,life ( ,fa!r ,ignatius ( ,/4 ,paul1 ,passioni/4 i ii ,picture & autograph ( ,fr4 ,ignatius iii ,,life ,,( ,fa!r ,ignatius ( ,/4 ,paul1 ,,passioni/ 7,! ,hon4 ,rev4 ,george ,sp5c]74 ,compil$ *iefly f 8 ,autobiography1 ,j\rnal1 ,lett]s4 ,,by ,! ,rev4 ,fa!r ,pius ,a ,sp4 ,sancto1 ,passioni/4 ,,dubl93 ,james ,duffy1 #ae1 ,well+ton ,quay2 ,& #bb1 ,pat]no/] ,r[1 ,london4 #ahff4 ,! "r ( translation is res]v$4 iv ,cox ,& ,wyman1 ,classical & ,g5]al ,pr9t]s1 ,great ,que5 ,/reet1 ,l9coln's ,inn ,fields1 ,w4,c4 v ,to ! ,v ,rev]5d ,fa!r ,ignatius ,( ,! ,infant ,jesus1 ,passioni/1 ,long ,! ,director ,( ,fa!r ,ignatius ,( ,/4 ,paul1 ,= ,n9e ,ye>s ,! ,fai?ful ,/ew>d ,( ,! ,anglo-,hib]nian ,prov9ce1 ,:i* ,he ,f\nd ,a ,h&ful ,& ,made ,a ,ho/1 ,?is ,volume1 ,writt5 ,by ,8 ,ord] ,& ,publi%$ ,) ,8 ,bless+1 ,is ,d$icat$1 ,to ,te/ify ,! ,gratitude ,all ,8 ,subjects ,feel1 ,& ,! ,mo/ ,unwor?y ,( ,!m ,tries ,to ,express1 ,by ,8 ,pat]nity's ,devot$ ,& ,affectionate ,*ild1 ,! ,au?or4 vi vii ,preface4 ,great s]vants ( ,god h seldom be5 und]/ood 9 _! lifetime4 ,p]secution has assail$ !m (t51 f qu>t]s :]e help w\ld be expect$ 9 _! def5ce4 ,ev5 holy s\ls are sometimes mi/ak5 ab\t ! p>ticul> l9e ( virtue :i* di/+ui%es _! contempor>ies f !mselves4 ,/4 ,john ( ! ,cross1 ,/4 ,joseph ,calasanctius1 & ,/4 ,alphonsus ,liguori1 h _h ! close ( _! lives embitt]$1 z we might call x1 by dome/ic p]secution2 & x 0 "s "t be=e _! spl5d\r1 z !y vani%$ f ! horizon ( life1 rose aga9 to its z5i?1 & out%one its =m] glory4 ,if ! imp>tial eye1 ) :i* we read _! actions1 fails to f9d a plea = ! mann] !y h be5 dealt )1 let u rememb] t we h no int]e/s at /ake--no false col\r+ ( passion to bl9d u4 ,dea?1 inde$1 does n always m[ d[n mi/ak5 notions ) ! life ( him ab\t :om !y are tak5 up4 ,we mu/1 h[ev]1 be ?ankful t x slays s _m viii wrong impressions1 & attribute ! residue to o!r causes4 ,ju/ice to ! dead is an impulse ( nature2 & ^? :o w\ld qualify praise ( ! liv+ by ! m5tion ( unwor?y actions or inf]ior motives1 w qualify blame ( ! dead by a contr>y proce$+4 ,?is in/9ct has its gold5 mean z well z e o!r4 ,if an anci5t ,greek o/racis$ a man because he 0 prais$ by e "o1 _m mod]ns w def5d a man because he is simil>ly blam$4 ,:5ev] !re exi/s a diff]5ce ( op9ion ab\t a man dur+ life1 x requires "s l5g? ( "t aft] he has dep>t$1 = prejudice to settle to ! bottom1 & all[ 8 g5u9e "* to be se5 ?r\gh cle>ly4 ,^! facts1 & ! exp]i5ce ( hi/ory1 lead u to conclude t a man's life _c be imp>tially writt5 :5 8 memory is yet fre% 9 p's m9ds4 ,?\s&s h _h opportunities ( judg+1 & br+ _! impressions to comp>e !m ) ! page t records ! actions f :i* !y 7 tak52 & if !y be diff]5t f ! idea ! biograph] int5ds to convey1 x is n probable t1 9 e case1 _! possessors w be cont5t to lay !m aside4 ,x is suppos$1 moreov]1 t a biograph] owes a k9d ( vassalage to 8 subject--t he is oblig$ to def5d him ?r\gh ?ick & ix ?9--9 good & evil report4 ,he is oblig$1 accord+ to tradition>y1 ?\gh arbitr>y laws1 to suppress :atev] w n tell 9 8 fav\r1 to put ! v be/ face ^u :at he is compell$ to relate1 & to make ! mo/ ( excell5cies4 ,8 op9ion1 !re=e1 mu/ be receiv$ ) caution1 = x is 8 duty to be p>tial1 9 ! mo/ odi\s s5se ( t ^w1 & x w\ld be a capital s9 to deviate f ?is long-e/abli%$ rule4 ,^! difficulties d n beset ! life t is "h pres5t$ to ! public4 ,fa!r ,ignatius _h 8 alt]nations ( praise & blame dur+ life2 b ^? :o ?\ght lea/ ( him 7 =c$ to admit 8 great sanctity4 ,if ?is latt] quality be conc$$1 apology has no room4 ,an admitt$ sa9t does n require to be def5d$2 = ! aureola ( 8 own br[ w %$ ! light ?r\gh :i* 8 actions are to be view$4 ,we see1 !re=e1 no wrong impressions t require to be remov$--no calumnies t h to be cle>$ away--no?+1 9 fact1 to be done1 except to give a fai?ful hi/ory ( 8 life4 ,= ?is reason1 we v5ture to publi% ?is "w be=e ! second anniv]s>y ( 8 dea?2 & x w\ld h be5 publi%$ soon]1 if ! mat]ials f :i* x is compos$ c\ld h be5 arrang$ & dige/$4 ,aga91 he 0 he$less ( ! praise or blame ( x m5 himself1 & x w\ld be an inju/ice to 8 memory to wait = a fav\rable mom5t = giv+ 8 ?\ghts publicity4 ,^? :o expect to f9d no?+ 9 ! lives ( holy p b goodness & traits ( high spirituality1 w be disappo9t$ :5 !y read ?is4 ,^? :o are accu/om$ to read t "s sa9ts inde$ h liv$ r irregul>ly 9 _! y\?1 b f9d !mselves left 9 bless$ ignorance ( :at ^? irregul>ities 71 w also be disappo9t$4 ,!y %all f9d "h record$ t "y ,sp5c] 0 n a sa9t1 & !y %all be giv5 data :]eon to =m _! own op9ion too4 ,!y %all see him pass ?r\gh v>i\s phases ( religi\s views1 & %all f9d !mselves left to draw _! own conclusions ab\t 8 conduct ?r\gh\t4 ,& n[1 p]haps1 x is bett] to give "s reasons :y ?is c\rse 0 adopt$ 9 writ+ 8 life1 r ?an ! usual "o4 ,besides t already giv51 !re are two o!rs4 ,9 ! fir/ place1 ord9>y1 well-mean+ ,*ri/ians feel di%e>t5$ :5 !y f9d sa9ts ready to be canoniz$ f _! infancy1 & _c ?9k ( ! ,magdal5es :5 !y f9d ! cal5d> full ( ,m>ys1 & ,agneses1 & ,t]esas4 ,nei!r w !y reflect mu* on an ,augu/91 :5 ! majority are ,seba/ians & ,aloysiuses4 ,"h is an example to help ^! p on2 & !y are ! great] numb]4 xi ,we h !re=e %[n ,fa!r ,ignatius's weak po9ts z well z 8 /rong ones2 we h br\ght him out 9 8 writt5 life precisely z he 0 9 reality4 ,he comes be=e u ) a m9d full ( worldly notions1 he traces 8 own /eps away f rectitude1 he makes 8 confession to ! :ole _w4 ,h[ _m w see 9 ! y\? he pass$1 f> away f ,god & graz+ ! edge ( ! bottomless precipice1 a p]fect illu/ration ( _! own y\?4 ,let !m !n foll[ him ?r\gh life4 ,!y %all f9d him a prey to ! wor/ passions1 ang]1 pride1 & _! k9dr$ t5d5cies4 ,!y %all see him put 8 h& to ! pl\gh1 &1 accord+ to ! measure ( 8 grace & light1 subdu+ fir/ "o1 & !n ano!r ( 8 incl9ations4 ,!y c trace 8 passage ?r\gh life1 & see t he has s f> ov]come 8 passions t an equivocal w>m? ( temp] is a ?+ to be wond]$ at 9 him4 ,!re is a s]vant ( ,god t gives u c\rage1 we ne$ n despond :5 he leads ! way = u4 ,occasional imp]fections are m5tion$ t[>ds ! latt] "p ( 8 life4 ,^! only %[ t he 0 a man & n an angel1 & t a defect n[ & aga9 is n at all incompatible ) great hol9ess4 ,!re 0 a reality ab\t ! man t c nev] leave ! m9ds ( ^? :o knew him4 ,he hat$ %ams4 ,he w\ld h ! brighte/ consequ5ces ( xii fai? realiz$4 ,he w\ld n h ! ,gospel laws be m]e matt] ( s5tim5tal platitudes1 b great realities p]vad+ life & produc+ _! legitimate effects4 ,he w5t into !m1 he>t & s\l2 & ! few po9ts 9 :i* he seem$ to g ?is side or t ( ! mean ( virtue 9 _! obs]vance1 we h record$1 t o!rs may see h[ he obs]v$ !m4 ,exceptions %[ ! beauty ( a rule2 & ?is is ! second reason :y we h writt5 z a hi/orian & n z a panegyri/4 ,& n[ = an acc\nt ( ! mat]ials f :i* ! memoir has be5 compil$4 ,he wrote an acc\nt ( 8 life ab\t ! ye> #ahcf4 ,he 0 !n on a b$ ( sickness f :i* he sc>cely expect$ to rise2 b we %all give 8 own reasons = writ+ :at he has writt54 ,! autobiography beg9s ?us3-- ,:5 a man comes be=e ! _w z an au?or1 !re is mu* dang] ( 8 be+ actuat$ by motives ( :i* he does n l to ackn[l$ge ! influ5ce1 & p are s naturally dispos$ to suspect ! motive to be some?+ diff]5t f t :i* ought to be ! lead+ "o ( all our important actions1 & especially ( ^? :i* are possess$ by our religi\s actions2 namely1 ! hon\r ( ,god1 & our own neighb\r's good2 t ! common preface to su* works is1 to gu>d ! au?or aga9/ ! imputation ( vanity or ( self-love1 9 "s "o xiii or o!r ( ! contemptible =ms 9 :i* x rules s widely 9 ?is poor _w ( ours4 ,su* introductory apologies1 on ! "p ( an au?or1 w n1 ,i believe1 meet ) full cr$it ) ^? :o "k ! _w4 ,^? :o are mo/ obvi\sly ! slaves ( self-w1 w1 g5]ally1 be l\de/ 9 _! prote/ations ( ! purity & excell5ce ( _! motives2 s t my advice to ^? :o wi% to e/abli% 9 ! m9ds ( o!rs a good op9ion ( _! s9c]ity1 w\ld g5]ally be1 to say no?+ ab\t x1 & let _! conduct speak = itself4 ,yet ?is is n :at ,i int5d to d 9 ! comm5cem5t ( my pres5t "w4 ,:at ,i h und]tak5 is1 to give to ! public a hi/ory ( my own m9d4 ,i %all make x my /udy to recollect ) accuracy & to /ate ) tru? ! motives1 ! impressions1 & ! feel+s by :i* ,i h be5 guid$ 9 ! important passages ( my pa/ life2 & !re=e !re seems to be "s peculi> reason1 f ! nature ( ! "w itself1 :y ,i %\ld comm5ce by /at+ :y ,i h und]tak5 x4 ,yet ,i w n v5ture to say positively :at are my motives4 ,i r %all /ate1 9 ! sight ( ,god & ( my bre?r51 :at are ! motives :i* ,i all[ myself to ent]ta9 9 delib]ately pres5t+ a hi/ory ( my ?\ghts to ! public4 ,my read]s are at lib]ty to judge me 9 _! own way1 & suppose t ,i deceive myself 9 ! view ,i take ( my own int5tions z mu* or z little z to !m %all seem probable4 ,( ?is xvi :i*1 h oblig$ me to leave my flock to ! c>e ( o!rs1 :ile my prop] bus9ess is to be1 = a "t1 to recov] my heal? by re/ & relaxation4 ,"h !n is an opportunity = und]tak+ some?+ 9 ! way ( writ+2 & ,i am ab\t to make :at ,i conceive is ! mo/ valuable contribution 9 my p[] to ! works already exi/+ = ! def5ce ( our ,holy ,fai?4 ,i h n ! k requisite = produc+ a le>n$ "w1 nor am ,i ev] likely to acquire x4 ,a "w ( fancy or inv5tion is1 p]haps1 yet fur!r out ( my l9e4 ,i nev] _h any tal5t = compositions 9 :i* imag9ation is requir$4 ,i h>dly ev] wrote a l9e ( poetry except :5 oblig$ to x at s*ool or college4 ,b x requires nei!r le>n+ nor imag9ation to give a simple /atem5t ( facts1 & !re is a *>m 9 tru? :i* w give to a composition1 :i* be>s its /amp1 an int]e/ m lively1 p]haps1 ?an :at ! beauties ( poetry & fiction are employ$ to adorn4 ,i believe ! hi/ory ( ! human m9d mu/ always be int]e/+4 ,if ! mo/ insignificant ( m5 c\ld b be taught to write a correct acc\nt ( :at has pass$ )9 8 s\l1 9 any p]iod ( 8 exi/5ce1 ! hi/ory w\ld be full ( wond]s & in/ruction2 & if1 ) ,god's help1 ,i am able to fulfil my pres5t und]tak+1 & to give a picture ( my own m9d & he>t1 & rec\nt1 ) tru? & xvii p]spicuity1 ! revolutions :i* h tak5 place )9 me1 ,i h no d\bt ! n>rative w be int]e/+4 ,! m9ds & he>ts ( m5 are wond]fully alike "o to ano!r4 ,!y are also wond]fully v>i\s4 ,read ! hi/ory ( my m9d & y w f9d x int]e/+1 z y "k a book ( travels is1 ?r\gh c\ntries :i* y h visit$4 ,y w see y\r own he>t repres5t$ to y1 & be1 p]haps1 pleas+ly rem9d$ ( ! feel+s1 ! projects1 ! disappo9tm5ts1 ! weaknesses ( days gone by4 ,b ,i h a great] object be=e me ?an y\r amusem5t4 ,i desire y\r in/ruction4 ,i may1 p]*ance1 ?r[ on "s passage ( y\r hi/ory1 on "s po9ts ( ! great picture :i* a retrospect ( y\r pa/ life pres5ts to y1 a m correct light4 ,i may %[ y :]e y\r views ( ?+s might h (t5 be5 m true ?an !y 7 at ! "t1 :5 y\r /eps might h be5 m prud5tly1 m happily tak51 & by ! consid]ation ( mi/akes & errors :i* ,i h aft]w>ds ackn[l$g$1 ?\gh once bl9d to !m1 & f :i* ,i h recov]$ ?r\gh ! goodness ( ,god1 y may be assi/$ to take "s /eps =w>ds 9 ! pa? ( tru? & happ9ess4 ,i d n1 h[ev]1 propose to myself ! b5efit ( o!rs only 9 ?is composition4 ,! noble/ & ! mo/ useful /udy ( mank9d is man2 b1 c]ta9ly1 ?is /udy is 9 no way s important z :5 x xviii is 9 ! contemplation ( ourselves t we foll[ x up4 ,x is a high po9t ( wisdom to "k & und]/& o!r m52 b we "k no?+ t w inde$ avail u if we "k n ourselves4 ,h5ce1 :ile ,i am und]tak+ a hi/ory ( myself = ! in/ruction ( o!rs1 ,i purpose1 at ! same "t1 & 9 ! fir/ place1 to ga9 f my rese>*es in/ruction = myself4 ,9 n[ recollect+ & decl>+ ! do+s ( ,god t[>ds me1 & my do+s t[>ds ,him1 ,i mo/ e>ne/ly desire an advancem5t 9 myself ( love & humility2 w\ld t x might be an advancem5t 9 p]fection6 ,i began ?is "w ) f]v5t pray] t ,i may be pres]v$ f ! sn>es ) :i* x may be accompani$2 above all1 t ,i may n make x an occasion ( va9-glory1 & s turn :at ought to be done = ,god's s]vice & = o!rs' good into an (f5ce ( ,god & my own exce$+ loss2 b t1 be+ deliv]$ f ! dang]1 ,i may f9d x ! occasion ( exce$+ spiritual b5efit to myself1 if x be n to any o!rs4 ,! read] mu/ take :at ,fa!r ,ignatius writes ( himself ) "s qualifications4 ,he seems to h _h an inv9cible prop5sity to put 8 wor/ side out 9 :atev] he wrote ab\t himself4 ,he did n see 8 own p]fections1 he und]rat$ 8 k1 8 m9d1 8 virtues4 ,he saw good 9 e "o except himself4 ,b x is ne$less to speak mu* on xix ?is po9t1 z 8 c&\r & simplicity are sure to make e read] fav\rable4 ,x is to be regrett$ t ! autobiography does n rea* f>!r into 8 life ?an 8 ord9ation z a m9i/]4 ,h[ gratify+ x w\ld h be5 if we c\ld read 8 int]ior conflicts1 8 ext]ior difficulties1 8 alt]nations ( joy & sadness1 9 ! sweet1 affectionate /yle :i* tells u 8 e>ly life4 ,b ! reason mu/ h be53--,he _h little to *>ge himself )2 he _h no faults s]i\s en\gh to l[] him 9 ! e/eem ( m5 f t "t =w>d1 & !re=e he did n write4 ,! next s\rce ( in=mation is 8 j\rnal4 ,he began to keep a j\rnal 9 #ahah1 :5 he fir/ w5t to ,cambridge1 & cont9u$ x un9t]rupt$ly d[n to #ahbi1 a %ort "t be=e 8 conv]sion4 ,we h f\nd no?+ 9 ! %ape ( a di>y among 8 pap]s1 f t "t until ! ye> #ahdf1 a few mon?s be=e he became a ,passioni/1 except a j\rnal ( a t\r he made on ! ,cont95t 9 #ahdd1 & t is giv5 entire 9 ! ?ird book4 ,! j\rnal f #ahdf1 until a few days be=e 8 dea?1 is a m]e record ( dates & places 9 :i* he has be5 & p]sons he spoke to4 ,x is s closely writt5 t x is sc>cely readable by ! nak$ eye1 & he gives 9 "o page ! incid5ts ( six mon?s4 ,?is j\rnal 0 ( great use to him4 ,x help$ 8 memory & prev5t$ 8 mak+ mi/akes 9 ! multitude ( sc5es ?r\gh xx :i*1 he pass$4 ,x is also a valuable contribution to ! annals ( our ,ord]4 ,besides ^! two s\rces ( in=mation reg>d+ 8 life1 we h _h access to a multitude ( lett]s1 runn+ ov] ! space ( upw>ds ( =ty ye>s4 ,he pres]v$ a great _m ( ! important lett]s he receiv$2 & sev]al ( 8 fri5ds1 :o pres]v$ lett]s receiv$ f him z treasures1 k9dly l5t u _! /ock = ! prep>ation ( ?is volume4 ,8 ,em95ce ! late ,c>d9al ,wiseman gave u :at lett]s he possess$1 & promis$ to contribute "s recollections ( 8 fri5d1 b 0 prev5t$ by dea? f fulfill+ 8 promise4 ,our ?anks are due to _! ,lord%ips1 ! ,"r ,rev4 ,dr4 ,ulla?orne1 ! ,"r ,rev4 ,dr4 ,w>e+1 ! ,"r ,rev4 ,dr4 ,turn]1 ! ,"r ,rev4 ,dr4 ,grant1 ! ,"r ,rev4 ,dr4 ,amh]/1 & to sev]al cl]gym5 & lay p]sons1 = _! k9dness 9 s5d+ u lett]s & furni%+ u ) anecdotes & pleas+ recollections ( ,fa!r ,ignatius4 ,among ! latt] we are "u special obligations to ,mr4 ,de ,lisle & ,mr4 ,montei?4 ,9 tru? we h f\nd all ! fri5ds ( ,fa!r ,ignatius mo/ will+ to assi/ u 9 our und]tak+4 ,nor mu/ we =get sev]al religi\s :o h help$ u 9 e possible way4 ,! in=mation ga!r$ f ! correspond5ce has be5 ! mo/ valuable4 ,8 lett]s 7 writt5 to de> fri5ds to :om he laid ! v inmo/ ( 8 s\l op51--f]v5t s\ls1 :o sympa?iz$ xxi ) 8 zeal\s ex]tions & pr(it$ by 8 advice 9 advanc+ !mselves & o!rs 9 ! way ( virtue4 ,! ,d[ag] ,lady ,lyttelton has k9dly furni%$ u ) dates & accurate in=mation ab\t ! memb]s ( ! ,sp5c] family1 & z %e is ! only survivor ( ! *ildr5 ( ,john ,george1 ,e>l ,sp5c]1 we hope ! memory ( h] de> bro!r w s]ve to alleviate ! weight ( h] advanc+ ye>s1 & prolong !m consid]ably to h] *ildr5 & gr&*ildr54 ,we beg to express our s9c]e ?anks = h] lady%ip's k9dness4 ,a f\r? & n a less int]e/+ s\rce ( in=mation has be5 our own memory4 ,fa!r ,ignatius 0 mo/ communicative to 8 bre?r52 inde$ he might be said to be transp>5t4 ,we all knew him s well4 ,he relat$ ! anecdotes t are giv5 9 8 memoir to u all2 & :5 ea* ,fa!r & ,bro!r gave 9 8 contribution1 ! quantity furni%$ w\ld h made a v ent]ta9+ life ( itself4 ,_! ?anks mu/ be ! consci\sness ( hav+ help$ to keep him yet among/ u z f> z 0 possible4 ,^!1 !n1 are ! s\rces f :i* ! foll[+ pages h be5 compil$4 ,! facts relat$ may !re=e be reli$ ^u z p]fectly au!ntic4 ,we possess ! orig9als ( ! matt] quot$--v\*]s = e op9ion advanc$1 & ! anecdotes c be corroborat$ by half a doz5 ( witnesses4 xxii ,see+ t 8 life _h be5 s div]se1 & t ! *anges ( ?\ght :i* influ5c$ ! e>ly portion ( x 7 s v>i\s1 x 0 ?\ght be/ to divide x into f\r di/9ct books4 ,! fir/ book takes him to ! ?re%old ( ! ,anglican m9i/ry2 ! second into ! fold ( ! ,*ur*2 ! ?ird into ! ,passioni/ novitiate2 & ! f\r? foll[s him to ! grave4 ,we %all let ! details speak = !mselves1 & only rem>k t !re is an id5tity 9 ! "* z well z 9 ! c\nt5ance ( a man :i* und]lies all ! phases ( op9ion ?r\gh :i* he may h pass$4 ,x w be se5 t1 f *ildhood to old age1 ,fa!r ,ignatius 0 rem>kable = e>ne/ness & rev]5ce4 ,:atev] he ?\ght to be 8 duty he pursu$ ) indomitable p]sev]ance4 ,he 0 n "o to cloak ov] a weak po9t1 or soo! a d\bt ) a trump$-up answ]4 ,he c&idly admitt$ e difficulty1 & w5t ) unflagg+ zeal into cle>+ x up4 ,?is 0 ! key to 8 conv]sion4 ,he _h1 besides1 ev5 9 8 greate/ vag>ies1 a rev]5tial _s ) reg>d to 8 ,creator1 :i* =m$ an atmosph]e ( duty ar\nd him1 outside :i* he c\ld n /ep )\t be+ /ung by consci5ce4 ,a /+ he nev] dead5$4 ,^! 7 ! c5tripetal & c5trifugal =ces t kept 8 life balanc$ on an axis t rema9$ /eady 9 ! c5tre dur+ 8 e evolution4 xxiii ,we h endeav\r$ to be fai?ful to 8 memory4 ,we h tri$1 z f> z we c\ld1 to let himself tell 8 life2 we h only arrang$ ! mat]ials & suppli$ ! cem5t t w\ld keep !m toge!r4 ,:e!r ! "w has suff]$ 9 our h&s or n is immat]ial to u4 ,we h tri$ to d our be/1 & no "o c d m4 ,if any expressions h escap$ u t may appe> (f5sive1 we are ready to make ! mo/ ample apology1 b n at ! sacrifice ( a p>ticle ( tru?4 ,if1 ?r\gh ignorance or inadv]t5ce1 errors h be5 committ$1 we hold ourselves ready to retract !m2 & retract1 be=eh&1 any?+ t may1 9 ! slighte/ degree1 be injuri\s1 n to say contr>y1 to ,ca?olic doctr9e1 & submit ourselves unres]v$ly 9 ?is po9t to ! judgm5t ( ecclesia/ical au?ority4 ,/4 ,joseph's ,retreat1 ,highgate1 ,london1 ,n41 ,fea/ ( ! ,epiphany1 #ahff4 xxiv xxv ,,cont5ts4 ,,book ,i4 ,fa!r ,ignatius1 a ,"y ,noble4 ,,*apt] ,i4 ,8 ,*ildhood--,page #a ,,*apt] ,,ii4 ,f\r ,fir/ ,ye>s ,at ,eton--#f ,,*apt] ,,iii4 ,8 ,two ,la/ ,ye>s ,at ,eton--#ab ,,*apt] ,,iv4 ,private ,tuition ,"u ,mr4 ,blomfield--#ah ,,*apt] ,v4 ,he ,goes ,to ,cambridge--#bb ,,*apt] ,,vi4 ,8 ,fir/ ,ye> ,9 ,cambridge--#bh ,,*apt] ,,vii4 ,conclusion ,( ,8 ,fir/ ,ye> ,9 ,cambridge--#db ,,*apt] ,,viii4 ,second ,ye> ,9 ,cambridge ,takes ,8 ,degree--#dh xxvi ,,*apt] ,,ix4 ,travels ,on ,! ,cont95t--#eg ,,*apt] ,x4 ,engli% ,life ,9 ,naples--#fe ,,*apt] ,,xi4 ,cont9uation ,( ,8 ,travels--#gd ,,*apt] ,,xii4 ,an ,int]val ,( ,re/ ,& ,prep>ation ,= ,ord]s--#ia ,,book ,,ii4 ,fa!r ,ignatius1 an ,anglican ,m9i/]4 ,,*apt] ,i4 ,he ,is ,orda9$1 ,& ,ent]s ,on ,8 ,cl]ical ,duties--#ajc ,,*apt] ,,ii4 ,he ,m5ds ,"s ,( ,8 ,ways--#aaj ,,*apt] ,,iii4 ,he ,receives ,fur!r ,ord]s--#aag ,,*apt] ,,iv4 ,mr4 ,sp5c] ,becomes ,rector ,( ,br+ton--#abb ,,*apt] ,v4 ,*anges ,9 ,8 ,religi\s ,op9ions--#abg ,,*apt] ,,vi4 ,opposition ,to ,8 ,religi\s ,views--#acd xxvii ,,*apt] ,,vii4 ,progress ,( ,8 ,religi\s ,views--#adb ,,*apt] ,,viii4 ,"s ,( ,! ,practical ,effects ,( ,8 ,views--#adh ,,*apt] ,,ix4 ,scruples ,ab\t ,! ,a?anasian ,cre$--#aee ,,*apt] ,x4 ,incid5ts ,& ,/ate ,( ,m9d ,9 #ahbg-bh--aff ,,*apt] ,,xi4 ,! ,maid ,( ,lille--#agd ,,*apt] ,,xii4 ,ambrose ,lisle ,phillipps--#ahf ,,book ,,iii4 ,fa!r ,ignatius1 a ,secul> ,prie/4 ,,*apt] ,i4 ,8 ,fir/ ,days ,9 ,! ,*ur*--#aii ,,*apt] ,,ii4 ,mr4 ,sp5c] ,9 ,! ,engli% ,college1 ,rome--#bjf ,,*apt] ,,iii4 ,fa!r ,sp5c] ,is ,orda9$ ,prie/--#bab ,,*apt] ,,iv4 ,fa!r ,sp5c] ,beg9s ,8 ,mission>y ,life--#bbj xxviii ,,*apt] ,v4 ,prospects ,( ,wid5+ ,8 ,sph]e ,( ,action--#bbf ,,*apt] ,,vi4 ,newspap] ,discussions1 ,etc4--#bcb ,,*apt] ,,vii4 ,private ,life ,& ,crosses ,( ,fa!r ,sp5c]--#bdj ,,*apt] ,,viii4 ,association ,( ,pray]s ,= ,! ,conv]sion ,( ,engl&--#bdh ,,*apt] ,,ix4 ,8 ,la/ ,days ,9 ,we/ ,bromwi*--#beh ,,*apt] ,x4 ,fa!r ,sp5c] ,comes ,to ,oscott--#bfd ,,*apt] ,,xi4 ,"s ,( ,8 ,do+s ,9 ,oscott ,college--#bgj ,,*apt] ,,xii4 ,"s ,ev5ts ,( ,int]e/--#bge ,,*apt] ,,xiii4 ,8 ,t\r ,on ,! ,cont95t ,9 #ahdd--bhj ,,*apt] ,,xiv4 ,close ,( ,8 ,c>e] ,9 ,oscott2 ,& ,8 ,religi\s ,vocation--#cdc xxix ,,book ,,iv4 ,fa!r ,ignatius1 a ,passioni/ ,,*apt] ,i4 ,! ,noviciate--#cea ,,*apt] ,,ii4 ,8 ,fir/ ,ye> ,z ,a ,passioni/--#cfa ,,*apt] ,,iii4 ,a ,peculi> ,mission--#cfh ,,*apt] ,,iv4 ,dea? ,( ,fa!r ,dom9ic--#cgd ,,*apt] ,v4 ,_s ,( ,fa!r ,ignatius ,at ,?is ,"t--#chj ,,*apt] ,,vi4 ,8 ,deal+s ,) ,prote/ants ,& ,pray]s ,= ,union--#chg ,,*apt] ,,vii4 ,fa!r ,ignatius ,9 #ahej--cic ,,*apt] ,,viii4 ,a ,new ,=m ,( ,! ,crusade--#djj ,,*apt] ,,ix4 ,visit ,to ,rome ,& ,! ,association ,( ,pray]s--#dac ,,*apt] ,x4 ,a ,t\r ,9 ,g]many--#dbh xxx ,,*apt] ,,xi4 ,fa!r ,ignatius ,returns ,to ,engl&--#dcf ,,*apt] ,,xii4 ,a ,little ,( ,8 ,home ,& ,=eign ,"w--#ddc ,,*apt] ,,xiii4 ,sanctification ,( ,irel&--#ddi ,,*apt] ,,xiv4 ,ano!r ,t\r ,on ,! ,cont95t--#dec ,,*apt] ,,xv4 ,fa!r ,ignatius ,9 #aheg--deh ,,*apt] ,,xvi4 ,8 ,little ,missions--#dfd ,,*apt] ,,xvii4 ,fa!r ,ignatius ,at ,home--#dfi ,,*apt] ,,xviii4 ,a ,few ,ev5ts--#dgg ,,*apt] ,,xix4 ,trials ,& ,crosses--#dhc ,,*apt] ,,xx4 ,=e%ad[+s ,& ,dea?--#die ,,*apt] ,,xxi4 ,! ,obsequies ,( ,fa!r ,ignatius--#ejd xxxi ,,book ,i4 ,f4 ,ignatius1 a ,"y ,noble4 xxxii #a ,image ( ,cross ,i ,x ,p ,,life ,,( ,,fa!r ,,ignatius ,,( ,,/4 ,,paul1 ,,passioni/4 ,,book ,i4 ,f4 ,ignatius1 a ,"y ,noble4 ,,*apt] ,i4 ,8 ,*ildhood4 ,sa9t ,paul gives ! g5]al hi/ory ( *ildhood 9 "o s5t5ce3 ,:5 ,i 0 a *ild1 ,i spoke z a *ild1 ,i und]/ood z a *ild1 ,i ?\ght z a *ild4 ,! ?\ghts & ways ( *ildr5 are wond]fully simil>2 ! m9d is n suffici5tly develop$ to give direction to "*1 & ! peculi> incid5ts t are sometimes record$ to prove ! *ild ! fa!r ( ! man1 seem m ! result ( *ance ?an delib]ation4 ,) all ?is1 we l to bask our memory 9 ^? sunny days3 we love to look at our cradles1 at :]e we made & spoil$ our little ca/les1 & we recall ! smalle/ incid5ts to m9d1 z if to try & fancy we c\ld be *ildr5 aga94 ,?is natural s5tim5t makes u anxi\s to "k all ab\t ! infancy & *ildhood ( ^? ^: life has an int]e/ = u2 #b al?\gh kn[+ t !re c be no?+ v /range ab\t x2 & ev51 if !re be1 t x _c h mu* weight 9 m\ld+ ! "* ( our h]o1 & less /ill 9 influ5c+ our own4 ,! *ildhood ( ,fa!r ,ignatius =ms an exception to ?is4 ,x is wond]ful2 x %ap$ 8 "* = a great "p ( 8 life4 ,its hi/ory is writt5 by himself1 & x is in/ructive to all :o h *>ge ( *ildr54 ,be=e quot+ f 8 own autobiography1 x may be well to say some?+ ab\t 8 family2 m1 because x is cu/om>y to d s on occasions l ! pres5t1 ?an to give in=mation ab\t :at is already well kn[n4 ,8 fa!r 0 ,george ,john1 ,e>l ,sp5c]1 ,k4,g41 c41 c4 ,he 0 connect$ by ties ( consangu9ity & aff9ity ) ! ,e>l ( ,sund]l& & ! r5[n$ ,duke ( ,m>lbor\gh2 0 successively memb] ( ,p>liam5t1 "o ( ! ,lords ( ! ,treasury1 & succe$$ ,"l ,*a?am z ,fir/ ,"l ( ! ,admiralty on ! #bj? ( ,decemb]1 #agid4 ,?is (fice he reta9$ until #ahjj1 &1 dur+ 8 adm9i/ration1 ! naval hi/ory ( ,engl& %one ) ! victories ( ,/4 ,v9c5t1 ,camp]d[n1 & ! ,nile4 ,p]haps 8 t]m ( (fice 0 m glori\s to himself f ! mod]ation & ju/ice ) :i* he quell$ ! mut9y at ! ,nore1 ?an f ! fact ( 8 hav+ publi%$ ! victories t gave su* glory to 8 c\ntry4 ,he m>ri$1 9 #agha1 ,lav9ia1 ! daught] ( ,sir ,*>les ,b+ham1 aft]w>ds ,e>l ( ,lucan4 ,five sons & ?ree daught]s 7 ! issue ( ?is m>riage4 ,two ( !m di$ 9 infancy4 ,! olde/1 ,john ,*>les1 ,"l ,al?orp1 succe$$ 8 fa!r 9 #ahcd1 & di$ *ildless 9 #ahde2 ! second1 ,s>ah1 is ! pres5t ,d[ag] ,lady ,lyttelton2 ! fif?1 ,rob]t ,cav5di%1 di$ unm>ri$ 9 #ahcj2 ! six?1 ,georgiana1 0 m>ri$ to ,"l ,george ,qu91 son to ! ,m>quis ( ,head=t1 & di$ 9 #ahbc2 ! sev5?1 ,fr$]ick1 fa!r ( ! pres5t e>l1 succe$$ 8 elde/ bro!r 9 #ahde4 ,! y\nge/1 ! ,hon\rable ,george ,sp5c]1 is ! subject ( ! pres5t biography4 ,he 0 born on ! #ba/ ( ,decemb]1 #agii1 at ! ,admiralty 9 ,london1 & baptiz$ accord+ to ! rite ( #c ! ,*ur* ( ,engl&1 by ! ,rev4 ,*>les ,norris1 preb5d>y ( ,cant]bury4 ,:e!r he 0 tak5 to ,al?orp1 ! family seat 9 ,nor?ampton%ire1 to be nurs$1 be=e 8 fa!r retir$ f (fice 9 #ahjj1 we h no means ( kn[+2 b1 c]ta9 x is1 t x 0 !re he sp5t 8 *ildhood until he w5t to ,eton 9 #ahjh4 ,we w let himself give u ! hi/ory ( 8 m9d dur+ ?is portion ( 8 exi/5ce3 ! hi/ory ( 8 body is t ( a nobleman's *ild1 t5d$ 9 all ?+s z became 8 /ation3-- ,my recollections ( ! five or six fir/ ye>s ( my life are v vague1--m s by f> ?an 9 ! case ( o!r p]sons2 & :e!r ,i _h any notions ( religion be=e my six-ye>-old bir?day1 ,i _c tell4 ,b x 0 on t day1 if ,i am n mi/ak51 t ,i 0 tak5 aside1 z = a s]i\s conv]sation1 by my si/]'s gov]ness1 :o 0 a ,swiss lady1 "u ^: c>e ,i pass$ ! ye>s betwe5 leav+ ! nurs]y & be+ s5t to s*ool1 & in/ruct$ by h]1 = ! fir/ "t1 conc]n+ ! exi/5ce ( ,god & "s o!r great tru?s ( religion4 ,x seems /range n[ t ,i %\ld h liv$ s long )\t acquir+ any ideas on ! subject3 my memory may deceive me1 b ,i h a mo/ cle> recollection ( ! v room at ,al?orp :]e ,i sat ) h] :ile %e decl>$ to me1 z a new piece ( in/ruction1 = :i* till !n ,i _h n be5 judg$ old en\gh1 t !re 0 an ,almighty ,be+1 dwell+ 9 heav51 :o _h creat$ me & all ?+s1 & :om ,i 0 b\nd to fe>4 ,till !n1 ,i believe1 ,i _h n ! lea/ appreh5sion ( ! exi/5ce ( any?+ beyond ! s5sible _w ar\nd me4 ,?is decl>ation1 made to me z x 0 ) t5d] s]i\sness1 01 ,i believe1 accompani$ ) graci\s expressions1 :i* h nev] be51 9 all my errors & w&]+s1 oblit]at$4 ,to :at b ! grace ( ,god c ,i ascribe x1 t ,i firmly believ$ f ! fir/ mom5t ?is tru?1 ( :i* ,i 0 n capable ( und]/&+ a pro(1 & t ,i nev] s9ce h ent]ta9$ a d\bt ( x1 nor be5 l$1 l s _m m1 to univ]sal scepticism2 t my fai? 9 ! tru? ( ,god %\ld h be5 pres]v$ :ile = s long a "t ,i liv$1 z ,i aft]w>ds did1 :olly )\t its influ5ce8 #d ,i cont9u$1 ) my bro!r ,fr$]ick1 :o 0 tw5ty mon?s old] ?an myself1 "u ! in/ruction ( ?is same gov]ness1 till we w5t to ,eton ,s*ool4 ,i d n rememb] ! lea/ difficulty 9 receiv+ z true :atev] ,i 0 taught ( religion at t "t4 ,x nev] occurr$ to me to ?9k t objections might be made to x1 ?\gh ,i knew t diff]5t religi\s p]suasions exi/$4 ,i rememb] be+ told by our gov]ness1 & be+ pleas$ 9 ! idea1 t ! ,*ur* ( ,engl& 0 peculi>ly excell5t2 b ,i rememb] no di/9ct feel+s ( opposition or av]sion to ! ,ca?olic religion4 ,( s]i\s impressions ,i 0 at t "t1 ,i believe1 v susceptible2 b !y mu/ h be5 mo/ transi5t4 ,i rememb]1 m ?an once1 di/9ctly say+ my pray]s ) f]v\r2 ?\gh1 g5]ally1 ,i suppose1 ,i paid b little att5tion to !m4 ,i 0 sometimes impress$ ) great fe> ( ! ,day ( ,judgm5t1 z ,i rememb] once 9 p>ticul>1 at he>+ a ,fr5* s]mon read ab\t x2 &1 p]haps1 ,i did n kn[+ly (f5d ,god1 b ,i c\ld n be said to love ,god1 nor he>tily to embrace religion1 if1 z ,i suppose1 my ord9>y feel+ mu/ h correspond$ ) :at ,i rememb] well cross+ my m9d :5 ,i 0 ab\t sev5 ye>s old1--great regret at reflect+ on ! s9 ( ,adam2 by :i* ,i und]/ood t ,i c\ld n expect to live = ev] on ! e>?4 ,:atev] ,i ?\ght desirable 9 ! _w1--abundance ( money1 high titles1 amusem5ts ( all sorts1 f9e dress1 & ! l1--z soon & z f> z ,i und]/ood any?+ ab\t !m1 ,i lov$ & long$ =2 nor d ,i see h[ x c\ld h be5 o!rwise1 z ! holy1 sev]e maxims ( ! ,gospel tru? on ^! matt]s 7 n impress$ ^u me4 ,:y is x t ! tru? on ^! ?+s is s con/antly )held f *ildr52 &1 in/ead ( be+ taught by con/ant1 repeat$1 unremitt+ lessons t ! _w & all t x has is wor? no?+2 t1 if !y ga9 all1 b lose _! s\ls1 !y ga9 no?+2 if !y lose all & ga9 _! s\ls1 !y ga9 all8 ,:y is x t !y are to be enc\rag$ to d "r by promises ( pleasure1 det]r$ f evil by worldly fe>1 & s tra9$ up1 z x seems1 to put a false value on all ?+s8 ,h[ #e easily1 z x n[ appe>s to me1 might my affections 9 ^? days h be5 wean$ f ! _w1 & made to value ,god alone8 ,b let me n compla91 b bless ,god = ! c>e1--! v unusual c>e1 ,i believe1--:i* 0 tak5 ( me1 by :i* ,i rema9$1 ,i may say1 ignorant ( :at evil 0 at an age :5 _m1 ,i fe>1 become pr(ici5ts4 ,?is bless+1 h[ev]1 ( be+ wond]fully pres]v$ f ! k1 & consequ5tly f ! practice1 ( vice1 0 m rem>kably manife/$ 9 ! f\r ye>s ( my life succe$+ ^? ( :i* ,i h be5 n[ writ+4 ,! in/ill+ into "y m9ds religi\s motives = _! actions 0 a frequ5t topic ( conv]sation ) ,fa!r ,ignatius 9 8 aft]-life4 ,he 0 once speak+ ) "s ( our "y religi\s on ?is subject 9 g5]al2 "o ( !m rem>k$ h[ easy x 0 to act ^u holy motives practically1 & in/anc$ 8 own *ildhood1 :5 ! ?\ght t ,god w\ld love or hate him kept him /raight 9 8 actions3 ?is 0 ! simple & p]petually repeat$ lesson ( 8 "m1 :i* he aft]w>ds =got1 b :i* f9ally /opp$ him 9 a c>e] ( ambition1 & made him a religi\s4 ,! old man's eye gli/5$ z he he>d ?is1 & he sigh$ deeply4 ,he !n obs]v$ t x confirm$ 8 op9ion1 t p>5ts ought to in/ruct _! own *ildr51 & nev] commit !m to ! m]cies ( a public s*ool until !y 7 p]fectly gr\nd$ 9 ! practice ( virtue & piety4 ,! next *apt] w %[ :y he ?\ght ?us4 #f ,,*apt] ,,ii4 ,f\r ,fir/ ,ye>s ,at ,eton4 ,! #ah? ( ,may1 #ahjh1 0 ! important day :5 fir/ ,i left my fa!r's h\se4 ,) a noble equipage1 my fa!r & "m took my bro!r ,fr$]ick & me to ! h\se ( ! ,rev4 ,ri*>d ,godley1 :om !y _h *os5 to be our private tutor at ,eton4 ,he liv$1 ) 8 family1 at a place call$ ! ,:>f1 ab\t half a mile f ! college build+s1 :i* we _h to g to = s*ool & *apel across ! play+-fields4 ,oh6 h[ int]e/+ are my recollections :il/ ,i recall ! joys & sorr[s ( ,eton days2 b ,i mu/ n expatiate on !m1 z my own feel+s w\ld lead me to d ) pleasure4 ,:at ,i h to d n[ is to record h[ ! circum/ances 9 :i* ,i 0 !n plac$ h contribut$ to influ5ce my religions pr9ciples1 & =m$ "s l9ks 9 ! *a9 ( ev5ts by :i* ,i h arriv$ at my pres5t /ate1 s diff]5t f all t might !n h be5 anticipat$4 ,mr4 ,godley ,i consid] to h be51 :at ,i believe my p>5ts likewise reg>d$ him1 a /rictly consci5ti\s & deeply religi\s man2 & ,i mu/ always acc\nt x "o ( ! greate/ bless+s = :i*1 "u ,god1 ,i am indebt$ to _! wisdom & affection1 t ,i 0 plac$ 9 su* h&s at s critical a "t4 ,i d n int5d1 9 all po9ts1 to decl>e my approbation ( ! sy/em :i* he pursu$ ) u3 b h[ c ,i be too grateful = hav+ be5 "u ! /rict vigilance ( "o :o did1 ,i am conv9c$1 reckon ! pres]vation ( my innoc5ce1 & ! salvation ( my s\l1 8 *ief conc]n ) me8 ,i rema9$ ) ,mr4 ,godley till ! ,midsumm] holidays ( #ahab4 ,my bro!r left ,eton & w5t to sea 9 ! ye> #ahaa4 #g ,^? :o "k :at our public s*ools are1 w reckon x1 ,i believe1 almo/ incr$ible t ,i %\ld be f\r ye>s at ,eton1 & rema91 z ,i did1 /ill almo/ ignorant ( :at ! language ( wick$ness meant4 ,mr4 ,godley's yoke ,i c]ta9ly ?\ght at ! "t to be a heavy "o4 ,sev]al times ea* day we 7 oblig$ to g across ! play+-fields to s*ool1 to *apel1 or to abs5ce 7:i* 0 ! t]m by :i* ,etonians w yet und]/& ! call+ ov] ! names ( ! boys at c]ta9 times72 s t dur+ ! daytime1 :5 9 heal?1 we c\ld nev] be m ?an ?ree h\rs toge!r )\t appe>+ ) ! boys ( ! s*ool4 ,mr4 ,godley1 h[ev]1 0 inexorable 9 8 rule t we %\ld inv>iably come home imm$iately aft] ea* ( ^! occasions3 by ?is we 7 kept f mu* int]c\rse ) o!r boys4 ,mo/ griev\s !n appe>$ my unhappy lot1 9 ! summ] mon?s especially1 :5 we _h to pass ?r\gh ! play+-fields1 cr[d$ ) cricket]s1 to :om a l[] boy1 to fag = !m & /op _! balls1 0 sure to be an important prize1 ^: wra? we incurr$ if we d>$ despise _! call1 & run on our way2 :il/1 if we 7 b a few m9utes late1 ! yet m t]rible sight await$ u ( ,mr4 ,godley's angry c\nt5ance4 ,we _h n exemption f "o ( ^! mu/]s1 z mo/ boys _h :o liv$ at a di/ance f ! s*ool1 yet none ( !m 7 b\nd l u to a spe$y return home4 ,x seem$ l an ,egyptian bondage1 f :i* !re 0 no escape2 & d\btless ! effect 0 n altoge!r good ^u my "*4 ,z might be expect$1 ! m we 7 requir$ to obs]ve rules & cu/oms diff]5t f o!rs1 ! m did a c]ta9 class ( big bullies 9 ! s*ool seem to c\nt x _! bus9ess to wat* ov] u1 z ?\gh !y might be our evil g5iuses4 ,a c]ta9 set ( faces1 consequ5tly1 ,i look$ ^u ) a k9d ( my/]i\s dread2 & ,i 0 "u a con/ant s5se ( be+ z ?\gh 9 an enemy's c\ntry1 oblig$ to gu>d aga9/ dang]s on all sides4 ,%r9k+ & skulk+ became my occupation beyond ! ord9>y lot ( little s*oolboys1 & my natural disposition to be c[>dly & spiritless 0 p]haps increas$4 ,i say p]haps1 = o!r #h circum/ances might h made me worse2 = :at ,i 0 9 ! eyes ( ! ma/]s ( public op9ion 9 ! s*ool1 ,i really 0--a *ick5-he>t$ creature1 :at1 9 ,eton language1 is call$ a sawney4 ,x may be1 t _h ,i be5 f ! fir/ 9 free int]c\rse among ! boys1 in/ead ( be+ a good innoc5t "o1 ,i might h be51 :at ,i suppose mu/ be reckon$ "o ( ! wor/ v>ieties ( public-s*ool *>act]s1 a mean1 di%on\rable "o4 ,:atev] ,i may h lo/ f n be+ tra9$1 f ! fir/ ( my ,eton life1 9 ! p]fect _s ( ! place1 c\ld ,i possibly h escap$ dur+ t "t 9 any o!r way ! utt] corruption ( my morals1 at lea/ ! fill+ ( my m9d ) famili> images ( all ! mo/ f\l iniquity8 ,=1 alas6 :]e is ! *ild f ! age ( eight till twelve :o1 )\t "o compassionate fri5d1 already /rong 9 virtue to c\nt5ance & to enc\rage him1 %all ma9ta9 ! pr(ession ( mode/y & hol9ess aga9/ a p]secution z invet]ate & m]ciless 9 its way z t :i* ,lot _h to be> at ,sodom8 ,0 n ! angel ( ,god ) me :5 ,he pres]v$ me = s long f all attacks ( ?is k9d 9 su* a place z ,eton 0 9 my "t8 ,h[ c ,i rememb] ,godley b ) v5]ation & gratitude1 :o1 ?\gh1 x may be1 n s consid]ately & wisely z might be possible 7= :o is z wise z he might be871 kept me1 ,i might say1 almo/ alone unta9t$ 9 ! mid/ ( s mu* corruption4 ,yet1 till ! la/ ye> ( my /ay ) him1 ,i did n le>n decid$ly to love religion4 ,x 0 /ill my task & n my pleasure4 ,at l5g?1 my bro!r ,fr$]ick be+ gone to sea1 & two o!r boys1 ,mr4 ,godley's /epsons1 :o 7 ) u "u 8 in/ructions1 be+ s5t to s*ool else:]e1 ,i rema9$ 8 only pupil1 &1 ,i may almo/ say1 8 *ief c>e & joy4 ,he felt ) me & = me 9 ! desolation ( my little he>t1 at be+ p>t$ f my fir/ & hi!rto insep>able mate1 & ,i became 8 almo/ con/ant companion4 ,x is n difficult to ga9 ! confid5ce ( a simple *ild3 he spoke almo/ cont9ually ( religi\s subjects1 & ,i le>nt to take 8 view ( ?+s4 ,i c]ta9ly did n beg9 to lose my pleasure 9 life4 ,dea? #i 0 an idea :i* /ill 0 /range to me2 & ,i did n come to an und]/&+ ( ! great doctr9es ( ,revelation4 ,i rememb] n to h tak5 mu* notice ( any peculi> articles ( fai?2 b /ill believ$ implicitly1 )\t argum5t or inquiry1 :at ,i 0 taught4 ,i c n[ h>dly give an acc\nt ( :at 7 ! religi\s ideas & impressions :i* began s greatly to engage my m9d1 except t ,i took my *ief delight 9 he>+ ,mr4 ,godley speak ab\t religion1 t ,i _h a great abhorr5ce & dread ( wick$ness1 ?\ght ) pleasure ( my be+ int5d$ to be a cl]gyman1 z ,i 0 always told ,i %\ld be1 & admir$ & lov$ all :om ,i 0 taught to look ^u z religi\s p4 ,all ^! simple feel+s ( piety1 :i* 7 (t5 accompani$ ) pure delight1 7 greatly increas$ 9 a visit ( six weeks :i* ,i paid1 ) ,mr4 ,godley1 to 8 "m & si/]s at ,*e/]4 ,he 0 a ,preb5d>y ( t ca!dral1 & ( c\rse _h to sp5d "s "t !re e ye> 9 resid5ce4 ,usually1 :5 he w5t f home1 f "t to "t1 he 0 us$ to get "o ( ! o!r tutors at ,eton to he> my bro!r's & my lessons1 & to look ov] our ex]cises2 b 9 ! la/ summ] ,i /aid ) him1 ) my fa!r's cons5t1 he took me ) him4 ,mr4 ,godley's si/]s1 :o %[$ me great k9dness1 l him1 ,i suppose1 _h no wi% conc]n+ me ?an to enc\rage me 9 becom+ pi\s & good1 & ,i got to read a few pi\s books :i* !y recomm5d$4 ',! ,pilgrim's ,progress1' ,doddridge's ',life ( ,colonel ,g>d9]1' ,alle9e's ',al>m1' 7 "s :i* ,i rememb] tak+ great effect ^u me2 s t :5 ,i return$ f ,*e/] to ,eton1 ?\gh ,i _c recall _m p>ticul>s ( my feel+s1 ,i "k t ! *ief prevail+ "o 01 an ard5t desire to keep myself unta9t$ at ,eton1 & to keep f all fell[%ip ) ! set ( boys :om ,i knew to be p>ticul>ly pr(ane mock]s ( piety4 ,i b\ght a book ( pray]s1 & dur+ ! ?ree weeks t ,i yet rema9$ ) ?is tutor1 aft] our return f ,*e/]1 & :5 fir/ ,i w5t home to ! summ] holidays1 ,i took no delight l t ( be+ by myself at pray]4 ,ah6 h[ griev\s w\ld be ! ?\ght if we c\ld b und]/& h[ to #aj lam5t su* a calamity z x des]ves1 ( a pi\s *ild's t5d]1 pure s\l d5i$1 made =getful ( all its good1 & h>d5$4 ,o ,god1 grant me wisdom to und]/& ! magnitude ( su* an evil1 grant me a he>t n[ at l5g? to m\rn ov] ! deva/ation & uproot+ :i* x 01 at ?is "t1 ,?y holy w to p]mit1 ( all ^? fair fl[]s ( grace :i* ,?y h& _h plant$ 9 my he>t2 & grant me to m\rn my fall1 t ,i may n[ once at la/ recov] t simplicity ( *ildlike piety1 ! feel+s ( :i* ,i n[ recollect1 inde$1 ?\gh fa9tly1 b nev] h s9ce aga9 enjoy$4 ,oh6 ,god1 if a *ild's love1 pure ?r\gh ignorance ( s91 is nev] to be m9e aga91 oh6 give me at lea/ t dep? ( p5ance = :i* my fall has giv5 me su* ample matt]4 ,x occurr$ n to my m9d to consid] :e!r ! new ?\ghts :i* occupi$ my m9d1 & ! books 9 :i* ,i took su* pleasure1 w\ld be approv$ ( at home4 ,i took !m ) me to ! holidays4 ,x 0 judg$1 z 0 to be expect$1 by my p>5ts1 t ,mr4 ,godley's views ( religion 7 n su* z !y w\ld wi% to be in/ill$ into me2 & x 0 det]m9$ t ,i %\ld leave 8 h\se & be plac$ ) "o ( ! public tutors at ,eton4 ,x is a difficult ?+ to classify religi\s ,prote/ants1 & s ,i d n "h pron\nce ,mr4 ,godley & 8 si/]s to h be5 ,evangelical1 or ,calv9i/ic1 nor give !m any di/9ctive title4 ,!y did n1 z f> z ,i rememb]1 inculcate ^u me any peculi> notions ( religion1 b !y c]ta9ly 7 n 9 ! way :i* is usually call$ or?odox ,*ur* ( ,engl& religion1 ?\gh inde$ x is difficult to def9e exactly :at ?is is4 ,x 0 likely1 or r morally c]ta91 t :ile ) ,mr4 ,godley1 ,i %\ld foll[ 8 guidance1 & take 8 views2 s ,i 0 to be plac$ among ! o!r boys1 z ,i imag9e ) ! idea likewise1 t ,i %\ld ga9 9 ?is way m ( ! advantages suppos$ to belong to ! r\gh discipl9e ( a public s*ool4 ,i d n und]/& h[ x 0 t ,i receiv$ ! intimation ( ?is *ange ) s little sadness4 ,di/ant evils1 z we all "k1 lose _! /+ /rangely2 &1 hav+ ! holidays be=e me :5 ?is *ange 0 decl>$1 ,i #aa felt no tr\ble ab\t x !n4 ,x is easy to talk a docile *ild into agreem5t ) any plan made = him by ^? :om he is us$ to confide 92 & s ,i rememb] no difficulty :5 my books 7 tak5 away1 & ,i _h no m p]sons by to br+ my =m] ?\ghts to remembrance1 9 quietly discont9u+ my f]v5t practices4 #ab ,,*apt] ,,iii4 ,8 ,two ,la/ ,ye>s ,at ,eton4 ,9 ! c\rse ( ,septemb]1 #ahab1 ,i began a new /age ( my life by ent]+ at ! ,rev4 999999's1 :]e ,i 01 alas6 too effectually to be untaught :at !re might be uns\nd 9 my religion1 by be+ quickly /ripp$ ( x completely4 ,! h\se conta9$1 ,i ?9k1 b ab\t t5 or twelve boys at ! "t ,i w5t to x1 a mu* small] numb] ?an ! g5]ality ( bo>d+ h\ses ab\t ! s*ool2 &1 dreadful z 0 its moral condition1 x 0 respectable 9 comp>ison to o!rs4 ,!re is no d\bt t x 0 recomm5d$ to my p>5ts because its "* /ood high among ! re/4 ,! boys 7 divid$ into ?ree or f\r messes1 z !y 7 call$4 ,ea* ( u _h a room to himself & a sep>ate little e/abli%m5t1 z ! boys _h all[ances to provide breakfa/ & tea = !mselves1 & we did n meet 9 common rooms = private /udy1 z 9 "s s*ools4 ,9 ord] to make _! means g f>!r1 two or ?ree w\ld associate toge!r & make a jo9t conc]n2 & v com=table "s w\ld make !mselves4 ,b com=t 0 n :at ,i _h n[ to enjoy4 ,i h adv]t$ already to ! sy/em ( fagg+ at our public s*ools4 ,! law is e/abli%$ immemorially at ,eton t ! upp] boys1 ^? ( ! fif? & six? class1 h an au?ority to comm& ^? bel[ !m4 ,?is law1 ?\gh und]/ood & all[$ by ! ma/]s1 is n en=c$ by !m4 ,!y w int]f]e to *eck & puni% any great abuse ( ! p[] ( ! upp] boys2 b ! only p[] by :i* ! comm&s ( ^! ma/]s are to be en=c$ is _! own h&s2 s t a boy1 ?\gh by rank 9 ! s*ool a fag1 may escape ! burd5s to be impos$ if he h b age & /r5g? & _s to #ac ma9ta9 8 indep5d5ce4 ,ea* upp] boy may impose 8 comm&s on any numb] ( inf]iors he may please at any "t & 9 any place1 s t an unhappy l[] boy is nev] safe4 ,no?+ exempts him f ! necessity ( imm$iately quitt+ 8 own pursuits & wait+ on ! pleasure ( an unexpect$ ma/]1 b be+ "u ord]s to att5d 8 tutor1 or a c]ta9 numb] ( privileg$ excuses 9 matt]s ab\t :i* ^? pot5tates condesc5d to consid] ! feel+s ( ! subalt]ns1 & :]e public op9ion w\ld condemn !m if !y did n--su* z be+ actually fagg+ = "s "o else1 be+ engag$ to play a mat* at cricket :i* 8 abs5ce w\ld spoil4 ,x 0 ?is sort ( out-(-door casual s]vice :i* alone ,i _h to dread z long z ,i 0 9 ,mr4 ,godley's h\se4 ,:5 ,i w5t to ,mr4 9999991 ,i _h to s]ve my appr5tice%ip 9 dome/ic fagg+1 :i* consi/$ 9 p]=m+ to "o or m ( ! fif? or six? =m boys 9 ! h\se almo/ all ! duties ( a footman or a wait] at an inn4 ,! burd5 ( ?is k9d ( s]vitude ( c\rse dep5d$1 9 ! fir/ place1 on ! temp] ( "o's ma/]1 & !n on ! comp>ative numb] ( upp] & l[] boys 9 a h\se4 ,dur+ ! "t ,i _h to fag at ,mr4 999999's1 b especially 9 ! latt] "p ( x1 ! numb] ( fags 0 dismally small1 & sometimes heavy 0 my yoke4 ,b x is n ?is :i* gives to my recollection ( t p]iod ( my life its peculi> sadness4 ,i might h made a m]ry life 9 ! mid/ ( x1 l t ( _m ano!r s*ool-boy1 & ,i 0 m]ry sometimes1 b ,i _h kn[n bett] ?+s4 ,i _h once le>nt to hate wick$ness1 & ,i nev] c\ld f9d myself at ease 9 ! mid/ ( x1 ?\gh ,i _h n /r5g? to resi/ x op5ly4 ,! fir/ ev5+ t ,i arriv$ at ?is new tutor's h\se1 ,i 0 cordially receiv$ to mess ) ! set ( ?ree or f\r l[] boys :o 7 !re4 ,^! 7 quiet1 good-natur$ boys2 b1 to be "o ) !m1 x 0 soon evid5t t ! sweet practices ( devotion mu/ be giv5 up1 & o!r rules foll[$ f ^? ,i knew to be "r4 ,i 0 tak5 by !m on exp$itions ( boyi% depr$ation & pilf]+4 ,i _h nev] be5 tempt$ or invit$ be=e to any?+ l ?is1 & #ad x 0 mis]y to me1 on acc\nt ( my natural want ( c\rage z well z my t5d] consci5ce1 to jo9 su* ent]prises4 ,yet ,i d>$ n boldly decl>e my resolution to commit no s91 & ,i made a trial n[ ( t :i* has be5 s (t5 tri$1 & :at has (t5 l$ to fatal confusion--to satisfy ! _w )\t altoge!r break+ ) ,god4 ,"o day we w5t to pick up walnuts 9 a p>k ne> ,eton2 ano!r day to /eal beans or turnips1 or ! l1 f fields or g>d5s2 !n1 m bold1 to take ducks & *ick5s f f>my>ds4 ,x is a common idea t ?is k9d ( s*ool-boys' !ft is n inde$ a s94 ,at ,eton x c]ta9ly 0 n s consid]$4 ,a boy :o /ole money f ano!r boy 0 disgrac$1 & br&$ z a wret* almo/ beyond =giv5ess1 :]eas = /eal+ 8 s*ool-books1 he w\ld n be blam$2 & = robb+ or*>ds or f>my>ds he w\ld be hon\r$ & extoll$1 & s mu* ! m if1 9 do+ x1 "o or two or ?ree toge!r _h viol5tly beat5 ! f>m]'s boy1 or ev5 himself4 ,b :]e is ! reason = ?is di/9ction8 ,! ,^w ( ,god & a simple consci5ce c]ta9ly tea* no su* diff]5ce4 ,at any rate1 ,i "k1 to my sorr[1 t ! beg9n+ ( my fall f all t 0 good1 0 by be+ l$ to c\nt5ance & be> a "p1 ?\gh sorely aga9/ my bett] w1 9 su* "w z ?is4 ,?is 0 n ! wor/ mis]y4 ,my ignorance 9 ! my/]ies ( iniquity 0 soon app>5t4 ,h[ev] mu* ,i /rove to keep my c\nt5ance firm1 ,i c\ld n he> immode/ies )\t blu%+4 ,i 01 on ?is acc\nt1 a *oice object ( ! fun ( "s ( ! boys1 :o took delight 9 =c+ me to he> in/ructions 9 iniquity4 ,"o ev5+ aft] ano!r1 ,i well rememb]1 ! qu>t]s w\ld be invad$ :]e ,i & my companions 7 e/abli%$2 all our little employm5ts w\ld be int]rupt$1 our rooms fill$ ) dirt1 our b$s1 p]haps1 toss$ ab\t1 & a noisy r[ kept up = h\rs1 ( :i* sometimes "o1 & sometimes ano!r ( our set 0 ! pr9cipal butt4 ,i 0 set up z a *oice object1 ( c\rse1 on acc\nt ( my simplicity & inexp]i5ce 9 _! ways1 s t "s ( ! p>tn]s ( ^! plagues ) me w\ld blame me = be+ s silly #ae z to pret5d ignorance ( :at _! f\l expressions meant2 = !y c\ld n believe x possible t ,i %\ld really be s simple z n to und]/& !m4 ,i ma9ta9$ = "s "t a weak conflict 9 my s\l aga9/ all ?is flood ( evil4 ,= a little "t ,i f\nd "o %ort space ( com=t ?r\gh ! day1 :5 at l5g?1 aft] an ev5+ ?us sp5t1 ,i got to b$1 & 9 secret wept & pray$ myself to sleep2 b ! trial 0 too /rong & too (t5 repeat$4 ,i _h no k9d fri5d to speak to4 ,mr4 ,godley /ill liv$ at ! ,:>f1 & ?\gh he seem$ to ?9k x "r n to press himself ^u me1 he ask$ me to come & d9e :5 ,i pleas$4 ,two or ?ree times ,i w5t to d9e ) him1 & ^! 7 my la/ really happy days1 :5 = an h\r or two ,i c\ld give my m9d lib]ty to feel at ease1 & recollect my =m] feel+s 9 ?is k9dly company4 ,b ,i c\ld n1 ,i d>$ n1 tell him all ,i 0 n[ expos$ to1 & s ,i 0 left to /& my gr\nd alone4 ,_h any "o !n told me t by myself ,i mu/ n hope to resi/ temptation1 & rightly direct$ me h[ to call on ,god = help1 ,i h s9ce ?\ght ,i might h /ood x2 b ,i _h n yet kn[n ! =ce ( temptation1 nor le>nt by exp]i5ce ! p[] ( ,god to support ! weak4 ,my weakness ,i n[ felt by cle> exp]i5ce1 & aft] a %ort conflict1--= ?is battle 0 soon ga9$ by ! great enemy :o 0 s /rong 9 ! field aga9/ me1--,i rememb] well ! conclusion /rik+ my m9d1 t ! "w ( resi/ance 0 useless1 & t ,i mu/ give up4 ,:]e 7 y1 ,o my ,god1 might ,i n[ exclaim1 to leave me ?us alone & unprotect$ on su* a boi/]\s sea8 ,ah6 my ,"l1 ,i h nev] f\nd fault ) ?y div9e appo9tm5ts 9 ?us p]mitt+ me to fall4 ,only ,i say1 z be=e1 give me grace n[ fully to recov] :at ,i lo/2 & ,i w ev] bless !e = all[+ me to h kn[n s mu* evil1 if x be b t ,i may w>n o!rs1 ,x might be1 p]haps1 t5 days aft] my arrival at ,mr4 999999's1 :5 ,i gave up all attempt to pray2 & ,i ?9k ,i did n say "o ^w ( pray] = ! two ye>s & m t ,i aft]w>ds cont9u$ !re4 ,i rememb] #af once be+ by1 :5 "o ( ! mo/ rude & h>d ( my torm5tors 0 dress+ himself1 &1 to my surprise1 turn$ to me1 &1 ) 8 usual civility1 said "s su* ^w z1 ',n[ hold y\r jaw2' & !n1 d[n on 8 knees ne> ! b$1 & 8 face betwe5 8 h&s1 said 8 pray]s4 ,i !n saw = a mom5t to :at ,i _h fall51 :5 ev5 ?is fell[ _h m religion ?an unhappy ,i _h reta9$2 b ,i _h no gra9 ( /r5g? n[ left to rise4 ,"o w\ld ?9k t 9 ! holidays my *ange w\ld h be5 discov]$2 = ,i imag9e t ,i nev] knelt d[n ev5 at home except 9 ! *ur*4 ,b1 alas6 little did my family suspect :at a place 0 ,eton2 or1 at lea/1 if a suspicion comes across p>5ts' m9ds ( :at _! *ildr5 are expos$ to 9 public s*ools1 !y g5]ally p]suade !mselves t ?is mu/ be endur$ = a necess>y good1 :i* is1 to make !m le>n to "k ! _w4 ,:5 ,i _h ceas$ attempt+ to ma9ta9 my pi\s feel+s1 ! be/ consolation ,i _h 0 9 ! company ( a few boys ( a _s cong5ial to :at m9e 0 n[ become4 ,all ! "t t ,i rema9$ at ,eton ,i nev] le>nt to take pleasure 9 ! manly1 active games = :i* x is s fam\s4 ,x is n t ,i 0 )\t "s natural tal5t = su* ?+s4 ,i h s9ce _h my "t ( mo/ ard5t atta*m5t to cricket1 to t5nis1 %oot+1 hunt+1 & all active ex]cises3 b my _s 0 b5t d[n at ,eton2 & among ! boys :o l$ ! way 9 all manly pursuits1 ,i 0 always %y & mis]able1 :i* 0 p>tly a cause & p>tly an effect ( my be+ look$ d[n ^u by !m4 ,my pleasure !re 0 9 be+ ) a few boys1 l myself1 )\t _s = ^! ?+s1 retir$ ap>t f ! sight ( o!rs1 amus+ ourselves ) mak+ arb\rs1 cat*+ little fi%es 9 ! /reams2 & _m 7 ! h\rs ,i wa/$ 9 su* *ildi% ?+s :5 ,i 0 gr[n f> too old = !m4 ,oh6 ! happ9ess ( a ,ca?olic *ild1 ^: inmo/ s\l is kn[n to "o :om ,god has *>g$ ) 8 salvation4 ,suppos+ ,i _h be5 a ,ca?olic *ild 9 su* a situation--if su* a supposition be possible--! pi\s feel+s ) :i* ,god inspir$ me1 w\ld h be5 "u #ag ! guidance ( a t5d] spiritual ,fa!r1 :o w\ld h suppli$ exactly :at ,i ne$$ :5 ab\t to fall "u t s5se ( unassi/$ weakness :i* ,i h describ$4 ,he w\ld h taught me h[ to be innoc5t & firm 9 ! mid/ ( all my trials1 :i* w\ld !n h t5d$ to exalt1 in/ead ( suppress+1 my "*4 ,i w\ld h kept my "* n only cle> 9 ! sight ( ,god1 b hon\rable among my fell[s1 :o soon w\ld h giv5 up _! p]secution :5 !y f\nd me /eadfa/2 & ,i might h br\ght ) me 9 ! pa? ( peace & ju/ice _m :om ,i foll[$ 9 ! d>k ways ( s94 ,b x is 9 va9 to calculate on :at ,i might h be5 _h ,i be5 !n a ,ca?olic4 ,god be prais$1 my losses ,i may yet recov]1 & p]haps ev5 reap advantages f !m4 #ah ,,*apt] ,,iv4 ,private ,tuition ,"u ,mr4 ,blomfield4 ,_h ! public ma/]s ( ! s*ool be5 att5tive to ! advancem5t ( ! s*ol>s 9 le>n+ :ile neglig5t ( _! morals1 & _h ,i be5 mak+ progress 9 my /udies :ile los+ my innoc5ce1 ,i might h cont9u$ long] 9 t place2 = ,i did n fall into gross1 outw>d1 vici\s habits1 & x is possible t no diff]5ce 0 p]ceiv$ 9 my behavi\r at home4 ,b ,i suppose my fa!r saw a wide diff]5ce betwe5 ! c>e :i* ,mr4 ,godley be/[$ on me & t :i* boys 9 ! public tutors' h\ses c\ld receive4 ,i "k n exactly ! reasons t l$ to ! *ange2 b1 9 ! ,*ri/mas holidays at ! end ( ! ye> #ahac1 ,mr4 ,blomfield 0 invit$ to ,al?orp1 & he 0 po9t$ out to me z my int5d$ future tutor4 ,_m ( my read]s w "k at once t he is n[',footnote #a ! ,prote/ant ,bi%op ( ,london4 ,my fa!r _h pres5t$ him some:at be=e ?is p]iod ) ! rectory ( ,dunton1 9 ,buck+ham%ire1 hav+ be5 l$ to d s by ! di/+ui%$ "* :i* he he>d ( him f ,cambridge = he did n p]sonally "k him :5 he (f]$ him ?is piece ( pref]m5t4 ,f ! "t t ,i made 8 acqua9tance1 & receiv$ "s directions f him = private read+ at ,eton dur+ ! rema9+ "t ( my /ay !re1 ,i began to take "s m decid$ int]e/ ?an ,i _h yet done 9 advanc+ myself 9 lit]>y k4 ,?is1 z well z my gr[+ old] & m indep5d5t ( o!r boys1 & fall+ 9 #ai ) m s5sible companions1 gave to my m9d a m satisfactory turn dur+ my la/ ye> at ,eton4 ,!re 0 no return1 ?\gh1 to religion :il/ ,i rema9$ !re1 nor 0 !re likely to be2 & s1 mo/ bless$ 0 ! *ange = me :51 be=e ,*ri/mas #ahad1 ,i left ,mr4 999999's1 &1 aft] rema9+ at home = ab\t ?ree mon?s 9 company ) my bro!r ,fr$]ick1 return$ = ! fir/ "t f sea1 ,i w5t to ,mr4 ,blomfield's 9 ,m>*1 #ahae4 ,i /aid !re till ne> ! "t ( my fir/ go+ to ,cambridge1 :i* 0 9 ! summ] ( #ahag4 ,simplicity & purity ( m9d1 alas6 are n rega9$ ) ! read9ess ) :i* !y are lo/3 ! fall+ into bad company & cons5t+ to x w utt]ly ru9 all innoc5ce4 ,! removal ( occasions may prev5t ! gr[? ( evil habits & ! f>!r increase ( corruption2 b ?is alone w n re/ore t bless$ ignorance ( evil :i* 0 no long] m9e4 ,my resid5ce ) ,blomfield 01 h[ev]1 ! means to me ( great good4 ,"h ,i 0 confirm$ 9 t love = /udy & k ( :i* ,i h already notic$ ! comm5cem5t4 ,he _h himself1 z is well kn[n1 ?\gh /ill "y1 ga9$ a reputation = classical le>n+ among ! s*ol>s ( ,engl& & ! ,cont95t2 & 8 example & conv]sations inspir$ me ) desires = ! l di/9ctions1 to :i* he gave all possible enc\ragem5t4 ,?is ,i reckon to h be5 a consid]able advantage to my religi\s welf>e2 =1 al?\gh ! motive ,i set be=e me 0 m]ely worldly1 & ! subjects :i* ,i /udi$ _h little ( a good & mu* ( a bad t5d5cy1 z mu/ ne$s be ! case ) pagan lit]ature1 yet1 by ga9+ a habit = /udy1 ,i 0 direct$ 9 a l9e widely di/9ct f ! mo/ vici\s ( ! society ?r\gh :i* ,i 0 aft]w>ds to pass2 &1 by be+ a read+ man at ,cambridge1 ,i 0 sav$ f mu* p]v]sion4 ,footnote #a3 ,?is 0 writt5 9 #ahcf4 ,see ,preface4 ,dr4 ,blomfield di$ 9 #aheg4 ,we %all be p>don$ = int]rupt+ ! c\rse ( ?is int]e/+ n>rative1 by ins]t+ an anecdote1 :i* %[s h[ un*ang$ 0 8 op9ion on ! m]its ( pagan lit]ature4 ,9 a conv]sation ) 8 religi\s companions1 %ortly be=e he di$1 he happ5$ to say some?+ ab\t ! discov]ies ( ,c>d9al ,mai among ! ,bobbio #bj manuscripts4 ,"s "o rem>k$ t x 0 no?+ less ?an ,v&alism = ! old monks to erase "o ( ! classic au?ors1 & write "s crude *ronicle or o!r ov] x4 ,well1 repli$ ,fa!r ,ignatius1 ,i suppose ! monks _h z mu* respect = ,virgil & ,ovid z ! angels h4 ,to resume4 ,b :at 0 ( ! *ief importance to me at ?is "t 01 be+ 9 a h\se & ) company1 :]e1 if subjects ( religion 7 n s mu* put be=e me z ) ,mr4 ,godley1 & if ,i 0 n con/antly exhort$ & enc\rag$ 9 simple piety1 ,i & my fell[ pupils felt t no ^w ( immorality w\ld h be5 anywise tol]at$4 ,pray]s 7 daily read 9 ! family1 ! s]vice ( ! ,*ur* 0 p]=m$ ) zeal & regul>ity1 ! ,sunday 0 /rictly obs]v$1 & a prom95t "p ( our in/ruction 0 on matt]s ( religion4 ,x 0 also to me an invaluable b5efit1 t ! companion ) :om ,i 0 pr9cipally associat$1 dur+ ! *ief "p ( my "t at ,dunton1 0 "o :o1 l me1 aft] a c>eful education at home1 :]e he _h imbib$ religi\s feel+s1 _h gone ?r\gh ! corruptions ( ano!r public s*ool1 b 0 n[1 l me1 happy to f9d himself 9 pur] air4 ,) him ,i 0 confirm$ at ,ea/]1 #ahaf1 by ,dr4 ,h[ley1 !n ,prote/ant ,bi%op ( ,london1 n[ ,ar*bi%op ( ,cant]bury4 ,x 0 an incalculable bless+ to me1 slave z ,i 0 to false %ame1 & c[>dly z ,i 0 to resi/ aga9/ bold iniquity1 t ,i n[ _h _h a p]iod grant$ me1 z x 71 to brea! & ga9 a little vig\r aga91 be=e ! second cruel & m ru9\s deva/ation :i* my poor he>t 0 %ortly to und]go4 ,i prep>$ s]i\sly = my confirmation1 & = receiv+ ! ,sacram5t f "t to "t1 & recov]$ mu* ( my =m] good practices ( private devotion4 ,i rememb] especially to h procur$ once m a manual ( pray]s1 & dur+ ! la/ mon?s ( my /ay at ,dunton ,i sp5t a long "t 9 self-exam9ation by ! table ( s9s 9 t book1 some:at simil> to our ,ca?olic prep>ation = confession4 ,b1 alas6 ,i c\ld g no fur!r ?an ! prep>ation4 ,oh6 ! great enemy ( our s\ls knew well :at he 0 #ba do+ 9 aboli%+ confession4 ,z be=e1 :5 ,i fir/ lo/ my innoc5ce & piety at ,eton1 confession w\ld1 ,i am conv9c$1 h pres]v$ me f t fall2 s n[ t ,i 0 almo/ recov]+ f ! fall1 if ,i _h _h ! e> ( a spiritual fa!r to :om ,i might ) confid5ce h discov]$ ! w\nds ( my poor s\l1 he w\ld h assi/$ me utt]ly to extirpate ! rema9s ( ^? evil habits ( my he>t4 ,he w\ld h %[n me :at ,i knew s imp]fectly1 ! horrible dang] ( ! /ate 9 :i* ,i _h be5 s ne> et]nal damnation2 he w\ld h made me feel t holy %ame = my s9s1 :i* w\ld h ov]come t false e>?ly %ame by :i* ,i /ill 0 ready to be ma/]$2 & he w\ld1 9 %ort1 h p\r$ 9 t balm & oil :i* ! m9i/]s ( ,god possess1 to heal1 & /r5g!n1 & com=t me = my future trials1 s t ,i might h /ood firm aga9/ my enemies4 ,b x pleas$ ,!e1 ,o my ,god1 t once m1 by su* sad exp]i5ce1 ,i %\ld h occasion to le>n ! value ( t holy discipl9e ( p5ance1 ! p[] & admirable virtue ( ! div9e sacram5ts1 ) ! disp5sation ( :i* ,?\ ha/ n[ entru/$ me1 t ,i may be a m wise & t5d] fa!r to ,?y little ones :om ,?\ committe/ to my c>e4 #bb ,,*apt] ,v4 ,he ,goes ,to ,cambridge4 ,"y ,sp5c] w5t ) ,mr4 ,blomfield to ,cambridge 9 ! spr+ ( #ahag1 & 0 ent]$ fell[ common] ( ,tr9ity4 ,he return$1 imm$iately aft] be+ matriculat$1 to 8 family1 & sp5t ! summ] 9 cricket+ & sea-ba?+1 9 ,ryde1 ,isle ( ,wight1 & hunt+ or %oot+ at ,al?orp4 ,on ,saturday1 ,octob] #ah?1 he came to ,london ) 8 p>5ts4 ,he & 8 bro!r ,fr$]ick w5t ab\t %opp+1 to procure _! sev]al outfits = ! ,univ]sity & ! sea4 ,on ! morn+ ( ! #ba/ ,octob]1 he set out f 8 fa!r's h\se to ,holborn1 to cat* ! sev5 o'clock fly = ,cambridge4 ,?is vehicle1 :i* has be5 s long sup]s$$ by ! ,ea/]n ,c\nties ,railway1 0 fill$ ) pass5g]s be=e ! ,sp5c] c>riage arriv$4 ,he !n took a po/ *aise at t5 o'clock1 & arriv$ 9 ,cambridge a little be=e six 9 ! ev5+4 ,all t rema9$ ( t day1 & ! great] "p ( ! next1 0 sp5t 9 gett+ 8 rooms furni%$1 hir+ 8 s]vant1 mak+ a few acqua9tances1 meet+ ^? he knew be=e1 & ! o!r employm5ts ( a fre%man4 ,8 tutor 9 classics 0 ,mr4 ,evans1 :o long cont9u$ 9 ! same capacity at ,cambridge1 & _h ! reputation ( be+ a mo/ upright man4 ,= ma!matics he _h a ,mr4 ,peacock1 :o aft]w>ds became ,dean ( ,ely1 & re/or$ ! ca!dral !re4 ,he fell into good h&s1 seem+ly1 z f> z 8 /udies 7 conc]n$4 ,he does n seem to h be5 less =tunate 9 ! *oice ( 8 companions4 ,he is v sl[ 9 mak+ fri5ds2 "o he does n l = be+ too mu* ( ! f9e g5tleman2 ano!r invites him1 & he rem>ks3 ,i suppose ,i mu/ ask him to d9n] or some?+ #bc else2 b ,i %\ld n wi% to cont9ue acqua9tance ) him1 = ?\gh he is good-natur$1 he is likely to be 9 a bad set4 ,he also goes regul>ly to visit ,mr4 ,blomfield1 :o resid$ 9 ,hild]%am1 & advises ) him ab\t 8 proce$+s4 ,he also avoids ne$less wa/e ( "t1 & says 9 8 j\rnal3 ,!y all play$ :i/1 9 _! turns1 b ,bridgman & myself2 :i* ,i am glad ,i did n1 = ,i l x s well t ,i %\ld play at x too mu* if ,i once began4 ,besides ^! precautions1 & a feel+ ( indignation t bur/s out n[ & aga9 :5 he has to note a misdemean\r 9 8 associates1 he reads sev5 h\rs a day on an av]age4 ,^! conclusions are collect$ f ! notes ( a j\rnal he wrote at ! "t2 !y m>k a v auspici\s beg9n+2 &1 be+ cle> facts1 w s]ve z a k9d ( glass ?r\gh :i* "o may read ! foll[+ f 8 autobiography4 ,my int5tions 7 n[ well direct$ 7on ent]+ ,cambridge74 ,i began well1 & = a "t did n give way to ! dete/able fa%ions ( ! place1 & 0 n mu* a%am$ 9 ! pres5ce ( ! pr(ligate4 ,i 0 v happy likewise4 ,i f\nd myself n[ = ! fir/ "t em]g$ f ! condition ( a boy4 ,i 0 treat$ ) respect & k9dness by ! tutors & fell[s ( ! college2 my company 0 always s\ght1 & ,i 0 made mu* ( by :at 0 suppos$ to be ! be/--t is1 ! mo/ well-br$ & fa%ionable1 set 9 ! ,univ]sity4 ,i _h all ! heal? & high spirits ( my age1 & ,i n[ enjoy$ manly amusem5ts1 be+ set free f ! c[>dly feel+ ( inf]iority :i* ,i _h to oppress me at ,eton4 ,my fir/ t]m at ,cambridge--t is1 ! two mon?s t pass$ be=e ! fir/ ,*ri/mas vacation aft] my go+ !re-- 01 z ,i ?\ght1 ! happie/ "t ,i _h yet kn[n4 ,i f9d x difficult1 h[ev]1 n[ to und]/& t happ9ess1 & /ill m to und]/& ! religi\s pr9ciple :i* _h m or less "s influ5ce ov] me1 :5 ,i rememb] "o circum/ance :i* by itself proves my religion to h be5 absolutely nugatory1 & :i*1 ,i rememb] well1 mo/ griev\sly spoil$ my happ9ess4 ,z to my religion1 ,i d n rememb] t at t "t ,i said any private pray]4 #bd ,i suppose ,i mu/ h discont9u$ x :5 ,i left ,mr4 ,blomfield's1 or soon aft]4 ,yet ,i _h a sort ( pr9ciple :i* gu>d$ me f jo9+ 9 ! pr(ane contempt ( ,god's wor%ip :i* prevails g5]ally 9 ! ,college *apels at ,cambridge1 & = a long "t f cons5t+ to ! practice ( op5 immoralities1 or ev5 pret5d+ to approve !m1 ?\gh almo/ all ! "y m5 :om ,i knew at ,cambridge ei!r notori\sly foll[$ or at lea/ sanction$ !m4 ,he alludes to "o circum/ance 9 ! la/ extract z be+ a te/ ( 8 dep? 9 religi\s matt]s1 :i* x w be int]e/+ to h 9 8 own words4 ,x occurr$ be=e 8 ent]+ ,cambridge2 b z x consid]ably influ5c$ 8 feel+s dur+ 8 /ay !re1 x may z well f9d its place "h4 ,! circum/ance to :i* ,i allude 0 some?+ ( an affair ( hon\r1 z ! _w bl9dly calls x1 into :i* ,i got engag$1 & :i* _h s important an influ5ce ^u my religi\s feel+s = ab\t two ye>s t ,i w "h p>ticul>ly relate ! circum/ances ( x4 ,9 ! la/ summ] vacation1 be=e my go+ to ,cambridge1 ,i att5d$1 ) my fa!r1 ! ,nor?ampton races1 9 our way f ! ,isle ( ,wight to visit my bro!r at 8 place 9 ,nott+ham%ire4 ,i _h begun1 at t "t1 to be extremely fond ( danc+1 z well z cricket1 %oot+1 & ! l amusem5ts4 ,at ?is race ball at ,nor?ampton1 ,i enjoy$ myself to ! full2 b1 unwitt+ly1 laid ! f\ndation = sorr[ on ! next day4 ,fancy+ myself a sort ( lead] ( ! gaiety1 9 a set :i* seem$ to be ! mo/ fa%ionable & sm>t ( ! ev5+1 ,i mu/ ne$s be mak+ up p>ties = select dances2 :i* proce$+ 01 ( c\rse1 tak5 by o!rs z intrud+ on ! lib]ties ( a public ent]ta9m5t2 & x happ5$ t1 )\t kn[+ x1 ,i b>r$ out f "o quadrille :i* ,i help$ 9 =m+1 ! si/] ( a "y g5tleman ( "n & =tune 9 ! c\nty4 ,i 0 9 ! mean "t mak+ up a p>ty = a mat* at cricket on ! racec\rse = ! next day1 & ?is g5tleman 0 "o ( my *ief helpmates4 ,! next day1 :ile busy 9 collect+ our cricket]s to g #be to ! gr\nd1 ,i met him 9 ! /reet1 & he gave me ! h>d cut4 ,i knew n :at x meant1 & simply let x pass2 b on ! morn+ aft]1 ,i 0 surpris$ at receiv+ a lett] f him to tell me :at 0 my (f5ce3 x end$ ) ! words 7:i* are deeply en\gh impress$ on my memory n yet to be =gott571 ',if ,i did n look ^u y z a m]e boy1 ,i %\ld call y 9 a m s]i\s mann] to acc\nt = y\r rud5ess4' ,he !n told me :]e he might be f\nd ! foll[+ day4 ,)\t mu* reflect+ on ?is unpleasant communication1 ,i %[$ x to my fa!r1 :o 0 ne> me1 ) sev]al o!r g5tlem5 ( ! c\nty1 :5 ,i receiv$ x4 ,he ask$ me :e!r ,i _h meant any rud5ess1 & :5 ,i told him ,i _h n1 he bid me write an apology1 & p>ticul>ly *>g$ me n to notice ! conclud+ taunt4 ,he aft]w>ds m5tion$ x to two o!rs ( ^! g5tlem51 :o bo? agre$ t ,i _h done "r 9 s5d+ su* an answ]4 ,b soon aft] my m9d fell into su* a torm5t z ,i _h nev] yet kn[n4 ,! answ] 0 c]ta9ly "r accord+ to ,*ri/ian rules1 & ,i suppose ! laws ( hon\r w\ld n h requir$ m2 b1 at ! "t1 ,i "k n :e!r x w\ld n be e/eem$ 9 8 m9d & t ( ! fri5ds :om he might consult1 to be too g5tle = a man ( c\rage4 ,a mo/ agoniz+ dilemma ,i 0 n[ 91 nei!r side ( :i* ,i c\ld endure4 ,on ! "o h&1 ,i c\ld n be> to look on dea?1 & /&+ to be %ot at 0 :at no?+ b a fit ( desp]ation c\ld br+ me to4 ,on ! o!r1 t awful tyrant1 ! _w1 n[1 z x 71 put =? 8 h& & claim$ me = 8 own4 ,to lose my "* = c\rage1 & be br&$ z a c[>d1 0 :at ,i c\ld n anyways endure4 ,i w5t ) my fa!r 9 ! c>riage to sleep at ,l\ghbor\gh2 & :51 at ! inn1 ,i retir$ f him to my b$room1 ! tumult ( my m9d 0 at its height4 ,i _h all b det]m9$ to set (f & g t v night to ! place assign$ me by ?is g5tleman1 :o by "o disda9ful expression _h n[ my/]i\sly become1 z x appe>$1 ! ma/] ( my doom2 &1 r5ew+ ! qu>rel1 take my *ance ( ! consequ5ce4 ,b aga91 ,i saw ?is w\ld #bf n save my hon\r1 if x 7 already compromis$4 ,x 0 cle> t a *ange ( m9d l t w\ld h>dly satisfy ! _w1 :i* does n =give a brea* ( its awful laws on su* easy t]ms4 ,i f9ally slept (f my tr\ble = ! pres5t2 b my s\l rema9$ oppress$ ) a new load1 :i* almo/ made me we>y ( my life4 ,i rema9$ conv9c$ t ,i _h n rea*$ ! /&>d ( c\rage 9 ?is affair2 & ,i felt1 !re=e1 t x dep5d$ on ! good-nature ( ?is g5tleman :e!r my "* %\ld be expos$ or n4 ,he did n reply to my lett] ( explanation4 ,0 he satisfi$ or n8 ,dur+ my fir/ t]m at ,cambridge he 0 expect$ !re1 & ,i 0 ev5 invit$ to meet him at a w9e p>ty1 z "o :o 0 kn[n to be "o ( 8 neighb\rs & fri5ds4 ,i d>$ n %[ any reluctance to meet him1 le/ ! :ole /ory %\ld be kn[n at ,cambridge2 & if ,i did meet him1 0 he aga9 to treat me ) disda98 ,if he did1 h[ %\ld ,i avoid a duel8 ,i knew t hav+ any?+ to d ) a duel 0 expulsion by ! laws ( ! ,univ]sity2 b if ,i1 c[>d z ,i 01 _h n yet made up my m9d1 z ,i _h1 t ,i mu/ run ! *ance ( 8 %ot1 if he *ose /ill to res5t ! affront1 no wond]1 if ! spoil+ ( my prospects 9 life1 by expulsion f ,cambridge1 0 n mu* reg>d$4 ,! pres5t di/ress 0 evad$ by 8 n com+1 z 0 expect$4 ,aft] ?is ,i desir$ "o p]son :o knew him z a fri5d1 & to :om alone ,i _h expla9$ my case1 to write & ask :e!r my apology _h appe>$ to him suffici5t4 ,! answ] to ?is 0 an assurance t ! ?+ _h be5 no m ?\ght (2 b x 0 two ye>s be=e ,i met him 9 p]son1 & by 8 c\rte\s mann] 0 f9ally satisfi$ t all 0 "r betwe5 u4 ,i might ?9k x impossible t ! great "q c\ld be ov]look$ by m51 :at is to become ( !m 9 et]nity1 if ,i _h n _h ! exp]i5ce ( my own feel+s 9 su* an occasion z ?is4 ,9 t memorable ev5+ at ,l\ghbor\gh1 ,i did n inde$ altoge!r ov]look ! moral "q--,is a duel wrong8 ,i _h made ! mo/ ( :at ,i _h he>d said 9 palliation ( x by "s morali/s2 ,i c\ld n f9d any gr\nd1 h[ev]1 to ?9k x "r be=e #bg ,god2 yet ! ?\ght ( hav+1 p]haps be=e ! next day 0 pa/1 to answ] 9 ! pres5ce ( ,god = hav+ ?r[n away my life 9 x1 0 n ! consid]ation :i* det]r$ me f ! ra% resolution4 ,n[1 h[ /&s ! _w 9 ,engl& on ?is "q8 ,x is cle> t a ,ca?olic1 :e!r ecclesia/ic or layman1 has no *oice4 ,he mu/ ei!r utt]ly r5\nce 8 religion or duell+4 ,a ma9t5ance ( ! abom9able practice by :i* duell+ is ju/ifi$ w\ld deprive him ( communion ) ! ,*ur*4 ,b h[ /& ,prote/ants8 ,! cl]gy are exempt$ f ?is law by ! _w4 ,b h[ _m ,prote/ant laym5 are !re ( ! rank ( g5tlem5 :o d>e to proclaim t !y dete/ duell+1 & t !y w\ld soon] be> ! disgrace ( refus+ a *all5ge ?an (f5d ,god by accept+ x1 or run ! risk ( (f5d+ ,god8 = ,i suppose ! great] "p w\ld try an argum5t to prove t x may be excusable4 ,! cl]gy g5]ally1 ,i believe1 reckon x decid$ly a wick$ worldly law1 yet !y receive laym5 to communion )\t insi/+ on ?is enorm\s evil be+ fir/ abjur$4 ,i d n1 h[ev]1 "h propose a fur!r discussion ( ! "q g5]ally4 ,to ?is law ( ! _w1 mis]ably z x torm5t$ me = a "t1 ,i believe ,i am indebt$ spiritually m ?an c well be und]/ood3 at lea/ to ! mis]y :i* x occasion$ me4 ,i h he>d x relat$ ( bless$ 7n[ ,sa9t7 ,alphonsus ,m>ia di ,liguori t he ow$ 8 be+ l$ to bid adieu to ! _w & *oos+ ,god = ! portion ( 8 inh]itance1 to mak+ a blund] 9 plead+ a cause z an advocate4 ,hav+ till t "t set 8 happ9ess on 8 worldly reputation = tal5t1 he !n cle>ly saw h[ va91 7 ! promises ( ! _w1 & once = all he gave x up4 ,i knew n1 alas6 :i!r nor h[ to turn = m solid consolation1 & ?us ! spoil+ ( my happ9ess1 :i* _h result$ f a mi/ake 9 a ball-room1 did n tea* me to be wise2 b x contribut$ mat]ially1 & mo/ bless$ly1 to poison my happ9ess at ?is "t4 ,yet1 9 a g5]al way1 ,i w5t on gaily & pleasantly en\gh1 = s]i\s reflections1 on :atev] subject x might be1 _h no long cont9uance4 #bh ,,*apt] ,,vi4 ,8 ,fir/ ,ye> 9 ,cambridge4 ,:at /rikes a ,ca?olic z ! mo/ s+ul> feature 9 ,prote/ant education is ! want ( special tra9+ = ! cl]gyman4 ,a doz5 "y m5 g to ! ,univ]sity = a doz5 diff]5t purposes1 & !re is ! same rule1 ! same /udies1 ! same moral discipl9e = all4 ,su*1 at lea/1 0 ! rule 9 ! days ( ,mr4 ,sp5c]'s college life4 ,x seems extraord9>y to ! ,ca?olic /ud5t1 :o has to le>n ,lat9 & ,greek only z subsidi>y in/rum5ts to 8 high] /udies2 :o has to read two ye>s philosophy & f\r ye>s !ology1 & pass sev]e exam9ations n9e or t5 diff]5t times 9 ea*1 besides a g5]al "o 9 all1 be=e he c be qualifi$ to receive ! prie/hood4 ,! cl]ical tra9+ ) u is z diff]5t f t ?r\gh :i* "y ,sp5c] _h to pass z "o ?+ c be f ano!r4 ,8 life = ! fir/ ye> may be v briefly told4 ,he he>s f ,mr4 ,blomfield t he is to att5d div9ity lectures1 & he =?) beg9s4 ,he is advis$ by a ,pr(essor ,monk1 aft]w>ds ,prote/ant ,bi%op ( ,gl\ce/]1 to /& = a s*ol>%ip1 & he does s aft] gett+ ,blomfield's cons5t4 ,?is makes him /udy v h>d = "s "t1 & ?\gh he did n succe$1 ! ta/e he _h acquir$ by ! prep>ation did n leave him till ! end ( ! ye>1 :5 he came out 9 ! fir/ class1 hav+ left 8 competitors1 ) "o exception1 f> beh9d4 ,he also sp5ds "s h\rs e day 9 a?letic ex]cises1 is v fond ( rid+1 goes n[ & aga9 to ,london & ,al?orp to amuse himself ) att5d+ ! !atres1 d9+ out1 %oot+ p>tridge1 & play+ at ,pope ,joan4 ,he relaxes #bi 9 8 det]m9ation to avoid :i/1 & indulges s f> t he puts a note ( exclamation 9 8 j\rnal at hav+ return$ to 8 *amb]s "o night )\t hav+ _h a game4 ,?is seems to be ! regul> c\rse ( 8 life at ,cambridge1 a c\rse edify+ inde$1 if comp>$ ) ! lives ( 8 companions4 ,he says3-- ,i h obs]v$ be=e t ! example & conv]sation ( ,mr4 ,blomfield1 :ile ,i rema9$ ) him1 gave an impulse to my m9d t[>ds ! love ( lit]>y pursuits4 ,i did n ?9k1 h[ev]1 ( ex]t+ myself p>ticul>ly 9 t way till ! end ( ! fir/ t]m1 :5 ,i 0 p]suad$ by ,mr4 ,monk1 ! ,greek pr(essor1 n[ ,prote/ant ,bi%op ( ,gl\ce/]1 to be a c&idate = a univ]sity s*ol>%ip4 ,dr4 ,monk 0 f\r ye>s s5ior to ,mr4 ,blomfield1 & ,i und]/ood f him t he _h be5 ( great s]vice to him 9 ! same way1 :5 at college1 enc\rag+ 8 ex]tions & /udies4 ,i 0 told t ,i pass$ ?is exam9ation cr$itably1 b ,i did n /& s high among ! competitors z to make x desirable t ,i %\ld repeat ! attempt aft]w>ds1 & ! only hon\rs t ,i tri$ = 7 conf9$ to ,tr9ity ,college4 ,i 0 ?us /imulat$ dur+ ?is "t to m ?an common ex]tions2 x gave me a disposition to /udy :i* cont9u$ ?r\gh my "t at ,cambridge1 & 0 ! only good disposition :i* 0 enc\rag$ 9 me4 ,i h reason !n to rememb] ) gratitude ^? :o help$ me 9 ?is way2 ?\gh x is a lam5table ?+ t1 be+ !re pr(ess$ly z a /ud5t = ! *ur*1 9 :at is ! prop] sem9>y = ecclesia/ics ( ! ,*ur* ( ,engl&1 ,i _c call to m9d "o ^w ( advice giv5 me by anyone among my sup]iors or companions to gu>d me aga9/ ! t]rible dang]s ) :i* ,i 0 surr\nd$ ( be+ entirely corrupt$1 or to dispose me t[>ds "s little c>e ( my spiritual conc]ns4 ,my /udies ,i foll[$ ) great zeal all ! "t ,i 0 at ,cambridge2 b1 z is g5]ally ! case !re ) ^? t aim at places 9 ! public exam9ations1 ,i manag$ !m )\t prop] di/ribution ( "t4 ,by runn+ ?r\gh ! j\rnal ,i kept at ! "t ,i f9d t1 :5 #cj fir/ ,i began to read h>d1 ,i h (t5 sat )\t mov+ f my table & read ! clock r\nd1 t is1 f ?ree or f\r 9 ! aft]noon to ! same h\r ! next morn+1 = ! sake ( do+ :at 0 c\nt$ an extraord9>y feat4 ,!re is no d\bt t read+ ) regul>ity a small] numb] ( h\rs e day w\ld be m available = ! atta9m5t ( le>n+ ?an ^! immod]ate surfeits ( /udy1 z "o may call !m2 ,i only int]pos$ a few days ( amusem5t1 :5 h>dly any "w 0 done4 ,9 ! long run1 su* a c\rse z m9e c\ld n answ]1 = x 0 sure to hurt ! heal? & prev5t ! atta9m5t ( ! real end ( all a "y man's /udies1 :i* is1 acquir+ k to be turn$ to acc\nt 9 aft] life4 ,few "y m5 at ,ox=d or ,cambridge1 ,i suppose1 h wisdom en\gh to calculate ?is 9 advance4 ,! object :i* !y aim at is pres5t di/9ction1 & out/ripp+ _! fell[s 9 ! race = college prizes2 &1 z f> z my exp]i5ce goes1 a glut ( read+1 if ! heal? does b /& x )\t break+ d[n1 is ! way to make ! mo/ ( "o's *ance at a public exam9ation4 ,! "t ( my be+ at ,cambridge is "o s int]e/+ to me 9 ! recollection1 t ,i _c satisfy myself1 :5 giv+ an acc\nt ( my progress ?r\gh life1 )\t dwell+ at "s l5g? ^u x4 ,my college c\rse 0 n v long4 ,at ! "t :5 ,i 0 at ,cambridge1 honor>y degrees 7 conf]r$ on ! sons ( noblem5 at ! end ( two ye>s' resid5ce1 by :i* !y came to ! enjoym5t ( ! rank & all ! privileges ( a ,ma/] ( ,arts1 :i* title 0 n to be atta9$1 9 ! ord9>y c\rse1 9 less ?an six or sev5 ye>s4 ,& :at %ort5s ! college life mu* m is ! extravagant l5g? ( ! vacations2 s t :at is reckon$ "o ye> at ,cambridge is n m ?an five mon?s' actual resid5ce 9 ! ,univ]sity4 ,yet ?is is a mo/ important & critical p]iod1 & ! %ort two ye>s dur+ :i* ,i 0 an und]graduate at ,cambridge 7 ( imm5se importance 9 my de/9y4 ,h[ va/ is ! good1 ( :i* ,i h le>n$ ! loss1 b :i* ,i might h ga9$1 _h ,i !n kn[n h[ to direct my views6 ,on ! o!r h&1 h[ #ca may ,i bless ,god = ! quantity ( evil f :i* ,i h be5 pres]v$1 & h[ wond]ful has be5 my pres]vation6 ,:5 ,i rememb] h[ de/itute ,i 0 ( religion at ?is "t1 ,i mu/ say t ,i h to wond] r at my be+ pres]v$ f s mu* evil1 ?an at my hav+ fall5 into s mu*4 ,& h[ c ,i bless ,god = 8 exce$+ goodness ( :i* ,i am n[ rem9d$1 :5 ,i ?9k h[1 aga9/ my own p]v]se w1 aga9/ my fooli%1 ,i mu/ say mad wi%es1 ,i 0 prev5t$ by 8 ,provid5ce f be+ at ?is "t irrevocably ru9$ & lo/8 ,:at c ,i return to ,him = ?is bless+8 ,"o pr9cipal int5tion 9 my pres5t "w is to record ! s5tim5ts ( gratitude1 h[ev] weak & mo/ unwor?y1 ) :i* ,i at lea/ desire my s\l to be inflam$1 & :i* ,i hope w engage all ! p[]s ( my s\l ?r\gh\t et]nity4 ,mo/ gladly1 if x 7 = ,8 hon\r & = ! edification ( "o s\l :i* by ! n>rative might reap in/ruction1 ,i w\ld ent] be=e all ! _w into a m detail$ explanation ( ?is my wond]ful deliv]ance2 b ?is ,i mu/ n d1 = ,i mu/ n be ! means t o!rs1 hi!rto 9 ! simplicity ( holy ignorance1 %\ld be made acqua9t$ ) ! d>k iniquity ( :i* ! k has once infect$ my own unhappy und]/&+4 ,be ?is en\gh to say on ?is po9t1 :i* ,i 0 oblig$ to t\*1 le/ x %\ld seem unreasonable t ,i %\ld speak ( my case z "o ( mo/ m>vell\s & almo/ unp>allel$ m]cy1 :5 ! circum/ances :i* ,i may n[ detail1 & :at are g5]ally kn[n among my mo/ intimate companions1 d n ju/ify su* feel+s 9 ! review ( x4 ,by ! great m]cy ( ,god1 ,i _h provid$ = me a refuge &1 z x 71 a brea?+ "t1 betwe5 ,eton & ,cambridge4 ,at ,mr4 ,blomfield's1 my progress 9 evil 0 *eck$1 & ,i _h "t to prep>e myself = ! ,univ]sity ) good resolutions1 ?\gh ,i knew n :at sort ( trials ,i %\ld meet ) !re1 nor _h ,i le>nt h[ unavail+ 7 my be/ resolutions to support me1 :ile yet ,i _h n :olly put my confid5ce 9 ,god's grace4 ,! vacation :i* came betwe5 my leav+ ,dunton & go+ to ,cambridge ,i sp5t *iefly 9 ! ,isle ( ,wight1 & my #cb s\l 0 almo/ :olly occupi$ t summ] ab\t cricket4 ,i nev] became a great cricket] myself2 ,i _h lo/ ! be/ "t = ga9+ ! art :ile at ,eton2 b1 ?is summ]1 :at p]sev]ance & dilig5ce c\ld d to make up = lo/ "t1 ,i ?9k ,i did4 ,oh6 t ,i might h ! same degree ( zeal n[ 9 s]v+ ! ,*ur* ( ,god1 & collect+ & in/ruct+ a fai?ful flock1 z ,i !n _h 9 seek+ out1 & enc\rag+ & giv+ & procur+ in/ruction = my troop ( cricket]s4 ,! occupation ( my m9d on ?is subject 0 en\gh to drive away any ard5t att5tion to religion z well z to /udy4 ,i may say1 9 fav\r ( ?is passion = cricket1 t x 0 "o ( ! pursuits :i* ,i took to at ! recomm5dation ( my "m4 ,i rememb] g5]ally t :5 any?+ 9 ! way ( amusem5t or s]i\s occupation 0 sugge/$ to me by h]1 or any?+ else b my own fancy1 no?+ m 0 requir$ to make me h a di/a/e = x4 ,o!rwise1 h[ _m useful accompli%m5ts might ,i h ga9$ :i* w\ld n[ h be5 available to ! great objects ,i h be=e me4 ,my de> "m wi%$ me to le>n f5c+ :5 ,i 0 at ,eton1 & a good deal ( "t ,i sp5t1 & a good deal ( money mu/ h be5 paid by my fa!r to ,mr4 ,angelo1 ! f5c+-ma/] :o came to ,eton4 ,x might h be5 bett] = me to h ga9$ p]fection 9 ?is ex]cise1 by :i* x is relat$ t ,/4 ,francis ( ,sales acquir$ 9 "p t elegance ( mann] & nobl5ess ( c>riage ?r\gh :i* he ga9$ s _m s\ls to ,*ri/4 ,:ile o!r boys made f5c+ _! amusem5t1 ,i always w\ld h x z a task1 & ( c\rse ga9$ no?+ by x4 ,at a lat] p]iod1 :5 we 7 at ,naples1 & ,i _h a weakness 9 my eyes :i* made su* an employm5t suitable1 my "m w\ld h _h me le>n music4 ,%e gave me a guit>1 & w\ld h paid = my lessons2 b ,i c\ld n take to x1 & h ?us lo/ ! advantage :i*1 s9ce ,i h become a ,ca?olic1 ,i %\ld h s mu* valu$ ( und]/&+ ! sci5ce ( music1 see+ t ! trifl+ k ,i d possess is ( s mu* use4 ,!re is ! apology1 !n1 = my cricket mania2 t %e propos$ my tak+ to x 9 ! #cc summ] ,i speak (4 ,i 0 surpris$ to f9d myself will+ to acquiesce 9 ! sugge/ion4 ,:at ,i did take to ,i g5]ally foll[$ excessively1 & %e did n calculate on ! viol5ce ) :i* ,i foll[$ up ?is4 ,i got into v little bad company by means ( ?is pursuit1 & p]haps1 on ! :ole1 ,i r ga9$ ?an lo/ by x4 ,x 0 manly & heal?ful1 & ?\gh1 :5 9 ! heat ( x1 ,i ?\ght x almo/ impossible ,i %\ld ev] give x up1 yet :5 ,i took ,ord]s ,i did give x up2 & if x 0 9 itself ( no use1 ,i hope t "o sacrifice1 among ! _m ,i 0 oblig$ to make &1 ?ank ,god1 did will+ly make to m important objects1 x 0 n )\t value4 ,?us mu* = my cricket+2 ,i m5tion x "h z be+ ! only di/9ct cause to :i* ,i c attribute my los+ be=e ,i w5t to ,cambridge ! habits ( s]i\s ?\ght & ( regul> pray]1 :i* ,i h obs]v$ ,i rega9$ 9 a good degree t[>ds ! latt] "p ( my ,dunton "t4 ,i nev]!less 0 full ( good purposes4 ,i desir$ & 0 resolv$ to keep myself f giv+ c\nt5ance to immorality z well z practis+ x1 ?\gh aft] hav+ once giv5 way at ,eton1 ,i h>dly ev] d>$ to say a ^w or ev5 to give a look 9 disapproval ( :atev] might be said or done be=e me by bold pr(ligates4 ,i c\ld n be> to appe> out ( ! fa%ion2 s t :5 o!r boys at ,eton us$ to talk ( ! balls & gay p>ties :i* !y _h be5 to 9 _! holidays1 ,i 0 q a%am$1 :5 ask$ :at ,i _h done1 to say t ,i _h be5 to no balls2 = to my "m ,i am greatly indebt$ = h] wise conduct 9 ?is respect1 t %e did n1 z 0 done by o!rs1 make u m5 be=e our "t4 ,s1 al?\gh ,i dete/$ & f my he>t condemn$ ! fa%ionable immoralities ( ! "y m5 ) :om ,i came to be associat$ ab\t ! "t ( my go+ to ,cambridge1 ,i h>dly d>$ decl>e my m9d1 except sometimes1 almo/ 9 confid5ce1 to "o :o seem$ to be l myself4 ,oh6 :at good might ,i h done _h ,i !n kn[n ! value ( ,god's grace1 &1 despis+ ! _w1 boldly /ood up = ! cause ( virtue1 at ! same "t cont9u+ to be gay & *e]ful ) my companions1 & tak+ a lead+ "p #cd 9 all innoc5t & manly div]sions1 & 9 ! objects ( hon\rable emulation :i* 7 set be=e me & my fell[s4 ,i "k h[ mu* ,i might h done by support+ o!rs1 weak l myself1 by act+ at ?is "t z ,i ought to h done1 by :at ,i felt myself on "o or two occasions :5 su* support 0 giv5 me4 ,i ?ank ,god t ! memory ( my bro!r ,rob]t1 :o di$ 9 #ahcj1 comm&+ ! ,madagasc>1 ne> ,alex&ria1 n[ rises be=e me to claim my grateful ackn[l$gm5t z hav+ twice giv5 me su* help at a critical "t4 ,nev] 0 a man m calculat$ ?an he to get on1 z x is said1 9 ! _w4 ,he 0 brave & ent]pris+1 & skill$ 9 all t might make him di/+ui%$ 9 8 pr(ession2 at ! same "t he 0 mo/ eag] 9 ! pursuit ( field sports & manly amusem5ts2 & 9 society 0 "o ( ! mo/ agreeable & popul> m5 ( 8 day4 ,once ,i rememb] compla9+ to him t ,i 0 a%am$ ( hav+ no?+ to say be=e "s ladies ab\t balls1 :5 ,i 0 ab\t sixte54 ',:at a wret*$ false %ame is t6' said he to me4 ,f t "t ,i became m a%am$ ( my %ame ?an ,i _h be5 be=e ( my want ( fa%ion4 ,m important yet 0 ! s]vice he did me :5 he 0 ab\t to g on "o ( 8 cruises z comm&] ( ! ,ganym$e4 ,i 0 talk+ ) him1 ! la/ ev5+ be=e he left ,london1 ab\t ! ,ea/] be=e ,i w5t to ,cambridge4 ,he knew well :at ,i %\ld be expos$ to bett] ?an ,i did & *>g$ me to take c>e nev] to laugh or look pleas$ :5 ,i 0 =c$ to he> immoral conv]sation4 ,:at r>e advice 0 ?is f ! m\? ( a gay1 gallant "y (fic]2 & if !re 7 m ( 8 "* :o 7 n a%am$ to give x to _! "y bro!rs & fri5ds1 h[ _m might be sav$1 :o are n[ lo/1 because !y d n see "o example to %[ h[ a manly1 fa%ionable "* c be ma9ta9$ ) /rict morality & mode/y4 ,^! few words f him 7 ( inf9ite s]vice to me4 ,!y made deep impression on me at ! "t ,i he>d !m1 & ! resolution :i* ,i !n made cont9u$ ) me till aft] ,i _h be5 "s "t at ,cambridge1 :5 ! battle ,i _h to be> aga9/ ! univ]sal fa%ion #ce ( iniquity once m1 z =m]ly1 at ,eton1 prov$ too /rong = me1 & ,i aga9 gave way4 ,my fall n[ 0 gradual4 ,i began ) ! resolution to avoid all exp5ses :i* w\ld emb>rass me ) debts1 & to keep f sev]al fa%ionable amusem5ts :i* w\ld engage too mu* "t4 ,= a:ile1 on ?is acc\nt1 ,i w\ld n play at c>ds2 b 9 less ?an half-a-ye> ?is det]m9ation fail$1 & ,i wa/$ _m an ev5+ at :i/ ( my %ort college life4 ,i soon grew c>eless1 too1 ab\t my exp5ses1 & %\ld h be5 involv$ 9 great emb>rassm5ts1 _h x n be5 = my bro!r's 7,"l ,al?orp's7 g5]osity1 :o1 he>+ f me at ! end ( my fir/ ye> t ,i 0 9 debt1 gave me m ?an en\gh to cle> x all away2 &1 ?us hav+ enabl$ me to set my affairs aga9 9 ord]1 0 ! means ( sav+ me f ev] aft]w>ds go+ beyond my means extravagantly4 ,i might1 h[ev]1 h giv5 way 9 "s su* resolutions z n play+ at c>ds2 ,i might h ent]$ into "s exp5ses :i* ,i %unn$ at fir/1 )\t los+ my peace ( m9d1 & aga9 defil+ my consci5ce1 ( :i* ! good condition 0 p>tly re/or$2 b ^! 7 n ! cry+ evils ( ! place4 ,9 ! set ) :i* ,i 0 n[ associat$ 9 ! ,univ]sity1 gambl+ 0 n at t "t mu* practis$1 & n at all insi/$ on4 ,!re 7 occasional drunk5 p>ties1 & x 0 ) difficulty t ,i kept out ( !m2 b ! sy/em ( viol5tly =c+ p to dr9k1 z well at ! ,univ]sities z ?r\gh\t g5teel society 9 ,engl&1 _h fall5 (f be=e my "t4 ,!re 7 "s sets :]e dr9k+ 0 practis$ at ,cambridge mu* m excessively ?an 9 :at call$ itself ! be/ set ( all4 ,i c\ld n help1 )\t (f5d+ ! laws ( society1 be+ pres5t at a consid]able numb] ( d9n]s & supp]s :]e m5 drank immod]ately1 b ,i 0 p]mitt$ to keep myself sob] )\t mu* difficulty2 "o or two gave me c\nt5ance ?us f>1 ?\gh any intimation ( disapprov+ ( :at o!rs did1 on religi\s or moral gr\nds1 ,i felt w\ld n h be5 anyways tol]at$2 & s ,i v5tur$ n4 ,swe>+ 0 among !m r unfa%ionable ?an #cf n4 ,"s und]graduates 7 notori\s = pr(ane & impi\s language2 & ?is 0 excus$1 & tol]at$1 & made fun (1 b x 0 n common1 & _m among u made no difficulty ( condemn+ x4 ,i !re=e nev] fell into ?is habit4 ,! cry+1 univ]sal1 & mo/ frightful evil ( ! place 0 op5 immorality4 ,!re 0 at ,cambridge1 9 my "t1 a religi\s set1 :o 7 sometimes call$ ,simeonites1 f ,mr4 ,simeon1 "o ( ! great lead]s & promot]s ( ! ,evangelical p>ty 9 ^! latt] days1 :o 0 m9i/] ( "o ( ! small *ur*es 9 ,cambridge1 & = _m ye>s attract$ into 8 influ5ce a c]ta9 numb] ( "y m54 ,among ^! op5 vice 0 n c\nt5anc$2 b n s ! set to :i* ,i pr9cipally belong$1 & ^! 7 z di/9ct z if !y _h n belong$ to ! same ,univ]sity4 ,i 0 introduc$ to "s few ( ^!1 & r valu$ myself on hav+ an acqua9tance ) !m1 z well z ) _m ( ! purely read+ m52 & my fa%ionable fri5ds did n altoge!r object to x1 ?\gh ,i 0 g5]ally a little a%am$ at be+ se5 ) any ( !m1 & avoid$ any frequ5t int]c\rse ) !m4 ,i h wond]$ s9ce t1 if x 7 only f m]e curiosity1 ,i %\ld nev] once h gone to he> ,simeon prea*1 b s x 04 ,i und]/ood no?+ :atev] ( :at is 9 ,engl& call$ ,evangelical religion4 ,inde$1 ,i ?\ght no?+ ( religion2 _h ,i paid any att5tion to x at ?is "t1 ,i c\ld h>dly h escap$ see+ h[ desp]ate 0 ! c\rse :i* ,i 0 foll[+1 & ,i might p]haps h tak5 a /rong resolution1 & h jo9$ ! s]i\s p>ty at once2 b1 v likely1 ,i %\ld h f\nd ! p[] ( fa%ion at t "t too great1 &1 by kn[+ m ( religion1 %\ld only h made my consci5ce m guilty2 & s ,i believe x may be bett] t none ev] spoke to me on ! subject all ! "t4 ,i repeat x1 t 9 our set1 :atev] o!r deviation f ! mo/ e/abli%$ fa%ion 0 tol]at$1 any ma9t5ance ( *a/ity or mode/y 0 altoge!r proscrib$4 ,x 0 n long1 !n1 be=e ,i f\nd myself beat out ( ! position ,i endeav\r$ to ma9ta94 ,dur+ ! fir/ t]m ,i /ood my gr\nd r bett]4 ,"o reason = ?is 01 #cg t among :at 7 call$ ! fre%m5--t is1 ^? :o ent]$ ) me on my college life1 !re 7 sev]al :o 7 n initiat$ 9 vici\s practices4 ,^!1 rema9+ = a "t m or less 9 _! simplicity1 gave me "s c\nt5ance 9 n go+ at once 9 ! way ( ! vet]an pr(essors ( evil4 ,b z ,i saw "s ( !m gr[ by degrees %ameless & bold1 & soon beg9n+ to jo9 _! old] bre?r5 9 upbraid+ my weakness & folly = n be+ l ! re/1 ,i f\nd all my resolution fail+1 &1 alas6 _m a delib]ation did ,i take :e!r ,i %\ld n at l5g? ent] ! same way ) !m4 ,i 0 /ill )held1 ?\gh x 0 n ! fe> ( ,god :i* re/ra9$ me4 ,i knew t my ent]+ a c\rse ( op5 pr(ligacy w\ld n be tol]at$ by my p>5ts4 ,i _h a "* = /ead9ess among ! tutors & fell[s ( ! college1 :i* ,i 0 a%am$ to lose2 ?\gh ev5 be=e !m ,i f\nd x sometimes to answ] be/ n to appe> diff]5t f o!r "y m54 ,besides1 z ,i _h resi/$ ! fir/ p]iod ( attacks1 & e/abli%$ among my companions a k9d ( "* ( my own1 ,i felt t ev5 !y w\ld be a/oni%$ if ,i at la/ decl>$ myself z "o ( _! sort4 ,i c\ld n be> ! ?\ght ( _! triumph1 & ! horrid congratulations ) :i* ,i %\ld be greet$1 if once ,i 0 f\nd go+ along ) !m 9 op5 feats ( iniquity4 ,oh6 h[ griev\s is ! reflection t by su* motives z ^! ,i 0 re/ra9$4 ,i 0 long+ (t5 to be l !m4 ,i c\ld n be> ! taunts :i* 7 sometimes made at me4 ,"h aga9 "s ( ! old ,etonians p]haps w\ld br+ up ! remembrance ( my anci5t prop5sity to blu%1 & w\ld take pleasure 9 putt+ me aga9 to confusion4 ,occasionally1 by /range int]positions ( ,div9e ,provid5ce1 ,i 0 h9d]$ f accompli%+ purposes ( evil :i* ,i _h1 9 a sort ( desp]ation1 resolv$ by myself to p]petrate1 by way ( be+ decid$ "o way or o!r1 l a man on ! br9k ( a precipice det]m9+ to ?r[ himself d[n 9 ord] to escape ! uneasy appreh5sion ( 8 dang]4 ,"o way or ano!r ,i 0 re/ra9$1 s t x has aft]w>ds appe>$ to me z if ,i _h b b>ely /opp$ %ort ( #ch tak+ ! la/ decisive /eps by :i* ,i might be irrevocably rank$ among ! reprobate4 ,i nev] ?\ght at ! "t ( ?is dang]1 o!rwise ,i c\ld h>dly h borne my exi/5ce2 b1 z x 01 my m9d at times 0 gloomy & mis]able 9 ! extreme4 ,to make me yet m s1 at ! end ( my fir/ ye> ,i began to be afflict$ ) bili\s attacks1 aris+1 p]haps1 f my imprud5t managem5t 9 reg>d to /udy1 to diet1 & to h\rs2 & ^! occasion$ exce$+ depression ( spirits1 "u :i* ,i us$ to fancy myself ! mo/ unhappy ( creatures4 ,i _h no k ( ! p[] ( religion to set me free1 & make me sup]ior to all ext]nal s5sible causes ( depression1 & ,i knew no bett] ?an to give myself up to my l[ feel+s :5 !y came ^u me1 till "s di/raction remov$ !m1 or till ! fit pass$ away ( itself4 ,_m times at ,cambridge1 9 ord] to hold up my head 9 a noisy company aft] d9n]1 ,i drank w9e to raise my spirits1 ?\gh n to great excess1 yet en\gh to tea* me by exp]i5ce h[ mi/ak5 is ! calculation ( ^? :o1 :5 9 sorr[1 seek to *e] !mselves 9 t way1 or 9 any way b by hav+ rec\rse to ,god by pray] & acts ( resignation4 ,i rememb] well once be+ told by a good aunt ( m9e1 t x 0 q wrong to give way to my depression1 ab\t :i* ,i "o day compla9$ to h]1 & t religion w\ld surely cure x2 b ! "t 0 n come = me to und]/& ?is tru?1 & ,i took no notice ( h] words4 ,9 ! meantime ,i cont9u$ zeal\s ab\t my /udies4 ,i did n /op to ask cui bono 0 ,i work+ 9 !m4 ,_h ,i se5 h[ utt]ly va9 0 a fir/-class place or a ,tr9ity prize-book1 :i* ,i _h set be=e me z ! object ( my lab\rs1 ,i %\ld h f\nd b little consolation & refre%m5t to my melan*oly reflections 9 ^! pursuits4 ,on ! contr>y1 ,i %\ld only h p9$ away ) a m complete s5se ( ! tru? ( ! ,wise man's s5t5ce :i* ,almighty ,god 0 tea*+ me 9 ,8 own way1 & 9 ,8 own good "t3 ',vanity ( vanities1 & all is vanity' b to s]ve ,!e only4 ,i d n mean t if rightly foll[$1 su* academical hon\rs are wor? no?+4 ,i wi% #ci ,i _h foll[$ !m m prud5tly & effectually4 ,!y 7 ! objects set be=e me by my sup]iors at ! "t1 & ,i %\ld say to ano!r 9 my place t he %\ld d 8 be/ to ga9 ! highe/ place 9 a _s ( ob$i5ce1 & = ! hon\r ( ,god1 to :om we owe all ! cr$it & influ5ce 9 ! _w :i*1 by j & hon\rable ex]tions1 we c ga94 ,9 recollect+1 !re=e1 h[ ,i ex]t$ myself1 & succe$$ 9 ^! attempts1 ,i am dwell+ on "o ( ! mo/ happy po9ts ( view :i* t "p ( my life sugge/s to me2 = ?\gh ,i did n d ?is z ,i ought1 yet ,i 0 do+ :at ,i ought1 & by do+ s 0 pres]v$ f mu* evil1 & ,god kn[s h[ f> ! cr$itable foot+ ,i ga9$ at ,cambridge 9 ! /udies ( ! place may yet be available = a good end4 ,x is h>d to believe "y ,sp5c] 0 s utt]ly devoid ( religion z he "h describes himself to be2 we draw a m fav\rable inf]5ce f a j\rnal he kept at ! "t4 ,notic+ ! dea? ( ! ,pr9cess ,*>lotte1 he says3 ,x appe>s to be ! greate/ calamity t c\ld h befall5 u 9 public1 & x is a deplorable ev5t 9 a private po9t ( view4 ,x mu/ be ascrib$ to ! int]position ( ,provid5ce1 :i* mu/ h "s end 9 view beyond our compreh5sion4 ,he speaks ( ! dea? ( ,mrs4 ,blomfield ?us--,x is = h] a happy ev5t1 aft] a life s well sp5t z h]s has be54 ,a few pages fur!r on he has ^! words ab\t ! dea? ( ano!r fri5d ( 84 ,i 0 extremely %ock$ to-day at he>+ t ,james ,hornby di$ la/ ,friday ( apoplexy4 ,x 0 b a %ort "t pa/ t ,i 0 correspond+ ) him ab\t ! dea? ( ,mrs4 ,blomfield2 & little he or ,i ?\ght t he w\ld be ! next to g4 ,! la/ ye> & a half ,i /ay$ at ,eton ,i liv$ 9 ! greate/ intimacy ) him1 :i* _h aft]w>ds fall5 away a little2 b he 0 v clev] & promis+1 & ,i always 0 fond ( him4 ,x mu/ be a wise disp5sation ( ,provid5ce1 & may be int5d$ z a w>n+ to u1 9 addition to ^? we h lately _h 9 ! dea?s ( ,maitl& & ,dundas4 ,god grant x may be an effectual "o6 ,^! are n ! spontane\s expressions ( "o altoge!r #dj a /rang] to piety1 ?\gh !y may v well be put d[n z ! transi5t vibration ( *ords t _h long la9 /ill 9 8 he>t1 & :i* ^! rude %ocks mu/ h t\*$ & made audibly he>d once m4 ,?is conclusion is m 9 accordance ) o!r rem>ks f\nd scatt]$ "h & !re 9 ! same j\rnal4 ,he criticises s]mons & seems to l none2 he is regul> at *apel & puts on 8 surplice on ! days appo9t$2 b he refuses to take ! sacram5t = no conceivable reason b t he does n c>e ab\t x1 & he>s x is adm9i/]$ unbecom+ly4 ,he is %rewd & consid]ate 9 8 rem>ks ^u p]sons & ?+s2 yet !re is sc>cely a l9e ( sc&al or un*>itabl5ess 9 ! :ole closely writt5 volume4 ,:5 he records a drunk5 fit or a r[1 he suppresses ! names ( ! riot]s2 & if he says a %>p ^w ab\t a p]son 9 "o page1 he makes ample am5ds = x 9 _m pages aft]w>ds2 by %[+ h[ mi/ak5 he 0 at fir/1 & h[ agreeable x 0 to him to *ange 8 op9ion ^u a long] acqua9tance4 ,?is might n appe> v high praise2 b let u take notice ( 8 age & circum/ances1 & !n p]haps x may h its value4 ,he 0 a "y man1 j turn$ eighte52 he _h be5 br\ght up 9 spl5d\r at home1 & 9 a poison\s atmosph]e at s*ool4 ,t he 0 n ! vile/ ( ! vile is to be wond]$ at m ?an t he pres]v$ z mu* goodness z he did4 ,:]e is ! "y man1 ( ev5 excell5t tra9+1 :o w be able to cont5d1 unaid$ & taunt$1 aga9/ a :ole college ( ! f9e/ y\? ( any c\ntry8 ,8 motives may be b5ea? a ,*ri/ian's /&>d1 b ! fact t ) ?is weak arm\r1 ! b>e %ad[ ( :at x might be1 he made su* noble resi/ance & pass$ almo/ unsca!d ?r\gh ! furnace into :i* he 0 ca/1 only %[s :at he w\ld h done _h he be5 imbu$ ) ! tea*+s ( a high] ord]4 ,! v human respect & worldly consid]ations t succe$$ 9 keep+ him f vice1 acquire a respectability & a /atus 9 ! catalogue ( pres]vatives f ! fact ( _! be+ successful 9 8 case4 ,8 0 a f9e m9d1 & "o is mov$ to te>s at see+ ?is noble mat]ial = sanctity ?us toss$ #da ab\t & buffet$ by a h]d ( caprici\s companions :o c\ld n see its beauty4 ,let u take up any "y man's j\rnal ( 8 age & read "s pages ( x1 :at %all we f9d8 ,jokes play$ ^u gre5 fre%m51 tricks = outdo+ proctors1 records ( follies1 or p]*ance pomp\s unreality put on to conceal all ^! or worse4 ,8 di>y is ! g5]\s utt]ance ( a noble m9d2 x is c&id1 true1 consci5ti\s1 & puts a fail+ & a p]fection ( ! writ] side by side4 ,x is no wond] t he 0 lov$ & c\rt$1 & t 8 companions _h acquir$ an e/eem = him 9 college1 :i* ye>s & toils h n succe$$ 9 less5+4 ,8 ke5 grief at ! defici5cies ( 8 college life only %[s to :at height ( sanctity he _h rea*$1 :5 :at ano!r might boa/ ( wrung f him ^! lam5tations4 #db ,,*apt] ,,vii4 ,conclusion ,( ,8 ,fir/ ,ye> ,9 ,cambridge4 ,! ev5ts record$ 9 8 j\rnal at ?is "t c\ld v conv5i5tly be swell$ into *apt]s1 if "o _h a m9d to be diffuse4 ,to trace ! =tunes ( ! g5tlem5 he comes 9 contact )--,d5ison1 ,wodeh\se1 ,c>lisle1 ,hildy>d1 ,br\gham1 & a ho/ ( o!rs1 :o aft]w>ds %one 9 diff]5t circles1 ,high ,*ur* controv]sies1 plead+s at ! b>1 p>liam5t>y debates1 & ,iri% ,"l-lieut5ancies1--w\ld =m "s v int]e/+ episodes4 ,we %\ld add _m titles to ! (f-h&$ surnames ( ! collegian's j\rnal1 & say a few words ab\t h[ ^? dignities 7 procur$1 e>n$1 & worn by ! possessors4 ,x might be1 p]haps1 int]e/+ to "s read]s to "k h[ _m gay "y noblem5 7 entic$ into becom+ sons-9-law to "s v rev]5d doctors4 ,all ?is & m ,mr4 ,sp5c] notes d[n 9 ! j\rnal1 b x is n our !me4 ,i h be=e obs]v$ t ab\t my fir/ ,*ri/mas ,i 0 enc\rag$ by ,mr4 ,monk & by ,mr4 ,blomfield1 :o _h remov$ f ,dunton & liv$ !n ab\t t5 miles f ,cambridge1 to und]take a conte/ = a ,univ]sity prize2 b f ?is ,i aft]w>ds drew back4 ,i foll[$ up !n pr9cipally ! object ( gett+ into ! fir/ class at ! ,tr9ity ,college exam9ations1 :i* took place at ! end ( ea* ye>1 & :i* is an hon\r mu* e/eem$1 on acc\nt ( t ,college /&+ s high 9 ! ,univ]sity1 ?\gh ( c\rse x is n on a level ) ! hon\rs ga9$ 9 exam9ations :]e competitors are admitt$ f ! :ole body ( /ud5ts 9 ! ,univ]sity4 ,x 0 "o object ( silly ambition at ,cambridge to d well 9 ! exam9ations )\t hav+ appe>$ to #dc take mu* tr\ble ab\t x4 ,dur+ my second t]m ,i fell into ! idea ( aim+ a little at ?is1 & ,i w5t to _m m p>ties1 & took m "t = v>i\s amusem5ts1 p>ticul>ly c>ds1 ?an ,i all[$ myself 9 ! fir/ t]m4 ,_h ,i n be5 *eck$ = ?is1 ,i %\ld probably h lo/ mu* gr\nd 9 my race4 ,b a *eck did come to me at ,ea/]1 :5 ,i w5t to t[n1 & "o ev5+ express$ to my fa!r & "m some?+ ( self-congratulation = hav+ unit$ s mu* amusem5t ) my /udies4 ,my "m saw ! dang] ,i 0 n[ fall+ into1 &1 z x seem$ to me1 ) too great sev]ity1 = an h\r toge!r repres5t$ to me ! absurdity ( my notions1 & upbraid$ me ) go+ ! way to disappo9t all _! prospects4 ,i _h no ?\ght ( br++ su* a repro( ^u myself1 & w5t to b$ actually cry+ ) mortification4 ,h[ev]1 x _h its effect1 & ,i 0 ?ankful = x aft]w>ds4 ,! next t]m1 :i* 0 ! la/ & critical "o be=e ! exam9ation1 ,i sp5t 9 v sev]e & regul> /udy1 & c>$ n h[ "s idle ones might d]ogate f my success1 & com=t !mselves = _! inf]iority by ! ?\ght1 t ,i _h read s h>d z to take away f my m]it4 ,at l5g?1 on ! #ah? ,may1 #ahah1 ! v day1 z ,i obs]v$1 on :i*1 t5 ye>s be=e1 ,i _h gone to ,eton1 ,i w5t into ! exam9ations 9 :i* 0 to be ga9$ ! little %>e ( cr$it 9 ?is way :i* 0 to fall to my lot4 ,!y la/$ = a week2 &1 a day or two aft]1 ,i receiv$ a note f ,mr4 ,amos1 n[ a di/+ui%$ 444444 9 ,london1 :o 0 "o ( ! exam9]s1 & a great fri5d ( m9e1 :i* fill$ me ) exultation3 ',i h ! greate/ pleasure 9 in=m+ y t y are 9 ! fir/ class4 ,ollivant is only eight m>ks above y1 & y & he h left all ! re/ ( ! class at a long1 v long1 di/ance4' ,i aft]w>ds le>nt t ! highe/ numb] ( ! m>ks 0 betwe5 #a1fjj & #a1gjj1 & t :ile ,ollivant & ,i 7 ne> toge!r at ! head1 ! next to me 0 at ! di/ance ( #bia4 ,"l ,graham1 n[ ,duke ( ,montrose1 0 "o ( ! fir/ class1 & if he _h read z mu* z ,i did1 !re is no d\bt he w\ld h be5 be=e #dd me4 ,i 0 told at ! same "t t ,i le>nt ! above-nam$ p>ticul>s1 z ,i f9d x 9 my j\rnal1 t ',i 0 be/ 9 ma!matics1 & ,grahame next1 al?\gh ,grahame 0 fir/ 9 algebra2' aft] :i* ,i ?us express$ my ambition at ! "t3 ',i hope t ,grahame w n read = next ye>'s exam9ation1 & if my eyes la/ out 7= at t "t ,i 0 "u "s appreh5sion on t po9t7 ,i may h a *ance ( be+ fir/ !n1 :i* w\ld be delightful4' ,su* is all e>?ly ambition1 &1 z 9 my case1 s always its effects--disappo9tm5t & mortification4 ,_h ,i (f]$ all my /udies to ,god1 & work$ = ,him1 dep5d+ on ,8 help1 ,i %\ld h done mu* m4 ,i %\ld h enjoy$ my successes m purely1 & %\ld h be5 gu>d$ f all disappo9tm5t4 ,! second ye>'s exam9ation is mu* m conf9$ to ma!matics ?an to classics1 & _h ,i be5 wise & regul> & well-discipl9$ 9 my m9d1 ,i might h ga9$ t fir/ place :i* ,i 0 aim+ at1 = ,grahame did n read = x4 ,z x 01 ,ollivant1 :o 0 "s way beh9d me 9 ! fir/ ye>1 got up 8 gr\nd1 & beat me 9 ! second ye>'s exam9ation1 9 :i*1 ?\gh ,i 0 second aga91 ,i _h no rem>kable sup]iority ov] ! "o :o came next to me4 ,sp5c] =m$ ! acqua9tance ( ,sir ,?omas ,fremantle :ile !y 7 bo? at ,dunton "u ! *>ge ( ,mr4 ,blomfield4 ,fremantle w5t to ,ox=d & he to ,cambridge1 b !y cont9u$ ! intimacy1 begun "h1 to :i* ,sp5c] pays cordial tributes ( unfeign$ gratitude4 ,sir ,?omas 0 a welcome gue/ at ,al?orp2 he & ,george us$ to spur ea* o!r on to r5ew$ ex]tions 9 ! pursuit ( lit]>y hon\rs4 ,sp5c] =m$ a plan = ! long vacation1 & w5t1 on ,m>* #be1 to ,ox=d1 to lay ! subject be=e ,fremantle2 x 01 t !y %\ld g some:]e & read toge!r4 ,sp5c] got into ! coa* 9 ,london1 & arriv$ 9 ,ox=d at twelve at night4 ,he lionis$ ! place next day1 0 introduc$ to diff]5t celebrities1 & d9$ & w9$ 9 ! mo/ select companies 8 fri5ds1 ,fremantle & ,"l ,wilton1 c\ld mu/] = 8 reception4 ,he liv$ dur+ ! "t 9 ! rooms ( a #de fell[ common] ( ,oriel4 ,he did n leave a s+le dep>tm5t unvisit$4 ,he play$ at t5nis ) a ,mr4 ,d5ison2 comp>$ ! agreem5ts & disagreem5ts ( _! ways !re ) ^? ( ,cambridge2 ! only ?+ notewor?y he *ose to put d[n 9 8 di>y1 z ! result ( 8 comp>ison1 is1 t 7:5 he plays c>ds 9 ,w 999999's rooms1 :]e !re are f\r tables7 !y play high1 & ,i d n l ! k9d ( p>ty s well z ^? at ,cambridge4 ,sp5c] cont9u$ 9 ,cambridge1 & read1 or idl$1 z ! tone ( 8 m9d direct$1 until ! #ca/ ( ,july1 #ahah4 ,?is morn+ he set (f1 at half-pa/ five1 9 ! ,ris+ ,sun1 = ,birm+ham2 he falls 9 ) a brilliant ,etonian1 :o rec\nts ! progress ( ?+s at 8 old s*ool2 & has to sleep 9 :at he calls ! mo/ uncom=table & uncivil inn ,i h ev] se54 ,he sets (f on ano!r coa* next morn+ = ,%rewsbury1 & f9ds1 to 8 agreeable surprise1 t ,fremantle travell$ by ! inside ( ! same vehicle4 ,!y bo? travel toge!r into ,wales1 hav+ fir/ procur$ a supply ( c&les1 tea1 & o!r commodities = h\sekeep+1 :i* !y did n hope to f9d at h& :]e !y 7 go+ to4 ,aft] _m long /ages1 up-hill & d[n-hill1 among ,wel% m\nta9s1 & /range fell[-travell]s1 !y arrive at ,t[yn1 at t5 o'clock at night on ! #bnd ( ,augu/1 hav+ be5 ne>ly ?ree days p]=m+ a j\rney :i* c n[ be accompli%$ 9 a few h\rs4 ,t[yn is a little t[n 9 ,m]ione?%ire1 situat$ on ! sea coa/1 on a neck ( l& =m$ by a graceful little creek1 into :i* ! ,riv] ,doluny empties itself1 & a k9d ( slop+ arm ( ! *annel4 ,"h ,sp5c] & ,fremantle took up _! resid5ce = ! long vacation1 9 a nice little h\se = :i* !y paid t5 gu9eas a mon?4 ,!y _h ! :ole premises to !mselves1 ) a wait+-man nam$ ,davis1 & a maid ,kitty4 ,_! mode ( life 0 v regul>4 ,!y rose e>ly1 ba!d 9 ! sea1 :i* roll$ its waves aga9/ _! premises1 breakfa/$1 & /udi$ till two o'clock4 ,x 0 cu/om>y ) !m !n to g out explor+ ) dog & gun until d9n]1 d9e at five1 take ano!r /roll1 & read aga9 until !y ?\ght x "t to take tea1 #df & *at until b$-"t4 ,ea* 9 turn 0 /ew>d = a week2 !y pur*as$ _! own provisions 9 ! little t[n1 ?us mak+ a regul> home !re = ! t]m ( _! /ay4 ,!y read pretty well = ! fir/ week or two2 aft]w>ds !y got s fond ( brisk air & ! adv5tures !y came across 9 _! daily walks1 t ! read+ became less agreeable1 & soon irksome4 ,! fir/ adv5ture record$ 9 ! j\rnal is ! foll[+4 ,!y 7 bo? return+ home aft] a two h\rs' va9 pursuit ( game1 & came across a g\ty old g5tleman1 :o ask$ !m a numb] ( imp]t95t que/ions4 ,he !n ask$ !m to d9e1 b f9d+ out on inquiry t he 0 a notori\s blackgu>d1 al?\gh great 9 l&s & money1 !y politely decl9$ 8 invitation4 ,ano!r "t !y rode a great way up ! c\ntry & /opp$ at a pretty place1 :i* !y f\nd1 to _! *agr91 n to be a fairy ca/le exactly1 b a gr& %op = gossip1 kept by two old ladies1 assi/$ by a ?ird1 at ^: qualifications 9 po9t ( age ! read] is left to make guesses4 ,ano!r day !y w5t out to %oot1 & met ano!r s]i\s adv5ture1 :i* is ?us not$3 ,i got an imm5se duck+ 9 a black mud dit*1 :i* came up to my middle or high]1 & ,fremantle got a wett+ too1 b n s s]i\s z m9e4 ,?+s g on smoo?ly n[ = ab\t a week2 !y receive sev]al visits f neighb\r+ g5try1 & ! way 9 :i* ! return to "s ( !m is describ$ gives u a fair specim5 ( ! fl[ ( spirits ,sp5c] enjoy$ at ! "t4 ,saturday1 ,aug4 #ae4--,we made ourselves great] bucks ?an usual to-day1 & set (f at two to call on ,mr4 ,scott1 ne> ,ab]dovey4 ,he takes pupils !re4 ,we came home to d9n] at half-pa/ five2 & aft] d9n] 7/ill great] bucks7 we w5t to dr9k tea at ,bodalog1 ) ,mr4 & ,mrs4 ,jeffreys1 & came home at half-pa/ t5 7#ad miles walk+74 ,! next adv5ture 0 "o 9 :i* !y tri$ _! h&s at %oot+ on ! riv] ) ,mr4 ,jeffreys' long gun2 :e!r ! weight ( ! in/rum5t1 or an ef=t to rea* ! game t x kill$1 drew !m ne>] ! wat] ?an !y int5d$1 he tells u t !y got q s\s$ 9 ! wat]1 & figur$ at ! g5tleman's d9n]-table 9 two complete sets ( ! app>el ( #dg ! old man1 to ! no small amusem5t ( ! company4 ,no?+ rem>kable occurr$ aft] ?is to ! two fri5ds1 except a trip to ,ab]y/wy?1 :]e !y lodg$ a few days1 met a few old acqua9tances1 & enjoy$ a ball t 0 giv5 to ! ladies & g5tlem5 :o 7 !re = ! season2 until ! #ad? ( ,septemb]4 ,?is day !y _h a great battle ( words ) _! l&lord1 :o did n l _! leav+ him s soon3 9 ?is1 h[ev]1 !y came (f victori\s4 ,!y bo? travel ?r\gh ,wales1 visit ,sn[don1 ,c>n>von1 & meet a body ( ,cambridge m5 read+ ) a tutor at ,conway4 ,septemb] #bi?1 he took ! mail to ,london1 & ?us end$ 8 long vacation4 ,he /ays at ,wimbl$on ) 8 own family until ! "t = return+ to ,cambridge aga94 ,he relates 9 ! j\rnal t a man comes to tea* ,lady ,sp5c]1 8 "m1 h[ to b9d books4 ,?is may be ?\ght a /range k9d ( recreation = a lady ( high rank2 b x w n :5 we read t ?is 0 ! same p]son :o set (f ! fa%ion ( %oemak+6 ,he concludes 8 fir/ ye> 9 ,cambridge ?us3--,?is day's j\rnal completes a ye> f ! "t ,i began to keep my hi/ory4 ,x has inde$ be5 an important ye> 9 my life ! fir/ 9 :i* ,i h be5 my own ma/]1 & h1 ,i fe>1 settl$ my "* ) all its faults4 ,sev]al ?+s :i* ,i h bo? done & undone ,i %all nev] cease regrett+4 ,i h only to ?ank ,god t !re is no m reason = regret4 ,) my read+1 on ! :ole1 ,i am z well satisfi$ z ,i ev] expect$4 ,two words are und]l9$ 9 ?is extract2 !y 7 (t5 on 8 lips till ! day ( 8 dea?1 & frequ5tly =m$ ! subject ( 8 s]mons4 ,if 8 "* _h its faults settl$ ) x 9 8 own e/imation1 x is pleas+ to see ! habit ( resignation exi/+ z a virtue 9 him ev5 at ?is age4 ,x 0 "o t 0 confirm$ 9 him aft]w>ds1 to an em95t degree4 #dh ,,*apt] ,,viii4 ,second ,ye> ,9 ,cambridge--,takes ,8 ,degree4 ,dur+ ! fir/ t]m ( 8 second ye> 9 ,cambridge1 8 av]age h\rs ( read+ decreas$2 yet he _h /ill a ta/e = /udy1 & _h n yet ?r[n aside :at rema9$ ( 8 =m] ambition to di/+ui% himself4 ,he & ! ,duke ( ,montrose declaim on ! respective m]its ( ,*>les ,v4 & ,francis ,i42 !y toss$ up = sides1 & ,*>les ,v4 fell to ,sp5c]4 ,?is keeps him at h>d /udy = "s "t2 mean:ile he he>s ,ollivant declaim1 & ?9ks he w get bo? prizes4 ,aft] ! declamation1 9 :i* he comes (f m cr$itably ?an he expect$1 he has half a hope ( a prize1 :i* he says he %\ld be surpris$ ?\gh delight$ to receive4 ,he did get "o1 b n s high z he expect$4 ,"h & !re 9 8 j\rnal at ?is "t a few expressions ( discont5t escape f him ab\t ,cambridge2 ! cause be+ p>tially :at has be5 relat$ 9 ! *apt] be=e la/4 ,?is _h also1 conjo9tly ) ano!r circum/ance1 ! effect ( cutt+ %ort 8 ,univ]sity c>e]4 ,he writes 9 ! autobiography3-- ,i made "s good progress dur+ ?is ye>1 b ,i %\ld h done mu* m _h ,i be5 con/antly regul>4 ,i mu/ h suff]$ great loss by my int]ruptions1 z ,i f9d by my j\rnal t = ab\t f\r weeks at ! end ( ! long vacation1 :5 ,i _h come home & 0 tak5 up ) %oot+1 ,i did n make "o h\r's /udy2 & two m long int]vals ( cessation f read+ took place 9 ! ,*ri/mas & ,ea/] vacations1 :5 a little /eady application1 if x 7 b = ?ree h\rs a-day1 w\ld h kept my m9d att5tive1 & giv5 me a great advantage4 ,aft] my fir/ exam9ation1 ,i ent]ta9$ "s ?\ghts #di ( waiv+ my privilege ( tak+ an honor>y degree1 & go+ ?r\gh ! ,s5ate ,h\se exam9ations ) a view to ,univ]sity hon\rs2 b ,i lo/ all wi% to rema9 at ,cambridge t[>ds ! end ( ! second autumn4 ,i 0 at times q disgu/$ ) ! place1 = su* reasons z ,i h /at$2 besides :i*1 my fa!r & "m _h made a plan1 :i* pleas$ me greatly1 ( go+ = a ye> on ! ,cont95t1 9 :i* ,i 0 to accompany !m4 ,my bro!r ,fr$]ick1 :o 0 come home ab\t ?is "t1 0 to be ( ! p>ty likewise1 & happy 0 ,i 9 ! prospect ( be+ aga9 "s "t 9 8 company2 b z an opportunity occurr$ = him to g to ,s\? ,am]ica1 ) ,sir ,?omas ,h>dy1 ) ! hope ( be+ made ,comm&]1 ?is pr(essional advantage 0 ju/ly pref]r$4 ,"s ( ! heads at ,cambridge z well z ,lady ,sp5c] urg$ him at ?is "t to /& = a fell[%ip1 b he gave up ! idea1 & x end$ 9 8 jo9+ a new club !y _h =m$--! ,eton club4 ,^! clubs at ! ,univ]sities are look$ ^u ) no great fav\r by proctors & o!rs :o h *>ge ( ! morals ( ! /ud5ts4 ,_! d9n]s entail great exp5ses on ! memb]s1 & !y end z ! fir/ meet+ did 9 8 case3 ,!y all made an enorm\s r[1 & ,i too1 by ! bye4 ,he came to sp5d ! ,*ri/mas ( #ahah at ,al?orp1 & closes ! ye> ) a succession ( p>ties1 ,pope ,joan1 & bookb9d+4 ,!re is "o little incid5t record$ 9 8 j\rnal at ?is "t :i* gives u a p]fect insight into 8 "*4 ,"o might expect t at ?is age1 n9ete51 he w\ld be v romantic & dreamy1 & t we %\ld f9d _m allusions to ^? topics :i* engross s mu* ( ! "t ( novel-read+ y\?s & maid5s n[adays4 ,no?+ ( ! sort4 ,!re is an affair ( ! he>t1 b 8 conduct 9 x1 ) 8 rem>ks on x1 are wor?y ( a sexag5>ian4 ,at a p>ty1 :i* took place at 8 fa!r's1 he dances ) v>i\s "y ladies1 among ! re/ a c]ta9 ,miss ,a41 :o1 he says1 0 a great flame ( m9e two ye>s ago2 %e is n s pretty z ,i ?\ght h] !n1 b %e is a delightful p>tn]4 ,i 0 aga9 9 love1 b n viol5tly to-night4 ,two or ?ree days aft] ?is1 he is at ano!r p>ty1 & #ej dances ) a new set ( p>tn]s to ! ext5t ( ?ree quadrilles4 ,( "o ( ^! he ?us speaks--,i 0 delight$ ) ,miss ,b41 :o is a pleasant unaffect$ girl1 & ,i am doom$ to ?9k ( h] ,i suppose = two or ?ree days in/ead ( ,miss ,a4 ,i 0 provok$ t %e w\ld n give me h] fan at p>t+4 ,0 x n cool & ?\ghtful ( him to m>k out ! "t su* a *ange ( s5tim5t 0 likely to la/8 ,! next page ( ! j\rnal br+s ! subject be=e u /ill m cle>ly4 ,8 "m took him = a walk ar\nd ,al?orp1 & told him t %e 0 plann+ a h\se = ! p>sonage at ,br+ton3 ,:i* !y say is to be m9e :5 ,i am old en\gh2 x might be made a mo/ com=table & ev5 a pretty place1 & if ,i live to come to x ,i c figure to myself "s happy ye>s !re ) a fond p>tn] ( my joys1 if ,i c meet ) a good "o4 ',"h !n1 & ) !e1 my ,n4' ,footnote #b w\ld h be5 my language "s "t ago2 b h[ my op9ions ev5 ( su* important ?+s *ange ) my increas+ ye>s4 ,?is ?\ght (t5 occurs to me1 & w ,i hope prev5t me f ev] mak+ any engagem5ts :i* _c be brok51 9 case my fancy %\ld be alt]$ dur+ ! "t :i* mu/ elapse be=e ! completion ( !m4 ,x w be se51 fur!r on 9 ! biography1 h[ ?is affair end$4 ,!re is a v good lesson 9 :at he has left = "y m5 ( 8 age4 ,if reason 7 all[$ to direct ! affections1 _m w\ld be pres]v$ f ra% /eps t embitt] _! :ole lives4 ,x seems amus+ to a ,ca?olic to f9d ! prospects ( a cl]gyman's happ9ess s v commonplace2 b x w be a relief to le>n by-&-by h[ v diff]5t 7 8 ideas :5 he became a cl]gyman1 & built & dwelt 9 t id5tical p>sonage t n[ exi/$ only 9 8 own & 8 "m's m9d4 ,he gets a commission 9 ! ,nor?ampton%ire ,yeomanry be=e return+ to ,cambridge = ,hil>y t]m ?is ye>4 ,footnote #b3 ,a quotation1 z ! read] may rememb]1 f ,guy ,mann]+4 ,/udies seem to him a necess>y evil n[1 & he writes ) a k9d ( a sigh ( relief :5 he notes1 a few pages on1 t he has tak5 8 la/ compulsory lesson 9 ,lat94 #ea ,balls & p>ties ( all k9ds are 8 rage4 ,george & a fri5d ( 8 _h notice ( a ball com+ (f 9 ,nor?ampton 9 a few days1 & he he>d t 8 ladye love w\ld be "o ( ! company1 s !y det]m9$ to be !re4 ,he writes lett]s1 gets an invitation = 8 fri5d1 & makes all ! prep>ation possible = a week previ\s4 ,! day comes1 x is ra9y2 b1 no matt]1 !y pack _! be/ suits into trunks1 br+ ! necess>y app>atus = mak+ a good appe>ance1 !y se>* ! t[n = a conveyance1 & at l5g? procure a team = a t&em at ,jordan's4 ,(f !y g1 eighte5 miles ! fir/ /age1 !n eight m2 !y bait _! horses & d9e2 (f aga9 = full sixte5 miles4 ,he has also to run ! risk ( a cross-exam9ation f :atev] memb]s ( 8 family he may happ5 to meet at ! ball1 & to answ] ! difficult "q1 ,:at br\ght y "h8 ,x is ra9+ 9 torr5ts1 x is a cold ,febru>y day2 b all difficulties appe> trifles to ! two "y adv5tur]s z !y urge _! team ov] ! hills & pla9s ( ,nor?ampton%ire4 ,ev5 ,sp5c] boa/s 9 8 j\rnal t he is n[ a fir/-rate :ip4 ,!y arrive 9 high glee1 =gett+ _! h>d%ips 9 ! gl[ ( anticipation1 & are greet$ ) ! bad news1 z !y jump f _! conveyance1 t ! ball has be5 put (f until next mon?4 ,to make matt]s worse1 ! be>] ( ^! unfav\rable tid+s assur$ !m t he wrote to !m to give ?is in=mation1 & !y _h an additional motive to *agr9 9 ! fact ( _! hav+ =gott5 to ask = _! lett]s 9 ! hurry & anxiety to come (f4 ,he notes 9 ! j\rnal--,feb4 #aj4 ,we set (f aga9 9 our t&em = ,cambridge1 truly dimissis auribus1 b ) a resolution to try aga9 on ! #e? ,m>*4 ,on ! #e? ( ,m>* !y fai?fully c>ri$ out ?is resolution4 ,! ball took place1 b ! ladies !y 7 anxi\s to meet did n come1 s !y only half enjoy$ ! ?+4 ,sp5c] took a hack & rode (f to ,al?orp to make 8 appe>ance at 8 fa!r's4 ,he 0 v n]v\s ab\t ! prospect ( a meet+ ) 8 p>5ts1 & hav+ to give an acc\nt ( himself4 ,=tunately ! ,e>l 0 deep 9 "s measure = fur!r+ ,george's happ9ess1 & look$ ^u 8 son's #eb arrival z an auspici\s visit4 ,ev]y?+ ?us pass$ (f smoo?ly1 & ! y\ng/]s arriv$ 9 ,cambridge ) _! t&em )\t accid5ts1 b ) two or ?ree n>r[ escapes4 ,8 j\rnal "h has few incid5ts out ( ! ord9>y l9e ( 8 daily life2 he le>ns to wre/le ) success2 s z to br+ 8 antagoni/ to ! gr\nd ) a dilapidation ( ! res ve/i>ia4 ,he practises a good deal at jump+1 & "o day1 9 cle>+ a h$ge1 a bramble caught 8 foot1 :i* br\ght him ) viol5ce to ! gr\nd2 by ?is mi%ap 8 eye 0 ornam5t$ ) a sc> :i* gave him "s tr\ble aft]w>ds4 ,he also gets a %y+ horse to ride3 ?is noble *>g] _h a p>ticul> dislike to c>ts3 he %i$ at "o 9 ! m>ket-place 9 ,cambridge1 & soon left 8 rid] on ! flags4 ,sp5c] m\nt$ aga91 b f\nd on 8 return1 aft] a good ride1 t 8 toe 0 spra9$1 & x kept him indoors = five or six days4 ,?is *apt] ( accid5ts 0 amply c\nt]balanc$ by ! agreeable fact t he _h j att5d$ 8 tw5ty-fif? div9ity lecture1 & _h obta9$ ! c]tificate :i* 0 to insure him ! imposition ( 8 bi%op's h&s1 :5ev] he might ?9k x conv5i5t to put himself to ! tr\ble ( go+ ?r\gh ! c]emony4 ,8 c\rse is n[ com+ to an end2 he becomes a freemason1 & rises f\r degrees 9 ! craft be=e ! end ( ,june4 ,a bi%op visits ,tr9ity ,college1 & /&+ 9 solemn gr&eur1 ) a /aff ( college (fic]s dress$ out 9 _! insignia encircl+ him1 8 lord%ip deliv]s a grave expression ( 8 displeasure at ! /upidity "s tw5ty /ud5ts gave evid5ce ( dur+ _! exam9ation4 ,sp5c] comes out 9 ! fir/ class once m2 8 bro!r ,fr$]ick is 9 ,cambridge at ! "t1 & z soon z ! result is kn[n !y take coa* = ,london4 ,"h !y sp5d _! "t agreeably betwe5 d9+ at home & abroad1 go+ to ,cov5t ,g>d51 & tak+ sundry lessons f an ,italian danc+-ma/]1 until ,july #e?1 :5 ,george returns to ,cambridge to take out 8 degree4 ,we w he> himself n[ giv+ an acc\nt ( ?is great ev5t4 ,my college lab\rs t]m9at$ ) ! end ( ! second ye>'s college exam9ation = ! classes1 :i* took #ec place on ! #a/ ( ,june1 #ahai4 ,on ! #e? ( ,june ! result 0 decl>$1 :51 z ,i h be=e said1 ,i 0 9 ! fir/ class aga91 & second to ,ollivant4 ,?is 0 r a disappo9tm5t1 & gave me "s reasonable discont5t4 ,= ! cause ( my n be+1 z ,i might h expect$1 z f> above ! o!rs z ,i _h be5 ! ye> be=e1 ,i saw cle>ly 0 a degree ( c>elessness 9 my read+1 especially ( "o subject t is1 ! ?ree fir/ sections ( ,newton's ,pr9cipia1 :i* 7 appo9t$ = ! second ye>'s read+1 & = :i* ,i _h n _h a ta/e z = o!r p>ts ( ma!matics4 ,h[ev]1 ! "t 0 n[ pa/ to recov] my place1 & soon ! importance ( ?is little matt] vani%$ into no?+4 ,i !n w5t to ,london till ! beg9n+ ( ,july1 :5 ,i return$ to ,cambridge to receive my degree z ,ma/] ( ,arts f ! ,duke ( ,gl\ce/]1 :o came 9 p]son at ! comm5cem5t ( ?is ye> to conf] ! degrees z ,*ancellor ( ! ,univ]sity1 & to be ent]ta9$ ) ! be/ t ! colleges c\ld raise to (f] him 9 ! way ( fea/s & gaieties4 ,my ,cambridge c>es & tr\bles 7 n[ well-nigh pa/1 & ,i enjoy$ greatly ! position ,i held at ?is comm5cem5t z /ew>d ( ! ball1 & a sort ( lead] ( ! gaieties 9 ! pres5ce ( ! ,royal p]sonages1 because ,i 0 ! fir/ 9 rank ( ^? :o receiv$ _! honor>y degrees4 ,f ?is "t !re has be5 a complete cessation ) me ( all ma!matical /udies1 & almo/ ( all my classical1 to :i* ,i h h>dly ev] aga9 ref]r$4 ,= :5 ,i aga9 return$ to regul> /udy1 ,i _h no?+ 9 my m9d b matt]s ( !ology4 ,x 0 at ?is "t1 aft] leav+ ,cambridge1 :5 ,i rema9$ pr9cipally fix$ z an inmate 9 my fa!r's h\se1 till ,i 0 settl$ 9 ! c\ntry z a cl]gyman1 t ,i 0 9 ! "* ( :at is call$ a "y man ab\t t[n4 ,x 0 ) my de> bro!r ,fr$]ick1 :o 0 at home at ! "t1 z ,i be=e obs]v$1 t ,i began 9 e>ne/ to take a %>e 9 ! enjoym5t ( ,london life4 ,i h se5 ! dang]s1 ! pleasures1 & ! mis]ies ( t c>e]1 ?\gh all 9 a mitigat$ degree1 f ! happy circum/ance ( my n #ed be+ left alone to f9d my way ?r\gh x1 z s _m are at ! age ( :i* ,i speak4 ,) _m1 no d\bt1 ! life 9 ,london is ! "t = go+ to ! full dep? ( all ! evil ( :i* ,ox=d or ,cambridge h giv5 ! fir/ reli%4 ,my fa!r & "m 7 n l _m ag$ vet]ans 9 dissipation--:om 9 ! days :5 ! fa%ionable _w 0 mo/ acc\nt$ ( by me1 ,i h look$ on ) pity--:o to ! la/ ( _! /r5g? keep up :at !y c ( y\?1 9 pursu+ /ill ! r\nd ( ! gay p>ties ( "o ris+ g5]ation aft] ano!r4 ,!y 7my p>5ts7 h>dly ev] w5t into society away f home4 ,!y kept a gr& e/abli%m5t1 :5 9 ,london1 at ,sp5c] ,h\se1 z well z at ,al?orp 9 ! w9t]1 :5 ! fir/ society1 :e!r ( ! political1 or ! lit]>y & sci5tific1 7 con/antly receiv$4 ,x w\ld1 !re=e1 h be5 unreasonable 9 me to be fond ( go+ out = ! sake ( society1 :51 p]haps1 none 0 to be met ) s int]e/+ z t at home2 besides ?is1 my fa!r & "m 7 fond ( be+ surr\nd$ by _! family circle2 & if ,i or my bro!rs1 :5 /ay+ ) !m 9 ,london1 w5t out f home sev]al times 9 succession1 or _m times a week1 !y w\ld g5]ally express "s disappo9tm5t or displeasure2 & ?\gh ,i us$ at ! "t to be sometimes vex$ at ?is k9d ( re/ra9t1 z ,i 0 at o!r re/ra9ts on :at ,i might h reckon$ ! lib]ty ( a "y man1 ,i us$ g5]ally1 ev5 !n1 to see h[ pref]able my condition 04 ,i n[ mo/ cle>ly see t ! feel+s ( my p>5ts 9 ?is matt] 7 mo/ reasonable1 & t x 0 a great bless+ to me t ,i 0 situat$ 9 su* circum/ances4 ,!y 7 desir\s t we %\ld see ! _w1 & :5 any amusem5t 0 go+ on1 or p>ty 0 to take place1 :i* %e ?\ght really wor?y ( att5tion1 z n be+ s frivol\s z ! g5]al run ( su* ?+s1 my "m zeal\sly assi/$ 9 procur+ u invitations1 & provid+ u ) ne$ful dresses2 z1 = in/ance1 at ?is "t %e gave to my bro!r ,fr$]ick & me v h&some full-dress uni=ms 78 be+1 ( c\rse1 t ( a naval (fic]1 m9e ( ! ,nor?ampton%ire ,yeomanry1 9 :i* ,i !n held a commission71 #ee t we might appe> at balls & p>ties :]e full-dress 0 requir$1 su* z =eign ambassadors sometimes gave4 ,^! 71 %e ?