,,helpful ,,visions4 ,,! ,,f\rte5? ,,book ,,( ,,! ,,fai?-,,promot+ ,,s]ies4 ,int5d$ = ! ,in/ruction & ,enc\ragem5t ( ,"y ,latt]-day ,sa9ts4 ,,juv5ile ,,in/ructor ,,(fice1 ,,salt ,,lake ,,city1 ,,utah4 #ahhg4 ,,comb9$ ,,fai?-,,promot+ ,,s]ies1 ,nos4 #a-e1 #a4ce1 ,nos4 #f-aj1 #a4be4 ,,cont5ts4 ,a ,,t]rible ,,ordeal4 ,,*apt] ,i4 ,rem>kable ,spiritual ,manife/ations--,?rill+ ,exp]i5ce ( ,eld] ,david ,p4 ,kimball1 z ,n>rat$ by himself4 ,,*apt] ,,ii4 ,acc\nt ( ,patt5 ,kimball & ,o!rs1 ,reg>d+ ! ,se>* = & ,f9d+ ( 8 ,fa!r4 ,,briant ,s4 ,,/ev5s4 ,,*apt] ,i4 ,briant ,/r+ham ,/ev5s ,becomes a ,mission>y to ,8 ,associates & ,br+s ,f\r ,boys to ,belief & ,baptism--,a ,good ,*ild :o ,pass$ ,amid/ ! ,daily ,temptations ( ,life ,unsca!d4 ,,*apt] ,,ii4 ,accid5ts to ,briant--,he is ,orda9$ to ! ,prie/hood--,pati5t ,endurance ( ,8 ,suff]+s--,he is ,bless$ to be an ,eld] & !n ,slumb]s 9 ,dea?4 ,,*apt] ,,iii4 ,a ,helpful ,vision to ,briant's ,/rick5 ,fa!r--! ,com=t] ,br+s ! ,peace :i* ,passes ,all ,und]/&+--,! ,fun]al ( ! ,little ,mission>y--,8 ,"w ,lives aft] ,him4 ,,f9d+ ,,com=t4 ,,*apt] ,i4 ,call$ to ,au/ralasia--,! ,mod]n ,imitators ( ,job's ,fri5ds--,our ,special ,in/ruction is to ,build up ! ,k+dom ( ,god 9 ^? ,l&s--,a ,disappo9tm5t ends 9 a ,bless+--,promises by an ,apo/le :i* 7 ,lit]ally ,fulfill$--,we ,rea* ,sydney1 ,i am ,sep>at$ ,f my ,companion4 ,,*apt] ,,ii4 ,labor :i* ,br\ght ,little ,comp5sation--,a ,my/]i\s ,call to ,new ,zeal&--,attack$ by an ,evil ,_s--,! ,visitation ,?rice ,repeat$--,meet+ ! ,bro!r ( a ,fri5d--,on ,bo>d ! ,wakatipu ,b\nd = ,new ,zeal&4 ,,*apt] ,,iii4 ,an ,irrev]5t ,company ( ,pass5g]s--,sickness & a ,horror ( ,life ,fall ,^u ,me--,a ,helpful ,vision--,only be ,true--,invok+ ! ,"n ( ,*ri/--,a ,jolly ,s+] & a ,jolly ,song--,l&+ at ,port ,littleton--,/range ,recognition ( ,bro!r ,nord/r&--,8 ,dream ,conc]n+ ,me4 ,,*apt] ,,iv4 ,reason = my ,sudd5 ,call to ,leave ,sydney--,! ,little ,old ,lady ( ! ,wakatipu--,%e _h ,wait$ a ,g5]ation to ,r5ew h] ,cov5ants--,ano!r ,helpful ,vision--,a ,my/]i\s ,half-,sov]eign--,sav$ f ,dea? 9 a ,swift ,riv]4 ,,*apt] ,v4 ,"s ,old ,memb]s ( ! ,*ur*--,! ,_s ,prompts ,promises to ,!m :i* are ,lit]ally ,fulfill$--,help f a ,ca?olic ,:o is ,sudd5ly ,conv]t$ & ,:o z ,sudd5ly ,apo/atizes--,a ,spontane\s ,prophecy--,! ,j\rney ,home--,a ,c>eful ,obs]v]--,safe 9 ,zion4 ,,traitors4 ,solemn ,w>n+s--,a ,traitor c ,nev] be ,any?+ b ,despicable--,examples ( ! ,pa/4 ,,preface4 ,! v enc\rag+ reports we are con/antly receiv+ f v>i\s p>ts ( ! c\ntry conc]n+ ! va/ am\nt ( good accompli%$ by ^! small publications1 induces u to issue ! f\rte5? book1 ) ! s9c]e hope t x may n be less int]e/+ or in/ructive ?an ^? :i* h prec$$ x4 ,! ,visions "h record$ w aga9 prove t tru? is /rang] ?an fiction1 & we tru/ t a p]usal ( ^! manife/ations w lead our "y p to seek = ! guidance ( ! ,"l 9 all ?+s1 & make ,him _! con/ant fri5d4 ,! article on traitors is v appropriate read+ matt] = ! pres5t season1 & w1 x is hop$1 cause ev]yone to look ^u ! m5 ( ?is class ) ! contempt !y s ju/ly m]it1 & su/a9 ev]yone 9 %unn+ z !y w\ld poison1 any traitor\s act4 ,our great desire is t ?is little book may assi/ 9 ! education & elevation ( ! "y p & o!rs :o may p]use x4 ,,! ,,publi%]s4 ,a ,,t]rible ,,ordeal4 ,,by ,o4 ,f4 ,,:itney4 ,,*apt] ,i4 ,,rem>kable ,,spiritual ,,manife/ations--,,?rill+ ,,exp]i5ce ,,( ,,eld] ,,david ,p4 ,,kimball1 ,,z ,,n>rat$ ,,by ,,himself4 ,! foll[+ n>rative ( ! exp]i5ce ( ! late ,david ,patt5 ,kimball1 :o 0 lo/ on ! ,salt ,riv] des]t1 ,arizona1 9 ! latt] "p ( ,novemb]1 #ahha1 is tak5 by p]mission f a lett] writt5 by him to 8 si/]1 ,hel5 ,m> ,:itney1 ( ?is city1 on ! #h? ( ,janu>y1 #ahhb4 ,bro!r ,kimball 0 !n a resid5t ( ,jonesville1 or ,lehi1 ?ree miles f ,mesa1 :]e ! lett] 0 writt54 ,! ev5ts describ$ took place :ile he 0 return+ home f a trip to ,prescott1 ! capital ( t ,t]ritory4 ,! exp]i5ce relat$ 0 ( s rem>kable a "* z to meet ) dubiety on ! "p ( "s1 especially ^? incl9$ to be skeptical reg>d+ spiritual manife/ations4 ,"s w5t s f> z to ascribe ! sights & sc5es ?r\gh :i* ! n>rator claim$ to h pass$1 to ! fev]$ fancy ( a m9d disord]$ by /rong dr9k4 ,t su* %\ld h be5 suppos$1 p>ticul>ly by ^? :o are ignorant ( spiritual ?+s1 is n surpris+1 :5 x is rememb]$ t ev5 ! ,apo/les ( ,*ri/1 on ! day ( ,p5teco/1 7 accus$ ( be+ drunk5 ) new w9e1 :5 ! p[] ( ! ,_s fell ^u !m & !y spake ) tongues & prophesi$4 ,:at is "h pres5t$ is ! pla9 & simple te/imony ( an hone/ man1 :o adh]$ to x till ! day ( 8 dea?1 :i* occurr$ )9 two ye>s f ! date ( 8 lett]1 & 0 9 lit]al fulfillm5t ( c]ta9 ?+s :i* he said 7 %[n him 9 vision1 & ( :i* he frequ5tly te/ifi$ :ile liv+4 ,= ! b5efit ( su* z may n h kn[n ,bro!r ,david ,p4 ,kimball1 we w /ate t he 0 ! f\r? son ( ! late ,presid5t ,heb] ,c4 ,kimball1 ^: wond]ful enc\nt] ) evil spirits1 on ! op5+ ( ! ,briti% ,mission 9 #ahcg1 has become a matt] ( ,*ur* hi/ory4 ,"h is ! exc]pt f ,david's lett]3 ,on ! #d? ( ,novemb]1 ,i took a v sev]e cold 9 a sn[ /orm at ,prescott1 be+ clad 9 light clo?+1 :i* br\ght on pneumonia or lung fev]4 ,i resort$ to ,jamaica g+] & pepp] tea to obta9 relief & keep up my /r5g? till ,i c\ld rea* home & receive prop] c>e4 ,on ! #ac? ,i camp$ 9 a canyon t5 miles we/ ( ,prescott1 my son ,patt5 be+ ) me4 ,we _h a team ( eight horses & two wagons4 ,t night ,i suff]$ m ?an dea?4 ,! next night we camp$ at ,mr4 ,mc,intyre's1 ab\t tw5ty miles f>!r on4 ,i /opp$ !re two nights & "o day1 dur+ :i* "t ,i took no?+ to dr9k b pepp] tea4 ,on ! #af? we drove to ,black's ran*1 tw5ty-eight miles ne>] home1 & 7 v com=tably locat$ 9 ,mr4 ,black's h\se4 ,ab\t #aa p4 m41 ,i awoke & to my surprise saw "s six or eight m5 /&+ ar\nd my b$4 ,i _h no dread ( !m b felt t !y 7 my fri5ds4 ,at ! same "t ,i he>d a voice :i* seem$ to come f an eight squ>e 7octagon7 clock on ! opposite side ( ! h\se4 ,x comm5c$ talk+ & blackgu>d+1 :i* drew my att5tion1 :5 ,i 0 told to pay no att5tion to x4 ,at ?is po9t ,i he>d ! mo/ beautiful s++ ,i ev] li/5$ to 9 all my life4 ,^! 7 ! words1 repeat$ ?ree times by a *oir3 ',god bless ,bro!r ,david ,kimball4' ,i at once di/+ui%$ among !m ! voice ( my second wife1 ,julia ,m]rill1 :o 9 life 0 a good s+]4 ,?is1 ( c\rse1 a/oni%$ me4 ,j !n my fa!r comm5c$ talk+ to me1 ! voice seem+ to come f a long di/ance4 ,he comm5c$ by tell+ me ( 8 associations ) ,presid5t ,"y1 ! ,prophet ,joseph1 & o!rs 9 ! _s _w1 !n enquir$ ab\t 8 *ildr51 & seem$ to regret t 8 family 7 s scatt]$1 & said !re w\ld be a great re=mation 9 8 family inside ( two ye>s4 ,he also told me :]e ,i %\ld live1 also y\rself & o!rs1 & a great _m o!r ?+s4 ,i conv]s$ freely ) fa!r1 & my words 7 repeat$ ?ree times by z _m diff]5t p]sons1 exactly z ,i spoke !m1 until !y rea*$ him1 & !n 8 words to me 7 h&$ d[n 9 a l mann]4 ,aft] all ?is ,i gave way to d\bt1 ?9k+ x might be only a dream1 & to conv9ce myself t ,i 0 awake1 ,i got up & walk$ out-doors into ! op5 air4 ,i return$ & /ill ! _s ( d\bt 0 ^u me4 ,to te/ x fur!r ,i ask$ my wife ,julia to s+ me a v]se ( "o ( h] old songs4 ,at t1 ! *oir1 :i* _h cont9u$ s++1 /opp$ & %e sang ! song ?r\gh1 e ^w be+ di/9ct & beautiful4 ,! "n ( ! song 01 ',does ,he ,ev] ,?9k ( ,me4' ,my eyes 7 n[ turn$ t[>d ! s\?1 & !re1 z 9 a l>ge p>quette1 ,i beheld hundr$s1 ev5 ?\s&s1 ( fri5ds & relatives4 ,i 0 !n giv5 ! privilege ( ask+ que/ions & did s4 ,?is la/$ = "s "t1 aft] :i* ! s++ comm5c$ aga91 directly above me4 ,i n[ wrapp$ myself 9 a pair ( blankets & w5t out-doors1 det]m9$ to see ! s+]s1 b c\ld see no?+1 ?\gh ,i c\ld he> ! voices j ! same4 ,i return$ to my c\* & ! s++1 :i* 0 all communicative & in/ructive1 cont9u$ until ! day dawn$4 ,all ?is "t ! clock ,i h m5tion$ cont9u$ its curs+ & blackgu>d+4 ,mr4 & ,mrs4 ,black 7 up 9 due "t & got breakfa/4 ,i arose & made my toilet1 pla9 z x 01 & took breakfa/ ) my ho/ & ho/ess4 ,:5 my boy got ready to />t1 ,i w5t to pay my bill1 & to my surprise he>d a voice say or communicate3 ',david ,kimball has paid 8 bill4' ,:5 ,i got into ! wagon1 my gu>ds1 or ^? :o 7 ar\nd my b$ dur+ ! night1 7 /ill ) me4 ,my fa!r _h told me t he & ,presid5t ,"y & o!rs w\ld visit me ! next night4 ,we drove on until ab\t #aa a4 m41 :5 a ho/ ( evil spirits made _! appe>ance4 ,!y 7 det]m9$ to de/roy me1 b ,i _h p[] ( m9d to pay no att5tion to !m1 & let !m curse all day )\t he$+ !m any m ?an possible4 ,five times !y made a ru% en masse to come into ! wagon1 ! la/ "o1 :]e ,i 01 b 7 kept (f by my fri5ds 7spiritual74 ,ab\t #b p4 m4 ,i told my boy to /op & we w\ld wat] our horses4 ,we us$ = ?is purpose b>rels t we _h along ) u4 ,aft] ?is ,i walk$ to ! we/ side ( my wagons1 & look+ to ! ea/1 ,i saw & he>d ! evil spirits float+ 9 ! air & *ant+ curses ^u ,brigham ,"y4 ,i saw two o!r gr\ps ( ! same k9d1 b did n he> !m4 ,!n ,i look$ to ! s\? & ! :ole atmosph]e 0 cr[d$ ) fall5 spirits1 or ^? :o _h n obta9$ bodies4 ,o!rs :o tri$ to torm5t me 7 spirits :o _h liv$ ^u ! e>?4 ,hav+ se5 s _m & be+ complim5t$ by my gu>d = see+ s well1 ,i became a little timid & ask$ my spiritual fri5ds if !y _h any help4 ,! answ] 01 ',yes1 pl5ty4' ,i n[ told my boy to drive on--he 0 entirely oblivi\s ( all t 0 tak+ place ) me--& soon aft] ,i 0 s exhau/$ t ,i fell into a tr\bl$ sleep & mu/ h slept q a little :ile4 ,aft] ,i awoke ,i seem$ to be left alone1 & 0 ly+ on my back1 :51 all at once1 ,i saw an old man & two "y girls4 ,?is vision com+ on me s sudd5ly1 ,i 0 />tl$1 & f9d+ my gu>d gone1 ,i jump$ out ( ! wagon & got up on ! spr+ seat beside my boy4 ,b ,i c\ld n get away f !m4 ,i 0 told 9 a co>se1 gruff voice t ! devil 0 go+ to kill me1 & t he w\ld foll[ me night & day until he de/roy$ me4 ,i rememb]$ ! promise fa!r _h made me ! night be=e--t he int5d$ to visit me ! next ev5+--& ,i n]v$ up & tri$ to pay no att5tion to my p]secutors1 b ,i mu/ confess ,i 0 fright5$4 ,we arriv$ at ,wick5burg j at sund[n4 ,! old man & ! girls 7 torm5t+ & tantaliz+ me all ! way1 b nev] com+ v ne> to me4 ,we got supp] & ,i took a room at ,peeple's hotel & retir$ ab\t #aj p4 m4 ,:5 ev]y?+ 0 quiet my _s fri5ds1 eight 9 numb]1 return$ & my torm5tors 7 requir$ to leave4 ,soon aft]1 a glori\s vision bur/ ^u me4 ,!re 7 ?\s&s ( ! ,sa9ts pres5t$ to me1 _m :o _h di$ at ,nauvoo1 9 ,w9t] ,qu>t]s1 on ! pla9s & 9 ,utah4 ,i saw ,bro!r ,pugmire & _m o!rs :om ,i did n "k 7 dead4 ,:5 my "m came to me x 0 s real & ,i 0 s ov]joy$ t ,i exclaim$ al\d4 ,s p[]ful 0 ?is vision t ,i ask$ ,presid5t ,"y1 :o seem$ to be direct+ matt]s1 ?ree times to relieve me1 or ,i w\ld fa9t4 ,a great _m o!rs pass$ 9 regul> ord]2 & ,i recogniz$ ne>ly all ( !m1 & 0 told ! names ( all ,i did n "k4 ,my fa!r sat 9 a *air ) 8 legs cross$ & 8 h&s clasp$ toge!r1 z we h (t5 se5 him4 ,^? :o pass$ along _h hidd5 him f my view till !n4 ,?is sc5e vani%$1 & ,i 0 !n tak5 9 ! vision into a va/ build+1 :i* 0 built on ! plan ( ! ,ord] ( ,zion4 ,i ent]$ ?r\gh a s\? door & f\nd myself 9 a "p ( ! build+ :i* 0 unf9i%$1 ?\gh a great _m workm5 7 busy ^u x4 ,my guide %[$ me all ?r\gh ?is half ( ! h\se1 & !n took me ?r\gh ! o!r half1 :i* 0 f9i%$4 ,! ri*ness1 gr&eur & beauty ( x defi$ description4 ,!re 7 _m ap>tm5ts 9 ! h\se1 :i* 0 v spaci\s1 & !y diff]$ 9 size & ! f95ess ( ! workman%ip1 accord+ to ! m]its on e>? ( ^? :o 7 to occupy !m4 ,i felt mo/ at home 9 ! unf9i%$ "p1 among ! workm54 ,! upp] "p ( ! h\se 0 fill$ ) ,sa9ts1 b ,i c\ld n see !m1 ?\gh "s ( !m conv]s$ ) me1 my fa!r & "m1 ,uncle ,joseph ,"y & o!rs4 ,my fa!r told me _m ?+s1 & ,i receiv$ _m repro(s = my wrong-do+s4 ,yet he 0 lo? to h me leave1 & seem$ to feel v badly :5 ! "t came = me to g4 ,he told me ,i c\ld rema9 !re if ,i *ose to d s1 b ,i plead ) him t ,i might /ay ) my family long en\gh to make !m com=table1 to rep5t ( my s9s1 & m fully prep>e myself = ! *ange4 ,_h x n be5 = ?is1 ,i nev] %\ld h return$ home1 except z a corpse4 ,fa!r f9ally told me ,i c\ld rema9 two ye>s1 & to d all ! good ,i c\ld dur+ t "t1 aft] :i* he w\ld come = me2 he m5tion$ f\r o!rs t he w\ld come = also1 ?\gh he did n say x w\ld be at ! same "t4 ,on ! #ah? ( ,novemb]1 ab\t noon1 we left ,wick5burg 7:i* is tw5ty-two miles f ,black's ,ran* :]e we /opp$ ! previ\s night7 on our j\rney home4 ,i 0 exhau/$ f :at ,i _h exp]i5c$1 & c\ld feel my m9d fa/ giv+ away1 b ,i _h confid5ce t ,i w\ld rea* home alive4 ,!re 7 no ,eld]s to adm9i/] to me & no k9d fri5ds to look aft] my wants except my son1 :o _h all he c\ld d 9 look+ aft] eight horses & two wagons4 ,z my m9d w&]$ & grew weak]1 ,i 0 tr\bl$ & l$ by influ5ces ov] :i* ,i _h no p[]1 & my fri5ds1 ! good spirits1 _h all left me4 ,we drove ab\t tw5ty miles t aft]noon1 camp+ ab\t eight miles f wat]1 on ! ,salt ,riv] des]t1 :i* is ab\t fifty miles across4 ,dur+ ! =e "p ( ! night ,i he>d ! horses runn+ z ?\gh !y 7 fright5$4 ,my son 0 asleep1 b ,i got up & put my ov]coat across my %\ld]s & w5t out :]e !y 7 & got !m quiet$ d[n4 ,i 0 ab\t to return to ! wagon1 :5 t same old man ) gray :isk]s1 :o _h torm5t$ me be=e1 /epp$ betwe5 me & ! wagons4 ,he _h a long knife 9 8 h&4 ,i 0 fright5$ & fl$1 he pursu+ me & tell+ me he 0 go+ to kill me4 ,:at ,i pass$ ?r\gh ,i _c describe1 & no mortal tongue c\ld tell4 ,i w&]$ two days & ?ree nights 9 ! ,salt ,riv] des]t1 und]go+ ! torm5ts ( ! damn$1 mo/ ( ! "t1 :i* 0 beyond any?+ t mortal c\ld imag9e4 ,:5 my m9d 0 re/or$1 & ! fev] :i* _h rag$ )9 me _h abat$1 ,i f\nd myself ly+ on a bleak hill-top1 lo/ 9 ! des]t1 *ill$1 hung]$1 ?ir/y & feeble4 ,i _h sc>cely any clo?+ on1 0 b>efoot$1 & my body full ( cactus f head to foot4 ,my h&s 7 a p]fect mat ( ?orns & bri>s4 ,?is1 ) ! k t no "o 0 ne> me1 made me realize ! awful condition ,i 0 94 ,i c\ld n walk4 ,i ?\ght ,i w\ld take my life1 b _h no knife or any ?+ to d x )4 ,i tri$ to cut an art]y 9 my arm ) a %>p rock ,i _h pick$ up1 hop+ ,i might ble$ to dea?1 b ev5 ?is 0 d5i$ me4 ,! wolves & rav5s 7 hov]+ ar\nd me1 anxi\sly await+ my dea?4 ,i _h a long /ick & ,i ?\ght ,i w\ld dig a deep hole & cov] myself up ! be/ ,i c\ld1 s ! wolves w\ld n dev\r my body until ,i c\ld be f\nd by my fri5ds4 ,on ! night ( ! #ba/1 ,i c\ld see a fire ab\t tw5ty-five miles to ! s\?1 & felt satisfi$ t x 0 my fri5ds com+ aft] me4 ,i knew ! c\ntry :]e ,i 02 ,i 0 ab\t eight miles f h\ses :]e ,i c\ld h got pl5ty ( wat] & some?+ to eat1 b my /r5g? 0 gone & my feet 7 s sore ,i c\ld n /& up4 ,ano!r long & dre>y day pass$1 b ,i c\ld see no?+ b wolves & rav5s & a b>r5 des]t cov]$ ) cactus1 & _h ab\t made up my m9d t ! promise ( two ye>s life1 made by my fa!r1 0 n to be realiz$4 ,:ile 9 ?is t]rible plight1 & :5 ,i _h j ab\t giv5 up all hope1 my fa!r & "m appe>$ to me & gave me a dr9k ( wat] & com=t$ me1 tell+ me ,i w\ld be f\nd by my fri5ds :o 7 out se>*+ = me1 & t ,i %\ld live two ye>s long] z ,i _h be5 promis$4 ,:5 night came ,i saw ano!r fire a few hundr$ y>ds f me & c\ld see my fri5ds ar\nd x1 b ,i 0 s ho>se ,i c\ld n make !m he>4 ,by ?is "t my body 0 almo/ lifeless & ,i c\ld h>dly move1 b my m9d 0 9 a p]fect condition & ,i c\ld realize ev]y?+ t happ5$ ar\nd me4 ,on ! morn+ ( ! #bcrd1 at daylight1 "h !y came1 ab\t tw5ty 9 all1 two ( my own sons1 my nephew ,william1 ,bi%op ,e4 ,pom]oy1 ,john ,lewis1 ,john ,blackburn1 ,wiley ,jones & o!rs1 all fri5ds & relatives f ! ,mesa1 :o _h track$ me betwe5 sev5ty-five & "o hundr$ miles4 ,i %ook h&s ) !m1 & !y 7 all ov]joy$ to see me alive1 al?\gh 9 su* a pitiable plight4 ,my own feel+s ,i %all n und]take to describe4 ,i told !m to be v c>eful h[ !y let me h wat]1 at fir/4 ,!y roll$ me up 9 "s blankets & put me on a buck-bo>d & appo9t$ ,john ,lewis to look aft] me z doctor & nurse4 ,aft] ,i _h tak5 a few swall[s ( wat]1 ,i 0 almo/ frantic = m1 b !y wisely refus$ to let me h x except 9 small doses e half h\r4 ,i _h ab\t sev5ty-five miles to ride home4 ,we arriv$ at my place 9 ,jonesville on ! aft]noon ( ! #bd? ( ,novemb]1 :5 my wife & family took *>ge ( me & ,i 0 t5d]ly & c>efully n\ri%$4 ,9 a few days ,i 0 ar\nd aga94 ,i told my exp]i5ce to ,presid5t ,mc,donald1 ,bi%op ,pom]oy1 ,c4 ,i4 ,robson & o!rs1 & mo/ ( !m believ$ me1 b my ^w 0 d\bt$ by "s4 ,! report _h gone out t ,i _h be5 dr9k+ & 0 "u ! influ5ce ( liquor4 ,?is 0 an utt]ly false report4 ,i told !m ,i _h j two ye>s to live1 s !y c\ld tell :e!r x 0 a true manife/ation or n4 ,n[1 ,si/] ,hel51 dur+ ! la/ twelve ye>s ,i h _h d\bts ab\t ! tru? ( ',mormonism1' because ,i did n take a c\rse to keep my te/imony alive )9 me4 ,& ! lett] ,i wrote y la/ ,augu/1 ,i suppose caus$ y to feel sorr[ful1 & y pray$ = me & ,god he>d y\r pray]s4 ,& our fa!r & "m plead ) ! ,"l 9 my behalf1 to :om ,i w give ! cr$it ( ?is t]rible b useful ordeal ?r\gh :i* ,i h pass$ & only 9 "p describ$1 an ordeal :i* b few m5 h ev] be5 able to endure & relate :at ,i h se5 & he>d4 ,n[1 my de> si/]1 y h a little ( y\r bro!r ,david's exp]i5ce1 & let :o w ?9k t ,i _h be5 dr9k+4 ,i "k ^! ?+s 7 %[n to me = my own good1 & x 0 no dream b a glori\s & awful reality4 ,my /ory is believ$ by my bre?r5 :o h respect = me4 ,i w console myself ) ! k ,i h obta9$4 ,let ! _w wag on1 & let hell & ! devil keep up _! w>f>e aga9/ ! ,sa9ts ( ,god4 ,i "k = myself t ,mormonism is true4 ,) ,god's help1 :ile ,i live1 ,i %all /rive to d good1 & ,i w see y be=e long & tell y all1 z x nev] w be blott$ out ( my memory4 ,) k9d reg>ds1 9 :i* my wife & *ildr5 jo91 ,i rema91 z ev]1 ,y\r ,affectionate ,bro!r1 ,david ,p4 ,kimball4 ,,*apt] ,,ii4 ,,acc\nt ,,( ,,patt5 ,,kimball ,,& ,,o!rs1 ,,reg>d+ ,,! ,,se>* ,,= ,,& ,,f9d+ ,,( ,,8 ,,fa!r4 ,! foll[+ acc\nt is furni%$ by ,eld] ,solomon ,f4 ,kimball1 bro!r ( ,david ,p4 ,kimball1 :o 0 9 ,mesa at ! "t ( ! occurr5ce describ$ & ?or\ghly conv]sant ) ! facts3 ,on ! morn+ ( ,novemb] #ai? :5 ,patt5 arose & miss$ 8 fa!r he ?\ght probably he _h gone out to hunt = ! horses1 & felt no uneas9ess conc]n+ him4 ,he made a fire1 prep>$ breakfa/ & wait$ "s "t1 b c\ld n see or he> him any:]e4 ,! horses came /roll+ into camp & 7 ti$ up1 f$ & wat]$4 ,patt5 !n ate 8 meal & saddl$ a horse & rode back t[>ds ,wick5burg1 until he came to a small place call$ ,seym\r on ! ,hassayampa b c\ld f9d out no?+ ( 8 fa!r's :]eab\ts4 ,he w5t back to ! wagon & hunt$ ! c\ntry close ar\nd camp b f\nd no?