomp>able ,fri5d ( s9n]s6 ,at l5g? came ! day ( confession2 or r ( judgm5t & condemnation4 ,i pres5t$ myself to ! prie/4 ,mr4 ,lorang] 0 no long] prie/ ( ,/4 ,?omas4 ,he _h be5 succe$$ by ,mr4 ,beaubi51 :o did n favor our s*ool any m ?an 8 pr$ecessor4 ,he _h ev5 tak5 ^u himself to prea* a s]mon aga9/ ! h]etical s*ool1 by :i* we _h be5 excessively w\nd$4 ,8 want ( love = u1 h[ev]1 ,i mu/ say1 0 fully reciprocat$4 ,mr4 ,beaubi5 _h1 !n1 ! defect ( lisp+ & /amm]+4 ,?is we (t5 turn$ into ridicule1 & "o ( my favorite amusem5ts 0 to imitate him1 :i* br\ght bur/s ( laught] f u all4 ,x _h be5 necess>y = me to exam9e myself ^u ! numb] ( times ,i _h mock$ him4 ,?is circum/ance 0 n calculat$ to make my confession easi]1 or m agreeable4 ,at la/ ! dread$ mom5t came4 ,i knelt at ! side ( my confessor4 ,my :ole frame trembl$4 ,i repeat$ ! pray] prep>atory to confession1 sc>cely kn[+ :at ,i said s mu* 0 ,i tr\bl$ ) fe>4 ,by ! in/ructions :i* _h be5 giv5 u be=e confession1 we _h be5 made to believe t ! prie/ 0 ! true repres5tative--yea1 almo/ ! p]sonification ( ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,! consequ5ce 01 t ,i believ$ my greate/ s9 _h be5 t ( mock+ ! prie/4 ,hav+ always be5 told t x 0 be/ to confess ! greate/ s9 fir/1 ,i comm5c$ ?us3 8,fa!r ,i accuse myself ( hav+ mock$ a prie/40 ,sc>cely _h ,i utt]$ ^! words1 8mock$ a prie/10 :5 ?is pret5d$ repres5tative ( ! humble ,savi\r1 turn+ t[>ds me1 & look+ 9 my face 9 ord] to "k me bett]1 ask$ abruptly1 8,:at prie/ did y mock1 my boy80 ,i w\ld r h *os5 to cut out my tongue ?an to tell him to 8 face :o x 04 ,i !re=e kept sil5t = a :ile4 ,b my sil5ce made him v n]v\s & almo/ angry4 ,) a haughty tone ( voice he said1 8,:at prie/ did y take ! lib]ty ( ?us mock+80 ,i saw t ,i _h to answ]4 ,happily 8 haught9ess _h made me firm] & bold]4 ,i said 8,sir1 y are ! prie/ :om ,i mock$40 8,b h[ _m times did y take ^u y to mock me1 my boy80 8,i tri$ to f9d out10 ,i answ]$1 8b nev] c\ld40 8,y mu/ tell me h[ _m times2 = to mock "o's own prie/ is a great s940 8,x is impossible = me to give y ! numb] ( times10 answ]$ ,i4 8,well1 my *ild1 ,i w help y\r memory by ask+ y que/ions4 ,tell me ! tru?4 ,d y ?9k y h mock$ me t5 times80 8,a great _m times m1 sir40 8,fifty times80 8,_m m /ill40 8,a hundr$ times80 8,say five hundr$ times & p]haps m10 answ]$ ,i4 8,:y1 my boy1 d y sp5d all y\r "t 9 mock+ me80 8,n all2 b un=tunately ,i d x v (t540 8,well may y say un=tunately2 = s to mock y\r prie/1 :o holds ! place ( our ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/1 is a great mis=tune1 & a great s9 = y4 ,b tell me1 my little boy1 :at reason h y = mock+ me ?us80 ,9 my exam9ations ( consci5ce ,i _h n =ese5 t ,i %\ld be oblig$ to give ! reasons = mock+ ! prie/2 & ,i 0 really ?und]/ruck by 8 que/ions4 ,i d>$ n answ]1 & ,i rema9$ = a long "t dumb1 f ! %ame t ov]p[]$ me4 ,b ) a h>rass+ p]sev]ance ! prie/ insi/$ on my tell+ :y ,i _h mock$ him2 tell+ me t ,i %\ld be damn$ if ,i did n tell ! :ole tru?4 ,s ,i decid$ to speak1 & said1 8,i mock$ y = sev]al ?+s40 8,:at made y fir/ mock me80 cont9u$ ! prie/4 8,i laugh$ at y because y lisp$4 ,among ! pupils ( our s*ool1 x (t5 happ5s t we imitate y\r prea*+ to excite laught]40 8,h y (t5 done t80 8,almo/ e day1 especially 9 our holidays1 & s9ce y prea*$ aga9/ u40 8,= :at o!r reasons did y laugh at me1 my little boy80 ,= a long "t ,i 0 sil5t4 ,e "t ,i op5$ my m\? to speak c\rage fail$ me4 ,h[ev]1 ! prie/ cont9u+ to urge me1 ,i said at la/1 8,x is rumor$ 9 t[n t y love girls2 t y visit ! ,misses ,ri*>ds e ev5+1 & ?is (t5 makes u laugh40 ,! poor prie/ 0 evid5tly ov]:elm$ by my answ]1 & ceas$ que/ion+ me on ?is subject4 ,*ang+ ! conv]sation1 he said3 8,:at are y\r o!r s9s80 ,i began to confess !m 9 ! ord] 9 :i* !y came to my memory4 ,b ! feel+ ( %ame :i* ov]p[]$ me 9 repeat+ all my s9s to ?is man 0 a ?\s& times great] ?an t ( hav+ (f5d$ ,god4 ,9 reality ?is feel+ ( human %ame :i* absorb$ my ?\ght--nay1 my :ole be+--left no room = any religi\s feel+ at all4 ,:5 ,i _h confess$ all ! s9s ,i c\ld rememb]1 ! prie/ began to ask me ! /range/ que/ions on matt]s ab\t :i* my p5 mu/ be sil5t4 ,i repli$1 8,fa!r1 ,i d n und]/& :at y ask me40 8,i "q y on ! six? comm&m5t 7sev5? 9 ! ,bible74 ,confess all4 ,y w g to hell1 if ?r\gh y\r fault y omit any?+40 ,!reupon he dragg$ my ?\ghts to regions :i*1 ?ank ,god _h hi!rto be5 unkn[n to me4 ,i answ]$ him3 8,i d n und]/& y10 or 8,i h nev] done ^! ?+s40 ,!n1 skilfully %ift+ to "s second>y matt]1 he w\ld soon slyly & cunn+ly come back to 8 favorite subject1 namely1 s9s ( lic5ti\sness4 ,8 que/ions 7 s unclean t ,i blu%$1 & felt sick ) disgu/ & %ame4 ,m ?an once ,i _h be51 to my regret1 9 ! company ( bad boys2 b n "o ( !m has (f5d$ my moral nature s mu* z ?is prie/ _h done4 ,n "o ( !m _h ev] approa*$ ! %ad[ ( ! ?+s f :i* t man tore ! veil1 & :i* he plac$ be=e ! eye ( my s\l4 ,9 va9 did ,i tell him t ,i 0 n guilty ( su* ?+s2 t ,i did n ev5 und]/& :at he ask$ me2 he w\ld n let me (f4 ,l ! vulture b5t ^u te>+ ! poor bird t falls into 8 claws1 t cruel prie/ seem$ det]m9$ to defile & ru9 my he>t4 ,at la/ he ask$ me a "q 9 a =m ( expression s bad t ,i 0 really pa9$4 ,i felt z if ,i _h receiv$ a %ock f an electric batt]y2 a feel+ ( horror made me %udd]4 ,i 0 s fill$ ) indignation t1 speak+ l\d en\gh to be he>d by _m1 ,i told him3 8,sir1 ,i am v wick$2 ,i h se51 he>d & done _m ?+s :i* ,i regret2 b ,i nev] 0 guilty ( :at y m5tion to me4 ,my e>s h nev] he>d any?+ s wick$ z :at !y h he>d f y\r lips4 ,please d n ask me any m ( ^? que/ions2 d n tea* me any m evil ?an ,i already "k40 ,! rema9d] ( my confession 0 %ort4 ,! firmness ( my voice _h evid5tly fright5$ ! prie/1 & made him blu%4 ,he /opp$ %ort & began to give me "s good advice1 :i* might h be5 useful to me if ! deep w\nds :i* 8 que/ions _h inflict$ ^u my s\l _h n s absorb$ my ?\ghts z to prev5t me f giv+ att5tion to :at he said4 ,he gave me a %ort p5ance & dismiss$ me4 ,i left ! confessional irritat$ & confus$4 ,f ! %ame ( :at ,i _h j he>d f ! m\? ( t prie/ ,i d>$ n lift my eyes f ! gr\nd4 ,i w5t into a retir$ corn] ( ! *ur* to d my p5ance2 t is1 to recite ! pray]s he _h indicat$ to me4 ,i rema9$ = a long "t 9 *ur*4 ,i _h ne$ ( a calm aft] ! t]rible trial ?r\gh :i* ,i _h j pass$4 ,b va9ly ,i s\ght = re/4 ,! %ameful que/ions :i* _h be5 ask$ me1 ! new _w ( iniquity into :i* ,i _h be5 introduc$1 ! impure phantoms by :i* my *ildi% he>t _h be5 defil$1 confus$ & tr\bl$ my m9d s /rangely t ,i began to weep bitt]ly4 ,:y ^? te>s8 ,:y t desolation8 ,i wept ov] my s9s8 ,alas6 ,i confess x ) %ame1 my s9s did n call =? ^? te>s4 ,& yet h[ _m s9s _h ,i already committ$1 = :i* ,jesus %$ 8 preci\s blood4 ,b ,i confess my s9s 7 n ! cause ( my desolation4 ,i 0 r ?9k+ ( my "m1 :o _h tak5 su* good c>e ( me1 & :o _h s well succe$$ 9 keep+ away f my ?\ghts ^? impure =ms ( s91 ! ?\ghts ( :i* _h j n[ defil$ my he>t4 ,i said to myself1 ,ah6 if my "m _h he>d ^? que/ions2 if %e c\ld see ! evil ?\ghts :i* ov]:elm me at ?is mom5t--if %e knew to :at s*ool %e s5t me :5 %e advis$ me 9 h] la/ lett] to g to confession1 h[ h] te>s w\ld m+le ) m9e6 ,x seem$ to me t my "m w\ld love me no m--t %e w\ld see writt5 ^u my br[ ! pollution ) :i* t prie/ _h pr(an$ my s\l4 ,p]haps ! feel+ ( pride 0 :at made me weep4 ,or p]haps ,i wept because ( a remnant ( t feel+ ( orig9al dignity ^: traces _h /ill be5 left 9 me4 ,i felt s d[nca/ by ! disappo9tm5t ( be+ remov$ f>!r f ! ,savi\r by t confessional :i* _h promis$ to br+ me ne>] to ,him4 ,god only kn[s :at 0 ! dep? ( my sorr[ at feel+ myself m defil$ & m guilty aft] ?an be=e my confession4 ,i left ! *ur* only :5 =c$ to d s by ! %ades ( night1 & came to my uncle's h\se ) t feel+ ( uneas9ess caus$ by ! consci\sness ( hav+ done a bad action1 & by ! fe> ( be+ discov]$4 ,?\gh ?is uncle1 z well z mo/ ( ! pr9cipal citiz5s ( ! village ( ,/4 ,?omas1 _h ! "n ( be+ a ,roman ,ca?olic1 yet he did n believe a ^w ( ! doctr9es ( ! ,roman ,*ur*4 ,he laugh$ at ! prie/s1 _! masses1 _! purgatory1 & especially _! confession4 ,he did n conceal t :5 "y1 he _h be5 sc&aliz$ by ! words & actions ( a prie/ 9 ! confessional4 ,he spoke to me je/+ly4 ,?is increas$ my tr\ble & my grief4 8,n[10 said he 8y w be a good boy4 ,b if y h he>d z _m new ?+s z ,i did ! fir/ "t ,i w5t to confess1 y are a v le>n$ boy20 & he bur/ into laught]4 ,i blu%$ & rema9$ sil5t4 ,my aunt1 :o 0 a devot$ ,roman ,ca?olic1 said to me1 8,y\r he>t is reliev$1 is x n1 s9ce y confess$ all y\r s9s80 ,i gave h] an evasive answ]1 b ,i c\ld n conceal ! sadness t ov]came me4 ,i ?\ght ,i 0 ! only "o f :om ! prie/ _h ask$ ^? pollut+ que/ions4 ,b great 0 my surprise1 on ! foll[+ day1 :5 go+ to s*ool ,i le>n$ t my fell[ pupils _h n be5 happi] ?an ,i _h be54 ,! only diff]5ce 01 t in/ead ( be+ griev$1 !y laugh$ at x4 8,did ! prie/ ask y su* & su* que/ions80 !y w\ld dem& laugh+ boi/]\sly4 ,i refus$ to reply1 & said1 8,are y n a%am$ to speak ( ^! ?+s80 8,ah6 ah6 h[ v scrupul\s y are10 cont9u$ !y4 8,if x is n a s9 = ! prie/ to speak to u on ^! matt]s1 h[ c x be a s9 = u80 ,i /opp$1 conf\nd$1 n kn[+ :at to say4 ,i soon p]ceiv$ t ev5 ! "y s*ool girls _h n be5 less pollut$ & sc&aliz$ by ! que/ions ( ! prie/ ?an ! boys4 ,al?\gh keep+ at a di/ance1 su* z to prev5t u f he>+ all !y said1 ,i c\ld und]/& en\gh to conv9ce me t !y _h be5 ask$ ab\t ! same que/ions4 ,"s ( !m appe>$ indignant1 :ile o!rs laugh$ he>tily4 ,i %\ld be misund]/ood 7 x suppos$ t ,i mean to convey ! idea t ?is prie/ 0 m to blame ?an o!rs1 or t he did m ?an fulfil ! duties ( 8 m9i/ry 9 ask+ ^! que/ions4 ,su*1 h[ev]1 0 my op9ion at ! "t1 & ,i dete/$ t man ) all my he>t until ,i knew bett]4 ,i _h be5 unju/ t[>ds him1 = ?is prie/ _h only done 8 duty4 ,he 0 only obey+ ! ,pope & 8 !ologians4 ,8 be+ a prie/ ( ,rome 01 !re=e1 less 8 crime ?an 8 mis=tune4 ,he 01 z ,i h be5 myself1 b\nd h& & foot at ! feet ( ! greate/ enemy t ! hol9ess & tru? ( ,god h ev] _h on e>?--! ,pope4 ,! mis=tune ( ,mr4 ,beaubi51 l t ( all ! prie/s ( ,rome1 0 t ( hav+ b\nd himself by t]rible oa?s n to ?9k = himself1 or to use ! light ( 8 own reason4 ,_m ,roman ,ca?olics1 ev5 _m ,prote/ants1 refuse to believe ?is4 ,x is1 not)/&+1 a sad tru?4 ,! prie/ ( ,rome is an automaton--a ma*9e :i* acts1 ?9ks & speaks 9 matt]s ( morals & ( fai?1 only accord+ to ! ord] & ! w ( ! ,pope & 8 !ologians4 ,_h ,mr4 ,beaubi5 be5 left to himself1 he 0 naturally too mu* ( a g5tleman to ask su* que/ions4 ,b no d\bt he _h read ,liguori1 ,d5s1 ,debreyne1 au?ors approv$ by ! ,pope1 & he 0 oblig$ to take d>kness = light1 & vice = virtue4 ,,*apt] ,,iv ,,! ,,%eph]d ,,:ipp$ ,,by ,,8 ,,%eep4 ,%ortly aft] ! trial ( auricul> confession1 my "y fri5d1 ,l\is ,cazeault1 acco/$ me on a beautiful morn+ & said1 8,d y "k :at happ5$ la/ night80 8,no10 ,i answ]$4 8,:at 0 ! wond]80 8,y "k t our prie/ sp5ds almo/ all 8 ev5+s at ,mr4 ,ri*>ds' h\se4 ,ev]ybody ?9ks t he goes !re = ! sake ( ! two daught]s4 ,well1 9 ord] to cure him ( t disease1 my uncle1 ,dr4 ,ta*e1 & six o!rs1 mask$1 :ipp$ him )\t m]cy z he 0 com+ back at elev5 o'clock at night4 ,x is already kn[n by e "o 9 ! village1 & !y split _! sides ) laugh+40 ,my fir/ feel+ on he>+ t news1 0 "o ( joy4 ,ev] s9ce my fir/ confession ,i felt angry e "t ,i ?\ght ( t prie/4 ,8 que/ions _h s w\nd$ me t ,i c\ld n =give him4 ,i _h en\gh ( self-control1 h[ev]1 to conceal my pleasure & ,i answ]$ my fri5d3 8,y are tell+ me a wick$ /ory2 ,i c't believe a ^w ( x40 8,well10 said "y ,cazeault1 8come at eight o'clock ?is ev5+ to my uncle's4 ,a secret meet+ is to take place !n4 ,no d\bt !y w speak ( ! pill giv5 to ! prie/ la/ night4 ,we %all place ourselves 9 our little room z usual & %all he> ev]y?+1 our pres5ce n be+ suspect$4 ,y may be sure t x w be int]e/+40 8,i w g10 ,i answ]$1 8b ,i d n believe a ^w ( t /ory40 ,i w5t to s*ool at ! usual h\r4 ,mo/ ( ! pupils _h prec$$ me4 ,divid$ into gr\ps ( eight or t51 !y 7 engag$ 9 a mo/ lively conv]sation4 ,bur/s ( convulsive laught] 7 he>d f e corn]4 ,i c\ld v well see t some?+ uncommon _h tak5 place 9 ! village4 ,i approa*$ sev]al ( ^! gr\ps1 & all receiv$ me ) ! "q3 8,d y "k t ! prie/ 0 :ipp$ la/ night z he 0 com+ f ! ,misses ,ri*>ds'80 8,t is a /ory inv5t$ = fun10 said ,i4 8,y 7 n !re to see him1 7 y8 ,y !re=e "k no?+ ab\t x2 = if anybody _h :ipp$ ! prie/ he w\ld n surely boa/ ( x40 8,b we he>d 8 screams10 answ]$ _m voices4 8,:at6 0 he !n scream+ out80 ,i ask$4 8,he %\t$ at ! top ( 8 voice1 #8,help1 help6 ,murd]6'0 8,b y 7 surely mi/ak5 ab\t ! voice10 said ,i4 8,x 0 n ! prie/ :o %\t$1 x 0 somebody else4 ,i c\ld nev] believe t anybody w\ld :ip a prie/ 9 su* a cr[d$ village40 8,b0 said sev]al1 8we ran to 8 help & we recogniz$ ! prie/'s voice4 ,he is ! only "o :o lisps 9 ! village40 8,& we saw him ) our own eyes10 said sev]al4 ,! s*ool bell put an end to ?is conv]sation4 ,z soon z s*ool 0 out ,i return$ to ! h\se ( my relatives1 n wi%+ to le>n any m ab\t ?is matt]4 ,al?\gh ,i did n l ?is prie/1 yet ,i 0 mu* mortifi$ by "s rem>ks :i* ! old] pupils made ab\t him4 ,b x 0 difficult n to he> any m4 ,on my arrival home ,i f\nd my uncle & aunt engag$ 9 a v w>m debate on ! subject4 ,my uncle wi%$ to conceal ! fact t he 0 among ^? :o _h :ipp$ him4 ,b he gave ! details s precisely1 he 0 s m]ry ov] ! adv5ture1 t x 0 easy to see t he _h a h& 9 ! plot4 ,my aunt 0 indignant1 & us$ ! mo/ en]getic expressions to %[ h] disapprobation4 ,t bitt] debate annoy$ me s t ,i did n /ay long to he> x all4 ,i )drew to my /udy4 ,dur+ ! rema9d] ( ! day ,i *ang$ my resolution _m times ab\t my go+ to ! secret meet+ 9 ! ev5+4 ,at "o mom5t ,i w\ld decide firmly n to g4 ,my consci5ce told me t1 z usual1 ?+s w\ld be utt]$ :i* x 0 n good = me to he>4 ,i _h refus$ to g to ! two la/ meet+s1 & a sil5t voice1 z x 71 told me ,i _h done well4 ,!n a mom5t aft] ,i 0 torm5t$ by ! desire to "k precisely :at _h tak5 place ! ev5+ be=e4 ,! flagellation ( a prie/ 9 ! mid/ ( a l>ge village 0 a fact too wor?y ( note to fail to excite ! curiosity ( a *ild4 ,besides1 my av]sion to ! prie/1 ?\gh ,i conceal$ x z well z ,i c\ld1 made me wi% to "k :e!r ev]y?+ 0 true on ! subject ( ! *a/isem5t4 ,b 9 ! /ruggle betwe5 good & evil :i* took place 9 my m9d dur+ t day1 ! evil 0 f9ally to triumph4 ,a qu>t] ( an h\r be=e ! meet+ my fri5d came to me & said3 8,make ha/e1 ! memb]s ( ! association are com+40 ,at ?is call all my good resolutions vani%$4 ,i hu%$ ! voice ( my consci5ce1 & a few m9utes lat] ,i 0 plac$ 9 an angle ( t little room1 :]e = m ?an two h\rs ,i le>n$ _m /range & sc&al\s ?+s ab\t ! lives ( ! prie/s ( ,canada4 ,dr4 ,ta*e presid$4 ,he op5$ ! meet+ 9 a l[ tone ( voice4 ,at ! beg9n+ ( 8 disc\rse ,i _h "s difficulty to und]/& :at he said4 ,he spoke z "o :o fe>$ to be ov]he>d :5 disclos+ a secret to a fri5d4 ,b aft] a few prelim9>y s5t5ces he =got ! rule ( prud5ce :i* he _h impos$ ^u himself1 & spoke ) en]gy & p[]4 ,mr4 ,eti5ne ,ta*e 0 naturally eloqu5t4 ,he seem$ to speak on no "q except "u ! influ5ce ( ! deepe/ conviction ( its tru?4 ,8 spee* 0 passionate1 & ! tone ( 8 voice cle> & agreeable4 ,8 %ort & cutt+ s5t5ces did n rea* ! e> only2 !y p5etrat$ ev5 ! secret folds ( ! s\l4 ,he spoke 9 sub/ance z foll[s3 8,g5tlem53--,i am happy to see y "h m num]\sly ?an ev]4 ,! grave ev5ts ( la/ night h1 no d\bt1 decid$ _m ( y to att5d debates :i* "s began to =sake1 b ! importance ( :i*1 x seems to me1 increases day by day4 8,! "q debat$ 9 our la/ meet+--#8,! ,prie/s'--is "o ( life & dea?1 n only = our "y & beautiful ,canada1 b 9 a moral po9t ( view x is a "q ( life & dea? = our families1 & = e "o ( u 9 p>ticul>4 8,!re is1 ,i "k1 only "o op9ion among u on ! subject ( prie/s2 & ,i am glad t ?is op9ion is n only t ( all educat$ m5 9 ,canada1 b also ( le>n$ ,france2 nay1 ( ! :ole _w4 ,! reign ( ! prie/ is ! reign ( ignorance1 ( corruption1 & ( ! mo/ b>efac$ immorality1 "u ! mask ( ! mo/ ref9$ hypocrisy4 ,! reign ( ! prie/ is ! dea? ( our s*ools2 x is ! degradation ( our wives1 ! pro/itution ( our daught]s2 x is ! reign ( tyranny--! loss ( lib]ty4 8,we h only "o good s*ool1 ,i w n say 9 ,/4 ,?omas1 b 9 all our c\nty4 ,?is s*ool 9 our mid/ is a great honor to our village4 ,n[ see ! en]gy ) :i* all ! prie/s :o come "h "w = ! clos+ ( t s*ool4 ,!y use e means to de/roy t focus ( light :i* we h />t$ ) s mu* difficulty1 & :i* we support by s _m sacrifices4 8,) ! prie/ ( ,rome our *ildr5 d n belong to u2 he is _! ma/]4 ,let me expla94 ,! prie/ honors u ) ! belief t ! bodies1 ! fle% & bones ( our *ildr51 are ours1 & t our duty 9 consequ5ce is to clo! & fe$ !m4 ,b ! nobl] & m sacr$ "p1 namely1 ! intellect1 ! he>t1 ! s\l1 ! prie/ claims z 8 own patrimony1 8 own prop]ty4 ,! prie/ has ! audacity to tell u t to him alone x belongs to enlight5 ^? intellig5ces1 to =m ^? he>ts1 to fa%ion ^? s\ls z x may be/ suit him4 ,he has ! impud5ce to tell u t we are too silly or p]v]se to "k our duties 9 ?is respect4 ,we h n ! "r ( *oos+ our s*ool tea*]s4 ,we h n ! "r to s5d a s+le ray ( light into ^? intellects1 or to give to ^? s\ls :o hung] & ?ir/ aft] tru? a s+le crumb ( t food prep>$ ) s mu* wisdom & success by enlight5$ m5 ( all ages4 8,by ! confessional ! prie/s poison ! spr+s ( life 9 our *ildr54 ,!y initiate !m into su* my/]ies ( iniquity z w\ld t]rify old galley slaves4 ,by _! que/ions !y reveal to !m secrets ( a corruption su* z c>ries its g]ms ( dea? into ! v m>r[ ( _! bones1 & t f ! e>lie/ ye>s ( _! infancy4 ,be=e ,i 0 fifte5 ye>s old ,i _h le>n$ m real blackgu>d ism f ! m\? ( my confessor ?an ,i h le>n$ ev] s9ce 9 my /udies & 9 my life z a physician = tw5ty ye>s4 8,a few days ago ,i que/ion$ my little nephew1 ,l\is ,cazeault1 ^u :at he _h le>n$ 9 8 confession4 ,he answ]$ me +5u\sly1 & repeat$ ?+s to me :i* ,i w\ld be a%am$ to utt] 9 y\r pres5ce1 & :i* y1 fa!rs ( families1 c\ld n li/5 to )\t blu%+4 ,& j ?9k1 t n only ( little boys are ^? que/ions ask$1 b also ( our de> little girls4 ,are we n ! mo/ degrad$ ( m5 if we d n set ourselves to "w 9 ord] to break ! iron yoke "u :i* ! prie/ keeps our de> c\ntry1 & by means ( :i* he keeps u1 ) our wives & *ildr51 at 8 feet l vile slaves6 8,:ile speak+ to y ( ! delet]i\s effect ( ! confessional ^u our *ildr51 %all ,i =get its effect ^u our wives & ^u ourselves8 ,ne$ ,i tell y t1 = mo/ wom51 ! confessional is a r5dezv\s ( coquetry & ( love8 ,d y n feel z ,i d myself1 t by means ( ! confessional ! prie/ is m ! ma/] ( ! he>ts ( our wives ?an ourselves8 ,is n ! prie/ ! private & public confidant ( our wives8 ,d n our wives g inv>iably to ! feet ( ! prie/1 op5+ to him :at is mo/ sacr$ & intimate 9 ! secrets ( our lives z husb&s & z fa!rs8 ,! husb& belongs no m to 8 wife z h] guide ?r\gh ! d>k & difficult pa?s ( life3 x is ! prie/6 ,we are no m _! fri5ds & natural advis]s4 ,_! anxieties & _! c>es !y d n confide to u4 ,!y d n expect f u ! rem$ies = ! mis]ies ( ?is life4 ,t[>ds ! prie/ !y turn _! ?\ghts & desires4 ,he has _! entire & exclusive confid5ce4 ,9 a ^w1 x is ! prie/ :o is ! real husb& ( our wives6 ,x is he :o has ! possession ( _! respect & ( _! he>ts to a degree to :i* no "o ( u ne$ ev] aspire6 8,7 ! prie/ an angel1 7 he n made ( fle% & bones j z we are1 7 n 8 organization absolutely ! same z our own1 !n might we be indiff]5t to :at might take place betwe5 him & our wives1 :om he has at 8 feet1 9 8 h&s--ev5 m1 9 8 he>t4 ,b :at does my exp]i5ce tell me1 n only z a physician1 b also z a citiz5 ( ,/4 ,?omas8 ,:at does y\rs tell y8 ,our exp]i5ce tells u t ! prie/1 in/ead ( be+ /rong]1 is weak] ?an we g5]ally are ) respect to wom54 ,8 %am v[s ( p]fect *a/ity1 f> f r5d]+ him m invuln]able to ! arr[s ( ,cupid1 expose him to be made m easily ! victim ( t god1 s small 9 =m1 b s dreadful a giant by ! irresi/ible p[] ( 8 weapons & ! ext5t ( 8 conque/s4 8,z a matt] ( fact1 ( ! la/ f\r prie/s :o came to ,/4 ,?omas1 h n ?ree s$uc$ _m ( ! wives & daught]s ( our mo/ respect$ families8 ,& :at security h we t ! prie/ :o is n[ ) u does n walk 9 ! same pa?8 ,is n ! :ole p>i% fill$ ) indignation at ! long nightly visits made by him to two girls ^: dissolute morals are a secret to nobody8 ,& :5 ! prie/ does n respect himself1 w\ld we n be silly 9 cont9u+ to give him t respect ( :i* he himself kn[s he is unwor?y8 8,at our la/ meet+ ! op9ions 7 divid$ at ! beg9n+ ( ! discussion4 ,_m ?\ght x w\ld be well to speak to ! bi%op ab\t ! sc&al caus$ by ^? nightly visits4 ,b ! majority judg$ t su* /eps w\ld be useless1 s9ce ! bi%op w\ld d "o ( two ?+s1 namely1 he w\ld ei!r pay no att5tion to our j compla9ts1 z has (t5 be5 ! case1 or he w\ld remove ?is prie/1 fill+ 8 place ) "o :o w\ld d no bett]4 ,t majority1 :i* became a unanimity1 acc$$ to my ?\ght ( tak+ ju/ice into our own h&s4 ,! prie/ is our s]vant4 ,we pay him a l>ge ti!4 ,we h !re=e claims ^u him4 ,he has abus$ u1 & does s e day by 8 public neglect ( ! mo/ elem5t>y laws ( morality4 ,9 visit+ e night t h\se ^: degradation is kn[n to ev]ybody1 he gives to y\? an example ( p]v]sity ! effects ( :i* no "o c e/imate4 8,x _h be5 unanim\sly decid$ t he %\ld be :ipp$4 ,)\t my tell+ y by :om x 0 done1 y may be assur$ t ,mr4 ,beaubi5's flagellation ( la/ night w nev] be =gott5 by him6 8,heav5 grant t ?is bro!rly correction be a lesson to tea* all ! prie/s ( ,canada t _! gold5 reign is ov]1 t ! eyes ( ! p are op5$1 & t _! dom9ation is draw+ to an end60 ,?is disc\rse 0 li/5$ to ) deep sil5ce1 & ,dr4 ,ta*e saw by ! applause t foll[$ t 8 spee* _h be5 ! expression ( ev]yone4 ,next foll[$ a g5tleman nam$ ,dubord1 :o 9 sub/ance spoke z foll[s3 8,mr4 ,presid5t3--,i 0 n among ^? :o gave ! prie/ ! expression ( public feel+ ) ! en]getic tongue ( ! :ip4 ,i wi% ,i _h be51 h[ev]2 ,i w\ld he>tily h co-op]at$ 9 giv+ t lesson to ! prie/s ( ,canada4 ,let me give my reason4 8,my daught]1 :o is twelve ye>s old1 w5t to confession z did ! o!rs a few weeks ago4 ,x 0 aga9/ my w4 ,i "k by my own exp]i5ce t ( all actions confession is ! mo/ degrad+ 9 a p]son's life4 ,i c imag9e no?+ s well calculat$ to de/roy = ev] "o's self-respect z ! mod]n inv5tion ( ! confessional4 ,n[1 :at is a p]son )\t self-respect--especially a woman8 ,)\t ?is all is lo/ to h] =ev]4 8,9 ! confessional ev]y?+ is corruption ( ! l[e/ grade4 8,9 ! confessional1 a girl's ?\ghts are pollut$1 h] tongue is pollut$1 h] he>t is pollut$--yes1 & =ev] pollut$6 ,d ,i ne$ to tell y ?is8 ,y "k x z well z ,i d4 ,?\gh y are n[ all too intellig5t to degrade y\rselves at ! feet ( a prie/1 ?\gh x is long s9ce y h be5 guilty ( t meanness1 n "o ( y h =gott5 ! lessons ( corruption receiv$1 :5 "y1 9 ! confessional4 ,^? lessons 7 engrav$ on y\r memory1 y\r ?\ghts1 y\r he>ts1 & y\r s\ls l ! sc> left by ! r$-hot iron ^u ! br[ ( ! slave1 to rema9 a p]petual witness ( 8 %ame & s]vitude4 ,! confessional is a place :]e "o gets accu/om$ to he>1 & repeat )\t a scruple1 ?+s :i* w\ld cause ev5 a pro/itute to blu%6 8,:y are ,roman ,ca?olic nations inf]ior to nations belong+ to ,prote/antism8 ,only 9 ! confessional c ! solution ( t problem be f\nd4 ,& :y are ,roman ,ca?olic nations degrad$ 9 proportion to _! submission to ! prie/8 ,x is because ! (t5] ! individuals compos+ ^? nations g to confession ! m rapidly !y s9k 9 ! scale ( intellig5ce & morality4 ,a t]rible example ( ?is ,i _h 9 my own h\se4 8,z ,i said a mom5t ago1 ,i 0 aga9/ my daught] go+ to confession2 b h] poor "m1 :o is "u ! control ( ! prie/1 e>ne/ly want$ h] to g4 ,n to h a disagreeable sc5e 9 my h\se1 ,i _h to yield to ! te>s ( my wife4 8,on ! day foll[+ t ( h] confession !y believ$ ,i 0 abs5t2 b ,i 0 9 my (fice1 ) ! door suffici5tly op5 to all[ me to he> :at 0 said4 ,my wife & daught] _h ! foll[+ conv]sation3 8#8,:at makes y s ?\ghtful & sad1 my de> ,lucy1 s9ce y w5t to confession8 ,x seems to me y %\ld feel happi] s9ce y _h ! privilege ( confess+ y\r s9s4' 8,lucy made no answ]4 8,aft] a sil5ce ( two or ?ree m9utes h] "m said3 8#8,:y d y weep1 de> *ild8 ,are y ill8' 8,/ill no answ] f ! *ild4 8,y may well suppose t ,i 0 all att5tion4 ,i _h my suspicions ab\t ! dreadful ordeal :i* _h tak5 place4 ,my he>t ?robb$ ) uneas9ess & ang]4 8,aft] a %ort "t my wife spoke to h] *ild ) suffici5t firmness to =ce h] to answ]4 ,9 a trembl+ voice & half suppress$ ) sobs my de> little daught] answ]$3 8#8,ah6 mamma1 if y knew :at ! prie/ ask$ me1 & :at he said to me 9 ! confessional1 y w\ld be z sad z ,i am4' 8#8,b :at did he say to y8 ,he is a holy man4 ,y surely did n und]/& him if y ?9k he said any?+ to pa9 y4' 8#8,de> "m1' z %e ?rew h]self into h] "m's arms1 #8d n ask me to confess :at t prie/ said6 ,he told to me ?+s s %ameful t ,i _c repeat !m4 ,b t :i* pa9s me mo/ is ! impossibility ( bani%+ f my ?\ghts ! hateful ?+s :i* he has taught me4 ,8 impure words are l ! lee*es put ^u ! *e/ ( my fri5d ,l\ise--!y c\ld n be remov$ )\t te>+ ! fle%4 ,:at mu/ h be5 8 op9ion ( me to ask su* que/ions6'0 8,my *ild said no m1 & began to sob aga94 8,aft] a %ort sil5ce my wife rejo9$3 8#8,i'll g to ! prie/4 ,i'll tell him to bew>e h[ he speaks 9 ! confessional4 ,i h notic$ myself t he goes too f> ) 8 que/ions4 ,i1 h[ev]1 ?\ght t he 0 m prud5t ) *ildr54 ,aft] ! lesson t ,i'll give him be sure t y w h only to tell y\r s9s1 & t y w be no m tr\bl$ by 8 endless que/ions4 ,i ask ( y1 h[ev]1 nev] to speak ( ?is to anybody1 especially nev] let y\r poor fa!r "k any?+ ab\t x2 = he has little en\gh religion already1 & ?is w\ld leave him )\t any at all4'0 8,i c\ld conta9 myself no long]4 ,i rose & abruptly ent]$ ! p>lor4 ,my daught] ?rew h]self1 weep+1 into my arms4 ,my wife scream$ ) t]ror1 & almo/ fell into a swoon4 ,i said to my *ild3 8,if y love me1 put y\r h& on my he>t & promise me t y'll nev] g to confession aga94 ,fe> ,god1 my *ild2 walk 9 ,8 pres5ce1 = ,8 eye see? y ev]y:]e4 ,rememb] t day & night ,he is ready to =give u4 ,nev] place y\rself aga9 at ! feet ( a prie/ to be defil$ & degrad$ by him6 8,?is my daught] promis$ me4 8,:5 my wife _h recov]$ f h] surprise ,i said to h]3 8,madam1 = a long "t ! prie/ has be5 ev]y?+ & y\r husb& no?+ to y4 ,!re is a hidd5 & t]rible p[] t gov]ns y\r ?\ghts & affections z x gov]ns y\r de$s--x is ! p[] ( ! prie/4 ,?is y h (t5 d5i$2 b provid5ce has decid$ to-day t ?is p[] %\ld be =ev] brok5 = y & = me4 ,i want to be ! rul] 9 my own h\se2 & f ?is mom5t ! p[] ( ! prie/ ov] y mu/ cease1 unless y pref] to leave my h\se =ev]4 ,! prie/ has reign$ "h too long6 ,b n[ t ,i "k he has /a9$ & defil$ ! s\l ( my daught]1 8 empire mu/ fall6 ,:5ev] y g & take y\r he>t & secrets to ! feet ( ! prie/1 be s k9d z n to come back to ! same h\se ) me40 ,?ree o!r disc\rses foll[$ t ( ,mr4 ,dubord1 all ( :i* 7 pregnant ) details & facts go+ to prove t ! confessional 0 ! pr9cipal cause ( ! deplorable demoralization ( ,/4 ,?omas4 ,if1 9 addition to all t1 ,i c\ld h m5tion$ be=e t association :at ,i already knew ( ! corrupt+ influ5ces ( t in/itution giv5 to ! _w by c5turies ( d>kness1 c]ta9ly ! det]m9ation ( its memb]s to make use ( e means to aboli% its usage w\ld h be5 /r5g!n$4 ,,*apt] ,v4 ,,! ,,prie/1 ,,purgatory1 ,,& ,,! ,,poor ,,wid[',s ,,c[4 ,! day foll[+ t ( ! meet+ at :i* ,mr4 ,ta*e _h giv5 8 reasons = boa/+ t he _h :ipp$ ! prie/1 ,i wrote to my "m3 8,= ,god's sake1 come = me2 ,i c /ay "h no long]4 ,if y knew :at my eyes h se5 & my e>s h he>d = "s "t pa/1 y w\ld n delay y\r com+ a s+le day40 ,inde$1 su* 0 ! impression left ^u me by t flagellation1 & by ! spee*es :i* ,i _h he>d1 t _h x n be5 = ! cross+ ( ! ,/4 ,lawr5ce1 ,i w\ld h />t$ = ,murray ,bay on ! day aft] ! secret meet+ at :i* ,i _h he>d ?+s t s t]ribly fright5$ me4 ,h[ ,i regrett$ ! happy & peaceful days sp5t ) my "m 9 read+ ! beautiful *apt]s ( ! ,bible1 s well *os5 by h] to in/ruct & int]e/ me6 ,:at a diff]5ce !re 0 betwe5 our conv]sations aft] ^! read+s1 & ! conv]sations ,i he>d at ,/4 ,?omas6 ,happily my p>5ts' desire to see me aga9 0 z great z m9e to g back to !m4 ,s t a few weeks lat] my "m came = me4 ,%e press$ me to h] he>t1 & br\ght me back to ! arms ( my fa!r4 ,i arriv$ at home on ! #ag? ( ,july1 #ahba1 & sp5t ! aft]noon & ev5+ till late by my fa!r's side4 ,) :at pleasure did he see me work+ difficult problems 9 algebra1 & ev5 9 geometry6 = "u my tea*]1 ,mr4 ,jones1 ,i _h really made rapid progress 9 ^? bran*es4 ,m ?an once ,i notic$ te>s ( joy 9 my fa!r's eyes :51 tak+ my slate1 he saw t my calculations 7 correct4 ,he also exam9$ me 9 gramm>4 8,:at an admirable tea*] ?is ,mr4 ,jones mu/ be10 he w\ld say1 8to h advanc$ a *ild s mu* 9 ! %ort space ( f\rte5 mon?s60 ,h[ sweet to me1 b h[ %ort1 7 ^? h\rs ( happ9ess pass$ betwe5 my good "m & my fa!r6 ,we _h family wor%ip4 ,i read ! fifte5? *apt] ( ,luke1 ! return ( ! prodigal son4 ,my "m !n sang a hymn ( joy & gratitude1 & ,i w5t to b$ ) my he>t full ( happ9ess to take ! sweete/ sleep ( my life4 ,b1 ,o ,god6 :at an awful awak5+ ?\ had/ prep>$ = me6 ,at ab\t f\r o'clock 9 ! morn+ he>t-r5d+ screams fell ^u my e>4 ,i recogniz$ my "m's voice4 8,:at is ! matt]1 de> "m80 8,oh1 my de> *ild1 y h no m a fa!r6 ,he is dead60 ,9 say+ ^! words %e lo/ consci\sness & fell on ! floor6 ,:ile a fri5d :o _h pass$ ! night ) u gave h] prop] c>e1 ,i ha/5$ to my fa!r's b$4 ,i press$ him to my he>t1 ,i kiss$ him1 ,i cov]$ him ) my te>s1 ,i mov$ 8 head1 ,i press$ 8 h&s1 ,i tri$ to lift him up on 8 pill[2 ,i c\ld n believe t he 0 dead6 ,x seem$ to me t ev5 if dead he w\ld come back to life--t ,god c\ld n ?us take my fa!r away f me at ! v mom5t :5 ,i _h come back to him aft] s long an abs5ce6 ,i knelt to pray to ,god = ! life ( my fa!r4 ,b my te>s & cries 7 useless4 ,he 0 dead6 ,he 0 already cold z ice6 ,two days aft] he 0 buri$4 ,my "m 0 s ov]:elm$ ) grief t %e c\ld n foll[ ! fun]al procession4 ,i rema9$ ) h] z h] only e>?ly support4 ,poor "m6 ,h[ _m te>s ?\ ha/ %$6 ,:at sobs came f ?9e afflict$ he>t 9 ^? days ( supreme grief6 ,?\gh ,i 0 !n v "y1 ,i c\ld und]/& ! greatness ( our loss1 & ,i m+l$ my te>s ) ^? ( my "m4 ,:at p5 c portray :at takes place 9 ! he>t ( a woman :5 ,god takes sudd5ly h] husb& away 9 ! prime ( 8 life1 & leaves h] alone1 plung$ 9 mis]y1 ) ?ree small *ildr51 two ( :om are ev5 too "y to "k _! loss6 ,h[ long are ! h\rs ( ! day = ! poor wid[ :o is left alone1 & )\t means1 among /rang]s6 ,h[ pa9ful ! sleepless night to ! he>t :i* has lo/ ev]y?+6 ,h[ empty a h\se is left by ! et]nal abs5ce ( him :o 0 its ma/]1 support1 & fa!r6 ,e object 9 ! h\se & e /ep %e takes rem9d h] ( h] loss & s9ks ! sword deep] :i* pi]ces h] he>t4 ,oh1 h[ bitt] are ! te>s :i* fl[ f h] eyes :5 h] y\nge/ *ild1 :o z yet does n und]/& ! my/]y ( dea?1 ?r[s himself into h] arms & says3 8,mamma1 :]e is papa8 ,:y does he n come back8 ,i am lonely60 ,my poor "m pass$ ?r\gh ^? he>t-r5d+ trials4 ,i he>d h] sobs dur+ ! long h\rs ( ! day1 & also dur+ ! long] h\rs ( ! night4 ,_m times ,i h se5 h] fall ^u h] knees to implore ,god to be m]ciful to h] & to h] ?ree unhappy orphans4 ,i c\ld d no?+ !n to com=t h]1 b love h]1 pray & weep ) h]6 ,only a few days _h elaps$ aft] ! burial ( my fa!r :5 ,i saw ,mr4 ,c\rtois1 ! p>i% prie/1 com+ to our h\se 7he :o _h tri$ to take away our ,bible f u74 ,he _h ! reputation ( be+ ri*1 & z we 7 poor & unhappy s9ce my fa!r's dea?1 my fir/ ?\ght 0 t he _h come to com=t & to help u4 ,i c\ld see t my "m _h ! same hopes4 ,%e welcom$ him z an angel f heav54 ,! lea/ gleam ( hope is s sweet to "o :o is unhappy6 ,f 8 v fir/ words1 h[ev]1 ,i c\ld see t our hopes 7 n to be realiz$4 ,he tri$ to be sympa!tic1 & ev5 said some?+ ab\t ! confid5ce t we %\ld h 9 ,god1 especially 9 times ( trial2 b 8 words 7 cold & dry4 ,turn+ to me1 he said3 8,d y cont9ue to read ! ,bible1 my little boy80 8,yes1 sir10 answ]$ ,i1 ) a voice trembl+ ) anxiety1 = ,i fe>$ t he w\ld make ano!r ef=t to take away t treasure1 & ,i _h no long] a fa!r to def5d x4 ,!n address+ my "m1 he said3 8,madam1 ,i told y t x 0 n "r = y or y\r *ild to read t book40 ,my "m ca/ d[n h] eyes1 & answ]$ only by ! te>s :i* ran d[n h] *eeks4 ,t "q 0 foll[$ by a long sil5ce1 & ! prie/ !n cont9u$3 8,madam1 !re is some?+ due = ! pray]s :i* h be5 sung1 & ! s]vices :i* y reque/$ to be (f]$ = ! repose ( y\r husb&'s s\l4 ,i w be v mu* oblig$ to y if y pay me t little debt40 8,mr4 ,c\rtois10 answ]$ my "m1 8my husb& left me no?+ b debts4 ,i h only ! "w ( my own h&s to procure a liv+ = my ?ree *ildr51 ! elde/ ( :om is be=e y4 ,= ^! little orphans' sake1 if n = m9e1 d n take f u ! little t is left40 8,b1 madam1 y d n reflect4 ,y\r husb& di$ sudd5ly & )\t any prep>ation2 he is !re=e 9 ! flames ( purgatory4 ,if y want him to be deliv]$1 y mu/ necess>ily unite y\r p]sonal sacrifices to ! pray]s ( ! ,*ur* & ! masses :i* we (f]40 8,z ,i said1 my husb& has left me absolutely )\t means1 & x is impossible = me to give y any money10 repli$ my "m4 8,b1 madam1 y\r husb& 0 = a long "t ! only not>y ( ,mal ,bay4 ,he surely mu/ h made mu* money4 ,i c sc>cely ?9k t he has left y )\t any means to help him n[ t 8 desolation & suff]+s are f> great] ?an y\rs40 8,my husb& did1 inde$1 co9 mu* money1 b he sp5t /ill m4 ,?anks to ,god1 we h n be5 9 want :ile he liv$4 ,b lately he got ?is h\se built1 & :at is /ill due on x makes me fe> t ,i w lose x4 ,he also b\ght a piece ( l& n long ago1 only half ( :i* is paid1 & ,i w1 !re=e1 probably n be able to keep x4 ,h5ce ,i may soon1 ) my poor orphans1 be depriv$ ( ev]y?+ t is left u4 ,9 ! meantime ,i hope1 sir1 t y are n a man to take away f u our la/ piece ( bread40 8,b1 madam1 ! masses (f]$ = ! re/ ( y\r husb&'s s\l mu/ be paid10 answ]$ ! prie/4 ,my "m cov]$ h] face ) h] h&k]*ief & wept4 ,z = me1 ,i did n m+le my te>s ) h]s ?is "t4 ,my feel+s 7 n ^? ( grief1 b ( ang] & unspeakable horror4 ,my eyes 7 fix$ on ! face ( t man :o tortur$ my "m's he>t4 ,i look$ ) te>less eyes ^u ! man :o add$ to my poor "m's angui%1 & made h] weep m bitt]ly ?an ev]4 ,my h&s 7 cl5*$1 z if ready to /rike4 ,all my muscles trembl$2 my tee? *att]$ z if f int5se cold4 ,my greate/ sorr[ 0 my weakness 9 ! pres5ce ( t big man1 & my n be+ able to s5d him away f our h\se1 & driv+ him f> away f my "m4 ,i felt incl9$ to say to him3 8,are y n a%am$1 y :o are s ri*1 to come & take away ! la/ piece ( bread f our m\?s80 ,b my physical & moral /r5g? 7 n suffici5t to accompli% ! task be=e me1 & ,i 0 fill$ ) regret & disappo9tm5t4 ,aft] a long sil5ce1 my "m rais$ h] eyes1 r$d5$ ) te>s1 on ! prie/1 & said3 8,sir1 y see t c[ 9 ! mead[1 n f> f our h\se8 ,h] milk & ! butt] made f x =m ! pr9cipal "p ( my *ildr5's food4 ,i hope y w n take h] away f u4 ,if1 h[ev]1 su* a sacrifice mu/ be made to deliv] my poor husb&'s s\l f purgatory1 take h] z paym5t ( ! masses to be (f]$ to ext+ui% ^? dev\r+ flames40 ,! prie/ in/antly arose1 say+1 8,v well1 madam10 & w5t out4 ,our eyes anxi\sly foll[$ him2 b in/ead ( walk+ t[>ds ! little gate :i* 0 9 front ( ! h\se1 he direct$ 8 /eps t[>ds ! mead[1 & drove ! c[ be=e him 9 ! direction ( 8 home4 ,at t sight ,i scream$ ) despair3 8,o1 my "m6 he is tak+ our c[ away6 ,:at w become ( u80 ,"l ,nairn _h giv5 u t spl5did c[ :5 x 0 ?ree mon?s old4 ,h] "m _h be5 br\ght f ,scotl&1 & belong$ to "o ( ! be/ bre$s ( t c\ntry4 ,i f$ h] ) my own h&s1 & _h (t5 %>$ my bread ) h]4 ,i lov$ h] z a *ild always loves an animal :i* he has br\ght up himself4 ,%e seem$ to und]/& & love me also4 ,f :atev] di/ance %e c\ld see me1 %e w\ld run to me to receive my c>esses1 & :atev] else ,i might h to give h]4 ,my "m h]self milk$ h]2 & h] ri* milk 0 su* delici\s & sub/antial food = u4 ,we all felt s happy1 at breakfa/ & supp]1 ea* ) a cupful ( t pure & refre%+ milk6 ,my "m also cri$ out ) grief z %e saw ! prie/ tak+ away ! only means :i* heav5 _h left h] to fe$ h] *ildr54 ,?r[+ myself into h] arms1 ,i ask$ h]3 8,:y h y giv5 away our c[8 ,:at w become ( u8 ,we %all surely die ( hung]40 8,de> *ild10 %e answ]$1 8,i did n ?9k ! prie/ w\ld be s cruel z to take away ! la/ res\rce :i* ,god _h left u4 ,ah6 if ,i _h believ$ him to be s unm]ciful ,i w\ld nev] h spok5 to him z ,i did4 ,z y say1 my de> *ild1 :at w become ( u8 ,b h y n (t5 read to me 9 y\r ,bible t ,god is ! ,fa!r ( ! wid[ & ! orphan8 ,we %all pray to t ,god :o is will+ to be y\r fa!r & m9e4 ,he w li/5 to u1 & see our te>s4 ,let u kneel d[n & ask ( ,him to be m]ciful to u1 & to give u back ! support ( :i* ! prie/ has depriv$ u40 ,we bo? knelt d[n4 ,%e took my "r h& ) h] left1 &1 lift+ ! o!r h& t[>ds heav51 %e (f]$ a pray] to ! ,god ( m]cies = h] poor *ildr5 su* z ,i h nev] s9ce he>d4 ,h] words 7 (t5 *ok$ by h] sobs4 ,b :5 %e c\ld n speak ) h] voice1 %e spoke ) h] burn+ looks rais$ to heav51 & ) h] uplift$ h&4 ,i also pray$ to ,god ) h]1 & repeat$ h] words1 :i* 7 brok5 by my sobs4 ,:5 h] pray] 0 end$ %e rema9$ = a long "t pale & trembl+4 ,cold sweat 0 fl[+ on h] face1 & %e fell on ! floor4 ,i ?\ght %e 0 go+ to die4 ,i ran = cold wat]1 :i* ,i gave h]1 say+3 8,de> "m6 ,o1 d n leave me alone ^u e>?60 ,aft] dr9k+ a few drops %e felt bett]1 & tak+ my h&1 %e put x to h] trembl+ lips2 !n draw+ me ne> h]1 & press+ me to h] bosom1 %e said3 8,de> *ild1 if ev] y become a prie/1 ,i ask ( y nev] to be s h>d-he>t$ t[>ds poor wid[s z are ! prie/s ( to-day40 ,:ile %e said ^! words1 ,i felt h] burn+ te>s fall+ ^u my *eek4 ,! memory ( ^! te>s has nev] left me4 ,i felt !m con/antly dur+ ! tw5ty-five ye>s ,i sp5t 9 prea*+ ! inconceivable sup]/itions ( ,rome4 ,i 0 n bett]1 naturally1 ?an _m ( ! o!r prie/s4 ,i believ$1 z !y did1 ! impi\s fables ( purgatory2 & z well z !y 7,i confess x to my %ame71 if ,i refus$ to take1 or if ,i gave back ! money ( ! poor1 ,i accept$ ! money :i* ! ri* gave me = ! masses ,i said to ext+ui% ! flames ( t fabul\s place4 ,b ! remembrance ( my "m's words & te>s has kept me f be+ s cruel & unm]ciful t[>ds ! poor wid[s z ,romi% prie/s are1 = ! mo/ "p1 oblig$ to be4 ,:5 my he>t1 deprav$ by ! false & impi\s doctr9es ( ,rome1 0 tempt$ to take money f wid[s & orphans1 "u pret5ce ( my long pray]s1 ,i !n he>d ! voice ( my "m1 f ! dep? ( h] sepul*re1 say+3 8,my de> *ild1 d n be cruel t[>ds poor wid[s & orphans1 z are ! prie/s ( to-day40 ,if1 dur+ ! days ( my prie/hood at ,quebec1 at ,beauport & ,kam\raska1 ,i h giv5 almo/ all t ,i _h to fe$ & clo! ! poor1 especially ! wid[s & orphans1 x 0 n ow+ to my be+ bett] ?an o!rs1 b x 0 because my "m _h spok5 to me ) words nev] to be =gott54 ,! ,"l1 ,i believe1 _h put into my "m's m\? ^? words1 s simple b s full ( eloqu5ce & beauty1 z "o ( ,8 great m]cies t[>ds me4 ,^? te>s ! h& ( ,rome has nev] be5 able to wipe (f2 ^? words ( my "m ! sophisms ( ,pop]y c\ld n make me =get4 ,h[ long1 ,o ,"l1 %all t insol5t enemy ( ! gospel1 ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 be p]mitt$ to fatt5 h]self ^u ! te>s ( ! wid[ & ( ! orphan by means ( t cruel & impi\s inv5tion ( paganism--purgatory8 ,wilt ?\ n be m]ciful unto s _m nations :i* are /ill ! victims ( t great impo/ure8 ,oh1 d remove ! veil :i* cov]s ! eyes ( ! prie/s & p ( ,rome1 z ?\ ha/ remov$ x f m9e6 ,make !m to und]/& t _! hopes ( purification mu/ n re/ on ^! fabul\s fires1 b only on ! blood ( ! ,lamb %$ on ,calv>y to save ! _w4 ,,*apt] ,,vi4 ,,fe/ivities ,,9 ,a ,,p>sonage4 ,god _h he>d ! poor wid['s pray]4 ,a few days aft] ! prie/ _h tak5 our c[ %e receiv$ a lett] f ea* ( h] two si/]s1 ,g5evieve & ,ca!r9e4 ,! =m]1 :o 0 m>ri$ to ,eti5ne ,es*5ba*1 ( ,/4 ,?omas1 told h] to sell all %e _h & come1 ) h] *ildr51 to live ) h]4 8,we h no family10 %e said1 8& ,god has giv5 u ! good ?+s ( ?is life 9 abundance4 ,we %all be happy to %>e !m ) y & y\r *ildr540 ,! latt]1 m>ri$ 9 ,kam\raska to ! ,hon4 ,amable ,dionne1 wrote3 8,we h le>n$ ! sad news ( y\r husb&'s dea?4 ,we h lately lo/ our only son4 ,we wi% to fill ! vacant place ) ,*>les1 y\r elde/4 ,s5d him to u4 ,we %all br+ him up z our own *ild1 & be=e long he w be y\r support4 ,9 ! meantime1 sell by auction all y h1 & g to ,/4 ,?omas ) y\r two y\ng] *ildr54 ,!re ,g5evieve & myself w supply y\r wants40 ,9 a few days all our furniture 0 sold4 ,un=tunately1 ?\gh ,i _h c>efully conceal$ my *]i%$ ,bible1 x disappe>$4 ,i c\ld nev] discov] :at became ( x4 ,_h "m h]self1 fright5$ by ! ?reats ( ! prie/1 rel9qui%$ t treasure8 or _h "s ( our relatives1 believ+ x to be _! duty1 de/roy$ x8 ,i d n "k4 ,i deeply felt t loss1 :i* 0 !n irrep>able to me4 ,on ! foll[+ day1 9 ! mid/ ( bitt] te>s & sobs1 ,i bade f>ewell to my poor "m & "y bro!rs4 ,!y w5t to ,/4 ,?omas on bo>d a s*oon]1 & ,i cross$ 9 a sloop to ,kam\raska4 ,my uncle & aunt ,dionne welcom$ me ) e m>k ( ! mo/ s9c]e affection4 ,hav+ soon made kn[n to !m t ,i wi%$ to become a prie/1 ,i began to /udy ,lat9 "u ! direction ( ,rev4 ,mr4 ,mor91 vic> ( ,kam\raska4 ,t prie/ 0 e/eem$ to be a le>n$ man4 ,he 0 ab\t =ty or fifty ye>s old1 & _h be5 prie/ ( a p>i% 9 ! di/rict ( ,montreal4 ,b1 z is ! case ) ! majority ( prie/s1 8 v[s ( celibacy _h n prov$ a suffici5t gu>antee aga9/ ! *>ms ( "o ( 8 beautiful p>i%ion]s4 ,?is _h caus$ a great sc&al4 ,he consequ5tly lo/ 8 position1 & ! bi%op _h s5t him to ,kam\raska1 :]e 8 pa/ conduct 0 n s g5]ally kn[n4 ,he 0 v good to me1 & ,i soon lov$ him ) s9c]e affection4 ,"o day1 ab\t ! beg9n+ ( ! ye> #ahbb1 he call$ me aside & said3 8,mr4 ,v>9 7! p>i% prie/7 is 9 ! habit ( giv+ a great fe/ival on 8 bir?day4 ,n[1 ! pr9cipal citiz5s ( ! village wi% on t occasion to pres5t him ) a b\quet4 ,i am appo9t$ to write an address1 & to *oose "s "o to deliv] x be=e ! prie/4 ,y are ! "o :om ,i h *os54 ,:at d y ?9k ( x80 8,b ,i am v "y10 ,i repli$4 8,y\r y\? w only give m int]e/ to :at we wi% to say & d10 said ! prie/4 8,well1 ,i h no objection to d s1 provid$ ! piece be n too long1 & t ,i h x suffici5tly soon to le>n x well40 ,x 0 already prep>$4 ,! "t ( deliv]+ x soon came4 ,! be/ society ( ,kam\raska1 compos$ ( ab\t fifte5 g5tlem5 & z _m ladies1 7 assembl$ 9 ! beautiful p>lors ( ! p>sonage4 ,mr4 ,v>9 0 9 _! mid/4 ,sudd5ly ,squire ,pas*al ,ta*e1 ! seigneur ( ! p>i%1 & 8 lady ent]$ ! room1 hold+ me by ea* h&1 & plac$ me 9 ! mid/ ( ! gue/s4 ,my head 0 cr[n$ ) fl[]s1 = ,i 0 to repres5t ! angel ( ! p>i%1 :om ! p _h *os5 to give to _! pa/or ! expression ( public admiration & gratitude4 ,:5 ! address 0 f9i%$1 ,i pres5t$ to ! prie/ ! beautiful b\quet ( symbolical fl[]s prep>$ by ! ladies = ! occasion4 ,mr4 ,v>9 0 a small b well-built man4 ,8 ?9 lips 7 ev] ready to smile graci\sly4 ,! rem>kable :it5ess ( 8 sk9 0 /ill height5$ by ! rose color ( 8 *eeks4 ,intellig5ce & goodness beam$ f 8 expressive black eyes4 ,no?+ c\ld be m amiable & graci\s ?an 8 conv]sation dur+ ! fir/ qu>t] ( an h\r pass$ 9 8 company4 ,he 0 passionately fond ( ^! little fetes1 & ! *>m ( 8 mann]s c\ld n be surpass$ z ! ho/ ( ! ev5+4 ,he 0 mov$ to te>s be=e he>+ half ( ! address1 & ! eyes ( _m 7 moi/5$ :5 ! pa/or1 ) a voice trembl+ & full ( emotion1 express$ 8 joy & gratitude at be+ s highly appreciat$ by 8 p>i%ion]s4 ,z soon z ! happy pa/or _h express$ 8 ?anks1 ! ladies sang two or ?ree beautiful songs4 ,! door ( ! d9+-room 0 !n op5$1 & we c\ld see a long table lad5 ) ! mo/ delici\s meats & w9es t ,canada c\ld af=d4 ,i _h nev] be=e be5 pres5t at a prie/'s d9n]4 ,! honorable position giv5 me at t little fete p]mitt$ me to see x 9 all its details1 & no?+ c\ld equal ! curiosity ) :i* ,i s\ght to he> & see all t 0 said & done by ! joy\s gue/s4 ,besides ,mr4 ,v>9 & 8 vic> !re 7 ?ree o!r prie/s1 :o 7 arti/ically plac$ 9 ! mid/ ( ! mo/ beautiful ladies ( ! company4 ,! ladies1 aft] honor+ u ) _! pres5ce = an h\r or s1 left ! table & retir$ to ! draw+-room4 ,sc>cely _h ! la/ lady disappe>$ :5 ,mr4 ,v>9 rose & said3 8,g5tlem51 let u dr9k to ! heal? ( ^! amiable ladies1 ^: pres5ce has ?r[n s _m *>ms ov] ! fir/ "p ( our little fete40 ,foll[+ ! example ( ,mr4 ,v>91 ea* gue/ fill$ & empti$ 8 long w9e-glass 9 honor ( ! ladies4 ,squire ,ta*e !n propos$ 8,! heal? ( ! mo/ v5]able & belov$ prie/ ( ,canada1 ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,v>940 ,aga9 ! glasses 7 fill$ & empti$1 except m9e2 = ,i _h be5 plac$ at ! side ( my uncle ,dionne1 :o1 /]nly look+ at me z soon z ,i _h empti$ my fir/ glass1 said3 8,if y dr9k ano!r ,i w s5d y f ! table4 ,a little boy l y %\ld n dr9k1 b only t\* ! glass ) 8 lips40 ,x w\ld h be5 difficult to c\nt ! heal?s :i* 7 drank aft] ! ladies _h left u4 ,aft] ea* heal? a song or a /ory 0 call$ =1 sev]al ( :i* 7 foll[$ by applause1 %\ts ( joy1 & convulsive laught]4 ,:5 my turn to propose a heal? came ,i wi%$ to be excus$1 b !y w\ld n exempt me4 ,s ,i _h to say ab\t ^: heal? ,i 0 mo/ int]e/$4 ,i rose ^u my two %ort legs1 & turn+ to ,mr4 ,v>91 ,i said1 8,let u dr9k to ! heal? ( our ,holy ,fa!r1 ! ,pope40 ,nobody _h yet ?\ght ( our ,holy ,fa!r1 ! ,pope1 & ! "n1 m5tion$ "u su* circum/ances by a *ild1 appe>$ s droll to ! prie/s & _! m]ry gue/s t !y bur/ into laught]1 /amp$ _! feet & %\t$1 8,bravo6 bravo6 ,to ! heal? ( ! ,pope60 ,ev]yone /ood up1 & at ! invitation ( ,mr4 ,v>91 ! glasses 7 fill$ & empti$ z usual4 ,s _m heal?s c\ld n be drunk )\t _! natural effect--intoxication4 ,! fir/ t 0 ov]come 0 a prie/1 ,noel by "n4 ,he 0 a tall man1 & a great dr9k]4 ,i _h notic$ m ?an once1 t in/ead ( tak+ 8 w9e-glass he drank f a l>ge tumbl]4 ,! fir/ symptoms ( 8 intoxication1 in/ead ( draw+ sympa?y f 8 fri5ds1 only increas$ _! noisy bur/s ( laught]4 ,he endeavor$ to take a bottle to fill 8 glass1 b 8 h& %ook1 & ! bottle1 fall+ on ! floor1 0 brok5 to pieces4 ,wi%+ to keep up 8 m]rim5t he began to s+ a ,bac*ic song1 b c\ld n f9i%4 ,he dropp$ 8 head on ! table1 q ov]come1 & try+ to rise1 he fell heavily ^u 8 *air4 ,:ile all ?is took place ! o!r prie/s & all ! gue/s look$ at him1 laugh+ l\dly4 ,at la/1 mak+ a desp]ate ef=t1 he rose1 b aft] tak+ two or ?ree /eps1 fell headlong on ! floor4 ,8 two neighbors w5t to help him1 b !y 7 n 9 a condition to help him4 ,twice !y roll$ ) him "u ! table4 ,at l5g? ano!r1 less affect$ by ! fumes ( w9e1 took him by ! feet & dragg$ him into an adjo9+ room1 :]e !y left him4 ,?is fir/ sc5e seem$ /range en\gh to me1 = ,i _h nev] be=e se5 a prie/ intoxicat$4 ,b :at a/oni%$ me mo/ 0 ! laught] ( ! o!r prie/s ov] t spectacle4 ,ano!r sc5e1 h[ev]1 soon foll[$ :i* made me sadd]4 ,my "y companion & fri5d1 ,a*illes ,ta*e1 _h n be5 w>n$1 z ,i _h1 only to t\* ! w9e ) 8 lips4 ,m ?an once he _h empti$ 8 glass4 ,he also roll$ ^u ! floor be=e ! eyes ( 8 fa!r1 :o 0 too full ( w9e to help him4 ,he cri$ al\d1 8,i am *ok+60 ,i tri$ to lift him up1 b ,i 0 n /rong en\gh4 ,i ran = 8 "m4 ,%e came1 accompani$ by ano!r lady1 b ! vic> _h c>ri$ him into ano!r room1 :]e he fell asleep aft] hav+ ?r[n (f ! w9e he _h tak54 ,poor ,a*illes6 he 0 le>n+1 9 ! h\se ( 8 own prie/1 to take ! fir/ /ep ( t life ( debau*]y & drunk5ness :i* twelve or fifte5 ye>s lat] 0 to rob him ( 8 manor1 take f him 8 wife & *ildr51 & to make him fall a victim to ! bloody h& ( a murd]] ^u ! solit>y %ores ( ,kam\raska6 ,?is fir/ & sad exp]i5ce :i* ,i made ( ! real & intimate life ( ! ,roman ,ca?olic prie/ 0 s deeply engrav$ on my memory t ,i /ill rememb] ) %ame ! bac*ic song :i* t prie/ ,mor9 _h taught me1 & :i* ,i sang on t occasion4 ,x comm5c$ ) ^! ,lat9 words3 ,ego 9 arte ,bac*i1 ,multum pr(eei ,decies p9tum v9i ,hodie bibi4 ,i also rememb] "o sung by ,mr4 ,v>94 ,"h x is3 ,savez-v\s p\rquoi1 mes amis1 7bis7 ,n\s sommes t\s si rej\is8 7bis7 ,amis n'end\tez pas1 ,c'e/ qu'un repas ,n'e/ bon4 ,qu' apprete sans faon1 ,mangeons a la gamelle4 ,vive le son1 vive le son1 ,mangeons a la gamelle1 ,vive le son du flacon6 ,:5 ! prie/s & _! fri5ds _h sung1 laugh$ & drank = m ?an an h\r1 ,mr4 ,v>9 rose & said3 8,! ladies mu/ n be left alone all ! ev5+4 ,w n our joy & happ9ess be d\bl$ if !y are pleas$ to %>e !m ) u80 ,?is proposition 0 receiv$ ) applause1 & we pass$ into ! draw+-room1 :]e ! ladies await$ u4 ,sev]al pieces ( music1 well execut$1 gave new life to ?is "p ( ! ent]ta9m5t4 ,?is res\rce1 h[ev]1 0 soon exhau/$4 ,besides1 "s ( ! ladies c\ld well see t _! husb&s 7 half drunk1 & !y felt a%am$4 ,madam ,ta*e c\ld n conceal ! grief %e felt1 caus$ by :at _h happ5$ to h] de> ,a*illes4 ,_h %e "s pres5tim5t1 z _m p]sons h1 ( ! te>s :i* %e 0 to %$ "o day on 8 acc\nt8 ,0 ! vision ( a mutilat$ & bloody corpse--! corpse ( h] own drunk5 son fall5 dead1 "u ! bl[ ( an assass9's dagg]1 be=e h] eyes8 ,mr4 ,v>9 fe>$ no?+ m ?an an int]ruption 9 ^? h\rs ( lively pleasure1 ( :i* 8 life 0 full1 & :i* took place 9 8 p>sonage4 8,well1 well1 ladies & g5tlem51 let u ent]ta9 no d>k ?\ghts on ?is ev5+1 ! happie/ ( my life6 ,let u play bl9d man's buff40 8,let u play bl9d man's buff60 0 repeat$ by ev]ybody4 ,on he>+ ?is noise1 ! g5tlem5 :o 7 half asleep by ! fumes ( w9e seem$ to awak5 z if f a long dream4 ,"y g5tlem5 clapp$ _! h&s2 ladies1 "y & old1 congratulat$ "o ano!r on ! happy idea4 8,b ^: eyes %all be cov]$ fir/80 ask$ ! prie/4 8,y\rs1 ,mr4 ,v>910 cri$ all ! ladies4 8,we look to y = ! good example1 & we %all foll[ x40 8,! p[] & unanimity ( ! jury by :i* ,i am condemn$ _c be resi/$4 ,i feel t !re is no appeal4 ,i mu/ submit40 ,illu/ration3 ,,fe/ivities ,,9 ,a ,,p>sonage4 ,imm$iately "o ( ! ladies plac$ h] nicely p]fum$ h&k]*ief ov] ! eyes ( h] prie/1 took him by ! h&1 l$ him to an angle ( ! room1 & hav+ pu%$ him g5tly ) h] delicate h&1 said3 8,mr4 ,bl9dman6 ,let ev]yone flee6 ,woe to him :o is caught60 ,!re is no?+ m curi\s & comical ?an to see a man walk :5 he is "u ! influ5ce ( w9e1 especially if he wi%es nobody to notice x4 ,h[ /iff & /raight he keeps 8 legs6 ,h[ le>n$ & complicat$1 9 ord] to keep 8 equilibrium1 are 8 motions to "r & left6 ,su* 0 ! position ( prie/ ,v>94 ,he 0 n v drunk4 ,?\gh he _h tak5 a l>ge quantity ( w9e1 he did n fall4 ,he c>ri$ ) wond]ful c\rage ! weight ) :i* he 0 lad54 ,! w9e :i* he _h drank w\ld h intoxicat$ ?ree ord9>y m52 b su* 0 8 capacity = dr9k+1 t he c\ld /ill walk )\t fall+4 ,h[ev]1 8 condition 0 sadly betray$ by ea* /ep he took & by ea* ^w he spoke4 ,no?+1 !re=e1 0 m comical ?an ! fir/ /eps ( ! poor prie/ 9 8 ef=ts to lay hold ( somebody 9 ord] to pass 8 b& to him4 ,he w\ld take "o =w>d & two backw>d /eps1 & w\ld !n /agg] to ! "r & to ! left4 ,ev]ybody laugh$ to te>s4 ,"o aft] ano!r !y w\ld all ei!r p9* him or t\* him g5tly on 8 h&1 arm or %\ld]1 & pass+ rapidly (f w\ld exclaim1 8,run away60 ,! prie/ w5t to ! "r & !n to ! left1 ?rew 8 arms sudd5ly n[ "h & !n !re4 ,8 legs evid5tly b5t "u _! burd52 he pant$1 p]spir$1 c\gh$1 & ev]yone began to fe> t ! trial might be c>ri$ too f>1 & beyond propriety4 ,b sudd5ly1 by a happy turn he caught ! arm ( a lady :o 9 teas+ him _h come too ne>4 ,9 va9 ! lady tries to escape4 ,%e /ruggles1 turns r\nd1 b ! prie/'s h& holds h] firmly4 ,:ile hold+ 8 victim ) 8 "r h& he wi%es to t\* h] head ) 8 left1 9 ord] to "k & "n ! pretty bird he _h caught4 ,b at t mom5t 8 legs gave way4 ,he falls1 & drags ) him 8 beautiful p>i%ion]4 ,%e turns ^u him 9 ord] to escape1 b he soon turns on h] 9 ord] to hold h] bett]6 ,all ?is1 ?\gh ! affair ( a mom5t1 0 long en\gh to cause ! ladies to blu% & cov] _! faces4 ,nev] 9 all my life did ,i see any?+ s %ameful z t sc5e4 ,?is end$ ! game4 ,ev]yone felt a%am$4 ,i make a mi/ake :5 ,i say ev]yone1 because ! m5 7 almo/ all too intoxicat$ to blu%4 ,! prie/s also 7 ei!r too drunk or too mu* accu/om$ to su* sc5es to be a%am$4 ,on ! foll[+ day e "o ( ^? prie/s celebrat$ mass1 & ate :at !y call$ ! body & blood1 ! s\l & div9ity ( ,jesus ,*ri/1 j z if !y _h sp5t ! previ\s ev5+ 9 pray] & m$itation on ! laws ( ,god6 ,he1 ,mr4 ,v>91 0 ! ar*-prie/ ( ! important "p ( ! diocese ( ,quebec f ,la ,rivi]e ,ouelle to ,gaspe4 ,?us1 ,o p]fidi\s ,*ur* ( ,rome1 ?\ deceive/ ! nations :o foll[ !e1 & ru9e/ ev5 ! prie/s :om ?\ make/ ?y slaves4 ,,*apt] ,,vii4 ,,prep>ation ,,= ,,! ,,fir/ ,,communion--,,initiation ,,to ,,idolatry4 ,no?+ c exce$ ! c>e ) :i* ,roman ,ca?olic prie/s prep>e *ildr5 = _! fir/ communion4 ,two & ?ree mon?s are set ap>t e ye> = t purpose4 ,all t "t ! *ildr5 betwe5 t5 & twelve ye>s ( age are oblig$ to g to *ur* almo/ e day1 n only to le>n by he>t _! cate*ism1 b to he> ! explanations ( all its tea*+s4 ,! prie/ :o in/ruct$ u 0 ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,mor91 :om ,i h already m5tion$4 ,he 0 exce$+ly k9d to *ildr51 & we respect$ & lov$ him s9c]ely4 ,8 in/ructions to u 7 some:at long2 b we lik$ to he> him1 = he always _h "s new & int]e/+ /ories to give u4 ,! cate*ism taught z a prep>ation = our fir/ communion 0 ! f\ndation ( ! idolatries & sup]/itions :i* ! ,*ur* ( ,rome gives z ! religion ( ,*ri/4 ,x is by means ( t cate*etical in/ruction t %e obta9s = ! ,pope & 8 repres5tatives t pr(\nd respect1 ,i might say adoration1 :i* is ! secret ( h] p[] & influ5ce4 ,) ?is cate*ism ,rome corrupts ! mo/ sacr$ tru?s ( ! gospel4 ,x is !re t ,jesus is remov$ f ! he>ts = :i* he paid s great a price1 & t ,m>y is put 9 8 place4 ,b ! great iniquity ( sub/itut+ ,m>y = ,jesus is s skillfully conceal$1 x is giv5 ) colors s poetic & beautiful1 & s well adapt$ to captivate human nature1 t x is almo/ impossible = a poor *ild to escape ! sn>e4 ,"o day ! prie/ said to me1 8,/& up1 my *ild1 9 ord] to answ] ! _m important que/ions :i* ,i h to ask y40 ,i /ood up4 8,my *ild10 he said1 8:5 y _h be5 guilty ( "s fault at home1 :o 0 ! fir/ to puni% y--y\r fa!r1 or y\r "m80 ,aft] a few mom5ts hesitation ,i answ]$1 8,my fa!r40 8,y h answ]$ correctly1 my *ild10 said ! prie/4 8,z a matt] ( fact1 ! fa!r is almo/ always m impati5t ) 8 *ildr51 & m ready to puni% !m1 ?an ! "m40 8,n[1 my *ild1 tell u :o puni%$ y mo/ sev]ely--y\r fa!r or y\r "m80 8,my fa!r10 ,i said1 )\t hesitation4 8,/ill true1 my *ild4 ,! sup]ior goodness ( a k9d "m is p]ceiv$ ev5 9 ! act ( correction4 ,h] bl[s are light] ?an ^? ( ! fa!r4 ,fur!r1 :5 y _h des]v$ to be *a/is$1 did n "o sometimes come betwe5 y & y\r fa!r's rod1 tak+ x away f him & pacify+ him80 8,yes10 ,i said2 8"m did t v (t51 & sav$ me f sev]e puni%m5t m ?an once40 8,t is s1 my *ild1 n only = y1 b = all y\r companions "h4 ,h n y\r good mo!rs1 my *ildr51 (t5 sav$ y f y\r fa!rs' corrections ev5 :5 y des]v$ x8 ,answ] me40 8,yes1 sir10 !y all answ]$4 8,"o "q m4 ,:5 y\r fa!r 0 com+ to :ip y1 did y n ?r[ y\rself into ! arms ( "s "o to escape80 8,yes1 sir2 :5 guilty ( some?+1 m ?an once1 ,i ?rew myself into my "m's arms z soon z ,i saw my fa!r com+ to :ip me4 ,%e begg$ p>don = me1 & plead$ s well t ,i (t5 escap$ puni%m5t40 8,y h answ]$ well10 said ! prie/4 ,!n turn+ to ! *ildr51 he cont9u$3 8,y h a ,fa!r & a ,"m 9 heav51 de> *ildr54 ,y\r fa!r is ,jesus1 & y\r "m is ,m>y4 ,d n =get t a "m's he>t is always m t5d] & m prone to m]cy ?an t ( a fa!r4 8,(t5 y (f5d y\r ,fa!r by y\r s9s2 y make ,him angry aga9/ y4 ,:at takes place 9 heav5 !n8 ,y\r ,fa!r 9 heav5 takes ,8 rod to puni% y4 ,he ?reat5s to cru% y d[n ) ,8 ro>+ ?und]2 ,he op5s ! gates ( hell to ca/ y into x1 & y w\ld h be5 damn$ long ago _h x n be5 = ! lov+ ,"m :om y h 9 heav51 :o has dis>m$ y\r angry & irritat$ ,fa!r4 ,:5 ,jesus w\ld puni% y z y des]ve1 ! good ,virg9 ,m>y ha/5s to ,him & pacifies ,him4 ,%e places h]self betwe5 ,him & y1 & prev5ts ,him f smit+ y4 ,%e speaks 9 y\r favor1 %e asks = y\r p>don & %e obta9s x4 8,also1 z "y ,*9iquy has told y1 he (t5 ?rew himself into ! arms ( 8 "m to escape puni%m5t4 ,%e took 8 "p1 & plead$ s well t 8 fa!r yield$ & put away ! rod4 ,?us1 my *ildr51 :5 y\r consci5ce tells y t y are guilty1 t ,jesus is angry aga9/ y & t y h good reason to fe> hell1 ha/5 to ,m>y6 ,?r[ y\rselves into ! arms ( t good "m2 h rec\rse to h] sov]eign p[] ov] ,jesus1 & be assur$ t y w be sav$ ?r\gh h]60 ,x is ?us t ! ,pope & ! prie/s ( ,rome h entirely disfigur$ & *ang$ ! holy religion ( ! gospel6 ,9 ! ,*ur* ( ,rome x is n ,jesus1 b ,m>y1 :o repres5ts ! inf9ite love & m]cy ( ,god = ! s9n]4 ,! s9n] is n advis$ or direct$ to place 8 hope 9 ,jesus1 b 9 ,m>y1 = 8 escape f des]v$ *a/isem5t6 ,x is n ,jesus1 b ,m>y1 :o saves ! s9n]6 ,jesus is always b5t on puni%+ s9n]s2 ,m>y is always m]ciful to !m6 ,! ,*ur* ( ,rome has ?us fall5 into idolatry3 %e r tru/s 9 ,m>y ?an 9 ,jesus4 ,%e con/antly invites s9n]s to turn _! ?\ghts1 _! hopes1 _! affections1 n to ,jesus1 b to ,m>y6 ,by means ( t impi\s doctr9e ,rome deceives ! intellects1 s$uces ! he>ts1 & de/roys ! s\ls ( ! "y =ev]4 ,"u ! pretext ( honor+ ! ,virg9 ,m>y1 %e insults h] by outrag+ & misrepres5t+ h] adorable ,son4 ,rome has br\ght back ! idolatry ( old paganism "u a new "n4 ,%e has replac$ ^u h] alt>s ! ,jupit] ,tonans ( ! ,greeks & ,romans1 only %e places ^u 8 %\ld]s ! mantle & %e writes on ! =ehead ( h] idol ! "n ( ,jesus1 9 ord] ! bett] to deceive ! _w6 ,,*apt] ,,viii ,,! ,,fir/ ,,communion4 ,= ! ,roman ,ca?olic *ild1 h[ beautiful & yet h[ sad is ! day ( 8 fir/ communion6 ,h[ _m joys & anxieties by turn rise 9 8 s\l :5 = ! fir/ "t he is ab\t to eat :at he has be5 taught to believe to be 8 ,god6 ,h[ _m ef=ts he has to make1 9 ord] to de/roy ! manife/ tea*+s ( 8 own rational faculties6 ,i confess ) deep regret t ,i _h almo/ de/roy$ my reason1 9 ord] to prep>e myself = my fir/ communion4 ,yes1 ,i 0 almo/ exhau/$ :5 ! day came t ,i _h to eat :at ! prie/ _h assur$ u 0 ! true body1 ! true blood1 s\l & div9ity ( ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,i 0 ab\t to eat him1 n 9 a symbolical or commemorative1 b 9 a lit]al way4 ,i 0 to eat 8 fle%1 8 bones1 8 h&s1 8 feet1 8 head1 8 :ole body6 ,i _h to believe ?is or be ca/ =ev] into hell1 :ile1 all ! "t1 my eyes1 my h&s1 my m\?1 my tongue1 my reason told me t :at ,i 0 eat+ 0 only bread6 ,has !re ev] be51 or w !re ev] be1 a prie/ or a layman to believe :at ! ,*ur* ( ,rome tea*es on ?is dreadful my/]y ( ! ,real ,pres5ce8 ,%all ,i say t ,i believ$ 9 ! real pres5ce ( ,jesus ,*ri/ 9 ! communion8 ,i believ$ 9 x z all ^? :o are good ,roman ,ca?olics believe4 ,i believ$ z a p]fect idiot or a corpse believes4 ,:atev] is ess5tial to a reasonable act ( fai? _h be5 de/roy$ 9 me on t po9t1 z x is de/roy$ 9 e prie/ & layman 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,rome4 ,my reason z well z my ext]nal s5ses _h be51 z mu* z possible1 sacrific$ at ! feet ( t t]rible mod]n god1 ! ,pope6 ,i _h be5 guilty ( ! incr$ibly fooli% act1 ( :i* all good ,roman ,ca?olics are guilty--,i _h said to my intellectual faculties1 & to all my s5ses1 8,hu%1 y are li>s6 ,i _h believ$ to ?is day t y _h be5 giv5 to me by ,god 9 ord] to enable me to walk 9 ! d>k pa?s ( life1 b1 behold6 ! holy ,pope tea*es me t y are only in/rum5ts ( ! devil to deceive me60 ,:at is a man :o resigns 8 intellectual lib]ty1 & :o c>es n to believe 9 ! te/imony ( 8 s5ses8 ,is he n act+ ! "p ( "o :o has no gift or p[] ( intellig5ce8 ,a good ,roman ,ca?olic mu/ rea* t po9t6 ,t 0 my own condition on ! day ( my fir/ communion4 ,:5 ,jesus said1 8,if ,i _h n come & spok5 unto !m !y _h n _h s92 b n[ !y h no cloak = _! s9s3 if ,i _h n done among !m ! works t none o!r man did1 !y _h n _h s92 b n[ h !y bo? se5 & hat$ bo? me & my ,fa!r0 7,john xv4 #bb-bd71 he %[$ t ! s9 ( ! ,jews consi/$ 9 n hav+ believ$ 9 :at _! eyes _h se5 & _! e>s _h he>d4 ,b behold1 ! ,pope says to ,roman ,ca?olics t !y mu/ n believe 9 :at _! h&s und\bt$ly h&le & _! eyes mo/ cle>ly see6 ,! ,pope sets aside ! te/imony mo/ approv$ by ,jesus4 ,! v witnesses invok$ by ! son ( ,god are ignom9i\sly turn$ out ( c\rt by ! ,pope z false witnesses6 ,z ! mom5t ( tak+ ! communion drew ne>1 two feel+s 7 at w> 9 my m9d1 ea* /ruggl+ = victory4 ,i rejoic$ 9 ! ?\ght t ,i w\ld soon h full possession ( ,jesus ,*ri/1 b at ! same "t ,i 0 tr\bl$ & humbl$ by ! absurdity :i* ,i _h to believe be=e receiv+ t sacram5t4 ,?\gh sc>cely twelve ye>s old1 ,i _h suffici5tly accu/om$ myself to reflect on ! pr(\nd d>kness :i* cov]$ t dogma4 ,i _h be5 also greatly 9 ! habit ( tru/+ my eyes1 & ,i ?\ght t ,i c\ld easily di/+ui% betwe5 a small piece ( bread & a full-gr[n man6 ,besides1 ,i extremely abhorr$ ! idea ( eat+ human fle% & dr9k+ human blood1 ev5 :5 !y assur$ me t !y 7 ! fle% & blood ( ,jesus ,*ri/ himself4 ,b :at tr\bl$ me mo/ 0 ! idea ( t ,god1 :o 0 repres5t$ to me z be+ s great1 s glori\s1 s holy1 be+ eat5 by me l a piece ( common bread6 ,t]rible !n 0 ! /ruggle 9 my "y he>t1 :]e joy & dread1 tru/ & fe>1 fai? & unbelief by turns _h ! upp] h&4 ,:ile t secret /ruggle1 kn[n only to ,god & to myself1 0 go+ on1 ,i _h (t5 to wipe (f ! cold p]spiration :i* came on my br[4 ,) all ! /r5g? ( my s\l ,i pray$ to ,god & ! ,holy ,virg9 to be m]ciful unto me1 to help1 & give me suffici5t /r5g? & light to pass ov] ^! h\rs ( angui%4 ,! ,*ur* ( ,rome is evid5tly ! mo/ skillful human ma*9e ! _w has ev] se54 ,^? :o guide h] 9 ! d>k pa?s :i* %e foll[s are (t5 m5 ( deep ?\ght4 ,!y und]/& h[ difficult x w\ld be to get calm1 hone/ & ?9k+ m9ds to receive t mon/r\s dogma ( ! real corporal pres5ce ( ,jesus ,*ri/ 9 ! communion4 ,!y well =esaw ! /ruggle :i* w\ld take place ev5 9 ! m9ds ( *ildr5 at ! supreme mom5t :5 !y w\ld h to sacrifice _! reason on ! alt> ( ,rome4 ,9 ord] to prev5t ^? /ruggles1 always s dang]\s to ! ,*ur*1 no?+ has be5 neglect$ to di/ract ! m9d & draw ! att5tion to o!r subjects ?an t ( ! communion itself4 ,fir/1 at ! reque/ ( ! p>i% prie/1 help$ by ! vanity ( ! p>5ts !mselves1 ! *ildr5 are dress$ z elegantly z possible4 ,! "y communicant is clo!d 9 e way be/ calculat$ to flatt] 8 own vanity also4 ,! *ur* build+ is pomp\sly decorat$4 ,! *>ms ( *oice vocal & in/rum5tal music =m a "p ( ! fete4 ,! mo/ odor\s inc5se burns ar\nd ! alt> & asc5ds 9 a sweet-smell+ cl\d t[>ds heav54 ,! :ole p>i% is invit$1 & p come f e direction to enjoy a mo/ beautiful spectacle4 ,prie/s f ! neighbor+ *ur*es are call$1 9 ord] to add to ! solemnity ( ! day4 ,! (ficiat+ prie/ is dress$ 9 ! mo/ co/ly attire4 ,?is is ! day on :i* silv] & gold alt>-clo?s are display$ be=e ! eyes ( ! wond]+ spectators4 ,(t5 a light$ wax tap] is plac$ 9 ! h& ( ea* "y communicant1 :i* itself w\ld be suffici5t to draw 8 :ole att5tion2 = a s+le false motion w\ld be en\gh to set fire to ! clo!s ( 8 neighbor1 or 8 own1 a mis=tune :i* has happ5$ m ?an once 9 my pres5ce4 ,n[1 9 ! mid/ ( t new & wond]ful spectacle2 ( s++ ,lat9 psalms1 n a ^w ( :i* he und]/&s2 9 view ( gold & silv] ornam5ts1 :i* glitt] ev]y:]e be=e 8 dazzl$ eyes2 busy ) ! hold+ ( ! light$ tap]1 :i* keeps him con/antly 9 fe> ( be+ burn$ alive1 c ! "y communicant ?9k = a mom5t ( :at he is ab\t to d8 ,poor *ild6 8 m9d1 e>s1 eyes1 no/rils are s mu* tak5 up ) ^? new1 /rik+ & wond]ful ?+s t1 :ile 8 imag9ation is w&]+ f "o object to ano!r1 ! mom5t ( communion arrives1 )\t leav+ him "t to ?9k ( :at he is ab\t to d6 ,he op5s 8 m\?1 & ! prie/ puts ^u 8 tongue a flat ?9 cake ( unleav5$ bread1 :i* ei!r firmly /icks to 8 palate or o!rwise melts 9 8 m\?1 soon to g d[n into 8 /oma* j l ! food he takes ?ree times a day6 ,! fir/ feel+ ( ! *ild1 !n1 is t ( surprise at ! ?\ght t ! ,creator ( heav5 & e>?1 ! uphold] ( ! univ]se1 ! ,savi\r ( ! _w1 c\ld s easily pass d[n 8 ?roat6 ,n[1 foll[ ^? *ildr5 to _! homes aft] t great & mon/r\s com$y4 ,see _! gait6 ,li/5 to _! conv]sation & _! bur/s ( laught]6 ,/udy _! mann]s1 _! com+ 91 _! go+ out1 _! glances ( satisfaction on _! f9e clo!s1 & ! vanity :i* !y manife/ 9 return = ! congratulations !y receive on _! f9e dresses4 ,notice ! lightness ( _! actions & conv]sation imm$iately aft] _! communion1 & tell me if y f9d any?+ indicat+ t !y believ$ 9 ! t]rible dogma !y h be5 taught6 ,no1 !y h n believ$ 9 x1 nei!r w !y ev] d s ) ! firmness ( fai? :i* is accompani$ by intellig5ce4 ,! poor *ild ?9ks he believes1 & he s9c]ely tries to d s4 ,he believes 9 x z mu* z x is possible to believe 9 a mo/ mon/r\s & ridicul\s /ory1 oppos$ to ! simple/ notions ( tru? & common s5se4 ,he believes z ,roman ,ca?olics believe4 ,he believes z an idiot believes66 ,he believes z a corpse believes6 ,t fir/ communion has made ( him1 = ! re/ ( 8 life1 a real ma*9e 9 ! h&s ( ! ,pope4 ,x is ! fir/ b mo/ p[]ful l9k ( t long *a9 ( slav]y :i* ! prie/ & ! ,*ur* pass ar\nd 8 neck4 ,! ,pope holds ! end ( t *a91 & ) x he w make 8 victim g "r or left at 8 pleasure1 9 ! same way t we gov]n ! l[] animals4 ,if ^? *ildr5 h made a good fir/ communion !y w be submissive to ! ,pope1 accord+ to ! en]getic ^w ( ,loyola4 ,!y w be 9 ! h&s ( ! ,supreme ,pontiff ( ,rome j :at ! /ick is 9 ! h& ( ! travell]--!y w h no w1 no ?\ght ( _! own6 ,& if ,god does n "w a miracle to br+ !m out f ! bondage :i* is a ?\s& times worse ?an ! ,egyptian1 !y w rema9 9 t /ate dur+ ! re/ ( _! lives4 ,my s\l has kn[n ! weight ( ^? *a9s4 ,x has felt ! ignom9y ( t slav]y6 ,b ! great ,conqu]or ( s\ls has ca/ d[n a m]ciful eye ^u me4 ,he has brok5 my *a9s1 & ) ,8 holy ,^w ,he has made me free4 ,may ,8 "n be =ev] bless$6 ,,*apt] ,,ix4 ,,intellectual ,,education ,,9 ,,! ,,roman ,,ca?olic ,,college4 ,i f9i%$1 at ! ,college ( ,nicolet1 9 ! mon? ( ,augu/1 #ahbi1 my classical c\rse ( /udy :i* ,i _h begun 9 #ahbb4 ,i c\ld easily h le>n$ 9 ?ree or f\r ye>s :at 0 taught 9 ^? sev5 ye>s4 ,x took u ?ree ye>s to /udy ,lat9 gramm>1 :5 twelve mon?s w\ld h suffic$ = all we le>n$ ( x4 ,x is true t dur+ t "t we 7 taught "s ( ! rudim5ts ( ! ,fr5* gramm>1 ) ! elem5ts ( ari?metic & geography4 ,b all ?is 0 s sup]ficial1 t our tea*]s (t5 seem$ m desir\s to pass away our "t ?an to enl>ge our und]/&+s4 ,i c say ! same ?+ ab\t ! ,belles ,lettres & ( rhetoric1 :i* we /udi$ two ye>s4 ,a ye> ( e>ne/ /udy w\ld h suffic$ to le>n :at 0 taught u dur+ ^! tw5ty-f\r mon?s4 ,z = ! two ye>s devot$ to ! /udy ( logic1 & ( ! subjects class$ "u ! "n ( philosophy1 x w\ld n h be5 too long a "t if ^? que/ions ( philosophy _h be5 hone/ly giv5 u4 ,b ! /ud5t 9 ! college ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome is condemn$ to ! torm5ts ( ,tantalus4 ,he has inde$ ! refre%+ wat]s ( ,sci5ce put to 8 lips1 b he is con/antly prev5t$ f ta/+ !m4 ,to enl>ge & s]i\sly cultivate ! intellig5ce 9 a ,roman ,ca?olic college is a ?+ absolutely out ( ! "q4 ,m ?an t1 all ! ef=ts ( ! pr9cipals 9 _! colleges & conv5ts t5d to prove to ! pupil t 8 intellig5ce is 8 greate/ & mo/ dang]\s enemy--t x is l an untamable animal1 :i* mu/ con/antly be kept 9 *a9s4 ,e day ! s*ol> is told t 8 reason 0 n giv5 him t he might be guid$ by x1 b only t he may "k ! h& ( ! man by :om he mu/ be guid$4 ,& t h& is none o!r ?an ! ,pope's4 ,all ! res\rces ( language1 all ! mo/ +5i\s sophisms1 all ! passages ( bo? ! ,fa!rs & ! ,holy ,scriptures be>+ on ?is "q are arrang$ & p]v]t$ ) inconceivable art to demon/rate to ! pupil t 8 reason has no p[] to tea* him any?+ else ?an t x mu/ be subject$ to ! ,supreme ,pontiff ( ,rome1 :o is ! only f\ndation ( tru? & light giv5 by ,god to guide ! intellig5ce & to enlight5 & save ! _w4 ,rome1 9 h] colleges & conv5ts1 br+s up1 or raises up1 ! y\? f _! e>lie/ ye>s2 b to :at height does %e p]mit ! "y man or woman to be rais$8 ,nev] high] ?an ! feet ( ! ,pope66 ,z soon z 8 intellig5ce1 guid$ by ! ,jesuit1 has asc5d$ to ! feet ( ! ,pope1 x mu/ rema9 !re1 pro/rate itself & fall asleep4 ,! ,pope6 ,t is ! great object t[>ds :i* all ! intellig5ce ( ! ,roman ,ca?olics mu/ be conv]g$4 ,x is ! sun ( ! _w1 ! f\ndation & ! only support ( ,*ri/ian k & civilization4 ,:at a privilege x is to be lazy1 /upid & sluggi% 9 a college ( ,rome6 ,h[ soon su* an "o gets to ! summit ( sci5ce1 & becomes ma/] ( all k6 ,"o ne$s only to kiss ! feet ( ! ,pope1 & fall into a p]fect slumb] !re4 ,! ,pope ?9ks = him6 ,x is he 7! ,pope7 :o w tell him :at he c & %\ld ?9k1 & :at he c & %\ld believe6 ,i _h arriv$ at t degree ( p]fection at ! end ( my /udies1 & ,j4 ,b4 ,b>!1 ,esq41 ,m4,p4,p41 be+ editor ( "o ( ! pr9cipal pap]s ( ,montreal 9 #ahdd1 c\ld write 9 8 pap] :5 my 8,manual ( ,temp]ance0 0 publi%$3 8,mr4 ,*9iquy has cr[n$ 8 apo/le%ip ( temp]ance by t "w1 ) t ard5t & holy ambition ( "* ( :i* he gave u s _m tok5s 9 8 collegiate life1 :]e we h be5 s _m ye>s ! witness ( 8 piety :5 he 0 ! model ( 8 fell[ /ud5ts1 :o _h call$ him ! ,l\is de ,gonzague ( ,nicolet40 ,^! words ( ! ,montreal memb] ( ,p>liam5t mean only t1 wi%+ to be sav$ z ,/4 ,l\is de ,gonzague1 ,i _h bl9dly ti$ myself to ! feet ( my sup]iors4 ,i _h1 z mu* z possible1 ext+ui%$ all ! enlight5m5ts ( my own m9d to foll[ ! reason & ! w ( my sup]iors4 ,^! complim5ts mean t ,i 0 walk+ l a bl9d man :om 8 guide holds by ! h&4 ,?\gh my intellig5ce (t5 revolt$ aga9/ ! fables ) :i* ,i 0 nurtur$1 ,i yet =c$ myself to accept !m z gospel tru?s2 & ?\gh ,i (t5 rebell$ aga9/ ! ridicul\s sophisms :i* 7 babbl$ to me z ! only pr9ciples ( tru? & ,*ri/ian philosophy1 yet z (t5 did ,i impose sil5ce on my reason1 & =ce x to submit to ! falsehoods :i* ,i 0 oblig$ to take = ,god's tru?6 ,b1 z ,i h j confess$ x1 not)/&+ my good w to submit to my sup]iors1 !re 7 times ( t]rible /ruggle 9 my s\l1 :5 all ! p[]s ( my m9d seem$ to revolt aga9/ ! degrad+ fett]s :i* ,i 0 =c$ to =ge = myself4 ,i %all nev] =get ! day :51 9 ! foll[+ t]ms1 ,i express$ to my ,pr(essor 9 ,philosophy1 ! ,rev4 ,*>les ,h>p]1 d\bts :i* ,i _h conceiv$ conc]n+ ! absolute necessity ( ! inf]ior to submit 8 reason to 8 sup]ior4 8,:5 ,i %all h completely b\nd myself to obey my sup]ior1 if he abuses 8 au?ority ov] me to deceive me by false doctr9es1 or if he comm&s me to d ?+s :i* ,i consid] wrong & di%one/1 %all ,i n be lo/ if ,i obey him80 ,he answ]$3 8,y w nev] h to give an acc\nt to ,god = ! actions t y d by ! ord] ( y\r legitimate sup]iors4 ,if !y 7 to deceive y1 be+ !mselves deceiv$1 !y alone w\ld be responsible = ! error :i* y w\ld h committ$4 ,y\r s9 w\ld n be imput$ to y z long z y foll[ ! gold5 rule :i* is ! base ( all ,*ri/ian philosophy & p]fection--humility & ob$i5ce60 ,little satisfi$ ) t answ]1 :5 ! lesson 0 ov] ,i express$ my reluctance to accept su* pr9ciples to sev]al ( my fell[ /ud5ts4 ,among !m 0 ,joseph ,turcot1 :o di$ "s ye>s ago :51 ,i ?9k1 he 0 ,m9i/] ( ,public ,works 9 ,canada4 ,he answ]$ me3 8,! m ,i /udy :at !y call _! pr9ciples ( ,*ri/ian philosophy & logic1 ! m ,i ?9k t !y int5d to make asses ( e "o ( u60 ,on ! foll[+ day ,i op5$ my he>t to ! v5]able man :o 0 our pr9cipal--! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,leprohon4 ,i us$ to v5]ate him z a sa9t & love him z a fa!r4 ,i frankly told him t ,i felt v reluctant 9 submitt+ myself to ! crude pr9ciples :i* seem$ to lead u into ! mo/ abject slav]y1 ! slav]y ( our reason & intellig5ce4 ,i wrote d[n 8 answ]1 :i* ,i give "h3 8,my de> ,*9iquy1 h[ did ,adam & ,eve lose !mselves 9 ! ,g>d5 ( ,ed51 & h[ did !y br+ ^u u all ! deluge ( evils by :i* we are ov]:elm$8 ,is x n because !y rais$ _! mis]able reason above t ( ,god8 ,!y _h ! promise ( et]nal life if !y _h submitt$ _! reason to t ( _! ,supreme ,ma/]4 ,!y 7 lo/ on acc\nt ( _! rebell+ aga9/ ! au?ority1 ! reason ( ,god4 ,?us x is to-day4 ,all ! evils1 ! errors1 ! crimes by :i* ! _w is ov]flood$ come f ! same revolt ( ! human w & reason aga9/ ! w & reason ( ,god4 ,god reigns yet ov] a "p ( ! _w1 ! _w ( ! elect1 ?r\gh ! ,pope1 :o controls ! tea*+s ( our infallible & holy ,*ur*4 ,9 submitt+ ourselves to ,god1 :o speaks to u ?r\gh ! ,pope1 we are sav$4 ,we walk 9 ! pa?s ( tru? & hol9ess4 ,b we w\ld err1 & infallibly p]i%1 z soon z we put our reason above t ( our sup]ior1 ! ,pope1 speak+ to u 9 p]son1 or ?r\gh "s ( our sup]iors :o h receiv$ f him ! au?ority to guide u40 8,b10 said ,i1 8if my reason tells me t ! ,pope1 or "s ( ^? o!r sup]iors :o are put by him ov] me1 are mi/ak51 & t !y comm& me some?+ wrong1 w\ld ,i n be guilty be=e ,god if ,i obey !m80 8,y suppose a ?+ utt]ly impossible10 answ]$ ,mr4 ,leprohon1 8= ! ,pope & ! bi%ops :o are unit$ to him h ! promise ( nev] fail+ 9 ! fai?4 ,!y _c lead y into any errors1 nor comm& y any?+ aga9/ ! law ( ,god4 ,b suppos+ = a mom5t t !y w\ld commit any error1 & t !y w\ld compel y to believe or d some?+ contr>y to ! tea*+s ( ! gospel1 ,god w\ld n ask ( y any acc\nt ( an error committ$ :5 y are obey+ y\r legitimate sup]ior40 ,i _h to cont5t myself ) t answ]1 :i* ,i put d[n ^w = ^w 9 my note book4 ,b 9 spite ( my respectful sil5ce1 ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,leprohon saw t ,i 0 yet uneasy & sad4 ,9 ord] to conv9ce me ( ! or?odoxy ( 8 doctr9es1 he in/antly put into my h&s ! two works ( ,de ,mai/re1 8,le ,pape0 & 8,les ,soirees de ,/4 ,pet]sburg10 :]e ,i f\nd ! same doctr9es support$4 ,my sup]ior 0 hone/ 9 8 convictions4 ,he s9c]ely believ$ 9 ! s\nd philosophy & ,*ri/ianity ( 8 pr9ciples1 = he f\nd !m 9 ^! books approv$ by ! 8infallible ,popes40 ,i w m5tion ano!r occurr5ce to %[ ! inconceivable intellectual degradation to :i* we _h be5 dragg$ at ! end ( sev5 ye>s ( collegiate /udies4 ,ab\t ! ye> #ahbi ! curate ( ,/4 ,anne de la ,p>ade wrote to our pr9cipal1 ,rev4 ,mr4 ,leprohon1 to ask ! assi/ance ( ! pray]s ( all ! /ud5ts ( ! ,college ( ,nicolet 9 ord] to obta9 ! discont9uance ( ! foll[+ calamity3 8,= m ?an ?ree weeks "o ( ! mo/ respectable f>m]s 0 9 dang] ( los+ all 8 horses f ! effects ( a sorc]y6 ,f morn+ to night1 & dur+ mo/ ( ! night1 repeat$ bl[s ( :ips & /icks 7 he>d fall+ ^u ^! poor horses1 :i* 7 trembl+1 foam+ & /ruggl+6 ,we c see no?+6 ,! h& ( ! wiz>d rema9s invisible4 ,pray = u1 t we may discov] ! mon/]1 & t he may be puni%$ z he des]ves40 ,su* 7 ! cont5ts ( ! prie/'s lett]2 & z my sup]ior s9c]ely believ$ 9 t fable1 ,i also believ$ x1 z well z ! /ud5ts ( ! college :o _h a true piety4 ,on t %ore ( abject & degrad+ sup]/itions ,i _h to l& aft] sail+ sev5 ye>s 9 ! b>k call$ a college ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome6 ,! intellectual "p ( ! /udies 9 a college ( ,rome1 & x is ! same 9 a conv5t1 is !re=e entirely wor?less4 ,worse ?an t1 ! intellig5ce is dw>f$ "u ! *a9s by :i* x is b\nd4 ,if ! intellig5ce does sometimes advance1 x is 9 spite ( ! fett]s plac$ ^u x2 x is only l "s few noble %ips :i*1 ?r\gh ! extraord9>y skill ( _! pilots1 g ahead aga9/ w9d & tide4 ,i "k t ! prie/s ( ,rome c %[ a c]ta9 numb] ( intellig5t m5 9 e bran* ( sci5ce :o h /udi$ 9 _! colleges4 ,b ^! rem>kable m5 _h f ! beg9n+ secretly brok5 = !mselves ! *a9s ) :i* _! sup]iors _h tri$ to b9d !m4 ,= peace sake !y _h outw>dly foll[$ ! rules ( ! h\se1 b !y _h secretly trampl$ "u ! feet ( _! noble s\ls ! ignoble fett]s :i* _h be5 prep>$ = _! und]/&+4 ,true *ildr5 ( ,god & light1 !y _h f\nd ! secret ( rema9+ free ev5 :5 9 ! d>k cells ( a dungeon6 ,give me ! names ( ! rem>kable & intellig5t m5 :o h /udi$ 9 a college ( ,rome1 & h become real lights 9 ! firmam5t ( sci5ce1 & ,i w prove t n9e-t5?s ( !m h be5 p]secut$1 excommunicat$1 tortur$1 "s ev5 put to dea? = hav+ d>$ to ?9k = !mselves4 ,galileo 0 a ,roman ,ca?olic1 & he is surely "o ( ! greate/ m5 :om sci5ce claims z h] mo/ gift$ sons4 ,b 0 he n s5t to a dungeon8 ,0 he n publicly flogg$ by ! h&s ( ! execution]8 ,_h he n to ask p>don f ,god & man = hav+ d>$ to ?9k diff]5tly f ! ,pope ab\t ! motion ( ! e>? ar\nd ! sun6 ,cop]nicus 0 surely "o ( ! greate/ lights ( 8 "t1 b 0 he n c5sur$ & excommunicat$ = 8 admirable sci5tific discov]ies8 ,france does n "k any great] g5ius among h] mo/ gift$ sons ?an ,pascal4 ,he 0 a ,ca?olic4 ,b he liv$ & di$ excommunicat$4 ,! ,*ur* ( ,rome boa/s ( ,bossuet1 ! ,bi%op ( ,meaux1 z "o ( ! greate/ m5 %e ev] _h4 ,yes2 b has n ,veuillot1 ! editor ( ! ,univ]s1 :o kn[s 8 man well1 confess$ & decl>$ be=e ! :ole _w t ,bossuet 0 a disguis$ ,prote/ant8 ,:]e c we f9d a m amiable or le>n$ writ] ?an ,montalemb]t1 :o has s fai?fully & bravely f\ght ! battle ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome 9 ,france dur+ m ?an a qu>t] ( a c5tury8 ,b has he n publicly decl>$ on 8 dea?-b$ t t ,*ur* 0 an apo/ate & idolatr\s ,*ur* f ! day t %e proclaim$ ! dogma ( ! ,infallibility ( ! ,pope8 ,has he n virtually di$ an excommunicat$ man = hav+ said ) 8 la/ brea? t ! ,pope 0 no?+ else ?an a false god8 ,^? pupils ( ,roman ,ca?olic colleges ( :om sometimes ! prie/s s imprud5tly boa/1 h gone out f ! h&s ( _! ,jesuit tea*]s to proclaim _! supreme contempt = ! ,roman ,ca?olic prie/hood & ,papacy4 ,!y h be5 ne> en\gh to ! prie/ to "k him4 ,!y h se5 ) _! own eyes t ! prie/ ( ,rome is ! mo/ dang]\s1 ! mo/ implacable enemy ( intellig5ce1 progress & lib]ty2 & if _! arm be n p>alyz$ by c[>dice1 selfi%ness or hypocrisy1 ^? pupils ( ! colleges ( ,rome w be ! fir/ to d5\nce ! prie/hood ( ,rome & demoli% h] citadels4 ,voltaire /udi$ 9 a ,roman ,ca?olic college1 & x 0 probably :5 at _! s*ool t he n]v$ himself = ! t]rible battle he has f\ght aga9/ ,rome4 ,! ,*ur* w nev] recov] f ! bl[ :i* ,voltaire has /ruck at h] 9 ,france4 ,cav\r1 9 ,italy1 _h /udi$ 9 a ,roman ,ca?olic college also1 & "u t v ro( x is m ?an probable t 8 noble intellig5ce _h sworn to break ! ignom9i\s fett]s ) :i* ,rome _h enslav$ 8 fair c\ntry4 ,! mo/ eloqu5t ( ! orators ( ,spa91 ,ca/el>1 /udi$ 9 a ,roman ,ca?olic college2 b he> ) :at burn+ eloqu5ce he d5\nces ! tyranny1 hypocrisy1 selfi%ness & ignorance ( ! prie/s4 ,pap9eau /udi$ "u ! prie/s ( ,rome 9 _! college at ,montreal4 ,f 8 e>lie/ ye>s t ,eagle ( ,canada c\ld see & "k ! prie/s ( ,rome z !y are2 he has weigh$ !m 9 ! balance2 he has measur$ !m2 he has fa?om$ ! d>k recesses ( _! anti-social pr9ciples2 he has felt 8 %\ld]s w\nd$ & ble$+ "u ! ignom9i\s *a9s ) :i* !y dragg$ our de> ,canada 9 ! mire = ne>ly two c5turies4 ,pap9eau 0 a pupil ( ! prie/s2 & ,i h he>d sev]al prie/s boa/+ ( t z a glori\s ?+4 ,b ! e*oes ( ,canada are /ill repeat+ ! ?und]+ words ) :i* ,pap9eau d5\nc$ ! prie/s z ! mo/ deadly enemies ( ! education & lib]ty ( ,canada6 ,he 0 "o ( ! fir/ m5 ( ,canada to und]/& t !re 0 no progress1 no lib]ty possible = our belov$ c\ntry s long z ! prie/s w\ld h ! education ( our p 9 _! h&s4 ,! :ole life ( ,pap9eau 0 a /ruggle to wre/ ,canada f _! grasp4 ,ev]yone kn[s h[ he con/antly br&$ !m1 )\t pity1 dur+ 8 life1 & ! :ole _w has be5 ! witness ( ! supreme contempt ) :i* he has refus$ _! s]vices1 & turn$ !m out at ! solemn h\r ( 8 dea?6 ,:51 9 #agib1 ,france want$ to be free1 %e und]/ood t ! prie/s ( ,rome 7 ! greate/ enemies ( h] lib]ties4 ,%e turn$ !m out f h] soil or hung !m to h] gibbets4 ,if to-day t noble c\ntry ( our ance/ors is /umbl+ & /ruggl+ 9 h] te>s & h] blood--if %e has fall5 at ! feet ( h] enemies--if h] valiant arm has be5 p>alyz$1 h] sword brok5 & h] /rong he>t sadd5$ above measure1 is x n because %e _h mo/ imprud5tly put h]self aga9 "u ! yoke ( ,rome8 ,canada's *ildr5 w cont9ue to flee f ! c\ntry ( _! bir? s long z ! prie/ ( ,rome holds ! influ5ce :i* is bla/+ ev]y?+ t falls )9 8 grasp1 on ?is cont95t z well z 9 ,europe2 & ! ,unit$ ,/ates w soon see _! mo/ sacr$ in/itutions fall1 "o aft] ! o!r1 if ! ,am]icans cont9ue to s5d _! sons & daught]s to ! ,jesuit colleges & nunn]ies4 ,:51 9 ! w>me/ days ( summ]1 y see a l>ge swamp ( /agnant & putrid wat]1 y are sure t deadly miasma w spread ar\nd1 t diseases ( ! mo/ malignant "*1 pov]ty1 suff]+s ( e k9d1 & dea? w soon deva/ate ! un=tunate c\ntry2 s1 :5 y see ,roman ,ca?olic colleges & nunn]ies rais+ _! haughty /eeples ov] "s comm&+ hills or 9 ! mid/ ( "s beautiful valleys1 y may confid5tly expect t ! self-respect & ! manly virtues ( ! p w soon disappe>--intellig5ce1 progress1 prosp]ity w soon wane away1 to be replac$ by sup]/ition1 idl5ess1 drunk5ness1 ,sabba?-break+1 ignorance1 pov]ty & degradation ( e k9d4 ,! colleges & nunn]ies are ! high citadels f :i* ! ,pope d>ts 8 sure/ missiles aga9/ ! rights & lib]ties ( nations4 ,! colleges & nunn]ies are ! ars5als :]e ! mo/ deadly weapons are night & day prep>$ to fight & de/roy ! soldi]s ( lib]ty all ov] ! _w4 ,! colleges & nunn]ies ( ! prie/s are ! secret places :]e ! enemies ( progress1 equality & lib]ty are hold+ _! c\ncils & fom5t+ t great conspiracy1 ! object ( :i* is to enslave ! _w at ! feet ( ! ,pope4 ,! colleges & nunn]ies ( ,rome are ! s*ools :]e ! ris+ g5]ations are taught t x is an impiety to foll[ ! dictates ( _! own consci5ce1 he> ! voice ( _! intellig5ce1 read ! ,^w ( ,god1 & wor%ip _! ,creator accord+ to ! rules laid d[n 9 ! gospel4 ,x is 9 ! colleges & nunn]ies ( ,rome t m5 le>n t !y are creat$ to obey ! ,pope 9 ev]y?+--t ! ,bible mu/ be burnt1 & t lib]ty mu/ be de/roy$ at any co/ all ov] ! _w4 ,,*apt] ,x4 ,,moral ,,& ,,religi\s ,,in/ruction ,,9 ,,! ,,roman ,,ca?olic ,,colleges4 ,9 ord] to und]/& :at k9d ( moral education /ud5ts 9 ,roman ,ca?olic colleges receive1 "o mu/ only be told t f beg9n+ to ! end !y are surr\nd$ by an atmosph]e 9 :i* no?+ b ,paganism is brea!d4 ,! models ( eloqu5ce :i* we le>n$ by he>t 7 almo/ exclusively tak5 f ,pagan lit]ature4 ,9 ! same mann] ,pagan models ( wisdom1 ( honor1 ( *a/ity 7 (f]$ to our admiration4 ,our m9ds 7 con/antly fix$ on ! ma/]pieces :i* ,paganism has left4 ,! doors ( our und]/&+ 7 left op5 only to receive ! rays ( light :i* ,paganism has %$ on ! _w4 ,hom]1 ,socrates1 ,lycurgus1 ,virgil1 ,horace1 ,cic]o1 ,tacitus1 ,cs>1 ,x5ophon1 ,demo/h5es2 ,alex&]1 ,lucretia1 ,regulus1 ,brutus1 ,jupit]1 ,v5us1 ,m9]va1 ,m>s1 ,diana1 etc41 etc41 cr[d$ ea* o!r 9 our ?\ghts1 to occupy !m & be _! models1 examples & ma/]s = ev]4 ,x may be said t ! same ,pagan writ]s1 orators & h]oes are /udi$1 read & admir$ 9 ,prote/ant colleges4 ,b !re ! infallible antidote1 ! ,bible1 is giv5 to ! /ud5ts4 ,j z no?+ rema9s ( ! d>kness ( night aft] ! spl5did morn+ sun has aris5 on ! horizon1 s no?+ ( ! fallacies1 sup]/itions & sophisms ( ,paganism c tr\ble or obscure ! m9d on :i* t light f heav51 ! ,^w ( ,god1 comes e day ) its millions ( %9+ rays4 ,h[ insignificant is ! poetry ( ,hom] :5 comp>$ ) ! sublime songs ( ,moses6 ,h[ pale is ! eloqu5ce ( ,demo/h5es1 ,cic]o1 ,virgil1 etc41 :5 read aft] ,job1 ,david or ,solomon6 ,h[ quickly tumble d[n ! !ories :i* ^? haughty hea!ns ( old want$ to raise ov] ! intellig5ce ( m5 :5 ! ?und]+ voice f ,s9ai is he>d2 :5 ! incomp>able songs ( ,david1 ,solomon1 ,isaiah or ,j]emiah are ravi%+ ! s\l :i* is li/5+ to _! cele/ial /ra9s6 ,x is a fact t ,pagan eloqu5ce & philosophy c be b v ta/eless to m5 accu/om$ to be f$ ) ! bread :i* comes d[n f heav51 ^: s\ls are fill$ ) ! eloqu5ce ( ,god1 & ^: intellig5ce is f$ ) ! philosophy ( heav54 ,b1 alas6 = me & my fell[-/ud5ts 9 ! college ( ,rome6 ,no sun ev] appe>$ on ! horizon to dispel ! night 9 :i* our intellig5ce 0 wrapp$4 ,! d>k cl\ds ) :i* ,paganism _h surr\nd$ u 7 suffocat+ u1 & no brea? f heav5 0 all[$ to come & dispel !m4 ,moses1 ) 8 incomp>able legislation1 ,david & ,solomon ) _! div9e poems1 ,job ) 8 cele/ial philosophy1 ,j]emiah1 ,isaiah & ,daniel ) _! sublime songs1 ,jesus ,*ri/ himself ) 8 s\l-sav+ gospel1 z well z 8 apo/les ,pet]1 ,john1 ,jude1 ,james & ,paul--^! 7 all put on ! ,index66 ,!y _h n ! lib]ty to speak to u1 & we 7 =bidd51 absolutely =bidd51 to read & he> !m6 ,x is true t ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 z an (fset to t1 gave u h] pr9ciples1 precepts1 fables & leg5ds t we might be atta*$ to h]1 & t %e might rema9 ! mi/ress ( our he>ts4 ,b ^! doctr9es1 practices1 pr9ciples & fables seem$ to u s evid5tly borr[$ f ,paganism--!y 7 s cold1 s nak$1 s /ripp$ ( all true poetry1 t if ! ,paganism ( ! anci5ts 0 n left absolute ma/] ( our affections1 x /ill claim$ a l>ge "p ( our s\ls4 ,to create 9 u a love = ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 our sup]iors dep5d$ greatly on ! works ( ,*ateaubri&4 ,! 8,g5ie du ,*ri/ianisme0 0 ! book ( books to dispel all our d\bts1 & atta* u to ! ,pope's religion4 ,b ?is au?or1 ^: /yle is sometimes really beautiful1 de/roy$1 by ! weakness ( 8 logic1 ! ,*ri/ianity :i* he want$ to build up4 ,we c\ld easily see t ,*ateaubri& 0 n s9c]e1 & 8 exagg]ations 7 to _m ( u a sure indication t he did n believe 9 :at he said4 ,! works ( ,de ,mai/re1 ! mo/ impud5t hi/ory-falsificator ( ,france1 7 also put into our h&s z a sure guide 9 our philosophical & hi/orical /udies4 ,! 8,memoirs du ,comte ,valmont10 ) "s au?ors ( ! same /amp1 7 mu* reli$ on by our sup]iors to prove to u t ! dogmas1 precepts & practices ( ! ,roman ,ca?olic religion 7 br\ght f heav54 ,x 0 c]ta9ly our desire z well z our int]e/ to believe !m4 ,b h[ our fai? 0 %ak51 & h[ we felt tr\bl$ :5 ,livy1 ,tacitus1 ,cic]o1 ,virgil1 ,hom]1 etc41 gave u ! evid5ce t ! great] "p ( ^! ?+s _h _! root & _! orig9 9 ,paganism4 ,= in/ance1 our sup]iors _h conv9c$ u t scapul>s1 m$als1 holy wat]1 etc41 w\ld be ( great s]vice to u 9 battl+ ) ! mo/ dang]\s temptations1 z well z 9 avoid+ ! mo/ common dang]s ( life4 ,consequ5tly we all _h scapul>s & m$als1 :i* we kept ) ! greate/ respect1 & ev5 kiss$ morn+ & ev5+ ) affection1 z if !y 7 p[]ful in/rum5ts ( ! m]cy ( ,god to u4 ,h[ great1 !n1 0 our confusion & disappo9tm5t :5 we discov]$ 9 ! ,greek & ,lat9 hi/orians t ^? scapul>s & m$als & /atuettes 7 no?+ b a remnant ( ,paganism1 & t ! wor%ipp]s ( ,jupit]1 ,m9]va1 ,diana & ,v5us believ$ !mselves also free1 z we did1 f all calamity :5 !y c>ri$ !m 9 honor ( ^! div9ities6 ,! fur!r we advanc$ 9 ! /udy ( ,pagan antiquity1 ! m we 7 =c$ to believe t our religion1 in/ead ( be+ born at ! foot ( ,calv>y1 0 only a pale & awkw>d imitation ( ,paganism4 ,! mod]n ,maximus ,pontifex 7! ,pope ( ,rome71 :o1 z we 7 assur$1 0 ! successor ( ,/4 ,pet]1 ! ,vic> ( ,jesus ,*ri/1 resembl$ ! 8,pontifex ,maximus0 ( ! great republic & empire ( pagan ,rome z two drops ( wat] resemble ea* o!r4 ,_h n our ,pope pres]v$ n only ! "n1 b also ! attributes1 ! pageantry1 ! pride1 & ev5 ! g>b ( t high pagan prie/8 ,0 n ! wor%ip ( ! sa9ts absolutely ! same z ! wor%ip ( ! demigods ( old5 "t8 ,0 n our purgatory m9utely describ$ by ,virgil8 ,7 n our pray]s to ! ,virg9 & to ! sa9ts repeat$1 almo/ 9 ! same words1 by ! wor%ipp]s :o pro/rat$ !mselves be=e ! images ( _! gods1 j z we repeat$ !m e day be=e ! images :i* adorn$ our *ur*es8 ,0 n our holy wat] 9 use among ! idolat]s1 & = ! same purpose = :i* x is us$ among u8 ,we knew by hi/ory ! ye> 9 :i* ! magnific5t temple consecrat$ to all ! gods1 be>+ ! "n ( ,pan!on1 _h be5 built at ,rome4 ,we 7 acqua9t$ ) ! names ( sev]al ( ! sculptors :o _h c>v$ ! /atues ( ! gods 9 t hea!n temple1 at ^: feet ! idolat]s b[$ respectfully1 & words _c express ! %ame we felt on le>n+ t ! ,roman ,ca?olics ( our day1 "u ! v eyes & ) ! sanction ( ! ,pope1 /ill pro/rat$ !mselves be=e ! ,,same ,,idols1 9 ! ,,same ,,temple1 & to obta9 ! ,,same ,,favors6 ,:5 we ask$ ea* o!r ! "q1 8,:at is ! diff]5ce betwe5 ! religion ( hea!n ,rome & t ( ! ,rome ( to-day80 m ?an "o /ud5t w\ld answ]3 8,! only diff]5ce is 9 ! "n4 ,! idolatr\s temples are ! same3 ! idols h n left _! places4 ,to-day1 z =m]ly1 ! same inc5se burns 9 _! honor8 ,nations are /ill pro/rat$ at _! feet to give !m ! same homage & to ask ( !m ! same favors2 b in/ead ( call+ ?is /atue ,jupit]1 we call x ,pet]2 & in/ead ( call+ t "o ,m9]va or ,v5us1 x is call$ ,/4 ,m>y4 ,x is ! old idolatry com+ to u "u ,*ri/ian names40 ,i e>ne/ly desir$ to be an hone/ & s9c]e ,roman ,ca?olic4 ,^! impressions & ?\ghts di/ract$ me greatly1 inasmu* z ,i c\ld f9d no?+ 9 reason to dim9i% _! =ce4 ,un=tunately1 _m ( ! books plac$ 9 our h&s by our sup]iors to confirm our fai?1 =m our moral "*1 & su/a9 our piety & our confid5ce 9 ! dogmas ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 _h a frightful resemblance to ! hi/ories ,i _h read ( ! gods & goddesses4 ,! miracles attribut$ to ! ,virg9 ,m>y (t5 appe>$ to be only a reproduction ( ! tricks & deceits by :i* ! prie/s ( ,jupit]1 ,v5us1 ,m9]va1 etc41 us$ to obta9 _! ends & grant ! reque/s ( _! wor%ipp]s4 ,"s ( ^? miracles ( ! ,virg9 ,m>y equall$1 if !y did n surpass1 9 absurdity & immorality1 :at my?ology taught u among ! mo/ hide\s acc\nts ( ! hea!n gods & goddesses4 ,i c\ld cite hundr$s ( su* miracles :i* %ock$ my fai? & caus$ me to blu% 9 secret at ! conclusion to :i* ,i 0 =c$ to come1 9 comp>+ ! wor%ip ( anci5t & mod]n ,rome4 ,i w only quote ?ree ( ^! mod]n miracles1 :i* are f\nd 9 "o ( ! books ! be/ approv$ by ! ,pope1 entitl$ 8,! ,glories ( ,m>y40 ,fir/ miracle4 8,! great favors be/[$ by ! ,holy ,virg9 ^u a nun nam$ ,beatrix1 ( ! ,conv5t ( ,frontebraldo1 %[ h[ m]ciful %e is to s9n]s4 ,! fact is relat$ by ,cesanus1 & by ,fa!r ,rho4 ,?is un=tunate nun1 hav+ be5 possess$ by a crim9al passion = a "y man1 det]m9$ to leave h] conv5t & elope ) him4 ,%e 0 ! doorkeep] ( ! conv5t1 & hav+ plac$ ! keys ( ! mona/]y at ! feet ( a /atue ( ! ,holy ,virg91 %e boldly w5t out1 !n l$ a life ( pro/itution dur+ fifte5 ye>s 9 a f> (f place4 8,"o day1 accid5tally meet+ ! purveyor ( h] conv5t1 & ?9k+ %e w\ld n be recogniz$ by him1 %e ask$ him news ( ,si/] ,beatrix4 8#8,i "k h] well1' answ]$ ?is man2 #8%e is a holy nun1 & is mi/ress ( ! novices4' 8,at ^! words ,beatrix 0 confus$2 b to und]/& :at x meant1 %e *ang$ h] clo?+1 & go+ to ! conv5t1 inquir$ aft] ,si/] ,beatrix4 8,! ,holy ,virg9 in/antly appe>$ to h] 9 ! =m ( ! /atue at ^: feet %e _h plac$ ! keys at h] dep>ture4 ,! ,div9e ,"m spoke to h] 9 ?is wise3 #8,"k1 ,beatrix1 t 9 ord] to pres]ve y\r honor1 ,i h tak5 y\r place & done y\r duty s9ce y h left y\r conv5t4 ,my daught]1 return to ,god & be p5it5t1 = my son is /ill wait+ = y4 ,try1 by ! hol9ess ( ?y life1 to pres]ve ! good reputation :i* ,i h e>n$ y4' ,hav+ ?us spok51 ! ,holy ,virg9 disappe>$4 ,beatrix re-ent]$ ! mona/]y1 donn$ h] religi\s dress1 &1 grateful = ! m]cies ( ,m>y1 %e l$ ! life ( a sa9t40 78,glories ( ,m>y10 *ap4 vi41 sec4 #b47 ,second miracle4 ,rev4 ,fa!r ,ri]5b]g relates t !re exi/$ 9 a city call$ ,aragona1 a beautiful & noble girl by ! "n ( ,alex&ra1 :om two "y m5 lov$ passionately4 ,"o day1 madd5$ by ! jeal\sy ea* "o _h ( ! o!r1 !y f\ght toge!r1 & bo? 7 kill$4 ,_! p>5ts 7 s infuriat$ at ! "y girl1 ! au?or ( ^! calamities1 t !y kill$ h]1 cut h] head (f1 & ?rew h] into a well4 ,a few days aft] ,/4 ,dom9ic1 pass+ by ! place1 0 inspir$ to approa* ! well & to cry out1 8,alex&ra1 come "h60 ,! head ( ! deceas$ imm$iately plac$ itself ^u ! edge ( ! well1 & entreat$ ,/4 ,dom9ic to he> its confession4 ,hav+ he>d x1 ! ,sa9t gave h] ! communion 9 ! pres5ce ( a great multitude ( p1 & !n he comm&$ h] to tell !m :y %e _h receiv$ s great a favor4 ,%e answ]$ t ?\gh %e 0 9 a /ate ( mortal s9 :5 %e 0 decapitat$1 yet z %e _h a habit ( recit+ ! holy ros>y1 ! ,virg9 _h pres]v$ h] life4 ,! head1 full ( life1 rema9$ on ! edge ( ! well two days be=e ! eyes ( a great _m p1 & !n ! s\l w5t to purgatory4 ,b fifte5 days aft] ?is ! s\l ( ,alex&ra appe>$ to ,/4 ,dom9ic1 bright & beautiful z a />1 & told him t "o ( ! sure/ means ( remov+ s\ls f purgatory 0 ! recitation ( ! ros>y 9 _! favor4 78,glories ( ,m>y10 *ap4 viii41 sec4 #b74 ,?ird miracle4 8,a s]vant ( ,m>y "o day w5t into "o ( h] *ur*es to pray1 )\t tell+ h] husb& ( x4 ,ow+ to a t]rible /orm %e 0 prev5t$ f return+ home t night4 ,h>ass$ by ! fe> t h] husb& w\ld be angry1 %e implor$ ,m>y's help4 ,b on return+ home %e f\nd h] husb& full ( k9dness4 ,aft] ask+ h] husb& a few que/ions on ! subject1 %e discov]$ t dur+ t v night ! ,div9e ,"m _h tak5 h] =m & features & _h tak5 h] place 9 all ! affairs ( ! h\sehold6 ,%e in=m$ h] husb& ( ! great miracle1 & !y bo? became v mu* devot$ to ! ,holy ,virg940 78,glories ( ,m>y30 ,examples ( ,protection1 #dj47 ,p]sons :o h nev] /udi$ 9 a ,roman ,ca?olic college w h>dly believe t su* fables 7 told u z an appeal = u to become ,*ri/ians4 ,b1 ,god kn[s1 ,i tell ! tru?4 ,is x n a pr(anation ( a holy ^w to say t ,*ri/ianity is ! religion taught ! /ud5ts 9 ,rome's colleges8 ,aft] read+ ! mon/r\s metamorphoses ( ! gods ( ,olympus1 ! /ud5t feels a pr(\nd pity = ! nations :o h liv$ s long 9 ! d>kness ( ,paganism4 ,he _c und]/& h[ s _m millions ( m5 71 = su* a long "t1 deceiv$ by su* cruel fables4 ,) joy 8 ?\ghts are turn$ to ! ,god ( ,calv>y1 !re to receive light & life4 ,he feels1 z x 71 a burn+ desire to n\ri% himself ) ! words ( life1 fall5 f ! lips ( ! 8great victim40 ,b "h comes ! prie/ ( ! college1 :o places himself betwe5 ! /ud5t & ,*ri/1 & in/ead ( all[+ him to be n\ri%$ ) ! ,bread ( ,life he (f]s him fables1 husks ) :i* to appease 8 hung]4 ,in/ead ( all[+ him to slake 8 ?ir/ f ! wat]s :i* fl[ f ! f\nta9s ( et]nal life1 he (f]s him a corrupt bev]age6 ,god alone kn[s :at ,i h suff]$ dur+ my /udies to f9d myself absolutely depriv$ ( ! privilege ( eat+ ?is bread ( life--,8 ,holy ,^w4 ,dur+ ! la/ ye>s ( my /udies1 my sup]iors (t5 confid$ to me ! *>ge ( ! libr>y4 ,once x happ5$ t1 z ! /ud5ts 7 tak+ a holiday1 ,i rema9$ alone 9 ! college1 & %utt+ myself up 9 ! libr>y1 ,i began to exam9e all ! books4 ,i 0 n a little surpris$ to discov] t ! books :i* 7 ! mo/ prop] to in/ruct u /ood on ! catalogue ( ! libr>y m>k$ among ! =bidd5 books4 ,i felt an inexpressible %ame on see+ ) my own eyes t none b ! mo/ indiff]5t books 7 plac$ 9 our h&s--t we 7 p]mitt$ to read au?ors ( ! ?ird rank only 7if ?is expression is suitable to su* ^: only m]it consi/$ 9 flatt]+ ! ,popes1 & 9 conceal+ or excus+ _! crimes74 ,sev]al /ud5ts m advanc$ ?an myself _h already made ! obs]vation to me1 b ,i did n believe !m4 ,self-love gave me ! hope t ,i 0 z well educat$ z "o c\ld be at my age4 ,until !n ,i h spurn$ ! idea t1 ) ! re/ ( ! /ud5ts1 ,i 0 ! victim ( an incr$ible sy/em ( moral & intellectual bl9dness4 ,among ! =bidd5 books ( ! college ,i f\nd a spl5did ,bible4 ,x seem$ to be ( ! same edition z ! "o ^: p]usal _h made h\rs pass away s pleasantly :5 ,i 0 at home ) my "m4 ,i seiz$ x ) ! transports ( a mis] f9d+ a lo/ treasure4 ,i lift$ x to my lips1 & kiss$ x respectfully4 ,i press$ x aga9/ my he>t1 z "o embraces a fri5d f :om he has long be5 sep>at$4 ,?is ,bible br\ght back to my memory ! mo/ delightful h\rs ( my life4 ,i read its div9e pages until ! s*ol>s return$4 ,! next day ,rev4 ,mr4 ,leprohon1 our director1 call$ me to 8 room dur+ ! recreation1 & said3 8,y seem to be tr\bl$ & v sad to-day4 ,i notic$ t y rema9$ alone :ile ! o!r s*ol>s 7 enjoy+ !mselves s well4 ,h y any cause ( grief8 or are y sick80 ,i c\ld n suffici5tly express my love & respect = ?is v5]able man4 ,he 0 at ! same "t my fri5d & b5efactor4 ,= f\r ye>s he & ,rev4 ,mr4 ,brass>d _h be5 pay+ my bo>d2 =1 ow+ to a misund]/&+ betwe5 myself & my uncle ,dionne1 he _h ceas$ to ma9ta9 me at college4 ,by read+ ! ,bible ! previ\s day ,i _h disobey$ my b5efactor1 ,mr ,leprohon2 = :5 he entru/$ me ) ! c>e ( ! libr>y he made me promise n to read ! books 9 ! =bidd5 catalogue4 ,x 0 pa9ful to me to sadd5 him by ackn[l$g+ t ,i _h brok5 my ^w ( honor1 b x pa9$ me f> m to deceive him by conceal+ ! tru?4 ,i !re=e answ]$ him3 8,y are "r 9 suppos+ t ,i am uneasy & sad4 ,i confess !re is "o ?+ :i* p]plexes me greatly among ! rules t gov]n u4 ,i nev] d>$ to speak to y ab\t x2 b z y wi% to "k ! cause ( my sadness1 ,i w tell y4 ,y h plac$ 9 our h&s1 n only to read1 b to le>n by he>t1 books :i* are1 z y "k1 p>tly inspir$ by hell1 & y =bid u to read ! only book ^: e ^w is s5t f heav56 ,y p]mit u to read books dictat$ by ! ,_s ( d>kness & s91 & y make x a crime = u to read ! only book writt5 "u ! dictation ( ! ,_s ( light & hol9ess4 ,?is conduct on y\r "p1 & on ! "p ( all ! sup]iors ( ! college1 di/urbs & sc&alizes me6 ,%all ,i tell y1 y\r dread ( ! ,bible %akes my fai?1 & causes me to fe> t we are go+ a/ray 9 our ,*ur*40 ,mr4 ,leprohon answ]$ me3 8,i h be5 ! director ( ?is college = m ?an tw5ty ye>s1 & ,i h nev] he>d f ! lips ( any ( ! /ud5ts su* rem>ks & compla9ts z y are mak+ to me to-day4 ,h y no fe> ( be+ ! victim ( a deception ( ! devil1 9 m$dl+ ) a "q s /range & s new = a s*ol> ^: only aim %\ld be to obey 8 sup]iors80 8,x may be10 said ,i1 8t ,i am ! fir/ to speak to y 9 ?is mann]1 = x is v probable t ,i am ! only /ud5t 9 ?is college :o has read ! ,holy ,bible 9 8 y\?ful days4 ,i h already told y !re 0 a ,bible 9 my fa!r's h\se1 :i* disappe>$ only aft] 8 dea?1 ?\gh ,i nev] c\ld "k :at became ( x4 ,i c assure y t ! p]usal ( t admirable book has done me a good t is /ill felt4 ,x is1 !re=e1 because ,i "k by a p]sonal exp]i5ce t !re is no book 9 ! _w s good1 & s prop] to read1 t ,i am extremely griev$1 & ev5 sc&aliz$1 by ! dread y h ( x4 ,i ackn[l$ge to y ,i sp5t ! aft]noon ( ye/]day 9 ! libr>y read+ ! ,bible4 ,i f\nd ?+s 9 x :i* made me weep = joy & happ9ess--?+s t did m good to my s\l & he>t ?an all y h giv5 me to read = six ye>s4 ,& ,i am s sad to-day because y approve ( me :5 ,i read ! works ( ! devil1 & condemn me :5 ,i read ! ,^w ( ,god40 ,my sup]ior answ]$3 8,s9ce y h read ! ,bible1 y mu/ "k t !re are ?+s 9 x on matt]s ( su* a delicate nature t x is improp] = a "y man1 & m s = a "y lady1 to read !m40 8,i und]/&10 answ]$ ,i2 8b ^! delicate matt]s1 ( :i* y d n want ,god to speak a ^w to u1 y "k v well t ,satan speaks to u ab\t !m day & night4 ,n[1 :5 ,satan speaks ab\t & attracts our ?\ghts t[>ds an evil & crim9al ?+1 x is always 9 ord] t we may l x & be lo/4 ,b :5 ! ,god ( ,purity speaks to u ( evil ?+s 7( :i* x is pretty mu* impossible = m5 to be ignorant71 ,he does x t we may hate & abhor !m1 & ,he gives u grace to avoid !m4 ,well1 !n1 s9ce y _c prev5t ! devil f :isp]+ to u ?+s s delicate & dang]\s to s$uce u1 h[ d>e y h9d] ,god f speak+ ( ! same ?+s to %ield u f _! allurem5ts8 ,besides1 :5 my ,god desires to speak to me ,himself on any "q :atev]1 :]e is y\r "r to ob/ruct ,8 ^w on its way to my he>t80 ,?\gh ,mr4 ,leprohon's intellig5ce 0 z mu* wrapp$ up 9 ! d>kness ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome z x c\ld be1 8 he>t _h rema9$ hone/ & true2 & :ile ,i respect$ & lov$ him z my fa!r1 ?\gh diff]+ f him 9 op9ion1 ,i knew he lov$ me z if ,i _h be5 8 own *ild4 ,he 0 ?und]/ruck by my answ]4 ,he turn$ pale1 & ,i saw te>s ab\t to fl[ f 8 eyes4 ,he sigh$ deeply1 & look$ at me "s "t reflect+ly1 )\t answ]+4 ,at la/ he said3 8,my de> ,*9iquy1 y\r answ] & y\r argum5ts h a =ce t fright5s me1 & if ,i _h no o!r b my own p]sonal ideas to disprove !m1 ,i ackn[l$ge ,i d n "k h[ ,i w\ld d x4 ,b ,i h some?+ bett] ?an my own weak ?\ghts4 ,i h ! ?\ghts ( ! ,*ur*1 & ( our ,holy ,fa!r ! ,pope4 ,!y =bid u to put ! ,bible 9 ! h&s ( our /ud5ts4 ,?is %\ld suffice to put an end to y\r tr\bles4 ,to obey 8 legitimate sup]iors 9 all ?+s & ev]y:]e1 is ! rule a ,*ri/ian s*ol> l y %\ld foll[2 & if y h brok5 x ye/]day1 ,i hope x w be ! la/ "t t ! *ild :om ,i love bett] ?an myself w cause me su* pa940 ,on say+ ?is he ?rew 8 arms ar\nd me1 clasp$ me to 8 he>t1 & ba!d my face ) te>s4 ,i wept also4 ,yes1 ,i wept abundantly4 ,b ,god kn[e?1 t ?\gh ! regret ( hav+ griev$ my b5efactor & fa!r caus$ me to %$ te>s at t mom5t1 yet ,i wept mu* m on p]ceiv+ t ,i w\ld no m be p]mitt$ to read ,8 ,holy ,^w4 ,if1 !re=e1 ,i am ask$ :at moral & religi\s education we receiv$ at college1 ,i w ask 9 return1 ,:at religi\s education c we receive 9 an in/itution :]e sev5 ye>s are sp5t )\t once be+ p]mitt$ to read ! ,gospel ( ,god8 ,! gods ( ! hea!n spoke to u daily by _! apo/les & disciples--,hom]1 ,virgil1 ,p9d>1 ,horace6 & ! ,god ( ! ,*ri/ians _h n p]mission to say a s+le ^w to u 9 t college6 ,our religion1 !re=e1 c\ld be no?+ b ,paganism disguis$ "u a ,*ri/ian "n4 ,*ri/ianity 9 a college or conv5t ( ,rome is su* a /range mixture ( hea!nism & sup]/ition1 bo? ridicul\s & *ildi%1 & ( %ock+ fables1 t ! majority ( ^? :o h n entirely smo!r$ ! voice ( reason _c accept x4 ,a few d1 z ,i did1 all 9 _! p[]1 & succe$ to a c]ta9 ext5t1 9 believ+ only :at ! sup]ior tells !m to believe4 ,!y close _! eyes & p]mit !mselves to be l$ exactly z if !y 7 bl9d1 & a fri5dly h& 7 (f]+ to guide !m4 ,b ! great] numb] ( /ud5ts 9 ,roman ,ca?olic colleges _c accept ! ba/>d ,*ri/ianity :i* ,rome pres5ts to !m4 ,( c\rse1 dur+ _! /udies !y foll[ its rules1 = ! sake ( peace2 b !y h h>dly left college be=e !y proce$ to jo9 & increase ! ranks ( ! army ( skeptics & infidels :i* ov]runs ,france1 ,spa91 ,italy & ,canada--:i* ov]runs1 9 fact1 all ! c\ntries :]e ,rome has ! education ( ! p 9 h] h&s4 ,i mu/ say1 ?\gh ) a sad he>t1 t moral & religi\s education 9 ,roman ,ca?olic colleges is worse ?an void1 = f !m has be5 exclud$ ! only true /&>d ( morals & religion--,,! ,,^w ,,( ,,god6 ,,*apt] ,,xi4 ,,prote/ant ,,*ildr5 ,,9 ,,! ,,conv5ts ,,& ,,nunn]ies ,,( ,,rome4 ,we read 9 ! hi/ory ( ,paganism t p>5ts 7 (t51 9 ^? d>k ages1 slay+ _! *ildr5 ^u ! alt>s ( _! gods1 to appease _! wra? or obta9 _! favors4 ,b we n[ see a /rang] ?+4 ,x is t ( ,*ri/ian p>5ts =c+ _! *ildr5 into ! temples & to ! v feet ( ! idols ( ,rome1 "u ! fallaci\s notion ( hav+ !m educat$6 ,:ile ! ,pagan p>5t de/roy$ only ! temporal life ( 8 *ild1 ! ,*ri/ian p>5t1 = ! mo/ "p1 de/roys 8 et]nal life4 ,! ,pagan 0 consi/5t3 he believ$ 9 ! almighty p[] & hol9ess ( 8 gods2 he s9c]ely ,,?\ght t !y rul$ ! _w1 & t !y bless$ bo? ! victims & ^? :o (f]$ !m4 ,b :]e is ! consi/5cy ( ! ,prote/ant :o drags 8 *ild & (f]s him z a sacrifice on ! alt>s ( ! ,pope6 ,does he believe 9 8 hol9ess or 9 8 supreme & infallible p[] ( gov]n+ ! intellig5ce8 ,!n :y does he n g & ?r[ himself at 8 feet & increase ! numb] ( 8 disciples8 ,! ,prote/ants :o are guilty ( ?is great wrong are wont to say1 z an excuse1 t ! sup]iors ( colleges & conv5ts h assur$ !m t _! religi\s convictions w\ld be respect$1 & t no?+ %\ld be said or done to take away or ev5 %ake ! religion ( _! *ildr54 ,our fir/ p>5ts 7 n m cruelly deceiv$ by ! s$uctive words ( ! s]p5t ?an ! ,prote/ants are ?is day by ! deceitful promises ( ! prie/s & nuns ( ,rome4 ,i _h be5 myself ! witness ( ! promise giv5 by our sup]ior to a judge ( ! ,/ate ( ,new ,york1 :51 a few days lat] t same sup]ior1 ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,leprohon1 said to me3 8,y "k "s ,engli%1 & ?is "y man kn[s ,fr5* en\gh to enable y to und]/& ea* o!r4 ,try to become 8 fri5d & to br+ him ov] to our holy religion4 ,8 fa!r is a mo/ influ5tial man 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 & ?is1 8 only son1 is ! heir ( an imm5se =tune4 ,great results = ! future ( ! ,*ur* 9 ! neighbor+ republic might foll[ 8 conv]sion40 ,i repli$3 8,h y =gott5 ! promise y h made to 8 fa!r1 nev] to say or d any?+ to %ake or take away ! religion ( t "y man80 ,my sup]ior smil$ at my simplicity1 & said3 8,:5 y %all h /udi$ !ology y w "k t ,prote/antism is n a religion1 b t x is ! negation ( religion4 ,prote/+ _c be ! basis ( any doctr9e4 ,?us1 :5 ,i promis$ ,judge ,pike t ! religi\s convictions ( 8 *ild %\ld be respect$1 & t ,i w\ld n d any?+ to *ange 8 fai?1 ,i did promise ! easie/ ?+ 9 ! _w1 s9ce ,i promis$ n to m$dle ) a ?+ :i* has no exi/5ce40 ,conv9c$1 or r bl9d$1 by ! reason ( my sup]ior1 :i* is ! reason+ ( e sup]ior ( a college or nunn]y1 ,i set myself to "w f t mom5t to make a good ,roman ,ca?olic ( t "y fri5d2 & ,i w\ld probably h succe$$1 _h n a s]i\s illness =c$ him1 a few mon?s aft]1 to g home1 :]e he di$4 ,prote/ants :o may read ^! l9es w1 p]haps1 be indignant aga9/ ! deceit & knav]y ( ! ,sup]ior ( ! ,college ( ,nicolet4 ,b ,i w say to ^? ,prote/ants1 x is n on t man1 b on y\rselves1 t y mu/ p\r y\r contempt4 ,! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,leprohon 0 hone/4 ,he act$ con=mably to pr9ciples :i* he ?\ght good & legitimate1 & = :i* he w\ld h *e]fully giv5 ! la/ drop ( 8 blood4 ,he s9c]ely believ$ t y\r ,prote/antism is a m]e negation ( all religion1 wor?y ( ! contempt ( e true ,*ri/ian4 ,x 0 n ! prie/ ( ,rome :o 0 contemptible1 di%one/ & a traitor to 8 pr9ciples1 b x 0 ! ,prote/ant :o 0 false to 8 gospel & to 8 own consci5ce by hav+ 8 *ild educat$ by ! s]vants ( ! ,pope4 ,moreov]1 c we n tru?fully say t ! ,prote/ant :o wi%es to h 8 *ildr5 br$ & educat$ by a ,jesuit or a nun is a man ( no religion8 & t no?+ is m ridicul\s ?an to he> su* a man begg+ respect = 8 religi\s pr9ciples6 ,a man's ard5t desire to h 8 religi\s convictions respect$ is be/ kn[n by 8 respect+ !m himself4 ,! ,prote/ant :o drags 8 *ildr5 to ! feet ( ! prie/s ( ,rome is ei!r a disguis$ infidel or a hypocrite4 ,x is simply ridicul\s = su* a man to speak ( 8 religi\s convictions1 or beg respect = !m4 ,8 v humble position at ! feet ( a ,jesuit or a nun1 begg+ respect = 8 fai?1 is a sure te/imony t he has none to lose4 ,if he _h any he w\ld n be !re1 an humble & abject suppliant4 ,he w\ld take c>e to be :]e !re c\ld be no dang] to 8 de> *ild's immortal s\l4 ,:5 ,i 0 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 we (t5 spoke ( ! necessity ( mak+ sup]human ef=ts to attract "y ,prote/ants into our colleges & nunn]ies1 z ! %orte/ & only means ( rul+ ! _w be=e long4 ,& z ! "m has 9 h] h&s1 /ill m ?an ! fa!r1 ! de/9ies ( ! family & ( ! _w1 we 7 det]m9$ to sacrifice ev]y?+ 9 ord] to build nunn]ies all ov] ! l&1 :]e ! "y girls1 ! future mo!rs ( our c\ntry1 w\ld be m\ld$ 9 our h&s & educat$ accord+ to our views4 ,nobody c d5y t ?is is supreme wisdom4 ,:o w n admire ! enorm\s sacrifices made by ,romani/s 9 ord] to surr\nd ! nunn]ies ) s _m attractions t x is difficult to refuse !m pref]5ce above all o!r female s*ola/ic e/abli%m5ts8 ,"o feels s well 9 ! %ade ( ^! magnific5t trees dur+ ! hot days ( summ]6 ,x is s pleasant to live ne> ?is beautiful %eet ( wat]1 or ! rapid curr5t ( t *>m+ riv]1 or to h con/antly be=e "o's eyes ! sublime spectacle ( ! sea6 ,:at a sweet p]fume ! fl[]s ( t p>t]re diffuse ar\nd t pretty & peaceful conv5t6 ,&1 besides1 :o c )/& ! almo/ angelic *>ms ( ! ,lady ,sup]ior6 ,h[ x does "o good to be 9 ! mid/ ( ^? holy nuns1 ^: mode/y1 affable appe>ance1 & lovely smile pres5t su* a beautiful spectacle1 t "o w\ld ?9k ( be+ at heav5's gate r ?an 9 a _w ( desolation & s96 ,o fooli% man6 ,?\ art always ! same--ev] ready to be s$uc$ by glitt]+ appe>ances--ev] ready to suppress ! voice ( ?y consci5ce at ! fir/ view ( a s$uctive object6 ,"o day ,i _h emb>k$ 9 ! boat ( a fi%]man on ! coa/ ( "o ( ^? beautiful isl&s :i* ! h& ( ,god has plac$ at ! m\? ( ! ,gulf ( ,/4 ,lawr5ce4 ,9 a few m9utes ! :ite sail1 full-bl[n by ! morn+ breeze1 _h c>ri$ u ne>ly a mile f ! %ore4 ,!re we dropp$ our an*or1 & soon our l9es1 c>ri$ by ! curr5t1 (f]$ ! deceitful bait to ! fi%es4 ,b n "o w\ld come4 ,"o w\ld h ?\ght t ! sprightly inhabitants ( ^! limpid wat]s _h act$ 9 conc]t to despise u4 ,9 va9 did we move our l9es to & fro to attract ! att5tion ( ! fi%es2 n "o w\ld come6 ,we 7 tir$4 ,we lam5t$ ! prospect ( los+ our "t1 & be+ laugh$ at by our fri5ds on ! %ore :o 7 wait+ ! result ( our fi%+ to d9e4 ,ne>ly "o h\r 0 sp5t 9 ?is mann]1 :5 ! capta9 said1 8,inde$1 ,i w make ! fi%es come40 ,op5+ a box1 he took out h&fuls ( little pieces ( f9ely-cut fi%es1 & ?rew !m broadca/ on ! wat]4 ,i 0 look+ at him ) curiosity1 & ,i receiv$ ) a feel+ ( unbelief1 ! promise ( see+1 9 a few mom5ts1 m mack]el ?an ,i c\ld pick up4 ,^! p>ticles ( fi%1 fall+ ^u ! wat]1 scatt]$ !mselves 9 a ?\s& diff]5t ways4 ,! rays ( ! sun1 sport+ among ^! numb]less fragm5ts1 & ?\s&s ( scales1 gave !m a s+ul> :it5ess & brilliancy4 ,!y appe>$ l a ?\s& diamonds1 full ( movem5t & life1 t sport$ & roll$ !mselves1 runn+ at ea* o!r1 :ile rock+ ^u ! waves4 ,z ^! innum]able little objects )drew f u !y look$ l ! milky way 9 ! firmam5t4 ,! rays ( ! sun cont9u$ to be reflect$ ^u ! scales ( ! fi%es 9 ! wat]1 & to trans=m !m into z _m pe>ls1 ^: :it5ess & spl5dor made an agreeable contra/ ) ! deep gre5 color ( ! sea4 ,:ile look+ at t spectacle1 :i* 0 s new to me1 ,i felt my l9e j]k$ out ( my h&s1 & soon _h ! pleasure ( see+ a magnific5t mack]el ly+ at my feet4 ,my companions 7 z =tunate z ,i 04 ,! bait s g5]\sly ?r[n away _h p]fectly succe$$ 9 br++ u n only hundr$s1 b ?\s&s ( fi%es1 & we caught z _m ( !m z ! boat c\ld c>ry4 ,! ,jesuits & ! nuns are ! ,pope's clev]e/ fi%]m51 & ! ,prote/ants are ! mack]els caught ^u _! bait$ hooks4 ,nev] fi%]man knew bett] to prep>e ! p]fidi\s bait ?an ! nuns & ,jesuits1 & nev] 7 /upid fi%es m easily caught ?an ,prote/ants 9 g5]al4 ,! prie/s ( ,rome !mselves boa/ t m ?an half ( ! pupils ( ! nuns are ! *ildr5 ( ,prote/ants1 & t sev5-t5?s ( ^? ,prote/ant *ildr51 soon] or lat]1 become ! firme/ disciples & ! true pill>s ( pop]y 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates4 ,x is ) t public & und5iable fact be=e !m t ! ,jesuits h prophesi$ t be=e tw5ty-five ye>s ! pope w rule t great republic2 & if !re is n a prompt *ange _! prophecy w probably be accompli%$4 8,b10 say _m ,prote/ants1 8:]e c we get saf] securities t ! morals ( our girls w be %elt]$ ?an 9 ^? conv5ts8 ,! faces ( ^? good nuns1 _! angelic smiles1 ev5 _! lips1 f :i* seems to fl[ a p]fume f heav5--are n ^! ! unfail+ signs t no?+ w ta9t ! he>ts ( our de> *ildr5 :5 !y are "u ! c>e ( ^? holy nuns80 ,angelic smiles6 ,lips f :i* fl[ a p]fume f heav56 ,expressions ( peace & hol9ess ( ! good nuns6 ,delusive allurem5ts6 ,cruel deceptions6 ,mock]y ( com$y6 ,yes1 all ^! angelic smiles1 all ^! expressions ( joy & happ9ess1 are b allurem5ts to deceive hone/ b too tru/+ m56 ,i believ$ myself = a long "t t !re 0 some?+ true 9 all ! display ( peace & happ9ess :i* ,i saw reflect$ 9 ! faces ( a good numb] ( nuns4 ,b h[ soon my delusions pass$ away :5 ,i read ) my own eyes1 9 a book ( ! secret rules ( ! conv5t1 t "o ( _! rules is always1 especially 9 ! pres5ce ( /rang]s1 to h an appe>ance ( joy & happ9ess1 ev5 :5 ! s\l is ov]:elm$ ) grief & sorr[6 ,! motives giv5 to ! nuns = ?us we>+ a cont9ual mask1 is to secure ! e/eem & respect ( ! p1 & to w9 m securely ! "y ladies to ! conv5t6 ,all "k ! sad end ( life ( "o ( ! mo/ celebrat$ female com$ians ( ! ,am]ican !atre4 ,%e _h act$ h] "p 9 ! ev5+ ) a p]fect success4 ,%e appe>$ s h&some & s happy on ! /age6 ,h] voice 0 su* a p]fect h>mony2 h] s++ 0 s m]ry & lively ) mir?6 ,two h\rs lat] %e 0 a corpse6 ,%e _h poison$ h]self on leav+ ! !atre6 ,= "s "t h] he>t 0 brok5 ) grief :i* %e c\ld n be>4 ,?us x is ) ! nun 9 h] cell6 =c$ to play a sacrilegi\s com$y to deceive ! _w & to br+ new recruits to ! mona/]y4 ,& ! ,prote/ants1 ! disciples ( ! gospel1 ! *ildr5 ( light1 suff] !mselves to be deceiv$ by ?is impi\s com$y4 ,! poor nun's he>t is (t5 full ( sorr[1 & h] s\l is dr[n$ 9 a sea ( desolation2 b %e is oblig$1 "u oa?1 always to appe> gay6 ,un=tunate victim ( ! mo/ cruel deception t has ev] be5 inv5t$4 ,t poor daught] ( ,eve1 depriv$ ( all ! happ9ess t heav5 has giv51 tortur$ night & day by hone/ aspirations1 :i* %e is told are unp>donable s9s1 %e has n only to suppress 9 h]self ! few buds ( happ9ess :i* ,god has left 9 h] s\l1 b :at is m cruel1 %e is =c$ to appe> happy 9 angui% ( %ame & ( deception4 ,ah6 if ,prote/ants c\ld "k1 z ,i d1 h[ mu* ! he>ts ( ^? nuns ble$1 h[ mu* ^? poor victims ( ! pope feel !mselves w\nd$ to dea?1 h[ almo/ e "o ( !m die at an e>ly age1 brok5-he>t$1 in/ead ( speak+ ( _! happ9ess & hol9ess1 !y w\ld weep at _! pr(\nd mis]y4 ,in/ead ( help+ ,satan to build up & ma9ta9 ^? sad dungeons by giv+ bo? _! gold & _! *ildr51 !y w\ld let !m crumble into du/1 & ?us *eck ! torr5ts ( sil5t ?\gh bitt] te>s :i* ^? cells hide f our view4 ,i 0 travel+ 9 #ahea ov] ! va/ prairies ( ,ill9ois 9 se>* ( a spot :i* w\ld suit u ! be/ = ! colony :i* ,i 0 ab\t to f\nd4 ,"o day my companions & myself f\nd ourselves s we>i$ by ! heat t we resolv$ to wait = ! cool night 9 ! %ade ( a few trees ar\nd a brook4 ,! night 0 calm2 !re 7 no cl\ds 9 ! sky1 & ! moon 0 beautiful4 ,l ! sailor ^u ! sea1 we _h no?+ b our compass to regulate our c\rse on ^? beautiful & va/ prairies4 ,b ! p5 _c express ! emotions ,i felt :ile look+ at t beautiful sky & ^? magnific5t des]ts op5$ to our view4 ,we (t5 came to sl\ghs :i* we ?\ght deep] ?an !y really 71 & ( :i* we w\ld keep ! side = fe> ( dr[n+ our horses4 ,_m a "t did ,i get d[n f ! c>riage & /op to contemplate ! wond]s :i* ^? ponds pres5t$ to our view4 ,all ! spl5dors ( ! sky seem$ br\ght d[n 9 ^? pure & limpid wat]s4 ,! moon & ! />s seem$ to h left _! places 9 ! firmam5t to ba! !mselves 9 ^? delightful lakelets4 ,all ! pure/1 ! mo/ beautiful ?+s ( ! heav5s seem$ to come d[n to hide !mselves 9 ^? tranquil wat]s z if 9 se>* ( m peace & purity4 ,a few days lat] ,i 0 retrac+ my /eps4 ,x 0 daytime1 & foll[+ ! same r\te1 ,i 0 long+ to get to my *>m+ little lakes4 ,b dur+ ! int]val ! heat _h be5 great1 ! sun v hot1 & my beautiful %eets ( wat] _h be5 dri$ up4 ,my de> little lakes 7 n[h]e to be se54 ,& :at did ,i f9d in/ead8 ,innum]able reptiles1 ) ! mo/ hide\s =ms & fil?y colors6 ,no brilliant />s1 no cle> moon 7 !re any m to *>m my eyes4 ,!re 0 no?+ left b ?\s&s ( little toads & snakes1 at ! sight ( :i* ,i 0 fill$ ) disgu/ & horror6 ,prote/ants6 :5 ^u life's way y are tempt$ to admire ! smil+ lips & un/a9$ faces ( ! pope's nuns1 please ?9k ( ^? *>m+ lakes :i* ,i saw on ! prairies ( ,ill9ois1 & rememb] ! innum]able reptiles & toads :i* sw>m at ! bottom ( ^? deceitful wat]s4 ,:51 by ! light ( div9e tru?1 ,prote/ants see beh9d ^! p]fect mock]ies by :i* ! nun conceals ) s mu* c>e ! hide\s mis]y :i* dev\rs h] he>t1 !y w und]/& ! folly ( hav+ p]mitt$ !mselves to be s easily deceiv$ by appe>ances4 ,!n !y w bitt]ly weep = hav+ sacrific$ to t mod]n ,paganism ! future welf>e ( _! *ildr51 ( _! families & ( _! c\ntry6 8,b10 says "o1 8! education is s *eap 9 ! nunn]y40 ,i answ]1 8,! education 9 conv5ts1 7 x twice *eap] ?an x is n[1 w\ld /ill co/ twice m ?an x is wor?4 ,x is 9 ?is circum/ance t we c repeat & apply ! old prov]b1 #8,*eap ?+s are always too highly paid =4'0 ,9 ! fir/ place1 ! intellectual education 9 ! nunn]y is completely null4 ,! great object ( ! pope & ! nuns is to captivate & de/roy ! intellig5ce4 ,! moral education is also ( no acc\nt2 = :at k9d ( morality c a "y girl receive f a nun :o believes t %e c live z %e pleases z long z %e likes x--t no?+ evil c come ( h]1 nei!r 9 ?is life nor 9 ! next1 provid$ only %e is dev\t to ! ,virg9 ,m>y8 ,let ,prote/ants read ! 8,glories ( ,m>y10 by ,/4 ,liguori1 a book :i* is 9 ! h&s ( e nun & e prie/1 & !y w und]/& :at k9d ( morality is practic$ & taught inside ! walls ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome4 ,yes1 let !m read ! hi/ory ( t lady :o 0 s well repres5t$ at home by ! ,holy ,virg9 t h] husb& did n p]ceive t %e _h be5 abs5t1 & !y w h "s idea ( :at _! *ildr5 may le>n 9 a conv5t4 ,,*apt] ,,xii4 ,,rome ,,& ,,education--,,:y ,,does ,,! ,,*ur* ,,( ,,rome ,,hate ,,! ,,common ,,s*ools ,,( ,,! ,,unit$ ,,/ates1 ,,& ,,wants ,,to ,,de/roy ,,!m8 ,,:y ,,does ,,%e ,,object ,,to ,,! ,,read+ ,,( ,,! ,,bible ,,9 ,,! ,,s*ool8 ,! ^w ,,education is a beautiful ^w4 ,x comes f ! ,lat9 educ>e1 :i* means to raise up1 to take f ! l[e/ degrees to ! highe/ sph]es ( k4 ,! object ( education is1 !n1 to fe$1 exp&1 raise1 enlight5 & /r5g!n ! intellig5ce4 ,we he> ! ,roman ,ca?olic prie/s mak+ use ( t beautiful ^w education z (t51 if n (t5]1 ?an ! ,prote/ant4 ,b t ^w 8education0 has a v diff]5t mean+ among ! foll[]s ( ! pope ?an among ! disciples ( ! ,gospel4 ,& t diff]5ce1 :i* ! ,prote/ants ignore1 is ! cause ( ! /range blund]s !y make e "t !y try to legislate on t "q1 "h1 z well z 9 ,engl& or 9 ,canada4 ,! mean+ ( ! ^w education among ,prote/ants is z f> f ! mean+ ( t same ^w among ,roman ,ca?olics z ! s\!rn pole is f ! nor!rn pole4 ,:5 a ,prote/ant speaks ( education1 t ^w is us$ & und]/ood 9 its true s5se4 ,:5 he s5ds 8 little boy to a ,prote/ant s*ool1 he hone/ly desires t he %\ld be re>$ up 9 ! sph]es ( k z mu* z 8 intellig5ce w all[4 ,:5 t little boy is go+ to s*ool1 he soon feels t he has be5 rais$ up to "s ext5t1 & he exp]i5ces a s9c]e joy1 a noble pride1 = ?is new1 ?\gh at fir/ v mode/ rais+2 b he naturally und]/&s t ?is new & mode/ upheaval is only a /one to /ep on & raise himself to a high] degree ( k1 & he quickly makes t second /ep ) an unspeakable pleasure4 ,:5 ! son ( a ,prote/ant has acquir$ a little k1 he wants to acquire m4 ,:5 he has le>n$ :at ?is means1 he wants to "k :at t means also4 ,l ! "y eagle1 he trims 8 w+s = a high] flight1 & turns 8 head upw>d to g f>!r up 9 ! atmosph]e ( k4 ,a noble & my/]i\s ambition has sudd5ly seiz$ 8 "y s\l4 ,!n he beg9s to feel some?+ ( t unqu5*able ?ir/ = k :i* ,god ,himself has put 9 ! brea/ ( e *ild ( ,adam2 a ?ir/ ( k1 h[ev]1 :i* w nev] be p]fectly realiz$ except 9 heav54 ,:5 ,god creat$ man 9 ,8 own image1 ,he end[$ him ) an intellig5ce & moral faculties wor?y ( ! high1 ,i 0 go+ to say ! div9e1 dignity ( ,8 own belov$ *ildr54 ,he ,himself put 9 u aspirations & in/9cts by :i* we 7 to be con/antly long+ aft] ! oceans ( light1 tru? & k1 ^: waves wa% ,8 et]nal ?rone4 ,x is t ?ir/ aft] m k1 t con/ant long+ aft] m light1 :i* con/itutes ! diff]5ce betwe5 man & brute4 ,man has receiv$ f ,god an intellig5ce :i*1 ?\gh cl\d$ n[ by s91 is to him :at ! helm is to ! noble %ip :i* crosses ! b\ndless ocean2 he has a consci5ce1 an immortal s\l :i* b9ds him to ,god1 & he feels x4 ,8 de/9ies are glori\s1 !y are incomm5surable1 !y are inf9ite1 & he kn[s x4 ,?\gh a de?ron$ k+1 he feels t he is /ill a k+4 ,! six ?\s& ye>s :i* h pass$ ov] him s9ce 8 fall h n yet effac$ ! k+ly title :i* ,god ,himself wrote on 8 =ehead :5 ,he told him1 8,multiply1 & repl5i% ! e>?1 & subdue x0 7,g54 i3 #bh74 ,) t glori\s1 t div9e mission ( subdu+ ! air & ! light1 ! w9d & ! waves1 ! seas & ! e>?1 ! ro>+ ?und] & ! fla%+ lightn+ con/antly be=e 8 eyes1 man m>*es to ! conque/ ( ! _w ) ! calm c]titude ( 8 p[] & ! glori\s aspirations ( 8 royal dignity4 ,! object ( education1 !n1 is to enable man to fulfill t k+ly mission ( rul+1 subdu+ ! _w1 "u ! eyes ( 8 ,creator4 ,let u rememb] t x is n f himself1 nor f any angel1 b x is f ,god himself t man has receiv$ t sublime mission4 ,yes1 x is ,god himself :o has implant$ 9 ! bosom ( humanity ! k & aspirations ( ^? spl5did de/9ies :i* c be atta9$ only by 8,education40 ,:at a glori\s impulse is ?is t seizes hold ( ! newly awak5$ m9d1 & leads ! "y intellig5ce to rise high] & pi]ce ! cl\ds t hide f 8 gaze ! spl5dors ( k t lie conceal$ beyond ! gloom ( ?is ne!r sph]e6 ,t impulse is a noble ambition2 x is t "p ( humanity t assimilates itself to ! lik5ess ( ! great ,creator2 t impulse :i* education has = its mission to direct 9 its onw>d & upw>d m>*1 is "o ( ! mo/ preci\s gifts ( ,god to man4 ,once m1 ! glori\s mission ( education is to fo/] ^! ?ir/+s aft] k & lead man to accompli% 8 high de/9y4 ,x ought to be a duty ) bo? ,roman ,ca?olics & ,prote/ants to assi/ ! pupil 9 8 flight t[>d ! regions ( sci5ce & le>n+4 ,b is x s8 ,no4 ,:5 y ,prote/ants s5d y\r *ildr5 to s*ool1 y put no fett]s to _! intellig5ce2 !y rise ) flutt]+ w+s day aft] day4 ,?\gh _! flight at fir/ is sl[ & timid1 h[ happy !y feel at e new aspect ( _! intellectual horizon6 ,h[ _! he>ts beat ) an unspeakable joy :5 !y beg9 to he> voices ( applause & enc\ragem5t f e side say+ to !m1 8,high]1 high]1 high]60 ,:5 !y %ake _! "y w+s to take a /ill high] flight1 :o c express _! joy :5 !y di/9ctly he> aga9 ! voices ( a belov$ "m1 ( a de> fa!r1 ( a v5]able pa/or1 *e]+ !m & say+1 8,well done6 ,high] yet1 my *ild1 high]60 ,rais+ !mselves ) m confid5ce on _! w+s1 !y !n so> /ill high]1 9 ! mid/ ( ! unanim\s conc]t ( ! voices ( _! :ole c\ntry enc\rag+ !m to ! highe/ flight4 ,x is !n t ! "y man feel 8 intellectual /r5g? t5fold multipli$4 ,he lifts himself on 8 eagle w+s1 ) a r5ew$ confid5ce & p[]1 & so>s up /ill high]1 ) 8 he>t beat+ ) a noble & holy joy4 ,= f ! s\? & nor?1 f ! ea/ & ! we/1 ! e*oes br+ to 8 e>s ! voices ( ! admir+ multitudes--8,rise high]1 high] yet60 ,he has n[ rea*$ :at he ?\ght1 at fir/1 to be ! highe/ regions ( ?\ght & k2 b he he>s aga9 ! same /imulat+ cries f bel[1 enc\rag+ him to a /ill high] flight t[>d ! l(tie/ dom9ion ( k & philosophy1 till he ent]s ! regions :]e lies ! s\rce ( all tru?1 & light & life4 ,= he has also he>d ! voice ( 8 ,god1 speak+ ?r\gh ,8 ,son ,jesus ,*ri/1 cry+1 8,come unto me6 ,fe> n6 ,come unto me6 ,i am ! light1 ! way6 ,come to ?is high] region :]e ! ,fa!r1 ) ! ,son & ! ,_s1 reign 9 endless light60 ,?us does ! ,prote/ant s*ol> mak+ use ( 8 intellig5ce z ! eagle ( 8 w+1 g on f weakness unto /r5g?1 f ! timid flutt] to ! bold1 confid5t flight1 f "o degree to ano!r /ill high]1 f "o region ( k to ano!r /ill high]1 till he loses himself 9 t ocean ( light & tru? & life :i* is ,god4 ,9 ! ,prote/ant s*ools no fett]s are put on ! "y eagle's w+s2 !re is no?+ to /op him 9 8 progress1 or p>alyze 8 movem5ts & upw>d flights4 ,x is ! contr>y3 he receives e k9d ( enc\ragem5t 9 8 flight4 ,?us x is t ! only truly great nations 9 ! _w are ,prote/ants6 ,?us x is ! truly p[]ful nations 9 ! _w are ,prote/ants6 ,?us x is t ! only free nations 9 ! _w are ,prote/ants6 ,! ,prote/ant nations are ! only ones t acquit !mselves l m5 9 ! ar5a ( ?is _w2 ,prote/ant nations only m>* z giants at ! head ( ! civiliz$ _w4 ,ev]y:]e !y are ! advance gu>d 9 ! ranks ( progress1 sci5ce & lib]ty1 leav+ f> beh9d ! un=tunate nations ^: h&s are ti$ by ! ignom9i\s iron *a9s ( ,pop]y4 ,aft] we h se5 ! ,prote/ant s*ol> rais+ himself1 on 8 eagle w+s1 to ! highe/ sph]es ( intellig5ce1 happ9ess & light1 & m>*+ unimpair$ t[>d 8 spl5did de/9ies1 let u turn our eyes t[>d ! ,roman ,ca?olic /ud5t1 & let u consid] & pity him 9 ! supreme degradation to :i* he is subject$4 ,t "y ,roman ,ca?olic s*ol> is born ) ! same bright intellig5ce z ! ,prote/ant "o2 he is end[$ by 8 ,creator ) ! same p[]s ( m9d z 8 ,prote/ant neighbor2 he has ! same impulses1 ! same noble aspirations implant$ by ! h& ( ,god 9 8 brea/4 ,he is s5t to s*ool app>5tly1 l ! ,prote/ant boy1 to receive :at is call$ 8,education40 ,he at fir/ und]/&s t ^w 9 its true s5se2 he goes to s*ool 9 ! hope ( be+ rais$1 elevat$ z high z 8 intellig5ce & 8 p]sonal ef=ts w all[4 ,8 he>t beats ) joy1 :5 at once ! fir/ rays ( light & k come to him2 he feels a holy1 a noble pride at e new /ep he makes 9 8 upw>d progress2 he longs to le>n m1 he wants to rise high]2 he also takes up 8 w+s1 l ! "y eagle1 & so>s up high]4 ,b "h beg9 ! disappo9tm5ts & tribulations ( ! ,roman ,ca?olic /ud5t2 = he is all[$ to raise himself--yes1 b :5 he has rais$ himself high en\gh to be on a level ) ! big toes ( ! ,pope1 he he>s pi]c+1 angry1 ?reat5+ angry cries com+ f e side--8,/op6 /op6 ,d n raise y\rself high] ?an ! toes ( ! ,holy ,pope6444 ,kiss ^? holy toes1 444 & /op y\r upw>d flight6 ,rememb] t ! ,pope is ! only s\rce ( sci5ce1 k & tru?6444 ,! k ( ! ,pope is ! ultimate limit ( le>n+ & light to :i* humanity c atta94444 ,y are n all[$ to "k & believe :at 8 ,hol9ess does n "k & believe4 ,/op6 /op6 ,d n g an in* high] ?an ! intellectual horizon ! ,supreme ,pontiff ( ,rome1 9 :om only is ! pl5itude ( ! true sci5ce :i* w save ! _w40 ,"s w p]haps answ] me "h3 8,has n ,rome produc$ great m5 9 e dep>tm5t ( sci5ce80 ,i answ]1 ,yes2 z ,i h once done be=e4 ,rome c %[ u a long li/ ( names :i* %9e among ! brighte/ lights ( ! firmam5t ( sci5ce & philosophy4 ,%e c %[ u h] ,cop]nices1 h] ,galileos1 h] ,pascals1 h] ,bossuets1 h] ,lam5ais1 etc41 etc4 ,b x is at _! risk & p]il t ^? giants ( intellig5ce h rais$ !mselves into ! highe/ regions ( philosophy & sci5ce4 ,x is 9 spite ( ,rome t ^? eagles h so>$ up above ! damp & obscure horizon :]e ! ,pope (f]s 8 big toes to be kiss$ & wor%ipp$ z ! ne plus ultra ( human intellig5ce2 & !y h inv>iably be5 puni%$ = _! boldness4 ,on ! #bbnd ( ,june1 #affc1 ,galileo 0 oblig$ to fall on 8 knees 9 ord] to escape ! cruel dea? to :i* he 0 to be condemn$ by ! ord] ( ! ,pope2 & he sign$ ) 8 own h& ! foll[+ retractation3 8,i abjure1 curse & dete/ ! error & h]esy ( ! motion ( ! e>?10 etc41 etc4 ,t le>n$ man _h to degrade himself by swe>+ a mo/ egregi\s lie1 namely1 t ! e>? does n move ar\nd ! sun4 ,?us x is t ! w+s ( t giant eagle ( ,rome 7 clipp$ by ! scissors ( ! ,pope4 ,t mighty intellig5ce 0 bruis$1 fett]$1 &1 z mu* z x 0 possible to ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 degrad$1 sil5c$ & kill$4 ,b ,god w\ld n all[ t su* a giant intellect %\ld be entirely /rangl$ by ! bloody h&s ( t implacable enemy ( light & tru?--! ,pope4 ,suffici5t /r5g? & life _h rema9$ 9 ,galileo to enable him to say1 :5 ris+ up1 8,?is w n prev5t ! e>? f mov+60 ,! infallible decree ( ! infallible ,pope1 ,urban ,,viii41 aga9/ ! motion ( ! e>?1 is sign$ by ! ,c>d9als ,felia1 ,guido1 ,desid]io1 ,antonio1 ,bell+]o1 & ,fabricicio4 ,x says1 8,9 ! "n & by ! au?ority ( ,jesus ,*ri/1 ! pl5itude ( :i* resides 9 ,8 vic>1 ! ,pope1 t ! proposition t ! e>? is n ! c5t] ( ! _w1 & t x moves ) a diurnal motion is absurd1 philosophically false1 & errone\s 9 fai?40 ,:at a glori\s ?+ = ! ,pope ( ,rome to be infallible6 ,he infallibly kn[s t ! e>? does n move ar\nd ! sun6 ,& :at a bless$ ?+ = ! ,roman ,ca?olics to be gov]n$ & taught by su* an infallible be+4 ,9 consequ5ce ( t infallible decree1 y w admire ! foll[+ act ( humble submission ( two celebrat$ ,jesuit a/ronom]s1 ,lesueur & ,jacqui]3 8,newton assumes 9 8 ?ird book ! hypo!sis ( ! e>? mov+ ar\nd ! sun4 ,! proposition ( t au?or c\ld n be expla9$1 except ?r\gh ! same hypo!sis3 we h1 !re=e1 be5 =c$ to act a "* n our own4 ,b we decl>e our entire submission to ! decrees ( ! ,supreme ,pontiffs ( ,rome aga9/ ! motion ( ! e>?40 7,newton's 8,pr9cipia10 vol4 iii41 p4 #dej47 ,n[1 please tell me if ! _w has ev] witness$ any degradation l t ( ,roman ,ca?olics8 ,i d n speak ( ! ignorant & unle>n$1 b ,i speak ( ! le>n$--! intellig5t ones4 ,!re y see ,galileo condemn$ to gaol because he _h prov$ t ! e>? mov$ ar\nd ! sun1 & to avoid ! cruel dea? on ! rack ( ! holy ,inquisition if he does n retract1 he falls on 8 knees & swe>s t he w nev] believe x--9 ! v mom5t t he believes x6 ,he promises1 "u a solemn oa?1 t he w nev] say x any m1 :5 he is det]m9$ to proclaim x aga9 ! v fir/ opportunity6 ,& "h y see two o!r le>n$ ,jesuits1 :o h writt5 a v able "w to prove t ! e>? moves ar\nd ! sun2 b1 trembl+ at ! ?und]s ( ! ,vatican1 :i* are ro>+ on _! heads & ?reat5 to kill !m1 !y submit to ! decrees ( ! ,popes ( ,rome aga9/ ! motion ( ! e>?4 ,^! two le>n$ ,jesuits tell a mo/ contemptible & ridicul\s lie to save !mselves f ! implacable wra? ( t great light-ext+ui%] ^: ?rone is 9 ! city ( ! sev5 hills4 ,lam5ais1 a ,roman ,ca?olic prie/1 :o liv$ 9 ?is v c5tury1 0 "o ( ! mo/ pr(\nd philosoph]s & eloqu5t writ]s :i* ,france has ev] _h4 ,b ,lam5ais 0 publicly excommunicat$ = hav+ rais$ himself high en\gh 9 ! regions ( ,gospel light to see t 8lib]ty ( consci5ce0 0 "o ( ! great privileges :i* ,*ri/ has br\ght f heav5 = all ! nations1 & :i* ,he has seal$ ) ,8 blood6 ,no man has ev] rais$ himself high] 9 ! regions ( ?\ght & philosophy ?an ,pascal2 b ! w+s ( t giant eagle 7 clipp$ by ! ,pope4 ,pascal 0 an outca/ 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,rome4 ,he liv$ & di$ an excommunicat$ man6 ,bossuet is "o ( ! mo/ eloqu5t orators :i* ,rome has giv5 to ! _w4 ,b ,veuillot1 ! editor ( ! ,univ]s 7! (ficial j\rnal ( ! ,roman ,ca?olic cl]gy ( ,france7 assures u t ,bossuet 0 a disguis$ ,prote/ant4 ,if1 at any /ep made by ! ,prote/ant ?r\gh ! regions ( sci5ce & le>n+1 he asks ,god or man to tell him h[ he c proce$ any fur!r )\t any fe> ( fall+ into "s unkn[n & unsuspect$ abyss1 bo? ,god & man tell him :at ,*ri/ said to ,8 apo/les--t he has eyes to see1 e>s to he>1 & an intellig5ce to und]/&2 he is rem9d$ t x is ) 8 own eyes1 & n ) ano!r's eyes1 he mu/ look2 t x is ) 8 own e>s1 & n ) ano!r's e>s1 he mu/ he>2 & t x is ) 8 own intellig5ce1 & n ano!r's intellig5ce1 he mu/ und]/&4 ,& :5 ! ,prote/ant has made use ( 8 own eyes to see1 & 8 own e>s to he>1 & 8 own intellig5ce to und]/&1 he nev]!less feels aga9 8 feet unc]ta9 on ! trembl+ waves ( ! my/]i\s & unexplor$ regions ( sci5ce & le>n+ :i* spread be=e him z a b\ndless ocean1 all ! e*oes ( heav5 & e>? br+ to 8 e>s ! simple b sublime words ( ! ,son ( ,god3 8,if a son %all ask bread ( any ( y t is a fa!r1 w he give him a /one8 ,or if he ask a fi%1 w he1 = a fi%1 give him a s]p5t8 ,or if he %all ask an egg1 w he (f] him a scorpion8 ,if ye !n1 be+ evil1 "k h[ to give good gifts unto y\r *ildr52 h[ mu* m %all y\r heav5ly ,fa!r give ! ,holy ,_s to !m t ask him80 ,embold5$ ) ?is infallible promise ( ! ,savi\r1 :i* has ennobl$ & almo/ div9iz$ him1 ! ,prote/ant /ud5t ceases to tremble & fe>1 a new /r5g? has be5 giv5 to 8 feet1 a new p[] to 8 m9d4 ,= he has gone to 8 ,fa!r = m light & /r5g?4 ,nay1 he has boldly ask$ n only ! assi/ance & ! help ( ! ,_s ( ,god1 b ! v pres5ce ( ,8 ,_s 9 8 s\l to guide & /r5g!n him4 ,! assurance t ! great ,god :o has creat$ heav5 & e>? is 8 ,fa!r1 8 lov+ ,fa!r1 has absolutely rais$ him above himself2 x has giv5 a new1 ,i d>e say a div9e impulse1 to all 8 aspirations = tru? & k4 ,x has put into 8 brea/ ! assurance t1 su/a9$ by ! love1 & ! light1 & ! help ( t great inf9ite1 et]nal ,god1 he feels himself z a giant able to cope ) any ob/acle4 ,he does n any m walk1 on 8 way to et]nity1 z a worm ( ! du/2 a voice f heav5 has told him t he 0 ! *ild ( ,god6 ,et]nity1 & n "t1 !n becomes ! limits ( 8 exi/5ce2 he is no m satisfi$ ) t\*+ ) 8 h&s & /udy+ ) 8 eyes ! few objects :i* are )9 ! limit$ horizon ( ! eyelid-vision4 ,he /ret*es 8 giant h&s to ! b\ndless limits ( ! inf9ite1 he boldly raises 8 feet & eyes f ! du/ ( ?is e>?1 to laun* himself into ! b\ndless oceans ( ! unkn[n worlds4 ,he feels z if !re 0 almo/ no?+ beyond ! rea* ( 8 intellig5ce1 no?+ to resi/ ! p[] ( 8 arms1 no?+ to /op 8 onw>d progress t[>d ! inf9ite s long z ! infallible words ( ,*ri/ %all be 8 compass1 8 light1 & 8 /r5g?4 ,he w !n t\* ! m\nta9s1 & !y w melt & b[ d[n be=e him to let 8 iron & fi]y *>iot pass ov] ! ,rocky ,m\nta9s1 #h1jjj feet above ! level ( ! sea4 ,he w boldly asc5d to ! regions :]e ! lightn+ & ! /orms reign1 & !re he w place 8 d>+ h&s into ! ro>+ cl\ds1 & wr5* ! sp>kle ( lightn+ :i* w c>ry 8 message f "o end ( ! _w to ! o!r4 ,he w =ce ! oceans to tremble & submit1 z humble slaves1 be=e ^? m>vel\s /eam-eng9es :i*1 l giants1 c>ry 8float+ cities0 ov] all ! seas 9 spite ( ! w9ds & ! waves4 ,_h ! ,newtons1 ! ,frankl9s1 ! ,fultons1 ! ,morses be5 ,romani/s1 _! names w\ld h be5 lo/ 9 ! obscurity :i* is ! natural h]itage ( ! abject slaves ( ! ,popes4 ,be+ told f _! infancy t no "o _h any "r to make use ( 8 8private judgm5t10 intellig5ce & consci5ce 9 ! rese>* ( tru?1 !y w\ld h rema9$ mute & motionless at ! feet ( ! mod]n & t]rible god ( ,rome1 ! ,pope4 ,b !y 7 ,prote/ants6 ,9 t great & glori\s ^w 8,prote/ant10 is ! secret ( ! m>vel\s discov]ies ) :i* !y h *ang$ ! face ( ! _w4 ,!y 7 ,prote/ants6 ,yes1 !y _h pass$ _! "y ye>s 9 ,prote/ant s*ools1 :]e !y _h read a book :i* told !m t !y 7 creat$ 9 ! image ( ,god1 & t t great ,god _h s5t ,8 et]nal ,son1 ,jesus1 to make !m free f ! bondage ( man4 ,!y _h read 9 t ,prote/ant book 7= ! ,bible is ! mo/ ,prote/ant book 9 ! _w7 t man _h n only a consci5ce1 b an intellig5ce to guide him2 !y _h le>n$ t t intellig5ce & consci5ce _h no o!r ma/] b ,god1 no o!r guide b ,god1 no o!r light b ,god4 ,on ! walls ( _! ,prote/ant s*ools ! ,son ( ,god _h writt5 ! m>vel\s words3 8,come unto me2 ,i am ! ,light1 ! ,way1 ! ,life40 ,b :5 ! ,prote/ant nations are m>*+ ) su* giant /rides to ! conque/ ( ! _w1 :y is x t ! ,roman ,ca?olic nations n only rema9 /ation>y1 b give evid5ce ( a decad5ce :i* is1 day aft] day1 m & m appall+ & rem$iless8 ,g to _! s*ools & give a mom5t ( att5tion to ! pr9ciples :i* are s[n 9 ! "y intellig5ces ( _! un=tunate slaves1 & y w h ! key to t sad my/]y4 ,:at is n only ! fir/1 b ! daily s*ool lesson taught to ! ,roman ,ca?olic8 ,is x n t "o ( ! greate/ crimes :i* a man c commit is to foll[ 8 8private judgm5t80 :i* means t he has eyes1 b _c see2 e>s1 b he _c he>2 & intellig5ce1 b he _c make use ( x 9 ! rese>* ( tru? & light & k1 )\t dang] ( be+ et]nally damn$4 ,8 sup]iors--:i* mean ! prie/ & ! ,pope--mu/ see = him1 he> = him1 & ?9k = him4 ,yes1 ! ,roman ,ca?olic is con/antly told 9 8 s*ool t ! mo/ unp>donable & damnable crime is to make use ( 8 own intellig5ce & foll[ 8 own private judgm5t 9 ! rese>* ( tru?4 ,he is con/antly rem9d$ t man's own private judgm5t is 8 greate/ enemy4 ,h5ce all 8 intellectual & consci5ti\s ef=ts mu/ be br\ght to fight d[n1 sil5ce1 kill 8 8private judgm5t40 ,x is by ! judgm5t ( 8 sup]iors--! prie/1 ! bi%op & ! pope--t he mu/ be guid$ 9 ev]y?+4 ,n[1 :at is a man :o _c make use ( 8 8private p]sonal judgm5t80 ,is he n a slave1 an idiot1 an ass8 ,& :at is a nation compos$ ( m5 :o d n make use ( _! private p]sonal judgm5t 9 ! rese>* ( tru? & happ9ess1 if n a nation ( brutes1 slaves & contemptible idiots8 ,b z ?is w look l an exagg]ation on my "p1 all[ me to =ce ! ,*ur* ( ,rome to come "h & speak = h]self4 ,please pay att5tion to :at %e has to say ab\t ! intellectual faculties ( m54 ,"h are ! v words ( ! s-call$ ,sa9t ,ignatius ,loyola1 ! f\nd] ( ! ,jesuit ,society3 8,z = holy ob$i5ce1 ?is virtue mu/ be p]fect 9 e po9t--9 execution1 9 w1 9 intellect1 do+ :i* is enjo9$ ) all cel]ity1 spiritual joy & p]sev]ance2 p]suad+ ourselves t ev]y?+ is j1 suppress+ e repugnant ?\ght & judgm5t ( "o's own 9 a c]ta9 ob$i5ce2 & let e "o p]suade himself1 t he :o lives "u ob$i5ce %\ld be mov$ & direct$1 "u ,div9e ,provid5ce1 by 8 sup]ior1 ,,j ,,z ,,if ,,he ,,7 ,a ,,corpse 7p]9de acsi cadav] esset7 :i* all[s itself to be mov$ & l$ 9 e direction40 ,yes6 ,prote/ants1 :5 y s5d y\r *ild to s*ool1 x is t he may m & m und]/& ! dignity ( man4 ,y\r object is to enlight51 exp& & raise 8 intellig5ce4 ,y want to give m light1 m /r5g?1 m food1 m life to t intellig5ce4 ,b "k x well1 n f my p51 b f ! solemn decl>ation ( ,rome4 ,! "y ,roman ,ca?olic goes to s*ool1 n only t 8 intellig5ce may be fett]$1 cl\d$ & p>alyz$1 b t x may be kill$4 7,y h read x47 ,x is only :5 he w be l a corpse be=e 8 sup]ior t ! "y ,roman ,ca?olic w h atta9$ to ! highe/ degree ( p]fect manhood6 ,is n su* a doctr9e absolutely anti-,*ri/ian & anti-social4 ,is x n diabolical8 ,w\ld n mank9d become a flock ( brute bea/s if ! ,*ur* ( ,rome c\ld succe$ 9 p]suad+ h] hundr$ ( millions ( slaves to consid] !mselves z cadav]s--corpses 9 ! pres5ce ( _! sup]iors4 ,"s "o w1 p]haps1 ask me :at c be ! object ( ! popes & ! prie/s ( ,rome 9 degrad+ ! ,roman ,ca?olics 9 su* a /range way t !y turn !m into moral corpses8 ,:at c be ! use ( ^? hundr$ ( millions ( corpses8 ,:y n let !m live8 ,! answ] is a v easy "o4 ,! great1 & ! only object ( ! ?\ghts & work+s ( ! ,pope & ! prie/s is to raise !mselves above ! re/ ( ! _w4 ,!y want to be high6 high6 high6 above ! head n only ( ! common p1 b ( ! k+s & emp]ors ( ! _w4 ,!y want to be n only z high1 b high] ?an ,god4 ,x is :5 speak+ ( ! ,pope t ! ,holy ,gho/ says3 8,he oppose? & exalte? himself above all t is call$ ,god1 or t is wor%ipp$2 s t he1 z ,god1 sitte? 9 ! temple ( ,god1 %ew+ himself t he is ,god0 7#b ,!ss4 ii4 #d74 ,to atta9 _! object1 ! prie/s h p]suad$ _! millions & millions ( slaves t !y 7 m]e corpses2 t !y mu/ h no w1 no consci5ce1 no intellig5ce ( _! own1 j 8z corpses1 :i* all[ !mselves to be mov$ & l$ 9 any way1 )\t any resi/ance40 ,:5 ?is has be5 once ga9$1 !y h made a pyramid ( all ^? motionless1 in]t corpses1 :i* is s high1 t ?\gh its feet are on ! e>?1 its top goes to ! skies1 9 ! v abode ( ! old div9ities ( ! ,pagan _w1 & putt+ !mselves & _! popes at ! top ( t m>vel\s pyramid1 ! prie/s say to ! re/ ( ! _w3 8,:o among y are z high z we are8 ,:o has ev] be5 rais$ by ,god z a prie/ & a pope8 ,:]e are ! k+s & ! emp]ors ^: ?rones are z elevat$ z ours8 ,are we n at ! v top ( humanity80 ,yes6 yes6 ,i answ] to ! prie/s ( ,rome1 y are high1 v high inde$6 ,no ?rone on e>? has ev] be5 s sublime1 s exalt$ z y\rs4 ,s9ce ! days ( ! t[] ( ,babel1 ! _w has n se5 su* a high fabric4 ,y\r ?rone is high] ?an any?+ we "k4 ,b x is a ?rone ( corpses666 ,& if y want to "k :at o!r use is made ( ^? millions & millions ( corpses1 ,i w tell x to y4 ,!re is no manure s ri* z dead c>casses4 ,^? millions ( corpses s]ve to manure ! g>d5s ( ! prie/s1 ! bi%ops & ! popes1 & make _! cabbages gr[4 ,& :at f9e cabbages gr[ 9 ! ,pope's g>d56 ,is x n a lucky ?+ = ! _w 9 g5]al1 & = ! ,roman ,ca?olics 9 p>ticul>1 t ?\gh !y are taught to become l corpses1 to h no w1 no und]/&+1 no judgm5t ( _! own 9 ! pres5ce ( _! sup]iors1 !re are _m :o c nev] atta9 to t p]fection ( intellectual degradation & dea?6 ,yes1 9 spite ( ! ef=ts1 9 spite ( ! tea*+s ( _! ,*ur*1 a few ,roman ,ca?olics reta9 "s life1 "s w1 "s intellig5ce1 "s judgm5t ( _! own :i* prev5ts !m f becom+ complete brutes4 ,_m n[ & !n refuse to desc5d to ! damp1 d>k & putrid abode ( ! corpses4 ,!y want to brea! ! fre% & pure air ( lib]ty :i* ,god has giv5 to man4 ,!y raise _! humiliat$ =ehead f ! ignom9i\s tomb :i* _! *ur* has dug = !m1 & !y give "s signs ( life4 ,b at e su* signs ( life giv5 by an individual or by a p 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 be sure t y w see ! fla%+ light & he> ! ro>+ ?und] ( ! ,vatican direct$ aga9/ ! rebel :o d>es to refuse to become a corpse be=e 8 sup]iors4 ,x is = hav+ %[n su* signs ( life & indep5d5ce ( m9d t ,galileo 0 s5t to gaol & ?reat5$ to be cruelly tortur$ on ! racks ( ! ,inquisition 9 ,italy1 ?ree hundr$ ye>s ago4 ,x is = hav+ %[n ^? symptoms ( life t n long ago ! hone/ ,k5na1 "o ( ! mo/ respect$ ,roman ,ca?olics ( ! day1 0 excommunicat$ ! day be=e 8 dea?1 & _h to be buri$ z a dog 9 8 own field1 = hav+ refus$ to take away 8 *ildr5 f an excell5t gramm> s*ool to obey ! prie/4 ,x is = hav+ d>$ to ?9k = himself t a few days be=e 8 dea? ! amiable & le>n$ ,montalemb]t 0 consid]$ z an outca/ by ! ,pope1 :o refus$ him ! honor ( public pray]s 9 ,rome aft] 8 dea?4 ,b t y may bett] und]/& ! degrad+ t5d5cies ( ! pr9ciples :i* are z ! fundam5tal /one ( ! moral & intellectual education ( ,rome1 let me put be=e y\r eyes ano!r extract ( ! ,jesuit tea*+s1 :i* ,i take aga9 f ! 8,spiritual ,ex]cises10 z laid d[n by _! f\nd]1 ,ignatius ,loyola3 8,t we may 9 all ?+s atta9 ! tru?1 t we may n err 9 any?+1 we ought ev] to hold z a fix$ pr9ciple t :at ,i see :ite ,i believe to be black1 if ! sup]ior au?orities ( ! ,*ur* def9e x to be s40 ,y all "k t x is ! av[$ desire ( ,rome to h public education 9 ! h&s ( ! ,jesuits4 ,%e says ev]y:]e t !y are ! be/1 ! model tea*]s4 ,:y s8 ,because !y m boldly & m successfully ?an any o!r ( h] tea*]s aim at ! de/ruction ( ! intellig5ce & consci5ce ( _! pupils4 ,rome proclaims ev]y:]e t ! ,jesuits are ! mo/ devot$1 ! mo/ reliable ( h] tea*]s2 & %e is "r1 = :5 a man has be5 tra9$ a suffici5t "t by !m1 he mo/ p]fectly becomes a moral corpse4 ,8 sup]iors c d :at !y please ) him4 ,:5 he kn[s t a ?+ is :ite z sn[1 he is ready to swe> t x is black z ink1 if 8 sup]ior tells him s4 ,b "s may be tempt$ to ?9k t ^! degrad+ pr9ciples are exclusively taught by ! ,jesuits2 t !y are n ! tea*+s ( ! ,*ur*1 & t ,i d an inju/ice to ! ,roman ,ca?olics :5 ,i give1 z a g5]al iniquity1 :at is ! guilt ( ! ,jesuits only4 ,li/5 to ! words ( t infallible ,pope ,gregory ,,xvi41 9 8 celebrat$ ,encyclical ( ! #ae? ( ,augu/1 #ahcb4 8,if ! holy ,*ur* s requires1 let u sacrifice our own op9ions1 our k1 our intellig5ce1 ! spl5did dreams ( our imag9ation1 & ! mo/ sublime atta9m5ts ( ! human und]/&+40 ,x is :5 consid]+ ^? anti-social pr9ciples ( ,rome t our le>n$ & pr(\nd ?9k]1 ,glad/one1 wrote1 n long ago3 8,no m cunn+ plot 0 ev] devis$ aga9/ ! fre$om1 ! happ9ess & ! virtues ( mank9d ?an ,romanism40 78,lett] to ,e>l ,ab]de5407 ,n[1 ,prote/ants1 d y beg9 to see ! diff]5ce ( ! object ( education betwe5 a ,prote/ant & a ,roman ,ca?olic s*ool8 ,d y beg9 to und]/& t !re is z great a di/ance betwe5 ! ^w 8,education0 among y1 & ! mean+ ( ! same ^w 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 ?an betwe5 ! s\!rn & ! nor!rn poles6 ,by education y mean to raise man to ! highe/ sph]e ( manhood4 ,rome means to l[] him bel[ ! mo/ /upid brutes4 ,by education y mean to tea* man t he is a free ag5t2 t lib]ty1 )9 ! limits ( ! laws ( ,god & ( 8 c\ntry1 is a gift secur$ to e "o2 y want to impress man ) ! noble ?\ght t x is bett] to die a free man ?an to live a slave4 ,rome wants to tea* t !re is only "o man :o is free1 ! ,pope1 & t all ! re/ are born to be 8 abject slaves 9 ?\ght1 w & action4 ,n[1 t y may /ill m und]/& to :at a bottomless abyss ( human degradation & moral depravity ^! anti-,*ri/ian & anti-social pr9ciples ( ,rome lead h] poor bl9d slaves1 read :at ,liguori says 9 8 book1 8,! ,nun ,sanctifi$03 8,! pr9cipal & mo/ efficaci\s means ( practic+ ob$i5ce due to sup]iors1 & ( r5d]+ x m]itori\s be=e ,god1 is to consid] t 9 obey+ !m we obey ,god himself1 & t by despis+ _! comm&s1 we despise ! au?ority ( our ,div9e ,ma/]4 ,:51 ?us1 a religi\s receives a precept f h] prelate1 sup]ior or confessor1 %e %\ld imm$iately execute x1 n only to please !m b pr9cipally to please ,god1 ^: w is made kn[n to h] by _! comm&4 ,9 obey+ _! comm&1 9 obey+ _! directions1 %e is m c]ta9ly obey+ ! w ( ,god ?an if an angel came d[n f heav5 to manife/ 8 w to h]4 ,be> ?is always 9 y\r m9d1 t ! ob$i5ce :i* y practice to y\r sup]ior is paid to ,god4 ,if1 !n1 y receive a comm& f "o :o holds ! place ( ,god1 y %\ld obs]ve x ) ! same dilig5ce z if x came f ,god himself4 ,bless$ ,egidus us$ to say t x is m m]itori\s to obey man = ! love ( ,god ?an ,god himself4 ,x may be add$ t !re is m c]ta9ty ( do+ ! w ( ,god by ob$i5ce to y\r sup]ior ?an by ob$i5ce to ,jesus ,*ri/1 %\ld ,he appe> 9 p]son & give ,8 comm&s4 ,/4 ,philip de ,n]i us$ to say t religi\s %all be mo/ c]ta9 ( n hav+ to r5d] an acc\nt ( ! actions p]=m$ ?r\gh ob$i5ce2 = ^! ! sup]iors only :o comm&$ !m %all be held acc\ntable40 ,! ,"l said once to ,/4 ,ca!r9e ( ,si5ne1 8,religi\s w n be oblig$ to r5d] an acc\nt to me ( :at !y d ?r\gh ob$i5ce2 = t ,i w dem& an acc\nt f ! sup]ior4 ,?is doctr9e is con=mable to ,sacr$ ,scripture3 ,behold1 says ! ,"l1 z clay is 9 ! pott]'s h&s1 s are y 9 my h&1 ,o ,israel6 7,j]emiah xviii3 #f47 ,a religi\s man mu/ be 9 ! h&s ( ! sup]iors to be mold$ z !y w4 ,%all ! clay say to him t fa%ione? x1 ,:at art ?\ mak+8 ,! pott] ought to answ]1 #8,be sil5t2 x is n y\r bus9ess to inquire :at ,i d1 b to obey & to receive :atev] =m ,i please to give y4'0 ,i ask ( y1 ,am]ican ,prote/ants1 :at w\ld become ( y\r fair c\ntry if y 7 bl9d en\gh to all[ ! ,*ur* ( ,rome to tea* ! *ildr5 ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates8 ,:at k9d ( m5 & wom5 c come out ( su* s*ools8 ,:at future ( %ame1 degradation & slav]y y prep>e = y\r c\ntry if ,rome does succe$ 9 =c+ y to support su* s*ools4 ,:at k9d ( wom5 w\ld come out f ! s*ools ( nuns1 :o w\ld tea* !m t ! highe/ pit* ( p]fection 9 a woman is :5 %e obeys h] sup]ior1 ! prie/1 9 ev]y?+ he comm&s h]6 t y\r daught] w nev] be call$ to give an acc\nt to ,god = ! actions %e w h done to please & obey h] sup]ior1 ! prie/1 ! bi%op or ! ,pope8 ,t ! affairs ( h] consci5ce w be arrang$ betwe5 ,god & t sup]ior1 & t %e w nev] be ask$ :y %e _h done ?is or t1 :5 x w be to gratify ! pleasures ( ! sup]ior & obey 8 comm& t %e has done x4 ,aga91 :at k9d ( m5 & citiz5s w come out f ! s*ools ( ^? ,jesuits :o believe & tea* t a man has atta9$ ! p]fection ( manhood only :5 he is a p]fectly spiritual corpse be=e 8 sup]ior2 :5 he obeys ! prie/ ) ! p]fection ( a cadav]1 t has nei!r life nor w 9 itself4 ,b "s w be tempt$ to ?9k t ?is p]fect bl9d ob$i5ce to ! prie/1 :i* is ! corn]-/one ( ! ,roman ,ca?olic education1 is requir$ only 9 spiritual matt]s4 ,yes2 b y mu/ n =get t 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,rome e action ( ! public or private life belongs to ! spiritual sph]e1 :i* ! sup]ior only mu/ rule4 ,= in/ance1 a ,roman ,ca?olic has n ! "r to select ! tea*] ( 8 boy1 nor ! s*ool :]e he w s5d him2 he mu/ consult 8 prie/1 & if he d>es to act 9 a diff]5t way f :at 8 prie/ has told him 9 ! selection ( t tea*] or t s*ool1 he is excommunicat$ & damn$1 z ,mr4 ,k5na has be5 lately4 ,if he votes accord+ to 8 own private judgm5t = ,mr4 ,jones1 in/ead ( ,mr4 ,?ompson1 ! select$ memb] ( ! bi%op & ! prie/1 he is damn$ & consid]$ z a rebel aga9/ 8 holy ,*ur*1 out ( :i* !re is no salvation4 ,! ,*ur* ( ,rome's only object 9 giv+ :at %e calls education is to tea* h] slaves t !y mu/ obey _! sup]iors 9 ev]y?+1 z ,god himself4 ,all ! re/ ( h] tea*+ is only a mask to conceal h] plans4 ,hi/ory is nev] taught 9 h] s*ools2 :at %e calls hi/ory is a mo/ %ameful /r+ ( falsehoods4 ,( c\rse %e does n d>e to say a ^w ( tru? ab\t h] pa/ /ruggles aga9/ ! great pr9ciples ( light & lib]ty1 :5 %e cov]$ ! :ole ( ,europe ) te>s1 blood & ru9s4 ,writ+1 read+1 ari?metic1 geography & gramm> are taught to a c]ta9 degree 9 h] s*ools1 b all ^! tea*+s are no?+ else b cov]$ roads ?r\gh :i* ! prie/ wants to rea* ! citadel ( ! he>t & intellig5ce ( 8 poor victim1 & take an absolute possession ( !m4 ,^? ?+s are taught e day only to h a daily opportunity to p]suade ! pupil t he mu/ nev] make any use ( 8 private judgm5t 9 any?+1 & t he mu/ submit 8 intellig5ce1 8 consci5ce1 8 w to ! intellig5ce1 consci5ce & w ( 8 sup]ior1 if he wants to save himself f ! et]nal fire ( hell4 ,he is con/antly told1 :at ,i h be5 told a ?\s& times myself1 :5 /udy+ 9 ! college ( ,nicolet1 t ^? :o obey _! sup]iors 9 ev]y?+ w n be call$ to give an acc\nt ( _! actions to _! ,supreme ,judge1 ev5 if ^? actions 7 bad 9 !mselves2 =1 z ,liguori told y a mom5t ago1 8,:osoev] obeys 8 sup]ior = ! love ( ,god1 obeys ,god himself1 & t !re are m m]its to obey "o's own sup]ior ?an ,god himself40 ,! ,*ur* ( ,rome %[s h] great wisdom 9 en=c+ t dogma ( ! entire & bl9d subjection ( ! w & intellig5ce ( ! inf]ior to ! sup]ior4 ,= ! v mom5t t a ,roman ,ca?olic ?9ks t x is 8 "r & sacr$ duty to foll[ ! dictates ( 8 own consci5ce & intellig5ce1 he is lo/ to ! *ur* ( ,rome4 ,x is only :5 a man has entirely sil5c$ & absolutely kill$ 8 intellig5ce1 x is only :5 he has become a p]fect moral corpse1 t he c believe t 8 prie/1 ev5 8 drunk5 prie/1 has ! p[] to *ange a waf]1 or any o!r piece ( bread1 into ! great ,god1 = :om & by :om ev]y?+ has be5 creat$4 ,x is only :5 ! intellig5ce ( man has become a dead c>cass t he c believe t a mis]able s9n] has ! supreme p[] to =ce ! ,son ( ,god to come1 9 ,8 div9e & human p]son1 into 8 ve/ or pant's pockets to foll[ him ev]y:]e he wants to g1 ev5 to ! b> ( ! l[ tav]n1 t ,he may become 8 companion ( debau* & drunk5ness4 ,d y see1 n[1 :y ! ,*ur* ( ,rome _c let h] poor "y slaves g to y\r s*ools8 ,9 y\r s*ools1 ! fir/ ?+ y inculcate to ! pupil is t 8 intellig5ce is ! great gift ( ,god1 by :i* man is di/+ui%$ f ! brute2 t he mu/ enlight51 =m1 fe$1 cultivate 8 intellig5ce1 :i* is to him :at ! helm is to ! %ip1 ,*ri/1 ) ,8 holy ,^w1 be+ ! pilot4 ,y see1 n[ :y ! ,*ur* ( ,rome abhors y\r s*ools4 ,x is because y want to make m51 & %e wants to make brutes4 ,y want to raise m5 to ! highe/ sph]e to :i* 8 intellig5ce c all[ him to rea*2 %e wants to keep him 9 ! du/1 at ! feet ( ! prie/s2 y want to =m free citiz5s1 %e wants to =m abject & ob$i5t slaves ( ! prie/s2 y tea* man to keep 8 sacr$ promises & /& by 8 oa?1 %e tea*es him t ! ,pope has ! "r to dissolve ! mo/ sacr$ promises & to annul all 8 oa?s1 ev5 to ! oa? ( allegiance to 8 c\ntry4 ,y tell y\r pupils t s long z !y w keep !mselves )9 ! limits ( ! laws ( _! c\ntry !y are responsible only to ,god = _! consci5ces4 ,!y tell _! pupils t x is n to ,god1 b to ! prie/ t he mu/ g to give an acc\nt ( 8 consci5ce4 ,y tea* y\r pupils t ! laws ( ,god only b9d ! consci5ce ( man2 !y tell him t x is ! laws ( ! ,*ur*1 :i* means ! ipse dixit ( ! ,pope1 :i* b9ds _! consci5ces4 ,y tea* ! /ud5t t e man has ! "r to *ange 8 religion accord+ to 8 consci5ce2 %e positively says t no man has ! "r to *ange 8 religion accord+ to 8 consci5ce4 ,x is evid5t t ! ,*ur* ( ,rome w\ld be dead to-morr[1 if1 to-day1 %e w\ld all[ h] *ildr5 to att5d s*ools :]e !y w\ld le>n to foll[ ! dictates ( _! consci5ce & li/5 to ! voice ( _! intellig5ce4 ,b %e is too %rewd to av[ be=e ! _w ! real reasons :y %e wants1 at any co/1 to prev5t h] *ildr5 f att5d+ y\r s*ools4 ,& x is "h %e %[s h] pr(\nd & diabolical cunn+4 ,?\gh %e is ! mo/ deadly enemy ( lib]ty ( consci5ce1 ?\gh %e has1 "t aft] "t1 ana!miz$ lib]ty ( consci5ce z "o ( ,satan's s*emes1 %e sudd5ly /eps on1 z ! great fri5d & apo/le ( lib]ty ( consci5ce1 & "u t new mask %e approa*es y\r legislators ) great airs ( dignity1 & says1 8,we are happy to live 9 a c\ntry :]e lib]ty ( consci5ce is secur$ to e citiz54 ,x is 9 its sacr$ "n t we respectfully approa* y\r honorable legislature to ask3 ,fir/1 to be exempt$ f s5d+ our *ildr5 to ! ,gov]nm5t s*ools4 ,second1 to h ! money we want f ! public treasury 9 ord] to support our own s*ools4 ,= two reasons3 ,fir/1 y read ! ,bible 9 y\r s*ools1 & x is aga9/ our consci5ce to let our *ildr5 read ! ,bible4 ,second1 y h "s pray]s at ! beg9n+ & "s religi\s hymns sung at ! end ( ! h\rs ( s*ool1 & x is aga9/ our consci5ce to all[ ! *ildr5 ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome to jo9 y 9 ^? pray]s & hymns40 ,! legislators1 :o1 = ! great] "p are too honorable m5 to suspect ! fraud1 are won by ! air ( c&or & hone/y ( ! ,roman ,ca?olic petition]s4 ,consid]+ ! great b5efit :i* w come to ! c\ntry if all ! *ildr5 are taught 9 ! same s*ool1 !y are soon ready to make any sacrifice 9 ord] to h ! ,roman ,ca?olic & ! ,prote/ant *ildr5 "u ! same ro(1 to receive ! same light & ! same moral food & same in/ruction4 ,z true patriots1 ! legislators und]/& t if !y wi% _! belov$ c\ntry to be /rong & happy1 ! fir/ ?+ !y mu/ d is to make ! "y g5]ation "o 9 m9d1 9 he>t4 ,if ! ,prote/ant & ,roman ,ca?olic *ildr5 are taught 9 ! same s*ool1 !y w "k ea* o!r & love ea* o!r :5 "y1 & ^? sacr$ ties ( fri5d%ip :i* w b9d !m 9 ! spr+ ( life1 w be /r5g!n$ :5 _! reason w be matur$ & enlight5$ by a good education "u ! same respect$ & wor?y tea*]s4 ,z ,*ri/ian m51 ! legislators w\ld p]haps l to keep ! ,bible1 & h %ort pray]s 9 ! s*ools2 b z patriots1 !y feel t ^? ?+s1 ?\gh good & sacr$1 are an insurm\ntable b>ri] to ! ,roman ,ca?olic4 ,! delicate consci5ce ( ! bi%ops & prie/s _c all[ su* ?+s 9 ! s*ool att5d$ by _! lambs6 ,?r\gh respect = ! sacr$ rights ( ! ,roman ,ca?olic consci5ce1 ! legislators 9 _m places ?r[ ! ,bible ov]bo>d1 & !y say to ,god3 8,please get out f our s*ools1 & d excuse u if we ord] our tea*]s to ignore y\r exi/5ce60 ,!y say to ,jesus ,*ri/3 8,we h n =gott5 y\r sublime & t\*+ words1 #8,suff] little *ildr5 to come unto me4' ,no d\bt y w\ld l to press our de> little ones on y\r lov+ he>t & bless !m = a mom5t 9 ! s*ools2 b we _c all[ !m to g s ne> y 9 ! s*ool1 we _c ev5 all[ !m to speak to y a s+le ^w !re4 ,please be n (f5d$ if we turn y out f ^? v s*ools :]e y 7 s welcome =m]ly4 ,we are =c$ to t sad extremity ?r\gh ! respect we owe to ! t5d] consci5ces ( our fell[-citiz5s ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome4 ,y "k t !y _c all[ _! *ildr5 to speak to y toge!r ) ours40 ,b :5 ^? awful1 n to say sacrilegi\s1 sacrifices h be5 made by ! ,prote/ant legislators to appease ! implacable god ( ,rome--:51 ?r\gh respect = ! scruples ( ! bi%ops & prie/s ( ,rome1 ! great ,god ( ,heav51 ) ,8 ,son1 ,jesus ,*ri/1 h be5 unc]emoni\sly turn$ out f ! s*ools--:5 ! ,^w ( ,god has be5 prohibit$1 & ! ,bible is ?r[n ov]bo>d1 is ! ,molo* god appeas$8 ,w ! ,roman ,ca?olic bi%ops & prie/s tell _! *ildr5 t !y may unite ) y\rs to g & receive education f ! same tea*]8 ,no6 ,b assum+1 !n1 a sublime air ( indignation1 !y turn aga9/ y z mad dogs2 !y call y\r s*ools godless s*ools6 good only to =m ?ieves1 infidels & a!i/s6 ,d y see n[ t all ^? dignifi$ scruples ( consci5ce ab\t read+ ! ,bible1 pray+ ) y1 etc41 7 only a mask to deceive y1 & make y fall into a sn>e8 ,d y n p]ceive n[ t !y did n c>e a /raw = ! ,bible & ! pray]s 9 ! s*ools8 b !y want$ y\r legislators to compromise !mselves be=e ! ,*ri/ian _w1 lose _! moral /r5g? 9 ! eyes ( a great "p ( ! nation1 divide y\r ranks1 y\r means1 y\r /r5g?1 & beat y on t great "q ( education4 ,!y w take su* airs ( m>tyrs :5 y w try to =ce _! *ildr5 to y\r s*ools t _m hone/ & unsuspect+ ,prote/ants w be completely deceiv$ by !m4 ,at fir/1 !y c\ld n1 !y said1 tru/ ! *ildr5 to y\r h&s1 because y read ! ,^w ( ,god2 y pray$ & bless$ ,god 9 ! s*ool4 ,b n[ t ! ,bible & ,god are turn$ out f ! s*ools1 !y baptize !m by ! mo/ ignom9i\s names :i* c be giv5--!y call !m 8godless s*ools60 ,h y ev] se5 a m pr(\ndly ignom9i\s & sacrilegi\s trick8 ,w n y\r legislators op5 _! eyes to t /range act ( deception1 ( :i* !y are ! victims8 ,w !y n come out quickly f ! traps laid be=e !m by ! bi%ops & ! prie/s ( ,rome8 ,yes6 let u hope t y\r patriots & ,*ri/ian legislators w soon und]/& t !y owe a rep>ation to ,god & to _! c\ntry2 ) unanim\s voice !y w ask p>don f ,god = hav+ expell$ him f ! v place :]e ,he has mo/ "r to reign supremely--! s*ool4 ,= :at is a s*ool )\t ,god 9 its mid/ to sit z a fa!r1 & to =m ! "y he>ts & evoke ! "y intellect8 ,:at is a boy1 :at is a girl1 :at is a woman or a man )\t ,god8 :at is a family1 :at is a p )\t ,god8 ,x is a mon/rosity1 x is a body )\t life1 x is a _w )\t light1 x is a ci/]n )\t wat]4 ,let u hope t1 be=e long1 y\r patriotic & ,*ri/ian legislators w rememb] t ! ,bible is ! f\ndation ( ! greatness ( ,prote/ant nations4 ,x is to ! ,bible ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 z well z ,great ,brita91 owe _! lib]ty1 p[]1 pre/ige & /r5g?4 ,x is ! ,bible t has ennobl$ ! he>ts ( y\r h]oes1 improv$ ! m9ds ( y\r poets & orators1 & /r5g!n$ ! arms ( y\r w>riors4 ,yes6 x is because y\r soldi]s h br\ght ) !m ev]y:]e1 ! ,bible1 press$ on _! he>ts1 t !y h conqu]$ ! enemies ( lib]ty4 ,s long z ! ,unit$ ,/ates w be true to ! ,bible1 _! glori\s bann]s w fly respect$ & fe>$ all ov] ! seas1 & ov] all ! cont95ts ( ! _w4 ,let ! disciples ( ! ,gospel1 ! *ildr5 ( ,god1 & ! r$eem$ ( ,*ri/ all ov] ! fair & noble c\ntry y inhabit1 ha/5 to reque/ _! legislators to invite ! ,savi\r ( ! _w to come back & bless _! de> *ildr5 9 ! s*ool4 ,= x is n only 9 y\r homes & 9 y\r *ur*es t ,jesus tells y 8,suff] little *ildr5 to come unto me40 ,x is p>ticul>ly 9 ! s*ool4 ,oh6 give two or ?ree m9utes to ^? de> little ones1 t !y may press !mselves on ,8 bosom1 bless him = hav+ sav$ !m on ! cross1 & proclaim 8 m]cies by s++ "o ( ^? hymns :i* !y l s mu*4 ,by ?is noble act ( national rep>ation y w take away f ! h&s ( ! prie/s ! only weapon ) :i* !y c hurt y2 y w de/roy ! only argum5t !y use ) a true =ce aga9/ y\r s*ools :5 !y call !m godless s*ools4 ,d n fe> any m ! prie/s & ! prelates ( ,rome4 ,d n yield any m & give up y\r privilege to please !m & reconcile !m to y\r s*ools4 ,y w nev] be able to reconcile !m to y\r s*ools2 = !re is light 9 y\r s*ools1 & !y want ! d>kness4 ,!re is fre$om & lib]ty 9 y\r s*ools2 !y want slav]y6 ,!re is life 9 y\r s*ools1 & x is only on dead corpses t _! *ur* c h a *ance to live a few ye>s m4 ,y see1 by a sad exp]i5ce1 t _! scruples ( consci5ce aga9/ ! ,bible & ! pray] ( ! s*ool are m]e hypocrisy j ?r[n into ! eyes ( ! public4 ,d n say ) "s hone/ b delud$ ,prote/ants3 ,is x n en\gh t t *ild %\ld le>n 8 religion at home8 ,no1 x is n en\gh2 = x is 9 our nature t we want two witnesses to believe a ?+4 ,:at comes to our m9d only ?r\gh "o witness rema9s unc]ta92 b let two good witnesses confirm a fact1 & !n we accept x4 ,y\r *ild wants two witnesses to believe ! necessity ( ! sacr$ness ( religion4 ,8 ,*ri/ian home is surely a good witness to y\r *ild1 b x is n en\gh2 :at he has he>d f y mu/ be confirm$ by 8 s*ool tea*]4 ,)\t ?is second witness1 n9e times out ( t5 y\r *ildr5 w be skeptics & infidels4 ,besides t1 ! v idea ( ,god br+s ) x ! obligation to bless1 love & adore ,him ev]y:]e4 ,! mom5t y take y\r *ild to a place :]e n only he _c love1 bless & adore ,god1 b :]e ! adoration & ! praise ( ,god are =bidd51 y entirely de/roy ! idea ( ,god f ! m9d & f ! he>t ( y\r *ild4 ,y make him believe t :at y h told him1 :5 at home1 ( ,god is only a fable to amuse & deceive him4 ,d y see t noble %ip 9 ! mid/ ( t spl5did h>bor1 h[ %e is toss$ by ! foam+ waves1 h[ %e is beat5 by ! furi\s w9ds8 ,:at does prev5t t %ip f fly+ be=e ! /orm & runn+ a%ore1 a mis]able wreck8 ,:at does prev5t h] f be+ da%$ on t rock8 ,! an*or6 ,yes1 ! an*or is h] safety4 ,b let a s+le l9k ( ! *a9 t b9ds ! %ip to h] an*or break1 w %e n soon be da%$ on ! rock & brok5 to pieces1 & s9k to ! bottom ( ! sea8 ,x is s ) y\r *ild6 ,s long z 8 intellig5ce & 8 he>t are unit$ to ,god by ! an*or ( fai?1 he w nobly /& aga9/ ! furi\s waves1 he w nobly fight 8 battles2 b let ! s*ool tea*] be sil5t ab\t ,god1 & "h is a brok5 l9k1 & ! *ild w be a wreck4 ,d n fe> ! prie/1 b fe> ,god6 ,d n try any m to please ! prie/s1 b d all 9 y\r p[] to please y\r great & m]ciful ,god1 n only 9 y\r homes1 b also 9 y\r s*ools1 & ^? s*ools w become m ?an ev] a focus ( light1 an inexhau/ible s\rce ( intellectual & moral /r5g?--m ?an ev] y\r *ildr5 w le>n 9 ! s*ool to be y\r honor & y\r glory & y\r joy4 ,!y w le>n t !y are n ignoble worms ( ! du/1 ^: exi/5ce w end 9 ! tomb1 b t !y are immortal z ,god1 ^: belov$ *ildr5 !y are4 ,!y w le>n h[ to s]ve _! ,god & love _! c\ntry4 ,be n a%am$1 b be pr\d to s5d y\r *ildr5 to s*ools :]e !y w le>n h[ to be good ,*ri/ians & good citiz5s4 ,:5 y w h f9i%$ y\r pilgrimage !y w be y\r wor?y successors1 & ! ,god :om !y w h le>n$ to fe>1 s]ve & love 9 ! s*ool w help !m to make y\r c\ntry great1 happy & free4 ,,*apt] ,,xiii4 ,,!ology ,,( ,,! ,,*ur* ,,( ,,rome3 ,,its ,,anti-,,social ,,& ,,anti-,,*ri/ian ,,"*4 ,talleyr&1 "o ( ! mo/ celebrat$ ,roman ,ca?olic bi%ops ( ,france1 once said1 8,language is ! art ( conceal+ "o's ?\ghts40 ,nev] 0 !re a tru] expression1 if x _h ref]5ce to ! awful deceptions practic$ by ! ,*ur* ( ,rome "u ! pomp\s "n ( 8,!ological /udies40 ,!ology is ! /udy ( ! k ( ! laws ( ,god4 ,no?+1 !n1 is m noble ?an ! /udy ( !ology4 ,h[ solemn 7 my ?\ghts & elevat$ my aspirations :51 9 #ahbi1 "u ! guidance ( ! ,rev4 ,messrs4 ,raimbault & ,leprohon1 ,i comm5c$ my !ological c\rse ( /udy at ,nicolet1 :i* ,i 0 to end 9 #ahcc6 ,i suppos$ t my books ( !ology 7 to br+ me ne>] to my ,god by ! m p]fect k ,i w\ld acquire1 9 _! /udy1 ( ,8 holy w & ,8 sacr$ laws4 ,my hope 0 t !y w\ld be to my he>t :at ! burn+ coal1 br\ght by ! angel ( ! ,"l1 0 to ! lips ( ! prophet ( old4 ,! pr9cipal !ologians :i* we _h 9 our h&s 7 8,les ,conf]5ces d',ang]10 ,bailly1 ,d5s1 ,/4 ,?omas1 b above all ,liguori1 :o has s9ce be5 canoniz$4 ,nev] did ,i op5 "o )\t (f]+ up a f]v5t pray] to ,god & to ! ,virg9 ,m>y = ! light & grace ( :i* ,i w\ld be 9 ne$ = myself & = ! p ^: pa/or ,i 0 to become4 ,b h[ %all ,i relate my surprise :5 ,i discov]$1 t 9 ord] to accept ! pr9ciples ( ! !ologians :i* my ,*ur* gave me = guides1 ,i _h to put away all pr9ciples ( tru?1 ( ju/ice1 ( honor & hol9ess6 ,:at long & pa9ful ef=ts x co/ me to ext+ui%1 "o by "o1 ! lights ( tru? & ( reason k9dl$ by ! h& ( my m]ciful ,god 9 my intellig5ce4 ,= to /udy !ology 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,rome signifies to le>n to speak falsely1 to deceive1 to commit robb]y1 to p]jure "o's self6 ,x means h[ to commit s9s )\t %ame1 x means to plunge ! s\l into e k9d ( iniquity & turpitude )\t remorse6 ,i "k t ,roman ,ca?olics w bravely & squ>ely d5y :at ,i n[ say4 ,i am aw>e also t a great _m ,prote/ants1 too easily deceiv$ by ! f9e :itewa%+ ( ! ext]ior walls ( ,rome1 w refuse to believe me4 ,nev]!less !y may re/ assur$ x is true1 & my pro( w be irrefutable4 ,! tru? may be d5i$ by _m1 b my witnesses _c be contradict$ by any "o4 ,my witnesses are ev5 infallible4 ,!y are none o!r ?an ! ,roman ,ca?olic !ologians !mselves1 approv$ by infallible ,popes6 ,^! v m5 :o corrupt$ my he>t1 p]v]t$ my intellig5ce & poison$ my s\l1 z !y h done ) ea* & e prie/ ( _! ,*ur*1 w be my witnesses1 my only witnesses4 ,i w j n[ =cibly br+ !m be=e ! _w to te/ify aga9/ !mselves6 ,liguori1 9 8 treatise on oa?s1 ,"q #d1 asks if x is all[able to use ambiguity1 or equivocal words1 to deceive ! judge :5 "u oa?1 & at ,no4 #aea he answ]s3 8,x is c]ta91 & ! op9ion ( all !ologians1 t = good reasons "o may be p]mitt$ to use equivocations & to ma9ta9 !m by oa?2 & by #8good reasons' we mean all t c d any good to ! body or ! s\l40 ,"h is ! ,lat9 text3 8,c]tum e/1 et commune apud omnes quod1 ex ju/a causa1 licitum sit uti aequivocatione1 et cum juvam5to affirm>e3 ,et ju/a causa esse pote/ quicunque f9es hone/us ad s]v&a bona spiritui vel corporali utilia0 7,sal3 ,nos4 #aji & vol4 sau*74 8,a culprit1 or a witness1 que/ion$ by a judge1 b 9 an illegal mann]1 may swe> t he kn[s no?+ ( ! crime ab\t :i* he is que/ion$1 ?\gh he kn[s x well1 m5tally mean+ t he kn[s no?+ 9 su* a mann] z to answ]40 ,:5 ! crime is v secret & unkn[n to all1 ,liguori says ! culprit or ! witness mu/ d5y x "u oa?4 ,"h are 8 own words3 8,idem si te/is ex alio capite1 non t5eatur depon]e3 ,nempe si ipsi conotet crim5 c>uisse culpa1 vel si sciat crim51 s$ sub secreto1 cum nulla proccess]it infamia40 8,he may swe> t he kn[s no?+1 :5 he kn[s t ! p]son :o committ$ ! crime committ$ x )\t malice 7z affir4 ,salm4 to c4 #b1 ,no4 #bei1 & ,elb4 ,no4 #ade72 or aga91 if he kn[s ! crime1 b secretly1 & t !re has be5 no sc&al0 7z we are assur$ by ,c>d4 ,no4 #ea47 8,:5 a crime is well conceal$1 ! witness1 & ev5 ! crim9al1 may & ev5 mu/ swe> t ! crime has n be5 committ$6 8,! guilty p>ty may yet d likewise1 :5 a half pro( _c be br\ght aga9/ him40 ,"h is ! ,lat9 text3 8,reus vel te/is non t5etur judicio1 respond]e si crim5 fu]it omnis occultum tunc enim pote/ imo t5eteur te/is dic]e reum non commisse4 ,et idem pote/ reus1 si non adsit semipl5a probatio0 7,salm4 ,d4 #b1 ,no4 #adf ,bus474 ,liguori asks himself 7,que/4 #b73 ,if an accus$1 legally int]rogat$ by a judge1 may d5y 8 crime "u oa?1 :5 ! confession ( ! crime might cause 8 condemnation1 & be disadvantage\s to him8 & he answ]s3 8,x is altoge!r probable t :5 ! accus$ fe>s a s5t5ce ( dea?1 or ( be+ s5t to prison1 or exil$1 he may d5y 8 crime "u oa?1 und]/&+ t he has n committ$ ?is crime 9 su* a mann] z to be oblig$ to confess x40 ,"h is ! ,lat9 text3 8,quritur #b4 ,au reus legitime int]rogatus possit neg>e cim51 etiam cum juram5to1 si grave damnum1 ex confessione ipsi imm9eat satis probabilit]1 7,lugo de ,ju/itia1 ,d4 #dj1 ,n4 #ae2 ,tamb4 lib4 #c1 etc472 et aliis pluribus dicunt posse reum si sibi imm9eat po5a mortis1 c>c]is1 rut exilii1 neg>e crim51 etiam juram5to1 saltem s9e peccato gravi1 sub intellig5do2 se non commississe quot5us t5eatur illud fat]i mado sit spes vit&i pnam40 8,he :o has sworn to keep a secret is n oblig$ to keep 8 oa?1 if any consequ5tial injury to him or to o!rs is !reby caus$40 8,if any "o has sworn be=e a judge to keep ! tru?1 he is n oblig$ to say secret ?+s40 7,less1 ,bon>1 ,trall1 etc47 ,liguori asks :e!r a woman1 accus$ ( ! crime ( adult]y1 :i* %e has really committ$1 may d5y x "u oa?8 ,he answ]s3 8,yes2 provid$ t %e has be5 to confess1 & receiv$ ! absolution2 = !n10 he says1 8! s9 has be5 p>don$1 & has really ceas$ to exi/40 8,qu>itur #b4 ,an adult]a neg>e adult]ium viro suo8 ,resp4 ,si adult]ium confessa sit3 ,pote/ respond]e1 #8,innoc5s sum ab hoc crim9e' quia p] confessionem e/ jam oblatum40 7,c>d1 ,disc4 #ai1 ,n4 #ed47 ,liguori ma9ta9s t "o may commit a m9or crime 9 ord] to avoid a great] crime4 ,he says3 8,x is "r to advise any "o to commit a robb]y or a =nication 9 ord] to avoid a murd]40 8,h9c1 docet1 ,san*ez1 ,no4 #ai caj4 sot41 p>ato aliquem occid]e licet posse suad]i ut ab eo furetur1 vel ut =nicatur0 7page #dai74 ,"q #c1 ,liguori3 8,may a s]vant op5 ! door = a pro/itute80 ,croix d5ies x1 b ,lig\ri affirms x4 8,utrum famulo o/ium m]etrici op]]e8 ,negat ,croix4 ,at commune affirmant ,!ologi40 ,"q #d1 ,liguori3 8,qua]etur an liceat famulo def]re scalam vel subjic]e hum]os dom9o asc5d5ti ad =nic&um et similia4 ,buss1 etc41 affirmant1 quorum s5t5tia probabilior videtur40 8,may a s]vant br+ a ladd] & help 8 ma/] to g up & commit adult]y8 ,buss & o!rs ?9k t he may d x1 & ,i am ( ! same op9ion40 7,liguori1 ,q4 #b47 8,a s]vant has ! "r to rob 8 ma/]1 a *ild 8 fa!r1 & a poor man ! ri*60 ,! ,salmantes says t a s]vant may1 accord+ to 8 own judgm5t1 pay himself ) 8 own h&s m ?an 0 agre$ ^u z a sal>y = 8 own "w1 if he f9ds t he des]ves a l>g] sal>y2 8&10 says ,liguori1 8?is doctr9e appe>s j to me40 ,salm41 ,d4 #d1 proe4 ,n4 #acg1 dicunt famulum etiam ex proprio judicio sibi comp5s>e suam op]am1 si ipse c]te judicet se majus /ip5dium m]]i4 ,quod sane videtur mihi probabile4 ,a poor man1 :o has conceal$ ! goods & effects ( :i* he is 9 ne$1 may swe> t he has no?+4 8,indig5s1 bonis absconditis ad su/5tationem1 prote/ judici aespond]e se nihil hab]e40 7,salm41 ,n4 #adj47 ,9 l mann] an heir :o1 )\t tak+ an inv5tory1 conceals 8 goods1 :5 x is n ! goods mortgag$ = ! debt1 may swe> t he has conceal$ no?+1 und]/&+ ! goods ) :i* he 0 to pay4 7,salm4 #adj47 8,!re are _m op9ions ab\t ! am\nt :i* may be /ol5 to con/itute a mortal s94 ,nav> has said1 too scrupul\sly1 t to /eal a half piece ( gold is a mortal s92 :ile o!rs1 too lax1 hold t to /eal less ?an t5 pieces ( gold _c be a s]i\s s94 ,b ,tol1 ,me*1 ,less1 etc41 h m wisely rul$ t to /eal two pieces ( gold con/itutes a mortal s940 ,dubium #b1 ,liguori3 8,v>iae ea de re sunt s5t5ti4 ,nav4 nimis scrupulose /atuit m$ium regulum3 alii nemis laxe #aj aureos4 ,mod]atius1 ,tol41 ,m$4 ,less41 etc41 etc41 duos regales1 etsi m9us sufficiat1 si notabilit] noceat40 8,is x a crime to /eal a small piece ( a relic8 ,!re is no d\bt its be+ a s9 9 ! di/rict ( ,rome1 s9ce ,clem5t ,,vii4 & ,paul ,v4 h excommunicat$ ^? :o committ$ su* !fts4 ,b ?is !ft is n a s]i\s ?+ :5 committ$ outside ( ! di/rict ( ,rome1 unless x be a v r>e & preci\s relic1 z ! wood ( ! ,holy ,cross or "s ( ! hair ( ! ,virg9 ,m>y60 ,dubium #c1 ,liguori3 8,if any "o /eals small sums at diff]5t times1 ei!r f ! same or f diff]5t p]sons1 n hav+ ! int5tion ( /eal+ l>ge sums1 nor ( caus+ a great damage1 8 s9 is n mortal2 p>ticul>ly if ! ?ief is poor1 & if he has ! int5tion to give back :at he has /ol540 ,lat9 text3 8,si quis et occasione furatur sive uni1 sive pluribus1 non int5d5s notabile aliquid acquir]e nec proximo gravit] noc]e1 neque ea simul sumpta unum mortale con/ituunt1 si vel re/itu]e non possit vel animum habeat re/itu5di40 ,"q #aa1 ,n4 #ecf3 8,if sev]al p]sons /eal f ! same ma/]1 9 small quantities1 ea* 9 su* a mann] z n to commit a mortal s91 ?\gh ea* "o kn[s t all ^! little !fts toge!r cause a consid]able damage to _! ma/]1 yet no "o ( !m commits a mortal s91 ev5 :5 !y /eal at ! same "t40 ,lat9 text3 8,si plures modica fur5tur1 nemo peccat gravit]1 et si mutuo sciant gravit] damnum dom9o fi]i4 ,et hoc1 etiamsi s+uli eodem tempore fur5tur40 7,liguori1 #ecf47 ,liguori1 speak+ ( *ildr5 :o /eal f _! p>5ts1 says3 8,salas1 cit$ by ,croix1 ma9ta9s t a son does n commit a mortal s9 :5 he /eals only tw5ty or ?irty pieces ( gold f a fa!r :o has an income ( #aej pieces ( gold2 & ,lugo approves ( t doctr9e4 ,less & o!r !ologians say t x is n a mortal s9 = a *ild to /eal two or ?ree pieces ( gold f a ri* fa!r2 ,bannez ma9ta9s t to commit a mortal s9 a *ild mu/ /eal n less ?an fifty pieces ( gold f a ri* fa!r2 b ,lacroix rejects t doctr9e1 except ! fa!r is a pr9ce40 ,! !ologians ( ,rome assure u t we may1 & ev5 t we mu/1 conceal & disguise our fai?4 8,?\gh ly+ is =bidd51 we may be all[$ to conceal ! tru?1 or to disguise x "u ambigu\s or equivocal words or signs1 = a j cause1 & :5 !re is no necessity to confess ! tru?4 ,if by t means "o c rid himself ( dang]\s pursuits1 he is p]mitt$ to use x2 = 9 g5]al x is n true to say t1 :5 int]rogat$ by public au?ority ab\t 8 fai?1 he is oblig$ to reveal x4 ,:5 y are n que/ion$ z to y\r fai?1 y are n only all[$ to conceal x1 b x is (t5 m to ! glory ( ,god & ! int]e/ ( y\r neighbor4 ,if1 = example1 y are among a h]etical p1 y c d m good by conceal+ y\r fai?2 or if1 by decl>+ x1 y are to cause great tr\ble or dea?4 ,x is tem]ity to expose "o's life40 7,liguori1 ,l4 #b47 ,! ,pope has ! "r to release f all oa?s4 8,z = an oa? made = a good & legitimate object1 x seems t !re %\ld be no p[] capable ( annull+ x4 ,h[ev]1 :5 x is = ! good ( ! public1 a matt] :i* comes "u ! imm$iate jurisdiction ( ! ,pope1 :o has ! supreme p[] ov] ! ,*ur*1 ! ,pope has full p[] to release f t oa?40 7,/4 ,?omas1 ,que/4 #hi1 art4 #i1 vol4 iv47 ,! ,roman ,ca?olics h n only ! "r1 b x is _! duty to kill h]etics4 8,excommunicatus privatur omni alia civili communicatione fidelium1 ita ut ipsi non possit cum aliis1 et si non sit tol]atus1 etiam aliis cum ipso non possit communic>e2 idque 9 casibus hoc v]su compreh5sis4 ,os1 or>e1 cammunio1 m5sa negatur40 ,translat$3 8,any man excommunicat$ is depriv$ ( all civil communication ) ! fai?ful1 9 su* a way t if he is n tol]at$ !y c h no communication ) him1 z x is 9 ! foll[+ v]se3 #8,x is =bidd5 to kiss him1 pray ) him1 salute him1 to eat or to d any bus9ess ) him4'0 7,/4 ,liguori1 vol4 ix41 page #fb47 8,quanquam h]etici tol]&i non sunt ipso illorum dem]ito1 usque tam5 ad secundam correptionem expect&i sunt1 ut ad sanam r$eant ecclesi fidem2 qui v]o po/ secundam correptionem 9 suo errore ob/9ati p]man5t1 non modo excommunicationis s5t5tia s$1 etiam scul>ibus pr9cipibus ext]m9&i trad5di sunt40 ,translat$3 8,?\gh h]etics mu/ n be tol]at$ because !y des]ve x1 we mu/ be> ) !m till1 by a second admonition !y may be br\ght back to ! fai? ( ! ,*ur*4 ,b ^? :o1 aft] a second admonition1 rema9 ob/9ate 9 _! errors1 mu/ n only be excommunicat$1 b !y mu/ be deliv]$ to ! secul> p[]s to be ext]m9at$40 8,quanquam h]etici rev]t5tes1 semp] recipi5di s9t ad pnit5tiam quoties cumque relapsi fu]9t2 non tam5 semp] sunt recipi5di et re/itu5di ad bonorum hujus vit p>ticipationem 444 recipiumtur ad pnit5tiam 444 non tam5 ut lib]5tur a s5t5tia mortis40 ,translat$3 8,?\gh ! h]etics :o rep5t mu/ always be accept$ to p5ance1 z (t5 z !y h fall51 !y mu/ n 9 consequ5ce ( t always be p]mitt$ to enjoy ! b5efits ( ?is life4 ,:5 !y fall aga9 !y are admitt$ to rep5t4 ,b ! s5t5ce ( dea? mu/ n be remov$40 7,/4 ,?omas1 vol4 iv41 page #ia47 8,quum quis p] s5t5tiam d5untiatur propt] apo/asiam excommunicatus1 ipso facto1 ejus subditi a dom9o et juram5to fidelitatis ejus lib]ati sunt40 8,:5 a man is excommunicat$ = 8 apo/asy1 x foll[s f t v fact t all ^? :o are 8 subjects are releas$ f ! oa? ( allegiance by :i* !y 7 b\nd to obey him40 7,/4 ,?omas1 vol iv41 page #ia47 ,e h]etic & ,prote/ant is condemn$ to dea?1 & e oa? ( allegiance to a gov]nm5t :i* is ,prote/ant or h]etic is abrogat$ by ! ,c\ncil ( ,lat]an1 held 9 ,a4 ,d4 #abae4 ,"h is ! solemn decree & s5t5ce ( dea?1 :i* has nev] be5 repeal$1 & :i* is /ill 9 =ce3 8,we excommunicate & ana!matize e h]esy t exalts itself aga9/ ! holy or?odox & ,ca?olic fai?1 condemn+ all h]etics1 by :atev] "n !y may be kn[n2 = ?\gh _! faces diff]1 !y are ti$ toge!r by _! tails4 ,su* z are condemn$ are to be deliv]$ ov] to ! exi/+ secul> p[]s1 to receive due puni%m5t4 ,if laym51 _! goods mu/ be confiscat$4 ,if prie/s1 !y %all be fir/ degrad$ f _! respective ord]s1 & _! prop]ty appli$ to ! use ( ! *ur* 9 :i* !y h (ficiat$4 ,secul> p[]s ( all ranks & degrees are to be w>n$1 induc$1 &1 if necess>y1 compell$ by ecclesia/ical c5sure1 to swe> t !y w ex]t !mselves to ! utmo/ 9 ! def5ce ( ! fai?1 & extirpate all h]etics d5\nc$ by ! ,*ur* :o %all be f\nd 9 _! t]ritories4 ,& :5ev] any p]son %all assume gov]nm5t1 :e!r x be spiritual or temporal1 he %all be b\nd to abide by ?is decree4 8,if any temporal "l1 aft] be+ admoni%$ & requir$ by ! ,*ur*1 %all neglect to cle> 8 t]ritory ( h]etical depravity1 ! metropolitan & bi%ops ( ! prov9ce %all unite 9 excommunicat+ him4 ,%\ld he rema9 contumaci\s = a :ole ye>1 ! fact %all be signifi$ to ! ,supreme ,pontiff1 :o w decl>e 8 vassals releas$ f _! allegiance f t "t1 & w be/[ ! t]ritory on ,ca?olics1 to be occupi$ by !m1 on ! condition ( ext]m9at+ ! h]etics1 & pres]v+ ! said t]ritory 9 ! fai?4 8,ca?olics :o %all assume ! cross = ! ext]m9ation ( h]etics %all enjoy ! same indulg5ces & be protect$ by ! same privileges z are grant$ to ^? :o g to ! help ( ! ,holy ,l&4 ,we decree1 fur!r1 t all :o may h deal+s ) h]etics1 & especially su* z receive1 def5d1 or enc\rage !m1 %all be excommunicat$4 ,he %all n be eligible to any public (fice4 ,he %all n be admitt$ z a witness4 ,he %all nei!r h ! p[] to bequea? 8 prop]ty by w1 nor to succe$ to any inh]itance4 ,he %all n br+ any action aga9/ any p]son1 b any "o c br+ an action aga9/ him4 ,%\ld he be a judge1 8 decision %all h no =ce1 nor %all any cause be br\ght be=e him4 ,%\ld he be an advocate1 he %all n be all[$ to plead4 ,%\ld he be a lawy]1 no in/rum5ts made by him %all be held valid1 b %all be condemn$ ) _! au?or40 ,b :y let my memory & my ?\ghts l+] any long] 9 ^! frightful pa?s1 :]e murd]]s1 li>s1 p]jur]s & ?ieves are assur$ by ! !ologians ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome t !y c lie1 /eal1 murd] & p]jure !mselves z mu* z !y l1 )\t (f5d+ ,god1 provid$ !y commit ^? crimes accord+ to c]ta9 rules approv$ by ! ,pope = ! good ( ! ,*ur*6 ,i %\ld h to write sev]al l>ge volumes 7 ,i to quote all ! ,roman ,ca?olic doctors & !ologians :o approve ( ly+1 ( p]jury1 ( adult]y1 !ft & murd]1 = ! greate/ glory ( ,god & ! good ( ! ,roman ,*ur*6 ,b ,i h quot$ en\gh = ^? :o h eyes to see & e>s to he>4 ,) su* pr9ciples1 is x a wond] t all ! ,roman ,ca?olic nations1 )\t a s+le exception1 h decl9$ s rapidly8 ,! great ,legislator ( ! ,_w1 ! only ,savi\r ( nations1 has said3 8,man %all n live by bread alone1 b by e ^w t proce$e? out ( ! m\? ( ,god40 ,a nation c be great & /rong only accord+ to ! tru?s :i* =m ! basis ( h] fai? & life4 8,tru?0 is ! only bread :i* ,god gives to ! nations t !y may prosp] & live4 ,deceitfulness1 duplicity1 p]jury1 adult]y1 !ft1 murd]1 are ! deadly poisons :i* kill ! nations4 ,!n1 ! m ! prie/s ( ,rome1 ) _! !ology1 are v5]at$ & believ$ by a p1 ! soon] t p w decay & fall4 8,! m prie/s ! m crimes10 has said a pr(\nd ?9k]2 = !n ! m h&s w be at "w to pull d[n ! only sure f\ndations ( society4 ,h[ c any man be sure ( ! hone/y ( 8 wife z long z a hundr$ ?\s& prie/s tell h] t %e may commit any s9 ) h] neighbor1 9 ord] to prev5t him f do+ some?+ worse8 or :5 %e is assur$1 t1 ?