\ght1 really wor? go+ to on acc\nt ( extraord9>y or rem>kable *>act]s :o came to !m1 :e!r ,engli% or =eign]s4 ,?anks to _! regul> dome/ic habits1 & to ! /rict au?ority :i* my "m /ill kept ov] u all1 :ile be+ at ,sp5c] ,h\se1 ,i %\ld h f\nd x almo/ z difficult z 9 a well-regulat$ college to g into any extravagant irregul>ities1 & s ,i 0 h>dly tempt$ to d s4 ,my feel+ habitually 0 to try & avoid invitations & engagem5ts f home1 f> f seek+ !m eag]ly4 ,! incid5ts we are able to add f 8 j\rnal dur+ ! int]val betwe5 leav+ ,cambridge & go+ abroad are v meagre1 yet1 s9ce !y are *>act]i/ic ( ! man's feel+s1 a few w be ins]t$4 ,f ! j\rnal3 ,tuesday1 ,july #bj4 ,we got up & w5t to a dreadful =mal breakfa/ at #aj4 ,at "o we 7 dress$1 & ! company began to arrive = a public breakfa/1 to be giv5 to-day to ! p ( ! c\nty 9 hon\r ( ! m>riage ( ,"l ,temple4 ,! collation 0 9 ! gre5h\se1 & la/$ (f & on till ab\t #f6 ,he goes ?r\gh ! p>ticul>s ( ! ent]ta9m5t1 ! quadrilles & c\ntry dances1 ! p>tn]s' p]fections1 c41 c42 b :5 ,lady ,buck+ham ask$ himself & 8 bro!r to /ay a little :ile long]1 mu* z !y lik$ x1 !y w\ld n d s1 because _! "m desir$ !m to be home at a c]ta9 "t4 ,"o mu/ admire 8 ob$i5ce ev5 at ! exp5se ( 8 enjoym5t1 :5 he might calculate ^u ! implicit cons5t ( 8 "m to _! acc$+ to su* a reque/1 & f su* a qu>t]4 ,ano!r ?+ we ga!r f ?is is1 t ,f4 ,ignatius1 ev5 :5 a y\?1 c\ld nev] be> :at 0 =mal or ultra-ref9$2 he always lik$ natural ease & unaffect$ simplicity4 ,we f9d him turn away f a blue-/ock+1 & /eal ?ree days' ?\ghts f 8 flame to be/[ !m on "o m unaffect$ & simple4 ,! next incid5t he *ooses to record is1 t ! cl]gyman ( ! *ur* he us$ to att5d _h gone to sp5d 8 honeymoon1 & t a prea*] :om he did n admire took 8 pulpit #ef 9 8 abs5ce4 ,!re are "s p>t+s ( fri5ds1 & a great v>iety ( amusem5ts1 to fill up ! pages = a mon? or s4 ,fa!r ,ignatius us$ to tell a v rem>kable anecdote ab\t ?is p]iod ( 8 life2 he us$ x to illu/rate ! sacrifices t p c will+ly make = ! law ( fa%ion1 & h[ reluctant !y are to make ev5 ! smalle/ = ! love ( ,god4 ,!re 0 a great ball to be giv5 some:]e 9 ,london2 x 0 to be a mo/ spl5did affair1 full 9 all p>ticul>s ( dress & etiquette1 & "o ( ^? t ! ,c\ntess ,sp5c] ?\ght really wor? go+ to4 ,a celebrat$ coiffeur 0 import$ direct f ,p>is1 & he _h a peculi> /yle ( hair-dress+ t none ( t craft 9 ,london c\ld hope to imitate ) success4 ,all ! belles1 m>*ionesses ( high degree1 :o int5d$ figur+ at ! ball1 hir$ ! ,fr5* coiffeur4 ,he accept$ all ! engagem5ts1 b f\nd !y 7 s _m t x w\ld take tw5ty-f\r h\rs' h>d "w1 )\t a mom5t's repose1 to satisfy all4 ,he _h to beg9 at ?ree o'clock 9 ! aft]noon ( ! day prec$+ ! ball1 & ,fa!r ,ignatius knew "o lady :o 0 high ^u 8 li/4 ,%e _h h] hair dress$ ab\t f\r1 &1 le/ x might be dis>rang$1 slept 9 h] arm-*air1 ) h] neck 9 /ocks1 = ! night4 ,?is lady1 be x rememb]$1 0 no fooli% "y belle1 b a matron :o might h conv5i5tly introduc$ h] gr&daught] to ! circle %e att5d$4 ,^! p1 he us$ to say1 laugh at ! folly ( ,/4 ,pet] ( ,alcant>a & o!r mortifi$ sa9ts2 & we1 :o aspire to be sa9ts1 w und]go ) difficulty :at worldl+s *e]fully endure = vanity & folly4 ,he (t5 laugh$ at ?is1 & (t5 laugh$ o!rs into s]i\sness at 8 comm5ts on x4 #eg ,,*apt] ,,ix4 ,travels ,on ,! ,cont95t4 ,sp5c]'s ?\ghts n[ seem$ p]petually flutt]+ ar\nd ! expectation ( go+ abroad & see+ wond]s4 ,?is idea comes out at mo/ unexpect$ times 9 ! j\rnal1 x =ms a p>5!sis 9 ev]y?+ he consid]s be>+ s]i\sly ^u 8 welf>e4 ,at "o "t he is disappo9t$ 9 n hav+ 8 bro!r = companion1 at ano!r he hopes 8 p>5ts w n consid] ?is trip travell+ en\gh = him2 he expects1 too1 t ! p>5tal re9s w be slack5$ some:at2 & ev5 x crosses 8 m9d1 z a k9d ( remote probability1 t he may p]*ance be all[$ to take a t\r by himself4 ,all t 0 hopeful 9 ^! day-dreams 0 gratifi$1 & "s ( !m to an ext5t t he 0 v f> f imag9+ at ! "t4 ,! great day did arrive at la/2 ! ev5+ be=e1 ! diff]5t bran*es ( ! family came to d9e at ,wimbl$on1 :]e ! ,e>l 0 !n /ay+4 ,!y 7 v s]i\s1 z !y 7 go+ on a =midable exp$ition next morn+4 ,9 ! morn+1 ! diff]5t articles ( luggage 7 s5t be=e !m on a van2 &1 aft] p>t+ ) ,lords ,al?orp1 ,lyttelton1 & _! families1 ! p>ty />t$ = ! ,cont95t4 ,x consi/$ ( ,"l & ,lady ,sp5c] 9 "o c>riage1 ,george & ! physician 9 ano!r1 & ! s]vants 9 a ?ird4 ,!y _h a c\ri] employ$1 ,luigi ,cavani1 ^: (fice x 0 to ride ahead ( ! cavalcade1 & provide horses & o!r necess>ies at ! next /age4 ,!y set sail at ,dov] at six o'clock on ! ev5+ ( ! #ad? ,septemb]1 &1 aft] :at 0 call$ a fav\rable passage1 arriv$ 9 ,calais ! next morn+ at half-pa/ sev5 o'clock4 ,"o c leave ,london ,bridge n[adays at ! "t !y left ,dov] ,h>b\r1 & be 9 ,p>is be=e !y l&$4 #eh ,he says 9 ! autobiography3 ,x 0 on ! #ae? ( ,septemb]1 #ahai1 t we l&$ at ,calais a day mo/ int]e/+ to me1 z ,i !n consid]$1 because ! fir/ ( my sett+ foot 9 a =eign l&1 b mu* m1 ,i n[ mu/ reckon1 z be+ ! fir/ on :i* ,i trod ,ca?olic gr\nd & ent]$ a ,ca?olic *ur*4 ,9 ! j\rnal he says3 ,dr4 ,wilson & ,i walk$ ab\t a little 79 ,calais7 to ! m>ket-place & ! *ur*1 bo? :i* 7 extraord9>y to ! greate/ degree 9 my eyes4 ,sept4 #af4 ,we breakfa/$ at eight1 & !n />t$ on our j\rney4 #a/ w5t my fa!r & "m 9 _! c>riage ) #d horses2 #bndly4 ,dr4 ,wilson & ,i 9 a hir$ cal*e ) two horses4 #crd4 ,drewe & ! maids1 9 "o ) ?ree horses2 & la/1 ! f\rgon1 ) #c4 ,?is 0 ! ord] ( m>*4 ,i 0 amus$ extremely by ! diff]5ce ( ?is & our ,engli% po/+4 ,! appe>ance ( ! po/ilions is s new to me1 z !y crack _! long :ips ov] _! heads1 & ! little horses ) _! rope h>ness look s mean4 ,luigi rode po/ to ord] horses & manage ev]y?+ = u1 & 0 always f\nd wait+ at e relay4 ,we quote ?is 9 full to give an idea ( h[ noblem5 travell$ 9 ! n v old5 "t4 ,if ,george 0 mu* surpris$ at ! *ur* 9 ,calais1 8 wond] knew no b\nds :5 he ent]$ ! ,ca!dral 9 ,ami5s1 & saw ,mass p]=m$ by sep>ate ,prie/s at diff]5t ,alt>s1 & p at ea*4 ,?is is a my/]y to ,prote/ants :o see ,ca?olic rites = ! fir/ "t4 ,!y are taught to look ^u true wor%ip z consi/+ 9 ! mean+ ( "s well-writt5 s5t5ces1 pron\nc$ ) emphatic unction1 & respond$ to ) "s degree ( f]v\r4 ,! s]vice1 ! f9e old psalms1 an!ms1 & collects ( ! ,pray]-,book1 issu+ =? 9 melodi\s acc5ts f ! lips ( a ,god-fe>+ man1 is ab\t ! highe/ k9d ( public wor%ip !y c h any notion (4 ,! s]mon is fir/ ) "s1 second ) o!rs2 b :atev] place ! peculi> excell5ce ( ! prea*]1 & ! effects ( x on a giv5 occasion1 may ga9 9 ! he>t ( an individual1 x may be tak5 = grant$ t ! s]vice comes be=e ! s]mon 9 ! ab/ract4 ,b s]vice & s]mon mu/ be he>d1 & #ei li/5$ to1 & und]/ood4 ,) ?is idea 9 _! m9ds1 & accu/om$ to see ! m9i/] assume a mann] & mi5 calculat$ to produce pray]ful ?\ghts 9 8 congregation1 !y are surpris$1 if n %ock$1 at ! ,ca?olic ,mass4 ,!y f9d ! ,prie/ hurry+ (f ?r\gh ,lat9 pray]s1 & produc+ brea?less att5tion by 8 own sil5ce2 !y see him array$ 9 un9telligible attire1 mov+ "o way & ano!r1 b[+1 g5uflect+1 /&+ /ill1 or bless+4 ,!y sc>cely und]/& a ^w or ge/ure1 & feel p]fectly sure t ! old woman :o beats h] brea/ & c\nts h] beads by ! side ( _! />+ effront]y is z mu* 9 ! d>k z !mselves1 if n m4 ,!y h se5 "o evid5ce m ( ! humbug ( ,pop]y1 & bless ,god t ,cranm] procur$ !m ano!r ritual4 ,x is n our object to expla9 ,ca?olic my/]ies1 b x may be z well to h9t t if a /rang] to ,j]usalem happ5$ to w&] to ,calv>y on ! great day ( ! ,crucifixion1 & believ$ 9 ! div9ity ( ! ,victim :o hung ^u ! ,cross1 he w\ld f9d m devotion 9 kneel+ 9 sil5ce at ,8 feet1 ?an 9 li/5+ to ! mo/ eloqu5t declamation he c\ld he> ab\t x4 ,su* is ! case ) ! ,ca?olic n[ z !n2 he kn[s ! same ,victim is (f]$ up /ill1 & :5 ! great mom5t arrives 9 ! middle ( ! ,mass1 he w\ld h ev]y?+ to be hu%$ & sil5t1 except ! little bell t gives him notice ( ! awful mom5t4 ,a reason :y !re %\ld be p at ! diff]5t alt>s lies 9 ?is3 t !re is ! same ,sacrifice on ea*1 & "o may happ5 to come into ! *ur* at a "t :5 x w\ld be m conv5i5t to he> ,mass at "s "o place ?an at ano!r4 ,! c\rse ( _! j\rney lay ?r\gh ,p>is1 :i* !y ent]$ f ,/4 ,d5is by ,montm>tre4 ,!y rema9$ "s days !re to see ,notre ,dame1 & ,p>is f its summit1 admire ! l5g? ( ! ,l\vre1 & visit ,fonta9ebleau4 ,9 ! c\rse !y took by ,aux]re1 ,maison ,neuve1 ,dijon1 ,poligny1 & ,morey1 9 ord] to cross ,m\nt ,jura & to see ,mont ,blanc on _! way to ,switz]l&1 !y h to endure _m privations4 ,! inns are bad1 ! cook+ is inf]ior1 & !y h to und]go discom=ts :ile sleep+ 9 #fj ! *lets ( m\nta9e]s1 :o 7 n accu/om$ to h _! quiet invad$ by su* /ate visits e day4 ,all ?is !y bore manfully until !y arriv$ 9 ,g5eva1 :i* !y f9d cramm$ ) ,engli%4 ,x /rikes ,george z extraord9>y t ! ,g5evese %\ld h _! %ops 9 ! top /ory ( _! h\ses4 ,he misses ! morn+ s]vice 9 ! ,calv9i/ ,*ur* on ,sunday2 ?9ks _! aft]noon function v l ! ,scot*1 & s5sible4 ,he gives v5t to 8 indignation at f9d+ a numb] ( blackgu>d fell[s play+ c>ds & smok+1 publicly1 at a cafe1 :il/ !re 7 only tw5ty at *ur*4 ,he is disappo9t$1 !re=e1 at n f9d+ ,g5eva ! dev\t1 religi\s place he imag9$ x to be4 ,he sees a few ( ! sights ) ,dr4 ,wilson1 & !y cross ! ,lago ,maggiore 9 a boat1 :il/ ! re/ ( ! company g r\nd x by l&4 ,!y all meet toge!r 9 ,milan2 !re !y f9d ,"l ,lucan4 ,he goes to see ! ,duomo1 ,br]a1 !atres2 & admires ! f9e /reets1 %ops1 c41 & says ! ,ca!dral is unique4 ,he _h ! pleasure ( meet+ ! fam\s ,angelo1 aft]w>ds ,c>d9al1 ,mai at ! ,ambrosian ,libr>y4 ,he w5t to ! ,ca!dral on ,saturday to see ,mass p]=m$1 & 0 disappo9t$ at n he>+ ! organ4 ,he _h1 h[ev]1 q en\gh ( ! rite on ,sunday1 ,octob] #ag?3-- ,at #aj ,i w5t to ! ,duomo1 & got into a little gall]y ov] ! *oir1 f :5ce ,i saw ! c]emonies = ! anniv]s>y ( ! consecration ( ! *ur*4 ,!re 0 a procession all r\nd ! build+1 ) inc5se burn+1 & ) ! ,prie/s s++ an!ms all ! "t1 & a quantity ( o!r mumm]y1 ! sight ( :i* might well h driv5 ,calv9 to ! extremities :i* he w5t to 9 ! contr>y way4 ,! :ole s]vice is always 9 ,lat91 s t ! p may n reap ev5 ! smalle/ b5efit f x4 ,we %all give ano!r extract f ! j\rnal1 z x %[s ! /ate ( 8 m9d at ! "t3-- ,?is day completes ! second ye> ( my j\rnal4 ,h[ quick are !y fl[n6 ^? two ye>s :i* are suppos$ to be ! happie/ 9 life4 ,i ?9k any "t 9 life is happy if "o kn[s ! secret ( mak+ #fa x s4 ,i h n le>nt x yet1 & h _h a great deal ( unhapp9ess s9ce go+ to ,college4 ,b = :at8 ,no?+ b my own imag9ation & weaknesses1 = ev]y?+ :i* g5]ally gives happ9ess ,i h enjoy$4 ,i h made sev]al fri5ds1 be5 successful en\gh 9 my ,college /udies1 & h nev] want$ any?+2 b ,i h a morbid con/itution :i* makes me raise phantoms ( unhapp9ess :]e !re is none1 & cl\ds ! faire/ sc5es ) a veil ( melan*oly4 ,?is mu/ be conqu]$1 someh[ or o!r1 or ,i %all be a creature useless to o!rs & torm5t+ to myself4 ,he feels mu* di/a/e at :at he t]ms ! dirty /yle 9 :i* an ,italian g5tleman *ooses to live1 because t g5tleman f9ds himself q com=table )\t su* furniture & appliances z are deem$ ess5tial 9 ,engl&4 ,he happ5$ to be a man fond ( books1 & sp5t 8 sp>e "t 9 libr>ies & academies4 ,! travell]s leave ,milan aft] a =tnight's /ay1 & proce$ ?r\gh ,plac5tia1 ,p>ma1 ,mod5a1 & ,bologna4 ,"h ! celebrat$ ,c>d9al ,mezz(anti call$ ^u !m1 & ,sp5c] rem>ks t ! only ?+ wor? see+1 z f> z he has gone1 9 ,italy1 are *ur*es & _! ornam5ts4 ,he s+l$ out "o ( ^? latt] = special rem>k1 z we f9d by ! foll[+ passage3-- ,oct4 #cj4 ,at n9e o'clock ,dr4 ,wilson's fri5d1 a lawy]1 took him & me up to a *ur* on ! m\nta91 ne> ! t[n1 fam\s = a picture--done1 z !y say1 by ,/4 ,luke6 ,!re is a f9e arcade to x = #b miles1 & pilgrims g by ?is to adore ?is nons5se6 ,_! next /ay is at ,flor5ce1 :]e he _h ! ill-luck ( n provid+ aga9/ mosquitoes1 :o took ! lib]ty ( bit+ him he>tily ! fir/ night he slept !re4 ,news rea*es him next day t a great fri5d ( 8 at ,cambridge1 a ,mr4 ,gambl]1 has obta9$ a fell[%ip 9 ,tr9ity4 ,?is makes him m]ry all ! ev5+4 ,!y halt aga9 = "s re/ at ,p]ugia4 ,all he says ab\t ?is classic t[n is1 ,be=e breakfa/ ! ,doctor & ,i saw a gall]y ( frightful old pictures1 & o!r m>aviglia ( #fb ,p]ugia1 & !n set (f1 /ill ?r\gh m\nta9\s c\ntry1 to ,spoleto4 ,!y />t = ,rome next day1 !y see x fifte5 miles (f1 b he does n seem to h _h a s+le sp>k ( en?usiasm z he looks ^u ! great mi/ress ( ! _w = ! fir/ "t4 ,( c\rse ,rome1 z ! capital ( ,*ri/5dom1 0 n likely to /ir up 8 be/ feel+s1 :5 we rememb] ! !n frame ( 8 religi\s m9d4 ,at all ev5ts1 cold & li/less z x might be1 he ent]$ ,rome on ,w$nesday1 ! #aj? ,novemb]1 #ahai4 ,! fir/ ?+ he & 8 fa!r ) ! ,doctor did on arriv+1 0 to pay a visit to ,/4 ,pet]'s4 ,we saw x inside & out4 ,x 0 mo/ glori\s3 b its size f "s reason or o!r disappo9ts me1 z x does all /rang]s2 x improves ^u acqua9tance1 ,i fancy4 ,h[ l ,byron's op9ion4 ,*ilde ,h>old3 ,canto iv4 #fe3-- ,ent]3 its gr&eur ov]:elms !e n2 ,& :y8 x is n less5$3 b ?y m9d1 ,exp&$ by ! ,g5ius ( ! spot1 ,has gr[n colossal1 & c only f9d ,a fit abode :]e9 appe> en%r9$ ,?y hopes ( immortality2 & ?\ ,%alt "o day1 if f\nd wor?y1 s def9$1 ,see ?y ,god face to face1 z ?\ do/ n[ ,8 ,holy ( ,holies1 nor be bla/$ by ,8 br[4 ,he visits next ! ,capitol9e1 ! anci5t ,=um1 & ! ,coliseum2 he rem>ks3 ?is la/ is q /up5d\s1 & q answ]s my expectations4 ,i c\ld n yet und]/& ! plan ( ! /aircases & seats4 ,! ,pope has /uck x all ov] ) little *apels4 ,he meets ,tom ,moore1 & sp5ds a day ) him & o!r m]ry companions 9 ,tivoli4 ,he /ay$ 9 ,rome ?is "t only a week3 = on ! #ag? ,novemb] !y all />t$ = ,naples4 ,9 pass+ ?r\gh ,t]rac9a he meets :at ,ca?olics w recognize z a svegli>9o4 ,x is cu/om>y1 :5 a mission is be+ giv5 9 "s p>ts ( ,italy1 = "o ( ! mission]s to g out1 accompani$ by a bell1 & su* companions1 lay & cl]ical1 z wi% to take "p 9 ! c]emony1 g #fc ar\nd ! village1 & prea* f a table 9 ?ree or f\r diff]5t places4 ,?is has a rem>kable effect--! li/less l\ng]s :o pref] bask+ 9 ! sun1 or swall[+ macc>oni1 to go+ to ! *ur* = ! s]mons1 are ?us r\s$ s f> z to put _! heads out ( ! w9d[ or door & ask :at's ! matt]4 ,by-&-bye ! cr[d ?ick5s1 "o looks inquisitively at ! o!r1 & :5 _! curiosity has be5 work$ ^u suffici5tly1 ! mission] gets up1 & 9 a fi]y zeal\s disc\rse puts ! fe> ( ,god into 8 he>]s4 ,?\s&s are br\ght to rep5tance by ^! means e ye>4 ,! s]mon1 ( c\rse1 is n a poli%$ oration1 ) po9ts ( rhetoric to suit ! laws ( criticism4 ,x is r brok5 & inflam$1 %ort & tell+ s5t5ces1 & deliv]$ ) all t unction & impetuosity = :i* ,italians are rem>kable2 & :i* is any?+ b intelligible to an ,engli%man1 :o is accu/om$ to ! measur$ disc\rses ( a ,london ,*ur*man4 ,accord+ly we f9d ?is proce$+ ?us dott$ d[n 9 ! j\rnal3--,at ,t]rac9a we 7 v mu* amus$ by a procession ( p5it5ts ) ! ,bi%op ( ,t]rac9a1 & an extravagant s]mon prea*$ by a prie/ f a table be=e ! inn4 ,at t "t1 h[ little c\ld he =esee t he %\ld aft]w>ds give su* a mission 9 ,italy himself1 & fur!r1 to ! utmo/ ( 8 p[]1 ) equal zeal1 ?\gh ) m s$at5ess1 ev5 su* an extravaganza1 z x n[ appe>$ to him4 ,8 /yle ( prea*+1 h[ev]1 z we %all h]eaft] see1 0 nev] su* z to qualify him = an emphatic svegli>9o4 ,on ,novemb] #ba !y arrive 9 ,naples1 n v pleasantly1 z ,lady ,sp5c] _h suff]$ f ! r\ghness ( ! road1 & 0 oblig$ to re/ a night 9 ,capua1 & ,george 0 suff]+ f a sor5ess 9 8 eye4 ,^! inconv5i5ces 7 =gott5 = a mom5t on meet+ ,"l ,george ,qu9 & 8 lady1 daught] to ,"l ,sp5c]4 ,"y ,sp5c] 0 delight$ ) ! *ildr51 ?\gh !y c\ld only speak ,fr5* or ,italian4 ,! sor5ess ( 8 eye keeps him at home next day1 :i* he enjoys z he has full opportunity ( *att+ ) 8 si/]1 :om he #fd seems to h lov$ v mu*4 ,he has already allud$ to ! plan 8 "m =m$ = 8 le>n+ to play on ! guit>2 s we %all n quote any ( ! h&some greet+s :i* ! guit>-ma/] receives z he comes to inflict ! p5ance ( mak+ 8 pupil tune ! /r+s ( ?is romantic in/rum5t4 #fe ,,*apt] ,x4 ,engli% ,life ,9 ,naples4 ,! ,engli% :o w9t]$ 9 ,naples at ! same "t ) ! ,sp5c] family seem$ to h =m$1 z !y g5]ally d1 a special ca/e4 ,!y d9$ toge!r1 drove out toge!r1 !y laugh$ at ! *ur*es1 & cr[d$ ! op]a4 ,_! conduct 9 ! latt] place did n seem to be v edify+ to ! ,neapolitans1 :o1 p]haps1 may h ?\ght x 0 an ,engli% cu/om to see a nobleman tumbl+ tipsy "o night into ,e>l ,sp5c]'s box1 to ! no small dis$ification ( ! :ole family1 :o 7 models ( sobriety & decorum4 ,! ,engli%1 by =m+ _! own circles 9 ?is exclusive mann]1 & by _! ext]nal deportm5t on v>i\s occasions1 keep away ! high] & m pi\s grades ( society 9 ,ca?olic cities4 ,! sc(f]s at mona*ism & prie/ly rule are freely admitt$ )9 ! ,engli% pale1 & pay = _! hospitality1 by cat]+ to ! wor/ prejudices ( _! ent]ta9]s1 & malign+ _! neighb\rs4 ,x is v (t5 a repetition ( ! fable ( ! s\r grapes4 ,= ?is we h ample te/imony 9 ! writ+s ( our contempor>ies1 :i* we w /r5g!n by quot+ ,fa!r ,ignatius's own words a little lat]4 ,! bett] ,italians sometimes laugh at all ?is1 s t ,john ,bull is become a by-^w among !m = exclusiv5ess & arrogant1 selfi% pride4 ,! blame lies ) ! ,engli%4 ,!y sometimes f\nd disagreeable incid5ts f ! cla%+ ( ta/es & cu/oms4 ,on ! #h? ( ,decemb] !y made ! r\nd ( ! *ur*es1 b 7 sorely piqu$ t ! ,neapolitans _h too mu* respect = our ,bless$ ,lady to op5 ! op]as & !atres on ! ev5+ #ff ( ! ,fea/ ( h] ,immaculate ,conception1 s !y _h to cont5t !mselves ) :i/1 & discordant notes f ,george's guit>4 ,ano!r ( ^! crosses occurr$ a few days aft]4 ,george made a lame excursion to ,vesuvius1 & :5 groan+ f too?a*e on 8 return1 he>d t ! fa!r ( 8 bosom fri5d1 ,sir ,?omas ,fremantle1 s5ior1 0 dead4 ,to make matt]s worse1 ! rema9s c\ld n be int]r$ 9 a cemet]y1 & ! ,+lesi _h to pay ! la/ sad rites to _! fri5d 9 a private g>d54 ,on ,*ri/mas ,day !y _h s]vice at ! ,consul's1 & !n !y walk$ ab\t1 & _h _! :i/ = ! re/ ( ! day4 ,! old ye> 0 danc$ out at a gr& quadrille p>ty1 ( :i* m h]eaft]2 & ,george tells u v c>efully t a set ( u drank 9 ! new ye> 9 diavolone4 ,h[ rem>kable1 at e turn1 & ev5 by su* *ance & (f-h& expressions1 to note ! contra/ betwe5 ! ,george ,sp5c] ( t day & ! subject ( div9e grace he aft]w>ds became6 ,x is a relief to beg9 ! new ye> #ahbj ) record+ an exception made to ! g5]al cu/om above4 ,george 0 pres5t$ by 8 fa!r to ,k+ ,f]d9&1 & all ! nobili ,+lesi 7 invit$ to jo9 9 ! fe/ivities ) :i* x 0 cu/om>y to u%] 9 ! new ye>4 ,= ! re/1 ! ev5+s & e>ly "p ( ! morn+s are sp5t 9 a cont9ual :irl ( amusem5t1 & x w\ld require a page to numb] up ! balls & dances he figur$ 94 ,he visits also ! ,c>?usian & ,camaldolese mona/]ies1 b makes no comm5ts4 ,he goes two or ?ree times to see ,vesuvius & ! crat] & ! lava1 ( :i* he gives a v nice description2 aft] ?is he is all[$1 by special fav\r1 to be at ! ,royal *ase3 ?is puts him 9 great hum\r1 =1 besides ! sport x af=d$ 9 ! way ( gett+ %ots at su* *oice game z wild bo>s1 x gave him an opportunity ( see+ ! ,k+ & all 8 c\rt1 to :i* no?+ c be simil>4 ,t[>ds ! end ( ,janu>y1 ,"l & ,lady ,sp5c] det]m9$ on return+ to ,engl&1 & (f]$ to leave ,george to travel ?r\gh ! sights ( ,s\!rn ,italy4 ,he p]ceives1 9 a few days1 ! tok5s ( an incl9ation 9 8 #fg p>5ts to h 8 company1 & goes /raightway to ! ,hon\rable ,augu/us ,b>r+ton1 :o 0 to be 8 fell[-travell]1 & breaks (f ! plan !y _h =m$4 ,x 0 only aft] v press+ in/ances f 8 fa!r & "m t he c\ld be p]suad$ to take up ! fir/ plan anew4 ,a portion ( 8 autobiography w ?r[ "s light ^u _m ?+s we h only j t\*$ ^u1 &1 !re=e1 x is bett] to quote x "h1 ?\gh x might come 9 m opportunely at ! conclusion ( 8 fir/ t\r abroad4 ,x is extraord9>y1 inde$1 t ,i %\ld h rema9$ a :ole ye> on ! ,cont95t & nev] once h s]i\sly tak5 into consid]ation ! subject ( ! ,ca?olic religion4 ,su* 0 ! case2 & ,i return$ to ,engl&1 z f> z ,i c rememb]1 )\t "o d\bt hav+ cross$ my m9d :e!r ?is 0 ! true religion or n4 444 ,& n[ = a little recollection ( ! /ate ( my m9d dur+ ?is p]iod ( travell+1 & its moral effects ^u me4 ,dur+ all ?is "t ,i cont9u$1 ?ank ,god1 :olly conv9c$ t a c\rse ( iniquity w\ld n answ]2 & _h ,i met ) any among ! "y m51 my associates1 :o w\ld h d>$ to speak out fully 9 fav\r ( morality1 ,i %\ld1 ,i believe1 h be5 ready to agree ) him4 ,b :]e 7 su* to be f\nd8 ,i _h n[ gr[n s f> m indep5d5t ( ! _w1 t ,i _h n op5 assaults to be> cont9ually aga9/ = n runn+ ) ! re/4 ,_m ( ! "y m5 :o ma9ta9$ _! "* z free lic5ti\s liv]s1 yet pr(ess$ "s degree ( mod]ation & re/ra9t 9 _! indulg5ces4 ,"s ,i rememb]1 :o pr(ess$ to keep cle> ( immoral practices1 & no d\bt _! s9c]ity 9 ?is might be dep5d$ on2 = :]e no cr$it b di%on\r w\ld be ! rew>d ( /eady conduct1 !re 0 no temptation to pret5d to x falsely4 ,b ,i rememb] n[ b "o :o d>$ to allude 9 my he>+--& t 0 b once1 ,i ?9k1 9 private--to ! consequ5ce ( ?is s9 9 ano!r _w1 & to ma9ta9 t x 0 bett] to avoid x = fe> ( puni%m5t h]eaft]4 ,:ile1 !n1 ,i /ill knew t ! way ( evil 0 all wrong1 & w\ld h be5 mo/ happy if ! fa%ion ( wick$ness c\ld h be5 at #fh an end2 & ?\gh ,i nev] once1 z f> z ,i "k1 0 ! fir/ to introduce immode/ conv]sation1 & h>dly ev] he>d x introduc$ by o!rs )\t inw>d repugnance1 & seldom jo9$ 9 x2 yet ,i nev] d>$ decl>e h[ mu* ,i hat$ x1 & 0 /ill 9 ! mo/ awful & desp]ate /ate ( wi%+ ,i _h be5 l ! wor/1 soon] ?an be ?us subject to ! torm5t ( be+ put to %ame be=e bold pr(ligates4 ,:ile ) my p>5ts1 ,i h be=e said1 ,i 0 "u good surveillance1 & c\ld n ?9k ( be+ detect$ by !m 9 any evil4 ,h[ %all ,i ev] be ?ankful en\gh = all ?is8 ,my fa!r's "* 0 su* t ?\gh _m :o 7 (t5 9 8 company 7 m5 :om ,i h kn[n1 :5 out ( x1 to delight 9 mo/ abom9able ?+s1 ,i knew ( none :o ev] d>$ 9 8 sight to d m ?an cov]tly allude to !m4 ,i 0 !re=e happy 9 ?is respect :5ev] he 0 ne>2 b :5 once m left to myself1 ,i aga9 return$ to ^? fe>ful delib]ations ( :i* ,i h be=e spok5 (1 z x 71 sell+ myself1 = a "t at lea/1 to "w wick$ness )\t re/ra9t4 ,x may be well conceiv$ h[ mis]ably fall5 & corrupt mu/ h be5 my he>t :5 su* purposes 7 ent]ta9$ )9 x2 & if1 p>tly ?r\gh "s rema9s ( ! holy impressions ( my *ildhood1 :i* /ill op]at$ on my poor1 degrad$ he>t z a k9d ( habit n yet q worn (f2 p>tly by a s5se ( ! %ame & mis]y ,i %\ld h be=e my family & "s m :om ,i knew 9 ! _w1 :o w\ld be !mselves mo/ afflict$ if !y he>d ( my fall f ! good dispositions :i* !y _h kn[n 9 me2 p>tly f a fe> ( ridicule1 ev5 f ! pr(ligate1 if1 aft] all1 ,i 0 to fell2 p>tly by ! wond]ful provid5ce ( ,god1 :i* 7,i ackn[l$ge7 mo/ wisely & mo/ t5d]ly1 yet /rongly int]pos$ at times to baffle ! madness ( my designs :5 ab\t to be accompli%$--if1 ,i say1 ?us ,i h be5 9 a degree pres]v$1 ,god kn[s ,i h no cr$it due to me3 ,god kn[s t f my he>t ,i take only %ame & confusion ( face to myself 9 ! remembrance1 ( my v pres]vation4 ,t[>ds ! latt] "p ( my /ay abroad1 ,i began to be 9 "s way we>y ( ?is unc]ta9 /ate ( m9d4 ,i #fi 0 always expect+ to take ,ord]s :5 ,i %\ld rea* ! age2 & z ,i knew t !n ,i %\ld n be expect$ by ! _w to jo9 9 its fa%ionable vices1 & %\ld ev5 suff] 9 public e/imation if ,i did1 my ?\ghts began to be r bett] direct$1 & ,i took pa9s f "t to "t to ov]come "s ( ! evil t 0 9 me4 ,x is wond]ful t any good disposition %\ld h liv$ )9 me1 :5 e remembrance ( religion seems to h be5 put out ( my m9d4 ,i n[ c\ld h>dly und]/& h[ ?is %\ld h inde$ be5 ! case1 if ,i _h n a cle> remembrance ( c]ta9 circum/ances :i* pla9ly %[ :at 0 ! /ate ( my m9d4 ,on ! #bg? ,janu>y1 #ahbj1 ,i w5t up ,m\nt ,vesuvius ) ,dr4 ,wilson1 :51 z we 7 look+ into ! crat] ( ! volcano1 a dis*>ge ( r$-hot /ones took place4 ,i he>d !m :i/le by me z !y asc5d$1 & ?\gh x 0 ( no use to attempt to get out ( ! way1 ,i hurri$ back a few /eps by a natural impulse1 & imm$iately saw a lump ( r$-hot /uff twice ! size ( "o's head fall on ! spot :]e ,i _h be5 /&+ j be=e4 ,we imm$iately ran d[n ! side ( ! m\nta91 & rea*$ a place ab\t a qu>t] ( a mile di/ant f ! m\? ( ! crat]1 f :5ce we c\ld see ! upp] cone ( ! m\nta94 ,j !n a gr& explosion took place1 :i* %ook ! :ole m\nta91 & a va/ quantity ( ^! masses ( fi]y r$ /uff 0 sp\t$ out f ! crat]1 :i* 9 its return appe>$ entirely to cov] ! :ole space ov] :i* we _h be5 runn+ five m9utes be=e4 ,"h 0 an evid5t escape :i*1 9 a m9d possess$ ) any religion at all1 c\ld n fail ( awak5+ "s s]i\s reflections4 ,alas6 ,i nev] ?\ght ( ! abyss into :i* ,i mu/ h fall5 _h n ! good angel1 :o wat*$ & guid$ me ?r\gh s _m p]ils :i* ,i ?\ght n (1 !n pres]v$ me4 ,:5 ,i came d[n 9 ! ev5+ to ,naples1 ! only effect 0 t ,i 0 pleas$ & va9 at hav+ a good adv5ture to relate1 & %[+ (f a _s ( brav]y & indiff]5ce1 :5 "s blam$ me = my ra%ness4 ,ano!r circum/ance ,i may record to %[ h[ free f all religi\s fe> my m9d 04 ,i h be=e notic$ #gj ! fits ( melan*oly :i* became habitual to me dur+ ! la/ "p ( my ,cambridge life4 ,^! came1 ,i ?9k1 to _! greate/ height 9 ! la/ half ( ! "t ,i sp5t at ,naples4 ,! int]e/+ excitem5t ( our j\rney1 ! company ( my si/] :5 ,i fir/ came to ,naples1 & ! gaieties ( :i* ,i _h my fill !re1 & :i* at fir/ _h all ! *>m ( novelty1 kept me f mu* ?\ght ( any k9d1 & ,i enjoy$ ! balls1 ! conc]ts1 ! gr& op]as1 ! en*ant+ rides ( ,naples1 = a mon? or six weeks1 almo/ )\t a cl\d4 ,at lea/ ,i us$ always to c\nt t my brighte/ p]iod 9 ! way ( enjoym5ts4 ,unhappy ^? :o h heal? & spirits & tal5ts to enable !m to please & be pleas$ long toge!r 9 su* a r\nd ( vanity6 ,to my great vexation ,i f\nd myself aga9 attack$ ) my old enemy1 melan*oly2 d :at ,i w\ld1 ,i c\ld n drive away ^? fits ( gloom4 ,!y 7 caus$ p>tly by ! effect on my heal? ( too mu* good liv+1 & bad h\rs2 b ! *ief cause 0 ! intr9sic wor?lessness ( all su* pleasure1 :i* w discov] itself soon] or lat] to e "o ev5 ( its mo/ devot$ lov]s1 & :i* happily %[$ itself to me soon] ?an o!rs4 ,oh6 :at frivol\s causes did my happ9ess !n seem to dep5d on6 ,n danc+ to my satisfaction 9 "o quadrille1 fancy+ t "s ( my fav\rite p>tn]s 7 tir$ ( my conv]sation1 & t ! nons5se ( "s o!r silly y\? pleas$ h] bett]1 0 en\gh to turn :at ,i flatt]$ myself 0 ab\t to be a bright & pleasant ev5+ into gloom & sadness4 ,sometimes1 )\t an assignable cause1 my spirits fail$1 z at o!rs an equally frivol\s reason w\ld remove my cl\ds & make me bright aga92 b gradually ! gloomy moods ga9$ gr\nd1 & grew m d>k & t$i\s4 ,i rememb] comp>+ notes ) ano!r "y man1 :o 0 l me a victim ( ! dumps1 & f9d+ "s satisfaction 9 ! sympa?y ( a fell[-suff]]1 :o1 ) a smile at ! absurdity ( su* feel+s1 ( :i* he 0 well s5sible :ile he av[$ !m1 exactly describ$ to me my /ate ( m9d :5 he said t "u !m he fanci$ himself ! mo/ un=tunate ( mank9d1 & w\ld will+ly h #ga *ang$ places ) ! mo/ despicable & wret*$ ( m51 n to say ) any animal almo/4 ,poor bl9d fools t we 76 ,we c\ld n betwe5 u sugge/ ! way to be happy :i* is op5 to all4 ,i rememb] well com+ home "o night f a ball1 :i*1 by my j\rnal1 ,i f9d to be on ! #be? ,janu>y1 :51 z ,i wrote at t "t1 ,i 0 m mis]able ?an ev] ,i 0 9 t way4 ,i w5t to b$1 & he>d a noise l a creak 9 ! ceil+ ( my room4 ,i felt a wi% t x w\ld break ?r\gh & cru% me4 ,h[ ,i us$ to wi% at t "t ,i _h ! sort ( bold1 firm he>t :i* appe>$ ?r\gh "s ( ! "y manly faces :i* ,i us$ daily to meet--to :om l[ spirits 0 a ?+ unkn[n4 ,i knew n t ,i 0 qu>rell+ ) ! mo/ *oice ( ,god's m]cies to me1 )\t :i* ,i %\ld probably h be5 irrevocably lo/4 ,i /ill1 to ?is day1 am us$ to ! visits ( my feel+s ( dejection1 b1 ?ank ,god1 ,i "k bett] h[ to receive !m2 &1 f> f wi%+ !m away1 ,i r fe> _! dep>ture1 & desire !y may nev] leave me4 ,= if ,i h )9 me "o bright1 heav5ly desire1 ,i owe x to ^! feel+s1 :i* fir/ poison$ my pleasure 9 ! _w1 & drew me at l5g? to seek = x else:]e1 & n[ ,i wi% nev] to h peace )9 my brea/ :ile "o desire lives !re = any?+ b ,god4 ,yet t ?\ght ( wi%+ ev5 to be cru%$1 t ,i might escape f my mis]able feel+s1 %[s h[ f> ,i 0 at t "t f kn[+ h[ great a cause = sorr[ ,i really _h 9 ! /ate ( my s\l--:i*1 if ,i _h kn[n x1 mu/ h driv5 away all imag9>y griefs--nor f :at qu>t] ,i %\ld seek = happ9ess2 & x is a wond] t x took s long a "t1 & s _m repetitions ( ! same lesson1 be=e ,i began to correspond ) ! graci\s purpose ( my ,heav5ly ,tea*]2 ( ,him :o 0 ?us correct+ me1 t ,i might at l5g? love ,him1 & love ,him will+ly4 ,h[ 0 x t ,i c\ld h liv$ s long )\t be+ awak5$ to "o s5tim5t ( religi\s fe>8 444 ,b n[ we mu/ return to ! ,ca?olic ,fai?4 ,! ma9 object ( ?is memoir be+ to trace ! /eps ( my #gb progress t[>ds ,ca?olicity1 x w\ld be expect$ t ! p]iod ( my resid5ce = a :ole ye> 9 ,ca?olic c\ntries mu/ be mo/ int]e/+4 ,inde$ x is wond]ful t ?is ye> ( my life %\ld h be51 z x appe>s to me to h be51 q neutral 9 its effects4 ,i c]ta9ly made no progress t[>ds my pres5t fai?4 ,?is w\ld n be extraord9>y2 = h[ _m ,prote/ants by _! travels abroad n only make no progress t[>ds ,ca?olicity1 b are made its viol5t enemies4 ,b1 und\bt$ly1 ?is 0 ! effect produc$ on me4 ,x seems t at ?is "t ,i 0 "u ! influ5ce ( altoge!r o!r objects & notions f any connect$ ) religion4 ,:at ,i s\ght 01 fir/1 my own pleasure--next1 only g5]al in=mation2 :at ,i 0 *iefly controll$ by 0 human respect4 ,hav+ no c>e at all ab\t religion 9 any =m1 ! "q ( :i* 0 ! "r =m nev] tr\bl$ me1 & s ! obs]vations :i* ,i c\ld n help mak+ on ! ,ca?olic religi\s practices :i* ,i saw1 7 v sup]ficial4 ,x might be int]e/+ to transcribe a few passages f my j\rnal :i* %[ :at 0 my m9d4 ,x is rem>kable h[ easily "o's m9d takes 9 & re/s cont5t$ 9 ! belief ( false & prejudicial repres5tations ( ?+s4 ,i nev] _h _h mu* pa9s tak5 ) me to set me aga9/ ! ,ca?olic religion2 b ?\gh ,i knew no?+ ( :at x 01 ,i re/$ 9 ! conviction t x 0 full ( sup]/ition1 &1 9 fact1 z good z no religion at all4 ,i nev] op5$ my m9d all ! "t ,i 0 abroad to ! admission ( any idea b ?is2 & s ,i look$ on all ! ,ca?olic c]emonies :i* ,i saw1 9 ?is p]v]t$ light4 ,i did n fall 9 ! way ( anyone to set me "r2 = ,i 0 cont5t$ to g on 9 ! /ream ( ! ,engli% society ) :i* almo/ all ! t[ns 9 ,italy 7 fill$1 & if any really zeal\s exempl>y ,ca?olics are sometimes m+l$ ) !m1 !y d n f9d x available or prud5t to introduce ! m5tion ( religion2 :ile !re w be always "s :o h no objection to seek to please !m by enc\rag+ _! prejudices1 :i* !y d effectually by tell+ /ories--"s true1 p]haps1 "s obvi\sly false--( ! ,prie/s & ,religi\s4 ,su* a p]son1 #gc :o bore ! title ( ,abbate1 & !re=e mu/ h be5 pr(ess$ly a true ,ca?olic1 we fell 9 ) at ,milan2 he assi/$ my fa!r 9 8 se>* aft] curi\s books4 ,i rememb] "s ( 8 conv]sations1 & ,i f9d notice 9 my j\rnal ( 8 d9+ ) u1 & be+ 'v amus+ 9 "s /ories ab\t ! ,ca?olic processions4' ,! impression on my m9d 0 t ! :ole sy/em ( religion :i* we saw 0 m]e =mality1 p be+ taught to cont5t !mselves ) fulfill+ "s ext]nal rules1 & ! cl]gy mak+ x _! bus9ess to keep !m 9 ! d>k4 ,i took little notice ( religi\s matt]s till we ent]$ ,italy4 ,!re ,milan 0 ! fir/ t[n we /opp$ at4 ,on ! ,sunday aft] our arrival 0 ! anniv]s>y ( ! consecration ( ! *ur*4 ,i saw ! c]emonies 9 ! ,ca!dral1 ! v place :]e ,/4 ,augu/9e's he>t 0 mov$ & 8 conv]sion begun1 by he>+ ! /ra9s ( holy music1 p]haps ! same :i* ,i !n he>d4 ,b v diff]5t 0 ! effect on me2 "h are ! wise rem>ks ins]t$ 9 my j\rnal4 ,footnote #c ,footnote #c3 ,! passage is giv5 9 page #fj4 ,! autobiography breaks (f abruptly "h2 b 9 ord] to fit ! rem>ks to ! ev5ts :i* !y conc]n1 we h kept "o or two p>agraphs 9 res]ve = ano!r place4 #gd ,,*apt] ,,xi ,cont9uation ,( ,8 ,travels4 ,aft] /ay+ ab\t ?ree mon?s 9 ,naples1 ,sp5c] sets out ) ,b>r+ton1 to travel ?r\gh ,sicily1 on ! #bg? ,febru>y4 ,! voyage 0 v smoo? until !y came to ,/romboli1 & pass$ ne> ! cave ( ,a,eolus1 :o puff$ at !m accord+ly1 & delay$ _! l&+ at ,mess9a until ,m>* #b4 ,he goes to a c]emony 9 ! ca!dral !re1 & says1 ! prie/s seem n\ri%+ & v num]\s "h4 ,on 8 way to ,m\nt ,etna he rem>ks1 ) a k9d ( incr$ul\s air1 t he w5t to see ! lions ( ! five *e/nuts & ! bridge1 :i* has ! same leg5d atta*$ to its orig9 z ! ,devil's ,bridge 9 ,wales1 dogs be+1 9 bo? cases1 s5t ov] fir/ to pay ! =feit = hav+ built x4 ,footnote #d ,footnote #d3 ,! mo/ circum/antial leg5d be>+ ^u ! rem>k 9 ! text is t ab\t ! ,bridge ( ,rim9i4 ,"h !re 0 a fe>ful rapid1 )\t a /one )9 ! di/ance ( #gj miles t 0 available = build+ purposes4 ,! bridge-build] ( ! t[n may or may n h _h ! contract2 b1 at all ev5ts1 he set d[n 9 a confus$ /ate ( m9d z to h[ x might be done4 ,! devil appe>$ to him & contract$ = ! build+ ( ! bridge on ^! easy t]ms--gett+ ! fir/ t cross$ x = 8 own4 ,! b>ga9 0 /ruck1 & 9 ! tw9kl+ ( an eye "s ?\s&s ( inf]nal imps 7 scamp]+ d[n ! m\nta9s ) a gigantic /one on ! %\ld] ( ea*4 ,"o-?ird ( !m 7 q suffici5t1 & ! ar*-fi5d :o presid$ ov] ! build+ cri$ out1 t no m 7 want$3 :5 ea* devil ?rew d[n 8 load :]e he happ5$ to be :5 ! ma/]'s yell rea*$ 8 e>s4 ,?is is said to acc\nt = ! rocks "o sees /rewn ab\t ne> ?is bridge4 ,! bridge itself is a circle1 & 0 built 9 "o night1 & inde$ "s k9d ( inf]nal ma*9e w\ld seem necess>y to remove ! blocks ( /one ( :i* x is compos$4 ,n[ came ! trial4 ,! ,*ri/ian build] ( bridges _h no fancy = go+ to hell1 & he 0 too *>itable to s5d anyone else !re4 ,he be?\ght him ( an exp$i5t1 & call+ out 8 dog he took a small loaf1 & ?rew x across ! bridge ) all 8 might4 ,! dog1 ( c\rse1 ran aft] x4 ,:]eupon ! devil seiz$ him1 & 9 a rage flung him up to some:]e ne> ! moon1 & ! dog fall+ f ?is height ^u ! bridge1 made a hole 9 its only ar* :i* _c be fill$ up to ?is day4 ,! leg5d embodies at lea/ a specim5 ( ! ,ca?olic in/9ct3 viz41 ! anxiety ( ! devil = our de/ruction1 & h[ all hell ?9ks x *eap to turn out = a day's h>d lab\r 9 ! hopes ( ga9+ "o s+le s\l4 #ge ,he *iefly lodges 9 conv5ts dur+ 8 rambles ?r\gh ,sicily1 ! inns be+ s v bad t !y drive travell]s away4 ,he & 8 companion sleep 9 diff]5t conv5ts1 & are v well treat$2 b t sc>cely evokes a ^w ( ?anks4 ,poor monks6 !y h a bad "n 9 ,prote/ant nations1 & :at w\ld be praisewor?y 9 o!rs is only an equivocal quality 9 !m4 ,?is is v sad2 t m5 :o h bid f>ewell to ! _w %\ld1 on t v acc\nt1 be consid]$ h>dly entitl$ to ! b>e rights ( human be+s4 ,yet g on1 poor s\ls1 9 y\r vocation2 y\r ,ma/] be=e y receiv$ ! same treatm5t f ! _w1 & y are n great] ?an ,he4 ,sp5c] meets "o or two monks :om he likes pretty well--"o 0 ! sup]ior ( ! ,c>melites at ,grirg5ti4 ,! re/ he calls /upid fri>s1 lazy monks1 & s =?1 accord+ to ! tone ( m9d he happ5s to be 94 ,9 "o mona/]y !y %ut ! door ( ! room all[$ !m 9 ! face ( "o ( ! bre?r51 because1 =soo?1 !y 7 bor$ by visits f ! monks4 ,8 j\rney does n always lie ?r\gh conv5ts1 & he meets o!rs :o are n monks2 "o ( ^! 0 a w9e-m]*ant at ,m>sala1 a native ( ,engl&4 ,x seems ! pair ( t\ri/s 7 receiv$ z h&somely by _! c\ntryman z !y _h be5 by ! /upid fri>s1 = he is ?us describ$ 9 ! j\rnal3 ,he seems to ?9k himself commission$ to keep up ! ,engli% "* 9 a /range l&1 = he is a ,john ,bull 9 c>icature 9 8 mann]4 ,we are also told1 a little l[] d[n1 t he is v hospitable to all ,engli% :o pass by t way4 ,!y _h ! novelty ( see+ an #gf ,italian ,good ,friday 9 ,m>sala2 ! impression is ?us not$3 ,friday1 ,m>4 #ca4--,?is 0 ,good ,friday4 ,! fir/1 & ,i hope ! la/1 ,i %all sp5d )\t go+ to *ur*2 n t ,i %\ld n l to be abroad ano!r ye>4 ,we 7 rem9d$ ( ! day by quantities ( gr\ps repres5t+ ! ,passion & ,crucifixion1 almo/ z l>ge z life1 c>ri$ ab\t on m5's %\ld]s1 :i*1 absurd z !y are1 seem$ to make an impression on ! populace4 ,m5 dress$ 9 black accompani$ !m1 ) cr[ns ( ?orns & crosses4 ,x /rikes me z direct idolatry1 ne>ly4 ,! g5try 7 all 9 m\rn+1 & ! s5t9els _h _! muskets ) ! muzzles inv]t$4 ,we all ?ree 7,sir ,h4 ,will\ghby accompani$ ,b>r+ton & ,sp5c]7 took a walk up to ! top ( ,monte di ,trapani1 ! anci5t ,eryx1 :]e is a t[n ( ! same "n4 ,we exam9$ :at 0 to be se5 !re1 & came d[n aga9 to d9n]4 ,we d9$ at #f1 & _h "s meat1 :i* we h n be5 able to get = "s days1 x be+ ,passion ,week4 ,he sp5t ,ea/] ,sunday 9 ,pal]mo1 & "h are 8 comm5ts on its obs]vance3 ,sunday1 ,april #b1 ,ea/]-day4--,we set (f f ,ahamo ab\t #g4 ,i walk$ on = an h\r1 & !n rode =w>d all ! way to ,monreale1 :]e ,i /opp$ an h\r till ! o!rs came up4 ,we !n proce$$ toge!r to ,pal]mo4 ,9 ! villages we pass$1 ! p 7 all out 9 _! be/ clo!s1 :i* 0 a v pretty sight4 ,bells 7 clatt]+ ev]y:]e1 & feux de joie 7 fir$ 9 sev]al villages z we pass$1 ) a r[ ( little tubes load$ ) gunp[d]1 9 ! m>ket-places1 & processions w5t ab\t ( p 9 fancy dresses ) flags & drums4 ,?is religion is mo/ extraord9>y4 ,x /rikes me z impi\s2 b ,i suppose x takes possession ( ! common p soon] ?an a s5sible "o4 ,he complet$ ! t\r ( ! isl& by arriv+ 9 ,mess9a1 aft] a mo/ successful attempt to see ,m\nt ,etna1 on ! #ad? ( ,april4 ,!y left ,sicily = ,reggio 9 a boat1 & arriv$ !re ) a good duck+4 ,!y bo? w5t to visit ,scylla1 :i* 0 gu>d$ z a citadel by arm$ peasants4 ,! /urdy yeom5 refus$ to admit !m1 :]eupon ,george1 ) true ,engli% curiosity1 climb$ up ! wall to #gg get a peep at ! sea1 & p]haps inside4 ,sc>cely _h he got half-way up :5 he 0 tak5 prison] by ! s5t9el4 ,he 0 accord+ly invit$ to visit ! int]ior ( ! ca/le1 & _h to gaze at ! bleak walls ( its keep = an h\r1 until ,will\ghby procur$ 8 release f ! comm&ant4 ,!y travell$ on1 & ,george does n seem to be satisfi$ ) ! p ( ,sal]no1 :om he designates z surly & go?ic4 ,he he>d 8 companions _h to get an escort ( g5d>mes1 to save !m f robb]s1 all along "h4 ,returns to ,naples1 ,april #bf1 delight$ at be+ safe 9 life & limb2 he goes to ! old lodg+s to a p>ty1 & reflects ?us on 8 return3 ,i came home ab\t "o1 r sad ) see+ ! repres5tation ( :at ,i _h enjoy$ 9 ! w9t]--b all ! p *ang$4 ,gaiety aft] all does n pay4 ,?is la/ s5t5ce is n und]l9$ by ,sp5c] himself4 ,x is done to po9t a moral t may be necess>y = a c]ta9 class ( p]sons4 ,x is (t5 suppos$ t monks1 & ! l p1 pa9t ! _w black] ?an x is 9 reality1 & t x is a k9d ( morose s\rness ( disposition t makes recluses cry d[n ! enjoym5ts ( ^? outside conv5t-walls4 ,?is l9e w p]haps def5d ,f4 ,ignatius f su* an imputation4 ,he wrote t aft] ! pure natural enjoym5t ( sc5]y _h be5 comp>$ ) ! excitem5t ( a ball-room2 if he ?\ght1 9 8 wildness1 t gaiety did n pay1 no wond] t 8 op9ion 0 confirm$ 9 ! quiet tam5ess ( 8 aft]-life4 ,a passage f ! autobiography1 omitt$ above1 comes 9 "h opportunely4 ,he 0 speak+ ( ! abs5ce ( ! fe> ( ,god f 8 mis]able m9d3-- ,?is 0 almo/ true conc]n+ ! entire p]iod4 ,"o occasion ,i w m5tion :5 ,i 0 impress$ ) "s %ame at my wret*$ /ate4 ,:ile ,i 0 mak+ ! t\r ( ,sicily1 my fa!r & "m left ,naples 9 ! ,revolutionnaire1 a f9e frigate :i* _h be5 plac$ at _! disposal1 & by :i* !y w5t to ,m>seilles1 to %ort5 _! l& j\rney homew>ds4 ,:5 ,i return$ to ,naples ,i f\nd a long lett] f my fa!r1 full ( k9dness & affection = me1 9 :i* he expla9$ to me 8 wi%es z to ! c\rse ( my j\rney home4 ,?is lett] ,i believe ,i #gh h n kept1 b ,i rememb] 9 x a passage ne>ly z foll[s3 ',z to y\r conduct1 my de> ,george1 ,i ne$ n tell y h[ important x is = y\r future happ9ess & "* t y %\ld keep y\rself f all evil2 especially consid]+ ! sacr$ pr(ession = :i* y are int5d$4 ,b1 on ?is subject1 ,i h no wi% conc]n+ y b to he> t y cont9ue to be :at y h hi!rto be54' ',ah6' ?\ght ,i to myself1 'h[ horrible is ! diff]5ce betwe5 :at ,i am & :at ?is s5t5ce repres5ts me4' ,b worldly %ame 0 yet m p[]ful 9 me ?an godly %ame1 & ?is salut>y impression did n produce "o good resolution4 ,on ,may #crd1 #ahbj1 he came to ,rome a second "t4 ,8 fir/ visit ?is "t also 0 to ,/4 ,pet]'s1 :i*1 he says1 look$ m sup]b to me ?an ev]4 ,he att5d$ ,c>d9al ,litta's fun]al f curiosity1 & has no rem>k ab\t x wor? extract+4 ,!re are two passages 9 ! j\rnal relat+ to ! c]emonies ( ,asc5sion ,?ursday & ,corpus ,*ri/i1 :i* may be int]e/+ z be+ indicative ( 8 notions ( ,ca?olic ritual3-- ,?ursday1 ,may #aa4--;,got up e>ly1 & wrote till breakfa/4 ,at #i w5t (f ) ,b>r+ton & ,=d to ,/4 ,john ( ,lat]an1 :]e !re 7 great c]emonies to take place = ! ,asc5sion ,day4 ,! old ,pope 0 !re1 & 0 c>ri$ r\nd ! *ur* bless+1 ) o!r mumm]ies4 ,x 0 a f9e sight :5 he knelt d[n & pray$ 7or 0 suppos$ to d s7 9 ! middle ( ! *ur*1 ) all ! ,c>d9als beh9d him4 ,n[ ?is goes = no?+ 9 comp>ison to :at x mu/ h be5 :5 ! ,pope 0 really consid]$ infallible 7sic74 ,we !n all w5t out ( ! *ur* to receive ! bless+1 f ! pr9cipal w9d[ 9 ! faade4 ,! ,pope came to ?is 9 8 *air1 & p]=m$ ! spread+ ( 8 h&s v becom+ly4 ,! :ole ?+ 0 too protract$1 p]haps1 to be z /rik+ z x %\ld2 b ,i 0 n z disappo9t$ z ,i expect$ to be4 ,! cannonry ( ,/4 ,angelo & ! b& c]ta9ly gave effect2 & ! cr[d ( p on ! space be=e ! *ur* 0 a sc5e to look at4 #gi ,?ursday1 ,june #a4--,to-day is ! fea/ ( ,corpus ,dom9i1 "o ( ! greate/ 9 ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*2 s at eight we w5t1 hav+ breakfa/$ a fact1 by ! bye1 he seldom omits to m5tion1 to ,/4 ,pet]'s1 to see ! funzioni1 :i* are v gr& on ?is occasion4 ,!re 0 a great procession r\nd ! cortile--fir/ ( ! religi\s ord]s1 ab\t #dej monks only2 & ! boys ( ,/4 ,mi*ael's ,hospital1 ( ! ,collegio ,romano1 c4 ,!n came curates1 & prie/s temporal & secul>1 prelates1 & monsignores1 ! ensigns or canopies ( ! sev5 basilicas ) _! *apt]s1 & ! prie/s belong+ to !m foll[+2 next came bi%ops1 !n c>d9als1 & !n ! ,pope1 c>ri$ on f\r m5's %\ld]s4 ,he 0 pack$ up on ! top ( ! /& ) 8 head out alone4 ,he seem$ m dead ?an alive1 & worse ?an on ,may #aa at ,s4 ,giovanni's4 ,! gr\p ( p ab\t him1 ) _! robes & spl5did mitres1 made a v brilliant sight4 ,! =m] "p ( ! procession r %[$ ! decad5ce ( ! ,*ur* f a great height1 ?an its pres5t glory4 ,aft] ! ,pope came ! gu>dia nobile1 & o!r soldi]s1 9 spl5did uni=ms4 ,aft] ! procession !re 7 functions 9 ! ,*ur*1 & a b5$iction f ! ,alt>1 & :i* ,i did n see s well4 ,/4 ,pet]'s nev] %[$ s well z ) a cr[d ( p 9 x1 :5 "o may e/imate its dim5sions f ! comp>ison ( _! littl5ess4 ,?is is a fair specim5 ( h[ a c&id1 prejudic$ ,prote/ant />es at ,ca?olic s]vices4 ,he puts d[n z undisput$ t all is absurd be=e he goes1 & if ! ,man ( ,s9 himself1 ! poor ,pope1 is 9 ! middle ( x1 x rises to ! v highe/ pit* ( abom9ation4 ,a man :o c\ld consid] holiday attire & exultation impi\s on ,ea/] ,sunday1 & ! m\rn+ & fa/+ & processions ( ,good ,friday some?+ worse1 _c be v well qualifi$ to compreh5d ! ,asc5sion & ,corpus ,*ri/i 9 ,rome4 ,ca?olics d believe 9 ! au?ority ( ! ,pope & ! p[] ( ! ,keys1 & also 9 ! ,real ,pres5ce2 w x n foll[1 z a natural conclusion1 t ! f\r qu>t]s ( ! globe %\ld get its spiritual ,fa!r's bless+ "o day 9 ! ye>1 & t we %\ld try to f9d out ! be/ way ( hon\r+ our ,inc>nate ,god 9 ! ,bless$ ,sacram5t8 #hj ,b consi/5cy is n a gift "o f9ds among ,prote/ants1 especially :5 !y give _! op9ion on :at !y ?9k too absurd to try to und]/&4 ,!y mu/ admit ! ,ca?olic c]emonial is impos+2 b !n x is only to qu>rel ) x = be+ s4 ,!y c und]/& pageantry & pomp 9 hon\r+ an e>?ly mon>*2 b does x occur to !m t e be/ gift is f above1 & t ! ,k+ ( k+s %\ld be hon\r$ ) e circum/ance ( spl5d\r & oblation a creature c (f]8 ,"o or two ( ! sali5t po9ts ( 8 "* come out 9 a few extracts we %all produce f ! j\rnal n[4 ,he says1 on leav+ ,rome--,h[ delightful1 & yet h[ melan*oly1 0 my walk ab\t ^? de> rooms at ! ,vatican2 aft] next ,?ursday ,i believe ,i am nev] to see !m aga91 s f>ewell to !m n[4 ,?is illu/rates 8 bett] nature2 he 0 v affectionate1 & c\ld love :atev] 0 really wor? lov+2 he 0 n v demon/rative ( ?is feel+1 b :5 x came to leave-tak+1 he _h to give v5t to x4 ,a peculi> ca/e ( 8 m9d 0 to li/5 to e proposition1 & weigh ! reasons adduc$ to support x4 ,if !y 7 unansw]able1 he at once admitt$ x1 &1 if possible1 te/$ x by exp]i5ce4 ,?is 0 ! great key to 8 conv]sion & subsequ5t life4 ,9 conv]sation1 p]haps1 ) a m$ical fri5d1 he 0 told t x 0 f> ! be/ way1 :il/ on ! move 9 travell+1 nei!r to eat nor dr9k4 ,?is 0 support$ by reasons drawn f ! dige/ive pr9ciples1 & s =?4 ,he ?\ght x 0 well prov$1 & c\ld f9d no valid objection aga9/ x1 s he det]m9$ to try x1 & travell$ f ,rome to ,si5na )\t ta/+ a morsel = =ty-two h\rs1 & says 9 8 j\rnal--,x is mu* ! be/ way 9 travell+4 ,9 ,flor5ce we h o!r tok5s ( ! regret ) :i* he p>ts f 8 fri5ds2 & 9 ! same page a v diff]5t feel+ on p>t+ ) "s ,franciscans4 ,^! ent]ta9$ him uncommonly well = m5dicants1 & %[$ him all _! treasures ( art & piety ) ! greate/ k9dness2 yet x did n prev5t him call+ !m lazy old monks :5 !y let him away at ?ree o'clock 9 ! morn+4 #ha ,he walks ab\t ! c\ntry a good deal1 & f9ds x pleasant1 z ! common p "h are mu* m conv]sable ?an ours4 ,?is /rik+ diff]5ce betwe5 a ,ca?olic & a ,prote/ant peasantry is pat5t to ! mo/ sup]ficial obs]v]4 ,! poor ,iri%1 ,fr5*1 or ,italian lab\r]1 :o c nei!r read nor write1 is q at 8 ease ) ! m]*ant or ! noble4 ,he w h 8 joke & 8 laugh1 v (t5 at ! exp5se ( 8 sup]ior1 & nev] out/ep ! b\nds ( due respect4 ,he is light-he>t$ & gay ev]y:]e1 & ! exact opposite ( ! ,engli% navvy4 ,! real cause ( ! diff]5ce is ! want ( religion 9 ! poor ,briton4 ,! ,ca?olic religion inculcates humility on ! great4 ,x br+s ! ,"l ( ! ,manor & 8 s]vant to ! same confessional & ! same alt>3 !y may be z f> asund] z pole f pole outside ! *ur*1 b inside x !y are bo? on a level4 ,! works ( m]cy are insi/$ on1 & high-born ladies are mo/ frequ5tly ! m9i/]+ angels ( ! poor man's sick-b$1 & ! in/ructors ( 8 *ildr51 & nurses ( 8 orphans4 ,bless$ are ! poor is n a dead lett] 9 ,ca?olic !ology1 & until x be1 & t pov]ty becomes felony1 ! same ease & happ9ess w p]vade ! peasantry ( ,ca?olic c\ntries1 :i* n[ gives !m su* grace & beauty4 ,! doctr9e ( self-wor%ip & money-adoration c nev] fuse races2 !re is a wide wide *asm betwe5 ! upp] & ! l[] ord]s 9 ,prote/ant c\ntries1 :i* no am\nt ( me*anics' lectures1 & patroniz+ condesc5sion1 c bridge ov]1 z long z ! g]ms ( ! worldly sy/em rema9 root$ 9 ! education & mann]s ( ! p4 ,( c\rse1 ^! rem>ks d n apply to ! g5]al /ate ( ?+s1 = !re is oppression 9 ,ca?olic c\ntries z well z else:]e2 !y simply conc]n ! work+ ( a ,*ri/ian pr9ciple1 if x get fair play4 ,he visits ,pisa1 ,lucca1 ,c>r>a1 ,se/ri1 & /ops at ,g5oa4 ,a bit ( ! ,prote/ant breaks out "h4 ,we w5t to see t fooli% sacro cat9o at ! ,ca!dral1 :i* ,i h no d\bt is glass in/ead ( em]ald4 ,he says #hb aga93 ,x makes me r onk$ to be alone n[1 ?\gh sometimes ,i wi% to be s4 ,b ! only solitude t is disagreeable is among numb]s 9 a l>ge t[n4 ,! solitude ( ! ,ap5n9es1 & su* places z la/ night's habitation1 is a pleasure to me4 ,n[ "o vettur9o h&s him ov] to ano!r m blackgu>d ?an himself on 8 way to ,bologna1 :]e he has a v satisfactory meet+ ) ,mezz(anti once m4 ,(f he />ts ?r\gh ,f]r>a1 ,rovigo1 & ,padua1 = ,v5ice2 he visits ! ,piazza ,s4 ,m>co1 & is told complac5tly by a ,fr5* doctor1 :o prov$ to be a t]rible bore by-&-by1 t x is no?+ to ! ,palais ,royal4 ,he visits ,mantua on a pilgrimage to ,virgil's bir?place1 & says ( a sight he saw by accid5t3 ,i 0 amus$ by a figure ( ,s4 ,z5o1 j l a smil+ ,otaheitan idol ( ! l>ge/ dim5sions1 :i* is ! great protector ( ! t[n4 ,x is n h>d to tell :i* way 8 devotion lay4 ,sp5c] & a ,mr4 ,lefevre1 :o 0 n[ 8 travell+ companion1 g to a villegiatura "h1 & are spl5didly ent]ta9$ = a c\ple ( days4 ,!y travel on = ,g]many ?r\gh ! ,tyrol2 f ,v]ona to ,riva !y *iefly travel by ! ,lago di ,g>da1 & ! only incid5ts he *ooses to record1 until !y come to dem gold55 ,adl] 7! gold5 ,eagle7 at ,brix51 are ! cic]one's op9ions ( ,catullus1 :om t well-in=m$ individual ?\ght to h be5 a brig& *ief4 ,!y _h to br+ ! bill ( f>e be=e ! police 9 ,riva1 b 7 n successful 9 gett+ a s+le *>ge dim9i%$2 he enjoy$ a good deal ( idyllic life along "h1 & did n seem to ?9k mu* pro or con ( ! little t[n ( ,tr5t1 ?\gh "o %\ld fancy he w\ld say some?+1 if x 7 only a few angry words ab\t ! ,great ,c\ncil4 ,he consid]s ! ,g]mans m hone/ ?an ! ,italians1 & 0 incl9$ to admire _! solidity & /ead9ess2 b 8 driv] fell asleep on _! way to ,innspruck1 & let ! re9s fall on ! horse's neck :5 desc5d+ a /eep1 & he ve]s r\nd to ! op9ion t if !y 7 a little liveli]1 x w\ld be mu* bett]4 ,on 8 way ?r\gh ,bav>ia to ,muni* he ?9ks ! c\ntry v l ,engl&--well cultivat$ & fl\ri%+4 ,! co/umes extraord9>y1 #hc b n s pretty z ! ,tyrolese4 ,! p !mselves1 bo? m5 & wom51 are ! uglie/ race ,i ev] saw4 ,!y _h lett]s ( introduction to ,pr9ce ,loew5/e9 & ,c\nt ,pepp5heim1 two aides-de-camp ( ! ,k+ ( ,bav>ia2 !y 7 invit$ to a royal *asse4 ,p]haps x is z well to give ! :ole acc\nt f ! ,j\rnal1 z x conveys an idea ( ,g]man sports too f9e to be ov]look$4 ,monday1 ,aug4 #ba4--;,at #d ?is morn+ we />t$ = ! *asse 9 ! m\nta9s ab\t ?ree leagues (f4 ,at ! end ( two leagues we 7 /opp$ & oblig$ to walk1 z ! road became too n>r[ = ! ,k+ to pass u1 9 case we _h be5 9 ! way :5 he came up4 ,s we walk$ ! re/ till we came to ! toils :]e ,loew5/e9 receiv$ u4 ,! *asse 0 9 a deep valley1 %ut 9 on ! sides by precipit\s rocks3 into ?is !y _h track$ ab\t #hj or #ij head ( de]1 & %ut !m 9 by toils at bo? ends2 !n little gre5 enclosures 7 made = ! guns to be po/$ 94 ,we _h "o ( ^! guns giv5 u 9 conjunction ) o!r spectators1 ! %oot] :o 0 to h be5 !re n hav+ arriv$4 ,be=e ! l9e 0 a broad c\rse ( a torr5t1 & beyond t 0 a wood into :i* !y _h =c$ ! game1 & f :i* !y drove x aga9 ) dogs1 & ev5 into ! way ( ! guns4 ,?is w5t on = #d or #e h\rs1 dur+ :i* !y cannonad$ v quick1 b ) little effect1 = ,i nev] saw a mu* great] proportion ( misses4 ,! result 0 ab\t #gj head ( de]4 ,we 7 mu* surpris$ 9 ! middle ( ! "t at see+ ,devon walk up4 ,he came f ,salzburg = ! purpose ( ?is *asse1 & /ay$ ) u ?r\gh x4 ,aft] x we 7 /&+ ne> ! place :]e ! ,k+ 0 c\nt+ out ! game1 :5 ,pepp5heim pres5t$ u to him1 & he ask$ u to d9e at ,b]*tesgad54 ,z our c>riage 0 s f> (f1 we 7 oblig$ to be c>ri$ z we c\ld1 & ,i 0 tak5 9 by ,loew5/e91 :o is1 by ! bye1 ab\t ! fatte/ man 9 ,bav>ia4 ,we dress$ directly1 bo? ourselves & ,devon1 :o _h no?+ "h2 & ev5 s we 7 late = d9n]4 ,h[ev]1 ! ,k+ 0 s graci\s & good-hum\r$ t x all w5t (f capitally4 ,x 0 an int]e/+ d9n] = ! faces t #hd we saw4 ,eug5e ,beauh>nais1 ,pr9ce ,s*w>tz5b]g1 ,rei*5ba*1 eng9e]1 ,m>ehal ,wr$e1 & ab\t #af m1 7 !re4 ,we /ay$ till ab\t #f1 & !n came home4 ,tuesday1 ,aug4 #bb4--,to-day we aga9 foll[$ ! motions ( ! ,c\rt4 ,devon came ov] ) horses f ,halle91 :]e he _h return$ la/ night2 & s we w5t ab\t com=tably4 ,s*w>tz5b]g took u to a fam\s ma*9e ( ,mr4 ,rei*5ba*'s1 )\t ! ,k+4 ,?is ma*9e is employ$ to raise ! salt wat]1 :i* is br\ght f ! m9es "h1 & convey x ov] ! m\nta9s to ,rei*5hall1 ab\t #c leagues di/ant1 :]e is a manufactory = extract+ ! salt4 ,! reason ( ?is is1 t !re is n en\gh wood = consumption "h4 ,x is a va/ =c+-pump1 :i* is work$ by fre% wat] f a height ( #djj feet1 & raises ! salt wat] #a1bjj4 ,?is wat] is 9 ! proportion ( #ec to #dd heavi] ?an fre% wat]4 ,i did n und]/& ! :ole explanation1 be+ 9 ,g]man1 b ,i admir$ ! ma*9e1 :i* works 9 a room s quietly z actually n to be p]ceptible f ! noise1 except a little spla%+4 ,aft] ?is we came to a mis]able d9n] at ! inn1 :i* 0 too full to att5d to u4 ,at #a1 ab\t1 we />t$ aga9 to a romantic lake1 ,knig ,see1 :]e ano!r sc5e ( ?is royal drama 0 to be enact$4 ,! ,k+ came1 ) 8 :ole p>ty1 an h\r aft] u1 & we 7 invit$ by ,loew5/e9 into 8 royal boat1 :i* 0 r[$ by #aa m5 & "o pretty damsel4 ,we w5t all d[n ! lake1 ) sev]al o!r boats full foll[+1 "o ( :i* _h #d small cannons1 :i* !y con/antly dis*>g$ = ! e*o4 ,! ?+ we came ?\gh = 01 two artificial cascades f ! top ( ! m\nta9s1 "o 9 ! c\rse ( a small torr5t1 :i* _h be5 /opp$ above & made into a lake1 full ( l>ge pieces ( timb]1 :i* 7 precipitat$ all at once ) surpris+ effect4 ,! o!r 0 a dry cascade1 d[n :i* two heaps ( timb] 7 dis*>g$1 l ! laun*+ ( a %ip f an incl9$ plane1 ! smalle/ ( :i*1 z ,i c\ld judge f bel[1 0 twice ! height ( a man1 & f\r times ! l5g? at lea/4 ,! f9e/ "p ( ?is 0 ! prodigi\s #he spla%+ at ! bottom1 :i* resembl$1 9 appe>ance & s\nd1 a l9e ( cannonad+4 ,by way ( sport1 ?is is ! mo/ sup]b *ild-amusem5t "o c\ld conceive4 ,we r[$ back 9 ! same boat1 & disemb>k$ ab\t sunset4 ,we proce$$ directly to a salt-m9e1 )\t ! ,k+1 :]e 0 to be an illum9ation4 ,we all 7 deck$ out 9 m9]s' habits1 & emb>k$1 9 little c>ts drawn by two m51 d[n a %aft #a1hjj feet long1 light$ by c&les all ! way1 ourselves hav+ "o ea*1 l :ite p5it5ts4 ,at ! end ( ?is we 7 surpris$ by ent]+ a l>ge *amb]1 p]haps #bjj y>ds r\nd1 ) a gall]y at ! top2 ! :ole 0 surr\nd$ by fe/oons ( lamps1 & bel[ x 0 a ri* /> ( fire1 :i* %[$ ! dep? ( ! m9e (f to great advantage4 ,a b& ( music 0 play+1 & m9es 7 explod$ at ! bottom ) really trem5d\s noise4 ,altoge!r1 ?is sc5e pleas$ me m ?an any ,i h se5 "h1 or p]haps any:]e4 ,w$nesday1 ,augu/ #bc4--;,at #e we />t$ 9 ! c>riage1 ) ,devon's s]vant1 = ! second *asse 7( *amois72 we f\nd ourselves among a long tra9 ( o!r c>riages also go+ !re4 ,we pass$ ?r\gh ! *asse ( ,monday1 & w5t ab\t #c miles fur!r on foot4 ,we f\nd t ( #fj *amois :i* _h be5 collect$ 9 ! toils1 #dj _h escap$2 s ! *asse 0 b ( ab\t an h\r's duration be=e !y 7 all kill$4 ,! /&s ( %oot]s 7 conf9$1 s we 7 made to climb up a little m\nta91 or r a l>ge rock1 f :i* we _h an excell5t view ( ev]y?+4 ,! sc5]y 0 sup]b & wild4 ,be=e1 beh9d1 & ev]y:]e1 7 imm5se m\nta9s ( solid & %agg$ rock1 #i1jjj feet high above ! sea1 ) no?+ l vegetation b pat*es ( /unt$ firs1 :i* did n1 ev5 s1 rea* halfway up _! height1 & look$ l moss4 ,x made a contra/ ) ! tam5ess ( ! *asse1 :]e ab\t #af *amois 7 driv5 ab\t & kill$ out ( little boxes1 9 an enclosure ( a few acres4 ,x 0 n s f9e 9 t respect z ! de] *asse4 ,! ,k+ ask$ u aga9 to d9n]1 ne> a small h\se 9 ! valley ( ! de] *asse 7,wimba*74 ,! table 0 put on a plat=m "u a sycamore-tree 9 a glori\s situation4 #hf ,i 0 unexpect$ly call$ ^u to sit next to ,pr9ce ,s*w>tz5b]g1 & always call$ milord1 :i* probably 0 ! orig9al mi/ake4 ,! :ole bus9ess w5t (f v satisfactorily4 ,! ,k+'s mann]s are mo/ affable1 & made ev]y?+ com=table ab\t him4 ,aft] ?is gr& p]=mance1 our t\ri/s took a ride ?r\gh a salt-m9e1 a/ride ( a plank1 ) a man be=e & beh9d runn+ z fa/ z c\ld be2 !y come f9ally to daylight1 & %ortly aft]w>ds to ,salzburg4 ,!y travell$ ! c\ntry to ,l9tz1 & sail$ d[n ! ,danube to ,vi5na1 :]e !y f\nd ! police ridicul\sly /rict ab\t passports4 ,a few days aft] _! arrival 9 ,vi5na !y took a drive ?r\gh ! ,prat]1 & dur+ ! drive we conv]s$ on ! subject ( family calamities1 & on "o's means ( be>+ !m4 ,soon aft] we came home1 ,"l ,/ew>t's atta*1 ,mr4 ,a/on1 call$ ) a lett] = me f ,mr4 ,all51 :i* told me ( ! horrible news ( my bro!r ,bob's dea? 9 ,am]ica1 kill$ 9 an affray ) 8 fir/ lieut5ant6 ,h[ /rangely fulfill$ 7 our ye/]day's progno/ics4 ,?is is a sort ( ?+ t is too great & deep an accid5t to feel 9 ! common way4 ,i h>dly und]/& x at ?is di/ance3 ,i %all ?\gh be=e long4 ,i w5t ) ,lefevre aft] d9n] to ,"l ,/ew>t's1 :]e ,i f\nd a ,g]man c\ri] 0 to />t soon = ,engl&4 ,i %all accompany him4 ,?is is f ! ,j\rnal2 we %all n[ give an extract f ! ,autobiography3-- ,my fir/ t\r abroad 0 sudd5ly t]m9at$ at ,vi5na by a lett] :i* ,i receiv$ to recall me home1 f ! ,rev4 ,j4 ,all51 n[ ,bi%op ( ,ely4 ,?is lett] gave me notice ( ! suppos$ dea? ( my bro!r ,rob]t1 9 ,s\? ,am]ica1 :o1 x 0 report$1 _h be5 kill$ 9 an affray ) 8 fir/ lieut5ant4 ,?is mo/ /range /ory1 = :i* !re 0 n ! slighte/ f\ndation 9 tru?1 0 convey$ to our family 9 ,engl& 9 su* a way z ga9$ x entire belief1 & all _h be5 = two or ?ree weeks 9 deep m\rn+ & "u ! greate/ affliction1 :5 ! falsehood ( ! report 0 discov]$4 ,?is affliction 0 consid]$ a suffici5t cause = ga!r+ toge!r all ! #hg memb]s ( ! family :o 7 at lib]ty to come home2 & s ,i 0 desir$ to return imm$iately4 ,i b\ght a c>riage at ,vi5na1 &1 travell$ = "s nights & days )\t ceas+1 dur+ :i* ,i ?\ght to try an exp]im5t on h[ little n\ri%m5t ,i c\ld subsi/2 & f a sort ( curiosity to amuse myself1 = ,i c h>dly attribute x to a bett] motive1 ,i accompli%$ a fa/ :i* x w\ld appe> a dreadful h>d%ip to be r$uc$ to by necessity1 & a v small approa* to :i*1 9 ^! times1 w\ld be by mo/ p]sons look$ on z a mo/ unreasonable au/]ity4 ,i pass$ ^? successive int]vals ( #ch1 #ej1 & #ec h\rs1 z ,i f9d 9 my j\rnal1 )\t t\*+ ! lea/ p>ticle ( food to eat or dr9k2 & :at ,i took betwe5 ! int]vals 0 only a little tea & bread & butt]4 ,?is matt] is n wor? notic+1 except to %[ t1 z ,i w5t ?r\gh ?is1 :ile travell+1 :i* is r an exhau/+ employm5t1 )\t ! lea/ detrim5t to my heal?1 & )\t a feel+ ( hung] almo/ all ! "t1 x is a sad delusion = p 9 good heal? to fancy !y ne$ s _m indulg5ces & relaxations to g ?r\gh ! fa/s appo9t$ by ! ,*ur*4 ,x 0 :5 ,i got to ,calais t ,i w5t to ! ,engli% news-room to see fur!r acc\nts 9 ! newspap]s ( my bro!r's dea?1 ! report ( :i*1 ?\gh at fir/ ,i _h "s suspicions x might be false1 ,i aft]w>ds _h made up my m9d entirely to believe4 ,my joy 0 exce$+ great at f9d+ an explicit contradiction to x 9 "o ( ! late/ pap]s4 ,i rememb] go+ on my knees to ?ank ,god1 9 ! news-room1 :5 ,i f\nd myself alone1 :i* ,i believe 0 ! fir/ occasion = a long1 long "t ,i _h made a pray] ( any sort1 or gone on my knees1 except 9 *ur*-s]vice "t4 ,?is ,i nev] gave up entirely1 & dur+ ?is "t ,i nev] gave up receiv+ ! ,sacram5t explicitly1 ?\gh ,i d n f9d t ,i receiv$ x all ! "t ,i 0 abroad4 ,i did n int5d to commit acts ( hypocrisy1 b mu/ h gone on f cu/om & a c]ta9 s5se ( propriety1 )\t consid]+ t ,i 0 mock+ ,god4 #hh ,on 8 arrival at ,al?orp he f\nd ! family all 9 ! mo/ joy\s mood possible4 ,a little passage ( 8 ,j\rnal gives an idea ( ! "* ( ! noble family 9 _! relations ) ! t5antry3-- ,friday1 ,sept4 #bb4 ,bread & meat giv5 to ! poor ( ,br+ton1 ,brampton1 & ,h>le/on1 z a rejoic+ = ,bob's recov]y4 ,?ree ox5 7 kill$1 & ! effect seem$ v good4 ,!y gave "s lively *e]s z !y dep>t$4 ,he goes to ,london1 & he>s ,h5ry ,br\gham's spee* on ,que5 ,c>ol9e's trial2 & imm$iately aft]1 he />ts = ,switz]l& to see 8 si/]1 ,lady ,georgiana ,qu94 ,we %all relate ?is 9 8 own words 9 ! ,autobiography3-- ,i became s fond ( ! bus9ess ( travell+ t1 z ,i 0 return+ homew>ds1 my m9d 0 occupi$ con/antly ) plans = fur!r excursions4 ,i int5d$ to h gone ) ,lefevre f ,vi5na to ,dresd5 & ,b]l9 on our way home1 b ,i c\ld n ?9k ( reg>d+ ?is z my la/ j\rney4 ,i 0 long+ to see ,greece4 ,i _h _h ?\ghts ( ,spa91 ,russia1 ,egypt1 & v>i\s inde$ h be5 ! fancies & incl9ations :i* h pass$ ?r\gh my m9d4 ,! regul> travell+ mania _h its turn ab\t ?is "t1 & ,i wond] n1 by my feel+s !n1 at s _m ( our c\ntrym51 :om ,i h kn[n myself1 :o h left ,engl& = a %ort excursion1 & n hav+ pr(essional engagem5ts1 nor wise p>5ts & relations1 z ,i _h1 to control !m1 h become regul> w&]]s1 & h sp5t1 9 travell+ ab\t1 ! ye>s on ! good employm5t ( :i*1 at home1 dep5d$ ma9ly _! success 9 aft]-life4 ,x may be judg$ h[ truly ,i 0 possess$ ) ?is _s ( w&]+1 at ! "t ( :i* ,i speak1 by my rema9+ b "o =tnight at ,al?orp ) my family be=e ,i 0 aga9 on w+4 ,my si/]1 ,lady ,georgiana ,qu9--^: society _h made to me "o ( ! *ief *>ms ( ! w9t] at ,naples1 & ^: be+ at ,naples ) ,"l ,george1 h] husb&1 & h] *ildr51 _h be5 ! ma9 inducem5t = my fa!r & "m to make an und]tak+1 at _! age1 & ) _! habits1 s extraord9>y z ?is long j\rney--_h left ,naples dur+ my t\r 9 ,sicily1 & 0 settl$ at a c\ntry-h\se call$ ! ,*teau de ,be?usy1 ne> ,lausanne4 ,i propos$ go+ to #hi see h]1 & to give h] ! full acc\nt ( all t conc]n$ ! /range report ab\t my bro!r ,rob]t4 ,i wond] at my hav+ _h my p>5ts' cons5t to make ano!r dep>ture s soon1 & ) app>5tly s insuffici5t an object4 ,i suppose !y ?\ght x reasonable to give me ?is lib]ty1 by way ( comp5sation = ! sudd5 cutt+-(f ( my fir/ gr& t\r4 ,?is "t ,i pass$ by ,dieppe to ,p>is1 !nce by ,lyons to ,be?usy1 :]e1 hav+ /ay$ a =tnight--! pleasante/1 &1 alas6 almo/ ! la/ days ,i _h 9 my si/]'s company--,i return$ by ,nancy to ,p>is1 & !nce ?r\gh ,calais to ,engl&4 ,i rea*$ ,al?orp on ! #ai? ( ,novemb]1 #ahbj4 ,& s ! fancy = travell+ soon di$ away1 z my prospects = fre% j\rneys met ) no enc\ragem5t at home2 & "h is an end ( all my travell+s = m]e travell+'s sake4 ,:5 next ,i left ,engl&1 x 01 ?ank ,god1 ) ?\ghts & views f> o!r ?an be=e4 ,an extract f ! ,j\rnal ( ?is "t may n be )\t int]e/3-- ,octob] #ag1 #ahbj4--,) ?is day's j\rnal ends ! ?ird ye> t ,i h kept x4 ,?is ye> has be5 ! mo/ int]e/+ & v>i$ ,i h ev] pass$1 & probably ev] %all1 = my travell+ w n la/ long4 ,i c]ta9ly h reap$ advantages 9 "s respects1 & great ones4 ,i h _h exp]i5ce 9 ! _w1 & h le>nt to %ift = myself bett] ?an ,i c\ld h done by any o!r means4 ,i h1 ,i hope1 increas$ ! confid5ce ( my family 9 me2 &1 above all1 ,i h ne>ly expell$ t melan*oly disposition ,i ga9$ at college2 b mo/ active ,i feel ,i mu/ be to prev5t its return :5 ,i aga9 rema9 quiet 9 ,engl&4 ,i h /ill a damp] to my prospects t occasionally ov]:elms me1 b ,i mu/1 ,i tru/1 get ov] t too2 z ,i h n[ p]suad$ myself on sob] reflection1 ?\gh ,i am sadly sl[ 9 beg9n+ to act on ! pr9ciple1 t "o quality alone is )9 all our rea*1 & t "o object alone is wor? try+ =4 ,god grant ?is ?\ght may (t5 occur to me4 ,i h ?is ye> enjoy$ ! pleasures & div]sions mo/ enliv5+1 & :i* ,i always mo/ desir$2 b ev5 !y are insuffici5t to make #ij "o happy alone1 ?\gh ne>] to x ?an any o!rs4 ,let u !n look to :at c]ta9ly c4 ,?is tra9 ( ?\ght seem$ to h occupi$ 8 m9d betwe5 8 leav+ ,p>is1 & return+ to x aga9 dur+ ! la/ visit to 8 si/]4 ,!re is "o p>agraph 9 ! ,autobiography :i* ref]s to bo?2 "h x is1 & x is ! la/ morsel ( t int]e/+ docum5t t rema9s unwritt5 9 8 life3-- ,! mo/ rem>kable impression ( religion :i* ,i rememb] 9 all ?is p]iod1 0 9 a place :]e x might h be5 lea/ expect$4 ,no o!r ?an ! ,italian ,op]a at ,p>is4 ,i pass$ ?r\gh t city1 z ,i h said be=e1 9 my la/ j\rney to ,lausanne1 & on my return a mon? lat]4 ,bo? times ,i w5t to see ! op]a ( ,don ,giovanni1 :i* 0 ! piece !n 9 c\rse ( repres5tation4 ,i conceiv$ t aft] ?is j\rney ,i %\ld give up all ?\ghts ( worldly vices4 ,i 0 likely to be fix$ at home till ! "t ( my ord9ation1 & %\ld assume some?+ ( ! "* ( a c&idate = holy ord]s4 ,9 %ort1 ,i felt z if x 0 almo/ my la/ occasion1 & ,i 0 ent]ta9+1 alas6 "s wick$ devices 9 my m9d :5 ,i w5t to ?is mo/ dang]\s & fasc9at+ op]a1 :i* is 9 itself1 by ! subjects x repres5ts1 "o ( ! mo/ calculat$ to beguile a weak s\l to its de/ruction4 ,b ! la/ sc5e ( x repres5ts ,don ,giovanni1 ! h]o ( ! piece1 seiz$ 9 ! mid/ ( 8 lic5ti\s c>e] by a troop ( devils1 & hurri$ d[n to hell4 ,z ,i saw ?is sc5e1 ,i 0 t]rifi$ at my own /ate4 ,i knew t ,god1 :o knew :at 0 )9 me1 mu/ look on me z "o 9 ! same class ) su* z ,don ,giovanni1 & = once ?is holy fe> ( ,god's judgm5t sav$ me3 & ?is holy w>n+ ,i 0 to f9d 9 an op]a-h\se at ,p>is4 #ia ,,*apt] ,,xii4 ,an ,int]val ,( ,re/ ,& ,prep>ation ,= ,ord]s4 ,?is *apt] beg9s ) 8 tw5ty-fir/ bir?day4 ,he comes be=e u1 a f9e "y man ne>ly six feet high1 graceful & h&some1 ( indep5d5t mi51 w9n+ mann]s1 & all ! o!r attributes ( g5tlemanly p]fection t are calculat$ to make him an object ( attraction4 ,8 j\rnal1 ev5 !n1 t5ds to %[ 8 wor/ side2 we f9d self-accusations 9 e page1 & ! r\nd ( enjoym5ts brok5 9 ^u by s]i\s correctives4 ,= ! great problem :i* morali/s solve s easily1 & ^? :om ! solution conc]ns keep away f consid]ation1 we w f9d 9 8 life a gold5 key4 ,x is too soon yet to speak ab\t ! special work+s ( ,div9e ,grace 9 8 s\l2 b1 ev5 s f> (f1 we c f9d glimm]+s ( ! glori\s sun ( 8 aft]-life4 ,let u look into ! _w1 we f9d ?\s&s t really enjoy & luxuriate 9 gay p>ties1 balls1 pa/imes1 & pleasures1 )\t a pang ( remorse1 & o!rs ) s5sibilities z ke51 if n ke5]1 = ! reli% ( ^! luxuries1 plung+ into !m ) a k9d ( intoxicat+ gu/o1 & com+ out fagg$ & disgu/$1 :5 !y 7 p]haps ?\ght ! v s\l & life ( ! company4 ,we are told ( a pati5t dy+ ( melan*oly :o call$ 9 a doctor to prescribe = him2 ! prescription ( ! m$ical man 01 t he %\ld g & he> ,mr4 ,n41 a celebrat$ comic actor1 = a numb] ( nights successively1 & ! rem$y 0 gu>ante$ to prove infallible1 = no "o c\ld li/5 to him & n laugh himself to hy/]ics4 ,ah1 my de> fri5d1 answ]$ ! pati5t1 ,i am ! v]itable ,mr4 ,n4 myself4 ,x is sometimes argu$ t small m9ds ( a fem99e ca/e1 compos$ ( ! +r$i5ts #ib :i* ! ,spectator wittily discov]s 9 ! dissection ( a beau's head1 c be cont5t ) frivolities1 :il/ a gr& intellect is only made indignant by !m4 ,we c\ld quote examples to be> u out 9 a conclusion ! direct contr>y ( ?is4 ,h[1 !n1 c we solve ! problem8 ,:y c "s live & die 9 a :irl ( dissipation ) app>5t reli%1 :il/ o!rs get clogg$ by a few balls1 & fl+ worldly enjoym5t to ! w9ds on acc\nt ( ! v nausea x creates8 ,x may be consid]$ z go+ into ! sacri/y to say t ^? :om ,god *ooses = great ?+s1 ,he weans f pleasure by a salut>y dissatisfaction8 s ! po9t w n be insi/$ on4 ,! only ord9>y way 9 :i* x c be acc\nt$ = is1 t ! lov]s ( pleasure deaf5 ! voice ( consci5ce1 :]eas ! o!rs give ?is good monitor room to speak1 & occasionally l5d an e>4 ,:i*ev] way we please to look ^u ,f4 ,ignatius at ?is p]iod ( 8 life1 we %all f9d ample mat]ial = !oriz+ on ! unreality ( worldly joys4 ,he concludes ! fir/ volume ( 8 ,j\rnal ) ! foll[+ consid]ations3-- ,dec4 #ca4--;,i h end$ ?is ye>1 z ! la/1 ) a v pleasant ev5+1 z f> z noise & fun c make x4 ,b a m reasonable way w\ld be 7z ,i am n[ 9 my room1 ) my wat* 9 my h&1 ne>ly on ! /roke ( twelve7 to end x 9 mak+ good resolutions = ! ye> to come1--:i* may1 ,i hope1 pass z prosp]\sly1 & m usefully1 ?an ! la/4 ,! new ye> is n[ comm5c$1 & ,i recomm5d myself to ! protection & guidance ( ,almighty ,provid5ce to br+ me safely & well to ! end ( x4 ,i n[ bid f>ewell to ?is j\rnal-book1 :i* is b a record ( my follies1 & absurdities1 & weaknesses1 to myself1 :o "k ! motive ( ! actions :i* are "h commemorat$1 & ( _m m :i* ,i h done well to omit4 ,!re is no fe> ( my =gett+ !m1 nor d ,i wi% x4 ,! less o!r m5 "k ab\t my inw>d ?\ghts1 ! bett] = me 9 _! e/imation4 ,_m ( ! read]s ( ?is book w feel dispos$ to disagree ) ! la/ s5t5ce4 ,we h _h 8 int]ior #ic be=e u1 z cle>ly p]haps z any o!r man's we c possibly call to m9d1 & yet !re is sc>cely "o t mu/ n admire & love him z well1 = ! sacrifice he made = _! b5efit 9 expos+ 8 int]ior1 z = ! beautiful sight t v disclosure gives !m ( 8 noble he>t4 ,x is n v easy to write an int]e/+ *apt] ab\t ?is portion ( 8 life2 ! ,autobiography is run out1 & ! ,j\rnal gives no incid5t ( any great importance till we come to ! subject-matt] ( ! next volume4 ,let u /r+ toge!r a few ( ! lead+ ev5ts1 especially su* z may be calculat$ to give u "s idea ( 8 m9d & occupations4 ,he beg9s ! volume by writ+ d[n t he got up r e>li] ?an usual1 play$ at battl$ore & %uttle-cock ) ,lady ,georgiana ,b+ham1 & kept up to #b1abj hits4 ,he is disappo9t$ !n 9 a day's sport1 & gives ?is acc\nt ( 8 ev5+3 ,i 0 r bili\s & n]v\s to-night1 & consequ5tly w\ld h pref]r$ be+ out ( ! way1 b f a wrong pr9ciple1 ,i fe>1 viz41 because ,i ?\ght ,i %\ld seem r dull & ill-hum\r$4 ,b :at if ,i did1 to ! gay p t d n1 nor wi% to1 "k8 ,& :at if ,i did1 to ^? :o d "k h[ f> x is real1 my ill-hum\r8 ,x 0 cu/om>y1 z he told u "s *apt]s back1 = ! ,sp5c] family to sp5d ,*ri/mas at ,al?orp1 & collect _m ( _! imm$iate relatives ab\t !m dur+ ! "t4 ,! place is beautifully dispos$ = e k9d ( enjoym5t2 !re are l&scapes & pictures = ! ladies to draw f1 f9e gr\nds = ! g5tlem5 to %oot ov]1 ev]y?+ t g5]osity & pr9cely goodness c\ld procure to make ! ev5+s z lively & ent]ta9+ z possible4 ,balls & dances 71 ( c\rse1 a s9e qua non4 ,let u n1 h[ev]1 imag9e x 0 all dissipation at ,al?orp4 ,lords ,al?orp & ,lyttelton us$1 e ,sunday & (t5 on week days1 to read a s]mon to ! assembl$ gue/s f "s ( ! ,anglican div9es1 & sometimes1 too1 f ! ,fr5*1 z we may see 9 a rem>k 9 ! fir/ *apt]4 ,! p>ty at ,al?orp ?is ,*ri/mas did n g beyond ?ree-&-tw5ty4 ,george1 not)/&+ #id ! s\r extract quot$ above1 w5t into ! sports ) he>tfelt glee occasionally1 &1 z a pro( ( ?is1 x is en\gh to say t he danc$1 9 "o night1 9 sev5 c\ntry dances & eight sets ( quadrilles4 ,he says 9 "o place3 ,lyttelton1 ,s>ah 7,lady ,lyttelton71 & ,i1 breakfa/$ toge!r1 talk+ ( a wise resolve ( ,nannette's1 to pull d[n a h\se %e _h j f9i%$ at ,ri*mond1 because x 0 n pretty en\gh = ! inhabitants to look at4 ,he goes to ,london z soon z ! ,*ri/mas p>ty is brok5 up1 :]e he d9es *iefly at home1 b is ab\t occasionally1 see+ 8 old fri5ds1 & diff]5t ?+s t pleas$ 8 :im or 8 ta/e4 ,"o ( ^! 0 see+ ! ,k+ go+ 9 /ate1 & ! nobility z cont5t$ z if !y nev] said a ^w aga9/ him on ! ,que5's trial2 ano!r 0 he>+ ,bi%op ,van ,mild]t prea*4 ,he has ! good =tune ( meet+ ,sir ,walt] ,scott at 8 fa!r's1 & says ,we all /ay$ ! ev5+ li/5+ to him tell+ ,scot* /ories4 ,8 next ev5+ w\ld be1 p]haps1 9 ! ,h\se ( ,lords or ,commons1 & all ! family seem$ 9 a great /ir to be pres5t at ! debates on ! ,ca?olic ,"q4 ,:at op9ions !y held ab\t x d n appe> f ! ,j\rnal2 b !re is no?+ said !re aga9/ ,ca?olics s9ce he left ,italy4 ,he beg9s to cle> away ! mi/ t lay betwe5 him & ! p>sonage4 ,he puts himself a little 9 ! way ( le>n+ some?+ ( :at a cl]gyman c\ld n be respectable )\t4 ,8 fir/ essays 9 ?is direction 71 to hire a dirty ,jew ma/] to tea* him ,hebrew1 & to g occasionally to ,mr4 ,blomfield's1 :o 0 rector ( ,:ite*apel1 to d9e & talk ) cl]ical company4 ,! fir/ "t he tri$ ?is is told z foll[s3-- ,i took up ,fremantle1 & we w5t toge!r to ,blomfield's to d9e4 ,we met ,dr4 ,lloyd1 ,mr4 ,r5nel1 ,mr4 & ,mrs4 ,lyall1 ,mr4 ,watk9son1 ,mr4 ,mawman1 ,mr4 ,tavel1 & "o m cl]gyman--a prop] ,high ,*ur* set1 ) language ( intol]ance4 ,i 0 mu* amus$ ?\gh by obs]v+ !m4 ,s mu* = 8 fir/ lesson 9 *ur* polity4 ,t he 0 n extravagant at ?is "t is evid5c$ #ie by a little incid5t4 ,he f\nd himself ! possessor ( a good sum1 & _h be51 = "s "t1 putt+ "p ( 8 all[ance aside until he f9ds himself able to pay 8 bro!r1 ,"l ,al?orp1 :at he l5t him to pay (f 8 debts 9 ,cambridge1 z e>ly z ! #g? ( ,april4 ,?is 0 a v busy day4 ,i fir/ w5t to ,al?orp to (f] him paym5t ( a l>ge debt ,i owe him1 b he refus$ x v g5]\sly1 & made me ri* 9 a mom5t by s do+4 ,he pays (f ! ,jew on ! #be? ( ,april1 hav+ _h 8 lectures f ! #h? ( ,m>* previ\s4 ,?is app>5t fall+ away f ! _s ( 8 vocation1 0 r$eem$ 9 a few days1 by 8 fall+ half 9 love ) "s v high lady4 ,he crosses himself imm$iately = ! absurdity1 & wi%es %e 7 a cl]gyman's daught]4 ,?is fit we>s out completely 9 t5 days' "t4 ,"l ,john ,russell & ,sydney ,smi? d9e at 8 fa!r's1 & he says ( ! latt]3 ,sydney ,smi? is a new p]son on my li/1 & v ent]ta9+ he is4 ,! au?or ( ,pet] ,plimley's ,lett]s mu/ c]ta9ly h be5 an agreeable gue/4 ,on ! #ae? ( ,june he gives ! foll[+ note3--,my fa!r & ,i w5t to see ! m>riage ( ,mr4 ,neville & ,lady ,georgiana ,b+ham1 9 ! ,portuguese ,ca?olic ,*apel1 9 ,s\? ,/reet1 close to ,v]non's h\se4 ,dr4 ,poynt]1 ! ,ca?olic bi%op ( ,london1 p]=m$ x1 & gave u a long-prosy diss]tation on ! sacram5t ( m>riage4 ,! sc5e *anges n[ to ,ryde1 ,isle ( ,wight1 :]e ! family g to sp5d ! summ]4 ,george occupies 8 "t !re 9 rid+1 fi%+ 7) no success71 boat+1 cricket+1 & do+ ! tutor to a "y w>d ( 8 fa!r4 ,he also le>nt p]spective f a ,mr4 ,vorley1 & 8 op9ion ( him is1 t he talks m nons5se ?an any "o ,i "k 9 a giv5 "t4 ,he rema9$ 8 pupil until he pick$ 8 bra9s1 :i* did n require mu* "t or application seem+ly4 ,he he>s ( ,napoleon's dea?1 & comm5ts !reon ?us3--,we he>d ?is morn+ ( ,bonap>te be+ dead 9 ,/4 ,hel5a4 ,x does n make s mu* noise z "o w\ld h ?\ght 8 dea? mu/ eight ye>s ago4 ,= "o ?+1 x w save u #aej1jjj a ye>4 #if ,/4 ,s)9's ,day1 ,july #ae4 ,x ra9$ all morn+1 :i* is om9\s4 ,?is kept !m indoors1 & x 0 well1 = !y 7 all 9 a bu/le prep>+ = ! coronation ( ,william ,,iv4 ,! c\ntess & h] maids 7 busy at ! laces & ! fre%5+ ( fad$ col\rs1 until ! e>l's /ate robes 7 got ready2 :5 he 0 call$ ^u to fit !m on1 t ! ke5 glance ( ladies' eyes might see if !re 0 a flaw or a speck to be remov$4 ,george 0 pres5t at ! "t1 & says3 ,my fa!r put on 8 robes1 & 0 look$ at by a room full ( ladies & g5tlem54 ,george himself1 by ! way1 makes "s bold ef=ts at gr&eur1 & succe$s 9 gett+ into ! ,pe]s' qu>t] ( ,we/m9/] ,abbey1 at ! coronation1 dress$ 9 r$ coat1 ) ruffs4 ,aft] ! coronation1 !y return to ! ,isle ( ,wight1 & ,george resumes 8 sports1 ) a little v>iation namely1 t he he>s a twaddle prea*]1 & receives ! ,sacram5t )\t mu* prep>ation1 a proce$+ he ?us def5ds3--,i nev] c be satisfi$ by any motives t occur = refus+ on acc\nt ( %ort notice1 & ,i ?9k t :5 ! ,(fice is p]=m$ ) devotion & s9c]ity1 to ! be/ ( "o's ability1 x is always pr(itable4 ,x may be object$ t we d n give m num]\s extracts f ! ,j\rnal2 b we ?9k x w\ld tire ! pati5ce ( read]s to be told1 gravely & solemnly1 su* gr& ev5ts z1 ,george ,lyttelton1 ,"l ,lyttelton's elde/ *ild1 got into bree*es to-day4 ,matt]s k9dr$ to ?is1 ) ! h\rs ( d9+1 & names ( ! gue/s1 =m ! bulk ( ! di>y4 ,t[>ds ! end ( ?is ye>1 #ahba1 he f9ds himself alone 9 ,al?orp1 wait+ = ! collect+ ( ! ,*ri/mas p>ty !re1 & muses ?us3--,i wi% ,i might g on liv+ z ,i n[ d1 )\t any company & nons5se4 ,i h daily amusem5t1 &1 )al1 get ?r\gh a good deal ( read+4 ,?is la/ clause w make _m expect t ,tillotson or ,j]emy ,taylor is 9 8 h&s = a great "p ( ! day4 ,x may be s1 b we are told 9 ! same page3--,9 ! ev5+ ,i read ',guy ,mann]+2' = a novel1 :5 once begun1 enslaves me4 ,he 0 v fond ( ! ,wav]ly ,novels1 & seems to h read !m z #ig !y came out4 ,he misses a hunt1 ?r\gh mi/ake1 & says2 ,i 0 annoy$ to-day at ! hoy ,i made 9 my manoeuvres2 b ,i am a%am$ ( be+ s1 = x all came f my odi\s vanity1 & s5sibility to ! op9ion ( all ! fools ,i met )4 ,on 8 tw5ty-second bir?day he makes ^! reflections3--,?is anniv]s>y becomes un9t]e/+ aft] pass+ #ba4 ,b x %\ld be a useful annual admonition to make ! be/ ( our %ort1 fleet+ life4 ,:at are call$ ! be/ & happie/ ye>s ( life are already pa/ ) me4 ,god grant t ,i make ^? t rema9 m pr(itable to o!rs1 & consequ5tly to myself4 ,z to happ9ess1 ,i ?9k my temp] & dispositions h prev5t$ my hav+ my %>e to ! full ( y\?ful pleasures2 s ,i may look =w>d to ! future = bett] circum/ances3 if ,i c b tutor my m9d into cont5tm5t at my situation1 & an engross+ wi% to make my duty ! lead+ guide ( my actions4 ,indol5ce & irresolution are my /umbl+ blocks4 ,! new ye> ( #ahbb 0 danc$ into ,al?orp by a gr& ball4 ,?ree days aft] he _h a n>r[ escape ) 8 life2 he w5t out p>tridge-%oot+ ) ,"l ,b+ham1 & ?is g5tleman's p[d]-flask took fire1 & bur/ 9 8 h&4 ,george & ! att5dants 7 ne>ly bl[n up1 & ,"l ,b+ham 0 sev]ely scor*$4 ,?is he consid]$ ! greate/ dang] he 0 ev] 91 & ?anks ,god = 8 escape4 ,! impression1 h[ev]1 did n la/ long2 = he tells u1 z ! result ( a game ( c>ds1 on ! same night3--,i did n get to sleep = a long "t = ?9k+ ov] a trick at c>ds :i* ,e---- did4 ,i succe$$ 9 discov]+ x4 ,:5 ! ,*ri/mas p>ty is dissolv$1 ,george's comm5ts are3 ,i am sorry !y are all go+1 ?\gh ! "y damsels h caught no?+ ( my he>t4 ,!re is an ev5t n[ to be record$4 ,he becomes a magi/rate1 & 8 fir/ essay 9 c\rt makes him ?9k ! bus9ess v amus+4 ,he %\ts huzza6 on he>+ t 8 bro!r ,rob]t is ab\t to come home4 ,true1 h[ev]1 to 8 "*1 ( nev] und]tak+ any?+ unless he knew its obligations suffici5tly to be able to acquit himself #ih 9 !m to ! satisfaction ( 8 consci5ce1 he goes to ,london1 & /udies ,black/one's ,comm5t>ies1 to qualify him = a prop] dis*>ge ( 8 duties z a magi/rate4 ,he d9es1 dances1 goes to balls & !atres1 pays visits & bills dur+ 8 /ay 9 ,london1 not)/&+4 ,n[ he beg9s to prep>e s]i\sly = 8 future pr(ession4 ,full n9e mon?s be=e he is to receive ,ord]s1 on ,m>* ! #ab? he beg9s to write a s]mon4 ,t is ! po9t2 let a man give a s]mon1 & he may become a m9i/] any day1 provid$ he has an e>l or a visc\nt at 8 back1 & a bi%op :o sits tte tte ) ei!r 9 ! ,h\se ( ,lords1 & has two or ?ree sons :om he wi%es to put into po/s ( hon\r4 ,! s]mon is ev]y?+4 ,any "o c read ! ,s]vice1 provid$ he has a good voice & di/9ct utt]ance2 b ! s]mon--t requires bra9s1 views1 /yle1 & pap]4 ,h[ ^! ?+s c be done )\t we %all see fur!r on4 ,= ! pres5t1 poor ,george did n discov] ! secret4 ,he c\ld b[l to a wicket1 play cribbage1 read ,walt] ,scott1 & %oot p>tridges1 b :]e 0 8 !ology8 ,! tw5ty-five lectures 7 buri$ long ago "u "s /one betwe5 ,cambridge & ,al?orp4 ,well1 ! fact ( x 01 he mu/ d some?+4 ,he goes to he> ! crack prea*]s ( ,london1 & ev5 ! twaddle ditto4 ,he cat*es up "s idea f !m1 borr[s ! book ,"l ,al?orp reads f on ,sunday aft]noons1 & gets an idea ( :at a s]mon is l4 ,he sets to1 !re=e1 to write "o himself1 & 9 six mon?s t s]mon is f9i%$4 ,"o c\ld n expect him to be a bookworm j n[4 ,"l ,palm]/on is at a /ag-hunt1 & patroniz$ ! "y c&idate4 ,wa%+ton ,irv+ d9es at 8 fa!r's1 & ,george has to take notes ( 8 ,yankee twang1 sall[ complexion1 & nasal s\nds4 ,he us$ to say to u t "o :o saw ,irv+1 & he>d him speak1 c\ld nev] believe he 0 ! au?or ( ,! ,travell] or ,bracebridge ,hall1 & mu* less ( ,knick]bock]'s ,hi/ory ( ,new ,york4 ,irv+ himself alludes to ?is1 :5 he says1 some:]e1 t ! ,london p #ii wond]$ t he held a quill 9 8 h&1 in/ead ( we>+ x 9 8 scalp-lock4 ,he gets ov] all ?is aft] ! ,ryde recreation1 & ! hunt+ at ,wiseton1 :51 t[>ds ! end ( ,septemb] ?is ye>1 he bids f>ewell to 8 milit>y life z a cornet 9 ! ,yeomanry ( ,nor?ampton4 ,?is is z a prep>ation = 8 ,ord]s2 b !y come ^u him /ill unexpect$ly :5 he receives a lett] f ! ,bi%op ( ,pet]bor\gh1 on ! #e? ( ,octob]1 to signify t he w\ld h ,ord9ation on ! #bbnd ( ,decemb] foll[+4 ,he writes to ! ,diocesan ,exam9] to ask :at books he is to read1 & h[ he is to prep>e1 & t g5tleman graci\sly tells him t he ne$ n tr\ble himself2 t he kn[s1 f ! respectability ( 8 family1 he mu/ be already q prep>$4 ,footnote #e ,george is cont5t$ = ! pres5t1 b he has an eye to ! future2 he borr[s1 !re=e1 "s twelve ( ! ,wimbl$on cl]gyman's be/ s]mons1 & says t w set me up = a />t4 ,he !n goes on retreat ab\t ! #af? ( ,decemb]1 & 8 day is divid$ into f\r pr9cipal p>ts1 mak+ all[ances = d9n] & #ajj sleep1 consi/+ ( %oot+1 cribbage1 :i/1 & s]mon writ+ or copy+1 z ! case might be4 ,on ! #ah?1 two days be=e1 he adds "o m spiritual ex]cise to 8 usual ones2 he reads a novel4 ,! next day he goes (f to ,pet]bor\gh1 & d9es ) ! ,dean & 8 wife1 :o are to fe$ him :il/ he is !re4 ,8 exam9ation is gone ?r\gh--"o ( ! ,?irty-n9e ,articles to be translat$ into ,lat91 & he has an expos1 ) illu/rations1 on ! nature ( mesm]ism1 = ! re/ ( ! t]rible ordeal4 ,?is pass$ successfully1 he comes home to ! ,dean's h\se1 bids good night to ! mat]familias1 & collects 8 spirits = ! great occasion4 ,he is wrapt 9 sublime ec/acy1 & bur/s =? into ! foll[+ exclamation 9 8 ,j\rnal3 ,i am #bb ye>s old1 & n yet engag$ to be m>ri$6 ,footnote #e3 ,"h is a copy ( ! lett] ) :i* he 0 fav\r$ f t dignit>y3 ,y>m\?1 ,norfolk1 ,octob] #ab4 ,my ,de> ,sir1 ,i am sorry my abs5ce f ,cambridge may h made me appe> neglectful 9 answ]+ y\r lett]1 b ,i h "s consolation 9 ?9k+ t y w n h suff]$ by ! delay4 ,z f> z ,i am conc]n$1 9 my "* ( exam9]1 x is impossible t ,i c\ld ev] ent]ta9 any idea ( subject+ a g5tleman ) ^: tal5ts & good qualities ,i am s well acqua9t$ z ,i am ) y\rs1 to any exam9ation except "o z a matt] ( =m1 = :i* a v]se 9 ! ,greek ,te/am5t1 & an ,article ( ! ,*ur* ( ,engl& return$ into ,lat9 w be amply suffici5t4 ,) reg>d to ! doctr9al "p ( ! exam9ation1 t is tak5 by ! ,bi%op himself1 b x is conf9$ entirely to ! prep>$ que/ions1 :i* are a te/ ( op9ions1 n ( s*ol>%ip4 ,?is in=mation1 !n1 w1 ,i tru/1 be satisfactorily1 & w leave y at lib]ty to pursue y\r !ological /udies 9 t c\rse :i* y y\rself pref]1 & :i* ,i am confid5t w be a good "o4 ,i really am unable to say :e!r ! ,bi%op ( ,pet]bro' requires a c]tificate ( ! ,div9ity ,lectures or n1 b ,i "k t he does n 9 all cases make x a s9e qua non2 at any rate1 ,i ?9k y _h bett] s5d = x1 z x w give ! pr(essor b v little tr\ble to =w>d x "u cov] to y\r fa!r4 ,if ,i c be ( ! lea/ s]vice 9 answ]+ any o!r qu]ies1 or 9 any o!r way :atev]1 ,i beg y w1 at any "t1 give me a l9e2 & believe me1 my de> ,sir1 ,y\rs v s9c]ely1 ,t4 ,s4 ,hughes4 ,i %all n be 9 ,camb4 till ! beg9n+ ( next mon?4 #aja ,,book ,,ii4 ,f4 ,ignatius1 an ,anglican ,m9i/]4 #ajb #ajc ,,book ,,ii4 ,f4 ,ignatius1 an ,anglican ,m9i/]4 ,,*apt] ,i4 ,he ,is ,orda9$1 ,& ,ent]s ,on ,8 ,cl]ical ,duties4 ,! ,e/abli%m5t reta9s 9 h] writt5 =mul>ies a great deal ( :at looks v l ,ca?olic4 ,%e has an attempt at a pr(ession ( fai?2 a k9d ( a sacram5tal rite1 z a sub/itute = ! ,mass2 a mode ( visit+ ! sick1 a m>riage s]vice1 baptismal s]vice1 burial s]vice1 & an ord9al2 ev5 some?+ l ! ,sacram5t ( ,p5ance c be glean$ f two or ?ree clauses 9 ! ,book ( ,common ,pray]4 ,h[ mu* ( sacram5tal p[] !re may be 9 ^? sev]al ord9ances is v easily det]m9$2 we admit none :atev] 9 any except baptism--! judicial voice ( ! ,e/abli%m5t leaves its efficacy an op5 "q--& matrimony4 ,( late1 "s among/ !m h felt _! want ( sacram5tal weal? s ke5ly1 t !y w\ld fa9 p]suade !mselves ! %ells ( ,ca?olic rites1 :i* ! ,re=m]s reta9$1 7 fill$ ) sacram5tal sub/ance4 ,to give ?is !ory "s %[ ( plausibility1 !y claim$ valid ord]s4 ,pamphlets & books h be5 writt5 on two sides ( ?is "q until !re seems sc>cely any m to be said ^u x1 s we j m5tion :at is ! ,ca?olic op9ion on ! validity ( ,anglican ord]s4 #ajd ,) :at ,prote/ants ?9k ( !m we h no imm$iate conc]n2 nor w\ld x be an easy matt] to extract any?+ def9ite f ! multitude & contr>iety ( op9ions on ?is "o po9t4 ,we hold !m to be simply null2 !y d n ev5 come up to d\bt2 = if ! ,ar*bi%op ( ,cant]bury became a ,ca?olic to-morr[1 & wi%$ to ex]cise any m9i/ry1 he w\ld be oblig$ to receive all ! ord]s f ! fir/ tonsure upw>ds1 absolutely1 & )\t ev5 an impli$ condition4 ,?is has always be5 ! practice3 &1 ! ,*ur*'s act+ ?us1 at ! p]iod :i* is n[ involv$ 9 obscurity1 is ! be/ de facto argum5t t ! ord]s ( ! ,e/abli%m5t 7 !n1 z !y are n[1 a human designation1 & no?+ m4 ,!re is no?+ sacram5tal 9 ,anglican ord]s1 & !re nev] 01 s9ce ,engl& broke away f ! ,*ur*1 &1 consi/5tly en\gh1 ord]s 7 expung$ f ! ,prote/ant catalogue ( sacram5ts 9 ! v infancy ( ! ,re=mation4 ,!y /ill keep up a semblance ( ord]s3 !y h :at !y call ! diaconate1 ! prie/hood1 & ! consecration ( bi%ops4 ,a deacon is orda9$ mu* 9 ! same way z our own deacons1 & he c p]=m all ! duties ( ! p>i%1 ) ! exception ( ! ,communion ,s]vice4 ,we see a man m>k$ out by an ,anglican bi%op = ecclesia/ical duties1 )\t any sacram5tal grace1 spiritual "*1 or jurisdiction1 = no less a "w ?an ! c>e ( immortal s\ls4 ,let u see n[ :at in/rum5ts he has :]e) to accompli% ?is4 ,he _h once two ,sacram5ts--! ,"l's ,supp] & ,baptism2 ! =m]1 ,ca?olics "k to be an empty c]emony1 & p]haps x w\ld ne>ly be a ,prote/ant h]esy to say x 0 mu* m4 ,baptism !y _h z ,turks h1 & z e lay man & woman 9 ! _w1 :o p]=ms ! rite prop]ly1 has4 ,n[ _! judicial decisions d n consid] x wor? ! hav+2 s1 z f> z 9 !mselves lies1 !y h tri$ to deprive !mselves ( x4 ,! practical means ( sanctification a m9i/] has to use are *iefly f\r3 pray]1 prea*+1 visit+1 & read+4 ,! read+ "p may evid5tly be p]=m$ z well1 if n #aje bett] sometimes1 by a layman4 ,! visit+ is (t5 bett] done by ! cl]gyman's wife or daught] ?an by himself1 =1 9 att5tion to sickness & sweet words ( consolation1 ! female gifts seem ! m effectual4 ,all t rema9s to him1 peculi>ly = 8 own1 is ! prea*+1 & ! respectability ( "* 8 own conduct & reg>d = 8 position may give him4 ,8 p[] is altoge!r p]sonal1 & if he be an indiff]5t prea*] or a c>eless liv]1 he loses all4 ,:e!r c&idates = ord]s1 or ev5 ! orda9$ ( ! ,anglican ,e/abli%m5t1 take ?is view ( _! position1 "o _c be sure2 b1 f ! acts & words ( ,mr4 ,sp5c]1 we c =m a tol]able conjecture ( :at he ?\ght & int5d$ :5 he took deacon's ord]s f ,dr4 ,m>%1 ,prote/ant ,bi%op ( ,pet]bor\gh1 on ! #bbnd ,decemb]1 #ahbb4 ,he makes no prep>ation :atev]1 nor does he seem to fancy t x is an action t requires any4 ,he gives an acc\nt ( ! ord9ation1 :i* he 0 pleas$ to call1 talk+ ( bus9ess1 :5 mak+ 8 arrangem5ts = x1 a few pages back 9 ! ,j\rnal1 &1 z a piece ( bus9ess1 x is gone ?r\gh by him4 ,we transcribe 8 own words3-- ,sunday1 ,dec4 #bb4 ,i breakfa/$ ) ,mr4 ,gibbs & ,mr4 ,gregory at ! inn 7,pet]bor\gh7 at #h4 ,at #i1 two o!rs ( ! c&idates1 ,mr4 ,pe>son & ,mr4 ,)]all1 jo9$ u1 & we w5t to ! palace1 f :5ce ! bi%op l$ u into ! *ur*1 :5 we 7 orda9$4 ,! s]vice took an h\r1 includ+ ! ,sacram5t :i* he gave u4 ,i comm5c$ my *ur*-read+ !n by read+ ! gospel 9 ! s]vice4 ,i w5t 7a cl]gyman7 to ! dean]y4 ,at #aa we w5t all toge!r f ! palace to *ur*1 :5 ,mr4 ,p>sons prea*$ a good long s]mon--at u v palpably4 ,we !n w5t to a cold collation at ! palace till ev5+ *ur*1 :i* we att5d$4 ,aft] t we receiv$ our lett]s ( ord]s & lic5ces1 & paid our fees4 ,x may be said t ?is is a v nice little acc\nt squeez$ into a j\rnal1 & "o c\ld n expect en?usia/ic bur/s ab\t ! gift ( ! _s & ! p[] ( #ajf ! ,*ur*1 9 a book allott$ to ! b>e record+ ( ev5ts4 ,s be x4 ,b !re are en?usia/ic exclamations ab\t less important ?+s 9 t same little book1 & if ord9ation look$ any?+ to ,mr4 ,sp5c] ?an a condition s9e qua ( 8 gett+ fix$ 9 8 future position1 he w\ld h not$ x4 ,! abs5ce ( deep religi\s feel+ at ?is p]iod ( 8 life may acc\nt 9 a great measure = ?is coolness2 b p]haps ! n believ+ !re 0 any?+ sacram5tal 9 ! rite itself may give a m satisfactory explanation4 ,to w9d up ! matt] 9 a few words--he said grace = ! family at d9n] t ev5+1 & !n read 8 novel quietly 9 8 room1 because ! day 0 n fav\rable = any field sport4 ,^! few explanations 7 deem$ necess>y = appreciat+ ! t5or ( 8 life f ?is mom5t =w>d4 ,x w run c\nt] to all anticipat$ results 9 ! direction ( excell5ce1 & w ev5 g f> beyond :at its fir/ evid5ces w\ld w>rant "o to expect4 ,he look$ 8 position 9 ! face at ! v outset3 he saw t he _h s\ls to look aft]1 & he knew t he c\ld n d t )\t a c\rse ( consi/5t conduct beseem+ 8 "*4 ,= ! fir/ few days ?+s w5t on mu* z ( old4 ,! family 7 /ill sp5d+ ! w9t] 9 ,al?orp1 & he jo9$ 9 all ! pa/imes by :i* !y :il$ away ! %ort days & *e]$ ! long nights4 ,x 0 requisite1 h[ev]1 t ! c\s9s & ne>] relations1 %\ld see & he> ,george 9 8 new position1 if x 7 only to h some?+ to talk ab\t :5 !y came to ,london4 ,accord+ly1 he assi/$ 9 ! ,communion ,s]vice on ,*ri/mas ,day by adm9i/]+ ! cup1 fir/ to 8 fa!r1 & !n to o!rs4 ,he did n ?9k ! ?+ s =midable1 & x wore (f ! appreh5sion he _h ( appe>+ 9 public suffici5t = him to give 8 fir/ s]mon on ,sunday1 ,dec4 #bi4 ,x 0 on ! ,bir? ( ,*ri/1 & he says1 ,al?orp & ,duncannon 7 my audi5ce2 :e!r !y 7 a :ole or a "p ( ! audi5ce1 x is n easy at ?is di/ance to discov]4 ,he might be n[ consid]$ fairly laun*$ into 8 new elem5t4 ,! rector ( ,great ,br+ton1 a ,mr4 ,vigoreux1 #ajg 0 away on ! cont95t1 & ! p>i% 0 left to ! c>e ( ! "y curate4 ,he _h ?ree or f\r villages1 numb]+ ab\t #hjj1 9 8 p>i%1 "s di/ance ap>t1 & he liv$ 9 ,al?orp himself4 ,on ! #a/ ( ,janu>y1 #ahbc1 he sets vigor\sly to "w1 &1 reg>dless ( w9d or wea!r1 walks out f breakfa/ until ab\t six o'clock e day1 visit+ ! p4 ,aft] ! fir/ few days he gets q int]e/$ 9 ! "w1 & is *e]$ on by 8 success 9 mak+ up diff]5ces1 consol+ ! dy+1 & assi/+ ! poor4 ,two notes f ! ,j\rnal w illu/rate h[ he felt ) reg>d to ?is visit+3--,feb4 #aj4 ,w5t to ,little ,br+ton1 :]e ,i paid #bj visits among ! poor4 ,feb4 #aa4 ,visit$ #ae or #bj h\ses2 ?is "w is v amus+ to me n[4 ,i hope ,i %all nev] get tir$ ( x1 or be disgu/$ by bad success to my lectures4 ,! pr9cipal "w he tries to accompli% by 8 visits is1 ! supply+ ^? defici5cies he f9ds 9 ! p ) reg>d to :at he conceiv$ to be sacram5ts4 ,8 v fir/ r\nd ?r\gh ! p>i% %[$ him h[ few 7 up to ! m>k ( good ,*ri/ians4 ,_m ,diss5t]s *ose to dispute 8 "r to lecture !m1 & 7 n sl[ to produce clauses ( protection = !mselves2 & 8 hav+ a discussion ) "o ro>+ ,me?odi/1 did n less5 ! difficulty ( mak+ !m tractable %eep4 ,discussions prov$ to be a means ( wid5+ ! brea*1 & simple k9dness left ?+s :]e !y /ood4 ,some?+ positive he mu/ m>k out z a duty to 8 flock1 & !n exhort !m to x4 ,in/9ct l$ him to ! sacram5ts4 ,he f\nd great numb]s unbaptiz$1 believ+ 9 a spiritual reg5]ation1 & sc(f+ at ! idea ( heav5ly virtue be+ 9 a drop ( wat]2 he f\nd m /ill1 & ^! among ! baptiz$1 :o _h z little love = ! ,"l's ,supp] z he _h himself once4 ,n[ ^! c\ld v easily be manag$ by exhort+ !m to read ! ,bible1 l5d+ !m a copy if !y _h n "o1 recomm5d+ family pray]s1 & k9dness & ju/ice t[>ds all m54 ,mr4 ,sp5c] ?\ght o!rwise4 ,he began ) baptism1 & )9 ! fir/ =tnight ( 8 cl]ical life he baptiz$ ! n9e *ildr5 ( a blacksmi?4 ,?is 0 a good beg9n+1 & enc\rag$ #ajh him to p]sev]e1 b he did n f9d _m s malleable z ! (fspr+ ( ?is son ( ,tubal ,ca94 ,9 ! next sacram5tal duty he did n see 8 way s cle>ly z 9 ! fir/4 ,9 ! ,*ur* ( ,engl&1 ! ,sacram5t1 z x is emphatically call$1 mu/ be adm9i/]$ ?ree times a ye>1 may be once a mon?1 & _c be unless !re be a numb] ( communicants4 ,giv+ ! ,sacram5t once a week is consid]$ v ,high ,*ur*1 & to give x e morn+ is go+ a little too f>4 ,sup]/iti\s rev]5ce & indiff]5ce keep ! majority away f ?is rite1 & few come1 except !y get a monomonia = manife/+ _! godl9ess 9 t special direction4 ,?is fact w acc\nt = ,mr4 ,sp5c]'s hesitation1 :5 he took to ,*ri/ianiz+ 8 flock by mak+ !m approa* ! ,sacram5t4 ,he makes _m promise to come1 & gets a neighb\r+ cl]gyman to adm9i/] x 9 _! own h\ses to "s decrepid old p1 :o c\ld n come to *ur*4 ,he prea*es on ?is1 & hopes he has n be5 wrong2 he discusses ! propriety ( 8 proce$+s ) 8 old] bre?r5 9 ! m9i/ry4 ,! result seems to confirm him 9 8 ideas1 & he prea*es a second "t1 & gives app5dices to 8 s]mon 9 e visit1 ab\t go+ to ! ,"l's ,supp]4 ,he /ill hopes he is n wrong4 ,he works v h>d at ?is po9t1 h[ev]1 & on ! fir/ ,ea/] ,sunday ( 8 m9i/ry1 he gives ,god ?anks & prays aga9/ pride1 at hav+ #acj communicants4 ,!re 0 ano!r little incid5t on ! same day z a set (f to 8 success 9 beat+ up ! p>i%2 :5 he op5s ! s]mon-cov] f :i* he us$ to read 8 ,,ms41 he f9ds he _h put ! wrong s]mon !re1 & _h to prea* extempore ! s]mon he int5d$ to h read3 ( c\rse1 x 0 n to 8 satisfaction1 ?\gh ! p sc>cely knew ! diff]5ce4 ,"o sad ev5t ca/ a cl\d ov] ! beg9n+ ( 8 cl]ical life3 ! si/] he lov$ s mu*1 & ^: company & conv]sation he ?\ght m ?an an equival5t = ! gaye/ p>ty1 ,lady ,georgiana ,qu91 di$ 9 ,london4 ,he 0 v mu* afflict$ by x1 & ev5 9 aft]-life he w\ld be deeply mov$ :5 speak+ ( ?is si/]4 ,he #aji did n delay long 9 ,london1 b came home 9 a day or two aft] ! fun]al4 ,except+ ?is %ort int]val1 8 "t 0 sp5t at home 9 ! mo/ ard5t fulfilm5t ( ! duties 8 f]v\r impos$ ^u him4 ,n only did he g ab\t f h\se to h\se1 b he w\ld sp>e a day or two1 9 ea* week1 :5 he w5t into ,nor?ampton = ! sessions1 & visit ! neighb\r+ cl]gy4 ,x 0 8 cu/om to discuss po9ts ( duty ) !m2 to invite !m to ,al?orp1 & sp5d ev5+s 9 cl]ical conv]sation4 ,he accompani$ !m on _! visits to ! sick & o!r p>o*ial employm5ts1 to le>n1 by a comp>ison ( ! diff]5t ways ( ea*1 :i* w\ld probably be be/ = himself4 ,he reads su* books z ! ,cl]gyman's ,in/ructor1 & o!r books ( div9ity & s]mons2 he nev] fails to write a s]mon e week1 to cate*ise ! *ildr5 on a ,sunday1 visit ! s*ools1 & try to make e "o z fai?ful 9 ! dis*>ge ( _! duties z he 0 9 8 own4 ,ab\t ,ea/] "s memb]s ( 8 family came to ,al?orp1 & he relaxes a little = _! sakes1 & freely jo9s !m 9 all 8 =m] amusem5ts2 n1 h[ev]1 omitt+ any ( 8 visits1 especially to ! sick & dy+4 #aaj ,,*apt] ,,ii4 ,he ,m5ds ,"s ,( ,8 ,ways4 ,ab\t ! middle ( ,april he came to ,london = ?ree weeks' holidays4 ,he calls x a smoky odi\s place1 & says t ent]+ x makes him mis]able4 ,he is soon imm]s$ 9 ! cu/oms ( 8 society 9 ! metropolis1 & 8 feel+ ( uneas9ess we>s (f4 ,8 little exp]i5ce 9 p>i% "w br+s a great _m ?+s to 8 k1 ( :i* he _h n ! slighte/ idea be=e4 ,he is at a great loss1 also1 h[ to meet ! difficulties he enc\nt]s1 & d\bts :e!r 8 proce$+s 9 :at he consid]$ 8 duty h be5 q "r4 ,dr4 ,blomfield _h always be5 a k9d ( spiritual director to ,mr4 ,sp5c]3 to him he goes n[ = a ?or\gh inve/igation ( 8 pr9ciples & ev5 doctr9es4 ,extempore pray+ 0 a ?+ ,dr4 ,blomfield nev] lik$1 & its adoption by ,mr4 ,sp5c] %[s a lean+ to ,evangelical if n ,me?odi/ic spirituality4 ,:e!r x 0 ?is po9t1 or ano!r ( ! _m ?+s ^u :i* cl]gym5 ( ! ,e/abli%m5t agree to diff]1 t !y discuss$1 we _c say2 b ! result 0 f> f consol+ to ei!r4 ,he says3 ,i want "s sett+ to rights 9 po9t ( or?odoxy ,i f9d4 ,i only hope t my decision 9 reg>d to my conduct may n be influ5c$ by ambition or worldl9ess on ! "o h&1 nor by spiritual pride on ! o!r4 ,"h may be se5 t real s9c]ity & dis9t]e/$ness :i* guid$ 8 e /ep ?r\gh life4 ,if we analyze ! s5t5ce1 x looks z if ! argum5ts ( 8 advis] are tak5 9 "p f ! s\rces :i* ,mr4 ,sp5c] hopes w n influ5ce 8 decision2 & ?is conclusion is borne out by a lett] :i* w be giv5 fur!r on1 :5 8 confid5ce #aaa 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,engl& became ?or\ghly %ak54 ,x mu/ n be suppos$ f ?is t ,dr4 ,blomfield 0 guid$ himself by ^! motives1 ?\gh h9ts to t effect 7 (t5 rife 9 8 lifetime2 b x is natural en\gh t ! doctor %\ld propose family consid]ations among 8 o!r argum5ts1 especially if he ?\ght ^? n q p]suasive4 ,mr4 ,sp5c] goes to ! !atre1 & x 0 ! la/ "t 9 8 life4 ,8 acc\nt ( h[ t *ange 0 wr\ght 9 him1 gives u "o ( ^? peculi> in/ances 9 :i* ridicule prov$ to be m p[]ful ?an logic or decorum4 ,he att5d$ ,drury ,lane ,!atre ) "o or two fri5ds1 & 9 "s "p ( ! p]=mance a p>son 0 fe>fully c>icatur$1 & drew bur/s ( laught] & applause f ! audi5ce4 ,?is t\*$ him sorely2 eyes 7 po9t$ t[>ds him2 8 fri5ds laugh$ ! m1 9 proportion to ! ef=ts consid]ations = him made !m use1 9 suppress+ _! feel+s4 ,he w5t =? f ! !atre ?or\ghly vex$1 & v[$ he w\ld nev] g to a !atre aga94 ,! ,j\rnal does n give a solit>y in/ance 9 :i* ?is resolve 0 deviat$ f aft]w>ds4 ,?is incid5t _h also ! effect ( mak+ him consid] ! propriety ( sev]al o!r uncl]ical pursuits1 :i* he foll[$1 z mu* s9ce 8 ord9ation z he did be=e4 ,x 0 n1 h[ev]1 till t[>ds ! end ( ?is ye> t he began to retr5* !m1 & a little ( ! same p[] ( ridicule came to 8 assi/ance !n also4 ,8 great conc]n 0 ! union ( all ! sects 9 8 p>i%4 ,he knew v well t our ,"l gave b "o sy/em ( ,*ri/ianity1 & t yea & no ^u any important po9t c\ld n proce$ f ,8 lips or be p>ts ( ,8 doctr9e4 ,he ?\ght conciliatory measures ! be/ to effect 8 purpose1 & he ev5 adopt$ "s ( ! ways ( ,diss5t]s 9 ord] to be all to all t[>ds !m4 ,on ?is he seems to h be5 lectur$ by ,dr4 ,blomfield ) "s pr(it1 =1 on 8 return home1 he says3 ,:it-,sunday4 ,i gave a /rong s]mon aga9/ ! ,diss5t]s1 f\nd$ on ,:it-,sunday1 ,9 a few days he pays an unsatisfactory visit to "o family1 & says3 ,!y are #aab ! h>de/ s*ismatics ,i've got2 *ildr5 unbaptiz$1 c4 ,?is seems ,high ,*ur* language1 & 8 feel+ ( opposition to ,evangelicals1 :i* f9ds expression 9 a few places1 n[ makes "o suppose he 0 a prop] ,high ,*ur* man4 ,he lab\rs h>d = sev]al weeks to prep>e *ildr5 = confirmation4 ,he has #hj ( !m ready1 & 0 s pleas$ ) ! :ole affair1 t he mov$ ! pr9t+ ( ! bi%op's *>ge1 z he propos$ 8 lord%ip's heal? 9 a spee* aft] ! d9n]4 ,! ,sunday aft] he goes r\nd to e h\se1 & gives f9al admonitions to ^? on :om ! bi%op impos$ h&s a few days be=e4 ,to help him 9 8 incipi5t dislike ( ,me?odism he has a v curi\s conv]sation ) a great pr(essor ( t p]suasion4 ,?is 0 an old woman :om he 0 9 ! habit ( visit+ :5ev] he made 8 r\nds :]e %e liv$4 ,on 8 entrance1 !y bo? knelt d[n & pray$ alt]nately = "s "t1 ea*1 out l\d & extempore1 = ! edification ( ! o!r4 ,:5 ?is rubric 0 c>ri$ out1 !y talk$ at full l5g? & bread? on ! unconv]t$ & ! elect1 ) sundries o!r k9dr$ subjects1 & ?is he us$ to /yle com=table conv]sation4 ,sometimes ! tone ( conv]sation w\ld v>y1 & once x ran ^u ! l9e ( self-accusation4 ,! old lady v humbly accus$ h]self ( a great _m faults 9 g5]al1 & signifi$ to ,mr4 ,sp5c] t %e w\ld be v mu* oblig$ to any "o :o w\ld po9t out h] p>ticul> faults1 & help h] 9 correct+ !m4 ,embold5$ by ?is1 he v5tur$1 aft] a long preamble1 to sugge/ t !re 0 "o ?+ he w\ld l to see correct$ 9 h]1 z x seem$ to be ! only speck on ! lu/re ( h] godl9ess4 ,:at is t8 ask$ %e1 r curi\sly & impati5tly4 ,well1 x is t y are r fond ( contradict+ p4 ,no1 ,i am n1 0 ! reply4 ,y h j contradict$ me n[4 ,no1 ,i hav5't4 ,well1 y h repeat$ ! same fault4 ,i've done no su* ?+1 0 ! petulant rejo9d]4 ,( c\rse1 he saw x 0 useless to proce$ fur!r1 & 8 visits became few] = "s "t4 ,?is #aac anecdote he us$ to relate ) peculi> tact & a mo/ graphic imitation ( ! old lady's mann]4 ,be=e giv+ 8 own acc\nt ( ! rise & fall ( 8 ,high ,*ur* notions1 x may be well to m5tion ano!r incid5t t occurr$ ab\t ?is "t1 t[>ds ! end ( #ahbc4 ,he det]m9es to give up %oot+ & danc+4 ,he told an anecdote ab\t h[ ! fir/ ( ^! sports fell into disfav\r ) him4 ,!re 0 a %oot+ p>ty 9 ,al?orp on a c]ta9 day1 & ,george 0 9 ! v ?ick ( x4 ,s anxi\s 0 he to di/+ui% himself 9 br++ d[n game1 t he w\ld run to take position = a %ot ) 8 d\ble-b>rel gun load$1 & a c>tridge /uck 9 ei!r corn] ( 8 m\?1 ready = action1 s z n to lose a m9ute 9 *>g+4 ,he did great execution t day1 & bagg$ probably m braces ?an any o!r4 ,9 ! ev5+ "o ( ! company %[$ great anxiety to get possession ( some?+1 & ev5tually succe$$2 :]eupon1 "o pres5t said1 ) a waggi% look at ,george1 ,y've made a p>son's %ot at x4 ,?is /ruck him v =cibly1 & sugge/$ ! resolution1 :i* he f9ally came to & kept1 ( giv+ up %oot+4 ,!re is no p>ticul> anecdote ab\t 8 ab/95ce f danc+1 we only "k t at ?is "t he refuses to g to a ball1 makes 8 pa/oral visits in/ead1 & decl>es t he feels f> m com=table aft] ?is ?an :5 he has be5 pleasur+4 ,! foll[+ is tak5 f a lett] publi%$ by ,fa!r ,ignatius 9 ! ,ca?olic ,/&>d 9 ,decemb]1 #ahec3-- 444 ,:5 ,i 0 orda9$ deacon 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,engl& at ,*ri/mas1 #ahbb1 ,i _h1 ,i may say1 all my religi\s ideas & pr9ciples to =m4 ,i d n s well "k h[ f> ?is is a common case n[4 ,i h reason to ?9k x 0 a v common "o !n4 ,my m9d 0 possess$ ) a decid$ int5tion ( do+ good1 & ,i 0 delight$ ) ! call+ & life ( a cl]gyman2 b my ideas 7 v vague inde$ z to :at a cl]gyman 0 meant = or _h to d4 ,v naturally1 h[ev]1 on becom+ acqua9t$ ) my p>i%ion]s1 among :om ! ,wesleyan ,me?odi/s1 ! ,bapti/s1 & ! ,indep5d5ts _h be5 ga9+ gr\nd = "s "t previ\sly1 ,i #aad conclud$ t ,i _h to oppose _! progress1 & to draw back ^? :o _h jo9$ !m4 ,?is disposition 9 me 0 highly gratify+ to "s ( ! eld] cl]gy 9 my neighb\rhood1 :o came to make acqua9tance ) me z a new neighb\r1 especially to "o old man1 an ard5t lov] ( ,high ,*ur* pr9ciples1 :o1 to confirm me 9 !m1 gave me a book to read entitl$ ',daub5y's ,guide to ! ,*ur*1' 9 :i* ! div9e au?ority ( ! ,*ur*1 ! importance ( ,apo/olical succession1 ( episcopal gov]nm5t1 ! evil & s9 ( s*ism1 & o!r ecclesia/ical pr9ciples1 7 mo/ lucidly & le>n$ly demon/rat$4 ,s ,i ?\ght !n2 &1 z f> z my recollection goes1 ,i %\ld say n[ t ,i ?\ght rightly4 ,i 0 exce$+ly captivat$ by ^! pr9ciples1 :i* 7 to me q new1 & ,i f\nd myself n[ ready to c>ry on my argum5ts ) diss5t]s z a w>rior arm$2 :]eas 9 ! beg9n+ ,i _h no?+ b zeal 9 my cause to help me4 ,i did n ga9 ^u !m2 b ?is new light 0 s bright 9 my own m9d1 t ,i _h no d\bt ( prevail+ 9 "t4 ,b !re 0 "o weak po9t 9 ! sy/em ,i 0 def5d+ :i* ,i _h ov]look$4 ,x 0 aft] a "t po9t$ out to me1 & my fabric ( ,high ,*ur*ism fell flat at once1 l a *ild's ca/le ( c>ds4 ,i 0 at ?is "t liv+ at ,al?orp1 my fa!r's pr9cipal resid5ce 9 ! c\ntry1 s]v+ z a curate to ! p>i% to :i* x 0 atta*$1 ?\gh ! p>k itself is extra-p>o*ial4 ,among ! visitors :o resort$ !re1 0 "o ( ! mo/ di/+ui%$ s*ol>s ( ! day1 to :om1 z to _m m ( ! ,anglican ,*ur*1 ,i owe a debt ( gratitude = ! int]e/ :i* he took 9 me1 & to ! help ,i actually receiv$ f him 9 ! c\rse ( inquiry1 :i* has happily t]m9at$ 9 ! hav5 ( ! true ,*ur*4 ,i %\ld l to make a grateful & hon\rable m5tion ( 8 "n1 b z ?is has be5 f\nd fault )1 ,i =be>4 ,i 0 "o day expla9+ to him ) e>ne/ness ! l9e ( argum5t :i* ,i 0 pursu+ ) diss5t]s1 & my hopes f x2 ,i suppose ,i expect$ enc\ragem5t1 su* z ,i _h receiv$ f _m o!rs4 ,b he simply & c&idly said1 ',^! w\ld be #aae v conv5i5t doctr9es1 if we c\ld make use ( !m1 b !y are available only = ,roman ,ca?olics2 !y w n s]ve u4' ,i saw 9 a mom5t ! tru? ( 8 rem>k1 & 8 "* & position gave x additional weight4 ,i did n answ] him2 b z a soldi] :o has receiv$ :at he feels to be a mortal w\nd1 w sudd5ly /& /ill1 & !n quietly retire out ( ! mle1 & seek a quiet spot to die 91 s ,i w5t away ) my ,high ,*ur*ism mortally w\nd$ 9 ! v prime ( its vig\r & y\?1 to die = ev] to ! "* ( an ,anglican ,high ,*ur*man4 ,:y did n ?is op5 my eyes1 y w say1 to ! tru? ( ,ca?olicity8 ,i answ]1 simply because my e>ly prejudices 7 too /rong4 ,! unansw]able rem>k ( my fri5d 0 l a r$uctio ad absurdum ( all ,high ,*ur* ideas4 ,if !y 7 true1 ! ,ca?olic w\ld be s3 :i* is absurd1 z ,i rememb] ,euclid w\ld say4 ',!re=e1' c4 ,! gr& support ( ! ,high ,*ur* sy/em1 *ur* au?ority1 hav+ be5 ?us ov]?r[n1 x 0 an easy ?\gh gradual "w to get out ( my m9d all its m9or details & accompanim5ts1 "o aft] ano!r2 su* z reg>d = holy places1 = holy days1 = consecrat$ p]sons1 = ecclesia/ical writ]s2 f9ally1 almo/ all def9ite dogmatic notions4 ,x w\ld seem t all 0 slipp+ away1 :51 com+ to ! conviction ( ! tru? ( ,ca?olicity "s ye>s aft]1 x 0 ) extraord9>y delight ,i f\nd myself pick+ up aga9 ! %att]$ disp]s$ pieces ( ! beautiful fabric1 & plac+ !m n[ 9 bett] ord] on ! "r f\ndation1 solid & firm1 no long] expos$ to su* a cata/rophe z _h upset my c>d-ca/le ( ,anglican *ur*man%ip4 ,?is little passage 9 my anci5t religi\s hi/ory is s sweetly int]e/+ to me 9 ! remembrance1 t ,i h look$ into an old di>y :i* ,i us$ to keep at ! "t1 to make out ! dates1 & ,i f9d by ?is t ! duration ( my ,high ,*ur* ideas 0 %ort] ?an ,i %\ld h imag9$2 b x 0 a p]iod cr[d$ ) new1 bright ideas1 & naturally seems long] ?an x is4 ,i w1 to please myself1 p]haps1 m ?an my read]s1 give ! dates4 ,i note t1 ,dec4 #bd1 #ahbc1 ! great s*ol> ( :om ,i h #aaf spok5 came to ,al?orp2 ,jan4 #bc1 #ahbd1 he goes away4 ,?is 0 8 la/ visit1 = he di$ ! summ] foll[+1 z ,i f9d x 0 on ! #bh? ( ,june1 #ahbd1 t1 9 pass+ by ,ox=d ) my elde/ bro!r1 we call$ at ! ,hall ( :i* he 0 sup]ior1 to inquire h[ he 04 ,he 0 sick--!n on 8 dea?-b$4 ,footnote #f ,footnote #f3 ,! "n ( ! g5tleman ref]r$ to above 0 ,dr4 ,elmesly4 #aag ,,*apt] ,,iii4 ,he ,receives ,fur!r ,ord]s4 ,! complete levell+ ( 8 *ur* pr9ciples left him at a loss :i* way to turn4 ,! divid$ /ate ( 8 p>i%1 & ! numb] ( sects1 seem$ to be p]petually h>ass+ 8 m9d4 ,he set ab\t conv]t+ !m by o!r ways ?an exhibit+ 8 c>d-ca/le2 he tri$ to op5 ! doors ( ! ,e/abli%m5t z wide z he c\ld1 s z to admit if possible all classes ( religioni/s to h] communion4 ,( a conv]sation ^u ?is po9t ) ,"l ,lyttelton1 he says1 ,9 ! ev5+ ,i _h a walk ) ,lyttelton1 & 0 fill$ ) scruples ab\t ! ,a?anasian ,cre$ by him un9t5tionally4 ,i _h a great w> ) my consci5ce 9 ! ev5+1 at b$-"t4 ,^! scruples slept = "s "t on acc\nt ( a soporific :i* ,dr4 ,blomfield adm9i/]$ to him2 b !y arose aga91 & 7 n settl$ till he became a ,ca?olic4 ,v>i\s discussions procure him lights ab\t ! ,me?odi/ practice1 & di/ress+ ?\ghts2 s he gives up t field ( work+ n[ = ano!r4 ,?is o!r field 0 %[+ good example ( ! diff]5t works ( m]cy1 & he ev5 tries ,ca?olic ascetism4 ,he takes su* an int]e/ 9 ! poor ( 8 p>i% t he goes to ! hospitals1 att5ds dissect+-rooms1 & assi/s at a disp5s>y until he le>ns en\gh ab\t m$ic9e to enable him to make prescriptions = ! sick poor4 ,he sp5ds ev5+s 9 mak+ pills1 & "o day :5 a poor man broke 8 ?igh1 ,mr4 ,sp5c] w5t & set x = him1 & x 0 s well done t !y did n *ange x :5 he 0 br\ght to ! infirm>y4 ,! ex]tion ?is co/ him ne>ly made him fa9t4 #aah ,! next ?+ he notes is1 ,i read a mo/ p]suasive s]mon ( ,bev]idge's ab\t fa/+2 ,i exam9$ ! "q 9 o!r books1 & by ,god's grace ,i am resolv$ no long] to disreg>d t duty4 ,he appli$ = advice ab\t fa/+1 z 0 8 inv>iable practice :5 he took up any idea out ( ! ord9>y l9e4 ,he w5t to a neighb\r+ cl]gyman1 :om he consid]$ well v]s$ 9 ! matt]1 &1 ?\gh ?is g5tleman disc\rages ! practice1 ,mr4 ,sp5c] adopts x not)/&+1 s9ce 8 argum5ts are too weak4 ,^! are ! pr9cipal ev5ts out ( 8 ord9>y "w1 except 8 giv+ up c>d-play+1 f ! beg9n+ ( ! ye> #ahbd until ! #ab? ( ,june1 :5 we f9d him aga9 9 ,pet]bor\gh1 on ! eve ( receiv+ prie/'s ord]s4 ,! demolition ( 8 ,high ,*ur* notions1 z well z ! tone ( m9d 9 :i* he receiv$ ! =m] ord]s1 might lead "o to anticipate t he receiv$ ^! second ord]s some:at aft] ! fa%ion ( a new /ep 9 ! army4 ,b x 0 q ! contr>y4 ,8 notions ( ord]s 7 high]2 he look$ ^u ?is /ep z an important "o1 & he tells u1 "s days be=e1 ,i walk$ to-day 9 ,! ,wild]ness at ,al?orp1 rum9at+ on my approa*+ ord9ation4 ,he also read ! ,ord9ation ,s]vice ov] & ov]1 a good _m times4 ,on ! ev5+ be=e ! ord9ation1 :il/ ! ,bi%op & v>i\s cl]gym51 & _! ladies1 ) :om he d9es1 c&idates includ$1 amuse !mselves ) a game ( :i/1 ,mr4 ,sp5c] refuses to play4 ,we c contra/ 8 reflections n[ ) ^? us$ on a simil> occasion a ye> & a half ago3-- ,tr9ity ,sunday1 ,june #ac4--;,a beautiful day4 ,i 0 awake f six1 & ?\ght a great deal ( my int5d$ /ep to-day4 ,at #aa we all att5d$ ! ,bi%op to *ur*1 & ! pray]s1 ord9ation1 & sacram5t 7 p]=m$ all moat satisfactorily to me4 ,i am n[ b\nd by ! awful tie ( prie/hood2 & mo/ solemnly1 at ! "t1 did ,i devote myself to ! s]vice ( my ,ma/]4 ,may ! impression nev] fade away6 ,%ortly be=e ?is he he>d ( ,dr4 ,blomfield's promotion to ! see ( ,*e/]1 :o1 9 answ] to 8 lett] ( congratulation1 (f]$ him ! (fice ( *apla94 ,he accept$ x1 9 a long lett] to 8 old tutor1 imm$iately he return$ #aai f ,pet]bor\gh4 ,up to ?is "t ,mr4 ,sp5c] _h be5 read+ ! ,anglican div9es1--,toml9e1 ,j]emy ,taylor1 ,:eatley1 ,bull1 ,hook]1 c42 n[ he beg9s to read ! ,fa!rs ( ! ,*ur*4 ,! fir/ he takes up is ,/4 ,john ,*ryso/om ,on ! ,prie/hood4 ,8 op9ion ^u "s ( ! doctr9es he met ) !re is nicely told 9 ! lett] to ! ,ca?olic ,/&>d1 f :i* ! passage 9 ! la/ *apt] has be5 quot$4 ,i _h to make a long j\rney ) my bro!r1 9 8 c>riage1 on t long day1 ,june #bh1 f ,al?orp1 ne> ,nor?ampton1 to ,s\?ampton4 ,x 0 be=e ! epo* ( railroads2 & ,i see we />t$ at half-pa/ ?ree4 ,i 0 seek+ a book to occupy me dur+ ?is long j\rney 7,n4,b4 no ,brevi>y to recite 9 ^? days71 &1 9 ! libr>y at ,al?orp1 ,i hit ^u a copy1 9 ,greek1 ( ,/4 ,john ,*ryso/om on ! ,prie/hood4 ,no?+ bett]4 ,i _h he>d ?is "w highly prais$1 & ,i hop$ to f9d "s animat+ matt] = ! ex]cise ( my call+ z a cl]gyman4 ,i 0 n disappo9t$ 9 ?is hope2 b :5 ,i came to :at ! sa9t says ab\t ! holy ,eu*>i/1 z1 ( c\rse1 ! gr& circum/ance :i* exalts ! ,*ri/ian prie/1 ,i 0 ov]come ) surprise4 ,i read1 & read x aga94 ,is x possible6 ,i ?\ght to myself4 ,:y1 ?is is manife/ pop]y4 ,he c]ta9ly mu/ h believ$ 9 ! ,real ,pres5ce4 ,i _h no idea t popi% errors _h comm5c$ s soon2 yes1 & ga9$ deep root1 too2 = ,i saw t he wrote z ( a doctr9e ab\t :i* he expect$ no contradiction4 ,:at 0 my conclusion "h8 y w ask4 ,:y1 simply ?is--! ,sa9t has err$2 o!rwise ?is capital t5et ( pop]y is true--:i* is absurd4 ,i br\ght 9 my ,euclid "h1 z on ! previ\s #ca/ ( ,decemb]4 ,i see t on ! foll[+ day ,i 0 9 ! cab9 ( ! vessel 9 :i* we cross$ to ! ,isle ( ,wight1 read+ ,j]emy ,taylor's ,wor?y ,communicant4 ,/4 ,john ,*ryso/om1 ,i h no d\bt1 _h be5 ?r[n ov]bo>d1 n into ! sea--:i* 0 mak+ me !n r sick--z ! volume 0 n my own to dispose ( ?us2 b he _h be5 ?r[n ov]bo>d ) a :ole multitude ( ,sa9ts & ,fa!rs besides1 convict$ ) him1 & condemn$ = #abj popi% errors1 into ! black gulph ( ! d>k ages2 or r1 ,i _h1 by an act ( my judgm5t1 ext5d$ ! bord]s ( t gulph sev]al c5turies back1 z ! ,reg5t's ,canal ,company are do+ ) _! res]voir ne> our h\se1 by ,act ( ,p>liam5t1 ov] "s ( our l&1 s z to flood him & 8 contempor>ies1 &1 ( c\rse1 all aft] !m till ,lu!r rose to set up a dyke & save on dry l& ^? :o _h c\rage to /ep out on ! l& ( ,gospel light :i* he fir/ _h re-discov]$4 ,i soon came to look on our ,engli% ,re=m]s ( ! ,*ur* ( ,engl& z ! greate/ & mo/ enlight5$ m5 s9ce ! "t ( ! ,apo/les4 ,he does n give up 8 asceticism1 ?\gh he feels ! pa9 ( x2 & well he might1 = he w\ld sometimes eat no?+ until six o'clock 9 ! ev5+1 & be all ! day go+ ?r\gh 8 p>i%1 or writ+ s]mons if ! day 7 wet4 ,he says 9 ! j\rnal ( "o ( ^? days3 ,a fa/+ day till d9n] made me v mis]able1 & makes me d\bt ! excell5cy ( ?is means 4444 d9n] did me good4 ,he improves ^u ! fa/+1 h[ev]1 by add+ ano!r day e week1 :5 he f9ds t x really helps him to eradicate 8 passions & raise up 8 m9d to heav54 ,! bodily pa9 consequ5t on want ( food 0 n ! only ?+ ,mr4 ,sp5c] _h to endure f 8 fa/+4 ,x 0 a practice t _h a popi% air ab\t x2 8 fri5ds & memb]s ( 8 family grew indignant t he %\ld be mak+ himself peculi>4 ,he _h to be> ! brunt ( all _! rem>ks2 he did s will+ly1 & w\ld sit d[n to ! family breakfa/ to fe$ on _! rebukes & s5d 8 portion d[n unta/$1 :il/ ! re/ took _! meal4 ,he also reads ,?omas-a-,kempis's ,imitation ( ,*ri/1 & we see evid5ces ( t rem>kable _s = :i* he 0 aft]w>ds di/+ui%$--?ank+ ,god = ev]y?+4 ,he becomes a secret>y to ! ,society = ,promot+ ,*ri/ian ,k3 t in/itution 0 a fav\rite ( ,dr4 ,blomfield's1 & he may h induc$ ,mr4 ,sp5c] to patronize x4 ,:5 ,mr4 ,sp5c] saw h[ well x work$ 9 its dep>tm5t1 he ?\ght ( a s*eme = improvis+ some?+ ( 8 own4 ,he does n give p>ticul>s #aba ( :at x 02 b he submitt$ x to 8 ,bi%op1 :o ?rew cold wat] on x1 & ,mr4 ,sp5c] simply ?anks ,god = be+ ?w>t$4 ,he is completely wrapp$ up 9 8 cl]ical duties1 s mu* s t he does n give ! full "t to 8 summ] vacation 9 ,ryde2 he is always impati5t to get back to 8 p>i% :5 "s press+ bus9ess requires him to leave x2 & ev51 :ile away1 he is p]petually visit+ cl]gym51 & talk+ ^u matt]s belong+ to 8 (fice4 ,he seems ?\gh1 ev] s9ce ! de/ruction ( 8 ,high ,*ur* pr9ciples1 to be gett+ e day m ,evangelical 9 8 words & actions4 #abb ,,*apt] ,,iv4 ,mr4 ,sp5c] ,becomes ,rector ,( ,br+ton4 ,mr4 ,vigoreux1 ,rector ( ,br+ton1 s5t 9 8 resignation ( ! liv+ to ! ,bi%op t[>ds ! close ( ! ye> #ahbd4 ,! lett]s :i* are f\nd among ,fa!r ,ignatius's pap]s %[ ?is transaction to h be5 v cr$itable to ! ,sp5c] family4 ,! old rector 0 on ! cont95t1--he seems to h be5 v mu* 9 debt to ,"l ,sp5c]1 & ^u 8 resign+ 8 liv+1 ,"l ,sp5c] n only cancell$ ! debt1 b made him s f> indep5d5t = life1 t ! old cl]gyman1 9 %e] gratitude1 ord]$ #g4 #ajs4 to be di/ribut$ e ye> among ! poor ( ! p>i%1 :il/ he liv$4 ,george 0 transport$ ) delight at ! news1 :i* 0 giv5 him by a lawy] 9 ,nor?ampton1 on ! #h? ,novemb] 9 ?is ye>1 t ,mr4 ,vigoreux _h resign$4 ,mr4 ,sp5c] is full ( 8 secret1 & he & a bro!r cl]gyman h a v pleasant ev5+ 9 tell+ secrets to ea* o!r--,george ab\t ! rector%ip1 8 fri5d ab\t 8 int5d$ m>riage4 ,?+s g on quietly n[ until ! usual ,*ri/mas assemblage ( ! family at ,al?orp1 & ,george's reflection on 8 bir?day is ?is3 ,t my life pa/1 9 ! ma91 has be5 mis-sp5t1 wa/$1 & worse ?an wa/$4 ,la/ ye> ,i h become confirm$ 9 ! fir/ ( all pr(essions1 & ,i truly desire t ,i may gr[ rip] & /rong] 9 my (fice4 ,= a :ile he resi/s ! temptation to jo9 9 ! sports ( ! "y g5tlem5 at ,al?orp2 at l5g? he gives 92 he plays a few rubb]s at :i/ 9 complim5t to 8 fa!r1 & ?anks ,god t he plays worse & worse e day4 ,he also takes a few %ots2 b f9d+ 8 old #abc eag]ness return+1 he ?r[s up ! gun at once1 & goes to visit ! sick & ! poor4 ,on ! #ab? ,janu>y he is pres5t$ by 8 fa!r ) ! liv+ ( ,br+ton1 is in/itut$ by ! ,bi%op two days aft]1 & induct$ by a neighb\r+ cl]gyman on ! #bj? ( ! same mon?4 ,he is n[ 9 possession ( a good income1 c af=d to pay a curate to d 8 drudg]y1 & might foll[ ! example ( non-resid5ce :i* 0 !n s common2 b he does no?+ ( ! k9d4 ,a fat p>sonage does n come to him ) an arm-*air or a s(a1 & invite him to sit d[n & take 8 re/4 ,he consid]s n[ t ! weight ( ! *>ge obliges him to r$\ble 8 lab\rs2 he cont9ues to write 8 s]mons twice ov]1 & nev] misses to h "o = e ,sunday4 ,x 0 8 cu/om to give1 :at he call$ a lecture1 on ,sunday ev5+s1--he n[ gives a full s]mon2 he also increases ! days ( att5dance 9 *ur* z f> z he c1 = we f9d him beat+ up = an att5dance on ,a%-,w$nesday2 & ?is he calls an innovation4 ,he gets a little ke5] 9 ! _s ( asceticism j n[1 = he tries to conceal 8 au/]ities2 & on a day he fa/$ till six he says3 ,i wi% ,i c\ld root out t devil ( ambition & va9-glory4 ,probably x 0 ab\t ?is "t t ! incid5t happ5$ he us$ (t5 to relate to 8 religi\s bre?r5 9 aft]-life4 ,"o day he ?