+ b 8 fa!r's ov]coat1 :i* 0 a few hundr$ y>ds f ! wagon4 ,x be+ an old camp-gr\nd1 x 0 impossible to f9d 8 tracks4 ,he f9ally came to ! conclusion t he _h gone t[>ds home1 s he hit*$ up 8 team & drove homew>d until he came to ,mr4 ,cald]woods at ,agua ,fria4 7,cold ,wat]74 ,at ?is place !re 0 a well dug on ! des]t ab\t tw5ty miles f ,salt ,riv]4 ,patt5 _h travel$ ab\t tw5ty-two miles be=e rea*+ ?is po9t1 b 0 disappo9t$ 9 n he>+ any?+ ( 8 fa!r4 ,he _h travel$ all night & ,mr4 ,cald]wood 0 up & ar\nd :5 he arriv$4 ,he relat$ 8 /ory to him & 0 advis$ by him to leave 8 team !re & take ! be/ pair ( horses1 & hit* !m to 8 buck-bo>d & g on to ! ,mesa4 ,"h he c\ld get help to come & hunt = ! miss+ man4 ,! di/ance 0 =ty miles1 :i* w\ld take all ! re/ ( ! day 7! #bj?74 ,he act$ on ! advice1 h[ev]1 & arriv$ at 8 de/9ation at #i p4 m4 ,! news 0 circulat$1 & 9 less ?an two h\rs1 tw5ty ( ! be/ & mo/ exp]i5c$ m5 at ,mesa & ,jonesville 7 on ! road1 tak+ ,patt5 back ) !m4 ,!y also took a wagon to c>ry wat] & provisions1 b mo/ ( !m 7 on ! be/ ( horses4 ,!y _h sixty miles to ride1 be=e beg9n+ ! se>*1 :i* 0 accompli%$ by daylight next morn+4 ,aft] fe$+ _! horses & eat+ a lun* !y held a consultation & agre$ to abide by ! foll[+ rule4 ,if any "o ( ! p>ty f\nd 8 tracks he 0 to make a smoke & ?is w\ld call ! o!rs 9 t direction4 ,!y !n />t$ out 9 diff]5t directions4 ,!y sc\r$ ! c\ntry until ab\t noon1 :5 ,s]n ,sornson & ,*>les ,rog]s f\nd 8 tracks4 ,!y suppos$ !y 7 ab\t twelve miles f :]e he 0 lo/1 & ab\t t5 miles f ,agua ,fria1 close to ! ma9 road on ! s\? side4 ,!y soon ga!r$ "s bru% & />t$ a fire1 putt+ on pl5ty ( gre5 we$s1 etc41 to cause a smoke1 & soon attract$ ! att5tion ( _! comrades4 ,8 tracks 7 foll[$4 ,!y w\nd r\nd & r\nd1 go+ 9 no p>ticul> direction4 ,"s places he w\ld cross 8 tracks eight or t5 times 9 go+ "o hundr$ y>ds1 :i* made x q difficult to foll[4 ,aft] sp5d+ a "p ( ! aft]noon trail+ him up1 ! tracks f9ally took a direct c\rse lead+ to ! nor?4 ,by ?is "t all ! se>*+ p>ty 7 toge!r4 ,ano!r meet+ 0 held & ! plan adopt$ 0 = eight horsem51 f\r on ea* side ( 8 tracks1 to ride at a consid]able di/ance ap>t1 s z to cut (f ! track if x turn$ to ! "r or left1 & two or ?ree ( ! be/ trail]s to keep on ! tracks1 :ile ! buck-bo>d & wagon foll[$ up4 ,^! 7 out ( sight mo/ ( ! "t1 z v good "t 0 made by ! trail]s aft] ?is plan 0 adopt$4 ,! gr\nd 0 q s(t1 & ^? on ! trail w\ld gallop _! horses = miles1 b d>kness soon put an end to _! "w = ?is day1 a good ?+ = bo? m5 & animals4 ,!y _h travel$ upw>ds ( "o hundr$ miles 9 ab\t tw5ty h\rs4 ,!y 7 work+ m5 & _h pl5ty ( /r5g? to c>ry !m ?r\gh "u all circum/ances4 ,!y camp$ on ! highe/ gr\nd t c\ld be f\nd close by1 & made a l>ge fire :i* 0 kept up all night by ^? on gu>d4 ,z soon z x 0 light en\gh to see ! tracks1 e man 0 at 8 place mov+ z fa/ z he c\ld "u ! circum/ances4 ,?is 0 ! morn+ ( ! #bbnd4 ,"o great drawback !y met ) t day 0 t :5 !y w\ld come to a deep rav9e :]e wat] _h run dur+ ra9y wea!r1 ! tracks w\ld foll[ up sometimes = miles & !n cont9ue 9 ! =m] direction4 ,places w\ld frequ5tly be f\nd 9 ! s& :]e ! lo/ "o _h dug d[n = wat] ) 8 h&s4 ,n[ & !n !y w\ld f9d a piece ( 8 clo?+ & see places :]e he _h run into ! fox-tail cactus1 cat's-claw & o!r ?orny bu%es4 ,"o place 0 f\nd :]e he _h brok5 (f ! limb ( a tree = a walk+ /ick4 ,! p>ty foll[$ 8 tracks all day )\t /opp+1 only z !y 7 oblig$ to1 on acc\nt ( los+ ! trail or f "s o!r cause4 ,d>kness ov]took !m aga91 b no?+ c\ld be he>d or se5 ( ! miss+ man4 ,!y slept on 8 tracks1 keep+ up a fire all night z be=e4 ,8 sons & o!rs c\ld n re/1 & foll[$ 8 tracks aft] d>k by /rik+ mat*es & putt+ !m close to ! gr\nd to see if !y might possibly f9d him4 ,"s ?\ght !y c\ld he> a s\nd b x 0 s indi/9ct !y c\ld n disc]n ! direction f :i* x came4 ,x 0 inde$ he :o call$1 = !y 7 !n only a few hundr$ y>ds f him1 b he 0 too ho>se to make !m he>4 ,on ! morn+ ( ! #bcrd at daylight 8 anxi\s fri5ds 7 on 8 tracks1 & _h gone b a %ort di/ance :5 ,*>les ,pet]son saw him4 ,he _h a long /aff 9 8 h&1 & _h rais$ up z high z he c\ld get1 be+ on "o knee & ! o!r foot on ! gr\nd1 & 0 /ret*+ himself z f> z he c\ld & look+ eag]ly = _! arrival4 ,! cr[d made a ru%1 & 9 a few seconds 7 ) him1 ,bi%op ,e4 ,pom]oy be+ ! fir/4 ,he 0 9 8 "r m9d & knew all pres5t1 & 0 glad to %ake !m by ! h&1 call+ ea* by "n4 ,he 0 9 good spirits & jok$ ! boys frequ5tly & gave !m in/ructions to be c>eful 9 giv+ him wat]1 etc4 ,!re 0 no wat] except 9 a cante5 t _h be5 res]v$ = 8 especial use4 ,! company suff]$ !mselves = want ( wat]4 ,!y _h travel$ upw>ds ( "o hundr$ & fifty miles 9 less ?an =ty-eight h\rs4 ,david _h dug a deep hole ) 8 /ick & _h us$ 8 h&s to move ! dirt4 ,he said he 0 digg+ 8 own grave4 ,he 0 roll$ 9 blankets & put on ! buck-bo>d4 ,all drove to ! ne>e/ h\ses1 sev5 or eight miles di/ant1 on ! ,hassayampa1 :]e all refre%$ !mselves ) wat] & some?+ to eat4 ,soon !y 7 on ! road homew>d4 ,!y drove to ,mr4 ,cald]wood's1 :i* 0 ab\t ?irty miles1 & /ay$ all night4 ,he 0 v k9d to all & told !m to help !mselves to any ?+ he _h1 su* z hay1 gra9 & food4 ,he act$ ! g5tleman 9 e respect4 ,a l>ge numb] ( m5 _h also left ,pho5ix 9 se>* ( ,david1 among !m be+ ! ,u4 ,s4 ,m>%al1 & o!rs4 ,m5 & ,indians 7 rid+ ov] ! des]t 9 e direction4 ,next morn+ ! company drove to ,jonesville1 =ty miles di/ant1 :]e !y arriv$ ab\t #c p4 m4 ,david 0 c>ri$ into 8 h\se :]e he 0 surr\nd$ by 8 lov+ wife & *ildr54 ,:5 he rec\nt$ 8 exp]i5ce1 he said t "o ?+ t kept him f *ok+ to dea? = want ( wat]1 0 ! damp pebbles :i* he dug f l[ rav9es & held !m 9 8 m\?4 ,! ,indians said t no human be+ c\ld walk z f> z he did1 g )\t wat] & live f\r days & five nights4 ,! p>ty t f\nd him said he mu/ h walk$ at lea/ sev5ty-five miles1 "s said "o hundr$4 ,he te/ifi$ t on ! aft]noon ( ! #bbnd1 8 fa!r & "m came & gave him wat] & told him t 8 fri5ds w\ld f9d him4 ,8 clo?+ 0 all gone except 8 "u g>m5ts1 :i* 7 badly torn4 ,be=e leav+ home on 8 trip to ,prescott1 ,david _h work$ sev]al days fix+ up 8 books & acc\nts1 & burn+ up all useless pap]s1 aft] :i* he told 8 wife t he felt diff]5t 9 />t+ on ?is trip f any?+ he _h ev] felt be=e4 ,he said x seem$ to him t he %\ld nev] return4 ,he told h] t if ?is prov$ to be ! case1 he _h fix$ 8 bus9ess up 9 su* a %ape t %e w\ld h no tr\ble1 & w\ld "k z mu* ab\t x z himself4 ,%e frequ5tly spoke ( ^! curi\s rem>ks1 & felt consid]ably worri$4 ,:5 ! news came t he 0 lo/1 all 0 pla9 to h]1 & %e nev] expect$ to see him come home alive4 ,no?+ c\ld com=t h] & %e wat*$ night & day until he 0 br\ght home4 99 99 99 99 99 ,9 ! ,fall ( #ahhc1 ,eld] ,david ,p4 ,kimball paid a visit to ,salt ,lake ,city1 to see 8 si/] ,hel5 & o!rs1 to :om he confirm$ by 8 own lips all t 8 lett] conta9$1 & told "s o!r ?+s 9 relation to 8 m>vel\s exp]i5ce4 ,he decl>$ solemnly to h] t he 0 p]fectly sob] :5 he pass$ ?r\gh ! try+ ordeal relat$1 & bore a p[]ful te/imony to ! tru? ( ,mormonism4 ,he seem$ a little retic5t to mo/ ( 8 relatives1 & talk$ b little ( 8 /range exp]i5ce1 feel+ pa9$ t s _m seem$ to d\bt 8 ^w1 & be+ unwill+ to make himself obtrusive4 ,:5 he bade 8 fri5ds f>ewell1 !re 0 some?+ ab\t him :i* seem$ to say t he 0 tak+ leave ( !m = all "t4 ,?is visit 0 no d\bt made ) t prospect1 = x 0 almo/ two ye>s f ! "t he 0 lo/ on ! des]t4 ,he return$ home to ,/4 ,david1 ,co*ise ,c\nty1 ,arizona1 & almo/ ! next news t came f !re 0 ! tid+s ( 8 dea?4 ,a lett] f 8 nephew1 ,*>les ,s4 ,:itney1 :o 0 !n liv+ ) him1 writt5 home on ! #bbnd ( ,novemb]1 #ahhc1 conta9$ ?is3 ,uncle ,david di$ ?is morn+ at half-pa/ six1 easily1 & app>5tly )\t a bit ( pa94 ,%ortly be=e he di$1 he look$ up & call$1 ',fa!r1 fa!r6' ,all night long he _h call$ = ,uncle ,heb]4 ,y rememb] he>+ him tell h[ gr&-pa came to him :5 he 0 lo/ on ! des]t1 & h[ he plead = two m ye>s & 0 giv5 t mu* long] to /ay4 ,la/ ,saturday1 ! day he 0 s bad1 0 j two ye>s f ! day he 0 lo/1 & to-day is j two ye>s f ! day 8 fa!r & "m came to him & gave him a dr9k ( wat]1 & told him t 8 fri5ds w\ld f9d him & he %\ld live two ye>s long]4 ,he knew t he 0 go+ to die1 & bade ,aunt ,c>ol9e good-by day be=e ye/]day4 ,,briant ,s4 ,,/ev5s4 ,a ,little ,savior 9 ! ,mid/ ( ,8 ,"y ,companions4 ,,by ,,k5non4 ,,*apt] ,i4 ,,briant ,,/r+am ,,/ev5s ,,becomes ,a ,,mission>y ,,to ,,8 ,,associates ,,& ,,br+s ,,f\r ,,boys ,,to ,,belief ,,& ,,baptism--,a ,,good ,,*ild ,,:o ,,pass$ ,,amid/ ,,! ,,daily ,,temptations ,,( ,,life ,,unsca!d4 ,if !re is any?+ t w endure ,! eye ( ,god because x /ill is pure1 ,x is ! _s ( a little *ild1 ,fre% f ,8 h&s1 & !re=e undefil$4 ,ne>] ! gate ( ,p>adise ?an we1 ,our *ildr5 brea! its airs1 its angels see2 ,& :5 !y pray ,god he>s _! simple pray]1 ,yea1 ev5 %ea!s ,8 sword1 9 judgm5t b>e4 ,^! ?\ghtful words ( ! poet always recurr$ to my m9d :5 ,i met little ,briant ,/ev5s4 ,we notice1 ) mo/ *ildr51 h[ quickly !y gr[ away f ! absolute & p]fect purity ( *ildhood into ! he$lessness ( y\?2 & (t51 too (t51 ) _! exp]i5ce ( life comes exp]i5ce ( wrong4 ,( all ! boys t ,i ev] met1 :o _h rea*$ ye>s ( acc\ntability1 ,i ?9k ,briant ,/ev5s bore 9 8 face & mann] ! mo/ evid5ce ( a ret5tion ( t sa9tl9ess :i* is ! end[m5t ( ea* ( ,god's little ones4 ,n t he seem$ too solemn = e>?3 b because !re 0 a fe>less grace1 & yet a t5d]ness1 :i* %[$ t ! inh]5t beauty ( 8 "y life 0 /ill unsoil$4 ,y he> t boy laugh8--y ?9k he's 9 fun2 ,b ! angels laugh1 too1 at ! good he has done2 ,! *ildr5 laugh l\d z !y troop to 8 call1 ,& ! poor man t kn[s him laughs l\de/ ( all6 ,?is 0 ! boy1 ,briant ,/r+am ,/ev5s4 ,(t5 h ,i se5 /rang]s :5 pass+ him 9 ! /reet pause & make inquiry conc]n+ him4 ,8 demeanor 0 s admirable t !y c\ld n re/ra9 a desire to "k some?+ ( him4 ,di/9ctly ,i c rememb] ! fir/ "t ,i ev] saw him--:5 he 0 ab\t t5 ye>s old4 ,he _h 8 books "u 8 arm1 & 0 evid5tly go+ to s*ool4 ,8 appe>ance 0 s attractive t ,i felt impell$ to /op him & ask 8 "n4 ,)\t ! slighte/ emb>rassm5t1 he lift$ 8 hat & answ]$ me politely & cordially4 ,f t "t ,i nev] met him )\t receiv+ 8 g5tlemanly salutation4 ,^? ( our p :o knew him c all consci5ti\sly speak ( him z ,! ,little ,sa9t2 scores ( worldly p :o knew him call him ,! ,little ,g5tleman4 99 99 99 99 99 ,briant ,/r+am ,/ev5s 0 ! son ( ,?omas ,jordan ,/ev5s & ,m>ia ,/r+am ,/ev5s1 & ! gr&son ( ,briant ,/r+am4 ,he 0 born ,decemb] #bd?1 #ahgc1 9 ! ,?irte5? ,w>d ( ,salt ,lake ,city4 ,he di$ ,febru>y #crd1 #ahhg1 at ,ogd54 ,few p :o h b>ely liv$ to ent] _! f\rte5? ye> h done s mu* t is wor?y ( record & emulation z ?is little boy4 ,aft] he _h obta9$ memb]%ip 9 ! ,*ur* ?r\gh baptism1 he became deeply impress$ ) ! desire to br+ ! same bless+s to o!rs4 ,among 8 playmates 7 sev]al boys :o 7 8 own age & "s :o 7 old] ?an himself2 & ^: p>5ts _h fail$--ei!r ?r\gh c>elessness or int5tion--to h _! *ildr5 baptiz$4 ,)\t a h9t f any p]son1 little ,briant took ^u himself ! duty to conv9ce ^! *ildr5 & _! p>5ts ( ! necessity ( baptism4 ,:at anxi\s h\rs ! little fell[ sp5t 9 devis+ means to influ5ce 8 playmates1 no "o liv+ n[ c tell2 b ! subject seem$ ev] pres5t ) him1 & aft] mon?s ( labor among 8 companions he _h conv]t$ f\r ( ! boys at lea/ "o ( :om 0 old] ?an himself1 to a belief 9 ! ,gospel1 & to desire = memb]%ip 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,*ri/4 ,briant ask$ 8 fa!r to adm9i/] ! ord9ance to ^! little conv]ts2 b ,bro!r ,/ev5s in=m$ ! *ild t he c\ld n baptize any ( ! boys )\t ! cons5t ( _! p>5ts4 ,/ill ( 8 own volition1 & )\t in/ruction or advice f anybody1 ,briant visit$ ! homes ( 8 playmates1 & began a mission>y labor ) ! p>5ts4 ,no?+ c\ld disc\rage him2 he w5t bravely to ! p & plead$ ) !m on behalf ( _! sons4 ,&1 aft] pati5t & hopeful wait+1 ,briant ga9$ ! cons5t :i* he s e>ne/ly s\ght4 ,x 0 a happy day = him :5 he w5t ) 8 fa!r to ! bank ( ! ,ogd5 ,riv] & saw 8 companions1 :o 7 mo/ truly 8 little bre?r51 em]ge f ! wat] & receive _! confirmation = ! gift ( ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,b ,briant's gu>dian%ip ( ^! boys did n end :5 _! baptism 0 accompli%$4 ,) a gravity beyond 8 ye>s1 he visit$ !m "o aft] ano!r at _! homes1 & in/ruct$ !m conc]n+ ! responsibilities :i* !y _h assum$1 & ! necessity ( purity ( conduct becom+ to ,sa9ts ( ,god1 if !y wi%$ to d]ive bless+ f _! ob$i5ce to ! holy requirem5t4 ,:5ev] & :]ev] he met !m1 he 0 always ready & able to c\nsel !m2 & yet he did n tr\ble !m ) long s]mons1 b spoke to !m ) s mu* feel+ & good-fell[%ip t !y 7 l$ day by day to a great] dete/ation ( evil1 & to a great] love = good4 ,he p]suad$ !m to att5d ,sunday ,s*ool1 & to take "p 9 ! ex]cises ( ! ,preceptor ,class2 nev] p]mitt+ !m to w&] v long or v f> )\t giv+ !m 8 admonition4 ,old] p]sons :o h _h exp]i5ce 9 ?is matt] w readily und]/& t 8 "w1 ev5 ) 8 f\r "y conv]ts1 0 a daily "o4 ,x 0 n suffici5t to br+ !m into ! ,*ur*2 b1 ) all ! di/ract+ influ5ces :i* surr\nd$ !m1 x 0 necess>y t !y %\ld le>n to love ! tru? & to und]/& x = !mselves4 ,"o ( ^! boys1 :o liv$ ne> to ,briant's home & 0 8 frequ5t companion1 became anxi\s to hold ! ,a>onic ,prie/hood4 ,he _h arriv$ at ye>s :i* ju/ifi$ t wi%1 & he talk$ ) ,briant ^u ! subject4 ,briant consult$ ) ,bro!r ,/ev5s & le>n$ t x w\ld be possible = 8 companion to receive ! desir$ ord9ance1 b t cons5t mu/ be ga9$ f ! boy's p>5ts4 ,aga9 ,briant took ^u himself ! responsibility ( ga9+ t p]mission2 b ! opportunity did n come 9 ?is life4 ,he 0 ext5d+ 8 little mission>y labors up to ! v h\r t he 0 /rick54 ,sev]al o!r boys _h ar\s$ 8 int]e/1 & sometimes he confid$ to 8 fa!r t he hop$ to see ^! companions d mu* good1 ?\gh _! ways 7 n always becom+ to *ildr5 :o believ$ 9 ! gospel4 ,on m ?an "o occasion :5 he f\nd ^! boys laps+ into wrong-do+ or c>elessness1 he confess$ to 8 fa!r a fe> t he w\ld n be able to d !m any good1 & t he mu/ cease 8 association ) !m4 ,& yet he always return$ to ! labor ) r5ew$ hope & c\rage4 ,x is a dang]\s exp]im5t to tru/ "o good boy ) a numb] ( playmates :o are n :at !y %\ld be2 because1 z a rule1 he le>ns to p>take ) !m4 ,b ,bro!r ,/ev5s gives a m>vel\s te/imony to ! wor? ( 8 son :5 he says3 ,i nev] felt ! slighte/ fe> = ,briant4 ,9 ?is matt] ,i knew t he 0 l$ by a good ,_s1 & ,i tru/$ him implicitly & )\t requir+ him to acc\nt = 8 conduct4 ,he seem$ 9 all matt]s ( goodness to be easily impress$2 b evil appe>$1 if n incompreh5sible1 at lea/ entirely unattractive to him4 ,! tea*] ( ! ,preceptor ,class :i* ,briant att5d$ 0 ,bro!r ,au/9 ,c4 ,br[n2 he says t ! que/ions :i* ,briant prop\nd$ to him occasion$ great m>vel 9 8 m9d4 ,! cle>ness ) :i* ! "y boy spoke ( ! pr9ciples ( ! gospel1 ! p]fect und]/&+ :i* he seem$ to ga91 almo/ intuitively1 ( ! tru?1 7 z surpris+ z !y 7 gratify+4 ,9 o!r matt]s ! boy 0 v precoci\s4 ,he att5d$ ! academic dep>tm5t ( ! ,c5tral ,s*ool ( ,ogd51 & 0 ! y\nge/1 ?\gh n ! la/1 9 8 class4 ,he e>ly develop$ a tal5t = draw+ & pa9t+1 & 8 p>5ts & fri5ds are n[ 9 possession ( "s exquisite little gems produc$ by him4 ,be=e he receiv$ ! ,prie/hood he 0 a con/ant att5dant ^u ! meet+s ( 8 "y bre?r51 ! ,deacons2 & he anxi\sly await$ ! "t :5 he c\ld be deem$ ( suffici5t age & wor? to receive an ord9ation to ?is call+4 ,he _h ! highe/ rev]5ce = ! ,prie/hood1 & he believ$ mo/ firmly 9 ! p[] ( ! gospel4 ,:5ev] he 0 9 pa9 or illness1 8 sole desire 0 = ! bless+ ( 8 fa!r or o!r ,eld]s ( ! ,*ur*4 ,sev]al times he 0 in/antly heal$ f infirmities "u ! adm9i/ration ( ! s]vants ( ,god4 ,at home he 0 p]petual sun%9e4 ,f ! h\r t he 0 #aj ye>s old he nev] p]mitt$ 8 fa!r to att5d to any ( ! labors 9 ! g>d5 or ) ! /ock :i* 8 "y h&s c\ld p]=m4 ,he 0 s k9d to ! horse & ! c[1 & ! o!r dome/ic animals1 t !y le>n$ to "k him & to love him p]fectly4 ,ev5 ! cat w\ld foll[ him ?r\gh ! g>d51 & run to rub h] head aga9/ 8 leg4 ,! p>rot1 :5 releas$ f its cage1 w\ld foll[ him ab\t ! h\se l a dog4 ,x w\ld m\nt to 8 %\ld] & kiss 8 *eeks or lips da9tily & t5d]ly2 :ile ) ev]ybody else x %[$ ! crossness = :i* p>rots are prov]bial1 bit+1 scold+ & claw+ at ! slighte/ attempt at famili>ity4 ,briant kept _m pigeons--(t5 z _m z fifty at "o "t4 ,!y knew him & flock$ ab\t him fe>lessly4 ,he gave _m ( !m away to 8 "y fri5ds1 b nev] )\t exact+ a promise f ! boys t !y w\ld be k9d to ! birds & w\ld n sell !m to anyone :o w\ld abuse !m4 ,he _h a great horror ( ! cruelty ( pigeon-%oot+ mat*es1 & w\ld n sell "o ( 8 doves = su* a purpose "u any circum/ances1 or = any am\nt ( money4 ,if /range boys came to him to buy pigeons1 he inv>iably enquir$ = :at purpose !y 7 pur*as$4 ,& unless ! buy]s w\ld give him a fai?ful promise n to sell ! birds = %oot+-mat*es1 he w\ld n "p ) 8 pets4 ,:5ev] he receiv$ money f ! sale ( pigeons1 he c>ri$ x to 8 fa!r1 & (f]$ x ) ! rem>k t he c>$ no?+ = x1 & want$ 8 fa!r to use x = ! be/ purpose4 ,he _h b "o extravagance ) money--& t 0 to give x to ! poor4 ,n only w\ld he "p ) 8 la/ dime = ?is purpose1 b (t5 he borr[$ money f 8 relatives & fri5ds to give to ! ne$y4 ,ab\t f\r ye>s be=e ,briant's dea?1 8 little bro!r1 ,jordan1 di$4 ,! two _h be5 insep>able--bro!rs 9 ! fulle/ s5se4 ,!y %>$ all _! possessions equally2 & "o nev] felt cont5t )\t ! pres5ce & happ9ess ( ! o!r4 ,:5 ,jordan pass$ f e>?1 ,briant said to 8 fa!r3 ,i "k t my de> little bro!r is happy & well2 b ,i _c help feel+ lonesome4 ,he ga!r$ up ,jordan's %>e ( ! toys & books :i* _h belong$ to !m1 & put !m sacr$ly away4 ,to ?is h\r !y rema9 9 ! place & 9 ! ord] :]e !y 7 put by 8 lov+ little h&s4 ,a few mon?s be=e ,briant 0 /rick5 he lo/ a favorite pigeon4 ,x 0 a sn[-:ite bird :i* _h belong$ to ,jordan4 ,:5 ,briant f\nd t x 0 surely gone he %$ "s te>s1 & said to 8 "m3 ,i w\ld h pref]r$ to lose all my o!r pigeons ?an to h lo/ ,:itey1 = t 0 little ,jordie's pet4 ,!n he drew a p]fect picture ( ! lo/ bird & plac$ x 9 a nook 9 ! b>n1 und]nea? ^! words3 ,:itey1 n9e ye>s old4 ,) all ! _m virtues & ! ?\ghtfulness ( ?is little boy1 he 0 n mawki% 9 8 mann]4 ,at times1 :5 deeply impress$1 he 0 solemn 9 ^w & look2 b he 0 full ( heal?y s5tim5t1 & 0 bubbl+ ov] ) en]gy & brightness4 ,,*apt] ,,ii4 ,,accid5ts ,,to ,,briant--,,he ,,is ,,orda9$ ,,to ,,! ,,prie/hood--,,pati5t ,,endurance ,,( ,,8 ,,suff]+s--,,he ,,is ,,bless$ ,,to ,,be ,,an ,,eld] ,,& ,,!n ,,slumb]s ,,9 ,,dea?4 ,9 ,octob] la/1 #ahhf1 ) a numb] ( companions ,briant 0 play+ on a trapeze at ! h\se ( a fri5d1 :5 he fell & broke 8 "r arm4 ,aft] ! accid5t1 ,briant did n hurry to 8 home1 :i* 0 only a block away2 b an h\r lat] 8 fa!r f\nd him at ! doctor's (fice1 :]e ! arm _h be5 set4 ,briant 0 p]fectly compos$2 &1 in/ead ( cry+ z mo/ boys d :5 a new sympa?is] comes1 he gave 8 fir/ ?