\gh guilty ( adult]y1 %e c swe> %e is pure z an angel8 ,:at w x avail to tea* ! be/ pr9ciples ( honor1 dec5cy & hol9ess to a "y girl1 :5 %e is b\nd to g _m times a ye> to a ba*elor prie/1 :o is b\nd 9 consci5ce to give h] ! mo/ infam\s lessons ( depravity1 "u ! pretext ( help+ h] to confess all h] s9s8 ,h[ w ! rights ( ju/ice be secur$1 & h[ c ! judges & ! juries protect ! innoc5t & puni% ! guilty1 s long z ! witnesses are told by two hundr$ ?\s& prie/s t !y c conceal ! tru?1 give equivocal answ]s1 & ev5 p]jure !mselves "u a ?\s& pretexts8 ,:at ,gov]nm5t1 ei!r mon>*ical or republican1 c be sure ( a lease ( exi/5ce8 h[ c !y make _! p walk ) a firm /ep 9 ! ways ( light1 progress & lib]ty1 z long z !re is a d>k p[] ov] !m :i* has ! "r1 at e h\r ( ! day or night1 to break & dissolve all ! mo/ sacr$ oa?s ( allegiance8 ,arm$ ) 8 !ology1 ! prie/ ( ,rome has become ! mo/ dang]\s & det]m9$ enemy ( tru?1 ju/ice & lib]ty4 ,he is ! mo/ =midable ob/acle to e good ,gov]nm5t1 z he is1 )\t be+ aw>e ( x1 ! greate/ enemy ( ,god & man4 ,,*apt] ,,xiv ,,! ,,v[ ,,( ,,celibacy4 ,7 ,i to write all ! +5i\s tricks1 pi\s lies1 %ameful /ories call$ miracles1 & sacrilegi\s p]v]sions ( ! ,^w ( ,god made use ( by sup]iors ( sem9>ies & nunn]ies to entice _! poor victims into ! trap ( p]petual celibacy1 ,i %\ld h to write t5 l>ge volumes1 in/ead ( a %ort *apt]4 ,sometimes ! trials & obligations ( m>ri$ life are s exagg]at$ t !y may fright5 ! /ronge/ he>t4 ,at o!r times ! joys1 peace & privileges ( celibacy are depict$ ) su* brilliant colors t !y fill ! colde/ m9d ) en?usiasm4 ,! ,pope takes 8 victim to ! top ( a high m\nta91 & !re %[s him all ! honors1 praise1 weal?1 peace & joys ( ?is _w1 unit$ to ! mo/ glori\s ?rone ( heav51 & !n tells him3 8,i w give y all ^? ?+s if y fall at my feet1 promise me an absolute submission1 & swe> nev] to m>ry 9 ord] to s]ve me bett]40 ,:o c refuse su* glori\s ?+s8 ,b be=e entirely %utt+ _! eyes1 s t !y may n see ! bottomless abyss into :i* !y are to fall1 ! un=tunate victims sometimes h =ebod+s & pres5tim5ts ( ! t]rible mis]ies :i* are 9 /ore = !m4 ,! voice ( _! consci5ce1 intellig5ce & common s5se has n always be5 s fully sil5c$ z ! sup]ior desir$4 ,at ! v "t :5 ! tempt] is :isp]+ 8 ly+ promises into _! e>s1 _! ,heav5ly ,fa!r is speak+ to !m ( ! ceaseless trials1 ! %ameful falls1 ! t$i\s days1 ! dre>y nights1 & ! cruel & insuff]able burd5s :i* are conceal$ beh9d ! walls :]e ! sweet yoke ( ! ,good ,ma/] is ex*ang$ = ! burd5s ( he>tless m5 & wom54 ,z =m]ly1 ! human victims cr[n$ ) fl[]s1 :5 dragg$ to ! foot ( ! alt> ( _! false gods1 (t5 cri$ out ) al>m1 & /ruggl$ to escape f ! bloody knife ( ! hea!n prie/1 s at ! approa* ( ! fatal h\r at :i* ! impi\s v[ is to be made1 ! "y victims (t5 feel _! he>ts fa9t+ & fill$ ) t]ror4 ,) pale *eeks1 trembl+ lips & cold-dropp+ sweat !y ask _! sup]iors1 8,is x possible t our m]ciful ,god requires ( u su* a sacrifice80 ,oh6 h[ ! m]ciless prie/ ( ,rome !n becomes eloqu5t 9 depict+ celibacy z ! only way to heav51 or 9 %[+ ! et]nal fires ( hell ready to receive c[>ds & traitors1 :o1 aft] hav+ put _! h& to ! pl\gh ( celibacy1 look back6 ,he speaks ( ! disappo9tm5t & sadness ( s _m de> fri5ds1 :o expect$ bett] ?+s ( !m4 ,he po9ts out to !m _! own %ame :5 !y w aga9 be 9 a _w :i* w h no?+ = !m b sne]s = _! want ( p]sev]ance & c\rage4 ,he ov]:elms !m ) a ?\s& pi\s lies ab\t ! miracles wr\ght by ,*ri/ 9 favor ( 8 virg9s & prie/s4 ,he bewit*es !m by num]\s texts ( ,scripture1 :i* he br+s z evid5t pro( ( ! w ( ,god 9 favor ( _! tak+ ! v[s ( celibacy1 ?\gh !y h n ! slighte/ ref]5ce to su* v[s4 ,! text ( :i* ! /range/ abuses are made by ! sup]iors to p]suade ! "y p ( bo? sexes to b9d !mselves to ^? %ameful v[s is ,matt4 xix41 #ab1 #ac3 8,= !re are eunu*s :i* 7 born f _! "m's womb2 & !re are "s eunu*s :i* 7 made eunu*s ( m52 & !re are eunu*s :i* h made !mselves eunu*s = ! k+dom ( heav5's sake4 ,he t is able to receive x1 let him receive x40 ,^u "o occasion our sup]ior made a v press+ appeal to our religi\s feel+s f ?is text1 to induce u to make ! v[ ( celibacy & become prie/s4 ,b ! address1 ?\gh deliv]$ ) a great deal ( zeal1 seem$ to u defici5t 9 logic4 ,! next day 0 a day ( re/ 7conge74 ,! /ud5ts 9 !ology :o 7 prep>+ !mselves = ! prie/hood1 ) me1 talk$ s]i\sly ( ! s+ul> argum5ts ( ! la/ address4 ,x seem$ to !m t ! conclusions c\ld n 9 any way be drawn f ! select$ text1 & !re=e det]m9$ to respectfully pres5t _! objections & _! views1 :i* 7 also m9e1 to ! sup]ior2 & ,i 0 *os5 to speak = !m all4 ,at ! next conf]5ce1 aft] respectfully ask+ & obta9+ p]mission to express our objections ) our own frank & pla9 s5tim5ts1 ,i spoke ab\t z foll[s3 8,de> & v5]able sir3 ,y told u t ! foll[+ words ( ,*ri/1 #8,!re be eunu*s :i* h made !mselves eunu*s = ! k+dom ( heav5's sake1'--%[ u evid5tly t we mu/ make ! v[ ( celibacy & make ourselves eunu*s if we want to become prie/s4 ,all[ u to tell y respectfully1 t x seems to u t ! m9d ( our ,savi\r 0 v diff]5t f y\rs :5 he pron\nc$ ^! words4 ,9 our humble op9ion1 ! only object ( ! ,son ( ,god 0 to w>n ,8 disciples aga9/ "o ( ! mo/ damnable errors :i* 7 to endang] ! v exi/5ce ( nations4 ,he 0 =etell+ t !re w\ld be m5 s wick$ & bl9d z to prea* t ! be/ way = m5 to g to heav5 w\ld be to make eunu*s ( !mselves4 ,all[ u to draw y\r att5tion to ! fact t 9 t spee* ,jesus ,*ri/ nei!r approves nor disapproves ( ! idea ( ga9+ a ?rone 9 heav5 by becom+ eunu*s4 ,he leaves u to our common s5se & to "s cle>] p>ts ( ,scripture to see :e!r or n ,he approves ( ^? :o w\ld make eunu*s ( !mselves to ga9 a cr[n 9 heav54 ,mu/ we n int]pret ?is text z we int]pret :at ,jesus said to ,8 apo/les1 #8,! "t come? t :osoev] kille? y w ?9k t he doe? ,god's s]vice' 7,john xvi41 #a1 #b74 8,all[ u to put ^! two texts face to face3 8#8,!re are eunu*s :i* h made !mselves eunu*s = ! k+dom ( heav5's sake4' 7,matt4 xix41 #ab1 #ac74 8#8,! "t come? t :osoev] kille? y w ?9k t he doe? ,god's s]vice4' 7,john xvi4 #a1 #b74 8,because our ,savi\r has said t !re w\ld be m5 :o w\ld ?9k t !y w\ld please ,god 7& ( c\rse ga9 a place 9 heav57 by kill+ ,8 disciples1 are we1 !re=e1 all[$ to conclude t x w\ld be our duty to kill ^? :o believe & foll[ ,*ri/8 ,surely n4 8,well1 x seems to u t we are n to believe t ! be/ way to g to heav5 is to make ourselves eunu*s1 because our ,savi\r _h said t "s m5 _h got t crim9al & fooli% notion into _! m9d6 8,*ri/ian nations h always look$ ) horror ^u ^? :o volunt>ily became eunu*s4 ,common s5se1 z well z ! ,^w ( ,god1 condemns ^? :o ?us de/roy 9 _! own bodies t :i* ,god 9 8 wisdom gave !m = ! wise/ & holie/ purposes4 ,w\ld x n1 !re=e1 be a crime :i* e civiliz$ & ,*ri/ian nation w\ld puni%1 to prea* publicly & ) success to ! p t "o ( ! sure/ ways = a man to g to heav5 w\ld be to make himself an eunu*8 ,h[ c we believe t our ,savi\r c\ld ev] sanction su* a practice8 8,moreov]1 if be+ eunu*s w\ld make ! way to heav5 sur] & m easy1 w\ld n ,god be unju/ = depriv+ u ( ! great privilege ( be+ born eunu*s1 & ?us be+ made ripe fruits = heav58 8,x seems to u t t text does n 9 any way require u to believe t an eunu* is ne>] ! k+dom ( ,god ?an he :o lives j accord+ to ! laws :i* ,god gave to man 9 ! e>?ly p>adise4 ,if x 0 n good = man to be )\t 8 wife :5 he 0 s holy & /rong z he 0 9 ! ,g>d5 ( ,ed51 h[ c x be good n[ t he is s weak & s9ful8 8,our ,savi\r cle>ly %[s t he f9ds no sanctify+ p[] 9 ! /ate ( an eunu*1 9 8 answ] to ! "y man :o ask$ him1 #8,good ma/]1 :at mu/ ,i d t ,i may h et]nal life8' 7,matt4 xix41 #af47 ,did ! good ,ma/] answ] him 9 ! language we he>d f y two days ago1 namely1 t ! be/ way to h et]nal life is to make y\rself an eunu*--make a solemn v[ nev] to m>ry8 ,no2 b he said1 #8,keep ! comm&m5ts6' 8,7 ! bless$ ,savi\r to-day 9 y\r place1 & ,i %\ld ask him1 #8,:at mu/ ,i d to be sav$1 & to %[ ! way ( ,god to my bre?r58' w\ld he n say to me1 #8,keep ! comm&m5ts6' ,b :]e is ! comm&m5t ( ,god 9 ! ,old or ,new ,te/am5t1 to induce u to make su* a v[ z t ( celibacy8 ,! promise ( a place 9 heav5 is n atta*$ 9 any way to ! v[ ( celibacy4 ,*ri/ has n a ^w ab\t t doctr9e4 8,all[ u to respectfully ask1 if ! views conc]n+ ! v[s ( celibacy ent]ta9$ by ,*ri/ _h be5 l y\rs1 is x possible t ,he w\ld h =gott5 to m5tion !m :5 ,he answ]$ ! solemn "q ( t "y man8 ,is x possible t ,he w\ld n h said a s+le ^w ab\t a ?+ :i* y h repres5t$ to u z be+ ( su* vital importance to ^? :o s9c]ely desire to "k :at to d to be sav$8 ,is x n /range t ! ,*ur* %\ld atta* su* an importance to t v[ ( celibacy1 :5 we look 9 va9 = su* an ord9ance 9 bo? ! ,old & ,new ,te/am5ts8 ,h[ c we und]/& ! reasons or ! importance ( su* a /rict1 & we d>e say1 unnatural obligation 9 our day1 :5 we "k v well t ! holy apo/les !mselves 7 liv+ ) _! wives1 & t ! ,savi\r _h n a ^w ( rebuke = !m on t acc\nt80 ,?is free expression ( our common views on ! v[s ( celibacy evid5tly took our sup]ior by surprise4 ,he answ]$ me1 ) an acc5t ( indignation :i* he c\ld n suppress4 8,is t all y h to say80 8,x is n q all we h to say10 ,i answ]$2 8b be=e we g fur!r we w\ld be mu* gratifi$ to receive f y ! light we want on ! difficulties :i* ,i h j /at$40 8,y h spok5 z a true h]etic10 repli$ ,mr4 ,leprohon1 ) an unusual vivacity2 8& 7 x n = ! hope :i* ,i ent]ta9 t y said ^? ?+s m to receive ! light y want ?an to pres5t & support ! h]etical side ( su* an important "q1 ,i w\ld at once d5\nce y to ! bi%op4 ,y speak ( ! ,holy ,scriptures j z a ,prote/ant w\ld d4 ,y appeal to !m z ! only s\rce ( ,*ri/ian tru? & k4 ,h y =gott5 t we h ! holy traditions to guide u1 ! au?ority ( :i* is equal to t ( ! ,scriptures8 8,y are correct :5 y say t we d n f9d any direct pro( 9 ! ,bible to en=ce ! v[s ( celibacy ^u ^? :o desire to consecrate !mselves to ! s]vice ( ! ,*ur*4 ,b if we d n f9d ! obligation ( t v[ 9 ! ,bible1 we f9d x 9 ! holy traditions ( ! ,*ur*4 8,x is an article ( fai? t ! v[ ( celibacy is ord]$ by ,jesus ,*ri/1 ?r\gh ,8 ,*ur*4 ,! ord9ances ( ! ,*ur*1 :i* are no?+ b ! ord9ances ( ! ,son ( ,god1 are cle> on t subject1 & b9d our consci5ces1 j z ! comm&m5ts ( ,god ^u ,m\nt ,s9ai2 = ,*ri/ has said1 ^? :o d n he> ! ,*ur* mu/ be look$ ^u z hea!n & publicans4 ,!re is no salvation to ^? :o d n submit _! reason+ to ! tea*+s ( ! ,*ur*4 8,y are n requir$ to und]/& all ! reasons = ! v[ ( celibacy2 b y are b\nd tobelieve 9 its necessity & hol9ess1 z ! ,*ur* has pron\nc$ h] v]dict ^u t "q4 ,x is n y\r bus9ess to argue ab\t ^? matt]s2 b y\r duty is to obey ! ,*ur*1 z dutiful *ildr5 obey a k9d "m4 8,b :o c h any d\bt ab\t ! necessity ( ! v[s ( celibacy1 :5 we rememb] t ,*ri/ _h ord]$ ,8 apo/les to sep>ate !mselves f _! wives8--a fact on :i* no d\bt c rema9 aft] he>+ ,/4 ,pet] say to our ,savi\r1 #8,behold1 we h =sak5 all & foll[$ !e2 :at %all we h1 !re=e8' 7,matt4 xix4 #bg74 ,is n ! prie/ ! true repres5tative ( ,*ri/ on e>?8 ,9 8 ord9ation1 is n ! prie/ made ! equal1 &1 9 a s5se1 ! sup]ior ( ,*ri/8 = :5 he celebrates ,mass he comm&s ,*ri/1 & t v ,son ( ,god is b\nd to obey6 ,x is n 9 ! p[] ( ,*ri/ to resi/ ! ord]s ( ! prie/4 ,he mu/ come d[n f heav5 e "t ! prie/ ord]s ,him4 ,! prie/ %uts ,him up 9 ! holy tab]nacles or takes him out ( !m1 accord+ to 8 own w4 8,by becom+ prie/s ( ! ,new ,te/am5t y w be rais$ to a dignity :i* is mu* above t ( angels4 ,f ^! sublime privileges fl[s ! obligation ( ! prie/ to raise himself to a degree ( hol9ess mu* above ! level ( ! common p1 a hol9ess equal to t ( ! angels4 ,has n our ,savi\r1 :5 speak+ ( ! angels1 said1 #8,neque nub5t neque nub5tur8' ,!y m>ry n1 nor are giv5 9 m>riage4 ,surely1 s9ce ! prie/s are ! mess5g]s & angels ( ,god1 on e>? !y mu/ be clad ) angelic hol9ess & purity4 8,does n ,paul say t ! /ate ( virg9ity is sup]ior to t ( m>riage8 ,does n t say+ ( ! apo/le %[ t ! prie/1 ^: h&s e day t\* ! div9e body & blood ( ,*ri/1 mu/ be *a/e & pure1 & mu/ n be defil$ by ! duties ( m>ri$ life8 ,t v[ ( celibacy x l a holy *a91 :i* keeps u above ! fil? ( ?is e>? & ties u to heav54 ,jesus ,*ri/1 ?r\gh ,8 holy ,*ur*1 comm&s t v[ to 8 prie/s z ! mo/ efficaci\s rem$y aga9/ ! incl9ations ( our corrupt nature4 8,accord+ to ! holy ,fa!rs1 ! v[ ( celibacy is l a /rong1 high t[]1 f ! top ( :i* we c fight our enemies1 & be p]fectly safe f _! d>ts & weapons4 8,i w be happy to answ] y\r o!r objections1 if y h any m10 said ,mr4 ,leprohon4 8,we are mu* oblig$ to y = y\r answ]s10 ,i repli$1 8& we w avail ourselves ( y\r k9dness to pres5t y ) "s o!r obs]vations4 8,&1 fir/ly1 we ?ank y = hav+ told u t we f9d no?+ 9 ! ,^w ( ,god to support ! v[s ( celibacy1 & t x is only by ! traditions ( ! ,*ur* t we c prove _! necessity & hol9ess4 ,x 0 our impression t y desir$ u to believe t ! necessity ( t v[ 0 f\nd$ on ! ,holy ,scriptures4 ,if y w all[ x1 we w discuss ! traditions ano!r "t1 & w conf9e ourselves to-day to ! diff]5t texts to :i* y ref]r$ 9 favor ( celibacy4 8,:5 ,pet] says1 #8,we h giv5 up ev]y?+1' x seems to u t he _h no int5tion ( say+ t he _h =ev] giv5 up 8 wife by a v[4 ,= ,/4 ,paul positively says1 _m ye>s aft]1 t ,pet] _h 8 wife2 t he 0 n only liv+ ) h] 9 8 own h\se1 b 0 travel+ ) h] :5 prea*+ ! gospel4 ,! words ( ,scripture are ( su* evid5ce on t subject t !y c nei!r be obscur$ by any %rewd explanation nor by any tradition1 h[ev] respectable x may appe>4 8,?\gh y "k ! words ( ,paul on t subject1 y w all[ u to read !m3 #8,h we n p[] to eat & dr9k8 h we n p[] to lead ab\t a si/]1 a wife1 z well z o!r apo/les & z ! bre?r5 ( ! ,"l1 & ,cephas8' 7#a ,cor4 ix41 #d1 #e74 ,/4 ,pet] say+1 #8,we h =sak5 ev]y?+' c\ld n mean !n t he _h made a v[ ( celibacy1 & t he w\ld n live ) 8 wife z a m>ri$ man4 ,evid5tly ! words ( ,pet] mean only t ,jesus _h ! fir/ place 9 8 he>t--t ev]y?+ else1 ev5 ! de>e/ objects ( 8 love1 z fa!r1 "m1 wife1 7 only second>y 9 8 affections & ?\ghts4 8,y\r o!r text ab\t ! angels :o d n m>ry1 f :i* y inf] ! obligation & law ( ! v[ ( celibacy1 does n seem to u to be> on t subject z mu* z y h told u4 ,=1 be k9d en\gh to aga9 read ! text3 #8,jesus answ]$ & said unto !m1 #8,ye d err1 n kn[+ ! ,scriptures1 nor ! p[] ( ,god4 ,= 9 ! resurrection !y nei!r m>ry nor are giv5 9 m>riage1 b are z ! angels ( ,god 9 heav5' 7,matt4 xxii4 #bi1 #cj74 ,y see t :5 our ,savi\r speaks ( m5 :o are l angels1 & :o d n m>ry1 ,he takes c>e to obs]ve t he speaks ( ! /ate ( m5 aft] ! resurrection4 ,if ! ,*ur* _h ! same rule = u t ,*ri/ m5tion$ = ! angelic m5 to :om ,he ref]s1 & w\ld all[ u to make a v[ nev] to m>ry aft] ! resurrection1 we w\ld n h ! slighte/ objection to su* a v[4 8,y see t our ,savi\r speaks ( a /ate ( celibacy2 b ,he does n intimate t t /ate is to beg9 on ?is side ( ! grave4 ,:y does n our ,*ur* imitate & foll[ ! tea*+s ( our ,savi\r8 ,:y does %e en=ce a /ate ( celibacy be=e ! resurrection1 :ile ,*ri/ po/pones ! promulgation ( ?is law till aft] t great day8 8,*ri/ speaks ( a p]petual celibacy only 9 heav56 ,on :at au?ority1 !n1 does our ,*ur* en=ce t celibacy on ?is side ( ! grave1 :5 we /ill c>ry our s\ls 9 e>?ly vessels8 8,y tell u t ! v[ ( celibacy is ! be/ rem$y aga9/ ! incl9ations ( our corrupt nature2 b d y n fe> t y\r rem$y makes w> aga9/ ! great "o :i* ,god prep>$ 9 ,8 wisdom8 ,d we n read 9 our own vulgate3 #8,propt] =nicationem autem quisque suam uxorem habeat1 et unaquaqu virum suum'8 #8,to avoid =nication let e man h 8 own wife1 & let e woman h h] own husb&' 7#b ,cor4 vii4 #b47 8,is x n too /range1 inde$1 t ,god does tell u t ! be/ rem$y ,he _h prep>$ aga9/ ! incl9ations ( our corrupt nature is 9 ! bless+s ( a holy m>riage4 #8,let e man h 8 own wife1 & e woman h] own husb&4' ,b n[ our ,*ur* has f\nd ano!r rem$y1 :i* is m accordant to ! dignity ( man & ! hol9ess ( ,god1 & t rem$y is ! v[ ( celibacy60 ,! s\nd ( my la/ words 7 /ill on my lips :5 our v5]able sup]ior1 unable any long] to conceal 8 indignation1 abruptly int]rupt$ me1 say+3 8,i d exce$+ly regret to h all[$ y to g s f>4 ,?is is n a ,*ri/ian & humble discussion betwe5 "y ,levites & _! sup]ior1 to receive f him ! light !y want4 ,x is ! exposition & def5ce ( ! mo/ h]etical doctr9es ,i h ev] he>d4 ,are y n a%am$1 :5 y try to make u pref] y\r int]pretation ( ! ,holy ,scriptures to t ( ! ,*ur*8 ,is x to y1 or to ,8 holy ,*ur*1 t ,*ri/ promis$ ! light ( ! ,holy ,gho/8 ,is x y :o h to tea* ! ,*ur*1 or ! ,*ur* :o mu/ tea* y8 ,is x y :o w gov]n & guide ! ,*ur*1 or ! ,*ur* :o w gov]n & guide y8 8,my de> ,*9iquy1 if !re is n a great & prompt *ange 9 y & 9 ^? :om y pret5d to repres5t1 ,i fe> mu* = y all4 ,y %[ a _s ( infidelity & revolt :i* fright5s me4 ,j l ,lucif]1 y rebel aga9/ ! ,"l6 ,d y n fe> to %>e ! et]nal pa9s ( 8 rebellion8 8,:5ce h y tak5 ! false & h]etical notions y h1 = in/ance1 ab\t ! wives ( ! apo/les8 ,d y n "k t y are support+ a ,prote/ant error1 :5 y say t ! apo/les 7 liv+ ) _! wives 9 ! usual way ( m>ri$ p8 ,x is true t ,paul says t ! apo/les _h wom5 ) !m1 & t !y 7 ev5 travel+ ) !m4 ,b ! holy traditions ( ! ,*ur* tell u t ^? wom5 7 holy virg9s1 :o 7 travel+ ) ! apo/les to s]ve & help !m 9 diff]5t ways4 ,!y 7 m9i/]+ to _! diff]5t wants--wa%+ _! und]clo!s1 prep>+ _! meals1 j l ! h\sekeep] :om ! prie/s h to-day4 ,x is a ,prote/ant impiety to ?9k & speak o!rwise4 8,b only a ^w m1 & ,i am done4 ,if y accept ! tea*+ ( ! ,*ur*1 & submit y\rself z d\btful *ildr5 to t mo/ holy ,"m1 %e w raise y to ! dignity ( ! prie/hood1 a dignity mu* above k+s & emp]ors 9 ?is _w4 ,if y s]ve h] ) fidelity1 %e w secure to y ! respect & v5]ation ( ! :ole _w :ile y live1 & procure y a cr[n ( glory 9 heav54 8,b if y reject h] doctr9es1 & p]si/ 9 y\r rebelli\s views aga9/ "o ( ! mo/ holy dogmas2 if y cont9ue to li/5 to ! voice ( y\r own deceitful reason r ?an to ! voice ( ! ,*ur*1 9 ! int]pretation ( ! ,holy ,scriptures1 y become h]etics1 apo/ates & ,prote/ants2 y w lead a di%onor$ life 9 ?is _w1 & y w be lo/ = all et]nity40 ,our sup]ior left u imm$iately aft] ^! fulm9at+ words4 ,"s ( ! !ological /ud5ts1 aft] 8 exit1 laugh$ he>tily1 & ?ank$ me = hav+ s bravely f\ght & ga9$ a glori\s victory4 ,two ( !m1 ,joseph ,turcot & ,b5ony ,leg5dre1 disgu/$ by ! sophisms & logical absurdities ( our sup]ior left ! sem9>y a few days aft]4 ,! re/1 ) me1 _h n ! moral c\rage to foll[ _! example1 b rema9$1 /unn$ by ! la/ words ( our sup]ior4 ,i w5t to my room & fell on my knees1 ) a torr5t ( te>s fall+ f my eyes4 ,i 0 really sorry = hav+ w\nd$ 8 feel+s1 b /ill m s = hav+ d>$ = a mom5t to oppose my own feeble & fallible reason to ! mighty & infallible intellig5ce ( my ,*ur*6 ,at fir/ x appe>$ to me t ,i 0 only combatt+1 9 a respectful way1 aga9/ my old fri5d1 ,rev4 ,mr4 ,leprohon2 b ,i _h receiv$ x f 8 own lips t ,i _h really f\ght aga9/ ! ,"l6 ,aft] hav+ sp5t a long & d>k night ( angui% & remorse1 my fir/ action1 ! next day1 0 to g to confession1 & ask my confessor1 ) te>s ( regret1 p>don = ! s9s ,i _h committ$ & ! sc&al ,i _h giv54 ,_h ,i li/5$ to ! voice ( my consci5ce1 ,i c]ta9ly w\ld h left ! sem9>y t day2 = !y told me t ,i _h conf\nd$ my sup]ior & pulv]iz$ all 8 argum5ts4 ,reason & consci5ce told me t ! v[ ( celibacy 0 a s9 aga9/ logic1 morality & ,god2 t t v[ c\ld n be su/a9$ by any argum5t f ! ,holy ,scriptures1 logic or common s5se4 ,b ,i 0 a mo/ s9c]e ,roman ,ca?olic4 ,i _h !re=e to fight a new battle aga9/ my consci5ce & intellig5ce1 s z to subdue & sil5ce !m =ev]6 ,_m a "t x 0 my hope1 be=e ?is1 to h succe$$ 9 slaught]+ !m at ! foot ( ! alt> ( my ,*ur*2 b t day1 f> f be+ =ev] sil5c$ & buri$1 !y _h come out aga9 ) r5ew$ =ce1 to wak5 me f ! t]rible illusions 9 :i* ,i 0 liv+4 ,nev]!less1 aft] a long & frightful battle1 my hope 0 t !y 7 p]fectly subdu$ & buri$ "u ! feet ( ! holy ,fa!rs1 ! le>n$ !ologians & ! v5]able popes1 ^: voice only ,i 0 det]m9$ n[ to foll[4 ,i felt a real calm aft] t /ruggle4 ,x 0 evid5tly ! sil5ce ( dea?1 al?\gh my confessor told me x 0 ! peace ( ,god4 ,m ?an ev] ,i det]m9$ to h no k1 no ?\ght1 no w1 no light1 no desires1 no sci5ce b t :i* my ,*ur* w\ld give me ?r\gh my sup]ior4 ,i 0 fallible1 %e 0 infallible6 ,i 0 a s9n]1 %e 0 ! immaculate sp\se ( ,jesus ,*ri/6 ,i 0 weak1 %e _h m p[] ?an ! great wat]s ( ! ocean6 ,i 0 b an atom1 %e 0 cov]+ ! _w ) h] glory6 ,:at1 !re=e1 c\ld ,i h to fe> 9 humbl+ myself to h] feet1 to live ( h] life1 to be /rong ( h] /r5g?1 wise ( h] wisdom1 holy ) h] hol9ess8 ,_h n my sup]ior repeat$ly told me t no error1 no s9 w\ld be imput$ to me z long z ,i obey$ my ,*ur* & walk$ 9 h] ways8 ,) ^! s5tim5ts ( a mo/ pr(\nd & p]fect respect = my ,*ur*1 ,i irrevocably consecrat$ myself to h] s]vice on ! #d? ( ,may1 #ahcb1 by mak+ ! v[ ( celibacy & accept+ ! (fice ( sub-deacon4 ,,*apt] ,,xv4 ,,! ,,impurities ,,( ,,! ,,!ology ,,( ,,rome 8,! "m ( h>lots & abom9ations40--,,rev4 xvii4 #e4 ,con/ra9$ by ! voice ( my consci5ce to reveal ! impurities ( ! !ology ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 ,i feel1 9 do+ s1 a s5tim5t ( inexpressible %ame4 ,!y are ( su* a loa?some nature1 t (t5 !y _c be express$ 9 any liv+ language4 ,h[ev] great may h be5 ! corruptions 9 ! !ologies & prie/s ( paganism1 !re is no?+ 9 _! records :i* c be comp>$ ) ! depravity ( ^? ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome4 ,be=e ! day on :i* ! !ology ( ,rome 0 inspir$ by ,satan1 ! _w _h c]ta9ly witness$ _m d>k de$s2 b vice _h nev] be5 clo!d ) ! mantle ( !ology3--! mo/ %ameful =ms ( iniquity _h nev] be5 publicly taught 9 ! s*ools ( ! old pagan prie/1 "u ! pretext ( sav+ ! _w4 ,no6 nei!r _h ! prie/s or ! idols be5 =c$ to att5d meet+s :]e ! mo/ degrad+ =ms ( iniquity 7 objects ( ! mo/ m9ute /udy1 & t "u ! pretext ( glorify+ ,god4 ,let ^? :o und]/& ,lat9 read ! pages :i* ,i give at ! end ( my book1 8,! ,prie/1 ! ,woman1 & ! ,confessional10 & !n decide z to :e!r or n ! s5tim5ts !re9 conta9$ are n en\gh to %ock ! feel+s ( ! mo/ deprav$4 ,& let x be rememb]$ t all ^? abom9ations h to be /udi$1 le>n$ by he>t & ?or\ghly und]/ood by m5 :o h to make a v[ nev] to m>ry6 ,= x is n till aft] 8 v[ ( celibacy t ! /ud5t 9 !ology is initiat$ into ^? my/]ies ( iniquity4 ,has ! _w ev] witness$ su* a sacrilegi\s com$y8 ,a "y man ab\t tw5ty ye>s ( age has be5 entic$ to make a v[ ( p]petual celibacy1 & ! v next day ! ,*ur* ( ,rome puts "u ! eye ( 8 s\l ! mo/ infam\s spectacle8 ,%e fills 8 memory ) ! mo/ disgu/+ images6 ,%e tickles all 8 s5ses & pollutes 8 e>s n by imag9>y repres5tations1 b by realities :i* w\ld %ock ! mo/ ab&on$ 9 vice6 ,=1 let x be well und]/ood1 t x is absolutely impossible = "o to /udy ^? que/ions ( ,roman ,!ology1 & fa?om ^? =ms ( iniquity )\t hav+ 8 body z well z 8 m9d plung$ into a /ate ! mo/ degrad+4 ,moreov]1 ,rome does n ev5 try to conceal ! ov]:elm+ p[] ( ?is k9d ( tea*+2 %e does n ev5 attempt to make x a secret f ! victims ( h] incomp>able depravity1 b ,,bravely ,,tells !m t ! /udy ( ^? que/ions w act ) an irresi/ible p[] ^u ^? organs1 & )\t a blu% says 8t pollution mu/ foll[6660 ,b 9 ord] t ! ,*ur* ( ,rome may m c]ta9ly de/roy h] victims1 & t !y may n escape f ! abyss :i* %e has dug "u _! feet1 %e tells !m 8,!re is no s9 = y 9 ^? pollutions60 7,d5s1 vol4 i41 p4 #cae47 ,b ,rome mu/ bewit*1 s z ! bett] to secure _! de/ruction4 ,%e puts to _! lips ! cup ( h] en*antm5ts1 ! m c]ta9ly to kill _! s\ls1 de?rone ,god f _! consci5ces1 & abrogate 8 et]nal laws ( hol9ess4 ,:at answ] does ,rome give ^? :o reproa* h] ) ! awful impurity ( h] !ology4 8,my !ological works10 %e answ]s1 8are all writt5 9 ,lat92 ! p _c read !m4 ,no evil1 no sc&al1 !re=e1 c come f !m60 ,b ?is answ] is a mis]able subt]fuge4 ,is ?is n ! public ackn[l$gm5t t h] !ology w\ld be exce$+ly injuri\s to ! p if x 7 read & und]/ood by !m8 ,by say+1 8,my !ological works are writt5 9 ,lat91 !re=e ! p _c be defil$1 z !y d n und]/& !m10 ,rome does ackn[l$ge t ^! works w\ld only act z a pe/il5ce among ! p 7 !y read & und]/ood by !m4 ,b are n ! "o hundr$ ?\s& prie/s ( ,rome b\nd to expla9 9 e kn[n tongue1 & pres5t to ! m9d ( e nation1 ! !ology conta9$ 9 ^? books8 ,are !y n b\nd to make e pollut+ s5t5ce 9 !m fl[ into ! e>s1 imag9ation1 he>ts & m9ds ( all ! m>ri$ & unm>ri$ wom5 :om ,rome holds 9 h] grasp8 ,i exagg]ate no?+ :5 ,i say t n few] ?an half a million wom5 e day are compell$ to he> 9 _! own language1 almo/ e pollut+ s5t5ce & impure notion ( ! diabolical sci5ce4 ,& "h ,i *all5ge1 mo/ fe>lessly1 ! ,*ur* ( ,rome to d5y :at ,i say1 :5 ,i /ate t ! daily av]age ( wom5 :o g to confession to ea* prie/1 is t54 ,b let u r$uce ! numb] to five4 ,!n ! two hundr$ ?\s& prie/s :o are scatt]$ ov] ! :ole _w1 he> ! confessions ( "o million wom5 e day4 ,well1 n[1 out ( "o hundr$ wom5 :o confess1 !re are at lea/ n9ety-n9e :om ! prie/ is b\nd 9 consci5ce to pollute1 by que/ion+ !m on ! matt]s m5tion$ 9 8,! ,prie/1 ! ,woman & ! ,confessional40 ,h[ c "o be surpris$ at ! rapid d[nfall ( ! nations :o are "u ! yoke ( ! ,pope8 ,! public /ati/ics ( ! ,european1 z well z ( ,am]ican nations1 %[ t !re is among ,roman ,ca?olics ne>ly d\ble ! am\nt ( pro/itution1 ba/>dy1 !ft1 p]jury & murd]1 ?an is f\nd among ,prote/ant nations4 ,:]e mu/ we1 !n1 look = ! cause ( ^? /up5d\s facts1 if n 9 ! corrupt tea*+s ( ! !ology ( ,rome4 ,h[ c ! ,roman ,ca?olic nations hope to raise !mselves 9 ! scale ( ,*ri/ian dignity & morality z long z !re rema9 two hundr$ ?\s& prie/s 9 _! mid/1 b\nd 9 consci5ce e day to pollute ! m9ds1 & ! he>ts ( _! mo!rs1 _! wives & _! daught]s4 ,& "h let me say1 once = all1 t ,i am n induc$ to speak z ,i d f any motive ( contempt or un*ri/ian feel+ aga9/ ! !ological pr(essors :o h initiat$ me into ^? my/]ies ( iniquity4 ,! ,rev4 ,messrs4 ,raimbault & ,leprohon 71 & 9 my m9d !y /ill are1 z v5]able z m5 c be 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,rome4 ,z ,i h be5 myself1 & z all ! prie/s ( ,rome are1 !y 7 plung$ into ! abyss )\t und]/&+ x1 into ! abyss ( ! mo/ /olid ignorance4 ,!y 7 cru%$1 z ,i 0 myself1 "u a yoke :i* b\nd _! und]/&+ to ! du/ & pollut$ _! he>ts )\t measure4 ,we 7 emb>k$ toge!r on a %ip1 ! fir/ appe>ance ( :i* 0 really magnific5t1 b ! bottom ( :i* 0 irrem$iably rott54 ,)\t ! true ,pilot on bo>d we 7 left to p]i% on unkn[n %oals4 ,out ( ?is s9k+ %ip ! h& ( ,god alone1 9 8 m]ciful provid5ce1 rescu$ me4 ,i pity ^? fri5ds ( my y\?1 b despise !m8 hate !m8 ,no6 ,nev]6 ,nev]6 ,e "t our !ological tea*]s gave u our lessons1 x 0 evid5t t !y blu%$ 9 ! inmo/ "p ( _! s\ls4 ,_! consci5ces z hone/ m5 7 evid5tly =bidd+ !m1 on ! "o h&1 to op5 _! m\?s on su* matt]s1 :ile1 on ! o!r h&1 z slaves & prie/s ( ! ,pope1 !y 7 compell$ to speak )\t res]ve4 ,aft] our lessons 9 !ology1 we /ud5ts us$ to be fill$ ) su* a s5tim5t ( %ame t sometimes we h>dly d>$ to look at ea* o!r2 &1 :5 alone 9 our rooms1 ^? horrible pictures 7 affect+ our he>ts1 9 spite ( ourselves1 z ! ru/ affects & corrodes ! h>de/ & pure/ /eel4 ,m ?an "o ( my fell[-/ud5ts told me1 ) te>s ( %ame & rage1 t !y regrett$ to h b\nd !mselves by p]petual oa?s to m9i/] at ! alt>s ( ! ,*ur*4 ,"o day "o ( ! /ud5ts1 call$ ,desaulni]1 :o 0 sick 9 ! same room ) me1 ask$ me3 8,*9iquy1 :at d y ?9k ( ! matt]s :i* are ! objects ( our pres5t !ological /udies8 ,is x n a burn+ %ame t we mu/ all[ our m9ds to be s pollut$80 8,i _c suffici5tly tell y my feel+s ( disgu/10 ,i answ]$4 8,_h ,i kn[n soon] t we 7 to be dragg$ ov] su* a gr\nd1 ,i c]ta9ly nev] w\ld h nail$ my future to ! bann]s "u :i* we are irrevocably b\nd to live40 8,d y "k10 said ,desaulni]1 8t ,i am det]m9$ nev] to cons5t to be orda9$ a prie/2 = :5 ,i ?9k ( ! fact t ! prie/ is b\nd to conf] ) wom5 on all ^! pollut+ matt]s1 ,i feel an insurm\ntable disgu/ & %ame40 8,i am n less tr\bl$10 ,i repli$4 8,my head a*es & my he>t s9ks )9 me1 :5 ,i he> our !ologians tell+ u t we w be 9 consci5ce b\nd to speak to females on ^! impure subjects4 ,b sometimes ?is looks to me z if x 7 a bad dream1 ! impure phantoms ( :i* w disappe> at ! fir/ awak5+4 ,our ,*ur*1 :i* is s pure & holy1 t %e c only be s]v$ by ! spotless virg9s1 surely _c compel u to pollute our lips1 ?\ghts1 s\ls1 & ev5 our bodies1 by speak+ to /range wom5 on matt]s s defil+60 8,b we are ne> ! h\r at :i* ! good ,mr4 ,leprohon is 9 ! habit ( visit+ u4 ,w y10 said ,i1 8promise to /& by me on :at ,i %all ask him on ?is subject8 ,i hope to get f him a pl$ge t we w n be compell$ to be pollut$ 9 ! confessional by ! wom5 :o w confess to u4 ,! purity & hol9ess ( our sup]ior is ( su* a high "*1 t ,i am sure he has nev] said a ^w to females on ^? degrad+ matt]s4 ,9 spite ( all ! !ologians1 ,mr4 ,leprohon w all[ u to keep our tongues & our he>ts1 z well z our bodies1 pure 9 ! confessional40 8,i h _h ! desire to speak to him on ?is subject = "s "t10 rejo9$ ,desaulni]1 8b my c\rage fail$ me e "t ,i attempt$ to d s4 ,i am glad1 !re=e1 t y are to break ! ice1 & ,i w c]ta9ly support y1 z ,i h a long+ desire to "k some?+ m 9 reg>d to ! my/]ies ( ! confessional4 ,if we be at lib]ty nev] to speak to wom5 on ^? horrors1 ,i w cons5t to s]ve ! ,*ur* z a prie/2 b if n1 ,i ,,w ,,nev] ,,be ,a ,,prie/40 ,a few m9utes aft] ?is our sup]ior ent]$1 to k9dly inquire h[ we _h re/$ ! night be=e4 ,hav+ ?ank$ him = 8 k9dness1 ,i op5$ ! volumes ( ,d5s & ,liguori1 :i* 7 on our table1 &1 ) a blu%1 putt+ my f+]s on "o ( ! infam\s *apt]s ref]r$ to1 ,i said to him3 8,aft] ,god1 y h ! fir/ place 9 my he>t s9ce my "m's dea?1 & y "k x4 ,i take y1 n only z my b5efactor1 b also1 z x 71 z my fa!r & "m4 ,y w !re=e tell me all ,i want to "k 9 ^! my h\rs ( anxiety1 ?r\gh :i* ,god is pleas$ to make me pass4 ,to foll[ y\r advice1 n to say y\r comm&s1 ,i h lately cons5t$ to receive ! ord] ( sub-deacon1 & ,i h 9 consequ5ce tak5 ! v[ ( p]petual celibacy4 ,b ,i w n conceal ! fact f y t ,i _h n a cle> und]/&+ ( :at ,i 0 !n do+2 & ,desaulni] has j /at$ to me1 t until rec5tly he _h no m idea ( ! nature ( t promise1 nor ( ! difficulties :i* we n[ see ahead ( u 9 our prie/ly life1 ?an ,i _h4 8,b ,d5s1 ,liguori & ,/4 ,?omas h giv5 u notions q new 9 reg>d to _m ?+s4 ,!y h direct$ our m9ds to ! k ( ! laws :i* are 9 u1 z well z 9 e o!r *ild ( ,adam4 ,!y h1 9 a ^w1 direct$ our m9ds into regions :i* 7 q new & unexplor$ by u2 & ,i d>e say t e "o ( ^? :om we h kn[n1 :e!r 9 ?is h\se or else:]e1 :o h made ! same v[1 c\ld tell ! same tale4 8,h[ev]1 ,i d n speak = !m2 ,i speak only = myself & ,desaulni]4 ,= ,god's sake1 please tell u if we w be b\nd 9 consci5ce to speak 9 ! confessional1 to ! m>ri$ & unm>ri$ females1 on su* impure & defil+ que/ions z are conta9$ 9 ! !ologians be=e u80 8,mo/ und\bt$ly10 repli$ ,rev4 ,mr4 ,leprohon2 8because ! le>n$ & holy !ologians ^: writ+s are 9 y\r h&s are positive on t "q4 ,x is absolutely necess>y t y %\ld "q y\r female p5it5ts on su* matt]s2 =1 z a g5]al ?+1 girls & m>ri$ wom5 are too timid to confess ^? s9s1 ( :i* !y are ev5 m frequ5tly guilty ?an m51 !re=e !y mu/ be help$ by que/ion+ !m40 8,b h y n10 ,i rejo9$1 8induc$ u to make an oa? t we %\ld always rema9 pure & undefil$8 ,h[ is x1 !n1 t to-day y put u 9 su* a position t x is almo/ an impossibility = u to be true to our sacr$ promise8 ,= ! !ologians are unanim\s t ^? que/ions put by u to our female p5it5ts1 toge!r ) ! recital ( _! secret s9s1 w act ) su* an irresi/ible p[] ^u u t we w be pollut$4 8,w\ld x n be bett] = u to feel ^? ?+s 9 ! holy bonds ( m>riage1 ) our wives1 & accord+ to ! laws ( ,god1 ?an 9 company & conv]sation ) /range wom58 ,because1 if we are to believe ! !ologians :i* are 9 our h&s1 no prie/--n ev5 y1 my de> ,mr4 ,leprohon1 c he> ! confessions ( wom5 )\t be+ defil$40 ,"h ,desaulni] int]rupt$ me1 & said3 8,my de> ,mr4 ,leprohon1 ,i concur 9 ev]y?+ ,*9iquy has j be5 tell+ y4 ,w\ld we n be m *a/e & pure by liv+ ) our lawful wives1 ?an by daily expos+ ourselves 9 ! confessional 9 company ( wom5 ^: pres5ce w irresi/ibly drag u into ! mo/ %ameful pit ( impurity8 ,i ask y1 my de> sir1 :at w become ( my v[ ( p]fect & p]petual *a/ity1 :5 ! s$uc+ pres5ce ( my neighbor's wife1 or ! en*ant+ words ( 8 daught]1 w h defil$ me ?r\gh ! confessional4 ,aft] all1 ,i may be look$ ^u by ! p z a *a/e man2 b :at w ,i be 9 ! eyes ( ,god8 ,! p may ent]ta9 ! ?\ght t ,i am a /rong & hone/ man2 b w ,i n be a brok5 re$8 ,w ,god n be ! witness t ! irresi/ible temptations :i* w h assail$ me :5 he>+ ! secret s9s ( "s sweet & tempt+ wom51 w h depriv$ me ( t glori\s cr[n ( *a/ity = :i* ,i h s de>ly paid8 ,m5 w ?9k t ,i am an angel ( purity2 b my own consci5ce w tell me t ,i am no?+ b a skillful hypocrite4 ,= accord+ to all ! !ologians1 ! confessional is ! tomb ( ! *a/ity ( prie/s66 ,if ,i he> ! confession ( wom51 ,i w be l all o!r prie/s1 9 a tomb1 well pa9t$ & gild$ on ! outside1 b )9 full ( corruption40 ,francis ,desaulni]1 j z he _h =etold me1 refus$ to be a prie/4 ,he rema9$ all 8 life 9 ! ord]s ( ! sub-deaconate1 9 ! ,college ( ,nicolet1 z a ,pr(essor ( ,philosophy4 ,he 0 a man :o seldom spoke 9 conv]sation1 b ?\ght v mu*4 ,x seems to me t ,i /ill see him !re1 "u t tall c5t5>y tree1 alone1 dur+ ! long h\rs ( int]mission1 & _m long days dur+ our holidays1 :ile ! re/ ( ! /ud5ts pass$ hi!r & ?i!r1 s++ & play+1 on ! en*ant+ banks ( ! riv] ( ,nicolet4 ,he 0 a good logician & a pr(\nd ma!matician2 & al?\gh affable to ev]yone1 he 0 n communicative4 ,i 0 probably ! only "o to :om he op5$ 8 m9d conc]n+ ! great que/ions ( ,*ri/ianity--fai?1 hi/ory1 ! ,*ur* & h] discipl9e4 ,he repeat$ly said to me3 8,i wi% ,i _h nev] op5$ a book ( !ology4 ,our !ologians are )\t he>t1 s\l or logic4 ,_m ( !m approve ( !ft1 lies & p]jury2 o!rs drag u1 )\t a blu%1 into ! mo/ fil?y pits ( iniquity4 ,e "o ( !m w\ld l to make an assass9 ( e ,ca?olic4 ,accord+ to _! doctr9e1 ,*ri/ is no?+ b a ,corsican brig&1 ^: bloody disciples are b\nd to de/roy all ! h]etics by fire & sword4 ,7 we act+ accord+ to ! pr9ciples ( ^? !ologians1 we w\ld slaught] all ,prote/ants ) ! same coolness ( blood z we w\ld %oot d[n ! wolf :i* crosses our pa?4 ,) _! h& /ill r$d5$ ) ! blood ( ,/4 ,b>?olomew !y speak to u ( *>ity1 religion & ,god1 z if !re 7 nei!r ( !m 9 ! _w40 ,desaulni] 0 look$ ^u z 8un homme s+uli]0 at ,nicolet4 ,he 0 really an exception to all ! m5 9 ! sem9>y4 ,= example3 ,?\gh x 0 ! usage & ! law t ecclesia/ics %\ld receive ! communion e mon?1 & ^u e great fea/ day ( ! ,*ur*1 yet he w\ld sc>cely take ! communion once a ye>4 ,b let me return to ! int]view ) our sup]ior4 ,desaulni]'s fe>less & en]getic words _h evid5tly made a v pa9ful impression ^u our sup]ior4 ,x 0 n a usual ?+ = 8 disciples 9 !ology ?us to take ^u !mselves to speak ) su* fre$om z we bo? did on ?is occasion4 ,he did n conceal 8 pa9 at :at he call$ our unbecom+ & un*ri/ian attack ^u "s ( ! mo/ holy ord9ances ( ! ,*ur*2 & aft] he _h refut$ ,desaulni] 9 ! be/ way he c\ld1 he turn$ to me & said3 8,my de> ,*9iquy1 ,i h repeat$ly w>n$ y aga9/ ! habit y h ( li/5+ to y\r own frail reason+1 :5 y %\ld only obey z a dutiful *ild4 ,7 we to believe y we w\ld imm$iately set ourselves to "w to re=m ! ,*ur* & aboli% ! confession ( wom5 to prie/s2 we w\ld ?r[ all our !ological books into ! fire & h new ones writt51 bett] adapt$ to y\r fancy4 ,:at does all ?is prove8 ,only "o ?+1 & t is1 t ! devil ( pride is tempt+ y z he has tempt$ all ! s-call$ ,re=m]s1 & de/roy$ !m z he w\ld y4 ,if y d n take c>e1 y w become ano!r ,lu!r6 8,! !ological books ( ,/4 ,?omas1 ,liguori & ,d5s h be5 approv$ by ! ,*ur*4 ,h[1 !re=e1 d y n see ! ridicule & dang] ( y\r position4 ,on "o side1 !n1 ,i see all our holy popes1 ! two ?\s& ,ca?olic bi%ops1 all our le>n$ !ologians & prie/s1 back$ up by our two hundr$ millions ( ,roman ,ca?olics drawn up z an innum]able army to fight ! battles ( ! ,"l2 & on ! o!r side1 :at d ,i see8 ,no?+ b my small1 ?\gh v de> ,*9iquy6 8,h[1 !n1 is x t y d n fe>1 :5 ) y\r weak reason+ y oppose ! mighty reason+ & light ( s _m holy popes1 v5]able bi%ops & le>n$ !ologians8 ,is x n j z absurd = y to try to re=m ! ,*ur* by y\r small reasons1 z x is = ! gra9 ( s& :i* is f\nd at ! foot ( ! great m\nta9 to try to turn t mighty m\nta9 out ( its place8 or = ! small drop ( wat] to attempt to ?r[ ! b\ndless ocean out ( its b$1 or try to oppose ! runn+ tides ( ! ,pol> seas8 8,believe me1 & take my fri5dly advice10 cont9u$ our sup]ior1 8be=e x is too late4 ,let ! small gra9 ( s& rema9 /ill at ! foot ( ! maje/ic m\nta96 & let ! humble drop ( wat] cons5t to foll[ ! irresi/ible curr5ts ( ! b\ndless seas1 & ev]y?+ w be 9 ord]4 8,all ! good prie/s :o h he>d ! confessions ( wom5 be=e u h be5 sanctifi$ & h _h _! s\ls sav$1 ev5 :5 _! bodies 7 pollut$2 = ^? c>nal pollutions are no?+ b human mis]ies1 :i* _c defile a s\l :i* desires to rema9 unit$ to ,god4 ,are ! rays ( ! sun defil$ by com+ d[n into ! mud8 ,no6 ,! rays rema9 pure1 & return spotless to ! %9+ orb :5ce !y came4 ,s ! he>t ( a good prie/--z ,i hope my de> ,*9iquy w be--w rema9 pure & holy 9 spite ( ! accid5tal & unavoidable defilem5t ( ! fle%4 8,ap>t f ^? ?+s1 9 y\r ord9ation y w receive a special grace :i* w *ange y into ano!r man2 & ! ,virg9 ,m>y1 to :om y w con/antly address y\rself w obta9 = y a p]fect purity f h] ,son4 8,! defilem5t ( ! fle% spok5 ( by ! !ologians1 & :i*1 ,i confess1 is unavoidable :5 he>+ ! confessions ( wom51 mu/ n tr\ble y2 = !y are n s9ful1 z ,d5s & ,liguori assure u4 7,d5s1 vol4 i41 pages #bii1 #cji47 8,b en\gh on t subject4 ,i =bid y to speak to me any m on ^? idle que/ions1 &1 z mu* z my au?ority is any?+ to y bo?1 ,i =bid y to say a ^w m to ea* o!r on t matt]60 ,x 0 my fond hope t my de> & s mu* v5]at$ ,mr4 ,leprohon w\ld answ] me ) "s good & reasonable argum5ts2 b he1 to my surprise1 sil5c$ ! voice ( our consci5ce by 8un c\p d'etat40 ,nev]!less1 ! idea ( t mis]able gra9 ( s& :i* s ridicul\sly attempt$ to remove ! /ately m\nta91 & also ( t all b p]ceptible drop ( wat] :i* attempt$ to oppose itself to ! onw>d motion ( ! va/ ocean1 s+ul>ly /ruck & humbl$ me4 ,i rema9$ sil5t & confus$1 ?\gh n conv9c$4 ,?is 0 n all4 ,^? rays ( ! sun1 :i* c\ld n be defil$1 ev5 :5 go+ d[n into ! mud1 aft] bewild]+ "o by _! glitt]+ appe>ance1 left my s\l m 9 ! d>k ?an ev]4 ,i c\ld n resi/ a pres5tim5t t ,i 0 9 ! pres5ce ( an imposition1 & ( a glitt]+ sophism4 ,b ,i _h nei!r suffici5t le>n+1 moral c\rage1 nor grace f ,god cle>ly to see ?r\gh t mi/y cl\d1 & to expel x f my m9d4 ,almo/ e mon? ( ! t5 ye>s :i* ,i _h pass$ 9 ! sem9>y ( ,nicolet1 prie/s ( ! di/rict ( ,?ree ,riv]s & else:]e 7 s5t by ! bi%ops to sp5d two or ?ree weeks 9 do+ p5ances = hav+ ba/>ds by _! nieces1 _! h\sekeep]s & _! fair p5it5ts4 ,ev5 n long be=e ?is conv]sation ) our director1 ! curate ( ,/4 ,francois1 ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,amiot1 _h 9 ! v same week two *ildr5 by two ( 8 fair p5it5ts1 bo? ( :om 7 si/]s4 ,"o ( ^? girls gave bir? to h] *ild at ! p>sonage ! v night on :i* ! bi%op 0 on 8 episcopal visit to t p>i%4 ,^! public & und5iable facts 7 n mu* 9 h>mony ) ^? beautiful !ories ( our v5]able director conc]n+ ! rays ( ! sun1 :i* 8rema9$ pure & undefil$1 ev5 :5 w>m+ & vivify+ ! mud ( our planet40 ,! facts _h frequ5tly occurr$ to my m9d :ile ,mr4 ,leprohon 0 speak+1 & ,i 0 tempt$ m ?an once to ask him respectfully if he really ?\ght ^! 8%9+ rays10 ! prie/s1 _h ?us come into ! mire1 & w\ld !n return1 l ! rays ( ! sun1 )\t tak+ back ) !m some?+ ( ! mire 9 :i* !y _h be5 s /rangely wall[+4 ,b my respect = ,mr4 ,leprohon seal$ my lips4 ,:5 ,i return$ to my room1 ,i fell on my knees to ask ,god to p>don me = hav+1 = a mom5t1 ?\ght o!rwise ?an ! popes & !ologians ( ,rome4 ,i aga9 felt angry ) myself = hav+ d>$1 = a s+le mom5t1 to h array$ my poor little & imp]ceptible gra9 ( s&--drop ( wat]--& p]sonal & contemptible und]/&+ aga9/ t sublime m\nta9 ( /r5g?1 t va/ ocean ( le>n+1 & t imm5sely div9e wisdom ( ! popes6 ,b1 alas6 ,i 0 n yet aw>e t :5 ,jesus 9 ,8 m]cy s5ds into a p]i%+ s\l a s+le ray ( ,8 grace1 t !re is m light & wisdom 9 t s\l ?an 9 all ! popes & _! !ologians6 ,i 0 !n taught :at ! real f\ndation ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome is1 & s9c]ely believ$ t to ?9k = myself 0 a damnable impiety--t to look & see ) my own eyes1 & und]/& ) my own m9d1 0 an unp>donable s94 ,to be sav$ ,i _h to believe1 n :at ,i consid]$ to be ! tru?1 b :at ! popes told me to be ! tru?4 ,i _h to look & see e object ( fai?1 j z e true ,roman ,ca?olic ( to-day has to look & see ! same1 ?r\gh ! ,pope's eyes or ^? ( 8 !ologians4 ,h[ev] absurd & impi\s ?is belief may be1 yet x 0 m9e1 & x is also ! belief ( e true memb] ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome to-day4 ,! glori\s light & grace ( ,god c\ld n possibly fl[ directly f ,him to me2 !y _h to pass ?r\gh ! ,pope & 8 ,*ur*1 :i* 7 my only m\nta9 ( /r5g? & only ocean ( light4 ,x 01 !n1 my firm belief t !re 0 an impassable abyss betwe5 myself & ,god1 & t ! ,pope & 8 ,*ur* 7 ! only bridge by :i* ,i c\ld h communication ) ,him4 ,t /up5d\sly high & mo/ sublime m\nta91 ! ,pope1 0 betwe5 myself & ,god2 & all t 0 all[$ my poor s\l 0 to raise itself & travel ) great difficulty till x atta9$ ! foot ( t holy m\nta91 ! ,pope1 &1 pro/rat+ itself !re 9 ! du/1 ask him to let me "k :at my yet di/ant ,god w\ld h me d4 ,! promises ( m]cy1 tru?1 light & life 7 all ve/$ 9 ?is great m\nta91 ! ,pope1 f :om alone !y c\ld desc5d ^u my poor lo/ s\l6 ,d>kness1 ignorance1 unc]ta9ty & et]nal loss 7 my lot ! v mom5t ,i ceas$ wor%ipp+ at ! feet ( ! ,pope6 ,! ,god ( ,heav5 0 n my ,god2 ,he 0 only ! ,god ( ! ,pope4 ,! ,savi\r ( ! _w 0 n my ,savi\r2 he 0 only ! ,pope's4 ,!re=e x 0 ?r\gh ! ,pope only t ,i c\ld receive ,*ri/ z my ,savi\r1 & to ! ,pope alone _h ,i to g1 to "k ! way1 ! tru? & ! life ( my s\l6 ,god alone kn[s :at a d>k & t]rible night ,i pass$ aft] ?is meet+6 ,i _h aga9 to smo!r my consci5ce1 dismantle my reason1 & br+ !m all "u ! turpitudes ( ! !ologies ( ,rome1 :i* are s well calculat$ to keep ! _w fett]$ 9 ignorance1 sup]/ition1 & dea?4 ,b ,god saw ! te>s ) :i* ,i b$ew$ my pill[ t night4 ,he he>d ! cry ( my agoniz+ s\l1 & 9 ,8 inf9ite love & m]cy det]m9$ to come to my rescue1 & save me4 ,if ,he saw fit to leave me _m ye>s m 9 ! slav]y ( ,egypt1 x 0 t ,i might bett] "k ! plagues ( t l& ( d>kness1 & ! iron *a9s :i* are !re prep>$ = poor lo/ s\ls4 ,:5 ! h\r ( my deliv]ance came1 ! ,"l took me by ! h& & help$ me to cross ! ,r$ ,sea4 ,he br\ght me to ! ,l& ( ,promise--a l& ( peace1 life & joy :i* passe? all und]/&+4 ,,*apt] ,,xvi4 ,,! ,,prie/ ,,( ,,rome ,,& ,,! ,,holy ,,fa!rs3 ,,or ,,h[ ,i ,,swore ,,to ,,give ,,up ,,! ,,^w ,,( ,,god ,,to ,,foll[ ,,! ,,^w ,,( ,,m54 ,!re are sev]al impos+ c]emonies at ! ord9ation ( a prie/2 & ,i w nev] =get ! joy ,i felt :5 ! ,roman ,pontiff pres5t+ to me ! ,bible1 ord]$ me1 ) a solemn voice1 to /udy & prea* x4 ,t ord] pass$ ?r\gh my s\l z a beam ( light4 ,b1 alas6 ^? rays ( light & life 7 soon to be foll[$1 z a fla% ( lightn+ 9 a /ormy night1 by ! mo/ sudd5 & di/ress+ d>kness6 ,:5 hold+ ! sacr$ volume1 ,i accept$ ) unspeakable joy ! comm& ( /udy+ & prea*+ its sav+ tru?2 b ,i felt z if a ?und]bolt _h fall5 ^u me :5 ,i pron\nc$ ! awful oa? :i* is requir$ f e prie/3 8,i w nev] int]pret ! ,holy ,scriptures except accord+ to ! unanim\s cons5t ( ! ,holy ,fa!rs40 ,_m times1 ) ! o!r /ud5ts 9 !ology1 ,i _h discuss$ ! nature ( t /range oa?2 /ill m (t51 9 ! sil5ce ( my m$itations1 alone 9 ! pres5ce ( ,god1 ,i _h tri$ to fa?om ! bottomless abyss :i*1 x seem$ to me1 0 dug "u my feet by x1 & e "t my consci5ce _h %runk 9 t]ror f its consequ5ces4 ,b ,i 0 n ! only "o 9 ! sem9>y :o contemplat$1 ) an anxi\s m9d1 its evid5tly blasphem\s nature4 ,ab\t six mon?s be=e our ord9ation1 ,/eph5 ,baill>geon1 "o ( my fell[ !ological /ud5ts1 _h said 9 my pres5ce to our sup]ior1 ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,raimbault3 8,all[ me to tell y t "o ( ! ?+s ) :i* ,i _c reconcile my consci5ce is ! solemn oa? we w h to take1 #8,t we w nev] int]pret ! ,scriptures except accord+ to ! unanim\s cons5t ( ! ,holy ,fa!rs6' ,we h n giv5 a s+le h\r yet to ! s]i\s /udy ( ! ,holy ,fa!rs4 ,i "k _m prie/s1 & n a s+le "o ( !m has ev] /udi$ ! ,holy ,fa!rs2 !y h n ev5 got !m 9 _! libr>ies6 ,we w probably walk 9 _! foot/eps4 ,x may be t n a s+le volume ( ! ,holy ,fa!rs w ev] fall into our h&s6 ,9 ! "n ( common s5se1 h[ c we swe> t we w foll[ ! s5tim5ts ( m5 ( :om we "k absolutely no?+1 & ab\t :om1 x is m probable1 we w nev] "k any?+1 except by m]e vague he>say8 ,our sup]ior gave evid5t signs ( weakness 9 8 answ] to t unexpect$ difficulty4 ,b 8 emb>rassm5t grew mu* great] :5 ,i said3 8,baill>geon _c contemplate t oa? )\t anxiety1 & he has giv5 y "s ( 8 reasons2 b he has n said ! la/ ^w on t /range oa?4 ,if y w all[ me1 ,mr4 ,sup]ior1 ,i w pres5t y "s m =midable objections4 ,x is n s mu* on acc\nt ( our ignorance ( ! doctr9es ( ! ,holy ,fa!rs t ,i tremble :5 ,i ?9k t ,i w h #8to swe> nev] to int]pret ! ,scriptures except accord+ to _! unanim\s cons5t4' ,w\ld to ,god t ,i c\ld say1 ) ,baill>geon1 #8,i "k no?+ ( ! ,holy ,fa!rs2 h[ c ,i swe> t !y w guide me 9 all my ways8' ,x is true t we "k s little ( !m t x is supremely ridicul\s1 if x is n an insult to ,god & man1 t we take !m = our guides4 ,b my regret is t we "k already too mu* ( ! ,holy ,fa!rs to be exempt f p]jur+ ourselves1 :5 we swe> t we w n int]pret ! ,holy ,scriptures except accord+ to _! unanim\s cons5t4 8,is x n a fact t ! ,holy ,fa!rs' writ+s are s p]fectly kept out ( sight1 t x is absolutely impossible to read & /udy !m8 ,b ev5 if we _h access to !m1 h we suffici5t "t at our disposal to /udy !m s p]fectly t we c\ld consci5ti\sly swe> t we w foll[ !m8 ,& if we don't /udy !m1 h[ c we be exempt$ f wilful p]jury ! day t we w swe> to foll[ !m8 ,h[ c we foll[ a ?+ we d n see1 :i* we d n he>1 & ab\t :i* we d n "k m ?an ! man 9 ! moon8 ,our %ameful ignorance ( ! ,holy ,fa!rs is a suffici5t reason to make u fe> at ! approa* ( ! solemn h\r t we w swe> to foll[ !m4 ,yes6 ,b we "k en\gh ( ! ,holy ,fa!rs to *ill ! blood 9 our ve9s :5 swe>+ to int]pret ! ,holy ,scriptures only accord+ to _! unanim\s cons5t4 ,please1 ,mr4 ,sup]ior1 tell u :at are ! texts ( ,scripture on :i* ! ,holy ,fa!rs are unanim\s4 ,y respect y\rself too mu* to try to answ] a "q :i* no hone/ man has1 or w ev] d>e to answ]4 ,& if y1 "o ( ! mo/ le>n$ m5 ( ,france1 _c put y\r f+] on ! texts ( ! ,holy ,bible & say1 #8,! ,holy ,fa!rs are p]fectly unanim\s on ^! texts6' h[ c we1 poor "y ecclesia/ics ( ! humble ,college ( ,nicolet1 say #8,! ,holy ,fa!rs are unanim\sly ( ! same m9d on ^? texts8' ,b if we _c di/+ui% to-day1 & if we %all nev] be able to di/+ui% betwe5 ! texts on :i* ! ,holy ,fa!rs are unanim\s & ! ones on :i* !y diff]1 h[ c we d>e to swe> be=e ,god & man to int]pret e text ( ! ,scriptures only accord+ to ! unanim\s cons5t ( ! ,holy ,fa!rs8 8,by t awful oa?1 w we n be absolutely b\nd to rema9 mute z dead m5 on e text on :i* ! ,holy ,fa!rs h diff]$1 "u ! evid5t p5alty ( becom+ p]jur$8 ,w n e text on :i* ! ,holy ,fa!rs h diff]$ become z ! dead c>cass :i* ! ,israelites c\ld n t\*1 except by defil+ !mselves8 ,aft] t /range oa?1 to int]pret ! ,scriptures only accord+ to ! unanim\s cons5t ( ! ,holy ,fa!rs1 w we n be absolutely depriv$ ( ! privilege ( /udy+ or prea*+ on a text on :i* !y h diff]$8 8,! consequ5ces ( ! oa? are legion1 & e "o ( !m seems to me ! dea? ( our m9i/ry1 ! damnation ( our s\ls6 ,y h read ! hi/ory ( ! ,*ur*1 z we h x "h1 writt5 by ,h5rion1 ,b]rault-,bell-,co/el & ,fleury4 ,well1 :at is ! prom95t fact 9 ^? reliable hi/ories ( ! ,*ur*8 ,is x n t ! ,*ur* has con/antly be5 fill$ ) ! noise ( ! controv]sies ( ,holy ,fa!rs ) ,holy ,fa!rs8 ,d we n f9d1 on e page1 t ! ,holy ,fa!rs ( "o c5tury v (t5 diff]$ f ! ,holy ,fa!rs ( ano!r c5tury 9 v important matt]s8 ,is x n a public & und5iable fact1 t ! hi/ory ( our ,holy ,*ur* is almo/ no?+ else ?an ! hi/ory ( ! h>d conflict1 /]n divisions1 unfl9*+ contradictions & oppositions ( ,holy ,fa!rs to ,holy ,fa!rs8 8,"h is a big volume ( manuscript writt5 by me1 conta9+ only extracts f our be/ ,*ur* hi/orians1 fill$ ) ! public disputes ( ,holy ,fa!rs among !mselves on almo/ e subject ( ,*ri/ianity4 8,!re are ,holy ,fa!rs :o say1 ) our be/ mod]n !ologians--,/4 ,?omas1 ,bell>m9e & ,liguori--t we mu/ kill h]etics z we kill wild bea/s2 :ile _m o!rs say t we mu/ tol]ate !m6 ,y all "k ! "n ( ! ,holy ,fa!r :o s5ds to hell all ! wid[s :o m>ry a second "t1 :ile o!r ,holy ,fa!rs are ( a diff]5t m9d4 ,"s ( !m1 y "k well1 _h v diff]5t notions f ours ab\t purgatory4 ,is x necess>y = me to give y ! names ( ! ,holy ,fa!rs1 9 ,africa & ,asia1 :o refus$ to accept ! supreme jurisdiction we ackn[l$ge 9 ! ,pope ov] all *ur*es8 ,sev]al ,holy ,fa!rs h d5i$ ! supreme au?ority ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome--y "k x2 !y h laugh$ at ! excommunications ( ! ,popes6 ,"s ev5 h gladly di$ :5 excommunicat$ by ! ,pope1 )\t do+ any?+ to reconcile !mselves to him6 ,:at d we f9d1 9 ! six volumes ( lett]s we h /ill f ,/4 ,j]ome1 if n ! und5iable fact t he fill$ ! ,*ur* ) ! noise ( 8 h>% d5unciations ( ! scriptural views ( ,/4 ,augu/9e on _m important po9ts4 ,y h read ^? lett]s8 ,well1 h y n conclud$ t ,/4 ,j]ome & ,/4 ,augu/9e agre$ almo/ only on "o ?+1 :i* 01 to disagree on e subject !y treat$8 8,did n ,/4 ,j]ome knock 8 head aga9/ ne>ly all ! ,holy ,fa!rs ( 8 "t8 ,& has he n receiv$ h>d knocks f almo/ all ! ,holy ,fa!rs ) :om he 0 acqua9t$8 ,is x n a public fact t ,/4 ,j]ome & sev]al o!r ,holy ,fa!rs reject$ ! sacr$ book ( ! ,maccabees1 ,judi?1 ,tobias1 j z ! h]etics ( our "t reject !m8 8,& n[ we are gravely ask$1 9 ! "n ( ! ,god ( ,tru?1 to swe> t we w int]pret ! ,holy ,scriptures only accord+ to ! unanim\s cons5t ( ^? ,holy ,fa!rs1 :o h be5 unanim\s b 9 "o ?+1 :i* 0 nev] to agree ) ea* o!r1 & sometimes n ev5 ) !mselves4 8,= x is a well-kn[n fact1 ?\gh x is a v deplorable "o1 = in/ance1 t ,/4 ,augu/9e did n always keep to ! same correct views on ! text #8,?\ art ,pet]1 & ^u t rock ,i w build my *ur*4' ,aft] hold+ correct views on t fundam5tal tru? he gave x up1 at ! end ( 8 life1 to say1 ) ! ,prote/ants ( our day1 t #8^u t rock means only ,*ri/1 & n ,pet]4' ,n[1 h[ c ,i be b\nd by su* an oa? to foll[ ! views ( m5 :o h !mselves be5 wav]+ & *ang+1 :5 ! ,^w ( ,god mu/ /& z an unmov+ rock to my he>t8 ,if y require f u an oa?1 :y put into our h&s ! hi/ory ( ! ,*ur*1 :i* has /uff$ our memory ) ! und5iable facts ( ! endless fi]ce divisions ( ! ,holy ,fa!rs on almo/ e "q :i* ! ,scriptures pres5t to our fai?8 8,w\ld to ,god t ,i c\ld say1 ) ,baill>geon1 ,i "k no?+ ( ! ,holy ,fa!rs6 ,!n ,i c\ld p]haps be at peace ) my consci5ce1 aft] p]jur+ myself by promis+ a ?+ t ,i _c d4 8,i 0 lately told by ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,leprohon1 t x is absolutely necess>y to g to ! ,holy ,fa!rs 9 ord] to und]/& ! ,holy ,scriptures6 ,b ,i w respectfully repeat to-day :at ,i !n said on t subject4 8,if ,i am too ignorant or too /upid to und]/& ,/4 ,m>k1 ,/4 ,luke & ,/4 ,paul1 h[ c ,i be intellig5t en\gh to und]/& ,j]ome1 ,augu/9e1 & ,t]tullian8 ,& if ,/4 ,mat!w1 ,/4 ,john & ,/4 ,pet] h n got f ,god ! grace ( writ+ ) a suffici5t degree ( light & cle>ness to be und]/ood by m5 ( good-w1 h[ is x t ,ju/91 ,clem5s & ,cyprian h receiv$ f our ,god a favor ( lucidity & cle>ness :i* he d5i$ to ,8 apo/les & evangeli/s8 ,if ,i _c rely ^u my private judgm5t :5 /udy+1 ) ! help ( ,god1 ! ,holy ,scriptures1 h[ c ,i rely on my private judgm5t :5 /udy+ ! ,holy ,fa!rs8 ,y con/antly tell me ,i _c rely on my private judgm5t to und]/& & int]pret ! ,holy ,scriptures2 b w y please tell me ) :at judgm5t & intellig5ce ,i %all h to int]pret & und]/& ! writ+s ( ! ,holy ,fa!rs1 if x be n ) my own private judgm5t8 ,mu/ ,i borr[ ! judgm5t & intellig5ce ( "s ( my neighbors 9 ord] to und]/& & int]pret1 = in/ance1 ! writ+s ( ,orig58 or %all ,i be all[$ to g & he> :at t ,holy ,fa!r wants f me ) my own private intellig5ce8 ,b aga91 if y are =c$ to confess t ,i h no?+ else b my private judgm5t & intellig5ce to read1 und]/& & foll[ ! ,holy ,fa!rs1 & t ,i n only c1 b ,i mu/1 rely on my own private judgm5t1 )\t any fe>1 9 t case1 h[ is x t ,i w be lo/ if ,i make use ( t same private & p]sonal judgm5t :5 at ! feet ( ,jesus1 li/5+ to ,8 et]nal & life-giv+ words8 8,no?+ di/resses me s mu* 9 our holy religion z ?is want ( confid5ce 9 ,god :5 we g to ! feet ( ,jesus to he> or read ,8 s\l-sav+ words1 & ! abundance ( self-confid5ce1 :5 we g among s9ful & fallible m51 to "k :at !y say4 8,x is n to ! ,holy ,scriptures t we are invit$ to g to "k :at ! ,"l sai?1 x is to ! ,holy ,fa!rs66 8,w\ld x be possible t1 9 our ,holy ,*ur*1 ! ,^w ( ,god w\ld be d>kness1 & ! words ( m5 light6 8,?is dogma1 or article ( our religion1 by :i* we mu/ g to ! ,holy ,fa!rs 9 ord] to "k :at #8,! ,"l sai?1' & n to ! ,holy ,scripture1 is to my s\l :at a h&ful ( s& w\ld be to my eyes--x makes me p]fectly bl9d4 8,:5 our v5]able bi%op places ! ,holy ,scriptures 9 my h&s & comm&s me to /udy & prea* !m1 ,i w und]/& :at he means1 & he w "k :at he says4 ,he w give me a mo/ sublime "w to p]=m2 &1 ) ! grace ( ,god1 ,i hope ,i w d x4 ,b :5 he ord]s me to swe> t ,i w nev] int]pret ! ,holy ,scriptures1 except accord+ to ! unanim\s cons5t ( ! ,holy ,fa!rs1 w he n make a p]jur$ man ( me1 & w he n say a ?+ to :i* he has n giv5 suffici5t att5tion8 ,= to swe> t we w nev] int]pret any?+ ( ! ,scriptures1 except accord+ to ! unanim\s cons5t ( ! ,holy ,fa!rs1 is to swe> to a ?+ z impossible & ridicul\s z to take ! moon ) our h&s4 ,i say m1 x is to swe> t we w nev] /udy nor int]pret a s+le *apt] ( ! ,bible4 ,= x is probable t !re are v few *apt]s ( t ,holy ,book :i* h n be5 a cause ( s]i\s diff]5ce betwe5 "s ( ! ,holy ,fa!rs4 8,z ! writ+s ( ! ,holy ,fa!rs fill at lea/ two hundr$ volumes 9 folio1 x w n take u less ?an t5 ye>s ( con/ant /udy to "k on :at "q !y are or are n unanim\s6 ,if1 aft] t "t ( /udy1 ,i f9d t !y are unanim\s on ! "q ( or?odoxy1 :i* ,i mu/ believe & prea*1 all w be "r ) me4 ,i w walk ) a fe>less he>t to ! gates ( et]nity1 & ) ! c]ta9ty ( foll[+ ! true way ( salvation4 ,b if among fifty ,holy ,fa!rs !re are =ty-n9e on "o side & "o only on ! opposite side1 9 :at awful /ate ( di/ress w ,i be plung$6 ,w ,i n be !n z a %ip 9 a /ormy night1 aft] %e has lo/ h] compass1 h] ma/s & h] helm4 ,if ,i 7 all[$ to foll[ ! majority1 !re w\ld always be a plank ( safety to rescue me f ! imp5d+ wreck4 ,b ! ,pope has inexorably ti$ u to ! unanimity4 ,if my fai? is n ! fai? ( unanimity1 ,i am =ev] damn$4 ,i am out ( ! ,*ur*66 8,:at a frightful alt]native is j be=e u6 ,we mu/ ei!r p]jure ourselves1 by swe>+ to foll[ a unanimity :i* is a fable1 9 ord] to rema9 ,roman ,ca?olics1 or we mu/ plunge into ! abyss ( impiety & a!ism by refus+ to swe> t we w adh]e to a unanimity :i* nev] exi/$40 ,x 0 visible1 at ! end ( t long & /ormy conf]5ce1 t ! fe>s & anxieties ( ,baill>geon & m9e 7 p>tak5 ( by e "o ( ! /ud5ts 9 !ology4 ,! boldness ( our expressions br\ght ^u u a real /orm4 ,b our sup]ior did n d>e to face or answ] a s+le "o ( our argum5ts2 he 0 evid5tly emb>rass$1 & no?+ c\ld surpass 8 joy :5 ! bell told him t ! h\r ( ! conf]5ce 0 ov]4 ,he promis$ to answ] u ! next day2 b ! next day he did no?+ b ?r[ du/ into our eyes1 & abuse u to 8 he>t's cont5t4 ,he began by =bidd+ me to read any m ( ! controv]sial books ,i _h b\ght a few mon?s be=e1 among :i* 0 ! celebrat$ ,d]ry discussion betwe5 sev5 prie/s & sev5 ,prote/ants4 ,i _h to give back ! well-kn[n discussion betwe5 8,pope & ,maguire10 & betwe5 ,gregg & ! same ,maguire4 ,i _h also to give up ! numb]s ( ! ,av5ir & o!r books ( ,lam5ais1 :i* ,i _h got ! lib]ty1 z a privilege1 to read4 ,x 0 decid$ t my intellig5ce 0 n cle> en\gh1 & t my fai? 0 n suffici5tly /rong to read ^? books4 ,i _h no?+ to d b to b[ my head "u ! yoke & obey1 )\t a ^w ( murmur4 ,! d>ke/ night 0 made ar\nd our und]/&+s1 & we _h to believe t t awful d>kness 0 ! %9+ light ( ,god66 ,we reject$ ! bright tru? :i* _h s ne>ly conqu]$ our m9ds1 9 ord] to accept ! mo/ ridicul\s sophisms z gospel tru?s6 ,we did ! mo/ degrad+ action a man c d--we sil5c$ ! voice ( our consci5ce1 & we cons5t$ to foll[ our sup]ior's views1 z a brute foll[s ! ord] ( 8 ma/]2 we cons5t$ to be 9 ! h&s ( our sup]iors l a /ick 9 ! h&s ( ! travel]4 ,dur+ ! mon?s :i* elaps$ betwe5 t h>d-f\ght1 ?\gh lo/ battle1 & ! solemn h\r ( my prie/ly ord9ation1 ,i did all ,i c\ld to subdue & annihilate my ?\ghts on t subject4 ,my hope 0 t ,i _h entirely succe$$4 ,b1 to my dismay1 t reason sudd5ly awoke1 z f a long sleep1 :5 ,i _h p]jur$ myself1 z e prie/ has to d4 ,a *ill ( horror & %ame ran ?r\gh all my frame 9 spite ( myself4 ,9 my inmo/ s\l a cry 0 he>d f my w\nd$ consci5ce4 8,y annihilate ! ,^w ( ,god6 ,y rebel aga9/ ! ,holy ,gho/6 ,y d5y ! ,holy ,scriptures to foll[ ! /eps ( s9ful m56 ,y reject ! pure wat]s ( et]nal life1 to dr9k ! wat]s ( dea?40 ,9 ord] to *oke aga9 ! voice ( my consci5ce1 ,i did :at my ,*ur* advis$ me to d--,i cri$ to my waf] god & to ! bless$ ,virg9 ,m>y1 t !y might come to my help1 & sil5ce ! voices :i* 7 tr\bl+ my peace by %ak+ my fai?4 ,) ! utmo/ s9c]ity1 ! day ( my ord9ation1 ,i r5ew$ ! promise t ,i _h already s (t5 made1 & said 9 ! pres5ce ( ,god & ,8 angels1 8,i promise t ,i w nev] believe any?+ except accord+ to ! tea*+s ( my ,holy & ,apo/olic ,*ur* ( ,rome40 ,& on t pill[ ( folly1 ignorance & fanaticism ,i laid my head to sleep ! sleep ( spiritual dea?1 ) ! two hundr$ millions ( slaves :om ! ,pope sees at 8 feet4 ,& ,i slept t sleep till ! ,god ( our salvation1 9 ,8 great m]cy1 awoke me1 by giv+ to my s\l ! light1 ! tru? & ! life :i* are 9 ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,,*apt] ,,xvii4 ,,! ,,roman ,,ca?olic ,,prie/hood3 ,,or ,,anci5t ,,& ,,mod]n ,,idolatry4 ,i 0 orda9$ a prie/ ( ,rome 9 ! ,ca!dral ( ,quebec1 on ! #ba/ ( ,septemb]1 #ahcc1 by ! ,"r ,rev]5d ,s9ai1 fir/ ,ar*bi%op ( ,canada4 ,no words c express ! solemnity ( my ?\ghts1 ! sup]human nature ( my aspirations1 :5 ! delegate ( ! ,pope1 impos+ 8 h&s on my head1 gave me ! p[] ( conv]t+ a waf] into ! real sub/antial body1 blood1 s\l & div9ity ( ,jesus ,*ri/6 ,! bright illusion ( ,eve1 z ! deceiv] told h] 8,ye %all be z gods10 0 *ild's play comp>$ ) :at ,i felt :51 assur$ by ! infallible voice ( my ,*ur* t ,i 0 n only on equal t]ms ) my ,savi\r & ,god1 b ,i 0 9 reality above ,him6 & t h]eaft] ,i w\ld n only comm&1 b create ,him66 ,! aspirations to p[] & glory :i* _h be5 su* a t]rible temptation 9 ,lucif] 7 becom+ a reality 9 me6 ,i _h receiv$ ! p[] ( comm&+ ,god1 n 9 a spiritual & my/ical1 b 9 a real1 p]sonal & mo/ irresi/ible way4 ,) my he>t full ( an inexpressible joy & gratitude to ,god1 & ) all ! faculties ( my s\l rais$ to exaltation1 ,i )drew f ! feet ( ! pontiff to my oratory1 :]e ,i pass$ ! re/ ( ! day 9 m$itation on ! great ?+s :i* my ,god _h wr\ght 9 me4 ,i _h1 at la/ atta9$ ! top ( t p[] & hol9ess :i* my ,*ur* _h invit$ me to consid] f my infancy z ! mo/ glori\s gift :i* ,god _h ev] giv5 to man6 ,! dignity :i* ,i _h j receiv$ 0 above all ! dignities & ! ?rones ( ?is _w4 ,! holy "* ( ! ,,prie/hood _h be5 impress$ on my s\l1 ) ! blood ( ,*ri/1 z an imp]i%able & cele/ial glory4 ,no?+ c\ld ev] take x away f me 9 "t or et]nity4 ,i 0 to be a prie/ ( my ,god =ev] & ev]4 ,n only _h ,*ri/ let ,8 div9e & prie/ly nature fall on my %\ld]s1 b ,he _h s p]fectly associat$ me ) ,himself z ! great & et]nal ,sacrificator1 t ,i 0 to r5ew1 e day ( my life1 ,8 aton+ ,,sacrifice6 ,at my bidd+1 ! only & et]nally begott5 ,son ( my ,god 0 n[ to come into my h&s 9 p]son6 ,! same ,*ri/ :o sits at ! "r h& ( ! ,fa!r 0 to come d[n e day into my brea/1 to unite ,8 fle% to my fle%1 ,8 blood to my blood1 ,8 div9e s\l to my poor s9ful s\l1 9 ord] to walk1 "w & live 9 me & ) me 9 ! mo/ p]fect unity & intimacy6 ,i pass$ ! :ole day & ! great] "p ( ! night 9 contemplat+ ! sup]human honors & dignities :i* my belov$ ,*ur* _h conf]r$ on me4 ,_m times ,i fell on my knees to ?ank ,god = ,8 m]cies t[>ds me1 & ,i c\ld h>dly speak to ,him except ) te>s ( joy & gratitude4 ,i (t5 repeat$ ! words ( ! ,holy ,virg9 ,m>y3 8,my s\l do? magnify ! ,"l1 & my _s do? rejoice 9 ,god my ,savi\r40 ,! privileges grant$ to me 7 ( a m sub/antial k9d ?an ^? be/[$ ^u ,m>y4 ,%e _h be5 obey$ by ,*ri/ only :5 ,he 0 a *ild4 ,he _h to obey me n[1 al?\gh ,he 0 9 ! full possession ( ,8 et]nal glory6 ,9 ! pres5ce ( ,god & ,8 angels1 ,i promis$ to live a holy life z a tok5 ( my gratitude to ,him4 ,i said to my lips & my tongue1 8,be holy n[2 = y w n only speak to y\r ,god3 y w give ,him a new bir? e day60 ,i said to my he>t1 8,be holy & pure n[2 = y w be> e day ! ,holy ( ,holies40 ,to my s\l ,i said1 8,be holy n[2 = y w h5ce=? be mo/ intimately & p]sonally unit$ to ,*ri/ ,jesus4 ,y w be f$ ) ! body1 blood1 s\l & div9ity ( ,him be=e :om ! angels d n f9d !mselves pure en\gh60 ,look+ on my table1 :]e my pipe1 fill$ ) tobacco1 & my snuff-box 7 ly+1 ,i said3 8,impure & noxi\s we$s1 y w no m defile me6 ,i am ! prie/ ( ! ,almighty4 ,x is b5ea? my dignity to t\* y any m60 & op5+ ! w9d[ ,i ?rew !m into ! /reet1 nev] to make use ( !m aga94 ,on ! #ba/ ( ,septemb]1 #ahcc1 ,i _h ?us be5 rais$ to ! prie/hood2 b ,i _h n yet made use ( ! div9e p[]s ) :i* ,i _h be5 inve/$4 ,! next day ,i 0 to say my fir/ ,mass1 & "w t incomp>able miracle :i* ! ,*ur* ( ,rome calls ,,transub/antiation4 ,z ,i h already said1 ,i _h pass$ ! great] "p ( ! night betwe5 ! #ba/ & #bbnd 9 m$itation & ?anksgiv+s4 ,on ! morn+ ( ! #bbnd1 long be=e ! dawn ( day1 ,i 0 dress$ & on my knees4 ,?is 0 to be ! mo/ holy & glori\s day ( my life6 ,rais$ ! day be=e1 to a dignity :i* 0 above ! k+doms & empires ( ! _w1 ,i 0 n[ = ! fir/ "t1 to "w a miracle at ! alt> :i* no angel or s]aph c\ld d4 ,at my bidd+ ,*ri/ 0 to receive a new exi/5ce6 ,! miracle wr\ght by ,jo%ua1 :5 he comm&$ ! sun & moon to /op1 on ! bloody pla9 ( ,gibeon1 0 no?+ comp>$ to ! miracle t ,i 0 to p]=m t day4 ,:5 ! et]nal ,son ( ,god w\ld be 9 my h&s1 ,i 0 to pres5t myself at ! ?rone ( m]cy1 ) t expiatory victim ( ! s9s ( ! _w pay ! debt1 n only ( my guilty s\l1 b ( all ^? = :om ,i %\ld speak8 ,! ineffable sacrifice ( ,calv>y 0 to be r5ew$ by me t day ) ! utmo/ p]fection6 ,:5 ! bell rang to tell me t ! h\r 0 come to clo! myself ) ! gold5 prie/ly robes & g to ! alt>1 my he>t beat ) su* a rapidity t ,i came v ne> fa9t+4 ,! hol9ess ( ! action ,i 0 to d1 ! inf9ite greatness ( ! sacrifice ,i 0 ab\t to make1 ! div9e victim ,i 0 to hold 9 my h&s & pres5t to ,god ! ,fa!r6 ! wond]ful miracle ,i 0 to p]=m1 fill$ my s\l & my he>t ) su* s5tim5ts ( t]ror1 joy & awe1 t ,i 0 trembl+ f head to foot2 & if v k9d fri5ds1 among :om 0 ! v5]able secret>y ( ! ,ar*bi%op ( ,quebec1 n[ ! ,gr& ,vic> ,cazault1 _h n be5 !re to help & enc\rage me1 ,i ?9k ,i w\ld n h d>$ to asc5d ! /eps ( ! alt>4 ,x is n an easy ?+ to g ?r\gh all ! c]emonies ( a mass4 ,!re are m ?an "o hundr$ diff]5t c]emonies & positions ( ! body1 :i* mu/ be obs]v$1 ) ! utmo/ p]fection4 ,to omit "o ( !m will+ly1 or ?r\gh a culpable neglect or ignorance1 is et]nal damnation4 ,b ?anks to a doz5 ex]cises ?r\gh :i* ,i _h gone ! previ\s week1 & ?anks be to ! k9d fri5ds :o help$ & guid$ me1 ,i w5t ?r\gh ! p]=mances ( t fir/ mass mu* m easily ?an ,i expect$4 ,x la/$ ab\t an h\r4 ,b :5 x 0 ov]1 ,i 0 really exhau/$ by ! ef=t made to keep my m9d & he>t 9 unison ) ! inf9ite greatness ( ! my/]ies accompli%$ by me4 ,to make "o's self believe t he c conv]t a piece ( bread into ,god requires su* a supreme ef=t ( ! w1 & complete annihilation ( intellig5ce1 t ! /ate ( ! s\l1 aft] ! ef=t is ov]1 is m l dea? ?an life4 ,i _h really p]suad$ myself t ,i _h done ! mo/ holy & sublime action ( my life1 :51 9 fact ,i _h be5 guilty ( ! mo/ outrage\s act ( idolatry6 ,my eyes1 my h&s & lips1 my m\? & tongue1 & all my s5ses1 z well z ! faculties ( my intellig5ce1 7 tell+ me t :at ,i _h se51 t\*$1 eat51 0 no?+ b a waf]2 b ! voices ( ! ,pope & 8 ,*ur* 7 tell+ me t x 0 ! real body1 blood1 s\l & div9ity ( ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,i _h p]suad$ myself t ! voices ( my s5ses & intellig5ce 7 ! voices ( ,satan1 & t ! deceitful voice ( ! ,pope 0 ! voice ( ! ,god ( ,tru?6 ,e prie/ ( ,rome has to come to t /range degree ( folly & p]v]sity1 e day ( 8 life1 to rema9 a prie/ ( ,rome4 ,! great impo/ure taught "u ! mod]n ^w ,,transub/antiation1 :5 dive/$ ( ! gl>e :i* ,rome1 by 8 sorc]ies1 ?r[s ar\nd x1 is soon se5 to be :at x is--a mo/ impi\s & idolatr\s doctr9e4 8,i mu/ c>ry ! #8good god' to-morr[ to a sick man10 says ! prie/ to 8 s]vant girl4 ,9 pla9 ,fr5*3 8,je dois port] le #8,bon ,dieu' dema9 a un malade1 dit le praitre a sa s]vante2 mais il n'y en a plus dans le tab]nacle40 8,b !re are no m 9 ! tab]nacle4 ,make "s small cakes1 t ,i may consecrate !m to-morr[40 ,& ! ob$i5t dome/ic takes "s :eat fl\r1 = no o!r k9d ( fl\r is fit to make ! god ( ! ,pope4 ,a mixture ( any o!r k9d w\ld make ! miracle ( 8transub/antiation0 a great failure4 ,! s]vant girl accord+ly takes ! d\gh1 & bakes x betwe5 two heat$ irons1 on :i* are grav5 ! foll[+ figures1 _/,c4,h4,s4 ,:5 ! :ole is well bak$1 %e takes h] scissors & cuts ^? waf]s1 :i* are ab\t f\r or five in*es l>ge1 into small] ones ( ! size ( an in*1 & respectfully h&s !m ov] to ! prie/4 ,! next morn+ ! prie/ takes ! newly-bak$ waf]s to ! alt>1 & *anges !m into ! body1 blood1 s\l & div9ity ( ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,x 0 "o ( ^? waf]s t ,i _h tak5 to ! alt> 9 t solemn h\r ( my fir/ mass1 & :i* ,i _h turn$ into my ,savi\r by ! five magical words--,,hoc ,,e/ ,,enim ,,corpus ,,meum6 ,:at 0 ! diff]5ce betwe5 ! incr$ible folly ( ,a>on on ! day ( 8 apo/asy 9 ! wild]ness1 & ! action ,i _h done :5 ,i wor%ipp$ ! god :om ,i made myself1 & got my fri5ds to wor%ip8 ,:]e1 ,i ask1 is ! diff]5ce betwe5 ! adoration ( ! calf-god ( ,a>on & ! waf]-god :i* ,i _h made on ! #bbnd ,septemb]1 #ahcc4 ,! only diff]5ce 01 t ! idolatry ( ,a>on la/$ b "o day1 :ile ! idolatry 9 :i* ,i liv$ la/$ a qu>t] ( a c5tury1 & has be5 p]petuat$ 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,rome = m ?an a ?\s& ye>s4 ,:at has ! ,*ur* ( ,rome done by giv+ up ! words ( ,*ri/1 8,d ?is 9 remembrance ( me10 & sub/itut+ h] dogma ( ,transub/antiation8 ,%e has br\ght ! _w back to ! old hea!nism4 ,! prie/ ( ,rome wor%ips a ,savi\r call$ ,*ri/4 ,yes2 b t ,*ri/ is n ! ,*ri/ ( ! gospel4 ,x is a false & newly-inv5t$ ,*ri/ :om ! ,popes h smuggl$ f ! ,pan!on ( ,rome1 & sacrilegi\sly call$ by ! adorable "n ( our ,savi\r ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,i h (t5 be5 ask$3 8,0 x possible t y s9c]ely believ$ t ! waf] c\ld be *ang$ into ,god by y80 ,&1 8,h y really wor%ipp$ t waf] z y\r ,savi\r80 ,to my %ame1 & to ! %ame ( poor humanity1 ,i mu/ say 8,yes40 ,i believ$ z s9c]ely z e ,roman ,ca?olic prie/ is b\nd to believe x1 t ,i 0 creat+ my own ,savi\r-,god e morn+ by ! assum$ consecration ( ! waf]2 & ,i 0 say+ to ! p1 z ,i pres5t$ x to !m1 8,ecce agnus ,dei0--8,?is is ! ,lamb ( ,god1 :o takes away ! s9s ( ! _w2 let u adore him0--pro/rat+ myself on my knees1 ,i 0 ador+ ! ,god made by myself1 ) ! help ( my s]vant2 & all ! p pro/rat$ !mselves to adore ! newly-made god6 ,i mu/ confess1 fur!r1 t ?\gh ,i 0 b\nd to believe 9 ! exi/5ce ( ,*ri/ 9 heav51 & 0 invit$ by my ,*ur* to wor%ip ,him z my ,savi\r & my ,god1 ,i _h1 z e ,roman ,ca?olic has1 m confid5ce1 fai? & love t[>ds ! ,*ri/ :i* ,i _h creat$ ) a few words ( my lips1 ?an t[>ds ! ,*ri/ ( heav54 ,my ,*ur* told me1 e day ( my life1 & ,i _h to believe & prea* x1 t ?\gh ! ,*ri/ ( heav5 0 my ,savi\r1 ,he 0 angry aga9/ me on acc\nt ( my s9s2 t ,he 0 con/antly dispos$ to puni% me accord+ to ,8 t]rible ju/ice2 t ,he 0 arm$ ) lightn+ & ?und] to cru% me2 & t1 7 x n = ,8 "m1 :o day & night 0 int]c$+ = me1 ,i %\ld be ca/ into t hell :i* my s9s _h s ri*ly des]v$4 ,all ! !ologians1 ) ,/4 ,liguori at _! head1 ^: writ+s ,i 0 e>ne/ly /udy+1 & :i* _h receiv$ ! approbation ( infallible popes1 p]suad$ me t x 0 ,m>y :om ,i _h to ?ank & bless1 if ,i _h n yet be5 puni%$ z ,i des]v$4 ,n only _h ,i to believe ?is doctr9e1 b ,i _h to prea* x to ! p4 ,! result 0 = me1 z x is = e ,roman ,ca?olic1 t my he>t 0 really *ill$1 & ,i 0 fill$ ) t]ror e "t ,i look$ to ! ,*ri/ ( heav5 ?r\gh ! lights & tea*+s ( my ,*ur*4 ,he c\ld n1 z ,i believ$1 look to me except ) an angry face2 ,he c\ld n /ret* out ,8 h& t[>ds me except to cru% me1 unless ,8 m]ciful "m or "s o!r mighty sa9t int]pos$ _! sav+ supplications to appease ,8 j indignation4 ,:5 ,i 0 pray+ to t ,*ri/ ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 my m9d 0 con/antly p]plex$ ab\t ! *oice ,i %\ld make ( "s p[]ful protector1 ^: influ5ce c\ld get me a favorable he>+ f my irritat$ ,savi\r4 ,besides ?is1 ,i 0 told1 & ,i _h to believe x1 t ! ,*ri/ ( heav5 0 a mighty mon>*1 a mo/ glori\s k+ surr\nd$ by innum]able ho/s ( s]vants1 (fic]s & fri5ds1 & t1 z x w\ld n d = a poor rebel to pres5t himself be=e 8 irritat$ ,k+ to get 8 p>don1 b he mu/ address himself to "s ( ,8 mo/ influ5tial c\rti]s1 or to ,8 belov$ "m1 to :om no?+ c be refus$1 t !y might plead 8 cause2 s ,i s9c]ely believ$ t x 0 bett] = me n to speak myself to ,jesus ,*ri/1 b to look = "s "o :o w\ld speak = me4 ,b !re w\ld be no su* t]rors or fe>s 9 my he>t :5 ,i approa*$ ! ,savi\r :om ,i _h creat$ myself6 ,su* an humble & def5celess ,savi\r1 surely1 _h no ?und] 9 ,8 h&s to puni% ,8 enemies4 ,he c\ld h no angry looks = me4 ,he 0 my fri5d1 z well z ! "w ( my h&s4 ,!re 0 no?+ 9 ,him :i* c\ld inspire me ) any fe>4 ,_h ,i n br\ght ,him d[n f heav58 ,& _h ,he n come into my h&s t ,he might he>1 bless & =give me8--t ,he might be ne>] to me1 & ,i ne>] to ,him8 ,:5 ,i 0 9 ,8 pres5ce1 9 t solit>y *ur*1 !re 0 no ne$ ( (fic]s1 ( c\rti]s1 ( mo!rs to speak to ,him = me4 ,he 0 no long] !re a mighty mon>*1 an angry k+1 :o c\ld be approa*$ only by ! great (fic]s ( ,8 c\rt2 ,he 0 n[ ! rebuk$ ( ! _w1 ! humble & def5celess ,savi\r ( ! mang]1 ! =sak5 ,jesus ( ,calv>y1 ! =gott5 ,*ri/ ( ,ge?semane4 ,no words c give any idea ( ! pleasure ,i us$ to feel :51 alone1 pro/rat$ be=e ! ,*ri/ :om ,i _h made at ! morn+ mass1 ,i p\r$ out my he>t at ,8 feet4 ,x is impossible = ^? :o h n liv$ "u ^? t]rible illusions to und]/& ) :at confid5ce ,i spoke to ! ,*ri/ :o 0 !n be=e me1 b\nd by ! ties ( ,8 love = me6 ,h[ _m times1 9 ! cold] days ( w9t]1 9 *ur*es :i* _h nev] se5 any fire1 ) an atmosph]e #ae degrees bel[ z]o1 _h ,i pass$ :ole h\rs alone1 9 adoration ( ! ,savi\r :om ,i _h made only a few h\rs be=e6 ,h[ (t5 h ,i look$ ) sil5t admiration to ! ,div9e ,p]son :o 0 !re alone1 pass+ ! long h\rs ( ! day & night1 rebuk$ & =sak51 t ,i might h an opportunity ( approa*+ ,him1 & ( speak+ to ,him z a fri5d to 8 fri5d1 z a rep5t+ s9n] to 8 m]ciful ,savi\r4 ,my fai?--,i %\ld r say my awful delusion1 0 !n s complete t ,i sc>cely felt ! bit+ ( ! cold6 ,i may say ) tru?1 t ! happie/ h\rs ,i ev] _h1 dur+ ! long ye>s ( d>kness into :i* ! ,*ur* ( ,rome _h plung$ me1 7 ! h\rs :i* ,i pass$ 9 ador+ ! ,*ri/ :om ,i _h made ) my own lips4 ,& e prie/ ( ,rome w\ld make ! same decl>ation1 7 !y que/ion$ on ! subject4 ,x is a simil> pr9ciple ( mon/r\s fai? t leads wid[s 9 ,india to leap ) cries ( joy into ! fire :i* w burn !m into a%es ) ! bodies ( _! deceas$ husb&s4 ,_! prie/s h assur$ !m t su* a sacrifice w secure et]nal happ9ess to !mselves & _! dep>t$ husb&s4 ,9 fact1 ! ,roman ,ca?olics h no o!r ,savi\r to :om !y c betake !mselves ?an ! "o made by ! consecration ( ! waf]4 ,he is ! only ,savi\r :o is n angry ) !m1 & :o does n require ! m$iation ( virg9s & sa9ts to appease ,8 wra?4 ,?is is ! reason :y ,roman ,ca?olic *ur*es are s well fill$ by ! poor bl9d ,roman ,ca?olics4 ,see h[ !y ru% to ! foot ( _! alt>s at almo/ e h\r ( ! day1 sometimes long be=e ! dawn6 ,g to "s ( _! *ur*es1 ev5 on a ra9y & /ormy morn+1 & y w see cr[ds ( wor%ipp]s1 ( e age & f e grade ( society1 brav+ ! /orm & ! ra91 walk+ ?r\gh ! mud to pass an h\r at ! foot ( _! tab]nacles6 ,h[ is x t ! ,roman ,ca?olics1 alone1 (f] su* a spectacle to ! civiliz$ _w8 ,! reason is v simple & pla94 ,e s\l ye>ns = a ,god to :om x c speak1 & :o w he> its supplications ) a m]ciful he>t1 & :o w wipe away h] p5it5tial te>s4 ,j z ! fl[]s ( our g>d5s turn naturally t[>ds ! sun :i* gives !m _! color1 _! fragrance & _! life1 s e s\l wants a ,savi\r :o is n angry b m]ciful t[>ds ^? :o come unto ,him--,a ,savi\r :o w say to ! we>y & heavy lad53 8,come unto me1 & ,i w give y re/40--,a ,god1 9 f9e1 :o is n arm$ ) ,?und] & ,lightn+1 & does n require to be approa*$ only by sa9ts1 virg9s & m>tyrs2 b :o1 ?r\gh 8 son ,jesus1 is ! real1 ! true & ! only fri5d ( ,s9n]s4 ,:5 ! p ?9k t !re is su* a ,god1--su* a lov+ ,savi\r to be f\nd 9 ! tab]nacle1 x is b natural t !y %\ld brave ! /orms & ! ra9s1 to wor%ip at 8 feet1 to receive ! p>don ( _! s9s4 ,! *ildr5 ( light1 ! disciples ( ! gospel1 :o prote/ aga9/ ! errors ( ,rome1 "k t _! ,heav5ly ,fa!r is ev]y:]e ready to he>1 =give & help !m4 ,!y "k t x is no m 8at ,j]usalem1 nor on ?is or t m\nta910 or at *ur* t ,god wants to be wor%ipp$ 7,john iv4 #ba47 ,!y "k t _! ,savi\r live?1 & is ev]y:]e ready to he> ^? :o invoke ,8 "n2 t ,he is no m 9 t des]t1 or 9 t secret *amb] 7,matt4 xxiv47 ,!y "k t ,he is ev]y:]e--t ,he is ev] ne> to ^? :o look to 8 ble$+ w\nds & want to wa% _! robes 9 ,8 blood4 ,!y f9d ,jesus 9 _! mo/ secret closets :5 !y ent] !m to pray2--!y meet ,him & conv]se ) ,him :5 9 ! fields1 beh9d ! c\nt]1 travel+ on railroads or /eam]s--ev]y:]e !y meet ) ,him1 & speak to ,him z fri5d to fri5d4 ,x is n s ) ! foll[]s ( ! ,pope4 ,!y are told contr>y to ! gospel 7,matt4 xxiv4 #bb471 t ,*ri/ is 9 ?is ,*ur*--9 t secret *amb] or tab]nacle6 ,cruelly deceiv$ by _! prie/s1 !y run1 !y brave ! /orms to g z ne> z possible to t place :]e _! m]ciful ,*ri/ lives4 ,!y g to ! ,*ri/ :o w give !m a he>ty welcome1 :o w li/5 to _! humble pray]s1 & be compassionate to _! te>s ( rep5tance4 ,let ,prote/ants cease to admire poor delud$ ,roman ,ca?olics :o d>e ! /orm & g to *ur* ev5 be=e ! dawn ( day4 ,?is devotion1 :i* s dazzles !m1 %\ld excite compassion1 & n admiration2 = x is ! logical result ( ! mo/ awful spiritual d>kness4 ,x is ! (fspr+ ( ! greate/ impo/ure ! _w has ev] se51 x is ! natural consequ5ce ( ! belief t ! prie/ ( ,rome c create ,*ri/ & ,god by ! consecration ( a waf]1 & keep ,him 9 a secret *amb]4 ,! ,egyptians wor%ipp$ ,god "u ! =m ( crocodiles & calves3 ,! ,greeks made _! gods ( m>ble or ( gold3 ,! ,p]sian made ! sun 8 god3 ,! ,hott5tots make _! gods ) :ale-bone1 & g f> ?r\gh ! /orms to adore !m3 ,! ,*ur* ( ,rome makes h] god out ( a piece ( bread6 ,is ?is n idolatry8 ,f ! ye> #ahcc1 to ! day t ,god 9 8 m]cy op5$ my eyes1 my s]vant _h us$ m ?an a bu%el ( :eat fl\r1 to make ! little cakes :i* ,i _h to conv]t into ! ,*ri/ ( ! mass4 ,"s ( ^! ,i ate2 o!rs ,i c>ri$ ab\t ) me = ! sick2 & o!rs ,i plac$ 9 ! tab]nacle = ! adoration ( ! p4 ,i am (t5 ask$3--8,h[ is x t y c\ld be guilty ( su* a gross act ( idolatry80 ,my only answ] is ! answ] ( ! bl9d man ( ! gospel3 8,i "k n1 only ?is "o ?+ ,i "k1 t ,i 0 bl9d1 & c\ld n see4 ,b ,jesus has t\*$ my eyes & n[ ,i see40 7,john ix4 ii74 ,,*apt] ,,xviii4 ,,n9e ,,/>tl+ ,,consequ5ces ,,( ,,! ,,dogma ,,( ,,transub/antiation--,,! ,,old ,,paganism ,,"u ,a ,,*ri/ian ,,"n4 ,on ! day ( my ord9ation to ! prie/hood1 ,i _h to believe1 ) all ! prie/s ( ,rome1 t x 0 )9 ! limits ( my p[]s to g into all ! bak]ies ( ,quebec1 & *ange all ! loaves & biscuits 9 t old city1 into ! body1 blood1 s\l & div9ity ( our ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/1 by pron\nc+ ov] !m ! five words3 ,,hoc ,,e/ ,,enim ,,corpus ,,meum4 ,no?+ w\ld h rema9$ ( ^! loaves & biscuits b ! smell1 ! color1 ! ta/e4 #b4 ,e bi%op & prie/ ( ! cities ( ,new ,york & ,bo/on1 ,*icago1 ,montreal1 ,p>is & ,london1 etc41 firmly believes & tea*es t he has ! p[] to turn all ! loaves ( _! cities1 ( _! dioceses1 nay1 ( ! :ole _w1 into ! body1 blood1 s\l & div9ity ( our ,savi\r ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,&1 ?\gh !y h nev] yet f\nd x advisable to d t wond]ful miracle1 !y consid]1 & say1 t to ent]ta9 any d\bt ab\t ! p[] to p]=m t m>vel1 is z crim9al z to ent]ta9 any d\bt ab\t ! exi/5ce ( ,god4 #c4 ,:5 9 ! ,sem9>y ( ,nicolet1 ,i he>d1 sev]al times1 our ,sup]ior1 ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,raimbault1 tell u t a ,fr5* prie/ hav+ be5 condemn$ to dea? 9 ,p>is1 :5 dragg$ to ! scaffold _h1 ?r\gh rev5ge1 consecrat$ & *ang$ into ,jesus ,*ri/ all ! loaves ( ! bak]ies ( t great city :i* 7 along ! /reets ?r\gh :i* he _h to pass2 & ?\gh our le>n$ sup]ior condemn$ t action 9 ! /ronge/ t]ms1 yet he told u t ! consecration 0 valid1 & t ! loaves 7 really *ang$ into ! body1 blood1 s\l & div9ity ( ! ,savi\r ( ! _w4 ,& ,i 0 b\nd to believe x "u pa9 ( et]nal damnation4 #d4 ,be=e my ord9ation ,i _h be5 oblig$ to le>n by he>t1 9 "o ( ! mo/ sacr$ books ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 7,missale ,romanism1 p4 #fc7 ! foll[+ /atem5t3 8,if1 aft] ! consecration1 ! consecrat$ bread disappe>1 tak5 away by ! w9d1 or ?r\gh any miracle2 or dragg$ away by an animal1 let ! prie/ take a new bread1 consecrate x1 & cont9ue 8 mass40 ,& at page #eg ,i _h le>n$1 8,if a fly or spid] fall into ! *alice1 aft] ! consecration1 let ! prie/ take & eat x1 if he does n feel an insurm\ntable repugnance2 b if he _c swall[ x1 let him wa% x & burn x & ?r[ ! a%es into ! sacr>ium40 #e4 ,9 ! mon? ( ,janu>y1 #ahcd1 ,i he>d ! foll[+ fact f ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,paquette1 curate ( ,/4 ,g]vais1 at a gr& d9n] :i* he _h giv5 to ! neighbor+ prie/s3 8,:5 "y1 ,i 0 ! vic> ( a curate :o c\ld eat z mu* z two ( u1 & dr9k z mu* z f\r4 ,he 0 tall & /rong1 & he has left ! d>k m>ks ( 8 h>d fi/s on ! nose ( m ?an "o ( 8 belov$ %eep2 = 8 ang] 0 really t]rible aft] he drank 8 bottle ( w9e4 8,"o day1 aft] a sumptu\s d9n]1 he 0 call$ to c>ry ! good god 7,le ,bon ,dieu71 to a dy+ man4 ,x 0 mid-w9t]4 ,! cold 0 int5se4 ,! w9d 0 bl[+ h>d4 ,!re 0 at lea/ five or six feet ( sn[1 & ! roads 7 almo/ impassable4 ,x 0 really a s]i\s matt] to travel n9e miles on su* a day1 b !re 0 no help4 ,! mess5g] 0 "o ( ! fir/ m>guilli]s 7eld]s7 :o 0 v press+1 & ! dy+ man 0 "o ( ! fir/ citiz5s ( ! place4 ,! curate1 aft] a few grumbl+s1 drank a tumbl] ( good ,jamaica ) 8 m>guilli] z a prev5tative aga9/ ! cold1 w5t to *ur*1 took ! good god 7,le ,bon ,dieu71 & ?rew himself into ! sleigh2 wrapp$ z well z possible 9 8 l>ge buffalo robes4 8,?\gh !re 7 two horses1 "o be=e ! o!r1 to drag ! sleigh1 ! j\rney 0 a long & t$i\s "o1 :i* 0 made /ill worse by an unlucky circum/ance4 ,!y 7 met half-way by ano!r travel] com+ f ! opposite direction4 ,! road 0 too n>r[ to all[ ! two sleighs & horses to rema9 easily on firm gr\nd :5 pass+ by ea* o!r1 & x w\ld h requir$ a good deal ( skill & pati5ce 9 driv+ ! horses to prev5t !m f fall+ into ! s(t sn[4 ,x is well kn[n t :5 once horses are sunk into five or six feet ( sn[1 ! m !y /ruggle ! deep] !y s9k4 8,! m>guilli]1 :o 0 c>ry+ ! #8good god1' ) ! cure1 naturally hop$ to h ! privilege ( keep+ ! middle ( ! road & escap+ ! dang] ( gett+ 8 horses w\nd$1 & 8 sleigh brok54 ,he cri$ to ! o!r travel]1 9 a high tone ( au?ority3 8,travel]6 let me h ! road4 ,turn y\r horses into ! sn[6 ,make ha/e1 ,i am 9 a hurry4 ,i c>ry ! good god60 8,un=tunately ! travel] 0 a h]etic1 :o c>$ mu* m = 8 horses ?an = ! 8good god40 ,he answ]$3 8,le ,diable emporte ton ,bon ,dieu avant que je ne casse le c\ de mon *eval60 8,! devil take y\r god be=e ,i cons5t to break ! neck ( my horse4 ,if y\r god has n taught y ! rules ( law & ( common s5se1 ,i w give y a free lecture on t matt]10 & jump+ out ( 8 sleigh1 he took ! re9s ( ! front horse ( ! m>guilli] to help him to walk on ! side ( ! road1 & keep ! half ( x = himself4 8,b ! m>guilli]1 :o 0 naturally a v impati5t & fe>less man1 _h drank too mu* ) my curate1 be=e he left ! p>sonage1 to keep cool1 z he ought to h done4 ,he also jump$ out ( 8 sleigh1 ran to ! /rang]1 took 8 cravat 9 8 left h& & rais$ 8 "r "o to /rike him 9 ! face4 8,un=tunately = him1 ! h]etic seem$ to h =ese5 all ?is4 ,he _h left 8 ov]coat 9 ! sleigh & 0 m ready = ! conflict ?an 8 assailant4 ,he 0 also a real giant 9 size & /r5g?4 ,z quick z lightn+ 8 "r & left fi/s fell l iron masses on ! face ( ! poor m>guilli]1 & ?rew him on 8 back 9 ! s(t sn[1 :]e he almo/ disappe>$4 8,till !n ! curate _h be5 a sil5t spectator2 b ! sight & ! cries ( 8 fri5d1 :om ! /rang] 0 pommell+ )\t m]cy1 made him lose 8 pati5ce4 ,tak+ ! little silk bag :i* conta9$ ! #8good god' f ab\t 8 neck1 :]e x 0 ti$1 he put x on ! seat ( ! sleigh1 & said3 #8,de> good god6 ,please rema9 neutral2 ,i mu/ help my m>guilli]6 ,take no "p 9 ?is conflict1 & ,i w puni% t infam\s ,prote/ant z he des]ves4' 8,b ! un=tunate m>guilli] 0 entirely put hors de combat be=e ! curate c\ld g to 8 help4 ,8 face 0 horribly cut--?ree tee? 7 brok5--! l[] jaw dislocat$1 & ! eyes 7 s t]ribly damag$ t x took sev]al days be=e he c\ld see any?+4 8,:5 ! h]etic saw ! prie/ com+ to r5ew ! battle1 he ?rew d[n 8 o!r coat to be fre] 9 8 movem5ts4 ,! curate _h n be5 s wise4 ,rely+ too mu* on 8 h]culean /r5g?1 cov]$ ) 8 heavy ov]coat1 on :i* 0 8 :ite surplice1 he ?rew himself on ! /rang]1 l a big rock :i* falls f ! m\nta9 & rolls ^u ! oak bel[4 8,bo? ( ^! combatants 7 real giants1 & ! fir/ bl[s mu/ h be5 t]rible on bo? sides4 ,b ! #8infam\s h]etic' probably _h n drank s mu* z my curate be=e leav+ home1 or p]haps he 0 m exp]t 9 ! ex*ange ( ^! bloody jokes4 ,! battle 0 long & ! blood fl[$ pretty freely on bo? sides4 ,! cries ( ! combatants might h be5 he>d at a long di/ance1 7 x n = ! ro>+ noise ( ! w9d1 :i* at t in/ant 0 bl[+ a hurricane4 8,! /orm1 ! cries1 ! bl[s1 ! blood1 ! surplice & ! ov]coat ( ! prie/ torn to rags1 ! %irt ( ! /rang] r$d5$ ) gore1 made su* a t]rible spectacle1 t 9 ! end ! horses ( ! m>guilli]1 ?\gh well-tra9$ animals1 took fright & ?rew !mselves into ! sn[1 turn$ _! backs to ! /orm & made = home4 ,!y dragg$ ! fragm5ts ( ! upset sleigh a pretty long di/ance1 & arriv$ at ! door ( _! /able ) only "s dim9utive p>ts ( ! h>ness4 8,! #8good god' _h evid5tly he>d ! pray] ( my curate1 & he _h rema9$ neutral2 at all ev5ts he _h n tak5 ! "p ( 8 prie/1 = he lo/ ! day1 & ! infam\s ,prote/ant rema9$ ma/] ( ! battle-field4 8,! curate _h to help 8 m>guilli] out ( ! sn[ 9 :i* he 0 buri$1 & :]e he _h la9 l a slaught]$ ox4 ,bo? _h to walk1 or r crawl1 ne>ly half a mile 9 sn[ to _! knees1 be=e !y c\ld rea* ! ne>e/ f>mh\se1 :]e !y arriv$ :5 x 0 d>k4 8,b ! wor/ is n told4 ,y rememb] :5 my curate _h put ! box conta9+ ! #8good god' on ! seat ( ! sleigh1 be=e go+ to fight4 ,! horses _h dragg$ ! sleigh a c]ta9 di/ance1 upset & sma%$ x4 ,! little silk bag1 ) ! silv] box & its preci\s cont5ts1 0 lo/ 9 ! sn[1 & ?\gh sev]al hundr$ p _h look$ = x1 sev]al days at diff]5t times1 x c\ld n be f\nd4 ,x 0 only late 9 ! mon? ( ,june1 t a little boy1 see+ "s rags 9 ! mud ( ! dit*1 along ! highway1 lift$ !m & a little silv] box fell out4 ,suspect+ t x 0 :at ! p _h look$ = s _m days dur+ ! la/ w9t]1 he took x to ! p>sonage4 8,i 0 !re :5 x 0 op5$2 we _h ! hope t ! #8good god' w\ld be f\nd pretty intact1 b we 7 doom$ to be disappo9t$1 ,! good god 0 entirely melt$ away4 ,le ,bon ,dieu etait fondu60 ,dur+ ! recital ( t spicy /ory1 :i* 0 told 9 ! mo/ amus+ & comical way1 ! prie/s _h drunk freely & laugh$ he>tily4 ,b :5 ! conclusion came3 8,le ,bon ,dieu etait fondu60 8,! good god 0 melt$ away60 ,!re 0 a bur/ ( laught] su* z ,i nev] he>d--! prie/s /rik+ ! floor ) _! feet1 & ! table ) _! h&s1 fill$ ! h\se ) ! cries1 8,! good god melt$ away60 8,! good god melt$ away60 8,le ,bon ,dieu e/ fondu60 8,le ,bon ,dieu e/ fondu60 ,yes1 ! god ( ,rome1 dragg$ away by a drunk5 prie/1 & really melt$ away 9 ! muddy dit*4 ,?is glori\s fact 0 proclaim$ by 8 own prie/s 9 ! mid/ ( convulsive laught]1 & at tables cov]$ ) scores ( bottles j empti$ by !m6 #f4 ,ab\t ! middle ( ,m>*1 #ahci1 ,i _h "o ( ! mo/ un=tunate days ( my ,roman ,ca?olic prie/ly life4 ,at ab\t two o'clock 9 ! aft]noon1 a poor ,iri%man _h come 9 ha/e f beyond ! high m\nta9s1 betwe5 ,lake ,beauport & ! riv] ,mor5cy1 to ask me to g & ano9t a dy+ woman4 ,x took me t5 m9utes to run to ! *ur*1 put ! 8good god0 9 ! little silv] box1 %ut ! :ole 9 my ve/ pocket & jump into ! ,iri%man's r\gh sleigh4 ,! roads 7 exce$+ly bad1 & we _h to g v sl[ly4 ,at #g p4 m4 we 7 yet m ?an ?ree miles f ! sick woman's h\se4 ,x 0 v d>k1 & ! horse 0 s exhau/$ t x 0 impossible to g any fur!r ?r\gh ! gloomy =e/4 ,i det]m9$ to pass ! night at a poor ,iri% cab9 :i* 0 ne> ! road4 ,i knock$ at ! door1 ask$ hospitality1 & 0 welcom$ ) t w>m-he>t$ demon/ration ( respect :i* ! ,roman ,ca?olic ,iri%man kn[s1 bett] ?an any o!r man1 h[ to pay to 8 prie/s4 ,! %anty1 tw5ty-f\r feet long by sixte5 wide1 0 built ) r\nd logs1 betwe5 :i* a lib]al supply ( clay1 in/ead ( mort> _h be5 ?r[n1 to prev5t ! w9d & cold f ent]+4 ,six fat1 ?\gh n absolutely well-wa%$1 heal?y boys & girls1 half-nak$1 pres5t$ !mselves ar\nd _! good p>5ts z ! liv+ witnesses t ?is cab91 9 spite ( its ugly appe>ance1 0 really a happy home = its dwell]s4 ,besides ! eight human be+s %elt]$ b5ea? t hospitable ro(1 ,i saw1 at "o end1 a magnific5t c[ ) h] newborn calf1 & two f9e pigs4 ,^! two la/ bo>d]s 7 sep>at$ f ! re/ ( ! family only by a bran* p>tition two or ?ree feet high4 8,please y\r rev]5ce10 said ! good woman1 aft] %e _h prep>$ our supp]1 8excuse our pov]ty1 b be sure t we feel happy & mu* honor$ to h y 9 our humble dwell+ = ! night4 ,my only regret is t we h only potatoes1 milk & butt] to give y = y\r supp]4 ,9 ^! backwoods1 tea1 sug> & :eat fl\r are unkn[n luxuries40 ,i ?ank$ t good woman = h] hospitality1 & caus$ h] to rejoice n a little by assur+ h] t good potatoes1 fre% butt] & milk1 7 ! be/ delicacies :i* c\ld be (f]$ to me 9 any place4 ,i sat at ! table & ate "o ( ! mo/ delici\s supp]s ( my life4 ,! potatoes 7 exce$+ly well-cook$--! butt] cream & milk ( ! be/ quality1 & my appetite 0 n a little %>p5$ by ! long j\rney ov] ! /eep m\nta9s4 ,i _h n told ^! good p1 nor ev5 my driv]1 t ,i _h 8,le bon ,dieu10 ! good god1 ) me 9 my ve/ pocket4 ,x w\ld h made !m too uneasy1 & w\ld h add$ too mu* to my o!r difficulties4 ,:5 ! "t ( sleep+ arriv$1 ,i w5t to b$ ) all my clo?+1 & slept well2 = ,i 0 v tir$ by ! t$i\s & brok5 roads f ,beauport to ^! di/ant m\nta9s4 ,next morn+1 be=e breakfa/ & ! dawn ( day1 ,i 0 up1 & z soon z we _h a glimpse ( light to see our way1 ,i left = ! h\se ( ! sick woman1 aft] (f]+ a sil5t pray]4 ,i _h n travel$ a qu>t] ( a mile :5 ,i put my h& into my ve/ pocket1 & to my indescribable dismay1 ,i f\nd t ! little silv] box conta9+ ! 8good god0 0 miss+4 ,a cold sweat ran ?r\gh my frame4 ,i told my driv] to /op & turn back imm$iately1 t ,i _h lo/ some?+ :i* might be f\nd 9 ! b$ :]e ,i _h slept4 ,x did n take five m9utes to retrace our way4 ,on op5+ ! door ,i f\nd ! poor woman & h] husb& almo/ besides !mselves1 & di/ress$ beyond measure4 ,!y 7 pale & trembl+ z crim9als :o expect$ to be condemn$4 8,did y n f9d a little silv] box aft] ,i left80 ,i said4 8,o1 my ,god60 answ]$ ! desolate woman1 8,yes1 ,i h f\nd x1 b w\ld to ,god ,i _h nev] se5 x4 ,!re x is40 8,b :y d y regret f9d+ x1 :5 ,i am too happy to f9d x "h1 safe 9 y\r h&s80 ,i repli$4 8,ah6 y\r rev]5ce1 y d n "k :at a t]rible mis=tune has j happ5$ to me n m ?an half a m9ute be=e y knock$ at ! door40 8,:at mis=tune c h fall5 ^u y 9 s %ort a "t10 ,i answ]$4 8,well1 please y\r rev]5ce1 op5 ! little box & y w und]/& me40 ,i op5$ x1 b ! 8good god0 0 n 9 x66 ,look+ 9 ! face ( ! poor di/ress$ woman1 ,i ask$ h]1 8,:at does ?is mean8 ,x is empty60 8,x means10 answ]$ %e1 8t ,i am ! mo/ un=tunate ( wom56 ,n m ?an five m9utes aft] y _h left ! h\se1 ,i w5t to y\r b$ & f\nd t little box4 ,n kn[+ :at x 01 ,i %[$ x to my *ildr5 & to my husb&4 ,i ask$ him to op5 x1 b he refus$ to d x4 ,i !n turn$ x on e side1 try+ to guess :at x c\ld conta92 till ! devil tempt$ me s mu* t ,i det]m9$ to op5 x4 ,i came to ?is corn]1 :]e ?is pale lamp is us$ to rema9 on t little %elf1 & ,i op5$ x4 ,b1 ,o1 my ,god2 ,i d n d>e to tell ! re/40 ,at ^! words %e fell on ! floor 9 a fit ( n]v\s excitem5t--h] cries 7 pi]c+1 h] m\? 0 foam+4 ,%e 0 cruelly te>+ h] hair ) h] own h&s4 ,! %rieks & lam5tations ( ! *ildr5 7 s di/ress+ t ,i c\ld h>dly prev5t myself f cry+ also4 ,aft] a few mom5ts ( ! mo/ agoniz+ anxiety1 see+ t ! poor woman 0 becom+ calm1 ,i address$ myself to ! husb&1 & said3 8,please give me ! explanation ( ^! /range ?+s80 ,he c\ld h>dly speak at fir/1 b z ,i 0 v press+1 he told me ) a trembl+ voice3 8,please y\r rev]5ce2 look into t vessel t ! *ildr5 use1 & y w p]haps und]/& our desolation6 ,:5 my wife op5$ ! little silv] box1 %e did n obs]ve ! vessel 0 !re1 j b5ea? h] h&s4 ,9 ! op5+1 :at 0 9 ! silv] box fell into t vase1 & sank6 ,we 7 all fill$ ) con/]nation :5 y knock$ at ! door & ent]$40 ,i felt /ruck ) su* unspeakable horror at ! ?\ght t ! body1 blood1 s\l & div9ity ( my ,savi\r1 ,jesus ,*ri/1 0 !re1 sunk into t vase1 t ,i rema9$ spee*less1 & = a long "t did n "k :at to d4 ,at fir/ x came to my m9d to plunge my h&s into ! vase & try to get my ,savi\r out ( t sepul*re ( ignom9y4 ,b ,i c\ld n mu/] c\rage to d s4 ,at la/ ,i reque/$ ! poor desolat$ family to dig a hole ?ree feet deep 9 ! gr\nd1 & deposit x1 ) its cont5ts1 & ,i left ! h\se1 aft] ,i _h =bidd5 !m f ev] say+ a ^w ab\t t awful calamity4 #g4 ,9 "o ( ! mo/ sacr$ books ( ! laws & regulations ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome 7,missale ,romanism71 we read1 page #eh1 8,if ! prie/ aft] ! communion vomit1 & t 9 ! vomit$ matt] ! consecrat$ bread appe>s1 let him swall[ :at he has vomit$4 ,b if he feels too mu* repugnance to swall[ x1 let him sep>ate ! body ( ,*ri/ 7! consecrat$ bread71 f ! vomit$ matt]1 till x be entirely corrupt$1 & !n ?r[ x into ! sacr>ium40 #h4 ,:5 a prie/ ( ,rome1 ,i 0 b\nd1 ) all ! ,roman ,ca?olics1 to believe t ,*ri/ _h tak5 ,8 own body1 ) 8 own h& to ,8 m\?6 & t he _h eat5 ,himself1 n 9 a spiritual1 b 9 a sub/antial1 mat]ial way6 ,aft] eat+ himself1 he _h giv5 himself to ea* "o ( 8 apo/les1 :o !n ate him also66 #i4 ,be=e clos+ ?is *apt]1 let ! read] all[ me to ask him1 if ! _w 9 its d>ke/ ages ( paganism has ev] witness$ su* a sy/em ( idolatry1 s debas+1 impi\s1 ridicul\s & diabolical 9 its consequ5ces z ! ,*ur* ( ,rome tea*es 9 ! dogma ( transub/antiation6 ,:51 ) ! light ( ! gospel 9 h&1 ! ,*ri/ian goes into ^? horrible recesses ( sup]/ition1 folly & impiety1 he c h>dly believe :at 8 eyes see & 8 e>s he>4 ,x seems impossible t m5 c cons5t to wor%ip a god :om ! rats c eat6 ,a god :o c be dragg$ away & lo/ 9 a muddy dit* by a drunk5 prie/6 ,a god :o c be eat51 vomit$1 & eat5 aga9 by ^? :o are c\rage\s en\gh to eat aga9 :at !y h vomit$66 ,! religion ( ,rome is n a religion3 x is ! mock]y1 ! de/ruction1 ! ignom9i\s c>ricature ( religion4 ,! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 z a public fact1 is no?+ b ! accompli%m5t ( ! awful prophecy3 8,because !y receive n ! love ( ! tru? t !y might be sav$1 ,god %all s5d !m /rong delusions t !y might believe a lie40 7#b ,!ss4 ii4 x4 xi47 ,,*apt] ,,xix4 ,,vic>age ,,& ,,life ,,at ,,/4 ,,*>les1 ,,rivi]re ,,boy]4 ,on ! #bd? ,septemb]1 #ahcc1 ,rev4 ,mr4 ,casault1 secret>y ( ! bi%op ( ,quebec1 pres5t$ to me ! (ficial lett]s :i* nam$ me ! vic> ( ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,p]ras1 ar*-prie/1 & curate ( ,/4 ,*>les1 ,rivi]re ,boy]1 & ,i 0 soon on my way1 ) a *e]ful he>t1 to fill ! po/ assign$ to me by my sup]ior4 ,! p>i% ( ,/4 ,*>les is beautifully situat$ ab\t tw5ty miles s\?-we/ ( ,quebec1 on ! banks ( a riv]1 :i* fl[s 9 its v mid/1 f nor? to s\?4 ,its l>ge f>m-h\ses & b>ns1 neatly :ite-wa%$ ) lime1 7 ! symbols ( peace & com=t4 ,! v&al axe _h n yet de/roy$ ! c5t5>y =e/s :i* cov]$ ! c\ntry4 ,on almo/ e f>m a spl5did grove ( maples _h be5 res]v$ z ! witness ( ! intellig5ce & ta/e ( ! p4 ,i _h (t5 he>d ( ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,p]ras1 z "o ( ! mo/ le>n$1 pi\s & v5]able prie/s ( ,canada4 ,i _h ev5 be5 told t sev]al ( ! gov]nors ( ,quebec _h *os5 him = ! ,fr5* tea*] ( _! *ildr54 ,:5 ,i arriv$ he 0 abs5t on a sick call1 b 8 si/] receiv$ me ) e m>k ( ref9$ polit5ess4 ,"u ! burd5 ( h] five & fifty ye>s %e _h kept all ! fre%ness & amiability ( y\?4 ,aft] a few words ( welcome1 %e %[$ me my /udy & sleep+ room4 ,!y 7 bo? p]fum$ ) ! fragrance ( two magnific5t b\quets ( ! *oice/ fl[]s1 on ! top ( "o ( :i* 0 writt5 ! words3 8,welcome to ! angel :om ! ,"l s5ds to u z 8 mess5g]40 ,! two rooms 7 ! p]fection ( neatness & com=t4 ,i %ut ! doors & fell on my knees to ?ank ,god & ! bless$ ,virg9 = hav+ giv5 me su* a home4 ,t5 m9utes lat] ,i came back to ! l>ge p>lor1 :]e ,i f\nd ,miss ,p]ras wait+ = me1 to (f] me a glass ( w9e & "s excell5t 8pa9 de savoie10 z x 0 ! univ]sal cu/om1 !n1 to d 9 e respectable h\se4 ,%e !n told me h[ h] bro!r1 ! curate1 & h]self 7 happy :5 !y he>d t ,i 0 to come & live ) !m4 ,%e _h kn[n my "m be=e h] m>riage1 & %e told me h[ %e _h pass$ sev]al happy days 9 h] company4 ,%e c\ld n speak to me ( any subject m int]e/+1 ?an my "m2 =1 ?\gh %e _h di$ a few ye>s be=e1 %e _h nev] ceas$ to be pres5t to my m9d1 & ne> & de> to my he>t4 ,miss ,p]ras _h n spok5 long :5 ! curate arriv$4 ,i rose to meet him1 b x is impossible to adequately express :at ,i felt at t mom5t4 ,! ,israelites 7 h>dly /ruck ) m awe :5 !y saw ,moses com+ d[n f ,m\nt ,s9ai1 ?an ,i 0 at ! fir/ sight ,i _h ( t v5]able man4 ,rev4 ,mr4 ,p]ras 0 !n ab\t sixty-five ye>s old4 ,he 0 a tall man--almo/ a giant4 ,no army (fic]1 no k+ ev] bore 8 head ) m dignity4 ,b 8 beautiful blue eyes1 :i* 7 ! embodim5t ( k9dness1 temp]$ ! dignity ( 8 mi54 ,8 hair1 :i* 0 beg9n+ to :it51 _h n yet lo/ its gold5 lu/re4 ,x seem$ z if silv] & gold 7 mix$ on 8 head to adorn & beautify x4 ,!re 0 on 8 face an expression ( peace1 calm1 piety & k9dness1 :i* entirely won my he>t & respect4 ,:51 ) a smile on 8 lips1 he ext5d$ 8 h&s t[>ds me1 ,i felt beside myself1 ,i fell on my knees & said3 8,mr4 ,p]ras1 ,god s5ds me to y t y may be my tea*] & my fa!r4 ,y w h to guide my fir/ & inexp]i5c$ /eps 9 ! holy m9i/ry4 ,d bless me & pray t ,i may be a good prie/ z y are y\rself40 ,t unprem$itat$ & e>ne/ act ( m9e1 s t\*$ ! good old prie/1 t he c\ld h>dly speak4 ,lean+ t[>ds me1 he rais$ me up & press$ me to 8 bosom1 & ) a voice trembl+ ) emotion he said1 8,may ,god bless y1 my de> sir1 & may he also be bless$ = hav+ *os5 y to help me c>ry ! burd5 ( ! holy m9i/ry 9 my old age40 ,aft] half-an-h\r ( ! mo/ int]e/+ conv]sation1 he %[$ me 8 libr>y1 :i* 0 v l>ge & compos$ ( ! be/ books :i* a prie/ ( ,rome is all[$ to read2 & he v k9dly put x at my s]vice4 ,next morn+1 aft] breakfa/1 he h&$ me a l>ge & neat %eet ( pap]1 head$ by ^! lat9 words3 8,,ordo ,,ducit ,,ad ,,deum40 ,x 0 ! rule ( life :i* he _h impos$ ^u himself1 to guide all ! h\rs ( ! day 9 su* a way t n a mom5t c\ld be giv5 to idl5ess or va9 pa/ime4 8,w\ld y be k9d en\gh10 he said1 8to read ?is & tell me if x suits y\r views8 ,i h f\nd great spiritual & temporal b5efits 9 foll[+ ^! rules ( life1 & w\ld be v happy if my de> "y coadjutor w\ld unite ) me 9 walk+ 9 ! ways ( an ord]ly1 ,*ri/ian & prie/ly life4 ,i read ?is docum5t ) int]e/ & pleasure1 & h&$ x back to him say+3 8,i w be v happy1 ) ! help ( ,god1 to foll[ ) y ! wise rules set d[n "h = a holy & prie/ly life40 ,?9k+ t ^! rules might be int]e/+ to ! read]1 ,i give !m "h 9 full3 #a4 ,ris+1 #e4cj a4 m4 #b4 ,pray] & m$itation #f to #f4cj a4 m4 #c4 ,mass1 he>+ confession & recitation ( brev>ium #f4cj to #h a4 m4 #d4 ,breakfa/ #h a4 m4 #e4 ,visitation ( ! sick1 & read+ ! lives ( #h4cj to #aj a4 ! sa9ts m4 #f4 ,/udy ( philosophical1 hi/orical1 or !ological books #aa a4 m4 to #ab4 #g4 ,d9n] #ab to #ab4cj4 #h4 ,recreation & conv]sation #ab4cj to #a4cj4 #i4 ,recitation ( vesp]s #a4cj to #b p4 m4 #aj4 ,/udy ( hi/ory1 !ology or philosophy #b to #d p4 m4 #aa4 ,visit to ! holy sacram5t & read+ 8,imitation ( ,jesus ,*ri/10 #d to #d4cj p4 m4 #ab4 ,he>+ ( confessions1 or visit to ! sick1 or /udy #d4cj to #f p4 m4 #ac4 ,supp] #f to #f4cj p4 m4 #ad4 ,recreation #f4cj to #h p4 m4 #ae4 ,*aplet--read+ ( ! ,holy ,scriptures & pray] #h to #i p4 m4 #af4 ,go+ to b$ #i p4 m4 ,su* 0 our daily life dur+ ! eight mon?s :i* x 0 my privilege to rema9 ) ! v5]able ,mr4 ,p]ras1 except t ,?ursdays 7 inv>iably giv5 to visit "s ( ! neighbor+ curates1 & ! ,sabba? days sp5t 9 he>+ confessions1 & p]=m+ ! public s]vices ( ! *ur*4 ,! conv]sation ( ,mr4 ,p]ras 0 g5]ally exce$+ly int]e/+4 ,i nev] he>d f him any idle1 frivol\s talk+1 z x is s mu* ! habit among ! prie/s4 ,he 0 well v]s$ 9 ! lit]ature1 philosophy1 hi/ory & !ology ( ,rome4 ,he _h p]sonally kn[n almo/ all ! bi%ops & prie/s ( ! la/ fifty ye>s1 & 8 memory 0 well /or$ ) anecdotes & facts conc]n+ ! cl]gy1 f almo/ ! days ( ! conque/ ( ,canada4 ,i c\ld write _m int]e/+ ?+s1 7 ,i to publi% :at ,i he>d f him1 conc]n+ ! do+s ( ! cl]gy4 ,i w only give two or ?ree ( ! facts ( t int]e/+ p]iod ( ! *ur* 9 ,canada4 ,a c\ple ( mon?s be=e my arrival at ,/4 ,*>les1 ! vic> :o prec$$ me1 call$ ,lajus1 _h publicly elop$ ) "o ( 8 beautiful p5it5ts1 :o1 aft] ?ree mon?s ( public sc&al1 _h rep5t$ & come back to h] he>t-brok5 p>5ts4 ,ab\t ! same "t a neighbor+ curate1 9 :om ,i _h great confid5ce1 compromis$ himself also1 ) "o ( 8 fair p>i%ion]s1 9 a mo/ %ameful1 ?\gh less public way4 ,^! two sc&als1 :i* came to my k almo/ at ! same "t1 di/ress$ me exce$+ly1 & = ne>ly a week ,i felt s ov]:elm$ ) %ame1 t ,i dread$ to %[ my face 9 public1 & ,i almo/ regrett$ t ,i ev] became a prie/4 ,my nights 7 sleepless2 ! be/ vi&s ( ! table _h lo/ _! reli%4 ,i c\ld h>dly eat any?+4 ,my conv]sations ) ,mr4 ,p]ras _h lo/ _! *>ms4 ,i ev5 c\ld h>dly talk ) him or anybody else4 8,are y sick1 my "y fri5d80 said he to me "o day4 8,no1 sir1 ,i am n sick1 b ,i am sad40 ,he repli$1 8,c ,i "k ! cause ( y\r sadness8 ,y us$ to be s *e]ful & happy s9ce y came "h4 ,i mu/ br+ y back to y\r =m] happy frame ( m9d4 ,please tell me :at is ! matt] ) y8 ,i am an old man & ,i "k _m rem$ies = ! s\l z well z = ! body4 ,op5 y\r he>t to me1 & ,i hope soon to see t d>k cl\d :i* is ov] y pass away40 8,! two la/ awful sc&als giv5 by ! prie/s10 ,i answ]$1 8are ! cause ( my sadness4 ,! news ( ! fall ( ^! two confr]es1 "o ( :om seem$ to me s respectable1 has fall5 ^u me l a ?und]bolt4 ,?\gh ,i _h he>d some?+ ( t nature :5 ,i 0 a simple ecclesia/ic 9 ! college1 ,i _h n ! lea/ idea t su* 0 ! life ( s _m prie/s4 ,! fact ( ! human frailty ( s _m1 is really di/ress+4 ,h[ c "o hope to /& up on "o's feet :5 he sees su* /rong m5 fall by "o's side8 ,:at w become ( our holy *ur* 9 ,canada1 & all ov] ! _w1 if h] mo/ devot$ prie/s are s weak & h s little self-respect1 & s little fe> ( ,god80 8,my de> "y fri5d10 answ]$ ,mr4 ,p]ras1 8,our holy *ur* is infallible4 ,! gates ( hell c n prevail aga9/ h]2 b ! assurance ( h] p]petuity & infallibility does n re/ on any human f\ndation4 ,x does n re/ on ! p]sonal hol9ess ( h] prie/s2 b x re/s on ! promises ( ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,h] p]petuity & infallibility are a p]petual miracle4 ,x requires ! con/ant work+ ( ,jesus ,*ri/ to keep h] pure & holy1 9 spite ( ! s9s & sc&als ( h] prie/s4 ,ev5 ! cle>e/ pro( t our holy *ur* has a promise ( p]petuity & infallibility1 is drawn f ! v s9s & sc&als ( h] prie/s2 = ^? s9s & sc&als w\ld h de/roy$ h] long ago1 if ,*ri/ 0 n 9 ! mid/ to save & su/a9 h]4 ,j z ! ark ( ,noah 0 miracul\sly sav$ by ! mighty h& ( ,god1 :5 ! wat]s ( ! deluge w\ld o!rwise h wreck$ x1 s our holy *ur* is miracul\sly prev5t$ f p]i%+ 9 ! flood ( iniquities by :i* too _m prie/s h delug$ ! _w4 ,by ! great m]cy & p[] ( ,god1 ! m ! wat]s ( ! deluge 7 fl[+ on ! e>?1 ! m ! ark 0 rais$ t[>ds heav5 by ^! v wat]s4 ,s x is ) our holy *ur*4 ,! v s9s ( ! prie/s make t spotless sp\se ( ,jesus ,*ri/ fly away high] & high] t[>ds ! regions ( hol9ess1 z x is 9 ,god4 ,let1 !re=e1 y\r fai? & confid5ce 9 our holy *ur*1 & y\r respect = h]1 rema9 firm & un%ak5 9 ! mid/ ( all ^! sc&als4 ,let y\r zeal be rek9dl$ = h] glory & ext5sion1 at ! sight ( ! un=tunate confr]es :o yield to ! attacks ( ! enemy4 ,j z ! valiant soldi] makes sup]human ef=ts to save ! flag1 :5 he sees ^? :o c>ri$ x fall on ! battle-field4 ,oh6 y w see m ( our flag-be>]s slaught]$ be=e y rea* my age4 ,b be n di%e>t5$ or %ak5 by t sad spectacle2 = once m our holy *ur* w /& =ev]1 9 spite ( all ^? human mis]ies1 = h] /r5g? & h] infallibility d n lie 9 m51 b 9 ,jesus ,*ri/1 ^: promises w /& 9 spite ( all ! ef=ts ( hell4 8,i am ne> ! end ( my c\rse1 & ?anks be to ,god1 my fai? 9 our holy *ur* is /rong] ?an ev]1 ?\gh ,i h se5 & he>d _m ?+s1 comp>$ ) :i*1 ! facts :i* j n[ di/ress y are m]e trifles4 ,9 ord] ! bett] to inure y to ! conflict1 & to prep>e y to he> & see m deplorable ?+s ?an :at is n[ tr\bl+ y1 ,i ?9k x is my duty to tell y a fact :i* ,i got f ! late ,"l ,bi%op ,plessis4 ,i h nev] reveal$ x to anybody1 b my int]e/ 9 y is s great t ,i w tell x to y1 & my confid5ce 9 y\r wisdom is s absolute1 t ,i am sure y w nev] abuse x4 ,:at ,i w reveal to y is ( su* a nature t we mu/ keep x among ourselves1 & nev] let x be kn[n to ! p1 = x w\ld dim9i%1 if n de/roy1 _! respect & confid5ce 9 u1 respect & confid5ce1 )\t :i*1 x w\ld become almo/ impossible to lead !m4 8,i h already told y t ! late v5]able ,bi%op ,plessis 0 my p]sonal fri5d4 ,our intimacy _h sprung up :5 we 7 /udy+ "u ! same ro( 9 ! sem9>y ( ,/4 ,sulpice1 ,montreal1 & x _h increas$ ye> aft] ye> till ! la/ h\r ( 8 life4 ,e summ]1 :5 he _h rea*$ ! end ( ! ?ree mon?s ( episcopal visitation ( 8 diocese1 he us$ to come & sp5d eight or t5 days ( absolute re/ & enjoym5t ( private & solit>y life ) me1 9 ?is p>sonage4 ,! two rooms y occupy 7 81 & he told me _m times t ! happie/ days ( 8 episcopal life 7 ^? pass$ 9 ?is solitude4 8,"o day he _h come f 8 ?ree mon?s' visit1 m worn out ?an ev]1 & :5 ,i sat d[n ) him 9 ?is p>lor1 ,i 0 almo/ fright5$ by ! air ( di/ress :i* cov]$ 8 face4 ,in/ead ( f9d+ him ! loquaci\s1 amiable & *e]ful gue/ ,i us$ to h 9 him1 he 0 taciturn1 ca/ d[n1 di/ress$4 ,i felt really uneasy = ! fir/ "t1 9 8 pres5ce1 b z x 0 ! la/ h\r ( ! day1 ,i suppos$ t ?is 0 due to 8 extreme fatigue1 & ,i hop$ t ! re/ ( ! night w\ld br+ ab\t su* a *ange 9 my v5]able fri5d1 t ,i w\ld f9d him ! next morn+1 :at he us$ to be1 ! mo/ amiable & int]e/+ ( m54 8,i 01 myself1 completely worn out4 ,i _h travel$ ne>ly ?irty miles t day1 to g to receive him at ,/4 ,?omas4 ,! heat 0 oppressive1 ! roads v bad1 & ! du/ awful4 ,i 0 9 ne$ ( re/1 & ,i 0 h>dly 9 my b$1 :5 ,i fell into a pr(\nd sleep1 & slept till ?ree o'clock 9 ! morn+4 ,i 0 !n sudd5ly awak5$ by sobs & half-suppress$ lam5tations & pray]s1 :i* 7 evid5tly com+ f ! bi%op's room4 ,)\t los+ a mom5t1 ,i w5t & knock$ at ! door1 inquir+ ab\t ! cause ( ^! sobs4 ,evid5tly ! poor bi%op _h n suspect$ t ,i c\ld he> him4 8#8,sobs6 ,sobs6' he answ]$1 #8,:at d y mean by t4 ,please g back to y\r room & sleep4 ,d n tr\ble y\rself ab\t me1 ,i am well1' & he absolutely refus$ to op5 ! door ( 8 room4 ,! rema9+ h\rs ( ! night1 ( c\rse1 7 sleepless ones = me4 ,! sobs ( ! bi%op 7 m suppress$1 b he c\ld n suffici5tly suppress !m to prev5t me f he>+ !m4 ,! next morn+ 8 eyes 7 r$d5$ ) weep+1 & 8 face 0 t ( "o :o _h suff]$ int5sely all ! night4 ,aft] breakfa/ ,i said to him3 8,my "l1 la/ night has be5 "o ( desolation to y\r lord%ip2 = ,god's sake1 & 9 ! "n ( ! sacr$ ties ( fri5d%ip1 :i* has unit$ u dur+ s _m ye>s1 please tell me :at is ! cause ( y\r sorr[4 ,x w become less ! v mom5t y %>e x ) y\r fri5d40 8,! bi%op answ]$ me3 #8,y are "r :5 y ?9k t ,i am "u ! burd5 ( a great desolation2 b its cause is ( su* a nature1 t ,i _c reveal x ev5 to y1 my de> fri5d4 ,x is only at ! feet ( ,jesus ,*ri/ & ,8 holy "m1 t ,i mu/ g to unburd5 my he>t4 ,if ,god does n come to my help1 x is sure t ,i mu/ die f x4 ,b ,i w c>ry ) me into my grave1 ! awful my/]y :i* kills me4' 8,9 va91 dur+ ! re/ ( ! day1 ,i did all t ,i c\ld to p]suade ,monseigneur ,plessis to reveal ! cause ( 8 grief4 ,i fail$4 ,at la/1 ?r\gh respect = him1 ,i )drew to my own room1 & left him alone1 kn[+ t solitude is sometimes ! be/ fri5d ( a desolat$ m9d4 ,8 lord%ip1 t ev5+1 )drew to 8 sleep+ room soon] ?an usual1 & ,i retir$ to my room mu* lat]4 ,b sleep 0 out ( ! "q = me t night1 = 8 desolation seem$ to be s great1 & 8 te>s s abundant1 t :5 he bade me #8good night1' ,i 0 9 fe> ( f9d+ my v5]able1 & m ?an ev] de> fri5d1 dead 9 8 b$ ! next morn+4 ,i wat*$ him1 )\t clos+ my eyes1 f ! adjo9+ room1 f t5 o'clock till ! next morn+4 ,?\gh x 0 evid5t t he 0 mak+ great ef=ts to suppress 8 sobs1 ,i c\ld see t 8 sorr[ 0 /ill m int5se t night1 ?an ! la/ "o1 & my m5tal agony 0 n mu* less ?an 81 dur+ ^? di/ress+ h\rs4 8,b ,i =m$ an extreme resolution1 :i* ,i put into effect ! v mom5t t he came out ( 8 room ! next morn+1 to salute me4 8#8,my ,"l1' said ,i1 #8,i ?\ght till ! night be=e la/1 t y honor$ me ) y\r fri5d%ip1 b ,i see to-day t ,i 0 mi/ak54 ,y d n consid] me z y\r fri5d1 = if y w\ld look ^u me z a fri5d wor?y ( y\r confid5ce1 y w\ld unburd5 y\r he>t unto m9e4 ,a true fri5d has no secret f a true fri5d4 ,:at is ! use ( fri5d%ip if x be n to help ea* o!r to c>ry ! burd5s ( life6 ,i f\nd myself honor$ by y\r pres5ce 9 my h\se1 s long z ,i consid]$ myself z y\r own fri5d4 ,b n[1 t ,i see ,i h lo/ y\r confid5ce1 please all[ me frankly to say to y\r lord%ip1 t ,i d n feel ! same at y\r pres5ce "h4 ,besides1 x seems to me v probable t ! t]rible burd5 :i* y want to c>ry alone w kill y1 & t v soon1 & ,i d n at all l ! idea ( f9d+ y sudd5ly dead 9 my p>sonage1 & hav+ ! coron] hold+ 8 inque/ on y\r body1 & mak+ ! pa9ful inquiries :i* are always made ^u "o sudd5ly tak5 by dea?1 p>ticul>ly :5 he belongs to ! highe/ ranks ( society4 ,!n1 my "l1 be n (f5d$ if ,i respectfully reque/ y\r lord%ip to f9d ano!r lodg+ z soon z possible4' 8,my words fell ^u ! bi%op l a ?und]bolt4 ,he seem$ to awak5 f a pr(\nd sleep4 ,) a deep sigh he look$ 9 my face1 ) 8 eyes roll+ 9 te>s1 & said3 8#8,y are "r1 ,p]ras1 ,i ought nev] to h conceal$ my sorr[ f su* a fri5d z y h always be5 = m ?an half a c5tury to me4 ,b y are ! only "o to :om ,i c reveal x4 ,no d\bt y\r prie/ly & ,*ri/ian he>t w n be less brok5 ?an m9e2 b y w help me ) y\r pray]s & wise c\nsels to c>ry x4 ,h[ev]1 be=e ,i initiate y into su* an awful my/]y1 we mu/ pray4' 8,we !n knelt d[n &1 we said toge!r a *aplet to invoke ! p[] ( ! ,virg9 ,m>y1 aft] :i* we recit$ ,psalm li3 #8,mis]e mihi4' ,h m]cy ^u me1 ,o ,"l6 8,!re1 sitt+ by me on ?is s(a1 ! bi%op said3 #8,my de> ,p]ras1 y are ! only "o to :om ,i c\ld reveal :at y are ab\t to he>1 = ,i ?9k y are ! only "o :o c he> su* a t]rible secret )\t reveal+ x1 & because1 also1 y are ! only fri5d ^: advice c guide me 9 ?is t]rible affliction4 8#8,y "k t ,i h j f9i%$ ! visit ( my imm5se diocese ( ,quebec4 ,x has tak5 me sev]al ye>s ( h>d "w & fatigue1 to see by my own eyes1 & "k by myself1 ! ga9s & losses--9 a ^w1 ! /r5g? & life ( our holy *ur*4 ,i w n speak to y ( ! p4 ,!y are1 z a g5]al ?+1 truly religi\s & fai?ful to ! *ur*4 ,b ! prie/s4 ,o1 ,great ,god6 w ,i tell y :at !y are8 ,my de> ,p]ras1 ,i w\ld almo/ die ) joy1 if ,god w\ld tell me t ,i am mi/ak54 ,b1 alas6 ,i am n mi/ak54 ,! sad1 ! t]rible tru? is ?is 7putt+ 8 "r h& on 8 =ehead17 ! prie/s6 ,ah6 ) ! exception ( y & ?ree o!rs1 are infidels & a!i/s6 ,o1 my ,god6 my ,god6 :at w become ( ! *ur* 9 ! h&s ( su* wick$ m56' & cov]+ 8 face ) 8 h&s1 ! bi%op bur/ into te>s1 & = "o h\r c\ld n say a ^w4 ,i myself rema9$ mute4 8,at fir/ ,i regrett$ hav+ press$ ! bi%op to reveal su* an unexpect$ my/]y ( iniquity4 ,b1 tak+ c\nsel ( our v fa?omless humiliation & di/ress1 aft] an h\r ( sil5ce1 sp5t 9 pac+ ! walks ( ! g>d51 almo/ unable to look ea* o!r 9 ! face1 ,i said3 #8,my "l1 :at y h told me is surely ! sadde/ ?+ t ,i ev] he>d2 b all[ me to tell y t y\r sorr[s are out ( ! limits ( y\r high intellig5ce & y\r pr(\nd sci5ce4 ,if y read ! hi/ory ( our holy *ur*1 f ! sev5? to ! fifte5? c5tury1 y w "k t ! spotless sp\se ( ,*ri/ has se5 z d>k days1 if n d>k]1 9 ,italy1 ,france1 ,spa9 & ,g]many1 z %e does 9 ,canada1 & ?\gh ! sa9ts ( ^? days deplor$ ! errors & crimes ( ^? d>k ages1 !y h n kill$ !mselves ) _! va9 te>s z y are do+4' 8,tak+ ! bi%op by ! h&1 ,i l$ him to ! libr>y1 & op5$ ! pages ( ! hi/ory ( ! *ur*1 by ,c>d9als ,b>onius & ,h5rion1 ,i %[$ him ! names ( m ?an fifty ,popes :o _h evid5tly be5 a!i/s & infidels4 ,i read to him ! lives ( ,borgia1 ,alex&] ,,vi4 & a doz5 o!rs1 :o w\ld surely & ju/ly be hang$ to-day by ! execution] ( ,quebec1 7 !y1 9 t city1 committ+ "o half ( ! public crimes ( adult]y1 murd]1 debau*]y ( e k9d1 :i* !y committ$ 9 ,rome1 ,avignon1 ,naples1 etc41 etc4 ,i read to him "s ( ! public & und5iable crimes ( ! successors ( ! apo/les1 & ( ! inf]ior cl]gy1 & ,i easily & cle>ly prov$ to him t 8 prie/s1 ?\gh infidels & a!i/s1 7 angels ( pity1 mode/y1 purity & religion1 :5 comp>$ ) a ,borgia1 :o publicly liv$ z a m>ri$ man ) 8 own daught]1 & _h a *ild by h]4 ,he agre$ ) me t sev]al ( ! ,alex&]s1 ! ,johns1 ! ,piuses & ! ,leos1 7 sunk mu* deep] 9 ! abyss ( e k9d ( iniquity ?an 8 prie/s4 8,five h\rs pass$ 9 s p]us+ ! sad b irrefutable pages ( ! hi/ory ( our holy *ur*1 wr\ght a m>vel\s & b5eficial *ange 9 ! m9d ( ,monseigneur ,plessis4 8,my conclusion 01 t if our holy *ur* _h be5 able to resi/ ! deadly influ5ce ( su* sc&als dur+ s _m c5turies 9 ,europe1 %e w\ld n be de/roy$ 9 ,canada1 ev5 by ! legion ( a!i/s by :om %e is s]v$ to-day4 8,! bi%op ackn[l$g$ t my conclusion 0 correct4 ,he ?ank$ me = ! good ,i _h done him1 by prev5t+ him f despair+ ( ! future ( our holy *ur* 9 ,canada1 & ! re/ ( ! days :i* he sp5t ) me1 he 0 almo/ z *e]ful & amiable z be=e4 8,n[1 my de> "y fri5d10 add$ ,mr4 ,p]ras1 8,i hope y w be z reasonable & logical 9 y\r religion z ,bi%op ,plessis1 :o 0 probably ! greate/ man ,canada has ev] _h4 ,:5 ,satan tries to %ake y\r fai? by ! sc&als y see1 rememb] t ,/eph51 aft] hav+ f\ght ) 8 adv]s>y1--! ,pope ,con/ant9e ,,ii41 put out 8 eyes & condemn$ him to die4 ,rememb] t o!r ,pope1 :o ?r\gh rev5ge aga9/ 8 pr$ecessor1 _h him exhum$1 br\ght 8 dead body be=e judges1 !n *>g$ him ) ! mo/ horrible crimes1 :i* he prov$ by ! te/imony ( scores ( eye-witnesses1 got him 7! dead ,pope71 to be condemn$ to be behead$ & dragg$ ) ropes ?r\gh ! muddy /reets ( ,rome1 & ?r[n into ! riv] ,tib]4 ,yes1 :5 y\r m9d is oppress$ by ! secret crimes ( ! prie/s1 :i* y w "k1 ei!r ?r\gh ! confessional or by public rumor1 rememb] t m ?an twelve ,popes h be5 rais$ to t high & holy dignity by ! ri* & influ5tial pro/itutes ( ,rome1 ) :om !y 7 publicly liv+ 9 ! mo/ sc&al\s way4 ,rememb] t "y ba/>d1 ,john ,,xi41 ! son ( ,pope ,s]gius1 :o 0 consecrat$ ,pope1 :5 only twelve ye>s old1 by ! influ5ce ( 8 pro/itute "m1 ,m>osian1 b :o 0 s horribly pr(ligate t he 0 depos$ by ! p & ! cl]gy ( ,rome4 8,well1 if our holy *ur* has be5 able to pass ?r\gh su* /orms )\t p]i%+1 is x n a liv+ pro( t ,*ri/ is h] pilot1 t %e is imp]i%able & infallible because ,/4 ,pet] is h] f\ndation1 #8,tu es ,petrus et sup] hanc petram edificabo ,ecclesiam meam1 et portae inf]i non prevalebunt adv]sus eam4'0 ,oh1 my ,god6 :at %all ,i confess to my confusion1 :at my ?\ghts 7 dur+ t conv]sation1 or r t lecture ( my curate1 :i* la/$ m ?an an h\r6 ,yes1 to ?y et]nal glory1 & to my et]nal %ame1 ,i mu/ say ! tru?4 ,:5 ! prie/ 0 exhibit+ to me ! horrible unm5tionable crimes ( s _m ( our ,popes1 to calm my fe>s & /r5g!n my %ak5 fai?1 a my/]i\s voice 0 repeat+ to ! e>s ( my s\l1 ! de> ,savi\r's words3 8,a good tree _c br+ =? evil fruit1 nei!r c a corrupt tree br+ =? good fruit4 ,e tree t br+e? n good fruit is hewn d[n & ca/ into ! fire4 ,:]e=e1 by _! fruits ye %all "k !m10 & 9 spite ( myself ! voice ( my consci5ce cri$ 9 ?und]+ tones t a *ur*1 ^: head & memb]s 7 s horribly corrupt1 c\ld n1 by any means1 be ! ,*ur* ( ,*ri/4 ,b ! mo/ sacr$ & imp]ative law ( my *ur*1 :i* ,i _h promis$ by oa?s1 01 t ,i w\ld nev] obey ! voice ( my consci5ce1 nor foll[ ! dictates ( my private judgm5t1 :5 !y 7 9 opposition to ! tea*+s ( my *ur*4 ,too hone/ to admit ! conclusions ( ,mr4 ,p]ras1 :i* 7 evid5tly ! conclusions ( my *ur*1 ,i 0 too c[>dly & too mean to bravely express my own m9d1 & repeat ! words ( ! ,son ( ,god3 8,by _! fruits ye %all "k !m6 ,a good tree _c br+ =? evil fruit60 ,,*apt] ,,xx4 ,,pap9eau ,,& ,,! ,,patriots1 ,,9 #ahcc--,,! ,,burn+ ,,( 8,,le ,,canadi50 ,,by ,,! ,,curate ,,( ,,/4 ,,*>les4 ,! "n ( ,l\is ,joseph ,pap9eau w be =ev] de> to ! ,fr5* ,canadians2 = :atev] may be ! political p>ty to :i* "o belongs 9 ,canada1 he _c d5y t x is to ! ard5t patriotism1 ! indomitable en]gy1 & ! rem>kable eloqu5ce ( t great patriot1 t ,canada is indebt$ = ! great] "p ( ! political re=ms :i* promise 9 a ne> future to raise ! c\ntry ( my bir? to ! rank ( a great & free nation4 ,x is n my int5tion to speak ( ! political p>ties :i* divid$ ! p ( ,canada into two camps 9 #ahcc4 ,! long & try+ abuses "u :i* our conqu]$ race 0 groan+1 & :i* at la/ br\ght ab\t ! bloody insurrections ( #ahcg & #ahch1 are matt]s ( hi/ory1 :i* d n p]ta9 to ! plea ( ?is "w4 ,i w speak ( ,pap9eau1 & ! brilliant galaxy ( tal5t$ "y m5 by :om he 0 surr\nd$ & support$1 only 9 connection ) _! difficulties ) ! cl]gy & ! ,*ur* ( ,rome4 ,pap9eau1 ,lefonta9e1 ,b$>d1 ,c>ti] & o!rs1 ?\gh born 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 7 only nom9al ,romani/s4 ,i h be5 p]sonally acqua9t$ ) e "o ( !m1 & ,i "k !y 7 n 9 ! habit ( confess+4 ,sev]al times ,i invit$ !m to fulfil t duty1 :i* ,i consid]$1 !n1 ( ! utmo/ importance to be sav$4 ,!y inv>iably answ]$ me ) je/s1 :i* di/ress$ me2 = ,i c\ld see t !y did n believe 9 ! efficacy ( auricul> confession4 ,^! m5 7 hone/ & e>ne/ 9 _! ef=ts to raise _! c\ntrym5 f ! humiliat+ & inf]ior position :i* !y occupi$ comp>$ ) ! conqu]+ race4 ,!y well und]/ood t ! fir/ ?+ to be done 9 ord] to put ! ,fr5* ,canadians on a level ) _! ,briti% compatriots1 0 to give good s*ools to ! p2 & !y bravely set !mselves to %[ ! necessity ( hav+ a good sy/em ( education1 = ! c\ntry z well z = ! city4 ,b at ! v fir/ attempt !y f\nd an insurm\ntable b>ri] to _! patriotic views 9 ! cl]gy4 ,! prie/s _h ev]y:]e ! good common s5se to und]/& t _! absolute p[] ov] ! p 0 due to its complete ignorance4 ,!y felt t t p[] w\ld decrease 9 ! same proportion t light & education w\ld spread among ! masses4 ,h5ce ! almo/ insurm\ntable ob/acles put by ! cl]gy be=e ! patriots1 to prev5t !m f re=m+ ! sy/em ( education4 ,! only s\rce ( education1 !n 9 ,canada1 ) ! exception ( ! colleges ( ,quebec1 ,montreal & ,nicolet1 consi/$ 9 "o or two s*ools 9 ! pr9cipal p>i%es1 entirely "u ! control ( ! prie/s1 & kept by _! mo/ devot$ s]vants1 :ile ! new p>i%es _h none at all4 ,! great] "p ( ^! tea*]s knew v little m1 & requir$ no?+ m f _! pupils1 ?an ! read+ ( ! ,a1 ,b1 ,c1 & _! little cate*ism4 ,:5 once admitt$ to ! fir/ communion1 ! ,a1 ,b1 ,c1 & ! little cate*ism 7 soon =gott51 & #ie 9 #ajj ( ! ,fr5* ,canadian p 7 n ev5 able to sign _! names6 ,9 _m p>i%es1 ! curate1 ) 8 s*ool-tea*]1 ! not>y1 & a half-doz5 ( o!rs1 7 ! only p]sons :o c\ld read or write a lett]4 ,pap9eau & 8 patriotic fri5ds und]/ood t ! ,fr5* ,canadian p 7 doom$ to rema9 an inf]ior race 9 _! own c\ntry1 if !y 7 left 9 t %ameful /ate ( ignorance4 ,!y did n conceal _! indignation at ! ob/acles plac$ by ! cl]gy to prev5t !m f am5d+ ! sy/em ( education4 ,sev]al eloqu5t spee*es 7 made by ,pap9eau1 :o 0 _! 8,p>liam5t ,speak]10 9 answ] to ! cl]gy4 ,! curates1 9 _! pulpits1 z well z by ! press1 tri$ to %[ t ,canada _h ! be/ possible sy/em ( education--t ! p 7 happy--t too mu* education w\ld br+ into ,canada ! bitt] fruits :i* _h gr[n 9 ,france1--infidelity1 revolution1 riots1 blood%$2 t ! p 7 too poor to pay ! heavy taxes :i* w\ld be impos$ = ! new sy/em ( education4 ,9 "o ( 8 addresses1 ,pap9eau answ]$ ?is la/ argum5t1 %[+ ! imm5se sums ( money1 fooli%ly giv5 by ^? s-call$ poor p1 to gild ! ceil+s ( ! *ur* 7z 0 ! usage !n74 ,he made a calculation ( ! ti!s paid to ! prie/s2 ( ! co/ly images & /atues ( sa9ts1 :i* 7 to be se5 !n1 ar\nd all ! int]ior ( ! *ur*es1 & he boldly said t ! prie/s w\ld d bett] to induce ! p to e/abli% good s*ools1 & pay respectable tea*]s1 ?an to lavi% _! money on objects :i* 7 ( s little b5efit4 ,t address1 :i* 0 reproduc$ by ! only ,fr5* pap] ( ,quebec1 8,le ,canadi510 fell ^u ! cl]gy l a hurricane ^u a rott5 h\se1 %ak+ x to its f\ndation4 ,ev]y:]e ,pap9eau & 8 p>ty 7 d5\nc$ z infidels1 m dang]\s ?an ,prote/ants1 & plans 7 imm$iately laid d[n to prev5t ! p f read+ 8,le ,canadi510 ! only ,fr5* pap] !y c\ld receive4 ,n m ?an half a doz5 7 receiv+ x 9 ,/4 ,*>les2 b !y us$ to read x to _! neighbors1 :o ga!r$ on ,sabba? aft]noons to he> its cont5ts4 ,we at fir/ tri$1 ?r\gh ! confessional1 to p]suade ! subscrib]s to reject x1 "u ! pretext t x 0 a bad pap]2 t x spoke aga9/ ! prie/s & w\ld f9ally de/roy our holy religion4 ,b1 to our great dismay1 our ef=ts fail$4 ,! curates !n _h rec\rse to a m efficaci\s way ( pres]v+ ! fai? ( ! p4 ,! po/ma/] ( ,/4 ,*>les 01 !n1 a man :om ,mr4 ,p]ras _h got educat$ at 8 own exp5se 9 ! sem9>y ( ,quebec4 ,8 "n 0 ,*abot4 ,t man 0 a p]fect ma*9e 9 ! h&s ( 8 b5efactor4 ,mr4 ,p]ras =bade him to deliv] any m ( ! numb]s ( t j\rnal to ! subscrib]s1 :5 !re w\ld be any?+ unfavorable to ! cl]gy 9 its columns4 8,give !m to me10 said he1 8t ,i may burn !m1 & :5 ! p come to get !m1 give !m su* evasive answ]s1 t !y may believe t x is ! editor's fault1 or ( "s o!r po/-(fices1 if !y h n receiv$ x40 ,f t day1 e "t !re 0 any c5sure ( ! cl]gy1 ! poor pap] 0 consign$ to ! flames4 ,"o ev5+1 :5 ,mr4 ,p]ras _h1 9 my pres5ce1 ?r[n a bundle ( ^! pap]s into ! /ove1 ,i told him3 8,please all[ me to express to y my surprise at ?is act4 ,h we really ! "r to deprive ! subscrib]s ( t pap]1 ( _! prop]ty8 ,t pap] is !irs1 !y h paid = x4 ,h[ c we take ^u ourselves to de/roy x )\t _! p]mission6 ,besides1 y "k ! old prov]b3 ,les pi]res p>l5t4 7,/ones speak47 ,if x 7 kn[n by our p t we de/roy _! pap]s1 w\ld n ! consequ5ces be v s]i\s8 ,n[1 ,mr4 ,p]ras1 y "k my s9c]e respect = y1 & ,i hope ,i d n g aga9/ t respect by ask+ y to tell me by :at "r or au?ority y d ?is8 ,i w\ld n put ?is "q to y if y 7 ! only "o :o does x4 ,b ,i "k sev]al o!rs :o d j ! same ?+4 ,i w1 probably1 be oblig$1 :5 a curate1 to act 9 ! same mann]1 & ,i wi% to "k on :at gr\nds ,i %all be ju/ifi$ 9 act+ z y d40 8,are we n ! spiritual fa!rs ( our p10 answ]$ ,mr4 ,p]ras4 ,i repli$1 8,yes1 sir1 we are surely ! spiritual fa!rs ( our p40 8,!n10 rejo9$ ,mr4 ,p]ras1 8we h 9 spiritual matt]s all ! rights & duties :i* temporal fa!rs h1 9 temporal ?+s1 t[>d _! *ildr54 ,if a fa!r sees a %>p knife 9 ! h&s ( 8 belov$ b inexp]i5c$ *ild1 & if he has good reasons to fe> t ! de> *ild may w\nd himself1 nay1 de/roy 8 own life ) t knife1 is x n 8 duty1 be=e ,god & man1 to take x f 8 h&s & prev5t him f t\*+ x any m80 8,yes10 ,i answ]$1 8b all[ me to draw y\r att5tion to a little diff]5ce :i* ,i see betwe5 ! corporal & ! spiritual *ildr5 ( y\r comp>ison4 ,9 ! case y br+ =w>d1 ( a fa!r :o takes away ! knife f ! h&s ( a "y & inexp]i5c$ *ild1 t knife has1 v probably1 be5 b\ght by ! fa!r4 ,x has be5 paid = ) t fa!r's money4 ,x is1 !n1 ! fa!r's knife4 ,b ! pap]s ( y\r spiritual *ildr51 :i* y h ?r[n into y\r /ove1 h be5 paid = by !m1 & n by y4 ,!y are !irs1 !n1 be=e ! laws ( ,god & man1 & !y are n y\rs40 ,i saw t my answ] _h cut ! good old prie/ to ! quick1 & he became m n]v\s ?an ,i _h ev] se5 him4 8,i see t y are "y10 answ]$ he2 8y h n yet _h "t to m$itate on ! great & broad pr9ciples ( our holy *ur*4 ,i confess !re is a diff]5ce 9 ! rights ( ! two *ildr5 to :i* ,i _h n paid att5tion1 & :i*1 at fir/ sight1 may seem to dim9i% ! /r5g? ( my argum5t4 ,b ,i h1 "h1 an argum5t :i* w satisfy y1 ,i hope4 ,"s weeks ago1 ,i wrote to our v5]able ,bi%op ,panet ab\t my int5tion ( burn+ t mis]able & impi\s pap]1 8,le ,canadi510 to prev5t x f poison+ ! m9ds ( our p aga9/ u1 & he has approv$ me1 add+ ! advice1 to be v prud5t1 & to act s secretly t !re w\ld be no dang] 9 be+ detect$4 ,"h is ! lett] ( ! holy bi%op1 y may read x1 if y l40 8,i ?ank y10 ,i repli$1 8,i believe t :at y say 9 ref]5ce to t lett] is correct4 ,b suppose t our good bi%op has made a mi/ake 9 advis+ y to burn ^? pap]s1 w\ld y n h "s reasons to regret t burn+1 %\ld y1 soon] or lat]1 detect t mi/ake80 8,a reason ( regrett+ to foll[ ! advice ( my sup]iors6 ,nev]6 ,nev]8 ,i fe>1 my de> "y fri5d1 t y d n suffici5tly und]/& ! duties ( an inf]ior1 & ! sacr$ rights ( sup]iors 9 our holy *ur*4 ,h y n be5 told by y\r sup]iors 9 ! college ( ,nicolet1 t !re c be no s9 9 an inf]ior1 :o obeys ! ord]s or c\nsels ( 8 legitimate sup]iors80 8,yes sir10 ,i answ]$1 8! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,leprohon has told u t1 9 ! college ( ,nicolet40 8,b10 rejo9$ ,mr4 ,p]ras1 8y\r la/ "q makes me fe> t y h =gott5 :at y h le>n$ !re4 ,my de> "y fri5d1 d n =get t x 0 ! want ( respect to _! ecclesia/ical sup]iors1 :i* caus$ ! apo/acy ( ,lu!r & ,calv91 & damn$ s _m millions ( h]etics :o h foll[$ !m4 ,b 9 ord] to br+ y\r rebelli\s m9d "u ! holy yoke ( a p]fect submission to y\r sup]iors1 ,i w %[ y1 by our greate/ & mo/ approv$ !ologian1 t ,i c burn ^! pap]s1 )\t do+ any?+ wrong be=e ,god40 ,he !n w5t to 8 libr>y1 & br\ght me a volume ( ,liguori1 f :i* he read to me ! foll[+ ,lat9 words3 ,docet ,san*ez1 ,no4 #ai4--,p>ato aliquem occid]e licite posse suad]i ut ab eo furetur1 vel ut =nicatur 7,page #dai47 8,x is all[$ to commit a s9 ( a less] degree1 9 ord] to prev5t "o ( a grav] nature40 ,) an air ( triumph he said1 8,d y see n[ t ,i am absolutely ju/ifiable 9 de/roy+ ^! pe/il5tial pap]s4 ,accord+ to ^? pr9ciples ( our holy ,*ur*1 y "k well t ev5 a woman is all[$ to commit ! s9 ( adult]y ) a man :o ?reat5s to kill h]1 or himself1 if %e rebukes him2 because murd] & suicide are great] crimes1 & m irrem$iable ?an adult]y4 ,s ! burn+ ( ^? pap]s1 ?\gh a s91 if done ?r\gh malice1 or )\t legitimate reasons1 ceases to be a s92 x is a holy action ! mom5t ,i d x1 to prev5t ! de/ruction ( our holy religion1 & to save immortal s\ls40 ,i mu/ confess1 to my %ame1 t ! degrad+ pr9ciples ( absolute submission ( ! inf]ior to ! sup]iors1 :i* flatt5s ev]y?+ to ! gr\nd 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 _h s completely wr\ght _! deadly "w on me1 t x 0 my wi% to atta9 to t supreme p]fection ( ! prie/ ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 to become l a /ick 9 ! h&s ( my sup]iors--l a corpse 9 _! pres5ce4 ,b my ,god 0 /rong] ?an 8 unfai?ful & bl9d s]vant1 & he nev] all[$ me to g d[n to ! bottom ( t abyss ( folly & impiety4 ,9 spite ( myself1 ,i _h left 9 me suffici5t manhood to express my d\bts ab\t t awful doctr9e ( my ,*ur*4 8,i d n want to revolt aga9/ my sup]iors10 ,i answ]$1 8& ,i hope ,god w prev5t me f fall+ into ! abyss :]e ,lu!r & ,calv9 lo/ !mselves4 ,i only respectfully reque/ y to tell me1 if y w\ld n regret ! burn+ ( ^! pap]s1 9 case y w\ld "k t ,bi%op ,panet made a mi/ake 9 grant+ y ! p[] ( de/roy+ a prop]ty :i* is nei!r y\rs nor 8--a prop]ty ov] :i* nei!r ( y has any control80 ,x 0 ! fir/ "t t ,i 0 n entirely ( ! same m9d ) ,mr4 ,p]ras4 ,till !n1 ,i _h n be5 brave1 hone/ or indep5d5t en\gh to oppose 8 views & 8 ipse dixit1 ?\gh (t5 tempt$ to d s4 ,! desire ( liv+ 9 peace ) him2 ! s9c]e respect :i* 8 _m virtues & v5]able age comm&$ 9 me2 ! natural timidity1 n to say c[>dice1 ( a "y1 inexp]i5c$ man1 9 ! pres5ce ( a le>n$ & exp]i5c$ prie/1 _h kept me1 till !n1 9 p]fect submission to ! views ( my ag$ curate4 ,b x seem$ impossible to yield any long]1 & to b[ my consci5ce be=e pr9ciples1 :i* seem$ to me !n1 z ,i am sure !y are n[1 subv]sive ( ev]y?+ :i* is good & holy among m54 ,i took ! big ,bible1 :i* 0 on ! table1 & ,i op5$ x at ! hi/ory ( ,susanna1 & ,i answ]$3 8,my de> ,mr4 ,p]ras1 ,god has *os5 y to be my tea*]1 & ,i h le>n$ _m ?+s s9ce x has be5 my privilege to be ) y4 ,b ,i h mu* m to le>n1 be=e ,i "k all t y\r books & y\r long exp]i5ce h taught y4 ,i hope y w n f9d fault ) me1 if ,i hone/ly tell y t 9 spite ( myself1 !re is a d\bt 9 my m9d ab\t ?is doctr9e ( our !ologians10 & ,i said3 8,is !re any?+ m sublime1 9 ! :ole ,bible1 ?an t feeble woman ,susanna1 9 ! h&s ( ^? two infam\s m58 ,) a diabolical impud5ce & malice1 !y ?reat5 to de/roy h]1 & to take h] be=e a tribunal :i* w surely condemn h] to ! mo/ ignoble dea?1 if %e does n cons5t to satisfy _! crim9al desires4 ,%e is j 9 ! position allud$ to by ,liguori4 ,:at w %e d8 ,w %e be guid$ by ! pr9ciples ( our !ologians8 ,w %e cons5t to become an adult]ess 9 ord] to prev5t ^? two m5 f p]jur+ !mselves1 & becom+ murd]]s1 by caus+ h] to be /on$ to dea?1 z 0 requir$ by ! law ( ! ,jews8 ,no6 ,%e raises h] eyes & h] s\l t[>ds ! ,god :om %e loves & fe>s m ?an any?+ 9 ! _w1 & %e says3 8,i am /rait5$ on e side1 = if ,i d ?is ?+ x is dea? unto me2 & if ,i d x n1 ,i _c escape y\r h&s4 ,x is bett] = me to fall into y\r h&s1 & n to d x1 ?an to s9 9 ! sight ( ! ,"l40 ,has n ,god ,almighty himself %[n t he approv$ ( t h]oic resolution ( ,susanna1 to die r ?an commit adult]y4 ,does ,he n %[ t ,he plant$1 ,himself1 9 t noble s\l1 ! pr9ciple t x is bett] to die ?an break ! laws ( ,god :5 he br\ght 8 prophet ,daniel1 & gave him a sup]natural wisdom to save ! life ( ,susanna8 ,if t woman _h be5 guid$ by ! pr9ciples ( ,lig\ri1 :i*1 ,i confess to y ) regret1 are ! pr9ciples accept$ ev]y:]e 9 our ,*ur* 7pr9ciples :i* h guid$ y 9 ! burn+ ( 8,le ,canadi5107 %e w\ld h cons5t$ to ! desires ( ^? infam\s m54 ,nay1 if %e _h be5 int]rogat$ by h] husb&1 or by ! judges on t action1 %e w\ld h be5 all[$ to swe> be=e ,god & m51 t %e 0 n guilty ( x4 ,n[1 my de> ,mr4 ,p]ras1 d y n f9d t !re is "s cla%+ betwe5 ! ,^w ( ,god1 z taught 9 ! ,holy ,scriptures1 & ! tea*+s ( our ,*ur*1 ?r\gh ! !ologians80 ,nev] h ,i se5 su* a sudd5 *ange 9 ! face & mann]s ( a man1 at ,i saw 9 t h\r4 ,t ,mr4 ,p]ras1 :o _h1 till !n1 spok5 ) s mu* k9dness & dignity1 completely lo/ 8 temp]4 ,in/ead ( answ]+ me1 he abruptly rose to 8 feet1 & began to pace ! room ) a quick /ep4 ,aft] "s "t1 he told me3 8,mr4 ,*9iquy1 y =get t :5 y 7 orda9$ a prie/1 y swore t y w\ld nev] int]pret ! ,holy ,scriptures accord+ to y\r own fallible private judgm5t2 y solemnly promis$ t y w\ld take !m only accord+ to ! unanim\s cons5t ( ! ,holy ,fa!rs speak+ to y ?r\gh y\r sup]iors4 ,has n ,lig\ri be5 approv$ by ! ,popes1 by all ! bi%ops ( ! ,*ur*8 ,we h !n1 "h1 ! true doctr9e :i* mu/ guide u4 ,b in/ead ( submitt+ y\rself ) humility1 z x becomes a "y & inexp]i5c$ prie/1 y boldly appeal to ! ,scriptures1 aga9/ ! decisions ( ,popes & bi%ops2 aga9/ ! voice ( all y\r sup]iors1 speak+ to y ?r\gh ,liguori4 ,:]e w t boldness end8 ,ah6 ,i tremble = y if y d n spe$ily *ange2 y are on ! high road to h]esy60 ,^! la/ words _h h>dly fall5 f 8 lips :5 ! clock /ruck #i p4 m4 ,he abruptly /opp$ speak+1 & said3 8,?is is ! h\r ( pray]40 ,we knelt & pray$4 ,i ne$ n say t t night 0 a sleepless "o to me4 ,i wept & pray$ all ?r\gh its long d>k h\rs4 ,i felt t ,i _h lo/1 & =ev]1 ! high position ,i _h 9 ! he>t ( my old fri5d1 & t ,i _h probably compromis$ myself1 =ev]1 9 ! eyes ( my sup]iors1 :o 7 ! absolute ma/]s ( my de/9ies4 ,i condemn$ myself = t inopportune appeal to ! ,holy ,scriptures1 aga9/ ! ipse dixit ( my sup]iors4 ,i ask$ ,god to de/roy 9 me t irresi/ible t5d5cy by :i* ,i 0 con/antly go+ to ! ,^w ( ,god to "k ! tru?1 in/ead ( rema9+ at ! feet ( my sup]iors1 ) ! re/ ( ! cl]gy1 z ! only f\nta9 ( k & light4 ,b1 ?anks be to ,god1 t blasphem\s pray] 0 nev] to be grant$4 ,,*apt] ,,xxi ,,gr& ,,d9n] ,,( ,,! ,,prie/s--,,! ,,maniac ,,si/] ,,( ,,rev4 ,,mr4 ,,p]ras4 ,x 0 ! cu/om 9 ^? days1 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 to give ! title ( ar*-prie/ to "o ( ! mo/ respectable & able prie/s1 among twelve or fifte5 o!rs1 by :om he 0 surr\nd$4 ,t title 0 ! tok5 ( "s sup]ior p[]1 :i* 0 grant$ him ov] 8 confr]es1 :o1 9 consequ5ce1 %\ld consult him 9 c]ta9 difficult matt]s4 ,z a g5]al ?+1 ^? prie/s liv$ 9 ! mo/ cordial & frat]nal unity1 & to make ! bond ( t union /rong] & m pleasant1 !y 71 9 turn1 9 ! habit ( giv+ a gr& d9n] e ,?ursday4 ,9 #ahcd ^! d9n]s 7 really /ate affairs4 ,sev]al days 9 advance1 prep>ations 7 made on a gr& scale1 to collect ev]y?+ t c\ld please ! ta/es ( ! gue/s4 ,! be/ w9es 7 pur*as$4 ,! fatte/ turkeys1 *ick5s1 lambs1 or suck+ pigs 7 hunt$ up4 ,! mo/ delicate pa/ries 7 br\ght f ! city1 or made at home1 at any co/4 ,! r>e/ & mo/ co/ly fruits & dess]ts 7 ord]$4 ,!re 0 a /range emulation among ^? curates1 :o w\ld surpass 8 neighbors4 ,sev]al extra h&s 7 engag$ "s days be=e1 to help ! ord9>y s]vants to prep>e ! 8,,gr& ,,d9n]40 ,! second ,?ursday ( ,may1 #ahcd1 0 ,mr4 ,p]ras' turn1 & at twelve o'clock1 noon1 we 7 fifte5 prie/s seat$ ar\nd ! table4 ,illu/ration3 ,,gr& ,,d9n] ,,( ,,! ,,prie/s4 ,i mu/ "h r5d] homage to ! sobriety & p]fect moral habits ( ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,p]ras4 ,?\gh he took 8 social glass ( w9e1 z 0 ! univ]sal usage at t "t1 ,i nev] saw him dr9k m ?an a c\ple ( glasses at ! same meal4 ,i wi% ,i c\ld say ! same ?+ ( all ^? :o 7 at ?is table t day4 ,nev] did ,i see1 be=e nor aft]1 a table cov]$ ) s _m tempt+ & delicate vi&s4 ,! good curate _h surpass$ himself1 & ,i w\ld h>dly be believ$1 7 ,i to give ! numb] ( di%es & cov]s1 plates et entreplates1 :i* load$ ! table4 ,i w only m5tion a spl5did salmon1 :i* 0 ! fir/ br\ght to ,quebec t ye>1 = :i* ,mr4 ,amiot1 ! purveyor ( ! prie/s ar\nd ! capital1 _h paid twelve doll>s4 ,!re 0 only "o lady at t d9n]1 ,miss ,p]ras1 si/] ( ! curate4 ,h[ev]1 %e 0 n at all emb>rass$ by f9d+ h]self alone among ^? jolly celebataires1 & %e look$ l a que5 at ! head ( ! table4 ,h] sweet & wat*ful eyes 7 ev]y:]e to see ! wants ( h] gue/s4 ,%e _h an amiable ^w = e "o ( !m4 ,) ! utmo/ grace %e press$ ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,a4 to try t w+ ( turkey--%e 0 s g5tly remon/rat+ ) ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,b4 = 8 n eat+ m1 & %e 0 s eloqu5t 9 reque/+ !m all to ta/e ( ?is di%1 or ( t2 :i* 0 q a new ?+ 9 ,canada4 ,& h] "y *ick5s6 :o c\ld refuse to accept "o ( !m1 aft] %e _h told _! /ory3 h[1 ?ree mon?s be=e1 9 view ( ?is happy day1 %e _h s cajol$ ! big black h5 to wat* ov] sixte5 eggs 9 ! kit*52 :at a _w ( tr\ble %e _h1 :5 ! little dog 0 com+ 91 & %e 7! h57 0 ru%+ at him6 h[1 _m times1 %e _h to /op ! combatants & =ce !m to live 9 peace6 & :at desolation swept ov] h] m9d1 :51 9 a d>k night1 ! rats _h dragg$ into _! holes ?ree ( h] newly-hat*$ *ick5s6 h[ %e _h got a cat to de/roy ! rats2 & h[ 9 escap+ ,scylla1 %e 0 ?r[n ^u ,*>ybdis1 :5 ?ree days aft]1 ! cat made 8 d9n] ( two ( h] de> little *ick5s2 = :i* crime1 committ$ 9 op5 day1 be=e sev]al witnesses1 ! s5t5ce ( dea? 0 pass$ & execut$1 )\t b5efit ( cl]gy4 ,n[1 :]e w\ld !y f9d "y *ick5s 9 ! mon? ( ,may1 9 ! neighborhood ( ,quebec1 :5 ! sn[ _h sc>cely disappe>$8 ,^! /ories1 giv5 ) an art :i* no p5 c reproduce1 7 n f9i%$ be=e ! delicate *ick5s _h disappe>$ 9 ! hungry m\?s ( ! *e]ful gue/s4 ,"o ( ! mo/ rem>kable features ( ^! d9n]s 0 ! levity1 ! absolute want ( s]i\sness & gravity4 ,n a ^w 0 said 9 my pres5ce1 !re1 :i* c\ld indicate t ^! m5 _h any?+ else to d 9 ?is _w b to eat & dr9k1 tell & he> m]ry /ories1 laugh & lead a jolly life4 ,i 0 ! y\nge/ ( ^? prie/s4 ,only a few mon?s be=e1 ,i 0 9 ! ,sem9>y ( ,nicolet1 le>n+ f my grave old sup]ior1 lessons ( prie/ly life1 v diff]5t f :at ,i _h !re "u my eyes4 ,i _h n yet =gott5 ! au/]e prea*+ ( self-d5ial1 mortification1 au/]ity & crucifixion ( ! fle%1 :i* 7 to fill up ! days ( a prie/6 ,?\gh1 at fir/1 ,i 0 pleas$ ) all ,i saw1 he>d & ta/$2 ?\gh ,i he>tily laugh$ ) ! re/ ( ! gue/s1 at _! bon mots1 _! spicy /ories ab\t _! fair p5it5ts1 or at ! funny c>icatures !y drew ( ea* o!r1 z well z ( abs5t ones1 ,i felt1 by turns1 uneasy4 ,n[ & !n ! lessons ( prie/ly life1 receiv$ f ! lips ( my v5]able & de> ,mr4 ,leprohon1 7 knock+ h>d at ! door ( my consci5ce4 ,"s words ( ! ,holy ,scriptures :i*1 m ?an o!rs1 _h adh]$ to my memory1 7 also mak+ a /range noise 9 my s\l4 ,my own common s5se 0 tell+ me t ?is 0 n q ! way ,*ri/ taught 8 disciples to live4 ,i made a great ef=t to /ifle ^? tr\blesome voices4 ,sometimes ,i succe$$1 & !n ,i became *e]ful2 b a mom5t aft] ,i 0 ov]p[]$ by !m1 & ,i felt *ill$1 z if ,i _h p]ceiv$ on ! walls ( ! fe/ive room1 ! f+] ( my angry ,god1 writ+1 8,,m5e1 ,,m5e1 ,,tekel ,,uph>s940 ,!n all my *e]fulness vani%$1 & ,i felt s mis]able t1 9 spite ( all my ef=ts to look happy1 ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,paquette1 curate ( ,/4 ,g]vais1 obs]v$ x on my face4 ,t prie/ 0 probably ! "o :o mo/ enjoy$ ev]y?+ ( t fea/4 ,"u ! sn[y mantle ( sixty-five ye>s1 he _h kept ! w>m he>t & ! joviality ( y\?4 ,he 0 consid]$ "o ( our mo/ weal?y curates1 & he ri*ly des]v$ ! reputation ( be+ ! mo/ epicurean ( !m all4 ,he 0 a p]fect cook1 & ) 8 *aplet or 8 brevi>ium 9 h&1 he us$ to pass a great "p ( ! day 9 8 kit*51 giv+ ord]s ab\t broil+ ?is beef/ake1 or prep>+ ?is fricassee1 & t gravy a la ,francais4 ,he 0 lov$ by all 8 confr]es1 b p>ticul>ly by ! "y prie/s1 :o 7 ! objects ( 8 con/ant att5tions4 ,he _h always be5 exce$+ly k9d to me1 & :5 9 8 neighborhood1 ,i d>e say t my mo/ pleasant h\rs 7 ^? pass$ 9 8 p>sonage4 ,look+ at me 9 ! v mom5t :5 my :ole intellectual be+ 01 9 spite ( myself1 "u ! d>ke/ cl\d1 he said3 8,my de> little ,fa!r ,*9iquy1 are y fall+ into ! h&s ( "s blue devils1 :5 we are all s happy8 ,y 7 s *e]ful half an h\r ago6 ,:at is ! matt] ) y n[8 ,are y sick8 ,y look z grave & anxi\s z ,jonah1 :5 9 ! big :ale's /oma*6 ,:at is ! matt] ) y8 ,has any ( y\r fair p5it5ts left y1 to g to confess to ano!r1 lately80 ,at ^! funny que/ions1 ! d9+-room 0 %ak5 ) ! convulsive laught] ( ! prie/s4 ,i wi%$ ,i c\ld jo9 9 ) ! re/ ( my confr]es2 = x seem$ to me v cle> t ,i 0 mak+ a fool ( myself by ?is s+ul>ity ( demeanor4 ,b !re 0 no help = x2 = a mom5t be=e ,i _h se5 t ! s]vant girls _h blu%$2 !y _h be5 sc&aliz$ by a v improp] ^w f ! lips ( a "y prie/1 ab\t "o ( 8 "y female p5it5ts2 a ^w :i* he w\ld1 surely1 nev] h utt]$1 _h he n drank too mu* w9e4 ,i answ]$3 8,i am mu* oblig$ to y = y\r k9d int]e/4 ,i f9d myself mu* honor$ to be "h 9 y\r mid/2 b z ! brighte/ days are n )\t cl\ds1 s x is ) u all sometimes4 ,i am "y1 & )\t exp]i5ce2 ,i h n yet le>n$ to look at c]ta9 ?+s 9 _! prop] light4 ,:5 old]1 ,i hope ,i %all be wis]1 & n make an ass ( myself z ,i d to-day40 8,tah6 ,tah6 ,tah60 said old ,mr4 ,paquette1 8?is is n ! h\r ( d>k cl\ds & blue devils4 ,be *e]ful1 z x behooves y\r age4 ,!re w be h\rs en\gh 9 ! re/ ( y\r life = sadness & sombre ?\ghts4 ,?is is ! h\r = laugh+ & be+ m]ry4 ,sad ?\ghts = to-morr[40 ,& appeal+ to all1 he ask$1 8,is n ?is correct1 g5tlem580 8,yes1 yes10 unanim\sly rejo9$ all ! gue/s4 8,n[10 said ! old prie/1 8y see t ! v]dict ( ! jury is unanim\sly 9 my favor & aga9/ y4 ,give up ^? airs ( sadness1 :i* d n answ] 9 ! pres5ce ( ^? bottles ( *ampagne4 ,y\r gravity is an ana*ronism :5 we h su* good w9es be=e u4 ,tell me ! reason ( y\r grief1 & ,i pl$ge myself to console y1 & make y happy z y 7 at ! beg9n+ ( ! d9n]40 8,i w\ld h lik$ bett] t y %\ld h cont9u$ to enjoy ?is pleasant h\r )\t notic+ me10 ,i answ]$4 8,please excuse me if ,i d n tr\ble y ) ! causes ( my p]sonal folly40 8,well1 well10 said ,mr4 ,paquette1 8,i see x2 ! cause ( y\r tr\ble is t we h n yet drank toge!r a s+le glass ( %]ry4 ,fill y\r glass ) t w9e1 & x w surely dr[n ! blue devil1 :i* ,i see at its bottom40 8,) pleasure10 ,i said1 8,i feel mu* honor$ to dr9k ) y10 & ,i put "s drops ( w9e into my glass4 8,oh6 oh6 :at d ,i see y do+ !re8 ,only a few drops 9 y\r glass6 ,?is w n ev5 wet ! clov5 feet ( ! blue devil :i* is torm5t+ y4 ,x requires a full glass1 an ov]fl[+ glass1 to dr[n & f9i% him4 ,fill1 !n1 y\r glass ) t preci\s w9e--! be/ ,i ev] ta/$ 9 my :ole life40 8,b ,i _c dr9k m ?an ^? few drops10 ,i said4 8,:y n80 he repli$4 8,because1 eight days be=e h] dea?1 my "m wrote me a lett]1 reque/+ me to promise h] t ,i w\ld nev] dr9k m ?an two glasses ( w9e at ! same meal4 ,i gave h] t promise 9 my answ]1 & ! v day %e got my pl$ge1 %e left ?is _w to convey x1 writt5 on h] he>t1 into heav51 to ! feet ( h] ,god60 8,keep t sacr$ pl$ge10 answ]$ ! old curate2 8b tell me :y y are s sad :5 we are s happy80 8,y already "k "p ( my reasons--if ,i _h drank z mu* w9e z my neighbor1 ! vic> ( ,/4 ,g]vais1 ,i w\ld probably h fill$ ! room ) my %\ts ( joy1 z he does2 b y see n[ t ! h&s ( my deceas$1 ?\gh always de> "m1 are on my glass to prev5t me f fill+ x any m1 = ,i h already drank two glasses ( w9e40 8,b y\r sadness 9 su* a circum/ance is s /range1 t we w\ld all l to "k its cause40 8,yes1 yes10 said all ! prie/s4 8,y "k t we l y1 & we deeply feel = y4 ,please tell u ! reason ( ?is sadness40 ,i !n answ]$1 8,x w\ld be bett] = me to keep my own secret1 = ,i "k ,i w make a fool ( myself "h2 b z y are unanim\s 9 reque/+ me to give y ! reasons ( ! m5tal agony ?r\gh :i* ,i am j pass+1 y w h !m4 8,y well "k t1 ?r\gh v s+ul> circum/ances1 ,i h be5 prev5t$1 till ?is day1 f att5d+ any ( y\r gr& d9n]s4 ,twice ,i _h to g to ,quebec on ^! occasions1 sometimes ,i 0 n well en\gh to be pres5t--sev]al times ,i 0 call$ to visit "s dy+ p]son1 & at o!r times ! wea!r1 or ! roads 7 too bad to travel2 ?is1 !n1 is ! fir/ gr& d9n]1 att5d$ by y all1 t ,i h ! honor ( att5d+4 8,b be=e go+ any fur!r1 ,i mu/ tell y t dur+ ! eight mon?s x has be5 my privilege to sit at ,rev4 ,mr4 ,p]ras' table1 ,i h nev] se5 any?+ :i* c\ld make me suspect t my eyes w\ld see1 & my e>s w\ld he> su* ?+s 9 ?is p>sonage z h j tak5 place4 ,sobriety1 mod]ation1 truly evangelical temp]ance 9 dr9k & food 7 ! inv>iable rule4 ,nev] a ^w 0 said :i* c\ld make our poor s]vant girls1 or ! angels ( ,god blu%4 ,w\ld to ,god t ,i _h n be5 "h to-day6 ,= ,i tell y1 hone/ly1 t ,i am sc&aliz$ by ! epicurean table :i* is be=e u2 by ! enorm\s quantity ( delicate vi&s & ! incr$ible numb] ( bottles ( mo/ co/ly w9es1 empti$ at ?is d9n]4 8,h[ev]1 ,i hope ,i am mi/ak5 9 my appreciation ( :at ,i h se5 & he>d--,i hope y are all "r & t ,i am wrong4 ,i am ! y\nge/ ( y all4 ,x is n my bus9ess to tea* y1 b x is my duty to be taught by y4 8,n[1 ,i h giv5 y my m9d1 because y s press+ly reque/$ me to d x1 z hone/ly z human language w all[ me to d4 ,i h ! "r1 ,i hope1 to reque/ y to tell me1 z hone/ly1 if ,i am1 & 9 :at ,i am1 wrong or "r60 8,oh6 ho6 my de> ,*9iquy10 repli$ ! old curate1 8y hold ! /ick by ! wrong end4 ,are we n ! *ildr5 ( ,god80 8,yes1 sir10 ,i answ]$1 8we are ! *ildr5 ( ,god40 8,n[1 does n a lov+ fa!r give :at he consid]s ! be/ "p ( 8 goods to 8 belov$ *ildr580 8,yes1 sir10 ,i repli$4 8,is n t lov+ fa!r pleas$ :5 he sees 8 belov$ *ildr5 eat & dr9k ! good ?+s he has prep>$ = !m80 8,yes1 sir10 0 my answ]4 8,!n10 rejo9$ ! logical prie/1 8! m we1 ! belov$ *ildr5 ( ,god1 eat ( ^! delicate vi&s1 & dr9k ( ^? preci\s w9es1 :i* our ,heav5ly ,fa!r puts into our h&s1 ! m he is pleas$ ) u4 ,! m we1 ! mo/ belov$ ones ( ,god1 are m]ry & *e]ful1 ! m he is himself pleas$ & rejoic$ 9 8 heav5ly k+dom4 8,b if ,god1 our ,fa!r1 is s pleas$ ) :at we h eat5 & drunk to-day1 :y are y s sad80 ,?is ma/]piece ( argum5tation 0 receiv$ by all 7except ,mr4 ,p]ras71 ) convulsive cries ( approbation1 & repeat$ 8bravo6 bravo60 8,i 0 too mean & c[>dly to say :at ,i felt4 ,i tri$ to conceal my increas$ sadness "u ! =c$ smiles ( my lips1 & ,i foll[$ ! :ole p>ty1 :o left ! table1 & w5t to ! p>lor to dr9k a cup ( c(fee4 ,x 0 !n half-pa/ "o p4 m4 ,at two o'clock ! :ole p>ty w5t to ! *ur*1 :]e1 aft] kneel+ = a qu>t] ( an h\r be=e _! waf] ,god1 !y fell on _! knees at ! feet ( ea* o!r1 to confess _! s9s1 & get _! p>don1 9 ! absolution ( _! confessors6 ,at ?ree p4 m4 !y 7 all gone1 & ,i rema9$ alone ) my v5]able old curate ,p]ras4 ,aft] a few mom5ts ( sil5ce1 ,i said to him3 8,my de> ,mr4 ,p]ras1 ,i h no words to express to y my regret = :at ,i h said at y\r table4 ,i beg y\r p>don = e ^w ( t un=tunate & unbecom+ conv]sation1 into :i* ,i 0 dragg$ 9 spite ( myself2 y "k x4 ,x does n d = a "y prie/1 z ,i am1 to criticise ^? :om ,god has put s mu* above him by _! sci5ce1 _! age & _! virtues4 ,b ,i 0 =c$ to give my m9d1 & ,i h giv5 x4 ,:5 ,i reque/$ ,mr4 ,paquette to tell me 9 :at ,i might be wrong1 ,i _h n ! lea/ idea t we w\ld he>1 f ! lips ( "o ( our vet]ans 9 ! prie/hood1 ! blasphem\s jokes he has utt]$4 ,epicurus himself w\ld h blu%$1 _h he be5 among u1 9 he>+ ! "n ( ,god connect$ ) su* deplorable & awful impieties40 ,mr4 ,p]ras answ]$ me3 8,f> f be+ displeas$ ) :at ,i h he>d f y at ?is d9n]1 ,i mu/ tell y t y h ga9$ mu* 9 my e/eem by x4 ,i am1 myself1 a%am$ ( t d9n]4 ,we prie/s are ! victims1 l ! re/ ( ! _w1 ( ! fa%ions1 vanities1 pride & lu/ ( t _w aga9/ :i* we are s5t to prea*4 ,! exp5diture we make at ^? d9n]s is surely a crime1 9 ! face ( ! mis]y ( ! p by :om we are surr\nd$4 ,?is is ! la/ d9n] ,i give ) su* fooli% extravagance4 ,! next "t my neighbors w meet "h1 ,i w n expose !m to /agg] on _! legs1 z ! great] "p ( !m did :5 !y rose f ! table4 ,! brave words y h utt]$ h done me good4 ,!y w d !m good also2 = ?\gh !y _h all eat5 & drunk too mu*1 !y 7 n s intoxicat$ z n to rememb] :at y h said40 ,!n1 press+ my h& 9 81 he said1 8,i ?ank y my good little ,fa!r ,*9iquy = ! %ort b excell5t s]mon y h giv5 u4 ,x w n be lo/4 ,y h drawn my te>s :5 y h %[n u y\r sa9tly "m go+ to ! feet ( ,god 9 heav51 ) y\r sacr$ promise writt5 9 h] he>t4 ,oh6 y mu/ h _h a good "m6 ,i knew h] :5 %e 0 v "y4 ,%e 0 !n1 already1 a v rem>kable girl1 = h] wisdom & ! dignity ( h] mann]s40 ,!n he left me alone 9 ! p>lor1 & he w5t to visit a sick man 9 "o ( ! neighbor+ h\ses4 ,:5 alone ,i fell on my knees1 to pray & weep4 ,my s\l 0 fill$ ) emotions :i* x is impossible to express4 ,! remembrance ( my belov$ "m ^: bless$ "n _h fall5 f my lips :5 h] sacr$ memory fill$ my m9d ) ! light & /r5g? ,i ne$$ 9 t h\r ( trial--! gluttony & drunk5ness ( ^? prie/s1 :om ,i 0 accu/om$ to respect & e/eem s mu*--_! sc&al\s conv]sation--_! lewd expressions--& m ?an all1 _! confessions to ea* o!r aft] two su* h\rs ( pr(anity & dr9k+1 7 m ?an ,i c\ld endure4 ,i c\ld n conta9 myself1 ,i wept ov] myself1 = ,i felt also ! burd5 ( my s9s1 & ,i did n f9d myself mu* bett] ?an ! re/1 ?\gh ,i _h n eat5 or drunk q s mu* z sev]al ( !m--,i wept ov] my fri5ds1 :om ,i _h se5 s weak2 = !y 7 my fri5ds4 ,i lov$ !m1 & ,i "k !y lov$ me4 ,i wept ov] my *ur*1 :i* 0 s]v$ by su* poor1 s9ful prie/s4 ,yes6 ,i wept !re1 :5 on my knees1 to my he>t's cont5t1 & x did me good4 ,b my ,god _h ano!r trial 9 /ore = 8 poor unfai?ful s]vant4 ,i _h n be5 t5 m9utes alone1 sitt+ 9 my /udy1 :5 ,i he>d /range cries1 & su* a noise z if a murd]] 7 at "w to /rike 8 victim4 ,a door _h evid5tly be5 brok5 op51 up /airs1 & "s "o 0 runn+ d[n /airs z if "o 0 want+ to break d[n ev]y?+4 ,! cries ( 8,murd]1 murd]60 rea*$ my e>s1 & ! cries ( 8,oh6 my ,god6 my ,god6 :]e is ,mr4 ,p]ras80 fill$ ! air4 ,i quickly ran to ! p>lor to see :at 0 ! matt]1 & !re ,i f\nd myself face to face ) a woman absolutely nak$6 ,h] long black hair 0 fl[+ on h] %\ld]s2 h] face 0 pale z dea?--h] d>k eyes fix$ 9 _! sockets4 ,%e /ret*$ h] h&s t[>d me ) a horrible %riek1 & be=e ,i c\ld move a /ep1 t]rifi$1 & almo/ p>alyz$ z ,i 01 %e seiz$ my two arms ) h] h&s1 ) su* a t]rible =ce z if my arms _h be5 grasp$ 9 a vise4 ,my bones 7 crack+ "u h] grasp1 & my fle% 0 torn by h] nails4 ,i tri$ to escape1 b x 0 impossible4 ,i soon f\nd myself z if nail$ to ! wall1 unable to move any fur!r4 ,i cri$ !n to ! utmo/ compass ( my voice = help4 ,b ! liv+ spectre cri$ /ill l\d]3 8,y h no?+ to fe>4 ,be quiet4 ,i am s5t by ,god ,almighty & ! bless$ virg9 ,m>y1 to give y a message4 ,! prie/s :om ,i h kn[n1 )\t a s+le exception1 are a b& ( vip]s3 !y de/roy _! female p5it5ts ?r\gh auricul> confession4 ,!y h de/roy$ me1 & kill$ my female *ild6 ,d n foll[ _! example60 ,!n %e began to s+1 ) a beautiful voice1 to a mo/ t\*+ tune1 a k9d ( poem %e _h compos$ h]self1 :i* ,i secretly got aft]w>d f "o ( h] s]vant maids1 ! translation ( :i* is z foll[s3 8,satan's prie/s h defil$ my he>t6 ,damn$ my s\l6 murd]$ my *ild6 ,o my *ild6 my d>l+ *ild6 ,f ?y place 9 heav51 do/ ?\ see ,?y guilty "m's te>s8 ,can/ ?\ come & press me 9 ?9e arms8 ,my *ild6 my d>l+ *ild6 ,w nev] ?y smil+ face console me80 ,:5 %e 0 s++ ^! words1 big te>s 7 roll+ d[n h] pale *eeks1 & ! tone ( h] voice 0 s sad t %e c\ld h melt$ a he>t ( /one4 ,%e _h n f9i%$ h] song :5 ,i cri$ to ! girl3 8,i am fa9t+1 = ,god's sake br+ me "s wat]60 ,! wat] 0 only pass$ to my lips1 ,i c\ld n dr9k4 ,i 0 *ok$1 & petrifi$ 9 ! pres5ce ( t liv+ phantom6 ,i c\ld n d>e to t\* h] 9 any way ) my h&s4 ,i felt horrifi$ & p>alyz$ at ! sight ( t livid1 pale1 cadav]\s1 nak$ spectre4 ,! poor s]vant girl _h tri$ 9 va91 at my reque/1 to drag h] away f me4 ,%e _h /ruck h] ) t]ror1 by cry+1 8,if y t\* me1 ,i w in/antly /rangle y60 8,:]e is ,mr4 ,p]ras8 ,:]e is ,mr4 ,p]ras & ! o!r s]vants8 ,= ,god's sake call !m10 ,i cri$ out to ! s]vant girl1 :o 0 trembl+ & beside h]self4 8,miss ,p]ras is runn+ to ! *ur* aft] ! curate10 %e answ]$1 8& ,i d n "k :]e ! o!r girl is gone40 ,9 t in/ant ,mr4 ,p]ras ent]$1 ru%$ t[>d 8 si/]1 & said1 8,are y n a%am$ to pres5t y\rself nak$ be=e su* a g5tleman80 & ) 8 /rong arms he tri$ to =ce h] to give me up4 ,turn+ h] face t[>ds him1 ) tigress eyes1 %e cri$ out1 8,wret*$ bro!r6 :at h y done ) my *ild8 ,i see h] blood on y\r h&s60 ,:5 %e 0 /ruggl+ ) h] bro!r1 ,i made a sudd5 & extreme ef=t to get out ( h] grasp2 & ?is "t ,i succe$$3 b see+ t %e want$ to ?r[ h]self aga9 ^u me1 ,i jump$ ?r\gh a w9d[ :i* 0 op5$4 ,quick z lightn+ %e pass$ out ( ! h&s ( h] bro!r1 & jump$ also ?r\gh ! w9d[ to run aft] me4 ,%e w\ld1 surely1 h ov]tak5 me2 = ,i _h n run two rods1 :5 ,i fell headlong1 ) my feet entangl$ 9 my long1 black1 prie/ly robe4 ,provid5tially1 two /rong m51 attract$ by my cries1 came to my rescue4 ,!y wrapp$ h] 9 a blanket1 tak5 !re by h] si/]1 & br\ght h] back into ! upp] *amb]s1 :]e %e rema9$ safely lock$1 "u ! gu>d ( two /rong s]vant maids4 ,! hi/ory ( t woman is sad inde$4 ,:5 9 h] prie/-bro!r's h\se1 :5 "y & ( great beauty1 %e 0 s$uc$ by h] fa!r confessor1 & became "m ( a female *ild1 :i* %e lov$ ) a real "m's he>t4 ,%e det]m9$ to keep x & br+ x up4 ,b ?is did n meet ! views ( ! curate4 ,"o night1 :ile ! "m 0 sleep+1 ! *ild _h be5 tak5 away f h]4 ,! awak5+ ( ! un=tunate "m 0 t]rible4 ,:5 %e und]/ood t %e c\ld nev] see h] *ild any m1 %e fill$ ! p>sonage ) h] cries & lam5tations1 &1 at fir/1 refus$ to take any food1 9 ord] t %e might die4 ,b %e soon became a maniac4 ,mr4 ,p]ras1 too mu* atta*$ to 8 si/] to s5d h] to a lunatic asylum1 resolv$ to keep h] 9 8 own p>sonage1 :i* 0 v l>ge4 ,a room 9 its upp] "p _h be5 fix$ 9 su* a way t h] cries c\ld n be he>d1 & :]e %e w\ld h all ! com=t possible 9 h] sad circum/ances4 ,two s]vant maids 7 engag$ to take c>e ( h]4 ,all ?is 0 s well arrang$1 t ,i _h be5 eight mon?s 9 t p>sonage1 )\t ev5 suspect+ t !re 0 su* an un=tunate be+ "u ! same ro( ) me4 ,x appe>s t occasionally1 = _m days1 h] m9d 0 p]fectly lucid1 :5 %e pass$ h] "t 9 pray+1 & s++ a k9d ( poem :i* %e _h compos$ h]self1 & :i* %e sang :ile hold+ me 9 h] grasp4 ,9 h] be/ mom5ts %e _h fo/]$ an inv9cible hatr$ = ! prie/s :om %e _h kn[n4 ,he>+ h] att5dants (t5 speak ( me1 %e _h1 sev]al times1 express$ a desire to see me1 :i*1 ( c\rse1 _h be5 d5i$ h]4 ,be=e %e _h brok5 h] door1 & escap$ f ! h&s ( h] keep]1 %e _h pass$ sev]al days 9 say+ t %e _h receiv$ f ,god a message = me :i* %e w\ld deliv]1 ev5 if %e _h to pass on ! dead bodies ( all 9 ! h\se4 ,un=tunate victim ( auricul> confession6 ,h[ _m o!rs c\ld s+ ! sad words ( ?y song1 8,satan's prie/'s h defil$ my he>t1 ,damn$ my s\l6 murd]$ my *ild60 ,,*apt] ,,xxii4 ,i ,,am ,,appo9t$ ,,vic> ,,( ,,! ,,curate ,,( ,,*>lesb\rgh--,,! ,,piety1 ,,lives ,,& ,,dea?s ,,( ,,fa!rs ,,b$>d ,,& ,,p]ras4 ,! gr& d9n] previ\sly describ$ _h its natural results4 ,sev]al ( ! gue/s 7 h>dly at home1 :5 !y compla9$ ( v>i\s k9ds ( sickness1 & none 0 s sev]ely puni%$ z my fri5d ,paquette1 ! curate ( ,/4 ,g]vais4 ,he came v ne> dy+1 & = sev]al weeks 0 unable to "w4 ,he reque/$ ! bi%op ( ,quebec to all[ me to g to 8 help1 :i* ,i did to ! end ( ,may1 :5 ,i receiv$ ! foll[+ lett]3 ,,*>lesb\rgh1 ,may #be?1 #ahcd4 ,,rev4 ,,mr4 ,c4 ,,*9iquy3 ,,my ,,de> ,,sir3 ,my ,"l ,panet has aga9 *os5 me1 ?is ye>1 to accompany him 9 8 episcopal visit4 ,i h cons5t$1 ) ! condition t y %\ld take my place1 at ! head ( my de> p>i%1 dur+ my abs5ce4 ,= ,i w h no anxiety :5 ,i "k t my p are 9 ! h&s ( a prie/ :o1 ?\gh s "y1 has rais$ himself s high 9 ! e/eem ( all ^? :o "k him4 ,please come z soon z possible to meet me "h1 t ,i may tell y _m ?+s :i* w make y\r m9i/ry m easy & bless$ 9 ,*>lesb\rgh4 ,8 ,lord%ip has promis$ me t :5 y pass ?r\gh ,quebec1 he w give y all ! p[]s y want to adm9i/] my p>i%1 z if y 7 its curate dur+ my abs5ce4 ,y\r devot$ bro!r-prie/1 & fri5d 9 ! love & he>t ( ,jesus & ,m>y1 ,,anto9e ,,b$>d4 ,i felt absolutely conf\nd$ by t lett]4 ,i 0 s "y & s defici5t 9 ! qualities requir$ = ! high position to :i* ,i 0 s unexpect$ly call$4 ,i "k x 0 aga9/ ! usages to put a "y & untri$ prie/ 9 su* a responsible po/4 ,x seem$ evid5t to me t my fri5ds & my sup]iors _h /rangely exagg]at$ to !mselves my feeble capacity4 ,9 my answ] to ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,b$>d1 ,i respectfully remon/rat$ aga9/ su* a *oice4 ,b a lett] receiv$ f ! bi%op himself1 ord]+ me to g to ,*>lesb\rgh1 )\t delay1 to adm9i/] t p>i% dur+ ! abs5ce ( its pa/or1 soon =c$ me to consid] t sudd5 & unm]it$ elevation z a mo/ dang]\s1 ?\gh provid5tial trial1 ( my "y m9i/ry4 ,no?+ rema9$ to be done by me b to accept ! task 9 trembl+1 & ) a desire to d my duty4 ,my he>t1 h[ev]1 fa9t$ )9 me1 & ,i %$ bitt] te>s ( anxiety4 ,:5 ent]+ into t p>i% = ! fir/ "t1 ,i saw its magnitude & importance4 ,x seem$1 !n1 m ?an ev] evid5t to me t ! good ,mr4 ,b$>d1 & my v5]able sup]iors1 _h made a sad mi/ake 9 putt+ su* a heavy burd5 on my "y & feeble %\ld]s4 ,i 0 h>dly tw5ty-f\r ye>s old1 & _h n m ?an n9e mon?s' exp]i5ce ( ! m9i/ry4 ,*>lesb\rgh is "o ( ! mo/ anci5t & important p>i%es ( ,canada4 ,its position1 s ne> ,quebec1 at ! feet ( ! ,laur5tide ,m\nta9s1 is peculi>ly beautiful4 ,x has an almo/ complete comm& ( ! city1 & ( its magnific5t port1 :]e n less ?an #ijj %ips !n receiv$ _! preci\s c>goes ( lumb]4 ,on our left1 numb]less ranges ( :ite h\ses ext5d$ z f> z ! ,falls ( ,montmor5cy4 ,at our feet ! maje/ic ,/4 ,lawr5ce1 da%+ its rapid wat]s on ! beautiful 8,isle d',orleans40 ,to ! "r ! p>i%es ( ,lorette1 ,/4 ,foy1 ,/4 ,ro*1 etc41 ) _! high *ur* /eeples1 reflect$ ! sun's glori\s beams3 & beyond1 ! impregnable citadel ( ,quebec1 ) its tortu\s ranges ( black walls1 its num]\s cannon & its high t[]s1 l fe>less s5t9els1 pres5t$ a spectacle ( rem>kable gr&eur4 ,! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,b$>d welcom$ me on my arrival ) words ( su* k9dness t my he>t 0 melt$ & my m9d conf\nd$4 ,he 0 a man ab\t sixty-five ye>s ( age1 %ort 9 /ature1 ) a well-=m$ brea/1 l>ge %\ld]s1 bright eyes1 & a face :]e ! traits ( indomitable en]gy 7 c\pl$ ) an expression ( unsurpass$ k9dness4 ,"o c\ld n look on t hone/ face )\t say+ to himself3 8,i am ) a really good & upright man60 ,mr4 ,b$>d is "o ( ! few prie/s 9 :om ,i h f\nd a true hone/ fai? 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,rome4 ,) an irreproa*able "*1 he believ$ ) a *ild's fai? all ! absurdities :i* ! ,*ur* ( ,rome tea*es1 & he liv$ accord+ to 8 hone/ & s9c]e fai?4 ,?\gh ! actions ( our daily lives 7 n subject$ to a regul> & inexorable rule 9 ,*>lesb\rgh's z 9 ,/4 ,*>les' p>sonage1 !re 0 yet f> m life & e>ne/ness 9 ! p]=mance ( our m9i/]ial duties4 ,!re 0 less read+ ( le>n$1 !ological1 philosophical & hi/orical books1 b mu* m real labor 9 ,mr4 ,b$>d's ?an 9 ,mr4 ,p]ras' p>i%3 !re 0 m ( ! old ,fr5* ari/ocracy 9 ! latt] prie/1 & m ( ! good religi\s ,canadian habitant 9 ! =m]4 ,?\gh bo? c\ld be consid]$ z m5 ( ! mo/ exalt$ fai? & piety 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 _! piety 0 ( a diff]5t "*4 ,9 ,mr4 ,p]ras' religion !re 0 real calmness & s]5ity1 :ile ! religion ( ,mr4 ,b$>d _h m ( a fla% ( lightn+ & ! noise ( ?und]4 ,! private religi\s conv]sations ) ! curate ( ,/4 ,*>les 7 admirable1 b he c\ld n speak common s5se = t5 m9utes :5 prea*+ f 8 pulpit4 ,only once did he prea* :ile ,i 0 8 vic>1 & !n he 0 n half ?r\gh 8 s]mon be=e ! great] "p ( 8 auditors 7 s\ndly sleep+4 ,b :o c\ld he> ! s]mons ( ,rev4 ,mr4 ,b$>d )\t feel+ 8 he>t mov$ & 8 s\l fill$ ) t]ror8 ,i nev] he>d any?+ m ?rill+ ?an 8 words :5 speak+ ( ! judgm5ts ( ,god & ! puni%m5t ( ! wick$4 ,mr4 ,p]ras nev] fa/$1 except on ! days appo9t$ by ! *ur*3 ,mr4 ,b$>d condemn$ himself to fa/ besides twice e week4 ,! =m] nev] drank1 to my k1 a s+le glass ( rum or any o!r /rong dr9k1 except 8 two glasses ( w9e at d9n]2 b ! latt] nev] fail$ to dr9k full glasses ( rum ?ree times a day1 beside two or ?ree glasses ( w9e at d9n]4 ,mr4 ,p]ras slept ! :ole night z a guiltless *ild2 ,mr4 ,b$>d1 almo/ e night :5 ,i 0 ) him1 rose up1 & la%$ himself 9 ! mo/ m]ciless mann] ) lea!r ?ongs1 at ! end ( :i* 7 small pieces ( lead4 ,:5 inflict+ ^u himself ^? t]rible puni%m5ts1 he us$ to recite1 by he>t1 ! fifty-fir/ ,psalm1 9 ,lat91 8,mis]]e mihi ,deus secundam magnam mis]icordiam tuam0 7,h m]cy ^u me1 ,o1 ,"l1 accord+ to ?y lov+ k9dness72 & ?\gh he seem$ to be unconsci\s ( x1 he pray$ ) su* a l\d voice1 t ,i he>d e ^w he utt]$2 he also /ruck 8 fle% ) su* viol5ce1 t ,i c\ld c\nt all ! bl[s he adm9i/]$4 ,"o day ,i respectfully remon/rat$ aga9/ su* a cruel self-infliction z ru9+ 8 heal? & break+ 8 con/itution4 8,*] petit ,fr]e0 7de> little bro!r71 he answ]$1 8,our heal? & con/itution _c be impair$ by su* p5ances1 b !y are easily & commonly ru9$ by our s9s4 ,i am "o ( ! heal?ie/ m5 ( my p>i%1 ?\gh ,i h inflict$ ^u myself ^? salut>y & too well-m]it$ *a/isem5ts = _m ye>s4 ,?\gh ,i am old1 ,i am /ill a great s9n]4 ,i h an implacable & indomitable enemy 9 my deprav$ he>t1 :i* ,i _c subdue except by puni%+ my fle%4 ,if ,i d n d ^? p5ances = my numb]less transgressions1 :o w d !m = me8 ,if ,i d n pay ! debts ,i owe to ! ju/ice ( ,god1 :o w pay !m = me80 8,b10 ,i answ]$1 8,has n our ,savi\r1 ,jesus ,*ri/1 paid our debts on ,calv>y8 ,has he n sav$ & r$eem$ u all by 8 dea? on ! cross8 ,:y1 !n1 %\ld y or ,i pay aga9 to ! ju/ice ( ,god t :i* has be5 s p]fectly & absolutely paid by our ,savi\r80 8,ah6 my de> "y fri5d10 quickly repli$ ,mr4 ,b$>d1 8t doctr9e y hold is ,prote/ant1 :i* has be5 condemn$ by ! ,holy ,c\ncil ( ,tr5t4 ,*ri/ has paid our debts1 c]ta9ly2 b n 9 su* an absolute way t !re is no?+ m to be paid by u4 ,h y nev] paid att5tion to :at ,/4 ,paul says1 9 8 ,epi/le to ! ,colossians4 ,i fill up t :i* is beh9d ( ! suff]+s ( ,*ri/ 9 ! fle% = 8 body's sake1 :i* is ! ,*ur*4 ,?\gh ,*ri/ c\ld h entirely & absolutely paid our debts1 if x _h be5 8 w1 x is evid5t t su* 0 n 8 holy w--he left some?+ beh9d1 :i* ,paul1 y1 ,i1 & e "o ( 8 disciples1 %\ld take & suff] 9 our fle% = 8 ,*ur*4 ,:5 we h tak5 & accompli%$ 9 our fle% :at ,*ri/ has left beh9d1 !n ! surplus ( our m]its goes to ! treasury ( ! ,*ur*4 ,= in/ance1 :5 a sa9t has accompli%$ 9 8 fle% :at ,*ri/ has left beh9d = 8 p]fect sanctification1 if he accompli%es m ?an ! ju/ice ( ,god requires1 t surplus ( m]its n be+ any use to him1 is put by ,god into ! gr& & common treasure1 :]e x makes a fund ( m]its ( inf9ite value1 f :i* ! ,pope & ! bi%ops draw ! indulg5ces :i* !y scatt] all ov] ! _w z ! dew f heav54 ,by ! m]cy ( ,god1 ! p5ances :i* ,i impose ^u myself1 & ! pa9s ,i suff] f ^! flagellations1 purify my guilty s\l1 & rais+ me up f ?is pollut+ _w1 !y br+ me ne>] & ne>] to my ,god e day4 ,i am n yet a sa9t1 un=tunately1 b if by ! m]cy ( ,god1 & my p5ances unit$ to ! suff]+s ( ,*ri/1 ,i arrive at ! happy day :5 all my debts %all be paid1 & my s9s cleans$ away1 !n if ,i cont9ue ^? p5ances & acquire new m]its1 m ?an ,i ne$1 & if ,i pay m debts ?an ,i owe to ! ju/ice ( ,god1 ?is surplus ( m]its :i* ,i %all h acquir$ w g to ! ri* treasure ( ! ,*ur*1 f :i* %e w draw m]its to enri* ! multitude ( good s\ls :o _c d en\gh = !mselves to pay _! own debts1 & to rea* t po9t ( hol9ess :i* w des]ve a cr[n 9 heav54 ,!n1 ! m we d p5ance & inflict pa9s on our bodies1 by our fa/+s & flogg+s1 ! m we feel happy 9 ! assurance ( ?us rais+ ourselves m & m above ! du/ ( ?is s9ful _w1 ( approa*+ m & m to t /ate ( hol9ess ( :i* our ,savi\r spoke :5 he said3 #8,be holy z ,i am holy myself4' ,we feel an unspeakable joy :5 we "k t by ^? self-inflict$ puni%m5ts we acquire incalculable m]its1 :i* enri* n only ourselves1 b our holy ,*ur*1 by fill+ h] treasures = ! b5efit & salvation ( ! s\ls = :i* ,*ri/ di$ on ,calv>y40 ,:5 ,mr4 ,b$>d 0 fe$+ my s\l ) ^! husks1 he 0 speak+ ) great animation & s9c]ity4 ,l myself1 he 0 f> away f ! ,good ,fa!r's h\se4 ,he _h nev] ta/$ ( ! bread ( ! *ildr54 ,nei!r ( u knew any?+ ( ! sweetness ( t bread4 ,we _h to accept ^? husks z our only food1 ?\gh x did n remove our hung]4 ,i answ]$ him3 8,:at y tell me "h is :at ,i f9d 9 all our ascetic books & !ological treatises1 & 9 ! lives ( all our sa9ts4 ,i c h>dly reconcile t doctr9e ) :at ,i read ?is morn+ 9 ! #b;d *apt] ( ,ephesians4 ,"h is ! v]se 9 my ,new ,te/am5t3 #8,b ,god1 :o is ri* 9 m]cy1 = 8 great love :]e) he lov$ u1 ev5 :5 we 7 dead 9 s9s1 he has quick5$ u toge!r ) ,*ri/4 ,by grace ye are sav$2 = by grace ye are sav$1 ?r\gh fai?1 & n ( ourselves1 x is ?is gift ( ,god2 n ( works1 le/ any man %\ld boa/4' 8,n[1 my de> & v5]able ,mr4 ,b$>d1 all[ me respectfully to ask1 h[ x is possible t y\r salvation is only by grace1 if y h to pur*ase x e day by te>+ y\r fle% & la%+ y\r body 9 su* a fe>ful mann]8 ,is x n a /range fav\r--a v s+ul> grace--:i* r$d5s y\r sk9 ) y\r blood1 & bruises y\r fle% e night80 8,de> little bro!r10 answ]$ ,mr4 ,b$>d1 8:5 ,mr4 ,p]ras spoke to me1 9 ! pres5ce ( ! bi%op1 ) su* des]v$ eulogium ( y\r piety1 he did n conceal t y _h a v dang]\s defect1 :i* 0 to sp5d too mu* "t 9 read+ ! ,bible1 9 pref]5ce to e o!r ( our holy books4 ,he told u m ?an ?is4 ,he said t y _h a fatal t5d5cy to int]pret ! ,holy ,scriptures too mu* accord+ to y\r own m9d1 & 9 a s5se :i* is r m ,prote/ant ?an ,ca?olic4 ,i am sorry to see t ! curate ( ,/4 ,*>les 0 b too correct 9 :at he told u ( y4 ,b1 z he add$ t1 ?\gh y\r read+ too mu* ! ,holy ,scriptures br\ght "s cl\ds 9 y\r m9d1 yet :5 y 7 ) him1 y always end$ by yield+ to ! s5se giv5 by our holy ,*ur*4 ,?is did n prev5t me f desir+ to h y 9 my place dur+ my abs5ce1 & ,i hope we w n regret x1 = we are sure t our de> "y ,*9iquy w nev] be a traitor to our holy ,*ur*40 ,^! words1 :i* 7 giv5 ) a great solemnity1 mix$ ) ! good mann]s ( ! mo/ s9c]e k9dness1 w5t ?r\gh my s\l z a two-edg$ sword4 ,i felt an inexpressible confusion & regret1 &1 bit+ my lips1 ,i said3 8,i h sworn nev] to int]pret ! ,holy ,scriptures except accord+ to ! unanim\s cons5t ( ! ,holy ,fa!rs1 & ) ! help ( ,god1 ,i w fulfil my promise4 ,i regret exce$+ly to h diff]$ = a mom5t f y4 ,y are my sup]ior by y\r age1 y\r sci5ce & y\r piety4 ,please p>don me t mom5t>y deviation f my duty1 & pray t ,i may be z y are--a fai?ful & a fe>less soldi] ( our holy ,*ur* to ! end40 ,at t mom5t ! niece ( ! curate came to tell u t ! d9n] 0 ready4 ,we w5t to ! mode/1 ?\gh exce$+ly well-spread table1 & to my great pleasure1 t pa9ful conv]sation 0 dropp$4 ,we _h n sat at ! table five m9utes1 :5 a poor man knock$ at ! door & ask$ a piece ( bread = ! sake ( ,jesus & ,m>y4 ,mr4 ,b$>d rose f ! table1 w5t to ! poor /rang]1 & said3 8,come1 my fri5d1 sit betwe5 me & our de> little ,fa!r ,*9iquy4 ,our ,savi\r 0 ! fri5d ( ! poor3 he 0 ! fa!r ( ! wid[ & ! orphan1 & we1 8 prie/s1 mu/ walk aft] him4 ,be n tr\bl$2 make y\rself at home4 ,?\gh ,i am ! curate ( ,*>lesb\rgh1 ,i am y\r bro!r4 ,x may be t 9 heav5 y w sit on a high] ?rone ?an m9e1 if y love our ,savi\r1 ,jesus ,*ri/1 & 8 holy "m1 ,m>y1 m ?an ,i d40 ,) ^! words1 ! be/ ?+s t 7 on ! table 7 put by ! good old prie/ on ! plate ( ! poor /rang]1 :o1 ) "s hesitation1 f9i%$ by do+ honor to ! excell5t vi&s4 ,aft] ?is1 ,i ne$ n say t ,mr4 ,b$>d 0 *>itable to ! poor2 he always treat$ !m z 8 be/ fri5ds4 ,s also 0 my =m] curate ( ,/4 ,*>les2 &1 ?\gh 8 *>ity 0 n s demon/rative & frat]nal z t ( ,mr4 ,b$>d1 ,i _h nev] yet se5 a poor man g out ( ! p>sonage ( ,/4 ,*>les ^: brea/ ought n to h be5 fill$ ) gratitude & joy4 ,mr4 ,b$>d 0 z exact z ,mr4 ,p]ras 9 confess+ once1 & sometimes twice1 e week2 &1 r ?an fail 9 t humiliat+ act1 !y bo?1 9 ! abs5ce ( _! common confessors1 & mu* aga9/ my feel+s1 sev]al times humbly knelt at my y\?ful feet to confess to me4 ,^! two rem>kable m5 _h ! same views ab\t ! immorality & ! want ( religion ( ! great] "p ( ! prie/s4 ,bo? h told me1 9 _! confid5tial conv]sations1 ?+s ab\t ! secret lives ( ! cl]gy :i* w\ld n be believ$ 7 ,i to publi% !m2 & bo? repeat$ly said t auricul> confession 0 ! daily s\rce ( unspeakable depravities betwe5 ! confessors & _! female1 z well z male p5it5ts2 b nei!r ( !m _h suffici5t light to conclude f ^? de$s ( depravity t auricul> confession 0 a diabolical in/itution4 ,!y bo? s9c]ely believ$1 z ,i did !n1 t ! in/itution 0 good1 necess>y & div9e1 & t x 0 a s\rce ( p]dition to s _m prie/s only on acc\nt ( _! want ( fai? & piety2 & pr9cipally f _! neglect ( pray]s to ! ,virg9 ,m>y4 ,!y did n give me ^? t]rible details ) a _s ( criticism aga9/ our weak bre?r54 ,_! int5tion 0 to w>n me aga9/ ! dang]s1 :i* 7 z great = me z = o!rs4 ,!y bo? inv>iably f9i%$ ^? confid5ces by invit+ me m & m to pray con/antly to ! "m ( ,god1 ! bless$ ,virg9 ,m>y1 & to wat* ov] myself1 & avoid rema9+ alone ) a female p5it5t1 advis+ me also to treat my own body z my mo/ dang]\s enemy1 by r$uc+ x into subjection to ! law1 & crucify+ x day & night4 ,mr4 ,b$>d _h accompani$ ! ,bi%op ( ,quebec 9 8 episcopal visits dur+ _m ye>s1 & _h se5 ) 8 eyes ! unm5tionable plague1 :i* 0 !n1 z x is n[1 dev\r+ ! v vitals ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome4 ,he v seldom spoke to me ( ^? ?+s )\t %$d+ te>s ( compassion ov] ! guilty prie/s4 ,my he>t & my s\l 7 also fill$ ) an unspeakable sadness :5 he>+ ! details ( su* iniquities4 ,i also felt /ruck ) t]ror le/ ,i might p]i% myself1 & fall into ! same bottomless abyss4 ,"o day ,i told him :at ,mr4 ,p]ras _h reveal$ to me ab\t ! di/ress ( ,bi%op ,plessis1 :5 he _h f\nd t only ?ree prie/s besides ,mr4 ,p]ras believ$ 9 ,god1 9 8 imm5se diocese4 ,i ask$ him if !re 0 n "s exagg]ation 9 ?is report4 ,he answ]$1 aft] a pr(\nd sigh3 8,my de> "y fri5d1 ! angel c\ld n f9d t5 j m5 9 ,sodom--my fe> is t !y w\ld n f9d m among ! prie/s6 ,! m y advance 9 age1 ! m y w see t awful tru?--,ah6 let ^? :o /&1 fe>1 le/ !y fall60 ,aft] ^! la/ words he bur/ into te>s1 & w5t to *ur* to pray at ! feet ( 8 waf] god6 ,! revelations :i* ,i receiv$ f ^? wor?y prie/s did n 9 any way %ake my fai? 9 my ,*ur*4 ,%e ev5 became de>] to me2 j z a de> "m ga9s 9 ! affection & devot$ness ( a dutiful son z h] trials & affliction increase4 ,x seem$ to me t aft] ?is k x 0 my duty to d m ?an ,i _h ev] done to %[ my unres]v$ devot$ness1 respect & love to my holy & de> "m1 ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 out ( :i* 7,i s9c]ely believ$ !n7 !re 0 no salvation4 ,^! revelations became to me1 9 ! good provid5ce ( ,god1 l ! light-h\ses rais$ on ! hidd5 & dreadful rocks ( ! sea1 to w>n ! pilot dur+ ! d>k h\rs ( ! night to keep at a di/ance1 if he does n want to p]i%4 ,?\gh ^! two prie/s pr(ess$ to h a mo/ pr(\nd love & respect = ! ,holy ,scriptures1 !y gave v little "t to _! /udy1 & bo? sev]al times rebuk$ me = pass+ too _m h\rs 9 _! p]usal2 & repeat$ly w>n$ me aga9/ ! habit ( con/antly appeal+ to !m aga9/ c]ta9 practices & tea*+s ( our !ologians4 ,z good ,roman ,ca?olic prie/s1 !y _h no "r to g to ! ,holy ,scriptures alone to "k :at 8! ,"l sai?60 ,! traditions ( ! ,*ur* 7 ! f\nta9s ( sci5ce & light6 ,bo? ( !m (t5 di/ress$ me ) ! facility ) :i* !y buri$ out ( view1 "u ! d>k cl\ds ( _! traditions1 ! cle>e/ texts ( ,holy ,scripture :i* ,i us$ to quote 9 def5ce ( my positions 9 our conv]sations & debates4 ,!y bo?1 ) an equal zeal1 & un=tunately ) too mu* success1 p]suad$ me t x 0 "r = ! ,*ur* to ask me to swe> t ,i w\ld nev] int]pret ! ,holy ,scriptures1 except accord+ to ! unanim\s cons5t ( ! ,holy ,fa!rs4 ,b :5 ,i %[$ !m t ! ,holy ,fa!rs _h nev] be5 unanim\s 9 any?+ except 9 diff]+ f "o ano!r on almo/ e subject !y _h treat$2 :5 ,i demon/rat$ by our ,*ur* hi/orians t "s ,holy ,fa!rs _h v diff]5t views f ours on _m subjects1 !y nev] answ]$ my que/ions1 except by sil5c+ me by ! text3 8,if he does n he> ! ,*ur* let him be z a hea!n or a publican10 & by giv+ me long lectures on ! dang] ( pride & self-confid5ce4 ,mr4 ,b$>d _h _m opportunities ( giv+ me 8 views ab\t ! submission :i* an inf]ior owes to 8 sup]iors4 ,he 0 ( "o m9d ) ,mr4 ,p]ras & all ! !ologians :o _h treat$ t subject4 ,!y bo? taught me t ! inf]ior mu/ bl9dly obey 8 sup]ior1 j z ! /ick mu/ obey ! h& t holds x2 assur+ me at ! same "t t ! inf]ior 0 n responsible = ! errors he commits :5 obey+ 8 legitimate sup]ior4 ,mr4 ,b$>d & ,mr4 ,p]ras _h a great love = _! ,savi\r1 ,jesus2 b ! ,jesus ,*ri/ :om !y lov$ & respect$ & ador$ 0 n ! ,*ri/ ( ! ,gospel1 b ! ,*ri/ ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome4 ,mr4 ,p]ras & ,mr4 ,b$>d _h a great fe>1 z well z a s9c]e love = _! ,god1 :ile yet !y pr(ess$ to make him e morn+ by ! act ( consecration4 ,!y also mo/ s9c]ely believ$ & prea*$ t idolatry 0 "o ( ! greate/ crimes a man c\ld commit1 b !y !mselves 7 e day wor%ipp+ an idol ( _! own creat+4 ,!y 7 =c$ by _! ,*ur* to r5ew ! awful iniquity ( ,a>on1 ) ?is diff]5ce only1 t :ile ,a>on made 8 gods ( melt$ gold1 & mold$ !m into a figure ( a calf1 !y made !irs ( fl\r1 bak$ betwe5 two heat$ & well-poli%$ irons1 & 9 ! =m ( a crucifi$ man4 ,:5 ,a>on spoke ( 8 gold5 calf to ! p1 he said3 8,^! are ?y gods1 ,o1 ,israel1 :i* br\ght !e out ( ! l& ( ,egypt40 ,s1 likewise1 ,mr4 ,b$>d & ,mr4 ,p]ras1 %[+ ! waf] to ! delud$ p1 said3 8,ecce agnus ,die qui tollit peccata mundi60 78,behold ! ,lamb ( ,god :i* take? away ! s9s ( ! _w607 ,^! two s9c]e & hone/ prie/s plac$ ! utmo/ confid5ce also 9 relics & scapul>ies4 ,i h he>d bo? say t no fatal accid5t c\ld happ5 to "o :o _h a scapul>y on 8 brea/--no sudd5 dea? w\ld ov]take a man :o 0 fai?ful ab\t keep+ ^? bless$ scapul>ies ab\t 8 p]son4 ,bo? ( !m1 nev]!less1 di$ sudd5ly1 & t too ( ! sadde/ ( dea?s4 ,mr4 ,b$>d dropp$ dead on ! #ai? ( ,may1 #ahcg1 at a great d9n] giv5 to 8 fri5ds4 ,he 0 9 ! act ( swall[+ a glass ( t dr9k ( :i* ,god says3 8,look n ^u ! w9e :5 x is r$1 :5 x give? its color 9 ! cup1 :5 x move? itself aright4 ,at ! la/ x bite? l a s]p5t & /+e? l an add]40 ,! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,p]ras1 sad to say1 became a lunatic 9 #ahde1 & di$ ! #bi? ( ,july1 #ahdg1 9 a fit ( delirium4 ,,*apt] ,,xxiii4 ,,! ,,*ol]a ,,morbus ,,( #ahcd--;,,admirable ,,c\rage ,,& ,,self-,,d5ial ,,( ,,! ,,prie/s ,,( ,,rome ,,dur+ ,,t ,,epidemic4 ,i _h n be5 m ?an ?ree weeks ! adm9i/rator ( ! p>i% ( ,*>lesb\rgh1 :5 ! t]rible words1 8,! *ol]a morbus is 9 ,quebec60 s5t a ?rill ( t]ror f "o end to ! o!r ( ,canada4 ,! cities ( ,quebec & ,montreal1 ) _m surr\nd+ c\ntry places1 _h be5 decimat$ 9 #ahcb by ! same t]rible sc\rge4 ,?\s&s ^u ?\s&s _h fall5 its victims2 families 9 e rank ( society _h disappe>$2 = ! mo/ skillful physicians ( bo? ,europe & ,am]ica _h be5 unable to /op its m>* & ravages4 ,b ! ye> #ahcc _h pass$ )\t he>+ almo/ ( a s+le case ( t fatal disease3 we _h all ! hope t ! ju/ice ( ,god 0 satisfi$1 & t ,he w\ld no m visit u ) t horrible plague4 ,9 ?is1 h[ev]1 we 7 to be sadly disappo9t$4 ,*>lesb\rgh is a k9d ( suburb ( ,quebec1 ! greate/ "p ( its inhabitants _h to g )9 its walls to sell _! goods sev]al times e week4 ,x 0 evid5t t we 7 to be among ! fir/ visit$ by t mess5g] ( a j1 b angry ,god4 ,i w nev] =get ! h\r aft] ,i _h he>d3 8,! *ol]a is 9 ,quebec60 ,x 01 inde$1 a mo/ solemn h\r to me4 ,at a glance1 ,i measur$ ! bottomless abyss :i* 0 dug "u my feet4 ,we _h no physicians1 & !re 0 no possibility ( hav+ any "o--= !y 7 to h m "w ?an !y c\ld d 9 ,quebec4 ,i saw t ,i w\ld h to be bo? ! body & ! s\l-physician ( ! numb]less victims ( ?is t]rible disease4 ,! tortures ( ! dy+1 ! cries ( ! wid[s & ( ! orphans1 ! almo/ unbe>able /5* ( ! h\ses attack$ by ! sc\rge1 ! desolation & ! p>alyz+ fe>s ( ! :ole p1 ! fa!rless & mo!rless orphans by :om ,i 0 to be surr\nd$1 ! />v+ poor = :om ,i w\ld h to provide food & clo?+ :5 e k9d or "w & indu/ry 0 /opp$2 b above all1 ! cr[ds ( p5it5ts :om ! t]rors ( an imp5d+ dea? w\ld drag to my feet to make _! confessions1 t ,i might =give _! s9s1 pass$ ?r\gh my m9d z s _m spectres4 ,i fell on my knees1 ) a he>t beat+ ) emotions t no p5 c describe1 & pro/rat+ myself be=e my too ju/ly angry ,god1 ,i cri$ = m]cy2 ) torr5ts ( te>s ,i ask$ ,him to take away my life z a sacrifice = my p1 b to sp>e !m3 rais+ my eyes t[>ds a beautiful /atue ( ,m>y1 :om ,i believ$ to be !n ! ,"m ( ,god1 ,i supplicat$ h] to appease ! wra? ( h] ,son4 ,i 0 /ill on my knees1 :5 sev]al knocks at ! door told me t "s "o want$ to speak to me--a "y woman 0 !re1 ba!d 9 te>s & pale z dea?1 :o said to me3 8,my fa!r has j return$ f ,quebec1 & is dy+ f ! *ol]a--please come quick to he> 8 confession be=e he expires60 ,no tongue w ev] be able to tell half ( ! horrors :i* /rike ! eyes & ! m9d ! fir/ "t "o ent]s ! h\se ( a man /ruggl+ 9 ! agonies ( dea? f *ol]a4 ,! o!r diseases seem to attack only "o "p ( ! body at once1 b ! *ol]a is l a furi\s tig]1 ^: %>p tee? & nails te> 8 victim f head to feet )\t sp>+ any "p4 ,! h&s & ! feet1 ! legs & ! arms1 ! /oma*1 ! brea/ & ! b[els are at once tortur$4 ,i _h nev] se5 any?+ s t]rific z ! fix$ eyes ( t fir/ victim :om ,i _h to prep>e = dea?4 ,he 0 already almo/ z cold z a piece ( ice4 ,he 0 vomit+ & eject+ an incr$ible quantity ( a wat]y & blacki% matt]1 :i* fill$ ! h\se ) an unbe>able smell4 ,) a feeble voice he reque/$ me to he> ! confession ( 8 s9s1 & ,i ord]$ ! family to )draw & leave me alone1 t !y might n he> ! sad /ory ( 8 transgressions4 ,b he _h n said five words be=e he cri$ out3 8,oh my ,god6 :at horrible cramps 9 my leg6 ,= ,god's sake1 rub x40 ,& :5 ,i _h giv5 up he>+ 8 confession to rub ! leg1 he cri$ out aga93 8,oh6 :at horrible cramps 9 my arms6--9 my feet6--9 my %\ld]s6--9 my /oma*60 ,& to ! utmo/ ( my capacity & my /r5g?1 ,i rubb$ 8 arms1 8 feet1 8 %\ld]s1 8 brea/1 till ,i felt s exhau/$ & cov]$ ) p]spiration1 t ,i fe>$ ,i %\ld fa9t4 ,dur+ t "t ! fetid matt] eject$ f 8 /oma*1 besme>$ me almo/ f head to foot4 ,i call$ = help1 & two /rong m5 cont9u$ ) me to rub ! poor dy+ man4 ,x seem$ evid5t t he c\ld n live v long2 8 suff]+s look$ s horrible & unbe>able6 ,i adm9i/]$ him ! sacram5t ( extreme-unction4 ,b ,i did n leave ! h\se aft] t c]emony1 z x is ! cu/om ( ! prie/s4 ,x 0 ! fir/ "t t ,i _h met face to face ) t giant :i* _h cov]$ s _m nations ) desolation & ru91 caus$ s _m torr5ts ( te>s to fl[4 ,i _h he>d s mu* ( him6 ,i knew t1 till !n1 no?+ _h be5 able to /op 8 =w>d m>*6 ,he _h scornfully gone ?r\gh ! ob/acles :i* ! mo/ p[]ful nations _h plac$ be=e him to ret>d 8 progress4 ,he _h mock$ ! art & ! sci5ce ( ! mo/ skillful physicians all ov] ! _w6 ,9 a s+le /ep1 he _h gone f ,mosc[ to ,p>is6--& 9 ano!r /ep he _h cross$ ! bottomless seas :i* ! h&s ( ! ,almighty h spread betwe5 ,europe & ,am]ica6 ,t k+ ( t]rors1 aft] pil+ 9 _! graves1 by millions1 ! ri* & ! poor1 ! old & ! "y1 :om he _h met on 8 m>* ?r\gh ,asia1 ,africa1 ,europe & ,am]ica1 0 n[ be=e me6 ,nay1 he 0 tortur+1 be=e my eyes1 ! fir/ victim he _h *os5 among my p6 ,b ! m ,i felt p[]less 9 ! pres5ce ( t mighty giant1 ! m ,i want$ to see him face to face4 ,i _h z a secret pleasure1 a holy pride1 9 d>+ him4 ,i want$ to tell him3 8,i d n fe> y6 ,y m]cilessly attack my p1 b ) ! help ( ,god1 9 ! /r5g? ( ! ,"o :o di$ on ,calv>y = me1 & :o told me t no?+ 0 m sweet & glori\s ?an to give my life = my fri5ds1 ,i w meet & fight y ev]y:]e :5 y attack any "o ( ^? %eep :o are de>] to me ?an my own life60 ,/&+ by ! b$side ( ! dy+ man1 :il/ ,i rubb$ 8 limbs to alleviate 8 tortures1 ,i exhort$ him to rep5t4 ,b ,i closely wat*$ t h& to h& battle--t m]ciless & unequal /ruggle betwe5 ! giant & 8 poor victim4 ,8 agony 0 long & t]rible1 = he 0 a man ( great bodily /r5g?4 ,b aft] sev]al h\rs ( ! mo/ frightful pa9s1 he quietly brea!d 8 la/4 ,! h\se 0 cr[d$ ) ! neighbors & relations1 :o1 =getful ( ! dang] ( cat*+ ! disease1 _h come to see him4 ,we all knelt & pray$ = ! dep>t$ s\l1 aft] :i* ,i gave !m a few words ab\t ! necessity ( giv+ up _! s9s & keep+ !mselves ready to die & g at ! ,ma/]'s call4 ,i !n left t desolat$ h\se ) feel+s ( di/ress :i* no p5 c portray4 ,:5 ,i got back to ! p>sonage1 aft] pray+ & weep+ alone 9 my closet1 ,i took a ba?1 & wa%$ myself ) v9eg> & a mixture ( camphor1 z a prev5tive aga9/ ! epidemic4 ,! re/ ( ! day1 till t5 at night1 0 sp5t 9 he>+ ! confessions ( a great numb] ( p :om ! fe> ( dea? _h dragg$ ar\nd my confessional box t ,i might =give _! s9s4 ,?is he>+ ( confession 0 int]rupt$ only at t5 o'clock at night1 :5 ,i 0 call$ to ! cemet]y to bury ! fir/ victim ( ! *ol]a 9 ,*>lesb\rgh4 ,a great numb] ( p _h accompani$ ! corpse to 8 la/ re/+-place3 ! night 0 beautiful1 ! atmosph]e balmy1 & ! moon & />s _h nev] appe>$ to me s bright4 ,! /illness ( ! night 0 brok5 only by ! sobs ( ! relations & fri5ds ( ! deceas$4 ,x 0 "o ( ! be/ opportunities ,god _h ev] giv5 me ( exhort+ ! p to rep5tance4 ,i took = my text3 8,!re=e1 be ye also ready2 = 9 su* an h\r z ye ?9k n1 ! ,son ( ,man come?40 ,! spectacle ( t grave1 fill$ by a man :o tw5ty-f\r h\rs be=e1 0 full ( heal? & life 9 ! mid/ ( 8 happy family1 0 speak+ m eloqu5tly ?an ! words ( my lips1 to %[ t we mu/ be always ready4 ,& nev] any p ent]$ ! ?re%old ( _! homes ) m solemn ?