\ght to conceal 8 fa/2 b ! h\sekeep] br\ght up ! toa/ = breakfa/1 & if he s5t x d[n unt\*$ %e w\ld h discov]$ 8 ab/95ce2 he put x 9 ! cupbo>d & lock$ x up2 by-&-by ! od\r x emitt$ p]fum$ ! :ole place1 to ! no small a/oni%m5t ( ! h\semaid4 ,! end ( x 01 t e "o discov]$ :at he tri$ to conceal ev5 f "o4 ,we f9d a ?or\gh absorption ( 8 en]gies 9 ! "w ( 8 m9i/ry app>5t 9 e page ( 8 j\rnal1 z also f ! te/imony ( ^? :o knew him at t p]iod4 ,"o little rem>k w ?r[ light ^u 8 int]ior3--,my de> ,lyttelton1--,sal & ! *ildr5 w5t away at #f4 ,i he>d ! sad dep>t+ :eels out ( b$4 ,?ank ,god ,i h h]et(ore f\nd happ9ess 9 my solitude1 & %all d #abd s aga91 ,i tru/4 ,8 ^w1 & ! way ( ,8 ,comm&m5ts1 !y are my joy4 ,may ,i gr[ 9 ! k & practice ( !m1 & ,i desire no m = ?is _w4 ,ano!r in/ance ( 8 devotion to 8 m9i/ry may be se5 9 ! foll[+3--,tuesday1 ,m>* #bb4--,rose 7a neighb\r+ cl]gyman7 & ,i began talk+ ab\t #h1 & h>dly ceas$ till #ab at night4 ,our subject 0 religion & ! ,*ur*1 *iefly4 ,:at beautiful mat]ial 0 !re 9 ?is excell5t cl]gyman6 & _h he be5 :]e 8 _s w\ld be und]/ood1 or :]e "o knew h[ to direct him1 :at might he n become8 ,he f\nd himself 9 a ,*ur* :]e spirituality & asceticism are exotics1 & _c ?rive1 not)/&+ t ! ,scriptures are s emphatic 9 exhort+ u to practise !m4 ,!n1 if he took !m up1 he knew n h[ f> to g1 or at :at po9t to re/ra9 himself4 ,he _h no manuals1 no guides2 b vague attempts at fulsome piety writt5 = fell[-workm51 :o diff]$ ) him on ! v fir/ pr9ciples ( fai?4 ,he 01 !re=e1 utt]ly left to 8 own views & fancies1 & :at he consid]$ grace & inspiration4 ,he 0 gett+ too unworldly = 8 position1 too s+le-m9d$1 & too e>ne/ = ! easy-go+ cl]ical g5tlem5 :o =m$ ! bulk ( 8 acqua9tances4 ,n t ! majority did n d _! duty4 ,to be sure !y did2 b :at 0 x8 ,to read a s]mon f a desk on a ,sunday2 to pay visits1 & read a *apt] ( ! ,bible to a dy+ s9n]4 ,! ,evangelical c\nsels1 )\t :i*1 9 "s degree or o!r1 ,*ri/ian p]fection is unatta9able1 are explod$ ana*ronisms 9 ! ,e/abli%$ ( s\ls1 z ! outcry aga9/ ^? )9 its pale1 :o try to revive !m1 b too cle>ly proves4 ,ecclesia/ical virtue1 ) !m1 does n diff] f secul> virtue1 any m ?an ! virtue ( a ,memb] ( ,p>liam5t diff]s f t ( a ,t[n ,c\ncillor4 ,!y are bo? expect$ to be g5tlem51 & to keep ! rules ( propriety ! public ?9ks prop] to expect f _! position4 ,t is all4 ,oh6 z poor ,fa!r ,ignatius us$ to say1 %all ^! dry bones live8 ,?\ kn[e/1 ,"l1 :e!r !y %all or n2 !y don't2 & 9 8 #abe "t !y 7 f>!r f x ?an !y are n[4 ,we mu/ !re=e expect1 f ! nature ( ! case1 :at is to foll[ 9 ! next *apt]4 ,he goes p]fectly a/ray1 9 8 pursuit aft] :at ! ,*ur* ( 8 baptism c\ld n give him4 ,x 0 =tunate t he /ray$ 9 ! end f a wrong pa? into ! "r "o1 by ! way ( too f> ,ea/ be+ ,we/4 ,ea/] ,sunday 9 ?is ye> he c\nts ! happie/ day he sp5t up to ?is1 ?\gh he _h only fifty-eight communicants1 a decrease s9ce 8 fir/ ,ea/]4 ,8 po9t ( br++ all to ! sacram5t 0 n c>ri$4 ,he _h ev5 bi%ops oppos+ him 9 ?is1 z 9 ev]y?+ else t 0 n half _w1 half ,god4 ,! next ?+ he notices is1 t an ar*deacon gave a good *>ge1 ?\gh aga9/ ! ,ca?olics1--a que/ionable topic4 ,mr4 ,sp5c] _h no special love = ,ca?olics2 on ! contr>y1 he ?\ght !mselves absurd1 _! doctr9es abom9able1 & _! c]emonies mumm]y4 ,he 0 ( ! ,sp5c] family ?\gh1 & 9 !m !re 0 an inbr$ love ( ju/ice & fair-play4 ,"l ,sp5c] & 8 son1 ,"l ,al?orp1 bo? fav\r$ & spoke = emancipation4 ,!y ?\ght ! ,ca?olics aggriev$1 & if !y 7 ,turks1 !y did n see :y !y %\ld cease to be m5 & subjects ( ! ,engli% cr[n4 ,t 0 pla9 common s5se2 besides1 ,mr4 ,sp5c] _h n got s high 9 ,*ur* views z "s ( 8 fri5ds1 :o fav\r$ ,ca?olics be=e _! elevation & oppos$ !m aft] x1 to please a k+4 ,! ,sp5c]s 7 g5]\sly lib]al 9 all _! deal+s1 & ev5 :5 ! subject ( ?is biography1 ! delight ( ! family1 ?\ght fit to become a ,ca?olic1 _! conduct t[>ds him 0 wor?y ( _! "n4 ,we %all h to ref] to ?is aft]w>ds2 ! allusion is made n[ only to %[ t ! t5\r ( _! op9ions 0 n ! creature ( a :im or an ephem]al fancy1 b a grave1 /eady1 & well-discipl9$ feel+4 ,praise be to !m = x4 ,w\ld t _! imitators 7 m num]\s4 ,he has also ano!r project on h& at ?is "t1 besides ! evangeliz+ ( 8 flock4 ,he beg9s to build a new rectory4 ,he gets an ar*itect f ,london2 has #abf sugge/ions f ! family ab\t ! l5g? & bread? ( ! ap>tm5ts2 o!rs1 m poetical1 survey ! site to give _! s5tim5ts ab\t ! view f ! p>l\r w9d[2 ! old] portion h _! say ab\t ! com=t ( ! diff]5t rooms1 ) reg>d to size1 position1 & pla/]+4 ,"s few ev5 make pres5ts ( articles ( furniture1 & a ne> relation gives him a beautiful b$1 :i* commodity has _m p>agraphs ( ! j\rnal d$icat$ to its praises & suitabl5ess4 ,! build+ is at la/ begun1 & we mu/ say some?+ ( ! progress ( 8 int]ior ca/le :il/ we let ! bricklay]s obey ! ord]s ( ! build] & ar*itect4 #abg ,,*apt] ,v4 ,*anges ,9 ,8 ,religi\s ,op9ions4 ,= "s "t we are gett+ glimpses ( 8 ways ( ?\ght1 or r ( 8 ways ( express+ 8 ?\ghts4 ,we read1 godly dispositions1 mature unto rep5tance1 ripe = glory1 com=table conv]sations1 spr+s 9 b>r5 soil1 & ! see+ ( spiritual bl9dness4 ,all ^! indicate ! lean+ ( 8 m9d1 & recall ! language ( ,cromwellian ,sa9ts1 & ,bunyan's dreams4 ,! /range/ "p ( 8 proce$+s n[ 0 ! way 9 :i* he became ju/ifi$4 ,x is h>dly necess>y to m5tion t 9 ,calv9i/ic !ology1 :i* =ms ! basis1 if n ! sup]/ructure1 ( ! pr9cipal "p ( ,evangelical po/ulates1 ! body ( believ]s are divid$ into elect & reprobate1 or ju/ifi$ & unconv]t$4 ,! election or ju/ification is a s5tim5t com+ f :at is suppos$ to be ! assurance ( an int]ior _s t "o is to be sav$4 ,) !m1 happy ! man or woman :o possesses ?is te/imony1 & mis]able ! wret* to :om x is n giv54 ,!re is = ^! latt] only an ev]la/+ grop+ 9 ! d>k1 & a seek+ = light1 :ile ! insur$ c g ?r\gh ?is vale ( te>s 9 exultation & gladness ( _s4 ,mr4 ,sp5c] 0 n well v]s$ 9 ?is p>ticul> doctr9e1 & a poor woman1 :om he met "o day 9 ,nor?ampton1 und]took to br+ him to ! true ,gospel light by ! pure milk ( ! ,^w4 ,%e put toge!r a few ( ^? passages f ! ,new ,te/am5t1 :i* are g5]ally misquot$ 9 support ( ?is outl&i% !ory1 & h] int]pretation conv9c$ ,mr4 ,sp5c]1 s t he felt ju/ifi$1 all at once4 ,?is good woman prov$ to be a great tr\ble to him aft]w>ds2 %e w\ld h>angue him1 #abh once a week1 on 8 unconv]t$ /ate1 ev5 aft] ! assurance4 ,h] lett]s came regul>ly1 f\r l>ge pages1 badly & closely writt52 & :5 %e _h done cant+ on spirituality1 %e w\ld fill up :at rema9$ ) ! sc&als ( ! unconv]t$ among :om %e liv$1 & compla9ts at ! cold treatm5t %e receiv$ f _m4 ,%e became a k9d ( apo/le among ! ,diss5t]s1 & x 0 only :5 %e _h be5 liv+ on ,mr4 ,sp5c]'s *>ity = a few ye>s t he discov]$ :]e ! /r5g? ( h] _s lay4 ,he _h reasons = n tru/+ to ! g5u95ess ( h] piety1 ?\gh %e kept cont9ually writ+ f ,nor? ,%ields1 :]e %e liv$1 sometimes 9 good & sometimes 9 bad circum/ances1 s9ce ! reg5]ation ( ,mr4 ,sp5c]4 ,:5 %e receiv$ "o lett] 9 :i* h] sanctity 0 made little (1 %e laid ! blame on sl&]\s tongues1 & talk$ ab\t suicide4 ,mr4 ,sp5c] !n dropp$ ! correspond5ce1 & gave h] a sum ( money to pur*ase a l fav\r on h] side4 ,he us$ to amuse u mu* by relat+ ! sy/em ( self-laudation & enc\ragem5t t kept ! ,evangelicals int]e/$ 9 ea* o!r4 ,"o day he 0 describ+ h[ a cl]ical fri5d ( 8 became ju/ifi$4 ,he _h travell$ a good di/ance1 & 0 pretty tir$2 ! family he ?\ght prop] to hon\r ) 8 holy pres5ce 9 a c]ta9 t[n1 prep>$ him a mo/ excell5t breakfa/4 ,he ate ) ! appetite ( a v hungry man1 & :5 a m secul> gue/ w\ld h said1 ,o jam satis1 he jump$ up f ! table & %\t$ ) ec/atic delight1 ,i am ju/ifi$4 ,he nev] d\bt$ ( 8 election to glory aft] t1 z f> z ,fa!r ,ignatius knew4 ,! mo/ extraord9>y feature 9 _! modes 01 t a k9d ( telegraphic communication 0 kept up ) ea* o!r1 all ov] ! c\ntry1 = ! purpose ( mak+ ! elect aw>e ( ! late/ addition to _! numb]s4 ,on f9d+ 8 bre?r5 7 dispos$ to laugh at ! extravagant madness ( ?is k9d ( religion1 he grew q s]i\s1 & said3 ,!y are really 9 e>ne/1 poor ?+s1 & we ought n to laugh at !m1 only to pray t _! e>ne/ness might be prop]ly direct$4 ,"o w say3 ,c\ld any man or woman ) a #abi gra9 ( common s5se1 g on ?9k+ & talk+ ?is k9d ( unreality1 :i* we commonly call cant8 ,z a fact1 !y d1 & we h pro( positive ( x 9 ,mr4 ,sp5c] himself4 ,x is a/oni%+ to see a man ( 8 position1 good s5se1 & education1 talk & write 9 ! /range way he does1 :il/ ?is mood ( m9d la/$4 ,n only does he write s2 he holds conv]sations ) e "o :om he meets ab\t ! /ate ( _! s\l1 & ^? :i* he calls int]e/+1 o!rs consid]$ v probably ! rev]se4 ,he also takes s\nd+s ( p's spiritual dep?1 & is seldom consol$ at ! result4 ,he is satisfi$ ) no "o1 except two or ?ree ( 8 imm$iate neighb\rs :o 7 f$ mo/ly on 8 b\nty or s]v$ 9 8 h\se or g>d54 ,he goes at ?is "t 7,septemb]1 #ahbe7 to att5d ,dr4 ,blomfield z *apla9 ?r\gh ! visitation ( ! diocese ( ,*e/]4 ,he is v zeal\s ?r\gh\t1 & conv]ses on spiritual subjects ) ,diss5t]s ( all k9ds z well z ,*ur*m52 he does n ev5 leave beh9d ! foll[]s ( ,joanna ,s\?cote4 ,"s 7 suppos+ once1 9 8 pres5ce1 t x 0 impossible = foll[]s ( ,joanna ,s\?cote1 & ! l1 n to be fully aw>e t !y 7 be+ delud$4 ,fa!r ,ignatius said x 0 n s1 & relat$ a peculi> case t he witness$ himself4 ,he happ5$ to be pass+ ?r\gh ,birm+ham 7p]haps x 0 aft] he became a ,ca?olic71 & _h occasion to ent] a %op !re to ord] some?+4 ,! %opkeep] ask$ him if he _h he>d ( ! great light t _h aris5 9 ^! mod]n times4 ,he said no4 ,well !n1 repeat$ ! %opman1 "h1 sir1 is some?+ to enlight5 y1 h&+ him a neatly got up pamphlet4 ,he _h n "t to glance at ! title :5 8 fri5d beh9d ! c\nt] ran on at a great rate 9 a spee* some?+ to ! foll[+ effect4 ,t ! f\r ,gospels 7 all figures & my?s1 t ! ,epi/les 7 only fa9t =e%ad[+s ( ! real sun ( ju/ice t 0 n[ at l5g? aris54 ,! ,messias 0 come 9 ! p]son ( a ,mr4 ,w>d1 & he w\ld see ! tru? demon/rat$ beyond ! possibility ( a d\bt by look+ at ! ,gospel he held 9 8 h&4 ,:il/ ! %opman 0 express+ hopes ( conv]t+ him1 he took #acj ! opportunity ( look+ at ! pamphlet1 & f\nd t all ?is new !ory ( religion 0 built ^u a p>ticul> way ( pr9t+ ! text1 ,glory be to ,god on high1 & on e>? peace to-,,w>d',s m54 ,on turn+ away 9 disgu/ f 8 fruitless remon/rances ) ?is specim5 ( ,,w>d',s m51 he f\nd "s ( ,,w>d',s wom5 also 9 ! same place2 & ov]he>d !m exclaim+1 ,oh6 little ,engl& kn[s :at a treasure !y h 9 ---- jail4 ,! pret5d$ ,messias happ5$ to be 9 prison = felony at ! "t4 ,he assur$ u t ^! poor creatures 7 p]fectly s9c]e & e>ne/ 9 ! fai? !y _h 9 ?is malefactor4 ,! *>act]i/ic features ( ! ,l[ ,*ur* s*ool1 or :atev] "n ! religi\s bias ( ,mr4 ,sp5c]'s m9d at ?is "t may be call$1 are1 a c]ta9 self-suffici5cy & rank spiritual pride4 ,x beg9s ) self & ends ) self4 ,f self spr+s ! assurance ( salvation1 = self's sake1 too1 & e "o mu/ feel himself 9 ?is mood be=e he c rely on himself4 ,:5 ?is fancy gets possession ( a p]son's m9d1 !y =?) turn apo/les1 borr[ ! language ( inspiration ev5 = table-talk1 & no p]son is 9 ! way ( salvation at all :o does n completely fall 9 ) ! /ream ( ! new flood ( ideas ?is notion br+s into ! reg5]at$ m9d4 ,no matt] h[ wor?y or great any p]son may seem to ! reprobate _w1 & did seem to ! newly-made sa9t be=e ! assurance1 !y are n[ d>k1 lo/1 b hopeful if !y li/5 pati5tly to "o half-h\r's disc\rse ^u ! movem5ts ( ! ,_s4 ,! vag>ies ( ea* m9d are 9 proportion to ! imag9ation1 & ! facilities = exp&+ !m by giv+ !m expression4 ,b f> or ne> z !y may g1 self1 pr\d self1 is ! beg9n+ & end ( !m all4 ,! woman :o 0 in/rum5tal 9 reg5]at+ ,mr4 ,sp5c] writes 9 "o lett] to say t %e has no pride1 & t no "o ev] c\ld accuse h] ( be+ infect$ ) ?is passion4 ,at ! same "t1 ay1 9 ! v next s5t5ce1 we h wra? & indignation at "s ( ! unreg5]ate :o d n ?9k prop] to pay c\rt to h]4 ,! sweep+ condemnations hurl$ aga9/ two or #aca ?ree wor?y cl]gym51 :i* op5$ ,mr4 ,sp5c]'s eyes to ! imposition practis$ ^u him1 are fur!r evid5ces ( ! same _s4 ,mr4 ,sp5c]'s own ways ( act+ w be a fair sample ( ?is k9d ( ?+4 ,dur+ 8 visit to ,*e/] 9 #ahbe1 he lectures ! ,bi%op on sev]al diff]5t occasions1 & consid]s himself q qualifi$ to d s by virtue ( ! new _s he has imbib$4 ,"o ( ! conv]sations he describes ?us3--,aft] d9n] we _h an animat$ discussion1 9 :i* ,i took a lead aga9/ ! field almo/4 ,be=e go+ to b$1 ,i _h half an h\r's private conv]sation ) ! ,bi%op1 mo/ int]e/+ on 8 acc\nt4 ,i humbly ?ank ,god :o has he>d my pray]s1 & made me a l[ly in/rum5t 9 ,8 h&s = ! good ( ?is already admirable man4 ,9 ! next s5t5ce he tells u t1 9 travell+ home to ,al?orp1 ,i did n read mu*1 b ?ank ,god 0 enabl$ to keep my m9d 9 godly m$itation almo/ all ! way4 ,god kn[s h[ bl9d & p]plex$ ,i am /ill4 ,we h tak5 ! lib]ty to m>k "s words 9 italics 9 ! fir/ quotation1 z !y %[ :at is confirm$ by o!r passages1 too num]\s to be quot$1 h[ high he _h ris5 9 8 own e/imation :5 he consid]$ a bi%op b5efit$ by half an h\r's conv]sation ) him4 ,he is v hopeful1 ?\gh1 ( br++ all ! _w to 8 ideas1 & says ( 8 family3 ,god grant me ! cont9uance ( t k9dness :i* lies betwe5 me & all my family till su* "t z _! he>ts may be truly op5$ to my ^w4 ,ano!r reason :y we are r sp>+ 9 extracts is a respect = a passage :i* occurs "h 9 ! j\rnal4 ,i h put d[n _m circum/ances 9 ?is j\rnal relat+ to private discussions ) p]sons 9 religion4 ,%\ld !y fall into /range h&s1 be !y b\nd 9 consci5ce to use !m discreetly4 ,we simply quote :at is necess>y to give a correct notion ( ! /ate ( 8 m9d4 ,he c>ri$ 8 zeal a little too f> betimes1 he w5t s f> z to consid] x ! duty ( a cl]gyman to call on & rebuke any bro!r cl]gyman1 :om he might consid] neglig5t 9 8 m9i/]ial (fice4 #acb ,?us a fell[-cl]gyman writes3-- ,he got into "s difficulties at ?is "t 9 consequ5ce ( report+ to 8 bi%op a cl]gyman :o w\ld n li/5 to 8 remon/rances2 b mutual explanations succe$$ 9 mak+ ev]y?+ "r4 ,! cl]gyman 9 "q liv$ away f 8 cure1 & ?\ght prop] to enjoy uncl]ical1 b o!rwise h>mless1 sports4 ,mr4 ,sp5c]1 ( c\rse1 0 aga9/ ?is1 b did n succe$ 9 imbu+ ! o!r ) 8 s5tim5ts4 ,not)/&+ ^! notions ( self-righte\sness1 he 0 f> f incurr+ mu* c5sure = (fici\sness4 ,8 "* & mode ( life ga9$ him s mu* respect t he c\ld adm9i/] ev5 repro( )\t provok+ ang]1 except :]e x 0 too ri*ly des]v$4 ,a lett] ( ,dr4 ,blomfield's to him aft] ?is visit1 be>s out ?is rem>k4 ,! ,bi%op says3 444 ,i hope y w look back on y\r visit to ,*e/] ) pleasure4 ,y may h ! satisfaction ( believ+ t y h done good to _m "y cl]gym51 :o _h an opportunity ( conv]s+ ) y1 if n to _m old ones4 ,i 0 v glad to set be=e !m ! example ( a "y man ( rank & good prospects devot$ 9 s+l5ess ( he>t to ! duties ( 8 holy call+4 ,t 8 s+le-m9d$ness & piety %\ld h ?us l$ him a/ray is n to be wond]$ at2 =1 besides ! want ( a /ate :]e su* virtues c\ld be prop]ly cultivat$1 he _h to brea! a religion ^: fir/ pr9ciples t5d directly t way4 ,! ex]cise ( private judgm5t 9 :at prim>ily conc]ns salvation mu/ always lead "o a/ray1 because articles ( fai? are n creatures ( human intellig5ce1 nei!r are !y )9 its compass to und]/&4 ,he _h1 ( c\rse1 a private judgm5t %ackl$ by contradictions1 z e subscrib] ( ! ,?irty-n9e ,articles has4 ,he _h an au?ority to obey :i* gave a dubi\s s\nd1 & he 0 told pla9ly by ! same voice t itself 0 defectible2 ! only tie to ob$i5ce 0 ! condition on :i* he dis*>g$ 8 cl]ical functions2 x 0 natural t he %\ld see ?r\gh ?is1 f 8 v s+le-m9d$ness1 & ov]look ! conditions :ile try+ to unravel ! knots ) :i* !y b\nd him4 ,8 bir?day reflections ?is ye>1 #ahbe1 %[ t he did n beg9 to retrace 8 /eps4 ,!y are z foll[s3-- #acc ,dec4 #ba4 444 ,?is day sees me #bf ye>s old1 & bless$ be my ,almighty ,protector1 ! la/ ye> has greatly advanc$ me 9 hope & k ( salvation4 ,a ref]5ce to my obs]vations la/ bir?day %[s me a great alt]ation 9 my views4 ,:at admirable me?ods does ,he employ 9 br++ s9n]s to himself8 ,dur+ ! la/ half-ye> ,i reckon ,i mu/ fix ! "t :5 by ! mo/ unlikely means ,god has br\ght me to fai? & k ( ,8 grace4 ,i solemnly devote ! next ye> & e day & h\r & m9ute ( my future life to com+ ne>] to ,him1 to le>n+ ,8 ways & ^w1 & to lead+ o!rs to ! same k1 9 :i* ,he has caus$ me to exult ) a joy =m]ly unkn[n4 #acd ,,*apt] ,,vi4 ,opposition ,to ,8 ,religi\s ,views4 ,mr4 ,sp5c] 0 s tak5 ) 8 new bir? t he tri$ to h all 8 fri5ds & acqua9tances born aga9 aft] 8 own fa%ion4 ,he made no secret1 !re=e1 ( 8 religi\s lean+2 by lett] & ^w ( m\? he tri$ to br+ all to 8 side4 ,we f9d1 f 8 correspond5ce at ?is "t1 a %[] ( lett]s f e po9t ( ! cl]ical compass :]e !re 0 au?ority or influ5ce en\gh to mu/] a cl\d = _! dis*>ge4 ,9 look+ ov] su* ( ! lett]s z he has ?\ght well to pres]ve1 "o is /ruck at once ) ! div]sity ( op9ion4 ,x is bett] n to give names1 p]haps2 b a few s5t5ces f ea* may n be out ( place4 ,rev4 ,mr4 ,a4--,i h read y\r lett] ?r\gh ) great c>e1 & ,i c say ) tru?1 t x has produc$ mu* ! same effect ^u ! eye ( my m9d :i* ! full blaze ( ! m]idian sun sometimes produces ^u ! natural eye4 ,x has be5 almo/ too mu* = me4 ,! lett] goes on enc\rag+ him 9 8 _s1 =tify+ him aga9/ all c>nal opposition4 ,?is g5tleman is ( ! same m9d z ,mr4 ,sp5c]1 b m gl[+ 9 8 zeal = ! great cause ( ,gospel fre$om4 ,rev4 ,mr4 ,b4--,i address myself to "o :o1 f t love ( ,*ri/ :i* passe? k1 has ev9c$ an anxiety = me1 :o am less ?an ! lea/ ( all sa9ts1 & an unpr(itable m9i/] ( ! ,gospel ( ,god4 ,?is g5tleman's language is ( ! "r /amp2 b he does n agree s p]fectly1 & arranges = a meet+1 :]e !y are to h a mutual adju/m5t ( ideas4 #ace ,rev4 ,mr4 ,c4--,?is is v well at ! comm5cem5t4 ,i tru/ ! ,"l w add m1 9 ! be/ s5se ( t expression4 ,rev4 ,mr4 ,d4--4444 ,to ?is ,i w nev] cons5t r5ew+ left (f discussions1 be+ satisfi$ 7z ,i h be=e /at$ to y7 t e man :o is able & will+ & s9c]ely endeav\r+ to le>n & practise 8 duty1 ought to be left 9 ! quiet & undi/urb$ possession ( 8 own consci5ce1 & n =c$ f x aga9/ 8 w by o!rs :o happ5 to =m a diff]5t judgm5t4 ,9 our =m] conv]sations1 y told me1 z pla9ly z language c\ld well d1 ?\gh p]haps n entirely at "o int]view1 t y consid]$ me to be an unconv]t$ s9n]1 z de/itute ( ! tru? z any hea!n c\ld be1 & 9 a /ate ( p]dition2 & y seem$ to ?9k t ,i c\ld be recov]$ f t fe>ful condition by t horrid sy/em ( indiscrim9ate condemnation & t]ror :i* prevails 7,i f9d7 at ,nor?ampton 9 its mo/ odi\s =m1 & :i* ,i believe to be ess5tially oppos$ to ! pr9ciples ( ! ,*ri/ian religion1 z x is repugnant to ^? natural feel+s ( k9dness & b5evol5ce :i* ,god has implant$ 9 ! human brea/4 ,x might be fair] to transcribe 8 entire lett]2 b !n ! o!r lett]s h ! same claim1 & t w\ld make a new volume1 = "s ( ! lett]s ext5d ov] fifte5 pages ( foolscap pap]1 closely writt54 ,! sum ( ! rema9+ "p is ?is1 t he is tw5ty-"o ye>s 9 holy ord]s1 & t ,god c\ld n h all[$ him to be 9 error all t "t4 ,he says t1 ,i nev] c = "o mom5t admit t any "o is m anxi\s = my happ9ess ?an ,i am myself1 nor t any p]son has a great] "r to decide ?an ,i h by :at means t happ9ess %all be s\ght4 ,a man's own consci5ti\s judgm5t is ! prop] guide 9 su* cases4 ,he !n ref]s ,mr4 ,sp5c] to o!rs m le>n$ ?an he = ! discussion ( ^? matt]s1 & m5tions ! ,bi%op ( ,*e/] & ,john ,rose1 ^: qualifications = ! task are incomp>ably sup]ior to m9e4 ,?is g5tleman seems to hesitate betwe5 ,mr4 ,sp5c]'s op9ions & 8 own1 & is r uneasy le/ he might be wrong1 yet does n see #acf ! use ( tr\bl+ himself1 z x is all ! same 9 ! end1 :5 "o tries to d :at 8 consci5ce tells him is "r4 ,rev4 ,mr4 ,e4 is a doctor1 s let u li/5 to him4 ,aft] a rhetorical preface1 9 :i* he w\ld make excuses b w\ld n1 because !y 7 su* fri5ds & did n want !m1 = h&l+ 8 fri5d s summ>ily1 he ?us laun*es =?3-- ,al?\gh !re c be b "o l9e ( duty m>k$ out 9 ! situation ( e cl]gyman1 & al?\gh1 be=e ,god1 ! humble/ & ! l(tie/ 9 t pr(ession are equally b\nd5 to pursue ! same l9e ( duty1 & are1 moreov]1 equally frail & 'f\nd want+1'--yet ,i _c br+ myself to consid] y\rs z by any means an ord9>y case4 ,aft] ?us magnify+ ! importance ( 8 subject1 he nei!r agrees nor disagrees1 b disc\nt5ances ,mr4 ,sp5c]'s practices on prud5tial motives4 ,he /aves (f ! :ole matt] ( doctr9e1 & talks ab\t discipl9e4 ,! next quotation w be f a bi%op4 ,he v wisely & ke5ly obs]ves3-- ,amid/ a great deal t is excell5t & ( "r _s 9 y\r obs]vations1 !re is a presumption & self-confid5t tone1 :i* is altoge!r new 9 y1 & 9 my op9ion n v consi/5t ) real humility4 ,9 fact1 ,i almo/ wond] t ?is symptom1 if y h ev] recall$ to m9d y\r conv]sations1 or read ov] y\r lett]s :5 writt51 has n made y d\bt ! reality ( :at y call y\r conv]sion2 = ,i rememb] p]fectly well y\r hav+ obs]v$ to me1 t ! extreme confid5ce ( ^? :o hold ,calv9i/ic op9ions z to _! own case1 & _! extreme un*>itabl5ess t[>ds1 or r conc]n+ o!rs1 7 /rong indications ( "s radical error 9 _! notions1 & s !y w ev] be consid]$ by ^? :o take ! same view ) ,/4 ,paul ( ,*ri/ian *>ity4 ,! ,bi%op !n /ates ! case v cle>ly at issue betwe5 !m1 & po9ts h[ f> !y agree & disagree ^u ! po9t ( assurance & reliance on ! m]its ( ,*ri/1 & proves 8 side ( ! "q by ,scripture1 ,anglican div9es1 & common s5se4 #acg ,x is a v s+ul> ?+ t ?is bi%op1 :5 he fir/ he>d ( ! manife/ations ( ,mr4 ,sp5c]s ,calv9i/ic _s1 concludes a %ort lett] to him ?us3-- ,i recomm5d to y\r p]usal a mo/ int]e/+ tract1 :i* ,blanco ,:ite has j publi%$1 ',! ,poor ,man's ,pres]vative aga9/ ,pop]y4' ,ev] y\rs affectionately1 9999999999 ,^! specim5s are pick$ at r&om f a heap ( lett]s4 ,x looks incompreh5sible to a ,ca?olic h[ su* a /ate ( ?+s c\ld be possible 9 a sy/em call+ itself a ,*ur*4 ,n "o ( ^!1 :o 7 ! cl]gy work+ ) him 9 ! same field & 9 ! same way1 d>$ to say1 or knew h[ to say1 ,y h utt]$ a h]esy4 ,"s agre$ ) him1 "s applaud$ him1 "s want$ to be left alone 9 _! old doctr9es1 & "s begg$ leave v politely to diff] f him1 & gave _! reasons = s do+4 ,! ,bi%op argu$ w>mly aga9/ him1 b ,mr4 ,sp5c] took up 8 lord%ip1 & argu$ q z w>mly = ! o!r side ( ! "q4 ,if he did n put !m among ! reprobate1 !y %\ld v likely h let him alone4 ,su* 0 ! /ate ( dogma 9 ! ,e/abli%m5t 9 ! beg9n+ ( #ahbf2 x is sc>cely improv$1 except 9 its own way1 9 #ahfe4 ,no def9ite tea*+1 no?+ positive1 no?+ precise1 all mi/1 d\bt1 unc]ta9ty1 except t ,pop]y is anti-,*ri/ian & subv]sive ( human lib]ty4 ,x is v h>d to imag9e1 mu* less to realize1 h[ ^! lukew>m expressions ( ass5t & diss5t turn$1 9 a few mon?s1 into a tempe/ ( opposition4 ,p]haps ! foll[+ guess w\ld ne>ly acc\nt = x4 ,we may conclude f ! lett] ( ,lady ,sp5c] to ,dr4 ,blomfield 7giv5 9 8 life1 page #gj71 on 8 be+ appo9t$ to ! see ( ,*e/]1 t %e & ,"l ,sp5c] knew some?+ ab\t ! mak+ ( bi%ops & ! mode ( _! translation4 ,if %e took su* an int]e/ 9 a /rang]1 b a fri5d1 x is n wond]ful t %e %\ld take a simil>1 if n a great]1 int]e/ 9 see+ a mitre on ! head ( h] own son4 ,"l ,liv]pool _h n yet retir$ f ! head ( ! m9i/ry1 #ach & if 8 politics & ,"l ,sp5c]'s 7 suffici5tly ( accord to promote ! man :om ! ,e>l patroniz$1 !y w\ld be able to d a l s]vice to ! ,e>l's own son 9 due c\rse4 ,extreme ,l[ ,*ur* views w\ld nev] d = ! ,episcopal ,b5* 9 ^? days1 ?\gh _m 7 rais$ to t dignity ) little ,high ,*ur* views4 ,:e!r ,mr4 ,sp5c]'s op9ions cl\d$ ?is bright future1 or t ! noble family w\ld feel x a disgrace to h a son s me?odi/ical1 or :e!r real anxiety = 8 spiritual welf>e1 or an endeav\r to prev5t a future t ! ,bi%op's k5 seem$ to h =eca/$1 tr\bl$ 8 p>5ts1 x is difficult to say4 ,at all ev5ts1 ,mr4 ,sp5c]'s religi\s notions caus$ a great commotion 9 ! family1 :il/ ^? :o abett$ & enc\rag$ him w5t on prea*+ _! s]mons & read+ _! s]vices 9 _! position1 ) "o exception1 & nobody seem$ to m9d !m4 ,lady ,sp5c] took h] son to ,london1 9 ! beg9n+ ( ! ye> #ahbf1 to h 8 new notions rectifi$ by ,dr4 ,blomfield4 ,?is good doctor imm$iately prescrib$ = 8 pati5t1 = he did n ne$ mu* feel+ ( 8 spiritual pulse aft] _! correspond5ce4 ,! int]view is ?us describ$3-- ,jan4 #bd4--,my "m all[$ me h] c>riage aft] breakfa/1 to g & see ! ,bi%op ( ,*e/]4 ,i did n f9d him at home1 & s came directly back aga94 ,he 0 s good z to call on me aft]w>ds1 & sat talk+ ) me a consid]able "t4 ,8 conv]sation 0 mo/ pleas+ to me1 ?\gh ,i c\ld see t we did n fully agree 9 our view ( ,*ri/ian doctr9e 7sic74 ,he desir$ me to read ,sumn]'s ',apo/olical ,prea*+1' :i* ,i s5t out = & began do+ be=e d9n]4 ,8 ob$i5ce to directors ( all k9ds 0 rem>kable2 b ! results 7 inv>iably contr>y to _! expectations4 ,he began ?is book at once1 & be x rememb]$1 he _h read x twice be=e4 ,next day he read on1 & m>k$ _m passages :i* he ?\ght decid$ly wrong4 ,he goes out a little1 sees an old fri5d1 & delights 9 read+ ,c[p]'s ,task1 exclaim+1 ,x is a great ?+ to be a true ,*ri/ian4 ,he visits ! ,bi%op 9 a day or two2 !y hold a discussion1 b "p 9 *>ity2 & ! result 01 #aci t ,mr4 ,sp5c] wrote him ! memorable lett] :i* sc>cely left 8 lord%ip a hope ( salvation if he did n at once get assur$ ( 8 election4 ,a correspond5ce ensues n[1 :i* t]m9ates 9 a promise giv5 & accept$ ( a long] /ay 9 ,london1 :]e matt]s may be settl$ 9 conv]sation to _! mutual satisfaction4 ,9 ! mean "t1 ,mr4 ,sp5c] returns to 8 p>i%1 & beg9s read+ ! ,new ,te/am5t 9 ,greek 7ano!r ( ,dr4 ,blomfield's prescriptions74 ,z he lays d[n ! volume "o day he exclaims1 ,h[ d ,i want ! milk ( ,god's ^w6 ,an old lady :om he visits1 9 illness1 dozes into a /upor1 & awak5s unto ,gospel fai?4 ,"o ev5+ he says3--,i sp5t ?is ev5+ ) a mixture ( scrupulosities & com=ts1 b tru/ soon to f9d out :at is ! true ,gospel fre$om4 ,!re seem /ill "s relics ( ! old asceticism left 9 him1 = on hav+ to g to ,pet]bor\gh on "s bus9ess1 he says3--,i />t$ 9 a *aise = ,pet]bor\gh4 ,i _h scruples ab\t ! heavy exp5se ( ?is mode in/ead ( coa*es2 b ,i 0 consol$ by ! opportunity ,i _h on ! way ( call+ at ,tit*m>%1 & hav+ half an h\r's conv]sation ) ,lyttelton ,p[ys4 ,i got to ,pet]bor\gh at #d1 d9$ ) ! dean & 8 lady at #f1 & sp5t ! ev5+ 9 he>+ extracts f 8 int5d$ life ( ,b5tley4 ,i f\nd myself 9 a l&1 alas6 ( spiritual b>r5ness2 b wat]-spr+s may rise 9 dry gr\nd4 ,x 0 ab\t ?is "t1 ,m>*1 #ahbf1 t he seems to h giv5 up read+ any?+ 9 ! way ( !ology1 except ! ,bible4 ,he gives an odd dip into ,c[p]'s poems1 by way ( recreation4 ,he came across a book call$ ,! ,conv5t1 b imm$iately discov]$ x to be anti-,*ri/ian4 ,?is app>5t quiet is1 h[ev]1 di/urb$ by ! play ( ! cl]ical artill]y ar\nd him4 ,! tone ( "o or two extracts f ! lett]s he receiv$ n[ w give an idea ( ! vantage-gr\nd ^! good *ampions ( or?odoxy ?\ght prop] to take4 ,"o writes3-- ,i "k y did ?9k x un-,*ri/ian-l to conv]se or employ ! m9d mu* on any subject b religion4 ,to ?is almo/ entire exclusion ( all o!r topics ,i decid$ly object1 #adj on ! gr\nd ( its hav+ a /rong t5d5cy to eng5d] a ph>isaical _s1 & ( its be+ inconsi/5t ) ! common duties & occupations ( life m>k$ out = u by ,provid5ce1 & contr>y to ! true int]e/s ( g5u9e ,*ri/ianity4 ,& my op9ion 9 ?is respect has ! sanction ( "s ( ! mo/ excell5t *>act]s ,i h ev] kn[n--p]sons em95t alike = s\nd wisdom & discretion1 & = a quiet & uno/5tati\s1 b s9c]e & f]v5t piety4 ,i _c conclude ?is lett] )\t rem>k+1 t all y\r conv]sations ) me1 s9ce y adopt$ y\r pres5t views1 h conv9c$ me m & m t my own religi\s op9ions are s\nd & y\rs errone\s2 & t e day's exp]i5ce confirms & /r5g!ns me 9 ! conviction1 t ! religi\s sy/em :i* y\r fri5ds at ,nor?ampton are pursu+ 7:atev] *>m x may h = en?usia/ic m9ds7 is n ! religion ( ! ,bible4 ,?is is f ! grumbl] quot$ above1 z may be se5 by ! /yle & s5tim5t4 ,our fri5d ! doctor calls him to task 9 ?is mann]3-- 4444 ,y are endeav\r+ to make up = pa/ defici5cies1 or to atone = pa/ errors1 by r5ew$ activity or r extraord9>y ef=ts4 ,?is y d 9 p]fect s9c]ity2 &1 ,i believe1 he>tily4 ,9 consequ5ce1 in/ead ( "o s]mon on a ,sunday !re are two2 in/ead ( a qu>t]ly !re is a mon?ly sacram5t2 &1 9 addition1 an ev5+ lecture1 ) pray]s1 is pron\nc$ e ,w$nesday ev5+4 ,n[1 suppos+ y _h n tak5 ?is unfav\rable op9ion ( y\r pa/ feel+s & views1 w\ld y h adopt$ su* regulations8 ,i ?9k y w\ld n2 & yet1 be x obs]v$1 ! necessity = !m 0 & is a matt] totally irrelevant to y\r own private feel+s4 ,! re/ ( ?is lett]1 ! doctor's second1 is to sob] d[n ,mr4 ,sp5c]'s f]v\r1 & make him g on quietly1 hop+ ?us to slack5 8 en?usiasm & br+ him to 8 =m] frame ( m9d4 ,x is sad to see a cl]gyman call$ to task = n be+ m worldly & less zeal\s4 ,he is1 9 fact1 too mu* l a ,ca?olic ,sa9t to be endur$ 9 ! ,e/abli%m5t4 #ada ,he mu/ ev5tually ab&on x1 or be /on$ to dea? ) h>d words 9 x4 ,we see ! *9k n[ ?r\gh :i* ! fir/ alt]native gleam$ on ! ,bi%op2 & we see ! disposition ( ,provid5ce 9 mov+ him to conf9e himself to ! ,bible1 :5 "s plausible ,anglican "w might h burni%$ up :at he _h ( ,ca?olic in/9ct1 & made x seem gold4 #adb ,,*apt] ,,vii4 ,progress ,( ,8 ,religi\s ,views4 ,x mu/ n be suppos$ t ,mr4 ,sp5c] broke away f ! ,e/abli%m5t by ! religi\s notions he took up at ?is "t2 on ! contr>y1 8 great hope is t he %all unite all ! sects to h]1 & he fancies !y are be+ realiz$ n[ among ! ,me?odi/s 9 8 own p>i%4 ,8 c>d9al po9t ( op9ion at ?is "t 01 t ! articles & =mul>ies ( ! ,anglican ,*ur* requir$ "s k9d ( s\l to put life into !m & make !m t\* ! he>t2 t ?is life _h be5 all[$ to eke out ( ! ,*ur* 9 ! days bygone1 & t x 0 high "t to br+ x back2 ! word+ ( ! ,*ur*'s text-books gave room = 8 int]pretation1 & 8 :ole l9e ( proc$ure 0 b act+ ^u x4 ,o!rs int]pret$ diff]5tly1 "s did n int]pret at all2 ) bo? classes ( oppon5ts he ma9ta9$ an opposition s satisfactory to himself t 8 notions only ga9$ a /rong] hold ( 8 m9d e day4 ,we %all give "s specim5s ( ! argum5ts urg$ aga9/ him by ! second class ( oppon5ts1 :o 7 *iefly influ5tial memb]s ( 8 own family4 ,"o writes1--8 fa!r3-- ,i w commission ,appley>d to get ! ,hebrew gramm> y m5tion & s5d x d[n1 & ,i am v glad to he> t y int5d to revive t /udy1 :i* mu/ be s useful to a cl]gyman1 & :i* w ,i hope be an advantage to y\r m9d by v>y+ ! objects to :i* y apply x1 & by t means t5d to relieve x f ! effects ( too int5se an application to ! m difficult & ab/ruse po9ts ( religi\s /udy2 :i*1 if n "u ! corrective guidance ( great] le>n+ & exp]i5ce ?an x is possible = y yet to h1 might lead into ! #adc wildness ( en?usiasm1 in/ead ( ! s5sible & s\nd doctr9e :i* x becomes an or?odox m9i/] ( an ,e/abli%$ ,*ur* to hold = himself & to prea* to o!rs4 ,ano!r1--8 "m3-- ,inf9ite p]il att5ds ! sett+ our duties & religi\s notions 9 too au/]e a po9t ( view1 & seem+ my/ic & obscure modes ( spee* :5 describ+ religi\s s5tim5ts2 & disp>ag+ e ef=t to d "r except x tallies exactly ) "s indescribable rule ( fai? :i* _c be compreh5d$ by simple-m9d$ & quiet-temp]$ piety1 is ( all ?+s ! mo/ dang]\s1 s9ce ! risk is dreadful ei!r ( disgu/+1 or repell+1 or al>m+ into despair4 ,no?+ proves ! p]fect ignorance ( human "* & ! art ( p]suasion ?an ?is process4 ,x nev] c d to t]rify into do+ "r1--/ubbornness & hopelessness mu/ ev] be ! consequ5ce ( su* ill-judg$ zeal2 & to ! prea*] un*>itabl5ess & spiritual pride4 ,milton's beautiful m$itation ( our ,savi\r1 9 ',p>adise ,rega9$1' has two l9es :i* exactly fill my idea ( :at ought to be ! mode ( do+ good by precept3-- ,by w9n+ words to conqu] will+ he>ts1 ,& make p]suasion d ! "w ( fe>4 4444 ,d n p]mit y\rself to judge un*>itably ( ! motives ( o!rs because _! religi\s s5tim5ts are n always float+ on ! surface ( _! words & actions4 ,! remon/rances desc5d 9 a graduat$ scale f ^! elegant rem>ks1 ?r\gh lett]s f old s*oolfell[s 9 an (f-h& /yle2 frisky "y matrons twit him 9 a v airy k9d ( argum5t1 & all seems to w9d up 9 a fl\ri% f a "y (fic]1 ,h[ dy'e d1 my de> old p>son2 ev] 9 ! dumps1 eh8 ,! long visit to ,london is at l5g? br\ght ab\t4 ,he writes 9 ! j\rnal3--,april #ac1 #ahbf4 ,at #i set (f = ,london4 ,i leave ,al?orp = a long] p]iod ?an ,i h s9ce tak+ ord]s4 ,may ,god make x a pr(itable excursion6 ,?is visit 0 plann$ by ! family & #add ,dr4 ,blomfield1 :5 !y saw lett]s 7 unavail+1 9 ord] t ,sp5c] might be br\ght1 by conv]s+ ) 8 old ma/]1 into tam] notions on religion4 ,he accord+ly d9es & speaks ) ! ,bi%op & "s cl]ical fri5ds1 b ! result 0 ?is note 9 ! j\rnal3--,i feel myself 9 ?is great t[n l ,/4 ,paul 9 ,a!ns4 ,n "o l-m9d$ man c ,i n[ ?9k ( to :om ,i c resort4 ,b ,god %all raise me "s4 ,! next ,sunday aft] 8 arrival 9 ,london he is ask$ by ,dr4 ,blomfield to prea* 9 ,/4 ,botolph's ,*ur*1 ,bi%opsgate /reet4 ,?is s]mon 0 to be a k9d ( pr(ession ( 8 fai?4 ,8 own comm5t>ies on x are ?us3 ,i _h ! wond]ful glory ( prea*+ a full & free gospel disc\rse 9 ! aft]noon to a ,london congregation1 & ,god gave me p]fect composure & boldness2 & al?\gh he lik$ n ! doctr9e1 ! ,bi%op 0 p]fectly k9d to me aft]w>ds4 ,! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,h>vey1 ,rector ( ,hornsey1 says1 9 a lett] he _h ! k9dness to write to "o ( our fa!rs3 ,my fir/ acqua9tance ) ,mr4 ,sp5c] 0 ab\t #ahbd or #ahbe1 :5 ,i 0 curate ( ,/4 ,botolph's1 ,bi%opsgate1 ( :i* ,ar*deacon ,blomfield1 aft]w>ds ,bi%op ( ,london1 0 rector4 ,mr4 ,sp5c] _h be5 a pupil ( ! ,bi%op's1 & 0 always reg>d$ by him ) great int]e/4 ,he g5]ally came to him to /ay = a few days 9 ! spr+1 & us$ !n to come & see me1 & accompany me 9 my pa/oral visits4 ,he 0 a p]son ( a mo/ t5d] & lov+ _s1 v di/ru/ful ( himself1 & v anxi\s to arrive at tru?4 ,on "o occasion ,i rememb] 8 prea*+ on a ,sunday aft]noon at ,/4 ,botolph's1 :5 ,dr4 ,blomfield1 !n ,bi%op ( ,*e/]1 read pray]s4 ,to ! surprise ( e "o he took ! opportunity ( expla9+ 8 p>ticul> views ( religion1 :i* 7 !n decid$ly evangelical1 intimat+ to ! congregation t !y 7 n accu/om$ g5]ally to h ! ,gospel fully & fai?fully prea*$4 ,! ,bi%op ( c\rse 0 pa9$1 b m]ely said1 ',george1 h[ c\ld y prea* su* a s]mon z t8 ,9 future ,i mu/ look ov] y\r s]mon be=e y g into ! pulpit4' ,i d n v\* = ! details1 b ?is is :at #ade ,i recollect z f> z my memory helps me at ?is di/ance ( "t4 ,mr4 ,sp5c] w5t to he> o!rs prea*1 & =ms 8 op9ions ( ea* accord+ to 8 way ( ?9k+4 ,"h are "s specim5s3-- ,! ,bi%op ( ,bri/ol prea*$ 9 ! morn+ = ! s*ools1 a s]mon wor?y ( ,plato r ?an ,/4 ,paul4 ,ano!r day3 ,w5t ) all spe$ to ,crav5 ,*apel1 :]e ,i he>d ,irv+1 ! ,scot* m9i/]1 prea* ne>ly two h\rs4 ,i 0 greatly delight$ at 8 eloqu5ce & /\t ,*ri/ian doctr9e1 ?\gh 8 mann] is mo/ blameably extravagant4 ,ano!r day3 ,i w5t ) ,mr4 ,a---- & ,miss ,b---- to he> ,mrs4 ,fry p]=m1 & 0 delight$ ) h] exp\nd+ to ! prison]s 9 ,newgate4 ,he seems to advance m & m 9 8 own religi\s views2 & he says 8 fa!r 0 wret*$ ab\t !m4 ,he gets an opportunity ( prea*+ 9 ! ,we/ ,end ( ,london1 & writes !reupon3 ,o my ,god1 ,i h te/ifi$ ?y tru? to ea/ & we/ 9 ?is horrid ,babylon4 ,he soon aft] returns home1 & is s f> improv$ t he det]m9es to prea* extempore = ! future2 9 ?is he succe$s v well4 ,:at l$ him to ?is resolve 0 ! facility ) :i* he c\ld ma9ta9 a conv]sation on religi\s topics = any l5g? ( "t1 & ! rational supposition t he might d ! same1 z well 9 ! pulpit z 9 ! p>l\r4 ,a lett] to ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,h>vey1 :i* is ! only "o t we h come across ( ^? writt5 by him at ?is "t1 gives a fair idea ( ! /ate ( 8 m9d3 x 0 writt5 on 8 return to ,al?orp aft] ?is ,london visit4 ,augu/ #c1 #ahbf4 ,my ,de> ,h>vey1--,bi%op ,heb]'s s]mon ,i ?9k beautiful4 ,i am also pleas$ ) all t has come ( late f ,bi%op ,sumn]4 ,8 apo/olic prea*+ does n fully satisfy me1 & ,i h little d\bt1 f 8 writ+s1 t he w\ld n consid] x z exactly repres5t+ 8 pres5t views4 4444 ,x mu/ be admitt$ t ,/4 ,paul's s9s be=e 8 conv]sion are n s he9\s z #adf ^? ( _m :o h n ignorance & unbelief to plead 9 _! fav\r4 4444 ,) reg>d to ! "q :e!r we be "u guilt & et]nal wra?1 or 9 ! fav\r ( ,god & on ! way ( life1 x seems to me highly dang]\s to look to any di/9ction b ?is pla9 "o1 ',he t ha? ! ,son ha? life2 & he t ha? n ! ,son ( ,god ha? n life4' 4444 ,hav+ ?us v5tur$ an op9ion to y1 ,i w g on to say t ,i wi% ,i c\ld h "s conv]sation ) y at l>ge on ^! matt]s4 ,i d n wi% to introduce discussions on ^! po9ts ) my bre?r51 except :5 ,i am l$ to x by circum/ances1 & !re=e ,i nev] ent]$ on ! subject ) y dur+ my /ay 9 ,london4 ,i h sometimes blam$ myself = x1 because y seem$ to me to be s c&id & unprejudic$ t ,i might h done s )\t any risk ( displeasure4 ,i n[ tell y t ,i 0 mu* pleas$ always ) ! _s ( y\r s]mons & ) all y\r feel+s1 z f> z ,i c\ld judge ( !m f conv]sation2 b ,i c\ld pla9ly p]ceive t y\r views ( fundam5tal doctr9es 7 n :at1 ,i am conv9c$1 are ! "r ones accord+ to ! ,^w ( ,god & ! ,articles ( our ,*ur*4 ,! ,bi%op w\ld h told y1 ,i suppose1 t he & ,i 7 at v>iance on ^! po9ts1 ?\gh 9 mutual reg>d & atta*m5t ,i humbly tru/ we nev] be=e 7 s ne>ly unit$4 ,inde$1 ,i nev] _h an argum5t ) him :i* did n leave me 9 admiration ( 8 g5u9e meekness & *>ity4 4444 ,i reckon him v ne>ly "r1 & ,i am sure t he has real humility & an inquir+ _s2 & s ,i firmly tru/ t1 by ,god's bless+1 he w be l$ to ackn[l$ge ! :ole tru?1 & t v %ortly4 4444 ,all t ,i v5ture to say is t he has n1 to my m9d1 yet tak5 ! "r view ( ! plan ( ,r$emption4 ,b ,i am s conv9c$ ( 8 be+ on ! "r way to x1 t ,i c\ld almo/ engage to ackn[l$ge my own views wrong 7?\gh ,i h n a s+le d\bt ( !m n[71 if1 be=e 8 dep>ture1 :i* ,god s5d may be di/ant1 he does n decl>e 8 ass5t to !m4 ,i believe t y are j ( ! same m9d on ^! ?+s1 z ,i 0 myself a ye> or two ago4 #adg ,y probably "k t my pres5t views are ( comp>atively rec5t date ) me4 ,!y are1 9 fact1 :at ,i h at la/ settl$ into1 aft] two or ?ree ye>s ( extreme d\bts & oscillations & scrupulosities4 ,i ?ank ,god t f all ^! ,he has deliv]$ me1 except ! tr\ble & annoyance ( my own evil he>t1 f :i*1 h[ev]1 ,i d n expect complete fre$om1 :ile 9 ?is tab]nacle4 ,z to writ]s on ! subject1 ,i h none1 besides ! =mul>ies ( our ,*ur*1 ^: doctr9es & pr9ciples ,i l bett] ?an ,?omas ,scott's4 ,!re are "s po9ts ( discipl9e1 h[ev]1 9 :i* ,i d n g along ) him4 ,b ,i n[ atta* myself mo/ exclusively to ! ,^w ( ,god & pray]1 z ! me?od ( increas+ 9 k1 & feel delight$ 9 ! fre$om :i* ,i h ga9$ f ! v>iety ( op9ions ( le>n$ m51 :i* us$ to p]plex me s griev\sly4 ,?is is :at he look$ ^u z be+ 9 ! ,gospel fre$om1 t he 0 free f doctors2 & x is a fre$om4 ,if ,anglican doctors 71 l our !ologians1 all ( a m9d 9 doctr9e1 ) a c]ta9 m>g9 = div]sity ( op9ion 9 ?+s ( m9or consequ5ce1 or 9 ! way ( cle>+ up a difficulty1 x might be borne2 b :5 "o has !ologians = guides :o agree ab\t z mu* z "o liv+ cl]gyman agrees ) ano!r1 x is surely a fre$om to be deliv]$ f a yoke t presses on s _m sides1 & =ces s _m ways at once4 #adh ,,*apt] ,,viii4 ,"s ,( ,! ,practical ,effects ,( ,8 ,views4 ,x is high "t t we %\ld turn f ! ab/ract consid]ation ( ,mr4 ,sp5c]'s views1 & te/ _! effici5cy by ! great /&>d ( good & evil--facts4 ,! facts1 be>+ ^u our subject1 :i* ! ,j\rnal gives up to ?is p]iod ( 8 life1 ! close ( #ahbf1 & beg9n+ ( ! next ye>1 may be summ$ up 9 few words4 ,"o old woman 0 ! only "o ( :om he c\ld say1 %e seems fully e/abli%$ 9 religion2 & x is rem>kable t ?is v p]son1 ,mrs4 ,wykes1 became a ,ca?olic lat] on4 ,all ! re/ 7 9 diff]5t /ages ( f]m5tation2 "s hopeful1 "s promis+1 "s rip5+ unto light1 & s =?3 !y rip5 m & m accord+ to ! numb] ( 8 visits2 b if x %\ld happ5 t !y did n ne$ mat]ial help f him1 !y v soon got back to _! old way aga91 & poor ,mr4 ,sp5c] us$ to return1 aft] 8 day's apo/le%ip1 mu* humiliat$ at 8 want ( success4 ,9 fact1 8 mission>y "w 0 a p]fect repres5tation ( ,prote/ant missions to ! hea!n4 ,he di/ribut$ ,bibles & blankets1 pray]-books & porridge1 & ?ree ( 8 be/ & mo/ hopeful proselytes w5t mad1 & 7 s5t to ! c\nty lunatic asylum4 ,( himself1 he tells u t he us$ to sp5d f two to ?ree h\rs daily 9 godly contemplation4 ,( ?is he began to get tir$ aft] "s "t1 & gives ! foll[+ extraord9>y notions ( 8 int]ior /ate3-- ,sep4 #b4 ,i 0 employ$ *iefly 9 read+ ,gr4 ,te/am5t2 b ,i f9d myself v f> yet f t /ate ( real activity ( m9d :i* ,i ought to ga94 ,i wi% = su* exp]i5ce 9 ,*ri/ z n to ne$ spiritual ex]cises z con/antly z ,i n[ d to keep up communion ) ,god1 & s h m "t = active lab\r4 #adi ,sep4 #ab4 ,i w5t to ,nobottle at #ab & return$ at #c4 ,i call$ 9 e h\se except ,*apman's1 &1 alas6 ,i f\nd n "o s\l ov] :om ,i c\ld rejoice z a true *ild ( ,god4 ,yet !re are signs ( hope 9 a few4 ,:at an awful sc5e x w\ld be if ,i _h eyes to see x1 or h[ great is my deliv]ance1 :o1 ?\gh n less des]v+ p]dition ?an any1 am yet plant$ 9 ! ,h\se ( ,god1 & rejoice ?r\gh ,*ri/ 9 ! hope ( ,8 glory4 ,he beg9s ! new ye>1 #ahbg1 ) ! foll[+3-- ,i h f\nd my m9d s f> f settl$ t ,i nev] saw myself m 9 ne$ ( ,god's grace4 ,b ,i %all f9d x4 ,/range prophecy2 he 0 det]m9$ nev] to re/ cont5t until he c\ld feel "r ) reg>d to ,god & 8 salvation1 & x is ne$less to say t he 0 f> f ?is1 not)/&+ 8 great ,calv9i/ic assurance4 ,e new ,diss5t+ m9i/] t comes into 8 p>i%1 he makes x 8 bus9ess to call ^u & see if !y c\ld n unite _! respective flocks1 ev5 by compromis+ diff]5ces4 ,he sometimes comes home flu%$ ) hope1 & !n1 :5 he tries to p]suade 8 fell[-cl]gym5 ( ! ,e/abli%m5t to make advances to ,me?odi/s or ,bapti/s1 _! coldness br+s 8 hopes to n\ght4 ,no?+ di%e>t5$1 he comes to ! *>ge aga91 & is buoy$ up1 ! :ole "t1 by ! hope ( "o day or o!r see+ 8 belov$ p 9 "o fold1 "u ! c>e ( "o %eph]d4 ,he removes 9 ! middle ( ?is ye> to ! h\se he built = himself at ,great ,br+ton1 & he le>ns ! pleasures ( h\sekeep+ 9 a few weeks by ! difficulties he enc\nt]s 9 ! managem5t ( s]vants4 ,! re/ ( ! ye>1 until t[>ds ,octob]1 goes on r calmly2 no incid5t ( importance occurs except ! prea*+ ( 8 ,visitation ,s]mon4 ,! ,bi%op ( ,pet]bor\gh1 ,dr4 ,m>%1 comes to make 8 diocesan visitation 9 ,nor?ampton1 & ! ,honble4 & ,rev4 ,mr4 ,sp5c] is ask$ to prea* be=e him4 ,he does s v n]v\sly1 & al?\gh he introduces "o passage into t s]mon indicative ( 8 peculi> views1 ! ,bi%op 0 s pleas$ ) x1 #aej t he ord]$ him to pr9t x4 ,x 0 pr9t$ accord+ly1 & ,mr4 ,sp5c] s5t copies to all ! fri5ds he c\ld rememb]2 he ev5 s5t "s across ! ,atlantic to old s*oolfell[s4 ,betwe5 ?anks = ! reception ( ?is fav\r1 & mutual ackn[l$gm5ts ( e/eem & reg>d1 ) complim5ts & returns ( ! same1 an int]val is giv5 him to prep>e = ano!r /orm on ! score ( 8 op9ions4 ,! second volume ( 8 di>y concludes ) "s di/ress+ discussions & family animadv]sions on 8 ways ( ?9k+4 ,x s\nds r /range 9 ,ca?olic e>s t lay p %\ld deem !mselves qualifi$ to lecture a cl]gyman on :at he ought to believe & tea*2 x ought n1 if he rememb]s t we are speak+ ( a l& ( private judgm5t1 :]e e "o is qualifi$ to ?9k & dictate to 8 neighb\r4 ,! fri5ds take _! argum5ts n[ f a diff]5t po9t4 ,mr4 ,sp5c] _h built 8 new rectory & gone to live !re2 ! ar*itect _h done 8 "p s well1 t he w\ld sometimes come (f ! coa*1 :5 pass+ ne> ,br+ton1 s t he might h ano!r look at ?is specim5 ( mat]ial com=t4 ,x 0 furni%$1 too1 9 a befitt+ /yle1 = ,george w5t ev5 to ,london1 & took c\nsel ) 8 "m & o!rs on :at ?+s 7 prop] & be/ suit$ = a p>sonage4 ,! be/ uphol/]]s 7 made to contribute f _! /ock ( cupbo>ds1 b$s1 mattresses1 *airs1 & tables1 & :5 ! van arriv$ at ,br+ton1 !re 7 sev]al connoisseur female relatives invit$ to give _! op9ions on ! col\r+ & pap]+ ( ! rooms1 ! hang+ & folds ( ! w9d[ curta9s1 & ! patt]ns ( ! c>pets4 ,all 0 f9ally arrang$ to ! satisfaction ( all p>ties1 & only "o ?+ 0 want+1--! p>tn] ( 8 joys1 or tr\bles1 z !y w\ld be n[1 poor man4 ,bright ideas /ruck 8 fri5ds ab\t ?is "t4 ,x 0 ?\ght1 9 v high & intellectual circles1 t if ! "y rector ( ,br+ton 7 m>ri$1 he w\ld settle d[n quietly 9 ! snug p>sonage1 & make metaphysical ideas give way to ! realities ( life4 ,?is !y conclud$ 0 ! %ort road to 8 settlem5t1 & he himself us$ #aea (t5 to tell h[ long argum5ts on religi\s views (t5 end$ )1 ,well1 ,george1 get y\rself a wife1 & settle d[n l y\r neighb\rs1 & all ^! dreams w vani%4 ,to _! surprise1 h[ev]1 !y f\nd ! "y rector z difficult ( p]suasion 9 ?is po9t z 9 8 o!r notions2 b exp]i5ce gave !m ! advantage ov] him "h1 & !y 7 det]m9$ n to be foil$4 ,! want ( a h\se to br+ ! bride to1 0 ?\ght to be ! sole objection h]et(ore1 & p]haps x 02 t 0 n[ remov$4 ,sugge/ions to t effect rea* him 9 lett]s f 8 fri5ds ab\t ?is "t4 ,! foll[+ is a specim53-- ,x is probable t ,i %all return to ,br+ton = ! w9t]4 ,if ,n 999999 or ,n 999999 succe$s 9 a matrimonial alliance on y\r acc\nt1 ,i hope y w spe$ily let me "k2 p]haps an ins9uat+ adv]tisem5t 9 ! ,morn+ ,po/ might be useful to y4 ,jok+ ap>t1 ,i %all be mo/ happy :5 ! "t comes = wi%+ y joy4 ,ins9uations & argum5ts did n avail1 s !y _h rec\rse to /ratagem4 ,"o w\ld n l to suspect t ! ,bi%op ( ,*e/] 0 let into ! secret1 ?\gh he ought to be a capital h& at su* ?+s1 z he _h ! hym5eal knot twice ti$ ^u himself4 ,h[ev] t may be1 ! plot 0 laid1 hat*$1 & ! eggs brok5 z foll[s3--,t[>ds ! end ( ,octob]1 #ahbg1 he accompani$ ,dr4 ,blomfield on a visitation ?r\gh ! diocese ( ,*e/]4 ,he 0 tak5 a little out ( 8 way 9 ord] to prea* 9 a *ur* ne> ,w>r+ton4 ,! rector ( ?is place ask$ him specially2--:at 0 8 surprise to f9d 8 old flame1 ,miss ,a 9999991 z m5tion$ 9 a =m] *apt]1 !re ready prep>$ to be "o ( 8 li/5]s4 ,he walk$ ) h] to *ur*1 & 0 delight$ ) h] company2 he us$ to say he nev] prea*$1 :il/ a m9i/]1 ) great] satisfaction ?an on t day4 ,com+ home f *ur* he _h to he> out complim5ts ab\t 8 prea*+1 & he sp5t ! ev5+ ) a cl]ical p>ty--"o 0 a cl]gyman :o 0 ab\t be+ m>ri$ to ! si/] ( ,mr4 ,sp5c]'s fav\rite4 ,x 0 ?\ght ev]y?+ w\ld come r\nd !n1 & t "s k9d ( arrangem5t w\ld be made = ! future2 b ,mr4 ,sp5c]1 ?\gh pleas$1 #aeb 0 n anywise romantic1 nor apt to put 8 head into a halt] f :i* x w\ld n be s easy to draw x back4 ,x 0 well1 h[ev]1 t he 0 pleas$1 & he ev9ces z mu* himself 9 8 ,j\rnal1 :5 he says3 ,sunday1 ,oct4 #ba4 ,i beg9 ?is volume ) "o ( ! mo/ int]e/+ ,sundays ,i h ev] sp5t4 ,aft] breakfa/ ) ,mr4 999999's family1 we w5t to *ur* ab\t half a mile f ! h\se1 :]e ,i prea*$ ! fir/ s]mon :i* x has be5 giv5 me to prea* 9 ?is diocese2 & ,i am pleas$ t x %\ld be 9 ?is *ur* & be=e ,n 999999 ,n 999999 among o!r he>]s1 ) :om ,i n[ conv]se z pleas+ly z 9 =m] times1 b on high] subjects4 ,) h] & h] si/] ,i walk$ home1 & aga9 to ev5+ s]vice1 :]e ,i read pray]s & ,mr4 999999 prea*$4 ,b ?is argum5t met ! fate ( all t _h be5 sp5t on him = ! la/ ?ree ye>s4 ,x seem$ all settl$ z f> z he 0 conc]n$2 = !re 0 no d\bt on ! o!r side4 ,he got into 8 c>riage to drive up to ,al?orp1 & ask 8 fa!r's cons5t4 ,:5 ne> ! door1 he call$ to ! driv] to /op1 & turn to ! rectory4 ,he _h j =m$ ! resolution nev] to m>ry4 ,x 0 n t he did n l ! int5d$ p>tn]1 x 0 an affair ( long /&+2 b he rememb]$ ! words ( ,/4 ,paul3 ,he t is unm>ri$ c>e? = ! ?+s t belong to ! ,"l1 h[ he may please ! ,"l3 ,b he t is m>ri$ c>e? = ! ?+s t are ( ! _w1 h[ he may please 8 wife 7#a ,cor4 vii4 #cb1 #cc1 ,prot4 v]sion74 ,no "o 0 ev] able to %ake ?is resolution1 & ! repeat$ attempts ( o!rs to d s only /r5g!n$ x ! m4 ,he (t5 relat$ ?is incid5t to u1 & :5 ask$1 if he !n ?\ght ( ! ,ca?olic prie/s1 ,oh1 ,i might1 b ,i ?\ght x 0 "s sup]/iti\s motive t made !m live s+le2 ,i ?\ght ,i made a new discov]y myself2 he w\ld reply4 ,a *ange takes places n[ 9 8 f9ances4 ,he 0 ,always extremely *>itable1 & 8 h\sekeep] tells ( 8 equipm5t1 :5 go+ out to make 8 p>i% r\nds1 ( a morn+4 ,he w\ld c>ry a bottle ( w9e 9 8 coat pocket1 & z mu* money z he c\ld possibly sp>e4 #aec ,^! he di/ribut$ among ! sick & ! poor4 ,he us$ also to buy !m m$ic9es1 & procure !m clo!s4 ,( c\rse x 0 f\nd soon t a v l>ge income w\ld n suffice = ! lib]ality ( ! son1 s ,"l ,sp5c] came to an arrangem5t ) him4 ,he all[$ him a lib]al ye>ly income2 b ,george feels x r h>d1 & compla9s ( 8 /rait5$ means 9 two or ?ree places ( 8 ,j\rnal4 ,h[ev]1 he set to make ! be/ ( x1 & began by retr5*m5t f 8 own table4 ,by way ( retr5*m5t1 ,i h left (f w9e & pudd+s or t>ts1 & ,i h r$uc$ my quantity ( clean l95 to we>4 ,ev] himself1 :at he sp>$ f 8 own table he br\ght to ! poor4 ,we %all transcribe ! simple acc\nt ( ?is p]iod ( 8 life giv5 u by ,mrs4 ,wykes1 :o knew him f a *ild4 ,8 great *>ity to ! poor & w&]+ begg>s 0 unb\nd$4 ,at times he gave !m all ! money he _h1 & /ripp$ himself ( 8 clo!s to give !m to ! di/ress$2 & :5 he _h no?+ to give1 he w\ld ?ank ,god he _h only ,8 holy tru? to imp>t1 & w\ld speak ( ! love ( ,god s f]v5tly1 t he w\ld call =? te>s f ! poor objects ( mis]y :o came _m miles to beg money or clo!s ( him4 ,_m impo/ors pres5t$ !mselves ) ! re/1 b ev5 ^? he ?ank$ ,god =1 & ?\ght no?+ ( reliev+ !m1 z he said he lo/ no?+ by !m1 b got a lesson ( humility4 ,"s poor afflict$ m5dicants w\ld pres5t !mselves ) loa?some sores1 & ^! he w\ld assi/ 9 dress+ & try to cure4 ,8 h\se 0 always op5 = ! di/ress$1 & he (t5 long$ to make an hospital ( x = ! poor4 ,he 0 all = ga9+ s\ls to ,god2 he w\ld (t5 walk to ,nor?ampton to visit ! lodg+-h\ses1 & mo/ infam\s d5s ( ! dissolute1 to speak to !m ( ,god's holy law & m]cy to s9n]s4 ,inde$ 8 :ole "t 0 devot$ to do+ good4 ,he did n (t5 all[ himself ! privilege ( rid+1 b w\ld walk to ,nor?ampton or fur!r1 c>ry+ 8 clo!s 9 a knapsack /rapp$ ov] 8 %\ld]s1 & w\ld smile at ! je]s & laughs aga9/ him1 glory+ 9 foll[+ out ! practice ( ! ,apo/les4 ,he fa/$ z well z he knew #aed h[1 mu* /rict] ?an :5 he became a ,ca?olic4 ,9 fact he all[$ no?+ to himself b pla9 liv+1 & will+ly grant$ bett] to o!rs4 ,he gave no tr\ble1 b 0 always ready to wait ^u o!rs1 & make !m happy & com=table4 ,he 0 always ready to he> compla9ts1 & turn ev]y?+ into ! goodness ( ,god4 ,he 0 inde$ ! fa!r ( ! poor1 & a peace-mak]1 ?\gh meet+ ) _m contradictions1 p>ticul>ly among ! ,diss5t]s4 ,he bore all ) pati5ce & *e]fulness1 & w5t on hop+ all w\ld end well 9 due "t4 ,! la/ effect we %all record 9 ?is *apt] is ano!r passage f 8 ,j\rnal3--,saturday1 ,nov4 #ag4 ,to-day ,i call$ on ,mr4 ,griffi?s1 ,indep5d5t m9i/] at ,long ,buckley1 ) :om ,i _h "o or two h\rs' conv]sation ( a v int]e/+ k9d4 ,i see cle>ly t all is n "r ) ! ,*ur*4 ,he means ! ,*ur* ( ,engl&1 ( c\rse4 #aee ,,*apt] ,,ix4 ,scruples ,ab\t ,! ,a?anasian ,cre$4 ,9 ! ,decemb] ( #ahbg ! old scruples1 t came into 8 head "s two ye>s be=e1 ab\t ! ,a?anasian ,cre$ reviv$4 ,p]haps x is bett] to give ! words ( ! ,j\rnal be=e go+ into p>ticul>s on ?is po9t4 ,he says-- ,tuesday1 ,dec4 #d4--4444 ,?ursby came to d9e & sleep "h4 ,we conv]s$ till ne>ly #ab1 almo/ incessantly1 ab\t 8 conc]ns fir/1 !n ab\t m9e4 ,i let him "k my ?\ghts ( resign+ my pref]m5t on acc\nt ( ! ,a?anasian ,cre$4 ,he 0 at fir/ v mu* displeas$ at !m1 b seem$ bett] satisfi$ z ,i expla9$ myself4 ,w$41 ,dec4 #e4--;,i came d[n aft] a wakeful night1 & mu* confirm$ 9 my resolution to take decid$ /eps ab\t decl>+ aga9/ ! ,a?anasian ,cre$4 ,?ursby seem$ to co9cide mu* m ne>ly ) my views4 ,we talk$ on ?is & o!r topics until #aa or #ab1 :5 he w5t away4 ,i w5t out 9 ,great ,br+ton till #b2 d9$2 !n ran to ,al?orp 4444 came back & wrote long lett]s to my fa!r & ! ,bi%op ( ,*e/]1 ab\t my int5d$ decl>ation1 & probable resignation ( my liv+4 ,i "h solemnly affirm t be=e la/ week ,i _h no sort ( idea ( tak+ ?is /ep4 ,i am n[ writ+ on ,friday1 fully det]m9$ ^u x4 ,! circum/ances :i* l$ me to ?is decision are3--#a/4 ,my _m conv]sations ( late1 & correspond5ce )1 diss5t+ m9i/]s1 by ^: words ,i h be5 l$ to d\bt ! p]fectness ( our ,e/abli%m5t4 #bndly4 ,my discussions & reflections ab\t retr5*m5ts1 lead+ me to consid] ! probability ( m pref]m5t1 & h[ ,i c\ld accept x4 #crdly4 ,! quantity ( ,*ur* pref]m5t :i* has be5 ( late #aef *ang+ h&s1 by :i* ,i h be5 l$ to ?9k h[ ,i %\ld answ] an (f] myself4 ,&1 #d?ly4 ,my ?\ghts ab\t sign+ ,baily's boy's te/imonial1 :i* has l$ me to reckon m highly on ! value ( my signature4 ,f ! lett]s ( ^? :o und]took ! sett+ ( ,mr4 ,sp5c]'s tr\bles at re/1 x appe>s t 8 difficulties ab\t ! ,a?anasian ,cre$ did n arise f ! doctr9es !re put =? ab\t ! ,bless$ ,tr9ity & ,inc>nation2 b t he object$ to ! t]m9ology z un-,scriptural1 & to ! condemn+ clauses 9 ! beg9n+ & end ( ! ,cre$4 ,dr4 ,blomfield is ! fir/ to reason ) him2 8 answ] to ! lett] above-m5tion$ is c\*$ 9 ! foll[+ t]ms3-- ,! lett] :i* ,i h j receiv$ f y a/oni%es & conf\nds me2 n t ,i ought to be surpris$ at any?+ /range :i* y may d1 aft] :at ,i h lately witness$ & he>d2 b ,i mu/ say1 9 pla9 t]ms1 t y\r lett] is ! lett] ( an insane p]son4 ,y pr(ess to be will+ to ask advice & he> reason+1 & yet y take ! mo/ decid$ /eps to w\nd ! feel+s ( y\r fri5ds & injure ! cause ( ! ,*ur*1 )\t giv+ ^? :om y pret5d to consult an opportunity ( satisfy+ y\r d\bts4 ,y suff] y\r fa!r to be ) y two days )\t giv+ him a h9t t y 7 m$itat+ a /ep incomp>ably ! mo/ important ( y\r life1 & mo/ involv+ 8 happ9ess2 & !n1 9 ! mid/ ( 8 security1 write him a lett]1 n to tell him t y are d\btful on c]ta9 po9ts & wi% to be advis$1 b t y\r m9d is made up & y are det]m9$ to act4 ,surely common s5se & filial duty ought to h sugge/$ ! propriety ( wait+ till y _h communicat$ ) me1 al?\gh ev5 to me y d n /ate :at y\r d\bts & difficulties are ) suffici5t precision to enable me to discuss !m2 b y write a long panegyric ^u y\r own s9c]ity & humility1 ( :i* ,i ent]ta9$ no d\bt1 & ?us1 aft] repeat$ conf]5ces ) ,diss5t+ m9i/]s & ,roman ,ca?olic prie/s1 f> m a/ute & subtle reason]s ?an y\rself1 y are work$ up into an utt] disapprobation ( "o ( ! articles ( our ,*ur*1 hav+ all along conceal$ y\r d\bts f y\r ne>e/ & de>e/ #aeg fri5ds1 & f me1 :o _h an especial claim to be made acqua9t$ ) !m4 ,is ?is s9c]e & judici\s conduct8 ,he proce$s to "s l5g?s 9 ?is /yle1 !n tells him t x is "o ?+ to d\bt ( ! tru? ( a doctr9e1 & ano!r ?+ to believe x to be false1 & t "o %\ld take no /ep ( importance until he ?\ght 9 ! latt] way4 ,he tells him to be quiet = "s "t1 & give him ! objections "o by "o4 ,?is ,mr4 ,sp5c] does1 & ! answ] is p>tly1 t giv5 9 ,dr4 ,blomfield's life1 page #he1 & p>tly1 ano!r lett] he wrote to him )9 a =tnight's "t4 ,! argum5t ( ?is good ecclesia/ic %apes itself ?us3-- ,! g5]al proposition ( exclud+ all f salvation :o d n believe ! doctr9e ( ! ,tr9ity & ,inc>nation1 z set =? 9 ! ,a?anasian ,cre$1 is laid d[n ) c]ta9 limitations4 ,! ,prote/ant ,*ur* does lay x d[n ?us1 z is evid5t f c]ta9 quotations f ! ,articles4 ,besides1 %e nev] int5ds to pron\nce a condemnation on any1 l ! ,*ur* ( ,rome4 ,! mean+1 !re=e1 ( ^! clauses is an ass]tion ( ! tru? ( ! doctr9e simply2 & = ?is he quotes ! op9ion ( "s commission$ int]pret]s & ! admission ( ! mo/ scrupul\s & capti\s ,baxt] t su* exposition may be receiv$4 ,?is is ! sum ( ,dr4 ,blomfield's argum5t2 he gives sev]al o!r au?orities = 8 op9ion4 ,we ne$ n be surpris$ t ! argum5t 0 n conv9c+2 & ,mr4 ,sp5c] says1 9 8 ,j\rnal3--,i _h a lett] f ! ,bi%op ( ,*e/] ?is morn+1 :i* 0 weak 9 argum5t & flippant2 ,i hope good may result f x4 ,! weakness ( ! ,bi%op's argum5t arises f ! dilemma 9 :i* he 0 plac$4 ,if he said ! ,anglican ,*ur* does really condemn all :o hold n h] doctr9es1 !n %e w\ld arrogate to h]self ! claim ( infallibility :i* %e takes good c>e to disclaim1 & ev5 makes an article to t effect4 ,if %e does n condemn1 :at is ! mean+ ( all[+ ! clauses to rema9 9 h] =mul>ies1 & require h] m9i/]s to subscribe1 read1 & prea* !m8 ,8 only l9e ( argum5t1 consid]+ 8 position1 0 to #aeh /e] a middle c\rse1 & ?is he endeav\r$ to d1 & succe$$ pretty well4 ,b %ift+ difficulties by try+ to reconcile contradictions1 is a process t may calm an easy-go+ m9d1 previ\sly dispos$ to indiff]5ce1 b nev] c satisfy a cle>1 e>ne/ "o1 t seeks ! tru? 9 all its t]rible reality & /raight=w>d mean+4 ,a ,*ur* compos$ ( a mass ( het]og5e\s elem5ts 9 doctr9e & practice1 mu/ be v h>d set inde$ :5 driv5 to give an acc\nt ( h]self4 ,! wond] is1 t %e _c see ! abs5ce ( a ,div9e guidance1 ev5 9 ! admissions %e is =c$ to make1 if n 9 ! v nature ( h] own human con/itution4 ,only a ,ca?olic c acc\nt = a cre$1 & if !re 0 n a body ( liv+ tea*]s ) ! promise ( ,div9e direction 9 _! =mal decisions & utt]ances1 ! ,*ur* t ,*ri/ e/abli%$ w\ld n exi/2 & only ,ca?olics c claim & prove ?is v h+e ( _! sy/em1 :i* pseudo-bi%ops h _! hits at :5 !y wri! "u ! pressure ( difficulties !y _c answ]4 ,! lett] ( ?is ,bi%op did n settle ,mr4 ,sp5c]'s m9d--x unsettl$ him ! m4 ,two or ?ree cl]gym5 7 invit$ to talk him back to ! old way1 b ) simil> success4 ,"l ,sp5c] !n gets "o ( ! ,london cl]gy to und]take ! task :i* foil$ s _m4 ,we give ! fa!r's lett] ( introduction1 z x is s *>act]i/ic ( 8 pat]nal affection & conc]n1 & at ! same "t 8 due consid]ation = 8 son's consci5ti\s difficulties4 ,! ,e>l 0 /ay+ 9 ,al?orp = a few days1 & left ?is lett] = ,george on 8 dep>ture3 ,y\r "m writes me ^w t ,mr4 ,all51 ( ,batt]sea1 w come & d9e ) h] to-morr[1 & rema9 "h ne>ly ! :ole week4 ,i am v happy at ?is1 because1 if y are s9c]e 7& ,i d n n[ mean to "q y\r s9c]ity7 9 wi%+ = in=mation1 in/ruction1 & advice1 ,i "k ( no man--ei!r high or l[1 cl]ical or secul>--m able to af=d !m to y1 m correct 9 8 doctr9es & "*1 or m affectionately dispos$ to be ( all ! s]vice he c to e "o connect$ ) #aei u1 & to y 9 p>ticul>4 ,b1 my de> ,george1 9 ord] to enable y\rself to d]ive all ! b5efit t may unque/ionably be d]iv$ f s]i\s & confid5tial communications on a mo/ important subject1 ) su* a man1 y mu/ be m explicit1 m op51 & m confid5tial ) him ?an1 ,i am griev$ to ?9k1 y h yet be51 ei!r ) y\r excell5t fri5d ! ,bi%op ( ,*e/]1 or ev5 ) me1 ?\gh ,i all[ t 9 ! conv]sations we h _h toge!r 9 ?is visit to y "h1 ,i saw r m disposition to frankness on y\r "p ?an ,i _h be=e exp]i5c$4 ,i %\ld n ?us argue ) y1 my de> ,george1 if ,i did n f my he>t1 z ,god is my judge1 firmly believe t y\r welf>e1 bo? temporal & et]nal1 z well z ! heal? bo? ( y\r body & m9d1 dep5d$ ^u y\r tak+ e possible means to foll[ a bett] c\rse ( ?9k+1 & ( /udy1 & ( occupation1 ?an y h hi!rto done s9ce y h ent]$ ! pr(ession = :i*1 z ,i fondly hop$1 & y seem$ fitt$ by incl9ation1 y w\ld h be5 9 due "t1 if well direct$ & well advis$1 =m$ to become z mu* an ornam5t to x z y\r bro!rs are1 ,god ,almighty be ?ank$ = x1 to ^? !y h ent]$ into4 ,i /ill v5ture to hope1 ?\gh n )\t trembl+1 b ,i d hope & w enc\rage myself 9 ! humble hope1 :i* %all be daily express$ to ! ,almighty 9 my pray]s1 t ,i may be p]mitt$1 be=e ,i g h5ce1 to witness bett] ?+s ( y2 & ,i ev5 ext5d my wi% t :5 ,i return hi!r on ,friday1 ,i may h ! satisfaction ( le>n+ t y\r int]views ) ,mr4 ,all51 :o ,i h no d\bt w be well prep>$ to he> & to discuss all y h to say1 h _h a salut>y effect2 & t our private dome/ic circle "h may be reliev$ f ! gloom :i*1 = "s "t pa/1 y mu/ h p]ceiv$ to ov]hang x :5 y made "p ( x1 & af=d u ^? bless+s ( home s com=table & almo/ necess>y to our advanc+ age4 ,i write all ?is1 because1 p]haps1 if ,i _h _h ! opportunity1 my spirits1 :i* are #afj always v s5sitive1 might prev5t me f speak+ x4 ,god bless y1 my de> ,george4 ,y\r ev] affectionate fa!r1 ,sp5c]4 ,! conf]5ces he held ) ?is ,mr4 ,all5 are fai?fully not$ 9 ! ,j\rnal1 & _m & long !y 74 ,to-day conv]s+1 to-morr[ read+ ,hay & ,wat]l& toge!r1 on ! ,a?anasian ,cre$4 ,he became no bett]1 b a good deal worse1 & ! f9ale 0 t he wrote to 8 own ,bi%op1 ,dr4 ,m>%1 ( ,pet]bor\gh1 to resign 8 liv+ or h 8 d\bts settl$4 ,?is 0 e>ly 9 ! ye> #ahbh4 ,?is ,bi%op answ]s him ?us3-- ,9 ref]5ce to ! d\bts :i* y express$ 9 a =m] lett]1 y say3 ',all t ,i 0 anxi\s ab\t 0 to avoid any j imputation ( di%one/y1 by keep+ an (fice & emolum5ts 9 ! ,e/abli%$ ,*ur*1 :ile ,i felt t ,i c\ld n he>tily ass5t to h] =mul>ies4' ,if ?is difficulty _h occurr$ to y :5 y 7 a c&idate = ,holy ,ord]s1 x w\ld c]ta9ly h be5 y\r duty1 ei!r to wait till y\r d\bts _h be5 remov$1 or1 if !y c\ld n be remov$1 to *oose "s o!r pr(ession or employm5t4 ,:oev] is p]suad$ t our ,liturgy & ,articles are n f\nd$ on ,holy ,scripture _c consci5ti\sly subscribe to ! latt]1 or decl>e 8 ass5t to ! =m]4 ,to ent]1 !re=e1 on a pr(ession :i* requires su* subscription & ass5t1 ) ! previ\s belief t su* ass5t is n w>rant$ by ,scripture1 is und\bt$ly a sacrifice ( pr9ciple made 9 ! expectation ( future advantage4 ,b y did n make su* a sacrifice ( pr9ciple4 444 ,:atev] d\bts y n[ ent]ta91 !y h be5 imbib$ s9ce y became ,rector ( ,br+ton2 & y are appreh5sive t x may be consid]$ z a m>k ( di%one/y1 if1 oppress$ ) ^! difficulties1 y reta9 y\r pref]m5t4 ,i "k n at pres5t ! k9d or ! ext5t ( ^! difficulties1 & !re=e c only reply 9 g5]al t]ms4 ,i h already /at$ my op9ion on ! impropriety ( #afa ent]+ ! ,*ur* ) ! previ\s belief t our ,liturgy & ,articles are n f\nd$ on ,scripture4 ,b if a cl]gyman :o believ$ t !y 7 s at ! "t ( 8 ord9ation1 & cont9u$ t belief till aft] he _h obta9$ pref]m5t 9 ! ,*ur*1 beg9s at "s future p]iod to ent]ta9 d\bts ab\t c]ta9 p>ts ei!r ( ! ,liturgy or ! ,articles1 we h a case :i* pres5ts a v diff]5t "q f t :i* 0 consid]$ 9 ! =m] p>agraph4 ,9 ! =m] case !re 0 a *oice ( pr(essions1 9 ! latt] case !re is n4 ,by ! laws ( ?is c\ntry a cl]gyman _c dive/ himself ( ! "* acquir$ by ! admission to ,holy ,ord]s4 ,he c hold no (fice 9 ! ,/ate :i* is inconsi/5t ) ! "* ( a cl]gyman4 ,to rel9qui% pref]m5t1 !re=e1 )\t be+ able to rel9qui% ! "* by :i* t pref]m5t 0 acquir$1 is q a diff]5t "q f t :i* relates to ! orig9al assumption ( t "*3 ,nor mu/ x be =gott5 t a cl]gyman may h a num]\s family altoge!r dep5d5t on ! income ( 8 b5efice1 :om he w\ld br+ !re=e to utt] ru9 if he resign$ x4 ,on ! o!r h&1 ,i d n ?9k t ev5 a cl]gyman s situat$ is at lib]ty to sub/itute 8 own doctr9e = t to :i* he objects4 ,by s do+ he w\ld directly impugn ! ,articles ( our ,*ur*1 he w\ld make himself liable to deprivation1 & w\ld ju/ly des]ve x4 ,= he w\ld violate a solemn contract1 & de/roy ! v t5ure by :i* he holds 8 pref]m5t4 ,b is !re no m$ium betwe5 an op5 attack on our ,liturgy & ,articles & ! ent]ta9+ ( d\bts on c]ta9 po9ts1 :i* a cl]gyman may communicate 9 confid5ce to a fri5d1 9 ! hope ( hav+ !m remov$8 ,if1 9 ! mean "t1 he is unwill+ to inculcate 9 ! pulpit doctr9es to :i* 8 d\bts apply1 he w at ! same "t consci5ti\sly ab/a9 f inculcat+ doctr9es ( an opposite t5d5cy4 ,n[1 if ,i mi/ake n1 ?is is precisely y\r case4 ,& happy %all ,i be if ,i c be in/rum5tal to ! removal ( ! d\bts :i* oppress y4 ,i am n[ at leisure2 ! engagem5ts :i* ,i _h at ,cambridge #afb respect+ my lectures are f9i%$2 y may n[ fully & freely unburd5 y\r m9d1 & ,i w give to all y\r difficulties ! be/ consid]ation 9 my p[]4 ,i am1 my de> ,sir1 ,v truly y\rs1 ,h]b]t ,pet]bor\gh4 ,?is lett] evok$ a /atem5t ( ! precise po9ts1 & ! foll[+ 0 ! answ]3-- 4444 ,i n[ v5ture to approa* ! difficulties "u :i* y lab\r1 & ,i w take !m f ! words y y\rself h us$ 9 y\r lett] ( ,april #cj4 ,9 t lett]1 speak+ ( ! ,*ur*1 y say1 ',i _c at ?is "t /ate any p>agraph 9 h] =mul>ies & ord9ances ) :i* ,i _c consci5ti\sly comply1 except ! ,a?anasian ,cre$4' ,y !n proce$ 9 ! foll[+ words3 '& n[ ,i mu/ g on to /ate :]e9 ,i diff] f ?is ,cre$3 n 9 ! p>ts :i* may be call$ doctr9al2 t is1 :]e ! doctr9e itself is /at$ & expla9$4' ,& y conclude by say+1 '! p>ts ( ! ,cre$ to :i* ,i object are ! condemn+ clauses4' ,& y object to ! clauses on ! gr\nds t !y are n w>rant$ by ! decl>ation ( our ,savi\r record$ 9 ,m>k xvi4 #af1 on :i* passage ^? clauses are g5]ally suppos$ to h be5 f\nd$4 ,:e!r !y are s w>rant$ or n dep5ds on ! ext5t ( _! application 9 ?is ,cre$1 :i* beg9s ) ! foll[+ words3--',:osoev] w be sav$1 be=e all ?+s1 x is necess>y t he hold ! ,ca?olic fai?1 :i* fai?1 except e "o d keep :ole & undefil$ 7entire & unviolat$1 ,ca?4 trans471 )\t d\bt he %all p]i% ev]la/+ly4 ,n[ ! ,ca?olic fai? is ?is1 t we wor%ip "o ,god 9 ,tr9ity1 & ,tr9ity 9 ,unity4' ,s f>1 !n1 x is evid5t t !y only are decl>$ to be exclud$ f salvation :o d n hold ! ,ca?olic fai?1 t is1 z ! t]m is !re explicitly def9$1 :o d n hold ! doctr9e ( ! ,tr9ity 9 ,unity4 ,n[ ?is doctr9e has be5 ma9ta9$1 ) v few exceptions1 by ,*ri/ians 9 g5]al f ! e>lie/ to ! pres5t age4 ,x 0 ! doctr9e ( ! ,greek ,*ur* #afc 444444 & all ! ,re=m$ *ur*es4 ,to exclude f salvation1 !re=e1 only ^? :o reject a doctr9e :i* is receiv$ by ,*ri/ians 9 g5]al1 is a v diff]5t ?+ f ! d5ial ( salvation to e "o :o does n believe 9 all ! t5ets ( a p>ticul> ,*ur*4 ,! doctr9e1 nulla salus nisi cr$as 9 ,tr9itatem1 be>s no resemblance to ! sweep+ decl>ation nulla salus extra ,ecclesiam ,romonam4 ,surely1 !n1 we may appeal to ,m>k xvi4 #af1 comb9$ ) ,mat!w xxviii4 #ai1 9 ord] to prove t a belief 9 ! ,tr9ity is necess>y to salvation1 & consequ5tly to prove t ^? two passages w>rant ! d$uction1 t !y :o reject ! doctr9e ( ! ,tr9ity w n be sav$4 ,! two passages mu/ be tak5 toge!r1 9 ord] to le>n ! :ole ( our ,savi\r's la/ comm& to 8 ,apo/les4 ,if1 !n1 our ,savi\r himself comm&$ 8 ,apo/les to baptize '9 ! "n ( ! ,fa!r1 & ( ! ,son1 & ( ! ,holy ,gho/1' & !n add$1 'he t believe? & is baptiz$ %all be sav$2 b he t believe? n %all be damn$2' x really does appe> t our ,savi\r himself has w>rant$ ! op9ion t a belief 9 ! doctr9e ( ! ,tr9ity is su* a fundam5tal article ( ! ,*ri/ian fai? t !y :o reject x d s at _! own p]il4 ,b y ?9k t ! ana!ma ( our ,savi\r 9 ,m>k xvi4 #af1 _h a diff]5t application f ! correspond+ ana!ma 9 ! ,a?anasian ,cre$4 ,our ,savi\r spoke ( ^? to :om ! ,gospel _h be5 prea*$1 z appe>s f ,m>k xvi4 #ae4 ,& if ! ana!ma 9 ! ,a?anasian ,cre$ _h a m ext5sive application1 or if x 7 meant to include n only ^? :o wilfully reject$ ! doctr9e ( ! ,tr9ity :5 x _h be5 duly expla9$ to !m1 b ^? also to :om ! doctr9e _h nev] be5 prea*$1 & ^: want ( belief arose m]ely f a want ( k1 ,i %\ld likewise admit t ! ana!ma ( ! ,a?anasian ,cre$ d]iv$ no au?ority f ,m>k xvi4 #af4 ,b ,i see no reason :atev] = ! op9ion t ! ana!ma ( ! ,a?anasian ,cre$ includes ^? :o h nev] he>d ( ! doctr9e4 ,nei!r ! ,cre$ itself1 nor ! circum/ances "u :i* x 0 #afd compos$1 w>rant su* an op9ion4 ,:oev] 0 ! au?or ( x1 ! ,cre$ 0 fram$ dur+ ! controv]sy :i* !n di/ract$ ! :ole ( ! ,*ri/ian ,*ur*4 ,x appli$1 !re=e1 imm$iately & exclusively to ^? :o 7 p>tak]s 9 or acqua9t$ ) ! controv]sy4 ,x c\ld n h be5 orig9ally int5d$ to apply to ^? :o _h nev] he>d ( ! controv]sy or ! doctr9e controv]t$4 ,x w\ld be1 !re=e1 q uncritical to apply x at pres5t 9 a way :i* 0 n orig9ally int5d$4 ,nor does ! language ( ! ,cre$ itself w>rant any o!r application4 ,:5 x is decl>$ necess>y to hold ! ,ca?olic fai?1 & to keep ! ,ca?olic fai?1 t necessity c apply only to ^? to :om ! ,ca?olic fai? has be5 pres5t$4 ,unless a man is previ\sly put 9 possession ( a ?+1 he _c be said ei!r to hold x or to keep x4 ,surely ! mo/ consci5ti\s cl]gyman :o believes 9 our ,savi\r's decl>ation1 record$ 9 ,m>k xvi4 #af1 may read )\t scruple ! simil> decl>ation 9 ! ,a?anasian ,cre$4 ,& if1 on ! au?ority ( our ,savi\r1 he may read ! ana!ma 9 ! beg9n+ ( ! ,cre$1 he may1 )\t scruple1 read ! less /rongly express$ ana!ma 9 ! end4 ,9 ! hope t1 aft] read+ ?is lett]1 y\r m9d w become at ease1 ,i subscribe myself1 de> ,sir1 ,v truly y\rs1 ,h]b]t ,pet]bor\gh4 ,?is lett] is a tol]able specim5 ( ! ,bi%op's p[] ( reason+1 & v %>p x is too2 b x does n exactly meet ,mr4 ,sp5c]'s difficulties4 ,he might object3--,:at passage ( ,scripture w>rants our unit+ toge!r ! two passages f ,/4 ,m>k & ,/4 ,mat!w8 ,& be+ pres5t$ ) a ?+ is n exactly ! same z be+ 9 possession ( a ?+4 ,we %\ld h ! same w>rant = ! rema9+ clauses ( ! ,cre$ z = ! fir/ ?ree1 o!rwise1 accord+ to ! ,articles1 we are n b\nd to receive !m2 !n :y n erase !m8' ,! ,bi%op w\ld h no res\rce "h1 except to fall back #afe ^u ! ,*ur*1 & t 0 n ! po9t at issue2 s p]haps he did well n to try4 ,he uses tradition1 & ,dr4 ,blomfield au?ority2 b ^! c\ld h no weight aga9/ a ,bible ,*ri/ian1 z ,mr4 ,sp5c] 0 !n4 ,a ,ca?olic c\ld v easily solve ! difficulty4 ,! ,*ur* has us$ ^! t]ms to express h] doctr9e1 & %e says ?is is ! reveal$ doctr9e2 !re=e x mu/ be4 ,no "o c be sav$ :o does n believe ! ,tr9ity & ,inc>nation1 implicitly or explicitly2 ^? to :om x has nev] be5 prop]ly propos$1 implicitly1 & ^? to :om x has1 explicitly4 ,"s !ologians w h explicit cr$5ce requir$ ( bo? classes1 & say t ,god w\ld ev5 s5d an angel to a savage1 if he plac$ no ob/acle1 & reveal ?is my/]y to him r ?an t he %\ld die )\t x4 ,& n[ x w seem v /range to say t ?is doctr9e is less t]rible ?an ! ,prote/ant op5-arm !ory4 ,yet1 s x is1 = we all[ _m ,soc9ians & ignorant ,prote/ants & o!rs to be 9 good fai?1 & p]haps nev] h _h ?is doctr9e prop]ly propos$ to !m4 ,we susp5d our judgm5ts ) reg>d to !m1 & say if !y live well !y may be sav$4 ,t is m ?an ! ,bi%op ( ,pet]bor\gh c\ld all[1 accord+ to 8 pr9ciples4 #aff ,,*apt] ,x4 ,incid5ts ,& ,/ate ,( ,m9d ,9 #ahbg-bh4 ,8 life1 ?\gh p]petually float+ on religi\s discussions & doctr9al scruples1 f\nd o!r matt]s to *eck its c\rse & employ x o!rwise = a few days m4 ,! family 7 all 9 a great gl[ ( delight t[>ds ! close ( ! ye> #ahbg1 9 consequ5ce ( ! ,hon\rable ,fr$]ick ,sp5c]1 :o 0 comm&] ( ! ,talbot man-(-w>1 hav+ di/+ui%$ himself at ! battle ( ,nav>9o4 ,george1 ( c\rse1 0 ov]joy$2 "h 0 8 bro!r1 :o por$ ov] ! same lesson1 play$ at ! same games1 & cont5d$ ab\t ! same trifles z himself1 cr[n$ ) laurels & 9 ! flu% ( victory4 ,george lov$ him de>ly1 & ^! well-e>n$ hon\rs imp>t$ a season ( sun%9e to ! cl]gyman1 :i* all 8 gospel f]v\r _h fail$ to d up to ?is4 ,"l ,sp5c] alludes to x 9 ! t\*+ lett] giv5 9 a =m] *apt]2 b l ev]y?+ human1 ?is rose _h its ?orns4 ,aft] ! lett]s ann\nc+ ! />tl+ det]m9ation :i* call$ =? ! ef=ts ( ecclesia/ical le>n+ quot$ 9 ! la/ *apt]1 a great dulness fell ov] ! family circle4 ,mr4 ,all5 did n cle> ! atmosph]e1 & ,mr4 ,sp5c] tells u feel+ly 9 8 ,j\rnal t 8 "m did n ex*ange "o cordial s5t5ce ) him dur+ ! :ole t]m ( h] ,*ri/mas /ay at ,al?orp4 ,?is he felt1 b bore 9 ! _s ( a m>tyr2 x 0 inflict$ ^u him = :at he ?\ght "r be=e ,god1 & he tri$ to make ! be/ ( x1 wi%+1 b unable1 to *ange ! aspect ( ?+s4 ,! ,bi%op ( ,pet]bor\gh's lett] _h ! effect ( quiet+ him = "s "t1 9 s f> z he did n feel himself call$ #afg ^u to prea* aga9/ :at he did n ass5t to1 b 0 cont5t ) lett+ x rema9 9 abeyance4 ,! old way ( settl+ him is aga9 reviv$4 ,dur+ ! la/ week ( ,febru>y1 #ahbh1 he notices ?ree or f\r long conv]sations ab\t matrimony2 he takes ! subject into consid]ation1 & reads ! ,epi/les to ,/4 ,timo?y = light3 b he is n conv9c$1 & cont9ues 9 8 det]m9ation4 ,he might =esee ! settlem5t ( ideas t w\ld result f ?is /ep1 if he consid]$ ! tr\ble ( sett+ 8 money affairs 9 ord]1 :i* =c$ itself ^u him n[4 ,he says3 ,i 0 employ$ almo/ all day till ?ree o'clock 9 putt+ my pap]s to rights4 ,i feel t ,i h be5 c>eless 9 all matt]s ( bus9ess1 & ?is is wrong2 = x leads me to be *>geable & dep5d5t on o!rs1 & t a m9i/] especially mu/ gu>d himself aga9/4 ,x greatly %ort5s my p[]s ( lib]ality1 & x makes m5 despise me4 ,on all ^! acc\nts ,i tru/ ,i %all ov]come ! evil1 & be a good man ( bus9ess4 ,he is z good z 8 ^w4 ,he s5ds a full & cle> acc\nt ( 8 affairs to 8 fa!r1 & 8 lord%ip makes an arrangem5t t places 8 son 9 indep5d5ce1 :il/ he is able at ! same "t to get cle> ( all difficulties & debts incurr$ by 8 build+4 ,to turn to 8 spiritual progress4 ,he is n a :it ne>] ,ca?olic fai? n[ ?an he 0 :5 he return$ f ,italy1 except t ! "t is %ort]4 ,on ,june #bi he says3 ,x 0 ,/4 ,pet]'s day1 & ,i prea*$ on ! pret5sions ( ! ,pope4 ,he also holde? a tea-p>ty 9 ! true ,evangelical /yle1 & says3 ,to-day ! c&le ( ! ,"l burnt brightly )9 me4 ,he buys a m>e ab\t ?is "t1 :i* does n seem to be z am5able z h] ma/] w\ld wi%1 & he says !reupon3 ,?is m>e disappo9ts me r1 & puts to %ame my boa/+ ( ,god's bless+ 9 buy+ h]4 ,yet ,i %all n be a%am$ ( my fai? "s day or o!r4 ,x 0 usual ) him at ?is "t1 :5 he _h a s]vant to *oose1 a j\rney to take1 or any?+ special to get ?r\gh1 to seek ! ,"l 9 pray] !re=1 & proce$ accord+ to ! inspirations he might get at ! mom5t4 ,bi%op ,blomfield scolds him #afh he>tily ab\t ?is1 & %[s him ! folly ( us+ "o faculty = a ?+ :i* ,god has giv5 him ano!r =1 & proce$+ 9 8 ord9>y actions )\t ! ord9>y means plac$ 9 8 way4 ,?is 01 ( c\rse1 a delusion ( 82 b two or ?ree disappo9tm5ts conv9c$ him ( its be+ ak9 to tempt+ ,god4 ,he accompanies ,dr4 ,blomfield 9 8 visitation ?is ye> also1 & he gets v sev]ely h&l$ by him on ! score ( 8 religi\s views1 9 ! pres5ce also ( two o!r cl]gym54 ,! lecture turn$ *iefly ^u ! inculcation ( humility1 & ! subdu+ ( t spiritual pride :i* ! ,bi%op notic$ 9 a =m] communication4 ,a few days aft] ?is lecture1 :i* sank deeply into ,mr4 ,sp5c]'s m9d1 z a :ole company 7 seat$ at d9n] ) ! ,bi%op1 a lett] arriv$ f ! ,duke ( ,well+ton1 ann\nc+ ! translation ( ,dr4 ,blomfield f ,*e/] to ,london4 ,?is 0 ,july #be1 #ahbh4 ,8 reflections ^u ?is news are3 ,god be prais$2 & ! next day he says3 ,i wrote a s]mon = to-morr[1 & sp5t mu* "t 9 pray] = a quiet m9d & sup]iority to ! sn>es ( ambition4 ,x 0 a mo/ boi/]\s day1 almo/ cont9ual ?und] & p\r+ ra94 ,i f\nd fault ) a good deal said by ! ,bi%op 9 reg>d to 8 promotion1 b ,i pray t ,i may judge myself & n o!rs4 ,he n[ relaxes a little 9 8 ,puritanism2 he gives d9n]s1 invites gue/s1 & notes t he has to pray aga9/ be+ too p>ticul> ) reg>d to 8 gue/s4 ,a pretty l>ge company d9e at ! rectory4 ,?is is an essay 9 p>ties1 & ladies are invit$ = ! fir/ "t s9ce he comm5c$ h\sekeep+4 ,he _h ! om9\s numb] ( ?irte5 at table1 & x c\ld n pass (f )\t "s mi%ap or o!r4 ,contr>y to old wives' rules1 ! s]vant 0 ! un=tunate "o4 ,we w let himself tell ! /ory4 ,mrs4 ,ni*olls 0 9 great mis]y ab\t break+ ! di%1 :i* made h] s5d up ! haun* ( v5ison upside d[n4 ,i h cause to be ?ankful = ?is1 z ! means by :i* ,god w humble h]4 ,! ev5+ pass$ (f well1 & ?ank ,god ,i 0 n c>eful or %y4 ,he comes across a ,bapti/ m9i/]1 :o s f> outdid #afi him 9 ! ,me?odi/ic way ( talk+1 t he writes3 ,i consid] him a v bad specim5 ( cant4 ,aft] ?is1 8 outl&i% gospell+ comm5ts ^u trifles & iotas beg9 to disappe>4 ,he becomes m rational1 gets into ! ways ( ! _w1 reads newspap]s1 & is a v s5sible k9d ( man altoge!r4 ,he notes 9 8 ,j\rnal1 "h & !re1 t he c>ries 8 own bundle1 & works a "p ( ! day at manual lab\r 9 8 g>d54 ,he also rem>ks t1 ! colde/ day he ev] rememb]$1 he w5t out )\t gloves or great-coat1 & 0 unable f numbness to write 8 s]mon :5 he came home4 ,he goes on ! coa* next day 9 ! same trim1 & says he wants to give an example to ! poor1 & t ,god pres]v$ him f cat*+ cold4 ,v likely he _h giv5 ! great-coat to "s poor man ! day be=e4 ,aft] a few compla9ts ( qu>rels among ! cl]gy1 & ! mann] 9 :i* he has be5 treat$ by 8 family = ! la/ ?ree ye>s on acc\nt ( 8 religi\s scruples1 he concludes ! ye> #ahbh ) ! foll[+ reflection3--,i n[ look back to ?is "t a ye> ago1 & obs]ve :at ,i felt & wrote !n1 t ,god only kn[s :]e ,i %\ld be at pres5t4 ,wondr\sly am ,i n[ plac$ /ill :]e ,i 01 & 9 all respects m firmly settl$4 ,yet only confirm$ 9 my disagreem5t ) ! p[]s ( ! ,*ur*2 b !y h n be5 will+ to att5d to me1 & s :5 my ?\ghts become kn[n1 !y w be m s\nd & influ5tial4 ,:at ,i n[ pray is1 t ,i may be l$ to a /ate ( he>t above ! _w1 & may live ! re/ ( my "t always long+ = ! pres5ce ( ,*ri/1 :i* ,i %all "o day see4 ,:ile ,i abide 9 ! fle%1 may x be to no purpose b ! good ( ,god's flock1 & may ,i be l$ to suff] & to d _m & great ?+s = ,8 sake4 ,at ?is "t he ext5ds 8 correspond5ce to ,mr4 ,irv+1 ! f\nd] ( ! ,irv+ites1 & is s /ruck by :at t g5tleman says on ! second com+ ( our ,"l1 t he beg9s to prep>e himself = x4 ,he nev] let u "k h[ f> he w5t on 9 ?is prep>ation4 ,s f> is he n[1 ,febru>y #ahbi1 f ,ca?olicity 9 8 op9ions1 t 8 fa!r ?9ks x necess>y to rebuke him #agj = ! viol5ce ( a s]mon he prea*$ on ! ,ca?olic "q2 aga9/ !m1 ( c\rse1 = 8 fa!r 0 always a /an* advocate ( ,emancipation4 ,little he knew t on t day twelve mon?s he w\ld be a ,ca?olic himself4 ,x is record$ 9 ! ,j\rnal "h1 t ?ieves broke into ! p>sonage "o night4 ,mr4 ,sp5c] he>d !m2 he arose1 call$ a s]vant or two1 pursu$ ! del9qu5ts1 & captur$ !m4 ,?is feat tells r 9 fav\r ( 8 brav]y1 & might qualify ! op9ion he _h ( himself on ?is po9t4 ,we %all give ! result ( ! ,cre$ "q 9 8 own words1 z giv5 9 ! acc\nt ( 8 conv]sion3-- ,my scruples ab\t ! ,a?anasian ,cre$ return$ aft] a s]mon :i* ,i prea*$ on ,tr9ity ,sunday1 #ahbg1 9 def5ce ( t v ,cre$4 ,i obs]v$ t ! argum5ts by :i* ,i def5d$ ! doctr9e ( ! ,tr9ity itself 7 inde$ f\nd$ on ,scripture1 b 9 attempt+ to prove to my he>]s t a belief ( ?is doctr9e 0 absolutely necess>y = man's salvation1 ,i _h rec\rse to argum5ts indep5d5t ( ,scripture1 & t no passage 9 ,scripture c\ld be f\nd :i* decl>es t :osoev] w be sav$ mu/ hold ! or?odox fai? on ! ,tr9ity4 ,i _h ?is difficulty on my m9d = eight or n9e mon?s1 aft] :i*1 f9d+ t ,i c\ld n satisfy myself ^u x1 ,i gave notice to my sup]iors t ,i c\ld n consci5ti\sly decl>e my full ass5t to ! ,?irty-n9e ,articles4 ,!y attempt$ at fir/ to satisfy me by argum5ts2 b ! m ,i discuss$ ! subject ! m conv9c$ ,i became t ! ,article 9 "q 0 n def5sible1 & aft] fifte5 mon?s' fur!r pause1 ,i made up my m9d to leave (f read+ ! ,cre$ 9 ! s]vice ( my ,*ur*1 & in=m$ my ,bi%op ( my f9al resolution4 ,( c\rse1 he might h tak5 measures to oblige me to resign my b5efice1 b he ?\ght x m prud5t to take no notice ( my lett]2 & ?us ,i rema9$ 9 possession ( my place till ,i embrac$ ! ,ca?olic fai?4 ,! po9t on :i* ,i ?us f\nd myself oppos$ to ! ,*ur* ( ,engl& appe>s a trifl+ "o2 b "h 0 en\gh to h9d] all my prospects ( advancem5t1 & to #aga put x 9 ! p[] ( ! ,bi%op1 if at any "t he _h *os5 to d s1 to call on me to give up my b5efice4 ,x is easy to conceive t "u ^! circum/ances my m9d 0 set free1 beyond :at c\ld be imag9$ 9 any o!r way1 to foll[ )\t prejudice my rese>*es aft] tru?4 ,i lo/ no opportunity ( disc\rs+ ) m9i/]s ( all p]suasions4 ,i call$ ^u !m all to jo9 ) me 9 ! inquiry :]e 0 ! tru?1 :i* c\ld be b "o1 & !re=e c\ld n be 9 any two contr>y sy/ems ( religion1 mu* less 9 all ! v>iety ( sects into :i* ,*ri/ians are divid$ 9 ,engl&4 ,i f\nd little enc\ragem5t 9 any qu>t] to ?is way ( proce$+1 at lea/ among ,prote/ants4 ,^? sect>ians ( a contr>y p]suasion to myself1 to :om ,i propos$ an inquiry ) me aft] tru?1 ,i f\nd g5]ally ready to speak ) me2 b !y did n ev5 pret5d to h any disposition to exam9e ! gr\nds ( _! own pr9ciples1 :i* !y 7 det]m9$ to abide by )\t fur!r hesitation4 ,my bre?r5 ( ! ,e/abli%$ ,*ur* equally decl9$ jo9+ me 9 my discussions ) p]sons ( o!r p]suasions1 & disapprov$ ( my pursuit1 say+ t ,i %\ld nev] conv]t !m to our side1 & t ,i only ran ! risk ( be+ %ak5 myself4 ,_! objections only incit$ me to great] dilig5ce4 ,i consid]$ t if :at ,i held 7 tru?1 *>ity requir$ t ,i %\ld nev] give ov] my attempts to br+ o!rs into ! same way1 ?\gh ,i 7 to lab\r all my life 9 va94 ,if1 on ! contr>y1 ,i 0 9 any degree ( error1 ! soon] ,i 0 %ak5 ! bett]4 ,i 0 conv9c$1 by ! numb]less exhortations ( ,/4 ,paul to 8 disciples1 t !y %\ld be ( "o m9d & h no divisions2 t ! object :i* ,i _h be=e me1 t is1 ! reunion ( ! diff]+ bodies ( ,*ri/ians1 0 pleas+ to ,god2 & ,i _h full confid5ce t ,i 0 9 no dang] ( be+ l$ into error1 or suff]+ any h>m 9 foll[+ x up1 z long z ,i /udi$ no?+ b to d ! w ( ,god 9 x1 & tru/$ to ,8 ,holy ,_s to direct me4 ,! result ( all ^! discussions ) diff]5t sects ( ,prote/ants 0 a conviction t no "o ( u _h a correct view ( ,*ri/ianity4 ,we all appe>$ "r ?us f>1 9 #agb ackn[l$g+ ,*ri/ z ! ,son ( ,god1 ^: doctr9es & comm&m5ts we 7 to foll[ z ! way to happ9ess bo? 9 "t & et]nity2 b x seem$ z if ! =m ( doctr9e & discipl9e e/abli%$ by ! ,apo/les _h be5 lo/ sight ( all ?r\gh ! ,*ur*4 ,i wi%$1 !re=e1 to see ,*ri/ians 9 g5]al unit$ 9 ! resolution to f9d ! way ( tru? & peace1 conv9c$ t ,god w\ld n fail to po9t x out to !m4 ,:e!r or n o!rs w\ld seek ,8 bless+ ) me1 ,i _h great confid5ce t1 be=e long1 ,god w\ld cle> up my d\bts1 & !re=e my m9d 0 n made uneasy by !m4 ,i mu/ "h notice a conv]sation ,i _h ) a ,prote/ant m9i/] ab\t a ye> be=e ,i 0 a ,ca?olic1 by :i* my views ( ! use ( ! ,scriptures 7 mu* enlight5$1 & by :i*1 z x w be cle>ly se51 ,i 0 yet f>!r prep>$ to come to a "r und]/&+ ( ! true rule ( ,*ri/ian fai? propos$ by ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*4 ,?is g5tleman 0 a zeal\s def5d] ( ! au?ority ( ! ,*ur* ( ,engl& aga9/ ! v>i\s sects ( ,prote/ant ,diss5t]s1 :o h ( late ye>s ga9$ s mu* advantage aga9/ h]4 ,he p]ceiv$ t :ile m5 7 all[$ to claim a "r ( int]pret+ ! ,scriptures accord+ to _! own judgm5t !re nev] c\ld be an end ( s*ism2 &1 !re=e1 he zeal\sly insi/$ on ! duty ( our submitt+ to ecclesia/ical au?ority 9 controv]sies ( fai?1 ma9ta9+ t ! ,_s ( ,god spoke to u ?r\gh ! voice ( ! ,*ur*1 z well z 9 ! writt5 ^w4 ,_h ,i be5 conv9c$ by ?is "p ( 8 argum5t1 x w\ld h l$ me to submit to ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*1 & n to ! ,*ur* ( ,engl&2 &1 inde$1 ,i am acqua9t$ ) "o "y man1 :o actually became a ,ca?olic ?r\gh ! prea*+ ( ?is g5tleman--foll[+ ^! true pr9ciples1 z he 0 b\nd to d1 to _! legitimate consequ5ces4 ,b ,i did n1 at ?is "t1 p]ceive ! tru? ( ! position2 ,i yet _h no idea ( ! exi/5ce ( ,div9e1 unwritt5 ,tradition 9 ! ,*ur*4 ,i c\ld imag9e no way = ! discov]y ( ! tru? b p]sev]+ /udy ( ! ,scriptures1 :i*1 z !y 7 ! only ,div9e rule ( fai? ) :i* ,i 0 acqua9t$1 ,i ?\ght mu/ ( c\rse be suffici5t = our #agc guidance1 if us$ ) an humble & tractable _s2 b ! disc\rse ( ?is cl]gyman l$ me at lea/ to make an obs]vation :i* _h nev] /ruck my m9d be=e z be+ ( any importance1--namely1 t ! sy/em ( religion :i* ,*ri/ taught ! ,apo/les1 & :i* !y deliv]$ to ! ,*ur*1 0 some?+ di/9ct f our volume ( ,scriptures4 ,! ,new ,te/am5t ,i p]ceiv$ to be a collection ( accid5tal writ+s1 :i*1 z com+ f ! p5s ( inspir$ m51 ,i 0 assur$ mu/1 9 e po9t1 be agreeable to ! true fai?2 b !y nei!r 71 nor any:]e pr(ess$ to be1 a complete & sy/ematic acc\nt ( ,*ri/ian fai? & practice4 ,i 01 !re=e1 9 want ( "s fur!r guidance on :i* ,i c\ld dep5d4 ,i knew n t x 0 9 ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* t ,i 0 at l5g? to f9d :at ,i 0 9 se>* (2 b e ,ca?olic w see1 if ,i h suffici5tly expla9$ my case1 h[ well ,i 0 prep>$ to accept ) joy ! direction ( ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*1 :5 once ,i %\ld be conv9c$ t %e /ill pres]v$ un*ang$ & inviolate ! v =m ( fai? taught by ! ,apo/les1 ! k ( :i* is1 z x 71 ! key to ! "r & sure int]pretation ( ! writt5 ^w4 ,x 0 9 ,april1 #ahbi1 t he wrote ! lett] to ! ,bi%op :i* 0 n tak5 notice (4 ,he next )drew 8 "n f "s societies--su* z ! ,society = ,promot+ ,*ri/ian ,k1 c4 ,?is act s displeas$ ,dr4 ,blomfield1 t he writes to say ,mr4 ,sp5c] is no long] 8 *apla94 ,at ! sugge/ion ( "s memb] ( 8 family1 he wrote an apology1 & 0 re/or$ aga9 to fav\r & to 8 (fice4 ,on ,may #bb1 #ahbi1 ! ,j\rnal sudd5ly breaks (f1 & he did n resume x aga9 until ! #a/ ( ,may1 #ahdf4 ,! ev5ts ( ! sev5te5 ye>s int]v5+ c be ga!r$ f 8 correspond5ce1 ?\gh1 p]haps1 n ) ! precision t w\ld be desirable4 #agd ,,*apt] ,,xi4 ,! ,maid ,( ,lille4 ,incid5ts ov]lapp$ ea* o!r s ?ickly1 & 7 ( su* diff]5t t5d5cies dur+ ! la/ two ye>s ( ,mr4 ,sp5c]'s life z a m9i/]1 t we h judg$ x bett] to give !m s+ly1 ev5 at ! exp5se ( a little sacrifice ( ! ord] ( "t4 ,"o ( ^!1 & an important "o1 is select$ = ! subject ( ?is *apt]4 ,on ! #bcrd ( ,novemb]1 #ahbg1 j be=e 8 ,a?anasian scruples _h ris5 to _! height1 z he return$ f 8 pa/oral visitation1 he f\nd a lett]1 purport+ to be f a g5tleman 9 ,lille1 :o 0 griev\sly tr\bl$ ab\t ! argum5ts = ,pop]y4 ,?is lett] conta9s little m ?an a /atem5t ( t5d5cies t[>ds ,ca?olicity 9 ! writ]1 ) extracts f ,pap91 ,de la ,tolrance des ,prote/ants1 to acc\nt = !m4 ,! extracts draw a p>allel betwe5 ! ,*ur* & a well-regulat$ k+dom1 9 _m ( h] doctr9es & *ief po9ts ( h] discipl9e4 ,x 0 anonym\s1 & reasons 7 assign$ = )hold+ ! writ]'s "n4 ,mr4 ,sp5c]1 ev] anxi\s to c\nsel ! d\btful1 lo/ no "t 9 answ]+1 & s5t (f a long lett] to 8 unkn[n fri5d by t ev5+'s po/4 ,x 0 %ortly aft] ?is t he wrote ! lett]s to 8 fa!r & ,dr4 ,blomfield ab\t ! resignation ( 8 pref]m5t1 & :e!r ! ,lille lett] _h any?+ to d ) increas+ 8 d\bts1 or n1 is a "q4 ,x _h1 h[ev]1 "o effect3 x made him anxi\s to f9d out :at k9d ( p ,ca?olics 72 & an incid5t t occurr$ ab\t ! same "t aid$ ?is curiosity4 ,!re 7 "s soldi]s qu>t]$ 9 ,nor?ampton1 &1 z ,mr4 ,sp5c] 0 talk+ to "s ( ! (fic]s 9 ! c\rt-y>d ( ! b>racks1 ! #age ,ca?olic prie/ ent]$1 to look aft] su* ( ! soldi]s z might require 8 spiritual c>e4 ,he saw ! prie/1 & spoke to him2 &1 f9d+ out ! object ( 8 mission1 k9dly introduc$ him to "o ( ! (fic]s1 :o1 9 consid]ation ( ,mr4 ,sp5c]1 got all due att5tion paid to ! prie/2 & ! good p>son 0 assur$ t he succe$$ to 8 satisfaction be=e he left ! place4 ,a few days aft]w>ds he met ! prie/1 :o ?ank$ him = 8 *>ity1 & said x 0 ,provid5ce s5t him !re at su* a "t1 & arrang$ t 8 duty c\ld be dis*>g$ among ! soldi]s ) ease & hon\r1 :i* _h (t5-times to be done amid insults1 or at lea/ coldness on ! "p ( ! milit>y au?orities4 ,mr4 ,sp5c] began to ?9k1 ,really ^! ,papi/s believe 9 ,provid5ce6 ,?is wond]ful discov]y made him ?9k !y believ$ a little m also1 & t !y 7 n q su* idolat]s z he _h be5 taught to suppose4 ,ano!r lett] f ! ,lille correspond5t confirm$ him 9 ?is1 & %ook him 9 _m ( 8 old] notions4 ,he d9es1 9 a few days aft] ?is despat*1 ) ! celebrat$ ,dr4 ,flet*] & a ,miss ,armytage1 at ,lady ,?rockmorton's4 ,he has a long conv]sation ) ! la/ ( ! ,d\ay controv]siali/s aft] d9n]2 b ! only effect produc$ is ?is3 ,i am ?ankful = ! k9dness ( bo? ^? ,papi/s4 ,! ,"l rew>d !m by %[+ !m ,8 tru?4 ,he invites ,dr4 ,flet*] to d9n] at ,br+ton--a fav\r ! ,doctor avails himself ( on ! #bg? ,m>*1 #ahbh4 ,ano!r lett] f 8 fri5d at ,lille makes him ackn[l$ge t he has n _h prop] notions ( ,ca?olicity2 9 8 own words3 ,i expect$ easily to conv9ce him t ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* 0 full ( errors2 b he answ]$ my argum5ts4 4444 ,i discov]$ by means ( ?is correspond5ce t ,i _h nev] duly consid]$ ! pr9ciples ( our ,re=mation2 t my objections to ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* 7 prejudices adopt$ f ! say+s ( o!rs1 n ! result ( my own obs]vation4 ,in/ead ( gam+ ! advantage 9 ?is controv]sy1 ,i saw1 & ,i own$ to my correspond5t1 t a great *ange _h be5 produc$ 9 myself4 ,i no long] desir$ to p]suade him to keep 9 ! communion ( ! ,prote/ant ,*ur*1 #agf b r det]m9$ & promis$ to foll[ up ! same inquiries ) him1 if he w\ld make 8 "n kn[n to me1 & only pause a:ile be=e he jo9$ ! ,ca?olics4 ,b ,i he>d no m ( him till aft] my conv]sion & arrival at ,rome1 :5 ,i discov]$ t my correspond5t 0 a lady1 :o _h h]self be5 conv]t$ a %ort "t be=e %e wrote to me4 ,i nev] he>d h] "n be=e1 ,footnote #g nor am ,i aw>e t %e _h ev] se5 my p]son2 b ,god mov$ h] to desire & pray = my salvation1 :i* %e also und]took to br+ ab\t 9 ! way ,i h relat$4 ,i _c say t ,i entirely approve ( ! /ratagem to :i* %e _h rec\rse1 b h] motive 0 good1 & ,god gave success to h] attempt3 = x 0 ?is :i* fir/ direct$ my att5tion p>ticul>ly to inquire ab\t ! ,ca?olic religion1 ?\gh %e liv$ n to "k ! accompli%m5t ( h] wi%es & pray]s4 ,%e di$ at ,p>is1 a ye> be=e my conv]sion1 :5 ab\t to take ! veil z a nun ( ! ,sacr$ ,he>t2 & ,i tru/ ,i h 9 h] an int]cessor 9 ,heav51 z %e pray$ = me s f]v5tly on e>?4 ,footnote #g3 ,! lady's "n 0 ,miss ,doll+4 ,?is 0 ! la/ ( ,f4 ,ignatius's romances1 & a beautiful "o x 04 ,z x may be int]e/+ to see :at 0 9 ^? fam\s lett]s1 we ?9k x well to give a few extracts3-- ,! l9e ( ! lady's argum5t is ?is4 ,t ,scripture )\t ,tradition is q insuffici5t = salvation4 ,we _c "k any?+ ab\t ! ,scriptures !mselves1 _! composition1 inspiration1 int]pretation1 )\t ,tradition4 ,besides ! ,new ,te/am5t 0 n ! text-book ( ! ,apo/les--x is a collection ( "s ?+s !y 7 inspir$ to write = ! edification ( ! fir/ ,*ri/ians & o!rs :o _h n se5 our ,"l2 & ! ,epi/les are a numb] ( lett]s f inspir$ m5 b\nd up toge!r 9 "o volume4 ,! body ( doctr9e1 ) its be>+s1 symmetry1 ext5t1 & obligation1 0 deliv]$ orally by ! ,apo/les1 & ! ,epi/les mu/ be consonant to t sy/em z well z explanatory ( portions ( x4 ,only by ! unbrok5 succession ( pa/ors f ! ,apo/les to ! pres5t "t1 c we h any safegu>d z #agg to :at we are to believe1 & h[ we are to believe4 ,! ,apo/les & _! successors 7 to tea* all nations1 & ,*ri/ promis$ !m & !m alone ! un]r+ guidance ( ! ,holy ,_s4 ,%e !n assigns to tradition ! (fice ( be>+ te/imony to :at ! doctr9es ( ! ,*ur* h be51 & are at pres5t4 ,! def9itions ( ,c\ncils are simple decl>ations t su* & su* is ! belief !n & f ! beg9n+ ( ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*4 ,!y /ate :at is1 n inv5t :at is to be4 ,n[ hi/ory1 or writt5 tradition1 z contra-di/+ui%$ f ,scripture1 te/ifies to e s+le t5et ( ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*--h] cre$s1 liturgy1 sacram5ts1 jurisdiction4 ,x te/ifies un]r+ly1 too1 ev5 f ! objections ( h]etics1 to ! fact t ?is ,*ur* has be5 always believ$ div9e 9 h] orig91 div9e 9 h] tea*+1 infallible & un]r+ 9 h] solemn pron\ncem5ts4 ,?is is fact1 & :o c ga9say x8 ,?is peculi> way ( argu+1 by mak+ tradition or hi/ory be> witness to ! exi/5ce ( ! ,*ur*1 z well z to :at %e always decl>$ to be h] doctr9e1 is a v felicit\s %ape to ca/ h] argum5ts into4 ,x draws ! l9e betwe5 fai? & ! evid5ce ( fai?4 ,evid5ce1 human evid5ce ( ! fir/ grade ( moral c]ta9ty1 says3 ,! ,*ur* believ$ ?is1 & t1 & ! o!r1 at su* & su* times1 & n z a new1 b z an old doctr9e1 t came d[n f age to age s9ce ! ,apo/les4 ,! same evid5ce says3 t %e believ$ !m z reveal$ by ,god1 & t %e c\ld n be mi/ak5 on acc\nt ( ,8 promise4 ,t %e nev] sw]v$1 & nev] w sw]ve1 f "o s+le article :i* %e has once believ$4 ,if ?is ,*ur* be n ,! ,*ur* ( ,*ri/1 ,i ask y :]e is x to be f\nd8 ,9 ! second lett] %e says3 ,aft] mu* reflection ,i mu/ confess to y _! sy/em appe>s reasonable1 natural1 & conv9c+4 ,) u1 !y consid] ! ,holy ,scriptures z ! mo/ respectable te/imony ( our fai?1 & !y pr(ess a /rict adh]5ce to !m2 !y h = !m ! greate/ respect2 & ! ,ca?olic prie/s support f ! ,bible :at !y #agh tea* ! p1 & ,i am c]ta9 t !y /udy & und]/& ! ,scriptures z mu* z our m9i/]s4 ,! pr9cipal diff]5ce ,i rem>k is1 t !y d n und]take to int]pret !m accord+ to _! own op9ions3 !y say t ! inspir$ writ+s are replete ) my/]ies1 :i* ! eye ( man _c p5etrate2 & t ,he alone :o gave !m is able to compreh5d _! sublimity2 consequ5tly1 to foll[ ! impulse ( reason 9 expla9+ !m1 w\ld be incurr+ ! dang] ( fall+ into error1 & lead+ o!rs into ! same pa?4 ,= ?is cause ! ,ca?olic m9i/] w n suff] ! ,holy ,scriptures to be sep>at$ f ! in/ruction ( _! pr$ecessors up to ! ,apo/les2 n t !y by any means give ! ^w ( man prec$5ce to ! ,^w ( ,god1 s9ce !y believe t man alone _c expla9 x1 = ':o1' !y ask1 'assi/$ at ! c\ncil ( ! ,almighty8' ,b !y believe t ^? :o he>d ! ,apo/les prea*1 und]/ood ! true mean+ ( _! words2 & t _! imm$iate successors1 especially1 educat$ by !m1 & :o taught ! ,gospel dur+ ! life ( _! in/ructors1 necess>ily und]/ood ! mean+ ( _! writ+s1 ! doctr9e ( :i* 0 und\bt$ly con=mable to :at !y taught v]bally4 4444 ,/4 ,paul1 9 8 ,epi/les to ! ,colossians1 in=ms u t ! ,gospel 0 prea*$ to all ! _w4 ,?is be+ ! case1 ,i see no possibility ( introduc+ any new doctr9e4 ,! ,apo/les ?reat5$ ) et]nal puni%m5t ^? :o did n believe :at !y taught 9 ! "n ( ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,& :oev] w\ld h ! tem]ity to add to ! primitive doctr9e !y visit$ ) a l ana!ma4 ,tell me1 n[1 h[ c\ld ! ,*ur* h introduc$ su* a doctr9e z t ( ! ,real ,pres5ce1 aft] a prie/ has pron\nc$ ! words1 ,?is is my body8 ,h[ is x possible t ! fai?ful c\ld reconcile !mselves to ! idea ( ackn[l$g+ & ador+ ,jesus ,*ri/ pres5t on ! alt>1 z ,he 0 9 ! mang] at ,be?lehem1 & z ,he is 9 ,heav5 at ! "r h& ( ,8 ,fa!r1 if ?is doctr9e _h n always be5 receiv$ & believ$ z x is at pres5t by ! ,roman ,ca?olic ,*ur*8 #agi ,*ri/ians :o knew ! value ( salvation c\ld n s easily be deceiv$2 sev]al among !m w\ld h remon/rat$ aga9/ ?is sup]/ition & idolatry4 ,d we f9d t !y h done s8 ,i imag9e myself 9 idea at ! p]iod ( ! ,re=mation1 & consid] ! belief & cu/oms ( t "t4 ,all ,europe1 ! prov9ces ( ,asia & ,africa :i* _h n embrac$ ,mahom$anism1 admitt$ & believ$ ! contr>y to :at ,calv9 taught1 especially conc]n+ ! ,"l's ,supp]4 ,i %\ld be glad to he> y\r imp>tial op9ion on ?is subject4 ,:]e did ,calv9 f9d ?is doctr9e8 ,z ,i obs]ve1 he did n le>n x 9 ! s*ools1 nor 9 any book1 nor 9 8 own family1 nor 9 ! temple ( ,god2 ! innovation 0 univ]sally oppos$2 a million voices remon/rat$ aga9/ 8 impiety4 ,:at "r _h he to be believ$8 ,he propos$ only ! int]pretation :i* he gave to ! words ( ,jesus ,*ri/1 ,?is is my body4 ,he support$ 8 op9ion 9 no o!r way1 he prov$ x by no miracles1 & !re=e did n des]ve belief1 s9ce he gave no pro(s ( a div9e mission4 ,he 0 b a man1 &1 :at is m1 "o ( :om hi/orians d n speak z be+ virtu\s4 ,tell me1 !n1 h[ c ,i ackn[l$ge t he possess$ ! ,holy ,_s1 knew ! mean+ ( ,scripture4 4444 li/5 to & foll[ a "y man 9 8 op9ion & oppose ! re/ ( ! _w4 ,c\ld t be wisdom8 ,b suppos+1 my de> sir1 ! ,*ur* to be 9 error1 or ev5 liable to err1 h[ c we possibly pr(ess to believe any my/]y8 ,= to h fai?1 x is impossible to d\bt or hesitate4 ,& if ,i believe n1 ,i am lo/4 ,i am already condemn$4 ',he t believe? n is already judg$4' ,if ! ,*ur* be liable to error1 may ,i n reply to our m9i/]s3--',i d\bt ! tru? ( :at y prea*3 ,i am n oblig$ to believe y'8 ,y tell me ,i am n oblig$ to believe :at y s *>itably wrote to me1 & _m passages ( :i* lett] h s5sibly affect$ me3 to :om1 !n1 mu/ ,i h rec\rse8 ,y give me reason to conclude t y are n c]ta9 ( ! assi/ance ( ! ,holy ,gho/1 z y d n oblige me to believe :at y #ahj say1 b y desire me to comp>e y\r words ) ! ,scriptures1 & to reject !m if ,i don't f9d !m con=mable to ! ,^w ( ,god4 ,h[ c ,i imag9e myself m c]ta9 ?an y t ,i rightly int]pret !m1 or t ,i h ! assi/ance ( ,heav58 ,i mu/ cont9ue to d\bt dur+ ! re/ ( my life1 & rema9 an unbeliev]4 ,y say1 'if a man w d ,8 w1 he %all "k ( ! doctr9e :e!r x be ( ,god4' ,to d ! w ( ,god is c]ta9ly to li/5 to ^? ,god has s5t to tea* u4 4444 ,%e quotes sev]al au?orities be>+ witness 9 _! day t ! supremacy ( ! ,pope 0 !n believ$ to be ( div9e "r1 & closes ! li/ ) ,sir ,?omas ,m4 ,by ! grace ( ,god ,i h always pr(ess$ ! ,ca?olic religion4 ,hav+1 h[ev]1 (t5 he>d ! p[] ( ! ,pope 0 ( human in/itution1 ,i resolv$ to weigh ! matt] )\t1 at ! same "t1 injur+ my fai?4 ,= sev5 ye>s ,i foll[$ up ?is /udy3 ,i drank at ! f\nta9 head3 ,i w5t to ! orig9 ( ?+s4 ,at l5g? ,i f\nd t ! pontifical p[] is n only useful & necess>y--b1 /rictly lawful & ( div9e appo9tm5t4 444 ,i _c admit ! sy/em ( p>ticul> inspiration1 s9ce ,i see _m1 pret5d+ to be inspir$1 fall into manife/ contradictions1 & consequ5tly into error4 4444 ,i admit ) y t div9e au?ority mu/ fix ! fai? ( m54 ,:]e am ,i to f9d x8 ,x mu/ exi/ some:]e4 4444 ,! ?ird lett] is p>tly a cont9uation ( ! second1 & p>tly on a new plan2 s a few extracts f x mu/ be welcome1 especially z x really did su* "w ^u poor ,mr4 ,sp5c]'s m9d4 4444 ,x is c]ta9 t ,jesus ,*ri/ f\nd$ a ,*ur* ^u e>? = ! salvation ( man2 :]e1 !n1 is x8 ,?is is c]ta9ly ! :ole "q among ! diff]5t sects oppos$ to ea* o!r4 4444 ,i mu/ necess>ily ent] ! true ,*ur*1 = ,i _c be sav$ 9 t :i* is false4 4444 4444 ,i am p]suad$ ! ,ca?olics d n f\nd _! belief on ! op9ions & int]pretations ( m52 #aha _! au?ority is ,jesus ,*ri/1 ,god ,himself2 c]ta9ly t mu/ be infallible1 & ! reason ( man ought to b5d to x4 ,!y believe 9 su* & su* doctr9es because ,jesus ,*ri/ & ,8 ,apo/les taught !m2 ?is is ! simple & reasonable motive ( _! fai?4 ,! doctr9e ( ,jesus' & ,8 ,apo/les is n an op9ion1 b a fact1 :i* ,i see s completely prov$ by an assemblage ( facts & circum/ances s /rik+1 t1 n to be conv9c$ ( its tru?1 w\ld be to r5\nce all common s5se4 4444 ,! fact t ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* is 9 possession ( ! true doctr9e is a fact prov$ l all o!r hi/orical facts2 x is prov$ by a weight ( te/imony giv5 by p]sons :o saw & he>d !mselves4 ,obs]ve1 x is n ! op9ions or int]pretations giv5 by ^? p]sons :i* are advanc$ z pro(s1 z y suppose 9 y\r lett]2 b all ^! holy p]sons h %$ _! blood to support & def5d ! tru?1 n ( _! op9ions1 b ( :at !y h se5 or he>d4 ,i c und]/& t fanaticism w\ld induce a man to sacrifice 8 life to support a fav\rite op9ion1 b x has nev] yet be5 se5 t any "o w\ld lose 8 life to prove t he _h se5 or he>d ?+s :i* he1 9 fact1 _h n4 ,tradition is n1 !re=e1 z y suppose1 ! op9ions & int]pretations ( ! ,fa!rs1 b _! te/imony to :at !y saw1 he>d1 taught1 & practis$4 ,9 ! same way1 ! g5]al ,c\ncils h fix$ ! s5se ( ,scripture only by decl>+ ! fact t su* has be5 ! univ]sal doctr9e s9ce ! ,apo/les4 ,x is ! assemblage ( ^! pro(s t br+s conviction to ! s\l2 !y mu/ all be se5 unit$ & comp>$1 & ?is is und\bt$ly a labori\s /udy4 ,! ,ca?olics believe t _! ,*ur* is 9 possession ( ! doctr9e taught by ,*ri/1 & li/5 to x z !y w\ld to ,him4 ,judge f ?is h[ /rong & lively mu/ be ! fai? ( a ,ca?olic1 h[ firm & immovable1 s9ce ! voice ( _! ,*ur* is ! voice ( _! ,savi\r1 & ! int]val ( eighte5 hundr$ ye>s disappe>s z !y e day he> ! voice ( ,jesus4 ,!re _c be any division 9 ?is ,*ur*4 ,x be+ an hi/orical fact t ! same doctr9e has be5 taught f ! beg9n+ by ! #ahb infallible m\? ( ,jesus ,*ri/ & ,8 ,apo/les1 x foll[s t all mu/ yield to t au?ority1 & t ! ra% individual :o w\ld dispute1 disputes z x 7 ) ,jesus ,*ri/1 & consequ5tly ought to be driv5 f ! flock4 4444 ,! ,ca?olics say3--)\t ! ,scriptures we %\ld n he> ! ,savi\r speak1 b )\t tradition we %\ld n "k :at ,he says4 4444 ,:y are n our eyes op5$--hav+ e day pro( t private int]pretation is at fault8--let u try4 ,take y\r ,bible1 & read :atev] passage y please2 ,i also w read x4 ,let u bo?1 !n1 invoke ! assi/ance ( ,god1 & d y c&idly ?9k our inspirations w\ld agree z to ! s5se ( ! passage8 ,i ?9k n4 ,h[ev]1 %\ld we diff]1 :o is to decide :i* is 9 error8 4444 ,i see by y\r lett]s y h n always _h ! same op9ion on all po9ts t y h at ?is "t4 444 ,:at w>rant h y t y are bett] inspir$ n[ ?an be=e8 ,inspiration does n cause *ange ( op9ion4 4444 ,we h 9 our c\ntry writt5 laws ( anci5t date4 ,suppose "s p]sons1 ev5 ( great le>n+1 7 to give !m a diff]5t int]pretation to t hi!rto receiv$1 w\ld n !y be conf\nd$ by %[+ !m1 by means ( hi/ory or tradition1 t ! ,k+ himself :o made ^! laws1 8 m9i/]s & successors1 h always und]/ood & execut$ !m 9 a diff]5t s5se4 ,t is ! way ,ca?olics avoid all difficulty4 4444 ,y are 9 error z to ! ,pope if y suppose t =m]ly1 or n[1 ,ca?olics give him _! fai?1 z ,calv9i/s d to ,calv91 c4 ,i ?\ght ! same4 ,! ,pope is simply ! *ief adm9i/rator2 ! doctr9es he has ! /ew>d%ip ( d n come f him or any o!r ,pope1 z t ( ,calv9ism f ,calv92 x comes f ,jesus ,*ri/1 f ,8 ,apo/les1 & f _! *ur*es ?r\gh\t ! _w4 ,an adm9i/rator is n ! ma/] ( ! doctr9es ) :i* he is entru/$4 ,! ,pope & ,bi%ops are *>g$ to pres]ve ! doctr9e1 to propagate x & #ahc def5d x aga9/ all attacks ( ! enemies ( ,jesus ,*ri/4 4444 ,y int]pret ! text1 'lo6 ,i am ) y always1' t ,god promis$ ,8 ,holy ,_s to e individual2 b t ,i am incl9$ by no means to admit4 ,! :ole ( ! passage mu/ be consid]$4 ,x 0 n to e "o ,he address$ ^! words2 x 0 only to ,8 ,apo/les t ,he said1 ',g & tea* all nations 4444 behold1 ,i am ) y4' ,f ?is x is cle>ly to ! ,apo/les & _! successors t ,he promis$ ! ,holy ,_s4 ,i see 9 ^! words t !y receiv$ f ,god himself ! =mal ord] or mission to g & prea*1 n :at !y f\nd writt51 b :at ,he _h taught4 4444 ,i see also by ^! words t sov]eigns ( ?is _w h n receiv$ ! p[] ( s5d+ m9i/]s to tea* ! ,gospel1 & c]ta9ly by s do+ !y usurp ! p[] giv5 to ! ,apo/les & _! successors4 ,:at we h to f9d is1 to :om ,god has said1 ',g & tea*4' ,x is physically impossible t x %\ld conc]n our m9i/]s1 s9ce !y are e/abli%$ by temporal au?ority4 ,ab\t ! ,re=m]s %e says3-- ,c man re=m ! "w ( 8 ,creator8 ,y say y w nev] claim any "n b t ( ,*ri/ian1 b /ill x is n ) y a matt] ( indiff]5ce :at communion y belong to2 !re=e1 ?is be+ ! case1 x is n suffici5t to be> ! "n ( ,*ri/ian1 & say we tru/ 9 ,jesus2 we mu/ be sure t ! doctr9es we adopt are really 84 ,= x is n be+ a ,*ri/ian to embrace doctr9es contr>y to ^? giv5 by our ,savi\r2 x is assum+ ! "n ( ,*ri/ian )\t be+ c]ta9 we are s2 we mu/ f9d if we are 9 communion ) ,8 ,*ur*4 ,)\t fai? !re is no salvation2 ?is _c mean a fai? ( our own *oos+1 b :at ,god has be5 pleas$ to comm& we %\ld believe4 4444 ,_m ( our m9i/]s are ignorant or wick$ en\gh to accuse ,ca?olics ( idolatry4 ,x is ,jesus ,*ri/ !y adore really pres5t ?\gh invisible 9 ! ,eu*>i/4 ,!y v l\dly exclaim among u aga9/ images1 c4 ,all ?is is no?+2 on all sides t ,*ur* pres5ts images to #ahd r5d] _! fai? m lively1 & to induce !m !reby to adore ,god ! m truly 9 _s & 9 tru?4 ,^! are argum5ts ( no little /r5g?1 to say ! lea/ ( !m4 ,x w\ld be a pleasure to transcribe ! lett]s 9 ext5so1 b ! ?ree cov] ?irty-two pages ( closely-writt5 lett]-pap]1 & w\ld consequ5tly take up too mu* room 9 a biography4 ,"s sceptically-incl9$ p]son w probably say1--%e _h "s ,jesuit or o!r a/ute ,romi% prie/ at h] elb[ :5 %e wrote ^! lett]s4 ,! writ] c only tell 8 read] t he v]ily suspects z mu* himself4 ,b be=e any ( u jump at a conclusion1 x might be well to consid] ?is s5t5ce :i* occurs t[>ds ! end ( ! ?ird lett]4 ,d n ?9k ,i am "u ! influ5ce ( "s prie/s :o h induc$ me to und]take ?is exam9ation4 ,x 0 a lawy] fir/ awak5$ my curiosity1 tell+ me y may read 9 va9 & argue--y w n1 y _c f9d ! tru? unless y pray = x z ! free gift ( ,god2 & to obta9 ?is y mu/ be humble1 y\r consci5ce mu/ be z pure z y c make x3 ,god alone c be y\r help2 pray to ,him unceas+ly4 ,h[ev] we may ?9k ab\t _! real au?or1 ! matt] itself is v good1 & _! consequ5ce to ,mr4 ,sp5c] 0 ( vital importance4 ,!re are no r\gh copies ( 8 answ]s to ! unkn[n to be f\nd among 8 pap]s1 or x w\ld be v int]e/+ to place !m side by side ) :at we h quot$4 ,! result ( ^! lett]s we h 9 8 acc\nt ( 8 conv]sion3-- ,aft] ?is p]iod ,i ent]ta9$ ! op9ion t ! ,re=m]s _h done wrong 9 sep>at+ f ! orig9al body ( ! ,*ur*2 at any rate1 ,i 0 conv9c$ t ,prote/ants :o succe$$ !m 7 b\nd to make a reunion ) x4 ,i /ill conceiv$ t _m errors & corruptions _h be5 introduc$ among ,ca?olics1 & ,i did n imag9e t ,i c\ld ev] con=m to _! fai?1 or jo9 9 _! practices1 )\t "s alt]ations on _! "p2 b ,i tru/$ t ! "t might n be di/ant :5 ,god w\ld inspire all ,*ri/ians ) a _s ( peace & concord1 :i* w\ld make ,prote/ants anxi\sly seek to be #ahe re-unit$ to _! bre?r51 & ,ca?olics will+ to li/5 to reason1 & to correct ^? abuses 9 fai?1 & discipl9e :i* kept _! bre?r5 f jo9+ !m4 ,to ! procur+ su* a happy t]m9ation to ! mis]able s*isms :i* _h r5t ! ,*ur*1 ,i det]m9$ to devote my life4 ,i n[ lo/ no opportunity ( conv]sations ) ,prote/ants & ,ca?olics4 ,my object ) bo? 0 to awak5 !m to a desire ( unity ) ea* o!r2 to satisfy myself ! m cle>ly :]e 0 ! exact pa? ( tru? 9 :i* x 0 desirable t we %\ld all walk toge!r2 & !n to p]suade all to correct _! respective errors 9 con=mity ) ! p]fect rule1 :i* ,i _h no d\bt ! ,"l w\ld 9 due "t po9t out to me1 & to all :o 7 ready to foll[ ,8 w dis9t]e/$ly4 ,i ?\ght t :5 ,ca?olics 7 at l5g? will+ to ent] ) me on ^! discussions ) c&\r1 !y w\ld at once beg9 to see ! errors :i* to me appe>$ s palpable 9 _! sy/em3 b ,i 0 greatly surpris$ to f9d !m all s fix$ 9 _! pr9ciples1 t !y gave me no prospect ( re-union except on condition ( o!rs submitt+ unres]v$ly to !m2 &1 at ! same "t1 ,i c\ld see 9 _! ord9>y conduct & mann] ( disput+ ) me no?+ to make "o suspect !m ( ins9c]ity1 or ( want ( suffici5t in=mation ( ! gr\nds ( _! belief4 ,^! repeat$ conv]sations increas$ m & m my desire to discov] ! true road1 :i* ,i saw t ,i1 at lea/ = "o1 0 ignorant (3 b ,i /ill imag9$ t ,i c\ld see su* pla9 m>ks ( diff]5ce betwe5 ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* ( ! pres5t day & ! ,*ur* ( ! primitive ages z describ$ 9 ,scripture1 t ,i repeat$ly put aside ! impression :i* ! argum5ts ( ,ca?olics1 &1 yet m1 my obs]vation ( _! "*1 made ^u me1 & ,i /ill held up my head 9 ! controv]sy4 #ahf ,,*apt] ,,xii4 ,ambrose ,lisle ,phillipps4 ,! close & w>m fri5d%ip betwe5 ,fa!r ,ignatius & ,mr4 ,phillipps has sc>cely a p>allel 9 anci5t or mod]n hi/ory4 ,!y became acqua9t$ 9 #ahbi2 & until dea? susp5d$ _! mutual communication = a:ile1 !y ev] wrote1 spoke1 & ?\ght1 ) m ?an a bro!rly--ay1 m ?an any human or natural affection4 ,! ,*ri/ian patriotism ( ea*1 :i* pray$ & lab\r$ to br+ _! c\ntrym5 to ! bless+s !y !mselves _h receiv$1 may h fo/]$ ?is beautiful love2 & ev5 ! diff]5t sph]es 91 z well z means by1 :i* !y felt !mselves call$ to prosecute ! "w ( _! pr$ilection may h help$ to keep x ev] w>m & new2 b !re 0 a some?+ 9 x :i* rem9ds "o ( ,david & ,jona?an1 t spread ov] x a grace & spl5d\r f> above :at x is giv5 u n[ & !n to behold4 ,?is *apt] w %[ ! rise ( _! mutual affection1 & %[ :]e lay ! basis ( ! edifice gratitude & *>ity help$ to fa%ion4 ,fa!r ,ignatius says1 9 ! acc\nt ( 8 conv]sion3-- ,ne> ! end ( ! ye> #ahbi ,i 0 introduc$ to "y ,mr4 ,phillipps1 elde/ son ( a ri* g5tleman 9 ,leice/]%ire1 :om ,i _h (t5 he>d spok5 ( z a conv]t to ! ,ca?olic religion4 ,i _h = a long "t be5 curi\s to see him1 t ,i might obs]ve ! mode ( reason+ by :i* he _h be5 p]suad$ into :at ,i /ill ?\ght s great an error4 ,we sp5t five h\rs toge!r 9 ! h\se ( ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,foley1 ,ca?olic ,mission>y 9 my neighb\rhood1 ) :om ,i _h already _h mu* int]c\rse4 ,i 0 int]e/$ by ! ard5t zeal ( ?is #ahg "y man 9 ! cause ( 8 fai?4 ,i _h previ\sly imag9$ t he mu/ h be5 ignorant on ! subject ( religion1 & t he _h suff]$ himself to be l$ bl9dly by o!rs2 b he answ]$ all my objections ab\t 8 own conv]sion ) read9ess & intellig5ce4 ,i c\ld n b see t x _h be5 9 him ! result ( 8 own dilig5t inve/igations4 ,i 0 delight$ ) :at ,i c\ld obs]ve ( 8 "*4 ,i 0 m ?an ev] inflam$ ) a desire to be unit$ 9 communion ) p]sons 9 :om ,i saw su* cle> signs ( ! ,_s ( ,god2 b yet my "t 0 n fully come4 ,i fanci$1 by 8 conv]sation1 t he _h pr9ciples & ideas inconsi/5t ) :at ,i _h le>n$ f ,scripture2 & 9 a few days ,i aga9 put aside ! uneas9ess :i* ?is meet+ _h occasion$1 & cont9u$ to foll[ my =m] purpose1 only ) increas$ resolution to come at satisfaction4 ,he 01 9 ! mean:ile1 mu* int]e/$ 9 my case4 ,he recomm5d$ me to ! pray]s ( "s religi\s communities1 & soon aft] invit$ me to 8 fa!r's h\se t we might cont9ue our disc\rses4 ,i 0 happy at ! prospect ( ?is meet+1 & full ( hopes t x w\ld prove satisfactory to me2 b ,i left home )\t any idea ( ! conclusion to :i* x pleas$ ,god to br+ me s soon4 ,mr4 ,phillipps wrote to him3-- ,my ,de> ,sir1--,we expect ! ,bi%op ( ,li*field "h on ! #be? ,janu>y1 & ,i h v5tur$ to hope t ,i might be able to induce y to come "h at t "t1 to meet him & /ay ! week4 ,i hope s ! m1 z ,i ?9k y\r conv]sation might induce him1 z well z my fa!r1 to ?9k m s]i\sly on t awful subject on :i* we conv]s$ :5 ,i _h ! great happ9ess ( be+ introduc$ to y at ,nor?ampton4 ,i assure y1 a day has n pass$ )\t my (f]+ up my unwor?y pray]s to ,almighty ,god 9 y\r behalf2 & ,i _c refra9 f aga9 say+1 t ,i hope "o day we %all be unit$ 9 ! same fai? ( ! ,"o ,holy & ,apo/olic ,*ur* ( ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,h[ great is ! consolation to belong to t holy ,*ur* :i* alone ,jesus ,*ri/ has f\nd$1 :i* alone ,he has illu/rat$ ) a nev]-fail+ succession ( #ahh pa/ors & ( miracles1 f :i* all o!rs h sep>at$1 & out ( :i* ,i f9d 9 ! ,holy ,scriptures no cov5ant$ promise ( salvation6 ,! ,ca?olic ,*ur* alone has conv]t$ ^? nations :i* h be5 br\ght to ! fai? ( ,*ri/2 & z1 on ! "o h&1 no man c\ld at ?is mom5t be a ,prote/ant _h n ,lu!r & ! o!r ,re=m]s exi/$1 s1 on ! o!r1 nei!r ,lu!r nor any succe$+ ,prote/ant c\ld d]ive any k ( ,*ri/ianity b f ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*4 ,h[ sublime are ! promises ( ,*ri/1 ',^u ?is ,rock ,i w build ,my ,*ur*1 & ! gates ( ,hell %all n prevail aga9/ x4' 4444 ',go+1 !re=e1 tea* ye all nations4' 4444 ',& lo6 ,i am ) y all days1 ev5 unto ! end ( ! _w4' ,n[ to :at ,*ur* 0 ?is promise made 7a promise :i* involves infallibility2 = x w\ld be blasphemy to say t ! ,god ( ,tru? c\ld commission a ,*ur* to tea* ! _w1 if t ,*ur* c\ld possibly tea* error78 ,c]ta9ly n to ,*ur*es 7sects1 ,i %\ld say7 :i* sep>at$ f ! p>5t ,*ur* fifte5 hundr$ ye>s aft] ! promise 0 giv51 & !re=e came into exi/5ce fifte5 hundr$ ye>s too late to be ! ,*ur* ( ,*ri/4 ,& to :at d ! sects h rec\rse8 ,to gr\ndless accusations ( ! ,*ur* ( ,god1 involv+ ! *>ge ( idolatry2 b ?is v *>ge condemns !m1 'ex ore tuo judico te4' =1 by say+ t ! ,*ur* fell into idolatry1 & t t ju/ifies _! sep>ation1 !y admit t !re 0 a "t :5 ! ,*ur* 0 n guilty ( idolatry4 ,n[ h[ are ! promises ( ,*ri/ v]ifi$1 if ,8 ,*ur* c\ld ev] become idolatr\s8 ,i f9d 9 no "p ( ,scripture any pr$iction t ! ,*ur* ( ,*ri/ %\ld ev] become idolatr\s1 & t !n x %\ld be lawful to sep>ate f h]4 ,*ri/ said simply1 ',i am ) y all days1' & 'he t believe? & is baptis$ %all be sav$1 & he t believe? n %all be condemn$4' ,x is 9 va9 to urge t ,/4 ,paul speaks ( ! 'man ( s91' & ( 'a fall+ away1'--he speaks n ( ! ,*ur*2 & ! v expression 'a fall+ away' %[s t x is n ! ,*ur*1 b sects1 to :i* he alludes--= ! ,*ur* nev] fell away f any previ\s ,*ur*1--?is is matt] ( #ahi hi/ory2 b all ! sects1 all s*ismatics1 all h]etics1 fell away f ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* ( ,*ri/1--?is is equally matt] ( hi/ory4 ,no4 ,/4 ,paul1 ! ev]-glori\s apo/le & doctor ( ! ,g5tiles1 spoke ( ,arius1 ,lu!r1 ,calv91 ,knox1 & ,h5ry ,,viii41 & all o!r h]esi>*s1 all ( :om did apo/atize & 'fall away1' & h by _! s*isms & endless divisions1 & ! _s ( infidelity result+ f !m1 pav$ ! way = ! ,man ( ,s91 ! great ,anti*ri/1 :o may p]haps %ortly appe>1 ! la/ developm5t ( ,h]esy & ,lib]alism4 ,b h[ %all sect>ies take refuge 9 ! my/]i\s pr$ictions ( ! ,apocalypse8 ,z well might t atroci\s assass9 :o kill$ ,h5ry ,,iv4 f9d "s excuse 9 ! hidd5 words ( t volume4 ,b ,i might pursue ! "q /ill fur!r4 ,:at "r h sects to ! ,bible8 ,jesus ,*ri/ gave x to u1 & ^! m5 h /ol5 our book4 ,if !y say ,he did n give x to u1 ,i reply1 !n !y ought to cease to believe t ,jesus ,*ri/ ev] exi/$1 = t is no m a matt] ( hi/ory1 nor a m c]ta9 fact1 ?an ,8 commission to ,8 ,*ur* to tea* all nations all tru?4 ,b ,i mu/ conclude4 ,i h n writt5 all ?is )\t "s fe>2 b1 my de> ,mr4 ,sp5c]1 ,i "k x is a subject :i* is deeply int]e/+ to y1 &1 !re=e1 h[ev] ill ,i may h said x1 ,i h said x ) ! less hesitation4 ,w y write me a l9e to say if y c come "h8 ,i d hope y w4 ,my fa!r says he _h ! pleasure once ( meet+ y at ,mr4 ,?ornton's4 ,believe me1 my de> ,mr4 ,sp5c]1 ,mo/ s9c]ely y\rs1 ,ambrose ,lisle ,phillipps4 ,cl>5don ,p>k1 ,l\ghbro'1 ,dec4 #cj4 ,! lett] 9 :i* ,fa!r ,ignatius signifi$ 8 acceptance ( ?is invitation is /ill extant1 & 0 l5t by ,mr4 ,phillipps to ! ,passioni/s = ?is ,life4 ,x is int]e/+1 z ! la/ vibration ( ! ne$le to ! pole ( ,ca?olic tru?1 z well z = ! idea x gives ( 8 /ate ( m9d at t "t4 ,we give x1 !re=e1 9 full4 ,he wrote x f #aij ,al?orp1 :]e ! family 7 assembl$1 z usual1 = ! ,*ri/mas holidays4 ,al?orp1 ,jan4 #d1 #ahcj4 ,my ,de> ,sir1--,i receiv$ y\r k9d invitation to ,g>5don on ,saturday2 b ,i ?\ght x be/ to po/pone answ]+ x = a day or two1 t ,i might consid] :at ,i _h bett] d4 ,if ! visit :i* y propose to me _h be5 an ord9>y "o1 ,i suppose ,i %\ld h decl9$ x = ! pres5t1 z ,i believe my fa!r & "m w be at ,al?orp till ab\t ! #be? ,janu>y1 & ,i seldom g out :5 !y are "h4 ,b z y invite me 9 ! hope1 & ) a desire1 t good may be done by my go+1 ,i believe ,i %\ld be sorry aft]w>ds if ,i refus$4 ,i !re=e h told my fa!r ( my int5tion1 &1 if no?+ happ5s to prev5t me1 ,i w be ) y on ,monday ! #be?4 ,z to ! h\r ( my arrival1 ,i _c j n[ tell h[ ! coa*es run betwe5 ,nor?ampton & ,l\ghbor\gh2 b ,i conclude ,i %all be ) y 9 good "t4 ,& n[ t ,i h det]m9$ to g1 ,i am really ?ankful t ano!r opportunity ( conv]s+ ) y is giv5 me s soon2 & ,i tru/ t our int]c\rse w be bless$ = our own good & t ( o!rs4 ,& if ! /ep y h tak5 9 becom+ a ,roman ,ca?olic is correct1 accord+ to ! w ( ,*ri/1 ,i h no d\bt t my conv]sation ) y w be ( use 9 draw+ me ne>] to ! "r po9t4 ,if1 z ,i /ill am conv9c$1 !re is "s error 9 y\r views1 let u agree 9 hop+ t our int]c\rse may be likewise pr(itable to y4 ,i h be5 confirm$1 by e conv]sation :i* ,i h _h ) ,roman ,ca?olics1 9 ! p]suasion t !re is some?+ mat]ially wrong 9 :at we may call ! ,prote/ant sy/em2 & ,i h spok5 my m9d to ?is effect z (t5 z occasion has be5 giv5 me4 ,b if our union ) ! ,roman ,ca?olic ,*ur* involves a decl>ation ( my belief ( all t %e tea*es1 & a submission to all h] au?ority1 z _! subjects are set =? 