\ght to 8 "m1 :o _h be5 q ill & _h n yet entirely recov]$4 ,he said to 8 fa!r3 ,i hope mamma does n "k ( ?is4 ,if n1 !n we w keep x f h]2 because %e w\ld worry a great deal1 & ! anxiety might make h] worse4 ,:5 !y w5t home ,briant b\nd$ into ! h\se ) a smile on 8 lips1 & 9 reply to 8 "m's anxi\s que/ions he said3 ,no?+ s]i\s1 mamma4 ,i h /ra9$ my arm2 b x w be well 9 a few days4 ,he kiss$ h] & !n ran laugh+ f ! room1 al?\gh at ! "t he mu/ h be5 suff]+ excruciat+ pa94 ,"s "t elaps$ be=e 8 "m knew ! tru?2 & !n %e did n le>n x f ,briant4 ,he _h recov]$ f ! outw>d appe>ance ( 8 injury to 8 arm1 b x 0 n yet /rong1 :5 he met ) ano!r & m s]i\s accid5t4 ,) two ( 8 companions he 0 jump+ f a l[ ro(1 :5 8 foot caught & he fell headlong to ! gr\nd4 ,! weak arm receiv$ ! weight ( ! %ock2 ! old break 0 re-op5$ & ! bones 7 split 9 a new place1 & "o ( !m protrud$ f a ble$+ w\nd 9 ! wri/4 ,he _h fall5 ^u a heap ( s&1 & :5 he rose to 8 feet he f\nd t 9 ! ga% made by ! brok5 bone ! s& & dirt _h p5etrat$4 ,he sat d[n & wip$ 8 wri/ & ! bone clean1 put back ! bone inside ! fle% ( 8 arm1 & !n />t$ = ! doctor's (fice4 ,z 9 ! o!r in/ance1 8 home 0 only a block away1 b he did n wi% to al>m 8 folks4 ,fail+ to f9d ! doctor he w5t to a drug /ore1 &1 expla9+ 8 injury1 ask$ t ! physician be s5t =4 ,an h\r lat] ,bro!r ,/ev5s f\nd ,briant sitt+1 pale b complac5t1 9 ! doctor's (fice1 await+ treatm5t4 ,! necess>y op]ation 0 long & pa9ful1 & at its close ,briant 0 v weak4 ,he :isp]$ to 8 fa!r3 ,i am all "r1 papa1 & w soon be well2 b ,i hope t we c get home quickly1 because ,i want y to adm9i/] to me4 ,?is second s]i\s accid5t occurr$ on ! #ah? ( ,janu>y1 #ahhg2 a week lat]--on ! #be? day ( ! mon?--lock-jaw set 91 & 8 suff]+ became int5se4 ,bro!r ,/ev5s w5t on ! day foll[+ to ask ! assi/ance ( ,eld]s ,george ,w4 ,l>k9 & ,moroni ,p\lt] 9 wat*+ ) ,briant2 & ^! two bre?r5 rema9$ alt]nately at ! *ild's b$side1 day & night1 until he clos$ 8 eyes 9 dea?4 ,on ! morn+ ( ! #bf? ( ,janu>y1 be=e ! visit ( ,bro!r ,/ev5s1 ,eld] ,l>k9 said to 8 family3 ,i _h a /range & sad dream ab\t little ,briant ,/ev5s la/ night4 ,i wond] if ! boy is sick4 ,half an h\r lat] ,bro!r ,/ev5s call$ ) ! sorr[ful message2 b ,eld] ,l>k91 ?\gh amaz$ at ! co9cid5ce1 w\ld n relate ! nature ( 8 dream1 = fe> ( r5d+ ! fa!r's he>t4 ,b ! dream 0 lat] fulfill$ to ! lett]1 & 0 !n fully /at$4 ,bi%op ,/rat=d _h select$ ,briant1 a few weeks be=e ! second accid5t1 z a prop] subject = ord9ation to ! ,a>onic ,prie/hood2 b ! ord9ance _h n yet be5 att5d$ to4 ,& :ile ,briant 0 pro/rat$1 he 0 com=t$ by receiv+ ?is bless+ "u ! direction ( ! prop] au?orities4 ,at ! same "t he rememb]$ 8 promise to 8 "y conv]t & companion1 & he s impress$ 8 anxiety ^u 8 fa!r's m9d t--on ! v day ( ,briant's fun]al--,bro!r ,/ev5s visit$ ! o!r little *ap & made an arrangem5t = 8 ord9ation4 ,:5 ! m s]i\s affliction ( lock-jaw came ^u ,briant1 he express$ b "o regret3 he fe>$ t 8 mis=tunes 7 br++ tr\ble & annoyance ^u 8 p>5ts & fri5ds4 ,beyond ?is s\rce ( anxiety1 all 0 peace ) him4 ,he nev] express$ ! slighte/ fe> = himself4 ,he 0 always1 accord+ to 8 hopeful words1 9 a /ate ( improvem5t3 nev] ne$+ any?+ except ! bless+ ( ,god2 nev] endur+ mu* pa92 b q cont5t if ! ,eld]s 7 pres5t to adm9i/] to him & to talk ) him ab\t ! ?+s ( ,god4 ,"o day he call$ 8 fa!r & "m to 8 b$side & said to !m3 ,i am n afraid to die2 = !re is no?+ 9 dea? ( :i* ,i h any dread4 ,only ,i want to take "p 9 ! build+ ( ! temple to ,god 9 ,jackson ,c\nty4 ,on ano!r occasion he said to ! ,eld]s :o 7 wat*+ ) him3 ,i %all get bett] soon1 & !n ,i %all be able to repay y = y\r great k9dness4 ,i want to see ! com+ ( our ,"l ,jesus2 ,i want to g back to ,jackson ,c\nty to help to build ! temple !re = ,him4 ,& ,i "k t ,i w aid 9 ?is "w4 ,"o ( ! bre?r5 0 mov$ ^u by ! ,_s ( ,god to adm9i/] to ,briant & to promise t ?is hope %\ld be fulfill$2 t ! boy %\ld see ! com+ ( ,*ri/ & be ) ! ,sa9ts 9 ,jackson ,c\nty :5 !y %\ld build ! temple4 ,night aft] night ! ,eld]s came & wat*$ ) ,briant1 bless+ him & m9i/]+ to 8 wants4 ,!y e/eem$ x n a task1 b a pleasure2 because1 z !y all /at$1 !y nev] be=e felt su* a con/ant p[] & influ5ce ( ! ,_s z !y enc\nt]$ at ?is boy's b$side4 ,s peaceful & joy\s 0 ! manife/ation to !m t ev]yone felt t no dea? 0 9 ! h\se4 ,b ! night be=e ,briant di$ "o ( ! ,eld]s :o _h att5d$ at ! b$side1 fell asleep :ile ?9k+ ab\t ! sick *ild4 ,he dream$ t himself & ?ree ( 8 companion ,eld]s1 :o _h also wait$ on ,briant1 w5t ^u a j\rney into a di/ant & beautiful c\ntry4 ,!y seem$ to h "s def9ite object 9 view1 b dur+ _! travel ?is object 0 n pres5t to _! m9ds4 ,:5 !y rea*$ ! fair l& ( _! de/9ation1 !y saw a sup]b build+1 :i* !y at once div9$ to be a temple ( ! liv+ ,god4 ,x 0 n yet complet$2 b x _h assum$ su* proportions z to %[ ! utmo/ gr&eur4 ,x 0 con/ruct$ ( :ite1 %9+ /one1 seem+ly z h>d z granite4 ,_m workm5 appe>$ to be engag$ 9 ! build+2 & "o ( !m1 clo!d 9 a :ite robe1 ) 8 head & h&s & feet b>e1 /ood ^u ! gr\nd ne> ! entrance to ! /ructure4 ,9 ! :ite out] wall1 at "o side ( ! mighty ar*$ doorway1 & at ! height ( a man's head1 a monogram seem$ to be newly set into ! /one4 ,x 0 compos$ ( ?ree lett]s2 ! top "o be+ ,b1 cle>ly di/+ui%able2 & ! o!r two be+ fa9t]4 ,at once ! soj\rn]s knew t ?is 0 :at !y _h come aft]4 ,! ,eld] :o dream$1 ?\ght t he rea*$ =w>d & attempt$ to take x f its place4 ,b ! :ite rob$ workman /ay$ 8 h&1 say+3 ,y _c take x4 ,x has be5 set "h by ord] ( ! ,ma/]1 z an ornam5t to ?is temple4 ,! ,eld]s !n walk$ ar\nd ! build+1 & ent]$ ! int]ior ?r\gh a magnific5t portal1 & saw t mu* workman%ip ( f9e patt]ns 0 be+ us$ 9 ! adornm5t ( ! /ructure4 ,!y walk$ out & once m essay$ to pluck ! monogram f its place 9 ! glitt]+ wall4 ,b aga9 ! voice ( ! gu>dian workman /ay$ _! h&s4 ,= ! second "t !y walk$ ar\nd ! temple1 ent]$ ?r\gh ! ar*way & gaz$ at ! magnific5t int]ior4 ,!n !y said3 ,let u try once m4 ,! ?ird "t ! ,eld] /ret*$ out 8 h& to take ! monogram2 b1 z on ! o!r occasions1 he 0 told to desi/4 ,! workman _h spok5 to him ea* "t 9 p]fect k9dness1 b 9 a decid$ tone4 ,on ?is f9al ef=t a voice s\nd+ l a trumpet desc5d$ f ! top ( ! build+1 say+3 ,bro!r call+ him by "n1 y mu/ g back2 y\r wi% _c be grant$4 ,!n !y )drew4 ,soon ! ,eld] awoke1 & he felt c]ta9 t ! pray]s :i* _h be5 (f]$ conc]n+ ,briant ,/ev5s--?\gh !y _h rea*$ ! ?rone ( ! ,et]nal ,fa!r--7 p[]less to *ange ! decree :i* _h be5 made 9 heav5 conc]n+ ! boy1 & t ,briant mu/ spe$ily pass f e>?4 ,! next day ?is ,eld] 0 sitt+ 9 ,fa/ meet+1 :5 ! dream recurr$ to 8 m9d2 & in/antly he felt t ,briant %\ld be orda9$ to ! ,mel*is$ec ,prie/hood be=e 8 dea?4 ,! ,eld] w\ld h gone to ! h\se1 b a sudd5 impression came to him t he ne$ h no anxiety1 = ! matt] 0 already receiv+ att5tion4 ,on ! morn+ ( ! #crd ( ,febru>y1 :i* 0 ,fa/-day1 ,bro!r ,/ev5s 0 prompt$ to orda9 ,briant to ! ,mel*is$ec ,prie/hood2 b he endeavor$ to bani% ! ?\ght f 8 m9d4 ,x con/antly recurr$ to him1 ea* "t gr[+ m imp]ative4 ,he 0 n alone 9 ?is feel+1 = sev]al ,eld]s :o _h wat*$ ) ,briant felt ! same influ5ce at ! same "t1 al?\gh !y 7 n all pres5t4 ,b "o ( !m1 :o 0 sitt+ at ! b$side1 said3 ,bro!r ,/ev5s1 ,i h felt = sev]al h\rs t ,i ought to speak to y ab\t orda9+ ,briant to be an ,eld] 9 ! ,*ur*4 ,i ?9k t y ought to d ?is at once4 ,bro!r ,/ev5s admitt$ t ! same feel+ _h be5 9 8 m9d2 b t he _h hesitat$1 = fe> t su* a c\rse might seem l giv+ up a hope ( ,briant's recov]y4 ,b aft] su* admonitions he c\ld no long] neglect ! w>n+1 & he s5t = ! ,bi%op4 ,! mess5g]1 on 8 way to ! ,bi%op's place1 met ,presid5t ,%urtliff & spoke to him ( ,briant2 & ! ,presid5t seem$ to h ent]ta9$ ! same ?\ght1 = he said t he 0 l$ to believe t ,briant %\ld receive ! ,mel*is$ec ,prie/hood4 ,:5 ?is holy ord9ation 0 conf]r$ ^u him1 ,briant became s]5e1 ?\gh he _h be5 9 great pa9 = "s "t prec$+1 & he sank at once into an easy slumb]4 ,he woke n 9 ?is _w4 ,9 an h\r 8 brea?+ ceas$ & 8 _s left ! tortur$ clay to und]go ! transition ( nature1 :ile ! noble life w5t to ano!r realm to p]=m its de/9$ mission4 ,eld] ,george ,l>k9 0 9 ! room :5 ,briant di$2 & to him 0 entru/$ ! sad duty ( prep>+ ! wa/$ body = its burial4 ,:5 8 solemn task 0 complet$ he bur/ into te>s & said to ,bro!r ,/ev5s3 ,n[ my dream is fulfill$4 ,! night be=e y call$ = me1 a vision came 9 my slumb]4 ,i saw ,briant ly+ dead 9 ?is room1 & m9e 0 ! dread duty to wa% & dress 8 des]t$ tab]nacle & place x 9 ! c(f94 ,& s x has come to pass1 exactly accord+ to my dream4 ,,*apt] ,,iii4 ,a ,,helpful ,,vision ,,to ,,briant',s ,,/rick5 ,,fa!r--,,! ,,com=t] ,,br+s ,,! ,,peace ,,:i* ,,passes ,,all ,,und]/&+--,,! ,,fun]al ,,( ,,! ,,little ,,mission>y--,,8 ,,"w ,,lives ,,aft] ,,him4 ,!re 0 b "o ?\ght produc$ 9 ! m9ds ( all :o knew ( ! la/ sc5e at ?is good little ,briant's b$side3 x 0 t 9 all ! spasms & torture ( 8 dread disease he _h be5 kept alive to receive ! p[] ( ?is ord9ation2 & z soon z ! adm9i/ration 0 effect$1 ! purpose ( 8 mortal life 0 fulfill$1 & he pass$ f a peaceful slumb] on e>? into a glori\s wak+ beyond4 ,! night aft] ,briant di$1 ,bro!r & ,si/] ,/ev5s 7 cru%$ ) woe4 ,!y 7 n entirely disconsolate2 !y did n m\rn z ^? :o h no hope1 & yet !y seem$ unable to reconcile !mselves to ! loss ( _! pride & joy4 ,bro!r ,/ev5s himself said to a fri5d at ?is h\r3 ,i "k t ,briant is at peace4 ,i "k t he is a treasure & a joy to 8 ,god :]ev] he is2 & ,i d n rep9e at ! decree :i* has tak5 him away1 aft] s _m ye>s ( bless+ 9 8 society2 b :5 ,i rememb] t 9 e nook ab\t our home !re is "s evid5ce ( 8 h&iwork2 :5 ,i ?9k ( all ! com=t he has be5--,i _c hold back ?is feel+ ( agony4 ,t night ,bro!r ,/ev5s pray$ t ! ,"l w\ld give consolation2 & make manife/ some?+ ( ,8 glory to bani% ! ov]:elm+ sorr[ :i* 0 9 t /rick5 home4 ,:5 ,bro!r ,/ev5s fell asleep he dream$2 & x became a dream )9 a dream3 ,he ?\ght t he w5t to b$ & dream$ t ,briant 0 dead4 ,! fri5ds & relatives :o flock$ ar\nd 7 moan+ 9 angui% & ask+ 9 agoniz$ tones :at !y c\ld d to br+ little ,briant back to life4 ,! fa!r retir$ to a room & fell ^u 8 knees1 & ask$ ! ,"l :at %\ld be done 9 ! matt]2 & ! voice ( ! ,_s came to him1 say+3 ,,cov] ,,briant',s ,,body ,,) ,,clay2 ,,& ,,!n ,,pati5tly ,,await ,,my ,,purpose4 ,,if ,,y ,,w ,,obey ,,?is ,,comm&1 ,i ,,w ,,%[ ,,y ,,! ,,glory ,,n[ ,,possess$ ,,by ,,briant4 ,:ile he /ill knelt ?is comm& 0 repeat$2 & he rose to 8 feet4 ,ent]+ ! room :]e ! little :ite-rob$ figure lay1 he said to ! weep+ att5dants3 ,i "k n[ :at ,i %all d4 ,y ne$ worry no m2 because ,god has told me1 & ,i w fulfill ,8 design4 ,! fa!r lift$ ! body 9 8 arms f ! b$ :]eon x lay 9 dread repose1 & laid x ^u ! floor4 ,he took clay & ) 8 h&s cov]$ ! m>ble =m deeply1 until !re 0 visible no semblance ( ! body4 ,& !n he sat d[n to await ,god's purpose4 ,a long "t & pati5tly he seem$ to sit2 & at l5g? he saw a light & 9 ?is light 0 little ,briant1 /&+ 9 ! air1 rob$ 9 sn[y :it5ess1 ) a face transfigur$ 9 its light & beauty4 ,! boy smil$ at him & mov$ 8 h&s z if 9 lov+ recognition4 ,?is e!real =m ( ,briant mov$ ab\t 9 ! room )\t ef=t4 ,a s+le incl9ation ( ! %9+ head seem$ to project ! body 9 any desir$ direction4 ,:ile ! fa!r wat*$ & m>vell$ & felt great joy1 he dream$ t he awoke f 8 dream & f\nd 8 little ,briant /ill convuls$ & tortur$ by ! p[] ( ! ,de/roy]4 ,& !n he seem$ to weep 9 agony because ( 8 boy's suff]+2 = n[ in/ead ( a famili> face yet transfigur$ 9 lovely happ9ess1 he saw a c\nt5ance /range & di/ort$ by pa94 ,he wi%$ & pray$ t ,briant's torture might cease1 & t ! boy might be translat$ to heav5ly radiance4 ,b soon 9 reality ! fa!r awoke1 & s5s$ t ,briant 0 surely dead4 ,& back came to 8 s\l ! feel+ ( pati5t hope & unrep9+ tru/ :i* _h seem$ to p]vade ! inn] dream4 ,he s9c]ely & submissively prais$ ,god's holy "n4 ,he told 8 wife :at he _h se5 9 ?is vision ( ! night1 & toge!r !y took com=t2 & ?r\gh all ! tribulation & lonel9ess :i* h foll[$ ! loss ( _! elde/ boy1 !y h felt a com=t & su/a9+ p[] :i* no?+ on e>? c give1 & no?+ on e>? c take away4 ,!y "k t1 hav+ cov]$ ,briant's body ) clay1 !y h n[ b to pati5tly await ,god's purpose1 & ,he w sometime re/ore to !m ! glorifi$1 ! r$eem$1 ! happy *ild4 ,! fun]al ( ?is little ,eld] ( ! ,*ur* 0 held 9 ! ,w>d ,meet+ ,h\se 9 ,ogd5 on ,sunday1 ,febru>y #f?1 #ahhg1 & 0 att5d$ by "s hundr$s ( p1 t5 ( ,briant's "y companions act+ z pall be>]s4 ,x 0 ! rem>k ( ! majority ( ^? :o 7 pres5t t ! ,_s ( ,god seem$ to fill ! meet+-h\se & make its abid+-place 9 e he>t4 ,among ! speak]s 7 ! ,eld]s :o _h att5d$ ,briant 9 8 f9al act ( suff]+4 ,!y paid a glori\s tribute to 8 pati5ce & to 8 integrity4 ,all felt t x 0 9 fulfillm5t ( ,god's own purpose t ,briant _h be5 call$ f e>?2 & t ! agony :i* he _h endur$ 0 b ! doorway ?r\gh :i* he ent]$ into ! ,et]nal ,pres5ce4 ,! ,eld] :o _h promis$ 9 a holy adm9i/ration to ,briant t ! *ild %\ld h 8 hope fulfill$ & engage 9 ! build+ ( ! temple ) ! ,sa9ts 9 ,jackson ,c\nty1 address$ ! congregation 9 a mo/ feel+ mann]4 ,x 0 he :o _h dream$ ( ! temple & ! monogram ( ,briant's "n4 ,& he knew t ! h& ( ,god 0 9 ! ev5t ( ! boy's dea?4 ,:ile ?is ,eld] spoke1 8 face %one ) ! ,_s ( ,god1 & 8 words ?rill$ e he>t4 ,out ( ! hundr$s :o 7 pres5t1 probably !re 7 no ,sa9ts :o did n see a direct manife/ation ( ! ,holy ,gho/ on ?is occasion4 ,! ,eld] r5ew$ ! promise :i* he _h made to ,briant dur+ ! *ild's lifetime2 & he did x1 unque/ionably1 by ! inspiration ( ! ,almighty4 ,he said3 ,x seems /range to our natural s5ses t ?is *ild %\ld be ly+ "h1 /ill$ 9 dea?1 & yet we %\ld ent]ta9 a belief--nay1 a k1 t he w be ) ! ,sa9ts 9 8 own de> p]son1 at ! build+ ( ! temple 9 ,jackson ,c\nty4 ,& yet1 my bre?r5 & si/]s1 ,i "k t ! promise made to him w be fulfill$4 ,we are draw+ ne>] to t great day :5 wondr\s ?+s %all be manife/$ unto u2 ! veil betwe5 u & ! et]nal abode ( our ,almighty ,fa!r is gr[+ ?9n] day by day4 ,x is almo/ ready to bur/4 ,eld]s ,rodney ,c4 ,badg] & ,rob]t ,f4 ,nesl51 ( ,salt ,lake1 also address$ ! congregation4 ,eld] ,nesl51 9 ref]r+ to ! mission>y "w p]=m$ by ,briant ,/ev5s1 turn$ to a numb] ( old vet]ans ( ! ,*ur* :o 7 sitt+ ^u ! /&1 & said3 ,?is de> little boy by 8 own ef=ts br\ght f\r s\ls into a belief 9 ! ev]la/+ gospel4 ,8 conv]ts are "h to day1 s9c]e believ]s1 full ( promise & devotion to ! "w1 & n[ ,i d\bt :e!r "s ( ! re/ ( u ^: =ms are b[$1 & ^: hair is gray1 ) all our w&]+s up & d[n ! face ( ! e>?1 c truly say t we h done m ?an he4 ,! little =m ( ,briant ,/ev5s 0 laid away 9 ! cemet]y2 b 8 "w did n end ) ! vani%+ ( 8 =m f its daily associations4 ,( him truly x may be said t 8 "w lives aft] him4 ,"s ( 8 =m] companions h be5 *ang$ f ! h\r t !y le>n$ ( 8 dea?2 & if !re be any prospect 9 human life :i* c be deem$ c]ta9 ( fulfillm5t1 ^! *ildr5 w be 8 imitators 9 all t 0 good4 ,^w has come to 8 p>5ts1 ev5 f di/ant po9ts1 t *ildr5 :o knew him h said s9ce 8 dea?1 we w try to live l little ,briant ,/ev5s1 s t if we %\ld die we c be rememb]$4 ,& two ( 8 daily associates--"o ( !m be+ ,fr$ ,j4 ,blu?1 0 ) him on ea* occasion :5 he broke 8 arm1 & ! o!r be+ ,edg> ,pet]son1 "o ( ,briant's conv]ts1 h receiv$ a p[] & manife/ation conc]n+ him :i* is n unwor?y ( m5tion4 ,briant & ,fr$ att5d$ ! ,c5tral ,s*ool toge!r2 & ea* night ,briant1 :o 0 ! e>li] releas$ f 8 classes1 wait$ at ! gate = ,fr$4 ,9 ! second night aft] ,briant 0 buri$1 ,fr$ _h a dream :i* he relates almo/ exactly 9 ! foll[+ words3 ,i ?\ght t ,briant 0 wait+ = me at ! gate z usual--only he 0 dress$ 9 :ite raim5t1 l t 9 :i* he lay 9 ! c(f94 ,:5 ,i came ne> him1 he sprang to my side & ?rew 8 arms ar\nd my neck4 ,he took my h&1 & said3 ',come1 ,fr$1 ) me4' ,h& 9 h&1 we ran up t[n toge!r4 ,we came to a h\se 9 :i* a baby lay dead4 ,we ent]$ ! room & look$ at ! little "o4 ,/ill h& 9 h&1 we came out1 & a l>ge wagon /ood be=e ! door4 ,! driv] came d[n f 8 seat1 & we got 9 & drove to a build+ l a gran>y4 ,briant op5$ ! doors4 ,& !n ,i he>d a voice say+3 ',y mu/ fill ! wagon ) corn4' ,briant & ,i began to %ovel corn into ! wagon2 b soon he /opp$4 ,i ask$3 ',is x en\gh8' ,& he answ]$3 ',n yet4' ,i work$ a little long]1 & aga9 ,i call$ to him3 ',is x en\gh1 ,briant8' ,& once m he repli$3 ',n yet1 ,fr$4' ,aft] a /ill long] "t1 dur+ :i* ,i work$ dilig5tly1 ,i ask$ him = ! ?ird "t3 ',is x en\gh8' ,& ,briant repli$3 ',yes1 x is en\gh4 ,n[ y mu/ come ) me1 ,fr$4' ,i climb$ into ! wagon ) him2 & !n we drove away toge!r4 ,at once ,i awoke4 ,little ,fr$ felt />tl$ by ?is dream4 ,he relat$ x to ,edg> ,pet]son1 :5 ! latt] ask$3 ,d y "k ! mean+ ( y\r dream8 ,no4 ,!n ,i w give y ! int]pretation4 ,x means t y\r e>?ly "w is n yet f9i%$ & t :5 x is done1 ,briant w call = y4 99 99 99 99 99 ,my "y bre?r5 & si/]s1 d\btless y all h ambiti\s mom5ts 9 :i* y sigh to be noble1 & to d "s h]oic action4 ,?9k ( little ,briant ,/ev5s4 ,he le>n$ ! secret ( true greatness4 ,he liv$ 9 purity1 9 fai? & 9 pray] to ,almighty ,god4 ,,f9d+ ,,com=t4 ,! ,exp]i5ce ( a ,"y ,mission>y 9 a ,lonely ,field1 #aj1jjj ,miles f ,home4 ,,by ,,?omas ,a4 ,,%reeve4 ,,*apt] ,i4 ,,call$ ,,to ,,au/ralasia--,,! ,,mod]n ,,imitators ,,( ,,job',s ,,fri5ds--,,our ,,special ,,in/ruction ,,is ,,to ,,build ,,up ,,! ,,k+dom ,,( ,,god ,,9 ,,^? ,,l&s--,a ,,disappo9tm5t ,,ends ,,9 ,a ,,bless+--,,promises ,,by ,,an ,,apo/le ,,:i* ,,7 ,,lit]ally ,,fulfill$--,,we ,,rea* ,,sydney1 ,,& ,i ,,am ,,sep>at$ ,,f ,,my ,,companion4 ,if a relation ( my mission>y exp]i5ce c give to my "y bre?r5 & si/]s "o ti! ( ! /r5g? & bless+ :i* t exp]i5ce itself imp>t$ to me1 ,i %all be m ?an repaid 9 relat+ x4 ,f ! read+ ( simil> acc\nts by o!r ,eld]s ,i h d]iv$ mu* b5efit myself2 b ,i realize t words are p[]less to convey a full description ( ! ev5ts :i* befall e mission>y ( ! ,*ur* ( ,jesus ,*ri/ ( ,latt]-day ,sa9ts4 ,no man c s]ve 8 ,savior fai?fully 9 di/ant l&s1 among /rang]s1 )\t receiv+ & keep+ con/antly ! ,_s ( hol9ess1 & )\t exp]i5c+ miracul\s int]positions 9 8 behalf4 ,at ! "t ( _! occurr5ce !y are subjects ( wond] & ?ankfulness2 b z ye>s pass by1 x becomes extremely difficult to put !m into words s expressive t !y d n seem ei!r too fanciful = reality1 or too cold to be int]e/+4 99 99 99 99 99 ,at ! ,g5]al ,conf]5ce on ,april #h?1 #ahgh1 9 company ) ,eld] ,fr$4 ,j4 ,may1 ( ,salt ,lake1 ,i 0 call$ to fill a mission 9 ,au/ralasia1 compris+ ,au/ralia1 ,tasmania & ,new ,zeal&4 ,a /range circum/ance att5d$ ?is call+4 ,= a week previ\s to ! "t t ! public ann\ncem5t 0 made1 "s ( ! au?orities :o _h ! matt] 9 *>ge1 & :o _h my "n ) ! names ( o!r mission>ies1 _h be5 look+ va9ly = me1 or = someone :o knew me4 ,?ree sep>ate times my "n 0 call$ 9 public meet+1 & a reque/ = my att5dance at ! ,presid5t's (fice 0 made kn[n4 ,i he>d no?