\ghts ?an ^? to :om ,i spoke1 t night1 9 ! mid/ ( ! gravey>d4 ,! hi/ory ( t day is ! hi/ory ( ! =ty days :i* foll[$--= n a s+le "o ( !m pass$ )\t my be+ call$ to visit a victim ( ! *ol]a--m ?an "o hundr$ p 7 attack$ by ! t]rible disease1 ne>ly =ty ( :om di$6 ,i _c suffici5tly ?ank my m]ciful ,god = hav+ protect$ me 9 su* a m>vel\s way t ,i _h n a s+le h\r ( disease dur+ ^? two mon?s ( h>d labors & sore trials4 ,i _h to visit ! sick n only z a prie/1 b z physician also2 = see+1 at fir/1 ! absolute impossibility ( p]suad+ any physician f ,quebec to give up _! ri* city pati5ts = our m humble f>m]s1 ,i felt x 0 my duty to make myself z exp]t z ,i c\ld 9 ! art ( help+ ! victims ( t cruel & loa?some disease3 ,i /udi$ ! be/ au?ors on t subject1 consult$ ! mo/ skillful physicians1 got a little ph>macy :i* w\ld h done honor to an old physician1 & ,i gave my c>e & my m$ic9e gratis4 ,v soon ! good p ( ,*>lesb\rgh put z mu*1 if n m confid5ce1 9 my m$ical c>e1 z 9 any o!r ( ! be/ physicians ( ! c\ntry4 ,m ?an once1 ,i _h to rub ! limbs ( s _m pati5ts 9 ! same day1 t ! sk9 ( my h&s 0 tak5 away1 & sev]al times ! blood come out f ! w\nds4 ,dr4 ,pa9*aud1 "o ( ! able/ physicians ( ,quebec1 :o 0 my p]sonal fri5d1 told me aft]1 t x 0 a mo/ extraord9>y ?+ t ,i _h n fall5 a victim to t disease4 ,i w\ld nev] h m5tion$ :at ,i did1 9 ^? nev]-to-be-=gott5 days ( ! *ol]a ( #ahcd1 :5 "o ( ! mo/ horrible epidemics :i* ! _w has ev] se5 spread desolation & dea? almo/ all ov] ,canada1 if ,i _h be5 alone to "w z ,i did2 b ,i am happy & pr\d to say t1 )\t a s+le exception1 ! ,fr5* ,canadian prie/s1 ^: p>i%es 7 attack$ by t pe/il5ce1 did ! same4 ,i c\ld "n hundr$s ( !m :o1 dur+ sev]al mon?s1 also1 day aft] day & night aft] night1 bravely met & f\ght ! enemy1 & fe>lessly pres5t$ _! brea/s to its bl[s4 ,i c\ld ev5 "n scores ( !m :o h]oically fell & di$ :5 fac+ ! foe on t battlefield6 ,we mu/ be hone/ & true t[>ds ! ,roman ,ca?olic prie/s ( ,canada4 ,few m51 if ev5 any1 h %[n m c\rage & self-d5ial 9 ! h\r ( dang] ?an !y did4 ,i h se5 !m at "w dur+ ! two memorable ye>s ( #ahcb & #ahcd1 ) a c\rage & self-d5ial wor?y ( ! admiration ( heav5 & e>?4 ,?\gh !y knew well t ! mo/ horrible tortures & dea? might be ! price ( _! devot$ness1 ,i h n kn[n a s+le "o ( !m :o ev] %rank be=e ! dang]4 ,at ! fir/ appeal1 9 ! mid/ ( ! d>ke/ & /ormie/ nights1 z well z 9 ! light ( ! brighte/ days1 !y 7 always ready to leave _! w>m & com=table b$s to run to ! rescue ( ! sick & dy+4 ,b1 %all we conclude f t1 z ! prie/s ( ,rome want u to d1 t _! religion is ! true & div9e religion ( ,*ri/8 ,mu/ we believe t because ! prie/s are brave1 admirably brave1 & die ! dea? ( h]oes on ! battlefields1 !y are ! true1 ! only prie/s ( ,*ri/1 ! successors ( ! apo/les--! m9i/]s ( ! religion out ( :i* !re is no salvation8 ,no6 ,0 x because 8 religion 0 ! div9e & only true "o t ! millionaire ,/eph5 ,g]>d1 :5 9 #agic ,philadelphia 0 decimat$ by a mo/ frightful epidemic1 w5t f h\se to h\se1 visit+ ! sick1 s]v+1 wa%+ !m ) 8 own h&s1 & ev5 help+ to put !m into _! c(f9s8 ,i ask x aga91 is x because 8 religion 0 ! div9e religion ( ,jesus t t rem>kable man1 dur+ sev]al mon?s1 liv$ among ! dy+ & ! dead1 to help !m1 :5 8 imm5se =tune all[$ him to put a :ole _w betwe5 him & ! dang]8 ,no2 = e "o kn[s t ,/eph5 ,g]>d 0 a dei/1 :o did n believe 9 ,*ri/4 ,0 x because !y foll[$ ! true religion t1 9 ! la/ w> betwe5 ,russia & ,turkey1 a :ole regim5t ( ,turks h]oically ran to a sure dea? to obey ! ord] ( _! g5]al1 :o comm&$ !m to *>ge bayonets on a ,russian batt]y1 :i* 0 p\r+ ^u !m a real hail ( bullets & cani/]s8 ,no6 surely no6 ,^! ,turks 7 brave1 fe>less1 h]oic soldi]s1 b no?+ m4 ,s ! prie/s ( ! ,pope1 :o expose !mselves 9 ! h\r ( dang]1 are brave1 fe>less1 h]oic soldi]s ( ! ,pope--b !y are no?+ m4 ,0 x because !y 7 good ,*ri/ians t ! soldi]s ( a ,fr5* regim5t1 at ,au/]litz1 cons5t$ to be slaught]$ to ! la/1 at ! head ( a bridge :]e ,napoleon _h ord]$ !m to rema91 ) ^! celebrat$ words3 8,soldi]s6 /& !re & fight to ! la/2 y w all be kill$2 b y w save ! army1 & we w ga9 ! day60 ,^? soldi]s 7 admirably well discipl9$--!y lov$ _! flag m ?an _! lives--!y knew only "o ?+ 9 ! _w3 8,obey ! comm& ( ,napoleon60 ,!y f\ght l giants & di$ l h]oes4 ,s ! prie/s are a well-discipl9$ b& ( soldi]s2 !y are tra9$ to love _! *ur* m ?an _! own life2 !y also "k only "o ?+3 8,obey y\r sup]ior1 ! ,pope60 !y fight ! battle ( _! *ur* l giants1 & !y die l h]oes6 ,:o has n read ! hi/ory ( ! r5[n$ ,fr5* man-(-w>1 ! 8,tonnant80 ,:5 %e _h lo/ h] ma/s1 & 0 s crippl$ by ! r$ bullets ( ! ,engli% fleet t !re 0 no possibility ( escape1 :at did ! soldi]s & m>9]s ( t %ip answ] to ! cries ( 8,surr5d]60 :i* came f ! ,engli% admiral8 8,we die1 b d n surr5d]60 ,!y all w5t to ! bottom ( ! sea1 & p]i%$ r ?an see _! pr\d bann]s fall into ! h&s ( ! foe6 ,is x because ^? ,fr5* w>riors 7 good ,*ri/ians t !y pref]r$ to die r ?an give up _! flag8 ,no6 ,b !y knew t ! eyes ( _! c\ntry1 ! eyes ( ! :ole _w 7 ^u !m4 ,life became to !m a trifle3 x became no?+ :5 plac$ 9 ! balance aga9/ :at !y consid]$ _! honor1 & ! honor ( _! fair & noble c\ntry2--nay1 life became an undesirable ?+1 :5 x 0 weight$ aga9/ ! glory ( dy+ at ! po/ ( duty & honor4 ,s x is ) ! prie/ ( ,rome4 ,he kn[s t ! eyes ( 8 p1 & ( 8 sup]iors--! eyes ( 8 :ole *ur* are ^u him4 ,he kn[s t if he %r9ks 9 ! h\r ( dang]1 he w =ev] lose _! confid5ce & _! e/eem2 t he w lose 8 position & live ! life ( a degrad$ man6 ,dea? seems pref]able to su* a life4 ,besides1 x is n only 9 ! gospel ( ,*ri/ t we read3 8,?is is my comm&m5t1 t ye love "o ano!r1 z ,i h lov$ y40 8,great] love ha? no man ?an ?is1 t a man lay d[n 8 life = 8 fri5ds40 ,our great ,god has writt5 ^! words 9 ! he>ts ( all ! *ildr5 ( ,adam4 ,he has writt5 !m 9 ! v he>t ( humanity4 ,^! words are engrav5 9 ! he>ts ( ! ,turks ( ,con/ant9ople1 z well z 9 ! he>ts ( ! prie/s ( ,canada4 ,!y are engrav5 9 ! he>ts ( ! ,esquimaux ( ! icy regions ( ,gre5l&1 z well z 9 ! he>ts ( ! ref9$ citiz5s ( ,p>is4 ,h5ce1 9 ! mid/ ( ! wreck ( almo/ all ! o!r virtues1 we f9d a sp>k ( t sacr$ fire1 kept alive1 ev]y:]e4 ,= aga91 ,god ,almighty himself has brea!d t sp>k ( fire & life into ! he>t ( man :5 he made him 9 8 own image4 ,we f9d t sp>k ( holy & inext+ui%able fire ( love & life ev5 among ! mo/ deprav$ nations4 ,= t nation mu/ infallibly p]i% & disappe> ! day x has lo/ x entirely4 ,?is is ! reason :y1 ev5 among ! degrad$ idolat]s ( anci5t & mod]n times1 we f9d acts ( admirable devot$ness & self-sacrifice4 ,read ! hi/ory ( ! ,iroquois1 writt5 by ! ,jesuit ,fa!r1 ,*>levoix1 & y w see h[ ! savages ( our =e/s (t5 rais$ !mselves to ! v /ature ( giants at ! approa* ( dea?1 :5 ! honor ( _! nations1 or ! int]e/s ( _! fri5ds1 or _! own reputation 0 at /ake4 ,no m5 h ev] c>ri$ ! contempt ( pa9 & dea? s f>1 p]haps1 z ! hea!n ,iroquois ( ?is cont95t4 ,yes6 let ! p ( ,canada read ! hi/ory ( 8,la ,n\velle ,france10 & !y w cease f pres5t+ to u ! c\rage ( _! prie/s z an indication ( ! div9ity ( _! religion4 ,= !re !y w see t ! wor%ipp]s ( ! wood5 gods ( ! =e/s h equall$1 if n surpass$1 9 c\rage & self-d5ial 9 ! face ( dea?1 ! c\rage & self-d5ial ( ! prie/s ( ! waf] god ( ,rome4 ,,*apt] ,,xxiv4 ,i ,,am ,,nam$ ,a ,,vic> ,,( ,,/4 ,,ro*1 ,,quebec ,,city--,,! ,,rev4 ,,mr4 ,,tetu--,,t]tullian--,,g5]al ,,c>go--,,! ,,seal ,,sk9s4 ,9 ! beg9n+ ( ,septemb]1 #ahcd1 ! ,bi%op ,synaie gave me ! enviable position ( "o ( ! vic>s ( ,/4 ,ro*1 ,quebec1 :]e ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,tetu _h be5 curate = ab\t a ye>4 ,he 0 "o ( ! sev5te5 *ildr5 ( ,mr4 ,francis ,tetu1 "o ( ! mo/ respectable & weal?y f>m]s ( ,/4 ,?omas4 ,su* 0 ! amiability ( "* ( my new curate1 t ,i nev] saw him 9 bad humor a s+le "t dur+ ! f\r ye>s t x 0 my =tune to "w "u him 9 t p>i%4 ,& al?\gh 9 my daily int]c\rse ) him ,i sometimes un9t5tionally sorely tri$ 8 pati5ce1 ,i nev] he>d an unk9d ^w proce$ f 8 lips4 ,he 0 a f9e-look+ man1 tall & well-built1 l>ge =ehead1 blue eyes1 a rem>kably f9e nose & rosy lips1 only a little too fem99e4 ,8 sk9 0 v :ite = a man1 b 8 f9e %ort :isk]s1 :i* he knew s well h[ to trim1 gave to 8 :ole mi5 a manly & pleasant appe>ance4 ,he 0 ! f9e/ p5man ,i ev] saw2 & by f> ! mo/ skillful skat] ( ! c\ntry4 ,no?+ c\ld surpass ! agility & p]fection ) :i* he us$ to write 8 "n on ! ice ) 8 skates4 ,he 0 also fond ( fa/ horses1 & knew1 to p]fection1 h[ to h&le ! mo/ unmanageable /e$s ( ,quebec4 ,he really look$ l ,phaeton :51 9 a light & beautiful buggy1 he held ! re9s ( ! fi]y c\rs]s :i* ! ri* b\rgeois ( ! city lik$ to tru/ to him once or twice a week1 t he might take a ride ) "o ( 8 vic>s to ! surr\nd+ c\ntry4 ,mr4 ,tetu 0 also fond ( f9e cig>s & *oice *ew+ tobacco4 ,l ! late ,pope ,pius ,,ix41 he also con/antly us$ ! snuff-box4 ,he w\ld h be5 a pretty good prea*]1 _h he n be5 born ) a natural horror ( books4 ,i v seldom saw 9 8 h&s any o!r books ?an 8 brevi>y1 & "s treatises on ! cate*ism3 a book 9 8 h&s _h almo/ ! effect ( opium on "o's bra9s1 x put him to sleep4 ,"o day1 :5 ,i _h f9i%$ read+ a volume ( ,t]tullian1 he felt mu* int]e/$ 9 :at ,i said ( ! eloqu5ce & le>n+ ( t celebrat$ ,fa!r ( ! ,*ur*1 & express$ a desire to read x4 ,i smil+ly ask$ him if he 7 m ?an usual 9 ne$ ( sleep4 ,he s]i\sly answ]$ me t he really want$ to read t "w1 & t he wi%$ to beg9 its /udy j !n4 ,i l5t him ! volume1 & he w5t imm$iately to 8 room 9 ord] to enri* 8 m9d ) ! treasures ( eloqu5ce & wisdom ( t celebrat$ writ] ( ! primitive *ur*4 ,half an h\r aft]1 suspect+ :at w\ld occur1 ,i w5t d[n to 8 room1 & noiselessly op5+ ! door1 ,i f\nd my de> ,mr4 ,tetu sleep+ on 8 s(t s(a1 & snor+ to 8 he>t's cont5t1 :ile ,t]tullian 0 ly+ on ! floor6 ,i ran to ! rooms ( ! o!r vic>s1 & told !m3 8,come & see h[ our good curate is /udy+ ,t]tullian60 ,!re is no ne$ to say t we _h a he>ty laugh at 8 exp5se4 ,un=tunately1 ! noise we made awoke him1 & we !n ask$ him3 8,:at d y ?9k ( ,t]tullian80 ,he rubb$ 8 eyes1 & answ]$1 8,well6 well6 :at is ! matt]8 ,are y n f\r v wick$ m5 to laugh at ! human frailties ( y\r curate80 ,we = a:ile call$ him ,fa!r ,t]tullian4 ,ano!r day he reque/$ me to give him "s ,engli% lessons4 ,=1 ?\gh my k ( ,engli% 0 !n v limit$1 ,i 0 ! only "o ( five prie/s :o und]/ood & c\ld speak a few words ( t language4 ,i answ]$ him t x w\ld be z pleasant z x 0 easy = me to tea* ! little ,i knew ( x1 & ,i advis$ him to subscribe = ! 8,quebec ,gazette10 t ,i might pr(it by ! int]e/+ matt] :i* t pap] us$ to give to its read]s2 & at ! same "t ,i %\ld tea* him to read & und]/& its cont5ts4 ,! ?ird "t t ,i w5t to 8 room to give him 8 lesson1 he gravely ask$ me3 8,h y ev] se5 #8,g5]al ,c>go8'0 ,i 0 at fir/ puzzl$ by t "q1 & answ]$ him3 8,i nev] he>d t !re 0 any milit>y (fic] by ! "n ( #8,g5]al ,c>go4' ,h[ d y "k t !re is su* a g5]al 9 ! _w80 ,he quickly answ]$3 8,!re is surely a #8,g5]al ,c>go' some:]e 9 ,engl& or ,am]ica1 & he mu/ be v ri*2 = see ! l>ge numb] ( %ips :i* be> 8 "n1 & h ent]$ ! port ( ,quebec ^! la/ few days60 ,see+ ! /range mi/ake1 & f9d+ 8 ignorance s wond]ful1 ,i bur/ into a fit ( uncontrollable laught]4 ,i c\ld n answ] a ^w1 b cri$ at ! top ( my voice3 8,g5]al ,c>go6 ,g5]al ,c>go60 ,! poor curate1 /unn$ by my laugh+1 look$ at me 9 amazem5t4 ,b1 unable to und]/& its cause1 he ask$ me3 8,:y d y laugh80 ,b ! m /upefi$ he 01 ! m ,i laugh$1 unable to say any?+ b 8,g5]al ,c>go6 ,g5]al ,c>go60 ,! ?ree o!r vic>s1 he>+ ! noise1 ha/ily came f _! rooms to le>n its cause1 & get a good laugh also4 ,b ,i 0 s completely beside myself ) laugh+1 t ,i c\ld n answ] _! que/ions 9 any o!r way ?an by cry+1 8,g5]al ,c>go6 ,g5]al ,c>go60 ,! puzzl$ curate tri$ !n to give !m "s explanation ( t my/]y1 say+ ) ! greate/ naivete3 8,i _c see :y our little ,fa!r ,*9iquy is laugh+ s convulsively4 ,i put him a v simple "q :5 he ent]$ my room to give me my ,engli% lesson4 ,i simply ask$ him if he _h ev] se5 #8,g5]al ,c>go1' :o has s5t s _m %ips to our ports ^! la/ few days1 & add$ t t g5]al mu/ be v ri*1 s9ce he has s _m %ips on ! sea60 ,! ?ree vic>s saw ! po9t1 & )\t be+ able to answ] him a ^w1 !y bur/ into su* fits ( laught] t ! poor curate felt m ?an ev] puzzl$4 8,are y crazy80 he said1 8,:at makes y laugh s :5 ,i put to y su* a simple "q8 ,d y n "k any?+ ab\t t #8,g5]al ,c>go1' :o surely mu/ live some:]e1 & be v ri*1 s9ce he s5ds s _m vessels to our port t !y fill ne>ly two columns ( ! #8,quebec ,gazette8'0 ,^! rem>ks ( ! poor curate br\ght su* a new /orm ( irrepressible laught] f u all z we nev] exp]i5c$ 9 our :ole lives4 ,x took u "s "t to suffici5tly ma/] our feel+s to tell him t 8,g5]al ,c>go0 0 n ! "n ( any individual1 b only ! te*nical words to say t ! %ips 7 lad5 ) g5]al goods4 ,! next morn+ ! "y & jovial vic>s gave ! /ory to _! fri5ds1 & ! p ( ,quebec _h a he>ty laugh at ! exp5se ( our fri5d4 ,f t "t we call$ our good curate by ! "n ( 8,g5]al ,c>go10 & he 0 s good-natur$ t he jo9$ ) u 9 jok+ at 8 own exp5se4 ,x w\ld require too mu* space 7 ,i to publi% all ! comic blund]s ( t good man1 s ,i %all give only "o m4 ,on "o ( ! colde/ days 9 ,janu>y1 #ahce1 a m]*ant ( seal sk9s came to ! p>sonage ) "s ( ! be/ specim5s ( 8 m]*&ise1 t we might buy !m to make ov]coats4 ,= 9 ^? days ! ov]coats ( buffalo or raccoon sk9s 7 n yet ?\ght (4 ,our ri*e/ m5 us$ to h beav] ov]coats1 b ! re/ ( ! p _h to be cont5t$ ) ,canada seal sk9s2 a beav] ov]coat c\ld n be _h = less ?an #bjj4 ,mr4 ,tetu 0 anxi\s to buy 8 sk9s2 8 only difficulty 0 ! high price ask$ by ! m]*ant4 ,= ne>ly an h\r he _h turn$ ov] & ov] aga9 ! beautiful sk9s1 & _h sp5t all 8 eloqu5ce on try+ to br+ d[n _! price1 :5 ! sexton arriv$1 & told him1 respectfully3 8,mr4 le ,cure1 !re are a c\ple ( p wait+ = y ) a *ild to be baptiz$40 8,v well10 said ! curate1 8,i w g imm$iately20 & address+ ! m]*ant1 he said3 8,please wait a mom5t2 ,i w n be long abs5t40 ,9 two m9utes aft]1 ! curate _h donn$ ! surplice1 & 0 go+ at full spe$ ?r\gh ! pray]s & c]emonies ( ,baptism4 ,=1 to be fair & true t[>ds ,mr4 ,tetu 7& ,i might say ! same ?+ ( ! greate/ "p ( ! prie/s ,i h kn[n71 x mu/ be ackn[l$g$ t he 0 v exact 9 all 8 m9i/]ial duties2 yet he 0 9 ?is case go+ ?r\gh !m by /eam1 if n by electricity4 ,he 0 soon at ! end4 ,b1 aft] ! sacram5t 0 adm9i/]$1 we 7 enjo9$1 !n1 to repeat an exhortation to ! godfa!rs & godmo!rs1 f ! ritual :i* we all knew by he>t1 & :i* began ) ^! words3 8,godfa!r & godmo!rs3 y h br\ght a s9n] to ! *ur*1 b y w take back a sa9t60 ,z ! ve/ry 0 full ( p :o _h come to confess1 ,mr4 ,tetu ?\ght t x 0 8 duty to speak ) m emphasis ?an usual 9 ord] to h 8 in/ructions he>d & felt by ev]yone4 ,b in/ead ( say+1 8,godfa!r & godmo!r1 y h br\ght a s9n] to ! *ur*1 y w take back a sa9t60 he1 ) great =ce & unction1 said3 8,godfa!r & godmo!r1 y h br\ght a s9n] to ! *ur*1 y w take back a seal sk960 ,no words c describe ! uncontrollable bur/ & ro> ( laught] among ! cr[d1 :5 !y he>d t ! baptiz$ *ild 0 j *ang$ into a 8seal sk940 ,unable to conta9 !mselves1 or d any s]i\s ?+1 !y left ! ve/ry to g home & laugh to _! he>t's cont5t4 ,b ! mo/ comic "p ( ?is blund] 0 ! sang froid & ! calmness ) :i* ,mr4 ,tetu1 turn+ t[>ds me1 said3 8,w y be k9d en\gh to tell me ! cause ( t indec5t & univ]sal laugh+ 9 ! mid/ ( su* a solemn action z ! baptism ( ?is *ild80 ,i tri$ to tell him 8 blund]2 b = "s "t x 0 impossible to express myself4 ,my laugh+ prop5sities 7 s mu* excit$1 & ! convulsive laught] ( ! :ole multitude made su* a noise1 t he w\ld n h he>d me _h ,i be5 able to answ] him4 ,x 0 only :5 ! greate/ "p ( ! cr[d _h left t ,i c\ld reveal to ,mr4 ,tetu t he _h *ang$ ! baptiz$ baby into a 8seal sk960 ,he he>tily laugh$ at 8 own blund]1 & calmly w5t back to buy 8 seal sk9s4 ,! next day ! /ory w5t f h\se to h\se 9 ,quebec1 & caus$ ev]y:]e su* a laugh z !y _h n _h s9ce ! bir? ( 8,g5]al ,c>go40 ,t prie/ 0 a good type ( ! greate/ "p ( ! prie/s ( ,canada3 ,f9e fell[s--social & jovial g5tlem5--z fond ( smok+ _! cig>s z ( *ew+ _! tobacco & us+ _! snuff2 fond ( fa/ horses2 repeat+ ! pray]s ( _! brevi>y & go+ ?r\gh ! p]=mance ( _! m9i/]ial duties ) z mu* spe$ z possible4 ,) a good numb] ( books 9 _! libr>ies1 b kn[+ no?+ ( !m b ! titles2 possess+ ! ,bible1 b ignorant ( its cont5ts2 believ+ t !y _h ! light1 :5 !y 7 9 awful d>kness2 prea*+ ! mo/ mon/r\s doctr9es z ! gospel ( tru?2 consid]+ !mselves ! only true ,*ri/ians 9 ! _w1 :5 !y wor%ipp$ ! mo/ contemptible idols made ) h&s4 ,absolutely ignorant ( ! ,^w ( ,god1 :ile !y proclaim$ & believ$ !mselves to be ! lights ( ! _w4 ,un=tunate1 bl9d m51 lead+ ! bl9d into ! dit*6 ,,*apt] ,,xxv4 ,,simony--,,/range ,,& ,,sacrilegi\s ,,traffic ,,9 ,,! ,,s-,,call$ ,,body ,,& ,,blood ,,( ,,*ri/--,,enorm\s ,,sums ,,( ,,money ,,made ,,by ,,! ,,sale ,,( ,,masses--,,! ,,society ,,( ,,?ree ,,masses ,,aboli%$ ,,& ,,! ,,society ,,( ,,"o ,,mass ,,e/abli%$4 ,9 "o ( ! pleasant h\rs :i* we us$ inv>iably to pass aft] d9n]1 9 ! com=table p>lor ( our p>sonage1 "o ( ! vic>s1 ,mr4 ,l\is ,p>5t1 said to ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,tetu3 8,i h h&$ ?is morn+ m ?an "o hundr$ doll>s to ! bi%op1 z ! price ( ! masses :i* my pi\s p5it5ts h reque/$ me to celebrate1 ! greate/ "p ( !m = ! s\ls 9 purgatory4 ,e week ,i h to d ! same ?+1 j z ea* ( y1 & e "o ( ! hundr$s ( prie/s 9 ,canada h to d4 ,n[1 ,i w\ld l to "k h[ ! bi%ops c dispose ( all ^! masses1 & :at !y d ) ! l>ge sums ( money :i* g into _! h&s f e "p ( ! c\ntry to h masses said4 ,?is "q vexes me1 & ,i w\ld l to "k y\r m9d ab\t x40 ,! good curate answ]$ 9 a jok+ mann]1 z usual3 8,if ! masses paid into our h&s1 :i* g to ! bi%op1 are all celebrat$1 purgatory mu/ be empti$ twice a day4 ,= ,i h calculat$ t ! sums giv5 = ^? masses 9 ,canada _c be less ?an #d1jjj e day1 &1 z !re are ?ree times z _m ,ca?olics 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates z "h1 & z ^? ,iri% ,ca?olics are m devot$ to ! s\ls 9 purgatory ?an ! ,canadians1 !re is no exagg]ation 9 say+ t !y give z mu* z our p2 #af1jjj at lea/ w ?us be giv5 e day 9 ^! two c\ntries to ?r[ cold wat] on ! burn+ flames ( t fi]y prison4 ,n[1 ^! #af1jjj giv5 e day1 multipli$ by ! #cfe days ( ! ye>1 make ! h&some sum ( #e1hdj1jjj paid = t object 9 l[ masses1 e ye>4 ,b1 z we all "k1 t m ?an twice z mu* is paid = high masses ?an = ! l[1 x is evid5t t m ?an #aj1jjj1jjj are exp5d$ to help ! s\ls ( purgatory end _! tortures e twelve mon?s1 9 ,nor? ,am]ica alone4 ,if ^? millions ( doll>s d n b5efit ! good s\ls 9 purgatory1 !y at all ev5ts are ( "s b5efit to our pi\s bi%ops & holy popes1 9 ^: h&s ! greate/ "p mu/ rema9 till ! day ( judgm5t4 ,= !re is n a suffici5t numb] ( prie/s 9 ! _w to say all ! masses :i* are paid = by ! p4 ,i d n "k any m ?an y d ab\t :at ! bi%ops d ) ^? millions ( doll>s2 !y keep t among _! secret good works4 ,b x is evid5t !re is a s]i\s my/]y "h4 ,i d n mean to say t ! ,yankee & ! ,canadian bi%ops swall[ ^? huge piles ( doll>s z sweet oranges2 or t !y are a b& ( big sw9dl]s1 :o employ small] ones1 call$ ,revs4 ,tetu1 ,baill>geon1 ,*9iquy1 ,p>5t1 etc41 to fill _! treasuries4 ,b1 if y want to "k my m9d on t delicate subject1 ,i w tell y t ! lea/ we ?9k & speak ( x1 ! bett] x is = u4 ,e "t my ?\ghts turn to ^? /reams ( money :i* day & night fl[ f ! small purses ( our pi\s & unsuspect+ p into our h&s1 & f ours into ^? ( ! bi%ops1 ,i feel z if ,i 7 *ok+4 ,if ,i am at ! table ,i c nei!r eat nor dr9k1 & if 9 my b$ at night1 ,i _c sleep4 ,b z ,i l to eat1 dr9k & sleep1 ,i reject ^? ?\ghts z mu* z possible1 & ,i advise y to d ! same ?+40 ,! o!r vic>s seem$ incl9$1 ) ,mr4 ,p>5t1 to accept t conclusion2 b1 z ,i _h n said a s+le ^w1 !y reque/$ me to give !m my views on t vexati\s subject1 :i* ,i did 9 ! foll[+ brief words3 8,!re are _m ?+s 9 our holy *ur* :i* look l d>k spots2 b ,i hope t ?is is due only to our ignorance4 ,no d\bt ^! v ?+s w\ld look z :ite z sn[1 7 we to see & "k !m j z !y are4 ,our holy bi%ops1 ) ! majority ( ! ,ca?olic prie/s ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates & ,canada1 _c be t b& ( ?ieves & sw9dl]s ^: phantoms *ill ! blood ( our wor?y curate4 ,s long z we d n "k :at ! bi%ops d ) ^? numb]less masses paid into _! h&s1 ,i pref] to believe t !y act z hone/ m540 ,i _h h>dly said ^! few words1 :5 ,i 0 call$ to visit a sick p>i%ion]1 & ! conv]sation 0 end$4 ,eight days lat]1 ,i 0 alone 9 my room1 read+ ! 8,l'ami de la ,religion et du ,roi10 a pap] :i* ,i receiv$ f ,p>is1 edit$ by ,picot4 ,my curiosity 0 n a little excit$1 :5 ,i read1 at ! head ( a page1 9 l>ge lett]s3 8,admirable ,piety ( ! ,fr5* ,canadian ,p40 ,! read+ ( t page made me %$ te>s ( %ame1 & %ook my fai? to its f\ndation4 ,unable to conta9 myself1 ,i ran to ! rooms ( ! curate & ! vic>s1 & said to !m3 8,a few days ago we tri$1 b 9 va91 to f9d :at becomes ( ! l>ge sums ( money :i* pass f ! p1 ?r\gh our h&s1 into ^? ( ! bi%op1 to say masses2 b "h is ! answ]1 ,i h ! key to t my/]y1 :i* is wor?y ( ! d>ke/ ages ( ! ,*ur*4 ,i wi% ,i 7 dead1 r ?an see ) my own eyes su* abom9ations40 ,we !n read t long *apt]1 ! sub/ance ( :i* 0 t ! v5]able bi%ops ( ,quebec _h s5t n less ?an "o hundr$ ?\s& francs1 at diff]5t times1 to ! prie/s ( ,p>is1 t !y might say f\r hundr$ ?\s& masses at five c5ts ea*6 ,"h we _h ! sad evid5ce t our bi%ops _h tak5 f\r hundr$ ?\s& francs f our poor p1 "u ! pretext ( sav+ ! s\ls f purgatory6 ,t article fell ^u u z a ?und]bolt4 ,= a long "t we look$ at ea* o!r )\t be+ able to utt] a s+le ^w2 our tongues 7 z p>alyz$ by our %ame2 we felt z vile crim9als :5 detect$ on ! spot4 ,at la/1 ,baill>geon1 address+ ! curate1 said3 8,is x possible t our bi%ops are sw9dl]s1 & we1 _! tools to defraud our p8 ,:at w\ld t p say1 if !y knew t n only we d n say ! masses = :i* !y con/antly fill our h&s ) _! h>d-e>n$ money1 b t we s5d ^? masses to be said 9 ,p>is = five c5ts6 ,:at w our good p ?9k ( u all :5 !y "k t our bi%op pockets tw5ty c5ts out ( ea* mass !y ask u to celebrate accord+ to _! wi%es40 ,! curate answ]$3 8,x is v lucky t ! p d n "k t %>p op]ation ( our bi%ops1 = !y w\ld surely ?r[ u all into ! riv]4 ,let u keep t %ameful trade z secret z possible4 ,= :at is ! crime ( simony if ?is be n an in/ance ( x80 ,i repli$3 8,h[ c y hope to keep t traffic ( ! body & blood ( ,*ri/ a secret1 :5 n less ?an #dj1jjj copies ( ?is pap] are circulat$ 9 ,france1 & m ?an #ajj copies come to ! ,unit$ ,/ates & ,canada8 ,! dang] is great] ?an y suspect2 x is ev5 at our doors4 ,is x n on acc\nt ( su* public & und5iable crimes & vile tricks ( ! cl]gy ( ,france t ! ,fr5* p 9 g5]al1 n only h lo/ almo/ e ve/ige ( religion1 b1 n half a c5tury ago1 condemn$ all ! prie/s & bi%ops ( ,france to dea? z public malefactors8 8,b t %>p m]cantile op]ation ( our bi%ops takes a /ill d>k] color1 :5 we consid] t ^? #8five-c5t masses' :i* are said 9 ,p>is are n wor? a c5t4 ,= :o among u is ignorant ( ! fact t ! greate/ "p ( ! prie/s ( ,p>is are infidels1 & t _m ( !m live publicly ) concub9es8 ,w\ld our p put _! money 9 our h&s if we 7 hone/ en\gh to tell !m t _! masses w\ld be said = five c5ts 9 ,p>is by su* prie/s8 ,d we n deceive !m :5 we accept _! money1 "u ! well und]/ood condition t we %all (f] ! holy sacrifice accord+ to _! wi%es8 ,b1 in/ead ( t1 we get x s5t to ,france1 to be dispos$ ( 9 su* a crim9al way4 ,b1 if y all[ me to speak a little m1 ,i h ano!r /range fact to consid] ) y1 :i* is closely connect$ ) ?is simonical op]ation40 8,yes6 speak1 speak60 answ]$ all f\r prie/s4 ,i !n resum$3 8,d y rememb] h[ y 7 entic$ into ! #8,?ree ,masses ,society8' ,:o among u _h ! idea t ! new obligations we 7 !n assum+ 7 su* t ! greate/ "p ( ! ye> w\ld be sp5t 9 say+ masses = ! prie/s1 & t x w\ld ?us become impossible to satisfy ! pi\s dem&s ( ! p :o support u8 ,we already belong$ to ! societies ( ! ,bless$ ,virg9 ,m>y & ( ,/4 ,mi*ael1 :i* rais$ to five ! numb] ( masses we _h to celebrate = ! dead prie/s4 ,dazzl$ by ! idea t we w\ld h two ?\s& masses said = u at our dea?1 we bit at ! bait pres5t$ to u by ! bi%op z hungry fi%es1 )\t suspect+ ! hook4 ,! result is t we h _h to say #afe masses = ! #cc prie/s :o di$ dur+ ! pa/ ye>1 :i* means t ea* ( u has to pay #da4jj to ! bi%op = masses :i* he has _h said 9 ,p>is = #h4jj4 ,ea* mass :i* we celebrate = a dead prie/ "h1 is a mass :i* ! bi%op s5ds to ,p>is1 on :i* he ga9s tw5ty c5ts4 ,!n ! m prie/s he enrolls 9 8 society ( #8,?ree ,masses1' ! m tw5ty c5ts he pockets f u & f our pi\s p4 ,h5ce 8 admirable zeal to enroll e "o ( u4 ,x is n ! value ( ! money :i* our bi%op s skilfully got f our h&s :i* ,i consid]1 b ,i feel desolate :5 ,i see t by ^! societies we become ! accomplices ( 8 simonical trade4 ,=1 be+ =c$ ! greate/ "p ( ! ye> to celebrate ! holy sacrifice = ! b5efit ( ! dead prie/s1 we _c celebrate ! masses = :i* we are daily paid by ! p1 & are !re=e =c$ to transf] !m into ! h&s ( ! bi%op1 :o s5ds !m to ,p>is1 aft] spirit+ away tw5ty c5ts f ea* ( !m4 ,h[ev]1 :y %\ld we lam5t ov] ! pa/8 ,x is no m )9 our rea*4 ,!re is no rem$y = x4 ,let u !n le>n f ! pa/ errors h[ to be wise 9 ! future40 ,mr4 ,tetu answ]$3 8,y h %[n u our error4 ,n[1 c y indicate any rem$y80 8,i _c say t ! rem$y we h 9 h& is "o ( ^? pat5t$ m$ic9es :i* w cure all ! diseases ( our sickly *ur* 9 ,canada1 b ,i hope x w help to br+ a spe$y convalesc5ce4 ,t rem$y is to aboli% ! society ( #8,?ree ,masses1' & to e/abli% ano!r ( #8,"o ,mass1' :i* w be said at ! dea? ( e prie/4 ,9 t way x is true t in/ead ( #b1jjj masses1 we %all h only #a1bjj at our dea?4 ,b if #a1bjj masses d n op5 to u ! gates ( heav51 x is because we %all be 9 hell4 ,by t r$uction we %all be enabl$ to say m masses at ! reque/ ( our p1 & %all dim9i% ! numb] ( five-c5t masses said by ! prie/s ( ,p>is at ! reque/ ( our bi%op4 ,if y take my advice1 we w imm$iately "n ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,tetu presid5t ( ! new society1 ,mr4 ,p>5t w be its treasur]1 & ,i cons5t to act z y\r secret>y1 if y l x4 ,:5 our society is organiz$1 we w s5d our resignations to ! presid5t ( ! o!r society1 & we %all imm$iately address a circul> to all ! prie/s1 to give !m ! reason = ! *ange1 & respectfully ask !m to unite ) u 9 ?is new society1 9 ord] to dim9i% ! numb] ( masses :i* are celebrat$ by ! five-c5t prie/s ( ,p>is40 ,)9 two h\rs ! new society 0 fully organiz$1 ! reasons ( its =mation writt5 9 a book1 & our names 7 s5t to ! bi%op1 ) a respectful lett] in=m+ him t we 7 no m memb]s ( ! #8,?ree ,masses ,society4' ,t lett] 0 sign$1 8,c4 ,*9iquy1 ,secret>y40 ,?ree h\rs lat]1 ,i receiv$ ! foll[+ note f ! bi%op's palace3 8,my ,"l ,bi%op ( ,quebec wants to see y imm$iately ^u important affairs4 ,d n fail to come )\t delay4 ,truly y\rs1 8,,*>les ,f4 ,,cazeault1 ,sec'y40 ,i %[$ ! missive to ! curate & ! vic>s1 & told !m3 8,a big /orm is rag+ on ! m\nta92 ?is is ! fir/ peal ( ?und]--! atmosph]e looks d>k & heavy4 ,pray = me t ,i may speak & act z an hone/ & fe>less prie/1 :5 9 ! pres5ce ( ! bi%op40 ,9 ! fir/ p>lor ( ! bi%op's palace ,i met my p]sonal fri5d1 ,secret>y ,cazeault4 ,he said to me3 8,my de> ,*9iquy1 y are sail+ on a r\gh sea--y mu/ be a lucky m>9] if y escape ! wreck4 ,! bi%op is v angry at y2 b be n disc\rag$1 = ! "r is on y\r side40 ,he !n k9dly op5$ ! door ( ! bi%op's p>lor1 & said3 8,my "l1 ,mr4 ,*9iquy is "h1 wait+ = y\r ord]s40 8,let him come1 sir10 answ]$ ! bi%op4 ,i ent]$ & ?rew myself at 8 feet1 z x is ! usage ( ! prie/s4 ,b1 /epp+ backw>d1 he told me 9 a mo/ excit$ mann]3 8,i h no b5$iction = y till y give me a satisfactory explanation ( y\r /range conduct40 ,i arose to my feet & said3 8,my "l1 :at d y want f me80 8,i want y1 sir1 to expla9 to me ! mean+ ( ?is lett] sign$ by y z secret>y ( a new-born society call$1 #8,"o ,mass ,society4'0 ,at ! same "t he %[$ me my lett]4 ,i answ]$ him3 8,my "l1 ! lett] is 9 good ,fr5*--y\r lord%ip mu/ h und]/ood x well4 ,i _c see h[ any explanation on my "p c\ld make x cle>]40 8,:at ,i want to "k f y1 is :at y mean1 & :at is y\r object 9 leav+ ! old & respectable #8,?ree ,masses ,society8' ,is x n compos$ ( y\r bi%ops & ( all ! prie/s ( ,canada8 ,did y n f9d y\rself 9 suffici5tly good company8 ,d y object to ! pray]s said = ! s\ls 9 purgatory80 ,i repli$3 8,my "l1 ,i w answ] by reveal+ to y\r lord%ip a fact :i* has n suffici5tly attract$ y\r att5tion4 ,! great numb] ( masses :i* we h to say = ! s\ls ( ! dead prie/s makes x impossible = u to say ! masses = :i* ! p pay into our h&s2 we are1 !n1 =c$ to transf] ?is money into y\r h&s2 & !n in/ead ( hav+ ^! holy sacrifices (f]$ by ! good prie/s ( ,canada1 y\r lord%ip has rec\rse to ! prie/s ( ,france1 :]e y get !m said = five c5ts4 ,we see two great evils 9 ?is3 ,fir/--,our masses are said by prie/s 9 :om we h n ! lea/ confid5ce2 & ?\gh ! masses !y say are v *eap1 !y are too de>ly pur*as$2 = betwe5 y & me1 we c say t1 ) v few exceptions1 ! masses said by ! prie/s ( ,france1 p>ticul>ly ( ,p>is1 are n wor? "o c5t4 ,! second evil is /ill great]1 = 9 our eyes1 x is "o ( ! greate/ crimes :i* our holy *ur* has always condemn$1 ! crime ( simony40 8,d y mean to say10 indignantly repli$ ! bi%op1 8t ,i am guilty ( ! crime ( simony80 8,yes6 my "l2 x is j :at ,i mean to say1 & ,i d n see h[ y\r lord%ip does n und]/& t ! trade 9 masses by :i* y ga9 #djj1jjj francs on a spiritual m]*&ise1 :i* y get = #ajj1jjj1 is n simony40 8,y insult me6 ,y are ! mo/ impud5t man ,i ev] saw4 ,if y d n retract :at y h said1 ,i w susp5d & excommunicate y60 8,my susp5sion & my excommunication w n make ! position ( y\r lord%ip mu* bett]4 ,= ! p w "k t y h excommunicat$ me because ,i prote/$ aga9/ y\r trade 9 masses4 ,!y w "k t y pocket tw5ty c5ts on e mass1 & t y get !m said = five c5ts 9 ,p>is by prie/s1 ! greate/ "p ( :om live ) concub9es1 & y w see t !re w be only "o voice 9 ,canada to bless me = my prote/ & to condemn y = y\r simoniacal trade on su* a sacr$ ?+ z ! holy & trem5d\s sacrifice ( ! body1 blood1 s\l & div9ity ( ,jesus ,*ri/40 ,i utt]$ ^! words ) su* p]fect calmness t ! bi%op saw t ,i _h n ! lea/ fe> ( 8 ?und]s4 ,he began to pace ! room1 & he heap$ on my devot$ head all ! epi!ts by :i* ,i c\ld le>n t ,i 0 an insol5t1 rebelli\s & dang]\s prie/4 8,x is evid5t to me10 said he1 8t y aim to be a re=m]1 a ,lu!r1 au petit pi$1 9 ,canada4 ,b y w nev] be any?+ else ?an a monkey60 ,i saw t my bi%op 0 beside himself1 & t my p]fect calmness add$ to 8 irritation4 ,i answ]$ him3 8,if ,lu!r _h nev] done any?+ worse ?an ,i d to-day1 he ought to be bless$ by ,god & man4 ,i respectfully reque/ y\r lord%ip to be calm4 ,! subject on :i* ,i speak to y is m s]i\s ?an y ?9k4 ,y\r lord%ip1 by ask+ tw5ty-five c5ts = a mass :i* c be said = five c5ts1 does a ?+ :i* y w\ld condemn if x 7 done by ano!r man4 ,y are digg+ "u y\r own feet1 & "u ! feet ( y\r prie/s ! same abyss 9 :i* ! ,*ur* ( ,france ne>ly p]i%$1 n half a c5tury ago4 ,y are de/roy+ ) y\r own h&s e ve/ige ( religion 9 ! he>ts ( ! p1 :o w soon] or lat] "k x4 ,i am y\r be/ fri5d1 y\r mo/ respectful prie/1 :5 ,i fe>lessly tell y ?is tru? be=e x is too late4 ,y\r lord%ip kn[s t he has n a prie/ :o loves & *]i%es him m ?an ,i d--,god kn[s1 x is because ,i love & respect y1 z my own fa!r1 t ,i pr(\ndly deplore ! illusions :i* prev5t y f see+ ! t]rible consequ5ces t w foll[1 if our pi\s p le>n t y abuse _! ignorance & _! good fai?1 by mak+ !m pay tw5ty-five c5ts = a ?+ :i* co/s only five4 ,woe to y\r lord%ip6 ,woe to me1 woe to our holy *ur*1 ! day t our p "k t 9 our holy religion ! blood ( ,*ri/ is turn$ into m]*&ise to fill ! treasury ( ! bi%ops & pope60 ,x 0 evid5t t ^! la/ words1 said ) mo/ p]fect self-possession1 _h n all be5 lo/4 ,! bi%op _h become calm]4 ,he answ]$ me3 8,y are "y & )\t exp]i5ce3 y\r imag9ation is easily f$ ) phantoms4 ,:5 y "k a little m1 y w *ange y\r m9d & w h m respect = y\r sup]iors4 ,i hope y\r pres5t error is only a mom5t>y "o4 ,i c\ld puni% y = ?is fre$om ) :i* y h d>$ to speak to y\r bi%op1 b ,i pref] to w>n y to be m respectful & ob$i5t 9 future4 ,?\gh ,i deplore = y\r sake t y h reque/$ me to take away y\r "n f ! #8,?ree ,masses ,society1' y & ! f\r simpletons :o h committ$ ! same act ( folly are ! only los]s 9 ! matt]4 ,in/ead ( two ?\s& masses said = ! deliv]ance ( y\r s\ls f ! flames ( purgatory1 y w h only twelve hundr$4 ,b1 be sure ( x1 !re is too mu* wisdom & true piety 9 my cl]gy to foll[ y\r example4 ,y w be left alone1 &1 ,i fe>1 cov]$ ) ridicule4 ,= !y w call y ! #8little re=m]4'0 ,i answ]$ ! bi%op3 8,i am "y1 x is true1 b ! tru?s ,i h said to y\r lord%ip are z old z ! gospel4 ,i h su* confid5ce 9 ! inf9ite m]its ( ! holy sacrifice ( ! mass1 t ,i s9c]ely believe t twelve hundr$ masses said by good prie/s are en\gh to cleanse my s\l & ext+ui% ! flames ( purgatory4 ,b1 besides1 ,i pref] twelve hundr$ masses said by "o hundr$ s9c]e ,canadian prie/s1 to a million said by ! five-c5t prie/s ( ,p>is40 ,^! la/ words1 spok5 ) a tone half s]i\s1 half jocose1 br\ght a *ange on ! face ( my bi%op4 ,i ?\ght x 0 a good mom5t to get my b5$iction & take leave ( him4 ,i took my hat1 knelt at 8 feet1 obta9$ 8 bless+ & left4 ,,*apt] ,,xxvi ,,cont9uation ,,( ,,! ,,trade ,,9 ,,masses4 ,! h\r ( my abs5ce _h be5 "o ( anxiety = ! curate & ! vic>s4 ,b my prompt return fill$ !m ) joy4 8,:at news60 !y all exclaim$4 8,good news10 ,i answ]$2 8! battle has be5 fi]ce b %ort4 ,we h ga9$ ! day2 & if we are only true to ourselves1 ano!r great victory is 9 /ore = u4 ,! bi%op is s sure t we are ! only ones :o ?9k ( t re=m1 t he w n move a f+] to prev5t ! o!r prie/s f foll[+ u4 ,?is security w make our success infallible4 ,b we mu/ n lose a mom5t4 ,let u address our circul> to e prie/ 9 ,canada40 ,"o h\r lat] !re 7 m ?an tw5ty writ]s at "w1 & be=e tw5ty-f\r h\rs1 m ?an ?ree hundr$ lett]s 7 c>ri$ to all ! prie/s1 giv+ !m ! reasons :y we %\ld try1 by all fair means1 to put an end to ! %ameful simoniacal trade 9 masses :i* 0 go+ on betwe5 ,canada & ,france4 ,! week 0 sc>cely end$1 :5 lett]s came f ne>ly all ! curates & vic>s to ! bi%op1 respectfully reque/+ him to )draw 8 "n f 8,! ,society ( ! ,?ree ,masses40 ,only fifty refus$ to comply ) our reque/4 ,our victory 0 m complete ?an we _h expect$4 ,b ! bi%op ( ,quebec1 hop+ to rega9 8 lo/ gr\nd1 imm$iately wrote to ! bi%op ( ,montreal1 my ,"l ,telemesse1 to come to 8 help & %[ u ! enormity ( ! crime we _h committ$1 9 rebell+ aga9/ ! w ( our ecclesia/ical sup]iors4 ,a few days lat]1 to my great dismay1 ,i receiv$ a %ort & v cold note f ! bi%op's secret>y1 tell+ me t _! lord%ips1 ! bi%ops ( ,montreal & ,quebec1 want$ to see me at ! palace1 )\t delay4 ,i _h nev] se5 ! bi%op ( ,montreal1 & my surprise & disappo9tm5t 7 great 9 f9d+ myself 9 ! pres5ce ( a man1 my idea ( :om 0 ( gigantic proportions1 :5 9 reality he 0 v small4 ,b ,i felt exce$+ly well pleas$ by ! admirable mixture ( firmness1 intellig5ce & hone/y ( 8 :ole demeanor4 ,8 eyes 7 pi]c+ z ! eagle's2 b :5 fix$ on me1 ,i saw 9 !m ! m>ks ( a noble & hone/ he>t4 ,! motions ( 8 head 7 rapid1 8 s5t5ces %ort1 & he seem$ to "k only "o l9e--! /raight "o--:5 approa*+ a subject or deal+ ) a man4 ,he _h ! m]it$ reputation ( be+ "o ( ! mo/ le>n$ & eloqu5t m5 ( ,canada4 ,! bi%op ( ,quebec _h rema9$ on 8 s(a & left ! bi%op ( ,montreal to receive me4 ,i fell at 8 feet & ask$ 8 bless+1 :i* he gave me 9 ! mo/ cordial way4 ,!n1 putt+ 8 h& ^u my %\ld]1 he said 9 a ,quak] /yle3 8,is x possible t ?\ art ,*9iquy--t "y prie/ :o makes s mu* noise8 ,h[ c su* a small man make s mu* noise80 ,!re be+ a smile on 8 c\nt5ance z he utt]$ ^! words1 ,i saw at once t !re 0 no ang] or bad feel+ 9 8 he>t4 ,i repli$3 8,my "l1 d y n "k t ! mo/ preci\s pe>ls & p]fumes are put up 9 ! smalle/ vases80 ,! bi%op saw t ?is 0 a complim5t to 8 address2 he smil+ly repli$3 8,well1 well1 if ?\ art a noisy prie/1 ?\ art n a fool4 ,b tell me1 :y do/ ?\ want to de/roy our #8,?ree ,mass ,society' & e/abli% t new "o on its ru9s1 9 spite ( ?y sup]iors80 8,my "l1 my answ] w be z respectful1 %ort & pla9 z possible4 ,i h left ! #8,?ree ,mass ,society' because x 0 my "r to d x1 )\t anybody's p]mission4 ,i hope our v5]able ,canadian bi%ops d n wi% to be s]v$ by slaves60 8,i d n say10 repli$ ! bi%op1 8t ?\ w]t b\nd 9 consci5ce to rema9 9 ! #8,?ree ,mass ,society2' b1 c ,i "k :y ?\ ha/ left su* a respectable association1 at ! head ( :i* ?\ see/ ?y bi%ops & ! mo/ v5]able prie/s 9 ,canada80 8,i w aga9 be pla9 9 my answ]1 my "l4 ,if y\r lord%ip wants to g to hell ) y\r v5]able prie/s by spirit+ away tw5ty c5ts f e "o ( our hone/ & pi\s p5it5ts = masses :i* y get said = five1 by bad prie/s 9 ,p>is1 ,i w n foll[ y4 ,moreov]1 if y\r lord%ip wants to be ?r[n into ! riv] by ! furi\s p1 :5 !y "k h[ long & h[ cunn+ly we h *eat$ !m ) our simoniacal trade 9 masses1 ,i d n want to foll[ y into ! cold /ream40 8,well1 well60 answ]$ ! bi%op1 8let u drop t matt] =ev]40 ,he utt]$ ?is %ort s5t5ce ) su* an evid5ce ( s9c]ity & hone/y1 t ,i saw he really meant x4 ,he _h1 at a glance1 se5 t 8 gr\nd 0 unt5able1 9 ! pres5ce ( prie/s :o knew _! rights & _h a m9d to /& by !m4 ,my joy 0 great inde$ at su* a prompt & complete victory4 ,i aga9 fell at ! bi%op's feet & ask$ 8 b5$iction be=e tak+ leave ( him4 ,i !n left to g & tell ! curates & vic>s ! happy issue ( my int]view ) ! bi%op ( ,montreal4 ,f t "t till n[1 at ! dea? ( e prie/1 ! ,cl]ical ,press nev] fail$ m5tion+ :e!r ! deceas$ prie/ belong$ to ! 8,?ree0 or 8,"o ,mass ,society40 ,we _h1 to "s ext5t1 dim9i%$ ! simoniacal & infam\s trade 9 masses1 b un=tunately we _h n de/roy$ x2 & ,i "k t to-day x has reviv$4 ,s9ce ,i left ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 ! bi%ops ( ,quebec h rais$ ! 8,?ree ,mass ,society0 f its grave4 ,x is a public fact1 t no prie/ d>e d5y1 t ! trade 9 masses is /ill conduct$ on a l>ge scale ) ,france4 ,!re are 9 ,p>is & o!r l>ge cities 9 t c\ntry public ag5cies to c>ry on t %ameful traffic4 ,x is1 g5]ally1 9 ! h&s ( booksell]s or m]*ants ( *ur* ornam5ts4 ,e ye> _! h\ses s5d a l>ge numb] ( prospectuses ?r\gh ,france & ,belgium & o!r ,ca?olic c\ntries1 9 :i* !y say t1 9 ord] to help ! prie/s1 :o hav+ receiv$ money = _! masses1 don't "k :]e to h !m said1 !y (f] a premium ( tw5ty-five or ?irty p] c5t4 to ^? :o w s5d !m ! surplus ( ! money !y h 9 h&1 to (f] ! ,holy ,sacrifice ( ! ,mass4 ,! prie/s :o h su* surplus1 tempt$ by t premium1 :i* is usually paid ) a wat* or *a91 or a *alice1 disgorge a "p or ! :ole ( ! l>ge sums !y possess into ! h&s ( ! pi\s m]*ants1 :o take ?is money & use x z !y please4 ,b !y nev] pay ! masses 9 money1 !y give only m]*&ise4 ,= in/ance1 t prie/ w receive a wat* if he promises to celebrate "o or two hundr$ masses1 or a *alice to celebrate ?ree or f\r hundr$ masses4 ,i h1 "h 9 h&1 sev]al ( ! contracts or promissory notes s5t by ^? m]*ants ( masses to ! prie/s4 ,! public w1 no d\bt1 read ! foll[+ docum5ts ) int]e/4 ,!y 7 h&$ me by a prie/ lately conv]t$ f ! ,*ur* ( ,rome3 ,,rue ,,de ,,reimes--,,p>is4 ,ant4 ,levesques1 editor ( ! works ( ,mr4 ,dufri*e--,desg5ettes4 ,cure ( ,notre ,dame des ,victoires4 ,deliv]$ to ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,cam]le1 curate ( ,ansibeau 7,basses ,alpes74 ,,p>is1 ,octob] #ab1 #ahgd4 ,f4 #aj metres ( ,sat9 clo?1 at #bb francs #bbj4 #h 0 ( m]9o1 all wool #abc4 ,mon? ( ,may #b4 ,hi/ory ( ,m>y ,*ri/9a #a4dj ,life ( ,/4 ,/anislas ,koska #b4 ,m$itations ( ! ,s\l #d4 ,jesus ,*ri/1 ! light ( ! _w #b4 ,pack+ & freight #i4cj ------ ,total #cfc4gj ,,mr4 ,,curate3 ,we h ! honor ( in=m+ y t ! packages conta9+ ! articles y h ord]$ on ! #d? ( ,octob]1 7 %ipp$ on ! #ab? ( ,octob]1 to ,digne1 :]e we respectfully reque/ y to g & ask = !m4 ,= ! paym5t ( ^! articles1 we reque/ y to say ! foll[+ masses3 #eh ad int5tionem ( ! giv]1 = ! dis*>ge ( ,rev4 ,mr4 ,montet4 #eh ad int5tionem ( ! giv]s1 = ! dis*>ge ( ,rev4 ,mr4 ,hg4 #ajj-ahh = ! dead1 = ! dis*>ge ( ,rev4 ,mr4 ,wod4 ,,mr4 ,,curate3 ,w y be k9d en\gh to say or h said all ^? masses 9 ! %orte/ "t possible1 & answ] ^! ,rev'd g5tlem51 if !y make any inquiries ab\t ! acquittal ( ^? masses4 ,respectfully y\rs1 7,sign$7 ,,ant4 ,,levesques4 ,,p>is1 ,nov4 #aa1 #ahgd4 ,,rev4 ,,mr4 ,,cam]le3 ,we h ! honor ( address+ y ! invoice ( :at we =w>d$ to y on ! #ab? ( ,octob]4 ,on acc\nt we h put to y\r cr$it #ahh masses4 ,we respectfully reque/ y get said to ! foll[+ int5tions3 #gc = ! dead1 to ! acquittal ( ,rev4 ,mr4 ,watt]s1 #gj pro defucto1 ,= ! dis*>ge #bj ad int5tionem donatis1 ( ,rev4 ,mr4 ,c---- #ac ad int5tionem donatis1 ---- #agf ,,mr4 ,,curate3 ,be k9d en\gh to say ^! masses or h !m said z soon z possible1 & answ] ! rev]5d g5tlem5 :o may inquire f y ab\t _! acquittal4 ,! #ahh masses m5tion$ 9 our lett] ( ! #crd in/41 add$ to ! #agf "h m5tion$1 make #cfd francs1 ! value ( ! goods s5t y4 ,we ?\ght y w\ld l to h ! pamphlets ( propag&a we address y4 ,respectfully y\rs1 ,sign$3 ,,ant4 ,,levesques4 ,h5ce x is t prie/s1 9 ,france & else:]e1 h gold wat*es1 ri* h\se furniture1 & int]e/+ books1 pur*as$ ) ! money paid by our poor delud$ ,canadian ,ca?olics to _! prie/s = masses :i* are turn$ into m]cantile commodities 9 o!r places4 ,x w\ld be difficult to say :o makes ! be/ b>ga9 betwe5 ^? m]*ants ( masses1 ! prie/s to :om !y are sold1 or ^? f :om !y are b\ght at a disc\nt ( tw5ty-five to ?irty p] c5t4 ,! only evid5t ?+ is ! cruel deception practic$ on ! cr$ulity & ignorance ( ! ,roman ,ca?olics by _! prie/s & bi%ops4 ,to-day1 ! h\ses ( ,dr4 ,an?ony ,levesques 9 ,p>is are ! mo/ accr$it$ 9 ,france4 ,9 #ahgd1 ! h\se ( ,mesme 0 do+ an imm5se bus9ess ) its /ock ( masses1 b 9 an evil day1 ! ,gov]nm5t suspect$ t ! numb] ( masses paid into _! h&s1 exce$$ ! numb] ( ^? celebrat$ ?r\gh _! hir$ prie/s4 ,! suspicion soon turn$ into c]ta9ty :5 ! books 7 exam9$4 ,x 0 !n f\nd t an incr$ible numb] ( masses1 :i* 7 to empty ! l>ge room ( purgatory1 nev] rea*$ _! de/9ation1 b only fill$ ! purse ( ! ,p>isian mass m]*ant2 & s ! unlucky ,mesme 0 unc]emoni\sly s5t to ! p5it5ti>y to m$itate on ! inf9ite m]its ( ! holy sacrifice ( ! mass1 :i* _h be5 engulf$ 9 8 treasures4 ,b ^! facts are n kn[n by ! poor ,roman ,ca?olics ( ,canada1 :o are fleec$ m & m by _! prie/s1 "u ! pretext ( sav+ s\ls f purgatory4 ,a new elem5t ( success 9 ! l>ge sw9dl+ op]ations ( ! ,canadian prie/s has lately be5 discov]$4 ,x is well kn[n t 9 ! great] "p ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 ! poor delud$ ,iri% pay "o doll> to _! prie/1 in/ead ( a %ill+1 = a l[ mass4 ,^? prie/s ^: consci5ce are suffici5tly ela/ic 7z is (t5 ! case71 keep ! money )\t ev] ?9k+ ( hav+ ! masses said1 & soon get ri*4 ,b !re are "s ^: natural hone/y %r9ks f ! idea ( /eal+2 b unable to celebrate all ! masses paid = & reque/$ at _! h&s1 !y s5d ! doll>s to "s ( _! cl]ical fri5ds 9 ,canada1 :o1 ( c\rse1 pref] ^! "o doll> masses to ! tw5ty-five c5t ones paid by ! ,fr5* ,canadians4 ,h[ev]1 !y keep t secret & cont9ue to fill _! treasury4 ,!re are1 h[ev]1 _m prie/s 9 ,canada :o ?9k x less evil to keep ^? l>ge sums ( money 9 _! own h&s1 ?an to give !m to ! bi%ops to traffic ) ! m]*ants ( ,p>is4 ,at ! end ( "o ( ! ecclesia/ical retreats 9 ! sem9>y ( ,/4 ,sulpice 9 #ahej1 ,bi%op ,b\rget told u t "o ( ! prie/s :o _h lately di$1 _h reque/$ him1 9 ! "n ( ,jesus ,*ri/1 to ask e prie/ to take a %>e 9 ! #d1jjj :i* he _h receiv$ = masses he _h nev] said4 ,we refus$ to grant him t favor1 & ^? #d1jjj receiv$ by t prie/1 l ! millions put into ! h&s ( o!r prie/s & ! bi%ops1 turn$ to be no?+ less ?an an infam\s sw9dl+ op]ation "u ! mask ( religion4 ,to und]/& :at ! prie/s ( ,rome are1 let ! read]s note :at is said 9 ! ,roman ,ca?olic ,bible1 ( ! prie/ ( ,babylon3 8,& ,k+ ,a/yges 0 ga!r$ to 8 fa!rs1 & ,cyrus1 ( ,p]sia1 receiv$ 8 k+dom1 & ,daniel conv]s$ ) ! k+1 & 0 honor$ above all 8 fri5ds4 ,n[ ! ,babylonians _h an idol1 call$ ,bel1 & !re 7 sp5t ^u him1 e day1 twelve measures ( f9e fl\r1 & =ty %eep & six vessels ( w9e4 ,& ! k+ wor%ipp$ x & w5t daily to adore3 b ,daniel wor%ipp$ 8 own ,god1 & ! k+ said unto him3 #8,:y do/ ?\ n wor%ip ,bel8' :o answ]$ & said3 #8because ,i may n wor%ip idols made ) h&s1 b ! liv+ ,god1 :o ha? creat$ ! heav5s & ! e>?1 & ha? sov]eignty ov] all fle%4' ,!n ! k+ said3 #8,?9ke/ ?\ n t ,bel is a liv+ ,god6 ,see/ ?\ n h[ mu* he eate? & dr9ke? e day8' 8,!n ,daniel smil$ & said3 #8,oh1 k+6 be n deceiv$2 = ?is is b clay )9 & brass )\t1 & did nev] eat or dr9k any?+4' 8,s ! k+ 0 wro?1 & call$ = 8 prie/s & said3 #8,if ye tell me n :o ?is is t dev\re? ^! exp5ses1 ye %all die2 b if ye c c]tify me t ,bel dev\re? !m1 !n ,daniel %all die1 = he has spok5 blasphemy aga9/ ,bel4' ,& ,daniel said unto ! k+3 #8,let x be accord+ to ?y ^w4' 8,n[ ! prie/s ( ,bel 7 ?ree score & t51 besides _! wives & *ildr54 8,& ! k+ w5t ) ,daniel to ! temple ( ,bel--s ,bel's prie/s said3 #8,lo6 we got out1 b ?\1 ,o k+1 set on ! meat1 & make ready ! w9e1 & %ut ! door fa/1 & seal x ) ?9e own signet2 & to-morr[ :5 ?\ come/ 91 if ?\ f9de/ n t ,bel ha? eat5 up all1 we w suff] dea?2 or else1 ,daniel1 t speake? falsely aga9/ ,bel %all die--& !y little reg>d$ x1 = "u ! table !y _h made a privy entrance1 :]eby !y ent]$ cont9ually & consum$ ^? ?+s4' 8,s :5 !y 7 gone =?1 ! k+ set meats be=e ,bel4 8,n[ ,daniel _h comm&$ 8 s]vants to br+ a%es1 & ^? !y /rew$ ?r\gh\t all ! temple1 9 ! pres5ce ( ! k+ alone3 !n !y w5t out1 & %ut ! door1 & seal$ x ) ! k+'s signet1 & s dep>t$4 8,n[ 9 ! night came ! prie/s1 ) _! wives & *ildr51 z !y 7 wont to d1 & did eat & dr9k up all4 8,9 ! morn+ betimes ! k+ arose1 & ,daniel ) him4 8,& ! k+ said1 #8,daniel1 are ! seals :ole8' ,& he said1 #8,yea1 ,o k+1 !y be :ole4' ,& z soon z !y _h op5$ ! door1 ! k+ look$ ^u ! table1 & cri$ ) a l\d voice3 #8,great art ?\1 ,o ,bel6 & ) !e !re is no deceit at all4' ,!n laugh$ ,daniel1 & held ! k+ t he %\ld n g 91 & said3 #8,behold n[ ! pavem5t1 & m>k well ^: foot/eps are ^!4' ,& ! k+ said3 #8,i see ! foot/eps ( m51 wom5 & *ildr54' ,& !n ! k+ 0 angry1 & took ! prie/s1 ) _! wives & *ildr51 :o %[$ him ! privy doors1 :]e !y came 9 & consum$ su* ?+s z 7 on ! tables4 8,!re=e ! k+ slew !m1 & deliv]$ ,bel into ,daniel's p[]1 :o de/roy$ him & 8 temple40 ,:o does n pity ! k+ ( ,babylon1 :o1 :5 look+ at 8 clay & brass god1 exclaim$3 8,great art ?\1 ,o ,bel1 & ) !e !re is no deceit60 ,b1 is ! deception practic$ by ! prie/s ( ! ,pope on _! poor1 delud$ dupes1 less cruel & infam\s8 ,:]e is ! diff]5ce betwe5 t ,babylonian god1 made ) brass & bak$ clay1 & ! god ( ! ,roman ,ca?olics1 made ) a h&ful ( :eat & fl\r1 bak$ betwe5 two hot poli%$ irons8 ,h[ skilful 7 ! prie/s 9 keep+ ! secret ( :at became ( ! ri* daily (f]+s br\ght to ! hungry god6 ,:o c\ld suspect t !re 0 a secret trap ?r\gh :i* !y came ) _! wives & *ildr5 to eat ! ri* (f]+s8 ,s1 to-day1 among ! simple & bl9d ,roman ,ca?olics1 :o c\ld suppose t ! imm5se sums ( money giv5 e day to ! prie/s to glorify ,god1 purify ! s\ls ( m51 & br+ all k9ds ( bless+s ^u ! donors1 71 on ! contr>y1 turn$ into ! mo/ ignom9i\s & sw9dl+ op]ation ! _w has ev] se58 ,?\gh ! brass god ( ,babylon 0 a contemptible idol1 is n ! waf] god ( ,rome /ill m s8 ,?\gh ! prie/s ( ,bel 7 skilful deceiv]s1 are !y n surpass$ 9 ! art ( deception by ! prie/s ( ,rome6 ,d n ^! c>ry on _! op]ations on a mu* l>g] scale ?an ! =m]8 ,b1 z !re is always a day ( retribution = ! great iniquities ( ?is _w1 :5 all ?+s w be reveal$2 & j z ! cunn+ ( ! prie/s ( ,babylon c\ld n save !m1 :5 ,god s5t 8 prophet to take away ! mask1 beh9d :i* !y deceiv$ _! p1 s let ! prie/s ( ,rome "k t ,god w1 soon] or lat]1 s5d 8 prophet1 :o w te> (f ! mask1 beh9d :i* !y deceive ! _w4 ,_! big1 awkw>d & flat feet w be se5 & expos$1 & ! v p :om !y keep pro/rat$ be=e _! idols1 cry+3 8,o ,god6 ) !e !re is no deceit at all60 w become ! in/rum5ts ( ! ju/ice ( ,god 9 ! great day ( retribution4 ,,*apt] ,,xxvii4 ,,quebec ,,m>9e ,,hospital--,,! ,,fir/ ,,"t ,i ,,c>ri$ ,,! 8,,bon ,,dieu0 7,,! ,,waf] ,,god7 ,,9 ,,my ,,ve/ ,,pocket--,,! ,,gr& ,,oy/] ,,soiree ,,at ,,mr4 ,,buteau',s--,,! ,,rev4 ,l4 ,,p>5t ,,& ,,! 8,,bon ,,dieu0 ,,at ,,! ,,oy/] ,,soiree4 ,"o ( ! fir/ ?+s done by ! curate ,tetu1 aft] 8 new vic>s _h be5 *os51 0 to divide1 by ca/+ lots1 8 l>ge p>i% into f\r p>ts1 t !re might be m regul>ity 9 our m9i/]ial labors1 & my lot gave me ! nor!a/ ( ! p>i% :i* conta9$ ! ,quebec ,m>9e ,hospital4 ,! numb] ( sick sailors ,i _h to visit almo/ e day 9 t noble in/itution1 0 betwe5 tw5ty-five & a hundr$4 ,! ,roman ,ca?olic *apel1 ) its beautiful alt> 0 n yet complet$4 ,x 0 only 9 #ahcg t ,i c\ld p]suade ! hospital au?orities to fix x z x is to-day4 ,hav+ no place !re to celebrate mass & keep ! ,holy ,sacram5t1 ,i soon f\nd myself 9 pres5ce ( a difficulty :i*1 at fir/1 seem$ to me ( a grave "*4 ,i _h to adm9i/] ! viaticum 7holy communion7 to a dy+ sailor4 ,z e "o kn[s1 all ,roman ,ca?olics are b\nd to believe t by ! consecration1 ! waf] is trans=m$ into ! body1 s\l & div9ity ( ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,h5ce1 !y call t c]emony3 8,port] le bon dieu au malade0 7c>ry ! good ,god to ! sick47 ,till !n1 :5 9 ,*>lesbor\gh or ,/4 ,*>les1 ,i1 ) ! re/ ( ,roman ,ca?olic prie/s1 always made use ( pomp & ext]ior m>ks ( supreme respect = ! ,almighty ,god ,i 0 c>ry+ 9 my h&s to ! dy+4 ,i _h nev] c>ri$ ! good ,god )\t be+ accompani$ by sev]al p1 walk+ or rid+ on horseback4 ,i !n wore a :ite surplice ov] my long black robe 7s\tane7 to /rike ! p ) awe4 ,!re 0 also a man r++ a bell be=e me1 all along ! way1 to ann\nce to ! p t ! great ,god1 :o _h n only creat$ !m1 b _h made himself man to save !m1 by dy+ on ,calv>y1 0 pass+ by2 t !y _h to fall on _! knees 9 _! h\ses1 or along ! public roads or 9 _! fields1 & pro/rate !mselves & adore him4 ,b c\ld ,i d t 9 ,quebec1 :]e s _m mis]able h]etics 7 m dispos$ to laugh at my ,god ?an to adore him8 ,9 my zeal & s9c]e fai?1 ,i 01 h[ev]1 det]m9$ to d>e ! h]etics ( ! :ole _w1 & to expose myself to _! insults1 r ?an give up ! ext]ior m>ks ( supreme respect & adoration :i* 7 due to my ,god ev]y:]e2 & twice ,i c>ri$ ,him to ! hospital ) ! usual solemnity4 ,9 va9 my curate tri$ to p]suade me to *ange my m9d4 ,i clos$ my e>s to 8 argum5ts4 ,he !n k9dly invit$ me to g ) him to ! bi%op's palace1 9 ord] to conf] ) him on t grave subject4 ,h[ c ,i express my dismay :5 ! bi%op told me1 ) a levity :i* ,i _h n yet obs]v$ 9 him1 8t on acc\nt ( ! ,prote/ants :om we _h to meet ev]y:]e1 x 0 bett] to make our #8,god' travel incognito 9 ! /reets ( ,quebec40 ,he add$ 9 a high & jocose tone3 8,put ,him 9 y\r ve/ pocket1 z d ! re/ ( ! city prie/s4 ,c>ry ,him to y\r dy+ pati5ts )\t any scruples4 ,nev] aim at be+ a re=m] & do+ bett] ?an y\r v5]able bre?r5 9 ! prie/hood4 ,we mu/ n =get t we are a conqu]$ p4 ,if we 7 ma/]s1 we w\ld c>ry ,him to ! dy+ ) ! public honors we us$ to give ,him be=e ! conque/2 b ! ,prote/ants are ! /rong]4 ,our gov]nor is a ,prote/ant1 z well z our ,que54 ,! g>rison :i* is inside ! walls ( _! impregnable citadel1 is compos$ *iefly ( ,prote/ants4 ,accord+ to ! laws ( our holy *ur*1 we h ! "r to puni%1 ev5 by dea?1 ! mis]able p :o turn into ridicule ! my/]ies ( our holy religion3 ,b ?\gh we h t "r1 we are n /rong en\gh to en=ce x4 ,we mu/1 !n1 be> ! yoke 9 sil5ce4 ,aft] all1 x is our ,god himself1 :o 9 8 inscrutable judgm5t1 has depriv$ u ( ! p[] ( honor+ ,him z ,he des]ves1 & to tell y my :ole m9d z pla9ly z possible1 x is n our fault1 b ,8 own do+1 s to speak1 if we are =c$ to make ,him travel incognito ?r\gh our /reets4 ,x is "o ( ! sad results ( ! victory :i* ! ,god ( battles gave to ! ,h]etics ov] u on ! pla9s ( ,abraham4 ,if1 9 ,8 good provid5ce1 we c\ld break our fett]s1 & become free to pass aga9 ! laws :i* regulat$ ,canada be=e ! conque/1 to prev5t ! h]etics f settl+ among u1 !n we w\ld c>ry ,him z we us$ to d 9 ^? happy days40 8,b10 said ,i1 8:5 ,i walk 9 ! /reets ) my good ,god 9 my ve/ pocket1 :at w ,i d if ,i meet any fri5d :o wants to %ake h&s & h a joke ) me80 ,! bi%op laugh$ & answ]$3 8,tell y\r fri5d y are 9 a hurry1 & g y\r way z quickly z possible2 b if !re is no help1 h y\r talk & y\r joke ) him1 )\t any scruple ( consci5ce4 ,! important po9t 9 ?is delicate matt] is t ! p %\ld n "k t we are c>ry+ our ,god ?r\gh ! /reets incognito2 = ?is k w\ld surely %ake & weak5 _! fai?4 ,! common p are1 m ?an we ?9k1 kept 9 our holy *ur*1 by ! impress+ c]emonies ( our processions & public m>ks ( respect we give to ,jesus ,*ri/1 :5 we c>ry ,him to ! sick2 = ! p are m easily p]suad$ by :at !y see ) _! eyes & t\* ) _! h&s1 ?an by :at !y he> ) _! e>s40 ,i submitt$ to ! ord] ( my ecclesia/ical sup]ior2 b ,i w\ld n be hone/1 7 ,i n to confess t ,i lo/ mu* ( my spiritual joy = "s "t 9 ! adm9i/ration ( ! viaticum4 ,i cont9u$ to believe z s9c]ely z ,i c\ld1 b ! laugh+ words & light tone ( my bi%op _h fall5 ^u my s\l z an icy cl\d4 ,! jocose way 9 :i* he _h spok5 ( :at ,i _h be5 taught to consid] z ! mo/ awful & adorable my/]y ( ! *ur*1 left ! impression on my m9d t he did n believe "o iota ( ! dogma ( transub/antiation4 ,& 9 spite ( all my hone/ ef=ts to get rid ( t suspicion1 x grew 9 my m9d e "t ,i met him to talk on any m9i/]ial subject4 ,x took sev]al ye>s be=e ,i c\ld accu/om myself to c>ry my ,god 9 my ve/ pocket z ! o!r prie/s did1 )\t any m c]emony ?an ) a piece ( tobacco4 ,s long z ,i 0 walk+ alone ,i felt happy4 ,i c\ld !n sil5tly conv]se ) my ,savi\r1 & give ,him all ! expressions ( my love & adoration4 ,x 0 my cu/om1 !n1 to repeat ! #ajc;d or #ej? psalm ( ,david1--or ! ,te ,deum1 or "s o!r beautiful hymn1 or ! ,pange ,langua1 :i* ,i knew by he>t4 ,b no words c express my sadness :51 z x 0 v (t5 ! case1 ,i met "s fri5ds =c+ me to %ake h&s ) !m1 & began "o ( ^? idle & common-place talks1 s common ev]y:]e4 ,) ! utmo/ ef=ts1 ,i _h !n to put a smil+ mask on my face1 9 ord] to conceal ! expression ( fai? :i* are infallibly se51 9 spite ( "o's self1 if "o is 9 ! v act ( adoration4 ,h[1 !n1 ,i e>ne/ly curs$ ! day :5 my c\ntry _h fall5 "u ! yoke ( ,prote/ants1 ^: pres5ce 9 ,quebec prev5t$ me f foll[+ ! dictates ( my consci5ce6 ,h[ _m times did ,i pray my waf] god1 :om ,i 0 p]sonally press+ on my he>t1 to grant u an opportunity to break ^? fett]s1 & de/roy =ev] ! p[] ( ,prote/ant ,engl& ov] u6 ,!n we %\ld be free aga91 to give our ,savi\r all ! public honors :i* 7 to due 8 maje/y4 ,!n we %\ld put 9 =ce ! laws by :i* no h]etic _h any "r to settle & live 9 ,canada4 ,n long aft] t conv]sation ) ! bi%op1 ,i f\nd myself 9 a circum/ance :i* add$ mu* to my tr\ble & confusion ( consci5ce on t matt]4 ,!re 0 !n1 9 ,quebec1 a m]*ant :o _h honorably rais$ himself f a /ate ( pov]ty1 to ! fir/ rank among ! weal?y m]*ants ( ,canada4 ,?\gh1 a few ye>s aft]1 he 0 ru9$ by a s]ies ( mo/ t]rible disa/]s1 8 "n is /ill honor$ 9 ,canada1 z "o ( ! mo/ indu/ri\s & hone/ m]*ants ( our "y c\ntry4 ,8 "n 0 ,james ,buteau4 ,he _h built a magnific5t h\se & furni%$ x 9 a pr9cely /yle4 ,9 ord] to celebrate 8 8h\se w>m+0 9 a becom+ /yle1 he invit$ a hundr$ gue/s f ! elite ( ! city1 among :om 7 all ! prie/s ( ! p>i%es4 ,b 9 ord] n to fright5 _! prud]y1 ?\gh ! p>ty 0 to be m ( ! nature ( a ball ?an any?+ else1 ,mr4 ,buteau _h giv5 x ! mode/ "n ( an ,oy/] ,soiree4 ,j z ! good curate ,tetu1 ) 8 *e]ful vic>s 0 />t+1 a mess5g] met u at ! door1 to say t ,mr4 ,p>5t1 ! y\nge/ vic>1 _h call$ to c>ry ! 8,good ,god0 to a dy+ woman4 ,mr4 ,p>5t 0 born1 & _h pass$ 8 :ole life 9 ,quebec1 9 ^: sem9>y he _h gone ?r\gh a complete & brilliant c\rse ( /udy4 ,i ?9k !re 0 sc>cely a funny song 9 ! ,fr5* language :i* he c\ld n s+4 ,) a *e]ful nature1 he 0 ! delight ( ! ,quebec society1 by almo/ e memb] ( :i* he 0 p]sonally kn[n4 ,8 hair 0 con/antly p]fum$ ) ! ri*e/ pomade1 & ! mo/ preci\s eaux de cologne surr\nd$ him ) an atmosph]e ( ! sweete/ odors4 ,) all ^! qualities & privileges1 x is no wond] t he 0 ! confessor 8a la mode0 ( ! "y ladies ( ,quebec4 ,! bright lum9>ies :i* hov] ar\nd ,jupit] are n m exact 9 conv]g+ t[>d ! brilliant />1 ?an ^? pi\s "y ladies 7 9 ga!r+ ar\nd ! confessional box ( ,mr4 ,p>5t e week or =tnight4 ,! unexpect$ ann\ncem5t ( a call to ! dea?b$ ( "o ( 8 poore/ p5it5ts1 0 n q ! mo/ desirable ?+ = our de> "y fri5d1 at su* an h\r4 ,b he knew too well 8 duty to grumble4 ,he said to u3 8,g be=e me & tell ,mrs4 ,buteau t ,i w be 9 "t to get my %>e ( ! oy/]s40 ,by *ance1 ! sick h\se 0 on ! way & n f> f ,mr4 ,buteau's spl5did mansion4 ,he left u to run to ! alt> & take ! 8,good ,god0 ) him4 ,we />t$ = ! soiree1 b n )\t sympa?iz+ ) our de> ,mr4 ,p>5t1 :o w\ld lose ! mo/ int]e/+ "p1 = ! adm9i/ration ( ! viaticum4 ,! extreme unction1 ) ! giv+ ( indulg5ces1 9 articulo mortis1 & ! exhortation to ! dy+1 & ! p ga!r$ f ! neighborhood to witness ^? solemn rites1 c\ld n take mu* less ?an ?ree qu>t]s1 or ev5 an h\r ( 8 "t4 ,b1 to my great surprise1 we _h n yet be5 t5 m9utes 9 ! magnific5t p>lor ( our ho/1 :5 ,i saw ,mr4 ,p>5t1 :o l a newborn butt]fly1 fly+ f fl[] to fl[]1 0 runn+ f lady to lady1 jok+1 laugh+1 surpass+ himself ) 8 inimitable1 lovely & ref9$ mann]s4 ,i said to myself1 h[ is x possible t he has s quickly got rid ( 8 unpalatable task ) 8 dy+ p5it5t6 & ,i want$ an opportunity ( be+ alone ) him1 to satisfy my curiosity on t po9t4 ,b x 0 pretty late 9 ! ev5+1 :5 ,i _h a *ance to say to him2 8,we all fe>$ le/ y\r dy+ pati5t might deprive u ( ! pleasure ( y\r company ! great] "p ( ! soiree60 8,oh6 ,oh60 answ]$ he1 ) a he>ty laugh1 8t intellig5t woman _h ! good common s5se to die j two m9utes be=e ,i ent]$ h] h\se4 ,i suppose t h] gu>dian angel1 kn[+ all ab\t ?is incomp>able p>ty1 _h dispat*$ ! good s\l to heav5 a little soon] ?an %e expect$1 9 my behalf40 ,i c\ld n b smile at 8 answ]1 :i* 0 giv5 9 a mann] to make a /one laugh4 8,b10 said ,i1 8:at h y done ) ! #8,good ,god' y c>ri$ ) y80 8,ah6 ah6 ! ,good ,god10 he repli$ 9 a jocose & subdu$ tone4 8,well1 well6 ! #8,good ,god'8 ,he /&s v /ill 9 my ve/ pocket4 ,& if he enjoys ?is pr9cely fe/ivity z well z we all d1 he w surely ?ank me = hav+ br\ght him "h1 ev5 en surv5ant4 ,b d n say a ^w ( 8 pres5ce "h2 x w\ld spoil ev]y?+40 ,t prie/1 :o 0 only "o ye> y\ng] ?an myself1 0 "o ( my de>e/ fri5ds4 ,?\gh 8 words r smelt ( ! unbeliev] & blasphem]1 ,i pref]r$ to attribute !m to ! sweet *ampagne he _h drunk ?an to a real want ( fai?4 ,b ,i mu/ confess t1 ?\gh ,i _h laugh$ v he>tily at fir/1 8 la/ utt]ance pa9$ me s mu* t1 f t mom5t to ! end ( ! soiree1 ,i felt uneasy & conf\nd$4 ,my firm belief t my ,savi\r ,jesus ,*ri/ 0 !re 9 p]son1 kept a prison] 9 my "y fri5d's ve/ pocket1 go+ to & fro f "o "y lady to ! o!r1 witness+ ! con/ant laugh+1 he>+ ! idle words1 ! light & funny songs1 made my :ole s\l %udd]1 & my he>t sunk )9 me4 ,by times ,i wi%$ ,i c\ld fall on my knees to adore my ,savi\r1 :om ,i believ$ to be !re4 ,h[ev]1 a my/]i\s voice 0 :isp]+ 9 my e>3 8,are y n a fool to believe t y c make a ,god ) a waf]2 & t ,jesus ,*ri/ y\r ,savi\r & y\r ,god1 c be kept a prison]1 9 spite ( himself1 9 ! ve/ pocket ( a man8 ,d y n see t y\r fri5d ,p>5t1 :o has mu* m bra9s & intellig5ce ?an y1 does n believe a ^w ( t dogma ( transub/antiation8 ,h y =gott5 ! unbeliev]'s smile :i* y saw on ! lips ( ! bi%op himself only a few days ago8 ,0 n t laugh ! infallible pro( t he also does n believe a p>ticle ( t ridicul\s dogma80 ,) sup]human ef=t ,i tri$1 & succe$$ p>tly1 to /ifle t voice4 ,b t /ruggle c\ld n la/ long )9 my s\l )\t leav+ its ext]ior m>ks on my face4 ,evid5tly a sad cl\d 0 ov] my eyes1 = sev]al ( my mo/ respectable fri5ds1 ) ,mr4 & ,mrs4 ,buteau1 k9dly ask$ if ,i 7 sick4 ,at la/ ,i felt s confus$ at ! repetition ( ! same sugge/ion by s _m1 t ,i felt t ,i 0 only mak+ a fool ( myself by rema9+ any long] 9 _! mid/4 ,angry ) myself = my want ( moral /r5g? 9 ?is h\r ( trial1 ,i respectfully ask$ p>don f my k9d ho/ = leav+ _! p>ty be=e ! end1 on acc\nt ( a sudd5 indisposition4 ,! next day !re 0 only "o voice 9 ,quebec1 say+ t "y ,p>5t _h be5 ! lion ( t brilliant soiree1 & t ! poor "y prie/ ,*9iquy _h be5 its fool4 ,,*apt] ,,xxviii4 ,,dr4 ,,d\glas--,,my ,,fir/ ,,lesson ,,9 ,,temp]ance--,,/udy ,,( ,,anatomy--,,work+ ,,( ,,alcohol ,,9 ,,! ,,human ,,frame--,,! ,,murd]ess ,,( ,,h] ,,own ,,*ild--,i ,,=ev] ,,give ,,up ,,! ,,use ,,( ,,intoxicat+ ,,dr9ks4 ,god controls ! greate/ z well z ! smalle/ ( ! ev5ts ( ?is _w4 ,our bus9ess dur+ ! few days ( our pilgrimage1 !n1 is to "k ,8 w & d x4 ,our happ9ess "h1 z 9 heav51 re/s on ?is f\ndation1 j z ! success & failures ( our lives come entirely f ! practical k or ignorance ( ?is simple/ & sublime/ tru?4 ,i d>e say t !re is n a s+le fact ( my long & ev5tful life :i* has n taught me t !re is a special provid5ce 9 our lives4 ,p>ticul>ly 0 ?is app>5t 9 ! ca/+ ( ! lots by :i* ,i became ! fir/ *apla9 ( ! ,quebec ,m>9e ,hospital4 ,aft] ! o!r vic>s _h congratulat$ ea* o!r = hav+ escap$ ! heavy burd5 ( "w & responsibilities connect$ ) t *apla9cy1 !y k9dly gave me ! assurance ( _! sympa?ies = :at !y call$ my bad luck4 ,9 ?ank+ !m = _! k9dly feel+s1 ,i confess$ t ?is occurr5ce appe>$ to me 9 a v diff]5t light4 ,i 0 sure t ,god _h direct$ ?is = my good & ,8 own glory1 & ,i 0 "r4 ,9 ! beg9n+ ( ,novemb]1 #ahcd1 a slight indisposition hav+ kept me = a few days at home1 ,mr4 ,glackmay]1 ! sup]9t5d5t ( ! hospital1 came to tell me t !re 0 an unusually l>ge numb] ( sick1 left by ! ,fall fleets1 9 dang] ( dea?1 :o 7 day & night call+ = me4 ,he add$ 9 a secret way1 t !re 7 sev]al cases ( small-pox ( ! wor/ type2 t sev]al _h already di$ & _m 7 dy+ f ! t]rible *ol]a morbus1 :i* 0 /ill rag+ among ! sailors4 ,?is sad news came to me z an ord] f heav5 to run to ! rescue ( my de> sick seam54 ,i left my room1 despite my physician1 & w5t to ! hospital4 ,! fir/ man ,i met 0 ,dr4 ,d\glas1 :o 0 wait+ = me at ,mr4 ,c4 ,glackmay]'s room4 ,he confirm$ :at ,i _h kn[n be=e ( ! numb] ( sick1 & add$ t ! prevail+ diseases 7 ( ! mo/ dang]\s k9d4 ,dr4 ,d\glas1 :o 0 "o ( ! f\nd]s & gov]nors ( ! hospital1 _h ! well-m]it$ reputation ( be+ "o ( ! able/ surgeons ( ,quebec4 ,?\gh a /aun* ,prote/ant by bir? & pr(ession1 he honor$ me ) 8 confid5ce & fri5d%ip f ! fir/ day we met4 ,i may say ,i h nev] kn[n a nobl] he>t1 a l>g] m9d & a tru] philan?ropi/4 ,aft] ?ank+ him = ! useful ?\gh sad intellig5ce he _h giv5 me1 ,i reque/$ ,mr4 ,glackmay] to give me a glass ( br&y1 :i* ,i imm$iately swall[$4 8,:at are y do+ !re80 said ,dr4 ,d\glas4 8,y see10 ,i answ]$2 8,i h drank a glass ( excell5t br&y40 8,b please tell me :y y drank t br&y40 8,because x is a good pres]vative aga9/ ! pe/il5tial atmosph]e ,i w brea! all day10 ,i repli$4 8,i w h to he> ! confessions ( all ^? p dy+ f small-pox or *ol]a1 & brea! ! putrid air :i* is ar\nd _! pill[s4 ,does n common s5se w>n me to take "s precautions aga9/ ! contagion80 8,is x possible10 rejo9$ he1 8t a man = :om ,i h su* a s9c]e e/eem is s ignorant ( ! deadly work+s ( alcohol 9 ! human frame8 ,:at y h j drank is no?+ b poison2 &1 f> f protect+ y\rself aga9/ ! dang]1 y are n[ mu* m expos$ to x ?an be=e y drank t bev]age40 8,y poor ,prote/ants10 ,i answ]$1 9 a jocose way1 8are a b& ( fanatics1 ) y\r extreme doctr9es on temp]ance2 y w nev] conv]t me to y\r views on t subject4 ,is x = ! use ( ! dogs t ,god has creat$ w9e & br&y8 ,no2 x is = ! use ( m5 :o dr9k !m ) mod]ation & intellig5ce40 8,my de> ,mr4 ,*9iquy1 y are jok+2 b ,i am 9 e>ne/ :5 ,i tell y t y h poison$ y\rself ) t glass ( br&y10 repli$ ,dr ,d\glas4 8,if good w9e & br&y 7 poisons10 ,i answ]$1 8y w\ld be long ago ! only physician 9 ,quebec1 = y are ! only "o ( ! m$ical body :om ,i "k to be an ab/a9]4 ,b1 ?\gh ,i am mu* pleas$ ) y\r conv]sation1 excuse me if ,i leave y to visit my de> sick sailors1 ^: cries = spiritual help r+ 9 my e>s40 8,"o ^w m10 said ,dr4 ,d\glas1 8& ,i h done4 ,to-morr[ morn+ we w make ! autopsy ( a sailor :o has j di$ sudd5ly "h4 ,h y any objections to come & see ) y\r eyes1 9 ! body ( t man1 :at y\r glass ( br&y has done 9 y\r own body80 8,no1 sir2 ,i h no objection to see t10 ,i repli$4 8,i h be5 anxi\s = a long "t to make a special /udy ( anatomy4 ,x w be my fir/ lesson2 ,i _c get x f a bett] ma/]40 ,i !n %ook h&s ) him & w5t to my pati5ts1 ) :om ,i pass$ ! rema9d] ( ! day & ! bett] "p ( ! night4 ,fifty ( !m want$ to make g5]al confessions ( all ! s9s ( _! :ole lives2 & ,i _h to give ! la/ sacram5ts to tw5ty-five :o 7 dy+ f small-pox or *ol]a morbus4 ,! next morn+ ,i 01 at ! appo9t$ h\r1 by ! corpse ( ! dead man1 :5 ,dr4 ,d\glas k9dly gave me a v p[]ful microscope1 t ,i might m ?or\ghly foll[ ! ravages ( alcohol 9 e "p ( ! human body4 8,i h n ! lea/ d\bt10 said he1 8t ?is man has be5 in/antly kill$ by a glass ( rum1 :i* he drank "o h\r be=e he fell dead4 ,t rum has caus$ ! rupture ( ! aorta0 7! big ve9 :i* c>ries ! blood f ! he>t74 ,:ile talk+ ?us1 ! knife 0 do+ its "w s quickly1 t ! horrible spectacle ( ! brok5 art]y 0 be=e our eyes almo/ z ! la/ ^w fell f 8 lips4 8,look "h10 said ! doctor1 8all along ! art]y1 & y w see ?\s&s1 p]haps millions ( r$di% spots1 :i* are z _m holes p]=at$ ?r\gh x by alcohol4 ,j z ! musk rats ( ! ,mississippi riv]1 almo/ e spr+1 dig little holes ?r\gh ! dams :i* keeps ! p[]ful riv] )9 its natural limits1 & cause ! wat]s to break ?r\gh ! little holes1 & ?us c>ry desolation & dea? along its %ores1 s alcohol e day causes ! sudd5 dea? ( ?\s&s ( victims1 by p]=at+ ! ve9s & op5+ small issues ?r\gh :i* ! blood ru%es out ( its natural limits4 ,x is n only ?is big ve9 :i* alcohol p]=ates2 x does ! same deadly "w 9 ! ve9s ( ! lungs & ! :ole body4 ,look at ! lungs ) att5tion1 & c\nt1 if y c1 ! ?\s&s & ?\s&s ( r$di%1 d>k & yell[ spots1 & little ulc]s ) :i* !y are cov]$4 ,e "o ( !m is ! "w ( alcohol1 :i* has torn & cut ! ve9s & caus$ ! blood to g out ( its canals1 to c>ry corruption & dea? all ov] ^! m>vel\s organs4 ,alcohol is "o ( ! mo/ dang]\s poisons--,i d>e say x is ! mo/ dang]\s4 ,x has kill$ m m5 ?an all ! o!r poisons toge!r4 ,alcohol _c be *ang$ or assimilat$ to any "p or tissue ( our body1 x _c g to any "p ( ! human frame )\t br++ disord] & dea? to x4 ,= x _c 9 any possible way unite ) any "p ( our body4 ,! wat] we dr9k1 ! :olesome food & bread we eat1 by ! laws & w ( ,god are trans=m$ into ! diff]5t p>ts ( ! body1 to :i* !y are s5t ?r\gh ! millions ( small canals :i* take !m f ! /oma* to e "p ( our frame4 ,:5 ! wat] has be5 drunk1 or ! bread we h eat5 is1 = in/ance1 s5t to ! lungs1 to ! bra91 ! n]ves1 ! muscles1 ! bones--:]ev] x goes x receives1 if ,i c s speak1 lett]s ( citiz5%ip2 x is all[$ to rema9 !re 9 peace & to "w = ! public good4 ,b x is n s ) alcohol4 ,! v mom5t x ent]s ! /oma* x m or less br+s disord]1 ru9 & dea?1 accord+ to ! quantity tak54 ,! /oma* refuses to take x1 & makes a supreme ef=t to viol5tly ?r[ x out1 ei!r ?r\gh ! m\?1 or by indignantly pu%+ x to ! bra9 or into ! numb]less tubes by :i* x dis*>ges its cont5ts to ! surface ?r\gh all ! tissues4 ,b w alcohol be welcome 9 any ( ^! tubes & m>vell\s canals1 or 9 any "p or tissue ( ! body x w visit on its passage to ! surface8 ,no6 ,look "h ) y\r microscope1 & y w see ) y\r own eyes t ev]y:]e alcohol has gone into ! body !re has be5 a h&-to-h& /ruggle & a bloody battle f\ght to get rid ( x4 ,yes6 e place :]e ,k+ ,alcohol has put 8 foot has be5 turn$ into a battlefield1 spread ) ru9 & dea?1 9 ord] to ignom9i\sly turn x out4 ,by a mo/ extraord9>y work+ ( nature1 or r by ! ord] ( ,god1 e ve9 & art]y ?r\gh :i* alcohol has to pass sudd5ly contracts1 z if to prev5t its passage or *oke x z a deadly foe4 ,e ve9 & art]y has evid5tly he>d ! voice ( ,god3 #8,w9e is a mock]3 x bites l a s]p5t & /+s l an add]6' ,e n]ve & muscle :i* alcohol t\*$ trembl$ & %ook z if 9 ! pres5ce ( an implacable & unconqu]able enemy4 ,yes1 at ! pres5ce ( alcohol e n]ve & muscle loses its /r5g?1 j z ! brave/ man1 9 ! pres5ce ( a horrible mon/] or demon1 sudd5ly loses 8 natural /r5g?1 & %akes f head to foot40 ,i _c repeat all ,i he>d t day f ! lips ( ,dr4 ,d\glas1 & :at ,i saw ) my own eyes ( ! horrible work+s ( alcohol ?r\gh e "p ( ! body4 ,x w\ld be too long4 ,suffice to say t ,i 0 /ruck ) horror at my own folly1 & at ! folly ( s _m p :o make use ( intoxicat+ dr9ks4 ,:at ,i le>n$ t day 0 l ! op5+ ( a my/]i\s door1 :i* all[$ me to see ! untold m>vels ( a new & mo/ magnific5t _w4 ,b ?\gh ,i 0 t]ror-/rick5 ) ! ravages ( /rong dr9k 9 t dead man1 ,i 0 n yet conv9c$ ( ! necessity ( be+ a total ab/a9] f w9e & be]1 & a little br&y n[ & !n1 z a social habit4 ,i did n l to expose myself to ridicule by ! sacrifice ( habits :i* seem$ !n1 m ?an n[1 to be among ! sweete/ & mo/ common l9ks ( society4 ,b ,i det]m9$ to lose no opportunity ( cont9u+ ! /udy ( ! work+ ( alcohol 9 ! human body4 ,at ! same "t ,i resolv$ to avail myself ( e opportunity ( mak+ a complete /udy ( anatomy "u ! k9d & le>n$ ,dr4 ,d\glas4 ,x is f ! lips & works ( ,dr4 ,d\glas t ,i le>n$ ! foll[+ />tl+ facts3 #a/4 ,! he>t ( man1 :i* is only six in*es long by f\r in*es wide1 beats sev5ty times 9 a m9ute1 #d1bjj 9 "o h\r1 #ajj1cjj 9 a day1 #cf1gib1jjj 9 a ye>4 ,x ejects two ounces & a half ( blood out ( itself e "t x beats1 :i* makes #age ounces e m9ute1 #fef p\nds e h\r1 sev5 tons & ?ree-qu>t]s ( blood :i* goes out ( ! he>t e day6 ,! :ole blood ( a man runs ?r\gh 8 he>t 9 ?ree m9utes4 #b;d4 ,! sk9 is compos$ ( ?ree p>ts plac$ ov] ea* o!r1 ^: ?ickness v>ies f a qu>t] to an eigh? ( a l9e4 ,ea* squ>e in* conta9s #c1ejj pores1 ?r\gh :i* ! sweat goes out4 ,e "o ( !m is a pipe a qu>t] ( an in* long4 ,all ^? small pipes unit$ toge!r w\ld =m a canal #bja1aff feet long--equal to =ty miles1 or ne>ly ?irte5 leagues6 #crd4 ,! weight ( ! blood 9 a common man is betwe5 ?irty & =ty p\nds4 ,! blood runs ?r\gh ! body 9 #ajj seconds1 or "o m9ute & =ty-"o seconds4 ,elev5 ?\s& 7#aa1jjj7 p9ts ( blood pass ?r\gh ! lungs 9 tw5ty-f\r h\rs4 #d?4 ,!re are #bdf bones 9 ! human body2 #fc ( !m are 9 ! head1 #bd 9 ! sides1 #af 9 ! wri/1 #ad 9 ! jo9ts1 & #ajh 9 ! h&s & feet4 ,! he>t ( a man :o dr9ks no?+ b pure wat] beats ab\t #ajj1cjj a day1 b w beat f #be1jjj to #cj1jjj times m if he dr9ks alcoholic dr9ks4 ,^? :o h n le>n$ anatomy "k little ( ! inf9ite p[]1 wisdom1 love & m]cy ( ,god4 ,no book except ! ,bible1 & no sci5ce except ! sci5ce ( a/ronomy1 is l ! body ( man1 to tell u :at our ,god is1 & :at we are4 ,! body ( man is a book writt5 by ! h& ( ,god1 to speak to u ( ,him z no man c speak4 ,aft] /udy+ ! m>vell\s work+ ( ! he>t1 ! lungs1 ! eyes & ! bra9 ( man1 ,i c\ld n speak2 ,i rema9$ mute1 unable to say a s+le ^w to tell my admiration & awe4 ,i wept1 z ov]:elm$ ) my feel+s4 ,i %\ld h lik$ to speak ( ^? ?+s to ! prie/s ) :om ,i liv$1 b ,i saw at fir/ !y c\ld n und]/& me2 !y ?\ght ,i 0 exagg]at+4 ,h[ _m times1 :5 alone ) ,god 9 my little closet1 :5 ?9k+ ( ^? m>vels1 ,i fell on my knees1 & said3 8,?\ art great1 ,o my ,god6 ,! works ( ?y h&s are above ! works ( man6 ,b ! works ( ?y love & m]cy are above all ?y o!r works60 ,dur+ ! f\r ye>s ,i 0 *apla9 ( ! ,m>9e ,hospital1 m ?an "o hundr$ corpses 7 op5$ be=e me1 & almo/ z _m outside ! hospital4 ,= :51 by ! ord] ( ! jury & ! coron]1 an autopsy 0 to be made1 ,i seldom fail$ to att5d4 ,9 t way1 ,i h _h a provid5tial opportunity ( acquir+ ! k ( "o ( ! mo/ useful & admirable sci5ces1 z no prie/ or m9i/] probably ev] _h on ?is cont95t4 ,x is my conviction t ! fir/ ?+ a temp]ance orator ought to d is to /udy anatomy2 get ! bodies ( drunk>ds1 z well z ^? ( s-call$ temp]ate dr9k]s1 op5$ be=e him1 & /udy !re ! work+s ( alcohol 9 ! diff]5t organs ( man4 ,s long z ! orators on temp]ance w n d t1 !y _c und]/& ! subject on :i* !y speak4 ,?\gh ,i h read ! be/ books writt5 by ! mo/ le>n$ physicians ( ,engl&1 ,france & ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 on ! ravages ( rum1 w9e & be]1 ( e k9d & "n1 9 ! body ( m51 ,i h nev] read any?+ :i* enlight5$ me s mu*1 & br\ght su* pr(\nd convictions to my intellig5ce1 z ! /udy ,i h made ( ! bra91 ! lungs1 ! he>t1 ve9s1 art]ies1 n]ves & muscles ( a s+le man or woman4 ,^! bodies1 op5$ be=e me1 7 books writt5 by ! h& ( ,god himself1 & !y spoke to me z no man c\ld speak4 ,by ! m]cy ( ,god1 to t /udy is due ! irresi/ible p[] ( my humble ef=ts 9 p]suad+ my c\ntrym5 to give up ! use ( intoxicat+ dr9ks4 ,b "h is ! "t to tell h[ my m]ciful ,god =c$ me1 ,8 unpr(itable & rebelli\s s]vant1 almo/ 9 spite ( myself1 to give up ! use ( intoxicat+ dr9ks4 ,among my p5it5ts !re 0 a "y lady belong+ to "o ( ! mo/ respectable families 9 ,quebec4 ,%e _h a *ild1 a girl1 almo/ a ye> old1 :o 0 a real beauty4 ,no?+ ?is side ( heav5 c\ld surpass ! *>ms ( t e>?ly angel4 ,( c\rse t "y "m idoliz$ h]2 %e c\ld h>dly cons5t to be )\t h] sweet angel1 ev5 to g to *ur*4 ,%e c>ri$ h] ev]y:]e1 to kiss h] at e mom5t & press h] to h] he>t4 ,un=tunately t lady1 z x 0 !n1 & is /ill n[ too (t5 ! case1 ev5 among ! mo/ ref9$1 _h le>n$ 9 h] fa!r's h\se1 & by ! example ( h] own "m1 to dr9k w9e at table1 & :5 receiv+ ! visits ( h] fri5ds or :5 visit+ !m h]self4 ,little by little %e began to dr9k1 :5 alone1 a few drops ( w9e1 at fir/ by ! advice ( h] physician1 b soon only to satisfy ! crav+ appetite1 :i* grew /rong] day by day4 ,i 0 ! only "o1 except+ h] husb&1 :o knew ?is fact4 ,he 0 my intimate fri5d1 & sev]al times1 ) te>s trickl+ d[n 8 *eeks1 he _h reque/$ me1 9 ! "n ( ,god1 to p]suade h] to ab/a9 f dr9k+4 ,t "y man 0 s happy ) 8 accompli%$ wife & 8 incomp>ably beautiful *ild6 ,he 0 ri*1 _h a high position 9 ! _w1 numb]less fri5ds1 & a palace = 8 home6 ,e "t ,i _h spok5 to t "y lady1 ei!r :5 alone or 9 ! pres5ce ( h] husb&1 %e _h %$ te>s ( regret2 %e _h promis$ to re=m1 & take only ! few glasses prescrib$ by h] doctor4 ,b1 alas6 t fatal prescription ( ! doctor 0 l ! oil p\r$ on ! burn+ coals2 x 0 k9dl+ a fire t no?+ c\ld qu5*4 ,"o day1 :i* ,i w nev] =get1 a mess5g] came 9 ha/e & said3 8,mr4 ,a4 wants y to come to 8 home imm$iately4 ,a t]rible mis=tune has j happ5$--8 beautiful *ild has j be5 kill$4 ,8 wife is half crazy2 he fe>s le/ %e w kill h]self40 ,i leap$ into ! elegant c>riage1 drawn by two f9e horses1 & 9 a few m9utes ,i 0 9 ! pres5ce ( ! mo/ di/ress+ spectacle ,i ev] saw4 ,! "y lady1 te>+ h] robes into fragm5ts1 te>+ h] hair ) h] h&s & cutt+ h] face ) ! nails ( h] f+]s1 0 cry+1 8,oh6 = ,god's sake1 give me a knife t ,i may cut my ?roat8 ,i h kill$ my *ild6 ,my d>l+ is dead6 ,i am ! murd]ess ( my own de> ,lucy6 ,my h&s are r$d5$ ) h] blood4 ,oh6 may ,i die ) h]60 ,i 0 ?und]/ruck1 & at fir/ rema9$ mute & motionless4 ,! "y husb&1 ) two o!r g5tlem51 ,dr4 ,blan*et & ,coron] ,panet1 7 try+ to hold ! h&s ( 8 un=tunate wife4 ,he did n d>e to speak4 ,at la/ ! "y wife1 ca/+ h] eyes ^u me1 said3 8,oh1 de> ,fa!r ,*9iquy1 = ,god's sake give me a knife t ,i may cut my ?roat6 ,:5 drunk1 ,i took my preci\s d>l+ 9 my arms to kiss h]2 b ,i fell--h] head /ruck ! %>p corn] ( ! /ove4 ,h] bra9 & blood are !re spread on ! floor6 ,my *ild6 my own *ild is dead6 ,i h kill$ h]6 ,curs$ liquor6 ,curs$ w9e6 ,my *ild is dead6 ,i am damn$6 ,curs$ dr9k60 ,i c\ld n speak1 b ,i c\ld weep & cry4 ,i wept1 & m+l$ my te>s ) ^? ( t un=tunate "m4 ,!n1 ) an expression ( desolation :i* pi]c$ my s\l z ) a sword1 %e said3 8,g & see40 ,i w5t to ! next room1 & !re ,i saw t once beautiful *ild1 dead1 h] face cov]$ ) h] blood & bra9s6 ,!re 0 a l>ge gap made 9 ! "r temple4 ,! drunk5 "m1 by fall+ ) h] *ild 9 h] arms1 _h caus$ ! head to /rike ) su* a t]rible =ce on ! /ove t x upset on ! floor4 ,! burn+ coals 7 spread on e side1 & ! h\se _h be5 v ne>ly on fire4 ,b t v bl[1 ) ! awful dea? ( h] *ild1 _h sudd5ly br\ght h] to h] s5ses1 & put an end to h] intoxication4 ,at a glance %e saw ! :ole ext5t ( h] mis=tune4 ,h] fir/ ?\ght _h be5 to run to ! sidebo>d1 seize a l>ge1 %>p knife1 & cut h] own ?roat4 ,provid5tially1 h] husb& 0 on ! spot4 ,) great difficulty1 & aft] a t]rible /ruggle1 he took ! knife out ( h] h&s & ?rew x into ! /reet ?r\gh ! w9d[4 ,x 0 !n ab\t five o'clock 9 ! aft]noon4 ,aft] an h\r pass$ 9 indescribable agony ( m9d & he>t1 ,i attempt$ to leave & g back to ! p>sonage4 ,b my un=tunate "y fri5d reque/$ me1 9 ! "n ( ,god1 to sp5d ! night ) him4 8,y are ! only "o10 he said1 8:o c help u 9 ?is awful night4 ,my mis=tune is great en\gh1 )\t de/roy+ our good "n by spread+ x 9 public4 ,i want to keep x z secret z possible4 ,) our physician & coron]1 y are ! only man on e>? :om ,i tru/ to help me4 ,please pass ! night ) u40 ,i rema9$1 b tri$ 9 va9 to calm ! un=tunate "m4 ,%e 0 con/antly break+ our he>ts ) h] lam5tations--h] convulsive ef=ts to take h] own life4 ,e m9ute %e 0 cry+1 8,my *ild6 my d>l+ ,lucy6 ,j :5 ?y little arms 7 s g5tly c>ess+ me1 & ?y angelic kisses 7 s sweet on my lips1 ,i h slaught]$ !e6 ,:5 ?\ w]t press+ me on ?y lov+ he>t & kiss+ me1 ,i1 ?y drunk5 "m1 gave !e ! dea? bl[6 ,my h&s are r$d5$ ) ?y blood6 ,my brea/ is cov]$ ) ?y bra9s6 ,oh6 = ,god's sake1 my de> husb&1 take my life4 ,i _c cons5t to live a day long]6 ,my de> ,fa!r ,*9iquy1 give me a knife1 t ,i may m+le my blood ) ! blood ( my *ild6 ,o t ,i c\ld be buri$ 9 ! same grave ) h]60 ,9 va9 ,i tri$ to speak to h] ( ! m]cies ( ,god t[>ds s9n]s2 %e w\ld n li/5 to any?+ ,i c\ld say2 %e 0 absolutely deaf to my voice4 ,at ab\t t5 o'clock1 %e _h a mo/ t]rible fit ( angui% & t]ror4 ,?\gh we 7 f\r m5 to keep h] quiet1 %e 0 /rong] ?an we all4 ,%e 0 /rong] ?an a giant4 ,%e slipp$ f our h&s & ran to ! room :]e ! dead *ild 0 ly+ 9 h] cradle4 ,grasp+ ! cold body 9 h] h&s1 %e tore ! b&s ( :ite l95 :i* _h be5 put r\nd ! head to cov] ! horrible w\nd1 & ) cries ( desolation %e press$ h] lips1 h] *eeks1 h] v eyes1 on ! horrible gap f :i* ! bra9 & blood 7 ooz+1 z if want+ to heal x & recall ! poor de> "o to life4 8,my d>l+1 my belov$1 my own de> ,lucy10 %e cri$1 8op5 ?y eyes--look aga9 at ?y "m6 ,give me a kiss6 ,press me aga9 to ?y bosom6 ,b ?9e eyes are %ut6 ,?y lips are cold6 ,?\ do/ n smile on me any long]6 ,?\ art dead1 & ,i1 ?y "m1 h slaught]$ !e6 ,can/ ?\ =give me ?y dea?8 ,can/ ?\ ask ,jesus ,*ri/1 our ,savi\r1 to =give me8 ,can/ ?\ ask ! bless$ ,virg9 ,m>y to pray = me8 ,w ,i nev] see !e aga98 ,ah1 no6 ,i am lo/--,i am damn$6 ,i am a drunk5 "m :o has murd]$ h] own d>l+ ,lucy6 ,!re is no m]cy = ! drunk5 "m1 ! murd]ess ( h] own *ild40 ,& :5 speak+ ?us to h] *ild1 %e 0 sometimes kneel+ d[n1 !n runn+ ar\nd ! room z if fly+ be=e a phantom4 ,b ev5 !n1 %e 0 con/antly press+ ! motionless body to h] bosom1 or convulsively pass+ h] lips & *eeks ov] ! horrible w\nd1 s t h] lips1 h] :ole face1 h] brea/ & h&s1 7 lit]ally besme>$ ) ! blood fl[+ f ! w\nd4 ,i w n say t we 7 all weep+ & cry+1 = ! words 8weep+ & cry+0 _c express ! desolation--! horror we felt4 ,at ab\t elev5 o'clock1 :5 on h] knees1 clasp+ h] *ild to h] bosom1 %e lift$ h] eyes t[>ds me1 & said3 8,de> ,fa!r ,*9iquy1 :y is x t ,i h n foll[$ y\r *>itable advice :51 /ill m ) y\r te>s ?an ) words1 y tri$ s (t5 to p]suade me to give up ! use ( ^? curs$ intoxicat+ w9es8 ,h[ _m times y h giv5 me ! v words :i* come f heav53 #8,w9e is a mock]2 x bites z a s]p5t1 & /+s z an add]6' ,h[ _m times1 9 ! "n ( my de> *ild1 9 ! "n ( my de> husb&1 9 ! "n ( ,god1 y h ask$ me to give up ! use ( ^? curs$ dr9ks6 ,b li/5 n[ to my pray]4 ,g all ov] ,canada2 tell all ! fa!rs nev] to put any intoxicat+ dr9k be=e ! eyes ( _! *ildr54 ,x 0 at my fa!r's table t ,i fir/ le>n$ to dr9k t w9e :i* ,i w curse dur+ all et]nity6 ,tell all ! mo!rs nev] to ta/e ^! abom9able dr9ks4 ,x 0 my "m :o fir/ taught me to dr9k t w9e :i* ,i w curse z long z ,god is6 8,take ! blood ( my *ild1 & g r$d5 ) x ! top ( ! doors ( e h\se 9 ,canada1 & say to all ^? :o dwell 9 ^? h\ses t t blood 0 %$ by ! h& ( a murd]ess "m :5 drunk4 ,) t blood write on ! walls ( e h\se 9 ,canada t #8w9e is a mock]4' ,tell ! ,fr5* ,canadians h[1 on ! dead body ( my *ild1 ,i h curs$ t w9e :i* has made me s wret*$ly mis]able & guilty40 ,%e !n /opp$1 z if to brea! a little = a few m9utes4 ,%e add$3 8,9 ! "n ( ,god1 tell me1 c my *ild =give me h] dea?8 ,c %e ask ,god to look ^u me ) m]cy8 ,c %e cause ! bless$ ,virg9 ,m>y to pray = me & obta9 my p>don80 ,b be=e ,i c\ld answ]1 %e horrifi$ u by ! cries1 8,i am lo/6 ,:5 drunk ,i kill$ my *ild6 ,curs$ w9e60 ,& %e fell a corpse on ! floor4 ,torr5ts ( blood 7 fl[+ f h] m\? on h] dead *ild1 :i* %e 0 press+ to h] bosom ev5 aft] h] dea?6 ,t t]rible drama 0 nev] reveal$ to ! p ( ,quebec4 ,! coron]'s inque/ 0 t ! *ild's dea? 0 accid5tal1 & t ! di/ress$ "m di$ f a brok5 he>t six h\rs aft]4 ,two days lat] ! un=tunate "m 0 buri$1 ) ! body ( h] *ild clasp$ 9 h] arms4 ,_m te>s 7 %$ on t tomb1 & ?is de> little *ild's gu>dian angel mu/ h writt5 ) its blood on t tomb3 8,w9e is a mock]2 look n at x4 ,x bite? l a s]p5t1 & /+s l an add]40 ,h[ev]1 :at ,i _h j se5 & he>d c\ld n be buri$ & =gott5 9 ! grave4 ,aft] su* a t]rible /orm1 ,i 0 9 ne$ ( solitude & re/1 b above ev]y?+ ,i 0 9 ne$ ( pray+4 ,i %ut myself 9 my little room = two days1 & !re1 alone1 9 ! pres5ce ( ,god1 ,i m$itat$ on ! t]rible ju/ice & retribution :i* ,he _h call$ me to witness4 ,! un=tunate woman _h n only be5 my p5it5t3 %e _h be51 ) h] husb&1 among my de>e/ & mo/ devot$ fri5ds4 ,x 0 only lately t %e _h become a slave to drunk5ness4 ,be=e t1 h] piety & s5se ( honor 7 ( ! mo/ exalt$ k9d kn[n 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,rome4 ,h] la/ words 7 n ! commonplace expressions :i* ord9>y s9n]s pr(f] at ! approa* ( dea?2 h] words _h a solemnity = me :i* almo/ trans=m$ !m into oracles ( ,god 9 my m9d4 ,ea* ( !m s\nd$ 9 my e>s z if an angel ( ,god _h t\*$ ! ?\s& /r+s ( my s\l1 to call my att5tion to a message f heav54 ,sometimes !y resembl$ ! t]rible voice ( ?und]2 & aga9 x seem$ z if a s]aph1 ) 8 gold5 h>p1 7 s++ !m 9 my e>s1 t ,i might prep>e to fight fai?fully = ! ,"l aga9/ ,8 gigantic enemy1 alcohol4 ,9 ! middle ( t horrible night1 :5 ! d>kness 0 mo/ pr(\nd & ! /illness fe>ful1 0 ,i awake1 0 ,i sleep+8 ,i d n "k4 ,b ,i saw ! calm1 beautiful & *]i%$ =m ( my de> "m /&+ by me1 hold+ by ! h& ! late murd]ess1 /ill cov]$ ) ! blood ( h] *ild4 ,yes6 my belov$ "m 0 !re /&+ be=e me2 & %e said1 ) p[] & au?ority :i* engrav$ e "o ( h] words on my s\l1 z if writt5 ) lett]s ( te>s1 blood & fire3 8,g all ov] ,canada2 tell e fa!r ( a family nev] to put any intoxicat+ dr9k be=e 8 *ildr54 ,tell all ! mo!rs nev] to take a drop ( ^? curs$ w9es & dr9ks4 ,tell ! :ole p ( ,canada nev] to t\* nor look at ! poison$ cup1 fill$ ) ^? curs$ intoxicat+ dr9ks4 ,& ?\1 my belov$ son1 give up =ev] ! use ( ^? dete/able bev]ages1 :i* are curs$ 9 hell1 9 heav5 & on e>?4 ,x bites l a s]p5t2 x /+s l an add]40 ,:5 ! s\nd ( t voice1 s sweet & p[]ful1 0 hu%$1 & my s\l _h ceas$ see+ t /range vision ( ! night1 ,i rema9$ = "s "t exce$+ly agitat$ & tr\bl$4 ,i said to myself1 8,is x possible t ! t]rible ?+s ,i h se5 & he>d ^! la/ few days w de/roy my m9d1 & s5d me to ! lunatic asylum80 ,i _h h>dly be5 able to take any sleep or food = ! la/ ?ree days & nights1 & ,i s]i\sly fe>$ le/ ! weakness ( my body w\ld cause me to lose my reason4 ,i !n ?rew myself on my knees to weep & pray4 ,?is did me good4 ,i soon felt myself /rong] & calm]4 ,rais+ aga9 my m9d to ,god1 ,i said3 8,o my ,god1 let me "k ?y holy w1 & grant me ! grace to d x4 ,d ! voices ,i h j he>d come f !e8 ,ha/ ?\ really s5t "o ( ! angels ( ?y m]cy1 "u ! =m ( my belov$ "m8 or is all ?is no?+ b ! va9 dreams ( my di/ress$ m9d8 8,is x ?y w1 ,o my ,god1 t ,i %\ld g & tell my c\ntry :at ?\ ha/ s provid5tially taught me ( ! horrible & unsuspect$ injuries :i* w9e & /rong dr9k cause to ! bodies z well z to ! s\ls ( m58 ,or is x ?y w t ,i %\ld conceal f ! eyes ( ! _w ! wond]ful ?+s ?\ ha/ made kn[n to me1 & t ,i might bury !m ) me 9 my grave80 ,z quick z lightn+ ! answ] 0 sugge/$ to me4 8,:at ,i h taught !e 9 secret1 g & tell x on ! h\setops60 ,ov]:elm$ ) an unspeakable emotion1 & my he>t fill$ ) a p[] :i* 0 n m9e1 ,i rais$ my h&s t[>d heav51 & said to my ,god3 8,= my de> ,savi\r ,jesus' sake1 & = ! good ( my c\ntry1 ,o my ,god1 ,i promise t ,i w nev] make any use ( intoxicat+ dr9ks2 ,i w1 moreov]1 d all 9 my p[] to p]suade ! o!r prie/s & ! p to make ! same sacrifice60 ,fifty ye>s h pass$ s9ce ,i took t pl$ge1 &1 ?anks be to ,god1 ,i h kept x4 ,= ! next two ye>s1 ,i 0 ! only prie/ 9 ,canada :o ab/a9$ f ! use ( w9e & o!r intoxicat+ dr9ks2 & ,god only kn[s :at ,i _h to suff] all t "t--:at sne]s1 & rebukes & insults1 ( e k9d1 ,i _h sil5tly to be>6 ,h[ _m times ! epi!ts ( fanatic1 hypocrite1 re=m]1 half-h]etic1 h be5 :isp]$ into my e>1 n only by ! prie/s1 b also by ! bi%ops4 ,b ,i 0 sure t my ,god knew ! motives ( my actions1 &1 by ,8 grace1 ,i rema9$ calm & pati5t4 ,9 ,8 inf9ite m]cy1 ,he has look$ d[n ^u ,8 unpr(itable s]vant & has tak5 8 "p4 ,he _h himself *os5 ! day :5 my humiliations 7 to be turn$ into great joy4 ,! day came :5 ,i saw ^? same prie/s & bi%ops1 at ! head ( _! p1 receiv+ ! pl$ge & bless+ ( temp]ance f my h&s4 ,^? v bi%ops :o _h unanim\sly1 at fir/1 condemn$ me1 soon invit$ ! fir/ citiz5s ( _! cities to pres5t me ) a gold5 m$al1 z a tok5 ( _! e/eem1 aft] giv+ me1 (ficially1 ! title ( 8,apo/le ( ,temp]ance ( ,canada40 ,! ,gov]nor & ! two ,*amb]s ( ,p>liam5t ( ,canada vot$ me public ?anks 9 #ahea1 & pres5t$ me #ejj z a public te/imony ( _! k9d feel+s = :at _h be5 done 9 ! cause ( temp]ance4 ,x 0 ! w ( my ,god1 t ,i %\ld see1 ) my own eyes1 my de> ,canada tak+ ! pl$ge ( temp]ance & giv+ up ! use ( intoxicat+ dr9ks4 ,h[ _m te>s 7 dri$ 9 ^? days6 ,?\s&s & ?\s&s ( brok5 he>ts 7 consol$ & fill$ ) joy4 ,happ9ess & abundance reign$ 9 _m once desolate homes1 & ! "n ( our m]ciful ,god 0 bless$ ev]y:]e 9 my belov$ c\ntry4 ,surely ?is 0 n ! "w ( poor ,*9iquy6 ,x 0 ! ,"l's "w1 = ! ,"l1 :o is wond]ful 9 all ,8 do+s1 _h once m *os5 ! weake/ in/rum5t to %[ ,8 m]cy t[>ds ! *ildr5 ( m54 ,he _h call$ ! mo/ unpr(itable ( ,8 s]vants to d ! greate/ "w ( re=m1 ,canada has ev] se51 t ! praise & glory might be giv5 to ,him1 & ,him alone6 ,,*apt] ,,xxix4 ,,conv]sions ,,( ,,prote/ants ,,to ,,! ,,*ur* ,,( ,,rome--,,rev4 ,,an?ony ,,p>5t1 ,,sup]ior ,,( ,,! ,,sem9>y ,,( ,,quebec3 ,,8 ,,peculi> ,,way ,,( ,,f9d+ ,,access ,,to ,,! ,,prote/ants ,,& ,,br++ ,,!m ,,to ,,! ,,ca?olic ,,*ur*--,,h[ ,,he ,,spies ,,! ,,prote/ants ,,?r\gh ,,! ,,confessional--,i ,,p]suade ,,n9ety-,,?ree ,,families ,,to ,,become ,,ca?olics4 8,out ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome !re is no salvation10 is "o ( ! doctr9es :i* ! prie/s ( ,rome h to believe & tea* to ! p4 ,t dogma1 once accept$1 caus$ me to devote all my en]gies to ! conv]sion ( ,prote/ants4 ,to prev5t "o ( ^? immortal & preci\s s\ls f go+ into hell seem$ to me m important & glori\s t ! conque/ ( a k+dom4 ,9 view ( %[+ !m _! errors1 ,i fill$ my libr>y ) ! be/ controv]sial books :i* c\ld be got 9 ,quebec1 & ,i /udi$ ! ,holy ,scriptures ) ! utmo/ att5tion4 ,9 ! ,m>9e ,hospital1 z well z 9 my int]c\rse ) ! p ( ! city1 ,i _h sev]al occasions ( meet+ ,prote/ants & talk+ to !m2 b ,i f\nd at once t1 ) v few exceptions1 !y avoid$ speak+ ) me on religion4 ,?is di/ress$ me4 ,hav+ be5 told "o day t ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,an?ony ,p>5t1 sup]ior ( ! ,sem9>y ( ,quebec1 _h conv]t$ sev]al hundr$ ,prote/ants dur+ 8 m9i/ry1 ,i w5t to ask him if ?is 7 true4 ,= answ]1 he %[$ me ! li/ ( 8 conv]ts1 :i* numb]$ m ?an two hundr$1 among :om 7 "s ( ! mo/ respectable ,engli% & ,scot* families ( ! city4 ,i look$ ^u t li/ ) amazem5t2 & f t day ,i consid]$ him ! mo/ bless$ prie/ ( ,canada4 ,he 0 a p]fect g5tleman 9 8 mann]s1 & 0 consid]$ our be/ *ampion on all po9ts ( controv]sy ) ,prote/ants4 ,he c\ld h be5 class$1 also1 among ! h&some/ m5 9 8 "t1 _h n he be5 s fat4 ,b1 :5 ! high classes call$ him by ! respectable "n ( 8,mr4 ,sup]ior ( ! ,sem9>y10 ! common p us$ to "n him ,p]e ,cocassi] 78,cock-fight+ ,fa!r071 on acc\nt ( 8 long-*]i%$ habit ( hav+ ! brave/ & /ronge/ fight+-cocks ( ! c\ntry4 ,9 va9 _h ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,r5voyze1 curate ( ! 8,good ,/4 ,anne10 t greate/ miracle-work+ sa9t ( ,canada1 exp5d$ fabul\s sums ( money 9 ransack+ ! :ole c\ntry to get a cock :o w\ld take away ! palm ( victory f ! h&s ( ! sup]ior ( ! ,sem9>y ( ,quebec4 ,he _h almo/ inv>iably fail$2 ) v few exceptions 8 cocks _h fall5 bruis$1 ble$+ & dead on ! _m battlefields *os5 by ^? two prie/s4 ,h[ev]1 ,i feel happy 9 ackn[l$g+ t1 s9ce ! t]rible epidemic ( *ol]a1 t cruel & ignom9i\s 8passe temps0 has be5 entirely giv5 up by ! ,roman ,ca?olic cl]gy ( ?is c\ntry4 ,play+ c>ds & *eck]s is n[ ! mo/ usual way ! majority ( curates & vic>s h rec\rse to sp5d _! long & _m idle h\rs1 bo? ( ! week & ,sabba? days4 ,aft] read+ ov] & ov] aga9 t long li/ ( conv]ts1 ,i said to ,mr4 ,p>5t3 8,please tell me h[ y h be5 able to p]suade ^! ,prote/ant conv]ts to cons5t to speak ) y on ! errors ( _! religion4 ,_m times ,i h tri$ to %[ ! ,prote/ants :om ,i met1 t !y w\ld be lo/ if !y d n submit to our holy ,*ur*1 b1 ) few exceptions1 !y laugh$ at me z politely z possible1 & turn$ ! conv]sation to o!r matt]s4 ,y mu/ h "s secret way ( attract+ _! att5tion & w9n+ _! confid5ce4 ,w\ld y n be k9d en\gh to give me t secret1 t ,i may be able also to prev5t "s ( ^? preci\s s\ls f p]i%+80 8,y are "r :5 y ?9k t ,i h a secret to op5 ! doors ( ! ,prote/ants1 & conqu] & tame _! haughty m9ds10 answ]$ ,mr4 ,p>5t4 8,b t secret is ( su* a delicate nature1 t ,i h nev] reveal$ x to anybody except my confessor4 ,nev]!less1 ,i see t y are s 9 e>ne/ = ! conv]sion ( ,prote/ants1 & ,i h su* a confid5ce 9 y\r discretion & honor1 t = ! sake ( our holy ,*ur* ,i cons5t to give y my secret2 only y mu/ promise t y w nev] reveal x1 dur+ my lifetime1 to anybody--& ev5 aft] my dea? y w n m5tion x1 except :5 y are sure x is = ! greate/ glory ( ,god4 ,y "k t ,i 0 ! mo/ intimate fri5d y\r fa!r ev] _h2 ,i _h no secret f him1 & he _h none f me4 ,b ,god kn[s t ! fri5dly feel+s & confid5ce ,i _h 9 him are n[ be/[$ ^u y1 8 wor?y son4 ,if y _h n 9 my he>t & e/eem ! same high position y\r fa!r occupi$1 ,i w\ld n tru/ y ) my secret40 ,he !n cont9u$3 8,! majority ( ,prote/ants 9 ,quebec h ,iri% ,roman ,ca?olic s]vant girls2 ^!1 p>ticul>ly be=e ! la/ few ye>s1 us$ to come to confess to me1 z ,i 0 almo/ ! only prie/ :o spoke ,engli%4 ,! fir/ ?+ ,i us$ to ask !m1 :5 !y 7 confess+1 01 if _! ma/]s & mi/resses 7 truly devot$ & pi\s ,prote/ants1 or if !y 7 indiff]5t & cold 9 p]=m+ _! duties4 ,! second ?+ ,i want$ to "k 01 if !y 7 on good t]ms ) _! m9i/]s2 :e!r or n !y 7 visit$ by !m4 ,f ! answ]s ( ! girls1 ,i knew bo? ! moral & immoral1 ! religi\s or irreligi\s habits ( _! ma/]s z p]fectly z if ,i _h be5 an inmate ( _! h\seholds4 ,x is ?us t ,i le>n$ t _m ,prote/ants h no m religion & fai? ?an our dogs4 ,!y awake 9 ! morn+1 & g to b$ at night1 )\t pray+ to ,god any m ?an ! horses 9 _! /ables4 ,_m ( !m g to *ur* on ! ,sabba? day1 m to laugh at _! m9i/]s & criticise _! s]mons ?an = any?+ else4 ,a "p ( ! week is pass$ 9 turn+ !m into ridicule2 nay1 ?r\gh ! confessions ( ^! hone/ girls1 ,i le>n$ t _m ,prote/ants lik$ ! f9e c]emonies ( our ,*ur*2 t !y (t5 favorably contra/$ !m ) ! cold p]=mances ( _! own1 & express$ _! views 9 gl[+ t]ms ab\t ! sup]iority ( our educational in/itutions1 nunn]ies1 etc41 ov] _! own high s*ools or colleges4 ,besides1 y "k t a great numb] ( our mo/ respectable & weal?y ,prote/ants tru/ _! daught]s to our good nuns = _! education4 ,i took notes ( all ^! ?+s1 & =m$ my plans ( battle aga9/ ,prote/antism1 z a g5]al :o kn[s 8 gr\nd & ! weak po9ts ( 8 adv]s>ies1 & ,i f\ght z a man :o is sure ( an easy victory4 ,! glori\s result y h "u y\r eyes is ! pro( t ,i 0 correct 9 my plans4 ,my fir/ /ep ) ! ,prote/ants :om ,i knew to be )\t any religion1 or ev5 already well dispos$ t[>d u1 0 to g to !m ) sometimes #e1 or ev5 #be1 :i* ,i pres5t$ to !m z be+ !irs4 ,!y1 at fir/1 look$ at me ) amazem5t1 z a be+ com+ f a sup]ior _w4 ,! foll[+ conv]sation !n almo/ inv>iably took place betwe5 !m & me3 8,are y positive1 sir1 t ?is money is m9e80 8,yes1 sir10 ,i answ]$4 8,i am c]ta9 t ?is money is y\rs40 8,b10 !y repli$1 8please tell me h[ y "k t x belongs to me8 ,x is ! fir/ "t ,i h ! honor ( talk+ ) y1 & we are p]fect /rang]s to ea* o!r40 ,i answ]$3 8,i _c say1 sir1 h[ ,i "k t ?is money is y\rs1 except by tell+ y t ! p]son :o deposit$ x 9 my h&s = y has giv5 me y\r "n & y\r address s correctly t !re is no possibility ( any mi/ake40 8,b c ,i n "k ! "n ( ! "o :o has put t money into y\r h&s = me80 rejo9$ ! ,prote/ant4 8,no1 sir2 ! secret ( confession is inviolable10 ,i repli$4 8,we h no example t x has ev] be5 brok52 & ,i1 ) e prie/ ( our ,*ur*1 w\ld pref] to die1 r ?an betray our p5it5ts & reveal _! confession4 ,we _c ev5 act f :at we h le>n$ ?r\gh _! confession1 except at _! own reque/40 8,b ?is auricul> confession mu/ !n be a mo/ admirable ?+10 add$ ! ,prote/ant2 8,i _h no idea ( x be=e ?is day40 8,yes1 sir1 auricul> confession is a mo/ admirable ?+10 ,i us$ to reply1 8because x is a div9e in/itution4 ,b1 sir1 please excuse me2 my m9i/ry calls me to ano!r place4 ,i mu/ take leave ( y1 to g :]e my duty calls me40 8,i am v sorry t y g s quickly10 g5]ally answ]$ ! ,prote/ant4 8,c ,i h ano!r visit f y8 ,please d me ! honor ( com+ aga94 ,i w\ld be s happy to pres5t y to my wife2 & ,i "k %e w\ld be happy also1 & mu* honor$ to make y\r acqua9tance40 8,yes1 sir1 ,i accept ) gratitude y\r invitation4 ,i w feel mu* pleas$ & honor$ to make ! acqua9tance ( ! family ( a g5tleman ^: praises are 9 ! m\? ( e "o1 & ^: indu/ry & hone/y are an honor to our city4 ,if y w all[ me1 next week1 at ! same h\r1 ,i w h ! honor ( pres5t+ my respectful homage to y\r lady4 8,! v next day1 all ! pap]s report$ t ,mr4 ,s-&-,s _h receiv$ #e1 or #aj1 or ev5 #be1 z a re/itution ?r\gh auricul> confession3 & ev5 ! /aun* ,prote/ant editors ( ^? pap]s c\ld n f9d words suffici5tly eloqu5t to praise me & our sacram5t ( p5ance4 8,?ree or f\r days lat]1 ,i 0 sure t ! fai?ful s]vant girls 7 9 ! confessional-box1 gl[+ ) joy to tell me t n[ _! ma/]s & mi/resses c\ld n speak ( any?+ else ?an ! amiability & hone/y ( ! prie/s ( ,rome4 ,!y rais$ !m a ?\s& miles ov] ! heads ( _! own m9i/]s4 ,f ^? pi\s girls1 ,i inv>iably le>n$ t t !y _h n be5 visit$ by a s+le fri5d )\t mak+ ! eulogium ( auricul> confession1 & ev5 sometimes express+ ! regret t ! re=m]s _h swept away su* a useful in/itution4 8,n[1 my de> "y fri5d1 y see h[1 by ! bless+ ( ,god1 ! little sacrifice ( a few p\nds br\ght d[n & de/roy$ all ! prejudices ( ^? poor h]etics aga9/ auricul> confession & our holy ,*ur* 9 g5]al4 ,y und]/& h[ ! doors 7 op5$ to me1 & h[ _! he>ts & intellig5ces 7 l fields prep>$ to receive ! good se$4 ,at ! appo9t$ h\r1 ,i nev] fail$ f pay+ ! reque/$ visit1 & ,i 0 inv>iably receiv$ l a messiah4 ,n only ! g5tlem51 b ! ladies1 ov]:elm$ me ) m>ks ( ! mo/ s9c]e gratitude & respect2 ev5 ! de> little *ildr5 pett$ me1 & ?rew _! arms ar\nd my neck to give me _! sweetly angelic kisses4 ,! only topic on :i* we c\ld speak1 ( c\rse1 0 ! great good done by auricul> confession4 ,i easily %[$ !m h[ x works z a *eck to all ! evil passions ( ! he>t2 h[ x is admirably adapt$ to all ! wants ( ! poor s9n]s1 :o f9d a fri5d1 a c\nsellor1 a guide1 a fa!r1 a real savi\r 9 _! confessor4 8,we _h n talk$ half an h\r 9 t way1 :5 x 0 g5]ally evid5t to me t !y 7 m ?an half way out ( _! ,prote/ant errors4 ,i v seldom left ! h\ses )\t be+ sure ( a new1 glori\s victory = our holy religion ov] its enemies4 ,x is v seldom t ,i d n succe$ 9 br++ t family to our holy ,*ur* be=e "o or two ye>s2 & if ,i fail ( ga9+ ! fa!r or "m1 ,i am ne>ly sure to p]suade !m to s5d _! daught]s to our good nuns & _! boys to our colleges1 :]e !y1 soon] or lat]1 become our mo/ devot$ ,ca?olics4 ,s y see t ! few doll>s ,i sp5d e ye> = t holy cause are ! be/ inve/m5ts ev] made4 ,!y d m to cat* ! ,prote/ants ( ,quebec ?an ! baits ( ! fi%]m5 d to secure ! cod fi%es ( ! ,newf\ndl& banks40 ,9 end+ ?is la/ s5t5ce1 ,mr4 ,p>5t fill$ 8 room ) laught]4 ,i ?ank$ him = ^! int]e/+ details4 ,b ,i told him3 8,?\gh ,i _c b admire y\r p]fect skill & %rewdness 9 break+ ! b>ri]s :i* prev5t ,prote/ants f und]/&+ ! div9e in/itution ( auricul> confession1 w y all[ me to ask y if y d n fe> to be guilty ( an impo/ure & a gross imposition 9 ! way y make !m believe t ! money y h& !m has come to y ?r\gh auricul> confession80 8,i h n ! lea/ fe> ( t10 promptly answ]$ ! old prie/1 8= ! good reason t1 if y _h paid att5tion to :at ,i h told y1 y mu/ ackn[l$ge t ,i h n said positively t ! money 0 com+ f auricul> confession4 ,if ^? ,prote/ants h be5 deceiv$1 x is only due to _! own want ( a m p]fect att5tion to :at ,i said4 ,i "k t !re 7 ?+s t ,i kept 9 my m9d :i* w\ld h made !m und]/& ! matt] 9 a v diff]5t way if ,i _h said !m4 ,b ,liguori & all our !ologians1 among ! mo/ approv$ ( our holy ,*ur*1 tell u t ^! res]vations ( ! m9d 7#8m5tis res]vationes'7 are all[$ :5 !y are = ! good ( s\ls & ! glory ( ,god40 8,yes10 answ]$ ,i1 8,i "k t su* is ! doctr9e ( ,liguori1 & x is approv$ by ! popes4 ,i mu/ confess1 h[ev]1 t ?is seems to me entirely oppos$ to :at we read 9 ! sublime gospel4 ,! simple & sublime #8,yea1 yea1' & #8,nay1 nay1' ( our ,savi\r seems to me 9 contradiction ) ! art ( deceiv+1 ev5 :5 n say+ absolute & direct falsehoods2 & if ,i submit myself to ^? doctr9es1 x is always ) a secret prote/ 9 my inmo/ s\l40 ,9 an angry mann]1 ,mr4 ,p>5t repli$3 8,n[1 my de> "y fri5d1 ,i und]/& ! tru? ( :at ! ,rev4 ,messrs4 ,p]ras & ,b$>d told me lately ab\t y4 ,?\gh ^! rem>kable prie/s are full ( e/eem = y1 !y see a d>k cl\d on y\r horizon2 !y say t y sp5d too mu* "t 9 read+ ! ,bible1 & n en\gh 9 /udy+ ! doctr9es & holy traditions ( ! ,*ur*4 ,y are too mu* incl9$ also to int]pret ! ,^w ( ,god accord+ to y\r own fallible intellig5ce1 in/ead ( go+ to ! ,*ur* alone = t int]pretation4 ,?is is ! dang]\s rock on :i* ,lu!r & ,calv9 7 wreck$4 ,take my advice4 ,d n try to be wis] ?an ! ,*ur*4 ,obey h] voice :5 %e speaks to y ?r\gh h] holy !ologians4 ,?is is y\r only safegu>d4 ,! bi%op w\ld susp5d y at once 7 he aw>e ( y\r want ( fai? 9 ! ,*ur*40 ,^! la/ words 7 said ) su* emphasis t !y seem$ m l a s5t5ce ( condemnation f ! lips ( an irritat$ judge ?an any?+ else4 ,i felt t ,i _h aga9 s]i\sly compromis$ myself 9 8 m9d2 & ! only way ( prev5t+ him f d5\nc+ me to ! bi%op z a h]etic & a ,prote/ant 0 to make an apology1 & )draw f ! dang]\s gr\nd on :i* ,i _h aga9 s imprud5tly put myself4 ,he accept$ my explanation1 b ,i saw t he bitt]ly regrett$ hav+ tru/$ me ) 8 secret4 ,i )drew f 8 pres5ce1 mu* humiliat$ by my want ( prud5ce & wisdom4 ,h[ev]1 ?\gh ,i c\ld n approve ( all ! modus op]&i ( ! sup]ior ( ,quebec1 ,i c\ld n b admire1 !n1 ! glori\s results ( 8 ef=ts 9 conv]t+ ,prote/ants2 & ,i took ! resolution ( devot+ myself m ?an ev] to %[ !m _! errors & make !m good ,ca?olics4 ,9 ?is ,i 0 too successful2 = dur+ my tw5ty-five ye>s ( prie/hood ,i h p]suad$ n9ety-?ree ,prote/ants to give up _! gospel light & tru?1 9 ord] to foll[ ! d>k & ly+ traditions ( ,rome4 ,i _c ent] into ! details ( _! conv]sions1 or r p]v]sions2 suffice x to say1 t ,i soon f\nd t my only *ance ( success 9 t proselytiz+ "w 0 among ! ,rituali/s4 ,i saw at fir/ t ,calv9 & ,knox _h dug a really impassable abyss betwe5 ! ,presbyt]ians1 ,me?odi/s1 ,bapti/s & ! ,*ur* ( ,rome4 ,if ^! ,rituali/s rema9 ,prote/ants1 & d n make ! v %ort /ep :i* sep>ates !m f ,rome1 x is a mo/ a/oni%+ fact1 :5 !y are logical m54 ,"s p are surpris$ t s _m em95t & le>n$ m51 9 ,great ,brita9 & ,am]ica1 give up _! ,prote/antism to submit to ! ,*ur* ( ,rome2 b my wond] is t !re are s few among !m :o fall into t bottomless abyss ( idolatry & folly1 :5 !y are _! :ole life on ! v br9k ( ! *asm4 ,put millions ( m5 on ! v br9k ( ! ,falls ( ,niag>a1 =ce !m to cross to & fro 9 small canoes betwe5 bo? %ores1 & y w see t1 e day1 "s ( !m w be dragg$1 9 spite ( !mselves1 into ! yawn+ abyss4 ,nay1 y w see t1 soon] or lat]1 ^? millions ( p w be 9 dang] ( be+ dragg$ 9 a :ole body1 by ! irresi/ible =ce ( ! da%+ wat]s1 into ! fa?omless gulf4 ,?r\gh a sublime ef=t ! ,engli% p1 help$ by ! mighty & m]ciful h& ( ,god1 h come out f ! abyss ( folly1 impurity1 ignorance1 slav]y & idolatry call$ ! ,*ur* ( ,rome4 ,b _m1 alas6 9 ! pres5t day1 in/ead ( m>*+ up to ! high regions ( unsulli$ ,gospel tru? & light--in/ead ( go+ up to ! high m\nta9s :]e true ,*ri/ian simplicity & lib]ty h =ev] plant$ _! glori\s bann]s--h be5 induc$ to walk only a few /eps out ( ! pe/if]\s regions ( ,pop]y4 ,!y h rema9$ s ne> ! pe/il5tial atmosph]e ( ! /agnant wat]s ( dea? :i* fl[ f ,rome1 t ! atmosph]e !y brea! is /ill fill$ ) ! deadly emanations ( t mod]n ,sodom4 ,:o1 )\t %$d+ te>s ( sorr[1 c look at ^? misguid$ m9i/]s ( ! ,gospel :o believe & tea* 9 ! ,episcopal ,*ur* t !y h ! p[] to make _! ,god ) a waf]1 & :o b[ d[n be=e t waf] god & adore him6 ,:o c refra9 f indignation at ! sight ( s _m ,episcopal m9i/]s :o cons5t to h _! e>s1 m9ds & s\ls pollut$ at ! confessional by ! /ories ( _! p5it5ts1 :om 9 _! turn !y de/roy by _! infam\s & unm5tionable que/ions8 ,:5 ,i 0 lectur+ 9 ,engl&1 9 #ahfj1 ! late ,ar*bi%op ( ,cant]bury1 !n ,bi%op ( ,london1 invit$ me to 8 table1 9 company ) ,rev4 ,mr4 ,?omas1 n[ ,bi%op ( ,c\lb\rne1 ,au/ralia1 & put to me ! foll[+ que/ions1 9 ! pres5ce ( 8 num]\s & noble gue/s3 8,fa!r ,*9iquy1 :5 y left ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 :y did y n jo9 ! ,episcopalian r ?an ! ,presbyt]ian ,*ur*80 ,i answ]$3 8,is x ! desire ( y\r lord%ip t ,i %\ld speak my m9d on t delicate subject80 8,yes1 yes10 said ! noble "l bi%op4 8,!n1 my "l1 ,i mu/ tell y t my only reason is t ,i f9d 9 y\r ,*ur* sev]al doctr9es :i* ,i h to condemn 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,rome40 8,h[ is t80 repli$ 8 lord%ip4 8,please10 ,i answ]$1 8let me h "o ( y\r ,common ,pray] ,books40 ,tak+ ! book1 ,i read sl[ly ! article on ! visitation ( ! sick3 8,!n %all ! sick p]son be mov$ to make a special confession ( 8 s9s1 if he feels 8 consci5ce tr\bl$ ) any weighty matt]s4 ,aft] :i* confession ! prie/ %all absolve him1 aft] ?is sort3 #8,our ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/1 :o ha? left p[] to ,8 ,*ur* to absolve all s9n]s :o rep5t & believe 9 ,him1 ( ,8 great m]cy =give !e all ?9e (f5ses1 & by ,8 au?ority1 committ$ to me1 ,i absolve !e ( all ?y s9s1 9 ! "n ( ! ,fa!r1 ! ,son1 & ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,am54'0 ,i !n add$3 8,n[1 my "l1 :]e is ! diff]5ce betwe5 ! errors ( ,rome & y\r ,*ur* on ?is subject80 8,! diff]5ce is v great10 he answ]$4 8,! ,*ur* ( ,rome is con/antly press+ ! s9n]s to come to h] prie/s all _! lifetime1 :]e we subject ! s9n] to ?is humiliation only once 9 8 life1 :5 he is ne> 8 la/ h\r40 8,b1 my "l1 let me tell y t x seems to me ! ,*ur* ( ,rome is mu* m logical & consi/5t 9 ?is ?an ! ,episcopal ,*ur*4 ,bo? *ur*es believe & tea* t !y h receiv$ f ,*ri/ ! p[] to =give ! s9s ( ^? :o confess to _! prie/s1 & y ?9k y\rself wis] because y invite ! s9n] to confess & receive 8 p>don only :5 he is ti$ to a b$ ( suff]+1 at ! la/ h\r be=e 8 dea?4 ,b w y\r lord%ip be k9d en\gh to tell me :5 ,i am 9 dang] ( dea?4 ,if ,i am con/antly 9 dang] ( dea?1 mu/ y n1 ) ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 induce me con/antly to confess to y\r prie/s1 & get my p>don & make my peace ) ,god8 ,has our ,savi\r said any:]e t x 0 only = ! dy+1 at ! la/ extremity ( life1 t ,he gave ! p[] to =give my s9s8 ,has ,he n w>n$ me _m times to be always ready2 to h always our peace made ) ,god1 & n to wait till ! la/ day1 to ! la/ h\r80 ,! noble bi%op did n ?9k fit to give me any o!r answ] ?an ^! v words3 8,we all agree t ?is doctr9e ought nev] to h be5 put 9 our ,common ,pray] ,book4 ,b y "k t we are at "w to revise t book1 & we hope t ?is clause1 ) sev]al o!rs1 w be tak5 away40 8,!n10 ,i answ]$1 9 a jocose way1 8my "l1 :5 ?is obnoxi\s clause has be5 remov$ f y\r ,common ,pray] ,book1 x w be "t = me to h ! honor ( belong+ to y\r great & noble ,*ur*40 ,:5 ! ,*ur* ( ,engl& w5t out ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 %e did z ,ra*el1 ! wife ( ,jacob1 :o left ! h\se ( h] fa!r1 ,laban1 & took 8 gods ) h]4 ,s ! ,episcopal ,*ur* ( ,engl&1 un=tunately1 :5 %e left ,rome1 conceal$ 9 ! folds ( h] mantle "s ( ! false gods ( ,rome2 %e kept to h] bosom "s vip]s eng5d]$ 9 ! m>%es ( ! mod]n ,sodom4 ,^! vip]s1 if n soon de/roy$1 w kill h]4 ,!y are already eat+ up h] vitals4 ,!y are cov]+ h] ) mo/ ugly & mortal w\nds4 ,!y are rapidly tak+ away h] life4 ,may ! ,holy ,gho/ rebaptize & purify t noble ,*ur* ( ,engl&1 t %e may be wor?y to m>* at ! head ( ! armies ( ! ,"l to ! conque/ ( ! _w1 "u ! bann]s ( ! great ,capta9 ( our ,salvation4 ,,*apt] ,,xxx4 ,,! ,,murd]s ,,& ,,!fts ,,9 ,,quebec ,,f #ahce ,,to #ahcf--,,! ,,night ,,excursion ,,) ,,two ,,?ieves--,,! ,,re/itution--,,! ,,dawn ,,( ,,light4 ,! ?ree ye>s :i* foll[$ ! *ol]a w be long rememb]$ 9 ,quebec = ! numb] ( audaci\s !fts & ! murd]s :i* kept ! :ole population 9 con/ant t]ror4 ,almo/ e week1 ! public press _h to give u ! acc\nt ( ! robb]y ( ! h\ses ( "s ( our ri* m]*ants1 or old weal?y wid[s4 ,_m times1 ! blood 0 *ill$ 9 our ve9s by ! cruel & savage assass9ations :i* _h be5 committ$ by ! ?ieves :5 resi/ance _h be5 (f]$4 ,! numb] ( ^! crimes1 ! audacity1 ) :i* !y 7 p]petrat$1 ! ability ) :i* ! guilty p>ties escap$ f all ! rese>*es ( ! police1 indicat$ t !y 7 well organiz$1 & _h a lead] ( uncommon %rewdness4 ,b 9 ! eyes ( ! religi\s population ( ,quebec1 ! !fts ( ! #aj? ( ,febru>y1 #ahce1 surpass$ all ! o!rs by its sacrilegi\s "*4 ,t night1 ! *apel d$icat$ to ! bless$ ,virg9 ,m>y 0 ent]$1 a silv] /atue ( ! ,virg91 ! gift ( ! ,k+ ( ,france1 a massive lamp1 a silv] c&le/ick1 & ! silv] vases :i* conta9$ ! bread :i* ! ,roman ,ca?olics believe to be ! body1 blood & div9ity ( ,jesus ,*ri/1 7 /ol51 & ! holy sacram5t impi\sly ?r[n & scatt]$ on ! floor4 ,no?+ c express ! horror & indignation ( ! :ole ,ca?olic population at ?is la/ outrage4 ,l>ge sums ( money 7 (f]$ 9 ord] t ! brig&s might be detect$4 ,at la/1 five ( !m--,*amb]s1 ,ma?ieu1 ,gagnon1 ,wat]wor?1 & ,lemo9e--7 caught 9 #ahcf1 tri$1 f\nd guilty & condemn$ to dea? 9 ! mon? ( ,m>*1 #ahcg4 ,dur+ ! trial1 & :5 public att5tion 0 mo/ int5sely fix$ on its diff]5t aspects1 9 a damp1 *illy d>k night1 ,i 0 call$ to visit a sick man4 ,i 0 soon ready1 & ask$ ! "n ( ! sick man f ! mess5g]4 ,he answ]$ t x 0 ,francis ,oregon4 ,z a matt] ( c\rse1 ,i said t ! sick man 0 a p]fect /rang] to me1 & t ,i _h nev] he>d t !re 0 ev5 su* a man 9 ! _w4 ,b :5 ,i 0 ne> ! c>riage :i* 0 to take me1 ,i 0 n a little surpris$ to see t ! fir/ mess5g] left abruptly & disappe>$4 ,look+ ) att5tion1 !n1 at ! faces ( ! two m5 :o _h come = me 9 ! c>riage1 x seem$ t !y bo? wore masks4 8,:at does ?is mean80 ,i said2 8ea* ( y we> a mask4 ,d y mean to murd] me80 8,de> ,fa!r ,*9iquy10 answ]$ "o ( !m1 9 a l[1 trembl+ voice1 & 9 a supplicat+ tone1 8fe> n4 ,we swe> be=e ,god t no evil w be done to y4 ,on ! contr>y1 ,god & man w1 to ! end ( ! _w1 praise & bless y1 if y come to our help1 & save our s\ls1 z well z our mortal bodies4 ,we h 9 our h&s a great "p ( ! silv] articles /ol5 ^! la/ ?ree ye>s4 ,! police are on our track1 & we are 9 great dang] ( be+ caught4 ,= ,god's sake1 come ) u4 ,we w put all ^? /ol5 ?+s 9 y\r h&s1 t y may give !m back to ^? :o h lo/ !m4 ,we w !n imm$iately leave ! c\ntry1 & lead a bett] life4 ,we are ,prote/ants1 & ! ,bible tells u t we _c be sav$ if we keep 9 our h&s :at is n ours4 ,y d n "k u1 b we "k y well4 ,y are ! only man 9 ,quebec to :om we c s tru/ our lives & ?is t]rible secret4 ,we h worn ^! masks t y may n "k u1 & t y may n be compromis$ if y are ev] call$ be=e a c\rt ( ju/ice40 ,my fir/ ?\ght 0 to leave !m & run back to ! door ( ! p>sonage2 b su* an act ( c[>dice seem$ to me1 aft] a mom5t's reflection1 unwor?y ( a man4 ,i said to myself1 ^! two m5 _c come to /eal f me2 x is well kn[n 9 ,quebec t ,i keep myself z poor z a *ur* m\se1 by giv+ all ,i h to ! poor4 ,i h nev] (f5d$ any man 9 my life1 t ,i "k4 ,!y _c come to puni% or murd] me4 ,!y are ,prote/ants1 & !y tru/ me4 ,well1 well1 !y w n regret to h put _! tru/ 9 a ,ca?olic prie/4 ,i !n answ]$ !m3 8,:at y ask f me is ( a v delicate1 & ev5 dang]\s nature4 ,be=e ,i d x1 ,i want to take ! advice ( "o :om ,i consid] ! wise/ man ( ,quebec--! old ,rev4 ,mr4 ,dem>s1 ex-presid5t ( ! sem9>y ( ,quebec4 ,please drive me z quickly z possible to ! sem9>y4 ,if t v5]able man advises me to g ) y1 ,i w g2 b ,i _c promise to grant y y\r reque/ if he tells me n to g40 8,all "r10 !y bo? said2 & 9 a v %ort "t1 ,i 0 knock+ at ! door ( ! sem9>y4 ,a few mom5ts aft]1 ,i 0 alone 9 ! room ( ,mr4 ,dem>s4 ,x 0 j half-pa/ twelve at night4 8,our little ,fa!r ,*9iquy "h on ?is d>k night1 at half-pa/ twelve6 ,:at does ?is mean8 ,:at d y want f me80 said ! v5]able old prie/4 8,i come to ask y\r advice10 ,i answ]$1 8on a v /range ?+4 ,two ,prote/ant ?ieves h 9 _! h&s a great quantity ( ! silv]w>e /ol51 ^! la/ ?ree ye>s4 ,!y want to deposit !m 9 my h&s1 t ,i may give !m back to ^? f :om !y h be5 /ol51 be=e !y leave ! c\ntry & lead a bett] life4 ,i _c "k !m1 = !y bo? we> masks4 ,i _c ev5 "k :]e !y take me1 = ! c>riage is s completely wrapp$ up by curta9s t x is impossible to see outside4 ,n[1 my de> ,mr4 ,dem>s1 ,i come to ask y\r advice4 ,%all ,i g ) !m or n8 ,b rememb] t ,i tru/ y ) ^! ?+s "u ! seal ( confession1 t nei!r y nor ,i may be compromis$40 ,be=e answ]+ me1 ! v5]able prie/ said3 8,i am v old1 b ,i h nev] he>d ( su* a /range ?+ 9 my life4 ,are y n afraid to g alone ) ^! two ?ieves 9 t cov]$ c>riage80 8,no1 sir10 ,i answ]$2 8,i d n see any reason to fe> any?+ f ^! two m540 8,well6 well10 rejo9$ ,mr4 ,dem>s1 8if y are n afraid "u su* circum/ances1 y\r "m has giv5 y a bra9 ( diamond & n]ve ( /eel40 8,n[1 my de> sir10 ,i answ]$1 8"t flies1 & ,i may h a long way to travel ) ^! two m54 ,please1 9 ! %orte/ possible way1 tell me y\r m9d8 ,d y advise me to g ) !m80 ,he repli$1 8,y consult me on a v difficult matt]2 !re are s _m consid]ations to make1 t x is impossible to weigh !m all4 ,! only ?+ we h to d is to pray ,god & ,8 ,holy ,"m = wisdom--,let u pray40 ,we knelt & said ! 8,v5i ,sancte ,spiritus20 8,come ,holy ,_s10 etc41 :i* pray] ends by an invocation to ,m>y z ,"m ( ,god4 ,aft] ! pray] ,mr4 ,dem>s aga9 ask$ me3 8,are y n afraid80 8,no1 sir1 ,i d n see any reason to be afraid4 ,b1 please1 = ,god's sake hurry on1 tell me if y advise me to g & accept ?is message ( m]cy & peace40 8,yes6 g6 g6 if y are n afraid10 answ]$ ! old prie/1 ) a voice full ( emotion1 & te>s 9 8 eyes4 ,i fell on my knees & said3 8,be=e ,i />t1 please1 give me y\r bless+ & pray = me1 :5 ,i %all be on my way to t /range1 b1 ,i hope1 good "w40 ,i left ! sem9>y & took my seat at ! "r h& ( "o ( my unkn[n companions1 :ile ! o!r 0 on ! front seat1 driv+ ! horse4 ,n a ^w 0 said by any ( u on ! way4 ,b ,i p]ceiv$ t ! /rang]1 :o 0 at my left1 0 pray+ to ,god2 ?\gh 9 su* a l[ voice t ,i und]/ood only ^! words twice repeat$3 8,o ,"l6 h m]cy ^u me--su* a s9n]60 ,^! words t\*$ me to ! he>t1 & br\ght to my m9d ! de> ,savi\r's words3 8,! publicans & h>lots %all g into ! k+dom ( ,god be=e y10 & ,i also pray$ = t poor rep5t+ s9n] & = myself1 by repeat+ ! sublime #ej? ,psalm3 8,h m]cy ^u me1 ,o ,"l60 ,x took ab\t half an h\r to rea* ! h\se4 ,b1 !re1 aga91 x 0 impossible = me to und]/& :]e ,i 04 ,= ! c>riage 0 br\ght s ne> ! door t !re 0 no possibility ( see+ any?+ beyond ! c>riage & ! horse ?r\gh ! t]rible d>kness ( t night4 ,! only p]son ,i saw1 :5 9 ! h\se1 0 a tall woman cov]$ ) a long black veil1 :om ,i took to be a disguis$ man1 on acc\nt ( h] size & h] /r5g?2 = %e 0 c>ry+ v heavy bags ) z mu* ease z if !y _h be5 a h&ful ( /raw4 ,!re 0 only a small c&le beh9d a scre51 :i* gave s little light t ev]y?+ look$ l phantoms ar\nd u4 ,pictures & mirrors 7 all turn$ to ! wall1 & pres5t$ ! wrong side to view4 ,! s(a & ! *airs 7 also upset 9 su* a way t x 0 impossible to id5tify any?+ ( :at ,i _h se54 ,9 fact1 ,i c\ld see no?+ 9 t h\se4 ,n a ^w 0 said1 except by "o ( my companions1 :o :isp]$ 9 a v l[ voice1 8,please1 look at ! tickets :i* are on e bundle2 !y w indicate to :om ^! ?+s belong40 ,!re 7 eight bundles4 ,! heavie/ ( :i* 0 compos$ ( ! melt$ silv] ( ! /atue ( ! virg91 ! c&le/icks1 ! lamp ( ! *apel1 ! ciborium1 a c\ple ( *alices1 & "s doz5s ( spoons & =ks4 ,! o!r bundles 7 made up ( silv] plates1 fruit baskets1 tea1 c(fee1 cream & sug> pots1 silv] spoons & =ks1 etc4 ,z soon z ^! bundles 7 put into ! c>riage we left = ! p>sonage1 :]e we arriv$ a little be=e ! dawn ( day4 ,n a ^w 0 ex*ang$ betwe5 u on ! way1 & my impression 01 t my p5it5t companions 7 s5d+ _! sil5t pray]s1 l myself1 to ! feet ( t m]ciful ,god :o has said to all s9n]s1 8,come unto me1 all ye :o are heavy lad51 & ,i w give y re/40 ,!y c>ri$ ! bundles into my trunk1 :i* ,i lock$ ) peculi> att5tion4 ,:5 all 0 ov]1 ,i accompani$ !m to ! door to take leave ( !m4 ,!n1 ea* seiz+ "o ( my h&s1 by a spontane\s movem5t ( gratitude & joy1 !y press$ !m on _! lips1 %$d+ te>s1 & say+ 9 a l[ voice3 8,god bless y a ?\s& times = ! good "w y h j p]=m$4 ,aft] ,*ri/1 y are our savi\r40 ,z ^! two m5 7 speak+1 x pleas$ ,god to s5d =? into my s\l "o ( ^? rays ( happ9ess :i* he gives u only at great int]vals4 ,i believe our fragile exi/5ce w\ld soon be brok5 up 7 we by su* joys incessantly inundat$4 ,^? two m5 _h ceas$ to be robb]s 9 my eyes4 ,!y 7 de> bre?r51 preci\s fri5ds1 su* z are seldom to be se54 ,! n>r[ & %ameful prejudices ( my religion 7 sil5t be=e ! f]v5t pray]s t ,i _h he>d f _! lips2 !y disappe>$ 9 ^? te>s ( rep5tance1 gratitude & love1 :i* fell f _! eyes on my h&s4 ,night surr\nd$ u ) its deepe/ %ades2 b our s\ls 7 illum9at$ ) a light pur] ?an ! rays ( ! sun4 ,! air t we brea!d 0 cold & damp2 b "o ( ^! sp>ks br\ght d[n f heav5 by ,jesus to w>m ! e>?1 _h fall5 into our he>ts1 & we 7 all p5etrat$ by its gl[4 ,i press$ _! h&s 9 m9e1 say+ to !m3 8,i ?ank & bless y = *oos+ me z ! confid5t ( y\r mis=tunes & rep5tance4 ,to y ,i owe ?ree ( ! mo/ preci\s h\rs ( my life4 ,adieu6 ,we %all see "o ano!r no m on ?is e>?2 b we %all meet 9 heav54 ,adieu60 ,x is unnecess>y to add t x 0 impossible to sleep ! rema9d] ( t memorable night4 ,besides1 ,i _h 9 my possession m /ol5 articles ?an w\ld h caus$ fifty m5 to be hang$4 ,i said to myself3 8,:at w\ld become ( me if ! police 7 to break 9 on me1 & f9d all t ,i h 9 my h&s4 ,:at c\ld ,i answ] if ,i 7 ask$1 h[ all ^! _h rea*$ me80 ,did ,i n g beyond ! b\nds ( prud5ce 9 :at ,i h j done8 ,h ,i n1 inde$1 slipp$ a rope ar\nd my neck8 ,?\gh my consci5ce did n reproa* me ) any ?+1 especially :5 ,i _h act$ on ! advice ( a man z wise z ,mr4 ,dem>s1 yet 0 ,i n )\t "s anxiety1 & ,i long$ to get rid ( all ! ?+s ,i _h1 by giv+ !m to _! legitimate own]s4 ,at t5 o'clock 9 ! morn+1 ,i 0 at ,mr4 ,amiot's1 ! weal?ie/ goldsmi? 9 ,quebec1 ) my heavy sat*el ( melt$ silv]4 ,aft] obta9+ f him a promise ( secrecy1 ,i h&$ x ov] to him1 giv+ him at ! same "t its hi/ory4 ,i ask$ him to weigh x1 keep its cont5ts1 & let me h its value1 :i* ,i 0 to di/ribute accord+ to its label4 ,he told me t !re 0 9 x a ?\s& doll>s' wor? ( melt$ silv]1 :i* am\nt he imm$iately gave me4 ,i w5t d[n directly to give ab\t half ( x to ,rev4 ,mr4 ,cazeault1 *apla9 ( ! congregation1 :i* _h be5 robb$1 & :o 0 !n ! secret>y ( ! ,ar*bi%op ( ,quebec2 & ,i di/ribut$ ! rema9d] to ! p>ties indicat$ on ! labels atta*$ to ?is enorm\s +ot4 ,! good ,lady ,montgom]y c\ld sc>cely believe h] eyes :51 aft] obta9+ also f h] ! promise ( ! mo/ inviolable secrecy on :at ,i 0 go+ to %[ h]1 ,i display$ on h] table ! magnific5t di%es ( massive silv]1 fruit baskets1 tea & c(fee pots1 sug> b[ls1 cream jugs1 & a great quantity ( spoons & =ks ( ! f9e/ silv]1 :i* _h be5 tak5 f h] 9 #ahce4 ,x seem$ to h] a dream :i* br\ght be=e h] eyes ^! preci\s family relics4 ,%e !n relat$ 9 a mo/ t\*+ mann] :at a t]rible mom5t %e _h pass$1 :5 ! ?ieves1 hav+ seiz$ h]1 ) h] maid & a "y man1 roll$ !m 9 c>pets to /ifle _! cries1 :il/ !y 7 break+ locks1 op5+ *e/s & cupbo>ds to c>ry (f _! ri* cont5ts4 ,%e told me h[ ne>ly %e _h be5 /ifl$ ) h] fai?ful s]vants "u ! enorm\s weight ( c>pets heap$ ^u !m by ! robb]s4 ,?is excell5t lady 0 a ,prote/ant1 & x 0 ! fir/ "t 9 my life t ,i met a ,prote/ant ^: piety seem$ s enlight5$ & s9c]e4 ,i c\ld n help admir+ h]4 ,:5 %e _h mo/ s9c]ely ?ank$ & bless$ me = ! s]vice ,i _h done h]1 %e ask$ if ,i w\ld h any objection to pray ) h]1 & to aid h] 9 ?ank+ ,god = ! favor he _h j %[n h]4 ,i told h]1 ,i %\ld be happy 9 unit+ ) h] to bless ! ,"l = 8 m]cies4 ,^u ?is1 %e gave me a ,bible1 magnific5tly b\nd1 & we read ea* 9 turn a v]se sl[ly1 & on our knees1 ! sublime ,psalm #ajc3 8,bless ! ,"l1 ,o my s\l10 etc4 ,z ,i 0 ab\t to take leave ( h]1 %e (f]$ me a purse conta9+ "o hundr$ doll>s 9 gold1 :i* ,i refus$1 tell+ h] t ,i w\ld r lose my two h&s ?an receive a c5t = :at ,i _h done4 8,y are10 %e said1 8surr\nd$ ) poor p4 ,give !m ?is t ,i (f] to ! ,"l z a feeble te/imony ( my gratitude1 & be assur$ t z long z ,i live ,i w pray ,god to p\r 8 mo/ ab\nd+ favors ^u y40 ,9 leav+ t h\se ,i c\ld n hide f myself t my s\l _h be5 embalm$ ) ! true p]fume ( piety t ,i _h nev] se5 9 my own *ur*4 ,be=e ! day clos$1 ,i _h giv5 back to _! rightful own]s ! effects left 9 my h&s1 ^: value am\nt$ to m ?an #g1jjj1 & _h my receipts 9 good =m4 ,i am glad to say "h1 t ! p]sons1 mo/ ( :om 7 ,prote/ants1 to :om ,i made ^! re/itutions1 7 p]fectly honorable1 & t n a s+le "o ( !m ev] said any?+ to compromise me 9 ?is matt]1 nor 0 ,i ev] tr\bl$ on ?is subject4 ,i ?\ght x my duty to give my v5]able fri5d1 ! ,gr& ,vic> ,dem>s1 a detail$ acc\nt ( :at _h j happ5$4 ,he he>d me ) ! deepe/ int]e/1 & c\ld n reta9 8 te>s :5 ,i relat$ ! t\*+ sc5e ( my sep>ation f my two new fri5ds1 t night1 "o ( ! d>ke/--:i*1 nev]!less1 has rema9$ "o ( ! brighte/ ( my life4 ,my /ory end$1 he said1 8,i am1 inde$1 v old1 b ,i mu/ confess t nev] did ,i he> any?+ s /range & s beautiful z ?is /ory4 ,i repeat1 h[ev]1 t y\r "m mu/ h giv5 y a bra9 h>d] ?an diamond & n]ves m solid ?an brass1 n to h be5 afraid dur+ ?is v s+ul> adv5ture 9 ! night40 ,aft] ! fatigues & incid5ts ( ! la/ tw5ty-f\r h\rs1 ,i 0 9 great ne$ ( re/1 b x 0 impossible = me to sleep a s+le in/ant dur+ ! night :i* foll[$4 ,= ! fir/ "t1 ,i /ood face to face ) t ,prote/antism :i* my ,*ur* _h taught me to hate & fight ) all ! en]gy t heav5 _h be/[$ on me1 & :5 t fai? _h be51 by ! h& ( ,almighty ,god1 plac$ 9 ! scale aga9/ my own religion1 x appe>$ z a heap ( pure gold opposite a pile ( rott5 rags4 ,9 spite ( myself1 ,i c\ld he> incessantly ! cries ( grief ( t p5it5t ?ief3 8,"l1 h m]cy on me1 s great a s9n]60 ,!n1 ! sublime piety ( ,lady ,montgom]y1 ! bless+s %e _h ask$ ,god to p\r on me1 8 unpr(itable s]vant1 seem$1 z s _m coals ( fire heap$ ^u my head by ,god1 to puni% me = hav+ said s mu* evil ( ,prote/ants1 & s (t5 decri$ _! religion4 ,a secret voice arose )9 me3 8,see/ ?\ n h[ ^! ,prote/ants1 :om ?\ wi%e/ to cru% ) ?y disda91 "k h[ to pray1 rep5t1 & make am5ds = _! faults1 mu* m nobly ?an ! un=tunate wret*es :om ?\ holde/ z s _m slaves at ?y feet by means ( ! confessional8 8,und]/&e/ ?\ n t ! ,_s ( ,god1 ! grace & love ( ,jesus ,*ri/1 produces effectually 9 ! he>ts & m9ds ( ^! ,prote/ants a "w mu* m durable ?an ?y auricul> confession8 ,comp>e ! mis]able wiles ( ,mr4 ,p>5t1 :o makes false re/itutions1 to ca/ du/ into ! eyes ( ! unsuspect+ multitude1 ) ! /raight=w>dness1 noble s9c]ity1 & admirable wisdom ( ^! ,prote/ants1 9 mak+ am5ds = _! wrongs be=e ,god & m51 & judge = ?yself :i* ( ^? two religions raise1 9 ord] to save1 & :i* degrades1 9 ord] to de/roy ! guilty4 8,has ev] auricul> confession work$ z effici5tly on s9n]s z ! ,bible on ^! ?ieves to *ange _! he>ts8 8,judge1 ?is day1 by _! fruits1 :i* ( ! two religions is l$ by ! _s ( d>kness1 or ! ,holy ,gho/80 ,n wi%+ to condemn my religion1 nor all[ my he>t to be attack$ by ,prote/antism dur+ ! long h\rs ( t re/less night1 ,i rema9$ anxi\s1 humiliat$1 & uneasy4 ,x is ?us1 ,o my ,god1 t ?\ made/ use ( ev]y?+1 ev5 ^! ?ieves1 to %ake t wond]ful fabric ( errors1 sup]/itions1 & falsehoods t ,rome _h rais$ 9 my s\l4 ,may ?y "n be =ev] bless$ = ?y m]cies t[>ds me1 ?y unpr(itable s]vant6 ,,*apt] ,,xxxi4 ,,*amb]s ,,& ,,8 ,,accomplices ,,condemn$ ,,to ,,dea?--,,ask$ ,,me ,,to ,,prep>e ,,!m ,,to ,,meet ,,_! ,,t]rible ,,fate--,a ,,week ,,9 ,,_! ,,dungeon--,,_! ,,s5t5ce ,,( ,,dea? ,,*ang$ ,,into ,,deportation ,,to ,,botany ,,bay--,,_! ,,dep>ture ,,= ,,exile--,i ,,meet ,,"o ,,( ,,!m1 ,a ,,s9c]e ,,conv]t1 ,,v ,,ri*1 ,,9 ,a ,,high ,,& ,,honorable ,,position ,,9 ,,au/ralia ,,9 #ahgh4 ,a few days aft] ! /range & provid5tial night sp5t ) ! rep5tant ?ieves1 ,i receiv$ ! foll[+ lett] sign$ by ,*amb]s & 8 un=tunate crim9al fri5ds3 8,,de> ,,fa!r ,,*9iquy3--,we are condemn$ to dea?4 ,please come & help u to meet our s5t5ce z ,*ri/ians40 ,i w n attempt to say :at ,i felt :5 ,i ent]$ ! damp & d>k cells :]e ! culprits 7 en*a9$4 ,no human words c express ^? ?+s4 ,_! te>s & _! sobs 7 go+ ?r\gh my he>t z a two-edg$ sword4 ,only "o ( !m _h1 at fir/1 8 eyes dri$1 & kept sil5t2 ,*amb]s1 ! mo/ guilty ( all4 ,aft] ! o!rs _h reque/$ me to he> ! confession ( _! s9s1 & prep>e !m = dea?1 ,*amb]s said3 8,y "k t ,i am a ,prote/ant4 ,b ,i am m>ri$ to a ,roman ,ca?olic1 :o is y\r p5it5t4 ,y h p]suad$ my two s de> si/]s to give up _! ,prote/antism & become ,ca?olics4 ,i h _m times desir$ to foll[ !m4 ,my crim9al life alone has prev5t$ me f do+ s4 ,b n[ ,i am det]m9$ to d :at ,i consid] to be ! w ( ,god 9 ?is important matt]4 ,please1 tell me :at ,i mu/ d to become a ,ca?olic40 ,i 0 a s9c]e ,roman ,ca?olic prie/1 believ+ t out ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome !re 0 no salvation4 ,! conv]sion ( t great s9n] seem$ to me a miracle ( ! grace ( ,god3 x 0 = me a happy di/raction 9 ! desolation ,i felt 9 t dungeon4 ,i sp5t ! next eight days1 9 he>+ _! confessions1 read+ ! lives ( "s sa9ts1 ) sev]al *apt]s ( ! ,bible z ! ,sev5 ,p5it5tial ,psalms1 ! suff]+s & dea? ( ,*ri/1 ! hi/ory ( ! ,prodigal ,son1 etc4 ,& ,i in/ruct$ ,*amb]s1 z well z ! %ortness ( ! "t all[$ me1 9 ! fai? ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome4 ,i usually ent]$ ! cells at ab\t #i ,a4 ,m4 & left !m only at #i ,p4 ,m4 ,aft] ,i _h sp5t mu* "t 9 exhort+ !m1 read+ & pray+ sev]al times1 ,i ask$ !m to tell me "s ( ! details ( ! murd]s & !fts !y _h committ$1 :i* might be to me z a lesson ( human depravity1 :i* w\ld help me :5 prea*+ on ! natural corruption & malice ( ! human he>t1 :5 once ! fe> & ! love1 or ev5 ! fai? 9 ,god1 7 completely set aside4 ,! facts ,i !n he>d v soon conv9c$ me ( ! ne$ we h ( a religion1 & :at w\ld become ( ! _w if ! a!i/s c\ld succe$ 9 sweep+ away ! notions ( a future puni%m5t aft] dea?1 or ! fe> & ! love ( ,god f among m54 ,:5 absolutely left to 8 own depravity1 )\t any religion to /op him on ! rapid declivity ( 8 uncontrollable passions1 man is m cruel ?an ! wild bea/s4 ,! exi/5ce ( society w\ld simply be impossible )\t a religion & a ,god to protect x4 ,?\gh ,i am 9 favor ( lib]ty ( consci5ce1 9 its highe/ s5se1 ,i ?9k t ! a!i/ ought to be puni%$ l ! murd]] & ! ?ief--= 8 doctr9es t5d to make a murd]] & a ?ief ( e man4 ,no law1 no society is possible if !re is no ,god to sanction & protect !m4 ,b ! m we 7 approa*+ ! fatal day1 :5 ,i _h to g on ! scaffold ) ^? un=tunate m51 & to see !m laun*$ into et]nity1 ! m ,i felt horrifi$4 ,! te>s ! sobs & ! cries ( ^? un=tunate m5 _h s melt$ my he>t1 my s\l & my /rong n]ves1 !y _h s subdu$ my unconqu]able w1 & t /]n det]m9ation to d my duty at any co/1 :i* _h be5 my "* till !n1 t ,i 0 %ak+ f head to feet1 :5 ?9k+ ( t awful h\r4 ,besides t1 my con/ant int]c\rse ) ^? crim9als1 ^! la/ few days1 _! unb\nd$ confid5ce 9 me1 _! gratitude = my devot$ness to !m1 _! desolation & _! cries :5 speak+ ( _! fa!rs or mo!rs1 wives or *ildr51 _h fill$ my he>t ) a measure ( sympa?y :i* ,i w\ld va9ly try to express4 ,!y 7 no m ?ieves & murd]]s1 to me1 ^: bloody de$s _h at fir/ *ill$ ! blood 9 my ve9s2 !y 7 ! fri5ds ( my bosom--! belov$ *ildr5 :om cruel bea/s _h w\nd$4 ,!y 7 de>] to me ?an my own life--n only ,i felt happy to mix my te>s ) !irs1 & unite my ard5t pray]s to ,god = m]cy ) !m1 b ,i w\ld h felt happy to %$ my blood 9 ord] to save _! lives4 ,z sev]al ( !m belong$ to ! mo/ reputable families ( ,quebec & vic9ity1 ,i ?\ght ,i c\ld easily int]e/ ! cl]gy & ! mo/ respectable citiz5s to sign a petition to ! gov]nor1 ,"l ,gos=d1 ask+ him to *ange _! s5t5ce ( dea? into "o ( p]petual exile to ! di/ant p5al colony ( ,botany ,bay1 9 ,au/ralia4 ,! gov]nor 0 my fri5d4 ,colonel ,vassal1 :o 0 my uncle1 & ! adjutant-g5]al ( ! militia ( ! :ole c\ntry1 _h introduc$ me to 8 ,excell5cy1 :o _m times _h ov]load$ me ) ! m>ks ( 8 int]e/ & k9dness1 & my hope 0 t he w\ld n refuse me ! favor ,i 0 to ask him1 :5 ! petition w\ld be sign$ by ! ,bi%op1 ! ,ca?olic prie/s1 ! m9i/]s ( ! diff]5t ,prote/ant d5om9ations ( ! city1 & hundr$s ( ! pr9cipal citiz5s ( ,quebec4 ,i pres5t$ ! petition myself1 accompani$ by ! secret>y ( ! ,ar*bi%op4 ,b to my great di/ress1 ! gov]nor answ]$ me t ^? m5 _h committ$ s _m murd]s1 & kept ! c\ntry 9 t]ror = s _m ye>s1 t x 0 absolutely necess>y !y %\ld be puni%$ accord+ to ! s5t5ce ( ! c\rt4 ,:o c tell ! desolation ( ^? un=tunate m51 :51 ) a voice *ok$ by my sobs & my te>s1 ,i told !m t ! gov]nor _h refus$ to grant ! favor ,i _h ask$ him = !m4 ,!y fell on ! gr\nd & fill$ _! cells ) cries :i* w\ld h brok5 ! h>de/ he>t4 ,f ^? v cells we 7 he>+ ! noise ( ! m5 :o 7 prep>+ ! scaffold :]e !y 7 to be hang$ ! next day4 ,i tri$ to pray & read1 b 0 unable to d s4 ,my desolation 0 too great to utt] a s+le ^w4 ,i felt z if ,i 7 to be hang$ ) !m--& to say ! :ole tru?1 ,i ?9k ,i w\ld h be5 glad to he> t ,i 0 to be hang$ ! next day to save _! lives4 ,= !re 0 a fe> 9 me1 :i* 0 haunt+ me z a phantom f hell1 ! la/ ?ree days4 ,x seem$ t1 9 spite ( all my ef=ts1 pray]s1 confessions1 absolutions & sacram5ts1 ^! m5 7 n conv]t$1 & t !y 7 to be laun*$ into et]nity ) all _! s9s4 ,:5 ,i 0 comp>+ ! calm & true rep5tance ( ! two ?ieves1 ) :om ,i sp5t ! night a few weeks be=e 9 ! c>riage1 ) ! noisy expressions ( sorr[ ( ^! newly conv]t$ s9n]s1 ,i c\ld n help f9d+ an immeasurable di/ance betwe5 ! fir/ & ! second ( ^? p5it5ts4 ,no d\bt _h rema9$ 9 my m9d ab\t ! fir/1 b ,i _h s]i\s appreh5sions ab\t ! la/4 ,sev]al circum/ances1 :i* x w\ld be too long & useless to m5tion "h1 7 depress+ me by ! fe> t all my *aplets1 indulg5ces1 m$als1 scapul>s1 holy wat]s1 signs ( ! cross1 pray]s to ! ,virg91 auricul> confessions1 absolutions1 us$ 9 ! conv]sion ( ^! s9n]s1 _h n ! div9e & p]fect p[] ( a simple look to ! dy+ ,savi\r on ! cross4 ,i 0 say+ to myself1 ) anxiety3 8,w\ld x be possible t ^? ,prote/ants1 :o 7 ) me 9 ! c>riage1 _h ! true ways ( rep5tance1 p>don1 peace & life et]nal 9 t simple look to ! great victim1 & t we ,roman ,ca?olics1 ) our signs ( ! cross & holy wat]s1 our crucifixes & pray]s to ! sa9ts1 our scapul>s & m$als1 our s humiliat+ auricul> confession1 7 only di/ract+ ! m9d1 ! s\l & ! he>t ( ! s9n] f ! true & only s\rce ( salvation1 ,*ri/60 ,9 ! mid/ ( ^? di/ress+ ?\ghts1 ,i almo/ regrett$ hav+ help$ ,*amb]s 9 giv+ up 8 ,prote/antism = my ,romanism4 ,at ab\t #d ,p4 ,m4 ,i made a supreme ef=t to %ake (f my desolation1 & n]ve myself = ! solemn duties ,god _h intru/$ to me4 ,i put a few que/ions to ^? desolat$ m51 to see if !y 7 really rep5tant & conv]t$4 ,_! answ]s add$ to my fe>s t ,i _h spok5 too mu* ( ! virg9s & ! sa9ts1 ! indulg5ces1 m$als & scapul>s1 integrity ( confession1 & n en\gh ( ,*ri/ dy+ on ! cross = !m4 ,x is true1 ,i _h spok5 ( ,*ri/ & 8 dea? to !m1 b ?is _h be5 s mu* mix$ up ) exhortation to tru/ 9 ,m>y1 put _! confid5ce 9 _! m$als1 scapul>s1 confessions1 etc41 t x became almo/ evid5t to me t1 9 our religion1 ,*ri/ 0 l a preci\s pe>l lo/ 9 a m\nta9 ( s& & du/4 ,?is fe> soon caus$ my di/ress to be unbe>able4 ,i !n w5t to ! private1 neat little room1 :i* ! gaol] _h k9dly allott$ to me1 & ,i fell on my knees to pray ,god = myself & = my poor convicts4 ,?\gh ?is pray] br\ght "s calm to my m9d1 my di/ress 0 /ill v great4 ,x 0 !n t ! ?\ght came aga9 to my m9d to g to ! gov]nor & make a new & supreme ef=t to h ! s5t5ce ( dea? *ang$ into t ( p]petual exile to ,botany ,bay3 & )\t a mom5t ( delay1 ,i w5t to 8 palace4 ,x 0 ab\t #g ,p4 ,m4 :5 he reluctantly admitt$ me to 8 pres5ce1 tell+ me1 :5 %ak+ h&s1 8,i hope1 ,mr4 ,*9iquy1 y are n com+ to r5ew y\r reque/ ( ! morn+1 = ,i _c grant x40 ,)\t a ^w ( answ]1 ,i fell on my knees1 & = m ?an t5 m9utes ,i spoke z ,i _h nev] spok5 be=e4 ,i spoke z we speak :5 we are ! ambassadors ( ,god 9 a message ( m]cy4 ,i spoke ) my lips4 ,i spoke ) my te>s4 ,i spoke ) my sobs & cries4 ,i spoke ) my supplicat+ h&s lift$ to heav54 ,= "s "t1 ! gov]nor 0 mute1 & z if /unn$4 ,he 0 n only a noble-m9d$ man1 b he _h a mo/ t5d]1 affectionate & k9d he>t4 ,8 te>s soon began to fl[ ) m9e1 & 8 sobs mix$ ) my sobs2 ) a voice1 half suffocat$ by 8 emotion1 he ext5d$ 8 fri5dly h&1 & said3 8,fa!r ,*9iquy1 y ask me a favor :i* ,i ought n to give1 b ,i _c resi/ y\r argum5ts1 :5 y\r te>s1 y\r sobs1 & y\r cries are l arr[s :i* pi]ce & break my he>t4 ,i w give y ! favor y ask40 ,x 0 ne>ly #aj ,p4 ,m4 :5 ,i knock$ at ! door ( ! gaol]1 ask+ 8 p]mission to see my de> fri5ds 9 _! cells1 to tell !m t ,i _h obta9$ _! p>don1 t !y w\ld n die4 ,t g5tleman c\ld h>dly believe me4 ,x 0 only aft] read+ twice ! docum5t ,i _h 9 my h&s t he saw t ,i told him ! tru?4 ,look+ at ! p>*m5t aga91 he said3 8,h y notic$ t x is cov]$ & almo/ spoil$ by ! spots evid5tly made ) ! te>s ( ! gov]nor4 ,y mu/ be a k9d ( a sorc]] to h melt$ ! he>t ( su* a man1 & h wr5*$ f 8 h&s ! p>don ( su* convicts2 = ,i "k he 0 absolutely unwill+ to grant ! p>don40 8,i am n a sorc]]10 ,i answ]$4 8,b y rememb] t our ,savi\r ,jesus ,*ri/ _h said1 some:]e1 t he _h br\ght a fire f heav5--well1 x is evid5t t he has ?r[n "s sp>ks ( t fire into my poor he>t1 = x 0 s fi]cely burn+ :5 ,i 0 at ! feet ( ! gov]nor1 t ,i ?9k ,i w\ld h di$ at 8 feet1 _h he n grant$ me t favor4 ,no d\bt t "s sp>ks ( t fire h also fall5 on 8 s\l & 9 8 he>t :5 ,i 0 speak+1 = 8 cries1 8 te>s & 8 sobs 7 fill+ 8 room1 & %[+ t he 0 suff]+ z well z myself4 ,x 0 t he might n be consum$ by t fire t he grant$ my reque/4 ,i am n[ ! mo/ happy man "u heav54 ,please1 make ha/e4 ,come ) me & op5 ! cells ( ^? un=tunate m5 t ,i may tell :at our m]ciful ,god has done = !m40 ,:5 ent]+ _! desolat$ cells ,i 0 unable to conta9 myself4 ,i cri$ out3 8,rejoice1 & bless ! ,"l1 my de> fri5ds6 ,y w n die to-morr[6 ,i br+ y y\r p>don ) me60 ,two ( !m fa9t$1 & came v ne> dy+ f excess ( surprise & joy4 ,! o!rs1 unable to conta9 _! emotions1 7 cry+ & weep+ = joy4 ,!y ?rew _! arms ar\nd me to press me to _! bosom1 kiss my h&s & cov] !m ) _! te>s ( joy4 ,i knelt ) !m & ?ank$ ,god1 aft] :i* ,i told !m h[ !y mu/ promise to ,god to s]ve him fai?fully1 aft] su* a manife/ation ( 8 m]cies4 ,i read to !m ! #ajj?1 #aja/1 #ajb;d1 & #ajc;d ,psalms1 & ,i left !m aft] twelve o'clock at night to g & take "s re/4 ,i 0 9 ne$ ( x aft] a :ole day ( su* "w & emotions4 ,! next day1 ,i want$ to see my de> prison]s e>ly1 & ,i 0 ) !m at #g ,a4 ,m4 ,z ! :ole c\ntry _h be5 glad to he> t !y 7 to be hang$ t v day1 ! cr[ds 7 beg9n+ to ga!r at t e>ly h\r to witness ! dea? ( ^? great culprits4 ,! feel+s ( indignation 7 almo/ unmanageable1 :5 !y he>d t !y 7 n to be hang$1 b only to be exil$ = _! life to ,botany ,bay4 ,= a "t1 x 0 fe>$ t ! mob w\ld break ! doors ( ! gaol & lyn* ! culprits4 ,?\gh v few prie/s 7 m respect$ & lov$ by ! p1 !y w\ld h probably torn me into pieces :5 !y he>d t x 0 ,i :o _h depriv$ ! gibbet ( its victims1 t day4 ,! *ief ( police _h to take extraord9>y measures to prev5t ! wra? ( ! mob f do+ mis*ief4 ,he advis$ me n to %[ myself = a few days1 9 ! /reets4 ,m ?an a mon? pass$ be=e all ! ?ieves & murd]]s 9 ,canada1 to ! numb] ( ab\t sev5ty1 :o _h be5 s5t5c$ to be exil$ to ,botany ,bay1 c\ld be ga!r$ into ! %ip :i* 0 to take !m into t di/ant l&4 ,i ?\ght x 0 my duty1 dur+ t int]val1 to visit my p5it5ts 9 gaol e day1 & in/ruct !m on ! duties ( ! new life !y 7 call$ ^u to live4 ,:5 ! day ( _! dep>ture arriv$1 ,i gave a ,roman ,ca?olic ,new ,te/am5t1 translat$ by ,de,sacy1 to ea* ( !m to read & m$itate on _! long & t$i\s j\rney1 & ,i bade !m adieu1 recomm5d+ !m to ! m]cy ( ,god1 & ! protection ( ! ,virg9 ,m>y & all ! sa9ts4 ,"s mon?s1 lat]1 ,i he>d t1 on ! sea1 ,*amb]s _h cut loose 8 *a9s & ^? ( "s ( 8 companions1 ) ! int5tion ( tak+ possession ( ! %ip1 & escap+ on "s di/ant %ore4 ,b he _h be5 betray$1 & 0 hang$ on 8 arrival at ,liv]pool4 ,i _h almo/ lo/ sight ( ^? emotional days ( my "y ye>s ( prie/hood4 ,^? facts 7 sil5tly ly+ among ! big piles ( ! daily records1 :i* ,i _h fai?fully kept s9ce ! v days ( my collegiate life at ,nicolet1 :51 9 #ahgh1 ! ,rev4 ,george ,su!rl&1 ,presbyt]ian m9i/]1 ( ,sydney1 invit$ me 9 ! "n ( ! noble-he>t$ ,orangem5 & _m o!r ,*ri/ians ( t great c\ntry1 to g & lecture 9 ,au/ralia4 ,!y accompani$ _! invitation ) a *eck ( #ajj = ! travel+ exp5ses f ,*icago to t di/ant l&1 & ,i accept$ _! k9d invitation4 ,"s "t aft] my arrival1 :5 ,i 0 lectur+ 9 "o ( ! "y & ?riv+ cities ( t c\ntry1 ^: future de/9ies promise to be s great1 a ri* c>ross1 drawn by two spl5did ,engli% horses1 driv5 by two m5 en livre1 /opp$ be=e ! h\se :]e ,i _h put up = a few days4 ,a v5]able g5tleman alight$ f ! c>riage & knock$ at ! door1 z ,i 0 look+ at him f ! w9d[4 ,i w5t to ! door1 to save tr\ble to my ho/1 & ,i op5$ x4 ,9 salut+ me1 ! /rang] said3 8,is ,fa!r ,*9iquy "h80 8,yes1 sir10 ,i answ]$4 8,fa!r ,*9iquy is ! gue/ ( ?is family40 8,c\ld ,i h ! honor ( a few m9ute's conv]sation ) him80 repli$ ! old g5tleman4 8,z ,i am ,fa!r ,*9iquy1 ,i c1 at once1 answ] y t ,i w feel mu* pleasure 9 grant+ y\r reque/40 8,oh1 de> ,fa!r ,*9iquy10 quickly repli$ ! /rang]1 8is x possible t x is y8 ,c ,i be absolutely alone ) y = half an h\r1 )\t any "o to see & he> u80 8,c]ta9ly10 ,i said2 8my com=table rooms are up/airs1 & ,i am absolutely alone !re4 ,please1 sir1 come & foll[ me40 ,:5 alone1 ! /rang] said3 8,d y n "k me80 8,h[ c ,i "k y1 sir10 ,i answ]$4 8,i d n ev5 rememb] ev] hav+ se5 y40 8,y h n only se5 me1 b y h he>d ! confession ( my s9s1 _m times2 & y h sp5t _m h\rs 9 ! same room ) me10 repli$ ! old g5tleman4 8,please tell me :]e & :5 ,i h se5 y1 & also be k9d en\gh to give y\r "n3 = all ^? ?+s h escap$ f my memory40 8,d y rememb] ! murd]] & ?ief1 ,*amb]s1 :o 0 condemn$ to dea? 9 ,quebec1 9 #ahcg1 ) eight ( 8 accomplices80 ask$ ! /rang]4 8,yes1 sir2 ,i rememb] well ,*amb]s1 & ! un=tunate m5 he 0 lead+ 9 ! ways ( iniquity10 ,i repli$4 8,well1 de> ,fa!r ,*9iquy1 ,i am "o ( ! crim9als :o fill$ ,canada ) t]ror1 = sev]al ye>s1 & :o 7 caught & rightly condemn$ to dea?4 ,:5 condemn$1 we select$ y = our fa!r confessor1 ) ! hope t ?r\gh y\r influ5ce we might escape ! gall[s2 & we 7 n disappo9t$4 ,y obta9$ our p>don2 ! s5t5ce ( dea? 0 commut$ into a life ( exile to ,botany ,bay4 ,my "n 9 ,canada 0 ,a----1 b "h !y call me ,b----4 ,god has bless$ me s9ce 9 _m ways2 b x is to y ,i owe my life1 & all ! privileges ( my pres5t exi/5ce4 ,aft] ,god1 y are my savi\r4 ,i come to ?ank & bless y = :at y h done = me40 ,9 say+ t1 he ?rew himself into my arms1 press$ me to 8 he>t1 & ba!d my face & my h&s ) te>s ( joy & gratitude4 ,b 8 joy did n exce$ m9e1 & my surprise 0 equal to my joy to f9d him app>5tly 9 su* good circum/ances4 ,aft] ,i _h knelt ) him to ?ank & bless ,god = :at ,i _h he>d1 ,i ask$ him to relate to me ! details ( 8 /range & m>vell\s /ory4 ,"h is a %ort resume ( 8 answ]3 8,aft] y _h giv5 u y\r la/ b5$iction1 :5 on bo>d ! %ip :i* 0 to take u f ,quebec to ,botany ,bay1 ! fir/ ?+ ,i did 0 to op5 ! ,new ,te/am5t y _h giv5 me & ! o!r culprits1 ) ! advice to read x ) a pray+ he>t4 ,x 0 ! fir/ "t 9 my life ,i _h t book 9 my h&4 ,y 7 ! only prie/ 9 ,canada :o w\ld put su* a book 9 ! h&s ( common p4 ,b ,i mu/ confess t its fir/ read+ did n d me mu* good1 = ,i read x m to amuse myself & satisfy my curiosity1 ?an ?r\gh any good & ,*ri/ian motive4 ,! only good ,i receiv$ f t fir/ read+1 0 t ,i cle>ly und]/ood1 = ! fir/ "t1 :y ! prie/s ( ,rome fe> & hate t book1 & :y !y take x out ( ! h&s ( _! p>i%ion]s :5 !y he> t !y h x4 ,x 0 9 va9 t ,i look$ = mass1 indulg5ce1 *aplets1 purgatory1 auricul> confession1 ,l5t1 holy wat]s1 ! wor%ip ( ,m>y1 or pray]s 9 an unkn[n tongue4 ,i conclud$ f my fir/ read+ ( ! ,gospel t our prie/s 7 v wise to prev5t u f read+ a book :i* 0 really demoli%+ our ,roman ,ca?olic ,*ur*1 & felt surpris$ t y _h put 9 our h&s a book :i* seem$ to me s oppos$ to ! belief & practice ( our religion z y taught x to u :5 9 gaol1 & my confid5ce 9 y\r good judgm5t 0 mu* %ak54 ,to tell y ! tru?1 ! fir/ read+ ( ! ,gospel w5t f> to demoli% my ,roman ,ca?olic fai?1 & to make a wreck ( ! religion taught me by my p>5ts1 & at ! college1 & ev5 by y4 ,= a few weeks1 ,i became m ( a skeptic ?an any?+ else4 ,! only good t fir/ read+ ( ! ,holy ,book did me 0 to give me m s]i\s ?\ghts & prev5t me f unit+ myself to ,*amb]s & 8 conspirators 9 _! fooli% plot = tak+ possession ( ! %ip & escap+ to "s unkn[n & di/ant %ore4 ,he _h be5 %rewd en\gh to conceal a v small1 b exce$+ly %>p saw1 betwe5 8 toes be=e com+ to ! %ip1 ) :i* he _h already cut ! *a9s ( eighte5 ( ! prison]s1 :5 he 0 betray$ & hang$ on 8 arrival at ,liv]pool4 8,b if my fir/ read+ ( ! ,gospel did n d me mu* good1 ,i _c say ! same ?+ ( ! second4 ,i rememb] t1 :5 h&+ to u t holy book1 y _h told u nev] to read x except aft] a f]v5t pray] to ,god = help & light to und]/& x4 ,i 0 really tir$ ( my =m] life4 ,9 giv+ up ! fe> & ! love ( ,god1 ,i _h fall5 into ! deepe/ abyss ( human depravity & mis]y1 till ,i _h come v ne> end+ my life on ! scaffold4 ,i felt ! ne$ ( a *ange4 ,y _h (t5 repeat$ to u ! words ( our ,savi\r1 #8,come unto me all ye :o are we>y & heavy lad51 & ,i w give y re/2' b1 ) all ! o!r prie/s1 y _h always mix$ ^? admirable & sav+ words ) ! invocation ( ,m>y1 ! confid5ce 9 our m$als1 scapul>s1 signs ( ! cross1 holy wat]s1 indulg5ces1 auricul> confessions1 t ! sublime appeal ( ,*ri/ _h always be51 z x always w be1 dr[n$ 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,rome by ^? absurd & impi\s sup]/itions & practices4 8,"o morn+1 aft] ,i _h sp5t a sleepless night1 & feel+ z press$ d[n "u ! weight ( my s9s1 ,i op5$ my gospel book1 aft] an ard5t pray] = light & guidance1 & my eyes fell on ^! words ( ,john1 #8,"h is ! ,lamb ( ,god1 :o takes away ! s9s ( ! _w6' ,^! words fell ^u my poor guilty s\l ) a div9e1 irresi/ible p[]4 ,) te>s & cries ( an unspeakable desolation1 ,i sp5t ! day 9 cry+1 #8,o ,lamb ( ,god1 :o take? away ! s9s ( ! _w1 h m]cy ^u me6 ,take away my s9s6' ,! day 0 n ov]1 :5 ,i felt & knew t my cries _h be5 he>d at ! m]cy-seat4 ,! ,lamb ( ,god _h tak5 away my s9s6 ,he _h *ang$ my he>t & made q a new man ( me4 ,f t day1 ! read+ ( ! ,gospel 0 to my s\l :at bread is to ! poor1 hungry man1 & :at pure & refre%+ wat]s are to ! ?ir/y travel]4 ,my joy1 my unspeakable joy1 0 to read ! holy book1 & speak ) my companions 9 *a9s ( ! de> ,savi\r's love = ! poor s9n]s2 &1 ?anks be to ,god1 a good numb] ( !m h f\nd ,him altoge!r preci\s1 & h be5 s9c]ely conv]t$ 9 ! d>k holds ( t %ip4 ,:5 work+ h>d at ,sydney ) ! o!r culprits1 ,i felt my *a9s to be z light z fea!rs :5 ,i 0 sure t ! heavy *a9s ( my s9s 7 gone2 & ?\gh work+ h>d "u a burn+ sun f morn+ till night1 ,i felt happy1 & my he>t 0 full ( joy :5 ,i 0 sure t my ,savi\r _h prep>$ a ?rone = me 9 ,8 k+dom1 & t ,he _h br\ght a cr[n ( et]nal glory = me by dy+ on ! cross to r$eem my guilty s\l4 8,i _h h>dly sp5t a ye> 9 ,au/ralia1 9 ! mid/ ( ! convicts1 :5 a m9i/] ( ! ,gospel1 accompani$ by ano!r g5tleman1 came to me & said3 #8,y\r p]fectly good behavior & y\r ,*ri/ian life has attract$ ! att5tion & admiration ( ! au?orities1 & ! gov]nor s5ds u to h& y ?is docum5t1 :i* says y are no m a crim9al be=e ! law1 b t y h y\r p>don1 & y c live ! life ( an honorable citiz51 by cont9u+ to walk 9 ! ways ( ,god4' ,aft] speak+ s1 ! g5tlem5 put "o hundr$ doll>s 9 my h&s1 & add$3 #8,g & be a fai?ful foll[] ( ! ,"l ,jesus1 & ,god ,almighty w bless y & make y prosp] 9 all y\r ways4' ,all ?is seem$ to me z a dream or vision f heav54 ,i w\ld h>dly believe my e>s & my eyes4 ,b x 0 n a dream1 x 0 a reality4 ,my m]ciful ,heav5ly ,fa!r _h aga9 he>d my humble supplications2 aft] hav+ tak5 away ! heavy *a9s ( my s9s1 ,he _h m]cifully tak5 away ! *a9s :i* w\nd$ my feet & my h&s4 ,i sp5t sev]al days & nights 9 weep+ & cry+ = joy1 & 9 bless+ ! ,god ( my salvation1 ,jesus ! r$eem] ( my s\l & my body4 8,"s ye>s aft] t1 we he>d ( ! discov]ies ( ! ri* gold m9es 9 sev]al p>ts ( ,au/ralia4 8,aft] hav+ pray$ ,god to guide me1 ,i b\ght a bag ( h>d crack]s1 a ham & *eese1 & />t$ = ! m9es 9 company ) sev]al :o 7 go+1 l myself1 9 se>* ( gold4 ,b ,i soon pref]r$ to be alone4 ,= ,i want$ to pray & to be unit$ to my ,god1 ev5 :5 walk+4 ,aft] a long m>*1 ,i rea*$ a beautiful spot1 betwe5 ?ree small hills1 at ! foot ( :i* a little brook 0 runn+ d[n t[>d ! pla9 bel[4 ,! sun 0 scor*+1 !re 0 no %ade1 & ,i 0 mu* tir$1 ,i sat on a flat /one to take my d9n]1 & qu5*$ my ?ir/ ) ! wat] ( ! brook4 ,i 0 eat+ & bless+ my ,god at ! same "t = ,8 m]cies1 :5 sudd5ly my eyes fell on a /one by ! brook1 :i* 0 ab\t ! size ( a goose egg4 ,b ! rays ( ! sun 7 danc+ on ! /one1 z if x _h be5 a mirror4 ,i w5t & pick$ x up4 ,! /one 0 almo/ all gold ( ! pure/ k9d6 ,x 0 almo/ en\gh to make me ri*4 ,i knelt to ?ank & bless ,god = ?is new tok5 ( 8 m]cy t[>d me1 & ,i began to look ar\nd to see if ,i c\ld n f9d "s new pieces ( ! preci\s metal1 & y may imag9e my joy1 :5 ,i f\nd t ! gr\nd 0 n only lit]ally cov]$ ) pieces ( gold ( e size1 f half an in* to ! smalle/ dim5sions1 b t ! v s&1 9 great "p1 0 compos$ ( gold4 ,9 a v %ort "t1 x 0 ! w ( ,god t ,i c\ld c>ry to ! bank p>ticles ( gold to ! value ( sev]al ?\s& p\nds4 ,i cont9u$ to cov] myself ) rags & h old boots on1 9 ord] n to excite ! suspicion ( any "o on ! =tune :i* ,i 0 accumulat+ s rapidly4 ,:5 ,i _h ab\t #hj1jjj deposit$ 9 ! banks1 a g5tleman (f]$ me #hj1jjj m = my claim1 & ,i sold x4 ,! money 0 inve/$ by me on a piece ( l& :i* soon became ! site ( an important city1 & ,i soon became "o ( ! weal?y m5 ( ,au/ralia4 ,i !n began to /udy h>d & improve ! little education ,i _h receiv$ 9 ,canada4 ,i m>ri$1 & my ,god has made me fa!r ( sev]al *ildr54 ,! p :]e ,i settl$ ) my =tune & wife1 n kn[+ my antec$5ts1 h rais$ me to ! fir/ dignities ( ! place4 ,please1 de> ,mr4 ,*9iquy1 come & take d9n] ) me1 to-morr[1 t ,i may %[ y my h\se & "s ( my o!r prop]ties1 & also t ,i may introduce y to my wife & *ildr54 ,b let me ask ! favor n to make !m suspect t y h kn[n me 9 ,canada1 = !y ?9k ,i am an ,european40 ,:5 tell+ me 8 m>vell\s adv5tures1 :i* ,i am oblig$ to cond5se & abridge1 8 voice 01 _m times1 *ok$ by 8 emotion 8 te>s & 8 sobs1 & m ?an once he _h to /op4 ,z = me1 ,i 0 absolutely beside myself ) admiration at ! my/]i\s ways ?r\gh :i* ,god leads 8 elect1 9 all ages4 ,n[1 ,i und]/& :y my ,god _h giv5 me su* a m>vell\s p[] ov] ! gov]nor ( ,canada1 :5 ,i wr5*$ y\r p>don f 8 h&s almo/ 9 spite ( himself1 ,i said3 8,t m]ciful ,god want$ to save y1 & y are sav$6 ,may 8 "n be =ev] bless$40 ,! next day1 x 0 my privilege to be ) 8 family1 at d9n]4 ,& nev] h ,i se5 a m happy "m1 & a m int]e/+ family4 ,! long table 0 actually surr\nd$ by !m4 ,aft] d9n]1 he %[$ me 8 beautiful g>d5 & 8 ri* palace1 aft] :i*1 ?r[+ himself into my arms1 he said3 8,de> ,fa!r ,*9iquy1 all ^? ?+s belong to y4 ,x is to y1 aft] ,god1 t ,i owe my life1 all ! bless+s ( a l>ge & ,*ri/ian family1 & ! honor ( ! high position ,i h 9 ?is c\ntry4 ,may ! ,god ( ,heav5 = ev] bless y = :at y h done = me40 ,i answ]$ him3 8,de> fri5d1 y owe me no?+1 ,i h be5 no?+ b a feeble in/rum5t ( ! m]cies ( ,god t[>d y4 ,to t great & m]ciful ,god alone be ! praise & ! glory4 ,please ask y\r family to come "h & jo9 ) u 9 s++ to ! praise ( ,god ! #ajc;d ,psalm40 ,& we sang toge!r3 8,praise ! ,"l1 ,o my s\l1 & let all t is )9 me praise ,8 holy "n4 8,he ha? n dealt ) u aft] our s9s1 nor rew>d$ u accord+ to our iniquities4 8,= z ! heav5 is high above ! e>?1 s great is 8 m]cy t[>d !m t fe> him4 8,z f> z ! ea/ is f ! we/1 s f> ha? ,he remov$ our transgressions f u4 8,l z a fa!r pitie? 8 *ildr51 s ! ,"l pitie? !m t fe> ,him40 ,aft] ! s++ ( t hymn1 ,i bade him adieu = ! second "t1 nev] to meet him aga9 except 9 t ,promis$ ,l&1 :]e we w s+ ! et]nal ,alleluia ar\nd ! ?rone ( ! ,lamb1 :o 0 sla9 = u1 & :o r$eem$ u all 9 ,8 blood4 ,,*apt] ,,xxxii4 ,,! ,,miracles ,,( ,,rome--,,attack ,,( ,,typhoid ,,fev]--,,app>ition ,,( ,,/4 ,,anne ,,& ,,/4 ,,philom5e--,,my ,,sudd5 ,,cure--,,! ,,curate ,,( ,,/4 ,,anne ,,du ,,nord1 ,,mons ,,ranvoize1 ,a ,,disguis$ ,,prote/ant4 ,! m]*ant fleet ( ! fall ( #ahcf _h fill$ ! ,m>9e ,hospital ( ,quebec ) ! victims ( a %ip-typhoid fev] ( ! wor/ k9d1 :i* soon turn$ into an epidemic4 ,)9 ! walls ( t in/itution ,mr4 ,glackmey]1 ! sup]9t5d5t1 ) two ( ! att5d+ doctors1 & ! majority ( ! s]vants1 7 swept away dur+ ! w9t] mon?s4 ,i 01 9 ! spr+ ( #ahcg1 almo/ ! only "o sp>$ by t horrible pe/4 ,9 ord] n to spread t]ror among ! citiz5s ( ,quebec1 ! physicians & ,i _h det]m9$ to keep t a secret4 ,b1 at ! end ( ,may1 ,i 0 =c$ to reveal x to ! ,bi%op ( ,quebec1 ,my ,"l ,signaie2 = ,i felt 9 my :ole frame1 ! fir/ symptoms ( ! m]ciless disease4 ,i prep>$ myself to die1 z v few :o _h be5 attack$ by x _h escap$4 ,i w5t to ! bi%op1 told him ! tru? ab\t ! epidemic1 & reque/$ him to appo9t a prie/1 imm$iately1 z *apla9 9 my place1 = ,i add$1 ,i feel ! poison runn+ ?r\gh my ve9s1 & x is v probable t ,i h n m ?an t5 or twelve days to live4 ,! "y ,mons ,d4 ,e/imanville 0 *os51 & ?\gh ,i felt v weak1 ,i ?\ght x 0 my duty to initiate him 9 8 new & p]il\s "w4 ,i took him imm$iately to ! hospital1 :]e he nev] _h be5 be=e1 &1 :5 at a few feet f ! door1 ,i said3 8,my "y fri5d1 x is my duty to tell y t !re is a dang]\s epidemic rag+ 9 t h\se s9ce la/ fall1 no?+ has be5 able to /op x4 ,! sup]9t5d5t1 two physicians & mo/ ( ! s]vants h be5 its victims4 ,my escape till n[ is almo/ miracul\s4 ,b ^! la/ t5 h\rs ,i feel ! poison runn+ ?r\gh my :ole body4 ,y are call$ by ,god to take my place2 b be=e y cross ! ?re%old ( t hospital1 y mu/ make ! g5]\s sacrifice ( y\r life2 = y are go+ on a battle-field f :i* only few h come out ) _! lives40 ,! "y prie/ turn$ pale & said3 8,is x possible t su* a deadly epidemic is rag+ :]e y are tak+ me80 ,i answ]$3 8,yes6 my de> "y bro!r1 x is a fact1 & ,i consid] x my duty to tell y n to ent] t h\se1 if y are afraid to die60 ,a few m9utes ( sil5ce foll[$1 & x 0 a solemn sil5ce1 inde$6 ,did ! angels ( ,god appe> to %[ him ! cr[n giv5 to ^? :o die = _! bre?r58 ,i d n "k4 ,:at ,i d "k is t1 a few mon?s lat]1 t "y prie/ won ! glori\s cr[n by fall+ at 8 po/ ( duty4 ,he !n took 8 h&k]*ief & wip$ away "s big drops ( sweat1 :i* 7 roll+ f 8 =ehead on 8 *eeks1 & said3 8,is !re a m holy & desirable way ( dy+ ?an 9 m9i/]+ to ! spiritual & temporal wants ( my bre?r58 ,no6 ,if x is ! w ( ,god t ,i %\ld fall :5 fight+ at ?is po/ ( dang]1 ,i am ready4 ,let 8 holy w be done40 ,he foll[$ me into ! pe/il5tial h\se ) ! h]oic /ep ( ! soldi] :o runs at ! comm& ( 8 g5]al to /orm an impregnable citadel1 :5 he is sure to fall4 ,x took me m ?an an h\r to %[ him all ! rooms1 & introduce him to ! poor1 b v de> sick & dy+ m>9]s4 ,i felt !n s exhau/$ t two fri5ds _h to support me on my return to ! p>sonage ( ,/4 ,ro*4 ,my physicians 7 imm$iately call$ 7"o ( !m1 ,dr4 ,r\sseau1 is /ill liv+7 & soon pron\nc$ my case s dang]\s t ?ree o!r physicians 7 call$ 9 consultation4 ,= n9e days1 ,i suff]$ ! mo/ horrible tortures 9 my bra9s & ! v m>r[ ( my bones1 f ! fev]1 :i* s dev\r$ my fle%1 z to seem+ly leave b ! sk94 ,on ! n9? day1 ! physicians told ! bi%op1 :o _h visit$ me1 t !re 0 no hope = my recov]y4 ,! la/ sacram5ts 7 adm9i/]$ to me1 & ,i prep>$ myself to die1 z taught by ! ,*ur* ( ,rome4 ,! t5? day ,i 0 absolutely motionless1 & n able to utt] a ^w4 ,my tongue 0 p>*$ l a piece ( dry wood4 ,?r\gh ! t]rible ravage on ! :ole sy/em1 my v eyes 7 s turn$ inside _! orbits1 ! :ite "p only c\ld be se52 no food c\ld be tak5 f ! beg9n+ ( ! sickness except a few drops ( cold wat]1 :i* 7 dropp$ ?r\gh my tee? ) mu* difficulty4 ,b1 ?\gh all my physical faculties seem$ dead1 my memory & my intellig5ce 7 full ( life1 & act+ ) m p[] ?an ev]4 ,n[ & !n1 9 ! p>oxysms ( ! fev]1 ,i us$ to see awful visions4 ,at "o "t1 susp5d$ by a ?read at ! top ( a high m\nta91 ) my head d[n ov] a bottomless abyss2 at ano!r1 surr\nd$ by m]ciless enemies1 ^: dagg]s & swords 7 plung$ ?r\gh my body4 ,b ^! 7 ( %ort duration1 ?\gh !y h left su* an impression on my m9d t ,i /ill rememb] ! m9ute/ details4 ,dea? _h at fir/ no t]rors = me4 ,i _h done1 to ! be/ ( my ability1 all t my *ur* _h told me to d to be sav$4 ,i _h1 e day1 giv5 my la/ c5t to ! poor1 fa/$ & done p5ance almo/ en\gh to kill myself1 made my confessions ) ! greate/ c>e & s9c]ity1 prea*$ ) su* zeal & e>ne/ness z to fill ! :ole city ) admiration4 ,my ph>isaical virtues & hol9ess1 9 a ^w1 7 ( su* a gl>+ & deceitful "*1 & my ecclesia/ical sup]iors 7 s tak5 by !m t !y made ! greate/ ef=ts to p]suade me to become ! fir/ ,bi%op ( ,oregon & ,vanc\v]4 ,"o aft] ! o!r1 all ! sa9ts ( heav51 beg9n+ ) ! ,holy ,virg9 ,m>y1 7 invok$ by me t !y might pray ,god to look d[n ^u me 9 m]cy1 & save my s\l4 ,on ! ?irte5? night1 z ! doctors 7 retir+1 !y :isp]$ to ! ,revs4 ,baill>geon & ,p>5t1 :o 7 at my b$side3 8,he is dead1 or if n1 he has only a few m9utes to live4 ,he is already cold & brea?less1 & we _c feel 8 pulse40 ,?\gh ^! words _h be5 said 9 a v l[ tone1 !y fell ^u my e>s z a peal ( ?und]4 ,! two "y prie/s1 :o 7 my devot$ fri5ds1 fill$ ! room ) su* cries1 t ! curate & ! prie/1 :o _h gone to re/1 ru%$ to my room1 & m+l$ _! te>s & cries ) !irs4 ,! words ( ! doctor1 8,he is dead60 7 r++ 9 my e>s z ! voice ( a hurricane2 ,i sudd5ly saw t ,i 0 9 dang] ( be+ buri$ alive2 no words c express ! s5se ( horror ,i felt at t idea4 ,a cold1 icy wave began to move sl[ly1 b x seem$ to me1 ) irresi/ible =ce1 f ! extremities ( my feet & h&s t[>d ! he>t1 z ! fir/ symptoms ( approa*+ dea?4 ,at t mom5t1 ,i made a great ef=t to see :at hope ,i might h ( be+ sav$1 invok+ ! help ( ! bless$ ,virg9 ,m>y4 ,) lightn+ rapidity1 a t]rible vision /ruck my m9d2 ,i saw all my good works & p5ances1 9 :i* my *ur* _h told me to tru/ = salvation1 9 ! balance ( ! ju/ice ( ,god4 ,^! 7 9 "o side ( ! scales1 & my s9s on ! o!r4 ,my good works seem$ only z a gra9 ( s& comp>$ ) ! weight ( my s9s4,b ----- ,footnote ,b3 ,9 ord] to be und]/ood by ^? ( my read]s :o h nev] be5 deceiv$ by ! diabolical doctr9es ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 ,i mu/ say "h1 t :5 "y ,i _h le>n$ all my ,cate*ism1 & :5 a prie/1 ,i _h believ$ & prea*$ :at ,rome says on t subject4 ,"h is h] doctr9e z taught 9 h] ,cate*ism3 8,:o are ^? :o g to heav580 ,,ans4 8,^? only :o h nev] (f5d$ ,god1 or :o1 hav+ (f5d$ ,him1 h done p5ance40 ----- ,?is awful vision entirely de/roy$ my false & ph>isaical security1 & fill$ my s\l ) an unspeakable t]ror4 ,i c\ld n cry to ,jesus ,*ri/1 nor to ,god1 8 ,fa!r1 = m]cy2 = ,i s9c]ely believ$ :at my *ur* _h taught me on t subject1 t !y 7 bo? angry ) me on acc\nt ( my s9s4 ,) mu* anxiety1 ,i turn$ my ?\ghts1 my s\l & hopes t[>d ,/4 ,anne & ,/ ,philom5e4 ,! fir/ 0 ! object ( my confid5ces s9ce ! fir/ "t ,i _h se5 ! numb]less crut*es & o!r 8,ex ,votos0 :i* cov]$ ! ,*ur* ( 8,la ,bonne ,/4 ,anne du ,nord10 & ! second 0 ! sa9t a la mode4 ,x 0 said t h] body _h lately be5 miracul\sly discov]$1 & ! _w 0 fill$ ) ! noise ( ! miracles wr\ght ?r\gh h] int]cession4 ,h] m$als 7 on e brea/1 h] pictures 9 e h\se1 & h] "n on all lips4 ,) entire confid5ce 9 ! w & p[] ( ^! two sa9ts to obta9 any favor = me1 ,i invok$ !m to pray ,god to grant me a few ye>s m ( life2 & ) ! utmo/ hone/y ( purpose1 ,i promis$ to add to my p5ances1 & to live a m holy life1 by consecrat+ myself ) m zeal ?an ev]1 to ! s]vice ( ! poor & ! sick4 ,i add$ to my =m] pray]1 ! solemn promise to h a pa9t+ ( ! two sa9ts put 9 ,/4 ,anne's ,*ur*1 to proclaim to ! end ( ! _w _! great p[] 9 heav51 if !y w\ld obta9 my cure & re/ore my heal?4 ,/range to say6 ! la/ words ( my pray] 7 sc>cely utt]$1 :5 ,i saw above my head ,/4 ,anne & ,/4 ,philom5e1 sitt+ 9 ! mid/ ( a great light1 on a beautiful gold5 cl\d4 ,/4 ,anne 0 v old & grave1 b ,/4 ,philom5e 0 v "y & beautiful4 ,bo? 7 look+ at me ) great k9dness4 ,h[ev]1 ! k9dness ( ,/4 ,anne 0 mix$ ) su* an air ( awe & gravity1 t ,i did n l h] looks2 :ile ,/4 ,philom5e _h su* an expression ( sup]human love & k9dness1 t ,i felt myself drawn to h] by a magnetic p[]1 :5 %e said di/9ctly3 8,y w be cur$60 & ! vision disappe>$4 ,b ,i 0 cur$1 p]fectly cur$6 ,at ! disappe>ance ( ! two sa9ts1 ,i felt z ?\gh an electric %ock w5t ?r\gh my :ole frame2 ! pa9s 7 gone1 ! tongue 0 unti$1 ! n]ves 7 re/or$ to _! natural & easy p[]2 my eyes 7 op5$1 ! cold & icy waves :i* 7 fa/ go+ f ! extremities to ! regions ( ! he>t1 seem$ to be *ang$ into a mo/ pleasant w>m ba?1 re/or+ life & /r5g? to e "p ( my body4 ,i rais$ my head1 /ret*$ out my h&s1 :i* ,i _h n mov$ = ?ree days1 & look+ ar\nd1 ,i saw ! f\r prie/s4 ,i said to !m3 8,i am cur$1 please give me some?+ to eat1 ,i am hungry40 ,a/oni%$ beyond measure1 two ( !m ?rew _! arms ar\nd my %\ld]s to help me sit a mom5t1 & *ange my pill[2 :5 two o!rs ran to ! table :i* ! k9d nuns ( ,quebec _h cov]$ ) delicacies 9 case ,i might want !m4 ,_! joy 0 mix$ ) fe>1 = !y all confess$ to me aft]w>ds t !y at once ?\ght t all ?is 0 no?+ b ! la/ brilliant fla% ( light :i* ! flick]+ lamp gives be=e dy+ away4 ,b !y soon *ang$ _! m9ds :5 !y saw t ,i 0 eat+ rav5\sly1 & t ,i 0 speak+ to !m & ?ank+ ,god ) a *e]ful ?\gh v feeble voice4 8,:at does ?is mean80 !y all said4 8,! doctors told u la/ ev5+ t y 7 dead2 & we h pass$ ! night n only weep+ ov] y\r dea?1 b pray+ = y\r s\l1 to rescue x f ! flames ( purgatory1 & n[ y look s hungry1 s *e]ful & s well40 ,i answ]$3 8,x means t ,i 0 n dead1 b v ne> dy+1 & :5 ,i felt t ,i 0 to die1 ,i pray$ to ,/4 ,anne & ,/4 ,philom5e to come to my help & cure me2 & !y h come4 ,i h se5 !m bo?1 !re1 above my head4 ,ah6 if ,i 7 a pa9t]1 :at a beautiful picture ,i c\ld make ( t de> old ,/4 ,anne & ! /ill de>] ,/4 ,philom5e6 = x is ,/4 ,philom5e :o has spok5 to me z ! mess5g] ( ! m]cies ( ,god4 ,i h promis$ to h _! portraits pa9t$ & put into ! *ur* ( ,! ,good ,/4 ,anne du ,nord40 ,:ile ,i 0 speak+ ?us1 ! prie/s1 fill$ ) admiration & awe1 7 mute2 !y c\ld n speak1 except ) te>s ( gratitude4 ,!y hone/ly believ$ ) me t my cure 0 miracul\s1 & cons5t$ ) pleasure to s+ t beautiful hymn ( gratitude1 ! 8,te ,deum40 ,! next morn+ ! news ( my miracul\s cure spread ?r\gh ! :ole city ) ! rapidity ( lightn+1 = besides a good numb] ( ! fir/ citiz5s ( ,quebec :o 7 relat$ to me by blood1 ,i _h n less ?an #a1hjj p5it5ts :o lov$ & respect$ me z _! spiritual fa!r4 ,to give an idea ( ! k9d int]e/ ( ! numb]less fri5ds :om ,god _h giv5 me :5 9 ,quebec1 ,i w relate a s+le fact4 ,! citiz5s :o 7 ne> our p>sonage1 hav+ be5 told by a physician t ! inflammation ( my bra9 0 s t]rible t ! lea/ noise1 ev5 ! pass+ ( c>riages or ! walk+ ( horses on ! /reets1 0 caus+ me real torture1 !y imm$iately cov]$ all ! surr\nd+ /reets ) sev]al in*es ( /raw to prev5t ! possibility ( any m noise4 ,! physicians hav+ he>d ( my sudd5 cure1 ha/5$ to come & see :at x meant4 ,at fir/1 !y c\ld sc>cely believe _! eyes4 ,! night be=e1 !y _h giv5 me up = dead1 aft] ?irte5 days suff]+ ) ! mo/ horrible & incurable ( diseases6 ,& !re ,i 01 ! v next morn+1 p]fectly cur$6 ,no m pa91 n ! lea/ remnant ( fev]1 all ! faculties ( my body & m9d p]fectly re/or$6 ,!y m9utely ask$ me all ! circum/ances connect$ ) t /range1 unexpect$ cure2 & ,i told !m simply b pla9ly1 h[1 at ! v mom5t ,i expect$ to die1 ,i _h f]v5tly pray$ to ,/4 ,anne & ,/4 ,philom5e1 & h[ !y _h come1 spok5 to me & cur$ me4 ,two ( my physicians 7 ,roman ,ca?olics1 & ?ree ,prote/ants4 ,!y1 at fir/1 look$ at ea* o!r )\t say+ a ^w4 ,x 0 evid5t t !y 7 n all p>tak]s ( my /rong fai? 9 ! p[] ( ! two sa9ts4 ,:ile ! ,roman ,ca?olic doctors1 ,messrs4 ,p>5t & ,r\sseau1 seem$ to believe 9 my miracul\s cure1 ! ,prote/ants en]getically prote/$ aga9/ t view 9 ! "n ( sci5ce & common s5se4 ,dr4 ,d\glas put me ! foll[+ que/ions1 & receiv$ ! foll[+ answ]s4 ,he said3 8,de> ,fa!r ,*9iquy1 y "k y h n a m devot$ fri5d 9 ,quebec ?an ,i1 & y "k me too well to suspect t ,i want to hurt y\r religi\s feel+s :5 ,i tell y t !re is n ! lea/ appe>ance ( a miracle 9 y\r s happy & sudd5 cure4 ,if y w be k9d en\gh to answ] my que/ions1 y w see t y are mi/ak5 9 attribut+ to a miracle a ?+ :i* is mo/ common & natural4 ,?\gh y are p]fectly cur$1 y are v weak2 please answ] only #8yes' or #8no' to my que/ions1 9 ord] n to exhau/ y\rself4 ,w y be s k9d z to tell u if ?is is ! fir/ vision y h _h dur+ ! p]iod ( t t]rible fev]80 ,,ans4 ,i h _h _m o!r visions1 b ,i took !m z be+ ! effect ( ! fev]4 ,,doctor4 ,please make y\r answ]s %ort]1 or else ,i w n ask y ano!r "q1 = x w\ld hurt y4 ,tell u simply1 if y h n se5 9 ^? visions1 at times1 v frightful & t]rible1 & at o!rs1 v beautiful ?+s8 ,,ans4 ,yes1 sir4 ,,doctor4 ,h n ^? visions /amp$ !mselves on y\r m9d ) su* a p[] & vividness t y nev] =get !m1 & t y deem !m m realities ?an m]e visions ( a sickly bra98 ,,ans4 ,yes1 sir4 ,,doctor4 ,did y n feel1 sometimes1 mu* worse1 & sometimes mu* bett] aft] ^? visions1 accord+ to _! nature8 ,,ans4 ,yes1 sir4 ,,doctor4 ,:5 at ease 9 y\r m9d dur+ t disease1 7 y n us$ to pray to ! sa9ts1 p>ticul>ly to ,/4 ,anne & ,/4 ,philom5e8 ,,ans4 ,yes1 sir4 ,,doctor4 ,:5 y consid]$ t dea? 0 v ne> 7& x 0 inde$7 :5 y _h he>d my imprud5t s5t5ce t y _h only a few m9utes to live1 7 y n tak5 sudd5ly by su* a fe> ( dea? z y nev] felt be=e8 ,,ans4 ,yes1 sir4 ,,doctor4 ,did y n !n make a great ef=t to repel dea? f y8 ,,ans4 ,yes1 sir4 ,,doctor4 ,d y "k t y are a man ( an exce$+ly /rong w1 & t v few m5 c resi/ y :5 y want to d some?+8 ,d y n "k t y\r w is su* an exceptional p[] t m\nta9s ( difficulties h disappe>$ be=e y1 "h 9 ,quebec8 ,h y n se5 ev5 me1 ) _m o!rs1 yield+ to y\r w almo/ 9 spite ( ourselves1 to d :at y want$8 ,) a smile1 ,i answ]$1 8,yes1 sir40 ,,doctor4 ,d y n "k t ! w1 or if y l x bett]1 ! s\l1 has a real1 my/]i\s1 & sometimes an irresi/ible1 p[] ov] ! body1 to sil5ce its passions1 calm its suff]+s1 & really heal its diseases1 p>ticul>ly :5 !y are ( a n]v\s nature1 z 9 all cases ( fev]8 ,,ans4 ,yes1 sir6 ,i "k t4 ,,doctor4 ,d y n rememb] see+1 _m times1 p suff]+ dreadfully f too?a*e1 com+ to u to h _! tee? extract$1 :o 7 sudd5ly cur$ at ! sight ( ! knives & o!r surgical in/rum5ts we put ^u ! table = use8 ,i answ]$1 ) a laugh1 8,yes1 sir4 ,i h se5 t v (t51 & x has occurr$ to me once40 ,,doctor4 ,d y ?9k t !re 0 a sup]natural p[]1 !n1 9 ! surgical implem5ts1 & t ^? sudd5 cures ( too?a*e 7 miracul\s8 ,,ans4 ,no1 sir4 ,,doctor4 ,h y n read ! volume ( ! ,m$ical ,directory ,i l5t y1 on typhoid fev]1 :]e sev]al cures exactly l y\rs are report$8 ,,ans4 ,yes1 sir4 ,!n1 address+ ! physicians1 ,dr4 ,d\glas said to !m3 8,we mu/ n exhau/ our de> ,fa!r ,*9iquy4 ,we are too happy to see him full ( life aga91 b f 8 answ]s y und]/& t !re is no miracle "h4 ,8 happy & sudd5 cure is a v natural & common ?+4 ,! vision 0 :at we call ! turn+-po9t ( ! disease1 :5 ! m9d is p[]fully b5t on "s v excit+ object1 :5 t my/]i\s ?+ ( :i* we "k s little z yet1 call$ ! w1 ! _s1 ! s\l1 fights z a giant aga9/ dea?1 9 :i* battle1 pa9s1 diseases1 & ev5 dea?1 are put to flight & conqu]$4 8,my de> ,fa!r ,*9iquy1 f y\r own lips we h x2 y h f\ght1 la/ night1 ! fev] & approa*+ dea?1 z a giant4 ,no wond] t y won ! victory1 & ,i confess1 x is a great victory4 ,i "k x is n ! fir/ victory y h ga9$1 & ,i am sure x w n be ! la/4 ,x is surely ,god :o has giv5 y t irresi/ible w4 ,9 t s5se only does y\r cure come f ,him4 ,cont9ue to fight & conqu] z y h done la/ night1 & y w live a long life4 ,dea? w long rememb] its defeat ( la/ night1 & w n d>e approa* y any m1 except :5 y w be s old t y w ask x to come z a fri5d1 & put an end to ! mis]ies ( ?is pres5t life4 ,good-bye40 ,& ) fri5dly smiles1 all ! doctors press$ my h& & left me1 j z ! bi%op & ! curate ( ,quebec1 ,mons4 ,baill>geon1 my confessor1 7 ent]+ ! room4 ,an old prov]b says3 8,!re is no?+ s difficult z to p]suade a man :o does n want to be p]suad$40 ,?\gh ! reason+ & k9d words ( ! doctor ought to h be5 gladly li/5$ to by me1 !y _h only bo!r$ me4 ,x 0 inf9itely m pleasant1 & x seem$ !n1 m agreeable to ,god1 & m accord+ to my fai? 9 ! p[] ( ! sa9ts 9 heav51 to believe t ,i _h be5 miracul\sly cur$4 ,( c\rse1 ! bi%op ) 8 coadjutor1 & my ,"l ,turgeon1 z well z my confessor1 ) ! numb]less prie/s & ,roman ,ca?olics :o visit$ me dur+ my convalesc5ce1 confirm$ me 9 my views4 ,! skillful pa9t]1 ,mr4 ,plamondon1 rec5tly f ,rome1 0 call$1 & pa9t$ at ! price ( #bjj 7#ej7 ! tableau1 ,i _h promis$ to put 9 ! *ur* ( ,/4 ,anne du ,nord4 ,x 0 "o ( ! mo/ beautiful & rem>kable pa9t+s ( t arti/1 :o _h pass$ sev]al ye>s 9 ! ,capitol ( ,f9e ,arts 9 ,italy1 :]e he _h ga9$ a v good reputation = 8 ability4 ,?ree mon?s aft] my recov]y1 ,i 0 at ! p>sonage ( ! curate ( ,/4 ,anne1 ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,ranvoize1 a relative ( m9e4 ,he 0 ab\t #fd ye>s ( age1 v ri*1 & _h a magnific5t libr>y4 ,:5 "y he _h enjoy$ ! reputation ( be+ "o ( ! be/ prea*]s 9 ,canada4 ,nev] _h ,i be5 s sadd5$ & sc&aliz$ z ,i 0 by him on ?is occasion4 ,x 0 ev5+ :5 ,i arriv$ ) my tableau4 ,z soon z we 7 left alone1 ! old curate said3 8,is x possible1 my de> "y c\s91 t y w make su* a fool ( y\rself to-morr[8 ,t s-call$ miracul\s cure is no?+ b 8natur suprema vis10 z ! le>n$ ( all ages h call$ x4 ,y\r s-call$ vision 0 a dream ( y\r sickly bra91 z x g5]ally occurs at ! mom5t ( ! supreme crisis ( ! fev]4 ,x is :at is call$ ! 8turn+-po9t0 ( ! disease1 :5 a desp]ate ef=t ( nature kills or cures ! pati5t4 ,z = ! vision ( t beautiful girl1 :om y call ,/4 ,philom5e1 :o has done y s mu* good1 %e is n ! fir/ girl1 surely1 :o has come to y 9 y\r dreams1 & done y good60 ,at ^! words he laugh$ s he>tily t ,i fe>$ he w\ld split 8 sides4 ,twice he repeat$ ?is unbecom+ joke4 ,i 01 at fir/1 s %ock$ at ?is unexpect$ rebuke1 :i* ,i consid]$ z bord]+ on blasphemy1 t ,i came v ne> tak+ my hat1 )\t answ]+ a ^w1 to g & sp5d ! night at 8 bro!r's2 b1 aft] a mom5t's reflection1 ,i said to him3 8,h[ c y speak ) su* levity on s solemn a ?+8 ,d y n believe 9 ! p[] ( ! sa9ts1 :o1 be+ m holy & pure ?an we are1 see ,god face to face1 speak to ,him & obta9 favors :i* he w\ld refuse to u rebels8 ,are y n ! daily witness ( ! miracul\s cures wr\ght 9 y\r own *ur*1 "u y\r own eyes8 ,:y ^? ?\s&s ( crut*es :i* lit]ally cov] ! walls ( y\r *ur*80 ,my /rong fai?1 & ! e>ne/ness ( my appeal to ! daily miracles ( :i* he 0 ! witness1 & above all1 ! m5tion ( ! numb]less crut*es susp5d$ all ov] ! walls ( 8 *ur*1 br\ght aga9 f him su* a ,hom]ic laugh1 t ,i 0 disconc]t$ & sadd5$ beyond measure4 ,i rema9$ absolutely mute2 ,i wi%$ ,i _h nev] come into su* company4 ,:5 he _h laugh$ at me to 8 he>t's cont5t1 he said3 8,my de> c\s91 y are ! fir/ "o to :om ,i speak 9 ?is way4 ,i d x because1 fir/3 ,i consid] y a man ( intellig5ce1 & hope y w und]/& me4 ,secondly3 because y are my c\s94 ,7 y "o ( ^? idiotic prie/s1 real blockheads1 :o =m ! cl]gy ( to-day2 or1 7 y a /rang] to me1 ,i w\ld let y g y\r way1 & believe 9 ^? ridicul\s1 degrad+ sup]/itions ( our poor ignorant & bl9d p1 b ,i "k y f y\r infancy1 & ,i h kn[n y\r fa!r1 :o 0 "o ( my de>e/ fri5ds2 ! blood :i* fl[s 9 y\r ve9s1 passes ?\s&s ( times e day ?r\gh my he>t4 ,y are v "y & ,i v old4 ,x is a duty ( honor & consci5ce 9 me to reveal to y a ?+ :i* ,i h ?\ght bett] to keep till n[1 a secret betwe5 ,god & myself4 ,i h be5 "h m ?an ?irty ye>s1 & ?\gh our c\ntry is con/antly fill$ ) ! noise ( ! great & small miracles wr\ght 9 my *ur*1 e day1 ,i am ready to swe> be=e ,god1 & to prove to any man ( common s5se1 t n a s+le miracle has be5 wr\ght 9 my *ur* s9ce ,i h come "h4 ,e "o ( ! facts giv5 to ! ,canadian p z miracul\s cures1 are %e] impositions1 deceptions1 ! "w ( ei!r fools1 or ! "w ( skillful impo/ors & hypocrites1 :e!r prie/s or laym54 ,believe me1 my de> c\s91 ,i h /udi$ c>efully ! hi/ory ( all ^? crut*es4 ,n9ety-n9e out ( a hundr$ h be5 left by poor1 lazy begg>s1 :o1 at fir/1 ?\ght ) good reason t1 by walk+ f door to door ) "o or two crut*es1 !y w\ld create m sympa?y & br+ m into _! purses2 = h[ _m w indignantly turn out ( doors a lazy1 /rong & heal?ful begg>1 :o w feel great compassion1 & give l>gely to a man :o is crippl$1 unable to "w1 & =c$ to drag himself pa9fully on crut*es8 ,^? crut*es are1 !n1 passports f door to door4 ,!y are ! v keys to op5 bo? ! he>ts & purses4 ,b ! day comes :5 t begg> has b\ght a pretty good f>m ) 8 /ol5 alms2 or :5 he is really tir$1 disgu/$ ) 8 crut*es & wants to get rid ( !m6 ,h[ c he d t )\t compromis+ himself8 8,by a miracle6 ,!n1 he w sometimes travel aga9 hundr$s ( miles f door to door1 begg+ z usual1 b ?is "t1 he asks ! pray]s ( ! :ole family1 say+1 #8,i am go+ to ! #8good ,/4 ,anne du ,nord' to ask h] to cure my leg 7or legs74 ,i hope %e w cure me1 z %e has cur$ s _m o!rs1 ,i h great confid5ce 9 h] p[]6'0 8,ea* "o gives twice1 nay1 t5 times z mu* z be=e to ! poor cripple1 mak+ him promise t if he is cur$1 he w come back & %[ himself1 t !y may bless ! good ,/4 ,anne ) him4 ,:5 he arrives "h1 he gives me sometimes "o1 sometimes five doll>s1 to say mass = him4 ,i take ! money1 = ,i w\ld be a fool to refuse x :5 ,i "k t 8 purse has be5 s well fill$4 ,dur+ ! celebration ( ! mass1 :5 he receives ! communion1 ,i he> g5]ally1 a great noise1 cries ( joy6 ,a miracle6 ,a miracle66 ,! crut*es are ?r[n on ! floor1 & ! cripple walks z well z y or ,i6 ,& ! la/ act ( t religi\s com$y is ! mo/ lucrative "o1 = he fulfills 8 promise ( /opp+ at e h\se he _h ev] be5 se5 ) 8 crut*es4 ,he n>rates h[ he 0 miracul\sly cur$1 h[ 8 feet & legs became sudd5ly all "r4 ,te>s ( joy & admiration fl[ f e eye4 ,! la/ c5t ( t family is g5]ally giv5 to ! impo/or1 :o soon gr[s ri* at ! exp5se ( 8 dupes4 ,?is is ! pla91 b true /ory1 ( n9ety-n9e out ( e hundr$ ( ! cures wr\ght 9 my *ur*4 ,! hundr$?1 is ^u p z hone/1 b1 p>don me ! expression1 z bl9d & sup]/iti\s z y are2 !y are really cur$1 = !y 7 really sick4 ,b _! cures are ! natural effects ( ! great ef=ts ( ! w4 ,x is ! result ( a happy comb9ation ( natural causes :i* "w toge!r on ! frame1 & kill ! pa91 expel ! disease & re/ore to heal?1 j z ,i 0 cur$ ( a mo/ horrible too?a*e1 "s ye>s ago4 ,9 ! p>oxysm1 ,i w5t to ! d5ti/ & reque/$ him to extract ! affect$ too?4 ,h>dly _h 8 knife & o!r surgical in/rum5ts come be=e my eyes ?an ! pa9 disappe>$4 ,i quietly took my hat & left1 bidd+ a he>ty #8good-by' to ! d5ti/1 :o laugh$ at me e "t we met1 to 8 he>t's cont5t4 8,"o ( ! weake/ po9ts ( our religion is 9 ! ridicul\s1 ,i v5ture to say1 diabolical miracles1 p]=m$ & believ$ e day among u1 ) ! s-call$ relics & bones ( ! sa9ts4 8,b1 don't y "k t1 = ! mo/ "p1 ^! relics are no?+ b *ick5s' or %eeps' bones4 ,& :at c\ld n say1 7 ,i to tell y ( :at ,i "k ( ! daily miracul\s impo/ures ( ! scapul>s1 holy wat]1 *aplets & m$als ( e k9d4 ,7 ,i a pope1 ,i w\ld ?r[ all ^! mumm]ies1 :i* come f paganism1 to ! bottom ( ! sea1 & w\ld pres5t to ! eyes ( ! s9n]s1 no?+ b ,*ri/ & ,him crucifi$ z ! object ( _! fai?1 invocation & hope1 = ?is life & ! next1 j z ! ,apo/le ,paul1 ,pet] & ,james d 9 _! ,epi/les40 ,i _c repeat "h1 all t ,i he>d1 t night1 f t old relative1 aga9/ ! miracles1 relics1 scapul>s1 purgatory1 false sa9ts & ridicul\s practices ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome4 ,x w\ld take too long1 = he spoke ?ree h\rs z a real ,prote/ant4 ,sometimes :at he said to me seem$ accord+ to common s5se1 b z x 0 aga9/ ! practices ( my *ur*1 & aga9/ my p]sonal practices1 ,i 0 exce$+ly sc&aliz$ & pa9$1 & n at all conv9c$4 ,i piti$ him = hav+ lo/ 8 =m] fai? & piety4 ,i told him at ! end1 )\t c]emony3 8,i he>d1 long ago1 t ! bi%ops did n l y1 b ,i knew n :y4 ,h[ev]1 if !y c\ld he> :at y ?9k & say "h ab\t ! miracles ( ,/4 ,anne1 !y w\ld surely int]dict y40 8,w y betray me80 he add$1 8& w y report our conv]sation to ! bi%op80 8,no1 my c\s910 ,i repli$1 8,i w\ld pref] to be burn$ to a%es4 ,i w n sell y\r k9d hospitality = ! traitor's money40 ,x 0 two o'clock 9 ! morn+ :5 we p>t$ to g to our sleep+ rooms4 ,b t night 0 aga9 a sleepless "o to me4 ,0 x n too sad & /range = me to see t t old & le>n$ prie/ 0 secretly a ,prote/ant6 ,! next morn+1 ! cr[ds began to arrive1 n by hundr$s1 b by ?\s&s1 f ! surr\nd+ p>i%es4 ,! *annel betwe5 8,l',isle ,d',orleans0 & ,/4 ,anne1 0 lit]ally cov]$ ) boats ( e size1 lad5 ) m5 & wom5 :o want$ to he> f my own lips1 ! hi/ory ( my miracul\s cure1 & see1 ) _! own eyes1 ! picture ( ! two sa9ts :o _h appe>$ to me4 ,at #aj ,a4 ,m41 m ?an #aj1jjj p 7 cr[d$ inside & outside ! walls ( ! ,*ur*4 ,no words c give an idea ( my emotion & ( ! emotion ( ! multitude :51 aft] tell+ !m 9 a simple & pla9 way1 :at ,i !n consid]$ a miracul\s fact1 ,i disclos$ to _! eyes1 & pres5t$ x to _! admiration & wor%ip4 ,!re 7 te>s roll+ on e *eek & cries ( admiration & joy f e lip4 ,! picture repres5t$ me dy+ 9 my b$ ( suff]+s1 & ! two sa9ts se51 at a di/ance1 above me1 & /ret*+ _! h&s1 z if to say3 8,y w be cur$40 ,x 0 hung on ! walls1 9 a conspicu\s place1 :]e ?\s&s & ?\s&s h come to wor%ip x f t day to ! ye> #aheh1 :5 ! curate 0 ord]$ by ! bi%op to burn x1 = x _h pleas$ our m]ciful ,god1 t v ye>1 to take away ! scales :i* 7 on my eyes & %[ me 8 sav+ light1 & ,i _h publi%$ all ov] ,canada1 my t]rible1 ?\gh un9t5tional error1 9 believ+ 9 t false miracle4 ,i1 h[ev]1 0 hone/ 9 my belief 9 a miracul\s cure2 & ! app>ition ( ! two sa9ts _h left su* a deep impression on my m9d1 t1 ,i confess x to my %ame1 ! fir/ week aft] my conv]sion1 ,i v (t5 said to myself3 8,h[ is x t ,i n[ believe t ! ,*ur* ( ,rome is false1 :5 su* a miracle has be5 wr\ght on me z "o ( h] prie/s80 ,b1 our ,god1 ^: m]cies are inf9ite1 kn[+ my hone/y :5 a slave ( ,pop]y1 0 det]m9$ to give me ! full und]/&+ ( my errors 9 ?is way4 ,ab\t a mon? aft] my conv]sion1 9 #aheh1 ,i _h to visit a dy+ ,iri% conv]t f ,romanism1 :o _h caught 9 ,*icago1 ! same fev] :i* s ne>ly kill$ me at ! ,m>9e ,hospital ( ,quebec4 ,i aga9 caught ! disease1 & dur+ twelve days pass$ ?r\gh ! same tortures & suff]$ ! same agonies z 9 #ahcg4 ,b ?is "t1 ,i 0 really happy to die2 !re 0 no fe> = me to see ! good works z a gra9 ( s& 9 my favor1 & ! m\nta9s ( my iniquities 9 ! balance ( ,god aga9/ me4 ,i j _h giv5 up my ph>isaical hol9ess ( old2 x 0 no m 9 my good works1 my alms1 my p5ances1 my p]sonal ef=ts1 ,i 0 tru/+ to be sav$2 x 0 9 ,jesus alone4 ,my good works 7 no m put by me 9 ! balance ( ! ju/ice ( ,god to pay my debts & to appeal = m]cy4 ,x 0 ! blood ( ,jesus1 ! ,lamb sla9 f ! f\ndation ( ! _w = me1 :i* 0 9 ! balance4 ,x 0 ! te>s ( ,jesus1 ! nails1 ! cr[n ( ?orns1 ! heavy cross1 ! cruel dea? ( ,jesus only1 :i* 0 !re to pay my debts & to cry = m]cy4 ,i _h no fe> !n1 = ,i knew t ,i 0 sav$ by ,jesus1 & t t salvation 0 a p]fect act ( ,8 love1 ,8 m]cy & ,8 p[]2 ,i 0 glad to die4 ,b :5 ! doctor _h left me1 ! ?irte5? day ( my suff]+s1 say+ ! v same words ( ! doctors ( ,quebec3 8,he has only a few m9utes to live1 if he be n already dead10 ! k9d fri5ds :o 7 ar\nd my b$1 fill$ ! room ) _! cries6 ,al?\gh1 = ?ree or f\r days1 ,i _h n mov$ a f+]1 said a s+le ^w1 or giv5 any sign ( life1 ,i 0 p]fectly consci\s4 ,i _h he>d ! words ( ! doctor & ,i 0 glad to ex*ange ! mis]ies ( ?is %ort life = t et]nity ( glory :i* my ,savi\r _h b\ght = me4 ,i only regrett$ to die be=e br++ m ( my de> c\ntrym5 out ( ! idolatr\s religion ( ,rome1 & f ! lips ( my s\l1 ,i said3 8,de> ,jesus1 ,i am glad to g ) !e j n[1 b if x be ?y w to let me live a few ye>s m1 t ,i may spread ! light ( ! gospel among my c\ntrym52 grant me to live a few ye>s m1 & ,i w bless !e et]nally1 ) my conv]t$ c\ntrym51 = ?y m]cy40 ,?is pray] _h sc>cely rea*$ ! m]cy seat1 :5 ,i saw a doz5 bi%ops m>*+ t[>d me1 sword 9 h&1 to kill me4 ,z ! fir/ sword rais$ to /rike 0 com+ d[n to split my head1 ,i made a desp]ate ef=t1 wr5*$ x f ! h& ( my w\ld-be murd]]1 & /ruck su* a bl[ on 8 neck t ! head roll$ d[n to ! floor4 ,! second1 ?ird1 f\r?1 & s on to ! la/1 ru%$ to kill me2 b ,i /ruck su* t]rible bl[s on ! necks ( e "o ( !m1 t twelve heads 7 roll+ on ! floor & swimm+ 9 a pool ( blood4 ,9 my excitem5t1 ,i cri$ to my fri5ds ar\nd me3 8,d y n see ! heads roll+ & ! blood fl[+ on ! floor80 ,& sudd5ly ,i felt a k9d ( electric %ock f head to foot4 ,i 0 cur$6 p]fectly cur$66 ,i ask$ my fri5ds = some?