,,gems ,,= ,,! ,,"y ,,folks4 ,,f\r? ,,book ,,( ,,! ,,fai?-,,promot+ ,,s]ies4 ,,design$ ,,= ,,! ,,in/ruction ,,& ,,enc\ragem5t ,,( ,,"y ,,latt]-,,day ,,sa9ts4 ,,juv5ile ,,in/ructor ,,(fice1 ,salt ,lake ,city1 ,utah4 #ahha4 ,,preface4 ,already "o ( ! results :i* ! ,editor & ,publi%] ( ! ,,fai?-,,promot+ ,,s]ies anticipat$ :5 ! fir/ volume 0 issu$1 is app>5t--namely1 a gr[+ desire on ! "p ( m5 ( exp]i5ce to write = publication su* passages f _! lives z w be ( int]e/ & b5efit to ! ris+ g5]ation4 ,! publication ( ^! 9 ?is =m has n be5 comm5c$ any too soon4 ,! lives ( ! e>ly ,eld]s ( ! ,*ur* 7 cr[d$ ) incid5ts ( fasc9at+ int]e/1 & x is due to po/]ity1 z well z to ! ,eld]s !mselves1 t a record ( ^! %\ld be pres]v$4 ,b ! vet]ans are fa/ pass+ away4 ,x w be b a few ye>s h5ce until m5 w seek ) avidity to obta9 in=mation conc]n+ _m ev5ts :i*1 if n pres]v$ 9 writ+ or 9 pr9t1 w be lo/ to ! new g5]ations :o are cr[d+ into ! field4 ,we give ^! ,,gems ,,= ,,! ,,"y ,,folks ) ! hope t !y w prove pr(itable to e read]4 ,"s ( !m are brief2 b !y embody important pr9ciples & lessons4 ,! ,te/imonies = ! ,tru? 7 publi%$ 9 pamphlet =m by ! au?or1 ! late ,bi%op ,b5jam9 ,br[n1 :ile on a mission to ,great ,brita94 ,?is little "w has be5 r>e1 & = a numb] ( ye>s x has be5 difficult to see1 mu* less obta91 a copy4 ,x conta9s s mu* t is enc\rag+ & /imulat+ to fai? t we ?9k x %\ld be pres]v$ 9 ?is ,s]ies4 ,)9 two mon?s we hope to be able to issue ! next volume4 ,x w be a n>rative ( ! p]sonal exp]i5ce ( ,eld] ,jacob ,hambl91 z a fronti]sman1 mission>y to ! ,indians & explor]1 disclos+ int]positions ( ,provid5ce1 sev]e privations1 p]il\s situations & rem>kable escapes4 ,,! ,,publi%]4 ,,cont5ts4 ,,f9d+ ,a ,,fa!r4 ,,*apt] ,i4 ,"p f my ,fa!r 9 infancy--,8 bless+ & promise--,dea? ( my ,"m--,my ,gr&fa!r apo/atizes & sets up a ,*ur* ( 8 own--,b\nd to be an ,uncle--,ill-treatm5t & ridicule--,prejudic$ aga9/ ! ,mormons--,fe> ( !m--,releas$ f my ,uncle's p[]--,inducem5ts to g to ,cali=nia--,decide to />t4 ,,*apt] ,,ii4 ,my ,outfit--,dissipation--,/>t to ,cali=nia--,upbraid+s f my ,uncle--,uncle & ,aunt disagree--,a />tl+ revelation1 ,i le>n t ,i am be+ tak5 to ,utah--,leave my ,uncle & jo9 ,spic]1 to avoid go+ to ,utah4 ,,*apt] ,,iii4 ,arrival at ,p>ley's ,p>k--,prep>e = ! wor/1 & visit ,wm4 ,h4 ,kimball--,favorably impress$ ) my newly-f\nd relatives--,arrival 9 ,salt ,lake ,city--,dread at ?