+ ( ! matt]1 al?\gh probably scores ( my fri5ds & intimate acqua9tances 7 pres5t4 ,b ea* "o ?\ght t ,i _h ei!r he>d ! notice myself1 or w\ld be told by someone else4 ,at la/1 on ,saturday ev5+1 ,april #f?1 #ahgh1 ,i 0 in=m$ t a meet+ 0 to be held at ! ,c\ncil ,h\se1 & t my pres5ce 0 desir$4 ,i 0 !n engag$ 9 ! old ,big ,boot %oe /ore 9 ,salt ,lake2 & ,i dropp$ my "w & ha/5$ to ! appo9tm5t1 rea*+ ! ,c\ncil ,h\se j at ! appo9t$ h\r4 ,i f\nd ,bro!r ,john ,van ,cott !re1 & ask$ him :at 0 want$ ( me4 ,want$ ( y8 he ask$1 9 surprise4 ,yes1 ,i 0 told t inquiry _h be5 made = me 9 two or ?ree meet+s1 & t ,i 0 want$ "h to-night4 ,oh1 are y ! man8 ,we h be5 hunt+ = y = a week4 ,i h kn[n y = ye>s1 b ,i _h =gott5 entirely :o y 74 ,we want to "k if y are will+ to take a mission4 ,are y8 ,yes1 sir4 ,at t mom5t ,uncle ,joseph ,"y came 92 & ,bro!r ,van ,cott turn$ to him & said3 ,uncle ,joseph1 "h's ! man we've be5 look+ = s long4 ,aft] ,presid5t ,joseph _h look$ at me = a mom5t1 he said3 ,"y man1 we want to "k if y are will+ to take a mission4 ,if y h any excuses to make1 ?\gh1 y may take !m to ! ,presid5t's (fice4 ,i repli$1 ,bro!r ,"y1 ,i h no excuses to make4 ,i w endeavor to g :5ev] ,i am want$4 ,i h s9ce be5 l$ to m>vel1 & to ?ank my ,heav5ly ,fa!r1 t ! au?orities did n drop my "n f ! li/ ( mission>ies at t "t1 in/ead ( p]si/+ 9 ! se>* = me4 ,no d\bt x has %ap$ my life1 & giv5 me a bless+ :i* w endure beyond ?is mortality4 ,i c\ld n be pres5t 9 ! ,tab]nacle on ! foll[+ ,monday :5 ! call 0 made1 & !re=e did n "k to :at mission ,i 0 assign$1 until "s ov]-zeal\s fri5ds ru%$ into ! place :]e ,i 0 employ$1 & in=m$ me t ,i 0 call$ to ,au/ralasia1 & (f]$ me _! sympa?y4 ,dur+ ! rema9d] ( ! week ,i 0 ! recipi5t ( innum]able condol5ces4 ,"o bro!r said to me3 ,t is ! h>de/ mission 9 ! _w4 ,no ,eld]s are !re n[1 & "s ( ! m5 :o 7 la/ call$ to labor 9 t field--educat$ & exp]i5c$ prea*]s--return$ 9 t5 mon?s utt]ly disc\rag$1 & report$ t no satisfactory result c\ld be accompli%$ 9 t region4 ,ano!r bro!r said3 ,i w\ld r be call$ to g into ,montana & prea* to ! m9]s4 ,ano!r said3 ,z good a ,mormon z ,i am1 ,i w\ld r g to ,purgatory & prea* to ! spirits 9 prison !re ?an to take y\r mission1 ,?omas4 ,& f9ally ano!r "o 7:o has s9ce suff]$ m>tyrdom 9 ! p5it5ti>y7--a prom95t bus9ess man ( ,salt ,lake1 by ! way--said3 ,! k9d ( mission>y ne$$ 9 t l& is a man l ,orson ,pratt2 imply+ v /rongly t inexp]i5c$ p]sons l myself might bett] /ay at home ?an to make a useless attempt to conv]t ! cold & skeptical p 9 ,au/ralia & ,new ,zeal& to a k ( ! gospel4 ,:ile ,i _h made up my m9d to endeavor1 by ! help ( ! ,"l1 to p]=m my duty2 rem>ks ( ?is k9d c\ld n help b make me despond5t4 ,i _h be5 v mu* surpris$1 & some:at %ock$1 ,i w confess1 :5 ! ann\ncem5t 0 made to me ( ! nature ( my mission2 & ^! injudici\s condol5ces int5sifi$ my self-di/ru/1 & made me feel z if my trip w\ld be any?+ b pleasant to myself & advantage\s to ! cause4 ,b happily all my fri5ds 7 n ( ?is class4 ,aft] a few days1 & :5 ,i 0 beg9n+ to feel consid]ably ca/ d[n1 ,eld] ,john ,van ,cott met me1 & said3 ,?omas1 ,i he> t y h be5 hav+ "s ( ,job's fri5ds to com=t y4 ,nev] m9d1 my boy2 g & fill y\r mission1 & y w be bless$ 9 y\r labor4 ,:5 ,i 0 call$ to g to ,sc&9avia ,i & o!rs felt t x w\ld be a h>d mission = me--if n a useless "o4 ,b ! ,"l has wr\ght x into a bless+ = me2 because ,i c travel ?r\gh ! l5g? & bread? ( ?is ,t]ritory1 & 9 e settlem5t ,i c f9d a fri5d4 ,)9 a week aft] ! "t we 7 call$1 ,bro!r ,may & myself w5t to ! ,c\ncil ,h\se to be set ap>t = our labor4 ,fifty-two ,eld]s1 ,i ?9k1 7 !re ! same day to obta9 _! bless+4 ,we 7 among ! la/4 ,9 fact all ! o!rs _h receiv$ _! ord9ation & _h gone be=e any att5tion 0 paid to u4 ,apo/les ,*>les ,c4 ,ri*1 ,orson ,pratt & ,lor5zo ,sn[ 7 !re att5d+ to ?is labor3 & :5 ! la/ ( ! o!r mission>ies _h dep>t$1 ,bro!r ,ri* turn$ to me & said3 ,well1 ,?omas1 y are go+ to quit sell+ %oes1 & go+ to prea* ! gospel1 are y8 ,i answ]$1 ,yes1 sir2 ,i %all try4 ,!y enquir$ unto :at mission we 7 call$2 & le>n+ t we 7 go+ to di/ant & ab&on$ ,au/ralasia1 !y all express$ great int]e/ 9 our welf>e1 & !y sat d[n ) u & talk$ v k9dly = "s little "t4 ,i _h wat*$ ! bless+s ( ! o!r mission>ies1 & _h notic$ t ! ,apo/les ea* took 8 turn 9 orda9+ ! "y ,eld]s to _! call+4 ,i 0 acqua9t$ ) ,apo/les ,ri* & ,pratt1 b n ) ,apo/le ,sn[2 & ,i e>ne/ly desir$ t "o ( ! two =m] %\ld bless me4 ,s ,i _h locat$ myself 9 ! position :]e ,i ?\ght ,bro!r ,ri* w\ld rea* me 9 8 turn4 ,h[ev]1 _! visit ) u _h dis>rang$ _! plan2 & :5 ! conv]sation 0 end$ "o ( !m enquir$3 ,^: turn is x to orda9 ?is ,eld]8 ,! result 0 t ,bro!r ,sn[ 0 call$ ^u to orda9 me4 ,at ! mom5t ,i 0 disappo9t$2 = ,i realiz$ h[ grave a responsibility ,i 0 go+ =? to meet1 & ,i fanci$ ,i c\ld ga9 great] /r5g? & bless+ "u ! h&s ( "o ( ! ,apo/les ) :om ,i _h be5 acqua9t$ = ye>s1 ?an "u ! h&s ( a /rang]4 ,b ! result bani%$ t disappo9tm5t4 ,bro!r ,sn[ s5s$ our peculi> situation1 & he bless$ me ) a p[] & _s :i* ?rill$ my :ole be+4 ,be=e he _h conclud$ 8 words ! te>s 7 c\rs+ d[n my *eeks l ra94 ,z if ! words 7 utt]$ ye/]day1 ,i rememb] "s promises :i* he made to me3 ,f ! mom5t t y leave ^! valleys until y return1 ! angels ( ! ,almighty %all be ) y4 ,:5 y travel by l& or by sea1 ?\gh dang]s may beset y on ! "r h& & on ! left1 ! p[] ( ! ,almighty %all protect y4 ,?\gh dea? may />e y 9 ! face1 ! angels ( ! ,"l w w>n y & %ield y4 ,?\gh ! enemies ( ! tru? may plot aga9/ y1 _! evil designs %all be made kn[n to y by ! angels ( ! ,"l1 & if y he$ _! w>n+ y %all be protect$4 ,:5 ev5 y\r bre?r5 %all des]t y & turn aga9/ y1 & y\r way %all seem to be h$g$ up1 y w f9d a bless+ giv5 y f ! ,"l1 = ,he w be y\r fri5d4 ,& y w see ! day :5 y w h no fri5d ) ! p[] to aid y1 o!r ?an y\r ,heav5ly ,fa!r1 9 all ! l& :]e y are soj\rn+4 ,b we promise y t because ( y\r fai? y %all be br\ght triumphant ?r\gh ^! tribulations1 & %all be br\ght to y\r home aga9 9 safety & ) ! approbation ( ! ,prie/hood & ! bless+ ( ! ,almighty4 ,& y %all live to see ! day :5 y\r labors 9 t f>-(f l& w be> good fruit4 ,e ^w ( t prophetic bless+ has be5 fulfill$ 9 a mo/ wond]ful mann]4 ,i believe t ! ,"l put ^! ?+s into ,bro!r ,sn['s m9d1 & t ,he gave me ^! promises to com=t & su/a9 me2 & t 9 ! little disappo9tm5t :i* ,i felt at n receiv+ my bless+ "u ! h&s ( ,apo/le ,ri* or ,apo/le ,pratt1 ! ,"l _h really ,8 own wise purpose to accompli%4 ,a week previ\s to ! date fix$ = our dep>ture we 7 at ,presid5t ,taylor's (fice to le>n if he _h any special in/ruction = u4 ,we hop$ & expect$ t he w\ld outl9e our "w or t we might h "s p>ticul> rule ( guidance 9 t di/ant & lonely l&4 ,b ! ,presid5t's only ^w 03 ,yes1 bre?r51 we want y to g to ,au/ralasia1 & build up ! ,k+dom ( ,god !re4 ,?ree times we ask$ our "q3 ,are !re any special in/ructions = u8 ,& ?ree times we receiv$ ! answ] 9 ! ,presid5t's well-kn[n impressive mann]3 ,yes1 bre?r51 we want y to g to ,au/ralasia1 & build up ! ,k+dom ( ,god !re4 ,eld] ,may look$ at him ) amazem5t 9 8 eyes2 & c]ta9ly if my face indicat$ my feel+1 x betray$ ! utmo/ surprise4 ,0 ?is all8 ,presid5t ,taylor 0 ! ,prophet ( ,god on e>?2 & we 7 inexp]i5c$ ,eld]s go+ to a l& ne>ly t5 ?\s& miles away f home1 to labor 9 a mission :i* _h be5 ab&on$ by old] & m le>n$ m5 ?an we 74 ,naturally1 we expect$ to he> :at we mu/ d :5 we rea*$ ,au/ralia2 h[ we mu/ live2 h[ approa* ! p2 & h[ apportion our "t to ! v>i\s di/ricts ( t va/ field4 ,& yet our int]view 0 end$4 ,presid5t ,taylor's mann] & words--?\gh v k9d1 & ev5 fa!rly1 7 decisive2 & we )drew 9 "s disappo9tm5t4 ,:5 we got out on ! /reet we look$ at ea* o!r 9 a mo/ woe begone mann]4 ,i d n "k :5 ,i felt m =lorn or helpless ?an at t h\r4 ,b we liv$ & le>n$ to bless t significant s5t5ce1 :i* ,presid5t ,taylor utt]$ 9 8 wisdom1 & by ! inspiration ( ! ,_s4 ,x became to u bett]1 f> bett]1 ?an a book full ( ! special in/ructions :i* we _h covet$4 ,:5ev] we 7 disc\rag$1 or torn by d\bt1 or oppress$ by fe>2 we _h our guide3 ,build up ! ,k+dom ( ,god 9 ^? l&s6 ,& pray] to ,god inv>iably %[$ u ! "r means to rea* t result4 ,if we _h be5 dep5d5t ^u a c]ta9 me?od ( gospel pres5tation1 & less dep5d5t ^u our ,heav5ly ,fa!r1 ,i am sure t we w\ld n h be5 s greatly bless$ z we 7 9 our labors4 ,we left ,zion on ,tuesday1 ,may #g?1 #ahgh2 & sail$ f ,san ,francisco on ,monday1 ,may #ac?1 #ahgh1 on ! /eam]1 ,city ( ,sydney4 ,we took /e]age passage1 & f\nd ourselves 9 a motley cr[d4 ,!re 7 ab\t fifty :ite pass5g]s & "o hundr$ & tw5ty-five ,*9am5 9 ?is "p ( ! %ip1 & we _h a p]fect ,babel4 ,! ,*9am5 kept up _! own int]m9able *att]+4 ,& among ! :ites 7 ,wel%m51 ,iri%m51 ,scot*m51 ,jew1 ,g5tile1 ,infidel3 repres5tatives ( e race & ( e sect4 ,we ev5 _h a dynamit] on bo>d--a p]son :o claim$ fri5d%ip ) ! notori\s ,o',donovan ,rossa ( ,new ,york4 ,! fir/ port we made 0 ,honolulu2 :]e we met ,eld] ,h5ry ,p4 ,ri*>ds1 ( ,salt ,lake1 & ,eld] ,woodbury1 ( ,/4 ,george4 ,!y took u to ! h\ses ( ! ,sa9ts1 & we _h a d9n] ( poi & salt fi%1 luxuries :i* ,i tri$ my be/ to appreciate4 ,on ,sunday1 ,june #bnd1 we pass$ ,sunday ,isl&1 9 ! ,s\? ,pacific4 ,t night we retir$ to re/ ab\t t5 o'clock4 ,aft] eight h\rs sleep we arose--& f\nd t x 0 ,tuesday morn+ at six o'clock4 ,we _h sail$ across ! l9e :i* m>ks ! beg9n+ ( ! day1 & _h lo/ our tw5ty-f\r h\rs4 ,i greatly regrett$ ?is loss ( ,monday1 & nev] felt entirely reconcil$ to x dur+ ! two ye>s t ,i 0 away4 ,=tunately = my peace ( m9d1 on our return we made two ,fridays on ! same spot2 & ,i all[$ my ga9 ( ,friday to cancel my loss ( ,monday4 ,we ent]$ ,auckl& h>bor on ,w$nesday1 ,june #e?2 & sail$ into ,sydney ,bay at half pa/ two o'clock on ,w$nesday morn+ a week lat]4 ,we rema9$ 9 ! l[] bay dur+ qu>ant9e exam9ation2 & lat] 9 ! morn+ ! ,city ( ,sidney /eam$ up to ! c5tral quay1 arriv+ at h] bir? ab\t elev5 o'clock4 ,sev]al hundr$ p 7 on ! %ore await+ ! arrival ( ! /eam]4 ,!y 7 all complete /rang]s to me1 & ,i did n expect anyone to meet u4 ,b ,i saw 9 ! cr[d "o man :om ,i in/antly knew to be a memb] ( ! ,*ur*4 ,i turn$ to po9t him out to ,bro!r ,may1 b f\nd my companion abs5t4 ,h[ev]1 ,i wat*$ ?is man att5tively1 feel+ c]ta9 t he _h come to f9d u1 & t he 0 "o ( our bre?r54 ,! ev5t prov$ my supposition to be correct4 ,:5 he came on bo>d ! vessel he ask$ ! /ew>d = two pass5g]s by ! "n ( ,may & ,%reeve4 ,z soon z he spoke ,i /epp$ up to him & told him t ,i 0 "o ( ! p]sons want$4 ,we %ook h&s2 & ,i f\nd him to be ,bro!r ,j4 ,ni*ols4 ,we w5t to 8 h\se 9 ,sydney1 & 7 v k9dly receiv$4 ,dur+ ! next sev]al days we 7 engag$ 9 a reorganization ( ! bran*1 :i* _h become some:at demoraliz$ by neglect & by inatt5tion ( memb]s4 ,on ! #af? day ( ,july1 ,eld] ,may w5t to ,melb\rne2 & we did n meet aga9 = m ?an two ye>s4 ,x 0 n 9 our orig9al plan to be sep>at$ = s long a "t2 b subsequ5t circum/ances made t l5g?y sep>ation app>5tly necess>y4 ,:5 we look$ ov] ! field aft] reorganiz+ ! ,sydney ,bran* we discov]$ t x 0 entirely too l>ge = u to cov] )9 a reasonable "t1 if we rema9$ toge!r2 &1 ?\gh we dislik$ to "p company1 we felt t by tak+ sep>ate fields we c\ld cov] twice z mu* gr\nd 9 a giv5 l5g? ( "t z by bo? travel+ toge!r4 ,we !re=e arrang$ t ,bro!r ,may %\ld g d[n to ,melb\rne1 :]e he _h "s relatives1 & !nce to ,tasmania2 :ile ,i %\ld rema9 9 ,new ,s\? ,wales until ! foll[+ ,decemb]4 ,ab\t ! close ( ! ye> we %\ld bo? g to ,new ,zeal& & toge!r visit ! bran* ( ! ,*ur* !re1 & endeavor to enl>ge ! "w 9 t locality4 ,b ?is plan1 = good reasons1 0 nev] consummat$ entirely2 & ,i 0 p>t$ f ! companion :om ,i _h le>n$ to love1 & :o 0 ! only close fri5d t ,i c\ld hope to h on e>? 9 t ,hemisph]e--f ! "t ( 8 dep>ture f ,sydney until ! h\r :5 ,i set foot on ! /eam]'s deck to return home4 ,,*apt] ,,ii4 ,,labor ,,:i* ,,br\ght ,,little ,,comp5sation--,a ,,my/]i\s ,,call ,,to ,,new ,,zeal&--,,attack$ ,,by ,,an ,,evil ,,_s--,,! ,,visitation ,,?rice ,,repeat$--,,meet+ ,,! ,,bro!r ,,( ,a ,,fri5d--,,on ,,bo>d ,,! ,,wakatipu1 ,,b\nd ,,= ,,new ,,zeal&4 ,i felt v lonely aft] ,bro!r ,may's dep>ture4 ,! next day1 feel+ extremely despond5t1 ,i walk$ out to ,bondi1 a po9t ov]look+ ! great ocean4 ,!re ,i knelt d[n among ! rocks & pray$ mo/ f]v5tly to ! ,"l = com=t & help ?r\gh all my trials4 ,i d]iv$ su* consolation f ! communion ) my ,heav5ly ,fa!r t ,i h ev] s9ce felt anxi\s to advise my y\ng] bre?r5 :o g on missions1 to frequ5tly seek retir$ spots & !re (f] devotion to ,god & supplication = ,8 bless+4 ,i !n engag$ 9 ! "w ( visit+ 9 ,sydney & its suburbs2 & succe$$ 9 f9d+ sev]al p]sons :o _h once be5 memb]s ( ! ,*ur*4 ,x 0 our hope to reunite ^! p]sons ) ! ,*ur* & get !m to r5ew _! cov5ants & prep>e sometime = emigration to ,zion2 b ! majority ( !m 7 h>d5$4 ,! p ( ,new ,s\? ,wales _h no desire to he> or obey ! gospel4 ,_m ( ^? :o _h once _h memb]%ip 9 ! ,*ur* _h become ,josephites1 & ^! & all ! o!rs felt t !y ne$$ no rebaptism at our h&s1 = !y 7 q good en\gh )\t4 ,al?\gh ,i labor$ will+ly1 & ev5 anxi\sly1 9 ?is region1 ,i nev] felt peaceful & cont5t$ 9 ! city ( ,sydney4 ,! v h\r t ,i l&$ !re1 ,i felt a weight ^u my %\ld]s z if some?+ 7 press+ me to ! e>?4 ,i 0 z consci\s ( t weight z if x _h really be5 some?+ physically tangible2 & ev5 :5 ,i 0 at ! h\se ( ,bro!r ,ni*ols1 :]e we receiv$ v k9d treatm5t1 ,i c\ld n rid myself ( ?is s5sation4 ,x 0 only :5 ,i c\ld get away f ! city itself t ,i c\ld feel at all light-he>t$4 ,i (t5 wond]$ :y ,i felt s ill at ease 9 ,sydney1 & :y ,i c\ld n ga9 great] cont5tm5t :5 visit+ ) ! family ( ,bro!r ,ni*ols !re2 b ?is matt] 0 lat] solv$ to my und]/&+1 if n to my satisfaction4 ,n long aft] ,i 0 left alone ,i _h a /range dream conc]n+ my labors4 ,i ?\ght t ,i 0 call$ to take a mission to ! ,ea/4 ,! idea 0 v vivid 9 my m9d1 ?\gh no /eps or "t seem$ to h be5 made cle> to me4 ,:5 ,i awoke1 ,i ?\ght ^u ! matt]1 & int]pret$ x z mean+ t1 aft] my return to ,zion1 ,i %\ld h ano!r mission--probably to ,europe4 ,) ?is view ,i attempt$ to dismiss ! matt] f my m9d2 b ,i f\nd ! ef=t futile4 ,! idea rema9$ p]si/5tly ) me = ?ree or f\r days2 & !n "o aft]noon :5 ,i took up a book & s\ght to read1 sudd5ly ! pr9t$ l9es 7 blurr$ f me1 & ^! words />t$ out f ! page3 ,y mu/ g to ,new ,zeal&4 ,i rubb$ my eyes1 a/oni%$1 & look$ aga94 ,! words _h disappe>$1 & = a few mom5ts ,i 0 able to read ! book4 ,b aga9 ^! words came ^u ! page1 %utt+ out ! pr9t$ l9es f my sight3 ,y are want$ 9 ,new ,zeal&4 ,?is /range ?+ 0 repeat$ aga9 & aga94 ,b ,i did n p]mit myself to accept x z a requirem5t2 because ,i rememb]$ ! def9ite und]/&+ :i* ,i _h made ) ,bro!r ,may conc]n+ my labors 9 ,new ,s\? ,wales1 & ! date ( our mutual j\rney to ,new ,zeal& 9 ,decemb] or ,janu>y foll[+4 ,i dropp$ ! book = a "t1 & !n pick$ x up aga94 ,! /range appe>ance ( ?is comm& 0 repeat$4 ,n only on ?is day & ) ?is book did ,i exp]i5ce ?is wondr\s manife/ation2 b day aft] day ) any book or newspap] :i* ,i attempt$ to read1 0 ! appe>ance repeat$4 ,n und]/&+ t ?is 0 a comm& to me :i* ,i ought to obey2 & feel+ 9 a measure b\nd by my agreem5t ) my companion1 ,i c\ld n1 despite all ^! repeat$ in/ructions1 br+ myself to a compliance ) x4 ,b soon ! w>n+ took ano!r & a /rong] =m1 & ha/5$ my dep>ture1 :ile expla9+ to me ! /range weight :i* ,i _h felt ^u me 9 ,sydney4 ,"o day ,i w5t to ,a%field1 "o ( ! environs ( ,sydney1 to visit ,bro!r ,william ,arm/rong1 :o resid$ !re ) 8 family4 ,i return$ 9 ! aft]noon1 feel+ some:at we>y1 & lay d[n ^u a l\nge 9 ! front room ( ,bro!r ,ni*ols' h\se4 ,8 wife 0 gossip+ ) a neighbor 9 h] jocul> ,iri% way1 & ,i felt some:at amus$ 9 li/5+ to h]4 ,sudd5ly ,i felt myself borne d[n by a /range & awful p[]4 ,x weigh$ ^u my bosom & seem$ to be cru%+ me1 :ile x press$ also ^u my m\? & ?rew my head ov] ! top ( ! l\nge4 ,! pressure ^u my face 0 z di/9ct z if x _h be5 made by a s9ewy h& press+ a clo? tightly ov] my m\? & nose4 ,9 ! fir/ excitem5t my he>t beat v rapidly1 & !n /opp$1 motionless4 ,i /ruggl$ to release myself1 ev5 rea*+ out ) "o h& & seiz+ ! edge ( ! l\nge1 int5d+ to draw myself d[n to ! floor4 ,e ef=t 0 unavail+1 & x seem$ to me t ,i 0 los+ myself & mu/ soon die1 if ,i c\ld n obta9 relief4 ,!n ! ?\ght came to me to pray1 & ,i cri$ 9 my inmo/ s\l3 ,oh1 ,"l6 help me6 ,no soon] _h ?is petition pass$ 9 ?\ght ?r\gh my m9d ?an ,i 0 in/antly releas$4 ,i sprang to my feet1 trembl+ ) fe> & suff]+1 b ,i made no cry & gave no explanation to ^? :o 7 pres5t4 ,! s5sation :i* ,i exp]i5c$ at ! "t ,i 0 9 ! grasp ( ?is p[] 0 z di/9ctly pa9ful z any physical suff]+ ,i ev] endur$1 & m int5se ?an any ord9>y physical pa9 c be4 ,i wond]$ at x1 z ,i _h n be5 subject to su* attacks2 ,i ev5 bit my f+] to see if ,i 7 really awake1 ?9k+ t possibly ,i might be 9 a dream4 ,b ,i f\nd x all too real4 ,se>*+ my m9d = "s explanation1 ,i conclud$ t z ,i _h return$ to ! h\se hungry & worri$1 ,i _h possibly tak5 too mu* d9n]4 ,& ) ?is unsatisfactory explanation ,i =c$ myself to be cont5t = ! "t4 ,a few days lat] ,i det]m9$ to fa/2 & 9 ! c\rse ( ! day ,i w5t to ! ,botanical ,g>d5s4 ,^u my return1 feel+ some:at fa9t & tir$1 ,i aga9 lay d[n ^u ! c\*4 ,9 a few m9utes ! awful influ5ce once m seiz$ me--?is "t ) ev5 great] p[] ?an be=e4 ,i 0 affright$ & helpless4 ,9 ! mid/ ( my dreadful physical pa9 & m5tal torture came ! realization t ,i 0 9 ! grasp ( an evil _s4 ,?is sudd5 k int5sifi$ my torture4 ,= "s seconds--x seem$ to me an age1 my he>t /ood /ill4 ,i felt myself slipp+ away1 b c\ld n move nor cry al\d4 ,once m ! inspiration came to me to pray1 & ,i call$ ^u my ,heav5ly ,fa!r = help4 ,at once ! influ5ce dep>t$1 & ,i sprang to my feet weak & trembl+4 ,i felt e hair on my head /&+ upright4 ,i recall$ ! description giv5 by ,joseph ,smi? ( ! d>kness :i* envelop$ him :5 he fir/ pray$ 9 ! woods = light2 & ,i knew t ,i _h exp]i5c$ 9 "s slight degree ! same torm5t :i* he enc\nt]$ on t occasion4 ,i rememb]$ t ! ,prophet spoke ( giv+ up "u ! torture t he 0 suff]+1 & ( 8 be+ sav$ by ! p[] ( ,god j at ! mom5t :5 he felt himself slipp+ away into dea? & p]dition4 ,?is1 ?