+ to eat2 ,i _h n tak5 any food = twelve days4 ,& ) te>s ( joy & gratitude to ,god1 !y compli$ ) my reque/4 ,?is la/ cure 0 n only ! p]fect cure ( ! body1 b x 0 a p]fect cure ( ! s\l4 ,i und]/ood !n cle>ly t ! fir/ 0 n m miracul\s ?an ! second4 ,i _h a p]fect und]/&+ ( ! diabolical =g]ies & miracles ( ,rome4 ,i 0 n cur$ or sav$ by ! sa9ts1 ! bi%ops or ! ,popes1 b by my ,god1 ?r\gh 8 son ,jesus4 ,,*apt] ,,xxxiii4 ,,my ,,nom9ation ,,z ,,curate ,,( ,,beauport--,,degradation ,,& ,,ru9 ,,( ,,t ,,place ,,?r\gh ,,drunk5ness--,,my ,,opposition ,,to ,,my ,,nom9ation ,,useless--,,prep>ations ,,to ,,e/abli% ,a ,,temp]ance ,,society--,i ,,write ,,to ,,fa!r ,,ma!w ,,= ,,advice4 ,! #ba/ ( ,septemb]1 #ahch1 0 a day ( desolation to me4 ,on t day ,i receiv$ ! lett] ( my bi%op1 appo9t+ me curate ( ,beauport4 ,_m times1 ,i _h said to ! o!r prie/s1 :5 talk+ ab\t our *oice ( ! diff]5t p>i%es1 t ,i w\ld nev] cons5t to be curate ( ,beauport4 ,t p>i%1 :i* is a k9d ( a suburb ( ,quebec1 0 too ju/ly consid]$ ! v ne/ ( ! drunk>ds ( ,canada4 ,) a soil ( unsurpass$ f]tility1 inexhau/ible lime qu>ries1 g>d5s cov]$ ) mo/ preci\s vegetables & fruits1 =e/s ne> at h& to furni% wood to ! city ( ,quebec1 at _! doors1 ! p ( ,beauport 71 nev]!less1 class$ among ! poore/1 mo/ ragg$ & wret*$ p ( ,canada4 ,= almo/ e c5t !y 7 gett+ at ! m>ket w5t into ! h&s ( ! saloon-keep]s4 ,hundr$s ( times ,i _h se5 ! /reets :i* l$ f ,/4 ,ro* to ! upp] t[n ( ,quebec almo/ impassable1 :5 ! drunk>ds ( ,beauport 7 leav+ ! m>ket to g home4 ,h[ _m times ,i he>d !m fill ! air ) _! cries & blasphemies2 & saw ! /reets r$d5$ ) _! blood1 :5 fight+ ) "o ano!r1 l mad dogs4 ,! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,beg91 :o 0 _! cure s9ce #ahbe1 _h accept$ ! moral pr9ciples ( ! great ,roman ,ca?olic 8,!ologia ,liguori10 :i* says1 8t a man is n guilty ( ! s9 ( drunk5ness1 s long z he c di/+ui% betwe5 a small p9 & a load ( hay40 ,( c\rse ! p w\ld n f9d !mselves guilty ( s9 s long z _! eyes c\ld make t di/9ction4 ,aft] weep+ to my he>t's cont5t at ! read+ ( ! lett] f my bi%op1 :i* _h come to me z a ?und]bolt1 my fir/ ?\ght 0 t my mis=tune1 ?\gh v great1 0 n irretrievable4 ,i knew t !re 7 _m prie/s :o 7 z anxi\s to become curates ( ,beauport z ,i 0 oppos$ to x4 ,my hope 0 t ! bi%op w\ld be t\*$ by my te>s1 if n conv9c$ by my argum5ts1 & t he w\ld n p]si/ 9 putt+ on my %\ld]s a burd5 :i* !y c\ld n c>ry4 ,i imm$iately w5t to ! palace1 & did all 9 my p[] to p]suade 8 lord%ip to select ano!r prie/ = ,beau=t4 ,he li/5$ to my argum5ts ) a good deal ( pati5ce & k9dness1 & answ]$3 8,my de> ,mr4 ,*9iquy1 y =get too (t5 t #8implicit & p]fect ob$i5ce' to 8 sup]iors is ! virtue ( a good prie/8 ,y h giv5 me a great deal ( tr\ble & disappo9tm5t by refus+ to relieve ! good ,bi%op ,prov5*] ( 8 too heavy burd54 ,x 0 at my sugge/ion1 y "k v well1 t he _h select$ y to be 8 co-work] along ! coa/s ( ! ,pacific1 by cons5t+ to become ! fir/ ,bi%op ( ,oregon4 ,y\r ob/9ate resi/ance to y\r sup]iors 9 t circum/ance1 & 9 sev]al o!r cases1 is "o ( y\r weak po9ts4 ,if y cont9ue to foll[ y\r own m9d r ?an obey ^? :om ,god has *os5 to guide y1 ,i really fe> = y\r future4 ,i h already too (t5 yield$ to y\r rebelli\s "*4 ,?r\gh respect to myself1 & = y\r own good1 to-day ,i mu/ =ce y to obey me4 ,y h spok5 ( ! drunk5ness ( ! p ( ,beauport1 z "o ( ! reasons :y ,i %\ld n put y at ! head ( t p>i%2 b ?is is j "o ( ! reasons :y ,i h *os5 y4 ,y are ! only prie/ ,i "k1 9 my diocese1 able to /ruggle aga9/ ! long-root$ & dete/able evil1 ) a hope ( success4 8#8,quod scriptum scriptum e/4' ,y\r "n is ent]$ 9 our (ficial regi/]s z ! curate ( ,beauport2 x w rema9 !re till ,i f9d bett] reasons ?an ^? y h giv5 me to *ange my m9d4 ,aft] all1 y _c compla92 ,beauport is n only ! mo/ beautiful p>sonage 9 ,canada1 b x is "o ( ! mo/ spl5did spots 9 ! _w4 ,9 y\r beautiful p>sonage1 at ! door ( ! old capital ( ,canada1 y w h ! privileges ( ! city1 & ! enjoym5ts ( "s ( ! mo/ spl5did sc5]y ( ?is cont95t4 ,if y are n satisfi$ ) me to-day1 ,i d n "k :at ,i c d to please y40 ,?\gh f> f be+ reconcil$ to my new position1 ,i saw !re 0 no help2 ,i _h to obey4 ,z my pr$ecessor1 ,mr4 ,beg91 0 to sell all 8 h\se furniture1 be=e tak+ *>ge ( 8 f> di/ant p>i%1 ,la ,rivi]e ,ouelle1 he k9dly invit$ me to g & buy1 on long cr$it1 :at ,i wi%$ = my own use1 :i* ,i did4 ,! :ole p>i% 0 on ! spot long be=e me1 p>tly to %[ _! fri5dly sympa?y = _! late pa/or1 & p>tly to see _! new curate4 ,i 0 n long 9 ! cr[d )\t see+ t my small /ature & my leanness 7 mak+ a v bad impression on ! p1 :o 7 accu/om$ to pay _! respects to a comp>atively tall man1 ^: l>ge & squ>e %\ld]s 7 putt+ me 9 ! %ade4 ,_m jovial rem>ks1 ?\gh made 9 half-suppress$ tones1 came to my e>s1 to tell me t ,i 0 cutt+ a poor figure by ! side ( my jolly pr$ecessor4 8,he is h>dly bigg] ?an my tobacco-box10 said "o n f> f me2 8,i ?9k ,i c\ld put him 9 my ve/ pocket40 8,has he n ! appe>ance ( a salt$ s>d9e60 :isp]$ a woman to h] neighbor1 ) a he>ty laugh4 ,_h ,i be5 a little wis]1 ,i c\ld h r$eem$ myself by "s amiable or funny words1 :i* w\ld h s\nd$ pleasantly 9 ! e>s ( my new p>i%ion]s4 ,b1 un=tunately = me1 t wisdom is n among ! gifts ,i receiv$ f nature4 ,aft] a c\ple ( h\rs ( auction1 a l>ge clo? 0 sudd5ly remov$ f a long table1 & pres5t$ to our sight an incr$ible numb] ( w9e & be]-glasses1 ( empty decant]s & bottles ( all sizes & quality4 ,?is br\ght a bur/ ( laught] & clapp+ ( h&s f almo/ e "o4 ,all eyes 7 turn$ t[>d me1 & ,i he>d f hundr$s ( lips3 8,?is is = y1 ,mr4 ,*9iquy40 ,)\t weigh+ my words1 ,i in/antly answ]$3 8,i d n come to ,beauport to buy w9e glasses & bottles1 b to break !m40 ,^! words fell ^u _! e>s l a sp>k ( fire on a tra9 ( p[d]4 ,n9e-t5?s ( ! multitude1 )\t be+ v drunk1 _h empti$ f f\r to t5 glasses ( be] or rum1 :i* ,rev4 ,mr4 ,beg9 himself 0 (f]+ !m 9 a corn] ( ! p>sonage4 ,a real deluge ( insults & curs+s ov]:elm$ me2 & ,i soon saw t ! be/ ?+ ,i c\ld d 0 to leave ! place )\t noise1 & by ! %orte/ way4 ,i imm$iately w5t to ! bi%op's palace to try aga9 to p]suade 8 lord%ip to put ano!r curate at ! head ( su* a p4 8,y see1 my "l10 ,i said1 8t by my indiscreet & ra% answ] ,i h =ev] lo/ ! respect & confid5ce ( t p4 ,!y already hate me2 _! brutal curs+s h fall5 ^u me l balls ( fire4 ,i pref] to be c>ri$ to my grave next ,sabba? ?an h to address su* a degrad$ p4 ,i feel t ,i h nei!r ! moral nor ! physical p[] to d any good !re40 8,i diff] f y10 repli$ ! bi%op1 8,evid5tly ! p want$ to try y\r mettle1 by invit+ y to buy ^? glasses1 & y w\ld h lo/ y\rself by yield+ to _! desire4 ,n[ !y h se5 t y are brave & fe>less4 ,x is j :at ! p ( ,beauport want2 ,i h kn[n !m = a long "t4 ,x is true t !y are drunk>ds2 b1 ap>t f t vice1 !re is n a nobl] p "u heav54 ,!y h1 lit]ally1 no education1 b !y possess m>vell\s common s5se1 & h _m noble & r$eem+ qualities1 :i* y w soon f9d out4 ,y took !m by surprise :5 y boldly said y want$ to break _! glasses & decant]s4 ,believe me1 !y w bless y if1 by ! grace ( ,god1 y fulfill y\r prophecy2 ?\gh x w be a miracle if y succe$ 9 mak+ ! p ( ,beauport sob]4 ,b y mu/ n despair4 ,tru/ 9 ,god2 fight z a good soldi]1 & ,jesus ,*ri/ w w9 ! victory40 ,^? k9d words ( my bi%op did me good1 ?\gh ,i w\ld h pref]r$ be+ s5t to ! back woods ( ,canada1 ?an to ! great p>i% ( ,beauport4 ,i felt t ! only ?+ t ,i _h to d 0 to tru/ 9 ,god = success1 & to fight z if ,i 7 to ga9 ! day4 ,x came to my m9d t ,i _h committ$ a great s9 by ob/9ately refus+ to become bi%op ( ,oregon1 & my ,god1 z a puni%m5t1 _h giv5 me ! v p>i% = :i* ,i felt an almo/ insurm\ntable repugnance4 ,! next ,sunday 0 a spl5did day1 & ! *ur* ( ,beauport 0 fill$ to its utmo/ capacity by ! p1 eag] to see & he>1 = ! fir/ "t1 _! new pa/or4 ,i _h sp5t ! la/ ?ree days 9 pray]s & fa/+s4 ,god kn[s t nev] a prie/1 nor any m9i/] ( ! gospel1 asc5d$ ! pulpit ) m exalt$ views ( 8 sublime functions ?an ,i did t day1 & nev] a mess5g] ( ! gospel _h be5 m t]rifi$ ?an ,i 01 :5 9 t pulpit1 by ! consci\sness ( 8 own dem]its1 inability & incompet5cy1 9 ! face ( ! trem5d\s responsibilities ( 8 position4 ,my fir/ s]mon 0 on ! text3 8,woe unto me if ,i prea* n ! gospel0 7#a ,cor4 ix43#af74 ,) a s\l & he>t fill$ ) ! pr(\nde/ emotions1 a voice _m times suffocat$ by uncontrollable sobs1 ,i exp\nd$ to !m "s ( ! awful responsibilities ( a pa/or4 ,! effect ( t s]mon 0 felt to ! la/ day ( my prie/ly m9i/ry 9 ,beauport4 ,aft] ! s]mon1 ,i told !m3 8,i h a favor to ask ( y4 ,z x is ! fir/1 ,i hope y w n rebuke me4 ,i h1 j n[1 giv5 y "s ( ! duties ( y\r poor "y curate t[>d y2 ,i want y to come aga9 ?is aft]noon at half-pa/ two o'clock1 t ,i may give y "s ( y\r duties t[>d y\r pa/or40 ,at ! appo9t$ h\r ! *ur* 0 /ill m cr[d$ ?an 9 ! morn+1 & x seem$ to me t my m]ciful ,god bless$ /ill m t second address ?an ! fir/4 ,! text 03 8,:5 he 7! %eph]d7 putte? =? 8 own %eep1 he goe? be=e !m1 & ! %eep foll[ him1 = !y "k 8 voice40 7,john x43#d47 ,^? two s]mons on ! ,sabba? 7 a />tl+ innovation 9 ! ,roman ,ca?olic ,*ur* ( ,canada1 :i* br\ght ^u me1 at once1 _m bitt] rem>ks f ! bi%op & surr\nd+ curates4 ,_! unanim\s v]dict 0 t ,i want$ to become a little re=m]4 ,!y _h n ! lea/ d\bt t 9 my pride ,i want$ to %[ to ! p 8t ,i 0 ! mo/ zeal\s prie/ ( ! c\ntry40 ,?is 0 n only :isp]$ f e> to e> among ! cl]gy1 b sev]al times x 0 ?r[n into my face 9 ! mo/ insult+ mann]4 ,h[ev]1 my ,god knew t my only motives 71 fir/1 to keep my p away f ! tav]ns1 by hav+ !m be=e _! alt>s dur+ ! greate/ "p ( ! ,sabba? day2 second1 to impress m on _! m9ds ! great sav+ & reg5]at+ tru?s ,i prea*$1 by pres5t+ !m twice on ! same day "u diff]5t aspects4 ,i f\nd su* b5efits f ^? two s]mons t ,i cont9u$ ! practice dur+ ! f\r ye>s ,i rema9$ 9 ,beauport1 ?\gh ,i _h to suff] & he> 9 sil5ce1 _m humiliat+ & cutt+ rem>ks f _m co-prie/s4 ,i _h n be5 m ?an ?ree mon?s at ! head ( t p>i%1 :5 ,i det]m9$ to organize a temp]ance society on ! same pr9ciples z ,fa!r ,ma!w1 9 ,irel&4 ,i op5$ my m9d1 at fir/1 on t subject to ! bi%op1 ) ! hope t he w\ld ?r[ ! influ5ce ( 8 position 9 favor ( ! new association1 b1 to my great dismay & surprise1 n only did he turn my project into ridicule1 b absolutely =bade me to ?9k any m ( su* an innovation4 8,^? temp]ance societies are a ,prote/ant s*eme10 he said4 8,prea* aga9/ drunk5ness1 b let ! respectable p :o are n drunk>ds alone4 ,/4 ,paul advis$ 8 disciple ,timo?y to dr9k w9e4 ,d n try to be m zeal\s ?an !y 7 9 ^? apo/olic days40 ,i left ! bi%op mu* disappo9t$1 b did n give up my plan4 ,x seem$ to me if ,i c\ld ga9 ! neighbor+ prie/s to jo9 ) me 9 my crusade ,i want$ to prea* aga9/ ! usage ( intoxicat+ dr9ks1 we might br+ ab\t a glori\s re=m 9 ,canada1 z ,fa!r ,ma!w 0 do+ 9 ,irel&4 ,b ! prie/s1 )\t a s+le exception1 laugh$ at me1 turn$ my plans into ridicule1 & reque/$ me 9 ! "n ( common s5se1 nev] to speak any m to !m ( giv+ up _! social glass ( w9e4 ,i %all nev] be able to give any idea ( my sadness1 :5 ,i saw t ,i 0 to be oppos$ by my bi%op & ! :ole cl]gy 9 ! re=m :i* ,i consid]$ !n1 m & m e day1 ! only plank ( salvation1 n only ( my de> p ( ,beauport1 b ( all ,canada4 ,god alone kn[s ! te>s ,i %$1 ! long1 sleepless nights ,i h pass$ 9 /udy+1 pray+1 m$itat+ on t great & holy "w ( ,beauport4 ,i _h rec\rse to all ! sa9ts ( heav5 = m /r5g? & light2 = ,i 0 det]m9$1 at any co/1 to try & =m a temp]ance society4 ,b e "t ,i want$ to beg91 ,i 0 fright5$ by ! idea1 n only ( ! wra? ( ! :ole cl]gy1 :i* w\ld hunt me d[n1 b /ill m ( ! ridicule ( ! :ole c\ntry1 :i* w\ld ov]:elm me 9 case ( a failure4 ,9 ^! p]plexities1 ,i ?\ght ,i w\ld d well to write to ,fa!r ,ma!w1 & ask him 8 advice & ! help ( 8 pray]s4 ,t noble apo/le ( temp]ance ( ,irel& answ]$ me 9 an eloqu5t lett]1 & press$ me to beg9 ! "w 9 ,canada z he _h done 9 ,irel&1 rely+ on ,god1 )\t pay+ any att5tion to ! opposition ( man4 ,! wise & ,*ri/ian words ( t great & wor?y ,iri% prie/ came to me z ! voice ( ,god2 & ,i det]m9$ to beg9 ! "w at once1 ?\gh ! :ole _w %\ld be aga9/ me4 ,i felt t if ,god 0 9 my favor1 ,i w\ld succe$ 9 re=m+ my p>i% & my c\ntry 9 spite ( all ! prie/s & bi%ops ( ! _w1 & ,i 0 "r4 ,be=e putt+ ! pl[ into ! gr\nd1 ,i _h n only pray$ to ,god & all 8 sa9ts1 almo/ day & night1 dur+ _m mon?s1 b ,i _h /udi$ all ! be/ books writt5 9 ,engl&1 ,france & ! ,unit$ ,/ates on ! evil wr\ght by ! use ( intoxicat+ dr9ks4 ,i _h tak5 a pretty good c\rse ( anatomy 9 ! ,m>9e ,hospital "u ! le>n$ ,dr4 ,d\glas4 ,i 0 !n well po/$ on ! great subject ,i 0 to br+ be=e my c\ntry4 ,i knew ! enemy ,i 0 to attack4 ,& ! weapons :i* w\ld give him ! dea? bl[ 7 9 my h&s4 ,i only want$ my ,god to /r5g!n my h&s & direct my bl[s4 ,i pray$ to ,him1 & 9 ,8 great m]cy ,he he>d me4 ,,*apt] ,,xxxiv ,,! ,,h& ,,( ,,god ,,9 ,,! ,,e/abli%m5t ,,( ,,! ,,temp]ance ,,society ,,9 ,,beauport ,,& ,,vic9ity4 8,my ?\ghts are n y\r ?\ghts10 sai? ! ,"l4 ,&1 we may add1 ,8 works are n l ! works ( man4 ,?is great tru? has nev] be5 bett] exemplifi$ ?an 9 ! m>vell\s rapidity ) :i* ! great temp]ance re=mation grew 9 ,canada1 9 spite ( ! mo/ =midable ob/acles4 ,to praise any man = su* "w seems to me a k9d ( blasphemy1 :5 x is s visibly ! "w ( ! ,"l4 ,i _h h>dly f9i%$ read+ ! lett] ( ,irel&'s ,apo/le ( ,temp]ance1 :5 ,i fell on my knees & said3 8,?\ kn[e/1 ,o my ,god1 t ,i am no?+ b a s9n]4 ,!re is no light1 no /r5g?1 9 ?y poor1 unpr(itable s]vant4 ,!re=e come d[n into my he>t & s\l1 to direct me 9 t temp]ance re=m :i* ?\ ha/ put into my m9d to e/abli%4 ,)\t !e1 ,i c d no?+1 b ) !e1 ,i c d all ?+s40 ,?is 0 on ,saturday night1 ,m>* #bj?1 #ahci4 ,! next morn+ 0 ! fir/ ,sabba? ( ,l5t4 ,i said to ! p aft] ! s]mon3 8,i h told y1 _m times1 t ,i s9c]ely believe x is my mission f ,god to put an end to ! unspeakable mis]ies & crimes eng5d]$ e day1 "h & 9 our :ole c\ntry1 by ! use ( intoxicat+ dr9ks4 ,alcohol is ! greate/ enemy ( y\r s\ls & y\r bodies4 ,x is ! mo/ implacable enemy ( y\r husb&s1 y\r wives & y\r *ildr54 ,x is ! mo/ =midable enemy ( our de> c\ntry & our holy religion4 ,i mu/ de/roy t enemy4 ,b ,i _c fight alone4 ,i mu/ =m an army & raise a bann] 9 y\r mid/1 ar\nd :i* all ! soldi]s ( ! gospel w rally4 ,jesus ,*ri/ himself w be our g5]al4 ,he w bless & sanctify u--,he w lead u to victory4 ,! next ?ree days w be consecrat$ by y & by me 9 prep>+ to raise t army4 ,let all ^? :o wi% to fill its ranks1 come & pass ^! ?ree days ) me 9 pray] & m$itation at ! feet ( our sacr$ alt>s4 ,let ev5 ^? :o d n want to be soldi]s ( ,*ri/1 or to fight ! great & glori\s battles :i* are to be f\ght1 come1 ?r\gh curiosity1 to see a mo/ m>vell\s spectacle4 ,i invite e "o ( y1 9 ! "n ( our ,savi\r1 ,jesus ,*ri/1 :om alcohol nails anew to ! cross e day4 ,i invite y 9 ! "n ( ! holy ,virg9 ,m>y1 & ( all ! sa9ts & angels ( ,god1 :o are weep+ 9 heav5 = ! crimes committ$ e day by ! use ( intoxicat+ dr9ks4 ,i invite y 9 ! names ( ! wives1 :om ,i see "h 9 y\r mid/1 weep+ because !y h drunk>d husb&s4 ,i invite y to come 9 ! names ( ! fa!rs ^: he>ts are brok5 by drunk>d *ildr54 ,i invite y to come 9 ! "n ( s _m *ildr5 :o are />v+1 nak$ & made desolate by _! drunk>d p>5ts4 ,i invite y to come 9 ! "n ( y\r immortal s\ls1 :i* are to be et]nally damn$ if ! giant de/roy]1 ,alcohol1 be n driv5 f our mid/40 ,! next morn+1 at eight o'clock1 my *ur* 0 cramm$ by ! p4 ,my fir/ address 0 at half-pa/ eight o'clock1 ! second at #aj4cj ,a4 ,m41 ! ?ird at #b ,p4 ,m41 & ! f\r? at five4 ,! int]vals betwe5 ! addresses 7 fill$ by beautiful hymns select$ = ! occasion4 ,_m times dur+ my disc\rse1 ! sobs & ! cries ( ! p 7 su* t ,i _h to /op speak+1 to mix my sobs & my te>s ) ^? ( my p4 ,! fir/ day sev5ty-five m51 f among ! mo/ desp]ate drunk>ds1 enroll$ !mselves "u ! bann] ( ,temp]ance4 ,! second day ,i gave aga9 f\r addresses1 ! effects ( :i* 7 /ill m bless$ 9 _! result4 ,two hundr$ ( my de> p>i%ion]s 7 enroll$ 9 ! gr& army :i* 0 to fight aga9/ _! implacable enemy4 ,b x w\ld require ! h& ( an angel to write ! hi/ory ( ! ?ird day1 at ! end ( :i*1 9 ! mid/ ( te>s1 sobs1 & cries ( joy1 ?ree hundr$ m ( t noble p swore1 9 ! pres5ce ( _! ,god1 nev] to t\*1 ta/e1 nor h&le ! curs$ dr9ks ) :i* ,satan inundates ! e>? ) desolation1 & fills hell ) et]nal cries ( despair4 ,dur+ ^! ?ree days1 m ?an two-?irds ( my p _h publicly tak5 ! pl$ge ( temp]ance1 & _h solemnly said1 9 ! pres5ce ( ,god1 at ! feet ( _! alt>s1 8,= ! love ( ,jesus ,*ri/1 & by ! grace ( ,god1 ,i promise t ,i w nev] take any intoxicat+ dr9k1 except z a m$ic9e4 ,i also pl$ge myself to d all 9 my p[]1 by my words & example1 to p]suade o!rs to make ! same sacrifice40 ,! majority ( my p1 among :om we c\nt$ ! mo/ degrad$ drunk>ds1 7 *ang$ & re=m$1 n by me surely1 b by ! visible1 direct "w ( ! great & m]ciful ,god1 :o alone c *ange ! he>t ( man4 ,z a great numb] ( p f ! surr\nd+ p>i%es1 & ev5 f ,quebec1 _h come to he> me ! ?ird day1 ?r\gh curiosity1 ! news ( t m>vell\s "w spread v quickly ?r\gh\t ! :ole c\ntry4 ,! press1 bo? ,fr5* & ,engli%1 7 unanim\s 9 _! praises & felicitations4 ,b :5 ! ,prote/ants ( ,quebec 7 bless+ ,god = t re=m1 ! ,fr5* ,canadians1 at ! example ( _! prie/s1 d5\nc$ me z a fool & h]etic4 ,! second day ( our revival1 ,i _h s5t messages to f\r ( ! neighbor+ curates1 respectfully reque/+ !m to come & see :at ! ,"l 0 do+1 & help me to bless ,him4 ,b !y refus$4 ,!y answ]$ my note ) _! contemptu\s sil5ce4 ,"o only1 ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,roy1 curate ( ,*>lesb\rg1 deign$ to write me a few words1 :i* ,i copy "h3 ,rev4 ,mr4 ,*9iquy1 ,curate ( ,beauport4 ,my de> ,confr]e3--,please =give me if ,i _c =get ! respect ,i owe to myself1 en\gh to g & see y\r fool]ies4 ,truly y\rs1 ,,pi]re ,,roy4 ,*>lesb\rg1 ,m>* #e?1 #ahci4 ,! indignation ( ! bi%op knew no b\nds4 ,a few days aft]1 he ord]$ me to g to 8 palace1 & give an acc\nt ( :at he call$ my 8/range conduct40 ,:5 alone ) me1 he said3 8,is x possible1 ,mr4 ,*9iquy1 t y h s soon =gott5 my prohibition n to e/abli% t ridicul\s temp]ance society 9 y\r p>i%8 ,_h y compromis$ y\rself alone by t ,prote/ant com$y--= x is no?+ b t--,i w\ld rema9 sil5t1 9 my pity = y4 ,b y h compromis$ our holy religion by introduc+ a society ^: orig9 is cle>ly h]etical4 ,la/ ev5+1 ! v5]able ,gr& ,vic> ,dem>s told me t y w\ld soon] or lat] become a ,prote/ant1 & t ?is 0 y\r fir/ /ep4 ,d y n see t ! ,prote/ants only praise y8 ,d y n blu% to be prais$ only by h]etics8 ,)\t suspect+ x1 y are j ent]+ a road :i* leads to y\r ru94 ,y h publicly cov]$ y\rself ) su* ridicule t ,i fe> y\r usefulness is at an end1 n only 9 ,beauport1 b 9 all my diocese4 ,i d n conceal x f y1 my fir/ ?\ght1 :51 an eye-witness told me ye/]day :at y _h done1 0 to int]dict y4 ,i h be5 prev5t$ f tak+ t /ep only by ! hope t y w undo :at y h done4 ,i hope t y y\rself w dissolve t ,anti-,ca?olic association1 & promise to put an end to ^! novelties1 :i* h too /rong a smell ( h]esy to be tol]at$ by y\r bi%op40 ,i answ]$3 8,my "l1 y\r lord%ip has n =gott5 t x 0 absolutely aga9/ my own w t ,i 0 appo9t$ curate ( ,beauport2 & ,god kn[s t y h only to say a ^w1 & )\t a murmur1 ,i w give y my resignation1 t y may put a bett] prie/ at ! head ( t p1 :i* ,i consid]1 & :i* is really1 to-day1 ! noble/ & ! mo/ sob] p ( ,canada4 ,b ,i w put a condition to ! resignation ( my position4 ,x is1 t ,i w be all[$ to publi% be=e ! _w1 t ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,beg91 my pr$ecessor1 has nev] be5 tr\bl$ by 8 bi%op = hav+ all[$ 8 p1 dur+ tw5ty-?ree ye>s1 to swim 9 ! mire ( drunk5ness2 & t ,i h be5 disgrac$ by my bi%op1 & turn$ out f t same p>i%1 = hav+ be5 ! in/rum5t1 by ! m]cy ( ,god1 9 mak+ !m ! mo/ sob] p ( ,canada40 ,! poor bi%op felt at once t he c\ld n /& on ! gr\nd he _h tak5 ) me4 ,he 0 a few m9utes )\t kn[+ :at to say4 ,he saw also t 8 ?reats _h no influ5ce ov] me1 & t ,i 0 n ready to undo :at ,i _h done4 ,aft] a pa9ful sil5ce ( a m9ute or two1 he said3 8,d y n see t ! solemn promises y h extort$ f ^? poor drunk>ds are ra% & unwise2 !y w break !m at ! fir/ opportunity4 ,_! future /ate ( degradation1 aft] su* an excitem5t1 w be worse ?an ! fir/40 ,i answ]$3 8,i w\ld p>take ( y\r fe>s if t *ange 7 my "w2 b z x is ! ,"l's "w1 we h no?+ to fe>4 ,! works ( m5 are weak & ( %ort duration1 b ! works ( ,god are solid & p]man5t4 8,ab\t ! prophecy ( ! v5]able ,mr4 ,dem>s1 t ,i h tak5 my fir/ /ep t[>ds ,prote/antism1 by turn+ a drunk5 into a sob] p1 ,i h only to say t if t prophecy be true1 x w\ld %[ t ,prote/antism is m apt ?an our holy religion to "w = ! glory ( ,god & ! good ( ! p4 ,i hope t y\r lord%ip is n ready to accept t conclusion1 & t y w n !n tr\ble y\rself ) ! premises4 ,! v5]able ,gr& ,vic>1 ) _m o!r prie/s1 w\ld d bett] to come & see :at ! ,"l is do+ 9 ,beauport1 ?an to sl&] me & turn false prophets aga9/ its curate & p4 ,my only answ] to ! rem>ks ( y\r lord%ip1 t ! ,prote/ants alone praise me1 :5 ! ,roman ,ca?olic prie/s & p condemn me1 proves only "o ?+1 viz43 t ,prote/ants1 on ?is "q1 und]/& ! ,^w ( ,god & h m respect = x ?an we ,roman ,ca?olics4 ,x w\ld prove also t !y und]/& ! int]e/s ( humanity bett] ?an we d1 & t !y h m g5]osity ?an we h1 to sacrifice _! selfi% prop5sities to ! good ( all4 ,i take ! lib]ty ( say+ to y\r lord%ip1 t 9 ?is1 z 9 _m o!r ?+s1 x is high "t t we %\ld op5 our eyes to our false position4 ,in/ead ( rema9+ at ! l[e/ /ep ( ! ladd] ( "o ( ! mo/ ,*ri/ian virtues1 temp]ance1 we mu/ raise ourselves to ! top1 :]e ,prote/ants are reap+ s _m preci\s fruits4 ,besides1 w\ld y\r lord%ip be k9d en\gh to tell me :y ,i am d5\nc$ & abus$ "h1 & by my fell[-prie/s & my bi%op1 = =m+ a temp]ance society 9 my p>i%1 :5 ,fa!r ,ma!w1 :o wrote to me lately to enc\rage & direct me 9 t "w1 is publicly prais$ by 8 bi%ops & bless$ by ! ,pope = cov]+ ,irel& ) temp]ance societies8 8,is y\r lord%ip ready to prove to me t ,samson 0 a h]etic 9 ! camp ( ,israel1 :5 he fulfill$ ! promise made by 8 p>5ts1 t he w\ld nev] dr9k any w9e or be]2 & ,john1 ! ,bapti/1 0 he n a h]etic & a ,prote/ant z ,i am1 :51 to obey ! voice ( ,god1 he did :at ,i d to-day1 ) my de> p ( ,beauport80 ,at t v mom5t ! sub-secret>y ent]$ to tell ! bi%op t a g5tleman want$ to see him imm$iately on press+ bus9ess1 & ! bi%op abruptly dismiss$ me1 to my great com=t2 & my impression 0 t he 0 z glad to get rid ( me z ,i 0 to get rid ( him4 ,) ! exception ( ! secret>y1 ,mr4 ,cazeault1 all ! prie/s ,i met t day & ! next mon?1 ei!r gave me ! cold %\ld] or ov]:elm$ me ) _! s>casms4 ,"o ( !m :o _h fri5ds 9 ,beauport1 0 bold en\gh to try to g ?r\gh ! :ole p>i% to turn me into ridicule by say+ t ,i 0 half crazy1 & ! be/ ?+ ! p c\ld d 0 to dr9k mod]ately to my heal? :5 !y w5t to t[n4 ,b at ! ?ird h\se1 he met a woman1 :o1 aft] li/5+ to ! bad advice he 0 giv+ to h] husb&1 said to him3 8,i d n "k if our pa/or is a fool 9 mak+ p sob]1 b ,i "k y are a mess5g] ( ! devil1 :5 y advise my husb& to dr9k aga94 ,y "k t he 0 "o ( ! mo/ desp]ate drunk>ds ( ,beauport4 ,y p]sonally "k also :at bl[s ,i h receiv$ f him :5 he 0 drunk2 h[ poor & mis]able we 72 h[ _m *ildr5 _h to run on ! /reets1 half nak$1 & beg 9 ord] n to />ve ) me6 ,n[ t my husb& has tak5 ! pl$ge ( temp]ance1 we h e com=t2 my de> *ildr5 are well f$ & clo!d1 & ,i f9d myself z 9 a little p>adise4 ,if y d n g out ( ?is imm$iately1 ,i w turn y out ) my broom/ick40 ,& %e w\ld h fulfill$ h] promise1 _h n ! prie/ _h ! good s5se to disappe> at ! d\ble-quick4 ,! next f\r mon?s aft] ! f\ndation ( ! society 9 ,beauport1 my position :5 ) ! o!r prie/s 0 v pa9ful & humiliat+4 ,i consequ5tly avoid$ _! company z mu* z possible4 ,& z = my bi%op1 ,i took ! resolution nev] to g & see him1 except he %\ld ord] me into 8 pres5ce4 ,b my m]ciful ,god indemnifi$ me by ! unspeakable joy ,i _h 9 see+ ! m>vell\s *ange wr\ght by ,him among my de> p4 ,_! fidelity 9 keep+ ! pl$ge 0 really wond]ful1 & soon became ! object ( ! admiration ( ! :ole city ( ,quebec & ( ! surr\nd+ c\ntry4 ,! *ange 0 s sudd51 s complete & s p]man5t1 t ! sc(f+ bi%ops & prie/s1 ) _! fri5ds1 _h1 at la/1 to blu% & be sil5t4 ,! public aspect ( ! p>i% 0 soon *ang$1 ! h\ses 7 repair$1 ! debts paid1 ! *ildr5 well clad4 ,b :at spoke mo/ eloqu5tly ab\t ! m>vell\s re=m1 0 t ! sev5 ?riv+ saloons ( ,beauport 7 soon clos$1 & _! own]s =c$ to take to o!r occupations4 ,peace1 happ9ess1 abundance & indu/ry1 ev]y:]e took ! place ( ! riots1 fight+1 blasphemies & ! squalid mis]y :i* prevail$ be=e4 ,! gratitude & respect ( t noble p = _! "y curate knew no b\nds2 z my love & admiration = !m _c be told by human words4 ,h[ev]1 ?\gh ! great majority ( t good p _h tak5 ! pl$ge1 & kept x honorably1 !re 0 a small m9ority1 compos$ ( ! few :o nev] _h be5 drunk>ds1 :o _h n yet enroll$ !mselves "u our bless$ bann]s4 ,?\gh !y 7 glad ( ! re=m1 x 0 v difficult to p]suade !m to give up _! social glass6 ,i ?\ght x 0 my duty to %[ !m 9 a tangible way1 :at ,i _h s (t5 prov$ ) my words only1 t ! dr9k+ ( ! social glass ( w9e1 or ( be]1 is an act ( folly1 if n a crime4 ,i ask$ my k9d & le>n$ ,doctor ,d\glas to analyze1 be=e ! p1 ! v w9e & be] us$ by !m1 to %[ t x 0 no?+ else b a disgu/+ & deadly poison4 ,he grant$ my favor4 ,dur+ f\r days t noble philan?ropi/ extract$ ! alcohol1 :i* is n only 9 ! mo/ common1 b 9 ! mo/ co/ly & r5[n$ w9es1 be]1 br&y & :iskey4 ,he gave t alcohol to sev]al cats & dogs1 :i* di$ 9 a few m9utes 9 ! pres5ce ( ! :ole p4 ,^! le>n$ & mo/ int]e/+ exp]im5ts1 c\pl$ ) 8 eloqu5t & sci5tific rem>ks1 made a mo/ pr(\nd impression4 ,x 0 ! corn]-/one ( ! holy edifice :i* our m]ciful ,god built ) 8 own h&s 9 ,beauport4 ,! few recalcitrants jo9$ ) ! re/ ( _! de> fri5ds to %[ to our de> ,canada t ! temp]ance societies are no?+ else ?an drops ( liv+ wat] :i* comes f ! f\nta9s ( et]nal life1 to re=m & save ! _w4 ,,*apt] ,,xxxv4 ,,f\ndation ,,( ,,temp]ance ,,societies ,,9 ,,! ,,neighbor+ ,,p>i%es--,,provid5tial ,,arrival ,,( ,,monsignor ,,de ,,=b9 ,,janson1 ,,bi%op ,,( ,,nancy--,,he ,,publicly ,,def5ds ,,me ,,aga9/ ,,! ,,bi%op ,,( ,,quebec1 ,,& ,,=ev] ,,breaks ,,! ,,opposition ,,( ,,! ,,cl]gy4 ,! p ( ,beauport _h sc>cely be5 a ye> enroll$ "u ! bann]s ( temp]ance1 :5 ! sev5 ?riv+ tav]ns ( t p>i% 7 des]t$ & _! own]s =c$ to try "s m honorable trade = a liv+4 ,?is fact1 publi%$ by ! :ole press ( ,quebec1 m ?an any?+ =c$ ! oppon5ts1 especially among ! cl]gy1 to sil5ce1 )\t absolutely reconcil+ !m to my views4 ,h[ev]1 x 0 becom+ e day m & m evid5t to all t ! good done 9 ,beauport 0 incalculable1 bo? 9 a mat]ial & moral po9t ( view4 ,sev]al ( ! be/ ?9k+ p ( ! surr\nd+ p>i%es began to say to "o ano!r3 8,:y %\ld we n try to br+ into our mid/ ?is temp]ance re=mation :i* is do+ s mu* good 9 ,beauport80 ,! wives ( drunk>ds w\ld say3 8,:y does n our curate d "h1 :at ! curate ( ,beauport has done !re80 ,on a c]ta9 day1 "o ( ^? un=tunate wom51 :o _h receiv$1 ) a good education1 a ri* inh]itance1 :i* h] husb& _h sp5t 9 dissipation1 came to tell me t %e _h gone to h] curate to ask him to e/abli% a temp]ance society 9 8 p>i%1 z we _h done 9 ,beauport2 b he _h told h] 8to m9d h] own bus9ess40 ,%e _h !n respectfully reque/$ him to invite me to come & help to d = 8 p>i%ion]s :at ,i _h done = m9e1 b %e _h be5 /]nly rebuk$ at ! m5tion ( my "n4 ,! poor woman 0 weep+1 :5 %e said3 8,is x possible t our prie/s are s indiff]5t to our suff]+s1 & t !y w let ! demon ( drunk5ness torture u z long z we live1 :5 ,god gives u su* an easy & honorable way to de/roy 8 p[] = ev]80 ,my he>t 0 t\*$ by ! te>s ( t lady1 & ,i said to h]3 8,i "k a way to put an end to ! opposition ( y\r curate1 & =ce him to br+ among y ! re=mation y s mu* desire2 b x is a v delicate matt] = me to m5tion to y4 ,i mu/ rely ^u y\r sacr$ promise ( secrecy1 be=e op5+ my m9d to y on t subject40 8,i take my ,god to witness10 %e answ]$1 8t ,i w nev] reveal y\r secret40 8,well1 madame1 if ,i c rely ^u y\r discretion & secrecy1 ,i w tell y an infallible way to =ce y\r prie/ to d :at has be5 done "h40 8,oh6 = ,god's sake10 %e said1 8tell me :at to d40 ,i repli$3 8,! fir/ "t y g to confession1 say to y\r prie/ t y h a new s9 to confess :i* is v difficult to reveal to him4 ,he w press y m to confess x4 ,y w !n say3 8#8,fa!r1 ,i confess ,i h lo/ confid5ce 9 y4' ,be+ ask$ #8,:y8' y w tell him3 #8,fa!r1 y "k ! bad treatm5t ,i h receiv$ f my drunk5 husb&1 z well z hundr$s ( o!r wives 9 y\r p>i% f !irs2 y "k ! te>s we h %$ on ! ru9 ( our *ildr51 :o are de/roy$ by ! bad example ( _! drunk5 fa!rs2 y "k ! daily crimes & unspeakable abom9ations caus$ by ! use ( intoxicat+ dr9ks2 y c\ld dry our te>s & make u happy wives & mo!rs1 y c\ld conv]t our husb&s & save our *ildr51 by e/abli%+ ! society ( temp]ance "h1 z x is 9 ,beauport1 & y refuse to d x4 ,h[1 !n1 c ,i believe y are a good prie/1 & t !re is any *>ity & compassion 9 y = u8' 8,li/5 ) a respectful sil5ce to :at he w tell y2 accept 8 p5ance1 & :5 he asks y if y regret t s91 answ] him t y _c regret x till he has tak5 ! provid5tial means :i* ,god (f]s him to conv]t ! drunk>ds4 8,get z _m o!r wom5 :om y "k are suff]+ z y d1 z y c1 to g & confess to him ! same ?+2 & y w see t 8 ob/9ancy w melt z ! sn[ be=e ! rays ( ! sun 9 ,may40 ,%e 0 a v intellig5t lady3 ,%e saw at once t %e _h 9 h& an irresi/ible p[] to =ce h] prie/ out ( 8 %ameful & crim9al indiff]5ce to ! welf>e ( 8 p4 ,a =tnight lat] %e came to tell me t %e _h done :at ,i _h advis$ h]1 & t m ?an fifty o!r respectable wom5 _h confess$ to _! curate t !y _h lo/ confid5ce 9 him1 on acc\nt ( 8 lack ( zeal & *>ity = 8 p4 ,my conjectures 7 correct4 ,! poor prie/ 0 beside himself1 :5 =c$1 e day1 to he> f ! v lips ( 8 mo/ respectable female p>i%ion]s1 t !y 7 los+ confid5ce 9 him4 ,he fe>$ le/ he %\ld lose 8 f9e p>i% ne> ,quebec1 & be s5t to "s ( ! backwoods ( ,canada4 ,?ree weeks lat]1 he 0 knock+ at my door1 :]e he _h n be5 s9ce ! e/abli%m5t ( ! temp]ance society4 ,he 0 v pale1 & look$ anxi\s4 ,i c\ld see 9 8 c\nt5ance t ,i ow$ ! honor ( ?is visit to 8 fair p5it5ts4 ,h[ev]1 ,i 0 happy to see him4 ,he 0 consid]$ a good prie/1 & _h be5 "o ( my be/ fri5ds be=e ! =mation ( ! temp]ance society4 ,i invit$ him to d9e ) me1 & made him feel at home z mu* z possible1 = ,i knew by 8 emb>rass$ mann] t he _h a v difficult proposition to make4 ,i 0 n mi/ak54 ,he at la/ said3 8,mr4 ,*9iquy1 we _h1 at fir/1 great prejudices aga9/ y\r temp]ance society2 b we see its bless$ fruits 9 ! great trans=mation ( ,beauport4 ,w\ld y be k9d en\gh to prea* a retreat ( temp]ance1 dur+ ?ree days1 to my p1 z y h done "h80 ,i answ]$3 8,yes1 sir2 ) ! greate/ pleasure4 ,b x is on condition t y w y\rself be an example ( ! sacrifice1 & ! fir/ to take ! solemn pl$ge ( temp]ance1 9 ! pres5ce ( y\r p40 8,c]ta9ly10 he answ]$2 8= ! pa/or mu/ be an example to 8 p40 ,?ree weeks lat]1 8 p>i% _h nobly foll[$ ! example ( ,beauport1 & ! good curate _h no words to express 8 joy4 ,)\t los+ a day1 he w5t to ! two o!r curates ( :at is call$ 8,la ,cote de ,beaupre10 p]suad$ !m to d :at he _h done1 & six weeks aft]1 all ! saloons f ,beauport to ,/4 ,joa*im 7 clos$2 & x w\ld h be5 difficult1 if n impossible1 to p]suade any "o 9 t :ole region to dr9k a glass ( any intoxicat+ dr9k4 ,little by little1 ! c\ntry prie/s 7 ?us giv+ up _! prejudices1 & 7 bravely rally+ ar\nd our glori\s bann]s ( temp]ance4 ,b my bi%op1 ?\gh less sev]e1 0 /ill v cold t[>d me4 ,at la/1 ! good provid5ce ( ,god =c$ him1 ?r\gh a great humiliation1 to c\nt our society among ! greate/ spiritual & temporal bless+s ( ! age4 ,at ! end ( ,augu/1 #ahdj1 ! public press in=m$ u t ! ,c\nt de ,=b9 ,janson1 ,bi%op de ,nancy1 9 ,france1 0 j leav+ ,new ,york = ,montreal4 ,t bi%op1 :o 0 ! c\s9 & m9i/] to ,*>les ! ,t5?1 _h be5 s5t into exile by ! ,fr5* p1 aft] ! k+ _h lo/ 8 cr[n 9 ! ,revolution ( #ahcj4 ,fa!r ,ma!w _h told me1 9 "o ( 8 lett]s1 t ?is bi%op _h visit$ him1 & bless$ 8 "w 9 ,irel&1 & _h also p]suad$ ! ,pope to s5d him 8 apo/olical b5$iction4 ,i saw1 at once1 ! importance ( ga9+ ! approbation ( ?is celebrat$ man1 be=e he _h be5 prejudic$ by ! bi%op aga9/ our temp]ance societies4 ,i ask$ & obta9$ leave ( abs5ce = a few days1 & w5t to ,montreal1 :i* ,i rea*$ j an h\r aft] ! ,fr5* bi%op4 ,i w5t imm$iately to pay my homage to him1 told him all ab\t our temp]ance "w1 ask+ him1 9 ! "n ( ,god1 to ?r[ bravely ! weight ( 8 great "n & position 9 ! scale 9 favor ( our temp]ance societies4 ,he promis$ he w\ld1 add+3 8,i am p]fectly p]suad$ t drunk5ness is n only ! great & common s9 ( ! p1 b /ill m ( ! prie/s 9 ,am]ica1 z well z 9 ,irel&4 ,! social habit ( dr9k+ ! dete/able & poison\s w9es1 br&ies & be] us$ on ?is cont95t1 & 9 ! nor!rn p>ts ( ,europe1 :]e ! v9e _c gr[1 is s g5]al & /rong1 t x is almo/ impossible to save ! p f becom+ drunk>ds1 except ?r\gh an association 9 :i* ! elite ( society w "w toge!r to *ange ! old & p]nici\s habits ( common life4 ,i h se5 ,fa!r ,ma!w1 :o is do+ an incalculable good 9 ,irel&2 &1 be sure ( x1 ,i %all d all 9 my p[] to /r5g!n y\r h&s 9 t great & good "w4 ,b d n say to anybody t y h se5 me40 ,"s days lat]1 ! ,bi%op ( ,nancy 0 9 ,quebec1 ! gue/ ( ! ,sem9>y1 & a gr& d9n] 0 giv5 9 8 honor1 to :i* m ?an "o hundr$ prie/s 7 invit$1 ) ! ,ar*bi%op ( ,quebec1 8 coadjutor1 ,n4 ,g4 ,turgeon1 & ! ,bi%op ( ,montreal1 ,m4 ,q4 ,r4 ,b\rget4 ,z "o ( ! y\nge/ curates1 ,i _h tak5 ! la/ seat1 :i* 0 j opposite ! f\r bi%ops1 f :om ,i 0 sep>at$ only by ! bread? ( ! table4 ,:5 ! ri* & r>e vi&s _h be5 well dispos$ (1 & ! mo/ delicate fruits _h replac$ !m1 bottles ( ! *oice/ w9es 7 br\ght on ! table 9 incr$ible numb]s4 ,!n ! sup]ior ( ! college1 ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,dem>s1 knock$ on ! table to comm& sil5ce1 & ris+ on 8 feet1 he said at ! top ( 8 voice3 8,please1 my "l bi%ops1 & all ( y1 rev]5d g5tlem51 let u dr9k to ! heal? ( my ,"l ,c\nt de ,=b9 ,janson1 ,primate ( ,lorra9e & ,bi%op ( ,nancy40 ,! bottles pass+ ar\nd 7 briskly empti$ into ! l>ge glasses put be=e e "o ( ! gue/s4 ,b :5 ! w9e 0 h&$ to me1 ,i pass$ x to my neighbor )\t tak+ a drop1 & fill$ my glass ) wat]4 ,my hope 0 t nobody _h paid any att5tion to :at ,i _h done2 b ,i 0 mi/ak54 ,! eyes ( my bi%op1 my ,"l ,signaie1 7 ^u me4 ,) a /]n voice1 he said3 8,mr4 ,*9iquy1 :at are y do+ !re8 ,put w9e 9 y\r glass1 to dr9k ) u ! heal? ( ,mgr4 de ,nancy40 ,^! unexpect$ words fell ^u me z a ?und]bolt1 & p>alyz$ me ) t]ror4 ,i felt z at ! approa* ( ! mo/ t]rible tempe/ ,i _h ev] exp]i5c$4 ,my blood ran cold 9 my ve9s2 ,i c\ld n utt] a ^w4 ,= :at c\ld ,i say1 !re1 )\t compromis+ myself =ev]4 ,to op5ly resi/ my bi%op1 9 ! pres5ce ( su* an augu/ assembly1 seem$ impossible4 ,b to obey him 0 also impossible2 = ,i _h promis$ my ,god & my c\ntry nev] to dr9k any w9e4 ,i ?\ght1 at fir/1 t ,i c\ld dis>m my sup]ior by my mode/y & my humble sil5ce4 ,h[ev]1 ,i felt t all eyes 7 ^u me4 ,a real *ill ( t]ror & unspeakable anxiety 0 runn+ ?r\gh my :ole frame4 ,my he>t began to beat s viol5tly t ,i c\ld n brea!4 ,i wi%$1 !n1 ,i _h foll[$ my fir/ impression1 :i* 0 n to come to t d9n]4 ,i ?9k ,i w\ld h suffocat$1 _h n a few te>s roll$ d[n f my eyes1 & help$ ! circulation ( my blood4 ,! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,lafrance1 :o 0 by me1 nudg$ me1 & said3 8,d y n he> ! ord] ( my ,"l ,signaie8 ,:y d y n answ]1 by do+ :at y are reque/$ to d80 ,i /ill rema9$ mute1 j z if nobody _h spok5 to me4 ,my eyes 7 ca/ d[n2 ,i wi%$ !n ,i 7 dead4 ,! sil5ce ( dea?1 reign+ ar\nd ! tables1 told me t e "o 0 wait+ = my answ]2 b my lips 7 seal$4 ,aft] a m9ute ( t sil5ce1 :i* seem$ z long z a :ole ye>1 ! bi%op1 ) a l\d & angry voice :i* fill$ ! l>ge room1 repeat$3 8,:y d y n put w9e 9 y\r glass1 & dr9k to ! heal? ( my ,"l ,=b9 ,janson1 z ! re/ ( u are do+80 ,i felt ,i c\ld n be sil5t any long]4 8,my "l10 ,i said1 ) a subdu$ & trembl+ voice1 8,i h put 9 my glass :at ,i want to dr9k4 ,i h promis$ my ,god & my c\ntry t ,i w\ld nev] dr9k any m w9e40 ,! bi%op1 =gett+ ! respect he ow$ to himself & to ^? ar\nd him1 answ]$ me 9 ! mo/ insult+ mann]3 8,y are no?+ b a fanatic1 & y want to re=m u40 ,^! words /ruck me z ! %ock ( a galvanic batt]y1 & trans=m$ me into a new man4 ,x seem$ z if !y _h add$ t5 feet to my /ature & a ?\s& p\nds to my weight4 ,i =got t ,i 0 ! subject ( t bi%op1 & rememb]$ t ,i 0 a man1 9 ! pres5ce ( ano!r man4 ,i rais$ my head & op5$ my eyes2 z quick z lightn+ ,i rose to my feet1 & address+ ! ,gr& ,vic> ,dem>s1 sup]ior ( ! sem9>y1 ,i said ) calmness3 8,sir1 0 x t ,i might be insult$ at y\r table t y h invit$ me "h8 ,is x n y\r duty to def5d my honor :5 ,i am "h1 y\r gue/8 ,b1 z y seem to =get :at y owe to y\r gue/s1 ,i w take my own def5se aga9/ my unju/ aggressor40 ,!n1 turn+ t[>ds ! ,bi%op de ,nancy1 ,i said3 8,my ,"l de ,nancy1 ,i appeal to y\r lord%ip f ! unju/ s5t5ce ( my own bi%op4 ,9 ! "n ( ,god1 & ( ,8 ,son1 ,jesus ,*ri/1 ,i reque/ y to tell u1 "h1 if a prie/ _c1 = 8 ,savi\r's sake1 & = ! good ( 8 fell[-m51 z well z = 8 own self-d5ial1 give up =ev] ! use ( w9e & o!r intoxicat+ dr9ks1 )\t be+ abus$1 sl&]$ & insult$1 z ,i am "h1 9 y\r pres5ce80 ,x 0 evid5t t my words _h made a deep impression on ! :ole company4 ,a solemn sil5ce foll[$ = a few seconds1 :i* 0 int]rupt$ only by my bi%op1 :o said to ! ,bi%op de ,nancy3 8,yes1 yes1 my "l2 give u y\r s5t5ce40 ,no words c give an idea ( ! excitem5t ( e "o 9 t multitude ( prie/s1 :o1 accu/om$ f _! infancy1 abjectly to submit to _! bi%op1 71 = ! fir/ "t1 9 ! pres5ce ( su* a h&-to-h& conflict betwe5 a p[]less1 humble1 unprotect$ "y curate & 8 all-p[]ful1 pr\d & haughty ar*bi%op4 ,! ,bi%op ( ,nancy1 at fir/1 refus$ to grant my reque/4 ,he felt ! difficulty ( 8 position2 b aft] ,bi%op ,signaie _h unit$ 8 voice to m9e1 to press him to give 8 v]dict1 he rose & said3 8,my ,"l ,ar*bi%op ( ,quebec1 & y1 ,mr4 ,*9iquy1 please )draw y\r reque/4 ,d n press me to give my views on su* a new1 b important subject4 ,x is only a few days s9ce ,i came 9 y\r mid/4 ,x w n d t ,i %\ld s soon become y\r judge4 ,! responsibility ( a judgm5t 9 su* a mom5t\s matt] is too great4 ,i _c accept x40 ,b :5 ! same press+ reque/ 0 repeat$ by n9e-t5?s ( t va/ assembly ( prie/s2 & t ! ar*bi%op press$ him m & m to pron\nce 8 s5t5ce1 he rais$ 8 eyes & h&s to heav51 & made a sil5t b ard5t pray] to ,god4 ,8 c\nt5ance took an air ( dignity1 ,i might say maje/y1 :i* gave him m ! appe>ance ( an old prophet ?an ( a man ( our day4 ,!n1 ca/+ 8 eyes ^u 8 audi5ce1 he rema9$ a consid]able "t1 m$itat+4 ,all eyes 7 ^u him1 anxi\sly wait+ = ! s5t5ce4 ,!re 0 an air ( gr&eur 9 him1 at t mom5t1 :i* seem$ to tell u t ! pure/ blood ( ! great k+s ( ,france 0 fl[+ 9 8 ve9s4 ,at la/1 he op5$ 8 lips1 b x 0 aga9 press+ly to reque/ me to settle ! difficulty ) ! ar*bi%op among ourselves1 & to dis*>ge him ( t responsibility4 ,b we bo? refus$ aga9 to grant him 8 reque/1 & press$ him to give 8 judgm5t4 ,all ?is "t1 ,i 0 /&+1 hav+ publicly said t ,i w\ld nev] sit aga9 at t table1 unless t insult 0 wip$ away4 ,!n he said ) unspeakable dignity3 8,my ,"l ( ,quebec6 ,"h1 be=e u1 is our "y prie/1 ,mr4 ,*9iquy1 :o1 once on 8 knees1 9 ! pres5ce ( ,god & 8 angels1 = ! love ( ,jesus ,*ri/1 ! good ( 8 own s\l & ! good ( 8 c\ntry1 has promis$ nev] to dr9k6 ,we are ! witnesses t he is fai?ful to 8 promise1 ?\gh he has be5 press$ to break x by y\r lord%ip4 8,& because he keeps 8 pl$ge ) su* h]oism1 y\r lord%ip has call$ him a fanatic6 ,n[1 ,i am reque/$ by e "o "h1 to pron\nce my v]dict on t pa9ful occurr5ce4 ,"h x is6 ,mr4 ,*9iquy dr9ks no w9e6 ,b1 if ,i look ?r\gh ! pa/ ages1 :5 ,god himself 0 rul+ 8 own p1 ?r\gh 8 prophets1 ,i see ,samson1 :o1 by ! special ord] ( ,god1 nev] drank w9e or any o!r intoxicat+ dr9k6 ,if f ! ,old ,te/am5t1 ,i pass to ! ,new1 ,i see ,john ! ,bapti/1 ! precursor ( our ,savi\r ,jesus ,*ri/1 :o to obey ! comm& ( ,god1 nev] drank any w9e66 ,:5 ,i look at ,mr4 ,*9iquy1 & see ,samson at 8 "r h& to protect him2 & ,john ! ,bapti/ at 8 left to bless him1 ,i f9d 8 position s /rong & impregnable1 t ,i w\ld n d>e attack or condemn him60 ,^! words 7 pron\nc$ 9 ! mo/ eloqu5t & dignifi$ mann]1 & 7 li/5$ to ) a mo/ respectful & brea?less att5tion4 ,bi%op de ,nancy1 keep+ 8 gravity1 sat d[n1 empti$ 8 w9e glass into a tumbl]1 fill$ x ) wat]1 & drank to my heal?4 ,! poor ar*bi%op 0 s completely conf\nd$ & humiliat$1 t e "o felt = him4 ,! few m9utes sp5t at ! table1 aft] ?is extraord9>y act ( ju/ice1 seem$ oppressive to e "o4 ,sc>cely any "o d>$ to look at 8 neighbor1 or speak1 except 9 a l[ & subdu$ tone1 z :5 a great calamity has j occurr$4 ,nobody ?\ght ( dr9k+ 8 w9e2 & ! heal? ( ! ,bi%op de ,nancy 0 left undrunk4 ,b a good numb] ( prie/s fill$ _! glasses ) wat]1 & giv+ me a sil5t sign ( approbation1 drank to my heal?4 ,! society ( temp]ance _h be5 dragg$ by h] enemies to ! battle-field1 to be de/roy$2 b %e bravely f\ght1 & ga9$ ! victory4 ,n[1 %e 0 call$ to beg9 h] triumphant m>* ?r\gh our de> ,canada4 ,,*apt] ,,xxxvi ,,! ,,god ,,( ,,rome ,,eat5 ,,by ,a ,,rat4 ,has ,god giv5 u e>s to he>1 eyes to see1 & intellig5ce to und]/&8 ,! ,pope says1 no6 ,b ! ,son ( ,god says1 yes4 ,"o ( ! mo/ sev]e rebukes ( our ,savi\r to ,8 disciples1 0 = _! n pay+ suffici5t att5tion to :at _! eyes _h se51 _! e>s he>d1 & _! intellig5ce p]ceiv$4 8,p]ceive ye n yet1 nei!r und]/&8 ,h ye y\r he>t yet h>d5$8 ,hav+ eyes1 see ye n1 hav+ e>s1 he> ye n8 & d n ye rememb]80--7,m>k viii3 #ag1 #ah47 ,?is solemn appeal ( our ,savi\r to our common s5se1 is ! mo/ complete demolition ( ! :ole fabric ( ,rome4 ,! day t a man ceases to believe t ,god w\ld give u our s5ses & our intellig5ce to ru9 & deceive u1 b t !y 7 giv5 to guide u1 he is lo/ to ! ,*ur* ( ,rome4 ,! ,pope kn[s x2 h5ce ! innum]able encyclicals1 laws1 & regulations by :i* ! ,roman ,ca?olics are w>n$ n to tru/ ! te/imony ( _! e>s1 eyes1 or intellig5ce4 8,%ut y\r eyes10 says ! ,pope to 8 prie/s & p2 8,i w keep m9e op5$1 & ,i w see = y4 ,%ut y\r e>s1 = x is mo/ dang]\s = y to he> :at is said 9 ! _w4 ,i w keep my e>s op5$1 & w tell y :at y mu/ "k4 ,rememb] t to tru/ y\r own intellig5ce1 9 ! rese>* ( tru?1 & ! k ( ! ,^w ( ,god1 is sure p]dition4 ,if y want to "k any?+1 come to me3 ,i am ! only sure infallible f\nta9 ( tru?10 sai? ! pope4 ,& ?is /up5d\s impo/ure is accept$ by ! p & ! prie/s ( ,rome ) a my/]i\s facility1 & reta9$ ) a mo/ desolat+ t5acity4 ,x is to !m :at ! iron r+ is to ! nose ( ! ox1 :5 a rope is once ti$ to x4 ,! poor animal loses its self-control4 ,its natural /r5g? & en]gies w avail x no?+2 x mu/ g left or "r1 at ! w ( ! "o :o holds ! end ( ! rope4 ,read]1 please h no contempt = ! un=tunate prie/s & p ( ,rome1 b pity !m1 :5 y see !m walk+ 9 ! ways into :i* intellig5t be+s ought n to take a /ep4 ,!y _c help x4 ,! r+ ( ! ox is at _! nose1 & ! ,pope holds ! end ( ! rope4 ,_h x n be5 = t r+1 ,i w\ld n h be5 long at ! feet ( ! waf] god ( ! ,pope4 ,let me tell y ( "o ( ! %9+ rays ( tru?1 :i* 7 evid5tly s5t by our m]ciful ,god1 ) a mighty p[]1 to op5 my eyes4 ,b ,i c\ld n foll[ x2 ! iron r+ 0 at my nose2 & ! ,pope 0 hold+ ! end ( ! rope4 ,?is 0 aft] ,i _h be5 put at ! head ( ! magnific5t p>i% ( ,beauport1 9 ! spr+ ( #ahdj4 ,!re 0 liv+ at 8,la jeune ,lorette10 an old retir$ prie/1 :o 0 bl9d4 ,he 0 born 9 ,france1 :]e he _h be5 condemn$ to dea?1 "u ! ,reign ( ,t]ror4 ,escap$ f ! guillot9e1 he _h fl$ to ,canada1 :]e ! bi%op ( ,quebec _h put him 9 ! elevat$ po/ ( ,*apla9 ( ! ,ursul9e ,nunn]y4 ,he _h a f9e voice1 0 a good musician1 & _h "s pret5sions to ! title ( poet4 ,hav+ compos$ a good numb] ( *ur* hymns1 he _h be5 call$ 8,p]e ,cantique10 b 8 real "n 0 8,p]e ,daule40 ,8 fai? & piety 7 ( ! mo/ exalt$ "* among ! ,roman ,ca?olics2 ?\gh ^! did n prev5t him f be+ "o ( ! mo/ amiable & jovial m5 ,i ev] saw4 ,b 8 blue eyes1 sweet z ! eyes ( ! dove2 8 f9e yell[ hair1 fall+ on 8 %\ld]s z a gold5 fleece2 8 :ite1 rosy *eeks1 & 8 con/antly smil+ lips1 _h be5 too mu* = ! t5d] he>ts ( ! good nuns4 ,x 0 n a secret t 8,p]e ,cantique10 :5 "y1 _h made sev]al int]e/+ conque/s 9 ! mona/]y4 ,!re 0 no wond] at t4 ,inde$1 h[ c\ld t "y & inexp]i5c$ butt]fly escape damag+ 8 gold5 w+s1 at ! numb]less burn+ lamps ( ! fair virg9s8 ,b ! mantle ( *>ity _h be5 put on ! w\nds :i* ! old w>rior _h receiv$ on t =midable battlefield1 f :i* ev5 ! ,davids1 ,samsons1 ,solomons1 & _m o!rs1 _h escap$ only aft] be+ mortally w\nd$4 ,to help ! poor1 bl9d prie/1 ! curates ar\nd ,quebec us$ to keep him by turn 9 _! p>sonages1 & give him ! c>e & m>ks ( respect due to 8 old age4 ,aft] ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,roy1 curate ( ,*>lesb\rg1 _h kept him five or six weeks1 ,i _h tak5 him to my p>sonage4 ,x 0 9 ! mon? ( ,may--a mon? entirely consecrat$ to ! wor%ip ( ! ,virg9 ,m>y1 to :om ,fa!r ,daule 0 a mo/ devot$ prie/4 ,8 zeal 0 really inexhau/ible1 :5 try+ to prove to u h[ ,m>y 0 ! sure/ f\ndation ( ! hope & salvation ( s9n]s2 h[ %e 0 con/antly appeas+ ! j wra? ( h] son ,jesus1 :o1 7 x n = 8 love & respect to h] w\ld h1 long s9ce1 cru%$ u d[n4 ,! ,c\ncils ( ,rome h =bidd5 _! bl9d prie/s to say _! mass2 b on acc\nt ( high piety1 he _h got f ! ,pope ! privilege ( celebrat+ ! %ort mass ( ! ,virg91 :i* he knew p]fectly by he>t4 ,"o morn+1 :5 ! old prie/ 0 at ! alt>1 say+ 8 mass1 & ,i 0 9 ! ve/ry1 he>+ ! confessions ( ! p1 ! "y s]vant boy came to me 9 ha/e1 & said1 8,fa!r ,daule calls y2 please come quick40 ,fe>+ some?+ wrong _h happ5$ to my old fri5d1 ,i lo/ no "t1 & ran to him4 ,i f\nd him n]v\sly tapp+ ! alt> ) 8 two h&s1 z 9 an anxi\s se>* = "s v preci\s ?+4 ,:5 v ne> to him1 ,i said3 8,:at d y want80 ,he answ]$ ) a %riek ( di/ress3 8,! good god has disappe>$ f ! alt>4 ,he is lo/6 7,j'ai p]du le ,bon ,dieu4 ,il e/ disp>u de dessus l'autel607 ,hop+ t he 0 mi/ak51 & t he _h only ?r[n away ! good god1 8,le ,bon ,dieu10 on ! floor1 by "s accid5t1 ,i look$ on ! alt>1 at 8 feet1 ev]y:]e ,i c\ld suspect t ! good god might h be5 mov$ away by "s mi/ake ( ! h&4 ,b ! mo/ m9ute se>* 0 ( no avail2 ! good god c\ld n be f\nd4 ,i really felt /unn$4 ,at fir/1 rememb]+ ! ?\s& miracles ,i _h read ( ! disappe>ance & m>vell\s *anges ( =m ( ! waf] god1 x came to my m9d t we 7 9 ! pres5ce ( "s great miracle2 & t my eyes 7 to see "s ( ^! great m>vels ( :i* ! books ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome are fill$4 ,b ,i _h soon to *ange my m9d1 :5 a ?\ght fla%$ ?r\gh my memory1 :i* *ill$ ! blood 9 my ve9s4 ,! *ur* ( ,beauport 0 inhabit$ by a multitude ( ! bolde/ & mo/ insol5t rats ,i h ev] se54 ,_m times1 :5 say+ my mass1 ,i _h se5 ! ugly nose ( sev]al ( !m1 :o1 und\bt$ly attract$ by ! smell ( ! fre% waf]1 want$ to make _! breakfa/ ) ! body1 blood1 s\l & div9ity ( my ,*ri/4 ,b1 z ,i 0 con/antly 9 motion1 or pray+ ) a l\d voice1 ! rats _h inv>iably be5 fright5$ & fl$ away into _! secret qu>t]s4 ,i felt t]ror-/rick5 at ! ?\ght t ! good god 7,le ,bon ,dieu7 _h be5 tak5 away & eat5 by ! rats4 ,fa!r ,daule s s9c]ely believ$ :at all ! prie/s ( ,rome are b\nd to believe1 t he _h ! p[] to turn ! waf] into ,god1 t1 aft] he _h pron\nc$ ! words by :i* ! great m>vel 0 wr\ght1 he us$ to pass f five to fifte5 m9utes 9 sil5t adoration4 ,he 0 !n z motionless z a m>ble /atue1 & 8 feel+s 7 s /rong t (t5 torr5ts ( te>s us$ to fl[ f 8 eyes on 8 *eeks4 ,lean+ my head t[>d ! di/ress$ old prie/1 ,i ask$ him3 8,h y n rema9$1 z y are us$1 a long "t motionless1 9 ador+ ! good god1 aft] ! consecration80 ,he quickly answ]$1 8,yes1 b :at has ?is to d ) ! loss ( ! good god80 ,i repli$ 9 a l[ voice1 b ) a real acc5t ( di/ress & awe1 8,"s rats h dragg$ & eat5 ! good god60 8,:at d y say80 repli$ ,fa!r ,daule4 8,! good god c>ri$ away & eat5 by rats80 8,yes10 ,i repli$1 8,i h n ! lea/ d\bt ab\t x40 8,my ,god6 my ,god6 :at a dreadful calamity ^u me60 rejo9$ ! old man2 & rais+ 8 h&s & 8 eyes to heav51 he cri$ out aga91 8,my ,god6 my ,god6 ,:y h y n tak5 away my life be=e su* a mis=tune c\ld fall ^u me60 ,he c\ld n speak any long]2 8 voice 0 *ok$ by 8 sobs4 ,at fir/1 ,i did n "k :at to say2 a ?\s& ?\ghts "s v grave1 "s exce$+ly ludicr\s1 cross$ my m9d m rapidly ?an ,i c say !m4 ,i /ood !re1 z nail$ to ! floor1 by ! old prie/1 :o 0 weep+ z a *ild1 till he ask$ me1 ) a voice brok5 by 8 sobs1 8,:at mu/ ,i d n[80 ,i answ]$ him3 8,! ,*ur* has =ese5 occurr5ces ( t k9d1 & provid$ = !m ! rem$y4 ,! only ?+ y h to d is to get a new waf]1 consecrate x1 & cont9ue y\r mass z if no?+ /range _h occurr$4 ,i w g & get y1 j n[1 new bread40 ,i w5t1 )\t los+ a mom5t1 to ! ve/ry1 got & br\ght a new waf]1 :i* he consecrat$ & turn$ into a new god1 & f9i%$ 8 mass1 z ,i _h told him4 ,aft] x 0 ov]1 ,i took ! disconsolate old prie/ by ! h& to my p>sonage = breakfa/4 ,b all along ! way he r5t ! air ) 8 cries ( di/ress4 ,he w\ld h>dly ta/e any?+1 = 8 s\l 0 dr[n$ 9 a sea ( tr\ble4 ,i va9ly tri$ to calm 8 feel+s1 by tell+ him t x 0 no fault ( 82 t ?is /range & sad occurr5ce 0 n ! fir/ ( t k9d2 t x _h be5 calmly =ese5 by ! ,*ur*1 :i* _h told u :at to d 9 ^! circum/ances2 t !re 0 no neglect1 no fault1 no (f5ce aga9/ ,god or man on 8 "p4 ,b z he w\ld n pay ! lea/ att5tion to :at ,i said1 ,i felt ! only ?+ ,i _h to d 0 to rema9 sil5t & respect 8 grief1 by lett+ him unburd5 8 he>t by 8 lam5tations & te>s4 ,i _h hop$ t 8 good common s5se w\ld help him to ov]come 8 feel+s1 b ,i 0 mi/ak52 8 lam5tations 7 z long z ^? ( ,j]emiah1 & ! expressions ( 8 grief z bitt]4 ,at la/1 ,i lo/ pati5ce & said3 8,my de> ,fa!r ,daule1 all[ me to tell y respectfully t x is q "t to /op ^! lam5tations & te>s4 ,our great & j ,god _c l su* an excess ( sorr[ & regret ab\t a ?+ :i* 0 only1 & entirely1 "u ! control ( ,8 p[] & et]nal wisdom40 8,:at d y say !re80 repli$ ! old prie/1 ) a vivacity :i* resembl$ ang]4 8,i say t1 z x 0 n 9 y\r p[] to =esee or to avoid t occurr5ce1 y h n ! lea/ reason to act & speak z y d4 ,let u keep our regrets & our te>s = our s9s2 we _c %$ too _m te>s on !m4 ,b !re is no s9 "h1 & !re mu/ be "s reasonable limit to our sorr[4 ,if anybody _h to weep & regret )\t measure :at has happ5$1 x w\ld be ,*ri/4 ,= ,he alone c\ld =esee t ev5t1 & he alone c\ld prev5t x4 ,_h x be5 ,8 w to oppose ?is sad & my/]i\s act1 x 0 9 ,81 n 9 our p[] to prev5t x4 ,he alone has suff]$ f x1 because x 0 ,8 w to suff] x40 8,mr4 ,*9iquy10 he repli$1 8y are q a "y man1 & ,i see y h ! want ( att5tion & exp]i5ce :i* are (t5 se5 among "y prie/s4 ,y d n pay a suffici5t att5tion to ! awful calamity :i* has j occurr$ 9 y\r *ur*4 ,if y _h m fai? & piety y w\ld weep ) me in/ead ( laugh+ at my grief4 ,h[ c y speak s lightly ( a ?+ :i* makes ! angels ( ,god weep8 ,our de> ,savi\r dragg$ & eat5 by rats6 ,oh6 great ,god6 does n ?is surpass ! humiliation & horrors ( ,calv>y80 8,my de> ,fa!r ,daule10 ,i repli$1 8all[ me respectfully to tell y t ,i und]/&1 z well z y d1 ! nature ( ! deplorable ev5t ( ?is morn+4 ,i w\ld h giv5 my blood to prev5t x4 ,b let u look at t fact 9 its prop] light4 ,x is n a moral action = u2 x did n dep5d on our w m ?an ! spots ( ! sun4 ,! only "o :o is acc\ntable = t fact is our ,god6 ,=1 aga91 ,i say1 t ,he 0 ! only "o :o c\ld =esee & prev5t x4 ,&1 to give y pla9ly my own m9d1 ,i tell y "h t if ,i 7 ,god ,almighty1 & a mis]able rat w\ld come to eat me1 ,i w\ld /rike him dead be=e he c\ld t\* me40 ,!re is no ne$ ( confess+ x "h2 e "o :o reads ^! pages1 & pays att5tion to ?is conv]sation1 w und]/& t my =m] s robu/ fai? 9 my prie/ly p[] ( *ang+ ! waf] into my ,god _h melt$ away & evaporat$ f my m9d1 if n entirely1 at lea/ to a great ext5t4 ,great & new lights _h fla%$ ?r\gh my s\l 9 t h\r2 evid5tly my ,god want$ to op5 my eyes to ! awful absurdities & impieties ( a religion ^: ,god c\ld be dragg$ & eat5 by rats4 ,_h ,i be5 fai?ful to ! sav+ lights :i* 7 9 me !n1 ,i 0 sav$ 9 t v h\r2 & be=e ! end ( t day ,i w\ld h brok5 ! %ameful *a9s by :i* ! ,pope _h ti$ my neck to 8 idol ( bread4 ,9 t h\r x seem$ to me evid5t t ! dogma ( transub/antiation 0 a sic mon/r\s impo/ure1 & my prie/hood an insult to ,god & man4 ,my intellig5ce said to me ) a ?und]+ voice3 8,d n rema9 any long] ! prie/ ( a ,god :om y make e day1 & :om ! rats c eat40 ,?\gh bl9d1 ,fa!r ,daule und]/ood v well by ! /]n acc5ts ( my voice1 t my fai? 9 ! god :om he _h creat$ t morn+1 & :om ! rats _h eat51 _h be5 s]i\sly modifi$1 if n entirely crumbl$ d[n4 ,he rema9$ sil5t = "s "t1 aft] :i* he invit$ me to sit by him2 & he spoke to me ) a pa?os & an au?ority :i* my y\? & 8 old age alone c\ld ju/ify4 ,he gave me ! mo/ awful rebuke ,i ev] _h2 he op5$ on my poor wav]+ intellig5ce1 s\l & he>t1 all ! cat>acts ( heav54 ,he ov]:elm$ me ) a deluge ( ,holy ,fa!rs1 ,c\ncils & infallible ,popes1 :o _h believ$ & prea*$ be=e ! :ole _w1 9 all ages1 ! dogma ( transub/antiation4 ,if ,i _h paid att5tion to ! voice ( my intellig5ce1 & accept$ ! lights :i* my m]ciful ,god 0 giv+ me1 ,i c\ld easily h sma%$ ! argum5ts ( ! old prie/ ( ,rome4 ,b :at has ! intellig5ce to d 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,rome8 ,:at c\ld my intellig5ce say8 ,i 0 =bidd5 to he> x4 ,:at 0 ! weight ( my poor1 isolat$ intellig5ce1 :5 put 9 ! balance aga9/ s _m le>n$1 holy infallible intellig5ces8 ,alas6 ,i 0 n aw>e1 !n1 t ! weight ( ! intellig5ce ( ,god1 ! ,fa!r1 ,son & ,holy ,gho/ 0 on my side2 & t1 weight$ aga9/ ! intellig5ce ( ! ,popes1 !y 7 great] ?an all ! words aga9/ a gra9 ( s&4 ,"o h\r aft]1 %$d+ te>s ( regret1 ,i 0 at ! feet ( ,fa!r ,daule1 9 ! confessional box1 confess+ ! great s9 ,i _h committ$ by d\bt+1 = a mom5t1 ( ! p[] ( ! prie/s to *ange a waf] into ,god4 ,! old prie/1 ^: voice _h be5 l a lion's voice1 :5 speak+ to ! unbeliev+ curate ( ,beauport1 _h become sweet z ! voice ( a lamb :5 he _h me at 8 feet1 confess+ my unbelief4 ,he gave me my p>don4 ,= my p5ance1 he =bade me ev] to say a ^w on ! sad end ( ! god he _h creat$ t morn+2 =1 said he3 8,?is w\ld de/roy ! fai? ( ! mo/ s9c]e ,roman ,ca?olics40 ,= ! o!r "p ( ! p5ance1 ,i _h to g on my knees e day1 dur+ n9e days1 be=e ! f\rte5 images ( ! way ( ! cross1 & say a p5it5tial psalm be=e e picture1 :i* ,i did4 ,b ! six? day ! sk9 ( my knees 0 pi]c$1 & ! blood 0 fl[+ freely4 ,i suff]$ real torture e "t ,i kneel$ d[n1 & at e /ep ,i made4 ,b x seem$ to me t ^! t]rible tortures 7 no?+ comp>$ to my great iniquity6 ,i _h refus$1 = a mom5t1 to believe t a man c create 8 ,god ) a waf]6 & ,i _h ?\ght t a *ur* :i* adores a god eat5 by rats mu/ be an idolatr\s *ur*6 ,,*apt] ,,xxxvii ,,visit ,,( ,a ,,prote/ant ,,/rang]--,,he ,,?r[s ,,an ,,arr[ ,,into ,,my ,,prie/ly ,,s\l ,,nev] ,,to ,,be ,,tak5 ,,out4 ,a few days be=e ! arrival ( ,bi%op de ,=b9 ,janson1 ,i 0 alone 9 my /udy1 consid]+ my false position t[>d my ecclesia/ical sup]iors1 on acc\nt ( my e/abli%+ ! temp]ance society aga9/ _! =mal prote/4 ,my he>t 0 sad4 ,my p>tial success _h n bl9d$ me to ! reality ( my deplorable isolation f ! great mass ( ! cl]gy4 ,) v few exceptions1 !y 7 speak+ ( me z a dang]\s man4 ,!y _h ev5 giv5 me ! nickname ( 8,le re=mateur au petit pi$0 7small-siz$ re=m]71 & 7 los+ no opportunity ( %[+ me _! supreme contempt & indignation1 = :at !y call$ my ob/9acy4 ,9 t sad h\r1 !re 7 _m cl\ds ar\nd my horizon1 & my m9d 0 fill$ ) anxiety2 :51 sudd5ly1 a /rang] knock$ at my door4 ,he 0 a good-siz$ man1 8 smil+ lips & hone/ face 7 beam+ ) ! utmo/ k9dness4 ,8 l>ge & noble =ehead told me1 at once1 t my visitor 0 a man ( sup]ior intellect4 ,8 :ole mi5 0 t ( a true g5tleman4 ,he press$ my h& ) ! cordiality ( an old fri5d1 & giv+ me 8 "n1 he told me at once ! object ( 8 visit1 9 ^! words4 8,i d n come "h only 9 my "n2 b x is 9 ! "n ( _m1 if n ( all ! ,engli%-speak+ p ( ,quebec & ,canada4 ,i want to tell y our admiration = ! great re=m y h accompli%$ 9 ,beauport4 ,we "k ! /]n opposition ( y\r sup]iors & fell[-prie/s to y\r ef=ts1 & we admire y m = t4 8,g on1 sir1 y h on y\r side ! great ,god ( heav51 :o has said to u all3 #8,look n ?\ ^u ! w9e :5 x is r$1 :5 x give? its color 9 ! cup1 :5 x move? itself aright4 ,at ! la/1 x bite? l a s]p5t1 x /+e? l an add]4' 8,take c\rage1 sir10 he add$2 8y h1 on y\r side1 ! ,savi\r ( ! _w1 ,jesus ,*ri/ himself1 :o has inspir$ 8 ,apo/le ,paul to say3 #8,i w n dr9k any w9e if x c be a cause ( s9 to my neighbor4' ,fe> n man1 sir1 :5 ,god ! ,fa!r1 & ,8 son1 ,jesus ,*ri/1 are on y\r side4 ,if y f9d any opposition f "s qu>t]1 & if delud$ m5 turn y into ridicule :5 y are do+ su* a ,*ri/ian "w1 bless ! ,"l4 ,= ,jesus ,*ri/ has said3 #8,bless$ are !y :o d hung] & ?ir/ aft] righte\sness1 = !y %all be fill$4 ,bless$ are ye :5 m5 %all revile y & p]secute y1 & %all say all mann] ( evil aga9/ y1 falsely1 = my sake4' 8,i come also to tell y1 sir1 t if !re are m5 :o oppose y1 !re are _m m :o are pray+ = y day & night1 ask+ our ,heav5ly ,fa!r to p\r ^u y ,8 mo/ abundant bless+s4 8,intoxicat+ dr9ks are ! curse ( ?is "y c\ntry4 ,x is ! mo/ deadly foe ( e fa!r & "m1 ! mo/ implacable enemy ( e *ild 9 ,canada4 ,x is ! ru9 ( our ri* families1 z well z ! de/ruction ( ! poor4 8,! use ( intoxicat+ dr9ks1 "u any =m or pretext is an act ( supreme folly2 = alcohol kills ! body & damns ! s\l ( its bl9d victim4 8,y h1 = ! fir/ "t1 rais$ ! glori\s bann]s ( temp]ance among ! ,fr5* ,canadian p2 ?\gh y are alone1 to-day1 to lift x up1 be n disc\rag$2 =1 be=e long1 y w see y\r intellig5t c\ntrym5 rally+ ar\nd x to help y to fight & conqu]4 8,no d\bt ! se$ y s[ to-day is (t5 wat]$ ) y\r te>s2 b be=e long y w reap ! ri*e/ crop1 & y\r he>t w be fill$ ) joy :5 y\r grateful c\ntry w bless y\r "n40 ,aft] a few o!r s5t5ces ( ! same elevat$ s5tim5ts1 he h>dly gave me "t en\gh to express my feel+s ( gratitude1 & said3 8,i "k y are v busy1 ,i d n want to trespass ^u y\r "t4 ,good-bye1 sir2 may ! ,"l bless y1 & be y\r keep] 9 all y\r ways40 ,he press$ my h&1 & soon disappe>$4 ,i w\ld try1 9 va91 to express :at ,i felt :5 alone ) my ,god1 aft] t /range & provid5tial visit4 ,my fir/ ?\ght 0 to fall on my knees & ?ank t m]ciful ,god = hav+ s5t me su* a mess5g] to *e] me 9 "o ( ! d>ke/ h\rs ( my life2 = e ^w f 8 lips _h fall5 on my w\nd$ s\l z ! oil ( ! ,good ,sam>itan on ! ble$+ w\nds ( ! travel] to ,j]i*o4 ,!re _h be5 su* an elevation ( ?\ght1 su* a r+ ( true1 simple b sublime fai? & piety2 su* love ( man & fe> ( ,god 9 all t he _h said4 ,x 0 ! fir/ "t ,i _h he>d words s con=mable to my p]sonal views & pr(\nd convictions on t subject4 ,t /rang]1 ^: visit _h pass$ z quickly z ! visit ( an angel f ,god1 _h fill$ my he>t ) su* joy & surprise at ! unexpect$ news t all ! ,engli%-speak+ p ( ,canada 7 pray+ = me6 ,h[ev]1 ,i did n fall on my knees to ?ank ,god2 = my s5tim5ts ( gratitude to ,god 7 sudd5ly *ill$ by ! unspeakable humiliation ,i felt :5 ,i consid]$ t t /rang] 0 a ,prote/ant6 ,! comp>ison ,i 0 =c$ to make betwe5 ! noble s5tim5ts1 ! high philosophy1 ! ,*ri/ian pr9ciples ( t ,prote/ant layman ) ! l[ expressions ( contempt1 ! absolute want ( g5]\s & ,*ri/ian ?\ghts ( my bi%op & my fell[-prie/s :5 !y 7 turn+ into ridicule t temp]ance society :i* ,god 0 s visibly pres5t+ to u z ! be/1 if n ! only way1 to save ! ?\s&s ( drunk>ds :o 7 p]i%+ ar\nd u1 p>alyz$ my lips1 bewild]$ my m9d1 & made x impossible = me to utt] a ^w ( pray]4 ,my fir/ s5tim5ts ( joy & ( gratitude to ,god soon gave way to s5tim5ts ( unspeakable %ame & di/ress4 ,i 0 =c$ to ackn[l$ge t ^! ,prote/ants1 :om my ,*ur* _h taught me1 ?r\gh all h] c\ncils1 to ana!matize & curse z ! damn$ slaves & foll[]s ( ,satan1 71 9 _! pr9ciples ( morality1 high] above u ?an ! heav5s are above ! e>?6 ,i _h to confess to myself t ^? h]etics1 :om my ,*ur* _h taught me to consid] z rebels aga9/ ,*ri/ & ,8 ,*ur*1 knew ! laws ( ,god & foll[$ !m mu* m closely ?an ourselves4 ,!y _h rais$ !mselves to ! highe/ degree ( ,*ri/ian temp]ance1 :5 my bi%ops1 ) _! prie/s1 7 swimm+ 9 ! deadly wat]s ( drunk5ness6 ,a voice seem$ cry+ to me3 8,:]e is ! sup]iority ( hol9ess ( y\r pr\d ,*ur* ( ,rome ov] ^? s-call$ h]etics1 :o foll[ m closely ! c\nsels & precepts ( ! gospel ( ,*ri/80 ,i tri$ to /ifle t voice1 b ,i c\ld n4 ,l\d] & l\d] x 0 he>d ask+ me3 8,:o is ne>] ,god--! bi%op1 :o s ob/9ately opposes a re=m :i* is s evid5tly accord+ to ! ,div9e ,^w1 or ^? e>ne/ foll[]s ( ! gospel1 :o make ! sacrifice ( _! old & mo/ *]i%$ usages ) su* pleasure1 :5 !y see x is = ! good ( _! fell[-m5 & ! glory ( ,god80 ,i wi%$ !n to be a hundr$ feet bel[ ! gr\nd1 9 ord] n to he> ^? que/ions answ]$ )9 my s\l4 ,b !re 0 no help2 ,i _h to he> !m1 & to blu% at ! reality be=e my eyes4 ,pride6 yes1 diabolical pride6 is ! vice1 p> excell5ce1 ( e prie/ ( ,rome4 ,j z he is taught to believe & say t 8 *ur* is f> above e o!r *ur*1 s he is taught to believe & say t1 z a prie/1 he is above all ! k+s1 emp]ors1 gov]nors & presid5ts ( ?is _w4 ,t pride is ! daily bread ( ! pope1 ! bi%op1 ! prie/s1 & ev5 ! l[e/ layman 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,rome4 ,x is also ! great secret ( _! p[] & /r5g?4 ,x is ?is diabolical pride :i* n]ves !m ) an iron w1 to br+ d[n ev]y?+ to _! feet2 subject e human be+ to _! w1 & tie e neck to ! :eels ( _! *>iot4 ,x is ?is fe>ful pride :i* s (t5 gives !m t /oical pati5ce & indomitable c\rage 9 ! mid/ ( ! mo/ cruel pa91 or 9 ! face ( ! mo/ appall+ dea?1 :i* s _m delud$ ,prote/ants take = ,*ri/ian c\rage & h]oism4 ,! prie/ ( ,rome believes t he is call$ by ,god ,almighty to rule1 subdue & gov]n ! _w4 ,) all ^? pr]ogatives t he fancies grant$ him by heav51 he builds up a high pyramid1 on ! top ( :i* he seats himself1 & f t elevation looks d[n ) ! utmo/ contempt on ! re/ ( ! _w4 ,if anyone suspects t ,i exagg]ate 9 ?us speak+ ( ! pride ( ! prie/1 let him read ! foll[+ haughty words :i* ,c>d9al ,mann+ puts on ! lips ( ! pope 9 "o ( 8 lectures3 8,i ackn[l$ge no civil p[]2 ,i am ! subject ( no pr9ce4 ,i am m ?an ?is4 ,i claim to be ! supreme judge & director ( ! consci5ce ( m53 ( ! peasant :o tills 8 field & ( ! pr9ce :o sits ^u ! ?rone2 ( ! h\sehold t lives 9 ! %ade ( privacy1 & ! legislator t makes laws = ! k+dom4 ,i am ! sole1 la/1 supreme judge ( :at is "r or wrong40 ,is x n evid5t t ! ,holy ,gho/ speaks ( ?is pride ( ! prie/s & ( ! pope--! high prie/ ( ,rome--:5 he says3 8,t man ( s91 t son ( p]dition1 :o oppose? & exalte? himself above all t is call$ ,god1 or t is wor%ipp$1 s t he1 z ,god1 sits 9 ! temple ( ,god1 %[+ himself t he is ,god40 ,t ca/e pride :i* 0 9 me1 ?\gh ,i did n see x !n1 z x is 9 e prie/ ( ,rome1 ?\gh he does n suspect x1 _h receiv$ a rude *eck1 inde$1 f t ,prote/ant visitor4 ,yes1 ,i mu/ confess x1 he _h inflict$ a deadly w\nd on my prie/ly pride2 he _h ?r[n a b>b$ arr[ into my prie/ly s\l :i* ,i tri$ _m times1 b always 9 va91 to take away4 ,! m ,i attempt$ to get rid ( ?is arr[1 ! deep] x w5t ?r\gh my v bones & m>r[4 ,t /range visitor1 :o caus$ me to pass s _m h\rs & days ( humiliation1 :5 =c+ me to blu% at ! inf]iority ( ! ,*ri/ian pr9ciples ( my ,*ur* comp>$ ) ^? ( ! ,prote/ants1 is well kn[n 9 ,canada1 ! ,unit$ ,/ates & ,great ,brita91 z ! f\nd] & fir/ editor ( two ( ! be/ religi\s pap]s ( ,am]ica1 ! ,montreal ,witness & ! ,new ,york ,witness4 ,8 "n is ,john ,d\gall4 ,z he is /ill liv+1 ,i am happy to h ?is opportunity ( ?ank+ & bless+ him aga9 = ! visit he paid to ! "y curate ( ,beauport =ty-five ye>s ago4 ,i 0 n aw>e !n t ! w\nds inflict$ by t unkn[n b fri5dly h& 0 "o ( ! great favors be/[$ ^u me by my m]ciful ,god2 b ,i und]/& x n[4 ,_m rays ( light h s9ce come f ! w\nds :i* my prie/ly pride receiv$ t day4 ,^? rays ( light help$ mu* to expel ! d>kness :i* surr\nd$ me1 by lead+ me to see1 9 spite ( myself1 t ! vaunt$ hol9ess ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome is a fraud4 ,,*apt] ,,xxxviii4 ,,erection ,,( ,,! ,,column ,,( ,,temp]ance--,,s*ool ,,build+s--,,addresses--,a ,,noble ,,& ,,t\*+ ,,act ,,( ,,! ,,p ,,( ,,beauport4 ,! battle f\ght & ga9$ at ! gr& d9n] ( ! ,quebec ,sem9>y by ! society ( temp]ance _h be5 decisive4 ,! triumph 0 z complete z x 0 glori\s4 ,h]eaft] h] m>* to ! conque/ ( ,canada 0 to be a triumph4 ,h] bless$ bann]s 7 soon to be plant$ ov] all ! cities1 t[ns & villages ( my de> c\ntry4 ,to commemorate ! expression ( _! joy & gratitude to ,god to ! remote/ g5]ations1 ! p ( ,beauport erect$ ! beautiful ,column ( ,temp]ance1 :i* is /ill se5 halfway betwe5 ,quebec & ! ,montmor5cy ,falls4 ,! ,bi%op de ,nancy1 my ,"l ,=b9 ,janson1 bless$ t fir/ monum5t ( temp]ance1 ,septemb] #g?1 #ahda1 9 ! mid/ ( an imm5se multitude ( p4 ,! p>i%es ( ,/4 ,pet]1 ,/4 ,john1 ,/4 ,famille 7,orleans ,isl&71 ) ,/4 ,mi*el 7 ! fir/ aft] ,lange ,g>di51 ,*ateau ,ri*]1 ,/4 ,anne & ,/4 ,joa*91 to reque/ me to prea* on temp]ance4 ,soon aft]1 ! :ole population ( ,/4 ,ro*1 ,quebec1 took ! pl$ge ) a wond]ful unanimity1 & kept x long ) m>vell\s fidelity4 ,9 ord] to %[ to ! :ole c\ntry _! feel+s ( gratitude1 !y pres5t$ me ) a f9e picture ( ! ,column ( ,temp]ance & a complim5t>y address1 writt5 & deliv]$ by "o ( ! mo/ promis+ "y m5 ( ,quebec1 ,mr4 ,john ,cau*on1 :o 0 rais$ "s ye>s lat] to ! dignity ( a ,cab9et ,m9i/]1 & :o has be5 ! wor?y lieut5ant-gov]nor ( ,manitoba4 ,t address 0 soon foll[$ by ano!r f ! citiz5s ( ,quebec & ,beauport1 pres5t$ along ) my portrait1 by ,mr4 ,joseph ,p>5t1 !n editor ( ! ,canadi51 & aft]w>ds ,prov9cial ,secret>y ( ,canada4 ,:at a /range be+ man is6 ,h[ fickle are 8 judgm5ts6 ,9 #ahdb1 !y _h no words suffici5tly flatt]+ to praise ! v man 9 ! face ( :om !y 7 spitt+ 9 #ahch1 = do+ ! v same ?+6 ,0 ,i bett] = e/abli%+ ! society ( temp]ance 9 #ahdb ?an ,i 0 9 e/abli%+ x 9 #ahch8 ,no6 ,& 0 ,i worse :51 9 #ahch1 bi%ops1 prie/s & p 7 abus+1 sl&]+ & giv+ me bad names = rais+ ! bann]s ( temp]ance ov] my c\ntry1 ?an ,i 0 9 cont9u+ to lift x up 9 #ahdb8 ,no8 ,! sudd5 & complete *ange ( ! judgm5t ( m5 9 su* a %ort p]iod ( "t _h ! good & provid5tial effect ( fill+ my m9d ) ! mo/ supreme indiff]5ce1 n to say contempt1 = :at m5 ?\ght or said ( me4 ,yea6 ?is sudd5 passage f condemnation to t ( praise1 :5 ,i 0 do+ ! v same "w1 _h ! good effect to cure me ( t natural pride :i* "o is apt to feel :5 publicly applaud$ by m54 ,x is to t k1 acquir$ :5 "y1 t ,i owe ! pres]vation ( my dignity z man & prie/1 :5 all my bi%ops & _! prie/s 7 array$ aga9/ me at ! d9+ table ( ! ,sem9>y ( ,quebec4 ,x is t k1 also1 t taught me n to =get t ,i 0 no?+ b a worm ( ! du/ & an unpr(itable s]vant ( ,god1 :5 ! same m5 ov]:elm$ me ) _! unm]it$ praises4 ,let n my read]s ?9k1 h[ev]1 t ,i 0 absolutely indiff]5t to ?is *ange ( public feel+2 = no words c tell ! joy ,i felt at ! assurance :i* ^! public manife/ations af=d$ me t ! cause ( temp]ance 0 to triumph ev]y:]e 9 my c\ntry4 ,let me "h tell a fact too honorable to ! p ( ,beauport to be omitt$4 ,z soon z ! demon ( intemp]ance 0 driv5 f my p>i%1 ,i felt t my fir/ duty 0 to give my att5tion to education1 :i* _h be5 s %amefully neglect$ by my pr$ecessors t !re 0 n a s+le s*ool 9 ! p>i% wor?y ( t "n4 ,i propos$ my plan to ! p1 ask$ _! co-op]ation & set to "w )\t delay4 ,i began by erect+ ! f9e /one s*ool h\se ne> ! *ur*1 on ! site ( ! old p>sonage4 ,! old walls 7 pull$ d[n1 & on ! old f\ndation a good /ructure 0 soon erect$ ) ! free collections rais$ 9 ! village4 ,b ! "w 0 h>dly half f9i%$ :5 ,i f\nd myself )\t a c5t to c>ry x on4 ,i saw at once t1 hav+ no idea ( ! value ( education1 ! p w\ld murmur at my ask+ any m money4 ,i !re=e sold my horse1 a f9e animal giv5 me by a ri* uncle1 & ) ! money f9i%$ ! build+4 ,my p felt humiliat$ & pa9$ at see+ _! pa/or oblig$ to walk :5 go+ to ,quebec or visit+ ! sick4 ,!y said to ea* o!r2 8,is x n a burn+ %ame = u to h =c$ our "y curate to sell 8 f9e horse to build our s*ool h\ses1 :5 x w\ld h be5 s easy to d t "w ourselves8 ,let u repair our faults40 ,on my return f e/abli%+ ! society ( temp]ance 9 ,/4 ,john1 two weeks lat]1 my s]vant man said to me3 8,please1 ,mr4 le ,cure1 come to ! /able & see a v curi\s ?+40 8,:at curi\s ?+ c !re be80 ,i answ]$4 8,well1 sir1 please come & y w see40 ,:at 0 bo? my surprise & pleasure to f9d "o ( ! mo/ spl5did ,canadian horses !re1 z m9e6 ,= my s]vant said to me3 8,dur+ y\r abs5ce ! p h rais$ five hundr$ doll>s & b\ght ?is f9e horse = y4 ,!y say !y d n want any long] to see _! curate walk+ 9 ! mud4 ,:5 !y drove ! horse "h1 t ,i might pres5t him to y z a surprise on y\r arrival1 ,i he>d !m say+ t1 ) ! temp]ance society1 y h sav$ !m m ?an five hundr$ doll>s e week 9 money1 "t & heal?1 & t x 0 only an act ( ju/ice to give y ! sav+s ( a week40 ,! only way ( express+ my gratitude to my noble p 0 to r$\ble my ex]tions 9 secur+ ! b5efits ( a good education to _! *ildr54 ,i soon propos$ to ! p to build ano!r s*ool h\se two miles di/ant f ! fir/4 ,b ,i 0 n long )\t see+ t ?is new ent]prise 0 to be /ill m uphill "w ?an ! fir/ "o among ! p1 ( :om h>dly "o 9 fifty c\ld sign 8 "n4 8,h n our fa!rs done well )\t ^? co/ly s*ools80 said _m4 8,:at is ! use ( sp5d+ s mu* money = a ?+ t does n add a day to our exi/5ce1 nor an atom to our com=t80 ,i soon felt confront$ by su* a deadly indiff]5ce1 n to say opposition1 on ! "p ( my be/ f>m]s1 t ,i fe>$ = a few days le/ ,i _h really gone too f>4 ,! la/ c5t ( my own rev5ues 0 n only giv51 b a little p]sonal debt creat$ to meet ! paym5ts1 & a r\nd sum ( #ejj _h to be f\nd to f9i% ! "w4 ,i visit$ ! ri*e/ man ( ,beauport to ask him to come to my rescue4 ,=ty ye>s be=e he _h come to ,beauport b>efoot$1 )\t a c5t1 to "w4 ,he _h employ$ 8 fir/ e>n$ doll>s 9 pur*as+ "s rum1 ) :i* he _h d\bl$ 8 money 9 two h\rs2 & _h cont9u$ to d\ble 8 money1 at t rate1 9 ! same way1 till he 0 wor? ne>ly #bjj1jjj4 ,he _h !n /opp$ sell+ rum1 to inve/ 8 money 9 city prop]ties4 ,he answ]$ me3 8,my de> curate1 ,i w\ld h no objections to give y ! #ejj y want1 if ,i _h n met ! ,gr& ,vic> ,dem>s ye/]day1 :o w>n$ me1 z an old fri5d1 aga9/ :at he calls y\r dang]\s & exagg]at$ views 9 ref]5ce to ! education ( ! p4 ,he advis$ me1 = y\r own good1 & ! good ( ! p1 to d all 9 my p[] to induce y to desi/ f y\r plan ( cov]+ our p>i%es ) s*ools40 8,w y all[ me10 ,i answ]$1 8to m5tion our conv]sation to ,mr4 ,dem>s1 & tell him :at y h j said ab\t 8 advis+ y to oppose me 9 my ef=ts to promote ! int]e/s ( education80 8,yes1 sir1 by all means10 answ]$ ,mr4 ,des ,r\ssell4 8,i all[ y to repeat to ! v5]able sup]ior ( ! ,sem9>y ( ,quebec :at he said to me ye/]day2 x 0 n a secret1 = !re 7 sev]al o!r f>m]s ( ,beauport to :om he said ! v same ?+4 ,if y ignore t ! prie/s ( ,quebec are oppos$ to y\r plans ( educat+ our *ildr5 y mu/ be ! only "o :o does n "k x1 = x is a public fact4 ,y\r difficulties 9 rais+ ! funds y want come only f ! opposition ( ! re/ ( ! cl]gy to y 9 ?is matt]2 we h pl5ty ( money 9 ,beauport to-day1 & we w\ld feel happy to help y4 ,b y und]/& t our good-w is some:at cool$ by ! opposition ( m5 :om we are accu/om$ to respect40 ,i repli$3 8,d y n rememb]1 my de> ,mr4 ,des ,r\ssell1 t ^? v same prie/s oppos$ me 9 ! same way 9 my v fir/ ef=ts to e/abli% ! temp]ance society 9 y\r mid/80 8,yes1 sir10 he answ]$ ) a smile1 8we rememb] x well1 b y h conv]t$ !m to y\r views n[40 8,well1 my de> sir1 ,i hope we %all conv]t !m also 9 ?is "q ( education40 ,! v next morn+1 ,i 0 knock+ at ! door ( ! ,rev4 ,gr& ,vic> ,dem>s1 aft] ,i _h ti$ my spl5did horse 9 ! c\rty>d ( ! ,sem9>y ( ,quebec4 ,i 0 receiv$ ) ! utmo/ m>ks ( c\rtesy4 ,)\t los+ any "t1 ,i repeat$ to ! old sup]ior :at ,mr4 ,des ,r\ssell _h told me ( 8 opposition to my educational plans1 & respectfully ask$ him if x 7 true4 ,! poor ,gr& ,vic> seem$ z if ?und]-/ruck by my abrupt1 ?\gh polite "q4 ,he tri$1 at fir/1 to expla9 :at he _h said1 by tak+ a long circuit1 b ,i m]cilessly br\ght him to ! po9t at issue1 & =c$ him to say1 8,yes1 ,i said x40 ,i !n rejo9$ & said3 8,mr4 ,gr& ,vic>1 ,i am only a *ild be=e y1 :5 comp>+ my age ) y\rs2 h[ev]1 ,i h ! honor to be ! curate ( ,beauport4 ,x is 9 t capacity t ,i respectfully ask y by :at "r y oppose my plans = educat+ our *ildr580 8,i hope1 ,mr4 ,*9iquy10 he answ]$1 8t y d n mean to say t ,i am ! enemy ( education2 = ,i w\ld answ] y t ?is is ! fir/ h\se ( education on ?is cont95t1 & t ,i 0 at its head be=e y 7 born4 ,i hope t ,i h ! "r to believe & say t ! old ,sup]ior ( ! ,sem9>y ( ,quebec und]/&s z well z ! "y curate ( ,beauport ! advantage ( a good education4 ,b ,i w repeat to y :at ,i said to ,mr4 ,des ,r\ssell1 t x is a great mi/ake to introduce su* a g5]al sy/em ( education z y want to d 9 ,beauport4 ,let e p>i% h its well educat$ not>y1 doctor1 m]*ants1 & a few o!rs to d ! public bus9ess2 t is en\gh4 ,our p>i%es ( ,canada are models ( peace & h>mony "u ! direction ( _! good curates1 b !y w become unmanageable ! v day y\r sy/em ( education spreads abroad2 = !n all ! bad prop5sities ( ! he>t w be develop$ ) an irresi/ible =ce4 ,besides1 y "k t s9ce ! conque/ ( ,canada by ,prote/ant ,engl&1 ! ,prote/ants are wait+ = _! opportunity to spread ! ,bible among our p4 ,! only b>ri] we c oppose to t dang] is to h 9 ! future1 z 9 ! pa/1 only a v limit$ numb] ( our p :o c read or write4 ,= z soon z ! common p are able to read1 !y w1 l ,adam & ,eve1 ta/e ! =bidd5 fruit2 !y w read ! ,bible1 turn ,prote/ant1 & be lo/ = "t & et]nity40 ,9 my answ]1 among o!r ?+s1 ,i said3 8,g into ! c\ntry1 look at ! f>m :i* is well cultivat$1 pl\gh$ ) att5tion & skill1 ri*ly manur$1 & s[n ) good se$1 is x n inf9itely m pleasant & beautiful to live on su* a f>m ?an on "o :i* is neglect$1 unskilfully manag$ & cov]$ ) noxi\s we$s8 ,well1 ! diff]5ce betwe5 a well-educat$ & an un$ucat$ p is /ill great] 9 my m9d4 8,i "k t ! prie/s ( ,canada1 9 g5]al1 h y\r views1 & x is = t reason t ! p>i% ( ,beauport1 ) its imm5se rev5ues1 has be5 left )\t a s*ool wor?y ! "n1 f its f\ndation till my go+ !re4 ,b my views are absolutely diff]5t2 & z = y\r fe> ( ! ,bible1 ,i confess we are antipodes to ea* o!r4 ,i consid] t "o ( ! greate/ bless+s ,god has be/[$ ^u me1 is t ,i h read ! ,bible :5 ,i 0 on my "m's knees4 ,i d n ev5 conceal f y t "o ( my objects 9 giv+ a good education to e boy & girl ( ,beauport1 is to put ! gospel ( ,*ri/ 9 _! h&s z soon z !y are able to read x40 ,at ! end ( our conv]sation1 :i* 0 v excit$ on bo? sides1 ?\gh kept 9 ! b\nds ( polit5ess dur+ ne>ly two h\rs1 ,i said3 8,mr4 ,gr& ,vic>1 ,i did n come "h to conv]t y to my views--?is w\ld h be5 imp]t95ce on my "p2 nor c y conv]t me to y\rs1 if y are try+ x1 = y "k ,i h ! bad reputation ( be+ a h>d case4 ,i came to ask y1 z a favor1 to let me "w accord+ to my consci5ce 9 a p>i% :i* is m9e & n y\rs4 ,d n int]f]e any m 9 my affairs betwe5 me & my p>i%ion]s ?an y w\ld l me to int]f]e 9 ! managem5t ( y\r sem9>y4 ,z y w\ld n l me to criticize y be=e y\r pupils & turn y into ridicule1 please cease add+ to my difficulties among my p1 by cont9u+ 9 ! future :at y h done 9 ! pa/4 8,y "k1 ,mr4 ,gr& ,vic>1 t ,i h always respect$ y z my fa!r2 y h _m times be5 my advis]1 my confessor & my fri5d2 ,i hope y w grant me ! favor ,i ask f y 9 ! "n ( our common ,savi\r4 ,x is = ! spiritual & temporal good ( ! p & pa/or ( ,beauport t ,i make ?is pray]40 ,! old prie/ 0 a k9d-he>t$ man4 ,^! la/ words melt$ 8 he>t4 ,he promis$ :at ,i want$1 & we p>t$ f ea* o!r on bett] t]ms ?an ,i _h expect$ at fir/4 ,:5 cross+ ! c\rty>d ( ! sem9>y1 ,i saw ! ,ar*bi%op ,signaie1 :o1 com+ f tak+ a ride1 _h /opp$ to look at my horse & admire x4 ,:5 ne> him1 ,i said3 8,my "l1 ?is is a bi%op's horse1 & ought to be 9 y\r h&s40 8,x is :at ,i 0 say+ to my secret>y10 repli$ ! bi%op4 8,h[ long is x s9ce y got x80 8,only a few days ago1 my "l40 8,h y any int5tion ( sell+ x80 8,i w\ld1 if x w\ld please my bi%op10 ,i repli$4 8,:at is ! price80 ask$ ! bi%op4 8,^? :o gave x to me paid #ejj = x10 ,i repli$4 8,oh6 oh6 t is too de>10 rejo9$ ! bi%op2 8) five hundr$ doll>s we c get five good horses4 ,two hundr$ w\ld be en\gh40 8,y\r lord%ip is jok+4 ,7 ,i z ri* z ,i am poor1 "o ?\s& doll>s w\ld n take t noble animal f my h&s1 except to h x put 9 ! c>osse ( my bi%op40 8,g & make a *eck = two hundr$ doll>s to ! ord] ( ,mr4 ,*9iquy10 said ! bi%op to 8 sub-secret>y1 ,mr4 ,belisle4 ,:5 ! secret>y _h gone to make ! *eck1 ! bi%op be+ alone ) me1 took f 8 portfeuille ?ree bank bills ( "o hundr$ doll>s ea*1 & put !m into my h&s1 say+3 8,?is w make up y\r #ejj1 :5 my secret>y gives y ! *eck4 ,b please say no?+ to anybody1 n ev5 to my secret>y4 ,i d n l to h my private affairs talk$ ( ar\nd ! corn]s ( ! /reets4 ,t horse is ! mo/ spl5did ,i ev] saw1 & ,i am mu* oblig$ to y = hav+ sold x to me40 ,i 0 also v glad to h #ejj 9 h&4 ,= ) #cjj ,i c\ld f9i% my s*ool h\se1 & !re 0 #bjj m to beg9 ano!r1 ?ree miles di/ant4 ,j two weeks lat]1 :5 ,i 0 dress+ myself at sunrise1 my s]vant came to my room & said3 8,!re are tw5ty m5 on horseback :o want to speak to y40 8,tw5ty m5 on horseback :o want to speak to me60 ,i answ]$4 8,are y dream+80 8,i d n dream10 answ]$ my "y man2 8!re !y are at ! door1 on horseback1 wait+ = y40 ,i 0 soon dress$ & 9 ! pres5ce ( tw5ty ( my be/ f>m]s1 on horseback1 :o _h =m$ !mselves 9 a half-circle to receive me4 8,:at d y want1 my fri5ds80 ,i ask$ !m4 ,"o ( !m1 :o _h /udi$ a few ye>s 9 ! ,sem9>y ( ,quebec1 answ]$3 8,de> pa/or1 we come 9 ! "n ( ! :ole p ( ,beauport to ask y\r p>don = hav+ sadd5$ y\r he>t by n com+ z we ought to y\r help 9 ! sup]human ef=ts y make to give good s*ools to our *ildr54 ,?is is ! result ( our ignorance4 ,hav+ nev] gone to s*ool ourselves1 ! great] "p ( u h nev] kn[n ! value ( education4 ,b ! h]oic sacrifices y h made lately h op5$ our eyes4 ,!y ought to h be5 op5$ at ! sale ( y\r fir/ horse4 ,b we 7 9 ne$ ( ano!r lesson to und]/& our meanness4 ,h[ev]1 ! sell+ ( ! second horse has done m ?an any?+ else to awak5 u f our %ameful le?>gy4 ,! fe> ( receiv+ a new rebuke f u1 if y made ano!r appeal to our g5]osity1 has =c$ y to make t new sacrifice4 ,! fir/ news came to u z a ?und]bolt4 ,b !re is always "s light 9 a ?und]bolt4 ,?r\gh t light we h se5 our pr(\nd degradation1 9 %utt+ our e>s to y\r e>ne/ & pat]nal appeals 9 favor ( our own de> *ildr54 ,be sure1 de> pa/or1 t we are a%am$ ( our conduct4 ,f ?is day1 n only our he>ts b our purses are y\rs1 9 all y want to d to secure a good education = our families4 ,h[ev]1 our pr9cipal object 9 com+ "h to-day is n to say va9 words1 b to d an act ( rep>ation & ju/ice4 ,our fir/ ?\ght1 :5 we he>d t y _h sold ! horse we _h giv5 y1 0 to pres5t y ) ano!r4 ,we h be5 prev5t$ f do+ ?is by ! c]ta9ty t y w\ld sell x aga91 ei!r to help "s poor p or to build ano!r s*ool h\se4 ,z we _c be> to see our pa/or walk+ 9 ! mud :5 go+ to ! city or visit+ u1 we h det]m9$ to put ano!r horse into y\r h&s1 b 9 su* a way t y w n h ! "r to sell x4 ,we ask y !n1 z a favor1 to select ! be/ horse "h among ^! tw5ty :i* are be=e y1 & to keep x z long z y rema9 9 our mid/1 :i* we hope w be v long4 ,x w be return$ to its pres5t possessor if y leave u2 & be sure1 de> pa/or1 t ! "o ( u :o leaves 8 horse 9 y\r h&s w be ! mo/ happy & pr\de/ ( all40 ,:5 speak+ ?us1 t noble-he>t$ man _h sev]al times be5 unable to conceal ! te>s :i* 7 roll+ d[n 8 *eeks1 & m ?an once 8 trembl+ voice _h be5 *ok$ by 8 emotion4 ,i tri$ 9 va9 at fir/ to speak4 ,my feel+s ( gratitude & admiration c\ld be express$ only ) my te>s4 ,x took "s "t be=e ,i c\ld utt] a s+le ^w4 ,at la/ ,i said3 8,my de> fri5ds1 ?is is too mu* = y\r poor pa/or4 ,i feel ov]:elm$ by ?is gr& act ( k9dness4 ,i d n say t ,i ?ank y--! ^w ?ank is too small1 too %ort & insignificant to tell y :at y\r poor unwor?y pa/or feels at :at 8 eyes see & 8 e>s he> j n[4 ,! great & m]ciful ,god1 :o has put ^? s5tim5ts into y\r he>ts1 alone c repay y = ! joy ) :i* y fill my s\l4 ,i w\ld hurt y\r feel+s1 ,i "k1 by n accept+ y\r (f]+4 ,i accept x4 ,b to puni% y\r speak]1 ,mr4 ,p>5t1 = 8 complim5t>y address1 ,i w take 8 horse = ! "t ,i am curate ( ,beauport1 :i* ,i hope w be till ,i die40 ,& ,i laid my h& on ! bridle ( ! spl5did animal4 ,!re 0 !n a /ruggle :i* ,i _h n expect$4 ,e "o ( ! n9ete5 :om ,i left ) _! horses began to cry3 8,oh6 d n take t horse2 x is n wor? a p5ny2 m9e is mu* /rong]10 said "o4 8,m9e is mu* fa/]10 cri$ out ano!r4 8,m9e is a safe rid]10 said a ?ird4 ,e "o want$ me to take 8 horse1 & tri$ to p]suade me t x 0 ! be/ ( all2 !y really felt sorry t !y 7 n able to *ange my m9d4 ,has any "o ev] felt m happy ?an ,i 0 9 ! mid/ ( ^! g5]\s fri5ds8 ,! memory ( t happy h\r w nev] pass away f my m9d4 ,,*apt] ,,xxxix4 ,,s5t ,,to ,,succe$ ,,rev4 ,,mr4 ,,v>91 ,,curate ,,( ,,kam\raska--,,/]n ,,opposition ,,( ,,t ,,curate ,,& ,,! ,,surr\nd+ ,,prie/ ,,& ,,p--,,h\rs ,,( ,,desolation ,,9 ,,kam\raska--,,! ,,good ,,ma/] ,,allays ,,! ,,tempe/1 ,,& ,,bids ,,! ,,waves ,,be ,,/ill4 ,on ! morn+ ( ! #be? ( ,augu/1 #ahdb1 we bless$ & op5$ ! sev5? s*ool ( ,beauport4 ,f t day all ! *ildr5 7 to receive z good an education z c\ld be giv5 9 any c\ntry place ( ,canada4 ,^? s*ools _h be5 rais$ on ! ru9s ( ! sev5 tav]ns :i* _h s long spread ru91 %ame1 desolation & dea? ov] t spl5did p>i%4 ,my he>t 0 fill$ ) an unspeakable joy at ! sight ( ! m>vell\s ?+s :i*1 by ! h& ( ,god1 _h be5 wr\ght 9 su* a %ort "t4 ,at ab\t two ,p4 ,m4 ( t nev]-to-be-=gott5 day1 aft] ,i _h said my vesp]s1 & 0 alone1 pac+ ! alleys ( my g>d51 "u ! %ade ( ! old maple trees bord]+ ! nor!rn "p ( t beautiful spot1 ,i 0 review+ ! /ruggles & ! victories ( ^! la/ f\r ye>s4 ,x seem$ t ev]y?+ ar\nd me--n only ! giant trees :i* 7 protect+ me f ! burn+ sun1 b ev5 ! humble/ grasses & fl[]s ( my g>d5--_h a voice to tell me1 8,bless ! ,"l = ,8 m]cies40 ,at my feet ! maje/ic ,/4 ,lawr5ce 0 roll+ its deep wat]s2 beyond1 ! old capital ( ,canada1 ,quebec1 ) its massive citadel1 its pr\d t[]s1 its bri/l+ cannons1 its num]\s h\ses & /eeples1 ) _! t9 ro(s reflect+ ! light ( ! sun 9 myriads ( rays1 =m$ su* a spectacle ( fairy beauty z no p5 c describe4 ,! fre% breeze f ! riv]1 m+l$ ) ! p]fume ( ! ?\s& fl[]s ( my p>t]re1 ba!d me 9 an atmosph]e ( fragrance4 ,nev] yet _h ,i enjoy$ life z at t h\r4 ,all ! sangu9e desires ( my he>t & ! holy aspirations ( my s\l _h be5 m ?an realiz$4 ,peace1 h>mony1 indu/ry1 abundance1 happ9ess1 religion & education _h come on ! heels ( temp]ance1 to gladd5 & *e] ! families :i* ,god _h entru/$ to me4 ,! =m] h>d feel+s ( my ecclesia/ical sup]iors _h be5 *ang$ into s5tim5ts & acts ( k9dness1 mu* above my m]its4 ,) ! mo/ s9c]e feel+s ( gratitude to ,god1 ,i said ) ! old prophet1 8,bless ! ,"l1 ,o my s\l40 ,by ! great m]cy ( ,god1 t p>i% ( ,beauport1 :i* at fir/ _h appe>$ to me z a bottomless abyss1 9 :i* ,i 0 to p]i%1 _h be5 *ang$ = me into an e>?ly p>adise4 ,!re 0 only "o desire 9 my he>t4 ,x 0 t ,i nev] %\ld be remov$ f x4 ,l ,pet] on ,m\nt ,tabor1 ,i want$ to pit* my t5t 9 ,beauport to ! end ( my life4 ,b ! rebuke :i* _h %am$ ,pet] came z quickly z lightn+ to %[ me ! folly & vanity ( my dreams4 ,sudd5ly ! c>rosse ( ! ,bi%op ( ,quebec came 9 sight1 & roll$ d[n to ! door ( ! p>sonage4 ,! sub-secret>y1 ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,belisle1 alight+ f x1 direct$ 8 /eps t[>ds ! g>d51 :]e he _h se5 me1 & h&$ me ! foll[+ lett] f ! ,"r ,rev4 ,turgeon1 ,coadjutor ( ,quebec3 ,my de> ,mons4 ,*9iquy4 ,8 lord%ip ,bi%op ,signaie & ,i wi% to conf] ) y on a mo/ important matt]4 ,we h s5t our c>riage to br+ y to ,quebec4 ,please come )\t ! lea/ delay4 ,truly y\rs1 ,,flav4 ,,turgeon4 ,"o h\r aft]1 ,i 0 ) ! two bi%ops4 ,my ,"l ,signaie said3 8,monseigneur ,turgeon w tell y :y we h s5t = y 9 su* ha/e40 8,mons4 ,*9iquy10 said ,bi%op ,turgeon1 8is n ,kam\raska y\r bir?place80 8,yes1 my "l40 8,d y l t place1 & d y int]e/ y\rself mu* 9 its welf>e80 8,( c\rse1 my "l1 ,i l ,kam\raska2 n only because x is my bir?place1 & ! mo/ happy ye>s ( my y\? 7 sp5t 9 x1 b also because1 9 my humble op9ion1 ! beauties ( its sc5]y1 ! purity ( its atmosph]e1 ! f9e mann]s & prov]bial intellig5ce ( its p1 make x ! v gem ( ,canada40 8,y "k10 rejo9$ ! bi%op1 8t ,rev4 ,mons4 ,v>9 has be5 too infirm1 ^! la/ ye>s1 to sup]9t5d ! spiritual int]e/ ( t important place1 x is impossible to cont9ue putt+ a "y vic> at ! head ( su* a p>i%1 :]e hundr$s ( ! be/ families ( ! ari/ocracy ( ,quebec & ,montreal resort e summ]4 ,we h1 too long1 tri$ t exp]im5t ( "y prie/s 9 ! mid/ ( su* a p4 ,x has be5 a failure4 ,drunk5ness1 luxury & immoralities ( ! mo/ degrad+ k9d are eat+ up ! v life ( ,kam\raska to-day4 ,n less ?an ?irty illegitimate bir?s are kn[n & regi/]$ 9 diff]5t places f ,kam\raska ^! la/ twelve mon?s4 ,x is q "t to /op t /ate ( affairs1 & y are ! only "o1 ,mons4 ,*9iquy1 on :om we c rely = t great & difficult "w40 ,^! words pass$ ?r\gh my s\l z a two-edg$ sword4 ,my lips quiv]$1 ,i felt z if ,i 7 *ok+1 & my tongue1 ) difficulty mutt]$3 8,my "l1 ,i hope x is n y\r int5tion to remove me f my de> p>i% ( ,beauport40 8,no1 ,mons4 ,*9iquy1 we w n make use ( our au?ority1 to break ! sacr$ & sweet ties :i* unite y to ! p>i% ( ,beauport4 ,b we w put be=e y\r consci5ce ! reasons we h to wi% y at ! head ( ! great & important p>i% ( ,kam\raska40 ,= m ?an an h\r1 ! two bi%ops made /rong appeals to my *>ity = ! multitudes :o 7 sunk into ! abyss ( drunk5ness & e vice1 & _h no "o to save !m4 8,see h[ ,god & m5 are bless+ y to-day10 add$ ! ,ar*bi%op ,signaie1 = :at y h done 9 ,beauport6 ,w !y n bless y /ill m1 if y save t great & spl5did p>i% ( ,kam\raska1 z y h sav$ ,beauport8 ,w n a d\ble cr[n be put ^u y\r =ehead by y\r bi%ops1 y\r c\ntry & y\r ,god1 if y cons5t to be ! in/rum5t ( ! m]cies ( ,god t[>ds ! p ( y\r own bir?place1 & ! surr\nd+ c\ntry1 z y h j be5 = ,beauport & its surr\nd+ p>i%es8 ,c y re/ & live 9 peace n[ 9 ,beauport1 :5 y he> day & night ! voice ( ! multitudes :o cry3 #8,come to our help1 we are p]i%+8' ,:at w y answ] to ,god1 at ! la/ day1 :5 ,he w %[ y ! ?\s&s ( preci\s s\ls lo/ at ,kam\raska1 because y refus$ to g to _! rescue8 ,z ,monseigneur ,turgeon has said1 we w n make use ( our au?ority to =ce y to leave y\r pres5t position2 we hope t ! pray]s ( y\r bi%ops w be en\gh = y4 ,we "k :at a great sacrifice x w be = y to leave ,beauport to-day2 b d n =get t ! great] ! sacrifice1 ! m preci\s w ! cr[n be48 ,my bi%ops _h spok5 to me ) su* k9dness6 ,_! pat]nal & fri5dly appeals _h surely m p[] ov] me ?an ord]s4 ,n )\t _m te>s2 b ) a true good w1 ,i cons5t$ to give up ! prospects ( peace & com=t :i* 7 9 /ore = me 9 ,beauport1 to plunge myself aga9 into a future ( endless tr\ble & w>f>e1 by go+ to ,kam\raska4 ,!re is no ne$ ( say+ t ! p ( ,beauport did all 9 _! p[] to induce ! bi%ops to let me rema9 among !m "s "t long]4 ,b ! sacrifice _h to be made4 ,i gave my f>ewell address on ! second ,sabba? ( ,septemb]2 9 ! mid/ ( indescribable cries1 sobs & te>s1 & on ! #ag? ( ! same mon?1 ,i 0 on my way to ,kam\raska4 ,i _h left ev]y?+ beh9d me at ,beauport1 ev5 to my books1 9 ord] to be fre] 9 t =midable conflict :i* seem$ to be 9 /ore = me 9 my new p>i%4 ,:5 ,i took leave ( ! bi%ops ( ,quebec1 !y %[$ me a lett] j receiv$ by !m f ,mons4 ,v>91 fill$ ) ! mo/ bitt] expressions ( indignation on acc\nt ( ! *oice ( su* a fanatic & fire-br& z ,*9iquy1 = a place s well kn[n = its peaceful habits & h>mony among all classes40 ,! la/ words ( ! lett] 7 z foll[s3 8,! cl]gy & p ( ,kam\raska & vic9ity consid] ! appo9tm5t ( ,mons4 ,*9iquy to ?is p>i% z an insult1 & we hope & pray t y\r lord%ip w *ange y\r m9d on ! subject40 ,9 %[+ me ! lett]1 my "l ,signaie & ,turgeon said3 8,we fe> t y w h m tr\ble ?an we expect$ ) ! old curate & 8 p>tisans1 b we comm5d y to ! grace ( ,god & ! protection ( ! ,virg9 ,m>y1 rememb]+ t our ,savi\r has said3 #8,fe> n1 ,i h ov]come ! _w4'0 ,i arriv$ at ,kam\raska ! #ba/ ( ,septemb]1 #ahdb1 on "o ( ! f9e/ days ( ! ye>4 ,b my he>t 0 fill$ ) an unspeakable desolation1 = all along ! way1 ! curates _h told me t ! p1 ) _! old pa/or1 7 unanim\s 9 _! opposition to my go+ !re4 ,x 0 ev5 rumor$ t ! doors ( ! *ur* w\ld be %ut aga9/ me1 ! next ,sunday4 ,to ?is bad news 7 add$ two v /range facts4 ,my bro!r ,a*illes1 :o 0 liv+ at ,/4 ,mi*el1 0 to drive me f t place to ,/4 ,ro* des ,aulnets1 :5ce my o!r bro!r ,l\is1 w\ld take me to ,kam\raska4 ,b we _h n travel$ m ?an five or six miles1 :5 ! :eel ( ! newly f9i%$ & beautifully pa9t$ buggy1 hav+ /ruck a /one1 ! seat 0 brok5 into fragm5ts1 & we bo? fell to ! gr\nd4 ,by *ance1 z my bro!r 0 bless+ ! man :o sold him t rig = a new & fir/-class conveyance1 a travel] go+ ! same way pass$ by4 ,i ask$ him = a place 9 8 cale*e1 bade adieu to my bro!r1 & consol$ him by say+3 8,z y h lo/ y\r f9e buggy 9 my s]vice1 ,i w give y a bett] "o40 ,two days aft]1 my second bro!r 0 driv+ me to my de/9ation1 & :5 ab\t ?ree or f\r miles f ,kam\raska1 8 f9e horse /epp$ on a long nail :i* 0 on ! road1 fell d[n & di$ 9 ! awful convulsions ( tetanus4 ,i took leave ( him1 & consol$ him also by promis+ to give him ano!r horse4 ,ano!r c>riage took me safely to ! end ( my j\rney4 ,h[ev]1 hav+ to pass by ! *ur*1 :i* 0 ab\t #bjj y>ds f ! p>sonage1 ,i dismiss$ my driv] at ! door ( ! sacr$ edifice1 & took my sat*el 9 h&1 :i* 0 my only baggage1 ent]$ ! *ur* & sp5t m ?an an h\r 9 f]v5t pray]s1 or r 9 cries & te>s4 ,i felt s he>t-sick t ,i ne$$ t h\r ( re/ & pray]4 ,! te>s ,i %$ !re reliev$ my burd5$ _s4 ,a few /eps f me1 9 ! cemet]y1 lay ! sacr$ rema9s ( my belov$ "m1 ^: angelic face & memory 7 con/antly be=e me4 ,fac+ me 0 ! alt> :]e ,i _h made my fir/ communion2 at my left1 0 ! pulpit :i* 0 to be ! battlefield :]e ,i _h to fight ! enemies ( my ,god & my p1 :o1 ,i _h be5 repeat$ly told1 7 curs+ & gr9d+ _! tee? at me4 ,b ! vision ( t old curate ,i _h soon to confront1 & :o _h writt5 su* an impud5t lett] aga9/ me to ! bi%ops1 & ! public opposition ( ! surr\nd+ prie/s to my com+ into _! mid/1 7 ! mo/ disc\rag+ aspects ( my new position4 ,i felt z if my s\l _h be5 cru%$4 ,my v exi/5ce seem$ an unbe>able burd54 ,my new responsibilities came s vividly be=e my m9d 9 t di/ress+ h\r1 t my c\rage1 = a mom5t1 fail$ me4 ,i reproa*$ myself = ! act ( folly 9 yield+ to ! reque/ ( ! bi%ops4 ,x seem$ evid5t t ,i _h accept$ a burd5 too heavy = me to be>4 ,b ,i pray$ ) all ! f]vor ( my s\l to ,god & to ! ,virg9 ,m>y1 & wept to my he>t's cont5t4 ,!re 0 a m>vell\s p[] 9 ! pray]s & te>s :i* came f my he>t4 ,i felt z a new man4 ,i seem$ to he> ! trumpet ( ,god call+ me to ! battlefield4 ,my only bus9ess !n 0 to g & fight1 rely+ on ,him alone = victory4 ,i took my travel+ bag1 w5t out ( ! *ur*1 & walk$ sl[ly t[>ds ! p>sonage1 :i* has be5 burnt s9ce4 ,x 0 a spl5did two-/ory build+1 eighty feet 9 l5g?1 ) capaci\s cell>s4 ,x _h be5 built %ortly aft] ! conque/ ( ,canada1 z a /ore = contrab& goods2 b aft] a few ye>s ( failure1 became ! p>sonage ( ! p>i%4 ,! ,rev4 ,mons4 ,v>91 ?\gh infirm & sick1 _h wat*$ me f 8 w9d[1 & felt bewild]$ at my ent]+ ! *ur* & rema9+ s long4 ,i knock$ ! fir/ door1 b z nobody answ]$1 ,i op5$ x1 & cross$ ! fir/ l>ge room to knock at ! second door2 b1 "h also1 no answ] came except f two furi\s little dogs4 ,i ent]$ ! room1 fight+ ! dogs1 :i* bit me sev]al times4 ,i knock$ at ! ?ird & f\r? doors ) ! same result--no "o to receive me4 ,i knew t ! next 0 ! old curate's sleep+-room4 ,at my knock+1 an angry voice cri$ out3 8,walk 940 ,i ent]$1 made a /ep t[>d ! old & infirm curate1 :o 0 sitt+ 9 8 l>ge arm *air4 ,z ,i 0 ab\t to salute him1 he angrily said3 8,! p ( ,beauport h made great ef=ts to keep y 9 _! mid/1 b ! p ( ,kam\raska w make z great an ef=t to turn y out ( ?is place40 8,mons4 le ,cure10 ,i answ]$ calmly1 8,god kn[e? t ,i nev] desir$ to leave ,beauport = ?is place4 ,b ,i ?9k x is t great & m]ciful ,god :o has br\ght me "h by ! h&2 & ,i hope ,he w help me to ov]come all opposition1 f :atev] qu>t] x may come40 ,he repli$ angrily3 8,is x to insult me t y call me #8,mons4 le ,cure8' ,i am no m ! curate ( ,kam\raska4 ,y are ! curate n[1 ,mr4 ,*9iquy40 8,i beg y\r p>don1 my de> ,mr4 ,v>92 y are /ill1 ,i hope y w rema9 all y\r life1 ! honor$ & belov$ curate ( ,kam\raska4 ,! respect & gratitude ,i owe y h caus$ me to refuse ! titles & honors :i* our bi%op want$ to give me40 8,b1 !n1 if ,i am ! curate1 :at are y80 repli$ ! old prie/1 ) m calmness4 8,i am no?+ b a simple soldi] ( ,*ri/1 & a s[] ( ! good se$ ( ! gospel60 ,i answ]$4 8,:5 ,i fight ! common enemy 9 ! pla91 z ,jo%ua did1 y1 l ,moses1 w /& on ! top ( ! m\nta91 lift up y\r h&s to heav51 s5d y\r pray]s to ! m]cy-seat1 & we w ga9 ! day4 ,!n bo? w bless ! ,god ( our salvation = ! victory40 8,well6 well6 ?is is beautiful1 gr& & sublime10 said ! old prie/1 ) a voice fill$ ) fri5dly emotions4 8,b :]e is y\r h\sehold furniture1 y\r libr>y80 8,my h\sehold furniture10 ,i answ]$1 8is 9 ?is little bag :i* ,i hold 9 my h&4 ,i d n want any ( my books1 z long z ,i h ! pleasure & honor to be ) ! good ,mons4 ,v>91 :o w all[ me1 ,i am sure ( x1 to ransack 8 spl5did libr>y1 & /udy 8 r>e & le>n$ books40 8,b :at rooms d y wi% to occupy80 rejo9$ ! good old curate4 8,z ! p>sonage is y\rs1 & n m9e10 ,i answ]$1 8please tell me :]e y want me to sleep & re/4 ,i w accept1 ) gratitude1 any room y w (f] me1 ev5 if x 7 9 y\r cell> or gran>y4 ,i d n want to bo!r y 9 any way4 ,:5 ,i 0 "y1 a poor orphan 9 y\r p>i%1 "s tw5ty ye>s ago1 7 y n a fa!r to me8 ,please cont9ue to look ^u me z y\r own *ild1 = ,i h always lov$ y & consid]$ y z a fa!r1 & /ill d ! same4 ,7 y n my guide & advis]1 9 my fir/ /eps 9 ! ways ( ,god8 ,please cont9ue to be my fri5d & advis] to ! end ( y\r life4 ,my only ambition is to be y\r "r-h& man1 & to le>n f y\r old exp]i5ce & y\r s9c]e piety1 h[ to live & "w z a good prie/ ( ,jesus ,*ri/40 ,i _h n f9i%$ ! la/ s5t5ce1 :5 ! old man bur/ into te>s1 ?rew himself into my arms1 press$ me to 8 he>t1 ba!d me ) 8 te>s1 & said1 ) a voice half-suffocat$ by 8 sobs3 8,de> ,mr4 ,*9iquy1 =give me ! evil ?+s ,i h writt5 & said ab\t y4 ,y are welcome 9 my p>sonage1 & ,i bless ,god to h s5t me su* a "y fri5d1 :o w help me to c>ry ! burd5 ( my old age40 ,i !n h&$ him ! bi%op's lett]1 :i* _h confirm$ all ,i _h said ab\t my mission ( peace t[>ds him4 ,f t day to 8 dea?1 :i* occurr$ six mon?s aft]1 ,i nev] _h a m s9c]e fri5d ?an ,mr4 ,v>94 ,i ?ank$ ,god1 :o _h enabl$ me at once1 n only to dis>m ! *ief ( my oppon5ts1 b to trans=m him into my mo/ s9c]e & devot$ fri5d4 ,my hope 0 t ! p w\ld soon foll[ _! *ief1 & be reconcil$ to me1 b ,i did n expect t ?is w\ld be s soon1 & f su* an un=ese5 & unexpect$ cause4 ,! pr9cipal reason ! p _h to oppose my com+ to ,kam\raska1 01 t ,i 0 ! nephew ( ! ,hon4 ,amable ,dionne1 :o _h made a colossal =tune at _! exp5se4 ,! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,v>91 :o 0 always 9 8 debt1 0 also =c$ by ! circum/ances1 to buy ev]y?+1 bo? = himself & ! *ur*1 f him1 & _h to pay1 )\t a murmur1 ! mo/ exorbitant prices = ev]y?+4 ,9 t way1 ! *ur* & ! curate1 ?\gh !y _h v l>ge rev5ues1 _h nev] en\gh to cle> _! acc\nts4 ,:5 ! p he>d t ! nephew ( ,mons4 ,dionne 0 _! curate1 !y said to ea* o!r3 8,n[ our poor *ur* is =ev] ru9$1 = ! nephew w1 /ill m ?an ! curate1 favor 8 uncle1 & ! uncle w be less scrupul\s ?an ev] 9 ask+ mo/ unreasonable prices = 8 m]*&ise40 ,!y felt !y _h m ?an fall5 f ,*>ybdis into ,scylla4 ,! v next day aft] my arrival1 ! beadle told me t ! *ur* ne$$ a few y>ds ( cotton = "s repairs1 & ask$ me if he w\ld n g1 z usual1 to ,mr4 ,dionne's /ore4 ,i told him to g !re fir/1 ask ! price ( t article1 & !n g to ! o!r /ores1 ord]+ him to buy at ! *eape/ "o4 ,?irty c5ts 0 ask$ at ,mr4 ,dionne's1 & only fifte5 c5ts at ,mr4 ,/4 ,pi]re's2 ( c\rse we b\ght at ! latt]'s /ore4 ,! day 0 n ov] be=e ?is app>5tly insignificant fact 0 kn[n all ov] ! p>i%1 & 0 tak+ ! mo/ extraord9>y & un=ese5 proportions4 ,f>m]s w\ld meet ) _! neighbors1 & congratulate !mselves t1 at la/1 ! yoke impos$ ^u !m by ! old curate & ,mr4 ,dionne 0 brok52 t ! taxes !y _h to pay ! /ore 7 at an end1 ) ! monopoly :i* _h co/ !m s mu* money4 ,_m came to ,mr4 ,/4 ,pi]re to he> f 8 own lips t _! new curate _h1 at once1 fre$ !m f :at !y consid]$ ! long & ignom9i\s bondage1 aga9/ :i* !y s (t51 b s va9ly prote/$4 ,= ! re/ ( ! week1 ?is 0 ! only subject ( conv]sation4 ,!y congratulat$ !mselves1 t !y _h1 at la/1 a prie/1 ) su* an indep5d5t & hone/ m9d1 t he w\ld n d !m any inju/ice1 ev5 to please a relative 9 ^: h\se he _h sp5t ! ye>s ( 8 *ildhood4 ,?is simple act ( fair play t[>ds t p won ov] _! affection4 ,only "o little d>k spot rema9$ 9 _! m9ds aga9/ me4 ,!y _h be5 told t ! only subject on :i* ,i c\ld prea* 03 ,rum1 :iskey & drunk5ness4 ,& x seem$ to !m exce$+ly t$i\s to he> no?+ else f ! curate1 p>ticul>ly :5 !y 7 m ?an ev] det]m9$ to cont9ue dr9k+ _! social glasses ( br&y1 rum & w9e4 ,!re 0 an imm5se cr[d at *ur* ! next ,sunday4 ,my text 03 8,z ! ,fa!r has lov$ me1 s h ,i lov$ y40 ,%[+ !m h[ ,jesus _h prov$ t ,he 0 _! fri5d4 ,b _! s5tim5ts ( piety & pleasure at :at !y _h he>d 7 no?+ comp>$ to _! surprise :5 !y saw t ,i _h prea*$ ne>ly an h\r )\t say+ a ^w on :iskey1 rum or be]4 ,p are (t5 comp>$ to ! wat]s ( ! sea 9 ! ,holy ,scriptures4 ,:5 y see ! ro>+ waves da%+ on t rock to-day1 z if !y want$ to demoli% x1 d n fe> t ?is fury w la/ long4 ,! v next day1 if ! w9d has *ang$1 ! same wat]s w leave t rock alone1 to sp5d _! fury on ! opposite rock4 ,s x 0 9 ,kam\raska4 ,!y 7 full ( indignation & wra? :5 ,i set my feet 9 _! mid/2 b a few days lat]1 ^? v m5 w\ld h giv5 ! la/ drop ( _! blood to protect me4 ,! de> ,savi\r _h evid5tly se5 ! ?reat5+ /orm :i* 0 to de/roy ,8 poor unpr(itable s]vant4 ,he _h he>d ! ro>+ waves :i* 7 da%+ aga9/ me4 ,s he came d[n & bid ! /orm 8be /ill10 & ! waves be calm4 ,,*apt] ,,xl4 ,,organization ,,( ,,temp]ance ,,societies ,,9 ,,kam\raska ,,& ,,surr\nd+ ,,c\ntry--,,! ,,girl ,,9 ,,! ,,g>b ,,( ,a ,,man ,,9 ,,! ,,s]vice ,,( ,,! ,,curates ,,( ,,quebec ,,& ,,eb\lem5ts--,,fright5$ ,,by ,,! ,,sc&als ,,se5 ,,ev]y:]e--,,give ,,up ,,my ,,p>i% ,,( ,,kam\raska ,,to ,,jo9 ,,! 8,,oblates ,,( ,,m>y ,,immaculate ,,( ,,longgueil40 ,two days aft] my arrival at ,kam\raska1 ,i receiv$ a lett] f ! surr\nd+ prie/s1 at ! head ( :om 0 ! ,gr& ,vic> ,maill\x1 express+ ! hope t ,i w\ld n try to =m any temp]ance society 9 my new p>i%1 z ,i _h done 9 ,beauport2 = ! good reasons1 !y said1 t drunk5ness 0 n prevail+ 9 t "p ( ,canada1 z x 0 9 ! city ( ,quebec4 ,i answ]$ !m politely1 t1 s long z ,i %\ld be at ! head ( ?is new p>i%1 ,i w\ld try1 z ,i _h ev] done1 to m9d my own bus9ess1 & ,i hop$ t my neighbor+ fri5ds w\ld d ! same4 ,n long aft]1 ,i saw t ! curates felt a%am$ ( _! va9 attempt to intimidate me4 ,! next ,sabba?1 ! cr[d 0 great] ?an at ! fir/4 ,hav+ he>d t ! m]*ants 7 to />t ! next day1 ) _! s*oon]s1 to buy _! w9t] provisions ( rum1 ,i said1 9 a v solemn way1 be=e my s]mon3 8,my fri5ds1 ,i "k t1 to-morr[1 ! m]*ants leave = ,quebec1 to pur*ase _! rum4 ,let me advise !m1 z _! be/ fri5d1 n to buy any2 & z ! ambassador ( ,*ri/1 ,i =bid !m to br+ a s+le drop ( ^? poison\s dr9ks "h4 ,x w surely be _! ru91 if !y pay no att5tion to ?is fri5dly advice2 = !y w n sell a s+le drop ( x1 aft] next ,sabba?4 ,t day1 ,i w %[ to ! intellig5t p ( ?is p>i%1 t rum1 & all ! o!r drugs sold "h1 "u ! "n ( br&y1 w9e & be]1 are no?+ else ?an disgu/+1 deadly & curs$ poisons40 ,i !n prea*$ on ! words ( our ,savi\r3 8,be always ready2 = ye "k nei!r ! day nor ! h\r :5 ! ,son ( ,man come?40 ,?\gh ! p seem$ mu* pleas$ & impress$ by t second s]mon1 !y felt exce$+ly irritat$ at my few w>n+ words to ! m]*ants4 ,:5 ! s]vice 0 ov]1 !y all ralli$ ar\nd ! m]*ants to tell !m n to m9d :at !y _h he>d4 8,if our "y curate10 said !y1 8?9ks he w lead u by ! nose1 z he has done ) ! drunk>ds ( ,beauport1 he w soon see 8 mi/ake4 ,in/ead ( "o hundr$ tons1 z y br\ght la/ fall1 br+ u two hundr$1 ?is ye>2 we w dr9k !m to 8 heal?4 ,we h a good crop1 & we want to sp5d a jolly w9t]40 ,x is probable t ! *ur* ( ,kam\raska _h nev] se5 )9 its walls su* a cr[d z on ! second ,sabba? ( ,octob]1 #ahdb4 ,x 0 lit]ally cramm$4 ,curiosity _h attract$ ! p1 :o1 n less eag] to he> my fir/ gr& s]mon aga9/ rum1 ?an to see ! failure !y expect$1 & wi%$1 ( my fir/ ef=ts to =m a temp]ance society4 ,long be=e ! public s]vice1 at ! door ( ! *ur*1 z well z dur+ ! :ole prec$+ week1 ! p _h pl$g$ !mselves nev] to give up _! /rong dr9k1 & nev] to jo9 ! temp]ance society4 ,b :at are ! resolutions ( man aga9/ ,god8 ,is ,he n _! ma/]8 ,! half ( t fir/ s]mon on temp]ance 0 n he>d1 :5 t :ole multitude _h =gott5 _! public promises4 ,! he>ts 7 n only t\*$--!y 7 melt$ & *ang$ by ,god1 :o want$ to %[1 once m1 t ,8 works ( m]cy 7 above all ! works ( ,8 h&s4 ,f ! v fir/ day ( my arrival 9 ,kam\raska1 ,i _h made a s]i\s & exact inquiry ab\t ! untold mis]ies br\ght ^u ! p by intoxicat+ dr9ks4 ,i _h f\nd t1 dur+ ! la/ tw5ty ye>s1 twelve m5 _h be5 dr[n$1 & eight _h be5 froz5 to dea?1 :o _h left tw5ty wid[s & sixty orphans 9 ! mo/ di/ress+ pov]ty4 ,sixty f>m]s _h lo/ _! l&s1 & _h be5 oblig$ to emigrate to o!r places1 :]e !y 7 suff]+ all ! pangs ( pov]ty f ! drunk5ness ( _! p>5ts2 sev]al o!r families _h _! prop]ties mortgag$ = _! :ole value1 to ! rum m]*ants1 & 7 expect$1 e day1 to be turn$ out f _! inh]itances1 to pay _! rum bills4 ,sev5 mo!rs _h di$ 9 delirium trem5s1 "o _h hung h]self1 ano!r dr[n$ h]self :5 drunk4 ,"o hundr$ ?\s& doll>s _h be5 paid to ! rum m]*ants dur+ ! la/ fifte5 ye>s4 ,two hundr$ ?\s& m 7 due to ! /orekeep]2 ?ree-f\r?s ( :i* 7 = /rong dr9k4 ,f\r m5 _h be5 murd]$1 among :om 0 _! l&lord1 ,a*illes ,ta*e1 f _! drunk5 habits6 ,:5 ,i _h recapitulat$ all ^! facts1 :i* 7 public & und5iable1 & depict$ ! desolation ( ! ru9$ families1 compos$ ( _! own bro!rs1 si/]s1 & de> *ildr52 :5 ,i br\ght be=e _! m9ds1 ! te>s ( ! wid[s1 ! cries ( ! />v+ & nak$ *ildr51 ! %ame ( ! families1 ! r$ h&s ( ! murd]]s1 & ! mangl$ bodies ( _! victims2 ! et]nal cries ( ! lo/ f drunk5ness1 ! brok5-he>t$ fa!rs & mo!rs1 ^: *ildr5 _h be5 de/roy$ by /rong dr9k2 :5 ,i prov$ to !m t !re 0 n a s+le "o 9 _! mid/ :o _h n suff]$1 ei!r 9 8 own p]son1 or 9 t ( 8 fa!r or "m1 bro!rs1 si/]s or *ildr54 ,yes1 :5 ,i _h giv5 !m ! simple & awful /ory ( ! crimes committ$ 9 _! mid/2 ! ru9 & dea?s1 ! mis]y ( ?\s&s ( preci\s s\ls = :om ,*ri/ di$ 9 va91 ! *ur* 0 fill$ ) su* sobs & cries t ,i (t5 c\ld n be he>d4 ,_m times my voice 0 dr[n$ by ! indescribable confusion & lam5tation ( t :ole multitude4 ,unable to conta9 myself1 sev]al times ,i /opp$ & m+l$ my sobs & cries ) ^? ( my p4 ,:5 ! s]mon1 :i* la/$ two h\rs1 0 f9i%$1 ,i ask$ all ^? :o 7 det]m9$ to help me 9 /opp+ ! ravages ( intoxicat+ dr9ks1 9 dry+ ! te>s :i* !y caus$ to fl[1 & sav+ ! preci\s s\ls !y 7 de/roy+1 to come =w>d & take ! public pl$ge ( temp]ance1 by kiss+ a crucifix :i* ,i held 9 my h&4 ,?irte5 hundr$ & t5 came4 ,n fifty ( ! p _h refus$ to enroll !mselves "u ! bless$ & glori\s bann]s ( temp]ance6 & ^! few recalcitrants came =w>d1 ) a v few exceptions1 ! next "t ,i spoke on ! subject4 ,! v same day1 ! wives ( ! m]*ants s5t despat*es to _! husb&s 9 ,quebec1 to tell !m :at _h be5 done1 & n a s+le b>rel ( intoxicat+ dr9ks 0 br\ght by !m4 ,! g5]\s example ( ! admirable p ( ,kam\raska spoke ) an irresi/ible eloqu5ce to ! o!r p>i%es ( t di/rict1 & be=e long1 ! bless$ bann]s ( temp]ance float$ ov] all ! populations ( ,/4 ,pascal1 ,/4 ,&rew1 ,isle ,v]te1 ,cac\na1 ,rivi]e du ,l\p1 ,rim\ski1 ,matane1 ,/4 ,anne1 ,/4 ,ro*1 ,madawaska1 ,/4 ,b5oit1 ,/4 ,luce1 etc41 on ! s\? side ( ! ,/4 ,lawr5ce1 & ! ,eb\lem5ts1 ,la ,malbaye1 & ! o!r p>i%es on ! nor? side ( ! riv]2 & ! p kept _! pl$ge ) su* fidelity t ! trade 9 rum 0 lit]ally kill$ 9 t "p ( ,canada1 z x _h be5 9 ,beauport & its vic9ity4 ,! bless$ fruits ( ?is re=m 7 soon felt & se5 ev]y:]e1 9 ! public prosp]ity & ! spread ( education4 ,kam\raska1 :i* 0 ow+ #bjj1jjj1 to ! m]*ants 9 #ahdb1 _h n only paid its int]e/1 b _h r$uc$ its debt to only #abj1jjj1 :5 ,i left x to g to ,montreal1 9 #ahdf4 ,god only kn[s my joy at ^! admirable manife/ations ( 8 m]cies t[>d my c\ntry4 ,h[ev]1 ! joys ( man are nev] )\t _! mixture ( sadness4 ,9 ! good provid5ce ( ,god1 be+ invit$ by all ! curates to e/abli% temp]ance societies among _! p1 ,i _h ! sad opportunity1 z no prie/ ev] _h 9 ,canada1 to "k ! secret & public sc&als ( ea* p>i%4 ,:5 ,i w5t to ! ,eb\lem5ts1 on ! nor? side ( ! riv]1 invit$ by ! ,rev4 ,noel ,t\ssignant1 ,i le>n$ f ! v lips ( t "y prie/1 & ! ex-prie/1 ,tetreau1 ! hi/ory ( ! mo/ %ameful sc&als4 ,9 #ahcj1 a "y prie/ ( ,quebec1 call$ ,d]ome1 _h fall5 9 love ) "o ( 8 "y female p5it5ts ( ,v]*]es1 :]e he _h prea*$ a few days1 & he _h p]suad$ h] to foll[ him to ! p>sonage ( ,quebec4 ,! bett] to conceal _! iniquity f ! public1 he p]suad$ 8 victim to dress h]self z a "y man1 & ?r[ h] dress into ! riv]1 to make h] p>5ts & ! :ole p>i% believe t %e 0 dr[n$4 ,i _h se5 h] _m times at ! p>sonage ( ,quebec1 "u ! "n ( ,joseph1 & _h mu* admir$ h] ref9$ mann]s1 ?\gh m ?an once ,i 0 v mu* incl9$ to ?9k t ! sm>t ,joseph 0 no "o else ?an a lo/ girl4 ,b ! respect ,i _h = ! curate ( ,quebec 7:o 0 ! coadjutor ( ! bi%op7 & 8 "y vic>s1 caus$ me to reject ^? suspicions z unf\nd$4 ,h[ev]1 _m1 ev5 among ! fir/ citiz5s ( ! city1 _h ! same suspicions1 & !y press$ me to g to ! coadjutor & w>n him2 b ,i refus$1 & told ^? g5tlem5 to d t delicate "w !mselves1 & !y did x4 ,! position ( t high dignit>y & 8 vic> 0 n !n a v agreeable "o4 ,_! b>k _h evid5tly drift$ into dang]\s wat]s4 ,to keep ,joseph among !mselves 0 impossible1 aft] ! fri5dly advice f su* high qu>t]s1 & to dismiss him 0 n less dang]\s4 ,he knew too well h[ ! curate ( ,quebec1 ) 8 vic>s1 7 keep+ _! v[s ( celibacy1 to dismiss him )\t dang] to !mselves2 a s+le ^w f 8 lips w\ld de/roy !m4 ,happily1 = !m1 ,mr4 ,clem5t1 !n curate ( ! ,eb\lem5ts1 0 9 se>* ( su* a s]vant1 & took him to 8 p>sonage1 aft] p]suad+ ! bi%op-coadjutor to give ,joseph a l>ge sum ( money to seal 8 lips4 ,?+s w5t on pretty smoo?ly betwe5 ,joseph & ! prie/ = sev]al ye>s1 till "s suspicions arose 9 ! m9ds ( ! %>p-sight$ p ( ! p>i%1 :o told ! curate t x w\ld be saf] & m honorable = him to get rid ( 8 s]vant4 ,9 ord] to put an end to ^? suspicions1 & to reta9 him 9 ! p>sonage1 ! curate p]suad$ him to m>ry ! daught] ( a poor neighbor4 ,! ?ree bans 7 publi%$1 & ! two girls 7 duly m>ri$ by ! curate1 :o cont9u$ 8 crim9al intimacies1 9 ! hope t no "o w\ld tr\ble him any m on t subject4 ,b n long aft] he 0 remov$ to ,la ,petite ,rivi]e1 & 9 #ahch1 ! ,rev4 ,m4 ,tetreau 0 appo9t$ curate ( ! ,eb\lem5ts4 ,?is new prie/1 kn[+ no?+ ( ! abom9ations :i* 8 pr$ecessor _h practic$1 cont9u$ to employ ,joseph4 ,"o day1 :5 ,joseph 0 work+ at ! gate ( ! p>sonage1 9 ! pres5ce ( sev]al p1 a /rang] came & ask$ him if ,mr4 ,tetreau 0 at home4 8,yes1 sir1 ,mr4 ,curate is at home10 answ]$ ,joseph2 8b z y seem a /rang] to ! place1 w\ld y all[ me to ask y f :at p>i% y come80 8,i am n a%am$ ( my p>i%10 answ]$ ! /rang]4 8,i come f ,v]*]es40 ,at ! ^w 8,v]*]es10 ,joseph turn$ s pale t ! /rang] 0 puzzl$4 ,he look$ c>efully at him1 & exclaim$3 8,oh6 my ,god6 ,:at d ,i see "h8 ,g5evieve6 ,g5evieve6 ov] :om we h m\rn$ s long z dr[n$6 ,"h y are1 disguis$ z a man60 8,de> uncle0 7x 0 h] uncle72 8= ,god's sake1 n a ^w m "h60 ,b x 0 too late2 ! p :o 7 !re _h he>d ! uncle & ! niece4 ,_! long & secret suspicions 7 well-f\nd$4 ,"o ( _! =m] prie/s _h kept a girl1 "u ! disguise ( a man1 9 8 h\se2 & to bl9d 8 p m ?or\ghly1 he _h m>ri$ t girl to ano!r1 9 ord] to h !m bo? 9 ! h\se :5 he pleas$1 )\t awak5+ any suspicion6 ,! news w5t1 almo/ z quickly z lightn+1 f "o end to ! o!r ( ! p>i%1 & spread all ov] ! c\ntry1 on bo? sides ( ! ,/4 ,lawr5ce4 ,i _h he>d ( t horror1 b ,i c\ld n believe x4 ,h[ev]1 ,i _h to believe x1 :51 on ! spot1 ,i he>d f ! lips ( ! ex-curate1 ,m4 ,tetreau1 & ! new curate1 ,m4 ,noel de ,t\ssignant1 & f ! lips ( my l&lord1 ! ,honorable ,lat]ri]e1 ! foll[+ details1 :i* _h come to light only a %ort "t be=e4 ,! ju/ice ( ! peace _h inve/igat$ ! matt]1 9 ! "n ( public morality4 ,joseph 0 br\ght be=e ! magi/rates1 :o decid$ t a physician %\ld be *>g$ to make1 n a po/ mortem b an ante-mortem inque/4 ,! ,honorable ,lat]ri]e1 :o made ! inque/1 decl>$ t ,joseph 0 a girl1 & ! bonds ( m>riage 7 legally dissolv$4 ,at ! same "t1 ! curate ,m4 ,tetreau1 _h s5t a dispat* to ! ,"r ,rev4 ,bi%op-coadjutor ( ,quebec1 in=m+ him t ! "y man :om he _h kept 9 8 h\se1 sev]al ye>s1 0 legally prov$ a girl2 a fact :i*1 ,i ne$ h>dly /ate1 0 well kn[n by ! bi%op & 8 vic>s6 ,!y imm$iately s5t a tru/wor?y man ) #ejj1 to induce ! girl to leave ! c\ntry )\t delay1 le/ %e 7 prosecut$ & s5t to ! p5it5ti>y4 ,%e accept$ ! (f]1 & cross$ ! l9es to ! ,unit$ ,/ates ) h] #b1jjj1 :]e %e 0 soon m>ri$1 & :]e %e /ill lives4 ,i wi%$ t ?is /ory _h nev] be5 told me1 or at lea/1 t ,i might be all[$ to d\bt "s ( its circum/ances2 b !re 0 no help4 ,i 0 =c$ to ackn[l$ge t 9 my ,*ur* ( ,rome1 !re 0 su* corruption f head to foot1 :i* c\ld sc>cely be surpass$ 9 ,sodom4 ,i rememb] :at ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,p]ras _h told me ( ! te>s & desolation ( ,bi%op ,plessis1 :5 he _h discov]$ t all ! prie/s ( ,canada1 ) ! exception ( ?ree1 7 a!i/s4 ,illu/ration3 ,,c>d9al ,,newman4 ,i w\ld n be hone/1 did ,i n confess t ! p]sonal k ( t fact1 :i* ,i le>n$ 9 all its sc&al\s details f ! v lips ( unimpea*able witnesses1 sadd5$ me1 & = a "t1 %ook my fai? 9 my religion1 to its f\ndation4 ,i felt secretly a%am$ to belong to a body ( m5 s completely lo/ to e s5se ( hone/y1 z ! prie/s & bi%ops ( ,canada4 ,i _h he>d ( _m sc&als be=e4 ,! infamies ( ! gr& vic> ,manceau & ,quibli] ( ,montreal1 ,cadieux at ,?ree ,riv]s1 & ,viau at ,rivi]e ,ouelle4 ,! public acts ( depravity ( ! prie/s ,lelievre1 ,tabeau1 ,p\liot1 ,belisle1 ,brunet1 ,quevillon1 ,huot1 ,laju/e1 ,rabby1 ,crevi]1 ,bellec\rt1 ,valle1 ,mignault1 ,noel1 ,p9et1 ,duguez1 ,davely & _m o!rs1 7 kn[n to me1 z well z by ! :ole cl]gy4 ,b ! abom9ations ( :i* ,joseph 0 ! victim seem$ to ov]/ep ! conceivable limits ( infamy4 ,= ! fir/ "t1 ,i s9c]ely regrett$ t ,i 0 a prie/4 ,! prie/hood ( ,rome seem$ !n1 to me1 ! v fulfillm5t ( ! prophecy ( ,revelation1 ab\t ! great pro/itute1 :o makes ! nations drunk ) ! w9es ( h] pro/itutions4 ,auricul> confession1 :i* ,i knew to be ! fir/1 if n ! only cause1 ( ^! abom9ations1 appe>$ to me1 :at x really is1 a s*ool ( p]dition = ! prie/ & 8 female p5it5ts4 ,! prie/'s oa? ( celibacy1 0 to my eyes1 9 ^? h\rs ( di/ress1 b a %ameful mask to conceal a corruption :i* 0 unkn[n 9 ! mo/ deprav$ days ( old paganism4 ,new & bright lights came1 !n1 be=e my m9d :i*1 _h ,i foll[$ !m1 w\ld h guid$ me to ! tru? ( ! gospel4 ,b ,i 0 bl9d6 ,! ,good ,ma/] _h n yet t\*$ my eyes ) 8 div9e & life-giv+ h&4 ,i _h no idea t !re c\ld be any o!r *ur* ?an ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 9 :i* ,i c\ld be sav$4 ,i 01 h[ev]1 (t5 say+ to myself3 8,h[ c ,i hope to conqu] on a battlefield :]e s _m1 z /rong & ev5 mu* /rong] ?an ,i am1 h p]i%$80 ,i felt no long] at peace4 ,my s\l 0 fill$ ) tr\ble & anxiety4 ,i n only di/ru/$ myself1 b ,i lo/ confid5ce 9 ! re/ ( ! prie/s & bi%ops4 ,9 fact1 ,i c\ld n see any "o 9 :om ,i c\ld tru/4 ,?\gh my beautiful & de> p>i% ( ,kam\raska 01 m ?an ev]1 ov]:elm+ me ) tok5s ( its affection1 gratitude & respect1 x _h lo/ its attraction = me4 ,to :atev] side ,i turn$ my eyes1 ,i saw no?+ b ! mo/ s$uc+ examples ( p]v]sion4 ,x seem$ z if ,i 7 surr\nd$ by numb]less sn>es1 f :i* x 0 impossible to escape4 ,i wi%$ to dep>t f ?is deceitful & lo/ _w4 ,:5 my s\l 0 z dr[n$ "u ! waves ( a bitt] sea1 ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,guignes1 ,sup]ior ( ! ,mona/]y ( ! ,fa!rs ( ,oblates ( ,m>y ,immaculate1 at ,longueuil1 ne> ,montreal1 came to pass a few days ) me1 = ! b5efit ( 8 heal?4 ,i spoke to him ( t %ameful sc&al1 & did n conceal f him t my c\rage fail$ me1 :5 ,i look$ at ! torr5t ( iniquity :i* 0 sweep+ ev]y?+1 "u our eyes1 ) an irresi/ible =ce4 8,we are "h alone1 9 ! pres5ce ( ,god10 ,i said to him4 8,i confess t ,i feel an unspeakable horror at ! moral ru9 :i* ,i see ev]y:]e 9 our *ur*4 ,my prie/hood1 ( :i* ,i 0 s pr\d till lately1 seems to me1 to-day1 ! mo/ ignom9i\s yoke1 :5 ,i see x dragg$ 9 ! mud ( ! mo/ infam\s vices1 n only by ! imm5se majority ( ! prie/s1 b ev5 by our bi%ops4 ,h[ c ,i hope to save myself1 :5 ,i see s _m /rong] ?an ,i am1 p]i%+ all ar\nd me80 ,! ,rev]5d ,sup]ior1 ) ! k9dness ( a fa!r & ! gravity ( an apo/le1 answ]$ me3 8,i und]/& y\r fe>s p]fectly4 ,!y are legitimate & too well-f\nd$4 ,l y1 ,i am a prie/2 & l y1 if n m ?an y1 ,i "k ! numb]less & =midable dang]s :i* surr\nd ! prie/4 ,x is because ,i "k !m too well1 t ,i h n d>$ to be a secul> prie/1 a s+le day4 ,i knew ! humiliat+ & disgraceful hi/ory ( ,joseph & ! coadjutor bi%op ( ,quebec4 ,nay6 ,i "k _m ?+s /ill m horrible & unspeakable :i* ,i h le>n$ :5 prea*+ & he>+ confessions 9 ,france & 9 ,canada4 ,my fe> is t1 to-day1 !re are n _m m undefil$ s\ls among ! prie/s1 ?an 9 ,sodom1 9 ! days ( ,lot4 ,! fact is1 t x is morally impossible = a secul> prie/ to keep 8 v[s ( celibacy1 except by a miracle ( ! grace ( ,god4 ,our holy *ur* w\ld be a mod]n ,sodom1 long ago1 _h n our m]ciful ,god grant$ h] ! grace t _m ( our prie/s h always enroll$ !mselves among ! armies ( ! regul> prie/s1 9 ! diff]5t religi\s ord]s :i* are1 to ! *ur*1 :at ! ark 0 to ,noah & 8 *ildr51 9 ! days ( ! deluge4 ,only ! prie/s :om ,god calls1 9 ,8 m]cy1 to become memb]s ( any ( ^? ord]s1 are safe4 ,= !y are "u ! pat]nal c>e & surveillance ( sup]iors ^: zeal & *>ity are l a %ield to protect !m4 ,_! holy & /rict laws are l /rong walls & high t[]s :i* ! enemy _c /orm40 ,he !n spoke to me1 ) an irresi/ible eloqu5ce1 ( ! peace ( s\l :i* a regul> prie/ enjoys )9 ! walls ( 8 mona/]y4 ,he repres5t$1 9 ! mo/ attractive colors1 ! spiritual & con/ant joys ( ! he>t :i* "o feels :5 liv+1 day & night1 "u ! eyes ( a sup]ior to :om he has v[$ a p]fect submission4 ,he add$3 8,y\r provid5tial "w is f9i%$ 9 ! diocese ( ,quebec4 ,! temp]ance societies are e/abli%$ almo/ ev]y:]e4 ,we are 9 ne$ ( y\r long exp]i5ce & y\r pr(\nd /udies on t subject1 9 ! diocese ( ,montreal4 ,x is true t ! good ,bi%op de ,nancy has done :at he c\ld to support t holy cause1 b1 ?\gh he is work+ ) ! utmo/ zeal1 he has n /udi$ t subject en\gh to make a la/+ impression on ! p4 ,come ) u4 ,we are m ?an ?irty prie/s1 oblates ( ,m>y ,immaculate1 :o w be too happy to second y\r ef=ts 9 t noble "w1 :i* is too mu* = "o man alone4 ,moreov]1 y _c d ju/ice to y\r great p>i% ( ,kam\raska & to ! temp]ance cause toge!r4 ,y mu/ give up "o1 to consecrate y\rself to ! o!r4 ,take c\rage1 my "y fri5d6 ,(f] to ,god ! sacrifice ( y\r de> ,kam\raska1 z y made ! sacrifice ( y\r beautiful ,beauport1 "s ye>s ago1 = ! good ( ,canada & 9 ! int]e/ ( ! ,*ur*1 :i* calls y to its help40 ,x seem$ to me t ,i c\ld oppose no reasonable argum5t to ^! consid]ations4 ,i fell on my knees1 & made ! sacrifice ( my beautiful & preci\s ,kam\raska4 ,! la/ ,sabba? ( ,septemb]1 #ahdf1 9 ! mid/ ( te>s & desolation :i* no words c depict1 ,i gave my f>ewell address to ! s de> & intellig5t p ( ,kam\raska1 to g to ,longueuil & become a novice ( ! ,oblates ( ,m>y ,immaculate4 ,,*apt] ,,xli4 ,,p]v]sion ,,( ,,dr4 ,,newman ,,to ,,! ,,*ur* ,,( ,,rome ,,9 ,,! ,,light ,,( ,,8 ,,own ,,explanations1 ,,common ,,s5se ,,& ,,! ,,^w ,,( ,,god4 ,! ye> #ahdc w be long rememb]$ 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,rome = ! submission ( ,dr4 ,newman to h] au?ority4 ,?is 0 consid]$ by _m ,roman ,ca?olics z "o ( ! greate/ triumphs ev] ga9$ by _! *ur* aga9/ ,prote/antism4 ,b "s ( u1 m acqua9t$ ) ! daily contradictions & t]giv]sations ( ! ,ox=d div9e1 c\ld n associate ourselves 9 ! public rejoic+s ( our *ur*4 ,f almo/ ! v beg9n+ ( 8 public life1 ,dr4 ,newman1 z well z ,dr4 ,pusey1 appe>$ to _m ( u z c[>ds & traitors 9 ! ,prote/ant camp1 ^: object 0 to betray ! *ur* :i* 0 fe$+ !m1 & :i* !y 7 sworn to def5d4 ,!y bo? seem$ to u to be skillful b di%one/ conspirators4 ,dr4 ,newman1 caught 9 ! v act ( t conspiracy1 has boldly d5i$ x4 ,br\ght be=e ! tribunal ( public op9ion z a traitor :o1 ?\gh enroll$ "u ! bann]s ( ! ,*ur* ( ,engl&1 0 giv+ help & com=t to its foe1 ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 he has publi%$ a rem>kable book "u ! title ( 8,apologia pro vita sua10 to exculpate himself4 ,i hold 9 my h&s ! ,new ,york edition ( #ahfe4 ,few m5 w read t book f beg9n+ to end2 & /ill few] w und]/& x at its fir/ read+4 ,! art ( ?r[+ du/ 9 ! eyes ( ! public is br\ght to p]fection 9 t "w4 ,i h read _m books 9 my long life1 b ,i h nev] met ) any?+ l ! ,jesuit ability %[n by ,dr4 ,newman 9 giv+ a color ( tru? to ! mo/ palpable errors & falsehoods4 ,i h _h to read x at lea/ f\r times1 ) ! utmo/ att5tion1 be=e be+ sure ( hav+ unlock$ all its d>k corn]s & sophi/ries4 ,t we may be p]fectly fair t[>ds ,dr4 ,newman1 let u =get :at 8 adv]s>ies h writt5 aga9/ him1 & let u he> only :at he says 9 8 own def5ce4 ,"h x is4 ,i d>e say t 8 mo/ bitt] enemies c\ld nev] h be5 able to write a book s damag+ aga9/ him z ?is "o :i* he has giv5 u = 8 apology4 ,let me tell ! read] at once t ,i1 ) _m o!r prie/s ( ,rome1 felt at fir/ an unspeakable joy at ! read+ ( _m ( ! 8,tracts = ! ,times40 ,x is true t we ke5ly felt ! bl[s ,dr4 ,newman 0 giv+ u n[ & !n2 b we 7 soon consol$ by ! m deadly bl[s :i* he 0 /rik+ at 8 own ,*ur*--! ,*ur* ( ,engl&4 ,besides t1 x soon became evid5t t ! m he 0 advanc+ 9 8 controv]sial "w1 ! ne>] he 0 com+ to u4 ,we 7 n long )\t say+ to ea* o!r3 8,dr4 ,newman is evid5tly1 ?\gh secretly1 = u2 he is a ,roman ,ca?olic at he>t1 & w soon jo9 u4 ,x is only f want ( moral c\rage & hone/y t he rema9s a ,prote/ant40 ,b f ! v beg9n+ !re 0 a cl\d 9 my m9d1 & 9 ! m9ds ( _m o!r ( my co-prie/s1 ab\t him4 ,8 contradictions 7 s num]\s1 8 sudd5 transitions f "o side to ! o!r extreme1 :5 speak+ ( ,romanism & ,anglicanism2 8 eulogiums ( our ,*ur* to-day1 & 8 abuses ( x ! v next day2 8 expressions ( love & respect = 8 own ,*ur* 9 "o tract1 s sudd5ly foll[$ by ! condemnation ( h] de>e/ doctr9es & practices 9 ! next1 caus$ _m o!rs z well z myself to suspect t he _h no settl$ pr9ciples1 or fai? 9 any religion4 ,:at 0 my surprise1 :5 read+ ?is /range book1 ,i f\nd t my suspicions 7 too well f\nd$2 t ,dr4 ,newman 0 no?+ else ?an "o ( ^? free-?9k]s :o _h no real fai? 9 any ( ! sacr$ dogmas he 0 prea*+1 & on :i* he 0 writ+ s eloqu5tly6 ,:at 0 my a/oni%m5t :51 9 #ahfe1 ,i read 9 8 own book1 ! confession made by t un=tunate man t he 0 no?+ else b a giant wea!rcock1 :5 ! :ole p ( ,engl& 7 look+ ^u him z "o ( ! mo/ s9c]e & le>n$ m9i/]s ( ! ,gospel6 ,"h is 8 own confession1 pages #aaa1 #aab4 ,speak+ ( ! ye>s he _h sp5t 9 ! ,episcopal ,*ur* z a m9i/]1 he says3 8,alas6 ,x 0 my portion1 = :ole ye>s1 to rema9 )\t any satisfactory basis = my religi\s pr(ession2 9 a /ate ( moral sickness1 nei!r able to acquiesce 9 ,anglicanism1 nor able to g to ,rome60 ,?is is ,c>d9al ,newman1 pa9t$ by himself6 ,he tells u h[ mis]able he 0 :5 an ,episcopalian m9i/]1 by feel+ t 8 religion _h no basis1 no f\ndation6 ,:at is a prea*] ( religion :o feels t he has no basis1 no f\ndation1 no reason to believe 9 t religion8 ,is he n t bl9d man ( :om ,*ri/ speaks1 8:o leads o!r bl9d m5 into ! dit*80 ,note x is n ,rev4 ,*>les ,k+sley2 x is n any ( ! able ,prote/ant controv]siali/s3 x is n ev5 ! old ,*9iquy1 :o says t ,dr4 ,newman 0 no?+ else b an unbeliev]1 :5 ! ,prote/ant p 7 look+ ^u him z "o ( _! mo/ pi\s & s9c]e ,*ri/ian !ologians4 ,x is ,dr4 ,newman himself :o1 )\t suspect+ x1 is =c$ by ! m>vell\s ,provid5ce ( ,god1 to reveal t deplorable fact 9 8 8,apologia pro vita sua40 ,n[ :at 0 ! op9ion ent]ta9$ by him ( ! high & l[ sections ( 8 *ur*8 ,"h are 8 v words1 page #ia3 8,z to ! ,high ,*ur* & ! ,l[ ,*ur*1 ,i ?\ght t ! "o _h n mu* m ( a logical basis ?an ! o!r2 :ile ,i _h a ?or\gh contempt = ! ,evangelical60 ,b please obs]ve t :5 ?is m9i/] ( ! ,*ur* ( ,engl& _h f\nd1 ) ! help ( ,dr4 ,pusey1 t ?is *ur* _h no logical basis1 & t he _h a 8?or\gh contempt = ! ,evangelical10 he kept a firm & cont9u\s hold ^u ! liv+ :i* he 0 enjoy+ f day to day4 ,nay1 x is :5 paid by 8 *ur* to prea* h] doctr9es & fight h] battles t he set at "w to raise ano!r *ur*6 ,( c\rse ! new *ur* 0 to h a firm basis on logic1 hi/ory & ! ,gospel2 ! new *ur* 0 to be wor?y ( ! ,briti% p1 x 0 to be ! mod]n ark to save ! p]i%+ _w6 ,! read] w p]haps ?9k ,i am jok+1 & t ,i am c>icatur+ ,dr4 ,newman4 ,no6 ! h\r 9 :i* we live is too solemn to be sp5t 9 jokes--x is r ) te>s & sobs t we mu/ approa* ! subject4 ,"h are ! v words ( ,dr4 ,newman ab\t ! new *ur* he wi%$ to build aft] demoli%+ ! ,*ur* ( ,engl& z e/abli%$ by law4 ,he says 7page #aaf73 8,i h said en\gh on :at ,i consid] to h be5 ! g5]al objects ( ! v>i\s works :i* ,i wrote1 edit$1 or prompt$ 9 ! ye>s :i* ,i am review+4 ,i want$ to br+ out 9 a sub/antive =m a liv+ ,*ur* ( ,engl&1 9 a position prop] to h]self1 & f\nd$ on di/9ct pr9ciples2 z f> z pap] c\ld d x1 & z e>ne/ly prea*+ x & influ5c+ o!rs t[>d x1 c\ld t5d to make x 9 fact2--a liv+ *ur*1 made ( fle% & blood1 ) voice1 complexion1 motion & action1 & a w ( its own40 7,! italics are m9e47 ,if ,i _h n said t ^! words 7 writt5 by ,dr4 ,newman1 w\ld ! read] h suspect$ x8 ,:at is to be ! "n ( ! new *ur*8 ,dr4 ,newman himself has call$ x 8,via ,m$ia40 ,z ! phrase indicates1 x 0 to /& betwe5 ! rival ,*ur*es ( ,engl& & ,rome1 & x 0 to be built ) ! mat]ials tak51 z mu* z possible1 f ! ru9s ( bo?4 ,! fir/ ?+ to be done1 !n1 0 to demoli% t huge1 illogical1 unscriptural1 un*ri/ian *ur*1 re/or$ by ! ,engli% re=m]s4 ,dr4 ,newman bravely set to "w1 "u ! eye & direction ( ,dr4 ,pusey4 ,8 m]ciless hamm] 0 he>d almo/ day & night f #ahcc to #ahcd1 /rik+ alt]nately1 ) h>d bl[s1 n[ aga9/ ! *ur* ( ! ,pope1 :om he rail$ ,anti*ri/1 & !n aga9/ 8 own *ur*1 :i* he 01 v soon1 to f9d /ill m corrupt$ & defil$ ?an its anti-,*ri/ian rival4 ,=1 z he 0 proce$+ 9 8 "w ( demolition1 he tells u t he f\nd m cle>ly1 e day1 t ! mat]ials & ! f\ndations ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome 7 exce$+ly bett] ?an ^? ( 8 own4 ,he !n det]m9$ to give a c\p de grace to ! ,*ur* ( ,engl&1 & /rike su* a bl[ t h] walls w\ld be =ev] pulv]iz$4 ,8 p]fidi\s tract ,,xc4 aims at ?is object4 ,no?+ c surpass ! ability & ! pi\s cunn+ ) :i* ,dr4 ,newman tries to conceal 8 %ameful conspiracy 9 8 8,apologia40 ,he> ! un-,briti% & unmanly excuses :i* he gives = hav+ deceiv$ 8 read]s1 :5 he 0 look$ ^u z ! mo/ reliable !ologian ( ! day1 9 def5ce ( ! doctr9e ( ! ,*ur* ( ,engl&4 ,9 pages #bcf-cg he says3 8,h[ c\ld ,i ev] hope to make !m believe 9 a second !ology1 :5 ,i _h *eat$ !m 9 ! fir/8 ,) :at face c\ld ,i publi% a new edition ( a dogmatic cre$1 & ask !m to receive x z gospel8 ,w\ld x n be pla9 to !m t no c]ta9ty 0 to be f\nd any:]e8 ,well1 9 my def5ce1 ,i c\ld make b a lame apology2 h[ev]1 x 0 ! true "o--viz3 t ,i _h n read ! ,fa!rs critically en\gh2 t 9 su* nice po9ts z ^? :i* det]m9e ! angle ( div]g5ce betwe5 ! two *ur*es1 ,i _h made consid]able miscalculations2 & h[ came ?is ab\t8 ,:y1 ! fact 01 unpleasant z x 0 to av[1 t ,i _h lean$ too mu* ^u ! ass]tions ( ,u%]1 ,j]emy ,taylor1 or ,b>r[1 & _h be5 deceiv$ by !m40 ,"h is a specim5 ( ! le>n+ & hone/y ( ! great ,ox=d div9e6 ,dr4 ,newman confesses t :5 he 0 tell+ 8 p 8,/4 ,augu/9e says ?is1 ,/4 ,j]ome says t0--:5 he assur$ !m t ,/4 ,gregory support$ ?is doctr9e1 & ,orig5 t1 x 0 all false4 ,^? holy fa!rs _h nev] taught su* doctr9es4 ,x 0 ,u%]1 ,taylor & ,b>r[ :o 7 cit+ !m1 & !y _h deceiv$ him6 ,is x n a /range ?+ t su* a %rewd man z ,dr4 ,newman %\ld h s completely de/roy$ 8 own good "n 9 ! v book he wrote1 ) s mu* c>e & +5uity1 to def5d himself8 ,"o rema9s conf\nd$--he c h>dly believe 8 own eyes at su* want ( hone/y 9 su* a man4 ,x is evid5t t 8 m9d 0 tr\bl$ at ! s\v5ir ( su* a c\rse ( proc$ure4 ,b he want$ to excuse himself by say+ x 0 ! fault ( ,u%]1 ,taylor & ,b>r[6 ,are we n =cibly br\ght to ! solemn & t]rible drama 9 ! ,g>d5 ( ,ed58 ,adam hop$ to be excus$ by say+1 8,! woman :om ?\ gave/ to be ) me1 %e gave me ! fruit ( ! tree1 & ,i did eat40 ,! woman said1 8,! s]p5t beguil$ me1 & ,i did eat40 ,b :at 0 ! result ( ^? excuses8 ,we read3 8,!re=e ! ,"l ,god s5t him =? f ! ,g>d5 ( ,ed540 ,dr4 ,newman has lo/ ! preci\s inh]itance ,god has giv5 him4 ,he has lo/ ! lamp he _h receiv$ to guide 8 /eps1 & he is n[ 9 ! d>k dungeon ( ,pop]y1 wor%ipp+ z a poor slave1 ! waf] god ( ,rome4 ,b :at has become ( t new *ur* or religion1 ! ,via ,m$ia1 :i* has j come out f ! sickly bra9 ( ! ,ox=d pr(essor8 ,let u he> its sad & premature end f ,dr4 ,newman himself4 ,let me1 h[ev]1 premise1 t :5 ,dr4 ,newman began 8 attacks aga9/ 8 *ur*1 he at fir/ s skillfully mix$ ! mo/ eloqu5t eulogiums ) 8 criticisms1 t1 ?\gh _m s9c]e ,*ri/ians 7 griev$1 few d>$ to compla94 ,! names ( ,pusey & ,newman comm&$ su* respect t few rais$ _! voices aga9/ ! conspiracy4 ,?is embold5$ !m4 ,mon? aft] mon? !y became ungu>d$ 9 _! d5unciations ( ! ,*ur* ( ,engl&1 & m explicit 9 _! support ( ,romanism4 ,9 ! meantime1 ! ,*ur* ( ,rome 0 reap+ a ri* h>ve/ ( p]v]ts2 = _m ,prote/ants 7 unsettl$ 9 _! fai?1 & 7 go+ ! :ole l5g? ( ! road to ,rome1 s cunn+ly indicat$ by ! conspirators4 ,at la/1 ! #ij? tract appe>$ 9 #ahdc4 ,x fell z a ?und]bolt on ! *ur*4 ,a l\d cry ( indignation 0 rais$ all ov] ,engl& aga9/ ^? :o _h s m]cilessly /ruck at ! he>t ( t *ur* :i* !y _h sworn to def5d4 ,! bi%ops almo/ unanim\sly d5\nc$ ,dr4 ,newman & 8 ,romi% t5d5cies1 & %[$ ! absurdity ( 8 ,via ,m$ia4 ,n[1 let u he> him tell+ himself ?is episode ( 8 life4 ,= ,i want to be p]fectly fair to ,dr4 ,newman4 ,x is only f 8 own words & public acts t ,i want ! read] to judge him4 ,"h is :at he says ( himself1 aft] be+ publicly condemn$3 8,i saw inde$ cle>ly t my place 9 ! movem5t 0 lo/4 ,public confid5ce 0 at an end4 ,my occupation 0 gone4 ,x 0 simply an impossibility t ,i c\ld say any?+ h5ce=? to good effect1 :5 ,i _h be5 po/$ up by ! ,m>%al on ! butt]y hat* ( e college ( my ,univ]sity aft] ! mann] ( discommon$ pa/ry-cooks1 & :51 9 e "p ( ! c\ntry1 & e class ( society1 ?r\gh e organ & occasion ( op9ion1 9 newspap]s1 9 p]iodicals1 at meet+s1 9 pulpits1 at d9n]-tables 9 c(fee-rooms1 9 railway c>riages1 ,i 0 d5\nc$ z a traitor :o _h laid 8 tra91 & 0 detect$ 9 ! v act ( fir+ x aga9/ ! "t-honor$ e/abli%m5t40444 8,confid5ce 9 me 0 lo/4 ,b ,i _h already lo/ full confid5ce 9 myself40 7p4 #acb47 ,let ! read] he> ^! words f ! v lips ( ,dr4 ,newman--8,confid5ce 9 me 0 lo/6 ,b ,i _h already lo/ full confid5ce 9 myself60 7p4 #acb47 ,are ^! words ! indications ( a brave1 innoc5t man8 ,or are !y n ! cry ( despair ( a c[>dly & guilty consci5ce8 ,0 x n :5 ,wi%>t he>d t ! ,pope & 8 millions ( slaves _h condemn$ him to dea?1 t he rais$ 8 head z a giant1 & %[$ t he 0 m above 8 accus]s & 8 judges ?an ! heav5s are above ! e>?8 ,_h he lo/ 8 confid5ce 9 himself & 9 8 ,god :5 he said3 8,i am happy to suff] & die 9 ! cause ( ,tru?80 ,did ,lu!r lose confid5ce 9 himself & 9 8 ,god1 :5 condemn$ by ! ,pope & all 8 ,bi%ops1 & ord]$ to g be=e ! ,emp]or to be condemn$ to dea?1 if he w\ld n retract8 ,no6 ,x is 9 ^? h\rs ( trial t he made ! _w to re-e*o ! sublime words ( ,david3 8,god is our refuge & our /r5g?1 a pres5t help 9 tr\ble4 ,!re=e1 we w n fe>1 ?\gh ! e>? be remov$1 & ?\gh ! m\nta9s be c>ri$ into ! mid/ ( ! sea4 ,?\gh ! wat]s !re( ro> & be tr\bl$1 ?\gh ! m\nta9s %ake ) ! swell+ !re(40 ,b ,lu!r _h a good cause4 ,he knew1 he felt1 t ! ,god ( ,heav5 0 on 8 side1 :5 ,dr4 ,newman knew well t he 0 deceiv+ ! _w1 aft] hav+ deceiv$ himself4 ,lu!r 0 /rong & fe>less3 = ! voice ( ,jesus _h come ?r\gh ! fifte5 c5turies to tell him3 8,fe> n1 ,i am ) !e40 ,dr4 ,newman 0 weak1 trembl+ be=e ! /orm1 = 8 consci5ce 0 reproa*+ him = 8 trea*]y & 8 unbelief4 ,did ,latim] falt] & lose 8 confid5ce 9 himself & 9 8 ,god1 :5 condemn$ by 8 judges & ti$ to ! /ake to be burnt8 ,no6 ,x is !n t he utt]$ ^? immortal & sublime words3 8,ma/] ,ridley3 ,be ( good com=t & play ! man2 we %all1 ?is day1 light a c&le1 by ,god's grace1 9 ,engl&1 z ,i tru/ %all nev] be put out60 ,?is is ! language ( m5 :o are fight+ = ,*ri/ & ,8 ,gospel4 ,dr4 ,newman c\ld n use su* noble language :5 he 0 betray+ ,*ri/ & ,8 ,gospel4 ,n[1 let u he> f himself :51 aft] hav+ lo/ ! confid5ce ( 8 ,*ur* & 8 c\ntry1 & hav+ also lo/ 8 confid5ce 9 himself1 he saw a gho/1 & f\nd t ! ,*ur* ( ,rome 0 "r4 ,at page #aeg1 he says3 8,my fri5d1 an anxi\sly religi\s man1 po9t$ out ! palm>y words ( ,/4 ,augu/9e :i* 7 conta9$ 9 "o ( ! extracts made 9 ! 7,dubl97 ,review1 & :i* _h escap$ my obs]vation1 #8,securus judicat orbis t]r>um4' ,he repeat$ ^! words aga9 & aga92 & :5 he 0 gone1 !y kept r++ 9 my e>s4444 ,! words ( ,/4 ,augu/9e /ruck me ) su* a p[] :i* ,i nev] _h felt f any words be=e4 ,to take a famili> in/ance1 !y 7 l ! #8,turn aga91 ,:itt+ton1' ( ! *ime2 or1 to take a m s]i\s "o1 !y are l ! #8tolle lege' ( ! *ild :i* conv]t$ ,/4 ,augu/9e himself4 #8,securus judicat orbis t]r>um6' ,by ^? great words ( ! anci5t fa!r1 ! !ory ( ! ,via ,m$ia 0 absolutely pulv]iz$4 ,i became excit$ at ! view ?us op5$ ^u me4444 ,i _h se5 ! %ad[ ( a h& ^u ! wall4444 ,he :o has se5 a gho/ _c be z if he _h nev] se5 x4 ,! heav5 _h op5$ & clos$ aga94 ,! ?\ght1 = ! mom5t1 _h be53 #8,! ,*ur* ( ,rome w be f\nd "r1 aft] all4'0 7#aeh74 ,x w\ld be amus+1 inde$1 if x 7 n s humiliat+1 to see ! naivete ) :i* ,dr4 ,newman confesses 8 own ab]ration1 want ( judgm5t & hone/y 9 ref]5ce to ! pet s*eme ( 8 :ole !ological exi/5ce at ,ox=d4 8,by ^! words10 he says1 8! ,via ,m$ia 0 absolutely pulv]iz$60 ,we all "k ! hi/ory ( ! m\nta9 9 travail1 :i* gave bir? to a m\se4 ,dr4 ,newman tells u frankly t1 aft] t5 ye>s ( h>d & pa9ful travail1 he produc$ some?+ less ?an a m\se4 ,8 ,via ,m$ia 0 pulv]iz$2 x turn$ to be only a h&ful ( du/4 ,rememb] ! high-s\nd+ ( 8 trumpet ab\t 8 plan ( a new *ur*1 t ,new ,j]usalem on e>?1 ! *ur* ( ! future :i* 0 to take ! place ( 8 rott5 ,*ur* ( ,engl&4 ,let me repeat to y 8 v words ab\t t new ark ( salvation ) :i* ! pr(essor ( ,ox=d 0 to save ! _w4 7,page #aaf73 8,i want$ to br+ out1 9 a sub/antive =m1 a liv+ ,*ur* ( ,engl&1 9 a position prop] to h]self & f\nd$ on di/9ct pr9ciples1 z f> z pap] c\ld d x1 & z e>ne/ly prea*+ x & influ5c+ o!rs t[>ds x c\ld t5d to make x a fact3 a liv+ *ur*1 made ( fle% & blood1 ) voice1 complexion1 & motion1 & action1 & a w ( its own40 ,n[1 :at 0 ! end ( t ma/]piece ( !ological ar*itecture ( ,dr4 ,newman8 ,"h is its hi/ory1 giv5 by ! great ar*itect himself3 8,i read ! palm>y words ( ,/4 ,augu/9e1 #8,securus judicat orbis t]r>um6' ,by ^? great words ( ! anci5t fa!r1 ! !ory ( ! ,via ,m$ia 0 pulv]iz$6 ,i became excit$ at ! view ?us op5$ be=e me4 ,i _h se5 ! %ad[ ( a h& on ! wall4 ,he :o has se5 a gho/ c nev] be z if he _h n se5 x2 ! heav5s _h op5$ & clos$ aga94 ,! ?\ght1 = a mom5t1 0 #8,! ,*ur* ( ,rome w be f\nd "r1 aft] all4'0 7#aeh74 ,h we ev] se5 a man de/roy+ himself m completely at ! v mom5t t he tries to def5d himself8 ,"h he does +5i\sly confess :at e "o knew be=e1 t 8 :ole "w1 = ! la/ t5 ye>s1 0 n only a self-deception1 b a supreme ef=t to deceive ! _w--8 ,via ,m$ia 0 a p]fect /r+ ( infidelity1 sophism1 & folly4 ,! :ole fabric _h fall5 to ! gr\nd at ! sight ( a gho/6 ,to build a gr& /ructure1 9 ! place ( 8 ,*ur* :i* he want$ to demoli%1 he _h ?\ght x 0 suffici5t to ?r[ a great deal ( glitt]+ s&1 ) "s blue1 :ite1 & r$ du/1 9 ! air6 ,he tells u t "o sad h\r came :5 he he>d five ,lat9 words f ,/4 ,augu/9e1 saw a gho/--& 8 great /ructure fell to ! gr\nd66 ,:at does ?is all mean8 ,x simply means t ,god ,almighty has dealt ) ,dr4 ,newman z ,he did ) ! impi\s ,ph>aoh 9 ! ,r$ ,sea1 :5 he 0 m>*+ at ! head ( 8 army aga9/ ! *ur* ( old1 8 *os5 p1 to de/roy !m4 ,dr4 ,newman 0 n only m>*+ ) ,dr4 ,pusey at ! head ( an army ( !ologians to de/roy ! ,*ur* ( ,god1 b he 0 employ+ all ! res\rces ( 8 intellect1 all 8 false & delusive sci5ce1 to raise an idolatr\s *ur* 9 its place2 & :5 ,ph>aoh & ,dr4 ,newman ?\ght !mselves sure ( success1 ! ,god ( ,heav5 conf\nd$ !m bo?4 ,! fir/ w5t d[n ) 8 army to ! bottom ( ! sea z a piece ( lead4 ,! second lo/1 n 8 life1 b some?+ inf9itely m preci\s--he lo/ 8 reputation = intellig5ce1 sci5ce & integrity2 he lo/ ! light ( ! ,gospel1 & became p]fectly bl9d1 aft] hav+ lo/ 8 place 9 ! k+dom ( ,*ri/6 ,i h nev] judg$ a man by ! he>say ( anyone1 & ,i w\ld pref] to h my tongue cut out ?an to repeat a ^w ( :at ! adv]s>ies ( ,dr4 ,newman h said aga9/ him4 ,b we h ! "r1 & ,i ?9k x is our duty1 to he> & consid] :at he says ( himself1 & to judge him on 8 own confession4 ,at page #agd we read ^! words f 8 own p5 to a fri5d3 8,i _c disguise f myself t my prea*+ is n calculat$ to def5d t sy/em ( religion :i* has be5 receiv$ = ?ree hundr$ ye>s1 & ( :i* ! ,heads ( ,h\ses are ! legitimate ma9ta9]s 9 ?is place4444 ,i fe> ,i mu/ all[ t1 :e!r ,i w or no1 ,i am dispos+ !m 7! "y m57 t[>ds ,rome40 ,"h ,dr4 ,newman decl>es1 9 pla9 ,engli%1 t he 0 dispos+ 8 he>]s & /ud5ts at ,ox=d to jo9 ! ,*ur* ( ,rome6 ,i ask x3 :at c we ?9k ( a man :o is paid & sworn to d a ?+1 :o n only does x n1 b :o does ! v contr>y8 ,:o w\ld hesitate to call su* a man di%one/8 ,:o w\ld hesitate to say t su* a "o has no respect = ^? :o employ him1 & no respect = himself8 ,dr4 ,newman writes ?is :ole book to refute ! public accusation t he 0 a traitor1 t he 0 prep>+ ! p to leave ! ,*ur* ( ,engl& & to submit to ! ,pope4 ,b1 /range to say1 x is 9 t v book we f9d ! irrefutable pro( ( 8 %ameful & ignom9i\s trea*]y6 ,9 a lett] to ,dr4 ,russell1 ,presid5t ( ! ,roman ,ca?olic ,college ( ,maynoo?1 he wrote1 page #bbg3 8,roman ,ca?olics w f9d ?is to be ! /ate ( ?+s 9 "t to come1 :atev] promise !y may fancy !re is ( a l>ge secession to _! *ur*4 ,?is man or t may leave u1 b !re w be no g5]al movem5t4 ,!re is1 inde$1 an incipi5t movem5t ( our *ur* t[>ds y\rs1 & ?is y\r lead+ m5 are do+ all !y c to fru/rate by _! unwe>i$ ef=ts1 at all risks to c>ry (f individuals4 ,:5 w !y "k _! position1 & embrace a l>g] & wis] policy80 ,is x n evid5t "h t ,god 0 bl9d+ ,dr4 ,newman1 & t ,he 0 mak+ him confess 8 trea*]y 9 ! v mom5t t he 0 try+ to conceal x8 ,d we n see cle>ly t he 0 compla9+ ( ! unwise policy ( ! lead]s ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome :o 7 ret>d+ t incipi5t movem5t ( 8 *ur* t[>ds ,romanism1 = :i* he 0 work+ day & night ) ,dr4 ,pusey8 ,b _h n ,dr4 ,newman confess$ 8 own trea*]y1 we h1 to-day1 its und5iable pro( 9 ! lett] ( ,dr4 ,pusey to ! ,engli% ,*ur* ,union1 writt5 9 #ahgi4 ,speak+ ( ,dr4 ,newman & ! o!r ,tract>ians1 he says3 8,an acute man1 ,dr4 ,hawk9s1 ,provo/ ( ,oriel1 said ( ! #8,tracts1' on _! fir/ appe>ance1 #8,i "k !y h a =c$ circulation4' ,we put ! leav5 into ! meal1 & wait$ to see :at w\ld come ( x4 ,our object 0 to ,ca?olicise ,engl&40 ,& ?is confession ( ,dr4 ,pusey1 t he want$ to ,ca?olicise ,engl&1 is fully confirm$ by ,dr4 ,newman 7page #ajh1 #aji7 :]e he says3 8,i suspect x 0 ,dr4 ,pusey's influ5ce & example :i* set me & made me set o!rs on ! l>g] & m c>eful works 9 def5se ( ! pr9ciples ( ! movem5t :i* foll[$0 7t[>ds ,rome7 89 a c\rse ( ye>s40 ,no?+ is m curi\s ?an to he> f ,dr4 ,newman himself ) :at skill he 0 try+ to conceal 8 p]fidi\s ef=ts 9 prep>+ t movem5t t[>ds ,rome4 ,he says on t subject1 page #abd3 8,i 0 emb>rass$ 9 consequ5ce ( my wi% to g z f> z possible 9 int]pret+ ! articles 9 ! direction ( ,roman dogma1 )\t disclos+ :at ,i 0 do+ to ! p>ties ^: d\bts ,i 0 meet+1 :o might be1 !reby1 enc\rag$ to g /ill f>!r ?an1 at pres5t1 !y f\nd 9 !mselves any call to d40 ,a /raw fall5 on ! wat] indicates ! way ! tide goes4 ,"h we h ! /raw1 tak5 by ,dr4 ,newman himself1 & ?r[n by him on ! wat]4 ,a ?\s& volumes writt5 by ! ex-,pr(essor ( ,ox=d to d5y t he 0 a conspirator at "w to lead 8 p to ,rome1 :5 9 ! s]vice ( ! ,*ur* ( ,engl&1 c\ld n de/roy ! evid5t pro( ( 8 guilt giv5 by himself 9 ?is /range book4 ,if we want to h a pro( ( ! supreme contempt ,dr4 ,newman _h = 8 read]s1 & 8 daily habit ( deceiv+ !m by sophi/ries & incorrect ass]tions1 we h x 9 ! rem>kable l9es :i* ,i f9d at page #abc ( 8 ,apologia4 ,speak+ ( 8 8doctr9al developm5t10 he says3 8,i want$ to asc]ta9 :at 0 ! limit ( t ela/icity 9 ! direction ( ,roman dogma4 ,b1 next1 ,i _h a way ( inquiry ( my own :i* ,i /ate )\t def5d+4 ,i in/anc$ x aft]w>d 9 my essay on #8,doctr9al ,developm5t4' ,t "w1 ,i believe1 ,i h n read s9ce ,i publi%$ x1 & ,i d\bt n at all t ,i h made _m mi/akes 9 x1 p>tly f my ignorance ( ! details ( doctr9e z ! ,*ur* ( ,rome holds !m1 b p>tly f my impati5ce to cle> z l>ge a range = ! ,pr9ciples ( doctr9al developm5t 7waiv+ ! "q ( hi/orical fact7 z 0 consi/5t ) ! /rict apo/olicity & id5tity ( ! ,ca?olic cre$4 ,9 l mann]1 z reg>ds ! ,?irty-n9e ,articles1 my me?od ( inquiry 0 to leap #89 m$ias res'0 7#abc-abd74 ,dr4 ,newman is ! au?or ( two new sy/ems ( !ology2 &1 f 8 own confession1 ! two sy/ems are a comp5dium ( error1 absurdities1 & folly4 ,8 ,via ,m$ia 0 8pulv]iz$0 by ! vision ( a gho/1 :5 he he>d ! f\r words ( ,/4 ,augu/9e3 8,securus judicat orbis t]r>um40 ,! second1 kn[n "u ! "n ( 8,doctr9al ,developm5t10 is1 f 8 own confession1 full ( errors on acc\nt ( 8 ignorance ( ! subject on :i* he 0 writ+1 & 8 own impati5ce to support 8 sophisms4 ,dr4 ,newman is really un=tunate 9 8 pat]nity4 ,he is ! fa!r ( two *ildr54 ,! fir/-born 0 call$ ,via ,m$ia4 ,b x _h nei!r head nor feet1 x 0 suffocat$ on ! day ( its bir? by a 8gho/40 ,! second1 call$ 8,doctr9al ,developm5t10 0 n viable4 ,! fa!r is s %ock$ ) ! sight ( ! mon/]1 t he publicly confess$ its de=mities & cries out1 8,mi/ake6 mi/ake6 mi/ake60 7pages #abc-abd ,apologia pro vita sua74 ,! tr\bl$ consci5ce ( ,dr4 ,newman has =c$ him to confess 7page #aaa7 t he 0 mis]able1 f 8 want ( fai?1 :5 a m9i/] ( ! ,*ur* ( ,engl& & a ,pr(essor ( ,!ology ( ,ox=d3 8,alas6 x 0 my portion = :ole ye>s to rema9 )\t any satisfactory basis = my religi\s pr(ession60 ,at page #agd & #age he tells u h[ mis]able & anxi\s he 0 :5 ! voice ( 8 consci5ce reproa*$ him 9 ! position he held 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,engl&1 :ile lead+ h] p to ,rome4 ,at page #aeh he confesses 8 unspeakable confusion :5 he saw 8 supreme folly 9 build+ up ! ,via ,m$ia1 & he>d x cra% at ! appe>ance ( a gho/4 ,at page #abc he ackn[l$ges h[ he deceiv$ 8 read]s1 & deceiv$ himself1 9 8 8,doctr9al ,developm5t40 ,at page #acb he tells u h[ he _h n only completely lo/ ! confid5ce ( 8 c\ntry1 b lo/ confid5ce 9 himself4 ,& x is aft] ?is humiliat+ & %ameful c\rse ( life t he f9ds out 8t ! ,*ur* ( ,rome is "r60 ,mu/ we n ?ank ,god = hav+ =c$ ,dr4 ,newman to tell u ?r\gh :at d>k & tortu\s ways a ,prote/ant1 a disciple ( ! ,gospel1 a m9i/] ( ,*ri/1 a ,pr(essor ( ,ox=d1 fell into t sea ( ,sodom call$ ,romanism or ,papism6 ,a great lesson is giv5 u "h4 ,we see ! fulfillm5t ( ,*ri/'s ^w ab\t ^? :o h receiv$ great tal5ts & h n us$ !m = ! 8,good ,ma/]'s honor & glory40 ,dr4 ,newman1 )\t suspect+ x1 tells u t x 0 8 c\rse ( action t[>ds t bran* ( ! ,*ur* ( ,*ri/ ( :i* he 0 a m9i/]1 t caus$ him to lose ! confid5ce ( 8 c\ntry1 & tr\bl$ him s mu* t x caus$ him to lose t self-confid5ce :i* is f\nd$ on our fai? & our union ) ,*ri/1 :o is our rock1 our only /r5g? 9 ! h\r ( trial4 ,hav+ lo/ h] sails1 h] an*or1 & h] helm1 ! poor %ip 0 evid5tly doom$ to become a wreck4 ,no?+ c\ld prev5t h] f drift+ into ! engulf+ abyss ( ,pop]y4 ,dr4 ,newman confesses t x is only :5 8 guilty consci5ce 0 unit+ its ?und]+ voice ) t ( 8 :ole c\ntry to condemn him1 t he said1 8,aft] all1 ! ,*ur* ( ,rome is "r60 ,^! are ! argum5ts1 ! motives1 ! light :i* h l$ ,dr4 ,newman to ,rome6 ,& x is f himself t we h x6 ,x is a j1 & av5g+ ,god :o =ces 8 adv]s>y to glorify ,him & say ! tru? 9 spite ( himself 9 ?is 8,apologia pro vita sua40 ,no "o c read t book1 writt5 ) almo/ a sup]human skill1 ability1 & f95ess1 )\t a feel+ ( unspeakable sadness at ! sight ( su* bright tal5ts1 su* eloqu5ce1 su* ext5sive /udies1 employ$ by ! au?or to deceive himself & deceive 8 read]s2 = x is evid5t1 on e page1 t ,dr4 ,newman has deceiv$ himself be=e deceiv+ 8 read]s4 ,b no "o c read t book )\t feel+ a s5se ( t]ror also4 ,= he w he>1 at e page1 ! ?und]+ voice ( ! ,god ( ! ,gospel1 8,because !y receiv$ n ! love ( ! ,tru? t !y might be sav$1 ,god %all s5d !m /rong delusions1 t !y %\ld believe a lie40 7#b ,!ss4 ii3#aj-aa74 ,:at1 at fir/1 mo/ pa9fully puzzles ! m9d ( ! ,*ri/ian read] ( ?is book is ! horror :i* ,dr4 ,newman has = ! ,holy ,scriptures4 ,! un=tunate man :o is p]i%+ f hydrophobia does n keep himself m at a di/ance f wat] ?an he does f ! ^w ( ,god4 ,x seems incr$ible1 b x is a fact1 t f ! fir/ page ( ! hi/ory ( 8 8,religi\s ,op9ions0 to page #bfa1 :]e he jo9s ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 we h n a s+le l9e to tell u t he has gone to ! ,^w ( ,god = light & com=t 9 8 se>* aft] tru?4 ,we see ,dr4 ,newman at ! feet ( ,daniel ,wilson1 ,scott1 ,miln]1 ,:ately1 ,hawk9s1 ,blanco ,:ite1 ,william ,james1 ,butl]1 ,keble1 ,fr\de1 ,pusey1 c41 ask+ !m :at to believe1 :at to d to be sav$3 b y d n see him a s+le m9ute1 no6 n a s+le m9ute1 at ! feet ( ! ,savi\r1 ask+ him1 8,ma/]1 :at mu/ ,i d to h #8,et]nal ,life8'0 ,! sublime words ( ,pet] to ,*ri/1 :i* are fill+ all ! e*oes ( heav5 & e>?1 ^! eighte5 hundr$ ye>s1 8,"l6 ,to :om %all we g8 ,?\ ha/ ! words ( et]nal life60 h nev] rea*$ 8 e>s6 ,9 ! long & gloomy h\rs1 :5 8 s\l 0 *ill$ & trembl+ 9 ! d>k night ( infidelity2 :5 8 unc]ta9 feet 7 tir$ by va9ly go+ "h & !re1 to f9d ! true way1 he has nev] he>d ,*ri/ tell+ him3 8,come unto ,me4 ,i am ! ,way2 ,i am ! ,door2 ,i am ! ,life60 ,9 ^? t]rible h\rs ( di/ress ( :i* he speaks s eloqu5tly1 :5 he cries 7page #aaa7 8,alas6 ,i 0 )\t any basis = my religi\s pr(ession1 9 a /ate ( moral sickness3 nei!r able to acquiesce 9 ,anglicanism1 nor able to g to ,rome30 :5 8 lips 7 p>*$ ) ?ir/ aft] tru?1 he nev]1 no nev]1 w5t to ! f\nta9 f :i* fl[ ! wat]s ( et]nal life6 ,"o day1 he goes to ! ,holy ,fa!rs4 ,b :at w he f9d !re8 ,w he see h[ ,/4 ,cypri5 /]nly rebuk$ ! impud5ce ( ,/eph51 ,bi%op ( ,rome1 :o pret5d$ to h "s jurisdiction ov] ! ,see ( ,c>?age8 ,w he f9d h[ ,gregory positively says t ! ,bi%op :o w pret5d to be ! 8,univ]sal ,bi%op0 is ! =]unn] ( ,anti-,*ri/8 ,w he he> ,/4 ,augu/9e decl>+ t :5 ,*ri/ said to ,pet]1 8,?\ art ,pet]1 & ^u ?is rock ,i w build my ,*ur*10 ,he 0 speak+ ( ,himself z ! rock ^u :i* ! ,*ur* w\ld /&8 ,no4 ,! only ?+ :i* ,dr4 ,newman br+s u f ! ,holy ,fa!rs is s ridicul\s & s unbecom+ t ,i am a%am$ to h to repeat x4 ,he tells u 7page #gh71 8,i h an idea4 ,! mass ( ! ,fa!rs 7,ju/91 ,an!nagoras1 ,ir5u1 ,clem5t1 ,t]tullian1 ,orig51 ,ambrose71 hold t1 ?\gh ,satan fell f ! beg9n+1 ! angels fell be=e ! deluge1 fall+ 9 love ) ! daught]s ( m54 ,?is has lately come across me z a rem>kable solution ( a notion ,i _c help hold+40 ,all[ me "h to rem9d ! read] t1 ?\gh ! ,fa!rs h writt5 _m beautiful evangelical pages1 "s ( !m h writt5 ! greate/ nons5se & ! mo/ absurd ?+s :i* human folly c imag9e4 ,_m ( !m 7 born & educat$ z pagans4 ,!y _h le>n$ & believ$ ! hi/ory & immorality ( _! demi-gods2 !y _h br\ght ^? notions ) !m into ! ,*ur*2 & !y _h attribut$ to ! angels ( ,god1 ! passions & love = wom5 :i* 0 "o ( ! mo/ conspicu\s *>act]s ( ,jupit]1 ,m>s1 ,cupid1 ,bac*us1 etc4 ,& ,dr4 ,newman1 ^: want ( accuracy & judgm5t is s (t5 reveal$ & confess$ by him 9 ?is book1 has n be5 able to see t ^? say+s ( ! ,fa!rs 7 no?+ b human ab]rations4 ,he has accept$ t z ,gospel tru?1 & he has be5 silly en\gh to boa/ ( x4 ,! bees g to ! fl[]s to make _! preci\s honey4 ,!y wisely *oose :at is m p]fect1 pure & :olesome 9 ! fl[]s to fe$ !mselves4 ,dr4 ,newman does ! v contr>y3 he goes to ^? fl[]s ( pa/ ages1 ! ,holy ,fa!rs1 & takes f !m :at is impure = 8 food4 ,aft] ?is1 is x a wond] t he has s easily put 8 lips to ! cup ( ! great en*antress :o is poison+ ! _w ) ! w9e ( h] pro/itution8 ,:5 ! read] has foll[$ ) att5tion ! hi/ory ( ! religi\s op9ions ( ,dr4 ,newman 9 8 8,apologia pro vita sua10 & he sees him approa*+1 day aft] day1 ! bottomless abyss ( folly1 corruption1 slav]y & idolatry ( ,rome1 into :i* he sudd5ly falls 7page #bfa71 he is =cibly rem9d$ ( ! /range spectacle record$ 9 ! eloqu5t pages ( ,*ateaubri&1 ab\t ! ,niag>a ,falls4 ,m ?an once1 travel]s /&+ at ! foot ( t m>vel ( ! m>vels ( ! works ( ,god1 look+ up t[>d heav51 h be5 /ruck by ! sight ( a small1 d>k spot1 mov+ 9 l>ge circles1 at a great di/ance above ! fall4 ,gaz+ at t /range object1 !y soon rem>k$ t 9 its circul> m>* 9 ! sky1 ! small1 d>k spot 0 rapidly gr[+ l>g]1 z x 0 com+ d[n t[>ds ! ?und]+ fall4 ,!y soon discov]$ ! maje/ic =m ( "o ( ! giant eagles ( ,am]ica6 ,& ! eagle1 balanc+ himself 9 ! air1 seem$ to look d[n on ! m>vell\s fall1 z if absolutely tak5 ) admiration at its gr&eur & magnific5ce6 ,= "s "t1 ! giant ( ! air rema9$ above ! maje/ic cat>act1 describ+ 8 l>ge circles4 ,b :5 com+ d[n ne>] & ne>] ! t]rific abyss1 he 0 sudd5ly dragg$ by an irresi/ible p[] into ! bottomless abyss1 to disappe>4 ,"s "t lat] ! body1 bruis$ & lifeless1 is se5 float+ on ! rapid & d>k wat]s1 to be =ev] lo/ 9 ! bitt] wat]s ( ! sea1 a long di/ance bel[4 ,rome is a fall4 ,x is ! "n :i* ,god himself has giv5 h]3 8,!re come a fall+ away0 7#b ,!ss4 ii41 #c74 ,z ! giant eagle ( ,am]ica1 :5 imprud5tly com+ too ne> ! mighty ,fall ( ,niag>a1 is (t5 caught 9 ! irresi/ible vortex :i* attracts x f a long di/ance1 s t eagle ( ,ox=d1 ,dr4 ,newman1 :om ,god _h creat$ = bett] ?+s1 has imprud5tly come too ne> ! t]rific papal fall4 ,he has be5 en*ant$ by its beauty1 its ?\s& bright ra9b[s2 he has tak5 = real suns ! fanta/ic jets ( light :i* encircles its mi/y head1 & conceals its d>k & bottomless abyss4 ,bewild]$ by ! bewit*+ voice ( ! en*antress1 he has be5 unable to save himself f h] p]fidi\s & almo/ irresi/ible attractions4 ,! eagle ( ,ox=d has be5 caught 9 ! :irlpool ( ! engulph+ p[]s ( ,rome1 & y see him to-day1 bruis$1 lifeless1 dragg$ on ! d>k wat]s ( ,pop]y t[>ds ! %ore ( a /ill d>k] et]nity4 ,dr4 ,newman c\ld n make 8 submission to ,rome )\t p]jur+ himself4 ,he swore t he w\ld nev] int]pret ! ,holy ,scriptures except accord+ to ! unanim\s cons5t ( ! ,holy ,fa!rs4 ,well1 ,i *all5ge him "h1 to meet me & %[ me t ! ,holy ,fa!rs are unanim\s on ! supremacy ( ! p[] ( ! ,pope ov] ! o!r ,bi%ops2 t he is infallible2 t ! ,prie/ has ! p[] to make 8 ,god ) a waf]2 t ! ,virg9 ,m>y is ! only hope = s9n]s4 ,i *all5ge him to %[ u t auricul> confession is an ord9ance ( ,*ri/4 ,dr4 ,newman kn[s well t ^? ?+s are impo/ures4 ,he has nev] believ$1 he nev] w believe !m4 ,! fact is t ,dr4 ,newman confesses t he nev] _h any fai? :5 he 0 a m9i/] ( ! ,*ur* ( ,engl&2 & x is cle> t he is ! same s9ce he became a ,roman ,ca?olic4 ,9 page #bhb we read ?is /range exposition ( 8 fai?3 8,we are call$ ^u n to pr(ess any?+1 b to submit & be sil5t10 :i* is j ! fai? ( ! mute animal :i* obeys ! motion ( ! bridle1 )\t any resi/ance or ?\ght ( its own4 ,?is is--,i _c d5y x--! true1 ! only fai? 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,rome2 x is ! fai? :i* leads directly to ,a!ism or idiotism4 ,b ,*ri/ gave u a v diff]5t idea ( ! fai? he asks f 8 disciples :5 he said3 8,! "t has come :5 ! wor%ipp]s %all wor%ip ! ,fa!r 9 _s & 9 tru?40 7,john vi41 #bc47 ,t degrad$ & brutal religion ( ,dr4 ,newman1 surely 0 n ! religion ( ,paul1 :5 he wrote1 8,i speak z to wise m52 judge ye :at ,i say40 7#a ,cor4 x41 #ae47 ,dr4 ,newman hone/ly tells u 7page #bbh71 :5 speak+ ( ! wor%ip ( ! ,virg9 ,m>y3 8,su* devotional manife/ations 9 honor ( our ,lady _h be5 my great ,crux z reg>ds ,ca?olicism4 ,i say1 frankly t ,i d n fully ent] into !m n[ 444 !y are suitable = ,italy1 b are n suitable = ,engl&40 ,he has only *ang$ 8 appe>ance--8 he>t is :at x 0 =m]ly1 :5 a m9i/] ( ! ,*ur* ( ,engl&4 ,he want$ !n ano!r cre$1 ano!r ,*ur* = ,engl&4 ,s n[1 he f9ds t ?is & t practice ( ,rome may d = ! ,italians1 b n = ! ,engli% p6 ,0 he pleas$ ) ! promulgation ( ,papal infallibility8 ,no4 ,x is a public fact t "o ( 8 mo/ solemn actions1 a few ye>s s9ce 8 connection ) ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 0 to prote/ aga9/ ! promulgation ( t dogma4 ,m ?an t1 he express$ 8 d\bts ab\t ! wisdom & ! "r ( ! ,c\ncil to proclaim x4 ,let u read 8 int]e/+ lett] to ,bi%op ,ulla?orne--8,rome ought to be a "n to light5 ! he>t at all times2 & a c\ncil's prop] (fice is1 :5 "s great h]esy or o!r evil imp5ds1 to inspire hope & confid5ce 9 ! fai?ful4 ,b n[ we h ! greate/ meet+ :i* ev] has be51 & t at ,rome1 infus+ into u by ! accr$it$ organs ( ,rome & ( its p>tisans 7su* z ! ,civilta1 ! ,armonia1 ! ,univ]s & ! ,tablet7 little else ?an fe> & dismay6 ,:5 we are all at re/ & h no d\bts1 &--at lea/ practically1 n to say doctr9ally--hold ! ,holy ,fa!r to be infallible1 sudd5ly !re is ?und] 9 ! cle> sky1 & we are told to prep>e = some?+1 we "k n :at1 to try our fai?1 we "k n h[--no imp5d+ dang] is to be av]t$1 b a great difficulty is to be creat$4 ,is ?is ! prop] "w ( an ,,oecum5ical ,c\ncil8 ,z to myself1 p]sonally1 please ,god1 ,i d n expect any trial at all2 b ,i _c help suff]+ ) ! _m s\ls :o are suff]+1 & ,i look ) anxiety at ! prospect ( hav+ to def5d decisions :i* may n be difficult to my own private judgm5t1 b may be mo/ difficult to ma9ta9 logically 9 ! face ( hi/orical facts4 8,:at h we done to be treat$ z ! fai?ful nev] 7 treat$ be=e8 ,:5 has a def9ition de fide be5 a luxury ( devotion1 & n a /]n1 pa9ful necessity8 ,:y %\ld an aggressive1 insol5t faction be all[$ to #8make ! he>t ( ! j sad1 :om ! ,"l ha? n made sorr[ful8' ,:y _c we be let alone1 :5 we h pursu$ peace1 & ?\ght no evil6 8,i assure y1 my ,"l1 "s ( ! true/ m9ds are driv5 "o way & ano!r1 & d n "k :]e to re/ _! feet--"o day det]m9+ #8to give up all !ology z a bad job1' & recklessly to believe h5ce=? almo/ t ! ,pope is impeccable2 at ano!r1 tempt$ to #8believe all ! wor/ t a book l ,janus says2' o!rs d\bt+ ab\t #8! capacity possess$ by ,bi%ops drawn f corn]s ( ! e>?1 to judge :at is fitt+ = ,european society2' & !n1 aga91 angry ) ! ,holy ,see = li/5+ to #8! flatt]y ( a clique ( ,jesuits1 r$emptori/s1 & conv]ts4' 8,!n1 aga91 ?9k ( ! /ore ( ,pontifical sc&als 9 ! hi/ory ( eighte5 c5turies1 :i* h p>tly be5 p\r$ =?1 & p>tly are /ill to come4 ,:at ,murphy inflict$ ^u u 9 "o way1 ,m4 ,veuillot is indirectly br++ on u 9 ano!r4 ,& !n1 aga91 ! blight :i* is fall+ ^u ! multitude ( ,anglican ,rituali/s1 etc41 :o1 !mselves1 p]haps--at lea/ _! lead]s--may nev] become ,ca?olics1 b :o are leav5+ ! v>i\s ,engli% d5om9ations & p>ties 7f> beyond _! own range71 ) pr9ciples & s5tim5ts t[>ds _! ultimate absorption into ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*4 8,) ^! ?\ghts ev] be=e me1 ,i am cont9ually ask+ myself :e!r ,i ought n to make my feel+s public8 ,b all ,i d is to pray ^? e>ly doctors ( ! ,*ur*1 ^: int]cession w\ld decide ! matt] 7,augu/9e1 ,ambrose & ,j]ome1 ,a?anasius1 ,*ryso/om & ,basil71 to av]t ?is great calamity4 8,if x is ,god's w t ! ,pope's infallibility be def9$1 !n x is ,god's w to ?r[ back #8! times & movem5ts' ( t triumph :i* ,he has de/9$ = ,8 k+dom1 & ,i %all feel ,i h b to b[ my head to ,8 adorable1 inscrutable provid5ce4 8,y h n t\*$ ^u ! subject y\rself1 b ,i ?9k y w all[ me to express to y feel+ :i*1 = ! mo/ "p1 ,i keep to myself40,c ----- ,footnote ,c3 8,! ,pope1 ! ,k+s1 & ! ,p40 7,mullan ,son1 ,pat]no/] ,squ>e1 pp4 #bfi-gj47 ,also see 7,london7 ,/&>d1 #g? ,april1 #ahgj4 ----- ,^! eloqu5t compla9ts ( ! new conv]t exce$+ly irritat$ ,pius ,,ix4 & ! ,jesuits at ,rome2 !y entirely de/roy$ _! confid5ce 9 him4 ,!y 7 too %rewd to ignore t he _h nev] be5 any?+ else b a k9d ( free-?9k]1 ^: ,*ri/ian fai? 0 )\t any basis1 z he himself confess$4 ,!y _h receiv$ him1 ( c\rse1 ) pleasure1 = he 0 ! v be/ man 9 ,engl& to unsettle ! m9ds ( ! "y m9i/]s ( ! ,*ur*1 b !y _h left him alone 9 8 oratory ( ,birm+ham1 :]e !y seem$ to ignore him4 ,h[ev]1 :5 ! prote/ ( ! new s-call$ conv]t %[$ t 8 submission 0 b a %am1 & t he 0 m ,prote/ant ?an ev]1 !y la%$ him )\t m]cy4 ,b be=e we he> ! /]n answ]s ( ! ,roman ,ca?olics to _! new recruit1 let u rememb] ! fact t :5 t lett] appe>$1 ,dr4 ,newman _h lo/ ! memory ( x2 he boldly d5i$ its pat]nity at fir/2 x 0 only :5 ! pro(s 7 publicly giv5 t he _h writt5 x1 t he ackn[l$g$ x1 say+ = 8 excuse t he _h =gott5 8 writ+ x66 ,n[ let u he> ! answ] ( ! ,civilta1 ! organ ( ! ,pope1 to ,dr4 ,newman4 8,d y n see t x is only temptation t makes y see ev]y?+ black8 ,if ! ,holy ,doctors :om y invoke1 ,ambrose1 ,j]ome1 etc41 d n decide ! controv]sy 9 y\r way1 x is n z ! ,prote/ant ,pall ,mall ,gazette fancies1 because !y w n or _c int]pose1 b because !y agree ) ,/4 ,pet]1 & ) ! petition ( ! majority4 ,w\ld y h u make a procession 9 sackclo? & a%es to av]t ?is sc\rge ( ! def9ition ( a v]ity80 ,ibid1 p4 #bha4 ,! cl]gy ( ,france1 ?r\gh _! organ1 ,l',univ]s 7,vol4 #aa1 p4 #ca-cd71 0 /ill m sev]e & s>ca/ic4 ,!y _h j collect$ #d1jjj to help ,dr4 ,newman to pay ! enorm\s exp5ses ( ! suit = 8 sl&]s aga9/ ,fa!r ,a*ille1 :i* he _h lo/4 ,dr4 ,newman1 z x appe>s by ! article f ! p5 ( ! celebrat$ editor ( ! ,univ]s1 _h n ev5 _h ! c\rtesy to ackn[l$ge ! gift1 nor ! ex]tions ( ^? :o _h collect$ t l>ge sum ( money4 ,n[ let u see :at !y ?\ght & said 9 ,france ab\t ! ex-,pr(essor ( ,ox=d :om !y call$ ! 8,respectable ,convict40 ,speak+ ( ! #d1jjj s5t f ,france1 ,veuillot says3 8,! respectable convict receiv$ x1 & 0 pleas$2 b he gave no ?anks & %[$ no m]cy4 ,fa!r ,newman ought to be m c>eful 9 :at he says2 ev]y?+ t is comely dem&s x ( him4 ,b1 at any rate1 if 8 ,lib]al passion c>ries him away1 till he =gets :at he owes to u & to himself1 :at answ] mu/ "o give him1 b t he _h bett] g on z he set out1 sil5tly ungrateful8--,l',univ]s1 ,vol4 #aa4 p4 #cb-cd4 ,ibid1 p4 #bgb4 ,^! public rebukes1 address$ f ,p>is & ,rome by ! two mo/ popul> organs ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 tell u ! old /ory2 ! s]vices ( traitors may be accept$1 b !y are nev] tru/$4 ,fa!r ,newman _h n ! confid5ce ( ! ,roman ,ca?olics4 ,b "s "o w say3 ,has n ! dignity ( ,c>d9al1 to :i* he has lately be5 rais$1 prov$ t ! pres5t ,pope has ! greate/ confid5ce 9 ,dr4 ,newman8 ,_h ,i n be5 #be ye>s a prie/ ( ,rome1 ,i w\ld say 8,yes60 ,b ,i "k too mu* ( _! tactics = t4 ,! dignity ( ,c>d9al has be5 giv5 to ,drs4 ,mann+ & ,newman z ! baits :i* ! fi%]man ( ,pr9ce ,edw>d ,isl& ?r[ into ! sea to attract ! mack]els4 ,! ,pope1 ) ^? long sc>let robes ?r[n ov] ! %\ld]s ( ! two r5egades f ! ,*ur* ( ,engl&1 hopes to cat* m ,engli% mack]els4 ,besides t1 we all "k ! rem>kable words ( ,/4 ,paul3 8,& ^? memb]s ( ! body :i* we ?9k to be less hon\rable1 ^u !m we be/[ m abundant hon\rs1 & our uncomely p>ts h m abundant comel9ess40 7#a ,cor4 xii41 #bc47 ,x is on t pr9ciple t ! ,pope has act$4 ,he knew well t ,dr4 ,newman _h play$ ! act ( a traitor at ,ox=d2 t he _h be5 caught 9 ! v act ( conspiracy by 8 ,bi%ops2 t he _h entirely lo/ ! confid5ce ( ! ,engli% p4 ,^! public facts p>alyz$ ! usefulness ( ! new conv]t4 ,he 0 really a memb] ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 b he 0 "o ( ! mo/ uncomely ones2 s mu* s1 t ! la/ ,pope1 ,pius ,,ix41 _h left him alone1 9 a d>k corn]1 = ne>ly eighte5 ye>s4 ,leo ,,xiii4 0 m %rewd4 ,he felt t ,newman might become "o ( ! mo/ p[]ful ag5ts ( ,romanism 9 ,engl&1 if he 7 only cov]+ 8 uncomel9ess ) ! ri* r$ ,c>d9al robe4 ,b w ! sc>let colors :i* n[ clo! ,dr4 ,newman make u =get t1 to-day1 he belongs to ! mo/ absurd1 immoral1 abject & degrad+ =m ( idolatry1 ! _w has ev] se58 ,w we =get t ,romanism1 ^! la/ six c5turies1 is no?+ else ?an old paganism 9 its mo/ degrad+ =ms1 com+ back "u a ,*ri/ian "n8 ,:at is ! div9ity :i* is ador$ 9 ^? spl5did temples ( mod]n ,rome8 ,is x any?+ else b ! old ,jupit] ,tonans8 ,yes1 ! ,pope has /ol5 ! old gods ( paganism1 & he has sacrilegi\sly writt5 ! adorable "n ( ,jesus 9 _! faces1 t ! m delud$ mod]n nations may h less objection to accept ! wor%ip ( _! pagan ance/ors4 ,!y adore a ,*ri/ 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,rome2 !y s+ beautiful hymns to ,8 honor2 !y build him magnific5t temples2 !y are exce$+ly devot$ to ,him--!y make daily enorm\s sacrifices to ext5d ,8 p[] & glory all ov] ! _w4 ,b :at is t ,*ri/8 ,x is simply an idol ( bread1 bak$ e day by ! s]vant girl ( ! prie/1 or ! neighbor+ nuns4 ,i h be5 #be ye>s "o ( ! mo/ s9c]e & zeal\s prie/s ( t ,*ri/4 ,i h made ,him ) m9e own h&s1 & ! help ( my s]vants = a qu>t] ( a c5tury2 ,i h a "r to say t ,i "k ,him p]fectly well4 ,x is t ,i may tell :at ,i "k ( t ,*ri/ t ! ,god ( ! ,gospel has tak5 me by ! h&1 & grant$ me to give my te/imony be=e ! _w4 ,hundr$s ( times1 ,i h said to my s]vant girl :at ,dr4 ,newman & all ! prie/s ( ,rome say1 e day1 to _! own s]vants or _! nuns3 8,please make me "s waf]s1 t ,i may say mass1 & give ! communion to ^? :o want to receive x40 ,& ! dutiful girl took "s :eat fl\r1 mix$ x ) wat]1 & put ! d\gh betwe5 ^! two well-poli%$ & engrav5 irons1 :i* %e _h well heat$ be=e4 ,9 less "t ?an ,i c write x1 ! d\gh 0 bak$ into waf]s4 ,h&+ !m to me1 ,i br\ght !m to ! alt>1 & p]=m$ a c]emony :i* is call$ 8! mass40 ,9 ! v mid/ ( t mass1 ,i pron\nc$ on ! waf] five magic words1 8,hoc e/ enim corpus meum10 & _h to believe1 :at ,dr4 ,newman & all ! prie/s ( ,rome pr(ess to believe1 t !re 7 no m waf]s1 no m bread be=e me1 b t :at 7 waf]s1 _h be5 turn$ into ! great ,et]nal ,god :o _h creat$ ! _w4 ,i _h to pro/rate myself1 & ask my p to pro/rate !mselves be=e ! ,god ,i _h j made ) five words f my lips2 & ! p1 on _! knees1 b[+ _! heads1 & br++ _! faces to ! du/1 ador$ ,god :om ,i _h j made1 ) ! help ( ^! heat$ irons & my s]vant girl4 ,n[1 is ?is n a =m ( idolatry m degrad+1 m insult+ to ! inf9ite ,maje/y ( ,god ?an ! wor%ip ( ! gold5 calf8 ,:]e is ! diff]5ce betwe5 ! idolatry ( ,a>on & ! ,israelites ador+ ! gold5 calf 9 ! wild]ness & ! idolatry ( ,dr4 ,newman ador+ ! waf] 9 8 temple8 ,! only diff]5ce is1 t ,a>on wor%ipp$ a god inf9itely m respectable & p[]ful1 9 melt$ gold1 ?an ,dr4 ,newman wor%ipp+ 8 bak$ d\gh4 ,! idolatry ( ,dr4 ,newman is m degrad+ ?an ! idolatry ( ! wor%ipp]s ( ! sun4 ,:5 ! ,p]sians adore ! sun1 !y give _! homage to ! greate/1 ! mo/ glori\s be+ :i* is be=e u4 ,t magnific5t fi]y orb1 millions ( miles 9 circumf]5ce1 :i* rises z a giant1 e morn+1 f beh9d ! horizon1 to m>* ov] ! _w & p\r ev]y:]e its floods ( heat1 light & life1 _c be contemplat$ )\t feel+s ( respect1 admiration & awe4 ,man mu/ raise 8 eyes up to see t glori\s sun--he mu/ take ! eagle's w+s to foll[ 8 giant /rides ?r\gh\t ! myriads ( worlds :i* are !re1 to speak to u ( ! wisdom1 ! p[]1 & love ( our ,god4 ,x is easy to und]/& t poor1 fall51 bl9d m5 may take t great be+ = _! god4 ,w\ld n e "o p]i% & die1 if ! sun w\ld =get to come e day1 t we may ba! & swim 9 8 ocean ( light & life8 ,!n1 :5 ,i see ! ,p]sian prie/s ( ! sun1 9 _! magnific5t temple1 ) c5s]s 9 _! h&s1 wait+ = ! appe>ance ( its fir/ rays1 to intone _! melodi\s hymns & s+ _! sublime canticles1 ,i "k _! error & ,i und]/& x2 ,i 0 ab\t to say1 ,i almo/ excuse x4 ,i feel an imm5se compassion = ^! delud$ idolat]s4 ,h[ev]1 ,i feel !y are rais$ above ! du/ ( ! e>?3 _! intellig5ce1 _! s\ls _c b receive "s sp>ks ( light & life f ! contemplation ( t inexhau/ible focus ( light & life4 ,b is n ,dr4 ,newman ) 8 ,roman ,ca?olic p a ?\s& times m wor?y ( our compassion & our te>s1 :5 !y are abjectly pro/rat$ be=e ?is ignoble waf]--to adore x z _! ,savi\r1 _! ,creator1 _! ,god8 ,is x possible to imag9e a spectacle m humiliat+1 blasphem\s & sacrilegi\s1 ?an a multitude ( m5 & wom5 pro/rat+ _! faces to ! du/ to adore a god :om ! rats & mice h1 ?\s&s ( times1 dragg$ & eat5 9 _! d>k holes8 ,:]e are ! rays ( light & life com+ f t waf]8 ,in/ead ( be+ enl>g$ & elevat$ at ! approa* ( ?is ridicul\s mod]n div9ity1 is n ! human intellig5ce contract$1 dim9i%$ p>alyz$1 *ill$ & /ruck ) idiocy & dea? at its feet8 ,c we be surpris$ t ! ,roman ,ca?olic nations are s fa/ fall+ into ! abyss ( infidelity & a!ism1 :5 !y he> _! prie/s tell+ !m t m ?an #bjj1jjj times1 e day1 ?is contemptible waf] is *ang$ by !m into ! great ,god :o has creat$ heav5 & e>? at ! beg9n+1 & :o has sav$ ?is p]i%+ _w by sacrific+ ! body & ! blood :i* ,he has tak5 z ,8 tab]nacle to %[ u ,8 et]nal love6 ,come ) me & see ^? multitudes ( p ) _! faces pro/rat$ 9 ! du/1 ador+ _! :ite elephant ( ,siam4 ,oh6 :at ignorance & sup]/ition6 :at bl9dness & folly6 y w exclaim4 ,to adore a :ite elephant z ,god6 ,b !re is a spectacle m humiliat+ & m deplorable3 ,!re is a sup]/ition1 an idolatry bel[ t ( ! ,siamese4 ,x is ! idolatry practic$ by ,dr4 ,newman & 8 millions ( co-religioni/s to-day4 ,yes6 ,! elephant-god ( ! ,asiatic p1 is inf9itely m respectable ?an ! waf]-god ( ,dr4 ,newman4 ,t elephant may be tak5 z ! symbol ( /r5g?1 magnanimity1 pati5ce1 etc4 ,!re is life1 motion 9 t noble animal--he sees ) 8 eyes1 he walks ) 8 feet4 ,let "s "o attack him1 he w protect himself--) 8 mighty trunk he w ?r[ 8 enemy high 9 ! air--he w cru% him "u 8 feet4 ,b look at ?is mod]n div9ity ( ,rome4 ,x has eyes1 b does n see2 feet1 b does n move2 a m\?1 b does n speak4 ,!re is nei!r life nor /r5g? 9 ! waf] god ( ,rome4 ,b if ! fall ( ,dr4 ,newman into ! bottomless abyss ( ! idolatry ( ,rome is a deplorable fact1 !re is ano!r fact /ill m deplorable4 ,h[ _m f]v5t ,*ri/ians1 h[ _m v5]able m9i/]s ( ,*ri/ ev]y:]e1 are1 j n[1 pro/rat$ at ! de> ,savi\r's feet1 tell+ ,him ) te>s3 8,did/ ?\ n s[ ! good ,gospel se$ all ov] our de> c\ntry1 ?r\gh ! h&s ( our h]oic & m>tyr$ fa!rs8 ,f :5ce1 !n1 ha? x ^! ,popi% & idolatr\s t>es80 ,& ! 8,good ,ma/]0 answ]s1 to-day1 :at he answ]$ eighte5 hundr$ ye>s ago4 8,:ile m5 slept1 ! enemy came dur+ ! night2 he has s[$ ^? t>es among ! :eat1 & he w5t away40--7,mat!w xiii3 #be47 ,& if y want to "k ! "n ( ! enemy :o has s[$ t>es1 9 ! night1 among/ ! :eat1 & w5t away1 y h only to read ?is 8,apologia pro vita sua40 ,y w f9d ?is confession ( ,dr4 ,newman at page #agd3-- 8,i _c disguise f myself t my prea*+ is n calculat$ to def5d t sy/em ( religion :i* has be5 receiv$ = ?ree hundr$ ye>s1 & ( :i* ! ,heads ( ,h\ses are ! legitimate ma9ta9]s 9 ?is place4444 ,i mu/ all[ t ,i 0 dispos+ ! m9ds ( "y m5 t[>ds ,rome60 ,n[1 hav+ obta9$ f ! v enemy's lips h[ he has s[$ t>es dur+ ! night 7secretly71 read page #bfb1 & y w see h[ he w5t away & pro/rat$ himself at ! feet ( ! mo/ implacable enemy ( all ! rights & lib]ties ( m51 to call him 8,mo/ ,holy ,fa!r40 ,read h[ he fell at ! knees ( ! v p[] :i* prep>$ & bless$ ! ,armada de/9$ to cov] 8 native l&1 ,engl&1 ) desolation1 ru9s1 te>s & blood1 & en*a9 ^? ( h] p :o w\ld n h be5 slaught]$ on ! battle-field6 ,see h[ ! enemy1 aft] hav+ s[n ! t>es1 w5t away to ! feet ( a ,s]gius ,,iii41 ! public lov] ( ,m>oria--& to ! feet ( 8 ba/>d1 ,john ,,xi41 :o 0 /ill m debau*$ ?an 8 fa!r--& to ! feet ( ,leo ,,vi41 kill$ by an outrag$ citiz5 ( ,rome1 9 ! act ( su* an infam\s crime t ,i _c "n x "h--to ! feet ( an ,alex&]1 :o s$uc$ 8 own daught]1 & surpass$ 9 cruelty & debau*]y ,n]o & ,caligula4 ,let u see ,dr4 ,newman fall+ at ! feet ( all ^? mon/]s ( depravity1 to call !m1 8,mo/ ,holy ,fa!rs10 8,mo/ ,holy ,heads ( ! ,*ur*40 8,mo/ ,holy & ,infallible ,vic>s ( ,jesus ,*ri/60 ,at ! sight ( su* a fall1 :at c we d1 b say ) ,isaiah3 8,! ,"l has brok5 ! /aff ( ! wick$1 & ! scept] ( ! rul]4444 ,h[ art ?\ fall51 ,o ,lucif]1 ,son ( ! morn+6 h[ art ?\ cut d[n to ! gr\nd80 ,is4 xiv4 ,,*apt] ,,xlii4 ,,noviciate ,,9 ,,! ,,mona/]y ,,( ,,! ,,oblates ,,( ,,m>y ,,immaculate ,,( ,,longueuil--,,"s ,,( ,,! ,,?\s& ,,acts ,,( ,,folly ,,& ,,idolatry ,,:i* ,,=m ,,! ,,life ,,( ,a ,,monk--,,! ,,deplorable ,,fall ,,( ,,"o ,,( ,,! ,,fa!rs--,,fall ,,( ,,! ,,gr& ,,vic> ,,quibli]--,,sick ,,9 ,,! ,,hotel ,,dieu ,,( ,,montreal--,,si/] ,,urtubise1 ,,:at ,,%e ,,says ,,( ,,m>ia ,,monk--,,! ,,two ,,mission>ies ,,to ,,! ,,lumb] ,,m5--,,fall ,,& ,,puni%m5t ,,( ,a ,,fa!r ,,oblate--,,:at ,,"o ,,( ,,! ,,be/ ,,fa!r ,,oblates ,,?9ks ,,( ,,! ,,monks ,,& ,,! ,,mona/]y4 ,on ! fir/ ,sabba? ( ,novemb]1 #ahdf1 aft] a retreat ( eight days1 ,i fell on my knees1 & ask$ z a favor1 to be receiv$ z a novice ( ! religi\s ord] ( ! ,oblates ( ,m>y ,immaculate ( ,longueuil1 ^: object is to prea* retreats 7revivals7 among ! p4 ,no *ild ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome ev] enroll$ himself ) m e>ne/ness & s9c]ity "u ! my/]i\s bann]s ( h] mona/ic armies1 ?an ,i did1 t day4 ,x is impossible to ent]ta9 m exalt$ views ( ! beauty & hol9ess ( ! mona/ic life1 ?an ,i _h4 ,to live among ! holy m5 :o _h made ! solemn v[s ( pov]ty1 ob$i5ce & *>ity1 seem$ to me ! greate/ & ! mo/ bless$ privilege :i* my ,god c\ld grant on e>?4 ,)9 ! walls ( ! peaceful mona/]y ( ,longueuil1 among ^? holy m5 :o _h1 long s9ce1 put an impassable b>ri] betwe5 !mselves & t corrupt$ _w1 f ! sn>es ( :i* ,i 0 j escap+1 my conviction 0 t ,i %\ld see no?+ b actions ( ! mo/ exalt$ piety2 & t ! deadly weapons ( ! enemy c\ld n pi]ce ^? walls protect$ by ! ,immaculate ,"m ( ,god6 ,! frightful /orms :i* _h cov]$ ) wrecks ! ro>+ sea1 :]e ,i _h s (t5 ne>ly p]i%$1 c\ld n tr\ble ! calm wat]s ( ! port :]e my b>k _h j ent]$4 ,e "o ( ! memb]s ( ! community 0 to be l an angel ( *>ity1 humility1 mode/y1 ^: example 0 to guide my /eps 9 ! ways ( ,god4 ,my sup]ior appe>$ to be less a sup]ior ?an a fa!r1 ^: protect+ c>e1 by day & night1 w\ld be a %ield ov] me4 ,noah1 9 ! ark1 safe f ! rag+ waves :i* 7 de/roy+ ! _w1 did n feel m grateful to ,god1 ?an ,i 01 :5 once 9 ?is holy solitude4 ,! v[ ( p]fect pov]ty 0 to save me1 = ev]1 f ! c>es ( ! _w4 ,hav+1 h]eaft]1 no "r to possess a c5t1 ! _w w\ld become to me a p>adise1 :]e food1 clo?+1 & lodg+ w\ld come )\t anxiety or c>e4 ,my fa!r sup]ior w\ld supply all ^! ?+s1 )\t any o!r condition on my "p1 ?an to love1 & obey a man ( ,god ^: :ole life 0 to be sp5t 9 guid+ my /eps 9 ! ways ( ! mo/ exalt$ evangelical virtues4 ,_h n t fa!r himself made a solemn v[ to r5\nce n only all ! honors & dignities ( ! *ur*1 t 8 :ole m9d & he>t might be devot$ to my hol9ess on e>?1 & my salvation 9 ,heav58 ,h[ easy to secure t salvation n[6 ,i _h only to look to t fa!r on e>?1 & obey him z my ,fa!r 9 ,heav54 ,yes6 ,! w ( t fa!r1 0 to be1 = me1 ! w ( my ,god4 ,?\gh ,i might err 9 obey+ him1 my errors w\ld n be laid to my *>ge4 ,to save my s\l1 ,i %\ld h only to be l a corpse1 or a /ick 9 ! h&s ( my fa!r sup]ior4 ,)\t any anxiety or any responsibility :atev] ( my own1 ,i 0 to be l$ to heav5 z a new-born *ild 9 ! arms ( 8 lov+ "m )\t any fe>1 ?\ghts or anxiety ( 8 own4 ,) ! ,*ri/ian poet ,i c\ld h sung3 8,rocks & /orms ,i'll fe> no m1 ,:5 on t et]nal %ore1 ,drop ! an*or6 ,furl ! sail6 ,i am safe )9 ! vail40 ,b h[ %ort 7 to be ^! f9e dreams ( my poor delud$ m9d6 ,:5 on my knees1 fa!r ,guigues h&$ me1 ) great solemnity1 ! ,lat9 books ( ! rules ( t mona/ic ord]1 :i* is _! real gospel1 w>n+ me t x 0 a secret book1 t !re 7 ?+s 9 x t ,i ought n to reveal to any "o2 & he made me solemnly promise t ,i w\ld nev] %[ x to any "o outside ( ! ord]4 ,:5 alone1 ! next morn+1 9 my cell1 ,i ?ank$ ,god & ! ,virg9 ,m>y = ! favors ( ! la/ day1 & ! ?\ght came involunt>ily to my m9d3 8,h y n1 a ?\s& times1 he>d & said t ! ,holy ,*ur* ( ,rome absolutely condemns & ana!matizes secret societies4 ,&1 d y n1 to-day1 belong to a secret society8 ,h[ c y reconcile ! solemn promise ( secrecy y made la/ night1 ) ! ana!mas hurl$ by all y\r popes aga9/ secret societies80 ,aft] hav+1 9 va91 tri$1 9 my m9d1 to reconcile ^? two ?+s1 ,i happily rememb]$ t ,i 0 a corpse1 t ,i _h =ev] giv5 up my private judgm5t--t my only bus9ess1 n[1 0 to obey4 8,does a corpse argue aga9/ ^? :o turn x f side to side8 ,is x n 9 p]fect peace1 :atev] may be ! usage to :i* x is expos$1 or to :atev] place x is dragg$8 ,%all ,i lose ! ri* cr[n :i* is be=e me1 at my fir/ /ep 9 ! way ( p]fection80 ,i bade my rebelli\s intellig5ce to be /ill1 my private judgm5t to be mute1 &1 to di/ract my m9d f ?is fir/ temptation1 ,i read t book ( rules ) ! utmo/ att5tion4 ,i _h n gone ?r\gh x all1 be=e ,i und]/ood :y x 0 kept f ! eyes ( ! curates & o!r secul> prie/s4 ,to my unspeakable amazem5t1 ,i f\nd t1 f ! beg9n+ to ! end1 x speaks ) ! mo/ pr(\nd contempt = !m all4 ,i said to myself3 8,:at w\ld be ! indignation ( ! curates1 if !y %\ld suspect t ^! /rang]s f ,france h su* a bad op9ion ( !m all6 ,w\ld ! good ,canadian curates receive !m z angels f heav51 & raise !m s high 9 ! e/eem ( ! p1 if !y knew t ! fir/ ?+ an oblate has to le>n1 is t ! secul> prie/ is1 to-day1 /eep$ 9 immorality1 ignorance1 worldl9ess1 laz9ess1 gluttony1 etc42 t he is ! disgrace ( ! *ur*1 :i* w\ld spe$ily be de/roy$1 0 %e n provid5tially su/a9$1 & kept 9 ! ways ( ,god1 by ! holy mona/ic m5 :om %e nurses z h] only hope8 ,cle> z ! light ( ! sun on a bright day1 ! :ole fabric ( ! ord] ( ! oblates pres5t$ itself to my m9d1 z ! mo/ p]fect sy/em ( ,ph>isaism ! _w _h ev] se54 ,! oblate :o /udies 8 book ( rules1 8 only gospel1 mu/ h 8 m9d fill$ ) ! idea ( 8 sup]ior hol9ess1 n only ov] ! poor s9ful1 secul> prie/1 b ov] ev]yone else4 ,! oblate alone is ,*ri/ian1 holy & sav$2 ! re/ ( ! _w is lo/6 ,! oblate alone is ! salt ( ! e>?1 ! light ( ! _w6 ,i said to myself3 8,is x to atta9 ?is ph>isaical p]fection1 t ,i h left my beautiful & de> p>i% ( ,kam\raska1 & giv5 up ! honorable position :i* my ,god _h giv5 me 9 my c\ntry60 ,h[ev]1 aft] "s "t sp5t 9 ^! sad & despond5t reflections1 ,i aga9 felt angry ) myself2 ,i quickly direct$ my m9d to ! frightful1 unsuspect$ & numb]less sc&als ,i _h kn[n 9 almo/ e p>i% ,i _h visit$4 ,i rememb]$ ! drunk5ness ( t curate1 ! impurities ( ?is1 ! ignorance ( ano!r1 ! worldl9ess & absolute want ( fai? ( o!rs1 & conclud$ t1 aft] all1 ! oblates 7 n f> f ! tru? 9 _! bad op9ions ( ! secul> cl]gy4 ,i end$ my sad reflections by say+ to myself3 8,aft] all1 if ! oblates live a life ( hol9ess1 z ,i expect to f9d "h1 is x a crime t !y %\ld see1 feel & express among !mselves1 ! diff]5ce :i* exi/s betwe5 a regul> & a secul> cl]gy8 ,am ,i come "h to judge & condemn ^! holy m58 ,no6 ,i came "h to save myself by ! practice ( ! mo/ h]oic ,*ri/ian virtues1 ! fir/ ( :i*1 is t ,i %\ld absolutely & =ev] give up my private judgm5t--consid] myself z a corpse 9 ! h& ( my sup]ior40 ,) all ! f]vor ( my s\l1 ,i pray$ to ,god & to ! ,virg9 ,m>y1 day & night1 t week1 t ,i might atta9 t supreme /ate ( p]fection1 :5 ,i w\ld h no w1 no judgm5t ( my own4 ,! days ( t fir/ week pass$ v quickly1 sp5t 9 pray]1 read+ & m$itation ( ! ,scriptures1 /udies ( ecclesia/ical hi/ory & ascetical books1 f half-pa/ five 9 ! morn+ till half-pa/ n9e at night4 ,! meals 7 tak5 at ! regul> h\rs ( sev51 twelve & six o'clock1 dur+ :i*1 ) r>e exceptions1 sil5ce 0 kept1 & pi\s books 7 read4 ,! quality ( ! food 0 good2 b1 at fir/1 be=e !y got a female cook to preside ov] ! kit*51 ev]y?+ 0 s unclean1 t ,i _h to %ut my eyes at meals1 n to see :at ,i 0 eat+4 ,i %\ld h compla9$1 _h n my lips be5 seal$ by t /range mona/ic v[ ( p]fection t e religi\s man is a corpse6 ,:at does a corpse c>e ab\t ! cleanl9ess or uncleanl9ess ( :at is put into its m\?8 ,! ?ird day1 hav+ drank at breakfa/ a glass ( milk :i* 0 lit]ally mix$ ) ! dung ( ! c[1 my /oma* rebell$2 a circum/ance :i* ,i regrett$ exce$+ly1 attribut+ x to my want ( mona/ic p]fection4 ,i envi$ ! high /ate ( hol9ess ( ! o!r fa!rs1 :o _h s p]fectly atta9$ to ! sublime p]fection ( submission t !y c\ld dr9k t impure milk1 j z if x _h be5 clean4 ,ev]y?+ w5t on well ! fir/ week1 ) ! exception ( a dreadful sc>e ,i _h1 at ! d9n] ( ! fir/ ,friday4 ,j aft] eat+ s\p1 :5 li/5+ ) ! greate/ att5tion to ! read+ ( ! life ( a sa9t1 ,i sudd5ly felt z if ! devil _h tak5 hold ( my feet2 ,i ?rew d[n my knife & =k1 & ,i cri$1 at ! top ( my voice1 8,my ,god6 ,my ,god6 :at is !re80 & z quick z lightn+1 ,i jump$ on my *air to save myself f ,satan's grasp4 ,my cries 7 soon foll[$ by an inexpressible bur/ ( convulsive laught] f ev]yone4 8,b :at does t mean8 ,:o has tak5 hold ( my feet80 ,i ask$4 ,fa!r ,guigues tri$ to expla9 ! matt] to me1 b x took him a consid]able "t4 ,:5 he began to speak1 an irrepressible bur/ ( laught] prev5t$ 8 say+ a ^w4 ,! fits ( laught] became /ill m uncontrollable1 on acc\nt ( ! s]i\sness ) :i* ,i 0 repeat$ly ask+ !m :o c\ld h tak5 hold ( my feet6 ,at la/1 "s "o said1 8,x is ,fa!r ,lagi] :o want$ to kiss y\r feet60 ,at ! same "t1 ,fa!r ,lagi]1 walk+ on 8 h&s & knees1 8 face cov]$ ) sweat1 du/ & dirt1 0 crawl+ out f "u ! table1 lit]ally roll+ on ! floor1 9 su* an uncontrollable fit ( laught]1 t he 0 unable to /& on 8 feet4 ,( c\rse1 :5 ,i und]/ood t no devil _h tri$ to drag me by ! feet1 b t x 0 simply "o ( ! fa!r oblates1 :o1 to g ?r\gh "o ( ! common practices ( humility 9 t mona/]y1 _h crawl$ "u ! table1 to take hold ( ! feet ( ev]yone & kiss !m1 ,i jo9$ ) ! re/ ( ! community1 & laugh$ to my he>t's cont5t4 ,n _m days aft] ?is1 we 7 go+1 aft] tea1 f ! d9+-room to ! *apel1 to pass five or t5 m9utes 9 adoration ( ! waf]-god2 we _h two doors to cross1 & x 0 pretty d>k4 ,be+ ! la/ :o _h ent]$ ! mona/]y1 ,i _h to walk fir/1 ! o!r monks foll[+ me2 we 7 recit+1 ) a l\d voice1 ! ,lat9 ,psalm3 8,mis]e mihi ,deus40 ,we 7 all m>*+ pretty fa/1 :51 sudd5ly1 my feet met a l>ge1 ?\gh unse5 object1 & d[n ,i fell1 & roll$ on ! floor2 my next companion did ! same1 & roll$ ov] me1 & s did five or six o!rs1 :o1 9 ! d>k _h also /ruck _! feet on t object4 ,9 a mom5t1 we 7 five or six 8,holy ,fa!rs0 roll+ on ea* o!r on ! floor1 unable to rise up1 splitt+ our sides ) convulsive laught]4 ,fa!r ,brunette1 9 "o ( 8 fits ( humility1 _h left ! table a little be=e ! re/1 ) ! p]mission ( ! ,sup]ior1 to lay himself flat on ! floor1 across ! door4 ,n suspect+ x1 & unable to see any?+1 f ! want ( suffici5t light1 ,i _h entangl$ my feet on t liv+ corpse1 z also ! re/ ( ^? :o 7 walk+ too close beh9d me to /op1 be=e tumbl+ ov] "o ano!r4 ,illu/ration3 ,,fall ,,( ,,! 8,,holy ,,fa!rs40 ,no words c describe my feel+s ( %ame :5 ,i saw1 almo/ e day1 "s p]=mance ( ?is k9d go+ on1 "u ! "n ( ,*ri/ian humility4 ,9 va91 ,i tri$ to sil5ce ! voice ( my intellig5ce1 :i* 0 cry+ to me1 day & night1 t ?is 0 a m]e diabolical c>icature ( ! humility ( ,*ri/4 ,/riv+ to sil5ce my untam$ reason by tell+ x t x _h no "r to speak & argue & criticise1 )9 ! holy walls ( ! mona/]y4 ,x1 nev]!less1 spoke l\d]1 day aft] day1 tell+ me t su* acts ( humility 7 a mock]y4 ,9 va91 ,i said to myself1 8,*9iquy1 ?\ art n come "h to philosophize on ?is & t1 b to sanctify ?yself by becom+ l a corpse1 :i* has no preconceiv$ ideas1 no acquir$ /ore ( k1 no rule ( common s5se to guide y6 ,poor1 wret*$1 s9ful ,*9iquy1 ?