\ghts ( fall+ into ! h&s ( ! ,mormons--,decide to g & see my ,fa!r & surr5d]1 expect+ to be captur$ if ,i attempt$ to escape--,odd appe>ance go+ up ,ea/ ,temple ,/reet--,meet+ ) my ,fa!r--,invit$ to *ange my clo!s4 ,,*apt] ,,iv4 ,a%am$ ( my appe>ance--,introduc$ to my num]\s relatives--,all[$ to sleep ) ! boys--,homesick--,set to "w & made cont5t$--,baptiz$ & set ap>t = a mission--,return to ,i[a--,meet my relatives--,my ,gr&fa!r's confession & te/imony--,8 exhortation & reque/--,return home ) my bro!r ,isaac1 ?us fulfill+ my ,fa!r's pr$iction--,! lessons ,i le>n$ by my exp]i5ce4 ,,sav$ ,,by ,,provid5ce4 ,appo9t$ to take *>ge ( a company ( emigrants--,leave ,london = ,am]ica--,surr\nd$ by a ?ick fog--,! ,capta9 unable to take obs]vations--,! fog lifts--,sav$ f be+ da%$ ^u ! rocks--,?ank ,god = our deliv]ance4 ,,w>n+s ,,( ,,! ,,_s4 ,impress$ by ! ,_s n to g on a /eam]1 aft] arrang+ = my passage--,ru% a%ore be=e ! boat />ts--,boat snagg$ & sunk 9 ! ,mississippi--,w>n$ by ! ,_s n to meet an appo9tm5t--,urg$ by my fri5ds1 ,i />t--,av]sion to go+ s /rong1 ,i gallop back--,fri5ds unable to acc\nt = my fe>s--,robb]y at ! h\se :]e ,i 0 to h gone--,sav$ f suspicion by obey+ ! voice ( ! ,_s4 ,,rob]t ,,hamilton4 ,*all5g$ to debate by ,dr4 ,wal?oll--,8 discomfiture & defeat--,dr4 ,scott attempts to retrieve ! ,campbellite cause1 & (f]s ano!r *all5ge--,resorts to ! :iskey bottle--,eld] ,hamilton scores him = x4 ,,h[ ,,success ,,is ,,ga9$4 ,eld]s to g out two & two--,"y mission>ies incl9$ to %irk--,eld] ,moses ,?at*]--,8 diffid5ce--,! way he 0 brok5 9--,8 success--,eld] ,mc,allister--,8 backw>dness 9 speak+--,=c$ into x--,8 te/imony--,eld] ,coray's exp]i5ce--,promises ( ! ,"l prov$ true4 ,,help ,,9 ,,"t ,,( ,,ne$4 ,,*apt] ,i4 ,/>t ^u a mission1 p5niless--,aid f ! ,capta9 & pass5g]s on ! /eamboat--,arrive at ,new ,orleans--,fail 9 try+ to f9d free passage to ,engl&--,disc\ragem5t--,pray]--,rebuke & answ]--,apply = passage on ! ,b]l9--,k9d reception f ,capta9 ,bak]--,b>ga9 = passage--,"o-half to be paid 9 discuss+ religion ) an ,episcopalian ,m9i/]4 ,,*apt] ,,ii4 ,! voyage--,discussion--,m9i/]'s discomfiture--,arrive 9 ,liv]pool--,k9dness ( ,capta9 ,bak]--,le>n ( 8 dea? & my duty--,my %abby appe>ance--,fir/ s]mon--,money put into my h&--,visit home--,m help f /rang]s4 ,,ov]com+ ,,diffid5ce4 ,diff]5ce 9 p]sons ab\t speak+ 9 public--,! ,"l will+ to help ,8 s]vants to ov]come timidity--,e>ly exp]i5ce 9 prea*+--,a feel+ ( fe> & ! ,_s ( ,god n cong5ial--,timidity conqu]$4 ,,! ,,"l ,,w ,,provide4 ,a ,"m & ,*ildr5 9 great want--,! ,"m's fai?--,h] pray]--,is provid$ ) money 9 a my/]i\s way4 ,,dialogue ,,on ,,religion4 ,,te/imonies ,,= ,,! ,,tru?4 ,,*apt] ,i4 ,! ,au?or's bir? & p>5tage--,e>ly religi\s impressions--,m>riage--,vision ( 8 ,bro!r1 & ( ! ,bible--,! ,au?or dreams ( prea*+--,att5ds a ,protract$ ,meet+--,8 impressions :ile !re--,he meets ) ! ,latt]--,day ,sa9ts--,vision ( two ,nephite ,apo/les4 ,,*apt] ,,ii4 ,vision ( ! la/ days--,baptism ( ! ,au?or & f\r o!rs--,8 ,wife's dream & baptism--,he is orda9$ an ,eld]--,visits ,kirtl&--,on 8 return is attack$ by fev]--,is miracul\sly heal$--,visits ,kirtl&--,re-visits ,kirtl&--,beg9s to prea*--,miracul\s heal+ ( a canc]--,accid5t & miracul\s heal+ ( ,jesse ,w4 ,crosby--,poison miracul\sly nullifi$--,ca/+ out ( evil spirits4 ,,*apt] ,,iii4 ,removal to ,nauvoo--,sickness--,miracul\sly heal$--,acquire consid]able prop]ty--,acqua9tance ) ,joseph ,smi?--,missions to ,albany1 & ! ,ea/]n /ates2 also1 ) ,eld] ,j4 ,w4 ,crosby1 to ,nova ,scotia--,prea* 9 ,jeff]son ,co41 ,n4 ,y41 & organize six ,bran*es ( ! ,*ur*--,travel to ,new ,brunswick--,invit$ to prea*--,baptisms--,p]secution--,! ,au?or waylaid by a mob1 beat51 & left = dead--,attack on ! h\se :]e he & ,eld] ,crosby 7 9 b$--,! mob disp]s$ by ,mrs4 ,%elton--,!y return & re--attack ! h\se--,are disp]s$ by ,mr4 ,%elton--,two ,bran*es organiz$4 ,,*apt] ,,iv4 ,return to ,nauvoo--,s5t to ,jeff]son ,co4 on a ,ti?+ mission--,return ) a ?\s& doll>s--,move ,we/ ) ! ,*ur*--,/ay at ,w9t] ,qu>t]s--,orda9$ ,bi%op--,scurvy 9 ,camp--,hire out 9 ,miss\ri--,arrive 9 ,salt ,lake ,valley--,eld] ,kimball's prophecy & its fulfillm5t4 ,,f9d+ ,a ,,fa!r4 ,by ,,abraham ,a4 ,,kimball4 ,,*apt] ,i4 ,,"p ,,f ,,my ,,fa!r ,,9 ,,infancy--,,8 ,,bless+ ,,& ,,promise--,,dea? ,,( ,,my ,,"m--,,my ,,gr&fa!r ,,apo/atizes ,,& ,,sets ,,up ,a ,,*ur* ,,( ,,8 ,,own--,,b\nd ,,to ,,an ,,uncle--,,ill-,,treatm5t ,,& ,,ridicule--,,prejudic$ ,,aga9/ ,,! ,,mormons--,,fe> ,,( ,,!m--,,releas$ ,,f ,,my ,,uncle',s ,,p[]--,,inducem5ts ,,to ,,g ,,to ,,cali=nia--,,decide ,,to ,,/>t4 ,at ! e>ne/ reque/ ( _m ( my fri5ds ,i h compil$ a few incid5ts ( my e>ly life1 "s ( :i* h an important be>+ on ! pa/ hi/ory ( ! ,*ur* ( ,jesus ,*ri/ ( ,latt]-day ,sa9ts4 ,my gr&fa!r's confession & te/imony are especially important1 & ?is sket* is writt5 = ! express purpose ( giv+ publicity to 8 /atem5t4 ,9 ord]1 h[ev]1 to arrive at a cle> und]/&+ ( ?is1 x becomes necess>y = me to ins]t a sket* ( my e>ly life4 ,i h c>efully p5n$ ^! incid5ts f memory1 hav+ tak5 no notes at ! "t ( _! occurr5ce1 & !y are z correct z x is possible to give !m1 especially su* z ref] to my gr&fa!r ,cutl]'s te/imony ( ! "w ( ! ,latt]-day ,sa9ts1 & ?is ,i c v\* =1 ^w = ^w4 ,at ! "t ?is occurr$ ,i _h j jo9$ ! ,*ur*1 & 8 rem>ks made a p[]ful impression ^u my m9d1 :i* no?