9 ,bossuet's ,exposition & ,cate*ism1 ,i am n z yet "o ( ! body2 & ,i am r$uc$ to ! conviction t some:]e or o!r !re is an error among #aia y4 ,"o ?+ ,i h le>nt 9 ! c\rse ( ^! inquiries is t ! ,scriptures ( ! ,new ,te/am5t are n1 z ,i =m]ly us$ to reg>d !m ?r\gh want ( consid]ation1 ! =mal canon ( ! ,*ri/ian fai?4 ,x is z cle> to me z ,i suppose y c\ld wi% x to be1 t ! oral tradition ( ,*ri/ to ,pet] & ! o!r ,apo/les1 & t ( ! ,apo/les to ! ,*ur*es1 is ! rule ( ,*ri/ian doctr9e1 & ) all my he>t ,i seek = ! k ( :at !y taught1 & h be5 frequ5tly /ruck ) ! desirabl5ess ( a cle> & def9ite au?ority to :i* we might ref]1 :5 ,i h obs]v$ ! mis*ief into :i* ,*ri/ians h fall5 by foll[+ ea* 8 own judgm5t4 ,i d n see h[ ,i %\ld be /opp$ f at once becom+ ,ca?olic1 "u ?is impression1 if x 0 n t on comp>+ ! /ate ( ! doctr9e & discipl9e ( ! ,roman ,*ur* ) :at ! ,scriptures pla9ly tea* me ( ! /ate ( ! ,apo/olic ,*ur*1 & ! me?od ( _! doctr9e1 ,i see su* an obvi\s & pla9 diff]5ce1 & ,i _c be conv9c$ b t1 betwe5 _! "t & t ( ! ,c\ncil ( ,tr5t1 improp] use has be5 made ( ! ,*ur*'s au?ority4 ,i am wait+ to le>n :at is ! "r way1 :i* ,god kn[s & ,he alone2 & ,i c only hope = ,8 guidance ( me into ! "r way by /&+ ready = conviction :5 ! means ( x are (f]$ to me4 ,i decl>e myself to be 9 d\bt4 ,b t d\bt gives me no uneas9ess1 = my hope ( salvation is simply f\nd$ on ,jesus ,*ri/ crucifi$2 :om ,i expect to meet1 z "o ( ,8 r$eem$ ones1 :5 ,he returns4 ,x is n any works ( righte\sness :i* ,i c d1 nor any outw>d pr(ession ( doctr9e :i* ,i c make1 t c ju/ify me4 ,i am ju/ifi$ freely by ! grace ( ,god ?r\gh fai? 9 ,jesus ,*ri/1 to :om ,i give myself1 to le>n ( ,him & foll[ ,him :i!rsoev] ,he leade?4 ,y w f9d me z op5 to in/ruction & conviction z y seem$ to ?9k me at ,mr4 ,foley's2 & ,i w weigh :at y say1 ?\gh y %\ld decl9e to meet me on ! same t]ms1 & decl>e y\rself det]m9$ to give y\r m9d no m to inquiry4 ,yet1 = y\r own sake & ! sake ( o!rs1 :o w ( c\rse be m dispos$ to att5d to y if !y see y #aib c&id & /ill humble & d\btful ( y\r own judgm5t1 ,i wi% y to resolve t y w meet me z ,i come to y1 det]m9$ t we w1 ) ! bless+ ( ,god1 come to "o m9d1 at ! co/ ( all our respective prejudices4 ,we %\ld n meet z polemics det]m9$ on victory1 b 9 ! _s ( meekness & mutual =be>ance4 ,!n ,god1 :o sees ! he>t1 if he sees u truly ?us dispos$1 w "k h[ to make 8 tru? %9e cle>ly to u bo?4 ,above all1 let u pray = ea* o!r1 & = all1 b especially ^? :o mo/ ne>ly belong to u1 & be enc\rag$ by ! promise1 ',if any two ( y %all agree z t\*+ any?+ t ye %all ask1 on e>? x %all be done = !m ( ,my ,fa!r1 :o is 9 heav54' ,pray give my respectful complim5ts to y\r fa!r1 :om ,i rememb] well meet+ once at ,brock ,hall1 & ( :om ,i h (t5 he>d ! ,?orntons speak ) great reg>d2 & to c>ry to him my be/ ?anks = 8 k9d p]mission to y to receive me 9 8 h\se4 ,p]haps ,i %all write to ! ,bi%op ( ,li*field1 to tell him t ,i expect to meet him !re4 ,i hope no?+ w prev5t 8 com+4 ,& if we are all[$ to h fre$om ( conv]sation ) him on ^! ?+s1 :i* ,i pray to ,god may be giv5 u1 ,i mu/ p>ticul>ly int]e/ y to he> & consid] :at he says ) meekness & humility1 ?\gh y may h ! cle>e/ conviction t he is 9 error4 ,surely 8 age & rank1 & ! "w to :i* he has s9c]ely devot$ himself1 & 8 relation to y1 make ?is a d\ble duty2 &1 by act+ s1 y w n be hurt1 = ?\gh y may be p]plex$ = a:ile1 ,god w n suff] y to lose "o po9t ( :at is really good1 b w f9ally e/abli% y ! m firmly = act+ 9 ?is humble _s4 ,believe me1 de> ,sir1 ,y\rs mo/ s9c]ely1 ,george ,sp5c]4 ,he relates1 9 ! ,acc\nt ( 8 ,conv]sion1 ! effects ( ?is visit3-- ,on ,sunday1 #bd? ,janu>y1 #ahcj1 ,i prea*$ 9 my *ur*1 & 9 ! ev5+ took leave ( my family = ! #aic week1 int5d+ to return on ! ,saturday foll[+ to my ord9>y duties at home4 ,b our ,"l ord]$ bett] = me4 ,dur+ ! week ,i sp5t on ?is visit ,i pass$ _m h\rs daily 9 conv]sation ) ,phillipps1 & 0 satisfi$ beyond all my expectations ) ! answ]s he gave to ! diff]5t que/ions ,i propos$1 ab\t ! pr9cipal t5ets & practices ( ,ca?olics4 ,dur+ ! week we 7 9 company ) sev]al o!r ,prote/ants1 & among !m "s di/+ui%$ cl]gym5 ( ! ,*ur* ( ,engl&1 :o occasionally jo9$ 9 our discussions4 ,i 0 /ruck ) obs]v+ h[ ! advantage always appe>$ on 8 side 9 ! argum5ts :i* took place betwe5 !m1 not)/&+ _! sup]ior age & exp]i5ce2,footnote #h & ,i saw h[ weak 0 ! cause 9 behalf ( :i* ,i _h hi!rto be5 engag$2 ,i felt a%am$ ( argu+ any long] aga9/ :at ,i began to see cle>ly c\ld n be fairly disprov$4 ,i n[ op5ly decl>$ myself completely %ak51 &1 ?\gh ,i det]m9$ to take no decid$ /ep until ,i 0 entirely conv9c$1 ,i det]m9$ to give myself no re/ till ,i 0 satisfi$1 & _h little d\bt n[ ( :at ! result w\ld be4 ,b yet ,i ?\ght n h[ soon ,god w\ld make ! tru? cle> to me4 ,i 0 to return home1 z ,i h said1 on ,saturday4 ,phillipps agre$ to accompany me on ! day previ\s to ,leice/]1 :]e we might h fur!r conv]sation ) ,fa!r ,cae/ryck1 ! ,ca?olic mission>y e/abli%$ 9 t place4 ,i imag9$ t ,i might take "s weeks long] = consid]ation1 b ,mr4 ,cae/ryck's conv]sation t aft]noon ov]came all my opposition4 ,he expla9$ to me1 & made me see1 t ! way to come at ! k ( ! true religion is n to cont5d1 z m5 are dispos$ to d1 ab\t ea* individual po9t1 b to submit implicitly to ! au?ority ( ,*ri/1 & ( ^? to :om ,he has committ$ ! *>ge ( ,8 flock4 ,he set be=e me ! und5iable b wond]ful fact ( ! agreem5t ( ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* all ov] ! _w1 9 "o fai?1 "u "o head2 he %[$ me ! ass]tions ( ,prote/ants1 t ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* _h alt]$ h] doctr9es1 7 #aid n support$ by evid5ce2 he po9t$ out ! wond]ful1 unbrok5 *a9 ( ! ,roman ,pontiffs2 he obs]v$ to me h[ 9 all ages ! ,*ur*1 "u _! guidance1 _h ex]cis$ an au?ority1 undisput$ by h] *ildr51 ( cutt+ (f f h] communion all :o oppos$ h] fai? & disobey$ h] discipl9e4 ,i saw t h] assumption ( ?is p[] 0 consi/5t ) ,*ri/'s commission to ,8 ,apo/les to tea* all m5 to ! end ( ! _w2 & ,8 decl>ation t ^? :o w\ld n he> ! pa/ors ( ,8 ,*ur* reject$ ,him4 ,:at "r1 !n1 ?\ght ,i1 _h ,lu!r & 8 companions to set !mselves aga9/ ! unit$ voice ( ! ,*ur*8 ,i saw t he rebell$ aga9/ ! au?ority ( ,god :5 he set himself up z an indep5d5t guide4 ,he 0 b\nd to obey ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*--h[ !n %\ld ,i n be equally b\nd to return to x8 ,& ne$ ,i fe> t ,i %\ld be l$ into error by tru/+ to ^? guides to :om ,*ri/ himself ?us direct$ me8 ,no6 ,i ?\ght ?is impossible4 ,full ( ^! impressions1 ,i left ,mr4 ,cae/ryck's h\se to g to my inn1 :5ce ,i 0 to return home next morn+4 ,phillipps accompani$ me1 & took ?is la/ occasion to impress on me ! awful importance ( ! decision :i* ,i 0 call$ ^u to make4 ,at l5g? ,i answ]$3-- ,footnote #h3 ,phillipps 0 !n ab\t #ag ye>s ( age4 ',i am ov]come4 ,!re is no d\bt ( ! tru?4 ,"o m ,sunday ,i w prea* to my congregation1 & !n put myself into ,mr4 ,foley's h&s1 & conclude ?is bus9ess4' ,x may be ?\ght ) :at joyful ard\r he embrac$ ?is decl>ation1 & w>n$ me to decl>e my s5tim5ts fai?fully 9 ^! my la/ disc\rses4 ,! next m9ute l$ me to ! reflection1--,h ,i any "r to /& 9 t pulpit1 be+ once conv9c$ t ! ,*ur* is h]etical to :i* x belongs8 ,am ,i safe 9 expos+ myself to ! dang] :i* may att5d "o day's travell+1 :ile ,i turn my back on ! ,*ur* ( ,god1 :i* n[ calls me to unite myself to h] = ev]8 ,i said to ,phillipps3 ',if ?is /ep is "r = me to take next week1 x is my duty to take x n[4 ,my resolution is made2 to-morr[ ,i w be receiv$ into ! ,*ur*4' ,we lo/ no "t 9 despat*+ a mess5g] to #aie my fa!r1 to in=m him ( ?is unexpect$ ev5t4 ,z ,i 0 =m+ my la/ resolution1 ! ?\ght ( him came across me2 w x n be said t ,i endang] 8 v life by s sudd5 & sev]e a %ock8 ,! words ( our ,"l rose be=e me1 & answ]$ all my d\bts3 ',he t hate? n fa!r & "m1 & bro!rs & si/]s1 & h\ses & l&s1 & 8 own life too1 _c be my disciple4' ,to ! ,"l1 !n1 ,i tru/$ = ! support & com=t ( my de> fa!r "u ! trial :i*1 9 ob$i5ce to ,8 call1 ,i 0 ab\t to inflict ^u him4 ,i _h no fur!r anxiety to di/urb me4 ,god alone kn[s ! peace & joy ) :i* ,i laid me d[n t night to re/4 ,! next day1 at n9e o'clock1 ! ,*ur* receiv$ me = h] *ild4 #aif #aig ,,book ,,iii ,f4 ,ignatius1 a ,secul> ,prie/4 #aih #aii ,,book ,,iii4 ,f4 ,ignatius1 a ,secul> ,prie/4 ,,*apt] ,i4 ,8 ,fir/ ,days ,9 ,! ,*ur*4 ,conv]sions to ,ca?olicism 7 n su* e-day occurr5ces1 "s ?irty ye>s ago1 z !y are n[4 ,! disabilities "u :i* ,ca?olics lab\r$ politically1 be=e #ahbi1 made !m hide _! heads1 except :5 =c$ into public notice by ef=ts to break _! %ackles4 ,! religion t civiliz$ ,engl&1 & consecrat$ e rem>kable spot 9 x to ! s]vice ( ,god1 _h become a ?+ ( ! pa/1 & ! relics ( ,ca?olic piety t /udd$ ! l& 7 look$ ^u z ! grave/ones ( its corse1 or ! trophies ( vanqui%+ ,prote/antism4 ,n only 0 ,ca?olicity suppos$ to be dead 9 ,engl&1 b its memory 0 9 execration2 nurses fright5$ ! *ildr5 ) phantoms ( monks1 & m\ntebank prea*]s took _! inspiration f ! prejudices !y _h imbib$ 9 *ildhood4 ,! agitation ab\t ! ,veto1 & ! ,debates on ! ,ca?olic "q1 :i* fill$ ! public m9d ab\t ! ye> #ahcj1 & = "s t5 ye>s be=e1 %[$ t ,ca?olicity _h n di$1 b only slept4 ,! ,ca?olics em]g$ f _! d5s & cav]ns2 !y b\ght & sold1 spoke & li/5$1 l _! neighb\rs2 & ! ,k+ 0 n afraid ( a ,ca?olic ball :5 he took 8 next air+ #bjj 9 ,hyde ,p>k4 ,! ,ca?olic ,*ur* _h be5 b>ely giv5 leave to eke out its decl9+ days1 ) some?+ l ! indulg5ce all[$ a condemn$ crim9al1 :51 to ! a/oni%m5t ( all1 x sprung up ) new vig\r1 & wax$ & ?rove 9 numb]s & 9 position4 ,x 0 consid]$ wor? a he>+ n[1 & fai? came by he>+ to _m1 :o w\ld h be5 horrifi$ be=e at op5+ by *ance su* an anti*ri/ian ?+ z a ,ca?olic book4 ,a conv]sion1 !n1 r /unn$ ?an embitt]$ ! relatives ( ! conv]t4 ,! full tide ( ,tract>ianism _h n yet set 91 & ! sy/ematic pit*=ks ( private p]secution & /ately rebuke1 t 7 aft]w>ds inv5t$ to /op x1 7 n s mu* z ?\ght (4 ,! conv]sion ( ! ,hon\rable ,george ,sp5c] happ5$ 9 ^? peculi> times4 ,8 family 7 p>tially prep>$ = x1 = fluctuat+ betwe5 s _m religi\s op9ions z he _h be5 = s long1 & e>ne/1 too1 9 pu%+ argum5ts to _! fur!/ l5g?1 x 0 (t5 half suspect$ t he w\ld g to ,pop]y at la/4 ,!re he 0 n[1 a *ild ( ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*1 %riv$ & baptiz$ accord+ to h] ritual4 ,8 die 0 ca/4 ,he 0 fix$ = ev]4 ,8 w&]+ 0 at an end4 ,) ! exception ( 8 h\se-keep]1 :o laid h] d[n to die = %e] affliction at ! news1 we are n aw>e t _m o!rs 7 mu* mov$ by :at !y consid]$ 8 defection4 ,d\btless1 8 fa!r & ! imm$iate family circle felt x deeply2 8 ,prote/ant vag>ies _h caus$ !m sleepless nights & sil5t aft]noons1 & ! ,*ur* ( :i* he became a memb] 0 n likely to seem less absurd to !m ?an x once seem$ to himself4 ,b !n he 0 incorrigible2 !re 0 no use talk+ to him2 he w\ld h 8 own way1 & !re 0 :at x l$ to4 ,"l ,sp5c] 0 always fav\rable to ,ca?olics1 b x 0 9 ! _s ( g5]osity to a fall51 or ju/ice to an injur$ p4 ,he nev] dreamt 8 own son w\ld be "o ( ! fir/ to reap ! b5efit ( ! measures he advocat$ 9 ,p>liam5t4 ,! lett] he receiv$ f ,leice/] 9 ,janu>y1 #ahcj1 mu/ h be5 a %ock inde$4 ,besides1 a memb] ( ?is ari/ocratic h\se desc5d+ to su* a level #bja mu/ be consid]$ a family disgrace--an ev5t to be wept ov] z long z !re 0 "o to glory 9 ! "n ( ,sp5c]1 or feel = its pre/ige4 ,tak+ all ^! ?+s into acc\nt1 & _m o!r m9or consid]ations1 x w\ld be no wond] if ,mr4 ,sp5c] 0 treat$ ) h>%ness1 & bani%$ ,al?orp = ev]4 ,no?+ ( ! k9d4 ,8 fa!r 0 v consid]ate2 & lib]al1 too1 9 mak+ a provision = 8 son's future ma9t5ance4 ,george himself 0 receiv$ on fri5dly t]ms by e bran* ( ! family1 &1 s f> f avoid+ him or mortify+ him1 !y seem$ all to h respect$ 8 s9c]ity4 ,he wrote to ,dr4 ,wal%1 ! ,vic> ,apo/olic ( ! c5tral di/rict1 imm$iately aft] 8 reception into ! ,*ur*1 plac+ himself z a subject at 8 lord%ip's disposition4 ,mr4 ,sp5c]'s idea 0 to be orda9$ z soon z possible1 & come back to 8 own p>i% to prea*1 l ,/4 ,paul1 aga9/ 8 =m] tea*+4 ,?is int5tion 0 *eck$ by ! ,bi%op's writ+ ^w = him to put (f 8 fir/ ,communion a little long]1 & to come & meet 8 ,lord%ip 9 ,wolv]hampton t[>ds ! middle ( ,febru>y4 ,?is lett] he receiv$ 9 ,f4 ,cae/ryck's1 9 ,leice/]1 ?ree days aft] 8 reception4 ,he ?9ks ! arrangem5t excell5t4 ,he sp5t a =tnight 9 ! prie/'s h\se at ,leice/]1 & he us$ (t5 to say t ?is good prie/'s way ( settl+ difficulties1 ?\gh x might look unsatisfactory1 0 ! v be/ ?+ t ev] occurr$ to him4 ,he made ,mr4 ,sp5c] fully aw>e ( ! great dogma ( ! ,*ur*'s infallibility be=e he receiv$ him4 ,f4 ,cae/ryck 0 "o ( ^? good emigre prie/s :o 7 well up 9 ! ,*ur*'s positive & moral !ology1 b c>$ v little = polemics4 ,:5ev] ,mr4 ,sp5c] ask$ him ,:y 0 any?+ su* a way 9 ,ca?olic tea*+8 ! old man simply repli$3 ,! ,*ur* says s4 ,?is 0 v wise at su* a "t2 ! p]iod = reason+ & discussion 0 pass$1 & ! neophyte _h to be taught to ex]cise ! fai? he _h adopt$ n[4 ,he le>nt ! lesson v well1 & 0 sav$ f ! dang] ( argu+ himself out ( ! ,*ur* aga91 z "s d :o d n leave _! private judgm5t outside ! ,*ur*-door1 at _! conv]sion4 #bjb ,sc>cely any?+ is s rem>kable z ! read9ess ) :i*1 on 8 reception1 he laid d[n all notions ( 8 be+ a m9i/] ( ,god4 ,"o %ort extract f a lett] to 8 h\sekeep]1 enclos+ money f ,leice/]1 to pay bills1 w illu/rate ?is3 ,if y h an opportunity1 tell ^? :o *oose to att5d1 t ,i h ackn[l$g$ ! au?ority ( ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*1 & !re=e resign$ my m9i/ry = ! pres5t4 ,if !y c>e = my advice1 tell !m to s5d = ,mr4 ,foley 7! prie/ at ,nor?ampton71 & he> him z ! m9i/] ( ,god4 ,?is lett] 0 writt5 be=e he 0 a week a ,ca?olic1 & x promises well = 8 future t he does n arrogate to himself ! (fice ( tea*] be=e he is commission$1 mu* less be=e he is suffici5tly in/ruct$4 ,_m1 9 _! fir/ f]v\r1 make false /eps 9 ! way he avoid$ :i* x is (t5 difficult to retrace4 ,! gl[ ( happ9ess at f9d+ "o's self 9 ! ,*ur* ought to be all[$ to subside1 & to all[ ! newborn judgm5t to be capable ( discretion1 be=e beg9n+ to dabble 9 !ology4 ,he pays a visit to ,br+ton 9 a few days1 9 company ) ,f4 ,cae/ryck1 & writes be=eh& to 8 h\sekeep] to collect a few ( 8 fai?ful li/5]s1 t he may get !m a few words ( advice f a real live prie/4 ,x seems1 f h9ts ?r[n out "h & !re 9 8 lett]s1 t ,bi%op ,wal% 0 = 8 go+ to ,rome to prep>e himself = ,ord]s4 ,?is 0 a drawback to 8 own plan1 b ev5ts w %[ h[ wisely ! ,bi%op arrang$4 ,mr4 ,sp5c]'s anxiety to be orda9$ at once & s5t out to prea* is an evid5ce ( ! /r5g? ( 8 fai?4 ,he imag9$ ! ,sacram5t ( ,ord]s w\ld h infus$ all ecclesia/ical k into 8 s\l1 & x 0 only :5 he _h to "w h>d at ! /udy ( !ology t he p]ceiv$ ! wisdom ( bl9d submission to ! judgm5t ( 8 sup]iors4 ,he goes to ,london to consult ,dr4 ,bram/on z to :at he _h bett] d1 & he gives ! result 9 a lett] to ,mr4 ,phillipps4 ,london1 ,feb4 #ah1 #ahcj4 ,my ,de> ,ambrose1--,i write f ,bi%op ,bram/on's /udy2 he has left me !re1 & is gone to transact a little #bjc bus9ess 9 ano!r room4 ,i h pass$ ?r\gh my int]view ) my fa!r1 & ?ank ,god = x4 ,8 k9dness 0 v great1 jo9$ ) great dep? ( feel+4 ,i w tell y m ( x soon1 :5 we meet4 ,i %all leave ,london on ,saturday = ,nor?ampton1 :]e ,i am to be at ,lady ,?rockmorton's till ,monday4 ,i %all !n proce$ to ,birm+ham by a coa* :i* passes ?r\gh ,nor?ampton f ,cambridge1 at "o or two o'clock4 ,on ! next day1 ,tuesday1 ,i w g to ,wolv]hampton1 :]e ,i hope to meet y1 my de> bro!r4 ,i %all h pl5ty m to tell y !n4 ,n[1 let x suffice to say t all my family & ,bi%op ,bram/on are decid$ly = ! ,roman plan4 ,i suppose ! ,"l s int5ds x4 ,8 w be done & ,8 glory advanc$2 ,i w be z wax 9 ,8 h&4 ,my fa!r has made me q com=table = money1 & 9 ! mo/ prud5t way4 ,f>ewell1 my bro!r1 & believe me1 ,y\r affectionate ,george ,sp5c]4 ,he express$ 8 gratitude1 aga9 & aga91 = ! mann] 9 :i* 8 family receiv$ him1 especially z he knew t 8 late /ep 0 look$ ^u by !m z an unmix$ evil4 ,!y 7 ev5 will+ to receive him z a gue/ :]ev] !y might be /ay+ except at ,al?orp2 &1 at ,dr4 ,bram/on's sugge/ion1 he agre$ to ^! t]ms1 z well z made up 8 m9d n to g to ,br+ton aga91 9 compliance ) 8 fa!r's wi%es4 ,^! matt]s he arrang$ 9 a few days2 he p5sion$ (f "o or two ( 8 s]vants1 he made 8 w ab\t 8 /ock ( s]mons1 & x 01 ,give !m to ! new incumb5t1 & let him d :at he likes ) !m4 ,he _h "s difficulty 9 obey+ 8 ,bi%op ) reg>d to ! ,roman plan1 z he calls x4 ,x 0 ! fir/ te/ ( 8 ob$i5ce4 ,he ?\ght x 0 because ! ,bi%op 0 weak en\gh to yield to ! wi%es ( 8 family t he 0 s5t4 ,^! wi%es appe>$ to him to proce$ f pr9ciples to :i* ! ,*ur*'s policy %\ld n suit itself4 ,!re w\ld be a noise made 9 ! pap]s ab\t 8 conv]sion1 & 8 fri5ds w\ld h to answ] #bjd que/ions ab\t him 9 inquisitive circles4 ,8 fa!r did n wi% him to g to ,br+ton1 & he himself 0 mo/ anxi\s to use ! influ5ce he possess$ ov] 8 dep5dants 9 ord] to _! conv]sion4 ,to avoid ^! inconv5i5ces & cla%+ ( motives !y desir$ he might be abs5t f ,engl& = "s "t4 ,"s ( 8 fri5ds also ?\ght go+ to ,rome w\ld make him ,prote/ant aga92 =1 he says 9 a lett] writt5 a few days aft] 8 arrival 9 ,rome1 ,y see n[ t com+ to ,rome does n op5 my eyes & make me wi% myself a ,prote/ant aga94 ,y may tell all ,prote/ants t ,i am "u no *>m1 & if any?+ occurs to make me see t ours is an apo/ate ,*ur*1 ,i %all n1 ,i tru/1 p]v]sely suff] my fate to be b\nd up ) h]s1 & cons5t to die 9 h] plagues4 ,! public p>ade ( ,ca?olic c]emonial _h n =m]ly produc$ ! be/ ( effects ^u him1 & p]haps x 0 expect$ ! old feel+s w\ld be reviv$ by see+ ! same ?+s once m4 ,! v reasons 8 fri5ds _h = deta9+ him might urge ! ,bi%op to ha/5 8 dep>ture4 ,8 anxiety to g & prea* ,ca?olicity 9 ,br+ton 0 n q accord+ to prud5ce1 = ?\gh he might "k ! pr9cipal dogmas ( fai? & believe !m firmly1 he /ill ne$$ t ,ca?olic in/9ct & mode ( ?\ght :i* c n[h]e be imbib$ s quickly or s surely z 9 ,rome4 ,!re are _m traits ( ,prote/ant view9ess to be se5 9 8 lett]s at ?is p]iod1 b1 ,quo semel imbuta e/ rec5s s]vabit odorem1 ,te/a d94 ,x w\ld n h be5 s easy to br+ ^! prop]ly into subjection :il/ he _h ! ?\s&-&-"o =ms ( ,prote/ant errors see?+ ar\nd him1 & w\ld be =c$ by 8 zeal to seek out ways ( mak+ ,ca?olic tru? approa* !m4 ,:]e ev]y?+ 0 ,ca?olic to ! v core1 9 might & maje/y1 0 ! be/ s*ool = tutor+ him into ,ca?olic feel+s & ideas4 ,x 0 well also to let him see ! =ce ( prejudice1 by mak+ him exp]i5ce 9 himself h[ diff]5tly ?+s seem accord+ #bje to ! /ate ( "o's m9d4 ,if he 0 %ock$ at ,rome z a ,prote/ant1 x 0 well to let him "k t x 0 because he 0 unable to und]/& z a ,prote/ant :at gave him s mu* joy & edification1 :5 he c\ld see ) ,ca?olic eyes4 ,a c\ri] 0 leav+ ,london = ,ancona1 & z he did n see any reason = delay1 he took a seat ) him1 & />t$ = ,rome on ! #a/ ,m>*1 & arriv$ on ! #ab?1 ! fea/ ( ,/4 ,gregory4 ,he contriv$ to make ! acqua9tance ( ,mr4 ,digby 9 ,p>is1 & he> mass ?ree times dur+ 8 j\rney1 :i* 0 consid]$ a v quickly made "o 9 ^? days4 ,he also _h a v pleas+ int]view ) ,c>d9al ,mezz(anti 9 pass+ ?r\gh ,bologna4 #bjf ,,*apt] ,,ii4 ,mr4 ,sp5c] ,9 ,! ,engli% ,college1 ,rome4 ,on ! ev5+ ( 8 arrival 9 ,rome he w5t to ! ,engli% ,college & pres5t$ himself to ,dr4 ,wiseman1 ! late ,c>d9al1 :o 0 ! rector4 ,dr4 ,wiseman _h he>d ( 8 conv]sion1 b did n expect to see him s soon1 & :ile !y 7 conv]s+ & giv+ & receiv+ explanations1 two lett]s arriv$ by po/ f ,bi%ops ,bram/on & ,wal%1 :i* put ev]y?+ 9 its prop] place4 ,"h !n we h ?is di/+ui%$ conv]t lodg$ 9 a /ud5t's cell to prep>e = receiv+ real ,ord]s 9 due "t4 ,he gives 8 impressions ( ! college 9 a lett] to ,mr4 ,phillipps1 writt5 ab\t a week aft] 8 arrival1 z foll[s3-- ,i h felt mo/ completely com=table & happy ev] s9ce ,i h be5 "h4 ,! life ( ! college is ( c\rse regul> & /rict4 ,i c\ld n h believ$ 9 ! exi/5ce ( a society = education su* z ?is1 half a ye> ago4 ,su* discipl9e & ob$i5ce1 unit$ ) p]fect fre$om & cordiality1 is ! fruit ( ! ,ca?olic religion alone1 9 :i* we le>n really to look on m5 z be>+ rule 9 ,god's "n1 s t !y ne$ n keep up _! influ5ce by affectation ( sup]iority & my/]i\s res]ve4 ,i d n "k all ! memb]s ( ! college by "n ev5 yet1 b1 z f> z ,i d1 ,i c speak only 9 "o language ( !m all4 ,i h kept company pr9cipally ) ! rector & vice-rector1 z ,i am n put on ! foot+ ( ! ord9>y /ud5ts1 be+ a convictor1 t is1 pay+ my own way1 & also br\ght "h "u su* peculi>ity ( circum/ances z w>rants "s di/9ction1 ?\gh ,i desire to make t z little z possible4 ,i d n g ) ! o!rs to ! public s*ools1 b am to /udy at home "u ,dr4 ,wiseman & ,dr4 ,err+ton4 ,! rules #bjg ( ! h\se ,i obs]ve1 & inde$ s d ! rectors z ! re/4 ,! peace ( sob] college life c\ld n long rema9 unalloy$1 if x 7 to be la/+4 ,:il/ ,mr4 ,sp5c] 0 /udy+ 8 ,moral or ,dogma by ! little lamp1 & unmov$ except by ! anxiety to read fa/]1 9 ord] to be soon] 9 ! field to "w = ,god1 ! _w outside 0 n dispos$ to =get him4 ,v>i\s rum\rs 7 set afloat ab\t ,nor?ampton conc]n+ him2 "o w\ld acc\nt = 8 sudd5 disappe>ance1 ano!r = 8 resignation ( 8 liv+1 a ?ird w\ld set ab\t unravell+ ! popi% plots ( :i* he mu/ h be5 a dupe4 ,^! 7 trifl+ pa/imes1 :i* c\ld be ungrudg+ly p]mitt$ = ! bett] sav\r+ ( dev\t tea-p>ties3 b surmise w n be cont5t ) all ?is4 ,!re 0 8 h\sekeep]1 :o became ill imm$iately1 & 0 ne> dy+4 ,:at did t mean8 ,sl&]\s reports 7 set on foot1 & ! answ] to !m is ! mo/ complete refutation t c\ld possibly be giv51 :ile x is at ! same "t a pro( ( 8 virtue4 ,on ,may #ag?1 #ahcj1 he ?us writes f ! ,engli% college to ! h\sekeep]1 :o _h m5tion$ ! matt] 9 a lett] to him3 4444 ,i see t x has pleas$ ,god t y %\ld suff] "u calumny2 ?ank ,god1 mo/ undes]v$4 ,x is evid5t t ?is sl&] affects my "* z mu* z y\rs1 & !re is h>dly a /ate ( life to be conceiv$ :]e su* imputations are m injuri\s ?an a prie/'s2 yet if all m5 %\ld believe x1 & ,i %\ld live & die "u ?is evil report1 ,god =bid ,i %\ld will+ly rep9e4 ,x w\ld be no trial to suff] calumny1 if x 0 n at fir/ a pa9ful ?+2 & !re=e ,i d n wond]1 nor f9d fault ) y1 at y\r be+ greatly afflict$ :5 y 7 s insult$ & abus$ z y describe2 b1 my de> girl1 y %\ld n h all[$ ?is to weigh ^u y\r m9d4 ,y h m reason to grieve = ?is pro( ( h[ weak y\r fai? & love to ,god is1 ?an = ! sl&]4 ,i ?9k x 0 a mi/ake t y did n tell me ( ?is at ,nor?ampton4 ,i tru/ ,i %\ld !n & %all always #bjh rejoice1 :5 ,i am c\nt$ wor?y to suff] reproa* = ! sake ( ,*ri/2 & ,i ?ank ,god t su* is ?is reproa*4 ,i des]ve reproa* en\gh1 x is true2 & bo? y & ,i1 if we look ?r\gh our pa/ lives1 %all see t we des]ve ?is & mu* m = our s9s4 ,let u !n le>n to accept ! bitt] words ( unfeel+ m51 z ,david did ! curses ( ,semei1 z ord]$ by ,god = our *a/5+1 t we may be purifi$ by !m1 & ,he w !n turn _! calumnies into great] hon\r "o day or o!r4 ,?\gh y _h bett] h told me1 z ,i might h help$ y at once to ov]come y\r annoyance1 yet x may h be5 bett] = y to suff] x ?us long1 t y may le>n h[ mu* y d c>e = "*1 & may h5ce=? give t up z well z ev]y?+ besides t y love on e>?4 ,if y are s afflict$ at a false reproa* aga9/ y1 :at w\ld y\r feel+s h be5 if ! ,"l _h se5 fit to prove y1 by suff]+ y inde$ to fall2 & :]e is y\r /r5g? or m9e1 t we %\ld be innoc5t 9 any?+ = a day1 except ?r\gh ,8 grace8 ,j ?9k ov] ! matt] ) y\rself1 & let ?is ^w ( advice be suffici5t1 & let me h ! happ9ess ( kn[+ t y are aga9 :at ,i rememb] y1 pati5t1 & meek1 & *e]ful1 & all[+ no?+ to conc]n y b to please ,god m & m1 & "w out y\r salvation4 ,i see by y\r lett]1 :i* ,i look at aga91 t y c]ta9ly w\ld h told me ( ?is at ,nor?ampton1 _h y judg$ = y\rself1 & p]haps x 0 "r t y %\ld act 9 x z y 7 advis$4 ,!re=e1 d n take :at ,i say n[ z if ,i _h any?+ b ! s9c]e/ love & respect = y2 ,i only speak to w>n y ( y\r spiritual wants1 9 :i* ,i p>take ) y4 ,a woman's feel+s are m t5d]1 ( c\rse1 "u su* cruel insults4 ,:5 my feel+s are hurt ,i f9d ! same pro( t ,i d n love ,god z ,i ought to d1 & surely we nev] c h too mu* ( t love4 ,h[ inf9itely bless$ are y t y are s+l$ out f ! h]d ( ^? :o prosp] 9 ! _w1 & h all m5 speak+ well ( !m1 & are p]mitt$ to walk 9 ! way by :i* alone we c atta9 to ! k+dom set be=e u4 ,rememb] ! mo/ bless$ & #bji glori\s ,virg91 ,m>y1 ( all creatures ! mo/ belov$ & mo/ wor?y to be lov$ ( ,god1 :o 0 salut$ by an angel z full ( grace1 & is n[ 9 heav51 ,que5 ( ,angels1 & ,prophets1 & ,apo/les1 & ,m>tyrs4 ,h[ 0 h] inf9ite hon\r ( be+ "m ( ,god made ! occasion ( mo/ cruel suspicions aga9/ h] heav5ly purity4 ,if %e 0 cont5t to be> ?is ) p]fect meekness & humility = ,god's sake1 surely y may say ) h]1 'be x done unto me accord+ to ?y ^w1' :e!r ,he %all ord] y to be> ?is or any o!r tr\ble4 ,if occasion is put be=e y to prove y\rself undes]v+ ( su* imputations1 d n neglect to use x1 = ,god's hon\r1 :i* suff]s by our be+ suppos$ guilty1 & = ! good ( y\r sl&]]s1 :o may be br\ght to rep5tance by a due repro(2 b take no pa9s ab\t x1 except 9 pray] to ,god1 & 9 exam9+ ?r\gh\t all y\r pa/ ways1 :at may be ! cause ( ! affliction z ord]$ by ,him4 ,i am sure ,i c h>dly f9d any?+ to accuse y (4 ,i us$ to delight 9 y\r conv]sation1 & y did 9 m9e2 b1 ?ank ,god1 great z my s9s h be51 ,i nev]1 ,i believe1 said a ^w to w\nd y\r delicacy1 & y nev] transgress$ ! b\nds ( respect :i* a s]vant ought to %[ t[>ds a ma/]4 ,b ^? :o1 = _! own sorr[1 w n le>n :at ! joys ( spiritual fri5d%ip are1 _c und]/& any intimacy b t :i* is s5sual & gross4 ,z1 !re=e1 ,i left home s sudd5ly1 & !y c\ld n aga9 und]/& ! possibility t my fai? %\ld be s sudd5ly e/abli%$1 & t1 = ! sake ( x1 ,i 0 will+ to give up my home1 & z y %[$ su* emotion at le>n+ t ,i 0 to leave y1 ^! p _h no way to acc\nt = ! :ole matt] b imput+ to u %ameful guilt4 ,f ,mr4 ,sp5c]'s *>ity be=e he became a ,ca?olic we may conclude :at x mu/ h be5 n[4 ,x w\ld seem t1 9 temporals1 he _h n ^? difficulties 9 ! way ( 8 conv]sion t beset _m ,prote/ant cl]gym5 :o dep5d solely on _! liv+s4 ,b1 ! sacrifices he will+ly made1 prove t ! prospect ( %e] want ev5 w\ld n h det]r$ him f foll[+ ,god's #baj call4 ,a few days aft] 8 conv]sion he w5t to see ! ,dom9ican ,fa!rs at ,h9ckley1 & said1 9 conv]sation1 ,i suppose x is n lawful = me to receive ! fruits ( my b5efice1 n[ t ,i h ceas$ to be a m9i/] ( ! ,e/abli%m5t4 ,"o ( !m said1 ,c]ta9ly n4 ,:]eupon he ask$ = a %eet ( pap]1 wrote a lett] to ! ,prote/ant bi%op 9 a few m9utes1 resign+ 8 cure1 & simply said1 z he impress$ ! seal1 ,!re goes #c1jjj a ye>4 ,he 0 !n :olly dep5d5t on 8 fa!r's b\nty1 & if unwor?y motives _h _h any =ce ) ,e>l ,sp5c]1 8 son might h f\nd himself p5niless4 ,f ! all[ance grant$ him he receiv$ mon?ly :il/ 9 ,rome mu* m ?an 0 suffici5t to pay 8 way 9 ! college4 ,x 0 rem>k$1 h[ev]1 t ! day aft] he got 8 money he _h n a f>?+ 9 8 possession1 & on inquiry x 0 f\nd t :at rema9$ f ! college p5sion he di/ribut$ regul>ly among ! poor4 ,dr4 ,wiseman turn$ ! *annel ( 8 *>ity to a m pr(itable object1 kn[+ h[ mu* he w\ld be impos$ on by ! ,roman begg>s1 & sev]al monum5ts /ill look fre% 9 ! *apel ( ! ,engli% ,college1 :i* 7 repair$ by :at rema9$ ov] & above :at 0 absolutely necess>y ( 8 income4 ,x seems z if he nev] c\ld be> to be ! possessor ( money2 he w\ld scruple hav+ x ab\t him4 ,he 0 kn[n1 ev5 :5 a m9i/]1 to draw money out ( ! bank 9 ,nor?ampton1 & give ! la/ sixp5ce ( x to ! poor be=e he got to ,br+ton4 ,be=e ,augu/1 #ahcj1 he receiv$ m9or ord]s1 & imm$iately aft] he>s ! news t ,m>y ,wykes1 8 h\sekeep]1 has become a ,ca?olic4 ,x is a s+ul> fact t %e took 8 conv]sion s to he>t t %e ne>ly di$1 & 0 yet ! fir/ to foll[ 8 example4 ,%e 0 delicate 9 heal?1 ( a respectable family 9 8 p>i%1 & ,mr4 ,sp5c] ackn[l$ges t he is "u _m obligations to h] fa!r4 ,he settles an annuity ( #be or #cj a ye> ^u h] = life1 & writes to h] f ! ,engli% ,college ?us3 ,pray to ,god to give y a t5d] devotion to h] :om ,he loves above all creatures1 & :o ( all creatures is ! mo/ pure1 amiable1 & exalt$4 ,i d>e say y w #baa h f\nd difficulty1 z ,i h done1 9 ov]com+ ! prejudices 9 :i* we h be5 br\ght up aga9/ devotion to ! ,sa9ts ( ,god2 b let ?is v ?+ make y ! m dilig5t 9 ask+ ( ,god to give y t devotion to !m :i* ,he delights 9 see+ u cultivate4 ,on ! #ac? ( ,m>*1 ,sabbato ,siti5tis1 #ahca1 he receiv$ ! ,subdiaconate1 ,?is is ! great /ep1 z ,ca?olics "k1 9 ! life ( "o de/9$ = ! prie/hood4 ,! ,subdiaconate imposes p]petual celibacy1 ) ! obligation ( daily recit+ ! div9e (fice1 & x is !n ! "y cl]ic is fir/ /yl$ ,rev]5d4 ,x is said t a few days aft] 8 receiv+ ?is sacr$ ord]1 a message 0 s5t him by 8 family n to become a prie/1 z x 0 fe>$ 8 bro!r w\ld h no issue1 & ,george 0 look$ to z ! only s\rce :5ce an heir presumptive c\ld arise = ! e>ldom4 ,he simply answ]$1 ,y spoke too late1 an answ] he w\ld h giv5 :e!r or no1 z he _h long ago det]m9$ nev] to m>ry4 ,x 0 at ?is "t also he wrote1 at ! reque/ ( ! ,bi%op ( ,oppido1 ! ,acc\nt ( my ,conv]sion1--a "w well kn[n to ,engli% read]s4 #bab ,,*apt] ,,iii4 ,f4 ,sp5c] ,is ,orda9$ ,prie/4 ,fa!r ,sp5c]1 ev] s9ce he fir/ turn$ completely to ! s]vice ( ,god1 0 det]m9$ to d :atev] he knew to be m p]fect4 ,he did n und]/& s]v+ ,god by halves2 he ?\ght ,he des]v$ to be lov$ ) all our /r5g?1 all our m9d1 & above all ?+s4 ,?is he knew to be a precept1 a /rict comm& giv5 by our div9e ,"l4 ,h[ x 0 to be obs]v$ 0 8 difficulty4 ,he 0 grop+ 9 ! d>k hi!rto1 & ?\gh n mak+ _m false /eps1 /ill f> f cle>ly see+ 8 way to p]fection4 ,! exactness ( ,ca?olic !ology1 :i* sifts e "q to ! la/ atom1 made him meet ?is "o face to face4 ,! fir/ difficulty he _h to ma/] 0 ! receiv$ axiom t ! religi\s /ate is m p]fect ?an ! secul>4 ,he c\ld n see h[ a v[1 :i* app>5tly takes away a man's lib]ty1 c\ld increase ! m]it ( actions done "u x4 ,z ! v[ ( ob$i5ce is ! pr9cipal "o 9 religion1 s mu* s t 9 "s ord]s subjects are pr(ess$ by promis+ ob$i5ce accord+ to ! rule1 its explanation w\ld remove ! difficulty4 ,two ?+s pr9cipally con/itute ! sup]iority ( v[$ actions4 ,"o1 t !y mu/ be ( a bett] good2 ! second1 t ! w is confirm$ 9 ! do+ ( !m4 ,a v[ mu/ be ( a good bett] ?an ano!r good--su* z celibacy bett] ?an m>riage1 pov]ty bett] ?an ri*es1 ob$i5ce to prop] au?ority bett] ?an absolute lib]ty4 ,! /ate ( religion :i* takes ^! ?ree walks ( life z ess5tial to its con/itution is insomu* bett] ?an any o!r /ate4 ,b ! "q comes1 :y n obs]ve pov]ty1 *a/ity1 & ob$i5ce1 )\t v[+ !m8 ,w\ld x n be bett] t #bac ! practice ( ^! virtues %\ld be spontane\s1 ?an t a p]son %\ld put himself "u ! moral necessity ( n deviat+ f x8 ,no2 because x is a weak w :i* res]ves to itself ! "r ( refus+ to p]sev]e 9 a sacrifice4 ,if a man int5ds to obs]ve *a/ity1 b res]ves to himself ! "r to m>ry :5ev] he pleases1 he signifies by 8 /ate ( m9d t he may "s day rep5t ( 8 *oice1 & makes provision = t defalcation4 ,t is a want ( g5]osity1 x is a safety valve by :i* tru/+ to ,god's grace escapes1 & p]fection c nev] be atta9$ :ile "o has ! lea/ notion ( ! possibility ( do+ less = ,god ?an he does4 ,he t puts 8 h& to ! pl\gh & turns back is n wor?y4 ,by a v[1 a p]son n only resolves to d = ! pres5t :at is p]fect1 b to cont9ue do+ x = life1 & z ! p]son kn[s "r well t 8 natural /r5g? w n c>ry him ?r\gh1 he tru/s ! issue to ,god's goodness4 ,?is fix+ ( ! w1 & n>r[+1 z f> z possible1 ! range ( our lib]ty1 is an assimilation ( ! pres5t /ate to ! /ate ( ! bless$4 ,!y d ! w ( ,god & _c help do+ x1 !y h no lib]ty ( s9n+1 & ! v[ ( ob$i5ce by :i* a man b9ds himself to d ,god's w1 manife/$ to him ?r\gh 8 sup]iors or 8 rule1 takes away f him ! lea/ rational incl9ation = lib]ty to s94 ,n only t1 b he makes x a s9 to rec$e f ,god "o /ep1 & he sacrifices to 8 ,creator a portion ( ! lib]ty t is grant$ to u all4 ,x is a s9 = a man :o has a v[ ( *a/ity to m>ry1 ?\gh naturally he 0 p]fectly free to d s4 ,he sacrific$ t fre$om to ,god1 & le/ he might be incl9$ to backslide at any future day he put ! b>ri] ( ?is moral obligation beh9d him4 ,! p]son "u v[ is ,god's peculi> prop]ty2 all 8 actions are 9 a c]ta9 s5se sacr$1 & ( d\ble m]it 9 ,8 sight4 ,be x rememb]$ t a religi\s makes ?is sacrifice freely1 & x is 9 ?is free d$ication to ,god's s]vice p]petually ( body1 s\l1 & possessions1 )\t res]v+ ! "r to claim back any?+ = self1 t ! special excell5ce ( ! religi\s /ate consi/s4 #bad ,!re are sev]al o!r less cog5t argum5ts 9 fav\r ( ! religi\s /ate1 z t )\t x we %\ld n h ! ,evangelical virtues practis$ :i* =m ! pr9cipal "p ( ! note ( hol9ess 9 ! ,*ur*4 ,t x is easi] to practice great virtue 9 a mona/]y ?an 9 ! _w1 & t m religi\s h be5 canoniz$ ?an secul>s s9ce ! "t ( ! m>tyrs4 ,fa!r ,sp5c] came to und]/& t ! religi\s /ate is m p]fect ?an ! secul>1 ?\gh he knew t _m secul>s are f> m p]fect ?an "s religi\s1 b "o po9t he c\ld nev] get ov]1 & t 0 s9ce v[s und\bt$ly d raise ! m]it ( "o's actions1 :y _c p take & obs]ve v[s )\t %utt+ !mselves up )9 ! walls ( a conv5t8 ,he consult$ _m grave !ologians1 doctors1 & ev5 c>d9als1 = ! solution ( ?is problem4 ,he 0 told1 to be sure1 t x 0 q possible 9 ! ab/ract to h a p obs]v+ v[s1 b t 9 practice x prov$ to be *im]ical & ,utopian4 ,:at is possible c be done1 0 8 maxim1 & he resolv$ to beg9 ) himself4 ,he 0 told by ,dr4 ,wiseman & ,c>d9al ,weld t he seem$ to h a religi\s vocation4 ,he wrote accord+ly to 8 diocesan1 ,dr4 ,wal%1 :o dissuad$ him f becom+ a religi\s by say+ t1 ?\gh x 0 a bett] /ate1 a secul> prie/ c\ld be m useful 9 ,engl&4 ,o!rs diff]$ f ?is op9ion1 b ,f4 ,sp5c] he>d 9 x ! voice ( 8 ,sup]ior1 & resolv$ to obey x = ! pres5t4 ,?is settl$ matt]s = ! "t1 b 8 view c\ld nev] be got out ( 8 head4 ,he gets ?or\ghly engross$ n[ ) 8 approa*+ ord9ation4 ,x grieves him to see s\ls lo/ 9 h]esy & s9 9 a way t few grieve2 =1 ! conc]n he felt = ! spiritual de/itution ( 8 c\ntry began to tell ^u 8 heal?4 ,x is fe>$ he w die2 he beg9s to spit blood1 & sev]al consumptive symptoms al>m 8 physicians4 ,he is remov$ to ,fiumic9o1 & writes a long lett] f 8 sick b$ !re to ,mr4 ,phillipps4 ,9 ?is lett] he hopes 8 fri5d may be caught into ! ,*ur* l 8 patron1 ,/4 ,ambrose4 ,"h we h ! fir/ evid5ce ( 8 gett+ ?or\ghly into a ,ca?olic way ( ?9k+4 #bae ,no?+ /rikes a cold1 c>eful1 ,ca?olic1 :o has be5 br\ght up 9 a ,prote/ant atmosph]e1 s mu* z ! wond]ful famili>ity ( ,spani% & ,italian boys ) ! lives ( ! ,sa9ts4 ,!y quote a ,sa9t = ev]y?+1 & !y c tell y directly h[ ,/4 ,pet] ( ,alcant>a w\ld season 8 d9n]1 or h[ ,/4 ,rose ( ,lima w\ld make use ( ornam5ts4 ,fa!r ,sp5c] has p>agraphs 9 e lett] at ?is "t full ( h9ts tak5 f ,sa9ts' lives1 %[+ t he evid5tly gave a great portion ( 8 "t to le>n ascetic !ology 9 ^! rem>kable volumes4 ,he is wi%+ also t ,mr4 ,digby %\ld become a prie/1 b 9 bo? cases he 0 doom$ to be disappo9t$ s f>1 ?\gh bo? 8 fri5ds grac$1 by _! virtues1 ! /ate ( life 9 :i* !y rema9$4 ,he 0 orda9$ ,deacon on ! #ag? ,decemb]1 ,quat] t5se1 #ahca2 & on ! #bf? ( ,may1 #ahcb1 two ye>s & f\r mon?s aft] 8 reception into ! ,*ur*1 he 0 orda9$ ,prie/ by ,c>d9al ,zurla4 ,he ?us writes to ,mr4 ,phillipps on ! ev5t3 ,i made my arrangem5ts directly 7on be+ call$ (f sudd5ly to ,engl&7 = ord9ation to ! prie/hood on ,/4 ,philip ,n]i's ,day1 & say+ my fir/ mass on ! day foll[+1 :i* 0 ,sunday4 ,h[ w y sympa?ise ) my joy :51 9 ! middle ( my retreat1 ,dr4 ,wiseman told me1 :at none ( u _h obs]v$ at fir/1 t ! #bf? ,may 0 n only ,/4 ,philip's fea/ at ,rome1 b 9 ,engl& t ( ,/4 ,augu/9e1 our ,apo/le1 & t he %\ld ask ,c>d9al ,zurla to orda9 me 9 ,/4 ,gregory's ,*ur*1 :i* 8 ,em95ce did4 ,x 0 at ,/4 ,gregory's only t we le>n$ f ! monks t ! next day 0 ! deposition ( ,v5]able ,b$e4 ,! co9cid5ces are really rem>kable ) reg>d to 8 de/9ation = ! ,engli% mission4 ,he 0 born on ! fea/ ( ! ,apo/le ,/4 ,?omas2 he arriv$ 9 ,rome1 z a ,ca?olic1 on ! fea/ ( ,/4 ,gregory2 he 0 orda9$ on ! fea/ ( ,/4 ,augu/9e ( ,cant]bury2 he said 8 fir/ mass ( ,/4 ,b$e1 by special leave f ! ,pope1 on t ,sa9t's day4 ,he 0 orda9$ by a ,c>d9al ( ! ,camaldolese bran* ( ! ,b5$ict9e ,ord]1 to :i* ,/4 ,augu/9e belong$2 & he got ! bless+ & commission ( #baf ,pope ,gregory ,,xvi41 a memb] ( ! same ord]2 & "u all ^! auspices set out directly = ,engl&4 ,dur+ 8 /ay 9 ,rome he made ! acqua9tance ( our ,fa!r ,dom9ic4 ,?is 0 a great happ9ess to him4 ,fa!r ,dom9ic 0 on fire = ! conv]sion ( ,engl&1 & ,fa!r ,sp5c] e*o$ back1 ) additions1 e s5tim5t ( 8 zeal\s s\l4 ,!y spoke toge!r1 !y wrote to ea* o!r1 !y got dev\t p to pray1 & pray$ !mselves e day1 = ! conv]sion ( ,engl&4 ,we _c "k h[ f> pray]s g1 we only "k t ! cont9ual pray] ( ! j man availe? mu*2 & !re=e1 x might n seem safe reason+1 to attribute effects t c be trac$ to o!r causes to ! pray]s ( "s dev\t s]vants ( ,god4 ,)\t attempt+ to assign causes1 we _c help rem>k+ ! fact t ^! two holy s\ls began to pray1 & enli/ o!rs 9 pray+1 = ,engl&'s conv]sion 9 #ahcb1 & t ! fir/ numb] ( ! ,tracts = ! ,times appe>$ be=e ! end ( #ahcc4 ,nei!r ( !m _h any?+ to d ) ! ,tracts1 if we except a few lett]s f ,fa!r ,dom9ic 9 a ,belgian newspap]1 z writ]s or sugge/ors ( matt]2 b bo? took a deep int]e/ 9 !m1 & f$ _! hopes1 z ea* appe>$ m ,ca?olic ?an ! "o be=e4 ,he sp5ds a week ) ,fa!r ,dom9ic 9 ,lucca1 on 8 way to ,engl&1 & 9 ,g5eva happ5$ "o ( ^? int]e/+ ev5ts ) :i* 8 life 0 *equ]$4 ,he ?us tells x 9 a lett] to ! ,ca?olic ,/&>d 9 #ahec3-- ,i w5t "o day1 at ,g5oa 7see ,*ap4 ,,ix41 ,bk4 i471 9 #ahbj1 to see ! great relics 9 ! treasury ( ! ,ca!dral4 ,relics1 inde$1 7 little to me2 b to get at ^!1 ?ree keys f v>i\s fir/-rate dignit>ies1 ecclesia/ical & civil1 7 necess>y4 ,?is 0 en\gh to make a "y ,engli% sight-se] det]m9$ to get at !m4 ,a "y prie/1 ! sacri/an ( ! ,ca!dral1 receiv$ me & ! p>ty ,i _h made up to accompany me1 & %[$ u ! preci\s treasures4 ,i did no?+ b despise2 & yet :y %\ld ,i1 or o!r ,prote/ants1 look on x z a k9d ( impossibility t any relic c be g5u9e8 ,h[ev]1 s ,i did2 & ,i let ! sacri/an pla9ly "k x4 ,yet he 0 n vex$4 ,nay1 he treat$ #bag me ) great affection1 & said1 among o!r ?+s1 ',! ,engli% are a wor?y1 good p1 brava nazione2 if only x _h n be5 = t mom5t1 t unhappy mom5t6' ',:at mom5t d y mean8' said ,i4 ',ah6 surely1' he repli$1 ':5 ,h5ry ,,viii4 resolv$ on revolt+ aga9/ ! ,*ur*4' ,i did n answ]1 b ,i ?\ght )9 myself1 ',poor man1 :at ignorance6 :at infatuation6 ,& :at 7 my ?\ghts ( t mom5t ( :i* he spoke8 ,my ?\ghts on ?is head _h be5 =m$ 9 my "y days1 &1 oh6 h[ deep are fir/ "y ?\ghts all[$ to take firm root undi/urb$6 ,:5 ,i 0 a *ild---- ,"h he relates ! disc\rse ( 8 si/]s' gov]ness ab\t ! ,engli% ,re=mation1 giv5 9 a =m] *apt]4 ,:51 accord+ly1 ! ,g5oese prie/ ?us spoke ,i ?\ght1 ,poor1 bl9d man6 little he kn[s :at ,engl& ga9$ at t same mom5t = :i* he pities x4 444 ,i _c b add to ?is la/ circum/ance1 t twelve ye>s lat] ,i 0 return+ f ,rome--a prie/6 ,i came by sea4 ,/opp+ "o day 9 ! h>b\r ( ,g5oa1 ,i w5t on %ore to say mass at ! ,ca!dral1 & f\nd ! same prie/ /ill at ! head ( ! sacri/y--! same b5ign features ,i saw1 b some:at m>k$ ) age4 ,i ask$ him did he rememb] & recognise ! "y ,engli% disput]8 ,o altitudo6 4444 ,& is x ,i :om !y w\ld expect to give up my poor c\ntrym5 = hopeless8 ,no6 leave ?is to o!rs1 :o h n ta/$ l me ! fruits ( ! t5d] m]cies ( ,god4 ,z soon z he arriv$ 9 ,engl&1 he w5t to see 8 family1 :o 7 9 ,ryde = ! summ]1 accord+ to _! cu/om4 ,he 0 cordially welcom$2 b x mu/ seem a cold ?+ = a newly-orda9$ prie/ to come to a home :]e n a bro!r or si/] w\ld kneel to get 8 bless+1 nor fa!r nor "m be 9 ec/acy ( joy at he>+ him say mass = ! fir/ "t4 ,?is 0 9 ,july1 #ahcb4 ,e>ly 9 ,augu/ he met sev]al prie/s at ,sir ,edw>d ,d\ghty's1 ,upton ,h\se1 ,dorset%ire2 & ,lady ,d\ghty says3--,mr4 ,sp5c] greatly edifi$ all :o !n met him by 8 humility1 f]v\r1 & e>ne/ desire = ! conv]sion ( ,engl&4 ,on ! #aa? ( ,augu/ he left ,upton1 #bah accompani$ by ,dr4 ,logan1 = ,prior ,p>k4 ,on t morn+1 z ! coa* f ,poole pass$ at an e>ly h\r1 ,mr4 ,sp5c] engag$ "o ( ! m5 s]vants to s]ve 8 mass at five o'clock4 ,! s]vant w5t to call him soon aft] f\r1 b f9d+ ! room app>5tly undi/urb$1 he proce$$ to ! little dome/ic *apel1 & !re he f\nd ,mr4 ,sp5c] pro/rate be=e ! alt> 9 f]v5t pray]1 & he !n rose & said mass2 ! s]vant's conviction be+1 t he _h be5 !re 9 pray] all night4 ,an incid5t occurr$1 z ,fa!r ,sp5c] 0 pass+ ?r\gh ,bordeaux on 8 way to ,engl&1 :i* des]ves especial m5tion1 if only to recall ! droll pleasure he us$ to exp]i5ce himself1 & create 9 o!rs1 :ile relat+ x4 ,he met !re a great1 big1 fat conv]t1 :o _h j made 8 abjuration & be5 baptis$4 ,fa!r ,sp5c] que/ion$ him ab\t 8 fir/ communion1 & ! tr\ble ( prep>+ himself 9 8 !n /ate ( body seem$ an awful ex]tion4 ,h[ev]1 aft] a great deal ( :at ! g5tleman t]m$ pa9ful goad+1 ,fa!r ,sp5c] succe$$ 9 br++ him to ! alt>4 ,! fat g5tleman sat him d[n aft]w>ds to melt 9 ! %ade ( a midsumm] ,june day 9 ,bordeaux1 grumbl+ yet delight$ at ! ex]tion he _h made4 ,! ,bi%op ( ,bordeaux 0 giv+ confirmation 9 "s ( ! *ur*es 9 ! t[n1 & ,fa!r ,sp5c] ?\ght he %\ld n lose ! opportunity ( gett+ 8 fat fri5d to ! sacram5t4 ,he knew h[ hateful ex]tion ( any k9d 0 to ! neophyte1 :o1 ?\gh he believ$ all ! ,ca?olic doctr9es 9 a k9d ( a heap1 0 n ov]-incl9$ = works ( sup]]ogation4 ,he resolv$ to d :at he c\ld4 ,he w5t to him1 & boldly told him t he ought to prep>e himself = confirmation4 ,:at6 exclaim$ ! g5tleman1 mak+ an ef=t to yawn1 h ,i n done yet8 ,is !re m to be got ?r\gh be=e ,i am a p]fect ,ca?olic8 ,oh1 de>6 ,& he mov$ himself4 ,he 0 br\ght ?r\gh1 h[ev]1 to ! no small inconv5i5ce ( himself & o!rs1 & _m 0 ! moral ,fa!r ,ignatius po9t$ aft]w>ds ) ?is fir/ essay ( 8 9 mission>y "w4 #bai ,at ,prior ,p>k1 ,fa!r ,sp5c] met ,dr4 ,wal%1 & he 0 appo9t$ to beg9 a new mission 9 ,we/ ,bromwi*2 he sets ab\t x imm$iately1 & gets an alt> = x f ,"l ,dorm] 9 ,walsall4 ,he met ,dr4 ,wiseman1 :o came to ,engl& ab\t ?is "t1 & !y are bo? invit$ by ,e>l ,sp5c] to sp5d a day at ,al?orp4 ,! ,e>l 0 *>m$ ) ,dr4 ,wiseman1 & ,fa!r ,sp5c] exclaims1 9 a lett]1 ,:at a gr& po9t 0 ?is6 ,a ,ca?olic prie/1 & a ,d4,d41 rector ( a ,ca?olic college1 receiv$ ) di/9ction at a ,prote/ant nobleman's6 ,he met "s ( 8 old p>i%ion]s1 & 0 welcom$ by !m ) love & k9d remembrances4 ,8 *ur* 9 ,we/ ,bromwi* 0 op5$ on ! #ba/ ,novemb]1 #ahcb1 & he 0 settl$ d[n z a ,ca?olic pa/or ne> :]e he hunt$ z a ,prote/ant layman1 & prea*$ h]esy z a ,prote/ant m9i/]4 #bbj ,,*apt] ,,iv4 ,f4 ,sp5c] ,beg9s ,8 ,mission>y ,life4 ,f> diff]5t is ! position on :i* ,mr4 ,sp5c] ent]s t[>ds ! close ( #ahcb1 f t :i* he 0 promot$ to 9 #ahbe4 ,!n he took ! cure ( s\ls ) vague notions ( 8 precise duty2 n[ he took ! cure ( s\ls z a cle>ly def9$ duty1 = ! fulfilm5t ( :i* he knew he %\ld r5d] a sev]e acc\nt4 ,!n he receiv$ a l>ge income f ! b>e fact ( 8 be+ put 9 possession ( 8 po/2 n[ he has to exp5d ev5 :at he has 9 try+ to provide a place ( wor%ip = 8 flock4 ,!n1 !re 7 eight hundr$ s\ls "u 8 *>ge1 mo/ ( !m weal?y & com=table1 & all look+ up to him ) respect = be+ 8 fa!r's son2 n[ he c\ld sc>cely c\nt half t numb] z 8 own1 scatt]$ among hovels & g>rets2 amid _! m opul5t neighb\rs1 :o mock$ him = be+ a prie/4 ,he !n dwelt ) pleasure on 8 ri* b5efice1 & on ! ris+ walls ( 8 h&some rectory2 n[ he pray$ ! bi%op to put him into ! poore/ mission 9 ! diocese1 & delight$ 9 be+ h\s$ l ! poor4 ,! life he l$ z a prie/ 9 ,we/ ,bromwi* is wor?y ( ! anci5t solit>ies4 ,he began by plac+ all 8 prop]ty 9 ! bi%op's h&s1 & 8 lord%ip appo9t$ an ,econome1 :o gave him n[ & aga9 su* sums z he ne$$ to keep himself alive1 give some?+ to ! poor1 & supply 8 *ur* ) necess>ies4 ,he keeps an acc\nt ( e f>?+ he sp5ds1 & %[s x to ! ,bi%op at ! end ( ! qu>t]1 to see if 8 lord%ip approves1 or wi%es any?+ to be retr5*$ = ! future4 ,8 ord9>y c\rse ( life 0--rise at six1 #bba ,m$itation ,(fice & ,mass1 he> "s confessions1 &1 aft] breakfa/1 at t51 g out ?r\gh ! p>i% until six1 :5 he came home to d9n]1 & sp5t ! "t t 0 left till supp] 9 in/ruct+ cate*um5s1 read+1 pray+1 or writ+4 ,he _h no luxuries1 no com=ts1 he sc>cely all[$ himself any recreation1 except 9 do+ pa/oral "w4 ,he leaves two rooms ( 8 little h\se unfurni%$1 & says he has some?+ else to d ) ! money t might be ?us sp5t4 ,mu* z he lov$ ,mr4 ,phillipps1 he did n g to see him aft] 8 m>riage1 because he ?\ght x 0 n necess>y to sp5d money 9 t way :i* c\ld alleviate ! pov]ty ( a p>i%ion]2 & because he did n l to be a day abs5t f 8 p>i% "w z long z ,god gave him /r5g?4 ,dur+ ! fir/ ye> ( 8 resid5ce at ,we/ ,bromwi* he op5s ?ree s*ools2 "o ( !m _h be5 a pork-%op1 & 0 b\ght = him by a ,ca?olic tradesman4 ,"h he us$ to come & lecture once or twice a week1 & is surpris$ & pleas$ to f9d a well-ord]$ assembly ready to li/5 to him4 ,he says 9 a lett] at ?is "t3 ,i g to b$ we>y e night1 & enjoy my sleep m ?an great p d !irs2 = x is ! sleep ( ! lab\r]4 ,he is r sangu9e 9 8 hopes ( conv]t+ ,prote/ants2 b1 al?\gh he receives a good _m into ! ,*ur*1 he f9ds error m difficult to root out ?an he imag9$4 ,he be>s up1 h[ev]1 & a lett] to ,mr4 ,phillipps w tell u :at he ?\ght2 he says3 ,keep ,engl&'s conv]sion always next y\r he>t4 ,x is no small matt] to ov]turn a dyna/y s settl$ & root$ z t ( error 9 ?is c\ntry2 & h[ are we possibly to expect t we %all be made in/rum5ts to effect ?is1 unless we become 9 "s measure con=mable to ! *>act]s ( ! ,sa9ts :o h done su* ?+s be=e u8 ,yet let u n give up ! und]tak+1 = z1 on ! "o h&1 no "o has succe$$ )\t wond]ful lab\r & pati5ce1 s1 on ! o!r1 none ev] has fail$ :5 duly foll[$ up4 ,let u n be disc\rag$ by opposition1 b "w ! m e>ne/ly3 & z we see p ab\t "s h>d bodily ex]tion beg9 ) _! clo!s on1 b1 :5 !y f9d #bbb ! difficulty ( _! job1 /rip fir/ ! coat1 !n ! wai/coat1 !n turn up _! sleeves1 & s on1 we mu/ d ! same4 ,god does n give success at once1 because ,he wi%es u bett] ?an to rema9 z we are1 fett]$ & atta*$ to ! _w4 ,if we succe$$ be=e all ?is encumbrance is /ripp$ (f1 we %\ld c]ta9ly n get rid ( x aft]w>ds4 ,he did turn up 8 sleeves1 & toil1 no d\bt1 at conv]t+ 8 neighb\rs2 he op5$ a new mission 9 ,dudley t[>ds ! ,*ri/mas ( #ahcc2 he fir/ began 9 an old w>eh\se1 :i* he fitt$ up ) a *apel & seats1 & turn$ "o or two little h\ses adjo9+ into a sacri/y & sitt+-room = ! prie/ :o might come !re to (ficiate4 ,he goes on 9 ?is ev5 c\rse = ! :ole ( ! two fir/ ye>s ( 8 life 9 ,we/ ,bromwi*1 )\t any /rik+ ev5t to br+ "o "p m prom95tly =w>d ?an ano!r4 ,8 e day "w 0 n1 h[ev]1 all pla9 sail+2 9 proportion z 8 hol9ess ( life increas$ ! rev]5ce ,ca?olics began to conceive = him1 x provok$ ! p]secution & contempt ( ! ,prote/ants4 ,he 0 p5sive g5]ally1 & yet _h a ke5 reli% = wit & hum\r4 ,he 0 "o day speak+ ) a bro!r prie/ 9 8 sacri/y1 ) sad e>ne/ness1 ab\t ! spiritual de/itution ( ! poor p ar\nd him1 :o nei!r knew ,god1 nor w\ld li/5 to ^? :o 7 will+ to tea* !m4 ,a poor woman knock$ at ! sacri/y door1 & 0 ord]$ to come 92 %e fell on h] knees v rev]5tly1 to get ,fa!r ,sp5c]'s bless+1 z soon z %e approa*$ him4 ,8 companion obs]v$ t ?is poor woman rem9d$ him ( ! "m ( ! sons ( ,zeb$ee1 :o came to ,our ,savi\r adorans4 ,yes1 repli$ ,fa!r ,sp5c]1 ) a v ar* smile1 & n only adorans1 b pet5s aliquid ah eo ,su* 0 8 usual way2 he w\ld season 8 disc\rse on ! mo/ important subject--ev5 g a little out ( 8 way = t purpose--) a po9t$ anecdote1 or witty rem>k4 ,all did n feel incl9$ to foll[ ! old woman's example 9 ! fir/ "p ( ! above sc5e1 ?\gh _m 7 l$ #bbc to d s ?r\gh _! love & practice ( ! second4 ,a p]son s5t u ! foll[+ lett]1 :o /ill lives on ! spot t 0 bless$ by ?is holy prie/'s lab\rs1 & z x be>s evid5ce to "s ( ! /atem5ts we h made f o!r s\rces1 x may be well to give x ins]tion3-- ,i 0 "o ( 8 fir/ conv]ts at ,we/ ,bromwi*1 & a fe>ful battle ,i _h2 b 8 sublime in/ructions taught me h[ to pray = ! grace ( ,god to guide me to 8 true ,*ur*4 ,he 0 ev] p]secut$1 & nobly ov]came 8 enemies4 ,i rememb] "o morn+ :5 he 0 go+ 8 accu/om$ r\nds to visit ! poor & sick1 he _h to pass a boys' s*ool1 at ,hill ,top2 !y us$ to hoot aft] him l[ names1 b1 see+ he did n take any notice1 !y came into ! road & ?rew mud & /ones at him2 he took no notice4 ,!n !y took hold ( 8 coat1 & ripp$ x up ! back4 ,he did n m9d1 b w5t on all day1 z usual1 ?r\gh ,oldbury1 ,tipton ,oudley1 & ,hill ,top1 visit+ 8 poor p4 ,he us$ to leave home e morn+1 & fill 8 pockets ) w9e & food = ! poor sick1 & return home ab\t six 9 ! ev5+1 )\t tak+ any refre%m5t all day1 ?\gh he might h walk$ tw5ty miles 9 ! heat ( summ]4 ,"o w9t]'s day he gave all 8 clo!s away to ! poor1 except ^? t 7 on him4 ,he us$ to say two ,masses on ,sunday1 9 ,we/ ,bromwi*1 & prea*4 ,i nev] saw him use a conveyance ( any k9d 9 8 visits ?r\gh 8 p>i%4 ,x c\ld n be expect$ t ! newspap]s w\ld keep sil5ce ab\t him4 ,he gets a little 9 t way1 :i* he writes ab\t1 z foll[3--,eliot 7an apo/ate7 has be5 writ+ 9 div]s qu>t]s t ,i "k (1 & ,i d>e say 9 _m o!rs 7= he 0 v fond ( lett]-writ+71 ! mo/ viol5t abuse ( ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*1 & ( all h] prie/s1 except+ me1 :om he pities z a wret*$ victim ( prie/-craft4 ,i /ill hope !re is "s /range infatuation ab\t him :i* may dissipate1 & let him return2 b if n1 ! ,*ur* has ramp>ts en\gh to /& 8 batt]+1 & ,i am n afraid ( my little ca/le be+ %ak5 by him4 ,i feel desir\s r ?an n t he %\ld publi% ! #bbd wor/ he c ab\t me & m9e 9 ! ,prote/ant pap]s4 ,x w help to correct u ( "s faults1 & br+ to light1 p]haps1 at ! same "t1 some?+ cr$itable to our cause4 ,he mu/ h felt ! extraord9>y *ange 9 8 /ate ( m9d & duty n[ to :at he exp]i5c$ "s f\r or five ye>s be=e4 ,!re are no d\bts ab\t doctr9es1 nor difficulties ab\t ,diss5t]s2 8 way is pla9 & cle>1 )\t mi/ or equivocal clause2 !re is b "o way = ,ca?olics ( be+ unit$ ) h]etics--_! unconditional submission to ! ,*ur*4 ,!re is no go+ half-way to meet !m1 or sacrific+ ( pr9ciples to soo! _! scruples2 ei!r all or none--! la/ def9ition ( ! ,c\ncil ( ,tr5t1 z well z ! fir/ article ( ! ,apo/les' ,cre$4 ,if he has difficulties ab\t any matt]1 he w n f9d ,bi%ops giv+ him %ift+ answ]s1 & seem+ly ignorant !mselves ( :at is ! receiv$ int]pretation ( a po9t ( fai?4 ,he w be told at once by ! next prie/ :at is ! doctr9e ( ! ,*ur*1 & if he refuses to ass5t to x he ceases to be a ,ca?olic4 ,?is looks an iron rule 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,god1 & ^? outside h] _c und]/& h[ its v unb5d+ firmness consoles ! d\btful1 *e]s ! despond+1 /r5g!ns ! w & exp&s & n\ri%es ! intellect4 ,a prie/ has _m consolations 9 8 little c\ntry p>i% t few c und]/& or appreciate4 ,x is n ! numb] & effici5cy ( 8 s*ools1 ! r\nd ( 8 visits1 or ! frequ5cy ( 8 in/ructions4 ,no2 x is ! (f]+ ( ! ,victim ( ,salvation e morn+ = 8 own & 8 p's s9s1 & x is ! convey+ ! preci\s blood ( 8 ,savi\r to _! s\ls1 ?r\gh ! ,sacram5ts he adm9i/]s4 ,only a prie/ c und]/& :at x is to feel t a creature kneels be=e him1 /eep$ 9 vice & s91 &1 aft] a good confession1 rises f 8 knees1 re/or$ to ,god's grace & fri5d%ip4 ,all 8 lab\rs h ?is "o object--! putt+ ( 8 p into ! grace ( ,god1 & keep+ !m 9 x until !y rea* to _! rew>d4 ,!re is a reality 9 all ?is :i* fai? alone c give t makes #bbe him ta/e & feel ! good he is do+4 ,a reality t w make him fly )\t hesitation to ! pe/il5tial dea?b$1 & glory 9 inhal+ a poison t may end 8 own days1 9 ! dis*>ge ( 8 duty4 ,he mu/ be ev] ready to give 8 life = 8 %eep1 n 9 fancy or 9 words1 b 9 v de$1 & ?us seal by 8 m>tyrdom bo? ! tru? :i* he pr(esses1 & 8 love = ! ,ma/] :om he has be5 *os5 to s]ve4 ,! numb] ( prie/s :o die e ye>1 & ! av]age ( a mission>y prie/'s life1 prove b too cle>ly h[ (t5 ! sacrifice is accept$4 #bbf ,,*apt] ,v4 ,prospects ,( ,wid5+ ,8 ,sph]e ,( ,action4 ,t[>ds ! close ( ! ye> #ahcd1 ,e>l ,sp5c] di$4 ,george1 ( c\rse1 felt x deeply2 he lov$ 8 fa!r )1 if possible1 m ?an filial affection1 = he c\ld look up s9ce 8 *ildhood to 8 pat]nal example2 & all ! virtue he 0 able to practise dur+ 8 y\ng] days1 despite ! occasions into :i* he 0 ca/1 he attribut$ *iefly to ! influ5ce ( 8 fa!r's au?ority4 ,! c\ntry lo/ a /atesman1 & ! ,ca?olics an advocate 9 ! noble e>l2 8 dea? 0 !re=e regrett$ by m ?an 8 imm$iate family2 b !re 0 "o great reason :y 8 son felt s deeply--8 fa!r _h n di$ a ,ca?olic4 ,!re 7 _m ?+s to make up = 8 exclusion f ! mem5toes ( 8 son 9 ! mass1 z n be+ "o ( ^? qui nos praecess]unt cum signo fidei2 su* z1 8 real natural goodness1 8 act+ up to 8 lights1 & 8 k9d treatm5t ( 8 son2 b !y 71 ( c\rse1 poor1 weak assuagem5ts to ! /]n fact t he c\ld n pray publicly = ! repose ( 8 s\l1 & only1 by ! m]e/ conditional p]mission1 ev5 privately4 ,fa!r ,sp5c] goes %ortly aft] to ,al?orp4 ,! new e>l ?9ks prop] to prohibit 8 bro!r speak+ to any except ^? ( 8 own rank :ile visit+ !re4 ,he _h1 ( c\rse1 8 reasons1 b x 0 a sore trial to ,fa!r ,sp5c]1 :o ev] lov$ ! poor1 & nev] felt s happy z :5 ex]cis+ 8 pati5ce 9 li/5+ to ! detail$ acc\nt ( _! suff]+s1 or 9 try+ to relieve !m by words or alms4 ,he put up ) x1 & a ?ank ,god soon made him at home amid lords & ladies = ! "t ( 8 %ort /ay4 #bbg ,x may /rike "s p]son z a v /range ?+ t ?is illu/ri\s conv]t & great sa9t1 z he really 0 & appe>$ to be1 %\ld be %ut up 9 a poor hamlet ^: "n does n appe> ev5 on railway maps1 & n locat$ 9 "s resort ( pride & fa%ion4 ,b ! ,hon\rable & ,rev]5d ,george ,sp5c] _h se5 en\gh ( fa%ion & g5tility to be ?or\ghly disgu/$ ) bo? ! "o & ! o!r4 ,he und]/ood no way ( go+ to heav5 except t :i* ,our ,"l po9t$ out to u & w5t ,himself fir/ = u to foll[1 ! way ( ! cross 9 pov]ty & humility4 ,h5ce he appli$ to ,bi%op ,wal% = ! poore/ & wor/ mission 9 ! diocese4 ,if "o w n be incl9$ to give ?is good ,bi%op cr$it = =w>d+ ! apo/olical int5tions ( 8 "y prie/1 let him "k t !re might be also a m inf]ior motive :y he %\ld acc$e to 8 reque/4 ,prie/s ) private incomes c bett] subsi/ 9 poor missions ?an ^? :o dep5d on ! *>ity ( _! flocks2 & we f9d at pres5t t _m1 :o h prop]ty ( _! own1 are appo9t$1 not)/&+ ! hon\rable & cr$itable prefixes to _! names1 to missions :i* are n able to support a prie/ f _! int]nal res\rces4 ,^! two reasons put toge!r w acc\nt = ! plac+ ( ! ,hon4 & ,rev4 ,george ,sp5c] 9 ! mission ( ,we/ ,bromwi*4 ,/4 ,?omas def9es zeal1 an int5se love by :i* "o is mov$ aga9/ & repels :atev] is detrim5tal to ! good ( 8 fri5d1 & does 8 be/ to prev5t :atev] is aga9/ ! hon\r or ! w ( ,god4 ,alphonsus ,rodrigues says3 ,x is ! love ( ,god on fire1 & a vehem5t desire t ,he %\ld be lov$1 hon\r$1 & ador$ by all2 & s int5se is x1 t he :o burns !re) tries to communicate its heat to e "o4 ,?is effect ( zeal is ! special gleam by :i* ! %9+ ( great sa9ts c be di/+ui%$ f ord9>y s]vants ( ,god4 ,!y are fill$ ) ! love ( ,god1 !y ov]fl[ ) x1 & da% (f floods t sweep d[n vice & s9 by _! impetuosity4 ,:5 ob/acles occur to %[ t ! "t is n opportune1 or t ! sluices %\ld n yet be drawn1 ! sa9ts are f> f langui%+ into ord9>y ways4 ,no2 ! spr+s are op5 afre%1 _! he>ts are fill+ ! m #bbh !y are p5t up1 & seek av5ues on e side & 9 e way 9 :i* !y may possibly all[ "s heav5ly wat] to escape4 ,su* 0 ! zeal ( ,/4 ,*ryso/om1 :o w\ld be bl9d if 8 audi5ce c\ld b see4 ,su* 0 ! love ( ,/4 ,francis ,xavi]1 :o w5t ?r\gh unkn[n & almo/ inaccessible regions to conv]t ! hea!n4 ,su* 0 ! love ( ,/4 ,t]esa1 :o sigh$ t %e 0 n a man1 because h] sex & /ate =bade h] to be an apo/le4 ,su* 0 ! ,psalmi/1 :5 he said1 ,! zeal ( ,?y h\se has eat5 me up4 ,! diff]5ce betwe5 heav5ly zeal & fanaticism is1 t "o is will+ to be direct$1 ! o!r breaks ! bonds ( au?ority4 ,"o acts sweetly & consi/5tly1 ! o!r intemp]ately & ra%ly4 ,"o di/ru/s self1 ! o!r beg9s & ends ) self4 ,fa!r ,sp5c] 0 full ( zeal4 ,x 01 9 fact1 8 zeal t br\ght him into ! ,*ur*4 ,n[ t he f\nd himself commission$ to propagate ,god's k+dom1 8 zeal arose to t ( ! sa9ts1 & began to bur/ =? & devise means by :i* t k+dom c\ld be spe$ily & p]fectly spread4 ,he devis$ plans = ! sanctification ( ! cl]gy by introduc+ a k9d ( religi\s life among/ !m2 he =m$ plans = ! p]fection ( ! laity1 aft] an old b ab&on$ model1 :i* w be describ$2 he _h conceiv$ plans ( f\nd+ a religi\s in/itute1 ( :i* a dev\t s\l he knew 0 to be fir/ rev4 "m2 he _h plans ( prea*+1 away at "s place or places :i* he does n tell u ab\t2 he _h plans = f9d+ out ! secret by :i* ! ,jesuits became su* successful mission>ies2 he _h plans ( go+ to ,cambridge = an in/allation1 & be>d+ ! lion ( h]esy & error 9 8 v d52--& all ^! he propos$ f "t to "t to 8 director & diocesan sup]ior1 b all met ! "o fate ( be+ dr[n$ by ! cold wat] ?r[n ^u !m4 ,he compla9s a little1 9 a lett] he wrote at ?is "t1 ( ! sl[ness ( ,ca?olic prelates ) reg>d to s*emes2 b aft] be+ told to lay !m aside1 he resigns himself ) p]fect submission4 ,he f9ds out1 9 a %ort "t1 t ! ,ca?olic prelates 7 "r1 & he drops 8 w+s completely1 by say+3 ,i am resolv$ to give up =m+ plans #bbi = ! future1 & ,i %all try to ga9 m love ( ,god & devotion to ! ,bless$ ,virg94 ,?is aga9 ,he mu/ give me1 & ,m>y mu/ ga9 x = me2 or r1 ,i mu/ *>ge h] to p]sev]e 9 mak+ ?is reque/ = me1 :e!r ,i =get x occasionally or n4 ,besides ! cross+ ( 8 plans1 he has ano!r cross to endure2 he loves to visit ,hagley1 :]e ,lady ,lyttelton1 8 si/]1 g5]ally liv$1 & he is receiv$ only on condition t he w n speak ( religion4 ,?is he feels h>d1 z he lov$ ?is si/] v mu*1 & ?\ght he c\ld n %[ a great] pro( ( 8 affection ?an t ( communicat+ to h]1 if possible1 :at he priz$ m ?an 8 life--8 fai?4 ,"o plan he =ms1 h[ev]1 :i* does n meet ) ! disapproval ( 8 sup]iors1 & t 01 to g to ,london & beg among 8 ari/ocratic fri5ds = funds = a new *ur* he int5d$ build+ at ,dudley4 ,he seems to h succe$$ pretty well1 z !re is a nice go?ic *ur* !re at pres5t1 :i* 0 built by him4 ,we h only "o peculi> incid5t ( 8 fir/ begg+ t\r4 ,he took x into 8 head to g & ask a subscription ( ! ,du*ess ( ,k5t1 "m to our ,que54 ,he 0 receiv$ k9dly by ! ,du*ess1 & ! ,pr9cess ,victoria 0 all[$ to be pres5t at ! conv]sation4 ,fa!r ,sp5c] spoke = "s "t ab\t ! lam5table /ate ( ,engl&1 on acc\nt ( its religi\s divisions2 he gave a %ort acc\nt ( 8 own conv]sion1 & w\nd up by putt+ =w>d ! claims ( ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* to ! ob$i5ce ( all ,*ri/ians1 z !re ought to be b "o fold "u "o %eph]d4 ,x may be said t he =m$ a v fav\rable op9ion ( ! ,pr9cess f ?is meet+2 he said once1 :5 relat+ ! /ory3 ,i consid]$ ! ,pr9cess v s5sible & ?\ghtful4 ,%e li/5$ ) great att5tion to ev]y?+ ,i said1 & ma9ta9$ a respectful sil5ce1 because %e sat beside h] "m4 ,i _h great hopes ( h] !n1 & s f> !y h n be5 disappo9t$4 ,i hope ye w all pray = h]1 & we may "o day h ! pleasure ( see+ h] a ,ca?olic4 ,?is he said 9 #ahfc1 & !n he 0 firmly conv9c$ t ! ,du*ess h]self _h di$ a ,ca?olic4 ,he return$ soon to 8 mission 9 ,we/ ,bromwi*1 & #bcj writes1 9 a lett] to ,mr4 ,phillipps3 ,i _h a project 9 my head :5 ,i return$1 m ext5sive ?an any t fill$ x ( late4 ,t is1 go+ to ,dubl9 to see if !re ,i might f9d "s unkn[n m9e out ( :i* ,i c\ld draw :at ,i want = ,dudley4 ,?is soon grew into ! ?\ght ( a t\r r\nd ,irel&1 & ! subject ( collect+ alms = ,dudley soon began to look trivial & second>y4 ,i c\ld h>dly conta9 myself at ! ?\ghts ( prea*+ all ov] ,irel& ! conv]sion ( ,engl&1 & exhort+ !m all to =get _! e>?ly mis]ies 9 ! view ( our spiritual ones1 & to beg9 to retaliate ! evils !y h endur$ 9 ! way ( ! true ,*ri/ian1 n by viol5t opposition1 b by r5d]+ good a ?\s&fold1 or r beyond reckon+4 ,?is s*eme 0 put (f = "s "t1 by ! advice ( ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,m>tyn1 :o seems to h be5 8 director4 ,9 ! beg9n+ ( ,augu/1 #ahce1 ,fa!r ,sp5c] got a sev]e attack ( illness3 x proce$$ pr9cipally f ov]-ex]tion4 ,he began to spit blood1 & z soon z 8 fri5ds he>d ( x1 8 si/]1 ,lady ,lyttelton1 & 8 bro!r-9-law1 ,"l ,george ,qu91 came = him & took him to ,hagley1 :]e he might be c>efully nurs$ until he %\ld recov]4 ,!y set him d[n to say mass 9 ,/\rbridge1 & all[$ him all ! spiritual aid he wi%$ =1 ev5 go+ s f> z to invite a prie/ to come & /ay ) him1 & make ,hagley 8 home = ! "t4 ,?is 0 9 keep+ ) _! usual k9dness1 & ,fa!r ,sp5c] nev] =got x2 nay1 he w\ld treasure up ! lea/ act ( k9dness done him by any "o1 mu* m s :5 receiv$ f ^? :o diff]$ f him 9 religi\s matt]s4 ,he writes n[1 app>5tly "u ! %ad[ ( dea?3 "o ?+ looks /range to him :5 he ?9ks ( dy+1 t he _c see :y ,god gives him su* a /rong desire = an apo/olic life if x be n sometime c>ri$ into effect4 ,x may be t ,he w give me ! m]it ( ! desires )\t _! accompli%m5t1 b ?is seems less probable4 ,8 w be done4 ,i only m5tion ?is to prev5t y\r be+ disc\rag$ on my acc\nt4 ,:at is an illness 9 ,8 sight8 ,x is easi] to re/ore me my vig\r ?an at fir/ to give x to me4 ,let u only wait prep>$ = quick #bca ob$i5ce to ,8 call1 :e!r = ?is _w or ! next4 ,9 ano!r lett]1 writt5 ab\t ! same "t1 he says3 ,:at ,i am fur!r to d mu/ be decid$ by my pres5t bodily director1 ,dr4 ,john/one1 to :om = my correction & humiliation ! ,bi%op has committ$ me4 ,x seems mo/ likely t he wrote ! autobiography dur+ ?is illness2 x has ! m>ks & tok5s ( 8 !n /ate ( m9d ^u ! fir/ "p ( x at lea/4 ,aft] 8 recov]y !re is talk ( 8 be+ made a bi%op1 & "s ( 8 fri5ds are do+ _! be/1 by writ+ & s =?1 to help 8 promotion to ! mitre4 ,no bett] idea c be giv5 ( ! way he felt ) reg>d to ?is matt]1 ?an by introduc+ a lett] he wrote at ! "t to "o ( 8 fri5ds3 ,i "k y are z eag] ab\t ev]y?+ t conc]ns me z ab\t y\r own matt]s2 & t y are n[ boil+ to come & be busy ab\t ?is mo/ int]e/+ affair4 ,yet x w prove bett] to g on quietly4 ,to be sure ,i %\ld exult if x please ,god ( ,8 own w to enl>ge my p[]s & faculties ( advanc+ ,8 k+dom1 tru/+ to ,him to furni% me ) graces suffici5t2 b ! call mu/ be cle>1 & ,8 w manife/1 or1 ,i ?ank ,god1 ,i h made up my m9d to answ]1 ,i /ir n4 ,& h[ c ,i "k ?is b by ! rule ( ob$i5ce8 ,_m reasons /rike me pro & con4 imm$iately2 b ^! ,i _h bett] n m$itate ^u4 ,i %all leave x to ,dr4 ,wal% to decide :e!r ,i accept or d n4 ,i _c be "r any o!r way4 ,if he *ooses to he> me plead ! cause = myself1 /at+ :at ,i ?9k are ! motives pro & con41 ,i w d x :5 he likes2 if n1 x is c]ta9ly bett] n to g aga9/ him4 ,i 0 at ,prior ,p>k ?ree ye>s ago1 :5 ,dr4 ,ba9es kn[s t ,i refus$ ! (f] ( an ,iri% cl]gyman to propose me = an ,iri% bi%opric1 on ,dr4 ,wal%'s judgm5t1 & he approv$ ( t decision4 ,no d\bt he w ( ?is4 ,we he> no?+ fur!r ( ?is1 s x is likely ,dr4 ,wal% judg$ x prop] = him to refuse ! contemplat$ hon\r4 #bcb ,,*apt] ,,vi4 ,newspap] ,discussions1 ,etc4 ,f ! end ( ! ye> #ahce to ! middle ( #ahcf1 ,fa!r ,sp5c] 0 m or less engag$ 9 newspap] controv]sy ) "s m9i/]s4 ,! fir/ *ampion ( ,prote/antism1 or r assailant ( ,ca?olicism1 he condesc5d$ to argue ) 0 a ,mr4 ,gideon ,ouseley4 ,?is g5tleman is describ$ 9 a lett] writt5 at ! "t z a ,l[ ,*ur* p>son1 or ,me?odi/1 ( ,armagh4 ,!re may be "s di/9ction betwe5 ! two *>act]s1 b x is only fair to say t we freely grant him ! b5efit ( ! d\bt4 ,!y _h a pap] fight ab\t ! usual topics ( controv]sy1 beg9n+ ) mis-/atem5ts ( doctr9e f ,mr4 ,ouseley & explanations f ,mr4 ,sp5c]1 & cont9u+ ?r\gh a v brisk p>ry+ ( logical ?ru/s to a conclusion :i* end$ by ! newspap] refus+ to ins]t any m lett]s4 ,"s good effects may h be5 produc$ by ! controv]sy1 :i* seldom happ5s1 & also "s brea*es ( *>ity2 b !re is "o circum/ance wor?y to be m5tion$1 ?\gh p]haps x _c well be trac$ back to ,! ,wat*man newspap]1 t ?is same ,rev4 ,gideon ,ouseley is1 at ! "t ^! pages are writ+1 ! (ficiat+ *apla9 ( ! soi-disant monks ( ,norwi*1 ,br4 ,ignatius & 8 companions4 ,! next adv]s>y 0 a ,mr4 ,dalton4 ,fa!r ,sp5c] exp5ds "s v good argum5ts on him1 among o!rs1 ! foll[+ 9 ! fir/ lett]3 ,y & o!r ,prote/ants may say t !y consid] ?is doctr9e 7transub/antiation7 unscriptural2 b ! argum5ts by :i* y endeav\r to impugn x nev] are scriptural4 ,i once us$ to argue aga9/ x myself1 & ! be/ argum5ts ,i c\ld f9d 7 f #bcc reason4 ,!re may be fault f\nd ) ?is argum5t1 because a ?+ c\ld be unscriptural1 ?\gh its d5ial or refutation 7 n2 b ,f4 ,sp5c] e/abli%es ! positive side ( ! "q aft]w>ds4 ,& ! argum5t 0 good ?us f> t its d5ial is an ,article ( ! #ci1 :i* %\ld be prov$ by sure w>ranty ( ,scripture4 ,he does s 9 a passage :i* beg9s ?us3 ,if ,scripture be appeal$ to simply1 ,i "k n h[ any "o c d5y t x speaks altoge!r 9 our fav\r1 :5ev] ! ,eu*>i/ is m5tion$ or allud$ to4 ,:5 we are ask$ = pro(s ( our doctr9e we inv>iably beg9 by an appeal to ! simple words ( ,*ri/ giv5 9 ,scripture4 ',?is is my body1' ',?is is my blood1' :i*1 tak5 z !y /&1 c agree ) no doctr9e b ! ,ca?olic4 ,f4 ,sp5c] ?\ght he _h a g5tleman to deal ) 9 8 adv]s>y1 b f\nd t he _h ov]rat$ ! attributes 8 *>ity suppos$ him to possess4 ,he po9t$ an argum5t ^u ! unity ( our tea*]s z contradi/+ui%$ f sect>ian ones1 by br++ 9 ,mr4 ,dalton & 8 bro!r u an example4 ,at ?is ,dalton took (f5ce1 & ,f4 ,sp5c] made a mo/ ample & beautiful apology4 ,?is evok$ all ! bile ( 8 oppon5t 9 a fl\ri% ( trumpets1 by :i* he boa/$ ( a po/ rel9qui%$ 9 ! argum5t1 :i* really argu$ ga9 9 ,f4 ,sp5c] z a ,*ri/ian antagoni/4 ,he flung out !n 9 glori\s confusion--imp]fect c\ncils1 bad popes1 ,spani% inquisitions1 j z !y came to h&4 ,:5 ,sp5c] saw ?is1 he ?\ght ( answ]+ him accord+ to 8 folly1 & in/ead ( analyz+ 8 conc5trat$ loz5ge1 wrote some?+ 9 ! /yle ( cudgell+ him = ! fun ( ! ?+ next "t4 ,"h is an extract f 8 next lett]1 :i* is produc$ m z a specim5 ( 8 hum\r ?an ( 8 logic3-- ,a s5t5ce ( ,mr4 ,dalton's lett] ran ?us3 ,b let me fir/ rem9d y :at our view ( private judgm5t is4 ,d we mean t e man may set up z an int]pret] ( ,scripture1 t e %oemak] & pl\ghman 7z ,ca?olics say7 may become a prea*]8 ,by no means2 we recognise au?ority :5 x is scriptural1 & believe t an au?oriz$ m9i/ry is ,god's mode ( ext5d+ ! ,bible4 #bcd ,fa!r ,sp5c] replies3-- ,n[ ?is s5t5ce sugge/s s _m reflections to me t ,i h>dly "k :i* way to beg9 ) x4 ,i w fir/ try :at a little p>aphrase w d1 & expla9 :at ,i ?9k might p]*ance h be5 9 y\r m9d :5 y wrote x1 & y may tell me :e!r ,i am ne> ! m>k be=e ,i make fur!r comm5ts on x4 ,i w\ld figure y to myself z reason+ ?us ) y\r self3--,! "r ( private judgm5t mu/ be ma9ta9$ 9 "s =m1 or else ev5 we m9i/]s %all n be able to /& our gr\nd aga9/ ! ,romani/s4 ,if we all[ ( any reasonable notion ( ,*ur* au?ority :5 we talk to !m1 !y w hook u up aga91 & we %all n be able to ass]t ev5 our own lib]ty to int]pret z we l4 ,b1 on ! o!r h&1 if we put away talk+ ( ,*ur* au?ority :5 we m\nt our pulpits1 & imp>t ! ^w to our hi!rto ob$i5t poor foll[]s1 !y w beg9 to ask !mselves1 :at ne$1 !n1 is !re ( our rev]5d guides8 ,:y %\ld we pay any m ti!s1 & seat r5ts1 & *ur* rates1 & ,ea/] (f]+s1 & ! l8 ,yea6 !n w\ld be sad dang] t our craft w\ld come to be set at n\ght1 & ! ,temple ( ,great ,diana 7! ,*ur* ( ,great ,elizabe?7 w\ld be reput$ = no?+1 & !re=e we mu/ tea* p t !re is su* a ?+ z m9i/]ial au?ority at lea/1 if we _c make mu* ( an attempt to prove ecclesia/ical au?ority2 we mu/ take c>e to ma9ta9 t to be capable ( be+ a m9i/]1 a man mu/ be able to read ! ,new ,te/am5t 9 ,greek1 & ! ,old 9 ,hebrew1 at lea/1 h a smatt]+ ( ,hebrew1 or else we %all h %oemak]s & pl\gh-m5 sett+ up opposition )\t be+ able to put !m d[n2 = !y w be able to mat* u 9 :at we mu/ hold =? z ! gr& pro( ( ! m9i/ry1 viz41 t a man %\ld be able to quote texts at pleasure1 & talk ab\t !m s rapidly & un9telligibly z to make a congregation ?9k him mighty wise & deeply spiritual4 ,su* are ! m5 :o mu/ be proclaim$ wor?y ( great hon\r & admiration1 b1 above all1 ( ample rev5ues4 ,nev] m9d h[ _m contradictory sy/ems ent] into _! respective rev]5d heads1 we mu/ p]suade ! #bce p1 z long z !y w swall[ x1 t !y all speak by ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,x w\ld1 inde$1 be m accord+ to ,scripture & reason1 if all :o pr(ess$ to be l$ by ! ,_s taught "o doctr9e2 b ?is we c nev] br+ ab\t1 unless we all get back to pop]y3 &1 inde$1 x is n ne$ful1 nor ev5 exp$i5t1 = ! purpose we h be=e u1 :i* is n to speak s\nd words :i* _c be reprov$1 b su* words z w keep toge!r our congregation1 & suit _! ta/es4 ,n[ z ! ta/es ( m5 are s v>i\s1 x is absolutely necess>y t ! doctr9es we give !m %\ld v>y too1 &1 !re=e1 z we "k t ,bible tru? is b "o1 & ! ,bible1 nev]!less1 is ! book out ( :i* we mu/ all pret5d to tea*1 we _c suffici5tly praise ! clev]ness ( ^? gift$ individuals1 :o1 by organiz+ a sort ( skirmi%+ m9i/ry1 to take ! place ( ! old uni=m heavy phalanx ( ! ,romani/s1 "o fit to ext5d ! tru? ( ! ,bible1 s z to suit ! ta/es ( all sorts ( m51 h enabl$ s _m ( u to extract f ! pockets ( all a g5teel ma9t5ance = our wives & families4 ,i h 9 ?is p>aphrase f\nd myself oblig$ to pass ov] "o ^w :5 y speak ( ,god's mode ( ext5d+ ! tru? ( ! ,bible4 ,?is op]ation1 ,i ?9k1 ,god _h nev] any?+ to d )4 ,i believe t #a1hjj ye>s ago1 ,god did1 by 8 only ,son1 in/itute a m9i/ry z 8 mode ( pres]v+ ! tru? ( ! ,bible1 b ext5d+ ! tru? ( ! ,bible is a v diff]5t sort ( affair4 ,^! words1 ?\gh r obscure1 yet seem to convey v feliciti\sly ! idea ( :at ! ,gospel m9i/]s ( ! pres5t day h accompli%$1 t is1 mak+ ! ,bible tru? s ext5sive z to embrace all ! v>i\s contradictory sy/ems--,*ur* ( ,engl&1 ,high1 ,l[1 ,evangelical1 et hoc g5us omne4 ,b ! "t w\ld fail me to tell a t5? "p ( ! glori\s v>iety :i* ! spiritual bill ( f>e ( ! n9ete5? c5tury pres5ts to ! da9ty ta/e ( our c\ntrym54 ,?is plan ( tru? ext5sion is a wond] :i* 0 res]v$ = ! wisdom ( our prea*]s to contrive & to develope1 "u ! guidance ( a wis] _s ?an t ( man1 & yet c]ta9ly n ! _s ( ,god4 ,! anci5t sa9ts _h no #bcf m idea ( x ?an ,ar*im$es _h ( a hydraulic press4 ,i h tak5 ! lib]ty ( play+ ^u y\r exposition ( au?ority1 to %[ h[ va9 x is to attempt to uphold any?+ l a legitimate au?ority1 & ! "r ( private judgm5t toge!r4 ,i d n wond] t y got r into a p]plexity 9 try+ to expla9 h[ !y may be reconcil$4 ,! ,*ur* ( ,engl& has tri$ to expla9 ?is matt] 9 h] #bj? ,article1 b f9ds x too h>d4 ,%e j says1 '! ,*ur* ha? au?ority 9 controv]sies ( fai?1' b leaves x to h] *ildr5 to guess :e!r ?is au?ority be div9e or human1 infallible or fallible1 grant$ h] by ! ,k+ ( ,heav5 or ! k+ ( ,engl&4 ,%e intimates1 inde$1 t x is n q to be dep5d$ on1 by ! next words1 9 :i* x is said1 'x is n lawful = ! ,*ur* to orda9 any?+ contr>y to ,god's ^w writt53' b aga9 we are left to div9e :o ! judge is1 :o is to keep ! ,*ur* 9 ord]3 is x ! k+1 or e lic5s$ prea*]1 or e s+le ,*ri/ian8 44444 ,ah6 ^! ,articles are tr\blesome ?+s4 ,i h kn[n :at x is to be "u ^? %ackles1 & :at x is to be set free f !m4 ,9 ! next lett]1 8 oppon5t compla9s t ,fa!r ,sp5c] has hurt 8 feel+s1 & made 8 he>t sick51 :i* compla9t ! wily prie/1 z he 0 t]m$1 began to answ] ?us3-- ,i h he>d ( c]ta9 ladies :o h rec\rse to a me?od some?+ l ?is to escape be+ kept 9 ord] by _! husb&s1 & :o sil5ce ev]y?+ t is said aga9/ _! hum\rs by fall+ into hy/]ics4 ,a t5d] husb& w once or twice p]haps be melt$ by ! al>m+ spectacle2 he w run & fet* ! smell+-bottle1 r+ = ! s]vants1 beg p>don1 & say pretty ?+s to compose 8 de> p>tn]'s m9d aga94 ,b :5 he f9ds t z soon z %e has ga9$ h] po9t %e gets well directly1 & is m saucy & wilful ?an be=e--if he wi%es to be happy1 or to make h] s--he w be :at %e calls cruel next "t1 & let h] get well by h]self till %e is tir$ ( fa9t+ fits4 ,n[1 sir1 ,i h once be5 t5d]-he>t$ ov] y 4444 ,i apologiz$ 4444 #bcg ,9 ! next lett] y took advantage ( ?is to make an imp]t95t rem>k4 ,?is discov]$ to me t y\r feel+s ne$ n be s t5d]ly dealt )1 & ,i proce$$ ) my disagreeable que/ions1 & %all /ill d s at ! risk ( y\r tell+ me 9 ! next lett] t ,i h n only sick5$ y1 b made y q fa9t away4 ,aft] ?us sick5+ 8 delicate fri5d1 he sums up 9 ! la/ lett] & answ]s ! difficulties object$ to him v well inde$4 ,we =be> introduc+ purely controv]sial matt]1 except 9 z f> z x be>s ^u ! peculi> gifts or mann] ( ,fa!r ,sp5c]4 ,!re is no?+ b :at any ord9>y prie/ ( fair acquirem5ts c\ld h said 9 def5ce ( our doctr9es 9 ! rema9d]1 except t ! answ] to ! hackney$ objection ab\t "s c\ncils be+ ( d\btful au?ority is v cle>ly & =cibly giv54 ,a ?ird *ampion ent]$ ! li/s be=e ^! _h be5 conqu]$ en\gh to ?9k !mselves qualifi$ to argue /ill4 ,?is 0 a ,rev4 ,w4 ,ril& ,b$=d4 ,inde$1 he 0 s impati5t ( di/+ui%+ himself by ! hon\r ( hav+ once engag$ ) s respectable a foe1 t he c\ld n wait until ,mr4 ,dalton 0 ou/$4 ,besides1 x is v likely he ?\ght ,mr4 ,dalton 0 miss+ f9e opportunities ( giv+ clev] /rokes1 by sp5d+ too mu* "t 9 qu>rell+ ) ! ung5]\s hits ( 8 adv]s>y or1 p]haps1 he ?\ght he did n take ! prop] in/rum5ts ( w>f>e4 ,h[ev]1 he made a gr& /roke1 & aim$ also at :at he believ$ to be ! mo/ vuln]able1 z well z ! mo/ def5celess1 spot 9 ! p]son ( ,f4 ,sp5c]'s sy/em4 ,"h we might be correct$ by ! ,maid ( ,lille1 :o said1 v p]tly1 to ,mr4 ,sp5c] once3 ,ca?olics h no sy/ems4 ,!y h doctr9es4 ,at all ev5ts1 ,mr4 ,ril& ,b$=d did attack ,f4 ,sp5c]1 & le/ he might lose by be+ s+le-h&$1 a brace ( !m--,revs4 ,messrs4 ,m',ghee & himself--made an onslaught on ,revs4 ,messrs4 ,m',donnel & ,sp5c]1 !reby int5d+1 ( c\rse1 to make a gr& brea* 9 ,pop]y4 ,! subject ( _! lett]s 0 ! treat+ ( c]ta9 s9s by our moral !ologians4 ,f4 ,sp5c] made use ( ! usual l9e ( def5ce "h1 b #bch he add$ also an argum5tum ad hom9em4 ,/4 ,paul1 9 ! *apt] above ref]r$ to 7,rom4 i471 tells u t !re 7 no s9s m preval5t 9 8 day1 & none m de/ructive1 ?an t griev\s class ( s9s to :i* ^! que/ions relate4 ,! afflict+ exp]i5ce ( ! pa/ors ( ! ,*ur* leads !m to fe> t no less awfully 9 ^! times & 9 ?is c\ntry1 d habits ( ! l crimes make ru9 ( ?\s&s ( s\ls2 & y\r own recollection ( ! ,univ]sity1 :]e1 ,i suppose1 y 7 educat$ = holy ord]s1 mu/ conv9ce y t our fe>s are n unf\nd$4 ,= :at mu/ be expect$ 9 ! body ( ! p1 :51 among ^? :o are prep>+ to be _! pa/ors1 at ! mo/ critical "t ( _! life1 !re are s few :o d>e op5ly to )/& ! prevail+ fa%ion ( iniquity1 & s _m :o pr(ess to despise morality & *a/ity z a ?+ to be a%am$ (4 ,f4 ,sp5c] 0 tripp$ up 9 "s allusions he made to a ,prote/ant attempt at a pray]-book1 ( :i* !re 7 two or ?ree editions2 b1 s9ce he happ5$ n to be correct z to "o edition1 & to miss some?+ ab\t ano!r1 /ill1 ?\gh 8 argum5t 0 n !reby weak5$1 b ,rev4 ,mr4 ,ril& ,b$=d ?\ght x 01 & s1 or ne>ly s1 ! matt] end$4 ,f4 ,sp5c] 0 induc$ to beg9 ?is pap] controv]sy by ! hope ( convey+ "s in=mation ab\t ,ca?olic dogmas to ^? :o w\ld n read ,ca?olic books1 b w\ld1 & did1 read newspap]s4 ,%ortly aft]1 he le>nt1 by "o in/ance1 :at little good g5]ally comes ( ?is k9d ( cont5tion4 ,he paid a visit to ,hagley1 &1 9 a conv]sation ) ,"l ,lyttelton1 ask$ him if he _h se5 ! ,birm+ham ,gazette lately4 ,yes1 repli$ ! o!r1 b delicacy =bade me to allude to y\r %>e 9 t conc]n4 ,! sum ( x 0 t 8 lord%ip ?\ght ,george "u a p]fect delusion1 & wond]$ he 0 n conf\nd$ at su* p[]ful refutations z 8 adv]s>y's 74 ,all ,f4 ,sp5c] wrote look$ to him p]fectly trifl+2 s mu* s1 t he _h made up 8 m9d to take ,george 9 h& himself1 & conv]t him back aga91 & 0 !n #bci actually gett+ up "s little !ology to aid him 9 do+ s m summ>ily4 ,?is ,george took 9 v good hum\r1 & hop$ good f1 especially z ,"l ,lyttelton appe>$ to be ! lead] 9 ! family 9 po9t ( religion4 ,he 0 doom$ to a sad disappo9tm5t2 = ,"l ,lyttelton di$ %ortly aft] ?is conv]sation1 &1 z f> z docum5t>y evid5ce goes1 )\t hav+ _h ano!r conv]sation ) ,fa!r ,sp5c]4 #bdj ,,*apt] ,,vii4 ,private ,life ,& ,crosses ,( ,f4 ,sp5c]4 ,x c\ld sc>cely be suppos$ t ! self-d5y+1 labori\s life ( ,f4 ,sp5c] 9 ,we/ ,bromwi*1 :i* has be5 already allud$ to1 c\ld be "o ( ^? eff]vesc5t fits t pass away ) ! newness ( *ange1 :5 "o rememb]s 8 life z a ,prote/ant m9i/]4 ,he did n abate "o iota ( 8 mortifications or lab\rs1 b he became sy/ematiz$ ) !m1 & manag$1 "u ! advice ( 8 director1 to keep f extremes4 ,he no long] scrupl$ pay+ = a conveyance1 if he ?\ght ! object ( 8 j\rney 0 wor? m ?an ! coa*-f>e4 ,= lett]s1 he foll[$ ! same rule1 ?\gh1 z he 0 9 a position to obta9 franks v frequ5tly1 he _h n s mu* difficulty to put up ) 9 ! matt] ( pay+ heavy po/age4 ,to be> ^! rem>ks out1 we h "s ( 8 own lett]s1 b ! lett] ( a lady1 :o made 8 acqua9tance "s "t ab\t #ahce1 & _h frequ5t opportunities ( obs]v+ him up to ! "t ( 8 becom+ a ,passioni/1 w be m satisfactory ?an snat*es ( s5t5ces "h & !re1 :i* accid5tally tell :at he 0 do+4 ,9 ! ye> #ahce ,i fir/ became acqua9t$ ) ! ,ca?olic religion1 &1 9 consequ5ce1 ) ! ,hon4 & ,rev4 ,george ,sp5c]1 :o in/ruct$ & aft]w>ds receiv$ me into ! ,*ur*4 ,f t "t till ! pres5t ,i nev] = a mom5t d\bt$ ( 8 extraord9>y sanctity4 ,he nev] 9 all 8 disc\rses ) me1 :i* 7 num]\s1 spoke ( any?+ b ) an aim to ! glory ( ,god4 ,i knew 8 h\sekeep] at ,we/ ,bromwi*1 a v good woman1 :o has be5 dead _m ye>s4 ,%e told me t %e _m times f\nd him1 v e>ly 9 ! morn+1 #bda clean+ 8 own %oes1 & %e d>e n let him see h] = fe> ( confusion4 ,%e (t5 rem>k$ t he sp5t a v long "t 9 ! ex]cise ( pray] & m$itation4 ,he 0 s zeal\s = ! salvation ( s\ls t :5ev] he saw any new com] 9 8 *apel he w\ld f9d !m out1 g to _! h\ses & speak ) !m2 he ?us br\ght _m into ! ,*ur*4 ,al?\gh he 0 insult$ 9 all k9ds ( ways1 on 8 walks1 he rejoic$ & ?ank$ ,god = all4 ,:5 he op5$ 8 mission 9 ,dudley1 r ?an g to a public inn he slept1 wrapp$ up 9 a l>ge r\gh cloak1 on ! b>e floor ( :at s]v$ z = sacri/y1 & cont9u$ to d s = "s "t until he _h a prop] place prep>$4 ,_m nights at 8 own home he us$ to di/urb ! b$ a little1 b x 0 f\nd t he _h n la9 9 x at all = ! :ole night4 ,:5 he 0 in/ruct+ me 9 ! ye> #ahcf1 he broke a blood-vessel1 & ?\gh ! blood lit]ally fl[$ f 8 head into a di%1 he cont9u$ on ! in/ructions4 ,he visit$ ! sick con/antly4 ,on "o occasion he w5t to see a poor woman1 :o _h n "o to att5d h]2 %e became v re/less :il/ he 0 !re1 & want$ to g d[n/airs2 he wrapp$ h] up 9 a blanket & c>ri$ h] d[n4 ,%e 0 no soon] d[n ?an %e want$ to be br\ght up aga92 he br\ght h] up1 too2 %e got quiet !n1 li/5$ to him1 & aft] a %ort "t expir$ be=e he left ! room4 ,at "o h\se :]e he visit$1 a *ild 0 suff]+ f a bad m\?1 s t x 0 q di/ress+ to look at x4 ,fa!r ,sp5c] laid 8 f+] on ! *ild's tongue1 & said1 ',x w be well2' 9 a half-an-h\r aft]w>ds x 0 q well4 ,once my gr&mo!r 0 at ! po9t ( dea?2 he came & bless$ h]1 & 9 a day or two %e 0 q well4 ,miracul\s cures are wr\ght v frequ5tly by prie/s' bless+s4 ,:atev] ?\ blesse/ %all be bless$1 is n pron\nc$ 9 va9 at _! ord9ation2 & we mu/1 z ,fa!r ,ignatius w\ld say po9t$ly to ^? :o reflect$ little on !m1 rememb] t our ,"l's words d des]ve "s little att5tion4 ,fai? c remove m\nta9s1 & x is only prop] & j t fai? c\ld d some?+ less4 ,s9ce ! fai? ( ! p]son #bdb made :ole is (t5 z p[]ful z ! fai? ( ! s]vant ( ,god1 ea* side escapes ! vanity ( hav+ wr\ght wond]s1 by attribut+ ! effect to ! o!r4 ,he g5]ally w5t to ! kit*5 himself1 or o!r places1 to get :at he want$1 & w\ld (t5 d )\t a ?+1 r ?an tr\ble 8 h\sekeep] or a s]vant1 if he knew !m to be engag$4 ,he wi%$ to be n only 8 own s]vant1 b ! s]vant ( ev]ybody z f> z he c\ld4 ,he us$ to beg ( my fa!r & me to pray t he might become poor] ?an ! poore/ man we ev] knew4 ,he ev5 once ask$ my fa!r to pray t he might become s poor z to be compell$ to lie d[n & die 9 a dit*4 ,i nev] saw him out ( he>t or 9 ! lea/ disc\rag$1 h[ev] difficult a case he might come across3 he w\ld g5]ally say1 ',we mu/ g on1 rejoice & ?ank ,god2 x w all come "r 9 ! end4' ,"o ( 8 =m] high-up fri5ds & he 7 walk+ by a lunatic asylum once1 & 8 fri5d rem>k$ t he %\ld soon be fit = admission !re4 ,?is he us$ to relate ) z great glee z if he _h receiv$ a fir/-rate complim5t1 p]haps great]4 ,:5 he visit$ our h\se 9 ! c\ntry once1 he /ruck 8 head aga9/ a beam some:]e1 & ,i 0 a/oni%$ at he>+ him exclaim1 ',s]v$ me "r4' ,sev]al de> fri5ds die ab\t ?is "t1 & ! conflict betwe5 affection & religi\s deta*m5t is beautifully p\rtray$ 9 ! yield+ ( ! =m] to ! latt] by sev]al rem>ks ( 8 own & o!rs1 :i* we subjo94 ,he he>s ( ! dea? ( ,c>d9al ,weld ab\t ! beg9n+ ( ! ye> #ahcg1 & ?us writes to ,mr4 ,phillipps ab\t x3 ,y h he>d1 ( c\rse1 ( ,c>d9al ,weld's dea?4 ,i h felt t x is to me l ! loss ( a fa!r almo/2 = he treat$ me z a *ild1 z no d\bt he did a great _m m4 ,b we mu/ n give way to sorr[s1 = we h en\gh to d ) our feel+s 9 ! battle aga9/ pres5t evils1 )\t wa/+ !m on evils :i* are irrem$iable4 ,! next dea? he he>d ( 0 t ( ! ,hon\rable ,george ,qu91 a nephew ( 81 & he wrote to ,mr4 ,phillipps3 ,t is ano!r w>n+ to u to pray bett] = ! rema9d]1 :5 "o ( our f\r families is #bdc c>ri$ (f be=e ! fruit ( our pray]s appe>s4 ,some:]e ab\t ?is "t ,"l ,lyttelton dies also1 )\t hav+ succe$$ 9 ! project he =m$ la/ ye>1 nor did poor ,fa!r ,sp5c] succe$ mu* 9 br++ him ov] to 8 side4 ,he always respect$ ?is good bro!r-9-law1 & ! feel+ 0 return$4 ,he felt greatly = 8 loss1 z well z = ! b]eavem5t ( 8 si/]4 ,to add to 8 trials1 a *ange comes ov] ! relations betwe5 him & 8 family4 ,hi!rto x 0 /ipulat$ t ,fa!r ,sp5c] 0 to be always receiv$ z a welcome gue/ provid$ he nev] spoke on religi\s subjects4 ,! ,bi%op ?9ks x1 z ( c\rse x 01 unfair to place re/rictions ^u him1 & n leave ! matt] to 8 own discretion4 ,x 0 n q becom+ = a prie/ to pay visits1 & keep 8 lips clos$ by contract on ev]y?+ t 0 prop] to 8 sacr$ "*4 ,on ! o!r h&1 ! family did n l to h _! agreeable p>ties di/urb$ by controv]sy1 :i* 0 likely to draw out hott] words ?an 0 suitable to ! /ate ( ?+s4 ,bo? sides _h "s k9d ( reason to %[1 & ,fa!r ,sp5c] 0 plac$ betwe5 !m4 ,he communicat$ ! decision ( 8 bi%op to ! m influ5tial memb]s ( ! ,sp5c] family1 b he f\nd !y w\ld n b5d4 ,he *e]fully gives up visit+1 & ev5 consoles "s ( 8 fri5ds :o manife/ _! conc]n t he %\ld be deb>r$ a pleasure s innoc5t & app>5tly s ju/ifiable4 ,h[ mu* he felt ?is1 not)/&+ 8 *e]ful resignation1 may be se5 f ! foll[+ te/imony1 ( "o :o knew him well1 to ! affection he _h = ,lady ,lyttelton1 8 si/]1 :o /ill survives3-- ,9 ! ye> #ahcg ,mr4 ,mackey 7,mrs4 ,mackey writes ! lett]7 0 engag$ pa9t+ a picture = ,fa!r ,ignatius1 = 8 *apel at ,we/ ,bromwi*1 & we saw a great deal ( him4 ,he 0 devot$ly atta*$ to 8 si/]1 ,lady ,lyttelton1 & he (t5 us$ to speak ( h] lov+ c>e ( him :5 a boy2 & once1 :5 ,i quot$ ^? l9es ( ,gray3-- #bdd ',see ! wret* t long 0 toss'd ,on ! /ormy b$ ( pa91 ,at once rega9 8 vig\r lo/1 ,& brea! & walk aga94 ,! meane/ note t swells ! gale1 ,! simple/ fl[] t sc5ts ! dale1 ,! common sun1 ! air1 ! skies1 ,to him are op5+ ,p>adise--' he 0 mu* affect$1 & said he _h n he>d !m s9ce 8 si/]1 ,lady ,lyttelton1 repeat$ !m to him aft] recov]+ f an illness :5 he 0 "y4 ,!re 01 also1 a song he sang occasionally at our h\se1 because %e lik$ x1 & _h taught x to him4 ,he sang x ) su* feel+ t x always mov$ me to te>s1 & z soon z ,i he>d ( 8 dea? ,i began to s+ x1 & x kept recurr+ to me all day4 ,i seem$ to rejoice = him 9 ! song4 ,^! are ! words3 !y are ,moore's3-- ',! bird1 let loose 9 ,ea/]n skies1 ,:5 ha/5+ fondly home1 ,ne'er /oops to e>? h] w+1 nor flies ,:]e idle w>bl]s roam4 ,b high %e %oots ?r\gh air & light1 ,above all l[ delay3 ,:]e no?+ e>?ly b\nds h] flight1 ,nor %ad[ dims h] way4 ,s grant me1 ,"l1 f ev'ry c>e1 ,& /a9 ( passion free1 ,al(t ?r\gh virtue's nobl] air1 ,to w+ my c\rse to !e4 ,no s9 to cl\d1 no lure to /ay1 ,my s\l z home %e spr+s1 ,?y sun%9e on h] joyful way1 ,?y fre$om on h] w+s4' ,he 0 always v mu* mov$ :5 speak+ ( ,lady ,lyttelton4 ,x 0 no small sacrifice to submit ) *e]fulness to ! circum/ances :i* prev5t$ him visit+ ?is si/]1 n[ t %e _h become a wid[ & _h ne$ ( a consol] to help h]self & *ildr5 to be> _! affliction4 ,he simply says3 ,i f9d all my crosses & vexations to be bless+s2 & directly ,i made ! sacrifice ( feel+ to duty1 ,god s5t me ! be/ set ( cate*um5s ,i h _h yet4 #bde ,among o!rs1 a man & wife :o h be5 male & female prea*]s1 among ! ,primitive ,me?odi/s1 or ,rant]s4 ,8 great fri5d & director1 ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,m>tyn1 0 ! next ( ^: dea? he he>d4 ,?is good & virtu\s prie/ 0 m ?an a fri5d to ,fa!r ,sp5c]4 ,he s]v$ 8 novitiate to ! "w ( ! ,engli% mission1 "u 8 direction 9 ,walsall1 = ?ree mon?s be=e he came to ,we/ ,bromwi*4 ,he _h be5 8 confessor & guide 9 all 8 practices ( piety until n[4 ,he manag$ 8 affairs ) z mu* int]e/ z if !y 7 8 own2 he 0 ev] ready ) 8 c\nsel & assi/ance1 & seems to h tak5 ! ,dudley mission z soon z ,fa!r ,sp5c] _h built ! *ur* !re4 ,fa!r ,sp5c] prea*$ 8 fun]al oration1 & paid ! la/ tribute ( respect to 8 mortal rema9s 9 ! v spot :]e he s (t5 pr(it$ by 8 c\nsels4 ,"h !re 0 no cause ( regret1 except = ! good prie/'s wid[$ flock1 = 8 sa9tly life gave /rong hopes ( a bless$ et]nity4 ,x 0 said1 9 a =m] *apt]1 t he gave all 8 money to ! ,bi%op1 & _h sums giv5 him n[ & aga91 ( :i* he return$ an acc\nt at /at$ times1 to see if ! way 9 :i* he sp5t !m w\ld be approv$ (4 ,x may be int]e/+ to "k h[ he kept ^! acc\nts4 ,=tunately a few leaves ( ! book 9 :i* !y 7 not$ h be5 f\nd among 8 pap]s1 & f !m we make ! foll[+ extract3-- #bdf #ahch4 s4 d4 ,dec4 #a4 ,mrs4 ,ni*oll's r5t paid up to ,nov4 #ab #a #j #j ,advanc$ to ,mr4 ,elves #j #aj #j ,mr4 ,davis1 = a walk to ,walsall #j #a #j #b4 ,lett] to ,p>is #j #a #e #c4 ,omnibus to & f ,birm+ham #j #b #j ,giv5 to ,bridget ,cull+e #j #b #j ,%oe-/r+ #j #j #f ,mrs4 ,coop]4 ,h\sekeep+ #a #a #g ,wa%+ #j #e #h ,po/age #a #a #i ,wat*man #j #j #i ,mr4 ,elves #j #c #f ,betsy ,hawk9s1 qu>t]'s wages #j #ae #j ,mrs4 ,coop]1 t[>ds wages #e #j #j ,advanc$ to ,mr4 ,elves #e #j #j #d4 ,mrs4 ,:elan #j #aj #j ,john & ,b>ney ,:ite1 = a message #j #a #j ,elizabe? ,morley #j #a #j #e4 ,armytage1 #f;d42 ,mrs4 ,br[n1 #as4 #j #a #f ,coals1 paid ,mr4 ,pe>se #a #f #c #f4 ,p4 ,o',bri51 #bs42 ,peggy1 #as4 #j #c #j ,boy :o br\ght horse #j #a #j ,gordon1 but*]'s bill #e #ai #j ,seal+-wax #j #j #f ,lett] to ,dr4 ,wiseman #j #b #c #g4 ,mrs4 ,cottril1 #as4 #f;d42 ,mrs4 ,gale1 #as4 #j #b #f ,turnpike1 #h;d42 ,*s4 ,gordon1 #f;d4 #j #a #b #h4 ,gig-:ip1 #bs4 #f;d42 turnpike1 #h;d4 #j #c #b ,morris1 = ,mrs4 ,callaghan's r5t #j #ae #j ,%5ton1 = hold+ ! m>e #j #a #j ,clo!s-bru% #j #b #f #i4 ,conway1 #gs4#f;d42 s*ool-w9d[ m5d$1#f;d #j #h #j #aj4 ,turnpike1 #d;d42 horse at ,dudley1 #fs4 #j #f #d ,hat at ,domely's #a #a #j ,mrs4 ,br[n1 tailor's #j #b #j ,gloves #j #a #aj ,armytage1 #f;d42 lucif]s1 #b;d4 #j #j #h #aa4 ,/uff to make a coll>1 c4 #j #c #i ,two doz5 ,d\ay ,cate*isms #j #d #j ,c>riage ( p>cel to ,dr4 ,flet*] #j #a #b #ab4 ,john ,coll+e1 #as42 ,p4 ,o',bri51 #bs4 #j #c #j ,adv4 to ,mr4 ,elves #j #a #j #ac4 ,adv4 to ,mrs4 ,coop]1 = wages #f #j #j ,h\sekeep+ #j #ag #aj ,ribbon = /ole #j #e #b ,p>cel1 #hs4 #b;d42 po/age1 #cs4 #h;d4 #j #aa #aj ,wa%+1 #ds4 #i;d42 ,mr4 ,elves1 #h;d4 #j #e #e ,to ?is may be add$1 t on ! cr$it side he puts 8 in/alm5ts f ! ,bi%op1 & e s+le p5ny he gets 9 ! %ape ( (f]+s1 seat-r5ts1 alms1 c41 c4 ,!re h also rema9$1 betwe5 "s ( ! leaves ( ?is acc\nt-book1 a few little slips ( pap]1 on :i* he p5cill$ :atev] he paid or receiv$ :5 away f home1 s z to be able to note x d[n :5 he came back4 ,x #bdg may be well to rem>k t ! extract giv5 above _c be tak5 z an av]age ( 8 exp5diture1 z ,decemb] is a mon? :5 bills come 9 ?ick] ?an 9 o!r mon?s ( ! ye>4 ,x w be rememb]$ t ?is mode ( manag+ 8 h\sehold affairs1 0 ! result ( ! trial ,fa!r ,sp5c] made ( ! v[s ( religion 9 8 secul> /ate1 :i* has be5 allud$ to 9 a =m] *apt]4 #bdh ,,*apt] ,,viii4 ,association ,( ,pray]s ,= ,! ,conv]sion ,( ,engl&4 ,x 0 9 ! ye> #ahch t he began ! great "w to :i* 8 life & en]gies 7 aft]w>ds devot$--! mov+ ( ! ,ca?olics ev]y:]e to pray conjo9tly = ! conv]sion ( ,engl&4 ,be=e ?is "t he & a few ( 8 fri5ds pray$ privately1 said or he>d masses = ?is int5tion1 & enc\rag$ "o ano!r by lett]s & conv]sations to p]sev]ance 9 s holy a practice4 ,n[ he w5t to "w on a l>g] scale4 ,h[ ?is *ange 9 ! work+ ( 8 zeal 0 br\ght ab\t w be be/ se5 f a lett] he wrote to ,dr4 ,briggs 9 ,novemb]1 #ahch4 ,be=e1 h[ev]1 quot+ x1 x may be well to rem>k t ! cause ( 8 go+ to ,france ) ,mr4 ,phillipps 0 t he 0 break+ d[n 9 heal?1 h>d-work$ by two labori\s missions1 = :i* he _h no assi/ant s9ce ,mr4 ,m>tyn's dea?1 & t 8 doctor advis$ *ange ( air & re/4 ,"h is ! lett]3-- ,london1 ,nov4 #e1 #ahch4 ,my ,de> ,"l1--,i hope ,i %all be do+ "r to expla9 to y\r lord%ip ! real circum/ances ( ! transaction :i*1 y may p]haps h be5 told1 has be5 adv]t$ to 9 ,! ,times newspap] ( ,nov4 #c1 & "s o!r pap] s9ce2 :i* /ates1 f ! ,gazette de ,france1 t ,i h be5 at ,p>is1 ) ,mr4 ,ambrose ,phillipps1 busy 9 e/abli%+ an association ( pray]s = ! conv]sion ( ,engl& to ! ,roman fai?4 ,i am c]ta9ly ready to plead guilty on ?is *>ge2 b ,i d n f9d cause to rep5t ( x4 ,h[ev]1 a good ?+ may be done s out ( place & out ( "t z to make x n wor? mu*1 & x may be necess>y1 !re=e1 t ,i %\ld expla9 myself be=e ,i am approv$ ( 9 :at ,i h be5 #bdi do+ 9 ,p>is4 ,9 ! fir/ visit :i* ,i paid to ! ,ar*bi%op on my arrival at ,p>is1 ,i 0 say+1 :at ,i say cont9ually1 t :at we want above all 9 ,engl& is good pray]s2 & t x w\ld be a great b5efit if ! ,fr5* w\ld und]take to unite 9 pray] = u4 ,i did n ?9k ( mak+ any proposal = an actual arrangem5t ( ! k9d till ! ,ar*bi%op himself 7!n ,monseigneur ,quel97 enc\rag$1 & almo/ oblig$1 me to d all ,i c\ld by ! zeal\s mann] 9 :i* he took up ! idea4 ,he appo9t$ t ,i %\ld meet him aft] two days at ,/4 ,sulpice1 :]e sev5ty or eighty ( ! cl]gy ( ,p>is 7 to be assembl$ to (f] him an address ( ?anks = a retreat :i* he _h giv5 !m4 ,aft] ! bus9ess 0 conclud$1 he introduc$ me to !m1 & hav+ expla9$ h[ ,i came to be !re1 he propos$ t !y %\ld und]take to pray = ! conv]sion ( ,engl& on e ,?ursday4 ,! proposal 0 mo/ fav\rably receiv$1 & ,i he>d ( its be+ act$ ^u by _m (f]+ _! mass on ! fir/ ,?ursday4 ,?is enc\rag$ me to g on4 ,i obta9$ a circul> lett] ( introduction to ! sup]iors ( religi\s h\ses1 & visit$ ab\t tw5ty ( ! pr9cipal4 ,all ( !m und]took to (f] _! pray]s z ,i ask$ !m1 & to write to _! si/] h\ses ?r\gh ,france4 ,! ,g5]al ( ! ,laz>i/s1 & ! ,prov9cial ( ! ,jesuits1 und]took to recomm5d x to _! bre?r52 b :at ,i ?\ght m satisfactory yet 01 t all ! ,ar*bi%ops & bi%ops :om ,i c\ld meet ) 9 ,p>is promis$ to recomm5d ! pray]s 9 _! dioceses & prov9ces2 s t x appe>$ to me t !re 0 reason to say t all ,france w\ld soon be unit$ 9 ?is pray]1 & ,i tru/ o!r c\ntries ( ,europe w foll[ _! example4 ,i rememb]1 at ! "t :5 y\r lord%ip receiv$ me ) mu* k9dness at ,hal=d ,h\se1 on our speak+ ( ! importance ( pray]s be+ regul>ly said = ! conv]sion ( ,engl&1 & y told me ( :at _h be5 done at ,u%aw "u y\r direction4 ,i =get :e!r ,i said to y t ,i _h !n lately adopt$ ! practice ( (f]+ my mass e ,?ursday regul>ly = t int5tion4 ,i took ?is f ! nuns ( ,m\nt #bej ,pavilion1 ) :om ,i _h become acqua9t$ ! summ] be=e1 b especially :at !y d on ,?ursday1 :5 !re is high mass & exposition all ! day1 & a solemn act ( rep>ation = ! outrages committ$ aga9/ ! ,div9e ,eu*>i/4 ,x seem$ to me t ?is 0 a devotion peculi>ly suit$ to ! object ( obta9+ f ,almighty ,god graces = ,engl&1 "o ( ^: mo/ cry+ s9s is2 ! blasphemy ( ! ,bless$ ,sacram5t au?oriz$ by law = ?ree c5turies4 ,i _h only propos$ ! idea1 h[ev]1 to a few prie/s ( my acqua9tance1 to unite 9 say+ mass = ,engl& on t day1 & 0 r wait+ = "s plan to be sugge/$ = a g5]al union ( pray]s 9 ,engl& by "s "o ( au?ority4 ,b1 z no?+ _h be5 done1 & :5 ,i f\nd myself engag$ 9 ?is pursuit at ,p>is1 x 0 necess>y to propose some?+ def9ite1 ,i h no?+ bett] ?an to reque/ pray]s f all ! fai?ful = ,engl&1 all days & at all times1 b especially to (f] mass on ,?ursday1 if !y be prie/s & at lib]ty1 or communion1 or assi/ance at mass1 or visits to ! ,bless$ ,sacram5t1 or1 9 %ort1 :atev] !y did = ,god1 p>ticul>ly on t day1 = ,engl&'s conv]sion4 ,! mann] 9 :i* ?is reque/ 0 accept$ by all ! good p :om ,i saw 0 mo/ consol+ to me2 & x appe>s to me t ,i am b\nd to make x kn[n 9 ,engl&1 to ^? ^: judgm5t is mo/ important1 & ^: approval w\ld mo/ p[]fully recomm5d ! ,ca?olics 9 ,engl& to correspond ) ! zeal\s _s exhibit$ 9 behalf ( our c\ntry by ,france4 ,x is n = me to sugge/ to y\r lord%ip :at might be done4 ,i only v5ture to hope t y may ?9k ?is matt] p]haps wor?y ( y\r att5tion1 & w p]haps m5tion x to ! cl]gy z occasion may pres5t itself4 ,i w\ld add1 t 9 ,france ! sup]iors ( sev]al sem9>ies 7 mo/ ready to und]take to recomm5d x to ! /ud5ts1 & x pleas$ me p>ticul>ly to int]e/ ^? communities 9 behalf ( ,engl&1 because ! devotion might s well spread 9 t way ?r\gh all classes4 ,w\ld y\r lord%ip ?9k fit to m5tion ! subject at ,u%aw8 #bea ,i h n[h]e ask$ = any p>ticul> pray]s to be said z t might be burd5some2 b simply t ?is int5tion might be ?\ght ( at lea/1 if no?+ m 0 done 9 ref]5ce to x4 ,i beg aga9 to be excus$ = my boldness 9 ?us address+ y1 & am y\r lord%ip's ,ob$i5t humble s]vant1 ,george ,sp5c]4 ,! passage he alludes to 9 ,! ,times 0 z foll[s3-- ,! ,hon4 & ,rev4 ,george ,sp5c]1 bro!r to ! pres5t ,e>l1 :o 0 conv]t$ f ,prote/antism to ! ,ca?olic fai? "s ye>s ago1 has lately be5 pass+ "s "t at ,p>is1 ) ,mr4 ,ambrose ,phillipps1 a g5tleman ( di/9ction ( ,leice/]%ire1 elde/ son ( ! late memb] = ! nor!rn division ( ! c\nty4 ,!y h be5 busily occupi$ !re 9 e/abli%+ an association ( pray]s = ! conv]sion ( ?is c\ntry to ! ,roman fai?4 ,!y h _h sev]al int]views ) ! ,ar*bi%op ( ,p>is on ?is subject1 :o has ord]$ all ! cl]gy to say special pray]s = ?is object 9 ! mem5to4 ,a numb] ( ! religi\s communities 9 ,france h already begun to foll[ ! same practice4 ,?is p>agraph 0 tak5 up1 ( c\rse1 & comm5t$ ^u by ! second-rate pap]s4 ,to be sure1 ! :ole ?+ 0 magnifi$ into no?+ less ?an a gr& /ir = a ,papal aggression1 :i*1 if x did n make ! ,engli% %ore glitt] "s day ) ,fr5* bayonets1 0 c]ta9 to cram e work%op & *ur* ) ,jesuits 9 disguise4 ,! ,bi%ops 7 all fav\rable to ,fa!r ,sp5c]'s zeal\s ideas2 !y gave him leave to speak on ! subject ) all ! prie/s2 !y m5tion$ x 9 _! pa/orals3 b !y did n wi% him to g too publicly to "w1 z !y r fe>$ ! _s ( ! times1 & did n "k :5 ano!r ,gordon riot might arise & ov]?r[ :at !y _h be5 build+ up s9ce ! ,emancipation4 ,9 ! meantime1 ! "w 0 progress+ rapidly4 ,a ,dut* j\rnal rea*$ him :i* let him "k t all ! sem9>ies & conv5ts 9 ,holl& _h giv5 _! ,?ursday devotions = ,engl&4 ,a good #beb prie/ wrote f ,g5eva to say t ! programme %\ld be wid5$1 & t all h]etics & sep>ati/s ought to be includ$ z well z ,engl&4 ,to ?is ,fa!r ,sp5c] cons5t$ aft] "s delib]ation1 & 9 ! space ( ab\t six mon?s all ! ,cont95t 7 s5d+ up pray]s = ,engl&'s conv]sion4 ,he makes spee*es at =mal d9n]s & public meet+s1 & always introduces ?is topic2 :]eupon ! report]s conceive a t]rible rage1 & puff ! matt] into all ! tav]ns & (fices ( ,london1 ,liv]pool1 & ,man*e/]4 ,( c\rse1 all ?is is accompani$ ) gross misrepres5tations & p]sonal abuse4 ,( ! =m] po9t he ?us speaks 9 a lett]3--,! misrepres5tations1 z f> z ,i h se5 !m 9 ! public pap]s1 by :i* !y h endeav\r$ to ob/ruct ! propos$ good1 are s gl>+ t ,i ?9k all ?9k+ p]sons mu/ be b5efit$ by read+ !m4 ,my notion 0 to ignore ! ,engli% public altoge!r1 & g on ) my "w z if x did n exi/4 ,! opposite pap]s h c]ta9ly help$ me & well1 9 mak+ ! matt] z public z ,i c\ld wi%1 )\t a f>?+'s co/ to me1 & 9 a way 9 :i* ,i _c be accus$ ( be+ ! imm$iate ag5t ( its publicity1 z x 0 put ab\t z ?\gh to annoy me1 b !y are pleas+ me )\t int5d+ x4 ,?is 0 ! good-hum\r$ way 9 :i* he took all t 0 p]sonal 9 ! j\rnali/ic tirades4 ,x gives "o an idea bo? ( 8 great zeal & ! great virtue ) :i* he accompani$ x4 ,he n[ writes to ! ,iri% ,ar*bi%ops1 & receives v enc\rag+ answ]s4 ,s mu* did !y ent] into 8 s5tim5ts t1 9 a meet+ ( ! ,iri% episcopate 9 ,dubl91 !y gave 8 proposals a good %>e ( _! att5tion1 & approv$ ( !m4 ,?is he acc\nt$ great ga94 ,x 0 ! pray] ( ! m>tyr = 8 p]secutor1 ( ,/eph5 = ,saul1 & ( ,our ,"l = ! ,jews4 ,poor ,irel& _h groan$ & wri!d 9 ,saxon bondage = c5turies4 ,%e saw h] *ildr5 scatt]$ to ! w9ds1 or gr\nd by fam9e & inju/ice b5ea? ! feet ( ! de/roy]2 &1 at ! voice ( a ,saxon prie/1 %e turn$ r\nd1 wip$ ! te> f h] eye1 #bec piti$ ! bl9dness ( h] oppressor1 & (f]$ up h] suff]+s to ,heav5 to plead = m]cy = h] p]secutor4 ,! cry 0 a solemn univ]sal pray]1 fram$ by h] spiritual lead]s1 & c>ri$ to e fireside :]e ! voice ( ! ,*ur* c\ld dr[n ! utt]+s ( compla9t4 ,f4 ,sp5c] ?\ght m ( ! pray]s ( ! ,iri% ?an ( all ! ,cont95t put toge!r2 ^! 7 good1 b ^? 7 h]oic4 ,he began to love ,irel& !nce=w>d ) an ev]-increas+ love1 & tru/$ *iefly to ! fai? & sanctity ( h] *ildr5 = ! fulfilm5t ( 8 zeal\s int5tions4 ,he pu%$ 8 ex]tions to ,rome also1 by writ+ to ,dr4 ,wiseman1 & ask+ him to see ! devotion c>ri$ out 9 ! ,et]nal ,city & ! prov9ces4 ,x met ! same success z 9 ,france1 ,belgium1 ,holl&1 & ,irel&4 ,!re is a lett] extant :i* ,dr4 ,wiseman wrote to ,f4 ,sp5c] ab\t ?is "t 7x is dat$ ,a% ,w$nesday1 #ahci71 & x mu/ be int]e/+1 bo? = its intr9sic m]it z well z ! giv+ an evid5ce ( ! h>mony ( feel+ & s5tim5t t b\nd ! great c>d9al & ! zeal\s prie/ toge!r s9ce _! fir/ acqua9tance until !y bo? w5t1 )9 a few mon?s ( ea* o!r1 to enjoy ! et]nal rew>d ( _! lab\rs 9 ,engl& & else:]e1 = ,god's glory3-- ,rome1 ,a% ,w$nesday1 #ahci4 ,my ,de> ,fri5d1--,i mu/ n delay any long] answ]+ y\r k9d & int]e/+ lett]4 ,its subject is "o :i* has long occupi$ my ?\ghts1 ?\gh ,i nev] contemplat$ ! possibility ( enli/+ =eign ,*ur*es 9 pray] = x1 b turn$ my att5tion m to excit+ a _s ( pray] among ourselves4 ,i w ent] on ! matt] 9 h& ) ! mo/ insignificant "p ( x1 t is1 my own feel+s & endeav\rs1 because ,i ?9k !y may enc\rage y & sugge/ "s ?\ghts ^u ! subject4 ,9 our conf]5ce ?is "t la/ ye>1 ,i spoke v /rongly to ! /ud5ts ^u ! wants ( ,engl&1 & ! necessity ( a new sy/em 9 _m ?+s4 ,"o ( ! po9ts on :i* ,i insi/$ 0 ! want ( sy/ematic pray] = ! conv]sion ( ,engl&1 &1 at ! same "t1 ( rep>ation = h] defection4 ,i obs]v$ t x is ! only c\ntry #bed :i* has p]si/$ 9 & r5ew$1 9 e g5]ation1 =mal acts ( apo/acy1 exact+ f e sov]eign1 9 ! "n ( ! nation1 & f all t aspir$ to (fice or dignity1 specific decl>ations ( _! hold+ ,ca?olic tru?s to be sup]/iti\s & idolatr\s4 ,?is1 !re=e1 assumes ! =m ( a national s9 ( blasphemy & h]esy--n habitual1 b actual2 x is a b> to ! ,div9e bless+1 an ob/acle ( a positive nature to ,god's grace4 ,x calls = contr>y acts1 z explicit & z =mal1 to remove its bad effects4 ,n[ :at are ! po9ts on :i* ?is blasphem\s repetition ( national apo/acy has fa/5$8 ,!y are *iefly two3 ,transub/antiation & ! wor%ip ( ! ,bless$ ,virg94 ,^!1 consequ5tly1 are ! po9ts t[>ds :i* ! rep>ation &1 = x1 ! devotion ( ,ca?olics %\ld be direct$ 9 ,engl&4 ,i !re=e propos$1 & h cont9u$ to inculcate ?is two-fold devotion1 to our /ud5ts on e occasion4 ,i h = a ye> made x my daily pray] t ,i might be in/rum5tal 9 br++ back devotion to ! ,bless$ ,eu*>i/1 its daily celebration1 frequ5t ,communion1 & public wor%ip 9 ,engl&2 &1 at ! same "t1 devotion to ! ,bless$ ,virg91 *iefly ?r\gh ! propagation ( ! ,ros>y4 7,my reasons = ! *oice ( ! ,ros>y ,i %all1 p]haps1 n be able to expla9 9 ?is lett]47 ,all[ me to m5tion1 z ,i write to y1 q confid5tially1 t ! idea /ruck me "o aft]noon t ,i happ5$ to be alone 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,/4 ,eu/a*io1 obs]v+ t ! alt> ( ! ,bless$ ,sacram5t 0 t ( ! ,madonna2 ?is l$ me to e>ne/ly pray+ on ! subject ( unit+ ^? two objects 9 a common devotion 9 ,engl&1 & (f]+ myself to promote x4 ,sev]al ?+s l$ me to feel /rongly on ! subject :i*1 be+ trifles to o!rs if n to myself1 ,i omit4 ,fir/1 z to ! ,bless$ ,eu*>i/1 my plan 0 diff]5t f y\rs 9 "o respect1 t1 in/ead ( fix+ on "o day1 ,i propos$ to engage prie/s to say mass = ! conv]sion ( ,engl& on diff]5t days1 s t e day tw5ty or ?irty masses might be said = its conv]sion1 & 9 expiation to ! ,bless$ ,sacram5t4 ,at su* a di/ance f ! field ( action1 ,i c\ld d b little2 ,i !re=e made ! few prie/s :o h left s9ce la/ #bec ye> at ?is "t put d[n _! names = two days a mon?1 = mass = ^! purposes1 int5d+ to fill up my li/ z ,i c\ld4 ,"o ( !m1 ,mr4 ,abraham1 writes t he obs]ves 8 engagem5t mo/ punctually4 ,) all def]5ce1 ,i submit to y :e!r1 :ile ,?ursday rema9s ! day = g5]al pray]1 e prie/ 7= ,i %\ld ?9k none w\ld refuse7 w\ld *oose a c\ple ( days a mon?1 or a day ea* week1 = ^! purposes4 ,9 a s]mon 9 ! ,ges e ,m>ia1 la/ spr+1 ,i allud$ to a hope ,i fondly *]i%$1 t public rep>ation w\ld be=e long be made 9 ,engl& to ! ,bless$ ,sacram5t1 & ?is br\ght me a lett] f a dev\t lady1 e>ne/ly begg+ ,i w\ld try to h some?+ done 9 t way1 & nam+ p]sons 9 ,engl& mo/ anxi\s to coop]ate 9 any?+ ( ! sort4 ,my idea 0 borr[$ f my excell5t fri5d1 ,*>les ,weld1 & consi/$ 9 ,qu>ant' ,ore1 n conf9$ to "o t[n1 b mak+ ! circuit ( all ,engl&1 s t by day & night ! ,adorable ,sacram5t might be wor%ipp$ ?r\gh ! ye>4 ,i h propos$ x to ,"l ,%rewsbury1 = ,i ?9k x %\ld comm5ce ) ! colleges1 conv5ts1 g5tlem5's *apels1 & l>ge t[ns1 9 :i* ,i tru/ ea* *apel w\ld cons5t4 ,z ! ,exposition at ea* place la/s two days1 x w\ld require #ahb *anges 9 ! ye>1 or1 if ea* w\ld take x twice a ye>1 #ia4 ,!re are ab\t tw5ty-five religi\s communities & colleges2 ! *apels 9 l>ge t[ns c\ld af=d to make up o!r tw5ty-five4 ,i ?9k t _m pi\s p w\ld l to h ! ,exposition1 & gladly contribute ! exp5se1 & ! giro might be publi%$ = ! ye> 9 ea* directory4 ,i mu/ say ,i %\ld set myself aga9/ ! common practice ( keep+ ! ,bless$ ,sacram5t 9 a cupbo>d 9 ! ve/ry1 )\t a light ev51 & nev] hav+ an act ( adoration paid to x1 except at mass4 ,security f sacrilege mu/ be pur*as$1 b n by a sort ( sacrilege :i* x always look$ to me2 ! fai?ful %\ld be enc\rag$ to visit ! ,bless$ ,sacram5t dur+ ! day4 ,secondly1 z to ! devotion to ! ,bless$ ,virg91 ,i propos$ ! =m+ ( ,confrat]nities ( ! ,ros>y1 &1 :ile ,saturday %\ld be ! g5]al day = ! devotion1 ,i w\ld h diff]5t congregations #bef fix on diff]5t days1 s t ea* day ! p[]ful int]cession ( ! ,bless$ ,virg9 might be invok$ ^u u & ^u our lab\rs1 & rep>ation be made to h] = ! outrages committ$ aga9/ h]4 ,i (f]$ ,mr4 ,oxley & ,mr4 ,proct] to write a little treatise on ! ,ros>y1 if !y w\ld dissem9ate x4 ,"o ( my reasons = pref]r+ ! ,ros>y1 bo? = myself & ,engli% ,ca?olics1 is :at ord9>ily =ms an objection to x4 ,pride1 :5 we come to pray1 is our mo/ dang]\s enemy1 & ,i ?9k no bett] security c be giv5 aga9/ x ?an to pray z ! poor & ignorant d4 ,d we !n wi% t ,god %\ld judge u by ! /&>d ( ! wise :o "k _! duty1 or by t ( ! poor little ones8 ,if by ! latt]1 :y spurn ! pray]s in/itut$ = !m1 & say1 ',we w n use !m1 b ! pray]s bett] suit$ to ! le>n$4' ,! ',our ,fa!r' 0 appo9t$ & drawn up = m5 :o said ',"l1 tea* u h[ to pray4' ,x is a pray] = ! ignorant1 z is ! ,ros>y4 ,b m ( ?is ano!r "t4 ,x 0 my int5tion to h begun daily pray]s = ,engl& la/ ,/4 ,george's ,day2 ,i 0 prev5t$ f draw+ !m up1 b hope to beg9 ?is ye>4 ,9 ! meantime1 ,i took out ( our ar*ives a pr9t$ pap]1 ( :i* ,i enclose a copy1 %[+ t pray]s = ! conv]sion ( ,engl&1 c41 h 9 =m] times occupi$ ! att5tion ( our college1 :i* bless$ beads1 c41 = ! purpose ( enc\rag+ !m1 & t ! ,holy ,see conf]r$ ample spiritual privileges ^u ! practice4 ,y w see h[ ! ,ros>y is p>ticul>ly privileg$4 ,?is pap]1 ?r\gh ,giu/9iani1 ,i laid be=e ! ,congregation ( ,indulg5ces to get !m r5ew$ = pray]s = ,engl&1 & 0 told t x w\ld be bett] to draw up some?+ new1 suit$ to pres5t times1 :5 ,indulg5ces w\ld be grant$4 ,s f> z to my views & ideas be=e y\r bett] ones rea*$ me1 & ,i will+ly resign all my views & int5tions 9 fav\r ( y\rs4 ,n[1 z to :at is do+ "h4 ,on ! ,fea/ ( ,/4 ,?omas we di/ribut$ to all ! c>d9als t came1 a copy ( y\r s]mon receiv$ t morn+1 ) a beautiful li?ograph ( ,/4 ,?omas1 ,cant41 execut$ 9 ! h\se at "s ( ! /ud5ts' exp5se1 to propagate devotion to him4 #beg ,c>d9al ,orioli decl>$ t he _h = ye>s made a mem5to = ,engl& 9 8 mass1 & ,c>d9al ,giu/9iani told me ! o!r day t e ,?ursday he (f]s up mass = its conv]sion4 ,!re is a little religi\s weekly j\rnal publi%$ "h = di/ribution among ! poor1 & x has lately be5 9 almo/ e numb] solicit+ pray]s = ! same purpose4 ,its pr9cipal editor1 an ex-,jesuit1 ,padre ,basiaco1 call$ on me ! o!r ev5+1 & told me1 z a s+ul> co9cid5ce1 t s9ce he 0 9 8 noviciate he has made x a practice to pray on ,?ursday = t object4 ,to %[ y to :at an ext5t ! pi\s cu/om is spread+1 ! ,au/rian ,ambassador ! o!r ev5+ told me t 8 little boys 7ab\t sev5 & eight ye>s old7 pray$ e ,?ursday morn+ = ! conv]sion ( ,engl&2 & t hav+ be5 ask$ by _! "m on t day if he _h pray$ = x1 "o ( ! little fell[s repli$1 ',no1 mamma2 x is n ,?ursday4' ,surely ,god mu/ int5d to grant a m]cy :5 ,he /irs up s _m to pray = x1 & t1 too1 p]sons hav+ no connection ) ! object1 except by zeal or *>ity4 ,i am go+1 9 a day or two1 to conc]t ) ,pallotta ! be/ means ( propagat+ ?is devotion1 bo? 9 communities & among ! p4 ,i p]fectly approve ( enl>g+ y\r orig9al plan s z to embrace all t are 9 error4 ,i am 9 fav\r ( giv+ expansion to *>ities 9 any way1 & ,ca?olicis+ our feel+s z mu* z our fai?4 ,we are too insul> 9 ,engl& 9 religion z 9 social ideas4 ,?is 0 "o ( my reasons = wi%+ to h ! oeuvre unconnect$ ) dome/ic purposes1 :i* w\ld1 h[ev]1 be b5efit$ by ! great] en]gy :i* ! _s ( *>ity w\ld receive by be+ ext5d$4 ,i am endeav\r+ to excite 9 ! /ud5ts z mu* z ,i c ! mission>y _s2 all ! m$itations are direct$ to ?is4 ,by ! mission>y _s ,i d n mean m]ely a p>o*ial1 b an apo/olic _s1 :]e ea* "o1 besides 8 own especial flock1 takes an int]e/ 91 & ex]ts himself = ! b5efit ( ! entire c\ntry1 accord+ to ! gifts he has receiv$4 ,rememb] me 9 y\r pray]s1 & believe me y\r s9c]e & affectionate fri5d1 ,n4 ,wiseman4 #beh ,,*apt] ,,ix4 ,8 ,la/ ,days ,9 ,we/ ,bromwi*4 ,! acc\nt giv5 ( ,fa!r ,sp5c]'s zeal\s lab\rs = ! conv]sion ( ,engl& w\ld be incomplete if some?+ 7 n add$ to %[ h[ he succe$$ 9 br++ p]sons into ! ,*ur* 9 ! locality ( :i* he _h ! spiritual *>ge4 ,!re is no record ( ! numb] he receiv$1 & only f /ray notes1 f v>i\s s\rces1 c "s in/ances ( 8 way ( work+ be giv54 ,he 0 n a great prea*]1 z all knew2 b !re 0 a peculi> _s 9 :at he said :i* seem$ to impress 8 disc\rse ^u ! he>] z if x came n f himself4 ,?is want ( human eloqu5ce 0 a drawback to him inasmu* z x 0 n likely to br+ cr[ds to he> him4 ,an anecdote or two w illu/rate ?is4 ,once he 0 ask$ to prea* 9 ,man*e/]1 & _m ,ca?olics :o he>d ( x w5t1 ( c\rse1 to he> ! conv]t :o 0 talk$ & writt5 ab\t s mu*4 ,among ! re/1 "o "y man :o _h be=eh& built ca/les 9 8 own m9d ab\t ! gl[+ eloqu5ce he %\ld he>4 ,to 8 disappo9tm5t1 ! prea*] 0 cold1 dry1 & tame4 ,he 0 n too pleas$1 b "s way or ano!r e ^w took effect ^u him1 & he c\ld n quit ?9k+ ( ! s]mon1 & ! peculi> way 9 :i* _m ?+s 7 said4 ,! end ( x 01 t he became1 "s "t aft]1 a ,passioni/1 & 0 "o ( ^? 9 :om ,fa!r ,ignatius f\nd great consolation1 on acc\nt ( ! zeal he %[$ & cont9ues /ill to %[1 9 ! pursuit ( ! d>l+ objects ( ,fa!r ,ignatius's life4 ,a lady 0 m po9t$ 9 h] rem>ks4 ,%e w5t to he> him on "s o!r great occasion1 & %e said3--,i saw him g into ! pulpit2 ,i he>d him address #bei ! p1 & ,i 0 wait+ all ! "t ?9k+ :5 w he h done talk+ & beg9 to prea*1 until1 to my surprise1 ,i f\nd :at purport$ to be a s]mon com+ to a conclusion1 yet ,i c rememb] to ?is day almo/ ev]y?+ he said4 ,f ! little weight ,fa!r ,sp5c] laid ^u human le>n+ 9 ! "w ( conv]sion1 "o w\ld be tempt$ to suppose he und]valu$ :at he did n possess4 ,no great] mi/ake c\ld be made4 ,he 0 a ,cambridge fir/-class man1 & mu/ !re=e be a good ma!matical & classical s*ol>4 ,he spoke ,italian & ,fr5* almo/ )\t a grammatical fault1 & conv]s$ v well 9 ,g]man4 ,he 0 well read 9 ! ,engli% ,prote/ant div9es1 & knew ,ca?olic !ology ) accuracy1 & to an ext5t :i* 8 academical c\rse w\ld n lead u to expect4 ,x may be said t 8 y\? & manhood 7 sp5t ov] ! pages ( ! be/ ,engli% writ]s1 & 9 ! company (t5 ( ! be/ liv+ au?ors4 ,al?orp & ,sp5c] ,h\se 7 fam\s = _! lit]>y cot]ies1 & ! son ( an e>l :o patroniz$ m5 ( tal5t1 & gave unmi/akable pro(s ( great tal5t himself1 0 n "o to let su* opportunities pass )\t pr(it4 ,he tru/$ little1 h[ev]1 to ! sway ( intellect1 & put 8 hope 9 f]v5t petitions = div9e grace4 ,he told ,dr4 ,wiseman t he %\ld apply 8 m9d to some?+ m practical ?an ,syriac manuscripts1 or treatises on geology1 & t he w\ld r see him tak5 up ) :at suit$ a prie/ on ! ,engli% mission z x !n 04 ,! rector1 ( c\rse1 took ! rebuke z humility dictat$2 b we %\ld c]ta9ly be sorry t he _h n writt5 8 ,connexion betwe5 ,sci5ce & ,reveal$ ,religion1 & 8 ,lectures on ! ,eu*>i/4 ,sp5c]1 to be sure1 0 mi/ak5 9 ?is2 b ! idea gave a b5t to 8 m9d1 :i* he c\ld h>dly be expect$ to *ange :5 hamp]$ ) ! "w ( a p>i%4 ,!y :o knew him well c give te/imony to 8 high atta9m5ts1 & all :o ev] he>d him speak ( himself c be> a m ample te/imony /ill to ! v l[ op9ion he _h ( 8 own acquirem5ts4 ,x is no wond] t he #bfj wrote no books2 ! little he did publi% 9 ! way ( newspap] lett]s & s]mons dur+ 8 la/ ye>s 9 ,we/ ,bromwi*1 did n produce mu* app>5t effect4 ,x is n our prov9ce to review ^! "h1 b x is well to say t ! s]mons rank f> above 8 spok5 ones 9 po9t ( /yle & matt]1 especially ! ,fr5* s]mon he prea*$ 9 ,dieppe 9 #ahch4 ,! pray]s1 to :i* he *iefly tru/$ = ! conv]sion ( 8 c\ntrym51 did n br+ mu* evid5t ga94 ,o!rs reap$ :at he s[$ 9 ?is way1 & he tells u 9 ! ,dieppe s]mon t dur+ a confirmation ,dr4 ,wal% gave 9 t ye> he _h #fjj new conv]ts to impose h&s ^u4 ,8 field at ?is "t 0 conf9$ mo/ly to 8 conv]sation & example2 to bo? ( :i* 8 "n & reputation add$ some?+ 9 ! eyes ( ! _w4 ,^! gave him leave to speak at lea/1 & procur$ him li/5]s :]e o!r prie/s w\ld n obta9 a he>+4 ,& he _h no small p[] 9 ^w & example1 z all :o knew him are aw>e1 & a few incid5ts may s]ve to illu/rate4 ,z to 8 conv]sation1 its peculi> *>m consi/$ 9 ! importance ( its drift1 & ! nice sweet hum\r by :i* he r5d]$ x agreeable4 ,besides1 x may be safely said1 t !re sc>cely ev] 0 a man s happy 9 8 illu/rations1 or 9 ! homely way 9 :i* he put an argum5t1 or answ]$ an objection4 ,?is la/ prop]ty c be se5 f ! foll[+ passage1 :i* is quot$ f "o ( 8 lett]s to a newspap]3-- ,i 0 once attack$ by a /an* ,*ur* ( ,engl& man1 :o _h be5 an old sailor1 & _h lo/ an arm 9 ! s]vice1 = :at he ?\ght 0 unwor?y ( my "* & family1 leav+ my col\rs & *ang+ sides4 ,i answ]$ him ?us3 ,suppose y1 my fri5d1 _h ent]$ a %ip be>+ ! ,k+ ( ,engl&'s flag & p5nant1 & gone out & f\ght _m a battle aga9/ ,fr5* cruis]s1 b !n f\nd out by *ance t ! capta9 ( ! %ip 0 an outlaw$ pirate1 :o _h no "r to ! col\rs :i* he wore1 & 0 mak+ y fight = himself1 n = y\r k+1 w\ld y let me call y a des]t] if ! next "t y came )9 hail ( a #bfa true k+'s %ip y jump$ ov]bo>d & swam to h]8 ,! good sailor seem$ to und]/& me1 & said no m ab\t leav+ my col\rs4 ,x 0 rem>k$ t v few ev] w5t to speak ) him 9 e>ne/ ab\t _! s\l ) any k9d ( docility1 :om he did n succe$ 9 br++ into ! ,*ur*4 ,!n 8 example 0 a cont9ual s]mon4 ,he pref]r$ ! poor1 n z poor wret*es on :om he ?\ght x 0 h]oic to sp5d a few k9d words ( mawki% pity1 b1 9 ord] to make !m feel z if !y 7 8 bro!rs & si/]s4 ,he w\ld come into _! hovels1 sit d[n ) !m1 & ev5 take a cup ( tea !re1 :i* he might h refus$ at a ri*] place4 ,!y repres5t$ to him ! p]son ( ,jesus ,*ri/1 :o said1 ,! poor y h always ) y1 z a sub/itute = ,himself4 ,8 pati5ce 0 no less wond]ful4 ,"o day he 0 walk+ ) a sort ( bag on 8 %\ld]1 :5 an insol5t fell[ came out be=e him & spat 9 8 face4 ,8 h\sekeep] 0 ) him1 help+ to c>ry "s articles1 = he 0 !n go+ to say mass 9 "o ( ! little places he _h op5$ ne> ,bromwi*4 ,%e ( c\rse fir$ ) indignation at once1 & said3 ,y wick$ man6 h[ d>e y spit 9 ! face ( ,"l ,sp5c]'s son1 & he su* a good g5tleman8 ,mr4 ,sp5c] took out 8 h&k]*ief1 wip$ 8 face1 & only said to ! h\sekeep]3 ,& h[ d>e y be angry8 ,i am pr\d ( be+ treat$ z my de> ,"l 02 & w5t on 8 way z if no?