\ art "h to save ?yself by admir+ e idea ( ! holy rules ( y\r sup]iors1 & to obey e ^w ( _! lips60 ,i felt angry aga9/ myself1 & unspeakably sad1 :51 aft] :ole weeks & mon?s ( ef=ts1 n only to sil5ce ! voice ( my reason1 b to kill x1 x _h m life ?an ev]1 & 0 m & m l\dly prote/+ aga9/ ! unmanly1 un*ri/ian & ridicul\s daily usages & rules ( ! mona/]y4 ,i envi$ ! humble piety ( ! o!r good ,fa!rs1 :o 7 app>5tly s happy1 hav+ conqu]$ !mselves s completely z to de/roy t haughty reason :i* 0 con/antly rebell+ 9 me4 ,twice1 e week1 ,i w5t to reveal to my guide & confessor1 ,fa!r ,all>d1 ! ma/] ( novices1 my int]ior /ruggles2 my con/ant1 ?\gh va9 ef=ts to subdue my rebelli\s reason4 ,he always gladd5$ me ) ! promise t1 soon] or lat]1 ,i %\ld h t int]ior p]fect peace :i* is promis$ to ! humble monk1 :5 he has atta9$ ! supreme mona/ic p]fection ( consid]+ himself z a corpse1 z reg>ds ! rules & w ( 8 sup]iors4 ,my s9c]e & con/ant ef=ts to reconcile myself to ! rules ( ! mona/]y 71 h[ev]1 soon to receive a new & rude *eck4 ,i _h read 9 ! book ( rules1 t a true monk mu/ closely wat* ^? :o live ) him1 & secretly report to 8 sup]ior ! defects & s9s :i* he detects 9 !m4 ,! fir/ "t ,i read t /range rule1 my m9d 0 s tak5 up by o!r ?+s1 t ,i did n pay mu* att5tion to x4 ,b ! second "t1 ,i /udi$ t clause1 ! blu% came to my face1 & 9 spite ( myself1 ,i said3 8,is x possible t we are a b& ( spies80 ,i 0 n long 9 see+ ! disa/r\s effects ( ?is mo/ degrad+ & immoral rule4 ,"o ( ! fa!rs1 = :om ,i _h a p>ticul> affection1 = 8 _m good qualities1 & :o _h1 _m times1 giv5 me ! s9c]e pro( ( 8 fri5d%ip1 said to me "o day3 8,= ,god's sake1 my de> ,fa!r ,*9iquy1 tell me if x is y :o d5\nc$ me to ! ,sup]ior1 = hav+ said t ! conduct ( ,fa!r ,guigues t[>d me 0 un*>itable80 8,no6 my de> fri5d10 ,i answ]$1 8,i nev] said su* a ?+ aga9/ y1 = two reasons3 ,! fir/ is1 t y h nev] said a ^w 9 my pres5ce :i* c\ld give me ! idea t y _h su* an op9ion ( our good ,fa!r ,sup]ior2 ! second reason is1 t1 ?\gh y might h told me any?+ ( t k9d1 ,i w\ld pref] to h my tongue cut & eat5 by dogs1 ?an to be a spy1 & d5\nce y60 8,i am glad to "k t10 he rejo9$1 8= ,i 0 told by "s ( ! fa!rs t y 7 ! "o :o _h report$ me to ! sup]ior z guilty1 ?\gh ,i am innoc5t ( t (f5se1 b ,i c\ld n believe x40 ,he add$1 ) te>s3 8,i regret hav+ left my p>i% to be an oblate1 on acc\nt ( t abom9able law :i* we are sworn to fulfill4 ,t law makes a real hell ( ?is mona/]y1 &1 ,i suppose1 ( all ! mona/ic ord]s1 = ,i ?9k x is a g5]al law ) all ! religi\s h\ses4 ,:5 y h pass$ m "t "h1 y w see t ! law ( detection puts an insurm\ntable wall betwe5 u all2 x de/roys e spr+ ( ,*ri/ian & social happ9ess40 8,i und]/& p]fectly well :at y say10 ,i answ]$ him2 8! la/ "t ,i 0 alone ) fa!r sup]ior1 he ask$ me :y ,i _h said t ! pres5t ,pope 0 an old fool2 he p]si/$ 9 tell+ me t ,i mu/ h said x1 #8=1' he add$1 #8"o ( our mo/ reliable fa!rs has assur$ me y said x4' #8,well1 my de> fa!r sup]ior1' ,i answ]$ him1 #8t reliable fa!r has told y a big lie2 ,i nev] said su* a ?+1 = ! good reason t ,i s9c]ely ?9k t our pres5t ,pope is "o ( ! wise/ t ev] rul$ ! *ur*4'0 ,i add$3 8,n[ ,i und]/& :y !re is s mu* unpleasantness 9 our mutual int]c\rse1 dur+ ! h\rs we are all[$ to talk4 ,i see t nobody d>es to speak 8 m9d on any grave subject4 ,! conv]sations are colorless & )\t life40 8,t is j ! reason10 answ]$ my fri5d4 8,:5 "s ( ! fa!rs1 l y & me1 w\ld pref] to be hung r ?an become spies1 ! great majority ( !m1 p>ticul>ly among ! ,fr5* prie/s rec5tly import$ f ,france1 w n he> t5 words f y\r lips on any subject1 )\t f9d+ an opportunity ( report+ eight ( !m z unbecom+ & un*ri/ian1 to ! sup]iors4 ,i d n say t x is always ?r\gh malice t !y give su* false reports3 x is m ?r\gh want ( judgm5t4 ,!y are v n>r[-m9d$2 !y d n und]/& ! half ( :at !y he> 9 its true s5se3 & !y give _! false impressions to ! sup]iors1 :o1 un=tunately1 enc\rage t sy/em ( spy+1 z ! be/ way ( trans=m+ e "o ( u into corpses4 ,z we are nev] confront$ ) our false accus]s1 we c nev] "k !m1 & we lose confid5ce 9 ea* o!r2 ?us x is t ! sweete/ & holie/ spr+s ( true ,*ri/ian love are =ev] dri$ up4 ,x is on ?is spy+ sy/em1 :i* is ! curse & ! hell ( our mona/ic h\ses1 t a celebrat$ ,fr5* writ]1 :o _h be5 a monk himself1 wrote ( all ! monks3 8,ils r5tr5t dans leurs mona/]es sans se connaitre2 ils y viv5t sans s'aim] et ils se sep>5t sans se regrett]0 7monks ent] ! mona/]y )\t kn[+ ea* o!r4 ,!y live !re1 )\t lov+ ea* o!r1 & !y dep>t f ea* o!r )\t any regret74 ,h[ev]1 ?\gh ,i s9c]ely deplor$ t !re 0 su* a law ( espionage among u1 ,i tri$ to p]suade myself t x 0 l ! d>k spots ( ! sun :i* d n dim9i% its beauty1 its gr&eur & its innum]able bless+s4 ,! society ( ! oblates 0 /ill to me ! bless$ ark :]e ,i %\ld f9d a sure %elt] aga9/ ! /orms :i* 7 desolat+ ! re/ ( ! _w4 ,n long aft] my reception z a novice1 ! provid5ce ( ,god put be=e my eyes "o ( ^? t]rible wrecks :i* w\ld make ! /ronge/ ( u tremble4 ,sudd5ly1 at ! h\r ( breakfa/1 ! sup]ior ( ! ,sem9>y ( ,/4 ,sulpice1 & gr& vic> ( ! ,diocese ( ,montreal1 ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,quibil]1 knock$ at our door1 to re/ an h\r & breakfa/ ) u1 :5 on 8 way to ,france4 ,?is un=tunate prie/1 :o 0 among ! be/ orators & ! be/ look+ m51 ,montreal _h ev] se51 _h liv$ su* a pr(ligate life ) 8 p5it5t nuns & ladies ( ,montreal1 t a cry ( indignation f ! :ole p _h =c$ ,bi%op ,b\rget to s5d him back to ,france4 ,our fa!r sup]ior took ! opportunity ( ! fall ( t tal5t$ prie/1 to make u bless ,god = hav+ ga!r$ u beh9d ! walls ( our mona/]y1 :]e ! ef=ts ( ! enemy 7 p[]less4 ,b alas6 we 7 soon to "k1 at our own exp5se1 t ! he>t ( man is weak & deceitful ev]y:]e4 ,x 0 n long aft] ! public fall ( ! gr& vic> ( ,montreal1 :5 a f9e-look+ wid[ 0 engag$ to preside ov] our kit*54 ,%e 0 m ?an =ty ye>s old1 & _h v good mann]s4 ,un=tunately1 %e _h n be5 f\r mon?s 9 ! mona/]y1 :5 %e fell 9 love ) h] fa!r confessor1 "o ( ! mo/ pi\s ( ! ,fr5* fa!r oblates4 ,! mod]n ,adam 0 n /rong] ?an ! old "o aga9/ ! *>ms ( ! new ,eve4 ,bo? 7 f\nd1 9 an evil h\r1 =gett+ "o ( ! holy laws ( ,god4 ,! guilty prie/ 0 puni%$ & ! weak woman dismiss$4 ,b an unspeakable %ame rema9$ ^u u all6 ,i w\ld h pref]r$ to h my s5t5ce ( dea?1 ?an ! news ( su* a fall inside ! walls ( t h\se :]e ,i _h s fooli%ly believ$ t ,satan c\ld n lay 8 sn>es4 ,f t day1 x 0 ! w ( ,god t ! /range & beautiful illusions :i* _h br\ght me to t mona/]y1 %\ld fade away "o aft] ! o!r1 l ! :ite mi/ :i* conceals ! bright rays ( ! morn+ sun4 ,! oblates began to appe> to me pretty mu* l o!r m54 ,till !n1 ,i _h look$ at !m ) my eyes %ut1 & ,i _h se5 no?+ b ! glitt]+ colors ) :i* my imag9ation 0 pa9t+ !m4 ,f t day1 ,i /udi$ !m ) my eyes op5$1 & ,i saw !m j z !y 74 ,9 ! spr+ ( #ahdg1 hav+ a sev]e indisposition1 ! doctor ord]$ me to g to ! ,hotel ,dieu ( ,montreal1 :i* 01 !n1 ne> ! spl5did ,/4 ,m>y's ,*ur*4 ,i made !re1 = ! fir/ "t1 ! acqua9tance ( a v5]able old nun1 :o 0 v talkative4 ,%e 0 "o ( ! sup]iors ( ! h\se2 h] family "n 0 ,urtubise4 ,h] m9d 0 /ill full ( indignation at ! bad conduct ( two fa!r oblates1 :o1 "u ! pretext ( sickness1 _h lately come to h] mona/]y to s$uce ! "y nuns :o 7 s]v+ !m4 ,%e told me h[ %e _h turn$ !m out ignom9i\sly1 =bidd+ !m ev] to come aga91 "u any pretext1 into ! hospital4 ,%e 0 "y1 :5 ,bi%op ,l>tigue1 be+ driv5 away f ! ,sulpician ,sem9>y ( ,montreal1 9 #ahbd1 _h tak5 refuge1 ) 8 secret>y1 ! ,rev4 ,ignace ,b\rget1 into ! mode/ walls ( t nunn]y4 ,%e told me h[ ! nuns _h soon to rep5t hav+ receiv$ t bi%op ) 8 secret>y & o!r prie/s4 8,x 0 ne>ly ! ru9 ( our community4 ,! int]c\rse ( ! prie/s ) a c]ta9 numb] ( ! nuns10 %e said3 80 ! cause ( s mu* disord] & sc&al1 t ,i 0 deput$ ) "s o!r nuns1 to ! bi%op to respectfully reque/ him n to prolong 8 /ay 9 our nunn]y4 ,i told him1 9 my "n1 & 9 ! "n ( _m o!rs1 t if he w\ld n comply ) our legitimate reque/1 we %\ld in/antly leave ! h\se1 g back to our families & get m>ri$1 t x 0 bett] to be hone/ly m>ri$ ?an to cont9ue to live z ! prie/s1 ev5 our fa!r confessors1 want$ u to d40 ,aft] %e _h giv5 me sev]al o!r spicy /ories ( ^? int]e/+ di/ant days1 ,i ask$ h] if %e _h kn[n ,m>ia ,monk1 :5 %e 0 9 _! h\se1 & :at %e ?\ght ( h] book 8,awful ,disclosures80 8,i h kn[n h] well10 %e said4 8,%e sp5t six mon?s ) u4 ,i h read h] book1 :i* 0 giv5 me1 t ,i might refute x4 ,b aft] read+ x1 ,i refus$ to h any?+ to d ) t deplorable exposure4 ,!re are surely "s inv5tions & suppositions 9 t book4 ,b !re is a suffici5t am\nt ( tru? to cause all our nunn]ies to be pull$ d[n by ! p1 if only ! half ( !m 7 kn[n to ! public80 ,%e !n said to me3 8,= ,god's sake1 d n reveal ^! ?+s to ! _w1 till ! la/ "o ( u is dead1 if ,god sp>es y40 ,%e !n cov]$ h] face ) h] h&s1 bur/ into te>s1 & left ! room4 ,i rema9$ horrifi$4 ,h] words fell ^u me z a ?und]bolt4 ,i regrett$ hav+ he>d !m1 ?\gh ,i 0 det]m9$ to respect h] reque/ n to reveal ! t]rible secret %e _h entru/$ to me4 ,my ,god kn[s t ,i nev] repeat$ a ^w ( x till n[4 ,b ,i ?9k x is my duty to reveal to my c\ntry & ! :ole _w ! tru?1 on t grave subject1 z x 0 giv5 me by a mo/ respectable & unimpea*able eye-witness4 ,! t]rible secrets :i* si/] ,urtubise _h reveal$ to me r5d]$ my /ay 9 ! ,hotel ,dieu z unpleasant z x _h be5 agreeable at fir/4 ,?\gh n q recov]$1 ,i left1 ! same day1 = ,longueuil1 :]e ,i ent]$ ! mona/]y ) a heavy he>t4 ,! day be=e1 two ( ! fa!rs _h come back f a two or ?ree mon?s' evangelical excursion among ! lumb] m51 :o 7 cutt+ wood 9 ! =e/s1 along ! ,ottawa ,riv] & its tribut>ies1 f "o to ?ree hundr$ miles nor?-we/ ( ,montreal4 ,i 0 glad to he> ( _! arrival4 ,i hop$ t ! int]e/+ hi/ory ( _! evangelical excursions1 n>r[ escapes f ! be>s & ! wolves ( ! =e/s2 _! he>ty receptions by ! hone/ & /urdy lumb] m51 :i* ! sup]ior _h reque/$ me1 "s weeks be=e1 to write1 w\ld cause a happy div]sion f ! deplorable ?+s ,i _h rec5tly le>n$4 ,b only "o ( ^? fa!rs c\ld be se51 & 8 conv]sation 0 any?+ b int]e/+ & pleasant4 ,!re 0 evid5tly a d>k cl\d ar\nd him4 ,& ! o!r oblate1 8 companion1 :]e 0 he8 ,! v day ( 8 arrival1 he _h be5 ord]$ to keep 8 room1 & make a retreat ( t5 days1 dur+ :i* "t he 0 =bidd5 to speak to any "o4 ,i inquir$ f a devot$ fri5d among ! old oblates ! reason ( su* a /range ?+4 ,aft] promis+ nev] to reveal to ! sup]iors ! sad secret he tru/$ me )1 he said3 8,poor fa!r ,d---- has s$uc$ "o ( 8 fair p5it5ts1 on ! way4 ,%e 0 a m>ri$ woman1 ! lady ( ! h\se :]e our mission>ies us$ to receive ! mo/ cordial hospitality4 ,! husb& hav+ discov]$ ! infidelity ( 8 wife1 came v ne> kill+ h]2 he ignom9i\sly turn$ out ! two fa!rs1 & wrote a t]rible lett] to ! sup]ior4 ,! companion ( ! guilty fa!r1 d5\nc$ him & confess$ ev]y?+ to ! sup]ior1 :o has se5 t ! lett] ( ! enrag$ husb& 0 only giv+ too true & correct v]sion ( ! :ole un=tunate & %ameful occurr5ce4 ,n[1 ! poor weak fa!r1 = 8 p5ance1 is condemn$ to t5 days ( seclusion f ! re/ ( ! community4 ,he mu/ pass t :ole "t 9 pray]1 fa/+1 & acts ( humiliation1 dictat$ by ! sup]ior40 8,d ^! deplorable facts occur v (t5 among ! fa!r oblates80 ,i ask$4 ,my fri5d rais$ 8 eyes1 fill$ ) te>s1 to ,heav51 & ) a deep sigh1 he answ]$3 8,de> ,fa!r ,*9iquy1 w\ld to ,god t ,i might be able to tell y t x is ! fir/ crime ( t nature committ$ by an oblate4 ,b alas6 y "k1 by :at has occurr$ ) our female cook1 n long ago1 t x is n ! fir/ "t t "s ( our fa!rs h br\ght disgrace ^u u all4 ,& y "k also ! abom9able life ( ,fa!r ,telmont ) ! two nuns at ,ottawa60 8,if x be s10 ,i repli$1 8:]e is ! spiritual advantage ( ! regul> cl]gy ov] ! secul>80 8,! only advantage ,i see10 answ]$ my fri5d1 8is t ! regul> cl]gy gives himself ) m impunity to e k9d ( debau* & lic5ti\sness ?an ! secul>4 ,! monks be+ conceal$ f ! eyes ( ! public1 inside ! walls ( _! mona/]y1 :]e nobody1 or at lea/ v few p h any access1 are m easily conqu]$ by ! devil1 & m firmly kept 9 8 *a9s1 ?an ! secul> prie/s4 ,! %>p eyes ( ! public1 & ! daily int]c\rse ! secul> prie/s h ) _! relations & p>i%ion]s1 =m a p[]ful & salut>y re/ra9t ^u ! bad incl9ations ( our deprav$ nature4 ,9 ! mona/]y1 !re is no re/ra9t except ! *ildi% & ridicul\s puni%m5t ( retreats1 kiss+ ( ! floor1 or ( ! feet1 ! pro/ration ( ! gr\nd z fa!r ,brunet did1 a few days aft] y\r com+ among u4 8,!re is surely m hypocrisy & selfi%ness among ! regul> ?an ! secul> cl]gy4 ,t great social organization :i* =ms ! human family1 is a div9e "w4 ,yes6 ^? great social organizations :i* are call$ ! city1 ! t[n%ip1 ! c\ntry1 ! p>i%1 & ! h\sehold1 :]e e "o is call$ to "w 9 ! light ( day1 is a div9e organization1 & makes society z /rong1 pure & holy z x c be4 8,i confess t !re are also t]rible temptations1 & deplorable falls !re1 b ! temptations are n s unconqu]able1 & ! falls n s irrep>able1 z 9 ^! d>k recesses & unheal?y prisons rais$ by ,satan only = ! birds ( night call$ mona/]ies or nunn]ies4 8,! prie/ & ! woman :o fall 9 ! mid/ ( a well organiz$ ,*ri/ian society1 break ! he>ts ( ! belov$ "m1 cov] ) %ame a v5]able fa!r1 cause ! te>s ( *]i%$ si/]s & bro!rs to fl[1 pi]ce1 ) a b>b$ arr[ ! he>ts ( ?\s&s ( fri5ds2 !y =ev] lose _! honor & good "n4 ,^! consid]ations are s _m provid5tial1 ,i d>e say div9e %ields1 to protect ! sons & daught]s ( ,eve aga9/ _! own frailty4 ,! secul> prie/ & ! woman %r9k be=e ?r[+ !mselves into su* a bottomless abyss ( %ame1 mis]y & regret4 ,b beh9d ! ?ick & d>k walls ( ! mona/]y1 or ! nunn]y1 :at has ! fall5 monk or nun to fe>8 ,nobody w he> ( x1 no bad consequ5ces wor? m5tion+ w foll[1 except a few days ( retreat1 "s insignificant1 *ildi%1 ridicul\s p5ances1 :i* ! mo/ devot$ 9 ! mona/]y are practic+ almo/ e day4 8,z y ask me1 9 e>ne/1 :at are ! advantages ( a mona/ic life ov] a secul>1 9 a moral & social po9t ( view1 ,i w answ] y3 ,9 ! mona/]y1 man z ! image ( ,god =gets 8 div9e orig91 loses 8 dignity2 & z a ,*ri/ian1 he loses ! mo/ holy weapons ,*ri/ has giv5 to 8 disciples to fight ! battle ( life4 ,he1 at once & =ev]1 loses t law ( self-respect1 & respect = o!rs1 :i* is "o ( ! mo/ p[]ful & legitimate b>ri]s aga9/ vice4 ,yes6 ,t great & div9e law ( self-respect1 :i* ,god himself has implant$ 9 ! he>t ( e man & woman :o live 9 a ,*ri/ian society1 is completely de/roy$ 9 ! mona/]y & nunn]y4 ,! f\ndation ( p]fection 9 ! monk & ! nun is t !y mu/ consid] !mselves z corpses4 ,d y n see t ?is pr9ciple /rikes at ! root ( all t ,god has made good1 gr& & holy 9 man8 ,does x n sweep away e idea ( hol9ess1 purity1 greatness6 e pr9ciple ( life :i* ! ,gospel ( ,*ri/ _h = its mission to reveal to ! fall5 *ildr5 ( ,adam8 8,:at self-respect c we expect f a corpse8 & :at respect c a corpse feel = ! o!r corpses :i* surr\nd x8 ,?us x is t ! v idea ( mona/ic p]fection c>ries ) x ! de/ruction ( all t is good1 pure1 holy & spiritual 9 ! religion ( ! gospel4 ,x de/roys ! v idea ( life1 to put dea? into its place4 8,x is = t reason t if y /udy ! true hi/ory1 n ! ly+ hi/ory1 ( mona*ism1 y w f9d ! details ( a corruption impossible1 any:]e else1 n ev5 among ! l[e/ h\ses ( pro/itution4 ,read ! ,memoirs ( ,scipio de ,ricci1 "o ( ! mo/ pi\s & intellig5t bi%ops our ,*ur* has ev] _h1 & y w see t ! monks & ! nuns ( ,italy lead ! v life ( ! brutes 9 ! fields4 ,yes6 read ! t]rible revelations ( :at is go+ on among ^? un=tunate m5 & wom51 :om ! iron h& ( mona*ism keeps ti$ 9 _! d>k dungeons1 y w he> f ! v lips ( ! nuns t ! monks are m free ) !m ?an ! husb&s are ) _! legitimate wives2 y w see t e "o ( ^? mona/ic in/itutions is ,sodom6 8,! mona/ic axiom1 t ! highe/ po9t ( p]fection is atta9$ only :5 y consid] y\rself a corpse 9 ! h& ( y\r sup]ior1 is anti-social & anti-,*ri/ian2 x is simply diabolical4 ,x trans=ms into a vile ma*9e t man :om ,god _h creat$ 9 8 lik5ess1 & made =ev] free4 ,x degrades bel[ ! brute t man :om ,*ri/1 by 8 dea?1 has rais$ to ! dignity ( a *ild ( ,god1 & inh]itor ( an et]nal k+dom 9 ,heav54 ,ev]y?+ is me*anical1 mat]ial1 false1 9 ! life ( a monk & a nun4 ,ev5 ! be/ virtues are deceptions & lies4 ,! monks & ! nuns be+ p]fect only :5 !y h r5\nc$ _! own free w & intellig5ce1 to become corpses1 c h nei!r virtues nor vices1 ,_! be/ actions are me*anical4 ,_! acts ( humility are to crawl "u ! table & kiss ! feet ( ea* o!r1 or to make a cross on a dirty floor ) ! tongue1 or lie d[n 9 ! du/ to let ! re/ ( ! monks or ! nuns pass ov] !m4 ,h y n rem>k$ h[ ^! s-call$ monks speak ) ! utmo/ contempt ( ! re/ ( ! _w8 ,"o mu/ h opportunities z ,i h _h ( see+ ! pr(\nd hatr$ :i* exi/s among all mona/ic ord]s aga9/ ea* o!r4 ,h[ ! ,dom9icans h always hat$ ! ,franciscans1 & h[ !y bo? hate ! ,jesuits1 :o pay !m back 9 ! same co94 ,:at a /rong & m]ciless hatr$ divides ! oblates1 to :om we belong1 f ! ,jesuits6 ,! ,jesuits nev] lose an opportunity ( %[+ u _! supreme contempt6 ,y are aw>e t1 on acc\nt ( ^? bad feel+s1 x is absolutely =bidd5 to an oblate to confess to a ,jesuit1 z we "k x is =bidd5 to ! ,jesuits to confess to an oblate1 or to any o!r prie/4 8,i ne$ n tell y1 = y "k t _! v[ ( pov]ty is a mask to help !m to become ri* ) m rapidity ?an ! re/ ( ! _w4 ,is x n "u ! mask ( t v[ t ! monks ( ,engl&1 ,scotl&1 ,france & ,italy became ! ma/]s ( ! ri*e/ l&s ( ^? c\ntries1 :i* ! nations 7 =c$1 by bloody revolutions1 to wr5* f _! grasp8 8,i h se5 mu* m ( ! _w ?an y4 ,:5 a "y prie/1 ,i 0 ! *apla91 confessor & intimate fri5d ( ! ,du*esse ,de ,b]ry1 ! "m ( ,h5ry ,v41 n[ ! only legitimate ,k+ ( ,france4 ,:51 9 ! mid/ ( ^? great & ri* pr9ces & nobles ( ,france1 ,i nev] saw su* a love ( money1 ( honor1 ( va9 glory1 z ,i h se5 among ! monks s9ce ,i h become "o ( !m4 ,:5 ! ,du*ess ,de ,b]ry f9i%$ h] provid5tial "w 9 ,france1 aft] mak+ ! false /ep :i* ru9$ h]1 ,i ?rew myself into ! religi\s ord] ( ! ,*>treux4 ,i h liv$ sev]al ye>s 9 _! palatial mona/]y ( ,rome2 h cultivat$ & enjoy$ _! sweet fruits 9 _! magnific5t g>d5s2 b ,i 0 n !re long1 )\t see+ ! fatal error ,i _h committ$ 9 becom+ a monk4 ,dur+ ! _m ye>s ,i resid$ 9 t spl5did mansion1 :]e laz9ess1 /upidity1 fil?9ess1 gluttony1 sup]/ition1 t$i\sness1 ignorance1 pride & unm5tionable immoralities1 ) v few exceptional cases1 reign$ supreme4 ,i _h e opportunity to "k :at 0 go+ on 9 _! mid/4 ,life soon became an unbe>able burd51 b = ! hope ,i _h ( break+ my fett]s4 ,at la/ ,i f\nd out t ! be/1 if n ! only way ( do+ ?is1 0 to decl>e to ! ,pope t ,i want$ to g & prea* ! gospel to ! savages ( ,am]ica1 :i* 0 & is /ill true4 8,i made my decl>ation1 & by ! ,pope's p]mission1 ! doors ( my gaol 7 op5$1 ) ! condition t ,i %\ld jo9 ! ord] ( ! ,oblates ,immaculate1 9 connection ) :i* ,i %\ld evangelize ! savages ( ! ,rocky ,m\nta9s4 8,i h f\nd among ! monks ( ,canada1 ! v same ?+s ,i h se5 among ^? ( ,france & ,italy4 ,) v few exceptions1 !y are all corpses1 absolutely dead to e s5tim5t ( true hone/y & real ,*ri/ianity2 !y are putrid c>casses1 :i* h lo/ ! dignity ( manhood4 8,my de> ,fa!r ,*9iquy10 he add$1 8,i tru/ y z ,i tru/ myself1 :5 ,i tell y = y\r own good1 a secret :i* is kn[n to ,god alone4 ,:5 ,i am on ! ,rocky ,m\nta9s1 ,i w raise myself up1 z ! eagles ( ^? va/ c\ntries1 & ,i %all g up to ! regions ( lib]ty1 light & life2 ,i w cease be+ a corpse1 to become :at my ,god has made me--a free & intellig5t man4 ,i w cease to be a corpse1 9 ord] to become "o ( ! r$eem$ ( ,*ri/1 :o s]ve ,god 9 _s & 9 tru?4 8,*ri/ is ! light ( ! _w2 mona*ism is its night6 ,*ri/ is ! /r5g?1 ! glory1 ! life ( man2 mona*ism is its decay1 %ame & dea?6 ,*ri/ di$ to make u free2 ! mona/]y is built up to make slaves ( u6 ,*ri/ di$ t we might be rais$ to ! dignity ( *ildr5 ( ,god2 mona*ism is e/abli%$ to br+ u d[n mu* bel[ ! liv+ brutes1 = x trans=ms u into corpses6 ,*ri/ is ! highe/ conception ( humanity2 mona*ism is its l[e/4 8,yes1 yes1 ,i hope my ,god w soon give me ! favor ,i h ask$ s long4 ,:5 ,i %all be on ! top ( ! ,rocky ,m\nta9s1 ,i w1 =ev]1 break my fett]s4 ,i w rise f my tomb1 ,i w come out f among ! dead1 to sit at ! table ( ! r$eem$1 & eat ! bread ( ! liv+ *ildr5 ( ,god40 ,i d regret t ! rem>kable monk1 ^: abridg$ views on mona*ism ,i h "h giv51 %\ld h reque/$ me nev] to give 8 "n1 :5 he all[s me to tell "s ( 8 adv5tures1 :i* w make a mo/ int]e/+ romance4 ,fai?ful to 8 promise1 he w5t1 z an oblate1 to prea* to ! savages ( ! ,rocky ,m\nta9s1 & !re1 )\t noise1 he slipp$ out ( _! h&s2 broke 8 *a9s1 to live ! life ( a fre$man ( ,*ri/1 9 ! holy bonds ( a ,*ri/ian m>riage ) a respectable ,am]ican lady4 ,weak & timid soldi] t ,i 0 once2 fright5$ by ! ru9s spread ev]y:]e on ! battle-field1 ,i look$ ar\nd to f9d a %elt] aga9/ ! imp5d+ dang]2 ,i ?\ght t ! mona/]y ( ! oblates ( ,m>y ,immaculate 0 "o ( ^? /rong t[]s1 built by my ,god1 :]e ! arr[s ( ! enemy c\ld n rea* me1 & ,i ?rew myself into x4 ,b1 h>dly beg9n+ to hope t ,i 0 out ( dang]1 beh9d ^? d>k & high walls1 :5 ,i saw !m %ak+ l a drunk5 man2 & ! voice ( ,god pass$ l a hurricane ov] me4 ,sudd5ly1 ! high t[]s & walls ar\nd me fell to ! gr\nd1 & 7 turn$ into du/4 ,n "o /one rema9$ on ano!r4 ,& ,i he>d a voice say+ to me3 8,soldi]6 come out & get 9 ! light ( ! sun2 tru/ no m 9 ! walls built by ! h& ( man2 !y are no?+ b du/4 ,come & fight 9 ! op5 day1 "u ! eyes ( ,god1 protect$ only by ! gospel bann]s ( ,*ri/6 ,come out f beh9d ^? walls1 !y are a diabolical deception1 a sn>e1 a fraud60 ,i li/5$ to ! voice1 & ,i bade adieu to ! inmates ( ! mona/]y ( ! oblates ( ,m>y ,immaculate4 ,:51 on ! fir/ ( ,octob]1 #ahdg1 ,i press$ !m on my he>t = ! la/ "t1 ,i felt ! burn+ te>s ( _m ( !m fall+ on my *eeks1 & my te>s moi/5$ _! faces3 = !y lov$ me1 & ,i lov$ !m4 ,i _h met !re sev]al noble he>ts & preci\s s\ls1 wor?y ( a bett] fate4 ,oh6 if ,i c\ld h1 at ! price ( my life1 giv5 !m ! light & lib]ty :i* my m]ciful ,god _h giv5 me6 ,b !y 7 9 ! d>k2 & !re 0 no p[] 9 me to *ange _! d>kness into light4 ,! h& ( ,god br\ght me back to my de> ,canada1 t ,i might aga9 (f] x ! sweat & labors1 ! love & life ( ! lea/ ( its sons4 ,,*apt] ,,xliii4 ,i ,,accept ,,! ,,hospitality ,,( ,,! ,,rev4 ,,mr4 ,,brass>d1 ,,( ,,longueuil--,i ,,give ,,my ,,reasons ,,= ,,leav+ ,,! ,,oblates ,,to ,,bi%op ,,b\rget--,,he ,,pres5ts ,,me ,,) ,a ,,m$allion1 ,,portrait ,,( ,,! ,,pope ,,& ,a ,,spl5did ,,crucifix ,,bless$ ,,by ,,8 ,,hol9ess ,,= ,,me1 ,,& ,,accepts ,,my ,,s]vices ,,9 ,,! ,,cause ,,( ,,temp]ance ,,9 ,,! ,,diocese ,,( ,,montreal4 ,! elev5 mon?s sp5t 9 ! mona/]y ( ! oblates ( ,m>y ,immaculate1 7 among ! greate/ favors ,god has grant$ me4 ,:at ,i _h read ( ! mona/ic ord]s1 & :at my hone/1 ?\gh delud$ imag9ation _h pa9t$ ( ! hol9ess1 purity & happ9ess ( ! mona/ic life1 c\ld n be blott$ out ( my m9d1 except by a k9d ( miracul\s int]position4 ,no te/imony :atev] c\ld h conv9c$ me t ! mona/ic in/itutions 7 n "o ( ! mo/ bless$ ( ! gospel4 ,_! exi/5ce1 9 ! bosom ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 01 = me1 an infallible tok5 ( h] div9e in/itution1 & "o ( ! /ronge/ pro(s t ^? h]etics 7 entirely sep>at$ f ,*ri/4 ,)\t religi\s ord]s1 ! ,prote/ant d5om9ations 7 to me1 z dead & decay$ bran*es cut f ! true v9e1 :i* are doom$ to p]i%4 ,b1 j z ! eyes ( ,?omas 7 op5$1 & 8 intellig5ce 0 conv9c$ ( ! div9ity ( ,*ri/1 only aft] he _h se5 ! w\nds 9 8 h&s & side1 s ,i c\ld nev] h believ$ t ! mona/ic in/itutions 7 ( hea!n & diabolical orig91 if my ,god _h n =c$ me to see ) my own eyes1 & to t\* ) my f+]s1 _! unspeakable corruptions4 ,?\gh ,i rema9$ = "s "t long]1 a s9c]e ,ca?olic prie/1 ,i d>e say t ,god himself _h j brok5 ! /ronge/ tie ( my affections & respect = t *ur*4 ,x is true t sev]al pill>s rema9$1 on :i* my robu/ fai? 9 ! hol9ess & apo/olicity ( ! *ur* re/$ = a few ye>s long]1 b ,i mu/ "h confess1 to ! glory ( ,god1 t ! mo/ solid ( ^? pill>s _h =ev] crumbl$ to pieces1 :5 9 ! mona/]y ( ,longueuil4 ,long be=e my leav+ ! oblates1 _m influ5tial prie/s ( ! di/rict ( ,montreal1 _h told me t my only *ance ( success1 if ,i want$ to cont9ue my crusade aga9/ ! demon ( drunk5ness1 0 to "w alone4 8,^? monks are pretty good speak]s on temp]ance10 !y unanim\sly said1 8b !y are no?+ else ?an a b& ( com$ians4 ,aft] deliv]+ _! eloqu5t tirades aga9/ ! use ( intoxicat+ dr9ks1 to ! p1 ! fir/ ?+ !y d is to ask = a bottle ( w9e1 :i* soon disappe>s6 ,:at fruit c we expect f ! prea*+ ( m5 :o d n believe a ^w ( :at !y say1 & :o are ! fir/1 among !mselves1 to turn _! own argum5ts into ridicule8 ,x is v diff]5t ) y2 y believe :at y say2 y are consi/5t ) y\rself2 y\r he>]s feel x2 y\r pr(\nd1 sci5tific & ,*ri/ian conviction pass into !m ) an irresi/ible p[]4 8,god visibly blesses y\r "w ) a m>vell\s success6 ,come to u10 said ! curates1 8n z s5t by ! sup]ior ( ! oblates1 b z s5t by ,god himself1 to reg5]ate ,canada4 ,pres5t y\rself z a ,fr5* ,canadian prie/2 a *ild ( ! p4 ,t p w he> y ) m pleasure1 & foll[ y\r advice ) m p]sev]ance4 8,let !m "k & feel t ,canadian blood runs 9 y\r ve9s2 t a ,canadian he>t beats 9 y\r brea/2 cont9ue to be 9 ! future1 :at y h be5 9 ! pa/4 ,let ! s5tim5ts ( ! true patriot be unit$ ) ^? ( a ,ca?olic prie/2 & :5 y address ! p ( ,canada1 ! citadels ( ,satan w crumble ev]y:]e be=e y 9 ! di/rict ( ,montreal1 z !y h done 9 t ( ,quebec40 ,at ! head ( ! ,fr5* ,canadian curates1 :o ?us spoke1 0 my v5]able p]sonal fri5d & b5efactor1 ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,brass>d1 curate ( ,longueuil4 ,he _h n only be5 "o ( my mo/ devot$ fri5ds & tea*]s1 :5 ,i 0 /udy+ m ! college ( ,nicolet1 b _h help$ me1 ) 8 own money1 to g ?r\gh ! la/ f\r ye>s ( my /udies1 :5 ,i 0 too poor to meet my collegiate exp5ses4 ,no "o _h ?\ght m highly ?an he ( ! oblates ( ,m>y ,immaculate1 :5 !y fir/ settl$ 9 ,canada4 ,b _! mona/]y 0 too ne> ! p>sonage = _! own b5efit4 ,8 %>p eyes1 high intellig5ce & integrity ( "*1 soon detect$ t !re 0 m false v>ni% ?an pure gold1 on _! glitt]+ escut*eon4 ,sev]al love scrapes betwe5 "s ( ! oblates & ! pretty "y ladies ( 8 p>i%1 & ! long h\rs ( night sp5t by ,fa!r ,all>d ) ! nuns1 e/abli%$ 9 8 village1 "u ! pretext ( tea*+ !m gramm> & ari?metic1 _h fill$ him ) disgu/4 ,b :at _h absolutely de/roy$ 8 confid5ce1 0 ! discov]y ( a long suspect$ iniquity1 :i* at fir/ seem$ incr$ible to him4 ,fa!r ,guigues1 ! sup]ior1 aft] 8 nom9ation1 b be=e 8 in/allation to ! ,bi%opric ( ,ottawa1 _h be5 closely wat*$1 & at la/ discov]$ op5+ ! lett]s ( ,mr4 ,brass>d1 :i*1 _m times1 _h pass$ f ! po/ (fice ?r\gh 8 h&s4 ,t crim9al action came v ne> be+ br\ght be=e ! legal c\rts by ,mr4 ,brass>d2 ?is 0 avoid$ only by ,fa!r ,guigues ackn[l$g+ 8 guilt1 ask+ p>don 9 ! mo/ humiliat+ way1 be=e me & sev]al o!r witnesses4 ,long be=e ,i left ! oblates1 ,mr4 ,brass>d _h said to me3 8,! oblates are n ! m5 y ?9k !m to be4 ,i h be5 sorely disappo9t$ 9 !m1 & y\r disappo9tm5t w be no less ?an m9e1 :5 y\r eyes are op5$4 ,i "k t y w n rema9 long 9 _! mid/4 ,i (f] y1 9 advance1 ! hospitality ( my p>sonage1 :5 y\r consci5ce calls y out ( _! mona/]y60 ,i avail$ myself ( ?is k9d invitation on ! ev5+ ( ! #a/ ( ,novemb]1 #ahdg4 ,! next week 0 sp5t 9 prep>+ ! memoir :i* ,i int5d$ to pres5t to my ,"l ,b\rget1 ,bi%op ( ,montreal1 z an explanation ( my leav+ ! oblates4 ,i knew t he 0 disappo9t$ & displeas$ ) ! /ep ,i _h tak54 ,! curate ( ,*ambly1 ,rev4 ,mr4 ,mignault1 hav+ gone to ! bi%op1 to express 8 joy t ,i _h left ! monks1 9 ord] to s]ve aga9 ! *ur*1 9 ! ranks ( secul> cl]gy1 _h be5 v badly receiv$4 ,! bi%op _h answ]$ him3 8,mr4 ,*9iquy may leave ! oblates if he likes2 b he w be disappo9t$ if he expects to "w 9 my diocese4 ,i d n want 8 s]vices40 ,?is did n surprise me4 ,i knew t ^? monks _h be5 import$ by him f ,france1 & t !y 7 pets ( 84 ,:5 ,i ent]$ _! mona/]y1 j elev5 mon?s be=e1 he 0 j />t+ = ,rome1 & express$ to me ! pleasure he felt t ,i 0 to jo9 !m4 ,my reasons1 h[ev]1 7 s good1 & ! memoir ,i 0 prep>+ 0 s full ( und\bt$ facts & unansw]able argum5ts1 t ,i 0 pretty sure1 n only to appease ! wra? ( my bi%op1 b to ga9 8 e/eem m firmly ?an be=e4 ,i 0 n disappo9t$ 9 my expectation4 ,a few days lat]1 ,i call$ ^u 8 lord%ip1 & 0 receiv$ v coldly4 ,he said3 8,i _c conceal f y my surprise & pa91 at ! ra% /ep y h j tak54 ,:at a %ame1 = all y\r fri5ds to see y\r want ( consi/5cy & p]sev]ance6 ,_h y rema9$ among ^? good monks1 y\r moral /r5g? c\ld h be5 increas$ m ?an t5-fold4 ,b y h /ultifi$ y\rself 9 ! eyes ( ! p1 z well z 9 m9e2 y h lo/ ! confid5ce ( y\r be/ fri5ds1 by leav+1 )\t good reasons1 ! company ( su* holy m54 ,"s bad rumors are already afloat aga9/ y1 :i* give u to und]/& t y are an unmanageable man1 a selfi% prie/1 :om ! sup]iors h be5 =c$ to turn out z a black %eep1 ^: pres5ce c\ld n be any long] tol]at$ inside ! peaceful walls ( t holy mona/]y40 ,^? words 7 utt]$ ) an expression ( bad feel+ :i* told me t ,i _h n he>d ! t5? "p ( :at he _h 9 8 he>t4 ,h[ev]1 z ,i came into 8 pres5ce1 prep>$ to he> all k9ds ( bad reports1 angry reproa*es1 & humiliat+ ins9uations1 ,i rema9$ p]fectly calm4 ,i _h1 9 9 advance1 resolv$ to he> all 8 unfri5dly1 insult+ rem>ks1 j z if !y 7 address$ to ano!r p]son1 a p]fect /rang] to me4 ,! la/ ?ree days _h be5 sp5t 9 pray]s to obta9 t favor4 ,my ,god _h evid5tly he>d me2 = ! /orm pass$ ov] me1 )\t excit+ ! lea/ unpleasant feel+s 9 my s\l4 ,i answ]$3 8,my "l3 ,all[ me to tell y t1 9 tak+ ! solemn /ep ( leav+ ! mona/]y ( ,longueuil1 ,i 0 n afraid ( :at ! _w w\ld say or ?9k ( me4 ,my only desire is to save my s\l1 & give ! re/ ( my life to my c\ntry & my ,god1 9 a m efficaci\s way ?an ,i h yet done4 ,! rumors :i* seem to tr\ble y\r lord%ip ab\t my suppos$ expulsion f ! oblates1 d n affect me 9 ! lea/1 = !y are )\t ! lea/ f\ndation4 ,f ! fir/ to ! la/ day ( my /ay 9 t mona/]y1 all ! inmates1 f ! sup]ior1 to ! la/ "o1 h ov]:elm$ me ) ! mo/ s9c]e m>ks ( k9dness1 & ev5 ( respect4 ,if y _h se5 ! te>s :i* 7 %$ by ! bro!rs1 :5 ,i bade !m adieu1 y w\ld h und]/ood t ,i nev] _h m devot$ & s9c]e fri5ds ?an ! memb]s ( t religi\s community4 ,please read ?is important docum5t1 & y w see t ,i h kept my good "n dur+ my /ay 9 t mona/]y40 ,i h&$ him ! foll[+ te/imonial lett] :i* ! sup]ior _h giv5 me :5 ,i left3 8,i1 ! und]sign$1 sup]ior ( ! noviciate ( ! oblates ( ,m>y ,immaculate1 at ,longueuil1 d c]tify t ! conduct ( ,mr4 ,*9iquy1 :5 9 our mona/]y1 has be5 wor?y ( ! sacr$ "* :i* he possesses1 & aft] ?is ye> ( solitude1 he does n less des]ve ! confid5ce ( 8 bre?r5 9 ! holy m9i/ry ?an be=e4 ,we wi%1 moreov]1 to give our te/imony ( 8 p]sev]+ zeal 9 ! cause ( temp]ance4 ,we ?9k t no?+ 0 m ( a nature to give a "* ( /ability to t admirable re=m1 & to secure its p]fect success1 ?an ! pr(\nd reflections & /udies ( ,mr4 ,*9iquy1 :5 9 ! solitude ( ,longueuil1 on ! importance ( t "w4 ,t4 ,f4 ,,all>d1 ,sup]ior ( ! ,noviciate ,o4 ,m4 ,i40 ,x 0 really mo/ pleasant = me to see t e l9e ( t docum5t1 read by ! bi%op1 0 blott+ out "s ( ! /]n & unfri5dly l9es :i* 7 on 8 face1 :5 speak+ to me4 ,no?+ 0 m amiable ?an 8 mann]s1 :5 he h&$ x back to me1 say+3 8,i ?ank ,god to see t y are /ill z wor?y ( my e/eem & confid5ce z :5 y ent]$ t mona/]y4 ,b w\ld y be k9d en\gh to give me ! real reasons :y y h s abruptly sep>at$ f ! oblates80 8,yes1 my "l1 ,i w give !m to y3 b y\r lord%ip kn[s t !re are ?+s ( su* a delicate nature1 t ! lips ( man %iv] & rebel :5 requir$ to utt] !m4 ,su* are "s ( ! deplorable ?+s :i* ,i h to m5tion to y\r lord%ip4 ,i h put ^? reasons 9 ^! pages1 :i* ,i respectfully reque/ y\r lord%ip to read10 & ,i h&$ him ! ,memoir1 ab\t ?irty pages long1 :i* ,i _h prep>$4 ,! bi%op read1 v c>efully1 five or six pages1 & said3 8,are y positive z to ! exactness ( :at y write "h80 8,yes1 my "l6 ,!y are z true & real z ,i am "h40 ,! bi%op turn$ pale1 & rema9$ a few m9utes sil5t1 bit+ 8 lips1 & aft] a deep sigh1 said3 8,is x y\r int5tion to reveal ^? sad my/]ies to ! _w1 or c we hope t y w keep t secret80 8,my "l10 ,i answ]$1 8if y\r lord%ip & ! oblates deal ) me1 z ,i hope !y w d1 z ) an honorable ,ca?olic prie/2 if ,i am kept 9 ! position :i* an hone/ prie/ has a "r to fill 9 ! ,*ur*1 ,i consid] myself b\nd1 9 consci5ce & honor1 to keep ^? ?+s secret4 ,b1 if f any abuse1 p]secutions emanat+ f ! oblates1 or any o!r p>ty1 ,i am oblig$ to give to ! _w ! true reasons ( my leav+ t mona/ic ord]1 y\r lord%ip und]/&s t1 9 self-def5ce1 ,i w be =c$ to make ^! revelations60 8,b ! oblates _c say a ^w1 or d any?+ wrong aga9/ y10 promptly answ]$ ! bi%op1 8aft] ! honorable te/imony !y h giv5 y40 8,x is true1 my "l1 t ,i h no reason to fe> any?+ f ! oblates60 ,i answ]$2 8b ^? religi\s m5 are n ! only ones :o might =ce me to def5d myself4 ,y "k ano!r :o has my future de/9ies 9 8 h&s4 ,y "k t my future c\rse w be %ap$ on 8 own t[>d me40 ,) amiable smile1 ! bi%op answ]$3 8,i und]/& y4 ,b ,i pl$ge myself t y h no?+ to fe> f t qu>t]4 ,?\gh ,i frankly tell y t ,i w\ld h pref]r$ see+ y "w z a memb] ( t mona/ic in/itution1 x may be t x is m accord+ to ! w ( ,god1 t y %\ld g among ! p1 z s5t by ,god1 r ?an by a sup]ior1 :o might be y\r inf]ior 9 ! eyes ( _m1 9 t glori\s temp]ance ( :i* y are evid5tly ! bless$ apo/le 9 ,canada4 ,i am glad to tell y t ,i h spok5 ( y to 8 hol9ess1 & he reque/$ me to give y a preci\s m$al1 :i* be>s 8 mo/ p]fect features1 ) a spl5did crucifix4 ,8 hol9ess has graci\sly atta*$ #cjj days indulg5ces = e "o :o w take ! pl$ge ( temp]ance 9 kiss+ ! feet ( t crucifix4 ,wait a mom5t10 add$ ! bi%op1 8,i w g & get !m & pres5t !m to y40 ,:5 ! bi%op return$1 hold+ 9 8 h&s ^? two infallible tok5s ( ! k9d s5tim5ts ( ! ,pope t[>ds me1 ,i fell on my knees to receive !m & press !m bo? to my lips ) ! utmo/ respect4 ,my feel+s ( joy & gratitude1 9 t happy h\r1 _c be express$4 ,i rema9$ mute1 = "s "t ) surprise & admiration1 :5 hold+ ^? preci\s ?+s :i* 7 com+ to me1 z ,i !n s9c]ely believ$1 f ! v successor ( ,pet]1 & ! true ,vic> ( ,*ri/ himself4 ,:5 h&+ me ^? sacr$ gifts1 ! bi%op address$ me ! k9de/ words :i* a bi%op c utt] to 8 prie/1 or a fa!r to 8 belov$ son4 ,he grant$ me ! p[] to prea* & he> confessions all ov] 8 diocese1 & he dismiss$ me only aft] hav+ put 8 h& on my head & ask$ ,god to p\r ^u me ,8 mo/ abundant b5$ictions ev]y:]e ,i %\ld g to "w 9 ! holy cause ( temp]ance 9 ,canada4 ,,*apt] ,,xliv4 ,,prep>ations ,,= ,,! ,,la/ ,,conflict--,,wise ,,c\nsel1 ,,te>s ,,& ,,di/ress ,,( ,,fa!r ,,ma!w--,,longueuil ,,! ,,fir/ ,,to ,,accept ,,! ,,great ,,re=m ,,( ,,temp]ance--,,! ,,:ole ,,di/rict ,,( ,,montreal1 ,,/4 ,,hyac9! ,,& ,,?ree ,,riv]s ,,conqu]$--,,two ,,hundr$ ,,?\s& ,,teetotal]s--,,! ,,city ,,( ,,montreal ,,) ,,! ,,suplicians ,,take ,,! ,,pl$ge--,,gold ,,m$al--,,(ficially ,,nam$ ,,apo/le ,,( ,,temp]ance ,,( ,,canada--,,gift ,,( #ejj ,,f ,,p>liam5t4 ,our adorable ,savi\r said3 8,:at k+1 go+ to make w> aga9/ ano!r k+ sitte? n d[n fir/1 & consulte? :e!r he be able1 ) t5 ?\s&1 to meet him t come? aga9/ him ) tw5ty ?\s&80 7,luke #ad3 #ca47 ,to foll[ t advice1 h[ (t5 _h ,i fall5 on my knees be=e my ,god1 to implore ! necess>y /r5g? & wisdom to meet t t]rible enemy :i* 0 m>*+ aga9/ me & my bre?r56 ,_m times ,i 0 s disc\rag$ by ! s5se ( p]sonal incapacity1 t ,i came ne> fa9t+ & fly+ away at ! sight ( ! p[] & res\rces ( ! foe6 ,b ! de> ,savi\r's voice has z _m times /r5g!n$ me1 say+3 8,fe> n1 ,i am ) !e60 ,he seem$1 at e h\r1 to :isp] 9 my e>s3 8,*e] up1 ,i h ov]come ! _w60 ,tru/+1 !n1 9 my ,god1 alone1 = victory1 ,i nev]!less und]/ood t my duty 0 to arm myself ) ! weapons :i* ! le>n$ & ! wise m5 ( ! pa/ ages _h prep>$4 ,i aga9 /udi$ ! be/ works writt5 on ! subject ( w9e1 f ! le>n$ naturali/1 ,pl5y1 to ! celebrat$ ,sir ,a/ley ,coop]4 ,i n only compil$ a multitude ( sci5tific notes1 argum5ts & facts f ^! books1 b prep>$ a 8,manual ( ,temp]ance10 :i* obta9$ s great a success = su* a small c\ntry z ,canada1 t x w5t ?r\gh f\r editions ( tw5ty-five ?\s& copies 9 less ?an f\r ye>s4 ,b my be/ s\rce ( in=mation & wisdom 0 f lett]s receiv$ f ,fa!r ,ma!w1 & my p]sonal int]views ) him1 :5 he visit$ ! ,unit$ ,/ates4 ,! fir/ "t ,i met him1 9 ,bo/on1 he told me h[ he regrett$ 8 hav+1 at fir/1 too mu* reli$ on ! excitem5t & en?usiasm ( ! multitudes4 8,^? fits10 he said1 8pass away z quickly z ! cl\ds ( ! /orm2 & !y1 too (t51 leave no m traces ( _! passage4 ,p]sev]e 9 ! resolution y h tak5 9 ! beg9n+1 nev] to give ! pl$ge1 except :5 y give a complete c\rse ( lectures on ! damn+ effects ( intoxicat+ dr9ks4 ,h[ c we expect t ! p w =ev] give up bev]ages :i* !y hone/ly1 ?\gh ignorantly1 believe to be b5eficial & necess>y to _! body8 ,! fir/ ?+ we d we mu/ demon/rate to !m t ^! alcoholic dr9ks are absolutely de/ructive ( _! temporal z well z ( _! et]nal life4 ,s long z ! prie/ & ! p believe1 z !y d to-day1 t rum1 br&y1 w9e1 be] & cid] give /r5g? to help man to keep up 8 heal? 9 ! mid/ ( 8 h>d labors2 t !y w>m 8 blood 9 w9t] & cool x 9 ! summ]2 all our ef=ts1 & ev5 our successes1 w be l ! burn+ bundle ( /raw1 :i* makes a bright light1 attracts ! att5tion = a mom5t1 & leaves no?+ b smoke & c9d]s4 8,hundr$s ( times1 ,i h se5 my ,iri% c\ntrym5 hone/ly tak+ ! pl$ge = life2 b be=e a week _h elaps$1 !y _h obta9$ a release f _! prie/1 "u ! impression t !y 7 unable to e>n _! own liv+ & support _! families1 )\t dr9k+ ^? dete/able drugs4 ,v few prie/s 9 ,irel& h tak5 ! pl$ge1 & /ill few] h kept x4 ,9 ,new ,york1 only two ,iri% prie/s h giv5 up _! intoxicat+ glass1 & ! v next week ,i met bo? ( !m drunk6 ,ar*bi%op ,hughes turn$ my humble ef=ts into ridicule1 be=e 8 prie/s1 9 my own pres5ce1 & drank a glass ( br&y to my heal? ) !m at 8 own table1 to mock me4 ,& "h 9 ,bo/on ! dr9k+ habits ( ! ,bi%op & 8 prie/ are su*1 t ,i h be5 =c$1 ?r\gh self-respect1 to quietly )draw f 8 palace & come to ?is hotel4 ,?is bad conduct p>alyzes & kills me40 ,9 say+ ^! la/ words1 t good & noble man bur/ into a fit ( convulsive sobs & te>s2 8 brea/ 0 heav+ "u 8 va9 ef=ts to suppress 8 sighs4 ,he conceal$ 8 face 9 8 h&s1 & = ne>ly t5 m9utes he c\ld n utt] a ^w4 ,! spectacle ( ! desolation ( a man :om ,god _h rais$ s high1 & s mu* bless$1 & ! te>s ( "o :o _h himself dri$ up s _m te>s1 & br\ght s mu* joy1 peace & com=t1 to s _m desolate homes1 has be5 "o ( ! mo/ solemn lessons my ,god ev] gave me4 ,i !n le>n$ m cle>ly ?an ev]1 t all ! glory ( ! _w is ,vanity1 & t "o ( ! greate/ acts ( folly is to rely1 = happ9ess1 on ! praises ( m51 & ! success ( our own labors4 ,= :o _h receiv$ m m]it$ praises1 & :o _h se5 8 own labors m bless$ by ,god & man1 ?an ,fa!r ,ma!w1 :om all ages w call 8,! ,apo/le ( ,temp]ance ( ,irel&80 ,my gratitude to ,mr4 ,brass>d caus$ me to *oose 8 p>i%1 ne> ,montreal1 = ! fir/ gr& battle-field ( ! imp5d+ /ruggle aga9/ ! enemy ( my ,god & my c\ntry2 & ! fir/ week ( ,adv5t det]m9$ ^u = ! op5+ ( ! campaign4 ,b ! ne>] ! day *os5 to draw ! sword aga9/ ! mod]n ,golia? ! m ,i felt ! solemnity ( my position1 & ! m ,i ne$$ ! help ( ,him on :om alone we c tru/ = light & /r5g?4 ,i _h det]m9$ nev] to lecture on temp]ance 9 any place1 )\t hav+ previ\sly inquir$1 f ! mo/ reliable s\rces1 ab\t3 #a/4 ,! numb] ( dea?s & accid5ts caus$ by drunk5ness ! la/ fifte5 or tw5ty ye>s4 #b;d4 ,! numb] ( orphans & wid[s made by drunk5ness4 #c;d4 ,! numb] ( ri* families ru9$1 & ! numb] ( poor families made poor] by ! same cause4 #d?4 ,! approximate sum ( money exp5d$ by ! p dur+ ! la/ tw5ty ye>s4 ,z ! result ( my inquiries1 ,i le>n$ t dur+ t %ort p]iod1 t #cb m5 _h lo/ _! lives :5 drunk2 & ?r\gh _! drunk5ness #be wid[s & #cg orphans _h be5 left 9 ! l[e/ degree ( pov]ty2 #gb ri* families _h be5 entirely ru9$ & turn$ out ( _! once happy homes by ! demon ( intemp]ance1 & #ij kept poor4 ,m ?an ?ree hundr$ ?\s& doll>s 7#cjj1jjj7 _h be5 paid 9 ca%1 )\t c\nt+ ! loss ( "t1 = ! intoxicat+ bev]ages drank by ! p ( ,longueuil dur+ ! la/ tw5ty ye>s4 ,= ?ree days1 ,i spoke twice a day to cr[d$ h\ses4 ,my fir/ text 03 8,look n ^u ! w9e :5 x is r$1 :5 x give? its color 9 ! cup3 :5 x move? itself aright4 ,at la/1 x bite? l a s]p5t & /+e? l an add]0 7,prov4 #cc3 #ca-cb74 ,! fir/ day ,i %[$ h[ alcoholic bev]ages 7 bit+ l a s]p5t & /++ l an add]1 by de/roy+ ! lungs1 ! bra9s1 & ! liv]2 ! n]ves & ! muscles2 ! blood & ! v life ( man4 ,! second day ,i prov$ t intoxicat+ dr9ks 7 ! mo/ implacable & cruel enemies ( ! fa!rs1 ! mo!rs1 ! *ildr52 ( ! "y & ! old2 ( ! ri* & ! poor2 ( ! f>m]s1 ! m]*ants & ! me*anics2 ! p>i% & ! c\ntry4 ,! ?ird day ,i prov$1 cle>ly1 t ^? intoxicat+ liquors 7 ! enemy ( intellig5ce1 & ! s\l ( man2 ! gospel ( ,*ri/ & ( ,8 holy *ur*2 ! enemy ( all ! rights ( man & ! laws ( ,god4 ,my conclusion 01 t we 7 all b\nd to raise our h&s aga9/ t gigantic & implacable foe1 ^: arm 0 rais$ aga9/ e "o ( u4 ,i pres5t$ ! ?rill+ tableau ( our fri5ds1 ne> & de> relations1 & neighbors1 fall5 & de/roy$ ar\nd u2 ! ?\s&s ( orphans & wid[s1 ^: fa!rs & husb&s _h be5 slaught]$ by /rong dr9k4 ,i br\ght be=e _! m9ds ! true picture ( ! />v+ *ildr51 ! de/itute wid[s & mo!rs1 ^: life _h to be sp5t 9 te>s1 ignom9y1 desolation & unspeakable mis]ies1 f ! daily use ( /rong dr9k4 ,i 0 n half ?r\gh my address :5 te>s fl[$ f e eye4 ,! cries & sobs s mu* dr[n$ my voice1 t ,i _h sev]al times to /op speak+ = a few m9utes4 ,!n hold+ ! crucifix1 bless$ & giv5 to me by ! ,pope1 ,i %[$ :at ,*ri/ _h suff]$ on ! cross = s9s eng5d]$ by ! use ( intoxicat+ dr9ks4 ,& ,i reque/$ !m to li/5 to ! voices ( ! ?\s&s ( desolate orphans1 wid[s1 wives1 & mo!rs1 com+ f e corn] ( ! l&2 ! voices ( _! prie/s & _! *ur*2 ! voices ( ! angels1 ! ,virg9 ,m>y & ! sa9ts 9 heav52 ! voice ( ,jesus ,*ri/ _! ,savi\r1 call+ !m to put an end to ! deluge ( evils & unspeakable iniquities caus$ by ! use ( ^? curs$ dr9ks2 8=10 said ,i1 8^? liquors are curs$ by millions ( mo!rs & *ildr51 wid[s & orphans1 :o owe to !m a life ( %ame1 te>s1 & untold desolation4 ,!y are curs$ by ! ,virg9 ,m>y & ! angels :o are ! daily witnesses ( ! iniquities ) :i* !y deluge ! _w4 8,!y are curs$ by ! millions ( s\ls :i* !y h plung$ into et]nal mis]y4 8,!y are curs$ by ,jesus ,*ri/1 f ^: h&s !y h wr5*$ untold millions ( s\ls1 = :om he di$ on ,calv>y40 ,e "o ( ^? tru?s1 incontrov]tible = ,roman ,ca?olics1 7 fall+ ) irresi/ible p[] on t multitude ( p4 ,! di/ress & con/]nation 7 s pr(\nd & univ]sal1 t !y react$1 at la/1 on ! poor speak]1 :o sev]al times c\ld n express :at he himself felt except ) 8 te>s & 8 sobs4 ,:5 ,i hop$ t1 by ! great m]cy ( ,god1 all resi/ances 7 subdu$1 ! ob/acles remov$1 ! intellig5ces enlight5$1 ! wills conqu]$1 ,i clos$ ! address1 :i* _h la/$ m ?an two h\rs1 by an ard5t pray] to ,god1 to grant u ! grace to give up =ev] ! use ( ^? curs$ poisons1 & ,i reque/$ e "o to repeat ) me1 9 _! he>ts1 ! solemn pl$ge ( temp]ance 9 ! foll[+ words3 8,adorable & de> ,savi\r1 ,jesus ,*ri/1 :o di$ on ! cross to take away my s9s & save my guilty s\l1 = ?y glory1 ! good ( my bre?r5 & ( my c\ntry1 z well z = my own good1 ,i promise1 ) ?y help1 nev] to dr9k1 nor to give to anybody any intoxicat+ bev]ages2 except :5 ord]$ by an hone/ physician40 ,our m]ciful ,god _h visibly bless$ ! "w & 8 unpr(itable s]vant4 ,! success 0 above our sangu9e expectations4 ,two ?\s& ?ree hundr$ citiz5s ( ,longueuil enroll$ "u ! bann]s ( temp]ance4 ,in/ead ( invit+ !m to sign any writt5 pl$ge1 ,i ask$ !m to come to ! foot ( ! alt> & kiss ! crucifix ,i 0 hold+1 z ! public & solemn pl$ge ( _! engagem5t4 ,! fir/ ?+ done by ! majority ( ! intellig5t f>m]s ( ,longueuil1 on ! return f ! *ur*1 0 to break _! decant]s & _! b>rels1 & spill ! la/ drop ( ! accurs$ dr9k on ! gr\nd4 ,sev5 days lat]1 !re 7 eighty reque/s 9 my h&s to g & %[ ! ravages ( alcoholic liquors to _m o!r p>i%es4 ,b\*]ville1 ,*ambly1 ,v>5nes1 ,/4 ,hyac9!1 etc41 ,?ree ,riv]s1 ! great city ( ,montreal1 ) all ! prie/s ( ,/4 ,sulpice1 ! p>i%es along ! ,*ambly riv]1 ,laprairie1 ,la*9e4 ,9 a ^w1 ! va/ diocese ( ,montreal1 ,?ree ,riv]s & ,/4 ,hyac9!1 "o aft] ! o!r1 rais$ ! w> cry aga9/ ! usages ( intoxicat+ dr9ks1 ) a unanimity & det]m9ation :i* seem$ to be m miracul\s ?an natural4 ,dur+ ! f\r ye>s1 ,i gave #a1hjj public addresses1 9 #bjj p>i%es1 ) ! same fruits1 & enroll$ m ?an #bjj1jjj p "u ! bann]s ( temp]ance4 ,ev]y:]e1 ! tav]ns1 ! di/ill]ies & brew]ies 7 %ut1 & _! own]s =c$ to take o!r trades to make a liv+2 n on acc\nt ( any /r+5t law1 b by ! simple fact t ! :ole p _h ceas$ dr9k+ _! bev]ages1 aft] hav+ be5 fully p]suad$ t !y 7 injuri\s to _! bodies1 oppos$ to _! happ9ess1 & ru9\s to _! s\ls4 ,! convictions 7 s unanim\s & /rong on t subject1 t1 9 _m places1 ! la/ ev5+ ,i sp5t 9 _! mid/1 ! m]*ants us$ to take all _! b>rels ( rum1 be]1 w9e & br&y to ! public squ>es1 make a pyramid ( !m1 to :i* ,i 0 invit$ to set fire4 ,! :ole population1 attract$ by ! novelty & sublimity ( t spectacle1 w\ld !n fill ! air ) _! cries & %\ts ( joy4 ,:5 ! husb&s & wives1 ! p>5ts & *ildr5 ( ! r$eem$ drunk>ds r5t ! air ) _! cries ( joy at ! de/ruction ( _! enemy1 & ! fire 0 9 full blaze1 "o ( ! m]*ants w\ld give me an ax to /ave 9 ! la/ b>rel ( rum4 ,aft] ! la/ drop 0 empti$1 ,i usually /ood on x to address "s p>t+ words to ! p4 ,su* a spectacle baffles any description4 ,! brilliant lights ( ! p9e & c$> trees1 mix$ ) all k9ds ( inflammable mat]ials :i* e "o _h be5 invit$ to br+1 *ang$ ! d>ke/ h\r ( t "t into ! brighte/ ( days4 ,! flames1 f$ by ! fi]y liquids1 %ot =? _! tongues ( fire t[>ds ,heav51 z if to praise _! great ,god1 ^: m]ciful h& _h br\ght ! m>vell\s re=mation we 7 celebrat+4 ,! ?\s& faces1 illum9at$ by ! blaze1 beam$ ) joy4 ,! noise ( ! crack+ b>rels1 mix$ ) t ( a rag+ fire2 ! cries & %\ts ( t multitude1 ) ! s++ ( ! ,te ,deum1 =m$ a h>mony :i* fill$ e s\l ) s5tim5ts ( unspeakable happ9ess4 ,b :]e %all ,i f9d words to express my feel+s1 :5 ,i _h f9i%$ speak+6 ,! mo!rs & wives to :om our bless$ temp]ance _h giv5 back a lov+ husb& & "s de> *ildr51 7 cr[d+ ar\nd me ) _! families & r$eem$ ones1 to ?ank me1 press my h&s to _! lips1 & wat] !m ) _! grateful te>s4 ,! only ?+ :i* m>r$ t joy 7 ! exagg]at$ honors & unm]it$ praises ) :i* ,i 0 really ov]:elm$4 ,i 01 at fir/1 =c$ to receive an ovation f ! curates & p ( ,longueuil1 & ! surr\nd+ p>i%es1 :5 !y pres5t$ to me my portrait1 pa9t$ by ! arti/ ,hamel1 :i* fill$ me ) confusion1 = ,i felt s ke5ly t ,i did n des]ve su* honors6 ,b x 0 /ill worse at ! end ( ,may1 #ahdi4 ,judge ,mondelet 0 deput$ by ! bi%op & ! prie/s & ! city ( ,montreal1 accompani$ by #ae1jjj p1 to pres5t me ) a gold m$al1 & a gift ( #djj4 ,b ! greate/ surprise my ,god _h 9 /ore = me1 0 kept = ! end ( ,june1 #ahej4 ,at t "t1 ,i 0 deput$ by #dj1jjj teetotal]s1 to pres5t a petition to ! ,p>liam5t ( ,toronto1 9 ord] to make ! rumsell]s responsible = ! ravages caus$ to ! families ( ! poor drunk>ds to :om !y _h sold _! poison\s drugs4 ,! ,h\se ( ,commons hav+ k9dly appo9t$ a committee ( t5 memb]s to help me to frame t bill1 x 0 an easy matt] to h x pass ?r\gh ! ?ree bran*es4 ,i 0 pres5t :5 !y discuss$ & accept$ t bill4 ,napoleon 0 n m happy :5 he won ! battle ( ,au/]litz1 ?an ,i 0 :5 ,i he>d t my pet bill _h become a law1 & t h]eaft]1 ! innoc5t victims ( ! drunk5 fa!r or husb& w\ld receive an indemnity f ! l&%>ks :o 7 fatt5+ on _! pov]ty & unspeakable mis]ies4 ,b :at 0 my surprise & con/]nation1 :51 imm$iately aft] ! pass+ ( t bill1 ! ,hon4 ,dewitt rose & propos$ t a public expression ( gratitude %\ld be giv5 me by ,p>liam5t1 "u ! =m ( a l>ge pecuni>y gift6 ,8 spee* seem$ to me fill$ ) su* exagg]at$ eulogiums1 t ,i w\ld h be5 tempt$ to ?9k x 0 mock]y1 _h ,i n kn[n t ! ,prote/ant g5tleman 0 "o ( my mo/ s9c]e fri5ds4 ,he 0 foll[$ by ! ,honorables ,baldw9 & ,lafonta9e1 ,prime ,m9i/] at ! "t1 & half a doz5 o!r memb]s1 :o w5t /ill fur!r into :at ,i s ju/ly consid] ! regions ( exagg]ation4 ,x seem$ to me bord]+ on blasphemy to attribute to ,*9iquy1 a re=mation :i* 0 s cle>ly ! "w ( my m]ciful ,god4 ,! spee*es on t subject la/$ two h\rs1 & 7 foll[$ by a unanim\s vote to pres5t me ) #ejj1 z a public te/imony ( ! gratitude ( ! p = my labors 9 ! temp]ance re=m ( ,canada4 ,previ\s to t1 ! bi%ops ( ,quebec & ,montreal _h giv5 me tok5s ( _! e/eem :i*1 ?\gh unm]it$1 _h be5 bett] appreciat$ by me4 ,:5 9 ,may1 #ahej1 ! ,ar*bi%op ( ,quebec1 my ,"l ,turgeon1 s5t ! ,rev4 ,*>les ,baill>geon1 curate ( ,quebec1 to ,rome1 to become 8 successor1 he advis$ him to come to ,longueuil & get a lett] f me1 :i* he might pres5t to ! ,pope1 ) a volume ( my 8,temp]ance ,manual40 ,i compli$ ) 8 reque/1 & wrote to ! ,pope4 ,"s mon?s lat]1 ,i receiv$ ! foll[+ l9es3 ,,rome1 ,,aug4 #aj,,?1 #ahej4 ,,rev4 ,,mr4 ,,*9iquy3 ,,sir ,,& ,,de> ,,fri5d3--,monday ! #ab?1 0 ! fir/ opportunity giv5 me to h a private audi5ce ) ! ,sov]eign ,pontiff4 ,i pres5t$ him y\r book1 ) y\r lett]1 :i* he receiv$1 ,i w n say ) t goodness :i* is s em95tly *>act]i/ic ( him1 b ) all special m>ks ( satisfaction & approbation1 :ile *>g+ me to /ate to y t he accords 8 apo/olic b5$iction to y & to ! holy "w ( temp]ance y prea*4 ,i consid] myself happy to h _h to (f] on y\r behalf1 to ! ,vic> ( ,jesus ,*ri/1 a book :i*1 aft] x _h done s mu* good to my c\ntrym51 _h be5 able to draw f 8 v5]able lips1 su* solemn words ( approbation ( ! temp]ance society & ( bless+s on ^? :o are its apo/les2 & x is also1 f my he>t1 a v sweet pleasure to transmit !m to y4 ,y\r ,fri5d1 ,,*>les ,,baill>geon1 ,prie/4 ,a %ort "t be=e ,i receiv$ t lett] f ,rome1 my ,"l ,b\rget1 ,bi%op ( ,montreal1 _h (ficially giv5 me ! title ( 8,apo/le ( ,temp]ance20 9 ! foll[+ docum5ts1 :i*1 on acc\nt ( _! importance1 ! read]s w probably l to h its orig9al ,lat93 8,,ignatius ,,b\rget1 ,,mis]atione ,,div9a ,,et ,,/4 ,,s$is ,,apo/olic ,,gratia1 ,,episcopus ,,m>ianopolitan5sis1 ,,etc41 ,,etc41 ,,etc40 8,,univ]sis prs5tes litt]as inspecturis1 notum facimus et atte/amur ,v5]abilem ,c>olum ,*9iquy1 ,temp]anti ,apo/olum1 ,no/r ,dioccis ,sac]dotem1 ,nobis optime notum esse1 exploratumque hab]e illum vitam laudabilem et pr(essione ,ecclesia/ica consonam ag]e1 nullisque ecclesia/icis c5suris1 saltem qu ad no/ram dev5]unt ,notitiam innodiatum3 qua propt]1 p] visc]a ,mis]icordi ,dei ,no/ri1 obsecramus omnes et ,s+ulos ,ar*iepiscopos1 ,episcopos1 ct]as que ,ecclesi dignitates ad quos ipsum decl9>e cont+5t1 ut eum1 pro ,*ri/i ,amore1 b5igne tract>e dign5tur1 et qu&o cumque ab eo fu]9t requisiti1 ,sacrum ,miss ,sacrificium ipsi celebr>e1 nec non alia munia ,ecclesia/ica1 et pietatis op]a ex]c]e p]mittant1 p>atos nos ad similia et majora exhib5tes3 ,9 quorum fidem1 prs5tes litt]as signo sigilloque no/ris1 ac ,secret>ii ,episopatus no/ri subscriptione communitas exp$iri m&avimus ,m>ianopoli1 9 ,,oedibus ,no/ris ,beati ,jacobi1 anno millesimo qu9quagesimo4 ,die v]o m5sis ,junii ,sexta40 8,,ig4 ,,epus4 ,,m>ianopolitan5sis40 8,j4 ,o4 ,,p>e1 ,,c4 ,,secrius40 ,,translation4 ,,ignatius ,,b\rget1 ,,by ,,! ,,div9e ,,m]cy ,,& ,,grace ,,( ,,! ,,holy ,,apo/olic ,,see1 ,,bi%op ,,( ,,montreal4 ,to all :o w\ld inspect ! pres5t lett]s1 we make kn[n & c]tify t ! v5]able ,*>les ,*9iquy1 8,apo/le ( ,temp]ance10 ,prie/ ( our ,diocese1 is v well kn[n to u1 & we reg>d him z prov$1 to lead a praisewor?y life1 & agreeable to 8 ecclesia/ical pr(ession4 ,?r\gh ! t5d] m]cies ( our ,god1 he is "u no ecclesia/ical c5sures1 at lea/1 :i* h come to our k4 ,we entreat ea* & all1 ,ar*bi%op1 ,bi%op & o!r dignit>ies ( ! *ur*1 to :om x may happ5 t he may g1 t !y1 = ! love ( ,*ri/1 ent]ta9 him k9dly & c\rte\sly1 & z (t5 z !y may be ask$ by him1 p]mit him to celebrate ! holy sacrifice ( ! mass1 & ex]cise o!r ecclesia/ical privileges ( piety4 ,be+ ourselves ready to grant him ^! & o!r great] privileges4 ,9 pro( ( ?is we h ord]$ ! pres5t lett]s to be prep>$ "u our sign & seal1 & ) subscription ( our secret>y1 9 our palace ( ! bless$ ,james1 9 ! ye> "o ?\s& eight hundr$ & fifty1 on ! six? day ( ! mon? ( ,june4 ,,ignatius4 ,,bi%op ,,( ,,m>ianopolis4 ,by ord] ( ! mo/ illu/ri\s & mo/ ,rev]5d ,bi%ops ( ,m>ianopolis1 ,d4 ,d4 ,j4 ,o4 ,,p>e1 ,canon1 ,secret>y4 ,no words f my p5 c give an idea ( ! di/ress & %ame ,i felt :5 ^! unm]it$ praises & public honors began to fl[ ^u me4 ,=1 :5 ! sir5 voice ( my natural pride 0 ne> to deceive me1 !re 0 ! noise ( a sudd5 /orm 9 my consci5ce1 cry+ ) a l\d] voice3 8,*9iquy1 ?\ art a s9n]1 unwor?y ( su* honors40 ,?is conflict made me v mis]able4 ,i said to myself4 8,are ^? great successes due to my m]its1 my virtues & my eloqu5ce8 ,no6 ,surely ,no6 ,!y are due to ! great m]cy ( ,god = my de> c\ntry4 ,w ,i n =ev] be put to %ame if ,i cons5t to ^! flatt]+ voices :i* come to me f morn+ till night1 to make me =get t to my ,god alone1 & n to me1 mu/ be giv5 ! praise & glory ( t m>vell\s re=m80 ,^! praises 7 com+ e day1 ?ick] & ?ick]1 ?r\gh ! ?\s& trumpets ( ! press1 z well z ?r\gh ! addresses daily pres5t$ to me f ! places :i* _h be5 s ?or\ghly re=m$4 ,^? unm]it$ honors 7 be/[$ on me by multitudes :o came 9 c>riages & on horseback1 be>+ flags1 ) b&s ( music1 to receive me on ! bord]s ( _! p>i%es1 :]e ! la/ p>i%es _h j br\ght me ) ! same k9d ( ovations4 ,sometimes1 ! roads 7 l9$ on bo? sides1 by ?\s&s & ?\s&s ( maple1 p9e or spruce trees1 :i* !y _h c>ri$ f di/ant =e/s1 9 spite ( all my prote/s4 ,h[ _m times ! curates1 :o 7 sitt+ by me 9 ! be/ c>riages1 drawn by ! mo/ spl5did horses1 ask$ me3 8,:y d y look s sad1 :5 y see all ^! faces beam+ ) joy80 ,i answ]$1 8,i am sad1 because ^! unm]it$ honors ^! good p d me1 seems to be ! %orte/ way ! ,devil has f\nd to de/roy me40 8,b ! re=m y h br\ght ab\t is s admirable & s complete--! good :i* is done to ! individuals1 z well z to ! :ole c\ntry1 is s great & univ]sal1 t ! p want to %[ y _! gratitude40 8,d y "k1 my de> fri5ds10 ,i answ]$1 8t t m>vell\s *ange is too great to be ! "w ( man8 ,is x n evid5tly ! "w ( ,god8 ,to ,him1 & ,him alone1 !n we ought to give ! praise & ! glory40 ,my con/ant habit1 aft] ^! days ( ovation1 0 to pass a "p ( ! night 9 pray] to ,god1 to ! ,virg9 ,m>y1 & to all ! sa9ts 9 heav51 to prev5t me f be+ hurt by ^! worldly honors4 ,x 0 my cu/om !n to read ! passion ( ,jesus ,*ri/1 f 8 triumphant entry into ,j]usalem to 8 dea? on ! cross1 9 ord] to prev5t ?is %9+ du/ f adh]+ to my s\l4 ,!re 0 a v]se ( ! gospel1 :i* ,i us$ to repeat v (t5 9 ! mid/ ( ^? exhibitions ( ! vanities ( ?is _w3 8,:at is a man pr(it$ if he %\ld ga9 ! :ole _w & lose 8 own s\l80 7,matt4 #af3bf74 ,ano!r s\rce ( s]i\s anxiety = me1 0 !n com+ f ! l>ge sums ( money con/antly fl[+ f ! h&s ( my too k9d & grateful re=m$ c\ntrym5 into m9e4 ,x 0 v seldom t ! public expression ( gratitude pres5t$ me 9 _! rhetorical addresses 7 n accompani$ by a gift ( f #ej to #ejj1 accord+ to ! means & importance ( ! place4 ,^? sums multipli$ by ! #cfe days ( ! ye> w\ld h soon made ( me "o ( ! ri*e/ m5 ( ,canada4 ,_h ,i be5 able to tru/ to my own /r5g? aga9/ ! hung]s ( ri*es1 ,i %\ld h be5 able1 easily1 to accumulate a sum ( at lea/ #gj1jjj1 ) :i* ,i might h done a great am\nt ( good4 ,b ,i confess1 t :5 9 ! pres5ce ( ,god1 ,i w5t to ! bottom ( my he>t1 to see if x 7 /rong en\gh to c>ry su* a glitt]+ weight1 ,i f\nd x1 by f>1 too weak4 ,i knew s _m :o1 ?\gh evid5tly /rong] ?an ,i 01 _h fall5 on ! way & p]i%$ "u too heavy burd5 ( _! treasures1 t ,i fe>$ = myself at ! sight ( su* unexpect$ & imm5se =tune4 ,besides1 :5 only #ah ye>s old1 my v5]able & de> b5efactor1 ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,leprohon1 director ( ! ,college ( ,nicolet1 _h told me a ?+ ,i nev] _h =gott53 8,*9iquy10 he said1 8,i am sure y w be :at we call a successful man 9 ! _w4 ,y w easily make y\r way among y\r contempor>ies2 &1 consequ5tly1 x is probable t y w h _m opportunities ( becom+ ri*4 ,b :5 ! silv] & gold fl[ into y\r h&s1 d n pile & keep x4 ,=1 if y set y\r affections on x1 y w be mis]able 9 ?is _w & damn$ 9 ! next4 ,y mu/ n d l ! fatt5$ hogs1 :i* give _! grease only aft] _! dea?4 ,give x :ile y are liv+4 ,!n y w n be bless$ only by ,god & man1 b y w be bless$ by y\r own consci5ce4 ,y w live 9 peace & die 9 joy40 ,^! solemn w>n+s f "o ( ! wise/ & be/ fri5ds ,god _h ev] giv5 me :5 "y1 has nev] gone out ( my m9d4 ,i f\nd !m corroborat$ 9 e page ( t ,bible :i* ,i lov$ s mu* & /udi$ e day4 ,i f\nd !m also writt51 by ,god1 on my he>t4 ,i !n1 on my knees1 took ! resolution1 )\t mak+ an absolute v[ ( x1 to keep only :at ,i want$ = my daily support & give ! re/ to ! poor1 or "s ,*ri/ian or patriotic object4 ,i kept my promise4 ,! #ejj giv5 me by p>liam5t did n rema9 ?ree weeks 9 my h&s4 ,i nev] put a c5t 9 ,canada 9 ! vaults ( any bank2 & :5 ,i left = ,ill9ois1 9 ! fall ( #ahea1 in/ead ( tak+ ) me #gj1jjj1 z x w\ld h be5 v easy1 _h ,i be5 s m9d$1 ,i _h h>dly #a1ejj 9 h&1 ! price ( a "p ( my libr>y1 :i* 0 too heavy to be c>ri$ s f> away4 ,,*apt] ,,xlv4 ,,my ,,s]mon ,,on ,,! ,,virg9 ,,m>y--,,complim5ts ,,( ,,bi%op ,,pr9ce--,,/ormy ,,night--,,my ,,fir/ ,,s]i\s ,,d\bts ,,ab\t ,,! ,,*ur* ,,( ,,rome--,,pa9ful ,,discussion ,,) ,,! ,,bi%op--,,! ,,holy ,,fa!rs ,,oppos$ ,,to ,,! ,,mod]n ,,wor%ip ,,( ,,! ,,virg9--,,! ,,bran*es ,,( ,,! ,,v9e4 ,! #ae? ( ,augu/1 #ahej1 ,i prea*$ 9 ! ,ca!dral ( ,montreal1 on ! bless$ ,virg9 ,m>y's p[] 9 heav51 :5 int]c$+ = s9n]s4 ,i 0 s9c]ely devot$ to ! ,virg9 ,m>y4 ,no?+ seem$ to me m natural ?an to pray to h]1 & rely on h] protection4 ,! object ( my s]mon 0 to %[ t ,jesus ,*ri/ _c refuse any ( ! petitions pres5t$ to him by 8 "m2 t %e has always obta9$ ! favors %e ask$ h] ,son1 ,jesus1 to grant to h] devotees4 ,( c\rse1 my address 0 m s5tim5tal ?an scriptural1 z x is ! /yle among ! prie/s ( ,rome4 ,b ,i 0 hone/2 & ,i s9c]ely believ$ :at ,i said4 8,:o among y1 my de> bre?r510 ,i said to ! p1 8w refuse any ( ! reasonable reque/s ( a belov$ "m8 ,:o w break & sadd5 h] lov+ he>t :51 ) supplicat+ voice & te>s1 %e pres5ts to y a petition :i* x is 9 y\r p[]1 nay1 to y\r int]e/s1 to grant8 ,= my own "p1 7 my belov$ "m /ill liv+1 ,i w\ld pref] to h my "r h& cru%$ & burn$ into c9d]s1 to h my tongue cut1 ?an to say1 ,no6 to my "m1 ask+ me any favor :i* x 0 9 my p[] to be/[4 8,^! are ! s5tim5ts :i* ! ,god ( ,s9ai want$ to engrave 9 ! v he>ts ( humanity1 :5 giv+ 8 laws to ,moses1 9 ! mid/ ( lightn+ & ?und]s1 & ^! are ! s5tim5ts :i* ! ,god ( ! ,gospel want$ to impress on our s\ls by ! %$d+ ( 8 blood on ,calv>y4 ,^! s5tim5ts ( filial respect & ob$i5ce to our mo!rs1 ,*ri/ ,jesus1 ! ,son ( ,god & ,son ( ,m>y1 practic$ to p]fection4 ,al?\gh ,god & man1 he 0 /ill 9 p]fect submission to ! w ( 8 "m1 ( :i* he makes a law to ea* ( u4 8,! ,gospel says1 9 ref]5ce to 8 p>5ts1 ,joseph & ,m>y1 #8,he 0 subject unto !m4' 7,luke #b3ea47 ,:at a gr& & %9+ revelation we h 9 ^! few %ort words3 #8,jesus 0 subject unto ,m>y6' ,is x n writt5 9 ! same ,gospel1 t #8,jesus is ! same to-day1 z he 0 ye/]day1 & w be =ev]8' ,he has n *ang$4 ,he is /ill ! ,son ( ,m>y1 z he 0 :5 only twelve ye>s old4 8,?is is :y our holy ,*ur*1 :i* is ! pill> & f\ndation ( ,tru?1 invites y & me1 to-day1 to put an unb\nd$ confid5ce 9 h] int]cession4 ,rememb]+ t ,jesus has always grant$ ! petitions pres5t$ to him by 8 div9e "m1 let u put our petitions 9 h] h&s1 if we want to receive ! favors we are 9 ne$ (4 8,! second reason :y we mu/ all g to ,m>y1 = ! favors we want f heav51 is t we are s9n]s--rebels 9 ! sight ( ,god4 ,jesus ,*ri/ is our ,savi\r4 ,yes6 b he is also our ,god1 inf9itely j1 inf9itely holy4 ,he hates our s9s ) an inf9ite hatr$4 ,he abhors our rebellions ) an inf9ite1 a godly hatr$4 ,if we _h lov$ & s]v$ him fai?fully we might g to him1 n only ) ! hope1 b ) ! assurance ( be+ welcom$4 ,b we h =gott5 & (f5d$ ,him2 we h trampl$ ,8 laws "u our feet2 we h jo9$ ) ^? :o nail$ ,him on ! cross1 pi]c$ 8 he>t ) ! lance1 & %$ ,8 blood to ! la/ drop4 ,we belong to ! cr[d :i* mock$ at ,8 tortures1 & insult$ ,him at ,8 dea?4 ,h[ c we d>e to look at ,him & meet ,8 eyes8 ,mu/ we n tremble 9 8 pres5ce8 ,mu/ we n fe> be=e t ,lion ( ! tribe ( ,judah :om we h w\nd$ & nail$ to ! cross8 8,:]e is ! rebel :o does n %iv]1 :5 he is dragg$ to ! feet ( ! mighty ,pr9ce aga9/ :om he has drawn ! sword8 ,:at w he d if he wants to obta9 p>don8 ,w he g himself & speak to t (f5d$ ,maje/y8 ,no6 ,b he looks ar\nd ! ?rone to see if he c f9d "s "o ( ! great (fic]s & fri5ds1 or "s p[]ful & influ5tial p]son1 ?r\gh ^: int]cession he c obta9 p>don4 ,if he f9ds any su*1 he goes imm$iately to him1 puts 8 petitions into _! h&s1 & !y g to ! foot ( ! ?rone to plead = ! rebel1 & ! favor :i* w\ld h be5 indignantly refus$ to ! guilty subject1 _h he d>$ to speak himself1 is grant$1 :5 x is ask$ by a fai?ful (fic]1 a k9d fri5d1 a de> si/] or a belov$ "m4 8,?is is :y our holy *ur*1 speak+ ?r\gh h] infallible supreme pontiff1 ! ,vic> ( ,*ri/1 ,gregory ,,xvi41 has told u1 9 ! mo/ solemn mann]1 t #8,m>y is ! only hope ( s9n]s4' ,w9d+ up my argum5ts1 ,i add$3 8,we are ^? insol5t1 ungrateful rebels4 ,jesus is ! ,k+ ( ,k+s aga9/ :om we h1 a ?\s& times1 ris5 9 rebellion4 ,he has a ?\s& good reasons to refuse our petitions1 if we are impud5t en\gh to speak to ,him ourselves4 ,b look at ! "r h& ( ! (f5d$ ,k+1 & behold 8 de> & div9e "m4 ,%e is y\r "m also4 ,= x is to e "o ( u1 z well z to ,john1 t ,*ri/ said on ! cross1 speak+ ( ,m>y1 #8,behold y\r ,"m4' 8,jesus has nev] refus$ any favor ask$ by t ,que5 ( ,heav54 ,he _c rebuke ,8 ,"m4 ,let u g to h]2 let u ask h] to be our advocate & plead our cause1 & %e w d x4 ,let u suppliantly reque/ h] to ask = our p>don1 & %e w get x40 ,i !n s9c]ely took ^! glitt]+ sophisms = ! true religion ( ,*ri/1 z all ! prie/s & p ( ,rome are b\nd to take !m to-day1 & pres5t$ !m ) all ! e>ne/ness ( an hone/ ?\gh delud$ m9d4 ,my s]mon _h made a visible & deep impression4 ,bi%op ,pr9ce1 coadjutor ( my ,"l ,b\rget1 :o 0 among my he>]s1 ?ank$ & congratulat$ me = ! good effect x w\ld h on ! p1 & ,i s9c]ely ?\ght ,i _h said :at 0 true & "r be=e ,god4 ,b :5 night came1 be=e go+ to b$1 ,i took my ,bible z usual1 knelt d[n be=e ,god1 9 ! neat little room ,i occupi$ 9 ! bi%op's palace1 & read ! twelf? *apt] ( ,mat!w1 ) a pray+ he>t & a s9c]e desire to und]/& x1 & be b5efitt$ !reby4 ,/range to say6 :5 ,i rea*$ ! #dj? v]se1 ,i felt a my/]i\s awe1 z if ,i _h ent]$ = ! fir/ "t1 into a new & mo/ holy l&4 ,?\gh ,i _h read t v]se1 & ! foll[+1 _m times1 !y came to my m9d ) a fre%ness & newness z if ,i _h nev] se5 !m be=e4 ,!re 0 a lull 9 my m9d = a few mom5ts4 ,sl[ly1 & ) brea?less att5tion1 supreme v5]ation & respect1 ,i read ! hi/ory ( t visit ( ,m>y to ! sacr$ spot :]e ,jesus1 my ,savi\r1 0 /&+ 9 ! mid/ ( ! cr[d1 fe$+ 8 happy he>]s ) ! bread ( life4 ,:5 ,i contemplat$ t bless$ ,m>y1 :om ,i lov$1 z s t5d]ly approa*+ ! h\se :]e %e 0 to meet h] div9e ,son1 :o _h be5 s long abs5t f h]1 my he>t sudd5ly ?robb$ 9 sympa?y ) h]s4 ,i felt z if %>+ h] unspeakable joy at e /ep :i* br\ght h] ne>] to h] adorable & belov$ son4 ,:at te>s _h %e n %$ :5 ,jesus _h left h] alone1 9 h] poor1 n[1 & *e]less home1 t ,he might prea* ! gospel 9 ! di/ant places1 :]e 8 ,fa!r _h s5t ,him6 ,) ,jesus 9 h] humble home1 0 %e n m happy ?an ! greate/ que5 on h] ?rone6 ,did %e n possess a treasure m preci\s ?an all ! _w6 ,h[ sweet to h] e>s 7 ! words %e _h he>d f ,8 lips6 ,h[ lovely ! face ( ! mo/ beautiful among ! sons ( m56 ,h[ happy %e mu/ h felt :5 %e he>d t he 01 n[1 ne> en\gh to all[ h] to g & see ,him6 ,h[ quick 7 h] /eps6 ,h[ *e]ful & int]e/+ ! meet+6 ,h[ ! belov$ ,savi\r w repay by ,8 respectful & div9e love to 8 "m1 ! tr\ble & ! fatigue ( h] long j\rney6 ,my he>t beat ) joy at ! privilege ( witness+ t int]view1 & ( he>+ ! respectful words ,jesus w\ld address to ,8 "m6 ,) he>t & s\l ?robb+ ) ^! feel+s1 ,i sl[ly read1 8,:ile he talk$ to ! p1 behold ,8 "m & ,8 bre?r51 /ood )\t desir+ to speak ) ,him4 8,!n "o said unto ,him3 ,behold1 ?y "m & ?y bre?r5 /& )\t desir+ to speak ) !e4 8,b he answ]$1 & said unto him t told ,him3 ,:o is my "m8 ,:o are my bre?r58 8,& he /ret*$ =? ,8 h&s t[>ds ,8 disciples1 & said3 ,behold my "m & bre?r56 8,= :osoev] %all d ! w ( my ,fa!r :i* is 9 ,heav51 ! same is my bro!r1 si/] & "m40 ,i _h h>dly f9i%$ read+ ! la/ v]se1 :5 big drops ( sweat began to fl[ f my face1 my he>t beat ) a trem5d\s spe$1 & ,i came ne> fa9t+2 ,i sat 9 my l>ge arm*air1 expect+ e m9ute to fall on ! floor4 ,^? alone :o h /ood sev]al h\rs at ! fall ( ! m>vell\s ,niag>a1 he>d ! ?und]+ noise ( its wat]s1 & felt ! %ak+ ( ! rocks "u _! feet1 c h any idea ( :at ,i felt 9 t h\r ( agony4 ,a voice1 ! voice ( my consci5ce1 ^: ?und]s 7 l ! voice ( a ?\s& ,niag>as1 0 tell+ me3 8,d y n see t y h prea*$ a sacrilegi\s lie1 ?is morn+1 :51 f ! pulpit1 y said to y\r ignorant & delud$ p1 t ,jesus always grant$ ! petitions ( ,8 "m1 ,m>y8 ,are y n a%am$ to deceive y\rself1 & deceive y\r poor c\ntrym5 ) su* silly falsehoods80 ,read]1 read aga9 ^! words6 & und]/& t1 f> f grant+ all ! petitions ( ,m>y1 ,jesus has always1 except :5 a *ild1 said 8,no60 to h] reque/s4 ,he has always rebuk$ h]1 :5 %e ask$ him any?+ 9 public6 ,"h %e comes to ask ,him a favor be=e ! :ole p4 ,x is ! easie/1 ! mo/ natural favor t a "m ev] ask$ ( h] son4 ,x is a favor t a son has nev] refus$ to a "m4 ,he answ]s by a rebuke1 a public & solemn rebuke6 ,is x ?r\gh want ( love & respect = ,m>y t ,he gave h] t rebuke8 ,no6 ,nev] a son lov$ & respect$ a "m z ,he did4 ,b x 0 a solemn prote/ aga9/ ! blasphem\s wor%ip ( ,m>y1 z practic$ 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,rome4 ,i felt1 at once1 s bewild]$ & conf\nd$1 by ! voice1 :i* 0 %ak+ my v bones1 t ,i ?\ght x 0 ! devil's voice2 &1 = a mom5t1 ,i fe>$ less ,i 0 possess$ ( a demon4 8,my ,god10 ,i cri$1 8h m]cy on me6 ,come to my help6 ,save me f my enemy's h&s60 ,z quick z lightn+1 ! answ] came3 8,x is n ,satan's voice y he>4 ,x is ,i1 ?y ,savi\r & ?y ,god1 :o speaks to !e4 ,read :at ,m>k1 ,luke1 & ,john tell y ab\t ! way ,i receiv$ h] petitions1 f ! v day ,i began to "w1 & speak publicly z ! ,son ( ,god1 & ! ,savi\r ( ! _w40 ,^! cries ( my awak5+ intellig5ce 7 s\nd+ 9 my e>s = m ?an "o h\r1 be=e ,i cons5t$ to obey !m4 ,at la/1 ) a trembl+ h&1 & a di/ress$ m9d1 ,i took my ,bible & read 9 ,/4 ,m>k1 *apt] iii3 v]ses #ca1 #cb1 #cc1 #cd & #ce3 8,!re came !n 8 bre?r5 & 8 "m1 & /&+ )\t1 s5t unto him1 & call+ him4 ,& ! multitude sat ab\t him & !y said unto him3 ,behold ?y "m & ?y bre?r5 )\t1 s5d+ = !e4 ,& he answ]$ !m1 say+3 :o is my "m & my bre?r58 8,& he look$ r\nd ab\t on !m :i* sat ab\t him1 & said3 ,behold my "m & my bre?r54 ,= :osoev] %all d ! w ( ,god1 ! same is my bro!r1 my si/]1 & my "m40 ,! read+ ( ^! words act$ ^u me z ! %ock ( a sword go+ ?r\gh & ?r\gh ! body ( "o :o _h already be5 mortally w\nd$4 ,i felt absolutely conf\nd$4 ,! voice cont9u$ to s\nd 9 my e>s3 8,d y n see y h pres5t$ a blasphem\s lie1 e "t y said t ,jesus always grant$ ! petitions ( 8 "m80 ,i rema9$ aga91 a consid]able "t1 bewild]$1 n kn[+ h[ to fight d[n ?\ghts :i* 7 s m]cilessly %ak+ my fai?1 & demoli%+ ! respect ,i _h kept1 till !n1 = my *ur*4 ,aft] m ?an half an h\r ( va9 /ruggle to sil5ce ^! ?\ghts1 x came to my m9d t ,/4 ,luke _h n>rat$ ?is int]view ( ,m>y & ,jesus 9 a v diff]5t way4 ,i op5$ ! holy book aga9 to read ! eigh? *apt]4 ,b h[ %all ,i f9d words to express my di/ress :5 ,i saw t ! rebuke ( ,jesus ,*ri/ 0 express$ 9 a /ill /]n] way by ,/4 ,luke ?an by ! two o!r evangeli/s6 8,!n came to him 8 "m & bre?r51 & c\ld n come at him = ! press4 8,& x 0 told him3 ,?y "m & ?y bre?r5 /& )\t1 desir+ to see !e4 8,& he answ]$1 & said unto !m3 my "m & bre?r5 are ^? :o w he> ! ^w ( ,god & d x40 7,luke viii3 #ai1 #bj1 #ba47 ,x !n seem$ to me z if ^? ?ree ,evangeli/s said to me3 8,h[ d>e y prea*1 ) y\r apo/ate & ly+ *ur*1 t ,jesus has always grant$ all ! petitions ( ,m>y1 :5 we 7 ord]$ by ,god to write & proclaim t all ! public petitions %e _h pres5t$ to him1 :5 work+ z ! ,son ( ,god1 & ! ,savi\r ( ! _w1 _h be5 answ]$ by a public rebuke80 ,:at c\ld ,i answ]8 ,h[ c\ld ,i /& ! rebuke ( ^! ?ree ,evangeli/s8 ,trembl+ f head to foot1 ,i fell ^u my knees1 cry+ to ! ,virg9 ,m>y to come to my help & pray t ,i might n succumb to ?is temptation1 & lose my fai? & confid5ce 9 h]4 ,b ! m ,i pray$1 ! l\d] ! voice seem$ to say3 8,h[ d>e y prea* t ,jesus has always grant$ ! petitions ( ,m>y1 :5 we tell y ! contr>y by ! ord] ( ,god himself80 ,my desolation became su*1 t a cold sweat cov]$ my :ole frame aga92 my head 0 a*+1 & ,i ?9k ,i w\ld h fa9t$ _h ,i n be5 releas$ by a torr5t ( te>s4 ,9 my di/ress1 ,i cri$3 8,oh6 my ,god6 my ,god6 look d[n ^u me 9 ?y m]cy2 /r5g!n my fai? 9 ?y ,holy ,*ur*6 ,grant me to foll[ h] voice & obey h] comm&s ) m & m fidelity2 %e is ?y belov$ *ur*4 ,%e _c err4 ,%e _c be an apo/ate *ur*40 ,b 9 va9 ,i wept & cri$ = help4 ,my :ole be+ 0 fill$ ) dismay & t]ror f ! voices ( ! ?ree witnesses1 :o 7 cry+ l\d] & l\d]4 8,h[ d>e y prea* t ,*ri/ has always grant$ ! petitions ( ,m>y1 :5 ! gospels1 writt5 "u ! inspiration ( ! ,holy ,gho/1 tell y s cle>ly ! contr>y80 ,:5 ,i _h1 9 va91 wept1 pray$1 cri$1 & /ruggl$ f t5 at night till ?ree 9 ! morn+2 ! miracul\s *ange ( wat] into w9e1 by ,*ri/1 at ! reque/ ( 8 "m1 sudd5ly came to my m9d4 ,i felt a mom5t>y relief f my t]rible di/ress1 by ! hope t ,i c\ld prove to myself t1 9 ?is case ! ,savi\r _h obey$ ! dem&s ( 8 holy "m4 ,i eag]ly op5$ my ,bible aga9 & read3 8,& ! ?ird day !re 0 a m>riage 9 ,cana1 ( ,galilee1 & ! "m ( ,jesus 0 !re4 8,& bo? ,jesus 0 call$1 & 8 disciples1 to ! m>riage4 ,& :5 !y want$ w9e1 ! "m ( ,jesus said unto him1 !y h no w9e4 ,jesus sai? unto h]3 ,woman1 :at h ,i to d ) !e8 ,m9e h\r is n yet come4 8,8 "m sai? unto ! s]vants3 :atsoev] he sai? unto y1 d x40 7,john ii3 #b47 ,till t h\r1 ,i _h always accept$ t text 9 ! s5se giv5 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 z prov+ t ! v fir/ miracle ( ,jesus ,*ri/ 0 wr\ght at ! reque/ ( 8 "m4 ,& ,i 0 prep>+ myself to answ] ! ?ree my/]i\s witnesses3 8,"h is ! pro( t y are ?ree devils1 & n ?ree evangeli/s1 :5 y tell me t ,jesus has nev] grant$ ! petitions ( 8 "m1 except :5 a *ild4 ,"h is ! glori\s title ( ,m>y to my confid5ce 9 h] int]cession2 "h is ! seal ( h] irresi/ible sup]human p[] ov] h] div9e son2 "h is ! und5iable evid5ce t ,jesus _c refuse any?+ ask$ by 8 div9e "m60 ,b :51 arm$ ) ^! explanations ( ! *ur*1 ,i 0 prep>+ to meet :at ,mat!w1 ,/4 ,m>k1 & ,/4 ,luke _h j told me1 a sudd5 di/ress+ ?\ght came to my m9d2 & ?is ?\ght 0 z if ,i he>d ! ?ree witnesses say+3 8,h[ c y be s bl9d z n to see t in/ead ( be+ a favor grant$ to ,m>y1 ?is fir/ miracle is ! fir/ opportunity *os5 by ,*ri/ to prote/ aga9/ h] int]cession4 ,x is a solemn w>n+ to ,m>y nev] to ask any?+ f him1 & to u1 nev] to put any confid5ce 9 h] reque/s4 ,"h1 ,m>y1 evid5tly full ( compassion = ^? poor p1 :o _h n ! means to provide ! w9e = ! gue/s :o _h come ) ,jesus1 wants h] ,son to give !m ! w9e !y want$4 ,h[ does ,*ri/ answ] h] reque/s8 ,he answ]s x by a rebuke1 a mo/ solemn rebuke4 ,in/ead ( say+3 8,yes1 "m1 ,i w d z y wi%10 he says1 8,woman1 :at h ,i to d ) !e80 :i* cle>ly means 8,woman1 ?\ ha/ no?+ to d 9 ?is matt]4 ,i d n want y to speak to me ( ! bridegroom's di/ress4 ,x 0 my desire to come to _! help & %[ my div9e p[]4 ,i d n want y to put y\rself betwe5 ! wants ( humanity & me4 ,i d n want ! _w to believe t y _h any "r1 any p[] or influ5ce ov] me1 or m compassion on ! mis]ies ( man ?an ,i h4 ,is x n to me1 & me alone1 ! lo/ *ildr5 ( ,adam mu/ look to be sav$8 ,woman1 :at h ,i to d ) !e 9 my great "w ( sav+ ?is p]i%+ _w8 ,no?+1 absolutely no?+4 ,i "k :at ,i h to d to fulfill1 n y\r w1 b my ,fa!r's w60 ,?is is :at ,jesus meant by ! solemn rebuke giv5 to ,m>y4 ,he want$ to bani% all idea ( h] ev] becom+ an int]cessor betwe5 man & ,*ri/4 ,he want$ to prote/ aga9/ ! doctr9e ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 t x is ?r\gh ,m>y t ,he w be/[ ,8 favor1 to ,8 disciples1 & ,m>y und]/ood x well :5 %e said1 8,:atsoev] ,he sai? unto y1 d x40 ,nev] come to me1 b g to ,him4 8,= !re is no o!r "n giv5 among m51 :]eby we mu/ be sav$40 ,e "o ( ^! ?\ghts pass$ ov] my di/ress$ s\l l a hurricane4 ,e s5t5ce 0 l a fla% ( lightn+ 9 a d>k night4 ,i 0 l ! poor dismantl$ %ip sudd5ly ov]tak5 by ! tempe/ 9 ! mid/ ( ! ocean4 ,till ! dawn ( day1 ,i felt p[]less aga9/ ! ef=ts ( ,god to pull d[n & demoli% ! huge =tress ( sophisms1 falsehoods1 idolatries1 :i* ,rome _h built ar\nd my s\l4 ,:at a fe>ful ?+ x is to fight aga9/ ! ,"l6 ,dur+ ! long h\rs ( t night1 my ,god 0 cont5d+ ) me1 & ,i 0 /ruggl+ aga9/ ,him4 ,b ?\gh br\ght d[n to ! du/2 ,i 0 n conqu]$4 ,my und]/&+ 0 v ne>ly conv9c$2 b my rebelli\s & pr\d w 0 n yet ready to yield4 ,! *a9s by :i* ,i 0 ti$ to ! feet ( ! idols ( ,rome1 ?\gh rudely %ak51 7 n yet brok54 ,h[ev]1 to say ! tru?1 my views ab\t ! wor%ip ( ,m>y _h receiv$ a sev]e %ock1 & 7 mu* modifi$4 ,t night _h be5 sleepless2 & 9 ! morn+ my eyes 7 r$1 & my face swoll5 ) my te>s4 ,:51 at breakfa/1 ,bi%op ,pr9ce1 :o 0 sitt+ by me1 ask$3 8,are y sick8 ,y\r eyes are z if y _h wept all night80 8,y\r lord%ip is n mi/ak51 ,i h wept ! :ole night60 ,i answ]$4 8,wept all ! night60 repli$ ! bi%op4 8,might ,i "k ! cause ( y\r sorr[80 8,yes1 my "l4 ,y c1 y mu/ "k x4 ,b please come to y\r room4 ,:at ,i h to say is ( su* a private & delicate nature1 t ,i want to be alone ) y\r lord%ip1 :5 op5+ my m9d to ! cause ( my te>s40 ,bi%op ,pr9ce1 !n coadjutor ( ,bi%op ,b\rget & late bi%op ( ,/4 ,hyac9!1 :]e he became insane 9 #aheh & di$ 9 #ahfj1 _h be5 my p]sonal fri5d f ! "t ,i ent]$ ! college at ,nicolet1 :]e he 0 pr(essor ( ,rhetoric4 ,he v (t5 came to confession to me1 & _h tak5 a lively int]e/ 9 my labors on temp]ance4 ,:5 alone ) him1 ,i said3 8,my "l1 ,i ?ank y = y\r k9dness 9 all[+ me to unburd5 my he>t to y4 ,i h pass$ ! mo/ horrible night ( my life4 ,temptations aga9/ our holy religion su* z ,i nev] _h be=e1 h assail$ me all night4 ,y\r lord%ip rememb]s ! k9d words y address$ to me1 ye/]day1 ab\t ! s]mon ,i prea*$4 ,b1 la/ night1 v diff]5t ?+s came to my m9d1 :i* h *ang$ ! joys ( ye/]day into ! mo/ unspeakable desolation4 ,y congratulat$ me1 ye/]day1 on ! mann] ,i _h prov$ t ,jesus _h always grant$ ! reque/ ( ,8 "m1 & t ,he _c refuse any ( h] petitions4 ,! :ole night x has be5 told to me t ?is 0 a blasphem\s lie1 & f ! ,holy ,scriptures !mselves1 ,i h be5 ne>ly conv9c$ t y & ,i1 nay1 t our holy *ur*1 are prea*+ a blasphem\s falsehood e "t we proclaim ! doctr9es ( ! wor%ip ( ,m>y z ! gospel tru?40 ,! poor bi%op1 ?und]/ruck by ?is simple & hone/ decl>ation1 quickly answ]$3 8,i hope y h n yield$ to ^! temptations1 & t y w n become a ,prote/ant z s _m ( y\r enemies :isp] to ea* o!r40 8,x is my hope1 my "l1 t our m]ciful ,god w keep me1 to ! end ( my life1 a dutiful & fai?ful prie/ ( our holy *ur*4 ,h[ev]1 ,i _c conceal f y\r lord%ip t my fai? 0 t]ribly %ak51 la/ night4 8,z a bi%op1 y\r portion ( light & wisdom mu/ be great] ?an m9e4 ,i hope y w grant me "s ( ! lights :i* /ill brightly %9e be=e y\r eyes3 ,i h nev] be5 s mu* 9 ne$ ( ! c\nsels ( y\r piety & ! help ( y\r spiritual k z to-day4 ,please help me to come out f ! intellectual sl\gh 9 :i* ,i sp5t ! night4 8,y\r lord%ip has congratulat$ me = hav+ said t ,jesus ,*ri/ has always grant$ ! petitions ( ,m>y4 ,please tell me h[ y reconcile t proposition ) ?is text10 & ,i h&$ him ! gospel ( ,mat!w3 po9t+ to ! la/ five v]ses ( ! twelf? *apt]1 ,i reque/$ him to read !m al\d40 ,he read !m & said3 8,n[ :at d y want f me80 8,my "l1 ,i want respectfully to ask y h[ c we say t ,jesus has always grant$ ! reque/s ( ,8 "m1 :5 ?is evangeli/ tells u t ,he nev] grant$ h] petitions1 :5 act+ 9 ,8 capacity ( ,savi\r ( ! _w4 8,mu/ we n fe> t we proclaim a blasphem\s falsehood :5 we support a proposition directly oppos$ to ! gospel80 ,! poor bi%op seem$ absolutely conf\nd$ by ?is simple & hone/ "q4 ,i also felt confus$ & sorry = 8 humiliation4 ,beg9n+ a phrase1 he w\ld give x up2 try+ argum5ts1 he c\ld n pu% to _! conclusion4 ,x seem$ to me t he _h nev] read t text1 or if he _h read x1 he1 l myself & ! re/ ( ! prie/s ( ,rome1 _h nev] not$ t !y entirely demoli% ! /up5d\s impo/ures ( ! *ur* 9 ref]5ce to ! wor%ip ( ,m>y4 ,9 ord] to help him out ( ! inextricable difficulties into :i* ,i _h once pu%$ him1 ,i said3 8,my "l1 w y all[ me to put a few m que/ions to y80 8,) pleasure10 he answ]$4 8,well6 my "l1 :o came to ?is _w to save y & me8 ,is x ,jesus or ,m>y80 8,x is ,jesus10 answ]$ ! bi%op4 8,:o 0 call$1 & is1 9 reality1 ! s9n]'s be/ fri5d8 ,0 x ,jesus or ,m>y80 ,! bi%op answ]$3 8,x 0 ,jesus40 8,n[ please all[ me a few m que/ions40 8,:5 ,jesus & ,m>y 7 on e>?1 ^: he>t 0 mo/ devot$ to s9n]s8 ,:o lov$ !m ) a m efficaci\s & sav+ love2 0 x ,jesus or ,m>y80 8,jesus1 be+ ,god1 ,8 love 0 evid5tly m efficaci\s & sav+ ?an ,m>y's10 answ]$ ! bi%op4 8,9 ! days ( ,jesus & ,m>y1 to :om did ,jesus invite s9n]s to g = _! salvation2 0 x to himself or ,m>y80 ,i ask$ aga94 ,! bi%op answ]$3 8,jesus has said to all s9n]s1 #8,come unto me4' ,he nev] said come or g to ,m>y40 8,h we any examples1 9 ! ,scriptures1 ( s9n]s1 :o1 fe>+ to be rebuk$ by ,jesus1 h gone to ,m>y & obta9$ access to him ?r\gh h]1 & be5 sav$ ?r\gh h] int]cessions80 8,i d n rememb] ( any su* cases10 repli$ ! bi%op4 ,i !n ask$3 8,to :om did ! p5it5t ?ief1 on ! cross1 address himself to be sav$2 0 x to ,jesus or to ,m>y80 8,x 0 to ,jesus10 repli$ ! bi%op4 8,did t p5it5t ?ief d well to address himself to ,jesus on ! cross1 r ?an to ,m>y :o 0 at ,8 feet80 said ,i4 8,surely he did bett]10 answ]$ ! bi%op4 8,n[1 my "l1 all[ me only "o "q m4 ,y told me t ,jesus lov$ s9n]s1 :5 on e>?1 inf9itely m ?an ,m>y2 t he 0 inf9itely m _! true fri5d ?an %e 02 t he inf9itely took m int]e/ 9 _! salvation1 ?an ,m>y2 t x 0 inf9itely bett] = s9n]s to g to ,jesus ?an to ,m>y1 to be sav$2 w y please tell me if y ?9k t ,jesus has lo/1 9 heav51 s9ce he is sitt+ at ! "r h& ( 8 ,fa!r1 any ( 8 div9e & inf9ite sup]iority ( love & m]cy ov] ,m>y = s9n]s3 & c y %[ me t :at ,jesus has lo/ has be5 ga9$ by ,m>y80 8,i d n ?9k t ,*ri/ has lo/ any ( 8 love1 & p[] to save u1 n[ t he is 9 heav510 answ]$ ! bi%op4 8,n[1 my "l1 if ,jesus is /ill my be/ fri5d2 my mo/ p[]ful1 m]ciful & lov+ fri5d1 :y %\ld ,i n g directly to him8 ,:y %\ld we1 = a mom5t1 g to any "o :o is inf9itely inf]ior1 9 p[]1 love & m]cy1 = our salvation80 ,! bi%op 0 /unn$ by my que/ions4 ,he /amm]$ "s un9telligible answ]1 excus$ himself = n be+ able to rema9 any long]1 on acc\nt ( "s press+ bus9ess2 & ext5d+ 8 h& to me be=e leav+ he said3 8,y w f9d an answ] to y\r que/ions & difficulties 9 ! ,holy ,fa!rs40 8,c y l5d me ! ,holy ,fa!rs1 my "l80 ,he repli$3 8,no sir1 ,i h !m n40 ,?is la/ answ] f my bi%op1 %ook my fai? to its f\ndation1 & left my m9d 9 a /ate ( great di/ress4 ,) ! s9c]e hope ( f9d+ 9 ! ,holy ,fa!rs1 "s explanations :i* w\ld dispel my pa9ful d\bts1 ,i imm$iately w5t to ,mr4 ,fabre1 ! great booksell] ( ,montreal1 :o got me1 f ,france1 ! spl5did edition ( ! ,holy ,fa!rs1 by ,migne4 ,i /udi$ ) ! utmo/ att5tion1 e page :]e ,i might f9d :at !y taught ( ! wor%ip ( ,m>y1 & ! doctr9es t ,jesus _h nev] refus$ any ( h] pray]s4 ,:at 0 my desolation1 my %ame & my surprise1 to f9d t ! ,holy ,fa!rs ( ! fir/ six c5turies _h nev] advocat$ ! wor%ip ( ,m>y1 & t ! _m eloqu5t pages on ! p[] ( ,m>y 9 heav51 & h] love = s9n]s1 f\nd 9 e page ( my !ologians2 & o!r ascetic books ,i _h read till !n1 7 b impud5t lies2 additions int]polat$ 9 _! works a hundr$ ye>s aft] _! dea?4 ,:5 discov]+ ^! =g]ies1 "u ! "n ( ! ,holy ,fa!rs1 ( :i* my *ur* 0 guilty1 h[ _m times1 9 ! sil5ce ( my long nights ( /udy & pray]ful m$itations1 did ,i he> a voice tell+ me3 8,come out ( ,babylon40 ,b :]e c\ld ,i g8 ,out ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 :]e c\ld ,i f9d t salvation :i* 0 to be f\nd only )9 h] walls8 ,i said to myself1 8,surely !re are "s errors 9 my de> *ur*40 8,! du/ ( ages may h fall5 on ! preci\s gold ( h] treasures1 b w ,i n f9d /ill m damnable errors among ^? hundr$s ( ,prote/ant *ur*es1 :i*1 "u ! "n ( ,episcopalians1 ,presbyt]ians1 ,bapti/s1 ,me?odi/s1 c41 c41 are divid$ & sub-divid$ into scores ( contemptible sects ana!matiz+ & d5\nc+ ea* o!r be=e ! _w80 ,my ideas ( ! great family ( evangelical *ur*es1 compris$ "u ! broad "n ( ,prote/antism1 7 s exagg]at$ !n1 t x 0 absolutely impossible = me to f9d 9 !m t unity :i* ,i consid]$ ! ess5tials ( ! *ur* ( ,*ri/4 ,! h\r 0 n yet come1 b x 0 com+ fa/1 :5 my de> ,savi\r w\ld make me und]/& 8 sublime words3 8,i am ! v9e & ye are ! bran*es40 ,x 0 "s "t lat]1 :5 "u ! beautiful v9e ,i _h plant$ 9 my own g>d51 & :i* ,i _h cultivat$ ) m9e own h&s1 ,i saw t !re 0 n a s+le bran* l ano!r 9 t prolific v9e4 ,"s bran*es 7 v big1 "s v ?91 "s v long1 "s v %ort1 "s go+ up1 "s go+ d[n1 "s /raight z an arr[1 "s crook$ z a fla% ( lightn+1 "s turn+ to ! we/1 "s to ! ea/1 "s to ! nor?1 & o!rs to ! s\?4 ,b1 al?\gh ! bran*es 7 s diff]5t f ea* o!r 9 s _m ?+s1 !y all gave me excell5t fruit1 s long z !y rema9$ unit$ to ! v9e4 ,,*apt] ,,xlvi4 ,,! ,,holy ,,fa!rs--,,new ,,m5tal ,,tr\bles ,,at ,,n ,,f9d+ ,,! ,,doctr9es ,,( ,,my ,,*ur* ,,9 ,,_! ,,writ+s--,,purgatory ,,& ,,! ,,suck+ ,,pig ,,( ,,! ,,poor ,,man ,,( ,,v>5nes4 ,! mo/ desolate "w ( a s9c]e ca?olic prie/ is ! /udy ( ! ,holy ,fa!rs4 ,he does n make a /ep 9 ! labyr9? ( _! discussions & controv]sies )\t see+ ! dreams ( 8 !ological /udies & religi\s views disappe> z ! ?ick morn+ mi/1 :5 ! sun rises above ! horizon4 ,b\nd1 z he is1 by a solemn oa?1 to int]pret ! ,holy ,scriptures only accord+ to ! unanim\s cons5t ( ! ,holy ,fa!rs1 ! fir/ ?+ :i* puzzles & di/resses him is _! absolute want ( unanimity on ! great] "p ( ! subjects :i* !y discuss4 ,! fact is1 t m ?an two-?irds ( :at "o ,fa!r has writt51 is to prove t :at "s o!r ,holy ,fa!r has writt51 is wrong & h]etical4 ,! /ud5t ( ! ,fa!rs n only detects t !y d n agree ) "o ano!r1 b f9ds t _m ( !m d n ev5 agree ) !mselves4 ,v (t5 !y confess t !y 7 mi/ak5 :5 !y said ?is & t2 t !y h lately *ang$ _! m9ds2 t !y n[ hold = sav+ tru?1 :at !y =m]ly condemn$ z damnable error6 ,:at becomes ( ! solemn oa? ( e prie/1 9 pres5ce ( ?is und5iable fact8 ,h[ c he make an act ( fai? :5 he feels t its f\ndation is no?+ b falsehood8 ,no words c give an idea ( ! m5tal tortures ,i felt1 :5 ,i saw positively1 t ,i c\ld n1 any long]1 prea* on ! et]nity ( ! suff]+ ( ! damn$1 nor believe 9 ! real pres5ce ( ! body1 s\l & div9ity ( ,*ri/ 9 ! sacram5t ( communion2 nor 9 ! supremacy ( ! sov]eign pontiff ( ,rome1 nor 9 any ( ! o!r dogmas ( ! *ur*1 )\t p]jur+ myself6 ,= !re 0 n "o ( ^? dogmas :i* _h n be5 flatly & directly d5i$ by "s ,holy ,fa!rs4 ,x is true1 t 9 my ,roman ,ca?olic !ological books1 ,i _h long extracts ( ,holy ,fa!rs1 v cle>ly support+ & confirm+ my fai? 9 ^! dogmas4 ,= in/ance1 ,i _h ! apo/olic liturgies ( ,/4 ,pet]1 ,/4 ,m>k1 & ,/4 ,james1 to prove t ! sacrifice ( ! mass1 purgatory1 pray]s = ! dead1 transub/antiation1 7 believ$ & taught f ! v days ( ! apo/les4 ,b :at 0 my dismay :5 ,i discov]$ t ^? liturgies 7 no?+ else ?an vile & audaci\s =g]ies pres5t$ to ! _w1 by my ,popes & my *ur*1 z gospel tru?s4 ,i c\ld n f9d words to express my s5se ( %ame & con/]nation1 :5 ,i became sure t ! same *ur* :i* _h inv5t$ ^! apo/olic liturgies1 _h accept$ & circulat$ ! false decretals ( ,isidore1 & =g$ innum]able additions & int]polations to ! writ+s ( ! ,holy ,fa!rs1 9 ord] to make !m say ! v contr>y ( :at !y int5d$4 ,h[ _m times1 :5 alone1 /udy+ ! hi/ory ( ! %ameless fabrications1 ,i said to myself3 8,does ! man ^: treasury is fill$ ) pure gold1 =ge false co9s1 or spuri\s pieces ( money8 ,no6 ,h[1 !n1 is x possible t my *ur* does possess ! pure tru?1 :5 %e has be5 at "w dur+ s _m c5turies1 to =ge su* egregi\s lies1 "u ! names ( liturgies & decretals1 ab\t ! holy mass1 purgatory1 ! supremacy ( ! ,pope1 etc40 8,if ^? dogmas c\ld h be5 prov$ by ! gospel & ! true writ+s ( ! ,fa!rs1 :]e 0 ! necessity ( =g+ ly+ docum5ts8 ,w\ld ! ,popes & c\ncils h treasuries ) spuri\s bank bills1 if !y _h _h exhau/less m9es ( pure gold 9 h&8 ,:at "r has my *ur* to be call$ holy & infallible1 :5 %e is publicly guilty ( su* impo/ures80 ,f my infancy ,i _h be5 taught1 ) all ! ,roman ,ca?olics1 t ,m>y is ! "m ( ,god1 & _m times e day1 :5 pray+ to h]1 ,i us$ to say1 8,holy ,m>y1 "m ( ,god1 pray = me40 ,b :at 0 my di/ress :5 ,i read 9 ! 8,treatise on ,fai? & ,cre$10 by ,/ ,augu/9e1 *apt] iv41 #i1 ^! v words1 8,:5 ! ,"l said3 ,woman1 :at h ,i to d ) !e8 ,m9e h\r is n yet come40 7,john xix3 #d47 ,he r admoni%es u to und]/& t1 9 respect ( ,8 be+ ,god1 !re 0 no "m = ,him4 ,?is 0 s completely demoli%+ ! tea*+s ( my *ur*1 & tell+ me t x 0 blasphemy to call ,m>y1 "m ( ,god1 t ,i felt z if /ruck ) a ?und]bolt4 ,sev]al volumes might be writt51 if my plan 7 to give ! /ory ( my m5tal agonies1 :5 read+ ! ,holy ,fa!rs1 ,i f\nd _! furi\s battles aga9/ ea* o!r1 & review$ _! fi]ce divisions on almo/ e subject4 ,! horror ( _m ( !m at ! dogmas :i* my *ur* _h taught to make me believe f my infancy1 z ! mo/ solemn & sacr$ revelations ( ,god to man1 su* z transub/antiation1 auricul> confession1 purgatory1 ! supremacy ( ,pet]1 ! absolute supremacy ( ! ,pope ov] ! :ole *ur* ( ,*ri/4 ,yes6 :at ?rill+ pages ,i w\ld give to ! _w1 7 x my int5tion to portray 9 _! true colors1 ! d>k cl\ds1 ! fla%+ lights & de/ructive /orms :i*1 dur+ ! long & sil5t h\rs ( ! _m nights ,i sp5t 9 comp>+ ! ,fa!rs ) ! ,^w ( ,god & ! tea*+s ( my *ur*4 ,_! fi]ce & con/ant conflicts2 _! unexpect$1 ?\gh und5iable opposition to _m ( ! articles ( ! fai? ,i _h to believe & prea*2 7 com+ to me day aft] day1 z ! b>b$ d>ts ?r[n at ! doom$ :ale :5 com+ out ( ! d>k regions ( ! deep to see ! light & brea! ! pure air4 ,?us1 z ! unexpect$ contradictions ( ! ,holy ,fa!rs to ! t5ets ( my *ur*1 & _! furi\s & un*>itable divisions among !mselves1 7 /rik+ me1 ,i plung$ deep] & deep] 9 ! deep wat]s ( ! ,fa!rs & ! ,^w ( ,god1 ) ! hope ( gett+ rid ( ! deadly d>ts :i* 7 pi]c+ my ,roman ,ca?olic consci5ce4 ,b x 0 9 va94 ,! deep] ,i w5t1 ! m ! deadly weapons w\ld /ick to ! fle% & bone ( my s\l4 ,h[ deep 0 ! w\nd ,i receiv$ f ,gregory ! ,great1 "o ( ! mo/ le>n$ ,popes ( ,rome1 aga9/ supremacy & univ]sality ( ! p[] ( ! ,pope ( ,rome z taught to-day1 ! foll[+ extracts f 8 writ+s w %[3 8,b ,i confid5tly say t :osoev] calls himself univ]sal bi%op1 or desires to be call$ s1 9 8 pride1 he pref]s himself to ! re/4 ,& he is l$ to error ) a simil> pride4 ,= z t wick$ "o wi%es to appe> a ,god1 above all m51 :osoev] he is1 :o alone desires to be call$ a supreme ,bi%op1 extols himself above ! o!r bi%ops40 7,bk4 vii4 ,int4 #ae4 ,epi/4 #cc1 to ,maurituus ,augu/us47 ,^! words w\nd$ me v pa9fully4 ,i %[$ !m to ,mr4 ,brass>d1 say+3 8,d y n see "h ! incontrov]tible pro( ( :at ,i h told y _m times1 t1 dur+ ! fir/ six c5turies ( ,*ri/ianity1 we d n f9d ! lea/ pro( t !re 0 any?+ l our dogma ( ! supreme p[] & au?ority ( ! ,bi%op ( ,rome1 or any o!r bi%op1 ov] ! re/ ( ! ,*ri/ian _w8 ,if !re is any?+ :i* comes to ! m9d ) an irresi/ible =ce1 :5 read+ ! ,fa!rs ( ! fir/ c5turies1 x is t1 n "o ( !m _h any idea t !re 01 9 ! *ur*1 any man *os5 by ,god1 to be 9 fact or "n1 ! univ]sal & supreme pontiff4 ,) su* an und5iable fact be=e u1 h[ c we believe & say t ! religion we pr(ess & tea* is ! same :i* 0 prea*$ f ! beg9n+ ( ,*ri/ianity80 8,my de> ,*9iquy10 answ]$ ,mr4 ,brass>d1 8did ,i n tell y1 :5 y b\ght ! ,holy ,fa!rs1 t y 7 do+ a fooli% & dang]\s ?+8 ,9 e age1 ! man :o s+ul>ises himself & walks out ( ! common tracks ( life is subject to fall into ridicule4 ,z y are ! only prie/ 9 ,canada :o has ! ,holy ,fa!rs1 x is ?\ght & said 9 _m qu>t]s1 t x is ?r\gh pride y got !m2 t x is to raise y\rself above ! re/ ( ! cl]gy1 t y /udy !m1 n only at home1 b t y c>ry "s :]ev] y g4 ,i see ) regret1 t y are fa/ los+ gr\nd 9 ! m9d1 n only ( ! bi%op1 b ( ! prie/s 9 g5]al1 on acc\nt ( y\r indomitable p]sev]ance 9 giv+ all y\r sp>e "t 9 _! /udy4 ,y are also too free & imprud5t 9 speak+ ( :at y call ! contradictions ( ! ,holy ,fa!rs1 & _! want ( h>mony ) "s ( our religi\s views4 ,_m say t ?is too great application to /udy1 )\t a mom5t ( relaxation1 w upset y\r intellig5ce & tr\ble y\r m9d4 ,!y ev5 :isp] t !re is dang] ahead = y\r fai?1 :i* y d n suspect1 & t !y w\ld n be surpris$ if ! read+ ( ! ,bible & ! ,holy ,fa!rs w\ld drive y into ! abyss ( ,prote/antism4 ,i "k t t !y are mi/ak51 & ,i d all 9 my p[] to def5d y4 ,b1 ,i ?\ght1 z y\r mo/ devot$ fri5d1 t x 0 my duty to tell y ^? ?+s1 & w>n y be=e x is too late40 ,i repli$3 8,bi%op ,pr9ce told me ! v same ?+s1 & ,i w give y ! answ] he got f me2 #8,:5 y orda9 a prie/1 d y n make him swe> t he w nev] int]pret ! ,holy ,scriptures1 except accord+ to ! unanim\s cons5t ( ! ,holy ,fa!rs8 ,ought y n1 !n1 to "k :at !y tea*8 ,=1 h[ c we "k _! unanim\s cons5t )\t /udy+ !m4 ,is x n m ?an /range t n only ! prie/s d n /udy ! ,holy ,fa!rs1 b ! only "o 9 ,canada :o is try+ to /udy !m1 is turn$ into ridicule & suspect$ ( h]esy8 ,is x my fault if t preci\s /one1 call$ 'unanim\s cons5t ( ! ,holy ,fa!rs' :i* is ! v f\ndation ( our religi\s belief & tea*+s1 is to be f\nd n[h]e 9 !m8 ,is x my fault if ,orig5 nev] believ$ 9 ! et]nal puni%m5t ( ! damn$2 if ,/4 ,cypri5 d5i$ ! supreme au?ority ( ! ,bi%op ( ,rome1 if ,/4 ,augu/9e positively said t nobody 0 oblig$ to believe 9 purgatory1 if ,/4 ,john ,*ryso/om publicly d5i$ ! obligations ( auricul> confession1 & ! real pres5ce ( ! body ( ,*ri/ 9 ! eu*>i/8 ,is x my fault if "o ( ! mo/ le>n$ & holy ,popes1 ,gregory ! ,great1 has call$ by ! "n ( ,anti*ri/1 all 8 successors1 = tak+ ! "n ( supreme pontiff1 & try+ to p]suade ! _w t !y _h1 by div9e au?ority1 a supreme jurisdiction & p[] ov] ! re/ ( ! *ur*8'0 8,& :at did ,bi%op ,pr9ce answ] y80 rejo9$ ,mr4 ,brass>d4 8,j z y did1 by express+ 8 fe>s t my too great application to ! /udy ( ! ,bible & ! ,holy ,fa!rs w\ld ei!r s5d me to ! lunatic asylum1 or drive me into ! bottomless abyss ( ,prote/antism40 ,i answ]$ him1 9 a jocose way3 8t if ! too great /udy ( ! ,bible & ! ,holy ,fa!rs 7 to op5 me ! gates ( ! lunatic asylum1 ,i fe>$ ,i w\ld be left alone !re1 = ,i "k t !y are keep+ !mselves at a respectable di/ance f ^? dang]\s writ+s40 ,i add$ s]i\sly4 8,s long z ,god keeps my intellig5ce s\nd1 ,i _c jo9 ,prote/ants1 = ! numb]less & ridicul\s sects ( ^! h]etics are a sure antidote aga9/ _! poison\s errors4 ,i w n rema9 a good ,ca?olic on acc\nt ( ! unanimity ( ! ,holy ,fa!rs1 :i* does n exi/1 b ,i w rema9 a ,ca?olic on acc\nt ( ! gr& & visible unanimity ( ! prophets1 apo/les & ! evangeli/s1 ) ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,my fai? w n be f\nd$ ^u ! fallible1 obscure & wav]+ words ( ,orig51 ,t]tullian1 ,*ryso/om1 ,augu/9e or ,j]ome2 b on ! infallible ^w ( ,jesus1 ! ,son ( ,god1 & ,8 inspir$ writ]s2 ,mat!w1 ,m>k1 ,luke1 ,john1 ,pet]1 ,james & ,paul4 ,x is ,jesus1 n ,orig5 :o w n[ guide me2 = ! second 0 a s9n]1 l myself1 & ! fir/ is =ev] my ,savi\r & my ,god4 ,i "k en\gh ( ! ,holy ,fa!rs to assure y\r lord%ip t ! oa? we take accept+ ! ,^w ( ,god accord+ to _! unanim\s cons5t1 is a mis]able blund]1 if n a blasphem\s p]jury4 ,x is evid5t t ,pius ,,iv41 :o impos$ ! obligation ( t oa? ^u u all1 nev] read a s+le volume ( ! ,holy ,fa!rs4 ,he w\ld n h be5 guilty ( su* an incr$ible blund]1 if he _h kn[n t ! ,holy ,fa!rs are unanim\s 9 only "o ?+1 :i* is to diff] f ea* o!r on almo/ ev]y?+2 except we suppose t1 l ! la/ ,pope1 he 0 too fond ( good *ampagne1 & t he wrote t ord9ance aft] a luxuri\s d9n]40 ,i spoke ?is la/ s5t5ce 9 a half-s]i\s & half-jok+ way4 ,! bi%op answ]$3 8,:o told y t ab\t our la/ ,pope80 8,y\r lord%ip10 ,i answ]$1 8told me t1 :5 y complim5t$ me on ! apo/olical b5$iction :i* ! pres5t ,pope s5t me ?r\gh my ,"l ,baill>geon1 #8t 8 pr$ecessor w\ld n h giv5 me 8 b5$iction = prea*+ temp]ance because he 0 too fond ( w9e6'0 8,oh yes6 yes6 ,i rememb] x n[10 answ]$ ! bi%op4 8,b x 0 a bad joke on my "p1 :i* ,i regret40 8,good or bad joke10 ,i repli$1 8,x is n ! less ! fact1 t our la/ ,pope 0 too fond ( w9e4 ,!re is n a s+le prie/ ( ,canada :o has gone to ,rome1 )\t br++ t back z a public fact1 f ,italy40 8,& :at did my ,"l ,pr9ce say to t10 ask$ aga9 ,mr4 ,brass>d4 8,j z :5 he 0 corn]$ by me1 on ! subject ( ! ,virg9 ,m>y1 he abruptly put an end to ! conv]sation1 by look+ at 8 wat* & say+ t he _h a call to make1 at t v h\r40 ,n long aft] t pa9ful conv]sation ab\t ! ,holy ,fa!rs1 x 0 ! w ( ,god1 t a new arr[ %\ld be ?ru/ into my ,roman ,ca?olic consci5ce1 :i* w5t ?r\gh & ?r\gh1 9 spite ( myself4 ,i _h be5 invit$ to give a c\rse ( ?ree s]mons at ,v>5nes4 ,! second day1 at tea "t1 aft] prea*+ & he>+ confessions = ! :ole aft]noon1 ,i 0 com+ f ! *ur* ) ! curate1 :5 half-way to ! p>sonage1 we 7 met by a poor man1 :o look$ m l "o com+ out ( ! grave1 ?an a liv+ man2 he 0 cov]$ ) rags1 & 8 pale & trembl+ lips indicat$ t he 0 r$uc$ to ! la/ degree ( human mis]y4 ,tak+ (f 8 hat1 ?r\gh respect = u1 he said to ,rev4 ,primeau1 ) a trembl+ voice2 8,y "k1 ,mr4 le ,cure1 t my poor wife di$1 & 0 buri$ t5 days ago1 b ,i 0 too poor to h a fun]al s]vice sung ! day %e 0 buri$1 & ,i fe> %e is 9 purgatory1 = almo/ e night1 ,i see h] 9 my dreams1 wrapp$ up 9 burn+ flames4 ,%e cries to me = help1 & asks me to h a high mass sung = ! re/ ( h] s\l4 ,i come to ask y to be s k9d z to s+ t high mass = h]40 8,( c\rse10 answ]$ ! curate1 8y\r wife is 9 ! flames ( purgatory1 & suff]s !re ! mo/ unspeakable tortures1 :i* c be reliev$ only by ! (f]+ ( ! holy sacrifice ( mass4 ,give me five doll>s & ,i w s+ t mass to-morr[ morn+40 8,y "k v well1 ,mr4 le ,cure10 answ]$ ! poor man1 9 a mo/ supplicat+ tone1 8t my wife has be5 sick1 z well z myself1 a good "p ( ! ye>4 ,i am too poor to give y five doll>s60 8,if y _c pay1 y _c h any mass sung4 ,y "k x is ! rule4 ,x is n 9 my p[] to *ange x40 ,^! words 7 said by ! curate ) a high & unfeel+ tone1 :i* 7 9 absolute contra/ ) ! solemnity & di/ress ( ! poor sick man4 ,!y made a v pa9ful impression ^u me1 = ,i felt = him4 ,i knew ! curate 0 well-(f1 at ! head ( "o ( ! ri*e/ p>i%es ( ,canada2 t he _h sev]al ?\s& doll>s 9 ! bank4 ,i hop$ at fir/1 t he w\ld k9dly grant ! petition pres5t$ to him1 )\t speak+ ( ! pay1 b ,i 0 disappo9t$4 ,my fir/ ?\ght1 aft] he>+ 8 h>d rebuke1 0 to put my h& 9 my pocket & take "o ( ! sev]al five-doll> gold pieces ,i _h1 & give x to ! poor man1 t he might be reliev$ f 8 t]rible anxiety ab\t 8 wife4 ,x came also to my m9d to say to him3 8,i w s+ y\r high mass = no?+ to-morr[40 ,b alas6 ,i mu/ confess1 to my %ame1 ,i 0 too c[>dly to d t noble de$4 ,i _h a s9c]e desire to d x1 b 0 prev5t$ by ! fe> ( insult+ t prie/1 :o 0 old] ?an myself1 & = :om ,i _h always ent]ta9$ great respect4 ,x 0 evid5t to me t he w\ld h tak5 my action z a condemnation ( 8 conduct4 ,:5 ,i 0 feel+ a%am$ ( my own c[>dice1 & /ill m indignant aga9/ myself ?an aga9/ ! curate1 he said to ! disconc]t$ poor man3 8,t woman is y\r wife2 n m9e4 ,x is y\r bus9ess1 & n m9e1 to see h[ to get h] out ( purgatory40 ,turn+ to me1 he said1 9 ! mo/ amiable way3 8,please1 sir1 come to tea40 ,we h>dly />t$1 :5 ! poor man1 rais+ 8 voice1 said1 9 a mo/ t\*+ way3 8,i _c leave my poor wife 9 ! flames ( purgatory2 if y _c s+ a high mass1 w y please say five l[ masses to rescue h] s\l f ^? burn+ flames80 ,! prie/ turn$ t[>ds him & said3 8,yes1 ,i c say five masses to take ! s\l ( y\r wife out ( purgatory1 b give me five %ill+s2 = y "k ! price ( a l[ mass is "o %ill+40 ,! poor man answ]$3 8,i c no m give "o doll> ?an ,i c five4 ,i h n a c5t2 & my ?ree poor little *ildr5 are z nak$ & />v+ z myself40 8,well6 well60 answ]$ ! curate1 8:5 ,i pass$ ?is morn+1 be=e y\r h\se1 ,i saw two beautiful suck+ pigs4 ,give me "o ( !m1 & ,i w say y\r five l[ masses40 ,! poor man said3 8,^! small pigs 7 giv5 me by a *>itable neighbor1 t ,i might raise !m to fe$ my poor *ildr5 next w9t]4 ,!y w surely />ve to dea?1 if ,i give my pigs away40 ,b ,i c\ld n li/5 any long] to t /range dialogue2 e ^w ( :i* fell ^u my s\l z a %[] ( burn+ coals4 ,i 0 beside myself ) %ame & disgu/4 ,i abruptly left ! m]*ant ( s\ls1 f9i%+ 8 b>ga9s1 w5t to my sleep+-room1 lock$ ! door1 & fell ^u my knees to weep to my he>t's cont5t4 ,a qu>t] ( an h\r lat]1 ! curate knock$ at my door & said3 8,tea is ready2 please come d[n60 ,i answ]$3 8,i am n well2 ,i want "s re/4 ,please excuse me1 if ,i d n take my tea to-night40 ,x w\ld require a m eloqu5t p5 ?an m9e to give ! correct hi/ory ( t sleepless night4 ,! h\rs 7 d>k & long4 8,my ,god6 my ,god60 ,i cri$1 a ?\s& times1 8,is x possible t1 9 my s de> ,*ur* ( ,rome1 !re c be su* abom9ations z ,i h se5 & he>d to-day8 ,de> & adorable ,savi\r1 if ?\ w]t /ill on e>?1 & %\ld see ! s\l ( a daught] ( ,israel fall5 into a burn+ furnace1 w\ld/ ?\ ask a %ill+ to take x out8 ,w\ld/ ?\ =ce ! poor fa!r1 ) 8 />v+ *ildr51 to give _! la/ morsel ( bread1 to p]suade !e to ext+ui% ! burn+ flames8 ,?\ ha/ %$ ! la/ drop ( ?y blood to save h]4 ,& h[ cruel1 h[ m]ciless1 we1 ?y prie/s1 are1 = ! same preci\s s\l6 ,b are we really ?y prie/s8 ,is x n blasphem\s to call ourselves ?y prie/s1 :5 n only we w n sacrifice any?+ to save t s\l1 b w />ve ! poor husb& & 8 orphans8 ,:at "r h we to extort su* sums ( money f ?y poor *ildr5 to help !m out ( purgatory8 ,d n ?y apo/les say t ?y blood alone c purify ! s\l8 8,is x possible t !re is su* a fi]y prison = ! s9n]s aft] dea?1 & t nei!r ?yself nor any ( ?y apo/les has said a ^w ab\t x8 8,sev]al ( ! ,fa!rs consid] purgatory z ( ,pagan orig94 ,t]tullian spoke ( x only aft] he _h jo9$ ! sect ( ! ,montani/s1 & he confesses t x is n ?r\gh ! ,holy ,scriptures1 b ?r\gh ! inspiration ( ! ,p>aclete ( ,montanus t he kn[s any?+ ab\t purgatory4 ,augu/9e1 ! mo/ le>n$ & pi\s ( ! ,holy ,fa!rs1 does n f9d purgatory 9 ! ,bible1 & positively says t its exi/5ce is dubi\s2 t e "o may believe :at he ?9ks prop] ab\t x4 ,is x possible t ,i am s mean z to h refus$ to ext5d a help+ h& to t poor di/ress$ man1 = fe> ( (f5d+ ! cruel prie/8 8,we prie/s believe1 & say t we c help s\ls out ( ! burn+ furnace ( purgatory1 by our pray]s & masses2 b in/ead ( ru%+ to _! rescue1 we turn to ! p>5ts1 fri5ds1 ! *ildr5 ( ^? dep>t$ s\ls1 & say3 8,give me five doll>s2 give me a %ill+1 & ,i w put an end to ^? tortures2 b if y refuse u t money1 we w let y\r fa!r1 husb&1 wife1 *ild1 or fri5d endure ^? tortures1 hundr$s ( ye>s m6 ,w\ld n ! p ?r[ u into ! riv]1 if !y c\ld once und]/& ! ext5t ( our meanness & av>ice8 ,ought we n to be a%am$ to ask a %ill+ to take out ( ! fire a human be+ :o calls u to ! rescue8 ,:o1 except a prie/1 c desc5d s l[ 9 ! regions ( depravity80 ,x w\ld take too long to give ! ?\ghts :i* tortur$ me dur+ t t]rible night4 ,i lit]ally ba!d my pill[ ) my te>s4 ,be=e say+ my mass next morn+1 ,i w5t to confess my crim9al c[>dice & want ( *>ity t[>ds t poor man1 & also ! t]rible temptation aga9/ my fai? :i* tortur$ my consci5ce dur+ ! long h\rs ( t night6 ,& ,i repair$ my c[>dice by giv+ #e4jj to t poor man4 ,i sp5t ! morn+ 9 he>+ confessions till t5 o'clock1 :5 ,i deliv]$ a v excit+ s]mon on ! malice ( s91 prov$ by ! suff]+s ( ,*ri/ on ! cross4 ,?is address gave a happy div]sion to my m9d1 & made me =get ! sad /ory ( ! suck+ pig4 ,aft] ! s]mon1 ! curate took me by ! h& to 8 d9+ room1 :]e he gave me1 9 spite ( myself1 ! place ( honor4 ,he _h ! reputation ( hav+ "o ( ! be/ cooks ( ,canada1 9 ! wid[ ( "o ( ! gov]nors ( ,nova ,scotia1 :om he _h z 8 h\sekeep]4 ,! di%es be=e our eyes did n dim9i% 8 good reputation4 ,! fir/ di% 0 a suck+ pig1 roa/$ ) an art & p]fection z ,i _h nev] se52 x look$ l a piece ( pure gold1 & its smell w\ld h br\ght wat] to ! lips ( ! mo/ p5it5t an*orite4 ,i _h n ta/$ any?+ = ! la/ tw5ty-f\r h\rs2 _h prea*$ two excit+ s]mons1 & sp5t six h\rs 9 he>+ confessions4 ,i felt hungry2 & ! suck+ pig 0 ! mo/ tempt+ ?+ to me4 ,x 0 a real epicurean pleasure to look at x & smell its fragrance4 ,besides1 t 0 a favorite di% ) me4 ,i _c conceal t x 0 ) real pleasure t ,i saw ! curate1 aft] %>p5+ 8 long1 glitt]+ knife on ! file1 cutt+ a beautiful slice f ! %\ld]1 & (f]+ x to me4 ,i 0 too hungry to be ov] pati5t4 ,my knife & =k _h soon done _! "w4 ,i 0 c>ry+ to my m\? ! tempt+ & succul5t m\?ful1 :51 sudd5ly1 ! remembrance ( ! poor man's suck+ pig came to my m9d4 ,i laid ! piece on my plate1 & ) pa9ful anxiety1 look$ at ! curate & said3 8,w y all[ me to put y a "q ab\t ?is di%80 8,oh6 yes2 ask me1 n only "o1 b two que/ions1 & ,i w be happy to answ] y to ! be/ ( my ability10 answ]$ he1 ) 8 f9e mann]s4 8,is ?is ! suck+ pig ( ! poor man ( ye/]day80 ,i ask$4 ,) a convulsive fit ( laught]1 he repli$3 8,yes2 x is j x4 ,if we _c take away ! s\l ( ! poor woman out ( ! flames ( purgatory1 we w1 at all ev5ts1 eat a f9e suck+ pig60 ,! o!r ?irte5 prie/s fill$ ! room ) laught]1 to %[ _! appreciation ( _! ho/'s wit4 ,h[ev]1 _! laught] 0 n ( long duration4 ,) a feel+ ( %ame & uncontrollable indignation1 ,i pu%$ away my plate ) su* =ce1 t x cross$ ! table1 & ne>ly fell on ! floor1 say+1 ) a s5tim5t ( disgu/ :i* no p5 c describe3 8,i w\ld r />ve to dea? ?an eat ( t execrable di%2 ,i see 9 x ! te>s ( ! poor man2 ,i see ! blood ( 8 />v+ *ildr52 x is ! price ( a s\l4 ,no6 no1 g5tlem52 d n t\* x4 ,y "k1 ,mr4 ,curate1 h[ #cj1jjj prie/s & monks 7 slaught]$ 9 ,france1 9 ! bloody days ( #agib4 ,x 0 = su* iniquities z ?is t ,god ,almighty visit$ ! *ur* 9 ,france4 ,! same future awaits u "h 9 ,canada1 ! v day t p w awak5 f _! slumb] & see t1 in/ead ( be+ m9i/]s ( ,*ri/1 we are vile trad]s ( s\ls1 "u ! mask ( religion40 ,! poor curate1 /unn$ by ! solemnity ( my words1 z well z by ! consci\sness ( 8 guilt1 lisp$ "s excuse4 ,! suck+ pig rema9$ unt\*$2 & ! re/ ( ! d9n] _h m ! appe>ance ( a burial c]emony ?an ( a convivial repa/4 ,by ! m]cy ( ,god1 ,i _h r$eem$ my c[>dice ( ! day be=e4 ,b ,i _h mortally w\nd$ ! feel+s ( t curate & 8 fri5ds1 & =ev] lo/ _! good-w4 ,x is 9 su* ways t ,god 0 direct+ ! /eps ( 8 unpr(itable s]vant ?r\gh ways unkn[n to him4 ,furi\s /orms 7 con/antly bl[+ ar\nd my fragile b>k1 & te>+ my sails into fragm5ts4 ,b1 e /orm 0 pu%+ me1 9 spite ( myself1 t[>ds ! %ores ( et]nal life1 :]e ,i 0 to l& safely a few ye>s lat]4 ,,*apt] ,,xlvii4 ,,lett] ,,f ,,! ,,rev4 ,,bi%op ,,v&eveld1 ,,( ,,*icago--,,va/ ,,project ,,( ,,! ,,bi%ops ,,( ,,! ,,unit$ ,,/ates ,,to ,,take ,,possession ,,( ,,! ,,ri* ,,valley ,,( ,,! ,,mississippi ,,& ,,! ,,prairies ,,( ,,! ,,we/1 ,,to ,,rule ,,t ,,great ,,republic--,,!y ,,want ,,to ,,put ,,me ,,at ,,! ,,head ,,( ,,! ,,"w--,,my ,,lectures ,,on ,,temp]ance ,,at ,,detroit--,,intemp]ance ,,( ,,! ,,bi%op ,,& ,,prie/s ,,( ,,t ,,city4 ,on ! #ae? ( ,decemb]1 #ahej1 ,i receiv$ ! foll[+ lett]3 ,,*icago1 ,ill41 ,dec4 #a/1 #ahej4 ,,rev4 ,,fa!r ,,*9iquy1 ,apo/le ( ,temp]ance ( ,canada4 ,,de> ,,sir3--,:5 ,i 0 9 ,canada1 la/ fall1 ,i int5d$ to conf] ) y on a v important subject4 ,b y 7 !n work+ 9 ! diocese ( ,bo/on1 & my limit$ "t prev5t$ me f go+ s f> to meet y4 ,y are aw>e t ! l&s ( ! ,/ate ( ,ill9ois & ! :ole valley ( ! ,mississippi are among ! ri*e/ & mo/ f]tile ( ! _w4 ,9 a ne> future1 ^? regions1 :i* are n[ a comp>ative wild]ness1 w be ! gran>y1 n only ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 b ( ! :ole _w2 & ^? :o w possess !m1 w n only possess ! v he>t & art]ies ( ?is "y & already s great republic1 b w become its rul]s4 ,x is our int5tion1 )\t noise1 to take possession ( ^? va/ & magnific5t regions ( ! we/ 9 ! "n & = ! b5efit ( our holy *ur*4 ,our plan to atta9 t object is z sure z easy4 ,!re is1 e ye>1 an increas+ tide ( emigration f ! ,roman ,ca?olic regions ( ,europe & ,canada t[>ds ! ,unit$ ,/ates4 ,un=tunately1 till n[1 our emigrants h bl9dly scatt]$ !mselves among ! ,prote/ant populations1 :i* too (t5 absorb !m & de/roy _! fai?4 ,:y %\ld we n direct _! /eps to ! same spot8 ,:y %\ld we n1 = in/ance1 induce !m to come & take possession ( ^! f]tile ,/ates ( ,ill9ois1 ,miss\ri1 ,i[a1 ,kansas1 etc4 ,!y c get ^? l&s n[ at a nom9al price4 ,if we succe$1 z ,i hope we w1 our holy *ur* w soon c\nt h] *ildr5 "h by t5 & tw5ty millions1 & ?r\gh _! numb]s1 _! weal? & unity1 !y w h su* a weight 9 ! balance ( p[] t !y w rule ev]y?+4 ,! ,prote/ants1 always divid$ among !mselves1 w nev] =m any /rong p>ty )\t ! help ( ! unit$ vote ( our ,ca?olic p2 & t p>ty alone :i* w ask & get our help by yield+ to our j dem&s1 w rule ! c\ntry4 ,!n1 9 reality1 ?\gh n 9 appe>ance1 our holy *ur* w rule ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 z %e is call$ by our ,savi\r ,himself to rule ! :ole _w4 ,!re is1 to-day1 a wave ( emigration f ,canada t[>ds ! ,unit$ ,/ates :i*1 if n /opp$ or well direct$1 is ?reat5+ to ?r[ ! good ,fr5* ,canadian p into ! mire ( ,prote/antism4 ,y\r c\ntrym51 :5 once mix$ ) ! numb]less sects :i* try to attract !m1 are soon %ak5 9 _! fai?4 ,_! *ildr5 s5t to ,prote/ant s*ools1 w be unable to def5d !mselves aga9/ ! wily & unit$ ef=ts made to p]v]t !m4 ,b put y\rself at ! head ( ! emigrants f ,canada1 ,france & ,belgium2 prev5t !m f settl+ any long] among ! ,prote/ants1 by induc+ !m to foll[ y to ,ill9ois1 & ) !m y w soon see "h a ,roman ,ca?olic p1 ^: numb]1 weal? & influ5ce w amaze ! _w4 ,god ,almighty has wond]fully bless$ y\r labors 9 ,canada1 9 t holy cause ( temp]ance4 ,b n[ ! "w is done1 ! same ,great ,god pres5ts to y\r ,*ri/ian ambition a n less great & noble "w = ! re/ ( y\r life4 ,make use ( y\r great influ5ce ov] y\r c\ntrym5 to prev5t !m f scatt]+ any long] among ,prote/ants1 by induc+ !m to come "h1 9 ,ill9ois4 ,y w !n lay ! f\ndation ( a ,roman ,ca?olic ,fr5* p ^: piety1 unity1 weal? & numb] w soon r5ew & revive1 on ?is cont95t1 ! pa/ & fad+ glories ( ! ,*ur* ( ,france4 ,we h already1 at ,b\rbonnais1 a f9e colony ( ,fr5* ,canadians4 ,!y long to see & he> y4 ,come & help me to make t comp>atively small1 ?\gh ?riv+ p1 gr[ ) ! emigrants f ! ,fr5*-speak+ c\ntries ( ,europe & ,am]ica1 till x cov]s ! :ole t]ritory ( ,ill9ois ) its /urdy sons & pi\s daught]s4 ,i w ask ! pope to make y my coadjutor1 & y w soon become my successor1 = ,i already feel too weak & unheal?y to be> alone ! burd5 ( my too l>ge diocese4 ,please consid] :at ,i propose to y be=e ,god1 & answ] me4 ,b be k9d en\gh to consid] ?is ov]ture z /rictly confid5tial betwe5 y & me1 till we h br\ght our plans into execution4 ,truly ,y\rs1 ,,oliv ,,v&eveld1 ,bi%op ( ,*icago4 ,i answ]$ him t ! bi%ops ( ,bo/on1 ,buffalo & ,detroit _h already advis$ me to put myself at ! head ( ! ,fr5* ,canadian emigration1 9 ord] to direct its tide t[>ds ! va/ & ri* regions ( ! ,we/4 ,i wrote him t ,i felt z he did1 t x 0 ! be/ way to prev5t my c\ntrym5 f fall+ into ! sn>es laid be=e !m by ,prote/ants1 among :om !y 7 scatt]+ !mselves4 ,i told him t ,i w\ld consid] x a great honor & privilege to sp5d ! la/ "p ( my life 9 ext5d+ ! p[] & influ5ce ( our holy *ur* ov] ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 & t ,i w\ld1 9 ,june next1 pay my respects to him 9 ,*icago1 :5 on my way t[>ds ! colony ( my c\ntrym5 at ,b\rbonnais ,grove4 ,i add$ t aft] ,i %\ld h se5 ^? t]ritories ( ,ill9ois & ! ,mississippi valley ) my own eyes x w\ld be m easy to give him a def9ite answ]4 ,i end$ my lett] by say+3 8,b ,i respectfully reque/ y\r lord%ip to give up ! idea ( select+ me = y\r coadjutor or successor4 ,i h already twice refus$ to become a bi%op4 ,t high dignity is too mu* above my m]its & capacities to be ev] accept$ by me4 ,i am happy & pr\d to fight ! battles ( our holy *ur*2 b let my sup]iors all[ me to cont9ue to rema9 9 h] ranks simply z a soldi] to def5d h] honor & ext5d h] p[]4 ,i may1 !n1 ) ! help ( ,god1 d "s good4 ,b ,i feel & "k t ,i w\ld spoil ev]y?+1 if rais$ to an elevat$ position1 = :i* ,i am n fit40 ,)\t speak+ to anybody ( ! proposition ( ! ,bi%op ( ,*icago1 ,i 0 prep>+ to g & see ! new field :]e he want$ me to "w1 :51 9 ! beg9n+ ( ,may1 #ahea1 ,i receiv$ a v press+ invitation f my ,"l ,lefebre1 ,bi%op ( ,detroit1 to lecture on temp]ance to ! ,fr5* ,canadians1 :o 7 !n =m+ ! majority ( ! ,roman ,ca?olics ( t city4 ,t bi%op _h tak5 ! place ( ,bi%op ,rese1 ^: public sc&als & infamies _h cov]$ ! :ole ,ca?olic *ur* ( ,am]ica ) %ame4 ,dur+ ! la/ ye>s he _h sp5t 9 8 diocese1 v few weeks _h be5 pass$ )\t 8 be+ pick$ up bea/ly drunk 9 ! l[e/ tav]ns1 & ev5 9 ! /reets ( ,detroit1 & dragg$1 unconsci\s to 8 palace4 ,aft] long & va9 ef=ts to re=m him1 ! pope & ! bi%ops ( ,am]ica _h happily succe$$ 9 p]suad+ him to g to ,rome1 & pay 8 respects to ! s-call$ vic> ( ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,?is 0 a sn>e too skilfully laid to be suspect$ by ! drunk5 bi%op4 ,he _h h>dly set 8 feet 9 ,rome :5 ! inquisitors ?rew him into "o ( _! dungeons1 :]e he rema9$ till ! republicans set him at lib]ty1 9 #ahdh1 aft] ,pope ,pius ,,ix4 _h fl$ to ,civita ,vec*ia4 ,9 ord] to blot out f ! face ( 8 *ur* ! black spots ) :i* 8 pr$ecessor _h cov]$ x1 my ,"l ,lefebre made ! greate/ display ( zeal = ! cause ( temp]ance4 ,z soon z he 0 induct$1 he invit$ 8 p to foll[ 8 example & enroll !mselves "u its bann]s1 9 a v p[]ful address on ! evils caus$ by ! use ( intoxicat+ dr9ks4 ,at ! end ( 8 eloqu5t s]mon1 lay+ 8 "r h& on ! alt>1 he made a solemn promise nev] to dr9k any alcoholic liquors4 ,8 tell+ s]mon on temp]ance1 ) 8 solemn & public promise1 7 publi%$ ?r\gh ne>ly all ! pap]s ( t "t1 & ,i read x _m times to ! p ) good effect4 ,:5 on my way to ,ill9ois1 ,i rea*$ ! city ( ,detroit to give ! c\rse ( lectures dem&$ by ! bi%op1 9 ! fir/ week 9 ,june4 ,?\gh ! bi%op 0 abs5t1 ,i imm$iately began to prea* to an imm5se audi5ce 9 ! ,ca!dral4 ,i _h agre$ to give five lectures1 & x 0 only dur+ ! ?ird "o t ,bi%op ,lefebre arriv$4 ,aft] pay+ me great complim5ts = my zeal & success 9 ! temp]ance cause1 he took me by ! h& to 8 d9+-room & said3 8,let u g & refre% ourselves40 ,i %all nev] =get my surprise & dismay1 :5 ,i p]ceiv$ ! long d9+ table cov]$ ) bottles ( br&y1 w9e1 be]1 etc41 prep>$ = himself & 8 six or sev5 prie/s1 :o 7 already ar\nd x1 joyfully empty+ _! glasses4 ,my fir/ ?\ght 0 to express my surprise & indignation1 & leave ! room 9 disgu/1 b by a second & bett] ?\ght ,i wait$ a little to see m ( t unexpect$ spectacle4 ,i accept$ ! seat (f]$ me by ! bi%op at 8 "r h&4 8,fa!r ,*9iquy10 he said1 8?is is ! sweete/ cl>et y ev] drank40 ,& be=e ,i c\ld utt] a ^w1 he _h fill$ my l>ge glass ) ! w9e & drank 8 own to my heal?4 ,look+ at ! bi%op 9 amazem5t1 ,i said3 8,:at does ?is mean1 my "l80 8,x means t ,i want to dr9k ) y ! be/ cl>et y ev] ta/$40 8,d y take me = a com$ian8 & h y call$ me "h to play su* a /range com$y80 ,i repli$1 ) lips trembl+ ) indignation4 8,i did n invite y to play a com$y10 he answ]$4 8,i invit$ y to lecture on temp]ance to my p1 & y h done x 9 a mo/ admirable way ^! la/ ?ree days4 ,?\gh y did n see me1 ,i 0 pres5t at ?is ev5+'s address4 ,i nev] he>d any?+ s eloqu5t on t subject z :at y said4 ,b n[ t y h fulfill$ y\r duty1 ,i mu/ d m9e1 :i* is to treat y z a g5tleman & dr9k t bottle ( w9e ) y40 8,b1 my "l1 all[ me to tell y t ,i w\ld n des]ve to be call$ or treat$ z a g5tleman 7 ,i vile en\gh to dr9k w9e aft] ! address ,i gave ?is ev5+40 8,i beg y\r p>don = diff]+ f y10 answ]$ ! bi%op48 ,^? drunk5 p to :om y spoke s well aga9/ ! evils ( intemp]ance are 9 ne$ ( ! /r+5t & bitt] rem$ies y (f] !m 9 y\r teetotalism4 ,b "h we are sob] m5 & g5tlem51 we d n want su* rem$ies4 ,i nev] ?\ght t ! physicians 7 absolutely b\nd to take ! pills !y adm9i/] to _! pati5ts40 8,i hope y\r lord%ip w n d5y me ! "r y claim = y\rself1 to diff] ) me 9 ?is matt]4 ,i entirely diff] f y1 :5 y say t m5 :o dr9k z y d ) y\r prie/s1 h a "r to be call$ sob] m540 8,i fe>1 ,mr4 ,*9iquy1 t y =get :]e y are1 & to :om y speak j n[10 repli$ ! bi%op4 8,x may be t ,i h made a blund]1 & t ,i am guilty ( "s grave error 9 com+ "h & speak+ to y z ,i am do+1 my "l4 ,9 t case1 ,i am ready to ask y\r p>don4 ,b be=e ,i retract :at ,i h said1 please all[ me to respectfully ask y a v simple "q40 ,!n tak+ f my pocket-book 8 pr9t$ address1 & 8 public & solemn promise nev] to dr9k1 nei!r to (f] any intoxicat+ dr9ks to o!rs1 ,i read x al\d1 & said3 8,are y ! same ,bi%op ( ,detroit1 call$ ,lefebre1 :o has made ?is solemn promise8 ,if y are n ! same man1 ,i w retract & beg y\r p>don1 b if y are ! same1 ,i h no?+ to retract40 ,my answ] fell ^u ! poor bi%op z a ?und]bolt4 ,he lisp$ "s un9telligible & insignificant explanation1 :i*1 h[ev]1 he end$ by a c\p d'etat1 9 say+3 8,my de> ,mr4 ,*9iquy1 ,i did n invite y to prea* to ! bi%op1 b only to ! p ( ,detroit40 8,y are "r1 my "l1 ,i 0 n call$ to prea* to ! bi%op1 b all[ me to tell y t if ,i _h kn[n soon] t :5 ! ,bi%op ( ,detroit1 ) 8 prie/s1 solemnly1 publicly1 & ) _! "r h& on ! alt>1 promis$ t !y w\ld nev] dr9k any intoxicat+ dr9ks1 x means t !y w dr9k & fill !mselves ) ^? dete/able liquors till _! bra9s %iv] ) _! poison\s fumes1 ,i w\ld n h tr\bl$ y ) my pres5ce or my rem>ks "h4 ,h[ev]1 all[ me to tell y\r lord%ip to be k9d en\gh to f9d ano!r lectur] = y\r temp]ance meet+s2 = ,i am det]m9$ to take ! tra9 to-morr[ morn+ = ,*icago40 ,!re is no ne$ to say t dur+ t pa9ful conv]sation ! prie/s 7) only "o exception7 7 z full ( indignation aga9/ me z !y 7 full ( w9e4 ,i left ! table & w5t to my sleep+ ap>tm5t1 ov]:elm$ ) sadness & %ame4 ,half an h\r lat]1 ! bi%op 0 ) me1 conjur+ me to cont9ue my lectures1 on acc\nt ( ! fe>ful sc&als :i* w\ld result f my sudd5 & unexpect$ exit f ,detroit1 :5 ! :ole p _h ! assurance f me t v night t ,i w\ld cont9ue to lecture ! two foll[+ ev5+s4 ,i ackn[l$g$ t !re w\ld be a great sc&al1 b ,i told him t he 0 ! only "o responsible = x1 by 8 want ( fai? & consi/5cy4 ,he1 at fir/1 tri$ to p]suade me t he 0 ord]$ to dr9k by 8 own physicians1 = 8 heal?2 b ,i %[$ him t ?is 0 a mis]able illusion4 ,he !n said t he regrett$ :at _h occurr$1 & confess$ t x w\ld be bett] if ! prie/s practic$ :at !y prea*$ to ! p4 ,aft] :i*1 he ask$ me1 9 ! "n ( our ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/1 to =get ! errors ( ! bi%op & prie/s ( ,detroit1 9 ord] to ?9k only ( ! good :i* ! conv]sion ( ! numb]less drunk>ds ( t city w\ld d to ! p4 ,he spoke to me ) su* e>ne/ness ( ! s\ls sav$1 ! te>s dri$1 ! happ9ess re/or$ to hundr$s ( families by temp]ance1 t he t\*$ ! mo/ s5sitive *ords ( my he>t1 & got f me ! promise t ,i w\ld deliv] ! o!r two expect$ lectures4 ,he 0 s glad t he press$ me on 8 bosom & gave me1 :at we call 9 ,fr5*1 ,le bais] de paix 7kiss ( peace71 to %[ me 8 e/eem & gratitude4 ,:5 alone1 ,i tri$ to dr[n 9 a s\nd sleep ! sad emotions ( t ev5+2 b x 0 impossible4 ,t night 0 to be aga9 a sleepless "o to me4 ,! intemp]ance ( t high dignit>y & 8 prie/s fill$ me ) an unspeakable horror & disgu/4 ,_m times dur+ ! d>k h\rs ( t night1 ,i he>d z if x 7 a voice1 say+ to me3 8,d y n see t ! bi%ops & prie/s ( y\r *ur* d n believe a ^w ( _! religion8 ,_! only object is to ?r[ du/ 9 ! eyes ( ! p1 & live a jolly life4 ,d y n see t y d n foll[ ! ,^w ( ,god1 b only ! va9 & ly+ traditions ( m51 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,rome8 ,come out ( x2 break ! heavy yoke :i* is ^u y1 & foll[ ! simple1 pure religion ( ,jesus ,*ri/40 ,i tri$ to sil5ce t voice by say+ to myself3 8,^! s9s are n ! s9s ( my holy *ur*--!y are ! s9s ( individuals4 ,x 0 n ! fault ( ,*ri/ if ,judas 0 a ?ief6 ,x is n m ! fault ( my holy *ur* if ?is bi%op & 8 prie/s are drunk>ds & worldly m54 ,:]e w ,i g if ,i leave my *ur*8 ,w ,i n f9d drunk>ds & infidels ev]y:]e ,i may g 9 se>* ( a bett] religion80 ,! dawn ( ! next day f\nd me fev]i%1 & unable to get any re/ 9 my b$4 ,hop+ t ! fir/ fre% air ( ! morn+ w\ld d me good1 ,i w5t to ! beautiful g>d51 cov]$ ) fruit trees ( all k9ds1 :i* 0 !n ar\nd ! ,episcopal resid5ce4 ,b :at 0 my surprise to see ! bi%op lean+ on a tree1 ) 8 h&k]*ief ov] 8 face1 & ba!d 9 te>s4 ,i approa*$ him ) ! lea/ noise possible4 ,i saw t he did n p]ceive me4 ,by ! motion ( 8 head & %\ld]s1 x became evid5t to me t he 0 9 angui% ( s\l4 ,i said to him3 8,my de> bi%op1 :at is ! matt]8 ,:y d y weep & cry at su* an e>ly h\r80 ,press+ my h& convulsively 9 81 he answ]$3 8,de> ,fa!r ,*9iquy1 y d n yet "k ! awful calamity :i* has befall5 me ?is night40 8,:at calamity80 ,i ask$4 8,d y n rememb]10 he answ]$1 8t "y prie/ :o 0 sitt+ at y\r "r h&1 la/ ev5+8 ,well6 he w5t away1 dur+ ! night1 ) ! wife ( a "y man1 :om he _h s$uc$1 & /ole #d1jjj f me be=e he left40 8,i am n at all surpris$ at t1 :5 ,i rememb] h[ t prie/ empti$ 8 glasses ( be] & w9e la/ night10 ,i answ]$4 8,:5 ! blood ( a man is heat$ by ^? fi]y liquors1 x is %e] absurdity to ?9k t he w keep 8 v[ ( *a/ity40 8,y are "r6 ,y are "r6 ,god ,almighty has puni%$ me = break+ ! public pl$ge ,i _h tak5 nev] to dr9k any intoxicat+ dr9ks4 ,we want a re=m 9 our mid/1 & we w h x10 he answ]$4 8,b :at horrible sc&al6 ,"o ( my "y prie/s gone ) t "y wife1 aft] /eal+ #d1jjj f me6 ,great ,god6 ,mu/ we n hide our face n[1 9 ?is city80 ,i c\ld say no?+ to alleviate ! sorr[ ( ! poor bi%op1 b to m+le my te>s ( %ame & sorr[ ) 84 ,i w5t back to my room1 :]e ,i wept a "p ( ! day1 to my he>t's cont5t1 on ! unspeakable degradation ( t prie/hood ( :i* ,i _h be5 s pr\d1 & ab\t :i* ,i _h su* exalt$ views :5 ,i ent]$ its ranks1 be=e ,i _h an inside view ( its d>k my/]ies4 ,( c\rse1 ! next two days t ,i 0 ! gue/ ( ,bi%op ,lefebre1 n a s+le drop ( intoxicat+ dr9k 0 se5 on ! table4 ,b ,i "k t n long aft]1 t repres5tative ( ! pope =got aga9 8 solemn v[s & cont9u$ ) 8 prie/s dr9k+1 till he di$ a mo/ mis]able dea? 9 #ahge4 ,,*apt] ,,xlviii4 ,,my ,,visit ,,to ,,*icago ,,9 #ahea--;,,bi%op ,,v&eveld--,,8 ,,pr$ecessor ,,poison$--,,magnific5t ,,prairies ,,( ,,! ,,we/--,,return ,,to ,,canada--,,bad ,,feel+s ,,( ,,bi%op ,,b\rget--,i ,,decl9e ,,s5d+ ,a ,,ri* ,,woman ,,to ,,! ,,nunn]y ,,to ,,enri* ,,! ,,bi%op--,a ,,plot ,,to ,,de/roy ,,me4 ,! j\rney f ,detroit to ,*icago1 9 ! mon? ( ,june1 #ahea1 0 n s pleasant z x is to-day4 ,! ,mi*igan ,c5tral ,railroad 0 complet$ !n only to ,new ,buffalo4 ,we took ! /eam] !re & cross$ ,lake ,mi*igan to ,*icago1 :]e we arriv$ ! next morn+1 aft] ne>ly p]i%+ 9 a t]rible /orm4 ,on ! #ae? ( ,june1 ,i fir/ l&$1 ) ! greate/ difficulty1 on a badly wreck$ :>f1 at ! m\? ( ! riv]4 ,"s ( ! /reets ,i _h to cross 9 ord] to rea* ! bi%op's palace 7 almo/ impassable4 ,9 _m places loose planks _h be5 ?r[n across !m to prev5t p f mir+ 9 ! mud & quicks&s4 ,! fir/ sight ( ,*icago 0 !n f> f giv+ an idea ( :at t city has become 9 #ahhf4 ,?\gh x _h rapidly increas$ 9 ! la/ t5 ye>s1 its population 0 !n n mu* m ?an #cj1jjj4 ,! only l9e ( railroad f9i%$ 0 f ,*icago to ,aurora1 ab\t =ty miles4 ,! :ole population ( ! ,/ate ( ,ill9ois 0 !n n mu* beyond #bjj1jjj4 ,to-day1 ,*icago alone numb]s m ?an #ejj1jjj s\ls )9 h] limits4 ,probably m gra91 lumb]1 beef & pork are n[ b\ght & sold 9 a s+le day 9 ,*icago ?an 7 !n 9 a :ole ye>4 ,:5 ,i ent]$ ! mis]able h\se call$ ! 8bi%op's palace10 ,i c\ld h>dly believe my eyes4 ,! planks ( ! l[] floor1 9 ! d9+-room1 7 float+1 & x requir$ a great deal ( +5uity to keep my feet dry :ile d9+ ) him = ! fir/ "t4 ,b ! ,*ri/ian k9dness & c\rtesy ( ! bi%op1 made me m happy 9 8 poor h\se ?an ,i felt1 lat]1 9 ! :ite m>ble palace built by 8 haughty successor1 ,c4 ,o',regan4 ,!re 7 !n 9 ,*icago ab\t #bjj ,fr5* ,canadian families1 "u ! pa/orate ( ! ,rev4 ,m4 ,a4 ,lebel1 :o1 l myself1 0 born 9 ,kam\raska4 ,! drunk5ness & o!r immoralities ( ! cl]gy1 pictur$ to me by t prie/1 surpass$ all ,i _h ev] he>d or kn[n4 ,aft] gett+ my promise t ,i w\ld nev] reveal ! fact be=e 8 dea?1 he assur$ me t ! la/ bi%op _h be5 poison$ by "o ( 8 gr& vic>s 9 ! foll[+ way4 ,he said1 ! gr& vic>1 be+ fa!r confessor ( ! nuns ( ,loretto1 _h fall5 9 love ) "o ( ! s-call$ virg9s1 :o di$ a few days aft] becom+ ! "m ( a /ill-born *ild4 ,?is fact hav+ transpir$1 & ?reat5+ to give a great deal ( sc&al1 ! bi%op ?\ght x 0 8 duty to make an inquiry & puni% 8 prie/1 if he %\ld be f\nd guilty4 ,b ! gr& vic>1 see+ t 8 crime 0 to be easily detect$1 f\nd t ! %orte/ way to escape exposure 0 to put an end to ! inque/ by murd]+ ! poor bi%op4 ,a poison v difficult to detect 0 adm9i/]$1 & ! dea? ( ! prelate soon foll[$1 )\t excit+ any surprise 9 ! community4 ,horrifi$ by ! long & m9ute details ( t my/]y ( iniquity1 ,i came v ne> return+ to ,canada1 imm$iately1 )\t go+ any fur!r4 ,b aft] m mature consid]ation1 x seem$ to me t ^! awful iniquities on ! "p ( ! prie/s ( ,ill9ois 0 j ! reason :y ,i %\ld n %ut my e>s to ! voice ( ,god1 if x 7 ,8 w t ,i %\ld come to take c>e ( ! preci\s s\ls ,he w\ld tru/ to me4 ,i sp5t a week 9 ,*icago1 lectur+ on temp]ance e ev5+1 & li/5+ dur+ ! days to ! gr& plans ! bi%op 0 matur+1 9 ord] to make our ,*ur* ( ,rome ! mi/ress & rul] ( ! magnific5t valley ( ! ,mississippi1 :i* includ$ ! ,/ates ( ,m9nesota1 ,i[a1 ,miss\ri1 ,kansas1 ,mississippi1 etc4 ,he cle>ly demon/rat$ to me1 t once mi/ress ( ! incalculable treasures ( ^? ri* l&s1 ?r\gh ! millions ( h] ob$i5t *ildr51 our *ur* w\ld easily comm& ! respect & ! submission ( ! less favor$ /ates ( ! ea/4 ,my zeal = my *ur* 0 s s9c]e t ,i w\ld h giv51 ) pleasure1 e drop ( my blood1 9 ord] to secure to h] su* a future ( p[] & greatness4 ,i felt really happy & ?ankful to ,god t ,he %\ld h *os5 me to help ! pope & ! bi%ops realize su* a noble & magnific5t project4 ,leav+ ,*icago1 x took me ne>ly ?ree days to cross ! va/ prairies1 :i* 7 !n a p]fect wild]ness1 betwe5 ,*icago & ,b\rbonnais1 :]e ,i sp5t ?ree weeks 9 prea*+ & explor+ ! c\ntry ext5d+ f ! ,kankakee riv] to ! s\?-we/ t[>ds ! ,mississippi4 ,x 0 only !n t ,i pla9ly und]/ood ! greatness ( ! plans ( ! bi%op1 & t ,i det]m9$ to sacrifice ! exalt$ position ,god _h giv5 me 9 ,canada to guide ! /eps ( ! ,roman ,ca?olic emigrants f ,france1 ,belgium & ,canada t[>ds ! regions ( ! we/1 9 ord] to ext5d ! p[] & influ5ce ( my *ur* all ov] ! ,unit$ ,/ates4 ,on my return to ,*icago1 9 ! second week ( ,july1 all 0 arrang$ ) ! bi%op = my com+ back 9 ! autumn1 to help him to accompli% 8 gigantic plans4 ,h[ev]1 x 0 und]/ood betwe5 u t my leav+ ,canada = ! ,unit$ ,/ates w\ld be kept a secret till ! la/ h\r1 on acc\nt ( ! /]n opposition ,i expect$ f my bi%op4 ,! la/ ?+ to be done1 on my return to ,canada1 9 ord] to prep>e ! emigrants to g to ,ill9ois1 r ?an any o!r "p ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 0 to tell !m ?r\gh ! press ! unrival$ advantages :i* ,god _h prep>$ = !m 9 ! we/4 ,i did s by a lett]1 :i* 0 publi%$ n only by ! press ( ,canada1 b also 9 _m pap]s ( ,france & ,belgium4 ,! importance ( t lett] is su* t ,i hope my read] w be> ) me 9 reproduc+ ! foll[+ extracts f x4 ,,montreal1 ,,canada ,,ea/4 ,augu/ #ac?1 #ahea4 ,x is impossible to give our fri5ds1 by n>ration1 an idea ( :at we feel1 :5 we cross = ! fir/ "t ! imm5se prairies ( ,ill9ois4 ,x is a spectacle :i* mu/ be se5 to be well und]/ood4 ,z y advance 9 ! mid/ ( ^! b\ndless des]ts1 :]e y\r eyes p]ceive no?+ b l&s ( inexhau/ible ri*ness1 rema9+ 9 ! mo/ desolat+ solitude1 y feel some?+ :i* y _c express by any words4 ,is y\r s\l fill$ ) joy1 or y\r he>t brok5 ) sadness8 ,y _c say4 ,y lift up y\r eyes to heav51 & ! voice ( y\r s\l is *ant+ a hymn ( gratitude4 ,te>s ( joy are trickl+ d[n y\r *eeks1 & y bless ,god1 ^: curse seems n to h fall5 on ! l& :]e y /&3 8,curs$ is ! e>? 9 ?y "w2 ?orns & ?i/les %all x br+ =? to !e40 ,y see ar\nd y ! mo/ luxuriant v]dure2 fl[]s ( e k9d1 & magnific5ce above description4 ,b1 if 9 ! sil5ce ( m$itation1 y look ) new att5tion on ^? prairies1 s ri*1 s magnific5t1 y feel an inexpressible s5tim5t ( sadness1 & address+ y\rself to ! bless$ l&1 y say3 8,:y art ?\ s solit>y8 ,:y is ! wild game alone "h to glorify my ,god80 ,& if y cont9ue to advance ?r\gh ^? imm5se prairies1 :i*1 l a b\ndless ocean1 are spread+ _! roll+ waves be=e y1 & seem to long aft] ! pres5ce ( man1 to cov] !mselves ) incalculable treasures1 y rememb] y\r fri5ds 9 ,canada1 & m p>ticul>ly ^? among !m :o1 cru%$ d[n by mis]y1 are wat]+ ) ! sweat ( _! br[ a /]ile & desolat$ soil1 y say3 8,ah6 if su* & su* ( my fri5ds 7 "h1 h[ soon !y w\ld see _! h>d & ungrateful labors *ang$ into ! mo/ smil+ & happy position40 ,p]haps ,i w be accus$ "h1 ( try+ to depopulate my c\ntry1 & drive my c\ntrym5 f ,canada to ! ,unit$ ,/ates4 ,no6 no4 ,i nev] _h s p]v]se a design4 ,"h is my m9d ab\t ! subject ( emigration1 & ,i see no reason to be a%am$ ( x1 or to conceal x4 ,x is a fact t a great numb] 7& mu* great] ?an g5]ally believ$7 ( ,fr5* ,canadians are ye>ly emigrat+ f ,canada1 & nobody regrets x m ?an ,i d2 b z long z ^? :o gov]n ,canada w n pay m att5tion to t evil1 x w be an incurable "o1 & e ye> ,canada w lose ?\s&s & ?\s&s ( its /ronge/ arms & noble/ he>ts1 to b5efit our happy neighbors4 ,) _m o!rs1 ,i _h ! hope t ! eloqu5t voice ( ! poor settl]s ( our ea/]n t[n%ips w\ld be he>d1 & t ! gov]nm5t w\ld help !m2 b t hope has gone l a dream1 & we h n[ e reason to fe> t our un=tunate settl]s ( ! ea/ w be left to !mselves4 ,! greate/ "p ( !m1 = ! want ( roads to ! m>kets ( ,quebec & ,montreal1 & /ill m by ! tyranny ( _! cruel l&lords1 w soon be oblig$ to bid an et]nal adieu to _! c\ntry1 & ) an enrag$ he>t aga9/ _! haughty oppressors1 !y w seek 9 ! exile to a /range l& ! protection !y c\ld n f9d 9 _! own c\ntry4 ,yes6 ,if our ,canadian gov]nm5t cont9ues a little long] to %[ ! same incompreh5sible & /upid apa?y = ! welf>e ( its own subjects1 emigration w increase e ye> f ,canada to swell ! ranks ( ! ,am]ican p4 ,s9ce we _c /op t emigration1 is x n our fir/ duty to direct x 9 su* a way t x w be to ! poor emigrants z little injury z possible8 ,let u d ev]y?+ to h9d] !m f go+ to ! l>ge cities ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates4 ,dr[n$ 9 ! mix$ population ( ,am]ican cities1 our un=tunate emigrat+ c\ntrym5 w\ld be too mu* expos$ to los+ _! morality & _! fai?4 ,surely !re is n ano!r c\ntry "u ! heav5s :]e space1 bread1 & lib]ty are s univ]sally assur$ to e memb] ( ! community1 z ! ,unit$ ,/ates4 ,b x is n 9 ! great cities ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates t our poor c\ntrym5 w soone/ f9d ^! ?ree gifts4 ,! ,fr5* ,canadian :o w /op 9 ! l>ge cities1 w n1 ) a v few exceptions1 raise himself above ! un5viable position ( a poor j\rneyman4 ,b ^? among !m :o w direct _! /eps t[>ds ! ri* & ext5sive prairies ( ,b\rbonnais1 w c]ta9ly f9d a bett] lot4 ,_m 9 ,canada w\ld believe t ,i am exagg]at+1 7 ,i to publi% h[ happy1 prosp]\s & respectable is ! ,fr5* ,canadian population ( ,b\rbonnais4 ,! ,fr5* ,canadians ( ,b\rbonnais h _h ! intellig5ce to foll[ ! good example ( ! indu/ri\s ,am]ican f>m]s 9 ! mann] ( cultivat+ ! l&s4 ,on _! f>ms z well z ^? ( _! neighbors1 y w f9d ! be/ ma*9]y to cut _! crops1 to ?re% _! gra94 ,!y enjoy ! j reputation ( hav+ ! be/ horses 9 ! c\ntry1 & v few c beat !m = ! numb] & quality ( _! cattle4 ,n[1 :at c be ! prospects ( a "y man 9 ,canada1 if he has n m ?an #bjj8 ,a :ole life ( h>d labor & cont9u$ privation is 8 too c]ta9 lot4 ,b1 let t "y man g directly to ,b\rbonnais1 & if he is indu/ri\s1 sob] & religi\s1 be=e a c\ple ( ye>s he w see no?+ to envy 9 ! mo/ happy f>m] 9 ,canada4 ,z ! l& he w take 9 ,ill9ois1 is entirely prep>$ = ! pl[1 he has no trees to cut or eradicate1 no /ones to move1 no dit* to dig1 8 only "w is to f5ce & break 8 l& & s[ x1 & ! v fir/ ye> ! value ( ! crop w be suffici5t to pay = 8 f>m4 ,holy ,provid5ce has prep>$ ev]y?+ = ! b5efit ( ! happy f>m]s ( ,ill9ois4 ,t f]tile c\ntry is well wat]$ by a multitude ( riv]s & l>ge creeks1 ^: bord]s are g5]ally cov]$ ) ! mo/ ri* & ext5sive groves ( timb] ( ! be/ quality1 z black oak1 maple1 :ite oak1 burr oak1 etc4 ,! se$s ( ! beautiful acacia 7locu/71 aft] five or six ye>s1 w give y a spl5did tree4 ,! greate/ v>iety ( fruits are gr[+ naturally 9 almo/ e "p ( ,ill9ois2 coal m9es h be5 discov]$ 9 ! v he>t ( ! c\ntry1 m ?an suffici5t = ! wants ( ! p4 ,be=e long1 a railroad f ,*icago to ,b\rbonnais w br+ our happy c\ntrym5 to ! mo/ ext5sive m>ket1 ! ,que5 city ( ! we/--,*icago4 ,i w !n say to my "y c\ntrym5 :o int5d emigrat+ f ,canada3 8,my fri5d1 exile is "o ( ! greate/ calamities t c befall a man4 8,"y ,canadian1 rema9 9 ?y c\ntry1 keep ?y he>t to love x1 ?y intellig5ce to adorn x1 & ?9e arms to protect x4 8,"y & de> c\ntrym51 rema9 9 ?y beautiful c\ntry2 !re is no?+ m gr& & sublime 9 ! _w ?an ! wat]s ( ! ,/4 ,lawr5ce4 ,x is on ^? deep & maje/ic wat]s t1 be=e long1 ,europe & ,am]ica w meet & b9d !mselves to ea* o!r by ! bless$ bonds ( an et]nal peace2 x is on its %ores t !y w ex*ange _! incalculable treasures4 ,rema9 9 ! c\ntry ( ?y bir?1 my de> son4 ,let ! sweat ( ?y br[ cont9ue to f]tilize x1 & let ! p]fume ( ?y virtues br+ ! bless+ ( ,god ^u x4 8,b1 my de> son1 if ?\ ha/ no m room 9 ! valley ( ! ,/4 ,lawr5ce1 & if1 by ! want ( protection f ! ,gov]nm5t1 ?\ can/ n g to ! =e/ )\t runn+ ! dang] ( los+ ?y life 9 a pond1 or be+ cru%$ "u ! feet ( an ,engli% or ,scot* tyrant1 ,i am n ! man to invite !e to exhau/ ?y be/ days = ! b5efit ( ! insol5t /rang]s1 :o are ! lords ( ! ea/]n l&s4 ,i w soon] tell !e1 #8g my *ild1' !re are _m ext5sive places /ill vacant on ! e>?1 & ,god is ev]y:]e4 ,t ,great ,god calle? !e to ano!r l&1 submit ?yself to ,8 ,div9e ,w4 8,b1 be=e y bid a f9al adieu to ?y c\ntry1 engrave on ?y he>t & keep z a holy deposit1 ! love ( ?y holy religion1 ( ?y beautiful language & ( ! de> & un=tunate c\ntry ( ?y bir?4 8,on ?y way to ! l& ( exile1 /op z little z possible 9 ! great cities1 = fe> ( ! _m sn>es ?y et]nal enemy has prep>$ = ?y p]dition4 8,b g /raight to ,b\rbonnais4 ,!re y w f9d _m ( ?y bro!rs1 :o h erect$ ! cross ( ,*ri/2 jo9 ?yself to !m1 ?\ %alt be /rong ( _! /r5g?2 g & help !m to conqu] to ! ,gospel ( ,jesus ^? ri* c\ntries1 :i* %all1 v soon1 weigh m ?an is g5]ally believ$1 9 ! balance ( ! nations4 8,yes1 g /raight to ,ill9ois4 ,?\ %alt be n entirely 9 a /range & ali5 c\ntry4 ,holy ,provid5ce has *os5 ?y fa!rs to f9d t ri* c\ntry1 & to reveal to ! _w its admirable res\rces4 8,m ?an once1 t l& ( ,ill9ois has be5 sanctifi$ by ! blood ( ?y ance/ors4 8,9 ,ill9ois1 ?\ %alt n make a /ep )\t f9d+ inde/ructible pro( ( ! p]sev]ance1 g5ius1 brav]y & piety ( ?y ,fr5* =efa!rs4 8,g to ,ill9ois1 & ! _m names ( ,b\rbonnais1 ,joliet1 ,dubuque1 ,la ,salle1 ,/4 ,*>les1 ,/4 ,m>y1 etc41 t y w meet ev]y:]e1 w tell y m ?an my words1 t t c\ntry is no?+ b ! ri* inh]itance :i* y\r fa!rs h f\nd = ! b5efit ( _! gr&*ildr540 ,c4 ,,*9iquy4 ,i w\ld nev] h publi%$ ?is lett]1 if ,i _h =ese5 its effects on ! f>m]s ( ,canada4 ,9 a few days aft] its appe>ance1 _! f>ms fell to half _! value4 ,e "o1 9 "s p>i%es1 want$ to sell _! l&s & emigrate to ! we/4 ,x 0 only = want ( pur*as]s t we did n see an emigration :i* w\ld h surely ru9$ ,canada4 ,i 0 fright5$ by its imm$iate effect on ! public m9d4 ,h[ev]1 :ile "s 7 prais+ me to ! skies1 = hav+ publi%$ x1 o!rs 7 curs+ me1 & call+ me a traitor4 ,! v day aft] its publication1 ,i 0 9 ,quebec1 :]e ! bi%ops ( ,canada 7 met 9 c\ncil4 ,! fir/ "o ,i met1 0 my ,"l ,de ,*>bonel1 ,bi%op ( ,toronto4 ,aft] hav+ bless$ me1 he press$ my h& & said3 8,i h j read y\r admirable lett]4 ,x is "o ( ! mo/ beautiful & eloqu5tly writt5 articles ,i ev] read4 ,! ,_s ( ,god has surely inspir$ e "o ( its s5t5ces4 ,i h1 j n[1 =w>d$ six copies ( x to diff]5t j\rnals ( ,france & ,belgium1 :]e !y w be republi%$ & d an incalculable am\nt ( good1 by direct+ ! ,fr5*-speak+ ,ca?olic emigrants t[>ds a c\ntry :]e !y w run no risk ( los+ _! fai?1 ) ! assurance ( secur+ a future ( unb\nd$ prosp]ity = _! families4 ,y\r "n w be put among ! names ( ! greate/ b5efactors ( humanity40 ,?\gh ^! complim5ts seem$ to me mu* exagg]at$ & unm]it$1 ,i _c d5y t !y pleas$ me1 by add+ to my hopes & convictions t great good w\ld surely come f ! plan ,i _h ( ga!r+ all ! ,roman ,ca?olic emigrants on ! same spot1 to =m su* l>ge & /rong congregations2 t !y w\ld h no?+ to fe> f h]etics4 ,i ?ank$ ! bi%op = 8 k9d & fri5dly words1 & left him to g & pres5t my respectful salutations to my ,bi%op ( ,montreal1 my ,"l ,b\rget1 & give him a %ort sket* ( my voyage to ! f> we/4 ,i f\nd him alone 9 8 room1 9 ! v act ( read+ my lett]4 ,a lioness1 :o _h j lo/ h] :elps1 w\ld n h look$ ^u me ) m angry & ?reat5+ eyes ?an t bi%op did4 8,is x possible10 he said1 8,mr4 ,*9iquy1 t y\r h& has writt5 & sign$ su* a p]fidi\s docum5t8 ,h[ c\ld y s cruelly pi]ce ! bosom ( y\r own c\ntry1 aft] h] deal+ s nobly ) y8 ,d y n see t y\r treasonable lett] w give su* an impetus to emigration t our mo/ ?riv+ p>i%es w soon be turn$ into solitude8 ,?\gh y d n say x1 we feel at e l9e ( t lett]1 t y also w leave y\r c\ntry1 to give help & com=t to our natural enemies40 ,surpris$ by ?is unexpect$ bur/ ( bad feel+s1 ,i kept my sang froid1 & answ]$3 8,my "l1 y\r lord%ip has surely misund]/ood me1 if y h f\nd 9 my lett] any treasonable plan to ru9 our c\ntry4 ,please read x aga91 & y w see t e l9e has be5 inspir$ by ! pure/ motives ( patriotism1 & ! highe/ views ( religion4 ,h[ is x possible t ! wor?y ,bi%op ( ,toronto %\ld h told me t ! ,_s ( ,god ,himself _h dictat$ e l9e ( t lett]1 :5 my good bi%op's op9ion is s completely opposite80 ,! abrupt answ] ! bi%op gave to ^! rem>ks1 cle>ly indicat$ t my abs5ce w\ld be m welcome ?an my pres5ce4 ,i left him1 aft] ask+ 8 bless+1 :i* he gave me 9 ! colde/ mann] possible4 ,on ! #be? ( ,augu/1 ,i 0 back at ,longueuil1 f my voyage to ,quebec1 :i* ,i _h ext5d$ z f> z ,kam\raska1 to see aga9 ! noble-he>t$ p>i%ion]s1 ^: unanimity 9 tak+ ! pl$ge ( temp]ance1 & admirable fidelity 9 keep+ x !n1 _h fill$ my he>t ) su* joy4 ,i relat$ my la/ int]view ) ,bi%op ,b\rget to my fai?ful fri5d ,mr4 ,brass>d4 ,he answ]$ me3 8,! pres5t bad feel+s ( ! ,bi%op ( ,montreal aga9/ y1 are no secret to me4 ,un=tunately ! l[-m9d$ m5 :o surr\nd & c\ncil him1 are z unable z ! bi%op himself1 to und]/& y\r exalt$ views 9 direct+ ! /eps ( ! ,roman ,ca?olics t[>ds ! spl5did valley ( ! ,mississippi4 ,!y are beside !mselves1 because !y see t y w easily succe$ 9 =m+ a gr& colony ( ,fr5*-speak+ p 9 ,ill9ois4 ,n[1 ,i am sure ( :at ,i say1 ?\gh ,i am n free to tell y h[ x came to my k2 !re is a plot some:]e to di%onor & de/roy y1 at once4 ,^? :o are at ! head ( t plot1 hope t if !y c succe$ 9 de/roy+ y\r popul>ity1 nobody w be tempt$ to foll[ y to ,ill9ois4 ,=1 ?\gh y h conceal$ x z well z y c\ld1 x is evid5t to e "o n[1 t y are ! man select$ by ! bi%ops ( ! we/ to direct ! unc]ta9 /eps ( ! poor emigrants t[>ds ^? ri* l&s40 8,d y mean1 my de> ,mr4 ,brass>d10 ,i repli$1 8t !re are prie/s ar\nd ! ,bi%op ( ,montreal1 cruel & vile en\gh to =ge calumnies aga9/ me1 & spread !m be=e ! c\ntry 9 su* a way t ,i %all be unable to refute !m40 8,x is j :at ,i mean10 answ]$ ,mr4 ,brass>d4 8,m9d :at ,i tell y2 ! bi%op has made use ( y to re=m 8 diocese4 ,he likes y = t "w4 ,b y\r popul>ity is too great1 to-day1 = y\r enemies2 !y want to get rid ( y1 & no means w be too vile or crim9al to accompli% y\r de/ruction1 if !y c atta9 _! object40 8,b1 my de> ,mr4 ,brass>d1 c y give me any details ( ! plots :i* are 9 /ore aga9/ me80 ,i ask$4 8,no6 ,i _c1 = ,i "k !m n4 ,b be on y\r gu>d2 = y\r few1 b p[]ful enemies1 are jubilant4 ,!y speak ( ! absolute impot5cy to :i* y w soon be r$uc$2 if y accompli% :at !y s malici\sly & falsely call y\r trea*]\s objects40 ,i answ]$2 8,our ,savi\r has said to all ,8 disciples2 #8,9 ! _w1 ye %all h tribulations4 ,b be ( good *e]1 ,i h ov]come ! _w4' ,i am m det]m9$ ?an ev]1 to put my tru/ 9 ,god & fe> no man40 ,two h\rs aft] ?is conv]sation1 ,i receiv$ ! foll[+ f ! ,rev4 ,m4 ,p>e1 secret>y to ! ,bi%op3 ,,to ,,! ,,rev4 ,,mr4 ,,*9iquy1 ,apo/le ( ,temp]ance4 ,,my ,,de> ,,sir3--,my "l ,bi%op ( ,montreal w\ld l to see y ^u "s important bus9ess4 ,please come at y\r e>lie/ conv5i5ce4 ,y\rs truly1 ,,jos4 ,,p>e1 ,secret>y4 ,! next morn+ ,i 0 alone ) ,monseigneur ,b\rget1 :o receiv$ me v k9dly4 ,he seem$ at fir/ to h entirely bani%$ ! bad feel+s he _h %[n 9 our la/ int]view at ,quebec4 ,aft] mak+ "s fri5dly rem>ks on my cont9ual labors & success 9 ! cause ( temp]ance1 he /opp$ = a mom5t1 & seem$ emb>rass$ h[ to resume ! conv]sation4 ,at la/ he said3 8,are y n ! fa!r confessor ( ,mrs4 ,*5i]80 8,yes6 my "l4 ,i h be5 h] confessor s9ce ,i liv$ 9 ,longueuil40 8,v well1 v well10 he rejo9$1 8,i suppose t y "k t h] only *ild is a nun1 9 ! ,congregation ,conv5t40 8,yes6 my "l1 ,i "k x10 ,i repli$4 8,c\ld y n induce ,mrs ,*5i] to become a nun also80 ask$ ! bi%op4 8,i nev] ?\ght ( t1 my "l10 ,i answ]$1 8& ,i d n see :y ,i %\ld advise h] to ex*ange h] beautiful cottage1 wa%$ by ! fre% & pure wat]s ( ! ,/4 ,lawr5ce1 :]e %e looks s happy & *e]ful1 = ! gloomy walls ( ! nunn]y40 8,b %e is /ill "y & beautiful2 %e may be deceiv$ by temptation :5 %e is !re1 9 t beautiful h\se1 surr\nd$ by all ! enjoym5ts ( h] =tune10 repli$ ! bi%op4 8,i und]/& y\r lord%ip4 ,yes1 ,mrs ,*5i] has ! reputation ( be+ ri*2 ?\gh ,i "k no?+ ( h] =tune1 %e has kept well ! *>ms & fre%ness ( h] y\?4 ,h[ev]1 ,i ?9k t ! be/ rem$y aga9/ ! temptations y seem to dread s mu* = h]1 is to advise h] to m>ry4 ,a good ,*ri/ian husb& seems to me a mu* bett] rem$y aga9/ ! dang]s1 to :i* y\r lord%ip alludes1 ?an ! *e]less walls ( a nunn]y40 8,y speak j z a ,prote/ant10 rejo9$ ! bi%op1 ) an evid5t n]v\s irritation4 8,we rem>k t1 ?\gh y he> ! confessions ( a great numb] ( "y ladies1 !re is n a s+le "o ( !m :o has ev] become a nun4 ,y seem to ignore1 t ! v[ ( *a/ity is ! %orte/ way to a life ( hol9ess 9 ?is _w & happ9ess 9 ! next40 8,i am sorry to diff] f y\r lord%ip1 9 t matt]10 ,i repli$4 8,b ,i _c help x1 ! rem$y y h f\nd aga9/ s9 is q mod]n4 ,! old rem$y (f]$ by our ,god ,himself1 is v diff]5t & mu* bett]1 ,i ?9k4 8#8,x is n good t man %all rema9 alone1 ,i w make a help-mate = him1' said our ,creator 9 ! e>?ly p>adise4 #8,& to avoid =nication1 let e man h 8 wife1 & let e woman h h] husb&1' said ! same ,god1 ?r\gh ,8 apo/le ,paul4 8,i "k too well h[ ! great majority ( nuns keep _! v[s ( *a/ity1 to believe t ! mod]n rem$y aga9/ ! temptations y m5tion1 is an improvem5t on ! old "o f\nd & giv5 by our ,god60 ,i answ]$4 ,) an angry look1 ! bi%op repli$3 8,?is is ,prote/antism1 ,mr4 ,*9iquy4 ,?is is %e] ,prote/antism40 8,i respectfully ask y\r p>don = diff]+ f y\r lord%ip4 ,?is is n ,prote/antism4 ,x is simply & absolutely ! #8pure ^w ( ,god4' ,b1 my "l1 ,god kn[s t x is my s9c]e desire1 z x is my int]e/ & my duty1 to d all 9 my p[] to des]ve y\r e/eem4 ,i d n want to vex nor disobey y4 ,please give me a good reason :y ,i %\ld advise ,mrs4 ,*5i] to ent] a mona/]y1 & ,i w comply ) y\r reque/ ! v fir/ "t %e comes to confess40 ,resum+ 8 mo/ amiable mann]1 ! bi%op answ]$ me3 8,my fir/ reason is1 ! spiritual good :i* %e w\ld receive f h] v[s ( p]petual *a/ity & pov]ty 9 nunn]y4 ,! second reason is1 t ! lady is ri*2 & we are 9 ne$ ( money4 ,we w\ld soon possess h] :ole =tune2 = h] only *ild is already 9 ! ,congregation ,conv5t40 8,my de> bi%op10 ,i repli$1 8y already "k :at ,i ?9k ( y\r fir/ reason4 ,aft] hav+ inve/igat$ t fact1 n 9 ! ,prote/ant books1 b f ! lips ( ! nuns !mselves1 z well z f _! fa!r confessors1 ,i am fully conv9c$ t ! real virtue ( purity is mu* bett] kept 9 ! homes ( our ,*ri/ian mo!rs1 m>ri$ si/]s1 & female fri5ds1 ?an 9 ! secret rooms1 n to say prisons1 :]e ! poor nuns are en*a9$ by ! heavy fett]s assum$ by _! v[s1 :i* ! great majority curse :5 !y _c break !m4 8,& = ! second reason1 y\r lord%ip gives me to induce ,mrs4 ,*5i] becom+ a nun1 ,i am aga9 sorry to say1 t ,i _c consci5ti\sly accept x4 ,i h n consecrat$ myself to ! prie/hood to deprive respectable families ( _! legal inh]itance 9 ord] to enri* myself1 or anybody else4 ,i "k %e has poor relations :o ne$ h] =tune aft] h] dea?40 8,d y pret5d to say t y\r bi%op is a ?ief80 angrily rejo9$ ! bi%op4 8,no1 my "l6 ,by no means4 ,no d\bt1 f y\r high /&po9t ( view1 y\r lord%ip may see ?+s 9 a v diff]5t aspect1 f :at ,i see !m1 9 ! l[ position ,i occupy 9 ! *ur*4 ,b1 z y\r lord%ip is b\nd to foll[ ! dictates ( y\r consci5ce 9 ev]y?+1 ,i also feel oblig$ to give he$ to ! voice ( m9e40 ,?is pa9ful conv]sation _h already la/$ too long4 ,i 0 anxi\s to see ! end ( x2 = ,i c\ld easily read 9 ! face ( my sup]ior t e ^w ,i utt]$ 0 seal+ my doom4 ,i rose up to take leave ( him1 & said3 8,my "l1 ,i beg y\r p>don = disappo9t+ y\r lord%ip40 ,he coldly answ]$ me3 8,x is n ! fir/ "t1 ?\gh ,i w\ld x 7 ! la/1 t y %[ su* a want ( respect & submission to ! w ( y\r sup]iors4 ,b1 z ,i feel x is a consci5ti\s affair on y\r "p1 ,i h no ill-w aga9/ y1 & ,i am happy to tell y t ,i ent]ta9 = y all my pa/ e/eem4 ,! only favor ,i ask f y1 j n[1 is t ?is conv]sation may be kept secret40 ,i answ]$3 8,x is /ill m to my int]e/ ?an y\rs to keep ?is un=tunate affair a secret betwe5 u4 ,i hope t nei!r y\r lord%ip1 nor ! ,great ,god1 :o alone has he>d u1 w ev] make x an imp]i\s duty = me to m5tion x40 8,:at good news d y br+ me f ! bi%op's palace80 ask$ my v5]able fri5d1 ,mr4 ,brass>d1 :5 ,i return$1 late 9 ! aft]noon4 8,i w\ld h v spicy1 ?\gh unpalatable news to give y1 _h n ! bi%op ask$ me to keep :at has be5 said betwe5 u a secret40 ,mr4 ,brass>d laugh$ outright1 at my answ]1 & repli$3 8,a secret6 a secret6 ,ah6 b x is a gazette secret2 = ! bi%op has bo!r$ me1 z well z _m o!rs1 ) t matt]1 frequ5tly1 s9ce y\r return f ,ill9ois4 ,sev]al times he has ask$ u to p]suade y to advise y\r devot$ p5it5t1 ,mrs4 ,*5i]1 to become a nun4 ,i knew he invit$ y to 8 palace1 ye/]day1 = t object40 8,! eyes & ! he>t ( our poor bi%op10 cont9u$ ,mr4 ,brass>d1 8are too firmly fix$ on ! =tune ( t lady4 ,h5ce1 8 zeal ab\t ! salvation ( h] s\l1 ?r\gh ! mona/ic life4 ,9 va9 ,i tri$ to dissuade ! bi%op f speak+ to y on t subject1 on acc\nt ( y\r prejudices aga9/ our good nuns4 ,he w\ld n li/5 to me4 ,no d\bt y h realiz$ my wor/ anticipations2 y h1 ) y\r usual /ubbornness1 refus$ to yield to 8 dem&s4 ,i fe> y h add$ to 8 bad feel+s1 & consummat$ y\r disgrace40 8,:at a deceitful man t bi%op is10 ,i answ]$ indignantly4 8,he has giv5 me to und]/& t ?is 0 a mo/ sacr$ secret betwe5 him & me2 :5 ,i see1 by :at y say1 t x is no?+ else ?an a f>cical secret1 kn[n by ! hundr$s :o h he>d ( x4 8,b please1 my de> ,mr4 ,brass>d1 tell me1 is x n a burn+ %ame t our nunn]ies are *ang$ into real traps1 to /eal *eat & ru9 s _m unsuspect+ families8 ,i h no words to express my disgu/ & indignation1 :5 ,i see t all ^? great demon/rations & eloqu5t tirades ab\t ! p]fection & hol9ess ( ! nuns1 on ! "p ( our spiritual rul]s1 are no?+ else1 9 reality1 ?an a veil to conceal _! /eal+ op]ations4 ,d y n feel t ^? poor nuns are ! victims ( ! mo/ /up5d\s sy/em ( sw9dl+ ! _w has ev] se58 8,i "k t !re are "s honorable exceptions4 ,= in/ance1 ! nunn]y y h f\nd$ "h1 is an exception4 ,y h n built x to enri* y\rself1 z y h sp5t y\r la/ c5t 9 its erection4 ,b y & ,i are only simpletons1 :o h1 till n[1 ignor$ ! t]rible secrets :i* put t ma*9e ( ! nunn]ies & monk]ies 9 motion4 ,i am m ?an ev] disgu/$ & t]rifi$1 n only by ! unspeakable corruptions1 b also by ! /up5d\s sy/em ( sw9dl+ :i* is _! f\ndation /one4 ,if ! cities ( ,quebec & ,montreal c\ld "k :at ,i "k ( ! incalculable sums ( money secretly /ol5 ?r\gh ! confessional to aid our bi%ops 9 build+ ! fam\s ca!drals & spl5did palaces1 or to cov] !mselves ) robes ( silk1 sat91 silv] & gold2 to live m luxuri\s ?an ! ,pa%as ( ,turkey1 !y w\ld set fire to all ^? palatial build+s2 !y w\ld hang ! confessors :o h ?r[n ! poor nuns into ^! dungeons1 "u ! pretext ( sav+ _! s\ls1 :5 ! real motive 0 to lay h&s on _! inh]itance & raise _! colossal =tunes4 ,! bi%op has op5$ be=e me a mo/ deplorable & %ameful page ( ! hi/ory ( our *ur*4 ,x makes me und]/& _m facts :i* 7 a my/]y to me till to-day4 ,n[ ,i und]/& ! t]rible wra? ( ! ,engli% p 9 ! days ( old1 & ( ! ,fr5* p m rec5tly1 :5 !y s viol5tly wr5*$ f ! h&s ( ! cl]gy ! enorm\s weal? !y _h accumulat$ dur+ ! d>k ages4 ,i h condemn$ ^? great nations till n[4 ,b1 to-day1 ,i absolve !m4 ,i am sure t ^? m51 ?\gh bl9d & cruel 9 _! v5geance1 7 ! m9i/]s ( ! ju/ice ( ,god4 ,! ,god ( heav5 c\ld n1 =ev]1 tol]ate a sacrilegi\s sy/em ( sw9dl+1 z ,i "k1 n[1 to be 9 op]ation f "o end to ! o!r1 n only ( ,canada1 b ( ! :ole _w1 "u ! mask ( religion4 ,i "k t ! bi%op & 8 flatt]]s w hate & p]secute me = my /]n opposition to 8 rapacity4 ,b ,i d feel happy & pr\d ( 8 hatr$4 ,! ,god ( tru? & ju/ice1 ! ,god ( ! gospel1 w be on my side1 :5 !y attack me4 ,i d n fe> !m2 let !m come4 ,t bi%op surely did n "k me1 :5 he ?\ght t ,i w\ld cons5t to be ! in/rum5t ( 8 hypocrisy1 & t1 "u ! false pretext ( a delusive p]fection1 ,i w\ld ?r[ t lady into a dungeon = h] life1 t he might become ri* ) h] inh]itance40 ,mr4 ,brass>d answ]$ me3 8,i _c blame y = y\r disobey+ ! bi%op1 9 ?is in/ance4 ,i =etold him :at has occurr$2 = ,i knew :at y ?9k ( ! nuns4 ,?\gh ,i d n g z f> z y 9 t1 ,i _c absolutely %ut my eyes to ! facts :i* />e u 9 ! face4 ,^? monki% communities h1 9 e age1 be5 ! pr9cipal cause ( ! calamities :i* h befall5 ! *ur*4 ,= _! love ( ri*es1 _! pride & laz9ess1 ) _! o!r sc&als1 h always be5 ! same4 8,_h ,i be5 able to =esee :at has occurr$ inside ! walls ( ! nunn]y ,i built up "h1 ,i nev] w\ld h erect$ x4 ,h[ev]1 n[ t ,i h built x1 x is ! *ild ( my old age2 ,i feel b\nd to support x to ! end4 ,?is does n prev5t me f be+ afflict$ :5 ,i see ! facility ) :i* our poor nuns yield to ! crim9al desires ( _! too weak confessors4 ,:o c\ld h ?\ght1 = in/ance1 t t lean & ugly sup]ior ( ! oblates1 ,fa!r ,all>d1 c\ld h fall5 9 love ) 8 "y nuns1 & t s _m w\ld h lo/ _! he>ts on 8 acc\nt4 ,h y he>d h[ ! "y m5 ( our village1 indignant at 8 sp5d+ ! great] "p ( ! night ) ! nuns1 h :ipp$ him1 :5 he 0 cross+ ! bridge1 n long be=e 8 leav+ ,longueuil = ,africa8 ,x is evid5t t our bi%op multiplies too fa/ ^? religi\s h\ses4 8,my fe> is t !y w1 soon] ?an we expect1 br+ ^u our ,*ur* ( ,canada ! same cataclysms :i* h s (t5 desolat$ h] 9 ,engl&1 ,france1 ,g]many & ev5 9 ,italy40 ,! clock /ruck twelve j :5 ?is la/ s5t5ce fell f ! lips ( ,mr4 ,brass>d4 ,x 0 q "t to take "s re/4 ,:5 leav+ me = 8 sleep+ room1 he said3 8,my de> ,*9iquy1 gird y\r lo9s well1 %>p5 y\r sword = ! imp5d+ conflict4 ,my fe> is t ! bi%op & 8 advis]s w nev] =get y\r wr5*+ f _! h&s ! booty !y 7 covet+ s long4 8,!y w nev] =give ! _s ( indep5d5ce ) :i* y h rebuk$ !m4 8,9 fact1 ! conflict is already begun2 may ,god protect y aga9/ ! op5 bl[s1 & ! secret ma*9ations !y h 9 /ore = y40 ,i answ]$ him3 8,i d n fe> !m4 ,i put my tru/ 9 ,god4 ,x is = ,8 honor ,i am fight+ & suff]+4 ,he w surely protect me f ^? sacrilegi\s trad]s 9 s\ls40 ,,*apt] ,,xlix4 ,,! ,,plot ,,to ,,de/roy ,,me--,,! ,,int]dict--,,! ,,retreat ,,at ,,! ,,jesuits' ,,college--,,! ,,lo/ ,,girl1 ,,employ$ ,,by ,,! ,,bi%op1 ,,retracts--,,! ,,bi%op ,,conf\nd$1 ,,sees ,,8 ,,inju/ice1 ,,makes ,,am5ds--,,te/imonial ,,lett]s--,,! ,,*alice--,,! ,,b5$iction ,,be=e ,i ,,leave ,,canada4 ,! fir/ week ( ,septemb]1 #ahea1 ,i 0 he>+ confessions 9 "o ( ! *ur*es ( ,montreal1 :5 a f9e-look+ girl came to confess s9s1 ^: depravity surpass$ any?+ ,i _h ev] he>d4 ,?\gh ,i =bade h] twice to d x1 %e gave me ! names ( sev]al prie/s :o 7 ! accomplices ( h] orgies4 ,! details ( h] iniquities 7 told ) su* cynical impud5ce t ! idea /ruck me1 at once1 t %e 0 s5t by "s "o to ru9 me4 ,i abruptly /opp$ h] disgu/+ /ories by say+3 8,! way y confess y\r s9s1 is a sure indication t y d n come "h to reconcile y\rself to ,god1 b to ru9 me4 ,by ! grace ( ,god1 y w fail4 ,i =bid y to come any m to my confessional4 ,if ,i see y aga9 among my p5it5ts1 ,i w ord] ! beadle to turn y out ( ! *ur*40 ,i in/antly %ut ! door ( ! small ap]ture ?r\gh :i* %e 0 speak+ to me4 ,%e answ]$ some?+ :i* ,i c\ld n und]/&4 ,b ! tone ( h] voice1 ! %ak+ ( h] h&s & head1 ) h] mann] ( walk+1 :5 %e left ! confessional1 indicat$ t %e 0 beside h]self ) rage1 z %e w5t to speak a few words to a c>t] :o 0 9 ! *ur* prep>+ himself to confess4 ,! next ev5+1 ,i said to ,rev4 ,mr4 ,brass>d t ,i suspect$ t a girl 0 s5t to my confessional to ru9 me4 ,he answ]$3 8,did ,i n w>n y sometime ago t !re 0 a plot to de/roy y8 ,i h n ! lea/ d\bt b t t girl 0 hir$ to beg9 t diabolical "w4 ,y h no idea ( my anxiety ab\t y4 ,= ,i "k y\r enemies w n %r9k f any iniquity to de/roy y\r good "n1 & prev5t y f direct+ ! tide ( emigration f ,canada to ! valley ( ! ,mississippi40 ,i repli$ 8t ,i c\ld n p>take ( 8 fe>s2 t ,god knew my innoc5ce & ! purity ( my motives2 ,he w\ld def5d & protect me40 8,my de> ,*9iquy10 repli$ ,mr4 ,brass>d1 8,i "k y\r enemies4 ,!y are n num]\s1 b !y are implacable1 & _! p[] = mis*ief kn[s no limits4 ,surely1 ,god c save y f _! h&s2 b ,i _c %>e y\r security = ! future4 ,y\r answ] to ! bi%op1 9 ref]5ce to ,mrs4 ,*5i]1 :5 y refus$ to s5d h] to ! nunn]y1 t he might inh]it h] =tune1 has1 =ev]1 ali5at$ him f y4 ,bi%op ,b\rget has ! m]it$ reputation ( be+ ! mo/ rev5geful man 9 ,canada4 ,he w avail himself ( ! lea/ opportunity to /rike y )\t m]cy40 ,i answ]$3 8,?\gh !re %\ld be a ?\s& ,bi%ops ,b\rget to plot aga9/ me1 ,i w n fe> !m1 s long z ,i am 9 ! "r1 z ,i am to-day40 ,z ! clock /ruck twelve1 ,i bade him good night1 & t5 m9utes lat] ,i 0 s\nd asleep4 ,! foll[+ days ,i w5t to deliv] a c\rse ( lectures on temp]ance to sev]al p>i%es s\? ( ,laprairie1 till ! #bh? ( ,septemb]1 aft] :i* ,i came back f ,/4 ,con/ant to re/1 = a few days1 & prep>e to />t = ,*icago4 ,on my arrival1 ,i f\nd on my table a %ort lett] f ,bi%op ,b\rget1 tell+ me t1 = a crim9al action1 :i* he did n want to m5tion1 committ$ ) a p]son he w\ld n "n1 he _h )drawn all my prie/ly p[]s & int]dict$ me4 ,i h&$ ! lett] to ,mr4 ,brass>d & said3 8,is n ?is ! fulfillm5t ( y\r prophecies8 ,:at d y ?9k ( a bi%op :o int]dicts a prie/ )\t giv+ him a s+le fact1 & )\t ev5 all[+ him to "k 8 accus]s80 8,x is j :at ,i expect$ f ! implacable v5geance ( ! ,bi%op ( ,montreal4 ,he w nev] give y ! reasons ( y\r int]dict1 = he kn[s well y are innoc5t1 & he w nev] confront y ) y\r accus]s2 = x w\ld be too easy = y to conf\nd !m40 8,b is n ?is aga9/ all ! laws ( ,god & man8 ,is x n aga9/ ! laws ( ! *ur*80 ,i repli$4 8,( c\rse x is10 he answ]$2 8b d y n "k t1 on ?is cont95t ( ,am]ica1 ! bi%ops h1 long ago1 ?r[n ov]bo>d all ! laws ( ,god & man1 & all ! laws ( ! *ur*1 to rule & enslave ! prie/s80 ,i repli$3 8,if x be s1 are n ,prote/ants correct :5 !y say t our *ur* has reject$ ! ,^w ( ,god1 to foll[ ! traditions ( man8 ,:at c we answ] !m :5 !y tell u t our *ur* has no "r to be call$ ! ,*ur* ( ,god8 ,w\ld ! ,son ( ,god h giv5 up 8 life on ! cross to save m51 t !y might be ! prop]ty ( a few lawless tyrants1 :o %\ld h ! "r to take away _! honor & life80 8,i am n ready to answ] ^? puzzl+ que/ions10 he answ]$1 8b ?is is ! fact4 ,?\gh x is absolutely aga9/ all ! laws ( ! *ur* to condemn a prie/ )\t %[+ him 8 guilt1 & confront+ him ) 8 accus]s1 our mod]n bi%ops1 e week1 condemn "s ( _! prie/s )\t specify+ any fact1 or ev5 giv+ !m ! names ( _! accus]s40 8,m9d :at ,i tell y10 ,i repli$4 8,i w n all[ ! bi%op to deal ) me 9 t way4 ,if he d>es to trample ! laws ( ! gospel "u 8 feet to accompli% my ru91 & satisfy 8 v5geance1 ,i w tea* him a lesson t he w nev] =get4 ,?anks be to ,god1 x is n ! gory cross ( ! bloody ,inquisition1 b ! emblem ( ! ,briti% ,lion :i* ,i see !re float+ on ! t[]1 to protect our honor & life 9 ,canada4 ,i am innoc5t2 ,god kn[s x4 ,my tru/ is 9 ,him2 ,he w n =sake me4 ,i w g imm$iately to ! bi%op4 ,if he nev] knew :at p[] !re is 9 an hone/ prie/1 he w le>n x to-day40 ,two h\rs lat]1 ,i 0 knock+ at ! bi%op's door4 ,he receiv$ me ) icy polit5ess4 8,my "l10 ,i said1 8y already "k :y ,i am 9 y\r pres5ce4 ,"h is a lett] f y1 accus+ me ( a crime :i* is n specifi$1 "u ! te/imony ( accus]s :om y refuse to "n6 ,& be=e he>+ me1 & confront+ me ) my accus]s1 y puni% me z guilty6 ,y n only take away my honor1 ) t unju/ s5t5ce1 b my life6 ,i come 9 ! "n ( ,god1 & ( ,8 ,son1 ,jesus ,*ri/1 to respectfully ask y to tell me ! crime ( :i* ,i am accus$1 t ,i may %[ y my innoc5ce4 ,i want to be confront$ ) my accus]s1 t ,i may conf\nd !m40 ,! bi%op 01 at fir/1 evid5tly emb>rass$ by my pres5ce2 8 lips 7 pale & trembl+1 b 8 eyes 7 dry & r$1 l ! tig]'s eyes 9 ! pres5ce ( 8 prey4 ,he answ]$3 8,i _c grant y\r reque/1 sir40 ,op5+1 !n1 my ,new ,te/am5t1 ,i read3 8,receive no accusation aga9/ a prie/1 except "u two or ?ree witnesses0 7#a/ ,tim4 v3 #ai74 ,i add$3 8,x 0 aft] ,i _h he>d ?is voice ( ,god1 & ( ,8 holy *ur*1 t ,i cons5t$ to be a prie/4 ,i hope x is n ! int5tion ( y\r lord%ip to put aside ?is ,^w ( ,god & ( ,8 *ur*4 ,x is n y\r int5tion to break t solemn cov5ant made by ,*ri/1 ) ,8 prie/s1 & seal$ ) ,8 blood80 ,) an air ( contempt & tyrannical au?ority1 :i* ,i _h nev] suspect$ to be possible 9 a bi%op1 he answ]$3 8,i h no lesson ( ,scripture or canonical law to receive f y1 sir1 & no answ] to give to y\r imp]t95t que/ions4 ,y are int]dict$6 ,i h no?+ to d ) y40 ,^! words1 utt]$ by ! man :om ,i 0 accu/om$ to consid] z my sup]ior1 _h a /range effect ^u me4 ,i felt z if awak5+ f a long & pa9ful dream4 ,= ! fir/ "t1 ,i und]/ood ! sad prophecies ( ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,brass>d1 & ,i realiz$ ! horror ( my position4 ,my ru9 0 accompli%$4 ,?\gh ,i knew t t high dignit>y 0 a mon/] ( hypocrisy1 inju/ice & tyranny1 he _h1 among ! masses1 ! reputation ( a sa9t4 ,8 unju/ s5t5ce w\ld be consid]$ z j & equitable by ! multitude ov] :om he 0 reign+ supremely4 ,at a nod ( 8 head1 ! p w\ld fall at 8 feet & obey 8 comm&s to cru% me4 ,all e>s w\ld be %ut1 & all he>ts h>d5$ aga9/ me4 ,9 t fatal h\r1 = ! fir/ "t 9 my life1 my moral /r5g? & c\rage fail$ me4 ,i felt z if ,i _h j fall5 into a bottomless abyss1 out ( :i* x 0 impossible to escape4 ,:at w\ld my innoc5ce1 kn[n only to ,god1 avail me1 :5 ! :ole _w w\ld believe me guilty8 ,no words c give an idea ( ! m5tal torture ( t horrible h\r4 ,= m ?an a qu>t] ( an h\r n a ^w 0 ex*ang$ betwe5 ! bi%op & me4 ,he seem$ v busy writ+ lett]s1 :ile ,i 0 re/+ my head betwe5 my h&s1 & %$d+ torr5ts ( te>s4 ,at la/1 ,i fell on my knees1 took ! h&s ( ! bi%op 9 m9e1 &1 ) a voice half *ok$ ) sighs1 ,i said3 8,my "l1 9 ! "n ( our ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/1 & 9 ! pres5ce ( ,god1 ,i swe> t ,i h done no?+ :i* c\ld br+ su* a s5t5ce aga9/ me4 ,i aga9 implore y\r lord%ip to confront me ) my accus]s1 t ,i may %[ y my innoc5ce40 ,) a savage insol5ce1 ! bi%op )drew 8 h&s1 z if ,i _h contam9at$ !m1 & said1 aft] ris+ f 8 *air3 8,y are guilty2 g out ( my pres5ce40 ,a ?\s& times s9ce1 ,i h ?ank$ my ,god t ,i _h no dagg] ) me1 = ,i w\ld h plung$ x into 8 he>t4 ,b1 /range to say1 ! diabolical malice & di%one/y ( t deprav$ man1 sudd5ly br\ght back my =m] self-respect & c\rage4 ,i at once took ! /]n resolution to face ! /orm4 ,i felt1 9 my s\l1 t giant /r5g? :i*1 (t51 ,god ,himself implants 9 ! brea/ ( ! oppress$ :5 he is 9 ! pres5ce ( 8 m]ciless tyrants4 ,x seem$ t a fla% ( lightn+ _h pass$ ?r\gh my s\l1 aft] hav+ writt5 9 lett]s ( fire on ! walls ( ! palace3 8,my/]y ( iniquity40 ,rely+ entirely on ! ,god ( tru? & ju/ice1 :o knew my innoc5ce & ! great p]v]sity ( my oppressor1 ,i left ! room1 )\t say+ a ^w1 & ha/5$ back to ,longueuil1 to acqua9t ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,brass>d ) my firm resolution to fight ! bi%op to ! end4 ,he bur/ into te>s :5 ,i told him :at _h occurr$ 9 ! bi%op's palace4 8,?\gh innoc5t1 y are condemn$10 he said4 8,! infallible pro( ( y\r innoc5ce1 is ! cruel refusal ( all[+ y to be confront$ ) y\r accus]s4 ,7 y guilty1 !y w\ld be too glad to %[ x1 by conf\nd+ y be=e ^? witnesses4 ,b ! p]v]sity ( y\r accus]s is s well kn[n t !y are a%am$ ( giv+ _! names4 ,! bi%op pref]s to cru% y "u ! weight ( 8 unm]it$ reputation = ju/ice & hol9ess2 = v few "k him z we d4 ,my fe> is t he w succe$ 9 de/roy+ y4 ,?\gh innoc5t1 y are condemn$ & lo/4 ,y w nev] be able to cont5d aga9/ su* a mighty adv]s>y40 8,my de> ,mr4 ,brass>d1 y are mi/ak510 ,i repli$4 8,i nev] 0 s sure ( com+ out victori\s f a conflict z to-day4 ,! mon/r\s iniquity ( ! bi%op c>ries its antidote ) itself4 ,x 0 n a dream ,i saw :5 he s ignom9i\sly turn$ me out ( 8 room4 ,a fla% ( lightn+ pass$ be=e my eyes & wrote1 z if on ! walls ( ! palace1 #8,my/]y ( iniquity6' ,:5 ,canada1 ! :ole ( ,*ri/5dom1 %all "k ! infam\s conduct ( t dignit>y2 :5 !y %all see ! #8my/]y ( iniquity1' :i* ,i %all /amp ^u 8 =ehead1 !re w be only "o cry ( indignation aga9/ him6 ,oh6 if ,i c only f9d out ! names ( my accus]s6 ,h[ ,i w =ce t mighty tyrant to )draw t s5t5ce1 at d\ble quick4 ,i am det]m9$ to %[1 n only to ,canada1 b to ! :ole _w1 t ?is infam\s plot is b ! "w ( ! vile male & female slaves by :om ! bi%op is surr\nd$4 8,my fir/ ?\ght 0 to />t imm$iately = ,*icago :]e ,bi%op ,v&eveld expect$ me4 8,b ,i am resolv$ n to g until ,i h =c$ my m]ciless oppressor to )draw 8 unju/ s5t5ce4 ,i w1 imm$iately1 g to ! ,jesuit ,college1 :]e ,i propose sp5d+ ! next eight days 9 pray] & retreat4 8,! ,jesuits are ! able/ m5 "u heav5 to detect ! mo/ hidd5 ?+s4 ,i hope !y w help me to une>? t d>k my/]y ( iniquity1 & expose x to ! _w40 8,i am glad to see t y d n fe> ! t]rible /orm :i* is ^u y1 & t y\r sails are s well trimm$10 answ]$ ,mr4 ,brass>d4 8,y d well 9 putt+ y\r tru/ 9 ,god1 fir/1 & 9 ! ,jesuits aft]w>ds4 ,! fe>less way 9 :i* y int5d to meet ! attacks ( y\r m]ciless enemies1 w give y an easy victory4 ,my hope is t ! ,jesuits w help y to f9d out ! names ( y\r false accus]s1 & t y w make use ( !m to hurl back 9 ! face ( ! bi%op ! %ame & di%onor he _h prep>$ = y40 ,at six ,p4 ,m41 9 a mode/1 well-light$ & v5tilat$ room ( ! ,jesuit ,college1 ,i 0 alone ) ! v5]able ,mr4 ,s*neid]1 its director4 ,i told him h[ ! ,bi%op ( ,montreal1 f\r ye>s be=e1 aft] giv+ up 8 prejudices aga9/ me1 :5 ,i _h left ! oblate1 _h e>ne/ly support$ me 9 my labors4 ,i acqua9t$ him also ) ! sudd5 *ange ( ^? good feel+s into ! mo/ uncontrollable hatr$1 f ! day ,i _h refus$ to =ce ,mrs4 ,*5i] to become a nun1 t he might secure h] =tune4 ,i told him also h[ ^? bad feel+s _h f\nd new food 9 my plan ( consecrat+ ! re/ ( my life to direct ! tide ( ! ,fr5* ,ca?olic emigration t[>ds ! ,mississippi valley4 ,i expos$ to him my suspicions ab\t t mis]able girl ,i _h turn$ out f my confessional4 8,i h a d\ble object 9 view10 ,i add$3 8,! fir/1 is to sp5d ! la/ eight days ( my resid5ce 9 ,canada 9 pray]4 ,b my second is1 to ask ! help ( y\r *>ity1 wisdom & exp]i5ce 9 =c+ ! bi%op to )draw 8 unju/ s5t5ce aga9/ me4 ,i am det]m9$1 if he does n )draw x1 to d5\nce him be=e ! :ole c\ntry1 & to *all5ge him1 publicly1 to confront me ) my accus]s40 8,if y d t10 answ]$ ,mr4 ,s*neid]1 8,i fe> le/ y n only d an irrep>able damage to ! ,bi%op ( ,montreal1 b to our holy *ur* also40 ,i repli$3 8,our holy *ur* w\ld inde$ suff] an irrep>able damage1 if %e sanction$ ! infam\s conduct ( ! bi%op2 b ?is is impossible40 8,y are correct10 rejo9$ ! ,jesuit4 8,our holy *ur* _c sanction su* crim9al conduct4 ,%e has1 hundr$s ( times1 condemn$ ^? tyrannical & unju/ actions1 9 o!r bi%ops4 ,su* want ( common hone/y & ju/ice w be condemn$ ev]y:]e1 z soon z x is kn[n4 ,! fir/ ?+ we h to d1 is to f9d out ! names ( y\r accus]s4 ,i h n ! lea/ d\bt t !y are ! bl9d in/rum5ts ( ,ma*iaveli/ plots aga9/ y4 ,b ^? plots h only to be br\ght to light1 to vani% away4 ,my impression is1 t ! mis]able girl y h s abruptly & s wisely turn$ out ( y\r confessional1 kn[s m ?an ! bi%op wants u to f9d out1 ab\t ! plots4 ,x is a pity y did n ask h] "n & resid5ce4 ,at all ev5ts1 y may rely on my ef=ts to p]suade our bi%op t 8 p]sonal int]e/1 z well z ! int]e/ ( our holy religion1 is1 t he %\ld spe$ily )draw t s5t5ce1 :i* is a nullity by itself4 ,x w n be difficult = me to %[ him t he has fall5 into ! v pit he has dug "u y\r feet4 ,he has tak5 a position aga9/ y :i* is absolutely unt5able4 ,be=e y\r retreat is at an end1 no d\bt he w be too happy to make 8 peace ) y4 ,only tru/ 9 ,god1 & 9 ! bless$ ,virg9 ,m>y1 & y h no?+ to fe> f ! conflict4 ,our bi%op has put himself above all ! laws ( man & ,god1 to condemn ! prie/ he _h himself (ficially nam$3 #8! ,apo/le ( ,temp]ance ( ,canada4' ,!re is n a s+le man1 9 ! *ur*1 :o w all[ him to /& on t gr\nd4 ,! #bjj1jjj soldi]s y h enroll$ "u ! holy bann]s ( temp]ance1 w =ce him to retract 8 too ha/y & unju/ s5t5ce40 ,x w\ld be too long to repeat "h all ! enc\rag+ words :i* t wise ,jesuit utt]$4 ,fa!r ,s*neid] 0 a ,european prie/1 :o 0 9 ,montreal only s9ce #ahdi4 won my confid5ce1 ! v fir/ "t ,i met him1 & ,i _h *os5 him1 at once1 = my confessor & advis]4 ,! ?ird day ( my retreat1 ,fa!r ,s*neid] came to my room e>li] ?an usual1 & said3 8,i h work$ h>d ! la/ two days1 to f9d out ! "n & resid5ce ( ! c>t] to :om t mis]able girl spoke 9 ! *ur*1 aft] y _h turn$ h] out ( y\r confessional1 & ,i h x4 ,if y h no objection ,i w s5d = him4 ,he may "k t girl & induce h] to come "h40 8,by all means1 de> fa!r10 ,i answ]$1 8d x )\t los+ a mom5t40 ,two h\rs lat]1 ! c>t] 0 ) me4 ,i recogniz$ him z "o ( ^? de> c\ntrym5 :om our society ( temp]ance _h trans=m$ into a new man4 ,i ask$ him if he rememb]$ ! "n ( ! girl :o1 a few days be=e1 _h spok5 to him 9 ! *ur*1 aft] go+ out ( my confessional4 8,yes sir6 ,i "k h] well4 ,%e has a v bad "n1 ?\gh %e belongs to a respectable family40 ,i add$3 8,d y ?9k y c\ld induce h] to come "h1 by tell+ h] t a prie/1 9 ! ,jesuit ,college1 wants to see h]8 ,b d n give h] my "n40 ,he answ]$3 8,no?+ is m easy4 ,%e w be "h 9 a c\ple ( h\rs1 if ,i f9d h] at home40 ,at ?ree ,p4 ,m41 ! c>t] 0 aga9 knock+ at my door1 & said1 ) a l[ voice3 8,! girl y want is 9 ! p>lor2 %e has no idea y are "h1 = %e told me t y 7 n[ prea*+ 9 ,/4 ,con/ant4 ,%e seems to be v angry aga9/ y1 & bitt]ly compla9s aga9/ y\r want ( c\rtesy1 ! v fir/ "t %e w5t to confess to y40 8,is x possible t %e told y t80 ,i repli$4 8,yes sir6 ,%e told me t to expla9 h] t]rible excitem5t :5 com+ out ( y\r confessional1 ! o!r day2 %e !n reque/$ me to drive h] home4 ,%e 0 really beside h]self1 & swore t %e w\ld make y pay = y\r h>% words & rude mann] t[>ds h]4 ,y w d well to be on y\r gu>d ) h]4 ,%e is "o ( ! mo/ deprav$ girls ( ,montreal1 & has a mo/ dang]\s tongue1 ?\gh to ! %ame ( our holy religion1 %e is daily se5 9 ! bi%op's palace40 ,i imm$iately w5t to ,fa!r ,s*neid]1 & said3 8,my de> fa!r1 by ! m]cy ( ,god1 ! girl we want to see is 9 ! p>lor4 ,by :at ,i h j he>d f ! c>t] :o drove h]1 ,i h n ! lea/ d\bt b t %e is ! "o employ$ by ! bi%op to sl&] me1 & get a pretext = :at he has done4 ,please come ) me to witness my innoc5ce4 ,b1 take y\r gospel1 ink1 pap] & p5 ) y40 8,all "r10 answ]$ ! wise ,jesuit4 ,two m9utes lat] we 7 9 h] pres5ce4 ,x is impossible to describe h] dismay1 :5 %e saw me4 ,%e came ne> fa9t+4 ,i fe>$ %e %\ld n be able to utt] a ^w4 ,i spoke to h] v k9dly1 & ran to get a glass ( cold wat]1 :i* did h] good4 ,:5 %e recov]$1 ,i said to h]1 ) a tone ( mix$ au?ority & k9d firmness3 8,y are "h 9 ! pres5ce ( ,god & two ( 8 prie/s4 ,t great ,god w he> e ^w :i* w fall f y\r lips4 ,y mu/ speak ! tru?4 ,y h d5\nc$ me to ! bi%op z guilty ( "s great iniquity4 ,y are ! cause ( my be+ int]dict$4 ,y1 alone1 c repair ! injury y h done me4 ,t injury is v great2 b x c be easily repair$ by y4 ,9 ! pres5ce ( t v5]able prie/1 say :e!r or n1 ,i am guilty ( ! crime y h br\ght to my *>ge60 ,at ^! words1 ! un=tunate girl bur/ into te>s4 ,%e hid h] face 9 h] h&k]*ief1 & ) a voice half-suffocat$ ) sighs1 %e said3 8,no sir6 ,y are n guilty40 ,i add$3 8,confess ano!r ?+4 ,is x n a fact t y _h come to my confessional m ) ! int5tion ( tempt+ me to s91 ?an to reconcile y\rself to ,god80 8,yes sir60 %e add$1 8?is 0 my wick$ int5tion4 8,cont9ue to tell ! tru?1 & our great & m]ciful ,god w =give y4 ,is x n to rev5ge y\rself = my rebuk+ y1 t y h br\ght ! false accusations to ! bi%op 9 ord] t he might int]dict me80 8,yes sir6 t is ! only reason ,i _h = accus+ y40 ,aft] ,fa!r ,s*neid] _h made f\r copies ( ^? decl>ations1 sign$ by him z witness1 & aft] %e _h sworn on ! gospel1 ,i =gave h] ! injury %e _h done me1 ,i gave h] "s good advice & dismiss$ h]4 8,is x n evid5t10 ,i said to ,fa!r ,s*neid]1 8t our m]ciful ,god nev] =sakes ^? :o tru/ 9 him80 8,yes1 ,i nev] saw ! int]position ( ,god s m>vell\sly manife/$ z 9 ?is p]fect deliv]ance f ! h&s ( y\r enemies4 ,b1 please tell me :y y reque/$ me to make f\r copies ( h] sworn decl>ation ( y\r innoc5ce2 0 n "o suffici5t80 ask$ ,mr4 ,s*neid]4 ,i answ]$3 8,"o ( ^? copies 0 = ! bi%op2 ano!r w rema9 9 y\r h&s1 ,mr4 ,brass>d w h "o1 & ,i ne$ "o = myself4 ,= ! di%one/y ( ! bi%op is s evid5t to me1 n[1 t ,i ?9k him able to de/roy ! copy ,i w s5d him1 ) ! hope1 aft] its de/ruction1 ( keep+ me at 8 feet4 ,if he does t new act ( iniquity1 ,i w conf\nd him ) ! ?ree o!r au!ntic copies :i* w rema94 ,besides1 ?is un=tunate girl may die soon] ?an we expect4 ,9 t case1 ,i w\ld f9d myself aga9 ) ! bi%op's knife on my ?roat1 if ,i _h no o!r retractation to ! p]jur$ decl>ation :i* he has p]suad$ h] to give him40 8,y are "r10 repli$ ,fa!r ,s*neid]1 8n[ ! only ?+ = y to d is to s5d t retractation to ! bi%op1 ) a firm & polite reque/ to retract 8 unju/ s5t5ce aga9/ y4 ,let me d ! re/ ) him4 ,! battle is ov]4 ,x has be5 fi]ce1 b %ort4 ,h[ev]1 ?anks be to ,god1 y h a mo/ complete victory ov] y\r unju/ aggressors4 ,! bi%op w d all 9 8 p[]1 no d\bt1 to make y =get ?is d>ke/ page ( 8 life40 ,! %rewd ,jesuit 0 correct1 9 8 previsions4 ,nev] did any bi%op receive me ) s _m m>ks1 n only ) k9dness1 b ,i d>e say ( respect1 ?an ,bi%op ,b\rget1 :51 aft] my retreat1 ,i w5t to take leave ( him1 be=e my dep>ture f ,canada to ! ,unit$ ,/ates4 8,i tru/1 my "l10 ,i said1 8t1 to-day1 ,i c hope to possess ! confid5ce & fri5dly feel+s ( y\r lord%ip80 8,c]ta9ly1 my de> ,mr4 ,*9iquy1 c]ta9ly2 y possess my full confid5ce & fri5d%ip4 ,i d>e say m2 y possess my mo/ s9c]e gratitude1 = :at y h done 9 my diocese40 ,i answ]$3 8,i am mu* oblig$ to y\r lord%ip = ?is expression ( y\r k9d feel+s4 ,b1 n[1 ,i h two new favors to ask f y\r lord%ip4 ,! fir/1 is a writt5 docum5t expressive ( ^? k9d feel+s4 8,! second1 is a *alice f y\r h&s to (f] ! holy sacrifice ( mass ! re/ ( my life40 8,i w grant y\r reque/ ) ! utmo/ pleasure10 answ]$ ! bi%op2 & )\t los+ a mom5t1 he wrote ! foll[+ lett]1 :i* ,i reproduce "h1 on acc\nt ( its importance4 ,,translation4 ,,montreal4 ,,oct4 #ac,,?1 #ahea4 ,,sir3--,y reque/ me to give y p]mission to leave my diocese 9 ord] to g & (f] y\r s]vices to ! ,bi%op ( ,*icago4 ,z y /ill belong to ! ,diocese ( ,quebec1 ,i ?9k y ought to address y\rself to my "l ( ,quebec1 to get ! extract y want4 ,z = me1 ,i _c b ?ank y = :at y h done 9 our mid/2 & 9 my gratitude t[>ds y1 ,i wi% y ! mo/ abundant bless+ f heav54 ,e day ( my life1 ,i w rememb] y4 ,y w always be 9 my he>t1 & ,i hope t on "s future day1 ! provid5ce ( ,god w give me "s opportunity ( %[+ y all ! feel+s ( gratitude ,i feel t[>ds y4 ,i rema91 y\r mo/ ob$i5t s]vant1 ,,ignace4 ,bi%op ( ,montreal4 ,,rev4 ,c4 ,,*9iquy4 ,?\gh t lett] 0 a mo/ p]fect recantation ( all he _h said & done aga9/ me1 & 0 ( imm5se value to me 9 su* circum/ances1 ! bi%op add$ to its importance by ! exce$+ly k9d mann] 9 :i* he h&$ x to me4 ,z he 0 go+ into ano!r room he said3 8,i w give y ! silv] *alice y want1 to (f] ! holy sacrifice ( mass ! re/ ( y\r days40 ,b1 he came back & said3 8,my secret>y is abs5t1 & has ! key ( ! trunk :i* conta9s ^? vases40 8,x makes no diff]5ce1 my "l10 ,i repli$1 8please ord] y\r secret>y to put t *alice 9 ! h&s ( ,rev4 ,mr4 ,brass>d1 :o w =w>d x1 ) a box ( books :i* he has to s5d me to ,*icago1 next week40 ,! bi%op v k9dly promis$ to d s2 & he fulfill$ 8 promise4 ,! next day1 ! preci\s gift 0 put 9 ! h&s ( ,mr4 ,brass>d1 9 pres5ce ( sev]al prie/s4 ,x 0 s5t1 ! foll[+ week1 to ,*icago1 :]e ,i got x1 & t f9e silv] *alice is /ill 9 my possession4 ,i !n fell on my knees1 & said3 8,my "l1 ,i am j leav+ ,canada = ! ,f> ,we/1 please give me y\r b5$iction40 ,he bless$ me & press$ me to 8 he>t ) a t5d]ness ( a fa!r1 say+3 8,may ,god ,almighty bless y1 :]ev] y g & 9 ev]y?+ y d1 till ! end ( y\r life40 ,,*apt] ,l4 ,,address ,,pres5t$ ,,me ,,at ,,longueuil--,i ,,arrive ,,at ,,*icago--,i ,,select ,,! ,,spot ,,= ,,my ,,colony--,i ,,build ,,! ,,fir/ ,,*apel--,,jeal\sy ,,& ,,opposition ,,( ,,! ,,prie/s ,,( ,,b\rbonnais ,,& ,,*icago--,,great ,,success ,,( ,,! ,,colony4 ,?\gh ,i _h kept my dep>ture f ,canada z secret z possible1 x _h be5 suspect$1 by _m2 & ,mr4 ,brass>d1 unable to resi/ ! desire t 8 p %\ld give me ! expression ( _! k9d feel+s1 _h let ! secret slip f 8 lips1 two days be=e ,i left4 ,i 0 n a little surpris$1 a few h\rs be=e my tak+ leave ( him1 to see 8 :ole p>i% ga!r$ at ! door ( 8 p>sonage1 to pres5t me ! foll[+ address4 ,,to ,,! ,,rev4 ,,fa!r ,,*9iquy4 ,,v5]able ,,sir3--,x is only ?ree ye>s s9ce we pres5t$ y y\r portrait1 n only z an expression ( our gratitude = y\r labors & success 9 ! cause ( temp]ance 9 our mid/1 b also z a memorial1 :i* w\ld tell our gr&*ildr5 ! good y h done to our c\ntry4 ,we 71 !n1 f> f ?9k+ t we 7 s ne> ! day :5 we w\ld h ! sorr[ to see y sep>at+ y\rself f u4 ,y\r un=ese5 exit f ,canada fills u ) a regret & sadness1 :i* is increas$ by ! fe> we h1 t ! re=m y h />t$1 & s glori\sly e/abli%$ ev]y:]e1 w suff] f y\r abs5ce4 ,may our m]ciful ,god grant t y\r fai?ful co-labor]s may cont9ue x1 & walk 9 y\r foot/eps4 ,:ile we submit to ! decrees ( provid5ce1 we promise t we w nev] =get ! great ?+s y h done = ! prosp]ity ( our c\ntry4 ,y\r lik5ess1 :i* is 9 e ,canadian family1 w tell to ! future g5]ations1 :at ,fa!r ,*9iquy has done = ,canada4 ,we console ourselves by ! assurance t1 :]ev] y g1 y w raise ! glori\s bann]s ( temp]ance among ^? ( our c\ntrym5 :o are scatt]$ 9 ! l& ( exile4 ,may ^? bre?r5 put on y\r =ehead1 ! cr[n ( immortality1 :i* y h s well des]v$ = y\r noble "w 9 our mid/4 ,sign$ ,l4 ,m4 ,,brass>d1 ,prie/ & ,curate4 ,h4 ,,hicks1 ,vic>4 ,,& #cjj ,,o!rs4 ,i ,,answ]$3 ,,g5tlem53--,i ?ank y = ! honor y d me by y\r address4 ,b all[ me to tell y1 t ! m ,i look ^u ! incalculable good result+ f ! ,temp]ance ,re=m ,i h e/abli%$1 ne>ly f "o end ( ,canada to ! o!r1 ! m ,i w\ld deceive myself1 7 ,i to attribute to myself ! :ole m]it ( t bless$ "w4 ,if our ,god has *os5 me1 8 s feeble s]vant1 z ! in/rum5t ( 8 inf9ite m]cies t[>ds our de> c\ntry2 x is because he want$ u to und]/& t ,he alone c\ld make ! m>vell\s *ange we see ev]y:]e1 & t we %all give all ! glory to ,him4 ,x is m to ! f]v5t pray]s1 & to ! good examples ( our v5]able bi%ops & curates1 ?an to my feeble ef=ts1 t we owe ! triumph ( temp]ance 9 ,canada2 & x is my firm conviction t t holy cause w lose no?+ by my abs5ce4 ,our m]ciful ,god has call$ me to ano!r field4 ,i h he>d 8 voice4 ,?\gh x is a great sacrifice = me to leave my own belov$ c\ntry1 ,i mu/ g to "w 9 ! mid/ ( a new p1 9 ! di/ant l&s ( ,ill9ois4 ,f _m p>ts ( ,europe & ,canada1 multitudes are ru%+ t[>ds ! we/]n t]ritories ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 to secure to _! families1 ! incalculable treasures :i* ! good provid5ce ( ,god has scatt]$ ov] ^? broad prairies4 ,^? emigrants are 9 ne$ ( prie/s4 ,!y are l ^? little ones ( :om ,god speaks 9 8 ,^w1 :o want$ bread & _h nobody to give !m any3 8,i h he>d _! cries1 ,i h se5 _! wants40 ,& 9 spite ( ! great sacrifice ,i am call$ ^u to make1 ,i mu/ bless ! ,good ,ma/]1 :o calls me to "w 9 t v9ey>d1 plant$ by 8 own h&s1 9 ^? di/ant l&s4 ,if any?+ c dim9i% ! sadness ( my feel+s1 :5 ,i bid adieu to my c\ntrym51 x is ! assurance giv5 me by ! noble p ( ,longueuil1 t ,i h 9 ,canada _m fri5ds ^: f]v5t pray]s w con/antly asc5d to ! ?rone ( grace1 to br+ ! b5$ictions ( heav5 ^u me1 :]ev] ,i g4 ,c4 ,,*9iquy4 ,i arriv$ at ,*icago on ! #bi? ( ,octob]1 #ahea1 & sp5t six days ) ,bi%op ,v&eveld1 9 matur+ ! plans ( our ,ca?olic colonization4 ,he gave me ! wise/ advice ) ! mo/ ext5sive p[]s :i* a bi%op c give a prie/1 & urg$ me to beg91 at once1 ! "w1 by select+ ! mo/ suitable spot = su* an important & va/ prospect4 ,my he>t 0 fill$ ) uncontrollable emotions :5 ! h\r came to leave my sup]ior & g to ! conque/ ( ! magnific5t ,/ate ( ,ill9ois1 = ! b5efit ( my *ur*4 ,i fell at 8 knees to ask 8 b5$iction1 & reque/$ him nev] to =get me 9 8 pray]s4 ,he 0 n less affect$ ?an ,i 01 & press+ me to 8 bosom1 ba!d my face ) 8 te>s1 & bless$ me4 ,x took me ?ree days to cross ! prairies f ,*icago to ,b\rbonnais4 ,^? prairies 7 !n a va/ solitude1 ) almo/ impassable roads4 ,at ! invitation ( _! prie/1 ,mr4 ,c\rjeault1 sev]al p _h come long di/ances to receive & ov]:elm me ) ! public expressions ( _! joy & respect4 ,aft] a few days ( re/1 9 ! mid/ ( _! int]e/+ "y colony1 ,i expla9$ to ,mr4 ,c\rjeault t1 hav+ be5 s5t by ! bi%op to f\nd a settlem5t ( ,roman ,ca?olic emigrants1 on a suffici5tly gr& scale to rule ! gov]nm5t ( ,ill9ois1 x 0 my duty to g fur!r s\?1 9 ord] to f9d ! mo/ suitable place = ! fir/ village ,i int5d$ to raise4 ,b to my unspeakable regret1 ,i saw t my proposition fill$ ! he>t ( t un=tunate prie/ ) ! mo/ bitt] feel+s ( jeal\sy & hatr$4 ,x _h be5 j ! same ?+ ) ,rev4 ,mr4 ,lebel1 at ,*icago4 ,! v mom5t ,i told him ! object ( my com+ to ,ill9ois1 ,i felt ! same _s ( jeal\sy _h turn$ him into an implacable enemy4 ,i _h expect$ v diff]5t ?+s f ^? two prie/s1 = :om ,i _h ent]ta9$1 till !n1 mo/ s9c]e s5tim5ts ( e/eem4 ,s long z !y 7 "u ! impression t ,i _h left ,canada to help !m increase _! small congregations1 by induc+ ! emigrants to settle among !m1 !y load$ me1 bo? 9 public & private1 ) m>ks ( _! e/eem4 ,b ! mom5t !y saw t ,i 0 go+ to f\nd1 9 ! v he>t ( ,ill9ois1 settlem5ts on su* a l>ge scale1 !y b&$ toge!r to p>alyze & ru9 my ef=ts4 ,_h ,i suspect$ su* opposition f ! v m5 on ^: moral help ,i _h reli$ = ! success ( my coloniz+ s*emes1 ,i w\ld h nev] left ,canada1 = ,ill9ois4 ,b x 0 n[ too late to /op my onw>d m>*4 ,tru/+ 9 ,god alone = success1 ,i felt t ^? two m5 7 to be put among ^? un=ese5 ob/acles :i* ,heav5 want$ me to ov]come1 if ,i c\ld n avoid !m4 ,i p]suad$ six ( ! mo/ respectable citiz5s ( ,b\rbonnais to accompany me1 9 ?ree wagons1 9 se>* ( ! be/ site = ! c5t] ( my future colony4 ,i _h a compass1 to guide me ?r\gh ^? va/ prairies1 :i* 7 spread be=e me l a b\ndless ocean4 ,i want$ to select ! highe/ po9t 9 ,ill9ois = my fir/ t[n1 9 ord] to secure ! pure/ air & wat] = ! new emigrants4 ,i 0 =tunate en\gh1 "u ! guidance ( ,god1 to succe$ bett] ?an ,i expect$1 = ! gov]nm5t surveyors h lately ackn[l$g$ t ! village ( ,/4 ,anne occupies ! v highe/ po9t ( t spl5did /ate4 ,to my great surprise1 t5 days aft] ,i _h select$ t spot1 fifty families f ,canada _h plant$ _! t5ts ar\nd m9e1 on ! beautiful site :i* =ms to-day ! t[n ( ,/4 ,anne4 ,we 7 at ! end ( ,novemb]1 & ?