+ c ev] efface4 ,my fa!r1 ,heb] ,c4 ,kimball1 remov$ to ,utah :5 ,i 0 only ab\t twelve mon?s old1 leav+ 8 two wives 7my "m--,cl>issa ,cutl]1 & h] si/] ,emily7 ) "o boy ea*1 at ,w9t] ,qu>t]s1 n[ call$ ,flor5ce1 ,nebraska1 at ! resid5ce ( my gr&fa!r1 ,alpheus ,cutl]4 ,?is occurr$ 9 ! spr+ ( #ahdg4 ,my fa!r 7z ,i h s9ce le>n$7 0 v mu* impress$1 prior to leav+ u1 ) ! belief t my "m w\ld nev] come to ,utah1 & he1 !re=e1 bless$ my bro!r ,isaac ,a4 & myself1 & :ile 8 h&s 7 ^u my head he significantly rem>k$ t ,i %\ld see ! day t ,i w\ld come to ! valleys ( ! m\nta9s & aft]w>ds return = my bro!r4 ,%ortly aft] he left u my gr&fa!r 0 call$ on a mission to ! ,indians on ,gras%opp] ,riv]1 ,indian ,t]ritory1 & took 8 daught]s & _! two *ildr5 ) him4 ,ab\t two ye>s aft]w>ds ! grim mon/]1 dea?1 visit$ u & depriv$ me ( my "m1 & a few mon?s lat] my aunt ,emily di$1 also ,h5rietta ,cutl] 7wid[ ( ,moses ,cutl]7 :o left a girl n[ nam$ ,phel9da ,rawlance4 ,we %ortly aft]w>ds remov$ to ,manti1 ,fremont ,c\nty1 ,i[a1 :]e my gr&fa!r e/abli%$ a *ur* & con/itut$ himself its lead]1 call+ x ,! ,true ,*ur* ( ,latt]-day ,sa9ts1 & presum$ to (ficiate 9 ! ord9ances ( ! ,*ur* ( ,jesus ,*ri/ ( ,latt]-day ,sa9ts1 su* z baptisms1 end[m5ts1 etc4 ,he also en]getically d5\nc$ polygamy & ! law ( ti?+1 & taught 8 foll[]s t ,joseph ,smi? 0 a true prophet ( ,god1 b t ,brigham ,"y 0 n 8 successor1 b an impo/or1 & t he 7,alpheus ,cutl]7 0 ! true lead] & held ! au?ority to c>ry on ! latt]-day "w4 ,?is pret5d$ ,true ,*ur* 0 organiz$1 ) ,alpheus ,cutl]1 presid5t2 ,edmund ,fi%]1 fir/ c\nselor2 ,*ancey ,:it+1 second c\nselor1 & gr&fa!r ,fi%]1 patri>*4 ,!y claim$ all ! gifts & p[]s belong+ to ! ,*ur* ( ,jesus ,*ri/ ( ,latt]-day ,sa9ts4 ,repeat$ inducem5ts 7 held out = my bro!r ,isaac & myself to jo9 ! ,*ur* aft] we became old en\gh = memb]%ip4 ,isaac f9ally cons5t$ to become a memb]1 b ,i fail$ to see or compreh5d ! necessity ( x4 ,"s "t aft]w>ds my gr&fa!r 0 afflict$ ) rheumatism & ph?isic1 9 consequ5ce ( :i* he 0 unable to foll[ 8 usual avocations 9 procur+ a livelihood4 ,(t5 h ,i kn[n him to sit up = six weeks at a "t1 n be+ able to lay d[n on acc\nt ( ! difficulty ( brea?+ :ile 9 t position4 ,:5 ,i 0 ab\t n9e ye>s ( age1 x became necess>y = my gr&fa!r to make arrangem5ts ) my uncle ,?addeus = our fur!r ma9t5ance4 ,my bro!r & ,i 7 b\nd ov] to our uncle to s]ve him until we 7 tw5ty-"o ye>s ( age1 & he agre$ on 8 "p to provide = u & our gr&p>5ts4 ,9 consid]ation ( fai?fully p]=m+ 8 duties1 my uncle 0 to inh]it gr&fa!r's prop]ty1 b 9 case he fail$ to d s1 he 0 n to reap ?is b5efit4 ,at ! "t ?is v]bal agreem5t 0 made1 my uncle took possession ( ! prop]ty1 b he aft]w>ds fail$ to p]=m 8 duty4 ,aft] tak+ up our resid5ce 9 uncle's family he neglect$ to provide u suitable clo?