+ _h happ5$4 ,he did n ev5 allude to x aga94 ,he 0 also v ab/emi\s1 & nev] took w9e or spirits = a numb] ( ye>s2 inde$1 he may be said to h ta/$ none except z m$ic9e s9ce he became a ,ca?olic1 & = sometime be=e4 ,8 bi%op told a v curi\s anecdote ab\t ?is4 ,fa!r ,sp5c] took v little sleep1 & 9 fact he s %ort5$ 8 "t ( re/ t (t51 :5 return+ home f a sick call1 he w\ld be nodd+ asleep up ! /reet1 & walk l a man :o _h tak5 a little m ?an 0 good = him4 ,he 0 report$ to ! bi%op z be+ se5 9 ?is /ate4 ,! bi%op 0 amus$ fir/1 & !n surpris$2 b :5 he f\nd #bfb out ! cause1 not)/&+ t he 0 edifi$1 he made ! good prie/ sleep a little long] e night4 ,?is only %[s h[ capti\s 7 ! p he _h to deal )1 & h[ easily !y might h be5 sc&aliz$4 ,yet he 0 v5]at$ by all ,ca?olics z a sa9t1 & ,prote/ants began to respect him aft] "s "t z a really good man1 & a s]v] ( ! ,"l accord+ to 8 consci5ce4 ,! op9ion ( 8 sanctity 0 n m]ely sup]ficial he>say2 8 bro!r prie/s1 :o knew him mo/ intimately1 & 7 n ! p]sons to take ! appe>ance ( hol9ess = ! reality1 are all ( "o op9ion1 t 8 life 0 ! life ( a great sa9t4 ,a /ud5t writes to ,fa!r ,sp5c]'s assi/ant1 ,rev4 ,mr4 ,elves1 9 #ahch1 f ,rome1 9 ! foll[+ t]ms3 ,x mu/ be a v great s\rce ( edification to y to be ! companion ( ,mr4 ,sp5c]1 & ,i well "k he has got 9 y a fri5d will+ & ready to imitate 8 holy example4 ,i am sorry t illness obliges him to retire f y = ! pres5t1 b x w be a consolation = y to ?9k t he has gone to ga!r m /r5g? = ! conte/4 ,_m a "t ,i h dwelt ) delight on ! idea ( be+ at "s future p]iod 8 fell[ mission]1 = ,i feel x w\ld be a s\rce ( zeal & f]v\r to me to live ) su* a p]son1 & ,i hope & pray ,god my wi%es may be fulfill$1 & t ,i may h su* a companion1 or r su* a director1 dur+ ! fir/ ye>s ( my mission>y c>e]4 ,?is lett] mu/ h be5 an answ] to ! acc\nt ! prie/ s5t 8 "y fri5d ( ! hol9ess ( 8 companion4 ,aga91 ,fa!r ,sp5c] nev] he$$ :at we call ! public1 z he said himself he wi%$ to ignore its exi/5ce2 & /range en\gh by t v means he ga9$ its e/eem4 ,?is is be/ illu/rat$ by :at happ5$ on 8 return f ,france1 9 '#ch4 ,he saw ! cl]gy !re ( c\rse g ab\t 9 _! s\tanes & full ecclesia/ical co/ume2 & he did n see :y he might n d ! same4 ,he ignor$ ! public1 put on 8 cassock1 & w5t 9 full prie/ly co/ume ev]y:]e4 ,he w5t to t[ns1 into tra9s & omnibuses1 walks ! /reets1 & he gives ! result 9 a lett] to a fri5d ?us3 ,?is has n procur$ me "o #bfc disrespectful ^w1 :i* is wor?y ( rem>k "h1 = ,i d n ?9k ,i ev] pass$ two or ?ree weeks 9 ?is place )\t be+ hoot$ aft] by boys or m5 some:]e4 ,?us we h ! s]vant foll[+ 8 ,ma/]1 dr9k+ 9 insults z sweet draughts 9 sil5ce & humility2 & :5 he 0 suppos$ to be gr\nd to ! v e>? by ignom9y1 ga9+ a respect1 a love1 & a reputation t is z fre% to-day 9 8 old p>i% among n only ^? :o knew him b _! *ildr5 :o he>d ( him4 ,yes1 ?is day1 m ?an #be ye>s 9 di/ance ( "t1 he is1 if possible1 m v5]at$ & m regrett$ ?an ! day he resign$ ! pa/oral *>ge ( ,we/ ,bromwi*4 #bfd ,,*apt] ,x4 ,fa!r ,sp5c] ,comes ,to ,oscott4 ,! ,bi%op1 ,dr4 ,wal%1 calls ,mr4 ,sp5c] to ,oscott ,college t[>ds ! end ( ,april or p]haps 9 ! beg9n+ ( ,may1 #ahci4 ,! object ( ?is *ange 01 to give him ! spiritual c>e ( ! /ud5ts1 9 ord] t he might %ape _! *>act]s1 & infuse into !m t apo/olic _s ( :i* he _h already giv5 su* pro(s4 ,"h is "o o!r in/ance ( ! true way to real di/9ction 9 greatness 9 ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*1 ly+ ?r\gh ! road humility & its concomitant virtues po9ts out4 ,fa!r ,sp5c] s\ght to be unkn[n2 he petition$ = ! poore/ & ! mo/ unprovid$ mission4 ,9 8 little p>i% he f\nd 8 e>?ly p>adise1 & ! toils & tr\bles he w5t ?r\gh1 to make 8 practice keep pace ) 8 f]v\r1 =m$ ! l9ks ( 8 happ9ess4 ,he pray$1 he lectur$1 he he>d confessions2 he s\ght ! /raggl]s 9 _! haunts ( idl5ess2 he _h no idea ( ext5d+ 8 sph]e ( action beyond ! limits ( 8 mission1 &1 he ev5 made ! half ( t ov] to ano!r1 t 8 work+ c\ld be ! m effectual z its space 0 n>r[$4 ,e plan he devis$ = do+ good on a l>ge scale 0 fat$ to become abortive4 ,8 natural means ( influ5ce he _h ca/ aside2 he gave up writ+ 9 newspap]s1 & let dogs b>k at him )\t /oop+ to notice !m2 8 high connections 7 virtually sund]$ :5 he gave up pay+ visits to 8 family2 8 prop]ty he dive/$ himself ( altoge!r1 & griev$ t ! /ew>d :o 0 appo9t$ to look aft] him took too mu* c>e ( him1 & did n let him feel :at x 0 to be poor inde$4 ,"h !n is ! "y nobleman trans=m$ into ! #bfe prie/1 & /ripp$ ( ev]y?+1 :i* prie/s :o 7 n noble (t5 pursue z necess>y = _! position2 ay1 ?or\ghly %orn to ! b>e condition ( a prie/4 ,he 0 a prie/ & no?+ m1 & t is say+ a great deal4 ,if prie/s 7 always m]e prie/s !y w\ld always be great sa9ts4 ,b :5 a prie/ dips 8 sacr$ "* into worldly pursuits1 ri*es1 human aims & ways2 :5 t sublime dignity he has receiv$ is trampl$ ^u by 8 own self1 & is saturat$ 9 ! deep dye ( worldl9ess1 he ceases to be great1 inasmu* z he ceases to be a prie/ 9 s5tim5t & action4 ,x is (t5 suppos$ t a prie/ has to d _m ?+s 9 consid]ation ( 8 clo?4 ,_m actions t humility dictates are consid]$ infra dig4 ,x w\ld be s1 = in/ance1 to c>ry "o's own bundle1 poli% "o's %oes1 all[ a navvy to spit 9 "o's face1 or a ragamuff9 to te> "o's coat1 )\t h&+ him ov] to ! police4 ,/4 ,francis ,xavi] did n ?9k x infra dig to wa% 8 own %irt1 & ,fa!r ,sp5c] 0 v mu* ( t sa9t's way ( ?9k+ on ?is & k9dr$ po9ts4 ,:51 h[ev]1 he _h arriv$ at ! l[e/ dep? ( humiliation he c\ld possibly rea*1 l 8 ,div9e ,ma/]1 he began to %9e =? & to move ! :ole _w4 ,we h trac$ above h[ ?is *ange came ab\t4 ,he us$ to speak to e "o1 m]ely z agreeable matt] ( hopeful conv]sation1 ab\t ! conv]sion ( ,engl&1 & get !m also to pray = x4 ,8 crusade 0 q accid5tal z f> z 8 own preconceiv$ notions 7 conc]n$4 ,he w5t to ,france ) ,mr4 ,phillipps1 mu* aga9/ 8 w1 & f\nd himself all ( a sudd5 laun*$ into ! great "w ( 8 life1 by ! enc\rag+ words ( ,fr5* prelates4 ,he 0 n ! man to lose an opportunity ( do+ good ?r\gh lack ( en]gy or fe> ( opposition4 ,he c\ld brave ev]y?+ = ,god's glory4 ,if !re 0 any?+ t help$ him be/ 9 8 "w1 x 0 ! opposition he enc\nt]$4 ,he knew t1 & !re=e e new /roke levell$ aga9/ him f fri5ds or foes 0 a fre% impetus to new ex]tions4 ,h5ce he is n[ ! correspond5t ( ! heads ( ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* at home #bff & on ! cont95t2 all ! religi\s ord]s h he>d ( him & 8 zeal = ,engl&2 secul>s h he>d2 prie/s1 nuns1 monks1 all *ime 9 ) 8 notions2 _m because !y 7 glad to h ! opportunity1 _m because !y did n wi% to be beh9d _! neighb\rs1 & all because x 0 a good1 holy1 & laudable ?+ to pray = ! conv]sion ( h]etics4 ,he says little ab\t 8 prop]ty or :at is be+ done ) x 9 any ( ! lett]s t rema9 aft] him2 b a bi%op 9 ^: diocese he liv$ has told u some?+4 ,mr4 ,sp5c] _h f 8 fa!r's w & te/am5t #c1fjj 9 "s funds1 besides an annuity ( #cjj = life1 to :i* #cjj 7 add$ ad b5eplacitum dantis4 ,8 mod]ate way ( liv+ took v little f ?is sum e ye>1 s all ! rema9d]1 ) ! int]e/ ( "s ye>s1 0 at ! bi%op's disposal4 ,two missions1 ,dudley & ,we/ ,bromwi*1 7 f\nd$ by him ) ?is prop]ty1 at lea/ = ! great] "p2 & ! gr\nd ^u :i* ! pres5t college ( ,oscott /&s 0 b\ght *iefly ) :at ,fa!r ,sp5c] gave ! bi%op4 ,he gave a p5sion to 8 old h\sekeep]1 :i* %e /ill receives1 & :il/ 8 prop]ty 0 ?us do+ good = o!rs & ! ,*ur*1 he w\ld n travel 9 a fir/-class c>riage on ! railway1 & (t5 walk$ f ,oscott to ,birm+ham1 9 ord] to be able to give ! f>e = 8 j\rney to "s p]sons along ! way4 ,he _h done m ?an ?is3 he 0 9 close correspond5ce ) ,dr4 ,g5tili & ,fa!r ,dom9ic4 ,he pav$ _! way1 & work$ ^u ! op9ions ( _m ^: influ5ce 0 requir$ = _! introduction into ,engl&4 ,dr4 ,g5tili 0 a p]sonal fri5d ( 81 & s 0 ,fa!r ,dom9ic2 b ,fa!r ,sp5c] ?\ght ! claims ( ! =m] some:at /rong] = reasons :i* c only be surmis$4 ,mrs4 ,gam+1 8 c\s91 to ^: lett]s we owe a great deal ( ! in=mation we are able to glean conc]n+ _! transactions1 0 ! great advocate ( ! ,passsioni/s4 ,%e s press$ ! matt] ^u him t he gets r impati5t1 & tells h] to m9d h] pray]s & leave ^! ?+s to o!rs4 ,our ,fa!rs agre$ 9 ,g5]al #bfg ,*apt]1 9 #ahci1 to s5d a colony to ,engl&2 b z !re 0 no provision made nor op5+ (f]$1 = "s ye>s m ?is decision1 0 n c>ri$ into effect4 ,! ,passioni/s ref] _! com+ to ,engl&1 "u ,god1 to ,c>d9al ,wiseman1 ackn[l$g+ at ! same "t t ,fa!r ,sp5c] did some?+ t[>ds ! "w4 ,he also _h a good deal to d ) ! com+ ( ! ,trappi/s to ,l\ghbor\gh1 ne> ,mr4 ,phillipps's4 ,9 all ^! ?ree ev5ts he works 9 8 own quiet way1 b5ea? ! surface1 writ+ & advis+1 & do+ :at lay 9 8 p[] consi/5t ) o!r duties4 ,he keeps up correspond5ce by lett] ) "s ( 8 old fri5ds at college1 & ) "o or two ( ! ,tract>ians1 ,mr4 ,palm]1 ! au?or ( ! ,*ur* ( ,*ri/1 among ! numb]4 ,an old fri5d ( 8 writes to him f among ! ,irv+ites1 & ,fa!r ,sp5c] writes to ano!r 9 ^! t]ms3--,! suppos$ miracul\s voice1 to :i* t p>ty 7! ,irv+ites7 att5d1 has nam$ #ab m5 z ,apo/les1 :o expect %ortly to be endu$ ) miracul\s p[]s to enable !m to re/ore ! ,*ur* 9 its p]fect beauty4 ,drummond ! bank] is "o4 ,sp5c] ,p]cival1 & my great fri5d ,h5ry ,bridgman1 ,"l ,brad=d's bro!r1 o!rs4 ,x is n a little /range t ?is ,mr4 ,bridgman comes into ! j\rnal ( ,fa!r ,ignatius's ,cambridge life v frequ5tly1 & mo/ly 9 ! "* ( a ,m5tor4 ,fa!r ,ignatius nev] ga9$ mu* f correspond5ce1 s\ght on 8 "p1 ) lead+ m5 9 ! great religi\s movem5ts ( ! p]iod4 ,b :5ev] o!rs s\ght 8 advice1 !y g5]ally became ,ca?olics4 ,!y 7 dispos$ = tru?1 & he c\ld remove objections1 tell !m ( books1 & pray = !m4 ,he broke (f ?is k9d ( unask$-= correspond5ce at ?is "t1 b he resum$ x aga9 on a diff]5t foot+1 z %all be relat$ 9 its place4 ,he _h ano!r means ( do+ good n[1 :i* c\ld n come into 8 l9e :ile simple pa/or ( a c\ntry di/rict4 ,! college ( ,oscott 0 a place wor? see+1 if n z a specim5 ( ar*itecture1 at lea/ z be+ ! /ronghold ( ,ca?olicism1 & ! c5tre ( a great deal ( #bfh intellectual & moral tra9+4 ,_m ( 8 great fri5ds1 :o c\ld n hi!rto devise any plausible plea = visit+ him 9 8 retirem5t1 c\ld f9d "o imm$iately n[1 f ! place he dwelt 9 z well z ! position he !re held4 ,8 "n 0 also nois$ abroad1 & p]sons w\ld feel "s curiosity = ! acqua9tance ( "o :o 0 mov+ heav5 & e>? = _! conv]sion4 ,accord+ly1 we f9d t he ent]ta9s 8 two bro!rs1 ! !n e>l & 8 successor1 on "o day2 ,"l ,lyttelton & ,mr4 ,glad/one on ano!r day1 & s =?4 ,?us1 t p>ticul> p[] he possess$ 9 8 conv]sation _h a field ^u :i* x c\ld be br\ght into requisition1 9 a mann] :i* =m] arrangem5ts _h deb>r$ to him4 ,sev]al ( ! s]mons he prea*$ 7 publi%$ & di/ribut$4 ,!re 0 no faculty ( 81 natural or sup]natural1 no good de$ he 0 capable ( do+1 t did n come into play f> bett] by 8 late transf] to ,oscott4 ,he 0 also practis$ 9 ! drudg]y ( a mission>y prie/--t sph]e ( action :i* fills up a prie/'s ord9>y life2 & he 0 able f exp]i5ce to tea* o!rs1 n only h[ to prep>e !mselves1 b h[ to succe$ ) pr(it to !mselves & o!rs 9 ?is "w4 ,he _h also peculi> advantages "h2 he c\ld give ! "y ecclesia/ics n only ! ab/ract rules = mission>y lab\r1 b a ta/e & reli% = x1 = v seldom c "o succe$ well if 8 ta/es run c\nt] to 8 duties4 ,he did ?is by cont9u+ 9 ,oscott 8 old p>i% "w2 he visit$ ! sick1 br\ght !m ! sacram5ts2 he gave a portion ( e day to 8 fav\rite "w1 & by ! incid5ts he came across1 & ! results ( 8 lab\rs1 he rais$ up ! "y g5tlem5's notions to ! look+ ^u t z ! poetic side ( _! m9i/ry :i* is g5]ally suppos$ to be ! mo/ prosaic4 ,?is is a great secret 9 ! tra9+ ( "y m52 to tell !m be/ is be/1 & prove x to !m1 w conv9ce !m ( c\rse2 b x w n lead !m2 !re mu/ be "s grace1 "s romantic aspect put ^u ! ?+1 & !n x entices !m ( itself4 ,?is 0 ,fa!r ,sp5c]'s secret1 &1 inde$1 x might be said t x 0 8 rule4 ,he writes 9 a lett] n[1 t he condemns asp]ity 9 controv]sy1 #bfi & t civility & good bre$+1 ) pity & love1 is ! way to conf\nd oppon5ts2 & t he w\ld r see a clev] argum5t unansw]$ ?an met ) pung5cy & acrimony4 ,?is might be qu>rell$ )1 = 9 w> all ?+s are lawful2 b ! real /ate ( op9ion to :i* he came on ^! matt]s 01 t oppon5ts 7 sur] to be conqu]$ by be+ entic$ ?an driv54 ,let ! ,ca?olic religion b be se5 9 its native beauty1 & ?\s&s w be l$ to exam9e x4 #bgj ,,*apt] ,,xi4 ,"s ,( ,8 ,do+s ,9 ,oscott ,college4 ,fa!r ,sp5c]'s way ( tra9+ "y m5 has be5 already h9t$ at4 ,he c>ri$ x out :ile he rema9$ 9 8 new (fice2 he w\ld g he>tily into all _! sports1 make up _! mat*es = cricket1 & ev5 give ! y\ng] ones in/ructions 9 ! art4 ,!y _h all a high op9ion ( 8 sanctity1 & !re=e ! keep+ ( _! juv5ile spirits 9 ord] 0 n always a difficult matt]4 ,oscott conta9$ at ! "t #adj /ud5ts1 #cj only ( :om 7 ecclesia/ics4 ,among ! lay /ud5ts1 :o are mo/ly y\ng] ?an ! o!rs1 & h a notion too t because !y d n int5d to be prie/s !y are n oblig$ to be s gu>d$ z ! re/1 !re 7 sev]al :o 7 n v manageable4 ,"o day a class he _h 9 h& 7 r upro>i\s2 he quietly advis$ !m to come to bett] s5tim5ts2 8 words 71 h[ev]1 lo/1 & ! noise 0 n abat$4 ,he remon/rat$ aga91 b all to no purpose4 ,at l5g? he got a he>+1 & said3 ,s9ce ,i _c correct y1 & d n wi% to *a/ise y1 ,i %all pray to ,god to *a/ise y ,himself4 ,?is1 said 9 8 sad mood1 _h su* an effect ^u ! boys t x 0 nev] =gott51 & he nev] _h ! lea/ difficulty ) 8 class aga94 ,on ano!r occasion he did some?+ 9 execution ( 8 duty1 :i* gave great (f5ce to "o ( ! "y m54 ,?is "y man grossly insult$ him1 9 words t %ock$ all :o 7 )9 he>+1 & p>ticul>ly reflect$ on ! ,fa!r's "* z a g5tleman & a man ( hon\r4 ,! insult mu/ h be5 ! m gall+ z ! p]son :o 0 guilty ( x 0 by bir? & education 9 ! position ( a g5tleman4 ,"o calm & placid look 0 ! #bga only answ] f ,fa!r ,sp5c]1 :i* rem9d$ _m pres5t ( our ,"l's look at ,pet] aft] 8 d5ial4 ,= ?is anecdote & ! next we are indebt$ to ! ,"r ,rev4 ,dr4 ,amh]/4 ,:5 he 7,fa!r ,sp5c]7 0 a sup]ior at ,oscott1 ,i _h ! good =tune to be "u him4 ,he frequ5tly visit$ me & sev]al ( my companions 9 our rooms1 :]e he w\ld talk ) greate/ e>ne/ness ( ! conv]sion ( ,engl&1 ( ! sanctification ( ! prie/hood1 & ( ! entire devot$ness :i* %\ld *>act]ize a prie/4 ,sometimes 8 visits took place late at night aft] we 7 gone to b$1 :51 if we 7 n asleep1 he w\ld sit ^u a *air1 a table1 or ! edge ( ! b$1 & speak ( 8 fav\rite !mes = an h\r4 ,once ,i rememb] awak+ 9 ! morn+1 aft] "o ( ^! visits1 & expect+ to f9d ! fa!r /ill seat$ on my b$1 n p]ceiv+ t ! night _h pass$4 ,he _h1 no d\bt1 f\nd t ,i _h gone asleep1 & w5t away quietly4 ,ano!r "t "o ( ! /ud5ts1 a "y man ab\t #ag1 :o is n[ a zeal\s prie/ 9 ! ,engli% ,mission1 happ5$ to be out %oot+ some:]e4 ,he took a %ot at a blackbird1 & "s poor old woman 0 )9 range1 & receiv$ a %ot j ov] ! eye4 ,%e cri$ out t %e 0 %ot1 & "o may imag9e ! emb>rassm5t ( ! "y /ud5t4 ,%e recov]$1 h[ev]2 b 9 a ye> or two aft] ! occurr5ce1 a quack doctor appli$ "s rem$ies to a new swell+ 9 ! eye1 & swell+ & rem$ies result$ 9 h] dea?4 ,!re 0 an inque/ held 9 ,birm+ham1 to :i* ! /ud5t 0 summon$4 ,:il/ await+ ! day1 ! poor fell[ 0 9 v l[ spirits1 z might be expect$4 ,fa!r ,sp5c] w5t to 8 room to console him1 & said t he _h no reason to be ca/ d[n1 t x 0 q accid5tal1 & p]mitt$ by ,god z a trial1 ) a great deal m4 ,x 0 ( little use1 ! poor /ud5t said1 b !y might transport me4 ,beautiful1 beautiful1 exclaim$ ! good ,fa!r2 f9e field = ! ex]cise ( apo/olic zeal among ! poor convicts4 ,b !n !y might ev5 hang me1 rejo9$ ! /ud5t4 ,glori\s sacrifice1 said ,fa!r ,sp5c]2 y #bgb c (f] y\r life1 ?\gh innoc5t 9 ?is case1 9 satisfaction = y\r o!r s9s4 ,well1 ! /ud5t1 ?\gh he ?\ght ! s5tim5ts v high = 8 grade ( spirituality1 did n fail to pr(it by !m1 & tells ! /ory to ?is day ) a great deal ( int]e/4 ,?us did ,fa!r ,sp5c] "w among ! /ud5ts1 a model 9 all virtues1 & s sweet & holy 9 8 mann] t 8 words w5t to ! v he>t ) effect4 ,?is 0 h[ he w5t on 9 ! ord9>y r\t9e ( ! "w allott$ to him2 b 8 zeal c\ld n be b\nd$ by su* a sph]e1 he _h tri$ :at expansion c\ld d1 & he s\ght by gr& s*emes to get o!r ways ( do+ good4 ,8 great notion 0 p]fection = all4 ,be ye p]fect z y\r heav5ly ,fa!r is p]fect1 0 ev] r++ 9 8 e>s1 & he desir$ to see t great c\nsel ( our ,div9e ,"l act$ ^u ) m e>ne/ness4 ,he w\ld d 8 %>e2 he _h long be5 liv+ l a religi\s1 & practis+ ! ?ree evangelical c\nsels ) success4 ,he want$ n[ to ext5d ! same rule to o!rs4 ,( c\rse1 he did n f9d _m to adopt 8 notions1 b le/ prie/s might be consid]$ to assume too mu* 9 condemn+ 8 plans1 he 0 advis$ to put 8 ideas on pap]1 & s5d !m to ,rome4 ,he did s1 & ! answ] ( ! ,roman ,c5sor 0 unfav\rable4 ,?is 0 a heavy bl[1 b he submitt$ at once1 & ?ank$ ,god he _h sup]iors :o c\ld f9d out 8 faults1 & knew h[ to correct him )\t human respect4 ,we h reason to suppose ?is c5sor 0 no o!r ?an ,dr4 ,wiseman1 = he & ,fa!r ,sp5c] diff]$ a little ab\t ! introduction ( religi\s ord]s into ,engl&4 ,fa!r ,sp5c] said 8 hope 0 n 9 religi\s ord]s1 b 9 secul> prie/s liv+ ! lives ( religi\s4 ,?is 0 :y he took no lead+ "p 9 br++ ,passioni/s or o!rs into 8 c\ntry2 he _h a great op9ion ( _! hol9ess1 & wi%$ to see !m work+ = ! conv]sion ( ,engl&1 b r at a di/ance ?an 9 ! field4 ,to add to 8 crosses1 ,dr4 ,ba9es publi%$ a pa/oral t[>ds ! end ( ! ye> #ahci1 9 :i* he gave no hopes ( ! conv]sion ( ,engl&1 & prohibit$ public #bgc pray]s be+ made = t end4 ,?is 0 a t]rible bl[ to poor ,fa!r ,sp5c]2 he wrote z if he did n well und]/& :at he _h to say1 & ! ?+ look$ to him s uncall$-= & s un*>itable1 t he 0 unable to expla9 himself4 ,he 01 h[ev]1 pleas$ to f9d out aft]w>ds t ?is v opposition gave new /r5g? to ! cause4 ,9 a s]mon :i* ,fa!r ,sp5c] prea*$ 9 ,man*e/]1 9 ,may1 #ahci1 he us$ "s expressions t gave (f5ce to ,ca?olic pr9ciples4 ,! drift ( ! disc\rse is t ,ca?olics & ,prote/ants %\ld sacrifice ev]y?+ except tru? itself = peace sake4 ,9 br++ ?is pr9ciple into application1 he says ! ,ca?olics %\ld (f] !mselves op5 to conviction1 & be ready to lay d[n _! belief1 if x c\ld be prov$ n true4 ,he uses ! foll[+ words3-- ,! tru? ( my fai? z a ,*ri/ian & a ,ca?olic is1 to my m9d1 a c]ta9ty1 because ,i h evid5ce t x 0 taught by ,god1 :o _c deceive nor be deceiv$4 ,w t evid5ce be weak5$ by fre% exam9ation & discussion8 & d ,i anyways make an unholy or a p]il\s concession1 :5 ,i decl>e myself ready to r5\nce my belief1 if x 7 suffici5tly %[n to me t ! evid5ces on :i* ,i believe x to be div9e are wrong8 ,i embrac$ & hold x n[1 because ! evid5ce ( its tru?1 01 & is to my m9d unansw]able4 ,i %[ no d\bt+ ( its tru?1 b1 on ! contr>y1 ,i decl>e h[ little d\bt ,i h ( its tru?1 :5 ,i pr(ess myself ) all my he>t will+ to r5\nce x if prov$ n true1 & to embrace any =m ( doctr9e :i* %all be pres5t$ 9 its place on suffici5t gr\nds ( cr$ibility4 ,?is is ! _s 9 :i* ,i wi% all ,ca?olics w\ld (f] !mselves to discussion ) our ,prote/ant bre?r54 ,if he meant ?is z a bold ass]tion ( ! c]ta9ty ) :i* he held ! ,ca?olic fai?1 & w\ld (f] ^! t]ms because conv9c$ ( ! utt] impossibility ( prov+ him to be wrong1 x might be b>ely tol]at$4 ,x is a =m ( spee* t has sometimes be5 us$ by controv]siali/s--,maguire1 = in/ance--b x has none ! less be5 always consid]$ ra%4 ,t ?is 0 ! s5se 9 :i* #bgd ,fa!r ,sp5c] us$ x1 is abundantly evid5t f o!r p>ts ( ! s]mon4 ,h[ev]1 ! proposition t a ,ca?olic & a ,prote/ant may meet on equal t]ms to discuss _! t5ets1 ea* op5 to conviction by ! o!r's argum5ts1 is simply errone\s & sc&al\s1 to say no?+ m4 ,we _c d su* a ?+ )\t d5y+ ! v basis ( our fai?4 ,our fai? is n op9ion1 nor is x c]ta9ty simply4 ,x is some?+ m4 ,x is a div9e virtue infus$ into our s\ls1 :]eby we believe c]ta9 ?+s4 ,we mu/ use reason to come to ! evid5ce ( fai?1 b fai? once obta9$ mu/ nev] be left at ! m]cy ( ! fickl5ess & weakness ( any individual's und]/&+ or p[] ( argum5t4 ,to lay d[n ! proposition we animadv]t on1 w\ld be equival5t to d5y+ ! objectivity ( fai? altoge!r4 ,:e!r a ,ca?olic reasons well or ill1 answ]s argum5ts or is conf\nd$1 8 fai? is ! same2 x is n 8 fai? simply1 b ! fai? ( ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*1 ! fai? giv5 by ,god1 :i* no man c add to or take f4 ,nay1 ! v putt+ ( oneself 9 ! position "h m5tion$ is a real tempt+ ,god1 if n und]m9+ fai? itself1 by lay+ x op5 to ! possibility ( d\bt4 ,!re is no use 9 deceiv+ ,prote/ants1 !re=e1 by app>5t concessions l ! ra% (f] :i* we said might be tol]at$4 ,x is impossible2 our t]ms are fix$1 & we are fix$ 9 !m1 s t x is m]ely an exagg]ation1 9 its milde/ =m4 ,:51 !re=e1 ,fa!r ,sp5c] lays x d[n ?us1 & says t x is ! _s 9 :i* he w\ld wi% all ,ca?olics to discuss1 he may be fairly tax$ ) ! second int]pretation4 ,:e!r or no1 x 0 wrong to prea* x to all ,ca?olics4 ,fancy a poor woman1 :o c\ld sc>cely read1 ent]+ into a discussion ) an educat$ ,prote/ant on ^! t]ms4 ,he 0 ( c\rse call$ to ord] = ?is s]mon1 b 8 ,ca?olic _s 0 8 safegu>d4 ,he fir/ wond]$ h[ he _h be5 wrong1 b ev5 laym5 po9t out 8 mi/ake to him1 & a ^w f ! ,bi%op is en\gh to make him retract4 ,?us he soon f\nd out ! ke5ness ( ,ca?olic in/9ct to any?+ com+ f a prie/ t ev5 grazes ! br9k ( error4 #bge ,,*apt] ,,xii4 ,"s ,ev5ts ,( ,int]e/4 ,9 ! ye> #ahdj ,fa!r ,sp5c] _h ! happ9ess ( he>+ t 8 great fri5d1 ,dr4 ,wiseman1 0 consecrat$ bi%op1 & 0 com+ f ,rome to be coadjutor to ,dr4 ,wal%1 & take up 8 resid5ce 9 ! v ,college ( ,oscott :]e he himself 04 ,ano!r ev5t occurr$1 ( no less int]e/4 ,"o ( 8 bro!r prie/s1 ,dr4 ,w>e+1 0 consecrat$ ,bi%op ( ,ariopolis1 & ,vic>-,apo/olic ( a new di/rict1 ! ,ea/]n di/rict 9 ,engl&4 ,fa!r ,sp5c] prea*$ ! consecration s]mon2 & ^! two additional bi%ops 9 ,engl& rais$ 8 hopes ( ! spread ( ! ,ca?olic fai?4 ,x may n be out ( place to ins]t a s5t5ce or two f a lett] ?is v5]able bi%op1 :o has retir$ f 8 pa/oral duties 9 consequ5ce ( ill heal? = "s "t pa/1 has writt5 to "o ( our fa!rs4 ,on _m occasions1 :ile at ,oscott ,college1 ! ,sup]ior1 & myself among ! re/1 (t5 ?\ght 8 zeal too unb\nd$ & r imprud5t1 & c\ld n sanction "s ( 8 projects & und]tak+s4 ,?\gh x co/ him mu*1 he always obey$1 & us$ to pray t ,heav5 w\ld direct 8 sup]iors1 ^: direction he nev] refus$ to obey4 ,i believe he nev] wi%$ = any?+ b ! w ( ,god1 & wait$ pati5tly = its accompli%m5t4 ,i rememb] also on "o occasion he>+ him say1 ',h[ beautiful x w\ld be to die 9 a dit*1 unse5 & unkn[n4' ,footnote #i ,^! 7 8 v words2 & ,i 0 =cibly /ruck :5 ,i #bgf he>d ( ! exact circum/ances ( 8 holy dea?1 to see h[ 8 wi% & pray] 7 grant$ to him4 ,footnote #i3 ,?is 0 8 cont9ual aspiration4 ,he wi%$ to die l 8 ,"l1 depriv$ ( human aid & sympa?y4 ,he receives news 9 ! beg9n+ ( ! ye> #ahda ( six nuns hav+ b\nd !mselves by v[ to pray = ! conv]sion ( ,engl&4 ,b a m beautiful & consolatory piece ( in=mation /ill 01 t a ,fr5* mission] _h =m$ an association 9 ,p]sia ( pray]s = ! same object4 ,he goes to ,london & prea*es 9 sev]al *ur*es1 among o!rs1 9 ,l9coln's-,inn ,fields1 ( c\rse ab\t ! conv]sion ( ,engl&1 = he sc>cely ev] prea*$ a s]mon 9 :i* he did n introduce ?is topic2 nay1 he nev] held a half-h\r's conv]sation )\t introduc+ x4 ,x 0 ab\t ?is "t1 too1 t he came across ,mr4 ,pug9 ! eld]4 ,8 fir/ meet+ 0 r *>act]i/ic ( bo?4 ,fa!r ,sp5c] _h prea*$ a s]mon some:]e on ! conv]sion ( ,engl&1 & he gave b5$iction aft] x4 ,pug9 came into ! sacri/y4 ,! fam\s ,go? saw ,fa!r ,sp5c] 9 a ,roman cope1 & he comes up to him 9 a k9d ( nettlesome mood1 say+1 ,:at6 conv]t ,engl& ) su* a cope z t8 ,fa!r ,sp5c] says 9 a lett] writt5 at ?is "t1 ,i am n possess$ ) ! en?usia/ic zeal = correct =ms 7,go?ic7 :i* "s are4 ,x is n my special call+ 4444 ,mr4 ,pug9 is ! au?ority to :i* ,i w\ld def] 9 ^! matt]s4 ,! only o!r op9ion ( ,pug9's he records 9 8 lett]s1 is t he said to ,fa!r ,sp5c] "o "t1 ,x is absurd to expect to get any?+ = "o's works f booksell]s or publi%]s4 ,ano!r ev5t t gave him joy1 & aft]w>ds a good deal ( sorr[1 0 ! conv]sion ( a well-kn[n1 cl]gyman4 ,?is rem>kable conv]t liv$ "s "t 9 ,oscott aft] 8 conv]sion4 ,fa!r ,sp5c] took him ) him sometimes on 8 p>i% duties1 & _h great hopes ( him4 ,^! 7 all disappo9t$ :51 9 a c\ple ( ye>s1 he w5t back aga9 aft] be+ orda9$ prie/ & hav+ said mass4 ,fa!r ,ignatius (t5 spoke ( him1 (t5 visit$ him1 & ask$ o!rs to pray = him4 ,he us$ to tell u "o curi\s anecdote ab\t him4 ,%ortly aft] 8 apo/asy1 #bgg he 0 invit$ to a tea-p>ty :]e ,evangelical ladies assembl$ to congratulate !mselves1 & sip _! tea ) new reli% by hav+ x sug>$ ) "s tell+ rem>ks ( ! lately-rescu$ slave f ,pop]y4 ,he 0 put sev]al que/ions1 su* z ,:at d y ?9k ( ,transub/antiation8 ,he answ]$1 ,oh1 t's z pla9 z possible 9 ! ,bible1 & s =?4 ,!y 71 ( c\rse1 egregi\sly disappo9t$4 ,fa!r ,ignatius us$ to lam5t ) peculi> angui% ov] ?is sad case4 ,he always hop$ = 8 return to ! ,ca?olic fai?1 &1 /range en\gh1 "o ( ! fir/ pieces ( news 9 ! way ( conv]sion :i* we he>d aft] ,fa!r ,ignatius's dea?1 0 8 return to ! fai? he _h des]t$4 ,9 ! middle ( ! ye> #ahdb1 he visits ,irel& = ! fir/ "t2 he prea*es 9 sev]al places1 9 ,dubl92 especially = ! ,jesuits1 9 ,g>d9] ,/reet2 ! ,franciscans1 ,m]*ant's ,quay4 ,all1 ( c\rse1 ab\t ! conv]sion ( ,engl&4 ,he says3 ,my argum5t 01 t ! ,iri% hav+ be5 specially victims ( oppression "u ,engl&1 if ,i c\ld ga9 ! ,iri% to pray = ,engl&1 pray]s spr++ f su* *>ity w\ld be irresi/ible4 ,he made a k9d ( a t\r ?r\gh ,irel&1 & got z f> z ,tuam4 ,he fe>$ ! ,ar*bi%op ( ,tuam1 kn[+ 8 opposition to ,engl&1 & 8 dete/ation ( ,engli% rule4 ,= t v reason ,fa!r ,sp5c] 0 ! m anxi\s to conv]t him1 or make him return good = evil4 ,:at 0 8 surprise :5 he f\nd ! ,ar*bi%op n only k9d & ,iri% 9 8 hospitality1 b really fav\rable to 8 projects4 ,8 grace got ,fa!r ,sp5c] to prea*1 & promis$ him t he w\ld give ! sub/ance ( ! same s]mon to 8 p 9 _! own sweet anci5t tongue on ! next ,sunday4 ,he 0 s en*ant$ at ?is1 t he wrote (f almo/ to e fri5d he _h 9 ! _w ab\t x4 ,?\gh he (t5 felt aft]w>ds ! p[]ful bl[s ,dr4 ,mc,hale deliv]$ at ,engl&'s do+s1 he nev] c\ld =get 8 k9d reception ( himself1 & always m5tion$ 8 grace's "n ) gratitude & rev]5ce1 only wi%+ t he w\ld n be s h>d on ,engl&4 ,! next ev5t he writes ab\t 0 ! arrival 9 ,engl& #bgh ( ,fa!r ,dom9ic ( ! ,"m ( ,god 7,passioni/71 & 8 /ay+ at ,oscott = "s "t 9 ord] to le>n ,engli% & wait = an op5+ 9 ,a/on to beg9 ! fir/ retreat ( ! ,engli% prov9ce4 ,be=e we quote 8 acc\nt ( ,fa!r ,dom9ic1 x may be well to give a r *>act]i/ic rem>k ( 8 :i* occurs 9 ! lett] to ,mrs4 ,cann+1 :o 0 a great promot]1 9 ! lett]-writ+ way1 ( ,fa!r ,dom9ic's com+4 ,he says1 ,y\r acc\nts ( y\rself are always int]e/+1 z !y mu/ be 9 all cases :]e a p]son kn[s h[ to del9eate accurately 8 own int]ior2 =1 9 see+ ! picture ( ano!r well drawn1 we always may disc]n little t\*es ( our own portraiture :i* _h be=e p]haps escap$ u1 & t gives all ! pleasure ( sympa?y1 :i* is "o ( ! reale/ pleasures4 ,fur!r on 9 ! same lett] he writes3-- ,padre ,dom5ico has _h 8 cross to be> ) u1 all ?is "t2 x is n l :at usually makes crosses = p4 ,he m\rns ov] hav+ pl5ty to eat1 hav+ w9d[s :i* keep ! wea!r out1 hav+ *airs to sit on1 & tables to sit at1 & longs to be 9 8 h\se1 :i* ,i suppose w n h mu* ( all ?is to tr\ble him4 ,i h to try to console him n[ & !n1 :i* ,i d by tell+ him t ,i nev] he> ( any?+ br\ght ab\t 9 our ecclesia/ical arrangem5ts )\t long delay1 & yet all comes "r at la/1 ) pati5ce4 ,i tell him also t he mu/ h kn[n en\gh ( ! delib]ativ5ess ) :i* ?+s ( ! k9d are settl$ by ! kn[n sl[ness ( all ?+s at ,rome4 ,h[ev]1 :y %\ld y h to be> ?is burd5 ) u8 ,y w1 ,i hope1 be consol$ be=e long by he>+ t !y are settl$1 & go+ on1 & h fir/ a *air1 !n a table1 !n a kettle1 & likely to h a smoke-jack1 toa/+-=k1 & su* l 9 due c\rse1 &1 :at w be n less int]e/+ 9 its way1 hav+ good novices1 & pl5ty ( conv]ts4 ,! next ?+ he speaks ab\t is n "o ev5t1 b a s]ies1 ?\gh all only items 9 a great result = :i* he cont9ually pray$ & lab\r$--! conv]sions1 :i* multipli$ e day4 ,9 #ahdc he says t conv]ts are #bgi receiv$ 9 ,birm+ham at ! rate ( "o a day1 & _m m else:]e4 ,he also m5tions ) great satisfaction t )9 ! la/ ye>1 #ahdb1 ?ree ,anglican cl]gym51 f\r ,ox=d /ud5ts1 two c\ntesses1 & two e>ls' daught]s _h become conv]ts4 ,al?\gh ,fa!r ,sp5c] m5tions ^! p>ticul>ly1 x is n to und]value conv]sions f an humbl] grade ( life he does x4 ,! s\l ( ! begg> is z preci\s 9 ! eyes ( ,god1 apud qu]n non e/ acceptatio p]son>um1 z ! s\l ( ! k+4 ,fa!r ,sp5c] did n und]value ! conv]sions ( ! middle & l[] classes on ! contr>y1 he work$ h>d to get z _m z possible f !m4 ,he _h always notions ( a great move t[>ds ,ca?olicity1 & he ?\ght t if ! high] ranks took ! lead 9 ?is1 ! o!rs w\ld foll[4 ,9 #ahdd1 he m5tions 8 go+ to ,nott+ham ) a l>ge p>ty1 among :om is ,mr4 ,w>d1 "o ( ! mo/ advanc$ ,ox=d cl]gy4 ,oh6 t he w\ld come a little fur!r1 b at pres5t he seems to h no ?\ghts ( x4 ,god kn[s :e!r he may n soon get a little help onw>ds4 ,make a good pray] = ?is4 ,mr4 ,w>d did get c]ta9ly onw>ds4 ,"h & !re we f9d sighs escape him ab\t 8 belov$ p ( ,nor?ampton & ,br+ton4 ,he did assur$ly love 8 native place int5sely1 & x mu/ h be5 a trial to 8 feel+s t he c\ld d no?+ ext]nally t[>ds alleviat+ its spiritual de/itution4 #bhj ,,*apt] ,,xiii4 ,8 ,t\r ,on ,! ,cont95t ,9 #ahdd4 ,9 #ahdd he became s n]v\s & weak t he 0 =bidd5 ex]tion ( any k9d2 8 ailm5t is manife/ 9 8 tremul\s h&writ+4 ,on m$ical advice1 he takes a t\r on ! ,cont95t ) ,mr4 & ,mrs4 ,phillipps & _! *ildr54 ,8 acc\nt ( ?is t\r is pres]v$ 9 a ,j\rnal1 & we ?9k x well to give x entire1 )\t any compression4 ,on ,w$nesday1 ,july #crd1 #ahdd1 ,i set (f f ,grace ,dieu ,manor = a t\r on ! ,cont95t ) my de> fri5d1 ,ambrose ,phillipps1 8 wife1 8 two elde/ boys1 ,ambrose & ,edw>d1 & ,john ,squires1 8 s]vant4 ,he took 8 c>riage1 9 :i* he & 8 family sat on ! railway f ,l\ghbor\gh to ,london1 :ile ,i w5t 9 a second-class c>riage4 ,we arriv$ at ! ,burl+ton ,hotel1 & d9$ ab\t #g o'clock4 ,aft]w>ds we w5t out diff]5t ways4 ,i call$ at ,dr4 ,griffi?s1 b he 0 n at home4 ,i _h tea ) ,dr4 ,maguire1 :om ,i f\nd at home2 we _h an h\r's talk1 ab\t ! ,ox=d m5 pr9cipally4 ,got home ab\t #aj4 ,?ursday1 ,july #d4--,w5t ) ! ,phillippses to ,fa!r ,ly?goe's1 9 ,bolton ,/reet1 :]e ,i said mass1 & breakfa/$ at #aj4 ,i w5t to see ,dr4 ,*amb]s1 9 ,brook ,/reet1 be+ ord]$ by ,dr4 ,wiseman to consult him z to ! propriety ( tak+ a long t\r1 z is propos$ by ,phillipps4 ,dr4 ,*amb]s recogniz$ me at once1 z ,i us$ 9 #ahbd or #ahbe to foll[ 8 visits to ! pati5ts 9 ,/4 ,george's ,hospital1 ) a view to le>n m$ic9e4 ,he judg$ x q necess>y t ,i %\ld h at lea/ ?ree mon?s' abs5ce f "w1 & approv$ ( my travell+ ) #bha mod]ate ex]tion4 ,s ,i am fix$ at la/ to set (f4 ,god kn[s h[ ,i %all g ?r\gh4 ,! pres5t plan is to g ?r\gh ,belgium1 to ,muni*1 ! ,tyrol1 ,v5ice1 ,milan1 ,tur91 ,lyons1 ,p>is1 & home2 & my purpose is to get pray]s = ,engl&'s conv]sion1 & to see m5 r ?an places & ?+s4 ,aft] ,dr4 ,*amb]s1 ,i w5t to ! ,bank1 to get my lett] ( cr$it1 !n to ,buck+ham ,palace1 to see my si/]4 ,aft] ,i _h wait$ a half-h\r %e return$ f h] drive1 & took me to h] nurs]y ap>tm5ts at ! top ( ! h\se4 ,i _h my fir/ glance at ,pr9ce ,alb]t1 go+ out to ride ) ,colonel ,b\v]ie4 ,f ,s>ah1 ,i w5t to ,lyttelton's h\se1 #ci1 ,grosv5or ,place1 :]e ,i f\nd ,c>ol9e ,lyttelton 0 expect$ home 9 an h\r1 & s ,i w5t on to call on ,sisk1 :o 0 out1 & ,i came back & saw ,lyttelton1 ) :om ,i w5t 9 8 c>riage t[>ds ! ,h\se ( ,lords1 & 0 set d[n 9 ,/4 ,james's ,/reet4 ,on ! table 9 ,grosv5or ,place ,i saw :at ,i 0 #ba ye>s ago1 9 a m9iature pa9t$ by ,ross--a bloom+ rosy y\?4 ,i did n believe x till ,c>ol9e told me4 ,i came to d9e ) ,s>ah at #h1 & /aid till #aj4 ,our conv]sation 0 mo/ int]e/+1 ab\t ! ,que5 & ! *ildr51 & ! great p f abroad1 c41 :om %e saw2 above all1 ! ,cz> & ! ,duke ( ,well+ton4 ,%e set me d[n at our hotel at #aj1 aft] call+ at ,neville ,gr5ville's1 :]e ,i saw ,lady ,*>lotte & a l>ge family4 ,friday1 ,july #e?4--,mass & breakfa/ z ye/]day4 ,ab\t #aa />t$ = ,dov]1 9 ! same ord] z f ,l\ghbor\gh2 arriv$ at #e4 ,i w5t to call on ,mr4 ,savage1 ! prie/1 my old companion at ,rome4 ,he does n seem a movem5t man4 ,he came to tea ) u4 ,saturday1 ,july #f?4--,z ! packet 0 to />t at #g1 ,i miss$ say+ mass4 ,z x happ5$1 we _h to wait on bo>d till #i = ! mail4 ,we _h int5d$ to cross to ,o/5d1 b ,phillipps1 gett+ afraid ( ! long cross+ = sickness1 s we all agre$ to pref] ! %ort]-by-half passage to ,calais4 ,we _h a good passage1 b we all 7 mis]able2 ! two boys 7 v sick4 ,h[ev]1 z ! ,fr5* boatm5 assur$ u1 ! tread ( ! dry l& ( #bhb ,france work$ wond]s to cure u all4 ,we w5t to ,dess9's ,hotel4 ,i 0 full well rem9d$ ( ,septemb]1 #ahai1 my fir/ l&+ 9 ,france1 & ( div]s o!r epo*s1 ,sept4 #ahbj1 ,nov4 #ahbj1 & ,feb4 #ahcj4 ,be=e d9n] we w5t to ! *ur* to give ?anks1 & comm5d our future to ,god4 ,i ask$ le ,suisse de l',eglise 7! v]g]7 to pray = ,engl&4 ,no?+ else done at ,calais4 ,we />t$ 9 ! aft]noon = ,s4 ,om]1 :i* we rea*$ late4 ,! c\ntry we pass$ 0 v f]tile2 = ! fir/ "t ,i h se5 cultivation :i* /ruck me z sup]ior to ,engli%2 ! /ate ( ! p is manife/ly m happy & prosp]\s4 ,aft] tea ,i w5t to ! ,gr& ,vicaire1 ,m4 ,dumez1 to ask leave = mass1 c4 ,i _h =gott5 to get cr$5tials f ,dr4 ,wiseman1 & s he hesitat$1 b gave ! celebret4 ,i w5t on1 ?\gh tir$1 to ,m4 ,duri]1 ,cur de ,notre ,dame1 :o receiv$ me mo/ cordially1 & on my /at+ my err&1 press$ me to prea* at ! high mass on ! morr[4 ,i hesitat$1 b he came ) me to our hotel1 & ,phillipps jo9$ 9 press+ x1 & s ,i wrote a qu>t] ( an h\r's wor? be=e go+ to b$1 hop+ ,i 0 n out ( rule1 b d\bt+4 ,sunday1 ,july #g4--,said mass at ,notre ,dame1 a f9e ,go?ic *ur*2 w5t home to breakfa/1 & back to high mass at #i4 ,aft] ! ,gospel1 ,m4 ,duri] fir/ read ! annonces1 ! ,epi/le1 & ! ,gospel1 & introduc$ my object to ! p4 ,!n ,i w5t into ! pulpit1 & made my address )\t any difficulty4 ,he !n rose opposite to me1 & pl$g$ himself & 8 flock to pray = ,engl&4 ,aft] mass1 ,i w5t a r\nd ( ! conv5ts ( ! t[n ) an old man s5t f "o ( !m ) me4 ,! conv5ts :i* promis$ _! pray]s 7 ! foll[+3 ,les ,ursul9es1 #cg nuns2 #cjj s*ol>s4 ,les ,soeurs ,hospitalires de ,s4 ,l\is4 ,l',hospice de ,s4 ,jean1 s]v$ by nuns4 ,l',hpital ,gnral des enfants tr\vs1 c4 ,les ,religieuses de la ,sa9te famille4 ,le ,c\v5t du ,sa9t ,sacrem5t1 :]e are only #c nuns1 ! ,sup]ioress an ,engli%woman1 :o obs]v$ t 9 h] pr(ession1 :5 pro/rate--a "t :5 x is said ! *os5 pray] is sure to be grant$--! fir/ ?+ %e ask$ 0 ,engl&'s conv]sion4 ,les ,frres des coles ,*rti5nes4 ,! ,sup]ior promis$ to recomm5d ! pray]s to 8 bre?r5 ( #cj h\ses 9 ?is di/rict1 :o meet 9 ,augu/ = a retreat4 #bhc ,we proce$$ at #c to ,lille1 /opp+ at ! exit f ,/4 ,om] to see ! ru9$ ,abbaye de ,/4 ,b]t94 ,we /opp$ at ,cussel1 a place on ! top ( a m\nta9 comm&+ a gr& prospect ov] a va/ pla9 ri*ly wood$ & cultivat$4 ,! matre d'htel want$ u sadly to /ay1 b we w5t on1 aft] a walk to ! top ( ! m\nt1 & to ! *ur*4 ,we came late to ,lille1 & n f9d+ room at l',htel de l',europe1 we put up at l',htel de ,g&1 n a v nice "o1 9 ! ,gr&e ,place4 ,monday1 ,july #h4--;,i fir/ w5t to ! ,*ur* ( ,/4 ,ca!r9e1 to see ,abbe ,b]n>d1 my fri5d1 introduc$ by ,mrs4 ,cann+4 ,he 0 gone1 ye/]day1 to ,p>is4 ,i !n w5t to ,rue ,royale1 ,no4 #fa1 memorable = ev] z ! direction to :i* my lett]s f ,br+ton to ,miss ,doll+ 7 address$4 ,m4 ,friot ,*omb>d1 :o lives !re1 0 also abs5t f ,lille4 ,i !n w5t to ! ,*ur* ( ,/4 ti5ne1 :]e ! ,gr& ,doy5 liv$2 &1 hav+ se5 him1 ,i said mass4 ,i !n call$ on him 9 8 h\se1 & obta9$ 8 promise to advocate ! cause ( ,engl&4 ,aft] breakfa/1 ,i w5t to ! ,*ur* ( ,/4 ,maurice1 :i* is call$ ! ,ca!dral4 ,x is ! fir/ ,i h se5 ) f\r aisles4 ,i saw no?+ m 9 ,lille2 we left x ab\t #ab1 & rea*$ ,t\rnay ab\t #b4 ,i w5t at once to ! v*1 :]e ,i f\nd ! ,bi%op's ,secret>y1 :o took me to a great conv5t ( nuns1 :i* ! ,bi%op has f\nd$1 & is build+ ?is h\se =4 ,x is to conta9 sixty nuns1 & a great numb] ( p5sionnaires4 ,i 0 pres5t$ to 8 lord%ip 9 ! g>d51 & obta9$ a full promise ( 8 patronage ( ! cause ( ,engl&4 ,i came back to d9e at ! ,hotel 7du ,s+e d',or72 to my surprise & pleasure1 ,talbot came 9 ) ,phillipps1 :o _h met him 9 ! ,ca!dral4 ,aft] d9n]1 he & ,i took a #bhd c>riage & w5t to see ! ,passioni/s au ,*teau d',ere1 ab\t ?ree miles (f4 ,le ,pre ,pi]re1 ,sup]ior ( ! h\se1 receiv$ u ) all k9dness4 ,he has ?ree companions prie/s1 & ?ree bro!rs4 ,!y 7 build+ a *ur* ( good size1 & seem to prosp]2 b he compla9s t no po/ulants come2 !y h receiv$ n "o cl]ic yet4 ,he ?9ks !y fe> ! b>e feet4 ,he came back ) u to ,t\rnay1 to see ,phillipps4 ,soon aft]1 we />t$ on our way to ,brussels2 /ill by po/ horses1 z all ! way f ,calais4 ,we /opp$ at ,alte to sleep4 ,! hotel 0 "o ( ! mo/ agreeable & *eape/1 ?\gh small4 ,tuesday1 ,july #i4--,!re are two *ur*es at ,alte4 ,i w5t to ,/4 ,juli5's1 & said mass4 ,aft]w>ds ,i introduc$ ,phillipps & ,madame to ! ,doy51 ,m4 ,picqu>t1 :o 0 mo/ pleas+ & full ( k1 & promis$ all = ,engl&4 ,we "h _h a conte/ ) ,john1 :i* ?reat5$ 8 be+ s5t home1 b he came r\nd be=e ! day 0 out4 ,we />t$ at #aj = ,brussels4 ,! c\ntry n equal to ,france4 ,we came to ! ,htel de ,belle ,vue1 9 ! ,place ,royale4 ,hav+ engag$ a suite ( rooms1 we sat d[n at once at ! table d'hte4 ,aft] x1 ,i w5t to seek = ! ,abb ,donnet1 to :om ,i _h a note f ,seag]4 ,he 0 out4 ,i !n w5t to ,/e4 ,gudule1 ! ca!dral1 & saw ! ,vicaire1 a ,dut* prie/1 ) :om ,i settl$ to say mass to-morr[4 ,!n ,i took a vigilante 7i4e4 a cab7 to ! ,college de ,/4 ,mi*el1 ( ! ,jesuits1 :]e ,i saw ! ,second ,sup]ior4 ,!n to ! ,r$emptori/s1 :]e ! ,sup]ior took up ! cause w>mly4 ,home to tea4 ,w$nesday1 ,july #aj4--,w5t at #g to ,abb ,donnet2 !n to mass at ,/e4 ,gudule4 ,at #i1 ,abb 7,*ano9e7 ,donnet call$1 &1 aft] an h\r's talk ab\t ,ox=d1 took u to ,monsignor ,pacci1 ! ,pope's ,nuncio1 ,ar*bi%op ( ,damietta4 ,he is a mo/ holy-look+ man2 conv]s$ ) u mo/ k9dly2 knew mu* ab\t ! ,ox=d p2 promis$ 8 help4 ,i !n let ! ,phillippses g _! way1 int5d+ to make a day ( canvass+ conv5ts4 ,b ,m4 ,donnet took me only to ?ree1 & !n _h to g 8 way at #ab4 ,! ?ree 73-- ,soeurs de ,notre ,dame1 ,rue de l'toile1 #ad nuns4 ,pauvres ,claires1 ,rue de ,manige1 ,maison ,mre a ,bruges1 #ac nuns4 ,c\v5t de ,bellaymont4 ,*ano9esses ,rgulires de ,/4 ,augu/94 ,unique ,maison4 #bhe ,aft] ?is1 ,i w5t to ,/e4 ,gudule1 & met ,phillipps1 ) :om ,i w5t to ! ,j>d9 ,botanique1 & to ! hospital = old m54 ,x is a gr& e/abli%m5t1 by private *>ity4 ,x conta9s #gjj old m51 ( :om #ajj pay = !mselves2 ! re/ are kept free1 & ) wond]ful reg>d to _! com=ts4 ,i call$ on a cur close by1 ?9k+ to get ! pray]s ( ^! vielli>ds2 b he took me = a begg+ prie/1 & turn$ me out ( doors4 ,deo gratias4 ,!nce to ! ,muse1 a collection ( pictures1 :i* h>dly paid ! tr\ble ( look+ at4 ,aft] d9n] at ! table d'hte1 we took a c>riage to g to ,jette ,/4 ,pi]re1 to meet ! ,c>d9al ,ar*bi%op ( ,mal9es1 at ! ,conv5t ( ! ,sacr ,coeur !re4 ,on ! way we saw an int]e/+ *ur*2 outside 0 a tomb ( ,madame ,malibr54 ,at ,jette1 ,madame de ,wall1 my fri5d ( #ahcb at ,bordeaux1 introduc$ u to ! ,c>d9al4 ,?is 0 a consolation inde$4 ,he und]took to recomm5d ,engl& to all ! ,bi%ops ( ,belgium1 invit$ me to _! meet+ on ! #bi? ,july1 & promis$ t all _! prie/s & conv5ts %\ld engage 9 ! cause4 ,?is is a noble conv5t4 ,madame de ,wall said !y pray$ = ,engl& e half-h\r 9 ! day4 ,?ursday1 ,july #aa4--,said mass at ,/4 ,jacques1 9 ! ,place ,royale4 ,w5t to ,mal9es by ! *em9 du f]1 ,phillipps 9 ! c>riage on a truck1 ,i 9 a *>--banc4 ,arriv$ at l',htel de la ,grue j 9 "t = ! table d'hte1 on :i* ,i only rem>k ! imm5se l5g? ( "t tak5 to d9e4 ,aft] x1 we w5t to ! ,petit ,sm9aire1 :]e we 7 w>mly greet$ by ! ,abb ,bonquan1 our fri5d ( ,oscott & ,grace ,dieu4 ,he took u ab\t to a few places2 & at #e to ! ,salut1 at ! ,ca!dral2 aft] :i* he introduc$ ,miss ,"y1 ! conv]t1 si/] to ,isabella4 ,%e w5t ) u to ,hanicq's1 ! pr9t]'s1 & to a f9e old *ur*1 c4 ,i visit$ no conv5ts1 res]v+ ?is = my return4 ,opposite our hotel1 ! gr& #bhf ,!atre des ,lapons =c$ itself to be notic$ till late at night4 ,friday1 ,july #ab4--;,aft] mass & breakfa/1 we w5t to visit ! ,c>d9al ,ar*bi%op1 :o graci\sly gave me a pap] ( te/imonial1 :i* w1 ,i hope1 save "s tr\ble4 ,8 c\nt5ance & mann] are highly prepossess+4 ,at #ab we />t$ = ,antw]p1 by railway1 leav+ ! c>riage at ! /ation at ,mal9es4 ,we arriv$ at ! ,htel ,/4 ,anto9e1 j 9 "t = ! table d'hte at #b4 ,!re ,i met ,mr4 ,blore1 ) 8 daught]1 n[ gr[n a f9e "y woman4 ,aft] d9n]1 to ! ,ca!dral4 ,i ne$ n speak ( ! glori\s t[]1 #dff feet high4 ,:at attract$ our att5tion mo/ 0 ! wond]fully beautiful re/oration ( ! /alls 9 oak c>v$ "w2 #dj1jjj francs h be5 sp5t 9 ?is already1 & n half ! /alls are f9i%$1 & ?is actually 9 process ( "w is m pleas+ to see ?an ! mo/ beautiful morsels ( anci5t "w1 = ! promise x gives ( bett] days4 ,! pulpit is a mass ( exquisite c>v+1 9 a /yle seem+ly fav\rite 9 ?is "p ( ,belgium4 ,! mo/ beautiful we saw 0 at ,brussels1 ,/e4 ,gudule1 :]e1 bel[ ! prea*]1 are se5 ,adam & ,eve bani%$ f ,p>adise2 & above1 ! head ( ! s]p5t1 :o w9ds r\nd ! pulpit1 cru%$ by ,m>y4 ,! same /yle ( c>v+ is ar\nd ! pulpit at ,m>9es1 ,l\va91 c41 b is se5 no m at ,lige4 ,aft] see+ ! ca!dral1 we w5t to ! ,muse1 conta9+ fir/-rate specim5s ( ,rub5s1 citiz5 ( ,antw]p2 z also ( ,van ,dyke & ,qu9t9 ,matsys1 ( :om !re is an excell5t picture ( ! ,desc5t f ! ,cross4 ,f9d+ myself ne> ! ,college ( ! ,jesuits1 ,i w5t 9 & saw ! ,rector1 :o took up our cause zeal\sly4 ,he walk$ home ) me to see ,phillipps1 & !y soon got intimate4 ,saturday1 ,july #ac4--;,aft] mass 9 ! ca!dral1 we w5t1 by la/ night's appo9tm5t1 to visit ! ,sup]ior ( ! ,jesuits1 :o %[$ u 8 h\se4 ,!n1 ,phillipps go+ to see "s *ur*es1 c41 ,i w5t ) a lay bro!r1 giv5 me = guide by ! ,sup]ior1 to visit conv5ts4 #bhg ,we call$ at ! foll[+3-- ,colet9es1 prs la ,porte ,r\ge1 #bh nuns ,dames de l',in/ruction ,*rti5ne1 #ag nuns ,soeurs de ,notre ,dame1 #bj nuns ,soeurs ,grises1 #cd nuns ,soeurs ,noires1 #di nuns ,apo/ol9es1 9 two h\ses1 #fg nuns ,soeurs de ,*>it1 #ab nuns ,bgu9age 7t is1 a collection ( h\ses1 9 :i* ,si/]s live "u a ,sup]ioress1 n b\nd by v[s = life7 #ed nuns ,except ! latt]1 :]e ,i 0 ref]r$ to ! ,director1 :o 0 n s att5tive1 all receiv$ ! proposal w>mly4 ,! bro!r 0 my int]pret] ) _m1 :o did n "k ,fr5*4 ,at #a we got home1 & ,i took ! ,phillippses to ! cur ( ! ca!dral1 :o introduc$ to u ,m4 ,durlet1 ! "y ar*itect1 :o1 ) a p>tn] at ,l\va91 is do+ ! beautiful "w 9 ! *oir4 ,we w5t into ! ca!dral aga91 & ,i 0 prev5t$ go+ to two rema9+ conv5ts1 b ! cur promis$ to d x = me4 ,m4 ,durlet came to d9e ) u at ! table d'hte4 ,i j call$ at l',htel du ,p>k1 to see ,miss ,dalton1 :o is ill !re4 ,mr4 ,turp9 & ,mr4 ,cr[e1 two ,lanca%ire prie/s1 are ) h]4 ,! =m] acco/$ me 9 ! ca!dral4 ,we set (f !n to ,mal9es by ! railway2 !re met ,abb ,bonquan2 _h tea1 & w5t on to ,l\va94 ,we got 9 late1 9 heavy ra92 ,phillipps _h to walk f ! railway a mile 9 ! ra94 ,i w5t fir/ to ! ,htel de ,suide1 :]e ,i f\nd ,dr4 ,ulla?orne & ,mr4 ,hansom1 8 ar*itect4 #g? ,sunday af4 ,p5t4 ,july #ad4--;,i _h my palpitation worse ?an ev] to-day4 ,i wi% to attribute x to my two days' ab/95ce1 & n to my walk+ aft] conv5ts4 ,x w5t (f aft] breakfa/4 ,i said mass at ! ,ca!dral ,/4 ,pi]re4 ,high mass at #aj4 ,x 0 "o ( extreme opposition to pla9 *ant1 ) drums & or*e/ra4 ,9 ?is *ur* rememb] ! beautiful tab]nacle1 a /one p9nacle1 on ! ,gospel side ( ! alt>4 ,!re 0 no prne1 & a second high mass imm$iately aft]4 ,! ,htel de ,ville is a fam\s piece ( ,go?ic1 n s admirable to my view z #bhh t at ,brussels1 :i* is mu* l>g]1 n s highly wr\ght1 & has a beautiful spire4 ,aft] d9n]1 at #a1 ) ,dr4 ,ulla?orne1 & at ! table-d'hte1 we w5t to see ,m4 & ,madame de ,c\x4 ,we got into int]e/+ talk ) him on matt]s religions1 ecclesia/ical1 & political4 ,he is a pr(essor ( political economy1 a ,fr5*man1 br\ght up 9 ,engl& "u old ,dr4 ,woods4 ,we w5t on till aft] #e1 & s miss$ ! salut1 s]mon1 & procession at ! *ur*4 ,he took u to ! ,univ]sity1 :]e we saw ,abb ,mal\1 :o claim$ me z an old acqua9tance1 "o ( ! ?ree at ! ,collegio ,nobile :om ,i knew at ,rome4 ,he is ,pr(essor ( ,dogmatic ,!ology1 mo/ le>n$1 high br$1 & amiable4 ,m4 ,bonquan came k9dly to meet u f ,mal9es1 & 0 ) u till #f4 ,aft] hav+ sp5t ne>ly an h\r ) ,m4 ,mal\1 :o %[$ u ! libr>y 7#aj1jjj vols47 ( :i* he is keep]1 we w5t to tea ) ,m4 de ,c\x1 & came home at #i4 ,monday1 ,july #ae4 ,/4 ,s)94--,mass at ,/4 ,pi]re1 = ! ,fea/ de ,divisione ,apo/olorum4 ,aft] breakfa/ ,i w5t aga9 to ,m4 de ,c\x1 :o took me to see a ,m4 ,mhl]1 :om he recomm5d$ z tutor to ,john ,beaumont4 ,at #ab1 railway to ,liege4 ,d9$ at #e1 at l',htel de ,france4 ,at #f1 salut at ,/4 ,d5ys4 ,be=e d9n] ,i w5t to ! ,r$emptori/s1 b f\nd ,pre ,van ,held & ,des*amps out ( t[n4 ,! ,bi%op also away4 ,we w5t at #g a walk to a booksell]'s1 f :i* ,i w5t 9 que/ ( ! ,gr& ,vicaire4 ,i met an old prie/ 9 ! /reet1 ,abb ,m>somme1 :o took me to ,m4 ,jacqu5ot1 ! second ,gr& ,vicaire1 & !n walk$ home & took tea ) u4 ,^! two promis$ to spread pray] = ,engl& ?r\gh ,liege4 ,i wrote to ,mrs4 ,beaumont be=e b$4 ,tuesday1 ,july #af4--,our ,lady ( ,m\nt ,c>mel4--,mass at ,/4 ,d5ys1 :]e is a beautiful piece ( old oak c>v+4 ,phillippses receiv$ communion4 ,aft] breakfa/1 at #i1 we w5t to high mass at ! ca!dral4 ,x 0 solemn pla9 *ant4 ,! *ur* has _m /a9$-glass w9d[s1 l ^? ( ,/e4 ,gudule1 ,brussels1 ( #aeej1 mu* gone (f f ! old] "t4 ,! pulpit is new c>v$ oak1 ) a beautiful t[] ) p9nacles above1 a great improvem5t on #bhi ! c>v$ pulpit above nam$1 ?\gh n s co/ly p]haps4 ,! *ur* is mu* debas$1 z usual1 9 o!r p>ts4 ,we met ,*ano9e ,erroye1 :o took u to ! o!r great *ur*1 ,/4 ,jacques1 :i* rivals or surpasses ! ca!dral4 ,! ceil+ col\r$1 ?\gh l ! ca!dral4 ,!y are do+ a great deal to re/ore ?is *ur*4 ,! ,doy5 0 !re ov]look+ ! "w4 ,! /a9$ glass 0 mu* bett] ?an at ,brussels1 b n ! be/ 7date #aebg72 n s f> d[n hill4 ,! ,*ano9e !n took u to ! ,abb ,m>somme1 :o is ,director ( an hospice ) #ai nuns1 tak+ c>e ( #ahj old wom51 beautifully kept4 ,! ,qu>ant' ,ore 0 be+ celebrat$ 9 ?is *ur*4 ,x is kept up 9 ,lige all ! ye> r\nd1 & comes f\r times to ea* *ur*4 ,we !n w5t ) ! ,*ano9e ,erroye to ! ,gr& ,sm9aire4 ,! libr>y is beautiful4 ,!re are "h #abj /ud5ts2 & at ! ,petit ,sm9aire1 #cfj4 ,!y g ?r\gh n9e c\rses at ! ,petit1 & ?ree at ! ,gr&1 s t #dj are s5t on ! mission e ye>1 & #dj m come on bel[4 ,came home to table d'hte at #a4 ,aft] x we made an attempt to g to ,angleur1 #c miles (f1 :]e ,mrs4 ,ambrose's fa!r1 ,hon4 ,?omas ,clif=d1 :o di$ at ,lige 9 #ahag1 is buri$4 ,we 7 /opp$ by mud & ra91 & came back1 see+ ! *ur* ( ,/e4 ,croix1 :i* 0 n v rem>kable 7,mem4 a dog c>ry+ ! keys z port]71 & ,/4 ,m>t91 a f9e *ur* ( second rate1 b fam\s z ! place :]e1 at "o ( ! side alt>s1 ! fea/ ( ,corpus ,*ri/i 0 celebrat$ = ! fir/ "t1 ow+ to ! inspirations receiv$ by a nun call$ ,soeur ,juli5ne4 ,! #f? ,c5t5>y w be held 9 #ahdf4 ,we met a "y1 amiable-look+ prie/ 9 ! *ur*4 ,he promis$ to ?9k ( ,engl& at ! alt>1 9 ! special mass ( ! ,bless$ ,sacram5t1 :i* is celebrat$ at x e ,?ursday1 :atev] fea/ may int]pose4 ,x 0 heavy ra91 & we came home to salut at ,/4 ,d5ys1 & !nce to ! hotel4 ,i wrote up a good deal ( ?is j\rnal4 ,w$nesday1 ,july #ag4 ,/4 ,osmond4--,we took a /\t] equipage1 & got to ,angleur e>ly4 ,i said mass1 & ! ,phillippses communicat$ ov] ! place ( h] fa!r's repose4 ,! boys s]v$ ! mass4 ,! ,cur1 ,mat?ias ,jn4 ,conv>dy1 :o rememb]$ ,mr4 ,clif=d :ile himself q #bij "y1 gave u breakfa/ aft]1 v k9dly4 ,all ^! prie/s 7 w>m = ,engl&4 ,we return$ to ,lige1 & ,i w5t to ! bank]2 !n home to d9n] at #a4 ,!n w5t (f by railway to ,aix-la-,*apelle4 ,x passes ?r\gh beautiful romantic sc5]y4 ,!re is no railway ) s _m tunnels 9 ! di/ance4 ,i got into conv]sation ) a p>ty ( ,oxonians go+ to sp5d ! long vacation at ,bad54 ,"o ( !m1 ,mr4 ,g4 ,f4 ,br[n1 ( ,tr9ity1 0 full ( in=mation1 & q mov+ on1 a great fri5d ( ,w4 ,palm]1 ( ,magdal54 ,he promis$ to visit ,oscott4 ,we came to ! ,htel ,nuelleus1 a v gr& "o4 ,i w5t to ! ,*ief ,canon1 ! ,gr& ,vicaire be+ gone to ,cologne1 & got leave = mass to-morr[4 ,we are n[ 9 ,prussia1 & all on a sudd5 all ,g]man--h>dly a ^w ( ,fr5* spok54 ,we _h tea1 & ,i f9i%$ my ,j\rnal up1 9 my room1 aft] say+ mat9s4 ,?ursday1 ,july #ah4--;,i w5t to ! ca!dral1 & aft] mass1 saw ! wond]ful relics :i* are pres]v$ 9 ! sacri/y ( ! ca!dral4 ,?is ca!dral consi/s ( a r\nd ,byzant9e build+1 :i* 0 built by ,*>lemagne z ! *apel to 8 palace2 & a high ,go?ic *oir1 :i* 0 add$ to x aft] ! palace _h be5 burnt d[n4 ,a "y prie/ %[$ ! relics2 he is always 9 wait+ = ! purpose1 except = ! "t ( high mass & (fice4 ,! great relics--viz41 ! dress ( ! ,bless$ ,virg91 ! clo!s :i* our ,"l _h on ,him on ! cross1 & ! clo? into :i* ,john ,bapti/'s head fell--are kept 9 a magnific5t *e/1 :i* is %[n1 b is only op5$ e sev5 ye>s1 & :5 a cr[n$ head comes4 ,! next "t is ,july #aj1 #ahdf4 ,above ?is *e/ is "o conta9+ ! bones ( ,*>lemagne1 ^: skull & sp9e-bone1 & ev5 hunt+-horn1 are %[n 9 sep>ate reliqu>ies4 ,8 cr[n & sword are at ,vi5na4 ,"h is %[n also ! girdle ( our ,"l1 ( lea!r1 ) ,con/ant9e's seal ^u x2 ! rope ) :i* he 0 ti$ to ! pill>2 ! girdle ( ,our ,lady2 & _m o!r glori\s relics less important4 ,! int]ior ( ! doors enfold+ ^! treasures is l9$ mo/ beautifully ) pa9t+s ( ,alb]t ,dur]1 & _m admirable ,byzant9e pa9t+s4 #bia ,^! relics 7 pr9cipally giv5 to ,*>lemagne by ! ,caliph1 ,h>\n ,alras*id4 ,! cases 7 gifts ( sev]al emp]ors1 c41 z ,lo?aire1 ,*>les ,v41 ,philip ,,ii4 ,!y 7 pres]v$ 9 ! ,fr5* ,revolution by a prie/1 :o convey$ !m to ,pad]born & hid !m4 ,aft] breakfa/ ,i return$ to ! ca!dral ) ,phillipps = high mass1 :i* 0 9 solemn pla9 *ant1 & !n saw ! relics aga9 at #aa1 aft] go+ to ! ,palais de ,ju/ice4 ,at #ab ,i got a little d9n]1 & w5t by ! railway to ,gr&1 p>t+ f ! ,phillippses1 please ,god1 = a =tnight only4 ,i w5t to b$ at ! ,htel de ,fl&re1 leav+ no luggage--all left at ,mal9es4 ,friday1 ,july #ai4--,w5t to ! ca!dral to say mass4 ,my morn+ 0 tak5 up ) go+ to ! railway ab\t my poor luggage1 :i* at la/ ,i saw1 & visit+ ! ,prov9cial ( ! ,jesuits1 to see ab\t my retreat4 ,i d9$ at ! hotel4 ,! ca!dral is a mo/ beautiful specim5 ( ! ,greek fitt+s 9 a ,go?ic *ur*4 ,i did n /op to h ! f9e/ pictures uncov]$1 = ,i _h my bus9ess to see aft]4 ,two o!r beautiful *ur*es1 ,/4 ,ni*olas & ,/4 ,mi*ael4 ,no signs "h ( ,go?ic re/orations4 ,at #c ,i w5t ) ! ,prov9cial to ,fran*ismes1 :]e !y h b\ght an anci5t ,prmontr ,abbey1 :i* does n pres]ve mu* ( ! abbey /ill1 except "s corridors1 once1 z x seems1 cloi/]s4 ,x is1 h[ev]1 a beautiful e/abli%m5t = its end4 ,i saw & spoke to two ,engli% & "o ,iri% novice1 ( c\rse ab\t ,engl&4 ,i w5t back to ,g&2 & !re ,pre ,c\lt9s1 by desire ( ! ,prov9cial1 w5t ) me to ! ,recollets1 a re=m ( ! ,franciscans2 _! *ief h\se is at ,/4 ,fr\d4 ,!n to ! ,pauvres ,claires2 & !n to "o ( ! two ,bgu9ages4 ,"h are e/abli%m5ts1 9 "o ( :i* #hjj1 & 9 ! o!r #cjj1 quasi nuns live 9 a clu/] ( sep>ate h\ses4 ,_! orig9 is immemorial4 ,!y are b\nd by v[s ( ob$i5ce & *a/ity1 n pov]ty1 = ! "t t !y rema94 ,h>dly ev] does "o return to ! _w4 ,! ,pre ,c\lt9s promis$ to visit = me ! o!r conv5ts ( ! t[n4 ,?is is :at ,i c\ld d = ,gh5t4 ,at #f1 ,i />t$ by railway to ,l\va91 :]e ,i 0 receiv$ z an #bib old acqua9tance at ! ,htel de ,suide4 ,! ,prov9cial s5ds me "h = my retreat4 ,9 ! tra9 to ,mal9es1 ,i _h ,mr4 ,maude & ,mr4 ,p]ry4 ,f9i%$ ,j\rnal1 & to b$ at ne> #ab4 ,saturday1 ,july #bj4--;,aft] mass at ! ca!dral1 & breakfa/1 ,i w5t to ! ,sem9>y ( ! ,jesuits1 ) a lett] f ! ,prov9cial to ,pre ,rosa1 ! rector4 ,he introduc$ me to ,pre ,v&]ghote1 :o is to direct my retreat1 & left me ) him4 ,we w5t to walk ab\t ! t[n1 call$ on ,m4 ,mal\1 :o und]took to translate a pray] f ,dr4 ,wiseman's pray]s = ,engl&1 into ,fr5*4 ,i call$ on ,mr4 ,de ,c\x1 & at ,i d9$ ) ^! two fa!rs1 & we w5t into ! g>d54 ,i !n wrote to ,dr4 ,wiseman1 ,phillipps1 & ,m4 ,bonquan1 & at to #e began my retreat = eight days please ,god1 till ! end ( :i* my pres5t j\rnal int]mits4 ,orate pro me omnes qui diligitis ,deum4 ,monday1 ,july #bi4--;,i rose ?is morn+ out ( my retreat1 hop+ t by ! help ( ,almighty ,god ,i may pres]ve "s ( its fruit durably4 ,i said mass once m at #g 9 ! private *apel1 !n aft] a conv]sation ) my k9d ,fa!r ,v&]ghote1 ,i w5t to ! ,college du ,sa9t ,esprit1 :]e ,i saw ,m4 ,mal\1 & !n w5t into ! hall1 :]e !ses 7 def5d$ by a "y prie/ call$ ,bact51 & !n degrees conf]r$1 & a disc\rse 9 ,lat9 pron\nc$ by ,abb ,mal\4 ,! ,nuncio & ! ,bi%op ( ,ami5s 7 !re1 ) _m o!rs4 ,at #b ,i d9$ ) ,m4 ,mal\4 ,! *ief gue/s 7 ! ,gr& ,vicaire de ,bruges1 a monseigneur1 & ,abb ,m>ais1 ( ! ,sorbonne2 mu* conv]sation 0 on ,engl&1 & "s good int]e/ excit$4 ,i w5t aga9 to see ,pre ,rosa1 & ,v&]ghote1 & at #f 0 on ! railway to ,mal9es ) a multitude ( prie/s4 ,i w5t to ! ,petit ,sm9aire1 & supp$1 & ,m4 ,bonquan walk$ ) me to ! ,grue4 ,tuesday1 ,july #cj4--,said mass at ! ca!dral1 & !n at #h w5t to ! ,ar*bi%op's palace1 :]e1 ) mu* tr\ble1 ,i got at ! ,*ano9e's private secret>y1 :o introduc$ me to ! ,c>d9al & 8 five suffragan ,belgian #bic ,bi%ops ( ,bruges1 ,t\rnay1 ,g&1 ,namur1 & ,liege1 sitt+ aft] breakfa/4 ,i sat d[n1 & 9 a %ort conv]sation a great deal seem$ to be done = ! cause4 ,i 0 desir$ to draw up docum5ts ) ,m4 ,bonquan to-day1 & to d9e ) ! prelates at #a to-morr[1 to he> _! conclusion4 ,laus ,deo semp]4 ,at #aj ,i w5t to ,m4 ,bonquan1 :]e ,i f\nd two "y ,ox=d m51 :om ,i aft]w>ds f\nd 7 ,*ri/ie ( ,oriel & 8 bro!r4 ,!y w5t ) ,m4 ,bonquan & me on all our r\nds to ! conv5ts ( ! t[n to-day4 ,at #ab ,i d9$ at ! ,petit ,sm9aire1 !n1 ) ,m4 ,bonquan & ,m4 ,v&]velde1 :o 0 v zeal\s = ,engl&1 ,i began to prep>e = to-morr[2 at #d ! ,*ri/ies came1 & we walk$ till #g4 ,! conv5ts :i* we w5t to1 & :i* all promis$1 & 7except "o :i* 0 cold7 all ) great w>m?1 73-- ,les ,soeurs ,hospitalires de ,/e4 ,elisabe?1 #ba nuns4 ,les ,m>ie ,colae #ag nuns4 ,soeurs de ,*>it1 n ,/4 ,v9c5t's1 b a h\se "u ! direction ( ! ,gr& ,sm9aire1 #bc nuns4 ,soeurs de ,notre ,dame1 ,abb ,bonquan is ,director "h2 we saw an int]e/+ ,engli% novice1 & /ay$ "s "t1 #cj nuns4 ,les ,soeurs ,apo/ol9es1 #bd nuns4 ,les ,pauvres ,claires1 n s zeal\s1 #be nuns4 ,la/ly1 we visit$ a new h\se & in/itute call$ ,frres de la ,misricorde1 lately f\nd$ by a canon ( ! ca!dral1 by "n ,s*epp]s4 ,!re are n[ #bg bro!rs1 ( :om #be are on _! mission1 :i* is to ent]1 sev]al toge!r1 ! prisons ( ! c\ntry1 & devote !mselves to ! spiritual & bodily c>e & cure ( ! prison]s4 ,! ,gov]nm5t fav\rs !m rem>kably2 x seems a mo/ notable in/itution1 & ! f\nd] 0 a mo/ int]e/+ man4 ,he promis$ w>mly to engage all 8 bre?r54 ,at #g ,i w5t to ! /ation1 & met ,elwes1 on 8 way home f ,kiss5g54 ,i br\ght him up1 & we _h supp] at ! ,grue4 ,i w5t to b$ aft] a good bit ( "w to be got up1 (fice1 ,j\rnal1 acc\nt1 c4 #bid ,w$nesday1 ,july #ca4 ,/4 ,ignatius4--,elwes & ,i said mass at ! ca!dral4 ,f #aj till ne> #a he & ,i 7 bo? at "w copy+ an address = ! ,bi%ops1 ( :i* ,i ?\ght to give ea* a copy4 ,at "o ,i w5t to d9e at ! ,c>d9al's4 ,!re 7 !re six ,bi%ops & ! ,nuncio1 & _m ( ! *ief cl]gy4 ,i sat next to ,mgr4 de ,namur2 aft]w>ds ,i took an h\r's walk 9 ! g>d51 & at #d att5d$ ! meet+ ( ! ,bi%ops1 :o came to a happy resolution ( grant+ an indulg5ce ( #dj days = e mass1 e communion1 ev5 he>+ mass1 or say+ x ) a mem5to = ,engl&1 & recit+ a pray] :i* !y det]m9$ on4 ,! ,c>d9al 0 full ( noble k9dness4 ,?is grant 0 m ?an ,i _h propos$ 9 my pap]1 & s my morn+'s "w & ,elwes's 0 useless 9 a v agreeable way4 ,i w5t to ! ,grue & f\nd ,m4 ,bonquan & ! ,*ri/ies ) ,elwes4 ,9 pack+ up ,i f\nd my passport 0 lo/1 & w5t (f1 !re=e1 unc]ta9 :e!r ,i c\ld pass ! fronti] )\t writ+ = "o to ,brussels4 ,! ,*ri/ies travell$ ) me4 ,i _h "s int]e/+ conv]sation ) ea* ab\t _! position 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,engl&4 ,!y took x ) great g5tl5ess1 & answ]$ well4 ,!y seem n to h ?\ght ( com+ ov]1 & yet to be 9 good disposition to d :at !y %all see "r4 ,we met v agreeably ) ! v prie/ ( :om we h he>d s mu*1 :o le>nt ,engli% to in/ruct a lady 9 8 p>i% ne> ,bruges1 ^: daught] 0 already a conv]t1 & writes lett]s to ,dr4 ,wiseman = publication 9 ,engl& 7,miss ,h]on74 ,we became great fri5ds1 & he1 ) ano!r "y prie/1 8 neighb\r1 :o are tak+ a little t\r toge!r1 came ) u to ! ,aigle ,noir1 ne>] ! ,r$emptori/s ?an l',htel de ,france4 ,we 7 v ne>ly upset 9 ! omnibus1 z we came up f ! /ation2 x 0 ov]load$ ) luggage1 & /ruck ! :eels on ! "r 9 ! s&1 hav+ got (f ! pav+4 ,we got out1 unhurt1 into ano!r omnibus pass+ by2 supp]1 & to b$4 ,?ursday1 ,augu/ #a4--,said mass at ! ,r$emptori/s4 ,le ,pre ,van ,held invit$ u all to breakfa/1 i4e41 ! ,*ri/ies #bie & ! prie/s1 our new fri5ds4 ,i met !re ! ,bi%op's secret>y1 :o gave me a lett] to ! ,gov]nor ( ,liege1 ,b>on ,van d] ,/e91 :o1 happily1 0 come ?is morn+ into t[n1 & gave me my passport4 ,i !n w5t on ) my vigilante to see ! ,miss ,ni*olls1 :o h be5 liv+ two ye>s at ! ,b5$ict9e conv5t1 ,quai d',avroy4 ,i met !m la/ at ,b\logne1 9 #ahch4 ,!y promis$ to be busy 9 gett+ pray]s4 ,i !n visit$ ! ,jesuits' ,college1 & ,abb ,m>somme4 ,d9$ at #a at ! table d'hte ) ! ,*ri/ies1 :om ,pre ,van ,held _h s5t ab\t sight-see+ ) "o ( 8 prie/s4 ,at #b4de we took ! convoy to ,cologne1 :i* we rea*$ duly at #i1 & w5t to ! ,htel du ,d\ane1 ,ga/h( zum ,kln] ,dom1 close to ! ca!dral2 we took a walk r\nd ! ca!dral by moonlight aft] supp]4 ,friday1 ,augu/ #b4--;,i w5t to say mass 9 ! ca!dral1 :i* we !n look$ r\nd4 ,x gives a melan*oly spectacle ( :at mis]able times h be5 gone ?r\gh :ile x rema9$ ?us unf9i%$ s long2 b x is a consolation to see ! glori\s re/oration n[ go+ on4 ,! mo/ beautiful po9ts ( ! decoration ( ! *oir are ! fresco pa9t+s above ! pill>s1 & ! ri* gild$ diap]+ on ! l[] "p ( !m r\nd ! *oir1 9 :i* "o column alone is f9i%$2 & beautiful figures "u canopies on ea* column1 half-way to ! top4 ,! build+ is surr\nd$ ) great masses ( /ones = ! complet+ ( x4 ,x is expect$ t x w be f9i%$1 fit = consecration1 9 f\r ye>s1 b n q complete till tw5ty ye>s h5ce1 please ,god1 if we h peace4 ,aft] breakfa/ we w5t to call on ,pr(essor ,mi*el1 at ! ,sem9>y4 ,he c\ld n come ) u4 ,we saw ! ,jesuits' *ur*1 & return$ to assi/ at "p ( a requiem mass at ! ca!dral1 ! anniv]s>y ( ! ,ar*bi%op ,f]d9&4 ,i spoke to ! ,vic>-,g5]al ab\t ,engl&1 !n w5t home1 wrote to ,m4 ,mal\1 d9$ alone2 & at #a set (f by a /eamboat on ! ,rh9e = ,ko5igsw9t]1 p>t+ f ! ,*ri/ies 9 ! boat4 ,i _h no?+ v rem>kable 9 ! passage2 rea*$ ,ko5igsw9t] at #e4 ,i took up my lodg+s at ! ,htel de ,b]l91 :]e ! ,phillippses _h be5 = twelve days4 #bif ,!y came 9 f a ride 9 ! m\nta9s ab\t #f1 & we w5t to tea ) ,c\nt & ,c\ntess ,kurtzrock4 ,he is ,mrs4 ,ambrose's second c\s94 ,_! daught] ,m>ie & h] gov]ness gave u music4 ,saturday1 ,augu/ #c4--,said mass at ! little *ur* at ,/a4 ,m>ia4 ,! alt> ) alt>-clo? only ov] ! alt> /one4 ,! re/ ( ! alt> 0 br[n wood4 ,we breakfa/$ ) ,mrs4 ,p4's aunt1 ,la ,b>onne de ,vei*1 :om !y are visit+4 ,%e lives 9 a small h\se ) two nieces1 ,anto9ette & ,fanny ,lutz\4 ,at #aj we w5t across ! ,rh9e to ,go?sburg1 a wat]+-place1 :]e ,mrs4 ,amh]/ & daught] h be5 /ay+2 b !y are gone to ,italy4 ,we walk$ up to a ca/le batt]$ into ru9 9 ! ,?irty ,ye>s' w>1 ov]hang+ ! t[n4 ,! little *ur* half-way up ! hill is a bad specim5 ( ta/e en\gh inside4 ,we came back to d9n] at ! ,b>oness's at #b4 ,i w5t home = two h\rs1 !n walk$ ) ,phillipps & ,tony1 z !y call ,anto9ette1 to see a h\se :i* %e is und]tak+ to =m into an asylum = old poor wom52 back to tea1 & home to ! hotel at #i4 ,sunday1 ,augu/ #d4 #aj? aft] ,p5teco/1 "h m>k$ #i?4--,i he>d mass at #g ) ! fam\s ,kir*5 ,gesang1 ( :om ,i he>d f ,dr4 ,swe]s :ile translat+ ,ov]bury's ,life4 ,all ! p sang ,g]man hymns ?r\gh ! :ole mass ) wond]ful unison4 ,aft] x ,i said mass4 ,at #aj 0 ! high mass1 i4e41 ano!r mass ) ,kir*5 ,gesang1 r m solemn2 & a s]mon4 ,i came home !n & wrote a lett] to ! ,vic>-,g5]al at ,cologne4 ,i receiv$ f ,m4 ,bonquan my book ( pap]s pro ,anglia1 :i* ,i _h left at ,mal9es4 ,at #a1 d9n]4 ,pr(essor ,s*utz1 ( ! ,univ]sity ( ,bonn1 came to d9e4 ,we saw him (f at #c1 & !n f\nd t "s "o mu/ g to ,bonn to get money f ! bank2 s ,i took ! *>ge1 t ,i might see ,bonn4 ,i cross$ ! ,rh9e 9 a boat1 & met an omnibus :i* took me on ! road ,i travell$ 9 #ahbj4 ,! ca!dral at ,bonn1 call$ ! ,mn/]1 is ( a /yle old] ?an ,go?ic1 b n q ,byzant9e1 some?+ l our ,saxon *ur*es4 ,! *oir is elevat$ high above ! nave1 :i* s9ks bel[ ! level outside1 or ! outside #big mu/ h ris54 ,"s ar*es are ,go?ic4 ,! ,univ]sity is a l>ge build+1 :at w\ld be call$ ,grecian4 ,9 front ( x is a h&some prom5ade or p>k4 ,at #g ,i call$ a second "t at ,pr(essor ,s*utz's h\se1 & f\nd him ) ,m4 ,m>ais1 ( ! ,sorbonne4 ,he gave me c(fee1 c4 ,8 rooms are full ( curiosities f ,pale/9e & ,egypt4 ,9 #ahai1 #ahbj1 & #ahba1 he 0 travell+1 commission$ by ,gov]nm5t1 a lit]>y j\rney ?r\gh ,egypt1 ,abyss9ia1 c4 ,he is ,pr(essor ( ,scripture1 a great ,ori5tali/1 a fri5d ( ,dr4 ,wiseman's4 ,we spoke ab\t ,human>ianism & ,ov]bury1 & ! ,p>is ,univ]sity1 c4 ,i w5t out & met my omnibus at a to #i1 cross$ ! ,rh9e1 & got home at #aj4 ,monday1 ,augu/ #e4 ,/a4 ,m>ia ad ,nives4--,mass at #g2 at #i we w5t to a high mass de requiem4 ,!y always s+ "o = e p]son :o dies2 & :5 ! family c af=d x1 bread is giv5 to ! poor1 z 0 done to-day4 ,i /ay$ at home ne>ly1 till "o1 !n d9n] at la ,b>onne's4 ,mr4 ,ambrose 0 n !re1 hav+ _h a fall ye/]day1 & tak+ re/ = precaution4 ,aft] d9n]1 look$ ov] ! ,life ( ,napoleon 9 ,g]man2 came home till ,i w5t to tea4 ,! ,c\nt & ,c\ntess ,kurtzrock & daught]s came4 ,! ,c\ntess promis$ to be an associate = ,engl&1 & to spread x at ,hamburg1 :]e !y live4 ,friday1 ,augu/ #f?4--,mass at #f4 ,i />t$ at #g4cj by a /eam] = ,may5ce4 ,we pass$ ,cobl5tz 7lat4 conflu5tia71 at ! conflu5ce ( ! ,moselle & ! ,rh9e1 at #a1 & !n d9$ 7table d'hte7 on deck4 ,we made agreeable acqua9tance ) two prie/s1 ,m4 ,b&ry1 ,*ano9e ( ,cologne1 & ,m4 ,/eigmei]1 a ,p4,p4 9 ! ,black ,=e/4 ,! fir/ w5t (f at ,cobl5tz1 ! second spoke only ,lat92 bo? 7 highly int]e/$ = ,engl&4 ,i 0 busy a good deal ) read+ ,g]man1 ) a diction>y4 ,! wea!r 0 beautiful till ab\t #f1 :5 sudd5ly a t]rible squall ( w9d1 & ?und] & lightn+ came on4 ,! /eam] 0 driv5 agr\nd on a s&-bank1 & seem$ likely to capsize ) ! w9d & waves4 ,t]rible fright & cry+ among ladies & *ildr54 ,we seem$ to ?9k little ( ! ra9 & lightn+ :i* gleam$ on e side #bih ( u4 ,x 0 v frightful2 at lea/1 x appe>$ s1 & ,i saw :at a w>n+ 0 giv5 "h to be ready at a mom5t4 ,no great prep>ation1 ,i f\nd1 w\ld be likely to be made 9 a "t l t4 ,x br\ght on me a palpitation :i* la/$ till morn+4 ,we got (f aft] t5 m9utes1 z ! /orm blew ov]1 & got to ! ,htel du ,rh9e at ,may5ce 7,ma9z7 ab\t #i4 ,my greate/ al>m s9ce ,mess9a4 ,w$nesday1 ,aug4 #g4 ,san4 ,gaetano4 ,rememb]$ ,affi1 #ahbj4--,said mass at ! ca!dral4 ,?is is a v5]able old *ur*1 ,/4 ,boniface's see4 ,x is some?+ l our ,norman /yle ( ar*itecture2 at ! we/ end is a rem>kable bapti/]y1 ) a high vault$ ro( n[ op5+ to ! *ur*4 ,!re are _m f9e monum5ts1 & _m m ( ! wor/ /yle2 fauns & dragons support+ ar*bi%ops1 c4 ,!y %[$ u a holy-wat] /\p1 :]e ,gu/avus ,adolphus1 hav+ ridd5 into ! *ur*1 made 8 horse dr9k6 ,ne> ! *ur* is a /atue ( ,gutt5burg1 ! fir/ pr9t]1 claim$ z a citiz5 ( ,ma9z2 bas-reliefs by ,?orwalds54 ,we _h n "t to see m4 ,i 0 n dispos$1 ) my palpitation j subsid+1 to g aft] ! ,ar*bi%op or o!rs4 ,we />t$ pa/ = ,manheim2 on ! way we look$ at ! torn-d[n ca!dral ( ,worms1 9 a lat] /yle ?an ,may5ce1 & v v5]able4 ,?is place 0 fam\s 9 ! conte/s betwe5 ,*>les ,v4 & ,lu!r4 ,we d9$ at ,manheim1 !n took ! railway to ,heidelb]g1 :]e we put up at ! ,badis*e ,h(4 ,we saw no?+ at ,manheim b ! appe>ance ( ! t[n1 :i* is v h&some4 ,a ,fr5* g5tleman :om ,i met 9 ! t[n1 ,gir>don1 ( ,lyons1 said ! ducal palace 0 v gr&4 ,?ursday1 ,aug4 #h4--;,i w5t out at #i1 hav+ _h r a bad night1 & said mass at ! ,jesuits' old *ur*1 :i* is n[ ! only exclusively ,ca?olic *ur* 9 ,heidelb]g4 ,! cur lives 9 an old college2 ! *ur* 0 dre>y & empty1 & ?+s seem to be at a l[ po9t4 ,we w5t aft] breakfa/ 9 a c>riage to ! ru9s ( ! ca/le1 :i* are f9e 9 _! way1 b n ( ! "r /yle4 ,lu!r 0 fo/]$ "h by ! ,elector ,palat9e4 ,x 0 burnt by #bii lightn+ 9 #agfd4 ,9 ! alt> we saw ! great tun1 :i* is no wond] to my m9d4 ,at #aa we took ! railway to ,bad51 ?r\gh ,c>lsruhe4 ,!re we took a walk be=e d9n]1 saw ! gam+-table1 :i* is a fam\s occupation "h2 ,i nev] saw "o be=e 9 a public saloon4 ,i met ,mr4 ,woollett4 a ,ca?olic ( ,london1 & 8 two daught]s4 ,he wants confession to an ,engli% prie/1 & ,i w5t ) him to ! conv5t ( ! ,sepul*r9es to see ab\t x4 ,!y promis$ pray]s = ,engl&4 #ab nuns2 ! same ord] z ,new ,hall2 d9n] at #e4 ,!n we took a c>riage to ! ru9s ( ! old ca/le1 mu* gr&] ?an at ,heidelb]g4 ,i did n v5ture to g up ! ca/le1 z ,i felt myself n fit4 ,we came back to tea ) ,mrs4 ,crav51 ne ,la ,f]ronaye1 wife ( ! ,engli% ,*>g d'affaires1 :o is a conv]t4 ,we met l',abb ,m>t9 de ,n]lieu1 cur de ,s4 ,jaques ,p>is1 & 8 vicaire1 & ,miss ,jane ,"y4 ,home at #i4 ,friday1 ,augu/ #i4--;,i _h to take a c>riage & g at #f o'clock to ,li*t5?al1 a mile or two f ,bad51 :]e ! ,h]r ,l&h]r is cur1 & has p[] to give leave to he> confessions4 ,!re is a conv5t !re ( #ah nuns1 ,b]n>d9es1 :o promis$ to pray = ,engl&4 ,i return$ & said mass at ! conv5t 9 ,bad51 hav+ fir/ he>d ! confessions ( ,mr4 ,woollett & ,miss ,"y's maid4 ,i ?\ght t night1 z ,i lay 9 b$ ) my he>t beat+1 t ,i mu/ see a doctor to-day1 & consult ab\t ! propriety ( travell+2 b ! ,phillippses bo? reason$ aga9/ ?is1 & ,i saw x diff]5tly by daylight4 ,we d9$ at ! table d'hte at #a1 & !n set (f on our way t[>ds ,muni*4 ,we travell$ to-day ?r\gh ! gr& sc5]y ( ! ,black ,=e/1 & arriv$ at #i at ,neu5burg1 :]e !re 0 a v civil ho/1 & a nice inn1 ?\gh a second rate4 ,saturday1 ,augu/ #aj4 ,/4 ,lawr5ce4--,! fir/1 ,i ?9k1 7no1 except #ahce71 on :i* ,i h lo/ mass s9ce my prie/hood2 b !re 0 no ,ca?olic *ur*4 ,we made a sl[ day's j\rney2 we began badly by go+ ! fir/ /age to ,wildbad1 f :i* we return$ ne>ly to ,neu5burg1 z x seem$ on our road "r4 ,! reason 01 z we #cjj ?\ght1 t !y direct$ u wrong ye/]day1 & s5t u a long] road1 :]eas we %\ld h got /raight to ,wildbad1 )\t go+ to ,neu5burg4 ,we %\ld h _h a *apel at ,wildbad1 :]e a prie/ came dur+ ! season only4 ,we got to ,/uttg>d at #e1 & _h a spl5did d9n] at ! hotel4 ,we met an old c\ri] ( ,mr4 ,phillipps's1 aft]w>ds cl]k at ! ,=eign ,(fice1 :o lives "h on a p5sion f ,engl&4 ,he knew ,cavani4 ,he lives n[ at ?is hotel4 ,/uttg>d seems an un9t]e/+ place = a capital2 has #d1jjj inhabitants only4 ,x is well to h se5 x4 ,we w5t on aga9 9 ! ev5+ to get to ,gpp+51 :]e we we 7 told !re 0 a ,ca?olic *ur*1 & we did n get to b$ till #b2 ,i fa/+ = to-morr[1 & fe>+ a bad night4 ,htel de la ,po/e1 ,sunday1 ,aug4 #aa4--;,i slept well1 aft] all4 ,i got up at #h1 & we />t$ directly 9 heavy ra9 = ,gross ,epl+51 two miles on our way1 :]e ! ne>e/ ,ca?olic *ur* 04 ,!re 0 none 9 ,gpp+54 ,we arriv$ at ! middle ( ! p>o*ial mass4 ,! ,kir*5 ,gesang5 are v impressive4 ,aft] x ,i said mass1 & aft] visit+ ! pa/or1 we w5t on to ,ulm1 :i* we rea*$ at #e ab\t4 ,radh(f 7,:eat7 ,hotel4 ,be=e d9n] we w5t & sp5t a long "t 9 ! old ca!dral1 n[ a ,lu!ran *ur*1 & = t reason1 h[ev] /rangely1 pres]v$ wond]fully f spoil+4 ,x 0 mo/ magnific5t2 ! aisles divid$ by mo/ elegant pill>s1 a mo/ glori\s tab]nacle1 /ill /&+1 f> surpass+ ,l\va94 ,! old triptic1 ) a beautiful gr\p 9 wood-c>v+1 /ill ov] ! alt>2 a beautiful pulpit 9 ! /yle ( ! tab]nacle2 ! scre5 0 gone2 & ! /a9$ glass pres]v$ only 9 ! *oir & "o or two m places2 b s f>1 ,i ?\ght x ! ri*e/ ,i knew4 ,x 0 wond]ful h[ mu* bett] 0 ! appe>ance ( ! *ur* ?an if x _h be5 9 ,ca?olic h&s4 ,aft] d9n] 0 busy up/airs till #aj4 ,monday1 ,aug4 #ab4--;,got up at #e2 we 7 tak5 to ! ,ca?olic *ur*1 a poor ?+1 comp>$ ) ! anci5t "o4 ,i said mass !re at #h2 at #i we />t$ = ,augsburg4 ,!re 0 no?+ rem>kable on ! way b ! #cja excessive sl[ness ( ! ,bav>ian po/-boys2 !y are rem>kable1 ,i believe1 among ! ,g]mans4 ,we d9$ ab\t #e1 at a small t[n call$ ,tusm>*ausan1 a neat1 clean1 c\ntry t[n4 ,talk$ ,fr5* ) an old ,italian :o att5ds at ! inn1 & ,lat9 ) a ,dom9ican prie/1 9 a blue great-coat & ,hessian boots4 ,we set (f aga9 at #g1 & rea*$ ,augsburg at #i or #aj4 ,put up at ! ,?ree ,moors1--,drei ,mohr54 ,tuesday1 ,aug4 #ac4--,w5t to say mass at ! ,*ur* ( ,/4 ,ulrick1 at ! alt> ( ,/4 ,afra1 ^: body 0 %[n 9 a glass case ov] x1 z x is )9 ! octave ( h] fea/4 ,%e 0 m>tyr$ at ,augsburg1 "u ,domitian4 ,aft] breakfa/1 ,i w5t to ! bank1 !n to ! ca!dral1 :]e !re 0 a high mass de requiem2 !n ,i w5t to seek ! ,*ano9e ,/adl]1 a great fri5d ( ! ,engli%4 ,i fir/ saw ano!r canon1 & ! ,dean1 at ! consi/orium2 spoke ab\t ,engl&4 ,i f\nd ,canon ,/adl] at a conv5t call$ ( ! ,engli% nuns1 because f\nd$ by ,engli% #bjj ye>s ago2 an exam9ation ( ! girls "u education 0 go+ on4 ,! ,regi]ung's ,presid5t & o!r p]sonages 7 !re4 ,i sat ne> ! canon at ?is = half an h\r2 !n w5t home to d9n]4 ,!re came to d9e a ,scot* ,kirk m9i/]1 :o 0 at ! conv5t :i* ,i visit$1 ,mr4 ---- ,he is almo/ a ,ca?olic 9 doctr9e1 b is connect$ ) ! ,apo/olics 9 ,engl&1 & s has1 ,i ?9k1 no disposition to turn n[4 ,canon ,/adl] came late to d9n]1 & p]suad$ me to put (f our j\rney to ,muni* f ! ?ree to ! sev5 o'clock tra94 ,he took u to ! ,*ur* ( ! ,holy ,cross1 to see ! miracul\s ,ho/1 :i*1 9 #aaid1 0 /ol5 by a woman ( ,augsburg1 tak5 home1 & wrapp$ 9 wax4 ,aft] five ye>s1 %e confess$ x1 & br\ght x back4 ,on op5+ ! wax1 ! prie/ f\nd ! appe>ance *ang$ into t ( fle% & blood4 ,x has be5 pres]v$ ev] s9ce1 & has be5 ! means ( _m miracles4 ,we saw x 9 an o/5soire1 q bright-r$4 ,! *oir ( ! *ur* is surr\nd$ ) pictures on ! subject4 ,we !n w5t to ! conv5t aga91 f1 :5ce ! ,scot* g5tleman took me to ! bi%op1 :om we f\nd ne> ! ca!dral4 ,he talk$ no ,fr5*1 & ,i #cjb recomm5d$ ,engl& z ,i c\ld 9 ,lat94 ,we w5t to ! ,canon ,/adl]'s h\se1 :]e ! ,phillippses 7 wait+2 we p>t$ f him1 & came & _h tea at ! ,h(1 & !n took railway to ,muni*4 ,we rea*$ ! ,bay]is*e ,h(1 ,htel de ,bavire1 at #i #c_/d4 ,?is is "o ( ! l>ge/ hotels 9 ,europe1 !y say4 ,w$nesday1 ,aug4 #ad4 ,vigil ( ! ,assumption4--,i said mass 9 ! ca!dral1 :i* is ne> our hotel4 ,x is a high1 l>ge build+1 b v mu* disfigur$4 ,we all /ay$ at home till #ab2 !n ,phillipps & ,i w5t to call on ,dr4 ,dll+]1 :o 0 out4 ,i _h to d9e alone1 z x is reckon$ wrong = a prie/ to mang] gras on a fa/+ day 9 public4 ,aft] d9n]1 we all w5t to see ! new ,*ur* ( ,/4 ,l\is1 decorat$ spl5didly by ! ,k+4 ,!n ! ,*ur* ( ,/4 ,blaise 9 ! faub\rg1 also decorat$ by him1 bo? built by ! t[n4 ,we ?\ght !m v beautiful1 b decid$ly fall+ %ort ( ! "r m>k 9 po9t ( /yle4 ,9 ,ludwig ,*ur* is a *ef d'oeuvre ( ,cornelius1 ,! ,la/ ,judgm5t4 ,x is n to our ta/e1 nor to ! k+'s2 = ,cornelius w5t away to ,b]l91 disgu/$ ) ! k+'s n admir+ x4 ,among o!r defects1 !re are no real alt>s1 only portable /ones to be let into scagliola alt>s1 :i* 9 ,ludwig ,kir*e are all exactly "o l ! o!r4 ,at #g1 ,i w5t to ! ,franciscan conv5t1 to confess to ,pre ,con/antius4 ,he introduc$ me to ! ,prov9cial & community at supp]4 ,i spoke ( ,engl& 9 lame ,lat94 ,at supp]1 9 ! hotel1 we 7 jo9$ by ,mr4 ,wake1 son ( ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,wake1 ( ,c\rt5e ,hall1 :o recognis$ me1 aft] ab\t sev5te5 ye>s4 ,he al>m$ u ) 8 idea t a w> w break out betwe5 ,france & ,engl& ab\t ,prit*>d4 ,:at a w> w\ld ?is be6 ,?ursday1 ,aug4 #ae4 ,assumption ( ! ,bless$ ,virg9 ,m>y4--,i _h "s difficulty 9 gett+ leave to he> ! ,phillippses' confessions1 b ,i succe$$1 & said mass at n9e1 dur+ ! high mass1 ) drums & all sort ( music4 ,we w5t aga9 to mass at #aa2 !n ,phillipps & ,i w5t & f\nd ,dll+]1 :o came back & d9$ ) u at ! table d'hte4 ,!n we walk$ ) him to see ,mr4 & ,mrs4 ,phillipps4 ,he is a ,pr(essor ( law1 son ( an ,engli%man #cjc 9 ,prussia4 ,!n we w5t to see old ,mr4 ,gorres1 "o ( ! fir/ m9ds 9 ,g]many4 ,at #h1 we w5t to tea ) ,mr4 & ,mrs4 ,rio1 ! si/] to ,jones ( ,llan>?4 ,we f\nd !re ,mr4 ,dugdale1 a nor!rn ,engli% prie/1 & o!rs4 ,! conv]sation 0 v agreeable4 ,mrs4 ,rio is v infirm ) sciatica1 or settl$ pa9s l x4 ,friday1 ,aug4 #af4--,mass at ! ca!dral at #aa4 ,we w5t ) ,mr4 ,dugdale to ! ,p9aco!ke1 a gr& build+ ( ?is k+1 conta9+ ! va/ collection ( pictures :i* ,i saw ) ,lefevre at ,s*lus%eim 9 #ahbj4 ,:at /ruck me mo/ 0 ! gall]y on "o side ( ! build+1 ornam5t$ l ,raphael's1 9 ! ,vatican4 ,we d9$ at two2 !n w5t to see ! new palace1 :i* is op5$ at times regul>ly to all visitors4 ,we w5t among a p>ty ( all sorts4 ,i 0 recognis$ by ,lady ,l[!r--t 01 at lea/4 ,?is 0 f ,l[!r ,ca/le1 #ahaf4 ,9 ! palace1 ! floors are beautiful wood-"w1 inlaid4 ,"s rooms h f9e pictures ( ! =m] ,g]man hi/ory1 ( ,*>lemagne1 ,b>b>ossa1 ,rodolph ( ,hapsburg1 c4 ,! hall ( audi5ce is surr\nd$ ) /rik+ colossal /atues ( anci5t dukes ( ,bav>ia4 ,we _c say mu* = ! two rooms ( ,bav>ian beauties2 ! k+'s fondness = !m is n edify+1 !y say4 ,f ! palace we w5t to ! /udios2 at half-pa/ #g w5t to tea at ,dr4 ,dll+]'s1 & met almo/ all :om we visit$ ye/]day1 &1 besides1 ,mr4 ,w9dis*mann1 canon ( ! ca!dral4 ,i got a long conv]sation ) him 9 ,engli%4 ,he became v zeal\s = promot+ ! pray]s = ,engl&4 ,!re 0 !re ,mr4 ,raby1 ( ,leice/]1 :o 0 at ,muni* ) 8 "m2 8 si/] is become a nun at ,nymph5burg4 ,saturday1 ,aug4 #ag4--,said mass at ! ca!dral at #h4 ,aft] breakfa/1 ,i visit$ ,mr4 & ,mrs4 ,f>rell & _! family1 :o are 9 ?is hotel4 ,he is uncle to ,john ,f>rell4 ,%e said %e _h se5 me at ,leam+ton ) ,mr4 ,m>tyn4 ,!n ,c\nt de ,s5ufft ,pilsa*1 ,au/rian ambassador1 to :om ,mr4 ,phillipps br\ght a note f ,fa!r ,ly?goe1 call$4 ,we !n walk$ to ! palace1 & saw ! ri* *apel1 9 :i* _m relics are kept 9 cases ( gold & silv]1 ) pe>ls & jewels1 "s c>v$ by ,b5v5uto ,cell9i2 ! "r h& #cjd ( ,/4 ,john ,bapti/ & ,/4 ,*ryso/om among !m1 & "s e>? /a9$ ) ! blood ( ,our ,"l4 ,a little triptic us$ on ! scaffold by ,m>y ,que5 ( ,scots4 ,we !n w5t to ! palace ( ! ,duc de ,leu*t5b]g1 son ( ,eug5e ,beauh>nais4 ,"o room full ( mod]n pa9t+s1 & ano!r mu* l>g]1 ) a v *oice collection ( ! ,italian & ,flemi% s*ools1 /ruck me4 ,dr4 ,dll+] d9$ ) u1 & !n took u to ! ,public ,libr>y1 a magnific5t build+1 calculat$ = #a1jjj1jjj volumes1 & conta9+ n[ #ejj1jjj1 lately built by ,ludwig ,i4 ,we /ay$ a long "t look+ ab\t x1 & !n w5t on to ! ,univ]sity1 ano!r new build+1 v spl5did4 ,dr4 ,dll+] is rector ?is next ye>4 ,! libr>y "h is ( #bjj1jjj vols42 he is ! *ief libr>ian ( x4 ,we return$ at #h1 look+ 91 en passant1 to ! ,ludwig ,kir*e4 ,a beautiful sunset4 ,sunday1 ,augu/ #ah4--;,i w5t by invitation to say mass at ! ,au] ,kir*e1 i4e41 ! new ,go?ic *ur* 9 ! suburb ,au4 ,tru/+ to ! f9e sunset ( la/ night1 ,i took no umbrella1 & v ne>ly got a wett+ be=e ,i got home4 ,at #i1 ,mr4 ,s*lag] call$ on me4 ,he is /udy+ ! law1 & looks s sm>t t ,i did n ( myself recognize him4 ,we w5t to high mass at ! ,!at9e *ur*4 ,at #ab1 ,i w5t ) ,mr4 ,w9dis*mann1 to be pres5t$ to ! ,nuncio1 ,mgr4 ,vi*i1 to plead = ,engl&4 ,i c\ld n d mu*1 z o!r visitors came 94 ,aft] d9n]1 we w5t to seek vesp]s unsuccessfully at ! ,!at9e *ur*4 ,at #e1 we took a c>riage1 & w5t to ! ,si/]s ( ,*>ity1 :]e we got on badly = want ( ,g]man1 & saw no?+ b ! *ur*1 :]e s]vice 0 go+ on4 ,we !n w5t to ! public cemet]y1 ne> x4 ,x is 9 ! /yle ( ,pre la ,*aise1 b inf]ior4 ,:at is rem>kable is ! place :]e ! bodies newly dead are expos$ = ?ree days be=e burial4 ,we saw sev]al beh9d glass w9d[s1 dress$ out & adorn$ ) fl[]s4 ,aft] com+ home1 ,i w5t at #g to ,pr(essor ,grres's4 ,he has op5 h\se = ! circle ( 8 fri5ds e ,sunday ev5+4 ,dr4 ,dll+] wi%$ u all to g1 b ,phillipps ?\ght x h>dly prop] )\t an invitation4 ,!re 7 twelve at supp]2 among !m ,dr4 #cje ,dll+]1 ,phillipps1 ,moy4 ,! p>ty 0 v agreeable1 ?\gh ,i knew no?+ ( ! ,g]man conv]sation1 except :at ,dr4 ,dll+] translat$ to me4 ,i came home at half-pa/ #aj4 ,monday1 ,augu/ #ai4--,said mass at ! ca!dral4 ,mrs4 ,dugdale came aft] breakfa/1 & w5t ) u to ! ,glypto!ke1 :]e are "s f9e pieces ( anci5t sculpture4 ,i suppose ! ,a,egina m>bles are among ! mo/ valu$4 ,!y are ( an e>li] /yle ?an ! p]fect models ( ,greek sculpture1 f9ely design$ b /iff4 ,! :ole ?+ is too hea!ni% & s immode/4 ,x is a my/]y to me h[ all ^! sights are consi/5t ) ,ca?olic pr9ciple1 especially ! ,v5uses & ,adonises by ,*ri/ian ma/]s1 l ,canova4 ,! build+ is v noble4 ,we w5t !nce to :at 0 f> m satisfactory1 ! ,basilica1 built on ! plan ( ! old *ur* ( ,/4 ,paul1 at ,rome1 #cjj feet long1 ) two ranges ( glori\s holy pictures1 "o range be+ ! :ole hi/ory ( our ,engli% ,/4 ,boniface4 ,i hope ?is is !re z a memorial ( :at ,g]many owes to ,engl&1 & z an excitem5t to pray = u4 ,i came back to receive ,mr4 ,s*lag] to d9e ) me at ! table d'hte4 ,phillipps d9$ at ,mr4 ,rio's1 :]e ,i jo9$ !m at #c1 hav+ fir/ gone ) ,mr4 ,s*lag] to 8 lodg+s4 ,rio talk$ spl5didly ab\t ,engl&1 & ,dr4 ,dll+] promis$ to write articles to call to pray] = x4 ,i came home at #e1 said (fice 9 ! ca!dral1 & at #g we w5t to supp] ) ,dr4 & ,mrs4 ,phillipps1 :]e we met all ! circle1 ! ,grreses1 ,w9dis*man1 ,dll+]1 ,rios1 ,mrs4 ,raby1 ,mrs4 ,dugdale1 c4 ,tuesday1 ,augu/ #bj4 ,/4 ,b]n>d4--,mass at ! ca!dral at #aj4 ,i took a c>riage & w5t ) ,mrs4 ,dugdale & ,mrs4 ,raby to ,nymph5burg1 :]e is ! pr9cipal conv5t ( ! ,engli% nuns1 ( :i* ,i saw a h\se at ,augsburg4 ,!re are t5 h\ses 9 ,bav>ia2 ,mrs4 ,raby's daught] is a novice !re4 ,we /opp$ a good :ile1 & ,i hope a good /ep 0 tak5 9 my "w4 ,mr4 ,dugdale promises to foll[ up ard5tly ! begg+ pray]s4 ,i came home be=e #b1 & /ay$ at home till #e1 :5 we w5t ) ! two boys to a gr& d9n] ) le ,comte de ,zeuft1 #cjf ! ,au/rian ambassador4 ,!re 7 tw5ty at table3 ! ,nuncio1 ,mr4 ,aebel1 m9i/] ( ! int]ior1 ! *ief ,ca?olic physician1 a ,poli% ,c\ntess ,kitzka1 & all our fri5ds ! ,pr(essors 7 !re4 ,i sat betwe5 ,dr4 ,phillipps & ,w9dis*man4 ,we /ay$ till ne> #aj4 ,! ,comte de ,zeuft promis$ great help = ,engl&4 ,x is my fir/ op5+ 9 ,au/ria4 ,mrs4 ,aebel assur$ me t ! ,gov]nm5t w\ld be well pleas$ ) :atev] 0 done 9 ?is way1 :i* is a great po9t secur$4 ,i also _h an int]e/+ talk on ! subject ) ! ,c\ntess ,kitzka1 :o propos$ pray] = ,pol& also on ,saturdays4 ,?is 01 9 %ort1 a productive ev5+4 ,w$nesday1 ,augu/ #ba4--,mass at ! ca!dral4 ,i walk$ ) ,mr4 ,dugdale to ! conv5t ( ,si/]s ( ,provid5ce jo9+ ! great hospital we fail$ 9 ent]+ on ,sunday4 ,we got "o nun :o spoke a little ,fr5* to %[ u ov] ! hospital1 b we made little ( ga9+ pray]s4 ,i f\nd palpitations com+ f ! walk1 & s ,i came home & /ay$ till ,i w5t ) ,phillipps to d9e at #d ) ! ,nuncio4 ,! *ief gue/s 7 ,comte de ,zeuft & ,b>on ,frujb]g1 conseilleur d'tat1 & twelve or f\rte5 m4 ,! ,nuncio took *>ge ( ! little pray] = ,engl& adopt$ by ! ,belgian bi%ops1 & promis$ to get ample indulg5ces at ,rome = ! masses1 communions1 & pray]s = ,engl&4 ,we came home & took ,mrs4 ,phillipps to tea at ,dr4 ,dll+]'s1 ,b>on ,frujb]g1 ,rio1 ,hffl]1 ! hi/orian ( ! ,g]man popes ( ! #aa? c5tury4 ,?ursday1 ,augu/ #bb4--,mass at #h4 ,i /ay$ at home writ+ to ,dr4 ,wiseman f #aa to #ab2 !n w5t ) ,dr4 ,dll+] to be pres5t$ to ,madame di ,frujb]g1 & h] si/] ,amelia de ,mong]as4 ,talk$ ab\t ,engl& & pray]s4 ,at home ,i f\nd ,comte de ,zeuft & ! ,nuncio pay+ a visit4 ,!n d9n] at #b4 ,mr4 ,w9dis*man took me to see ! ,ar*bi%op1 #hd ye>s old4 ,he has 8 intellect q s\nd1 & 0 fav\rable to ! pray]s1 b n v zeal\s4 ,i came home & /ay$ till #g1 writ+ to ,mrs4 ,beaumont & ,mrs4 ,cann+1 say+ (fice1 c4 ,at #g ,mr4 & ,mrs4 ,rio & two *ildr51 ,dr4 ,phillipps1 #cjg ,dll+]1 & ,w9dis*man came to tea & supp]1 s a p>t+ visit4 ,little ,miss ,rio got sick ) ! smoke 9 ! salon4 ,friday1 ,augu/ #bc4--,mass at #g 9 ! ca!dral = ! la/ "t4 ,aft] breakfa/ a visit f ,mr4 ,dugdale & old ,grres1 & a talk ) ,mr4 ,woodwi*1 a v nice "y ,anglican1 :om ,phillipps met at ,cologne1 & came ye/]day to ,muni*4 ,! horses came = our dep>ture at #aa1 b we did n />t till to #a4 ,i sat 9 ! c>riage say+ (fice4 ,we _h a pretty j\rney1 approa*+ a l9e ( f9e m\nta9s4 ,we rea*$ a t[n call$ ,teg]n ,see1 & we put up at ,le ,troitteur ,h(4 ,:5 we came to d9e1 we f\nd ourselves worse (f ?an we h yet be54 ,no bread )\t anise$1 & h>dly en\gh to eat = all b me1 :o took meat4 ,h[ev]1 ?is is an int]e/+ spot4 ,out ( my w9d[ ,i h a sweet view ( ! lake & m\nta9s opposite1 ) a bright moon ^u !m4 ,saturday1 ,augu/ #bd4--;,i w5t be=e #g to f9d ! old prie/ to say mass4 ,! *ur* is a h&some "o atta*$ to a l>ge build+ :i* once 0 a ,b5$ict9e conv5t1 b 0 turn$ by ! old k+1 my =m] acqua9tance1 into a c\ntry palace4 ,pr9ce ,*>les lives "h n[4 ,! old prie/ 0 "o ( ! monks4 ,!re are f\r n[ alive out ( =ty-?ree4 ,we />t$ at #i1 & w5t ?r\gh beautiful m\nta9 sc5]y1 especially t "p ( ! road :i* lies along ! bank ( ,a*5see1 a beautiful blue lake4 ,we d9$ at ab\t #b1 at ,a*5?al1 j be=e com+ to ! lake4 ,we 7 delay$ by a spr+ break+1 & only rea*$ ,s*w>tz1 a t[n ( #d1ejj p4 ,! inn ,la ,pote is kept by ,an?ony ,re9]1 "o ( a family ( ?ree m5 & a si/]1 :o ab\t #ahcj 7 #b ye>s 9 ,engl&1 s++ ,tyrolese songs1 & made #d1jjj4 ,mrs4 ,ambrose he>d !m at ,sir ,?omas ,acl&'s4 ,we _h tea 9 ! billi>d-room1 & saw "s beautiful play4 ,sunday1 ,aug4 #be4--;,i said mass at #f1 at ! ,franciscan *ur*4 ,9 ! conv5t are tw5ty-"o prie/s & tw5ty-five /ud5ts1 besides lay bro!rs4 ,i recomm5d$ ,engl& & 0 k9dly he>d4 ,aft] breakfa/ we w5t toge!r to ! p>i% *ur*2 at #h a s]mon beg9s--we he>d ! end ( x1 prea*$ by a ,franciscan4 ,mass foll[s ! #cjh s]mon4 ,! /yle ( music1 bo? "h & 9 ! ,franciscan *ur*1 :]e ,i he>d "p ( ! high mass1 is high figur$4 ,we set (f = ,innspruck aft]4 ,x 0 ra9+ all ! way4 ,we arriv$ at #b at ! ,gold5 ,sun 7die gold5e ,sonne71 9 a f9e wide /reet4 ,we _h d9n]1 dur+ :i* we 7 surpris$ & pleas$ by a visit f ,mrs4 ,amh]/ & ,m>y4 ,%e has a h\se 9 ?is /reet1 & saw u pass by4 ,?ree daught]s are ) h]4 ,soon aft] we w5t to see ! ,franciscan *ur*1 9 :i* is ! fam\s monum5t ( ,maximilian1 & r\nd x bronze figures ( illu/ri\s p]sonages1 & on ! side a m>ble monum5t ( ,h(fa4 ,!y are n all sa9ts1 & x is ?\ght to be an unbecom+ ornam5t to a *ur*4 ,!y c]ta9ly cause di/ractions by ! numb] ( p :o come to see ! sculpture1 :i* makes ?is small *ur* almo/ l a ,glypto!ke4 ,aft] ?is1 ,mrs4 ,amh]/ took me to ! ,r$emptori/s1 :]e ,fa!r ,pro/ talks ,engli%1 & receiv$ me mo/ cordially1 & pres5t$ me to ! ,rector4 ,i !n w5t to ! ,franciscan conv5t1 :]e1 z at ,muni*1 ,i saw ! fa!rs at supp]1 & recomm5d$ ,engl& to ! ,prov9cial1 :o promis$ to convey my wi%es to ! #cjj subjects ( ! #aj h\ses ( 8 prov9ce4 ,9 ?is little h\se !re are eight prie/s4 ,he s5t a man to take me to ! ,decanus1 liv+ ne> ! p>i% *ur*1 to ask = leave to he> confessions to-morr[4 ,he 0 a mo/ amiable1 k9d old man1 & promis$ to speak = me to all ! cl]gy4 ,i w5t to meet our p>ty at tea ) ! ,amh]/s at #g1 & _h a v pleasant ev5+4 ,home at #i4 ,monday1 ,aug4 #bf?4--,fa!r ,pro/ gave himself to me all to-day4 ,i w5t to say mass at ! ,r$emptori/ *ur*2 breakfa/$ !re2 !n w5t out ) him to ! hospital ( ! ,si/]s ( ,*>ity1 :]e !re are #ae nuns1 & x is ! "m h\se ( ab\t eight h\ses 9 all4 ,!y are "u ! direction ( ! ,r$emptori/s4 ,!n to ! ,jesuits' college1 :]e we saw ! ,rector2 !n to d9e ) ! ,r$emptori/s at #ab4 ,!y are ab\t t5 9 numb]4 ,! ,rector is mo/ zeal\s = my cause4 ,at #b we walk$ out ( ! t[n to a f9e ,premon/rat5sian #cji abbey to :i* belong #db monks2 b ab\t half are employ$ z coadjutors to p>i% prie/s4 ,! ,abbot receiv$ u v k9dly1 & %[$ u all ov] 8 h\se1 :i* has a great suite ( f9e rooms1 full ( pictures ( great p]sonages4 ,we came back to settle = my dep>ture to-morr[2 & la/ly visit$ ! ,s]vites4 ,!y h a f9e l>ge h\se 9 ! great /reet4 ,_! numb] is only fifte54 ,la/ly1 we call$ on a lady :o c talk ,engli%1 hav+ le>n$ x1 :]e ,fa!r ,pro/ did1 9 ,am]ica4 ,i w5t at #f to tea ) ! ,amh]/s1 among :om ,i also f\nd ,william j come4 ,i w5t home to /ay at ! ,r$emptori/s1 9 ord] to be able to say mass to-morr[4 ,! ,rector & ,fa!r ,pro/ sat "s "t ) me4 ,tuesday1 ,aug4 #bg?4--,said mass at #c2 at #d1 ,fa!r ,pro/ saw me 9 ! /ill-wag51 or omnibus1 = ,brix54 ,i =got to say t ,phillipps agre$ ) me to meet at ,cald>on on ,?ursday4 ,!y w5t (f ye/]day by ,l&eck1 ,m>5n1 c41 = f9] sc5]y4 ,i took my way to see ! ,bi%op ( ,brix54 ,my pr9cipal companions 7 f\r /ud5ts at ! ,inspruck ,univ]sity1 go+ out = _! vacations4 ,!y 7 two c\ples ( bro!rs1 "o call$ ,ehrh>t1 ! o!r ,b5z1 all ( ,inspruck4 ,! wea!r 0 become beautiful1 & we w5t ?r\gh spl5did sc5]y4 ,we w5t ov] ! ,br5n] m\nta91 & 7 go+ till #h o'clock at night4 ,we /opp$ ?ree times = refre%m5t3 at ,matraey1 ,/r>z+1 & ,mittewald4 ,we came to ! ,kreutz ,h(--! ,cross ,inn--at ,brix51 :]e ,i took my b$4 ,fir/1 ,i w5t to see a pleas+ old prie/1 by "n ,graffan>a1 :o is ,doms*ola/icus "h1 & :om ,i saw by *ance at ,inspruck4 ,he told ( ! ,bi%op be+ gone to ,botz51 & introduc$ me to ! ,decanus & ,p>i% ,prie/1 to settle = mass to-morr[4 ,w$nesday1 ,aug4 #bh?4 ,great ,/4 ,augu/9e's4--,i 0 up soon aft] #c1 & w5t to ! ,pff>r-,kir*e1 :]e ,i said mass at #d4 ,! ,pff>r treat$ me ) extraord9>y respect & k9dness1 & came back ) me to my inn1 :]e ,i />t$ aga91 ) ! same company1 to ,botz51 9 ano!r /ill-wag51 at #e4 ,we foll[$ ! d[nw>d c\rse ( a beautiful torr5t1 ?r\gh rocks & m\nta9s #caj all ! way1 till we rea*$ ,botz51 at #ab4 ,i w5t to ! ,kais]'s ,krone1 & d9$ at ! table d'hte at #ab1 next to an ,engli% g5tleman1 by "n ,h>ley1 :o 0 *iefly tak5 up ) attacks on cook]y out ( ,engl&4 ,he 0 a man ( mu* in=mation1 & gave gloomy acc\nts ( ! prospect ( w> ) ,france4 ,8 fa!r 0 an admiral4 ,i /ay$ at home till #d1 !n w5t out to ! ,capu*9s & !n to ! ,capellani--! ,p>oco be+ out4 ,! *ief ,capellano came back ) me to ! hotel1 & wait$ till ! ,bi%op ( ,brix5 came 94 ,he _h be5 out 9 ! c\ntry4 ,i 0 admitt$ to see him1 b q disappo9t$ 9 my hopes ( f9d+ help f him4 ,he gave me no signs ( zeal1 & h>dly spoke ( ,engl&4 ,p]haps x may be = ! bett] "s way4 ,no d\bt disappo9tm5ts are good = me1 & s ?ank ,god = ?is "o4 ,i aft]w>ds w5t to ! ,franciscans1 :]e ,i f\nd real sympa?y 9 "o ( ! fa!rs1 ) :om ,i walk$ 9 ! g>d54 ,?is 0 a refre%m5t aft] ! ,bi%op4 ,9 ! ev5+ ,i _h a visit f ! "y ,b>on ,giovanelli1 ^: fa!r has "s au?ority ab\t s5d+ p to see ,m>ia ,mrl4 ,he c\ld h>dly speak ,italian1 & ?\gh v civil1 did n help me mu*4 ,?ursday1 #bi?4--,! good ,bi%op s5t me to-day a pres5t ( a l>ge numb] ( religi\s pr9ts1 ) ,g]man in/ructions1 & %[$ ?us 8 good w to me2 & ,i hope x may be well = my cause4 ,at #g ,i said mass 9 ! ca!dral4 ,at #aj ,i w5t 9 a "o-horse c>riage to ,caldd>on1 or m rightly ,calt]n4 ,i w5t directly to see ,fa!r ,capi/rano1 confessor to ,m>ia ,mrl1 at a ,franciscan conv5t1 & !n d9$ at ! ,:ite ,horse inn4 ,at #d1 accord+ to 8 direction1 ,i w5t to ! conv5t ( ! ,t]ti>iae1 :]e ,m>ia ,mrl has be5 = t5 ye>s1 be+ remov$ f h] fa!r's h\se by ! ,bi%op1 at h] own reque/1 to avoid be+ se5 by s _m p4 ,i wait$ 9 ! conv5t *ur* till ,fa!r ,capi/rano1 :o is a tall & v5]able monk1 ,i suppose ( =ty-five ye>s old1 came to call me1 ) eight or n9e o!r p]sons1 to see ! e/atica4 7,n4,b4 ,fa!r ,capi/rano told me t ! ,bi%op ( ,brix5 is v deaf1 & probably und]/ood no?+ ( #caa :at ,i talk$ ab\t1 :i* expla9s all my disappo9tm5t47 ,we w5t into a small room )9 h] conv5t1 r d>k5$1 :]e ! fir/ sight ( ,m>ia on h] knees ^u h] b$ 0 mo/ /rik+4 ,%e kneels ) h] head & eyes fix$ upw>ds1 h] h&s jo9$ be=e h] brea/1 j bel[ ! *91 & h] body lean+ =w>ds 9 a position out ( ! c5tre ( gravity1 9 :i*1 ord9>ily1 no "o c\ld cont9ue )\t support4 ,x is mo/ mov+ to see h] ?us--,i ?9k m s ?an 9 any ( ! o!r positions :i* %e assum$4 ,?is 0 ! "t :5 on e ,?ursday %e goes ?r\gh ! contemplation ( ! ,agony ( ,our ,"l2 & s1 soon aft] we came 91 %e be+ q unconsci\s ( :at goes on ar\nd h]1 began to make signs 9 h] ?roat ( e>ne/ emotion1 & !n1 cl5*+ h] h&s toge!r1 %e dropp$ h] head ov] !m1 h] long1 fl[+ hair be+ ?r[n =w>d ov] h] face1 z x 7 accompany+ our ,"l 9 ! comm5cem5t ( ,8 pray] 9 ! g>d52 aft] ab\t five m9utes ?us1 %e sudd5ly b5ds d[n1 plac+ h] face betwe5 h] knees1 z :5 our ,"l 0 pro/rate 9 ,8 agony4 ,aft] ano!r five m9utes1 %e rises1 h] face aga9 fix$ ) expression ( int5se e>ne/ness on heav51 & h] arms ext5d$ back d[nw>ds1 z express+ p]fect resignation4 ,aft] five or t5 m9utes ?us1 %e returns calmly to h] orig9al attitude ( pray]1 & ?us rema9$ till ,fa!r ,capi/rano spoke to h] by "n1 say+ a few words almo/ indi/9ctly1 & %e in/antly return$ to h]self1 recl9$ back on h] b$1 &1 )\t ex]tion ( mov+ h] limbs1 appe>$ simply recumb5t1 ) ! b$-cov] ov] h] :ole body4 ,i did n see h] rise aga91 b ?is is done in/antly )\t ef=t1 9 ! same way4 ,! mom5t t %e 0 ?us awak5$ f ! ec/asy1 %e look$ r\nd on u all ) great good-hum\r1 & smil$2 &1 be+ =bidd5 to speak1 %e made _m signs1 ask+ que/ions ( "s :om %e knew be=e4 ,"o prie/1 il ,conte ,passi1 (f]$ h] "s cotton p]fum$ f ! body ( ,/a4 ,m>ia ,maddal5a di ,pazzi2 b %e w\ld n h x1 nor smell x1 refus+ x 9 a truly pleasant way4 ,i spoke ( pray+ = ,engl&1 & %e nodd$ graci\sly1 b did n take mu* #cab app>5t notice4 ,i suppose %e does x ab\t no?+ b :at comes by ob$i5ce4 ,if ! conv]sation _h a pause1 %e imm$iately became aga9 absorb$ 9 ,god till ,fa!r ,capi/rano recall$ h] aga94 ,aft] a prop] "t1 he gave u signs to retire2 on :i* %e e>ne/ly made signs = a c>toon-box full ( holy pr9ts to be br\ght1 & %e began ) great e>ne/ness to turn !m ov]1 seem+ to recollect h]self v int5tly4 ,%e !n gave me two1 & aft]w>ds ano!r4 ,i 0 /ruck :5 ,i saw ! fir/ 0 a figure ( ,/4 ,george1 z %e _h n he>d my "n ,i knew4 ,aft]w>ds1 ,i suppos$ %e might allude only to ,engl&1 z %e knew ,i 0 ,engli%4 ,soon aft]1 %e fell back into ec/asy z %e lay1 & we w5t away4 ,i walk$ d[n to ! inn ) ,conte ,passi & a prie/ ( ! place1 :o visits h] ne>ly e day4 ,i began a lett]1 :51 ab\t #f1 ,i 0 agreeably surpris$ by see+ ,phillipps & 8 p>ty drive up4 ,he & ,i w5t to ! ,franciscan conv5t1 b c\ld n see ,fa!r ,capi/rano4 ,conte ,passi & ,i slept 9 ! same room1 & into a ?ird b$ tumbl$ "s "o else1 ,i ?\ght1 l ! o/l]1 aft] we 7 9 b$4 ,i slept none ! worse1 & :y %\ld ,i8 ,friday1 ,aug4 #cj4--,said mass 9 ! p>i% *ur* at eight4 ,phillipps aft] breakfa/ w5t & _h a long conv]sation ) ,fa!r ,capi/rano1 :o receiv$ to-day a lett] f ! ,bi%op ( ,tr5t1 to give leave = all ( u to see ! e/atica4 ,phillipps came back ) wond]ful acc\nts ( ,fa!r ,capi/rano's views ( ! future 9 ! ,*ur*4 ,he has no bright anticipations4 ,i wrote all ! morn+1 lett]s to ,dr4 ,dll+]1 ,signor ,giovanelli1 & ,mr4 ,le,sage ,t5 ,broek4 ,we d9$ at #a4 ,at #b we all w5t to ! conv5t *ur*1 :]e1 z ye/]day1 ,p4 ,capi/rano came to take u to la ,mrl4 ,?ree o'clock1 be+ ! "t ( ,our ,"l's dea?1 ?is is ! subject ( h] contemplation at t "t e ,friday4 ,soon aft] we came 91 f ! attitude ( pray] 9 :i* we f\nd h] z ye/]day2 %e aga9 clasp$ h] h&s1 &1 look+ up ) an expression ( suff]+1 %e cont9u$ = "s "t to make a sort ( sobb+ noise1 & /]tation1 z ,i h se5 p dy+ ( apoplexy2 ?is grew m pa9ful till1 exactly at #cac ?ree1 %e dropp$ h] head =w>d1 & h] h&s yet clasp$ hung d[n be=e h] & s %e rema9$ q motionless1 /ill lean+ =w>d beyond ! p]p5dicul>1 incl9ato capite emisit spiritum4 ,?is cont9u$ till1 at "o ( ^? almo/ inaudible sugge/ions ( ! confessor1 %e fell back on ! b$1 z ye/]day1 b /ill 9 ec/asy1 & ext5d$ h] h&s 9 ! =m ( a crucifix4 ,! f+]s 7 gutt]$ ov] ! palm ( ! h&s1 b yet we saw pla9ly 9 ! palm ! sacr$ /igma4 ,i saw x ye/]day outside bo? h] h&s1 q pla9ly1 z %e 0 di/ribut+ ! pr9ts4 ,! m>ks are n z ( an op5 w\nd1 b r$ cicatrices l ^? repres5t$ 9 pictures ( ,our ,savi\r :5 ris5 f ! dead4 ,fa!r ,capi/rano said t %e eats a little bread & fruit occasionally1 n e day2 %e communicates ?ree or f\r times a week2 %e sleeps g5]ally 9 ! night1 ,i und]/ood1 b h] _s /ill cont9ues 9 a less degree ( contemplation4 ,%e _h a y\ng] si/] ) h] 9 ! conv5t1 to wait on h]4 ,! ,emp]or all[s h] #djj flor9s a ye>4 ,on m solemn fea/s1 ! ec/asy is m int5se1 & %e !n appe>s = a "t rais$ above ! b$1 t\*+ x only ) ! tips ( h] feet4 ,! prie/ :om ,i saw ye/]day says t he has himself pass$ 8 h& at ^? times "u h] knees )\t t\*+ !m4 ,x is a rule t no money is giv5 by visitors ei!r to h] or ! conv5t4 ,we w5t away1 & prep>$ = our dep>ture ab\t #d4 ,i engag$ a small "o-horse c>riage to g to ,egna 9 ,italian1 9 ,g]man ,neum>kt1 int5d+ to see ! ,addolorata1 & to meet ! ,phillippses aga9 at ,v5ice4 ,i began to h a di/a/e to ! rude-look+ driv]1 at ! fir/ sight1 /ill m1 :5 ,i f\nd t ! c>riage belong$ to a prie/ :o _h come f ,egna ?is morn+4 ,i made x /raight = "t by tak+ him ) me4 ,a second nuisance 01 f9d+1 :5 ,i set (f1 t ,phillipps _h to g to ! same place1 z 8 fir/ /age t[>ds ,tr5t4 ,9 a n>r[ road d[n ! hill1 out ( ,cald>o1 we met an imm5se numb] ( c>ts1 load$ ) hay1 & drawn by ox51 f eighty to a hundr$1 :i* 0 a good delay1 & ,phillipps's c>riage got t]ribly scrat*$ 9 pass+ "o4 ,at #cad ,egna1 ,i put up at ! ,krono4 ,i w5t out to see a prie/1 :o took me to ! ,franciscans ab\t say+ mass tomorr[4 ,i prea*$ ,engl&4 ,saturday1 ,aug4 #ca4--;,i fell into ! h&s ( ! sulky driv] ( ye/]day1 :o und]took to f9d me a mule to g ov] ! m\nta9s at once to ,capriana1 b he came la/ night to say none 0 to be f\nd2 ,i he>d be=e t !re 0 dang] ( ?is 9 h>ve/ "t4 ,i !re=e fir/ said mass at ! ,franciscans'1 at #c o'clock1 d\btful :e!r x 0 n uncanonically e>ly1 & at #d w5t ) my fri5d driv+ me1 ) "o horse on ! left ( ! pole1 to ,cavallesi1 a small t[n 9 ! m\nta9s1 :i* we rea*$ at #h o'clock4 ,!re ,i saw ! physician ( ,dom9ica ,lazz>i1 :om ,c\nt ,passi told me to g to4 ,he 0 v civil1 & recomm5d$ me a pleasant guide1 :o at #i set (f1 walk+ by ! pony :i* ,i rode to ,cavallesi4 ,! day 0 beautiful1 & n too hot = me1 ?\gh x 0 = him on foot4 ,x 0 a mo/ int]e/+1 picturesque ride ( #b h\rs1 rem9d+ me ( my ,sicilian & o!r rides long s9ce1 & ,i 0 surpris$ h[ ?is seem$ to agree ) me n[4 ,capriana is a little v poor village1 occupy+ a spot on an op5 space1 high among ! m\nta9s4 ,! v fir/ cottage 9 ! body ( ! t[n1 & "o ( ! poore/1 is :]e ?is wond]ful be+ sp5ds h] suff]+ days4 ,! ,m$ico ,yoris _h writt5 me a note to ! primiss>io1 or second prie/ to ! curate1 :o is ,dom9ica's confessor1 :o might h help$ me ab\t see+ h]2 b he 0 n at home1 s we w5t to ! h\se at once4 ,! door ( ! little place1 a "p ( a build+1 :]e ,dom9ica lives ) h] si/]1 0 lock$4 ,! si/] 0 out4 ,i he>d h] groan+ slightly at e brea?4 ,%e made some?+ ( an answ] :5 my guide knock$4 ,he w5t to seek h] si/]1 & came back say+ t %e begg$ u to delay a little1 z o!rs _h be5 ) h]1 & %e 0 mu* fatigu$4 ,s we w5t to ! ,o/]ia1 & got ! be/ !y c\ld give1 :i* 0 a brodo d'acqua1 9 ,engli%1 ,i fancy1 tea-kettle bro?4 ,?is %[s t ! place is n *os5 = its ri*es to be hon\r$ by ,god ) ,8 wond]s4 ,aft] ?is pause we return$ to ! little h\se1 #cae :i* has a ,tyrolese ro( ov]hang+1 & a little gall]y outside h] door4 ,! si/]1 :o is m>ri$ & has h] *ildr5 ab\t h]1 took u 91 & 9 an inn] room we saw ! ,addolorata 9 h] b$4 ,h] appe>ance naturally w n h be5 int]e/+1 l t ( ,m>ia ,mrl1 b r ( an ord9>y "y c\ntrywoman1 ( l[ /ature1 l h] si/]4 ,%e has ord9>ily ! appe>ance ( great pa9 & suff]+2 b :5 ,i spoke to h] ab\t ,engl&1 %e lift$ h] eyes & mov$ h] h&s 9 a way m e>ne/ ?an l'e/atica1 & %[$ great feel+ at ! ?\ght ( its conv]sion4 ,n[ = h] appe>ance3 h] face 0 almo/ all cov]$ ) clott$ blood1 :i* fl[$1 ,i suppose1 ye/]day morn+1 = s x does e ,friday1 f ! punctures z ( ?orns on h] br[4 ,^! 7 n1 z ,i expect$1 irregul>ly plac$ z by a cr[n ( ?orns made at haz>d1 b !y =m$ a l9e close toge!r on ! =ehead1 & d n g r\nd ! head to ! back "p4 ,h] legs 7 ga!r$ up z if ! s9ews 7 contract$2 h] body1 ! doctor told me1 is all cov]$ ) sores1 :i*1 ! m t is done to cure1 ! worse !y gr[4 ,%e keeps h] h&s cl5*$ be=e h] he>t1 & groans slightly ) e brea?4 ,on h] h&s 7 se5 /igmata1 mu* m m>k$ ?an ,m>ia ,mrl1 l fre% w\nds by a nail pass+ ?r\gh & s9k+ into ! fle%4 ,h] si/] said ! same 0 ! case ) h] side & feet4 ,i only spoke to h] a little ab\t ,engl&1 & 0 delight$ at h] mann] !n1 :i* %[s h[ sup]ior %e is to h] pa9s4 ,x seems to di/ress h] to be too ne> h]1 & z ,i h le>n$ s9ce x does4 ,%e is always hot2 h] si/] 0 fann+ h] all ! "t1 & 9 ! dep? ( w9t] x is ! same ?+1 :5 sn[ drives into h] room4 ,%e also gives h] pr9ts2 %e made h] si/] %[ h] pr9ts out ( a little case1 & :5 %e has *os5 !m %e kisses !m & gives !m to ea* ) great k9dness4 ,!re 7 a "y man & woman !re1 :o (f]$ money = !m to h] si/]1 b %e w take no?+4 ,! sight ( h] is n at fir/ s /rik+ & pleas+ z ( la ,mrl1 b ! remembrance is m impressive4 ,x seems a /ate m m]itori\s1 m humble4 ,x is m poor1 & pati5t4 #caf ,hav+ be5 delay$ s long1 ,i c\ld n get to ,cavallesi till #c2 ! sulky face ( ! driv] betok5$ no good = my return2 ! horse1 too1 he said 0 ill1 & 9 f9e1 he br\ght me to ,egna j too late = ! /ill-wag5 to ,lavorno1 & ,i 0 n s pati5t z ,i ought to h be5 aft] see+ t example1 b ,i 0 help$ by x a little4 ,i _h to take a c>riage = myself & ! same mis]able driv]1 :o 0 go+ to sleep all ! way1 & grunt$ at me once :5 ,i awoke him4 ,i got to a nice inn at ,lavorno1 ! :ite h\se aga94 ,sunday1 ,sept4 #a4--;,i />t$ at #e by a /ill-wag5 = ,tr5t1 all alone 9 x4 ,i came to ! ,rose ,inn1 & wait$ to say mass at ! ,*ur* di ,s4 ,m>ia ,maggiora1 :]e ! ,c\ncil ( ,tr5t 0 held1 & pray$1 z usual on ,sundays1 = ! gift ( ,fai?1 :i* 0 appropriate "h4 ,! *ur* is q un9t]e/+ 9 appe>ance4 ,i breakfa/$ at a cafe1 & w5t ab\t my way ( travell+2 !n at to #aa w5t & he>d ! end ( a high mass4 ,i ?\ght to be 9 "t = all4 ,aft] x ,i 0 v happy 9 gett+ myself introduc$ to ! ,bi%op1 :o 0 extremely agreeable1 & said he pray$ daily = ,engl&1 & promis$ to recomm5d x to ,m>ia la ,mrl1 & to all ! cl]gy4 ,i left1 z if ,i ne$ take no m tr\ble ab\t ,tr5t4 ,i w5t to ! ,rosa1 & /ay$ !re quiet till d9n] at #ab1 & !n till #d1 writ+ my long days ( late 9 ! ,j\rnal4 ,at #d1 ,i got into a c>riage c>ry+ f\r inside to ,rov]$o1 :]e ,i got to ! ,corona1 & w5t to b$ at #h or #i4 ,monday1 ,sept4 #b4--;,i set (f soon aft] #c ) an old vettur9o1 :o r displeas$ me la/ night 9 mak+ 8 b>ga91 by 8 flatt]+ way2 b ,i f\nd him a nice old man1 & v civil4 ,we got to ,bosketto1 on ! banks ( ! ,adige 7:i* inde$ we foll[$ all day71 at #g4 ,i said mass & breakfa/$4 ,!n we w5t on to d9e at a s+le h\se1 call$ ,ospitaletto4 ,we /ay$ f #ab to #b2 ,i wrote two lett]s4 ,we !n />t$ & got to ,v]ona at #d1 to ! ,hotel di ,londra4 ,i took a laquais de place1 & walk$ to ,c\nt ,p]sico's h\se4 ,i 0 sorry to f9d him 9 ! c\ntry4 ,!n to ! ,jesuit ,noviciate1 :]e ,i #cag ?\ght ,i might possibly f9d ,connolly4 ,! ,sup]ior %[$ me ,padre ,odescal*i's room1 :]e he pass$ 8 noviciate4 ,i recomm5d$ myself to 8 pray]s4 ,i _h be5 read+ on ! road 8 memoirs1 giv5 me at ,l\va94 ,! ,sup]ior promis$ to recomm5d ,engl&4 ,i w5t !n to ! ca!dral1 & ! ,bi%op be+ out1 ,i saw ! ,vic>io1 :o k9dly promis$ to speak = me to ! ,bi%op4 ,i !n w5t into ! ca!dral1 :]e !re 0 a brilliant illum9ation1 & a mo/ solemn b5$iction1 & !n a litany be=e ! alt> ( ! ,bless$ ,virg91 :i* rem9d$ me ( ! holy litanies ( ,rome4 ,i h se5 no?+ l ?is on ! ,cont95t1 nor h ,i se5 a t[n s full ( respectable cl]gy 9 e "p4 ,came home & to b$ at #h4 ,tuesday1 ,sept4 #crd4--,/>t$ at #d ) my new vettur9o1 :o *eat$ me z usual1 b 0 civil4 ,x ra9$ almo/ all day4 ,i said mass at a place call$ ,montebello1 & got to ,vic5za to d9e at #aa4 ,!n />t$ = ,padua ) a new vettur9o1 & _h = company an old & a "y ,roman prie/4 ,! old "o 0 ,bighi1 a well-kn[n pr(essor1 :o taught ,dr4 ,wiseman & ,s4 ,%>ples1 c41 & 0 full ( k9dness to me4 ,i talk$ myself almo/ ho>se ) him4 ,!y /opp$ at ,padua4 ,i w5t on railroad to ,v5ice4 ,i sat by a prie/ ( ,illyricum ( ! scuole pie ( ,/4 ,joseph ,calasanctius2 b :at 0 wond]ful 0 my be+ 9 ! mid/ ( ,mrs4 ,neville & h] family1 :om ,mrs4 ,rio desir$ me to see1 com+ back f a visit to ,vic5za4 ,we kept toge!r all across ! ,sayburne1 & made a great acqua9tance4 ,i got into a gondola1 & _h to g a great r\nd to put d[n ano!r "y man1 :o _h already engag$ x4 ,i _h a great battle ab\t my f>e1 & = a wond] ,i conqu]$4 ,i wait$ a little1 hav+ my *ocolate1 :5 ,phillipps & all came 91 & we made a happy meet+1 giv+ an acc\nt ( our respective travels4 ,w$nesday1 ,sept4 #d?4--,i w5t at #g to say mass at ,san ,m>co1 b 0 oblig$ to wait till #h1 z !y are v /rict "h n to all[ a prie/ to mass )\t leave f ! ,patri>*1 except ! fir/ day1 :51 z to me1 leave #cah is giv54 ,i breakfa/$ at a cafe1 !n w5t ) ,phillipps to ,/4 ,georgio dei ,greci1 & he>d a high mass ( ! s*ismatic ,greeks1 ( :om !re is a colony at ,v5ice2 ! occasion 0 ! octave ( ! ,assumption1 old /yle4 ,! mass 0 all celebrat$ beh9d a close scre52 :i* is op5 "p ( ! "t1 b n dur+ ! mo/ solemn "p4 ,aft] ! consecration1 ! ho/ & *alice are c>ri$ outside ?is scre5 9 procession1 & pres5t$ = adoration2 "o man be=e u 0 mak+ 8 pro/rations all ! "t4 ,! prie/s _h *asubles1 hang+ ev5ly all r\nd to ne> ! ankles2 !y lift$ !m to use _! h&s2 !re is no musical in/rum5t1 b s++ all ! "t4 ,i !n w5t to ! ,cancell>ia to get my lic5ce to say mass1 & !n to ,mrs4 ,neville at ! ,corte dell' ,alb]o4 ,%e soon aft] took me to ! ,arm5ian ,college1 :]e ! exam9ations 7 j f9i%$4 ,!re are eighte5 s*ol>s1 ) two prie/s ov] !m1 9 an old gr& palace ( a ru9$ family ( ,pes>o4 ,! vic>io & sev]al o!rs f ! isl& 7 !re4 ,we talk$ mu* ab\t ,engl&4 ,i came to d9n] at ! ,tavola1 return$ at #d1 ,!n we w5t to ! ,isl& ( ,/4 ,lazz>o1 to see ,padre ,pasquale & ! ,ar*bi%op ,sutrio ,somal 7z ! "n s\nds71 great fri5ds ( ,phillipps at ,rome 9 #ahca1 & ( m9e1 too4 ,:5 we came back4 ,i w5t 9 a gondola to ,mrs4 ,neville1 & back to tea4 ,tuesday1 ,sept4 #e4--,?is be+ ! fea/ ( ,/4 ,lor5zo ,giu/9iani1 ,i w5t out at #f to f9d ! *ur* :]e 8 body is laid4 ,he di$ 9 ! v hotel :]e we are4 ,! *ur* ,i w5t to 9 a gondola 9 ra9 to ,/4 ,pietro at ,ca/ello--! anci5t patri>*al *ur*--& said mass at ! high alt>1 :]e he lies4 ,i walk$ back 9 ra91 )\t umbrella1 z ,i lo/ m9e ye/]day4 ,i b\ght ano!r4 ,at #ab1 ,padre ,raffaelle1 an ,arm5ian prie/1 ,mrs4 ,neville's confessor1 to :om %e introduc$ me ye/]day1 call$ & took me to ! patri>*1 ,c>d9al ,monico1 :o receiv$ mo/ graci\sly my propositions = ,engl&4 ,i am to call aga9 ) ! ,phillippses on ,saturday1 & get some?+ m exactly settl$ ab\t ! pray]s2 we !n w5t across ! ,great ,canal to ! ,del ,r$5tore1 :]e #cai is a conv5t ( eighty ,capu*9s4 ,! *ur* is reckon$ a *ef d'oeuvre ( ,palladio1 built ex voto by ! ,republic1 aft] a plague4 ,we saw ! gu>dian1 :o is also prov9cial2 he le>n$ our want1 & promis$ = 8 own h\se & t5 o!rs ( ! prov9ce4 ,i came back to d9n]4 ,a ,greek prie/ :om ,phillipps got acqua9t$ ) ! o!r day1 came to d9e ) u1 & sat till #i4 ,8 conv]sation 0 v int]e/+ z %[+ ! ideas ( ! ,greeks ab\t ! ,roman ,*ur*1 & _! doctr9es on _m po9ts v>y+ f ours4 ,:at a t]rible evil is t ( sep>ation ( ne>ly half ( ,*ri/5dom6 ,! great] reasons to ha/5 ! reunion ( ,engl&1 t we may draw ! o!rs4 ,friday1 ,sept4 #f4--,! two ,neville boys came ) me to ,/4 ,m>co1 & s]v$ my mass1 z _! "m _h desir$4 ,aft] breakfa/1 ,i call$ on ,mrs4 ,neville1 :o 0 n up1 !n w5t to ,palazzo ,pas>o1 to ,padre ,raffaelle4 ,he came ) me fir/ to ! ,franciscans2 ! gu>dian promis$ = 8 h\se ( fifty1 & = ?ree or f\r at "s di/ance f him4 ,!n to ! ,dom9icans1 :o are fifte51 a new e/abli%m5t a ye> old4 ,!n to ! ,jesuits1 :o are eight 9 numb]1 only ?is summ] return$ to _! old *ur*1 :i* is "o ( ! mo/ rem>kable = its ornam5ts 9 ,v5ice1 :ite m>ble inlaid ) black4 ,i rememb]$ x well f tw5ty-six ye>s ago4 ,! sup]ior1 ,padre ,f]r>io1 is go+ to ,rome to-morr[1 & promis$ to see ab\t my matt]s !re ) ,c>d9al ,acton & ! g5]al ( ! ,jesuits4 ,i came home 9 ha/e1 & f\nd ,phillipps1 & ,mrs4 ,neville & h] fri5ds ) h]1 gone to ,/4 ,m>co1 :]e we foll[$ !m to see ! treasury--i4e41 ! ine/imably ri* treasures br\ght by ,doge ,d&olo f ,con/ant9ople1 j be=e x 0 tak5 by ! ,turks4 ,! *ief ?+ is an antep5dium & a r]$os ( massive gold1 ) spl5did pe>ls & enamels4 ,mrs4 ,neville took u to ! ,conv5t ( ! ,visitation1 :]e is pres]v$ ! he>t ( ,/4 ,francis ( ,sales1 :i* 0 br\ght f ,france :5 ! ,revolution drove (f all religi\s4 ,!y c\ld n %[ ?is relic2 b promis$ pray]s1 & to write to o!r h\ses4 ,!re 7 !re #cbj =ty nuns4 ,back to d9n] at ! table d'hte4 ,aft] d9n] we w5t all toge!r to see ! only l>ge ,go?ic *ur* 9 ,v5ice1 call$ ,/4 ---- di ,fr>i1 :i* is ! ,v5etian = ,frati2 x us$ to be ! ,franciscan *ur*1 & _! h\se is turn$ into a public ,ar*ivium4 ,phillipps said !y des]v$ x = hav+ su* a palace4 ,! *ur* is a f9e "o1 & has "s good morsels2 b :at is mo/ />tl+1 or r gl>+1 is ! imm5se m>ble monum5t to ,canova--a pyramid1 ) a hea!n procession into x4 ,8 he>t is "h4 ,8 "r h& 9 an urn at ! ,arcad9ia4 ,we tri$ at ,/4 ,sitor/ro 7,silve/ro7 to assi/ at ! #dj ore1 b all 0 ov]4 ,we came back by a f9e /> light1 & w5t to ,/4 ,m>co1 :]e we _h ices at ,floriano's caf1 & he>d milit>y music4 ,canonico ,pio ,bighi1 & 8 "y companion ,don ,giovanni ,moneti1 jo9$ u1 ad cor4 sat4 ,we came home at #i4 ,sept4 #g?4--,said mass at ,/4 ,m>co1 on ! alt> :]e ! miracul\s picture ( ,our ,lady is1 by ,/4 ,luke4 ,! ,greek prie/ told u !re exi/$ sev5ty-five ( !m4 ,i w5t at #h to ! ,jesuits1 to give a lett] = ,c>d9al ,acton1 ab\t indulg5ces = pray]s = ,engl&1 to ,padre ,f]r>rio1 ! ,sup]ior1 :o sets (f to-day = ,rome4 ,i f\nd ,mrs4 ,neville & ,fa!r ,raffaelle talk+ to him4 ,! latt] k9dly w5t ar\nd ) me to-day aga94 ,we w5t fir/ to ! ,in/itute ( ,/4 ,doro!a1 f\nd$ lately by ,conte ,passi & 8 bro!r1 :i* we desir$ to see4 ,! ,sup]ioress 0 out1 b ano!r made excell5t promises4--#ae nuns4 ,!n to ,/4 ,lucia1 to ! ,si/]s ( ,*>ity1 & ano!r h\se dep5d5t on !m4 ,9 ! latt] 0 an ,arm5ian lady :o spoke ,engli%1 hav+ be5 six ye>s at ,hamm]smi? ,conv5t4 ,! ,sup]ioress ( ! *ief h\se spoke ( ,g5tili ) great respect2 %e knew him :5 %e 0 at ! h\se at ,v]ona4 ,%e promis$ me = ?irte5 h\ses "u h] au?ority4 ,!n we w5t pa/ ! ,jesuits to a h\se ( ,re=m$ ,franciscans 7,zoccolanti74 ,/4 ,mi*ele di ,m>ano4 ,promis$ = ?ree h\ses z l>ge z ?is1 ab\t tw5ty-six1 & _m m small]4 ,?is is :]e ,gregory ,,xvi4 0 educat$1 made 8 novitiate1 & 0 ,sup]ior4 ,we saw ! outside ( 8 room2 ! key c\ld #cba n be got4 ,we got back at #ab4 ,i w5t ) ,phillipps to ! ,c>d9al ,patri>*1 z appo9t$ be=e4 ,i gave him ! pray] = ,engl& :i* ,i gave to ,padre ,f]r>io1 & he promis$ to speak ) him also4 ,!nce to ! ,accademia1 :]e = two h\rs we look$ at ! pictures & /atues4 ,x did n greatly answ] me4 ,!nce left our c>ds on ! ,duc de ,levis1 :o1 ) 8 ma/] ! ,due de ,bordeaux1 is at ! ,alb]go ,reale4 ,!n d9$4 ,ano!r maigre4 ,aft] ,i did n g out ) !m1 z ,i _h (fice to say4 ,at #g we _h a p>ty to tea--! ,greek prie/1 ) ,mrs4 ,neville & ?ree *ildr54 ,!y /ay$ till pa/ #aa4 ,monday1 ,sept4 #h4 ,nativity ( ,bless$ ,virg94--,i said mass at ,s4 ,m>co4 ,we w5t to ! high ,arm5ian mass at ,s4 ,lazz>o at #aj4 ,we 7 a little late4 ,aft] x we /ay$ !re ) our fri5ds ! fa!rs till vesp]s & b5$iction1 at #c4 ,& aft] t1 d9n] at #d4 ,mrs4 ,neville & family 7 !re too4 ,x 0 an int]e/+ day = see+ & conv]s+4 ,i saw1 9 ! visitors' book1 my "n "u ,lefevre's1 writt5 by him ,july1 #ahbj4 ,we sat 9 ! cloi/]1 ) ! old ,ar*bi%op1 c41 till twilight4 ,he made u pres5ts ( _m h&some books pr9t$ !re4 ,we came back to ,s4 ,m>co1 & sat to he> ! b&1 c4 ,on com+ home1 at #g1 we 7 9 great dem& ) c>ds & notes1 left by ! ,duc de ,levis1 to invite u to ! ,duc de ,bordeaux's 7,comte de ,*omb>d7 salon at #g4 ,we 7 all ?r[n back by ,phillipps hav+ no dresses to g 94 ,s we _h to keep easy at home4 ,sunday1 ,sept4 #i4--,mass at ! ca!dral 7,s4 ,m>co74 ,p4 ,raffaele & ! ,greek prie/ came to breakfa/4 ,at #aj ,i _h a visit f ! ,sup]ioress ( ! ,in/itute ( ,/a4 ,doro!a & a companion4 ,at #aj we w5t to visit ! ,duc de ,bordeaux1 :o gave u a qu>t] ( an h\r's mo/ affable conv]sation1 spoke ) great k9dness ( 8 reception 9 ,engl&1 & ask$ aft] ,dr4 ,wiseman1 c4 ,8 confessor1 ! ,abb ,trl\quet1 0 introduc$ to u1 & came 9 our gondola to ,mrs4 ,neville1 ( :om we took leave4 ,mr4 ,trl\quet promis$ to engage ! ,fr5* royal #cbb family 9 pray]s = ,engl&4 ,he said1 ! ,duc de ,bordeaux _h spok5 ( my ask+ him at ,oscott4 ,we w5t !n to ,s4 ,tommaso1 :]e ,i left ! ,phillippses & w5t to ! bank]1 ,holme1 :o is ,arm5ian consul4 ,!n back to ,s4 ,tommaso1 :]e ,i f\nd !m look+ at an extraord9>y collection ( relics made by a prie/1 :o devot$ himself to ! "w :5 all ?+s 7 9 confusion 9 ! revolution4 ,he gave ! collection to ! *ur*1 on condition ( _! be+ op5 to ! public = v5]ation4 ,! *ief relic is "s ( ! blood ( ,our ,"l1 9 a beautiful gold or gilt reliqu>y4 ,i f\nd !re ,monsignor ,arfi1 ! ,pope's ,caudat>io1 & invit$ = ,engl&4 ,i !n w5t to ,padre ,raffaele1 at ! college1 & w5t ) him to see ! two bro!rs1 prie/s ,cavanis1 f\nd]s ( an excell5t in/itute ( ,scuole di ,c>it4 ,!y are 9 a poor h\se1 ) a few companions2 "o ( !m compla9$ t no "o help$ !m2 b !y are l _! patron ,s4 ,joseph ,calasanctius1 los+ gr\nd 9 old age1 b ) hope ( bett] ?+s4 ,p4 ,raffaele1 :o has inde$ be5 an angel to me 9 ,v5ice1 came ) me to ! inn :]e !y 7 at d9n]4 ,at #d we left ,v5ice1 ) pleasant remembrances4 ,we cross$ ! lagune 9 a procession ( boats1 & got into ! railway c>riage1 :i* took u to ,padua ab\t #g4 ,at ! ,/ella d',oro ,i w5t out to try to f9d ! ,bi%op2 b he 0 n 9 t[n4 ,tuesday1 ,sept1 #aj4--;,i w5t to ,/4 ,antony's *ur* at #g to say mass4 ,be=e go+ ,i met ,dr4 ,roskell1 ( ,man*e/]1 j come ) a ,man*e/] p>ty on a rapid t\r4 ,i c\ld n h ! alt> ( ,/4 ,antony1 :i* seems always occupi$4 ,i spoke to ! ,sup]ior ( ! h\se ( ,conv5tual ,franciscans atta*$ to ! *ur*1 #ej 9 numb]1 :o promis$ to recomm5d my cause4 ,i came back 9 a little c>riage ) ,phillipps4 ,we />t$ at #i = ,v]ona1 d9$ at ,vic5za2 !n ,i took a c>riage & call$ on ! ,bi%op1 ,monsignor ,capell>i1 a good old man1 :o receiv$ me graci\sly4 ,we /opp$ 9 go+ out ( ,vic5za to see ,palladio's ,olympic ,!atre1 built to act ! ,o,edipus ,tyrannus 9 #aehe4 ,?is pret5ds to no?+ b paganism4 ,we rea*$ ,v]ona at #g4 ,i w5t out to see #cbc ! ,bi%op1 :o 0 q graci\s2 he beg9s 8 retreat ) 8 cl]gy to-morr[1 & promis$ to beg9 !n & recomm5d ,engl&4 ,i !n call$ at ,conte ,p]sico's1 :o is 9 t[n1 b 0 j gone to ! !atre4 ,home1 & to b$ at #i4 ,w$nesday1 ,sept4 #aa4--,up soon aft] #e1 & at #g said mass 9 ,/4 ,ana/asius1 a l>ge *ur* close to ! hotel4 ,soon aft] ,conte ,p]sico came to return my visit1 & sat a good :ile ) me1 !n ) ! ,phillippses1 to :om ,i introduc$ him4 ,he is gr[n v old1 be+ n[ #fg4 ,he said he 0 m>ri$ two ye>s aft] ,i _h se5 him be=e1 & 0 n[ by accid5t 9 t[n ) 8 wife4 ,i ?\ght him v l 8 old fa!r4 ,at #aj we w5t 9 a c>riage to see ! tombs ( ! ,scalig]i1 =m]ly tyrants ( ,v]ona1 f9e ,go?ic /ructure2 !n ! ,amphi!atre1 & ! *ur* ( ,/4 ,z5one1 :]e ,i saw ! image ( ! sa9t aga9 :i* ,i be=e laugh$ at1 z a ?+ s to be treat$1 9 #ahbj4 ,i !n call$ at ,conte ,p]sico's1 & saw 8 lady4 ,at #ab we set (f = ,dez5zano1 a beautiful spot at ! t[n end ( ! ,lake di ,g>da4 ,we arriv$ at #f1 & _h a pleasant ev5+ 9 a little room ( ! ,alb]go ,imp]iale1 look+ ov] ! lake4 ,i wrote to ,mrs4 ,neville & ,abb de ,baudry4 ,?ursday1 ,sept4 #ab4--,!re 0 ra9 9 ! night1 leav+ u a f9e day )\t du/4 ,i said mass at #f 9 ! p>i% *ur*4 ,we w5t to d9e at ! ,duc ,torri1 at ,brescia4 ,i w5t to see ! ,bi%op1 :o receiv$ me v c\rte\sly4 ,!re ,i met a ,philipp9e lay-bro!r1 :o introduc$ me to ! *ur* ( 8 ord]1 ,/a4 ,m>ia della ,pace1 !n to five or six ( ! fa!rs sitt+ toge!r4 ,i _h a f9e opportunity ( recomm5d+ ,engl&4 ,!y are ! only religi\s h\se 9 ,brescia 7( m5 at lea/74 ,aft] d9n] at #c we set (f = ,b]gamo1 :5 we came to ,alb]go ,reale at #i o'clock4 ,i got up to my knees 9 a /ream ne> ! road at ! wet /age1 b hope no h>m f x4 ,friday1 ,sept4 #ac4--;,anniv]s>y ( my fir/ com+ abroad1 #ahai4 ,i got up soon aft] #e1 said mass 9 a *ur* opposite ! inn1 breakfa/$ at a caf1 !n walk$ up ! beautiful road to ! high t[n call$ ! ,citt1 :]e our #cbd inn 0 is ! borga4 ,betwe5 !m !re are ab\t #cf1jjj4 ,9 ! ,citt ,i met a prie/1 by "n ,giuseppe ,caffi1 belong+ to ! collegiate *ur*1 :o1 :5 ,i ask$ him = ,c\nt ,papi1 volunte]$ to be my guide altoge!r4 ,he %[$ me ! ca!dral1 8 own *ur*1 ,/a4 ,m>ia1 & a little conv5t *ur*1 ,*ur* ( ! ,b5$ict9e ,nuns1 beautifully gilt4 ,he also w5t ) me to ! ,bi%op1 :o gave me "o ( ! be/ receptions4 ,by ! same good hap z at ,v]ona1 ! prie/s 7 9 retreat4 ,he introduc$ me to ! ,abbate ,vittad9i1 conductor ( ! retreat1 :o promis$ to speak ( ,engl& to ! cl]gy4 ,he 0 already full ( zeal = x2 he knew a good deal ( ! /ate ( ?