\gh ! wea!r 0 /ill mild1 ,i felt ,i _h n an h\r to lose 9 ord] to secure %elt] = e "o ( ^? families1 be=e ! cold w9ds & *illy ra9s ( w9t] %\ld spread sickness & dea? among !m4 ,! great] "p 7 illit]ate & poor p1 )\t any idea ( ! dang]s & incr$ible difficulties ( e/abli%+ a new settlem5t1 :]e ev]y?+ _h to be creat$4 ,!re 71 at fir/1 only two small h\ses1 "o #be by #cj1 & ! o!r #af by #bj feet1 to lodge u4 ,) ! re/ ( my de> emigrants1 wrapp$ 9 buffalo robes1 ) my ov]coat = my pill[1 ,i slept s\ndly1 _m nights on ! b>e floor1 dur+ ! ?ree mon?s :i* x took to get my fir/ h\se erect$4 ,hav+ tak5 ! c5sus ( ! p on ! fir/ ( ,decemb]1 ,i f\nd two hundr$ s\ls1 "o hundr$ ( :om 7 adults4 ,i said to !m3 8,!re are n ?ree ( y1 if left alone1 able to prep>e a %elt] = y\r families1 ?is w9t]2 b if1 =gett+ y\rselves1 y "w = ea* o!r1 z true fri5ds & bre?r51 y w increase y\r /r5g? t5fold1 & 9 a few weeks1 !re w be a suffici5t numb] ( small1 b solid build+s1 to protect y aga9/ ! /orms & sn[ ( ! w9t] :i* is fa/ com+ ^u u4 ,let u g to ! =e/ toge!r & cut ! wood1 to-day2 & to-morr[ we w draw t timb] to "o ( ! lots y h select$1 & y w see ) :at m>vell\s spe$ ! h\se w be rais$1 if y\r h&s & he>ts are p]fectly unit$ to "w = ea* o!r1 "u ! eyes & = ! love ( ! m]ciful ,god :o gives u ?is spl5did c\ntry = our inh]itage4 ,b be=e go+ to ! =e/1 let u kneel d[n to ask our ,heav5ly ,fa!r to bless ! "w ( our h&s1 & grant u to be ( "o m9d & "o he>t1 & to protect u aga9/ ! too common accid5ts ( ^? =e/s & build+ works40 ,we all knelt on ! grass1 &1 z mu* ) our te>s z ) our lips1 we s5t to ! m]cy-seat a pray]1 :i* 0 surely he>d by ! ,"o :o said1 8,ask & y w receive10 & we />t$ = ! =e/4 ,! read]s w\ld sc>cely believe me1 7 ,i to tell !m ) :at m>vell\s rapidity ! fir/ =ty small1 b neat h\ses 7 put up on our beautiful prairies4 ,:il/ ! m5 7 cutt+ timb]1 & rais+ "o ano!r's h\ses1 ) a unity1 a joy1 a good-w & rapidity1 :i* _m times drew f me te>s ( admiration1 ! wom5 w\ld prep>e ! common meals4 ,we obta9$ our fl\r & pork f ,b\rbonnais & ,mom5ce1 at a v l[ price2 &1 z ,i 0 a good %ot1 "o or two fri5ds & ,i1 us$ to kill1 e day1 en\gh prairie *ick5s1 quails1 ducks1 wild geese1 brants & de]1 to fe$ m p ?an !re 7 9 our "y colony4 ,^? delici\s vi&s1 :i* w\ld h be5 welcom$ on ! table ( ! k+1 & :i* w\ld h satisfi$ ! mo/ fa/idi\s g\rm&1 caus$ _m ( my poor1 de> emigrants to say3 8,our daily & mo/ common meals "h1 are m sumptu\s & delicate ?an ! ri*e/ ones 9 ,canada1 & !y co/ almo/ no?+40 ,:5 ,i saw t a suffici5t numb] ( h\ses _h be5 built to give %elt] to e "o ( ! fir/ emigrants1 ,i call$ a meet+ & said3 8,my de> fri5ds1 by ! great m]cy ( ,god1 & 9 almo/ a miracul\s way1 7?anks be to ! unity & *>ity :i* h b\nd y to ea* o!r till n[1 z memb]s ( ! same family17 y are 9 y\r little1 b happy homes1 & y h no?+ to fe> f ! w9ds & sn[ ( ! w9t]1 ,i ?9k t my duty n[ is to direct y\r att5tion to ! necessity ( build+ a two-/ory h\se4 ,! upp] "p w be us$ z ! s*ool-h\se = y\r *ildr5 on week days1 & = a *apel on ,sundays1 & ! l[] "p w be my p>sonage4 ,i w furni% ! money = ! floor+1 %+les1 ! nails & ! w9d[s1 & y w give y\r "w gratis to cut & draw ! timb] & put x up4 ,i w also pay ! ar*itect1 )\t ask+ a c5t f y4 ,x is q "t to provide a s*ool = y\r *ildr52 = 9 ?is c\ntry1 z 9 any o!r place1 !re is no possible prosp]ity or happ9ess = a p1 if !y neglect ! education ( _! *ildr54 ,n[1 we are too num]\s to cont9ue hav+ our ,sabba? wor%ip 9 any private h\se1 z we h done till n[4 ,:at d y ?9k ( ?is80 ,!y unanim\sly answ]$3 8,yes6 aft] y h work$ s h>d to give a home to e "o ( u1 x is j t we %\ld help y to make "o = y\rself4 ,we are happy to he> t x is y\r int5tion to secure a good education = our *ildr54 ,let u beg9 ! "w at once40 ,?is 0 ! #af? ( ,janu>y1 #aheb4 ,! sun 0 z w>m z on a beautiful day ( ,may 9 ,canada4 ,we aga9 fell ^u our knees to implore ! help ( ,god1 & sang a beautiful ,fr5* hymn4 ,! next day1 we 7 sev5ty-two m5 9 a neighbor+ =e/1 fell+ ! great oaks2 & on ! #ag? ( ,april1 only ?ree mon?s lat]1 t f9e two-/ory build+1 ne>ly =ty feet squ>e1 0 bless$ by ,bi%op ,v&eveld4 ,x 0 surm\nt$ by a nice /eeple1 ?irty feet high1 9 :i* we _h put a bell1 weigh+ #bej p\nds1 ^: solemn s\nd 0 to tell our joys & sorr[s ov] ! b\ndless prairies4 ,on t day1 in/ead ( be+ only fifty families1 z at ! la/ c5sus1 we numb]$ m ?an "o hundr$1 among :om m ?an #ejj 7 adults4 ,! *apel :i* we ?\ght1 at fir/1 w\ld be too l>ge1 0 fill$ to its utmo/ capacity on ! day ( its consecration to ,god4 ,n a mon? lat]1 we _h to speak ( mak+ an addition ( =ty feet m1 :i* :5 f9i%$1 six mon?s lat]1 0 f\nd to be /ill insuffici5t = ! accommodation ( ! con/antly increas+ flood ( immigration1 :i* came1 n only f ,canada1 b f ,belgium & ,france4 ,x soon became necess>y to make a new c5t]1 & exp& ! limits ( my fir/ colony2 :i* ,i did1 by plant+ a cross at l',erable1 ab\t fifte5 miles s\?we/ ( ,/4 ,anne1 & ano!r at a place we call ,/4 ,m>y1 twelve miles s\!a/1 9 ! c\nty ( ,iroquois4 ,^! settlem5ts 7 soon fill$2 = t v spr+1 m ?an "o ?\s& new families came f ,canada1 to jo9 u4 ,no words c express ! joy ( my he>t1 :5 ,i saw ) :at rapidity1 my 7!n7 s de> ,*ur* ( ,rome 0 tak+ possession ( ^? magnific5t l&s1 & h[ soon %e w\ld be unrival$ mi/ress1 n only ( ! ,/ate ( ,ill9ois1 b ( ! :ole valley ( ! ,mississippi4 ,b ! ways ( m5 are n ! ways ( ,god4 ,i _h be5 call$1 by ! ,bi%ops ( ,rome1 to ,ill9ois1 to ext5d ! p[] ( t *ur*4 ,b my ,god _h call$ me !re1 t ,i might give1 to t *ur*1 ! mo/ deadly bl[ %e has ev] receiv$ on ?is ,cont95t4 ,my task is n[ to tell my read]s1 h[ ! ,god ( ,tru?1 & ,light & ,life1 broke1 "o aft] ano!r1 all ! *>m$ bonds by :i* ,i 0 kept a slave at ! feet ( ! ,pope2 & h[ ,he op5$ my eyes1 & ^? ( my p1 to ! unsuspect$ & untold abom9ations ( ,romanism4 ,,*apt] ,,li4 ,,intrigues1 ,,impo/ures1 ,,& ,,crim9al ,,life ,,( ,,! ,,prie/ ,,9 ,,b\rbonnais--,,indignation ,,( ,,! ,,bi%op--,,! ,,p ,,ignom9i\sly ,,turn ,,out ,,! ,,crim9al ,,prie/ ,,f ,,_! ,,p>i%--,,frightful ,,sc&al--,,fai? ,,9 ,,! ,,*ur* ,,( ,,rome ,,s]i\sly ,,%ak54 8,please accompany me to ,b\rbonnais2 ,i h to conf] ) y & ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,c\rjeault1 on important matt]s10 said ! bi%op1 half an h\r be=e leav+ ,/4 ,anne1 aft] hav+ bless$ ! *apel4 8,i int5d$1 my "l1 to ask y\r lord%ip to grant me t honor1 be=e y (f]$ x10 ,i answ]$4 ,two h\rs ( good driv+ took u to ! p>sonage ( ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,c\rjeault1 :o _h prep>$ a sumptu\s d9n]1 to :i* sev]al ( ! pr9cipal citiz5s ( ,b\rbonnais _h be5 invit$4 ,:5 all ! gue/s _h dep>t$1 & ! bi%op1 ,mr4 ,c\rjeault1 & ,i1 7 alone1 he drew f 8 trunk1 a bundle ( weekly pap]s ( ,montreal1 ,canada1 9 :i* sev]al lett]s1 v insult+ & compromis+ = ! bi%op1 7 publi%$1 sign$ ,r4 ,l4 ,c4 ,%[+ !m to me1 he said3 8,mr4 ,*9iquy1 c ,i "k ! reason y _h = writ+ su* insult+ ?+s aga9/ y\r bi%op80 8,my "l10 ,i answ]$4 8,i h no words to express my surprise & indignation1 :5 ,i read ^? lett]s4 ,b1 ?anks be to ,god1 ,i am n ! au?or ( ^? infam\s writ+s4 ,i w\ld r h my "r h& cut (f1 ?an to all[ x to p5 su* false & p]fidi\s ?+s aga9/ y1 or any "o else40 8,d y assure me t y are n ! writ] ( ! lett]s8 ,are y positive 9 t d5egation2 & d y "k ! cont5ts ( ^! ly+ communications80 repli$ ! ,bi%op4 8,yes1 my "l1 ,i "k ! cont5ts ( ^! communications4 ,i h read !m1 sev]al times1 ) supreme disgu/ & indignation2 & ,i positively ass]t t ,i nev] wrote a s+le l9e ( !m40 8,!n1 c y tell me :o did write !m80 said ! bi%op4 ,i answ]$3 8,please1 my "l1 put t "q to ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,c\rjeault2 he is m able ?an any "o to satisfy y\r lord%ip on t matt]40 ,i look$ at ,mr4 ,c\rjeault ) an indignant air1 :i* told him1 t he c\ld n any long] we> ! mask1 beh9d :i* he _h conceal$ himself1 = ! la/ ?ree or f\r mon?s4 ,! eyes ( ! bi%op 7 also turn$1 & firmly fix$ on ! wret*$ prie/4 ,no6 ,nev] _h ,i se5 any?+ s /range1 z ! c\nt5ance ( t guilty man4 ,8 face1 ?\gh usually ugly1 sudd5ly took a cadav]\s appe>ance2 8 eyes 7 fix$ on ! floor1 z if unable to move4 ,! only signs ( life left 9 him1 7 giv5 by 8 knees1 :i* 7 %ak+ convulsively2 & by ! big drops ( sweat roll+ d[n 8 unwa%$ face2 =1 ,i mu/ say "h1 en passant1 t1 ) v few exceptions1 t prie/ 0 ! dirtie/ man ,i ev] saw4 ,! bi%op1 ) unutt]able expressions ( indignation1 exclaim$3 8,mr4 ,c\rjeault2 y are ! writ] ( ^? infam\s & sl&]\s lett]s6 ,?ree times1 y h writt51 & twice y told me1 v]bally1 t !y 7 com+ f ,mr4 ,*9iquy6 ,i d n ask y if y are ! au?or ( ^! sl&]s aga9/ me4 8,i see x writt5 9 y\r face4 ,y\r malice aga9/ ,mr4 ,*9iquy1 is really diabolical4 ,y want$ to ru9 him 9 my e/imation1 z well z 9 t ( 8 c\ntrym54 ,& to succe$ ! bett] 9 t plot1 y publi% ! mo/ egregi\s falsehoods aga9/ me 9 ! ,canadian press1 to induce me to d5\nce ,mr4 ,*9iquy z an impo/or4 8,h[ is x possible t a prie/ c s completely give himself to ! ,devil80 ,address+ me1 ! bi%op said3 8,mr4 ,*9iquy1 ,i beg y\r p>don = hav+ believ$ & repeat$1 t y 7 deprav$ en\gh to write ^? calumnies aga9/ y\r bi%op1 ,i 0 deceiv$ by t deceitful man4 8,i w imm$iately retract :at ,i h writt5 & said aga9/ y40 ,!n1 address+ ,mr4 ,c\rjeault he aga9 said3 8,! lea/ puni%m5t ,i c give y is to turn y out ( my diocese1 & write to all ! ,bi%ops ( ,am]ica1 t y are ! vile/ prie/ ,i ev] saw1 t !y may nev] give y any position on ?is ,cont95t40 ,^! la/ words _h h>dly fall5 f ! lips ( ! bi%op1 :5 ,mr4 ,c\rjeault fell on 8 knees1 be=e me1 & ba?+1 ) 8 te>s1 my h&s1 :i* he 0 convulsively press+ 9 81 said3 8,de> ,mr4 ,*9iquy1 ,i see ! greatness ( my iniquity aga9/ y & aga9/ our common bi%op4 ,= ! de> ,savi\r ,jesus' sake1 =give me4 ,i take ,god to witness t y w nev] h a m devot$ fri5d ?an ,i w be4 ,& y1 my "l1 all[ me to tell y1 t ,i ?ank ,god t my malice & my great s9 aga9/ bo? y & ,mr4 ,*9iquy is kn[n & puni%$ at once4 ,h[ev]1 9 ! "n ( our crucifi$ ,savi\r1 ,i ask y to =give me4 ,god kn[s t1 h]eaft]1 y w n h a m ob$i5t & devot$ prie/ ?an ,i40 ,x 0 a mo/ t\*+ spectacle to see ! te>s1 & he> ! sobs ( t rep5tant s9n]4 ,i c\ld n conta9 myself1 nor refra9 f te>s4 ,!y 7 m+l$ ) ^? ( t return+ /ray %eep4 ,i answ]$3 8,yes1 ,mr4 ,c\rjeault1 ,i =give y ) all my he>t1 z ,i wi% my m]ciful ,god to =give me my s9s4 ,may ! ,god :o sees y\r rep5tance =give y also60 ,bi%op ,v&eveld1 :o 0 gift$ ) a mo/ s5sitive & k9d nature1 0 also %$d+ te>s1 :5 ,i lift$ up ,mr4 ,c\rjeault to press him to my he>t1 & to tell him aga9 ) my voice *ok$ ) sobs3 8,i =give y mo/ s9c]ely1 z ,i want to be =giv540 ,he ask$ me3 8,:at d y advise me to d8 ,mu/ ,i =give also8 & c ,i cont9ue to keep him at ! head ( ?is important mission80 8,yes1 my "l4 ,please =give & =get ! errors ( t de> bro!r2 he has already done s mu* good to my c\ntrym5 ( ,b\rbonnais4 ,i pl$ge myself t he w1 h]eaft]1 be "o ( y\r be/ prie/s40 ,& ! bi%op =gave him1 aft] "s v appropriate & pat]nal advice1 admirably mix$ ) m]cy & firmness4 ,x 0 !n ab\t ?ree o'clock 9 ! aft]noon4 ,we sep>at$1 to say our vesp]s & mat9s 7pray]s :i* took ne>ly an h\r74 ,i _h j f9i%$ recit+ !m 9 ! g>d51 :5 ,i saw ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,c\rjeault walk+ f ! *ur* t[>ds me1 b 8 /eps 7 unc]ta91 z "o di/ract$ or half drunk4 ,i 0 puzzl$ at ! sight1 = he 0 a /rong teetotal]1 & ,i knew he _h no /rong dr9k 9 ! *ur*4 ,he advanc$ ?ree or f\r /eps1 !n retreat$4 ,at la/1 he came v ne>1 b 8 face _h su* an expression ( t]ror & sadness t he 0 h>dly recognizable4 ,he mutt]$ some?+ t ,i c\ld n und]/&4 8,please repeat y\r s5t5ce10 ,i said to him1 8,i did n und]/& y40 ,he !n put 8 h&s on 8 face1 & aga9 mutt]$ some?+4 ,8 voice 0 dr[n$ 9 8 te>s & sobs4 ,suppos+ t he 0 com+ to ask me aga9 to p>don 8 pa/ malice & calumnies aga9/ me1 ,i felt an unspeakable compassion = him4 ,z !re 7 a c\ple ( seats ne> by1 ,i said to him3 8,my de> ,mr4 ,c\rjeault1 come & sit "h ) me2 & d n ?9k any m ( :at ,god ,almighty has blott$ out ) ! blood ( ,8 ,son4 ,i w nev] ?9k any m ( y\r mom5t>y errors4 ,y may look ^u me z y\r mo/ devot$ fri5d40 8,de> ,mr4 ,*9iquy10 he answ]$1 8,i h to reveal to y ano!r d>k my/]y ( my mis]able life4 ,s9ce m ?an a ye>1 ,i h liv$ ) ! beadle's daught] z if %e 7 my wife6 8,%e has j told me t %e is to become a "m 9 a few days1 & t ,i h to see to t1 & give h] #ejj4 ,%e ?reat5s to d5\nce me publicly to ! bi%op & p if ,i d n support h] & h] (fspr+4 ,w\ld x n be bett] = me to flee away1 ?is night1 & g back to ,france to live 9 my own family1 & conceal my %ame8 ,sometimes1 ,i am ev5 tempt$ to ?r[ myself 9 ! riv]1 to put an end to my mis]able & di%onor$ exi/5ce4 ,d y ?9k t ! bi%op w\ld =give ?is new crime1 if ,i ?rew myself at 8 feet & ask$ p>don8 ,w\ld he give me "s o!r place 9 8 va/ diocese1 :]e my mis=tunes & my s9s are n kn[n8 ,please tell me :at to d40 ,i rema9$ absolutely /upefi$1 & did n "k :at to answ]4 ,?\gh ,i _h compassion = ! un=tunate man1 ,i mu/ confess t ?is new developm5t ( 8 hypocrisy & rascality fill$ me ) an unspeakable horror & disgu/4 ,he _h1 till !n1 wrapp$ himself 9 su* a ?ick mantle ( deception t _m ( 8 p look$ ^u him z an angel ( purity4 ,8 infamies 7 s well conceal$ "u an ext]ior ( extreme moral rigidity t sev]al ( 8 p>i%ion]s look$ ^u him z a sa9t1 ^: relics c\ld p]=m miracles4 ,n long be=e1 two "y c\ples1 ( ! be/ families ( ,b\rbonnais1 hav+ danc$ 9 a respectable social ga!r+1 _h be5 condemn$ by him1 & compell$ to ask p>don1 publicly1 9 ! *ur*4 ,?is ph>isaical rigidity caus$ ! secret vices ( t prie/ to be /ill m conspicu\s & sc&al\s4 ,i felt t ! sc&al :i* w\ld foll[ ! publication ( ?is my/]y ( iniquity w\ld be awful2 t x w\ld ev5 cause _m1 =ev]1 to lose fai? 9 our *ur*4 ,s _m sad ?\ghts fill$ my m9d t ,i 0 confus$ & unable to give him any advice4 ,i answ]$3 8,y\r mis=tune is really great4 ,if ! bi%op 7 n "h1 ,i might1 p]haps1 tell y my m9d ab\t ! be/ ?+ to d1 j n[4 ,b ! bi%op is "h2 he is ! only man to :om y h to g to "k h[ to come out ( ! bottomless abyss into :i* y h fall54 ,he is y\r prop] c\nsellor2 g & tell him1 frankly1 ev]y?+1 & foll[ 8 advice40 ,) /agg]+ /ep1 & 9 su* deep emotions t 8 sobs & cries c\ld be he>d = q a di/ance1 he w5t to ! bi%op4 ,i rema9$ alone1 half petrifi$ at :at ,i _h he>d4 ,half an h\r lat]1 ! bi%op came to me4 ,he 0 pale & 8 eyes r$d5$ ) te>s4 ,he said to me3 8,mr4 ,*9iquy1 :at an awful sc&al6 ,:at a new disgrace = our holy *ur*6 ,t ,mr4 ,c\rjeault1 :om ,i ?\ght1 till to-day1 to be "o ( my be/ prie/s1 is an inc>nate devil4 ,:at %all ,i d ) him8 ,please help me by y\r advice2 tell me :at y consid] ! be/ way ( prev5t+ ! sc&al1 & protect+ ! fai? ( ! good p aga9/ ! de/ructive /orm :i* is com+ ^u !m40 8,my de> ,bi%op10 ,i answ]$1 8! m ,i consid] ^! sc&als "h1 ! less ,i see h[ we c save ! *ur* f becom+ a dreadful wreck4 ,i feel too mu* ! responsibility ( my advice to give x4 ,let y\r lord%ip1 guid$ by ! ,_s ( ,god1 d :at y consid] ! be/ = ! honor ( ! *ur* & ! salvation ( s _m s\ls1 :i* are 9 dang] ( p]i%+ :5 ?is sc&al becomes kn[n4 ,= me1 ! only ?+ ,i c d is to conceal my face ) %ame1 g back to my "y colony to pray & weep & "w40 ,! bi%op repli$3 8,"h is :at ,i int5d to d4 ,mr4 ,c\rjeault tells me t !re is n ! lea/ suspicion among ! p ( 8 s91 & t x is an easy ?+ to s5d t girl to ! h\se provid$ 9 ,canada = prie/s' (f5ses1 )\t awak5+ any suspicion4 ,he seems s p5it5t1 t ,i hope1 h]eaft]1 we h no?+ to fe> f him4 ,he w n[ live ! life ( a good prie/ "h1 )\t giv+ any sc&al4 ,b if ,i remove him1 !n !re w be "s suspicions ( 8 fall1 & ! awful sc&al we want to avoid w come4 ,please l5d me #ajj1 :i* ,i w give to ,mr4 ,c\rjeault1 to s5d t girl to ,canada z soon z possible2 & he w cont9ue "h1 to "w ) wisdom aft] ?is t]rible trial4 ,:at d y ?9k ( t plan80 8,if y\r lord%ip is sure ( ! conv]sion ( ,mr4 ,c\rjeault1 & t !re is no dang] ( 8 great iniquity be+ kn[n by ! p1 evid5tly ! wise/ ?+ y c d is to s5d t girl to ,canada1 & keep ,mr4 ,c\rjeault "h4 ,?\gh ,i see great dang]s ev5 9 t way ( deal+ 9 ?is sad affair4 ,b1 un=tunately1 ,i h n a c5t 9 h& to-day1 & ,i _c l5d y ! #ajj y want40 8,!n10 said ! bi%op1 8,i w give a draft on a bank ( ,*icago1 b y mu/ endorse x40 8,i h no objection1 my "l1 to endorse any draft sign$ by y\r lord%ip10 ,i repli$4 ,?\gh x 0 late 9 ! day1 & t ,i _h1 at fir/1 propos$ to sp5d ! night1 ,i came back to my de> colony ( ,/4 ,anne4 ,b\rbonnais appe>$ to me l a burn+ h\se1 9 ! cell> ( :i* !re 0 a b>rel ( p[d]1 f :i* "o c\ld n keep himself too f> away4 ,five days lat]1 f\r ( ! pr9cipal citiz5s ( t int]e/+1 b sorely tri$1 place knock$ at my door4 ,!y 7 s5t z a deputation f ! :ole village to ask me :at to d ab\t _! curate1 ,mr4 ,c\rjeault4 ,!y told me t sev]al ( !m _h1 long s9ce1 suspect$ :at 0 go+ on betwe5 t prie/ & ! beadle's daught]1 b !y _h kept t secret4 ,h[ev]1 ye/]day1 !y said ! eyes ( ! p>i% _h be5 op5$ to ! awful sc&al4 ,! disgu/+ demon/rations & att5tion ( ! curate1 :5 ! victim ( 8 lu/ took ! dilig5ce1 left no d\bt 9 ! m9ds ( any "o t %e is to h a *ild 9 ,montreal4 8,n[1 ,mr4 ,*9iquy1 we are s5t "h to ask y\r advice4 ,please tell u :at to d40 8,my de> fri5ds10 ,i answ]$1 8x is n f me1 b f our common bi%op1 t y mu/ ask :at is to be done 9 su* deplorable affairs40 ,b !y repli$3 8,w\ld y n be k9d en\gh to come to ,b\rbonnais ) u1 & g to our un=tunate prie/ to tell him t 8 crim9al conduct is kn[n by ! :ole p1 & t we _c dec5tly keep him a day long] z our ,*ri/ian tea*]4 ,he has r5d]$ u great s]vices 9 ! pa/1 :i* we w nev] =get4 ,we d n want to abuse or insult him 9 any way4 ,?\gh guilty1 he is /ill a prie/4 ,! only favor we ask f him n[ is t he quits ! place1 )\t noise & sc&al1 9 ! night1 to avoid any disagreeable demon/rations :i* might come f 8 p]sonal enemies1 :om 8 ph>isaical rigidity has made pretty num]\s & bitt]40 8,i d n see any reason to refuse y t favor10 ,i answ]$4 ,?ree h\rs lat]1 9 ! pres5ce ( ^? f\r g5tlem51 ,i 0 deliv]+ my sad message to ! un=tunate curate4 ,he receiv$ x z 8 dea? w>rant4 ,b he 0 humble1 & submitt$ to 8 fate4 ,aft] sp5d+ f\r h\rs ) u 9 settl+ 8 affairs1 he fell on 8 knees1 ) torr5ts ( te>s1 he ask$ p>don = ! sc&al he _h giv51 & reque/$ u to ask p>don f ! :ole p>i%1 & at #ab o'clock at night he left = ,*icago4 ,t h\r 0 a sad "o1 inde$1 = u all4 ,b my ,god _h a /ill sadd] h\r 9 /ore = me4 ,! p ( ,b\rbonnais _h reque/$ me to give !m "s religi\s ev5+ s]vices ! next week1 & ,i 0 j at ! end ( "o ( !m1 ! #g? ( ,may1 :51 sudd5ly1 ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,c\rjeault ent]$ ! *ur*1 walk$ ?r\gh ! cr[d1 salut+ ?is "o1 smil+ on t "o1 & press+ ! h&s ( _m4 ,8 face bore ! m>ks ( impud5ce & debau*]y4 ,f "o end ( ! *ur* to ! o!r1 a :isp] ( amazem5t & indignation 0 he>d4 8,mr4 ,c\rjeault6 ,mr4 ,c\rjeault66 ,great ,god6 :at does ?is mean80 ,i obs]v$ t he 0 advanc+ t[>ds me1 probably ) ! int5tion ( %ak+ h&s1 be=e ! p1 b ,i did n give him "t to d x4 ,i left by ! back door1 & w5t to ! p>sonage1 :i* 0 only a few /eps di/ant4 ,he1 !n1 w5t back to ! door to h a talk ) ! p1 b v few gave him t *ance4 ,?\gh he affect$ to be exce$+ly gay1 jocose & talkative1 he c\ld n get _m p to /op & he> him4 ,e "o1 p>ticul>ly ! wom51 7 fill$ ) disgu/1 at 8 impud5ce4 ,see+ himself ne>ly des]t$1 at ! *ur* door1 he turn$ 8 /eps t[>ds ! p>sonage1 :i* he ent]$1 :i/l+4 ,:5 he beheld me1 he laugh$ & said3 8,oh6 oh6 our de> little ,fa!r ,*9iquy "h8 ,h[ d y d80 8,i am q unwell10 ,i answ]$1 8s9ce ,i see t y are s mis]ably de/roy+ y\rself40 8,i d n want to de/roy myself10 he answ]$2 8b x is y :o wants to turn me out ( my beautiful p>i% ( ,b\rbonnais1 to take my place4 ,) ! f\r blockheads :o accompani$ y1 ! o!r day1 y h fright5$ & p]suad$ me t my mis=tune ) ,m>y 0 kn[n by all ! p2 b our good bi%op has und]/ood t ?is 0 a trick ( y\rs1 & t x 0 "o ( y\r ly+ /ories4 ,i came back to take possession ( my p>i%1 & turn y out40 8,if ! bi%op has s5t y back "h to turn me out1 t ,i may g back to my de> colony1 he has j done :at ,i ask$ him to d2 = he kn[s1 bett] ?an any man1 = :at great purpose ,i came to ?is c\ntry1 & t ,i _c d my "w s long z he asks me to take c>e ( ,b\rbonnais4 ,i g1 at once1 & leave y 9 full possession ( y\r p>sonage4 ,b ,i pity y1 :5 ,i see ! d>k cl\d :i* is on y\r horizon4 ,good-bye60 8,y are ! only d>k cl\d on my horizon10 he answ]$4 8,:5 y are gone1 ,i w be 9 z p]fect peace z ,i 0 be=e y set y\r feet 9 ,ill9ois4 ,good-bye2 & please nev] come back "h1 except ,i invite y40 ,i left1 & ord]$ my s]vant-man to drive me back to ,/4 ,anne4 ,b :5 cross+ ! village1 ,i saw t !re 0 a t]rible excitem5t among ! p4 ,sev]al times !y /opp$ me1 & reque/$ me to rema9 9 _! mid/ to advise !m :at to d4 ,b ,i refus$1 say+ to !m3 8,x w\ld be an insult on my "p to advise y any?+1 9 a matt] :]e y\r duty z m5 & ,ca?olics is s cle>4 ,consult ! respect y owe to y\rselves1 to y\r families & to y\r *ur*1 & y w "k :at to d40 ,x took me all night1 :i* 0 v d>k1 to come back to ,/4 ,anne1 :]e ,i arriv$ at dawn1 ! #i? ( ,may1 #aheb4 ,! next ,sabba? day1 ,i held a public s]vice 9 my *apel1 :i* 0 cr[d$1 )\t mak+ any allusion to t deplorable affair4 ,on ! ,monday foll[+1 f\r citiz5s ( ,b\rbonnais 7 deput$ to tell me :at !y _h done1 & ask$ me n to des]t !m 9 t h\r ( trial1 b to rememb] t ,i 0 _! c\ntryman1 & t !y _h nobody else to :om !y c\ld look to help to fulfill _! religi\s duties4 ,"h is ! sub/ance ( _! message3 8,z soon z we saw t y _h left our village1 )\t tell+ u :at to d1 we call$ a public meet+1 :]e we pass$ ! foll[+ resolutions03 #a/4 ,no p]sonal insult %all be giv5 to ,mr4 ,c\rjeault4 #bnd4 ,we _c cons5t to keep him a s+le h\r z our pa/or4 #crd4 ,:51 next ,sabba?1 he w beg9 8 s]mon1 we w in/antly leave ! *ur*1 & g to ! door1 t he may rema9 absolutely alone1 & und]/& our /]n det]m9ation n to h him any m = our spiritual tea*]4 #d?4 ,we w s5d ^! resolutions to ! bi%op1 & ask him to all[ ,mr4 ,*9iquy to divide 8 "t & att5tion betwe5 8 new colony & u1 till we h a pa/or able to in/ruct & edify u4 ,/range to say1 poor ,mr4 ,c\rjeault1 %ut up 9 8 p>sonage dur+ t night1 knew no?+ ( t meet+4 ,he _h n f\nd a s+le fri5d to w>n him ( :at 0 to happ5 ! next ,sunday4 ,t ,sunday1 ! wea!r 0 magnific5t1 & !re nev] _h be5 su* a multitude ( p at ! *ur*4 ,! mis]able prie/1 ?9k+ by t unusual cr[d1 t ev]y?+ 0 to be "r ) him1 t day1 began 8 mass & w5t to ! pulpit to deliv] 8 s]mon4 ,b he _h h>dly pron\nc$ ! fir/ words1 :51 at a signal giv5 by "s "o1 ! :ole p1 )\t a s+le exception1 ran out ( ! *ur*1 z if x _h be5 on fire1 & he rema9$ alone4 ,( c\rse1 ?is fell ^u him z a ?und]bolt1 & he came v ne> fa9t+4 ,h[ev]1 recov]+ himself1 he w5t to ! door1 & hav+ ) 8 te>s & sobs1 z ) 8 words1 p]suad$ ! p to li/5 to :at he _h to tell !m1 he said3 8,i see t ! h& ( ,god is ^u me1 & ,i des]ve x4 ,i h s9n$1 & made a mi/ake by com+ back4 ,y d n want me any m to be y\r pa/or4 ,i c n compla9 ( t2 ?is is y\r "r1 y w be satisfi$4 ,i w leave ! place =ev]1 to-night4 ,i only ask y to =give my pa/ errors & pray = me40 ,?is %ort address 0 foll[$ by ! mo/ deadly sil5ce1 n a voice 0 he>d to insult him4 ,_m1 on ! contr>y1 7 s mu* impress$ ) ! sad solemnity ( ?is occurr5ce t !y c\ld n refra9 _! te>s4 ,! :ole p w5t back to _! homes ) brok5 he>ts4 ,mr4 ,c\rjeault left ,b\rbonnais t v night1 nev] to return aga94 ,b ! awful sc&al he _h giv5 did n disappe> ) him4 ,our ,great & ,m]ciful ,god1 :o1 _m times1 has made ! v s9s & errors ( 8 p to "w = good1 caus$ t public iniquity ( ! prie/ to remove ! scales f _m eyes & prep>e !m to receive ! light1 :i* 0 already dawn+ at ! horizon4 ,a voice f heav5 0 z if he>d by _m ( u3 8,d y n see t 9 y\r ,*ur* ( ,rome1 y d n foll[ ! ,^w ( ,god1 b ! ly+ traditions ( m58 ,is x n evid5t t y\r prie/'s celibacy is a sn>e & an in/itution ( ,satan80 ,_m ask$ me to %[ !m1 9 ! ,gospel1 :]e ,*ri/ _h e/abli%$ ! law ( celibacy4 8,i w d bett]10 ,i add$1 8,i w put ! ,gospel 9 y\r h&s1 & y w look = y\rselves 9 t holy book :at is said on t matt]40 ,! v same day ,i ord]$ a m]*ant1 f ,montreal1 to s5d me a l>ge box fill$ ) ,new ,te/am5ts1 pr9t$ by ! ord] ( ! ,ar*bi%op ( ,quebec1 & on ! #be? z _m f ,new ,york4 ,v soon x 0 kn[n by e "o ( my emigrants t n only _h ,jesus nev] =bidd5 ,8 apo/les & prie/s to m>ry1 b he _h left !m free to h _! wives1 & live ) !m1 accord+ to ! v te/imony ( ,paul3 8,h we n ! p[] to lead ab\t ) u a wife & si/]1 z well z ! re/ ( ! apo/les & bre?r5 ( ! ,"l1 & ,cephas0 7,cor4 ix3 #ee72 !y saw1 by _! ,gospel1 t ! doctr9e ( celibacy ( ! prie/s 0 n br\ght f heav5 by ,*ri/1 b _h be5 =g$ 9 d>kness1 to add to ! mis]ies ( man4 ,!y read & read ov] aga9 ^! words ( ,*ri/3 8,if y cont9ue 9 my ^w1 y %all be my disciples inde$4 8,y %all "k ! tru?1 & x %all make y free4 8,if1 !re=e1 ! son %all make y free1 y %all be free inde$0 7,john viii3 #ca1 #cb1 #cf74 ,& ^? promises ( lib]ty1 :i* ,*ri/ gave to ^? :o read & foll[$ ,8 ,^w1 made _! he>ts leap ) joy4 ,!y fell ^u _! m9ds z music f heav54 ,!y also soon f\nd1 by !mselves1 t e "t ! disciples ( ,*ri/ _h ask$ ,him :o w\ld be ! fir/ rul]1 or ! pope1 9 ,8 *ur*1 he _h always solemnly & positively said t1 9 ,8 *ur*1 nobody w\ld ev] become ! fir/1 ! rul] or ! pope4 ,& !y began1 s]i\sly1 to suspect t ! great p[]s ( ! pope & 8 bi%ops 7 no?+ b a sacrilegi\s usurpation4 ,i 0 n long )\t see+ t ! read+ ( ! ,holy ,scriptures by my de> c\ntrym5 0 *ang+ !m into o!r m54 ,_! m9ds 7 evid5tly enl>g$ & rais$ to high] sph]es ( ?\ght4 ,!y 7 beg9n+ to suspect t ! heavy *a9s :i* 7 w\nd+ _! %\ld]s 7 prev5t+ !m f mak+ progress 9 weal?1 intellig5ce & lib]ty1 z _! m =tunate fell[-m51 call$ ,prote/ants4 ,?is 0 n yet ! bright light ( ! day1 b x 0 ! bless$ dawn4 ,,*apt] ,,lii4 ,on ! #bj? ( ,may1 #aheb1 ,i receiv$ ! foll[+ lett] f ,bi%op ,v&eveld3 ,,rev4 ,,mr4 ,,*9iquy4 ,,my ,,de> ,,mr4 ,,*9iquy3--,! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,c\rjeault is j return$ f ,b\rbonnais1 :]e he ought nev] to h gone back4 ,he has told me ( 8 complete failure & ignom9i\s exit4 ,i bitt]ly regret hav+ all[$ him to g !re aga94 ,b he _h s p]suad$ me t 8 crim9al conduct ) 8 s]vant girl 0 ignor$ by ! p1 t ,i _h yield$ to 8 reque/4 ,i feel t ?is new attempt1 on 8 "p1 to impose himself on t hone/ p1 has add$ to ! enormity ( 8 fir/ sc&al4 ,i advise him n[ to g back to ,france1 :]e he c m easily conceal 8 %ame ?an 9 ,am]ica4 ,b "o ( ! d>ke/ features ( t disgu/+ affair is t ,i am oblig$ to pay ! #ejj :i* ! girl ask$1 9 ord] to prev5t ,mr ,c\rjeault f be+ dragg$ be=e ! civil tribunal & s5t to jail4 ,! malice ( t prie/ aga9/ y has receiv$ its j rew>d4 ,b my fe> is t y h ano!r implacable enemy "h 9 ,mr4 ,lebel1 ^: p[] to d evil is great] ?an ,mr4 ,c\rjeault's4 ,be=e y began y\r great "w ( direct+ ! flood ( ,roman ,ca?olic emigration t[>ds ?is c\ntry1 to secure x to our holy *ur*1 he 0 9 favor ( t glori\s s*eme1 b 8 jeal\sy aga9/ y has sudd5ly *ang$ 8 m9d4 ,he has1 lately1 address$ a lett] to ! ,canadian press1 e ^w ( :i* is an unmitigat$ falsehood4 ,( c\rse1 ! ,bi%op ( ,montreal1 :o is m ?an ev] oppos$ to our colonization plan1 has publi%$ t ly+ lett] 9 8 j\rnal2 m ?an t1 he has reproduc$ ! te/imony ( a p]jur$ man1 :o swe>s t _m ( ! p ( ,ill9ois are bitt5 & kill$ by ! rattlesnakes1 & ^? :o escape are tax$ six c5ts = ea* pane ( glass ( _! w9d[s4 ,w y be disc\rag$ by ?is opposition8 ,i hope n4 ,?is opposition is ! greate/ evid5ce we c\ld h t our s*eme is f ,god1 & t ,he w support y4 ,i am tempt$ to int]dict ,mr4 ,lebel1 & s5d him back to ,canada1 = writ+ ?+s :i* he s well kn[s to be false4 ,! want ( a ,fr5*-speak+ prie/ = y\r c\ntrym5 ( ,*icago is ! only ?+ :i* has prev5t$ me f )draw+ 8 faculties4 ,b ,i h w>n$ him t if he writes any m aga9/ ! tru?1 ,i w puni% him z he des]ves4 ,= y1 my de> sir1 ,i w address to y ! v words :i* ,god ,himself address$ to ,8 s]vant1 ,jo%ua3 8,be /rong1 & ( good c\rage2 = unto ?is p %alt ?\ divide1 = an inh]itance1 ! l& :i* ,i swe> unto _! fa!rs to give !m0 7,jo%ua #a3 #f74 #a agree ) :at y wrote me 9 y\r la/ lett]1 t ! *>ge ,i h giv5 y ( ,b\rbonnais1 pro tempore1 w s]i\sly int]f]e ) y\r o!r numb]less duties t[>ds y\r de> emigrants4 ,b !re is no help2 ! only ?+ ,i c promise1 is to relieve y z soon z possible4 ,i h no o!r prie/ to :om ,i c tru/ ! int]e/+ mission ( ,b\rbonnais4 ,= ,fa!r ,huick is too old & infirm = su* a "w4 ,x is evid5tly ! w ( ,god t y %\ld ext5d y\r labors ov] ! fir/ limits y _h fix$4 ,be fai?ful to ! end1 & ! ,"l w be ) y1 & support y ?r\gh\t all y\r labors & tribulations4 ,truly ,y\rs1 ,,oliv ,,v&eveld1 ,bi%op ( ,*icago4 ,dur+ ! next six mon?s1 m ?an #ejj families f ,france1 ,belgium & ,canada came & gave to our colony a life1 p[] & prosp]ity impossible = me to depict4 ,! joy ,i felt at ?is un=ese5 success 0 mu* dim9i%$1 h[ev]1 by ! sudd5 news t ,mr4 ,c\rjeault _h come back f ,france1 :]e he sp5t only "o mon?4 ,n d>+ to visit ,b\rbonnais aga91 he 0 lurk+ on ! fronti]s ( ,indiana1 only a few miles di/ant1 evid5tly ) "s s9i/] int5tion4 ,driv5 to a /ate ( madness by 8 jeal\sy & hatr$1 t un=tunate man address$ to me1 on ! #bc;d ( ,janu>y1 #ahec1 ! mo/ abusive lett] ,i ev] receiv$1 & end$ x by tell+ me t ! f9e 7?\gh unf9i%$7 *ur* ( ,b\rbonnais1 :i* he _h built1 0 to be burn$1 & t my life w\ld be 9 dang] if ,i rema9$ at ! head ( t mission4 ,i imm$iately s5t t lett] to ! bi%op1 ask+ 8 advice4 ,9 8 answ] he told me t he ?\ght t ,mr4 ,c\rjeault 0 wick$ en\gh to fulfill 8 ?reats4 ,he add$3 8,?\gh ,i h n yet cle> evid5ce ( x1 x is my fe> t ,mr4 ,lebel is unit$ ) ,mr4 ,c\rjeault 9 ! diabolical plot ( burn+ y\r *ur* ( ,b\rbonnais4 ,sev]al p h report$ to me t he says t y\r pres5ce !re w be ! ru9 ( t p1 & ! de/ruction ( _! *ur*4 ,oh6 to :at extremities bad prie/s c g1 :5 once !y h giv5 !mselves to _! unbridl$ passions6 ,! fir/ ?+ ,i w\ld advise y1 my de> ,mr4 ,*9iquy1 9 ! pres5ce ( su* a t]rible calamity1 is to insure t *ur* )\t delay4 ,i h tri$ to d x "h1 b !y h refus$1 "u ! pretext t x is an unf9i%$1 frame build+1 & !re are too _m dang]s ( fire :5 p are /ill work+ at x4 8,my impression is t ,mr4 ,lebel is on intimate t]ms ) "s insurance g5tlem51 & has fright5$ !m by speak+ ( t rumor ( dang]1 ( :i* he is probably ! fa!r1 ) t mis]able ,c\rjeault4 ,p]haps y may h a bett] *ance1 by address+ y\rself to "s insurance company :i* y might f9d at ,joliet or at ,spr+field40 ,aft] va9 ef=ts to insure ! *ur*1 ,i wrote to ! bi%op3 8,! only way to escape ! imp5d+ dang] is to f9i% ! *ur* at once1 & insure x aft]4 ,i h j made a collection ( #djj among ! p ( ,b\rbonnais1 to :i* ,i add$ #cjj f my own private res\rces1 & w g to "w imm$iately if y\r lord%ip has no objections40 ,hav+ got ! approbation ( my sup]ior1 on ! #a/ ( ,m>* ,i began to put ! la/ h& to t build+4 ,we work$ almo/ day & night1 till ! #a/ ( ,may1 :5 x 0 all f9i%$4 ,i d>e affirm1 t = a c\ntry place1 t *ur* 0 unsurpass$ 9 beauty4 ,! inside frame-"w 0 all made ( ! spl5did black oak ( ,b\rbonnais1 poli%$ & v>ni%$ by mo/ skillful m51 & x look$ l a mirror4 ,v seldom h ,i se5 any?+ m gr& & beautiful ?an ! alt>1 made also ( t preci\s black oak4 ,x 0 late at night :51 ) my fell[-labor]s1 cov]$ ) du/ & sweat1 we c\ld say ) joy ! solemn words1 8,x is f9i%$60 ,aft]w>ds we sung ! ,te ,deum4 ,_h ,i _h any opportunity1 at t late h\r1 x 0 my ?\ght & desire to insure x4 ,b ,i 0 =c$ to po/pone ?is till ! next ,monday4 ,! next day 7! fir/ ,sabba? ( ,may1 #ahec71 ! sun seem$ to come out f ! horizon & rise above our heads ) m ?an usual magnific5ce4 ,! air 0 calm & pure1 & ! numb]less spr+ fl[]s ( our g>d5s m+l+ _! p]fumes ) ! fragrant leaves ( ! spl5did =e/ at ! front ( ! village1 ! balmy atmosph]e1 ! songs ( ! birds1 seem$ to tell u t ?is ,sabba? day 0 to be ! mo/ happy "o = me & my de> p ( ,b\rbonnais4 ,! *ur* _h nev] be5 s cr[d$4 ,! hymns we sung _h nev] be5 s melodi\s1 & ! words ( gratitude :i* ,i address$ to my ,god1 :5 ,i ?ank$ him = ! *ur* he _h giv5 u1 9 :i* to adore & bless him1 _h nev] be5 s s9c]e & e>ne/3 nev] _h our te>s ( joy fl[$ s pr(usely z on t spl5did & nev]-to-be-=gott5 ,sabba?4 ,alas6 :o w\ld suspect t1 six h\rs lat]1 ! same p1 ga!r$ ar\nd ! smok+ ru9s ( _! *ur*1 w\ld r5d ! air ) _! cries ( desolation6 ,su*1 h[ev]1 0 ! case4 ,:ile tak+ my d9n]1 aft] ! public s]vice1 two little boys1 :o _h rema9$ 9 ! *ur* to wait = ! h\r ( ! ,cate*ism1 ran to ! p>sonage1 cry+3 8,fire6 ,fire66 ,fire6660 ,b>e-head$1 & half-p>alyz$ ) ! idea t my *ur* 0 on fire1 ,i w5t out to see ! awful reality4 ,a girdle ( smoke & fire 0 already issu+ f almo/ e "p1 betwe5 ! top ( ! wood5 walls & ! ro(4 ,i _h ru%$ to ! *ur* ) a pail ( wat] 9 my h&4 ,b x 0 too late to make any use ( x2 ! flames 7 already runn+ & leap+ ) a fe>ful rapidity ov] ! fre% v>ni%1 l a long tra9 ( p[d]4 ,9 less ?an two h\rs all 0 f9i%$ aga94 ,no d\bt c\ld rema9 9 our m9ds4 ,?is 0 ! "w ( an inc5di>y1 = !re 0 no fire 9 ! *ur* aft] ! s]vice4 ,_m /rang]s :o _h come f a di/ance1 _h gone ?r\gh ! :ole nave & ! upp] gall]ies1 to h a bett] sight ( ! :ole build+1 & two ( !m _h be5 se5 by ! little boys1 rema9+ t5 or fifte5 m9utes alone2 !y _h gone back to "s ( ! h\ses ( ! village )\t be+ rem>k$ by anybody1 = x 0 d9n] "t1 & !re 0 nobody to wat* !m4 ,?\gh /unn$ by t awful calamity1 ! noble-he>t$ p ( ,b\rbonnais did n lose _! m9ds4 ,see+ t !y 7 all ga!r$ ar\nd ! smok+ ru9s1 at ab\t six ,p4 ,m41 ,i address$ to !m a few words to support _! c\rage4 ,i told !m t x 0 only 9 ! mid/ ( great trials & difficulties t m5 c\ld %[ _! noble/ qualities1 & _! true manhood2 t if we 7 true m51 in/ead ( los+ our "t 9 %$d+ te>s & r5d+ ! air ) our cries ( desolation1 we w\ld imm$iately put our h&s to ! "w1 & beg9 ! v next day to raise up1 n a frame build+1 :i* ! flames c\ld turn into a%es 9 a few m9utes1 & :i* ! /orm c\ld bl[ d[n ov] our heads1 b a /one *ur*1 :i* w\ld /& be=e ,god & man z an imp]i%able monum5t ( _! fai?1 indomitable c\rage & lib]ality4 ,we imm$iately />t$ a subscription1 to erect1 )\t delay1 a /one *ur*4 ,9 less ?an "o h\r1 #d1jjj 9 money1 & m ?an #e1jjj 9 "t1 timb] & /one & o!r mat]ial1 7 subscrib$1 e c5t ( :i* has be5 fai?fully giv5 = ! erection ( t f9e /one *ur* ( ,b\rbonnais4 ,! next ,?ursday1 ,bi%op ,v&eveld came f ,*icago to conf] ) me ab\t :at c\ld be done to repair t t]rible loss1 & to inquire confid5tially ( me z to ! au?or ( t fire4 ,all ! facts we ga!r$ po9t$ to ! same direction4 ,x 0 evid5t t ! mis]able ,c\rjeault1 ) ,lebel1 ! ,fr5* ,canadian prie/ ( ,*icago1 _h done t evil "w ?r\gh _! emiss>ies4 ,no d\bt ( ?is rema9$ 9 my m9d :5 ,i le>n$ t soon aft]1 ,mr4 ,c\rjeault _h ?r[n himself into "o ( ^? d>k dungeons call$ a mona/]y ( ,la ,trappe1 :i* ,satan has built on e>? z a prep>ation = ! d>k h]eaft] ( ! wick$4 ,! unexpect$ visit ( ! bi%op1 _h1 at fir/1 rejoic$ me1 by ! hope t he w\ld br+ me words ( enc\ragem5t4 ,b :at 0 my disappo9tm5t1 :5 he said to me3 8,my de> ,mr4 ,*9iquy1 ,i mu/ reveal to y a ?+ t ,i h n yet made kn[n to anyone4 ,x is confid5tial1 & ,i reque/ y n to say a ^w be=e x is accompli%$4 ,i c n rema9 any long] ,bi%op ( ,ill9ois6 ,no6 ,i _c any long] assume ! responsibilities ( su* a high position1 because x is beyond my p[] to fulfill my duties & d :at ! *ur* requires ( me4 ,! conduct ( ! prie/s ( ?is diocese is su*1 t1 %\ld ,i foll[ ! regulations ( ! canon1 ,i w\ld be =c$ to int]dict all my prie/s ) ! exception ( y & two or ?ree o!rs4 8,!y are all ei!r notori\s drunk>ds1 or giv5 to public or secret concub9age2 sev]al ( !m h *ildr5 by _! own nieces1 & two by _! own si/]s4 ,i d n ?9k t t5 ( !m believe 9 ,god4 ,religion is no?+ to !m b a well-pay+ com$y4 ,:]e c ,i f9d a rem$y = su* a g5]al evil8 ,c ,i puni% "o ( !m & leave ! o!rs free 9 _! abom9able do+s1 :5 !y are almo/ all equally guilty8 ,w\ld n ! g5]al int]diction ( ^! prie/s be ! dea? bl[ to our *ur* 9 ,ill9ois8 ,besides1 h[ c ,i puni% !m1 :5 ,i "k t _m ( !m are ready to poison me ! v mom5t ,i raise a f+] aga9/ !m4 ,i suppose t y d n ignore ! fact t my poor pr$ecessor 0 poison$ by "o ( ^? prie/s :o _h s$uc$ sev]al nuns1 :5 he 0 9 ! v act ( inve/igat+ ! matt]4 8,i int5d to g to ,rome1 z soon z ,i receive my p]mit f ! pope1 to r5\nce at 8 feet ! ,bi%opric ( ,*icago1 :i* ,i w n keep on any consid]ation4 8,if ! pope does n give me ano!r diocese1 ) a bett] set ( prie/s1 ,i pref] to sp5d ! re/ ( my life at ! head ( a small congregation1 :]e ,i %all n h1 on my %\ld]s1 ! awful responsibility :i* is kill+ me "h4 ,! la/ horrible de$s ( ,c\rjeault & ,lebel1 ( :i* y are ! victim to-day1 has fill$ ! bitt] cup :i* ,god has put to my lips to dr9k4 ,x is ov]fl[+4 ,i _c any long] endure x40 ,:5 speak+ s1 ! bi%op's face 0 ba!d ) te>s4 ,x 0 v late--too late1 inde$1 to make ! remon/rances :i* came to my m9d1 9 ord] to *ange 8 resolutions4 ,i det]m9$ to wait till ! next morn+1 :5 ,i %\ld h pl5ty ( "t1 ,i hop$1 to expel 8 d>k ?\ghts1 & give him m c\rage4 ,besides1 ,i 01 myself1 s disc\rag$ by ^? awful disclosures1 t ,i 0 9 ne$ ( m5tal z well z bodily re/4 ,b1 alas6 ! next day 0 to be "o ( ! d>ke/ ( my prie/ly life6 ,:5 ! h\r = breakfa/ came ! next morn+1 ,i w5t to awak5 ! bi%op4 ,:at 0 my dismay1 :5 ,i f\nd him drunk6 ,be=e go+ to b$1 he _h secretly ask$ my h\sekeep] to give him ! bottle ( w9e :i* ,i us$ to celebrate mass4 ,x 0 a l>ge bottle1 conta9+ ne>ly a qu>t ( w9e1 :i* w\ld la/ me at lea/ six mon?s4 ,! :ole ( :i* he _h drank dur+ ! night6 ,i _h be5 told t ,bi%op ,v&eveld 7z well z ! great] numb] ( ! ,bi%ops ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates7 0 a drunk>d1 b ,i _h nev] believ$ x4 ,he always drank v mod]ately1 be=e me1 any "t ,i sat at 8 table1 or he at m9e4 ,x appe>s t x 0 at night1 :5 nobody c\ld see him1 t he gave himself up to t dete/able habit4 ,8 room 0 fill$ ) ! odor ( :at he _h vomit$1 aft] dr9k+ su* an enorm\s quantity ( w9e4 ,he left ! room1 only at noon1 aft] ! fumes ( ! w9e _h almo/ entirely disappe>$1 & reque/$ ! h\sekeep] to cleanse x h]self1 )\t lett+ ! s]vants "k any?+ ( ! occurr5ce ( ! night4 ,b words w\ld fail to express my con/]nation & ! disc\ragem5t ,i felt4 ,i _h =m$ su* a good & exalt$ op9ion ( t man6 ,i _h f\nd 9 him su* noble qualities6 ,8 intellig5ce 0 s bright1 8 le>n+ s ext5sive1 8 he>t s l>ge1 8 plans s gr&1 8 piety s s9c]e1 8 *>ity s wor?y ( a ,bi%op ( ,*ri/6 ,x 0 s pleasant = me to "k1 till !n1 t ,i 0 honor$ ) ! full confid5ce ( a bi%op :o1 x seem$ to me1 _h n a sup]ior 9 our *ur*6 ,! de/ruction ( my de> *ur* by ! h&s ( inc5di>ies 0 surely a great calamity = me2 b ! fall ( my bi%op1 f ! high position he _h 9 my he>t & m9d1 0 /ill great]4 ,i _h ! means1 9 h&1 to rebuild t *ur*2 b my confid5ce 9 my bi%op 0 irrem$iably1 & =ev] lo/6 ,nev] _h a son lov$ 8 fa!r m s9c]ely1 ?an ,i _h lov$ him2 & nev] _h any prie/ felt a m s9c]e respect = 8 bi%op1 ?an ,i = him6 ,oh6 :at a t]rible w\nd 0 made 9 my he>t t day6 :at tortures ,i felt6 ,b h[ _m times1 s9ce1 ,i h bless$ my ,god = ^! w\nds6 ,)\t !m1 ,i %\ld nev] h kn[n1 t in/ead ( be+ 9 ! bosom ( ! ,immaculate ,*ur* ( ,*ri/1 ,i 0 ! slave ( t great ,babylon1 :i* poisons ! nations ) ! w9e ( h] abom9ations4 ,my love & respect = ,bi%op ,v&eveld1 7 v /rong *a9s1 by :i* ,i 0 b\nd to ! feet ( ! idols ( ,rome4 ,i w e>ne/ly bless ,god = hav+ himself brok5 ^! *a9s1 on t day ( supreme desolation4 ,! rema9+ "p ( ! day1 z well z ! h\r ( ! next morn+ :i* ! bi%op sp5t 9 my h\se1 ,i rema9$ almo/ mute 9 8 pres5ce4 ,he 0 n less emb>rass$ :5 he ask$ me my view ab\t 8 project ( leav+ ! diocese4 ,i answ]$ him1 9 a few words1 t ,i c\ld n disapprove ! purpose2 = ,i w\ld1 myself1 pref] to live 9 a d>k =e/1 9 ! mid/ ( wild animals1 ?an among drunk51 a!i/ prie/s & bi%ops4 ,"s mon?s lat]1 ,i le>n$1 )\t regret1 t ! ,pope _h accept$ 8 resignation ( ! ,bi%opric ( ,*icago1 & appo9t$ him ,bi%op ( ,nat*ez1 9 ,l\isiana4 ,8 successor to ! ,bi%opric ( ,*icago1 0 ,rev4 ,o',regan4 ,"o ( ! v fir/ ?+s :i* ?is new bi%op did1 0 to br+ ,bi%op ,v&eveld be=e ! crim9al tribunals1 z a ?ief1 accus+ him ( hav+ /ol5 #ajj1jjj f ! ,bi%opric ( ,*icago1 & c>ry+ !m away ) him4 ,!re is no ne$ to say1 t ?is action caus$ a t]rible sc&al4 ,n only 9 ,ill9ois1 b ?r\gh all ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 bo? prie/s & laym5 _h to blu%1 & ca/ d[n _! eyes be=e ! _w4 ,! two bi%ops1 employ+ ! be/ lawy]s to fight ea* o!r1 came v ne> prov+ to ! _w t bo? ( !m 7 equally sw9dl]s & ?ieves2 :5 ! ,pope =c$ !m bo? to /op _! conte/ation1 & br+ ! affair be=e 8 tribunal1 at ,rome4 ,!re1 x 0 decid$ t ! #ajj1jjj1 :i* _h really be5 tak5 f ,*icago to ! ,nat*ez diocese1 %\ld be equally divid$ betwe5 ! two bi%ops4 ,h[ _m times did ,i feel my s\l br\ght to ! du/1 9 ! mid/ ( ^? horrible sc&als6 ,h[ _m sleepless nights h ,i sp5t1 :5 a voice1 :i* ,i c\ld n sil5ce1 seem$ cry+ to me1 l\d] ?an ?und]3 8,:at are y do+ "h1 ext5d+ ! p[] ( a *ur*1 :i* is a d5 ( ?ieves1 drunk>ds1 & impure a!i/s8 ,a *ur*1 gov]n$ by m5 :om y "k to be godless1 sw9dl]s1 & vile com$ians8 ,d y n see t y d n foll[ ! ,^w ( ,god1 b ! ly+ traditions ( m51 :5 y cons5t to b[ y\r knees be=e su* m58 ,is x n blasphemy to call su* m5 ! ambassadors1 & ! disciples ( ! humble1 pure1 holy1 peaceful1 & div9e ,jesus8 ,come out ( t *ur*6 ,break ! fett]s1 by :i* y are b\nd1 z a vile slave1 to ! feet ( su* m56 ,take ! ,gospel = ?9e only guide1 & ,*ri/ = ?9e only ,rul]60 ,i 0 9 desolation1 at f9d+ t my fai? 9 my *ur* 01 9 spite ( myself1 %ak5 by ^! sc&als4 ,) burn+ te>s roll+ d[n my *eeks1 & ) a brok51 & humiliat$ he>t1 ,i fell1 "o night1 on my knees1 & ask$ my ,god to h m]cy ^u me1 by /r5g!n+ my fai? & pres]v+ x f ru94 ,b x seem$ t nei!r my te>s nor my cries 7 ( any avail1 & ,i rema9$ ! :ole night1 z a %ip /ruck by a hurricane1 drift+ on an unkn[n sea1 )\t a compass or a rudd]4 ,i 0 n aw>e ( x !n1 b ,i le>n$ x aft]1 t ! div9e & sure ,pilot 0 direct+ my c\rse t[>ds ! port ( salvation6 ,! next day1 ,i _h a happy div]sion1 9 ! arrival ( fifty new emigrants1 :o knock$ at my door1 ask+ my advice ab\t ! be/ place to select = _! future home4 ,x seem$ to me1 ?\gh pretty long aft] t1 t my duty 0 to g & pay my respects to my new bi%op1 & op5 to him my he>t z to my be/ fri5d1 & ! guide :om ,god ,himself _h *os5 to heal ! w\nds ( my s\l1 by p\r+ ! oil & w9e ( *>ity into !m4 ,i w nev] =get ! day 7! #aa? day ( ,decemb]1 #ahed7 :5 ,i saw ,bi%op ,o',regan1 = ! fir/ "t1 nor ! pa9ful impressions ,i receiv$ f t fir/ int]view4 ,he 0 ( m$ium /ature1 ) a repugnant face1 & 8 head always 9 motion3 all its motions seem$ ! expression ( insol5ce1 contempt1 tyranny1 & pride2 !re 0 absolutely no?+ pleasant1 ei!r 9 8 words1 or 9 8 mann]s4 ,i fell on my knees to ask 8 b5$iction1 :5 ,i _h giv5 him my "n & kiss$ 8 h&1 :i* seem$ z cold z t ( a corpse4 8,ah6 ah6 y are ,fa!r ,*9iquy10 he said1 8,i am glad to see y1 ?\gh y h def]r$ y\r visit a long "t2 please sit d[n1 ,i want "s explanation f y ab\t a c]ta9 v /range docum5t1 :i* ,i h j read to-day20 & he w5t1 at ! d\ble quick1 to 8 room to get ! docum5t4 ,!re 7 two ,iri% prie/s 9 ! room1 :o came a few m9utes be=e me4 ,:5 we 7 alone1 "o ( !m said3 8,we _h hop$ t we w\ld ga9 by *ang+ ,bi%op ,v&eveld1 = ?is "o4 ,b my fe> is t we h only pass$ f ,*>ybdis to ,scylla10 & !y laugh$ outright4 ,b ,i c\ld n laugh4 ,i 0 m incl9$ to weep4 ,aft] less ?an t5 m9utes ( abs5ce1 ! bi%op return$1 hold+ 9 8 h& a pap]1 :i* ,i und]/ood1 at once1 to be ! de$ ( ! elev5 acres ( l&1 :i* ,i _h b\ght1 & on :i* ,i _h built my *apel ( ,/4 ,anne4 8,d y kn[n ?is pap]80 he ask$ me 9 an angry mann]4 8,yes1 my "l1 ,i "k x10 ,i answ]$4 8,b1 !n10 he quickly repli$1 8y mu/ "k t t title is a nullity2 a fraud1 :i* y ought nev] to h sign$40 8,y\r v5]able & wor?y pr$ecessor has accept$ x10 ,i answ]$1 8& :at might h be5 incorrect has be5 made valid1 ,i hope1 by 8 acceptation40 8,i d n c>e a /raw ab\t :at my pr$ecessor has done10 he abruptly answ]$1 8he is n "h to def5d himself2 nei!r are we "h to discuss 8 m]its or dem]its4 ,we h n to deal ) my "l ,v&eveld1 b ) a docum5t :i* is a nullity1 a deception1 :i* mu/ be ?r[n into ! fire2 y mu/ give me ano!r title ( t prop]ty60 ,& say+ ?is1 he flung my de$ on ! floor4 ,i calmly pick$ x up1 & said3 8,i exce$+ly regret1 my "l1 t my fir/ int]view ) y\r lord%ip %\ld be ! occasion ( su* an unexpect$ act4 ,b ,i hope ?is w n de/roy ! pat]nal s5tim5ts :i* ,god mu/ h put into ! he>t ( my bi%op1 = ! la/ & lea/ ( 8 prie/s4 ,i see t y\r lord%ip is v busy2 ,i d n want to trespass on y\r valuable "t2 ,i take ?is reject$ docum5t ) me1 to make ano!r "o1 :i* ,i hope w be m agreeable to y\r views20 & ,i !n took my dep>ture4 ,i leave ! read] to imag9e ! s5tim5ts :i* fill$ my m9d :5 com+ back to my colony4 ,i did n d>e to say a ^w to my p ab\t our bi%op4 ,:5 que/ion$ by !m1 ,i gave ! mo/ evasive answ]s ,i c\ld4 ,b ,i felt z ! m>9] feels :5 he he>s ! rumbl+ ?und] approa*+4 ,?\gh ! sea is calm z ! oil ( a lamp1 he kn[s ! /orm is com+1 he trims 8 sails1 & prep>es = ! imp5d+ hurricane4 ,x seem$ t my mo/ press+ duty1 aft] my fir/ int]view1 0 to br+ my he>t ne>] to my ,god ?an ev]2 to read & /udy my ,bible ) m att5tion1 & to get my p to take m ?an ev] ! ,^w ( ,god z _! daily bread4 ,i began1 also1 to speak m op5ly ( our ,*ri/ian rights1 z well z ( our duties1 z ^! are set =? 9 ! ,gospel ( ,*ri/4 ,"s "t1 be=e ?is1 feel+ m ?an ev] t ,i c\ld n d ju/ice to my colony1 by keep+ any long] ! *>ge ( ,b\rbonnais1 ,i _h respectfully s5t my resignation to ! bi%op1 :i* _h be5 accept$4 ,a prie/ _h be5 call$ by him to take my place !re4 ,b he too 0 ere long1 guilty ( a public sc&al ) 8 s]vant girl4 ,! pr9cipal citiz5s ( ,b\rbonnais prote/$ aga9/ 8 pres5ce 9 _! mid/1 & soon =c$ ! bi%op to dismiss him4 ,8 successor 0 ! mis]able prie/1 ,lebel1 :o _h be5 turn$ out ( ,*icago = a crim9al (f5ce ) 8 own niece1 & 0 n[ to be ! curate ( ,b\rbonnais4 ,b 8 drunk5ness & o!r public vices1 caus$ him to be int]dict$1 & expell$ f t place1 9 ! mon? ( ,septemb]1 #ahee4 ,ab\t ! same "t1 a prie/1 :o _h be5 expell$ f ,belgium1 = a great sc&al1 0 s5t to ,kankakee1 z ! curate ( ! ,fr5* ,canadians ( t int]e/+ "y city4 ,aft] 8 expulsion f ,belgium1 he _h come to ,*icago1 :]e1 "u ano!r "n1 he _h made a =tune1 & = five or six ye>s kept a h\se ( pro/itution4 ,becom+ tir$ ( t occupation1 he (f]$ #e1jjj to ! bi%op1 if he w\ld accept him z "o ( 8 prie/s1 & give him a p>i%4 ,bi%op ,o',regan be+ 9 ne$ ( money1 accept$ ! gift1 & fulfill$ ! condition by s5d+ him z mission>y to ,kankakee4 ,z soon z he _h tak5 possession ( t int]e/+ mission1 he came ) ,mr4 ,lebel to pay me a visit4 ,i receiv$ !m z politely z possible1 ?\gh !y 7 bo? half drunk :5 !y arriv$4 ,aft] d9n]1 !y w5t to %oot prairie *ick5s1 & got s drunk t "o ( !m1 ,mr4 ,lebel1 lo/ 8 boots 9 a sl\gh1 & came back to my h\se b>efoot$1 )\t notic+ 8 loss4 ,i _h to help !m get _! c>riage1 & ! next day ,i wrote !m1 =bidd+ !m to ev] set a foot 9 my h\se aga94 ,b :at 0 my surprise & sadness1 n long be=e ^! two infam\s prie/s 7 ignom9i\sly turn$ out by _! p1 to receive a lett] f my bi%op1 :i* end$ 9 ^! words3 8,i am sorry to he> t y refuse to live on good t]ms ) y\r two neighbor+ bro!r prie/s4 ,?is ought n to be1 & ,i hope to he> soon1 t y h reconcil$ y\rself ) !m1 9 a fri5dly way1 z y ought to h done long ago40 ,i answ]$ him3 8,x is my int]e/1 z well z my duty1 to obey my bi%op4 ,i "k x4 ,b z long z my bi%op gives me = neighbors1 prie/s1 "o ( :om has liv$ publicly ) 8 own niece1 z 8 wife1 & ! o!r :o has kept a h\se ( pro/itution 9 ,*icago1 ,i respectfully ask my bi%op to be excus$ = n visit+ !m40 ,! bi%op felt insult$ by my lett]1 & 0 furi\s aga9/ me4 ,x came to be a public fact t he _h said be=e _m p3 8,i w\ld give any?+ to ! "o :o w\ld help me to get rid ( t unmanageable ,*9iquy40 ,among ^? :o he>d ! bi%op1 0 a l& speculator1 a real l&-%>k1 aga9/ :om a bill = p]jury _h be5 f\nd by ! jury ( ,iroquois c\nty1 ! #bg? ( ,april1 #ahed4 ,t man 0 v angry aga9/ me = protect+ my poor c\ntrym5 aga9/ 8 too %>p speculations4 ,he said to ! bi%op1 8if y pay ! exp5ses ( ! suit1 ,i pl$ge myself to h ,*9iquy put 9 gaol40 ,! bi%op _h publicly answ]$ him3 8,no sum ( money w be too great to be deliv]$ f a prie/1 :o alone gives me m tr\ble ?an ! re/ ( my cl]gy40 ,to comply ) ! desires ( ! bi%op1 ?is speculator dragg$ me be=e ! crim9al c\rt ( ,kankakee1 on ! #af? day ( ,may1 #ahee1 b he lo/ 8 action1 & 0 condemn$ to pay ! co/4 ,x 0 my impression t ! bi%op1 hav+ s (t5 express$ 9 public 8 bad feel+s aga9/ me1 w\ld n visit my colony4 ,b1 ,i 0 mi/ak51 on ! #aa? ( ,june1 tak+ ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,lebel & ,c>?uval = 8 companions1 he came to ,/4 ,anne to adm9i/] ! sacram5t ( confirmation4 ,z ! infam\s conduct ( ^? two prie/s 0 kn[n to e "o ( my p1 ,i felt a supreme disgu/ at _! arrival1 & came v ne> =bidd+ !m to sit at my table4 ,hav+1 h[ev]1 ask$ ! bi%op to give me half-an-h\r ( private int]view1 ,i respectfully1 b en]getically prote/$ aga9/ ! pres5ce ( ^! two degrad$ m5 9 my h\se4 ,he coldly answ]$ me3 8,mr4 ,*9iquy1 y =get t ,i am ! ,bi%op ( ,ill9ois1 & t y are a simple prie/1 :om ,i c int]dict & remove f "h :5 ,i l4 ,i d n come "h to receive y\r lessons1 b to intimate to y my ord]s4 ,y seem to =get t *>ity is above all o!rs ! virtue :i* mu/ adorn ! s\l ( a good prie/4 ,y\r great zeal is no?+ be=e ,god1 & x is less ?an no?+ be=e me1 s long z y h n *>ity4 ,x is my bus9ess1 & n y\rs1 to "k :at prie/s ,i mu/ employ or reject4 ,y\r bus9ess is to respect !m1 & =get _! pa/ errors1 ! v day ,i see fit to receive !m among my prie/s40 8,my "l10 ,i answ]$1 8all[ me respectfully to tell y1 t ?\gh y are a bi%op1 & ,i am a simple prie/1 ! ,gospel ( ,*ri/1 :i* we h to prea*1 tells u to avoid ! company ( publicly vici\s & pr(ligate m54 ,my consci5ce tells me t ?r\gh respect = myself1 & my p1 & ?r\gh respect = ! ,gospel ,i prea*1 ,i mu/ avoid ! company ( m51 "o ( :om has liv$ ) 8 niece z 8 wife1 & ! o!r has1 till v lately1 be5 guilty ( keep+ a h\se ( pro/itution 9 ,*icago4 ,y\r lord%ip may ignore ^! ?+s1 &1 9 consequ5ce ( t1 may give 8 confid5ce to ^! m52 b no?+ is m apt to de/roy ! fai? ( our ,fr5* ,canadian p1 ?an to see su* m5 9 y\r company :5 y come to adm9i/] ! sacram5t ( confirmation4 ,x is ?r\gh respect = y\r lord%ip1 t ,i take ! lib]ty ( speak+ ?us40 ,he angrily answ]$ me3 8,i see1 n[1 ! tru?fulness ( :at p say ab\t y4 ,x is to ! ,gospel y con/antly appeal on ev]y?+4 ,! ,gospel6 ,! ,gospel6 is surely a holy book2 b rememb] t x is ! *ur* :i* mu/ guide y4 ,*ri/ has said3 #8,he> my *ur*4' ,i am "h ! int]pret]1 ambassador--! repres5tative ( ! *ur*--:5 y disobey me1 x is ! *ur* y disobey40 8,n[1 my "l1 t ,i h fulfill$ :at ,i consid] a consci5ti\s duty1 ,i promise1 t ?r\gh respect = y\r lord%ip1 & to keep myself 9 ! bonds ( peace ) my bi%op1 ,i1 to-day1 w deal ) ^! two prie/s1 z if !y 7 wor?y ( ! honorable position y give !m40 8,all "r6 all "r60 repli$ ! bi%op4 8,b x mu/ be ne> ! h\r = d9n]40 8,yes1 my "l1 ,i h j he>d ! bell call+ u to ! d9+-room40 ,aft] ! bless+ ( ! table by ! bi%op he look$ at ! ,rev4 ,c>?uval1 :o 0 sitt+ j be=e him1 & said3 8,:at is ! matt] ) y1 ,mr4 ,c>?uval1 y d n look well80 8,no1 my "l10 he answ]$1 8,i am n well1 ,i want to g to b$40 ,he 0 correct1 he 0 n well1 = he 0 drunk4 ,dur+ ! public s]vices1 he _h left ! *apel to come d[n to ask = a bottle ( ! w9e ,i kept to celebrate mass4 ,! h\sekeep]1 ?9k+ he want$ ! w9e 9 ! *apel1 h&$ him ! bottle1 :i* he drank 9 h] pres5ce1 9 less ?an five m9utes4 ,aft] :i* he w5t up ! *apel to help ! bi%op 9 adm9i/]+ ! confirmation to ! #aej p :om ,i _h prep>$ = ! reception ( t rite4 ,z soon z d9n] 0 f9i%$1 ! bi%op reque/$ me to g & take a walk ) him4 ,aft] giv+ me "s complim5ts1 on ! beauty ( ! site ,i _h *os5 = my fir/ village & *apel1 he saw at a %ort di/ance1 a /one build+1 :i* 0 rais$ only a little above ! w9d[s1 & direct+ 8 /eps t[>ds x1 he /opp$ only tw5ty or ?irty feet di/ant & ask$ me3 8,^: h\se is ?is80 8,x is m9e1 my "l40 8,x is y\rs60 he repli$1 8& to :om does t f9e g>d5 belong80 8,x is m9e1 also1 my "l40 8,well6 ,well60 he rejo9$4 8,:]e did y get ! money to pur*ase t f9e piece ( l&1 & build t h\se80 8,i got ! money :]e e hone/ man gets :at he possesses1 9 my h>d labor1 & 9 ! sweat ( my br[10 ,i repli$4 8,i want t h\se & t piece ( l&60 rejo9$ ! bi%op1 ) an imp]ative voice4 8,s d ,i10 ,i repli$4 8,y mu/ give me t h\se1 ) ! l& on :i* x is built10 said ! bi%op4 8,i c n give !m z long z ,i am 9 ne$ ( !m1 my "l10 ,i repli$4 8,i see t y are a bad prie/1 z ,i h (t5 be5 told1 s9ce y disobey y\r bi%op10 he rejo9$ ) an angry mann]6 ,i repli$3 8,i d n see :y ,i am a bad prie/1 because ,i keep :at my ,god has giv5 me40 8,are y ignorant ( ! fact t y h no "r to possess any prop]ty10 he answ]$4 8,yes6 my "l1 ,i am ignorant ( any law 9 our holy *ur* t deprives me ( any su* rights4 ,if1 h[ev]1 y\r lord%ip c %[ me any su* law1 ,i w give y ! title ( t prop]ty j n[40 8,if !re is n su* a law10 he repli$1 /amp+ on ! gr\nd ) 8 feet1 8,i w get "o pass$40 8,my "l10 ,i repli$1 8,y are a great bi%op4 ,y h great p[] 9 ! *ur*1 b all[ me to tell y t y are n great en\gh to h su* a law pass$1 9 our holy *ur*60 8,y are an insol5t prie/10 he answ]$ ) an acc5t ( t]rible ang]1 8& ,i w make y rep5t = y\r insol5ce40 ,he !n turn$ 8 face t[>ds ! *apel1 )\t wait+ = my answ]1 & ord]$ ! horses put 9 ! c>riage1 t he might leave 9 ! %orte/ possible "t4 ,a qu>t] ( an h\r lat]1 he _h left ,/4 ,anne1 :]e he 0 nev] to come aga94 ,! visit ( t mitr$ ?ief1 ) 8 two pr(ligate prie/s1 ?\gh v %ort1 did mu* by ! m]cy ( ,god1 to prep>e our m9ds to und]/& t ,rome is ! great h>lot ( ! ,bible1 :i* s$uces & intoxicates ! nations ) ! w9e ( h] pro/itution4 ,,*apt] ,,liii4 ,,! ,,immaculate ,,conception ,,( ,,! ,,virg9 ,,m>y4 ,! #h? ,decemb]1 #ahed1 ,pope ,pius ,,ix4 0 sitt+ on 8 ?rone2 a triple cr[n ( gold & diamonds 0 on 8 head2 silk & damask--r$ & :ite ve/m5ts on 8 %\ld]s2 five hundr$ mitr$ prelates 7 surr\nd+ him2 & m ?an fifty ?\s& p 7 at 8 feet1 9 ! incomp>able ,/4 ,pet]'s ,*ur* ( ,rome4 ,aft] a few m9utes ( mo/ solemn sil5ce1 a ,c>d9al1 dress$ ) 8 purpl$ robe1 left 8 seat1 & gravely walk$ t[>ds ! ,pope1 kneel$ be=e him1 & humbly pro/rat+ himself1 at 8 feet said3 8,holy ,fa!r3 tell u if we c believe & tea* t ! ,"m ( ,god1 ! ,holy ,virg9 ,m>y1 0 immaculate 9 h] conception80 ,! ,supreme ,pontiff answ]$4 8,i d n "k2 let u ask ! light ( ! ,holy ,gho/40 ,! ,c>d9al )drew2 ! ,pope & ! numb]less multitude fell on _! knees2 & ! h>moni\s *oir sang ! 8,v5i ,creator ,spiritus40 ,! la/ note ( ! sacr$ hymn _h h>dly roll$ "u ! vaults ( ! ,temple1 :5 ! same ,c>d9al left 8 place1 & aga9 advanc$ t[>ds ! ?rone ( ! ,pontiff1 pro/rat$ himself at 8 feet1 & said3 8,holy ,fa!r1 tell u if ! ,holy ,"m ( ,god1 ! bless$ ,virg9 ,m>y1 0 immaculate 9 h] conception40 ,! ,pope aga9 answ]$3 8,i d n "k2 let u ask ! light ( ! ,holy ,gho/40 ,&1 aga91 ! 8,v5i ,creator ,spiritus0 0 sung4 ,! mo/ solemn sil5ce _h1 a second "t1 succe$$ to ! melodi\s sacr$ song1 :5 aga9 ! eyes ( ! multitude 7 foll[+ ! grave /eps ( ! purple-rob$ ,c>d9al1 advanc+1 = ! ?ird "t1 to ! ?rone ( ! successor ( ,/4 ,pet]1 to ask aga93 8,holy ,fa!r1 tell u if we c believe t ! bless$ ,virg9 ,m>y1 ! ,"m ( ,god1 0 immaculate80 ,! ,pope1 z if he _h j receiv$ a direct communication f ,god1 answ]$ ) a solemn voice3 8,yes6 we mu/ believe t ! bless$ ,virg9 ,m>y1 ! ,"m ( ,god1 0 immaculate 9 h] conception4 99 99 99 ,!re is no salvation to ^? :o d n believe ?is dogma60 ,&1 ) a l\d voice1 ! ,pope inton$ ! ,te ,deum2 ! bells ( ?ree hundr$ *ur*es ( ,rome rang2 ! cannons ( ! citadel 7 fir$4 ,! la/ act ( ! mo/ ridicul\s & sacrilegi\s com$y ! _w has ev] se51 0 ov]2 ! doors ( heav5 71 = ev]1 %ut aga9/ ^? :o w\ld refuse to believe ! anti-scriptural doctr9e t !re is a daught] ( ,eve :o has n inh]it$ ! s9ful nature ( ,adam1 to :om ! ,"l said 9 8 ju/ice3 8,du/ ?\ art1 & unto du/ %alt ?\ return60 & ( ! *ildr5 ( :om ! ,god ( tru? has said3 8',!re is none righte\s2 no1 n "o2 !y h all s9n$6'0 ,we look 9 va9 to ! fir/ c5turies ( ! ,*ur* to f9d any traces ( t human ab]ration4 ,! fir/ d>k cl\ds :i* ,satan _h br\ght to m> ! gospel tru?1 on t subject1 appe>$ only betwe5 ! eigh? & n9? c5turies4 ,b1 9 ! beg9n+1 t error made v sl[ progress2 ^? :o propagat$ x1 at fir/1 7 a few ignorant fanatics1 ^: names are lo/ 9 ! night ( ! d>k ages4 ,x is only 9 ! twelf? c5tury t x began to be op5ly prea*$ by "s bra9less monks4 ,b1 !n1 x 0 oppos$ by ! mo/ le>n$ m5 ( ! "t4 ,we h a v rem>kable lett] ( ,/4 ,b]n>d to refute "s monks ( ,lyons :o 7 prea*+ ?is new doctr9e4 ,a little lat]1 ,pet] ,lomb>d adopt$ ! views ( ! monks ( ,lyons1 & wrote a book to support t op9ion2 b he 0 refut$ by ,/4 ,?omas ,aqu9as1 :o is ju/ly consid]$1 by ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 z ! be/ !ologian ( t "t4 ,aft] t1 ! celebrat$ ord] ( ! ,franciscans us$ all _! influ5ce to p]suade ! _w t 8,m>y 0 immaculate 9 h] conception10 b !y 7 vigor\sly oppos$ & refut$ by ! n less celebrat$ ord] ( ! ,dom9icans4 ,^! two le>n$ & p[]ful bodies1 dur+ m ?an a c5tury1 attack$ ea* o!r )\t m]cy on t subject1 & fill$ ! _w ) ! noise ( _! angry disputes1 bo? p>ties call+ _! adv]s>ies h]etics4 ,!y succe$$ 9 driv+ ! ,roman ,ca?olics ( ,europe into two camps ( fi]ce enemies4 ,! 8,immaculate ,conception0 became ! subject ( burn+ discussions1 n only betwe5 ! le>n$ univ]sities1 betwe5 ! bi%ops & ! prie/s & ! nuns ( ^? days2 b x divid$ ! families into two fi]cely cont5d+ p>ties4 ,x 0 discuss$1 attack$ & def5d$1 n only 9 ! *airs ( univ]sities1 & ! pulpits ( ! ca!drals1 b also 9 ! fields1 & 9 ! v /reets ( ! cities4 ,& :5 ! two p>ties _h exhau/$ ! reasons :i* _! +5uity1 _! le>n+1 or _! ignorant fanaticism c\ld sugge/ to prove or d5y ! 8,immaculate ,conception10 !y (t5 _h rec\rse to ! /ick & to ! sword to su/a9 _! argum5ts4 ,x w appe> almo/ incr$ible to-day1 b x is a fact1 t ! greate/ numb] ( ! l>ge cities ( ,europe1 p>ticul>ly 9 ,spa91 7 !n r$d5$ ) ! blood ( ! support]s & oppon5ts ( t doctr9e4 ,9 ord] to put an end to ^! conte/s1 :i* 7 tr\bl+ ! peace ( _! subjects1 ! k+s ( ,europe s5t deputation aft] deputation to ! ,popes to "k1 f _! infallible au?ority1 :at to believe on ! subject4 ,philip ,,iii4 & ,philip ,,iv4 made :at we may call supreme ef=ts to =ce ! ,popes1 ,paul ,v41 ,gregory ,,xv41 & ,alex&] ,,vii41 to /op ! %$d+ ( blood1 & dis>m ! combatants1 by rais+ ! op9ion 9 favor ( ! ,immaculate ,conception to ! dignity ( a ,ca?olic dogma4 ,b !y fail$4 ,! only answ] !y c\ld get f ! infallible head ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome 01 t 8t dogma 0 n reveal$ 9 ! ,holy ,scriptures1 _h nev] be5 taught by ! ,apo/les1 nor by ! ,fa!rs1 & _h nev] be5 believ$ or prea*$ by ! ,*ur* ( ,rome z an article ( fai?60 ,! only ?+ ! ,popes c\ld d to please ! supplicant k+s & bi%ops1 & nations ( ,europe 9 ^? days1 0 to =bid bo? p>ties to call ea* o!r h]etics3 & to =bid to say t x 0 an article ( fai? :i* ought to be believ$ to be sav$4 ,at ! ,c\ncil ( ,tr5t1 ! ,franciscans1 & all ! p>tisans ( ! 8,immaculate ,conception10 ga!r$ h] /r5g? to h a decree 9 favor ( ! new dogma2 b ! majority ( ! bi%ops 7 visibly aga9/ t sacrilegi\s innovation1 & !y fail$4 ,x 0 res]v$ to ! un=tunate ,pius ,,ix41 to drag ! ,*ur* ( ,rome to t la/ limit ( human folly4 ,9 ! la/ c5tury1 a monk1 call$ ,fa!r ,leon>d1 _h a dream1 9 :i* he he>d ! ,virg9 ,m>y tell+ him3 8,!re w\ld be an end to ! w>s 9 ! _w1 & to ! h]esies & s*ism 9 ! *ur*1 only aft] a ,pope %\ld h oblig$1 by a decree1 all ! fai?ful to believe t %e 0 'immaculate 9 h] conception4'0 ,t dream1 "u ! "n ( a 8cele/ial vision10 _h be5 ext5sively circulat$1 by means ( little tracts4 ,_m believ$ x to be a g5u9e revelation f heav52 &1 un=tunately1 ! good natur$1 b weak-m9d$ ,pius ,,ix41 0 among ! numb]4 ,:5 he 0 an exile 9 ,gaeta1 he _h1 himself1 a dream1 :i* he took = a vision1 on ! same subject4 ,he saw ! ,virg91 :o told him t he %\ld come back to ,rome1 & get an et]nal peace = ! *ur*1 only aft] he %\ld h promis$ to decl>e t ! 8,immaculate ,conception0 0 a dogma1 :i* e "o _h to believe to be sav$4 ,he awoke f 8 dream mu* impress$ by x2 & ! fir/ ?+ he did :5 up1 0 to make a v[ to promulgate ! new dogma z soon z he %\ld be back to ,rome1 & ! _w has se5 h[ he has fulfill$ t v[4 ,b1 by ! promulgation ( ?is new dogma1 ,pius ,,ix41 f> f secur+ an et]nal peace to 8 *ur*1 f> f de/roy+ :at he 0 pleas$ to call ! h]esies :i* are attack+ ,rome on e side1 has done m to %ake ! fai? ( ! ,roman ,ca?olics ?an all _! enemies4 ,by try+ to =ce ?is new article ( fai? on ! consci5ces ( 8 p1 9 a "t t s _m c judge = !mselves1 & read ! records ( pa/ g5]ations1 he has pull$ d[n ! /ronge/ column :i* 0 support+ ! :ole fabric ( 8 *ur*2 he =ev] de/roy$ ! be/ argum5ts :i* ! prie/s _h to (f] to ! ignorant1 delud$ multitudes :i* !y kept s abjectly ti$ to _! feet4 ,no words c suffici5tly express ! dignifi$ & supreme contempt ) :i*1 be=e t epo*1 ! prie/s ( ,rome 7 speak+ ( ! 8new articles ( fai?1 ! novelties ( ! ar*-h]etics1 ,lu!r1 ,calv91 ,knox1 c41 c60 ,h[ eloqu5t 7 ! prie/s ( ,rome1 be=e ! #h? ( ,decemb]1 #ahed1 :5 say+ to _! poor ignorant dupes3 8,9 our holy ,*ur* ( ,rome !re is no *ange1 no innovations1 no novelties1 no new dogmas4 ,we believe to-day j :at our fa!rs believ$1 & :at !y h taught u2 we belong to ! apo/olical *ur*2 :i* means we believe only :at ,apo/les h believ$ & prea*$40 ,& ! ignorant multitudes 7 say+3 8,am560 ,b1 alas1 = ! poor prie/s ( ,rome to-day2 ^? dignifi$ nons5ses1 ^? preci\s & de> illusions1 are impossible6 ,!y h to confess t ^? high-s\nd+ d5unciations aga9/ :at !y call ! new doctr9es ( ! h]etics1 7 no?+ b big guns load$ to ! m\? to de/roy ! ,prote/ants1 :i* are dis*>g+ _! deadly missiles aga9/ ! crumbl+ walls ( _! ,*ur* ( ,rome4 ,!y h to confess t _! pret5sions to an un*angeable cre$ is all m]e humbug1 %ameful lies2 !y h to confess t ! ,*ur* ( ,rome is ,,=g+ ,,new ,,dogmas1 ,,new ,,articles ,,( ,,fai?2 !y d n any long] d>e to say to ! disciples ( ! ,gospel3 8,:]e 0 y\r religion be=e ! days ( ,lu!r & ,calv980 = ! secret voice ( _! consci5ce says to-day to ! ,roman ,ca?olics3 8,:]e 0 y\r religion be=e ! #h? ( ,decemb]1 #ahed80 & !y _c answ]4 ,!re is an inexorable & irresi/ible logic 9 ! m9ds ev5 ( ! mo/ unle>n$ m51 :i* defies1 to-day1 all ! sophisms ( ! prie/s ( ,rome1 if !y d>e to speak aga9 on _! pet subjects3 8! novelties & new dogmas ( ! ,prote/ants40 ,!re is a sil5t1 b cru%+ voice1 go+1 to-day1 f ! cr[ds to ! prie/1 tell+ him3 8,n[1 be quiet & sil5t on :at y are us$ to call ! novelties & new doctr9es ( ! ,prote/ants6 =1 are y n prea*+ to u an awful novelty8 ,are y n damn+ u to-day = disbeliev+ a ?+ :i* ! *ur*1 dur+ eighte5 hundr$ ye>s has1 a hundr$ times1 solemnly decl>$1 by ! m\? ( ! ,popes1 _h nev] be5 reveal$ 9 ! ,holy ,scriptures1 _h nev] be5 taught by ! ,fa!rs1 _h nev] be5 he>d ( by ! *ur* h]self80 ,i w nev] =get ! sadness :i* ov]came me :5 ,i receiv$ ! ord] f ,bi%op ,o',regan to proclaim t new dogma to my p1 7!n all ,roman ,ca?olics47 ,x 0 z if an e>?quake _h %ak5 & de/roy$ ! gr\nd on :i* my feet 7 re/+4 ,my mo/ *]i%$ illusions ab\t ! immutability & ! infallibility ( my *ur* 7 crumbl+ d[n1 9 my intellig5ce1 9 spite ( my ef=ts to keep !m up4 ,i h se5 old prie/s1 to :om ,i op5$ my m9d on t subject1 %$ te>s ( sorr[ on ! injury ?is new dogma w\ld d to ! *ur*4 ,! ,ar*bi%op ( ,p>is1 at ! head ( ! mo/ le>n$ memb]s ( ! cl]gy ( ,france1 _h s5t 8 prote/ to ! ,pope aga9/ ?is dogma be=e x 0 decre$2 & he _h eloqu5tly =etold ! deplorable consequ5ces :i* w\ld foll[ t innovation2 b _! w>n+ voice fail$ to make any impression on ! m9d ( ! infatuat$ ,pope4 ,&1 we *ildr5 ( ,god1 mu/ we n ackn[l$ge ! h& ( ! ,"l1 9 t bl9dness ( 8! man ( s960 ,! days are n f> away t a cry ( joy w be he>d f "o end ( ! _w to ! o!r3 8,fe> ,god1 & give glory to him6 ,babylon is fall56 ,babylon is fall56 because %e made all nations dr9k ( ! w9e ( ! wra? ( h] =nications40 ,=1 :5 we see t 8wick$ "o1 :o exalte? himself above all t is call$ ,god10 de/roy+ himself by ! excess ( 8 own folly & impurities1 we mu/ bless ! ,"l4 ,! proclamation ( ?is new dogma is "o ( ^? great moral iniquities :i* c>ry _! puni%m5t & _! rem$y 9 _! own h&s4 ,:5 ! ,pope1 9 ! morn+ ( ! #h? ( ,decemb]1 #ahed1 answ]$ twice3 8,i d n "k20 to ! "q put to him3 8,is ! ,virg9 ,m>y ,immaculate 9 h] ,conception80 & !n1 a m9ute aft]1 to ! same "q1 he answ]$3 8,yes6 ,i "k x3 ! ,holy ,virg9 ,m>y 0 ,immaculate 9 h] ,conception20 he prov$ to 8 mo/ cr$ul\s dupes t he 0 no?+ b a sacrilegi\s com$ian4 ,h[ w\ld a jury ( hone/ m5 deal ) a witness :o1 be+ int]rogat$ ab\t :at he kn[s ( a c]ta9 fact1 w\ld answ]3 8,i "k no?+ ab\t x20 & a mom5t aft] w\ld ackn[l$ge t 8he kn[s ev]y?+ ab\t x80 ,w\ld n su* a witness be ju/ly puni%$ z a p]jur]8 ,su* is ! sad & un5viable position :i* ! ,pope made to himself & to 8 *ur*1 on ! #h? ( ,decemb]1 #ahed4 ,int]rogat$ by ! nations ( ,europe ab\t :at 0 to be believ$ on ! 8,conception ( ! ,virg9 ,m>y10 ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 dur+ t5 c5turies1 _h answ]$3 8,i d n "k40 ,& let e "o rememb] t %e wants to be believ$ ,,infallible :5 %e says %e 8kn[s no?+ ab\t ! ,immaculate ,conception40 ,b1 to-day1 t same *ur* assures u1 ?r\gh ! infallible decree ( ,pius ,,ix41 t %e kn[s1 & t %e has always kn[n & believ$ t ! ,virg9 ,m>y 0 ,immaculate6 ,has ! _w ev] se5 su* a want ( self-respect1 su* an unblu%+ impud5ce6 ,:at v]dict w ! ,*ri/ian _w give aga9/ t great "m ( lies8 ,:at puni%m5t w ! ,god ( tru? adm9i/] to t great culprit :o swe>s 8yes0 & 8no0 on ! same "q8 ,x is a fact1 t by ! promulgation ( ?is decree1 ,pius ,,ix4 _h =ev] de/roy$ 8 pre/ige 9 ! m9ds ( millions ( 8 foll[]s4 ,a few days aft] ,i _h read to my congregation ! decree ( ! pope proclaim+ ! new dogma1 & damn+ all ^? :o w\ld n believe x1 "o ( my mo/ intellig5t & respectable f>m]s came to visit me1 & put to me ! foll[+ que/ions on ! new articles ( fai?3 8,mr4 ,*9iquy1 please tell me1 h ,i correctly und]/ood ! lett] f ! pope y read u la/ ,sabba?8 ,does ! pope tell u 9 t lett] t we c f9d ?is new dogma ( ! #8,immaculate ,conception' 9 ! ,holy ,scriptures2 t x has be5 taught by ! ,fa!rs1 & t ! *ur* has con/antly believ$ x f ! days ( ! ,apo/les80 ,i answ]$3 8,yes1 my fri5d1 ! pope tells u all ^? ?+s 9 8 lett] :i* ,i read 9 ! *ur* la/ ,sabba?40 8,b1 sir1 w y be s k9d z to read me ! v]ses ( ! ,holy ,scriptures :i* are 9 favor ( ! ,immaculate ,conception ( ! ,holy ,virg9 ,m>y80 8,my de> fri5d10 ,i answ]$18 8,n[1 please tell me ! names ( ! ,holy ,fa!rs :o h prea*$ t we mu/ believe 9 ! ,immaculate ,conception1 or be =ev] damn$ if we d n believe 9 x60 ,i answ]$ my p>i%ion]3 8,i w\ld h pref]r$1 my de> fri5d1 t y %\ld h nev] come to put to me ^! que/ions2 b z y ask me ! tru?1 ,i mu/ tell y ! tru?4 ,i h /udi$ ! ,fa!rs ) a pretty good att5tion1 b ,i h n yet f\nd a s+le "o ( !m :o 0 ( t op9ion 9 any way40 8,i hope10 add$ ! good f>m]1 8y w excuse me if ,i put to y ano!r "q on ?is subject4 ,p]haps y d n "k x1 b !re is a great deal ( feel+ & talk+ ab\t ?is new article ( fai? among u s9ce la/ ,sabba?2 ,i want to "k a little m ab\t x4 ,! pope says 9 8 lett] t ! ,*ur* ( ,rome has always believ$ & taught t dogma ( ,immaculate ,conception4 ,is t correct80 8,yes1 my fri5d1 ! pope says t 9 8 ,encyclical2 b ^! la/ n9e hundr$ ye>s m ?an "o hundr$ popes h decl>$ t ! *ur* _h nev] believ$ x4 ,ev5 sev]al popes h =bidd5 to say #8t ! ,immaculate ,conception 0 an article ( fai?'--& !y solemnly p]mitt$ u to believe & say :at we please on t matt]40 8,if x be s ) ?is new dogma1 h[ c we "k x is n s ) ! o!r dogmas ( our *ur*1 z ! confession1 ! purgatory1 etc480 add$ ! f>m]4 8,my de> fri5d1 d n all[ ! devil to %ake y\r fai?4 ,we are liv+ 9 bad days1 inde$4 ,let u pray ,god to enlight5 u & save u4 ,i w\ld h giv5 mu* _h y nev] put to me ^! que/ions60 ,my hone/ p>i%ion] _h left me2 b 8 awful que/ions 7!y 7 really awful1 z !y are /ill awful = a prie/ ( ,rome71 & ! answ]s ,i _h be5 =c$ to give 7 s\nd+ 9 my s\l z ?und]-claps4 ,!re 0 9 my poor trembl+ he>t1 z ! awful noise ( an irresi/ible /orm :i* 0 to de/roy all t ,i _h s de>ly *]i%$ & respect$ 9 my !n s de> & v5]at$ ,*ur* ( ,rome4 ,my head 0 a*+4 ,i fell on my knees2 b = a "t ,i c\ld n utt] a ^w ( pray]2 big te>s 7 roll+ on my burn+ *eeks2 new light 0 com+ be=e ! eyes ( my s\l2 b ,i took x = ! deceitful temptation ( ,satan2 a voice 0 speak+ to me--x 0 ! voice ( my ,god1 tell+ me1 8,come out f ,babylon60 ,b ,i took t voice = ! voice ( ,satan2 ,i 0 try+ to sil5ce x4 ,! ,"l 0 !n draw+ me away f my p]i%+ ways2 b ,i did n "k ,him !n2 ,i 0 /ruggl+ aga9/ ,him to rema9 9 ! d>k dungeons ( error4 ,b ,god 0 to be ! /rong]4 ,9 ,8 inf9ite m]cy ,he 0 to ov]p[] ,8 unfai?ful s]vant2 ,he 0 to conqu] me1 & ) me _m o!rs4 ,,*apt] ,,liv ,,! ,,abom9ations ,,( ,,auricul> ,,confession4 ,!re are two wom5 :o ought to be con/ant objects ( ! compassion ( ! disciples ( ,*ri/1 & = :om daily pray]s ought to be (f]$ at ! m]cy-seat--! ,brahm9 woman1 :o1 deceiv$ by h] prie/s1 burns h]self on ! corpse ( h] husb& to appease ! wra? ( h] wood5 gods2 & ! ,roman ,ca?olic woman1 :o1 n less deceiv$ by h] prie/s1 suff]s a torture f> m cruel & ignom9i\s 9 ! confessional-box1 to appease ! wra? ( h] waf]-god4 ,= ,i d n exagg]ate :5 ,i say1 t = _m noble-he>t$1 well-educat$1 high-m9d$ wom5 to be =c$ to unveil _! he>ts be=e ! eyes ( a man1 to op5 to him all ! mo/ secret recesses ( _! s\ls1 all ! mo/ sacr$ my/]ies ( _! s+le or m>ri$ life1 to all[ him to put to !m que/ions :i* ! mo/ deprav$ woman w\ld nev] cons5t to he> f h] vile/ s$uc]1 is (t5 m horrible & intol]able ?an to be ti$ on burn+ coals4 ,m ?an once1 ,i h se5 wom5 fa9t+ 9 ! confessional-box1 :o told me aft]w>ds t ! necessity ( speak+ to an unm>ri$ man on c]ta9 ?+s1 on :i* ! mo/ common laws ( dec5cy ought to h =ev] seal$ _! lips1 _h almo/ kill$ !m6 ,n hundr$s1 b ?\s&s ( times1 ,i h he>d f ! lips ( dy+ girls1 z well z m>ri$ wom51 ! awful words3 8,i am =ev] lo/6 ,all my pa/ confessions & communions h be5 s _m sacrileges6 ,i h nev] d>$ to answ] correctly ! que/ions ( my confessors6 ,%ame has seal$ my lips & damn$ my s\l60 ,h[ _m times ,i rema9$ z "o petrifi$ by ! side ( a corpse1 :5 ^! la/ words hav+ h>dly escap$ ! lips ( "o ( my female p5it5ts :o _h be5 snat*$ out ( my rea* by ! m]ciless h& ( dea? be=e ,i c\ld give h] p>don ?r\gh ! deceitful sacram5tal absolution4 ,i !n believ$1 z ! dead s9n] h]self _h believ$1 t %e %\ld n be =giv5 except by t absolution4 ,= !re are n only ?\s&s1 b millions1 ( ,roman ,ca?olic girls & wom5 ^: ke5 s5se ( mode/ & womanly dignity are above all ! sophisms & diabolical ma*9ations ( _! prie/s4 ,!y nev] c be p]suad$ to answ] 8,yes0 to c]ta9 que/ions ( _! confessors4 ,!y w\ld pref] to be ?r[n into ! flames & burnt to a%es ) ! ,brahm9 wid[s1 r ?an all[ ! eyes ( a man to pry into ! sacr$ sanctu>y ( _! s\ls4 ,?\gh sometimes guilty be=e ,god1 & "u ! impression t _! s9s w nev] be =giv5 if n confess$1 ! laws ( dec5cy are /rong] 9 _! he>ts ?an ! laws ( _! p]fidi\s *ur*4 ,no consid]ation1 n ev5 ! fe> ( et]nal damnation1 c p]suade !m to decl>e to a s9ful man s9s :i* ,god alone has ! "r to "k1 = ,he alone c blot !m out ) ! blood ( ,8 ,son1 %$ on ! cross4 ,b :at a wret*$ life mu/ t be ( ^? exceptional noble s\ls :i* ,rome keeps 9 ! d>k dungeons ( h] sup]/ition6 ,!y read 9 all _! books & he> f all _! pulpits t if !y conceal a s+le s9 f _! confessors1 !y are =ev] lo/6 ,b be+ absolutely unable to trample "u _! feet ! laws ( self-respect & dec5cy1 :i* ,god ,himself has impress$ 9 _! s\ls1 !y live 9 con/ant dread ( et]nal damnation4 ,no human words c tell _! desolation & di/ress1 :5 at ! feet ( _! confessors1 !y f9d !mselves "u ! horrible necessity ( speak+ ( ?+s on :i* !y w\ld pref] to suff] ! mo/ cruel dea? r ?an to op5 _! lips1 or to be =ev] damn$ if !y d n degrade !mselves =ev] 9 _! own eyes by speak+ on matt]s :i* a respectable woman w nev] reveal to h] own "m1 mu* less to a man6 ,i h kn[n only too _m ( ^! noble-he>t$ wom51 :o1 :5 alone ) ,god 9 a real agony ( desolation & ) burn+ te>s1 _h ask$ ,him to grant !m :at !y consid]$ ! greate/ favor1 :i* 0 to lose s mu* ( _! self-respect z to be enabl$ to speak ( ^? unm5tionable ?+s j z _! confessors want$ !m to speak2 &1 hop+ t _! petition _h be5 grant$1 !y w5t aga9 to ! confessional-box1 det]m9$ to unveil _! %ame be=e ! eyes ( t inexorable man4 ,b :5 ! mom5t _h come = ! self-immolation1 _! c\rage fail$1 _! knees trembl$1 _! lips became pale z dea?1 cold sweat p\r$ f all _! pores6 ,! voice ( mode/y & womanly self-respect 0 speak+ l\d] ?an ! voice ( _! false religion4 ,!y _h to g out ( ! confessional-box unp>don$--nay1 ) ! burd5 ( a new sacrilege on _! consci5ce4 ,oh6 h[ heavy is ! yoke ( ,rome--h[ bitt] is human life--h[ *e]less is ! my/]y ( ! cross to ^? delud$ & p]i%+ s\ls6 ,h[ gladly !y w\ld ru% into ! blaz+ piles ) ! ,brahm9 wom51 if !y c\ld hope to see ! end ( _! unspeakable mis]ies ?r\gh ! mom5t>y tortures :i* w\ld op5 to !m a bett] life6 ,i d "h publicly *all5ge ! :ole ,roman ,ca?olic prie/hood to d5y t ! great] "p ( _! female p5it5ts rema9 a c]ta9 p]iod ( "t--"s long]1 "s %ort]--"u t mo/ di/ress+ /ate ( m9d4 ,yes1 by f> ! great] majority ( wom5 at fir/ f9d x impossible to pull d[n ! sacr$ b>ri]s ( self-respect1 :i* ,god ,himself has built ar\nd _! he>ts1 intellig5ces & s\ls z ! be/ safegu>d aga9/ ! sn>es ( ?is pollut$ _w4 ,^? laws ( self-respect1 by :i* !y _c cons5t to speak an impure ^w into ! e>s ( a man1 & :i* %ut all ! av5ues ( ! he>t aga9/ 8 un*a/e que/ions1 ev5 :5 speak+ 9 ! "n ( ,god--^? laws ( self-respect are s cle>ly writt5 on _! consci5ce1 & !y are s well und]/ood by !m to be a mo/ ,div9e gift1 t1 z ,i h already said1 _m pref] to run ! risk ( be+ =ev] lo/ by rema9+ sil5t4 ,x takes _m ye>s ( ! mo/ +5i\s 7,i d n hesitate to call x diabolical7 ef=ts on ! "p ( ! prie/s to p]suade ! majority ( _! female p5it5ts to speak on que/ions :i* ev5 pagan savages w\ld blu% to m5tion among !mselves4 ,"s p]si/ 9 rema9+ sil5t on ^? matt]s dur+ ! great] "p ( _! lives1 & _m ( !m pref] to ?r[ !mselves into ! h&s ( _! m]ciful ,god1 & die )\t submitt+ to ! defil+ ordeal1 ev5 aft] !y h felt ! poison\s /+s ( ! enemy1 r ?an receive _! p>don f a man :o1 z !y feel1 w\ld surely h be5 sc&aliz$ by ! recital ( _! human frailties4 ,all ! prie/s ( ,rome are aw>e ( ?is natural disposition ( _! female p5it5ts4 ,!re is n a s+le "o--no1 n a s+le "o ( _! moral !ologians1 :o does n w>n ! confessors aga9/ t /]n & g5]al det]m9ation ( ! girls & m>ri$ wom5 nev] to speak 9 ! confessional on matt]s :i* may m or less deal ) s9s aga9/ ! sev5? comm&m5t4 ,d5s1 ,liguori1 ,debrey5e1 ,bailly1 etc41--9 a ^w1 all ! !ologians ( ,rome1 own t ?is is "o ( ! greate/ difficulties :i* ! confessors h to cont5d ) 9 ! confessional-box4 ,n a s+le ,roman ,ca?olic prie/ w d>e to d5y :at ,i say on ?is matt]1 = !y "k t x w\ld be easy = me to ov]:elm !m ) su* a cr[d ( te/imonials t _! gr& impo/ure w\ld =ev] be unmask$4 ,i int5d1 at "s future day1 if ,god sp>es me & gives me "t = x1 to make kn[n "s ( ! innum]able ?+s :i* ! ,roman ,ca?olic !ologians & morali/s h writt5 on ?is "q4 ,x w =m "o ( ! mo/ curi\s books ev] writt51 & x w give unansw]able evid5ce ( ! fact t1 in/9ctively1 )\t consult+ ea* o!r1 & ) an unanimity :i* is almo/ m>vell\s1 ! ,roman ,ca?olic wom51 guid$ by ! hone/ in/9cts :i* ,god has giv5 !m1 %r9k f ! sn>es put be=e !m 9 ! confessional-box1 & t ev]y:]e !y /ruggle to n]ve !mselves ) a sup]human c\rage aga9/ ! tortur] :o is s5t by ! pope to f9i% _! ru91 & to make %ipwrecks ( _! s\ls4 ,ev]y:]e woman feels t !re are ?+s :i* ought nev] to be told1 z !re are ?+s :i* ought nev] to be done1 9 ! pres5ce ( ! ,god ( hol9ess4 ,%e und]/&s t to recite ! hi/ory ( c]ta9 s9s1 ev5 ( ?\ght1 is n less %ameful & crim9al ?an to d !m4 ,%e he>s ! voice ( ,god :isp]+ into h] e>s18 ,p]haps ! _w has nev] se5 a m t]rible1 desp]ate1 solemn /ruggle ?an ! "o :i* is go+ on 9 ! s\l ( a poor trembl+ "y woman1 :o1 at ! feet ( t man1 has to decide :e!r or n %e w op5 h] lips on ^? ?+s :i* ! infallible voice ( ,god1 unit$ to ! no less infallible voice ( h] womanly honor & self-respect1 tell h] nev] to reveal to any man6 ,! hi/ory ( t secret1 fi]ce1 desp]ate /ruggle1 has nev] yet1 s f> z ,i "k1 be5 fully giv54 ,x w\ld draw ! te>s ( admiration & compassion ( ! :ole _w1 if x c\ld be writt5 ) its simple1 sublime1 & t]rible realities4 ,h[ _m times ,i h wept z a *ild :5 "s noble-he>t$ & intellig5t "y girl1 or "s respectable m>ri$ woman1 yield+ to ! sophisms ) :i* ,i or "s o!r confessor1 _h p]suad$ !m to give up _! self-respect & _! womanly dignity to speak ) me on matt]s on :i* a dec5t woman %\ld nev] say a ^w ) a man4 ,!y h told me ( _! inv9cible repugnance1 _! horror ( su* que/ions & answ]s1 & !y h ask$ me to h pity on !m4 ,yes6 ,i h (t5 wept bitt]ly on my degradation1 :5 a prie/ ( ,rome4 ,i h realiz$ all ! /r5g?1 ! gr&eur & ! hol9ess ( _! motives = be+ sil5t on ^! defil+ matt]s1 & ,i c\ld n b admire !m4 ,x seem$ at times t !y 7 speak+ ! language ( angels ( light2 t ,i ought to fall at _! feet & ask _! p>don = hav+ spok5 to !m ( que/ions on :i* a man ( honor ought nev] to conv]se ) a woman :om he respects4 ,b alas6 ,i _h soon to reproa* myself1 & regret ^? %ort in/ances ( my wav]+ fai? 9 ! infallible voice ( my *ur*4 ,i _h soon to sil5ce ! voice ( my consci5ce1 :i* 0 tell+ me1 8,is x n a %ame t y1 an unm>ri$ man1 d>e to speak on ^! matt]s ) a woman8 ,d y n blu% to put su* que/ions to a "y girl8 ,:]e is y\r self-respect--:]e is y\r fe> ( ,god8 ,d y n promote ! ru9 ( t girl by =c+ h] to speak on ^! matt]s80 ,h[ _m times my ,god has spok5 to me z ,he speaks to all ! prie/s ( ,rome1 & said ) a ?und]+ voice3 8,:at w\ld t "y man d1 c\ld he he> ! que/ions y put to 8 wife8 ,w\ld he n bl[ out y\r bra9s8 ,& t fa!r1 w\ld he n pass 8 dagg] ?r\gh y\r brea/ if he c\ld "k :at y ask f 8 poor trembl+ daught]8 ,w\ld n ! bro!r ( t "y girl put an end to y\r mis]able life if he c\ld he> ! unm5tionable subjects on :i* y speak ) h] 9 ! confessional80 ,i 0 compell$ by all ! popes1 ! moral !ologians1 & ! ,c\ncils ( ,rome to believe t ?is w>n+ voice ( my m]ciful ,god 0 ! voice ( ,satan4 ,i _h to believe1 9 spite ( my own consci5ce & intellig5ce1 t x 0 good1 nay1 necess>y1 to put ^? pollut+1 damn+ que/ions4 ,my infallible *ur* 0 m]cilessly =c+ me to oblige ^? poor trembl+1 weep+1 desolate girls & wom5 to swim ) me & all _! prie/s 9 ^? wat]s ( ,sodom & ,gomorrah1 "u ! pretext t _! self-w w\ld be brok5 d[n1 _! fe> ( s9 & humility increas$1 & t !y w\ld be purifi$ by our absolutions4 ,) :at supreme di/ress1 disgu/ & surprise we see1 to-day1 a great "p ( ! noble ,episcopal ,*ur* ( ,engl& /ruck by a plague :i* seems incurable1 "u ! "n ( ,puseyism1 or ,ritualism1 br++ aga9--m or less op5ly--9 _m places ! diabolical & fil?y auricul> confession among ! ,prote/ants ( ,engl&1 ,au/ralia & ,am]ica ,! ,episcopal *ur* is doom$ to p]i% 9 t d>k & /9k+ pool ( pop]y--auricul> confession--if %e does n f9d a prompt rem$y to /op ! plague br\ght by ! disguis$ ,jesuits1 :o are at "w ev]y:]e to poison & enslave h] too unsuspect+ daught]s & sons4 ,9 ! beg9n+ ( my prie/hood1 :5 ,i 0 9 ,quebec ,i 0 n a little surpris$ & emb>rass$ to see a v accompli%$ & beautiful "y lady1 :om ,i us$ to meet almo/ e week at h] fa!r's h\se1 ent]+ ! box ( my confessional4 ,%e _h be5 us$ to confess to ano!r "y prie/ ( my acqua9tance1 & %e 0 always look$ ^u z "o ( ! mo/ pi\s girls ( ! city4 ,?\gh %e _h disguis$ h]self z mu* z possible1 9 ord] t ,i might n "k h]1 ,i felt sure t ,i 0 n mi/ak5--%e 0 ! amiable ,m>y 99 99 ,n be+ absolutely c]ta9 ( ! correctness ( my impressions1 ,i left h] entirely "u ! hope t %e 0 a p]fect /rang] to me4 ,at ! beg9n+ %e c\ld h>dly speak2 h] voice 0 suffocat$ by h] sobs1 & ?r\gh ! little ap]tures ( ! ?9 p>tition betwe5 h] & me1 ,i saw two /reams ( big te>s trickl+ d[n h] *eeks4 ,aft] mu* ef=t1 %e said3 8,de> ,fa!r1 ,i hope y d n "k me1 & t y w nev] try to "k me--,i am a desp]ately great s9n]4 ,oh6 ,i fe> t ,i am lo/6 ,b if !re is /ill a hope = me to be sav$1 = ,god's sake1 d n rebuke me6 ,be=e ,i beg9 my confession1 all[ me to ask y n to pollute my e>s by que/ions :i* our confessors are 9 ! habit ( putt+ to _! female p5it5ts2 ,i h already be5 de/roy$ by ^? que/ions4 ,be=e ,i 0 sev5te5 ye>s old1 ,god kn[s t ,8 angels are n m pure ?an ,i 02 b ! *apla9 ( ! nunn]y :]e my p>5ts _h s5t me = my education1 ?\gh approa*+ old age1 put to me 9 ! confessional a "q :i*1 at fir/1 ,i did n und]/&1 b1 un=tunately1 he _h put ! same que/ions to "o ( my "y class-mates1 :o made fun ( !m 9 my pres5ce1 & expla9$ !m to me3 = %e und]/ood !m too well4 ,?is fir/ un*a/e conv]sation ( my life plung$ my ?\ghts into a sea ( iniquity1 till !n absolutely unkn[n to me2 temptations ( ! mo/ humiliat+ "* assail$ me = a week1 day & night2 aft] :i*1 s9s :i* ,i w\ld blot out ) my blood1 if x 7 possible1 ov]:elm$ my s\l z ) a deluge4 ,b ! joys ( ! s9n] are %ort4 ,/ruck ) t]ror at ! ?\ght ( ! judgm5t ( ,god1 aft] a few weeks ( ! mo/ deplorable life1 ,i det]m9$ to give up my s9s & reconcile myself to ,god4 ,cov]$ ) %ame1 & trembl+ f head to foot ,i w5t to confess to my old confessor1 :om ,i respect$ z a sa9t & *]i%$ z a fa!r4 ,x seems to me t1 ) s9c]e te>s ( rep5tance1 ,i confess$ to him ! greate/ "p ( my s9s1 ?\gh ,i conceal$ "o ( !m1 ?r\gh %ame & respect = my spiritual guide4 ,b ,i did n conceal f him t ! /range que/ions he _h put to me at my la/ confession 71 ) ! natural corruption ( my he>t1 ! pr9cipal cause ( my de/ruction4 8,he spoke to me v k9dly1 enc\rag$ me to fight aga9/ my bad incl9ations1 &1 at fir/1 gave me v k9d & good advice4 ,b :5 ,i ?\ght he _h f9i%$ speak+1 & z ,i 0 prep>+ to leave ! confessional-box1 he put to me two new que/ions ( su* a pollut+ "* t1 ,i fe> nei!r ! blood ( ,*ri/1 nor all ! fires ( hell w ev] be able to blot !m out ( my memory4 ,^? que/ions h a*iev$ my ru92 !y h /uck to my m9d l two deadly arr[s2 !y are day & night be=e my imag9ation2 !y fill my art]ies & ve9s ) deadly poison4 8,x is true1 t at fir/1 !y fill$ me ) horror & disgu/2 b alas6 ,i soon got s accu/om$ to !m t !y seem$ to be incorporat$ ) me1 & z if becom+ a second nature4 ,^? ?\ghts h become a new s\rce ( innum]able crim9al ?\ghts1 desires & actions4 8,a mon? lat]1 we 7 oblig$ by ! rules ( our conv5t to g & confess2 b by ?is "t1 ,i 0 s completely lo/1 t ,i no long] blu%$ at ! idea ( confess+ my %ameful s9s to a man2 x 0 ! v contr>y4 ,i _h a real1 diabolical pleasure 9 ! ?\ght t ,i %\ld h a long conv]sation ) my confessor on ^? matt]s1 & t he w\ld ask me m ( 8 /range que/ions4 ,9 fact1 :5 ,i _h told him ev]y?+ )\t a blu%1 be began to int]rogate me1 & ,god kn[s :at corrupt+ ?+s fell f 8 lips into my poor crim9al he>t6 ,e "o ( 8 que/ions 0 ?rill+ my n]ves & fill+ me ) ! mo/ %ameful s5sations6 ,aft] an h\r ( ?is crim9al tete-a-tete ) my old confessor 7= x 0 no?+ else b a crim9al tete-a-tete71 ,i p]ceiv$ t he 0 z deprav$ z ,i 0 myself4 ,) "s half-cov]$ words1 he made a crim9al proposition1 :i* ,i accept$ ) cov]$ words also2 & dur+ m ?an a ye>1 we h liv$ toge!r on ! mo/ s9ful intimacy4 ,?\gh he 0 mu* old] ?an ,i1 ,i lov$ him 9 ! mo/ fooli% way4 ,:5 ! c\rse ( my conv5t in/ruction 0 f9i%$1 my p>5ts call$ me back to _! home4 ,i 0 really glad ( t *ange ( resid5ce1 = ,i 0 beg9n+ to be tir$ ( my crim9al life4 ,my hope 0 t1 "u ! directions ( a bett] confessor1 ,i %\ld reconcile myself to ,god & beg9 a ,*ri/ian life4 8,un=tunately = me1 my new confessor1 :o 0 v "y1 began also 8 int]rogation4 ,he soon fell 9 love ) me1 & ,i lov$ him 9 a mo/ crim9al way4 ,i h done ) him ?+s :i* ,i hope y w nev] reque/ me to reveal to y1 = !y are too mon/r\s to be repeat$1 ev5 9 ! confessional1 by a woman to a man4 8,i d n say ^! ?+s to take away ! responsibility ( my iniquities ) my "y confessor1 f my %\ld]s1 = ,i ?9k ,i h be5 m crim9al ?an he 04 ,x is my firm conviction t he 0 a good & holy prie/ be=e he knew me2 b ! que/ions he put to me1 & ! answ]s ,i _h to give him1 melt$ 8 he>t--,i "k x--j z boil+ lead w\ld melt ! ice on :i* x fl[s4 8,i "k ?is is n su* a detail$ confession z our holy ,*ur* requires me to make1 b ,i h ?\ght x necess>y = me to give y ?is %ort hi/ory ( ! life ( ! greate/ & mo/ mis]able s9n] :o ev] ask$ y to help h] to come out f ! tomb ( h] iniquities4 ,?is is ! way ,i h liv$ ^! la/ few ye>s4 ,b la/ ,sabba?1 ,god1 9 ,8 inf9ite m]cy1 look$ d[n ^u me4 ,he inspir$ y to give u ! ,prodigal ,son z a model ( true conv]sion1 & z ! mo/ m>vell\s pro( ( ! inf9ite compassion ( ! de> ,savi\r = ! s9n]4 ,i h wept day & night s9ce t happy day1 :5 ,i ?rew myself into ! arms ( my lov+1 m]ciful ,fa!r4 ,ev5 n[1 ,i c h>dly speak1 because my regret = my pa/ iniquities1 & my joy t ,i am all[$ to ba! ! feet ( ! ,savi\r ) te>s1 are s great t my voice is z *ok$4 8 ,i 0 !n a v "y prie/1 & nev] _h any words s sublime come to my e>s 9 ! confessional-box4 ,h] te>s & h] sobs1 m+l$ ) ! frank decl>ation ( ! mo/ humiliat+ actions1 _h made su* a pr(\nd impression ^u me t ,i 01 = "s "t1 unable to speak4 ,x _h come to my m9d also t ,i might be mi/ak5 ab\t h] id5tity1 & t p]haps %e 0 n ! "y lady t ,i _h imag9$4 ,i c\ld1 !n1 easily grant h] fir/ reque/1 :i* 0 to d no?+ by :i* ,i c\ld "k h]4 ,! second "p ( h] pray] 0 m emb>rass+2 = ! !ologians are v positive 9 ord]+ ! confessors to "q _! p5it5ts1 p>ticul>ly ^? ( ! female sex1 9 _m circum/ances4 ,i enc\rag$ h] 9 ! be/ way ,i c\ld1 to p]sev]e 9 h] good resolutions1 by invok+ ! bless$ ,virg9 ,m>y & ,/4 ,philom5e1 :o 01 !n1 ,sa9te a la mode1 j z ,m>ie ,alacoque is to-day1 among ! bl9d slaves ( ,rome4 ,i told h] t ,i w\ld pray & ?9k ov] ! subject ( h] second reque/2 & ,i ask$ h] to come back 9 a week = my answ]4 ,! v same day1 ,i w5t to my own confessor1 ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,baill>geon1 !n curate ( ,quebec1 & aft]w>ds ,ar*bi%op ( ,canada4 ,i told him ! s+ul> & unusual reque/ %e _h made1 t ,i %\ld nev] put to h] any ( ^? que/ions sugge/$ by ! !ologians1 to insure ! integrity ( ! confession4 ,i did n conceal f him t ,i 0 mu* incl9$ to grant h] t favor2 = ,i repeat$ :at ,i _h already sev]al times told him1 t ,i 0 supremely disgu/$ ) ! infam\s & pollut+ que/ions :i* ! !ologians =c$ u to put to our female p5it5ts4 ,i told him frankly t sev]al old & "y prie/s _h already come to confess to me2 & t1 ) ! exception ( two1 !y _h told me t !y c\ld n put ^? que/ions & he> ! answ]s !y elicit$ )\t fall+ into ! mo/ damnable s9s4 ,my confessor seem$ to be mu* p]plex$ ab\t :at he %\ld answ]4 ,he ask$ me to come ! next day1 t he might review "s !ological books1 9 ! int]val4 ,! next day1 ,i took d[n 9 writ+ 8 answ]1 :i* ,i f9d 9 my old manuscripts1 & ,i give x "h 9 all its sad crudity3-- 8,su* cases ( ! de/ruction ( female virtue by ! que/ions ( ! confessors is an unavoidable evil4 ,x _c be help$2 = su* que/ions are absolutely necess>y 9 ! great] "p ( ! cases ) :i* we h to deal4 ,m5 g5]ally confess _! s9s ) s mu* s9c]ity t !re is seldom any ne$ = que/ion+ !m1 except :5 !y are v ignorant4 ,b ,/4 ,liguori1 z well z our p]sonal obs]vation1 tells u t ! greate/ "p ( girls & wom51 ?r\gh a false & crim9al %ame1 v seldom confess ! s9s !y commit aga9/ purity4 ,x requires ! utmo/ *>ity 9 ! confessors to prev5t ^! un=tunate slaves ( _! secret passions f mak+ sacrilegi\s confessions & communions4 ,) ! greate/ prud5ce & zeal he mu/ "q !m on ^? matt]s1 beg9n+ ) ! smalle/ s9s1 & go+1 little by little1 z mu* z possible by imp]ceptible degrees1 to ! mo/ crim9al actions4 ,z x seems evid5t t ! p5it5t ref]r$ to 9 y\r que/ions ( ye/]day is unwill+ to make a full & detail$ confession ( all h] iniquities1 y _c promise to absolve h] )\t assur+ y\rself1 by wise & prud5t que/ions1 t %e has confess$ ev]y?+4 8,y mu/ n be disc\rag$ :51 ?r\gh ! confessional or any o!r way1 y le>n ! fall ( prie/s into ! common frailties ( human nature ) _! p5it5ts4 ,our ,savi\r knew v well t ! occasions & ! temptations we h to enc\nt]1 9 ! confessions ( girls & wom51 are s num]\s1 & sometimes s irresi/ible1 t _m w\ld fall4 ,b ,he has giv5 !m ! ,holy ,virg9 ,m>y1 :o con/antly asks & obta9s _! p>don2 ,he has giv5 !m ! sacram5t ( p5ance1 :]e !y c receive _! p>don z (t5 z !y ask = x4 ,! v[ ( p]fect *a/ity is a great honor & privilege2 b we _c conceal f ourselves t x puts on our %\ld]s a burd5 :i* _m _c c>ry =ev]4 ,/4 ,liguori says t we mu/ n rebuke ! p5it5t prie/ :o falls only once a mon?2 & "s o!r tru/wor?y !ologians are /ill m *>itable40 ,?is answ] 0 f> f satisfy+ me4 ,x seem$ to me compos$ ( s(t soap pr9ciples4 ,i w5t back ) a heavy he>t & an anxi\s m9d2 & ,god kn[s t ,i made _m f]v5t pray]s t ?is girl %\ld nev] come aga9 to give me h] sad hi/ory4 ,i 0 !n h>dly tw5ty-six ye>s old1 full ( y\? & life4 ,x seem$ to me t ! /+s ( a ?\s& wasps to my e>s c\ld n d me s mu* h>m z ! words ( t de>1 beautiful1 accompli%$1 b lo/ girl4 ,i d n mean to say t ! revelations :i* %e made1 _h1 9 any way1 dim9i%$ my e/eem & my respect = h]4 ,x 0 j ! contr>y4 ,h] te>s & h] sobs1 at my feet2 h] agoniz+ expressions ( %ame & regret2 h] noble words ( prote/ aga9/ ! disgu/+ & pollut+ int]rogations ( ! confessors1 _h rais$ h] v high 9 my m9d4 ,my s9c]e hope 0 t %e w\ld h a place 9 ! k+dom ( ,*ri/ ) ! ,sam>itan wom51 ,m>y ,magdal5e1 & all ! s9n]s :o h wa%$ _! robes 9 ! blood ( ! ,lamb4 ,at ! appo9t$ day1 ,i 0 9 my confessional1 li/5+ to ! confession ( a "y man1 :5 ,i saw ,miss ,m>y ent]+ ! ve/ry1 & com+ directly to my confessional-box1 :]e %e knelt by me4 ,?\gh %e _h1 /ill m ?an at ! fir/ "t1 disguis$ h]self beh9d a long1 ?ick1 black veil1 ,i c\ld n be mi/ak52 %e 0 ! v same amiable "y lady 9 ^: fa!r's h\se ,i us$ to pass su* pleasant & happy h\rs4 ,i _h (t5 li/5$1 ) brea?less att5tion1 to h] melodi\s voice1 :5 %e 0 giv+ u1 accompani$ by h] piano1 "s ( our beautiful *ur* hymns4 ,:o c\ld !n see & he> h]1 )\t almo/ wor%ipp+ h]8 ,! dignity ( h] /eps1 & h] :ole mi51 :5 %e advanc$ t[>ds my confessional1 entirely betray$ h] & de/roy$ h] incognito4 ,oh6 ,i w\ld h giv5 e drop ( my blood 9 t solemn h\r1 t ,i might h be5 free to deal ) h] j z %e _h s eloqu5tly reque/$ me to d--to let h] weep ,& cry at ! feet ( ,jesus to h] he>t's cont5t4 ,oh6 if ,i _h be5 free to take h] by ! h&1 & sil5tly %[ h] ! dy+ ,savi\r1 t %e might h ba!d ,8 feet ) h] te>s1 & spread ! oil ( h] love on ,8 head1 )\t my say+ else b 8,g 9 peace3 ?y s9s are =giv540 ,b !re1 9 t confessional-box1 ,i 0 n ! s]vant ( ,*ri/1 to foll[ ,8 ,div9e1 sav+ words1 & obey ! dictates ( my hone/ consci5ce4 ,i 0 ! slave ( ! ,pope6 ,i _h to /ifle ! cry ( my consci5ce1 to ignore ! inspirations ( my ,god6 ,!re1 my consci5ce _h no "r to speak2 my intellig5ce 0 a dead ?+6 ,! !ologians ( ! ,pope1 alone1 _h a "r to be he>d & obey$6 ,i 0 n !re to save1 b to de/roy2 =1 "u ! pretext ( purify+1 ! real mission ( ! confessor1 (t51 if n always1 9 spite ( himself1 is to sc&alize & damn _! s\ls4 ,z soon z ! "y man :o 0 mak+ 8 confession at my left h&1 _h f9i%$1 ,i1 )\t noise1 turn$ myself t[>ds h]1 & said1 ?r\gh ! little ap]ture1 8,are y ready to beg9 y\r confession80 ,b %e did n answ] me4 ,all t ,i c\ld he> 03 8,oh1 my ,jesus1 h m]cy ^u me6 ,i come to wa% my s\l 9 ,?y blood2 wilt ,?\ rebuke me80 ,dur+ sev]al m9utes %e rais$ h] h&s & eyes to heav51 & wept & pray$4 ,x 0 evid5t t %e _h n ! lea/ idea t ,i 0 obs]v+ h]2 %e ?\ght ! door ( ! little p>tition betwe5 h] & me 0 %ut4 ,b my eyes 7 fix$ ^u h]2 my te>s 7 fl[+ ) h] te>s1 & my ard5t pray]s 7 go+ to ! feet ( ,jesus ) h] pray]s4 ,i w\ld n h int]rupt$ h] = any consid]ation1 9 ?is1 h] sublime communication ) h] m]ciful ,savior4 ,b aft] a pretty long "t1 ,i made a little noise ) my h&1 & putt+ my lips ne> ! op5+ ( ! p>tition :i* 0 betwe5 u1 ,i said 9 a l[ voice1 8,de> si/]1 are y ready to beg9 y\r confession80 ,%e turn$ h] face a little t[>ds me1 & said ) trembl+ voice1 8,yes1 de> fa!r1 ,i am ready40 ,b %e !n /opp$ aga9 to weep & pray1 ?\gh ,i c\ld n he> :at %e said4 ,aft] "s "t 9 sil5t pray]1 ,i said1 8,my de> si/]1 if y are ready1 please beg9 y\r confession40 ,%e !n said1 8,my de> fa!r1 d y rememb] ! pray]s :i* ,i made to y1 ! o!r day8 ,c y all[ me to confess my s9s )\t =c+ me to =get ! respect t ,i owe to myself1 to y1 & to ,god1 :o he>s u8 ,& c y promise t y w n put to me any ( ^? que/ions :i* h already done me su* irrep>able injury8 ,i frankly decl>e to y t !re are s9s 9 me t ,i _c reveal to anyone1 except to ,*ri/1 because ,he is my ,god1 & t he already kn[s !m all4 ,let me weep & cry at ,8 feet3 c y n =give me )\t add+ to my iniquities by =c+ me to say ?+s t ! tongue ( a ,*ri/ian woman _c reveal to a man80 8,my de> si/]10 ,i answ]$1 87 ,i free to foll[ ! voice ( my own feel+s ,i w\ld be only too happy to grant y\r reque/2 b ,i am "h only z ! m9i/] ( our holy *ur*1 & b\nd to obey ! laws4 ,?r\gh h] mo/ holy ,popes & !ologians %e tells me t ,i _c =give y\r s9s1 if y d n confess !m all1 j z y h committ$ !m4 ,! *ur* tells me also t y mu/ give ! details1 :i* may add to ! malice or *ange ! nature ( y\r s9s4 ,i am sorry to tell y t our mo/ holy !ologians make x a duty ( our confessor to "q ! p5it5t on ! s9s :i* he has good reason to suspect h be5 volunt>ily omitt$40 ,) a pi]c+ cry %e exclaim$1 8,!n1 ,o my ,god1 ,i am lo/--=ev] lo/60 ,?is cry fell ^u me l a ?und]bolt2 b ,i 0 /ill m t]ror-/rick5 :51 look+ ?r\gh ! ap]ture1 ,i saw %e 0 fa9t+2 ,i he>d ! noise ( h] body fall+ ^u ! floor1 & ( h] head /rik+ aga9/ ! sides ( ! confessional box4 ,quick z lightn+ ,i ran to help h]1 took h] 9 my arms1 & call$ a c\ple ( m5 :o 7 at a little di/ance1 to assi/ me 9 lay+ h] on a b5*4 ,i wa%$ h] face ) "s cold wat] & v9eg>4 ,%e 0 z pale z dea?1 b h] lips 7 mov+1 & %e 0 say+ some?+ :i* nobody b ,i c\ld und]/&-- 8,i am lo/--lo/ =ev]60 ,we took h] home to h] disconsolate family1 :]e1 dur+ a mon? %e l+]$ betwe5 life & dea?4 ,h] two fir/ confessors came to visit h]2 b hav+ ask$ e "o to g out ( ! room1 %e politely1 b absolutely1 reque/$ !m to g away1 & nev] come aga94 ,%e ask$ me to visit h] e day1 8=10 %e said1 8,i h only a few m days to live4 ,help me to prep>e myself = ! solemn h\r :i* w op5 to me ! gates ( et]nity60 ,e day ,i visit$ h]1 & ,i pray$ & ,i wept ) h]4 ,_m times1 :5 alone1 ) te>s ,i reque/$ h] to f9i% h] confession2 b1 ) a firmness :i*1 !n1 seem$ to be my/]i\s & inexplicable1 %e politely rebuk$ me4 ,"o day1 :5 alone ) h]1 ,i 0 kneel+ by ! side ( h] b$ to pray1 ,i 0 unable to articulate a s+le ^w1 because ( ! inexpressible angui% ( my s\l on h] acc\nt1 %e ask$ me1 8,de> fa!r :y d y weep80 ,i answ]$1 8,h[ c y put su* a "q to y\r murd]]6 ,i weep because ,i h kill$ y1 de> fri5d40 ,?is answ] seem$ to tr\ble h] exce$+ly4 ,%e 0 v weak t day4 ,aft] %e _h wept & pray$ 9 sil5ce1 %e said1 8d n weep = me1 b weep = s _m prie/s :o de/roy _! p5it5ts 9 ! confessional4 ,i believe 9 ! hol9ess ( ! sacram5t ( p5ance1 s9ce our holy *ur* has e/abli%$ x4 ,b !re is1 some:]e1 some?+ exce$+ly wrong 9 ! confessional4 ,twice ,i h be5 de/roy$1 & ,i "k _m girls :o h also be5 de/roy$ by ! confessional4 ,?is is a secret1 b w t secret be kept =ev]8 ,i pity ! poor prie/s ! day t our fa!rs w "k :at becomes ( ! purity ( _! daught]s 9 ! h&s ( _! confessors4 ,fa!r w\ld surely kill my two la/ confessors1 if he c\ld only "k !y h de/roy$ 8 poor *ild40 ,i c\ld n answ] except by weep+4 ,we rema9$ sil5t = a long "t2 !n %e said1 8,x is true t ,i 0 n prep>$ = ! rebuke y h giv5 me1 ! o!r day1 9 ! confessional2 b y act$ consci5ti\sly z a good & hone/ prie/4 ,i "k y mu/ be b\nd by c]ta9 laws40 ,%e !n press$ my h& ) h] cold h& & said18 ,%e _h h>dly f9i%$ h] la/ ^w :5 %e fa9t$1 & ,i fe>$ le/ %e %\ld die j !n1 :5 ,i 0 alone ) h]4 ,i call$ ! family1 :o ru%$ into ! room4 ,! doctor 0 s5t =4 ,he f\nd h] s weak t he ?\ght prop] to all[ only "o or two p]sons to rema9 9 ! room ) me4 ,he reque/$ u n to speak at all3 8,=10 said he1 8! lea/ emotion might kill h] in/antly2 h] disease is1 9 all probability1 an aneurism ( ! aorta1 ! big ve9 :i* br+s ! blood to ! he>t3 :5 x breaks1 %e w g z quick z lightn+40 ,x 0 ne>ly t5 at night :5 ,i left ! h\se1 to g & take "s re/4 ,b x is n necess>y to say t ,i pass$ a sleepless night4 ,my de> ,m>y 0 !re1 pale1 dy+ f ! deadly bl[ :i* ,i _h giv5 h] 9 ! confessional4 ,%e 0 !re1 on h] b$ ( dea?1 h] he>t pi]c$ ) ! dagg] :i* my *ur* _h put into my h&s6 & in/ead ( rebuk+1 & curs+ me = my savage1 m]ciless fanaticism1 %e 0 bless+ me6 ,%e 0 dy+ f a brok5 he>t6 & ,i 0 n all[$ by my *ur* to give h] a s+le ^w ( consolation & hope1 = %e _h n made h] confession8 ,i _h m]cilessly bruis$ t t5d] plant1 & !re 0 no?+ 9 my h&s to heal ! w\nds ,i _h made6 ,x 0 v probable t %e w\ld die ! next day1 & ,i 0 =bidd5 to %[ h] ! cr[n ( glory :i* ,jesus has prep>$ 9 ,8 k+dom = ! rep5t+ s9n]6 ,my desolation 0 really unspeakable1 & ,i ?9k ,i w\ld h be5 suffocat$ & h di$ t night1 if ! /ream ( te>s :i* cont9ually fl[$ f my eyes _h n be5 z a balm to my di/ress$ he>t4 ,h[ d>k & long ! h\rs ( t night seem$ to me6 ,be=e ! dawn ( day1 ,i arose to read my !ologians aga91 & see if ,i c\ld n f9d "s "o :o w\ld all[ me to =give ! s9s ( t de> *ild1 )\t =c+ h] to tell me any?+ %e _h done4 ,b !y seem$ to me1 m ?an ev]1 unanim\sly inexorable1 & ,i put !m back on ! %elves ( my libr>y ) a brok5 he>t4 ,at n9e ,a4 ,m4 ! next day1 ,i 0 by ! b$ ( our de> sick ,m>y4 ,i _c suffici5tly tell ! joy ,i felt1 :5 ! doctor & :ole family said to me1 8,%e is mu* bett]2 ! re/ ( la/ night has wr\ght a m>vel\s *ange1 inde$40 ,) a really angelic smile %e ext5d$ h] h& t[>ds me1 t ,i might press x 9 m9e1 & %e said1 8,i ?\ght la/ ev5+1 t ! de> ,savior w\ld take me to ,him1 b ,he wants me1 de> fa!r1 to give y a little m tr\ble2 h[ev]1 be pati5t1 x _c be long be=e ! solemn h\r ( ! appeal w r+4 ,w y please read me ! hi/ory ( ! suff]+ & dea? ( ! belov$ ,savior1 :i* y read me ! o!r day8 ,x does me s mu* good to see h[ ,he has lov$ me1 su* a mis]able s9n]40 ,!re 0 a calm & solemnity 9 h] words :i* /ruck me s+ul>ly1 z well z all ^? :o 7 !re4 ,aft] ,i _h f9i%$ read+1 %e exclaim$1 8,he has lov$ me s mu* t ,he di$ = my s9s60 ,& %e %ut h] eyes z if to m$itate 9 sil5ce1 b !re 0 a /ream ( big te>s roll+ d[n h] *eeks4 ,i knelt d[n by h] b$1 ) h] family1 to pray2 b ,i c\ld n utt] a s+le ^w4 ,! idea t ?is de> *ild 0 !re1 dy+ f ! cruel fanaticism ( my !ologians & my own c[>dice 9 obey+ !m1 0 a mill-/one to my neck4 ,x 0 kill+ me4 ,oh6 if by dy+ a ?\s& times1 ,i c\ld h add$ a s+le day to h] life1 ) :at pleasure ,i w\ld h accept$ ^? ?\s& dea?s6 ,aft] we _h sil5tly pray$ & wept by h] b$side1 %e reque/$ h] "m to leave h] alone ) me4 ,:5 ,i saw myself alone1 "u ! irresi/ible impression t ?is 0 h] la/ day1 ,i fell on my knees aga91 & ) te>s ( ! mo/ s9c]e compassion = h] s\l1 ,i reque/$ h] to %ake (f h] %ame & to obey our holy *ur*1 :i* requires e "o to confess _! s9s if !y want to be =giv54 ,%e calmly1 b ) an air ( dignity :i* no human words c express1 said18 8,yes10 ,i said1 8?is is :at ! ,holy ,scriptures tell u40 8,well1 !n1 h[ is x possible t our confessors d>e to take away f u t holy1 div9e coat ( mode/y & self-respect8 ,has n ,almighty ,god ,himself made1 ) ,8 own h&s1 t coat ( womanly mode/y & self-respect1 t we might n be to y & to ourselves1 a cause ( %ame & s980 ,i 0 really /unn$ by ! beauty1 simplicity1 & sublimity ( t comp>ison4 ,i rema9$ absolutely mute & conf\nd$4 ,?\gh x 0 demoli%+ all ! traditions & doctr9es ( my *ur*1 & pulv]iz+ all my holy doctors & !ologians1 t noble answ] f\nd su* an e*o 9 my s\l1 t x seem$ to me a sacrilege to try to t\* x ) my f+]4 ,aft] a %ort "t ( sil5ce1 %e cont9u$1 8,twice ,i h be5 de/roy$ by prie/s 9 ! confessional4 ,!y took away f me t div9e coat ( mode/y & self-respect :i* ,god gives to ev] human be+ :o comes into ?is _w1 & twice1 ,i h become = ^? v prie/s a deep pit ( p]dition1 into :i* !y h fall51 & :]e1 ,i fe>1 !y are =ev] lo/6 ,my m]ciful heav5ly ,fa!r has giv5 me back t coat ( sk9s1 t nuptial robe ( mode/y1 self-respect1 & hol9ess1 :i* _h be5 tak5 away f me4 ,he _c all[ y or any o!r man1 to te> aga9 & spoil t ve/m5t :i* is ! "w ( ,8 h&s40 ,^! words _h exhau/$ h]2 x 0 evid5t to me t %e want$ "s re/4 ,i left h] alone1 b ,i 0 absolutely beside myself4 ,fill$ ) admiration = ! sublime lessons :i* ,i _h receiv$ f ! lips ( t reg5]at$ daught] ( ,*ri/1 :o1 x 0 evid5t1 0 soon to fly away f u1 ,i felt a supreme disgu/ = myself1 my !ologians1--%all ,i say x8 yes1 ,i felt 9 t solemn h\r a supreme disgu/ = my *ur*1 :i* 0 cruelly defil+ me1 & all h] prie/s1 9 ! confessional-box4 ,i felt1 9 t h\r1 a supreme horror = t auricul> confession1 :i* is s (t5 a pit ( p]dition & supreme mis]y = ! confessor & p5it5t4 ,i w5t out & walk$ two h\rs on ! ,pla9s ( ,abraham1 to brea! ! pure & refre%+ air ( ! m\nta9s4 ,!re1 alone1 ,i sat on a /one1 on ! v spot :]e ,wolf & ,montcalm f\ght & di$2 & ,i wept to my he>t's cont5t1 on my irrep>able degradation1 & ! degradation ( s _m prie/s ?r\gh ! confessional4 ,at f\r o'clock 9 ! aft]noon ,i w5t back aga9 to ! h\se ( my de> dy+ ,m>y4 ,! "m took me ap>t1 & v politely said1 8,my de> ,mr4 ,*9iquy1 d y n ?9k x is "t t our de> *ild %\ld receive ! la/ sacram5ts8 ,%e seem$ to be mu* bett] ?is morn+1 & we 7 full ( hope3 b %e is n[ rapidly s9k+4 ,please lose no "t 9 giv+ h] ! holy viaticum & ! extreme unction40 ,i said1 8,yes1 madam3 let me pass a few m9utes alone ) our de> *ild1 t ,i may prep>e h] = ! la/ sacram5ts40 ,:5 alone ) h]1 ,i aga9 fell on my knees1 &1 amid/ torr5ts ( te>s1 ,i said1 8,de> si/]1 x is my desire to give y ! holy viaticum & ! extreme unction3 b tell me1 h[ c ,i d>e d a ?+ s solemn aga9/ all ! prohibitions ( our holy *ur*8 ,h[ c ,i give y ! holy communion )\t fir/ giv+ y absolution8 & h[ c ,i give y absolution :5 y e>ne/ly p]si/ 9 tell+ me t y h s _m s9s :i* y w nev] decl>e to me or any o!r confessor8 8,y "k t ,i *]i% & respect y z if y 7 an angel s5t to me f heav54 ,y told me1 ! o!r day1 t y bless$ ! day t y fir/ saw & knew me4 ,i say ! same ?+4 ,i bless ! day t ,i h kn[n y2 ,i bless e h\r t ,i h sp5t by y\r b$ ( suff]+2 ,i bless e te> :i* ,i h %$ ) y on y\r s9s & on my own2 ,i bless e h\r we h pass$ toge!r 9 look+ to ! w\nds ( our belov$1 dy+ ,savior2 ,i bless y = hav+ =giv5 me y\r dea?6 = ,i "k x1 & ,i confess x 9 ! pres5ce ( ,god1 ,i h kill$ y1 de> si/]4 ,b n[ ,i pref] a ?\s& times to die ?an to say to y a ^w :i* w\ld pa9 y 9 any way1 or tr\ble ! peace ( y\r s\l4 ,please1 my de> si/]1 tell me :at ,i c & mu/ d = y 9 ?is solemn h\r80 ,calmly1 & ) a smile ( joy su* z ,i _h nev] se5 be=e1 nor se5 s9ce1 %e said1 8,i ?ank & bless y1 de> fa!r1 = ! p>able ( ! ,prodigal ,son1 on :i* y prea*$ a mon? ago4 ,y h br\ght me to ! feet ( ! de> ,savior2 !re ,i h f\nd a peace & a joy surpass+ any?+ t human he>t c feel2 ,i h ?r[n myself into ! arms ( my ,heav5ly ,fa!r1 & ,i "k ,he has m]cifully accept$ & =giv5 ,8 poor prodigal *ild6 ,oh1 ,i see ! angels ) _! gold5 h>ps ar\nd ! ?rone ( ! ,lamb6 ,d y n he> ! cele/ial h>mony ( _! songs8 ,i g--,i g to jo9 !m 9 my ,fa!r's h\se4 ,i ,,%all ,,n ,,be ,,lo/6 ,:ile %e 0 ?us speak+ to me my eyes 7 really turn$ into two f\nta9s ( te>s2 ,i 0 unable1 z well z unwill+1 to see any?+1 s entirely ov]come 0 ,i by ! sublime words :i* 7 fl[+ f ! dy+ lips ( t de> *ild1 :o 0 no m a s9n]1 b a real angel ( ,heav5 to me4 ,i 0 li/5+ to h] words2 !re 0 a cele/ial music 9 e "o ( !m4 ,b %e _h rais$ h] voice 9 su* a /range way1 :5 %e _h begun to say18& %e _h made su* a cry ( joy :5 %e _h to let ! la/ words1 8n be lo/10 escape h] lips1 t ,i rais$ my head & op5$ my eyes to look at h]4 ,i suspect$ t some?+ /range _h occurr$4 ,i got ^u my feet1 pass$ my h&k]*ief ov] my face to wipe away ! te>s :i* 7 prev5t+ me f see+ ) accuracy1 & look$ at h]4 ,h] h&s 7 cross$ on h] brea/1 & !re 0 on h] face ! expression ( a really sup]human joy2 h] beautiful eyes 7 fix$ z if !y 7 look+ on "s gr& & sublime spectacle2 x seem$ to me1 at fir/1 t %e 0 pray+4 ,9 t v in/ant ! "m ru%$ into ! room1 cry+1 8,my ,god6 my ,god6 :at does t cry #8lo/' mean80--,= h] la/ words1 8n to be lo/10 p>ticul>ly ! la/ "o1 _h be5 pron\nc$ ) su* a p[]ful voice1 t !y _h be5 he>d almo/ ev]y:]e 9 ! h\se4 ,i made a sign ) my h& to prev5t ! di/ress$ "m f mak+ any noise & tr\bl+ h] dy+ *ild 9 h] pray]1 = ,i really ?\ght t %e _h /opp$ speak+1 z %e us$ s (t5 to d1 :5 alone ) me1 9 ord] to pray4 ,b ,i 0 mi/ak54 ,! r$eem$ s\l _h gone1 on ! gold5 w+s ( love1 to jo9 ! multitude ( ^? :o h wa%$ _! robes 9 ! blood ( ! ,lamb1 to s+ ! et]nal ,alleluia4 ,! revelation ( ! unm5tionable corruptions directly & unavoidably eng5d]$ by auricul> confession1 _h come to me f ! lips ( t "y lady1 z ! fir/ rays ( ! sun :i* 7 to hurl back ! d>k cl\ds ( night by :i* ,rome _h wrapp$ my intellig5ce on t subject4 ,s mis]able by h] fall & h] s9s1 b s admirable by h] conv]sion1 t "y lady 0 /&+ be=e me1 = ! re/ ( my prie/ly life1 z ! bright beacon rais$ on ! solit>y rocks /&s be=e ! sailor ^: %ip is drift+ ?r\gh ! %oals1 9 a d>k & /ormy night4 ,%e 0 br\ght !re1 by ! m]ciful h& ( ,god1 to "r my c\rse4 ,lo/ & degrad$ by auricul> confession1 only aft] hav+ giv5 x up1 t preci\s s\l 0 to f9d peace & life1 :5 wa%$ 9 ! blood ( ! ,lamb1 z ! only hope & refuge ( s9n]s4 ,h] words1 fill$ ) a sup]human wisdom1 & h] burn+ te>s1 came to me1 by ! m>vel\s ,provid5ce ( ,god1 z ! fir/ beams ( ! ,sun ( ,righte\sness1 to tea* me t auricul> confession 0 a ,satanic inv5tion4 ,_h ?is "y p]son be5 ! only "o to tell me t1 ,i might /ill h held "s d\bt ab\t ! diabolical orig9 ( t in/itution4 ,b ?\s&s & ?\s&s1 be=e & aft] h]1 h be5 s5t by my m]ciful ,god to tell me ! same tale1 till aft] tw5ty-five ye>s ( exp]i5ce x became a c]titude to me t t mod]n inv5tion ( ,rome mu/1 soon] or lat]1 ) v few exceptions1 drag bo? ! confessor & 8 female p5it5ts into a common & irrep>able ru94,d ----- ,footnote ,d3 ,^? :o w\ld l to "k all ab\t ! abom9ations ( auricul> confession %\ld h my volume 8,! ,prie/1 ,! ,woman & ,! ,confessional40 ,x is probably ! only book ev] writt5 on t subject :i* completely unveils ! mask ( ,rome1 by tell+ ! :ole tru?4 ----- ,,*apt] ,,lv4 ,,! ,,ecclesia/ical ,,retreat--,,conduct ,,( ,,! ,,prie/s--,,! ,,bi%op ,,=bids ,,me ,,to ,,di/ribute ,,! ,,bible4 ,on ! fir/ ( ,aug41 #ahee1 ,i receiv$ ! foll[+ lett]3 ,,! ,,college--,*icago ,july #bd?1 #ahee4 ,,rev4 ,,mr4 ,,*9iquy4 ,y w h ! goodness to att5d a spiritual retreat to be giv5 next mon? at ! college1 9 ,*icago1 = ! cl]gy ( ! diocese ( ,*icago & ,qu9cy4 ,! spiritual ex]cises1 :i* w be conduct$ by ! ,rt4 ,rev4 ! ,bi%op ( ,l\isville1 are to comm5ce on ,tuesday1 ! #bh? ( ,aug41 & w t]m9ate on ! foll[+ ,sunday4 ,?is arrangem5t w necessitate y\r abs5ce f y\r *ur* on ,sunday1 ! #ad?1 aft] ,p5teco/1 :i* y w make kn[n to y\r congregation4 ,no cl]gyman is all[$ to be abs5t f ?is retreat )\t ! previ\s writt5 cons5t ( ! bi%op ( ! diocese1 :i* cons5t w n be giv5 except 9 cases :i* he w judge to be ( urg5t necessity4 ,by ord] ( ,rt4 ,rev4 ,bi%op1 ,,mat!w ,,dillon1 ,pro ,secret>y4 ,wi%+ to /udy ! p]sonnel ( t ,iri% cl]gy ( :i* ,bi%op ,v&eveld _h told su* frightful ?+s1 ,i w5t to ,/4 ,m>y's ,univ]sity1 two h\rs ahead ( "t4 ,nev] did ,i see su* a b& ( jolly fell[s4 ,_! dissipation & laught]1 _! ex*ange ( witty1 & too (t51 unbecom+ expressions1 ! trem5d\s noise !y made 9 address+ ea* o!r1 at a di/ance3 ,_! 8,hallo1 ,patrick60 8hallo1 ,murphy608,! answ]s3 8,yes6 yes6 ,%e w nev] leave me20 or 8no6 no6 ! crazy girl is gone10 7 inv>iably foll[$ by outbur/s ( laught]4 ,?\gh n9e-t5?s ( !m 7 evid5tly "u ! influ5ce ( intoxicat+ dr9ks1 n "o c\ld be said to be drunk4 ,b ! /rong odor ( alcohol1 mix$ ) ! smoke ( cig>s1 soon poison$ ! air & made x suffocat+4 ,i _h )drawn 9 a corn]1 alone1 9 ord] to obs]ve ev]y?+4 ,:at /rang]1 9 ent]+ t l>ge hall1 w\ld h suspect$ t ^? m5 7 ab\t to beg9 "o ( ! mo/ solemn & sacr$ actions ( a prie/ ( ,jesus ,*ri/6 ,) ! exception ( five or six1 !y look$ m l a b& ( c>\s+ raftsm51 ?an prie/s4 ,ab\t an h\r be=e ! op5+ ( ! ex]cises1 ,i saw "o ( ! prie/s ) hat 9 h& accompani$ by two ( ! fatte/ & mo/ florid ( ! b&1 go+ to e "o1 collect+ money & ) ! mo/ hil>ity & pleasure1 ea* "o ?rew 8 bank bills into ! hat4 ,i suppos$ t ?is collection 0 int5d$ to pay = our bo>d1 dur+ ! retreat1 & ,i prep>$ ! #ae ,i want$ to give4 ,:5 !y came ne> me--! big hat 0 lit]ally fill$ ) five & t5 doll> bills4 ,be=e h&+ my money to !m1 ,i ask$3 8,:at is ! object ( t collection80 8,ah6 ah60 !y answ]$ ) a he>ty laugh18& ! collectors laugh$ outright4 ,i answ]$ politely1 b s]i\sly3 8,g5tlem51 ,i came "h to m$itate & pray2 & :5 ,i am ?ir/y1 ! fre% & pure wat] ( ,lake ,mi*igan w qu5* my ?ir/4 ,i h giv5 up1 long ago1 ! use ( intoxicat+ dr9ks4 ,please excuse me1 ,i am a teetotal]40 8,s we are60 !y answ]$ ) a laugh2 8,we h all tak5 ! pl$ge f ,fa!r ,ma!w2 b ?is does n prev5t u f tak+ a little drop to qu5* our ?ir/ & keep up our heal?4 ,fa!r ,ma!w is n s m]ciless z y are40 8,i "k ,fa!r ,ma!w well20 ,i answ]$1 8,i h writt5 to him & se5 him _m times4 ,all[ me to tell y t we are ( ! same m9d ab\t ! use ( intoxicat+ dr9k40 8,is x possible6 y "k ,fa!r ,ma!w6 & y are ex*ang+ lett]s ) him6 ,:at a holy man he is1 & :at good he has done 9 ,irel&1 & ev]y:]e60 !y answ]$4 8,b ! good he has done w n la/ long10 ,i said1 8if all 8 disciples keep _! pl$ges z y d40 ,z we 7 talk+1 a good numb] ( prie/s came ar\nd to he> :at 0 said2 = x 0 evid5t to all1 t ! b>k ( _! collectors1 n only _h come to %all[ wat]s1 b _h /ruck on a rock4 ,"o ( ! prie/s said3 8,i ?\ght we 7 to be prea*$ by ,bi%op ,spauld+2 ,i _h no idea t x 0 ,fa!r ,*9iquy :o _h t *>ge40 8,g5tlem510 ,i answ]$1 8,i h z mu* "r to prea* to y 9 favor ( temp]ance z y h to prea* to me 9 favor ( intemp]ance4 ,y may d z y please ab\t ! use ( /rong dr9k1 dur+ ! retreat2 b ,i hope ,i also may h ! "r to ?9k & d z ,i please1 9 t matt]40 8,( c\rse10 !y all answ]$1 8,b y are ! only "o :o w n give u a c5t to get a little drop40 8,s mu* ! worse = y all1 g5tlem51 if ,i am ! only "o4 ,b please excuse me1 ,i _c give y a c5t = t object40 ,!y !n left me1 say+ some?+ :i* ,i c\ld n und]/&1 b !y 7 evid5tly disgu/$1 ) :at !y consid]$ my /ubbornness & want ( good mann]s4 ,i mu/1 h[ev]1 say "h1 t two ( !m1 ,mr4 ,dunn1 pa/or ( "o ( ! be/ congregations 9 ,*icago1 & ! o!r unkn[n to me1 came to congratulate me on ! /]n rebuke ,i _h giv5 ! collectors4 8,i regret10 said ,mr ,dunn1 8! five doll>s ,i h ?r[n into t hat4 ,if ,i _h spok5 to y be=e1 & _h kn[n t y w\ld be brave en\gh to rebuke !m1 ,i w\ld h /ood by y1 & kept my money = bett] use4 ,x is really a %ame t we %\ld be prep>+ ourselves = a retreat by wa/+ #ejj = su* a %ameful object4 ,!y h j told me t !y h rais$ t sum = ! *ampagne1 br&y1 :isky & be] !y w dr9k1 ?is week4 ,ah6 :at disgrace6 ,:at a cry ( indignation w\ld be rais$ aga9/ u1 if su* a %ameful ?+ %\ld be kn[n6 ,i am sorry ab\t ! unk9d words ^? prie/s h spok5 to y2 b y mu/ excuse !m1 !y are already full ( bad :isky4 8,d n ?9k1 h[ev]1 t y are fri5dless1 "h1 9 our mid/4 ,y h m fri5ds ?an y ?9k among ! ,iri% prie/s2 & ,i am "o ( !m1 ?\gh y d n "k me4 ,bi%op ,v&eveld has (t5 spok5 to me ( y\r gr& colonization "w1 among ! ,fr5*40 ,mr4 ,dunn1 !n1 press$ my h& 9 81 & tak+ me a %ort di/ance f ! o!rs1 said3 8,consid] me1 h]eaft]1 z y\r fri5d3 y h won my confid5ce by ! fe>less way 9 :i* y h j spok51 & ! common s5se ( y\r argum5ts4 8,y h lo/ a true fri5d 9 ,bi%op ,v&evelde4 ,i fe> t our pres5t bi%op w n d y ju/ice4 ,lebel & ,c>?yvel h prejudic$ him aga9/ y4 ,b ,i w /& by y1 if y are ev] unju/ly dealt )1 z ,i fe> y w1 by ! pres5t adm9i/ration ( ! diocese4 ,i fe> we are on ! eve ( great evils4 ,! sc&al\s suit :i* ,bi%op ,o',regan has br\ght ^u 8 pr$ecessor is a disgrace4 ,if he has ga9$ #ej1jjj by x1 he has =ev] lo/ ! respect & confid5ce ( all 8 prie/s & diocesans4 8,aft] ! mild & pat]nal rul+ ( ,bi%op ,v&evelde1 nei!r ! prie/s1 nor ! p ( ,ill9ois w long be> ! iron *a9s :i* ! pres5t bi%op has 9 /ore = u all40 ,i ?ank$ ,mr4 ,dunn = 8 k9d words1 & told him t ,i _h already ta/$ ! pat]nal love ( my bi%op by be+ twice dragg$ by ,sp9k be=e ! crim9al c\rt = hav+ refus$ to live on good t]ms ) ! two mo/ demoraliz$ prie/s ,i h ev] kn[n4 ,he1 !n1 speak+ ) a m subdu$ voice1 said3 8,i mu/ tell y1 confid5tially1 t "o ( ^? prie/s1 ,lebel1 w be turn$ out ignom9i\sly f ! diocese1 dur+ ! retreat4 ,la/ week1 a new fact1 :i* surpasses all 8 o!r abom9ations1 has be5 reveal$ & prov$ to ! bi%op1 = :i* he w be int]dict$40 ,at t mom5t1 ! bell call$ u to ! *apel to he> ! regulations ( ! bi%op 9 ref]5ce to ! retreat1 aft] :i* we sang ! mat9s4 ,at #h ,p4 ,m41 we _h our fir/ s]mon by ,bi%op ,spauld+1 f ,k5tucky4 ,he 0 a f9e-look+ man1 a giant 9 /ature1 & a good speak]4 ,b ! way 9 :i* he treat$ 8 subject1 ?\gh v clev]1 left1 9 my m9d1 ! impression t he did n believe a ^w ( :at he said4 ,at c]ta9 times1 !re 0 mu* fire 9 8 elocution1 b x 0 a fire ( /raw4 ,he deliv]$ two s]mons1 ea* day2 & ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,vanhule/1 a ,jesuit1 gave u two m$itations1 ea* ( !m la/+ f =ty to fifty m9utes4 ,! re/ ( ! "t 0 sp5t 9 read+ al\d ! life ( a sa9t1 recit+ ! brevi>um1 exam9ation ( consci5ce & go+ to confession4 ,we _h half an h\r = meals1 foll[$ by "o h\r ( recreation4 ,?us 7 ! days sp5t4 ,b ! nights6 ! nights6 :at %all ,i say ( !m6 ,:at p5 c describe ! orgies ,i witness$ dur+ ^? d>k nights6 & :o c believe :at ,i %all h to say ab\t !m6 ?\gh ,i w n & _c say ! half ( :at ,i h se5 & he>d6 ,i got f ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,dunn1 !n "o ( ! bi%op's c\nselors1 & soon aft]1 ,vic> ,g5]al1 ! /atem5t t ! sum ( #ejj 0 exp5d$ 9 intoxicat+ dr9ks dur+ ! six days ( ! retreat4 ,i ought to say dur+ ! five nights4 ,my p5 refuses to write :at my eyes saw & my e>s he>d dur+ ! long h\rs ( ^? nights1 :i* ,i _c =get ?\gh ,i %\ld live a ?\s& ye>s4 ,! dr9k+ us$ to beg9 ab\t #i o'clock1 z soon z ! lights 7 put out4 ,"s 7 h&+ ! bottles f b$ to b$1 :ile o!rs 7 c>ry+ !m to ^? at a di/ance1 at fir/1 ) ! lea/ noise possible2 b half an h\r _h n elaps$ be=e ! alcohol 0 beg9n+ to unloose ! tongues1 & upset ! bra94 ,!n ! bons mots1 ! witty /ories1 at fir/1 7 soon foll[$ by ! mo/ indec5t & %ameful recitals4 ,!n ! songs1 foll[$ by ! b>k+ ( dogs1 ! croak+ ( frogs1 ! h[l+ ( wolves4 ,9 a ^w1 ! cries ( all k9ds ( bea/s1 (t5 mix$ ) ! mo/ lascivi\s songs1 ! mo/ infam\s anecdotes fly+ f b$ to b$1 f room to room1 till "o or two o'clock 9 ! morn+4 ,"o night ?ree prie/s 7 tak5 ) delirium trem5s1 almo/ at ! same "t4 ,"o cri$ out t he _h a doz5 rattle-snakes at 8 %irt2 ! second 0 fight+ aga9/ ?\s&s ( bats :i* 7 try+ to te> 8 eyes f _! sockets3 & ! ?ird1 ) a /ick1 0 repuls+ millions ( spid]s :i*1 he said1 7 z big z wild turkeys1 all at "w to dev\r him4 ,! cries & lam5tations ( ^? ?ree prie/s 7 really pitiful6 ,to ^? cries1 add ! lam5tations ( "s doz5 ( !m ^: ov]load$ /oma*s 7 eject+ 9 ! b$s & all ar\nd1 ! enorm\s quantity ( dr9k !y _h swall[$6 ,! ?ird day1 ,i 0 s disgu/$ & indignant1 t ,i det]m9$ to leave1 )\t noise1 "u ! pretext t ,i 0 sick4 ,x 0 n a false pretext2 = ,i 0 really sick4 ,!re 0 no possibility ( sleep+ be=e two or ?ree o'clock4 ,besides1 ! /5* 9 ! dormitories 0 horrible4 ,!re 01 h[ev]1 ano!r ?+ :i* 0 /ill m ov]:elm+ me4 ,x 0 ! t]rible moral /ruggle 9 my s\l f morn+ till night1 & f night till morn+1 :5 ! voice ( consci5ce1 :i* ,i _h to take = ! voice ( ,satan1 0 cry+ 9 my e>s38 ,oh6 :at an awful ?+ x is to resi/ ! voice ( ,god6 ,to take him = ! evil "o1 :51 by 8 w>n+s1 he seeks to save y\r s\l6 ,al?\gh ! horrible sc&al ,i _h se5 di/ress$ me m ?an human words c tell1 ^? m5tal conflicts 7 /ill m di/ress+4 ,fe>+ le/ ,i %\ld entirely lose my fai? 9 my religion1 & become an absolute infidel1 by rema9+ any long] 9 ! mid/ ( su* pr(ligacy1 ,i det]m9$ to leave2 b be=e do+ s1 ,i want$ to consult ! new fri5d :om ! ,provid5ce ( ,god _h giv5 me 9 ,mr4 ,dunn4 ,x seem$ ! unbe>able burd5 :i* 0 on my %\ld]s w\ld become light]1 by %>+ x ) su* a sympa!tic bro!r prie/4 ,i w5t to him1 aft] d9n]1 & tak+ him ap>t1 ,i told him all ab\t ! orgies ( la/ night1 & ask$ 8 advice on my det]m9ation n to cont9ue t retreat1 :i* 0 evid5tly no?+ else ?an a bl9d1 & a sacrilegi\s com$y1 to deceive ! _w4 ,he answ]$3 8,y tea* me no?+1 = ,i sp5t la/ night 9 ! same dormitory :]e y 74 ,"o ( ! prie/s told me all ab\t ^? orgies1 ye/]day2 ,i c\ld h>dly believe :at he said1 & ,i det]m9$ to see & he> = myself :at 0 go+ on4 ,y d n exagg]ate1 y d n ev5 m5tion half ( ! horrors ( la/ night4 ,x baffles any description4 ,x is simply incr$ible = any "o :o has n himself witness$ !m4 ,h[ev]1 ,i d n advise y to leave4 ,x w\ld =ev] ru9 y 9 ! m9d ( ! bi%op1 :o is n already too well dispos$ 9 y\r favor4 ,! be/ ?+ y c d is to g & tell ev]y?+ to ,bi%op ,spauld+4 ,i h done x ?is morn+2 b ,i felt t he did n believe ! half ( :at ,i told him4 ,:5 ! same te/imony comes f y1 !n he w believe x1 & w probably take "s measures1 ) our own bi%op1 to put an end to ^? horrors4 ,i h some?+ to tell y1 confid5tially1 :i* surpasses1 9 a measure1 any?+ y "k ( ! abom9ations ( ^! la/ ?ree nights4 8 8,) ^! f9e words r++ 9 my e>s10 said good ,mr4 ,dunn1 8,i _h to leave 8 room at ! d\ble quick4 ,x is ( no use = u to speak to ,bi%op ,o',regan1 on t matt]4 ,x w d no good4 ,he wants to get a l>ge subscription f ^? prie/s1 at ! end ( ! retreat1 & he is r incl9$ to pet ?an puni% !m1 till he obta9s ! #ajj1jjj he wants to build 8 :ite m>ble palace on ! lake %ore40 ,i repli$3 8,?\gh y add to my desolation1 in/ead ( dim9i%+ x1 by :at y say ( ! /range pr9ciples ( our bi%op1 ,i w speak to my "l ,spauld+ z y advise me40 ,)\t a mom5t's delay1 ,i w5t to 8 room4 ,he receiv$ me v k9dly1 & did n at all seem surpris$ at :at ,i said4 ,x 0 z if he _h be5 accu/om$ to see ! same1 or /ill worse abom9ations4 ,h[ev]1 :5 ,i told him ! enorm\s quantity ( liquor drank1 & t retreat w\ld be only a ridicul\s com$y1 if no attempt at re=m 0 tri$1 he agre$ ) me2 8b x w\ld be advisable to try x10 he said48 ,al?\gh ! ,bi%op ( ,*icago seem$ puzzl$ at see+ me ent]+ ! room ) my "l ,spauld+1 he 0 z polite z possible4 ,he li/5$ ) m att5tion ?an ,i expect$ to ! n>rative ,i gave ( :at is go+ on among ! prie/s4 ,aft] tell+ him my sad /ory1 ,bi%op ,spauld+ said3 8,my "l ( ,*icago3 ,^! facts are v grave1 & !re _c be any d\bt ab\t ! tru? ( :at we h j he>d4 ,two o!r g5tlem5 gave me ! same te/imony ?is morn+40 8,yes60 said ,bi%op ,o',regan1 8x is v sad to see t our prie/s h s little self-respect1 ev5 dur+ su* solemn days z ^? ( a public retreat4 ,! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,dunn has j told me ! same sad /ory z ,fa!r ,*9iquy4 ,b :at rem$y c we f9d = su* a /ate ( ?+s8 ,p]haps x might d well to give !m a good s]mon on temp]ance4 ,mr4 ,*9iquy1 ,i am told t y are call$ #8! temp]ance apo/le ( ,canada4' & t y are a p[]ful speak] on t subject2 w\ld y n l to give !m "o or two addresses on ! injury !y are do+ to !mselves & to our holy *ur*1 by _! drunk5ness80 8,if ^? prie/s c\ld und]/& me 9 ,fr5*10 ,i repli$1 8,i w\ld accept ! honor y (f] me1 ) pleasure2 b to be und]/ood by !m1 ,i w\ld h to speak 9 ,engli%2 & ,i am n suffici5tly free 9 t language to attempt x4 ,my brok5 ,engli% w\ld only br+ ridicule ^u ! holy cause ( temp]ance4 8,b my "l ,spauld+ has already prea*$ on t subject 9 ,k5tucky1 & an address f 8 lord%ip w\ld be li/5$ to ) m att5tion & b5efit f him ?an f me40 ,x 01 !n1 agre$ t he %\ld *ange 8 programme1 & give two addresses on temp]ance1 :i* he did4 ,b ?\gh ^! addresses 7 really eloqu5t1 !y 7 pe>ls ?r[n be=e sw9e4 ,! drunk5 prie/s slept z usual2 & ev5 snor$1 almo/ ?r\gh ! :ole l5g? ( ! deliv]y4 ,x is true t we c\ld notice a little improvem5t & less noise ! foll[+ nights2 ! *ange1 h[ev]1 0 v little4 ,! f\r? day ( ! retreat1 ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,lebel came to me ) 8 bag 9 8 h&4 ,he look$ furi\s4 ,he said3 8,n[1 y mu/ be satisfi$1 ,i am int]dict$ & turn$ out ignom9i\sly f ?is diocese4 ,x is y\r "w6 ,b m9d :at ,i tell y2 y w1 also1 soon1 be turn$ out f y\r colony by ! mitr$ tyrant :o has j /ruck me d[n4 ,he told me1 sev]al times1 t he w\ld1 at any co/1 break y\r plans ( ,fr5* colonization1 by s5d+ y to ! s\?-we/ ( ,ill9ois1 along ! ,mississippi1 to an old ,fr5* settlem5t1 opposite ,/4 ,l\is4 8,he is enrag$ aga9/ y = y\r refus+ to give him y\r f9e prop]ty at ,/4 ,anne40 ,i answ]$ him3 8,y are mi/ak5 :5 y ?9k t ,i am ! au?or ( y\r mis=tunes4 ,y h disgrac$ y\rself1 by y\r own acts4 ,god has giv5 y tal5ts & qualities1 :i*1 if cultivat$1 w\ld h exalt$ y 9 ! *ur*1 b y h pref]r$ to de/roy ^? great gifts1 9 ord] to foll[ ! evil incl9ations ( y\r poor degrad$ human nature2 y reap to-day :at y h s[n4 ,nobody is m sorry ?an ,i am1 = y\r mis=tune1 & my mo/ s9c]e wi% is t ! pa/ may be a lesson to guide y\r /eps 9 ! future4 ,! desire ( my bi%op to turn me out ( my colony does n tr\ble me4 ,if x is ! w ( ,god to keep me at ! head ( t great "w1 ! ,bi%op ( ,*icago w g d[n f 8 episcopal ?rone be=e ,i g d[n ! beautiful hill ( ,/4 ,anne4 ,adieu60 ,he soon disappe>$4 ,b h[ ! fall ( ?is prie/1 :om ,i _h s s9c]ely lov$1 sadd5$ me6 ,! next ,sabba? 0 ! la/ day ( ! retreat4 ,all ! prie/s w5t 9 procession to ! ca!dral1 to receive ! holy communion1 & e "o ( !m ate1 :at we _h to believe ! true body1 s\l & div9ity ( ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,?is1 h[ev]1 did n prev5t ?irte5 ( !m f sp5d+ ! great] "p ( ! next night 9 ! calaboose1 to :i* !y _h be5 tak5 by ! police1 f h\ses ( ill-fame1 :]e !y 7 riot+ & fight+4 ,! next morn+1 !y 7 dis*>g$ f ! h&s ( ! police by pay+ pretty r\nd sums ( money = ! tr\ble ( ! night6 ,! next day1 ,i w5t to ,mr4 ,dunn's p>sonage to ask him if he c\ld give me any explanation ( ! rumor :i* 0 afloat1 & to :i* ,mr4 ,lebel _h made allusion1 t x 0 ! int5tion ( ! bi%op to remove me f my colony to "s di/ant "p ( 8 diocese4 8,x is un=tunately too true10 said he4 8,bi%op ,o',regan ?9ks t he has a mission f heav5 to undo all 8 pr$ecessor has done1 & z "o ( ! be/ & gr&e/ s*emes ( ,bi%op ,v&evelde 0 to secure ! possession ( ?is magnific5t ,/ate ( ,ill9ois to our *ur*1 by induc+ all ! ,roman ,ca?olic emigrants f ,france1 ,belgium & ,canada1 to settle "h1 our pres5t bi%op does n conceal t he w oppose t plan by remov+ y to su* a di/ance1 t y\r colonization plans w be at an end4 ,he says t ! ,fr5* are1 z a g5]al ?+1 rebels & disob$i5t to _! bi%ops4 ,he pref]s see+ ! ,iri% com+1 on acc\nt ( _! prov]bial docility to _! ecclesia/ical sup]iors4 8,i h1 9 va91 tri$ to *ange 8 m9d4 ,i told y1 be=e1 t he (t5 asks my op9ion on :at ,i ?9k ! be/ ?+ to be done = ! good ( ! diocese4 ,b ,i d n ?9k t he int5ds to foll[ my advice6 x is j ! contr>y4 ,my impression n[ is1 t he wants to "k our views1 only = ! pleasure ( act+ diametrically 9 opposition to :at we advise40 ,i mu/ n omit to say1 t we _h be5 reque/$ to sp5d ! =5oon ( ,monday1 9 ! ,univ]sity1 = an important affair :i* ! ,bi%op _h to propose to 8 cl]gy4 ,we 7 all !re1 9 ! great hall1 at ! appo9t$ h\r4 ,ev5 ! ?irte5 prie/s :o _h sp5t ! be/ "p ( ! night at ! police /ation1 he>d ! voice ( _! bi%op1 & !y 7 !re1 z docile lambs4 ,we knew be=eh&1 ! proposition :i* 0 to be put be=e u4 ,x 0 to build a palace = our bi%op1 wor?y ( ! great ,ill9ois ,/ate1 ! co/ ( :i* w\ld be ab\t #ajj1jjj4 ,?\gh e "o ( u felt t ?is 0 mo/ extravagant 9 su* a "y & poor diocese1 nobody d>$ to raise 8 voice aga9/ t act ( pride & supreme folly4 ,e "o promis$ to d all 9 8 p[] to raise t sum1 & to %[ our good w1 we rais$ among ourselves1 at once1 #g1jjj1 :i* we gave 9 ca% or 9 promissory notes4 ,aft] ?is act ( lib]ality1 we 7 bless$ & dismiss$ by our bi%op4 ,i 0 b a few /eps f ! ,univ]sity1 :5 an ,iri% prie/1 unkn[n to me1 ran aft] me to say3 8,my "l ,o',regan wants to see y imm$iately40 ,&1 five m9utes lat]1 ,i 0 alone ) my bi%op1 :o1 )\t any preface1 told me3 8,mr4 ,*9iquy1 ,i he> v /range & damag+ ?+s ab\t y1 f e qu>t]4 ,b ! wor/ ( all is1 t y are a secret ,prote/ant emiss>y2 t1 in/ead ( prea*+ ! true doctr9es ( our holy *ur*1 ab\t ! immaculate conception1 purgatory1 ! respect & ob$i5ce due to _! sup]iors by ! p1 auricul> confession1 etc41 etc41 y sp5d a "p ( y\r "t 9 di/ribut+ ,bibles & ,new ,te/am5ts among y\r emigrants2 ,i want to "k f y\r own lips1 if ?is be true or n40 ,i answ]$3 8,a "p ( :at ! p told y ab\t ! matt] is n true2 ! o!r is true4 ,x is n true t ,i neglect ! prea*+ ( ! doctr9es ( our holy *ur*1 ab\t purgatory1 immaculate conception ( ,m>y1 auricul> confession1 or ! respect due to our sup]iors4 ,b x is true t ,i d di/ribute ! ,holy ,bible & ! ,gospel ( ,*ri/1 among my p40 8,& in/ead ( blu%+ at su* unprie/ly conduct1 y seem to be pr\d ( x10 angrily repli$ ! bi%op4 8,i d n und]/&1 my "l1 :y a prie/ ( ,*ri/ c\ld blu% = di/ribut+ ! ,^w ( ,god among 8 p2 z ,i am b\nd to prea* t ,holy ,^w1 x is n only my "r1 b my duty to give x to !m4 ,i am fully p]suad$ t !re is no prea*+ s efficaci\s & p[]ful z ! prea*+ ( ,god ,himself1 :5 speak+ to u 9 ,8 ,holy ,book40 8,?is is %e] ,prote/antism1 ,mr4 ,*9iquy1 ?is is %e] ,prote/antism10 he answ]$ me1 angrily4 8,my de> bi%op10 ,i answ]$ calmly1 8if to give ! ,bible to ! p & invite !m to read & m$itate on x1 is ,prote/antism1 our holy ,pope ,pius ,,vi4 0 a good ,prote/ant1 = 9 8 lett] to ,m>t9i1 :i* is probably 9 ! fir/ pages ( ! beautiful ,bible ,i see on y\r lord%ip's table1 he n only blesses him = hav+ translat$ t ,holy book into ,italian1 b invites ! p to read x40 ,! bi%op1 assum+ an air ( supreme contempt1 repli$3 8,y\r answ] %[s y\r complete ignorance on ! subject on :i* y speak s boldly4 ,if y 7 a little bett] in=m$ on t grave subject1 y w\ld "k t ! translation by ,m>t9i1 :i* ! ,pope advis$ ! ,italian p to read1 =m$ a "w ( tw5ty-?ree big volumes 9 folio1 :i*1 ( c\rse1 nobody except v ri* & idle p c\ld read4 ,n "o 9 t5 ?\s& ,italians h ! means ( pur*as+ su* a volum9\s "w2 & n "o 9 fifty ?\s& h ! "t or ! w to p]use su* a mass ( endless comm5t>ies4 ,! ,pope w\ld nev] h giv5 su* an advice to read a ,bible1 z ! "o y di/ribute s imprud5tly40 8,!n1 my "l1 d y positively tell me t ! ,pope gave p]mission to read ,m>t9i's translation because he knew t ! p c\ld nev] get x on acc\nt ( its enorm\s size & price1 & d y assure me t he w\ld nev] h giv5 su* an advice _h ! same p be5 able to pur*ase & read t holy "w80 8,yes1 sir6 ,x is :at ,i mean10 answ]$ ! bi%op1 ) an air ( triumph1 8= ,i "k1 positively1 t ?is is ! fact40 ,i repli$1 calmly3 8,i hope y\r lord%ip is unwill+ly mi/ak52 = if y 7 correct1 ! /]n & unfl9*+ pr9ciples ( logic w\ld =ce me to ?9k & say t t ,pope1 & all 8 foll[]s 7 deceiv]s1 & t encyclical1 a public fraud 9 8 own h&s2 = we1 ,ca?olic prie/s1 make use ( x1 all ov] ! _w1 & repr9t x at ! head ( our own ,bibles1 to make ! p1 bo? ,prote/ants & ,ca?olics1 believe t we approve ( _! read+ our own v]sions ( t ,holy ,book40 ,_h ,i ?r[n a sp>k ( fire 9 a keg ( p[d]1 ! explosion w\ld n h be5 m prompt & t]rible ?an ! rage ( t prelate4 ,po9t+ 8 f+] to my face1 he said3 8,n[1 ,i see ! tru? ( :at ,i h be5 told1 t y are a disguis$ ,prote/ant1 s9ce ! v day y 7 orda9$ a prie/4 8,! ,bible6 ! ,bible6 is y\r motto6 ,= y1 ! ,bible is ev]y?+1 & ! holy *ur*1 ) h] ,popes & bi%ops1 no?+6 :at an insol5t1 ,i d>e say1 :at a blasphem\s ^w ,i h j he>d f y6 ,y d>e call an encyclical lett] ( "o ( our mo/ holy ,popes1 a fraud60 ,9 va91 ,i tri$ to expla92 he w\ld n li/51 & he sil5c$ me by say+3 8,if our holy *ur* has1 9 an un=tunate day1 appo9t$ y "o ( h] prie/s 9 my diocese1 x 0 to prea* h] doctr9es1 & n to di/ribute ! ,bible6 ,if y =get t1 ,i w make y rememb] x60 ,& ) t ?reat on my head1 z a ,damocles' sword1 ,i _h to take to ! door1 :i* he _h op5$1 )\t any au revoir4 ,?anks be to ,god1 ?is fir/ p]secution & ^! outrages ,i receiv$ = my de> ,bible's sake1 did n dim9i% my respect = ,god's ,holy ,^w nor my confid5ce 9 x4 ,on ! contr>y1 on rea*+ home1 ,i took x1 fell on my knees1 & press+ x to my he>t1 ,i ask$ my ,heav5ly ,fa!r to grant me ! favor to love x m s9c]ely1 & foll[ its div9e tea*+s ) m fidelity1 till ! end ( my life4 ,,*apt] ,,lvi4 ,,public ,,acts ,,( ,,simony--,,!fts ,,& ,,brig&age ,,( ,,bi%op ,o',,regan--,,g5]al ,,cry ,,( ,,indignation--,i ,,det]m9e ,,to ,,resi/ ,,him ,,to ,,8 ,,face--,,he ,,employs ,,mr4 ,,sp9k ,,aga9 ,,to ,,s5d ,,me ,,to ,,gaol1 ,,& ,,he ,,fails--,,drags ,,me ,,z ,a ,,prison] ,,to ,,urbana ,,9 ,,! ,,spr+ ,,( #ahef ,,& ,,fails ,,aga9--,,abraham ,,l9coln ,,def5ds ,,me--,,my ,,de> ,,bible ,,becomes ,,m ,,?an ,,ev] ,,my ,,light ,,& ,,my ,,c\nselor4 ,a mon? _h h>dly elaps$ s9ce ! ecclesia/ical retreat1 :5 all ! cities ( ,ill9ois1 7 fill$ by ! mo/ /range & humiliat+ clamors aga9/ our bi%op4 ,f ,*icago to ,cairo1 x w\ld h be5 difficult to g to a s+le t[n1 )\t hav+1 f ! mo/ respectable p1 or read+ 9 big lett]s1 9 "s ( ! mo/ influ5tial pap]s1 t ,bi%op ,o',regan 0 a ?ief or a simoniac1 a p]jur]1 or ev5 some?+ worse4 ,! bitt]e/ compla9ts 7 cross+ ea* o!r ov] ! bread? & l5g? ( ,ill9ois1 f almo/ e congregation3 8,he has /ol5 ! beautiful & co/ly ve/m5ts we b\ght = our *ur*10 cri$ ! ,fr5* ,canadians ( ,*icago4 8,he has sw9dl$ u out ( a f9e lot giv5 u to build our *ur*1 sold x = #dj1jjj1 & pocket$ ! money1 = 8 own private use1 )\t giv+ u any notice10 said ! ,g]mans4 8,8 ?ir/ = money is s great10 said ! :ole ,ca?olic p ( ,ill9ois1 8t he is sell+ ev5 ! bones ( ! dead to fill 8 treasures60 ,i _h n =gott5 ! bold attempt ( ! bi%op to wr5* my little prop]ty f my h&s1 at 8 fir/ visit to my colony4 ,! highway ?ief :o puts 8 dagg] at ! brea/ ( ! travel]1 ?reat5+ to take away 8 life1 if he does n give him 8 purse1 does n appe> m infam\s to 8 victim ?an t bi%op appe>$ to me1 t day4 ,b my hope1 !n1 01 t ?is 0 an isolat$ & exceptional case 9 ! life ( my sup]ior2 & ,i did n :isp] a ^w ( x to anybody4 ,i began to ?9k diff]5tly1 h[ev]1 :5 ,i saw ! num]\s articles 9 ! pr9cipal pap]s ( ! ,/ate1 sign$ by ! mo/ respectable names1 accus+ him ( !ft1 simony & lies4 ,my hope1 at fir/1 0 t !re 7 _m exagg]ations 9 ^? reports4 ,b !y came ?ick]1 day aft] day1 ,i ?\ght my duty 0 to g to ,*icago1 & see = myself1 to :at ext5t ^? rumors 7 true4 ,i w5t directly to ! ,fr5* ,canadian *ur*2 & to my unspeakable dismay1 ,i f\nd t x 0 too true t ! bi%op _h /ol5 ! f9e *ur* ve/m5ts1 :i* my c\ntrym5 _h b\ght = _! own prie/1 = gr& fe/ivals2 & he _h transf]r$ !m to ! ca!dral ( ,/4 ,m>y = 8 own p]sonal use4 ,! indignation ( my poor c\ntrym5 knew no b\nds4 ,x 0 really deplorable to he> ) :at supreme disgu/1 & want ( respect1 !y 7 speak+ ( _! bi%op4 ,un=tunately1 ! ,g]mans & ,iri% p 7 /ill ahead ( !m 9 _! ungu>d$1 disrespectful d5unciations4 ,sev]al spoke ( prosecut+ him be=e ! civil c\rts1 to =ce him to disgorge :at he _h /ol52 & x 0 ) ! greate/ difficulty t ,i succe$$ 9 prev5t+ "s ( !m f mobb+ & insult+ him publicly 9 ! /reets1 or ev5 9 8 own palace4 ,! only way ,i c\ld f9d to appease !m 0 to promise t ,i w\ld speak to 8 lord%ip1 & tell him t x 0 ! desire ( my c\ntrym5 to h ^? ve/m5ts re/or$ to !m4 ,! second ?+ ,i did 0 to g to ! cemet]y1 & see = myself1 to :at ext5t x 0 true or n t our bi%op 0 sell+ ! v bones ( 8 diocesans1 9 ord] to make money4 ,on my way to ! ,roman ,ca?olic gravey>d1 ,i met a great _m c>t-loads ( s&1 :i*1 ,i 0 told by ! c>t]s1 _h be5 tak5 f ! cemet]y2 b ,i did n l to /op !m till ,i 0 at ! v door ( ! consecrat$ spot4 ,!re1 ,i f\nd ?ree c>t]s1 :o 7 j leav+ ! gr\nds4 ,i ask$ & obta9$ f !m1 ! p]mission to se>* ! s& :i* !y c>ri$1 to see if !re 7 n "s bones4 ,i c\ld n f9d any 9 ! fir/ c>t2 & my hope 0 t x w\ld be ! same 9 ! two o!rs4 ,b1 to my horror & %ame1 ,i f\nd ! inf]ior jaw ( a *ild1 9 ! second2 & "p ( ! bones ( an arm1 & almo/ ! :ole foot ( a human be+1 9 ! ?ird c>t6 ,i politely reque/$ ! c>t]s to %[ me ! v place :]e !y _h dug t s&1 & !y compli$ ) my pray]4 ,to my unspeakable regret & %ame1 ,i f\nd t ! bi%op _h told an unmitigat$ falsehood :51 to appease ! public indignation aga9/ 8 sacrilegi\s trade1 he _h publi%$ t he 0 sell+ only ! s& :i* 0 outside ( ! f5ce1 on ! v bord] ( ! lake4 ,x is true t1 to make 8 case good1 he _h ord]$ ! old f5ce to be tak5 away1 9 ord] to make a new "o1 _m feet inside ! old "o4 ,b ?is mis]able & %ameful subt]fuge r5d]$ 8 crime /ill great] ?an x _h at fir/ appe>$4 ,:at add$ to ! gravity ( t public iniquity1 is t ! ,bi%op ( ,*icago _h receiv$ t piece ( l& f ! city1 = a burial gr\nd1 only aft] !y _h tak5 a solemn oa? to use x only = bury+ ! dead4 ,e load ( t gr\nd sold !n1 0 n only an act ( simony1 b ! break+ ( a solemn oa?6 ,no words c express ! %ame ,i felt1 aft] conv9c+ myself ( ! correctness ( :at ! press ( ,*icago1 & ( ! :ole ,/ate ( ,ill9ois1 _h publi%$ aga9/ our bi%op1 ab\t ?is sacrilegi\s traffic4 ,sl[ly retrac+ my /eps to ! city f ! cemet]y1 ,i w5t directly to ! bi%op1 to fulfil ! promise ,i _h made to ! ,fr5* ,canadians1 to try to obta9 ! re/oration ( _! f9e ve/m5ts4 ,b ,i 0 n long ) him )\t see+ t ,i w\ld ga9 no?+ b 8 implacable enmity 9 plead+ ! cause ( my poor c\ntrym54 ,h[ev]1 ,i ?\ght t my duty 0 to d all 9 my p[] to op5 ! eyes ( my bi%op to ! pit he 0 digg+ = himself & = u all ,ca?olics1 by 8 conduct4 8,my "l10 ,i said1 8,i w n surprise y\r lord%ip1 :5 ,i tell y t all ! true ,ca?olics ( ,ill9ois1 are fill$ ) sorr[ by ! articles !y f9d1 e day1 9 ! press1 aga9/ _! bi%op40 8,yes6 yes60 he abruptly repli$1 8! good ,ca?olics mu/ be sad inde$ to read su* disgu/+ diatribes aga9/ _! sup]ior2 & ,i presume t y are "o ( ^? t are sorry4 ,b1 !n1 :y d y n prev5t y\r insol5t & infidel c\ntrym5 f writ+ ^? ?+s6 ,i see t a great "p ( ^? libels are sign$ by ! ,fr5* ,canadians40 ,i answ]$3 8,x is to try1 z mu* z x is 9 my p[]1 to put an end to ^? sc&als t ,i am 9 ,*icago1 to-day1 my "l40 8,v well1 v well10 he repli$1 8z y h ! reputation ( hav+ great influ5ce ov] y\r c\ntrym51 make use ( x to /op !m 9 _! rebelli\s conduct aga9/ me1 & ,i w1 !n1 believe t y are a good prie/40 ,i answ]$3 8,i hope t ,i w succe$ 9 :at y\r lord%ip wants me to d4 ,b !re are two ?+s to be done1 9 ord] to secure my success40 8,:at are !y80 quickly ask$ ! bi%op4 8,! fir/ is1 t y\r lord%ip give back ! f9e *ur* ve/m5ts :i* y h tak5 f ! ,fr5* ,canadian congregation ( ,*icago4 8,! second is1 t y\r lord%ip ab/a91 absolutely1 f ?is day1 to sell ! s& ( ! bury+ gr\nd1 :i* cov]s ! tombs ( ! dead40 ,)\t answ]+ a ^w1 ! bi%op /ruck 8 fi/ viol5tly ^u ! table1 & cross$ ! room at a quick /ep1 two or ?ree times2 !n turn+ t[>ds me1 & po9t+ 8 f+] to my face1 he exclaim$ 9 an indescribable acc5t ( rage3 8,n[1 ,i see ! tru? ( :at ,mr4 ,sp9k told me6 y are n only my bitt]e/ enemy1 b y are at ! head ( my enemies4 ,y take sides ) !m aga9/ me4 ,y approve ( _! libell\s writ+s aga9/ me6 ,i w nev] give back ^? *ur* ve/m5ts4 ,!y are m9e1 z ! ,fr5* ,canadian *ur* is m9e6 ,d y n "k1 t ! gr\nd on :i* ! *ur*es are built1 z well z ! *ur*es !mselves1 & all t belongs to ! *ur*1 belongs to ! bi%op8 ,0 x n a burn+ %ame to use ^? f9e ve/m5ts 9 a poor mis]able *ur* ( ,*icago1 :5 ! bi%op ( t important city 0 cov]$ ) rags8 ,x 0 9 ! int]e/ ( ! episcopal dignity1 t ,i ord]$ ^? ri* & spl5did ve/m5ts1 :i* 7 m9e by law1 to be transf]r$ f t small & insignificant congregation1 to my ca!dral ( ,/4 ,m>y1 & if y _h an ounce ( respect = y\r bi%op1 ,mr4 ,*9iquy1 y w\ld imm$iately g to y\r c\ntrym5 & put a /op to _! murmurs & sl&]s aga9/ me2 by simply tell+ !m t ,i h tak5 :at 0 m9e f t *ur*1 :i* is m9e also1 to ! ca!dral1 :i* is altoge!r m9e4 8,tell y\r c\ntrym5 to hold _! tongues1 & respect _! bi%op1 :5 he is 9 ! "r1 z ,i am to-day40 ,i _h1 _m times1 consid]$ ! infamy & inju/ice ( ! law :i* ! bi%ops h _h pass$ all ov] ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 mak+ e "o ( !m a corporation1 ) ! "r ( possess+ p]sonally all ! *ur* prop]ties ( ! ,roman ,ca?olics4 ,b ,i _h nev] und]/ood ! infamy & tyranny ( t law s cle>ly z 9 t h\r4 ,x is impossible to describe ) ink & pap] ! air ( pride & contempt ) :i* ! bi%op really 9 sub/ance1 if n 9 words1 told me3 8,all ^? ?+s are m9e4 ,i d :at ,i please ) !m1 y mu/ be mute & sil5t :5 ,i take !m away f y4 ,x is aga9/ ,god ,himself t y rebel :5 y refuse me ! "r ( dispossess+ y ( all ^? prop]ties :i* y h pur*as$ ) y\r own money1 & :i* h n co/ me a c5t60 ,9 t mom5t ,i felt t ! law :i* makes e bi%op ! only ma/] & proprietor ( all ! religi\s goods1 h\ses1 *ur*es1 l&s & money ( _! p z ,ca?olics1 is simply diabolical3 & t ! *ur* :i* sanctions su* a law1 is anti*ri/ian4 ,?\gh x 01 at ! risk & p]il ( e ?+ de> to me1 t ,i %\ld op5ly prote/ aga9/ t unju/ law1 !re 0 no help2 ,i felt con/ra9$ to d s ) all ! en]gy ,i possess$4 ,i answ]$3 8,my "l1 ,i confess t ?is is ! law1 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates2 b ?is is a human law1 directly oppos$ to ! ,gospel4 ,i d n f9d a s+le ^w 9 ! ,gospel :i* gives ?is p[] to ! bi%op4 ,su* a p[] is an abusive1 n a div9e p[]1 :i* w soon] or lat] de/roy our holy *ur*1 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 z x has already mortally w\nd$ h] 9 ,great ,brita91 9 ,france & 9 _m o!r places4 ,:5 ,*ri/ said1 9 ! ,holy ,gospel1 t ,he _h n en\gh ( gr\nd :]eon to lay ,8 head1 ,he condemn$1 9 advance1 ! pret5sions ( ! bi%ops :o lay _! h&s on our *ur* prop]ties z _! own4 ,su* a claim is an usurpation & n a "r1 my "l4 ,our ,savi\r ,jesus ,*ri/ prote/$ aga9/ t usurpation1 :5 ask$ by a "y man to m$dle 9 8 temporal affairs ) 8 bro!rs2 ,he answ]$ t 8,he _h n receiv$ su* p[]40 ,! ,gospel is a long prote/ aga9/ t usurpation2 9 e page1 x tells u t ! ,k+dom ( ,*ri/ is n ( ?is _w4 ,i h myself giv5 #ej to help my c\ntrym5 to buy ^? *ur* ve/m5ts4 ,!y belong to !m1 & n to y60 ,my words1 utt]$ ) an expression ( firmness :i* ! bi%op _h nev] yet se5 9 any ( 8 prie/s1 fell ^u him1 at fir/1 z a ?und]bolt4 ,!y s puzzl$ him1 t he look$ at me1 a mom5t1 z if he want$ to see if x 0 a dream or a reality1 t "o ( 8 prie/s _h ! audacity to use su* language1 9 8 pres5ce4 ,b1 soon1 recov]+ f 8 /upor1 he int]rupt$ me by /rik+ 8 fi/ aga9 on ! table1 & say+ 9 ang]3 8,y are half a ,prote/ant6 ,y\r words smell ,prote/antism6 ,! ,gospel6 ! ,gospel66 t is y\r great t[] ( /r5g? aga9/ ! laws & regulations ( our holy *ur*6 ,if y ?9k1 ,mr4 ,*9iquy1 t y w fright5 me ) y\r big words ( ! ,gospel1 y w soon see y\r mi/ake1 at y\r own exp5se4 ,i w make y rememb] t x is ! ,*ur* y mu/ obey1 & x is ?r\gh y\r bi%op t ! *ur* rules y60 8,my "l10 ,i answ]$1 8,i want to obey ! *ur*4 ,yes6 b x is a *ur* f\nd$ on ! ,gospel2 a *ur* t respects & foll[s ! ,gospel1 t ,i want to obey60 ,^! words ?rew him into a fit ( rage1 & he answ]$3 8,i am too busy to he> y\r imp]t95t babbl+s any long]4 ,please let me alone1 & rememb] t y w1 soon1 he> f me aga91 if y _c tea* y\r p to respect & obey _! sup]iors60 ,! bi%op kept 8 promise4 ,i he>d ( him v soon aft]1 :5 8 ag5t1 ,pet] ,sp9k1 dragg$ me1 aga91 a prison]1 be=e ! ,crim9al ,c\rt ( ,kankakee1 accus+ me falsely ( crimes :i* 8 malice alone c\ld h inv5t$4 ,my "l ,o',regan _h det]m9$ to int]dict me2 b n be+ able to f9d any cause 9 my private or public life z a prie/1 to f\nd su* a s5t5ce1 he _h press$ t l& speculator1 ,sp9k1 to prosecute me aga92 promis+ to base 8 int]dict on ! condemnation :i*1 he _h be5 told1 w\ld be pass$ aga9/ me by ! ,crim9al ,c\rt ( ,kankakee4 ,b ! bi%op & ,pet] ,sp9k 7 aga9 to be disappo9t$2 = ! v]dict ( ! c\rt1 giv5 on ! #ac? ( ,novemb]1 #ahee1 0 aga9 9 my favor4 ,my he>t fill$ ) joy at ?is new & great victory my ,god _h giv5 me aga9/ my m]ciless p]secutors4 ,i 0 bless+ him1 :5 my two lawy]s1 ,messrs4 ,osgood & ,padcock1 came to me & said3 8,our victory1 ?\gh great1 is n s decisive z 0 expect$2 = ,mr4 ,sp9k has j tak5 an oa? t he has no confid5ce 9 ?is ,kankakee ,c\rt1 & he has appeal$1 by a *ange ( v5ue1 to ! ,c\rt ( ,urbana1 9 ,*ampaign ,c\nty4 ,we are sorry to h to tell y t y mu/ rema9 a prison]1 "u bail1 9 ! h&s ( ! %]iff1 :o is b\nd to deliv] y to ! %]iff ( ,urbana1 ! #ai? ( ,may1 next spr+40 ,i ne>ly fa9t$ :5 ,i he>d ?is4 ,! ignom9y ( be+ aga9 9 ! h&s ( ! %]iff1 = s long a "t2 ! enorm\s exp5ses1 f> beyond my means1 to br+ my fifte5 to tw5ty witnesses su* a long di/ance ( ne>ly "o hundr$ miles2 ! new ocean ( insults1 false accusations & p]juries1 ) :i* my enemies 7 to ov]:elm me aga92 & ! new risk ( be+ condemn$1 ?\gh innoc5t1 at t di/ant c\rt2 all ^? ?+s cr[d$ !mselves 9 my m9d1 to cru% me4 ,= a few m9utes1 ,i 0 oblig$ to sit d[n2 = ,i w\ld h1 surely1 fall5 d[n1 _h ,i cont9u$ to /& on my feet4 ,a k9d fri5d _h to br+ me "s cold wat]1 & ba! my =ehead1 to prev5t me f fa9t+4 ,x seem$ t ,god _h =sak5 me1 = ! "t be+1 & t ,he 0 to let me fall p[]less into ! h& ( my foes4 ,b ,i 0 mi/ak54 ,t m]ciful ,god 0 ne> me1 9 t d>k h\r1 to give me "o ( ! m>vell\s pro(s ( 8 pat]nal & lov+ c>e4 ,! v mom5t ,i 0 leav+ ! c\rt ) a heavy he>t1 a g5tleman1 a /rang]1 came to me & said38 ,i answ]$3 8,i am mu* oblig$ to y = y\r sympa!tic words2 b w\ld y please all[ me to ask y\r "n80 8,be k9d en\gh to let me keep my incognito "h10 he answ]$4 8,! only ?+ ,i c say is1 t ,i am a ,ca?olic l y1 & "o :o1 l y1 _c be> any long] ! tyranny ( our ,am]ican bi%ops4 ,) _m o!rs1 ,i look to y z our deliv]]1 & = t reason ,i advise y to engage ! s]vices ( ,abraham ,l9coln40 8,b10 ,i repli$1 8:o is t ,abraham ,l9coln8 ,i nev] he>d ( t man be=e40 ,he repli$3 8,abraham ,l9coln is ! be/ lawy] & ! mo/ hone/ man we h 9 ,ill9ois40 ,i w5t1 imm$iately1 ) t /rang]1 to my two lawy]s1 :o 7 9 consultation only a few /eps f u1 & ask$ !m if !y w\ld h any objections t ,i %\ld ask ! s]vices ( ,abraham ,l9coln1 to help !m to def5d me at ,urbana4 ,!y bo? answ]$3 8,oh6 ,if y c secure ! s]vices ( ,abraham ,l9coln2 by all means d x4 ,we "k him well2 he is "o ( ! be/ lawy]s1 & "o ( ! mo/ hone/ m5 we h 9 our ,/ate40 ,)\t los+ a m9ute1 ,i w5t to ! telegraph (fice ) t /rang]1 & telegraph$ to ,abraham ,l9coln to ask him if he w\ld def5d my honor & my life 7?\gh ,i 0 a /rang] to him7 at ! next ,may t]m ( ! c\rt at ,urbana4 ,ab\t tw5ty m9utes lat]1 ,i receiv$ ! answ]3 8,yes1 ,i w def5d y\r honor & y\r life at ! next ,may t]m at ,urbana4 ,,abraham ,,l9coln40 ,my unkn[n fri5d !n paid ! op]ator1 press$ my h&1 & said3 8,may ,god bless & help y1 ,fa!r ,*9iquy4 ,cont9ue to fight fe>lessly = tru? & righte\sness1 aga9/ our mitr$ tyrant2 & ,god w help y to ! end40 ,he !n took a tra9 = ! nor?1 & soon disappe>$1 z a vision f heav54 ,i h n se5 him s9ce1 ?\gh ,i h n let a day pass )\t ask+ my ,god to bless him4 ,a few m9utes lat]1 ,sp9k came to ! (fice1 to telegraph to ,l9coln1 ask+ 8 s]vices at ! next ,may t]m ( ! ,c\rt1 at ,urbana4 ,b x 0 too late4 ,be=e be+ dragg$ to ,urbana1 ,i _h to r5ew1 at ,ea/]1 #ahef1 ! oil :i* is us$ = ! sick1 9 ! c]emony :i* ! ,*ur* ( ,rome calls ! sacram5t ( ,extreme ,unction1 & 9 ! ,baptism ( ,*ildr54 ,i s5t my little silv] box to ! bi%op by a respectable "y m]*ant ( my colony1 call$ ,dorion4 ,b he br\ght x back )\t a drop ( oil1 ) a mo/ abusive lett] f ! bi%op1 because ,i _h n s5t five doll>s to pay = ! oil4 ,x 0 j :at ,i expect$4 ,i knew t x 0 8 habit to make 8 prie/s pay five doll>s = t oil1 :i* 0 n wor? m ?an two or ?ree c5ts4 ,?is act ( my bi%op 0 "o ( ! _m evid5t cases ( simony ( :i* he 0 guilty e day4 ,i took 8 lett]1 ) my small silv] box to ! ,ar*bi%op ( ,/4 ,l\is1 my ,"l ,k5rick1 be=e :om ,i br\ght my compla9ts aga9/ ! ,bi%op ( ,*icago1 on ! #i? ( ,april1 #ahef4 ,t high dignit>y told me t _m prie/s ( ! diocese ( ,*icago _h already br\ght ! same compla9ts be=e him1 & expos$ ! infam\s conduct ( _! bi%op4 ,he agre$ ) me t ! rapacity ( ,bi%op ,o',regan1 8 !fts1 8 lies1 8 acts ( simony1 7 public & intol]able1 b t he _h no rem$y = !m1 & said3 8,! only ?+ ,i advise y to d is to write to ! pope directly4 ,prove y\r *>ges aga9/ t guilty bi%op z cle>ly z possible4 ,i w myself write to corroborate all y h told me1 = ,i "k x is true4 ,my hope is t y\r compla9ts w attract ! att5tion ( ! pope4 ,he w probably s5d "s "o f ,rome to make an inquiry1 & !n t wick$ man w be =c$ to (f] 8 resignation4 ,if y succe$1 z ,i hope1 9 y\r praisewor?y ef=ts to put an end to su* sc&als1 y w h well des]v$ ! gratitude ( ! :ole *ur*4 ,= t unpr9cipl$ dignit>y is ! cause t our holy religion is n only los+ h] pre/ige 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 b is becom+ an object ( contempt :]e-ev] ^? public crimes are kn[n40 ,i 01 h[ev]1 =c$ to po/pone my writ+ to ! pope4 ,=1 a few days aft] my return f ,/4 ,l\is to my colony1 ,i _h to deliv] myself aga9 into ! h&s ( ! %]iff ( ,kankakee c\nty1 :o 0 oblig$ by ,sp9k to take me prison]1 & deliv] me z a crim9al 9 to ! h&s ( ! %]iff ( ,*ampaign c\nty1 on ! #ai? ( ,may1 #ahef4 ,x 0 !n t ,i met ,abraham ,l9coln = ! fir/ "t4 ,he 0 a giant 9 /ature2 b ,i f\nd him /ill m a giant 9 ! noble qualities ( 8 m9d & he>t4 ,x 0 impossible to conv]se five m9utes ) him )\t lov+ him4 ,!re 0 su* an expression ( k9dness & hone/y 9 t face1 & su* an attractive magnetism 9 ! man2 t1 aft] a few mom5ts' conv]sation1 "o felt z ti$ to him by all ! noble/ affections ( ! he>t4 ,:5 press+ my h&1 he told me3 8,y 7 mi/ak5 :5 y telegraph$ t y 7 unkn[n to me4 ,i "k y1 by reputation1 z ! /]n oppon5t ( tyranny ( y\r bi%op1 & ! fe>less protector ( y\r c\ntrym5 9 ,ill9ois4 ,i h he>d mu* ( y f two prie/s2 &1 la/ night1 y\r lawy]s1 ,messrs4 ,osgood ,paddock1 acqua9t$ me ) ! fact t y\r bi%op employs "s ( 8 tools to get rid ( y4 ,i hope x w be an easy ?+ to defeat 8 projects & protect y aga9/ 8 ma*9ations40 ,he !n ask$ me h[ ,i _h be5 induc$ to desire 8 s]vices4 ,i answ]$ by giv+ him ! /ory ( t unkn[n fri5d :o _h advis$ me to h ,mr4 ,abraham ,l9coln = "o ( my lawy]s1 = ! reason t 8he 0 ! be/ lawy] & ! mo/ hone/ man 9 ,ill9ois40 ,he smil$ at my answ]1 ) t inimitable & unique smile1 :i* we may call ! 8,l9coln smile10 & repli$3 8,t unkn[n fri5d w\ld surely h be5 m correct _h he told y t ,abraham ,l9coln 0 ! uglie/ lawy] ( ! c\ntry60 ,& he laugh$ outright4 ,i sp5t six long days at ,urbana z a crim9al1 9 ! h&s ( ! %]iff1 at ! feet ( my judges4 ,dur+ ! greate/ "p ( t "t1 all t human language c express ( abuse & insult 0 heap$ on my poor head4 ,god only kn[s :at ,i suff]$ 9 ^? days2 b ,i 0 provid5tially surr\nd$1 z by a /rong wall1 :5 ,i _h ,abraham ,l9coln = my def5ce4 8,! be/ lawy] & ! mo/ hone/ man ( ,ill9ois10 & ! le>n$ & upright ,david ,davis = my judge4 ,! latt] became ,vice-,presid5t ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates 9 #ahhb1 & ! =m] its mo/ honor$ ,presid5t f #ahfa to #ahfe4 ,i nev] he>d any?+ l ! eloqu5ce ( ,abraham ,l9coln1 :5 he demoli%$ ! te/imonies ( ! two p]jur$ prie/s1 ,lebel & ,c>!vel1 :o1 ) t5 or twelve o!r false witnesses1 _h sworn aga9/ me4 ,i w\ld h surely be5 decl>$ innoc5t1 aft] t eloqu5t address1 & ! *>ge ( ! le>n$ ,judge ,davis1 _h n my lawy]s1 by a sad blund]1 left a ,roman ,ca?olic on ! jury4 ,( c\rse1 t ,iri% ,roman ,ca?olic want$ to condemn me1 :ile ! elev5 hone/ & intellig5t ,prote/ants 7 unanim\s 9 vot+ 8,n guilty40 ,! c\rt1 hav+ at la/ f\nd t x 0 impossible to p]suade ! jury to give a unanim\s v]dict1 dis*>g$ !m4 ,b ,sp9k aga9 =c$ ! %]iff to keep me prison]1 by obta9+ f ! c\rt ! p]mission to beg9 ! prosecution de novo at ! t]m ( ! fall1 ! #ai? ( ,octob]1 #ahef4 ,humanly speak+1 ,i w\ld h be5 "o ( ! mo/ mis]able ( m5 _h ,i n _h my de> ,bible1 :i* ,i 0 m$itat+ & /udy+ day & night1 9 ^? d>k days ( trial4 ,b1 ?\gh ,i 0 !n /ill 9 ! desolate wild]ness1 f> away yet f ! ,promis$ ,l&1 my ,heav5ly ,fa!r nev] =sook me4 ,he _m times let ! sweet manna fall f heav5 to fe$ my despond+ s\l1 & *e] my fa9t+ he>t4 ,m ?an once1 :5 ,i 0 pant+ ) spiritual ?ir/1 ,he br\ght me ne> ! ,rock1 f ! side ( :i* ! liv+ wat]s 7 gu%+ to refre% & r5ew my /r5g? & c\rage4 ,?\gh ! _w did n suspect x1 ,i knew f ! beg9n+1 t all my tribulations 7 com+ f my unconqu]able atta*m5t & my unfalt]+ love & respect = ! ,bible1 z ! root & s\rce ( e tru? giv5 by ,god to man2 & ,i felt assur$ t my ,god knew x also4 ,t assurance support$ my c\rage 9 ! conflict4 ,e day1 my ,bible 0 becom+ de>] to me4 ,i 0 !n con/antly try+ to walk 9 its m>vell\s light & div9e tea*+4 ,i want$ to le>n my duties & rights4 ,i l to ackn[l$ge t x 0 ! ,bible :i* gave me ! p[] & wisdom ,i !n s mu* ne$$1 to fe>lessly face s _m foes4 ,t p[] & wisdom ,i felt 7 n m9e4 ,on ?is v acc\nt1 my de> ,bible enabl$ me to rema9 calm 9 ! v lion's d52 & x gave me1 f ! v beg9n+ ( t t]rible conflict1 ! assurance ( a f9al victory2 = e "t ,i ba!d my s\l 9 its div9e light1 ,i he>d my m]ciful heav5ly ,fa!r's voice say+1 8,fe> n1 = ,i am ) !e40 ,,*apt] ,,lvii ,,bi%op ,o',,regan ,,sells ,,! ,,p>sonage ,,( ,,! ,,fr5* ,,canadians ,,( ,,*icago1 ,,pockets ,,! ,,money1 ,,& ,,turns ,,!m ,,out ,,:5 ,,!y ,,come ,,to ,,compla9--,,he ,,det]m9es ,,to ,,turn ,,me ,,out ,,( ,,my ,,colony ,,& ,,s5d ,,me ,,to ,,kahokia--,,he ,,=gets ,,x ,,! ,,next ,,day1 ,,& ,,publi%es ,,t ,,he ,,has ,,int]dict$ ,,me--,,my ,,p ,,s5d ,a ,,deputation ,,to ,,! ,,bi%op--,,8 ,,answ]s--,,! ,,%am ,,excommunication ,,by ,,?ree ,,drunk5 ,,prie/s4 ,! ,holy ,scriptures say t an abyss calls = ano!r abyss 7abyssus abyssum invocat74 ,t axiom _h its accompli%m5t 9 ! conduct ( ,bi%op ,o',regan4 ,:5 once on ! declivity ( iniquity1 he desc5d$ to its l[e/ dep?s1 ) m rapidity ?an a /one ?r[n into ! sea4 ,n satisfi$ ) ! %ameful !ft ( ! ri* ve/m5ts ( ! ,fr5* ,canadian ,*ur* ( ,*icago1 he plann$ iniquity1 :i* 0 to br+ ^u him1 m ?an ev]1 ! execration ( ! ,roman ,ca?olics ( ,ill9ois4 ,x 0 no?+ less ?an ! complete de/ruction ( ! ?riv+ congregations ( my ,fr5* ,canadian c\ntrym5 ( ,*icago & ,/4 ,anne4 ,! removal ( ! ,fr5*-speak+ prie/ ( ,*icago f 8 p1 z well z my removal f my colony1 7 det]m9$4 ,our *ur*es 71 at fir/1 to be clos$1 & aft] "s "t sold to ! ,iri% p1 or to ! highe/ bidd]1 = _! own use4 ,x 0 9 ,*icago t ?is great iniquity 0 to beg94 ,n long aft] ,ea/]1 #ahef1 ! ,rev4 ,mons4 ,lemaire 0 turn$ out1 int]dict$ & ignom9i\sly driv5 f ! diocese ( ,*icago )\t ev5 giv+ ! %ad[ ( a reason1 & ! ,fr5* ,canadians sudd5ly f\nd !mselves )\t a pa/or4 ,a few days aft]1 ! p>sonage !y _h built = _! prie/ 9 ,cl>k /reet1 0 sold = #a1bjj to an ,am]ican4 ,! beautiful little *ur* :i* !y _h built on ! lot next to ! p>sonage1 at ! co/ ( s _m sacrifices1 0 remov$ five or six blocks s\?we/1 & r5t$ by ! bi%op to ! ,iri% ,ca?olics = ab\t #b1jjj p] annum1 & ! :ole money 0 pocket$1 )\t ev5 a ^w ( notice to my c\ntrym54 ,?\gh accu/om$ to 8 acts ( p]fidy1 ,i c\ld n believe at fir/ ! rumors :i* rea*$ me ( ^? transactions4 ,!y seem$ to be beyond ! limits ( infamy1 & to be impossible4 ,i w5t to ,*icago1 hop+ to f9d t ! public rumor _h exagg]at$ ! evil4 ,b alas6 no?+ _h be5 exagg]at$6 ,! wolf _h disp]s$ ! %eep & de/roy$ ! flock4 ,! once ?riv+ ,fr5* congregation ( ,*icago 0 no m6 ,:]ev] ,i w5t1 ,i saw te>s ( di/ress among my de> c\ntrym51 & he>d cries ( indignation aga9/ ! de/roy]4 ,"y & old1 ri* & poor among !m1 ) "o voice1 d5\nc$ & curs$ ! he>tless mitr$ brig& :o _h d>$ to commit publicly su* a s]ies ( iniquities1 to satisfy 8 ?ir/ = gold & 8 hatr$ ( ! ,fr5* ,canadians4 ,!y ask$ me :at !y %\ld d2 b :at c\ld ,i answ]8 ,!y reque/$ me to g aga9 to him & remon/rate4 ,b ,i %[$ !m t aft] my complete failure1 :5 ,i _h tri$ to get back ! sac]dotal ve/m5ts1 !re 0 no hope t he w\ld disgorge ! h\se & ! *ur*4 ,! only ?+ ,i c\ld advise !m 0 to select five or six ( ! mo/ influ5tial memb]s ( _! congregation to g & respectfully ask him by :at "r he _h tak5 away1 n only _! prie/1 b ! p>sonage & ! *ur* !y _h built & transf]r$ !m to ano!r p4 ,!y foll[$ my advice4 ,messrs4 ,fran*]e & ,r(f9ot 7:o are /ill liv+7 & six o!r respectable ,fr5* ,canadians 7 s5t by ! :ole p to put ^? que/ions to _! bi%op4 ,he answ]$ !m3 8,fr5* ,canadians3 ,y d n "k y\r religion6 ,7 y a little bett] acqua9t$ ) x1 y w\ld "k t ,i h ! "r to sell y\r *ur*es & *ur* prop]ties1 pocket ! money1 & g eat & dr9k x :]e ,i please40 ,aft] t answ] !y 7 ignom9i\sly turn$ out f 8 pres5ce into ! /reet4 ,po/]ity w sc>cely believe ^? ?+s1 ?\gh !y are true4 ,! v next day1 ,augu/ #ai?1 #ahef1 ! bi%op hav+ he>d t ,i 0 9 ,*icago1 s5t = me4 ,i met him aft] 8 d9n]4 ,?\gh n absolutely drunk1 ,i f\nd him full ( w9e & t]ribly excit$4 8,mr4 ,*9iquy10 he said1 8y _h promis$ me to make use ( y\r influ5ce to put an end to ! rebelli\s conduct ( y\r c\ntrym5 aga9/ me4 ,b ,i f9d t !y are m insol5t & unmanageable ?an ev]2 & my firm belief is t x is y\r fault4 ,y1 & ! h&ful ( ,fr5* ,canadians ( ,*icago1 give me m tr\ble ?an all ( my prie/s & my p ( ,ill9ois4 ,y are too ne> ,*icago1 sir2 y\r influ5ce is too mu* felt on y\r p "h4 ,i mu/ remove y to a di/ant place1 :]e y w h en\gh to d )\t m$dl+ 9 my adm9i/ration4 ,i want y\r s]vice to ,kahokia1 9 my diocese ( ,qu9cy2 & if y are n !re by ! #ae? ( ,septemb] next1 ,i w int]dict & excommunicate y1 & =ev] put an end to y\r intrigues40 ,^! words fell ^u me z a ?und]bolt4 ,! tyranny ( ! bi%op ( my *ur* & ! absolute degradation ( ! prie/ ^: honor1 position & life are entirely 9 8 h&s1 _h nev] be5 reveal$ to me s vividly z 9 t h\r4 ,:at c\ld ,i say or d to appease t mitr$ despot8 ,aft] "s mom5ts ( sil5ce1 ,i tri$ to make "s respectful remon/rances1 by tell+ him t my position 0 an exceptional "o2 t ,i _h n come to ,ill9ois z 8 o!r prie/s1 to be at ! head ( any exi/+ congregation2 b t ,i _h be5 invit$ by 8 pr$ecessor to direct ! tide ( emigration ( ! ,fr5*-speak+ p ( ,europe & ,am]ica4 ,t ,i _h come to a wild]ness :i*1 by ! bless+ ( ,god1 ,i _h *ang$ into a ?riv+ c\ntry1 cov]$ ) an indu/ri\s & religi\s p4 ,i fur!r told him t ,i _h left ! mo/ honorable position :i* a prie/ _h ev] held 9 ,canada1 ) ! promise f 8 pr$ecessor t1 z long z ,i liv$ ! life ( a good prie/1 ,i %\ld n be di/urb$ 9 my "w4 ,z ,i soon p]ceiv$ t he 0 too mu* "u ! influ5ce ( liquor to und]/& me1 & speak ) intellig5ce1 ,i only add$3 8,my "l1 y speak ( int]dict & excommunication6 ,all[ me to respectfully tell y t if y c %[ me t ,i h done any?+ to des]ve to be int]dict$ or excommunicat$1 ,i w submit 9 sil5ce to y\r s5t5ce4 ,b be=e y pass t s5t5ce1 ,i ask y1 9 ! "n ( ,god1 to make a public inque/ ab\t me1 & h my accus]s confront me4 ,i w>n y\r lord%ip t if y int]dict or excommunicate mu )\t hold+ an inque/1 ,i w make use ( all ! means :i* our holy *ur* puts 9 ! h&s ( h] prie/s1 to def5d my honor & prove my innoc5ce4 ,i w also appeal to ! laws ( our great ,republic1 :i* protects ! "* ( all h] citiz5s aga9/ anyone :o sl&]s !m4 ,x w !n be at y\r risk & p]il t y w pass su* a s5t5ce aga9/ me40 ,my calm answ] greatly excit$ 8 rage4 ,he viol5tly /ruck ! table ) 8 fi/1 & said3 8,i d n c>e a /raw ab\t y\r ?reats4 ,i repeat x1 ,mr4 ,*9iquy1 if y are n at ,kahokia by ! #ae? ( next mon?1 ,i w int]dict & excommunicate y40 ,feel+ t x 0 a folly on my "p to argue ) a man :o 0 beside himself by passion & excess ( w9e1 ,i repli$3 8,) ! help ( ,god1 ,i w nev] be> ! infamy ( an int]dict or excommunication4 ,i w d all t religion & honor w all[ me to prev5t su* a d>k spot f defil+ my "n1 & ! man :o does try x1 w le>n at 8 own exp5se t ,i am n only a prie/ ( ,*ri/ b also an ,am]ican citiz54 ,i respectfully tell y\r lord%ip t ,i nei!r smoke1 nor use intoxicat+ dr9ks4 ,! "t :i* y\r o!r prie/s give to ^? habits1 ,i sp5d 9 ! /udy ( books1 & especially ( my ,bible4 ,i f\nd 9 !m n only my duties b my rights2 & j z ,i am det]m9$1 ) ! help ( ,god1 to p]=m my duties1 ,i w /& by my rights40 ,i !n imm$iately left ! room to take ! tra9 to ,/4 ,anne4 ,hav+ sp5t a "p ( ! night pray+ ,god to *ange ! he>t ( my bi%op1 & keep me 9 ! mid/ ( my p1 :o 7 becom+ de>] & de>] to me1 9 proportion to ! ef=ts ( ! enemy to drive me away f !m1 ,i address$ ! foll[+ lett] to ! bi%op3 ,,to ,,! ,,rt4 ,,rev4 ,o',,regan1 ,bi%op ( ,*icago4 ,,my ,,"l3--,! m ,i consid] y\r design to turn me out ( ! colony :i* ,i h f\nd$ & ( :i* ,i am ! pa/or1 ! m ,i believe x a duty :i* ,i owe to myself1 my fri5ds & to my c\ntrym51 to prote/ be=e ,god & man aga9/ :at y int5d to d4 ,n a s+le "o ( y\r prie/s /&s high] ?an ,i d 9 ! public m9d1 nei!r is m lov$ & respect$ by 8 p ?an ,i am4 ,i defy my bitt]e/ enemies to prove ! contr>y4 ,& t "* :i* is my mo/ preci\s treasure y int5d to despoil me ( by ignom9i\sly s5d+ me away f among my p6 ,c]ta9ly1 ,i h enemies1 & ,i am pr\d ( x4 ,! *ief ones are well kn[n 9 ?is c\ntry z ! mo/ deprav$ ( m54 ,! cordial reception !y say !y h receiv$ f y1 has n tak5 away ! /a9s !y h on _! =eheads4 ,by ?is lett]1 ,i aga9 reque/ y to make a public & mo/ m9ute inque/ into my conduct4 ,my consci5ce tells me t no?+ c be f\nd aga9/ me4 ,su* a public & fair deal+ ) me w\ld conf\nd my accus]s4 ,b ,i speak ( accus]s1 :5 ,i d n really "k if ,i h any4 ,:]e are !y8 ,:at are _! names8 ,( :at s9 d !y accuse me8 ,all ^! que/ions1 :i* ,i put to y la/ ,tuesday1 7 left unansw]$6 & w\ld to ,god t y w\ld answ] !m to-day1 by giv+ me _! names4 ,i am ready to meet !m be=e any tribunal4 ,be=e y /rike ! la/ bl[ on ! victim ( ! mo/ helli% plot1 ,i reque/ y1 9 ! "n ( ,god1 to give a mom5t's att5tion to ! foll[+ consequ5ces ( my removal f ?is place at pres5t4 ,y "k ,i h a suit ) ,mr4 ,sp9k at ! ,urbana ,c\rt1 = ! beg9n+ ( ,octob]4 ,my lawy]s & witnesses are all 9 ,kankakee & ,iroquois c\nties2 & 9 ! v "t ,i want mo/ to be "h to prove my innoc5ce & gu>d my honor1 y ord] me to g to a place m ?an #cjj miles di/ant8 ,did y ev] realize t by t /range conduct y help ,sp9k aga9/ y\r own prie/8 ,:5 at ,kahokia1 ,i w h to be> ! heavy exp5ses ( travel+ m ?an #cjj miles1 _m times1 to consult my fri5ds1 or1 be depriv$ ( _! valuable help6 ,is x possible t y ?us try to tie my h&s & feet1 & deliv] me into ! h&s ( my remorseless enemies8 ,s9ce ! beg9n+ ( t suit1 ,mr4 ,sp9k proclaims t y help him1 & t1 ) ! p]jur$ prie/s1 y h promis$ to d all 9 y\r p[] to cru% me d[n6 ,= ! sake ( ! sacr$ "* y be>1 d n %[ s publicly t ,mr4 ,sp9k's boa/+s are true4 ,= ! sake ( y\r high position 9 ! *ur*1 d n s publicly l5d a help+ h& to ! he>tless l& speculator ( ,l',erable4 ,he has already betray$ 8 ,prote/ant fri5ds to get a wife2 he w1 ere long1 betray y = less4 ,let me !n live 9 peace "h1 till t suit is ov]4 ,by turn+ me away f my settlem5t1 y de/roy x4 ,m ?an n9e-t5?s ( ! emigrants came "h to live ne> me2 by /rik+ me y /rike !m all4 ,:]e w y f9d a prie/ :o w love t p s mu* z to give !m1 e ye>1 f "o to two ?\s& doll>s1 z ,i h inv>iably done4 ,x is at ! price ( ^? sacrifices t1 ) ! poore/ class ( emigrants f ,canada1 ,i h f\nd$ "h 9 f\r ye>s a settlem5t :i* _c be surpass$1 or ev5 equal$1 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 = its progress4 ,& n[ t ,i h sp5t my la/ c5t to =m ?is colony1 y turn me out ( x4 ,our college1 :]e #aej boys are receiv+ su* a good education1 w be clos$ ! v day ,i leave4 ,=1 y "k v well ! tea*]s ,i got f ,montreal w leave z soon z ,i w4 ,ah6 if y are m]ciless t[>ds ! prie/ ( ,/4 ,anne1 h pity on ^! poor *ildr54 ,i w\ld r be condemn$ to dea? ?an to see !m de/roy _! intellig5ce by runn+ 9 ! /reets4 ,let me !n f9i% my "w "h1 & give me "t to /r5g!n ^! "y in/itutions1 :i* w\ld fall to ! gr\nd ) me4 ,if y turn me out or int]dict me1 z y say y w d1 if ,i disobey y\r ord]s1 my enemies w proclaim t y treat me ) t rigor because y h f\nd me guilty ( "s great iniquity1 & ?is necess>ily w prejudice my judges aga9/ me4 ,!y w consid] me z a vile crim9al4 ,= :o w suppose1 9 ?is free c\ntry1 t !re is a class ( m5 :o c judge a man & condemn him z our ,bi%op ( ,*icago is do+ to-day1 )\t giv+ him ! names ( 8 accus]s or tell+ him ( :at crimes he is accus$4 ,9 ! "n ( ,god1 ,i aga9 ask y n to =ce me to leave my colony be=e ,i prove my innoc5ce1 & ! iniquity ( ,sp9k1 to ! hone/ p ( ,urbana4 ,b1 if y are deaf to my pray]s1 & if no?+ c det] y f y\r resolution1 ,i d n wi% to be 9 ! un5viable position ( an int]dict$ prie/ among my c\ntrym54 ,s5d me1 by return mail1 my lett]s ( mission = ! new places y int5d tru/+ to my c>e4 ,! soon] ,i get !re1 ! bett] = me & my p4 ,i am ready6 ,:5 on ! road ( exile1 ,i w pray ! ,god ( ,abraham to give me ! =titude & ! fai? he gave to ,isaac1 :5 lay+ 8 head on ! alt>1 he will+ly pres5t$ 8 ?roat to ! sword4 ,i w pray my ,savi\r1 be>+ ,8 heavy cross to ! top ( ,calv>y1 to direct & help my /eps t[>ds ! l& ( exile y h prep>$ = y\r ,devot$ ,prie/1 ,c4 ,,*9iquy4 ,?is lett] 0 n yet mail$ :5 we he>d t ! drunk>d prie/s ar\nd u 7 publi%+ t ! bi%op _h int]dict$ me1 & !y _h receiv$ ord]s f him to take *>ge ( ! colony ( ,/4 ,anne4 ,i imm$iately call$ a meet+ ( ! :ole p & told !m3 8,! bi%op has n int]dict$ me z ! neighbor+ prie/s publi%2 he has only ?reat5$ to d s1 if ,i d n leave ?is place = ,kahokia1 by ! #ae? ( next mon?4 ,b ?\gh he has n int]dict$ me1 x may be t he does to-day falsely publi% t he has done x4 ,we c expect any?+ f ! de/roy] ( ! f9e congregation ( ! ,fr5* ,canadians ( ,*icago4 ,he wants to de/roy me & y z he has de/roy$ !m4 ,b be=e he immolates u1 ,i hope t1 ) ! help ( ,god1 we w fight z ,*ri/ian soldi]s1 = our life1 & we w use all ! means :i* ! laws ( our *ur*1 ! ,holy ,^w ( ,god1 & ! glori\s ,con/itution ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates all[ u to employ aga9/ our m]ciless tyrant4 8,i ask y1 z a favor1 to s5d a deputation ( f\r memb]s ( our colony 9 :om y place ! mo/ implicit confid5ce1 to c>ry ?is lett] to ! bi%op4 ,b be=e deliv]+ x1 !y w put to him ! foll[+ que/ions1 ! answ]s ( :i*1 !y w write d[n ) great c>e 9 8 pres5ce1 & deliv] !m to u fai?fully4 ,x is evid5t t we are n[ ent]+ into a mom5t\s /ruggle4 ,we mu/ act ) prud5ce & firmness4 ,messrs4 ,j4 ,b4 ,lemo9e1 ,leon ,maill\x1 ,francis ,be*>d & ,b4 ,allaire1 hav+ be5 unanim\sly *os5 = t important mission1 we gave !m ! foll[+ que/ions to put to ! bi%op3 #a/4 8,h y int]dict$ ,mr4 ,*9iquy8 #bnd4 8,:y h y int]dict$ him8 ,is ,mr4 ,*9iquy guilty ( any crime to des]ve to be int]dict$8 ,h ^? crimes be5 prov$ aga9/ him 9 a canonical way8 #crd4 8,:y d y take ,mr4 ,*9iquy away f u8 ,our deputies came back f ,*icago ) ! foll[+ report & answ]s1 :i* !y swore to1 "s "t aft] be=e ! ,kankakee c\rt4 #a/4 8,i h susp5d$ ,mr4 ,*9iquy on ! #ai? in/41 on acc\nt ( 8 /ubbornness & want ( submission to my ord]s1 :5 ,i ord]$ him to ,kahokia4 #bnd4 8,if ,mr4 ,*9iquy has said mass s9ce z y say1 he is irregul> & ! pope alone c re/ore him 9 8 ecclesia/ical & sac]dotal functions4 #crd4 8,i take him away f ,/4 ,anne1 despite 8 pray]s & y\rs1 because he has n be5 will+ to live 9 peace & fri5d%ip ) ! ,revs4 ,messrs4 ,lebel & ,c>tevel4 ,! bi%op1 be+ ask$ if ^? two prie/s _h n be5 int]dict$ by him = public sc&als1 0 =c$ to say1 8,yes60 #d?4 8,my second reason = tak+ ,mr4 ,*9iquy f ,/4 ,anne1 & s5d+ him to 8 new mission1 is to /op ! law-suit ,mr4 ,sp9k has in/itut$ aga9/ him4 ,! bi%op be+ ask$ if he w\ld promise t ! suit w\ld be /opp$ by ! removal ( ,mr4 ,*9iquy1 answ]$3 8,i _c promise t40 #e?4 8,mr4 ,*9iquy is "o ( ! be/ prie/s 9 my diocese1 & ,i d n want to deprive myself ( 8 s]vices4 ,no accusation aga9/ 8 morality has be5 prov$ be=e me4 #f?4 8,mr4 ,*9iquy has dem&$ an inque/ to prove 8 innoc5ce aga9/ c]ta9 accusations made aga9/ him2 he ask$ me ! names ( 8 accus]s1 to conf\nd !m4 ,i h refus$ to grant 8 reque/4 ,aft] ! bi%op _h made ^! decl>ations1 ! deputation pres5t$ him ! lett] ( ,mr4 ,*9iquy4 ,x evid5tly made a deep impression ^u him4 ,z soon z he _h read x1 he said3 #g?4 8,tell ,mr4 ,*9iquy to come & meet me to prep>e = 8 new mission1 & ,i w give him ! lett]s he wants1 to g & labor !re4 ,,francis ,,be*>d1 7,sign$7 ,j4 ,b4 ,,lemo9e1 ,,basilique ,,allaire1 ,,leon ,,maill\x40,e ----- ,footnote ,e3 ,^? g5tlem51 ) ! exception ( ,mr4 ,allaire1 are /ill liv+1 #ahhf4 ----- ,aft] ! above _h be5 read & deliv]$ to ! p1 ,i %[$ !m ! evid5t falsehood & contradictions ( ! bi%op :5 he said 9 8 second answ]3 8,if ,mr4 ,*9iquy said mass s9ce ,i int]dict$ him1 he is irregul>1 & ! pope alone c re/ore him 9 8 ecclesia/ical functions10 & !n 9 ! sev5?1 8,tell ,mr4 ,*9iquy to come & meet me to prep>e = 8 new mission1 & ,i w give him ! lett]s he wants to g & labor !re40 ,! la/ s5t5ce1 ,i said1 proves t he knew he _h n int]dict$ me z he said at fir/4 ,=1 _h he done s1 he c\ld n give me lett]s to adm9i/] ! sacram5ts & prea* at ,kahokia be=e my go+ be=e ! pope1 :o alone1 z he said1 himself1 c\ld give me su* p[]s1 aft] he 7! bi%op7 knew t ,i _h said mass s9ce my return f ,*icago4 ,n[1 my fri5ds1 "h is ! laws ( our holy *ur*1 n ! say+ or ! law ( a publicly degrad$ man1 z ! ,bi%op ( ,*icago3 #8,if a man has be5 unju/ly condemn$1 let him pay no att5tion to ! unju/ s5t5ce2 let him ev5 d no?+ to h t unju/ s5t5ce remov$4' 7,canon ( ! ,*ur*1 by ,/4 ,gelase1 ,pope47 8,if ! bi%op _h int]dict$ me on ! #ai?1 8 s5t5ce w\ld be unju/1 = f 8 own lips we h ! confession1 #8t no accusation has ev] be5 prov$ be=e him2 t ,i am "o ( 8 be/ prie/s2 t he does n want to be depriv$ ( my s]vices4' ,yes1 su* a s5t5ce1 if pass$1 w\ld h be5 unju/1 & our bus9ess1 to-day1 w\ld be to treat x ) ! contempt x w\ld des]ve4 ,b t unju/ s5t5ce has n ev5 be5 pron\nc$1 s9ce1 aft] say+ mass e day s9ce ! #ai?1 ! bi%op himself wants to give me lett]s to g to ,kahokia & "w z "o ( 8 be/ prie/s6 ,x /rikes me1 to-day1 = ! fir/ "t1 t x is m y\r de/ruction1 z a p1 ?an m9e1 :i* ! bi%op wants to accompli%4 ,x is my desire to rema9 9 y\r mid/ to def5d y\r rights z ,ca?olics4 ,if y are true to me1 z ,i w be to y1 9 ! imp5d+ /ruggle1 we h no?+ to fe>2 = our holy ,ca?olic *ur* is = u2 all h] laws & canons are 9 our favor2 ! ,gospel ( ,*ri/ is = u2 ! ,god ( ! ,gospel is = u2 ev5 ! pope1 to :om we w appeal1 w be = u--= ,i mu/ tell y a ?+ :i*1 till to-day1 ,i kept secret1 viz43 ,! ,ar*bi%op ( ,/4 ,l\is1 to :om ,i br\ght my compla9t1 9 ,april la/1 advis$ me to write to ! pope & tell him1 n all1 = x w\ld make too l>ge a volume1 b some?+ ( ! crim9al de$s ( ! ro>+ lion :o wants to dev\r u4 ,he is1 to-day1 sell+ ! bones ( ! dead :i* are re/+ 9 ! ,roman ,ca?olic cemet]y ( ,*icago6 ,b if y are true to y\rselves z ,ca?olics & ,am]icans1 t mitr$ tyrant w n sell ! bones ( our fri5ds & relatives :i* re/ "h 9 our bury+ gr\nd4 ,he has sold ! p>sonage & ! *ur* :i* our de> c\ntrym5 _h built 9 ,*icago4 ,^? prop]ties are1 to-day1 9 ! h&s ( ! ,iri%2 b if y promise to /& by y\r rights z ,*ri/ian m5 & ,am]ican citiz5s1 ,i w tell t av>ici\s bi%op3 #8,come & sell our p>sonage & our *ur* "h1 if y d>e6' 8,z ,i told y be=e1 we h a glori\s battle to fight4 ,x is ! battle ( fre$om aga9/ ! mo/ cruel tyranny ! _w has ev] se54 ,x is ! battle ( tru? aga9/ falsehood2 x is ! battle ( ! old ,gospel ( ,*ri/ aga9/ ! new gospel ( ,bi%op ,o',regan4 ,let u be true to ourselves to ! end1 & our holy *ur*1 :i* t bi%op di%onors1 w bless u4 ,our ,savi\r1 ,jesus ,*ri/1 ^: ,gospel is despis$ by t adv5tur]1 w be = u1 & give u a glori\s victory4 ,h y n read 9 y\r ,bibles t ,jesus want$ 8 disciples to be free1 :5 ,he said3 #8,if ! son ( man %all make y free1 y %all be free inde$4' ,does t mean t ! ,son ( ,god wants u to be ! slaves ( ,bi%op ,o',regan8 #8,no6' cri$ out ! :ole p4 8,may ,god bless y = y\r und]/&+ ( y\r ,*ri/ian rights4 ,let all ^? :o want to be free1 ) me1 raise _! h&s4 8,oh6 bless$ be ! ,"l10 ,i said1 8!re are m ?an #c1jjj h&s rais$ t[>ds heav5 to say t y want to be free6 ,n[1 let ^? :o d n want to def5d _! rights z ,*ri/ians & z ,am]ican citiz5s1 raise _! h&s4 ,?anks be to ,god10 ,i aga9 exclaim$1 8!re is n a traitor among u6 ,y are all ! true1 brave & noble soldi]s ( lib]ty1 tru? & righte\sness6 ,may ! ,"l bless y all60 ,x is impossible to describe ! en?usiasm ( ! p4 ,be=e dismiss+ !m1 ,i said3 8,we w1 no d\bt1 v soon witness "o ( ! mo/ ludicr\s com$ies ev] play$ on ?is cont95t4 ,t com$y is g5]ally call$ excommunication4 ,"s drunk>d prie/s1 s5t by ! drunk>d ,bi%op ( ,*icago1 w come to excommunicate u4 ,i expect _! visit 9 a few days4 ,t p]=mance w be wor? see+1 & ,i hope t y w see & he> ! mo/ amus+ ?+ 9 y\r life40 ,i 0 n mi/ak54 ,! v next day1 we he>d t ! #crd ( ,septemb] _h be5 *os5 by ! bi%op to excommunicate u4 ,i said to ! p3 8,:5 y see ! flag ( ! free & ! brave float+ f ! top ( our /eeple1 come & rally ar\nd t emblem ( lib]ty40 ,!re 7 m ?an #c1jjj p on our beautiful hill :5 ! prie/s made _! appe>ance4 ,a few mom5ts be=e1 ,i _h said to t imm5se ga!r+3 8,i bless ,god t y are s _m to witness ! la/ tyrannical act ( ,bi%op ,o',regan4 ,b ,i h a favor to ask ( y1 x is t no insult or opposition :atev] w be made to ! prie/s :o come to play t com$y4 ,please d n say an angry ^w1 d n move a f+] aga9/ ! p]=m]s4 ,!y are n responsible = :at !y d1 = two reasons3 8#a/4 ,!y w probably be drunk4 8 ,! prie/s arriv$ at ab\t #b o'clock ,p4 ,m41 & nev] su* %\t+ & clapp+ ( h&s _h be5 he>d 9 our colony z on _! appe>ance4 ,nev] _h ,i se5 my de> p s *e]ful & good-humor$ z :5 "o ( ! prie/s1 trembl+ f head to foot ) t]ror & drunk5ness1 tri$ to read ! foll[+ %am act ( excommunication1 :i* he nail$ on ! door ( ! *apel3 ,! ,rev]5d ,monsieur ,*9iquy1 h]et(ore curate ( ,/4 ,anne1 ,colonie ( ,beav]1 9 ! ,diocese ( ,*icago1 has =mally be5 int]dict$ by me = canonical causes4 ,! said ,mr4 ,*9iquy1 not)/&+ t int]dict1 has malici\sly p]=m$ ! functions ( ! holy m9i/ry1 9 adm9i/]+ ! holy sacram5ts & say+ mass4 ,?is has caus$ him to be irregul> & 9 direct opposition to ! au?ority ( ! *ur*1 consequ5tly he is a s*ismatic4 ,! said ,mr4 ,*9iquy1 ?us nam$ by my lett]s & v]bal injunction1 has absolutely p]si/$ 9 violat+ ! laws ( ! *ur*1 & disobey$ h] au?ority1 is by ?is pres5t lett] excommunicat$4 ,i =bid any ,ca?olic hav+ any communication ) him1 9 spiritual matt]s1 "u pa9 ( excommunication4 ,e ,ca?olic :o goes aga9/ ?is def5se1 is excommunicat$4 7,sign$7 ,,an?ony1 ,bi%op ( ,*icago1 & ,adm9i/rator ( ,qu9cy4 ,sept4 #crd1 #ahef4 ,z soon z ! prie/s1 :o _h nail$ ?is docum5t to ! door ( our *apel1 _h gone away at full spe$1 ,i w5t to see x1 & f\nd1 :at ,i _h expect$1 t x 0 n sign$ by ! bi%op1 nei!r by 8 gr& vic>1 nor any kn[n p]son1 & consequ5tly1 x 0 a complete nullity1 accord+ to ! laws ( ! *ur*4 ,fe>+ ,i w\ld prosecute him1 z ,i ?reat5$ he %rank f ! responsibility ( 8 own act1 & _h n sign$ x4 ,he 0 probably ignorant ( ! fact t he 0 himself excommunicat$1 ipso facto1 = n hav+ sign$ ! docum5t himself1 or by 8 kn[n deputies4 ,i le>n$ aft]w>ds1 t he got a boy #ab ye>s old to write & sign x4 ,9 ?is way1 x 0 impossible = me to br+ t docum5t be=e any c\rt1 on acc\nt ( its want ( legal & necess>y =ms4 ,t act 0 also a nullity1 = be+ br\ght by ?ree prie/s :o 7 n m5tis compos1 f _! actual /ate ( drunk5ness4 ,& aga91 x 0 a nullity1 f ! evid5t falsehood :i* 0 its base4 ,x is alleg$ t ! bi%op _h int]dict$ & susp5d$ me on ! #ai? ( ,aug41 = canonical causes4 ,b he _h decl>$ to ! f\r deputies we _h s5t him3 8,t ,mr4 ,*9iquy 0 "o ( my be/ prie/s1 t no?+ _h be5 prov$ aga9/ him10 consequ5tly1 no canonical cause c\ld exi/ = ! allegation4 ,! p und]/ood v well t ! :ole affair 0 a mis]able f>ce1 design$ to sep>ate !m f _! pa/or4 ,x _h j1 by ! good provid5ce ( ,god1 ! contr>y effect4 ,!y _h nev] %[n me su* s9c]e respect & devot$ness z s9ce t nev]-to-be-=gott5 day4 ,! ?ree prie/s1 aft] leav+1 ent]$ ! h\se ( "o ( our f>m]s1 call$ ,bellang]1 a %ort di/ance f ! *apel1 & ask$ p]mission to re/ a :ile4 ,b aft] sitt+ & smok+ a few m9utes1 !y all w5t out to ! /ables4 ,! f>m] f9d+ ?is v /range1 w5t out aft] !m to see :at !y w\ld d 9 8 /ables3 to 8 great surprise & disgu/1 he f\nd !m dr9k+ ! la/ ( _! :iskey4 ,he exclaim$3 8,is x n a %ame to see ?ree prie/s1 9 a /able1 dr9k+ rum80 ,!y made no answ]1 b w5t imm$iately to _! c>riage & drove away z quickly z possible1 s++ ) all _! might1 a bac*analian song6 ,su* 0 ! la/ act ( t excommunication1 :i* has done m ?an any?+ else to prep>e my p & myself to und]/& t ! ,*ur* ( ,rome is a d5 ( ?ieves1 a s*ool ( infidelity & ! v antipodes ( ! ,*ur* ( ,*ri/4 ,,*apt] ,,lviii4 ,,address ,,f ,,my ,,p1 ,,ask+ ,,me ,,to ,,rema9--,,address ,,( ,,! ,,p ,,to ,,! ,,bi%op--,i ,,am ,,aga9 ,,dragg$ ,,z ,a ,,prison] ,,by ,,! ,,%]iff ,,to ,,urbana--,,p]jury ,,( ,,! ,,prie/ ,,lebelle--,,abraham ,,l9coln',s ,,anxiety ,,ab\t ,,! ,,issue ,,( ,,! ,,prosecution--,,my ,,di/ress--,,night ,,( ,,desolation--,,! ,,rescue--,,miss ,,philom5e ,,m(fat ,,s5t ,,by ,,god ,,to ,,save ,,me--,,lebelle',s ,,confession ,,& ,,di/ress--,,sp9k ,,)draws ,,8 ,,suit--,,my ,,innoc5ce ,,ackn[l$g$--,,noble ,,words ,,& ,,conduct ,,( ,,abraham ,,l9coln--,,! ,,oa? ,,( ,,miss ,,philom5e ,,m(fat4 ,! ,sabba? aft]noon aft] ! ?ree drunk5 prie/s nail$ _! unsign$1 unseal$1 unte/ifi$1 & consequ5tly null s5t5ce ( excommunication1 to ! door ( our *apel1 ! p _h ga!r$ f e "p ( our colony into ! l>ge hall ( ! c\rt-h\se ( ,kankakee ,city to he> sev]al addresses on _! duties ( ! day1 & !y unanim\sly pass$ ! foll[+ resolution3 8,resolv$4 ,t we1 ,fr5* ,canadians ( ! ,c\nty ( ,kankakee1 d h]eby decide to give our moral support to ,rev4 ,c4 ,*9iquy1 9 ! p]secution n[ ex]t$ aga9/ him by ! ,bi%op ( ,*icago1 9 violation ( ! laws ( ! *ur*1 express$ & sanction$ by ! ,c\ncils40 ,aft] ?is resolution _h be5 vot$1 ,mr4 ,be*>d1 :o is n[ "o ( ! pr9cipal memb]s ( ! p>liam5t ( ,canada1 & :o 0 !n a m]*ant ( ,kankakee ,city1 pres5t$ to me ! foll[+ address1 :i* _h also be5 unanim\sly vot$ by ! p3 8,,de> ,,& ,,belov$ ,,pa/or3--,= sev]al ye>s we h be5 witnesses ( ! p]secution ( :i* y are ! subject1 on ! "p ( ! bad prie/s1 y\r neighbors1 & on ! "p ( ! unwor?y ,bi%op ( ,*icago2 b we also h be5 ! witnesses ( y\r sac]dotal virtues--( y\r =be>ance ( _! calumnies--& our respect & affection = y\r p]son has b increas$ at ! sight ( ^? trials4 8,we "k t y are p]secut$1 n only because y are a ,canadian prie/1 & t y l u1 b also because y d u good 9 mak+ a sacrifice ( y\r own private =tune to build s*ool-h\ses & to fe$ our tea*]s at y\r own table4 ,we "k t ! ,bi%op ( ,*icago1 :o resembles m an angry wolf ?an a pa/or ( ! *ur*1 hav+ de/roy$ ! prosp]\s congregation ( ,*icago by tak+ away f !m _! spl5did *ur*1 :i* !y _h built at ! co/ ( _m sacrifices1 & giv+ x to ! ,iri% population1 & hav+ disc\rag$ ! wor?y population ( ,b\rbonnais ,grove 9 =c+ on !m drunk5 & sc&al\s prie/s1 wants to take y away f among u1 to please ,sp9k1 ! greate/ enemy ( ! ,fr5* population4 ,!y ev5 say t ! bi%op1 c>ry+ iniquity to its extreme bonds1 want$ to int]dict y4 ,b z our *ur* _c1 & is n will+ to sanction evil & calumny1 we "k t all ^? int]dicts1 bas$ on falsehood & spite1 are null & void4 8,we !re=e solicit y n to give way 9 pres5ce ( ! p]fidi\s plots ( y\r enemies1 & n to leave u4 ,/ay among u z our pa/or & our fa!r1 & we solemnly promise to su/a9 y 9 all y\r h>d%ips to ! end1 & to def5d y aga9/ our enemies4 ,/ay among u1 to in/ruct u 9 our duties by y\r eloqu5t spee*es1 & to enlight5 u by y\r pi\s examples4 ,/ay among u1 to gu>d u aga9/ ! p]fidi\s designs ( ! ,bi%op ( ,*icago1 :o wants to disc\rage & de/roy our prosp]\s colony1 z he has already disc\rag$ & de/roy$ o!r congregations ( ! ,fr5* ,canadians1 by leav+ !m )\t a pa/or1 or by =c+ on !m unwor?y prie/s40 ,! /]n & unanim\s det]m9ation ( my c\ntrym5 to /& by me 9 ! imp5d+ /ruggle is "o ( ! greate/ bless+s :i* ,god has ev] giv5 me4 ,x fill$ me ) a c\rage :i* no?