\gh und\bt$ly 9 a greatly mod]at$ degree1 0 my own exp]i5ce4 ,aft] ?is ! feel+ t ,i mu/ g to ,new ,zeal& 0 borne irresi/ibly4 ,! la/ emphatic w>n+ _h %[n me t ,sydney 0 no place = me at ?is h\r1 & t ,i mu/ he$ ! comm&m5ts :i* 7 giv5 to me4 ,accord+ly1 ,i pur*as$ a ticket = ,port ,littleton1 di/ant ab\t twelve hundr$ miles f ,sydney4 ,! /eam] by :i* ,i 0 to sail w\ld n leave = a week1 b ,i c\ld n re/ easy until ,i _h secur$ my passage4 ,! vessel 0 call$ ! ,wakatipu1 f two ,maori words1 waka1 mean+ canoe1 & tipu1 mean+ goods2 ! union signify+ a canoe or %ip to c>ry goods4 ,aft] pur*as+ ?is ticket ! feel+ ( anxiety & unre/ :i* _h possess$ me dep>t$1 & ,i felt q cont5t 9 ! full consci\sness t ,i 0 n[ 9 ! l9e ( my duty2 b ,i /ill _h a dread ( ! evil influ5ces :i* ,i n[ knew ab\nd$ 9 ,sydney & inhabit$ ! h\se at :i* ,i 0 /ay+4 ,:5 n[ ,i took up a book or a newspap] ,i c\ld see ! words z di/9ctly z ev]1 & 0 no m visit$ by ! comm&m5t :i* _h be5 s manife/ on o!r occasions4 ,! c\* on :i* ,i _h la9 :5 seiz$ by ^! d>k p[]s 0 my own b$ at night1 & ,i _h n be5 tr\bl$ 9 ! ev5+4 ,b f ! h\r ( ! second seizure ,i religi\sly avoid$ sitt+ or recl9+ ^u ! l\nge 9 ! day-"t4 ,i _h a /rong horror ( sleep+ ^u ?is c\* at night1 b ,i _h no alt]native2 & solac$ myself by con/ant pray] & humility be=e ! ,"l1 ask+ to be protect$ f ! assaults ( ! adv]s>y4 ,previ\s to tak+ my dep>ture = ,new ,zeal& ,i w5t out to ,a%field to bid ,bro!r ,arm/rong & 8 family f>ewell4 ,aga9 ,i return$ late 9 ! ev5+4 ,i ?\ghtlessly ?rew myself ^u ! c\*1 & almo/ 9 ! v second ,i 0 seiz$ by ! de/roy]4 ,! exp]i5ce 0 ! same z on ! o!r occasions1 except t x 0 mu* m p[]ful & pa9ful4 ,i believ$ = a mom5t t ,i mu/ die2 b once m ,i 0 re/or$ by my pray] to heav54 ,! s5sations ,i suff]$ 9 ^! seizures ,i nev] c =get4 ,to speak ( !m ev5 at ?is h\r causes a *ill ( horror to pass ov] my be+1 & z a rule ,i feel a dreadful pa9 attack+ my he>t4 ,i did n speak ( ^! exp]i5ces to anyone 9 ,sydney1 nor to anyone else = a long "t4 ,i 0 inexp]i5c$ 9 ^! matt]s1 & ,i ?\ght x wise to keep my own c\nsel4 ,b ne>ly a ye> aft]w>d ,i receiv$ a lett] f ,bro!r ,may1 :o _h return$ to ,sydney & _h /opp$ at ! h\se ( ,bro!r ,ni*ols1 :ile ,i 0 9 ,new ,zeal&4 ,he _h occupi$ z a b$ ! c\* :]eon ,i _h slept2 & he in=m$ me t he _h be5 seiz$ by evil spirits 9 ! night1 dragg$ f 8 b$1 & tortur$4 ,aft] ?is re9=cem5t ( my own views ,i wrote to ,bro!r ,may1 in=m+ him ( :at _h occurr$ at ! h\se on ?ree sep>ate occasions :5 ,i 0 ly+ ^u t c\*4 ,i felt !n t n only 0 ! city ( ,sydney an oppressive place = ! ,eld]s1 b t ! h\se :]e we _h /opp$1 ?\gh occupi$ by a man :o pr(ess$ ! fai?1 (f]$ a welcome to evil influ5ces4 ,su* an op9ion 0 sub/antiat$ lat] :5 ,ni*ols & 8 wife turn$ ,bro!r ,may out ( ! h\se1 & !n apo/atiz$ & jo9$ ! ,josephites4 ,al?\gh !y _h treat$ me v k9dly ,i always felt "u a re/ra9t :5 ,i 0 on _! premises2 & ! ev5t %[$ t !y pref]r$ association ) ! p[]s ( d>kness to ! fri5d%ip & company ( ! ,eld]s ( ! ,*ur*4 ,mrs4 ,ni*ols & h] elde/ son are dead2 & ! man1 if alive1 leads :at ,i imag9e mu/ be a lonely & unsatisfactory life4 ,i am conv9c$ t he kn[s ! gospel to be true2 = ,i h _h pro( t he possesses ?is k4 ,realiz+ ?is1 ,i imag9e t 8 m9d mu/ be 9 a dreadful /ate ( remorse & anxiety4 ,! day be=e ,i 0 to take ! /eam] ,wakatipu ,i w5t to ! po/ (fice at ,sydney to mail "s lett]s4 ,:ile /&+ at ! /amp w9d[ a man walk$ quickly up ?r\gh ! cr[d1 ?ru/ a pap] "u my face into ! w9d[1 & cri$3 ,=eign /amp--quick1 please6 ,he laid ! pap] d[n1 & ,i saw ! address ^u x4 ,to my amazem5t x 03 ,,john ,,al=d1 ,salt ,lake ,city1 ,utah ,t]ritory1 ,u4,s4,a4 ,i look$ at ! g5tleman & said3-- ,i beg p>don1 sir2 b d y "k ! g5tleman to :om y are s5d+ ?is pap]8 ,yes1 sir4 ,my bro!r1 sir4 ,d y "k him8 ,yes1 sir4 ,meet me "h at twelve o'clock4 ,& ) ^! words he 0 gone l a fla%4 ,x 0 !n elev5 o'clock & ,i _h an h\r to wait4 ,i /roll$ ar\nd = a %ort "t1 & promptly at twelve o'clock ,i 0 on ! v]&a ( ! po/ (fice1 await+ ! com+ ( ! v abrupt g5tleman4 ,on ! /roke ( ! h\r he dodg$ betwe5 ! pill>s ( ! v]&a1 ru%$ ?r\gh ! cr[d1 & beckon$ me to him4 ,!n he />t$ at a rapid rate d[n ! /reet1 & ,i foll[$4 ,aft] go+ a %ort di/ance he turn$ & ask$ me3 ,_h y\r d9n]8 ,no1 sir4 ,come along1 !n4 ,we ent]$ ! ,free ,mason ,hotel1 ! d9+ room ( :i* 0 cr[d$4 ,seat+ ourselves at a table he gave 8 ord] = a beef/eak2 & ,i 0 too good a ,briti%] to refuse ! same4 ,:ile we 7 wait+1 he ask$ if ,i 7 acqua9t$ ) 8 bro!r4 ,i answ]$ t ,i 01 hav+ work$ = ! same in/itution :i* employ$ him1 = a numb] ( ye>s4 ,at 8 reque/ ,i gave him su* in=mation z ,i possess$ ab\t ,bro!r ,john ,al=d & 8 family1 & by ?is "t ! /eaks 7 ready1 & he proce$$ to eat 8 hurri$ly4 ,i saw !re 0 no "t = talk+1 unless ,i wi%$ to lose my d9n]1 s ,i pli$ knife & =k vigor\sly4 ,:5 we 7 ?r\gh he paid ! *>ge1 & we walk$ out4 ,!n he ask$ h[ long ,i _h be5 9 ,au/ralia4 ,i answ]$3 ,ab\t two mon?s4 ,h[ long %all y /ay8 ,until to-morr[ at "o o'clock1 :5 ,i leave = ,new ,zeal& by ! /eam] ,wakatipu4 ,are y a ,mormon ,eld]8 ,yes1 sir4 ,d y travel l my bro!r did :5 he 0 prea*+ 9 ,engl& :at y folks call ! gospel--)\t purse or scrip8 ,yes1 sir4 ,x is a v /range fai? y p h4 ,he nev] did any "w :ile he 0 9 ,engl& prea*+1 b he c\ld g any:]e he want$ to g--:ile ,i1 :o 0 always work+1 nev] _h ei!r "t or money to g any:]e4 ,curi\s1 isn't x8 ,yes1 sir--our fai? is a /range "o to ! _w4 ,b we are plac$ 9 su* a position t we h le>n$ to rely ^u ,god1 our ,et]nal ,fa!r1 ^: gospel we are prea*+4 ,we "k t :ile we are execut+ ,8 comm&s1 ,he w provide ! means4 ,mr4 ,al=d %ook 8 head incr$ul\sly1 & mutt]$3 ,que] fai?--/range fai?--,i c't see x4 ,i am busy n[4 ,come to-morr[ at twelve o'clock4 ,i w meet y at ! po/ (fice4 ,i want to see y4 ,i repli$3 ,i mu/ leave at "o o'clock4 ,i w sc>cely h "t to meet y4 ,nons5se6 ,come4 ,t /eam] won't sail be=e f\r or five o'clock4 ,promptly at ! appo9t$ "t ! next day ,i 0 at ! po/ (fice1 & aga9 met ,mr4 ,al=d4 ,he %ook me w>mly by ! h& & said3 ,i expect1 "y man1 y hav5't got v mu* money4 ,y are "r1 ,i answ]$4 ,9 pur*as+ my ticket to ,littleton ,i _h exp5d$ my la/ %ill+4 ,my de/9ation 0 ! t[n ( ,rangiora1 "s di/ance f ,port ,littleton1 & ,i ne$$ means to pay my f>e to t place4 ,mr4 ,al=d press$ t5 %ill+s 9 my h&1 at ! same "t say+3 ,i d n und]/& h[ y folks c travel )\t purse or scrip4 ,i c\ld h expla9$ to him h[ 8 t5 %ill+s _h reliev$ me1 & enabl$ me to fulfill ! comm&s ( my ,ma/]2 b ,i saw t he 0 a bus9ess man--skeptical & unapproa*able to ! message :i* ,i 0 be>+ to ! _w1 & ,i made no attempt to encroa* fur!r ^u 8 "t4 ,i w5t on bo>d ! vessel dur+ ! aft]noon1 & felt t ,i 0 obey+ ! sacr$ behe/ :i* _h be5 s (t5 & s my/]i\sly repeat$ to me 9 ,sydney4 ,b ! adv]s>y seem$ det]m9$ to cl+ to me & to fill my m9d ) evil ?\ghts4 ,i tri$ to bani% sadness by gaz+ f ! deck ( ! mov+ vessel at ! beautiful city ( ,sydney & ! /ill m beautiful bay4 ,b ! ef=t 0 va92 my prevail+ emotion 0 "o ( despond5cy4 ,! %ip1 ! rec$+ l&s1 ! sea into :i* we 7 pass+--all seem$ s va/2 & ,i seem$ su* a lonely mite1 t ,i c\ld n f9d com=t 9 t h\r4 ,gradually1 z ! night came on1 ! %ores grew indi/9ct4 ,only a myriad ( lights tw9kl$ out to %[ :]e ! city lay4 ,f vessels rid+ at an*or or mov+ up ! bay to moor aft] _! long voyages1 came %\ts ( ma/]s & songs ( m54 ,! azure dep?s ( sky & sea held ea* its c\ntless />s4 ,b ! beauty ( ! sc5e only made me m impressionable to melan*oly2 & ,i took "o long f>ewell look at ! light-dott$ city & ! light-dott$ bay--lovely beyond description--& !n w5t bel[4 ,i h nev] se5 ,sydney s9ce t lonely h\r4 ,,*apt] ,,iii4 ,,an ,,irrev]5t ,,company ,,( ,,pass5g]s--,,sickness ,,& ,a ,,horror ,,( ,,life ,,fall ,,^u ,,me--,a ,,helpful ,,vision--,,only ,,be ,,true--,,invok+ ,,! ,,"n ,,( ,,*ri/--,a ,,jolly ,,s+] ,,& ,a ,,jolly ,,song--,,l&+ ,,at ,,port ,,littleton--,,/range ,,recognition ,,( ,,bro!r ,,nord/r&--,,8 ,,dream ,,conc]n+ ,,me4 ,on bo>d ! ,wakatipu 0 a l>ge company ( worldly p1 repres5t+ ne>ly all pr(essions & /ations 9 life4 ,! majority ( ! p 7 extremely sociable1 & v soon aft] we got out into ! op5 wat] a numb] ( pass5g]s ga!r$ 9 ! cab9 ) musical in/rum5ts1 to :ile away an h\r & to bani% sadness4 ,!y made a great m$ley ( _! pleasures2 & "s ( !m 7 decid$ly irrev]5t4 ,a portion ( ! p>ty wi%$ to dance1 & ! man :o suppli$ ! music claim$ to "k b "o tune4 ,?is 03 ,sweep+ ?r\gh ! gates ( ! ,new ,j]usalem1 ,wa%$ 9 ! blood ( ! ,lamb4 ,& to ?is v /range s*ottis*e "s ( !m danc$ a m]ry-g-r\nd4 ,not)/&+ ! gaiety on bo>d1 ! feel+ ( dread grew ^u me4 ,x seem$ to possess my v s\l4 ,probably ,i _h giv5 way too mu* to sadness 9 gaz+ ^u ! di/ant lights ( ,sydney1 & n[ ,i c\ld n bani% ! evil ?\ghts :i* ?rong$ my m9d4 ,all mann] ( gloomy =ebod+s oppress$ me4 ,:ile ,i rema9$ 9 ,sydney1 ,i felt t !re 0 "s tie betwe5 myself & my companion2 b n[ ,i felt t ,i _h cut myself adrift ev5 f him4 ,?is 0 ! fir/ "t 9 my life t ev] ,i felt h[ completely alone a man c be :5 surr\nd$ by joy\s company4 ,i tri$ to ?9k ( com=t & companion%ip at ! end ( my voyage2 b ! reflection prov$ to be an un=tunate "o1 because ,i knew no s\l 9 all ,new ,zeal&4 ,dea? mu/ actually be some?+ to dread = any p]son to :om x w br+ ! appall+ lonel9ess :i* possess$ me at ?is h\r4 ,i retir$ to my b]?1 z y may imag9e1 9 no pleasant frame ( m9d4 ,! next morn+1 ,friday1 ,i awoke & f\nd myself 9 a rag+ fev]4 ,i 0 n sea-sick1 &1 ?\gh ,i am subject to ?is tr\ble1 dur+ ?is entire voyage ,i felt no t\* ( x4 ,! fev] increas$ dur+ ! day1 until x seem$ z if my :ole body 7 be+ consum$ 9 a furnace4 ,no "o came to enquire = me1 or to (f] aid2 = ,i 0 n only a total /rang]1 b a /e]age pass5g]--two ?+s :i*1 unit$1 %ut me out f help or sympa?y4 ,on ,saturday morn+ ,i 0 worse4 ,my tongue 0 swoll5 until x fill$ my m\?2 x 0 z dry z a piece ( t9d]4 ,) ! int5se heat ( my body my tee? crumbl$ at a t\*4 ,on ,sunday morn+ ,i 0 worse2 ?\gh probably ! fev] _h n increas$ 9 int5sity1 because x c\ld n2 b ,i 0 v mu* weak]4 ,t aft]noon a pass5g] came to ! b]?1 & (f]$ me a glass ( wat]4 ,i took x gratefully2 & ?is 0 ! sole att5tion ,i receiv$ dur+ f\r days4 ,naturally ,i felt dispirit$4 ,i _h n ev5 ! advantage ( delirium1 :i* accompanies mo/ s]i\s fev]s2 ,i 0 con/antly awake to ! full appreciation ( ! torture :i* my m9d & body 7 endur+4 ,tempt$ by ! de/roy]1 ,i felt t dea? w\ld h be5 a welcome release f my pa94 ,! horror 0 almo/ unbe>able4 ,on ,sunday night1 ! entire company ( pass5g]s1 ) ! exception ( myself1 ga!r$ 9 ! ma9 cab91 ^u invitation ( a jolly doctor1 :o held :at he call$3 ,a ,saturday ,night at ,sea4 ,to e p]son :o c\ld s+ or make a spee*1 "s "p 0 assign$ = ! g5]al amusem5t4 ,f my b]? 9 ! /e]age--by draw+ away ! curta9s1 ,i c\ld look out ^u ! fe/ive sc5e1 9 :i* ,i c\ld be> no "p1 = ,i 0 helpless & spee*less4 ,! doctor _h be5 a surgeon 9 ! hospitals ( ,engl&1 & also 9 ! ,crimean ,w>1 & he op5$ ! ent]ta9m5t by a lecture ^u ! /range exp]i5ces ( a ,briti% army surgeon & hospital physician4 ,:ile he 0 talk+ ^u ?is sugge/ive subject1 my m9d 0 l$ to a contemplation ( dea?4 ,i felt ) a k9d ( li/lessness t ,i w\ld soon be beyond ! rea* ( e>?ly physicians1 unless some?+ c\ld spe$ily be done = my relief4 ,aft] a sev]e /ruggle ,i s f> ov]came ! dreadful feel+ ) :i* ! adv]s>y _h fill$ my he>t t ,i 0 able to call ^u ! ,"l 9 pray]4 ,z ,i sil5tly commun$ ) ,him1 ,i ga9$ p[]2 my fai? 0 re/or$1 & my hope = life 0 quick5$4 ,i ask$ ,him 9 ! "n ( ! ,"l ,jesus to be m]ciful unto me2 ,i felt !n at p]fect lib]ty to speak to ,him z a son w\ld talk ) a good e>?ly fa!r4 ,i said t ,i _h come into ?is di/ant region--n to fulfil my own worldly wi%1 b at ! behe/ ( ,8 s]vants1 to proclaim ,8 gospel1 & to build up ,8 ,k+dom4 ,my companion 0 hundr$s ( miles di/ant f me1 & ,i 0 beyond ! rea* ( e>?ly help or e>?ly sympa?y4 ,x 0 my e>ne/ desire to be re/or$ to life1 t ,i might fulfil ! mission to :i* ,i _h be5 assign$ by ,8 repres5tatives on e>?2 & to ?is end ,i ask$ t "s aid might be giv5 me to rebuke ! devil1 & to bani% ! horrors :i* ,i felt w\ld soon1 if all[$ to "w _! way1 br+ dissolution4 ,:5 my pray] 0 end$1 ,i he>d ! doctor /ill talk+2 b "u ! s\nd ( 8 voice ,i fell asleep4 ,i dream$ t ,i 0 back 9 ,sydney1 sick 9 b$4 ,bro!r ,may 0 at a table 9 ! room1 & we 7 conv]s+4 ,across ! room1 to ! "r ( my b$1 0 an op5 door1 :i* ,i c\ld see )\t lift+ my head f ! pill[4 ,:ile ,i lay !re li/5+ to ! words ( ,bro!r ,may1 a p]sonage clo!d 9 a :ite robe ent]$ ! room4 ,he appe>$ to be a "y man1 & _h a v pleas+ c\nt5ance4 ,?is p]sonage pass$ ar\nd ! b$ & /ood ne> ! table4 ,bro!r ,may rose & (f]$ ! visitant a *air1 & !n )drew4 ,! "y man seat$ himself at ! table & op5$ a book4 ,he said3 ,are y ready to report ! ,sydney ,bran*8 ,yes1 sir1 ,i respond$4 ,!n proce$4 ,i gave him an acc\nt ( all our do+s 9 ,sydney1 beg9n+ ) our fir/ ef=t ( reorganiz+1 & clos+ ) my la/ act previ\s to sail+--= all ^! ?+s seem$ pla9 to my m9d4 ,! recital seem$ to occupy me sev]al m9utes1 & ,i cont9u$ to speak freely4 ,he wrote 9 ! book rapidly1 & nev] once int]rupt$ me4 ,i felt t he 0 tak+ e ^w ,i utt]$4 ,:5 ,i /opp$1 he ask$3 ,h y any?+ m to say8 ,no1 sir1 ,i answ]$4 ,!n he turn$ ! leaves back1 & seem$ to read f ! beg9n+4 ,he said3 ,v well4 ,n[ :]e are y go+8 ,to ,new ,zeal&4 ,he record$ my answ] 9 ! book1 & !n sign$ 8 "n--,i c\ld n see ! words ( 8 "n1 b ,i felt t he 0 writ+ 8 own signature4 ,he clos$ ! book & walk$ ar\nd to ! "r side ( ! b$1 %ook h&s ) me1 & said3 ,good-by2 ,i w be !re be=e y4 ,he pass$ f ! room1 & !n ,i saw ! figure ( a little *ild /&+ at ! foot ( ! b$4 ,i look$ closely & recogniz$ my little bro!r ,t$dy1 :o _h be5 dr[n$ ne>ly tw5ty ye>s be=e4 ,i seem$ to "k t he _h come f ! _s _w1 & 9 my anxiety ,i sprang f ! b$1 &1 re/+ "o knee ^u ! floor1 ,i gaz$ int5tly at him4 ,he /epp$ ne> me1 & ,i took "o little arm 9 my h&4 ,al?\gh a _s1 he seem$ palpable to my t\*4 ,i said3 ,i ?9k y are my little bro!r ,t$dy2 b x is s long s9ce ,i saw y t ,i _h almo/ =gott5 h[ y look$4 ,!n ! ?\ght came into my m9d t ,i mu/ ask him "s "q4 ,i said3 ,t$dy1 h y se5 our ,heav5ly ,fa!r yet8 ,he answ]$ 9 ! sweet voice ( a *ild3 ,no--b ,i %all see ,him4 ,i notic$ t he 0 trembl+1 & t f 8 eyes !re w5t a glance ( fe> to ! op5 door4 ,i ask$ aga93 ,h y br\ght any message to me8 ,to ?is "q he answ]$1 ,yes1 %ak+ at ! "t m viol5tly ) fe>2 b he turn$ 8 glance f ! door & 8 eyes look$ /raight into m9e1 & he came ne/l+ into my arms4 ,he lift$ ! =e f+] ( 8 "r h& t[>d my face & said3 ,only be true6 ,he turn$ 8 head1 /ill ) t fright5$ glance1 at ! op5 door1 & ?is "t ,i also look$4 ,& ,i saw an evil _s /&+ j outside & %ak+ its fi/ at ! little "o1 & be>+ on its face a demoniacal sc[l4 ,its :ole be>+ & ge/ure impli$ ! words1 ,don't y d>e to give t message6 ,:5 ,i saw ?is1 ,i said to ,t$dy3 ,h no fe>--,i "k h[ to drive him away4 ,= ev5 9 my dream ,i seem$ to und]/& :at p[] ! evil "o possess$ & h[ he c\ld be rebuk$4 ,& ,i seem$ n[ to h got back my fai? & ! p[] ( my call+4 ,i /rode to ! door & /ood close to ! wick$ _s4 ,i rais$ my arm to ! squ>e1 ) my h& op5 & ! palm ext5d$ t[>d him1 say+ at ! same "t3 ,9 ! "n ( ! ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/ ( ,naz>e?1 ! ,son ( ! liv+ ,god1 ,i comm& y to be gone4 ,he look$ at me ) a hateful gl>e1 b sl[ly walk$ ?ree or f\r /eps d[n ! /airway :i* 0 !re4 ,!n he /opp$1 fold$ 8 arms1 &1 look+ at me defiantly1 cri$3 ,i w n g6 ,i w n g6 ,i w n g6 ,i said3 ,y w g4 ,& !n ,i foll[$ him d[n1 aga9 /&+ close to him4 ,aga9 ,i br\ght my arm to ! squ>e & repeat$ my solemn adjuration4 ,he walk$ d[n ! /airs & took refuge 9 a corn]4 ,?is "t he assum$ a mo/ resolute mi54 ,8 face express$ int5se malice & hatr$4 ,he cri$3 ,i w n g--y %all n drive me away6 ,= ! la/ "t ,i invok$ t supreme "n ( our ,"l ,jesus1 & !n ! demon--%ak+ 8 h&s at me /ill 9 a ?reat5+ mann]1 fl$ ) a look ( baffl$ rage on 8 hide\s c\nt5ance4 ,i return$ to ! room & f\nd t ,t$dy 0 gone4 ,weak & exhau/$ ,i climb$ back into my b$ & seem$ to fall asleep2 & at ! v in/ant :5 ,i seem$ to lapse into slumb] ,i awoke ) a />t & he>d ! s\nd ( a jolly song4 ,in/ead ( ! dry p>*$ feel+ :i* _h envelop$ my :ole be+ :5 ,i fell asleep1 ,i 0 n[ 9 a delici\s p]spiration4 ,f my face ! sweat 0 roll+ 9 little /reams4 ,?is seem$ z pleasant to me z a flood ( wat] to a ?ir/y des]t4 ,! s++ came f ! cab94 ,! man :o 0 giv+ ! song 9 a full1 manly voice1 0 s ne> to my b]? t ,i c\ld h rea*$ out & plac$ my h& ^u 8 %\ld]4 ,! *orus ( 8 song w5t to my he>t2 & ,i aft]w>d le>n$ t ! "y man _h n be5 invit$ to s+1 b _h be5 seiz$ ) a sudd5 impulse1 unacc\ntable ev5 to himself4 ,to ?is h\r ,i h treasur$ 9 my recollection ! com=t+ words ( t *orus4 ,!y 73 ,nev]1 boys1 give way to sorr[1 ,b be up & act l m56 ,look ) hope = joys to-morr[-- ,sunny days %all come aga96 ,:5 aga9 ,i fell asleep ,i 0 comp>atively happy4 ,! foll[+ morn+ :5 ,i awoke ,i 0 well1 except = great weakness4 ,_m h\rs subsequ5tly1 :ile ,i lay wide-awake & com=table 9 my b]?--lull$ by ! swirl ( wat]s aga9/ ! %ip--,i saw1 /&+ on a /ep-ladd] by ! side ( my b]? & look+ d[n ^u me1 a little old lady4 ,%e 0 %ort & /\t1 & pleasant-look+4 ,h] eyes gleam$ ) k9dness1 & %e smil$ 9 a mo/ fri5dly fa%ion4 ,h[ %e came !re ,i knew n1 b %e seem$ to feel p]fectly at home4 ,:5 my eyes met h]s1 %e began to nod at me4 ,%e cont9u$ h] droll recognition = sev]al mom5ts1 & !n %e spoke 9 a jolly tone3 ,i "k y2 ,i "k y6 ,& y %all "k me :5 we meet aga94 ,!n %e disappe>$ z sudd5ly z %e _h come4 ,b h] face & figure1 h] smile & tw9kl+ eyes1 & h] good-natur$ voice rema9$ long ) me z a pleasant memory4 ,be=e ,i _h be5 a v long "t 9 ,new ,zeal&1 ,i saw h] aga92 b ?is next "t h] pres5ce 0 m ?an a fleet+ fancy4 ,at t5 o'clock on ,tuesday morn+ we sight$ ,new ,zeal&4 ,at eight o'clock t night we arriv$ at ! port ( ,well+ton4 ,x 0 9 ! ord9>y "t ( ! /eam] t we %\ld leave at f\r o'clock ! next morn+ on ! voyage across ,cook's ,/rait to ,littleton1 my de/9ation--#age miles di/ant4 ,in/ead1 h[ev]1 ( our gett+ away ,w$nesday morn+ at f\r o'clock1 at t h\r a furi\s gale 0 com+ up ! /rait4 ,s t]rific 0 its p[] t ! capta9 c\ld n ent]ta9 ! ?