+s ) u4 ,:5 ,i wrote my "n1 he knew x well1 & x _h a good effect4 ,i w5t ) ,abb ,caffi to ! palace ( ,c\nt ,papi2 all 7 away4 ,he came ) u to ! hotel1 & soon we />t$ = ,milan4 ,we arriv$ at #c1 & f\nd rooms 9 ! be/ hotel 7de la ,ville74 ,tables d'hte at #e4 ,i said (fice1 & j got "t to look 9 ! ca!dral be=e d9n]1 & aga9 aft] we all w5t4 ,x 0 beyond my recollections ( old4 ,i admir$ ! ceil+1 :i* seem$ all beautiful op5work2 ,i did n rememb] ?is4 ,x seem$ to be only pa9t$ s4 ,h[ ,i rememb] ,"l ,k9naird tak+ my "m to x4 ,we tri$ two o!r *ur*es to f9d ,b5$iction 9 va94 ,!n ,i w5t ) ,phillipps to a booksell]'s4 ,saturday1 ,sept4 #ad4--,up at #e4 ,i w5t to say mass at ! ca!dral1 & f9d+ t ! ,roman rite is n all[$ 9 ! *ur* alone1 ,i 0 9 ! happy necessity ( celebrat+ 9 ! *apel ( ,/4 ,*>les1 9 ! crypt1 :i* is almo/ res]v$ = /rang]s4 ,i wait$ ov] two masses4 ,aft] breakfa/ we _h a visit f ,c\nt ,mell]io1 ,ros99i's great fri5d4 ,phillipps & ,i w5t ) him to 8 palace1 & saw ,abbate ,polidori1 :o lives !re4 ,mrs4 ,ambrose came ) ! c>riage to pick u up1 & ,i w5t to ! ,*ur* ( ,/4 ,celso1 & to ! great hospital fitt$ up = #c1jjj pati5ts2 !n to vesp]s at ! ,duomo1 & at #c to d9e ) ,c\nt ,mell]io4 ,i sat ne> ,polidori4 ,be=e we p>t$ he & ,sign] ,m]cati seem$ ga9$ = ,engl&4 ,at #f we w5t to a ,b5$iction at ! ,duomo1 only ( relics #cbe ( ! ,passion1 & n v solemn4 ,?is 0 by occasion ( ! ,fea/ ( ! ,exaltation ( ! ,cross to-day4 ,i !n w5t to ! ,ar*bi%op's palace to f9d ! ,gr& ,vic>1 to get leave = confessions to-morr[1 & )\t expect+ x saw ! ,c>d9al himself in/ead4 ,z ,c\nt ,mell]io 0 to prep>e my way to-morr[1 ,i did n speak ( ,engl&4 ,:5 ,i got home ,i f\nd ,mell]io at ! inn1 br++ a p]mission f ! ,gr& ,vic>4 ,to b$ aft] #aj4 ,i h got unwell to-day 9 ! inside1--betwe5 ye/]day's maigre & ! fruit1 ,i suppose4 ,sunday1 ,sept4 #ae4--,we w5t toge!r ?is morn+ to ! old basilica ( ,/4 ,ambrose1 :]e ,i said mass at ! sa9t's tomb1 9 ! crypt4 ,! ,phillippses receiv$ communion4 ,!n we saw ! spl5did cov]+ ( ! alt> above1 9 ! *ur*4 ,x is expos$ only on ?ree days at mass--,/4 ,ambrose1 ,,ss4 ,g]vase & ,protase1 & ,corpus ,*ri/i4 ,,ss4 ,g]vase & ,protase's relics are !re1 ) ,/4 ,ambrose's4 ,?is alt> co/ to a bi%op :o gave x1 #hj1jjj sequ9s ( gold1 ab\t ! ye> #ajjj4 ,i spoke to ! ,directeur du ,sm9aire de ,*amb]ry1 :o 0 !re1 & he promis$ to speak ( ,engl&4 ,we w5t home to breakfa/ at #aj4 ,assi/$ at high mass 9 ! ,duomo aga92 n s solemn z ye/]day4 ,! procession ( ! ,bless$ ,sacram5t be=e x did n please me mu*4 ,aft] high mass ,i w5t to call on ! ,c>d9al aga94 ,i 0 n s mu* disappo9t$ z 9 ! case ( ! ,bi%op ( ,brix51 = ,i _h he>d no?+ promis+ ab\t ?is int]view z 9 ! o!r cases2 b ,i felt z "o defeat$ :5 ,i w5t away4 ,i w5t to ! ,piazza del ,ca/ello to see ! ,contessa del ,v]me & h] si/]1 ,engli% p1 conv]ts to :om ,abbate ,vittad9i1 at ,b]gamo1 recomm5d$ me4 ,h] si/]1 ,miss ,m>y ,web/]1 is j ab\t ent]+ ! ord] ( ! ,visitation "h4 ,! ,c\nt came 9 j :5 ,i 0 gone out1 & foll[$ me to ,s4 ,aless&ro1 ( ! ,b>nabites1 :i* he _h he>d me ask = z ,i left 8 h\se4 ,i br\ght him to see ,phillipps4 ,we d9$ at #c1 & at #d w5t to ! ,ar5a1 or ,amphi!atre1 :]e !re 0 a gr& spettacolo nautico e pirotecnico4 ,! ar5a 0 full ( wat]1 & we _h five races ( boats1 ?ree ( m51 "o ( #cbf wom51 & "o ( boys r[+2 !n a procession ( two great illum9at$ galleys fill$ ) musicians2 !n :at /ruck me mo/1 z mo/ new to me1 ! asc5t ( fifty f9e balloons2 !n ( "o v l>ge "o2 !n a spl5did display ( fireworks1 end+ z (t5 ) an illum9at$ palace1 ) an inscription alle sci5ze1 alle lett]s1 alle arti1 z ! spectacle 0 9 hon\r ( ! ,six? ,italian ,sci5tific ,congress1 n[ be+ held "h4 ,we got home at to #i2 ,i almo/ well aga94 ,monday1 ,septemb] #af4--;,i said mass at ,/4 ,fidele1 =m]ly "o ( ! ?ree ,jesuit *ur*es4 ,at #h we set (f 9 a c>riage to see ! ,c]tosa ( ,pavia4 ,we got to x at #aj1 & 7 two h\rs exam9+ its beautiful details4 ,wom5 are n[ =bidd5 entrance into ! *oir1 & s ,mrs4 ,ambrose _h to /ay 9 ! body ( ! *ur*1 :ile we1 ) o!r p :o _h come to see x1 saw ! ri* high alt> & _m ( ! f9e/ ?+s4 ,!re are n _m preci\s /ones1 l rubies1 em]alds1 c41 b a pr(usion ( alt>-fronts ( ,pietra-dura1 beautiful alto relievos 9 m>ble1 & _m f9e pictures4 ,! conv5t is b lately re9habit$4 ,c\nt ,mell]io 0 ! means ( replac+ monks !re4 ,!y are all ,fr5*4 ,we saw ! ,prior1 :o knew ,mi*ael ,mac,mahon4 ,he promis$ to recomm5d ,engl& n only "h1 b by lett] 9 o!r h\ses4 ,we d9$ at an inn half a mile f ! *ur*1 call$ ,alb]go della ,c]tosa1 & came back to ,milan by #e4 ,i got (f ne> ! ,contrada ,s4 ,m>ia ,falcon]ia1 to call at a conv5t ( ,si/]s ( ,*>ity ( ! same ord] z ^? ( ,/a4 ,lucia1 at ,v5ice4 ,i saw ! ,sup]ioress4 ,!n ,i w5t to ! ,c\nt del ,v]me's palace4 ,la ,contessa 0 conf9$ ?is morn+4 ,i saw ,miss ,web/]1 :o spoke ab\t two ,engli% girls :om !y are in/ruct+1 wi%+ me to receive ! confession ( "o :o _c speak ,italian4 ,i w5t out ) ! prie/ :o in/ructs !m1 ,don ,gaetano ,fumagalli1 to see !m4 ,we fir/ w5t to ! conv5t ( ! ,salesiani1 #ed nuns 7visitation71 into :i* ,miss ,web/] is ab\t to ent]1 & ?\gh ! "t 0 pa/1 we saw ! mi/ress ( novices ?r\gh ! grate1 :o 0 v graci\s ab\t ,engl&4 ,!n we w5t to a high /ory 9 a h\se :]e ^! girls lodge1 paid #cbg = by ! ,c>d9al4 ,aft] com+ home ,i w5t1 on an invitation obta9$ by ! ,conte del ,v]me1 to a gr& assembly & conc]t at ! ,accademia1 or ! ,nobil ,societ4 ,! gaye/ rooms ,i h se5 a long "t4 ,i came home soon aft] t51 = ,i knew nobody !re1 & 0 almo/ ! only prie/ ,i saw2 c]ta9ly ! only "o 9 a cassock4 ,tuesday1 ,septemb] #ag4--,mass at ,/4 ,fidele4 ,at #h ,c\nt ,mell]io came1 & we />t$ = 8 villa at ,g]netto1 beyond ,monza4 ,he took ,mrs4 ,a4 & ,amb41 & ,i & a boy w5t 9 our c>riage1 ) f\r vettur9o horses4 ,we /opp$ at ,monza to see ! glori\s relic ( ! ,iron ,cr[n giv5 by ! ,empress ,hel5a to ,con/ant9e1 9 :i* is ins]t$1 z a r+ ( iron )9 a l>g] r+ ( gold1 "o ( ! nails ( ,our ,"l's crucifixion beat out into t =m4 ,x has cr[n$ f ?irty to =ty k+s ( ,italy4 ,among !m1 ,napoleon la/ b "o4 ,o!r gr& relics ( ! ,passion are ) x1 two ?orns1 & a piece ( ! sponge4 ,o!r relics are 9 ! sacri/y4 ,?is is kept ov] an alt> )9 ri* doors4 ,! ,canonico1 :o 0 ) u 9 ! *ur*1 promis$ to recomm5d ,engl&4 ,we w5t on to ! palace ( ! ,ar*duke1 surr\nd$ by a p>k fifte5 miles r\nd1 dress$ l an ,engli% p>k1 a noble palace4 ,!n on to ,g]netto1 :]e we 7 = two or ?ree h\rs be=e d9n] walk+ gaily ) ! ,c\nt r\nd 8 beautiful gr\nds4 ,! villa is v h&some4 ,two prie/s ( ! neighb\rhood d9$ ) u at #c4 ,"o told me t ,c\nt ,mell]io is "o ( ! ri*e/1 or r ! ri*e/ nobleman 9 ,milan1--ab\t #ae1jjj a ye> ( our money4 ,he is alone1 hav+ lo/ 8 wife & f\r *ildr54 ,he came back ) u to our hotel1 :]e ,i f\nd ,c\nt del ,v]me to tell me t ! confession ( ! girls 0 put (f4 ,!y h be5 left "h by _! "m4 ,_! p>5ts1 ---- & ,ann ,c>raway1 live at ,newca/le-"u-,lyne4 ,_! gr&fa!r & "m1 ,james & ,m>y ,freakley1 at ,*eapside1 ,h&ley4 ,i w5t ) ! ,c\nt to ! assembly ( ! le>n$ m5 :o are n[ met 9 ,milan1--n s sm>t z ye/]day1 b v num]\s4 ,!n to a caf1 to read news ab\t ! effects ( ,o',connell's lib]ation4 #cbh ,w$nesday1 ,septemb] #ah4--;,i w5t ) ,phillippses to ! ,duomo to say mass = !m at ,/4 ,*>les's tomb1 b ,i f\nd x occupi$1 & s ,i w5t to ,san ,fidele aga91 came back to breakfa/1 & saw ,conte ,mell]io1 :o _h call$4 ,!n w5t ) !m to ! ,br]a1 :]e ,i w5t quickly ?r\gh ! gall]y1 & left !m1 tak+ ! c>riage to g to ! hospital ( ! ,fate-b5e ,fratelli1 :i* is a f9e e/abli%m5t = #ajj sick4 ,! ,vic>io1 :om ,i saw1 promis$ to recomm5d ,engl& to ! ,prov9cial1 :o is "h1 & ?r\gh him to ! ?irty bro!rs "h1 & five h\ses 9 ,lomb>dy--v5to4 ,!n ,i w5t to ! bank4 ,d9$ at #a1 & at #b we />t$ ) a ,swiss voituri]1 :om we _h engag$ to take u to ,g5eva4 ,we pass$ ! beautiful triumphal ar*1 ,l',arco della ,pace1 reckon$ ! f9e/ 9 ! _w1 anci5t & mod]n4 ,we got to sleep at a nice inn1 9 a place call$ ,casiua buon ,jesu4 ,i wrote a lett] to ,dr4 ,wiseman4 ,?ursday1 ,septemb] #ai4 ,san ,janu>ius4--,i said mass at ! little oratory ( ! village4 ,!re is mass "h only on ,sundays g5]ally1 b ! bell rung ?ree times = my mass1 & we _h a full *apel4 ,?is *apel n v neat2 x seem$ us$ = a s*ool-room4 ,we />t$ at pa/ #g1 & rea*$ ,avona at #ab to d9e4 ,h[ ,i 0 /ruck ) ! remembrance ( ! la/ "t 9 ?is place ) my fa!r & "m1 aft] com+ 9 a boat ) ,dr4 ,wilson f ,bav9o4 ,! inn is a f9e new h\se s9ce !n4 ,we saw a /eamboat pass1 :i* plies daily ! :ole l5g? ( ! lake4 ,i miss$ go+ to ,/4 ,*>les's /atue & ! sem9>y ne> x1 belong+ to ! diocese ( ,nov>a1 :]e ,i %\ld h lik$ to g to prea* ,engl&4 ,aft] d9n] we />t$ & w5t r\nd to ,/rass1 :]e we /opp$ & w5t up ! m\nta9's side to see ,rosm9i's ,novitiate1 :i* ov]looks ! village4 ,x is a l>ge h\se1 )\t beauty or "*1 unhappily4 ,we knew we %\ld n f9d ,ros99i1 :o is at ,rov]$o4 ,we saw ,segn9i & two o!r prie/s1 ,paoli & ,gagli>di4 ,!y h ?irty novices4 ,! situation is beautiful4 ,! gr\nd belong$ be=e to ,madame ,bologn>o1 :o has a l>ge h\se 9 ! t[n1 :]e1 :ile we 7 at ! conv5t1 ! ,bi%op ( #cbi ,nov>a came4 ,i w\ld n h fail$ to ask an audi5ce _h ,i be5 alone1 b ,i made ! prie/s promise to speak to him ( ,engl&4 ,we took a boat to g to ! ,isola ,bella1 to see ! palace & g>d5s on our way to ,bav9o1 ! c>riage go+ on !re by itself4 ,x 0 almo/ d>k :5 we got !re1 & we c\ld only see ! suite ( gr& rooms & pictures1 & ! *apel ) ! old family tombs br\ght f ,milan1 by c&lelight4 ,mem4 ,a room ( rockwork und]nea? ! *ief suite1 :]e ,bonap>te d9$1 & ! b$room he slept 94 ,! :ole ( ?is gr&eur is made worse ?an wor?less by ! indec5t /atues & pictures :i* are all ab\t ! place4 ,we got to ,bav9o at #h2 a nice new inn4 ,friday1 ,sept4 #bj4--;,emb] ,day1 b no fa/ = me6 ,i got to say mass at #d1 & we />t$ at #f to asc5d ! ,simplon4 ,! day 0 beautiful4 ,we got to ,domodossola at #aa4 ,we w5t up ! beautiful road to ! ,monte ,calv>io1 ( :i* ,g5tili has made me ?9k s mu*1 fir/ hav+ tak5 a look at _! college 9 ! t[n1 :]e !re are #ai bo>d]s & m ?an #bjj out-/ud5ts4 ,at ! ,calv>y two prie/s receiv$ u k9dly4 ,along ! road to x are *apels ) ! /ations repres5t$ 9 gr\ps ( figures z l>ge z life1 well execut$2 only two or ?ree are complete4 ,! situation "h aga9 is admirable4 ,! h\se & *ur* n rem>kable4 ,i 0 well receiv$ = ,engl&4 ,com+ d[n1 :i* ,i did aft] ! re/1 ,i visit$ a pretty ,capu*9 conv5t1 half-way up1 ( fifte5 fri>s1 & _h a good reception 7promise to write to ! o!r h\ses74 ,aft] d9n] at #b we set (f = ,simplon1 :i* we rea*$ aft] #h4 ,! voituri] 7coa*man71 to sp>e 8 horses1 put u on po/-horses at 8 own exp5se4 ,! road on ! ,pi$montese side is sadly dilapidat$4 ,x 0 brok5 d[n 7by wat]1 z x seems7 six ye>s ago1 & ! ,k+ ( ,s>d9ia w n h 8 "p repair$1 to make p g by ,m\nt ,c5is & ,tur94 ,put up at ! ,simplon ,inn4 ,saturday1 ,sept4 #ba4 ,/4 ,mat!w4--,i said mass at #g1 spoke to ! cur aft]1 :o promis$ = ,engl&4 ,we />t$ at #h2 we /ill _h two h\rs go+ up ! hill4 #ccj ,ab\t ! summit is ! ,hospice de ,/4 ,b]n>d1 begun by ,bonap>te4 ,i rememb] x 9 an unf9i%$ /ate4 ,x n[ conta9s f\r or five prie/s1 & "s bro!rs4 ,we /opp$ & saw ! ,prior1 ,m4 ,b>ras1 :o promis$ k9dly to recomm5d ,engl& to ! "m h\se4 ,phillipps b\ght a puppy ( ! fam\s bre$1 ?ree mon?s old1 :o 0 add$ to our company 9 ! c>riage4 ,we rea*$ ,brigy betwe5 #ab & #a4 ,i w5t out be=e d9n]1 & saw ! ,sup]ior ( ! ,jesuits' ,college "h1 :o is a nice old man1 & receiv$ u v k9dly4 ,i hurri$ away quickly1 ?9k+ to return aga9 aft] d9n]1 b ! d9n] 0 long aft] "t1 & we _h at once to set (f = ,turt9an1 :i* we rea*$ at #f4 ,we w5t out be=e tea to see a wat]fall3 x 0 a d>k1 wet walk1 = ra9 0 beg9n+4 ,sunday1 ,sept4 #bb4--;,i said mass at #e4 ,soon aft] #f we set (f = ,sion4 ,arriv$ at #aj1 & f\nd a gr& milit>y pontifical high mass begun 9 ! ca!dral4 ,i nev] he>d drums & cannon & ! ^w ( comm& 9 a mass be=e4 ,! music 0 n milit>y1 b noisy figur$4 ,! occasion ( ! solemn mass 0 ! fea/ ( ,/4 ,maurice1 patron ( ! ,valais4 ,aft] mass ! ,bi%op walk$ ) a great procession ab\t ! t[n1 ) a f]etrum1 ) relics ( ,/4 ,maurice4 ,! *ief "p are at ! t[n ( ! "n1 :i* we are to pass to-morr[4 ,! procession _h an excell5t effect4 ,i w5t !n to ! ,jesuits' ,college1 & spoke to ! ,rector1 :o told me ! fir/ ,i _h he>d ( ! attempt at revolution 9 ! mon? ( ,may "h1 :i* 0 defeat$ 9 a gallant /yle by ! inhabitants ( ! ,valais arm+ to ! numb] ( #aj1jjj1 f a population ( #gj1jjj1 "u an old ,fr5* (fic]1 i4e41 a ,swiss1 tra9$ 9 ! ,fr5* army1 :o repell$ ! p>ty ( ! ,jeune ,suisse1 :o o!rwise w\ld h ov]turn$ religi\s ord]1 & p]haps1 z he said1 h massacr$ all ! religi\s4 ,"y ,bod5ham 0 9 _! h\se :5 ! dang] ?reat5$4 ,! ,rector 0 v k9d1 b did n promise mu*4 ,i w5t !n to d9e at a table d'hte1 b soon got (f1 & w5t to ! ,bi%op lately consecrat$1 :o came f table to speak ) me4 ,he 0 educat$ at ! ,collegio ,g]manico2 knew ,baldacconi & ,fa!r ,daniel4 #cca ,he promis$ 8 help4 ,i !n w5t to a ,capu*9 conv5t outside ! t[n4 ,! gu>dian1 a "y man1 0 r cold1 b said mean:ile t he always pray$ = ,engl&1 z ord]$ 9 ! ,confrrie de l',immacul ,coeur4 ,!n to a conv5t ( ,ursul9es1 close to ! ,bi%op's2 elev5 nuns 7well receiv$72 !n 9 a hurry to an hospital outside ! t[n on ! o!r side1 ) eight nuns4 ,! director gave me "o ( my mo/ fav\rable receptions1 & promis$ t ! nuns %\ld *ange _! day ( communion f ,friday to ,?ursday to meet my wi%es4 ,we set (f at #b = ,m>tigny1 :i* we rea*$ at #e4 ,x has a diff]5t look f #ahai1 ! ye> aft] ! inundation4 ,i call$ on ! cur1 :o is "o ( ! monks ( ,gr& ,/4 ,b]n>d1 ) ! :ite l95 scapul> to repres5t ! surplice1 :i* !y always we> z canons regul> ( ,/4 ,augu/9e1 to :i* !y belong4 ,he 0 v good ab\t ,engl&4 ,f !nce1 ,i w5t to an hospital kept by six ,fr5* nuns1 to receive poor travell]s1 female ,/4 ,b]n>dites4 ,! ,sup]ioress 0 v agreeable & zeal\s4 ,!y are go+ directly to ,france to make _! retreat ) #fjj o!r nuns1 assembl$ "u ! ,bi%op ( ,belley4 ,%e promis$ to get him to recomm5d x to !m all4 ,i came back to tea aft] a happy1 successful day 7,htel de la ,cigne74 ,alp9e /rawb]ries at tea4 ,monday1 ,septemb] #bc4--;,i said mass at #f4 ,came away1 fe>+ x w\ld be too late1 )\t say+ f>ewell to ! ,prior1 :i* 0 mortify+1 z !re 0 "t en\gh4 ,we w5t to d9e at ,/4 ,g+olph1 beautifully plac$ on ! bank ( ! ,lake ( ,g5eva4 ,on ! way we /opp$ at ,/4 ,maurice1 :]e we saw 9 ! *ur* ! ri* %r9e ( ,/4 ,maurice1 conta9+ 8 body1 & sev]al o!rs2 two ( ! sons ( ,sigismund1 ,k+ ( ,burgundy1 :o did p5ance "h1 aft] putt+ !m to dea?4 ,9 ! abbey1 :i* is ( ! ,canons ,regul> ( ,/4 ,augu/9e1 ,i saw ! sup]ior1 :o is a bi%op 9 p>tibus2 he spoke v k9dly ab\t ,engl&4 ,i also met a nun !re ( a conv5t ( ,si/]s ( ,*>ity1 :o promis$ = ,?ursdays at ,/4 ,g+olph4 ,i w5t to ! cur1 :]e ! ,vic> introduc$ me to sev]al prie/s d9+ ) him1 :o became greatly int]e/$1 & #ccb promis$ to speak to ! ,bi%op ( ,annecy1 & to _! confrres at ,?onon1 :]e we came to sleep4 ,i call$ on ! cur1 :o promis$1 b ,i c\ld n q satisfy myself ab\t him2 b 0 q satisfi$ ) ! bro!rs ( ! ,*ri/ian ,doctr9e2 !re are eight4 ,! ,sup]ior promis$ well1 & s5t two bro!rs home ) me to ! inn4 ,! names ( ! prie/s at ,/4 ,g+olph 73--,m4 ,veuillet1 ,cur de ,ds+y2 ,m4 ,maitre1 ,cur de ,novel2 ,m4 ,la ,croix1 ,vicaire de ,*illy2 & ,m4 ,polli51 ,vicaire de ,/4 ,g+olph4 ,! fir/ mo/ int]e/+3 ! la/ extremely tall4 ,tuesday1 ,sept4 #bd4 ,b4,m4,v4 di ,m]c$e4--,at #e ,i w5t to ! ,conv5t ( ! ,visitation1 :]e !re are ?irty-f\r nuns1 :o h recov]$ _! h\se aft] ! ,revolution4 ,! ,sup]ioress receiv$ me mo/ k9dly1 & promis$ all4 ,i !n w5t to ! ,si/]s ( ,*>ity1 :o h two h\ses--a p5sionnat & an hospital4 ,! ,sup]ioress 0 n up4 ,i left my c>d ) a lay si/]4 ,i !n w5t & said mass at ! p>i% *ur*4 ,! ,phillippses w5t to communion4 ,x 0 at ! alt> ( ,/4 ,francis ( ,sales1 9 ?is1 ! fir/ *ur* :i* he 7or any o!r "o7 rega9$ f ! ,calv9i/s--,/4 ,hippolyte4 ,i (f]$ ! mass = ! recov]y ( our de> ca!drals4 ,! cur spoke to me aga91 & mu* m zeal\sly promis$ all = ,?onon1 ,m4 ,de la ,millire4 ,we ought to h gone to ! ,*teau d',all+es1 :]e ,/4 ,francis lodg$ :5 he began ! holy "w4 ,! *apel has be5 wond]fully pres]v$1 & lately reop5$1 ,sept4 #ad1 #ahcf4 ,on our way to ,g5eva1 :]e we arriv$ at #ab1 we read "s ( ! acc\nt ( 8 mission4 ,we came to ! ,hotel de ,b]gues1 a new gr& h\se 9 a new "p ( ! t[n1 built out on ! lake ab\t #ahcd4 ,i took a c>riage to ,pla9palais1 & br\ght back my good fri5d l',abb de ,baudry4 ,i d9$ aft] at ! table d'hte4 ,he is a tall1 v5]able old man1 dress$ 9 8 cassock1 z all ! prie/s are4 ,8 acc\nt ( ?+s "h 0 bett] ?an ,i ?\ght4 ,we set (f at #c1 & c\ld n get f>!r ?an ,nyon1 :]e ,phillipps & ,i w5t to see ! cur & 8 *ur*1 all new4 ,!re 0 no mission "h till #ahca4 ,we int]e/$ him = ,engl&1 ,i hope4 ,! hotel is de la ,c\ronne4 ,9 #ccc e room1 z at ,g5eva1 is a ,new ,te/am5t ( ! ,g5eva ,bible ,society4 ,w$nesday1 ,sept4 #be4--;,i w5t at #e to say mass at ! new *ur*2 ! cur1 ,m4 ,rossiaud1 got up to s]ve x1 & came ) me to see u (f4 ,we w5t up ! ,jura2 b ! gr& view ( ,mont ,blanc 0 cl\d$1 s we h b once se5 x dimly4 ,ye/]day ev5+ we _h a tr\blesome sort+ ( all our baggage at ,les ,r\sses4 ,we d9$ at ,/4 ,laur5t4 ,i w5t to ! cur1 ,m4 ,gottez1 :o spoke pa9fully ( ! /ate ( ,france 7,i ?9k too mu* s71 b bright5$ up :5 we 7 ab\t ,engl&4 ,we w5t on to ,*ampagnole1 at ! ,htel de la ,po/e1 a nice little inn4 ,phillipps & ,i w5t to ! *ur*2 & ,i call$ & saw ! cur1 l ,dr4 ,rock 9 looks4 ,he accept$ my appeal agreeably4 ,?ursday1 ,sept4 #bf4--;,i got to say mass at ! p>i% *ur*1 at #e4 ,! cur1 ,m4 ,patit1 & ! vicaire1 ,m4 ,b\vet1 7 bo? up1 & ! latt] walk$ back ) me to ! inn1 la ,po/e4 ,we />t$ at #f2 d9$ at #a at l',htel de ,france1 at ,dole3 we got !re at #ab4 ,i w5t out & saw a fa!r at ! ,jesuits'1 :o receiv$ me v agreeably2 & !n a nun at ! ,visitation ,conv5t4 ,! ,jesuit promis$ = all ! conv5ts himself4 ,! ,pr9ce & ,pr9cess ,doria 7 come to ! inn1 on _! way to ,italy4 ,:5 we came back1 ,i w5t to see !m aft] our d9n]4 ,we w5t on ?r\gh ,auxonne1 :]e ,phillipps & ,i w5t to see ! *ur*1--dilig5ce to ,dijon4 ,arriv$ at ! ,htel de la ,clo*e at #g4 ,i w5t out to see ! ,bi%op1 b he 0 out4 ,i call$ at ! ,sm9aire1 & saw ! ,sup]ior & o!rs1 :o 7 v k9d1 & spoke ( ,bro!r ,luke ask+ !m2 !n back to supp]2 aft] :i* ,i w5t aga9 to ! v*1 & wait$ 9 ! port]'s lodge1 talk+ to a nice old man ( eighty ab\t ! ,revolution1 c41 till ! ,bi%op came 94 ,he1 ,monseigneur ,rivet1 promis$ 8 help v graci\sly4 ,i got home at #aj1 hav+ also tri$ 9 va9 to get at ! sacri/an = mass tomorr[4 ,friday1 ,sept4 #bg4--;,i w5t out at t5 m9utes to #d1 to try once m ! sacri/an's bell1 b no answ]1 & s ,i _h #ccd to come back & give up mass1 z we 7 to />t at #e4 ,we took provisions 9 ! c>riage1 & we _h no m9d to /op all day1 till at #g we rea*$ ,/4 ,flor5t91 a t[n ( #b1djj p1 9 ! diocese ( ,s5s4 ,! wea!r 0 beautiful1 & we admir$ ! high cultivation & seem+ prosp]ity ( ! c\ntry4 ,we pass$ a f9e *teau at ,aucy le ,franc1 ( ! ,duce or ,m>quis de ,cl]mont-,tonn]re4 ,at ,/4 ,flor5t9 ,i w5t out & saw ! cur & ! sacri/an1 to provide bett] = mass to-morr[ ?an today4 ,htel de la ,po/e4 ,saturday1 ,sept4 #bh4--;,got up ab\t #c4 ,at a qu>t] to #d ,i w5t to ! sacri/an1 & ) him to ! *ur*1 & said mass2 a pretty little ,go?ic *ur*4 ,we set (f at a qu>t] to #e1 ) provisions aga91 = ,p>is1 :i* we ent]$ ab\t #aa at night4 ,we /opp$ at ,s5s to see ! ca!dral4 ,i fir/ w5t to ! ar*v*1 & 0 mo/ graci\sly receiv$ by ! ,ar*bi%op1 ,monseigneur ,mellon ,jolly1 a "y man translat$ "h f ,sez la/ ,m>*4 ,he said he _h introduc$ pray]s = ,engl& at ,sez1 & w\ld beg9 aga9 n[4 ,he took me into ! ca!dral1 & left me to see ! trsor1 :]e ! ,phillippses already 74 ,! mo/ preci\s relic 0 ( ! true cross1 z ! sacri/an said1 ! l>ge/ 9 ! _w2 b he c\ld n "k ( ,rome & ,j]usalem4 ,x 0 giv5 by ,*>lemagne4 ,!re are two pieces1 plac$ 9 a cross "u cry/al2 ,i %\ld say ! upright piece ( n9e or t5 in*es1 ! transv]se ( f\r or five1 well poli%$4 ,:at 0 p]haps mo/ int]e/+ to u 0 ! case conta9+ ,/4 ,?omas ( ,cant]bury's *asuble1 alb ) app>el1 /ole1 c41 f :i* ! late ,ar*bi%op sep>at$ :at he gave to ,dr4 ,wiseman4 ,!re is also an arm ( ,/4 ,lupus1 a case ( ,/4 ,gregory's relics1 f :i* "s h be5 begg$ = ,rome4 ,we /opp$ aga9 at ,fonta9ebleau1 & took a rapid view ( ! palace4 ,! s]vant :o l$ said x 0 ! f9e/ 9 ! _w4 ,i ?9k he mu/ be p>tial1 z ! sacri/an ?is morn+ ab\t ! relic ( ! cross4 ,l\is-,philippe has done a good deal "h2 sp5t #hjj1jjj fr4 9 ornam5t+ "o room4 ,i 0 mu* pleas$ ) ! gall]y ) pictures ( ! hi/ory ( ,france4 ,?is is ! #cce f9e/ matt] = a palace4 ,!re 0 mu* v indec5t4 ,aft] ?is x began to ra9 till we got to ,p>is4 ,we got rooms at ! ,htel de l',europe1 j opposite ! g>d5s ( ! ,tuil]ies4 ,no?+ c\ld be bett]4 ,sunday1 ,sept4 #bi4--;,i w5t at #g to say mass at ! ,madele9e1 t glori\s *ur* = its /yle4 ,!n home to breakfa/1 & !n1 ) ! re/1 to high mass at ,notre-,dame2 "o ( ! gr&e/ pla9 *ant masses ,i ev] 0 at4 ,!re ,i met ,mr4 ,moore1 ( ,birm+ham2 & ,i w5t ) him aft]1 9 8 hackney-coa*1 on a few err&s1 & at la/ to ! ,engli% conv5t1 f :5ce he takes "o ( ! ,misses ,b+ham to ! conv5t at ,h&swor?4 ,!n ,i w5t aga9 to ,notre-,dame1 & v mu* to my loss3 ,i came too late = vesp]s4 ,aft]1 ,i w5t to ,/4 ,jacques1 b did n f9d ! ,cur de ,noirlieu1 nor 8 vicaire4 ,i came back by ! omnibus to d9e at ! re/aurant1 & directly we w5t to ,notre-,dame des ,victoires1 :]e we assi/$ at ! s]vice1 f #g to #bj m9utes to #aj4 ,x 0 wond]ful to see ! att5tion ( ! p all ?is "t4 ,! old cur1 aft] ! s]mon by ano!r prie/1 gave ! annonces 9 an int]e/+ way4 ,we he>d him recomm5d ,engl&4 ,i w5t 9 to ask him4 ,monday1 ,sept4 #cj4--;,i said mass at ! ,madele9e4 ,aft] breakfa/1 ,i w5t to ,mr4 ,bl\nt1 ! bank]1 :o told me t ,h5eage 0 to be 9 ,p>is on ,?ursday1 ! v day we g away4 ,!n to ! po/1 & f9d no lett]s2 !n by omnibus to ,/4 ,sulpice 7:]e ! retreat ( ! cl]gy beg9s to-day71 to see ! ,ar*bi%op4 ,i 0 introduc$ to him 9 a room1 :]e he 0 among sev]al prie/s4 ,i got on b poorly4 ,he 0 graci\s1 b made little ( ! affair4 ,! secret>y ( ,mgr4 ,quel9 0 !re4 ,he te/ifi$ to 8 recomm5d+ ! ?+ be=e1 b no effect foll[$4 ,?is 0 damp+ en\gh1 ?\gh ,i knew some?+ to ! contr>y4 ,! ,ar*bi%op s5t me to ,m4 ,vollemaux 7,mr4 ,h&'s fri5d71 :o conducts ! retreat1 & he promis$ to recomm5d ,engl& ?is ev5+4 ,s ! po9t is ga9$2 ?\gh1 judg+ f ! tone 9 :i* he spoke ( ,engl&1 x is n s promis+ a prospect z "s4 ,b among #fjj prie/s "s w be inspir$1 let #ccf him speak z he may4 ,i !n w5t to ! rue de ,*aillot1 to seek ,capta9 ,cooke1 to "k ab\t ,john ,beaumont4 ,_h to come back empty1 & /opp$ at home1 n v well1 till #e1 :5 ,phillippses came 9 f ,/4 ,d5is to d9n]4 ,aft] d9n] ,mr4 ,gordon1 ( ! ,univ]s1 came to tea1 & /opp$ till #aj ne>ly4 ,tuesday1 ,oct4 #a4--;,i w5t to say mass at ,notre-,dame des ,victoires1 9 les ,petits ,pres1 at #h4 ,i breakfa/$ ne> !m1 & _h a talk ) ,abb ,desg5ettes4 ,!n w5t to breakfa/ la f\r*ette1 at #aa1 ) ,m4 ,noirlieu1 ,cur ( ,/4 ,jacques1 & 8 vicaire1 ,b\rjant4 ,! latt] =c$ me1 aga9/ my w1 to h "s pap]s ) an image & a pray] = ,engl& pr9t$4 ,x is ! l case ) ,belgium4 ,i hope x may be well1 z x c]ta9ly 0 n my w1 & s ! d5ial ( my w may be a bless+4 ,we !n w5t to call on ! nuncio1 ,mgr4 ,=n>i2 & !n to ! engrav]s = ?is said "w4 ,mgr4 ,=n>i is gr[n v /\t & unwieldy1 b 0 v k9d & pleas+2 he enc\rag$ my pursuit & ?is pr9t+4 ,we w5t home aga9 to ,/4 ,jacques to rdig] ! pray]s1 :5 aga9 my fri5d w\ld h 8 way aga9/ my m9d 9 a po9t or two4 ,i came !nce to ! ,bank1 ,m4 ,bl\nt's1 !n home1 & d9$ alone2 !n w5t to call on ,capta9 ,cooke1 to ask ab\t ,john ,beaumont1 :o1 x seems1 does n come to ,p>is at all2 !n home1 :]e ,i f\nd ! ,phillippses go+ out to a spectacle1 & s ,i _h to g (f & try to /op at l',abb ,desg5ettes'1 :o 0 to come to see him1 b he 0 already f home1 & s ,i came back & receiv$ 8 visit1 :5 ,i press$ him = ,engl&1 & he took x well4 ,w$nesday1 ,oct4 #b4--;,by desire ( ,m4 ,gall>d1 ,vicaire ( ! ,madele9e1 express$ by ,m4 ,b\rgo9]1 ,i said mass !re4 ,aft] breakfa/1 ,i call$ on ,mrs4 ,h5eage & h] daught]1 #ag1 rue ,/4 ,flor5t92 !n took omnibus to ,/4 ,d5is1 :]e ,i look$ ?r\gh ! *ur* bel[ gr\nd & above4 ,x is greatly alt]$ s9ce #ahch--wond]ful "w ( pa9t+ & /a9$ glass1 yet a v little is done ( :at has to be done4 ,i came back by omnibus to ,porte ,/4 ,m>t92 !n walk$ home at #f4 ,i d9$ ) ,capta9 ,cooke--a family d9n]1 purely ,engli%1 z he is himself4 #ccg ,i lik$ 8 conv]sation mu*1 blunt & pla9 z x is4 ,he talk$ ( 8 tw5ty ye>s' s]vice--,egypt--,am]ica4 ,i came home at #h to meet ,,mm4 ,noirlieu & ,b\rgoigne & ,gordon1 :o came to tea & made int]e/+ company till #aa1 ,i ?9k4 ,?ursday1 ,oct4 #c4--,said mass at ,/4 ,ro*2 aft]1 ,i w5t to ! ,jesuits1 ,rue des ,po/es1 & saw ! ,prov9cial1 ,m4 ,b\lang]2 !n to ! ,si/]s ( ,*>ity1 ,rue de ,bac2 ! ,sacr ,coeur1 :]e ,mad4 de ,gramont gave me a mo/ amiable reception2 ! ,laz>i/s1 ,rue de ,sevres2 !n ,i tri$ to see "o ( ! ,society ( ,/4 ,v9c5t de ,paul1 & w5t ) a zeal\s "y cl]k f _! (fice1 #cg1 ,rue de ,se9e1 ,/4 ,g]ma91 to seek an avocat at ! ,palais de ,ju/ice4 ,i 0 h&+ ab\t ! engrav+s1 :i* 7 ord]$ on ,tuesday1 & :i* are well receiv$4 ,! si/]1 deput$ to see me at ! ,si/]s ( ,*>ity1 alone1 0 cold4 ,%e 0 ! same z six ye>s ago1 :5 %e 0 v graci\s4 ,i came home to d9e at #a alone2 at #b ,i w5t to see ,h5eage1 j arriv$ at 8 fa!r & "m's f ,dieppe4 ,i sat an h\r v happily ) him1 & came home at ! "t appo9t$ to g away1 b x 0 def]r$ till to-morr[4 ,s ,i w5t to ! *ief h\se ( ! ,ecoles ,*rti5nes1 ab\t #abf1 ,rue du ,faub\rg ,/4 ,m>t94 ,! ,sup]ior-,g5]al 0 v fav\rable1 & promis$ to recomm5d ,engl& to 8 community ( #cjj1 & to ! #djj h\ses ( 8 ord]4 ,i !n took omnibus to ! ,rue de ,bac1 & _h an int]e/+ conv]sation ) ,abb ,dubois1 n[ eighty ye>s old4 ,ev] s9ce #ahch1 he prays = ,engl& e day 9 ! mass4 ,he is 9 retreat4 ,he receives a p5sion ( #ajj a ye> f ,engl&4 ,i w5t aga9 & _h tea ) him1 & s f9i%$ ! day happily4 ,friday1 ,oct4 #d4--,mass at ,/4 ,ro*4 ,we />t$ = ,b\logne at #i4 ,we /opp$ on ! way to see ! ,*ur* ( ,/4 ,v9c5t de ,paul1 build+ 9 mo/ spl5did /yle1 9 =m ( a basilica inside1 b ) a portico )\t4 ,!n ,i /opp$ at ,/4 ,d5is1 & walk$ r\nd x aga92 saw 9 addition ! w9t] *oir mo/ ri*ly adorn$4 ,mem4--,! twelve ,apo/les hold+ ! consecration crosses r\nd ! walls4 ,we w5t on to d9e at ,beauvais4 ,we w5t1 :5 #cch x 0 gr[+ d>k1 to take a look at ! ca!dral4 ,! *oir alone complete--! f9e/ 9 ! _w4 ,we said t ! ,fr5*1 ) _! pres5t zeal & prosp]ity1 w\ld f9i% ?is ca!dral if ! peace la/s t5 m ye>s4 ,i left !m 9 ! *ur*1 & w5t to see ! ,bi%op4 ,he 0 at d9n]1 b came out & introduc$ me to ! p>ty1 namely1 ! directors ( ! ,sem9>y 7among !m my acqua9tance1 ,m4 ,b>eau71 & "s ,jesuits4 ,he 0 mo/ k9d & fav\rable1 & promis$ be=e !m all t he w\ld say mass = ,engl& once a week = a ye>4 ,! o!rs all sympa?is$4 ,aft] ?is beautiful incid5t1 ,i came home1 & we d9$ at ! cu de ,france4 ,we aft]w>ds drove on to ,gr&villi]s2 arriv$ at #aa4 ,! ,k+ ( ! ,fr5* d9$ !re ye/]day2 ! l&lady 0 9 raptures at x2 !re 0 ! ,que51 & 9 all tw5ty-six1 at table4 ,saturday1 ,oct4 #e4--;,z !y fail$ to awake me1 ,i miss$ say+ mass4 ,we set (f at #f1 & w5t1 almo/ )\t a /op1 d9+ 9 ! c>riage 7#ace kilometres1 ab\t #he miles71 to ,b\logne1 :]e we /opp$ at ! ,htel des ,ba9s4 ,i w5t directly to see ! ,gr& ,doy51 :o 0 v k9d4 ,return+1 ,i f\nd ,mr4 ,digby ) !m4 ,l\is-,philippe's bir?day--#ga ye>s old4 ,sunday1 ,octob] #f4--;,i said mass at #h2 got back to breakfa/1 & !n we w5t toge!r to ! high mass1 sung by ,dr4 ,wal%1 ,bi%op ( ,halifax4 ,he _h no mitre4 ,aft] ?is1 ,mrs4 ,cann+ met me 9 ! sacri/y1 & we w5t to h] h\se1 ,no4 #e1 ,rue de ,doy54 ,at #b we walk$ to ! ,haute ,ville1 :]e we visit$ ! ,visitation ,nuns 9 _! gr& new h\se1 tw5ty-sev5 9 numb]1 & ! ,ursul9es1 fifty-two 9 numb]2 !n to ,m4 ,haffre+ue4 ,at #f ,i w5t to d9e ) ! ,digbys2 saw ,mrs4 ,digby = ! fir/ "t4 ,! ,phillippses 7 !re1 & f\r or five m4 ,i walk$ back ) ! ,doy5 9 heavy ra9 at #aj1 & ent]$ my lodg+s ) ,l',abb ,daniel1 #gc1 ,gr&e ,rue4 ,monday1 ,octob] #g4--;,i w5t ) ,mrs4 ,cann+ to ! ,visitation ,conv5t1 & said ! community mass at #i4 ,aft] x we breakfa/$ 9 ! p>l\r at #aa4 ,m4 ,haffre+ue came 9 ) ! ,phillippses1 :o _h breakfa/$ #cci ) him1 & ! ,sup]ioress1 an ,engli% lady ( ! "n ( ,mull]1 & o!r nuns1 %[$ u r\nd ! h\se1 :i* is mo/ /ately & beautiful1 ?\gh x w\ld h be5 wond]fully bett] _h ! money be5 sp5t on ,go?ic "w4 ,mrs4 ,cann+ & ,i left at #ab1 & call$ on ,mr4 ,err+ton4 ,we came d[n to d9e at #b4 ,! ,doy5 & ,m4 ,daniel came4 ,! ,bi%op also came to lun*eon at #h4 ,i w5t up to ! ,haute ,ville1 & fir/ call$ on ,m4 ,gillies1 a ,scot* g5tleman1 conv]t$ la/ ye>2 !n w5t to ,digby's = ! ev5+4 ,besides ,phillippses1 c41 ,i saw ,ni*olas ,ball4 ,came back at #aj4 ,tuesday1 ,octob] #h4--,said mass at #g2 !n w5t to breakfa/ ) ,mrs4 ,cann+4 ,ab\t #aa we set (f = ! ,haute ,ville1 & w5t once m to ! ,visitation ,conv5t1 :]e we 7 all[$ to see ! :ole community ?r\gh _! grate = ?ree qu>t]s ( an h\r1 t ,i might d my be/ to recomm5d ,engl&1 :i* ,i tri$ to d4 ,!n ,i visit$ ,m4 ,gillies1 & got d[n to d9n] at #b4 ,m4 ,le ,co9te1 ,m4 ,le ,roy1 & ,m4 ,daniel1 d9$ ) u4 ,aft] d9n] we w5t out & visit$1 fir/1 ! ,soeurs ,grises1 an au/]e conv5t ( poor nuns1 :o tea* s*ool4 ,!y h #ijj girls "u c>e4 ,! ,sup]ioress promis$ = all2 if %e fulfils x1 x is a f9e ga94 ,!n to ! ,ecoles ,*rti5nes4 ,!y are sev5te5 bro!rs1 tea*+ #a1ajj boys 9 diff]5t s*ools4 ,!y 7 v enc\rag+2 promis$ = !mselves & ! boys4 ,aft] an h\r's (fice & tea1 ,i w5t to ! ,haute ,ville to see ,phillipps & 8 p>ty at ,digby's = ! la/ "t1 z !y g to-morr[4 ,met ,mr4 ,w4 ,jones & wife1 & o!rs4 ,!n at #i ,i w5t to visit ,judge ,ball at ! ,htel de ,londres4 ,! ,bi%op & o!rs 7 !re4 ,! family 0 ,mr4 ,ball1 ,ni*olas1 & ,alex&]1 & a daught]4 ,w$nesday1 ,octob] #i4--;,i said mass at ! ,ursul9es at #g1 fir/ address+ !m on ,engl& = a qu>t] ( an h\r4 ,!n breakfa/$1 dur+ :i* six ,engli% nuns 7 9 att5dance1 & ,miss ,swift4 ,!n my c\s9 & ,i walk$ to ! ,annonciades1 :5 we c\ld n see ! ,sup]ioress2 !n to ! ,dames de ,notre-,dame du bon ,sec\rs 7g>des malades1 sev5te5 nuns74 ,!n 9 ! ,basse ,ville #cdj to ! ,hospitali]es 7?irte5 nuns72 ^! promis$ well4 ,!n ,i w5t home to (fice till d9n] at #b4 ,mrs4 ,cann+ & ,m4 ,talli]1 ,cur de ,nemf*atel1 :o takes c>e ( !m1 came ov] to meet me4 ,at #d ,m4 ,?illay came4 ,^! two promis$ to d all !y c\ld4 ,at #e ,mrs4 ,c4 & ,i walk$ to ! /eamboat (fice1 po/-(fice1 c4 ,came back to (fice & tea4 ,!n ,i w5t up to *ange my qu>t]s1 & pass "s days at ! college ) ,m4 ,haffre+ue4 ,i fir/ call$ & saw ,mrs4 ,gillies4 ,i sat "s "t ) ,m4 ,haffre+ue1 & to b$ at #aj4 ,?ursday1 ,octob] #aj4--,said mass at to #h4 ,at #aj ,dr4 ,wal% came up & sung mass de ,spiritu ,sancto1 = ! op5+ ( /udies4 ,! boys came back ye/]day4 ,i assi/$ him z ,assi/ant ,deacon4 ,at #a we d9$4 ,! ,bi%op1 ,m4 ,o',reilly1 & a ,m4 ,c>dham1 a ,london conv]t1 7 all ! /rang]s4 ,! re/ 7 ! pr(essors ( ! h\se4 ,aft] d9n] we _h toa/s1 *e]s1 & spee*es1 on ,engl&1 ,mr4 ,o',reilly lead+ x4 ,at #aj1 ,i w5t & saw ,abbate ,melia at ,mrs4 ,err+ton's4 ,he is go+ to replace ,baldacconi 9 ,london4 ,!n to ,mrs4 ,cann+'s to tea4 ,return$ = night pray]s at #g4 ,supp] comes aft]4 ,i talk$ to ,m4 ,haffre+ue ab\t ar*itecture4 ,friday1 ,octob] #aa4--;,i said mass at #g 9 ! *apel ( ,notre-,dame de ,b\logne2 breakfa/$ ) ,m4 ,haffre+ue4 ,at #aj ,i call$ on ,digby1 !n ,mrs4 ,cann+1 & ,mrs4 ,gillies4 ,i d9$ 9 ! ,infirm>y1 to eat meat ) ,m4 ,grettan1 ! ,engli% tea*]1 & little ,rosamel1 gr&son ( a great admiral4 ,m4 ,haffre+ue & ,i took a walk1 & w5t ?r\gh ! crypt ( ! ca!dral4 ,night pray]s & supp] 9 ! refectory at #g4 ,aft] x1 ,m4 ,haffre+ue & ,i w5t to call on ,mrs4 ,mull] & ,digby4 ,saturday1 ,octob] #ab4--,said mass 9 ! ,*apelle de ,notre-,dame4 ,miss ,mull] breakfa/$ ) u4 ,%e is ! great support ( ,m4 ,haffre+ue's great "w ( build+ ! ca!dral1 hav+ begg$ = x = ye>s pa/4 ,i ask$ h] to h pray]s made = ,engl&1 z ,m4 ,haffre+ue ann\nces ! ca!dral to be und]tak5 ma9ly = t ent]prise4 ,%e promis$ to int]e/ ! poor4 ,i ?\ght ( my s]mon1 & did o!r ?+s till ne> #ab4 ,:5 ,i #cda w5t out1 call$ on ,mr4 ,/ew>t1 a ,scot* pa/rycook1 lately conv]t$ & receiv$ by ,sisk4 ,at #a1 ,i d9$ 7gras7 ) ,mrs4 ,cann+4 ,aft]1 call$ on ,lady ,burke & h] two daught]s1 ne> ! ,porte4 ,came back aft]2 walk$ an h\r 9 ! ,gr&e ,salle ) ,haffre+ue1 talk+ ov] projects = ,engl& & ,france4 ,sunday1 ,octob] #ac4--;,got up aft] #g1 & sung high mass 9 ! *apel at #i4 ,aft] x ,i w5t to ,mrs4 ,cann+'s till d9n] "t1 :5 ,i return$ & d9$ 9 ! refectory4 ,! aft]noon 0 mo/ly prep>+ my s]mon1 :i* ,i prea*$ on ! conv]sion ( ,engl& at ! salut at #g4 ,! boys clapp$ _! h&s to my surprise :5 ,i ent]$ ! refectory to supp]2 9 tok5 ( acceptance1 ,i hope4 ,i got on bett] ?an ,i c\ld h ?\ght1 & 0 n a bit tir$4 ,aft] supp] ,i w5t ) ,m4 ,haffre+ue & ,m4 ,le ,roy2 a f>ewell visit to ,digby4 ,x bl[s h>d1 & ,i fe> x w be a bad passage to-morr[1 or none at all4 ,monday1 ,octob] #ad4--,! ,abbate ,melia1 ,dr4 ,baldacconi's int5d$ successor1 came to s+ songs1 & breakfa/ at ! college1 & w5t d[n ) me to ! port4 ,mr4 ,bod5ham came ) u1 too4 ,we wait$ f #i till #aj4bj be=e !y set (f4 ,!y seem$ to fe> ! w9d4 ,:5 we got out x 0 a mo/ /ormy passage to ,folke/one1 ( ?ree h\rs4 ,i /ood up all ! way1 hold+ on1 talk+ ) ,m4 ,crawley1 ( ! ,hotel1 ,albem>le ,/reet1 except we 7 ne>ly sick4 ,we swung ?r\gh ! n>r[ walk ( ,folke/one ,h>b\r1 & 7 at once smoo?1 & soon on ,engl&'s soil4 ,x 0 a long "w pass+ ! ,cu/om ,h\se1 b we got (f by a tra9 at #c4di4 ,i set ,mr4 ,melia d[n at ,pagliano's1 :]e we f\nd ,dr4 ,wal% 7( ,halifax71 & _h tea4 ,sisk & ,mgr4 ,eyre came 9 by good =tune1 & ,i w5t ) !m home to _! qu>t]s at ! ,*elsea *apel-h\se4 ,tuesday1 ,octob] #ae4--,said mass at #h4 ,!n w5t to try ,dr4 ,*amb]s1 :o is out ( t[n4 ,!n to ,sp5ce ,h\se1 & saw ,appley>d4 ,by 8 advice1 ,i det]m9$ to g to ,w9dsor to-day1 ! ,que5 be+ j n[ away4 ,i call$ on ,fa!r ,li?goe1 & att5d$ a meet+ ( ladies at ,sisk's1 !n (f by ! ,great ,we/]n ,railway to ,sl\gh1 #cdb & s to ,w9dsor4 ,i saw ,c>ol9e at ,lady ,grant's1 :]e %e lodges1 close to ! ,ca/le1 :]e ,i d9$ at #h1 fir/ hav+ se5 ,s>ah at ! ,ca/le1 & ! ,pr9ce ( ,wales1 ) :om %e 0 play+4 ,he is a weakly-look+ *ild ( f\r1 b noble & clev] look+4 ,he behav$ prettily to u all 9 go+ (f to b$4 ,w$nesday1 ,octob] #af4--;,aft] sleep+ at ! ,ca/le ,inn1 ,i walk$ to ! ,ca?olic *apel at ,*rom1 att5d$ la/ ,sunday by ,l\is-,philippe1 :o *>m$ !m all4 ,i said mass1 & !n ,mr4 ,wilson took me 9 a gig a mile on to call on ,mr4 ,riley1 at ,=e/ ,hill4 ,he 0 out4 ,i !nce call$ to ,w9dsor1 & 0 ) ,s>ah f #ab to #a1 :ile ! *ildr5 7 asleep4 ,!n w5t d[n to ,eton1 call$ on ,mr4 ,col]idge1 !n walk$ ab\t ! well-kn[n places1 ! *apel1 ! cloi/]s1 :]e ,i left a c>d on ,wild]1 n[ a fell[4 ,i w5t & mus$ ov] ! place :i* once 0 ,godley's1 b all is levell$4 ,i /ood by ! oak-tree !re1 saw ! boys assembl+ = #c o'clock s*ool1 & talk$ to "s4 ,i br\ght back _m a sc5e ?irty ye>s & m ago4 ,at #c1 />t$ back & d9$ ) ,sisk4 ,aft] d9n] we w5t to see ,mrs4 ,bag%awe & ,mrs4 ,jau* back 9 an omnibus4 ,?ursday1 ,octob] #ag4--,mass at #h4 ,w5t to see ,dr4 ,watson1 :om ,i f\nd to be my =m] fri5d1 fell[ ( ,/4 ,john's4 ,x 0 a good acc\nt ( me1 ?ank ,god4 ,!n to ,mr4 ,n]9cx1 at ,som]s ,t[n4 ,!n to ,mr4 ,morel1 at ,hamp/ead1 & ,mrs4 ,sankey1 ne> him2 !n call$ at ! ,s>d9ian ,*apel1 & home to d9e1 & sit ! ev5+ ) ,sisk4 ,friday1 ,octob] #ah4 7,?is j\rnal breaks (f "h1 & is n resum$47 #cdc ,,*apt] ,,xiv4 ,close ,( ,8 ,c>e] ,9 ,oscott2 ,& ,8 ,religi\s ,vocation4 ,dur+ ! ye> #ahde 8 att5tion 0 greatly occupi$ ) ! conv]ts t 7 com+ daily into ! ,*ur* ?r\gh ! ,ox=d movem5t4 ,z ,fa!r ,sp5c] 0 n a mov] 9 x1 & z its hi/ory has be5 writt5 ov] & ov] by diff]5t memb]s ( x1 x w\ld be sup]flu\s to give any?+ l a sket* ( x 9 su* a "w z ?is4 ,fa!r ,sp5c] seem$ to h great int]e/ 9 ,dr4 ,newman1 z also ,dr4 ,w>d1 ,canon ,oakeley1 & ,fa!r ,fab]4 ,_m ( !m g to ,oscott1 "s to be receiv$1 & "s to make _! /udies = ! ,*ur*2 & 9 ! beg9n+ ( ! ye> #ahdf he writes t he _h twelve :o 7 ,anglican cl]gym5 assi/+ at 8 mass "o day 9 ,oscott1 & t !re 7 ?ree m :o might h be51 b 7 unable to come4 ,he takes advantage ( ! ,fea/ ( ,/4 ,pius ,v4 to prea* 8 fam\s s]mon on ,ezekiel's vision ( ! dry bones4 ,9 a few days he assi/s at ! ord9ation ( ! pres5t ,bi%op ( ,nor?ampton1 ! ,"r ,rev4 ,dr4 ,amh]/4 ,a numb] ( conv]ts receiv$ ord]s at ! same "t1 & ,fa!r ,sp5c] _h ! pleasure ( assi/+ at ! c]emony4 ,he resumes 8 ,j\rnal 9 ,may1 #ahdf1 & we f9d ^! two entries 9 x3 ,tuesday1 ,june #i4--,we _h news to-day ( ! dea? ( ,pope ,gregory ,,xvi4 on ! #a/ ( ,june1 aft] fifte5 ye>s & f\r mon?s' pontificate4 ,god grant a holy successor1 full ( =titude & love1 especially = ,engl&4 ,june #bb4 ,news ( ,c>d9al ,f]etti be+ ,pope 7,pius ,,ix474 ,! brave ,bi%op ( ,imola1 :o /opp$ ! progress ( ! insurg5ts 9 #ahca4 ,i am p]fectly satisfi$4 #cdd ,he w5t into retreat at ,hodd] "u ! direction ( ,fa!r ,cl>ke1 ,s4,j41 & ! result ( t retreat 0 t he became a ,passioni/4 ,we %all give a lett] he wrote to ,mr4 ,phillipps at ! "t1 9 :i* he gives a full acc\nt ( h[ ?is 0 br\ght ab\t4 ,/4 ,b5$ict's ,priory1 ,fea/ ( ,/4 ,john ,cantius1 ,oct4 #bb1 #ahdf4 ,my ,de> ,ambrose1--,ye/]day1 = ! fir/ "t ?is long "t1 ,i he>d :]e y 71 & t y 7 )9 rea* aga9 ( a ,que5's head4 ,?is 0 f ,mrs4 ,h5ry ,:itgrave1 next to :om ,i sat at d9n] ye/]day1 at ! ,clif=d ,arms1 ,great ,heywood1 aft] ! op5+ high mass ( ! new *apel !re1 :i* %e & h] husb& came f ,rugeley to att5d4 ,i det]m9$ n to lose ano!r day 9 writ+ to y1 le/ y %\ld he> f o!rs1 :i* ,i %\ld n be pleas$ )1 ! news ,i h to give ab\t myself4 ,p]haps y h already he>d ( x2 b x is n my fault t y h n _h ! news f me4 ,! news 9 "q is t ,i am go+ to become a ,passioni/4 ,y h frequ5tly told me y\r p]suasion1 t :at w\ld be = my happ9ess w\ld be to jo9 a religi\s in/itute1 & !re=e ,i am confid5t y w rejoice ) me at my prejudices be+ ov]come1 my fond s*emes ( o!r plans ( my own set aside1 & ?is good /ep at l5g? det]m9$ on2 ?\gh ,i c imag9e t y w p]haps regret t ! body :i* ,i jo9 is n t ) :i* y are mo/ connect$ y\rself1 ! ,in/itute ( ,*>ity4 ,surpris$ ,i d>e say y w n be mu*4 ,_m o!rs h receiv$ ! decl>ation ( ?is int5tion )\t any surprise1 & only told me t !y _h be5 us$ to wond] h[ ,i did n long ago take su* a /ep4 ,y w only be surpris$ & wond] h[ ,i h come to ?is m9d1 aft] su* decid$ purposes1 z ,i h always express$ ! contr>y way4 ,i c only say1 ,glory be to ,god1 to our ,bless$ ,lady1 & ,/4 ,ignatius4 ,x 0 entirely ow+ to ! spiritual ex]cises ( ,/4 ,ignatius1 :i* ,i h gone ?r\gh twice1 & only twice1 9 private & alone 9 ! effective way4 ,once 0 at ,l\va91 :]e #cde y p>t$ f me two ye>s ago to g to ,knigsw9t]1 & ! o!r "t 0 ?is summ]1 :5 ,i w5t = a retreat at ,hodd] ,place1 "u y\r fri5d ,fa!r ,?omas ,cl>ke1 :o is ,ma/] ( ,novices !re4 ,= two or ?ree days 9 ! c\rse ( ! =m] ( ^! retreats1 ,i 0 br\ght 7= ! fir/ "t7 to d\bt :e!r ,i ought n to give up my own ideas1 & take to ! regul> e/abli%$ c\rse ( ent]+ religion2 & ! old ,jesuit :o direct$ me 9 t retreat1 :5 ,i express$ ^! new ideas1 seem$ at fir/ to ?9k !y w\ld lead to ?is conclusion4 ,b ,i suppose ,i 0 n ripe = x1 or ,god's "t 0 n come4 ,x end$ by 8 tell+ me to put aside all ^? ?\ghts1 & g on z ,i 04 ,s ,i did1 & 0 )\t any idea ( ! k9d till ! middle ( ?is second retreat1 :i* ,i ent]$ ) no view b to get on bett] :]e ,i 0 = ano!r ye>4 ,! same m$itations rais$ up aga9 ! same battle )9 me z at ,l\va91 & ,i saw no way b to g into ! matt]1 & make my election accord+ to ! rules giv5 by ,/4 ,ignatius2 :i*1 if !y 7 appli$ m (t5 to que/ions ( importance :i* p h to settle1 ah6 we %\ld h _m resolutions come to diff]5t to :at are come to 9 ! _w4 ,i soon came to det]m9e = a *ange ( /ate2 !n came ! "q :i* body to *oose1 & = a :ole day ne>ly ?is 0 work+ my ?\ghts up & d[n4 ,i c\ld see no prospect ( decid+ betwe5 ! two :i* came be=e me at fir/ & = :i* ,i f\nd my feel+s & my judgm5t alt]nately incl9+ me--^! 7 ! ,jesuits & ! ,in/itute ( ,*>ity4 ,i saw no prospect ( mak+ up my m9d t day1 ?\gh ,fa!r ,cl>ke told me n[ 0 ! "t = su* a *oice1 & n :5 ,i _h gone out aga9 into ! _w1 & ,i knew t ,god :om ,i _h s\ght 9 solitude w\ld give me light4 ,at la/1 :5 ,i _h j f9i%$ my la/ m$itation ( t portion ( ! retreat1 & /ill c\ld n settle1 ,i ?\ght ,i mu/ h rec\rse aft] ! retreat 0 ov] to ,fa!r ,dom9ic1 z a neutral judge1 to help me to *oose betwe5 ! o!r two2 :51 9 a m9ute1 z 9 ! fable ( ! two m5 :o f\nd ! oy/] & call$ 9 ! ?ird to judge betwe5 #cdf !m1 ,i saw t ,fa!r ,dom9ic himself 0 to h me1 su* z ,i 01 & all my d\bts vani%$4 ,fa!r ,cl>ke came soon aft]w>ds to pay me 8 daily visit1 & confirm$ my *oice ) a mann] & tone z unhesitat+ z ! *oice itself _h be51 & w\ld n let me aft]w>ds give way to ! fe> ( any difficulties1 say+1 once = all1 :5 ,i 0 que/ion+ h[ ,i c\ld get ov] "s ( !m1 ',well1 if y d n get ov] !m1 ,god has be5 deceiv+ y4' ,h[ ,i extol n[ & praise ! practice ( spiritual ex]cises1 & ,/4 ,ignatius1 ! great f\nd] ( ! sy/em ( !m1 & ! ,jesuits 9 _! conduct ( !m1 z exemplifi$ 9 ,fa!r ,cl>ke1 ^: way ) me s completely gave ! lie to :at p are dispos$ to ?9k1 t ! ,jesuits mu/ br+ ev]y?+ & ev]ybody to !mselves :5 !y get !m into _! h&s4 ,i int5d to express my s5se ( obligation to !m & ,/4 ,ignatius1 by tak+ 8 "n z my future designation1 aft] ,i am admitt$ to ! religi\s habit4 ,s ,i hope 9 "t ,i may come to be kn[n no m by my own "n1 b by t ( ,ignatius ( ,/4 ,paul4 ,& z ,god gives me ?is nom5 novum may he add ! manna absconditum1 & make me 9 _s z diff]5t f :at ,i h be5 z 9 "n4 ,x is a great satisfaction t all ?is 0 settl$ )\t ,fa!r ,dom9ic or any ,passioni/ hav+ a h9t ( x1 till ,i w5t up to ,london ?ree days aft] ! retreat1 to tell him ( ! det]m9ation ,i _h made4 ,! next day ,i came back to ,oscott1 & told ,dr4 ,wiseman4 ,he 01 ( c\rse1 surpris$ at ! news1 & at fir/ seem$ to ?9k ,i c\ld n be really 9 e>ne/1 b ev] s9ce has act$ 9 ! mo/ consid]ate & k9d mann] t[>ds me4 ,my move1 ,i am sorry to ?9k1 mu/ entail on him & de> ,bi%op ,wal% s]i\s inconv5i5ces1 n s mu* = ! loss ( my s]vices :]e !y _h plac$ me1 = ,i hope if ,i live ,i may s]ve !m bett] z ,i %all be circum/anc$ h]eaft]1 z ,i 0 do+ little at ,oscott1 b f ! )drawal ( my funds1 :i* ,i fe> may take place p]haps ev5 to _! entire am\nt1 b c]ta9ly 9 great "p4 ,n t any "p goes to ! congregation 7( ! ,passion72 ?ank ,god1 ,i am receiv$ !re 9 =m paup]is & all #cdg :i* rema9s to me w\ld be left to ! ,bi%op2 b my de> bro!r seems q det]m9$ to make my v[ ( pov]ty z mu* "o 9 e>ne/ z x c be2 & s1 bitt] z t "p ( ! trial is1 ,god bless him = x6 ,i ?9k ,i mu/ h told y h[ my income came to me4 ,my fa!r left me a c]ta9 capital q indep5d5tly1 :i* w5t long ago to build+ *ur*es1 & #cjj a ye> to be paid to me z long z ,i did n put x out ( my own p[]1 9 :i* case x 0 to be 9 ! p[] ( my bro!r1 n[ liv+1 & o!r tru/ees1 to be employ$ to my advantage4 ,my late bro!r gave me z mu* m ( 8 own free w1 & ?is bro!r has hi!rto cont9u$ ?is1 b n[ says t he _c give x to support ,ca?olicity2 & z he w n use x himself1 x is to g = my lifetime to religi\s & *>itable purposes su* z he ?9ks fit4 ,s half ( my money is clean gone1 & ! o!r half dep5ds ^u :at int]pretation ! law puts on ! t]ms ( my fa!r's w4 ,bi%op ,wiseman takes ?is s beautifully & dis9t]e/$ly1 t ,i tru/ ! loss he ?us be>s = ,god's sake w be m ?an amply comp5sat$ to him4 ,my si/]1 ,lady ,lyttelton1 takes my *ange beautifully4 ,! pecuni>y losses 8 ecclesia/ical sup]iors w\ld su/a9 prev5t$ !m giv+ him ! opposition !y o!rwise w\ld4 ,x w\ld n look well to try to keep him out ( religion1 "u ! circum/ances2 & besides1 ,c>d9al ,wiseman 0 n ! p]son to prev5t 8 prie/s becom+ religi\s1 if he 7 only conv9c$ !y _h a vocation4 ,:5 ,fa!r ,sp5c] 0 on 8 way to ,london to consult ) ,fa!r ,dom9ic ab\t 8 reception1 a musket w5t (f by accid5t 9 ! c>riage he 0 91 & ! ball pass$ ?r\gh ! skylight4 ,?is gave him r a />t1 & made him ?9k a little ab\t ! %ortness ( life4 ,he appe>s to h f\nd ,fa!r ,dom9ic giv+ a retreat to ! nuns ( ! ,sacr ,coeur1 :o are n[ at ,roehampton4 ,! sa9tly ,passioni/ 0 delight$ ) ! news1 & ,fa!r ,ignatius us$ to say t he seem$ to be m delight$ /ill at ! fact t he 0 n br++ a p5ny to ! ord]4 ,on 8 return to ,oscott1 ! fir/ ?+ we he>d #cdh 0 t a ,quak] _h be5 conv]t$ by a s]mon he prea*$ 9 ,birk5head1 :i* s]mon he ?\ght himself 0 ab\t ! wor/ he ev] deliv]$4 ,he meets a little opposition1 h[ev]2 !y wi% him to /ay until 8 ?\ghts get settl$ into _! orig9al /ate aft] ! retreat4 ,he fe>s ?is to be a /ratagem ( ! enemy1 &1 le/ x might make him lose 8 vocation1 he makes a v[ ( ent]+ religion at or be=e ,*ri/mas4 ,:5 ?is became kn[n1 nobody c\ld 9 consci5ce oppose him1 = only ! ,pope c\ld disp5se him f ent]+ n[4 ,at l5g? ev]y?+ is settl$4 ,8 #cjj income rema9s to ! ,bi%op & 8 bro!r promises to provide = 8 p5sion]s4 ,all ?+s be+ ?us arrang$1 he visits all ! poor p ab\t ,oscott & ,we/ ,bromwi*1 to give !m a p>t+ advice & bless+1 spiritual & temporal4 ,he writes to all 8 fri5ds1 packs up 8 books & o!r small] movables1 receives two conv]ts--,la+ & ,walk]--gets ,dr4 ,wiseman's bless+1 & has 8 c>riage to ! tra91 takes ?ird class to ,/af=d1 & on 8 bir?day1 #ba/ ,decemb]1 #ahdf1 at #h o'clock 9 ! ev5+1 arrives at ,a/on ,hall1 to ent] ! ,passioni/s' noviciate4 #cdi ,,book ,,iv4 ,f4 ,ignatius1 a ,passioni/4 #cej ,,book ,,iv4 ,f4 ,ignatius1 a ,passioni/4 ,,*apt] ,i4 ,! ,noviciate4 ,religi\s ord]s 9 ! ,*ur* may be comp>$ to a va/ army1 compos$ ( diff]5t regim5ts1 ) diff]5t uni=ms1 diff]5t tactics1 & diff]5t po/s 9 ! k+dom ( ,god1 (f5sive & def5sive1 aga9/ ! k+dom ( ,satan4 ,! ,pope is ! head ( all1 & v>i\s g5]als be> rule1 9 8 "n1 ov] ! =ces :o h *os5 !m = _! lead]s4 ,"s religi\s ord]s fill *airs 9 univ]sities2 o!rs are *>g$ ) ! in/ruction ( y\?4 ,"s wat* by ! sickb$2 o!rs ransom captive slaves1 or br+ consolation to ! mis]able 9 prisons & asylums4 ,"s1 aga91 "w at ! root+ out ( s9 & disord]s at home1 :il/ o!rs c>ry ! light ( ! ,gospel to ! hea!n4 ,"s pit* _! t5ts 9 des]ts or m\nta9 fa/nesses1 :il/ a m num]\s body take up _! abode 9 ! ab&on$ purlieus ( cr[d$ cities4 ,e religi\s ord] has "s "o *>act]i/ic _s1 a m>k by :i* x may be di/+ui%$ f ! o!rs4 ,?is may be call$ ! g5ius ( ! ord]4 ,x is mo/ly ! _s t animat$ ! f\nd] :5 he ga!r$ 8 fir/ companions ar\nd him1 & drew up ! code by :i* #ceb _! lives 7 to be regulat$4 ,?is _s may be suit$ to "o age & n to ano!r2 x may be local or univ]sal2 on its scope dep5ds ! exi/5ce & spread ( ! ord]2 its decay or unsuitabl5ess w port5d ! ext9ction ( ! body x animat$4 ,?is _s may take 9 ! :ole battle-field ( religion1 & !n we see memb]s ( t ord] 9 e po/ 9 :i* an advantage may be ga9$1 or a bl[ dealt ^u ! enemy4 ,x may take 9 "s p>ts & leave ! re/ to ! diff]5t battalions t are already 9 *>ge1 prep>$ to r5d] assi/ance 9 any dep>tm5t z soon z its s]vices may be ne$$4 ,! religi\s ord] kn[n z ! ,congregation ( ! ,passion has a peculi> _s & a special "w4 ,x 0 f\nd$ by ,bless$ ,paul ( ! ,cross 9 ! middle ( ! la/ c5tury1 & approv$ by ,b5$ict ,,xiv41 ,clem5t ,,xiv41 & ,pius ,,vi4 ,its object is to "w 9 :atev] portion ( ! ,*ur* x may h a h\se e/abli%$1 = ! uproot+ ( s91 & ! plant+ ( virtue 9 ! he>ts ( ! fai?ful4 ,! means x br+s to ?is1 9 addition to ! usual ones ( prea*+ & he>+ confessions1 is a spread+ among ,*ri/ians a devotion to & a grateful1 lively remembrance ( ! ,passion ( our ,"l4 ,! ,passioni/s c>ry out ?is "w by missions & retreats1 z well z p>i% "w 9 _! own h\ses4 ,if circum/ances ne$ x1 !y take *>ge ( a p>i%2 if n1 !y d ! "w ( mission]s 9 _! own *ur*es4 ,!y tea* none except _! own y\ng] memb]s1 & !y g on =eign missions :5 s5t by ,8 ,hol9ess or ! ,propag&a4 ,to keep ! memb]s ( an ord] always ready = _! out-door "w1 !re are c]ta9 rules = _! int]ior life :i* may be lik5$ to ! drill or p>ade ( soldi]s 9 _! qu>t]s4 ,?is discipl9e v>ies accord+ to ! _s ( ea* ord]4 ,! idea ( a ,passioni/'s "w w lead u to expect :at 8 discipl9e mu/ be4 ,! _s ( a ,passioni/ is a _s ( atonem5t2 he says1 ) ,/4 ,paul3 ,i rejoice 9 my suff]+s1 & fill up ^? ?+s t are want+ ( ! suff]+s ( ,*ri/1 9 my fle% = ,8 body1 :i* is ! #cec ,*ur*4 ,coloss4 i4 #bd4 ,= ?is cause1 ! int]ior life ( a ,passioni/ is r au/]e4 ,he has to rise %ortly aft] midnight1 f a b$ ( /raw1 to *aunt mat9s & lauds1 & sp5d "s "t 9 m$itation4 ,he has two h\rs m m$itation dur+ ! day1 & altoge!r ab\t five h\rs ( *oir-"w 9 ! tw5ty-f\r4 ,he fa/s & ab/a9s f fle% meat ?ree days 9 ! week1 all ! ye> r\nd1 besides ,l5t & ,adv5t4 ,he is clad 9 a co>se black g>m5t2 we>s s&als in/ead ( %oes2 & practises o!r acts ( p5ance ( m9or importance4 ,?is seems r a h>d life2 b an ord9>y con/itution does n f9d ! lea/ difficulty 9 comply+ ) ! lett] ( ! rule4 ,x is )al a happy1 *e]ful life2 = x seems ! nature ( p5ance to make ! he>t ( ! p5it5t light & gladsome1 rejoic+ 9 suff]+4 ,two facts are prov$ by exp]i5ce4 ,fir/1 t sc>cely "o ev] left ! ord] on acc\nt ( ! corporal au/]ities1 ?\gh !y are us$ z a plea to ju/ify ! /ep by ^? :o lose ! religi\s _s4 ,secondly1 longevity is m common among/ u ?an any o!r ord]1 except p]haps ! ,ci/]cians1 ^: rule is f> m sev]e ?an ours4 ,a ,passioni/ is b\nd by ?is rule only )9 ! retreat1 z h\ses ( ! ord] are call$2 outside1 he foll[s ! ,gospel ord9ance ( p>tak+ ( :at is set be=e him1 & suit+ himself to ! circum/ances 9 :i* he is plac$4 ,! ,sup]ior1 moreov]1 has a discretion>y p[] ( grant+ exemptions1 9 fav\r ( ^? :o require "s indulg5ce 9 consequ5ce ( illness or extra lab\r4 ,x w be se51 f ?is sket*1 t ,passioni/s h to lay up a /ock ( virtue1 by a mona/ic life at home1 9 ord] t _! m9i/rations = _! neighb\r may be att5d$ ) m abundant fruit4 ,!y unite ! active & contemplative _s1 t bo? may help to ! sav+ ( _! own s\ls by qualify+ !m bett] = aid+ 9 ! salvation ( o!rs4 ,?is 0 ! k9d ( life ,fa!r ,sp5c] began to lead on 8 =ty-sev5? bir?day4 ,= a man ( 8 age1 ) habits =m$1 ) heal? subject to occasional %ocks1 x 0 c]ta9ly a =midable und]tak+4 ,!re 0 little ( #ced human glory to eclipse ^? difficulties 9 ! community he ent]$4 ,f\r =eign fa!rs1 liv+ 9 a wret*$ h\se1 z yet unable to speak passable ,engli%1 )\t a *ur*1 )\t fri5ds1 )\t funds1 )\t influ5ce1 =m$ ! pr9cipal portion ( ! community ( ,a/on ,hall4 ,^! 71 ,fa!r ,dom9ic1 ,fa!r ,gaud5tius1 ,fa!r ,con/ant9e1 & ,fa!r ,v9c5t4 ,none ( ^! f\r fa!rs are 9 ! prov9ce at pres5t4 ,fa!rs ,dom9ic & ,con/ant9e are dead4 ,fa!r ,gaud5tius is a memb] ( ! ,am]ican prov9ce2 & ,fa!r ,v9c5t1 aft] _m ye>s ( zeal\s mission>y "w 9 ^! c\ntries1 0 call$ to ,rome1 :]e he n[ holds ! (fice ( ,procurator-,g5]al4 ,!y _h "o /ud5t1 two lay bro!rs1 & ,fa!r ,sp5c] 0 to be ! second ( two novices4 ,! ,passioni/s _h already be5 f\r ye>s 9 ,engl&1 &1 ?r\gh trials & difficulties1 f pov]ty & misund]/&+s1 _h work$ _! way up to ! prec>i\s position 9 :i* he f\nd !m4 ,he 01 !re=e1 a great acquisition to ! /ruggl+ community4 ,true1 he br\ght no e>?ly ri*es2 b he br\ght :at 0 m valu$1 an une>?ly _s--he br\ght humility1 docility1 & burn+ zeal4 ,! fa!rs knew him = a long "t1 & sc>cely requir$ pro(s to conv9ce !m ( 8 hav+ a religi\s vocation1 s9ce he _h practis$ ! v[s be=e !n 9 a v p]fect way1 consid]+ 8 /ate4 ,he gave cle> pro(s ( 8 _s on ! eve ( 8 com+ to ,a/on4 ,he came1 z he glories 9 tell+ ,mr4 ,phillipps1 9 =m paup]is4 ,"s ( 8 fri5ds wi%$ to give him ! price ( 8 habit by way ( alms2 he w\ld n accept ( x4 ,he !n reflect$ on ! pov]ty ( ! ,passioni/s1 & ?\ght x w\ld be well if he br\ght ev5 s mu*1 :]eupon he propos$ to beg ! money4 ,! l>ge/ alms he int5d$ to receive 0 half-a-cr[n4 ,he 0 =bidd5 to d ?is by 8 director1 & obey$ at once3 ?us giv+ a pro( ( 8 _s ( pov]ty & ob$i5ce4 ,not)/&+ all ?is1 ! fa!rs 7 det]m9$ to judge = !mselves1 & try by exp]im5t if any ari/ocratic hauteur might yet lurk 9 ! corn]s ( 8 #cee disposition4 ,our rule1 moreov]1 requires t po/ulants be tri$ by humiliations be=e be+ admitt$ to ! habit2 & _m & v>i\s are ! te/s appli$1 dep5d+1 z !y d1 on ! judgm5t ( ! ma/] ( novices4 ,"o clause ( ! rule 0 especially applicable to ,fa!r ,sp5c]3 ,qui nobili ortus e/ g5]e1 accuratiore et diuturniore exp]im5to probetur2 & ! /rict ,fa!r ,con/ant9e1 :o 0 !n ! ma/]1 resolv$ t n a ^w ( x %\ld be unfulfill$4 ,a day or two aft] 8 arrival1 he 0 ord]$ to wa% d[n an old1 ru/y flight ( /airs4 ,he tuck$ up 8 sleeves & fell to1 us+ 8 bru%1 tub1 & soapsuds ) z mu* ze/ & good w z if he _h be5 j hir$ z a maid-(-all-"w4 ,( c\rse1 he 0 no great adept at ?is k9d ( employm5t1 & probably 8 want ( skill drew d[n "s %>p rebukes f 8 ov]se]4 ,"s t5d]-he>t$ religi\s nev] c\ld =get ! sight ( ?is v5]able ecclesia/ic try+ to sc\r ! crevices & crannies to ! satisfaction ( 8 new ma/]4 ,he got ?r\gh x well1 & took ! corrections s beautifully1 t 9 a few days he 0 vot$ to ! habit4 ,on ! aft]noon ( ! #e? ,janu>y1 #ahdg1 vesp]s are j conclud$1 & ! bell is rung = ano!r function4 ,p are hurry+ up to ! little *apel1 & :isp]+ to ea* o!r ab\t ! sc5e !y are go+ to witness4 ,! alt> is prep>$ z = a fea/4 ,! ?urif]s & acolytes head ! procession f ! sacri/y2 next foll[ ! religi\s2 !n ,fa!r ,dom9ic array$ 9 surplice & cope4 ,aft] him foll[s ,fa!r ,sp5c]1 9 ! co/ume ( a secul> prie/4 ,he kneels on ! alt> /ep2 he has laid aside long be=e all t ! _w c\ld give him2 he has ?r[n its greatness & its folly away z vanities to be despis$1 & n[ asks = ! p5it5tial g>b ( ! sons ( ! ,passion1 ) all its concomitant h>d%ips4 ,he _h n yet exp]i5c$ ! happ9ess x br+s3 he _h only begun to e>n x by brok5 re/1 fa/s1 & humiliations4 ,fa!r ,dom9ic blesses ! habit1 mantle1 & c9cture2 he addresses a few t\*+ words to ! po/ulant1 & prep>es to ve/ him4 ,9 ! pres5ce ( all he takes (f ! cassock1 ! habit is put on & b\nd ) a lea!rn #cef girdle1 a cross is plac$ ^u 8 %\ld]1 a cr[n ( ?orns on 8 head1 b5$ictions are invok$ ^u him accord+ to ! ritual1 ! religi\s intone ! ,ecce quam bonum1 ,our ,"l gives ,8 bless+ f ! ,mon/rance1 & ! ,hon\rable & ,rev]5d-,george ,sp5c] is greet$ z a bro!r & companion by ,fa!r ,dom9ic1 "u ! new "n ( ,fa!r ,ignatius ( ,/4 ,paul4 ,?us end$ ! function ( t day1 & ! b5isons ( ! rite 7 n pron\nc$ 9 va94 ,x is ! cu/om ) u to drop ! family "n on our reception1 to signify ! cutt+ away ( all c>nal ties1 except inasmu* z !y may help to b5efit s\ls4 ,a religi\s %\ld be dead to nature1 & 8 relation%ip h5ce=? is ) ! sa9ts4 ,?is is :y1 among _m religi\s ord]s ( m51 & ne>ly all ( wom51 "s sa9t or "s my/]y ( religion to :i* ! novice is specially devot$ is sub/itut$ in/ead ( ! family "n4 ,9 mo/ cases1 also1 ! ,*ri/ian "n is *ang$2 ?is1 foll[+ ! example ( our ,"l1 :o *ang$ ! names ( "s ( ! ,apo/les1 is useful 9 _m ways1 z well to typify newness ( life z to help 9 di/+ui%+ "o f ano!r :5 ! aid ( family names is tak5 away4 ,fa!r ,ignatius gave 8 reasons above = pref]r+ ?is "n1 & ev5ts1 bo? be=e & aft]1 make u applaud ! fitness ( ! *oice4 ,a novice's life is a v ev5tless "o2 x has little 9 x ( importance to o!rs1 ?\gh x is ( s mu* consequ5ce to himself4 ,! com+ ( a po/ulant1 ! go+ away ( a newly-made bro!r1 ! mi/akes ( a tyro at bell-r++1 *ant+1 or c]emonies1 are ( int]e/ en\gh to occupy sev]al recreations4 ,! abs5ce ( s\l-/irr+ news f )\t gives ^! trifles room to swell into importance4 ,:5 ! little incid5ts are inve/$ ) ludicr\s or peculi> circum/ances1 !y (t5 h a %eet ( ! *ronicles d$icat$ to _! hi/ory by ! mo/ witty or lea/ busy ( ! novices4 ,a po/ulant ran away ! day aft] ,fa!r ,ignatius 0 clo!d2 he he>d ! religi\s take ! discipl9e1 & no am\nt ( explanations or coax+ c\ld induce him to #ceg accu/om 8 e> to ! noise1 mu* less 8 body to ! /ripes1 ( ?is function4 ,! s5ior novice left at ! same "t2 he 0 a prie/1 & di$ on ! ,london mission ! v same ye> z ,fa!r ,ignatius4 ,9 a few days m ,fa!r ,dom9ic caught a novice dress+ 8 hair & giv+ himself airs be=e a look+-glass4 ,8 habit 0 /ripp$ (f1 & he 0 s5t to ! out] _w1 :]e1 p]haps1 ! adorn+ ( 8 good looks 0 ( m s]vice to him ?an x 0 at ,a/on ,hall4 ,x is a receiv$ tradition 9 ! religi\s life t vocations :i* are n tri$ by difficulties seldom prove sea-wor?y1 s to speak4 ,be=e or aft] ! novice ent]s1 he mu/ be oppos$ & disappo9t$ 9 "s way2 he has to pay de> = ! fav\r ( s]v+ ,god 9 ?is /ate ( life1 if he be de/9$ to act any important "p 9 ! ,*ur* z a religi\s4 ,fa!r ,ignatius _h 8 trials4 ,he f\nd x difficult to pick up all ! m9utiae ( novice discipl9e3 he suff]$ a little f homesickness1 & ^!1 jo9$ to *ill$ feet1 a h>d b$1 & meagre food1 did n all[ him to enjoy to any great ext5t ! delightful s5sation kn[n z f]vor novitiorum4 ,he got ov] all ?is1 z we see f a lett] he wrote to a fri5d 9 ,m>*3-- ,i am "h 9 a /ate 9 :i* n a %ad[ ( tr\ble seems to come1 b :at ,i cause = myself4 ,) a little humility !re is peace en\gh4 ,i suppose ,i %all h "s m tr\bles h]eaft] if ,i live4 ,i h n be5 s well = sev]al ye>s4 ,"s w\ld h ?\ght a ,l5t )\t a bit ( meat w\ld n h done = me2 b ,i h se5 n[ s9ce ,%rove ,tuesday1 &1 9 ,l5t or out ( x1 ,i nev] h be5 bett]4 ,s 9 t respect1 viz41 my heal?1 ,i suppose my trial "h is satisfactory4 ,a rude %ock 0 9 /ore = 8 heal? :i* he little anticipat$ :5 he wrote ^? l9es4 ,?is 0 ! t]rible ye> ( fam9e 9 ,irel&1 t ye> :i* w be rememb]$ = ev] by ^? :o liv$ 9 ! mid/ ( ! h>r[+ sc5es t ov]spread t unhappy c\ntry4 ,poor fami%+ creatures1 :o _h laid _! fa!rs or mo!rs1 & p]haps _! *ildr51 9 c(f9less graves1 begg$ _! way to ,engl&1 & began t tide ( #ceh emigration :i* has s9ce peopl$ ,liv]pool1 ,man*e/]1 ,birm+ham1 & ,london1 ) su* cr[ds ( ,ca?olics4 ,e %ip br\ght its c>go ( mis]y1 & ! hapless victims 7 =c$ by _! pov]ty to seek = lodg+s 9 d5s ( vice1 or employm5t :]e virtue 0 n p>am\nt4 ,!y ?us imbib$ a poison to _! morals :i* has n yet be5 completely purg$ out ( ! ?\s&s :o h _h to foll[ ! foot/eps ( _! fam9e-/rick5 pr$ecessors4 ,numb]s ( ! poor ,iri% ga!r$ ar\nd ,/one & ,a/on2 fev] broke out among/ !m1 & ! w>ds ( ! workh\se infirm>ies 7 unable to conta9 ev5 a moiety ( ! suff]]s4 ,e hovel & b>n _h _! burn+ occupants1 & ev5 *>ity itself seem$ fright5$ f giv+ assi/ance4 ,! prie/ 01 ( c\rse1 busy2 &1 =tunately = ,a/on1 m ?an "o prie/ c\ld be _h to att5d ! dy+4 ,all our fa!rs 7 at ! b$ ( dea? _m times 9 ! day4 ,fa!r ,gaud5tius 0 /ruck d[n ) fev]1 ,fa!r ,v9c5t foll[$ next4 ,! duties n[ devolv$ ^u ,fa!r ,dom9ic & ,fa!r ,ignatius4 ,! poor novice 0 pro/rat$ by ! pe/il5ce1 aft] adm9i/]+ ! la/ rites ( ! ,*ur* to _m4 ,he gets a v malignant attack1 & 9 a few days is at ! po9t ( dea?4 ,he prep>$ = 8 la/ passage ) ! mo/ beautiful dispositions4 ,he ?ank$ ,god = ! privilege ( 8 /ate1 & 0 p>ticul>ly delight$ at ! prospect ( dy+ a m>tyr to 8 *>ity4 ,he receives ! ,viaticum & ,extreme ,unction1 makes 8 pr(ession z on dea?-b$1 becomes ins5sible1 & is giv5 an h\r to live by ! doctors4 ,! religi\s comm5ce a nov5a1 9 :i* !y are jo9$ by ! p1 = 8 recov]y4 ,god pres]v$ him to 8 bre?r5 & _! flock1 = he began imm$iately to m5d4 ,we may =m an idea ( ?is poor community1 all ! active memb]s1 except ,fa!r ,dom9ic1 dy+1 or 9 feeble convalesc5ce2 _! res\rces1 p]haps1 run out2 & all ! en]gy !y _h left tax$ to its utmo/ to answ] ! calls ( duty4 ,few z !y 71 !y _h n ! lea/ idea ( sp>+ !mselves4 ,!y /ill hop$ to increase & multiply2 b1 aft] ! example #cei ( ,him :o increas$ by dy+1 & lik5$ ! progress ( ,8 ,*ur* to ! dy+ ( ! gra9 ( corn 9 ! soil ( its gr[?4 ,*>itable fri5ds came to _! assi/ance1 & among/ ! re/1 ,e>l ,sp5c] s5t a h&some sum to pay doctors' exp5ses = 8 bro!r4 ,?is 0 consid]ate1 inde$1 & z soon z ,fa!r ,ignatius c\ld manage a p51 he wrote to ?ank him = 8 *>ity4 ,numb]s 7 deeply conc]n$ = our novice1 & two or ?ree ,ca?olic nobles invit$ him to come & /ay ) !m dur+ 8 convalesc5ce4 ,fa!r ,dom9ic did n ?9k him suffici5tly ill to w>rant 8 sleep+ out ( ! h\se1 s _! k9d (f]s 7 ?ankfully decl9$4 ,?is illness 0 a d\ble bl[ to ,fa!r ,ignatius3 he _h j receiv$ ord]s f 8 ,sup]ior to prep>e = ! missions :5 x came on4 ,an end 0 put to 8 prep>ation = ! "t1 b he resum$ ! task z soon z ! doctors all[$ him4 ,dur+ 8 noviciate he _h two k9ds ( trials to endure1 besides ^? m5tion$ already4 ,fa!r ,con/ant9e 0 rem>kable = 8 meekness & *>ity2 b he put on extra sev]ity = ,fa!r ,ignatius4 ,8 companions tri$ to %[ him "s m>ks ( di/9ction1 & w\ld (f] to relieve him f works t 7 humiliat+1 or likely to be gall+ to "o ( 8 /&+4 ,! latt] trial he compla9$ (1 & he 0 tr\bl$ at ! o!r because "s ( ( ! religi\s compla9$ ( ! novice-ma/]'s sev]ity t[>ds him4 ,he _h "s m mortifications ( ! k9d he playfully told u a few *apt]s back1 z affect+ ,fa!r ,dom9ic 9 ,oscott4 ,he 0 tr\bl$ ) *ilbla9s1 & 0 oblig$1 9 consequ5ce1 to we> %oes & /ock+s = a great "p ( 8 noviciate4 ,?is he look$ ^u z a great grievance1 inasmu* z he c\ld n live l ! o!rs4 ,:5 at la/ ! *ilbla9s got well1 & he 0 all[$ to put on ! s&als1 he felt ov]joy$1 & ev5 writes a lett] to congratulate himself on 8 happ9ess4 ,he writes two or ?ree lett]s1 9 :i* he notes 8 a/oni%m5t at ! ,iri% be+ s neglig5t 9 ,engl&1 :o _h be5 s regul> at home4 ,he says1 !y all s5d #cfj = ! prie/1 & %[ great signs ( rep5tance :5 dy+2 b1 out ( a numb] he att5d$1 only "o return$ to ! ,*ur* aft] recov]y4 ,/ill1 he says1 x w\ld be long till "o ( !m w\ld answ] z ! ,engli% p5sion] is report$ to h done on 8 dea?-b$4 ,! m9i/] talk$ mu* ab\t ,heav5 & its happ9ess1 b ! pati5t coolly repli$1 ',x's all v well1 sir2 b old ,engl& & ,k+ ,george = me6' ,8 noviciate glides quietly on to its end2 & except 8 ord9>y "w ( att5d+ to a mission 9 ,/one besides 8 home duties1 no?+ occurs to break ! monotony4 ,at l5g?1 on ! #f? ( ,janu>y1 #ahdh1 ,fa!r ,ignatius & ,fa!r ,dom9ic rema9 up aft] mat9s4 ,we are told 9 ! ,j\rnal1 t ! novice made 8 confession & _h a long conf]5ce ) 8 director1 9 prep>ation = ! great ev5t ( 8 pr(ession4 ,fa!r ,dom9ic 0 go+ (f t day1 b ! conveyance disappo9t$ him1 he 0 oblig$ to wait till ! next4 ,t ev5+ ,fa!r ,ignatius is once m 9 ! mid/ ( a mov+ c]emony3 on 8 knees1 ) 8 h&s plac$ 9 ,fa!r ,dom9ic's he pron\nces 8 irrevocable consecration by ! v[s ( 8 religi\s pr(ession4,footnote #aj ,! badges are affix$ to 8 brea/1 ! sacrifice is complet$--& well & wor?ily 0 x c>ri$ out4 ,x is easi] to imag9e ?an to describe ! joy ( ! two holy fri5ds1 s long unit$ 9 ! bonds ( heav5ly *>ity1 z !y spoke t day ab\t _! fir/ acqua9tance1 & wond]$ at ! dispositions ( ,provid5ce1 :i* n[ made !m m ?an bro!rs4 ,footnote #aj3 ,! pr(ession on dea?-b$ is conditional1 s t if a novice recov]s1 aft] ?us pron\nc+ 8 v[s1 he has to g on z if !y _h n be5 made4 #cfa ,,*apt] ,,ii4 ,8 ,fir/ ,ye> ,z ,a ,passioni/4 ,%ortly aft] 8 pr(ession1 ,fa!r ,ignatius 0 s5t out on missions4 ,! fir/ mission he gave1 ) ,fa!r ,gaud5tius1 0 to 8 old p>i%ion]s ( ,we/ ,bromwi*4 ,cr[ds came to he> him2 "s to h ano!r affectionate look1 & he> once m ! well-kn[n voice ( _! old pa/or2 o!rs f curiosity to see :at he _h be5 trans=m$ into by ! monks4 ,?is mission 0 v successful1 =1 besides ! usual "w ( ! reconciliation ( s9n]s1 & ! help+ on ( ! f]v5t1 !re 7 fifte5 ,prote/ants receiv$ into ! ,*ur* be=e its close4 ,he gives ano!r mission some:]e 9 ! ,bor\gh1 ,london1 ) ! same companion4 ,dur+ ?is mission he he>s t 8 /yle ( prea*+ is n lik$ mu* by ! ,iri%2 he feels a little sad at ?is1 z he fe>s ! "w may fail ( success ?r\gh 8 defici5cy4 ,! prea*+ ( ,fa!r ,ignatius 0 peculi> to himself2 he _c be said to possess ! gifts ( human eloqu5ce 9 ! highe/ degree1 b !re 0 a some?+ l inspiration 9 8 mo/ commonplace disc\rse4 ,he put ! po9t ( 8 s]mon cle>ly be=e 8 audi5ce1 & he prov$ x mo/ admirably4 ,8 acqua9tance ) ! ,scriptures 0 some?+ m>vell\s2 n only c\ld he quote texts 9 support ( doctr9es1 b he appli$ ! facts ( ! sacr$ volume 9 su* a happy way1 ) su* a flood ( new ideas1 t "o w\ld imag9e he liv$ 9 ! mid/ ( !m1 or _h be5 told by ! sacr$ writ]s :at !y 7 int5d$ =4 ,besides ?is1 he br\ght a fund ( illu/rations to c>ry conviction ?r\gh & ?r\gh ! m9d4 ,8 illu/rations 7 tak5 f e phase ( life1 & e k9d ( #cfb employm5t2 p]sons li/5+ to him always f\nd ! practical gi/ ( 8 disc\rse c>ri$ into _! v home/ead2 nay1 ! objections !y !mselves 7 prep>$ to advance aga9/ x1 7 answ]$ be=e !y c\ld h be5 ?\ght out4 ,to add to ?is1 !re 0 an e>ne/ness 9 8 mann] t made y see 8 :ole s\l1 z x 71 b5t ^u y\r spiritual good4 ,8 hol9ess ( life1 :i* report publi%$ be=e him1 & "o look 0 en\gh to conv9ce y ( its be+ true1 compell$ y to set a value on :at he said1 f> above ! dicta ( ord9>y prie/s4 ,8 /yle 0 =m$ on ! ,gospel4 ,he lov$ ! p>ables & ! similes ( ,our ,"l1 & rightly judg$ t ! /yle ( 8 ,div9e ,ma/] 0 ! mo/ wor?y ( imitation4 ,s f> z ! matt] ( 8 disc\rses 7 conc]n$1 he 0 inimitable2 8 mann] 0 peculi> to himself1 deeply e>ne/ & t\*+4 ,he ab/a9$ f ! r\s+1 ?und]+ /yle1 & 8 attempts t way to suit ! ta/e & ?us "w ^u ! convictions ( c]ta9 congregations1 %[$ him t 8 =t did n lie !re4 ,! consequ5ce 01 t :5 ! words ( :at he jocosely t]m$ a crack prea*] w\ld die ) ! s\nd ( 8 own voice1 or ! exclamations ( ! multitude1 ,fa!r ,ignatius's words liv$ ) _! lives1 & help$ !m to be> trials t came ?irty ye>s aft] !y _h he>d him4 ,t[>ds ! end ( 8 life1 he became r tiresome to ^? :o knew n 8 _s2 b x 0 ! tiresom5ess ( ,/4 ,john ! ,evangeli/4 ,we are told t ! disciple :om ,jesus lov$ us$ to be c>ri$ 9 8 old age be=e ! p1 & t 8 only s]mon 0 ,my little *ildr51 love "o ano!r4 ,he prea*$ no m1 & no less1 b kept p]petually repeat+ ^! few words4 ,fa!r ,ignatius1 9 l mann]1 0 cont9ually repeat+ ! conv]sion ( ,engl&4 ,no matt] :at ! subject ( 8 s]mon 01 he br\ght ?is 94 ,he told u (t5 t x became a second nature to him2 t he c\ld n quit ?9k+ or speak+ ( x1 ev5 if he tri$1 & believ$ he c\ld speak = t5 days consecutively on ! conv]sion ( ,engl&1 )\t hav+ to repeat an idea4 #cfc ,he got on v well 9 ! missions3 he took all ! diff]5t p>ts z !y 7 assign$ him2 b he 0 m successful 9 ! lectures ?an 9 ! great s]mons ( ! ev5+4 ,8 confessional 0 always besieg$ ) p5it5ts1 & he nev] sp>$ himself4 ,! late ,c>d9al1 :o 0 ! *ief mov] 9 br++ ! ,passioni/s to ,engl&1 wi%$ to h a h\se ( ! ord] 9 ! diocese ( ,we/m9/] 7!n ! ,london ,di/rict71 to :i* he _h be5 rec5tly translat$4 ,fa!r ,dom9ic ent]$ he>tily into ! project1 & ,fa!r ,ignatius ) him4 ,aft] a few weeks' negotiation1 !y took possession ( ,popl> ,h\se1 9 ! we/ end ( ,hamp/ead1 t[>ds ! end ( ,june1 #ahdh4 ,a new f\ndation 01 9 ^? days1 z x is /ill1 a =midable und]tak+4 ,! gr\nd has g5]ally to be b\ght2 a *ur* & h\se built ^u x2 ! necess>y ma*9]y to set x go+ to be provid$1 & all ?is f no?+ b ! ,provid5ce ( ,god1 & ! *>ity ( b5efactors4 ,"u a m ?an ord9>y pressure ( _! difficulties1 ! h\se 0 op5$1 & aft] _m *anges & removals1 x has f9ally fix$ itself on ! br[ ( ,highgate ,hill1 "u ! "n ( ,/4 ,joseph's ,retreat4 ,he notes 9 8 ,j\rnal t ! place 9 ,hamp/ead br\ght "s sad ?\ghts into 8 m9d1 z x 0 )9 sight ( :]e 8 si/]1 ,lady ,georgiana ,qu91 di$ 9 #ahbc4 ,he tells u also t he 0 b5ight$ some:]e 9 ,london1 & _h to beg = a b$ = ! fir/ "t 9 8 life4 ,on a f9e summ]'s day he saunt]$ leisurely ?r\gh ! gr\nds ( ,eton1 rum9at+ ov] ! sc5es ( =ty ye>s be=e1 :5 he fir/ became a *ild ( :at prov$ to him a nov]cal in/itution4 ,he 0 n de/9$ to lab\r mu*1 ?is "t1 = ! ,london h\se4 ,fa!r ,dom9ic took ! *>ge ( x1 & appo9t$ ,fa!r ,ignatius ,rector ( ,/4 ,mi*ael's1 ,a/on ,hall1 a po/ t became vacant by ! dea? ( ,fa!r ,con/ant9e4 ,fa!r ,ignatius ?us m5tions ! matt] 9 "o ( 8 lett]s3-- ,x 0 j su* a dea? z "o might expect ( him 7,fa!r ,con/ant9e74 ,i 0 ?9k+ & say+ to "s "o be=e1 he w\ld be att5d+ to 8 duties & giv+ directions 9 ! h\se to ! la/4 ,9 8 #cfd agony1 he he>d ! clock /rike1 &1 mi/ak+ ! h\r = ano!r :5 "s bell has to r+1 he ask$ :y ! bell did n r+ = su* a duty4 ,x is record$ t :at 0 mo/ rem>kable 9 him 0 8 g5tl5ess & pati5ce2 & t inde$ 0 v /rik+4 ,he mu/ h suff]$ heavily to die 9 a l+]+ way by a canc]1 b he nev] 0 di/urb$1 & w5t on say+ mass1 & do+ all t 0 to be done1 z long z he c\ld /& to x4 ,8 loss makes1 z y h he>d1 a great *ange 9 my position4 ,i nev] dreamt ( be+ a ,sup]ior = ye>s to come1 & ?\ght ,i _h come to an end1 almo/ = life1 ( keep+ acc\nts & rul+ h\sehold affairs4 ,b ,god's w be done4 ,x is a great com=t1 z ,i f9d1 to be 9 ! rule ( good religi\s1 to :at x w\ld be to h p "u "o :o seek _! own ga9 & pleasure4 ,rul+1 ev5 ?us1 did n turn out s easy a matt]2 = x is record$ 9 ! ,j\rnal1 t ,fa!r ,dom9ic gave him a long lecture ab\t ! prop] way ( rul+1 :i* he seems to h drawn d[n ^u himself by "s mi/akes4 ,9 ! beg9n+ ( ,septemb]1 ?is ye>1 he gave 8 fir/ retreat4 ,x 0 to ! /ud5ts ( ,c>l[ ,college4 ,?is ev5t gave him a fre% />t 9 8 great "w4 ,s9ce #ahdd1 :5 he made ! t\r on ! ,cont95t1 procur+ pray]s = ,engl&1 8 zeal 9 ! cause seems to h slumb]$ some:at4 ,n t he 0 ! less anxi\s = ! return ( 8 c\ntrym5 to ! fai? ( _! fa!rs1 b he did n1 p]haps1 see any opportunity op5 = mov+ o!rs 9 a g5]al way to help ! "w by _! pray]s4 ,x is r a wond]ful disposition ( ,provid5ce t 8 en]gies %\ld be r5ew$ 9 ,irel&1 & t1 too1 9 '#dh4 ,extracts f a few lett]s w %[ h[ x happ5$4 ,9 a lett] to ,mrs4 ,cann+1 he says3-- ,my la/ j\rney to ,irel& 01 9 ! fir/ place1 to prea* a retreat 9 ,c>l[ ,college1 :i* 0 ! fir/ & only retreat ,i h be5 on alone2 secondly1 to beg 9 ,dubl9 = our *ur* & h\se2 ?irdly1 ,i got full into ! pursuit ( pray]s = ,engl& aga94 ,i _h h>dly expect$ any?+ c\ld be done 9 ?is la/ way "u ! excit$ /ate ( feel+s 9 ,irel& aga9/ ,engl&4 ,i began1 #cfe h[ev]1 speak+ 9 a conv5t 9 ,c>l[1 & s w>m & beautiful 0 ! way 9 :i* ^! nuns took x up1 t ,i lo/ no occasion aft] ( say+ mass 9 "s conv5ts e morn+1 & prea*+ to !m ^u x2 & ! zeal :i* !y %[$ has giv5 me a new spr+ to pu% x on 9 ,engl&4 ,accord+ly1 ,i h be5 prea*+ _m times on x s9ce ,i h be5 ?is "t 9 ,lanca%ire4 ,i only ask n[ "o ,hail ,m>y a day to be said by e ,ca?olic = ! conv]sion ( ,engl&4 ,"h is a great field to "w ^u4 ,y want to be do+ some?+ = ,engl&1 ,i "k2 :y n take up ?is object1 & 9 e lett] y write abroad or at home make p promise to d ?is1 & make e man1 woman1 & *ild d x too4 ,if millions w\ld d z mu* z ?is1 we %\ld h ?\s&s :o w\ld (f] !mselves up z victims to be immolat$ = ! object1 & we %\ld h gr& results4 ,above all1 let x be done 9 s*ools at home2 s t all ! "y may be tra9$ to pant = ?is object1 z "y ,hannibal = ! de/ruction ( ,rome2 & a f\ndation w be laid = ! "w to g on aft] we are all dead1 if no fruit appe>s be=e4 ,9 a lett] to ,fa!r ,v9c5t1 he writes almo/ 9 ! same /ra93-- ,my j\rney to ,irel& 0 satisfactory 9 sev]al respects to a c]ta9 degree4 ,x answ]$ well = begg+ purposes4 ,) all _! pov]ty1 !y are s g5]\s t ,i made "o ( my be/ week's begg+ 9 ,dubl94 ,i hope = a great deal m 9 ,novemb]1 :5 ,i am go+ aga9 to prea* 9 ,dubl91 & w /ay z long z ,i c4 ,i pick$ up also "o novice1 n a cl]ic1 b1 ,i hope1 a v promis+ lay bro!r4 ,i ?9k !re w be _m good subjects = u 9 ,irel&1 :5 we are bett] kn[n !re4' 7,9 ?is 8 expectations 7 mo/ signally realiz$47 ,i also got into ! pursuit ( pray]s = ,engl& aga94 ,i said mass1 & prea*$ aft] mass t5 times 9 conv5ts on ! subject1 & ! zeal & *>ity ) :i* x 0 tak5 up by ! good religi\s q gave me a new spr+ 9 t cause4 ,i h begun prea*+ 9 ,engl& = pray]s4 ,w y help me 9 ?is8 ,i h be5 writ+1 ) ,fa!r #cff ,dom9ic's approval1 to our ,g5]al1 to obta9 "s indulg5ces = ^? :o w jo9 9 ^? pray]s4 ,9 ?is ye>1 ,fa!r ,ignatius lo/ two great fri5ds by dea?1 ,dr4 ,g5tili & ! ,rev4 ,wm4 ,ri*mond4 ,he _h sev]al conv]sations ) ! =m]1 :o 0 !n giv+ 8 la/ mission 9 ,dubl91 & assi/$ on 8 return to ,engl&1 at ! dea?-b$ ( ,mr4 ,ri*mond4 ,he us$ to relate h[ ?is wor?y man became a ,ca?olic1 z an in/ance ( ! ways ( ,god 9 conv]sion4 ,:5 ,ri*mond 0 a boy1 he w5t to see an uncle ( 81 :o 0 a prie/4 ,"o day he saw c&les lit 9 ! *ur* 9 cle> daylight4 ,on ent]+1 to satisfy himself t no?+ 0 wrong1 he saw 8 uncle issu+ f ! sacri/y1 9 ! mo/ fanta/ic g>b he ev] beheld4 ,he ran out ( ! *ur* 9 a fright1 & sc>cely came ne> 8 uncle = ?ree days4 ,he did sum up c\rage en\gh to approa* at l5g?1 & ! end 0 t he became a prie/ himself1 & out%one 8 uncle4 ,dur+ ! visit ,fa!r ,ignatius paid to ,irel&1 accord+ to promise1 9 ! ,novemb] ( ?is ye>1 he prea*$ 9 sev]al places on ! conv]sion ( ,engl&4 ,he w5t to ,maynoo?1 & address$ ! junior /ud5ts at night pray] & ! s5iors at morn+ pray]1 on ! same subject4 ,he rema9s ne>ly a mon? 9 ,irel& ?is "t4 ,he meets a few secul> p :o are n s k9d & g5]\s 9 li/5+ to him z nuns & /ud5ts4 ,"o day he begg$ ( a g5tleman1 :o imm$iately began to grope 9 8 pocket = a co9 :i* he %\ld consid] wor?y ( (f]+4 ,:il/ ! se>* 0 go+ on1 ,fa!r ,ignatius v5tur$ to ask pray]s = ! conv]sion ( ,engl&4 ,engl&6 said ! g5tleman2 ,i pray = ,engl&6 ,n ,i4 ,& he turn$ (f ) a refusal1 & left 8 petition] to f9d ano!r b5efactor4 ,:5 he return$ to ,engl&1 he prea*$ ev]y:]e1 to prie/s1 nuns1 & p2 he wrote & spoke cont9ually = pray]s = ,engl&4 ,! only *ange 9 8 sy/em s9ce ! =m] crusade 01 t ! pray] he ask$ = 0 def9$4 ,x 0 only "o ,hail ,m>y daily4 ,?is pray] he 0 especially fond ( us+2 he said x = e p]son & ev]y?+4 ,! antiphon ( ! ,*ur*1 #cfg ,rejoice1 ,virg9 ,m>y1 ?\ alone ha/ de/roy$ all h]esies ?r\gh\t ! _w1 0 cont9ually 9 8 he>t4 ,! devotion ( ! p ( ,irel& to our ,bless$ ,lady br\ght ?is out2 & x 0 rem>k$ by himself & o!rs1 t :5 once he _h put ! great object ( 8 endeav\rs "u ! protection ( ,m>y1 he nev] cool$ or slack5$1 b always progress$ ) bless+s4 ,! la/ day ( ?is ye> 0 sp5t z all su* days ( 8 life1 s9ce he turn$ ?or\ghly to ,god's s]vice1 9 be+ awake & 9 pray] at midnight4 #cfh ,,*apt] ,,iii4 ,a ,peculi> ,mission4 ,fa!r ,ignatius _h an idea 9 8 m9d = a numb] ( ye>s1 & saw no practical way 9 :i* x might be realiz$4 ,he look$ =w>d1 ) a pleas+ anticipation1 to ! prospect ( go+ ab\t f p>i% to p>i% on a k9d ( it9]>y mission4 ,! ?+ 0 unusual 9 our day1 & he saw no plea by :i* x c\ld be ju/ifi$ to o!rs1 or he %\ld h gone on x long be=e4 ,he propos$ x at la/ to 8 ,sup]iors1 & ! circum/ances ( 8 position wond]fully fav\r$ its prosecution4 ,volunt>y pov]ty 0 rais$ to a virtue by ! example & tea*+ ( our ,div9e ,"l1 & pov]ty mu/ always h a c\nt]p>t4 ,to be poor is to be dep5d5t1 & want is orda9$ = ! sanctification ( pl5ty4 ,:5 our ,div9e ,ma/] said t x 0 difficult = ! ri* man to be sav$1 ,he subjo9$ t ) ,god all ?+s are possible4 ,! mis]ies ( ! poor are ! *annels ?r\gh :i* ri*es c fl[ into ,heav51 & make fri5ds to _! possessors ( ! mammon ( iniquity4 ,9 ! disp5sation ( ,provid5ce1 ! ,*ur* wat*es ov] ! int]e/s ( all h] *ildr51 & :il/ %e proclaims ! sev]ity ( ! ,gospel maxims1 %e provides = _! obs]vance4 ,%e mu/ prea* pov]ty ( _s1 f ! text ( ! s]mon on ! ,m\nt1 & %e manages to make k+s :o are ri*] ?an ,david live aft] ,god's own he>t4 ,! beautiful h>mony betwe5 rank & l[l9ess1 au?ority & submission1 prosp]ity & adv]sity1 has long ago be5 arrang$ by ! practice ( ! ages ( fai?1 & by ! ,pontifical con/itutions :i* impress ! seal ( ! ,fi%]man ^u ! usages ( ,ca?olicity4 #cfi ,9 no dep>tm5t ( ,ca?olic polity is ?is sup]ior wisdom s well exemplifi$ z 9 ! rules ( m5dicant ord]s4 ,! ,*ur* takes ! noble f 8 seat ( p[]1 %e makes him ca/ 8 coronet at ! feet ( ,pet]1 & /ret* out 8 h& to 8 =m] vassal = ! paltry morsel t is to su/a9 8 future exi/5ce4 ,%e =bids him to accumulate2 %e makes him give back a ?\s&-fold :at he receives4 ,by ?us br++ d[n ! pride ( p[] & mak+ x pay c\rt to ! discont5t$ *ild ( p5ury1 %e reconciles man ) ,provid5ce & suffuses rev]5ce ?r\gh ! cr[d1 :o might grumble at greatness1 by mak+ _! "l accord+ to ! _w _! s]vant accord+ to ! ,gospel4 ,! con/itutions ( ! ,congregation ( ! ,passion are fram$ ^u ! _s ( ! ,*ur*4 ,if a man ( prop]ty jo9s our poor in/itute1 he _c br+ 8 possessions ) him to enri* ! community he ent]s2 = ,bless$ ,paul has n all[$ !m to h any fix$ rev5ue4 ,he may1 inde$1 give a donation t[>ds ! build+ ( _! *ur*1 ! furni%+ ( _! poor s*ools1 or ! pay+ (f ! debts !y 7 oblig$ to contract to secure ! gr\nd ^u :i* _! mona/]y is built2 b t is left to 8 own *>ity4 ,he is suppos$ by our rule to h& ov] 8 prop]ty to a relative or a *>itable in/itution1 & res]ve to himself ! "r to take x back1 9 case he may n p]sev]e 9 8 vocation1 or ab&on ! life he has embrac$4 ,?us depriv$ ( /able funds1 we are to rely ^u ! ,provid5ce ( ,god2 & we c give ,him glory by confess+ t we nev] yet f\nd ,8 ^w to fail1 ,seek ye fir/ ! k+dom ( ,god & 8 ju/ice1 & all ^! ?+s %all be add$ unto y4 ,betimes we may h to s5d a bro!r to ask = "s assi/ance f k9d b5efactors2 b1 z a rule1 ,god inspires _m to befri5d u )\t our ask+4 ,! duties ( missions & retreats1 & ! prep>ation = !m1 prev5t u f digg+ a livelihood out ( ! e>?2 b ! sweat ( our br[ t is ?us sp5t e>ns our bread by procur+ u fri5ds4 ,p cr[d to our *ur*es1 & leave ?ank-(f]+s !re to prove ! reality ( _! devotion2 &1 z an anci5t #cgj fa!r ( ours once said1 our support comes 9 ?r\gh ! *oir-w9d[s4 ,:5 we h to build a *ur* or a h\se1 we mu/ foll[ ! cu/om ( surr\nd+ prie/s2 b1 z our work+ is n purely local1 we s5d a fa!r or bro!r to di/ant c\ntries1 & try n to be too bur!nsome to our neighb\rs4 ,*>ity endure? all ?+s2 b ! bran* ( *>ity :i* is ex]cis$ 9 ! giv+ ( alms is n always cont5t to be too mu* importun$1 or call$ ^u too (t54 ,*>ity !re=e requires t ^? :o plead = ! ex]cise ( "o arm d n /ra9 ! o!r1 & x makes provision aga9/ provok+ ang] or ill-feel+ f ! weaknesses x tries to cure by /irr+ to activity4 ,9 ! ye> #ahdh ! fa!rs at ,a/on ,hall /ood 9 sore ne$ ( a *ur*4 ,hi!rto !y _h turn$ a room up/airs into a tempor>y *apel2 &1 inconv5i5t z x might be to h p go+ s f> into a religi\s h\se1 !y w\ld h borne up long]1 _h n a build] told !m t any?+ l a cr[d w\ld br+ ! :ole place d[n ab\t _! e>s4 ,fa!r ,ignatius m5tions ?is 9 a lett] he wrote to ,mrs4 ,cann+4 ,x w1 he says1 be a great addition to u to h a respectable *ur*1 in/ead ( our *apel up-/airs2 b we %\ld n h _h a plea = ask+ = x1 if ?is *apel _h n be5 s good z to give u notice to quit1 by becom+ cracky a little4 ,"h1 !n1 0 an opportunity4 ,"s "o %\ld g out & beg4 ,fa!r ,ignatius 0 commission$ to write lett]s1 b ?\gh ! fir/ 0 answ]$ by a *eque = #ajj1 ) a promise ( m1 !re 0 n en\gh =?com+ to enable !m to build4 ,c\ld he n d two ?+s at once8 ,c\ld he n ask = pray]s z well z alms8 ,did n ! v plea ( begg+ give him a "r to g to diff]5t places1 ev5 f p>i% to p>i%1 & speak publicly & privately8 ,x did4 ,& he 0 =?) s5t out to c>ry into execution ! dreams ( half a life1 :i* he sc>cely ev] expect$ to realize4 ,he fir/ began ?is peculi> mission ( 8 by go+ ?r\gh ! t[ns ) a guide1 l ord9>y que/]s3 9 a few ye>s ! plan develop$ itself into ! little missions4 #cga ,8 fir/ begg+ t\r 0 ?r\gh ,birm+ham1 ,d]by1 ,nott+ham1 ,oscott1 ,leam+ton1 & ,wolv]hampton4 ,9 a few mon?s he sallies =? aga91 & ,liv]pool is ! !atre ( 8 lab\rs4 ,_m & rude 7 ! trials he _h to endure 9 ?is humiliat+ "w4 ,he ?us playfully alludes to "s ( !m3 ,i am on a begg+ mission "h at ,liv]pool1 9 :i* ,i f9d r\gh & smoo?1 ups & d[ns1 e day4 ,! g5]al result is v fair4 ,i h be5 "h s9ce ,monday1 ! #h? ( ,may 7he writes on ! #bj?71 & h got m ?an #ajj1 b ) h>d walk+4 ,i am1 h[ev]1 q well1 & ! inflammation ( my eye q gone--no?+ left b a little haz9ess4 ,x la/$ five weeks )\t rel5t+ at all4 ,if x _h gone on1 ,i mu/ h /ay$ at home2 b x j began to improve be=e ,i />t$1 & has got well1 t\t en m>*ant4 ,my pres5t life is v pleasant :5 money comes k9dly2 b :5 ,i get refus$1 or walk a long way & f9d e "o out1 x is a bit mortify+4 ,t is be/ ga9 = me1 ,i suppose1 ?\gh n :at ,i am travell+ =4 4444 ,i %\ld n h _h ! "t ?is morn+ to write to y1 _h x n be5 = a disappo9tm5t 9 meet+ a "y man1 :o 0 to h be5 my begg+-guide = "p ( ! day2 & s ,i _h to come home1 & /ay till x is "t to g & try my =tune 9 ! enorm\s m>ket-h\se1 :]e !re are innum]able /alls ) p\ltry1 eggs1 fruit1 meat1 c41 kept 9 great "p by ,iri% m5 & wom51 on :om ,i h to-day1 pres5tly1 to g & dance att5dance1 z ?is is ! great m>ket-day4 ,i feel1 :5 go+ out = a job l ?is1 z a poor *ild go+ 9 a ba?+ ma*9e to be dipp$ 9 ! sea1 frisonnant2 b ! ,iri% are s good-natur$ & g5]\s t !y g5]ally make ! "w among !m full ( pleasure1 :5 once ,i am 9 x4 ,"o sees a va/ diff]5ce betwe5 begg+ ( ! ri* & ( ! poor4 ,if ! latt] h no?+ to give1 !y w at lea/ %[ a k9d face1 & w n presume to "q ! prie/ ab\t 8 bus9ess2 :]eas "s ( ! =m]1 because !y h some?+ :i* !y w n give1 ei!r abs5t !mselves or treat ! prie/ unk9dly = #cgb ask+4 ,= :at8 ,because he begs4 ,x is n = himself3 he ev5 retr5*es necess>ies f 8 own table 9 ord] to sp>e some?+ = ! h\se ( ,god4 ,& :at1 aft] all1 does he ask8 ,! price ( an h\r's recreation1 or an extra ornam5t1 t may be v well sp>$4 ,t is all4 ,! prie/ wants p to look aft] _! own int]e/s1 to s5d _! money be=e !m to heav51 in/ead ( wa/+ x on vanity or s94 ,& because he does ?is1 & humbles himself = ! sake ( 8 ,god1 he mu/ be made to feel x4 ,fa!r ,ignatius 0 ke5ly alive to ?is1 & ! way he felt = ^? :o =got !mselves by s5d+ him away empty 0 f> m afflictive ?an ! p]sonal humiliation4 ,he c\ld ?ank ,god = ! latt]1 b he c\ld n d s = ! =m]4 ,once he 0 fi]cely abus$1 :5 begg+1 & z ! revil] _h come to a full /op 9 8 fr[>d spee*1 ,fa!r ,ignatius quietly retort$3 ,well1 z y h be5 s g5]\s to myself p]sonally1 p]haps y w\ld be s k9d z to give me some?+ n[ = my community4 ,?is _h a rem>kable effect4 ,x procur$ him a h&some (f]+ !n1 z well z _m o!rs ev] s9ce4 ,ano!r day he knock$ at a door1 & 0 admitt$ by a v sumptu\sly attir$ footman4 ,fa!r ,ignatius told ! s]vant ! object ( 8 visit1 8 religi\s "n1 & ask$ if he c\ld see ! lady or g5tleman ( ! h\se4 ,! s]vant /rode (f to see1 & 9 a few seconds return$ to say t ! g5tleman 0 out1 & ! lady 0 engag$ & c\ld n see him1 nei!r c\ld %e af=d to help him4 ,he !n rem>k$ t p]haps %e 0 n aw>e t he 0 ! ,hon\rable ,mr4 ,sp5c]4 ,! s]vant look$ at him1 b[$ politely & retir$4 ,9 a m9ute or two ,fa!r ,ignatius he>s a ru/l+ ( silks & a tripp+ ( quick /eps on ! /airs4 ,9 came my lady1 & :at ) blu%+s & b[+s1 & excuses & apologies1 %e sc>cely knew :]e %e 0 until %e f\nd h]self & him tte--tte4 ,%e really did n "k x 0 he1 & !re 7 s _m impo/ors4 ,b :at w y take1 my de> sir8 & be=e he c\ld say yea or nay %e rung = 8 fri5d ! footman4 ,fa!r ,ignatius coolly said1 t he did n #cgc !n /& 9 ne$ ( any?+ to eat1 & t he nev] took w9e2 b t he did /& 9 ne$ ( money = a good purpose1 & if %e c\ld give him any?+ 9 t way he %\ld be v glad to accept x4 ,%e h&$ him a five-p\nd note at once1 express+ _m regrets t some?+ or o!r prev5t$ its be+ m4 ,fa!r ,ignatius took ! note1 fold$ x c>efully1 made sure ( its be+ safely lodg$ 9 8 pocket1 & !n made ?anksgiv+ 9 some?+ l ! foll[+ words3 ,n[1 ,i am v sorry to h to tell y t ! alms y h giv5 me w d y v little good4 ,if ,i _h n be5 born ( a noble family1 y w\ld h turn$ me away ) coldness & contempt4 ,i take ! money1 because x w be z useful to me z if x 7 giv5 ) a good motive2 b ,i w\ld advise y1 = ! future1 if y h any reg>d = y\r s\l1 to let ! love ( ,god1 & n human respect1 prompt y\r alms-giv+4 ,s say+1 he took 8 hat & bid 8 b5efactress a good morn+4 ,_m 7 ! anecdotes he told u ab\t 8 begg+ adv5tures2 b x is next to impossible to rememb] !m4 ,9 e case1 h[ev]1 we c\ld see ! sa9t ?r\gh ! veil 8 humility tri$ to ca/ ov] himself4 ,:e!r he 0 receiv$ well or ill1 he always tri$ to turn 8 reception to ! spiritual b5efit ( ^? :o receiv$ him4 ,he made m fri5ds ?an any p]son liv+1 p]haps1 & nev] 0 kn[n to make an enemy2 8 v simplicity & hol9ess dis>m$ malice4 ,he says1 9 a lett]1 ^u gett+ 8 fir/ commission to g & que/3 ,i am to be a great begg>6 ,8 progno/ication began to be v]ifi$4 ,/range fact1 ! ,hon\rable ,george ,sp5c] a begg>6 ,& happi]1 "u all ! trials & crosses incid5t to su* a life1 ?an if he _h liv$ 9 ! luxury ( ,al?orp4 ,religion is c>ry+ out to-day :at its ,f\nd] began eighte5 hundr$ ye>s ago4 ,he left ! k+dom ( heav5 to live on ! *>ity ( ,8 own creatures4 #cgd ,,*apt] ,,iv4 ,dea? ,( ,fa!r ,dom9ic4 ,we gr\p ! incid5ts ( ?is *apt] ar\nd ?is sad ev5t3 "s ( !m 7 ! la/ ^! two bosom fri5ds did toge!r1 & ! o!rs 7 occasion$ by _! sep>ation4 ,e>ly 9 ,janu>y1 #ahdi1 ,fa!r ,ignatius w5t1 at ! invitation ( ,mr4 ,john ,smi?1 ( ,button1 to see a spot ( gr\nd ^u :i* t wor?y man int5d$ build+ a *ur* & h\se = a community ( ,passioni/s4 ,fa!r ,ignatius did n l ! situation2 b z soon z he spoke to ,fa!r ,dom9ic ab\t x1 !y bo? came to ,/4 ,hel5's ,junction to see if two heads might n be wis] ?an "o4 ,fa!r ,dom9ic l&$ on ! plat=m a little be=e ,fa!r ,ignatius1 :o _h be5 delay$ some:]e on ! way4 ,he w5t imm$iately to look = ! great b5efactor4 ,a f9e-look+1 op51 pla9 man salut$ him1 & he ?\ght ?is mu/ be a ,ca?olic1 & likely he kn[s ! p]son ,i am look+ =4 ,d y "k :]e lives a c]ta9 ,mr4 ,smi?8 ask$ ,fa!r ,dom9ic4 ,i %\ld ?9k ,i did1 answ]$ 8 new fri5d1 & aft] a few m9utes' conv]sation ! fa!r 0 satisfi$1 = he 0 no o!r ?an ,mr4 ,smi? himself4 ,!y bo? walk$ ov] a consid]able ext5t ( gr\nd1 )9 :i* ,mr4 ,smi? told ! good fa!r to make 8 *oice ( a site4 ,he _h select$ t :]eon ,/4 ,anne's ,retreat n[ /&s1 :5 ,fa!r ,ignatius arriv$4 ,fa!r ,ignatius hesitat$ a little be=e giv+ 8 cons5t1 & x 0 only :5 ,fa!r ,dom9ic said emphatically1 ,! h\se t is to be built "h w yet be ! l>ge/ & be/ we %all h 9 ,engl&1 t he fully agre$4 ,t prophecy is not$ 9 a #cge j\rnal ,fa!r ,ignatius kept at ! "t1 & he wond]$ aft]w>ds h[ ! *ur* & mona/]y t arose on t dre>y spot v]ifi$ x to ! lett]4 ,x is ! be/ & l>ge/ we h 9 ,engl& at ! pres5t mom5t1 & ,fa!r ,dom9ic nev] saw a /one ( its f\ndations laid4 ,fa!rs ,dom9ic1 ,ignatius1 & ,v9c5t1 give a mission 9 ,romney ,t]race1 ,we/m9/]1 9 ,m>*4 ,%ortly aft] !y give ano!r 9 ,high ,/reet1 ,dubl94 ,at ?is mission !y introduc$ ! ,italian c]emonies1 su* z peacemak]s 7p]sons appo9t$ to reconcile ^? at v>iance71 special s]mons = diff]5t classes ( p1 bell = ! five pat]s1 & public ask+ ( p>don by ! mission>ies4 ,x fell to ,fa!r ,ignatius to be spokesman 9 ?is latt] c]emony1 & sore /rait5$ 0 he to f9d out 9 :at p>ticul> ! fa!rs _h (f5d$1 t he might !refrom draw ! apology = _! act4 ,he se>*$ & se>*$1 & at la/ rememb]$ 8 own pron5ess to nod asleep :5 too long 9 ! confessional4 ,?is 0 ! plea he made1 & we mu/ say x 0 a v poor "o3 x gives1 h[ev]1 a good idea ( 8 c&\r1 & want ( unreality4 ,^! demon/rations 7 f\nd to be unsuit$ to ! g5ius ( ! p1 & h be5 suff]$ to fall into desuetude ev] s9ce4 ,fa!r ,ignatius goes next on a begg+ t\r ?r\gh ,man*e/]1 ,%effield1 & ! nor? ( ,engl&4 ,he call$ at ,c>/airs ,h\se1 on 8 way to ,glasg[ & ,ed9burgh1 to visit 8 fri5d ,mr4 ,montei?4 ,mr4 ,montei? 0 receiv$ into ! ,*ur* by ,dr4 ,wiseman1 :5 ,fa!r ,ignatius liv$ 9 ,oscott4 ,fa!r ,ignatius 0 8 god-fa!r4 ,a fri5d%ip !n began betwe5 !m :i* nev] cool$2 !y kept up a correspond5ce f :i* _m important h9ts h be5 borr[$ = ?is book1 & x 0 f ,mr4 ,montei?'s place ! s\l ( ,fa!r ,ignatius took its dep>ture = a bett] _w4 ,mr4 ,montei? ext5d$ ! fri5d%ip he _h = ,fa!r ,ignatius to 8 o!r religi\s bre?r51 & "t aft] "t has he giv5 !m sub/antial pro(s ( its dep? & g5]osity4 ,fa!r ,ignatius & he _h be5 = "s "t 9 correspond5ce ab\t f\nd+ a h\se ( ,passioni/s #cgf some:]e ne> ,lan>k or ,c>/airs2 b circum/ances ov] :i* !y _h no control prev5t$ !m com+ to a conclusion4 ,! ,v9c5tians h well & wor?ily tak5 ! place1 & ! fir/ h\se ( our ord] f\nd$ 9 ,scotl& 0 ,/4 ,mungo's1 ,glasg[1 a few mon?s aft] ,fa!r ,ignatius's dea?4 ,x 0 he :o op5$ ,mr4 ,montei?'s dome/ic *apel1 & said ! fir/ mass 9 x4 ,& x 0 9 ! same *apel ! fir/ mass 0 said = 8 own s\l 9 pres5ce ( ! body4 ,he says 9 ! ,j\rnal3-- ,tuesday1 ,aug4 #ad4--,w5t to ,london ) ,fa!r ,dom9ic4 ,we _h a f9e talk ) ,dr4 ,wiseman4 ,we d9$ at #ab 9 ,k+ ,william ,/reet ) ,fab] & ! ,oratorians4 ,w$nesday1 ,aug4 #ae4--,sung mass at #aj & prea*$1 ,prep>$ 9 a hurry = my j\rney4 ,w5t (f at #c = ! ,cont95t4 ,he nev] saw ,fa!r ,dom9ic 9 ! fle% aga94 ,on ! #bg? ( ,augu/1 #ahdi1 ,fa!r ,dom9ic & a bro!r prie/ 7 travell+ by railway to ,a/on4 ,9 ! morn+1 be=e leav+ ,london1 ! companion ask$ ,fa!r ,dom9ic to br+ him ) him2 he _h j arriv$ f ,au/ralia1 & wi%$ to see "s ( 8 old companions at ,a/on ,hall4 ,fa!r ,dom9ic ?\ght ?is 0 n reason en\gh = incurr+ ! exp5se ( ! j\rney2 he demurr$1 b at l5g? ass5t$4 ,x 0 =tunate he did4 ,:5 !y came z f> z ,read+1 ,fa!r ,dom9ic became sudd5ly ill4 ,he 0 tak5 out on ! plat=m1 & z ! p 7 afraid ( an epidemic1 no "o w\ld admit ! pati5t into 8 h\se4 ,!re lay ! worn-out mission>y1 :o _h pray$ & toil$ s long = ! conv]sion ( ,engl&1 on t bleak desolate-look+ plat=m1 ab&on$ by all = ^: salvation he ?ir/$1 ) only a companion kneel+ by 8 side to prep>e him = et]nity4 ,b ! coldness & want ( hospitality ( ! p gave him no conc]n3 o!r ?\ghts engross$ him4 ,a few m9utes he suff]$1 & 9 ^? few he made 8 prep>ation4 ,he made arrangem5ts = ! gov]nm5t ( our h\ses1 he gave 8 la/ in/ructions to 8 companion1 he invok$ a bless+ ^u ,engl&1 & !n placidly #cgg clos$ 8 eyes = ev] ^u ?is wick$ _w1 to op5 !m 9 a bright] "o4 ,he di$ ab&on$1 & almo/ alone1 b he di$ 9 ! pov]ty he _h practis$1 & ! solitude he lov$4 ,fa!r ,ignatius 0 9 ,holl& at ! "t4 ,on 8 arrival at our h\se 9 ,t\rnay he he>d a rum\r ( ,fa!r ,dom9ic's dea?4 ,he gave no cr$it to x at fir/2 a lett] writt5 to him ab\t x w5t a/ray2 & x 0 n until ab\t a =tnight aft] x happ5$ t he saw a p>agraph 9 a newspap]1 giv+ ! full p>ticul>s4 ,he ha/5$ home at once to ,engl&1 & ! fir/ ?+ he he>d f ,dr4 ,wiseman 0 t ,fa!r ,dom9ic _h nom9at$ him 8 successor4 ,fa!r ,ignatius1 :5 8 provisional appo9tm5t _h be5 confirm$ 9 ,rome1 c\ld only look =w>d to trials & difficulties su* z he _h nev] to get ?r\gh be=e4 ,we _h !n ?ree h\ses ( ! ord] 9 ,engl&1 & "o 9 ,belgium1 :i* 7 unit$ "u "o ,sup]ior1 act+ z ,prov9cial4 ,! h\ses 7 n yet con/itut$ into a canonical prov9ce4 ,! fewness ( ! memb]s1 & _! ignorance ( ! cu/oms & ways ( a /range c\ntry1 increas$ ! difficulties4 ,t ye>1 inde$1 f\r excell5t prie/s1 :o h s9ce work$ h>d on ! ,engli% mission1 came f ,rome2 b !y c\ld z yet only say mass1 on acc\nt ( _! imp]fect acqua9tance ) ! ,engli% language4 ,!n1 ! exi/5ce ( ea* h\se 0 s prec>i\s t ! smalle/ gu/ ( opposition seem$ suffici5t to unpeople !m4 ,a/on ,hall 0 /ruggl+ to build a *ur*1 9 :i* und]tak+ t mission 0 de/9$ to exhau/ all ! life x _h2 = x ek$ out b a dy+ exi/5ce f ! "t ! *ur* 0 op5$1 until x 0 giv5 up 9 a few ye>s4 ,! retreat at ,wood*e/] seem$ to h lack$ any _s ( vitality f ! abs5ce ( ! cross 9 its f\ndation4 ,! g5]osity ( a conv]t made ev]y?+ smoo? & conv5i5t 9 ! beg9n+1 b ! difficulties t l$ at l5g? to our leav+ x 7 already ?reat5+ to rise4 ,! h\se 9 ,london 0 doom$ to be transplant$ to ! wild]ness ( ,! ,hyde1 ev5 be=e #cgh ! dea? ( ,fa!r ,dom9ic1 & ,/4 ,anne's1 ,sutton1 0 n yet begun4 ,?is 0 ! mat]ial position ( ! ,passioni/s :5 ,fa!r ,ignatius became ,sup]ior1 or quasi ,prov9cial4 ,to add to ?is1 ! fa!rs 7 n fir/-rate m5 ( bus9ess4 ,!y c\ld pray well1 prea* & he> confessions1 b !y gave p ( ! _w cr$it = be+ bett] ?an !y 74 ,"s ( _! worldly affairs became1 !re=e1 complicat$1 & ,fa!r ,ignatius1 un=tunately1 0 n ! man to rectify matt]s & put !m /raight4 ,he 0 a sage 9 spirituals1 b ! v rev]se 9 temporals4 ,_m ( ! religi\s became di%e>t5$ at ! prospect4 ,"s lo/ _! vocations4 ,_m f\ght manfully ) cont5d+ difficulties1 wea!r$ all ! /orms1 &1 temp]$ & taught by ^? days ( tr\ble1 look ) smil+ placidity on :at we %\ld ?9k s]i\s crosses 9 ^! days4 ,su* is ! beg9n+ ( e religi\s in/itute2 x gr[s & ?rives by contradiction & p]secution4 ,human =esight prophesi$ our de/ruction !n1 & c\ld n believe t 9 sixte5 ye>s we %\ld h sev5 h\ses 9 ?is prov9ce1 ) an av]age ( ab\t tw5ty religi\s = ea*4 ,! ways ( ,god are wond]ful4 ,?is k9d ( confession 0 necess>y1 9 ord] t read]s might h an idea ( ,fa!r ,ignatius's position aft] ! dea? ( ,fa!r ,dom9ic4 ,he set to "w at once1 fir/ c>ry+ out ,fa!r ,dom9ic's int5tions1 & !n try+ "s special "w ( 8 own4 ,! new *ur* at ,wood*e/] 0 consecrat$ by ,dr4 ,h5dr5 & ,dr4 ,ulla?orne1 & ,dr4 ,wiseman prea*$ at ! op5+4 ,! new *ur* ( ,/4 ,mi*ael's1 ,a/on ,hall1 0 op5$ 9 ! same ye>4 ,on ! #g? ( ,novemb] ! community ( ,popl> ,h\se1 two prie/s & a lay bro!r1 move to ,! ,hyde4 ,fa!r ,ignatius1 ) ,fa!rs ,v9c5t & ,gaud5tius1 give a mission 9 ,we/m9/]1 & !y v5ture out 9 _! habits ?r\gh ! /reets ( ,london4 ,?is mission br\ght out "s ( ,fa!r ,ignatius's peculi>ities4 ,9 ! in/ruction ^u ! sanctification ( holy days1 :i* x 0 8 duty to give1 he propos$ t ! ,iri% %\ld make #cgi a g5]al /rike1 n = wages1 b = mass on fe/ivals4 ,he w5t to visit ,fa!r ,fab]1 :o 0 ill at ! "t2 !y became engross$ 9 conv]sation1 :5 ,fa!r ,ignatius look$ at 8 wat* & said he %\ld get away to prep>e 8 s]mon or in/ruction4 ,fa!r ,fab] said ?is 0 a v human proce$+1 & 0 ( op9ion t mission>ies %\ld be able to prea* l ! ,apo/les1 )\t prep>ation4 ,fa!r ,ignatius turn$ ! matt] ov] 9 8 m9d1 reason$ x out ) himself1 & !nce=w>d nev] deliv]$ :at might be call$ an elaborate disc\rse4 ,x may be rem>k$1 be=e clos+ ! *apt]1 t ,fa!r ,dom9ic1 at ,fa!r ,ignatius's sugge/ion1 ord]$1 9 ! beg9n+ ( #ahdi1 ?ree ,hail ,m>ys to be said by u aft] ,compl9 = ! conv]sion ( ,engl&4 ,! practice is /ill cont9u$1 & has be5 ext5d$ to our h\ses on ! ,cont95t & 9 ,am]ica4 #chj ,,*apt] ,v4 ,_s ,( ,fa!r ,ignatius ,at ,?is ,"t4 ,s mu* has to be said ab\t ! ext]ior actions ( ,fa!r ,ignatius1 t "o is apt1 9 read+ !m1 to =get ! _s 9 :i* !y 7 done4 ,x is true t x is by ! nature ( ! actions !mselves a judgm5t c be =m$ ( :at t _s mu/ h be51 b !n !y are liable to a false con/ruction4 ,he 0 *iefly rem>kable = 8 _s ( pov]ty4 ,x 0 n alone t he lov$ pov]ty1 & tri$ to obs]ve 8 v[1 b he ref9$ ?is obs]vance to an exquisite degree1 by try+ to treat himself & get o!rs to treat him l a mean begg>4 ,he wi%$ to feel pov]ty1 & s\ght h>d%ips 9 ?+s t 7 easy en\gh1 = t end4 ,:5 he w5t by tra9 he always took a ?ird-class ticket1 & 0 mo/ +5i\s 9 8 def5ce ( ?is proce$+4 ,if "s "o object$ to him t ! ?ird-class c>riages g5]ally conta9$ r\gh1 l[1 ill-br$1 & co>sely-spok5 fell[s1 he g5tly answ]$3 ,yes2 y may f9d a ?ick spr9kl+ ( blackgu>ds !re4 ,:e!r or no1 he w\ld say aga91 ! ?ird class is ! poor man's class1 & x ought to be m9e4 ,"o "t he 0 expect$ to prea* a gr& s]mon 9 "s t[n or o!r2 ! "l ( ! manor1 a ,ca?olic1 ord]$ 8 c>riage1 ) liv]y s]vants1 & came himself to br+ him 9 /ate to ! prie/'s h\se4 ,he wait$ = ! good fa!r on ! plat=m1 look+ at ! doors ( ! diff]5t fir/-class c>riages1 & condesc5d+ to give a glance or two t[>ds ! second4 ,:at 0 8 surprise :5 ,fa!r ,ignatius1 habit & s&als & a'1 got out ( a ?ird4 ,my de> ,fa!r ,ignatius1 he half indignantly exclaim$1 :y d y travel by #cha ?ird class8 ,well1 repli$ ,fa!r ,ignatius1 because !re isn't a f\r?4 ,?is idea t he 0 a poor man & ought to live l "o he c>ri$ out 9 ev]y?+4 ,he might be g5]ally se5 ) a l>ge blue bag4 ,?is bag 0 n ( a respectable make or durable mat]ial2 no1 x 0 made ( "s k9d ( drogget1 l an ord9>y sack1 & _h a ?ick clumsy tape t ga!r$ 9 ! m\? ( x1 & clos$ x ) a big knot4 ,:5 he _h a long j\rney be=e him he br\ght a pair ( ^!1 & ty+ !m toge!r put ! knot ^u 8 %\ld]1 & w\ld trudge (f six or sev5 miles ) "o dangl+ 9 front & ano!r beh9d4 ,if somebody (f]$ him a seat 9 a c> or wagon1 he gladly accept$ x2 if n1 he did )\t x4 ,on ?is same pr9ciple he seldom refus$ a meal :5 out2 & if he want$ some?+ to eat1 he g5]ally w5t & begg$ = x at ! fir/ h\se he came to4 ,at home he usually wa%$ & m5d$ 8 und]clo?+ & /ock+s 7! /ock+s1 by ! way1 w\ld h bli/]$ ! h>de/ foot aft] 8 m5d+71 & :il/ he 0 ,sup]ior he w\ld nev] all[ anyone to d a m5ial s]vice = him4 ,he _h a great dread ( ! slighte/ attempt at ov]-nicety 9 a prie/'s dress2 x 0 angui% to him to see a prie/1 especially a religi\s1 ) kid gloves1 neat %oes1 or a fa%ionable hat4 ,8 own appe>ance might be put d[n z "o degree %ort ( slov5l9ess4 ,be x rememb]$ t ?is 0 n 8 natural b5t4 ,we are told by ^? :o knew him :5 a "y man1 t he w\ld walk a doz5 /reets 9 ,london1 & ent] e hosi]'s %op1 to f9d articles t w\ld suit 8 ta/e 9 /yle & fitt+2 x _h be5 almo/ impossible to please him 9 ?is respect2 :]eas1 :5 a religi\s1 he w\ld z soon we> a ca/-(f t>tan z any?+ else1 if x did n t5d to br+ a k9d ( disrespect ^u 8 ord]4 ,he wore = sev]al ye>s an old mantle belong+ to a religi\s :o di$1 & w\ld nev] leave x (f z long z !re 0 room = ano!r pat* ^u x1 unless ! ,prov9cial gave him /rict ord]s to d s4 ,he 0 scrupul\sly exact 9 fulfill+ ! rules & regulations ( ! ,congregation1 s mu* s t ev5 9 #chb ^? cases 9 :i* o!rs w\ld consid] !mselves disp5s$1 he w\ld g ?r\gh ev]y?+4 ,x is our rule to *ant ! entire ( ! ,div9e ,(fice 9 *oir2 ! rector is suppos$ to give a homily or two1 call$ exam5s1 e week to ! religi\s4 ,:5 !re is n a suffici5t numb] to *ant1 ( c\rse no law human or div9e w\ld require u to d s2 & if !re be n a congregation1 "o is n expect$1 9 ! ord9>y c\rse ( ?+s1 to prea* to empty b5*es4 ,fa!r ,ignatius 0 z ke5ly aw>e ( ! common-s5se drift ( ?is k9d ( reason+ z any "o c\ld be1 b he s ov]came ! prompt+s ( human consid]ations1 t a lit]al obs]vance1 9 ! face ( su* pla9 exceptions1 seem$ 8 ord9>y way ( act+4 ,!re are two in/ances 9 po9t t occurr$ ab\t ! ye> #ahdi4 ,! two prie/s :o =m$ ! *oir ( ! community at ,! ,hyde rema9$ 9 b$ "o night1 ei!r f illness or late att5dance at sick-calls1 & ,fa!r ,ignatius 0 ! only prie/ pres5t4 ,he *ant$ ! :ole ( mat9s & lauds by himself1 & w5t ?r\gh x z =mally z if !re 7 tw5ty religi\s 9 *oir4 ,ano!r day ! prie/s 7 out1 & he & two lay bro!rs only rema9$ at home2 he prea*$ !m ! exam5 j ! same z if ! *oir 0 full4 ,ano!r "t ! al>um t us$ to g (f at "o o'clock1 at t "t = mat9s1 miss$4 ,fa!r ,ignatius awoke at ?ree o'clock1 & he imm$iately sprung ! rattle & assembl$ ! religi\s = mat9s4 ,at half-pa/ f\r ! night "w 9 *oir 0 ov]3 half-pa/ five 0 !n ! h\r ( ris+ = prime4 ,fa!r ,ignatius kept !m all 9 *oir until ! "t1 & _h ! bells rung1 & ev]y?+ else 9 due ord]4 ,?is does n argue a k9d ( unreason+ obs]vance 9 him1 out ( "t & out ( place4 ,on ! contr>y1 he well knew t x 0 inconv5i5t1 b he ?\ght ,god w\ld be m glorifi$ by x ?an by an exemption f :at 0 prescrib$4 ,"o anecdote he us$ to relate to u conv9c$ u ( t4 ,he (t5 relat$ ) p>ticul> tact h[ once 9 ,a/on ,hall1 ,fa!r ,dom9ic did n he> ! bell = mat9s4 ,he awoke at half-pa/ two2 ev]y?+ 0 /ill4 ,he w5t & s\nd$ ! rattle ) a v5geance1 #chc z if e s\nd 0 meant to say1 ,i'll give a good p5ance to ! bro!r t =got to put up ! al>um4 ,:5 he _h done s\nd+ he dropp$ ! in/rum5t at ! *oir door1 & w5t 9 ) a tap] to light ! lamps4 ,:at 0 8 mortification to f9d all ! religi\s j conclud+ _! m$itation ) a smo!r$ laugh at _! ,sup]ior4 ,two o!r tok5s ( 8 _s at ?is "t mu/ be illu/rat$ toge!r4 ,he 0 a v cool reason]2 x might almo/ be said t he sc>cely ev] grew hot 9 dispute1 & always gave 8 adv]s>y's argum5ts due consid]ation4 ,at ! same "t he 0 f> f be+ ( a sceptical ca/ ( m9d4 ,if an argum5t approv$ itself to him1 no matt] h[ trifl+ x might be intr9sically1 he felt b\nd to admit x1 & adopt x1 if practical1 unless he c\ld refute x completely4 ,aga91 he _h a ?or\gh disreg>d ( human respect4 ,:at w p say8 or ,h[ w x look8 nev] ent]$ into ! motives ( 8 actions2 & if x did1 he w\ld consid] himself b\nd to g /raight & defy !m4 ,:at did he c>e ab\t ! op9ion ( ! _w8 ,x 01 he knew1 seldom l$ by s\nd reason1 & !re=e b5ea? 8 consid]ation4 ,he f\nd t ! ,oratorians began to g ab\t 9 _! s\tanes2 he _h a talk ) ,fa!r ,fab] ab\t x1 & =?) resolv$ to g ab\t 9 8 habit4 ,c>d9al ,wiseman approv$ ( x1 if done ) prud5ce1 & ,fa!r ,ignatius began at once4 ,9 a lett] to ,mr4 ,montei? he says3--,i c\rt ! hon\r ( foll[+ ! ,oratorians close 9 ?is 7conf9+ ourselves to ! "w ( our vocation71 z ,i h done likewise 9 beg9n+ to we> ! habit4 ,he us$ to relate an amus+ adv5ture he once _h 9 a tra9 ) 8 habit on4 ,at a c]ta9 /ation a middle-ag$ g5tleman1 ) 8 little daught]1 7 gett+ into ! c>riage :i* ,fa!r ,ignatius _h to himself1 z e "o %unn$ 8 monki% company4 ,! little girl got afraid1 & w\ld n ent]4 ,! g5tleman bravely v5tur$ 91 to set an example to 8 *ild1 b all to no avail1--! girl 0 /ill afraid4 ,at la/ ! man said out l\d1 ,come on1 *ild2 ! g5tleman won't bite6 mean+ ,fa!r ,ignatius4 #chd ,! *ild summ$ up c\rage :5 %e he>d ! pat]nal assurance ( safety to h] sk91 & got to a seat4 ,%e bundl$ h]self up 9 ! corn] diagonally opposite ! monk1 tri$ to appe> z ne> ! invisible z %e c\ld1 & />$ wildly on ! /range spectacle = a long "t4 ,h] fa!r got into conv]sation ) ,fa!r ,ignatius1 began deciph]+ ! badge by means ( all ! ,greek & ,lat9 he c\ld br+ to 8 assi/ance1 & became q int]e/$ 9 ! g5ial conv]sation ( ! good prie/4 ,:5 ! *ild he>d h] fa!r laugh1 %e began to edge up ne> ! /rang]1 &1 be=e !y sep>at$1 fa!r & *ild 7 conv9c$ t monks 7 n su* frightful ?+s z !y appe>$ at fir/ sight4 ,we %all h o!r adv5tures to relate ab\t 8 habit fur!r on4 ,ano!r peculi> *>act]i/ic ( 8 _s 0 8 great devotion to ! ,bless$ ,virg94 ,he set m value on a ,hail ,m>y ?an any conceivable =m ( pray]4 ,he w5t s f> 9 ?is1 t he _h to be reason$ out ( its excess aft]w>ds by "o ( 8 companions4 ,he did ev]y?+ by ,hail ,m>ys2 he w\ld conv]t ,engl& by ,hail ,m>ys2 & 9 ! ye> #ahej he obta9$ a pl5>y indulg5ce = ! ?ree ,hail ,m>ys = ! conv]sion ( ,engl&4 ,:5 any "o ask$ him to pray = !m1 he promis$ a ,hail ,m>y4 ,?is 0 v praisewor?y 9 him1 z we "k h[ h>d x is ev5 = "s to g he>t & s\l into ! ,ca?olic in/9ct ( devotion to ! ,"m ( ,god4 ,!y mu/ h _! qualifications1 & _! t]ms1 & _! conditions1 z if1 =soo?1 %e ought to be oblig$ to !m = ackn[l$g+ h] privileges at all4 ,! wor/ ( x is1 t ,ca?olics (t5 tone d[n _! books ( devotion & expressions to suit ! morbid ta/es ( ultra-,prote/ants1 or ! fa/idi\sness ( "s :itewa%$ ,puseyite4 ,x may be ?\ght prud5t to d s2 b x is disgraceful1 mean1 & di%on\rable1 to say ! lea/ ( x4 ,^! are ! mo/ prom95t outl9es 9 ,fa!r ,ignatius's _s at ! "t we are writ+ ab\t1 & if we add to !m a great devotion to ! sacrifice ( ! mass1 we %all h 8 s\l 9 a fair way be=e u4 ,he nev] miss$ celebrat+1 if he possibly c\ld2 & (t5 he arriv$ at #che #aa o'clock 9 ! day at "o ( our h\ses1 aft] travell+ all night1 & w\ld eat no?+ until he _h fir/ said mass4 ,a mon? be=e he di$ he travell$ all night f ,glasg[ to ,london1 & said mass 9 ,highgate at #aa o'clock4 ,he 0 jad$1 weak 9 heal?1 b he w\ld n lose "o sacrifice3 x 0 ( too great a value1 & he _h receiv$ too _m fav\rs ?r\gh x1 to omit x on light gr\nds4 ,?is 0 a life-long devotion ( 81 & x is ! ess5tial "o = a prie/ ( ,god4 ,f :at has be5 said1 we c =m a fair e/imate ( 8 "* z a ,passioni/4 ,"o is s obvi\s t x requires no m5tion at all1 & t 0 8 zeal = ! conv]sion & sanctification ( s\ls4 ,s f> did ?is g1 t he seem$ l$ by x bl9dly & :olly4 ,?is 0 8 weak1 or1 p]haps m prop]ly1 8 /rong po9t4 ,g ) him 9 t1 & y cov]$ a multitude ( s9s4 ,ano!r ess5tial 0 8 ?ank+ ,god = ev]y?+4 ,?is he c>ri$ s f> t he became p]fectly ins5sible to insults1 mock]ies1 & injuries1 & yet he felt !m ke5ly4 ,at "o "t he us$ to pass late at night by a lonesome lane t l$ to our la/ h\se at ,! ,hyde4 ,he he>d rum\rs ( "s evil-dispos$ wret*es hav+ int5d$ to %oot him4 ,"o night he he>d a ru/l+ 9 ! h$ge z he 0 walk+ on1 & ! ?\ght /ruck him t p]haps an assass9 0 ly+ 9 ambu% = him4 ,! religi\s ask$ him :at 7 8 ?\ghts4 ,well1 said he1 ,i hop$ t :5 ! bullet /ruck me ,i w\ld h "t to say1 '?ank ,god = t' be=e ,i di$4 ,f ?is r\gh sket* ( 8 _s x w be se5 t he _h too little ( ! s]p5t1 9 ! ,gospel s5se1 to make a good ,sup]ior4 ,he 0 too simple & confid+ = t2 he did n "k h[ to suspect1 & any "o t knew h[ to get into 8 views c\ld d :at he pleas$4 ,at ! same "t1 all rev]5c$ him z a sa9t1 & e day ( 8 religi\s life increas$ ! e/imation 9 :i* he 0 held by 8 own bre?r54 ,?is is ! m valuable z x is ! private life ( mo/ m5 :i* l[]s !m 9 ! eyes ( ^? :o h ! opportunity ( obs]v+ !m4 ,fa!r ,ignatius tri$ always to make ! subject-matt] ( #chf 8 conv]sation z edify+ z possible2 x 0 )al s beautifully int]sp]s$ ) amus+ anecdotes1 t x c\ld n fail to int]e/ all4 ,he _h a peculi> tact = relat+ /ories1 & a wond]ful memory2 he 0 unrivall$ 9 8 p[] ( mimicry1 & he enjoy$ fun ) ! greate/ reli%4 ,x 0 ! op9ion ( e "o :o knew him intimately1 t no?+ came "u 8 notice :i* he c\ld n turn to po9t+ ! argum5t ( a s]mon or fur!r+ ! glory ( ,god4 ,he *ri/ianiz$ ev]y?+2 & did s ) su* grace1 t ! love ( :at he remodell$ 0 increas$ = its new aspect4 #chg ,,*apt] ,,vi4 ,8 ,deal+s ,) ,prote/ants ,& ,pray]s ,= ,union4 ,! k9dly feel+s ,fa!r ,ignatius always %[$ = ,prote/ants laid him op5 to ! *>ge ( a want ( appreciation = ! bless+s ( fai?1 or ( n hat+ h]esy z sa9ts h hat$ x4 ,al?\gh 8 :ole life & actions amply refute ei!r conclusion1 "s ( ! incid5ts ( ?is p]iod ( 8 life br+ out 8 conduct 9 ?is respect 9 its real "*4 ,he tri$ to ext5d ! b5efit or plea ( inv9cible ignorance z widely z possible4 ,he lab\r$ & reason$1 ) a w>m? unusual to him1 to remove ! notion "s ,ca?olics h1 t ! majority ( ,prote/ants "k !y are wrong1 b f "s unwor?y motive w n give up _! errors4 ,8 pro(s ( ! position he *ose to take "h 7 n c]ta9ly ! mo/ conv9c+1 = 8 /ock argum5t 0 to quote himself4 ,x did ( c\rse occur to him t its po9t c\ld be retort$ by ! fact ( 8 becom+ a ,ca?olic = 8 bona fides2 b he took up ! argum5t !n by say+ we 7 !re=e to hope = ! conv]sion ( ,engl&4 ,8 idea ( ,engl&'s apo/asy 0 ma9ly ?is3 t ! body ( ! p _h be5 sw9dl$ out ( _! religion by ! ma*9ations ( a few crafty1 unpr9cipl$ /atesm51 at ! "t ( ! ,re=mation4 ,a sy/em ( misrepres5tation & false col\r+ ( ,ca?olic doctr9es & practices 0 inv5t$ & h&$ d[n f g5]ation to g5]ation1 :i* impregnat$ ! m9ds ( *ildr5 ) ! notion t ,ca?olicity & absurdity 7 "o & ! same ?+4 ,f ?is po9t ( view did he look at ! millions :o grop$ 9 ! #chh d>kness ( error1 blasphem+ ! doctr9es ( ,jesus ,*ri/1 & imag9+ !y 7 !reby do+ ,him a s]vice4 ,he took !n ! side ( pity1 :i* always incl9es "o to ! less5+ ( faults4 ,he lam5t$ no?+ m ?an ! loss ( fai? 9 ,engl&1 & he ?\ght t a h>%1 iron way ( deal+ ) ,engli%m5 w\ld close _! he>ts aga9/ grace altoge!r4 ,?is l$ him to use ! milde/ t]ms he c\ld f9d1--nay1 ! mo/ respectful1--9 speak+ ( ,prote/ants4 ,he w\ld nev] call !m h]etics1 nor _! m9i/]s p>sons4 ,sep>at$ f ! ,*ur*1 ,*ur* ( ,engl& p1 ,diss5t]s1 ,cl]gym51 7 8 usual t]ms1 & he w\ld (t5 also speak ( !m z our sep>at$ bre?r54 ,?is tw(old aspect ( 8 be>+ t[>ds ,prote/ants c]ta9ly proce$$ alike f *>ity & zeal4 ,x 0 a common rem>k ) him1 t we ought n to suppose p bad & evil-dispos$ unless we are c]ta9 ( x1 nei!r %\ld we hurt _! feel+s by opprobri\s epi!ts4 ,& if we int5d to d !m any good we %\ld be ! m cauti\s /ill z to our ?\ghts & words4 ,he us$ to sigh :5 he _h done speak+ ( ! /ate ( religion 9 ,engl&1 b he w\ld imm$iately />t up z if f a rev]ie & say1 ,%all we n d some?+ to save our poor c\ntrym58 ,s f> 0 he f sympa?iz+ ) ! milde/ =m ( error1 t ev5 9 s*ola/ic que/ions he w\ld always take ! saf] side4 ,9 8 love = ! h]etic1 !re=e1 no "o c\ld ev] f9d ! lea/ sympa?y ) ! h]esy2 or if he call$ ! error a polite "n1 x 0 only to ga9 admission to ! he>t x 0 corrod+1 9 ord] to be all[$ to pluck x out4 ,if we take into acc\nt 8 great love = s\ls1 x w seem wond]ful t he did n bur/ out at times into indignation aga9/ :at de/roy$ s _m2 b we mu/ rememb] t su* a ?+ z fi]ce outbur/s ( any k9d 7 mo/ unsuitable to 8 _s4 ,8 love w\ld make him try to elim9ate f ^? :o _h di$ ext]nal to ! ,*ur*1 all ! =mal h]esy he possibly c\ld2 & he felt special delight 9 ! fact t ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* =bids u to judge ! #chi damnation ( any p>ticul> individual z c]ta94 ,b !n let u ?9k = a mom5t ( :at he did to uproot h]esy4 ,he spoke1 he wrote1 he prea*$1 he toil$ = ?irty ye>s incessantly almo/ = ?is s+le object4 ,any "o t weighs ?is well w be f> f judg+ t he _h ! lea/ sympa?y ) error4 ,8 k9dl9ess1 !re=e1 = ,prote/ants1 & 8 belief t ! va/ majority ( !m 7 9 good fai?1 s f> f mak+ him sit d[n at ease & enjoy 8 own fai?1 & n be/ir himself unless ,prote/ants ?ru/ !mselves ^u him to claim admission into ! fold1 produc$ directly ! opposite effect4 ,_! n be+ s bad z 0 g5]ally imag9$1 buoy$ 8 hope 9 _! spe$y recov]y2 _! be+ s ne> ! tru?1 z he *>itably suppos$1 made him /ra9 e n]ve to compel !m to come across ! b>ri] t sep>at$ !m f him4 ,"o ( ! means he adopt$ = reunit+ ,prote/ants to ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* laid him op5 to ano!r s]i\s *>ge1 :i* 01 if possible1 m gr\ndless ?an ! la/4 ,9 ,janu>y1 #ahej1 he began to g ab\t & call ^u ,prote/ants ( e description--m9i/]s ( *ur* & /ate nobles & plebeians4 ,8 object 0 to get !m all to pray = unity4 ,to /ate pla9ly 8 way ( action1 x 0 ?is3--,he int5d$ to ask all ,prote/ants to pray = unity 9 ! tru?1 :]ev] ,god kn[s x to be4 ,?is1 he said1 0 ( c\rse to pray = conv]sion to ,ca?olicism unkn[n to !mselves2 x 0 tak+ ! enemy by /ratagem 9 8 own camp4 ,objections 7 made 9 diff]5t qu>t]s aga9/ ! proposition4 ,"s said x 0 n act+ fairly & c&idly2 he !n us$ to qualify x by tell+ !m t he knew v well ! tru? lay 9 ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* alone1 & s did e ,ca?olic1 & t if any ,prote/ant ask$ him he w\ld pla9ly tell him s4 ,o!rs !n said1 ,prote/ants w\ld be all pray+ = proselytes to _! own p]suasions1 = !y 7 all 9 good fai?1 & ?\ght !mselves 9 ! tru?4 ,^! & sundry o!r objections 7 made to ?is mode ( proce$+2 x 0 look$ ^u ) suspicion1 z sav\r+ too mu* ( communication ) h]etics1 & he nev] got a #cij sup]ior to approve ( x1 nei!r 0 x condemn$4 ,s x rema9$ to ! la/ an agitat$ "q1 :i* none ( u w\ld ent] into1 & :i* himself adopt$ ) a k9d ( t5tative adhesion4 ,!re 0 no?+ wrong1 c]ta9ly1 9 gett+ ,prote/ants to pray = unity2 b !n1 unity 9 ! tru?1 :]e ,god knew x to exi/1 0 a v indef9ite ?+ to propose to !m4 ,que/ions might be rais$ :i* c\ld only be answ]$ 9 "o way4 ,:at k9d ( unity8 ,ext]nal or int]nal1 or bo?8 ,:]e does ,god "k ! tru? to exi/8 ,mu/ we all put ourselves 9 a ,c>tesian d\bt = a />t+-po9t8 ,& s on4 ,! only answ] c\ld be--,! ,ca?olic ,*ur*4 ,& might he n z well ask !m to pray = t at once8 ,fa!r ,ignatius 0 n at all ob/9ate 9 /ick+ to ?is proposal z a !ory he might r$uce to practice1 x came up at times 9 8 conv]sation1 & 0 dropp$ z easily4 ,! mi/ake x l$ to 01 h[ev]1 r s]i\s3 x 0 suppos$ t ,fa!r ,ignatius look$ fav\rably on1 if he did n entirely co9cide )1 a society call$ ,! ,association = ,promot+ ! ,unity ( ,*ri/5dom1 designat$ by ! lett]s ,a4,p4,u4,c4 ,) ?is society ,fa!r ,ignatius nev] _h any?+ to d2 he dete/$ its pr9ciples1 al?\gh he hop$ x w\ld d good 9 its way4 ,he wi%$ x to be conf9$ to ,prote/ants4 ,"o lead+ pr9ciple ( ! ,a4,p4,u4,c4 0 c]ta9ly some:at ak9 to "s ( ,fa!r ,ignatius's dreams--conv]sions en masse2 b 8 notions & ^? ( ! ,association 7 widely diff]5t4 ,!y 7 = com+ ov] 9 a great1 respectable body1 ^: size & /&+ w\ld des]ve to receive great concessions 9 ! way ( discipl9e1 z ! condition ( _! surr5d]4 ,fa!r ,ignatius 0 = an unconditional submission ( ea* individual1 & c\ld n all[ any "o to wait at ! door ( ! ,*ur* = a companion to ent] ) him4 ,! en masse ( ,fa!r ,ignatius 0 no m nor less1 !n1 ?an ?is3 t ! p ( ,engl& %\ld ?r[ (f _! prejudices & beg9 9 a body to exam9e c&idly ! gr\nds ( ! ,ca?olic fai?4 ,he 0 glad t ! ,association exi/$1 because x c>ri$ out s mu* ( 8 wi%es2 b x #cia w5t too f> = him1 & 9 a prohibit$ l9e1 :5 x ask$ = ,ca?olic pray]s & sacrifices1 & = ,ca?olic memb]s4 ,he nev]1 !re=e1 gave 8 "n to x1 ?\gh (t5 & repeat$ly solicit$ to d s4 ,8 greate/ fri5d 0 publicly kn[n to be a memb] ( ! ,association1 & mu* z he lov$ & hon\r$ him1 ,fa!r ,ignatius _h no hesitation 9 say+ ( him1 9 hoc non laudo4 ,ev5 s late z ! ye> '#fc or '#fd1 he receiv$ a bundle ( _! (ficial pap]s1 ) a private lett] f ! secret>y & a numb] ( ! ,union ,review2 he 0 se5 to scan !m ov]1 & !n ?r[ !m into ! fire4 ,ab\t ! ye> '#ej or '#ea1 :5 he 0 always go+ ab\t ask+ = pray]s = unity1 aft] ! new idea t /ruck him1 an incid5t occurr$ to be> out :at is "h said4 ,he happ5$ to be speak+ ) a roomful ( ,prote/ant cl]gym5 on ?is v subject4 ,!y li/5$ to him v att5tively1 rais$ objections1 _h !m answ]$1 & f9ally agre$ to ! ju/ness ( 8 proposals4 ,!y agre$1 moreov]1 to kneel d[n !n & pray toge!r = unity1 & ask$ ,fa!r ,ignatius to jo9 !m4 ,he refus$ at once4 ,!y press$ him on e side1 & said1 among o!r ?