+ c\ld h]eaft] %ake4 ,b ! p ( ,/4 ,anne did n ?9k t x 0 en\gh to %[ to ! bi%op t no?+ c\ld ev] %ake ! resolution !y _h tak5 to live & die free m54 ,!y ga!r$ 9 a public & imm5se meet+ on ! ,sabba? aft] ! %am excommunication1 to adopt ! foll[+ address to ! ,bi%op ( ,*icago1 a copy ( :i* 0 s5t to e ,bi%op ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates & ,canada1 & to ,pope ,pius ,,ix3 8,,to ,,8 ,,lord%ip1 ,,an?ony ,o',,regan ,,( ,,*icago3--,we1 ! und]sign$1 inhabitants ( ! p>i% ( ,/4 ,anne1 ,beav] settlem5t1 see+ ) sorr[ t y h disc>d$ our humble reque/1 :i* we h s5t y by f\r delegates1 & h p]si/$ 9 try+ to drive away our hone/ & wor?y prie/1 :o has edifi$ u 9 all circum/ances by 8 public & religi\s conduct1 & hav+1 contr>y to ! rules ( our holy *ur* & common s5se1 /ruck our wor?y pa/or1 ,mr4 ,*9iquy1 ) excommunication1 hav+ caus$ him to be ann\nc$ z a s*ismatic prie/1 & hav+ =bidd5 u to communicate ) him 9 religi\s matt]s1 are h]eby prote/+ aga9/ ! unju/ & iniquit\s mann] 9 :i* y h /ruck him1 refus+ him ! privilege ( ju/ify+ himself & prov+ 8 innoc5ce4 8,consequ5tly1 we decl>e t we are ready at all times z good ,ca?olics1 to obey all y\r ord]s & ord9ances t are 9 accordance ) ! laws ( ! ,gospel & ! ,*ur*1 b t we are n will+ to foll[ y 9 all y\r errors ( judgm5ts1 9 y\r inju/ices & covet\s caprices4 ,tell+ y1 z ,/4 ,j]ome wrote to 8 ,bi%op1 t z long z y w treat u z y\r *ildr51 we w obey y z a fa!r2 b z soon z y w treat u z our ma/]1 we %all cease to consid] y z our fa!r4 ,consid]+ ,mr4 ,*9iquy z a good & virtu\s prie/1 wor?y ( ! place he occupies1 & possess+ z yet all 8 sac]dotal p[]s1 9 spite ( y\r null & ridicul\s s5t5ce1 we h unanim\sly decid$ to keep him among u z our pa/or2 !re=e pray+ y\r ,lord%ip n to put y\rself to ! tr\ble ( seek+ ano!r prie/ = u4 ,m yet3 we h unanim\sly decid$ to su/a9 him & furni% him ! means to g z f> z ,rome1 if he _c h ju/ice 9 ,am]ica4 8,we fur!r decl>e t x has be5 di%onorable & %ameful = our bi%op & = our holy religion to h se51 com+ "u ! walls ( our *apel1 br++ ! ord]s ( ! pr9ce ( ! *ur* ( a repres5tative ( ,*ri/1 ?ree m5 cov]$ ) _! sac]dotal g>m5ts1 hav+ _! tongues half p>alyz$ by ! effects ( br&y1 & :o1 turn+ _! backs to ! *ur*1 w5t into ! h\se & b>n ( "o ( our settl]s & !re empti$ _! bottles4 ,& f !re1 tak+ _! seats 9 _! buggies1 w5t t[>ds ! settlem5t ( ,l',erable1 s++ drunk5 songs & halloo+ l wild ,indians4 ,w y\r lord%ip be influ5c$ by su* a set ( m51 :o seem to h = _! mission to degrade ! sacrados & ,ca?olicism8 8,we conclude1 9 hop+ t y\r lord%ip w n p]si/ 9 y\r decision1 giv5 9 a mom5t ( madness & spite2 t y w reconsid] y\r acts1 & t y w retract y\r unju/1 null & ridicul\s excommunication1 & by ^! means avoid ! sc&al ( :i* y\r precipitation is ! cause4 ,we !n hope t1 *ang+ y\r det]m9ation1 y w "w = ! welf>e ( our holy religion1 & n to its degradation1 9 :i* y\r intol]ant conduct w\ld lead u1 & t y w n p]si/ 9 try+ to drive our wor?y pa/or1 ,rev4 ,*>les ,*9iquy1 f ! fl\ri%+ colony t he has f\nd$ at ! co/ ( ! ab&onm5t ( 8 native l&1 ( ! sacrifice ( ! high position he _h 9 ,canada3 t y w br+ peace betwe5 y & u1 & t we %all h 9 ! ,bi%op ( ,*icago n a tyrant1 b a fa!r1 & t y w h 9 u n rebels1 b fai?ful *ildr51 by our virtues & our good example4 ,subscrib+ ourselves ! ob$i5t *ildr5 ( ! *ur*4 8,,!opile ,,dori51 8,,det4 ,,vani]1 8,j4 ,b4 ,,belang]1 8,,camile ,,bet\rney1 8,,/an',,las ,,gagne1 8,,anto9e ,,alla91 ,j4 ,b4 ,,lemo9e1 ,n4 ,p41 ,,oliv] ,,s5e*all1 ,,basilique ,,allair1 ,,mi*el ,,allair1 ,,joseph ,,grisi1 ,,joseph ,,all>d1 8,& five hundr$ o!rs40 ,?is address1 sign$ by m ?an five hundr$ m51 all heads ( families1 & reproduc$ by almo/ ! :ole press 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 fell z a ?und]clap on ! head ( ! he>tless de/roy] ( our p4 ,b x did n *ange 8 de/ructive plans4 ,x _h j ! contr>y effect4 ,z a tig]1 mortally w\nd$ by ! sure %ots ( ! hunt]s1 he fill$ ! c\ntry ) 8 ro>+1 hop+ to fright5 u by 8 new d5unciations4 ,he publi%$ ! mo/ ly+ /ories to expla9 8 conduct1 & to %[ ! _w t he _h good reasons = de/roy+ ! ,fr5* congregation ( ,*icago1 & try+ ! same exp]im5t on ,/4 ,anne4 ,9 ord] to refute 8 false /atem5ts1 & to %[ m cle>ly to ! :ole _w ! reason ,i _h1 z a ,ca?olic prie/1 to resi/ him1 ,i address$ ! foll[+ lett] to 8 lord%ip3 ,,/4 ,,anne1 ,,kankakee ,,c\nty1 ,,ills41 ,septemb] #be1 #ahef4 8,,rt4 ,,rev',d ,o',,regan3--,y seem to be surpris$ t ,i h (f]$ ! holy sacrifice ( mass s9ce our la/ int]view4 ,"h are "s ( my reasons = s do+4 8#a/4 ,y h n susp5d$ me2 f> f x1 y h giv5 me fifte5 days to consid] :at ,i %\ld d1 ?reat5+ only to int]dict me aft] t "t1 if ,i w\ld n obey y\r ord]s4 8#bnd4 ,if y h be5 s ill-advis$ z to susp5d me1 = ! crime ( tell+ y t my int5tion 0 to live ! live ( a retir$ prie/ 9 my little colony1 soon] ?an be exil$ at my age1 y\r s5t5ce is ridicul\s & null2 & if y 7 z exp]t 9 ! jure ,canonico z 9 ! art ( pocket+ our money1 y w\ld "k t y are y\rself susp5d$ ipso facto = a ye>1 & t ,i h no?+ to fe> or to expect f y n[4 8#crd4 ,:5 ,i b[$ d[n be=e ! alt> ( ,jesus ,*ri/1 tw5ty-f\r ye>s ago1 to receive ! prie/hood1 my int5tion 0 to be ! m9i/] ( ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*1 b n a slave ( a lawless tyrant4 8#d?4 ,rememb] ! fam\s words ( ,t]tullian1 #8,nimia pote/as1 nulla pote/as4' ,= ! sake ( peace1 ,i h1 ) _m o!rs1 tol]at$ y\r despotism till n[2 b my pati5ce is at an end1 & = ! sake ( our holy *ur*1 :i* y are de/roy+1 ,i am det]m9$ ) _m to oppose an insurm\ntable wall to y\r tyranny4 8#e?4 ,i did n come "h1 y "k well1 z an ord9>y mission>y2 b ,i got f y\r pr$ecessor ! p]mission to =m a colony ( my emigrat+ c\ntrym54 ,i 0 n s5t "h 9 #ahea to take c>e ( any congregation4 ,x 0 a complete wild]ness2 b ,i 0 s5t to =m a colony ( ,ca?olics4 ,i plant$ my cross 9 a wild]ness4 ,9 a great "p1 ) my own money1 ,i h built a *apel1 a college & a female academy4 ,i h call$ f ev]y:]e my c\ntrym5--n9e-t5?s ( !m came "h only to live ) me1 & because ,i _h ! pl$g$ ^w ( my bi%op to d t "w4 ,& z long z ,i live ! life ( a good prie/ ,i d5y y ! "r to =bid me to rema9 9 my colony :i* wants my help & my pres5ce4 8#f?4 ,y h nev] %[n me y\r au?ority 7b once7 except 9 ! mo/ tyrannical way4 ,b n[1 see+ t ! m humble ,i am be=e y1 ! m insol5t y gr[1 ,i h tak5 ! resolution to /& by my rights z a ,ca?olic prie/ & z an ,am]ican citiz54 8#g?4 ,y rememb]1 t 9 our second int]view y =bade me to h ! good preceptors we h n[ = our *ildr51 & y turn$ into ridicule ! idea ,i _h to call !m f ,canada4 ,0 t ! act ( a bi%op or ( a mean despot8 8#h?4 ,a few days aft] y ord]$ me to live on good t]ms ) ,r4 ,r4 ,le,belle & ,c>?avel1 ?\gh y 7 well acqua9t$ ) _! sc&al\s lives1 & twice y ?reat5$ me ) susp5sion = refus+ to become a fri5d ( ^? two rogues6 ,& y h s mu* made a fool ( y\rself be=e ! f\r g5tlem5 ,i s5t to y to be ! witnesses ( y\r iniquity & my innoc5ce1 t y h ackn[l$g$ be=e !m t "o ( y\r pr9cipal reasons = turn+ me out ( my colony 01 t ,i _h n be5 able to keep peace ) ?ree prie/s :om y ackn[l$g$ to be deprav$ & unwor?y prie/s6 ,is n t surpass+ wick$ness & tyranny ( any?+ record$ 9 ! blacke/ pages ( ! mo/ d>+ tyrants8 ,y want to puni% by exile a g5tleman & a good prie/1 because he _c agree to become ! fri5d ( two public rogues6 ,i ?ank y1 ,bi%op ,o',regan1 to h made t public confession 9 ! pres5ce ( unimpea*able witnesses4 ,i d n want to advise y to be h]eaft] v prud5t 9 :at y int5d to d aga9/ ! reputation & "* ( ! prie/ ( ,/4 ,anne4 ,if y cont9ue to d5\nce me z y h done s9ce a few weeks1 & to tell ! p :at y ?9k fit aga9/ me1 ,i h awful ?+s to publi% ( y\r inju/ice & tyranny4 8,z ,judas sold our ,savi\r to 8 enemies1 s y h sold me to my enemy ( ,l',erable4 ,b be c]ta9 t y %all n deliv] up y\r victim z y l4 8,= )draw+ a suit :i* y h incit$ aga9/ my honor & :i* y %all c]ta9ly lose1 y drag me out f my home & ord] me to ! l& ( exile1 & y cov] t iniquity ) ! appe>ance ( zeal = ! public peace1 j z ,pilate deliv]$ 8 victim into ! h&s ( _! enemies to make peace ) !m4 8,%ame on y1 ,bi%op ,o',regan6 ,= ! sake ( ,god1 d n oblige me to reveal to ! _w :at ,i "k aga9/ y4 ,d n oblige me1 9 self-def5ce1 to /rike1 9 y1 my m]ciless p]secutor4 ,if y h no pity = me1 h pity on y\rself1 & on ! *ur* :i* t com+ /ruggle w s mu* injure4 8,x is n en\gh = y to h s badly treat$ my poor c\ntrym5 ( ,*icago--y\r hatr$ aga9/ ! ,fr5* ,canadians _c be satisfi$ except :5 y h tak5 away f !m ! only consolation !y h 9 ?is l& ( exile--to possess 9 _! mid/ a prie/ ( _! own nation :om !y love & respect z a fa!r6 ,my poor c\ntrym5 ( ,*icago1 ) _m h>d sacrifices1 _h built a f9e *ur* = !mselves & a h\se = _! prie/4 ,y h tak5 _! *ur* f _! h&s & giv5 x to ! ,iri%2 y h sold ! h\se ( _! prie/s1 aft] turn+ him out2 & :at h y done ) ! #a1ejj y got z its price8 ,public rumor says t y are employ+ t money to support ! mo/ unju/ & infam\s suit aga9/ "o ( _! prie/s4 ,cont9ue a little long]1 & y may be sure t ! curs+ ( my poor c\ntrym5 aga9/ y w be he>d 9 heav5 & t ! ,god ( ,ju/ice w give !m an av5g]6 8,y h1 at ?ree diff]5t times1 ?reat5$ to int]dict & excommunicate me if ,i w\ld n give y my little p]sonal prop]ties6 & z _m times y h said 9 my tee?1 t ,i 0 a bad prie/1 because ,i refus$ to act accord+ to y\r rapaci\s tyranny6 8,! impi\s ,ahab1 murd]+ ,nabo? to get 8 fields1 is ris5 f ! dead 9 y\r p]son4 ,y _c kill my body1 s9ce ,i am protect$ by ! glori\s flag ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates2 b y d worse1 y try to de/roy my honor & my "*1 :i* are de>] to me ?an my life4 ,9 a moral way y give my blood to be lick$ by y\r dogs4 ,b rememb] ! words ( ! prophet to ,ahab1 #8,9 ?is place :]e ! dogs h lick$ ! blood ( ,nabo?1 !y %all lick ?y blood also4' ,= e false witness y %all br+ aga9/ me1 ,i %all h a hundr$ unimpea*able ones aga9/ y4 ,?\s&s & ?\s&s ( religi\s ,iri%1 & g5]\s ,g]mans1 & lib]ty & fair-play-lov+ ,fr5* ,canadians1 w help me 9 t /ruggle4 ,i d n address y ^! words z a ?reat1 b z a fri5dly w>n+4 8,keep quiet1 my "l2 d n let y\rself be guid$ by y\r quick temp]2 d n be s free 9 ! use ( susp5se & int]dicts4 ,^! t]rible arms are two-edg$ swords1 :i* v (t5 hurt m ! imprud5t :o make use ( !m ?an ^? :om !y int5d to /rike4 8,i wi% to live 9 peace ) y4 ,i take my ,god to witness1 t to ?is day ,i h done ev]y?+ to keep peace ) y4 ,b ! peace ,i want is ! peace :i* ,/4 ,j]ome speaks ( :51 writ+ to 8 bi%op1 he tells him3 8#8,x is no use to speak ( peace ) ! lips1 if we de/roy x ) our works4 ,x is a v diff]5t way to "w = peace1 f try+ to submit e "o to an abject slav]y4 ,we1 also1 want peace4 ,n only we desire x1 b we implore y in/antly to give x4 ,h[ev]1 ! peace we want is ! peace ( ,*ri/--a true peace1 a peace )\t hatr$1 a peace :i* is n a mask$ w>1 a peace :i* is n to cru% enemies1 b a peace :i* unites fri5ds4 8#8,h[ c we call t peace :i* is no?+ b tyranny8 ,:y %\ld we n call ev]y?+ by its prop] "n8 ,let u call hatr$--:at is hatr$4 ,& let u say t peace reigns only :5 a true love exi/s4 ,we are n ! au?ors ( ! tr\bles & divisions :i* exi/ 9 ! *ur*4 ,a fa!r mu/ love 8 *ildr54 ,a bi%op1 z well z a fa!r1 mu/ wi% to be lov$1 b n fe>$4 ,! old prov]b says1 ,"o hates :om he fe>s1 & we naturally wi% = ! dea? ( ! "o we hate4 ,if y d n try to cru% ! religi\s m5 "u y\r p[] !y w submit !mselves to y\r au?ority4 ,(f] !m ! kiss ( love & peace & !y w obey y4 ,b lib]ty refuses to yield z soon z y try to cru% x d[n4 ,! be/ way to be obey$ by a free man is n to deal ) him z ) a slave4 ,we "k ! laws ( ! *ur*1 & we d n ignore ! rights :i* belong to e man4 ,we h le>n$ _m ?+s1 n only f exp]i5ce1 b also f ! /udy ( books4 ,! k+ :o /rikes 8 subjects ) an iron rod1 or :o ?9ks t 8 f+]s mu/ be heavi] ?an 8 fa!r's h&1 has soon de/roy$ ! k+dom ev5 ( ! peaceful & mild ,david4 ,! p ( ,rome refus$ to be> ! yoke ( _! pr\d k+4 8#8,we h left our c\ntry 9 ord] to live 9 peace4 ,9 ?is solitude our int5tion 0 to respect ! au?ority ( ! pontiffs ( ,*ri/ 7we mean ^? :o tea* ! true fai?74 ,we want to respect !m n z our ma/]s1 b z our fa!rs4 ,our int5tion 0 to respect !m z bi%ops1 n z usurp]s & tyrants :o want to r$uce u to slav]y by ! abuse ( _! p[]4 ,we are n s va9 z to ignore :at is due to ! prie/s ( ,*ri/1 = to receive !m is to receive ! v "o ^: bi%ops !y are4 ,b let !m be satisfi$ ) ! respect :i* is due to !m4 ,let !m rememb] t !y are fa!rs1 n ma/]s ( ^? :o h giv5 up ev]y?+ 9 ord] to enjoy ! privileges ( a peaceful solitude4 ,may ,*ri/ :o is our mighty ,god grant t we %\ld be unit$ n by a false peace1 b by a true & loyal love1 le/ t by bit+ ea* o!r we de/roy ea* o!r4' ,lett] ( ,/4 ,j]ome to 8 bi%op4 8,y h a great op9ion ( ! episcopal p[]1 & s h ,i4 ,b ,/4 ,paul & all ! ,holy ,fa!rs t ,i h read1 h also told u _m ?+s ( ! dignity ( ! prie/ 7alt] ,*ri/us ,sac]dos74 ,i am y\r bro!r & equal 9 _m ?+s2 d n =get x4 ,i "k my dignity z a man & a prie/1 & ,i %all soon] lose my life ?an to surr5d] !m to any man1 ev5 a bi%op4 ,if y ?9k y c deal ) me z a c>t] ) 8 horse1 draw+ him :]e he likes1 y w soon see y\r error4 8,i nei!r dr9k /rong w9es nor smoke1 & ! _m h\rs t o!rs sp5d 9 empty+ _! bottles & smok+ _! pipes1 ,i read my de> books--,i /udy ! admirable laws ( ! *ur* & ! ,gospel ( ,*ri/4 ,i love my books & ! holy laws ( our *ur*1 because !y tea* me my rights z well z my duties4 ,!y tell me t _m ye>s ago a g5]al c\ncil1 :i* is some?+ above y1 has annull$ y\r unju/ s5t5ce1 & br\ght ^u y\r head ! v p5alty y int5d$ to impose ^u me4 ,!y tell me t any s5t5ce f y com+ 7f y\r own pr(ession7 f bad & crim9al motives1 is null1 & w fall p[]less at my feet4 8,b ,i tell y aga91 t ,i desire to live 9 peace ) y4 ,! false reports ( ,le,belle & ,c>!vel h di/urb$ t peace2 b x is /ill 9 y\r p[] to h x = y\rself & give x to me4 ,i am sure t ! s5t5ce y say y h pref]r$ aga9/ me comes f a misund]/&+1 & y\r wisdom & *>ity1 if y c he> _! voice1 c v easily set ev]y?+ z x 0 two mon?s ago4 ,x is /ill 9 y\r p[] to h a w>m fri5d1 or an immovable adv]s>y 9 ,kankakee ,c\nty4 ,x w\ld be bo? equitable & honorable 9 y to ext+ui% ! fires ( discord :i* y h s un=tunately enk9dl$1 by draw+ back a s5t5ce :i* y w\ld nev] h pref]r$ if y _h n be5 deceiv$4 ,y w\ld be bless$ by ! ,*ur* ( ,ill9ois1 & p>ticul>ly by ! #aj1jjj ,fr5* ,canadians :o surr\nd me1 & are ready to support me at all haz>ds4 8,d n be angry f ! seem+ h>% words :i* y f9d 9 ?is lett]4 ,nobody1 b ,i1 c\ld tell y ^! sad tru?s1 ?\gh e "o ( y\r prie/s1 & p>ticul>ly ^? :o flatt] y ! mo/1 repeat !m e day4 8,by k9d & hone/ proce$+s y c get ev]y?+ f me1 ev5 ! la/ drop ( my blood2 b y w f9d me an immovable rock if y approa* me z y h already done 7b once7 ) insult & tyrannical ?reats4 8,y h n be5 orda9$ a bi%op to rule ov] u accord+ to y\r fancy1 b y h ! et]nal laws ( ju/ice & equity to guide y4 ,y h ! laws ( ! *ur* to obey z well z h] humble/ *ild1 & z soon z y d any?+ aga9/ ^! imp]i%able laws y are p[]less to obta9 y\r object4 ,x is n only lawful1 b a duty to resi/ y4 ,:5 y /rike )\t a legitimate or a canonical cause2 :5 y try to take away my "* to please "s ( y\r fri5ds2 :5 y ord] me to exile to /op a suit :i* y are excit+ aga9/ me2 :5 y puni% me = ! crime ( refus+ to obey ! ord]s y gave me to be ! fri5d ( ?ree public rogues2 :5 y ?reat5 me ) excommunication1 because ,i d n give y my little p]sonal prop]ties1 ,i h no?+ to fe> f y\r int]dicts & excommunication4 8,:at a sad lot = me1 & :at a %ame = y1 if by y\r cont9ual attacks at ! door ( our *ur*es or 9 ! public press1 y oblige me to expose y\r inju/ice4 ,x is yet "t = y to avoid t4 ,in/ead ( /rik+ me l an outca/1 come & give me ! pat]nal h& ( *>ity1 in/ead ( cont9u+ t fratricidal combat1 come & heal ! w\nds y h made & already receiv$4 ,in/ead ( insult+ me by driv+ me away f my colony to ! l& ( exile1 come & bless ! great "w ,i h begun "h = ! glory ( ,god & ! good ( my p4 ,in/ead ( de/roy+ ! college & ! female academy1 = ! erection ( :i* ,i h exp5d$ my la/ c5t1 & ^: tea*]s are f$ at my table1 come & bless ! ?ree hundr$ little *ildr5 :o are daily att5d+ our s*ools4 8,in/ead ( sacrific+ me to ! hatr$ ( my enemies1 come & /r5g!n my he>t aga9/ _! fury4 8,i tell y aga91 t no consid]ation :atev] w induce me to surr5d] my "r z a ,ca?olic prie/ & z an ,am]ican citiz54 ,by ! fir/ title y _c int]dict me1 z long z ,i am a good prie/1 = ! crime ( wi%+ to live 9 my colony & among my p4 ,by ! second title1 y _c turn me out f my home4 8,c4 ,,*9iquy40 ,x 0 ! fir/ "t t a ,roman ,ca?olic prie/1 ) 8 :ole p1 _h d>$ to speak su* language to a ,bi%op ( ,rome on ?is cont95t4 ,nev] yet _h ! unbe>able tyranny ( ^? haughty m5 receiv$ su* a public rebuke4 ,our fe>less words fell z a bomb%ell 9 ! camp ( ! ,roman ,ca?olic hi]>*y ( ,am]ica4 ,) v few exceptions1 ! press ( ! ,/ate ( ,ill9ois1 ^: columns _h s (t5 e*o$ ! cries ( indignation rais$ ev]y:]e aga9/ ! tyranny ( ,bi%op ,o',regan1 took sides ) me4 ,hundr$s ( prie/s1 n only f ,ill9ois1 b f e corn] ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 address$ _! w>me/ ?anks to me = ! /& ,i _h tak51 & ask$ me1 9 ! "n ( ,god & = ! honor ( ! *ur*1 n to yield an in* ( my rights4 ,_m promis$ to support u at ! c\rt ( ,rome1 by writ+ !mselves to ! ,pope1 to d5\nce n only ! ,bi%op ( ,ill9ois1 b sev]al o!rs1 :o1 ?\gh n s op5ly bad1 7 yet trampl+ "u _! feet ! mo/ sacr$ rights ( ! prie/s & ! p4 ,un=tunately ^? prie/s gave me a sadd5+ k ( _! c[>dice by putt+ 9 _! lett]s 8absolutely confid5tial40 ,!y all promis$ to help me :5 ,i 0 /orm+ ! /rong =tress ( ! enemy1 provid$ ,i w\ld g alone 9 ! gap1 & t !y w\ld keep !mselves beh9d ?ick walls1 f> f %ot & %ell4 ,h[ev]1 ?is did n di/urb me1 = my ,god kn[s x1 my tru/ 0 n 9 my own /r5g?1 b 9 8 protection4 ,i 0 sure t ,i 0 9 ! "r1 t ! ,gospel ( ,*ri/ 0 on my side1 t all ! canons & laws ( ! c\ncils 7 9 my favor4 ,my libr>y 0 fill$ ) ! be/ books on ! canons & laws pass$ 9 ! great c\ncils ( my *ur*4 ,x 0 writt5 9 big lett]s 9 ! celebrat$ "w1 8,hi/oire du droit canonique40 ,!re is no arbitr>y p[] 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,*ri/1--,vol4 iii41 page #aci4 ,! ,c\ncil ( ,augsburg1 held 9 #aedh 7,c4 #bd71 _h decl>$ t1 8no s5t5ce ( excommunication w be pass$1 except = great crimes40 ,! ,pope ,/4 ,gregory _h said3 8,t c5sures are null :5 n inflict$ = great s9s or = faults :i* h n be5 cle>ly prov$40 8,an unju/ excommunication does n b9d be=e ,god ^? aga9/ :om x has be5 hu%$4 ,b x injures only ! "o :o has pr(f]$ x40--,eccl4 ,laws1 by ,h]ic\rt1 c4 xxii41 ,no4 #ej4 8,if an unju/ s5t5ce is pron\nc$ aga9/ any "o1 he mu/ n pay any att5tion to x2 =1 be=e ,god & 8 ,*ur*1 an unju/ s5t5ce _c injure anybody4 ,let1 !n1 t p]son d no?+ to get su* an unju/ s5t5ce repeal$1 = x _c injure him40--,/4 ,gelace--,! ,pope--7,canoni b9 e/47 ,! canoni/s conclude1 f all ! laws ( ! *ur* on t matt]1 8,t if a prie/ is unju/ly int]dict$ or excommunicat$ he may cont9ue to (ficiate )\t any fe> ( becom+ irregul>40--,eccl4 ,laws1 by ,h]ic\rt1 c4 xxii41 ,no4 #ea4 ,protect$ by ^! laws1 & hundr$s ( o!rs too long to enum]ate1 :i* my *ur* _h pass$ 9 e age1 /r5g!n$ by ! voice ( my consci5ce1 :i* assur$ me t ,i _h done no?+ to des]ve to be int]dict$ or excommunicat$2 sure1 besides1 ( ! te/imony br\ght by our f\r delegates t ! bi%op himself _h decl>$ t ,i 0 "o ( 8 be/ prie/s1 t he want$ to give me my lett]s to g & p]=m ! functions ( my m9i/ry 9 ,kahokia3 above all1 kn[+ ! unanim\s w ( my p t ,i %\ld rema9 ) !m & cont9ue ! great & good "w s provid5tially tru/$ to me 9 my colony1 & reg>d+ ?is z an indication ( ! div9e w1 ,i det]m9$ to rema91 9 spite ( ! ,bi%op ( ,*icago4 ,all ! c\ncils ( my *ur* 7 tell+ me t he _h no p[] to injure me1 & t all 8 (ficial acts 7 null4 ,b if he 7 spiritually p[]less aga9/ me1 x 0 n s 9 temporal matt]s4 ,8 p[] & 8 desire to injure u _h increas$ ) 8 hatr$1 s9ce he _h read our lett]s & se5 !m 9 all ! pap]s ( ,*icago4 ,! fir/ ?+ he did 0 to reconcile himself to ! prie/ ,le,belle1 :om he _h turn$ out ignom9i\sly f 8 diocese "s "t be=e4 ,t prie/ _h s9ce t obta9$ a f9e situation 9 ! diocese ( ,mi*igan4 ,he invit$ him to 8 palace1 & pett$ him sev]al days4 ,i felt t ! reconciliation ( ^? two m5 meant no?+ good = me4 ,b my hope 01 m ?an ev]1 t ! m]ciful ,god :o _h protect$ me s _m times aga9/ !m1 w\ld save me aga9 f _! ma*9ations4 ,! air 01 h[ev]1 fill$ ) ! /range/ rumors aga9/ me4 ,x 0 said ev]y:]e t ,mr4 ,le,belle 0 to br+ su* *>ges aga9/ my "* t ,i w\ld be s5t to ! p5it5ti>y4 ,:at 7 ! new iniquities to be laid to my *>ge8 ,no "o c\ld tell4 ,b ! few p>tisans & fri5ds ( ! bi%op1 ,messrs4 ,le,belle & ,sp9k1 7 jubilant & sure t ,i 0 to be =ev] de/roy$4 ,at la/1 ! "t arriv$ :5 ! ,%]iff ( ,kankakee _h to drag me aga9 z a crim9al & a prison] to ,urbana1 & deliv] me into ! h&s ( ! %]iff ( t city4 ,i arriv$ "h on ! #bj? ( ,octob]1 ) my lawy]s1 ,messrs4 ,osgood & ,paddock1 & a doz5 witnesses4 ,mr4 ,abraham ,l9coln _h prec$$ me only by a few m9utes f ,spr+field4 ,he 0 9 ! company ( ,judge ,david ,davis1 s9ce ,vice-,presid5t ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 :5 ,i met him4 ,! jury hav+ be5 select$ & sworn1 ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,le,belle 0 ! fir/ witness call$ to te/ify & say :at he knew aga9/ my "*4 ,mr4 ,l9coln object$ to t k9d ( te/imony1 & tri$ to prove t ,mr4 ,sp9k _h no "r to br+ 8 new suit aga9/ me by attack+ my "*4 ,b ,judge ,davis rul$ t ! prosecution _h t "r 9 ! case t 0 be=e him4 ,mr4 ,le,belle _h1 !n1 full lib]ty to say any?+ he want$1 & he avail$ himself ( 8 privilege4 ,8 te/imony la/$ ne>ly an h\r1 & 0 too long to be giv5 "h4 ,i w only say t he began by decl>+ t 8,*9iquy 0 "o ( ! vile/ m5 ( ! day--t e k9d ( bad rumors 7 con/antly circulat+ aga9/ him40 ,he gave a good numb] ( ^? rumors1 ?\gh he c\ld n positively swe> if !y 7 f\nd$ on tru? or n1 = he _h n inve/igat$ !m4 ,b he said !re 0 "o ( :i* he 0 sure1 = he _h au!nticat$ x ?or\ghly4 ,he express$ a great deal ( app>5t regret t he 0 =c$ to reveal to ! _w su* ?+s :i* 7 n only aga9/ ! honor ( ,*9iquy1 b1 to "s ext5t1 involv$ ! good "n ( a de> si/]1 ,madame ,bosse4 ,b z he 0 to speak ! tru? be=e ,god1 he c\ld n help x--! sad tru? mu/ be told4 8,mr4 ,*9iquy10 he said1 8_h attempt$ to d ! mo/ infam\s ?+s ) my own si/]1 ,madame ,bosse4 ,%e h]self has told me ! :ole /ory "u oa?1 & %e w\ld be "h to unmask ! wick$ man to-day be=e ! :ole _w1 if %e 7 n =c$ to sil5ce1 at home1 f a sev]e illness40 ,?\gh e ^w ( t /ory 0 a p]jury1 !re 0 su* a color ( tru? & s9c]ity 9 my accus]1 t 8 te/imony fell ^u me & my lawy]s & all my fri5ds z a ?und]bolt4 ,a man :o has nev] he>d su* a calumny br\ght aga9/ him be=e a jury 9 a c\rt-h\se pack$ ) p1 compos$ ( fri5ds & foes1 w nev] und]/& :at ,i felt 9 ?is ! d>ke/ h\r ( my life4 ,my ,god only kn[s ! weight & ! bitt]ness ( ! waves ( desolation :i* !n pass$ ov] my s\l4 ,aft] t te/imony 0 giv51 !re 0 a lull1 & a mo/ pr(\nd sil5ce 9 ! c\rt-room4 ,all ! eyes 7 turn$ ^u me1 & ,i he>d _m voices speak+ ( me1 :isp]+1 8,! villa960 ,^? voices pass$ ?r\gh my s\l z poison$ arr[s4 ,?\gh innoc5t1 ,i wi%$ t ! gr\nd w\ld op5 "u my feet & br+ me d[n to ! d>ke/ abysses1 to conceal me f ! eyes ( my fri5ds & ! :ole _w4 ,h[ev]1 ,mr4 ,l9coln soon int]rupt$ ! sil5ce by address+ to ,le,belle su* cross-que/ions t 8 te/imony1 9 ! m9ds ( _m1 soon lo/ mu* ( its p[]4 ,& he did /ill m de/roy ! effect ( 8 7,le,belle's7 false oa?1 :51 he br\ght my twelve witnesses1 :o 7 among ! mo/ respectable citiz5s ( ,b\rbonnais1 =m]ly ! p>i%ion]s ( ,mr4 ,le,belle4 ,^? twelve g5tlem5 swore t ,mr4 ,le,belle 0 su* a drunk>d & vici\s man1 t he 0 s publicly my enemy on acc\nt ( ! _m rebukes ,i _h giv5 to 8 private & public vices1 t !y w\ld n believe a ^w ( :at he said1 ev5 ^u 8 oa?4 ,at t5 ,p4 ,m41 ! c\rt 0 adj\rn$1 to meet aga9 ! next morn+1 & ,i w5t to ! room ( ,mr4 ,l9coln ) my two o!r lawy]s1 to conf] ab\t ! morn+'s "w4 ,my m9d 0 unspeakably sad4 ,life _h nev] be5 su* a burd5 to me z 9 t h\r4 ,i 0 tempt$1 l ,job1 to curse ! h\r :5 ,i 0 born4 ,i c\ld see 9 ! faces ( my lawy]s1 ?\gh !y tri$ to conceal x1 t !y 7 also full ( anxiety4 8,my de> ,mr4 ,*9iquy10 said ,mr4 ,l9coln1 8?\gh ,i hope1 to-morr[1 to de/roy ! te/imony ( ,mr4 ,le,belle aga9/ y1 ,i mu/ conc$e t ,i see great dang]s ahead4 ,!re is n ! lea/ d\bt 9 my m9d t e ^w he has said is a sworn lie2 b my fe> is t ! jury ?9ks diff]5tly4 ,i am a pretty good judge 9 ^! matt]s4 ,i feel t our jurym5 ?9k t y are guilty4 ,!re is only "o way to p]fectly de/roy ! p[] ( a false witness--x is by ano!r direct te/imony aga9/ :at he has said1 or by %[+ f 8 v lips t he has p]jur$ himself4 ,i fail$ to d t la/ night1 ?\gh ,i h dim9i%$1 to a great ext5t1 ! =ce ( 8 te/imony4 ,c y n prove an alibi1 or c y n br+ witnesses :o 7 !re 9 ! same h\se t day1 :o w\ld flatly & directly contradict :at y\r remorseless enemy has said aga9/ y80 ,i answ]$ him3 8,h[ c ,i try to d su* a ?+ :5 !y h be5 %rewd en\gh n to fix ! v date ( ! alleg$ crime aga9/ me80 8,y are correct1 y are p]fectly correct1 ,mr4 ,*9iquy10 answ]$ ,mr4 ,l9coln1 8z !y h refus$ to specify ! date1 we _c try t4 ,i h nev] se5 two su* skillful rogues z ^? two prie/s6 ,!re is really a diabolical skill 9 ! plan !y h concoct$ = y\r de/ruction4 ,x is evid5t t ! bi%op is at ! bottom ( ! plot4 ,y rememb] h[ ,i h =c$ ,le,belle to confess t he 0 n[ on ! mo/ fri5dly t]ms ) ! ,bi%op ( ,*icago1 s9ce he has become ! *ief ( y\r accus]s4 ,?\gh ,i d n give up ! hope ( rescu+ y f ! h&s ( y\r enemies1 ,i d n l to conceal f y t ,i h sev]al reasons to fe> t y w be decl>$ guilty & condemn$ to a heavy p5alty1 or to ! p5it5ti>y1 ?\gh ,i am sure y are p]fectly innoc5t4 ,x is v probable t we w h to confront t si/] ( ,le,belle tomorr[4 ,h] sickness is probably a fe9t1 9 ord] n to appe> "h except aft] ! bro!r w h prep>$ ! public m9d 9 h] favor4 ,at all ev5ts1 if %e does n come1 !y w s5d "s ju/ice ( ! peace to get h] sworn te/imony1 :i* w be m difficult to rebut ?an h] own v]bal decl>ations4 ,t woman is evid5tly 9 ! h&s ( ! bi%op & h] bro!r prie/1 ready to swe> any?+ !y ord] h]1 & ,i "k no?+ s difficult z to refute su* female te/imonies1 p>ticul>ly :5 !y are abs5t f ! c\rt4 ,! only way to be sure ( a favorable v]dict to-morr[ is1 t ,god ,almighty w\ld take our "p & %[ y\r innoc5ce6 ,g to ,him & pray1 = ,he alone c save y40 ,mr4 ,l9coln 0 exce$+ly solemn :5 he address$ ^? words to me1 & !y w5t v deep into my s\l4 ,i h (t5 be5 ask$ if ,abraham ,l9coln _h any religion b ,i h nev] _h any d\bt ab\t 8 pr(\nd confid5ce 9 ,god1 s9ce ,i he>d ^? words fall+ f 8 lips 9 t h\r ( anxiety4 ,i _h n be5 able to conceal my deep di/ress4 ,burn+ te>s 7 roll+ on my *eeks :5 he 0 speak+1 & !re 0 on 8 face ! expression ( fri5dly sympa?y :i* ,i %all nev] =get4 ,)\t be+ able to say a ^w1 ,i left him to g to my little room4 ,x 0 ne>ly elev5 o'clock4 ,i lock$ ! door & fell on my knees to pray1 b ,i 0 unable to say a s+le ^w4 ,! horrible sworn calumnies ?r[n at my face by a prie/ ( my own *ur* 7 r++ 9 my e>s6 my honor & my good "n s cruelly & =ev] de/roy$6 all my fri5ds & my de> p cov]$ ) an et]nal confusion6 & m ?an t1 ! s5t5ce ( condemnation :i* 0 probably to be hurl$ aga9/ me ! next day 9 ! pres5ce ( ! :ole c\ntry1 ^: eyes 7 ^u me6 ,all ^? ?+s 7 be=e me1 n only z horrible phantoms1 b z heavy m\nta9s1 "u ! burd5s ( :i* ,i c\ld n brea!4 ,at la/ ! f\nta9s ( te>s 7 op5$1 & x reliev$ me to weep2 ,i c\ld !n speak & cry3 8,oh6 my ,god6 h m]cy ^u me6 ?\ kn[e/ my innoc5ce6 ha/ ?\ n promis$ t ^? :o tru/ 9 !e _c p]i%6 ,oh6 d n let me p]i%1 :5 ,?\ art ! only ,"o 9 :om ,i tru/6 ,come to my help6 ,save me60 ,f elev5 ,p4 ,m41 to ?ree 9 ! morn+ ,i cri$ to ,god1 & rais$ my supplicat+ h&s to 8 ?rone ( m]cy4 ,b ,i confess to my confusion1 x seem$ to me 9 c]ta9 mom5ts1 t x 0 useless to pray & to cry1 = ?\gh innoc5t1 ,i 0 doom$ to p]i%4 ,i 0 9 ! h&s ( my enemies4 ,my ,god _h =sak5 me6 ,:at an awful night ,i sp5t6 ,i hope none ( my read]s w ev] "k by _! own exp]i5ce ! agony ( _s ,i endur$4 ,i _h no o!r expectation ?an to be =ev] di%onor$1 & s5t to ! p5it5ti>y next morn+6 ,b ,god _h n =sak5 me6 ,he _h aga9 he>d my cries1 & 01 once m1 to %[ me ,8 inf9ite m]cy6 ,at ?ree o'clock ,a4 ,m41 ,i he>d ?ree knocks at my door1 & ,i quickly w5t to op5 x4 8,:o 0 !re8 ,abraham ,l9coln1 ) a face beam+ ) joy60 ,i c\ld h>dly believe my eyes4 ,b ,i 0 n mi/ak54 ,x 0 my noble-he>t$ fri5d1 ! mo/ hone/ lawy] ( ,ill9ois6--"o ( ! noble/ m5 ,heav5 has ev] giv5 to e>?6 ,x 0 ,abraham ,l9coln1 :o _h be5 giv5 me z my ,savi\r6 ,on see+ me ba!d ) te>s1 he exclaim$1 8,*e] up1 ,mr4 ,*9iquy1 ,i h ! p]jur$ prie/s 9 my h&s4 ,_! diabolical plot is all kn[n1 & if !y d n fly away be=e ! dawn ( day1 !y w surely be lyn*$4 ,bless ! ,"l1 y are sav$60 ,! sudd5 passage ( extreme desolation to an extreme joy came ne> kill+ me4 ,i felt z suffocat$1 & unable to utt] a s+le ^w4 ,i took 8 h&1 press$ x to my lips1 & ba!d x ) te>s ( joy4 ,i said3 8,may ,god =ev] bless y1 de> ,mr4 ,l9coln4 ,b please tell me h[ y c br+ me su* glori\s news60 ,"h is ! simple b m>vell\s /ory1 z told me by t great & good man1 :om ,god _h made ! mess5g] ( 8 m]cies t[>ds me3 8,z soon z ,le,belle _h giv5 8 p]jur$ te/imony aga9/ y ye/]day10 said ,mr4 ,l9coln1 8"o ( ! ag5ts ( ! ,*icago press telegraph$ to "s ( ! pr9cipal pap]s ( ,*icago3 #8,x is probable t ,mr4 ,*9iquy w be condemn$2 = ! te/imony ( ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,le,belle seems to leave no d\bt t he is guilty4' ,& ! little ,iri% boys1 to sell _! pap]s1 fill$ ! /reets ) ! cries3 #8,*9iquy w be hung6 ,*9iquy w be hung6' ,! ,roman ,ca?olics 7 s glad to he> t1 t t5 ?\s& extra copies h be5 sold4 ,among ^? :o b\ght ^? pap]s 0 a fri5d ( y\rs1 call$ ,t]ri51 :o w5t to 8 wife & told h] t y 7 to be condemn$1 & :5 ! woman he>d t1 %e said1 #8,x is too bad1 = ,i "k ,mr4 ,*9iquy is n guilty4' 8#8,h[ d y "k t8' said h] husb&4 ,%e answ]$3 #8,i 0 !re :5 ! prie/ ,le,belle made ! plot1 & promis$ to give 8 si/] two-eighties ( good l& if %e w\ld swe> a false oa?--& accuse him ( a crime :i* t woman said he _h n ev5 ?\ght ( ) h]4' 8#8,if x be s1' said ,t]ri51 #8we _c all[ ,mr4 ,*9iquy to be condemn$4 ,come ) me to ,urbana4' 8,b t woman be+ q unwell1 said to h] husb&1 #8,y "k well ,i _c g2 b ,miss ,philom5e ,m(fat 0 ) me !n4 ,%e kn[s e p>ticul> ( t wick$ plot z well z ,i d4 ,%e is well2 g & take h] to ,urbana4 ,!re is no d\bt t h] te/imony w prev5t ! condemnation ( ,mr4 ,*9iquy4' 8,n>cisse ,t]ri5 />t$ imm$iately3 & :5 y 7 pray+ ,god to come to y\r help1 ,he 0 s5d+ y\r deliv]] at ! full spe$ ( ! railroad c>s4 ,miss ,m(fat has j giv5 me ! details ( t diabolical plot4 ,i h advis$ h] n to %[ h]self be=e ! ,c\rt is op5$4 ,i w1 !n1 s5d = h]1 & :5 %e w h giv51 "u oa?1 be=e ! ,c\rt1 ! details %e has j giv5 me1 ,i pity ,sp9k ) 8 p]jur$ prie/s4 ,z ,i told y1 ,i w\ld n be surpris$ if !y 7 lyn*$3 = !re is a t]rible excitem5t 9 t[n among _m p :o f ! beg9n+1 suspect t ! prie/s h p]jur$ !mselves to de/roy y4 8,n[ y\r suit is ga9$1 & to-morr[1 y w h ! greate/ triumph a man ev] got ov] 8 conf\nd$ foes4 ,b y are 9 ne$ ( a re/ z well z myself4 ,good-bye40 ,aft] ?ank+ ,god = t m>vell\s deliv]ance1 ,i w5t to b$ & took ! ne$$ re/4 ,b :at 0 ! prie/ ,le,belle do+ 9 t v mom5t8 ,unable to sleep aft] ! awful p]jury he _h j made1 he _h wat*$ ! arrival ( ! tra9s f ,*icago ) an anxi\s m9d1 = he 0 aw>e ?r\gh ! confessions he _h he>d1 t !re 7 two p]sons 9 t city :o knew 8 plot & 8 false oa?2 & ?\gh he _h ! promises f !m t !y w\ld nev] reveal x to anybody1 he 0 n )\t "s fe>ful appreh5sions t ,i might1 by "s way or o!r1 become acqua9t$ ) 8 abom9able conspiracy4 ,n long aft] ! arrival ( ! tra9s f ,*icago1 he came d[n f 8 room to see 9 ! book :]e travel]s regi/] _! names1 if !re 0 any newcom]s f ,*icago1 & :at 0 8 dismay :5 he saw ! fir/ "n ent]$ 0 8,philom5e ,m(fat60 ,t v "n1 ,philom5e ,m(fat1 :o "s "t be=e1 _h gone to confess to him t %e _h he>d ! :ole plot f 8 own lips1 :5 he _h promis$ #afj acres ( l& to p]suade 8 si/] to p]jure h]self 9 ord] to de/roy me4 ,a deadly pres5tim5t *ill$ ! blood 9 8 ve9s6 8,w\ld x be possible t ?is girl is "h to reveal & prove my p]jury be=e ! _w80 ,he imm$iately s5t = h]1 :5 %e 0 j com+ f meet+ ,mr4 ,l9coln4 8,miss ,philom5e ,m(fat "h60 he exclaim$1 :5 he saw h]4 8,:at are y com+ "h =1 ?is night80 he said4 8,y w "k x1 sir1 to-morr[ morn+10 %e answ]$ 8,ah6 wret*$ girl6 y come to de/roy me80 he exclaim$4 ,%e repli$3 8,i d n come to de/roy y1 = y are already de/roy$4 ,mr4 ,l9coln kn[s ev]y?+40 8,oh6 my ,god6 my ,god60 he exclaim$1 /rik+ 8 =ehead ) 8 h&s4 ,!n tak+ a big bundle ( bank notes1 f 8 pocket-book1 he said3 8,"h are "o hundr$ doll>s = y1 if y take ! morn+ tra9 & g back to ,*icago40 8,if y w\ld (f] me z mu* gold z ?is h\se c\ld conta91 ,i w\ld n g10 %e repli$4 ,he !n left h] abruptly1 ran to ! sleep+-room ( ,sp9k1 & told him3 8,)draw y\r suit aga9/ ,*9iquy2 we are lo/2 he kn[s all40 ,)\t los+ a mom5t1 he w5t to ! sleep+-room ( 8 co-prie/1 & told him3 8,make ha/e--dress y\rself & let u take ! morn+ tra92 we h no bus9ess "h1 ,*9iquy kn[s all our secrets40 ,:5 ! h\r ( op5+ ! c\rt came1 !re 0 an imm5se cr[d1 n only inside1 b outside its walls4 ,mr4 ,sp9k1 pale z a man condemn$ to dea?1 rose be=e ! ,judge1 & said3 8,please ! c\rt1 all[ me to )draw my prosecution aga9/ ,mr4 ,*9iquy4 ,i am n[ p]suad$ t he is n guilty ( ! faults br\ght aga9/ him be=e ?is tribunal40 ,abraham ,l9coln1 hav+ accept$ t rep>ation 9 my "n1 made a %ort1 b "o ( ! mo/ admirable spee*es ,i _h ev] he>d1 on ! cruel inju/ices ,i _h suff]$ f my m]ciless p]secutors1 & d5\nc$ ! rascality ( ! prie/s :o _h p]jur$ !mselves1 ) su* t]rible colors1 t x _h be5 v wise on _! "p to fly away & disappe> be=e ! op5+ ( ! c\rt4 ,= ! :ole city 0 ransack$ = !m by hundr$s1 :o blam$ me = =giv+ !m & refus+ to h my rev5ge = ! wrong !y _h done me4 ,b ,i ?\ght t my enemies 7 suffici5tly puni%$ by ! awful public disclosures ( _! inf]nal plot4 ,x seem$ t ! de> ,savi\r :o _h s visibly protect$ me1 0 to be obey$1 :5 he 0 :isp]+ 9 my s\l1 8,=give !m & love !m z ?yself40 ,0 n ,sp9k suffici5tly puni%$ by ! complete ru9 :i* 0 br\ght ^u him by ! loss ( ! suit8 ,= hav+ gone to ,bi%op ,o',regan to be indemnifi$ = ! enorm\s exp5ses ( su* a long prosecution1 at su* a di/ance1 ! bi%op coldly answ]$ him3 8,i _h promis$ to indemnify y if y w\ld put ,*9iquy d[n1 z y promis$ me4 ,b z x is ,*9iquy :o has put y d[n1 ,i h n a c5t to give y40 ,abraham ,l9coln _h n only def5d$ me ) ! zeal & tal5t ( ! able/ lawy] ,i h ev] kn[n1 b z ! mo/ devot$ & noble/ fri5d ,i ev] _h4 ,aft] giv+ m ?an a ye> ( 8 preci\s "t to my def5se1 :5 he _h plead$ dur+ two long sessions ( ! ,c\rt ( ,urbana1 )\t receiv+ a c5t f me1 ,i consid]$ t ,i 0 ow+ him a great sum ( money4 ,my o!r two lawy]s1 :o _h n done ! half ( 8 "w1 ask$ me a ?\s& doll>s ea*1 & ,i _h n ?\ght t too mu*4 ,aft] ?ank+ him = ! inappreciable s]vices he _h r5d]$ me1 ,i reque/$ him to %[ me 8 bill1 assur+ him t1 ?\gh ,i w\ld n be able to pay ! :ole ca%1 ,i w\ld pay him to ! la/ c5t1 if he _h ! k9dness to wait a little = ! balance4 ,he answ]$ me ) a smile & an air ( inimitable k9dness1 :i* 0 peculi> to him3 8,my de> ,mr4 ,*9iquy1 ,i feel pr\d & honor$ to h be5 call$ to def5d y4 ,b ,i h done x less z a lawy] ?an z a fri5d4 ,! money ,i %\ld receive f y w\ld take away ! pleasure ,i feel at hav+ f\ght y\r battle4 ,y\r case is unique 9 my :ole practice4 ,i h nev] met a man s cruelly p]secut$ z y h be51 & :o des]ves x s little4 ,y\r enemies are devils inc>nate4 ,! plot !y _h concoct$ aga9/ y is ! mo/ helli% "o ,i ev] knew4 ,b ! way y h be5 sav$ f _! h&1 ! appe>ance ( t "y & intellig5t ,miss ,m(fat1 :o 0 really s5t by ,god 9 ! v h\r ( ne$1 :51 ,i confess x aga91 ,i ?\ght ev]y?+ 0 ne>ly lo/1 is "o ( ! mo/ extraord9>y occurr5ces ,i ev] saw4 ,x makes me rememb] :at ,i h too (t5 =gott51 & :at my "m (t5 told me :5 "y--t our ,god is a pray]-he>+ ,god4 ,?is good ?\ght1 s[n into my "y he>t by t de> "m's h&1 0 j 9 my m9d :5 ,i told y1 #8,g & pray1 ,god alone c save y4' ,b ,i confess to y t ,i _h n fai? en\gh to believe t y\r pray] w\ld be s quickly & s m>vell\sly answ]$ by ! sudd5 appe>ance ( t int]e/+ "y lady1 la/ night4 ,n[ let u speak ( :at y owe me4 ,well6--,well6--h[ mu* d y owe me8 ,y owe me no?+6 = ,i suppose y are q ru9$4 ,! exp5ses ( su* a suit1 ,i "k1 mu/ be enorm\s4 ,y\r enemies want to ru9 y4 ,w ,i help !m to f9i% y\r ru91 :5 ,i hope ,i h ! "r to be put among ! mo/ s9c]e & devot$ ( y\r fri5ds80 8,y are "r10 ,i answ]$ him2 8y are ! mo/ devot$ & noble/ fri5d ,god ev] gave me1 & ,i am ne>ly ru9$ by my enemies4 ,b y are ! fa!r ( a pretty l>ge family2 y mu/ support !m4 ,y\r travel+ exp5ses 9 com+1 twice1 "h = me f ,spr+field2 y\r hotel bills dur+ ! two t]ms y h def5d$ me1 mu/ be v consid]able4 ,x is n j t y %\ld receive no?+ 9 return = su* "w & exp5ses40 8,well6 well60 he answ]$1 8,i w give y a promissory note :i* y w sign40 ,tak+ !n a small piece ( pap]1 he wrote3 ,he h&$ me ! note1 say+1 8,c y sign t80 ,illu/ration3 ,,i\ ,aft] read+ x1 ,i said1 8,de> ,mr4 ,l9coln1 ?is is a joke4 ,x is n possible t y ask only fifty doll>s = s]vices :i* are wor? at lea/ two ?\s& doll>s40 ,he !n tapp$ me ) ! "r h& on ! %\ld]s & said3 8,sign t2 x is en\gh4 ,i w p9* "s ri* man = t & make !m pay ! re/ ( ! bill10 & he laugh$ outright4 ,:5 ,abraham ,l9coln 0 writ+ ! due-bill1 ! relaxation ( ! great /ra9 ^u my m9d1 & ! great k9dness ( my b5efactor & def5d] 9 *>g+ me s little = su* a s]vice1 & ! t]rible pres5tim5t t he w\ld pay ) 8 life :at he _h done = me1 caus$ me to break into sobs & te>s4 ,z ,mr4 ,l9coln _h f9i%$ writ+ ! due bill1 he turn$ r\nd to me1 & said1 8,fa!r ,*9iquy1 :at are y cry+ =8 ought y n to be ! mo/ happy man alive8 y h beat5 y\r enemies & ga9$ ! mo/ glori\s victory1 & y w come out ( all y\r tr\bles 9 triumph40 8,de> ,mr4 ,l9coln10 ,i answ]$1 8all[ me to tell y t ! joy ,i %\ld naturally feel = su* a victory is de/roy$ 9 my m9d by ! fe> ( :at x may co/ y4 ,!re 71 !n1 9 ! cr[d1 n less ?an t5 or twelve ,jesuits f ,*icago & ,/4 ,l\is1 :o came to he> my s5t5ce ( condemnation to ! p5it5ti>y4 ,b x 0 on _! heads t y h br\ght ! ?und]s ( heav5 & e>?6 no?+ c be comp>$ to ! expression ( _! rage aga9/ y1 :5 y n only wr5*$ me f _! cruel h&s1 b y 7 mak+ ! walls ( ! c\rt-h\se tremble "u ! awful & sup]humanly eloqu5t d5unciation ( _! infamy1 diabolical malice1 & total want ( ,*ri/ian & human pr9ciple1 9 ! plot !y _h =m$ = my de/ruction4 ,:at tr\bles my s\l1 j n[1 & draws my te>s1 is t x seems to me t ,i h read y\r s5t5ce ( dea? 9 _! bloody eyes4 ,h[ _m o!r noble victims h already fall5 at _! feet60 ,he tri$ to div]t my m9d1 at fir/1 ) a joke1 8,sign ?is10 said he1 8,x w be my w>rant ( dea?40 ,b aft] ,i _h sign$1 he became m solemn1 & said1 8,i "k t ,jesuits nev] =get nor =sake4 ,b man mu/ n c>e h[ & :]e he dies1 provid$ he dies at ! po/ ( honor & duty10 & he left me4 ,"h is ! sworn decl>ation ( ,miss ,philom5e ,m(fat1 n[ ,mrs4 ,philom5e ,s*w>tz3 ,/ate ( ,ill9ois1 s4s4 ,cook ,c\nty 8,philom5e ,s*w>tz be+ fir/ duly sworn1 deposes & says3 ,t %e is ( ! age ( =ty-?ree ye>s1 & resides at #dhd ,milwaukee ,av5ue1 ,*icago2 t h] maid5 "n 0 ,philom5e ,m(fat1 t %e knew ,fa!r ,le,belle1 ! ,roman ,ca?olic prie/ ( ! ,fr5* ,ca?olics ( ,*icago dur+ 8 lifetime1 & kn[s ,rev4 ,fa!r ,*9iquy2 t ab\t ! mon? ( ,may1 ,a4 ,d4 #ahed1 9 company ) ,miss ,eug5ia ,bossey1 ! h\sekeep] ( h] uncle1 ! ,rev'd ,mr4 ,le,belle1 :o 0 !n liv+ at ! p>sonage on ,cl>k /reet1 ,*icago1 :ile we 7 sitt+ 9 ! room ( ,miss ,bossey1 ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,le,belle 0 talk+ ) 8 si/]1 ,mrs4 ,bossey1 9 ! adjo9+ room1 n suspect+ t we 7 !re he>+ 8 conv]sation1 ?r\gh ! door1 :i* 0 p>tly op5$2 ?\gh we c\ld nei!r see him nor 8 si/]1 we he>d e ^w ( :at !y said toge!r1 ! sub/ance ( :i* is z foll[s--,rev4 ,mr4 ,le,belle said 9 sub/ance1 to ,mrs4 ,bossey1 8 si/]3 8#8,y "k t ,mr4 ,*9iquy is a dang]\s man1 & he is my enemy1 hav+ already p]suad$ sev]al ( my congregation to settle 9 8 colony4 ,y mu/ help me to put him d[n1 by accus+ him ( hav+ tri$ to d a crim9al action ) y4' 8,madame ,bossey answ]$3 #8,i _c say su* a ?+ aga9/ ,mr4 ,*9iquy1 :5 ,i "k x is absolutely false4' 8,rev4 ,m4 ,le,belle repli$3 #8,if y refuse to comply ) my reque/1 ,i w n give y ! "o hundr$ & sixty acres ( l& ,i int5d$ to give y2 y w live & die poor4' 8,madame ,bossey answ]$3 #8,i pref] nev] to h t l&1 & ,i l bett] to live & die poor1 ?an to p]jure myself to please y4' 8,! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,le,belle1 sev]al times1 urg$ 8 si/]1 ,mrs4 ,bossey1 to comply ) 8 desires1 b %e refus$4 ,at la/1 weep+ & cry+1 %e said3 #8,i pref] nev] to h an in* ( l& ?an to damn my s\l = swe>+ to a falsehood4' 8,! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,le,belle !n said3 8#8,mr4 ,*9iquy w de/roy our holy religion & our p if we d n de/roy him4 ,if y ?9k t ! swe>+ ,i ask y to d is a s91 y w come to confess to me1 & ,i w p>don x 9 ! absolution ,i w give y4' 8#8,h y ! p[] to =give a false oa?8' repli$ ,mrs4 ,bossey to h] bro!r1 ! prie/4 8#8,yes1' he answ]$1 #8,i h t p[]2 = ,*ri/ has said to all 8 prie/s1 8,:at y %all b9d on e>? %all be b\nd 9 heav51 & :at y %all loose on e>? %all be loos$ 9 heav540' 8,mrs4 ,bossey !n said3 #8,if y promise t y w =give t false oa?1 & if y give me ! "o hundr$ & sixty acres ( l& y promis$1 ,i w d :at y want4' 8,! ,rev'd ,mr4 ,le,belle !n said3 #8,all "r6' ,i c\ld n he> any m ( t conv]sation1 = 9 t in/ant ,miss ,eug5ia ,bossey1 :o _h kept /ill & sil5t ) u1 made "s noise & %ut ! door4 8,affiant fur!r /ates3 ,t "s "t lat] ,i w5t to confess to ,rev4 ,mr4 ,le,belle1 & ,i told him t ,i _h lo/ confid5ce 9 him1 ,he ask$ me :y8 ,i answ]$3 #8,i lo/ my confid5ce 9 y s9ce ,i he>d y\r conv]sation ) y\r si/]1 :5 y tri$ to p]suade h] to p]jure h]self 9 ord] to de/roy ,fa!r ,*9iquy4' 8,affiant fur!r says3 8,t 9 ! mon? ( ,octob]1 ,a4 ,d4 #ahef1 ! ,rev'd ,mr4 ,*9iquy _h to def5d himself1 be=e ! civil & crim9al c\rt ( ,urbana1 ,ill9ois1 9 an action br\ght aga9/ him by ,pet] ,sp9k2 "s "o wrote f ,urbana to a pap] ( ,*icago1 t ,fa!r ,*9iquy 0 probably to be condemn$4 ,! pap] :i* publi%$ t lett] 0 mu* read by ! ,roman ,ca?olics1 :o 7 glad to he> t t prie/ 0 to be puni%$4 ,among ^? :o read t pap] 0 ,n>cisse ,t]ri54 ,he _h lately be5 m>ri$ to ,miss ,s>a ,*aussey1 :o told him t ,fa!r ,*9iquy 0 innoc5t2 t %e 0 pres5t ) me :5 ,rev'd ,le,belle prep>$ ! plot ) 8 si/]1 ,mrs4 ,bossey1 & _h promis$ h] a l>ge piece ( l& if %e w\ld swe> falsely aga9/ ,fa!r ,*9iquy4 ,mr4 ,n>cisse ,t]ri5 want$ to g ) 8 wife to ! help ( ,fa!r ,*9iquy1 b %e 0 unwell & c\ld n g4 ,he came to ask me if ,i rememb]$ well ! conv]sation ( ,rev'd ,mr4 ,le,belle1 & if ,i w\ld cons5t to g to ,urbana to expose ! :ole plot be=e ! c\rt1 & ,i cons5t$4 8,we />t$ t same ev5+ = ,urbana1 :]e we arriv$ late at night4 ,i imm$iately met ,mr4 ,abraham ,l9coln1 "o ( ! lawy]s ( ,fa!r ,*9iquy1 & told him all t ,i knew ab\t ! plot4 8,t v same night ! ,rev'd ,mr4 ,le,belle1 hav+ se5 my "n on ! hotel regi/]1 came to me mu* excit$ & tr\bl$1 & said1 #8,philom5e1 :at are y "h =8' 8,i answ]$ him1 #8,i _c exactly tell y t2 b y w probably "k x tomorr[ at ! c\rt-h\se6' 8#8,oh1 wret*$ girl6' he exclaim$1 #8y h come to de/roy me4' 8#8,i d n come to de/roy y1' ,i repli$1 #8= y are already de/roy$6' 8,!n draw+ f 8 portmonnaie-book a big bundle ( bank-notes1 :i* he said 0 wor? "o hundr$ doll>s1 he said3 #8,i w give y all ?is money if y w leave by ! morn+ tra9 & g back to ,*icago4' 8,i answ]$ him3 #8,?\gh y w\ld (f] me z mu* gold z ?is room c conta91 ,i _c d :at y ask4' 8,he !n seem$ exce$+ly di/ress$1 & he disappe>$4 ,! next morn+ ,pet] ,sp9k reque/$ ! c\rt to all[ him to )draw 8 accusations aga9/ ,fa!r ,*9iquy1 & to /op 8 prosecutions1 hav+1 he said1 f\nd out t he1 ,fa!r ,*9iquy1 0 innoc5t ( ! ?+s br\ght aga9/ him1 & 8 reque/ 0 grant$4 ,!n ! innoc5ce & hone/y ( ,fa!r ,*9iquy 0 ackn[l$g$ by ! c\rt aft] x _h be5 proclaim$ by ,abraham ,l9coln1 :o 0 aft]w>ds elect$ ,presid5t ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates4 87,sign$7 ,,philom5e ,,s*w>tz4,f 8,i1 ,/eph5 ,r4 ,moore1 a ,not>y ,public 9 ! ,c\nty ( ,kankakee1 9 ! ,/ate ( ,ill9ois1 & duly au?oriz$ by law to adm9i/] oa?s1 d h]eby c]tify t1 on ?is #ba/ day ( ,octob]1 ,a4 ,d4 #ahha1 ,philom5e ,s*w>tz p]sonally appe>$ be=e me1 & made oa? t ! above affidavit by h] subscrib$ is true1 z !re9 /at$4 ,9 witness :]eto1 ,i h h]eunto set my h& & not>ial seal4 8,,/eph5 ,r4 ,,moore1 8,not>y ,public40 ----- ,footnote ,f3 ,t lady is /ill liv+1 #ahhf1 & at ! head ( "o ( ! mo/ respectable families ( ,*icago1 resid+ at #dhb ,milwaukee ,av5ue4 ----- ,,*apt] ,,lix4 ,,mom5t ,,( ,,int]ruption ,,9 ,,! ,,?read ,,( ,,my 8,,fifty ,,ye>s ,,9 ,,! ,,*ur* ,,( ,,rome10 ,,to ,,see ,,h[ ,,my ,,sad ,,previsions ,,ab\t ,,my ,,def5d]1 ,,abraham ,,l9coln1 ,,7 ,,to ,,be ,,realiz$--,,rome ,,! ,,implacable ,,enemy ,,( ,,! ,,unit$ ,,/ates--,,%e ,,wants ,,to ,,conqu] ,,& ,,rule ,,!m1 ,,9 ,,ord] ,,to ,,de/roy ,,all ,,_! ,,rights1 ,,privileges ,,& ,,lib]ties4 ,:5 x became evid5t1 9 #ahea1 t my plan ( =m+ a gr& colony ( ,roman ,ca?olic ,fr5*-speak+ p on ! prairies ( ,ill9ois 0 to be a success1 ,d',arcy ,mc,gee1 !n editor ( ,! ,freeman's ,j\rnal1 (ficial j\rnal ( ! ,bi%op ( ,new ,york1 wrote me to "k my views1 & imm$iately det]m9$ to put himself at ! head ( a simil> ent]prise 9 behalf ( ! ,iri% ,roman ,ca?olics4 ,he publi%$ sev]al able articles to %[ t ! ,iri% p1 ) v few exceptions1 7 demoraliz$1 degrad$ & kept poor1 ar\nd _! grogg]ies1 & %[$ h[ !y w\ld ?rive1 become respectable & ri*1 if !y c\ld be induc$ to ex*ange _! grog %ops = ! f]tile l&s ( ! we/4 ,?r\gh 8 influ5ce1 a l>ge assembly1 pr9cipally compos$ ( prie/s1 to :i* ,i 0 invit$1 met at ,buffalo1 9 ! spr+ ( #aheb4 ,b :at 0 8 disappo9tm5t1 :5 he saw t ! greate/ "p ( ^? prie/s 7 s5t by ! ,bi%ops ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates to oppose & defeat 8 plans6 ,he va9ly spoke ) a burn+ eloqu5ce = 8 pet s*eme4 ,! majority coldly answ]$ him3 8,we are det]m9$1 l y1 to take possession ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates & rule !m2 b we _c d t )\t act+ secretly & ) ! utmo/ wisdom4 ,if our plans are kn[n1 !y w surely be defeat$4 ,:at does a skillful g5]al d :5 he wants to conqu] a c\ntry8 ,does he scatt] 8 soldi]s ov] ! f>m l&s1 & sp5d _! "t & en]gy 9 pl\gh+ ! fields & s[+ gra98 ,no6 ,he keeps !m well unit$ ar\nd 8 bann]s1 & m>*es at _! head1 to ! conque/ ( ! /rongholds1 ! ri* & p[]ful cities4 ,! f>m+ c\ntries !n submit & become ! price ( 8 victory1 )\t mov+ a f+] to subdue !m4 ,s x is ) u4 ,sil5tly & pati5tly1 we mu/ mass our ,roman ,ca?olics 9 ! great cities ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 rememb]+ t ! vote ( a poor j\rneyman1 ?\gh he be cov]$ ) rags1 has z mu* weight 9 ! scale ( p[] z ! millionaire ,a/or1 & t if we h two votes aga9/ 8 "o1 he w become z p[]less z an oy/]4 ,let u1 !n1 multiply our votes2 let u call our poor b fai?ful ,iri% ,ca?olics f e corn] ( ! _w1 & ga!r !m into ! v he>ts ( ^? pr\d citadels :i* ! ,yankees are s rapidly build+ "u ! names ( ,wa%+ton1 ,new ,york1 ,bo/on1 ,*icago1 ,buffalo1 ,albany1 ,troy1 ,c9c9nati1 etc4 ,"u ! %ad[s ( ^? great cities1 ! ,am]icans consid] !mselves z a giant & unconqu]able race4 ,!y look ^u ! poor ,iri% ,ca?olic p ) supreme contempt1 z only fit to dig _! canals1 sweep _! /reets & "w 9 _! kit*5s4 ,let no "o awake ^? sleep+ lions1 to-day4 ,let u pray ,god t !y may sleep & dream _! sweet dreams1 a few ye>s m4 ,h[ sad w _! awak5+ be1 :5 ) our outnumb]+ votes1 we w turn !m1 =ev]1 f e position ( honor1 p[] & pr(it6 ,:at w ^? hypocritical & godless sons & daught]s ( ! fanatical ,pilgrim ,fa!rs say1 :5 n a s+le judge1 n a s+le tea*]1 n a s+le policeman1 w be elect$ if he be n a devot$ ,iri% ,roman ,ca?olic8 ,:at w ^? s-call$ giants ?9k ( _! mat*less %rewdness & ability1 :5 n a s+le ,s5ator or memb] ( ,congress w be *os51 if he be n submitt$ to our holy fa!r1 ! ,pope8 ,:at a sad figure ^? ,prote/ant ,yankees w cut :5 we w n only elect ! ,presid5t1 b fill & comm& ! armies1 man ! navies1 & hold ! keys ( ! public treasury8 ,x w !n be "t = our fai?ful ,iri% p to give up _! grog-%ops1 9 ord] to become ! judges & gov]nors ( ! l&4 ,!n our poor & humble me*anics w leave _! damp dit*es & muddy /reets1 to rule ! cities 9 all _! dep>tm5ts1 f ! /ately mansion ( ,mayor ( ,new ,york1 to ! humble1 ?\gh n less noble position ( tea*]4 8,!n1 yes6 !n1 we w rule ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 & lay !m at ! feet ( ! ,vic> ( ,jesus ,*ri/1 t he may put an end to _! godless sy/em ( education1 & sweep away ^? impi\s laws ( lib]ty ( consci5ce1 :i* are an insult to ,god & man60 ,d',arcy ,mc,gee 0 left almo/ alone :5 ! votes 7 tak54 ,f t "t1 ! ,ca?olic prie/s1 ) ! mo/ admirable ability & success1 h ga!r$ _! ,iri% legions into ! great cities ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 & ! ,am]ican p mu/ be v bl9d inde$1 if !y d n see t if !y d no?+ to prev5t x1 ! day is v ne> :5 ! ,jesuits w rule _! c\ntry1 f ! magnific5t ,:ite ,h\se at ,wa%+ton1 to ! humble/ civil & milit>y dep>tm5t ( ?is va/ ,republic4 ,!y are already ! ma/]s ( ,new ,york1 ,baltimore1 ,*icago1 ,/4 ,paul1 ,new ,orleans1 ,mobile1 ,savannah1 ,c9c9nati1 ,albany1 ,troy1 ,milwaukee1 ,/4 ,l\is1 ,san ,francisco1 etc4 ,yes6 ,san ,francisco1 ! ri*1 ! great que5 ( ! ,pacific1 is 9 ! h&s ( ! ,jesuits6 ,f ! v fir/ days ( ! discov]y ( ! gold m9es ( ,cali=nia1 ! ,jesuits _h ! hopes ( becom+ ma/]s ( ^! inexhau/ible treasures1 & !y secretly laid _! plans1 ) ! mo/ pr(\nd ability & success4 ,!y saw1 at once1 t ! great majority ( ! lucky m9]s1 ( e cre$ & nation1 7 go+ back home1 z soon z !y _h en\gh to secure an honorable compet5ce to _! families4 ,x became !n evid5t1 t ( ^? multitudes :i* ! ?ir/ ( gold _h br\ght f e corn] ( ! _w1 n "o out ( fifty w\ld fix _! homes 9 ,san ,francisco4 ,! ,jesuits saw at a glance1 t if !y c\ld p]suade ! ,iri% ,ca?olics to settle & rema9 !re1 !y w\ld soon be ! ma/]s & rul]s ( t gold5 city1 ^: future is s bright & s great6 ,& t s*eme1 work$ day & night ) ! utmo/ p]sev]ance1 has be5 cr[n$ ) p]fect success4 ,! consequ5ce is1 t :ile y f9d only a few ,am]icans1 ,g]mans1 ,scot* & ,engli% millionaires 9 ,san ,francisco1 y f9d m ?an fifty ,ca?olic ,iri% millionaires 9 t city4 ,its ri*e/ bank 7,nevada ,bank7 is 9 _! h&s1 & s are all ! /reet railways4 ,! pr9cipal (fices ( ! city are fill$ ) ,iri% ,roman ,ca?olics4 ,almo/ all ! police are compos$ ( ! same class1 z well z ! volunte] milit>y associations4 ,_! compact unity1 9 ! h&s ( ! ,jesuits1 ) _! enorm\s weal?1 make !m almo/ supreme ma/]s ( ! m9es ( ,cali=nia & ,nevada4 ,:5 "o kn[s ! absolute1 abject submission ( ! ,iri% ,roman ,ca?olics1 ri* or poor1 to _! prie/s2 h[ ! m9d1 ! s\l1 ! w1 ! consci5ce are firmly & irrevocably ti$ to ! feet ( ! prie/s1 he c easily und]/& t ! ,jesuits ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates =m "o ( ! ri*e/ & mo/ p[]ful corporations ! _w ev] saw4 ,x is well kn[n t ^? fifty ,ca?olic millionaires1 ) _! myriads ( employees1 are1 ?r\gh _! wives1 & by !mselves1 cont9ually at ! feet ( ! ,jesuits1 :o swim 9 a gold5 sea4 ,no "o1 if he be n a ,roman ,ca?olic1 or "o ( ^? s-call$ ,prote/ants :o give _! daught]s to ! nuns1 & _! sons to ! ,jesuits to be educat$1 has mu* hopes1 :]e ! ,jesuits rule1 ( hav+ a lucrative (fice 9 ! ,san ,francisco to-day4 ,! ,am]icans1 ) few exceptions1 d n pay any att5tion to ! d>k cl\d :i* is ris+ at _! horizon1 f ,rome4 ,?\gh t cl\d is fill$ ) riv]s ( te>s & blood1 !y let x gr[ & rise )\t ev5 c>+ h[ !y w escape f ! imp5d+ hurricane4 ,x is to ,san ,francisco t y mu/ g to h an idea ( ! numb] ( secret & p[]ful organizations ) :i* ! ,*ur* ( ,rome prep>es h]self = ! imp5d+ conflict1 ?r\gh :i* %e hopes to de/roy ! s*ools & e ve/ige ( human rights & lib]ties 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates4 ,9 ord] to m easily drill ! ,roman ,ca?olics & prep>e !m = ! irrepressible /ruggle1 ! ,jesuits h organiz$ !m into a great numb] ( secret societies1 ! pr9cipal ( :i* are3 ,anci5t ,ord] ( ,hib]nians1 ,iri% ,am]ican ,society1 ,knights ( ,/4 ,patrick1 ,/4 ,patrick's ,cadets1 ,/4 ,patrick ,mutual ,alliance1 ,apo/les ( ,lib]ty1 ,b5evol5t ,sons ( ! ,em]ald ,isle1 ,knights ( ,/4 ,pet]1 ,knights ( ! ,r$ ,bran*1 ,knights ( ! ,columskill1 ,! ,sacr$ ,he>t1 etc41 etc4 ,almo/ all ^! secret associations are milit>y ones4 ,!y h _! headqu>t]s at ,san ,francisco2 b _! rank & file are scatt]$ all ov] ! ,unit$ ,/ates4 ,!y numb] #gjj1jjj soldi]s1 :o1 "u ! "n ( ,unit$ ,/ates ,volunte] ,militia1 are (fic]$ by "s ( ! mo/ skillful g5]als & (fic]s ( ?is ,republic4 ,ano!r fact1 to :i* ! ,am]ican ,prote/ants d n suffici5tly pay att5tion1 is t ! ,jesuits h be5 %rewd en\gh to h a va/ majority ( ,roman ,ca?olic g5]als & (fic]s1 to comm& ! army & man ! navy ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates4 ,rome is 9 con/ant conspiracy aga9/ ! rights & lib]ties ( man all ov] ! _w2 b %e is p>ticul>ly s 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates4 ,long be=e ,i 0 orda9$ a prie/1 ,i knew t my *ur* 0 ! mo/ implacable enemy ( ?is ,republic4 ,my pr(essors ( philosophy1 hi/ory & !ology _h be5 unanim\s 9 tell+ me t ! pr9ciples & laws ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome 7 absolutely antagoni/ic to ! laws & pr9ciples :i* are ! f\ndation-/ones ( ! ,con/itution ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates4 #a/4 ,! mo/ sacr$ pr9ciple ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates ,con/itution is ! equality ( e citiz5 be=e ! law4 ,b ! fundam5tal pr9ciple ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 is ! d5ial ( t equality4 #bnd4 ,lib]ty ( consci5ce is proclaim$ by ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 a mo/ sacr$ pr9ciple :i* e citiz5 mu/ uphold1 ev5 at ! price ( 8 blood4 ,b lib]ty ( consci5ce is decl>$ by all ! ,popes & ,c\ncils ( ,rome1 a mo/ godless1 unholy & diabolical ?+1 :i* e good ,ca?olic mu/ abhor & de/roy1 at any co/4 #crd4 ,! ,am]ican ,con/itution assures ! absolute indep5d5ce ( ! civil f ! ecclesia/ical or *ur* p[]2 b ! ,*ur* ( ,rome decl>es1 ?r\gh all h] ,pontiffs & ,c\ncils1 t su* indep5d5ce is an impiety & a revolt aga9/ ,god4 #d?4 ,! ,am]ican ,con/itution leaves e man free to s]ve ,god accord+ to ! dictates ( 8 consci5ce2 b ! ,*ur* ( ,rome decl>es t no man has ev] _h su* a "r1 & t ! ,pope alone c "k & say :at man mu/ believe & d4 #e?4 ,! ,con/itution ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates d5ies ! "r 9 any body to puni% any o!r = diff]+ f him 9 religion4 ,b ! ,*ur* ( ,rome says t %e has a "r to puni% ) ! confiscation ( _! goods1 or ! p5alty ( dea?1 ^? :o diff] 9 fai? f ! ,pope4 #f?4 ,! ,unit$ ,/ates h e/abli%$ s*ools all ov] _! imm5se t]ritories1 :]e !y invite ! p to s5d _! *ildr51 t !y may cultivate _! intellig5ce & become good & useful citiz5s4 ,b ! ,*ur* ( ,rome has publicly curs$ all ^! s*ools1 & =bidd5 _! *ildr5 to att5d !m1 "u pa9 ( excommunication 9 ?is _w & damnation 9 ! next4 #g?4 ,! ,con/itution ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates is bas$ on ! pr9ciple t ! p are ! prim>y s\rce ( all civil p[]4 ,b hundr$s ( times1 ! ,*ur* ( ,rome has proclaim$ t ?is pr9ciple is impi\s & h]etical4 ,%e says t 8all gov]nm5t mu/ re/ ^u ! f\ndation ( ! ,ca?olic fai?2 ) ! ,pope alone z ! legitimate & infallible s\rce & int]pret] ( ! law40 ,i c\ld cite _m o!r ?+s1 prov+ t ! ,*ur* ( ,rome is an absolute & irreconcilable enemy ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates2 b x w\ld be too long4 ,^! are suffici5t to %[ to ! ,am]ican p t ,rome is a vip]1 :i* !y fe$ & press ^u _! bosom4 ,soon] or lat]1 t vip] w bite to dea? & kill ?is ,republic4 ,?is 0 =etold by ,lafayette1 & is n[ promulgat$ by ! greate/ ?9k]s ( our "t4 ,! greate/ inv5tor1 or r ! immortal fa!r ( electric telegraphy1 ,samuel ,morse1 f\nd x out :5 9 ,rome1 & publi%$ x 9 #ahcd1 9 8 rem>kable "w1 8,conspiracies ,aga9/ ! ,lib]ties ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates40 ,! le>n$ ,dr4 ,s4 ,ir5u ,prime1 9 8 life ( ,pr(4 ,morse1 says3 8,:5 ,mr4 ,morse 0 9 ,italy1 he became acqua9t$ ) sev]al ecclesia/ics ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 & he 0 l$ to believe1 f :at he le>n$ f !m1 t a political conspiracy1 "u ! cloak ( a religi\s mission1 0 =m$ aga9/ ! ,unit$ ,/ates4 ,:5 he came to ,p>is & enjoy$ ! confid5ce & fri5d%ip ( ,lafayette1 he /at$ 8 convictions to ! ,g5]al1 :o fully concurr$ ) him 9 ! reality ( su* a conspiracy40 ,t great /atesman & patriot1 ! late ,ri*>d ,w4 ,?ompson1 ,secret>y ( ! ,navy1 9 8 admirable "w1 8,! ,papacy & ! ,civil ,p[]10 says3 8,no?+ is pla9] ?an t1 if ! pr9ciples ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome prevail "h1 our con/itution w\ld necess>ily fall4 ,! two _c exi/ toge!r4 ,!y are 9 op5 & direct antagonism ) ! fundam5tal !ory ( our gov]nm5t & ( all popul> gov]nm5t ev]y:]e40 ,! eloqu5t ,spani% orator1 ,ca/el>1 speak+ ( 8 own ,*ur* ( ,rome1 said1 9 #ahfi1 8,!re is n a s+le progressive pr9ciple t has n be5 curs$ by ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*4 ,?is is true ( ,engl& & ,g]many1 z well z all ,ca?olic c\ntries4 ,! ,*ur* curs$ ! ,fr5* ,revolution1 ! ,belgian ,con/itution & ! ,italian ,indep5d5ce4 ,n a ,con/itution has be5 born1 n a /ep ( progress made1 n a solit>y re=m effect$1 :i* has n be5 "u ! t]rific ana!mas ( ! ,*ur*40 ,b :y ask ! te/imony ( ,prote/ants or ,lib]als to w>n ! ,am]ican p aga9/ t conspiracy1 :5 we h ! public te/imony ( all ! bi%ops & prie/s to prove x8 ,) ! mo/ d>+ impud5ce1 ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 ?r\gh h] lead+ m51 is boa/+ ( h] /]n det]m9ation to de/roy all ! rights & privileges :i* h co/ s mu* blood to ! ,am]ican p4 ,let ! ,am]icans1 :o h eyes to see & intellig5ce to und]/&1 read ! foll[+ unimpea*able docum5ts1 & judge = !mselves ( :at w become ( ?is c\ntry1 if ,rome is all[$ to gr[ /rong en\gh to execute h] ?reats4 8,! *ur* is ( necessity intol]ant4 ,h]esy1 %e endures :5 & :]e %e mu/1 b %e hates x1 & directs all h] en]gies to de/roy x4 8,if ,ca?olics ev] ga9 a suffici5t num]ical majority 9 ?is c\ntry1 religi\s fre$om is at an end4 ,s our enemies say1 s we believe40--,! ,%eph]d ( ! ,valley1 (ficial j\rnal ( ! ,bi%op ( ,/4 ,l\is1 ,nov4 #bc1 #ahea4 8,no man has a "r to *ose 8 religion4 ,ca?olicism is ! mo/ intol]ant ( cre$s4 ,x is intol]ance itself4 ,we might z rationally ma9ta9 t two & two does n make f\r1 z ! !ory ( ,religi\s ,lib]ty4 ,its impiety is only equall$ by its absurdity40--,new ,york ,freeman1 (ficial j\rnal ( ,bi%op ,hughes1 ,jan4 #bf1 #aheb4 8,! ,*ur* is in/itut$1 z e ,ca?olic :o und]/&s 8 religion believes1 to gu>d & def5d ! "r ( ,god1 aga9/ any & e enemy1 at all times1 9 all places4 ,%e1 !re=e1 does n1 & _c accept1 or 9 any degree favor lib]ty1 9 ! ,prote/ant s5se ( lib]ty40--,ca?olic ,_w1 ,april1 #ahgj4 8,! ,ca?olic ,*ur* is ! m$ium & *annel ?r\gh :i* ! w ( ,god is express$4 ,:ile ! /ate has rights1 %e has !m only 9 virtue & by p]mission ( ! ,sup]ior ,au?ority1 & t au?ority c be express$ only ?r\gh ! *ur*40--,ca?olic ,_w1 ,july1 #ahgj4 8,prote/antism has n1 & nev] c h1 any "r1 :]e ,ca?olicity has triumph$4 ,!re=e1 we lose ! brea? we exp5d 9 declaim+ aga9/ bigotry & intol]ance & 9 favor ( ,religi\s ,lib]ty1 or ! "r ( man to be ( any religion z be/ pleases him40--,ca?olic ,review1 ,june1 #ahfe4 8,religi\s ,lib]ty is m]ely endur$ until ! opposite c be c>ri$ into effect )\t p]il to ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*40--,rt4 ,rev4 ,o',connor1 ,bi%op ( ,pittsburgh4 8,! ,ca?olic ,*ur* numb]s "o-?ird ! ,am]ican population2 & if its memb]%ip %all increase1 = ! next ?irty ye>s1 z x has ! ?irty ye>s pa/1 9 #aijj1 ,rome w h a majority1 & be b\nd to take ?is c\ntry & keep x4 ,!re is1 ere long1 to be a /ate religion 9 ?is c\ntry1 & t /ate religion is to be ! ,roman ,ca?olic4 8#a/4 ,! ,roman ,ca?olic is to wield 8 vote = ! purpose ( secur+ ,ca?olic asc5dancy 9 ?is c\ntry4 8#bnd4 ,all legislation mu/ be gov]n$ by ! w ( ,god1 un]r+ly indicat$ by ! ,pope4 8#crd4 ,education mu/ be controll$ by ,ca?olic au?orities1 & "u education1 ! op9ions ( ! individual1 & ! utt]ances ( ! press are includ$1 & _m op9ions are to be =bidd5 by ! secul> arm1 "u ! au?ority ( ! *ur*1 ev5 to w> & blood%$40--,fa!r ,heck]1 ,ca?olic ,_w1 ,july1 #ahgj4 8,x 0 propos$ t all religi\s p]suasions %\ld be free & _! wor%ip publicly ex]cis$4 ,b we h reject$ ?is article z contr>y to ! canons & c\ncils ( ! ,ca?olic *ur*40--,pope ,pius ,,vii41 ,encyclical1 #ahjh4 ,e "o kn[s t "o ( ! fir/ & mo/ solemn acts ( ! pres5t ,pope ,leo ,,xiii41 0 to ord] t ! !ology ( ,/4 ,?omas ,aqu9as %\ld be taught 9 all ! colleges1 sem9>ies & univ]sities ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome ?r\gh\t ! :ole _w1 z ! mo/ accurate tea*+s ( ! doctr9es ( 8 *ur*4 ,well1 on ! #cj? ( ,dec41 #ahgj1 ,i =c$ ! ,rt4 ,rev4 ,foley1 ,bi%op ( ,*icago1 to translate f ,lat9 into ,engli%1 be=e ! c\rt ( ,kankakee1 & to swe> t ! foll[+ law 0 among ^? promulgat$ by ,/4 ,?omas z "o ( ! pres5t & un*angeable laws ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome3 8,?\gh h]etics mu/ n be tol]at$ because !y des]ve x1 we mu/ be> ) !m1 till1 by a second admonition1 !y may be br\ght back to ! fai? ( ! *ur*4 ,b ^? :o aft] a second admonition1 rema9 ob/9ate 9 _! errors1 mu/ n only be excommunicat$1 b !y mu/ be deliv]$ to ! secul> p[] to be ext]m9at$40--,/4 ,?omas ,acqu9as ,summa ,!ologia1 vol4 #d1 p4 #ij4 ,illu/ration3 ,,leo ,,xiii4 ,aft] ! ,bi%op _h sworn t ?is 0 ! true doctr9e ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 express$ by ,/4 ,?omas1 & taught 9 all ! colleges1 sem9>ies & univ]sities ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 ,i =c$ him to decl>e1 "u oa?1 t he1 & e prie/ ( ,rome1 once a ye>1 "u pa9 ( et]nal damnation1 is oblig$ to say1 9 ! pres5ce ( ,god1 9 8 ,brevi>um 78 (ficial pray]-book7 t t doctr9e 0 s good & holy1 t e ^w ( x has be5 inspir$ by ! ,holy ,gho/ to ,/4 ,?omas4 ,! same ,bi%op ,foley 0 aga9 =c$ by me1 be=e ! same c\rt ( ,kankakee1 to translate f ,lat9 into ,engli%1 ! foll[+ decree ( ! c\ncil ( ,lat]an1 & to ackn[l$ge1 "u oa?1 t x 0 z mu* ! law ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome to-day1 z on ! day x 0 pass$1 9 ! ye> #abae3 8,we excommunicate & ana!matize e h]esy t exalts itself aga9/ ! holy or?odox & ,ca?olic fai?1 condemn+ all h]etics1 by :atev] "n !y may be kn[n1 = ?\gh _! faces diff]1 !y are ti$ toge!r by _! tails4 ,su* z are condemn$ are to be deliv]$ ov] to ! exi/+ secul> p[]s to receive due puni%m5t4 ,if laym51 _! goods mu/ be confiscat$4 ,if prie/s1 !y %all be degrad$ f _! respective ord]s1 & _! prop]ty appli$ to ! *ur* 9 :i* !y (ficiat$4 ,secul> p[]s ( all ranks & degrees are to be w>n$1 induc$1 &1 if necess>y1 compell$ by ecclesia/ical c5sure1 to swe> t !y w ex]t !mselves to ! utmo/ 9 ! def5ce ( ! fai?1 & extirpate all h]etics d5\nc$ by ! *ur*1 :o %all be f\nd 9 _! t]ritories4 ,& :5ev] any p]son %all assume gov]nm5t1 :e!r x be spiritual or temporal1 he %all be b\nd to abide by ?is decree4 8,if any temporal "l1 aft] hav+ be5 admoni%$ & requir$ by ! *ur*1 %all neglect to cle> 8 t]ritory ( h]etical depravity1 ! ,metropolitan & ,bi%op ( ! ,prov9ce %all unite 9 excommunicat+ him4 ,%\ld he rema9 contumaci\s a :ole ye>1 ! fact %all be signifi$ to ! ,supreme ,pontiff1 :o w decl>e 8 vassals releas$ f _! allegiance f t "t1 & w be/[ 8 t]ritory on ,ca?olics1 to be occupi$ by !m1 on condition ( ext]m9at+ ! h]etics & pres]v+ ! said t]ritory 9 ! fai?40 8,ca?olics :o %all assume ! cross = ! ext]m9ation ( h]etics1 %all enjoy ! same indulg5ce1 & be protect$ by ! same privileges z are grant$ to ^? :o g to ! help ( ! ,holy ,l&4 ,we decree fur!r t all ^? :o h deal+s ) h]etics1 & especially su* z receive1 def5d & enc\rage !m1 %all be excommunicat$4 ,he %all n be eligible to any public (fice4 ,he %all n be admitt$ z a witness4 ,he %all nei!r h ! p[] to bequea? 8 prop]ty by w1 nor to succe$ to any inh]itance4 ,he %all n br+ any action aga9/ any p]son1 b any "o c br+ action aga9/ him4 ,%\ld he be a judge1 8 decision %all h no =ce1 nor %all any cause be br\ght be=e him4 ,%\ld he be a lawy]1 no in/rum5ts made by him %all be held valid1 b %all be condemn$ ) _! au?ors40 ,c>d9al ,mann+1 speak+ 9 ! "n ( ! ,pope1 said3 8,i ackn[l$ge no civil p[]2 ,i am ! subject ( no pr9ce2 & ,i claim m ?an ?is4 ,i claim to be ! supreme judge & director ( ! consci5ces ( m54 ,( ! peasants t till ! fields1 & ( ! pr9ce t sits ^u ! ?rone2 ( ! h\sehold t lives 9 ! %ade ( privacy1 & ! legislator t makes laws = k+doms4 ,i am sole1 la/1 supreme judge ( :at is "r & wrong4 ,moreov]1 we decl>e1 affirm1 def9e & pron\nce x to be necess>y to salvation to e human creature to be subject to ! ,roman ,pontiff660--,tablet1 ,oct4 #i1 #ahfd4 8,und\bt$ly x is ! int5tion ( ! ,pope to possess ?is c\ntry4 ,9 ?is int5tion he is aid$ by ! ,jesuits1 & all ! ,ca?olic prelates & prie/s40--,br[nson's ,review1 ,may1 #ahfd4 8,= our own "p1 we take ?is opportunity to express our he>ty delight at ! suppression ( ! ,prote/ant ,*apel 9 ,rome4 ,?is may be ?\ght intol]ant2 b :51 we ask1 did we pr(ess to be tol]ant ( ,prote/antism1 or to favor ! "q t ,prote/antism ought to be tol]at$4 ,on ! contr>y1 we hate ,prote/antism4 ,we dete/ x ) our :ole he>t & s\l1 & we pray our av]sion = x may nev] decrease40--,pittsburgh ,ca?olic ,visitor1 ,july1 #ahdh1 (ficial j\rnal ( ! ,bi%op4 8,no good gov]nm5t c exi/ )\t religion1 & !re c be no religion )\t an inquisition1 :i* is wisely design$ = ! protection & promotion ( ! true fai?40--,bo/on ,pilot1 (ficial j\rnal ( ! ,bi%op4 8,! ,pope has ! "r to pron\nce s5t5ce ( deposition aga9/ any sov]eign1 :5 requir$ by ! good ( ! ,spiritual ,ord]40--,br[nson's ,review1 #ahdi4 8,! p[] ( ! *ur* ex]cis$ ov] sov]eigns 9 ! middle ages 0 n a usurpation1 0 n d]iv$ f ! concessions ( pr9ces or ! cons5t ( ! p1 b 0 & is held by div9e "r1 & :oso resi/s x1 rebels aga9/ ! ,k+ ( ,k+s & ,"l ( ,lords40--,br[nson's ,review1 ,june #ahea4 ,! c\ncil ( ,con/ance1 held 9 #adad1 decl>$3 8,t any p]son :o has promis$ security to h]etics %all n be oblig$ to keep 8 promise1 by :atev] he may be engag$4 8,x is 9 consequ5ce ( t pr9ciple t no fai? mu/ be kept ) h]etics1 t ,john ,huss 0 publicly burn$ on ! scaffold1 ! #f? ( ,july1 #adae1 9 ! city ( ,con/ance1 ?\gh he _h a safe passport f ! ,emp]or40 8,negroes h no rights :i* ! :ite man is b\nd to respect40--,roman ,ca?olic ,*ief-ju/ice ,tany1 9 8 ,dr$-,scot ,decision4 8,if ! lib]ties ( ! ,am]ican p are ev] de/roy$1 !y w fall by ! h&s ( ! ,ca?olic cl]gy40--,lafayette4 8,if y\r son or daught] is att5d+ a ,/ate ,s*ool1 y are violat+ y\r duty z a ,ca?olic p>5t1 & conduc+ to ! ev]la/+ angui% & despair ( y\r *ild4 ,take him away4 ,take him away1 if y d n wi% y\r dea?b$ to be torm5t$ ) ! spectre ( a s\l :i* ,god has giv5 y z a sacr$ tru/1 surr5d]$ to ! great enemy ( mank9d4 ,take him away1 r ?an incur ! wra? ( 8 ,god1 & ! loss ( 8 s\l40--,we/]n ,tablet1 (ficial pap] ( ! ,bi%op ( ,*icago4 ,all ! e*oes ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 are /ill repeat+ ! same d5unciations aga9/ our public s*ools made by ,mgr4 ,capel1 a prelate atta*$ to ! h\sehold ( ! ,pope4 ,t ,roman ,ca?olic dignit>y has n only pass$ aga9 ! s5t5ce ( dea? aga9/ ! s*ools ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates2 b he has w>n$ ! ,am]icans t ! "t is n f> away :5 ! ,roman ,ca?olics1 at ! ord] ( ! ,pope1 w refuse to pay _! s*ool tax1 & w s5d bullets to ! brea/s ( ! gov]nm5t ag5ts1 r ?an pay x4 8,! ord] c come any day f ,rome10 said ! prelate4 8,x w come z quickly z ! click ( ! trigg]1 & x w be obey$1 ( c\rse1 z com+ f ,god ,almighty1 himself60 ,! ,ca?olic ,columbian1 edit$ "u ! imm$iate sup]vision ( ! ,rt4 ,rev4 ,bi%op ( ,columbus1 ,ohio1 says3 8,secul> 7gov]nm5t7 s*ools are unfit = ,ca?olic *ildr54 ,ca?olic p>5ts _c be all[$ ! sacram5ts1 :o *oose to s5d _! *ildr5 to !m1 :5 !y c\ld make use ( ! ,ca?olic s*ools40 8,! absurd & errone\s doctr9es1 or rav+s1 9 def5se ( lib]ty ( consci5ce1 are a mo/ pe/il5tial error1 a pe/ ( all o!rs1 to be dread$ 9 ! ,/ate40--,encyclical ,lett]s ( ,pope ,pius ,,ix41 ,aug4 #ae1 #ahed4 8,y %\ld d all 9 y\r p[] to c>ry out ! int5tions ( 8 hol9ess1 ! ,pope4 ,:]e y h ! electoral fran*ise1 give y\r votes to none b ^? :o assi/ y 9 s holy a /ruggle40--,daniel ,o',connell4 8,ca?olic votes %\ld be ca/ solidly = ! democracy at ! next election4 ,x is ! only possible hope to break d[n ! s*ool sy/em40--,tol$o ,ca?olic ,review4 8,x is ( fai? t ! ,pope has ! "r ( depos+ h]etical & rebel k+s4 ,mon>*s1 s depos$ by ! ,pope1 are conv]t$ into notori\s tyrants1 & may be kill$ by ! fir/ :o c rea* !m4 8,if ! public cause _c meet ) its def5ce 9 ! dea? ( a tyrant1 x is lawful = ! fir/ :o arrives1 to assass9ate him40--,su>ez1 ,def5sio ,fidei2 ,book ,,vi41 *ap4 #d1 ,nos4 #ac-ad4 8,see1 sir1 f ?is *amb]1 ,i gov]n1 n only to ,p>is1 b to ,*9a2 n only to ,*9a1 b to all ! _w1 )\t any "o kn[+ h[ ,i d x40--,tambrior9i1 ,g5]al ( ! ,jesuits4 8,a man :o has be5 excommunicat$ by ! ,pope1 may be kill$ any:]e1 z ,escob> & ,deaux tea*1 because ! ,pope has an indirect jurisdiction ov] ! :ole _w1 ev5 9 temporal ?+s1 z all ! ,ca?olics ma9ta91 & z ,su>ez proves aga9/ ! ,k+ ( ,engl&40--,bussambaum--,lacroi1 ,!ologica ,moralis1 #ageg4 ,! ,roman ,ca?olic hi/orian ( ! ,jesuits1 ,crat9eau ,joly1 9 8 ,vol4 ,,ii41 page #dce1 approv+ly says3 8,fa!r ,guiv>d1 writ+ ab\t ,h5ry ,,iv41 ,k+ ( ,france1 says3 #8,if he _c be depos$1 let u make w>2 & if we _c make w>1 let him be kill$4'0 ,! great ,roman ,ca?olic !ologian1 ,d5s1 puts to himself1 ! "q3 8,are h]etics ju/ly puni%$ ) dea?8 ,he answ]s3 #8,/4 ,?omas says3 ,yes6 #bb1 "q #aa1 ,art4 #c4 ,because =g]s ( money1 or o!r di/urb]s ( ! /ate1 are ju/ly puni%$ ) dea?2 !re=e1 all h]etics :o are =g]s ( fai?1 &1 z exp]i5ce te/ifies1 griev\sly di/urb ! ,/ate4' 8,?is is confirm$1 because ,god1 9 ! ,old ,te/am5t1 ord]$ ! false prophets to be sla91 & 9 ,deut]onomy x is decre$ t if any "o w act pr\dly1 & w n obey ! comm&s ( ! prie/s1 let him be put to dea?4 8,! same is prov$ f ! condemnation ( ! #ad? article ( ,john ,huss1 9 ! ,c\ncil ( ,con/ance40--,d5s1 p4 #hh1 ,tome ,,ii41 ,dubl91 #ahcd4 8,t we may1 9 all ?+s1 atta9 ! tru?4 ,t we may n err 9 any?+1 we ought ev] to hold1 z a fix$ pr9ciple1 t :at ,i see :ite1 ,i believe to be black1 if ! sup]ior au?orities ( ! *ur* def9e x to be s40--,spiritual ,ex]cise1 by ,ignatius ,loyola1 f\nd] ( ! ,jesuits4 8,z = holy ob$i5ce1 ?is virtue mu/ be p]fect 9 e po9t1 9 execution1 9 w1 9 intellect1 do+ :i* is enjo9$ ) all cel]ity1 spiritual joy1 & p]sev]ance2 p]suad+ ourselves t ev]y?+ is j1 suppress+ e repugnant ?\ght & judgm5t ( "o's own1 9 a c]ta9 ob$i5ce1 %\ld be mov$ & direct$ "u ,div9e ,provid5ce1 by 8 sup]ior1 j z if he 7 a corpse 7,p]9di acsi cadav] esset7 :i* all[s itself to be mov$ & l$ 9 e direction40--,ignatius ,loyola1 ,spiritual ,ex]cise4 8,if ! ,holy ,*ur* s requires1 let u sacrifice our own op9ions1 our k1 our intellig5ce1 ! spl5did dreams ( our imag9ation & ! sublime atta9m5ts ( human und]/&+40--,pope ,gregory ,,xvi41 ,encyclical1 ,aug4 #ae?1 #ahcb4 8,no m cunn+ plot 0 ev] devis$ aga9/ ! intellig5ce1 ! fre$om1 ! happ9ess & virtue ( mank9d1 ?an ,romanism40--,glad/one1 ,lett] to ,ab]de54 8,! pr9cipal & mo/ efficaci\s means ( practic+ ob$i5ce due to sup]iors1 & ( r5d]+ x m]itori\s be=e ,god1 is to consid] t1 9 obey+ !m1 we obey ,god ,himself1 & t by despis+ _! comm&s1 we despise ! au?ority ( ! ,div9e ,ma/]4 8,:51 ?us1 a ,religi\s receives a precept f h] prelate1 sup]ior or confessor1 %e %\ld imm$iately execute x1 n only to please !m1 b pr9cipally to please ,god1 ^: w is kn[n by _! comm&4 8,if1 !n1 y receive a comm& f "o :o holds ! place ( ,god1 y %\ld obs]ve x z if x came f ,god ,himself4 ,x may be add$ t !re is m c]ta9ty ( do+ ! w ( ,god by ob$i5ce to our sup]iors ?an by ob$i5ce to ,jesus ,*ri/1 %\ld ,he appe> 9 p]son & give ,8 comm&4 8,/4 ,philip us$ to say t ! ,religi\s %all be mo/ c]ta9 ( n hav+ to r5d] an acc\nt ( ! actions p]=m$ ?r\gh ob$i5ce1 = ^!1 ! sup]iors only1 :o comm& !m %all be acc\ntable40--,sa9t ,lig\ri1 ,! ,nun ,sanctifi$4 8,9 ! "n & by ! au?ority ( ,jesus ,*ri/1 ! pl5itude ( :i* resides 9 ,8 ,vic>1 ! ,pope1 we decl>e t ! tea*+ t ! e>? is n ! c5tre ( ! _w1 & t x moves ) a diurnal motion1 is absurd1 philosophically false1 & errone\s 9 fai?40--,decree ( ,pope ,urba9 ,,xiii4 7sign$7 by ,c>d9als ,felia1 ,guido1 ,desid]io1 ,antonio1 ,bellig]o1 & ,fabricius4 ,9 consequ5ce ( t infallible decree ( ! infallible ,pope1 ,galileo1 9 ord] to escape dea?1 0 oblig$ to fall on 8 knees & p]jure himself1 by sign+ ! foll[+ decl>ation on ! #bbnd ( ,june1 #affc3 8,i abjure1 curse & dete/ ! error & h]esy ( ! motion ( ! e>? ar\nd ! sun40 ,9 ob$i5ce to t decree1 ! two le>n$ ,jesuit a/ronom]s1 ,lesueur & ,jacqui]1 9 ,rome1 only a few ye>s ago1 made ! foll[+ decl>ation3 8,newton assumes1 9 8 ?ird book1 ! hypo!sis ( ! e>? mov+ ar\nd ! sun4 ,! proposition ( t au?or c\ld n be expla9$1 except ?r\gh ! same hypo!sis2 we h1 !re=e1 be5 =c$ to act a "* n our own4 ,b we decl>e our entire submission to ! decrees ( ! supreme ,pontiff ( ,rome aga9/ ! motion ( ! e>?40--,newton's ,pr9cipia1 by ,fa!rs ,lesueur & ,jacqui]1 vol4 iii41 page #dej4 8,a ,ca?olic %\ld nev] atta* himself to any political p>ty compos$ ( h]etics4 ,no "o :o is truly1 at he>t1 a ?or\gh & complete ,ca?olic1 c give 8 entire adhesion to a ,prote/ant lead]2 = 9 s do+1 he divides 8 allegiance1 :i* he owes entirely to ! *ur*40--,univ]s1 ! (ficial ,ca?olic pap] ( ! ,bi%ops ( ,france1 ,m>4 #bh?1 #ahfh4 8,w\ld he 7! prie/7 be w>rant$ 9 )hold+ any sacram5t ( ! *ur* f a man by reason ( 8 pref]r+ "o c&idate to ! o!r6 ,absolutely speak+1 he w\ld2 because a prie/ is n only w>rant$1 b b\nd to )hold1 ! sacram5ts f a man :o is dispos$ to commit a mortal s9660--,bi%op ,vaughan's address to ! ,ca?olic ,club at ,sal=d1 ,engl&1 ,jan4 #bnd1 #ahgc4 8,our bus9ess is to contrive3 8#a/4 ,t ! ,ca?olics be imbu$ ) hatr$ = ! h]etics1 :oev] !y may be1 & t ?is hatr$ %all con/antly increase1 & b9d !m closely to ea* o!r4 8#bnd4 ,t x be1 nev]!less1 dissembl$1 s z n to transpire until ! day :5 x %all be appo9t$ to break =?4 8#crd4 ,t ?is secret hate be comb9$ ) great activity 9 endeavor+ to deta* ! fai?ful f e gov]nm5t inimical to u1 & employ !m1 :5 !y %all =m a deta*$ body1 to /rike deadly bl[s at h]esy40--,secret ,plans ( ! ,jesuits1 reveal$ by ,albate ,leon1 p4 #abg4 ,h5ry ,,iv41 ,k+ ( ,france1 aft] be+ w\nd$ by an assass9 s5t by ! ,jesuits1 said3 8,i am compell$ to d "o ( ^! two ?+s3 ,ei!r recall ! ,jesuits1 free !m f ! infamy & disgrace ) :i* !y are cov]$1 or to expel !m 9 a m absolute mann]1 & prev5t !m f approa*+ ei!r my p]son or my k+dom4 8,b1 !n1 we w drive !m to despair & to ! resolution ( attempt+ my life aga91 :i* w\ld r5d] x s mis]able to me1 be+ always "u ! appreh5sion ( be+ murd]$1 or poison$4 ,= ^! p h correspond5ce ev]y:]e1 & are s v skillful 9 dispos+ ! m9ds ( m5 to :atev] !y wi%1 t ,i ?9k x w\ld be bett] t ,i %\ld be already dead40--,sully's ,memoirs1 tome ii41 *ap4 iii4 8,let u br+ all our skill to be> ^u ?is "p ( our plan4 ,our *ief conc]n mu/ be to m\ld ! p to our purposes4 ,d\btless1 ! fir/ g5]ation w n be :olly ours2 b ! second w ne>ly belong to u3 & ! ?ird entirely40--,! ,secret ,plan1 page #abg-abh4 8,! /ate is1 !re=e1 only an inf]ior c\rt1 b\nd to receive ! law f ! sup]ior c\rt 7! *ur*7 & liable to h its decrees rev]s$ on appeal40--,br[nson's ,essays1 pages #bhb-bhd4 8,! ,jesuits are a milit>y organization1 n a religi\s ord]4 ,_! *ief is a g5]al ( an army1 n ! m]e fa!r abbot ( a mona/]y4 ,& ! aim ( ?is organization is3 ,,p[]4 ,p[] 9 ! mo/ despotic ex]cise4 ,absolute p[]1 univ]sal p[]1 p[] to control ! _w by ! volition ( a s+le man4 ,jesuitism is ! mo/ absolute ( despotisms2 & at ! same "t ! greate/ & ! mo/ enorm\s ( abuses40--,memorial ( ! ,captivity ( ,napoleon at ,/4 ,hel5a1 by ,g5]al ,mon?olon1 vol4 ii41 p4 #fb4 8,! g5]al ( ! ,jesuits insi/s on be+ ma/]1 sov]eign1 ov] ! sov]eign4 ,:]ev] ! ,jesuits are admitt$ !y w be ma/]s1 co/ :at x may4 ,_! society is by nature dictatorial1 & !re=e x is ! irreconcilable enemy ( all con/itut$ au?ority4 ,e act1 e crime1 h[ev] atroci\s1 is a m]itori\s "w1 if committ$ = ! int]e/ ( ! ,society ( ! ,jesuits1 or by ! ord] ( its g5]al40--,memorial ( ! ,captivity ( ,napoleon at ,/4 ,hel5a1 vol4 ii41 p4 #agd4 ,9 ! allocution ( ,sept4 #ahea1 ,pope ,pius ,,ix4 said3 8,t he _h tak5 t pr9ciple = basis3 ,t ! ,ca?olic religion1 ) all its votes1 ought to be exclusively dom9ant 9 su* sort t e o!r wor%ip %all be bani%$ & int]dict$6 8,y ask if ! ,pope 7 "l ( ?is l& & y 7 9 a m9ority1 :at he w\ld d to y8 ,t1 we say1 w\ld entirely dep5d on circum/ances4 ,if x w\ld b5efit ! cause ( ,ca?olicism1 he w\ld tol]ate y2 if exp$i5t1 he w\ld imprison1 bani% y1 probably he might ev5 hang y4 ,b be assur$ ( "o ?+1 he w\ld nev] tol]ate y = ! sake ( y\r glori\s pr9ciples ( civil & religi\s lib]ty40--,rambl]1 "o ( ! mo/ prom95t ,ca?olic pap]s ( ,engl&1 ,sept4 #ahea4 ,"l ,acton1 "o ( ! ,roman ,ca?olic pe]s ( ,engl&1 reproa*+ h] bloody & anti-social laws to 8 own *ur*1 wrote3 8,pope ,gregory ,,vii4 decid$ x 0 no murd] to kill excommunicat$ p]sons4 ,?is rule 0 incorporat$ 9 ! canon law4 ,dur+ ! revision ( ! code1 :i* took place 9 ! #af? c5tury1 & :i* produc$ a :ole volume ( corrections1 ! passage 0 all[$ to /&4 ,x appe>s 9 e repr9t ( ! ,corpus ,juris4 ,x has be5 = #gjj ye>s1 & cont9ues to be1 "p ( ! ecclesia/ical law4 ,f> f be+ a dead lett]1 x obta9$ a new application 9 ! days ( ! ,inquisition2 & "o ( ! lat] ,popes has decl>$ t ! murd] ( a ,prote/ant is s good a de$ t x atones1 & m ?an atones1 = ! murd] ( a ,ca?olic40--,! ,london ,times1 ,july #bj?1 #ahgb4 ,9 ! la/ c\ncil ( ! ,vatican1 has ! ,*ur* ( ,rome express$ any regret = hav+ promulgat$ & execut$ su* bloody laws8 ,no6 ,on ! contr>y1 %e has ana!matiz$ all ^? :o ?9k or say t %e 0 wrong :5 %e delug$ ! _w ) ! blood ( ! millions %e ord]$ to be slaught]$ to qu5* h] ?ir/ = blood2 %e positively said t %e _h a "r to puni% ^? h]etics by tortures & dea?4 ,^? bloody & anti-social laws1 7 writt5 on ! bann]s ( ! ,roman ,ca?olics1 :5 slaught]+ #ajj1jjj ,wald5ses 9 ! m\nta9s ( ,pi$mont1 & m ?an #ej1jjj def5celess m51 wom5 & *ildr5 9 ! city ( ,bezi]es4 ,x is "u ! inspiration ( ^? diabolical laws ( ,rome1 t #ge1jjj ,prote/ants 7 massacr$1 ! night & foll[+ week ( ,/4 ,b>?olomew4 ,x 0 to obey ^? bloody laws t ,l\is ,,xiv4 revok$ ! ,edict ( ,nantes1 caus$ ! dea? ( half a million ( m51 wom5 & *ildr51 :o p]i%$ 9 all ! highways ( ,france1 & caus$ twice t numb] to die 9 ! l& ( exile1 :]e !y _h f\nd a refuge4 ,^? anti-social laws1 to-day1 are writt5 on h] bann]s ) ! blood ( t5 millions ( m>tyrs4 ,x is "u ^? bloody bann]s t #f1jjj ,roman ,ca?olic prie/s1 ,jesuits & bi%ops1 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 are m>*+ to ! conque/ ( ?is ,republic1 back$ by _! sev5 millions ( bl9d & ob$i5t slaves4 ,^? laws1 :i* are /ill ! rul+ laws ( ,rome1 7 ! ma9 cause ( ! la/ rebellion ( ! ,s\!rn ,/ates4 ,yes6 )\t ,romanism1 ! la/ awful civil w> w\ld h be5 impossible4 ,jeff ,davis w\ld nev] h d>$ to attack ! ,nor?1 _h he n _h assurance f ! ,pope1 t ! ,jesuits1 ! bi%ops1 ! prie/s & ! :ole p ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 "u ! "n & mask ( ,democracy1 w\ld help him4 ,^! diabolical & anti-social laws ( ,rome caus$ a ,roman ,ca?olic 7,beaureg>d7 to be ! man *os5 to fire ! fir/ gun at ,=t ,sumt]1 aga9/ ! flag ( ,lib]ty1 on ! #ab? ( ,april1 #ahfa4 ,^? anti*ri/ian & anti-social laws caus$ ! ,pope ( ,rome to be ! only cr[n$ pr9ce 9 ! :ole _w1 s deprav$ z to publicly %ake h&s ) ,jeff ,davis1 & proclaim him ,presid5t ( a legitimate gov]nm5t4 ,^! are ! laws :i* l$ ! assass9s ( ,abraham ,l9coln to ! h\se ( a rabid ,roman ,ca?olic woman1 ,m>y ,surratt1 :i* 0 n only ! r5dezv\s ( ! prie/s ( ,wa%+ton1 b ! v dwell+-h\se ( "s ( !m4 ,t woman1 gift$ by ,god to be an angel ( peace & m]cy on e>?1 0 *ang$ by ^? laws into a blood?ir/y tigress2 = %e _h smelt ! blood :i*1 ev]y:]e1 comes f ! robe1 ! h&s & ! lips ( ! prie/ ( ,rome4 ,^? bloody & inf]nal laws ( ,rome n]v$ ! arm ( ! ,roman ,ca?olic1 ,boo?1 :5 he slaught]$ "o ( ! noble/ m5 ,god has ev] giv5 to ! _w4 ,^? bloody & anti-social laws ( ,rome1 aft] hav+ cov]$ ,europe ) ru9s1 te>s & blood1 = t5 c5turies1 h cross$ ! oceans to cont9ue _! "w ( slav]y & desolation1 blood & te>s1 ignorance & demoralization1 on ?is cont95t4 ,"u ! mask & "n ( ,democracy1 !y h rais$ ! /&>d ( rebellion ( ! ,s\? aga9/ ! ,nor?1 & caus$ m ?an a half million ( ! mo/ h]oic sons ( ,am]ica to fall on ! fields ( c>nage4 ,9 a v ne> future1 if ,god does n miracul\sly prev5t x1 ^? laws ( d>k de$s & blood w cause ! prosp]ity1 ! rights1 ! education1 & ! lib]ties ( ?is too confid5t nation1 to be buri$ "u a m\nta9 ( smok+ & bloody ru9s4 ,on ! top ( t m\nta91 ,rome w raise h] ?rone & plant h] victori\s bann]s4 ,!n %e w s+ h] ,te ,deums & %\t h] %\ts ( joy1 z %e did1 :5 %e he>d ! lam5tations & cries ( desolation ( ! millions ( m>tyrs burn+ 9 ! five ?\s& auto-da-fes %e _h rais$ 9 all ! capitals & great cities ( ,europe4 ,,*apt] ,,lx4 ,,fundam5tal ,,pr9ciples ,,( ,,! ,,con/itution ,,( ,,! ,,unit$ ,,/ates1 ,,drawn ,,f ,,! ,,gospel ,,( ,,*ri/--,,rome ,,_c ,,?rive ,,& ,,/& ,,9 ,,! ,,unit$ ,,/ates ,,)\t ,,de/roy+ ,,_! ,,pr9ciples ,,( ,,frat]nity1 ,,equality ,,& ,,lib]ty1 ,,:i* ,,are ,,! ,,f\ndation ,,( ,,! ,,republic--,,my ,,fir/ ,,visit ,,to ,,abraham ,,l9coln ,,to ,,w>n ,,him ,,( ,,plots ,i ,,knew ,,aga9/ ,,him--,,romi% ,,prie/s ,,circulate ,,! ,,news ,,t ,,he ,,0 ,,born ,,9 ,,! ,,*ur* ,,( ,,rome--,,lett] ,,( ,,! ,,pope ,,to ,,jeff ,,davis--,,my ,,la/ ,,visit ,,to ,,! ,,presid5t--,,8 ,,admirable ,,ref]5ce ,,to ,,moses--,,will+ ,,to ,,die ,,= ,,8 ,,nation',s ,,sake4 ,,equality ,,& ,,frat]nity ,,( ,,m5 ,,proclaim$ ,,by ,,*ri/4 8,be ye n call$ ,rabbi4 ,= "o is y\r ,ma/]1 ev5 ,*ri/4 ,& all ye are bre?r540 7,ma?4 #bc3h47 8,god is no respect] ( p]sons4 ,b 9 e nation1 he t fe>e? ,him & worke? righte\sness is accept$ ) ,him40 7,acts #aj3cd-ce47 8,jesus call$ !m unto him & said3 ,ye "k t ! pr9ces ( ! ,g5tiles ex]cise dom9ion ov] !m1 & !y t are great ex]cise au?ority ^u !m3 8,b x %all n be s among y4 ,b :osoev] w be great among y1 let him be y\r m9i/]3 ,& :osoev] w be *ief among y1 let him be y\r s]vant4 8,ev5 z ! ,son ( ,man came n to be m9i/]$ unto1 b to m9i/]1 & give 8 life a ransom = _m40 7,ma?4 #bj3be-bh47 ,,pr9ciples ,,( ,,lib]ty ,,proclaim$ ,,by ,,*ri/4 8,if ye cont9ue 9 my ^w1 !n are ye my disciples inde$1 & ye %all "k ! tru?1 & ! tru? %all make y free4 ,if ! ,son %all make y free1 y %all be free inde$40 7,john #h3cb47 8,! _s ( ! ,"l is ^u me1 because he ha? ano9t$ me to prea* ! ,gospel to ! poor2 he ha? s5t me to heal ! brok5-he>t$1 to prea* deliv]ance to ! captives1 & recov]+ ( sight to ! bl9d1 to set at lib]ty !m t are bruis$40 7,luke #d3ah47 8,:]e ! ,_s ( ,god is1 !re is lib]ty40 7#b ,cor4 #c3ag47 ,,tol]ance ,,& ,,lib]ty ,,( ,,consci5ce ,,proclaim$ ,,by ,,*ri/4 8,& !y did n receive him 7,*ri/7 because 8 face 0 z ?\gh he w\ld g to ,j]usalem4 ,& :5 8 disciples ,james1 & ,john1 saw ?is1 !y said3 ,wilt ?\ t we comm& fire to come d[n f heav5 & consume !m1 ev5 z ,elias did8 8,b he turn$ & rebuk$ !m1 & said3 ,ye "k n :at _s ye are (4 8,= ! ,son ( ,man is n come to de/roy man's life1 b to save !m40 7,luke #i3ec-ef47 8,!n ,simon ,pet]1 hav+ a sword1 drew x1 & smote ! high prie/'s s]vant1 & cut (f 8 "r e>4 ,! s]vant's "n 0 ,mal*us4 8,!n said ,jesus unto ,pet]1 put up ?y sword into ! %ea?3 ! cup :i* my ,fa!r ha? giv5 me1 %all ,i n dr9k x8 ,= all !y t take ! sword1 %all p]i% ) ! sword40 7,matt4 #bf3eb4 ,john #ah3aj47 ,x is no wond] t ! p ( ,judea1 fill$ ) admiration at ^! sublime doctr9es ( equality1 frat]nity1 lib]ty & tol]ance1 %\ld exclaim4 8,nev] man spake l ?is man60 ,is x on ^? admirable pr9ciples t ! ,*ur* ( ,rome is f\nd$8 ,no6 = %e has1 ?\s&s ( times1 proclaim$ t h] mission 0 to de/roy !m all1 ev5 if %e _h to wade 9 ! blood ( ^? :o support !m4 ,b j z ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* is n only ! v antipodes & ! mo/ implacable enemy ( ^? admirable doctr9es & pr9ciples1 s ! con/itution ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 is ! ripe fruit ( ?is div9e se$1 s[n by ! ,son ( ,god himself 9 ! bosom ( humanity1 eighte5 hundr$ ye>s ago1 to save ! _w4 ,yes1 9 ref]5ce to ^? pr9ciples ( frat]nity1 equality1 lib]ty & tol]ance1 ! con/itution ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates is to ! ,gospel ( ,*ri/ :at ! fruit is to ! tree :i* has giv5 x4 ,& ?is is ! v]dict giv5 by ! :ole _w1 ! ,*ur* ( ,rome except$4 ,:y is x t ! poor1 ! bruis$1 ! w\nd$ & ! oppress$ f e l&1 turn _! eyes1 _! he>ts & _! /eps1 t[>ds ?is c\ntry8 ,x is because all ! e*oes ( heav5 & e>? h told !m t ! ,unit$ ,/ates ,republic is1 p> excell5ce1 ! l& ( frat]nity1 fair-play1 equality & lib]ty1 z ! ,savi\r ( ! _w has reveal$ !m4 ,! ,pope ( ,rome & 8 ,jesuits "k ?is bett] ?an any "o4 ,h5ce1 _! con/ant & supreme ef=ts to de/roy ?is ,republic4 ,believ+ & prea*+ t x is _! duty to ext]m9ate ! individuals :o diff] f !m 9 religion1 !y assume t x is _! duty to de/roy ! gov]nm5ts & ! nations :o refuse to submit to _! yoke1 :5 !y c d x safely4 ,! mission ( ,rome be+1 to tea* t ! inf]ior1 ! p1 mu/ obey 8 sup]ior1 j z ! corpse obeys ! h& :i* moves x1 or z ! /ick obeys ! arm :i* directs x1 %e kn[s well t %e _c fulfill h] mission1 & atta9 h] object s long z ?is gov]nm5t ( a free1 sov]eign p1 /&s2 %e is1 !n1 b\nd to oppose1 p>alyze & de/roy t gov]nm5t :5 %e f9ds h] opportunity4 ,) lynx's eye1 %e wat*$ t opportunity3 & ) anxiety & rage %e spi$ f h] cradle ! onw>d m>* ( ?is "y giant ,republic4 ,%e knew t x 0 9 ! bosom ( e true citiz5 ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates to propagate ^? accurs$1 7by h]7 pr9ciples ( equality1 frat]nity & lib]ty1 all ov] ! _w4 ,%e saw t ! irresi/ible influ5ce ( ^? pr9ciples 7 felt on ! mo/ di/ant nations1 z well z on ! poor1 mis]able1 ,iri% p1 %e 0 keep+ "u h] heavy & ignom9i\s yoke2 %e und]/ood t !re 0 a real dang] = h] v exi/5ce1 if ^? pr9ciples w\ld cont9ue to spread2 t h] slav]y /> w\ld g d[n z ! lib]ty /> w\ld rise on ! horizon4 ,9 a ^w1 ,rome saw at once t ! v exi/5ce ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates 0 a =mal m5ace to h] own life4 ,already %e _h se5 ! *a9s ( two millions ( h] ,iri% slaves melt$ at ! simple t\* ( ! w>m rays ( lib]ty :i* _h fall5 f ! />s & /ripes bann]s4 ,f ! v beg9n+1 %e p]fidi\sly s[$ ! g]ms ( division & hatr$ betwe5 ! two great sections ( ?is c\ntry1 & %e felt an unspeakable joy :5 %e saw t %e _h succe$$ 9 divid+ its ,s\? f ! ,nor?1 on ! burn+ "q ( slav]y4 ,%e look$ ^u t division z h] gold5 opportunity4 ,to cru% "o p>ty by ! o!r1 & reign ov] ! bloody ru9s ( bo?1 has inv>iably be5 h] policy4 ,%e hop$ t ! h\r ( h] supreme triumph ov] ?is cont95t 0 come4 ,%e ord]$ h] eld] son1 ! ,emp]or ( ,france1 to keep himself ready to help h] cru% ! ,nor?1 by hav+ an army 9 ,mexico ready to support ! ,s\?1 & %e bade all ! ,roman ,ca?olic bi%ops1 prie/s & p to enroll !mselves "u ! bann]s ( slav]y1 by jo9+ !mselves to ! p>ty ( ,democracy4 ,& ev]ybody kn[s h[ ! ,roman ,ca?olic bi%ops & prie/s1 almo/ to a man1 obey$ t ord]4 ,only "o bi%op d>$ to disobey4 ,above ev]y?+1 x 0 ord]$ to oppose ! election ( ,l9coln at any co/4 ,=1 f ! v fir/ day 8 eloqu5t voice _h be5 he>d1 a ?rill ( t]ror _h gone ?r\gh ! he>ts ( ! p>tisans ( slav]y4 ,! ,democratic press1 :i* 0 !n1 & is /ill n[1 almo/ entirely "u ! control ( ! ,roman ,ca?olics1 & ! devot$ tool ( ! ,jesuits1 delug$ ! c\ntry ) ! mo/ fe>ful d5unciations aga9/ him4 ,!y call$ him an ape2 a /upid brute1 a mo/ dang]\s lunatic1 a bloody mon/]1 a m]ciless tyrant1 etc41 etc4 ,9 a ^w1 ,rome exhau/$ all h] res\rces ( language1 %e ransack$ ! ,engli% diction>y to f9d ! mo/ suitable expressions to fill ! p ) contempt1 hatr$ & horror aga9/ him4 ,b x 0 writt5 9 ! decrees ( ,god t ! hone/ ,abraham ,l9coln %\ld be proclaim$ ,presid5t ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 ! #d? ( ,m>*1 #ahfa4 ,at ! end ( ,augu/1 hav+ kn[n f a ,roman ,ca?olic prie/1 :om1 by ! m]cy ( ,god1 ,i _h p]suad$ to leave ! errors ( ,pop]y1 t !re 0 a plot among !m to assass9ate ! ,presid5t1 ,i ?\ght x 0 my duty to g & tell him :at ,i knew1 at ! same "t giv+ him a new assurance ( gratitude = :at he _h done = me4 ,kn[+ t ,i 0 among ^? :o 7 wait+ 9 ! ante-*amb]1 he s5t imm$iately = me1 & receiv$ me ) great] cordiality & m>ks ( k9dness ?an ,i c\ld expect4 8,i am s glad to meet y aga910 he said3 8y see t y\r fri5ds1 ! ,jesuits1 h n yet kill$ me4 ,b !y w\ld h surely done x1 :5 ,i pass$ ?r\gh _! mo/ devot$ city1 ,baltimore1 _h ,i n defeat$ _! plans1 by pass+ incognito1 a few h\rs be=e !y expect$ me4 ,we h ! pro( t ! company :i* _h be5 select$ & organiz$ to murd] me1 0 lead by a rabid ,roman ,ca?olic1 call$ ,byrne2 x 0 almo/ entirely compos$ ( ,roman ,ca?olics2 m ?an t1 !re 7 two disguis$ prie/s among !m1 to lead & enc\rage !m4 ,i am sorry to h s little "t to see y2 b ,i w n let y g be=e tell+ y t1 a few days ago1 ,i saw ,mr4 ,morse1 ! le>n$ inv5tor ( electric telegraphy2 he told me t1 :5 he 0 9 ,rome1 n long ago1 he f\nd out ! pro(s ( a mo/ =midable conspiracy aga9/ ?is c\ntry & all its in/itutions4 ,x is evid5t t x is to ! intrigues & emiss>ies ( ! pope1 t we owe1 9 great "p1 ! horrible civil w> :i* is ?reat5+ to cov] ! c\ntry ) blood & ru9s4 8,i am sorry t ,pr(4 ,morse _h to leave ,rome be=e he c\ld "k m ab\t ! secret plans ( ! ,jesuits aga9/ ! lib]ties & ! v exi/5ce ( ?is c\ntry4 ,b d y "k t ,i want y to take 8 place & cont9ue t inve/igation8 ,my plan is to atta* y to my ambassador ( ,france1 z "o ( ! secret>ies4 ,9 t honorable position1 y w\ld g f ,p>is to ,rome1 :]e y might f9d1 ?r\gh ! directions ( ,mr4 ,morse1 an opportunity ( reunit+ ! brok5 ?reads ( 8 rese>*es4 #8,x takes a ,greek to fight a ,greek4' ,z y h be5 tw5ty-five ye>s a prie/ ( ,rome1 ,i d n "k any man 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates s well acqua9t$ z y are ) ! tricks ( ! ,jesuits1 & on ! devot$ness ( :om ,i c\ld bett] rely4 ,&1 :5 once on ! /aff ( my ambassador1 ev5 z "o ( ! secret>ies1 might y n soon y\rself become ! ambassador8 ,i am 9 ne$ ( ,*ri/ian m5 9 e dep>tm5t ( ! public s]vice1 b m 9 ^? high positions4 ,:at d y ?9k ( t80 ,illu/ration 8,my de> ,presid5t10 ,i answ]$1 8,i feel ov]:elm$ by y\r k9dness4 ,surely no?+ c\ld be m pleasant to me ?an to grant y\r reque/4 ,! honor y want to conf] ^u me is mu* above my m]it2 b my consci5ce tells me t ,i _c give up ! prea*+ ( ! ,gospel to my poor ,fr5*-,canadian c\ntrym51 :o are /ill 9 ! errors ( ,pop]y4 ,= ,i am ab\t ! only "o :o1 by ! ,provid5ce ( ,god1 has any real influ5ce ov] !m4 ,i am1 surely1 ! only "o ! bi%ops & prie/s seem to fe> 9 t "w4 ,! _m attempts !y h made to take away my life are a pro( ( x4 ,besides t1 ?\gh ,i consid] ! pres5t ,presid5t ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates mu* above ! ,emp]ors ( ,france1 ,russia1 & ,au/ria1 mu* above ! greate/ k+s ( ! _w1 ,i feel t ,i am ! s]vant1 ! ambassador ( ,"o :o is z mu* above ev5 ! good & great ,presid5t ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 z ! heav5s are above ! e>?4 ,i appeal to y\r own ,*ri/ian & honorable feel+s to "k if ,i c =sake ! "o = ! o!r40 ,! ,presid5t became v solemn1 & repli$3 8,y are "r6 y are "r6 ,!re is no?+ s great "u heav51 z to be ! ambassador ( ,*ri/40 ,b1 !n1 com+ back to himself1 ) "o ( 8 f9e jokes1 :i* he _h always ready1 he add$3 8,yes6 yes6 ,y are ! ambassador ( a great] ,pr9ce ?an ,i am2 b he does n pay y ) z good ca% z ,i w\ld d40 ,he !n add$3 8,i am exce$+ly pleas$ to see y4 ,h[ev]1 ,i am s press$1 j n[1 by mo/ important affairs1 t y mu/ excuse me if ,i ask y to give y\r place to "o ( my g5]als :o is1 !re1 wait+ = me4 ,please come aga91 to-morr[1 at t5 o'clock1 ,i h a v important "q to ask y1 on a matt] :i* has be5 con/antly be=e my m9d1 ^! la/ few weeks40 ,! next day1 ,i 0 !re1 at ! appo9t$ h\r1 ) my noble fri5d1 :o said3 8,i c\ld n give y m ?an t5 m9utes1 ye/]day1 b ,i w give y tw5ty1 to-day2 ,i want y\r views ab\t a ?+ :i* is exce$+ly puzzl+ to me1 & y are ! only "o to :om ,i l to speak on t subject4 ,a great numb] ( ,democratic pap]s h be5 s5t to me1 lately1 evid5tly writt5 by ,roman ,ca?olics1 publi%+ t ,i 0 born a ,roman ,ca?olic1 & baptiz$ by a prie/4 ,!y call me a r5egade1 an apo/ate1 on acc\nt ( t2 & !y heap ^u my head m\nta9s ( abuse4 ,at fir/1 ,i laugh$ at t1 = x is a lie4 ,?anks be to ,god1 ,i h nev] be5 a ,roman ,ca?olic4 ,no prie/ ( ,rome has ev] laid 8 h& on my head4 ,b ! p]si/5cy ( ! ,romi% press to pres5t ?is falsehood to _! read]s z a gospel tru?1 mu/ h a mean+4 ,please tell me1 z briefly z possible1 :at y ?9k ab\t t40 8,my de> ,presid5t10 ,i answ]$1 8x 0 j ?is /range /ory publi%$ ab\t y1 :i* br\ght me "h1 ye/]day4 ,i want$ to say a ^w ab\t x2 b y 7 too busy4 8,let me tell y t ,i wept z a *ild :5 ,i read t /ory = ! fir/ "t4 ,=1 n only my impression is1 t x is y\r s5t5ce ( dea?2 b ,i h f ! lips ( a conv]t$ prie/1 t x is 9 ord] to excite ! fanaticism ( ! ,roman ,ca?olic murd]]s1 :om !y hope to f9d1 soon] or lat]1 to /rike y d[n1 !y h inv5t$ t false /ory ( y\r be+ born 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 & ( y\r be+ baptiz$ by a prie/4 ,!y want by t to br& y\r face ) ! ignom9i\s m>k ( apo/acy4 ,d n =get t1 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 an apo/ate is an outca/1 :o has no place 9 society1 & :o has no "r to live4 8,! ,jesuits want ! ,roman ,ca?olics to believe t y are a mon/]1 an op5 enemy ( ,god & ( 8 ,*ur*1 t y are an excommunicat$ man4 ,=1 e apo/ate is1 ipso facto 7by t v fact7 excommunicat$4 ,i h br\ght to y ! !ology ( "o ( ! mo/ le>n$ & approv$ ( ! ,jesuits ( 8 "t1 ,bussambaum1 :o1 ) _m o!rs1 say t ! man :o w kill y w d a good & holy "w4 ,m ?an t1 "h is a copy ( a decree ( ,gregory ,,vii41 proclaim+ t ! kill+ ( an apo/ate1 or an h]etic & an excommunicat$ man1 z y are decl>$ to be1 is n murd]2 nay1 t x is a good1 a ,*ri/ian action4 ,t decree is incorporat$ 9 ! canon law1 :i* e prie/ mu/ /udy1 & :i* e good ,ca?olic mu/ foll[4 8,my de> ,presid5t1 ,i mu/ repeat to y "h :at ,i said :5 9 ,urbana1 9 #ahef4 ,my fe> is t y w fall "u ! bl[s ( a ,jesuit assass91 if y d n pay m att5tion ?an y h done1 till n[1 to protect y\rself4 ,rememb] t because ,coligny 0 an h]etic1 z y are1 he 0 brutally murd]$ 9 ! ,/4 ,b>?olomew night2 t ,h5ry ,,iv4 0 /abb$ by ! ,jesuit assass91 ,revaillac1 ! #ad? ( ,may1 #afaj1 = hav+ giv5 lib]ty ( consci5ce to 8 p1 & t ,william ! ,taciturn 0 %ot dead by ano!r ,jesuit murd]]1 call$ ,gir>d1 = hav+ brok5 ! yoke ( ! ,pope4 ,! ,*ur* ( ,rome is absolutely ! same to-day1 z %e 0 !n2 %e does believe & tea*1 to-day1 z !n1 t %e has ! "r & t x is h] duty to puni% by dea? any h]etic :o is 9 h] way z an ob/acle to h] designs4 ,! unanimity ) :i* ! ,ca?olic hi]>*y ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates is on ! side ( ! rebels1 is an incontrov]tible evid5ce t ,rome wants to de/roy ?is republic1 & z y are1 by y\r p]sonal virtues1 y\r popul>ity1 y\r love = lib]ty1 y\r position1 ! greate/ ob/acle to _! diabolical s*eme1 _! hatr$ is conc5trat$ ^u y2 y are ! daily object ( _! mal$ictions2 x is at y\r brea/ !y w direct _! bl[s4 ,my blood *ills 9 my ve9s1 :5 ,i contemplate ! day :i* may come1 soon]1 or lat]1 :5 ,rome w add to all h] o!r iniquities1 ! murd] ( ,abraham ,l9coln40 ,:5 say+ ^! ?+s to ! ,presid5t1 ,i 0 exce$+ly mov$1 my voice 0 z *ok$1 & ,i c\ld h>dly reta9 my te>s4 ,b ! ,presid5t 0 p]fectly calm4 ,:5 ,i _h f9i%$ speak+1 he took ! volume ( ,bussambaum f my h&s1 read ! l9es :i* ,i _h m>k$ ) r$ ink1 & ,i help$ him to translate !m into ,engli%4 ,he1 !n1 gave me back ! book1 & said3 8,i w repeat to y :at ,i said at ,urbana1 :5 = ! fir/ "t y told me y\r fe>s le/ ,i w\ld be assass9at$ by ! ,jesuits4 #8,man mu/ n c>e :]e & :5 he w die1 provid$ he dies at ! po/ ( honor & duty4' ,b ,i may add1 to-day1 t ,i h a pres5tim5t t ,god w call me to him ?r\gh ! h& ( an assass94 ,let ,8 w1 & n m9e1 be done60 ,he !n look$ at 8 wat*1 & said3 8,i am sorry t ! tw5ty m9utes ,i _h consecrat$ to our int]view h almo/ pass$ away2 ,i w be =ev] grateful = ! w>n+ words y h address$ to me ab\t ! dang]s ahead to my life1 f ,rome4 ,i "k t !y are n imag9>y dang]s4 ,if ,i 7 fight+ aga9/ a ,prote/ant ,s\?1 z a nation1 !re w\ld be no dang] ( assass9ation4 ,! nations :o read ! ,bible1 fight bravely on ! battle-fields1 b !y d n assass9ate _! enemies4 ,! ,pope & ! ,jesuits1 ) _! inf]nal ,inquisition1 are ! only organiz$ p[] 9 ! _w :i* h rec\rse to ! dagg] ( ! assass9 to murd] ^? :om !y _c conv9ce ) _! argum5ts1 or conqu] ) ! sword4 8,un=tunately1 ,i feel m & m1 e day1 t x is n aga9/ ! ,am]icans ( ! ,s\?1 alone1 ,i am fight+1 x is m aga9/ ! ,pope ( ,rome1 8 p]fidi\s ,jesuits & _! bl9d & blood-?ir/y slaves1 ?an aga9/ ! real ,am]ican ,prote/ants1 t we h to def5d ourselves4 ,"h is ! real dang] ( our position4 ,s long z !y w hope to conqu] ! ,nor?1 !y w sp>e me2 b ! day we w r\t _! armies 7& ! day w surely come1 ) ! help ( ,god71 take _! cities1 & =ce !m to submit2 !n1 x is my impression t ! ,jesuits1 :o are ! pr9cipal rul]s ( ! ,s\?1 w d :at !y h almo/ inv>iably done 9 ! pa/4 ,! dagg] or ! pi/ol ( "o ( _! adepts1 w d :at ! /rong h&s ( ! w>riors c\ld n a*ieve4 ,?is civil w> seems to be no?+ b a political affair to ^? :o d n see1 z ,i d1 ! secret spr+s ( t t]rible drama4 ,b x is m a religi\s ?an a civil w>4 ,x is ,rome :o wants to rule & degrade ! ,nor?1 z %e has rul$ & degrad$ ! ,s\?1 f ! v day ( its discov]y4 ,!re are only v few ( ! ,s\!rn lead]s :o are n m or less "u ! influ5ce ( ! ,jesuits1 ?r\gh _! wives1 family relations & _! fri5ds4 ,sev]al memb]s ( ! family ( ,jeff ,davis belong to ! ,*ur* ( ,rome4 ,ev5 ! ,prote/ant m9i/]s are "u ! influ5ce ( ! ,jesuits )\t suspect+ x4 ,to keep h] asc5d5cy 9 ! ,nor?1 z %e does 9 ! ,s\?1 ,rome is do+ "h :at %e has done 9 ,mexico1 & 9 all ! ,s\? ,am]ican ,republics2 %e is p>alyz+1 by a civil w>1 ! arms ( ! soldi]s ( ,lib]ty4 ,%e divides our nation1 9 ord] to weak51 subdue & rule x4 8,surely we h "s brave & reliable ,roman ,ca?olic (fic]s & soldi]s 9 our armies1 b !y =m an insignificant m9ority :5 comp>$ ) ! ,roman ,ca?olic traitors aga9/ :om we h to gu>d ourselves1 day & night4 ,! fact is1 t ! imm5se majority ( ! ,roman ,ca?olic bi%ops1 prie/s & laym51 are rebels 9 he>t1 :5 !y _c be 9 fact2 ) v few exceptions1 !y are publicly 9 favor ( slav]y4 ,i und]/&1 n[1 :y ! patriots ( ,france1 :o det]m9$ to see ! colors ( ,lib]ty float+ ov] _! great & beautiful c\ntry1 7 =c$ to hang or %oot almo/ all ! prie/s & ! monks z ! irreconcilable enemies ( ,lib]ty4 ,= x is a fact1 :i* is n[ evid5t to me1 t1 ) v few exceptions1 e prie/ & e true ,roman ,ca?olic is a det]m9$ enemy ( ,lib]ty4 ,_! ext]m9ation1 9 ,france1 0 "o ( ^? t]rible necessities :i* no human wisdom c\ld avoid2 x looks to me n[ z an ord] f heav5 to save ,france4 ,may ,god grant t ! same t]rible necessity be nev] felt 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates6 ,b !re is a ?+ :i* is v c]ta92 x is1 t if ! ,am]ican p c\ld le>n :at ,i "k ( ! fi]ce hatr$ ( ! g5]ality ( ! prie/s ( ,rome aga9/ our in/itutions1 our s*ools1 our mo/ sacr$ rights1 & our s de>ly b\ght lib]ties1 !y w\ld drive !m away1 to-morr[1 f among u1 or !y w\ld %oot !m z traitors4 ,b ,i keep ^? sad secrets 9 my he>t2 y are ! only "o to :om ,i reveal !m1 = ,i "k t y le>n$ !m be=e me4 ,! hi/ory ( ^! la/ ?\s& ye>s tells u t :]ev] ! ,*ur* ( ,rome is n a dagg] to pi]ce ! bosom ( a free nation1 %e is a /one to h] neck1 & a ball to h] feet1 to p>alyze h] & prev5t h] advance 9 ! ways ( civilization1 sci5ce1 intellig5ce1 happ9ess & lib]ty4 ,b ,i =get t my tw5ty m9utes are gone long ago4 8,please accept my s9c]e ?anks = ! new lights y h giv5 me on ! dang]s ( my position1 & come aga91 ,i w always see y ) a new pleasure40 ,my second visit to ,abraham ,l9coln 0 at ! beg9n+ ( ,june1 #ahfb4 ,! gr& victory ( ! ,monitor ov] ! ,m]rimac1 & ! conque/ ( ,new ,orleans1 by ! brave & ,*ri/ian ,f>ragut1 _h fill$ e he>t ) joy2 ,i want$ to unite my feeble voice to t ( ! :ole c\ntry1 to tell him h[ ,i bless$ ,god = t glori\s success4 ,b ,i f\nd him s busy t ,i c\ld only %ake h&s ) him4 ,! ?ird & la/ "t ,i w5t to pay my respects to ! doom$ ,presid5t1 & to w>n him aga9/ ! imp5d+ dang]s :i* ,i knew 7 ?reat5+ him1 0 on ! morn+ ( ,june #h?1 #ahfd1 :5 he 0 absolutely besieg$ by p :o want$ to see him4 ,aft] a k9d & w>m %ak+ ( h&s1 he said3 8,i am mu* pleas$ to see y aga94 ,b x is impossible1 to-day1 to say any?+ m ?an ?is4 ,to-morr[ aft]noon1 ,i w receive ! delegation ( ! deputies ( all ! loyal /ates1 s5t to (ficially ann\nce ! desire ( ! c\ntry t ,i %\ld rema9 ! ,presid5t f\r ye>s m4 ,i invite y to be pres5t ) !m at t int]e/+ meet+4 ,y w see "s ( ! mo/ prom95t m5 ( our ,republic1 & ,i w be glad to introduce y to !m4 ,y w n pres5t y\rself z a delegate ( ! p1 b only z ! gue/ ( ! ,presid5t2 & t !re may be no tr\ble1 ,i w give y ?is c>d1 ) a p]mit to ent] ) ! delegation4 ,b d n leave ,wa%+ton be=e ,i see y aga92 ,i h "s important matt]s on :i* ,i want to "k y\r m9d40 ,! next day1 x 0 my privilege to h ! greate/ honor ev] receiv$ by me4 ,! good ,presid5t want$ me to /& at 8 "r h&1 :5 he receiv$ ! delegation1 & he> ! address pres5t$ by ,gov]nor ,d5nison1 ! ,presid5t ( ! conv5tion1 to :i* he repli$ 9 8 own admirable simplicity & eloqu5ce2 f9i%+ by "o ( 8 mo/ witty anecdotes4 8,i am rem9d$ 9 ?is conv5tion ( a /ory ( an old ,dut* f>m]1 :o rem>k$ to a companion1 wisely1 #8t x 0 n be/ to swap horses :5 cross+ a /ream4'0 ,! next day1 he k9dly took me ) him 9 8 c>riage1 :5 visit+ ! #cj1jjj w\nd$ soldi]s pick$ up on ! battle-fields ( ! sev5 days battle ( ! ,wild]ness1 & ! ?irty days battle ar\nd ,ri*mond1 :]e ,grant 0 j break+ ! backbone ( ! rebellion4 ,on ! way to & f ! hospitals1 ,i c\ld n talk mu*4 ,! noise ( ! c>riage rapidly drawn on ! pavem5t 0 too great4 ,besides t1 my s\l 0 s mu* di/ress$1 & my he>t s mu* brok5 by ! sight ( ! horrors ( t fracticidal w>1 t my voice 0 z /ifl$4 ,! only ?\ght :i* seem$ to occupy ! m9d ( ! ,presid5t 0 ! "p :i* ,rome _h 9 t horrible /ruggle4 ,_m times he repeat$3 8,?is w> w\ld nev] h be5 possible )\t ! s9i/] influ5ce ( ! ,jesuits4 ,we owe x to ,pop]y t we n[ see our l& r$d5$ ) ! blood ( h] noble/ sons4 ,?\gh !re 7 great diff]5ces ( op9ion betwe5 ! ,s\? & ! ,nor?1 on ! "q ( slav]y2 nei!r ,jeff ,davis nor any "o ( ! lead+ m5 ( ! ,conf$]acy w\ld h d>$ to attack ! ,nor?1 _h !y n reli$ on ! promises ( ! ,jesuits1 t1 "u ! mask ( ,democracy1 ! money & ! arms ( ! ,roman ,ca?olics1 ev5 ! arms ( ,france1 7 at _! disposal1 if !y w\ld attack u4 ,i pity ! prie/s1 ! bi%ops & ! monks ( ,rome 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 :5 ! p realize t !y are1 9 great "p1 responsible = ! te>s & ! blood %$ 9 ?is w>2 ! lat] ! m t]rible w ! retribution be4 ,i conceal :at ,i "k1 on t subject1 f ! k ( ! nation2 = if ! p knew ! :ole tru?1 ?is w> w\ld turn into a religi\s w>1 & x w\ld1 at once1 take a t5fold m savage & bloody "*4 ,x w\ld become m]ciless z all religi\s w>s are4 ,x w\ld become a w> ( ext]m9ation on bo? sides4 ,! ,prote/ants ( bo? ! ,nor? & ! ,s\? w\ld surely unite to ext]m9ate ! prie/s & ! ,jesuits1 if !y c\ld he> :at ,pr(essor ,morse has said to me ( ! plots made 9 ! v city ( ,rome to de/roy ?is ,republic1 & if !y c\ld le>n h[ ! prie/s1 ! nuns1 & ! monks1 :o daily l& on our %ores1 "u ! pretext ( prea*+ _! religion1 in/ruct+ ! p 9 _! s*ools1 tak+ c>e ( ! sick 9 ! hospitals1 are no?+ else b ! emiss>ies ( ! ,pope1 ( ,napoleon1 & ! o!r despots ( ,europe1 to und]m9e our in/itutions1 ali5ate ! he>ts ( our p f our con/itution1 & our laws1 de/roy our s*ools1 & prep>e a reign ( an>*y "h z !y h done 9 ,irel&1 9 ,mexico1 9 ,spa91 & :]ev] !re are any p :o want to be free1 etc40 ,:5 ! ,presid5t 0 speak+ ?us1 we arriv$ at ! door ( 8 mansion4 ,he invit$ me to g ) him to 8 /udy1 & said3 8,?\gh ,i am v busy1 ,i mu/ re/ an h\r ) y4 ,i am 9 ne$ ( t re/4 ,my head is a*+1 ,i feel z cru%$ "u ! burd5 ( affairs :i* are on my %\ld]s4 ,!re are _m important ?+s ab\t ! plots ( ! ,jesuits t ,i c le>n only f y4 ,please wait j a mom5t1 ,i h j receiv$ "s dispat*es f ,g5]al ,grant1 to :i* ,i mu/ give an answ]4 ,my secret>y is wait+ = me4 ,i g to him4 ,please amuse y\rself ) ^? books1 dur+ my %ort abs5ce40 ,tw5ty-five m9utes lat]1 ! ,presid5t _h return$1 ) 8 face flu%$ ) joy4 8,glori\s news6 ,g5]al ,grant has aga9 beat5 ,lee1 & =c$ him to retreat t[>ds ,ri*mond1 :]e he w h to surr5d] be=e long4 ,grant is a real h]o4 ,b let u come to ! "q ,i want to put to y4 ,h y read ! lett] ( ! ,pope to ,jeff ,davis1 & :at d y ?9k ( x80 8,my de> ,presid5t10 ,i answ]$1 8x is j t lett] :i* br\ght me to y\r pres5ce aga91 day be=e ye/]day4 ,i want$ to come & see y1 f ! v day ,i read x4 ,b ,i knew y 7 s ov]:elm$ ) ! affairs ( y\r gov]nm5t1 t ,i w\ld n be able to see y4 ,h[ev]1 ! anxieties ( my m9d 7 s1 t ,i det]m9$ to g ov] e b>ri] to w>n y aga9 aga9/ ! new dang]s & plots :i* ,i knew w\ld come out f t p]fidi\s lett]1 aga9/ y\r life4 8,t lett] is a poison$ arr[ ?r[n by ! ,pope1 at y p]sonally2 & x w be m ?an a miracle if x be n y\r irrevocable w>rant ( dea?4 ,be=e read+ x1 x is true t e ,ca?olic c\ld see by ! unanimity ( ! bi%ops sid+ ) rebel cause1 t _! *ur*1 z a :ole1 0 aga9/ ?is free ,republican gov]nm5t4 ,h[ev]1 a good numb] ( lib]ty-lov+ ,iri%1 ,g]man & ,fr5* ,ca?olics1 foll[+ m ! in/9cts ( _! noble nature1 ?an ! degrad+ pr9ciples ( _! *ur*1 enroll$ !mselves "u ! bann]s ( ,lib]ty1 & !y h f\ght l h]oes4 ,to deta* ^! m5 f ! rank & file ( ! ,nor!rn armies1 & =ce !m to help ! cause ( ! rebellion1 became ! object ( ! intrigues ( ! ,jesuits4 ,secret & press+ lett]s 7 address$ f ,rome to ! bi%ops1 ord]+ !m to weak5 y\r armies by deta*+ ^? m5 f y4 ,! bi%ops answ]$1 t !y c\ld n d t )\t expos+ !mselves to be %ot4 ,b !y advis$ ! ,pope to ackn[l$ge1 at once1 ! legitimacy ( ! ,s\!rn ,republic1 & to take ,jeff ,davis "u 8 supreme protection1 by a lett]1 :i* w\ld be read ev]y:]e4 8,t lett]1 !n1 tells logically ! ,roman ,ca?olics t y are a bloody tyrant6 a mo/ execrable be+ :5 fight+ aga9/ a gov]nm5t :i* ! infallible & holy ,pope ( ,rome recognizes z legitimate4 ,! ,pope1 by ?is lett]1 tells 8 bl9d slaves t y are an infam\s usurp]1 :5 consid]+ y\rself ! ,presid5t ( ! ,s\!rn ,/ates2 t y are outrag+ ! ,god ( heav5 & e>?1 by cont9u+ su* a bloody w> to subdue a nation ov] :om ,god ,almighty has decl>$1 ?r\gh 8 infallible pontiff1 ! ,pope1 t y h n ! lea/ "r2 t lett] means t y w give an acc\nt to ,god & man = ! blood & te>s y cause to fl[ 9 ord] to satisfy y\r ambition4 8,by ?is lett] ( ! ,pope to ,jeff ,davis y are n only an apo/ate1 z y 7 ?\ght be=e1 :om e man _h ! "r to kill1 accord+ to ! canonical laws ( ,rome2 b y are m vile1 crim9al & cruel ?an ! horse ?ief1 ! public b&it1 & ! lawless brig&1 robb] & murd]]1 :om x is a duty to /op & kill1 :5 we take !m 9 _! acts ( blood1 & t !re is no o!r way to put an end to _! plund]s & murd]s4 8,&1 my de> ,presid5t1 ! mean+ ,i give y ( ?is p]fidi\s lett] ( ! ,pope to ,jeff ,davis1 is n a fancy imag9ation on my "p1 x is ! unanim\s explanation giv5 me by a great numb] ( ! prie/s ( ,rome1 ) :om ,i h _h occasion to speak on t subject4 ,9 ! "n ( ,god1 & 9 ! "n ( our de> c\ntry1 :i* is s mu* 9 ne$ ( y\r s]vices1 ,i conjure y to pay m att5tion to protect y\r preci\s life1 & n cont9ue to expose x z y h done till n[40 ,! ,presid5t li/5$ to my words ) brea?less att5tion4 ,he repli$3 8,y confirm me 9 ! views ,i _h tak5 ( ! lett] ( ! ,pope4 ,pr(essor ,morse is ( ! same m9d ) y4 ,x is1 inde$1 ! mo/ p]fidi\s act :i* c\ld occur "u pres5t circum/ances4 ,y are p]fectly correct :5 y say t x 0 to deta* ! ,roman ,ca?olics :o _h enroll$ !mselves 9 our armies4 ,s9ce ! publication ( t lett]1 a great numb] ( !m h des]t$ _! bann]s & turn$ traitors2 v few1 comp>atively1 h rema9$ true to _! oa? ( fidelity4 ,x is1 h[ev]1 v lucky t "o ( ^? few1 ,%]idan1 is wor? a :ole army by 8 ability1 8 patriotism & 8 h]oic c\rage4 ,x is true1 also1 t ,meade has rema9$ ) u1 & ga9$ ! bloody battle ( ,gettysburgh4 ,b h[ c\ld he lose x1 :5 he 0 surr\nd$ by su* h]oes z ,h[>d1 ,reynolds1 ,bu=d1 ,wadswor?1 ,cutl]1 ,slocum1 ,sickles1 ,hancock1 ,b>nes1 etc4 ,b x is evid5t t 8 ,romanism sup]s$$ 8 patriotism aft] ! battle4 ,he let ! army ( ,lee escape1 :5 x 0 s easy to cut 8 retreat & =ce him to surr5d]1 aft] hav+ lo/ ne>ly ! half ( 8 soldi]s 9 ! la/ ?ree days' c>nage4 8,:5 ,meade 0 to ord] ! pursuit1 aft] ! battle1 a /rang] came1 9 ha/e1 to ! headqu>t]s1 & t /rang] 0 a disguis$ ,jesuit4 ,aft] a t5 m9utes' conv]sation ) him1 ,meade made su* arrangem5ts = ! pursuit ( ! enemy1 t he escap$ almo/ unt\*$1 ) ! loss ( only two guns6 8,y are "r10 cont9u$ ! ,presid5t1 8:5 y say t ?is lett] ( ! ,pope has entirely *ang$ ! nature & ! gr\nd ( ! w>4 ,be=e !y read x1 ! ,roman ,ca?olics c\ld see t ,i 0 fight+ aga9/ ,jeff ,davis & 8 ,s\!rn ,conf$]acy4 ,b n[1 !y mu/ believe t x is aga9/ ,*ri/ & 8 holy vic>1 ! ,pope1 t ,i am rais+ my sacrilegi\s h&s2 we h ! daily pro(s t _! indignation1 _! hatr$1 _! malice1 aga9/ me1 are an hundr$fold int5sifi$4 ,new projects ( assass9ation are detect$ almo/ e day1 accompani$ ) su* savage circum/ances t !y br+ to my memory ! massacres ( ! ,/4 ,b>?olomew & ! gunp[d] plot4 ,we feel1 at _! inve/igation1 t !y come f ! same ma/]s 9 ! art ( murd]1 ! ,jesuits4 8,! ,new ,york riots 7 evid5tly a ,romi% plot f beg9n+ to end4 ,we h ! pro(s 9 h&1 t !y 7 ! "w ( ,bi%op ,hughes & 8 emiss>ies4 ,no d\bt c rema9 9 ! m9ds ( ! mo/ incr$ul\s ab\t t bloody attempt ( ,rome to de/roy ,new ,york1 :5 he kn[s ! easy way x 0 /opp$4 ,i wrote to ,bi%op ,hughes1 tell+ him t ! :ole c\ntry w\ld hold him responsible = x1 if he w\ld n /op x at once4 ,he1 !n1 ga!r$ ! riot]s ar\nd 8 palace1 call$ !m 8 #8de> fri5ds1' invit$ !m to g back home peacefully1 & all 0 f9i%$6 s ,jupit] ( old us$ to raise a /orm1 & /op x ) a nod ( 8 head6 8,f ! beg9n+ ( our civil w>1 !re has be51 n a secret1 b a public alliance1 betwe5 ! ,pope ( ,rome & ,jeff ,davis2 & t alliance has foll[$ ! common laws ( ?is _w's affairs4 ,! great] has l$ ! small]1 ! /rong] has guid$ ! weak]4 ,! ,pope & 8 ,jesuits1 h advis$1 support$1 & direct$ ,jeff ,davis on ! l&1 f ! fir/ gun %ot1 at ,=t ,sumt]1 by ! rabid ,roman ,ca?olic1 ,beaureg>d4 ,!y are help+ him on ! sea1 by guid+ & support+ ! o!r rabid ,roman ,ca?olic pirate1 ,semmes1 on ! ocean4 ,& !y w help ! rebellion :5 fir+ _! la/ gun to %$ ! blood ( ! la/ soldi] ( ,lib]ty1 :o w fall 9 ?is fratricidal w>4 ,9 my int]view ) ,bi%op ,hughes1 ,i told him1 #8t e /rang] :o _h sworn allegiance to our gov]nm5t by becom+ a ,unit$ ,/ates citiz51 z himself1 0 liable to be %ot or hung z a p]jur$ traitor1 & an arm$ spy1 z ! s5t5ce ( ! c\rt m>tial may direct4 ,& he w be s %ot & hang$ accord+ly1 z !re w be no ex*ange ( su* prison]s4' ,aft] ,i _h put ?is flea 9 ! e>s ( ! ,romi% bi%op1 ,i reque/$ him to g & report my words to ! ,pope4 ,see+ ! dang]\s position ( 8 bi%ops & prie/s :5 sid+ ) ! rebels1 my hope 0 t he w\ld advise !m1 = _! own int]e/s1 to become loyal & true to _! allegiance & help u ?r\gh ! rema9+ "p ( ! w>4 ,b ! result has be5 ! v contr>y4 ,! ,pope has ?r[n away ! mask1 & %[n himself ! public p>tisan & ! protector ( ! rebellion1 by tak+ ,jeff ,davis by ! h&1 & impud5tly recogniz+ ! ,s\!rn ,/ates z a legitimate gov]nm5t4 ,n[1 ,i h ! pro( 9 h& t t v ,bi%op ,hughes1 :om ,i _h s5t to ,rome t he might induce ! ,pope to urge ! ,roman ,ca?olics ( ! ,nor? at lea/1 to be true to _! oa? ( allegiance1 & :om ,i ?ank$ publicly1 :51 "u ! impression t he _h act$ hone/ly1 accord+ to ! promise he _h giv5 me1 is ! v man :o advis$ ! ,pope to recognize ! legitimacy ( ! ,s\!rn ,republic1 & put ! :ole weight ( 8 ti>a 9 ! balance aga9/ u1 9 favor ( our enemies6 ,su* is ! p]fidy ( ^? ,jesuits4 ,two cank]s are bit+ ! v entrails ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 to-day3 ! ,romi% & ! ,mormon prie/s4 ,bo? are quietly at "w to =m a p ( ! mo/ abject1 ignorant & fanatical slaves1 :o w recognize no o!r au?ority b _! supreme pontiffs4 ,bo? are aim+ at ! de/ruction ( our s*ools1 to raise !mselves ^u our ru9s4 ,bo? %elt] !mselves "u our gr& & holy pr9ciples ( lib]ty ( consci5ce1 to de/roy t v lib]ty ( consci5ce1 & b9d ! _w be=e _! heavy & ignom9i\s yoke4 ,! ,mormon & ! ,jesuit prie/s are equally ! uncompromis+ enemies ( our con/itution & our laws2 b ! m dang]\s ( ! two is ! ,jesuit--! ,romi% prie/1 = he kn[s bett] h[ to conceal 8 hatr$ "u ! mask ( fri5d%ip & public good2 he is bett] tra9$ to commit ! mo/ cruel & diabolical de$s = ! glory ( ,god4 8,till lately1 ,i 0 9 favor ( ! unlimit$ lib]ty ( consci5ce1 z our con/itution gives x to ! ,roman ,ca?olics4 ,b n[1 x seems to me t1 soon] or lat]1 ! p w be =c$ to put a re/riction to t clause t[>ds ! ,papi/s4 ,is x n an act ( folly to give absolute lib]ty ( consci5ce to a set ( m5 :o are publicly sworn to cut our ?roats ! v day !y h _! opportunity = do+ x8 ,is x "r to give ! privilege ( citiz5%ip to m5 :o are ! sworn & public enemies ( our con/itution1 our laws1 our lib]ties1 & our lives8 8,! v mom5t t ,pop]y assum$ ! "r ( life & dea? on a citiz5 ( ,france1 ,spa91 ,g]many1 ,engl&1 or ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 x assum$ to be ! p[]1 9 ! gov]nm5t ( ,france1 ,spa91 ,engl&1 ,g]many1 & ! ,unit$ ,/ates4 ,^? /ates !n committ$ a suicidal act by all[+ ,pop]y to put a foot on _! t]ritory ) ! privilege ( citiz5%ip4 ,! p[] ( life & dea? is ! supreme p[]1 & two supreme p[]s _c exi/ on ! same t]ritory )\t an>*y1 riots1 blood%$ & civil w>s )\t end4 ,:5 ,pop]y w give up ! p[] ( life & dea? :i* x proclaims z its own div9e p[]1 9 all its !ological books & canon laws1 !n1 alone1 x c be tol]at$ & c receive ! privileges ( citiz5%ip1 9 a free c\ntry4 8,is x n an absurdity to give to a man a ?+ :i* he is sworn to hate1 curse & de/roy8 ,& does n ! ,*ur* ( ,rome hate1 curse & de/roy lib]ty ( consci5ce1 :5ev] %e c d x safely8 8,i am = lib]ty ( consci5ce 9 its noble/1 broade/1 highe/ s5se4 ,b ,i _c give lib]ty ( consci5ce to ! ,pope & to 8 foll[]s1 ! papi/s1 s long z !y tell me1 ?r\gh all _! c\ncils1 !ologians & canon laws1 t _! consci5ce ord]s !m to burn my wife1 /rangle my *ildr51 & cut my ?roat :5 !y f9d ! opportunity6 8,?is does n seem to be und]/ood by ! p1 to-day4 ,b soon] or lat]1 ! light ( common s5se w make x cle> to e "o1 t no lib]ty ( consci5ce c be grant$ to m5 :o are sworn to obey a ,pope1 :o pret5ds to h ! "r to put to dea? ^? :o diff] f him 9 religion4 ,y are n ! fir/ to w>n me aga9/ ! dang]s ( assass9ation4 ,my ambassadors 9 ,italy1 ,france & ,engl&1 z well z ,pr(essor ,morse1 h1 _m times1 w>n$ me aga9/ ! plots ( ! murd]]s :om !y h detect$ 9 ^? diff]5t c\ntries4 ,b ,i see no o!r safegu>d aga9/ ^? murd]]s1 b to be always ready to die1 z ,*ri/ advises x4 ,z we mu/ all die soon] or lat]1 x makes v little diff]5ce to me :e!r ,i die f a dagg] plung$ ?r\gh ! he>t or f an inflammation ( ! lungs4 ,let me tell y t ,i h1 lately1 read a passage 9 ! ,old ,te/am5t :i* has made a pr(\nd1 &1 ,i hope1 a salut>y impression on me4 ,"h is t passage40 ,! ,presid5t took 8 ,bible1 op5$ x at ! ?ird *apt] ( ,deut]onomy1 & read f ! #bbnd to ! #bh? v]se4 8#bb4 ,ye %all n fe> !m2 = ! ,"l y\r ,god %all fight = y4 8#bc4 ,& ,i bes\ght ! ,"l at t "t1 say+3 8#bd4 ,o ,"l ,god1 ?\ ha/ begun to %[ ?y s]vant ?y greatness1 & ?y mighty h&2 = :at ,god is !re1 9 heav5 or 9 e>?1 t c d accord+ to ?y words1 & accord+ to ?y might6 8#be4 ,i pray !e1 let me g ov] & see ! good l& t is beyond ,jordan1 t goodly m\nta91 & ,lebanon4 8#bf4 ,b ,god 0 wro? ) me = y\r sakes1 & w\ld n he> me3 & ! ,"l said unto me1 let x suffice !e3 speak no m unto me ( ?is matt]3 8#bg4 ,get !e up unto ! top ( ,pisgah1 & lift up ?9e eyes we/w>d & nor?w>d1 & s\?w>d & ea/w>d1 & behold x ) ?9e eyes3 = ?\ %alt n g ov] ?is ,jordan40 ,aft] ! ,presid5t _h read ^! words ) great solemnity1 he add$3 8,my ,de> ,fa!r ,*9iquy1 let me tell y t ,i h read ^! /range & beautiful words sev]al times1 ^! la/ five or six weeks4 ,! m ,i read !m1 ! m1 x seems to me t ,god has writt5 !m = me z well z = ,moses4 8,has he n tak5 me f my poor log cab9 by ! h&1 z he did ( ,moses 9 ! re$s ( ! ,nile1 to put me at ! head ( ! greate/ & ! mo/ bless$ ( mod]n nations1 j z he put t prophet at ! head ( ! mo/ bless$ nation ( anci5t times8 ,has n ,god grant$ me a privilege1 :i* 0 n grant$ to any liv+ man1 :5 ,i broke ! fett]s ( #d1jjj1jjj ( m51 & made !m free8 ,has n our ,god giv5 me ! mo/ glori\s victories ov] our enemies8 ,are n ! armies ( ! ,conf$]acy s r$uc$ to a h&ful ( m51 :5 comp>$ to :at !y 7 two ye>s ago2 t ! day is fa/ approa*+ :5 !y w h to surr5d]4 8,n[1 ,i see ! end ( ?is t]rible conflict1 ) ! same joy ( ,moses1 :5 at ! end ( 8 try+ =ty ye>s 9 ! wild]ness2 & ,i pray my ,god to grant me to see ! days ( peace & untold prosp]ity1 :i* w foll[ ?is cruel w>1 z ,moses ask$ ,god to see ! o!r side ( ,jordan & ent] ! ,promis$ ,l&4 ,b1 d y "k t ,i he> 9 my s\l1 z ! voice ( ,god1 giv+ me ! rebuke :i* 0 giv5 to ,moses8 8,yes6 e "t t my s\l goes to ,god to ask ! favor ( see+ ! o!r side ( ,jordan1 & eat+ ! fruits ( t peace1 aft] :i* ,i am long+ ) su* an unspeakable desire1 d y "k t !re is a /ill b solemn voice1 :i* tells me t ,i w see ^? ?+s only f a long di/ance1 & t ,i w be among ! dead1 :5 ! nation1 :i* ,god grant$ me to lead ?r\gh ^? awful trials1 w cross ! ,jordan1 & dwell 9 t ,l& ( ,promise1 :]e peace1 indu/ry1 happ9ess & lib]ty w make ev]yone happy1 & :y s8 ,because he has already giv5 me favors :i* he nev] gave1 ,i d>e say1 to any man 9 ^! latt] days4 8,:y did ,god ,almighty refuse to ,moses ! favor ( cross+ ! ,jordan1 & 'ent]+ ! ,promis$ ,l&8 ,x 0 on acc\nt ( 8 own nation's s9s6 ,t law ( div9e retribution & ju/ice1 by :i* "o mu/ suff] = ano!r1 is surely a t]rible my/]y4 ,b x is a fact :i* no man :o has any intellig5ce & k c d5y4 ,moses1 :o knew t law1 ?\gh he probably did n und]/& x bett] ?an we d1 calmly says to 8 p3 #8,god 0 wro? ) me = y\r sakes4' 8,b1 ?\gh we d n und]/& t my/]i\s & t]rible law1 we f9d x writt5 9 lett]s ( te>s & blood :]ev] we g4 ,we d n read a s+le page ( hi/ory1 )\t f9d+ und5iable traces ( its exi/5ce4 8,:]e is ! "m :o has n %$ te>s & suff]$ real tortures1 = h] *ildr5's sake8 8,:o is ! good k+1 ! wor?y emp]or1 ! gift$ *iefta91 :o h n suff]$ unspeakable m5tal agonies1 or ev5 dea?1 = _! p's sake8 8,is n our ,*ri/ian religion ! highe/ expression ( ! wisdom1 m]cy & love ( ,god6 ,b :at is ,*ri/ianity if n ! v inc>nation ( t et]nal law ( div9e ju/ice 9 our humanity8 8,:5 ,i look on ,moses1 alone1 sil5tly dy+ on ! ,m\nt ,pisgah1 ,i see t law1 9 "o ( its mo/ sublime human manife/ations1 & ,i am fill$ ) admiration & awe4 8,b :5 ,i consid] t law ( ju/ice1 & expiation 9 ! dea? ( ! ,j1 ! div9e ,son ( ,m>y1 on ! m\nta9 ( ,calv>y1 ,i rema9 mute 9 my adoration4 ,! spectacle ( ! crucifi$ "o :i* is be=e my eyes1 is m ?an sublime1 x is div9e6 ,moses di$ = 8 p's sake1 b ,*ri/ di$ = ! :ole _w's sake6 ,bo? di$ to fulfill ! same et]nal law ( ! div9e ju/ice1 ?\gh 9 a diff]5t measure4 8,n[1 w\ld x n be ! greate/ ( honors & privileges be/[$ ^u me1 if ,god1 9 8 inf9ite love1 m]cy & wisdom1 w\ld put me betwe5 8 fai?ful s]vant1 ,moses1 & 8 et]nal ,son1 ,jesus1 t ,i might die z !y did1 = my nation's sake6 8,my ,god alone kn[s :at ,i h already suff]$ = my de> c\ntry's sake4 ,b my fe> is t ! ju/ice ( ,god is n yet paid3 ,:5 ,i look ^u ! riv]s ( te>s & blood drawn by ! la%es ( ! m]ciless ma/]s f ! ve9s ( ! v he>t ( ^? millions ( def5celess slaves1 ^! two hundr$ ye>s3 ,:5 ,i rememb] ! agonies1 ! cries1 ! unspeakable tortures ( ^? un=tunate p to :i* ,i h1 to "s ext5t1 conniv$ ) s _m o!rs1 a "p ( my life1 ,i fe> t we are /ill f> f ! complete expiation4 ,= ! judgm5ts ( ,god are true & righte\s4 8,x seems to me t ! ,"l wants1 to-day1 z he want$ 9 ! days ( ,moses1 ano!r victim--a victim :i* he has himself *os51 ano9t$ & prep>$ = ! sacrifice1 by rais+ x above ! re/ ( 8 p4 ,i _c conceal f y t my impression is t ,i am ! victim4 ,s _m plots h already be5 made aga9/ my life1 t x is a real miracle t !y h all fail$1 :5 we consid] t ! great majority ( !m 7 9 ! h&s ( skillful ,roman ,ca?olic murd]]s1 evid5tly tra9$ by ,jesuits4 ,b c we expect t ,god w make a p]petual miracle to save my life8 ,i believe n4 ,! ,jesuits are s exp]t 9 ^? de$s ( blood1 t ,h5ry ,,iv4 said t x 0 impossible to escape !m1 & he became _! victim1 ?\gh he did all t c\ld be done to protect himself4 ,my escape f _! h&s1 s9ce ! lett] ( ! ,pope to ,jeff ,davis has %>p5$ a million ( dagg]s to pi]ce my brea/1 w\ld be m ?an a miracle4 8,b j z ! ,"l he>d no murmur f ! lips ( ,moses1 :5 he told him t he _h to die1 be=e cross+ ! ,jordan1 = ! s9s ( 8 p1 s ,i hope & pray t he w he> no murmur f me :5 ,i fall = my nation's sake4 8,! only two favors ,i ask ( ! ,"l1 are1 fir/1 t ,i may die = ! sacr$ cause 9 :i* ,i am engag$1 & :5 ,i am ! /&>d-be>] ( ! rights & lib]ties ( my c\ntry4 8,! second favor ,i ask f ,god1 is t my de> son1 ,rob]t1 :5 ,i am gone1 w be "o ( ^? :o lift up t flag ( ,lib]ty :i* w cov] my tomb1 & c>ry x ) honor & fidelity1 to ! end ( 8 life1 z 8 fa!r did1 surr\nd$ by ! millions :o w be call$ ) him to fight & die = ! def5ce & honor ( our c\ntry40 ,nev] _h ,i he>d su* sublime words4 ,nev] _h ,i se5 a human face s solemn & s prophet-l z ! face ( ! ,presid5t1 :5 utt]+ ^! ?+s4 ,e s5t5ce _h come to me z a hymn f heav51 rev]b]at$ by ! e*oes ( ! m\nta9s ( ,pisgah & ,calv>y4 ,i 0 beside myself4 ,ba!d 9 te>s1 ,i tri$ to say some?+1 b ,i c\ld n utt] a ^w4 ,i knew ! h\r to leave _h come1 ,i ask$ f ! ,presid5t p]mission to fall on my knees1 & pray ) him t 8 life might be sp>$2 & he knelt ) me4 ,b ,i pray$ m ) my te>s & sobs ?an ) my words4 ,!n ,i press$ 8 h& on my lips & ba!d x ) my te>s1 & ) a he>t fill$ ) an unspeakable desolation1 ,i bade him ,adieu6 ,x 0 = ! la/ "t6 ,= ! h\r 0 fa/ approa*+ :5 he 0 to fall by ! h& ( a ,jesuit assass91 = 8 nation's sake4 ,,*apt] ,,lxi4 ,,abraham ,,l9coln ,a ,,true ,,man ,,( ,,god1 ,,& ,a ,,true ,,disciple ,,( ,,! ,,gospel--,,8 ,,assass9ation ,,by ,,boo?--,,! ,,tool ,,( ,,! ,,prie/s--,,m>y ,,surratt',s ,,h\se--,,! ,,r5dezv\s ,,& ,,dwell+ ,,place ,,( ,,! ,,prie/s--,,john ,,surratt ,,secret$ ,,by ,,! ,,prie/s ,,aft] ,,! ,,murd] ,,( ,,l9coln--,,! ,,assass9ation ,,( ,,l9coln ,,kn[n ,,& ,,publi%$ ,,9 ,,! ,,t[n ,,?ree ,,h\rs ,,be=e ,,its ,,occurr5ce4 ,e "t ,i met ,presid5t ,l9coln1 ,i wond]$ h[ su* elevation ( ?\ght & su* *ildi% simplicity c\ld be f\nd 9 ! same man4 ,aft] my int]views ) him1 _m times1 ,i said to myself3 8,h[ c ?is rail-splitt] h s easily rais$ himself to ! highe/ range ( human ?\ght & philosophy80 ,! secret ( ?is 01 t ,l9coln _h sp5t a great "p ( 8 life at ! s*ool ( ,*ri/1 & t he _h m$itat$ 8 sublime tea*+s to an ext5t unsuspect$ by ! _w4 ,i f\nd 9 him1 ! mo/ p]fect type ( ,*ri/ianity ,i ev] met4 ,pr(ess$ly1 he 0 nei!r a /rict ,presbyt]ian1 nor a ,bapti/1 or a ,me?odi/2 b he 0 ! embodim5t ( all :i* is m p]fect & ,*ri/ian 9 !m4 ,8 religion 0 ! v ess5ce ( :at ,god wants 9 man4 ,x 0 f ,*ri/ himself1 he _h le>n$ to love 8 ,god & 8 neighbor1 z x 0 f ,*ri/ he _h le>n$ ! dignity & ! value ( man4 8,ye are all bre?r51 ! *ildr5 ( ,god10 0 8 great motto4 ,x 0 f ! ,gospel t he _h le>n$ 8 pr9ciples ( equality1 frat]nity & lib]ty1 z x 0 f ! ,gospel he _h le>n$ t sublime1 *ildi% simplicity1 :i*1 alone1 & =ev]1 won ! admiration & affection ( all ^? :o approa*$ him4 ,i c\ld cite _m facts to illu/rate ?is1 b ,i w give only "o1 n to be too long3 ,x is tak5 f ! memoirs ( ,mr4 ,bateman1 ,sup]9t5d5t ( ,public ,in/ruction = ! ,/ate ( ,ill9ois4 8,mr4 ,l9coln paus$2 = long m9utes1 8 features sur*>g$ ) emotion4 ,!n1 he rose & walk$ up & d[n ! reception-room1 9 ! ef=t to reta91 or rega9 8 self-possession4 ,/opp+1 at la/1 he said1 ) a trembl+ voice1 & 8 *eeks wet ) te>s3 8#8,i "k !re is a ,god1 & t ,he hates inju/ice & slav]y4 ,i see ! /orm com+1 & ,i "k t ,8 h& is 9 x4 ,if ,he has a place & "w = me1 & ,i ?9k ,he has1 ,i believe ,i am ready6 ,i am no?+1 b tru? is ev]y?+6 ,i "k ,i am "r1 because ,i "k t lib]ty is "r2 = ,*ri/ tea*es x1 & ,*ri/ is ,god4 ,i h told !m t a h\se divid$ aga9/ itself _c /&1 & t ,*ri/ & reason say ! same ?+1 & !y w f9d x s4 8#8,d\glas does n c>e :e!r slav]y is vot$ up or d[n4 ,b ,god c>es1 & humanity c>es1 & ,i c>e4 ,& ) ,god's help1 ,i w n fail4 ,i may n see ! end1 b x w come1 & ,i %all be v9dicat$2 & ^? m5 w see t !y h n read _! ,bible "r6 8#8,does x n appe> /range t m5 c ignore ! moral aspect ( ?is conte/4 ,a revelation c\ld n make x pla9] to me t slav]y1 or ! ,gov]nm5t1 mu/ be de/roy$4 ,! future w\ld be some?+ awful1 z ,i look at x1 b = ?is ,,rock on :i* ,i /& 7allud+ to ! ,gospel book he /ill held 9 8 h&74 ,x seems z if ,god _h borne ) slav]y until ! v tea*]s ( religion _h come to def5d x f ! ,bible1 & to claim = x a div9e "* & sanction4 ,& n[ ! cup ( iniquity is full1 & ! vials ( wra? w be p\r$ out4'0 ,mr4 ,bateman adds3 8,aft] ?is1 ! conv]sation 0 cont9u$ = a long "t4 ,ev]y?+ he said 0 ( a v deep1 t5d] & religi\s tone1 & all 0 t+$ ) a t\*+ melan*oly4 ,he repeat$ly ref]r$ to 8 conviction #8t ! day ( wra? 0 at h&1' & t he 0 to be an actor 9 ! /ruggle :i* w\ld end 9 ! ov]?r[ ( slav]y1 ?\gh he might n live to see ! end4 8,aft] fur!r ref]5ce to a belief 9 ,div9e ,provid5ce1 & ! fact ( ,god1 9 hi/ory1 ! conv]sation turn$ ^u pray]4 ,he freely /at$ 8 belief 9 ! duty1 privilege & efficacy ( pray]2 & he intimat$1 9 no unmi/akable t]ms1 t he _h s\ght1 9 t way1 ! div9e guidance & favor40 ,! effect ( ?is conv]sation ^u ! m9d ( ,mr4 ,bateman1 a ,*ri/ian g5tleman1 :om ,mr4 ,l9coln pr(\ndly respect$1 0 to conv9ce him t ,mr4 ,l9coln _h1 9 8 quiet way1 f\nd a pa? to ! ,*ri/ian /&-po9t2 t he _h f\nd ,god1 & re/$ on ! et]nal tru? ( ,god4 ,z ! two m5 7 ab\t to sep>ate1 ,mr4 ,bateman rem>k$3 8,i _h n suppos$ t y 7 accu/om$ to ?9k s mu* ^u ?is class ( subjects2 c]ta9ly y\r fri5ds1 g5]ally1 are ignorant ( ! s5tim5ts y h express$ to me40 ,he quickly repli$3 8,i "k !y are1 b ,i ?9k m on ^! subjects ?an ^u all o!rs1 & ,i h done s = ye>s2 & ,i am will+ y %\ld "k x40--,! ,inn] ,life ( ,l9coln1 by ,c>p5t]1 pages #aic-aie4 ,m ?an once1 ,i felt z if ,i 7 9 ! pres5ce ( on old prophet1 :5 li/5+ to 8 views ab\t ! future de/9ies ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates4 ,9 "o ( my la/ int]views ) him1 ,i 0 fill$ ) an admiration :i* x w\ld be difficult to express1 :5 ,i he>d ! foll[+ views & pr$ictions3 8,x is ) ! s\!rn lead]s ( ?is civil w>1 z ) ! big & small :eels ( our railroad c>s4 ,^? :o ignore ! laws ( me*anics are apt to ?9k t ! l>ge1 /rong & noisy :eels t !y see1 are ! motive p[]1 b !y are mi/ak54 ,! real motive p[] is n se52 x is noiseless & well conceal$ 9 ! d>k1 beh9d its iron walls4 ,! motive p[] are ! few well conceal$ pails ( wat] heat$ into /eam1 :i* is itself direct$ by ! noiseless1 small1 b un]r+ eng9e]'s f+]4 8,! common p see & he> ! big1 noisy :eels ( ! ,s\!rn ,conf$]acy's c>s1 !y call !m ,jeff ,davis1 ,lee1 ,toombs1 ,beaureg>d1 ,semmes1 etc41 & !y hone/ly ?9k t !y are ! motive p[]1 ! fir/ cause ( our tr\bles4 ,b x is a mi/ake4 ,! true motive p[] is secret$ beh9d ! ?ick walls ( ! ,vatican1 ! colleges & s*ools ( ! ,jesuits1 ! conv5ts ( ! nuns & ! confessional boxes ( ,rome4 8,!re is a fact :i* is too mu* ignor$ by ! ,am]ican p1 & ) :i* ,i am acqua9t$ only s9ce ,i became ,presid5t2 x is t ! be/1 ! lead+ families ( ! ,s\?1 h receiv$ _! education 9 great "p1 if n 9 :ole1 f ! ,jesuits & ! nuns4 ,h5ce ^? degrad+ pr9ciples ( slav]y1 pride1 cruelty1 :i* are z a second nature among s _m ( ^? p4 ,h5ce t /range want ( fair play1 humanity2 t implacable hatr$ aga9/ ! ideas ( equality & lib]ty1 z we f9d !m 9 ! ,gospel ( ,*ri/4 ,y d n ignore t ! fir/ settl]s ( ,l\isiana1 ,florida1 ,new ,mexico1 ,texas1 ,s\? ,cali=nia & ,miss\ri1 7 ,roman ,ca?olics1 & t _! fir/ tea*]s 7 ,jesuits4 ,x is true t ^? /ates h be5 conqu]$ or b\ght by u s9ce4 ,b ,rome _h put ! deadly virus ( h] anti-social & anti-*ri/ian maxims into ! ve9s ( ! p be=e !y became ,am]ican citiz5s4 ,un=tunately ! ,jesuits & ! nuns h 9 great "p rema9$ ! tea*]s ( ^? p s9ce4 ,!y h cont9u$1 9 a sil5t1 b mo/ efficaci\s way1 to spread _! hatr$ aga9/ our in/itutions1 our laws1 our s*ools1 our rights & our lib]ties1 9 su* a way1 t ?is t]rible conflict became unavoidable1 betwe5 ! ,nor? & ! ,s\?4 ,z ,i told y be=e1 x is to ,pop]y t we owe ?is t]rible civil w>4 8,i w\ld h laugh$ at ! man :o w\ld h told me t1 be=e ,i became ! ,presid5t4 ,b ,pr(essor ,morse has op5$ my eyes on t subject4 ,&1 n[1 ,i see t my/]y2 ,i und]/& t eng9e]+ ( hell :i*1 ?\gh n se51 nor ev5 suspect$ by ! c\ntry1 is putt+ 9 motion ! l>ge1 heavy & noisy :eels ( ! /ate c>s ( ! ,s\!rn ,conf$]acy4 8,our p is n yet ready to le>n & believe ^? ?+s1 & p]haps x is n ! prop] "t to initiate !m to ^? d>k my/]ies ( hell2 x w\ld ?r[ oil on a fire :i* is already suffici5tly de/ructive4 8,y are almo/ ! only "o ) :om ,i speak freely on t subject4 ,b soon] or lat]1 ! nation w "k ! real orig9 ( ^? riv]s ( blood & te>s1 :i* are spread+ desolation & dea? ev]y:]e4 ,&1 !n1 ^? :o h caus$ ^? desolations & disa/]s w be call$ to give an acc\nt ( !m4 8,i d n pret5d to be a prophet4 ,b ?\gh n a prophet1 ,i see a v d>k cl\d on our horizon4 ,& t d>k cl\d is com+ f ,rome4 ,x is fill$ ) te>s ( blood4 ,x w rise & increase1 till its flanks w be torn by a fla% ( lightn+1 foll[$ by a fe>ful peal ( ?und]4 ,!n a cyclone su* z ! _w has nev] se51 w pass ov] ?is c\ntry1 spread+ ru9 & desolation f nor? to s\?4 ,aft] x is ov]1 !re w be long days ( peace & prosp]ity3 = ,pop]y1 ) its ,jesuits & m]ciless ,inquisition1 w h be5 =ev] swept away f our c\ntry4 ,nei!r ,i nor y1 b our *ildr51 w see ^? ?+s40 ,_m ( ^? :o approa*$ ,abraham ,l9coln felt t !re 0 a prophetic _s 9 him1 & t he 0 cont9ually walk+ & act+ ) ! ?\ght ( ,god 9 8 m9d1 & _h only 9 view to d 8 w & "w = 8 glory4 ,speak+ ( ! slaves1 he said1 "o day1 be=e ! memb]s ( 8 cab9et3 8,i h n decid$ aga9/ a proclamation ( lib]ty to ! slaves1 b ,i hold ! matt] "u advisem5t4 ,& ,i c assure y t ! subject is on my m9d1 by day & by night1 m ?an any o!r4 ,:atev] %all appe> to be ,god's w1 ,i w d40--,six ,mon?s 9 ! ,:ite ,h\se1 by ,c>p5t]1 page #hf4 ,a few days be=e t proclamation1 he said1 be=e sev]al ( 8 c\nsellors3 8,i made a solemn v[ be=e ,god1 t if ,g5]al ,lee 0 driv5 back f ,p5nsylvania1 ,i w\ld cr[n ! result by ! decl>ation ( fre$om to ! slaves40--,six ,mon?s 9 ! ,:ite ,h\se4 ,b ,i w\ld h volumes to write1 in/ead ( a %ort *apt]1 7 ,i to give all ! facts ,i h collect$ ( ! s9c]e & pr(\nd piety ( ,abraham ,l9coln4 ,i _c1 h[ev]1 omit 8 admirable & solemn act ( fai? 9 ! et]nal ju/ice ( ,god1 z express$ 9 ! clos+ words ( 8 la/ inaugural address ( ! #d? ( ,m>*1 #ahfe4 8,fondly d we hope1 f]v5tly d we pray1 t ?is mighty sc\rge ( w> may spe$ily pass away4 ,yet1 if ,god wills t x cont9ue until all ! weal? pil$ by ! bondman's #bej ye>s ( unrequit$ toil %all be sunk1 & until e drop ( blood drawn by ! la% %all be paid by ano!r drawn by ! sword1 z 0 said #c1jjj ye>s ago1 s1 /ill1 x mu/ be said3 #8,! judgm5ts ( ! ,"l are true & righte\s altoge!r4'0 ,^! sublime words1 fall+ f ! lips ( ! greate/ ,*ri/ian :om ,god ev] put at ! head ( a nation1 only a few days be=e 8 m>tyrdom1 s5t a ?rill ( wond] ?r\gh ! :ole _w4 ,! ,god-fe>+ p & ! upright ( e nation li/5$ to !m z if !y _h j come f ! gold5 h>p ( ,david4 ,ev5 ! infidels rema9$ mute ) admiration & awe4 ,x seem$ to all t ! e*oes ( heav5 & e>? 7 repeat+ t la/ hymn1 fall+ f ! he>t ( ! noble/ & true/ ,gospel man ( our days3 8,! judgm5ts ( ! ,"l are true & righte\s altoge!r40 ,! #f? ( ,april1 #ahfe1 ,presid5t ,l9coln 0 invit$ by ,g5]al ,grant to ent] ,ri*mond1 ! capital ( ! rebel /ates1 :i* he _h j captur$4 ,! n9?1 ! beat5 army ( ,lee1 surr\nd$ by ! victori\s legions ( ! soldi]s ( ,lib]ty1 7 =c$ to lay d[n _! arms & _! bann]s at ! feet ( ! g5]als ( ,l9coln4 ,! t5?1 ! victori\s ,presid5t address$ an imm5se multitude ( ! citiz5s ( ,wa%+ton1 to invite !m to ?ank ,god & ! armies = ! glori\s victories ( ! la/ few days1 & = ! bless$ peace :i* 0 to foll[ ^! five ye>s ( slaught]4 ,b he 0 on ! top ( ! m\nta9 ,pisgah1 & ?\gh he _h f]v5tly pray$ t he might cross ! ,jordan1 & ent] ) 8 p into ! ,l& ( ,promise1 aft] :i* he _h s (t5 sigh$1 he 0 n to see 8 reque/ grant$4 ,! answ] _h come f heav53 8,y w n cross ! ,jordan1 & y w n ent] t ,promis$ ,l&1 :i* is !re1 s ne>4 ,y mu/ die = y\r nation's sake60 ! lips1 ! he>t & s\l ( ! ,new ,moses 7 /ill repeat+ ! sublime words3 8,! judgm5ts ( ! ,"l are true & righte\s altoge!r10 :5 ! ,jesuit assass91 ,boo?1 murd]$ him1 ! #ad? ( ,april1 #ahfe1 at #aj o'clock ,p4 ,m4 ,let u he> ! eloqu5t hi/orian1 ,abbott1 on t sad ev5t3 8,9 ! mid/ ( unp>allel$ success1 & :ile all ! bells ( ! l& 7 r++ ) joy1 a calamity fell ^u u :i* ov]:elm$ ! c\ntry 9 con/]nation & awe4 ,on ,friday ev5+1 ,april #ad?1 ,presid5t ,l9coln att5d$ ,=d's ,!atre1 9 ,wa%+ton4 ,he 0 sitt+ quietly 9 8 box1 li/5+ to ! drama1 :5 a man ent]$ ! door ( ! lobby lead+ to ! box1 clos+ ! door beh9d him4 ,draw+ ne> to ! ,presid5t1 he drew f 8 pocket a small pi/ol1 & %ot him 9 ! back ( ! head4 ,z ! ,presid5t fell1 s5seless & mortally w\nd$1 & ! %riek ( 8 wife1 :o 0 seat$ at 8 side1 pi]c$ e e>1 ! assass9 leap$ f ! box1 a p]p5dicul> height ( n9e feet1 &1 z he ru%$ across ! /age1 b>e-head$1 br&i%$ a dagg]1 exclaim+1 #8sic semp] tyrannis6' & disappe>$ beh9d ! side sc5es4 ,!re 0 a mom5t ( sil5t con/]nation4 ,!n ensu$ a sc5e ( confusion :i* x is 9 va9 to attempt to describe4 8,! dy+ ,presid5t 0 tak5 into a h\se ne> by1 & plac$ ^u a b$4 ,:at a sc5e did t room pres5t6 ,! *ief ( a mighty nation lay1 !re1 s5seless1 dr5*$ 9 blood1 8 bra9s ooz+ f 8 w\nds6 ,sumn]1 ,f>well & ,colfax & ,/anton1 & _m o!rs 7 !re1 fill$ ) grief & con/]nation4 8,! surgeon1 ,g5]al ,b>nes1 solemnly exam9$ ! w\nd4 ,!re 0 sil5ce z ( ! grave1 ! life & dea? ( ! nation seem$ dep5d5t on ! result4 ,g5]al ,b>nes look$ up sadly & said3 #8,! w\nd is mortal6' '8#8,oh6 ,no6 ,g5]al1 no6 no6' cri$ out ,secret>y ,/anton1 & s9k+ into a *air1 he cov]$ 8 face1 & wept l a *ild4 ,s5ator ,sumn] t5d]ly held ! head ( ! unconsci\s m>tyr4 8,?\gh all unus$ to weep1 he sobs z ?\gh 8 great he>t w\ld break4 ,9 8 angui%1 8 head falls ^u ! blood/a9$ pill[1 & 8 black locks bl5d ) ^? ( ! dy+ victim1 :i* c>e & toil has r5d]$ gray1 & :i* blood has crimson$4 ,:at a sc5e6 ,sumn]1 :o _h l+]$ ?r\gh mon?s ( agony1 hav+ himself be5 /rick5 d[n by ! bludgeon ( slav]y1 n[ sobb+ & fa9t+ 9 angui% ov] ! pro/rate =m ( 8 fri5d1 :om slav]y _h sla96 ,?is vile rebellion1 aft] delug+ ! l& ) blood1 has culm9at$ 9 a crime :i* appalls all nations4 8,noble ,abraham1 true desc5dant ( ! fa!r ( ! fai?ful2 hone/ 9 e tru/1 humble z a *ild1 t5d]-he>t$ z a woman1 :o c\ld n be> to injure ev5 8 mo/ env5om$ foes2 :o 9 ! h\r ( triumph1 0 sadd5$ le/ ! feel+s ( 8 adv]s>ies %\ld be w\nd$ by _! defeat1 ) #8*>ity = all1 malice t[>ds none1' end[$ ) #8common s5se1' intellig5ce nev] surpass$1 & ) p[] ( intellect :i* enabl$ him to grapple ) ! mo/ gigantic oppon5ts 9 debates1 develop+ abilities z a /atesman1 :i* won ! gratitude ( 8 c\ntry & ! admiration ( ! _w1 & ) graces & amiabilities :i* drew to him all g5]\s he>ts2 dies by ! bullet ( ! assass960--,hi/ory ( ! ,civil ,w>1 by ,abbott1 vol4 ii41 page #eid4 ,b :o 0 t assass98 ,boo? 0 no?+ b ! tool ( ! ,jesuits4 ,x 0 ,rome :o direct$ 8 arm1 aft] corrupt+ 8 he>t & damn+ 8 s\l4 ,aft] ,i _h mix$ my te>s ) ^? ( ! gr& c\ntry ( my adoption1 ,i fell on my knees & ask$ my ,god to grant me to %[ to ! _w :at ,i knew to be ! tru?1 viz43 t t horrible crime 0 ! "w ( ,pop]y4 ,&1 aft] tw5ty ye>s ( con/ant & mo/ difficult rese>*es1 ,i come fe>lessly1 to-day1 be=e ! ,am]ican p1 to say & prove t ! ,presid5t1 ,abraham ,l9coln1 0 assass9at$ by ! prie/s & ! ,jesuits ( ,rome4 ,9 ! book ( ! te/imonies giv5 9 ! prosecution ( ! assass9 ( ,l9coln1 publi%$ by ,b54 ,pitman1 & 9 ! two volumes ( ! trial ( ,john ,surratt 9 #ahfg1 we h ! legal & irrefutable pro( t ! plot ( ! assass9s ( ,l9coln 0 matur$1 if n />t$1 9 ! h\se ( ,m>y ,surratt1 ,no4 #efa ,h ,/reet1 ,wa%+ton ,city1 ,d4 ,c4 ,b :o 7 liv+ 9 t h\se1 & :o 7 visit+ t family8 ,! legal answ] says3 8,! mo/ devot$ ,ca?olics 9 ! city60 ,! sworn te/imonies %[ m ?an t4 ,!y %[ t x 0 ! common r5dezv\s ( ! prie/s ( ,wa%+ton4 ,sev]al prie/s swe> t !y 7 go+ !re 8"s times10 & :5 press$ to answ] :at !y meant by 8"s times10 !y 7 n sure if x 0 n once a week1 or once a mon?4 ,"o ( !m1 less on 8 gu>d1 swore t he seldom pass$ be=e t h\se )\t ent]+2 & he said he nev] pass$ less ?an once a week4 ,! devot$ ,roman ,ca?olic 7an apo/ate f ,prote/antism7 call$ ,l4 ,j4 ,wei*man1 :o 0 himself liv+ 9 t h\se1 swe>s t ,fa!r ,wiget 0 v (t5 9 t h\se1 & ,fa!r ,lahiman swe>s t he 0 liv+ ) ,mrs4 ,surratt1 9 ! same h\se6 99 99 99 99 ,:at does ! pres5ce ( s _m prie/s1 9 t h\se1 reveal to ! _w8 ,no man ( common s5se1 :o kn[s any?+ ab\t ! prie/s ( ,rome1 c ent]ta9 any d\bt t1 n only !y knew all t 0 go+ on inside ^? walls1 b t !y 7 ! advis]s1 ! c\nselors1 ! v s\l ( t inf]nal plot4 ,:y did ,rome keep "o ( h] prie/s "u t ro(1 f morn+ till night1 & f night till morn+8 ,:y did %e s5d _m o!rs1 almo/ e day ( ! week1 into t d>k ne/ ( plott]s aga9/ ! v exi/5ce ( ! great republic1 & aga9/ ! life ( h] ,presid5t1 h] pr9cipal g5]als & lead+ m51 if x 7 n to be ! advis]s1 ! rul]s1 ! secret motive p[] ( ! inf]nal plot4 ,no "o1 if he is n an idiot1 w ?9k & say t ^? prie/s1 :o 7 ! p]sonal fri5ds & ! fa!r confessors ( ,boo?1 ,john ,surratt1 ,mrs4 & ,misses ,surratt1 c\ld be con/antly !re )\t kn[+ :at 0 go+ on1 p>ticul>ly :5 we "k t e "o ( ^? prie/s1 0 a rabid rebel 9 he>t4 ,e "o ( ^? prie/s1 kn[+ t 8 infallible ,pope _h call$ ,jeff ,davis 8 de> son1 & _h tak5 ! ,s\!rn ,conf$]acy "u 8 protection1 0 b\nd to believe t ! mo/ holy ?+ a man c\ld d1 0 to fight = ! ,s\!rn cause1 by de/roy+ ^? :o 7 its enemies4 ,read ! hi/ory ( ! assass9ation ( ,admiral ,coligny1 ,h5ry ,,iii4 & ,h5ry ,,iv41 & ,william ! ,taciturn1 by ! hir$ assass9s ( ! ,jesuits2 comp>e !m ) ! assass9ation ( ,abraham ,l9coln1 & y w f9d t "o resembles ! o!r z "o drop ( wat] resembles ano!r4 ,y w und]/& t !y all come f ! same s\rce1 ,rome6 ,9 all ^? murd]s1 y w f9d t ! murd]]s1 select$ & tra9$ by ! ,jesuits1 7 ( ! mo/ exalt$ ,roman ,ca?olic piety1 liv+ 9 ! company ( prie/s1 go+ to confess v (t51 receiv+ ! communion ! day be=e1 if n ! v day ( ! murd]4 ,y w see 9 all ^? horrible de$s ( hell1 prep>$ beh9d ! d>k walls ( ! holy inquisition1 t ! assass9s 7 consid]+ !mselves z ! *os5 in/rum5ts ( ,god1 to save ! nation by /rik+ its tyrant2 t !y firmly believ$ t !re 0 no s9 9 kill+ ! enemy ( ! p1 ( ! holy *ur*1 & ( ! infallible ,pope6 ,comp>e ! la/ h\rs ( ! ,jesuit ,ravaillac1 ! assass9 ( ,h5ry ,,vi41 :o absolutely refuses to rep5t1 ?\gh suff]+ ! mo/ horrible tortures on ! rack1 ) ,boo?1 :o1 suff]+ also ! mo/ horrible tortures f 8 brok5 leg1 writes 9 8 daily memor&um1 ! v day be=e 8 dea?3 8,i c nev] rep5t1 ?\gh we hat$ to kill4 ,our c\ntry ow$ all our tr\bles to him 7,l9coln71 & ,god simply made me ! in/rum5t ( 8 puni%m5t40--,trial ( ,surratt1 vol4 i41 page #caj4 ,yes6 ,comp>e ! bloody de$s ( ^? two assass9s1 & y w see t !y _h be5 tra9$ 9 ! same s*ool2 !y _h be5 taught by ! same tea*]s4 ,evid5tly ! ,jesuit ,ravaillac1 call+ all ! sa9ts ( heav5 to 8 help1 at 8 la/ h\r2 & ,boo? press+ ! m$al ( ! ,virg9 ,m>y on 8 brea/1 :5 fall+ mortally w\nd$ 7,trial ( ,surratt1 page #caj71 bo? came f ! same ,jesuit m\ld4 ,:o has lo/ 8 common s5se en\gh to suppose t x 0 ,jeff ,davis :o _h fill$ ! m9d & ! he>t ( ,boo? ) t religi\s & s exalt$ fanaticism6 ,surely ,jeff ,davis c\ld h promis$ ! money to rew>d ! assass9s & n]ve _! arms by ! hope ( becom+ ri*4 ,! te/imonies on t acc\nt says t "o million doll>s _h be5 ask$ f him4 7,assass9ation ( ,abraham ,l9coln1 p4 #ea-eb47 ,! ar*-rebel c\ld give ! money2 b ! ,jesuits alone c\ld select ! assass9s1 tra9 !m1 & %[ !m a cr[n ( glory 9 heav51 if !y w\ld kill ! au?or ( ! blood%$1 ! fam\s r5egade & apo/ate--! enemy ( ! ,pope & ( ! ,*ur*--,l9coln4 ,:o does n see ! lessons giv5 by ! ,jesuits to ,boo?1 9 _! daily int]c\rse 9 ,m>y ,surratt's h\se1 :5 he reads ^? l9es writt5 by ,boo? a few h\rs be=e 8 dea?3 8,i c nev] rep5t1 ,god made me ! in/rum5t ( 8 puni%m5t60 ,comp>e ^! words ) ! doctr9es & pr9ciples taught by ! c\ncils1 ! decrees ( ! ,pope1 & ! laws ( holy inquisition1 z y f9d !m 9 *apt] #ee ( ?is volume1 & y w f9d t ! s5tim5ts & belief ( ,boo? fl[ f ^? pr9ciples1 z ! riv] fl[s f its s\rce4 ,& t pi\s ,miss ,surratt :o1 ! v next day aft] ! murd] ( ,l9coln1 said1 )\t be+ rebuk$1 9 ! pres5ce ( sev]al o!r witnesses3 8,! dea? ( ,abraham ,l9coln is no m ?an ! dea? ( any nigg] 9 ! army10 :]e did %e get t maxim1 if n f h] *ur*6 ,_h n t *ur* rec5tly proclaim$1 ?r\gh h] highe/ legal & civil au?ority1 ! devot$ ,roman ,ca?olic1 ,judge ,taney1 9 8 ,dr$-,scott decision1 t negroes h no "r1 :i* ! :ite is b\nd to respect6 ,by br++ ! ,presid5t on a level ) ! l[e/ nigg]1 ,rome 0 say+ t he _h no "r1 ev5 to 8 life2 = ?is 0 ! maxim ( ! rebel prie/s1 :o1 ev]y:]e1 _h made !mselves ! e*oes ( ! s5t5ce ( _! di/+ui%$ co-religioni/--,taney4 ,x 0 f ! v lips ( ! prie/s1 :o 7 con/antly com+ 9 & go+ out ( _! h\se1 t ^? "y ladies _h le>n$ ^? anti-social & anti-*ri/ian doctr9es4 ,read 9 ! te/imony conc]n+ ,mrs4 ,m>y ,e4 ,surratt1 7p4 #abb-abc7 h[ ! ,jesuits _h p]fectly drill$ h] 9 ! art ( p]jur+ h]self4 ,9 ! v mom5t :5 ! gov]nm5t (fic] ord]s h] to prep>e h]self1 ) h] daught]1 to foll[ him z prison]s1 at ab\t #aj ,p4 ,m41 ,payne1 ! w\ld-be murd]] ( ,sew>d1 knocks at ! door & wants to see ,mrs4 ,surratt4 ,b in/ead ( hav+ ,mrs4 ,surratt to op5 ! door1 he f9ds himself confront$1 face to face1 ) ! gov]nm5t detective1 ,major ,smi?1 :o swe>s3 8,i que/ion$ him 9 reg>d to 8 occupation1 & :at bus9ess he _h at ! h\se1 at ?is late h\r ( ! night4 ,he /at$ t he 0 a labor]1 & _h come to dig a gutt]1 at ! reque/ ( ,mrs4 ,surratt4 8,i w5t to ! p>lor door1 & said3 #8,mrs4 ,surratt1 w y /ep "h a m9ute8' ,%e came out1 & ,i ask$ h]3 #8,d y "k ?is man1 & did y hire him to come & dig a gutt] = y8' ,%e answ]$1rais+ h] "r h&2 #8,be=e ,god1 sir1 ,i d n "k ?is man1 ,i h nev] se5 him1 & ,i did n hire him to dig a gutt] = me4'--,assass9ation ( ,l9coln1 p4 #abb4 ,b x 0 prov$ aft]1 by sev]al unimpea*able witnesses1 t %e knew v well t ,payne 0 a p]sonal fri5d ( h] son1 :o1 _m times1 _h come to h] h\se1 9 company ( 8 fri5d & pet1 ,boo?4 ,%e _h receiv$ ! communion j two or ?ree days be=e t public p]jury4 ,j a mom5t aft] mak+ x1 ! (fic] ord]$ h] to /ep out into ! c>riage4 ,be=e do+ x1 %e ask$ p]mission to kneel d[n & pray2 :i* 0 grant$ 7page #abc47 ,i ask x f any man ( common s5se1 c\ld ,jeff ,davis h imp>t$ su* a religi\s calm1 & self-possession to t woman1 :5 h] h&s 7 j r$d5$ ) ! blood ( ! ,presid5t1 & %e 0 on h] way to trial6 ,no6 su* sang froid1 su* calm 9 t s\l1 9 su* a t]rible & solemn h\r1 c\ld only come f ! tea*+s ( ^? ,jesuits :o1 = m ?an six mon?s1 7 9 h] h\se1 %[+ h] a cr[n ( et]nal glory1 if %e w\ld help to kill ! mon/] apo/ate--,l9coln--! only cause ( t horrible civil w>6 ,!re is n ! lea/ d\bt t ! prie/s _h p]fectly succe$$ 9 p]suad+ ,m>y ,surratt & ,boo? t ! kill+ ( ,l9coln 0 a mo/ holy & des]v+ "w1 = :i* ,god _h an et]nal rew>d 9 /ore4 ,!re is a fact to :i* ! ,am]ican p h n yet giv5 a suffici5t att5tion4 ,x is1 t1 )\t a s+le exception1 ! conspirators 7 ,roman ,ca?olics4 ,! le>n$ & great patriot1 ,g5]al ,bak]1 9 8 admirable report1 /ruck & bewild]$ by t /range1 my/]i\s & port5t\s fact1 said3 8,i m5tion1 z an exceptional & rem>kable fact1 t e conspirator 9 cu/ody1 is1 by education1 a ,ca?olic40 ,b ^? words :i*1 if well und]/ood by ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 w\ld h ?r[n s mu* light on ! true causes ( _! untold & unspeakable disa/]s1 fell z if on ! e>s ( deaf m54 ,v few1 if any1 paid att5tion to !m4 ,z ,g5]al ,bak] says1 all ! conspirators 7 att5d+ ,ca?olic ,*ur* s]vices1 & 7 educat$ ,roman ,ca?olics4 ,x is true t "s ( !m1 z ,atz]o?1 ,payne & ,h>old1 ask$ = ,prote/ant m9i/]s1 :5 !y 7 to be hung4 ,b !y _h be5 consid]$1 till !n1 z conv]ts to ,romanism4 ,at page #dcf1 ( ,! ,trial ( ,john ,surratt1 ,l\is ,wei*man tells u t he 0 go+ to ,/4 ,aloys9's ,*ur* ) ,atz]o?1 & t x 0 !re t he introduc$ him to ,mr4 ,bro?y 7ano!r ,roman ,ca?olic74 ,x is a well au!nticat$ fact1 t ,boo? & ,wei*man1 :o 7 !mselves ,prote/ant p]v]ts to ,romanism1 _h proselytiz$ a good numb] ( semi-,prote/ants & infidels :o1 ei!r f conviction1 or f hope ( ! =tunes promis$ to ! successful murd]]s1 7 !mselves v zeal\s = ! ,*ur* ( ,rome4 ,payne1 ,atz]o? & ,h>old 7 among ^? proselytes4 ,b :5 ^? murd]]s 7 to appe> be=e ! c\ntry1 & receive ! j puni%m5t ( _! crime1 ! ,jesuits 7 too %rewd to ignore t if !y 7 all com+ on ! scaffold z ,roman ,ca?olics1 & accompani$ by _! fa!r confessors1 x w\ld1 at once1 op5 ! eyes ( ! ,am]ican p1 & cle>ly %[ t ?is 0 a ,roman ,ca?olic plot4 ,!y p]suad$ ?ree ( _! proselytes to avail !mselves ( ! !ological pr9ciples ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 t a man is all[$ to conceal 8 religion1 nay1 t he may say t he is an h]etic1 a ,prote/ant1 ?\gh he is a ,roman ,ca?olic1 :5 x is = 8 own int]e/ or ! be/ int]e/s ( 8 *ur* to conceal ! tru? & deceive ! p4 ,"h is ! doctr9e ( ,rome on t subject3 8,soepe melius e/ ad dei honorem1 et utiliatatem proximi1 teg]e fidem quam frat]i1 ut si lat5s int] h]ticos1 plus boni facis2 vel si ex confessione fidei1 plus mali sequ]etur1 v]bi gratia turbatio1 neces1 exac]botio tyrannis40--,lig\ri ,!ologia1 b4 ii41 *ap4 iii41 p4 #f4 8,x is (t5 m to ! glory ( ,god & ! good ( our neighbor to conceal our religi\s fai?1 z :5 we live among h]etics1 we c m easily d !m good 9 t way2 or if by decl>+ our religion1 we cause "s di/urbances1 or dea?s1 or ev5 ! wra? ( ! tyrant40 ,x is evid5t t ! ,jesuits _h nev] _h bett] reasons to suspect t ! decl>ation ( _! religion w\ld damage !m & excite ! wra? ( _! tyrant1 viz3 ! ,am]ican p4 ,lloyd's1 9 ^: h\se ,mrs4 ,surratt conceal$ ! c>b9e :i* ,boo? want$ = protection1 :5 j aft] ! murd] he 0 to flee t[>ds ! ,s\!rn ,/ates1 0 a firm ,roman ,ca?olic4 ,dr4 ,nudd1 at ^: place ,boo? /opp$1 to h 8 brok5 leg dress$1 0 a ,roman ,ca?olic1 & s 0 ,g>rett1 9 ^: b>n ,boo? 0 caught & kill$4 ,:y s8 ,because1 z ,jeff ,davis 0 ! only man to pay "o million doll>s to ^? :o w\ld kill ,abraham ,l9coln1 ! ,jesuits 7 ! only m5 to select ! murd]]s & prep>e ev]y?+ to protect !m aft] _! diabolical de$1 & su* murd]]s c\ld n be f\nd except among _! bl9d & fanatical slaves4 ,! great1 ! fatal mi/ake ( ! ,am]ican ,gov]nm5t 9 ! prosecution ( ! assass9s ( ,abraham ,l9coln 0 to con/antly keep out ( sight ! religi\s elem5t ( t t]rible drama4 ,no?+ w\ld h be5 m easy1 !n1 ?an to f9d out ! complicity ( ! prie/s1 :o 7 n only com+ e week & e day1 b :o 7 ev5 liv+ 9 t d5 ( murd]]s4 ,b ?is 0 c>efully avoid$ f ! beg9n+ to ! end ( ! trial4 ,:51 n long aft] ! execution ( ! murd]]s1 ,i w5t1 incognito1 to ,wa%+ton to beg9 my inve/igation ab\t its real & true au?ors1 ,i 0 n a little surpris$ to see t n a s+le "o ( ! gov]nm5t m51 to :om ,i address$ myself1 w\ld cons5t to h any talk ) me on t matt]1 except aft] ,i _h giv5 my ^w ( honor t ,i w\ld nev] m5tion _! names 9 connection ) ! result ( my inve/igation4 ,i saw1 ) a pr(\nd di/ress1 t ! influ5ce ( ,rome 0 almo/ supreme 9 ,wa%+ton4 ,i c\ld n f9d a s+le /atesman :o w\ld d>e to face t nef>i\s influ5ce & fight x d[n1 except ,g5]al ,bak]4 ,sev]al ( ! gov]nm5t m51 9 :om ,i _h m confid5ce1 told me3 8,we _h n ! lea/ d\bt t ! ,jesuits 7 at ! bottom ( t great iniquity2 we ev5 fe>$1 sometimes1 t ?is w\ld come out s cle>ly be=e ! milit>y tribunal1 t !re w\ld be no possibility ( keep+ x out ( ! public sight4 ,?is 0 n ?r\gh c[>dice1 z y ?9k1 b ?r\gh a wisdom :i* y ought to approve1 if y c n admire x4 ,_h we be5 9 days ( peace1 we "k t ) a little m pressure on ! witnesses1 _m prie/s w\ld h be5 compromis$2 = ,mrs4 ,surratt's h\se 0 _! common r5dezv\s2 x is m ?an probable t sev]al ( !m might h be5 hung4 ,b ! civil w> 0 h>dly ov]4 ,! ,conf$]acy1 ?\gh brok5 d[n1 0 /ill liv+ 9 millions ( he>ts2 murd]]s & =midable elem5ts ( discord 7 /ill se5 ev]y:]e1 to :i* ! hang+ or exil+ ( ^? prie/s w\ld h giv5 a new life4 ,riots aft] riots w\ld h accompani$ & foll[$ _! execution4 ,we ?\ght we _h _h en\gh ( blood1 fires1 deva/ations & bad feel+s4 ,we 7 all long+ aft] days ( peace2 ! c\ntry 0 9 ne$ ( !m4 ,we conclud$ t ! be/ int]e/s ( humanity 0 to puni% only ^? :o 7 publicly & visibly guilty2 t ! v]dict might receive ! approbation ( all1 )\t creat+ any new bad feel+s4 ,all[ u also to tell y t ?is policy 0 t ( our late ,presid5t4 ,= y "k x well1 !re 0 no?+ :i* t great & good man fe>$ s mu* z to arm ! ,prote/ants aga9/ ! ,ca?olics & ! ,ca?olics aga9/ ! ,prote/ants40 ,b if any "o has /ill any d\bts ( ! complicity ( ! ,jesuits1 9 ! murd] ( ,abraham ,l9coln1 let !m give a mom5t ( att5tion to ! foll[+ facts1 & _! d\bts w be =ev] remov$4 ,x is only f ! v ,jesuit accomplice's lips t ,i take my sworn te/imonies4 ,x is evid5t t a v elaborate plan ( escape _h be5 prep>$ by ! prie/s ( ,rome1 to save ! lives ( ! assass9s & ! conspirators4 ,x w\ld be too long to foll[ all ! murd]]s :51 ,ca9-l1 !y 7 flee+ 9 e direction to escape ! v5geance ( ,god & man4 ,let u fix our eyes on ,john ,surratt1 :o 0 9 ,wa%+ton on ! #ad? ( ,april1 help+ ,boo? 9 ! p]petration ( ! assass9ation4 ,:o w take c>e ( him8 ,:o w protect & conceal him8 ,:o w press him on _! bosoms1 put _! mantles on 8 %\ld]s to conceal him f ! j v5geance ( ! human & div9e laws8 ,! prie/1 ,*>les ,b\*] 7,trial ( ,john ,surratt1 vol4 ii41 page #ijd-iab71 swe>s t only a few days aft] ! murd]1 ,john ,surratt 0 s5t to him by ,fa!r ,lapi]re1 ( ,montreal2 t he kept him conceal$ 9 8 p>sonage ( ,/4 ,liboire1 f ! end ( ,april to ! end ( ,july1 !n he took him back1 secretly1 to ,fa!r ,lapi]re1 :o kept him secret$ 9 8 own fa!r's h\se1 "u ! v %ad[ ( ! ,montreal bi%op's palace4 ,he swe>s 7p4 #ije-iad7 t ,fa!r ,lapi]re visit$ him 7,surratt7 (t51 :5 secret$ at ,/4 ,liboire1 & t he 7,fa!r ,b\*]7 visit$ him1 at lea/ twice a week1 f ! end ( ,july to ,septemb]1 :5 conceal$ 9 ,fa!r ,lapi]re's h\se 9 ,montreal4 ,t same ,fa!r ,*>les ,b\*] swe>s t he accompani$ ,john ,surratt 9 a c>riage1 9 ! company ( ,fa!r ,lapi]re1 to ! /eam] 8,montreal10 :5 />t+ = ,quebec4 ,t ,fa!r ,lapi]re kept him 7,john ,surratt7 "u lock1 dur+ ! voyage f ,montreal to ,quebec1 & t he accompani$ him1 disguis$1 f ! ,montreal /eam] to ! ocean /eam]1 8,p]uvian40--,trial ( ,john ,surratt1 p4 #iaj4 ,! doctor ( ! /eam] 8,p]uvian10 ,l4 ,i4 ,a4 ,mc,millan1 swe>s 7vol4 i41 p4 #dfj7 t ,fa!r ,lapi]re introduc$ him to ,john ,surratt1 "u ! false "n ( ,mc,carthy1 :om he 0 keep+ lock$ 9 8 /ate room1 & :om he conduct$ disguis$ to ! ocean /eam] 8,p]uvian10 & ) :om he rema9$ till he left ,quebec = ,europe1 ! #ae? ( ,septemb]1 #ahfe4 ,b :o is t ,fa!r ,lapi]re :o takes su* a t5d]1 ,i d>e say a pat]nal c>e ( ,surratt8 ,x is n less a p]sonage ?an ! canon ( ,bi%op ,b\rget1 ( ,montreal4 ,he is ! confid5tial man ( ! bi%op4 ,he lives ) ! bi%op1 eats at 8 table1 assi/s him ) 8 c\nsel1 & has to receive 8 advice 9 e /ep ( life4 ,accord+ to ! laws ( ,rome1 ! canons are to ! bi%op :at ! arms are to ! body4 ,n[1 ,i ask3 ,is x n evid5t t ! bi%ops & ! prie/s ( ,wa%+ton h tru/$ ?is murd]] to ! t5d] c>e ( ! bi%ops & prie/s ( ,montreal1 t !y might conceal1 fe$ & protect him = ne>ly six mon?s1 "u ! v %ad[ ( ! bi%op's palace8 ,w\ld !y h done t if !y 7 n 8 accomplices8 ,:y did !y s cont9ually rema9 ) him1 day & night1 if !y 7 n 9 fe> t he might compromise !m by an indiscreet ^w8 ,:y d we see ^? prie/s 7,i ought to say1 ^? two ambassadors & appo9t$ repres5tatives ( ! ,pope7 alone 9 ! c>riage1 :i* takes t great culprit f 8 h\se ( concealm5t to ! /eam]8 ,:y d !y keep him !re1 "u lock1 till !y transf] him1 "u a disguis$ "n1 to ! oceanic /eam]1 ! 8,p]uvian10 ! #ae? ( ,july1 #ahfe8 ,:y su* t5d] sympa?ies = t /rang]8 ,:y g ?r\gh su* tr\ble & exp5se = t "y ,am]ican1 among ! bi%ops & prie/s ( ,canada8 ,!re is only "o answ]4 ,he 0 "o ( _! tools1 "o ( _! select$ m5 to /rike ! great ,republic ( ,equality & ,lib]ty to ! he>t4 ,= m ?an six mon?s be=e ! murd]1 ! prie/s _h lodg$1 eat51 conv]s$1 slept ) him "u ! same ro( 9 ,wa%+ton4 ,!y _h tra9$ him to 8 de$ ( blood1 by promis+ him protection on e>?1 & a cr[n ( glory 9 heav51 if he w\ld only be true to _! designs to ! end4 ,& he _h be5 true to ! end4 ,n[ ! great crime is accompli%$6 ,l9coln is murd]$6 ,jeff ,davis1 ! de> son ( ! ,pope1 is av5g$6 ,! great republic has be5 /ruck to ! he>t6 ,! soldi]s ( ,lib]ty all ov] ! _w are weep+ ov] ! dead =m ( ! "o :o _h l$ !m to victory2 a cry ( desolation goes f e>? to heav54 ,x seems z if we he>d ! dea?-knell ( ! cause ( fre$om1 equality & frat]nity among m54 ,x 0 _m c5turies s9ce ! implacable enemies ( ! rights & lib]ties ( m5 _h /ruck su* a giant foe3 _! joy 0 z great z _! victory complete4 ,b d y see t man flee+ f ,wa%+ton t[>d ! nor?8 ,he has ! m>k ( ,ca9 on 8 =ehead1 8 h&s are r$d5$ ) blood1 he is pale & trembl+1 = he kn[s x2 a :ole outrag$ nation is aft] him = h] j v5geance2 he he>s ! ?und]+ voice ( ,god3 8,:]e is ?y bro!r80 ,:]e w he f9d a refuge8 ,:]e1 outside ( hell1 w he meet fri5ds to %elt] & save him f ! j v5geance ( ,god & m58 ,oh6 ,he has sure refuge 9 ! arms ( t *ur* :i*1 = m ?an a ?\s& ye>s1 is cry+3 8,dea? to all h]etics6 dea? to all ! soldi]s ( ,lib]ty60 ,he has devot$ fri5ds among ! v m5 :o1 aft] hav+ prep>$ ! massacre ( ,admiral ,coligny & 8 #ge1jjj ,prote/ant c\ntrym51 rang ! bells ( ,rome to express _! joy :5 !y he>d t1 at la/1 ! ,k+ ( ,france _h slaught]$ !m all4 ,b :]e w ^? bi%ops & prie/s ( ,canada s5d ,john ,surratt1 :5 !y f9d x impossible to conceal him any long] f ! ?\s&s ( detectives ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 :o are ransack+ ,canada to f9d out 8 retreat8 ,:o w conceal1 fe$1 lodge & protect him aft] ! prie/s ( ,canada press$ 8 h& = ! la/ "t1 on bo>d ( ! 8,p]uvian10 ! #ae? ( ,septemb]1 #ahfe4 ,:o c h any d\bt ab\t t8 ,:o c suppose t any "o b ! ,pope himself & 8 ,jesuits w protect ! murd]] ( ,abraham ,l9coln 9 ,europe8 ,if y want to see him1 aft] he has cross$ ! ocean1 g to ,vitry1 at ! door ( ,rome1 & !re1 y w f9d him enroll$ "u ! bann]s ( ! ,pope1 9 ! #i? company ( 8 ,z\aves1 "u ! false "n ( ,watson 7,trial ( ,john ,surratt1 vol4 i41 p4 #dib74 ,( c\rse1 ! ,pope 0 =c$ to )draw 8 protection ov] him1 aft] ! gov]nm5t ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates _h f\nd him !re1 & he 0 br\ght back to ,wa%+ton to be tri$4 ,b on 8 arrival z a prison] 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 8 ,jesuit fa!r confessor :isp]$ 9 8 e>3 8,fe> n1 y w n be condemn$6 ,?r\gh ! influ5ce ( a high ,roman ,ca?olic lady1 two or ?ree ( ! jurym5 w be ,roman ,ca?olics1 & y w be safe40 ,^? :o h read ! two volumes ( ! trial ( ,john ,surratt1 "k1 t nev] m evid5t pro(s ( guilt 7 br\ght aga9/ a murd]] ?an 9 t case4 ,b ! ,roman ,ca?olic jurym5 _h read ! ,!ology ( ,/4 ,?omas1 a book :i* ! ,pope _h ord]$ to be taught 9 e college1 academy & univ]sity ( ,rome1 !y _h le>n$ t x is ! duty ( ! ,roman ,ca?olics to ext]m9ate all ! h]etics4--,/4 ,?omas' ,!ology1 vol4 iv41 p4 #ij4 ,!y _h read ! decree ( ! c\ncils ( ,con/ance1 t no fai? 0 to be kept ) h]etics4 ,!y _h read 9 ! c\ncil ( ,lat]an1 t ! ,ca?olics :o arm !mselves = ! ext]m9ation ( h]etics h all _! s9s =giv51 & receive ! same bless+s z ^? :o g & fight = ! rescue ( ! ,holy ,l&4 ,^? jurym5 7 told by _! fa!r confessors t ! mo/ holy ,fa!r1 ! ,pope ,gregory ,,vii41 _h solemnly & infallibly decl>$ t 8! kill+ ( an h]etic 0 no murd]40--,jure ,canonico4 ,aft] su* tea*+s1 h[ c\ld ! ,roman ,ca?olic jurym5 f9d ,john ,surratt guilty ( murd]1 = kill+ ! h]etic ,l9coln8 ,! jury hav+ disagre$1 no v]dict c\ld be giv54 ,! gov]nm5t 0 =c$ to let ! murd]] g unpuni%$4 ,b :5 ! irreconcilable enemies ( all ! rights & lib]ties ( m5 7 congratulat+ !mselves on _! successful ef=ts to save ! life ( ,john ,surratt1 ! ,god ( heav5 0 /amp+ aga9 on _! faces1 ! m>k ( murd]1 9 su* a way t all eyes w see x4 8,murd] w out10 is a tru? repeat$ by all nations f ! beg9n+ ( ! _w4 ,x is ! k ( t tru? :i* has su/a9$ me 9 my long & difficult rese>*es ( ! true au?ors ( ! assass9ation ( ,l9coln1 & :i* enables me to-day1 to pres5t to ! _w a fact1 :i* seems almo/ miracul\s1 to %[ ! complicity ( ! prie/s ( ,rome 9 ! murd] ( ! m>tyr$ ,presid5t4 ,"s "t ago1 ,i provid5tially met ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,f4 ,a4 ,conwell1 at ,*icago4 ,hav+ kn[n t ,i 0 9 se>* ( facts ab\t ! assass9ation ( ,abraham ,l9coln1 he told me he knew "o ( ^? facts1 :i* might p]haps ?r[ "s light on ! subject ( my rese>*es4 8,! v day ( ! murd]10 he said1 8he 0 9 ! ,roman ,ca?olic village ( ,/4 ,joseph1 ,m9nesota ,/ate1 :51 at ab\t six o'clock1 9 ! aft]noon1 he 0 told by a ,roman ,ca?olic ( ! place1 :o 0 a purveyor ( a great numb] ( prie/s :o liv$ 9 t t[n1 :]e !y h a mona/]y1 t ! ,/ate ,secret>y ,sew>d & ! ,presid5t ,l9coln _h j be5 kill$4 ,?is 0 told me10 he said1 89 ! pres5ce ( a mo/ respectable g5tleman1 call$ ,b5nett1 :o 0 n less puzzl$ ?an me4 ,z !re 7 no railroad l9es ne>] ?an #dj miles1 nor telegraph (fices ne>] ?an #hj miles1 f t place1 we c\ld n see h[ su* news 0 spread 9 t t[n4 ,! next day1 ! #ae? ( ,april1 ,i 0 at ,/4 ,cl\d1 a t[n ab\t twelve miles di/ant1 :]e !re are nei!r railroad nor telegraph1 ,i said to sev]al p t ,i _h be5 told 9 ! prie/ly village ( ,/4 ,joseph1 by a ,roman ,ca?olic1 t ,abraham ,l9coln & ! ,secret>y ,sew>d _h be5 assass9at$4 ,!y answ]$ me t !y _h he>d no?+ ab\t x4 ,b ! next ,sabba?1 ! #af? ( ,april1 :5 go+ to ! *ur* ( ,/4 ,cl\d1 to prea*1 a fri5d gave me a copy ( a telegram s5t to him on ! ,saturday1 report+ t ,abraham ,l9coln & ,secret>y ,sew>d _h be5 assass9at$1 ! v day be=e1 :i* 0 ,friday1 ! #ad?1 at #aj ,p4 ,m4 ,b h[ c\ld ! ,roman ,ca?olic purveyor ( ! prie/s ( ,/4 ,joseph1 h told me ! same ?+1 be=e sev]al witnesses1 j f\r h\rs be=e its occurr5ce8 ,i spoke ( t /range ?+ to _m1 ! same day1 & ! v next day1 ,i wrote to ! #8,/4 ,paul ,press1' "u ! head+ ( #8,a ,/range ,co9cid5ce4' ,sometime lat]1 ! editor ( #8,! ,/4 ,paul ,pione]1' hav+ d5i$ :at ,i _h writt5 on t subject1 ,i address$ him ! foll[+ note1 :i* he _h pr9t$1 & :i* ,i h kept4 ,"h x is1 y may keep x z an infallible pro( ( my v]acity30 8,,to ,,! ,,editor ,,( ,,! ,,/4 ,,paul ,,pione]4 8,y assume ! non-tru? ( a %ort p>agraph address$ by me to ! ,/4 ,paul #8,press1' viz3 8,a ,,/range ,,co9cid5ce6 8,at #f3cj ,p4 ,m41 ,friday la/1 ,april #ad?1 ,i 0 told z an item ( news1 #h miles we/ ( ?is place1 t ,l9coln & ,sew>d _h be5 assass9at$4 ,?is 0 ?ree h\rs aft] ,i _h he>d ! news40 8,,/4 ,,cl\d1 #ag? ( ,april1 #ahfe4 8,! integrity ( hi/ory requires t ! above co9cid5ce be e/abli%$4 ,& if anyone calls x 9 "q1 !n pro(s m ample ?an re>$ _! sangu9>y %ad[s to com=t a traitor c n[ be giv54 8,respectfully1 8,f4 ,a4 ,,conwell40 ,i ask$ t g5tleman if he w\ld be k9d en\gh to give me ! fact "u oa?1 t ,i might make use ( x 9 ! report ,i int5d$ to publi% ab\t ! assass9ation ( ,l9coln4 ,& he k9dly grant$ my reque/ 9 ! foll[+ =m3 ,/ate ( ,ill9ois1 s4s4 ,cook ,c\nty ,rev4 ,f4 ,a4 ,conwell1 be+ sworn1 deposes & says t he is sev5ty-"o ye>s old1 t he is a resid5t ( ,nor? ,evan/on1 9 ,cook ,c\nty1 ,/ate ( ,ill9ois1 t he has be5 9 ! m9i/ry = fifty-six ye>s1 & is n[ "o ( ! *apla9s ( ! 8,seam5's ,be!l ,home10 9 ,*icago2 t he 0 *apla9 ( ! ,fir/ ,m9nesota ,regim5t1 9 ! w> ( ! rebellion4 ,t1 on ! #ad? day ( ,april1 ,a4 ,d41 #ahfe1 he 0 9 ,/4 ,joseph1 ,m9nesota1 & rea*$ !re z e>ly z six o'clock 9 ! ev5+ 9 company ) ,mr4 ,b5nett1 :o1 !n & n[1 is a resid5t ( ,/ ,cl\d1 ,m9nesota4 ,t on t date1 !re 0 no telegraph ne>] ?an ,m9neapolis4 ab\t #hj miles f ,/4 ,joseph2 & !re 0 no railroad communication ne>] ?an ,avoka1 ,m9nesota1 ab\t #dj miles di/ant4 ,t :5 he rea*$ ,/4 ,joseph1 on ! #ad? day ( ,april1 #ahfe1 "o ,mr4 ,l9neman1 :o1 !n1 kept ! hotel ( ,/4 ,joseph1 told affiant t ,presid5t ,l9coln & ,secret>y ,sew>d 7 assass9at$1 t x 0 n lat] ?an half-pa/ six o'clock1 on ,friday1 ,april #ad?1 #ahfe1 :5 ,mr4 ,l9neman told me ?is4 ,%ortly !reaft]1 ,mr4 ,b5nett came 9 ! hotel1 & ,i told him t ,mr4 ,l9neman said ! ,presid5t ,l9coln & ,secret>y ,sew>d 7 assass9at$2 & !n ! same ,mr4 ,l9neman report$ ! same conv]sation to ,mr4 ,b5nett 9 my pres5ce4 ,t dur+ t "t1 ,mr4 ,l9neman told me t he _h ! *>ge ( ! fri>y or college = "y m51 "u ! prie/s1 :o 7 /udy+ = ! prie/hood at ,/4 ,joseph4 ,t !re 0 a l>ge multitude ( ?is k9d at ,/4 ,joseph1 at ?is "t4 ,affiant says t1 on ,saturday morn+1 ,april #ae?1 #ahfe1 he w5t to ,/4 ,cl\d1 a di/ance ( ab\t #aj miles1 & rea*$ !re ab\t eight o'clock 9 ! morn+4 ,t !re 0 no railroad nor telegraph communication to ,/4 ,cl\d4 ,:5 he arriv$ at ,/4 ,cl\d he told ,mr4 ,hawor?1 ! hotel-keep]1 t he _h be5 told t ,presid5t ,l9coln & ,secret>y ,sew>d _h be5 assass9at$1 & ask$ if x 0 true4 ,he fur!r told ,h5ry ,clay1 ,wait1 ,*>les ,gilman1 :o 0 aft]w>ds ,lieut5ant ,gov]nor ( ,m9nesota1 & ,rev4 ,mr4 ,tice1 ! same ?+1 & inquir$ ( !m if !y _h any su* views2 & !y repli$ t !y _h n he>d any?+ ( ! k9d4 ,affiant says t1 on ,sunday morn+1 ,april #af?1 #ahfe1 he prea*$ 9 ,/4 ,cl\d1 & on ! way to ! *ur*1 a copy ( a telegram 0 h&$ him1 /at+ t ! ,presid5t & ,secret>y 7 assass9at$ ,friday ev5+1 at ab\t #i o'clock4 ,?is telegram _h be5 br\ght to ,/4 ,cl\d by ,mr4 ,gorton1 :o _h rea*$ ,/4 ,cl\d by /age2 & ?is 0 ! fir/ intellig5ce t _h rea*$ ,/4 ,cl\d ( ! ev5t4 ,affiant says fur!r t1 on ,monday morn+1 ,april #ag?1 #ahfe1 he furni%$ ! 8,press10 a pap] ( ,/4 ,paul1 a /atem5t t ?ree h\rs be=e ! ev5t took place1 he _h be5 in=m$ at ,/4 ,joseph1 ,m9nesota1 t ! ,presid5t _h be5 assass9at$1 & ?is 0 publi%$ 9 ! 8,press40 ,,francis ,,asbury ,,conwell4 ,subscrib$ & sworn to by ,francis ,a4 ,conwell1 be=e me1 a ,not>y ,public ( ,kankakee ,c\nty1 ,ill9ois1 at ,*icago1 ,cook ,c\nty1 ! #f? day ( ,septemb]1 #ahhc4 ,,/eph5 ,r4 ,,moore1 ,not>y ,public4 ,?\gh ?is docum5t 0 v important & preci\s to me1 ,i felt t x w\ld be mu* m valuable if x c\ld be corroborat$ by ! te/imonies ( ,messrs4 ,b5nett & ,l9neman1 !mselves1 & ,i imm$iately s5t a magi/rate to f9d out if !y 7 /ill liv+1 & if !y rememb]$ ! facts ( ! sworn decl>ation ( ,rev4 ,mr4 ,conwell4 ,by ! good provid5ce ( ,god1 bo? ( ^! g5tlem5 7 f\nd liv+1 & bo? gave ! foll[+ te/imonies3 ,/ate ( ,m9nesota1 ,/]ns ,c\nty1 ,city ( ,/4 ,cl\d4 ,horace ,b4 ,b5nett1 be+ sworn1 deposes & says t he is ag$ sixty-f\r ye>s2 t he is a resid5t ( ,/4 ,cl\d1 ,m9nesota1 & has resid$ 9 ?is c\nty s9ce #ahef2 t he is acqua9t$ ) ! ,rev4 ,f4 ,a4 ,conwell1 :o 0 *apla9 ( ! ,fir/ ,m9nesota ,regim5t 9 ! w> ( ! rebellion2 t on ! #ad? ( ,april1 #ahfe1 he 0 9 ,/4 ,joseph1 ,m9nesota1 9 company ) ,mr4 ,francis ,a4 ,conwell2 t !y rea*$ ,/4 ,joseph ab\t sund[n ( said ,april #ad?2 t !re 0 no railroad or telegraph communication ) ,/4 ,joseph at t "t1 nor ne>] ?an ,avoka1 ab\t #dj miles di/ant4 ,t affiant1 on rea*+ ! hotel kept by ,mr4 ,l9neman1 w5t to ! b>n1 :ile ,rev4 ,f4 ,conwell ent]$ ! hotel2 & %ortly aft]w>d1 affiant _h return$ to ! hotel1 ,mr4 ,conwell told him t ,mr4 ,l9neman _h report$ to him ! assass9ation ( ,presid5t ,l9coln2 t ,l9neman 0 pres5t & sub/antiat$ ! /atem5t4 ,t on ,saturday morn+1 ,april #ae?1 affiant & ,rev4 ,conwell came to ,/4 ,cl\d1 & report$ t !y _h be5 told at ,/4 ,joseph1 ab\t ! assass9ation ( ,presid5t ,l9coln1 t no "o at ,/4 ,cl\d _h he>d ( ! ev5t at ?is "t1 t ! fir/ news ( ! ev5t :i* rea*$ ,/4 ,cl\d 0 on ,sunday morn+1 ,april #af?1 :5 ! news 0 br\ght by ,le&] ,gorton1 :o _h j come up f ,avoka1 ,m9nesota2 t !y spoke to sev]al p]sons ( ,/4 ,cl\d conc]n+ ! matt]1 :5 !y rea*$ !re1 on ,sunday morn+1 b affiant does n n[ rememb] :o ^? diff]5t p]sons 71 & fur!r affiant says n4 ,,horace ,p4 ,,b5nett4 ,sworn be=e me1 & subscrib$ 9 my pres5ce1 ?is #ah? ( ,octob] ,a4 ,d41 #ahhc4 ,,&rew ,c4 ,,rob]tson1 ,not>y ,public4 ,mr4 ,l9neman hav+ refus$ to swe> on 8 writt5 decl>ation1 :i* ,i h 9 my possession1 ,i take only f x :at ref]s to ! pr9cipal fact1 viz3 t ?ree or f\r h\rs be=e ,l9coln 0 assass9at$ at ,wa%+ton1 ! #ad? ( ,april1 #ahfe1 ! fact 0 told z already accompli%$1 9 ! prie/ly village ( ,/4 ,joseph1 ,m9nesota4 8,he 7,l9neman7 rememb]s ! "t t ,messrs4 ,conwell & ,b5nett came to ?is place 7,/4 ,joseph1 ,m9nesota7 on ,friday ev5+1 be=e ! ,presid5t 0 kill$1 & he ask$ !m if !y _h he>d he 0 dead1 & !y repli$ !y _h n4 ,he he>d ?is rumor 9 8 /ore f p :o came 9 & out4 ,b he _c rememb] f :om4 ,octob] #bj?1 #ahhc4 ,j4 ,h4 ,,l9neman4 ,i pres5t "h to ! _w a fact ( ! greate/ gravity1 & t fact is s well au!nticat$ t x _c all[ ev5 ! possibility ( a d\bt4 ,?ree or f\r h\rs be=e ,l9coln 0 murd]$ 9 ,wa%+ton1 ! #ad? ( ,april1 #ahfe1 t murd] 0 n only kn[n by "s "o1 b x 0 circulat$ & talk$ ( 9 ! /reets1 & 9 ! h\ses ( ! prie/ly & ,romi% t[n ( ,/4 ,joseph1 ,m9nesota4 ,! fact is und5iable2 ! te/imonies are un*all5geable1 & !re 7 no railroad nor any telegraph communication ne>] ?an #dj or #hj miles f ! ne>e/ /ation to ,/4 ,joseph4 ,naturally e "o ask$3 8,h[ c\ld su* news spread8 ,:]e is ! s\rce ( su* a rumor80 ,mr4 ,l9neman1 :o is a ,roman ,ca?olic1 tells u t ?\gh he he>d ?is f _m 9 8 /ore1 & 9 ! /reets1 he does n rememb] ! "n ( a s+le "o :o told him t4 ,& :5 we he> ?is f him1 we und]/& :y he did n d>e to swe> ^u x1 & %runk f ! idea ( p]jur+ himself4 ,= ev]yone feels t 8 memory _c be s poor z t1 :5 he rememb]s s well ! "n ( ! two /rang]s1 ,messrs4 ,conwell & ,b5nett1 to :om he _h ann\nc$ ! assass9ation ( ,l9coln1 j sev5te5 ye>s be=e4 ,b if ! memory ( ,mr4 ,l9neman is s defici5t on t subject1 we c help him1 & tell him ) ma!matical accuracy3 8,y got ! news f y\r prie/s ( ,/4 ,joseph6 ,! conspiracy :i* co/ ! life ( ! m>tyr$ ,presid5t 0 prep>$ by ! prie/s ( ,wa%+ton 9 ! h\se ( ,m>y ,surratt1 ,no4 #eda ,h4 ,/reet4 ,! prie/s ( ,/4 ,joseph 7 (t5 visit+ ,wa%+ton1 & bo>d+1 probably1 at ,mrs4 ,surratt's z ! prie/s ( ,wa%+ton 7 (t5 visit+ _! bro!r prie/s at ,/4 ,joseph4 8,^? prie/s ( ,wa%+ton 7 9 daily communication ) _! co-rebel prie/s ( ,/4 ,joseph2 !y 7 _! intimate fri5ds4 ,!re 7 no secrets among !m1 z !re are no secrets among prie/s4 ,!y are ! memb]s ( ! same body1 ! bran*es ( ! same tree4 ,! details ( ! murd]1 z ! day select$ = its commission 7 z well kn[n among ! prie/s ( ,/4 ,joseph1 z !y 7 among ^? ( ,wa%+ton4 ,! dea? ( ,l9coln 0 su* a glori\s ev5t = ^? prie/s6 ,t infam\s apo/ate1 ,l9coln1 :o1 baptiz$ 9 ! ,holy ,*ur*1 _h rebell$ aga9/ h]1 brok5 8 oa? ( allegiance to ! ,pope1 tak5 ! v day ( 8 baptism1 & liv$ ! life ( an apo/ate6 ,t infam\s ,l9coln1 :o _h d>$ to fight aga9/ ! ,conf$]acy ( ! ,s\? aft] ! ,vic> ( ,*ri/ _h solemnly decl>$ t _! cause 0 j1 legitimate & holy6 ,t bloody tyrant1 t godless & infam\s man 0 to receive1 at la/1 ! j *a/isem5t ( 8 crimes1 ! #ad? ( ,april6 ,:at glori\s news6 ,h[ c\ld ! prie/s conceal su* a joyful ev5t f _! bosom fri5d1 ,mr4 ,l9neman8 ,he 0 _! confid5tial man3 he 0 _! purveyor3 he 0 _! "r h& man among ! fai?ful ( ,/4 ,joseph4 ,!y ?\ght t !y w\ld be guilty ( a want ( confid5ce 9 _! bosom fri5d1 if !y did n tell him all ab\t ! glori\s ev5t ( t great day4 ,b1 ( c\rse1 !y reque/$ him n to m5tion _! names1 if he w\ld spread ! joyful news among ! devot$ ,roman ,ca?olics :o1 almo/ exclusively1 =m$ ! p ( ,/4 ,joseph4 ,mr4 ,l9neman has honorably & fai?fully kept 8 promise nev] to reveal _! names1 & to-day1 we h1 9 our h&1 ! au!ntic te/imonies sign$ by him t1 ?\gh somebody1 ! #ad? ( ,april1 told him t ,presid5t ,l9coln 0 assass9at$1 he does n "k :o told him t6 ,b !re is n a man ( s\nd judgm5t :o w h any d\bt ab\t t fact4 ,! #d? ( ,april1 #ahfe1 ! prie/s ( ,rome knew & circulat$ ! dea? ( ,l9coln f\r h\rs be=e its occurr5ce 9 _! ,roman ,ca?olic t[n ( ,/4 ,joseph1 ,m9nesota4 ,b !y c\ld n circulate x )\t kn[+ x1 & !y c\ld n "k x1 )\t belong+ to ! b& ( conspirators :o assass9at$ ,presid5t ,l9coln4 ,,*apt] ,,lxii4 ,,deputation ,,( ,,two ,,prie/s ,,s5t ,,by ,,! ,,p ,,& ,,! ,,bi%ops ,,( ,,canada ,,to ,,p]suade ,,u ,,to ,,submit ,,to ,,! ,,w ,,( ,,! ,,bi%op--,,! ,,deputies ,,ackn[l$ge ,,publicly ,,t ,,! ,,bi%op ,,is ,,wrong ,,& ,,t ,,we ,,are ,,"r--,,= ,,peace ,,sake1 ,i ,,cons5t ,,to ,,)draw ,,f ,,! ,,conte/ ,,on ,,c]ta9 ,,conditions ,,accept$ ,,by ,,! ,,deputies--,,"o ,,( ,,^? ,,deputies ,,turns ,,false ,,to ,,8 ,,promises ,,& ,,betrays ,,u1 ,,to ,,be ,,put ,,at ,,! ,,head ,,( ,,my ,,colony--,,my ,,la/ ,,int]view ,,) ,,him ,,& ,,mr4 ,,brass>d4 ,:5 alone1 on my knees1 9 ! pres5ce ( ,god1 on ! #a/ ( ,janu>y1 #ahee1 ,i took ! resolution ( oppos+ ! acts ( simony & tyranny ( ,bi%op ,o',regan1 ,i 0 f> f und]/&+ ! logical consequ5ces ( my /ruggle ) t high dignit>y4 ,my only object 0 to =ce him to be hone/1 j & ,*ri/ian t[>ds my p4 ,t p1 ) me1 _h left _! c\ntry & _h bid an et]nal adieu to all t 0 de> to !m 9 ,canada1 9 ord] to live 9 peace 9 ,ill9ois1 "u :at we1 !n1 consid]$ ! holy au?ority ( ! ,*ur* ( ,*ri/4 ,b we 7 absolutely unwill+ to be slaves ( any man1 9 ! l& ( ,lib]ty4 ,if any "o1 at t h\r1 c\ld h %[n me t ?is /ruggle w\ld lead me to a complete sep>ation f ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 ,i w\ld h %rank f ! task4 ,my only ambition 0 to purify my *ur* f ! abuses :i*1 "o aft] ! o!r1 _h crept ev]y:]e ab\t h]1 z noxi\s we$s4 ,i felt t ^? abuses 7 de/roy+ ! preci\s tru?s :i* ,jesus ,*ri/ & 8 apo/les h reveal$ to u4 ,x seem$ to me t 0 a duty impos$ ^u e prie/ to d all 9 8 p[] to blot f ! face ( our *ur* ! sc&als :i* 7 ! fruits ( ! iniquities & tyranny ( ! bi%ops4 ,i _h mo/ s9c]ely (f]$ myself to ,god = ?is "w4 ,f ! beg9n+1 h[ev]1 ,i _h a pres5tim5t t ! p[] ( ! bi%ops w\ld be too mu* = me1 & t1 soon] or lat]1 !y w\ld cru% me4 ,b my hope 0 t :5 ,i %\ld h fall51 o!rs w\ld take my place & fight ! battles ( ! ,"l1 till a f9al victory w\ld br+ ! *ur* back to ! bless$ days :5 %e 0 ! spotless sp\se ( ! ,lamb4 ,! great & provid5tial victory ,i _h ga9$ at ,urbana1 _h /r5g!n$ my conviction t ,god 0 on my side1 & t he w\ld protect me1 s long z my only motives 7 9 ! int]e/ ( tru? & righte\sness4 ,x seem$1 9 a ^w1 t ,i c\ld n fail s long z ,i %\ld fight aga9/ ! (ficial lies1 tyrannies1 sup]/itions & deceits :i* ! bi%ops _h ev]y:]e 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates & ,canada1 sub/itut$ 9 ! place ( ! ,gospel1 ! primitive laws ( ! *ur*1 & ! tea*+s ( ! holy fa!rs4 ,9 ! autumn ( #ahef1 our /ruggle aga9/ ! ,bi%op ( ,*icago _h tak5 proportions :i* c\ld n h be5 anticipat$ ei!r by me or by ! ,roman ,ca?olic hi]>*y ( ,am]ica4 ,! :ole press ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates & ,canada1 bo? political & religi\s1 7 discuss+ ! causes & ! probable results ( ! conte/4 ,at fir/1 ! bi%ops 7 indignant at ! conduct ( my "l ,o',regan4 ,!y _h se5 ) pleasure1 t a prie/ f 8 own diocese w\ld probably =ce him to be m cauti\s & less sc&al\s 9 8 public & private deal+s ) ! cl]gy & ! p4 ,b1 !y also hop$ t ,i %\ld be p>alyz$ by ! s5t5ce ( excommunication1 & t ! p1 fright5$ by ^! fulm9ations1 w\ld )draw ! support !y _h1 at fir/1 giv5 me4 ,!y 7 assur$ by ,sp9k1 t ,i w\ld lose my suit1 at ,urbana1 & %\ld1 :5 lodg$ 9 ! p5it5ti>y1 become p[]less to d any mis*ief 9 ! *ur*4 ,b _! confid5ce 0 soon *ang$ into dismay :5 !y saw t ! p laugh$ at ! excommunication2 t ,i _h ga9$ my suit1 & t ,i 0 triumph+ on t v battle-field f :i* no prie/1 s9ce ,lu!r & ,knox1 _h come out unsca!d4 ,ev]y:]e1 ! s\nd ( al>m 0 he>d1 & ,i 0 d5\nc$ z a rebel & s*ismatic4 ,! :ole body ( ! bi%ops prep>$ to hurl _! mo/ t]rible fulm9ations at my devot$ head4 ,b be=e tak+ _! la/ measure to cru% me1 a supreme ef=t 0 made to %[ u :at !y consid]$ our errors4 ,! ,rev4 ,messrs4 ,brass>d1 curate ( ,longueuil1 & ,rev4 ,isaac ,desaulni]1 ,presid5t ( ,/4 ,hyac9! college1 7 s5t by ! p & bi%ops ( ,canada to %[ me :at !y call$ ! sc&al ( my proce$+s1 & press me to submit to ! w ( ! bi%op1 by respect+ ! s-call$ s5t5ce ( excommunication4 ,! *oice ( ^? two prie/s 0 v wise4 ,!y 7 c]ta9ly ! mo/ influ5tial t c\ld be s5t4 ,mr4 ,brass>d _h n only be5 my tea*] at ! college ( ,nicolet1 b my b5efactor1 z ,i h already said4 ,:5 ! want ( means1 9 #ahbe1 _h =c$ me to leave ! college & bid adieu to my "m & my "y bro!rs1 9 ord] to g to a v di/ant l&1 9 se>* ( a position2 he /opp$ me on ! road ( exile & br\ght me back to ! college3 & along ) ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,leprohon1 he paid all my exp5ses to ! end ( my /udies4 ,he _h lov$ me s9ce1 z 8 own *ild1 & ,i *]i%$ & respect$ him z my own fa!r4 ,! o!r1 ,mons4 ,i4 ,desaulni]1 _h be5 my class-mate 9 ! college1 f #ahbb to #ahbi1 & we _h be5 unit$ dur+ ! :ole ( t p]iod1 z well z s9ce1 by ! bonds ( ! s9c]e/ e/eem & fri5d%ip6 ,!y arriv$ at ,/4 ,anne on ,novemb] #bd?1 #ahef4 ,i he>d ( _! com+ only a few m9utes be=e _! arrival2 & no?