\ght ( go+ out ( port2 s we rema9$ ov] tw5ty-six h\rs1 & left ,well+ton at six o'clock on ,?ursday morn+4 ,on ,friday morn+1 ab\t six o'clock1 we rea*$ ,port ,littleton1 f :i* place ,i _h le>n$ t a tra9 />t$ = ,*ri/*ur*1 on ! way to ,rangiora1 an h\r lat]4 ,x 0 my int5tion to g on %ore ) my luggage & take a seat 9 ?is tra9 be=e sev5 o'clock4 ,b1 z ,i 0 ab\t to set foot ^u ! gangway1 ,i felt a sudd5 prompt+1 z di/9ct z if x 7 a voice1 speak+ to me3 ,don't g a%ore n[4 ,y mu/ wait = a "t4 ,i le>n$ t ano!r tra9 w\ld leave dur+ ! morn+1 & !n ,i w5t back into ! cab9 ) my luggage & rema9$ ne>ly an h\r4 ,:ile wait+ ,i seem$ to he> a voice z ( someone speak+ beh9d me3 ,n[ is y\r "t to g a%ore4 ,i took all my luggage on my %\ld]s & 9 my h&s1 & walk$ across ! deck & gangway1 & 0 j sett+ foot on ! quay1 :5 a man ru%$ up to me & said3 ,excuse me1 sir2 b d y "k ( anyone by ! "n ( ,%reeve on bo>d ?is vessel8 ,i dropp$ my luggage1 rea*$ out my h&1 & said3 ,y are ,bro!r ,nord/r&6 ,he repli$3 ,yes2 & y are ,bro!r ,%reeve6 ,all[ me to welcome y to ,new ,zeal&4 ,i did n "k at ! "t :y ,i said ,bro!r ,nord/r&4 ,( c\rse ,i _h nev] se5 ! man be=e1 & ! only possible acqua9tance ,i c\ld h _h ) 8 "n1 01 t ,i _h glanc$ once or twice1 "s weeks previ\s1 at a report :i* conta9$ ! names ( ! ,new ,zeal& ,sa9ts4 ,pay+ b little att5tion to ?is matt] at ! "t1 ,i did n rememb] t ,nord/r& 0 among ^! names1 ev5 if ,i saw x4 ,i _h no idea t any p]son w\ld come to meet me4 ,& yet ,i spoke 8 "n & rea*$ out my h& to him ) z mu* confid5ce z if we _h be5 old acqua9tances1 only sep>at$ = a ye> or two4 ,if ?is exp]i5ce on my own "p seem$ m>vel\s to me1 ^u reflection1 ,i 0 /ill m surpris$ :5 ,bro!r ,nord/r& relat$ ! ev5ts :i* caus$ him to meet ! ,wakatipu at ,port ,littleton4 ,he said3 ,i live at ,/yx4 ,?is morn+ 9 a dream1 a p]sonage--a "y man ( pleas+ appe>ance1 clo!d 9 a :ite robe--visit$ me & in/ruct$ me to g to ,port ,littleton ?is morn+ & meet ! /eam] ,wakatipu1 & f9d among h] pass5g]s a man nam$ ,%reeve1 :o 0 a ,mormon ,eld] com+ to visit ! ,sa9ts 9 ,new ,zeal&4 ,! vision 0 s vivid t ,i 0 r\s$ f my sleep2 &1 :5 x 0 end$1 ,i sprang out ( b$ & look$ at ! clock4 ,i f\nd ! h\r to be #d ,a4 ,m4 ,two h\rs lat] ,i saddl$ my horse & rode to ,*ri/*ur*1 a di/ance ( six or sev5 miles4 ,!re ,i took tra9 = ,port ,littleton1 n9e miles away1 & arriv$ "h to meet y4 ,! sole in=mation & in/ruction ^u :i* ,bro!r ,nord/r& act$ 0 t convey$ to him 9 ?is dream4 ,9 a lat] conv]sation ,i le>n$ t 9 ! same vision he _h be5 %[n all ! consequ5ces :i* w\ld att5d ^u my m9i/ration 9 ,new ,zeal&4 ,! ev5t prov$ t ?is dream to ,bro!r ,nord/r& 0 "o ( ! greate/ bless+s ( my life4 ,i enc\nt]$ mu* tribulation 9 ,new ,zeal&2 no m f ! bigotry ( ! _w ?an f ! p]fidy ( my own bre?r54 ,b ?r\gh all ! tr\ble ,bro!r ,nord/r& 0 my devot$ fri5d4 ,he _h nev] a mom5t ( d\bt1 because all :i* happ5$ _h be5 by him =ese54 ,,*apt] ,,iv4 ,,reason ,,= ,,my ,,sudd5 ,,call ,,to ,,leave ,,sydney--,,! ,,little ,,old ,,lady ,,( ,,! ,,wakatipu--,,%e ,,_h ,,wait$ ,a ,,g5]ation ,,to ,,r5ew ,,h] ,,cov5ants--,,ano!r ,,helpful ,,vision--,a ,,my/]i\s ,,half-,,sov]eign--,,sav$ ,,f ,,dea? ,,9 ,a ,,swift ,,riv]4 ,eld]s ,william ,mc,lachlan1 ,?omas ,/e$1 ,*>les ,hur/ & ,fr$4 ,hur/ _h be5 ! la/ ,utah ,eld]s to labor 9 ! ,new ,zeal& mission>y field previ\s to ! date ( my l&+ !re4 ,!y _h r5d]$ good s]vice to ! cause1 & ,i discov]$ t ! f\ndation :i* !y _h laid 0 broad & deep1 & cem5t$ 9 gospel tru?4 ,aft] a few days visit ) ,bro!r ,nord/r& at ,/yx1 ,i w5t to ,s\?brook1 :]e ,i f\nd ,eld] ,james ,burnett ,jr41 ! "y man :o _h be5 left 9 *>ge ( ! mission by ! bre?r5 ab\t a ye> be=e4 ,) him & ) o!rs ,i labor$ up & d[n ! c\ntry 9 t locality1 & 9 ! ensu+ ?ree mon?s tw5ty-five s\ls 7 br\ght into ! ,*ur* 9 ! ,cant]bury ,prov9ce4 ,"o ( my fir/ meet+s 0 held at ,prebbleton4 ,:ile speak+ !re1 ,i felt l$ to detail ! /range succession ( circum/ances att5dant ^u my com+ s e>ly to t field4 ,:5 ,i sat d[n a good si/] nam$ ,mort5s5 arose & said3 ,bro!r ,%reeve1 ,i c tell y :y y receiv$ ! comm& to come to ,new ,zeal& imm$iately4 ,x 0 9 answ] to our f]v5t pray]4 ,= m ?an ?ree mon?s previ\s to y\r arrival "h we _h be5 anxi\sly supplicat+ ! ,"l to s5d u an ,eld] f ,utah4 ,ab\t two mon?s aft] ,i l&$ 9 ,new ,zeal& ,i 0 travel+ 9 company ) ,bro!r ,john ,walk]1 :5 he said to me3 ,!re is a woman liv+ 9 ?is neighborhood1 :o1 ,i und]/&1 once belong$ to ! ,*ur*4 ,i am acqua9t$ ) h] husb&4 ,let u g ov] & see h]4 ,i ass5t$ to 8 proposition & w5t to ! h\se designat$4 ,:5 we ent]$ we saw a little old woman sitt+ by ! /ove1 smok+ a pipe4 ,%e arose ) "s emb>rassm5t at receiv+ visitors4 ,b ! mom5t %e fully confront$ me1 ,i saw t %e 0 ! little old woman :o _h visit$ me 9 imag9ation on bo>d ! ,wakatipu1 :ile sail+ across ,cook's ,/raits4 ,i le>n$ t h] "n 0 ,si/] ,emmas1 & 9 conv]sation %e /at$ to me t %e _h become a memb] ( ! ,*ur* a g5]ation be=e1 9 ! t[n ( ,bri/ol 9 ,engl&4 ,x 0 !re t ! miracle ( re/oration ( sight 0 p]=m$ "u ! adm9i/ration ( ,eld] ,john ,hackwell1 ^u ! eyes ( ! *ildr5 ( ,william & ,elizabe? ,b\nsell4 ,si/] ,emmas _h be5 an eye witness to ?is miracle4 ,%e 0 !n firm 9 ! fai?2 b ! "y man :om %e m>ri$--be+ anxi\s to get h] away f ! influ5ce ( ! hat$ ,mormons _h c>ri$ h] to ?is remote nook 9 ,new ,zeal&1 ?9k+ t he _h sep>at$ h] f ! ,*ur* =ev]4 ,%e _h (t5 pray$ to be visit$ by memb]s ( ! ,*ur* & to be unit$ ) h] p4 ,"s ye>s be=e ,i met h] a man _h work$ = h] husb& = a brief "t1 & !n dep>t$4 ,aft] he 0 gone %e le>n$ t he 0 a ,mormon4 ,he _h int]e/$ h] greatly :ile he labor$ = h] husb&1 & %e _h be5 unable to acc\nt = ! int]e/ %e took 9 him4 ,aft] he 0 gone ! matt] 0 expla9$ to h] satisfaction2 & %e look$ anxi\sly = 8 return--b 9 va91 = %e nev] saw him aft] t h\r4 ,9 lat] conv]sations ,i spoke to h] ( h] appe>ance to me on bo>d ! ,wakatipu1 & by comp>ison ( dates ,i le>n$ t on or ab\t ! v day :5 %e appe>$ to me1 %e _h be5 pray+ mo/ e>ne/ly t ! ,"l w\ld bless h] ) a visit f a ,mormon ,eld]4 ,%e _h (t5 sat by h] w9d[ & look$ out ) /ra9+ eyes & anxi\s he>t = someone to come to h]1 & br+ a r5ewal ( ! glad tid+s :i* %e _h he>d ?irty ye>s be=e 9 ,engl&4 ,:ile ,i rema9$ 9 t region ,si/] ,emmas 0 v k9d to me4 ,%e frequ5tly help$ me ) money1 & ,i 0 always a welcome visitor at h] h\se4 ,%e lov$ to talk ab\t ! ?+s ( ! gospel1 b ,i f\nd t %e 0 b a *ild4 ,%e _h he>d no?+ ( ! tea*+s ( ! ,*ur* except ^? e>lie/ taught 9 ,engl&1 & ! sublime doctr9es ( baptism = ! dead1 & o!r ?+s reveal$ to ! ,sa9ts lat] ?an h] day 9 ! ,*ur* 7 entirely new & /range to h]4 ,(t5 :5 ,i 0 talk+ %e w\ld clasp h] h&s1 & look at me ) ! utmo/ surprise1 say+3 ,well1 well6 ,n[1 !y didn't tea* t :5 ,i jo9$ ! ,*ur*--,i didn't und]/& x t way4 ,b %e seem$ always will+ to le>n1 & 0 inde$ a fai?ful s\l4 ,h] husb&1 h[ev]1 cont9u$ bitt]ly oppos$1 & aft] "s "t bo? %e & ,i agre$ t = ! sake ( h] peace x w\ld be bett] if my visits to _! h\se ceas$4 ,b be=e we f9ally p>t$ ! good old lady said to me3 ,y w "k :5 ,i am dead--,i w let y "k2 & !n1 if !re is any?+ :i* y c d = my et]nal bless+1 ,i pray y to d x4 ,on ! #bg? ( ,febru>y1 #ahgi1 ,i w5t to ! ,nor? ,isl&1 9 ! hope to d "s successful labor !re4 ,at ,well+ton ,i /opp$ at a hotel kept by a ,mr4 ,daville1 a relative ( ,bro!r ,c4 ,w4 ,c>t] ( ,salt ,lake4 ,on ! night ( my arrival ,i retir$ to my room1 wet & cold4 ,i 0 we>i$1 b wakeful1 because ( my anxiety4 ,i knew t sev]al ef=ts _h be5 made 9 times pa/ to op5 ! "w 9 ?is region2 b !y seem$ all to h be5 unsuccessful1 & ,i d\bt$ my own ability to accompli% any good4 ,i felt pray]ful1 b /ill despond5t4 ,:ile ,i lay1 wide awake1 9 my b$ ,i sudd5ly saw a h& & arm1 clo!d 9 a :ite sleeve :i* ext5d$ d[n midway betwe5 ! elb[ & ! wri/1 & hold+ a tor* 9 its h&--?ru/ out f ! side ( a d>k fireplace :i* 0 9 ! room4 ,at fir/ !re 0 b a sp>k ( light at ! top ( ! tor*1 b gradually ! flame grew great] & ! light /rong]1 until x fill$ ! :ole room2 & !n f out ! d>kness beh9d ! arm & tor* /epp$ ! figure ( a little girl4 ,i recogniz$ x in/antly z t ( my "y si/] ,sophia1 :o _h di$ six ye>s be=e 9 ,engl&1 :ile ,i 0 9 ,utah4 ,at ! "t ( h] dea? %e 0 eight & a half ye>s old1 & _h b rec5tly be5 baptiz$ into ! ,*ur*4 ,%e came t[>d ! b$1 & ,i saw t %e 0 dress$ 9 beautiful :ite raim5t4 ,f h] :ole p]son a pleas+ light seem$ to emanate4 ,%e approa*$ ! b$ & lean$ ov] x1 plac+ h] arms ar\nd my neck & kiss+ me ^u ! lips4 ,!n1 /ill ) h] h&s clasp$1 %e lean$ back & look$ int5tly into my face1 say+ at ! same "t3 ,tom1 don't be afraid6 ,:5ev] y are 9 dang] ,i w come to w>n y4 ,%e b5t =w>d & kiss$ me aga92 aft]w>d lean+ back to take ano!r look at my face4 ,repeat+ ! same words z be=e1 once m %e kiss$ me2 & !n sl[ly )drew h] arms & mov$ back f ! b$4 ,%e approa*$ ! arm1 :i* /ill held ! tor*1 & z %e did s ,i saw t ! light ( ! tor* pal$ be=e ! great] glory :i* surr\nd$ h] p]son4 ,:5 %e ne>$ ! fireplace ! arm /ret*$ out ar\nd h]1 & %e /epp$ back into ! d>kness4 ,%e wav$ h] h& ?ree times ) a f>ewell ge/ure t[>d me4 ,soon %e 0 envelop$ 9 ! d>kness ( ! fireplace1 & ! light ( ! tor* grew = a mom5t bright]2 !n sudd5ly x vani%$ & ,i f\nd myself lean+ ^u my elb[ 9 ! b$ & gaz+ fix$ly at ! blank d>kness :]e ! glori\s pres5ce & ! light tor* _h disappe>$4 ,s real & c]ta9 _h be5 ! pres5ce ( my si/] t aft] %e 0 gone ,i /ill felt ! pressure ( h] w>m arms ar\nd my neck4 ,i rema9$ 9 t region = a "t1 b c\ld n f9d any op5+2 & !re=e conclud$ to return to ! ,s\? ,isl&4 ,at ! "t ,i greatly regrett$ ! necessity = ?is /ep1 = x seem$ l a des]tion ( ! field2 b ,i 0 lat] l$ to ?ank ,god = ! guidance ( ! ,_s = tak+ me away f ! ,nor? ,isl&4 ,x _h be5 my purpose to obta9 an op5+ among ! ,maories1 & proclaim to !m ! gospel2 b two weeks aft] my return to ! ,s\? ,isl& s]i\s tr\ble broke out betwe5 ! gov]nm5t & ! ,maori tribes :i* ,i _h int5d$ to visit on ! we/ coa/4 ,?is tr\ble cont9u$ = a consid]able "t1 & dur+ x1 :5ev] my m9d recurr$ to ! subject1 ,i ?ank$ ! ,"l t ,i _h be5 l$ away f t locality2 because ! p ( t region w\ld h be5 only too glad to attribute ! ,maori upris+ to ! inc5di>y pres5ce ( a ,mormon ,eld]4 ,"o day aft] my return1 myself & a companion _h be5 baptiz+ at ,alfr$ ,=e/ & x 0 our desire to rea* ,templeton z spe$ily z possible4 ,we 7 v tir$1 hav+ walk$ ?irty-two miles t day1 & we conclud$ to ride f ,rakaia to ,templeton1 provid$ we _h en\gh money = ! purpose4 ,we empti$ all our pockets v c>efully4 ,i took especial c>e to feel 9 e corn] ( my clo?+1 & ,i gave all ,i _h to my companion1 :o said t ) 8 little /ock ?is 0 b>ely suffici5t to pur*ase ! tickets4 ,:5 we arriv$ at ,templeton we le>n$ t ,bro!r ,walk] 0 q ill at 8 home 9 a little t[n two or ?ree miles di/ant4 ,:5 ,i arose to dress ! next morn+1 ,i happ5$ to put my h& 9 my ve/ pocket2 & to my amazem5t ,i drew =? a half-sov]eign 9 gold4 ,h[ x came !re ,i "k n to ?is day3 ,i 0 possess$ ( su* a co9 s infrequ5tly 9 ^? days t ,i _h c]ta9ly n plac$ x 9 my pocket & =gott5 x2 besides only ! night previ\s at ,rakaia ,i _h se>*$ my pockets c>efully & _h giv5 e p5ny possess$ to my fell[-labor]4 ,at ! reque/ ( my companion1 :o 0 too we>y to attempt ! j\rney1 ,i trudg$ d[n t morn+ to ,bro!r ,walk]'s h\se--al?\gh ,i myself _h be5 s tir$ t ,i ?\ght ,i c\ld n walk a furlong4 ,:5 ,i rea*$ ! h\se ,i f\nd ,bro!r ,walk] 0 inde$ v sick2 & t1 ow+ to ! conf9em5t occasion$ by 8 sickness1 8 bus9ess _h be5 neglect$1 & 8 folks _h be5 unable to leave him :ile !y made collections ( money due him1 & !y 7 = ! mom5t 9 a v ne$y /ate1 n hav+ a p5ny 9 ! h\se4 ,:5 ,i f\nd ! situation 9 :i* !y 7 plac$ ,i said to ,si/] ,walk]3 ,i h f\nd a half-sov]eign ?is morn+1 :i* came to me 9 "s unkn[n way = "s unkn[n purpose2 & n[ ,i %all be glad to let y h x = y\r ne$s4 ,%e ?ank$ me1 & told me t %e w\ld be grateful if ,i w\ld hit* up _! horse & drive ov] to ,*ri/*ur* & pur*ase "s bread & m$ic9e4 ,i did z %e reque/$4 ,i hit*$ up ! horse & w5t imm$iately to ,*ri/*ur*1 a di/ance ( ?ree or f\r miles4 ,arriv$ !re ,i w5t to ! bak]'s %op & ask$ = two %ill+s & sixp5ce wor? ( bread1 giv+ ! bak] 9 paym5t my half-sov]eign1 or t5 %ill+ piece4 ,he gave me ! prop] *ange ,i am sure1 because ,i wat*$ x c>efully4 ,i plac$ ?is *ange ( silv] 9 ! empty purse :i* ,i _h 9 my h&1 & !n w5t to ! *emi/'s %op4 ,"h ,i pur*as$ m$ic9e to ! am\nt ( two %ill+s1 & took t mu* money f ! purse & paid ! *emi/4 ,!n ,i ha/5$ back to ,bro!r ,walk]'s1 & :5 ,i ent]$ ! h\se ,i gave ! folks ! bread & ! m$ic9e1 & toss$ ! purse1 conta9+ z ,i suppos$1 five %ill+s & sixp5ce 9 *ange1 to ,si/] ,walk]4 ,%e empti$ ! money into h] lap1 c\nt$ x1 & !n said3 ,y did n pay = ! bread & m$ic9e :i* y got at ,*ri/*ur*4 ,i repli$ t ,i _h paid = !m1 c]ta9ly2 because1 be+ unkn[n to ! bak] & *emi/1 !y w\ld n h tru/$ me4 ,b1 %e repli$1 y h br\ght back t5 %ill+s & f\r p5ce--:i* is m ?an y c>ri$ away ) y4 ,i answ]$ t ,i c\ld n help t--,i _h c]ta9ly paid = ! bread & ! m$ic9e & _h receiv$ my exact *ange f ! bak]1 :o broke ! money = me4 ,b :atev] ,i might say1 !re 0 ! money--f\r p5ce m ?an ,i _h c>ri$ away1 al?\gh ,i _h sp5t f\r %ill+s & sixp5ce4 ,"s "t aft]w>d ,i 0 reque/$ by ,jeppe ,c4 ,jeppeson to g to ,alfr$ ,=e/ to p]=m = him & 8 family ! ord9ance ( baptism4 ,i 0 !n at ,prebbleton1 & ,alfr$ ,=e/ 0 m ?an sev5ty miles away4 ,! second day ( my j\rney ,i _h ?irty-two miles to travel on foot f ! ,rakaia ,riv] to ,alfr$ ,=e/4 ,my way lay = t5 miles along ! bank ( ! ,rakaia2 & !nce along a level /ret* = tw5ty miles1 to ! ,nor? ,a%burton ,riv]4 ,?is ,i w\ld be oblig$ to cross1 & f ! cross+ to travel = two miles to ! resid5ce ( ,mr4 ,jeppeson4 ,! ,rakaia is a broad riv] fl[+ betwe5 high & /eep banks4 ,! day 0 extremely hot1 ) a nor?-we/ w9d bl[+4 ,?is nor?-we/] z x is call$ 9 t region is some?+ l ! des]t simoon--x dries ! sap out ( ev]y?+4 ,x is int5sely hot & p>*+ 9 its nature1 & quickly en]vates any p]son expos$ to its influ5ce4 ,especially is ?is ! case ) a p]son unaccu/om$ to ! climate4 ,:5ev] ,i want$ to moi/5 my lips ,i _h consid]able difficulty 9 desc5d+ to ! /ream & reasc5d+ ! /eep & high bank4 ,b ,i 0 soon sp>$ ?is annoyance2 because :5 ,i began to cross ! pla9 ,i f\nd no wat] :atev]4 ,!re 0 n a drop to be f\nd = a /ret* ( ne>ly fifte5 miles4 ,sev]al times dur+ ?is pa9ful j\rney ,i lay d[n1 feel+ utt]ly exhau/$2 & once or twice ,i felt t dea? w\ld be a relief4 ,ab\t a mile be=e ,i rea*$ ! nor? =k ( ! ,a%burton1 ,i saw a /ick ab\t six feet long & two in*es ?ick1 ly+ across my pa?4 ,i pass$ x by1 b c\ld n help feel+ greatly surpris$ at see+ x !re2 because ,i _h n1 dur+ ! :ole "t t ,i 0 walk+ across ?is pla9 se5 any tree or %rub or ev5 a will[ ( any k9d4 ,aft] ,i _h gone "s di/ance1 ,i felt an impression t ,i ought to turn back & get ! /ick4 ,i endeavor$ to put ?is idea f my m9d1 b )\t avail2 & s ,i return$ & pick$ up ! /ick & c>ri$ x ) me4 ,:5 ,i rea*$ ! riv] ,i expect$ to f9d someone !re to meet me2 because ,mr4 ,jeppeson _h promis$ t 8 son w\ld await me on ! nor? side ( ! riv] ) a horse1 & help me across4 ,b ,i f\nd no "o !re4 ,! sun _h long gone d[n1 & d>kness 0 swiftly desc5d+ ^u ! e>?4 ,! riv] 0 rapidly ris+ = ! nor?-we/] 0 ! w>n+ ( a /orm :i* _h be5 rag+ 9 ! m\nta9s4 ,?is bran* ( ! ,a%burton 0 ab\t a furlong 9 wid?1 & 0 naturally a rapid ?\gh n deep /ream4 ,its fall 0 s great t an imm5se quantity ( wat] c\ld be c>ri$ ) a %all[ dep?4 ,z ) _m o!r ,new ,zeal& riv]s1 = a s+le p]son to cross on foot 0 a dang]\s exp]im5t1 because ! wat] fl[s s rapidly t "o is easily lift$ (f 8 feet2 & once d[n he c\ld nev] get up aga94 ,i 0 debat+ 9 my m9d :e!r ,i %\ld pass ! night on ! nor? bank ( ! riv]1 or run ! risk ( dea? 9 cross+1 :5 ,i saw a rift l a triangle op5 9 ! cl\d$ sky to ! s\?4 ,f ?is rift suffici5t light came to enable me to see ! surface ( ! /ream4 ,i look$ f ! roadway & saw t at v>i\s po9ts 9 ! riv] 7 %ift+ s& b>s1 :i* ,i c\ld detect by ! rippl+ ov] !m ( ! ris+ wat]s4 ,i knelt d[n & pray$ = guidance f my ,heav5ly ,fa!r1 & :5 ,i arose x 0 ) a det]m9ation to cross ! /ream4 ,i desc5d$ into ! wat]1 b "s influ5ce imm$iately =c$ me back to %ore4 ,?is influ5ce 0 s p[]ful t x lift$ me back to ! bank l a cork4 ,!n ,i b5t ov] & look$ at ! /ream1 & by ! aid ( ! light f ! op5 space 9 ! sky ,i saw t :]e ,i int5d$ to ent] ! riv] 0 a deep1 d>k curr5t4 ,high] up ,i c\ld see t ! light %one on a l9e ( ripples1 betok5+ s& b>s1 ext5d+ almo/ entirely across ! /ream4 ,i asc5d$ to a favorable po9t & saw t "h ! light %one at its brighte/2 & ,i took ?is l9e = my =d4 ,i _h ! /ick :i* ,i _h provid5tially pick$ up1 & ?is ,i put into ! wat] d[n /ream f me1 & gr\nd$ x on ! bottom1 & !n ,i ent]$ )\t fe>4 ,i lean$ up /ream z f> z ,i c\ld )\t fall+1 &1 al?