+s1 t he ought to set !m ?is example4 ,he jump$ up ) indignation1 & said1 9 a mann] q unusual to him1 ,i'd r be torn 9 pieces by =ty ?\s& mad dogs ?an say a pray] ) y4 ,he h]eupon left ! room1 & became m cauti\s = ! future z to h[ & :5 he ask$ !m to pray = unity4 ,! reason ( ?is abrupt proce$+ 0 ! law t =bids all ,ca?olics to communicate ) h]etics 9 div9e ?+s4 ,jo9t pray]1 ( c\rse1 is aga9/ ?is law4 ,x is s+ul> t1 ?\gh he has left beh9d 8 ?\ghts drawn out 9 full ^u all ! ideas he took up f "t to "t ab\t ! conv]sion ( h]etics & ! sanctification ( ,ca?olics1 !re is no?+ left among 8 pap]s ^u ?is project4 ,we may conclude f ?is1 z well z :at has be5 said above1 t :ile he look$ ^u ! ,unioni/s ) k9dness1 he nev] adopt$ _! pr9ciples2 & su* ( 8 notions z seem$ cong5ial to !irs w be #cib f\nd1 on exam9ation1 to be totally diff]5t4 ,?is x 0 necess>y to rem>k1 z _m v well in=m$ ,ca?olics ?\ght poor ,fa!r ,ignatius came "u ! c5sure ( ! ,inquisition1 9 re ,a4,p4,u4,c4 ,x 0 q a mi/ake1 & he %\ld h endors$ t c5sure himself1 if he liv$1 & freely z he avoid$ :at drew x d[n be=e he di$4 #cic ,,*apt] ,,vii4 ,fa!r ,ignatius ,9 #ahej4 ,?is ye> 0 s full ( ev5ts int]e/+ to ,fa!r ,ignatius1 t !re is no lead+ "o r\nd :i* o!rs may be gr\p$ to head ! *apt]4 ,he expect$ to be call$ to ,rome t[>ds ,ea/]2 he _h ev5 writt5 to ! ,g5]al1 & _h receiv$ lett]s to t effect4 ,! object ( ?is visit w be be/ und]/ood f ! foll[+ extract f a lett] writt5 at ?is "t1 dat$ f #ac1 ,g>nault ,place1 ,cl]k5well1 ,london3-- ,i am "h on a mission ) ,fa!r ,gaud5tius1 & z we h n yet great press ( "w1 ,i w write to tell y ( an important feature 9 my prospects = ! pres5t ye>4 ,x is1 t ,i am go+ to ,rome ab\t ,ea/]4 ,ab\t ! "t ,i saw y la/ ,i wrote to ! ,g5]al1 say+ t ,i ?\ght ?is w\ld be a good /ep4 ,aft] t ,i ?\ght no m ab\t x till ! o!r day a lett] came f him1 9 :i* he approv$ ! proposal2 & s1 aft] a mission :i* we are to give at ,/4 ,george's f ! fir/ to ! f\r? ,sunday 9 ,l5t1 ,i propose />t+4 ,i %all be1 ,i expect1 ab\t f\r mon?s abs5t4 ,i propose begg+ my way !re1 ?r\gh ,france or ,g]many1 :i* w make ! j\rney la/ a mon? or six weeks2 !n1 aft] /opp+ six weeks or two mon?s 9 ,italy1 to make acqua9tance ) our ,s5ior ,fa!rs1 & in=m myself1 z mu* z possible1 ( all ! ways & _s ( our congregation 7( :i*1 ( c\rse1 n[ ,i am v ignorant71 ,i hope to br+ back ! ,g5]al ) me to make a visitation ( 8 flock4 ,be=e giv+ ! mission 9 ,/4 ,george's1 he wrote to 8 si/]1 ,lady ,lyttelton1 to tell h] ( 8 int5d$ j\rney to ,rome1 & ( a visit he w\ld pay h] be=e />t+4 ,h] #cid lady%ip 0 !n 9 ,w9dsor ,ca/le1 & we %all give h] reply1 z x %[s ! g5ial affection t always exi/$ betwe5 !m1 & at ! same "t acc\nts = 8 n hav+ gone to ,w9dsor 9 8 habit1 z 0 (t5 suppos$4 ,w9dsor ,ca/le1 ,jan4 #bh?4 ,my ,de> ,bro!r1--,i am v mu* oblig$ to y = y\r k9dly tell+ me y\r plans1 & giv+ me a hope ( see+ y be=e y g to ,rome4 ,! p]iod y m5tion z ! probable "o = y\r mission at ,/4 ,george's1 w mo/ likely be ! v be/ = me to see y1 z we %all probably remove to ,london ab\t ! middle ( ,febru>y1 & rema9 till aft] ,ea/]2 s ,i %all look =w>d ) mu* pleasure to an occasional visit4 ,i am mu* oblig$ to y = tell+ me ( ! int5d$ *ange 9 y\r dress4 ,i %\ld nev] h guess$ its probability1 hav+ errone\sly believ$ x simply illegal2 b ,i f9d t 0 a mi/ake4 ,y w1 ,i hope1 n wond] or blame me1 if ,i beg y to visit me at my own little home1 ,no4 #ch1 ,/4 ,james's ,place1 & n at ! ,palace1 :5 y are look+ s rem>kable4 ,i don't want to figure 9 a p>agraph1 & s novel a sight 9 ! ,palace might lead to "s su* cata/rophe4 ,a day's notice ( y\r visit w always enable me to meet y1 & ,c>ol9e & ,kitty1 & probably o!rs ( ^? t rema9 to me ( my anci5t belong+s1 may !reby sometimes get a glimpse ( y1 ?\gh we %\ld be always able to h our coze 9 a sep>ate room4 ,i almo/ wi% y w\ld take me "u y\r c[l to ,rome4 ,h[ ,i %\ld l once m to see ! ,colosseum 7& to le>n to spell its "n71 & ! ,vatican6 b h>dly at ! co/ ( a long j\rney1 ei!r4 ,fritz & ,bessy ,footnote #aa are com+ "h next ,?ursday on a two days' visit to ! ,que51 & :5 ,i h se5 !m ,i w tell y ( _! plans4 ,i suppose !y w be at ,al?orp till aft] ,ea/]4 ,believe me1 my de> bro!r1 ,v affectionately y\rs1 ,s4 ,lyttelton4 ,footnote #aa3 ,"l & ,lady ,sp5c]4 #cie ,:5 ,fa!r ,ignatius w5t to ,/4 ,james's ,place to pay ! visit arrang$ = 9 ?is lett]1 he exp]i5c$ "s difficulty 9 gett+ z f> z 8 si/]4 ,! port] :o op5$ ! gate did n "k him1 & 01 ( c\rse1 a/oni%$ to see su* a /range figure dem&+ an int]view ) 8 mi/ress4 ,he w\ld n let him 9 until he got special ord]s f ,lady ,lyttelton h]self4 ,fa!r ,ignatius us$ to contra/ ?is s]vant's mode ( act+ ) t ( ano!r :o admitt$ him once to ,al?orp4 ,?is la/ s]vant did n "k him ei!r2 b see+ he look$ tir$1 he took him into 8 lodge1 got him "s bread & *eese & a glass ( ale = refre%m5t4 ,by-&-by ! ,e>l pass$1 & 0 highly amus$ at see+ ,george regale himself ) su* satisfaction on ! s]vant's f>e4 ,! s]vant made "s apologies1 b !y 7 q unnecess>y1 = ,fa!r ,ignatius nev] =got 8 k9dness1 & us$ to say t he enjoy$ ! port]'s pittance f> m ?an ! vi&s ( ! ,big ,h\se1 z he us$ to call x4 ,fa!r ,ignatius 0 seldom at home up to ,june1 :5 he w5t to visit our religi\s 9 ,belgium1 :o 7 subject to 8 jurisdiction2 he _h giv5 a mission 9 ,g>nault ,/reet1 a retreat to our religi\s 9 ,a/on ,hall1 a mission 9 ,/4 ,george's1 ,s\?w>k1 a retreat to nuns 9 ,w9*e/]1 a retreat to p 9 ,blackbrook1 & a retreat 9 ,s$gley ,p>k4 ,on 8 return f ,belgium he rema9$ 9 ,london1 & prea*$ 9 diff]5t *ur*es1 besides giv+ a retreat to ! p 9 ,w9*e/]1 & visit+ sev]al ,prote/ant m9i/]s1 until ! mission 9 ,maze ,pond4 ,?is 0 s badly att5d$ t he us$ to prea* 9 ! c\rts1 beat+ up = an audi5ce4 ,9 giv+ an acc\nt sometimes ( ! visits above m5tion$1 he us$ to tell ab\t an old m9i/] he & ano!r ( our fa!rs once call$ ^u4 ,?is g5tleman suff]$ f g\t1 & 0 consequ5tly r te/y2 he _h a lay fri5d /ay+ ) him at ! "t ( ! two ,passioni/s' visit4 ,he call$ ! fa!rs idolat]s1 & insi/$1 "r or wrong1 t our ,"l us$ ! ^w repres5t :5 he in/itut$ ! ,bless$ ,sacram5t at ! ,la/ ,supp]4 ,x 0 9 va9 t all ?ree tri$ to conv9ce him ( 8 mi/ake4 ,:51 at la/1 ! passage #cif 0 po9t$ out to him1 & t he _h assur$ himself1 by inspect+ title-page & royal arms1 t ! ,bible 0 a g5u9e au?oriz$ v]sion1 he 0 s f> f giv+ 9 t1 l ! wolf 9 ! fable1 he imm$iately indict$ !m on ano!r plea4 ,?is incid5t ,fa!r ,ignatius us$ to rec\nt to %[ h[ f> ignorance h9d]$ ! removal ( prejudice4 ,8 ,roman plan fell to ! gr\nd 9 ! beg9n+ ( ,july1 :5 he receiv$ a lett] to ann\nce ! com+ ( ,fa!r ,eug5e z ,visitor-,g5]al to ,engl&4 ,fa!r ,ignatius w5t to meet him to ,t\rnay1 & escort$ him to ,engl&1 :]e 8 pass+ visit became a fix$ resid5ce to ! pres5t day4 ,?is happ5$ t[>ds ! end ( ,july4 ,fa!r ,ignatius !n gave retreats to ! prie/s 9 ,u%aw ,college1 to ! nuns 9 ,sund]l&1 & came to ,london to arrange ab\t our tak+ ,/4 ,wilfrid's f ! ,oratorians4 ,he w5t ?r\gh all ?is be=e ! end ( ,augu/1 & 0 9 ,c>l[ on ! #d? ( ,septemb]1 to give two retreats at ! same "t to ! /ud5ts ( ! ,college & ! ,pres5tation nuns4 ,on ! #h? ( ,septemb] he w5t to ,?urles4 ,! ,iri% bi%ops 7 assembl$ !re = ! mo/ important synod held s9ce ,h5ry ,,viii4's proposals 7 reject$4 ,! synod 0 held to make canons ( discipl9e1 & laws = ! new /atus ! ,*ur* _h ga9$ 9 ,irel&4 ,! r\gh-&-ready c]emonial t _h to be us$ 9 times ( p]secution 0 laid aside1 aft] x _h done good "w 9 its day1 & "o m sy/ematic 0 decre$ = ! adm9i/ration ( ! sacram5ts4 ,"h ! ,iri% prelates 7 assembl$1 & ,fa!r ,ignatius ?\ght x a great opportunity = op5+ 8 m9d & /at+ 8 views to ,irel& by lett+ !m kn[n to h] hi]>*y4 ,8 acc\nt ( ! visit to ,?urles is ?us record$ 9 8 j\rnal3-- ,sept4 #h4--,mass at #e4 ,railway to ,?urles at #f4 ,put up at ! ,*ri/ian s*ools4 ,d9$ !re at #d4 ,saw ! ,primate1 c41 at ! ,college4 ,begg$ ( ! bi%ops1 c4 ,tuesday1 ,sept4 #i4--,mass at #f1 at ! ,monk's ,alt>4 ,begg$ on f ! bi%ops4 ,at #aj1 ! great c]emony ( conclud+ ! synod1 till #b4 ,! ,primate prea*$4 ,dr4 ,slatt]y sang #cig mass4 ,i walk$ 9 ! procession4 ,at #e1 d9$ ) ! bi%ops1 c41 at ! ,college4 ,made a spee* aft] d9n] on ! ,crusade4 ,aft] 8 visit to ,?urles1 he came back to ,c>l[ & gave a retreat to ! lay /ud5ts 9 _! own oratory4 ,he !n w5t (f on a begg+ t\r ?r\gh ,kild>e1 ,c>l[1 & ,kilk5ny4 ,:il/ 9 ,kilk5ny he w5t to look at ! old ca!dral 7n[ 9 ,prote/ant h&s72 8 cic]one 0 a v talkative old woman1 :o gave him a hi/ory1 9 h] own /yle1 ( ! crumbl+ wor?ies ^: names he deciph]$ on ! diff]5t monum5ts4 ,"o acc\nt %e told ) especial gu/o3 ! la/ mom5ts ( an old lady ( ! ,butl]s4 ,?is old lady1 accord+ to ! cic]one's acc\nt1 _h once be5 a ,ca?olic1 & on h] dea?-b$ wi%$ to receive ! rites ( ! ,*ur*4 ,%e 0 told t if %e di$ a ,ca?olic1 ^? to :om h] prop]ty 0 will$ w\ld be dis9h]it$1 & t ! prop]ty w\ld pass ov] to o!rs4 ,%e hesitat$ "s "t on he>+ ?is ann\ncem5t1 & aft] a few m9utes' reflection express$ h] decision z foll[s1 ,oh1 well2 x is bett] t "o old woman %\ld burn 9 hell ?an t ! family ( ! ,butl]s %\ld lose _! e/ate4 ,%e di$ %ortly aft]--a ,prote/ant4 ,fa!r ,ignatius us$ to say t he nev] 0 m surpris$ ?an at ! mann] ( 8 guide z %e conclud$ ! climax ( h] n>rative4 ,%e seem$ to ?9k old ,granny ,butl]'s resolution %[$ ! highe/ grade ( h]oic virtue & self-sacrifice4 ,9 ,c>rick-on-,suir he says3 ,made ! be/ day's begg+ 9 my life up to ?is1 #ej4 ,he !n w5t to ,tipp]>y1 ,cork1 visit$ all ! conv5ts & prie/s1 came to ,birr1 sp5t an aft]noon ) ,"l ,ross & 8 telescope2 begs 9 ,lim]ick1 ,drogh$a1 ,newry1 ,dundalk1 ,ardee1 ,ca/le-blaney1 ,c>rickmacross1 ,londond]ry1 ,/rabane1 ,omagh4 ,:5 he 0 9 ,omagh !re 0 a t5ant-"r meet+1 & he w5t to he> ,gavan ,duffy4 ,he begs ?r\gh ,dungannon1 ,lurgan1 ,enniskill51 ,bally%annon1 ,clogh]4 ,he !n came to ,dubl91 f :i* he paid fly+ visits to a few conv5ts1 & to ! colleges ( ,maynoo? & ,all-hall[s4 ,he return$ to ,engl& on ! #ag? ( ,novemb]2 #cih &1 dur+ 8 two mon?s' t\r 9 ,irel&1 he _h prea*$ sev5ty-n9e s]mons1 on ! conv]sion ( ,engl& *iefly4 ,he he>d ( ! re-e/abli%m5t ( ! hi]>*y 9 ,engl& :ile travell+ 9 ,irel&1 & "o ( 8 fir/ acts1 on return+ to ,london1 0 to pay 8 respects to 8 old fri5d1 ! new ,c>d9al4 ,?is ye> we 7 put 9 possession ( ,/4 ,savi\r's ,retreat1 ,broadway1 :i* has be5 ! noviciate ( ! ord] s9ce4 ,/4 ,anne's1 ,sutton1 0 also coloniz$ ab\t ! same "t4 ,fa!r ,ignatius gave a mission 9 ,glasg[ dur+ ?is ,adv5t1 & br\ght two "y prie/s ) him to tra9 into ! "w ( ! missions4 ,"o ( !m 0 ,fa!r ,b]n>d1 & he gives wond]ful acc\nts ( ,fa!r ,ignatius's lab\rs4 ,he slept b ab\t f\r h\rs 9 ! tw5ty-f\r1 & 0 all ! re/ ( ! "t busy ei!r 9 ! confessional or on ! plat=m1 ) ! exception ( ! "t he took to eat a hurri$ meal or two4 ,9 go+ ?r\gh ,liv]pool on 8 return f ,glasg[1 9 8 habit1 a cr[d ga!r$ r\nd him to hoot & insult him4 ,9 8 j\rnal he says3 ,i got two bl[s on ! head1 = :i* he took good c>e to ?ank ,god4 ,! ye> is conclud$ by prea*+ 9 ,dubl91 & giv+ ! r5ewal retreat to ! ,si/]s ( ,m]cy 9 ,birr4 ,any "o t w glance ov] ?is ye> ( 8 life1 & see him p]petually mov+ f place to place1 w c]ta9ly ?9k he _h little "t to himself4 ,x 0 ab\t ?is "t t he made ! resolution ( nev] be+ a mom5t idle1 a resolve he c>ri$ out to ! la/4 ,dur+ ?is ye> & ! prec$+ he 0 occupi$ 9 translat+ into ,engli% ,da ,b]gamo's ,p5si]i ed ,affetti4 ,! great] "p ( ?is book1 :i* 0 publi%$ by ,ri*>dson1 "u ! "n ( ,?\ghts & ,affections on ! ,passion1 0 translat$ by ,fa!r ,ignatius1 on railway /ations1 :ile wait+ = tra9s1 9 e place1 be=e or aft] d9n]1 9 int]vals betwe5 confessions1 9 all k9ds ( out-(-! way places2 & s c>eful 0 he to fill up e mom5t ( "t t we see not$ 9 8 j\rnal 8 hav+ done "s ( ,da ,b]gamo 9 ! =e cab9 ( ! /eam] t took him #cii f ,holyhead to ,k+/[n4 ,he wrote x mo/ly 9 p5cill+1 on ! backs ( envelopes1 scraps ( pap] ( all sizes1 %apes1 & quality2 s t x 0 ne>ly z difficult to put ^? sibyll9e leaves 9 ord] & copy f !m z x 0 to translate1 if n m s4 ,besides ?is he wrote a numb] ( lett]s2 & 8 lett]s 7 no small notes ) brok5 s5t5ces1 b long lectures on difficulties ( consci5ce1 writt5 ) a c>e & consid]ation t is p]fectly surpris+ :5 "o reflects ^u 8 opportunities4 ,he us$ to say t no "o %\ld ev] excuse 8 n answ]+ a lett] = want ( "t3 ,if ! lett] is wor? answ]+ we ought to get "t = x1 = x becomes a k9d ( duty4 ,he c]ta9ly _h no "t to sp>e or ?r[ away1 b he _h always en\gh = any purpose 9 :i* *>ity or ob$i5ce c\ld claim him4 ,8 days 7 inde$ full days1 & he sc>cely ev] w5t to b$ until he _h %ak5 himself out ( nodd+ asleep ov] 8 table ?ree or f\r times4 ,no "o ev] he>d him say t he 0 tir$ & requir$ re/2 re/ he nev] _h1 except on 8 h>d b$ or 9 8 quiet grave4 ,if any man ev] ate 8 bread 9 ! sweat ( 8 br[1 x 0 ,fa!r ,ignatius ( ,/4 ,paul1 ! ev]-toil+ ,passioni/4 #djj ,,*apt] ,,viii4 ,a ,new ,=m ( ,! ,crusade4 ,we f9d ,fa!r ,ignatius1 at ! beg9n+ ( ! ye> #ahea1 begg+ 9 ,irel&4 ,x 0 n 8 cu/om to g regul>ly f h\se to h\se2 he pref]r$ collect+ p toge!r1 & address+ !m1 &1 if ?is 7 n practicable1 gett+ p]mission f ! prie/s to speak to _! flocks on ,sundays & fe/ivals4 ,he want$ pray]s m ?an money1 & he 0 delight$ t ! plea ( begg+ ju/ifi$ 8 mov+ ab\t1 & gave him a k9d ( faculty to prea* on 8 fav\rite topic1 ! conv]sion ( ,engl&4 ,(t5times ! spiritual int]f]$ ) 8 temporal int]e/s1 z :5 an ,iri%man1 :o 0 ab\t to give him an alms1 refus$ x z soon z he spoke ab\t ,engl&4 ,/range en\gh1 ,fa!r ,ignatius ?\ght ,engl&-hat+ ,iri%m5 ! v be/ subjects to practise 8 art ( p]suasion on4 ,he ?\ght !m true s\ls1 s5sitive ( _! wrongs1 & valu$ !m f> m ?an ^? :o laud$ ,engl& ?r\gh lack ( patriotism4 ,he met _m adv5tures dur+ ?is begg+ t\r 9 ,irel&4 ,9 "o p>i%1 ! prie/ promis$ to all[ him to prea* to 8 congregation on ! ,sunday1 & collect f !m4 ,! prie/ did n seem to possess indiff]5ce to e>?ly ?+s1 or g5]osity ei!r1 9 a v high degree2 =1 :5 ,fa!r ,ignatius came to 8 place on ,saturday1 8 rev]5ce told him t he int5d$ to claim ! collection 9 ! *ur*1 :il/ ,fa!r ,ignatius might /& at ! door & beg = himself z ! p 7 go+ out4 ,fa!r ,ignatius ?ank$ ,god1 & 0 cont5t1 only rem>k+ t1 ) ! prie/'s p]mission1 he w\ld pref] #dja to hold 8 hat "u a l>ge tree t grew ne> ! *ur*-door1 in/ead ( at ! door itself4 ,he prea*$ at ! la/ mass1 & nev] said a ^w ab\t :]e or :5 he 0 to receive ! p's (f]+s2 ! collection 0 made by ! prie/1 & a mo/ mis]able "o x prov$ to be4 ,fa!r ,ignatius held 8 hat "u ! tree1 &1 s9ce ! day 9 ,c>rick-on-,suir1 nev] _h su* a collection4 ,x 0 a m>vel to him2 he c\ld n acc\nt = x1 & he 0 ! m surpris$ :5 he comp>$ notes ) ! p>i% prie/ aft] all 0 ov]4 ,he f\nd out ! solution ( ! my/]y t same ev5+4 ,x seems t1 on ,saturday1 he told a respectable lady 9 ! neighb\rhood ( ! prie/'s decision4 ,%e1 )\t tell+ him a ^w ( :at %e int5d$ do+1 w5t home1 s5t h] s]vant ?r\gh ! village1 & collect$ twelve /alw>t active "y m52 %e h>angu$ !m on :at ! prie/ 0 ab\t to d1 & s5t !m all (f to diff]5t p>ts ( ! p>i% to tell ! p ( x1 & also ( ! spot :]e ,fa!r ,ignatius w\ld receive _! (f]+s4 ,! p _h reason to ?9k _! pa/or 0 a little fond ( money1 & _! indignation at 8 proce$+ help$ to increase _! lib]ality4 ,he begg$ at ?is "t 9 ,borris ,o',kane1 ,lim]ick1 ,ennis1 ,gort1 ,galway1 ,l\ghr51 ,ball9asloe1 ,mull+>1 & prea*$ #aja s]mons s9ce ! previ\s #e? ,septemb]4 ,8 begg+ t\r ends 9 ,dubl91 ab\t ,m>*1 :]e he beg9s a new campaign ( :at he t]ms 8 crusade4 ,he prea*$ "s controv]sial lectures 9 ,dubl91 d9$ & talk$ ) ,diss5t+ m9i/]s1 wrote a little newspap] controv]sy1 & _h a meet+ 9 ! ,rotundo4 ,?is v active k9d ( "w did n seem to suit 8 ta/e or _s1 & he *ang$ v soon to ano!r & a m cong5ial "o--! conv]sational mode ( advanc+ ! ,ca?olic cause4 ,he visit$ ! lead+ m5 bo? 9 ! ,e/abli%m5t & 9 ! (fices ( ,/ate1 & ! conf]5ces he held ) !m are s int]e/+ t we %all relate a few ( !m 9 8 own words4 ,! extracts are tak5 f lett]s #djb publi%$ by him 9 #ahec1 9 ! ,ca?olic ,/&>d1 n[ ,! ,weekly ,regi/]3-- ,int]view ) ,"l ,john ,russell4 ,"o day e>ly 9 ,febru>y1 #ahej1 ,i _h be5 on an exp$ition d[n to ,we/m9/]4 ,i look back on all my walks dur+ a c]ta9 p]iod1 t is1 :ile ,i 0 con/antly we>+ my ,passioni/ habit1 z exp$itions4 ,inde$ !y 7 ev5tful ones 9 _! way4 ,i 0 return+ ?r\gh ,p>liam5t ,/reet2 & hav+ an h\r to dispose (1 z ,i pass$ by ,d[n+ ,/reet1 ,i ?\ght ,i w\ld n[ try1 :at ,i _h long ?\ght (1 to h a conv]sation ) ! ,premi]4 ,i ask$1 ,is ,"l ,john ,russell at home8 ,! mess5g] qu]y8 :o came to ! door look$ at my figure ) "s surprise1 !n said1 ,yes1 sir1 b he is engag$ at pres5t8 ,i said1 ,w y be s good z to say to him t ,"l ,sp5c]'s bro!r w\ld wi% to speak ) him8 ,walk 91 sir1 he answ]$2 & to my surprise1 ,i mu/ say1 ,i f\nd myself at once 9 a wait+-room1 & five m9utes lat] 0 introduc$ to ,"l ,john4 ,he rose to me1 & k9dly po9t$ to a *air4 ,i said1 ,d y rememb] me1 my ,"l8 ,oh1 yes1 he answ]$4 ,i !n proce$$3 ,i h>dly "k :e!r :at ,i am n[ do+ is wise or n2 b ,i w expla9 my reason = ask+ to see y\r lord%ip & y w judge4 ,y are aw>e1 probably1 t x is n[ "s tw5ty ye>s s9ce ,i became a ,ca?olic4 ,ev] s9ce t "t1 my :ole m9d has be5 b5t on lead+ o!rs to ! same fai?1 &1 9 %ort1 on ! conv]sion ( ?is c\ntry to ,ca?olicity4 ,= ?is end ,i h endeav\r$1 z f> z x 0 possible1 to move all ,ca?olics ?r\gh\t ! _w to pray = ! conv]sion ( ,engl&4 ,i h also spok5 ) z _m z ,i c\ld ( ! lead+ m5 among ! cl]gy ( ! ,*ur* ( ,engl& & among ,diss5t+ m9i/]s1 to move !m also to pray t ,god w\ld br+ ?is c\ntry to unity 9 ! tru? :]ev] he sees x to be4 ,i am almo/ always receiv$ agreeably on ^! occasions2 = all seem to agree 9 :at ,i ?9k _c be d5i$1 t if !re is any?+ :i* #djc ?reat5s ru9 to ! p[] & prosp]ity ( ?is c\ntry x is our religi\s divisions4 ,8 lord%ip "h1 )\t speak+1 intimat$1 z ,i und]/ood1 8 ass5t to ?is la/ s5t5ce2 b int]rupt$ me by ask+ m p>ticul>ly3 ,:at d y propose to ,diss5t]s8 ,! same1 ,i said1 z to ,anglicans2 ,i conceive ?is pray] is prop] = !m all alike4 444 ,i proce$$3 ,among ,ca?olics ,i f9d myself con/antly met by ! objection1 t if !y came =w>d op5ly1 z ,i wi% !m to d1 x w\ld (f5d ^? 9 p[] 9 ,engl&4 ,i answ] !m1 ,i am conv9c$ x w\ld n2 b 9 ord] to satisfy o!rs r ?an myself1 ,i h at la/ ?\ght x well to come to ! fir/ au?ority & ask4 ,i w rem>k to y\r lord%ip :y ,i say ?is4 ,among all ,ca?olics1 ,i am p>ticul>ly int5t on mov+ ! ,ca?olics ( ,irel& to und]take ?is cause4 ,i fir/ w5t to ,irel& = ! purpose 9 #ahdb4 ,n[ ,i look ^u x z c]ta91 t if ! ,iri% _h !n und]tak51 z ,i wi%$ !m1 to pray = ! conv]sion ( ,engl&1 & _h p]sev]$ 9 t "w out ( *>ity1 !y w\ld n1 9 #ahdh1 h ?\ght ( mak+ pikes aga9/ ,engl&2 & ?is w\ld h sav$ our ,gov]nm5t "s millions ( p\nds1 p]haps4 ,pikes are well en\gh 9 _! place1 b ,i consid] t *>ity w\ld n h prompt$ ! mak+ ( !m on ?is occasion4 ,aga91 ,i w say t my fav\rite individual object 9 ,irel& is to enli/ 9 my cause y\r lord%ip's illu/ri\s correspond5t1 ,dr4 ,m',hale2 & x is my op9ion t x w\ld improve ! /yle ( 8 lett]s if !re 7 introduc$ into !m "s expressions ( *>ity t[>ds ,engl&4 ,"l ,john slightly smil$1 & !n proce$$ ) 8 answ]1 z foll[s3 ,9 answ]+ y1 ,i beg to be und]/ood t ,i d n speak z a m9i/]2 b ,i w tell :at ,i ?9k z an individual4 ,! entire lib]ty :i* exi/s 9 ?is c\ntry = e "o to ?9k z he pleases1 & to speak :at he ?9ks1 makes x appe> to me difficult to conceive h[ a reunion ( all ! diff]5t religi\s op9ions c\ld be effect$4 ,t is at lea/ a di/ant prospect4 ,b any?+ :i* w\ld t5d to a dim9ution ( ! _s ( acrimony1 & ( ! disposition ( p ( opposite op9ions to misrepres5t "o ano!r's views1 mu/ #djd d good4 ,!n he add$1 9 a v pleas+ tone3 ,& ,i w tell y1 t ,i consid] ! body to :i* y belong is ! "o :i* suff]s ! mo/ f su* misrepres5tations4 ,i said !n3 ,aft] he>+ y\r lord%ip's answ]1 giv5 ) su* k9dness1 ,i am q happy at hav+ come2 & ,i ?9k ,i may inf] f :at y h said1 t y p]fectly approve ( my proce$+s1 = ! t5d5cy ( !m entirely is to remove ! misappreh5sions :i* exi/1 on bo? sides1 ( ! o!rs pr9ciples4 ,i am conv9c$ t ,ca?olics g5]ally h a mi/ak5 idea ( :at respectable ,prote/ants are2 & !re is no d\bt ,prote/ants are v widely wrong 9 _! op9ions ( ,ca?olics4 ,i am work+ to c\nt]act ?is error on bo? sides4 ,to ?is he did n reply2 & z ,i _h ga9$ all t ,i desir$1 ,i rose to take my leave1 & said3 ,i frequ5tly say to p]sons ) :om ,i h _h conv]sations l ?is1 :at ,i w n[ say to y\r lord%ip1 t ,i d n promise secrecy conc]n+ !m2 b ,i reque/1 z a fav\r1 t if !y %\ld ev] he> ( my mak+ :at !y consid] an improp] use ( any?+ t !y h said1 !y w\ld call me to acc\nt = x4 ,on ?is s5t5ce1 likewise1 he made no rem>k1 b add$ aga93 ,i repeat once m t ,i h n spok5 z a m9i/]1 z ,i d n ?9k ?is is a matt] ) :i* ,i h any conc]n 9 t "*4 ,i repli$3 ,i und]/& y1 my ,"l2 yet ,i w say t x appe>s to me1 t ,i h reasons to h address$ y\r lord%ip 9 y\r public "*4 ,8 lord%ip smil$1 slightly b[$1 & ,i )drew4 ,int]view ) ,"l ,cl>5don4 ,i am v happy at f9d+ myself ) my p5 9 h&1 to give an acc\nt ( my int]views ) ano!r di/+ui%$ memb] ( our ,gov]nm5t2 at lea/1 z f> z :at pass$ be>s on ! subject ( ^! lett]s1 ! ent]prise ( ,engl&'s conv]sion3--,i mean ,"l ,cl>5don1 :ile he 0 ,"l-,lieut5ant ( ,irel&4 ,8 lord%ip & ,i 7 =m]ly fell[-collegians & fri5ds at ,cambridge2 #dje b f ! ye> #ahai1 :5 ,i left ,tr9ity ,college1 we nev] saw ea* o!r till ,novemb] #ac1 #ahej1 :5 ,i _h an audi5ce f him at ! ,vic]egal ,lodge 9 ! ,pho5ix ,p>k1 at ,dubl94 ,:5 ,i _h be5 9 ,irel& 9 #ahdh1 ! ?\ght _h cross$ my m9d t ,i %\ld be pleas$ to h a conv]sation ) him1 b ,i put x away z a /range idea1 n wor? ent]ta9+4 ,9 #ahej1 ,i return$ to ,irel&1 & />t+ f ! ,synod ( ,?urles1 at ! beg9n+ ( ,septemb]1 ,i _h :at ,i w\ld call my gr& campaign among ! ,iri% p4 ,f ! beg9n+ ( ,septemb] to ! end ( ,april1 ,i prea*$ #agj s]mons to !m on ! ent]prise ( ! conv]sion ( ,engl&1 :i* at t "t ,i us$ to call ! ,crusade = ,engl&2 besides a numb]1 pa/ reckon+1 ( addresses to conv5ts & s*ools1 & private conv]sations to ! same int5t4 ,?is c>e] 0 int]rupt$ 9 ! middle ( ,novemb]1 :5 ,i came = six weeks to ,engl&4 ,z ,i 0 approa*+ ,dubl9 to cross ! wat]1 my /range idea reviv$1 b its aspect 0 m invit+4 ,! result ( my visit to ,"l ,john ,russell _h be5 s enc\rag+1 t ,i wrote to ,"l ,cl>5don1 & ask$ p]mission to pay him my respects1 z ,i pass$ ?r\gh ,dubl94 ,he s5t me a v k9d answ] to ! place :i* ,i _h po9t$ out1 nam+ an h\r on ! day nam$ above--half-pa/ "o1 ,novemb] #ac--;at :i* "t ,i 0 introduc$ into 8 private room at ! ,lodge4 ,"o ( 8 fir/ rem>ks 0 t circum/ances 7 greatly *ang$ ) u bo? s9ce our la/ meet+4 ,inde$1 !y 71 z any "o w\ld h said :o _h se5 him z ,george ,villi]s1 ( ,/4 ,john's1 & me z ,george ,sp5c]1 ( ,tr9ity1 walk+ toge!r 9 our college g[ns1 at ,cambridge1 & n[ %\ld see him 9 8 gr& ,vic]egal ,palace1 & me be=e him 9 my poor ,passioni/'s habit2 & is x n some?+ to be look$ ^u ) satisfaction1 t we %\ld n[ h a conv]sation = an h\r & a half1 ( :i*1 ?\gh ! matt] 0 some?+ f> m weighty ?an :at w\ld v probably h occupi$ u !n1 ! tone :i* he gave to x 0 su*1 t "o might h suppos$ our famili> acqua9tance _h nev] be5 int]rupt$8 ,! conv]sation 0 ?r\gh\t v int]e/+ to me2 #djf b ?is does n seem to me ! "t nor ! place to relate :at pass$1 except+ ^? passages :i* bore directly ^u my pres5t subject4 ,i d n rememb] h[1 9 ! c\rse ( x1 ,"l ,cl>5don 0 l$ to say3 ,i see 9 ! pap]s t y h be5 prea*+ 9 sev]al places4 ,i answ]$3 ,yes1 ,i h2 & ! pr9cipal object ( my ask+ = ?is int]view ) y\r lord%ip1 0 to tell y ! subject ( my prea*+1 & to ask :at y ?9k ( x4 ,i am prea*+ to ! ,iri% p a crusade = ! conque/ ( ,engl&4 ,i am n cle> :e!r x 0 be=e say+ ^! words1 or aft]1 t ,i relat$ to him ! conv]sation ,i _h _h ) ,"l ,john ,russell 9 ! same way 9 :i* x 0 giv5 9 my la/ lett]4 ,h[ev] ?is might be1 ,i p]fectly rememb] ! way 9 :i* he repli$4 ,he appe>$ at ! fir/ mom5t to be surpris$2 !n fix$ ^u me "o r se>*+ look2 & !n delib]ately said3 ,tak+ ! view ( ?+s :i* y d1 ,i ?9k y are "r4 99 99 99 99 ,"l ,cl>5don1 kn[+ t ,i 0 next day to />t = ,engl&1 conclud$ by mo/ k9dly express+ a wi% to see me aga91 :5 ,i %\ld be pass+ at "s future "t ?r\gh ,dubl94 ,aft] six weeks ,i return$ to r5ew my circuit 9 ,irel&1 & return+ to ,dubl9 ab\t ! middle ( ,janu>y1 ?\gh ,i _h no reason p>ticul>ly = wi%+ to speak aga9 ) ,"l ,cl>5don1 ,i consid]$ t x 0 9 "s way a duty ( propriety to ask = an int]view1 z he _h be5 pleas$ to reque/ x at ! close ( ! fir/ visit4 ,accord+ly1 aft] "s "t = reflection1 ,i wrote him a lett] to ?is effect1 & he appo9t$ me half-pa/ elev5 on ,saturday1 ,febru>y #h1 #aheb4 ,?is "t x 0 9 ,dubl9 ,ca/le t ,i saw him1 be+ u%]$ into 8 private room ?r\gh ! muskets1 bayonets1 & o!r arms--n anci5t pieces1 = curiosity1 z at ,alton ,t[]s1 b arms ( ! mo/ mod]n /yle1 ready = use--) :i* ! hall & great /aircase seem$ to me z ?\gh wa9scot$ ?r\gh\t4 ,i apologis$ soon aft] ent]+ at tak+ up s mu* ( 8 "t2 & aga9 some:at lat] ,i (f]$ to #djg )draw1 h[ev] int]e/+ 0 ! conv]sation to myself4 ,he answ]$1 ,oh1 no6 ,i am v glad to see y4 ,!y w soon tell me ( ,sir ,?omas ,r$d+ton be+ come = bus9ess3 till !n ,i am free4 ,i w n[ relate only "o or two passages ( ?is conv]sation1 z be+1 ,i conceive1 ( peculi> consequ5ce to my pres5t purpose4 ,i 0 say+ some?+ ( my cont9u$ endeav\rs to move ! ,iri% to pray = ,engl&1 & ,i suppose rem>k+ t ?is mu/ h a salut>y effect on ! feel+s ( ! p4 ,he said ) an incr$ul\s smile3 ,& d y ?9k ! ,iri% pray = ,engl&8 ,i h no d\bt :atev]1 ,i answ]$1 t a great _m d1 b x is z yet no?+ to :at ,i desire to br+ !m to4 ,) a /ill m incr$ul\s look1 he add$3 ,d y ?9k !y pray = ,engl& at ,maynoo?8 ,well1 my ,"l1' ,i only "k t :5ev] ,i visit ,maynoo? ! sup]iors appo9t me a "t = address+ ! /ud5ts assembl$ 7he look$ evid5tly pleas$ at he>+ ?is72 & w y li/51 ,i cont9u$1 to a s5t5ce ( "o ( my half-h\r's addresses to !m8 ,i began x )\t well kn[+ :at ,i 0 go+ to say2 b :5 ,i _h f9i%$ ,i said to myself1 ,i h said "o good ?+ at lea/ :i* ,i %all "o day turn to acc\nt4 ,x 0 soon aft] ! publication ( ,"l ,john ,russell's ,durham lett]4 ,i said to !m1 ',w y all[ me to (f] y "o ^w ( advice8 ,y w j n[ be tempt$ mo/ probably to say "s viol5t ?+s2 especially "s viol5t ?+s ( ,"l ,john ,russell4 ,n[ ,i w\ld ask y1 ,d y "k ,"l ,john ,russell8 ,i suppose "o & all w\ld tell me no4 ,! advice ,i 0 go+ to (f] is t y %\ld n speak evil ( :at y d n "k4' ,"l ,cl>5don said3 ,did y say t8 ,i said3 ,yes1 my "l4 ,he add$ emphatically3 ,t 0 good4 ,aft] ,i _h ris5 to leave him1 ,i said3 ,my ,"l1 ,i h be5 (t5 cit+ y\r ,excell5cy1 s9ce our fir/ conv]sation1 z "o ( ^? :o entirely approve ( my proce$+s4 ,:at d y mean8 he quickly answ]$4 ,did ,i n tell y ,i w\ld %$ ! la/ drop ( my blood to /op ! progress ( y\r religion8 ,i p]fectly rememb] t1 ,i said2 :at ,i mean is t y approv$ ( my way ( #djh act+1 consid]+ :at ,i am4 ,oh1 he repli$1 ,i und]/& y4 ,if e "o act$ z y d1 we %\ld h no?+ to compla9 (4 ,?is conv]sation la/$ f ?ree-qu>t]s ( an h\r to an h\r4 ,int]view ) ,"l ,palm]/on4 ,i am sometimes rem9d$ ( a /ory ,i he>d ( a groom1 :o _h to %[ (f "o ( 8 ma/]'s horses1 :i* he wi%$ to sell4 ,among all ! o!r good qualities = :i* he _h prais$ ! animal1 z he /ood beh9d him 9 ! /able1 be+ ask$ by ! int5d$ pur*as]1 ,:at d y say ( 8 temp]8 he _h j answ]$1 ,oh1 he is z quiet z a lamb1 :5 ! horse kick$ out1 /ruck ! poor groom full 9 ! pit ( ! /oma*1 & drove ! brea? out ( him4 ,b he mu/ /& to 8 text1 & ) wondr\s promptness he 0 j able to utt]1 ,a*--playful toad6 ,s ,i w h our poor p hop$ =1 pray$ =1 borne ) & lov$1 ) all _! effigy burn+s1 ) all _! meet+s to he> ,dr4 ,cumm+ or ,mr4 ,/[ell1 ) all _! awful ,pop]y s]mons1 &1 moreov]1 ) ! two or ?ree ?umps on ! head1 & o!r pieces ( g5teel treatm5t :i* ,i met ) myself1 :ile ,i walk$ ab\t 9 my habit1 be=e ! ,d]by proclamation gave me "s "t to brea! aga94 ,aft] ?is preface z an apology1 if x is "o1 = my la/ s5t5ces ( la/ week1 & = /&+ to my text1 9 spite ( all t c be urg$1 ,i proce$ to ano!r ( my n>ratives1 :i*1 if n ! mo/ int]e/+ & important 9 my eyes1 is n ! lea/ s2 &1 aft] :i*1 9 reply to su* z might m5tion "s ( ! ,engli% rud5esses to u1 & say to me1 ,:at d y say to t8 ,i w\ld j say1 ,:at d y say to ?is8--,i mean my int]view ) ,"l ,palm]/on4 ,?r\gh ! mon? ( ,may ( ! ye> #ahea1 ,i 0 engag$ to prea* ev5+ lectures 9 "o ( ! ,london *apels1 & ,i _h my days to devote 9 a great measure to ! pursuit1 s inconceivably int]e/+ to me1 ( conv]sations ) lead+ p on my great topic4 ,i 0 at #dji t "t greatly debilitat$1 & c\ld walk b v little1 & to relieve me1 !re=e1 z well z to enable me to make ! mo/ ( my "t1 a g5]\s fri5d1 :o 0 int]e/$ 9 my proce$+s1 furni%$ me ) means to g f h\se to h\se 9 a cab4 ,"o ( ^! bright =5oons1 ,i turn$ into ,c>lton ,g>d5s1 & ask$ to see ,"l ,palm]/on4 ,i 0 n an entire /rang] to him1 any m ?an to ! o!r two noble p]sons ( :om ,i h already writt54 ,x w n be =eign to my purpose to relate h[ my acqua9tance ) 8 lord%ip _h be5 =m$4 ,may ,i v5ture to call x a fri5d%ip8 ,x 0 at ! close ( a long run ) ,"l ,d]by's /ag-h\nds2 ,i mean ! gr&fa!r ( ! pres5t e>l1 ,i ?9k 9 #ahba2 we f9i%$1 ,i ?9k1 tw5ty-f\r miles f ,london1 & ,i 0 mak+ up my m9d = a long1 t$i\s ride home on my tir$ horse 7= ,i 0 n up to hav+ second horses & grooms 9 my suite on ^? occasions71 :5 ,"l ,palm]/on1 :o 0 likewise 9 at1 n ! dea?1 b ! tak+ 7,i =get ! prop] sport+ t]m7 ( ! /ag1 und]/&+ my case1 & kn[+ me by sight1 ?\gh ,i ?9k till !n we _h nev] spok51 gave my horse 9 *>ge to 8 groom1 & took me home ) himself 9 a po/-*aise4 ,= ! %ort rema9+ "t ( my be+ kn[n z a "y man ab\t t[n1 z we met at "o p>ty or ano!r1 ,"l ,palm]/on cont9u$ to acco/ me ) a k9d ^w1 to :i* ,i _h good reason1 x w be all[$1 to respond 9 ! be/ mann] ,i knew h[4 ,at ! close ( ! ,london season ( #ahbb ,i made my b[1 & )drew f t /age to prep>e = tak+ ord]s1 &1 except an int]view ( a few m9utes 9 #ahcd1 we _h nev] met till ,i appe>$ be=e ! n[ f>-fam$ &1 by _m1 dread$ ,=eign ,secret>y1 ) my ,passioni/ habit & s&all$ feet = a private audi5ce4 ,l :at ,"l ,cl>5don said 9 ! ,p>k ,lodge1 ,dubl91 ,i might h said "h1 ,great *anges1 my "l1 s9ce we fir/ spoke toge!r6 ,on ?is occasion1 h[ev]1 no "t 0 sp5t 9 m]e conv]sation4 ,i _h call$1 z ,i h said1 9 ! =5oon4 ,8 lord%ip _h s5t me a message z be+ busy1 reque/+ me to call aga9 at two o'clock4 ,on ent]+ 8 private room1 ,i f\nd #daj him engag$ 9 look+ ov] :at seem$ (ficial pap]s1 :i* he _h ^u 8 knee1 :ile we spoke1 ?\gh )\t ! lea/ sign ( impati5ce or wi% to get rid ( me2 b ,i saw t :at became me 0 to ent] on bus9ess at once )\t wa/e ( "t or words4 ,i d n rememb] all ! words :i* ,i us$ 9 ?is int]view s well z :at ,i said to ,"l ,john ,russell & ,"l ,cl>5don4 ,! position 0 n n[ s new & /rik+ to me4 ,i ?9k ,i began )\t any k9d ( apology2 = 8 lord%ip's looks gave me no feel+ t any 0 ne$ful or expect$4 ,i said1 t 9 com+ to speak to 8 lord%ip on ?is subject1 ,i _h n s mu* 9 view to asc]ta9 m & m t !re 0 no dang] ( :at ,i propos$ caus+ (f5ce to our ,gov]nm5t1 z ,i ?\ght :at ,i _h he>d f o!rs 0 suffici5t pro( ( ?is2 b ,i wi%$ to put z _m ( our public m5 z ,i c\ld meet ) 9 possession ( all my int5tions & proce$+s1 9 ord] t if1 at la/1 ,i succe$$1 z ,i hop$1 9 mov+ ! ,ca?olics to be int]e/$ ab\t !m1 & ^! matt]s came be=e ! public1 !y might "k f myself 9 p]son :at ,i really int5d$1 & might be enabl$1 if !y ?\ght well1 to d me ju/ice4 ,?is 0 ! sub/ance ( :at ,i said to him4 ,hav+ ?us conclud$1 ,i await$ 8 answ]1 :i* 0 ab\t z foll[s3--,z y wi% to "k :at ,i ?9k ( y\r do+s1 ,i mu/ say ,i d n by any means agree ) y 9 consid]+ x a desirable result t ?is c\ntry %\ld aga9 be br\ght "u subjection to ,rome4 ,i d n pr(ess to take my view f ! elevat$ & sublime gr\nd on :i* y place y\rself2 ,i mean1 ,i speak n ) ref]5ce to religi\s int]e/s1 b to political2 & z a politician1 :5 we consid] ! way 9 :i* ! ,pope's gov]nm5t is oppos$ to ! progress ( lib]ty1 & lib]al in/itutions1 ,i _c say t ,i wi% to see ,engl& aga9 "u su* influ5ce4 ,?us f>1 ,i d n mean to say1 t :at ,i he>d 0 any?+ agreeable to me4 ,nei!r ! matt] nor ! tone 7 agreeable to me4 ,!re 0 some?+ s>ca/ic 9 8 tone4 ,& does t suit my purpose8 x may be ask$4 ,i answ]1 ,x does v well4 ,c\ld x be expect$ t he w\ld speak v agreeably & fav\rably #daa ( ! end ,i told him ,i 0 aim+ at8 ,if he _h1 t w\ld1 ,i conceive1 h j ?r[n a d\bt on ! s9c]ity ( :at he said imm$iately aft]1 9 a tone simply & p]fectly agreeable1 on ! effect likely to result imm$iately f :at ,i 0 do+3 & ?is 03 ,b z to :at y are do+1 z x mu/ t5d to conciliate ,ca?olic p[]s t[>ds ,engl&1 :at h ,i to say1 b t x is excell5t8 or "s su* ^w express+ full & cordial approbation4 ,aft] ?is1 he w5t on ) "s rem>ks on ! e/abli%m5t ( ! ,hi]>*y1 :i*1 ( c\rse1 7 9 accordance ) :at he _h1 ,i ?9k1 be5 say+ a few days previ\sly 9 ,p>liam5t1 compla9+ ( x z (f5sive & injuri\s2 b on ?is "p ( ! conv]sation ,i ne$ n dwell1 z x _h no be>+ on ! subject :i* ,i _h propos$ to him4 ,) reg>d to t1 my impression on leav+ him 0 ?is3 t he _h li/5$ ) att5tion to :at ,i _h said1 _h at once p]fectly und]/ood me1 _h answ]$ me s z to make me p]fectly und]/& him on ! subject simply & op5ly1 & t :at he _h said 0 entirely satisfactory to me4 ,i c\ld wi% = no?+ m2 except1 ( c\rse1 :at ,/4 ,paul wi%$ = 9 ! pres5ce ( ,fe/us & ,agrippa4 ,i !n rose3 s did he2 !n %ook h&s ) me1 & mo/ k9dly ?ank$ me = hav+ r5ew$ our old acqua9tance4 ,to ! acc\nt ( ?is conv]sation ) ,"l ,palm]/on1 ,i w add1 t ,i ask$1 9 ! same bright mon? ( ,may1 = an int]view ) ,"l ,d]by4 ,he reque/$ ,i w\ld r expla9 myself 9 writ+3 :i* ,i did2 & receiv$ 9 answ] f him a mo/ condesc5d+ & k9d lett]1 9 :i*1 :ile he ass]t$ 8 own /eadfa/ adh]5ce to ! ,*ur* ( ,engl&1 he decl>$ 8 op9ion t no "o c\ld reasonably f9d fault ) me = ex]t+ myself z ,i did to advance :at ,i believ$ to be ! tru?4 ,besides ^! int]views j record$ 9 8 own words1 he _h sev]al o!rs ) m9or celebrities4 ,he met "s ,prote/ant bi%ops2 among ! re/1 ,dr4 ,blomfield1 :om he tri$ to move to pray+ = unity4 ,dr4 ,blomfield promis$4 ,"s ( ! bi%ops refuse to see him1 & #dab o!rs are out :5 he calls4 ,he _h an int]view ) ,dr4 ,cumm+1 & ! doctor's acc\nt ( x did n ev5tually s]ve to raise t g5tleman 9 ! e/imation ( hon\rable or s5sible p4 ,he records 9 8 j\rnal be+ s5t away ignom9i\sly by ,bapti/ & ,me?odi/ m9i/]s1 &1 aft] "o ( ^! rebuffs1 on ,may #bd1 #ahea1 he got s fe>ful a mobb+1 :5 com+ along ! ,*>t] ,h\se 9 ,london1 t he 0 ne>ly kill$4 ,_h n "s good %opkeep] op5$ 8 door = him1 & help$ him to a cab by a back passage1 he believ$ he w\ld c]ta9ly h fall5 a victim to ! fury ( ! cr[d4 ,! day aft] ?is adv5ture1 he assi/$ 9 ,w>wick-/reet at ! ord9ation ( 8 ,grace ! pres5t ,ar*bi%op ( ,we/m9/]1 z sub-deacon4 ,he is a few mon?s on ! ,cont95t aga9 9 ?is ye>4 ,he prea*es 9 ,fr5* ?r\gh ,lille1 ,lige1 ,mae/ri*t1 ,aix-la-,*apelle1 always ^u ! crusade4 ,be=e arriv+ 9 ,cologne he _h 8 address translat$ into ,g]man1 9 ord] to be able to speak to ! ,prussian *ildr5 & p ^u 8 fav\rite !me4 ,z he 0 walk+ ?r\gh ,cologne "o day1 he accid5tally met 8 bro!r1 ,"l ,sp5c]4 ,"l ,sp5c] wond]$ at ! figure approa*+ him1 & ?\ght he recogniz$ ! features4 ,at l5g? he exclaim$1 ,hilloa1 ,george1 :at are y do+ "h8 ,begg+1 repli$ ,fa!r ,ignatius4 ,^? :o knew !m 7 mu* gratifi$ at see+ ! e>l & ! monk hav+ a little fri5dly *at ab\t old s*oolboy days4 ,bo? seem$ a little emb>rass$ & surpris$ at fir/1 b aft] a m9ute or two !y 7 q at home ) ea* o!r4 ,he prep>$ a petition = ! ,k+ ( ,prussia1 :o 0 visit+ ,cologne1 reque/+ an audi5ce2 b1 aft] wait+ pati5tly a few days1 he writes 9 ! j\rnal3 ,! ,k+ is come & gone1 b no notice ( me4 ,i mu/ be cont5t ) ,rex regum4 ,he receiv$ a lett] f ,fa!r ,eug5e a day or two be=e ?is1 summon+ him home to ,engl& = our ,prov9cial ,*apt]1 & 8 t\r t]m9ates on ! #ba/ ,augu/4 #dac ,,*apt] ,,ix4 ,visit ,to ,home ,& ,! ,association ,( ,pray]s4 ,at ! ,prov9cial ,*apt]1 ,fa!r ,ignatius 0 *os5 ,rector ( ,/4 ,joseph's ,retreat1 ,! ,hyde4 ,x 0 also arrang$ t be=e proce$+ fur!r ) 8 projects & s*emes = pray]s & unity1 he %\ld submit !m to ! ,roman ,curia4 ,he accord+ly />ts = ,rome on ,septemb] #d1 & arrives at ! ,retreat ( ,,ss4 ,john & ,paul on ! #ac?4 ,we %all let himself relate ! ev5ts & success ( ?is exp$ition4 ,i w5t on !n1 tak+ occasions z !y 7 (f]$ me to move ,ca?olics to int]e/ !mselves 9 x till ,septemb]1 #ahea1 :5 ,i w5t to ,rome4 ,i _h o!r reasons = go+2 b x might well be expect$ t :at ma9ly int]e/$ me 0 to recomm5d ! cause ( ,engl&'s conv]sion 9 ! c5tre ( ,ca?olicity1 & to obta9 f ! ,holy ,see sanction & au?ority = pursu+ ?is end z ,i _h be5 do+ be=e1 or 9 :atev] way w\ld be deem$ pref]able4 ,i 0 f\r mon?s & a half at ,rome1 ) ! int]ruption ( a =tnight1 dur+ :i* ,i 0 engag$ on a mission 9 ! c\ntry ) "s ( our ,fa!rs4 ,my affair _h to be transact$1 z may be suppos$1 *iefly at ! ,propag&a1 :]e ! affairs ( all ,ca?olic missions are manag$ & direct$1 mu* 9 ! way t our ,bo>d ( ,admiralty directs all ! naval op]ations ( ?is c\ntry1 b "u entire dep5d5ce on 8 ,hol9ess & ob$i5ce to him--! secret>y ( ! ,propag&a1 ,monsignor ,b>nab1 hav+ regul>ly once a week1 t is1 e ,sunday ev5+1 an audi5ce ( ! ,pope1 to make him reports1 & to receive 8 ord]s4 ,= ! fir/ six weeks or two mon?s ,i felt my foot+ at ! ,propag&a m or less #dad d\btful & prec>i\s4 ,i did n ga9 mu* att5tion4 ,?is 0 mortify+2 b ,i see1 & ,i saw x !n1 to be "r4 ,! ,propag&a is a place :]e all ,ca?olic s*em]s & projectors 9 matt]s ( religion try to get a he>+--z our ,admiralty is besieg$1 ,i suppose1 by all :o ?9k !y h an important proposal to make = naval ent]prise or improvem5t4 ,!y mu/ be kept at arm's l5g? = a "t1 till x is judg$ :e!r _! ideas are wor? att5d+ to4 ,x 0 on ! #a/ ( ,novemb] t x happ5$ t ,i d9$ at ! ,college ( ,propag&a1 & sat next to ,monsignor ,b>nab1 :o made me a rem>k ab\t 9 ^! words3 ',surely if y c conv]t ,engl&1 we %\ld ga9 half ! _w--or all ! _w1' ,i =get :i*4 ,i answ]$1 ',well1 ,monsignor1 & :y n try8' ,no?+ m 0 said !n2 b x seem$ to me z if ?is 0 ! turn+-po9t ( my =tunes at ,rome4 ,c]ta9 x is1 t f t "t ,monsignor ,b>nab1 9 ! mid/ ( all 8 press+ affairs1 0 inv>iably ready to li/5 to me at ! (fice or at 8 own h\se1 read ?r\gh all my long memorials1 spoke = me to ! ,pope :5ev] ,i ask$ him1 & ga9$ me :at ,i ask$ on ?is matt]1 _h my pap]s pr9t$ free ( co/ at ! press ( ! ,propag&a1 c4 ,x _h be5 told me previ\sly by "o ( ! m9utanti 7"u secret>ies7 ( ! ,propag&a1 ,monsignor ,vespasiani1 t my proposals w\ld be look$ ^u m fav\rably1 if ,engl& 7 n m5tion$ z ! only object ( int]e/4 ,he adv]t$ especially ) great feel+ to ! case ( ! ,greeks1 ( :om he spoke z possess+ g5ius & capacity = su* great ?+s1 if !y 7 only reunit$ to ! ,*ur*4 ,at 8 sugge/ion ,i drew up1 9 conc]t ) "o ( our ,fa!rs1 a pap] ( proposals = an ,association = ! ,conv]sion ( all sep>at$ f ! ,*ur*1 giv+ reasons1 h[ev]1 z ,i d 9 ! little pap] ( admission to our ,association1 :y we %\ld direct our imm$iate aim at ! recov]y ( ^? nations :i* h be5 sep>at$ f ! ,*ur* by h]esy or s*ism1 & :y1 among ^!1 ,engl& %\ld /ill be reg>d$ z ! mo/ important & lead+ object4 ,?is docum5t 0 read by ,mgr4 ,b>nab1 :o ord]$ #e1jjj copies to be pr9t$ by ! press ( ! #dae ,propag&a--r1 he told me1 to ord] z _m z ,i wi%$1 z well z ( ano!r %ort] pap] conta9+ an invitation to pray] & good works = ! conv]sion ( all sep>at$ f ! ,*ur*1 b especially ( ,engl&4 ,?is %ort] "o 0 prep>$ at ! express desire ( ! ,c>d9al-,vic> ( ,rome1 & di/ribut$ by 8 ord] ?r\gh all ! religi\s h\ses ( ! city4 ,to pass ov] o!r details1 x 0 on ! #bf? ( ,novemb] t ,i receiv$ a lett] ( recomm5dation1 address$ by ! ,c>d9al-,prefect ( ,propag&a to all ,bi%ops1 ,vic>s-,apo/olic1 & ,sup]iors ( ,missions 9 ! _w1 desir+ !m to receive me fav\rably & to assi/ me 9 my designs to ! utmo/ ( _! p[]4 ,! words 9 ,lat9 at ?is "p ( ! lett] are ! foll[+3--'444 ,pro9deque illum sacrae congregationis te/imonialibus hisce lit]is in/ructum esse volumus1 ut omnes ,episcopi1 ,vic>ii ,apo/olici1 et ,missionum ,sup]iores b5igne illum excip]e1 ac pro viribus piissimis ejusdem votis fav]e haud omittant4' ,z ,i h n ?is lett] at h& :ile writ+1 ,i quote ?is "p f memory4 ,! =m] "p1 ( :i* ,i h n ! words by he>t1 expresses :y ?is recomm5dation 0 to be giv5 me2 namely1 because my zeal = promot+ ! ,ca?olic fai?1 especially among my p ( ,engl&1 0 highly to be comm5d$4 ,n[1 if ! ,propag&a %\ld h ev] he>d any?+ true ab\t h[ ,i c>ri$ on my ord9>y duties 9 ,engl&1 !y c\ld only h he>d t ,i _h n incurr$ susp5sion1 ?\gh ,i might h des]v$ x2 & t1 9 comp>ison ) my bro!r prie/s 9 our great t[ns1 = in/ance1 :at ,i _h done = religion mu/ be put d[n z next to no?+4 ,! only ?+ on :i* !y c\ld ev] h he>d me spok5 ab\t z rem>kable mu/ h be5 my ex]tions1 :i*1 aga9/ my wi%es1 ,i mu/ c]ta9ly conc$e to h be5 s+ul>ly active & p]sev]+ 9 call+ p's att5tion to ! object ( ! conv]sion ( ,engl& & to pray]s = x4 ,i 0 surpris$ at receiv+ ?is lett]2 b ,i 0 n satisfi$ ) x3 x %>p5$ my appetite to get m4 ,i return$ to ! ,palace ( ! ,propag&a to give ?anks = x1 & !n ask$ = a special lett] to ! ,prelates ( #daf ,irel&4 ,i d n "h ent] into details ab\t ?is3 ,i int5d1 if p]mitt$1 expla9+ all :i* reg>ds ?is subject 9 "s lett]s address$ especially to ! ,iri% p1 9 ! ,tablet4 ,i m5tion x "h only to quote f ?is second lett] ! words 9 :i* is expla9$ m p>ticul>ly ! idea :i* 0 =m$ at ! ,propag&a ( ! object :i* !y 7 recomm5d+4 ,!y call x ',opus quod ,rev]5dus ,pat] ,ignatius promov]e satagit1 ut nempe ,ca?olici pro ,aca?olicorum1 praes]tim ,angliae1 conv]sione veluti agm9e facto1 f]v5tiori jugit] ratione preces fundant 4444' :i* ,i ?us translate3 ',! object :i* ! ,rev4 ,fa!r ,ignatius is engag$ 9 promot+1 namely1 t ,ca?olics %\ld1 z x 71 =m !mselves into an army set 9 array1 & ) cont9ually increas+ f]v\r p\r =? pray]s = ! conv]sion ( non-,ca?olics1 b especially ( ,engl&4 ,n[1 ,i d n "k h[ ^! docum5ts may /rike o!rs2 b x seems to me t if1 aft] hav+ tak5 a j\rney to ,rome on purpose to plead my cause !re1 & aft] hav+ receiv$ lett]s l ^! 9 answ] to my appeals1 ,i 0 j n[ to relax 9 my zeal to promote pray]s & good works = ! conv]sion ( ,prote/ants1 b especially ( ,engl&1 ?is w\ld be n fall+ into ! views ( ! ,holy ,see1 z "s seem to ?9k x w\ld1 b r %[+ indiff]5ce & almo/ contempt = !m1 & repay+ ) +ratitude ! great fav\rs :i* ,i h receiv$4 ,i mu/ res]ve to ano!r lett] "s acc\nt ( my int]views ) 8 ,hol9ess 9 p]son4 ,i am1 ,sir1 y\r fai?ful s]vant 9 ,jesus ,*ri/1 ,ignatius ,( ,/4 ,paul1 ,passioni/4 ,"h is ! acc\nt ( ! audi5ces he _h ) ! ,pope on ! subject ( pray]s = ! conv]sion ( ,engl&4 ,x is tak5 f 8 lett]s to ! ,ca?olic ,/&>d3-- ,audi5ces ,) ,pope ,pius ,,ix4 ,i beg to give an acc\nt ( :at pass$ ^u ! subject ( ! conv]sion ( ,engl& 9 ! audi5ces ,i 0 all[$ #dag by ! ,holy ,fa!r4 ,!y 7 ?ree4 ,! fir/ 0 on ,septemb] #af1 #ahea1 ?ree days aft] my arrival 9 ,rome2 ! second1 ,decemb] #bc2 ! ?ird1 ,janu>y #cj1 #aheb1 ! day be=e ,i left ,rome4 ,x 0 on my return home 9 ! ev5+ aft] t la/ audi5ce t ,i met ,mgr4 ,vespasiani1 ! prelate :om ,i h be=e nam$ z "o ( ! ,m9utanti ( ! ,propag&a1 ! fir/ p]son 9 (fice at ,rome :o gave full & att5tive consid]ation to my proposals4 ,?is 0 on ! #ad? ( ,octob]1 #ahea4 ,full ( satisfaction z ,i 01 ,i express$ to him anew my gratitude = t fav\r1 add+ t n[ ,i 0 leav+ ,rome1 ,i felt z if ,i _h no?+ m to ask4 ,all 0 ga9$4 ,su*1 inde$1 7 my feel+s !n4 ,he k9dly accept$ my ackn[l$gm5ts1 & seem$ to sympa?ize 9 my satisfaction1 b look$ incr$ul\s z to my hav+ no?+ m to ask1 & ) a smile1 said some?+ to ?is effect1 ,y w want pl5ty m2 &1 :5 y desire1 y w comm& our s]vices4 ,i suppose he 0 "r4 ,my feel+ 0 !n1 & ,i conceive x 0 well gr\nd$1 t1 z f> z reg>d$ ! m9d ( 8 ,hol9ess1 ,i _h ga9$ all1 on ! subject :i* mo/ engag$ me1 & :i* ,i am n[ pursu+2 & ,i felt z if 9 hav+ rea*$ ?is po9t all 0 done4 ,s1 ,i tru/1 x w prove 9 "t2 b ,i see pla9ly en\gh !re is "w to be done be=e ! m9d ( ! ,holy ,fa!r w be c>ri$ out2 o!rs mu/ be mov$ to correspond ) x4 ,i mu/ expla9 myself by /at+ facts4 ,9 my fir/ two audi5ces1 ,i ?9k ,i may say t ! pr9ciple 0 approv$ by 8 ,hol9ess1 t ,ca?olics might be mov$ all ?r\gh ! _w to engage 9 ! ent]prise ( conv]t+ ,engl&2 b t he mu/ n be repres5t$ z c>+ = ,engl& exclusively1 z he 0 fa!r to all4 ,!re 0 no objection "h express$ to my be+ specially int]e/$ = my own c\ntry4 ,on ! contr>y1 ! ,pope agre$ to1 & approv$ (1 my cont9u+ to urge ! ,roman p to jo9 9 ?is cause1 z well z pursu+ ! same object 9 ,au/ria1 :i!r ,i told him ,i 0 go+1 & else:]e4 ,9 my second audi5ce ,i said to him3 ,holy ,fa!r1 may ,i repeat truly "h :at ,i am say+ outside8 ,i am op5ly /irr+ ! p ( ,rome to a ?ird conque/ ( ,engl&4 #dah ,rome conqu]$ ,engl& once1 "u ,julius ,caes>1 by ! mat]ial sword4 ,rome conqu]$ ,engl& a second "t1 m glori\sly1 "u ,/4 ,gregory ,i41 by ! ,^w ( ,god4 ,i am call+ on ,rome to und]take ?is conque/ aga91 "u ,pius ,,ix41 :5 x w be a va/ly m important "o ?an h]et(ore1 & by means m glori\s & m div9e1 because ref]r+ m purely ! glory to ,god1 be+ *iefly holy pray]4 ,! ,pope did n speak 9 answ] to ?is appeal2 b1 if ,i rightly judg$1 8 mann] & looks express$ 8 acceptance & approval ( ! idea bett] ?an words c\ld h done4 ,h[ev]1 ?\gh ,i might say ,i _h succe$$ z well z ,i c\ld h expect$ 9 ^! fir/ two audi5ces1 ! second ( :i* ,i look$ ^u z f9al1 z 9 x ,i _h tak5 my leave ( 8 ,hol9ess1 !re 0 yet some?+ want+4 ,i 0 prep>+ to leave ,rome n q satisfi$1 ?\gh ,i knew n h[ to bett] my position4 ,i w relate h[ ! happy conclusion 0 br\ght r\nd4 ,my dep>ture 0 unexpect$ly delay$ 9 ord] t ,i might assi/ at a mission to be giv5 by our fa!rs1 9 ! t[n ( ,m>9o1 on ! ,alban m\nta9s1 :i* 0 9 ! diocese ( ! ,c>d9al-,vic>1 at ^: reque/ ! mission 0 giv54 ,i w5t to ! mission1 n s mu* to "w1 z to see1 & he>1 & le>n = myself2 b ! cr[d ( p5it5ts 0 su*1 t dur+ ! la/ week ( x ,i gave myself entirely to ! confessions2 & hav+ no "p 9 ! prea*+1 ,i nev] did su* a week's "w at confessions z t4 ,i return$ to ,rome alone on ,janu>y #ah1 to prep>e = my dep>ture1 leav+ ! o!r ,fa!rs to beg9 a second mission at ,albano2 & x /ruck me my week's "w = ! ,c>d9al-,vic> ne$ n be altoge!r its own rew>d4 ,i visit$ him ! next day1 z to make a report ( ! mission1 :i* 0 highly satisfactory4 ,i !n said1 ,i h done a heavy week's "w = y\r ,em95ce1 & ,i come to claim il mio /ip5dio 7my pay74 ,& :at1 said he1 is t8 ,a few m9utes' pati5ce1 ,i repli$1 to he> me aga9 on ! cause ( ,engl&4 ,i want ,rome to be effectually mov$4 ,b1 said he aga91 :at c we d8 ,i h di/ribut$ y\r pap]s4 ,i w recomm5d #dai x aga92 :at m d y want8 ,p]haps ! ,pope c\ld sugge/ some?+2 g to him aga94 ,i answ]$1 ,i h _h my f9al audi5ce1 & receiv$ 8 la/ bless+4 ,c ,i g aga98 ,oh1 yes4 ,g2 y may use my "n4 ,i w5t /raight to ! ,vatican1 & ,monsignor ,talbot plac$ me1 accord+ to cu/om1 9 a saloon1 ?r\gh :i* ! ,pope 0 to pass at ?ree o'clock1 to take 8 daily drive4 ,i told 8 ,hol9ess :at _h br\ght me aga9 be=e him4 ,i _h receiv$ recomm5dations to all ! _w1 b ,i 0 p>ticul>ly int5t on mov+ ,rome4 ,surely1 he said1 t is ! mo/ important place4 ,write me a memorial1 & we w consult ov] x4 ,i lo/ no "t 9 do+ s4 ,9 x ,i dwelt on two objects2 fir/1 ,i entreat$ ! ,holy ,fa!r to take su* measures z he might 9 8 wisdom ?9k fit1 to move all ,*ri/5dom to und]take ! recov]y ( ! nations :i* _h be5 lo/ to ! ,*ur*1 & specially ,engl&4 ,& ) reg>d to ,rome1 ,i /at$ ! case ?us4 ,i _h receiv$ f ! congregations ?r\gh :i* 8 ,hol9ess intimates 8 pleasure to ! :ole ,*ur*1 an e>ne/ recomm5dation to all ,bi%ops to support me to ! utmo/ ( _! p[] 9 my ent]prise4 ,0 x to be conceiv$1 ,i ask$1 t ! ,bi%op ( ! fir/ ,see 0 alone exclud$ f ?is recomm5dation8 ,surely n2 & !re=e 9 ! "n ( 8 ,hol9ess1 z head ( ! ,univ]sal ,*ur*1 ,i appeal$ to 8 ,hol9ess z ,bi%op ( ,rome1 & entreat$ t he w\ld give an example to all o!r ,bi%ops1 h[ a m&ate ( ! ,holy ,see ought to be obey$4 ,x 0 n = me to (f] directions h[ ?is %\ld be done2 b if ,i 7 to make a sugge/ion1 ,i w\ld ask t a ,prelate %\ld be nam$1 ) an au?ority to engage ! help ( o!r zeal\s ecclesia/ics1 & ) !m to in/ruct ! p ( ,rome 9 ! importance & beauty ( ! "w1 & to engage !m 9 x ) p]sev]+ zeal4 ,i took ?is memorial to ! ,c>d9al-,vic>1 :o read ?r\gh ! latt] "p ) me1 & said1 ) an air ( satisfaction1 ,t w d2 t w d v well--promis+ to pres5t x to ! ,pope4 ,i begg$ him to say besides1 t ! ,prelate ,i _h 9 my m9d 0 ,monsignor ,talbot4 ,?is 0 on ,janu>y #bc4 ,on ! #bf?1 ,monsignor #dbj ,b>nab told me t all _h be5 fav\rably receiv$4 ,i ?\ght ,i _h no?+ to d b to arrange ) ,monsignor ,talbot :at he might d1 & = ?is purpose ,i w5t on ! #cj? ( ,janu>y to see him1 accompani$ by "o ( our ,fa!rs4 ,i _h bid him f>ewell1 :5 my companion said1 ,may we see ! ,pope8 ,i 0 r annoy$ at ?is3 ! sight ( ! ,pope int5d$ 0 m]ely to be once m plac$ 9 8 way z he w\ld pass "o ( ! saloons3 & ,i felt x w\ld be unreasonable & intrusive = me to be se5 !re aga92 b ,i ?\ght x w\ld be selfi% to disappo9t my companion1 :o _h sacrific$ s mu* ( 8 "t to gratify me1 & ,i said no?+4 ,we 71 !re=e1 tak5 into ! saloon1 z x 0 j ! "t = ! ,pope's drive4 ,!re1 h[ev]1 we wait$ "o qu>t]1 two qu>t]s1 ?ree qu>t]s ( an h\r4 ,i conclud$1 :at 0 ! case1 t ! ,pope 0 n go+ out1 & expect$ pres5tly to be told to g away4 ,in/ead ( ?is ,monsignor ,talbot came & beckon$ u into ! ,pope's private room1 :]e he 0 sitt+ 9 ! w9d[ recess p]fectly at 8 ease1 & receiv$ u ) ^! words address$ to me3--,well1 ,fa!r ,ignatius1 we h done some?+ n[4 ,inde$1 ,holy ,fa!r1 said ,i1 ?is is true4 ,i see ?is "w n[ 9 ! way to become ! mo/ fav\r$ ( all1 entru/$1 z x is1 to a ,prelate :o has 8 "t s dispos$ t "o week he is free to "w1 & ! o!r he returns to att5dance on y\r ,hol9ess to make 8 reports1 & receive new in/ructions4 ,n only s1 repli$ ! ,pope1 !re are f\r ( !m4 ,he has b "o week entirely engag$ ) me2 besides ! "o out ( f\r :olly free1 he has b two or ?ree h\rs e day on duty 9 ! o!r two4 ,b rememb]1 ,i w n h ,engl& alone ?\ght (4 ,holy ,fa!r1 ,i said1 ?is alt]ation has be5 made4 ,! und]tak+ is = all sep>at$ nations2 ,engl& be+ propos$ only z ! mo/ important po9t ( attack1 on sev]al acc\nts4 ,i beg1 h[ev]1 to ask t ! t]m h]etics may n be us$ z ! g5]al designation ( ^? we pray =4 ,i d n confess to wilful h]esy be=e my conv]sion4 ,i d n confess = ?is s9 = my c\ntrym5 at l>ge4 ,ah6 :at say y8 answ]$ ! ,pope2 !n #dba he reflect$ = a mom5t & graci\sly b[$4 ,9 accordance ) ?is reque/1 9 my lett] f ! ,propag&a ! t]m is n ha]eticorum1 b aca?olicorum praes]tim ,angliae4 ,i w5t on3 ,holy ,fa!r1 ,i ask "o m fav\r4 ,c>d9al ,=n>i has agre$1 if he is nam$ by y\r ,hol9ess1 to accept ! *>ge ( ,protector to ?is "w4 ,:at ne$ ( ?is8 answ]$ ! ,pope2 ,i h desir$ ! ,c>d9al-,vic> to recomm5d ! "w to ,rome1 & ,c>d9al ,=n>i is a ,roman4 ,is t n en\gh8 ,holy ,fa!r1 ,i repli$1 :at is reque/$ is1 t he %\ld be emp[]$ to act 9 x z ,c>d9al4 ,aft] ano!r pause 8 ,hol9ess aga9 graci\sly b[$ & said3 ,well1 be x s4 ,?us ! disc\rse on ?is subject t]m9at$3 &1 if ,i h intelligibly expla9$ myself1 w x n be all[$ t ,i _h reason to g home satisfi$1 9 ! reflection t ! "w ( ! conv]sion ( ,prote/ants1 b *iefly ,engl&1 0 n[ erect$--z f> z reg>d$ ! "p :i* ! holy ,fa!r _h to take 9 x--into :at may be almo/ call$ a congregation 9 ! ,holy ,city1 to be compos$ ( prelates & ecclesia/ics1 ( :om ! fir/ active memb] 0 among 8 ,hol9ess's dome/ic att5dants2 & ! ,c>d9al ,protector 0 "o ( ! mo/ di/+ui%$ ( ! ,sacr$ ,college1 :o 9 8 fir/ conv]sation ) me decl>$ 8 mo/ lively int]e/ 9 ,engl&1 z hav+ himself1 z ,pr(essor 9 ! ,roman ,sem9>y1 direct$ ! /udies 9 ,!ology ( ,c>d9al ,wiseman1 & f\r o!rs1 n[ ,bi%ops 9 ,engl&1 besides two deceas$4 ,i mu/ close ?is long lett] ) "o m fact1 :i* came to my k1 br++ home to me ! consol+ conviction1 h[ deeply ! he>t ( our ,holy ,fa!r is int]e/$ 9 ! great "w4 ,:5 ,i 0 9 ,p>is1 ?is cause ( ,engl& 0 ard5tly tak5 up by a g5tleman not$ = 8 ,ca?olic zeal1 a di/+ui%$ m]*ant 9 ,havre4 ,on my leav+ ,p>is he begg$ me to give him a lett] ( cr$5tials1 t1 9 8 m]cantile travels1 he might 9 my "n int]e/ ,bi%ops & o!r lead+ p]sonages 9 our fav\r4 ,9 ,novemb] la/ he enclos$ me a lett] he _h receiv$ f ! ,vic>-,g5]al ( ,nantes1 to :om he _h appli$ to recomm5d ?is object to 8 ,bi%op4 ,x 0 9 ^! #dbb t]ms3 ,i w gladly p]=m y\r commission1 & ,i h no d\bt 8 ,lord%ip w comply ) y\r wi%2 ! m s t1 return+ f ,rome a few days back1 ,i h br\ght to him a message to ! same effect f 8 ,hol9ess4 ,9 my fir/ audi5ce ! ,pope said to me3 ',tell ! ,bi%op ( ,nantes1 f me1 t ,i desire he w pray1 & cause o!rs to pray1 a great deal = ,engl&4 ,! position ( ! ,*ur* 9 t k+dom int]e/s me deeply2 ,i am always ?9k+ ( x4' ,9 my second audi5ce ! ,holy ,fa!r repeat$ to me ! same words1 & 9 a tone ( feel+ su* z ,i c nev] =get4 ,i am conv9c$ ?is subject occupies 8 m9d cont9ually4 ,is x1 n[1 to be suppos$ t ! ,holy ,fa!r is av]se to ,engli% & ,iri% ,ca?olics pray+ especially = ,engl&1 & pray+ mu* = x8 ,is x n1 on ! contr>y1 to be inf]r$ f ^! /atem5ts1 & ^? ( my la/ two lett]s1 t x w\ld console 8 he>t to see !m devot$ly engag$ 9 ! "w8 ,i ?9k ?is is ! conclusion to :i* we %all all arrive1 & t ?is happy result may 9 due "t--& :y n soon8--be abundantly realiz$4 ,he says 9 ano!r lett]3-- ,i beg9 ) repeat+ aga9 ! words ( ,/4 ,j]ome to ,pope ,damasus3 ',he :o ga!re? n ) !e scatt]e?1' & ,i r5ew my decl>ation t if ,i ?\ght t by ex]t+ myself to move ! ,ca?olics ( ,engl& & ,irel&1 &1 9 g5]al1 ( all ! _w1 to ! ent]prise ( ga9+ ,engl&1 my c\ntry1 back to ! fai? ( our fa!rs1 ,i 0 n work+ 9 accordance ) ! m9d ( 8 ,hol9ess1 ,i %\ld n d>e to proce$4 ,w my de> ,ca?olic bre?r5 meet me ) ! assurance t if x appe>s by facts t ?is ent]prise is accord+ to 8 m9d1 !y w he>tily devote !mselves to ! cause & help u8 ,x seems to me /ill1 z x always did1 impossible to conceive h[ ^! ef=ts1 c>ri$ on z !y are propos$ to be1 9 p]fect accordance ) devot$ loyalty to ! ,/ate1 & 9 a _s ( ard5t *>ity t[>ds our fell[-c\ntrym51 %\ld n be gratify+ to ! ,*ur* ( ,god & to its ,head4 ,_m times h ,i repeat$ 9 s]mons to ! ,iri% p dur+ ! days ( ! tr\bles ( 8 ,hol9ess3 #dbc ',y h jo9$ ) noble g5]osity 9 assi/+ ! ,holy ,fa!r by subscriptions ( money1 y h ent]$ f]v5tly into pray] = him1 w y n d "o ?+ m to console him8 ,let him he> t y are det]m9$ t my c\ntry1 ) its great res\rces & p[]1 %all once m be 84' ,?is 01 ,i ?9k1 a reasonable natural sugge/ion4 ,x 01 accord+ly1 a surprise to me1 & at ! same "t a pa91 :5 ,i 0 told by "o1 ab\t ! beg9n+ ( ! ye> #ahea1 t 8 ,hol9ess 0 become almo/ av]se to our ef=ts 9 behalf ( ,engl&2 z on be+ appli$ to = "s new indulg5ce = c]ta9 pray]s = ,engl&1 he w\ld n grant ! petition unless ,italy 0 compreh5d$ 9 ! int5tion ( ! pray]s4 ,ano!r said positively t ! ,pope w\ld give no m indulg5ces = pray]s = ,engl&4 ,^! ?+s 7 said1 z s _m m ?+s h be5 said1 app>5tly 9 a half-jok+ tone1 to mortify me 9 :at is kn[n to be a t5d] po9t4 ,well1 ev]y?+ may turn to acc\nt = good1 if we pay att5tion4 ,^! rem>ks help$ to /imulate me to asc]ta9 p]fectly :at ! tru? ( ! case is1 & !y n[ give me occasion to expla9 publicly "s ( ! facts on :i* ! matt] has to be judg$4 ,9 ,may1 #ahej1 a /ud5t ( ! ,engli% ,college at ,rome1 j orda9$1 w5t to receive ! ,pope's bless+ be=e 8 return to ,engl&4 ,he pres5t$ a crucifix to 8 ,hol9ess1 & begg$ = an indulg5ce ( #cjj days = :oev] kiss$ ?is crucifix1 & said a ,hail ,m>y = ! conv]sion ( ,engl&4 ,! ,pope sat d[n & wrote ) 8 own h& at ! foot ( ! petition1 t he grant$ #cjj days' indulg5ce = ^? :o %\ld (f] a dev\t pray]1 z = in/ance a ,hail ,m>y1 = ! conv]sion ( ,engl&4 ,:5 ?is 0 report$ to me1 z !re appe>$ "s k9d ( ambiguity 9 "o expression ( ! ,pope's writ+1 ,i wrote to ,monsignor ,talbot1 begg+ t he w\ld asc]ta9 f 8 ,hol9ess :e!r we 7 "r 9 int]pret+ ! s5t5ce z grant+ ! indulg5ce g5]ally )\t any ref]5ce to ! crucifix4 ,! answ] 01 ',yes4' ,evid5tly !n1 at ?is "t1 ! ,pope 0 dispos$ to grant m 9 fav\r ( ,engl& ?an he 0 ask$4 ,h[ are #dbd we to acc\nt = ! seem+ alt]ation 9 8 dispositions8 ,"o way is to suppose t ! ,pope _h ceas$ to wi% pray]s to be made = ,engl&4 ,monsignor ,talbot1 :5 ,i saw him at ,rome 9 ,septemb]1 #ahea1 gave me ano!r reason4 ',! ,pope1' said he1 'is det]m9$ he w give no m indulg5ces = ,engl&4 ,p seem n to c>e = !m4 ,no acc\nt is made ( !m4 ,let !m fir/ %[ !y value :at !y h4' ,no au?ority1 on su* a po9t1 c\ld be pref]able to t ( ,monsignor ,talbot1 :o sp5ds 8 life 9 p]sonal att5dance on 8 ,hol9ess2 & accord+ to him1 ! ,pope did1 9 a tone ( "s displeasure1 refuse "o or two su* reque/s1 ! displeasure 0 n because p pray$ too mu* = ,engl&1 b because !y did n pray en\gh1 & on ?is acc\nt1 did n des]ve any m enc\ragem5t4 ,?is view ,i ma9ta9 ) ! m confid5ce1 inasmu* z aft] t displeasure _h be5 express$1 a petition 0 made on ,m>* #i1 #ahea1 by "s ,engli% ladies 9 ,rome = a pl5>y indulg5ce to be ga9$ once a mon? by ^? :o %\ld daily pray = ! conv]sion ( ,engl&3 x 0 grant$ z /at$ 9 our admission pap]s4 ,i inf] f ?is1 t if only ! ,holy ,fa!r p]ceiv$ t ! ,ca?olics ( ,engl& 7 really 9 e>ne/ 9 ! cause1 !re w\ld be no b\nds to ! lib]ality ) :i* he w\ld enc\rage !m2 b no "o likes to g on giv+ fav\rs to p]sons :o seem n to value !m2 & he :o has ! disp5s+ ( ! fav\rs ( ,almighty ,god f ! treasuries ( ! ,*ur*1 mu/ n cons5t to _! be+ und]valu$4 ,b n[1 x w be ask$1 :at enc\ragem5t did ,i myself receive f 8 ,hol9ess dur+ ! f\r mon?s & a half t ,i sp5t 9 ,rome1 z a k9d ( repres5tative ( ?is cause ( ! conv]sion ( ,engl&8 ,i ne$ n say t1 9 go+ to ,rome1 ,i 0 desir\s to move all he>ts !re to an en?usia/ic devotion to ?is ent]prise1 z ,i _h endeav\r$ to d 9 ,irel&1 9 ,france1 9 ,belgium1 & ,g]many4 ,i fa9 w\ld n h lo/ an occasion ( prea*+ 9 *ur*es1 address+ religi\s communities1 ! *ildr5 ( s*ools1 :]ev] ,i c\ld f9d !m assembl$4 ,i did n expect1 h[ev]1 to be able at once to run su* a c>e] 9 #dbe ,rome1 z 9 ord9>y t[ns1 & ,i 0 greatly satisfi$ ) :at 0 all[$ me4 ,:atev] difficulty or *eck ,i might h met )1 x came n f 8 ,hol9ess4 ,! prop] au?ority to apply to 9 ?is case 0 ! ,c>d9al-,vic>2 t is1 he :o adm9i/]s ! v diocese ( ,rome z ! ,pope's ,vic>-,g5]al4 ,he at once agre$ to my visit+ conv5ts & s*ools1 & exhort+ !m to ! great "w2 b = prea*+ 9 *ur*es1 !re mu/ be1 he said1 express sanction f ! ,pope4 ,! ,holy ,fa!r 0 consequ5tly consult$ by ,monsignor ,talbot1 & answ]$ t he _h no objection1 b left x to me to make arrangem5ts ) ! rectors ( ! *ur*es4 ,! numb] ( mona/]ies & s*ools 9 :i* ,i made my allocutions on ! conv]sion ( ,engl&1 is pa/ my remembrance4 ,almo/ day by day1 = ab\t two mon?s ( my "t1 ?is 0 my lead+ pursuit4 ,i wi% x to be cle>ly und]/ood t all ?is "t ,i spoke all t 0 9 my m9d ) z complete fre$om f res]ve z ,i am kn[n to ex]cise "h4 ,to ! au?orities 9 ,rome1 :o are n want+ 9 vigilance1 all mu/ h be5 kn[n2 & "o ^w f !m ( objection to ! subject1 or to my mann] ( treat+ x1 spok5 to my sup]iors1 w\ld h at once /opp$ me4 ,! numb] ( *ur*es 9 :i* ,i spoke 0 n s great4 ,i us$ g5]ally to ask leave myself to address conv5ts & s*ools4 ,i saw t x w\ld n be becom+ to (f] myself ?us to speak 9 *ur*es at ,rome2 b among o!rs ,i may m5tion p>ticul>ly1 t ,i prea*$ by invitation1 9 ,engli%1 9 ,fr5*1 & 9 ,italian1 9 ^? ( ! l>ge & frequ5t$ *ur*es ,s4 ,&rea della ,valle1 ,s4 ,luigi de' ,francesi1 & ,s4 ,&rea della ,fratte2 & ! ,pope himself spoke to me ( ?is la/ disc\rse 9 a tone ( satisfaction4 ,he w\ld n h be5 oppos$1 z f> z c\ld be obs]v$1 if1 in/ead ( ?ree *ur*es1 ,i c\ld h made up a li/ ( ?ree hundr$4 ,ano!r means ,i took = mov+ ! ,roman p 01 by ! pap]s pr9t$ = me by ! ,propag&a1 ( :i* ,i spoke 9 my la/ lett]4 ,! fir/ ( ^! 0 ?us head$3--',association ( ,pray]s & ,good ,works = ! ,conv]sion ( ^? :o are sep>at$ f ! ,holy ,ca?olic ,*ur*1 b especially ( ,engl&4' ,be=e ?is #dbf writ+ 0 pr9t$1 ,i gave a copy ( x to ,monsignor ,talbot1 to lay be=e ! ,pope4 ,he return$ x to me1 ) ?is addition 9 8 own h&3-- ',8 ,hol9ess has deign$ to grant to ?is pi\s "w 8 special b5$iction4 ',george ,talbot1 ,cam]i]e ,segreto4 ',nov4 #ae1 #ahea4' ,to ?is is app5d$ ! petition pres5t$ = me by ,monsignor ,b>nab1 = ! ext5sion ( indulg5ces1 z foll[s3-- ',mo/ ,bless$ ,fa!r1--,ignatius ( ,/4 ,paul 7,sp5c]71 ,passioni/1 ,prov9cial ,consultor 9 ,engl&1 pro/rate at ! feet ( y\r ,hol9ess1 /ates t1 be+ desir\s ( ext5d+ ! ,association ( ,pray]s already exi/+ = ,engl&1 9 fav\r ( all ^? :o are sep>at$ f ! ,holy ,*ur*1 & be+ s5sible t a fre% spiritual attraction is necess>y 9 ord] to move all ! fai?ful to ent] on ?is holy ent]prise1 mo/ humbly implores y\r ,hol9ess1 t y w\ld be pleas$ to ext5d ! ?ree hundr$ days' indulg5ce already grant$ by y\r ,hol9ess to :oev] prays = ! conv]sion ( ,engl&1 to ?is new "w1 & moreov] grant "o hundr$ days = :atev] good "w may be done 9 fav\r ( ?is ,association4' ,monsignor ,b>nab report$1 t ?\gh ! ,pope adv]t$ to 8 =m] decl>ation1 t he w\ld give no m indulg5ces on ?is acc\nt1 he grant$ ?is petition 9 ! mo/ graci\s mann]4 ,! date ( ?is grant is ,nov4 #af1 #ahea4 ,x is evid5tly intimat$ "h1 t :ile grant+ 8 sanction to ! ext5sion ( ! ent]prise1 he r5ew$ 8 sanction to x 9 its orig9al =m4 ,i mu/ "h conclude1 & def] aga9 to ano!r lett] :at ,i promis$ be=e1 t is1 "s acc\nt ( :at pass$ 9 ! audi5ces to :i* ,i myself 0 admitt$ by 8 ,hol9ess4 ,an incid5t happ5$ t[>ds ! end ( ,fa!r ,ignatius's audi5ces ) ! ,holy ,fa!r1 highly *>act]i/ic4 ,fa!r ,ignatius _h made arrangem5ts = a begg+ t\r 9 ,g]many1 & int5d$ to inaugurate x by try+ :at #dbg he c\ld d 9 t l9e 9 ,rome itself4 ,our ,g5]al =bade him to beg ( 8 ,hol9ess1 & ,fa!r ,ignatius _h made up 8 m9d be=e to d s4 ,aft] ! prohibition he began to d\bt :e!r x 0 b9d+1 z ! ,pope 0 a high] sup]ior ?an ! ,g5]al4 ,he consult$ an a/ute ,roman !ologian on 8 d\bt1 & ! answ] giv5 01 ,lay ! d\bt itself be=e ! ,pope4 ,fa!r ,ignatius _h an audi5ce 9 /ore = him = a diff]5t matt]1 & :5 x 0 ov]1 he said1 9 ! greate/ simplicity1 ,holy ,fa!r1 ,i h a scruple on my m9d1 :i* ,i w\ld wi% to speak ab\t1 if ,i might be p]mitt$4 ,well1 & :at is x8 ,he "h told ! ,pope j z he 0 advis$4 ,! ,pope smil$1 h&$ him t5 gregor9e 7ab\t #be71 & told him n to m9d ! scruple4 #dbh ,,*apt] ,x4 ,a ,t\r ,9 ,g]many4 ,fa!r ,ignatius left ,rome ) ! ,holy ,fa!rs bless+ on bo? 8 spiritual & temporal projects4 ,on 8 way to ,g]many1 :i!r he 0 b\nd = a tw(old begg+ t\r1 he prea*$ ev]y:]e to religi\s1 prie/s1 nuns1 p1 & *ildr51 ^u ! conv]sion ( ,engl&4 ,he w5t fur!r ?an m]e exhortation1 he tri$ to get ! ,bi%ops & religi\s to take up 8 ideas1 n[ /amp$ ) ! approbation ( ,rome1 & propagate !m among ^? "u _! jurisdiction4 ,he met ) k9dness & enc\ragem5t 9 e t[n & hamlet until he came to ,laiba*4 ,"h ! police seiz$ him & s5t him away4 ,at ,gratz he met ) a bett] reception4 ,?r\gh\t1 ! prie/s & religi\s receive him ) a some?+ approa*+ to hon\r1 & s d ! nobility1 b gov]nm5t (ficials & ! l treat him rudely en\gh4 ,:5 he arriv$ 9 ,vi5na1 he f\nd a way ( conciliat+ ^! (fic]s ( ju/ice & _! subalt]ns4 ,graf 7,c\nt7 ,o',donnel took him to ! ,secret>y ( ,police1 & procur$ him a safe-conduct1 :]eby ?is k9d ( annoyance 0 put an end to = ! future4 ,great p]sonages patronize him--among ! *ief 7 ,pr9ce ,e/]hazy1 ,c\nts ,o',donnel & ,lit*5/e94 ,?r\gh _! k9dness & 8 own repute1 he is fav\r$ ) int]views f ! memb]s ( ! royal family4 ,a few ( ^! 9 8 own words mu/ be int]e/+3-- ,:ile at ,rome1 ,i he>d "o day ! wond]ful acc\nt ( ! c\p d'tat ( ! n[ ,emp]or ( ! ,fr5*4 ,i ?\ght ) myself t mom5t1 "h is a man = me--p]haps ! man4 ,if he survive ! assaults ( 8 enemies1 #dbi & become e/abli%$ 9 p[] ov] ,france1 he is ! man evid5tly = great designs2 ! p :om he rules are ! p to foll[ him 9 !m2 & he has a m9d1 s ,i conceiv$1 to und]/& h[ utt]ly insignificant are all ent]prises1 9 comp>ison ) ^? :i* h ! glory ( ,god & ! salvation ( s\ls = _! end4 ,b w he1 c he1 be mov$ to take up ! great cause8 ,i got an introduction to ! ,fr5* ambassador at ,rome1 9 ord] to op5 my way to an int]view ) 8 *ief4 ,?is may be 9 res]ve = me "s future day2 b ,i 0 fir/ to see ano!r great man--! "y ,emp]or ( ,au/ria4 ,i ?9k an acc\nt ( ?is audi5ce1 & "s accompany+ circum/ances1 w be int]e/+ 9 m po9ts ( view ?an "o4 ,aft] leav+ ,rome at ! beg9n+ ( ,febru>y1 ,i w5t to ,vi5na1 & /opp$ !re ?ree weeks be=e com+ home4 ,! ,emp]or _h j left ,vi5na = ,v5ice :5 ,i arriv$1 & did n return till a =tnight aft]4 ,9 consequ5ce ( ?is1 ,i s\ght =1 & _h audi5ce ( all ! o!r memb]s ( ! royal family !n 9 ! t[n4 ,_m may n be aw>e ( ! circum/ances "u :i* ! pres5t ,emp]or 0 rais$ to ! ?rone4 ,ev]y?+ connect$ ) ?is "y man is to me full ( a k9d ( poetic int]e/4 ,he is ! elde/ son ( ! ,ar*duke ,francis ,*>les & ! ,ar*du*ess ,sophia1 a pr9cess ( ,bav>ia4 ,8 fa!r is bro!r to ! ex-,emp]or ,f]d9&4 ,x is said t 9 #ahdh1 at ! "t :5 ! insurg5ts _h ga9$ possession ( ,vi5na1 & ! c\rt 0 9 flight1 "s "o ask$ ! ,empress ,m>y ,ann1 a ,s>d9ian pr9cess1 ',madam1 h y ev] ?\ght ( an abdication8' ',i h1 inde$1' answ]$ %e2 'b :at is to foll[8' ,! ,emp]or _h no *ildr51 & 8 next heir 0 8 bro!r ! ,ar*duke4 ,bo? ( !m h be5 always highly respect$ z mo/ amiable & religi\s m51 b are n ( abilities or "* to be> ! *>ge ( an empire "u su* circum/ances4 ,! abdication1 !n1 ( ! reign+ ,emp]or w\ld n h be5 a rem$y to exi/+ evils1 unless 8 bro!r jo9$ 9 ! sacrifice ( 8 claims1 & made way = ! succession ( 8 son4 ,?is #dcj arrangem5t1 h[ev]1 0 effect$2 &1 if :at ,i ga!r$ f conv]sations & obs]vation is correct1 x is to ! two ladies :om ,i h m5tion$1 t ! empire is indebt$ = x4 ,d n !y des]ve ! admiration ( ! pres5t & future g5]ations1 & to h _! place among ! valiant wom51 = r5\nc+ ! hon\rs ( an imp]ial cr[n1 = ! public good8 ,be ?is z x may1 ! ann\ncem5t 0 made to ! "y pr9ce1 !n eighte5 ye>s ( age1 t ! cr[n 0 84 ,x is said t he bur/ into te>s at he>+ x1 & begg$ two days = reflection1 dur+ :i* he w5t to confession & communion1 to obta9 light f ,god1 & conclud$ ) giv+ 8 cons5t4 ,8 c>e] has be5 con=mable ) ?is beg9n+4 ,among o!r ?+s1 ,i may m5tion t "o ( 8 fir/ acts 01 ( 8 own m9d1 to repeal ! oppressive laws ( ,joseph ,,ii41 & to re/ore lib]ty to ! ,*ur*4 ,c\ld ,i d o!rwise ?an long to int]e/ su* a s\l z ?is 9 ! great cause ,i 0 support+8 ,%all ,i succe$ 9 ! end8 ,i _h an audi5ce ( ! ,ar*du*ess ,sophia1 ! ,emp]or's "m1 be=e 8 return f ,v5ice4 ,x is "u h] c>e & guidance1 z ,i 0 assur$1 t 8 "* has be5 =m$2 & x 0 t\*+ to he> h] make me a k9d ( apology = :at might1 p]haps1 be tak5 z a defect 9 8 mann]4 ,i told h] ,i 0 desir\s ( an audi5ce ( 8 ,maje/y4 ,%e said1 ',y w c]ta9ly obta9 x2' & %e add$1 ,y w p]haps ?9k him cold1 b he is n s4' ,?is corresponds ) :at %e said to a fri5d ( m9e1 a ,g]man lit]>y "*1 :o 0 likewise ab\t to h 8 fir/ audi5ce f ! ,emp]or4 ,! ,ar*du*ess said to him1 ',8 mann] is n w9n+1 l t ( ,c>l mean+ h] ?ird son1 ! ,ar*duke ,*>les1 b he has great] dep? ( "*2 f 8 *ildhood upw>ds ,i nev] knew him say a ^w m]ely to please2 e ^w is f 8 he>t4' ,^! few words ( 8 "m are to me a mo/ preci\s comm5t on :at pass$ betwe5 ! ,emp]or & me :5 ,i _h my audi5ce4 ,i 0 introduc$ into a l>ge saloon on "o ( ! days ( public reception4 ,! ,emp]or /ood alone 9 ! middle ( x2 beh9d him1 to ! left1 0 a small table1 on :i* 0 a pile ( #dca memorials :i* he _h already receiv$4 ,he 0 9 milit>y uni=m4 ,i %\ld be glad to convey ! impression :i* 8 appe>ance1 & ! few words he spoke1 made on me4 ,a "y emp]or1 ,i suppose1 has great advantage 9 ga9+ ^u "o's feel+s1 if he w 9 any degree d himself ju/ice4 ,9 ?is case1 ,i say1 t ,i nev] 0 m satisfi$1 n to say captivat$1 ) my obs]vations on any p]son4 ,8 figure is n 9 itself comm&+2 b !re 0 9 8 air & mann] & tone a union ( grace & affability1 dignity1 wisdom1 & mode/y1 :i* ,i d n rememb] to h se5 equall$4 ,i 0 greatly /ruck1 on my entrance1 ) :at appe>$ to me su* a contra/ betwe5 :at ,i witness$ & ! receptions usually giv5 by great p]sonages :o wi% to be graci\s4 ,ord9>ily1 my impression is t !y ov]:elm "o ) _m words1 :i* (t5 mean no?+4 ,! ,emp]or 0 p]fectly sil5t4 ,i _h "t to ?9k ) myself1 aft] ,i _h approa*$ him1 ',am ,i !n to speak fir/8 ,s x 04 ,i h a v cle> recollection ( :at 0 said4 ',i h reque/$ ?is audi5ce1' ,i said1 'to repres5t to y\r ,maje/y ! object = :i* ,i am travell+4 ,x is to move ,ca?olics ?r\gh\t ! _w to int]e/ !mselves 9 obta9+ ! return ( my c\ntry to ! ,ca?olic fai?4 ,on ?is1 ,i am deeply conv9c$1 dep5ds entirely ! happ9ess ( my c\ntry2 &1 ,i conceive1 no?+ w\ld m contribute to ! happ9ess ( o!r nations ( ! _w4' ,! ,emp]or seem$ to intimate ass5t to ?is1 & said ) great grace3 ',i am happy to he> t ?+s g on bett] 9 ,engl& 9 reg>d to religion ?an !y h done4' ',!re is mu*1' ,i said1 'to enc\rage hopes2 b we want great help4 ,i am come to ask ! help ( ,au/ria4 ,i d n take on me to prescribe :at y\r ,maje/y 9 p]son might d 9 ?is cause4 ,z ! pr9cipal means to be employ$ is pray]1 ,i am aw>e t x belongs r to ,bi%ops to direct su* movem5ts2 b ,i ask help & sympa?y f all4 ,i ?\ght x c\ld n be any?+ b "r to ask y\r ,maje/y's4' #dcb ,he answ]$3 ',i w int]e/ myself z mu* at possible4' ,i add$3 ',i h said1 ,i did n int5d to propose any l9e ( action to y\r ,maje/y2 b ,i may expla9 myself fur!r4 ,x is to ! ,bi%ops t ,i make my pr9cipal appeal to int]e/ ! p 9 ?is object4 ,n[1 ,i am aw>e t !y w\ld & mu/ be av]se to any public measures :i* might seem to involve political inconv5i5ce3 ,i w\ld1 !re=e1 ask ( y\r ,maje/y1 t if ! bi%ops are pleas$ to act1 ! ,gov]nm5t %\ld n object to x1 z ,i conceive !re w\ld be no reason4' ,! ,emp]or said some?+ to ! effect1 z ,i ?\ght1 t he saw no reason to object to :at ,i said4 ,i 0 aw>e t my audi5ce c\ld n be a long "o1 & ,i n[ put my h& to ! brea/ ( my habit to take out a memorial1 :i* ,i _h be5 direct$ to pres5t on ?is occasion1 = p]mission to collect subscriptions 9 ! empire4 ,he ?\ght ,i 0 ab\t to (f] him pap]s on ! subject on :i* ,i _h be5 speak+1 & said3 ',y probably h "s pap]s :i* w expla9 y\r wi%es4' ,i said3 ',i h2 b !y are n 9 a becom+ =m to pres5t to y\r ,maje/y4' ,i _h1 9 fact1 two little addresses pr9t$ on poor pap]1 9 ,g]man1 = di/ribution2 & ,i br\ght !m =w>d4 ,he imm$iately put out 8 h& to take !m1 & said1 ) a smile & mann] ( truly high-br$ c\rtesy3 ',oh6 ,i w read !m2 '& he laid !m on ! table by him4 ,i !n pres5t$ my writt5 memorial1 & !n1 on 8 slightly b[+ to me1 ,i )drew4 ,ano!r lett] says3-- ,9 my la/ lett] ,i repeat$ ! words 9 :i* t wise & excell5t ,pr9cess1 ! ,ar*du*ess ,sophia1 describ$ ! "* ( two ( h] sons3 ',! ,emp]or seems cold1 b he is n s4 ,he is n w9n+ & amiable l ,c>l1 b he has m solidity & dep?4' ,i rem>k$ t to me ^! words 7 a mo/ int]e/+ comm5t>y #dcc on :at pass$ 9 ! %ort audi5ce ,i _h f ! "y ,emp]or2 & if ,i succe$$ 9 my description ( x1 ,i am sure o!rs w ?9k ) me4 ,i w n[ give "s acc\nt ( my audi5ce ) ! ?ird bro!r1 ! "y ,ar*duke ,*>les4 ,! second bro!r1 ^: "n ,i d n n[ rememb]1 0 n 9 ,vi5na at ! "t4 ,he is a seaman1 & ,i suppose x is int5d$ t "u 8 auspices ! ,au/rian navy %\ld be advanc$ to great] vig\r & effici5cy1 :ile ! ,emp]or & ,*>les att5d ma9ly to ! army4 ,! empire possesses two spl5did ports--,trie/e & ,v5ice2 & pa/ hi/ory proves :at may be done ) ! latt] alone4 ,i made acqua9tance ) a ,swiss ecclesia/ic 9 ,vi5na 7,mgr4 ,misl971 :o bore a "p 9 ! education ( all ?ree ( ^! pr9ces4 ,i _h told him :at 7 my desires conc]n+ !m2 t is1 to inspire !m ) ard5t zeal = ! great "w ( ! reunion ( ,*ri/5dom1 b especially ! reconque/ ( ,engl& = ! ,*ur*4 ,"o day ! ,abb call$ to see me1 at ! palace ( ! ,pope's ,nuncio1 :]e ,i 0 /ay+2 & z ,i 0 out1 he left ^w t he wi%$ to see me )\t delay4 ,he _h to tell me1 z ,i f\nd1 t ! ,ar*duke ,*>les1 ) :om he regul>ly goes to d9e e ,friday1 _h said to him on ! la/ ( ^! occasions1 ',d y "k ,fa!r ,ignatius8' ',yes1' he answ]$1 'v well4' ',d y ?9k1' add$ ! ,pr9ce1 ',i c\ld see him8 ,i wi% x v mu*4' ',oh1' repli$ ! ,abb1 '!re w be no difficulty2 '& at once an h\r 0 fix$--two o'clock on ! #aa? ( ,m>*4 ,x happ5$1 h[ev]1 t notice 0 receiv$ t at ?is v "t ! ,emp]or 0 to arrive f ,trie/e1 & ! ,ar*duke _h to g to ! railway t]m9us to meet him4 ,my audi5ce 0 def]r$ till half-pa/ ?ree2 & ,i w5t ) ! ,abb to ! private entrance ( ! imp]ial palace to see !m arrive4 ,!y 7 driv5 up f ! /ation 9 a light op5 c>riage2 & x 0 ?us1 side by side1 t ,i fir/ saw !m bo?4 ,i may be mi/ak51 b 9 my poetic recollections & visions ( ,vi5na1 if ,i1 :o am no poet1 may s speak1 ^! two bro!rs are *>m+ly conjo9$ 9 my m9d4 ,at half-pa/ ?ree1 !n1 ,i w5t to #dcd ! ,ar*duke's ap>tm5ts 9 ! ,burg1 z x is call$--a great mass ( build+1 :i* includes ! ,emp]or's t[n resid5ce1 ap>tm5ts = all ! royal family1 sev]al public (fices1 ext5sive qu>t]s = troops1 c4--& 0 imm$iately introduc$ to him 9 a l>ge draw+-room1 :]e he kept me a good half-h\r 9 lively conv]sation4 ,my impression ( him 01 ( a bright1 buoyant y\?1 full ( %9+ prospects ( 8 future c>e]2 9 :i*1 ?\gh1 p]haps1 some:at unconsci\sly to himself1 he is bo? qualifi$ by circum/ances & "*1 & nobly dispos$ to ex]t himself = ev]y?+ great & good4 ,all ?is1 h[ev]1 is yet to be develop$ & consolidat$ by age1 reflection1 & exp]i5ce4 ,i %\ld say1 n s mu* t he himself is eag]ly grasp+ at facts ) :i* to /ore 8 m9d1 to be 9 due "t dige/$1 matur$1 & act$ ^u1 z t ,provid5ce is turn+ to acc\nt 8 natural y\?ful eag]ness1 & %all we say1 curiosity1 to d ?is = him4 ,may x prove t ,i am n =m+ ov] bright & gr\ndless visions6 ,! ,ar*duke 0 dress$ 9 a pla9 cavalry uni=m4 ,he 0 !n ab\t #ai ye>s old1 & v "y-look+ = 8 age4 ,my object 0 to impress him ) ! gr& importance ( ! ent]prise :i* ,i 0 propos+ z prop] to =m ! de>e/ & con/ant aim ( 8 bro!r's reign2 t is1 ! re/or+ union to ,*ri/5dom1 hav+ peculi>ly 9 view ! reconcil+ ,engl& to ! ,*ur*4 ',i h no wi%1' ,i said1 'to see him1 ! ,emp]or1 less devot$ to 8 army3 let him wat* ) con/ant c>e ov] all ! int]e/s ( 8 ,imp]ial dignity2 b let him be devot$1 above all & 9 ev]y?+1 to ! glory ( ,god1 & ! repair+ ! losses ( ! ,holy ,*ur*2 & if x pleases ,god he %\ld live1 he w h a c>e] m glori\s1 & leave a "n great] ?an ,*>lemagne4' ,he said1 ',surely :at y propose is mo/ important4 ,x is a matt] to be deeply deplor$ t s _m ,g]man /ates are cut (f f ! ,*ur*4' 44444 ,i d n rememb] cle>ly mu* m ( :at pass$ 9 ?is conv]sation1 & 9 tru? x is n ( s mu* consequ5ce2 = 8 words are n all weigh$1 solid1 & wor? record+1 l ^? ( 8 m #dce sage bro!r4 ,all h n ! same gifts1 natural or spiritual2 & x is n well !y %\ld4 ,( c\rse1 x is n well1 because ,god has ord]$ x ?us4 ,b ,i c\ld see 9 ! div]sity ( ^! "y m5 :at might be wond]fully comb9$ = do+ great ?+s4 ,*>les w\ld n be ! "o to gov]n & control1 & he has n ?is to d4 ,! ,emp]or has2 & he is cut out = x4 ,b !n p]haps he is n "o to w9 & conciliate ^? :o d n "k h[ to value all sup]ior qualities l 82 yet ?is is necess>y 9 su* times1 especially :5 s\nd1 old-fa%ion$ loyalty is n mu* kn[n4 ,b let ! two bro!rs "w toge!r2 let _! he>ts be "o1 & let t "o purpose be direct$ to noble ends1 & x w be well = !m1 = ! empire1 & = ,europe4 ,*>les w supply :at ! o!r wants4 ,i ask$ ,monsignor ,misl9 "o day1 ) an anxi\s feel+1 :e!r !y 7 really affectionate1 lov+ bro!rs1 & ! answ] 0 satisfactory4 #dcf ,,*apt] ,,xi4 ,fa!r ,ignatius ,returns ,to ,engl&4 ,he l&s at ,dov] on ! #a/ ,april1 #aheb1 comes home1 sets 8 h\se 9 ord] at ! ,hyde1 & goes1 aft] ,holy ,week1 to see ,fa!r ,eug5e1 ! ,prov9cial1 at ,/4 ,wilfrid's1 to give an acc\nt ( himself4 ,8 "n 0 ab\t ?is "t 9 e "o's m\?1 8 do+s 7 canvass$ by fri5ds & foes1 & _m & v>i\s 7 ! op9ions held ab\t him4 ,9 ! meantime he w5t on ) 8 ord9>y duties4 ,he gives ! retreat 9 ,s$geley ,p>k aga91 & "o to ! congregation at ,havant4 ,x 0 :il/ "h1 9 ! h\se ( ,mr4 ,s*olfield1 t he read ,"l ,d]by's proclamation aga9/ appe>+ abroad 9 ! religi\s habit4 ,fa!r ,ignatius _h to return to ,london next day1 & did n wi% to violate ?is prohibition4 ,he 0 sadly at a loss2 he _h br\ght no secul> clo!s ) him1 & ! g5tleman ) :om he 0 /ay+ 0 %ort & /\t1 s t x 0 hopeless to ?9k ( gett+ any?+ suitable f 8 w>drobe4 ,! butl] 0 tax$ = a contribution2 all :o _h an article to sp>e gave he>tily1 & ! ,monk 01 aft] "s +5uity1 equipp$ 9 ! foll[+ fa%ion3 ,a pair ( v light %oes1 fitt+ badly & p9*+ sorely1 a pair ( %ort col\r$ pantaloons1 a great pilot ov]coat1 a ,scot* cap1 cut s z to make x fit 8 head1 =m$ ! cap--pie ( ,fa!r ,ignatius4 ,he took refuge 9 ,spani% ,place until ! d>kness ( night might save him f 8 juv5ile fri5ds along ! ,edgw>e ,road1 :o1 if !y recognis$ him 9 8 new fa%ion1 w\ld treat him to a m ?an ord9>y %>e ( ridicule4 ,he took (f ! %oes :5 outside ,london1 & "o may imag9e ! surprise ( #dcg ! religi\s :5 he ent]$ ! *oir ?us array$1 9 ! middle ( mat9s1 to get ,fa!r ,prov9cial's p]mission to *ange6 ,our ,fa!rs %ortly aft] 7 convok$ by ! ,prov9cial to a k9d ( *apt]4 ,among o!r matt]s submitt$ to _! consid]ation1 came ! do+s ( ,fa!r ,ignatius4 ,!re 7 cavils on all sides1 f )9 & )\t1 & _m ?\ght t x 0 8 imprud5ce t drew =? ! proclamation4 ,! nature ( ! *>ges aga9/ him w be se5 f an apologetic lett] ( 8 to ! ,/&>d3-- ,to ,! ,editor ,( ,! ,ca?olic ,/&>d4 ,jesu ,*ri/i ,passio4 ,sir1--,i rem>k$ 9 my la/1 n z a compla9t1 b q ! contr>y1 t ,i h (t5 he>d t good ,ca?olics h suspect$ me to be n "r 9 my head1 because ( my /range devotion to ! conv]sion ( ,engl& & ( ! _m /range ?+s :i* ?is fancy1 z x seems to !m1 has l$ me to d4 ,s f>1 inde$1 am ,i f be+ surpris$ at or vex$ by !m1 t ,i fairly decl>e t some?+ l a suspicion ( ?is k9d sometimes fla%es across my own m9d4 ,suppose1 = in/ance1 ,i might he> ( any "o becom+ d]ang$ or be+ 9 dang] ( x1 ,i h felt at times some?+ l a sympa!tic *ord /ruck 9 my own m9d1 :i* seems to say1 ,are p "r1 p]haps1 aft] all8 ,am ,i n really mad on ?is po9t8' ,& x may take me a mom5t's ?\ght to keep my fair ev5 balance4 ,h[ d ,i keep x8--,n z ,i might h done1 "s ?irty ye>s ago1 by recollect+1 :at :5 "y ,i us$ to he> said by my relations1 ) self-congratulation1 ,well1 ?ank ,god1 !re is no ta9t ( madness 9 our family6--,no2 ,i get my satisfaction indep5d5tly ( ?is1 f a tw(old consci\sness1 to "o bran* ( :i* ,i c\ld n h ref]r$ !n--t is1 f ! consci\sness1 fir/1 ( a yet unimpair$ memory conc]n+ :at ,i h se5 & said & he>d )9 reasonable limits ( "t2 & secondly1 f ! consci\sness1 glory be to ,god = #dch x1 ( 7may ,i say x )\t ra%ness87 a p]fect ,ca?olic1 ,apo/olic1 ,roman fai?4 ,i rememb]--,i _c be mi/ak5 9 ?is--t1 n two ye>s ago1 ,i sp5t f\r mon?s 9 ,rome1 & spoke out !re all my ?\ghts on ?is subject1 z f> z ,i _h opportunity giv51 )\t a %ad[ ( res]ve1 to ! fir/ au?orities ( ! ,*ur*2 & t x end$ by my receiv+ & hav+ 9 my possession docum5ts fully approv+ ( :at ,i _h be5 do+ & purpos$ to d1 f ! fir/ au?orities ( ! ,*ur*1 to :i* ,i may add ! m5tion ( te/imonials sign$ by ! ,g5]als ( ! ,dom9icans1 ( ! ,conv5tual ,franciscans1 ( ! ,franciscans ,/rictioris ,obs]vantiae1 & ( ! ,capu*9s1 recomm5d+ me to all local sup]iors ( _! respective ord]s1 to ! end t !y %\ld receive me to hospitality 9 all _! h\ses1 all[ ! use ( _! *ur*es to prea* 91 & assi/ me 9 e possible way 9 my purposes4 ,i h !n said to myself1 ,x w\ld inde$ be no ord9>y sort ( madness break+ out = ! fir/ "t 9 a family1 :i* %\ld h ! m>vell\s p[] ( communicat+ itself1 infect+ & dragg+ aft] x su* a numb] ( c]ta9ly v respectable heads2 to :i* ,i may add1 t ! f\ndation1 z x 71 ( all ^! te/imonials1 0 a lett] f 8 ,em95ce ! ,ar*bi%op ( ,we/m9/]1 giv5 me :5 ,i w5t into ,g]many 9 ! summ] ( #ahea1 r5ew$ ) a fre% signature 9 #aheb1 aft] all my vag>ies 787 at ,vi5na _h tak5 place4 ,9 ?is lett]1 writt5 9 ,fr5* by ! h& ( 8 ,em95ce himself--( :om ,i nev] he>d any "o express ! idea t he 0 t\*$ 9 ! bra9--he /ates t hav+ p]fectly kn[n me f ! "t ( my conv]sion ,i feel an intimate conviction 9 myself no "o kn[s me bett] he does n hesitate to recomm5d me to all ! ,ca?olics ( ! ,cont95t1 p>ticul>ly to all bi%ops & ecclesia/ics1 secul> & regul>1 z wor?y ( all _! consid]ation & ( _! support1 9 ! matt]s ab\t :i* ,i %\ld be engag$4 ,no2 ,i say1 t on div9e pr9ciples1 almo/ z well z human1 x is too mu* to imag9e t ,i h be5 mad1 ?us f>2 :atev] may be ! case h]eaft]4 ,prote/ants1 at lea/ "s ( !m1 might say s1 & might #dci ?9k x too4 ,no wond]4 ,b w ?is remon/rance suffice to put an end to su* ins9uations f good ,ca?olics8 ,m9d1 ,i am n displeas$ at !m2 nay1 ,i reli% ^! ins9uations beyond :at ,i c express4 ,i h solid reasons = ?is2 b ,i desire = ! future to =ego ?is p]sonal consolation1 = ! sake ( ! s\ls ( my poor c\ntrym51 & ( hundr$s ( millions m ?r\gh\t ! _w1 :i* ,i h ! conviction might be sav$1 if ! ,ca?olics ( ,engl& & ,irel& w\ld at l5g? h done ) _! objections1 & und]take ) all _! he>t ! ga9+ ( ?is k+dom to ,god & ,8 ,*ur*--& a reput$ madman is n likely to move !m to x4 ,i _c b ?9k t ! au?orities "u ^: sanction ,i h act$ might be consid]$ a suffici5t def5ce aga9/ objections to ! movem5t :i* ,i call = s p]t9aci\sly4 ,i w1 h[ev]1 proce$ to answ] "o by "o ! rem>ks :i* ,i suppos$ 9 my la/ lett] might be pass$ on my n>rative ( proce$+s at ,vi5na4 ,fir/1 ,i suppos$ "s w\ld smile at my ignorance ( ! _w1 9 expect+ t 9 our days "y pr9ces l ! ,emp]or ( ,au/ria & 8 bro!r %\ld h any dispositions to ent] into ideas l m9e4 ,b :y n8 ,are !y n good ideas8 at lea/1 ,i ?9k !m s2 & am ,i to ?9k a p]son incapable ( great & good designs because he is an emp]or--a pr9ce8 ,!re is no d\bt t because he is a pr9ce1 he is imm5sely m responsible = ! objects :i* he pursues2 & t ! glory ( ,god w\ld be incomp>ably m advanc$ by 8 devot+ himself to heav5ly pursuits ?an if he 7 an ord9>y p]son2 & are we tamely to surr5d] to ! s]vice ( ! _w1 & ( ! ,pr9ce ( ?is _w1 all :o h p[] to influ5ce ! _w1 & be cont5t on ,god's behalf to h none b ! poor & weak on ! o!r side8 ,i "k x is 9 ! ,^w ( ,god t n _m wise1 n _m noble1 c41 are call$4 ,god has *os5 ! poor 9 ?is _w2 b yet !re has be5 a ,/4 ,h5ry1 an emp]or2 a ,/4 ,/eph51 ,k+ ( ,hung>y2 a ,/4 ,l\is ( ,france2 a ,/4 ,edw>d ! ,confessor1 & s _m m2 & :at magnific5t in/rum5ts h su* #ddj m5 be5 = exalt+ ! ,*ur*1 conv]t+ nations1 & sav+ s\ls6 ,if !y h be5 few 9 comp>ison ) k+s & emp]ors ^: views h be5 all temporal1 is t a reason aga9/ try+ to add "o or two m to _! numb]8 ,i ?9k x is a reason :y we %\ld try2 & if we are to try1 let u d x 9 ! _s ( hope1 or we %all d x v languidly4 ,if aft] all we fail1 :at h we lo/ by try+ & by hop+8 ,y may answ]1 we %all suff] disappo9tm5t4 ,ah6 :o says t8 ,no6 no disappo9tm5t = ^? :o hope 9 ,god & "w = ,him legitimately4 ,x w\ld make my he>t ble$1 if ,i _h a he>t fit = x1 to ?9k ( ! noble1 truly pr9cely y\?s 9 "q1 s9k+ d[n to ! wret*$ level ( worldly1 selfi%1 immoral1 useless m5 ( p[]1 ( :om ! _w has borne s _m2 & = a "t1 if b = a "t1 ,i h indulg$ bright visions ab\t !m2 n m]e dreamy visions1 = _! education1 ! circum/ances ( _! elevation1 ! "y ,emp]or's c>e] hi!rto1 8 late wond]ful deliv]ance f assass9ation1 9 :i* he behav$1 z report says1 9 away to enc\rage all su* ?\ghts z m9e--all ^! are reasons on my side2 b suppose ,i am disappo9t$ !re2 suppose no "o sympa?izes 9 my ?\ghts2 suppose ! ,emp]or has =gott5 all ab\t my appeal1 & ,i nev] travel m1 or nev] m to ,vi5na1 & no "o else w take any tr\ble ab\t x--is ,god's arm %ort5$8 ,are !re no o!r emp]ors1 or k+s1 or que5s = ,him to *oose among1 if emp]ors ,he has ne$ ( = ! "w8 ,my fri5ds1 fe> n4 ,i d n int5d to be disappo9t$1 &1 :at is m1 ,i %all n be1 nor w any ( ^? be :o "w = ! sav+ ( s\ls1 ev5 on ! v l>ge/ scale1 unless we are s fooli% z to turn back & gr[ slack4 ,b is x n an error1 x w be ask$1 a mi/ake to wi% k+s & emp]ors to int]f]e 9 su* ?+s8 ,i "k _m p]sons ( great consid]ation h ?is ?\ght2 b ! mi/ake seems to me to lie 9 n mak+ a di/9ction betwe5 su* int]f]5ce z t ( ,con/antius1 ,val5s1 ,julian1 9 old times2 ,h5ry ,,iv4 & ,joseph ,,ii4 ( ,au/ria1 ,h5ry ,,viii4 ( ,engl&1 & t ( su* pr9ces z ,i h nam$ above1 :om ! ,*ur* has canoniz$ = #dda :at !y did = h]4 ,?is is my op9ion1 o!rs h !irs2 h[ %all we decide8 ,c we "h aga9 "k ! m9d ( ,rome2 & w n t h "s weight 9 settl+ ! "q8 ,i w j relate :at took place !re relative to ?is matt]4 ,:5 prep>+ to leave ,rome = ,vi5na1 ,i desir$ to obta9 f ! ,au/rian ,ambassador !re a lett]1 :i* might facilitate my access to ! ,emp]or1 on :i* ,i _h set my he>t4 ,b ,i und]/ood ! ,ambassador himself 0 n easily accessible1 & t ,i _h bett] obta9 a note ( introduction to him1 & f no "o w\ld x be s desirable z f ,c>d9al ,antonelli1 ! ,pope's ,secret>y ( ,/ate4 ,i obta9$ an audi5ce f him & made my reque/4 ,he answ]$3 ,we h a nuncio at ,vi5na2 x w d bett] = y to h a lett] f me to him4 ,( c\rse ,i accept$ ?is spontane\s (f] mo/ ?ankfully4 ,! ,c>d9al desir$ me to tell him :at ,i wi%$ at ,vi5na1 ,i said3 ,an audi5ce ( ! ,emp]or3 & z ,i am ask+ ! fav\r ( y\r ,em95ce to assi/ me 9 obta9+ x1 x seems "r y %\ld "k = :at end ,i desire x4 ,x is to propose to ! ,emp]or to take to he>t my great object ( ! conv]sion ( ,engl&1 & ( ,prote/ants 9 g5]al1 & to move 8 subjects to x4 ,! ,c>d9al expla9$ to me "s circum/ances 9 ! position ( ! ,emp]or1 :i* made x unlikely t he w\ld be l$ to take any op5 /eps ( ?is k9d2 b he gave me ! lett] )\t a ^w ( objection to my wi%1 on pr9ciple2 & x 0 on my pres5t+ x to ! ,nuncio1 t he mo/ graci\sly desir$ t ,i %\ld lodge 9 8 palace all ! "t t ,i 0 9 ,vi5na4 ,z ,i h be5 l$ to m5tion ?is audi5ce ) ,c>d9al ,antonelli1 ,i ?9k o!rs may %>e ) me 9 ! feel+s ( satisfaction & admiration ) :i* ! rema9d] ( :at pass$ impress$ me4 ,i took occasion f f9d+ myself 9 company ) ! ,pope's ,secret>y ( ,/ate1 to make an additional ef=t t[>ds mov+ ,rome 9 ! great cause2 & z1 by 8 (fice1 he _h to reg>d ! political effect ( a decid$ movem5t su* z ,i 0 begg+1 ,i urg$ my conviction t no political ill consequ5ces ne$ be fe>$ f ! ,holy ,fa!r call+ on all ,*ri/5dom to #ddb move 9 ?is spiritual ent]prise4 ,he int]rupt$ me ) say+3 ,! ,holy ,fa!r fe>s no man & no?+ 9 ! _w4 ,he adv]t$ to ! position 9 :i* he _h se5 him at ,gata1 & said3 ,! political p[] ( ! ,holy ,see dep5ds on its weakness4 ,i d n rememb] ! exact words2 b !y am\nt$ to a noble adoption by ! ,apo/olic ,see ( ! fam\s ,apo/olic s5tim5t3 ,:5 ,i am weak1 !n am ,i /rong1 9 relation n only to ! wield+ ( its own inali5able spiritual sov]eignty1 b to its accid5tal temporal p[]1 9 ! ex]cise ( :i* we p]haps %\ld n expect always to see ! ,div9e pr9ciple s prom95t4 ,?is disc\rse gave me ! consol+ assurance t :5 ! m9d ( 8 ,hol9ess %\ld be guid$ by ! light :i* is 9 him1 to judge t ! "t is come = a p[]ful call on ,*ri/5dom to move =w>d 9 ! great ent]prise1 no human consid]ations w *eck 8 /eps4 ,! ,holy ,fa!r kn[s no fe> ( man4 ,i am1 y\r ob$i5t s]vant1 ,ignatius ,( ,/4 ,paul1 ,passioni/4 ,! joy\s way 9 :i* he receiv$ crosses & mortifications may be se5 f ?is lett]4 ,x seem$ z if no?+ c\ld ruffle 8 temp]4 ,he rem>ks on ! ,proclamation1 9 a lett] he wrote to make arrangem5ts = say+ mass 9 a private *apel3 ,!re ought to be some?+ 9 ! way ( a cassock too1 z ! ,que5 & ,"l ,d]by h be5 pleas$ to make ! c\ntry too hot = me to keep on my we>+ ( ! habit = ! pres5t4 ,at lea/ s x seems4 ,:5 he att5d$ ! meet+ ( our ,fa!rs1 allud$ to above1 he travell$ by tra91 ) 8 habit slung ov] 8 %\ld]1 & ! sign conspicu\s1 say+1 ,s9ce !y won't let me we> my habit l a religi\s1 ,i %all c>ry x l a slave4 #ddc ,,*apt] ,,xii4 ,a ,little ,( ,8 ,home ,& ,=eign ,"w4 ,fa!r ,ignatius gives a retreat to ! nuns ( ,l+dale ,h\se1 & comes imm$iately aft] to ,oscott1 :]e ! fir/ ,prov9cial ,synod ( ! ,engli% ,hi]>*y 0 be+ held4 ,he pres5ts a petition to ! ,synodal ,fa!rs1 & receives enc\ragem5t to prosecute 8 "w ( mov+ all :om he c to pray = ! conv]sion ( ,engl&4 ,8 next mission 0 to make ! visitation ( our ,belgian h\ses = ! ,prov9cial2 :5 he f\nd himself aga9 abroad1 he took advantage ( ! opportunity4 ,he goes to diff]5t places1 & f9ds _m ,belgian & ,fr5* bi%ops :o prea* ^u 8 oeuvre1 & recomm5d x by circul>s to _! cl]gy4 ,^! j\rneys he paid = by begg+ :]ev] he w5t1 & ! object he begg$ = is se5 f a lett] ( 8 to ,mr4 ,montei?1 dat$ ,lille1 ,aug4 #bd1 #aheb3-- ,my de> ,mr4 ,montei?1--,"h ,i am1 writ+ to y aga91 & y w soon see t :at br+s me to ?is is1 z usual1 want ( money--auri fames4 ,! case /&s ?us3 ,i am on travel aga91 ) commission ( f9d+ means to build our h\se ne> ,london1 ( :i* ,i am rector1 or r ,i am rector ( a little place :i* /&s on ! gr\nd1 & erect] r ?an rector ex (ficio ( ! h\se t is to be !re4 ,i h my ideas h[ we might get means = ?is exp5se1 & = all o!r exp5ses2 &1 moreov]1 h[ means c\ld be got = all ! h\ses 9 ,engl& & ,scotl& too4 ,i am foll[+ ! end z well z ,i c1 all alone1 by ! way :i* seems to me ! be/ & only "o2 b my be+ alone makes ! progress sl[4 ,hi!rto1 my ideas are to o!rs l dreams--empty dreams1 #ddd ?\gh ,i h a pocket-book full ( recomm5dations f ,rome to support !m1 :i* enc\rage me to ?9k ,i am n mad1 :51 by ! mann] 9 :i* ,i see p sometimes look at me1 ,i %\ld almo/ ?9k ,i 04 ,i allude *iefly to ! way 9 :i*1 9 a company ( ,engli% ,ca?olics1 ! m5tion f me ( ! idea1 conv]sion ( ,engl&1 imm$iately sil5ces a company 9 ! mo/ animat$ conv]sation1 z if ,i _h said1 ',next week ,i am go+ to be cr[n$ ,k+ ( ,france6' 444 ,?\gh ,i speak z ,i d1 ,i am n )\t enc\ragem5t & f9e prospects2 b ,i want to ha/5 ?+s1 z s\ls by ?\s&s & millions p]i% by delays2 & ?is ,i w n1 if ,i c help x1 h to answ] =4 ,an ,engli%man's regul>1 natural way to get 8 matt]s att5d$ to1 is a /eady1 p]sev]+ grumble4 ,he grumbles ov] "o /ep1 !n grumbles ov] ! next1 h[ev] com=table & happy he may be ov] :at he has ga9$4 ,la/ week ,i 0 at ,cambrai1 :]e !re 0 a mo/ rem>kable c5t5>y fea/1 9 hon\r ( ,notre ,dame de ,grce4 ,!re is !re an old picture ( ,our ,lady1 br\ght f ,rome #djj ye>s ago1 & in/all$ 9 ! ca!dral 9 #adeb1 :i* has be5 a c5tre ( devotion ev] s9ce4 ,?is 0 ! ye> = ! gr& solemnity2 pilgrimages com+ all ! week f ! diocese & f>!r4 ,! mo/ rem>kable ( ! pilgrims unque/ionably 0 ,c>d9al ,wiseman1 :o came to preside ov] ! procession & solemnities ( ! la/ day4 ,he sung mass1 & prea*$ 8 fir/ s]mon 9 ,france1 :i* 0 "o ( ! mo/ eloqu5t ,i ev] he>d f him1 or any "o1 not)/&+ 8 imp]fect diction4 ,x 0 all to ! po9t ( mov+ ! ,fr5* ,episcopate & nation to pray]s = ! conv]sion ( ,engl&4 ,s1 if ,i live1 ,i h little or no d\bt ( succe$+ 9 "t1 b1 mean:ile1 ,i mu/ poke "h & poke !re = money1 till x beg9s to come freely ( itself4 ,z to :at ! ,cont95t c\ld d if _! he>t 0 once mov$1 ,i am conv9c$ by ! hi/ory ( ! ,crusades4 ,if ! ,ca?olic nations 7 n[ engag$ 9 a mat]ial w>1 !re w\ld be armies on foot1 & fleets at sea1 ! co/ ( :i*1 = "o week1 w\ld be en\gh to build ca!drals = all our bi%ops4 #dde ,:y n ! same money drawn to effect ! spiritual conque/8 ,because !y d n c>e ab\t x4 ,!n1 let u make !m2 & h[8 ,! fir/ /ep1 ( c\rse1 mu/ be to c>e = x ourselves4 ',si vis me fl]e1 dol5dum e/ primum ipsi tibi4' ,& :at c we d to br+ our ,engli% & ,scot* to ?is8--,grumble at !m1 ,i suppose4 ,on 8 return f ,france 9 ,septemb]1 himself & ,fa!r ,eug5e came to ! det]m9ation to move away f ,! ,hyde1 if a m conv5i5t site c\ld be procur$4 ,! reason ( ?is 0 *iefly ! unsuitabl5ess ( ! place to ! work+ ( our vocation4 ,x 0 too solit>y = mission>ies1 & !re 0 no local "w = a numb] ( prie/s4 ,"s ( ! fa!rs disguise !mselves 9 secul> suits1 less unseemly ?an t 9 :i* !y once beheld ,fa!r ,ignatius1 & g 9 se>* ( a place1 b )\t success4 ,fa!r ,ignatius gave a mission at ?is "t 9 ,k5ti% ,t[n1 & he little ?\ght1 z he took 8 walk along ! t>r$ pal+ 9 ,maid5 ,lane1 t inside lay ! gr\nds ( ! future ,/4 ,joseph's ,retreat4 ,t[>ds ! end ( ! ye> #aheb1 ,fa!r ,ignatius accompanies z f> z ,london ,bridge a colony ( ,passioni/s1 :om ,dr4 ,o',connor1 ! ,bi%op ( ,pittsburg1 0 br++ out to ! ,unit$ ,/ates4 ,^! ,passioni/s h gr[n 9 g5tem magnam1 & ! wor?y ,bi%op1 l ano!r ,odescal*i1 resign$ 8 crosi]1 & became a ,jesuit4 ,he concludes ?is ye> & beg9s ! next giv+ retreats4 ,! sc5es ( 8 lab\rs 9 ?is dep>tm5t 7 ,som]s ,t[n1 ,bl&=d ,squ>e 7,london71 our own h\se1 ,dudley1 & ,d\ay4 ,he also assi/$ at a mission 9 ,comm]cial ,road1 ,london1 ,e4 ,! heavie/ "p ( 8 "w1 z a memb] ( ,! ,hyde community1 0 att5d+ to ! p>i%1 :i*1 ) ! ,b>net ,mission1 !n "u our *>ge1 0 equal 9 area to _m a diocese 9 ,ca?olic c\ntries4 ,fa!r ,ignatius (t5 walk$ ?irty miles 9 "o day on p>o*ial duty4 ,to give an idea ( h[ he w5t ?r\gh ?is "w1 "o in/ance w suffice4 ,on "o day to w5t to ,colney ,hat* ,lunatic ,asylum1 & f all ! unhappy inmates he 0 able to get "o confession4 ,next day he walk$ to give #ddf ! ,holy ,communion to ?is s+le p5it5t1 & walk$ aft]w>ds to ,b>net be=e he broke 8 fa/4 ,?is mu/ be a di/ance ( at lea/ fifte5 miles4 ,9 ,may1 #ahec1 he gives a retreat to 8 old p>i%ion]s ( ,we/ ,bromwi*1 ano!r 9 ,w9*e/] 9 ,july1 to ! nuns 9 ,wolv]hampton 9 ,augu/1 & to ! p 9 ,oxburgh 9 ,octob]1 & 9 ,s\?port1 ,lanca%ire1 9 ,adv5t4 ,! #af? ( ,novemb] ?is ye> 0 a great day = our congregation4 ,x 0 ! fir/ fea/ ( ,bless$ ,paul ( ! ,cross1 our holy f\nd]4 ,!re 0 a great re-union ( ! *ief fa!rs ( ! ord] 9 ,/4 ,wilfrid's--! ,bi%ops ( ,birm+ham & ,s\?w>k1 & ,dr4 ,ulla?orne & ,dr4 ,grant assi/$ at ! solemnity4 ,fa!r ,ignatius 0 !re1 ( c\rse4 ,fa!r ,paul 0 beatifi$ on ! #bh? ,septemb]1 #aheb4 ,our religi\s _h pray$ & work$ = ! great ev5t1 & _h n[ ! happ9ess ( see+ him rais$ to ! alt>4 ,he /ays at home a great deal n[1 z a rector ought to d1 except 9 int]vals ( missions & retreats2 & ! lion's %>e ( p>i% "w falls to him4 ,he s5ds "o ( ! prie/s ( 8 community to ,france to beg = ! h\se2 b he _h1 9 a v %ort "t1 to s5d him money = 8 exp5ses home4 ,he !n concludes t he %\ld himself be consid]$ begg>-9-*ief1 & accord+ly goes out = a few days to collect alms 9 ,london4 ,) 8 alms1 he collects into ! ,*ur* a "y ,puseyite m9i/]1 :o is n[ a zeal\s prie/ on ! ,london mission4 ,fa!r ,ignatius visits ! neighb\r+ m9i/]s1 b n z =m]ly2 he simply goes to see 8 old acqua9tances1 & if ! conv]sation c\ld be transf]r$ f complim5ts & common-place rem>ks to matt]s ( high] int]e/1 he 0 n ! man to let ! opportunity pass by4 ,among 8 old fri5ds 9 ! ,anglican m9i/ry !re seem$ to h be5 few = :om he always *]i%$ s k9dly a reg>d z ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,h>vey1 ,rector ( ,hornsey4 ,t excell5t cl]gyman us$ to visit ,fa!r ,ignatius1 & receive visits f him on ! mo/ fri5dly t]ms to ! end4 ,?us did he sp5d 8 "t1 until ,fa!r ,pius1 ! bro!r #ddg ( our pres5t ,g5]al1 :o di$ 9 ,rome 9 #ahfd1 came to visit ! prov9ce1 or bran* ( ! ord] 9 ,engl&1 9 #ahed4 ,?is visit made a *ange 9 ,fa!r ,ignatius's position4 ,a numb] ( h\ses ( a religi\s ord] are plac$ "u ! direction ( "o sup]ior1 :o is /yl$ a ,prov9cial4 ,) u ! ,prov9cial has two assi/ants1 :o are call$ ,consultors4 ,! sup]ior ( ea* h\se is call$ a ,rector1 & x is 8 duty to see aft] ! spiritual & temporal conc]ns ( 8 own community4 ,a rector1 !re=e1 has m home "w1 by virtue ( 8 (fice1 ?an any o!r sup]ior4 ,a consultor may live 9 any h\se ( ! prov9ce1 has no special duty ex (ficio except to give 8 advice to ! ,prov9cial :5 ask$1 & may be easily sp>$ = any ext]nal employm5t4 ,?is (fice ,fa!r ,ignatius us$ to t]m z otium cum dignitate1 ?\gh ! otium he nev] enjoy$1 & felt r awkw>d 9 ! dignitas4 ,9 #ahed1 he 0 made fir/ ,consultor1 & reliev$ f ! drudg]y ( h\sekeep+ = 8 bre?r54 ,be=e leav+ ,! ,hyde = a new field ( lab\r1 he w5t to see 8 nephew 9 ,h>r[1 :i* 0 only a few miles f our retreat2 b 0 n admitt$4 ,he took ano!r prie/ ) him1 & bo? 7 hoot$ by ! boys4 ,x seems p>donable 9 a set ( wild "y s*oolboys to make game ( su* unfa%ionable be+s z ,ca?olic prie/s2 b x %[s a great want ( good bre$+ 9 s*oolboys :o are aft]w>ds to hold su* a high position 9 ,engli% society4 ,?is rem>k is =c$ ^u u by ! fact t none ( u ev] pass$ ?r\gh ,h>r[ )\t meet+ a some:at simil> reception4 ,a s*ool ( inf]ior rank might set ,h>r[ an example 9 ?is po9t4 ,we h pass$ ,rog] ,*olmley's s*ool 9 ,highgate1 "t aft] "t1 (t5 9 a l>ge body1 & h met ! boys 9 ?rees & f\rs1 & all toge!r1 & nev] yet he>d a s+le insult4 ,:at makes ! diff]5ce8 ,on ! #h? ( ,septemb]1 #ahed1 ,fa!r ,ignatius left ,! ,hyde = ,irel&4 ,he begs ?is "t ?r\gh ! pr9cipal t[ns 9 ,mun/]1 & says he 0 v k9dly receiv$ by all4 ,he prea*$ s]mons dur+ ?is j\rney1 all on ! #ddh conv]sion ( ,engl&4 ,he ga9$ m pray]s ?is "t ?an on a =m] occasion1 because 8 "w came to ! p ) bless+s & indulg5ces f ! ,fa!r ( ! ,fai?ful4 ,he us$ to tell an amus+ anecdote 9 ref]5ce to ?is mission4 ,some:]e he _h prea*$ on ! conv]sion ( ,engl&1 & recomm5d$ ! pray]s by ! spiritual pr(it to be d]iv$ f !m4 ,an old woman acco/$ him z he 0 pass+ by1 & he _h j "t to he>1 ,fa!r1 ,i say ! ?ree ,hail ,m>ys e day = ,engl&4 ,fa!r ,ignatius 0 mu* pleas$1 & made inquiries aft] ! old lady1 d\btless int5d+ to con/itute h] a k9d ( apo/le 9 ! place4 ,%e 0 br\ght to see him2 he express$ 8 ?anks & pleasure t %e _h ent]$ s ?or\ghly into 8 views1 & ask$ h] w\ld %e try to p]suade o!rs to foll[ h] example8 ,me get p to pray = ,engl&6 %e answ]$2 ,i pray myself ?ree times = ! sake ( ! indulg5ce1 b ,i curse !m #cjj times a day = x1 le/ !y might get any good ( my pray]s6 ,he reason$ ) h]1 to be sure1 b did n tell u if ! success ( 8 second disc\rse 0 equal to ! fir/4 #ddi ,,*apt] ,,xiii4 ,sanctification ,( ,irel&4 ,9 a lett] writt5 by ,fa!r ,ignatius 9 ,decemb]1 #ahed1 is f\nd ! fir/ glimpse ( a new idea3 ! ,sanctification ( ,irel&4 ,?is idea 0 sugge/$ to him by ! fai? ( ! ,iri% p1 & by _! read9ess to adopt :atev] 0 = _! spiritual pr(it4 ,8 int5d+ ! ,sanctification ( ,irel& z a /ep t[>ds ! ,conv]sion ( ,engl&1 laid ! s*eme op5 to sev]e criticism4 ,x 0 said t ,engl& 0 8 f9al object2 t ,irel& 0 to be us$ z an in/rum5t = ,engl&'s b5efit2 t if 8 patriotism 7 less /rong1 8 sanctity w\ld be great]4 ,if ^! objections 7 satisfactorily answ]$1 !y might be giv5 up ) a h9t t1 x 0 a v ,iri% way to conv]t ,engl&1 by prea*+ 9 ! bogs ( ,connaught4 ,! be/ refutation ( ^! ung5]\s rem>ks w be1 p]haps1 a simple /atem5t ( :at 8 ideas 7 ^u ! subject4 ,8 great desire 0 t all ! _w %\ld be p]fect4 ,he us$ to say ,our ,"l _h n yet _h ,8 triumph 9 ?is _w1 & t x 0 too bad ! devil %\ld /ill h ! majority4 ,?is mu/ n be1 he w\ld say2 ,i %all nev] re/ z long z !re is a s+le s\l on e>? :o does n s]ve ,god p]fectly4 ,! practical way ( arriv+ at ?is end 0 to beg9 at home4 ,engl& _h n fai? z a nation1 s !re 0 no f\ndation to build sanctity ^u !re4 ,engl&1 h[ev]1 _h great influ5ce z a nation all ov] ! _w2 %e %[$ great zeal also 9 h] abortive attempts to conv]t ! hea!n4 ,if h] en]gies c\ld be turn$ 9 ! "r direction1 :at gr& results might we n anticipate8 ,ano!r reflection 01 ,engl& has _h e means ( conv]sion tri$ ^u h]2 #dej let u n[ see :at virtue !re is 9 good example4 ,to set ?is example1 & to s[ ! se$ ( ! great univ]sal h>ve/1 he w\ld f9d out ! be/ ,ca?olic nation 9 ! _w1 & br+ x p]fectly up to ! maxims ( ! ,gospel4 ,?is nation 0 ,irel&1 ( c\rse1 & x 0 ne> en\gh to ,engl& to let its light %9e be=e h]4 ,:at he wi%$ = 01 to h e man1 woman1 & *ild 9 ,irel&1 take up ! idea t !y 7 to be sa9ts4 ,he w\ld h ?is caught up ) a k9d ( national move4 ,! practical work+ ( ! idea he embodi$ 9 a little book :i* he wrote "s "t aft]w>ds1 & prea*$ x :]ev] he address$ an ,iri% congregation4 ,! bani%+ ( ?ree great vices--curs+1 company-keep+1 & intemp]ance--& ! practice ( daily m$itation1 ) a frequ5t approa* to ! sacram5ts1 7 ! means4 ,if ,irel&1 s he argu$1 took up ?is at home1 x w\ld spread to ,engl&1 ! colonies1 & to :]ev] !re 0 an ,iri%man all ov] ! _w4 ,all ^! w\ld be %9+ lights1 & if _! neighb\rs did n *oose at once to foll[ _! example1 we c\ld at lea/ po9t x out z ! be/ pro( ( our exhortations4 ,?is is a %ort sket* ( ! "w he n[ began1 & x 0 a "w 8 sup]iors always enc\rag$1 & :i* he sp5t 8 life 9 endeav\r+ to realise4 ,"o objection made aga9/ ?is s*eme t\*$ him on a t5d] po9t--8 love ( c\ntry4 ,_m ,ca?olics1 especially ,engli% conv]ts1 ?\ght ! words ( ,ecclesia/icus applicable to ,engl&3 ,injuries & wrongs w wa/e ri*es3 & ! h\se t is v ri* %all be br\ght to no?+ by pride3 s ! sub/ance ( ! pr\d %all be root$ out4--,eccl4 xxi4 #e4 ,^! 7 ( op9ion t ,engl& mu/ be humbl$ z a nation1 & deeply too1 be=e %e c\ld be fit = conv]sion4 ,?is ,fa!r ,ignatius c\ld n /&4 ,he writes1 9 a lett] to ,mr4 ,montei?3 ,z my unicum necess>ium = myself is ! salvation & sanctification ( my own s\l1 s my wi%es & designs ab\t ,engl&1 :i*1 accord+ to ! ord] ( *>ity1 ,i consid] 79 opposition to _m ,engli% ,ca?olics1 especially conv]ts71 ,i ought to love fir/ ( all p1 are1 s+ly & #dea only1 t %e may be br\ght to ,god1 & 9 su* a way & "u su* circum/ances1 z may enable h] to be ! greate/ possible bless+ to ! :ole _w4 ,i h he>d pl5ty1 & mu* m ?an pl5ty1 f ,engli% & ,iri% ,ca?olics 7v seldom1 comp>atively1 f ^? ( ! ,cont95t71 ab\t ! impossibility ( ?is1 except by ! ?or\gh cru%+ ( ! p[] ( ,engl&4 ,i say to all ?is1 ,no1 no1 no6 ,god c conv]t our c\ntry ) h] p[] & h] influ5ce unimpair$1 & ,i insi/ on p pray+ = x )\t impos+ conditions on ,almighty ,god1 on :om1 if ,i did impose conditions1 x w\ld be 9 fav\r ( ,8 %[+ m1 & n less abundant1 m]cy to a fall5 p4 ,yet1 ?\gh ,i h (t5 said ,i w n all[ ,miss ,?is1 or ,mr4 ,t1 to pron\nce s5t5ce on ,engl&1 /ill less to wi% evil to h] 7p>ticul>ly if x be an ,engli% ,mr4 or ,miss :o talks71 ,i h always said t if ,god sees x fit t ! conv]sion %\ld be ?r\gh outw>d humiliations & sc\rges1 ,i w welcome ! rod1 & ?ank ,him = x1 9 behalf ( my c\ntry1 z ,i w\ld 9 my own p]son1 9 :atev] way ,he might ?9k fit to *a/ise & humble me4 ,he return$ to ,london 9 ! beg9n+ ( #ahee1 to give ! retreat to our religi\s4 ,8 next "w 0 a mission1 giv5 ) ,fa!r ,gaud5tius 9 ,/ockport4 ,aft] t1 he gave a mission ) ,fa!r ,v9c5t 9 ,hull2 9 return+ f ,hull1 he /opp$ at ,l9coln to visit ,mr4 ,sib?orpe4 ,he sp5ds a week 9 our ,london h\se1 & !n gives a retreat by himself 9 ,trelawny4 ,8 next mission 0 9 ,dungannon1 ,irel&1 & z soon z he came to ,engl& = ano!r retreat he _h to give 9 ,lev5%ulme to nuns1 he takes advantage ( 8 week's re/ to visit ,grace ,dieu1 & h :at he calls a fam\s talk ) ,c\nt de ,montalemb]t1 :o 0 ,mr4 ,phillipps's gue/ at ! "t4 ,! sc5e ( 8 lab\rs is aga9 transf]r$4 ,we f9d him 9 ,july giv+ a mission at ,borris ,o',kane1 ) ,fa!r ,v9c5t & ,fa!r ,b]n>d & ano!r imm$iately aft]1 at ,lorrha4 ,at "o ( ^! missions1 ! cr[d ab\t ,fa!r ,ignatius's confession-*air 0 v great1 & ! p 7 cru%+ 9 close to ! confessor's knees4 ,"o woman1 #deb especially1 ( m ?an ord9>y muscul> /r5g?1 elb[$ back _m ( ^? :o _h tak5 _! places be=e %e came2 %e succe$$ 9 gett+ to ! inn] circle ( p5it5ts1 b s ne> ! p]son confess+ t ! good fa!r g5tly remon/rat$ ) h]4 ,all to no purpose4 ,he spoke aga91 b %e only came ne>]4 ,at l5g? he seiz$ h] %awl1 roll$ x up 9 a ball1 & flung x ov] ! heads ( ! cr[d2 ! poor woman _h to rel9qui% h] position1 & g = h] %awl1 & left ,fa!r ,ignatius to %rive h] less pu%+ companions4 ,8 fell[ mission]s 7 highly amus$1 & ?is incid5t tells wond]fully = 8 virtue1 = x is almo/ ! only in/ance we c\ld ev] f9d ( 8 hav+ done any?+ l los+ 8 temp] dur+ 8 life z a ,passioni/4 ,he gives a retreat 9 ,birr1 9 ,gran?am ,abbey1 a mission 9 ,newca/le1 & ano!r 9 ,/4 ,augu/9e's1 ,liv]pool1 be=e ! end ( ! ye>4 ,x 0 8 cu/om1 s9ce 8 fir/ turn+ s]i\sly to ,god's s]vice1 to be awake at midnight on ,new ,ye>'s ,day1 & beg9 by pray] = pass+ ! com+ ye> p]fectly4 ,he is 9 ,/4 ,anne's1 ,sutton1 ,lanca%ire1 ?is ye>4 ,he beg9s ! new ye>1 #ahef1 by giv+ a mission ) ,fa!r ,leon>d 9 our *ur* at ,sutton1 ) a few s]mons at a place call$ ,peasly ,cross1 an (f%oot ( ! mission we h !re4 ,we close ?is *apt] by a notion ( ,fa!r ,ignatius's politics4 ,he 0 nei!r a ,:ig1 a ,tory1 nor a ,radical4 ,he /ood alo( f all p>ties1 & seldom tr\bl$ himself ab\t any4 ,he says 9 a lett] to a fri5d :o 0 a well-read politician3--,h[ _m m9ds we h speak+ 9 ,engl&6--,glad/one1 ,palm]/on1 ,bright1 ,phillipps1 y\rself1 &1 p]haps1 ,i %\ld add myself1 & h[ _m m :o kn[s8 all ) m9ds foll[+ tracks :i* make !m travel ap>t f ea* o!r4 ,i want to set a road op51 9 :i* all may walk toge!r if !y please--at lea/ ) "o foot1 if !y mu/ h _! own p>ticul> plank = ! o!r4 #dec ,,*apt] ,,xiv4 ,ano!r ,t\r ,on ,! ,cont95t4 ,! ,prov9cial once m s5t ,fa!r ,ignatius to beg on ! ,cont95t4 ,he tri$ to d a d\ble "w1 z he did n l to be us$ up = begg+ alone1 & ! plea ( begg+ w\ld f9d him access to ^? he int5d$ to consult4 ,?is second "w 0 a =m into :i* he ca/ 8 ideas = ! sanctification ( ! _w4 ,! way ( c>ry+ out ^! ideas1 :i* has be5 detail$1 0 :at he settl$ d[n to aft] long discussion & _m corrections f au?ority4 ,! pamphlet :i* he n[ wrote _h be5 translat$ into ,g]man by a lady 9 ,mn/]4 ,9 x he proposes a br++ back ( ,ca?olics to ! infancy ( ! ,*ur*1 :5 ! fai?ful laid ! price ( _! possessions at ! feet ( ! ,apo/les4 ,he propos$ a k9d ( ,!ocracy1 & ! s*eme creates ab\t ! same s5sation z ,utopia1 :5 "o reads x4 ,l ,sir ,?omas ,m1 ,fa!r ,ignatius gives u :at he %\ld consid] a p]fect /ate ( ,*ri/ian society2 he goes into all ! details ( its work+1 & meets ! objections t might arise z x proce$s4 ,! pamphlet is entitl$ ,reflectiones ,propositionesque pro fidelium ,sanctificatione4 ,on ,febru>y #ad1 #ahef1 he leaves ,london1 & halts 9 ,p>is only = a few h\rs1 on 8 way to ,m>seilles4 ,!re he sees ! ,ar*bi%op1 & begs 9 ! t[n2 he returns !n to ,lyons1 :]e he has sev]al long conf]5ces ) ,c>d9al de ,bonald4 ,we f9d him 9 ,p>is 9 a few days1 writ+ circul>s to ! ,fr5* bi%ops1 ( :om ! ,bi%op ( ,nancy seems to h be5 8 greate/ patron4 ,he writes a lett] to ! ,empress1 & receives an answ] t ! ,emp]or w\ld admit him to an audi5ce4 ,9 a day or two #ded ,fa!r ,ignatius /&s 9 ! pres5ce ( ,napoleon ,,iii41 & x is a loss t he has n left u ! p>ticul>s ( ! conf]5ce 9 writ+1 because he (t5 rev]t$ to x 9 conv]sation ) a great deal ( int]e/4 ,he f\nd at 8 lodg+s1 on return+ f a qute a few days aft]1 l1#jjj;f4 s5t to him z a donation by ! ,emp]or4 ,8 good success 9 ! ,tuil]ies gave him a hope ( do+ great ?+s among ! lite ( ,p>isian society4 ,he is1 h[ev]1 sadly disappo9t$1 & ! next day sets (f to ,belgium4 ,arriv$ 9 ,t\rnai1 he s5ds a copy ( ! ,fr5* circul> to ! ,belgian bi%ops4 ,?is does n seem to be a petition = alms1 z we f9d him ! same ev5+ travell+ 9 a ?ird-class c>riage to ,cologne1 )\t wait+ = _! ,lord%ips' answ]s4 ,dur+ 8 begg+ 9 ,cologne1 he says mass e morn+ 9 ,/4 ,colomba's 7,columb-,kille's7 ,*ur*2 p]haps ! _s ( hospitality 0 bequea!d to ! cl]gy ( ?is ,*ur* by _! ,iri% patron1 = he appe>s to h exp]i5c$ "s coldness f ! pf>r5 ( ,cologne4 ,9 ,mn/] he is v well receiv$4 ,! ,bi%op is p>ticul>ly k9d to him1 & looks fav\rably on 8 ,reflectiones2 besides t1 8 lord%ip deputes a prie/ to be 8 guide 9 begg+4 ,fa!r ,ignatius notes 9 8 j\rnal t he prea*$ extempore 9 ,g]man to ! ,jesuit novices1 & t "o ( ! fa!rs revises & corrects ! ,g]man translation ( ! ,reflectiones4 ,! prie/ deput$ = guide by ! ,bi%op ( ,mn/] 0 call$ away on bus9ess ( importance1 & ,fa!r ,ignatius f9ds ano!r4 ,?is ,kaplan lo/ 8 "t smok+1 & our good fa!r gave up1 & w5t (f by ,kln to ,cobl5tz4 ,he f9ds ! bi%op "h v k9d1 b is all[$ to beg only ( ! cl]gy2 ! ,jesuits give him hospitality4 ,a cold reception 9 ,mantz1 & a lukew>m "o 9 ,augsburg1 hurry him (f to ,muni*4 ,he submits ! ,reflectiones to ,dr4 ,dll+]1 :o corrects !m & gives !m 8 approbation4 ,f ,muni* he proce$s to ,vi5na4 ,a "p ( ?is j\rney1 z f> z ,l9tz1 _h to be p]=m$ by an eilway5 #dee or po/ c>4 ,! driv] ( ?is vehicle 0 a trem5d\s smok]1 & ,fa!r ,ignatius did n at all enjoy ! fumes ( tobacco4 ,he p]ceiv$ t ! driv] =got ! pipe1 :i* he laid d[n at a h(f on ! way1 :ile slak+ 8 ?ir/1 & nev] told him ( x4 ,he 0 exult+ 9 ! hope ( be+ able to travel to ! next %op = pipes )\t inhal+ tobacco smoke1 :51 to 8 mortification1 ! driv] p]ceiv$ 8 loss1 & %\t$ out l a man 9 despair1 ,me9 pfeiffe6 ,me9 pfeiffe6--,my pipe6 ,my pipe6 ,to increase 8 pass5g]'s disappo9tm5t1 he actually turn$ back a full ,g]man league1 & !n smok$ ) a v5geance until he came to ! next /age4 ,fa!r ,ignatius s5ds a copy ( ! ,reflectiones to ,rome1 on 8 arrival 9 ,vi5na1 & pres5ts x ) an address at an assembly ( ,bi%ops t 0 !n be+ held4 ,he has audi5ces ) ! ,emp]or & ,ar*duke ,maximilian1 n[ ,emp]or ( ,mexico1 z well z ) ! ,nunzio1 & all ! notabilities1 cl]ical & secul>1 9 ! city4 ,imm$iately aft]1 someh[1 he gets notice to quit f ! ,sup]ior ( a religi\s community1 :]e he _h be5 /ay+1 & all ! o!r religi\s h\ses refuse to take him 94 ,he 0 ab\t to leave ,vi5na 9 consequ5ce1 z he did n l putt+ up 9 an hotel1 :5 "s ,italian prie/s gave him hospitality1 & welcom$ him to /op ) !m z long z he pleas$4 ,z a set-(f to 8 disappo9tm5t1 ! ,bi%op ( ,transylvania is v k9d to him1 & ,c>d9al ,s*w>tz5b]g ev5 begs = him4 ,he met ! ,mo/ ,rev4 ,fa!r ,j&el1 ,g5]al ( ! ,dom9icans1 9 ! ,c>d9al's ,palace1 & %[$ him ! ,reflectiones4 ,! good disciple ( ,/4 ,?omas exam9$ ! docum5t closely1 & ,fa!r ,ignatius records 8 op9ion1 he gave my pap] a kick4 ,not)/&+ ?is s5t5ce1 he w5t on di/ribut+ copies e :]e2 b 8 tract-di/ribution 0 /opp$ 9 a few days by a lett] he receiv$ f our ,g5]al4 ,:5 he s5t ! little pamphlet to ,rome x 0 h&$ = criticism to ! ,lector 7or ,pr(essor7 ( ,!ology 9 our retreat1 :o 0 !n ,fa!r ,ignatius ,paoli1 ! pres5t ,prov9cial 9 ,engl&4 ,! critique 0 v long & #def q unfav\rable2 x rea*$ him1 back$ by a lett] f ! ,g5]al1 :i* =bade to speak ab\t ! c\nsels = ! pres5t4 ,he records ?is s5t5ce 9 8 j\rnal 9 ^! words3--,june #ag4 ,a lett] f ,padre ,ignazio1 by ! ,g5]al--,ord] to /op speak+ ( ! c\nsels1 c4 ,/op h]1 back h]4 ,deo gratias6 ,?is 0 a fav\rite expression ) him :5ev] a ,sup]ior ?w>t$ any ( 8 projects3 x 0 borr[$ f ! /eamboats t ply on ! ,?ames1 & ,fa!r ,ignatius consid]$ himself z 9 ! position ( ! little boy :o e*oes ! ord]s ( ! ma/] to ! eng9e]s bel[4 ,he us$ to say1 ,:at a cata/rophe might "o expect if ! boy und]took to give an ord] ( 8 own6 ,:il/ 9 ,vi5na he receiv$ a lett] f ,fa!r ,v9c5t1 tell+ him ( our hav+ e/abli%$ a h\se ( ! ord] ne> ,h>old's ,cross1 ,dubl94 ,fa!r ,ignatius accompani$ ,fa!r ,v9c5t :5 !y 7 bo? 9 ,dubl91 be=e ! ,g]man t\r began1 9 8 se>* = a position1 & ,ra?m9es 0 select$4 ,! excell5t p>i% prie/1 ,monsignor ,meagh]1 _h j op5$ 8 new *ur*1 & lab\r$ h>d to h a religi\s community 9 8 di/rict4 ,he !re=e second$ ! int5tions ( our p1 & 9 a %ort "t a h\se 0 tak5 9 8 p>i%1 & e day cem5ts ! connexion betwe5 u & ?is v5]able ecclesia/ic4 ,a spl5did edifice has s9ce be5 built dur+ ! ,rector%ip ( ,fa!r ,osmond1 & *iefly ?r\gh 8 ex]tions4 ,fa!r ,ignatius w5t to two or ?ree t[ns1 :]e ! police w\ld n all[ him to beg unless patronis$ by a native prie/1 & n be+ able to fulfil ^! conditions he 0 oblig$ to desi/4 ,?is 0 ,fa!r ,ignatius's la/ visit to ,g]many2 he _h be5 !re five times dur+ 8 life4 ,! fir/ 0 a t\r ( pleasure1 all ! re/ 7 = high] objects4 ,he seems to h _h a great reg>d = ! ,g]mans2 he consid]$ !m relat$ by blood to ! ,engli%1 & al?\gh he himself 0 ( ,norman desc5t1 he appe>s to h a special lik+ = ! ,saxon elem5t 9 "*4 ,he pref]r$ to #deg see x bl5d$ c]ta9ly1 & w\ld consid] a ve9 ( ,celtic or ,norman blood an improvem5t on ! ,teutonic4 ,!re 7 o!r reasons4 ,/4 ,boniface1 ! ,apo/le ( ,g]many1 0 an ,engli%man2 ,/4 ,columbanus & ,/4 ,gall might be said to h lab\r$ m 9 ,g]many ?an 9 _! native ,irel&4 ,! ,g]mans ow$ some?+ to ,engl&1 & he wi%$ to h !m make a return4 ,besides1 ! ,re=mation began 9 ,g]many1 & he w\ld h ! c\ntrym5 ( ,lu!r & ( ,cranm] "w toge!r to repair ! injuries !y _h suff]$ f ea* o!r4 ,?is tw(old plea 0 =c$ ^u him by a ,g]man p]iodical1 :i* advocat$ ! cause ( ! ,crusade ev5 s f> back z #ahch4 ,fa!r ,ignatius also knew h[ ,g]man s*ol>%ip 0 t++ ! intellect ( ,engl&1 & he ?