+ c express ! joy ,i felt at ! news4 ,! confid5ce ,i _h 9 _! hone/y & fri5d%ip1 gave me1 at once1 ! hope t !y w\ld soon see ! ju/ice & hol9ess ( our cause1 & !y w\ld bravely take our side aga9/ our aggressor4 ,b !y _h v diff]5t s5tim5ts4 ,s9c]ely believ+ t ,i 0 an unmanageable s*ismatic1 :o 0 creat+ an awful sc&al 9 ! *ur*1 !y _h n only be5 =bidd5 by ! bi%ops to sleep 9 my h\se1 b also h any fri5dly & ,*ri/ian communication ) me4 ,) no hatr$ aga9/ me1 !y 7 yet fill$ ) horror at ! ?\ght t ,i %\ld be s sc&al\s a prie/1 & s d>+1 z to tr\ble ! peace & de/roy ! unity ( ! *ur*4 ,on _! way f ,canada to ,/4 ,anne1 !y _h (t5 be5 told t ,i 0 n ! same man z !y knew me =m]ly to be1 & t ,i _h become s\r & gloomy1 abusive1 insol5t & haughty2 t also1 ,i w\ld insult !m1 & p]haps advise ! p to turn !m away f my premises1 z m5 :o _h no bus9ess to m$dle 9 our affairs4 ,!y 7 pleasantly disappo9t$1 h[ev]1 :5 !y saw me runn+ to meet !m1 z f> z ,i c\ld see !m1 to press !m to my he>t1 ) ! mo/ s9c]e m>ks ( affection & joy4 ,i told !m t all ! treasures ( ,cali=nia br\ght to my h\se1 w\ld n make me half s happy z ,i 0 made by _! pres5ce4 ,i1 at once1 express$ my hope t !y 7 ! mess5g]s1 s5t by ,god1 to br+ u peace & put an end to ! deplorable /ate ( ?+s :i* 0 ! cause ( _! long j\rney4 ,rem>k+ t !y 7 cov]$ ) mud1 ,i invit$ !m to g to _! sleep+ rooms1 to wa% & refre% !mselves4 8,sleep+ rooms6 sleep+ rooms660 said ,mr4 ,desaulni]1 8b our writt5 in/ructions f ! bi%ops :o s5t u1 =bid u to sleep "h1 on acc\nt ( y\r excommunication40 ,mr4 ,brass>d answ]$3 8,i mu/ tell y1 my de> ,mr4 ,desaulni]1 a ?+ :i* ,i h kept secret till n[4 ,aft] read+ t prohibition ( sleep+ "h1 ,i said to ! bi%op t if he w\ld put su* a re/ra9t ^u me1 he might *oose ano!r "o to come "h4 ,i reque/$ him to let u bo? act accord+ to our consci5ce & common s5se1 :5 we %\ld be ) ,*9iquy4 8,&1 to-day1 my consci5ce & common s5se tells me t we _c beg9 our mission ( peace by insult+ a man :o gives u su* a fri5dly & ,*ri/ian reception4 ,! p ( ,canada h *os5 u z _! deputies1 because we are ! mo/ s9c]e fri5ds ( ,*9iquy4 ,x is by keep+ t "* t we w be/ fulfill our sacr$ & solemn duties4 ,i accept ) pleasure1 ! sleep+ room (f]$ me40 ,mr4 ,desaulni] rejo9$3 8,i accept x also1 = ,i did n come "h to insult my be/ fri5d1 b to save him40 ,^! k9d words ( my gue/s add$ to ! joy ,i exp]i5c$ at _! com+4 ,i told !m3 8,if y are "h to obey ! voice ( y\r consci5ce & ! dictates ( y\r common s5se1 !re is a glori\s task be=e y4 ,y w soon f9d t ! p & prie/ ( ,/4 ,anne1 h also done no?+1 b li/5$ to ! voice ( _! hone/ consci5ce1 & foll[$ ! laws ( common s5se 9 _! conduct t[>ds ! bi%op4 ,b10 ,i add$1 8?is is n ! "t to expla9 my position1 b ! "t to wa% y\r du/y faces & refre% y\rselves4 ,"h are y\r rooms1 make y\rselves at home40 ,aft] supp]1 :i* _h be5 sp5t 9 ! mo/ pleasant way1 & )\t any allusion to our tr\bles1 !y h&$ me ! lett]s address$ to me by ! bi%ops ( ,montreal1 ,london & ,toronto1 to induce me to submit to my sup]ior1 & (f] me ! assurance ( _! mo/ s9c]e fri5d%ip & devot$ness1 if ,i w\ld obey4 ,mr4 ,desaulni] !n said3 8,n[1 my de> ,*9iquy1 we h be5 s5t "h by ! p & bi%ops ( ,canada to take y away f ! bottomless abyss into :i* y h fall5 ) y\r p4 ,we h only "o day & two nights to sp5d "h1 we mu/ lose no "t1 b beg9 at once1 to fulfill our solemn mission40 ,i answ]$3 8,if ,i h fall5 into a bottomless abyss z y say1 & t y w draw me out ( x1 n only ,god & m5 w bless y2 b ,i w also =ev] bless y = y\r *>ity4 ,! fir/ ?+1 h[ev]1 y h to d "h1 is to see if ,i am really fall51 ) my p1 into t bottomless abyss ( :i* y speak40 8,b are y n excommunicat$10 quickly rejo9$ ,mr4 ,desaulni]1 8&1 not)/&+ t excommunication1 h y n cont9u$ to say y\r mass1 prea* & he> ! confessions ( y\r p8 ,are y n !n fall5 into t /ate ( irregul>ity & s*ism :i* sep>ate y entirely f ! *ur*1 & to :i* ! ,pope alone c re/ore y80 8,no1 my de> ,desaulni]10 ,i answ]$1 8,i am no m excommunicat$ ?an y are4 ,= ! simple reason t an act ( excommunication :i* is n sign$ & c]tifi$1 is a public nullity1 unwor?y ( any att5tion4 ,"h is ! act ( ! s-call$ excommunication1 :i* makes s mu* noise 9 ! _w6 ,exam9e x y\rself2 look if x is sign$ by ! bi%op1 or any "o else y "k2 consid] ) att5tion if x is c]tifi$ by anybody40 ,& ,i h&$ him ! docum5t4 ,aft] he _h exam9$ x1 & turn$ x e way1 = m ?an half an h\r1 ) ,mr4 ,brass>d1 )\t say+ a ^w1 he at la/ broke ! sil5ce1 & said3 8,if ,i _h n se5 x ) my own eyes1 ,i c\ld nev] h believ$ t a bi%op c play su* a sacrilegi\s com$y 9 ! face ( ! _w4 ,y h1 sev]al times1 publi%$ x 9 ! press1 b ,i confess t y\r be/ fri5ds1 & ,i among ! re/1 did n believe y4 ,x c\ld n ent] our m9ds t a bi%op %\ld be s devoid1 ,i d n say ( e pr9ciple ( religion1 b ( ! mo/ common hone/y1 z to h proclaim$ be=e ! :ole _w t y 7 excommunicat$1 :5 he _h to (f] u only t ridicul\s piece ( rag1 to support 8 ass]tion4 ,b1 9 ! "n ( common s5se1 :y is x t he has n sign$ 8 s5t5ce ( excommunication1 or got x sign$ & c\nt]sign$ by "s au?oriz$ p1 :5 x is s evid5t t he want$ to excommunicate y80 8,8 reason = n putt+ 8 "n1 nor ! "n ( any kn[n p]son at ! bottom ( t s-call$ excommunication is v cle>10 ,i answ]$3 8?\gh our bi%op is "o ( ! mo/ accompli%$ rogues ( ,ill9ois1 he is /ill m a c[>d ?an a rogue4 ,i _h ?reat5$ to br+ him be=e ! civil c\rt ( ! c\ntry1 if he d>$ to de/roy my "* by a s5t5ce ( int]dict or excommunication2 & he f\nd t ! only way to save himself1 9 ! same "t t he 0 outrag+ me1 0 n to sign t pap]2 he !reby took away f me ! p[] ( prosecut+ him4 ,=1 ! fir/ ?+ ,i w\ld h to d 9 a prosecution1 9 t case1 w\ld be to prove ! signature ( ! bi%op4 ,:]e c\ld ,i f9d a witness :o w\ld swe> t ?is is 8 signature8 ,w\ld y swe> x y\rself1 my de> ,desaulni]80 8,oh6 no1 = surely1 x is n 8 signature1 nor t ( 8 gr& vic> or secret>y4 ,b )\t go+ any fur!r10 add$ he1 8we mu/ confess to y t we h talk$ to ! bi%op :5 pass+ ?r\gh ,*icago1 ask+ him if he _h made any public or private inque/ aga9/ y1 & if he _h f\nd y guilty ( any crime4 ,z he felt emb>rass$ by our que/ions1 we told him t x 0 9 our public "* z deputies ( ! bi%ops & p ( ,canada t[>ds y1 t we 7 putt+ to him ^? que/ions4 ,t x 0 necess>y = u to "k all ab\t y\r public & private "*1 :5 we 7 com+ to press y to reconcile y\rself to y\r bi%op4 8,he answ]$ t he _h nev] made any inque/ ab\t y1 ?\gh y _h reque/$ him1 sev]al times1 to d x1 = ! simple reason t he 0 p]suad$ t y 7 "o ( 8 be/ prie/s4 ,y\r only defect1 he said1 0 a _s ( /ubbornness1 & want ( respect & ob$i5ce to y\r sup]ior1 & y\r m$dl+ ) ! deal+s ( 8 diocesans1 ) :i* y _h no bus9ess4 ,he told u also t y refus$ to g to ,kahokia4 ,b 8 face became s r$ & 8 tongue 0 s /rangely lisp+ :5 he said t1 t ,i suspect$ t x 0 a falsehood2 & we h n[1 be=e our eyes1 t docum5t1 sign$ by f\r unimpea*able witnesses1 t x 0 m ?an a falsehood--x 0 a lie4 ,he pr(f]$ ano!r lie1 also1 we see x n[1 :5 he said t he _h sign$ himself1 ! act ( excommunication4 8,=1 surely1 ?is is n 8 h&writ+4 ,su* conduct f a bi%op is v /range4 ,if y w\ld appeal to ! ,pope1 & g to ,rome ) su* docum5ts 9 h& aga9/ t bi%op1 y w\ld h an easy victory ov] him4 ,= ! canons ( ! *ur* are cle> & unanim\s on t subject4 ,a bi%op :o pron\nces su* a grave s5t5ce aga9/ a prie/1 & makes use ( false signatures to c]tify 8 s5t5ces1 is himself susp5d$ & excommunicat$1 ipso facto1 = a :ole ye>40 ,mr4 ,brass>d add$3 8,_c we confess to ,*9iquy t ! op9ion ( ! bi%ops ( ,canada is1 t ,bi%op ,o',regan is a p]fect rogue1 & t if he 7,*9iquy7 w\ld submit1 at once1 "u prote/1 to ^? unju/ s5t5ces1 & appeal to ! ,pope1 he w\ld ga9 8 cause1 & soon be re9/at$ by a public decree ( 8 hol9ess40 ,our discussion ab\t ! tr\bles ,i _h _h2 & ! be/ way to put an end to !m1 hav+ kept u up till ?ree o'clock 9 ! morn+ )\t be+ able to come to any satisfactory issue1 we adj\rn$ to ! next day1 & w5t to take "s re/1 aft] a %ort pray]4 ,! #be? ( ,novemb]1 at #aj ,a4 ,m41 aft] breakfa/ & a %ort walk 9 our public squ>e1 to brea! ! pure air & enjoy ! f9e sc5]y ( our beautiful hill ( ,/4 ,anne1 we %ut ourselves up 9 my /udy1 & resum$ ! discussion ( ! be/ plans ( putt+ an end to ! exi/+ difficulties4 ,to %[ !m my s9c]e desire ( /opp+ ^? noisy & sc&al\s /ruggles )\t compromis+ ! sacr$ pr9ciples :i* _h guid$ me f ! beg9n+ ( our tr\bles1 ,i cons5t$ to sacrifice my position z pa/or ( ,/4 ,anne1 provid$ ,mr4 ,brass>d w\ld be in/all$ 9 my place4 ,x 0 decid$1 h[ev]1 t ,i %\ld rema9 ) him1 z 8 vic>1 & help 9 ! managem5t ( ! spiritual & temporal affairs ( ! colony4 ,! promise 0 giv5 me t on t condition1 ! bi%op w\ld )draw 8 s-call$ s5t5ce1 give back to ! ,fr5*-,canadians ( ,*icago ! *ur* he _h tak5 away f !m1 put a ,fr5*-speak+ prie/ at ! head ( ! congregation1 & =get & =give :at he might consid] our irregul> conduct t[>ds him1 aft] we %\ld h sign$ ! foll[+ docum5t3 ,,to ,,8 ,,lord%ip ,o',,regan1 ,,bi%op ,,( ,,*icago4 ,,my ,,"l3--,z my writ+s & actions 9 opposition to y\r ord]s h1 s9ce a few mon?s1 giv5 "s sc&als1 & caus$ "s p to ?9k t ,i w\ld r pref] to be sep>at$ f our holy *ur*1 ?an to submit to y\r au?ority1 ,i ha/5 to express ! regret ,i feel = su* acts & writ+s4 ,& to %[ to ! _w1 & to y1 my bi%op1 my firm desire to live & die a ,ca?olic1 ,i ha/5 to write to y\r lord%ip t ,i submit to y\r s5t5ce1 & t ,i promise1 h]eaft]1 to ex]cise ! holy m9i/ry only ) y\r p]mission4 ,9 consequ5ce1 ,i respectfully reque/ y\r lord%ip to )draw ! c5sures & int]dicts y h pron\nc$ aga9/ me & ^? :o h _h any spiritual communication ) me4 ,i am1 my "l1 y\r devot$ son 9 ,*ri/4 ,c4 ,,*9iquy ,x 0 elev5 o'clock at night1 :5 ,i cons5t$ to sign ?is docum5t1 :i* 0 to be h&$ to ! bi%op & h any value1 only on ! above conditions4 ,! two deputies 7 besides !mselves ) joy1 at ! success ( _! mission1 & at my read9ess to sacrifice myself = ! sake ( peace4 ,mons4 ,desaulni] said3 8,n[ we see1 evid5tly1 t ,*9iquy has be5 "r ) 8 p f ! beg9n+1 t he nev] meant to create a s*ism & to put himself at ! head ( a rebelli\s p>ty1 to defy ! au?ority ( ! *ur*4 ,if ! bi%op does n want to live 9 peace ) ! p & pa/or ( ,/4 ,anne1 aft] su* a sacrifice1 we w tell him t x is n ,*9iquy1 b ,bi%op ,o',regan1 :o wants a s*ism--we w appeal to ! ,pope--,i w g ) ,*9iquy1 & we w easily get1 !re1 ! removal ( t ,bi%op f ! diocese ( ,*icago40 ,mr4 ,brass>d confirm$ t s5t5ce1 & add$ t he1 also1 w\ld accompany me to ,rome to be ! witness ( my innoc5ce & ! bad conduct ( ! bi%op4 ,he add$ t x w\ld n take him a week to raise twice ! am\nt ( money 9 ,montreal1 we w\ld require to g to ,rome4 ,aft] ?ank+ !m = :at !y _h done & said1 ,i ask$ ,mr4 ,desaulni] if he w\ld be brave en\gh to repeat be=e my :ole p :at he _h j said be=e me & ,mr4 ,brass>d1 9 ! pres5ce ( ,god4 8,surely1 ,i w\ld be mo/ happy to repeat be=e y\r :ole p1 t x is impossible to f9d fault ) y 9 :at y h done till n[4 ,b y "k v well1 ,i w nev] h su* an opportunity1 = x is n[ #aa o'clock at night1 y\r p are s\ndly sleep+1 & ,i mu/ />t to-morr[ morn+1 at six o'clock1 to take ! ,*icago tra9 at ,kankakee at #h ,a4 ,m4 ,i answ]$3 8,all "r60 ,we knelt toge!r to make a %ort pray]1 & ,i l$ !m to _! rooms1 wi%+ !m refre%+ sleep1 aft] ! h>d "w ( ! day4 ,t5 m9utes lat] ,i 0 9 ! village1 knock+ at ! doors ( six ( my mo/ respectable p>i%ion]s1 & tell+ !m3 8,please d n lose a mom5t1 g ) y\r fa/e/ horse to su* & su* a "p ( ! colony2 knock at e door & tell ! p to be at ! *ur* at #e o'clock 9 ! morn+ to he> ) _! own e>s :at ! deputies f ,canada h to say ab\t pa/ /ruggles ) ! ,bi%op ( ,*icago4 ,tell !m to be punctual at #e o'clock 9 _! pews1 :]e ! deputies w address !m words :i* !y mu/ he> at any co/40 ,a little be=e five1 ! next morn+1 ,mr4 ,desaulni]1 full ( surprise & anxiety1 knock$ at my door1 & said3 8,*9iquy1 d y n he> ! /range noise ( buggies & c>riages1 :i* seem to be com+ f e qu>t] ( ! globe8 ,:at does x mean8 ,has y\r p become crazy1 to come to *ur* at ?is d>k h\r1 s long be=e ! dawn ( day80 8,:at6 :at60 ,i answ]$1 8,i 0 sleep+ s s\ndly t ,i h he>d no?+ yet4 ,:at d y mean by ?is noise ( c>riages & buggies ar\nd ! *apel8 ,are y dream+80 8,no1 ,i am n dream+10 he answ]$1 8n only d ,i he> ! noise ( a great _m c>riages1 wagons & buggies2 b ?\gh x is pretty d>k1 ,i see sev]al hundr$ ( !m ar\nd ! *apel4 ,i he> ! voices ( a great multitude ( m51 wom51 & ev5 *ildr51 putt+ que/ions to ea* o!r1 & giv+ answ]s :i* ,i _c und]/&4 ,!y make su* a noise by _! laugh+ & jokes6 ,c y tell me :at ?is means8 ,i h nev] be5 s puzzl$ 9 my life40 ,i answ]$ him3 8,d y n see t y are dream+4 ,let me dress myself t ,i may g & see some?+ ( t /range & awful dream60 ,mr4 ,brass>d1 ?\gh a little m calm ?an ,desaulni]1 0 n1 himself1 )\t "s anxiety at ! /range noise ( t multitude ( c>riages1 horses & p ar\nd my h\se & *apel1 at su* an h\r4 ,knock+ at my door1 he said1 8,please1 ,*9iquy1 expla9 t /range my/]y4 ,d t p come to play u "s bad trick1 & puni% u = intrud+ 9 _! affairs80 8,be quiet10 ,i answ]$1 8my de> fri5ds4 ,y h no?+ to fe> f t good & intellig5t p4 ,d y n rememb] t1 la/ night1 a few m9utes be=e #aa o'clock1 ,desaulni] said t he w\ld be hone/ & brave en\gh to repeat be=e my :ole p :at he _h said be=e y & me1 & 9 ! pres5ce ( ,god4 ,i suppose t "s ( ! angels ( heav5 h he>d ^? words1 & h c>ri$ !m1 ?is night1 to e family1 invit+ !m to be "h at ! *apel1 t !y might he> f y\r own lips1 :at y ?9k ( ! gr& & glori\s battle !y are fight+ 9 ?is di/ant l&1 = ! pr9ciples ( tru? & ju/ice1 z ! gospel secures !m to e disciple ( ,*ri/40 8,well6 well60 said ,desaulni]1 8!re is only "o ,*9iquy 9 ! _w to take me 9 su* a trap1 & !re is only "o p "u heav5 to d :at ?is p is do+ "h4 ,i w\ld nev] h giv5 y t answ]1 _h ,i n be5 morally sure t ,i w\ld nev] h _h an opportunity to fulfill x4 ,:o w\ld ?9k y w\ld play me su* a trick8 ,b10 he add$1 8?\gh ,i "k t ?is w t]ribly compromise me be=e c]ta9 p>ties1 x is too late to retract1 & ,i w fulfill my promise40 ,x is impossible to express my own joy & ! joy ( t noble p :5 !y he>d1 f ! v lips ( ^? deputies t1 aft] sp5d+ a :ole day & two nights 9 exam9+ all t _h be5 done by _! pa/or & by !m 9 t solemn & fe>ful conte/1 !y decl>$ t !y _h n brok5 any law ( ,god1 nor ( 8 holy *ur*2 & t !y _h kept !mselves 9 ! v way prescrib$ by ! canons4 ,te>s ( joy 7 roll+ d[n e *eek :5 !y he>d ,mr4 ,desaulni] tell+ !m1 :i* ,mr4 ,brass>d confirm$ aft]1 t ! bi%op _h no possible "r to int]dict _! pa/or1 s9ce he _h told !m t he 0 "o ( 8 be/ prie/s2 & t !y _h done well n to pay any att5tion to an act ( excommunication :i* 0 a %am & a sacrilegi\s com$y1 n hav+ be5 sign$ nor c]tifi$ by any kn[n p]son4 ,bo? deputies said3 8,mr4 ,brass>d w be y\r pa/or1 & ,mr4 ,*9iquy1 z 8 vic>1 w rema9 9 y\r mid/4 ,he has sign$ an act ( submission1 :i* we h f\nd suffici5t1 on ! condition t ! bi%op w let y live 9 peace1 & )draw ! s5t5ce he says he has fulm9at$ aga9/ y4 ,if he does n accept ^? conditions1 we w tell him1 x is n ,mr4 ,*9iquy1 b y1 :o wants a s*ism1 & we w g ) ,mr4 ,*9iquy to ,rome1 to plead 8 cause & prove 8 innoc5ce be=e 8 hol9ess40 ,aft] ?is1 we all knelt to ?ank & bless ,god2 & nev] p w5t back to _! homes ) m *e]ful he>ts ?an ! p ( ,/4 ,anne1 on t morn+ ( ! #be? ( ,novemb]1 #ahef4 ,at six o'clock ,a4 ,m41 ,mr4 ,desaulni] 0 on 8 way back to ,*icago1 to pres5t my conditional act ( submission to ! bi%op1 & press him1 9 ! "n ( ! ,bi%op ( ,canada1 & 9 ! "n ( all ! mo/ sacr$ int]e/s ( ! *ur*1 to accept ! sacrifice & ! submission ( ! p ( ,/4 ,anne1 & to give !m ! peace !y want$ & 7 pur*as+ at su* a price4 ,! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,brass>d _h rema9$ ) me1 wait+ = a lett] f ! bi%op to accompany me & put ! la/ seal to our reconciliation4 ,! next day he receiv$ ! foll[+ note f ,mr4 ,desaulni]3 ,,bi%opric ,,( ,,*icago1 ,nov4 #bf?1 #ahef4 ,,! ,,rev4 ,,mr4 ,,brass>d1 ,,monsieur3-- ,x is advisable & indisp5sable t y %\ld come "h1 ) ,mr4 ,*9iquy1 z soon z possible4 ,9 consequ5ce1 ,i expect y bo? day aft] to-morr[1 9 ord] to settle t matt] def9itely4 ,respectfully y\rs4 ,,isaac ,,desaulni]4 ,aft] read+ t lett] ) ,mr4 ,brass>d1 ,i said3 8,d y n feel t ^! cold words mean no?+ good8 ,i regret t y h n gone ) ,desaulni] to ! bi%op4 ,y "k ! levity & weakness ( 8 "*1 always bold ) 8 words1 b s(t z wax at ! lea/ pressure :i* he feels4 ,my fe> is t ! bulldog t5acity ( my "l ,o',regan has fright5$ him1 & all 8 c\rage & bravados h melt$ away be=e ! fi]ce temp] ( ! ,bi%op ( ,*icago4 ,b let u g4 ,be sure1 h[ev]1 my de> ,mr4 ,brass>d1 t if ! ,bi%op does n accept y to rema9 at ! head ( ?is colony1 to protect & guide x1 no consid]ation :atev] w induce me to betray my p & let !m become ! prey ( ! wolves :i* want to dev\r !m40 ,we arriv$ at ! ,ill9ois ,c5tral depot ( ,*icago1 ! #bh?1 at ab\t #aj ,a4 ,m4 ,mr4 ,desaulni] 0 !re wait+ = u4 ,he 0 z pale z a dead man4 ,! m>ks ( ,ca9 & ,judas 7 on 8 face4 ,hav+ tak5 him at a %ort di/ance f ! cr[d1 ,i ask$ him3 8,:at news80 ,he answ]$3 8,! news is1 t y & ,mr4 ,brass>d h no?+ to d b to take y\r bags & g away f ,/4 ,anne1 to ,canada4 ,! bi%op is unwill+ to make any arrangem5ts ) y4 ,he wants me to be ! pa/or ( ,/4 ,anne1 pro tempore1 & he wants y ) ,mr4 ,brass>d1 to g quietly back to ,canada1 & tell ! bi%ops to m9d _! own bus9ess40 8,& :at has become ( ! promise y h giv5 me & to my p1 to g ) me & ,mr4 ,brass>d to ,rome1 if ! bi%op refus$ ! propos$ arrangem5ts y _h fix$ y\rselves80 8,tat6 tat6 tat60 answ]$ he1 8! bi%op does n c>e a /raw ab\t y\r go+ or n go+ to ,rome4 ,he has put me z 8 gr& vic> at ! head ( ! colony ( ,/4 ,anne1 f :i* y mu/ g 9 ! %orte/ "t possible40 8,n[1 ,desaulni]10 ,i answ]$1 8y are a traitor1 & a ,judas1 & if y want to h ! pay ( ,judas1 ,i advise y to g to ,/4 ,anne4 ,!re y w receive :at y des]ve4 ,! beauty & importance ( t great colony has tempt$ y1 & y h sold me to ! bi%op1 9 ord] to become a gr& vic> & eat ! fruits ( ! v9e ,i h plant$ !re4 ,b y w soon see y\r mi/ake4 ,if y h any pity = y\rself1 ,i advise y nev] to put y\r feet into t place any m40 ,desaulni] answ]$3 8,! bi%op w n make any arrangem5ts ) y unless y retract publicly :at y h writt5 aga9/ him on acc\nt ( 8 tak+ possession ( ! *ur* ( ! ,fr5*-,canadians ( ,*icago1 & y mu/ publi%1 9 ! press1 t he 0 "r & hone/ 9 :at he did 9 t circum/ance40 8,my de> ,mr4 ,brass>d10 ,i said1 8c ,i make su* a decl>ation consci5ti\sly & honorably80 ,t v5]able man answ]$ me3 8,y _c cons5t to su* a ?+40 8,desaulni]10 ,i said1 8d y he>8 ,mr4 ,brass>d & y\r consci5ce1 if y h any1 tell y ! same ?+4 ,if y take sides aga9/ me ) a man :om y h y\rself decl>$1 ye/]day1 to be a sacrilegi\s ?ief1 y are n bett] ?an he is4 ,g & "w ) him4 8,z = me1 ,i g back into ! mid/ ( my de> & noble p ( ,/4 ,anne40 8,:at w y d !re10 answ]$ ,mr4 ,desaulni]1 8:5 ! bi%op has =bidd5 y to rema980 8,:at w ,i d80 ,i answ]$1 8,i w tea* ^? true disciples ( ,jesus ,*ri/ to %un & despise ! tyrants & ! traitors1 ev5 ?\gh we>+ a mitre or a squ>e bonnet 7un bonnet qu>re74 ,g1 traitor6 & f9i% y\r ,judas "w6 ,adieu60 ,i !n ?rew myself into ! arms ( ,mr4 ,brass>d1 :o 0 almo/ spee*less1 suffocat$ 9 8 sobs & te>s4 ,i press$ him to my he>t1 & said3 8,adieu6 my de> ,mr4 ,brass>d4 ,g back to ,canada & tell my fri5ds h[ ! c[>dice & ambition ( t traitor has ru9$ ! hopes we _h ( putt+ an end to ?is deplorable /ate ( affairs4 ,i g back among my bre?r5 ( ,/4 ,anne1 ) m det]m9ation ?an ev] to protect !m aga9/ ! tyranny & impiety ( our despotic rul]s4 ,x w be m easy ?an ev] to %[ !m t ! ,son ( ,god has n r$eem$ u on ! cross1 t we might be ! slaves ( ^? he>tless trad]s 9 s\ls4 8,i w m e>ne/ly ?an ev]1 tea* my p to %un ! mod]n gospel ( ! bi%ops1 9 ord] to foll[ ! old ,gospel ( ,jesus ,*ri/1 z ! only hope & life ( our poor fall5 humanity40 ,mr4 ,brass>d want$ to say some?+2 b 8 voice 0 suffocat$ by 8 sobs4 ,! only words he c\ld utt]1 :5 press+ me to 8 he>t1 73 8,adieu1 de> fri5d1 ,adieu60 ,,*apt] ,,lxiii4 ,,mr4 ,,desaulni] ,,is ,,nam$ ,,vic> ,,g5]al ,,( ,,*icago ,,to ,,cru% ,,u--,,our ,,p ,,m ,,unit$ ,,?an ,,ev] ,,to ,,def5d ,,_! ,,rights--,,lett]s ,,( ,,! ,,p ,,( ,,*icago ,,to ,,! ,,bi%ops ,,& ,,to ,,! ,,pope--,,lett]s ,,( ,,! ,,bi%op ,,( ,,montreal ,,aga9/ ,,me1 ,,& ,,my ,,answ]--,,mr4 ,,brass>d ,,=c$1 ,,aga9/ ,,8 ,,consci5ce1 ,,to ,,condemn ,,u--,,my ,,answ] ,,to ,,mr4 ,,brass>d--,,he ,,writes ,,to ,,beg ,,my ,,p>don4 ,x 0 evid5t t ! betrayal ( ,mr4 ,desaulni] w\ld be foll[$ by new ef=ts on ! "p ( ! bi%op to cru% u4 ,two new prie/s 7 s5t f ,canada1 ,mr4 ,maill\x1 vic> g5]al1 & ,mr4 ,campo1 to /r5g!n 8 h&s1 & press ! p to submit4 ,mr4 ,brass>d wrote me f ,canada 9 ,decemb]3 8,all ! bi%ops are prep>+ to hurl _! ?und]s aga9/ y1 & y\r p1 on acc\nt ( y\r h]oic resi/ance to ! tyranny ( ! bi%op ( ,*icago4 8,i h told !m ! tru?1 b !y don't want to "k x4 ,my "l ,b\rget told me positively1 t y mu/ be =c$1 at any co/1 to yield to ! au?ority ( y\r bi%op2 & he has ?reat5$ to excommunicate me1 if ,i tell ! p :at ,i "k ( ! %ameful conduct ( ,desaulni]4 ,if ,i 7 alone ,i w\ld n m9d 8 excommunication1 & w\ld speak ! tru?1 b su* a s5t5ce aga9/ me w\ld kill my poor old "m4 ,i hope y w n f9d fault ) me1 if ,i rema9 absolutely mute4 ,i pray y to consid] ?is lett] confid5tial4 ,y "k v well ! tr\ble y w\ld put me into1 by its publication40 ,! ,fr5* ,canadians ( ,*icago saw1 at once1 t _! bi%op1 /r5g!n$ by ! support ( ,desaulni]1 w\ld be m ?an ev]1 ob/9ate 9 8 det]m9ation to cru% !m4 ,!y ?\ght t ! be/ way to =ce him to d !m ju/ice1 0 to publi% a manife/o ( _! grievances aga9/ him1 & make a public appeal to all ! ,bi%ops ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates & ev5 to ! ,pope4 ,on ! #bbnd ( ,janu>y1 #aheg1 ,! ,*icago ,tribune 0 reque/$ by !m to publi% ! foll[+ docum5t3 ,at a public meet+ ( ! ,fr5* & ,canadian ,ca?olics ( ,*icago held 9 ! hall ( ,mr4 ,bodic>1 on ! #bbnd ( ,janu>y1 #aheg1 ,mr4 ,r(9ot be+ call$ to preside1 & ,mr4 ,fran*]e1,g act+ z a ,secret>y1 ! foll[+ addresses & resolutions1 be+ read1 h be5 unanim\sly approv$3 ----- ,footnote ,g3 ,^! two g5tlem5 are /ill liv+ 9 ,*icago1 #ahhf4 ----- 8,,editors ,,( ,,! ,,tribune3--,w y all[ a ?\s& voices f ! dead to speak to ! public1 ?r\gh y\r valuable pap]4 8,ev]ybody 9 ,*icago kn[s1 t a few ye>s ago1 !re 0 a fl\ri%+ congregation ( ,fr5* p com+ f ,france & ,canada 9 ?is city4 ,!y _h _! prie/1 _! *ur*1 _! religi\s meet+4 ,all t is n[ disp]s$ & de/roy$4 ,! pres5t ,bi%op ( ,*icago has brea!d 8 deadly brea? ^u u4 ,in/ead ( com+ to u z a fa!r1 he came z a savage enemy3 in/ead ( help+ u z a fri5d1 he has put u d[n z a rev5geful foe4 ,he has done ! v contr>y to :i* 0 comm&$ him by ! gospel4 #8,! bruis$ re$ he %all n break1 & ! smok+ fla% he %all n ext+ui%4' ,in/ead ( guid+ u ) ! cross ( ! meek ,jesus1 he has rul$ ov] u ) an iron rod4 8,e ,sunday1 ! w>m-he>t$ & g5]\s ,iri% g to _! *ur* to he> ! voice ( _! prie/1 9 _! ,engli% language4 ,! intellig5t ,g]mans h _! pa/ors to address !m 9 _! "m tongue4 8,! ,fr5* p are ! only ones n[ :o h no prie/ & no *ur*4 ,!y are ! only ones ^: beautiful language is prohibit$1 & :i* is n he>d f any pulpit 9 ,*icago4 ,& is x f lack ( zeal & lib]ality8 ,ah6 no1 we take ! :ole city ( ,*icago z a witness ( :at we h done4 ,!re 0 n 9 ,*icago a bett]-look+ little *ur* ?an ! ,fr5* ,canadian ,*ur* call$ ,/4 ,l\is4 ,b1 alas6 we h be5 turn$ out ( x by our v bi%op4 ,z he is n[ publi%+ _m /ories to contradict t fact1 we owe to ourselves & to our *ildr5 to raise f ! tomb1 :]e ,bi%op ,o',regan has buri$ u1 a voice to tell ! tru?4 8,z soon z ,bi%op ,o',regan came to ,*icago1 he 0 told t ! ,fr5* prie/ 0 too popul>1 t 8 *ur* 0 att5d$ n only by 8 ,fr5* ,canadian p1 b t _m ,iri% & ,g]mans 7 go+ daily to him1 = _! religi\s duties4 ,x 0 :isp]$ 9 ! e>s ( 8 ,rt4 ,rev]5ce1 t on acc\nt ( ?is1 _m doll>s & c5ts 7 go+ to ! ,fr5* prie/1 :i* w\ld be bett] /or$ 9 8 ,rt4 ,rev]5ce's purse4 8,till t "t1 ! bi%op 0 n1 9 appe>ance1 tak+ mu* tr\ble ab\t u4 ,b z soon z he saw t !re 7 doll>s & c5ts at /ake1 we _h ! honor to occupy 8 ?\ghts day & night4 ,"h are ! facts1 ! und5iable public facts4 ,he 7! bi%op7 began by s5d+ = our prie/1 & tell+ him t he _h to prep>e himself to be remov$ f ,*icago to "s o!r place4 ,z soon z we knew t det]m9ation1 a deputation 0 s5t to 8 ,rt4 ,rev]5ce1 to get ! promise t we w\ld get ano!r ,fr5* prie/1 & we receiv$ f him ! assurance t our j reque/ w\ld be grant$4 ,b ! next ,sunday1 an ,iri% prie/1 hav+ be5 s5t to (ficiate1 in/ead ( a ,fr5* "o1 we s5t a deputation to ask him :]e ! ,fr5* prie/ 0 t he _h promis$ u8 ,he answ]$3 #8,t we ought to take any prie/ we c\ld get1 & be satisfi$4' ,?is %ort & %>p answ] rais$ our ,fr5* blood1 & we began speak+ m boldly to 8 ,rev]5ce1 :o got up & walk$ ?r\gh ! room1 9 a rage1 say+ "s half doz5 times3 #8,y insult me6' ,b see+ t we 7 a fe>less p1 & det]m9$ to h no o!r prie/ b "o :om we c\ld und]/&1 he1 at la/ promis$ u aga91 a ,fr5* prie/1 if we 7 ready to pay ! debt ( our *ur* & prie/-h\se4 ,we said we w\ld pay !m1 b1 our v]bal promise 0 no?+ to 8 ,rev]5ce4 ,he imm$iately wrote an agreem5t1 ?\gh x 0 ,sunday1 & we sign$ x4 ,b to atta91 soon] or lat]1 8 object1 he impos$ ^u t un=tunate prie/1 a condition t he knew no ,*ri/ian c\ld obey4 8,?is condition 0 t he %\ld n receive1 9 8 *ur*1 any "o b ! ,fr5*4 ,?is 0 utt]ly impossible1 z _m ,iri%1 ,g]mans & ,am]ican ,ca?olics _h be5 9 ! habit1 = ye>s pa/1 ( com+ to our *ur*2 x 0 impossible to turn !m out at once4 8,we did ev]y?+ 9 our p[] to help our prie/ 9 ! matt]1 by tak+ all ! seats 9 ! *ur* aga9/ ! w ( ! respectable p ( ! diff]5t nations :o _h occupi$ !m = ye>s4 ,f9d+ !mselves turn$ out ( ! *ur*1 & unable to conceive ! reason ( s gross an insult f a fell[-,*ri/ian p1 !y said to u3 #8,h we n paid = our seats 9 y\r *ur* till ?is day8 ,d\ble ! r5t if y l2 we are ready to pay = x2 b1 = ,god's sake p]mit u to come & pray ) y at ! foot ( ! same alt>s4' 8,we expla9$ to !m ! tyrannical ord]s ( ! bi%op1 & !y1 too1 comm5c$ curs+ ! bi%op & ! %ip t br\ght him ov]4 8,!y cont9u$1 h[ev]1 to come to our *ur*1 ?\gh !y _h no seat4 ,!y att5d$ div9e s]vice 9 ! aisles ( ! *ur*1 & we did n l to di/urb !m2 b our feel+s 7 too ,*ri/ian = ! bi%op4 ,he kept a wat* ov] our prie/1 &1 ( c\rse f\nd out t he 0 receiv+ _m :o 7 =bidd51 by him1 to att5d our religi\s meet+s4 8,! bi%op1 !n1 ?\ght once m ( 8 de> ,fr5* prie/2 s he came 9 p]son to 8 h\se1 & ask$ him if he _h kept 8 ord]s4 ,! prie/ answ]$1 t x 0 q impossible to obey su* ord]s1 & rema9 a ,*ri/ian4 ,he ackn[l$g$ t1 9 _m in/ances1 he _h be5 oblig$1 by ! laws ( *>ity1 to give religi\s help to "s :o 7 n ,fr5* p4 8#8,well !n1' answ]$ ! bi%op1 #8f ?is v mom5t2 ,i sil5ce y1 & ,i =bid y ! functions ( prie/ 9 my diocese4' 8,! poor trembl+ prie/1 ?und]/ruck1 c\ld n say a ^w4 8,he w5t to "s fri5ds to relate :at _h j happ5$ him2 & he 0 advis$ by !m to g back to ! bi%op imm$iately to beg ! privilege ( rema9+ at ! head ( 8 congregation till ,l5t 0 ov]4 ,! bi%op said3 8#8,i w cons5t to y\r reque/1 if y pay me "o hundr$ doll>s4' 8#8,i w give y ! sum z soon z ,i c collect x1 & w give y my note = ?irty days1' answ]$ ! prie/4 8#8,i want ! money ca% d[n1' said ! bi%op2 #8g to "s ( y\r fri5ds2 y c easily collect t am\nt4' 8,! poor prie/ w5t away 9 se>* ( ! almighty doll>s2 b he c\ld n f9d !m z soon z he wi%$1 & did n return to 8 lord%ip1 t day4 ,! bi%op />t$ t night = ,/4 ,l\is1 b he did n =get 8 de> ,fr5* p 9 8 long j\rney4 ,z soon z he arriv$ 9 ,/4 ,l\is1 he wrote to 8 gr& vic>1 ,rev4 ,mr4 ,dunn1 t ! ,fr5* prie/ pay him #ajj or rema9 susp5d$4 8,?is goodwill ( ! bi%op = our spiritual welf>e1 & 8 pat]nal love = our purses1 did n fail to /rike u4 ,our prie/ made a new ef=t t v day2 he w5t to see an old fri5d :o _h be5 abs5t f t[n = "s "t1 & relat$ to him 8 sad position4 ,?is old fri5d 7,p4 ,f4 ,r(9ot7 see+ t he c\ld r$eem a prie/ = s little a sum1 7= ! prie/ _h collect$ "p ( x himself7 imm$iately proce$$ ) ! prie/ to ! h\se ( v ,rev]5d ,dunn1 ) ! money 9 h& to satisfy ! bi%op4 8,b alas6 t b>ga9 did n la/ v long2 = z soon z ! bi%op return$1 ! wat* t he _h left beh9d him p]=m$ 8 duty well & told him t ! ,fr5* prie/ 0 go+ on z be=e4 ,s ! poor prie/ _h to g aga9 to ! bi%op to expla9 8 conduct4 ,b ?is "t he c\ld n be> ! idea ( (ficiat+ any long] "u su* a tyrant4 ,he left u to fight ! h>de/ battles ourselves1 aga9/ ! bi%op4 8,z ! *ur* & ! h\se ( our prie/ 7 on leas$ gr\nds1 ! lease _h to be r5ew$ or ! build+s remov$4 ,we w5t to ! bi%op1 :o advis$ u to buy a lot & remove ! *ur* on x1 & sell ! h\se to help pay = ! lot4 ,suspect+ no?+ wrong 9 t advice1 we foll[$ x4 ,we b>ga9$ = a lot1 agre$ to sell ! h\se & w5t to report our progress4 8,b we 7 go+ too fa/4 ,! bi%op mu/ /op u1 or he w\ld be fru/rat$ 9 8 calculations1 = he _h a lot himself1 to put ! *ur* on1 he oppos$ our remov+ our *ur*1 by tell+ u t !re 0 ano!r lot adjo9+ ! "o we _h b>ga9$ =2 & t we mu/ buy x also4 ,we w5t imm$iately & b\ght ! lot on n9ety days "t4 ,b he object$ to ?is aga91 say+ t he w\ld n all[ u to t\* ! *ur*1 unless we _h ! :ole lot paid =1 & put ! de$ 9 8 h&s1 & t ! de$ %\ld be made to himself p]sonally4 8,?is _h ! effect desir$ by ! bi%op4 ,we _h collect$ all ! money t c\ld be collect$ !n1 9 our small congregation2 x 0 impossible = u to d any m1 s we conclud$ to give up ! battle4 ,! bi%op !n1 w5t on1 took ! money we _h sold ! h\se = 7#a1bjj74 ,a ,ca?olic lady1 ^: husb& _h b\ght ! h\se1 _h subscrib$ "o hundr$ doll>s = remov+ ! *ur*1 provid+ ! bi%op w\ld promise t x w\ld rema9 9 ! h&s ( ! ,fr5*1 & att5d$ by a ,fr5* prie/4 ,! bi%op pr(f]$ aga9 to t lady ! lie1 :i* he _h s (t5 utt]$ to u1 ev]y:]e1 ev5 f ! alt>1 t ^u 8 ^w ( bi%op1 x %\ld rema9 a ,fr5* ,*ur*1 & t !y %\ld h a ,fr5* prie/4 7,?is we %\ld call lie numb] "o74 ,he !n mov$ ! *ur* to ano!r lot ( 8 own1 s5t an ,iri% prie/ to (ficiate 9 x1 put ! money 9 8 pocket1 & made ! congregation :i* is n[ ,iri%1 pay = ! lot1 ! mov+ & repair+ ( ! *ur*1 & he takes qu>t]ly ! rev5ues :i* are no less ?an #b1jjj a ye>4 88,?is is ! way we h be5 sw9dl$ out ( our *ur*1 ( ! h\se ( our prie/1 & ( our all1 by ! tyrant1 ,bi%op ,o',regan3 & :5 a ,fr5* prie/ visits our city1 he =bids him to address u 9 our "m tongue4 ,?is is ! way we1 ,fr5* ,ca?olics1 z a society1 h be5 blott$ out ( ! book ( ! liv+6 8,& :5 ,rev4 ,fa!r ,*9iquy has publicly accus$ ,bi%op ,o',regan ( hav+ depriv$ u mo/ unju/ly ( our *ur*1 he has pr(f]$ a tru? :i* has z _m witnesses z !re are ,ca?olics & ,prote/ants 9 ,*icago4 8,we "k well t ,bi%op ,o',regan is proclaim+ t he has n depriv$ u ( our *ur*1 t if x is 9 ! h&s ( ! ,iri%1 x is because ! ,iri% & n ! ,fr5* built x4 #8,?is is lie numb] two1 :i* c be prov5 by m ?an a ?\s& witnesses4' 8,we w\ld l to "k if he has =gott5 ! agreem5t 7m5tion$ above7 :i* he made u sign 9 b>ga9+ = a ,fr5* prie/4 ,he has ! receipts = e c5t t 0 due up to ! "t he took possession ( our *ur*4 ,he !n pr(f]$ ^! words to ! ,fr5* g5tlem5 :o br\ght him ! receipts3 #8,x takes ! ,fr5* to collect money quick ^! h>d times1' 7be+ 9 ! w9t]74 8,we mu/ also add t we1 ,fr5* p1 h paid = ! v ve/m5ts t ! bi%op uses 9 8 ,ca!dral1 :i* he has tak5 f our *ur*4 ,b he uses !m only on "s high fea/s1 ?9k+ too mu* ( /ol5 prop]ty1 to use !m on a common day4 8,w x be out ( place1 "h1 to say t ! ca!dral ( ,*icago 0 built by ! ,fr5*1 & t ! lot :i* x is built on 0 giv5 by a ,fr5*man8 ,x is v reluctantly t we expose all ^! facts be=e ! eyes ( ! public2 b hav+ wait$ pati5tly1 dur+ two long ye>s1 & hav+ us$ all ! influ5ce we c\ld comm& 9 ,france & ,canada1 to no purpose1 we mu/ resort to ! sympa?y ( ! public = ju/ice1 ?r\gh ! free press ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates4 8,,resolutions4 8,resolv$1 #a/4 ,t ! ,"r ,rev4 ,o',regan1 ,bi%op ( ,*icago1 has entirely lo/ ! confid5ce ( ! ,fr5* & ,canadian population ( ,*icago s9ce he has tak5 away f u our *ur*4 8,resolv$1 #bnd4 ,t ! ,"r ,rev4 ,o',regan has publi%$ a base sl&] aga9/ ! ,fr5* & ,canadian population ( ,*icago1 :5 he said he took our *ur* f our h&s on ! pret5ce t we c\ld n pay = x4 8,resolv$1 #crd4 ,t ! ,"r ,rev4 ,o',regan1 hav+ said to our deputies1 :o w5t to inquire f him by :at "r he 0 tak+ our *ur* f u to give x to ano!r congregation3 #8,i h ! "r to d :at ,i l ) y\r *ur*1 & y\r *ur* prop]ties2 ,i c sell !m & put ! money 9 my pocket1 & g :]e ,i please ) x1' has assum$ a p[] too tyrannical to be obey$ by a ,*ri/ian & a free p4 8,resolv$1 #d?4 ,t ! nature ( ! diff]5t suits :i* ! ,"r ,rev4 ,o',regan has _h be=e ! civil c\rts ( ?is /ate1 & :i* he has almo/ inv>iably lo/1 h prov$ to ! :ole p ( ,ill9ois t he is q unwor?y ( ! position he holds 9 ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*4 8,resolv$1 #e?4 ,t ! ,"r ,rev4 ,o',regan is "h publicly accus$ ( be+ guilty ( simony = hav+ extort$ #ajj f a prie/ to give him p]mission to (ficiate & adm9i/] ! sacram5ts among u4 8,resolv$1 #f?4 ,t ! ,"r ,rev4 ,o',regan1 9 =bidd+ ! ,iri% & ,g]man ,ca?olics to communicate ) ! ,fr5* ,ca?olic ,*ur*1 & all[+ ! ,fr5* & ,canadians to communicate ) ! ,iri% & ,g]man ,*ur*es1 has act$ ) a view to deprive ! ,fr5* ,*ur* ( religi\s fees & o!r donations1 :i* acts we consid] unju/ & aga9/ ! _s ( ! *ur*1 & m resembl+ a m]cantile transaction ?an a ,*ri/ian "w4 8,resolv$1 #g?4 ,t ! ,fr5* & ,canadian p ( ,ill9ois h se5 ) feel+s ( grief & surprise t ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,desaulni] has made himself ! humble valet ( ! m]ciless & %ameless p]secutor ( 8 c\ntrym54 8,resolv$1 #h?4 ,t ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,*9iquy1 pa/or ( ,/4 ,anne1 des]ves ! gratitude ( e ,ca?olic ( ,ill9ois1 = hav+ ! fir/1 put a /op to ! rapaci\s tyranny ( ! bi%op ( ,*icago4 8,resolv$1 #i?4 ,t ! ,fr5* ,ca?olics ( ,*icago are det]m9$ to give all support 9 _! p[] to ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,*9iquy1 9 8 /ruggle aga9/ ! bi%op ( ,*icago4 8,resolv$1 #aj?4 ,t a pr9t$ copy ( ^! resolutions be s5t to e bi%op & ar*bi%op ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates & ,canada1 t !y may see ! necessity ( giv+ to ! *ur* ( ,ill9ois a bi%op m wor?y ( t high position4 8,resolv$1 #aa?4 ,t a copy ( ^! resolutions be s5t to ,8 ,hol9ess ,pius ,,ix41 t he may be incit$ to make inquiries ab\t ! humiliat$ position ( ! *ur* 9 ,ill9ois1 s9ce ! pres5t bi%op is among u4 8,resolv$1 #ab?4 ,t ! indep5d5ce & lib]ty lov+ press ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates be reque/$ to publi% ! above address & resolutions all ov] ! c\ntry4 8,p4 ,f4 ,,r(9ot1 ,presid5t4 8,,david ,,fran*]e1 ,secret>y40 ,t cry ( m ?an two ?\s& ,roman ,ca?olics ( ,*icago1 :i* 0 reproduc$ by almo/ ! :ole press ( ,ill9ois1 & ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 fell z a ?und]bolt ^u ! head ( my "l ,o',regan & ,desaulni]4 ,!y wrote to all bi%ops ( ,am]ica1 to ha/5 to _! rescue1 & = sev]al mon?s ! pulpits ( ! ,roman ,ca?olic ,*ur*es _h no o!r mission ?an to repeat ! e*oes ( ! ,episcopal fulm9ations hurl$ aga9/ my devot$ head4 ,_m bi%op's lett]s & m&em5ts 7 publi%$1 d5\nc+ me & my p z infam\s s*ismatics1 ^: pride & ob/9ancy 7 tr\bl+ ! peace ( ! *ur*4 ,b ! mo/ bitt] ( all ^!1 0 a lett] f my "l ,b\rget1 bi%op ( ,montreal1 :o ?\ght ! be/1 if n ! only way1 to =ce ! p to des]t me1 0 by =ev] de/roy+ my honor4 ,b he _h ! mis=tune to fall into ! pit he _h dug = me1 9 #ahea4 ,! mis]able girl he _h associat$ ) himself1 to satisfy 8 implacable hatr$1 0 dead4 ,b1 he _h /ill 9 h& ! ly+ accusations obta9$ f h]1 aga9/ me4 ,hav+ probably de/roy$ h] sworn recantation1 writt5 by ! ,jesuit ,fa!r ,s*neid]1 & n hav+ ! lea/ idea t ,i _h kept ?ree o!r sworn copies ( ! recantations--he ?\ght he c\ld safely publi% t ,i 0 a degrad$ man1 :o _h be5 driv5 f ,canada1 by him1 aft] be+ convict$ ( "s enorm\s crime1 & int]dict$4 ,?is decl>ation 0 br\ght be=e ! public1 = ! fir/ "t1 by him1 ) an hypocritical air ( compassion & m]cy = me1 :i* add$ mu* to ! deadly effect he expect$ to produce by x4 ,"h are 8 own words1 address$ to ! p ( ,b\rbonnais1 & ?r\gh !m1 to ! :ole _w3 8,i mu/ tell y t on ! #bg? ( ,septemb]1 #ahea1 ,i )drew all 8 p[]s1 & int]dict$ him1 = reasons :i* ,i gave him 9 my lett] address$ to him2 a lett] :i* he has probably kept4 ,let him publi% t lett] if he f9ds t ,i h p]secut$ him unju/ly40 ,i c\ld h>dly believe my eyes :5 ,i read ?is ignom9i\s act ( p]fidy on ! "p ( t high dignit>y3 x seem$ incr$ible1 & surpass$ any?+ ,i _h ev] se51 ev5 9 ,bi%op ,o',regan4 ,i c n say1 h[ev]1 t x took me entirely by surprise1 = ,i _h anticipat$ x4 ,:5 ,fa!r ,s*neid] ask$ me :y ,i _h tak5 f\r sworn copies ( ! recantation ( ! un=tunate girl ^: te>s ( regret 7 fl[+ be=e u1 ,i told him t ,i knew s mu* ( ! meanness & p]fidy ( ,bi%op ,b\rget1 t ,i ?\ght he might de/roy ! copy we 7 s5d+ him1 9 ord] to pi]ce me aga9 ) 8 poison\s arr[s1 :il/1 if ,i kept ?ree o!r copies1 "o = him1 "o = ,mr4 ,brass>d & "o = myself1 ,i w\ld h no?+ to fe>4 ,i am conv9c$ t my m]ciful ,god knew ! malice ( t bi%op aga9/ me1 & gave me t wisdom to save me4 ,i imm$iately s5t him1 ?r\gh ! press1 ! foll[+ answ]3 ,,to ,,monsignor ,,b\rget3 ,,/4 ,,anne1 ,april #ah1 #aheg4 ,,my ,,"l3--,9 y\r lett] ( ! #ai? ( ,m>*1 y assure ! public t y h int]dict$ me1 a few days be=e my leav+ ,canada = ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 & y invite me to give ! reasons ( t s5t5ce4 ,i w satisfy y4 ,on ! #bh? ( ,septemb]1 #ahea1 ,i f\nd a lett] on my table f y1 tell+ me t y _h susp5d$ me f my ecclesia/ical (fices1 on acc\nt ( a great crime t ,i _h committ$1 & ( :i* ,i 0 accus$4 ,b ! "n ( ! accus] 0 n giv51 nor ! nature ( ! crime4 ,i imm$iately w5t to see y1 & prote/+ my innoc5ce1 ,i reque/$ y to give me ! "n ( my accus]s1 & all[ me to be confront$ by !m1 promis+ t ,i w\ld prove my innoc5ce4 ,y refus$ to grant my reque/4 ,!n ,i fell on my knees1 & ) te>s1 9 ! "n ( ,god1 ,i reque/$ y aga9 to all[ me to meet my accus]s & prove my innoc5ce4 ,y rema9$ deaf to my pray] & unmov$ by my te>s2 y repuls$ me ) a malice & air ( tyranny :i* ,i ?\ght impossible 9 y4 ,dur+ ! tw5ty-f\r h\rs aft] ?is1 s5tim5ts ( an inexpressible wra? cross$ my m9d4 ,i tell x to y frankly1 9 t t]rible h\r1 ,i w\ld h pref]r$ to be at ! feet ( a hea!n prie/1 ^: knife w\ld h slaught]$ me on 8 alt>s1 to appease 8 inf]nal gods1 r ?an be at ! feet ( a man :o1 9 ! "n ( ,jesus ,*ri/1 & "u ! mask ( ! gospel1 %\ld d>e to commit su* a cruel act4 ,y _h tak5 away my honor--y _h de/roy$ me ) ! mo/ infam\s calumny--& y _h refus$ me e means ( ju/ification6 ,y _h tak5 "u y\r protection ! c[>ds :o 7 /abb+ me 9 ! d>k6 ,?\gh x is h>d to repeat1 ,i mu/ tell x "h publicly1 ,i curs$ y on t horrible day4 ,) a brok5 he>t1 ,i w5t to ! ,jesuit college1 & ,i %[$ ! w\nds ( my ble$+ s\l to ! noble fri5d :o 0 g5]ally my confessor1 ! ,rev4 ,fa!r ,s*neid]1 ! director ( ! college4 ,aft] ?ree days1 hav+ provid5tially got "s reasons to suspect :o 0 ! au?or ( my de/ruction1 ,i s5t "s "o to ask h] to come to ! college1 )\t m5tion+ my "n4 ,:5 %e 0 9 ! p>lor1 ,i said to ,fa!r ,s*neid]3 8,y knew ! horrible iniquity ( ! bi%op aga9/ me2 ) ! ly+ words ( a pro/itute1 he has tri$ to de/roy me2 b please come & be ! witness ( my innoc5ce40 ,:5 9 ! pres5ce ( t un=tunate female1 ,i told h]3 8,y are 9 ! pres5ce ( ,god ,almighty1 & two ( 8 prie/s4 ,!y w be ! witnesses ( :at y say6 ,speak ! tru?4 ,say 9 ! pres5ce ( ,god & ?is v5]able prie/1 if ,i h ev] be5 guilty ( :at y h accus$ me to ! bi%op40 ,at ^! words1 ! un=tunate female bur/ into te>s2 %e conceal$ h] face 9 h] h&s1 & ) a voice half suffocat$ ) h] sobs1 %e answ]$3 8,no1 sir1 y are n guilty ( t s960 8,confess "h ano!r tru?10 ,i said to h]2 8,is x n true y h come to confess to me m ) ! desire to tempt me ?an to reconcile y\rself to ,god80 ,%e said1 8,yes1 sir1 t is ! tru?40 ,!n ,i said aga91 8,cont9ue to say ! tru?1 & ,i w =give y1 & ,god also w =give y\r iniquity4 ,is x n ?r\gh rev5ge = hav+ fail$ 9 y\r crim9al designs1 t y h tri$ to de/roy me by false accusation to ! bi%op80 8,yes1 sir1 x 0 ! only reason :i* has induc$ me to accuse y falsely4 8,& all ,i say "h1 at lea/ 9 sub/ance1 has be5 he>d1 writt5 & sign$ by ! ,"r ,rev4 ,s*neid]1 "o ( y\r prie/s1 & ! pres5t director ( ! ,jesuit college4 ,t v5]able prie/ is /ill liv+ 9 ,montreal2 let ! p ( ,canada g & int]rogate him4 ,let ! p ( ,canada also g to ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,brass>d1 :o has 9 8 h&s an au!nticat$ copy ( t decl>ation4 8,y\r lord%ip gives ! public to und]/& t ,i 0 disgrac$ by t s5t5ce "s days be=e ,i left ,canada = ,ill9ois4 ,all[ me to give y my reasons = diff]+ f y 9 ?is matt]4 ,!re is a canon law ( ! *ur* :i* says3 8,if a c5sure is unju/ & unf\nd$1 let ! man aga9/ :om ! s5t5ce has be5 pass$ pay no att5tion to x4 ,=1 be=e ,god & 8 *ur*1 no unju/ s5t5ce c br+ any injury aga9/ anyone4 ,let ! "o aga9/ :om su* unf\nd$ & unju/ judgm5t has be5 pron\nc$ ev5 take no /ep to annul x1 = x is a nullity by itself40 ,y "k v well t ! s5t5ce y _h pass$ aga9/ me 0 null & void1 = _m good reasons2 t x 0 f\nd$ on a false te/imony4 ,fa!r ,s*neid] is !re1 ready to prove x to y1 if y h any d\bt4 ,! second reason ,i h to believe t y _h y\rself consid]$ y\r s5t5ce a nullity1 & t ,i 0 n susp5d$ by x f my ecclesia/ical dignity & honor1 is f\nd$ on a good te/imony1 ,i hope--! te/imony ( y\r lord%ip himself4 ,a few h\rs be=e my leav+ ,canada = ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 ,i w5t to ask y\r b5$iction1 :i* y gave me ) e m>k ( k9dness4 ,i !n ask$ y\r lord%ip to tell me frankly if ,i _h to leave ) ! impression t ,i 0 disgrac$ 9 8 m9d8 ,y gave me ! assurance ( ! contr>y4 ,!n ,i told y t ,i want$ to h a public & irrefutable te/imony ( y\r e/eem1 writt5 ) y\r own h&1 & y gave me ! foll[+ lett]3 ,,montreal1 ,,canada1 ,octob] #ac1 #ahea4 ,,sir3--,y ask me p]mission to leave my diocese to g & (f] y\r s]vices to ! bi%op ( ,*icago4 ,z y belong to ! diocese ( ,quebec1 ,i ?9k x belongs to my "l ! ar*bi%op to give y ! exeat y wi%4 ,z = me1 ,i c n b ?ank y = y\r lab\rs among u1 & ,i wi% y 9 return1 ! mo/ abundant bless+s f heav54 ,y %all ev] be 9 my remembrance & 9 my he>t1 & ,i hope t div9e provid5ce w p]mit me1 at a future "t1 to te/ify all ! gratitude ,i owe y4 ,mean:ile1 ,i rema9 y\r v humble & ob$i5t s]vant1 ,,ignatius1 ,bi%op ( ,montreal4 ,,mr4 ,,*9iquy1 ,prie/4 ,i !n ask$ y to give me "s o!r tangible tok5 ( y\r e/eem1 :i* ,i might %[ ev]y:]e ,i %\ld g4 ,y answ]$ t y w\ld be happy to give me "o1 & y said3 8,:at d y wi%80 8,i wi%10 ,i said1 8to h a *alice f y\r h&s to (f] ! holy sacrifice ( ! mass ! re/ ( my life40 ,y answ]$3 8,i w d t ) pleasure10 & y gave an ord] to "o ( y\r prie/s to br+ y a *alice1 t y might give x to me4 ,b t prie/ _h n ! key ( ! box conta9+ ! sacr$ vases2 t key 0 9 ! h&s ( ano!r prie/1 :o 0 abs5t = a few h\rs4 ,i _h n ! "t to wait2 ! h\r ( ! dep>ture ( ! tra9s _h come2 ,i told y3 8,please1 my "l1 s5d t *alice to ,rev4 ,mr4 ,brass>d1 ( ,longueuil1 :o w =w>d x to me 9 a few days1 to ,*icago40 ,& ! next day1 "o ( y\r secret>ies w5t to ,rev4 ,mr4 ,brass>d1 & gave him ! *alice y _h promis$ me1 :i* is /ill 9 my h&s4 ,& ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,brass>d is !re /ill liv+1 to be ! witness ( :at ,i say1 & to br+ t fact to y\r memory1 if y h =gott5 x4 ,well1 my "l1 ,i d believe t a bi%op w nev] give a *alice to a prie/ to say mass1 :5 he kn[s t t prie/ is int]dict$4 ,& ! be/ pro( t y "k v well t ,i 0 n int]dict$ by y\r ra% & unju/ s5t5ce1 is t y gave me t *alice z a tok5 ( y\r e/eem & ( my hone/y1 etc4 ,respectfully1 ,c4 ,,*9iquy4 ,t5 ?\s& copies ( ?is exposure ( ! depravity ( ! bi%op 7 publi%$ 9 ,montreal4 ,i ask$ ! :ole p ( ,canada to g to ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,s*neid] & to ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,brass>d1 to "k ! tru?1 & _m w5t4 ,! bi%op rema9$ conf\nd$4 ,x 0 prov$ t he _h committ$ aga9/ me a mo/ outrage\s act ( tyranny & p]fidy2 & t ,i 0 p]fectly innoc5t & hone/1 & t he knew x1 9 ! v h\r t he tri$ to de/roy my "*4 ,probably ! bi%op ( ,montreal _h de/roy$ ! copy ( ! decl>ation ( ! poor girl he _h employ$1 & ?9k+ t ?is 0 ! only copy ( h] decl>ation ( my innoc5ce & hone/y1 he ?\ght he c\ld speak ( ! s-call$ int]dict1 aft] ,i 0 a ,prote/ant4 ,b 9 t he 0 cruelly mi/ak51 =1 z ,i h already said1 by ! great m]cy ( ,god1 ?ree o!r au!nticat$ copies _h be5 kept2 "o by ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,s*neid] himself1 ano!r by ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,brass>d1 ano!r by "o :om x is n necess>y to m5tion1 & !n he _h no suspicion t ! revelation ( 8 un*ri/ian conduct & ( 8 det]m9ation to de/roy me ) ! false oa? ( a pro/itute1 7 9 ! h&s ( too _m p to be d5i$4 ,! bi%op ( ,*icago1 :om ,i met a few days aft]1 told me :at ,i 0 well aw>e ( be=e3 8,t su* a s5t5ce 0 a p]fect nullity 9 e way1 & x 0 a disgrace only = ^? :o 7 bl9d en\gh to trample "u _! feet ! laws ( ,god & m5 to satisfy _! bad passions40 ,a few days aft] ! publication ( t lett] 9 ,canada1 ,mr4 ,brass>d wrote me3 8,y\r la/ lett] has completely unmask$ our poor bi%op1 & reveal$ to ! _w 8 malice1 inju/ice & hypocrisy4 ,he felt s conf\nd$ by x1 t he has be5 ?ree days )\t be+ able to eat or dr9k any?+1 & ?ree nights )\t sleep+4 ,e "o says t ! *a/isem5t y h giv5 him is a t]rible "o1 :5 x is 9 ! face ( ! :ole _w2 b he des]v$ x40 ,:5 ,i receiv$ t la/ fri5dly lett] f ,mr4 ,brass>d1 on ! #a/ ( ,april1 #aheg1 ,i 0 f> f suspect+ t on ! #ae? ( ! same mon?1 ,i %\ld read 9 ! press ( ,canada1 ! foll[+ l9es f him3 ,,/4 ,,ro* ,,de ,l',,a*igan1 ,,le #i ,,auvril1 #aheg4 ,,messieurs3--,i reque/ y to ins]t ! foll[+ l9es 9 y\r j\rnal3 ,z "s p suspect t ,i am favor+ ! s*ism ( ,mr4 ,*9iquy1 ,i ?9k x is my duty to say t ,i h nev] enc\rag$ him by my words or writ+s 9 t s*ism4 ,i mu/ say t1 la/ ,novemb]1 :5 ,i w5t to ,/4 ,anne1 accompani$ by ,mr4 ,desaulni]1 ,sup]ior ( ,/4 ,hyac9! ,college1 my only object 0 to p]suade t old fri5d to leave ! bad ways 9 :i* he 0 walk+4 ,& 9 ,*icago ,i press$ him to put himself 9 a canonical way4 ,i1 m ?an any "o else1 deplore ! fall ( a man :om1 ,i confess1 ,i lov$ mu*1 b = ! sake ( :om ,i w n sacrifice ! sacr$ ties ( ,ca?olic unity4 ,i hope t all ! ,canadians :o 7 atta*$ to ,mr4 ,*9iquy :5 he 0 unit$ to ! *ur*1 w )draw f him 9 horror ( 8 s*ism4 ,= be=e any?+ else1 we mu/ be truly & fai?fully ,ca?olic4 ,h[ev]1 we h a duty to p]=m t[>ds ! man :o has fulfill$ su* a holy mission 9 our mid/1 by e/abli%+ ! society ( temp]ance4 ,x is to call back1 ) our pray]s1 t /ray %eep :o has left ! true ,pa/or's fold4 ,i reque/ all j\rnals to reproduce ?is decl>ation4 ,truly y\rs1 ,,moses ,,brass>d1 ,pa/or4 ,m4 ,m41 ! ,editors ( ! ,c\rri] du ,canada4 ,i felt t !re 0 n a l9e1 n a s5tim5t ( ,mr4 ,brass>d 9 t lett]4 ,x smelt ,bi%op ,b\rget's h&1 f ! beg9n+ to ! end4 ,i ?\ght1 h[ev]1 x 0 my duty to address him ! foll[+ answ]3 ,,/4 ,,anne1 ,,kankakee ,,c\nty1 ,,ill9ois1 ,april #ac1 #aheg4 ,,my ,,de> ,,mr4 ,,brass>d3--,i h j receiv$ y\r lett] ( ! #i? in/41 b no6 ,i w n call x a lett]1 x w be bett] nam$ a bitt] te>1 & a sad wail ( a he>t z good z x is noble & g5]\s4 ,y h be5 a witness h[ ! p & mission>y ( ,/4 ,anne h be5 betray$ by ,mr4 ,desaulni]4 ,y 7 at my side1 z my fri5d & fa!r1 :5 ?is traitor said to me1 z well z to my bre?r53 8,sign ?is act ( submission to ! bi%op ( ,*icago2 ?is act alone is en\gh to make him )draw ! s5t5ce :i* fills y\r ,canadian fri5ds ) anxiety4 ,if ! bi%op does n give y ! place y want1 & if he does n )draw ! excommunication aft] hav+ be5 pres5t$ ) ?is act1 ,i w tell him3 8,x is nei!r ! pa/or1 nor ! p ( ,/4 ,anne :o wi% a s*ism1 !y h done t :i* religion & honor comm&$1 to prove x2 x is y :o wi% x40 ,y\r te>s 7 m+l$ ) m9e1 & ! inc5se ( y\r pray] asc5d$ ) ^? ( my bre?r51 :5 on ! #bf? ( ,novemb]1 ,mr4 ,desaulni] said to ! p ( ,/4 ,anne3 8,y _c be blam$ = :at y h done s9ce ! beg9n+ ( y\r difficulties ) y\r bi%op40 ,y 7 a witness t our fir/ condition to ! sign+ ( ! act :i* y & ,mr4 ,desaulni] pres5t$ to u1 0 t y %\ld be ! pa/or ( ,/4 ,anne1 & t ,i %\ld rema9 ) y z long z y w\ld f9d x to ! int]e/ ( my colony4 ,y "k t he gave me 8 ^w ( honor1 9 ! pres5ce ( all ! p1 t if ! bi%op w\ld n give u peace aft] ! sign+ ( ! act1 he 7,mr4 ,desaulni]7 w\ld g ) u to ,/4 ,l\is1 & ev5 to ,rome1 to plead my cause1 & %[ ! iniquity & unbe>able tyranny ( ! bi%op ( ,*icago4 ,did he n assure u t1 9 case ! bi%op %\ld refuse to accept ! act ( submission1 we _h sign$1 y\r mission to ,/4 ,anne 0 f9i%$1 & t y bo? w\ld return to ,canada1 aft] y\r voyage to ,/4 ,l\is8 ,is x n true t :5 9 ,*icago1 9 reply to our "q3 8,:at news80 ,mr4 ,desaulni] said3 8,y h only to take y\r bags & bo? return to ,canada at once40 ,mr4 ,desaulni] d5ies all ^? facts1 ) an impud5ce ( :i* he alone is capable4 ,y are my only witness be=e our ,canada1 :i* wi%es & has a "r to "k ! tru? 9 ?is matt]4 ,i took y z my witness1 & y repli$ 9 _m ( y\r lett]s1 t y c\ld n say ! tru? )\t compromis+ y\rself4 ,is n ?is an ackn[l$gm5t t we1 prie/s ( ,jesus ,*ri/1 are groan+ "u ! weight ( ! mo/ frightful tyranny8 & t we are 9 ! p[] ( m5 :o ?reat5 our honor & life1 if we d>e speak ! tru? 9 favor ( an oppress$ bro!r8 ,& ?is is ! sy/em t proclaims itself z ! div9e & ineffable news :i* ! ,messiah br\ght to ! _w6 ,& ?is abom9able oppression1 ?is sy/em ( deceit1 is ! religion :i* ! ,son ( ! ,god ( tru?1 ju/ice & m]cy1 has e/abli%$ to save ! _w8 ,?is is ! f\ndation-/one ( ! *ur* ( ,*ri/666 ,no6 ,y d n believe t1 my de> ,mr4 ,brass>d4 ,nei!r d ,i4 ,i nev] did1 & nev] w believe x4 ,!y tell u x is = ! great] good ( ! *ur* t !y act ?us2 t x is to pres]ve ! respect :i* is due to ! ,holy ,ca?olic ,hi]>*y1 t !y take ^? extreme measures aga9/ ! p ( ,/4 ,anne6 ,b ,i h c>efully /udi$ ! laws ( ! *ur* ^u ^! great que/ions1 & ,i see !y say precisely ! contr>y4 ,i see t ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* said to u3 #a/4 8,9 ! *ur* !re is no arbitr>y p[]40 #bnd4 8,! c5sures are null :5 !y h be5 pron\nc$ aga9/ s9s :i* h n be5 committ$40 #crd4 8,nev] receive any accusation aga9/ a prie/1 :i* has n be5 prov5 by two or ?ree witnesses40 #d?4 8,if a s5t5ce is visibly unju/1 ! condemn$ mu/ n pay any att5tion to x2 = be=e ,god & ,8 *ur*1 no unju/ s5t5ce c injure any "o40 #e?4 8,! unju/ excommunication is n b9d+1 nei!r be=e ,god nor ! p1 :5 t p "k its inju/ice1 because ! ,holy ,gho/ c n ab&on ^? :o h n des]v$ x40 ,y wi% me to act accord+ to ! canons ( ! *ur*4 ,i h already told y t if ,i _h be5 int]dict$ on ! #ai? ( ,augu/1 ,i w\ld h be5 able to appeal f t s5t5ce1 b ,i _h n4 ,i _h fifte5 days to consid]4 ,h[ c\ld ,i h appeal$ f a s5t5ce :i* _h n be5 pron\nc$8 ,:at witness c\ld ,i br+ aga9/ a fact :i*1 ,i knew1 _h nev] tak5 place8 ,b y w say3 8,! excommunication8 ,%\ld x n give y "s anxiety80 8,n ! lea/40 ,/4 ,?omas said positively t no excommunication ( :i* ! inju/ice is kn[n by ! p1 ought n to prev5t a prie/ f ex]cis+ 8 m9i/ry among !m4 ,!y w p]haps say3 8,b :]e did ! p get ! "r to judge 9 su* ?+s80 ,/4 ,?omas mu/ h believ$ t ! p _h t "r1 s9ce he said x4 ,/4 ,?omas 0 nei!r a h]etic nor a s*ismatic = believ+ ^! ?+s8 ,:y1 !n1 %\ld ,i be "o1 = hav+ a ?\ght1 spok5 & act$ accord+ to ! doctr9e ( him :om ! *ur* has nam$ ! angel ( ! s*ool4 ,besides t1 y "k t ! excommunication 0 a nullity f want ( be+ sign$4 ,! reason ( ?is surprise ab\t ! "r :i* ! p _h to ex]cise its judgm5t ^u ?is "q1 is t1 lately1 ! bi%ops h n only /ripp$ ! prie/s1 b also ! p1 ( ! holy & j rights :i* ,jesus ,*ri/ _h giv5 !m4 ,^? :o h c>efully /udi$ ! hi/ory ( ! *ur* 9 ! fir/ c5turies "k ?is1 z well z ,i d4 ,b be x kn[n1 !re are rights aga9/ :i* "t does n prescribe4 ,!re are rights :i* ! prie/s & p h nev] r5\nc$1 & :i* ! *ur* ( ,*ri/ w always l to see !m enjoy4 ,i d n say t ! bi%ops are n orda9$ to gov]n ! ,*ri/ian p1 b ,i say t ! bi%ops are n appo9t$ by ! *ur* to gov]n ! flock accord+ to _! caprices1 b accord+ to ! un*angeable rules ( ju/ice1 equity & tru? ( ! gospel4 ,9 ! primitive *ur*1 e "t t a bi%op =got ?is1 o!r bi%ops rem9d$ him ( x4 ,d we n see 9 ! gospel1 t ! fir/ ,*ri/ians compla9$ bitt]ly to ! apo/les !mselves ( ! mann] 9 :i* !y _h adm9i/]$ ! goods entru/$ to !m8 ,7 !y excommunicat$ = t8 ,did !y receive 9 answ] ! insol5t reply t ! p receive to-day8 viz3 8,y are b ! laity1 t does n conc]n y80 ,no6 ,! apo/les li/5$ to ! compla9ts ( ! p2 !y f\nd !m j1 & ! p 7 all[$ to *oose ! adm9i/rators ( _! goods4 ,! p1 !n1 7 look$ ^u z some?+ wor?y ( att5tion & respect1 & 7 n ti$1 z to-day1 to ! feet ( a dignit>y1 & oblig$ to g "r & left at ! good pleasure ( _! pret5d$ ma/]4 ,! p 7 n1 !n1 bridl$2 7 n m]e ma*9es to pay ti!s1 build palaces1 raise pr\d ca!drals2 nor 7 !y degrad$1 demoraliz$1 z to-day2 oblig$ to believe !y _h m9ds1 b _h no "r to make use ( !m2 !y 7 n1 !n1 z n[1 poor bea/s ( bur!n1 ^: only duty is to obey _! ma/]4 ,b _! wants & wi%es 7 consult$2 _! voice 0 he>d4 ,!y _h n yet ! idea t ! ,holy ,gho/ 0 to enlight5 only a c]ta9 class ( m51 & t ! re/ ( humanity 71 giv5 up to ignorance1 only to walk 9 ! light ( a few privileg$ lum9>ies4 ,b ! _s ( wisdom1 *>ity & tol]ance2 ?is respect = ! w & wi%es ( ! p1 :]e d y f9d !m to-day8 ,on ! contr>y1 we f9d tyranny on ! "o side1 & /]n & necess>y resi/ance on ! o!r2 resi/ances :i* are b ! expression ( ! law ( ,god4 ,let ! tol]ant conduct ( ! apo/les1 :o li/5$ ) s mu* humility to ! compla9ts ( ! fir/ ,*ri/ians1 be comp>$ to t ( ,bi%op ,o#8,regan :5 que/ion$ by ! ,fr5* p ( ,*icago ^u ! "r he _h to deprive !m ( _! *ur*1 to give x to ano!r congregation1 put !m out ( doors1 say+3 8,y d n "k y\r religion2 ,i h ! "r to sell y\r *ur*es1 & ! gr\nds atta*$ to !m1 put ! money 9 my pocket1 & eat & dr9k :]e ,i l40 ,?is is :at ,bi%op ,o#8,regan has said & done2 & ?is is :at ! bi%op ( ,canada approves & sanctions 9 ! "n ( ! gospel6 ,!y try to make y believe t x is ! doctr9e ( ,jesus ,*ri/ :i* ^! high dignit>ies prea* & practice4 ,let ! poor p ( ,canada believe ?is1 if !y wi%2 z = u1 9 ,/4 ,anne1 we d n1 & nev] w believe x4 ,are n ^! m5 :o cry ! l\de/ to make u respect ! canons ( ! *ur*1 ! v m5 :o publicly trample ! mo/ holy laws ( ! p & ( ! *ur* "u _! feet8 ,h[ easy x w\ld be to put to ^? p[]ful p]sonages1 que/ions :i* !y w\ld call imp]t95t1 b :i* w\ld %$ great light 9 ! mid/ ( ! pr(\nd d>kness 9 :i* a c]ta9 corn] ( ! _w is kept to-day8 ,y :o ov]:elm u ) curses1 & s5d u to hell if we are n ready to say am5 to all y say1 :at h y done ) ! canon ( ! holy c\ncil ( ,nice1 :i* =bids y to *ange a prie/'s *>ge )\t 8 p]mission8 ,:]e is ! canon ( a g5]al c\ncil :i* all[s ! bi%ops to add ! words3 8usque ad revocationem10 9 ! p[]s giv5 to ! prie/s6 ,:ile "o ( ! canons ( ! *ur* says3 8,x is ! au?ority ( ! canons1 & ! exam9ation ( ! conduct ( ! prie/s1 :i* ought to give or take away ! ecclesia/ical dignities1 & n ! w ( ! prelates4 ,hi/ory has pres]v$ ! names ( c]ta9 tyrants :o =c$ ! trembl+ h& ( a fa!r to set fire to ! pile :i* consum$ 8 own *ild4 ,ah6 :y d ^! bi%ops ( ,canada rem9d u ( t lam5table page ( pa/ c5turies1 9 comm&+ y to ?r[ burn+ coals on ! pile to :i* !y h l$ me4 ,y are m ?an a fri5d to me4 ,i h ! "r to call y #8,fa!r4' ,:5 /ill v "y1 dome/ic mis=tunes =c$ me to leave = a /range c\ntry1 9 se>* ( a liv+2 y /ret*$ out to me a help+ h&4 ,al?\gh poor y\rself1 y %>$ y\r bread ) ! poor orphan4 ,y op5$ to me ! doors ( ! college :]e ,i /udi$4 ,& ev] s9ce1 :5 a tempe/ ?reat5$ my fragile b>k ) %ipwreck1 9 y\r arms ,i f\nd sure port4 ,e "t ,i receiv$ a w\nd1 9 ! /ruggles ( life1 9 y\r affection ,i f\nd a rem$y4 ,:5 heav5 *ose y\r poor fri5d to *ange ! face ( our de> c\ntry1 x 0 b5ea? y\r hospitable ro( t ,i f\nd re/4 ,y\r h& 0 ! la/ "o :i* press$ m9e1 :5 9 #ahea ,i left ,canada to consecrate myself to ! s]vice ( ! emigrants3 & la/ly1 :5 ! ?und]s ( ?ree delud$ prelates fell ^u my head1 ,i said to myself3 #8,i h1 9 ,canada1 a fri5d1 a fa!r4 ,i am s sure ( 8 he>t1 t ,i d n ev5 ne$ to call him to aid2 !re is a voice 9 8 s\l :i* cries to him2 #8,g1 g to ! aid ( ?y fri5d1 ?y *ild6' 8,i 0 n mi/ak54 ,on ! #bd? ( ,novemb]1 y press$ me to y\r he>t2 y\r words ( peace & *>ity *e]$ my brok5 he>t4 ,= ! love ( ,god1 & = y\r sake also1 my de> ,mr4 ,brass>d1 ,i h cons5t$ to d all y h requir$ ( me4 ,ah6 :y did y n come alone8 ,h[ easily ev]y?+ w\ld h be5 settl$4 ,b )\t kn[+ x1 y _h ) y a traitor1 :o came to give ! p & pa/or ( ,/4 ,anne ! kiss ( ,judas1 be=e deliv]+ !m into ! h&s ( _! enemies4 8,to-day y are comm&$ to add y\r ef=ts to ^? ( ?is traitor1 to /rike me4 ,!y want y to add a new ?orn to t cr[n ( %ame :i* ! bi%ops h plac$ on my =ehead4 8,b h[ c ,i be guilty = hav+ call$ y z a witness ( ! iniquities ( my enemies8 ,h y =gott5 ) :at s9c]ity & promptitude ,i sign$1 z well z my bre?r5 ( ,/4 ,anne1 ! act ( submission to ! ,bi%op ,o',regan8 ,h y =gott5 ! desolation ( y\r he>t & m9e1 :5 7on ! conditions y well "k7 ,i decl>$ to my p t ,i w\ld no long] be _! pa/or8 8,s9ce ! bi%ops ( ,canada comm& y to speak 9 ! "n ( ! ,god ( tru? & ju/ice1 ,i1 also1 ask y to speak4 ,yes1 /ate to ! p ( ,canada1 h[ %amefully ,mr4 ,desaulni] has deceiv$ ! g5]\s p :o surr\nd me "h4 ,yes6 tell y\r surprise1 y\r j indignation1 y\r bitt] sorr[1 :5 ,mr4 ,desaulni] refus$1 9 ,*icago1 to fulfill ! sacr$ promise he _h made6 ,tell ! nature ( ! new docum5t :i* he want$ me to sign at ,*icago4 ,decl>e hone/ly t y said to me3 8,my poor fri5d1 y c n sign t act )\t ly+ & di%onor+ y\rself =ev]40 8,s9ce ! bi%ops ( ,canada comm& y to speak1 raise y\r voice to say to ! ,canadian p :at y wrote to ,dr4 ,let\rneaux & to myself3 8,!y d n wi% to "k ! tru? 9 ,canada1 m ?an at ,*icago1 ab\t ! %ameful conduct ( ,mr4 ,desaulni] 9 ?is affair66 8,yes1 speak6 ,give to my de> ,canada ! reply :i* ! bi%op ( ,*icago made :5 y ask$3 8,h y any accusation 9 h& aga9/ ! "* ( ,mr4 ,*9iquy8 8,i ne$ y\r te/imony ^u ?is "q1 = ! bi%op ( ,*icago1 =gett+ :at he confess$ to y1 is circulat+1 ?r\gh my enemies1 a ?\s& calumnies aga9/ me1 :i* are reproduc$ to-day1 by ! bi%op ( ,montreal4 8,say to ,canada t ! bi%op ( ,*icago assur$ y t he _h int]dict$ me1 only because ,i disobey$ him 9 refus+ to leave ,/4 ,anne1 :il/1 at ! v "t1 he held a lett] br\ght by f\r witnesses1 say+ t ,i 0 ready to obey1 & t ,i w\ld pref] go+ to ! end ( ! _w1 r ?an be int]dict$4 8,if1 hav+ said all ^! ?+s1 y are /ill comm&$ to /rike me1 d s1 de> fri5d4 ,?\gh y\r bl[s g m directly to my he>t ?an all ! ?und]s ( ,bi%op ,o',regan1 !y w nev] %ake my con/ancy1 nor make me betray my bre?r52 !y w nei!r make me *ange my convictions nor =ce me any long] to b5d ! knee be=e m5 :o wi% u to submit to _! caprici\s & impi\s comm&s r ?an to ! laws ( ! ,god ( ju/ice1 tru? & m]cy1 ^: prie/ ,i h ! honor to be4 ,i h sworn at ! foot ( ! alt> to prea* tru? & ju/ice2 no?+ w make me break my oa?4 8,d y rememb] ) :at dignity y refus$1 "o day1 to b[ be=e "o ( ^? mod]n div9ities :o believe t ev]y?+ is all[$ !m on e>?8 8,d y n recollect t ! bi%op ( ,ottawa _h ! audacity to take "o ( y\r lett]s out ( ! po/(fice & read x1 hop+ ! %ameful act w\ld nev] be kn[n8 ,i %all nev] =get ! noble indep5d5ce ) :i* y prote/$ aga9/ t abuse ( p[]1 & ) :at indignation y ?reat5$ to drag t haughty bi%op be=e ! c\rts ( ,ju/ice1 if he did n ask p>don = t outrage6 ,7 y revolt+ aga9/ ! *ur* ( ,*ri/ !n8 ,no6 = y knew t h] pr9ciples ( tru? & ju/ice c\ld n sanction su* brig&age4 ,s ,i did n revolt aga9/ ! *ur* ( ,*ri/1 :5 ,i resi/$ ! insol5ce & outrages ( ! bi%op ( ,*icago4 8,l ,/4 ,j]ome1 ,i "k ! rights ( ! bi%ops3 ,i respect _! au?ority4 ,! ,ca?olic ,hi]>*y is to me a holy & v5]able in/itution4 ,b :5 m5 %elt]+ !mselves beh9d ^? holy in/itutions1 trample "u _! feet ! pr9ciples ( ju/ice1 tru? & hol9ess1 :i* ! gospel ( ,*ri/ inculcates1 ,i w fight to ! end1 ) my poor emigrants1 = ! pres]vation ( _! ,*ri/ian rights4 8,y say t be=e all1 we mu/ be frankly & s9c]ely #8,ca?olics4' ,i answ]1 yes4 ,b :5 "o is wrongfully depriv$ ( ?is glori\s "n be=e m51 because he opposes1 z ,i h done1 ! brig&age ( a bi%op :o believes all is all[$ him1 he c rema9 9 peace1 & be l ,/4 ,paul1 :o did n c>e :at m5 said or ?\ght ( him4 ,to be ana!matiz$1 because ,i h devot$ myself to ! welf>e ( my bre?r51 is n su* a sad de/9y z "s p ?9k4 ,/4 ,paul said3 8,i c\ld wi% t myself 7 accurs$ f ,*ri/ = my bre?r51 my k9sm5 accord+ to ! fle%40 8,! favor aft] :i* ! apo/le ( ! ,g5tiles sigh$1 has be5 accord$ me4 ,i c n compla9 ( x4 ,besides1 does n ,*ri/ himself say to ^? :o labor to scatt] se$s ( ju/ice & tru? ^u ! e>?1 t !y ought n expect to be treat$ bett] ?an ,he8 8,f e "p ( ,canada & ! ,unit$ ,/ates m5 ( di/9ction cease n to cry3 #8,c\rage6' ,x is true t sev]al curse u1 b x is because !y are =c$ to d x4 ,_m keep sil5t = fe> ( _! ma/]s1 b _! pray]s & sympa?ies are = u4 ,! bi%ops w see1 soon] or lat]1 t 9 ord] to reta9 _! p[] on e>?1 t p[] mu/ be f\nd$1 z 9 heav51 ^u ju/ice & tru?4 8,:5 ! prie/s ( ,canada1 to please ! bi%ops1 contr>y to _! convictions1 h degrad$ _! own sac]dotal "* 9 my p]son2 :5 !y h burn$ ! effigy ( ! proscrib$1 hav+ no m ! glori\s privilege ( burn+ 8 body2 :5 ! fa!r :om1 by ! grace ( ,god1 ,i h snat*$ f an abyss1 curs$ me2 :5 ?is de> "y man :o has1 s _m times1 bless$ me1 because ,i h %[n him ! gospel1 ! way ( honor & virtue1 by remov+ ! /umbl+ block ( intemp]ance (f]$ to 8 weakness1 has be5 =c$ to curse me2 :5 t poor woman1 :o1 by ! grace ( ,god1 owes me ! bread %e eats1 & ! few days ( holy felicity %e has enjoy$ ^u e>?1 has curs$ me2 :5 ?is f9e little *ild1 :o has s _m times bless$ my "n1 because ,god made use ( me to give him back a fa!r1 has curs$ me1 !re w be a sil5ce ( sorr[ 9 ,canada1 ar\nd my proscrib$ "n4 8,!n a reaction w take place4 ,a great pre/ige w be de/roy$4 ,a great p[]1 holy & b5evol5t 9 its orig91 b fall5 by its excesses1 w be de/roy$4 ,god grant t1 9 ! mid/ ( ^? ru9s1 !re may be no te>s1 no blood66 8,?is is n prophecy1 x is hi/ory4 ,yes1 let ! ,canadian cl]gy op5 ! records ( ! pa/1 & !y w f9d :]e _! bl9d & demoraliz+ ob$i5ce to ! bi%ops1 leads !m & _! good & g5]\s p1 if n to infidelity & a!ism4 8,y advise me1 de> ,mr4 ,brass>d1 to put myself 9 ! canonical ways2 b h ,i n already done s8 ,h n ! bi%ops ( ,canada told y t ! lett] sign$ by me1 has already plac$ me 9 t position8 8,has n ,mr4 ,desaulni] said1 9 y\r pres5ce1 to my p & myself at ,/4 ,anne4 8,sign ?is act1 & if ! bi%op does n take away 8 s5t5ce ( excommunication1 ,i w say to him3 #8,x is n ,mr4 ,*9iquy1 nei!r 8 p1 :o wi% a s*ism2 !y h done :at religion & honor comm&$ !m2 x is ! bi%op ( ,*icago :o makes ! s*ism4' 8,:at h we ga9$ by tak+ t public /ep8 ,no?+1 b to be cruelly & %amefully betray$4 8,0 n ,jesus ,*ri/ betray$ only once by ,judas8 ,d n !n expect t we w be /rong] ?an ! ,son ( ,god4 ,! bi%ops ( ,canada1 by _! emiss>y1 h already betray$ u1 ( :i* y h be5 witness4 ,! p & mission>y ( ,/4 ,anne d n feel /rong en\gh to pres5t _! *eek aga9 to ! smit]4 8,9 spite ( ! clamors :i* rise ar\nd u1 we are conv9c$ t we may be good ,ca?olics1 )\t submitt+ to t degradation twice4 8,! bi%ops ( ,canada want y to speak4 ,v well6 ,my de> ,mr4 ,brass>d1 ,i1 also1 implore y to speak4 ,9 ! "n ( ! fri5d%ip :i* has unit$ u = =ty ye>s1 ,i implore y to tell ! tru?4 ,did y n1 aft] read+ ! docum5t :i* ! bi%op ( ,*icago comm&$ me to sign1 z ! only condition ( peace1 say to me3 8#8,my de> fri5d1 y c n sign su* a writ+ )\t ly+ & di%onor+ y\rself =ev]8' ,& behold6 to-day y cry to my bre?r5 to de/roy & ab&on me1 :5 y "k t ! position 9 :i* ,i /& is b ! result ( my refusal to sign a mo/ infam\s1 ly+ & degrad+ docum5t4 8,^! ?+s1 & _m o!rs :i* y "k1 w\ld s]ve wond]fully to op5 ! eyes ( ! p ^u ! awful abuse ( p[] ( :i* c]ta9 bi%ops are1 e day1 guilty4 ,?is w\ld aid to unmask c]ta9 mod]n div9ities :o pret5d t we _c g to heav5 )\t _! p]mission2 :o prea* t x is n ! blood ( ,jesus ,*ri/1 b a c]ta9 passport1 ( :i* !y hold ! pat5t1 :i* assures u a place among ! elect ( ,god4 ,a s5t5ce f\nd$ ^u a public lie1 & :i* 0 resi/$1 c n con/itute a s*ism4 ,*ri/ian m5 :o1 l ! ,ca?olics ( ,*icago1 ,kankakee & ,/4 ,anne1 resi/ iniquity1 may be condemn$ by m51 b n by ,god4 8,i 0 n susp5d$ on ! #ai? ( ,augu/1 & s1 ,i c\ld ex]cise ! holy functions ( my m9i/ry ! foll[+ morn+ & aft]4 ,x is ! *ur* :i* assures u ( ?is1 ?r\gh h] greate/ !ologians4 ,z x is n en\gh to say3 #8,my ,god6 ,my ,god6' to be sav$2 s x is n en\gh to cry3 #8,y are lo/6 y are lo/6' = "o to be lo/4 ,! ,son ( ,god1 :o gave 8 life to save man1 gave u a ?\s& pro(s1 t ! salvation ( our s\l has a f\ndation m c]ta9 ?an ! caprici\s w ( a s9ful be+4 ,he has giv5 to no "o ! p[] to save or condemn1 accord+ to 8 pleasure4 ,if "s bi%ops & prie/s believe ?is1 x is n ! fai? ( ! p ( ,*icago1 ,kankakee & ,/4 ,anne4 8,i w tell y aga91 my de> ,mr4 ,brass>d1 t if1 9 ord] to obey ! bi%op ( ,montreal1 y %\ld /rip me ( ! little honor :i* surr\nds my "n 9 ,canada1 ,i %all /ill nev] =get ! good y h done me4 ,yes6 comm& my fri5ds to betray me1 to trample me "u _! feet1 to turn away f me 9 horror3 ,nev] w y be able to weak5 my s5tim5ts ( respect & gratitude = y6 8,i w /ill love & bless y2 = ,i "k ! h& :i* =c$ y\rs to d s4 ,i w always "k t y\r own he>t 0 fir/ /ruck & w\nd$ by ! bl[ !y comm&$ y to give to y\r fri5d & son 9 ,jesus ,*ri/4 8,c4 ,,*9iquy40 ,! effect ( t lett] ^u ,mr4 ,brass>d 0 /ill m p[]ful ?an ,i _h expect$4 ,x =c$ him to blu% at 8 own c[>dice1 & to ask me p>don = ! unju/ s5t5ce he _h pass$ ^u me to obey ! bi%op4 ,"h are ! p>ts ( ! lett] be>+ ^u t subject3 ,,/4 ,,ro*1 #bi ,,mai1 #aheg4 ,,mon*] ,,*9iquy3--8,je suis plus conva95 que jamais que tu n'z jamais ete int]dit legalem5t1 depuis que j'ai appris p> ,monseigneur de ,montreal1 que l'eveque de ,*icago t'a int]dit de vive voix1 dans sa *ambre2 ce que ,lig\ry dit etre nul te de nul effet40 ,i am m ?an ev] conv9c$ t y h nev] be5 legally int]dict$1 s9ce ,bi%op ,b\rget told me t ,bi%op ,o',regan _h int]dict$ y privately1 8viva voce0 9 8 private room4 ,lig\ry says t x is a nullity & t x c h no effect4 ,i beg y\r p>don = :at ,i wrote aga9/ y4 ,i h be5 =c$ to d x4 ,because ,i _h n yet suffici5tly condemn$ y1 & t my "n1 :i* y 7 cit+ 9 y\r writ+s1 0 giv+ y too mu* p[]1 & a too cle> condemnation ( ,bi%op ,o',regan1 ! ,bi%op ( ,montreal1 abus+ 8 au?ority ov] me1 =c$ me to sign t docum5t aga9/ y4 ,i w\ld n d x to-day if x 7 to be done aga94 ,keep sil5ce on :at ,i tell y 9 ?is lett]4 ,x is all confid5tial4 ,y und]/& x4 ,y\r devot$ fri5d1 ,l4 ,m4 ,,brass>d4 ,no prie/ 9 ,canada _h m des]v$ly enjoy$ ! reputation ( a man ( honor1 ?an ,mr4 ,brass>d4 ,n "o _h ev] /ood s high 9 my e/eem & respect4 ,8 sudd5 & unexpect$ fall1 fill$ my he>t ) an unspeakable sadness4 ,i may say t x snapp$ ! la/ ?read :i* held me to ! *ur* ( ,rome4 ,till !n1 x 0 n only my hope1 b my firm conviction1 t !re 7 _m hone/1 upright prie/s 9 t *ur*1 & ,mr4 ,brass>d 01 to me1 ! v p]sonification ( hone/y4 ,h[ c ,i describe ! %ock ,i felt :5 ,i saw him1 !re1 9 ! mud1 a monum5t ( ! unspeakable corruption ( my *ur*6 ,! p]fidi\s ,delilah _h s$uc$ & de/roy$ ?is mod]n ,sampson1 en*a9$1 z a trembl+ slave1 at ! feet ( ! new implacable ,molo*1 8! au?ority ( ! bi%op60 ,he _h n only lo/ ! fe> ( ,god1 & ! respect he ow$ to himself1 by publicly decl>+ t ,i 0 guilty1 :5 he knew t ,i 0 innoc5t1 b he _h s completely lo/ e s5tim5t ( hone/y1 t he want$ me to keep secret 8 decl>ation ( my innoc5ce1 at ! v mom5t he 0 invit+ my :ole c\ntry1 ?r\gh ! press1 to abhor & condemn me z a crim9al6 ,i read aga9 & aga9 ! /range lett]4 ,e ^w ( x 0 de/roy+ ! la/ illusions :i* _h conceal$ f my m9d1 ! absolute & incurable p]v]sity ( ! *ur* ( ,rome4 ,i _h no h>d feel+s aga9/ ?is la/ fri5d :om %e _h poison$ ) ! w9e ( h] pro/itutions4 ,i felt only a pr(\nd compassion = him4 ,i piti$ & =gave him f ! bottom ( my he>t4 ,b e ^w ( 8 lett] s\nd$ 9 my e>s z ! w>n+ voice ( ! angel s5t to save ,lot f ! doom$ city ( ,sodom4 8,escape = ?y life4 ,look n beh9d !e2 nei!r /ay ?\ 9 all ! pla94 ,escape ?\ to ! m\nta91 le/ ?\ be consum$60 ,,*apt] ,,lxiv4 ,i ,,write ,,to ,,pope ,,pius ,,ix4 ,,& ,,to ,,napoleon1 ,,emp]or ,,( ,,france1 ,,& ,,s5d ,,!m ,,! ,,public ,,docum5ts ,,prov+ ,,! ,,bad ,,conduct ,,( ,,bi%op ,o',,regan--,,c>d9al ,,bid9i ,,ord]$ ,,to ,,inve/igate--,,! ,,bi%op ,,call$ ,,to ,,rome1 ,,is ,,=c$ ,,to ,,resign1 ,,& ,,becomes ,a ,,bank]--,,bi%op ,,smi?1 ,,( ,,dubuque1 ,,nam$ ,,adm9i/rator ,,( ,,! ,,diocese ,,( ,,*icago--,,gr& ,,vic> ,,dunn ,,s5t ,,to ,,tell ,,me ,,( ,,my ,,victory ,,at ,,rome--,i ,,g ,,to ,,dubuque ,,to ,,(f] ,,my ,,submission ,,to ,,! ,,bi%op4 ,i _h n =gott5 ! advice giv5 me by ,ar*bi%op ,k5rick1 ( ,/4 ,l\is1 ,april #i1 #ahef1 to address my compla9ts to ! ,pope himself4 ,b ! t]rible difficulties & trials :i* _h con/antly foll[$ ea* o!r1 _h made x impossible to foll[ t advice4 ,! betrayal ( ,mons4 ,desaulni] & ! defection ( ,mons4 ,brass>d1 h[ev]1 _h s /rangely complicat$ my position1 t ,i felt ! only way to escape ! wreck :i* ?reat5$ myself & my colony1 & to save ! holy cause ,god _h entru/$ me1 0 to /rike su* a bl[ to our haughty p]secutor t he c\ld n survive x4 ,i det]m9$ to s5d to ! ,pope all ! public accusations :i* _h be5 legally prov$ & publi%$ aga9/ ! bi%op1 ) ! copy ( ! num]\s & infam\s suits :i* he _h su/a9$ be=e ! civil c\rts1 & _h almo/ inv>iably lo/1 ) ! s5t5ces ( ! judges :o _h condemn$ him4 ,?is took me ne>ly two mon?s ( ! h>de/ labors ( my life4 ,i _h ga!r$ all ^? docum5ts1 :i* cov]$ m ?an #bjj pages ( foolscap4 ,i mail$ !m to ,pope ,pius ,,ix41 accompani$ by only ! foll[+ words3 8,holy ,fa!r1 = ! sake ( y\r preci\s lambs :i* are slaught]$ & dev\r$ 9 ?is va/ diocese by a rav5+ wolf1 ,bi%op ,o',regan1 & 9 ! "n ( our ,savi\r ,jesus ,*ri/1 ,i implore y\r ,hol9ess to see if :at is conta9$ 9 ^! docum5ts is correct or n4 ,if ev]y?+ is f\nd correct1 = ! sake ( ! blood %$ on ,calv>y1 to save our immortal s\ls1 please take away f our mid/1 ! unwor?y bi%op ^: daily sc&als c no long] be tol]at$ by a ,*ri/ian p40 ,9 ord] to prev5t ! ,pope's s]vants f ?r[+ my lett] ) ^? docum5ts into _! wa/e pap] baskets1 ,i s5t a copy ( !m all to ,napoleon ,,iii41 ,emp]or ( ,france1 respectfully reque/+ him to see1 ?r\gh 8 ambassador at ,wa%+ton1 & 8 consul at ,*icago1 :e!r ^! pap]s conta9$ ! tru? or n4 ,i told him h[ 8 c\ntrym5 7 trampl$ "u ! feet ( ,bi%op ,o',regan1 & h[ !y 7 ru9$ & spoil$ to ! b5efit ( ! ,iri% p2 h[ ! *ur*es built by ! money ( ! ,fr5* 7 op5ly /ol51 & transf]r$ to ! emigrants f ,irel&4 ,napoleon _h j s5t an army to puni% ! ,emp]or ( ,*9a on acc\nt ( "s inju/ice done to a ,fr5*man4 ,i told him 8! inju/ice done to t ,fr5*man 9 ! ,*9ese ,empire is no?+ to :at is done "h e day1 n aga9/ "o1 b hundr$s ( y\r maje/y's c\ntrym54 ,a ^w f ! ,emp]or ( ,france to ,8 ,hol9ess w d "h :at y\r armies h done 9 ,*9a3 =ce ! unju/ & m]ciless oppressor ( ! ,fr5* ( ,ill9ois to d !m ju/ice40 ,i end$ my lett] by say+3 8,my gr&fa!r1 ?\gh born 9 ,spa91 m>ri$ a ,fr5* lady1 & became1 by *oice & adoption1 a ,fr5* citiz54 ,he became a capta9 9 ! ,fr5* navy1 & = gallant s]vice1 0 aw>d$ l&s 9 ,canada1 :i* by ! fate ( w> fell into ! h&s ( ,great ,brita94 ,^u retir+ f ! s]vice ( ,france he settl$ ^u 8 e/ates 9 ,canada1 :]e my fa!r & myself 7 born4 ,i am ?us1 ) o!r ,canadians :o h come to ?is c\ntry1 a ,briti% subject by bir?1 an ,am]ican citiz5 by adoption1 b ,fr5* /ill 9 blood & ,roman ,ca?olic 9 religion4 ,i1 !re=e1 on ! "p ( a noble ,fr5* p1 humbly ask y\r maje/y to aid u by int]c$+ ) 8 hol9ess1 ,pope ,pius ,,ix41 to h ^! outrages & wrongs right$40 ,! success ( ?is bold /ep 0 m prompt & complete ?an ,i _h expect$4 ,! ,emp]or 01 !n1 all p[]ful at ,rome4 ,he _h n only br\ght ! ,pope f ,civita ,vec*ia to ,rome1 aft] tak+ t city f ! h&s ( ! ,italian ,republicans1 a few ye>s be=e1 b he 0 /ill ! v gu>dian & protector ( ! ,pope4 ,a few mon?s lat]1 :5 9 ,*icago1 ! ,gr& ,vic> ,dunn %[$ me a lett] f ,bi%op ,o',regan1 :o _h be5 ord]$ to g to ,rome & give an acc\nt ( 8 adm9i/ration 9 :i* he _h said3 8,"o ( ! /range/ ?+s :i* has occurr$ to me 9 ,rome1 is t ! influ5ce ( ! ,emp]or ,napoleon is aga9/ me "h4 ,i c n und]/& :at "r he he has to m$dle 9 ! affairs ( my diocese40 ,i _h le>n$ s9ce1 t x 0 really ?r\gh ! advice ( ,napoleon t ,c>d9al ,bid9i1 :o _h be5 previ\sly s5t to ! ,unit$ ,/ates to inquire ab\t ! sc&al giv5 by ,bi%op ,o',regan1 gave 8 op9ion 9 our favor4 ,! c>d9al1 hav+ consult$ ! bi%ops ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 :o unanim\sly d5\nc$ ,o',regan z unfit & unwor?y ( su* a high position1 imm$iately ord]$ him to g to ,rome1 :]e ! ,pope unc]emoni\sly transf]r$ him f ! bi%opric ( ,*icago to a diocese ext9ct m ?an #a1bjj ye>s ago1 call$ 8,dora40 ,?is 0 z good z a bi%opric 9 ! moon4 ,he consol$ himself 9 8 mis=tune by draw+ ! hundr$s ( ?\s&s ( doll>s ( /ol5 money he _h s5t at diff]5t times1 to be deposit$ 9 ! banks ( ,p>is1 & w5t to ,irel&1 :]e he e/abli%$ a bank1 & di$ 9 #ahfe4 ,on ! #aa? ( ,m>*1 #aheh1 at ab\t #aj o'clock p4 m41 ,i 0 n a little pleas$ & surpris$ to he> ! voice ( my devot$ fri5d1 ,rev4 ,mr4 ,dunn1 gr& vic> ( ,*icago1 ask+ my hospitality = ! night4 ,8 fir/ words 73 8,my visit "h mu/ be absolutely incognito4 ,9 ord]+ me to come & see y1 ! bi%op ( ,dubuque1 :o is j nam$ adm9i/rator ( ,*icago1 advis$ me to come z secretly z possible4 ,he said3 ',y\r triumph at ,rome is p]fect4 ,y h ga9$ ! greate/ victory a prie/ ev] won ov] 8 unju/ bi%op2 b y mu/ ?ank ! ,emp]or ,napoleon = x4 ,x is to 8 advice :i*1 "u ! pres5t circum/ances1 is equal to an ord]1 t y owe ! protection ( ! ,c>d9al ,bid9i4 ,8 report to ! ,pope is1 t all ! docum5ts y s5t to ,rome 7 correct4 ,! inquiry ( ! c>d9al has br\ght facts to ! k ( ! ,pope1 /ill m compromis+ ?an :at y h writt5 aga9/ him4 ,sev]al bi%ops ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates h unanim\sly d5\nc$ ,bi%op ,o',regan z a mo/ deprav$ man1 entirely unwor?y ( 8 position1 & h advis$ ! pope to take him away & *oose ano!r bi%op = ,*icago4 ,x is ackn[l$g$1 at ,rome1 t all ! s5t5ces pron\nc$ by t bi%op aga9/ y1 are unju/ & null4 ,our good adm9i/rator has be5 advis$ to put an end1 at once1 to all ! tr\bles ( y\r colony1 by treat+ y z a good & fai?ful prie/4' 8,i come "h1 n only to congratulate y on y\r victory1 b also to ?ank y1 9 my "n1 & 9 ! "n ( ! *ur*1 = hav+ sav$ our diocese f su* a plague2 = ,bi%op ,o',regan is a real plague4 ,a few m ye>s ( su* adm9i/ration w\ld h de/roy$ our holy religion 9 ,ill9ois4 ,h[ev]1 z y h&l$ ! poor bi%op pretty r\ghly1 x is suspect$1 at a di/ance1 t y & y\r p are m ,prote/ants ?an ,ca?olics4 ,we "k bett] "h2 =1 f ! beg9n+1 x 0 evid5t t ! act ( excommunication1 po/$ at ! door ( y\r *apel by ?ree prie/s too drunk to "k :at !y 7 ab\t1 is a nullity1 hav+ nev] be5 sign$ by ! bi%op4 ,x 0 a %ameful & sacrilegi\s com$y4 ,b1 9 _m di/ant places1 t excommunication 0 accept$ z valid1 & y are consid]$ by _m1 z a real s*ismatic4 ,bi%op ,smi? has ?\ght x advisable to ask y to give him a writt5 & canonical act ( submission1 :i* he w publi% to %[ ! _w t y are /ill a good ,roman ,ca?olic prie/40 ,i ?ank$ ! gr& vic> = 8 k9d words1 & ! good news he 0 giv+ me1 & ,i ask$ him to help me to ?ank ,god = hav+ s visibly protect$ & guid$ me ?r\gh all ^! t]rible difficulties4 ,we bo? knelt & repeat$ ! sublime words ( gratitude & joy ( ! old prophet3 8,bless ! ,"l1 oh6 my s\l1 & all t is )9 me1 bless ,8 holy "n10 etc4 7,ps4 ciii47 ,i !n said t ,i _h no objection to give ! r5ew$ act ( my fai? & submission to ! *ur*1 t x might be publi%$4 ,i took a piece ( pap]1 & ) emotions ( joy & gratitude to ,god1 :i* x w\ld be impossible to express1 ,i sl[ly prep>$ to write4 ,b z ,i 0 consid]+ :at =m ,i %\ld give to t docum5t1 a sudd51 /range ?\ght /ruck my m9d3 8,is ?is n ! gold5 opportunity to put an end to ! t]rible temptations :i* h %ak5 my fai? & di/ress$ me = s _m ye>s1 ,i said to myself3 8,is n ?is a provid5tial opportunity to sil5ce ^? my/]i\s voices :i* are tr\bl+ me almo/ e h\r8 ,t1 9 ! *ur* ( ,rome1 we d n foll[ ! ,^w ( ,god1 b ! ly+ traditions ( m580 ,i det]m9$ !n to frame my act ( submission 9 su* a way t ,i w\ld sil5ce ^? voices1 & be1 m ?an ev]1 sure t my fai?1 ! fai? ( my de> *ur*1 :i* _h j giv5 me su* a glori\s victory at ,rome1 0 bas$ ^u ! ,holy ,^w ( ,god1 on ! div9e doctr9es ( ! gospel4 ,i !n wrote d[n1 9 my own "n & 9 ! "n ( my p3 8,my "l ,bi%op ,smi?1 bi%op ( ,dubuque & adm9i/rator ( ! diocese ( ,*icago3--,we want to live & die 9 ! holy ,ca?olic1 apo/olic & ,roman *ur*1 out ( :i* !re is no salvation1 & to prove ?is to y\r lord%ip1 we promise to obey ! au?ority ( ! *ur* accord+ to ! ^w & comm&m5ts ( ,god z we f9d !m express$ 9 ! gospel ( ,*ri/4 8,c4 ,,*9iquy40 ,i h&$ ?is writ+ to ,mr4 ,dunn1 & said3 8,:at d y ?9k ( ?is act ( submission80 ,he quickly read x & answ]$3 8,x is j :at we want f y40 8,all "r10 ,i rejo9$4 8,b ,i fe> ! bi%op w n accept x4 ,d y n see t ,i h put a condition to our submission8 ,i say t we w submit ourselves to ! bi%op's au?ority1 b only accord+ to ! ,^w ( ,god & ! gospel ( ,*ri/40 8,is n t good80 quickly repli$ ,mr4 ,dunn4 8,yes1 my de>1 ,mr4 ,dunn1 ?is is good1 v good inde$10 ,i answ]$1 8,b my fe> is t x is too good = ! bi%op & ! ,pope60 8,:at d y mean80 he repli$4 8,i mean t ?\gh ?is act ( submission is v good1 ,i fe> le/ ! ,pope & ! bi%op reject x40 8,please expla9 y\rself m cle>ly10 answ]$ ! gr& vic>4 8,i d n und]/& ! reason = su* a fe>40 8,my de> ,mr4 ,dunn10 ,i cont9u$1 8,i mu/ confess to y "h1 a ?+ :i* is kn[n only to ,god4 ,i mu/ %[ y a ble$+ w\nd :i* is 9 my s\l = _m ye>s3 ,a w\nd :i* has nev] be5 heal$ by any ( ! rem$ies ,i h appli$ to x4 ,x is a w\nd :i* ,i nev] d>$ to %[ to any man1 except to my confessor1 ?\gh x has (t5 made me suff] almo/ ! tortures ( hell4 ,y "k well t !re is n a liv+ prie/ :o has /udi$ ! ,holy ,scriptures & ! ,holy ,fa!rs1 ) m att5tion & e>ne/ness1 ^! la/ few ye>s1 ?an ,i h4 ,x 0 n only to /r5g!n my own fai?1 b also1 ! fai? ( our p1 & to be able to fight ! battles ( our *ur* aga9/ h] enemies1 t ,i sp5t s _m h\rs ( my days & nights 9 ^? /udies4 8,b1 ?\gh ,i am conf\nd$ & a%am$ to confess x to y1 ,i mu/ d x4 ,! m ,i h /udi$ & comp>$ ! ,holy ,scriptures & ! ,holy ,fa!rs ) ! tea*+s ( our *ur*1 ! m my fai? has be5 %ak51 & ! m ,i h be5 tempt$ to ?9k1 9 spite ( myself1 t our *ur* has1 long ago1 giv5 up ! ,^w ( ,god & ! ,holy ,fa!rs1 9 ord] to walk 9 ! muddy & crook$ ways ( human & false traditions4 ,yes6 ! m ,i /udy1 ! m ,i am tr\bl$ by ! /range & my/]i\s voices :i* haunt me day & night1 say+3 8,d y n see t 9 y\r ,*ur* ( ,rome1 y d n foll[ ! ,^w ( ,god1 b ! ly+ traditions ( m580 8,:at is m /range & pa9ful is t1 ! m ,i pray to ,god to sil5ce ^! voices1 ! l\d] !y repeat ! same di/ress+ ?+s4 ,x is to put an end to ^? awful temptations t ,i h writt5 ?is conditional submission4 ,i want to prove to myself t ,i w obey ! ,^w ( ,god & ! gospel ( ,*ri/1 9 our *ur*1 & ,i %all be happy all ! re/ ( my life1 if ! bi%ops accept ?is submission4 ,b ,i fe> x w be reject$40 ,mr4 ,dunn promptly repli$3 8,y are mi/ak51 my de> ,mr4 ,*9iquy4 ,i am sure t our bi%op w accept ?is docum5t z canonical1 & suffici5t to %[ y\r or?odoxy to ! _w40 8,if x be s10 ,i repli$1 8,i w be a mo/ happy man40 ,x 0 agre$ t on ! #be? ( ,m>*1 ,i w\ld g ) him to ,dubuque1 to pres5t my act ( submission to ! adm9i/rator ( ! diocese1 aft] ! p _h sign$ x4 ,accord+ly1 at #g p4 m4 on t day1 we bo? took ! tra9 at ,*icago = ,dubuque1 :]e we arriv$ next morn+4 ,at #aa a4 m41 ,i w5t to ! palace ( ! bi%op1 :o receiv$ me ) m>ks ( ! utmo/ cordiality & affection4 ,i pres5t$ him our writt5 act ( submission ) a trembl+ h&1 fe>+ he w\ld reject x4 ,he read x twice1 & ?r[+ 8 arms ar\nd me1 he press$ me to 8 he>t4 ,i felt 8 te>s ( joy mix$ ) m9e1 roll+ d[n my *eeks1 z he said3 8,h[ happy ,i am to see t submission6 ,h[ happy ! ,pope & all ! bi%ops ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates w be to he> ( x1 = ,i w n conceal x f y2 we fe>$ t bo? y & y\r p w\ld sep>ate f ! *ur* by refus+ to submit to h] au?ority40 ,i answ]$ t ,i 0 n less happy to see an end to ^? pa9ful difficulties1 & ,i promis$ him t1 ) ! help ( ,god1 our holy *ur* w\ld n h a m fai?ful prie/ ?an myself4 ,:ile engag$ 9 t pleasant conv]sation1 ! d9n] h\r came4 ,he gave me ! place ( honor on 8 "r1 be=e ! two gr& vic>s1 & no?+ c\ld be m pleasant ?an ! "t we sp5t ar\nd ! table1 :i* 0 s]v$ ) a good & well prep>$1 ?\gh frugal meal4 ,i 0 happy to see t ! bi%op1 ) 8 prie/s1 7 teetotal]s4 ,no w9e nor be] to tempt ! weak4 ,be=e ! d9n] 0 ov]1 ! bi%op said to ,mr4 ,dunn3 8,y w accompany ,mr4 ,*9iquy to ,/4 ,anne1 9 ord] to ann\nce1 9 my "n1 to ! p1 ! re/oration ( peace1 next ,sabba?4 ,no d\bt x w be joyful news to ! colony ( ,fa!r ,*9iquy4 8,aft] s _m ye>s ( h>d fight+1 ! pa/or & ! p ( ,/4 ,anne w enjoy ! days ( peace & re/ :i* are n[ secur$ to !m40 ,!n1 address+ himself to me1 ! bi%op said3 8,! only condition ( t peace is t y w sp5d fifte5 days 9 retreat & m$itation 9 "o ( ! religi\s h\ses y w *oose y\rself4 ,i ?9k t1 aft] s mu* noise & excit+ controv]sies1 x w d y good to pass ^? days 9 m$itation & pray]1 9 "s ( our beautiful & peaceful solitudes4 ,i answ]$ him3 8,if y\r lord%ip _h n (f]$ me ! favor ( ^? days ( p]fect & ,*ri/ian re/1 ,i w\ld h ask$ y to grant x4 ,i consid] x z a cr[n+ ( all y\r acts ( k9dness to (f] me ^? few days ( calm & m$itation1 aft] ! t]rible /orms ( ^? la/ ?ree ye>s4 ,if y\r lord%ip has no objection to my *oice1 ,i w g to ! beautiful solitude :]e ,m4 ,saur9 has built ! celebrat$ ,mona/]y1 ,college & ,univ]sity ( ,/4 ,joseph1 ,indiana4 ,i hope t no?+ w prev5t my be+ !re next ,monday4 ,aft] go+1 next ,sabba?1 9 ! company ( ,gr& ,vic> ,dunn1 to proclaim ! re/oration ( ! bless$ peace to my p ( ,/4 ,anne40 8,y _c make a bett] *oice10 answ]$ ! bi%op4 8,b1 my "l10 ,i rejo9$1 8,i hope y\r lord%ip w h no objection to give me a writt5 assurance ( ! p]fect re/oration ( t long-s\ght peace4 ,!re are p :o1 ,i "k1 w n believe me1 :5 ,i tell !m h[ quickly & nobly y\r lord%ip has put an end to all ^? deplorable difficulties4 ,i want to %[ !m t ,i /&1 to-day1 9 ! same relation ) my sup]iors & ! *ur* 9 :i* ,i /ood previ\s to ^! un=tunate /rifes40 8,c]ta9ly10 said ! bi%op1 8y are 9 ne$ ( su* a docum5t f y\r bi%op1 & y %all h x4 ,i w write x at once40 ,b1 he _h n yet writt5 two l9es1 :5 ,mr4 ,dunn look$ at 8 wat* & said3 8,we h n a m9ute to lose1 if we want to be 9 "t = ! ,*icago tra940 ,i !n said to ! bi%op3 8,please1 my "l1 address me t important docum5t to ,*icago1 :]e ,i w get x at ! po/(fice1 on my way to ! ,univ]sity ( ,/4 ,joseph1 next ,monday2 y\r lord%ip w h pl5ty ( "t to write x1 ?is aft]noon40 ,! bi%op1 hav+ cons5t$1 ,i ha/ily took leave ( him1 ) ,mr4 ,dunn1 aft] hav+ receiv$ 8 b5$iction4 ,on our way back to ,/4 ,anne1 ! next day1 we /opp$ at ,b\rbonnaise to see ! gr& vic> ,maill\x1 "o ( ! prie/s :o _h be5 s5t by ! bi%ops ( ,canada to help my "l ,o',regan to cru% me4 ,we f\nd him z he 0 go+ to 8 d9+ room to take 8 d9n]4 ,he 0 visibly humiliat$ by ! complete defeat ( ,bi%op ,o',regan1 at ,rome4 ,aft] ,mr1 ,dunn told him t he 0 s5t to proclaim peace to ! p ( ,/4 ,anne1 he coldly ask$ ! writt5 pro( ( su* /range news4 ,mr4 ,dunn answ]$ him3 8,d y ?9k1 sir1 t ,i w\ld be mean en\gh to tell y a lie80 8,i d n say t y are tell+ me a lie10 repli$ ,mr4 ,maill\x1 8,i believe :at y say4 ,b1 ,i want to "k ! condition ( t unexpect$ peace4 ,has ,mr4 ,*9iquy made 8 submission to ! *ur*80 8,yes1 sir10 ,i repli$1 8"h is a copy ( my act ( submission40 ,he read x1 & coldly said3 8,?is is n an act ( submission to ! *ur*1 b only to ! au?ority ( ! ,gospel1 :i* is a v diff]5t ?+4 ,?is docum5t c be pres5t$ by a ,prote/ant2 b1 x _c be (f]$ by a ,ca?olic prie/ to 8 bi%op4 ,i _c und]/& h[ our bi%op did n see t at once40 ,mr4 ,dunn answ]$ him3 8,my de> gr& vic> ,maill\x1 ,i h (t5 be5 told t x does n d to be m loyal ?an ! k+4 ,my hope 0 t y w\ld rejoice ) u at ! news ( ! peace4 ,i am sorry to see t ,i 0 mi/ak54 ,h[ev]1 ,i mu/ tell y t if y want to fight1 y w h nobody to fight aga9/2 = ,fa!r ,*9iquy 01 ye/]day1 accept$ z a regul> prie/ ( our holy *ur* by ! adm9i/rator4 ,?is ought to satisfy y40 ,i li/5$ to ! unpleasant conv]sation ( ^? two gr& vic>s1 ) pa9ful feel+s1 )\t say+ a ^w4 ,=1 ,i 0 tr\bl$ by ^? my/]i\s voices :i* 7 reit]at+ 9 my m9d ! cry3 8,d y n see t 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 y d n foll[ ! ,^w ( ,god1 b only ! ly+ traditions ( m580 ,i felt mu* reliev$1 :5 ,i left ! h\se ( t s badly dispos$ confr]e1 to come to ,/4 ,anne1 :]e ! p _h ga!r$ on ! public squ>e1 to receive u1 & r5d ! air ) _! cries ( joy at ! happy news ( peace4 ,! next day1 #bg? ( ,m>*1 0 ,palm ,sunday1 "o ( ! gr& fe/ivities ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome2 !re 0 an imm5se conc\rse ( p1 attract$ n only by ! religi\s solemnity ( ! fea/2 b also by ! desire to see & he> ! deputy s5t by _! bi%op to proclaim peace4 ,he did x 9 a mo/ elegant ,engli% address1 :i* ,i translat$ into ,fr5*4 ,he pres5t$ me a bless$ palm1 & ,i (f]$ him ano!r load$ ) beautiful fl[]s1 9 ! pres5ce ( ! p1 z a public sign ( ! concord :i* 0 re/or$ betwe5 my colony & ! au?orities ( ! *ur*4 ,t my ,*ri/ian read]s may und]/& my bl9dness1 & ! m]cies ( ,god t[>ds me1 ,i mu/ confess "h1 to my %ame1 t ,i 0 glad to h made my peace ) ^? s9ful m51 :i* 0 n peace ) my ,god4 ,b1 t great ,god _h look$ d[n ^u me 9 m]cy4 ,he 0 soon to break t peace ) ! great apo/ate *ur*1 :i* is poison+ ! _w ) ! w9e ( h] en*antm5ts1 t ,i might walk 9 ! light ( ! ,gospel & possess t peace & joy :i* passe? all und]/&+4 ,,*apt] ,,lxv4 ,,excell5t ,,te/imonial ,,f ,,my ,,bi%op--,,my ,,retreat--,,gr& ,,vic> ,,saur9 ,,& ,,8 ,,assi/ant1 ,,rev4 ,m4 ,,grang]--,,gr& ,,vic> ,,dunn ,,writes ,,me ,,ab\t ,,! ,,new ,,/orm ,,prep>$ ,,by ,,! ,,jesuits--,,bi%op ,,smi?1 ,,ord]s ,,me ,,back ,,to ,,dubuque--,,he ,,rejects ,,! ,,acts ,,( ,,submission--,,! ,,voice ,,( ,,god--,,! ,,bi%op ,,requires ,a ,,new ,,act ,,( ,,submission--,i ,,refuse ,,x--,,vision--,,*ri/ ,,(f]s ,,himself ,,z ,a ,,gift--,i ,,am ,,=giv51 ,,ri* ,,happy ,,& ,,sav$--,,back ,,to ,,my ,,p4 ,bi%op ,smi? _h fulfill$ 8 promise 9 address+ to me a te/imonial lett]1 :i* w\ld %[ to bo? fri5ds & foes t ! mo/ honorable & la/+ peace betwe5 u 0 to succe$ ! deplorable ye>s ( /rife ?r\gh :i* we _h j pass$4 ,i read x ) gr& vic> ,dunn1 :o 0 n less pleas$ ?an ,i ) ! k9d expressions ( e/eem t[>ds my p & myself ) :i* x 0 fill$4 ,i _h nev] _h a docum5t 9 :i* my private & public "* 7 s k9dly appreciat$4 ,i put x 9 my portfolio z ! mo/ preci\s treasure ,i _h ev] possess$1 & my gratitude to ! bi%op :o _h writt5 su* fri5dly l9es1 0 b\ndless4 ,i1 at once1 address$ a %ort lett] to ?ank & bless him3 & ,i reque/$ him to pray = me dur+ ! happy days ( retreat ,i 0 to sp5d at ! mona/]y ( ,/4 ,joseph4 ,! v5]able gr& vic> ,saur91 & 8 assi/ant1 ,rev4 ,m4 ,grang]1 receiv$ me z two ,*ri/ian g5tlem5 receive a bro!r prie/1 & ,i may say t1 dur+ my /ay 9 ! mona/]y1 !y con/antly ov]:elm$ me ) ! mo/ s9c]e m>ks ( k9dness4 ,i f\nd 9 !m bo? ! v be/ types ( prie/s ( ,rome4 ,a volume1 & n a *apt]1 w\ld be requir$1 7 ,i to tell :at ,i saw !re ( ! zeal1 devot$ness1 ability & m>vell\s success ( _! labors4 ,suffice x to say1 t gr& vic> ,saur9 is ju/ly consid]$ "o ( ! l>ge/ & highe/ intellects ,rome has ev] giv5 to ! ,unit$ ,/ates4 ,!re is n1 p]haps1 a man :o has done s mu* = ! advancem5t ( t *ur* 9 ?is c\ntry z t highly gift$ prie/4 ,my e/eem1 respect1 ,i v5ture to say1 my v5]ation = him1 increas$ e "t ,i _h ! privilege ( conv]s+ ) him4 ,! only ?+s :i* pa9$ me 73 #a/4 ,:5 "s ( 8 inf]ior monks came to speak to him1 !y _h to kneel & pro/rate !mselves z if he _h be5 a god1 & !y _h to rema9 9 t humble & degrad+ po/ure1 till1 ) a sign ( 8 h& or a ^w f 8 lips1 he told !m to rise4 #bnd4 ,?\gh he promis$ to ! num]\s ,prote/ant p>5ts1 :o entru/$ _! boys & girls to 8 c>e = _! education1 nev] to int]f]e ) _! religion1 he 01 nev]!less1 incessantly proselytiz+ !m4 ,sev]al ( 8 ,prote/ant pupils 7 receiv$ 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 & r5\nc$ ! religion ( _! fa!rs1 9 my pres5ce1 on ! eve ( ,ea/] ( t ye>4 ,:ile1 z a prie/1 ,i rejoic$ 9 ! num]\s conque/s ( my *ur* ov] h] enemies1 9 all our colleges & nunn]ies1 ,i object$ to ! brea* ( promise1 always connect$ ) ^? conv]sions4 ,i1 h[ev]1 !n ?\ght1 z ,i ?9k to-day1 t a ,prote/ant :o takes 8 *ildr5 to a ,roman ,ca?olic prie/ or nun = _! education1 _h no religion4 ,x is simply an absurdity to promise t we w respect ! religion ( a man :o has none4 ,h[ c we respect t :i* does n exi/8 ,z a g5]al ?+1 !re are too few p :o und]/& ! pr(\nd mean+ ( our ,savi\r's words to 8 disciples3 8,come ye y\rselves ap>t into a des]t place & re/ a :ile40 ,^! words1 utt]$ aft] ! apo/les _h ga!r$ !mselves toge!r unto ,jesus1 & told him all ?+s bo? :at !y _h done & taught1 ought to receive m att5tion1 on ! "p ( ^? :om ! ,son ( ,god has *os5 to cont9ue ! great "w ( prea*+ 8 ,gospel to ! _w4 ,i _h nev] be=e s well realiz$ h[ good x 0 to be alone ) ,*ri/1 & tell him all ,i _h done1 said & ?\ght4 ,^? few days ( re/ & communion ) my ,savi\r 7 "o ( ! greate/ favors my m]ciful ,god _h ev] giv5 me4 ,my pr9cipal occupation 0 to read & m$itate on ! ,gospel4 ,t div9e book _h nev] be5 s preci\s to me z s9ce ,god _h direct$ me to put x z ! fundam5tal /one ( my fai? 9 ! act ( submission ,i _h j giv5 to my bi%op3 & my *ur* _h nev] be5 s de> to me z s9ce %e _h accept$ t conditional submission4 ,i felt a holy pride & joy at hav+ f9ally sil5c$ ! voice ( ! enemy :i*1 s (t51 tr\bl$ my fai? by cry+ to my s\l3 8,d y n see t 9 y\r ,*ur* ( ,rome1 y d n foll[ ! ,^w ( ,god1 b only ! ly+ traditions ( m540 ,my *ur*1 ?r\gh h] bi%op1 _h j giv5 me :at ,i consid]$ an infallible assurance ( ! contr>y1 by accept+ ! docum5t sign$ by me & my p1 :]e we _h cle>ly said t we w\ld nev] obey any au?ority or any sup]ior1 except :5 8_! ord]s or doctr9es w\ld be bas$ ^u ! ,gospel ( ,*ri/40 ,my s\l 0 rejoic+ 9 ^? ?\ghts1 :51 on ! #e? ( ,april 7,monday aft] ,ea/]7 gr& vic> ,saur9 h&$ me a lett] f ,mr4 ,dunn1 tell+ me t a new /orm1 br\ght by ! ,jesuits1 & m =midable ?an ! pa/ ones1 0 ab\t to break on me2 t ,i _h to prep>e = new & m s]i\s conflicts ?an ,i _h ev] exp]i5c$4 ,! next morn+1 ,mr4 ,saur9 h&$ me ano!r lett] f ! ,bi%op ( ,dubuque1 & ) a sympa?y :i* ,i w nev] =get1 he said3 8,i am sorry to see t y are n at ! end ( y\r tr\bles1 z y expect$4 8,bi%op ,smi? ord]s y back to ,dubuque ) words :i* are f> f be+ fri5dly40 ,b1 /range to say1 su* bad news1 :i* w\ld h sadd5$ & disc\rag$ me1 9 o!r circum/ances1 left me p]fectly calm & *e]ful on t day4 ,9 my de> ,gospel1 :i* _h be5 my daily bread1 ! la/ eight days1 ,i _h f\nd ! helmet = my head1 ! brea/plate & ! %ield to protect me1 & ! unconqu]able sword ) :i* to fight4 ,f e page1 ,i he>d my ,savi\r's voice3 8,fe> n1 ,i am ) !e40 ,:51 on my way back to ,dubuque1 ,i /opp$ at ,*icago1 to "k f my fai?ful fri5d1 ,mr4 ,dunn1 ! cause ( ! new /orm4 ,he said3 8,y rememb] h[ gr& vic> ,maill\x 0 displeas$ ) ! conditional submission y _h giv5 to ! bi%op4 ,z soon z we _h left him1 he s5t ! "y prie/ :o is ) him1 to ! ,jesuits ( ,*icago1 to tell !m t ! au?ority ( ! *ur* & ( ! bi%op w\ld be =ev] lo/1 if ,*9iquy 7 all[$ to submit on su* a condition4 ,he want$ !m to notice t x 0 n to ! au?ority ( ! bi%ops & ! *ur* y _h submitt$2 b only to ! au?ority ( ! ,bible4 ,! ,jesuits 7 ( ! same m9d4 ,!y imm$iately s5t to ,dubuque1 & said to ! bi%op3 #8,d y n see t ,*9iquy is a disguis$ ,prote/ant2 t he has deceiv$ y by pres5t+ y su* an act ( submission4 ,does n y\r lord%ip see t ,*9iquy has n submitt$ himself to y\r au?ority1 b to ! au?ority ( 8 ,bible alone8 ,d y n fe> t ! :ole body ( ! bi%ops & ! ,pope himself w condemn y = hav+ fall5 into ! trap prep>$ by t disguis$ ,prote/ant8' 8,our adm9i/rator1 ?\gh a good man :5 left to himself1 is weak1 & l s(t wax1 c be manipulat$ 9 e way4 8,! ,jesuits :o want to rule ! prie/s & ! *ur* ) an iron rod1 & :o are aim+ to *ange ! ,pope & ! bi%ops into ! mo/ he>tless tyrants1 h advis$ ! adm9i/rator to =ce y to give an unconditional act ( submission4 ,x is n ! ,^w ( ,god :i* mu/ rule u n[1 x is ! old ,jupit]1 :o is com+ back to rule u "u ! "n ( a mod]n div9ity1 call$ #8! au?ority ( ! bi%ops4' ,! adm9i/rator & ! ,jesuits !mselves1 h telegraph$ y\r submission to sev]al bi%ops1 :o h unanim\sly answ]$ t x mu/ be reject$1 & ano!r giv51 )\t condition1 reque/$ f y4 ,y 7 evid5tly too correct1 :5 y told me ! o!r day1 t y\r act ( submission 0 too good = ! bi%ops & ! ,pope4 ,:at w y d80 ,i repli$3 8,i d n "k :at ,i w d1 b be sure ( ?is1 my de> ,mr4 ,dunn1 ,i w d :at our great & m]ciful ,god w tell me40 8,v well1 v well10 he answ]$1 8,may ,god help y60,h4 ----- ,footnote ,h3 ,t same ,mr4 ,dunn 0 also excommunicat$1 n long aft]1 by 8 bi%op1 & di$ aft] publicly refus+ to be reliev$ f t s5t5ce4 ----- ,aft] w>mly %ak+ h&s ) me1 ,i left to take ! tra9 = ,dubuque1 :]e ,i arriv$1 next morn+4 ,i w5t imm$iately to ! bi%op's palace4 ,i f\nd him 9 ! company ( a ,jesuit1 & ,i felt myself z a poor helpless %ip betwe5 two ?reat5+ iceb]gs4 8,y\r lord%ip wants to see me aga910 ,i said4 8,yes1 sir1 ,i want to see y aga910 he answ]$4 8,:at d y want f me my "l80 ,i repli$4 8,h y ! te/imonial lett] ,i address$ to y1 at ,*icago1 la/ week80 8,yes1 my "l1 ,i h x ) me40 8,w y please %[ x to me10 he repli$4 8,) pleasure1 "h x is10 & ,i h&$ him ! preci\s docum5t4 ,z soon z he _h assur$ himself t x 0 ! v lett] 9 "q1 he ran to ! /ove & ?rew x into ! fire4 ,i felt s puzzl$ at ! action ( my bi%op1 t ,i rema9$ almo/ p>alyz$2 b soon1 com+ to myself1 ,i ran1 to save f ! flames1 t docum5t :i* 0 m valuable & preci\s to me ?an all ! gold ( ,cali=nia1 b x 0 too late4 ,x 0 9 a%es4 ,i turn$ to ! bi%op & said3 8,h[ c y take f me a docum5t :i* is my prop]ty1 & de/roy x )\t my p]mission80 ,he answ]$ me ) an impud5ce t _c be express$ on pap]3 8,i am y\r sup]ior1 & h no acc\nt to give y40 ,i repli$3 8,yes1 my "l1 y are my sup]ior inde$4 ,y are a great bi%op 9 our *ur*1 & ,i am no?+ b a poor mis]able prie/4 8,b1 !re is an ,almighty ,god 9 heav51 :o is z mu* above y z he is above me4 ,t great ,god has grant$ me rights :i* ,i w nev] give up to please any man4 ,9 ! pres5ce ( ,god1 ,i prote/ aga9/ y\r iniquity40 8,h y come "h to lecture me80 repli$ ! bi%op4 8,no1 my "l1 ,i did n come to lecture y2 ,i come at y\r comm&1 b ,i want to "k if x 0 to insult me z y h j done t y reque/$ me to come "h aga940 8,i ord]$ y to come "h aga9 because y deceiv$ me ! la/ "t y 7 "h10 he answ]$3 8y gave me an act ( submission :i* y "k v well is n an act ( submission4 ,i accept$ x !n1 b ,i 0 mi/ak52 ,i reject x to-day40 ,i answ]$3 8,h[ c y say t ,i deceiv$ y8 ,! docum5t ,i pres5t$ y1 is writt5 9 good1 pla9 ,engli%4 ,x is !re1 on y\r table1 ,i see x3 y read x twice1 & und]/ood x well4 ,if y 7 deceiv$ by its cont5ts1 y deceiv$ y\rself4 ,y are1 !n1 a self-deceiv] & y _c accuse me ( hav+ deceiv$ y40 ,he !n took ! docum5t1 read x sl[ly3 & :5 at ! words1 8we submit ourselves to y\r au?ority1 accord+ to ! ,^w ( ,god z we f9d x 9 ! ,gospel ( ,*ri/10 he /opp$ & said3 8,:at d y mean by ?is80 ,i answ]$1 8,i mean :at y see !re4 ,i mean t nei!r ,i nor my p w ev] submit ourselves to anybody1 except accord+ to ! et]nal laws ( tru?1 ju/ice & hol9ess ( ,god1 z we f9d !m express$ 9 ! ,bible40 ,he angrily answ]$1 8,su* language on y\r "p is %e] ,prote/antism4 ,i _c accept su* a conditional submission f any prie/40 ,!n1 aga91 ,i seem$ to he> ! my/]i\s voice1 8,d y n see t 9 y\r ,*ur* ( ,rome1 y d n foll[ ! ,^w ( ,god1 b ! ly+ traditions ( m580 ,?anks be to ,god1 ,i did n sil5ce t voice 9 t solemn h\r4 ,an ard5t1 ?\gh sil5t pray]1 w5t f ! bottom ( my he>t to ! m]cy seat4 ,) all ! f]vor ( my s\l ,i said3 8,oh my ,god6 speak1 speak aga9 to ?y poor s]vant1 & grant me ! grace to foll[ ?y ,holy ,^w60 ,i !n said to ! bi%op3 8,y di/ress me by reject+ ?is act ( submission1 & ask+ ano!r4 ,please expla9 y\rself m cle>ly1 & tell me ! nature ( ! new "o y require f me & my p40 ,tak+ !n a m subdu$ & polite tone1 ! bi%op said3 8,i hope1 ,mr4 ,*9iquy1 t1 z a good prie/1 y d n want to rebel aga9/ y\r bi%op1 & t y w give me ! act ( submission ,i ask f y4 ,take away ^! #8,words ( ,god1' #8,gospel ( ,*ri/1' & #8,bible1' f y\r pres5t docum5t1 & ,i w be satisfi$40 8,b1 my "l1 ) my p1 ,i h put ^! words because we want to obey only ! bi%ops :o foll[ ! ,^w ( ,god4 ,we want to submit only to ! *ur* :i* respects & foll[s ! ,gospel ( ,*ri/40 ,9 an irritat$ mann]1 he quickly answ]$3 8,take away f y\r act ( submission1 ^? #8,words ( ,god1' & #8,gospel ( ,*ri/1' & #8,bible6' or ,i w puni% y z a rebel40 8,my "l10 ,i repli$1 8^? expressions are !re to %[ u & to ! :ole _w1 t ! ,^w ( ,god1 ! ,gospel ( ,*ri/ & ! ,bible1 are ! fundam5tal /ones ( our holy *ur*4 ,if we reject ^? preci\s /ones1 on :at f\ndations w our *ur* & our fai? re/80 ,he answ]$ angrily3 8,mr4 ,*9iquy1 ,i am y\r sup]ior1 ,i d n want to argue ) y3 ,y are my inf]ior1 y\r bus9ess is to obey me4 ,give me1 at once1 an act ( submission 9 :i* y w simply say t y & y\r p w submit y\rselves to my au?ority1 & promise to d any?+ ,i w bid y40 ,i calmly answ]$3 8,:at y ask me is n an act ( submission1 x is an act ( adoration4 ,i d absolutely refuse to give x40 8,if x be s1 sir10 he answ]$1 8y c no long] be a ,roman ,ca?olic prie/40 ,i rais$ my h&s to heav51 & cri$ ) a l\d voice3 8,may ,god ,almighty be =ev] bless$40 ,i took my hat & left to g to my hotel4 ,:5 alone1 9 my room1 ,i lock$ ! door & fell on my knees1 to consid]1 9 ! pres5ce ( ,god1 :at ,i _h j done4 ,!re1 ! awful1 und5iable tru? />$ me 9 ! face4 ,my *ur* c\ld n be ! ,*ur* ( ,*ri/6 ,t sad tru? _h n be5 reveal$ to me by any ,prote/ant1 nor any o!r enemy ( ! *ur*4 ,x 0 f h] own lips ,i _h got x8 ,x _h be5 told me by "o ( h] mo/ le>n$ & devot$ bi%ops6 ,my *ur* 0 ! deadly1 ! irreconcilable enemy ( ! ,^w ( ,god1 z ,i _h s (t5 suspect$6 ,i 0 n all[$ to rema9 a s+le day long] 9 t *ur* )\t positively & publicly giv+ up ! ,gospel ( ,*ri/6 ,x 0 evid5t to me t ! ,gospel 0 only a bl9d1 a mock]y to conceal h] iniquities1 tyrannies1 sup]/itions & idolatries4 ,! only use ( ! ,gospel 9 my *ur*1 0 to ?r[ du/ 9 ! eyes ( ! prie/s & p6 ,x _h no au?ority4 ,! only rule & guide 7 ! w1 ! passions & ! dictates ( s9ful m56 ,!re1 on my knees1 & alone ) ,god1 x 0 evid5t to me t ! voice :i* _h s (t5 tr\bl$ & %ak5 my fai?1 0 ! voice ( my m]ciful ,god :o want$ to save me4 ,x 0 ! voice ( my de> ,savi\r1 :o want$ to br+ me out ( ! ways ( p]dition 9 :i* ,i 0 walk+4 ,& ,i _h tri$ s (t5 to sil5ce t voice6 8,my ,god6 my ,god60 ,i cri$1 8,! ,*ur* ( ,rome is n ?y *ur*4 ,to obey ! voice ( my consci5ce1 :i* is ?9e1 ,i gave x up4 ,:5 ,i _h ! *oice betwe5 giv+ up ! ,*ur* or ! ,bible1 ,i did n hesitate4 ,i c\ld n give up ?y ,holy ,^w4 ,i h giv5 up ,rome6 ,b1 ,o ,"l1 :]e is ?y *ur*8 ,oh6 speak66 :]e mu/ ,i g to be sav$80 ,= m ?an "o h\r1 ,i cri$ to ,god 9 va92 no answ] came4 ,9 va91 ,i cri$ = a ray ( light to guide me4 ,! m ,i pray$ & wept1 ! great] 0 ! d>kness :i* surr\nd$ me6 ,i !n felt z if ,god _h =sak5 me1 & an unspeakable di/ress 0 ! result ( t horrible ?\ght4 ,to add to my di/ress1 ! ?\ght fla%$ across my m9d t by giv+ up ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 ,i _h giv5 up ! *ur* ( my de> fa!r & "m1 ( my bro!rs1 my fri5ds & my c\ntry4 ,9 fact all t 0 ne> & de> to me6 ,i hope t none ( my read]s w ev] exp]i5ce :at x is to give up fri5ds1 relatives1 p>5ts1 honor1 c\ntry--ev]y?+6 ,i did n regret ! sacrifice1 b ,i felt z if ,i c\ld n survive x4 ,) te>s1 ,i cri$ to ,god = m /r5g? & fai? to be> ! cross :i* 0 laid on my too weak %\ld]s b all 9 va94 ,!n ,i felt t an implacable w> 0 to be decl>$ aga9/ me1 :i* w\ld end only ) my life4 ,! ,pope1 ! bi%ops & prie/s1 all ov] ! _w1 w\ld d5\nce & curse me4 ,!y w\ld attack & de/roy my "*1 my "n & my honor1 9 _! press1 f _! pulpit & 9 _! confessionals1 :]e ! man !y /rike c nev] "k :5ce ! bl[ is com+6 ,almo/ 9 despair1 ,i tri$ to ?9k ( "s "o :o w\ld come to my help 9 t =midable conflict1 b c\ld f9d none4 ,e "o ( ! millions ( ,roman ,ca?olics 7 b\nd to curse me4 ,my be/ fri5ds--my own p--ev5 my own bro!rs1 7 b\nd to look ^u me ) horror z an apo/ate1 a vile outca/6 ,c\ld ,i hope = help or protection f ,prote/ants8 ,no6 = my prie/ly life _h be5 sp5t 9 writ+ & prea*+ aga9/ !m4 ,9 va9 w\ld ,i try to give an idea ( ! desolation ,i felt1 :5 t ?\ght /ruck my m9d4 ,=sak5 by ,god & man1 :at w\ld become ( me8 ,:]e w\ld ,i g :5 out ( t room8 ,expell$ ) contempt by my =m] ,roman ,ca?olic fri5ds2 repuls$ ) /ill m contempt by ,prote/ants2 :]e c\ld ,i g to hide my %ame & drag my mis]able exi/5ce8 ,h[ c\ld ,i g aga9 into t _w :]e !re 0 no m room = me2 :]e !re 0 no h& to press m9e2 none to smile ^u me6 ,life sudd5ly became to me an unbe>able burd54 ,my bra9 seem$ to be fill$ ) burn+ coals4 ,i 0 los+ my m9d4 ,yea1 dea?1 an in/ant dea? seem$ to me ! greate/ bless+ 9 t awful h\r6 &1 w ,i say x8 ,yes6 ,i took my knife to cut my ?roat & put an end to my mis]able exi/5ce6 ,b my m]ciful ,god1 :o want$ only to humble me1 by %[+ me my own helplessness1 /opp$ my h&1 & ! knife fell on ! floor4 ,?\gh ,i felt ! pangs ( t desolation = m ?an two h\rs1 ,i con/antly cri$ to ,god = a ray ( 8 sav+ light1 = a ^w tell+ me :at to d1 :]e to g to be sav$4 ,at la/1 drops ( cold sweat began to cov] aga9 my face & my :ole body4 ,! pulsations ( my he>t began to be v sl[ & weak3 ,i felt s feeble t ,i expect$ to fa9t at any mom5t1 or fall dead6 ,at fir/ ,i ?\ght t dea? w\ld be a great relief1 b !n1 ,i said to myself3 8,if ,i die1 :]e w ,i g1 :5 !re is no fai?1 nor a ray ( light to illum9e my poor p]i%+ s\l6 ,oh1 my de> ,savi\r10 ,i cri$1 8come to my help6 ,lift up ! light ( ?y reconcil$ c\nt5ance ^u me40 ,9 t v in/ant1 ,i rememb]$ t ,i _h my de> ,new ,te/am5t ) me1 :i* ,i us$ !n1 z n[1 to c>ry ev]y:]e4 ,! ?\ght fla%$ across my m9d t ,i w\ld f9d 9 t div9e book ! answ] to my pray]1 & light to guide me ?r\gh t d>k night to t h\se ( refuge & salvation1 aft] :i* my s\l 0 ard5tly long+4 ,) a trembl+ h& & a pray+ he>t1 ,i op5$ ! book at r&om2 b1 no6 n ,i1 my ,god himself op5$ x = me4 ,my eyes fell on ^! words3 8,,ye ,,are ,,b\ght ,,) ,a ,,price4 ,,be ,,n ,,ye ,,! ,,s]vants ,,( ,,m540 7#a ,cor41 #g3bc47 ,/range to say6 ,^? words came to my m9d1 m z a light ?an an articulat$ s\nd4 ,!y1 sudd5ly1 b mo/ beautifully & p[]fully1 gave me1 z mu* z a man c "k x1 ! k ( ! great my/]y ( a p]fect salvation ?r\gh ,*ri/ alone4 ,!y1 at once1 br\ght a great & delightful calm to my s\l4 ,i said to myself3 8,jesus has b\ght me1 !n ,i am ,82 = :5 ,i h b\ght a ?+1 x is m9e1 absolutely m9e6 ,jesus has b\ght me6 ,i1 !n1 belong to him6 ,he alone has a "r ov] me4 ,i d n belong to ! bi%ops1 to ! ,popes2 n ev5 to ! *ur*1 z ,i h be5 told till n[4 ,i belong to ,jesus1 & to him alone6 ,8 ,^w mu/ be my guide1 & my light by day & by night4 ,jesus has b\ght me1 ,i said aga9 to myself2 !n ,he has sav$ me6 & if s1 ,i am sav$1 p]fectly sav$1 = ev] sav$6 = ,jesus _c save me by half4 ,jesus is my ,god2 ! works ( ,god are p]fect4 ,my salvation mu/1 !n1 be a p]fect salvation6 ,b h[ has he sav$ me8 ,:at price has he paid = my poor guilty s\l8 ,! answ] came z quickly z lightn+3 8,he b\ght y ) 8 blood %$ on ! cross6 ,he sav$ y by dy+ on ,calv>y60 ,i1 !n1 said to myself aga93 8,if ,jesus has p]fectly sav$ me by %$d+ 8 blood on ! cross1 ,i am n sav$ z ,i h ?\ght & prea*$ till n[1 by my p5ances1 my pray]s to ,m>y & ! sa9ts1 my confessions & indulg5ces1 n ev5 by ! flames or purgatory4 ,9 t in/ant1 all ?+s :i*1 z a ,roman ,ca?olic1 ,i _h to believe to be sav$--all ! mumm]ies by :i* ! poor ,roman ,ca?olics are s cruelly deceiv$1 ! *aplets1 indulg5ces1 scapul>ies1 auricul> confession1 invocation ( ! virg91 holy wat]1 masses1 purgatory1 etc41 giv5 z means ( salvation1 vani%$ f my m9d z a huge t[]1 :5 /ruck at ! f\ndation1 crumbles to ! gr\nd4 ,jesus alone rema9$ 9 my m9d z ! ,savi\r ( my s\l6 ,oh6 :at joy ,i felt at ?is simple1 b sublime tru?6 ,b x 0 ! w ( ,god t ?is joy %\ld be %ort4 ,x sudd5ly w5t away ) ! beautiful light :i* _h caus$ x2 & my poor s\l 0 aga9 wrapp$ 9 ! mo/ awful d>kness4 ,h[ ev] pr(\nd t d>kness 01 a /ill d>k] object pres5t$ itself be=e my m9d4 ,x 0 z a v high m\nta92 b n compos$ ( s& or /ones1 x 0 ! m\nta9 ( my s9s4 ,i saw !m all /&+ be=e me4 ,& /ill m horrifi$ 0 ,i :5 ,i saw x mov+ t[>ds me z if1 ) a mighty h&1 to cru% me4 ,i tri$ to escape1 b 9 va94 ,i felt ti$ to ! floor1 & ! next mom5t1 x _h roll$ ov] me4 ,i felt z cru%$ "u its weight2 = x 0 z heavy z granite4 ,i c\ld sc>cely brea!6 ,my only hope 0 to cry to ,god = help4 ,) a l\d voice1 he>d by _m 9 ! hotel1 ,i cri$3 8,o my ,god6 h m]cy ^u me6 ,my s9s are de/roy+ me6 ,i am lo/1 save me60 ,b x seem$ ,god c\ld n he> me4 ,! m\nta9 0 betwe51 to prev5t my cries f rea*+ ,him1 & to hide my te>s4 ,i sudd5ly ?\ght t ,god w\ld h no?+ to d ) su* a s9n]1 b to op5 ! gates ( hell to ?r[ me into t burn+ furnace prep>$ = 8 enemies1 & :i* ,i _h s ri*ly des]v$6 ,i 0 mi/ak51 aft] eight or t5 m9utes ( unspeakable agony1 ! rays ( a new & beautiful light began to pi]ce ?r\gh ! d>k cl\d :i* hung ov] me4 ,9 t light1 ,i cle>ly saw my ,savi\r4 ,!re he 01 b5t "u ! weight ( 8 heavy cross4 ,8 face 0 cov]$ ) blood1 ! cr[n ( ?orns 0 on 8 head & ! nails 9 8 h&s4 ,he 0 look+ at me ) an expression ( compassion1 ( love1 :i* no tongue c describe4 ,com+ to me1 he said3 8,i h he>d ?y cries1 ,i h se5 ?y te>s1 ,i come to (f] myself to !e z a ,,gift4 ,i (f] !e my blood & my bruis$ body z a ,,gift to pay ?y debts2 wilt ?\ give me ?y he>t8 ,wilt ?\ take my ,^w = ! only lamp ( ?y feet & ! only light ( ?y pa?8 ,i br+ !e et]nal life1 z a gift60 ,i answ]$3 8,de> ,jesus1 h[ sweet art ?y words to my s\l6 ,speak1 oh6 speak aga96 ,yes1 belov$ ,savi\r1 ,i want to love !e2 b do/ ?\ n see t m\nta9 :i* is cru%+ me8 ,oh6 remove x6 ,take away my s9s60 ,i _h n done speak+ :5 ,i saw 8 mighty h& /ret*$ out4 ,he t\*$ ! m\nta91 & x roll$ into ! deep1 & disappe>$4 ,at ! same "t1 ,i felt z if a %[] ( ! blood ( ! ,lamb 7 fall+ ^u me to purify my s\l4 ,&1 sudd5ly1 my humble room 0 trans=m$ into a real p>adise4 ,! angels ( ,god c\ld n be m happy ?an ,i 0 9 t mo/ my/]i\s & bless$ h\r ( my life4 ,) an unspeakable joy1 ,i said to my ,savi\r3 8,de> ,jesus1 ! ,,gift ( ,god1 ,i accept !e6 ,?\ ha/ (f]$ ! p>don ( my s9s z a gift1 ,i accept ! gift4 ,?\ ha/ br\ght me et]nal life z a gift6 ,i accept x6 ,?\ ha/ r$eem$ & sav$ me1 belov$ ,savi\r1 ,i "k1 ,i feel x4 ,b ?is is n en\gh4 ,i d n want to be sav$ alone4 ,save my p also4 ,save my :ole c\ntry6 ,i feel ri* & happy 9 t gift2 grant me to %[ its beauty & preci\sness1 to my p1 t !y may accept x1 & rejoice 9 its possession40 ,?is sudd5 revelation ( t m>vell\s tru? ( salvation z a ,,gift1 _h s completely trans=m$ me1 t ,i felt q a new man4 ,! unutt]able di/ress ( my s\l _h be5 *ang$ into an unspeakable joy4 ,my fe>s _h gone away1 to be replac$ by a c\rage & /r5g?1 su* z ,i _h nev] exp]i5c$4 ,! ,popes1 ) _! bi%ops & prie/s1 & millions ( abject slaves might1 n[1 attack me1 ,i felt t ,i 0 a mat* = !m all4 ,my great ambition 0 to g back to my p & tell !m :at ! ,"l _h done to save my s\l4 ,i wa%$ my te>s away1 paid my bill & took ! tra9 :i* br\ght me back into ! mid/ ( my de> c\ntrym54 ,at t v same h\r !y 7 anxi\s & excit$1 = !y _h j receiv$1 at ,kankakee ,city1 a telegram f ! ,bi%op ( ,dubuque1 tell+ !m3 8,turn away y\r prie/1 = he has refus$ to give me an unconditional act ( submission40 ,!y _h ga!r$ 9 great numb]s to he> ! read+ ( t /range message4 ,b !y unanim\sly said3 8,if ,mr4 ,*9iquy has refus$ to give an unconditional act ( submission1 he has done "r1 we w /& by him to ! end40 ,h[ev]1 ,i knew no?+ ( t admirable resolution4 ,i arriv$ at ,/4 ,anne1 on a ,sabba? day1 at ! h\r ( ! morn+ s]vice4 ,!re 0 an imm5se cr[d at ! door ( ! *apel4 ,!y ru%$ to me & said3 8,y are j com+ f ! bi%op2 :at good news h y to br+ u80 ,i answ]$3 8,no news "h1 my good fri5ds1 come to ! *apel & ,i w tell y :at ! ,"l has done = my s\l40 ,:5 !y _h fill$ ! l>ge build+1 ,i told !m4 8,our ,savi\r1 ! day be=e 8 dea?1 said to 8 disciples3 #8,i w be a sc&al to y1 ?is night4' ,i mu/ tell y ! same ?+4 ,i w be1 to-day1 ,i fe>1 ! cause ( a great sc&al to e "o ( y4 ,b1 z ! sc&al :i* ,*ri/ gave to 8 disciples1 has sav$ ! _w2 ,i hope t1 by ! great m]cy ( ,god1 ! sc&al ,i w give y w save y4 ,i 0 y\r pa/or till ye/]day8 ,b ,i h no m t honor to-day1 = ,i h brok5 ! ties by :i* ,i 0 b\nd z a slave at ! feet ( ! bi%ops & ( ! ,pope40 ,?is s5t5ce 0 sc>cely f9i%$1 :5 a univ]sal cry ( surprise & sadness fill$ ! *ur*4 8,oh6 :at does t mean80 exclaim$ ! congregation4 8,my de> c\ntrym510 ,i add$1 8,i h n come to tell y to foll[ me6 ,i did n die to save y\r immortal s\ls3 ,i h n %$ my blood to buy y a place 9 heav52 b ,*ri/ has done x4 ,!n foll[ ,*ri/ & him alone8 ,n[1 ,i mu/ tell y :y ,i h brok5 ! ignom9i\s & unbe>able yoke ( m51 to foll[ ,*ri/4 ,y rememb] t1 on ! #ba/ ( ,m>* la/1 y sign$1 ) me1 an act ( submission to ! au?ority ( ! ,bi%op ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 ) ! conditional clause t we w\ld obey !m only 9 matt]s :i* 7 accord+ to ! tea*+s ( ! ,^w ( ,god z f\nd 9 ! ,gospel ( ,*ri/4 ,9 t act ( submission we did n want to be slaves ( any man1 b ! s]vants ( ,god1 ! foll[]s ( ! ,gospel4 ,x 0 our hope !n t our *ur* w\ld accept su* a submission4 ,& y\r joy 0 great1 :5 y he>d t ,gr& ,vic> ,dunn 0 "h on ! #bh? ( ,m>*1 to tell y t ,bi%op ,smi? _h accept$ ! submission4 ,b t acceptation 0 revok$4 ,ye/]day1 ,i 0 told 9 ! pres5ce ( ,god1 by ! same bi%op1 t he ought n to h accept$ an act ( submission f any prie/ or p bas$ on ! ,gospel ( ,*ri/6 ,yes6 ye/]day1 ,bi%op ,smi? reject$1 ) ! utmo/ contempt1 ! act ( submission we _h giv5 him1 & :i* he _h accept$ only two weeks ago1 because ! #8,^w ( ,god' 0 m5tion$ 9 x6 ,:5 ,i respectfully reque/$ him to tell me ! nature ( ! new act ( submission he want$ f u1 he ord]$ me to take away f x #8! ,^w ( ,god1 ! ,gospel ( ,*ri/1 & ! ,bible1' if we want$ to be accept$ z good ,ca?olics6 ,we _h ?\ght1 till !n1 t ! sacr$ ,^w ( ,god1 & ! ,holy ,gospel ( ,*ri/ 7 ! fundam5tal & preci\s /ones ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome4 ,we lov$ h] on t acc\nt1 we want$ to rema9 9 h] bosom1 ev5 :5 we 7 =c$ to fight1 z hone/ m51 aga9/ t tyrant1 ,o',regan4 ,believ+ t ! ,*ur* ( ,rome 0 ! *ild ( ! ,^w ( ,god1 t x 0 ! mo/ preci\s fruit ( ! div9e tree plant$ on ! e>?1 "u ! "n ( ! ,gospel1 we w\ld h giv5 ! la/ drop ( our blood to def5d h]6 8,b1 ye/]day1 ,i h le>n$1 f ! v lips ( ! ,bi%ops ( ,rome1 t we 7 a b& ( simpletons 9 believ+ ^? ?+s4 ,i h le>n$ t ! ,*ur* ( ,rome has no?+ to d ) ! ,^w ( ,god1 except to ?r[ x ov]bo>d1 to trample x "u _! feet1 & to =bid u ev5 to "n x 9 ! solemn act ( submission we _h giv54 ,i h be5 told t we c\ld no long] be ,roman ,ca?olics1 if we p]si/$ 9 putt+ ! ,^w ( ,god & ! ,gospel ( ,*ri/ z ! f\ndation ( our religion1 our fai? & our submission4 ,:5 ,i 0 told1 by ! bi%op1 t ,i _h ei!r to r5\nce ! ,^w ( ,god z ! base ( my submission1 or ! title ( prie/ ( ,rome1 ,i did n hesitate4 ,no?+ c\ld induce me to give up ! ,gospel ( ,*ri/2 & s ,i gave up ! title & position ( prie/ 9 ! ,roman ,ca?olic ,*ur*4 ,i w\ld r suff] a ?\s& dea?s ?an r5\nce ! ,gospel ( ,*ri/4 ,i am no long] a prie/ ( ,rome2 b ,i am m ?an ev] a disciple ( ,*ri/1 a foll[] ( ! ,gospel4 ,t ,gospel is = me1 :at x 0 = ,paul3 #8,! p[] ( ,god unto salvation4' ,x is ! bread ( my s\l4 ,9 x we c satisfy our ?ir/ ) ! wat]s ( et]nal life6 ,no6 no66 ,i c\ld n buy ! honor ( be+ any long] a slave to ! bi%ops & popes ( ,rome1 by giv+ up ! ,gospel ( ,*ri/6 8,:5 ,i reque/$ ! bi%op to give me ! precise =m ( submission he want$ f u1 he answ]$3 #8,give me an act ( submission )\t any condition1 & promise t y w d any?+ ,i bid y4' ,i repli$3 8#8,?is is n an act ( submission1 x is an act ( adoration6 ,i w nev] give x to y46' 8#8,if s1' he said1 #8y c no long] be a ,roman ,ca?olic prie/4' 8,i rais$ my h&s to heav51 & ) a l\d & *e]ful voice1 ,i said3 #8,may ,god ,almighty be =ev] bless$4'0 ,i !n told !m some?+ ( my desolation1 :5 alone1 9 my room2 ( ! granite m\nta9 :i* _h be5 roll$ ov] my %\ld]s1 ( my te>s & ( my despair4 ,i told !m also h[ my ble$+1 dy+ crucifi$ ,savi\r _h br\ght me ! =giv5ess ( my s9s2 h[ he _h (f]$ me et]nal salvation z a ,,gift1 & h[ ri*1 /rong & happy ,i felt 9 t gift4 ,i !n (f]$ !m ! ,,gift & bes\ght !m to accept x4 ,my address la/$ m ?an two h\rs1 & ,god bless$ x 9 a m>vell\s way4 ,its effects 7 pr(\nd & la/+1 b x is too long to describe "h4 ,9 sub/ance1 ,i said3 8,i respect y too mu* to impose myself ^u y\r hone/ consci5ces1 or to dictate :at y ought to d on ?is mo/ solemn occasion4 ,i feel t ! h\r has come = me to make a great sacrifice2 ,i mu/ leave y6 b no6 ,i w n g away be=e y tell me to d s4 ,y w y\rselves break ! ties s de> :i* h unit$ u4 ,please1 pay att5tion to ^!1 my p>t+ words3 8,if y ?9k x is bett] = y to foll[ ! ,pope ?an to foll[ ,*ri/2 t x is bett] to tru/ 9 ! works ( y\r h&s1 & 9 y\r own m]its1 ?an 9 ! blood ( ! ,lamb1 %$ on ! cross1 to be sav$2 if y ?9k x is bett] = y to foll[ ! traditions ( m5 ?an ! ,gospel2 & if y believe t x is bett] = y to h a prie/ ( ,rome1 :o w keep y ti$ z slaves to ! feet ( ! bi%ops1 & :o w prea* to y ! ord9ances ( m51 r ?an h me prea* to y no?+ b ! pure ,^w ( ,god1 z we f9d x 9 ! ,gospel ( ,*ri/1 tell x to me by ris+ up1 & ,i w g60 ,b to my great surprise nobody mov$4 ,! *apel 0 fill$ ) sobs2 te>s 7 fl[+ f e eye2 b n "o mov$ to tell me to leave !m6 ,i 0 puzzl$4 ,= ?\gh ,i _h hop$ t _m1 enlight5$ by ! copies ( ! ,new ,te/am5t ,i _h giv5 !m1 tir$ ( ! tyranny ( ! bi%ops1 & disgu/$ ) ! sup]/itions ( ,rome1 w\ld be glad to break ! yoke ) me1 to foll[ ,*ri/2 ,i 0 afraid t ! greate/ numb] w\ld n d>e to break _! allegiance to ! *ur*1 & publicly give up h] au?ority4 ,aft] a few m9utes ( sil5ce1 dur+ :i* ,i mix$ my te>s & my sobs ) ^? ( my p1 ,i told !m3 8,:y d y n1 at once1 rise up & tell me to g8 ,y see t ,i c no long] rema9 y\r pa/or aft] r5\nc+ ! tyranny ( ! bi%ops1 & ! traditions ( m51 to foll[ ! ,gospel ( ,*ri/ z my only rule4 ,:y d y n bravely tell me to g away80 ,b ?is new appeal 0 /ill )\t any answ]4 ,i 0 fill$ ) a/oni%m5t4 ,h[ev]1 x 0 evid5t to me t a great & my/]i\s *ange 0 wr\ght 9 t multitude4 ,_! c\nt5ances1 _! mann]s 7 completely *ang$4 ,!y 7 speak+ to me ) _! eyes fill$ ) te>s1 & _! manly faces beam+ ) joy4 ,_! sobs1 9 "s way1 told me t !y 7 fill$ ) new light2 t !y 7 full ( new /r5g?1 & ready to make ! mo/ h]oic sacrifices1 & break _! fett]s to foll[ ,*ri/1 & ,him alone4 ,!re 0 some?+ 9 ^? brave1 hone/ & happy faces :i* 0 tell+ me m effectually ?an ! mo/ eloqu5t spee*3 8,we h accept$ ! ,,gift1 we want to be ri*1 happy1 free1 & sav$ 9 ! gift3 we d n want any?+ else2 rema9 among u & help u to love bo? ! gift & ! giv]60 ,a ?\ght sudd5ly fla%$ across my m9d1 & ) an inexpressible s5tim5t ( hope & joy1 ,i told !m3 8,my de> c\ntrym56 ,! ,mighty ,god1 :o gave me 8 sav+ light1 ye/]day1 c grant y ! same favor1 to-day4 ,he c1 z well1 save a ?\s& s\ls z "o4 ,i see1 9 y\r noble & ,*ri/ian faces1 t y d n want any m to be slaves ( m54 ,y want to be ! free *ildr5 ( ,god1 intellig5t foll[]s ( ! ,gospel6 ,! light is %9+1 & y l x4 ,! gift ( ,god has be5 (f]$ to y1 & y h accept$ x6 ,) me y w break ! fett]s ( a captivity1 worse ?an t ( ,egypt1 to foll[ ! ,gospel ( ,*ri/1 & take possession ( ! ,promis$ ,l&3 let all ^? :o ?9k x is bett] to foll[ ,jesus ,*ri/ ?an ! ,pope1 bett] to foll[ ! ,^w ( ,god ?an ! traditions ( m53 let all ^? ( y :o want me to rema9 "h & prea* to y no?+ b ! ,^w ( ,god1 z we f9d x 9 ! ,gospel ( ,*ri/1 tell x to me1 by ris+ up4 ,i am y\r man6 ,rise up60 ,)\t a s+le exception1 t multitude arose6 ,m ?an a ?\s& ( my c\ntrym5 _h1 =ev]1 brok5 _! fett]s4 ,!y _h cross$ ! ,r$ ,sea & ex*ang$ ! s]vitude ( ,egypt1 = ! bless+s ( ! ,promis$ ,l&6 ,,*apt] ,,lxvi4 ,,! ,,solemn ,,responsibilities ,,( ,,my ,,new ,,position--,,we ,,give ,,up ,,! ,,"n ,,( ,,roman ,,ca?olic ,,to ,,call ,,ourselves ,,*ri/ian ,,ca?olics--,,dismay ,,( ,,! ,,roman ,,ca?olic ,,bi%ops--,,my ,,"l ,,duggan1 ,,coadjutor ,,( ,,/4 ,,l\is1 ,,hurri$ ,,to ,,*icago--,,he ,,comes ,,to ,,/4 ,,anne ,,to ,,p]suade ,,! ,,p ,,to ,,submit ,,to ,,8 ,,au?ority--,,he ,,is ,,ignom9i\sly ,,turn$ ,,out ,,& ,,runs ,,away ,,9 ,,! ,,mid/ ,,( ,,! ,,cries ,,( ,,! ,,p4 ,:]e %all ,i f9d words to express ! s5tim5ts ( surprise1 admiration & joy ,i felt :51 aft] div9e s]vice1 alone 9 my humble /udy1 ,i consid]$1 9 ! pres5ce ( ,god1 :at ,8 mighty h& _h j wr\ght "u my eyes4 ,! p :o surr\nd$ ! ,savi\r :5 he cri$ to ,laz>us to come =?1 7 n m amaz$ at see+ ! dead com+ out ( 8 grave ?an ,i 0 :5 ,i _h se5 n "o1 b m ?an a ?\s&1 ( my c\ntrym5 s sudd5ly & unexpect$ly com+ out f ! grave ( ! degrad+ slav]y 9 :i* !y 7 born & br\ght up4 ,no1 ! he>t ( ,moses 0 n fill$ ) m joy ?an m9e1 :5 on ! %ores ( ! ,r$ ,sea1 he sang 8 sublime hymns3 8,i w s+ unto ! ,"l3 = ,he ha? triumph$ glori\sly4 ,! horse & 8 rid]1 ha? he ?r[n into ! sea4 ,! ,"l is my /r5g? & song1 & he is become my salvation4 ,he is my ,god & ,i w prep>e him an habitation3 ,my fa!rs' ,god & ,i w exalt him40--,ex4 #ae3a1 #b4 ,my joy 01 h[ev]1 sudd5ly *ang$ into confusion1 :5 ,i consid]$ ! unwor?9ess ( ! in/rum5t :i* ,god _h *os5 to d t "w4 ,i felt ?is 0 only ! beg9n+ ( ! mo/ rem>kable religi\s re=m :i* _h ev] occurr$ on ?is cont95t ( ,am]ica1 & ,i 0 dismay$ at ! ?\ght ( su* a task6 ,i saw1 at a glance1 t ,i 0 call$ to guide my p into regions entirely new & unexplor$4 ,! t]rible difficulties :i* ,lu!r1 ,calv9 & ,knox _h met1 at almo/ e /ep1 7 to meet me6 ,?\gh giants1 !y _h1 at _m times1 be5 br\ght l[ & almo/ disc\rag$ 9 _! new positions4 ,:at w\ld become ( me1 see+ t ,i 0 s defici5t 9 k1 wisdom & exp]i5ce6 ,_m times1 dur+ ! fir/ night1 aft] ! deliv]ance ( my p f ! bondage ( ! ,pope1 ,i said to my ,god 9 te>s3 8,:y ha/ n ?\ *os5 a m wor?y in/rum5t ( ?y m]cies t[>ds my bre?r580 ,i w\ld h %rank be=e ! task1 _h n ,god said to me 9 8 ,^w3 8,= ye see y\r call+1 bre?r51 h[ t n _m wise m5 aft] ! fle%1 n _m mighty1 n _m noble are call$2 b ,god ha? *os5 ! fooli% ?+s ( ! _w to conf\nd ! wise4 ,& ,god ha? *os5 ! weak ?+s ( ! _w to conf\nd ! ?+s :i* are mighty1 & base ?+s ( ! _w & ?+s :i* are despis$1 ha? ,god *os52 yea1 ! ?+s :i* are n1 to br+ to naught ! ?+s :i* are1 t no fle% %\ld glory 9 8 pres5ce40--#a ,cor4 #a3bf-cj4 ,^! words calm$ my fe>s & gave me new c\rage4 ,next morn+1 ,i said to myself3 8,is x n ,god alone1 :o has done ! great ?+s ( ye/]day8 ,:y %\ld ,i n rely ^u him = ! ?+s :i* rema9 to be done8 8,i am weak1 x is true1 b he is /rong & mighty4 ,i am unwise1 b he is ! ,god ( light & wisdom3 ,i am s9ful1 b he is ! ,god ( hol9ess3 ,he wants ! _w to "k t ,he is ! work]40 ,x w\ld make ! mo/ int]e/+ book1 7 ,i to tell all ! m>vell\s episodes ( ! new battle my de> c\ntrym5 & ,i _h to fight aga9/ ,rome1 9 ^? /ormy b bless$ days4 ,let me ask my read]s to come ) me to t ,roman ,ca?olic family & see ! surprise & desolation ( ! wife & *ildr5 :5 ! fa!r return$ f public s]vice & said3 8,my de> wife & *ildr51 ,i h1 =ev]1 left ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 & hope t y w d ! same4 ,! ignom9i\s *a9s by :i* we 7 ti$1 z ! slaves ( ! bi%ops & ( ! ,pope1 are brok54 ,*ri/ ,jesus alone w reign ov] u n[4 ,8 ,holy ,^w alone w rule & guide u4 ,salvation is a gift4 ,i h accept$ x & am happy 9 its possession40 ,9 ano!r h\se1 ! husb& _h n be5 able to come to *ur*1 b ! wife & *ildr5 _h4 ,x 0 n[ ! wife :o ann\nc$ to h] husb& t %e _h1 =ev]1 r5\nc$ ! usurp$ au?ority ( ! bi%ops & ! ,pope3 & t x 0 h] firm resolution to obey no o!r ma/] ?an ,*ri/1 & accept no o!r religion ?an ! "o taught 9 ! ,gospel4 ,at fir/1 ?is 0 consid]$ only z a joke2 b z soon z x 0 realiz$ to be a fact1 !re 71 9 _m places1 confusion1 te>s1 angry words & bitt] discussions4 ,b ! ,god ( tru?1 light & salvation 0 !re2 & z x 0 ,8 "w1 ! /orms 7 soon calm$1 ! te>s dri$1 & peace re/or$4 ,a week _h sc>cely pass$1 :5 ! ,gospel cause _h a*iev$ "o ( ! mo/ glori\s victories ov] its implacable enemy1 ! ,pope4 ,9 a few days1 #dje out ( #ejj families :i* 7 ar\nd me 9 ,/4 ,anne1 _h n only accept$ ! ,gospel ( ,*ri/1 z _! only au?ority 9 religion2 b _h publicly giv5 up ! "n ( ,roman ,ca?olics1 to call !mselves ,*ri/ian ,ca?olics4 ,a few mon?s lat]1 a ,romi% prie/1 legally que/ion$ on ! subject1 by ! ,judge ( ,kankakee1 _h to swe> t only fifte5 families _h rema9$ ,roman ,ca?olics 9 ,/4 ,anne4 ,a mo/ admirable feature ( ?is religi\s movem5t1 0 ! /rong det]m9ation ( ^? :o _h nev] be5 taught to read1 to lose no "t 9 acquir+ ! privilege ( read+ = !mselves ! ,div9e ,gospel :i* _h made !m free f ! bondage ( man4 ,half ( ! p _h nev] be5 taught to read :ile 9 ,canada2 b z _! *ildr5 7 att5d+ ! s*ools we _h e/abli%$ 9 diff]5t p>ts ( ! colony1 e h\se1 z well z our *apel1 on ,sabba? days1 0 soon turn$ into a s*ool h\se1 :]e our s*ool boys & girls 7 ! tea*]s1 & ! fa!rs & mo!rs1 ! pupils4 ,9 a %ort "t1 !re 7 b few1 except ^? :o refus$ to leave ,rome1 :o c\ld n read = !mselves ! ,holy ,^w ( ,god4 ,b1 h[ev] great ! victory we _h ga9$ ov] ! ,pope1 x 0 n yet complete4 ,x 0 true t ! enemy _h receiv$ a deadly w\nd4 ,! bea/1 ) ! sev5 heads1 _h its pr9cipal "o sev]$4 ,! usurp$ au?ority ( ! bi%ops _h be5 de/roy$1 & ! p _h det]m9$ to accept none1 b ! au?ority ( ,*ri/4 ,b _m false notions1 drank ) ! milk ( _! mo!rs1 _h be5 reta9$4 ,_m errors & sup]/itions /ill rema9$ 9 _! m9ds1 z a mi/ aft] ! ris+ ( ! sun1 to prev5t !m f see+ cle>ly ! sav+ light ( ! ,gospel4 ,x 0 my duty to de/roy ^? sup]/itions1 & root out ^! noxi\s we$s4 ,b1 ,i knew ! =midable difficulties ! re=m]s ( ! #ae? c5tury _h met1 ! deplorable divisions :i* _h spread among !m1 & ! sc&als :i* _h s s]i\sly ret>d$ & compromis$ ! re=mation4 ,i cri$ to ,god = wisdom & /r5g?4 ,nev] _h ,i und]/ood s cle>ly1 z ,i did at t mo/ solemn & difficult epo* ( my life1 ! tru? t pray] is to ! tr\bl$ m9d :at oil is to ! rag+ waves ( ! sea4 ,my p & ,i1 z are all ,roman ,ca?olics1 7 mu* giv5 to ! wor%ip ( images & /atues4 ,!re 7 f\rte5 beautiful pictures hung on ! walls ( our *apel call$3 8,! ,way ( ! ,cross10 on :i* ! circum/ances ( ! passion ( ,jesus ,*ri/ 7 repres5t$1 ea* surm\nt$ ) a cross4 ,"o ( our favorite devotional ex]cises1 0 to kneel1 ?ree or f\r times a week1 be=e !m1 pro/rate ourselves & say1 ) a l\d voice3 8,oh6 holy cross we adore !e40 ,we us$ to address our mo/ f]v5t pray]s to !m1 z if !y c\ld he> u1 ask+ !m to *ange our he>ts & purify our s\ls6 ,our bl9d devotions 7 s s9c]e t we us$ to b[ our heads to ! gr\nd be=e !m4 ,i may say ! same ( a beautiful /atue1 or r idol1 ( ! ,virg9 ,m>y1 repres5t$ z a *ild le>n+ to read at ! feet ( h] "m1 ,/4 ,anne4 ,! gr\p 0 a ma/]piece ( art1 s5t to me by "s ri* fri5ds f ,montreal1 n long aft] ,i _h left t city to =m ! colony ( ,/4 ,anne1 9 #aheb4 ,we _h frequ5tly address$ our mo/ f]v5t pray]s to ^? /atues1 b aft] ! bless$ p5teco/ on :i* we _h brok5 ! yoke ( ! ,pope1 ,i nev] ent]$ my *ur* )\t blu%+ at ! sight ( ^? idols on ! alt>4 ,i w\ld h giv5 mu* to h ! pictures1 crosses & images remov$1 b d>e n lay h&s sudd5ly on !m4 ,i 0 afraid1 le/ ,i %\ld d h>m to "s ( my p :o1 x seem$ to me1 7 yet too weak 9 _! religi\s views to be> x4 ,i 0 j !n read+ h[ ,knox & ,calv9 _h made bonfires ( all ^? relics ( old ,paganism1 & ,i wi%$ ,i c\ld d ! same2 b ,i felt l ,jacob1 :o c\ld n foll[ ! rapid m>* ( 8 bro!r1 ,esau1 t[>ds ! l& ( ,seir4 8,! *ildr5 7 t5d] & ! flocks & h]ds 7 "y4 ,if m5 _h ov]driv5 !m "o day1 all ! flocks w\ld h di$40--,g54 #cc3ac4 ,our m]ciful ,god saw ! p]plexity 9 :i* ,i 01 & taught me h[ to get rid ( ^? idols )\t h>m+ ! weak4 ,"o ,sabba?1 on :i* ,i prea*$ on ! #bnd ,comm&m5t3 8,?\ %alt n make unto ?yself any grav5 image10 etc41 ,i rema9$ 9 ! *apel to pray aft] ! p _h left4 ,i look$ up to ! gr\p ( /atues on ! alt>1 & said to !m3 8,my good ladies1 y mu/ come d[n f t high position4 ,god ,almighty alone is wor%ipp$ "h n[2 if y c\ld walk out ( ?is place1 ,i w\ld politely invite y to d x4 ,b y are no?+ b mute1 deaf1 bl9d & motionless idols4 ,y h eyes1 b y _c see2 e>s1 b y _c he>2 feet1 b y _c walk4 ,:at w ,i d ) y n[8 ,y\r reign has come to an end40 ,x sudd5ly came to my m9d t :5 ,i _h put ^! /atues on _! high p$e/al1 ,i _h ti$ !m ) a v sl5d]1 b /rong silk cord1 to prev5t !m f fall+4 ,i said to myself3 8,if ,i 7 to cut t /r+1 ! idols w\ld surely fall1 ! fir/ day ! p w\ld %ake ! floor :5 ent]+ or go+ out40 ,_! fall & de/ruction w\ld !n sc&alize no "o4 ,i took my knife & scal$ ! alt>1 cut ! /r+1 & said3 8,n[1 my good ladies1 take c>e ( y\rself1 especially :5 ! *apel is %ak5 by ! w9d1 or ! com+ 9 ( ! p40 ,i nev] witness$ a m he>ty laugh ?an1 at ! beg9n+ ( ! religi\s s]vices1 on ! next ,sabba?4 ,! *apel1 be+ %ak5 by ! action ( ! :ole p :o fell on _! knees to pray1 ! two idols1 depriv$ ( _! silk support1 aft] a c\ple ( j]ks :i*1 9 =m] days1 we might h tak5 = a fri5dly greet+1 fell d[n ) a l\d cra%1 & broke into fragm5ts4 ,old & "y1 /rong & weak1 & ev5 babes 9 ! fai?1 aft] laugh+ to _! he>t's cont5t1 at ! sad end ( _! idols1 said to ea* o!r3 8,h[ fooli% & bl9d 7 we1 to put our tru/ 9 & pray to ^! idols1 t !y might protect u :5 !y _c take c>e ( !mselves60 ,! la/ ve/ige ( idol wor%ip among our de> conv]ts1 disappe>$ = ev] ) ! du/ & brok5 fragm5ts ( ^! poor helpless /atues4 ,! v next day1 ! p !mselves took away all ! images be=e :i* !y _h s (t5 abjectly pro/rat$ !mselves1 & de/roy$ !m4 ,f ! beg9n+ ( ?is movem5t1 x _h be5 my plan to let ! p draw _! own conclusions z mu* z possible f _! own /udy ( ! ,holy ,scriptures4 ,i us$ to direct _! /eps1 9 su* a way t !y might und]/& t ,i 0 myself l$ ) !m by ! mighty & m]ciful arm ( ,god1 9 our new ways4 ,x 0 also evid5t to me t1 f ! beg9n+1 ! great majority1 aft] se>*+ ! ,scriptures ) pray]ful att5tion1 _h f\nd out t ,purgatory 0 a diabolical inv5tion us$ by ! prie/s ( ,rome1 to enri* !mselves1 at ! exp5se ( _! poor bl9d slaves4 ,b ,i 0 also conv9c$ t q a numb] 7 n yet altoge!r free f t impo/ure4 ,i did n "k h[ to attack & de/roy t error )\t w\nd+ & injur+ "s ( ! weak *ildr5 ( ! ,gospel4 ,aft] mu* pray+1 ,i ?\ght t ! be/ way to cle> ! cl\ds :i* 7 /ill hov]+ ar\nd ! feeble/ intellig5ces1 0 to h rec\rse to ! foll[+ device3 ,! ,all-,s\ls ,day 7#a/ ,nov47 _h come1 :5 x 0 ! usage to take up collections = ! sake ( hav+ pray]s & masses said = ! s\ls 9 purgatory4 ,i !n said to ! p1 f ! pulpit3 8,y h be5 us$ f y\r infancy1 to collect money1 to-day1 9 ord] to h pray]s said = ! s\ls 9 purgatory4 ,s9ce we h left ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 = ! ,*ur* ( ,*ri/1 we h sp5t _m pleasant h\rs toge!r 9 read+ & m$itat+ ^u ! ,gospel4 ,y "k t we h n f\nd 9 x a s+le ^w ab\t purgatory4 ,f ! beg9n+ to ! end ( t div9e book1 we h le>n$ t x 0 only ?r\gh ! blood ( ! ,lamb1 %$ on ! cross1 t our guilty s\ls c\ld be purifi$ f _! s9s4 ,i "k1 h[ev]1 t a few ( y h reta9$ some?+ ( ! views taught to y1 :5 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 conc]n+ purgatory4 ,i d n want to tr\ble !m by useless discussions on ! subject1 or by refus+ ! money !y want to give = ! s\ls ( _! de> dep>t$ p>5ts & fri5ds4 ,! only ?+ ,i want to d is ?is3 ,y us$ to h a small box pass$ to y to receive t money4 ,to-day1 in/ead ( "o box1 two boxes w be pass$1 "o :ite1 ! o!r black4 ,^? :o1 l myself1 d n believe 9 purgatory1 w put _! donations 9 ! :ite box1 & ! money w be giv5 to ! poor wid[s & orphans ( ! p>i%1 to help !m to get food & clo?+ = next w9t]4 ,^? ( y :o /ill believe 9 purgatory1 w put _! money into ! black box1 = ! b5efit ( ! dead4 ,! only favor ,i ask ( !m is1 t !y %\ld tell me h[ to convey _! donations to _! dep>t$ fri5ds4 ,i tell y frankly t ! money y give to ! prie/s1 nev] goes to ! b5efit ( ! s\ls ( purgatory4 ,! prie/s1 ev]y:]e1 keep t money = _! own bread & butt]40 ,my rem>ks 7 foll[$ by a g5]al smile4 ,?irty-five doll>s 7 put 9 ! :ite box = ! orphans & wid[s1 & n a c5t fell into ! box = ! s\ls ( purgatory4 ,f t day1 by ! great m]cy ( ,god1 our de> conv]ts 7 p]fectly rid ( ! ridicul\s & sacrilegi\s belief 9 purgatory4 ,t is ! way ,i h dealt ) all ! errors & idolatries ( ,rome4 ,we _h two public meet+s e week1 :5 our *apel 0 z well fill$ z on ,sabba?4 ,aft] ! religi\s ex]cises1 e "o _h ! lib]ty to "q me & argue on ! v>i\s subjects ann\nc$ at ! la/ meet+4 ,! doctr9es ( auricul> confession1 pray]s 9 an unkn[n language1 ! mass1 holy wat] & indulg5ces 7 calmly exam9$1 discuss$ & ?r[n ov]bo>d1 "o aft] ! o!r1 9 a v %ort "t4 ,! good done 9 ^? public discussions 0 incalculable4 ,our de> conv]ts n only le>n$ ! great tru?s ( ,*ri/ianity1 b !y le>n$ also h[ to def5d & prea* !m to _! relations1 fri5ds & neighbors4 ,_m w\ld come f long di/ances to see = !mselves t /range religi\s movem5t :i* 0 mak+ s mu* noise all ov] ! c\ntry4 ,x is ne$less to say t few ( !m w5t back )\t hav+ receiv$ "s rays ( ! sav+ light :i* ! ,sun ( ,righte\sness 0 s abundantly p\r+ ^u me & my de> bre?r5 ( ,/4 ,anne4 ,?ree mon?s aft] our exit f ! l& ( bondage1 we 7 n less ?an six ?\s& ,fr5* ,canadians m>*+ t[>ds ! promis$ l&4 ,h[ c ,i express ! joy ( my s\l1 :51 "u cov] ( ! d>kness ( night1 ,i 0 sil5tly pac+ ! /reets ( our t[n1 ,i he>d1 f almo/ e h\se1 s\nds ( read+ ! ,holy ,scriptures1 or ! melodies ( our delightful ,fr5* hymns6 ,h[ _m times did ,i !n1 unit+ my feeble voice ) t old prophet1 say 9 ! rapture ( my joy3 8,bless ! ,"l1 ,o6 my s\l3 & all t is )9 me1 bless 8 holy "n40 ,b x 0 necess>y t su* a great & bless$ "w %\ld be tri$4 ,gold _c be purifi$ )\t go+ ?r\gh ! fire4 ,on ! #bg? ( ,july1 a devot$ prie/1 ?r\gh my fri5d1 ,mr4 ,dunn1 ( ,*icago1 s5t me ! foll[+ copy ( a lett]1 writt5 by ! ,roman ,ca?olic ,bi%op ( ,ill9ois1 my "l ,duggan1 to sev]al ( 8 co-bi%ops3 8,! s*ism ( ! apo/ate1 ,*9iquy1 is spread+ ) an incr$ible & mo/ irresi/ible velocity4 ,i am told t he has n less ?an t5 ?\s& foll[]s f 8 c\ntrym54 ,?\gh ,i hope t ?is numb] is an exagg]ation1 x %[s t ! evil is great2 & t we mu/ n lose any "t 9 try+ to op5 ! eyes ( ! delud$ p he is lead+ to p]dition4 ,i int5d 7,d4 ,v47 to visit ! v citadel ( t deplorable s*ism1 next ,tuesday1 ! #crd ( ,augu/4 ,z ,i speak ,fr5* almo/ z well z ,engli%1 ,i w address ! delud$ p ( ,/4 ,anne 9 _! own language4 ,my int5tion is to unmask ,*9iquy1 & %[ :at k9d ( a man he is4 ,!n ,i w %[ ! p ! folly ( believ+ t !y c read & int]pret ! ,scriptures by _! own private judgm5t4 ,aft] :i*1 ,i w easily %[ !m t out ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 !re is no salvation4 ,pray to ! bless$ ,virg9 ,m>y1 t %e may help me reclaim t poor deceiv$ p40 ,hav+ read t lett] to ! p on ! fir/ ,sabba? ( ,augu/1 ,i said3 8,we "k man only aft] he has be5 tri$4 ,s we "k ! fai? ( a ,*ri/ian only aft] x has be5 ?r\gh ! fire ( tribulations4 ,i ?ank ,god t next ,tuesday w be ! day *os5 by ,him to %[ ! _w t y are wor?y ( be+ 9 ! front rank ( ! great army ,jesus ,*ri/ is ga!r+ to fight 8 implacable enemy1 ! ,pope1 on ?is cont95t4 8,let e "o ( y come & he> :at ! bi%op has to say4 ,n only ^? :o are 9 good heal?1 mu/ come2 b ev5 ! sick mu/ be br\ght & he> & judge = !mselves4 ,if ! bi%op fulfills 8 promise to %[ y t ,i am a deprav$ & wick$ man1 y mu/ turn me out4 ,y mu/ give up or burn y\r ,bibles1 at 8 bidd+1 if he proves t y h nei!r ! "r to read1 nor ! intellig5ce to und]/& !m2 & if he %[s y t1 out ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 !re is no salvation1 y mu/1 )\t an h\r's delay1 return to t *ur* & submit y\rselves to ! ,pope's bi%ops4 ,b if he fails 7z he surely w d71 y "k :at y h to d4 ,next ,tuesday w be a mo/ glori\s day = u all4 ,a great & decisive battle w be f\ght "h1 su* z ?is cont95t has nev] witness$1 betwe5 ! great pr9ciples ( ,*ri/ian tru? & lib]ty1 & ! pr9ciples ( lies & tyranny ( ! ,pope4 ,i h only "o ^w m to say3 ,f ?is mom5t to ! solemn h\r ( ! conflict1 let u humbly1 b f]v5tly ask our great ,god1 ?r\gh ,8 belov$ & et]nal ,son1 to look d[n ^u u 9 8 m]cy1 enlight5 & /r5g!n u1 t we may be true to ,him1 to ourselves & to ,8 ,gospel2 & !n ! angels ( heav5 w unite ) all ! elects ( ,god on e>? to bless y = ! great & glori\s victory y w w940 ,nev] _h ! sun %one m brightly on our beautiful hill ?an on ! #crd ( ,augu/1 #aheh4 ,! he>ts _h nev] felt s happy1 & ! faces _h nev] be5 s p]fectly ! mirrors ( joyful m9ds1 z on t day1 among ! multitudes :i* began to ga!r f e corn] ( ! colony1 a little aft] #ab o'clock1 noon4 ,see+ t our *apel1 ?\gh v l>ge1 w\ld n be able to conta9 half ! audi5ce1 we _h rais$ a l>ge & solid plat=m1 t5 feet high1 9 ! middle ( ! public squ>e1 9 front ( ! *apel4 ,we cov]$ x ) c>pets & put a s(a1 ) a good numb] ( *airs1 = ! bi%op1 8 long suite ( prie/s1 & "o = myself1 & a l>ge table = ! diff]5t books ( ref]5ces ,i want$ to h at h&1 to answ] ! bi%op4 ,at ab\t #b o'clock ,p4 ,m41 we p]ceiv$ 8 c>riage1 foll[$ by sev]al o!rs fill$ ) prie/s4 ,he 0 dress$ 9 8 :ite surplices1 & 8 (ficial 8bonnet qu>re0 on 8 head1 evid5tly to m surely comm& ! respect & awe ( ! multitude4 ,i _h reque/$ ! p to keep sil5ce & %[ him all ! respect & c\rtesy due a g5tleman :o 0 visit+ !m = ! fir/ "t4 ,z soon z 8 c>riage 0 ne> ! *apel1 ,i gave a signal1 & up w5t ! ,am]ican flag to ! top ( a ma/ put on ! sacr$ edifice4 ,x 0 to w>n ! ambassador ( ! ,pope t he 0 n tread+ ! l& ( ! holy inquisition & slav]y1 b ! l& ( ,fre$om & ,lib]ty4 ,! bi%op und]/ood x4 ,=1 rais+ 8 head to see t spl5did flag ( /ripes & />s1 wav+ to ! breeze1 he became pale z dea?4 ,& 8 uneas9ess did n abate1 :5 ! ?\s&s ar\nd him r5t ! air ) ! cry3 8,hurrah6 = ! flag ( ! free & ! brave60 ,! bi%op & 8 prie/s ?\ght ?is 0 ! signal ,i _h giv5 to slaught] !m2 = !y _h be5 told sev]al times1 t ,i & my p 7 s deprav$ & wick$ t _! lives 7 9 great dang] among u4 ,sev]al prie/s :o _h n mu* reli% = ! cr[n ( m>tyrdom1 jump$ f _! c>riages & ran away1 to ! great amusem5t ( ! cr[d4 ,p]ceiv+ ! m>ks ( ! mo/ extreme t]ror on ! face ( ! bi%op1 ,i ran to tell him t !re 0 n ! lea/ dang]1 & assur$ him ( ! pleasure we _h to see him 9 our mid/4 ,i (f]$ my h& to help him d[n f 8 c>riage1 b he refus$ x4 ,aft] "s m9utes ( trembl+ & hesitation1 he :isp]$ a few words 9 ! e> ( 8 gr& vic>1 ,maill\x1 :o 0 well kn[n by my p1 & ( :om ,i h already spok54 ,i knew t x 0 by 8 advice t ! bi%op 0 among u1 & x 0 by 8 in/igation t ,bi%op ,smi? _h refus$ ! submission we _h giv5 him4 ,ris+ sl[ly1 he said ) a l\d voice3 8,my de> ,fr5* ,canadian c\ntrym53 ,"h is y\r holy bi%op4 ,kneel d[n & he w give y 8 b5$iction40 ,b to ! great disgu/ ( ! poor gr& vic>1 ?is s well laid plan = beg9n+ ! battle1 fail$ entirely4 ,n a s+le "o ( t imm5se multitude c>$ = ! b5$iction4 ,nobody knelt4 ,?9k+ t he _h n spok5 l\d en\gh1 he rais$ 8 voice to ! highe/ pit*1 & cri$3 8,my de> fell[ c\ntrym53 ,?is is y\r holy bi%op4 ,he comes to visit y4 ,kneel d[n & he w give y 8 b5$iction40 ,b nobody knelt1 & :at 0 worse1 a voice f ! cr[d answ]$3 8,d y n "k1 sir1 t "h1 we no long] b5d ! knee be=e any man8 ,x is only be=e ,god we kneel40 ,! :ole p cri$3 8,am560 to t noble answ]4 ,i c\ld n re/ra9 a te> ( joy f fall+ d[n my *eeks1 :5 ,i saw h[ ?is fir/ ef=t ( ! ambassador ( ! ,pope to entrap my p1 _h signally fail$4 ,b1 ?\gh ,i ?ank$ ,god f ! bottom ( my he>t = ?is fir/ success ,he _h giv5 to 8 soldi]s1 ,i knew ! battle 0 f> f be+ ov]4 ,i implor$ him to abide ) u1 to be our wisdom & our /r5g? to ! end4 ,i look$ at ! bi%op1 & see+ 8 c\nt5ance z di/ress$ z be=e1 ,i (f]$ him my h& aga91 b he refus$ x ! second "t ) supreme disda93 ,h[ev]1 he accept$ ! invitation ,i gave him to come to ! plat=m4 ,:5 half way up ! /airs1 he turn$1 & see+ me foll[+ him1 he put =? 8 h& to prev5t me f asc5d+ any fur!r1 & said3 8,i d n want y on ?is plat=m4 ,g d[n & let my prie/s alone accompany me40 ,i answ]$ him3 8,x may be t y d n want me !re4 ,b ,i want to be at y\r side1 to answ] y4 ,rememb] t y are n on y\r own gr\nd "h2 b on m9e60 ,he !n1 sil5tly & sl[ly1 walk$ up4 ,:5 on ! plat=m1 ,i (f]$ him a good arm *air1 :i* he refus$1 & sat on "o ( 8 own *oice1 ) 8 prie/s ar\nd him4 ,i !n address$ him z foll[s3 8,my "l1 ! p & pa/or ( ,/4 ,anne are exce$+ly pleas$ to see y 9 _! mid/4 ,we promise to li/5 att5tively to :at y h to say1 on condition t we h ! privilege ( answ]+ y40 ,he answ]$1 angrily3 8,i d n want y to say a ^w1 "h40 ,!n1 /epp+ to ! front1 he began 8 address 9 ,fr5*1 ) a trembl+ voice4 ,b x 0 a mis]able failure f beg9n+ to end4 ,9 va9 did he try to prove t out ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 !re is no salvation4 ,he fail$ /ill m mis]ably to prove t ! p h nei!r ! "r to read ! ,scriptures1 nor ! intellig5ce to und]/& !m4 ,he said su* ridicul\s ?+s on t po9t1 t ! p w5t into fits ( laught]1 & "s said3 8,t is n true4 ,y d n "k :at y are talk+ ab\t4 ,! ,bible says ! v contr>y40 ,b ,i /opp$ !m by rem9d+ !m ( ! promise !y _h made ( n int]rupt+ him4 ,a little be=e clos+ 8 address1 he turn$ to me & said3 8,y are a wick$1 rebel prie/ aga9/ y\r holy *ur*4 ,g f "h into a mona/]y to d p5ance = y\r s9s4 ,y say t y h nev] be5 excommunicat$ 9 a legal way6 ,well1 y w n say t any long]1 = ,i excommunicate y n[ be=e ?is :ole p40 ,i int]rupt$ him & said3 8,y =get t y h no "r to excommunicate a man :o has publicly left y\r *ur* long ago40 ,he seem$ to realize t he _h made a fool ( himself 9 utt]+ su* a s5t5ce1 & /opp$ speak+1 = a mom5t4 ,!n1 recall+ 8 lo/ c\rage1 he took a new & impressive mann] ( speak+4 ,he told ! p h[ _! fri5ds1 _! relatives1 _! v de> mo!rs & fa!rs1 9 ,canada1 7 weep+ ov] _! apo/acy4 ,he spoke = a "t1 ) great e>ne/ness1 ( ! desolation ( all ^? :o lov$ !m1 at ! news ( _! defection f _! holy "m *ur*4 ,!n1 resum+1 he said3 8,my de> fri5ds3 ,please tell me :at w be y\r guide 9 ! ways ( ,god1 aft] y h left ! holy *ur* ( y\r fa!rs1 ! *ur* ( y\r c\ntry2 :o w lead y 9 ! ways ( ,god80 ,^? words1 :i* _h be5 utt]$ ) great emphasis & e>ne/ness1 7 foll[$ by a mo/ complete & solemn sil5ce4 ,0 t sil5ce ! result ( a pr(\nd impression made on ! cr[d1 or 0 x ! sil5ce :i* always prec$es ! /orm8 ,i c\ld n say4 ,b ,i mu/ confess t1 ?\gh ,i _h n lo/ confid5ce 9 ,god1 ,i 0 n )\t anxiety4 ,?\gh sil5t & ard5t pray]s 7 go+ to ! m]cy-seat1 f my he>t1 ,i felt t t poor he>t 0 tr\bl$ & anxi\s1 z x _h nev] be5 be=e4 ,i c\ld h easily answ]$ ! bi%op & conf\nd$ him1 9 a few words2 b ,i ?\ght t x 0 mu* bett] to let ! answ] & rebuke come f ! p4 ,! bi%op1 hop+ t ! long & /range sil5ce 0 a pro( t he _h successfully t\*$ ! s5sitive *ords ( ! he>ts1 & t he 0 to w9 ! day1 exclaim$ a second "t ) /ill m p[] & e>ne/ness3 8,my de> ,fr5* ,canadian fri5ds3 ,i ask y1 9 ! "n ( ,jesus ,*ri/1 y\r ,savi\r & m9e1 9 ! "n ( y\r desolat$ mo!rs1 fa!rs & fri5ds1 :o are weep+ along ! banks ( y\r beautiful ,/4 ,lawr5ce ,riv]4 ,i ask x 9 ! "n ( y\r belov$ ,canada6 ,answ] me6 n[ t y refuse to obey ! holy ,*ur* ( ,rome1 :o w guide y 9 ! ways ( salvation80 ,ano!r solemn sil5ce foll[$ t impassionate & e>ne/ appeal4 ,b ?is sil5ce 0 n to be long4 ,:5 ,i _h invit$ ! p to come & he> ! bi%op1 ,i reque/$ !m to br+ _! ,bibles4 ,sudd5ly1 we he>d ! voice ( an old f>m]1 :o1 rais+ 8 ,bible ov] 8 head1 ) 8 two h&s1 said3 8,?is ,bible is all we want to guide u 9 ! ways ( ,god4 ,we d n want any?+ b ! pure ,^w ( ,god to tea* u :at we mu/ d to be sav$4 ,z = y1 sir1 y _h bett] g away & nev] come "h any m40 ,& m ?an #e1jjj voices said3 8,am560 to t simple & yet sublime answ]4 ,! :ole cr[d fill$ ! air ) cries3 8,! ,bible6 ! ,holy ,bible1 ! ,holy ,^w ( ,god is our only guide 9 ! ways ( et]nal life6 ,g away1 sir1 & nev] come aga960 ,^! words1 "t & aga9 repeat$ by ! ?\s&s ( p :o surr\nd$ ! plat=m1 fell ^u ! poor bi%op's e>s z =midable claps ( ?und]4 ,!y 7 r++ z 8 dea? knell 9 8 e>s4 ,! battle 0 ov]1 & he _h lo/ x4 ,ba!d 9 8 te>s1 suffocat$ by 8 sobs1 he sat1 or to speak m correctly1 he fell into ! arm *air1 & ,i fe>$1 at fir/1 le/ he %\ld fa9t4 ,:5 ,i saw t he 0 recov]+1 & /rong en\gh to he> :at ,i _h to say1 ,i /epp$ to ! front ( ! plat=m4 ,b ,i _h sc>cely said two words1 :5 ,i felt z if ! claws ( a tig] 7 on my %\ld]s4 ,i turn$ & f\nd t x 0 ! cl5*$ f+]s ( ! bi%op1 :o 0 %ak+ me1 :ile he 0 say+ ) a furi\s voice3 8,no6 no6 n a ^w f y40 ,z ,i 0 ab\t to %[ him t ,i _h a "r to refute :at he _h said1 my eyes fell on a sc5e :i* baffles all description4 ,^? only :o h se5 ! rag+ waves ( ! sea1 sudd5ly rais$ by ! hurricane1 c h an idea ( x4 ,! p _h se5 ! viol5t h& ( ! bi%op rais$ aga9/ me1 !y _h he>d 8 insol5t & furi\s words =bidd+ me to say a s+le ^w 9 answ]2 & a univ]sal cry ( indignation 0 he>d3 8,! infam\s wret*6 ,d[n ) him6 ,he wants to enslave u aga96 he d5ies u ! "r ( free spee*6 he refuses to he> :at our pa/or has to reply6 ,d[n ) him60 ,at ! same "t1 a ru% 0 made by _m t[>d ! plat=m1 to scale x1 & o!rs 7 at "w to te> x d[n4 ,t :ole multitude1 absolutely bl9d$ by _! uncontrollable rage1 7 z a drunk5 man :o does n "k :at he does4 ,i _h read t su* ?+s _h occurr$ be=e1 b ,i hope ,i %all nev] see x aga94 ,i ru%$ to ! head ( ! /airs &1 ) great difficulty1 repuls$ ^? :o 7 try+ to lay _! h&s on ! bi%op4 ,9 va91 ,i rais$ my voice to calm !m1 & make !m realize ! crime !y want$ to commit4 ,no voice c\ld be he>d 9 ! mid/ ( su* t]rible confusion4 ,x 0 v provid5tial t we _h built ! scaffold ) /rong mat]ials1 s t x c\ld resi/ ! fir/ attempt to break x4 ,happily1 we _h 9 our mid/ a v intellig5t "y man1 call$ ,be*>d1 :o 0 held 9 great e/eem & respect4 ,8 influ5ce1 ,i v5ture to say1 0 irresi/ible ov] ! p4 ,i call$ him to ! plat=m1 & reque/$ him1 9 ! "n ( ,god1 to appease ! bl9d fury ( t multitude4 ,/range to say1 8 pres5ce1 & a sign f 8 h&1 act$ l magic4 8,let u he> :at ,be*>d has to say10 :isp]$ e "o to 8 neighbor1 & sudd5ly1 ! mo/ pr(\nd calm succe$$ ! mo/ awful noise & confusion ,i _h ev] witness$4 ,9 a few appropriate & eloqu5t words1 t "y g5tleman1 %[$ ! p t1 f> f be+ angry1 !y ought to be glad at ! exhibition ( ! tyranny & c[>dice ( ! bi%op4 ,_h he n confess$ ! wick$ness ( 8 address :5 he refus$ to he> ! answ]8 ,_h he n confess$ t he 0 ! vile/ & mo/ impud5t ( tyrants1 :5 he _h come into _! v mid/ to d5y !m ! sacr$ "r ( spee* & reply8 ,_h he n prov$1 be=e ,god & man1 t !y _h done well to reject1 =ev]1 ! au?ority ( ! ,bi%op ( ,rome1 :5 he 0 giv+ !m su* an unansw]able pro( t t au?ority meant ! mo/ unb\nd$ tyranny on 8 "p1 & ! mo/ degrad$ & ignom9i\s moral degradation on ! "p ( 8 bl9d slaves40 ,see+ t !y 7 anxi\s to he> me2 ,i !n told !m3 8,in/ead ( be+ angry1 y ought to bless ,god = :at y h he>d & se5 f ! ,bi%op ( ,*icago4 ,y h he>d3 & y are witnesses t he has n giv5 u a s+le argum5t to %[ t we 7 wrong1 :5 we give up ! words ( ! ,pope to foll[ ! ,words ( ,*ri/4 ,0 he n "r :5 he told y t !re 0 no ne$1 on my "p1 to answ] him6 ,d y n agree t !re 0 no?+ to answ]1 no?+ to refute 9 8 long address6 ,has n our m]ciful ,god br\ght t bi%op into y\r mid/1 to-day1 to %[ y ! tru?fulness ( :at ,i h s (t5 told y1 t !re 0 no?+ manly1 no?+ hone/1 or true 9 him8 ,h y he>d f 8 lips a s+le ^w :i* c\ld h come f ! lips ( ,*ri/8 ,a ^w :i* c\ld h come f t great ,god :o s lov$ ! _w t he s5t 8 et]nal ,son to save x1 on ! simple condition t we %\ld rep5t1 love & tru/ 9 ,him4 ,0 !re a s+le s5t5ce 9 all y h he>d :i* w\ld rem9d y t salvation ?r\gh ,*ri/ 0 a gift8 t et]nal life 0 a free gift (f]$ to all ^? :o accept$ him z _! true & only ,savi\r8 ,h y he>d any?+ f him to make y regret t y are no long] 8 ob$i5t & abject slaves80 8,no6 no60 !y repli$4 8,!n1 in/ead ( be+ angry ) t man1 y ought to ?ank him & let him g 9 peace10 ,i add$4 8,yes6 yes60 repli$ ! p1 8b on condition t he %all nev] come aga940 ,!n ,mons4 ,be*>d /epp$ to ! front1 rais$ 8 hat1 & cri$ ) 8 p[]ful1 melodi\s voice3 8,p ( ,/4 ,anne6 y h j ga9$ ! mo/ glori\s victory :i* has ev] be5 won by a p aga9/ _! tyrants4 ,hurrah = ,/4 ,anne1 ! grave ( ! tyranny ( ! ,bi%ops ( ,rome 9 ,am]ica60 ,t :ole multitude1 fill$ ) joy1 r5t ! air ) ! cry3 8,hurrah = ,/4 ,anne1 ! grave ( ! tyranny ( ! ,bi%ops ( ,rome 9 ,am]ica60 ,i !n turn$ t[>ds ! poor bi%op & 8 prie/s1 ^: di/ress & fe> 7 beyond description1 & told !m3 8,y see t ! p =give y ! indignity ( y\r conduct1 by n all[+ me to answ] y2 b ,i c\nsel y n to repeat t insult "h4 ,please take ! advice !y gave y2 g away z quickly z possible4 ,i w g ) y to y\r c>riage1 ?r\gh ! cr[d1 & ,i pl$ge myself t y w be safe1 provid$ y d n insult !m aga940 ,op5+ _! ranks1 ! cr[d made a passage1 ?r\gh :i* ,i l$ ! bi%op & 8 long suite ( prie/s1 to _! c>riages4 ,?is 0 done 9 a mo/ pr(\nd sil5ce4 ,only a few wom5 :isp]+ to ! prelate1 z he 0 hurry+ by3 8,away ) y1 & nev] come "h aga94 ,h5ce=w>d we foll[ no?+ b ,*ri/40 ,cru%$ by waves ( humiliation1 su* z no bi%op _h ev] met ) on ?is cont95t1 ! weight ( ! ignom9y :i* he _h reap$ 9 our mid/ completely ov]p[]$ 8 m9d1 & ru9$ him4 ,he left u to w&] e day ne>] ! regions ( lunacy4 ,t bi%op1 ^: beg9n+ _h be5 s brilliant1 aft] 8 %ameful defeat at ,/4 ,anne1 on ! #crd ( ,augu/1 #aheh1 0 soon to end 8 brok5 c>e] 9 ! lunatic asylum at ,/4 ,l\is1 :]e he is /ill conf9$ to-day4 ,,*apt] ,,lxvii4 ,,bird',s-,,eye ,,view ,,( ,,! ,,pr9cipal ,,ev5ts ,,f ,,my ,,conv]sion ,,to ,,?is ,,day--,,my ,,n>r[ ,,escapes--,,! ,,end ,,( ,,! ,,voyage ,,?r\gh ,,! ,,des]t ,,to ,,! ,,promis$ ,,l&4 ,! m>vell\s p[] ( ! ,gospel to raise a man above himself & give him a sup]natural /r5g? & wisdom 9 ! pres5ce ( ! mo/ =midable difficulties has seldom be5 m glori\sly manife/$ ?an on ! #crd ( ,augu/1 #aheh1 on ! hill ( ,/4 ,anne1 ,ill9ois4 ,surely ! cont95t ( ,am]ica has nev] se5 a m admirable trans=mation ( a :ole p ?an 01 !n & !re1 accompli%$4 ,) no o!r help ?an ! read+ ( ! ,gospel1 t p _h1 sudd5ly1 ex*ang$ ! *a9s ( ! mo/ abject slav]y = ! royal scept] ( ,lib]ty :i* ,*ri/ (f]s to ^? :o believe 9 ,him6 ,by ! /r5g? ( _! fai? !y _h pulv]iz$ ! gigantic p[] ( ,rome1 put to flight ! haughty repres5tatives ( ! ,pope1 & _h rais$ ! bann]s ( ,*ri/ian ,lib]ty on ! v spot m>k$ by ! bi%op z ! future citadel ( ! empire ( ,pop]y 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates4 ,su* "w 0 s mu* above my capacity1 s mu* above ! calculation ( my intellig5ce1 t ,i felt t ,i 0 m its witness ?an its in/rum5t4 ,! m]ciful & mighty h& ( ,god 0 too visible to let any o!r idea creep into my m9d2 & ! only s5tim5ts :i* fill$ my s\l 7 ^? ( an unspeakable joy1 & ( gratitude to ,god4 ,b ,i felt t ! great] ! favors be/[$ ^u u f heav51 ! great] 7 ! responsibilities ( my new position4 ,! news ( t sudd5 religi\s re=mation spread ) lightn+ spe$ all ov] ! cont95ts ( ,am]ica & ,europe1 & an incr$ible numb] ( inquir+ lett]s rea*$ me f e corn]4 ,episcopalians1 ,me?odi/s1 ,congregationali/s1 ,bapti/s1 & ,presbyt]ians1 ( e rank & color1 k9dly press$ me to give !m "s details4 ,( c\rse1 ^? lett]s 7 (t5 accompani$ by books consid]$ ! mo/ apt to induce me to jo9 _! p>ticul> d5om9ations4 ,feel+ too "y & inexp]t 9 ! ways ( ,god to give a correct appreciation ( ! ,"l's do+s among u1 ,i g5]ally answ]$ ^? k9d enquir]s by writ+ !m3 8,please come & see ) y\r own eyes ! m>vell\s ?+s our m]ciful ,god is do+ 9 ! mid/ ( u1 & y w help u to bless him40 ,9 less ?an six mon?s1 m ?an "o hundr$ v5]able m9i/]s ( ,*ri/1 & prom95t ,*ri/ian laym5 ( diff]5t d5om9ations1 visit$ u4 ,among ^? :o fir/ honor$ u ) _! pres5ce 0 ! ,rt4 ,rev4 ,bi%op ,helmu?1 ( ,london1 ,canada2 !n1 ! le>n$ ,dean ( ,quebec1 s well kn[n & v5]at$ by all ov] ,great ,brita9 & ,canada4 ,he visit$ u twice1 & 0 "o ( ! mo/ bless$ in/rum5ts ( ! m]cies ( ,god t[>ds u4 ,i am happy to say t ^? em95t ,*ri/ians1 )\t any exception1 aft] hav+ sp5t f "o to tw5ty days 9 /udy+ = !mselves ?is new religi\s movem5t1 decl>$ t x 0 ! mo/ rem>kable & solid evangelical re=mation among ,roman ,ca?olics1 !y _h ev] se54 ,! ,*ri/ians ( ! cities ( ,*icago1 ,baltimore1 ,wa%+ton1 ,philadelphia1 ,new ,york1 ,bo/on1 etc41 hav+ express$ ! desire to he> f me ( ! do+s ( ! ,"l among u1 ,i address$ !m 9 _! pr9cipal *ur*es1 & 0 receiv$ ) su* m>ks ( k9dness & int]e/1 = :i* ,i %all nev] be able suffici5tly to ?ank ,god4 ,i h previ\sly said t we _h1 at fir/1 adopt$ ! beautiful "n ( ,*ri/ian ,ca?olics1 b we soon p]ceiv$ t unless we jo9$ "o ( ! ,*ri/ian d5om9ations ( ! day1 we 7 9 dang] ( =m+ a new sect4 ,aft] _m s]i\s & pray]ful consid]ations1 x seem$ t ! wise/ ?+ we c\ld d 0 to connect ourselves ) t bran* ( ! v9e :i* 0 ! ne>e/1 if n id5tical ) t ( ! ,fr5* ,prote/ants1 :i* gave s _m m>tyrs to ! ,*ur* ( ,*ri/4 ,accord+ly1 x 0 our privilege to be admitt$ 9 ! ,presbyt]ian ,*ur* ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates4 ,! ,presbyt]y ( ,*icago _h ! c\rtesy to adj\rn _! meet+ f t city to our humble t[n1 on ! #ae? ( ,april1 #ahfj1 :5 ,i pres5t$ !m ) ! names ( ne>ly #b1jjj conv]ts1 :o1 ) myself1 7 receiv$ into full communion ) ! ,*ur* ( ,*ri/4 ,?is solemn action 0 soon foll[$ by ! e/abli%m5t ( missions & congregations 9 ! cities & t[ns ( ,*icago1 ,aurora1 ,kankakee1 ,middleport1 ,watseka1 ,mom5ce1 ,/]l+1 ,mant5o1 etc41 :]e ! light ( ! ,gospel _h be5 receiv$ by l>ge numb]s ( our ,fr5* ,canadian emigrants1 :om ,i _h previ\sly visit$4 ,! c5sus ( ! conv]ts tak5 !n gave u ab\t #f1ejj preci\s s\ls already wr5*$ f ! iron grasp ( ,pop]y4 ,x 0 a result mu* beyond my mo/ sangu9e hopes1 & x w\ld be difficult to express ! joy x gave me4 ,b my joy 0 n )\t a mixture ( anxiety4 ,x 0 impossible = me1 if left alone1 to di/ribute ! bread ( life to su* multitudes1 scatt]$ ov] a t]ritory ( sev]al hundr$ miles4 ,i det]m9$1 ) ! help ( ,god1 to raise a college1 :]e ! *ildr5 ( our conv]ts w\ld be prep>$ to prea* ! ,gospel4 ,?irty-two ( our "y m51 hav+ (f]$ !mselves1 ,i add$1 at once1 to my o!r labors1 ! daily task ( tea*+ !m ! prep>atory c\rse ( /udy = _! future evangelical "w4 ,t ye> 7#ahfj7 _h be5 *os5 by ,scotl& to celebrate ! t]c5t5>y anniv]s>y ( h] ,re=mation4 ,! committee ( managem5t1 compos$ ( ,dr4 ,gu?rie1 ,pr(essor ,cunn+ham & ,dr4 ,begg1 invit$ me to att5d _! g5]al meet+s 9 ,ed9burgh4 ,on ! #af? ( ,augu/1 x 0 my privilege to be pres5t$ by ^? v5]able m5 to "o ( ! gr&e/ & noble/ assemblies :i* ! ,*ur* ( ,*ri/ has ev] se54 ,aft] ! close ( t great c\ncil1 :i* ,i address$ twice1 ,i 0 invit$1 dur+ ! next six mon?s1 to lecture 9 ,great ,brita91 ,france & ,switz]l&1 & to raise ! funds necess>y = our college4 ,x is dur+ t t\r t ,i _h ! privilege ( address+1 at ,/4 ,eti5ne1 ! ,synod ( ! ,free ,prote/ant ,*ur* ( ,france1 lately e/abli%$ ?r\gh ! indomitable en]gy & ard5t piety ( ! ,rev4 ,felix ,monod4 ,^? six mon?s' ef=ts 7 cr[n$ ) ! mo/ complete success1 & m ?an #ae1jjj 7 h&$ me = our college1 by ! disciples ( ,*ri/4 ,b x 0 ! w ( ,god t ,i %\ld pass ?r\gh ! purify+ fires ( ! greate/ tribulations4 ,on my return f ,europe into my colony1 9 ! beg9n+ ( #ahfa1 ,i f\nd ev]y?+ 9 confusion4 ,! ambition ( ! "y m5 ,i _h invit$ to prea* 9 my place1 & 9 :om ,i _h s imprud5tly put too mu* confid5ce1 enc\rag$ by ! v man ,i _h *os5 = my repres5tative & my attorney dur+ my abs5ce1 came v ne> ru9+ t evangelical "w1 by s[+ ! se$s ( division & hatr$ among our de> conv]ts4 ,?r\gh ! di%one/ & false reports ( ^? two m51 ! money ,i _h collect$ & left 9 ,engl&1 79 ! h&s ( a g5tleman :o 0 b\nd to s5d x at my ord]7 0 reta9$ ne>ly two ye>s1 & lo/ 9 ! failure ( ! ,gelpeck ,new ,york ,bank1 ?r\gh :i* x 0 s5t4 ,! only way we f\nd to save ourselves f ru91 0 to ?r[ ourselves into ! h&s ( our ,*ri/ian bro!rs ( ,canada4 ,a committee ( ! ,presbyt]ian ,*ur*1 compos$ ( ,rev's4 ,dr4 ,kemp1 ,dr4 ,cavan & ,mr4 ,scott1 0 s5t to inve/igate ! cause ( our tr\ble1 & !y soon f\nd !m4 ,dr4 ,kemp publi%$ a critical resume ( _! inve/igation1 :i* cle>ly %[$ :]e ! tr\ble lay4 ,our integrity & innoc5ce 7 publicly ackn[l$g$1 & we 7 solemnly & (ficially receiv$ z memb]s ( ! ,presbyt]ian ,*ur* ( ,canada1 on ! #aa? ( ,june1 #ahfc4 ,we may prop]ly ackn[l$ge "h t ! ,*ri/ian devot$ness1 ! admirable ability & zeal ( ! late ,dr4 ,kemp 9 p]=mance ( t "w1 has secur$ to him our et]nal gratitude4 ,9 #ahgd1 ,i 0 aga9 invit$ to ,great ,brita9 by ! committee appo9t$ to prep>e ! congratulatory address ( ! ,engli% p to ! ,emp]or ( ,g]many & ,bism>k1 = _! noble resi/ance to ! encroa*m5ts ( ,pop]y4 ,i address$ ! meet+s held = t purpose 9 ,ext] ,hall1 "u ! ,presid5cy ( ,"l ,john ,russell1 on ! #bg? ( ,janu>y1 #ahgd4 ,! next day1 sev]al ,gospel m9i/]s press$ me to publi% my tw5ty-five ye>s' exp]i5ce ( auricul> confession1 z an antidote to ! crim9al & too successful ef=ts ( ,dr4 ,pusey1 :o want$ to re/ore t infam\s practice among ! ,prote/ants ( ,engl&4 ,aft] mu* hesitation & _m pray]s1 ,i wrote ! book entitl$3 8,! ,prie/1 ! ,woman & ! ,confessional10 :i* ,god has s mu* bless$ to ! conv]sion ( _m1 t tw5ty-n9e editions h already be5 publi%$4 ,x has be5 translat$ into _m languages4 ,i sp5t ! next six mon?s 9 lectur+ on ,romanism 9 ! pr9cipal cities ( ,engl&1 ,scotl& & ,irel&4 ,on my return1 press$ by ! ,canadian ,*ur* to leave my colony ( ,ill9ois1 = a "t at lea/1 to prea* 9 ,canada1 ,i w5t to ,montreal1 :]e1 9 ! %ort space ( f\r ye>s1 we _h ! unspeakable joy ( see+ sev5 ?\s& ,fr5* ,canadian ,roman ,ca?olics & emigrants f ,france1 publicly r5\nce ! errors ( ,pop]y1 to foll[ ! ,gospel ( ,*ri/4 ,9 #ahgh1 exhau/$ by ! previ\s ye>s ( incessant labors1 ,i 0 advis$1 by my physicians1 to brea! ! brac+ air ( ! ,pacific ,ocean4 ,i cross$ ! ,rocky ,m\nta9s & sp5t two mon?s lectur+ 9 ,san ,francisco1 ,portl&1 ,oregon1 & 9 ,wa%+ton ,t]ritory1 :]e ,i f\nd great numb]s ( my ,fr5* c\ntrym51 _m ( :om receiv$ ! ,gospel ) joy4 ,"u ! auspices & protection ( my ,orange bre?r51 ,i cross$ ! ,pacific & w5t to ! ,antipodes1 lectur+ two ye>s 9 ,au/ralia1 ,tasmania & ,new ,zeal&4 ,x w\ld require a l>ge volume to tell ! great m]cies ( ,god t[>ds me dur+ t long1 p]il\s1 b int]e/+ voyage4 ,dur+ ^? two ye>s1 ,i gave #faj public lectures1 & came back to my colony ( ,/4 ,anne ) su* p]fectly re/or$ heal?1 t ,i c\ld say ) ! ,psalmi/3 8,bless ! ,"l1 ,o my s\l1 ?y y\? is r5ew$ l ! eagle's40 ,b ! read] has ! "r to "k some?+ ( ! dang]s ?r\gh :i* x has pleas$ ,god to make me pass4 ,rome is ! same to-day z %e 0 :5 %e burn$ ,john ,huss & ,wi%>t1 & :5 %e caus$ #gj1jjj ,prote/ants to be slaught]$ 9 ,france1 & #ajj1jjj to be ext]m9at$ 9 ,pi$mont & ,italy4 ,on ! #ca/ ( ,decemb]1 #ahfi1 ,i =c$ ! ,rt4 ,rev4 ,bi%op ,foley1 ( ,*icago1 to swe> be=e ! civil c\rt1 at ,kankakee1 t ! foll[+ s5t5ce 0 an exact translation ( ! doctr9e ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 z taught to-day 9 all ! ,roman ,ca?olic sem9>ies1 colleges & univ]sities1 ?r\gh ! 8,summa ,!ologica0 ( ,?omas ,aqu9as 7vol4 #d1 p4 #ij71 8,?\gh h]etics mu/ n be tol]at$ because !y des]ve x1 we mu/ be> ) !m1 till by a second admonition1 !y may be br\ght back to ! fai? ( ! *ur*4 ,b ^? :o1 aft] a second admonition1 rema9 ob/9ate to _! errors1 mu/ n only be excommunicat$1 b !y mu/ be deliv]$ to ! secul> p[] to be ext]m9at$40 ,x is on acc\nt ( ?is law ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 :i* is to-day1 9 full =ce1 z x 0 promulgat$ = ! fir/ "t1 t n less ?an ?irty public attempts h be5 made to kill me s9ce my conv]sion4 ,! fir/ "t ,i visit$ ,quebec1 9 ! spr+ ( #ahei1 fifty m5 7 s5t by ! ,bi%op ( ,quebec 7,baill>geon7 to =ce me to swe> t ,i w\ld nev] prea* ! ,bible1 or to kill me 9 case ( my refusal4 ,at #d o'clock1 a4 m41 /icks 7 rais$ above my head1 a dagg] /uck 9 my brea/1 & ! cries ( ! furi\s mob 7 r++ 9 my e>s3 8,infam\s apo/ate6 ,n[ y are 9 our h&s1 y are a dead man1 if y d n swe> t y w nev] prea* y\r accurs$ ,bible40 ,nev] _h ,i se5 su* furi\s m5 ar\nd me4 ,_! eyes 7 m l ! eyes ( tig]s ?an ( m54 ,i expect$1 e mom5t1 to receive ! deadly bl[1 & ,i ask$ my ,savi\r to come & receive my s\l4 ,b ! w\ld-be murd]]s1 ) m horrible imprecations cri$ aga93 8,infam\s r5egade6 ,swe> t y w nev] prea* any m y\r accurs$ ,bible1 or y are a dead man60 ,i rais$ my eyes & h&s t[>ds heav51 & said3 8,oh6 my ,god6 he> & bless ! la/ words ( ?y poor s]vant3 ,i solemnly swe>1 t s long z my tongue c speak1 ,i w prea* ?y ,^w1 z ,i f9d x 9 ! ,holy ,bible60 ,!n op5+ my ve/ & pres5t+ my nak$ brea/1 ,i said3 8,n[6 ,/rike60 ,b my ,god 0 !re to protect me3 !y did n /rike4 ,i w5t ?r\gh _! ranks into ! /reets1 :]e ,i f\nd a c>t]1 :o drove me to ,mr4 ,hall1 ! mayor ( ! city1 = t day ,i %[$ him my ble$+ brea/1 & said3 8,i j escap$1 almo/ miracul\sly1 f ! h&s ( m5 sworn to kill me1 if ,i prea* aga9 ! ,gospel ( ,*ri/4 ,i am1 h[ev]1 det]m9$ to prea* aga9 to-day1 at noon1 ev5 if ,i h to die 9 ! attempt40 ,i put myself "u ! protection ( ! ,briti% flag4 ,soon aft]1 m ?an #a1jjj ,briti% soldi]s 7 ar\nd me1 ) fix$ bayonets4 ,!y =m$ !mselves into two l9es along ! /reets1 ?r\gh :i* ! mayor took me1 9 8 own sleigh1 to ! lecture room4 ,i c\ld !n deliv] my address on 8,! ,bible10 to at lea/ #aj1jjj p1 :o 7 cr[d$ inside & outside ! walls ( ! l>ge build+4 ,aft] ?is1 ,i _h ! joy ( di/ribut+ betwe5 five & six hundr$ ,bibles to t multitude1 :o receiv$ !m z ?ir/y & hungry p receive fre% wat] & pure bread1 aft] _m days ( />vation4 ,i h be5 /on$ #bj times4 ,! pr9cipal places 9 ,canada :]e ,i 0 /ruck & w\nd$1 & almo/ miracul\sly escap$1 73 ,quebec1 ,montreal1 ,ottawa1 ,*>lotte ,t[n1 ,halifax1 ,antigoni%1 etc4 ,9 ! la/ m5tion$1 on ! #aj? ( ,july1 #ahgc1 ! pa/or1 ! ,rev4 ,p4 ,goodfell[1 /&+ by me :5 go+ out ( 8 *ur*1 0 also /ruck sev]al times by /ones :i* miss$ me4 ,at la/1 8 head 0 s badly cut1 t he fell on ! gr\nd ba!d 9 blood4 ,i took him up 9 my arms1 ?\gh w\nd$ & ble$+ myself4 ,we w\ld surely h be5 slaught]$ !re1 _h n a noble ,scot*man1 nam$ ,cam]on1 op5$ ! door ( 8 h\se1 at ! p]il ( 8 own life1 to give u %elt] aga9/ ! assass9s ( ! ,pope4 ,! mob1 furi\s t we _h escap$1 broke ! w9d[s & beseig$ ! h\se f #aj a4 m4 till #c next morn+4 ,_m times1 !y ?reat5$ to set fire to ,mr4 ,cam]on's h\se1 if he did n deliv] me into _! h&s to be hung4 ,!y 7 prev5t$ f do+ s1 only f fe> ( burn+ ! :ole t[n1 compos$ 9 "p1 ( _! own dwell+s4 ,sev]al times1 !y put long ladd]s aga9/ ! walls1 ) ! hope ( rea*+ ! upp] rooms1 :]e !y c\ld f9d & kill _! victim4 ,all ?is 0 done "u ! v eyes ( five or six prie/s1 :o 7 only at a di/ance ( a few rods4 ,at ,montreal1 9 ! w9t] ( #ahgj1 "o ev5+1 com+ out ( ,cote ,/reet ,*ur*1 :]e ,i _h prea*$1 accompani$ by ,pr9cipal ,mac,vicar1 we fell into a k9d ( ambuscade1 & receiv$ a volley ( /ones :i* w\ld h s]i\sly1 if n fatally1 injur$ ! doctor1 _h he n be5 protect$ f head to foot by a ?ick fur cap & ov]coat1 worn 9 ! cold days ( w9t] 9 ,canada4 ,aft] a lecture giv5 at ,p>am5ta1 ne> ,sydney1 ,au/ralia1 ,i 0 aga9 attack$ ) /ones by ! ,roman ,ca?olics4 ,"o /ruck my left leg ) su* =ce t ,i ?\ght x 0 brok51 & 0 lame = sev]al days4 ,9 ,new ,s\? ,wales1 ,au/ralia1 ,i 0 beat5 ) :ips & /icks1 :i* left m>ks ^u my %\ld]s4 ,at ,hor%am1 9 ! same ,prov9ce1 on ! #a/ ( ,april1 #ahgi1 ! ,romani/s took possession ( ! *ur* :]e ,i 0 speak+1 ru%$ t[>d me ) dagg]s & pi/ols1 cry+3 8,kill him6 ,kill him60 ,9 ! tumult1 ,i provid5tially escap$ ?r\gh a secret door4 ,b ,i _h to crawl on h&s & knees a pretty long di/ance1 9 a dit* fill$ ) mud1 n to be se51 & escape dea?4 ,:5 ,i rea*$ ! hospitable h\se ( ,mr4 ,cam]on1 ! w9d[s 7 brok5 ) /ones1 mu* ( ! furniture de/roy$1 & x 0 a wond] ,i escap$ ) my life4 ,at ,ball>at1 9 ! same prov9ce1 ?ree times ! h\ses :]e ,i lodg$1 7 attack$ & brok54 ,rev4 ,mr4 ,+lis1 "o ( ! mo/ eloqu5t m9i/]s ( ! city1 0 "o ( ! _m :o 7 w\nd$ by my side4 ,! wife ( ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,quick came also ne>ly be+ kill$ :ile ,i 0 "u _! hospitable ro(4 ,9 ! same city1 z ,i 0 wait+ = ! tra9 at ! /ation1 a well dress$ lady came z ne> z possible & spat 9 my face4 ,i 0 bl9d$1 & my face cov]$ ) fil?4 ,%e imm$iately fl$1 b 0 soon br\ght back by my secret>y & a policeman1 :o said3 8,"h is ! mis]able woman :o has j insult$ y1 :at %all we d ) h]80 ,i 0 !n almo/ done clean+ my face ) my h&k]*ief1 & "s wat]1 br\ght by "s sympa?iz+ fri5ds4 ,i answ]$3 8,let h] g home 9 peace4 ,%e has n done x ( h] own accord1 %e 0 s5t by h] confessor1 %e ?9ks %e has done a good action4 ,:5 !y spat 9 our ,savi\r's face1 he did n puni% ^? :o insult$ him4 ,we mu/ foll[ 8 example40 ,& %e 0 set at lib]ty1 to ! great regret ( ! cr[d4 ,! v next day 7#ba/ ( ,april71 at ,ca/lema91 ,i 0 aga9 fi]cely attack$ & w\nd$ on ! head1 z ,i came f address+ ! p4 ,"o ( ! m9i/]s1 :o 0 /&+ by me1 0 s]i\sly w\nd$ & lo/ mu* blood4 ,at ,greelong1 ,i _h aga9 a v n>r[ escape f /ones ?r[n at me 9 ! /reets4 ,9 #ahgj1 :ile lectur+ 9 ,melb\rne1 ! spl5did capital ( ,victoria1 ,au/ralia1 ,i receiv$ a lett] f ,tasmania1 sign$ by twelve m9i/]s ( ! ,gospel1 say+3 8,we are mu* 9 ne$ ( y "h1 = ?\gh ! ,prote/ants are 9 ! majority1 !y leave ! adm9i/ration ( ! c\ntry almo/ entirely 9 ! h&s ( ,roman ,ca?olics1 :o rule u ) an iron rod4 ,! ,gov]nor is a ,roman ,ca?olic1 etc4 ,we wi% to h y among u1 ?\gh we d n d>e to invite y to come4 ,= we "k t y\r life w be 9 dang]1 day & night1 :ile 9 ,tasmania4 ,! ,roman ,ca?olics h sworn to kill y1 & we h too _m reasons to fe> t !y w fulfill _! promises4 ,b1 ?\gh we d n d>e ask y to come1 we assure y t !re is a great "w = y "h1 & t we w /& by y ) our p4 ,if y fall1 y w n fall alone40 ,i answ]$3 8,are we n soldi]s ( ,*ri/1 & mu/ we n be ready & will+ to die = him1 z he di$ = u8 ,i w g40 ,on ! #be? ( ,june1 z ,i 0 deliv]+ my fir/ lecture 9 ,hob>t ,t[n1 ! ,roman ,ca?olics1 ) ! approbation ( _! bi%op1 broke ! door ( ! hall1 & ru%$ t[>ds me1 cry+3 8,kill him6 kill him60 ,! mob 0 only a few feet f me1 br&i%+ _! dagg]s & pi/ols1 :5 ! ,prote/ants ?rew !mselves betwe5 !m & me1 & a furi\s h&-to-h& fight occurr$1 dur+ :i* _m w\nds 7 receiv$ & giv54 ,! soldi]s ( ! ,pope 7 ov]p[]$1 b ! ,gov]nor _h to put ! city "u m>tial law = f\r days1 & call ! :ole militia to save my life f ! assass9s drill$ by ! prie/s4 ,9 a d>k night1 z ,i 0 leav+ ! /eam] to take ! tra91 on ! ,ottawa ,riv]1 ,canada1 twice1 ! bullets ( ! murd]]s :i/l$ at no m ?an two or ?ree in*es f my e>s4 ,sev]al times1 9 ,montreal & ,halifax1 ! *ur*es :]e ,i 0 prea*+ 7 attack$ & ! w9d[s brok5 by ! mobs s5t by ! prie/s1 & sev]al ( my fri5ds 7 w\nd$ 7two ( :om1 ,i believe1 di$ f ! effects ( _! w\nds7 :il/ def5d+ me4 ,! #ag? ( ,june1 #ahhd1 aft] ,i _h prea*$1 9 ,quebec1 on ! text3 8,:at w\ld ,i d to h ,et]nal ,life10 a mob ( m ?an #a1ejj ,roman ,ca?olics1 l$ by two prie/s1 broke ! w9d[s ( ! *ur*1 & attack$ me ) /ones1 ) ! evid5t object to kill me4 ,m ?an "o hundr$ /ones /ruck me1 & ,i w\ld surely h be5 kill$ !re1 _h ,i n _h1 provid5tially1 two heavy ov]coats :i* ,i put1 "o ar\nd my head1 & ! o!r ar\nd my %\ld]s4 ,not)/&+ t protection1 ,i 0 s mu* bruis$ & w\nd$ f head to feet1 t ,i _h to sp5d ! ?ree foll[+ weeks on a b$ ( suff]+1 betwe5 life & dea?4 ,a "y fri5d1 ,zotique ,lefebre1 :o _h h]oically put himself betwe5 my w\ld-be assass9 & me1 escap$ only aft] receiv+ six ble$+ w\nds 9 ! face4 ,! same ye>1 #ahhd1 9 ! mon? ( ,novemb]1 ,i 0 attack$ ) /ones & /ruck sev]al times1 :5 prea*+ & 9 com+ out f ! *ur* 9 ! city ( ,montreal4 ,numb]s ( policem5 & o!r fri5ds :o came to my rescue 7 w\nd$1 my life 0 sav$ only by an organization ( a ?\s& "y m51 :o1 "u ! "n ( ,prote/ant ,gu>d1 wr5*$ me f ! h&s ( ! w\ld-be murd]]s4 ,:5 ! bi%ops & prie/s saw t x 0 s difficult to put me out ( ! way ) /ones1 /icks & dagg]s1 !y det]m9$ to de/roy my "* by calumnies1 spread e :]e1 & sworn be=e civil tribunals z gospel tru?s4 ,dur+ eighte5 ye>s1 !y kept me 9 ! h&s ( ! %]iffs1 a prison]1 "u bail1 z a crim9al4 ,?irty-two times1 my "n has be5 call$ be=e ! civil & crim9al c\rts ( ,kankakee1 ,joliet1 ,*icago1 ,urbana & ,montreal1 among ! names ( ! vile/ & mo/ crim9al ( m54 ,i h be5 accus$ by ,gr& ,vic> ,maill\x ( hav+ kill$ a man & ?r[n 8 body into a riv] to conceal my crime4 ,i h be5 accus$ ( hav+ set fire to ! *ur* ( ,b\rbonnais & de/roy$ x4 ,n less ?an sev5ty-two false witnesses h be5 br\ght by ! prie/s ( ,rome to support ?is la/ accusation4 ,b ?anks be to ,god1 at e "t1 f ! v lips ( ! p]jur$ witnesses1 we got ! pro( t !y 7 swe>+ falsely1 at ! in/igation ( _! fa!r confessors4 ,& my innoc5ce 0 prov$ by ! v m5 :o _h be5 paid to de/roy me4 ,9 ?is la/ suit1 ,i ?\ght x 0 my duty z a ,*ri/ian & citiz51 to h "o ( ^? prie/s puni%$ = hav+ s cruelly & publicly trampl$ "u 8 feet ! mo/ sacr$ laws ( society & religion4 ,)\t any v5geance on my "p1 ,god kn[s x1 ,i ask$ ! protection ( my c\ntry aga9/ ^? incessant plots4 ,fa!r ,brunet1 f\nd guilty ( hav+ inv5t$ ^? calumnies & support$ !m by false witnesses1 0 condemn$ to pay #b1ejj or g to gaol = f\rte5 ye>s4 ,he pref]r$ ! la/ puni%m5t1 hav+ ! promise f 8 ,roman ,ca?olic fri5ds t !y w\ld break ! doors ( ! prison & let him g free to "s remote place4 ,he 0 inc>c]at$ at ,kankakee2 b on a d>k & /ormy night1 six mon?s lat]1 he 0 rescu$1 & fl$ to ,montreal 7#ijj miles74 ,!re1 he made ! ,roman ,ca?olics believe t ! bless$ ,virg9 ,m>y1 dress$ 9 a beautiful :ite robe1 _h come 9 p]son to op51 = him1 ! gates ( ! prison4 ,i d n m5tion ^! facts "h1 to create bad feel+s aga9/ ! poor bl9d slaves ( ! ,pope4 ,x is only to %[ to ! _w t ! ,*ur* ( ,rome ( to-day is absolutely ! same z :5 %e r$d5$ ,europe ) ! blood ( millions ( m>tyrs4 ,my motive 9 speak+ ( ^? murd]\s attacks is to induce ! read]s to help me to bless ,god :o has s m]cifully sav$ me f ! h&s ( ! enemy4 ,m ?an any liv+ man1 ,i c say ) ! old prophet3 8,! ,"l is my ,%eph]d1 ,i %all n want40 ,) ,paul1 ,i c\ld (t5 say3 8,we are tr\bl$ on e side1 yet n di/ress$4 ,we are p]plex$1 b n 9 despair3 p]secut$1 b n =sak51 ca/ d[n1 b n de/roy$3 always be>+ ab\t 9 ! body ! dy+ ( ! ,"l ,jesus1 t ! life also ( ,jesus1 might be manife/ 9 our body40 ,^? con/ant p]secutions1 f> f h9d]+ ! onw>d m>* ( ! evangelical movem5t to :i* ,i h consecrat$ my life1 seem to h giv5 x a new impulse & a fre%] life4 ,i h ev5 rem>k$ t ! v day aft] ,i _h be5 bruis$ & w\nd$1 ! numb] ( conv]ts _h inv>iably increas$4 ,i w nev] =get ! day1 aft] ! t]rible night :5 m ?an a ?\s& ,roman ,ca?olics _h come to /one me1 & on :i* ,i _h receiv$ a sev]e w\nd1 m ?an "o hundr$ ( my c\ntrym5 ask$ me to enroll _! names "u ! bann] ( ! ,gospel & publicly s5t _! recantation ( ! errors ( ,rome to ! bi%op4 ,to-day1 ! ,gospel ( ,*ri/ is advanc+ ) an irresi/ible p[] among ! ,fr5* ,canadians f ! ,atlantic to ! ,pacific ,oceans4 ,we f9d numb]s ( conv]ts 9 almo/ e t[n & city f ,new ,york to ,san ,francisco4 ,ralli$ ar\nd ! bann]s ( ,*ri/1 !y =m a l>ge army ( fe>less soldi]s ( ! ,cross4 ,among ^? conv]ts1 we c\nt n[ tw5ty-five prie/s1 & m ?an fifty "y zeal\s m9i/]s born 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,rome4 ,9 hundr$s ( places1 ! ,*ur* ( ,rome has lo/ h] pa/ pre/ige1 & ! prie/s are look$ ^u ) indiff]5ce1 if n contempt1 ev5 by ^? :o h n yet accept$ ! light4 ,a v rem>kable religi\s movem5t has also be5 lately inaugurat$ among ! ,iri% ,roman ,ca?olics1 "u ! lead]%ip ( ,rev'ds4 ,o',connor & ,qu9n1 :i* promises to keep pace )1 if n exce$ ! progress ( ! ,gospel among ! ,fr5*4 ,to-day1 m ?an ev]1 we he> ! ,good ,ma/]'s voice3 8,lift up y\r eyes & look on ! fields1 = !y are :ite already to h>ve/40 ,oh6 may ! day soon come :5 all my c\ntrym5 w he> ! voice ( ! ,lamb & come to wa% _! robes 9 8 blood6 ,w ,i see ! bless$ h\r :5 ! d>k night 9 :i* ,rome keeps my de> ,canada w be ex*ang$ = ! bright & sav+ light ( ! ,gospel8 ,at all ev5ts1 ,i _c b bless ,god = :at m9e eyes h se5 & m9e e>s h he>d ( 8 m]cy t[>ds me & my c\ntrym54 ,f my infancy he has tak5 me into 8 arms & l$ me mo/ m]cifully1 ?r\gh ways ,i did n "k1 f ! d>ke/ regions ( sup]/ition1 to ! bless$ regions ( light1 tru? & life6 ,f ! day he grant$ me to read 8 div9e ^w on my de> "m's knees1 to ! h\r ,he came to me z 8! ,gift ( ,god10 ,he has n let a s+le day pass )\t speak+ to me "s ( ,8 w>n+ & sav+ words4 ,i h n always paid suffici5t att5tion to ,8 sweet voice1 ,i confess x to my %ame4 ,my m9d 0 s fill$ ) ! glitt]+ sophisms ( ,rome1 t _m times ,i refus$ to yield to ! /ill voice :i* 0 almo/ night & day he>d 9 my s\l4 ,b my ,god 0 n repell$ by my infidelities1 z ! read] w f9d 9 ?is book4 ,:5 driv5 away 9 ! morn+1 ,he came back 9 ! sil5t h\rs ( ! night4 ,= m ?an tw5ty-five ye>s ,he =c$ me to see z a prie/1 ! abom9ations :i* exi/ inside ! walls ( ! mod]n ,babylon4 ,i may say1 ,he took me by ! lock ( m9e head1 z ,he did ) ! prophet ( old & said3 8,son ( man1 lift up ?9e eyes n[ ! way t[>ds ! ,nor? & behold1 nor?w>d at ! gate ( ! alt>1 ?is image ( ,jeal\sy 9 ! entry4 ,he said fur!rmore unto me3 ,son ( man1 see/ ?\ :at !y d1 ev5 ! great abom9ations t ! h\se ( ,israel committe? "h1 t ,i %\ld g f> (f f my sanctu>y8 ,b turn !e yet aga91 & ?\ %alt see great] abom9ations4 ,& he br\ght me to ! door ( ! c\rt2 & :5 ,i look$1 behold a hole 9 ! wall4 ,!n said he unto me1 son ( man1 dig n[ 9 ! wall2 & :5 ,i _h digg$ 9 ! wall1 & behold ! wick$ abom9ations t !y d "h4 ,s ,i w5t & saw2 & behold e =m ( creep+ ?+s1 & abom9able bea/s & all ! idols ( ! h\se ( ,israel1 portray$ ^u ! walls r\nd ab\t4 ,& !re /ood be=e !m sev5ty m5 ( ! anci5ts ( ! h\se ( ,israel1 & 9 ! mid/ ( !m /ood ,zaazaniah1 ! son ( ,%aphan1 ) e man 8 c5s] 9 8 h&2 & a ?ick cl\d ( inc5se w5t up4 8,!n said he unto me3 ,son ( man1 ha/ ?\ se5 :at ! anci5ts ( ! h\se ( ,israel d 9 ! d>k1 e man 9 ! *amb]s ( 8 imag]y8 = !y say ! ,"l has =sak5 ! e>?4 ,he said also unto me3 turn !e yet aga91 & ?\ %alt see great] abom9ations ?an !y d4 ,!n he br\ght me to ! door ( ! gate ( ! ,"l2 &1 behold1 !re sat wom5 weep+ = ,tammuz4 8,!n said he unto me3 ,ha/ ?\ se5 ?is1 ,o son ( man8 ,turn !e yet aga91 & ?\ %alt see great] abom9ations ?an ^!4 ,& he br\ght me into ! inn] c\rt ( ! ,"l's h\se1 &1 behold1 at ! temple ( ! ,"l1 betwe5 ! por* & ! alt>1 7 ab\t five & tw5ty m51 ) _! backs t[>ds ! temple ( ! ,"l1 & _! faces t[>d ! ea/2 & !y wor%ipp$ ! sun t[>d ! ea/4 8,!n he said unto me3 ,ha/ ?\ se5 ?is1 ,o son ( man8 ,is x a light ?+ to ! h\se ( ,judah t !y commit ! abom9ations :i* !y commit "h8 = !y h fill$ ! l& ) viol5ce & h return$ to provoke me into ang]2 & lo6 !y put ! bran* to _! nose4 ,!re=e1 w ,i also deal 9 fury2 m9e eyes %all n sp>e1 nei!r w ,i h pity2 & !y cry 9 m9e e>s1 ) a l\d voice1 yet w ,i n he> !m40 7,ezek4 #h47 ,i c say ) ,john3 8,"o ( ! sev5 angels said unto me3 ,i w %[ unto !e ! judgm5t ( ! great :ore t sitte? ^u _m wat]s2 ) :om ! k+s ( ! e>? h committ$ =nication1 & ! inhabitants ( ! e>? h be5 made drunk ) ! w9e ( h] =nications4 ,s he c>ri$ me away into ! wild]ness2 & ,i saw a woman sit ^u a sc>let color$ bea/ full ( names ( blasphemy hav+ sev5 heads & t5 horns4 ,& ! woman 0 array$ 9 purple & sc>let color1 & deck$ ) gold & preci\s /ones & pe>ls1 hav+ a gold5 cup 9 h] h& full ( abom9ations & fil?9ess ( h] =nication3 & ^u h] =head 0 a "n writt53 #8,my/]y1 ,babylon1 ! ,great1 ! 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%all inh]it all ?+s40 7,rev4 #ba3cd47 ,ri* ) ! unspeakable gift :i* has be5 giv5 me1 & press+ my de> ,bible to my he>t1 z ! ri*e/ treasure1 ,i ha/5 my /eps ) an unspeakable joy t[>d ! ,l& ( ,promise4 ,i already he> ! angel's voice tell+ me3 8,come2 ! ,ma/] calls !e60 ,a few days m & ! bridegroom w say to my s\l3 8,surely ,i come quickly40 ,& ,i w answ]3 8,ev5 s1 come ,"l ,jesus40 ,,am54 ,pr9t$ 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates ( ,am]ica ,,evangeli/ic ,,s]mons ,s4 ,d4 ,,gordon ,quiet ,talks ab\t ,simple ,ess5tials & ! ,pres5t ,_w ,outlook #a4be 8,a refre%+ volume on ! simple ?\gh really important ?+s 9 ! ,*ri/ian life4 ,! late/ book by "o ( ! mo/ popul> ( all devotional writ]s--refre%+ z a cool draft on a sultry day1 enhe>t5+ z a famili> voice 9 ! d>k1 & helpful z a lift 9 c>ry+ a heavy load40--,alabama ,bapti/4 ,r4 ,a4 ,,torrey1 ,d4,d4 ,s\l-,w9n+ ,s]mons ,s]mons ,us$ 9 ,sav+ ,myriads ( ,s9n]s all ,ar\nd ! ,globe4 #d4jj ,tw5ty-five ( ,dr4 ,torrey's be/ evangeli/ic addresses--addresses deliv]$ by him 9 _m l&s & climes4 ,^! s]mons h be5 ! means1 "u ,god1 ( lead+ _m ?\s&s into ,*ri/ian fell[%ip & s]vice4 ,,l\is ,,alb]t ,,banks1 ,d4,d4 ,bible ,s\l-,w9n]s #a4ej ,dr4 ,banks always /rikes ! true evangeli/ic note4 ,8 addresses are n figm5ts ( e?ical philosophy1 b burn+ messages ( salvation4 ,9 8 late/ book he invites att5tion to "s ( ! out/&+ in/ances record$ 9 ,holy ,writ ( h[ ! proclamation ( ! ,good ,news 0 accompani$ by ! w9n+ ( s\ls = ! ,k+dom4 ,r4 ,a4 ,,torrey1 ,d4,d4 ,! ,p[] ( ,pray] & ,! ,pray] ( ,p[]4 #a4ge ,) *>act]i/ic =cefulness & reliance on ,holy ,scripture = pro( & support ( 8 po/ulates1 ,dr4 ,torrey reviews ! :ole "q ( ,prevail+ ,pray]4 ,among ! aspects ( ! !me treat$ are3 ,! ,p[] ( ,pray]1 ,! ,prop] ,me?od ( ,pray+1 ,h9drances to ,pray]1 etc4 ,,= ,,rea*+ ,,m5 ,c4 ,f4 ,,wimb]ly1 ,d4,d4 ,! ,ma/]y ( ,manhood ,introduction by ,h5ry ,c4 ,morrison1 ,d4,d4 #a4be ,a vigor\s1 brac+ discussion ( ! factors :i* make = victori\s manhood4 ,n by m5 :o are a law unto !mselves are life's highe/ a*ievem5ts atta9$1 ,dr4 ,wimb]ly cont5ds1 b by m5 ^: ?\ghts & de$s are influ5c$ by ! indwell+ ,_s ( ! ,mo/ ,high4 ,x is ! ,god-gov]n$1 n ! self-gov]n$ life :i* c\nts = mo/1 :i* is be/ wor? 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