\gh ! /ream 0 only up to my knees1 ! pressure ( ! swift curr5t aga9/ my body ?rew x z high z my wai/4 ,z soon z ,i c\ld ga9 a firm foot+ ^u ! bottom1 ,i mov$ my /ick f po9t to po9t2 & 9 ?is way progress$ safely to ! fir/ b>4 ,!n ,i /epp$ into a hole ) my "r foot1 & caught myself j z ,i 0 go+ d[n4 ,a cold sweat broke out on me1 because1 :ile ,i _h n _h mu* exp]i5ce ) ,new ,zeal& riv]s1 ,i knew p]fectly well t to lose my foot+ 0 to die4 ,i /ood a mom5t to brea! & to recov] my composure1 & !n ,i />t$ on4 ,guid$ by ! light1 & support$ by my /ick1 ,i 0 able to zig zag f "o b> to ano!r1 until ,i 0 )9 tw5ty y>ds ( ! s\? bank4 ,!n aga9 ,i miss$ my foot+1 & 0 :irl$ ar\nd & ne>ly ca/ d[n4 ,! /ick once m sav$ me1 & 9 a few m9utes ,i 0 safely l&$ on ! %ore4 ,wet1 exhau/$ ) ! long battle 9 cross+ ! riv]1 my %oes full ( s& & my feet raw2 ,i sank d[n ^u ! gr\nd1 we>i$ b joyful4 ,i ?ank$ ,god = ! pres]vation ( my life ?r\gh ! /ruggle ) ! fi]ce riv]4 ,:5 ,i rose f my knees ,i look$ up at ! sky1 & saw t ! provid5tial light 7:i* _h und\bt$ly be5 ! means ( sav+ my life7 _h disappe>$4 ,i felt conv9c$ f ?is t !re 7 no m /reams2 & ! result prov$ ! correctness ( t idea4 ,i walk$ on two miles & f\nd ! h\se ( ,mr4 ,jeppeson2 b x 0 clos$ up1 all ! p hav+ retir$ to b$4 ,:5 ,i f\nd t !y _h pref]r$ to retire1 r ?an to fulfill _! engagem5t ) me1 ,i w5t to ! h\se ( ,bro!r ,ols51 :o k9dly gave me supp] & a b$4 ,a few days lat]1 ,mr4 ,jeppeson came to me ) pr(use apologies1 & at 8 reque/ ,i baptiz$ him & 8 family4 ,,*apt] ,v4 ,,"s ,,old ,,memb]s ,,( ,,! ,,*ur*--,,! ,,_s ,,prompts ,,promises ,,to ,,!m ,,:i* ,,are ,,lit]ally ,,fulfill$--,,help ,,f ,a ,,ca?olic ,,:o ,,is ,,sudd5ly ,,conv]t$ ,,& ,,:o ,,z ,,sudd5ly ,,apo/atizes--,a ,,spontane\s ,,prophecy--,,! ,,j\rney ,,home--,a ,,c>eful ,,obs]v]--,,safe ,,9 ,,zion4 ,"o day :ile visit+ at a little village call$ ,greyt[n1 ,i met a lady ^: "n 0 ,mrs4 ,reid4 ,%e _h belong$ to ! ,*ur* fifte5 or sixte5 ye>s be=e1 :5 %e 0 a girl 9 ,engl&4 ,%e _h be5 q a devot$ memb] ( ! ,*ur*1 & "s ( ! ,eld]s promis$ h] t ?r\gh h] fai?fulness & h] k9dness %e %\ld be enabl$ to ga!r to ,zion ) ! ,sa9ts4 ,?is 0 ! de>e/ wi% ( h] he>t1 & %e fondly anticipat$ ! "t4 ,b %e 0 c\rt$ by a man :om %e subsequ5tly m>ri$1 & he came into ! ,*ur* = ! purpose ( ga9+ h] h&4 ,! "t 0 almo/ set = h] dep>ture to ! ,valley2 b he insi/$ t !y %\ld be m>ri$ 9 ,engl&4 ,! ,eld]s advis$ h] to wait until %e & h] affianc$ c\ld rea* ,zion2 b %e 0 p]suad$ by ! plead+s ( ,mr4 ,reid1 & m>ri$ him 9 ,engl&4 ,no soon] 7 !y unit$ ?an he took h] to ano!r "p ( ! c\ntry1 & lat] he c>ri$ h] to ,new ,zeal&4 ,he _h n be5 s9c]e 9 8 prote/ations ( fai?1 b _h m]ely jo9$ ! ,*ur* = ! purpose ( ga9+ h] h&4 ,%e _h rep5t$ bitt]ly ?is error ( h] life1 & :5 ,i saw h] %e 0 a mo/ lonely & mis]able creature4 ,h] "m & si/]s 7 9 ,utah1 b %e _h no hope ( ev] see+ !m4 ,h] husb& 0 a besott$ wret* :o made h] life "o cont9u$ agony4 ,%e unfold$ to me all ! tr\bles ( h] life4 ,%e recall$ cle>ly all t _h be5 promis$ to h] by ! ,eld]s1 & %e wept :5 %e ?\ght ( h[ %e _h robb$ ?is sacr$ promise ( its fulfillm5t by h] own lack ( fidelity4 ,%e blam$ no "o b h]self1 b %e said to me v sorr[fully be=e we p>t$3 ,i "k t my husb& w n p]mit me to be rebaptiz$4 ,he is angry because y come "h2 = he ?9ks t ! ,mormons h aga9 hunt$ me out4 ,b be=e y g away ,i want y to bless me & my *ildr54 ,i compli$ ) h] reque/1 & :5 my h&s 7 on h] head ,i felt l$ to promise h]1 9 ! "n ( ! ,"l1 t %e %\ld be releas$ f h] tr\ble1 & t v %ortly4 ,a few mon?s lat] ,i le>n$ t %e 0 dead4 ,i did n und]/& ! full significance ( ! promise :i* ,i gave1 at ! "t4 ,i only spoke ! words 9 ob$i5ce to ! inspiration ( ! ,_s2 b ,i am satisfi$ t ?is 0 ! only relief :i* c\ld come to ?is poor1 oppress$ woman1 & ,god s5t x 9 answ] to h] humble & fai?ful pray]1 & h] reliance on ! promise :i* 0 made by an ,eld] ( ,*ri/4 ,a simil> exp]i5ce occurr$ to me at ,koroira1 at :i* village ,i f\nd an old man nam$ ,eagles4 ,ye>s be=e he _h liv$ 9 ,salt ,lake ) 8 family2 b 8 wife & *ildr5 grew dissatisfi$1 &1 9 fact1 apo/atiz$4 ,!y dep>t$ = ,new ,zeal&1 & ! old bro!r foll[$ !m away f ,salt ,lake 9 ! hope to br+ !m back into ! ,*ur*1 & induce !m to return to ,zion4 ,b 8 ef=t _h be5 9 va92 & n[ he 0 old & fa/ fail+ & 0 ! object ( _! contempt & p]secution4 ,!y refus$ to p]mit him to obs]ve1 ev5 9 ! simple/ matt]s1 ! religion to :i* he 0 hone/ly & irrevocably devot$4 ,i _h he>d t !re 0 su* a man 9 ! neighborhood1 ?\gh ,i _h n se5 him1 & "o day :5 ,i 0 pass+ along ! road ,i met him4 ,i knew t x 0 he at once4 ,i call$ him by "n1 & !n expla9$ t ,i 0 a ,mormon ,eld] f ,utah4 ,bro!r ,eagles express$ great gladness & soon told me 8 tr\bles4 ,i ask$3 ,y came away )\t any c\nsel8 ,he respond$ t he _h left ,utah )\t c\nsel2 al?\gh he _h made two or ?ree va9 ef=ts to get a conf]5ce ) ,presid5t ,"y4 ,b he confess$ t he _h be5 9 too great a hurry2 & t x _h be5 a bitt] mis=tune = him t he _h ev] left ,utah )\t hav+ c\nsel$ ) ! prop] au?orities & le>n$ ! "r ?+ = him to d4 ,i 0 a ,sunday s*ool tea*] 9 ,huntsville1 & ,i labor$ on ! ,temple ,block 9 ,salt ,lake2 & !re among ! ,sa9ts ,i 0 well respect$--b "h ,i am treat$ l a dog4 ,i am v sorr[ful & unhappy4 ,i saw t he 0 we>i$ & despond5t1 & ,i said to him3 ,nev] m9d1 ,bro!r ,eagles4 ,d n feel bad ab\t y\r tr\bles4 ,! ,"l is look+ d[n ^u y 9 m]cy4 ,he sees y\r afflictions1 & ,he w soon release y4 ,i am v sorry t y came )\t c\nsel2 b y w be rew>d$ = ! fai? t y h _h & ! labors y h p]=m$4 ,he answ]$ me t he really hop$ ! ,"l w\ld soon release him1 = 8 burd5 0 v heavy4 ,we p>t$ & ,i walk$ away2 & aft] travel+ a %ort di/ance ,i felt a sudd5 regret t ,i _h spok5 to ! old g5tleman 9 ?is way4 ,i ?\ght to myself t he w\ld feel bad1 & my words might increase 8 despond5cy4 ,i turn$ ar\nd to look = him1 & ,i saw t he _h m\nt$ ne>ly to ! cre/ ( a hill1 & t he _h /opp$ by ! roadside & 0 lean+ ^u 8 /ick4 ,! lonel9ess & ! unhapp9ess ( ! old man came fully to my m9d4 ,i ?\ght to g back & recall :at ,i _h said2 b ! mom5t ,i />t$ t[>ds him ! voice ( ! ,_s came to me di/9ctly1 say+3 ,proce$ ) y\r j\rney4 ,let ! old man alone4 ,i w5t to ,alfr$ ,=e/1 b return$ a few days lat]2 & on my return to ,*ri/*ur* ,i call$ at ! po/ (fice4 ,! fir/ lett] ,i receiv$ 0 f a fri5d at ,koroira4 ,he /at$ t on ! ,monday foll[+ my conv]sation ) ,bro!r ,eagles ! old man _h tak5 to 8 b$4 ,he _h n seem$ to suff] any bodily pa91 nor to be afflict$ 9 m9d4 ,he quietly sank away1 app>5tly 9 p]fect peace & cont5tm5t1 until ! foll[+ ,saturday1 :5 he di$4 ,aft] ne>ly two ye>s ( labor 9 ,new ,zeal&1 ,i 0 prep>+ to return home4 ,my release 0 expect$ e mail4 ,i _h n ! money ) :i* to pay my f>e f ,*ri/*ur* ev5 to ,auckl&2 b ,i knew t ! way w\ld op5 & ,i tru/$ ! ,"l implicitly4 ,i _h be5 direct$ to proce$ nor?w>d & p]=m my f9al labors 9 ! region ( ,well+ton & ,hawkes ,bay1 & ,i ne$$ ! means ) :i* to p]=m ?is labor4 ,! ,sa9ts 9 ! vic9ity ( ,*ri/*ur* 7 poor4 ,besides1 !y _h j assi/$ "o mission>y ) ! means to c>ry him home1 & ,i c\ld nei!r ask any?+1 nor 7 !y 9 a position to give4 ,! la/ ,sunday b "o be=e ,i 0 to />t nor?w>d1 ,i prea*$ 9 ,*ri/*ur* on ! re/oration ( ! gospel4 ,"o li/5] 0 a man nam$ ,br[nrigg1 :o 0 n a memb] ( ! ,*ur*4 ,he 0 a man ( consid]able means & a ,ca?olic4 ,a day or two lat] ,i w5t up ! c\ntry a %ort di/ance to bid ! folks f>ewell1 & !n return$ to ,*ri/*ur*4 ,i f\nd t 9 ! meantime ,mr4 ,br[nrigg _h become ,bro!r ,br[nrigg1 hav+ reque/$ & receiv$ baptism at ! h&s ( ! ,eld]s dur+ my abs5ce4 ,on ! la/ ,sunday ( my /ay 9 t region ,i aga9 prea*$ 9 ,*ri/*ur* & bore my te/imony to ! assembl$ ,sa9ts4 ,bro!r ,br[nrigg 0 !re--an att5tive li/5]4 ,! next day he call$ me into 8 bus9ess e/abli%m5t & told me t he _h be5 conv]t$ by ! s]mon :i* ,i _h prea*$ on ! re/oration ( ! gospel4 ,he enquir$ :at my means 71 & :5 ,i answ]$ t ,i 0 )\t money1 he said3 ,y _c travel )\t means4 ,"h are five p\nds = y4 ,?is am\nt w help y "s4 ,on ! foll[+ ,friday 7! day be=e ,i 0 to />t away7 he aga9 call$ me into 8 /ore1 & ?is "t pres5t$ me ) an additional sum ( ?ree p\nds--mak+ a total ( eight p\nds1 or #dj1 :i* he _h giv5 me )9 a week4 ,?is circum/ance impress$ me v s]i\sly4 ,!re 0 n a ,sa9t 9 t mission :o 0 able to give me ! money ne$$ = my j\rney until ,br[nrigg became a memb] ( ! ,*ur*2 & he 0 s quick & g5]\s ) 8 gift t ,i 0 enabl$ to sail on ! day appo9t$1 )\t any fur!r tr\ble or annoyance4 ,b if ,i 7 impress$ at ?is "t1 imag9e my feel+ :5 ,i le>n$ %ortly aft] t no soon] 0 ,i gone ?an ,mr4 ,br[nrigg apo/atiz$1 & call$ ! :ole sy/em ( ! gospel a pack ( nons5se6 ,i !n felt ready to admit t ,i _h conv]t$ ,mr4 ,br[nrigg by ! s]mon on ! re/oration ( ! gospel2 because if ! ,"l _h conv]t$ him1 he w\ld n h be5 s ready to d5y ! tru?4 ,i d n l to call su* a sordid matt] z ?is a miracle1 & yet x seems little %ort ( miracul\s t ?is man %\ld h come into ! ,*ur*1 h giv5 me ! money necess>y = ! fulfillm5t ( ! ,"l's direction to me--& !n h apo/atiz$4 ,he 0 a ,ca?olic & w\ld n h giv5 me ! money )\t jo9+ ! ,*ur*4 ,i rea*$ ,auckl& 9 due "t2 & on ! la/ ,sunday 9 ,june1 #ahhj1 ,i prea*$ 9 ,orange ,hall1 9 ,newton1 ,auckl&1 my f>ewell s]mon 9 ! ,au/ralasian ,mission4 ,i 0 greatly mov$ 9 deliv]+ ?is f9al message ( tru?2 & 9 ! c\rse ( my address ,i bore a s9c]e te/imony to ! tru? ( ! gospel1 & !n ! _s prompt$ me to give to ! p assembl$ a solemn w>n+4 ,i said3 ,o!r ,eld]s w come to y2 b y %all reject _! te/imony z y n[ reject m9e4 ,b aft] t1 & be=e six ye>s %all pass away o!r te/imonies w be s5t by ! ,almighty1 :i* y c nei!r reject nor ga9say4 ,^! te/imonies w be ! te/imonies ( e>?quakes & fam9es & pe/il5ce2 & !y w cont9ue to afflict y until b few ( y %all live4 ,:ile utt]+ ^! words ,i felt s /rongly impress$1 s confid5t ( _! tru?1 t ,i told ! p to write my utt]ance d[n1 & wat* = its fulfillm5t4 ,b :5 ,i _h f9i%$ & ! ,_s _h left me to my own ?\ghts1 ,i felt almo/ horrifi$ at ! nature ( ! prophecy :i* ,i _h almo/ unconsci\sly made4 ,i felt my humility & my weakness mo/ vividly1 & ,i also felt almo/ a%am$1 & c]ta9ly v fe>ful conc]n+ ! fulfillm5t ( :at ,i _h said4 ,t feel+ ( d\bt & almo/ ang] ) myself came ^u me dur+ ! ye>s foll[+1 :5ev] ! subject recurr$ to my m9d4 ,9 ,june1 #ahhf1 ,i receiv$ a visit f a bro!r :o _h rec5tly come f ,new ,zeal&4 ,we 7 talk+ ab\t ! exp]i5ces ( my mission1 & ,i said to him3 ,x is n[ j six ye>s s9ce ,i left ,auckl& on my return4 ,no soon] 7 ! words utt]$ ?an !re fla%$ ?r\gh my m9d a recollection ( ! /range pr$iction :i* ! ,_s _h utt]$ ?r\gh my lips 9 ,orange ,hall2 & ,i ?\ght to myself3 ,i mu/ h be5 misl$4 ,i h wat*$ ! pap]s c>efully1 & !re is no sign ( any su* disa/] z t :i* ,i pr$ict$4 ,if ^? p did z ,i reque/$--if !y wrote d[n ! prophecy z x 0 utt]$1 "s ( !m n[ w say1 ',!re is a falsehood :i* a ,mormon ,eld] told4' ,?is ?+ worri$ me = a week1 b be=e t5 days _h elaps$ ,i saw by ! newspap]s t a few days be=e ! t]m ( six ye>s _h expir$ a mighty & de/ructive e>?quake occurr$ at ,lake ,rotomahana4 ,! effects ( ?is e>?quake _h be5 to s9k ! fam\s p9k t]races ( ,lake ,rotomahana2 to sub/itute = ! lake itself a mud volcano & five or six vomit+ volcanoes s5d+ =? /reams ( mud1 du/1 hot wat] & o!r debris :i* cov]$ ! c\ntry r\nd ab\t = miles 9 e direction to a prodigi\s dep?2 to de/roy lives & to ext+ui% "o village ) mo/ ( its inhabitants4 ,i sail$ f ,auckl& on ! /eam] ,zeal&ia1 on ! #bh? day ( ,june1 #ahhj4 ,on ?is %ip ,i _h ! pleasure ( rejo9+ my de> fri5d & companion ,eld] ,may1 f :om ,i _h be5 s long sep>at$4 ,he 0 on 8 way home f ,au/ralia br++ ) him a family ( ,sa9ts4 ,on bo>d ! ,zeal&ia 7 ?ree memb]s ( ! new ,s\? ,wales commission1 :o 7 go+ to ,engl& on political bus9ess4 ,!y 71 ,hon4 ,alex&] ,campbell1 ,capta9 ,/4 ,john & ano!r ^: "n ,i did n obta94 ,mr4 ,campbell 0 a g5tleman ( great suavity ( demeanor1 f9e appe>ance & wond]ful intellig5ce & in=mation4 ,z soon z he f\nd t ,mormons 7 on bo>d he became deeply int]e/$ 9 !m4 ,9 conv]sation ) u he said3 ,i h giv5 "s /udy to y\r "q = ! la/ ?irty ye>s4 ,i h wat*$ ! c\rse ( y\r p2 & ,i am satisfi$ t y are work+ out great social problems4 ,to grapple ) ^! problems successfully has be5 puzzl+ to ! wise/ ( /atesm5 = c5turies4 ,i am n "o ( ^? :o look ) contempt ^u p :o pr(ess /range beliefs4 ,i und]/& t y\r community is l>gely compos$ ( ! ,anglo-,saxon race2 & ,i "k t y _c f9d a place on ! face ( ! e>? :]e an endur+ community ( ?is k9d has be5 built up = ! purposes ( lu/4 ,y\r enemies say t ?is is y\r motive1 b ,i am conv9c$ to ! contr>y4 ,! ,anglo-,saxons nev] desc5d to t4 ,:5 !y unite 9 great movem5ts !y h a gr& object 9 view4 ,a few days lat] :5 we 7 cross+ ! l9e he came f ! cab9 ) a newspap] 9 8 h&1 sat d[n alongside ( me1 & said3 ,mr4 ,%reeve1 ,i und]/& f y\r jubilee report t y h ab\t #ej1jjj *ildr5 enroll$ 9 y\r ,sabba? ,s*ool ,union8 ,i answ]$1 ,yes sir--,i believe t is ab\t ! numb]4 ,he said1 !n1 ,d y "k if ^! *ildr5 are tra9$ aright t y h gr[+ up 9 y\r m\nta9 community a p[] :i* ! _w has n se5 s9ce ,adam /epp$ out ( ! ,g>d5 ( ,ed58 ,i assure y t x is s4 ,^! *ildr5 h n ! tradition ( ages to combat1 b _! m9ds are unhamp]$ & pure1 & y c m\ld !m to ! fulfillm5t ( a great purpose4 ,i repeat x1 y h gr[+ up ) ^! *ildr5 a p[] :i* ! _w has n se5 s9ce fa!r ,adam /epp$ out ( ! ,g>d5 ( ,ed54 ,mr4 ,campbell /opp$ a brief "t 9 ,san ,francisco2 & _h int5d$ to make a l5g?y /ay 9 ord] to be 9 ,salt ,lake on ! occasion ( ! gr& celebration to be giv5 !re on ,pione]'s ,day4 ,he succe$$ 9 rea*+ our belov$ city 9 "t1 & he 0 an admir+ witness ( ! ex]cises 9 :i* ?\s&s ( ! "y ,sa9ts p>ticipat$4 ,mr4 ,campbell wat*$ ) sp>kl+ eyes1 & he drew a long brea? z he said to a companion3 ,my fri5d1 ! half ( ?is p's greatness has n be5 told4 99 99 99 99 99 ,i rea*$ my home 9 ,july1 ( ! ye> #ahhj4 ,only return+ ,eld]s c und]/& my joy4 ,by ! favor ( ,god ,i _h be5 enabl$ to p]=m my duty2 & e bless+ pron\nc$ ^u my head _h be5 lit]ally fulfill$4 ,i w\ld n to-day ex*ange ! exp]i5ce & ! ,helpful ,visions ( my mission = ! weal? ( ! _w4 ,,traitors4 ,solemn ,w>n+s--,a ,traitor c ,nev] be ,any?+ b ,despicable--,examples ( ! ,pa/4 ,by ,b5 ,e4 ,ri*4 ,! traitor is ! moral cannibal4 ,he fea/s on ! m5tal wor?1 ! social reputation1 ! political welf>e & ! e>?ly life ( 8 tru/+ & betray$ fri5d4 ,he is ! human s]p5t1 :i* nurses & revives at ! fire ( *>ity1 & !n d>ts 8 /r5g!n$ v5om at ! bosom ( 8 b5efactor4 ,:at ! grub is to ! he>t ( oak1 ! gnaw+ rat to ! %ip's timb]s1 ! flaw to ! diamond1 ! poison\s asp to ! %elt]+ fl[]--all t1 aye1 & m1 is ! traitor to mank9d4 ,no cause is s sacr$1 no be+ is s exalt$ z to be free f ! pollution ( 8 betray+ t\*4 ,ev5 ! cele/ial legions _h _! ar*traitor4 ,e>?1 f ! day ( ,ed51 has nev] be5 free f 8 trea*]\s kiss4 ,s9ce ! h\r :5 man fir/ le>n$ to owe allegiance to 8 fell[-man1 pr(ane1 rebelli\s betray]s h work$ _! insidi\s way1 l deva/at+ worms1 ?r\gh all ! pill>s uphold+ holy m5 & noble causes4 ,! traitor is ! wor/ ( all ?ieves2 = he /eals sacr$ fre$om f 8 tru/+ associates4 ,! traitor is ! wor/ ( all murd]]s2 = he plunges ! assass9's knife into ! back ( 8 believ+ fri5d4 ,two soldi]s are /&+ at ! picket po/--9 ! d>k night1 ! sil5t =e/4 ,!y are sworn & tru/$ comrades4 ,! army ( ! foe surges ar\nd !m2 & !y "k t gha/ly dea? is gr9n+ at !m f e glade :i* op5s f ! d>k c5t] to ! black] dep?s beyond1 & :isp]+ to !m ^u e w9d t /irs ! odor\s bran*es4 ,b !y fe> no bl[ f a foeman's %aft--t noble dea? is b ! *ance ( w>4 ,secure 9 mutual confid5ce1 !y tremble n4 ,!y speak ( c\ntry1 home2 ( wives & little1 prattl+ babes4 ,& yet1 :ile ! words ( s(t1 pa!tic love are on ! lips ( "o1 ! o!r plunges a traitor\s knife1 hilt-deep1 into a fri5dly1 loyal he>t4 ,& !n ! assass9 sweeps l ! %ad[ ( a lo/ s\l ov] ! face ( ! betray$ s5t9el2 he creeps across t5d] moss & betwe5 ! trunks ( mighty trees--ev]y:]e leav+ ! crimson1 accus+ /a9--until he rea*es a di/ant campfire2 & at ! feet ( ! wait+ enemy he lays d[n 8 reek+ knife & takes 8 purse ( gold4 ,?is is ! traitor4 ,& :5 ! moon comes up1 /eal+ amid/ ! ru/l+ leaves1 he looks ^u ! cold1 :ite face ( a betray$ fri5d1 ^: la/ ^w 0 ( confid5t love told to ! e> ( a hir$ assass94 ,two m5 are jo9$ 9 a patriotic cause4 ,to ! ma9t5ance ( ! pr9ciple ( j fre$om !y pl$ge _! lives1 _! =tunes & _! sacr$ honor4 ,hi/ory w call ! m5 :o are true to ?is cause loyal & brave4 ,! tyrant :om !y seek to ov]?r[ calls !m conspirators4 ,!y meet 9 a d>k5$ room1 ) curta9s closely drawn4 ,s(t mats hu% ! s\nd ( ! firm footfall4 ,/]n voices1 m us$ to ! va/ circumf]5ce ( ! field or ! resonant heights ( ! =um1 are /ill$ to a woman's :isp]4 ,^! two m5 are meet+ to sign & yield to ea* o!r1 = di/ant comrades1 ! pl$ge ( mutual fidelity4 ,! "o :o is ma/] ( ! h\se places 8 gue/ at a table & spreads be=e him = f9al execution ! plans ( insurrection1 ! li/s ( fri5ds & conf$]ates1 ! oa?s ( reciprocal fealty4 ,z ! visitor atta*es 8 "n to ! solemn in/rum5ts1 he sighs & says3 ,oh1 tru/$ fri5d6 ,i yield to ?is cause n only my life1 my =tune & my sacr$ honor2 b ,i pl$ge to x & to ! integrity ( y & our allies my sweet wife & my only son--bo? at once my pres5t pride & future joy6 ,:ile ! words are utt]$1 ! bold & noble h& traces its way 9 affirmatory signature across p>*m5t & pap]4 ,sc>cely has ! ?rill+ :isp] ( ! patriot ceas$ to agitate ! damask curta9s1 :5 ! hang+s are p>t$ by ! vulture h& ( ! o!r conspirator2 & betwe5 _! op5 folds /eal ! soldi]s ( ! tyrant4 ,^! w>like h&s grasp ! %\ld]s ( ! patriot2 & z !y drag him =? to dungeon & to dea?1 ! betray+ ho/ cries3 ,b9d him fa/1 le/ he %\ld escape & slay me6 ,! c[>d1 muffl$ 9 a cloak1 soon /eals f ! sombre *amb] to ! palace ( ! m9i/] & lays be=e t wait+ (fic] 8 trophies ( brok5 plans & fatal li/s4 ,he gets 9 return 8 pat5t ( rank1 8 gift ( confiscat$ e/ates1 8 pl$ge ( 8 p]sonal security4 ,?is is ! traitor4 ,& :5 ! sun ( ! ?ird day %all rise1 its fir/ pity+ beams w fall ^u ! gory block1 ! black execution]1 ! basket ) its dread burd51 & ! headless trunk ( ! patriot ^: tru/ & hope _h be5 9 a false fri5d4 99 99 99 99 99 ,two m5 are jo9$ ) o!rs 9 proclaim+ an unpopul> b holy doctr9e4 ,h& 9 h& !y g ?r\gh ! e>? te/ify+ to m51 to cities1 to nations1 ! mighty tru?s4 ,!y say to all l&s & to all peoples3 ,we "k t ?is is ! liv+1 burn+ tru?4 ,god has spok5 f ! heav5s1 & we are ,8 witnesses4 ,to ea* o!r--9 all ! sacr$ fri5dl9ess ( long association1 ( mission>y labor1 & ( a communion toge!r :5 e human law & h& seem$ aga9/ !m--!y speak 9 fai?ful hope ( ! glori\s cause :i* !y esp\se1 & ( ! div9e necessity :i* !y are "u to be fai?ful to ,god & _! bre?r54 ,_! views are n 9 accord ) public s5tim5t & sudd5ly !y are dragg$ be=e a cruel tribunal & *>g$ t !y are tea*+ crime4 ,b ! law ( ! l& says3 ,no man %all be puni%$ because ( 8 s9c]e religi\s views or practices4 ,& ! judge be=e :om !y are arraign$ calls to !m3 ,cont9ue to decl>e t ye are do+ ! w ( ,god1 & 9 prison ye %all re/4 ,b ackn[l$ge t ye are proclaim+ a man-made sy/em1 & pl$ge t ye w cease1 & ye %all g free4 ,& "o ( !m :o are arraign$ says3 ,oh1 judge6 ,i ackn[l$ge ?y supremacy4 ,i w obey ?y law4 ,i w n advise o!rs to break x4 ,s long z ?\ & ?y ma/]s %all comm&1 ,i w wor%ip ! grav5 image4 ,& !n he takes 8 seal ( amne/y1 b\ght at ! price ( a p's fre$om1 & creeps f ! pres5ce ( ! c\rt a man--nay1 a creature--inviolable ( 8 fell[s1 b haunt$ ev] by ! %ad[ ( ,judas4 ,?is is ! traitor4 ,& :5 ! o!r prison] is arraign$ he cries3 ,?is is my religion6 ,god gave x to me6 ,ye may take my e>?ly life1 b ye _c sap my manhood nor /rangle my consci5ce4 ,!n ! judge1 :o has a mission to le>n if ^! p are s9c]e1 answ]s to ! prison] & = ! f>-(f ma/]s ( ! c\rt3 ,?