\ght a spread ( devotion w\ld be ! be/ antidote to ,rationalism4 ,! reasons = work+ 9 ,france1 :i* he /yl$ t g5]\s ,ca?olic nation1 7 some:at diff]5t1 b !y h be5 detail$ by himself 9 ^? portions ( ! correspond5ce respect+ 8 crusade4 ,he visits ,raal1 ,resburg1 ,bad51 ,ratisbonne1 & ,muni*2 h5ce he />ts = ,london4 ,"h he arrives on ! #d? ( ,octob]4 ,he did n delay1 b w5t /raight to ,dubl91 & /ay$ = ! fir/ "t 9 ,bless$ ,paul's ,retreat1 ,h>old's ,cross4 ,?is h\se became 8 head-qu>t]s = "s "t1 = we f9d him return+ ?i!r aft] a mission 9 ,k5ilwor?1 & "o 9 ,liv]pool1 z well z a retreat = nuns1 :i* closes 8 lab\rs = ! ye> #ahef4 #deh ,,*apt] ,,xv4 ,fa!r ,ignatius ,9 #aheg4 ,sev5 ye>s1 accord+ to physiologi/s1 make a total *ange 9 ! human frame1 su* is ! ext5t ( ! r5ewal2 & al?\gh ! laws ( _s d n foll[ ^? ( matt]1 x may be a pleas+ problem to f9d out h[ f> !re is an analogy4 ,! *apt] ( #ahej 0 head$ l ?is2 let u see if ! ev5ts ( bo? tell diff]5tly ^u ,fa!r ,ignatius4 ,! fir/ ev5t he records 9 ! ,j\rnal = ?is ye> is ! reception ( ,mrs4 ,o',neill into ! ,*ur*4 ,?is good lady _h !n "o son a ,passioni/2 %e 0 :at might be call$ a v /rict & devot$ ,prote/ant1 al?\gh all h] *ildr5 7 br\ght up ,ca?olics by h] husb&4 ,%e lov$ ! son :o fir/ jo9$ our ord] v t5d]ly1 & felt 8 becom+ a monk s mu* t %e w\ld nev] read "o ( 8 lett]s4 ,! son 0 orda9$ prie/ 9 ,monte-,arg5t>o1 & ! fir/ news he he>d aft] he _h = ! fir/ "t (f]$ up ! ,holy ,sacrifice1 0 t 8 "m _h be5 receiv$ 9 our retreat 9 ,dubl9 by ,fa!r ,ignatius4 ,%e 0 induc$ by ano!r son1 :o liv$ 9 ,dubl91 to att5d b5$iction1 & our ,"l gave h] ! grace ( conv]sion ) ,8 bless+4 ,%e is n[ a f]v5t ,ca?olic1 & ano!r son & a daught] h s9ce foll[$ ! example ( _! bro!r4 ,! "m f9ds h] greate/ happ9ess 9 :at once seem$ h] greate/ affliction4 ,su* is ! p[] ( grace1 always lead+ to joy ?r\gh ! bitt]ness ( ! cross4 ,! next ev5t is ! dea? ( ,fa!r ,paul ,m>y ( ,/4 ,mi*ael4 ,?is sa9tly ,passioni/ 0 ! ,hon\rable ,*>les ,reg9ald ,pack5ham1 son ( ! ,e>l ( ,long=d4 ,he #dei became a conv]t :5 capta9 9 ! ,gu>ds1 & %ortly aft] jo9$ our ,in/itute4 ,he 0 ! fir/ rector ( ,bless$ ,paul's ,retreat1 & hav+ edifi$ 8 bre?r5 by 8 humility & religi\s virtues = ne>ly six ye>s1 ! t]m ( 8 life z a ,passioni/1 di$ 9 ! od\r ( sanctity4 ,he _h be5 ail+ = "s "t1 b /ill able to d a little 9 ! way ( prea*+ & confessions4 ,x 0 adv]tis$ t he w\ld prea* 9 ,g>d9] ,/reet1 ,dubl91 on ,sunday1 ,m>* #a4 ,he di$ t day at "o o'clock ,a4,m41 & ,fa!r ,ignatius w5t to prea* 9 8 /ead2 x creat$ a s5sation :5 ! good fa!r began by ask+ pray]s = ! repose ( ! s\l ( him ^: place he came to fill4 ,9 a lett] ,fa!r ,ignatius wrote at ?is "t we h 8 op9ion ( ,fa!r ,paul ,m>y3 4444 ,z to ! ,passioni/s1 ,i d n ?9k ^? :o manag$ our com+ "h 7to ,dubl97 :i* 0 all done dur+ my abs5ce 9 ,g]many1 _h any idea ( s]v+ ,engl&4 ,i believe ! prime in/igator ( ! move 0 ,fa!r ,paul ,m>y1 :o 0 born 9 ,dubl91 & 0 ?r\gh & ?r\gh an ,iri%man 9 8 affections1 ?\gh tra9$ 9 ,engl&4 ,he1 to ! la/1 _h all ! anti-,engli% feel+s1 :i* prevail s mu* ?r\gh ,irel&1 & nev] w\ld give me ! lea/ hope ( 8 be+ int]e/$ = ,engl&4 ,i fall 91 not)/&+ t1 ) all ! notions ( 8 great virtue & hol9ess :i* o!rs h2 & ,i ?9k1 moreov]1 t ! be/ ,ca?olics 9 ,irel& are to be f\nd among ^? :o h be5 ! mo/ bitt]ly prejudic$ aga9/ ,engl&4 ,b ,i ?9k !re is 9 res]ve = !m ano!r great /ep 9 advance :5 !y lay d[n ?is av]sion & turn x into div9e *>ity 9 a h]oic degree4 ,fa!r ,ignatius always felt ke5ly ,fa!r ,paul ,m>y's n tak+ up 8 ideas ab\t ,engl& ) m w>m?4 ,:5 he 0 on 8 dea?-b$1 ,fa!r ,ignatius sp5t _m h\rs sitt+ by him4 ,9 "o ( _! la/ conv]sations1 ,fa!r ,ignatius urg$ 8 pleas = ,engl& z /rongly z he c\ld2 :5 he _h done1 & 0 wait+ = ! effect1 ,fa!r ,paul said1 9 a dry1 cold mann]3 ,i don't ?9k ,irel& has got any?+ to ?ank ,engl& =4 ,^! words 7 p]petually r++ 9 ! e>s ( ,fa!r #dfj ,ignatius2 !y 7 ! la/ ,fa!r ,paul ev] said on ! subject1 & ! o!r us$ to say3 ,oh1 ,i us$ to enjoy 8 beautiful conv]sation s mu*1 b ,i nev] c\ld he> "o s+le k9d ^w = ,engl&4 ,?is ye> a g5]al *apt] ( our ,congregation 0 held 9 ,rome4 ,?is is an important ev5t1 & only occurs e six ye>s4 ,x is "h ! head sup]iors are elect$1 po9ts ( rule expla9$1 & regulations enact$ = ! bett] ord]+ ( ! diff]5t h\ses all ov] ! _w1 accord+ to circum/ances ( "t & place4 ,! ,prov9cial & ! two ,consultors ( ea* ,prov9ce are oblig$ to att5d4 ,fa!r ,ignatius 0 !re=e call$ to travel abroad once m4 ,:5 9 ,rome1 he employ$ all ! "t t 0 left f capitul> duties 9 hold+ conf]5ces ) our /ud5ts1 & try+ to get "s pap]s he br\ght ) him approv$4 ,among o!rs1 he br\ght ! pap] t 0 kick$ by ,fa!r ,jaudel1 & condemn$ by "o ( our !ologians4 ,! only "o 9 ,rome :o approv$ ( x 0 ! ,abbate ,passaglia4 ,c>d9al ,b>nab li/5$ to all ,fa!r ,ignatius _h to urge 9 its fav\r2 b did n approve ( x4 ,he _h to return )\t ga9+ any?+ ?is "t2 except t ! ,roman ,lector 0 become 8 ,prov9cial4 ,9 a few ye>s aft]w>ds1 :5 we read ( ,passaglia's fall1 ,fa!r ,ignatius 0 he>d to say3 ,passaglia & ,dll+] 7 ! only !ologians :o approv$ ( my pap]4 ,i suppose ,i ne$ n flatt] myself mu* ^u _! imprimatur4 ,he 0 rem>k$ to be (t5 ab/ract$ :5 he _h _m crosses to be>4 ,"o day he 0 go+ ?r\gh ,rome ) "o ( our ,religi\s1 & pass$ by a f\nta94 ,he w5t ov] & put 8 h& s f> into "o ( ! jets1 t he squirt$ ! wat] ov] a numb] ( poor p]sons :o 7 bask+ 9 ! sun a few /eps b5ea? him4 ,!y made a /ir1 & utt]$ a few oa?s z ! wat] kept da%+ d[n on !m4 ,! companion awoke ,fa!r ,ignatius out ( 8 rev]ie1 & s unconsci\s did he seem ( ! di/urbance he _h unwitt+ly creat$1 t he pass$ on )\t allud+ to x4 ,on 8 return home n[1 z ,second ,consultor1 he is s5t #dfa to beg aga9 9 ,irel&4 ,he makes ! circuit ( ,connaught ?is "t4 ,he took1 9 8 j\rney1 ,roscommon1 ,ca/l]ea1 visits ! ,o',connor ,don1 ,boyle1 ,sligo4 ,"h he 0 receiv$ v k9dly by ! ,bi%op & cl]gy4 ,he _h = guide 9 ,sligo1 a ,johnny ,doogan1 :o seems to h amus$ him v mu*4 ,?is good man 0 *ief respond5t at ! ,ros>y1 :i* us$ to be said e ev5+ 9 ! *ur*4 ,"o night ! prie/ began1 ,incl9e unto my aid1 ,o ,"l4 ,no answ]4 ,:]e are y1 ,johnny ,doogan8 ask$ ! prie/4 ,johnny1 :o 0 a little m ?an di/ract$ 9 "s corn] ( ! *ur*1 repli$1 z if sudd5ly awoke3 ,"h ,i am1 y\r ,rev]5ce1 & 'my tongue %all ann\nce ?y praise4' ,he next passes along ?r\gh ,easky & ,cull9amore to ,ball9a4 ,he gives a retreat to ! ,si/]s ( ,m]cy "h1 & dur+ x1 makes an excursion to ,enniscrone4 ,he w5t next to ,ballyca/le1 ,killala1 ,ca/leb>4 ,"h he w5t to visit 8 c\s91 ,"l ,lucan1 & is v k9dly receiv$4 ,dur+ ! c\rse ( conv]sation1 he ask$ ,"l ,lucan if he _h n he>d ( 8 conv]sion8 ,oh yes1 he repli$1 ,i he>d y 7 wav]+ "s ?irty ye>s ago4 ,b ,i h n wav]$ s9ce1 repli$ ,fa!r ,ignatius4 ,he !n w5t to ,ball9robe1 ,we/port1 ,tuam1 ,a!nry1 & back to ,dubl91 by ,mull+>4 ,?is t\r took ne>ly two mon?s4 ,he gives a retreat 9 ! beg9n+ ( ,septemb] to ! nuns ( ,gorey1 & aft] x1 begs ?r\gh ,wex=d1 & ! s\?we/ portion ( ,le9/]4 ,! only ?+ rem>kable ab\t ^! excursions is1 t he notes once1 ,i am a%am$ to ?9k t ,i h n begg$ ( any poor p to-day4 ,9 ,decemb]1 #aheg1 8 bro!r ,fr$]ick1 ,"l ,sp5c]1 di$4 ,?is bro!r 0 ,fa!r ,ignatius's companion at s*ool1 & x is rem>kable t he 0 ! only "o ( ! family :o us$ any k9d ( sev]ity t[>ds him4 ,he says1 9 a lett] writt5 at ?is "t1 ,i am twelve ye>s an exile f ,al?orp4 ,%ortly be=e ! ,e>l di$1 he rel5t$1 & invit$ ,fa!r ,ignatius to /ay at ! family seat a few days4 ,! lett] joyfully accept+ ! invitation 0 read by ! bro!r on 8 b$ ( dea?4 ,x is only "r to obs]ve t ! pres5t ,e>l has be5 ! k9de/ #dfb ( all1 & treat$ 8 uncle ) di/+ui%$ k9dness = ! few ye>s he 0 left to him4 ,he ev5 gave him back ! portion ( 8 income :i* 8 fa!r div]t$ to o!r uses4 ,ano!r lett] he wrote 9 ,decemb]1 gives an idea ( 8 _s ( resignation4 ,x seems a ,rev4 ,"m wrote to him 9 a /ate ( al>m t "s ( ! si/]s 7 incl9$ to g away4 ,"h is a "p ( 8 answ]3 ,i w see :at ,i c d ) ! si/]s :o are 9 ! mood to kick1 bite1 or run away4 ,if !y take to runn+1 nev] m9d h[ _m g1 let !m all g1 ) ,god bless !m1 & ?ank ,god !y are gone1 & we w hope _! room w be wor? z mu* z _! company4 ,le/ ! allusion to 8 exile f ,al?orp might be tak5 9 a wrong s5se1 x is well to give a passage f a lett] ,fa!r ,ignatius wrote aft] ! dea? ( 8 bro!r4 ,i d>e say y h n he>d t j be=e my bro!r's dea? ,i _h writt5 to him ab\t a case ( di/ress1 :i* he _h be=e be5 acqua9t$ )1 tell+ him1 at ! same "t1 ( :at ,i 0 ab\t1 & among o!r ?+s1 t ,i 0 go+ to ,london to op5 a mission 9 ,b]mondsey on ! #aj? ( ,janu>y4 ,he s5t me #c = ! p]son ,i wrote ab\t1 & invit$ me to /op at ,al?orp a c\ple ( nights on my way1 n dem&+ any positive promise ab\t religion z be=etime1 b only say+ t he ?\ght ,i might come z a private fri5d )\t see+ x necess>y to hold spiritual communications ) ! p 9 ! neighb\rhood4 ,i answ]$ t ,i w\ld come ) pleasure on ^! t]ms1 & t ev5 if he _h said no?+1 prud5ce w\ld dictate to me to act z he wi%$4 ,?is 0 a mo/ int]e/+ prospect to me1 aft] my twelve ye>s' exile f t home1 & ,i int5d$ to come on ! #g? ( ,janu>y4 ,x 0 only a day or two be=e my leav+ ,dubl9 = ?is j\rney1 t ,i 0 %[n a notice 9 ! pap] ( 8 dea?1 & ! next day _h a lett] ab\t x f my si/]4 ,he mu/ h receiv$ my lett] on ! v day t he 0 tak5 ill4 ,^! are rem>kable circum/ances4 ,:at w ,provid5ce br+ out ( !m8 #dfc ,he felt ! dea? ( ?is bro!r v mu*1 & 0 kn[n to %$ te>s 9 abundance :5 relat+ ! sad news to "s ( 8 fri5ds4 ,he said v sadly1 ,i gave myself up to ?ree days' sorr[+ = my de> bro!r ,fr$]ick1 b ,i took c>e to ?ank ,god = ! affliction4 #dfd ,,*apt] ,,xvi4 ,8 ,little ,missions4 ,on ! #ba/ ( ,june1 #aheh1 ,fa!r ,ignatius began to give %ort retreats1 :i* he designat$ little missions4 ,?is 0 8 "w ! rema9+ six ye>s ( 8 life2 any?+ else we f9d him do+ 0 l an exception4 ,! "w propos$ 9 ^! missions 0 :at has be5 already describ$ 9 ! *apt] on ! sanctification ( ! ,iri% p4 ,he want$ to aboli% all _! vices1 :i* he r$uc$ to ?ree capital s9s1 & s[ ! se$s ( p]fect virtue ^u ! gr\nd ( _! deep & f]tile fai?4 ,s9ce he took up ! notion t ,irel& 0 call$ to keep among ! nations ! title ( ,isl& ( ,sa9ts1 :i* _h once be5 h]s1 he c\ld nev] re/ until he saw x effect$4 ,he seems to h be5 consid]+ = a numb] ( ye>s ! means by :i* ?is %\ld be br\ght ab\t1 & he hit ^u a happy ?\ght 9 #aheh4 ,?is ?\ght 0 ! way ( impregnat+ ! m9ds ( all ! ,iri% p ) 8 ideas4 ,he f\nd t missions 7 mo/ p[]ful means ( mov+ p 9 a body to reconciliation ) ,god1 & an am5dm5t ( life4 ,he p]ceiv$ t ! words ( ! mission>ies 7 treasur$ up1 & t ! advices !y gave 7 foll[$ ) a scrupul\s exactness4 ,missions 7 ! mov+ p[]1 b h[ 7 !y to ent] into all ! corn]s ( a k+dom8 ,missions c\ld only be giv5 9 l>ge p>i%es1 & all prie/s did n set s high a value ^u _! importance z ^? :o ask$ = !m4 ,if he c\ld conc5trate ! mission>y p[] into some?+ less solemn1 b ( l efficacy1 & succe$ 9 c>ry+ t out1 he ?\ght x w\ld be j #dfe ! ?+4 ,?is tra9 ( delib]ation result$ 9 ! little missions4 ,a little mission is a new mode ( r5ew+ f]v\r2 ,fa!r ,ignatius 0 ! orig9ator & only work] 9 x ( :om we h any record4 ,x 0 half a week ( mission>y "w 9 e p>i%--t is1 ?ree days & a half ( prea*+ & he>+ confessions4 ,two s]mons 9 ! day 7 z mu* z ev] ,fa!r ,ignatius gave1 & ! h\rs 9 ! confessional 7 z _m z he c\ld endure4 ,?is k9d ( "w _h its difficulties4 ,! :ole c\rse ( subjects prop] to a mission c\ld n be got ?r\gh1 nei!r c\ld all ! p5it5ts be he>d4 ,fa!r ,ignatius met ^! objections4 ,! et]nal tru?s1 z su*1 he did n introduce4 ,he conf9$ himself to sev5 lectures1 9 :i* ! cry+ evils1 ) _! antidotes1 7 introduc$4 ,z f> z ! confessions 7 conc]n$1 he foll[$ ! rule ( moral !ologians t a confessor is responsible only = ! p5it5t kneel+ be=e him1 & n = ^? ^: confession he has n begun4 ,he he>d all he c\ld4 ,8 r\t9e ( daily "w on ^! little missions 0 to get up at five1 & he> confessions all day until midnight1 except :il/ say+ mass & (fice1 giv+ 8 lecture & tak+ 8 meals4 ,he took no recreation :atev]1 & if he *att$ any "t aft] d9n] ) ! prie/1 ! conv]sation might be consid]$ a cont9uation ( 8 s]mon4 ,at a v mod]ate calculation he mu/ h sp5t at lea/ twelve h\rs a day 9 ! confessional4 ,"s ( ^! apo/olic visits he prolong$ to a week :5 circum/ances requir$4 ,he gave #bde ( ^! missions f ,june1 #aheh1 to ,septemb]1 #ahfd2 he 0 on 8 way to ! #bdf? :5 he di$4 ,a r\gh calculation w %[ u t he mu/ h sp5t ab\t tw5ty-two weeks e ye> 9 ?is employm5t4 ,let u j ?9k ( =ty j\rneys1 9 cold & heat1 f p>i% to p>i%1 sometimes on foot1 sometimes on conveyances1 :i* *ance put 9 8 way4 ,let u foll[ him :5 he has /rapp$ 8 bags ^u 8 %\ld]1 aft] 8 mass1 walk+ (f n9e or t5 miles1 9 #dff ord] to be 9 "t to beg9 9 ano!r p>i% t ev5+4 ,let u see ! poor man try+ to prev5t 8 feel+ pa9 f 8 sore feet by walk+ a little fa/]1 /ruggl+1 ) umbrella brok51 aga9/ ra9 & w9d1 du/1 a bad road1 & a way unkn[n to add to 8 difficulties4 ,he arrives1 he lays d[n 8 burd51 puts on 8 habit1 takes "s d9n]1 f9i%es 8 (fice1 prea*es 8 fir/ disc\rse1 & sits 9 ! confessional until half-pa/ elev5 o'clock4 ,let u try to realize :at ?is "w mu/ h be51 & we %all h an idea ( ! six la/ ye>s ( ,fa!r ,ignatius ,sp5c]'s life4 ,we give a few extracts f 8 lett]s1 z !y w convey an idea ( h[ he felt & wr\ght 9 ?is great "w4 ,on ! #aj? ( ,augu/1 #aheh1 he writes f ! conv5t 9 ,kells1 :]e he 0 help+ ! nuns ?r\gh _! retreat3-- ,i h an h\r & a half be=e my next s]mon at #g2 all ! nuns' confessions are f9i%$1 & all my (fice said2 ,i h !re=e "t = a lett]4 ,i h n _h su* an aft]noon z ?is = _m mon?s4 ,! p ( ?is t[n seem to ?9k ! conv5t an impregnable =tress1 & d n make an assault ^u me 9 x4 ,if ,i 0 j to %[ myself 9 ! *ur* ,i %\ld be quickly surr\nd$4 ,! reflections :i* come ^u me ?is quiet aft]noon are n s bright & joy\s z y might expect1 p]haps1 f ! tone ( my lett] to ,m ----1 b r ( a heavy afflict+ "*2 b all ! bett]1 all ! bett]4 ,?is is :olesome1 & ano!r /age 9 my ?\ghts br+s me to v great satisfaction out ( ?is heav9ess4 ,i d n "k :e!r ,i %all expla9 myself to y4 ,i see myself "h s alone1 ?\gh ! p come ^u me s eag]ly1 s w>mly1 &1 ,i may say1 s lov+ly2 yet ,i h n "o on :om ,i c ?9k z sympa?is+ ) me4 ,i see ! necessity ( a complete radical *ange 9 ! _s ( ! p1 ! necessity1 ,i mean1 9 ord] to h "s prospect ( giv+ ! cause ( tru? its victory 9 ,engl&1 & mak+ ?is ,iri% p p]man5tly virtu\s & happy4 ,?is is :at ,i am prea*+ f place to place1 & aim+ at in/ill+ into ! p's m9ds 9 ! confessional1 at #dfg d9n]-tables1 9 c>s on ! road1 z well z 9 prea*+2 &1 :ile ,i aim at x1 ! "w is bright en\gh4 ,oct4 #aa1 #ahfj1 he writes3 ,i c h>dly und]/& h[ ,i c g on = any long "t m z ,i am do+1 & n f9d "s capable & will+ to ent] into !m4 ,"h ,i am ?r\gh ! #aab? p>i%1 ) ! same proposals :i* no "o objects to1 b no "o ent]s into nor seems to und]/&4 ,may #f1 #ahfa4-- ,x seems my lot to be mov+ ab\t z long z ,i c move4 ,i am v happy 9 ! "w ,i am ab\t :5 ,i am at x1 b ,i h always to g ?r\gh regret & sorr[ be=e mov+1 p>ticul>ly :5 leav+ my home4 444 ,i h n[ gone ?r\gh #acb p>i%es4 ,no movem5t yet1 su* z ,i am aim+ at4 ,x always goes on 9 ! =m ( mo/ int]e/+ mission>y "w1 & is a mo/ agreeable way ( do+ my begg+ "w4 ,i h be5 ?r\gh #abc ( ^! p>i%es )\t ask+ a p5ny f any "o1 b !y br+ me on an av]age m ?an #ba a p>i% 9 ,irel&4 ,i h work$ ?r\gh elev5 p>i%es 9 ! diocese ( ,sal=d 7,engl&7 out ( t numb]1 & ^! d n yield half ! fruit ( ! ,iri% missions 9 po9t ( money1 b are o!rwise v satisfactory4'' ,9 a lett] writt5 9 ,decemb] ( ! same ye>3 ,i am prep>+ = ano!r ye>'s "w l ! la/1 go+ f p>i% to p>i% ?r\gh ,irel&1 collect+ = our ,ord]1 & at ! same "t /irr+ ! p to devote !mselves to _! sanctification4 ,!y give _! money v g5]\sly1 !y li/5 k9dly to my s]mons1 & ,i nev] h a m9ute idle 9 he>+ confessions2 b hi!rto !re is no att5tion su* z ,i wi% paid to my proposals4 ,i h made ^! little missions n[ 9 #afj p>i%es 9 ,irel&1 & to elev5 ,iri% congregations 9 ,engl&4 ,i am1 ?ank ,god1 9 z good plight z ev] ,i 0 9 my life = ?is k9d ( "w1 & ?is seems to give a hope t ,i may at l5g? see ! effect ( x z ,i wi%1 or ! fruit may spr+ up :5 ,i am dead & buri$4 ,if dea? comes ^u me 9 ?is way1 ,i w at lea/ rejoice = myself t ,i am dy+ m l our ,"l ?an if ,i f9i%$ my c\rse #dfh cr[n$ ) ! mo/ brilliant successes2 = :5 ,he di$ p w\ld say ,he _h utt]ly fail$1 b ,he 0 j !n a*iev+ ,8 victory4 ,:atev] way ?+s take we _c be disappo9t$ if we keep fai?ful to ,god4 ,! lov+ness describ$ z subsi/+ betwe5 himself & 8 de> ,iri% p gave rise to _m incid5ts1 among/ :i* ! foll[+ is r peculi>4 ,at "o place1 :]e he _h j conclud$ a little mission1 ! p ga!r$ r\nd him :5 he 0 ab\t to g away4 ,he he>d _m say1 ,:at w we d :5 he is gone8 & sev]al o!r exclamations betok5+ _! affliction at hav+ to "p f him4 ,he turn$ r\nd & ask$ all he saw to accompany him to ! railway /ation4 ,:5 !y arriv$ !re he address$ !m aga9 9 some?+ l ^! words3 ,n[1 /& "h until y see ! tra9 />t1 & :5 x is out ( sight1 ,i want y all to say1 ',?ank ,god1 he is gone4' ,he met a great _m refusals & cold receptions on ^! mission>y t\rs1 b 9 g5]al he 0 v well receiv$4 ,! exceptions 7 de> to him1 z !y 7 pr(itable to himself1 & he seldom spoke ( !m unless !re 0 "s special lesson !y 7 calculat$ to convey4 #dfi ,,*apt] ,,xvii4 ,fa!r ,ignatius ,at ,home4 ,! "w ( ! little missions kept ,fa!r ,ignatius v mu* away f ! community4 ,8 visits at home 7 l meteor fla%es1 bright & beautiful1 & always made u regret we c\ld n enjoy 8 edify+ company = a long] "t4 ,^? :o are mu* away on ! ext]nal duties ( ! ,ord] f9d ! rule a little sev]e :5 !y return2 to ,fa!r ,ignatius x seem$ a small heav5 ( refre%+ satisfaction4 ,8 com+ home 0 usually ann\nc$ to ! community a day or two be=e1 & all 7 promis+ !mselves r>e treats f 8 pres5ce among/ !m4 ,x 0 *e]+ to see ! port] run 91 beam+ ) joy1 z he ann\nc$ ! glad tid+s1 ,fa!r ,ignatius is come4 ,! exub]ance ( 8 own delight z he greet$1 fir/ "o1 & !n ano!r ( 8 companions1 add$ to our own joy4 ,9 fact1 ! day ,fa!r ,ignatius came home almo/ became a holiday by cu/om4 ,^? days 72 & we feel incl9$ to tire our read]s by expatiat+ on !m1 z if writ+ br\ght !m back4 ,:5ev] he arriv$ at "o ( our h\ses1 & _h a day or two to /ay1 x 0 usual = ! y\ng] religi\s1 su* z novices & /ud5ts1 to g to him1 "o by "o1 = conf]5ce4 ,he lik$ ?is v mu*1 & w\ld write to high] ,sup]iors = p]mission to turn (f to ,broadway1 = in/ance1 on 8 way to ,london1 9 ord] to make acqua9tance ) ! "y religi\s4 ,8 c\nsels _h (t5 a la/+ effect2 _m :o 7 incl9$ to leave ! life !y _h *os5 rema9$ /eadfa/1 aft] a conf]5ce ) him4 ,he did n give common-place solutions to difficulties1 b he _h "s peculi> phrase1 "s qua9t axiom1 "s droll #dgj piece ( spirituality1 to apply to e little tr\ble t came be=e him4 ,he 0 specially happy 9 8 fund ( anecdote1 & c\ld tell "o1 x 0 believ$1 on any subject t came be=e him4 ,?is extraord9>y gift ( conv]sational p[] made ! ,conf]5ces delightful4 ,! novices1 :5 !y assembl$ 9 recreation1 & gave _! op9ions on ,fa!r ,ignatius1 :om _m _h spok5 to = ! fir/ "t 9 _! life1 ne>ly all w\ld conclude1 ,if !re ev] 0 a sa9t1 he's "o4 ,x 0 amus+ to obs]ve h[ !y prep>$ !mselves = =m+ _! op9ion4 ,!y all he>d ( 8 be+ a great sa9t1 & "s fanci$ he w\ld eat no?+ at all = "o day1 & might attempt a little vegetables on ! next4 ,"o novice1 9 p>ticul>1 _h made up 8 m9d to ?is1 &1 to 8 great surprise1 he saw ,fa!r ,ignatius eat an extra good breakfa/2 &1 :5 ab\t to settle into a ra% judgm5t1 he saw ! old man prep>+ to walk sev5 miles to a railway /ation on ! /r5g? ( 8 meal4 ,ano!r novice ?\ght su* a sa9t w\ld nev] laugh nor make anybody else laugh2 to 8 agreeable disappo9tm5t1 he f\nd t ,fa!r ,ignatius br\ght m *e]fulness into ! recreation ?an _h be5 !re = "s "t4 ,9 "o ?+ ,fa!r ,ignatius did n g aga9/ anticipation2 he 0 mo/ exact 9 ! obs]vance ( our rules4 ,he w\ld be always ! fir/ 9 = ! midnight (fice4 ,_m a "t ! y\ng] portion ( ! community us$ to make arrangem5ts ov]night to be 9 be=e him1 b x 0 no use4 ,once1 inde$1 a /ud5t arriv$ 9 *oir be=e him1 & ,fa!r ,ignatius appe>$ s cre/fall5 at be+ beat5 t ! /ud5t w\ld nev] be 9 be=e him aga91 & might delay on ! way if he ?\ght ,fa!r ,ignatius _h n yet pass$4 ,he seem$ p>ticul>ly happy :5 he c\ld light ! lamps or gas = mat9s4 ,he 0 *ildlike 9 8 ob$i5ce4 ,he w\ld n transgress ! mo/ trifl+ regulation4 ,x 0 usual ) him to say1 ,i _c und]/& p]sons :o say1 ',oh1 ,i am all "r if ,i get to ,purgatory4' ,we %\ld be m g5]\s ) ,almighty ,god4 ,i don't int5d to g to ,purgatory1 & if ,i d1 ,i mu/ "k :at =4 ,b1 ,fa!r ,ignatius1 a fa!r w\ld say1 #dga we fall into s _m imp]fections t x seems presumption to attempt to escape scot free4 ,well1 he w\ld reply1 no?+ c s5d u to ,purgatory b a wilful v5ial s91 & may ! ,"l pres]ve u f su* a ?+ z t2 a religi\s ought to die be=e be+ guilty ( ! lea/ wilful fault4 ,we saw f ?is t he c\ld sc>cely imag9e h[ a religi\s c\ld d s1 or1 at lea/1 t he 0 v f> f ! l himself4 ,"o "t we 7 speak+ ab\t ! ,italian way ( pron\nc+ ,lat91 :i* we h adopt$2 he notic$ "s imp]fections1 & "o ( ! ,italian ,fa!rs pres5t rem>k$ a few po9ts 9 :i* ,fa!r ,ignatius himself fail$4 ,"o ( !m 01 t he did n pron\nce ! lett] r /rong en\gh2 & ano!r1 t he did n give a its full s\nd :5 x came 9 ! middle ( a ^w4 ,= "s "t x 0 obs]v$ t he made a mo/ burr+ s\nd :5 he pron\nc$ an r1 & w5t s f> 9 correct+ himself 9 ! o!r p>ticul> z to s9 aga9/ prosody4 ,sometimes he w\ld =get little rubrics1 b if any "o told him ( a mi/ake1 he 0 sc>cely ev] se5 to commit x aga94 ,:5ev] he _h half an h\r to sp>e he wrote lett]s4 ,we may =m an idea ( 8 a*ievem5ts 9 ?is po9t1 :5 he tells u 9 ! ,j\rnal t on two days :i* rema9$ free to him once he wrote sev5ty-eight4 ,a great numb] ( 8 lett]s are pres]v$4 ,!y are v ent]ta9+ & in/ructive2 a nice ve9 ( hum\r runs ?r\gh all ^? he wrote to 8 famili> fri5ds4 ,^! two lett]s may be look$ ^u z ! extremes ( ! sob] & humor\s /yle 9 8 lett]-writ+3-- ,:5 ,i us$ to call on y1 y seem$ to be tott]+1 z "o might say1 on y\r la/ legs4 ,"h y are1 aft] s _m ye>s1 )\t hav+ ev] se5 heal? or prosp]ity1 & ) ab\t z mu* life 9 y z !n1 to all appe>ance4 ,all has be51 all is1 & all w be1 exactly z x pleases ,god4 ,?is is ! tru?1 ! gr& tru?1 ,i w\ld almo/ say ! :ole & only tru?4 ,!re may be1 & are1 pl5ty ( ?+s besides1 :i* may be truly affirm$1 yet ?is is ! :ole ( :at x conc]ns u ea* to "k4 ,= if ?is is once well und]/ood1 ( c\rse x foll[s t we #dgb h b "o affair to att5d to1 t is1 to please ,god2 because !n1 to a c]ta9ty1 all ! pa/1 pres5t1 & future w be f\nd to be p]fectly & absolutely ord]$ = our own greate/ good4 ,if ?is "o po9t be well /udi$1 ,i ?9k we c /e] p easily en\gh out ( all l[ spirits & melan*oly4 ,_m p c see ! h& ( ,god ov] !m 9 wond]ful m]cy 9 _! pa/ hi/ory1 & s be br\ght to a k t _! anxieties1 & afflictions1 & groans1 9 ^? bygone days 7 unreasonable !n4 ,:y d !y n le>n to leave (f groan+ ov] ! pres5t tr\bles8 ,because !y d n tru/ ,god to manage any?+ "r till !y h exam9$ ,8 "w1 & und]/ood all ab\t x4 ,b ,he1 w be m hon\r$ if we agree ) ,him1 & approve ( :at ,he does be=e we see :at ! good is :i* is to come ( x4 ,9 y\r case1 if we g back to ! days :5 ,i fir/ saw y at ----1 :5 y\r fa!r 0 9 a good way ( "w1 & y 7 9 heal?1 !re 0 ! prospect !n1 ,i suppose1 be=e y ( gett+ well settl$ 9 ! _w2 & if all _h cont9u$ smoo? & prosp]\s1 y might n[ be a ri* m]*ant's wife 9 ,birm+ham1 ,london1 or ,new ,york1 reckon$ ! ornam5t ( a l>ge circle ( weal?y fri5ds1 c4 ,b might !re n1 p]haps1 h be5 writt5 ov] y z y\r motto8 ,wo to y ri*1 = y h receiv$ y\r consolation4 ,wo to y t laugh n[ = y %all m\rn & weep4 ,y may be dispos$ to answ]1 y d n ?9k y w\ld h be5 spoil$ by prosp]ity4 ,b if y are m or less tr\bl$ or anxi\s at be+ 9 pov]ty1 sickness1 or adv]sity1 x %[s t y w\ld be1 j 9 ! same measure1 unable to be> prosp]ity & heal? unhurt4 ,weal? & prosp]ity are dang]\s to ^? only :o love !m & tru/ 9 !m4 ,if1 :5 y are 9 adv]sity1 y are sorry = x1 & wi% = prosp]ity1 x %[s love = ?is _w's goods1 m or less4 ,& if a p]son loves !m :5 he has !m n1 is x likely he w\ld despise !m if he _h !m8 ,god saves multitudes by pov]ty & afflictions 9 spite ( !mselves4 ,! same pov]ty & afflictions1 if ! p]sons correspond$ ) ,god's provid5ce & rejoic$ 9 !m1 w\ld make !m #dgc fir/-rate sa9ts4 ,! same may be said1 ) z great tru?1 ( int]ior afflictions1 scruples1 temptations1 d>kness1 dryness1 & ! re/ ( ! catalogue ( su* mis]ies4 ,a p]son :o is disquiet$ & anxi\s on acc\nt ( ^!1 ei!r does n und]/& t ,god's gifts are n ,god1 or if !y d und]/& x1 !y love ! gifts ( ,god indep5d5tly ( ! giv]4 ,& s ,i add t su* a "o1 if he enjoy$ un9t]rupt$ peace & s]5ity ( s\l1 w\ld /op v %ort inde$ ( ! p]fection ( love to :i* ,god int5ds to lead him if he w be docile4 ,n[1 z to y\r case1 if y are /ill alive & /ill s]v+ ,god1 & desir+ to d s bett] & bett]1 x is cle> t y\r afflictions1 ext]ior & int]ior1 h n spoil$ or ru9$ y4 ,& z ,god loves our peace & happ9ess1 we may conclude t he w\ld n h kept y d[n & l[1 if x _h n be5 necess>y = y\r good4 ,:at h y to d at la/8 ,beg9 aga9 to ?ank1 praise1 bless1 adore1 & glorify ,god = all ! tribulations1 pa/ & future1 & he may yet /r5g!n & pres]ve y to d abundance ( good1 & lay up a great treasure 9 heav54 ,! next lett] is to a nun ab\t a book :i* 0 suppos$ to be lo/3-- ,! second p]petual cal5d> has be5 f\nd4 ,i _h no ?\ght x w\ld2 b took my *ance to ask1 & somebody _h se5 x1 & x 0 look$ = aga9 & f\nd4 ,x has be5 a clumsy bit ( bus9ess on our "p2 b x ends "r4 ,x gives ano!r example ( ! wisdom ( a c]ta9 "y %eph]dess celebrat$ 9 ! nurs]y 9 my e>ly days-- ',little ,bopeep ,has lo/ h] %eep1 ,& doesn't "k :]e to f9d !m4 ,let !m alone1 ,& !y'll come home1 ,& br+ _! tails beh9d !m4' ,!re is great philosophy 9 ! advice giv5 to ! h]o9e ( ^! l9es4 ,x seems by :at y said ! o!r day1 t y #dgd expect$ a long tail to ?is %eep1 b ,i don't ?9k ! tail ev] grew4 ,any way1 x nev] br\ght a tail s f> z ?is h\se4 ,h[ev]1 if !re does exi/ a tail to x1 ,i recomm5d to y ! calm philosophy ( little ,bo-peep1 & x w1 ,i d>e say1 foll[ 9 "t4 ,! little rhyme giv5 above 0 a fav\rite ) ,fa!r ,ignatius4 ,:5 he saw any "o look+ = a ?+ ) anxiety he g5]ally rhym$ x out ) peculi> emphasis4 ,x might be safely said t he nev] wrote a lett]1 prea*$ a s]mon1 or held a conv]sation )\t introduc+ resignation to ! w ( ,god1 ! desire ( p]fection1 or ! conv]sion ( ,engl&4 ,z he 0 always a ,sup]ior1 ! religi\s c\ld come to him & speak :5ev] !y pleas$4 ,he 0 ev] ready to receive !m1 he laid d[n 8 p51 or :atev] else he might be at1 directly he saw a bro!r or fa!r wi%$ to speak to him1 & he li/5$ & spoke z if ?is conv]sation 0 ! only duty he _h to dis*>ge4 ,9 recreation he 0 a treasure4 ,we ga!r$ r\nd him by a k9d ( in/9ct1 & s ent]ta9+ 0 he t "o felt x a mortification to be call$ away f ! recreation-room :ile ,fa!r ,ignatius 0 9 x4 ,he us$ to rec\nt ) peculi> grace & fasc9at+ wit1 sc5es he w5t ?r\gh 9 8 life4 ,!re is sc>cely an incid5t 9 ?is volume t we h n he>d him relate4 ,he 0 mo/ +5u\s4 ,ask him :at "q y pleas$1 he w\ld answ] x1 if he knew x4 ,9 relat+ an anecdote he (t5 spoke 9 five or six diff]5t tones ( voice2 he imitat$ ! mann] & action ( ^? he knew to su* p]fection1 t laught] _h to pass into admiration4 ,he seldom laugh$ outright1 & ev5 :5 he did1 he w\ld v soon /op4 ,if he came across a numb] ( ,pun*1 he ran ov] "s ( ! sket*es at once & !n he w\ld be obs]v$ to /op1 laugh1 & lay x d[n directly1 z if to d5y himself fur!r enjoym5t4 ,x is ne$less to say !re 0 no?+ rollick+1 or (f-h&$ 9 8 wit--nev]2 x 0 subdu$1 sweet1 delicate1 & lively4 ,he w\ld introduce v (t5 amus+ puzzles1 su* z pass+ ! pok] ar\nd1 or ! game ( ,he c d little :o _c d t1 t1 t4 ,!n to see 8 #dge glee :5 "s "o ?\ght he _h f\nd out ! secret by 8 ke5ness ( obs]vation1 & 0 f> f x2 & h[ he laugh$ at ! d5\em5t ( ! my/]y1 :5 all 0 ov]1 0 really delightful4 ,he (t5 made u try ,!ophilus ,?i/le?wick1 & ,pet] ,pip]1 & us$ to enjoy ! blund]s imm5sely4 ,9 fact1 a recreation1 presid$ ov] by ,fa!r ,ignatius1 0 ! mo/ innoc5t & gladsome "o c\ld imag9e4 ,he _h a few seasons ( illness 9 ! clos+ ye>s ( 8 life2 9 #ahfa he 0 laid up = sev]al days ) a sore foot1 9 ,highgate4 ,:5 "o ( u is ill1 x is cu/om>y = ! memb]s ( ! h\se to take turn ab\t 9 /ay+ ) him1 & we are all[$ to g at all times to visit an invalid4 ,:5ev] ,fa!r ,ignatius 0 ask$ h[ 8 foot 01 he w\ld say x 0 v well1 because x br\ght him "s pa91 & t 0 a valuable ?+ if we only knew h[ to turn x to good acc\nt4 ,he felt v grateful = ! smalle/ s]vice done him 9 sickness4 ,x is suppos$ t he wrote m lett]s dur+ 8 illness1 & held m pr(itable conv]sations ?an 9 any o!r equal p]iod ( 8 life4 ,no "o ev] f\nd him idle4 ,he read1 or he wrote1 or he talk$1 or he pray$1 or he slept4 ,ly+ awake & li/less 9 b$1 ev5 :5 suff]+ f acute pa91 seem$ an imp]fection to him4 ,compla9t 0 l a language he _h =gott51 or knew n1 except z "o kn[s s9 by ! contr>y virtue4 ,he suff]$ greatly f dr[s9ess4 ,:5 he w5t to m$itation he w\ld nod asleep1 & ! ex]tions he made to keep himself awake made u pity him4 ,he w\ld /& up1 ev5 sometimes on "o foot1 ext5d 8 arms 9 ! =m ( a cross1 & d ev]y?+ he c\ld possibly ?9k ( 9 ord] to keep awake4 ,dur+ 8 rector%ip 9 ,button1 aft] return+ f a sick call on a cold w9t]'s ev5+1 he 0 oblig$ to walk ab\t say+ 8 (fice4 ,he d>$ n sit d[n1 or he w\ld g (f asleep1 & _h to avoid go+ ne> a fire1 or no ef=t c\ld keep him awake4 ,not)/&+ ?is1 he 0 ! fir/ to mat9s1 & seldom w5t to b$ aga9 be=e prime4 ,:5 o!rs 7 ill1 ,fa!r ,ignatius 0 all *>ity2 he w\ld make sure fir/ t #dgf !y took _! sickness 9 a "r _s1 & ?ank$ ,god = x1 !n he w\ld see t all k9ds ( att5tion 7 paid to !m4 ,z = sick calls1 no matt] at :at h\r ( ! day or night !y came1 he w\ld be ! fir/ to g out & att5d !m4 ,he lik$ assi/+ at dea?-b$s2 he felt p>ticul> pleasure 9 help+ p to heav54 ,he receiv$ all k9ds ( visitors4 ,he w5t imm$iately to see any "o t want$ to speak to him1 & nev] kept !m a mom5t wait+ if he c\ld possibly help x4 ,:5 di/+ui%$ visitors 7 com+ he did n make ! lea/ prep>ation1 b j treat$ !m l any "o else4 ,8 si/] promis$ to visit him 9 ,highgate 9 ,decemb]1 #ahei4 ,nei!r %e nor any memb] ( 8 family _h ev] be5 9 "o ( our mona/]ies2 he !re=e look$ ^u ?is z a k9d ( ev5t4 ,fa!r ,ignatius _h a wret*$ old mantle1 & "o ( ! /ud5ts w5t to him to (f] him 81 :i* 0 q new1 = ! day4 ,he w\ld n at all accept ( x1 & lectur$ ! o!r ^u human respect = 8 pa9s4 ,he 0 v fond ( conduct+ ! walk ! /ud5ts take e week4 ,he br\ght ! ,london /ud5ts (t5 ?r\gh ! ,city1 & wond]ful 0 8 k & rem9isc5ces ( ! diff]5t places !y pass$ by4 ,he took !m once to ! ,zoological ,g>d5s4 ,!y w5t ab\t look+ at ! diff]5t bea/s1 & he _h 8 comm5ts to make on ea*4 ,he drew a moral reflection f ! voraci\sness ( ! lion1 ! fi]c5ess ( ! hya5a1 ! vanity ( ! seal1 & ! /upor ( ! slo?4 ,:5 he saw ! flam+o1 he /ay$ full t5 m9utes wond]+ :at might be ! use ( its long1 ?9 legs4 ,! hippopotamus amus$ him beyond all4 ,look at 8 big m\?1 he w\ld say2 :at 9 ! _w does he want x =8 ,c\ldn't he eat en\gh ) a small] "o8 ,dur+ _! walks1 a "l1 p]haps1 w\ld turn up1 & address him z1 ,ho1 ,sp5c]6 is ?is y8 ,h[ d'ye d8 ,x is "s ye>s s9ce ,i saw y8 ,aft] a few words !y w\ld "p1 & !n he'd tell 8 companions ab\t _! college days1 or field sports4 #dgg ,,*apt] ,,xviii4 ,a ,few ,ev5ts4 ,9 #aheh we procur$ ! place 9 ,highgate1 kn[n n[ z ,/4 ,joseph's ,retreat4 ,! ,hyde 0 nev] satisfactory2 x 0 suit$ nei!r to our _s nor its work+4 ,at la/ ,provid5ce guid$ u to a mo/ suitable position4 ,our rule prescribes t ! h\ses ( ! ,ord] %\ld be outside ! t[n1 & ne> en\gh to be ( s]vice to x4 ,highgate is wond]fully adapt$ to all ! requisitions ( our rule & con/itutions4 ,situat$ on ! br[ ( a hill1 x is f> en\gh f ! d9 & noise ( ,london to be comp>atively free f its turmoil1 & suffici5tly ne> = citiz5s to come to our *ur*4 ,! gr\nds are enclos$ by trees2 a hospital at "o end & two roads meet+ at ! o!r1 promise a fre$om f intrusion & a cont9uance ( ! solitude we n[ enjoy4 ,fa!r ,ignatius concludes ! ye> #aheh 9 ,highgate2 x 0 8 fir/ visit to ! new h\se4 ,t[>ds ! end ( ! next ye> we f9d him once m 9 ,france ) our ,prov9cial4 ,!y w5t on bus9ess int]e/+ to ! ,ord]1 & 7 ne>ly ?ree weeks away4 ,fa!r ,ignatius ends ano!r ye> 9 ,highgate4 ,x 0 !n he translat$ ! small ,life ( ,bless$ ,paul f ! ,italian1 a "w he accompli%$ 9 ab\t "o mon? ) ! assi/ance ( an amanu5sis4 ,he gave a mission ) ?ree ( ! fa!rs 9 ,we/l& ,r[1 ,dubl91 9 ! beg9n+ ( ! ye> #ahfj1 & />t$ (f imm$iately aft] = 8 circuit ( little missions4 ,our ,prov9cial ,*apt] 0 held ?is ye>1 b all 7 re-elect$2 s ,fa!r ,ignatius rema9$ z he 01 second ,consultor4 ,x 0 ?is ye> he visit$ ,al?orp1 aft] an abs5ce ( eighte5 ye>s f ! home ( 8 *ildhood4 ,?is visit #dgh he look$ back to ) a great deal ( satisfaction1 & 8 joy 0 increas$ :5 ,"l & ,lady ,s>ah ,sp5c] return$ 8 visit 9 ,highgate1 :5 he happ5$ to be !re1 ! next ye>4 ,! fri5dly relations betwe5 him & 8 family seem$1 if possible1 to become clos] & m cordial t[>ds ! end ( 8 life4 ,he told u "o day 9 recreation1 :5 "s "o ask$ :at became ( ! lady he 0 dispos$ to be m>ri$ to1 once 9 8 life3 ,i pass$ by h] h\se a few days ago4 ,i believe h] husb& is a v excell5t man1 & t %e is happy4 ,9 #ahfb he visit$ ,al?orp aga94 ,we saw him look+ = a lock = "o ( 8 bags be=e he left ,highgate = ?is visit1 & "s "o ask$ him :y he 0 s p>ticul> j !n4 ,oh1 he said1 don't y "k ! s]vant 9 ! big h\se w op5 x1 9 ord] to put my %av+ tackle1 bru%1 & s =? 9 _! prop] places1 & ,i %\ld n l to h a g5]al />e at my habit1 beads1 & s&als4 ,!re 01 h[ev]1 a m g5]al />e at !m ?an he expect$4 ,dur+ ! visit1 ! volunte] corps 7 ent]ta9$ by ,"l ,sp5c]4 ,fa!r ,ignatius 0 invit$ to ! gr& d9n]2 he sat next ! ,e>l1 & no?+ w\ld d = ! latt] b t 8 uncle %\ld make a spee*4 ,fa!r ,ignatius /ood up 9 8 regim5tals1 habit1 s&als1 c41 & made1 x seems1 a v patriotic "o4 ,?is visit to ,al?orp ,fa!r ,ignatius lov$ to recall to m9d4 ,x 0 a k9d ( ?+ t he c\ld n enjoy at ! "t1 s f> did x g beyond 8 expectations4 ,he w5t m]ely = a fri5dly visit1 & f\nd a great _m old fri5ds invit$ to increase 8 pleasure4 ,:5 ! ladies & g5tlem5 w5t (f to dress = d9n]1 x is said t ,fa!r ,ignatius told ,lady ,sp5c] t he suppos$ 8 full dress w\ld n be q 9 place at ! table2 he 0 told x w\ld1 & t all w\ld be mu* delight$ to see a specim5 ( ! fa%ions he _h le>nt s9ce 8 days ( :i/ & rep>tee 9 ! same hall4 ,at ! appo9t$ "t he pres5t$ himself 9 ! d9+-room 9 full ,passioni/ co/ume4 ,"l ,sp5c] 0 q pr\d ( 8 uncle1 & ! spee*1 & ! *e] ) :i* x 0 greet$ at ! #dgi ,volunte]s' d9n] only enhanc$ ! mutual joy ( uncle & nephew4 ,z usual1 ?is joy 0 temp]$1 & ! alloy 0 adm9i/]$ by a cl]gyman1 :o evid5tly int5d$ to get himself a "n by putt+ himself into pr9t 9 "o ( ! local pap]s4 ,?is 0 a ,mr4 ,watk9s4 ,he wrote a lett] to ! ,nor?ampton ,h]ald1 conta9+ a great deal ( %all[ criticism & ignorant rem>ks on ,fa!r ,ignatius1 & a s]mon he prea*$ at ! op5+ ( ! ca!dral4 ,a sm>t pap] w>f>e 0 c>ri$ on = "s "t betwe5 ! two1 :i* e>n$ ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,watk9s ! disapproval1 if n ! disgu/1 ( 8 ,prote/ant cl]ical & lay neighb\rs4 ,?is 0 r a surprise1 z all ! old acqua9tances ( ! quondam ,mr4 ,sp5c] _h ! highe/ reg>d = him2 b ?is writ] seems to h be5 "o :o nev] _h ! opportunity ( =m+ a j op9ion ( 8 abilities or "*4 ,ignorance may excuse 8 blund]s1 b ! longe/ /ret* ( *>ity c sc>cely ov]look 8 mann] ( committ+ !m4 ,aft] ! visit to ,al?orp1 ,fa!r ,ignatius w5t to see ,mr4 ,de ,lisle at ,grace ,dieu1 & 0 pres5t at ! bless+ ( ! pres5t ,abbot ( ,m\nt ,/4 ,b]n>d's4 ,! secret>y ( ! ,a4 ,p4 ,u4 ,c4 s5t him ano!r lett] aft] ?is visit1 :i* met ! fate ( simil> communications on =m] occasions4 ,we f9d him 9 ! beg9n+ ( ! ye> #ahfc 9 ,liv]pool1 engag$ 9 a mission at ,/4 ,augu/9e's4 ,aft] ?is mission he came to ,highgate1 on 8 way to ,rome = our g5]al *apt]1 & ! few days he _h on 8 h&s be=e 8 dep>ture 7 sp5t 9 visit+ ,"l ,palm]/on1 ,mr4 ,glad/one1 & o!r notabilities1 z well z receiv+ a visit f 8 nephew4 ,he arriv$ 9 ,rome = ! la/ "t on ! #bbnd ,april1 #ahfc4 ,h[ /rangely d 8 diff]5t visits to ?is city comb9e to give an idea ( ! /ages ( op9ion ?r\gh :i* 8 *equ]$ life 0 fat$ to pass4 ,9 #ahba1 he ent]$ x1 promis+ himself a fea/ ( absurdities1 det]m9$ to sne] at :at he did n und]/&1 & repel by 8 ?ick %ield ( prejudice :atev] might =ce itself #dhj ^u him z praisewor?y4 ,he f\nd some?+ 9 8 next visit 9 ! pagan rema9s to please 8 ,prote/ant ta/e1 & left x = ,g]many ) a k9d ( regret4 ,9 less ?an t5 ye>s he is !re to despise ! glory ( ! ,caes>s1 & ?9ks m ( a *apel :i* ,pet]'s successor has end[$ or adorn$1 ?an ! plat=ms on :i* ! fangs ( ! leop>d tore ! fl[] ( our m>tyrs4 ,8 o!r visits 7 mo/ly (ficial4 ,he came gl[+ ) ! f]v\r ( new projects1 & left ) only _! emb]s g5]at+ a new /ep 9 8 spiritual progress4 ,rome 0 always ,rome1 b he 0 n always ! same4 ,any "o :o takes ! tr\ble to comp>e 8 diff]5t visits ) ea* o!r _c fail to le>n a lesson t w be m tell+ on 8 m9d1 ?an :at comm5ts ^u !m by ano!r's p5 c\ld produce4 ,! ,g5]al ,*apt] ,fa!r ,ignatius 0 call$ to att5d 9 #ahfc _h to deal ) subjects t deeply conc]n$ ! int]e/s ( our ,ord]4 ,9 ?is ,*apt]1 our ,am]ican prov9ce 0 canonically erect$ 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates4 ,a colony ( t5 ,passioni/s 0 s5t to ,cali=nia1 & ! ,hospice ( ,/4 ,ni*olas1 9 ,p>is1 e/abli%$4 ,fa!r ,ignatius _h1 z usual1 "s pap]s to submit to ! ,roman ,curia4 ,! "w to :i* 8 little missions 7 devot$ _h n yet receiv$ ! seal ( ! ,fi%]man1 &1 until x 0 s bless$1 its excell5ce c\ld be a subject ( d\bt4 ,he did receive ! pontifical b5$iction = ?is1 & = ! in/itution ( a new congregation ( nuns1 & began to enjoy ! ri*es ( ?is tw(old bless+ be=e he took 8 dep>ture f ! ,et]nal ,city4 ,fa!r ,ignatius1 ev] himself1 did n lose sight ( less] claims on 8 gratitude 9 ! great] ones 8 zeal propos$ to him4 ,!re 0 a family :om he _h receiv$ into ! ,*ur* dur+ ! c\rse ( 8 lab\rs on ! secul> mission4 ,! fa!r1 & f\r daught]s1 & a son1 7 all baptiz$ by him4 ,!y 7 8 great joy4 ,he fir/ receiv$ "o girl1 !n ! fa!r1 !n ano!r 7:o dread$ to speak to him71 a ?ird1 & a f\r? yield$ to 8 *>ity & meekness 9 foll[+ ! work+s ( grace4 ,= !m he always ent]ta9$ a special reg>d1 he w\ld /ay ) #dha !m :5 mission>y "w call$ him to a t[n 9 :i* !y dwell$1 & delight$ to c>ess _! *ildr51 edify !mselves1 & make himself at home 9 _! dwell+s dur+ 8 /ay4 ,he obta9$ a rescript grant+ !m a pl5>y indulg5ce1 sign$ by ! ,holy ,fa!r himself1 :i* is /ill treasur$ up z a beautiful heirloom 9 _! families4 ,^! fav\r$ objects ( 8 pr$ilection 7 ,mrs4 ,macky1 ( ,birm+ham2 ,mrs4 ,ri*>dson & ,mrs4 ,m>%all1 ( ,lev5%ulme1 ,man*e/]4 ,be=e leav+ ,rome 9 #ahfc he prea*$ to nuns & s*ools1 ^u ! conv]sion ( ,engl&1 ) ! same zeal z he did 9 #ahej1 if n ) great]4 ,t lead+ /> liv$ ) him2 x is to be hop$ x has n di$ ) him4 ,if ! n9ete5? c5tury 7 an age ( fai?1 & t ! belief 9 ,god's miracul\s int]position w\ld move any to make exp]im5ts ( holy wond]s1 we %\ld expect to f9d engrav$ on 8 he>t aft] dea?3 ,! ,conv]sion ( ,engl&6 ,on ,june #ba1 aft] exactly two mon?s' /ay1 he left ! t]re/rial ,rome1 or city ( ,god1 = ev]4 ,he arrives 9 ,london on ! #crd ,augu/1 visits conv5ts = 8 crusade1 n[ d\bly de> to him2 communicates 8 glad tid+s to ! infant congregations ( nuns ( ,sutton1 & holds himself 9 read9ess = ! approa*+ prov9cial *apt]4 ,! nuns "h m5tion$ are a society e/abli%$1 a few ye>s be=e1 by our ,fa!r ,gaud5tius4 ,_! prim>y object is ! c>e & in/ruction ( factory girls1 _! subsidi>y "o1 ! pla9 in/ruction ( poor *ildr54 ,fa!r ,ignatius lov$ ?is in/itute4 ,"o ( 8 common say+s 01 ,i d n und]/& h[ a girl ) a wood5 leg1 no means & great docility1 _c make ! evangelical v[s1 & he f\nd himself at home ) a si/]hood :]e 8 problem w\ld be solv$ 9 "p at lea/4 ,he br\ght _! rules to ,rome1 at ?is "t1 & receiv$ all ! ,pontifical sanctions he c\ld possibly expect "u ! circum/ances4 ,on ,augu/ #ba ( ?is ye>1 our ,prov9cial ,*apt] 0 held at ,broadway4 ,"h ,fa!r ,ignatius 0 elect$ ,rector ( ,/4 ,anne's ,retreat1 ,sutton4 ,he ent]$ on ! #dhb (fice ) a great deal ( zeal & c\rage4 ,9 8 fir/ exhortation to ! religi\s1 he rem>k$ t new brooms sweep clean1 b z he 0 a broom a little ! worse = we>1 :i* _h be5 trimm$ up = action aft] hav+ s long la9 by1 ! aphorism c\ld n apply s well to him4 ,x 0 n9e ye>s s9ce he _h fill$ ! (fice ( rector be=e1 & ! int]val taught him _m ?+s reg>d+ religi\s discipl9e :i* he n[ br\ght into action4 ,8 rule might be call$ mat]nal r ?an pat]nal1 = x 0 *>act]iz$ by ! fondness ( holy old age = y\?4 ,"o *ange rem>k$ 9 him1 s9ce 8 =m] rector%ip1 01 8 spic+ 8 g5tle admonitions ) a good deal ( sev]ity :5 occasion requir$ x4 ,he spoke to ! community1 aft] ! ev5+ recreation1 once ^u ! conv]sion ( ,engl&1 & ! bright look ! horizon ( religi\s op9ion wore n[ 9 comp>ison to ! "t he fir/ began 8 crusade4 ,he hop$ great ?+s = ,engl&4 ,at ?is "p ( 8 lecture1 "s ludicr\s occurr5ce1 :i* he did n obs]ve1 made "o ( ! y\ng] religi\s laugh4 ,fa!r ,ignatius turn$ ^u him1 & spoke ) su* vehem5ce t all seem$ z if /ruck by a ?und]bolt4 ,!y nev] he>d him speak 9 t way be=e1 & x 0 ?\ght by _m t ! meek fa!r c\ld n foam ) indignation1 ev5 if he tri$4 ,t[>ds ! close ( #ahfc he pr(ess$ sev]al ( ! nuns ( ! ,holy ,family1 = :om he _h procur$ ! indulg5ces at ,rome1 & he assi/$ at ! dea?b$ ( _! fir/ rev4 "m e>ly 9 #ahfd4 #dhc ,,*apt] ,,xix4 ,trials ,& ,crosses4 ,! days ( ! religi\s life ( ,fa!r ,ignatius might be numb]$ by 8 trials & crosses4 ,x 0 n t a goodly %>e fell to him1 z became 8 great hol9ess2 b he happ5$ to be s v ke5ly tri$1 t :at g5]ally assuages ! bitt]ness ( ord9>y trials s]v$1 by a special disposition ( ,provid5ce1 to make 8 ! m gall+4 ,8 trials 7 multipli$ 9 _! infliction2 ! fri5ds to :om he might unbur!n himself 7 (t5 _! unconsci\s cause2 & ! rem$ies propos$ = 8 com=t w\ld be g5]ally an aggravation ( 8 suff]+s4 ,he _h an abid+ notion ( 8 be+ alone & ab&on$1 :i* foll[$ him l a %ad[1 ev5 unto ! grave4 ,?is feel+ arose f 8 _s ( zeal4 ,he burn$ to be do+ m & m = ,god's glory e day1 & s\ght to communicate to o!rs "s sp>ks ( ! flames t consum$ himself4 ,8 projects = c>ry+ out 8 ideas seldom met ! cordial approval ( sup]iors1 & :5 he receiv$ su* sanction1 x 0 only aft] 8 s*emes _h be5 consid]ably ton$ d[n4 ,?is re/ra9t he _h always to be>4 ,:5 8 plans 7 tol]at$1 or ev5 approv$1 he c\ld n f9d "o to take !m up z w>mly z he wi%$4 ,9 fact1 he f\nd no second4 ,ca?olics h an in/9ctive av]sion to any?+ t we>s ! appe>ance ( novelty 9 _! devotions4 ,fa!r ,ignatius's plans = ! sanctification ( ,irel&1 ! conv]sion ( ,engl&1 & ! p]fection all %\ld t5d to1 7 v good ?+s4 ,no "o c\ld h ! lea/ objection to !m2 b1 someh[1 e "o c\ld n see 8 way to work+ !m out4 ,:5 #dhd ,fa!r ,ignatius propos$ ! means he int5d$ to adopt1 ! old ,ca?olic %rugg$ 8 %\ld]s z if he _h he>d a tem]>i\s proposition4 ,x 0 new2 ! good old bi%op t gave 8 life = 8 flock1 or ! sa9tly prie/ he _h li/5$ to f *ildhood1 nev] propos$ su* a ?+4 ,he nev] read x 9 8 books ( piety1 & ?\gh x seem$ v good1 x did n g d[n ) him4 ,he li/5$ to ! holy ,passioni/1 because he rev]5c$ him2 b he nev] enc\rag$ 8 zeal ) m ?an a cold ass5t4 ,fa!r ,ignatius f\nd ?is want ( correspond5ce to 8 sugge/ions 9 e p]son ev5 8 own bre?r5 9 religion fail$ to be ( accord ) him4 ,he 0 p]petually speak+ ^u 8 fav\rite topics1 & nev] seem$ satisfi$ ) ! "w ( 8 fell[-lab\r]s if !y did n take up 8 ideas4 ,he (t5 drew d[n ^u himself sev]e animadv]sions on acc\nt ( ?is /ate ( m9d4 ,:5 fa!rs return$ to ! retreat1 tir$ & we>i$ aft] a numb] ( missions1 !y felt x r h>d to be told t !y _h done v little1 because !y _h n set ab\t _! "w 9 8 way4 ,he w\ld be told v %>ply t !y %\ld wi% to see :at he _h done himself2 t 8 *im]ical notions look$ well on pap]1 or s\nd$ nicely 9 talk2 t !re 0 a sur] way ( guid+ p to heav5 ?an talk+ !m into fancies beyond _! compreh5sion4 ,^! rem>ks only s]v$ to br+ out ! virtue & humility ( ! sa9tly man4 ,he became sil5t at once1 or turn$ ! conv]sation into ano!r *annel4 ,he _h a /ill sev]] trial 9 ?is po9t4 ,he v frequ5tly attribut$ ! caution ( 8 sup]iors to want ( zeal1 & us$ to lecture !m )\t human respect on :at he ?\ght to be _! duty4 ,on "o occasion he w5t s f> z to compla9 ( ?is to ,c>d9al ,wiseman2 b ! explanation 0 s satisfactory t he gave expression to diff]5t s5tim5ts = ! future4 ,:5ev] !y spoke positively1 he imm$iately acquiesc$1 & 0 mo/ exact 9 c>ry+ out _! injunctions4 ,8 zeal 0 unb\nd$1 & "o ( 8 sup]iors always said3 ,fa!r ,ignatius w become a sa9t by ! v ?w>t+ ( 8 plans4 ,if he _h n ! virtue ( submitt+ 8 judgm5t1 x is h>d to #dhe say into :at extravagances he might ru%4 ,?is "o trial 0 ! /aple ( 8 religi\s life = m ?an ?irty ye>s4 ,we %all n[ give a few in/ances f 8 lett]s1 & f anecdotes record$ ( him1 to %[ ! _s ) :i* he bore ?is & k9dr$ trials & crosses4 ,9 #ahec he receiv$ a v sev]e lett] f "o ( our ,belgian fa!rs1 :o is 9 high repute = le>n+ & virtue4 ,he =w>d$ ! lett] to ,fa!r ,eug5e1 :o 0 !n ,prov9cial1 accompani$ by ^! rem>ks3-- ,i ?\ght ( answ]+ ! enclos$ lett] f ,fa!r ---- at once1 be=e s5d+ x to y\r ,pat]nity2 b1 on look+ x ov] aga91 ,i h *ang$ my m9d4 ,! rule :i* ,i make = myself is1 to m9d :at my sup]iors say on ?is matt] & ! conv]sion ( ,engl&1 & to *>ge !m to /op my proce$+s if !y disapprove ( !m4 ,i %all take :at !y say z com+ f ,god1 :o has a "r to dispose ( all s\ls1 & :o may judge t ! "t = grace 9 ,engl& is n come1 or nev] has to come4 ,besides1 !y are ! prop] judges :e!r my proce$+s are correct 9 toto or 9 "p4 ,y\r ,pat]nity has lately express$ y\r m9d ^u ! matt]1 & ,i h no scruple on ! subject2 b x is well y %\ld "k :at o!rs feel4 ,i beg y to take ?is lett] f ,fa!r ---- z k9dly meant1 &1 ) me1 to be ?ankful = x4 ,ano!r to 8 ,prov9cial3-- ,) reg>d to ! pr9cipal topic ( y\r ,pat]nity's lett]1 ,i w fir/ ?ank y1 & ?ank ,god t ,i am ?\ght wor?y to be spok5 & writt5 to1 )\t dissimulation or res]ve1 ( :at p ?9k ( me4 ,if ,i make use ) dilig5ce ( _! rem>ks1 ,i %all be able to ga9 gr\nd 9 ! e/eem ( ,god1 &1 p]haps1 also 9 m5's e/eem2 b t is n ( consequ5ce4 ,n[1 ,i suppose x w\ld be be/ n to h said s mu* 9 explanation ( my int5tions 9 "t pa/2 & c]ta9ly ,i h said ?+s :i* 7 vex+ 9 ! c\rse ( ^! explanations4 ,x is no ju/ification ( ?is to allege t y\r ,pat]nity's /yle ( writ+ admonitions & repro(s is m sev]e ?an t ( "s p]sons1 because ,i ought to receive #dhf all ) joy4 ,b ! cutt+ tone ( "s ( y\r lett]s excites me to answ] m or less 9 a cutt+ tone on my side1 & ,i h giv5 way to ?is temptation4 ,x appe>s to me1 x w\ld be bett] if ) me & o!rs y\r tone 0 n s cutt+4 ,b ,god s appo9ts x = u1 & s ,i _h bett] pref] 8 judgm5t to my own1 & p]sev]e correct+ myself1 till ,i c answ] cutt+ lett]s ) ! same g5tle1 affectionate language z ,i might ! milde/ ones4 ,9 ?is way ,i %all be ! greate/ ga9]4 ,s ,i w conclude ) leav+ x to y\r ,pat]nity to decide 9 :at tone y w correct me--only begg+ t y w n omit ! correction :5 y see me 9 ! wrong1 & t y w inflict x1 = *>ity's sake1 at ! risk ev5 ( suff]+ pa9 f my ha/y & improp] answ]s1 :i* ,i _c expect to correct at once1 ?\gh ,i w try to d x4 ,w y let me meet y at ! /ation :5 y pass ?r\gh ,london1 & accompany y to ! /ation = ! ,dov] ,railway8 ,9 ano!r lett]1 he writes3-- ,i am frequ5tly assail$ ) black d\bts ab\t ! prud5ce ( all my proce$+s2 b ^! pass by1 & ,i g on aga9 ) bright] spirits ?an ev]1 &1 9 ! end1 ,i am a/oni%$ h[ ,provid5ce has c>ri$ me cle> ( dang] & p]plexities :5 !y h ?reat5$ me ! mo/4 ,i tru/ x w be s n[4 ,i beg y\r ,pat]nity w write to me aga9 :at y decide ab\t ,/4 ,wilfrid's functions1 & tell me :at ,i c d by writ+ lett]s or o!rwise4 ,i feel bett] qualifi$ to d :at ,i am told1 ?an to give advice :at o!rs %\ld d4 ,z may be se5 f "s ( ! lett]s introduc$ above1 ,fa!r ,ignatius _h to endure trials f ! want ( sympa?y ) 8 ways1 9 _m ( ! ,engli% conv]ts4 ,"o celebrat$ conv]t w5t s f> z to prohibit 8 speak+ ( ! conv]sion ( ,engl& to any ( ! memb]s ( a community ( :i* he 0 ,sup]ior4 ,ano!r us$ to tell him t ,engl& 0 already damn$1 & t x 0 no use pray+ = x4 ,a ?ird treat$ him to "s %>p cuts ab\t ! "w ( 8 little #dhg missions1 :5 answ]+ an application ( ,fa!r ,ignatius to give "o 9 8 p>i%4 ,^! & _m o!r crosses ( ! l nature1 he us$ to compla9 ( ) deep feel+ among 8 fell[ religi\s4 ,x is rem>kable t ^? :o cross$ him _h great respect = 8 hol9ess1 &1 v likely1 _! opposition proce$$ f n giv+ him cr$it = mu* prud5ce4 ,an incid5t t happ5$ to him 9 "o ( 8 j\rneys 9 ,irel& w give an idea ( h[ he bore humiliations4 ,he 0 walk+ to "o ( ! pr9cipal t[ns 9 ,tipp]>y1 & a vehicle ov]took him on ! road4 ,! man 9 ! c> took compassion on ! poor old prie/1 & ask$ him to take a lift4 ,fa!r ,ignatius took 8 seat at once2 be=e !y _h proce$$ f> toge!r1 8 companion p]ceiv$ t he spoke 9 an ,engli% acc5t1 & began to d\bt 8 be+ a prie/4 ,!re _h be5 "s ugly r[s 9 ! t[n1 lately1 on acc\nt ( a gang ( s\p]s t infe/$ x1 & x /ruck ! good t[nsman t 8 waggon 0 c>ry+ a v]itable s\p]4 ,:at1 ?\ght he1 if ! neighb\rs %\ld see me c>ry+ su* a preci\s c>go8 ,&1 )\t ask+ or wait+ = an explanation1 he unc]emoni\sly told ,fa!r ,ignatius to get d[n1 = he suspect$ he wasn't ( ! "r sort4 ,fa!r ,ignatius compli$ at once1 )\t ! lea/ murmur4 ,:5 ! man 0 ab\t a mile ahead ( 8 late fell[-travell]1 & c\ld n /ifle ! remorse occasion$ by 8 ha/y leave-tak+1 he resolv$ to turn back & cate*ise him4 ,! result satisfi$ him1 & ! good fa!r 0 invit$ to take a seat a second "t4 ,to atone = 8 almo/ unp>donable crime1 z he ?\ght x1 ! man invit$ him to /ay at 8 h\se = ! night1 z x 0 !n late4 ,fa!r ,ignatius said he 0 due at ! prie/'s h\se1 b 9 case he f\nd nobody up !re1 he %\ld be happy to avail himself ( 8 fri5d's hospitality4 ,!y p>t$ company 9 ! t[n2 ,fa!r ,ignatius w5t to ! prie/'s1 & ! o!r to 8 home4 ,!y 7 all 9 b$ 9 ! presbyt]y1 & no answ] 0 return$ to ! repeat$ knocks & r+s ( ! b5ight$ travell]4 ,he w5t to ! fri5d's h\se1 b f\nd !y1 too1 7 gone to b$4 ,no ^w 0 left ab\t #dhh ,fa!r ,ignatius1 & 8 /range acc5t made ! h\sewife refuse him admittance4 ,he w5t (f )\t say+ a ^w 9 explanation4 ,! man be?\ght himself %ortly aft]1 & s5t mess5g]s to seek him1 :o ov]took him outside ! t[n1 walk+ (f to ! next1 :i* he expect$ to rea* be=e morn+4 ,ano!r "t he und]took ! f\ndation ( a conv5t 9 ,/af=d%ire4 ,) 8 usual indiff]5ce 9 matt]s temporal1 he made no mat]ial provision :atev] = ! reception ( ! si/]s1 except a bleak1 unfurni%$ h\se4 ,! rev]5d "m came1 ) ?ree or f\r si/]s1 & 0 r disconc]t$ at :at %e f\nd be=e !m4 ,fa!r ,ignatius 0 expect$ 9 a day or two1 & z ! "t ( 8 arrival approa*$1 ! rev]5d "m w5t into ! reception-room1 & !re sate-- ,a sull5 dame1 ,nurs+ h] wra? to keep x w>m4 ,fa!r ,ignatius got a v hot reception4 ,! lady scold$ him he>tily = 8 c>elessness1 & descant$ mo/ eloqu5tly on ! wants & grievances %e _h to endure s9ce h] arrival4 ,he repli$ calmly t x 0 n 8 fault1 t t dep>tm5t ( ! proce$+s devolv$ on ! p>i% prie/4 ,?is only fir$ h] ! m--,:y didn't he tell ! p>i% prie/8 ,he !n wait$1 quietly /&+ until %e _h exhau/$ h] /ock ( abuse2 :]eupon he ask$ if %e _h done1 & on receiv+ a nod 9 ! affirmative1 he said3 ,oh1 well1 ,i "k h[ ,i mu/ approa* y\r lady%ip 9 future1 ,i mu/ make ?ree b[s 9 ! ,turki% fa%ion4 ,s say+1 he b[$ ne>ly to ! gr\nd1 retreat$ a /ep & b[$ aga91 a ?ird /ep backw>ds br\ght him to ! door ( ! ap>tm5t1 & :5 he _h b[$ /ill deep] ?an be=e1 he /ood up /raight1 took out a purse ) "s sov]eigns 9 x1 & spun x to ! corn] ( ! room 9 :i* ! good nun sat petrifi$ ) a/oni%m5t3--,take t n[1 & x may calm y a bit1 0 ! good morn+ he bid h]1 z he clos$ ! door aft] him1 & w5t 8 way4 ,! tongue ( sl&] assail$ him aga9 ! la/ ye> ( #dhi 8 life4 ,we w give ! occurr5ce 9 ! words ( ! only "o to :om ! rev]5d "m told x 9 confid5ce4 ,fa!r ,ignatius himself nev] spoke ( x4 ,z our de> ,"l lov$ him mu*1 he wi%$ to try him z he _h tri$ ! de>e/ & be/-belov$ ( 8 s]vants4 ,!re=e he p]mitt$ t 8 "* %\ld be assail$ 9 ! mo/ vile mann] by "o :o1 ?r\gh mi/ak5 zeal1 gave out ! mo/ injuri\s ins9uations reg>d+ our de> fa!r & ! late rev]5d "m4 ,:5 ,fa!r ,ignatius he>d ( x1 he s5t = ! rev]5d "m to exhort h] to be> ! calumny ) love & resignation4 ,9 speak+ to h] he said t ,god _h ask$ all ( him1 & he _h freely giv5 all b 8 good "n1 & t he 0 ready n[ to (f] z x _h pleas$ ,god to ask = x2 = all belong$ to ,him & he ?ank$ ,him = leav+ him no?+4 ',w y n4' he cont9u$1 'd ! same8 ,d y n see t ,god is ask+ y = ! de>e/ ?+ y c give8 ,give x1 !n1 freely1 & ?ank ,him = tak+ x1 = don't y see t by ?is y are resembl+ ,him m closely8 ,besides1 ,he has p]mitt$ ?is to happ51 & if we d n give up our good "n1 :i* already belongs to ,him1 *e]fully & will+ly1 ,he w take x1 9 spite ( u1 & we %all lose ! m]it ( our (f]+4 ,h[ fooli%1 !re=e1 is x to g aga9/ ,god6 ,let u resign ourselves unres]v$ly into 8 h&s4 ,h[ev]1 to remove any sc&al t might foll[1 & to %[ ?is good prie/ t ,i h no ill-feel+ aga9/ him1 ,i w g & visit him on fri5dly t]ms4' ,& s he did4 ,besides casual attacks ( illness br\ght on by 8 want ( c>e or great lab\rs1 he suff]$ dur+ ! latt] "p ( 8 life f *ronic ailm5ts4 ,8 he>t (t5 tr\bl$ him1 & m$ical m5 told him t he w\ld v likely die ( disease ( ! he>t4 ,he _h an ulc] 9 "o ( 8 ancles = a numb] ( ye>s1 & 0 (t5 oblig$ to keep 8 b$ on acc\nt ( x4 ,no "o ev] he>d him compla91 & yet 8 suff]+s mu/ h be5 v acute4 ,we nev] rem>k$ him rejoice s mu* ov] ?is pa9ful sore1 ?an :5 "o ( ! fa!rs1 :o respect$ him mu*1 & #dij want$ to te/ 8 mortification1 became a ,job's com=t]4 ,he said3 ,y des]ve to be lame1 ,fa!r ,ignatius1 y made su* use ( y\r feet 9 ! days ( y\r danc+ & sport+1 t ,almighty ,god is puni%+ y n[1 & ! in/rum5ts ( y\r pleasure are aptly turn$ into in/rum5ts ( pa94 ,he said x 0 q true1 & t he believ$ s himself1 & t 8 only wi% 0 t he might n lose a p>ticle ( ! m]it x w\ld br+ him1 by any k9d ( compla9t on 8 "p4 ,he got a rupture 9 #ahfc1 & he simply rem>k$1 ,i h made ano!r /ep d[n ! hill to-day4 ,:il/ lab\r+ "u a complication ( suff]+s he nev] abat$ "o jot ( 8 r\nd ( duties1 ?\gh reque/$ to d s by 8 subjects4 ,he 0 ,sup]ior1 & ex]cis$ 8 privilege by do+ m ?an any o!r in/ead ( sp>+ himself4 ,he did n take m re/ nor divide 8 lab\rs ) 8 companions4 ,dur+ ! "t ( 8 rector%ip 9 ,sutton1 he us$ to prea* & s+ mass aft] he>+ confessions all morn+2 att5d sick calls1 prea* 9 "s di/ant *apel 9 ! ev5+1 return at elev5 o'clock1 p]haps1 & say 8 (fice1 & be ! fir/ up to mat9s at two o'clock aga94 ,! only ?+ t seem$ to pa9 him 0 a k9d ( holy envy4 ,he us$ to say to ! "y prie/s3 ,oh1 h[ well x is = y t are "y & buoyant1 ,i am n[ /iff & old1 & mu/ h b a %ort "t to lab\r = ,almighty ,god2 /ill ,i hope to be able to "w to ! la/4 ,?is 0 8 ord9>y disc\rse ! v ye> he di$1 & ! "y fa!rs 7 mu* /ruck by ! co9cid5ce betwe5 8 wi%es & _! completion4 ,fa!r ,ignatius ,paoli1 ! ,prov9cial1 gave ! cook ord]s to take special c>e ( ! indefatigable worn-out ,rector4 ,he 0 n to he$ ! fa/s ( ! ,rule1 or at lea/ to give ! ,sup]ior ! full supply ( meagre diet4 ,fa!r ,ignatius took ! indulg5ce ?ankfully = two or ?ree days aft] return+ f a mission2 b :5 he saw a bett] portion s]v$ up = himself (t5] ?an 0 cu/om>y = ! o!r mission>ies1 he remon/rat$ ) ! bro!r cook4 ,next day he 0 s]v$ 9 ! same mann]1 he !n gave a prohibition1 & at la/ scold$ him4 #dia ,! good bro!r !n told him t he 0 only c>ry+ out ! ,prov9cial's ord]s4 ,fa!r ,ignatius 0 sil5t1 b1 aft] d9n]1 po/$ (f to ! doctor1 & made him give a c]tificate ( good heal? & ability to fa/1 :i* he =w>d$ to ! ,prov9cial4 ,fa!r ,prov9cial did n wi% to d5y him ! opportunity ( acquir+ great] m]it1 &1 at ! same "t1 he w\ld prolong s valuable a life4 ,to save bo? ends he plac$ him "u ! ob$i5ce1 z f> z reg>d$ 8 heal?1 ( "o ( ! prie/s ( 8 community1 :om he /rictly obey$ 9 ?is matt] !nce=w>d4 ,once he w5t on a sick-call 9 v wet wea!r1 & ei!r a cramp or an accid5t made him fall into a dirty sl\gh1 :]e he 0 wett$ ?r\gh & cov]$ ) mud4 ,he came home 9 ?is /ate1 & f9d+ a fri5d ( 8 at ! h\se1 :o m or less fell into 8 way ( ?9k+1 he began to conv]se ) him4 ,! good fa!r began to speak ( ! conv]sion ( ,engl&1 & sat 9 8 wet clo!s = a c\ple ( h\rs1 & likely w\ld h /ay$ long]1 s ?or\ghly 0 he engross$ ) 8 fav\rite topic1 if "o ( ! religi\s _h n come 91 & fright5$ him (f to *ange g>m5ts by 8 surprise & appreh5sion4 ,he seem$ indiff]5t to cold2 he w\ld sit 9 8 cell1 ! colde/ day1 & write until 8 f+]s became numb$1 & !n he w\ld w>m !m by rubb+ 8 h&s toge!r r ?an all[ himself ! luxury ( a fire4 ,he w5t to give a retreat some:]e 9 midw9t]1 & ! room he _h to lodge 9 0 s expos$ t ! sn[ came 9 "u ! door4 ,"h he slept1 )\t b$ or fire1 = ! fir/ night ( 8 /ay4 ,x 0 ! ?\ghtlessness ( 8 ent]ta9]s t left him 9 ^! cold qu>t]s4 ,9 ! morn+ "s "o rem>k$ t v probably ,fa!r ,ignatius slept 9 ! dre>y ap>tm5t allud$ to4 ,a p]son ran d[n to see1 & !re 0 ! old sa9t amus+ himself by ga!r+ up ! sn[ t came into 8 room1 & mak+ little balls ( x = a kitt5 to run aft]4 ,! kitt5 & himself seem to h become fri5ds by hav+ slept toge!r 9 8 rug ! night be=e1 & bo? 7 disappo9t$ by ! intrusion ( ! wond]+ visitor4 #dib ,8 humility 0 z rem>kable to any "o :o knew him z 0 8 zeal2 & on ?is po9t also he 0 well tri$4 ,x is n g5]ally kn[n t 9 ! beg9n+ ( 8 ,passioni/ life he adopt$ ! cu/om ( pray+ be=e 8 s]mons t ,god's glory w\ld be promot$ by !m & himself be humiliat$4 ,at ! op5+ ( ,sutton ,*ur* 9 #aheb1 he 0 s5t = f ,london to prea* a gr& s]mon 9 ! ev5+4 ,a little be=e ! s]mon he 0 walk+ up & d[n ! corridor2 ! ,prov9cial met him & ask$ m 9 joke ?an o!rwise3 ,well1 ,fa!r ,ignatius1 :at are y ?9k+ ( n[8 ,i am pray+1 he repli$1 t if x be = ! glory ( ,god my s]mon may be a complete failure z f> z human eloqu5ce is conc]n$4 ,we may imag9e ! surprise ( 8 ,sup]ior at he>+ ?is extraord9>y answ]2 x is believ$ t ?is 0 8 g5]al practice to ! end4 ,contr>y to ! common notion t prevails among religi\s ord]s1 he wi%$ t ! ,ord] w\ld receive humiliations z well z himself4 ,he wi%$ x to come to glory by its humiliations4 ,on "o occasion1 he expect$ t ! newspap]s w\ld make a noise ab\t some?+ t might be int]pret$ z humiliat+ to ! community ( :i* he 0 ,sup]ior4 ,fa!r ,ignatius address$ ! community ne>ly 9 ^! words3 ,we %all h some?+ to ?ank ,god = tomorr[2 ! ,prote/ants w make a great noise 9 ! pap]s ab\t ?is affair1 & we mu/ be prep>$ = a full fea/ ( misrepres5tations4 ,let u ?ank ,god n[ 9 anticipation4 ,he 0 disappo9t$1 h[ev]1 z ! pap]s 7 cont5t ) a b>e notice ( ! matt]4 ,_m p]sons did n give him cr$it = great humility2 !y ?\ght 8 cont9ual quot+ ( himself1 & 8 read9ess to speak ab\t 8 do+s1 01 if n egotism1 at lea/ inconsi/5t ) pr(\nd humility4 ,we _c answ] ?is imputation bett] ?an by giv+ ,fa!r ,fab]'s description ( simplicity1 :i* e "o kn[s to be ! v "* ( g5u9e humility3-- ,b let u ca/ an eye at ! action ( simplicity 9 ! spiritual life4 ,simplicity lives always 9 a compos$ consci\sness ( its own dem]it & unwor?9ess4 ,x is #dic possess$ ) a con/ant s5se ( :at ! s\l is 9 ! sight ( ,god4 ,x kn[s t we are wor? no m ?an we are wor? 9 ,8 sight1 & :ile x nev] takes its eye (f t view ( self1 s x does n 9 any way seek to hide x f o!rs4 ,9 fact x desires to be ?is1 & no m ?an ?is1 9 ! eyes ( o!rs2 & x is pa9$ :5 x is m4 ,e neighb\r is1 z x 71 "o ( ,god's eyes1 multiply+ ,8 pres5ce2 & simplicity acts z if e "o saw u1 knew u1 & judg$ u z ,god does1 & x has no w\nd$ feel+ t x is s4 ,?us1 almo/ )\t direct ef=t1 ! s\l ( self-love is s n>r[$ t x has comp>atively little room = action2 al?\gh x nev] c be de/roy$1 nor its annoyance ev] cease1 except 9 ! sil5ce ( ! grave4 ,! *a9s ( human respect1 :i* 9 ! e>li] /ages ( ! spiritual life gall$ u s intol]ably1 n[ fall (f f u1 because simplicity has drawn u into ! uncl\d$ & unsett+ light ( ! eye ( ,god4 ,!re is no long] any hypocrisy4 ,!re is no good op9ion to lose1 because we "k we des]ve none1 & d\bt if we possess x4 ,we believe we are lov$ 9 spite ( our faults1 & respect$ because ( ! grace :i* is 9 u1 & :i* is n our own & no praise to u4 ,all diplomacy is gone1 = !re is no "o to circumv5t & no?+ to appropriate4 ,!re is no odi\s lay+ ourselves out = edification1 b an inevitable & sc>cely consci\s lett+ ( our light %9e be=e m5 9 su* an obvi\sly innoc5t & un9t5tional mann] t x is on t acc\nt !y glorify our ,fa!r :o is 9 ,heav54--,bless$ ,sacram5t1 ,book ,,ii41 c4 vii4 ,! secret by :i* ,fa!r ,ignatius arriv$ at ?is p]fect way ( receiv+ trials 0 8 ?ank+ ,god = ev]y?+4 ,:5 "s "o object$ to him t we c\ld n ?ank ,god = a trial :5 we did n feel grateful1 ,nev] m9d1 he w\ld say1 y take a hamm] to break a big /one2 ! fir/ /roke has no effect1 ! second seem+ly no effect1 & ! ?ird1 & s on2 b some:]e ab\t ! tw5tie? or hundr$? ! /one is brok51 & no "o /roke 0 heavi] ?an ! o!r4 ,9 ! same way1 beg9 to ?ank ,god1 no matt] ab\t ! feel+1 cont9ue1 #did & y w soon break ! h>de/ difficulties4 ,8 maxims & say+s on resignation w\ld fill a good-siz$ volume 7 !y collect$ toge!r4 ,we %all conclude ?is *apt] ) "o pick$ by *ance f 8 lett]s3 ,9 trials & crosses we are l a sick *ild1 :5 its "m wants x to take "s disagreeable m$ic9e4 ,! *ild kicks & screams & sprawls1 & spits ! m$ic9e 9 its "m's face4 ,t is j :at we d :5 ,god s5ds u crosses & trials4 ,b1 l ! "m1 :o w p]sev]e 9 giv+ ! m$ic9e until ! *ild has tak5 en\gh ( x1 ,god w s5d u crosses & trials until we h suffici5t ( !m = ! heal? ( our s\ls4 #die ,,*apt] ,,xx4 ,=e%ad[+s ,& ,dea?4 ,fa!r ,ignatius1 = "s mon?s be=e 8 dea?1 _h a k9d ( s5sation t 8 dissolution 0 ne>4 ,he paid _m la/ visits to 8 old fri5ds1 &1 9 arrang+ by lett] = ! great] numb] ( fly+ visits1 he us$ g5]ally to say1 ,i suppose ,i %all n be able to pay _m m4 ,writ+ to ,mrs4 ,hut*9son 9 ,ed9burgh f ,/4 ,anne's ,retreat1 ,button1 9 ,m>*1 #ahfd1 he says3 ,:5 ,i wrote to y "s mon?s ago 9 answ] to y\r k9d lett]1 ,i ?9k ,i express$ a hope t ,i might aga9 h ! pleasure ( conv]sation ) y be=e ! clos+ ( our e>?ly pilgrimage4 ,x 0 a di/ant & unc]ta9 prospect !n4 ,n[ x is become a ne> & likely "o1 & ,i write to express my satisfaction at x4 ,he 0 he>d to say by _m t ! volume ( 8 j\rnal he 0 writ+ w\ld la/ him till ! end ( 8 life1 & x is a curi\s circum/ance t ! la/ page ( x is j half-writt51 & comes up to ,septemb] #ah1 less ?an a =tnight be=e 8 dea?4 ,our ,fa!r-,g5]al came f ,rome to make ! visitation ( ?is prov9ce 9 ,may1 #ahfd1 & ,fa!r ,ignatius act$ z int]pret] ?r\gh\t ! great] "p ( ! visit4 ,he 0 z "y z ev] 9 8 plans = ! conv]sion ( ,engl&1 sanctification ( ,irel&1 & advanc+ all to p]fection2 & ! approbation ( ! ,g5]al to ! ma9 drift ( 8 projects inflam$ him ) fre% ard\r4 ,a *>act]i/ic incid5t occurr$ dur+ ?is visit4 ,! ,fa!r-,g5]al 0 inspect+ ! books ,fa!r ,ignatius 0 oblig$ to keep1 z ,rector ( ,sutton1 & he f\nd !m r irregul>4 ,! entries 7 nei!r cle> nor ord]ly1 & x 0 next to an impossibility to obta9 any #dif exact notion ( ! income & exp5diture ( ! h\se4 ,! ,g5]al call$ ! ,rector to 8 room1 9 ord] to rebuke him = 8 c>elessness4 ,he began to lecture1 & :5 he _h said some?+ r w>m look$ at ,fa!r ,ignatius1 to see :at effect x might produce1 :51 to 8 surprise1 he f\nd t he _h nodd$ (f asleep4 ,he awoke up 9 an in/ant1 & complim5t$ ! ,fa!r-,g5]al on 8 pati5ce4 ,su* 0 ! indiff]5ce he _h rea*$ to by ! _m & cutt+ rebukes he _h borne ?r\gh life4 ,9 ,augu/1 #ahfd1 ,fa!r ,ignatius wrote a long lett] to ,fa!r ,ignatius ,paoli1 our ,prov9cial1 ab\t 8 do+s1 & he seem$ z fre% 9 !m z if he _h b j comm5c$ 8 crusade4 ,we %all give "o extract f ?is lett]3 ,i c\ld h>dly h ! _s to keep up ?is "w 7! sanctification ( ,irel&7 if x 0 n = aim+ at a result s greatly = ! glory ( ,god1 & work+ ) a resolution to conqu]4 ,h[ exce$+ly w\ld x add to my _s if ,i knew t our body 0 p5etrat$ ) ! same ?\ght1 & we ?us 7 support+ ea* o!r6 ,s late z ,septemb] #h he _h prep>$ a pap] embody+ 8 int5tions1 :i* he int5d$ to submit to ,roman au?ority4 ,ev] himself to ! la/4 ,be=e leav+ ! retreat = 8 raid z he call$ x1 9 ,scotl&1 he call$ all ! memb]s ( ! community1 "o by "o1 to conf]5ce2 he did ! same ) a conv5t ( nuns1 ( :i* he _h spiritual *>ge4 ,he gave !m all special advices1 :i* are n =gott51 & 8 la/ s]mon to 8 bre?r51 a day or two be=e he left1 on ! conv]sion ( ,engl& ?r\gh _! own sanctification1 0 s+ul>ly impressive4 ,x mov$ _m to te>s2 &1 ^? :o he>d him1 say x 0 ! mo/ ?rill+ ev] he>d f him on ! subject4 ,9 talk+ ov] "s matt] ( future importance ) 8 ,vic>1 be=e he left = ,scotl&1 he sudd5ly /opp$ %ort1 say+1 ,o!rs w see aft] ?is1 or "s su* words4 ,all ^? :o spoke ) him confid5tially recall "s dubi\s half-mean+ expressions t seem$ to come f an inw>d consci\sness ( 8 approa*+ end4 ,he 0 rem>k$ to be v sombre & reflective 9 8 #dig la/ missions1 b n[ & !n 8 usual pleasant mood w\ld %[ itself4 ,! ,rev4 ,m4 ,cond51 ! prie/ at ,c>tsdyke1 ,gre5ock1 9 ^: *ur* he gave a little mission f ,septemb] #ad? to ! #ah?1 writes z foll[s ab\t 8 /ay ) him3-- ,he prea*$ morn+ & ev5+1 he>d confessions daily1 pl$g$ #bjj "y teetotall]s1 & receiv$ ab\t #ad 9 volunt>y (f]+s1 = :i* he seem$ mo/ grateful4 ,?is mission1 he said1 0 8 #bdbnd ( ! k9d2 & ! numb] ( 8 teetotall]s1 s9ce he himself took ! pl$ge f ,fa!r ,ma!w 9 #ahdb1 0 #fj1jjj4 ,e mom5t ( 8 "t "h 7refection h\rs alone except$71 f #f a4m4 to #aj p4m41 0 employ$ ei!r 9 ! mission ex]cises1 or at 8 (fice1 or 9 pray]1 or 9 writ+ lett]s to arrange 8 future movem5ts4 ,he nev] re/$4 ,he seem$ to h v[$ all 8 "t to "s duty or o!r4 ,wood ,cottage 7late ! ,free ,*ur* ,manse1 b n[ ! prie/'s h\se 9 ,c>tsdyke7 re/s on an em95ce ov]look+ ! t[n1 h>b\r1 & bay ( ,gre5ock1 & is at a di/ance ( f five to t5 m9utes' walk f ,/4 ,laur5ce's *apel4 ,i notic$ t ! zigzag uphill walk fatigu$ him1 & ,i (f]$ to provide a conveyance2 b he w\ld n p]mit me1 'z he c\ld n read 8 (fice s well 9 ! c>riage z :5 walk+4' ,z he pass$ twice or ?rice daily to & f my h\se & ! *apel1 8 massive =m & mild mi51 8 habit half conceal$ by 8 cloak1 8 broad-brimm$ hat1 & 8 brevi>y 9 h&1 attract$ ! att5tion ( ! old & ! curiosity ( ! "y4 ,"o day1 "s ( ! latt] foll[$ him & ey$ him closely1 ?r\gh ! lattice-"w 9 front ( ! cottage1 until he _h f9i%$ 8 (fice 9 ! g>d54 ,he !n turn$ t[>ds ! y\ng/]s1 & rivet$ 8 looks on !m ) int5se int]e/ & ?\ghtfulness4 ,y might h imag9$ t !y nev] _h se5 8 l be=e1 & t he _h se5 *ildr5 = ! fir/ "t 9 8 long life4 ,at l5g? "o ( ! lads broke ! spell by obs]v+ #dih to ! o!rs 9 a subdu$ & d\bt+ tone1 ',a big ,hie-l&]6' ',a ,highl&]1' said ,fa!r ,ignatius1 turn+ to me2 '!y take my habit = an elongat$ kilt4' ,at d9n] he 0 always v happy & communicative1 t day 9 p>ticul>4 ',my religi\s habit1' said he1 'subject$ me to _m humor\s rem>ks be=e ! ,ecclesia/ical ,titles ,bill1 & to annoyances aft] x4 ,"o "t a boy w\ld cry out at me1 ,!re's ! ,great ,mogul2 ano!r1 ,!re goes ,rob9son ,crusoe4 ,t's ,napoleon1 a ?ird w\ld %\t2 :il/ a f\r?1 9 a /range1 cle>1 wild1 musical tone1 w\ld s+ out3 ,no1 t's ! devil himself4 ,b1 he cont9u$1 'no?+ half s %>p 0 ev] said ( me z ( a v tall1 la?-l ,oratorian1 :o /ood lean+1 "o day1 aga9/ a wall1 mus+ on some?+ or no?+4 ,"s ,london wags wat*$ him att5tively = "s "t1 &1 be+ divid$ 9 _! op9ions ab\t him1 "o ( !m at l5g? end$ ! dispute by obs]v+1 9 a dry & droll way1 ,:y1 t fell[ mu/ h gr[n by contract6' ,ev5 aft] 8 frugal refection1 ,fa!r ,ignatius w\ld nev] re/4 ,!n1 too1 he mu/ ei!r read 8 brevi>y1 or say 8 ros>y1 or write lett]s4 ,on ! day he f9i%$ 8 mission 7,sunday1 ,septemb] #ah71 ,i bes\ght him1 z he _h all[$ himself little or no sleep s9ce he began x1 be=e proce$+ to ,port-,glasg[1 to comm5ce a new mission !re t same ev5+1 to recl9e on ! s(a1 ev5 = half an h\r4 ',oh no6' said he2 ',i %all try to h my nap 9 ! c>riage1 on my way4' ,! di/ance f ,c>tsdyke to ,port ,glasg[ be+ no m ?an two or ?ree miles1 & !re be+ a toll-b> ab\t midway1 he c\ld h v little ( 8 nap4 ,dur+ 8 mission "h1 he rem>k$ repeat$ly1 bo? publicly & 9 private1 t 8 heal? 0 nev] bett]1 & 8 m9d nev] cle>]4 ,he promis$ himself yet tw5ty ye>s to "w = ! conv]sion ( ,engl&1 ! sanctification ( ,irel&1 & ! unity ( all 9 ! fai?4 ,might he n live to see ?is realiz$8 ,tw5ty ye>s might #dii d x1 & 7 n 8 physical & m5tal p[]s fre% en\gh8 ,b1 ) all ?is hope ( he>t & s\l1 ,i c\ld1 n[ & !n1 notice a %ade ( appreh5sion pass+ ov] 8 c\nt5ance1 & he>1 n )\t te>s1 8 humble1 b e>ne/ self-reproa*es at 8 inability to 'bright5 up4' ,! mann] 9 :i* he did ?is %[$ me pla9ly t he _h a /rong pres5tim5t ( 8 approa*+ end4 ,my cottage be+ at "s di/ance f my *apel1 ! bi%op _h all[$ me to fit up 9 my h\se a little oratory1 :]e ,i might keep ! ,bless$ ,sacram5t1 & say mass occasionally4 ,by ! "t t ,fa!r ,ignatius _h conclud$ 8 mission1 ,i _h complet$ my oratory1 & ask$ him to bless x4 ',"u :at title8' he ask$4 ',"u t ( ,our ,lady ( ! ,sev5 ,dolors1 ?is 7,sunday1 ,septemb] #ah7 be+ t fe/ival ( h]s1' ,i repli$4 ,fa!r ,ignatius became sil5t & absorb$ = a consid]able "t & !n said3-- ',beautiful title6 & appropriate6 ,"h are ! /ations ( ! ,cross6 ,& ?is is ! ,fea/ ( ! ,sev5 ,dolors6 ,beautiful title6' ',?is1' he cont9u$1 'rem9ds me ( :at ,i once read ( ,/4 ,?omas ( ,cant]bury4 ,:5 pass+ = ! la/ "t ?r\gh ,france to ,engl&1 he 0 ask$1 by a g5tleman :o ent]ta9$ him1 to bless a little oratory :i* might be a memorial ( 8 visit4 ,"u :at title8 ask$ ! ,ar*bi%op4 ,i %all leave ! selection to y\r grace1 said ! ho/4 ,well !n1 rejo9$ ! ,ar*bi%op1 let x be to ! fir/ ,engli% m>tyr4 ,he 0 himself ! fir/ m>tyr4 ',our ,lady ( ,dolors6' ,beautiful ,title6 ,i am a ,passioni/4 ,"h are ! /ations ( ! ,cross2 & ?is is ! ,fea/ ( ! ,sev5 ,dolors1' repeat$ ,fa!r ,ignatius2 & aga9 he became absorb$ & sil5t1 s long t ,i ?\ght he want$ nev] to bless my little oratory4 ,he bless$ x1 h[ev]2 & n[ is x by m]e accid5t t on ?is1 ! eve ( ,/4 ,john ( ! ,cross1 ,fa!r ,ignatius's disciple & fri5d1 ,fa!r ,alban1 comes to bless ! oratory cross1 #ejj & set up ! little memorial tablet :i* ,i h prep>$ ) ! foll[+ inscription8-- ,,orate ,,pro ,,anima ,,rev ,,ssmi4 ,,patris ,,ignatii 7,,sp5c]7 ,,qui ,,die ,,octodecimo ,,septembris1 ,a4,d4 #ahfd4 ,,hoc ,,oratorium ,,sub ,,titulo ',b4 ,v4 ,,m>iae ,,de ,,septem ,,doloribus1' ,,b5$ixit4 ,r4,i4,p4 ,9 a lett] to ,fa!r ,joseph ab\t ?is "t1 ,fa!r ,ignatius says3-- ,i proce$ to say t ,i h two m moves fix$3 = ,sunday ! #ah?1 to ,port ,glasg[2 ,?ursday ! #bbnd1 to ,ca?olic ,*ur*1 ,ea/ ,%aw ,/reet1 ,gre5ock4 ,dur+ ! week foll[+ ,i %all susp5d mission>y "w1 & make my visit to ,mr4 ,montei?1 & re-comm5ce on ,sunday morn+1 ,octob] #bnd4 ,i h got two places to g to 9 ,scotl&1 ,lei? & ,portobello1 & ,i wi% to get "o m to g to fir/4 ,?is s5t5ce we put 9 italics1 z x seems to signify a cle> =ekn[l$ge ( 8 dea?4 ,?is "o o!r place he did get1 & x 0 ,coatbridge1 8 la/ mission4 ,8 lett]s1 aft] ?is1 are m confus$ ab\t 8 future2 x w\ld seem 8 cle> vision fail$ him4 ,at all ev5ts1 ?is mu* may be ga!r$ f 8 words1 t he knew = c]ta9 8 dissolution 0 ne>1 & v probably knew ev5 ! day4 ,!re is no?+ :atev] 9 8 plans = ! future to militate aga9/ ?is conclusion4 ,! mo/ def9ite is ! foll[+1 :i* we quote f 8 la/ lett] to ,fa!r ,prov9cial1 dat$ f ,coatbridge1 ,sept4 #bh3 ,i am go+ on ,saturday to ,lei?2 on ,?ursday1 ,oct4 #f1 to ,portobello2 on ,monday1 ,oct4 #aj1 to ,c>/airs 7,mr4 ,montei?'s71 = a visit & repose4 ,did he "k t repose 0 to be et]nal8 ,he kept to 8 fir/ arrangem5t ab\t ! visit2 b we mu/ he> some?+ ab\t 8 la/ little mission4 ,we subjo9 two acc\nts ( ?is mission4 ,! fir/ 0 s5t u by a g5tleman1 ,mr4 ,m',auley ( ,airdrie1 :o #eja att5d$ ! mission1 & ! next by ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,o',keefe1 ! prie/4 ,mr4 ,m',auley writes3 ,i 0 witness to 8 mission>y lab\rs = ! la/ five days ( 8 life 9 ?is _w4 ,on ,sunday1 ! #be? ,septemb]1 ,rev4 ,mi*ael ,o',keefe1 ,/4 ,patrick's ,ca?olic ,*apel1 ,coatbridge 7a l>ge village two miles f ,airdrie1 & eight f ,glasg[71 ann\nc$ to 8 flock t ,fa!r ,ignatius w\ld op5 a mission !re on ! foll[+ ,tuesday ev5+ at eight o'clock1 & close x on ,saturday morn+1 #a/ ,octob]4 ,accord+ly1 ! beautiful little *ur* 0 cr[d$ on ,tuesday at eight1 :5 ! sa9tly fa!r made 8 appe>ance & address$ ! p = upw>ds ( an h\r4 ,he gave !m a brief outl9e ( 8 conv]sion1 8 diff]5t visits to ,irel& & ! ,cont95t1 ! gr& objects he _h 9 view--namely1 ! conv]sion ( 8 c\ntry to ! ,ca?olic fai?1 ! fai? ( _! fa!rs2 z also1 ! conv]sion ( ,scotl& & ! sanctification ( ,irel&4 ,he !n %[$ ! p[] ( pray]1 & said t ! conv]sion ( ,great ,brita9 c\ld only be atta9$ by pray]4 ,he said ! sanctification ( ,irel& %\ld beg9 by root+ out ! vices & disord]s :i* prevail4 ,^!1 he rem>k$1 7 drunk5ness1 curs+1 & company-keep+1 & t !y w\ld =m ! subjects ( 8 disc\rses = ! ?ree foll[+ ev5+s4 ,he !n %[$ ! utility ( missions1 & m5tion$ t ?is 0 8 #bde?2 & clos$1 z he did on ! subsequ5t ev5+s1 by say+ ?ree ,hail ,m>ys = ! conv]sion ( ,engl&1 "o = ! conv]sion ( ,scotl&1 & "o = ! sanctification ( ,irel&4 ,ea* ( ! fir/ ?ree 0 foll[$ by1 ,help ( ,*ri/ians1 pray = u2 t = ,scotl& by1 ,/4 ,m>g>et1 pray = u2 & t = ,irel& by1 ,/4 ,patrick1 pray = u4 ,he also m5tion$ t he _h receiv$ f 8 ,hol9ess1 ,pope ,pius ,,ix41 an indulg5ce ( #cjj days = ea* ,hail ,m>y said = ! conv]sion ( ,engl&4 ,on ! foll[+ f\r days he said mass e morn+ at sev5 o'clock1 &1 on ! ?ree fir/1 he>d confessions f six o'clock 9 ! morn+ until elev5 at night1 ) ! exception ( ! "t requir$ = #ejb 8 devotions & meals4 ,on ,saturday morn+ he he>d two confessions be=e mass4 ,i 0 ! la/ he he>d1 & ,i tru/ ! fa!rly advice he !n gave me %all nev] be eradicat$ f my memory4 ,fa!r ,o',keefe writes3-- ,i am j 9 receipt ( y\r lett]1 & beg to in=m y t ,i h n words to express ! sorr[ ,i feel = ! sudd5 dea? ( ! good & holy ,fa!r ,ignatius4 ,deo gratias1 !re is "o m add$ to ! ,*ur* triumphant4 ,he rea*$ my h\se ab\t five o'clock on ! #bg? ult41 & left ?is on ,saturday morn+ at a qu>t]-pa/ n9e o'clock1 dur+ :i* "t he enjoy$ excell5t heal?4 ,he told me t he 0 go+ direct to ,lei?1 to op5 8 little mission !re on ,saturday night2 & !nce to ,portobello = ! same purpose1 aft] he _h done at ,lei?4 ,he also told me t1 aft] f9i%+ 8 mission at ,portobello1 he w\ld return home to ,/4 ,anne's ,retreat4 ,he int5d$ to pay a visit to ,mr4 ,montei? ?is week4 ,on ,tuesday1 ,w$nesday1 & ,?ursday nights he _h supp] at half-pa/ t5 o'clock1 & !n return$ to ! confessional until ab\t a qu>t]-pa/ elev54 ,on ,friday night he told me to def] supp] till elev52 yet1 late ?\gh x 01 he return$ aft] supp] to ! confessional1 & rema9$ !re until a qu>t]-pa/ twelve4 ,:5 he came 91 ,i said3 ',i am afraid1 ,fa!r ,ignatius1 y are ov]-ex]t+ y\rself1 & t y mu/ feel tir$ & fatigu$4' ,he said1 ) a smile3 ',no1 no2 ,i am n fatigu$4 ,!re is no use 9 say+ ,i am tir$1 =1 y "k1 ,i mu/ be at ! same "w to-night 9 ,lei?4' ,he retir$ to 8 room at half-pa/ twelve o'clock1 & 0 9 ! confessional aga9 at six o'clock 9 ! morn+4 ,he said mass at sev52 breakfa/$ at half-pa/ eight2 &1 z ,i h already said1 left ?is at a qu>t]-pa/ n9e = ! tra94 ,on see+ him1 aft] breakfa/1 9 8 secul> dress1 ,i rem>k$ t he look$ mu* bett] & y\ng] ?an 9 8 religi\s habit4 ,! rem>k caus$ him to laugh v he>tily4 ,x 0 ! only "t ,i saw him laugh4 ,he said3 ',i wi% to tell y :at ,fa!r ,?omas ,doyle said :5 he saw me 9 my secul> dress3 ,fa!r ,ignatius1 y look l a #ejc brok5-d[n old g5tleman4 ,& he enjoy$ ! rem>k v mu*4' ,! rema9d] ( 8 life is easily told4 ,he arriv$ at ,c>/airs ,junction at #aj4ce a4m42 came out ( ! tra91 & gave 8 luggage 9 *>ge ( ! /ation ma/]4 ,he !n w5t t[>ds ,c>/airs ,h\se1 ! resid5ce ( ,mr4 ,montei?4 ,!re is a long av5ue ?r\gh ! demesne = ab\t half a mile f ! /ation1 cross$ !n at "r angles by ano!r1 :i* leads to ! gr& entrance2 ?is av5ue ,fa!r ,ignatius w5t by4 ,he _h j pass$ ! rectangle1 & 0 com+ /raight to ! gr& entrance1 :5 he turn$ (f on a bye pa?4 ,he p]ceiv$ t he _h lo/ 8 way1 & ask$ a *ild :i* 0 ! "r "o4 ,he nev] spoke to mortal aga94 ,on a little corn] 9 ! av5ue1 j )9 sight ( ! h\se1 & ab\t a hundr$ paces f ! door1 he fell sudd5ly & yield$ up 8 _s into ! h&s ( 8 ,creator4 ,may we all die do+ ,god's "w1 & z well prep>$ z ,fa!r ,ignatius ( ,/4 ,paul6 #ejd ,,*apt] ,,xxi4 ,! ,obsequies ,( ,fa!r ,ignatius4 ,! div9e attribute ( ,provid5ce to :i* he 0 s fondly devot$ dur+ life guid$ him 9 8 la/ mom5ts4 ,he did n int5d to visit ,c>/airs be=e ! #aj? ( ,octob]1 b our ,"l1 :o disposes all ?+s sweetly1 _h orda9$ o!rwise1 by ! circum/ances4 ,! tra9 he came by 0 due at ! junction at #aj4ce1 & ! tra9 = ,ed9burgh w\ld n />t be=e #aa4ej4 ,he _h m ?an an h\r to wait1 & he ?\ght p]haps he might z well sp5d "p ( t "t at ,mr4 ,montei?'s z at ! ,railway ,/ation2 besides he c\ld get a fa/ tra9 to ,ed9burgh at #c4j1 :i* w\ld br+ him to ,lei? a few m9utes aft] six1 & ?is w\ld be "t en\gh1 z 8 mission 0 to comm5ce on ! next day1 ,sunday4 ,su* seems to h be5 ! simple comb9ation ( circum/ances t direct$ 8 /eps to ,c>/airs ,h\se1 z f> z human eye c see4 ,we _c b admire ! dispositions ( ,provid5ce2 _h he tak5 any o!r tra91 he might h di$ 9 ! railway c>riage1 or at a /ation4 ,h[ conv5i5t t he di$ )9 ! b\nd>ies ( ! demesne ( a fri5d by :om he 0 v5]at$1 & to ^: h\se he 0 always welcome6 ,& !n h[ rem>kable 0 t o!r circum/ance ( 8 be+ alone4 ,s]vants & workm5 7 pass+ up & d[n ! place ! :ole morn+1 b at ! mom5t ,god *ose to call 8 s]vant1 no human eye saw him1 & no h& 0 ready to assi/ him4 ,on measur+ ! respective di/ances f :]e he _h turn$ (f ! av5ue1 to :]e 8 body 0 f\nd1 & to ! h\se1 x 0 se5 t1 _h he gone on /raight1 he w\ld h #eje fall5 j on ! ?re%old4 ,x 0 ,god's w t angels in/ead ( m5 %\ld surr\nd 8 lonely b$ ( dea?4 ,he mu/ h arriv$ at ! spot :]e 8 body 0 discov]$ ab\t #aa o'clock4 ,a few m9utes aft]1 "o ( ! reta9]s 0 pass+ by1 & ran at once to ! h\se to give ! al>m t a prie/ lay dead at su* a "p ( ! av5ue4 ,mr4 ,montei?1 & ,mr4 ,edmund ,wat]ton1 :o 0 on a visit !re at ! "t1 7 go+ out to %oot4 ,!y laid d[n _! guns1 & w5t 9 ha/e to ! spot4 ,montei? did n recognize ! features2 !y 7 drawn toge!r by ! dea?-/roke4 ,!y se>*$ = some?+ to id5tify him4 ,:at 0 ! good man's surprise :5 he f\nd among ! pap]s ( ! deceas$ a lett] he _h writt5 himself to ,fa!r ,ignatius a few days be=e4 ,! tru? !n fla%$ across him4 ,x 0 no o!r ?an 8 own godfa!r1 8 con/ant fri5d & c\nsellor1 ! man :om he v5]at$ s mu*1 ,fa!r ,ignatius ! ,passioni/4 ,imm$iately1 a doctor 0 s5t =1 ! body1 :i* all n[ recogniz$1 0 br\ght to ! ne>e/ %elt]1 & e available means tri$ to re/ore consci\sness1 b to no effect4 ,m$ical exam9ation %[$ t he di$ ( disease ( ! he>t1 & 9 an in/ant4 ,! spot :]eon he lay bore ! impress ( 8 knee1 & ! brim ( 8 hat 0 brok5 by 8 sudd5 fall on ! left side4 ,z soon z !y 7 c]ta9 ( life be+ ext9ct1 ! body 0 br\ght into ! h\se1 ! luggage 0 s5t =1 a c(f9 0 provid$1 ! secul> dress 0 tak5 (f1 & ! corpse rob$ 9 ! religi\s habit4 ,! sacri/y 0 drap$ 9 black1 & two flick]+ tap]s %[$ ! mortal rema9s ( a pure & sa9tly s\l1 z !y lay !re 9 a k9d ( religi\s /ate = ! great] "p ( ?ree days4 ,telegrams 7 s5t imm$iately to our pr9cipal h\ses1 & to memb]s ( ! ,sp5c] family by ,mr4 ,montei?4 ,! %ock 0 great1 & n kn[+ ! mann] ( 8 dea? did n s]ve to make x ! less felt4 ,fa!rs ( ! ,ord] w5t f ! diff]5t retreats to ,c>/airs1 & arriv$ !re1 "s on ,sunday1 & "s on ,monday morn+4 ,^? :o w5t 7 /ruck by ! appe>ance ( ! corpse2 ! m>ble c\nt5ance nev] look$ s noble z 9 #ejf dea?1 & we look$ ) sil5t wond] on all t n[ rema9$ ( "o :om ! _w 0 n wor?y ( possess+ long]4 ,ab\t #aj o'clock a sad cortge 0 =m$1 & ! c(f9 0 c>ri$ by ! mo/ wor?y p]sons pres5t to ! tra9 t convey$ x to ,button4 ,e "o on he>+ ( 8 dea? appe>$ to h lo/ a special fri5d2 no "o c\ld lam5t1 = !y felt t he 0 happy2 few c\ld pray = him1 because !y 7 m incl9$ to ask 8 int]cession4 ,! greate/ respect & att5tion 7 %[n by ! railway (ficials all along ! r\te1 & special ord9ances 7 made 9 def]5ce to ! respect$ bur!n t 0 c>ri$4 ,lett]s 7 s5t to ! relatives ( ,fa!r ,ignatius by our ,fa!r ,prov9cial1 & !y 7 told :5 ! fun]al w\ld take place4 ,no "o came1 & ^? :o 7 sure to come 7 unavoidably prev5t$4 ,"l ,lucan _h n "t to come f ,we/ ,connaught1 & ,"l ,sp5c] 0 j !n 9 ,cop5hag54 ,8 reg>d = 8 rev]$ uncle1 & 8 k9dly _s1 w be se5 f ! foll[+ lett]1 :i* 0 publi%$ 9 ! newspap]s at ! "t1 & is ! mo/ graceful tribute paid to ! memory ( ,fa!r ,ignatius by any memb] ( 8 noble family4 ,d5m>k1 ,oct4 #af1 #ahfd4 ,rev4 ,sir1--,i 0 mu* %ock$ to he> ( ! dea? ( my excell5t uncle ,george4 ,i receiv$ ! sad intellig5ce la/ ,sunday1 & subsequ5tly receiv$ ! lett] :i* y _h ! goodness to write to me4 ,my abs5ce f ,engl& prev5t$ my do+ :at ,i %\ld h mu* wi%$ to h done1 to h att5d$ to ! grave ! rema9s ( my uncle1 if x _h be5 s p]mitt$ by y\r ,ord]4 ,i assure y t1 mu* z ,i may h diff]$ f my uncle on po9ts ( doctr9e1 no "o c\ld h admir$ m ?an ,i did ! beautiful simplicity1 e>ne/ religion1 & fai? ( my uncle4 ,= 8 ,god he r5\nc$ all ! pleasures ( ! _w2 8 dea?1 sad z x is to u1 01 z 8 life1 ap>t f ! _w1 b ) ,god4 ,8 family w respect 8 memory z mu* z ,i am sure y & ! bre?r5 ( 8 ,ord] d4 #ejg ,i %\ld be mu* oblig$ to y if y let me "k ! p>ticul>s ( ! la/ days ( 8 life1 & also :]e he is buri$1 z ,i %\ld l to place !m among family records at ,al?orp4 ,i v5ture to tr\ble y ) ^! que/ions1 z ,i suppose y w be able to furni% !m bett] ?an any "o else4 ,y\rs fai?fully1 ,,sp5c]4 ,! ev5+ be=e ! fun]al ! c(f9 0 op5$1 & ! body 0 f\nd to h already comm5c$ to decompose4 ,! toss+ ( ! long j\rney f ,scotl& & ! sudd5ness ( ! dea? caus$ ?is *ange to come on soon] ?an might be expect$4 ,a privileg$ few 7 all[$ to take a la/ l+]+ look at ! v5]able rema9s1 _m t\*$ ! body ) objects ( devotion1 & o!rs cut (f a few relics :i* _! piety valu$ 9 proportion to _! conception ( 8 sanctity4 ,at #aa o'clock on ,?ursday1 ,octob] #e?1 ! ,(fice ( ! ,dead comm5c$4 ,a requiem mass 0 celebrat$1 & ! fun]al oration prea*$ by ! ,"r ,rev4 ,dr4 ,ulla?orne1 ,"l ,bi%op ( ,birm+ham1 & p>ticul> fri5d ( ! deceas$4 ,we give ! foll[+ extracts f an acc\nt ( ! fun]al z giv5 by ! ,nor!rn ,press2 ! ,bi%op's s]mon is tak5 f ! ,weekly ,regi/]4 ,at elev5 o'clock ! solemn c]emonies comm5c$4 ,! *ur*1 :i* 0 cr[d$1 0 drap$ 9 black1 & ! c(f9 7on :i* 7 ! /ole & cap ( ! deceas$ nobleman7 recl9$ on a rais$ catafalque imm$iately outside ! sanctu>y rails4 ,on ea* side ( ! c(f9 7 ?ree wax-lights1 & ar\nd 7 rang$ seats = ! cl]gy 9 att5dance4 ,solemn ,(fice = ! ,dead 0 fir/ *ant$1 & among/ ! assembl$ cl]ics 7 ! foll[+3 ,! ,"r ,rev4 ,dr4 ,ulla?orne 7,"l ,bi%op ( ,birm+ham72 ,b5$ict9es3 ,"r ,rev4 ,dr4 ,bur*all 7,"l ,abbot ( ,we/m9/]71 ,v ,rev4 ,r4 ,b4 ,vaughan 7,prior ( ,/4 ,mi*ael's1 ,h]e=d71 ,v ,rev4 ,t4 ,cu?b]t ,smi? 7,prior ( ,/4 ,george's1 ,d[nside71 ,v ,rev4 ,p4 ,p4 ,&]son #ejh 7,prior ( ,/4 ,laur5ce's1 ,ample=?72 ! ,revds4 ,p4 ,a4 ,glassbrooke1 ,r4 ,a4 ,guy1 ,j4 ,p4 ,hall1 & ,brad%aw 7,r$emptori/s72 ! ,v ,rev4 ,canon ,wallwork1 ! ,rev4 ,fa!rs ,walmsley1 ,grim/one1 ,co/ello1 ,k]nane 7,ra9hill71 ,m4 ,duggan1 ,m4,r4 7,/4 ,joseph's1 ,liv]pool71 ,s4 ,wal% 7( ! new mission ( ,/4 ,john ! ,evangeli/1 ,bootle72 ,fa!r ,d\gall2 ,fa!r ,fi%]1 ( ,appleton2 ,fa!r ,o',flynn1 ( ,blackbrook1 ne> ,/4 ,hel5's2 & ! prie/s & religi\s ( ! ,ord] ( ,passioni/s1 :o 7 repres5t$ by memb]s ( ! ord] f ,france1 ,irel&1 & ,engl&4 ,a numb] ( nuns ( ! conv5t ( ! ,holy ,cross1 ,sutton1 occupi$ seats beside ! alt> ( ! ,bless$ ,virg91 & ) !m 7 ab\t tw5ty "y girls app>ell$ 9 :ite dresses & veils1 ) black b&s r\nd ! head1 & we>+ also black sc>fs4 ,:5 ! ,(fice = ! ,dead _h conclud$1 a solemn ,requiem ,mass 0 begun4 ,8 ,lord%ip ! ,bi%op ( ,birm+ham occupi$ a seat on a rais$ dais at ! ,gospel side ( ! alt>2 & ! prie/s :o celebrat$ ! ,sacr$ ,my/]ies 73--,celebrant--! ,v ,rev4 ,fa!r ,ignatius 7,paoli71 ,prov9cial ( ! ,ord] ( ,passioni/s 9 ,engl& & ,irel&2 ,deacon--! ,v ,rev4 ,fa!r ,eug5e1 ,fir/ ,prov9cial ,consult]2 ,sub-deacon--! ,v ,rev4 ,fa!r ,b]n>d1 ,second ,prov9cial ,consult]2 ,ma/] ( ! ,c]emonies--! ,v ,rev4 ,fa!r ,salvian1 rector ( ,/4 ,savi\r's ,retreat1 ,broadway1 ,worce/]%ire4 ,! mass sung 0 ! ,gregorian ,requiem1 & ! *oir 0 "u ! direction ( ! ,rev4 ,fa!r ,b]n>d9e 7( ,h>old's ,cross ,retreat1 ,dubl91 & =m]ly ( ,sutton74 ,imm$iately aft] ! conclusion ( ! ,holy ,sacrifice1 ! ,"r ,rev4 ,dr4 ,ulla?orne asc5d$ ! pulpit 7:i* 0 hung 9 black7 & prea*$ ! fun]al s]mon4 ,8 ,lord%ip1 :o 0 deeply affect$1 said3--,! wail+s ( ! *ant h gone into sil5ce1 ! cry ( pray] is hu%$ into secret aspiration1 & /illness reigns1 :il/ ,i lift my solit>y voice1 feel+1 nev]!less1 t x w\ld be bett] = me to weep ov] my own s\l ?an to essay to speak ! "* ( him :o is gone f ! mid/ ( u4 ,a c]ta9 oppression weighs ^u #eji my he>t1 & yet !re rises ?r\gh x a spr+ ( consolation :5 ,i ?9k ^u t /r5g? ( hol9ess :i* has borne him to 8 end2 :o1 if ,i am a ,religi\s1 0 my bro!r2 if a ,prie/1 he 0 ( ! ,holy ,ord] ( ,prie/hood2 b he 0 also1 :at ,i am n1 a mortifi$ memb] ( an in/itute devot$ to ! ,passion ( our ,"l1 :o bore conspicu\sly ^u him ! "* ( ! meekness & ! suff]+s ( 8 ,div9e ,ma/]4 ,my text lies b5ea? t pall4 ,= !re is all t ,dea? w ev] claim ( victory f him4 ,! silv] cord is brok51 & ! b[l ( life is 9 fragm5ts2 & yet ?is dea? is b ! r5d+ ( ! mortal frame t ?r\gh ! op5 door ! s\l may g =? to its et]nity2 ^u ! br9k ( :i* we /&1 gaz+ aft] ) our fai?1 & trembl+ = ourselves :il/ we ga9 a glimpse ( ! ,?rone ( ,maje/y1 on :i* sits ! ,god ( inf9ite purity1 ^: insuff]able light se>*es our frailty ?r\gh4 ,i w n v5ture to rec\nt a life :i* w\ld ask days ( spee* or volumes ( writ+1 b ,i w endeav\r at lea/ to po9t to "s ( ^? pr9ciples :i* animat$ t life1 & 7 its /ay z well z guidance4 ,= pr9ciples are l ! lum9>ies ( ,heav51 or l ! eyes t cov] ! w+s ( ! ,*]ubs t su/a9 ! ,*>iot ( ,god 9 ! vision ( ,eze*iel4 ,!y are lum9\s po9ts plant$ 9 ! mid/ ( our life1 :i* enable u to see :atev] we look ^u 9 a new light1 & to enhance ! sc5e ( our exi/5ce4 ,li/51 !n1 de>ly belov$1 & hang y\r att5tion on my voice1 :il/ ,i speak ( him :o 0 once call$ 9 ! _w ! ,hon\rable & ,rev4 ,george ,sp5c]1 a scion ( "o ( ! noble/ h\ses ( ! nobility ( ?is l&1 b :o himself pref]r$ to be call$ ,fa!r ,ignatius ( ,/4 ,paul1 ( ! ,congregation ( ,regul> ,cl]ics ( our mo/ ,holy ,r$eem]'s ,passion1 a "n by :i* he 0 lov$ by t5s ( ?\s&s ( ! poor ( ^! c\ntries1 & kn[n to ! ,ca?olics ( all l&s4 ,fa!r ,ignatius 0 born 9 ! la/ mon? ( ! la/ ye> ( ! la/ c5tury2 at ! "t :5 8 fa!r 0 ,fir/ ,"l ( ! ,admiralty4 ,br\ght up 9 ! lap ( luxury1 & encircl$ ) ^? social spl5d\rs t belong #eaj to our great families1 he 0 educat$ z mo/ ( our noble y\?s are2 s5t e>ly to ,eton1 & !nce to ,cambridge4 ,i w n /ay to trace 8 e>ly life4 ,9 8 tw5ty-second ye> he receiv$ ,anglican ord]s1 & 0 induct$ into ! liv+ t adjo9$ ! mansion ( 8 fa!rs1 :]e1 = sev5 ye>s1 he toil$ to dissem9ate to ^? ar\nd him :at light ( tru? _h ent]$ 8 own m9d4 ,he himself has record$ t he _h ab\t #hjj s\ls committ$ to 8 c>e4 ,& "h we beg9 to see ! op5+ ( t g5u9e purity & e>ne/ness 9 8 "* :i* he develop$ ) "t to su* p]fection4 ,8 simplicity ( s\l & passionate love ( tru? enabl$ him to see "s ( ! lead+ *>act]i/ics ( tru? 9 its objective nature4 ,he saw t tru? 0 "o1 & t ! ,*ur*1 :i* is ! depository & ! voice ( tru?1 mu/ ( necessity be "o4 ,he f\nd 8 p>i% divid$ by ! pres5ce ( ! sects ( ,unit>ians1 ,anabapti/s1 & ,wesleyans4 ,^! he s\ght out1 conv]s$ ) !m1 & discuss$ ) !m ! unity ( tru? & ! au?ority ( ! ,*ur*4 ,b ! m he urg$ !m ) 8 argum5ts ! m he f\nd t !y ?rew him back ^u himself1 =c+ him to see1 by ! aid ( 8 own s9c]ity & love ( tru?1 t he /ood ^u some?+ l ! self-same gr\nds :i* he assail$ 9 !m4 ,! v s9c]ity ) :i* he read ! ,gospel2 ! s9c]ity ) :i* he pray$2 ! s9c]ity ) :i* he /rove to p5etrate into ^? duties & responsibilities :i* !n appe>$ to him to be laid ^u 8 consci5ce2 & 8 s9c]e love ( s\ls1 drew 8 own s\l gradually & g5tly t[>ds ! "o broad horizon ( tru? & ! "o au?ority4 ,he _h already1 f read+ ! ,gospel1 det]m9$ on lead+ a life ( celibacy z ! mo/ pure & p]fect1 & to keep himself f ! _w = ! s]vice ( 8 ,div9e ,ma/]4 ,& :at effect t resolve _h 9 humbl+ 8 he>t & br++ d[n ! light & grace ( ,god into 8 _s1 he himself has told u 9 t n>rative ( 8 conv]sion :i* he drew up at ! reque/ ( a v5]able ,italian bi%op1 soon aft] 8 conv]sion4 ,! results1 ,i say1 he has told u2 he presumes n to po9t to any cause z 9 himself4 #eaa ,b :il/ yet p]plex$ betwe5 ! new light he 0 receiv+1 & ! resi/ance ( ! old op9ion :i* he _h inh]it$1 he receiv$ a lett] f an unkn[n h&1 invit+ him to exam9e ! f\ndations ( 8 fai?2 ?is l$ to correspond5ce1 & s to contact ) memb]s ( ! ,*ur*1 & ! errors :i* _h encompass$ him f 8 bir? disp]s$ by degrees1 until at la/ ! daylight dawn$ ^u him1 & grew on ev5 to mid-day1 & he hesitat$ n1 ev5 = "o week1 b clos$ 8 m9i/ry1 & ent]$ into ! ,*ur* ( ,god & ! fulness ( peace4 ,!n x 0 he f\nd t ! correspond5t :o _h awak5$ him to inquire 0 a lady1 :o1 conv]t$ be=e himself1 0 !n dy+ 9 a conv5t 9 ,p>is :i* %e _h b rec5tly ent]$2 & he hop$1 z he said1 to h an int]cessor 9 heav5 9 "o :o _h s f]v5tly pray$ = him on e>?4 ,no soon] _h ,fa!r ,ignatius ent]$ ! ,*ur* ?an he put himself ) all simplicity & ob$i5ce "u ! guidance ( ! v5]able prelate1 my pr$ecessor1 ,bi%op ,wal%1 :o s5t him to ,rome1 !re to ent] on a c\rse ( ecclesia/ical /udies4 ,9 #ahcj1 !re we f9d him 9 ! holy city1 imbib+ t ,apo/olic light1 & b5d+ himself ov] ! writt5 laws ( t tru? :i* 0 to fit him1 n only = ! prie/hood1 b also = a s+ul> call & an unprec$5t$ vocation4 ,fa!r ,ignatius 0 m>k$ out by ! ,provid5ce ( ,god = a special apo/le%ip1 & he _h some?+ ab\t him ( ! _s ( ! prophet & ( ! eye ( ! se]4 ,he pi]c$ 9 advance into ! "w to :i* ,god call$ him1 & !re 7 holy s\ls :o in/9ctively look$ to him z an in/rum5t = ! fulfill+ ( _! own anticipations4 ,!re 0 9 ,italy a ,passioni/ ,fa!r1 :o f 8 y\? _h _h writt5 9 8 he>t ! "w ( ,engl&'s conv]sion4 ,x _h be5 ! object ( all 8 ?\ghts1 & pray]s1 & hopes4 ,fa!r ,dom9ic _h mov$ all ! s\ls he c\ld ) k9dr$ ard\r = ?is "w4 ,& be=e !y _h ev] beheld ea* o!r1 ! he>ts ( ^? two m5 7 sweetly drawn toge!r4 ,let u he> :at ,fa!r ,dom9ic writes to an ,engli% g5tleman1 himself a conv]t1 ard5t = ! conv]sion ( 8 #eab c\ntry1 on ! day ( ,mr4 ,sp5c]'s fir/ s]mon 9 ,rome1 aft] be+ orda9$ deacon3--,on ?is day1 he writes1 on ?is day1 ! fea/ ( ! ,mo/ ,holy ,"n ( ,jesus1 ,mr4 ,sp5c] beg9s 9 ,rome 8 apo/olic m9i/ry2 to-day1 he makes 8 fir/ s]mon to ! ,roman p 9 ! *ur* ( ! ,engli%4 ,oh :at a =tunate comm5cem5t6 ,c]ta9ly t ought to be salut>y :i* comm5ces 9 ! "n ( ! ,savi\r4 ,oh1 h[ great are my expectations6 ,god1 )\t d\bt1 has n %$ s _m graces on t s\l to s]ve = 8 own pr(it alone4 ,i r believe ,he has done x 9 ord] t he might c>ry ! ,holy ,"n ( ,jesus be=e k+s1 & nations1 & ! sons ( ,israel4 ,mo/ sweet ,"n ( ,jesus1 be ?\ 9 8 m\? z oil p\r$ out1 :i* may s(tly & efficaci\sly p5etrate ! h>de/ m>ble4 ,?is 0 writt5 by a man :o _h nev] /epp$ on ,engli% soil1 ab\t "o :om he _h nev] se5 9 ! fle%1 b :om he felt to h "o common object 9 "o common _s ) himself4 ,b x 0 writt5 by a man 9 ^: he>t ,god _h writt5 9 grace ! words--,engl&'s ,conv]sion4 ,x 0 :il/ yet a ,deacon1 t ,fa!r ,ignatius 0 visit$ at ! ,roman ,college by a ,bi%op :o _h come to ,rome f ! f>!/ corn] ( ,italy1 :o on 8 s\l _h also ! impression t great conv]sions 7 9 /ore = ,engl&1 & :o ask$ t 8 eyes might be bless$ ) s r>e a spectacle z t ( a conv]t$ ,anglican m9i/]2 & x 0 at ! reque/ ( ! ,bi%op ( ,oppido1 = ! edification ( 8 flock1 to :om ! news _h rea*$1 t ,fa!r ,ignatius wrote ! n>rative ( 8 conv]sion2 ! translation ( :i* br+s u 9 view ( ano!r ( ^? rem>kable m5 :o 7 !n prep>+ !mselves = ent]+ on ! "w ( ! ,engli% mission1 = t translation 0 done 9 ,rome by ,dr4 ,g5tili4 ,x 0 "u ! direction ( ,c>d9al ,wiseman1 !n ,presid5t ( ! ,engli% ,college1 t ,fa!r ,ignatius 0 pursu+ 8 /udies1 :51 at ! end ( two ye>s1 he broke a blood-vessel1 & 0 summon$1 9 consequ5ce1 #eac by ,bi%op ,wal%1 to ha/5 8 ord9ation & return to ,engl&4 ,c>d9al ,wiseman arrang$ t he %\ld receive ! ord] ( prie/hood f ! ,c>d9al ,vic> 9 t v ,*ur* ( ,/4 ,gregory1 f :i* ! ,apo/les ( ,engl& _h be5 s5t to our %ores1 & t he %\ld say 8 fir/ mass on ! ,fea/ ( t ,v5]able ,b$e1 ^: "n is s intimately entw9$ ) ! lit]ature1 ! religion1 & ! hi/ory ( ,engl&4 ,h[ ,fa!r ,ignatius himself view$ ^! signs & 8 approa*+ ord9ation1 he himself express$ 9 a lett] to ,fa!r ,dom9ic1 9 ^! t]ms3 ,t5 days ago ,i receiv$ ord]s f my ,bi%op1 ,dr4 ,wal%1 to proce$ to ,engl& )\t delay4 ,y "k ! value & security ( ob$i5ce1 & w agree ) me t ,i ought n to d\bt ( any?+4 ,! fir/ fe/ival day t pres5t$ itself = ord9ation 0 t ( ,/4 ,philip ,n]i4 ,judge1 !n1 :at 0 my joy :51 aft] t day _h be5 fix$ ^u1 ,i discov]$ t x 0 also ! ,fea/ ( ,/4 ,augu/9e1 ! fir/ ,apo/le ( ,engl&1 s5t by ,/4 ,gregory4 ,x seems to me t ,provid5ce wi%es to give me "s good om5s4 ,x is en\gh1 if ,i h fai? & humility4 ,( ! grace ( humility1 t virtue ( ! h]oic virtues :i* _h already tak5 possession ( 8 he>t1 ,i _c give y bett] pro( ?an 8 own commun+ ) ! he>t ( ,fa!r ,dom9ic1 :o _h h9t$ rum\rs ( 8 ris+ to ecclesia/ical dignities4 ,he writes 9 reply3 ,i c assure y x w\ld give me ! greate/ displeasure4 ,my pray] is t ,god w\ld grant me a life l t ( ,8 ,son & ! ,apo/les1 9 pov]ty & tribulations = ! ,gospel4 ,i mu/ submit1 if x be ,8 w to raise me to any high worldly dignity2 b x w\ld be to me ! same z to say t ,i am unwor?y ( ! heav5ly /ate1 :i* ,i long = ^u e>?4 ,jesus ,*ri/ s5t ! ,apo/les 9 pov]ty4 ,/4 ,francis ,xavi]1 ,/4 ,dom9ic1 & s _m o!r great mission>ies1 prea*$ 9 pov]ty1 & ,i wi% to d ! same1 if x be ! w ( ,god4 ,"h y behold ! he>t ( ?is ecclesia/ic1 s "y z yet 9 ! ,*ur*1 yet s mature 9 spiritual s5se4 ,on 8 return home1 he meets 8 de> fri5d ,fa!r ,dom9ic #ead face to face = ! fir/ "t1 9 ! diocese ( ,lucca1 & ! latt] writes to 8 fri5d 9 ,engl&3-- ,h[ will+ly w\ld ,i g to ,engl& along ) de> ,mr4 ,sp5c]2 b ! "t de/9$ by ! ,div9e m]cy = ?is has n yet arriv$4 ,i hope1 h[ev]1 t x w arrive4 ,i hope "o day to see ) my own eyes t k+dom1 :i* = s _m ye>s ,i h borne engrav5 on my he>t4 ,may ,god be m]ciful to u bo?1 t s we may meet toge!r 9 ! company ( all our de> ,engli%m5 above 9 heav51 to praise & bless ! ,div9e ,maje/y ?r\gh\t all ages4 ,i h l+]$ ^u ! fir/ commun+ toge!r ( ^! two m51 because x is s in/ructive to see h[ x 0 n m]ely 9 ! s*ools1 ev5 :]e religion 0 /udi$ "u ! %ad[ ( ! successor ( ,/4 ,pet]1 b /ill m by draw+ fire f ! he>ts ( sa9tly m51 t ,fa!r ,ignatius 0 prep>$ = 8 future "w4 ,return$ to ,engl&1 he has left x on record h[ affectionately he 0 receiv$ by 8 v5]able fa!r & 8 noble bro!r1 ,"l ,al?orp1 !n 9 ! mid/ ( 8 (ficial c>e] z a *ief lead] ( ! de/9ies ( 8 c\ntry4 ,:o t rememb]s ^? days does n recall ! am5ities ( a "* ( humanity s g5tle & true1 t ev5 9 ! mid/ ( ! mo/ int5se political /rife he embitt]$ no "o1 & drew on him no p]sonal attack4 ,by 8 noble relatives1 ,fa!r ,ignatius 0 receiv$ ) ! old affection1 & _! entire conduct t[>ds him 0 an exception inde$ to ! treatm5t :i* s _m memb]s ( o!r families h exp]i5c$ 9 rew>d = _! fidelity to ,god & to _! consci5ce4 ,= fifte5 ye>s ,fa!r ,ignatius toil$ 9 ! "w ( ! mission 9 ! diocese ( ,birm+ham1 g5]\sly exp5d+ bo? himself & ! private funds all[$ him by 8 family 9 ! s]vice ( s\ls4 ,he f\nd$ ! mission ( ,we/bromwi*1 & ! mission ( ,dudley2 he rais$ !re *ur*es & s*ools1 & prea*$ & conv]s$ ) ! poor unceas+ly4 ,he 0 call$ to ,oscott1 & a new (fice 0 creat$ = him1 t ( ,spiritual ,dean1 t he might inspire ^? "y m5 :o 7 prep>+ = ! m9i/ry ) 8 own #eae mission>y ard\rs4 ,! (fice began ) him1 & end$ :5 he left ! e/abli%m5t1 al?\gh unque/ionably "o ( ! greate/ functions :i* c\ld be ex]t$ 9 our colleges w\ld be ! (fice ( enk9dl+ 9 y\?ful he>ts t fire ( *>ity = s\ls :i* is ! true creator ( ! mission]4 ,b ! "t 0 com+ :5 he 0 to pass f ! ord9>y life ( a mission]1 l$ 9 an extraord9>y mann]1 & to pass into t religi\s congregation :]e he 0 to c>ry out 8 special mission1 8 ,apo/le%ip ( pray]4 ,dur+ ^? fifte5 pa/ ye>s he _h n lo/ sight ( ,fa!r ,dom9ic4 ,9 #ahdj1 t holy man1 ) ! "n ( ,engl& writt5 on 8 he>t1 rea*$ ,b\logne ) a community ( 8 bre?r54 ,9 ! same ye> he visit$ ,oscott1 :]e ^? two m5 ( ,god embrac$ ea* o!r anew2 & 9 ! foll[+ ye> ! desire & pray] ( s _m ye>s 0 realiz$4 ,! ,passioni/ ,fa!rs 7 e/abli%$ at ,a/on1 9 ,/af=d%ire1 ) ,fa!r ,dom9ic z _! head & f\nd]2 & :oev] w look ov] ! correspond5ce1 s deeply int]e/+ at ?is mom5t1 :i* is pr9t$ z an app5dix to ! life ( ! ,bless$ ,paul ( ! ,cross1 w see h[ great a "p ! ,rev4 ,george ,sp5c] _h 9 ! "w ( br++ ! ,passioni/s into ,engl&4 ,x 0 9 ! ye> #ahdf1 t1 mak+ a retreat "u ! ,fa!rs ( ! ,society ( ,jesus1 ,god reveal$ to 8 he>t 8 vocation to jo9 ! ,passioni/s1 & become ! companion & fell[ work] ) ,fa!r ,dom9ic4 ,he ca/ himself at ! feet ( t holy man1 & petition$ = ! s+ul> grace ( be+ admitt$ to ! ,ord]4 ,_! jo9t aspirations = ,engl& _h br\ght !m toge!r1 & _! love ( ! ,cross made !m ( "o m9d1 & aft] ! fir/ ironic rebuff ) :i* ! _s ( ! petition] 0 te/$1 ,i c imag9e ! smile ) :i* t man ( ,god1 s au/]e to himself :il/ s lov+ to 8 neighb\r1 recall$ ! "t1 long pa/1 :5 !y wond]$ if ev] !y %\ld meet 9 ! fle% face to face4 ,!re be=e him 0 ! man drawn by 8 pray]s into 8 v bosom1 ( :om he _h pr$ict$1 sixte5 ye>s ago1 t he w\ld c>ry ! "n ( ,jesus = ! conv]sion ( ,engl& #eaf be=e ! k+s & nations ( ! e>?4 ,9 ! ,ord] he 0 di/+ui%$ by 8 simplicity1 8 humility1 8 self-mortification1 8 pati5ce 9 suff]+1 & 8 ob$i5ce4 ,i w\ld gladly dwell on ! traits ( ^? virtues :i* =m$ 8 p]sonal "*1 b "t urges me to proce$4 ,he fill$ successively ! (fice ( ,consultor1 ( ,novice-ma/]1 & ( ,rector1 & x 0 to him t ,fa!r ,dom9ic provisionally consign$ 8 au?ority at 8 dea?4 ,b 8 great & s+ul> "w 0 8 ,apo/le%ip ( pray] = ,engl&4 ,_m _h be5 ! que/ion+s 9 _m he>ts1 z to :e!r ?is c\ntry w\ld ev] 9 any s]i\s numb]s return to ! fai? or n4 ,& _m _h be5 ! speculations z to h[ ?is c\ld be accompli%$2 "s dreamt x mu/ come by missions2 o!rs1 by le>n$ writ+s2 o!rs1 by ! prea*+ ( ! ,gospel2 "s _h "o s*eme1 "s ano!r1 b 9 ea* !re 0 some?+ defective1 some?+ n altoge!r div9e2 some?+ t 0 human1 & re/+ m or less on ! w ( man4 ,b ,fa!r ,ignatius consult$ ! light & grace ( 8 own s\l1 he p5etrat$ to ! true pr9ciple1 he recall$ 8 own hi/ory1 he saw t conv]sion is ! "w ( ,god1 t ! "w itself is ! "w ( grace1 & t all t man c d1 is to invoke ,god to put =? ,8 p[]4 ,pray] t is pure1 s9c]e1 e>ne/1 & ( _m s\ls1 ,god always he>s & incl9es to grant4 ,!re are _m ways ( approa*+ to ,god1 b !re is "o :i* ,he loves = its t5d] alliance ) ! ,div9e ,humanity1 = its humility & its beautiful fai?1 & t is ! approa* ?r\gh h] :o is at once ! ,virg9 ,"m ( ,god & ours4 ,let u plead to ,god ?r\gh ! ,"m ( ,god1 & let h] plead = h] sons on e>? to h] ,son 9 ,heav51 & behold our pray] is tripl$ 9 its /r5g?4 ,s ,ignatius look$ to ,god ?r\gh ! eyes ( ,m>y1 pray$ to ,god ?r\gh ! he>t ( ,m>y1 & appeal$ ?r\gh ! purity ( ,m>y1 = a p :o _h =gott5 h]4 ,& he w5t =? on 8 ,apo/le%ip ( pray] ov] ,italy & ,france1 & ,hung>y & ,au/ria1 & ! re/ ( ,g]many2 & ov] ,belgium & ,engl&1 & ,irel& & ,scotl&1 & he correspond$ ) ! o!r k+doms ( ,*ri/5dom4 ,he #eag w5t be=e emp]ors & k+s1 & be=e m9i/]s ( /ate1 & ask$ !m to pray = ! conv]sion ( 8 c\ntry4 ,he s\ght ! ,bi%ops 9 _! dioceses1 & ! prie/s 9 _! p>i%es1 & holy religi\s 9 _! conv5ts1 & dev\t lay p]sons 9 _! h\ses1 & pray$ !m to pray to ,god1 & to set o!r s\ls to pray = ! conv]sion ( ,engl&4 ,8 fai? 0 /rong t f h] conv]sion a great radiation ( tru? w\ld spread =? 9 ! _w1 & t all t 0 ne$$ 0 ! g5]al pray] ( believ+ s\ls1 t ,god might grant s great a grace to ! _w4 ,& s ! "n ( ,fa!r ,ignatius grew famili> on ! lips ( ,*ri/5dom4 ,pray] arose 9 _m c\ntries2 ! ,bi%ops issu$ pa/orals1 a day 9 ! week 0 appo9t$ = pray] = ,engl&4 ,prelates spoke ( x 9 synods1 & ! cl]gy discuss$ x 9 _! conf]5ces4 ,& all pi\s s\ls add$ on new pray]s to _! habitual devotions = ! conv]sion ( ,engl&4 ,& z = ! apo/le ( ?is pray]1 he w5t on n\ri%+ ! flame :i* he _h enk9dl$1 & /irr+ ! zeal ( 8 bre?r5 until1 to use 8 own words1 (t5 repeat$ to 8 sup]ior1 ?is pray]1 & ! prea*+ ( ?is pray] to ,god ?r\gh ,m>y1 _h become a "p ( 8 nature1 an elem5t insep>able f 8 exi/5ce4 ,he _h b rec5tly recomm5c$ ! "w ( ?is mission 9 a some:at alt]$ =m1 bas+ ! conv]sion ( ! ,engli% ^u ! sanctification ( ! ,iri% p1 b /ill 8 cry 0--,pray = ,engl&4 ,!re c be no d\bt1 z sundry facts po9t out1 b t he _h a /rong impression ( late t 8 end 0 draw+ ne>4 ,& n long be=e 8 dea? he call$ ! bre?r5 individually to 8 room1 & exhort$ ea* ) solemn e>ne/ness to be in/ant 9 ! mission ( pray] = ,engl&4 ,& :at has be5 ! result ( ?is ,apo/le%ip8 ,t result ,fa!r ,ignatius himself summ$ up b a few days be=e 8 dea?4 ,on ! #h? ( ,septemb]1 he address$ a lett] to an ,italian p]iodical1 f :i* ,i translate ! foll[+ passage z ! fit conclusion ( ?is subject4 ,he says3-- ,x is m ?an ?irty-f\r ye>s s9ce a wor?y ,bi%op ( a ,neapolitan diocese came to seek me 9 ! ,engli% #eah ,college at ,rome1 wi%+ to look ) 8 own eyes ^u a conv]t$ ,anglican cl]gyman2 a sight s grateful to a noble ,ca?olic he>t1 & 9 ^? days s r>e4 ,on :at pro( he spoke1 ,i "k n1 b he assur$ me t ! fir/ ,c>melite ,scapul> ev] giv51 & giv5 by t ,engli% ,sa9t1 ,simon ,/ock1 0 secretly kept 9 ,engl&1 & t he look$ on ?is z a pl$ge t our c\ntry w\ld "o day come back to ! fai?4 ,be ?is ass]tion well or ill f\nd$1 ! memory ( him :o made x is de> to me z is ! memory ( ! pres5ce ( e "o :o bespeaks hope & peace = ,engl&4 ,:at h we se5 9 our days8 ,conv]sions to ! fai? s num]\s & s important t ! :ole _w speaks ( !m4 ,& ?is movem5t t[>ds ,ca?olicism is ( a "* s rem>kable1 t ! hi/ory ( ! ,*ur* pres5ts no?+ l x4 ,x is true t o!r nations h be5 conv]t$1 :il/ ,engl& has /ood to h] ,prote/antism2 b a fir/ /ep has be5 made 9 ?is c\ntry1 :i*1 z f> z ,i "k1 has no p>allel4 ,9 o!r cases1 x 0 ! sov]eign :o made ! fir/ movem5t1 hav+ _h no le>n$ opposition or p]secution f 8 subjects2 &1 z 9 ! in/ance ( ,/4 ,/eph51 ( ,hung>y1 ! conv]sions :i* foll[$ came easily1 & z x 7 naturally2 or conv]sion began ) ! poor1 :o1 ?\gh x co/ !m p]secution & privation1 _h yet b little to lose4 ,b ?is has n be5 ! case 9 ,engl&4 ,"h ! "w ( conv]sion grew conspicu\s among ! m9i/]s ( ! ,prote/ant ,*ur*1 ( :om hundr$s ( ! mo/ e/eem$ & le>n$ h be5 receiv$ into ! bosom ( ! ,*ur*1 & also among ! noble & ! g5tle families ( ! k+dom2 s t x may be said t sc>cely is !re a family t is n t\*$ by conv]sion1 9 "s ne> or m di/ant memb] ( x4 ,i say t ?is ord] ( conv]sion is new1 ?is op]ation ( grace is mo/ s+ul>4 ,great numb]s ( ^? cl]gym5 _h prospects be=e !m by rema9+ 9 ,prote/antism1 flatt]+ en\gh1 ( e>?ly felicity1 weal?1 & hon\r2 & by _! conv]sion !y fell ^u pov]ty1 di/ress1 & contempt1 especially ^? m5 :o1 by reason #eai ( _! families1 c\ld n embrace ! cl]ical /ate4 ,! sacrifices ( ! lay g5try h n always be5 s great2 b ev5 "h h[ _m h clos$ aga9/ !mselves ! pa? ( hon\rs & di/9ctions2 h[ _m h be5 disc>d$ by _! k9dr$ & fri5ds2 h[ _m ( ! g5tle sex h ab&on$ ! prospect ( a settlem5t 9 life befitt+ _! rank & /ation2 :ile all h turn$ f ! _w to obey ! voice ( ,god2 & t1 9 a c\ntry l ?is1 :]e ! _w holds out allurem5ts s speci\s & s attractive 9 e k9d4 ,b ^! great results c nei!r be attribut$ to ! =ce1 ! eloqu5ce1 or ! indu/ry ( man4 ,man has positively _h no "p 9 ! "w1 except by pray]1 & ?is pray+ has be5 pr(ess$ly (f]$ to ,god ?r\gh ,m>y2 ?r\gh :om all ! h]esies ( ! _w are de/roy$4 ,i h no "t to dwell ^u ?is summ>y ( results s beautifully told & s rem>kably tim$4 ,b x is impossible n to notice t ! great tide ( conv]sion t has fl[$ s unusually1 has pass$ ?r\gh ! two classes to :i* ,fa!r ,ignatius himself belong$1 t ( ! cl]gy & t ( ! g5try4 ,x is a wond]ful result foll[+ a mo/ unprec$5t$ comb9ation ( ! voices ( ,ca?olic s\ls ( _m nations 9 pray]1 set 9 motion by ! v man :o is summ+ up ! result ( ! "w1 be=e he goes to 8 rew>d2 nor d ,i believe1 al?\gh 8 tongue is sil5t1 & 8 features settl$ into cold ob/ruction1 z we look$ on !m la/ night1 t ! pray] ( 8 s\l has ceas$2 no1 8 "w goes on1 8 ,apo/le%ip is n dead4 ,purg$ by ! sacrifice1 ,i seem to see 8 _s all ?is "t4 ,= y "k t :5 a holy man quits ?is life1 & has n lov$ x z he has lov$ ,god1 he goes away no fur!r ?an ,god1 & ,god is v ne> to u4 ,h y nev] lo/ a de> p>5t or a *ild1 & h y n f\nd t :5 fre$ f ! body ! _s ( t "o _h m p[] ov] y2 seem$ to be fre] to be ) y at all solemn times1 & to impress y ) its purely spiritual qualities & virtues1 all gross ?+s hav+ ceas$ ?\gh ! purification ( dea? & ! f9al grace8 & s ,i conceive 8 #ebj _s /&+ by my side & say+ /ill1 at ea* int]val ( my voice1--,pray = ,engl&3 pray = h] conv]sion4 ,to y1 fa!rs ( ! rude frieze1 bre?r5 ( 8 ,ord]1 ) ! "n ( ,*ri/ on y\r brea/1 & ! love ( ,8 passion 9 y\r he>t1 he says--,pray = ,engl&3 pray = h] conv]sion4 ,sup]iors ( ! ,b5$ict9e ,ord]1 :om a special circum/ance has br\ght "h to-day1 ,fa!r ,presid5t-,g5]al1 repres5tative ( ,/4 ,b5$ict1 z ( ,/4 ,augu/9e1 & mona/ic successor ( t fir/ ,apo/le ( ,engl&1 to y1 & to y1 ,priors ( ! ,ord]1 he says--,fail n f ! "w ( y\r =efa!rs1 pray = ,engl&3 pray = h] conv]sion4 ,to y1 bre?r5 ( ! prie/hood1 m5 consecrat$ to ?is mission1 :o "k 8 voice famili>ly1 to y he says ) ! burn+ desire ( 8 he>t1--,pray = ,engl&3 pray = h] conv]sion4 ,daught]s ( ! virg9al veil1 :o are 8 *ildr51 :il/ 9 ! inf]ior s\l y suff] ! grief ( loss1 9 y\r sup]ior s\l y rejoice t he is ) ,god2 to y also he says3--,pray = ,engl&3 pray = h] conv]sion4 ,de>ly belov$ bre?r51 h[ (t5 9 8 missions & 8 m9i/ries has he writt5 ^? words ^u y\r he>ts4 ,let !m n die out4 ,let !m live on ) some?+ ( 8 flame ( *>ity4 ,be y z 8 mission]s2 c>ry ^! words to y\r *ildr5 & y\r bre?r54 ,he prays yet1 & w ev] pray until ! "w be f9i%$4 ,ev5 9 ! pres5ce ( 8 ,god1 nei!r ! awe nor ! maje/y ( t unspeakable pres5ce c ,i conceive z int]rupt+ ! pray] :i* has become a portion ( 8 nature--,god1 h m]cy on ,engl&4 ,turn1 ,o ,jesus1 ,?y meek eyes ^u t p4 ,let pity drop f ,?y glori\s w\nds1 & m]cy f ,?y he>t4 ,9 :at %e is bl9d1 9 :at %e s9s1 =give h]1 = %e kn[s n :at %e does4 ,h m]cy on ,engl&4 ,:5 jo9$ to 8 belov$ ,dom9ic1 & ) bless$ ,paul1 & meet+ ,gregory1 & ,augu/9e1 & ,b$e1 ,i conceive him urg+ !m to jo9 yet m e>ne/ly ) ! pray]s he left asc5d+ f ! e>?1 foll[+ 8 mission /ill 9 ! heav5s2 nay1 ev5 press+ to be he>d 9 ! circles ( ! angels1 ^: meekness & purity he lov$ s well1 & #eba /ill 8 cry is3 ,pray = ,engl&3 pray = h] conv]sion4 ,x rema9s = u to turn "o la/ look ^u 8 mortal rema9s1 to consid] our own mortality1 & to prep>e u = our approa*+ end4 ,h[ beautiful1 h[ sublime 0 8 dep>ture4 ,fa!r ,ignatius _h (t5 wi%$ & pray$ t1 l 8 ,div9e ,"l1 l ,/4 ,francis ,xavi]1 & l 8 de> fri5d & ma/] 9 ! spiritual life1 ,fa!r ,dom9ic1 he might die at 8 po/1 yet des]t$ & alone4 ,god grant$ him t pray]4 ,he _h j clos$ "o mission & 0 proce$+ to ano!r2 he turn$ aside = an h\r on 8 way to conv]se ) a de> fri5d & godson2 he 0 se5 t5 m9utes be=e conv]s+ ) *ildr54 ,0 he only inquir+ 8 way1 or did he utt] ! la/ words ( 8 e>?ly mission to ^? "y he>ts8 ,& "h alone1 unse5 b ( ,god & ,8 angels1 he fell d[n1 & t he>t :i* _h beat5 s long = ! love & conv]sion ( ,engl& /opp$ 9 8 bosom4 ,crucifi$ 0 he 9 8 dea? z 9 8 life to ?is _w1 t he might live to ,god4 ,:5 8 lord%ip1 ! ,bi%op1 desc5d$ f ! pulpit1 ! procession to ! place ( burial 0 =m$1 & issu$ f ! *ur* 9 ! foll[+ ord]1 ! *oir s++ ! ,mis]]e3-- ,! ,*ildr5 ( ! ,s*ools ( ! ,conv5t ( ! ,holy ,*ild4 ,! ,rev4 ,fa!r ,b]n>d 7,sup]ior ( ! ,ord] ( ,passioni/s1 ,p>is71 c>ry+ a ,cross1 & hav+ on ea* side an ,acolyte1 be>+ a light$ c&le4 ,! ,?urif]4 ,boys two abrea/4 ,! ,regul> ,cl]gy4 ,! ,secul> ,cl]gy4 ,,! ,,c(f94 ,! ,"l ,bi%op ( ,birm+ham4 ,! ,laity4 ,z ! melan*oly cortge mov$ along1 ! cl]gy *ant$ ! ,mis]]e1 & :5 ! procession arriv$ at ! vault1 #ebb ! c(f9 7:i* 0 ( deal7 0 plac$ inside a lead5 "o1 :i* 0 aga9 enclos$ 9 an out] %ell ( oak4 ,^u ?is 0 a black plate1 be>+ ! foll[+ inscription3-- ,,fa!r ,,ignatius ,,( ,,/4 ,,paul 7,,! ,,hon4 ,,& ,,rev4 ,,george ,,sp5c]7 ,,di$ ,,oct4 #a1 #ahfd1 ,,ag$ #fe ,,ye>s4 ,r4 ,i4 ,p4 ,plac$ inside ! c(f9 0 a lead5 tablet1 on :i* ! foll[+ 0 engrav$3-- ,,mortales ,,exuviae ,patris ,ignatii a ,s4 ,paulo1 ,congregationis ,passionis1 de ,comitibus ,sp5c]4 ,m9i/] ,anglicanus primum2 de91 ad ,ecclesiam ,ca?olicam conv]sus1 sac]dotio ,romae insignitus e/ anno #ahcb4 ,mirum1 qua animi con/antia p] trig9ta et amplius annos pro conv]sione patriae laborav]at4 ,int] alumnos ,passionis anno #ahdg adscriptus1 omnium virtutum exempl> confratribus semp] extitit4 ,angliam1 ,hib]niam1 ,scotiam1 necnon ,italiam1 ,g]maniam1 et ,galliam p]agravit1 populum exhortans ad propriam sanctificationem1 et ut1 veluti sacro agm9e inito1 preces fundant pro conv]sione ,anglise4 ,dum p]jucundum opus 9 ,scotia prosequ]etur1 cal5dis ,octobris anni #ahfd1 sacrificio missae p]acto1 ad invis5dum antiquae consuetud9is amicum 7,dom4 ,rob]tum ,montei?7 p]g5s1 ante januam amici rep5t9o morbo correptus1 a ,deo cujus gloriam semp] quesi]at et ab angelis quorum puritatem imitav]at1 opitulatus1 supremam diem clausit1 aetatis suae anno #feto4 ,requiescat 9 pace4 ,,translation4 ,! mortal rema9s ( ,fa!r ,ignatius ( ,/4 ,paul1 belong+ to ! ,congregation ( ! ,passion1 & ( ! noble family ( ,sp5c]4 ,he 0 at fir/ an ,anglican m9i/]2 !n1 hav+ be5 conv]t$ to ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*1 0 orda9$ into ! prie/hood at ,rome 9 ! ye> #ahcb4 ,x is wond]ful ) :at con/ancy ( m9d = m ?an ?irty ye>s he lab\r$ = ! conv]sion ( 8 c\ntry4 #ebc ,he 0 numb]$ among ! sons ( ! ,passion 9 ! ye> #ahdg1 & always pres5t$ an example ( all virtues to 8 bre?r54 ,he travell$ ?r\gh ,engl&1 ,irel&1 ,scotl&1 & ev5 ,italy1 ,g]many1 & ,france1 exhort+ ! p to _! own sanctification1 & =m+ !mselves1 z x 71 into a sacr$ army1 to p\r =? pray]s = ! conv]sion ( ,engl&4 ,:ile he 0 prosecut+ 8 pleas+ "w 9 ,scotl&1 on ! #a/ ( ,octob]1 #ahfd1 &1 hav+ (f]$ up ! sacrifice ( ! mass1 he 0 go+ on a visit to a fri5d he _h long be5 acqua9t$ ) 7,mr4 ,rob]t ,montei?71 :5 he 0 c>ri$ (f by sudd5 dea? 9 front ( 8 fri5d's door1 be+ assi/$ by ,god1 ^: glory he _h ev] s\ght1 & by ! angels ^: purity he _h imitat$4 ,he clos$ 8 life 9 ! #fe? ye> ( 8 age4 ,may he re/ 9 peace4 ,:5 all ! arrangem5ts 7 complet$1 ! c(f9 0 plac$ ^u ! ti] appropriat$ = its reception1 & ! bi%op & cl]gy retir$4 ,?us has end$ ! life ( "o :o = fifte5 ye>s pursu$ 8 mission>y "w1 z a prie/ ( ! ,ord] ( ! ,passion1 ) an ard\r t has seldom be5 surpass$4 ,truly may x be said ( him1 ,dy+1 he lives4 ,fav\rs are said to h be5 obta9$ f heav5 ?r\gh 8 int]cession1 s9ce 8 dea?2 & x is ev5 record$ t miracles h be5 p]=m$ by 8 relics4 ,^! facts h n be51 z yet1 suffici5tly au!nticat$ = publication2 &1 !re=e1 x is judg$ bett] n to ins]t !m4 ,we confid5tly hope t a few ye>s w see him enroll$ 9 ! catalogue ( sa9ts1 z ! fir/ ,engli% ,confessor s9ce ! ,re=mation4 ,e /ep we make1 z we rec$e f ?is la/ sc5e1 br+s u ne>] to ! mom5t :5 ! requiescat ought to be he>d ov] ourselves4 ,= ,! pride ( luxury1 ! pomp ( p[]1 ,& all t beauty1 all t weal? e'er gave1 ,await alike ! inevitable h\r2-- ,! pa?s ( glory lead b to ! grave4 ,h[ va9 is a life sp5t 9 pursuit ( ri*es6 :5 ! #ebd %r\d t envelops our bones w h to be giv5 u4 ,h[ va9 are ! appliances ( com=t & pleasure :i* weal? c spread ar\nd u6 :5 ! body we pamp] is to be ! food ( worms4 ,h[ va91 is p[] & ext5t ( t]ritory6 :5 ! snapp+ ( ! ?read ( our exi/5ce w leave u completely 9 ! h&s ( o!rs1 & conf9e u to less ?an sev5 feet ( e>?4 ,let ! example ( ! holy ,passioni/1 ^: life we /udi$1 make u recognise ?is tru?1 be=e x is too late--t all is vanity b ! s]vice ( ,god4 ,he ta/$ ! sweets ( ?is _w until he f\nd out _! bitt]ness2 let 8 example det] o!rs f plung+ into ! :irl ( dissipation1 f :i* few c come out un9jur$4 ,he laid d[n 8 hon\rs1 8 titles1 8 prop]ty1 at ! foot ( ! cross1 & he joyfully plac$ its transv]se beams ^u 8 %\ld]4 ,!re 0 no?+ ?is _w c\ld give him :i* he did n sacrifice unhesitat+ly4 ,he nev] took back f ! alt> a s+le p>ticle ( ! 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