\ can/ n come )9 ! law2 because ?\ can/ n claim s9c]ity4 ,?y bro!r & fell[-labor] ha? j n[ recant$1 & ?is is pro( t ?\ art n s9c]e1 b wick$ly ob/9ate4 ,if ?y bro!r _h ) !e rema9$ firm & immovable ,i might h believ$ 9 ?y cause4 ,b :at man ha? done man c d aga94 ,!re=e1 recant or re/ ?\ )9 ! cold & lonely walls4 ,& ! sun & moon ( ano!r mon?1 /eal+ ?r\gh iron-b\nd *9ks ( rock1 see ! patriot pac+ a dismal cell4 ,! traitor calls himself a re=m]4 ,he is m]ely a c[>d4 ,& ( all ! wret*es ^: pres5ce ta9ts ! air ( e>? & heav51 ! c[>d is ! wor/4 ,great ,caes> said3 ,! c[>d's fe>s make him die _m times be=e 8 dea?4 ,! valiant nev] ta/e ( dea? b once1 ,( all ! wond]s t ,i yet h he>d1 x seems to me mo/ /range t m5 %\ld fe> see+ t dea?1 a necess>y end1 w come :5 x w come4 ,! traitor pr(esses to believe t 8 act ( betrayal w disrupt ! cause :i* he des]ts4 ,?is is ! c[>d rebel's wi%4 ,h[ abjectly & mis]ably he fails6 ,sometimes ! traitor lops f ! /urdy trunk a /raggl+ bran*2 b does ! tree ?rive less = t8 ,nay4 ,! o!r twigs only be> blossoms ! m r$ol5t & fruit ! m rosy4 ,sometimes ! traitor te>s away a crack$1 a seam$1 a %al+ /one f ! half-complet$ /ructure4 ,:at if a measure ( disa/] foll[8 ,_c ! build] r5ew8 ,& does he n *oose bett] rock to be> ! weight ( 8 fair edifice8 ,sometimes ! traitor only ha/5s ! success :i* he seeks to av]t2 sometimes he delays ! triumph aga9/ :i* he rebels4 ,b always ultimately ! c> ( de/9y moves to its appo9t$ end4 ,& ! c[>dly betray] :o ?\ght to /op its c>e] by hold+ back ) 8 puny arms is dragg$ by x to 8 mis]able end1 :ile 8 associates--dead or alive g ) x to ! day ( triumph4 99 99 99 99 99 ,!re 0 once a man ( mighty pr[ess1 end[$ f 8 fir/ brea? ) a wondr\s /r5g?4 ,:5 he grew to manhood1 brutes1 m5 & ev5 armies fell 9 ! du/ at 8 feet4 ,x _h be5 div9ely promis$ ( him t he %\ld be a m>vel ( /r5g?1 & t he %\ld beg9 to deliv] ,israel out ( ! h&s ( ! ,phili/9es1 & m5 & *a9s1 & bolts & gates c\ld n prevail aga9/ 8 manly1 h]oic lu/9ess4 ,b !re came a woman1 ) h] s(t1 betray+ t\*4 ,%e c>ess$ him & begg$ = love ( h] t he w\ld reveal ! secret ( 8 miracul\s /r5g?4 ,9 a fooli% mom5t he yield$2 & !n 7 8 ,jove-l locks %orn f 8 head2 & he became a bl9d lackey1 ! s]f ( ! ,phili/9es4 ,delilah1 ! betray]1 ) h] traitor\s kiss ^u ,samson's lips1 & h] traitor\s :isp] ?r\gh ! t5t to 8 wait+ enemy1 c\ld d :at no ?\s& ( op5 foes c\ld accompli%4 ,%e made ! pr\d1 sup]b1 p]fect lion a weak1 :9+ :elp4 99 99 99 99 99 ,a mighty k+ _h a well-belov$ son to :om he _h giv5 & =giv5 m ?an is usually be/[$ ^u "o ( human k9d4 ,& yet ! son traitor\sly plott$ ! d[nfall & ev5 ! murd] ( 8 royal sire1 & ! usurpation ( ! ?rone4 ,he might h succe$$ 9 8 cruel1 p>ricidal treason1 b t he himself 0 9 turn betray$ & f9ally sla94 ,& :5 ! gr&1 great-he>t$1 poetic mon>* le>n$ t ,absalom1 ! sweet1 ! beautiful1 ! de>ly-belov$1 0 dead1 he wept be=e all ,israel1 & z he w5t 8 sorr[ful way ?us he said3 ,o1 my son ,absalom6 ,my son1 my son ,absalom6 ,w\ld ,god ,i _h di$ = !e1 ,o1 ,absalom1 my son1 my son6 ,if t arr[-pi]c$ he>t ( ! betray+ & betray$ ,absalom c\ld h quick5$ b = "o mom5t1 h[ mu* %>p] ?an ! physical dea?-?ru/ w\ld x h felt ,k+ ,david's cry ( inf9ite =giv5ess6 ,b ! pa/ 0 irrevocable4 ,israel's lordly k+1 ! belov$ ( ,god1 0 moan+ 9 angui% at ! gate ( ! city2 & ! beautiful ,absalom1 ) ! fatal hair1 ! belov$ ( 8 royal sire1 0 ly+ dead 9 ! pit 9 ! des]t$ wood1 ) ignoble /one cru%+ 8 lifeless body4 ,w>1 murd]1 exile 7 p[]less to br+ su* desolation to ^! royal he>ts2 b :5 ,absalom1 ! =giv5 murd]]1 became a betray] inf9ite woe fell ar\nd ! "n ( ! dead pr9ce & ! b[$ head ( ! liv+ k+4 ,b ?\gh ! great t5d]ness ( ! psalmi/ c\ld compass remission = ! crime ( ,absalom1 ! nation & hi/ory mu/ be m h>%4 ,:5 a subject1 = self-agr&izem5t1 rises aga9/ a k+1 he is a traitor2 b he is a ?rice-damn$ traitor :5 t mon>* aga9/ :om he rebels is 8 own fa!r4 99 99 99 99 99 ,wom5 are (t5 false to _! lov]s2 subjects to _! sov]eigns1 & ev5 sons to _! sires4 ,div9ity itself is no invuln]able %ield aga9/ betrayal4 ,a m]ciful ,*ri/ came to save mank9d f torm5t & lift !m into et]nal radiance4 ,he *ose & tru/$ ,8 apo/les4 ,he m9i/]$ to !m & ) !m4 ,!y ea* c\ld give a te/imony t _! ,ma/] 0 ! ano9t$ ,savior1 ! ,son ( ! liv+ ,god4 ,p]secution came ^u ,him l ! /orm cl\d l[]s ^u ! sn[y m\nta9 & enfold$ ,him 9 a gloomy embrace4 ,! prospect ( suff]+ ) ?is ,god-l ,ma/]1 :om he _h s]v$ z purse-be>] :5 ! dang] 0 n great1 made ,judas weak unto betrayal4 ,c[>dice & av>ice work$ toge!r 9 ! traitor he>t4 ,he kiss$ & cri$3 ,ma/]1 ma/]6 ,hail1 ma/]6 ,!n he took 8 ?irty pieces ( silv]2 & ) !m he accept$ a hatr$ ( all mank9d4 ,! compassionate ,r$eem] ( ! _w hung ^u ! cruel cross ) drops ( agony ^u ,8 radiant br[1 :ile 8 lips 7 wrea!d 9 a pa9$ b =giv+ smile4 ,& ,judas1 ! traitor1 already ta/+ ! inf]nal torm5ts1 call$ 9 va9 to /ay ! progress ( 8 dread act4 ,! black-he>t$ de$ 0 done4 ,! mock+ trial _h pass$1 s5t5ce _h be5 pron\nc$ & execut$2 & !n ! betray] groan$ & flung ! money f him z a s9ful1 burn+ ?+ :i* _h no wor?4 ,^u ! bloody field he ca/ himself & 8 b[els gu%$ =? 9 useless contrition4 ,he di$ ^u ! spot :i* 8 blood-money pur*as$ = ! burial ( /rang]s & crim9als 9 ! l&4 99 99 99 99 99 ,a brilliant g5]al fell into disgrace ) 8 milit>y sup]iors & ) ! civil gov]nm5t ( 8 c\ntry4 ,he 0 impetu\s & impati5t ( re/ra9t4 ,he 0 pr\d ev5 to arrogance2 he 0 extravagant ev5 to ! fur!/ limit ( hone/y4 ,o!r m5 _h be5 advanc$ to high] po/s--he felt himself degrad$4 ,8 disbursem5ts ^u "o ( 8 h]oic exp$itions 7 /ill unsettl$--he felt himself defraud$4 ,a tyrant foe inve/$ 8 c\ntry & s\ght to subjugate h] p4 ,he li/5$ to ! voice ( ignoble av>ice1 ( pr\d passion1 ( (f5d$ arrogance4 ,) delib]ate humiliation he s\ght a place ( va/ tru/ among ! def5d]s ( 8 c\ntry4 ,he 0 appo9t$ to ! comm& ( a great riv] =tress--! key to ! int]ior1 ! /orage h\se ( munitions de>ly b\ght1 highly priz$ & absolutely necess>y = ! repulse ( ! invad]s4 ,he sold 8 rank1 8 honor & 8 int]e/ 9 8 native l&4 ,j at ! h\r :5 8 b>ga9 0 to be decid$1 8 old fri5d & admir]1 ! noble comm&]-9-*ief1 said to him3 ,my de> ,arnold1 ,i am n[ =m+ my army = active op]ations 9 ! field4 ,i want a fight+ g5]al4 ,come1 ,i (f] y ! comm& ( ! left w+1 at once ! po/ ( dang] & ( honor4 ,! traitor's face flu%$ ) %ame4 ,he plead$ an old w\nd z reason :y he %\ld n g into ! battle-field4 ,!n he w5t to meet ,&re & give ! la/ assurance to 8 ,briti% ma/]s t he 0 !irs1 body & s\l4 ,by ! int]position ( ,am]ica's sublime de/9y 8 plot 0 discov]$ & foil$4 ,arnold1 ! traitor1 crept away to escape a betray]'s dea?4 ,he receiv$ 8 ,briti% uni=m1 8 ,briti% gold1 8 ,briti% sword4 ,he ev5 came back ) 8 m]c5>y horde to ravage1 burn1 de/roy ! little t[n 9 ,connecticut :]e fir/ he saw ! light4 ,ye>s lat]1 ! great ,fr5*man1 ,talleyr&1 met a di/+ui%$-look+ man at an ,engli% c\ntry inn4 ,! two g5tlem5 7 total /rang]s to ea* o!r2 b !y soon engag$ 9 conv]sation ^u ! great "q ( ,democracy4 ,:5 !y 7 ab\t to "p1 ,talleyr& said to 8 companion3 ,f y\r k ( all t relates to ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 ,i am sure t y mu/ be an ,am]ican2 my "n is ,talleyr&1 & ,i am ab\t to visit t c\ntry2 p]haps y w be k9d en\gh to give me lett]s ( introduction to "s ( y\r fri5ds !re4 ,:5 ! illu/ri\s diplomat _h f9i%$ 8 reque/1 ! o!r g5tleman b[$ l[2 & :5 he look$ up 8 face1 ev5 to 8 lips1 0 gray z a%es4 ,9 a voice :i* s\nd$ weird & *e]less z ! moan ( a ,novemb] w9d across a des]t$ m>%1 he answ]$3 ,yes1 ,i am an ,am]ican4 ,i 0 born 9 ,am]ica4 ,i h sp5t ne>ly all my life !re4 ,b ,i am probably ! only ,am]ican liv+ :o c say1 ',i h n "o fri5d 9 my native l&4' ,no1 n "o4 ,sir1 ,i am ,b5$ict ,arnold4 ,talleyr& turn$ away f ,arnold ) a %udd]1 :ile ! mis]able traitor crept sil5tly f ! room4 ,:5 ! unhappy wret* 0 dy+ 9 ! mid/ ( contempt & pov]ty he grew deliri\s4 ,at ! la/ mom5t ( 8 ru9$ life he call$ to ! devot$ wife :o _h be5 ! %>] ( all 8 woe3 ,br+ to me1 ,i beg y1 ! epaulettes & sword knots :i* ,wa%+ton gave me4 ,let me die 9 my old ,am]ican uni=m1 ! uni=m 9 :i* ,i f\ght my battles4 ,may my ,god =give me = ev] hav+ worn any o!r6 99 99 99 99 99 ,! greate/ army :i* ! _w ev] saw 0 ga!r$ at ,!rmopylae m ?an two ?\s& ye>s ago4 ,?is 0 ! ,p]sian ho/ assembl$ to d battle to ! little b& ( ,sp>tans4 ,s intrepidly did ! ,greeks def5d t sacr$ defile :i* gave entrance to _! belov$ l& t ,x]xes became out ( all hope ( =c+ 8 way ?r\gh ! ,sp>tan ranks4 ,?is 0 ! mom5t = ! traitor4 ,be=e ! pr\d ,x]xes c\ld )draw 8 myriads1 ! betray] came--a ,greek1 a native ( ! sublime c\ntry4 ,) s]vile words he flung himself at ! feet ( ! gorge\s ,p]sian4 ,he (f]$ to lead ! invad]s to an em95ce ov]look+ ! h]oic def5d]s ( ,greece4 ,8 c[>d wi% 0 grant$2 & :5 ! next morn+ dawn$ ,leonidas & 8 foll[]s saw ! spe>s & helmets ( _! foes fla%+ at !m f ! heights4 ,! re/ is ! mo/ sublime trag$y ( pr(ane hi/ory4 ,& ! traitor :o betray$ ! noble/ s\ls ( ,greece to _! dea? receiv$ 8 gold & preci\s /ones4 ,he might h di$ 9 ! hone/ obscurity 9 :i* he 0 born & re>$1 b = 8 c[>d act4 ,ah6 su* notoriety is pur*as$ at too high a price4 ,x w\ld be bett] = a man to /& mode/ly & firmly be=e 8 c\ntry's foe2 to fall unrecogniz$ & )\t praise2 to fill a grave ov] :i* ! words %all /& cut into ineffaceable granite1 ,an unkn[n soldi]1 :o di$ 9 def5se ( 8 c\ntry4 ,ah1 yes6 f> bett] ?us to fall & fill an unkn[n grave--to be unrememb]$ =ev]more ( m5--?an to w9 a "n ( infamy1 to fill ! pages ( hi/ory & be recollect$ ( all human-k9d :ile m5 %all hate a traitor4 99 99 99 99 99 ,a prophet ( ,almighty ,god came 9 ! full sunlight ( ?is great n9ete5? c5tury to lead m5 back to ! glory ( _! ,creator4 ,8 op5 enemies s\ght 8 life2 b = ye>s _! murd]\s ef=t 0 9 va94 ,he cont9u$ 8 sacr$ m9i/ry ^u ! e>?1 ) a p[] :i* 0 div9e1 until ! h\r = ! traitor\s kiss4 ,:5 ,b5nett s9n$ & !n ?r\gh hate betray$1 ! %ad[s ( m>tyrdom began clos+ ar\nd our gr& ,prophet & ,patri>*4 ,:5 ! ,laws & ! ,higbees1 ! ,fo/]s & ! ,c[les1 became traitors & gave _! ef=ts to aid ! assass9 p]secutors ( _! sworn bro!r & lead]2 !n1 inde$1 0 ! fate ( ,joseph & ,hyrum seal$4 ,a gov]nor ( a sov]eign ,/ate betray$ !m to a cruel dea?2 & ,c>?age repeat$ ! div9e trag$y ( ,calv>y4 ,! ,prophet & ,patri>* h pass$ to _! glori\s immortality2 _! names %all fill a ?\s& hymns ( praise on e>? & welcome 9 ! heav5s4 ,b ! traitors--mis]able reptiles--w be scorn$ ?r\gh c\ntless ages4 ,x is always ! same--pr9ce or peasant1 apo/le or soldi]--if a man be a traitor he is rememb]$ = t & no?+ m4 ,if 8 /ation be l[ly1 he w seek 9 va9 to hide 8 %ame 9 8 native obscurity2 = x w bur/ =? 9 lurid1 bloody lett]s to ! sight ( all ! ages t %all come4 ,if 8 /ation be exalt$ he may try & try aga91 b va9ly1 to cov] 8 treason ) ! glory ( 8 rank or weal?2 = x w black5 all 8 brilliance & leave 8 place a plague spot2 8 fame1 a gr9n+ skeleton ( dead despair2 8 c>e]1 an undy+ infamy4 ,b :atev] may be ! v>i$ circum/ances & results att5d+ ! wret*$ lives ( traitors1 !re is ?is lesson :i* all humanity may draw3 ,successful or unsuccessful 9 _! treason1 betray]s are always execrat$2 successful or unsuccessful 9 _! treason1 !y always live long en\gh to rep5t2 successful or unsuccessful 9 _! treason1 !y may nev] 9 ?is life "k a wak+ mom5t :5 _! own c[>d fe>s d n make !m d\bt ! fidelity ( e s\l ab\t !m2 successful or unsuccessful 9 _! e>?ly treason1 :5 !y %all /& 9 t o!r _w face to face ) _! betray$ fri5ds1 !y w "k t ! blacke/ ( all (f5d]s are c[>dly1 assass9 traitors4 ,at t great day ,judas ,isc>iot w n be ! only traitor to cry3 ,x _h be5 good = me t ,i _h n be5 born6 ,e crisis at e p]iod & ) e nation exposes traitors j z x exalts to view patriots4 ,?is ,*ur* has se5 at e critical po9t ( its c>e]1 ! betray] z well z ! savior spr++ to ! front4 ,! pres5t em]g5cy ) ! p ( ,utah is no exception to ?is rule4 ,j z !re are m5 sacrific+ com=t & e>?ly prosp]ity to ! cause1 & m5 :o are will+ to give life itself to def5d ,god's "w f ! attacks ( its enemies2 s !re are p :o w sell _! own sacr$ h]itage & ! fre$om ( ! community1 = weal?1 popul>ity or p]sonal safety4 ,& m ?an ?is--! p are surr\nd$ by m5 plac$ "h to repres5t ! gov]nm5t :o are false to e tru/1 & ^: opposition c be e/imat$ 9 doll>s or co]c$ by bigotry4 ,we h "s traitors to ourselves )9 our homes2 we h m traitors to tru? & ju/ice outside our walls4 ,less ?an two ?\s& ye>s ago ! great ,roman republic 0 at ! z5i? ( its p[]4 ,"s ( ! free & ent]pris+ citiz5s ( t mighty l& emigrat$ into ! cold1 m\nta9\s regions ( ! nor? & e/abli%$ a colony :i* !y call$ ,beville4 ,!y set up ! ,roman /&>d1 & claim$ ! t]ritory 9 ! "n ( _! c\ntry4 ,aft] ov]com+ untold difficulties1 !y s5t mess5g]s to ,rome ask+ = recognition2 & say+ t1 inasmu* z !y _h giv5 a gr&1 ri* doma9 to _! belov$ "m l&1 !y %\ld be plac$ ^u an equal foot+ ) _! free-born fell[-citiz5s4 ,b ! politicians at ,rome w\ld n li/5 to ?is reque/2 & ,beville 0 kept 9 ! vassalage ( a conqu]$ prov9ce4 ,all ! gov]nors1 judges & _m ( ! local (fic]s 7 s5t f "s o!r "p ( ! republic2 & !y treat$ ! p ( ,beville ) ! mo/ dreadful sev]ity1 :ile !y dispat*$ to ,rome ! mo/ vici\s & cruelly false reports conc]n+ ! hone/ citiz5s ( ! prov9ce or colony unto :i* !y _h be5 s5t to gov]n & to judge4 ,_m ( !m 7 mo/ contemptible knaves & traitors4 ,!y once _h a gov]nor :o traitor\sly violat$ 8 oa? to give a c]tificate ( election to a man :o _h "o vote 9 a doz51 & ^: only claim to consid]ation 0 8 weal? & will+ness to make loans on desp]ate political titles2 a gov]nor :o depriv$ a good public unsect>ian univ]sity ( its ne$$ support & !n decl>$ t ! p ( ,beville oppos$ education2 a gov]nor :o broke 8 plight$ ^w 9 ord] t he might leave ^u ! fair l& ! espionage ( an unju/ & unacc\ntable commission2 a gov]nor :o basely betray$ ! consul t ma9ta9$ him 9 (fice by say+ ) egotism :i* is blea*$ :ite ) conc5trat$ lye3 ,i wrote all ( su* & su* portions ( ! consul's message2 a gov]nor :o 0 call$ a ?ief ^u ! floor ( ! ,s5ate2 a gov]nor :o _h a li/ ( wildcat1 highway-robb]y m9+ /ocks :i* bore 8 "n & title--all = sale "u ! gl>e & glamor ( 8 civil position2 a gov]nor ^: bra9s 7 rattl+ *e/nuts1 ^: he>t 0 inf9itesimal1 be>+ pro( t a s+le atom c exi/1 & ^: beauty--8 only virtue--0 t ( ! pa9t$ h>lot & ! :it5$ sepul*re4 ,!n !y _h "o judge1 a man :o %\ld n[ be :]e ,deacon ,bitt]s 0 suppos$ to be ye>s ago--measur+ sulphur to make or?odox hell fire2 a judge ^: class-meet+ morality 0 s dreadfully %ock$ by an advocate's gr& conduct t ! advocate 0 disb>r$ f practice because he refus$ to ca/ (f & make a w&]] ( ! wife :o _h lov$ & honor$ him1 & :o _h borne him sweet1 confid+ *ildr52 a judge :o c\ld !n s5d le*]s =? f 8 c\rt cr[n$ ) bay & laurel & be>+ _! edicts ( lic5se 9 _! h&s2 a judge :o practically said to ! lib]t9e1 ,g y\r way rejoic+4 ,prey ^u virtue )\t /9t4 ,br+ ru9 into y\r own home1 & !n spread disease & deadly desolation :]ev] else y c ga9 an entrance4 ,y are free to come & g4 ,my ?und]bolts ( ju/ice1 =g$ at ! fire ( fanaticism & fann$ by ! w9d ( protection = my own son1 all ^! %afts are = our ov]-scrupul\s oppon5ts1 ! p ( ,beville2 a judge ^: bra9 0 honeycomb$ ) ! devi\s turn+s ( trea*]\s ?\ghts1 ^: he>t 0 an icicle1 & ^: alleg$ moral desire--8 only virtue--0 ! great enfold+ cloak :i* c\ld cov] e pro/itute & p>am\r 9 ! l&4 99 99 99 99 99 ,!y _h ano!r judge3 a creature ^: mis]able physical appe>ance 0 b ! photograph ( ! horrid1 ugly s\l )92 a judge :o 0 will+ to slay wom5 & *ildr51 & to tread ov] _! corpses to ga9 8 nom9ation2 a judge :o became kn[n )9 "o brief ye> z an infam\s wret*1 :o practic$ cruelty ) mo/ ,satanic +5uity2 a judge ^: bra9 0 a tape-worm lie1 ) five hundr$ self-su/a9+ & specie-propagat+ jo9ts4 ,^: he>t 0 a pa9 9 8 /oma* caus$ by a vacuum1 & ^: ability to s]monize1 8 only virtue1 0 an adult]\s union ( vanity & falsehood4 99 99 99 99 99 ,^! m5 7 all traitors--traitors to ,god1 to _! c\ntry & to ! p>5ts :o va9ly tri$ to end[ !m ) manhood4 ,b to-day we 9 ,utah h a few traitors a little ne>] home4 ,!re are m5 :o say3 ,i once lov$ ! cause well en\gh to die = x2 b n[ ,i hate ! "w & ! p1 because a lead+ man once did me an injury4 ,i w become an in=m]4 ,!re are /ill o!rs--! c>eless traitors--! m5 & wom5 :o cov] _! ?\ghtless treason ) a joke1 & clo! unmeant betrayal ) a smile4 ,^! are ! p :o le>n ! sacr$ secrets ( a fri5d1 a bro!r1 & !n tattle ! =bidd5 words "h1 !re & ev]y:]e4 ,& :5 ! c>eless gossip rea*es ! e>s ( our p]secutors--z x does all too (t5--x becomes1 n fri5dly jok+1 b a /]n1 almo/ tragic accusation4 ,& :5 ! victim is br\ght to sad disa/]1 ! v p :o h help$ ! wick$ betrayal are among ! fir/ to say3 ,i am n surpris$ t he %\ld come to grief2 he is s c>eless4 ,! great wond] is t x did n happ5 be=e1 because ev]ybody has be5 talk+ ab\t 8 affairs4 ,ah6 to-day we see ,delilah :o betrays h] husb&2 & ,absalom1 :o is traitor\s to 8 fa!r2 & ,judas1 :o is traitor\s to 8 fa!r2 & ,judas1 :o w\ld betray 8 ma/] = gold or popul> approval2 ! ,arnold :o says1 ,x is a los+ cause1 & ,i may z well des]t :ile !re is yet "t4 ,yes1 !re are c[>ds & traitors 9 ! l&4 ,well1 let !re be1 !n1 s9ce su* are necess>y to make ! sum ( human exi/5ce--let !m live z hy5as d4 ,gr& ,h>ry ! ,v41 ( ,engl&--sup]b1 glori\s ,h>ry--/ood once ^u ! %ore ( ,france ) 8 little b& ( soldi]s to face ! c\ntless legions ( 8 h]$it>y foe4 ,he he>d a murmur z ( fe>2 & turn+ to 8 nobles he look$ at !m f fla%+ eyes & spoke ^! v significant words3 ,he :i* ha? no /oma* to ?is fight1 ,let him dep>t1 8 passport %all be made1 ,& cr[ns = convoy put into 8 purse3 ,we w\ld n die 9 t man's company1 ,t fe>s 8 fell[%ip to die ) u4 ,i speak n ?is z d\bt+ any "h6 ,=1 did ,i b suspect a fe>ful man1 ,he %\ld h leave to g away betimes2 ,le/1 9 our ne$1 he might infect ano!r1 ,& make him ( l _s to himself4 ,if any su* be "h1 z ,god =bid6 ,let him dep>t1 be=e we ne$ 8 help4 ,transcrib]'s ,note ,"s obvi\s pr9t]'s errors 9 ! orig9al1 includ+ num]\s words ) miss+1 sub/itut$1 or extra lett]s1 h be5 correct$ z seem$ appropriate4 ,*apt] ,,iii ( ,briant ,s4 ,/ev5s 0 miss+ f ! table ( cont5ts 9 ! orig9al4