+ & food1 & our gr&fa!r & gr&mo!r 7 also neglect$4 ,! *ur*1 h[ev]1 assi/$ !m & made up ! defici5cy4 ,my bro!r & ,i 7 repeat$ly ill-treat$ by uncle's family1 & 7 cont9ually p]secut$ & call$ names = be+ polygami/ *ildr54 ,9 ord] to tantalize u1 ! memb]s ( ! family w\ld call u ba/>ds1 ,brigham1 ,heb]1 etc41 & on ! slighte/ provocation !y w\ld ?reat5 to s5d u to ,utah1 tell+ u t ! ,mormons w\ld soon settle u4 ,no n]v\s *ildr5 7 ev] worse fright5$ by /ories ab\t hobgobl9s ?an my bro!r & ,i 71 ) :at !y told u ab\t ! ,mormons4 ,we 7 also taught t if we /ay$ 9 ! woods pick+ fruit1 etc41 ! ,mormons w\ld be sure to cat* u & c>ry u (f4 ,m ?an once :5 ga!r+ b]ries 9 ! woods1 7 we al>m$ by ! flight ( a bird or ! ru/l+ noise ( "s small animal 9 ! und]bru%4 ,our fir/ impulse on su* occasions1 & ! "o inv>iably act$ ^u1 0 to drop our baskets & run l fright5$ antelopes1 nev] /opp+ or look+ back until we ne>$ home1 & felt sure t we 7 safe f our fanci$ pursu]s4 ,(t5 9 my dreams ,i imag9$ ,i 0 captur$ by ! ,mormons1 & 9 my wak+ mom5ts ,i frequ5tly pictur$ to myself a life ( captivity among !m--cag$ l a wild bea/ 9 a m5ag]ie4 ,! "n ,mormon1 9 fact1 became to u synonym\s ) t ( an ugly & dang]\s mon/]1 & we grew up ) ! mo/ bitt] prejudice & int5se hatr$ 9 our he>ts t[>ds all :o bore t "n4 ,we endur$ ! ill-treatm5t ( our uncle's family until pati5ce no long] seem$ to be a virtue1 & we rebell$4 ,our gr&fa!r p]ceiv$ t x 0 only "r to release u f _! p[]1 & he !re=e rega9$ all ! prop]ty he c\ld possibly secure 9 /ock & l& f our uncle1 & sev]$ our obligations to him4 ,f ?is "t we comm5c$ to "w = ourselves1 & also to support gr&fa!r & gr&mo!r1 & cont9u$ to d s until ! spr+ ( #ahfb4 ,9 ! w9t] ( #ahfa ,i _h a dang]\s attack ( w9t] fev]1 to :i* ,i ne>ly succumb$4 ,9 ! spr+ ( #ahfb ,i 0 s5t a di/ance ( ?irty-five miles to ,hamburg1 = a doctor to att5d my c\s9 ,sylvia ,webb's *ild1 :o 0 sick1 & aft] cross+ ! riv] ,i s5t ! doctor & rema9$ ) my uncle1 ,edw9 ,cutl]1 = "o week4 ,:ile !re he inquir$ h[ ,i w\ld l to g to ,cali=nia1 z he claim$ t he 0 go+ !re4 ,on he>+ ?is ,i 0 sudd5ly seiz$ ) ! gold fev]1 & eag]ly express$ a wi% to g1 z ,i always _h a great desire to roam4 ,uncle ,edw9 reque/$ me to return home & in=m my gr&p>5ts1 & asc]ta9 if !y 7 will+ = me to g4 ,i return$ home ! foll[+ ,sunday ev5+4 ,i did n reque/ p]mission to leave1 b at once in=m$ !m t ,i 0 go+ to />t = ,cali=nia 9 ! morn+1 & t ,i want$ !m to get my clo!s ready4 ,no reply 0 made to ?is rem>k1 &1 z !y fail$ to comply1 ,i repeat$ my reque/1 /at+ t if !y did n provide !m ,i w\ld att5d to x myself1 z ,i 0 det]m9$ to g4 ,gr&mo!r !n rem>k$ t if ,i 0 det]m9$ to g %e w\ld get my clo!s ready4 ,dur+ ! night ,i made arrangem5ts ) my bro!r to take me a di/ance ( fifte5 miles1 to a small t[n call$ ,sydney2 & e>ly 9 ! morn+1 aft] bidd+ gr&fa!r & gr&mo!r good-by1 we />t$ out4 ,,*apt] ,,ii4 ,,my ,,outfit--,,dissipation--,,/>t ,,to ,,cali=nia--,,upbraid+s ,,f ,,my ,,uncle--,,uncle ,,& ,,aunt ,,disagree--,a ,,/>tl+ ,,revelation1 ,i ,,le>n ,,t ,i ,,am ,,be+ ,,tak5 ,,to ,,utah--,,leave ,,my ,,uncle ,,& ,,jo9 ,,spic]1 ,,to ,,avoid ,,go+ ,,to ,,utah4 ,we arriv$ safely at ,sydney1 :]e ,i took leave ( my bro!r & />t$ alone = ,hamburg1 ) all my e>?ly possessions 9 my h&1 :i* consi/$ ( a small bundle conta9+ a suit ( old-fa%ion$ clo!s & a fiddle4 ,on arriv+ at my uncle's resid5ce he seem$ q elat$ to ?9k he _h a s]vant & companion1 = ?is 0 ! fir/ /ep t[>ds accompli%+ a design at ?is "t kn[n only to himself4 ,previ\s to />t+ out he ext5d$ a great _m privileges to me1 su* z a dr9k ( :isky1 hunt+ cattle1 att5d+ dances & rid+ mules1 ! la/-nam$ sport occasionally caus+ me to turn unexpect$ som]saults4 ,dur+ ?is "t ,i effect$ a sale ( my fiddle = a gallon ( :isky & a doll> 9 money4 ,f ! effects ( dr9k+ ! :isky ,i felt t ,i c\ld easily rea* ,cali=nia1 &1 aft] obta9+ a pipe & a p\nd ( tobacco1 ,i felt fully equipp$ = my trip4 ,:5 fe$ became pl5tiful we />t$ out1 9 company ) a man by ! "n ( ,g]>d :o _h a lot ( f9e horses :i* he 0 tak+ to ,cali=nia4 ,our complete outfit consi/$ ( "o wagon1 "o yoke ( ox51 "o yoke ( c[s1 a t5t & a common camp-/ove4 ,my uncle adopt$ ! plan ( /ak+ ! t5t e night1 also ty+ ropes to ! wagon :eels & /ak+ ! same4 ,he also fix$ ! /ove daily1 or r made me d x1 & ?is "w ( c\rse became v monoton\s4 ,uncle assi/$ me a week or two 9 p]=m+ camp duties & also 9 driv+ team4 ,i 0 grateful = all 8 previ\s k9dness to me & 9 ord] to prove ?is ,i will+ly p]=m$ all ! duties requir$ ( me4 ,b 9 a v %ort "t he left all ?is "w to me1 & driv+ team all day & p]=m+ ^! duties aft]w>ds kept me entirely out ( mis*ief4 ,all w5t well until aft] we pass$ ,julesburg1 on ! ,platte ,riv]1 :5 ! foll[+ important incid5ts occurr$3 ,i _h slept a little long] ?an usual1 hav+ fail$ to awake be=e sunrise4 ,my uncle ar\s$ me & passionately rem>k$ t he _h n br\ght me along to wait ^u me himself1 b = me to wait ^u him4 ,i _h discov]$ ?is fact "s "t be=e1 & ^! unk9d upbraid+s made me feel acutely my position z an orphan4 ,%ortly aft] ?is occurr5ce my uncle & 8 wife disagre$1 & !y f9ally conclud$ to sep>ate4 ,my aunt s\ght me out & in=m$ me t %e int5d$ to /op at ,l>amie1 &1 9 ord] to induce me to /ay ) h]1 %e ask$ me if ,i knew :]e uncle 0 tak+ me8 ,i repli$ t ,i suppos$ he 0 tak+ me to ,cali=nia4 ,%e !n in=m$ me t he 0 tak+ me to my fa!r 9 ,utah4 ,?is tr\bl$ me greatly1 & ar\s$ all my fe>s (1 & hatr$ t[>ds ! ,mormons4 ,at ?is "t ,i did n "k my fa!r's "n1 z ,i _h always borne ! "n ( ,cutl]1 my "m's maid5 "n4 ,on receiv+ ?is in=mation ,i 0 consid]ably vex$1 & x caus$ me to swe> t]ribly & %$ te>s ( indignation4 ,i at once *>g$ my uncle ) ?is int5tion1 & we got to high words ab\t x4 ,he told me ,i ne$ n g to ,utah1 b t ,i c\ld g to ,cali=nia4 ,i knew t x 0 un=tunate to be lib]at$ aft] com+ five hundr$ miles f home1 b ,i felt t ,i w\ld r die ?an ev] g to ,utah4 ,i1 !re=e1 decid$ to /op at ,l>amie ) my aunt & wait = a *ance to g =w>d to ,cali=nia or return home4 ,! gold fev] _h n[ left me1 & ,i became p]fectly reckless1 hav+ respect nei!r = ,god nor man4 ,matt]s cont9u$ s until we rea*$ ,l>amie1 :5 we halt$ = a few days4 ,all ?is "t no?+ 0 m5tion$ ( my uncle & aunt's sep>ation1 z a reconciliation _h be5 effect$4 ,previ\s to ?is we _h fall5 9 ) a man by ! "n ( ,james ,spic]1 f ,hamburg1 :o _h ?ree wagons & "o hundr$ & sev5ty-five head ( loose cattle4 ,he _h 8 wife ) him b no *ildr5 ( 8 own1 ?\gh he _h br\ght ) him an orphan boy4 ,spic] came to me :ile at ,l>amie1 & said1 ,y don't want to g to ,utah1 d y8 ,i repli$ t ,i did n4 ,he !n said t he 0 n go+ !re1 & t he _h notic$ h[ ,i _h be5 misus$ on ! trip1 b1 z he 0 a small man comp>$ ) my uncle1 he did n deem x wisdom to int]f]e2 b if ,i wi%$ to leave my uncle & g ) him he w\ld lay ov] until my relatives w5t =w>d if he _h to rema9 all w9t]4 ,he /at$ t he _h a man he want$ to get rid (1 :o c\ld accompany my uncle 9 my place4 ,i agre$ to ?is arrangem5t4 ,two days lat] my uncle came to me & said1 ,abe6 let u get up ! cattle2 we c't wait any long] = ,spic]4 ,frank ,gilb]t & company1 belong+ to ,gilb]t1 ,g]ri% & ,co41 ( ,salt ,lake ,city1 are j ahead1 & we c ov]haul !m4 ,i !n in=m$ him t ,i w\ld accompany him no f>!r1 = ,i _h agre$ to g ) ,spic] to ,cali=nia4 ,he 0 q vex$1 b aft] consid]able talk he cool$ d[n & accept$ ,spic]'s man z a sub/itute2 & 9 a few h\rs f ! "t he left u we hit*$ up & roll$ out4 ,my uncle's next plan 0 to in=m e ,mormon he saw t "o ( ,heb] ,c4 ,kimball's lo/ boys 0 on ! road1 & describe our outfit to him4 ,on arriv+ at ! ,=t ,hall ,road 7:i* 0 ! r\te to ,cali=nia71 ,spic] 0 in=m$ t sev]al tra9s _h be5 robb$ & "s p]sons kill$ :ile travel+ 9 t direction4 ,he1 !re=e1 decid$ to *ange 8 plans & g ?r\gh ,utah1 z ?is 0 8 la/ *ance4 ,i repli$1 ,d--! odds1 ,spic]1 we w die brave6 naturally suppos+ t ! ,mormons w\ld kill me or m>k me 9 "s way = recognition4 ,up to ?is "t all our company 7 ignorant ( my p>5tage1 & ,i ?\ght ,i _h bett] make a confidant ( "o ( ! boys nam$ ,james ,lefl]4 ,i told him ,i _h a fa!r 9 ,utah4 ,he 0 v anxi\s to "k :o my fa!r 01 & ,i in=m$ him x 0 ei!r ,brigham or ,heb]1 ,i 0 n sure :i*1 ?\gh ,i ?\ght x 0 ,brigham4 ,at ,gre5 ,riv] ,f]ry we met ,lewis ,robison & sons4 ,!y soon discov]$ :o ,i 01 & comm5c$ jok+ me by rem>k+ t ,i c\ld n cross on _! f]ry1 z !y did n f]ry ,mormons4 ,?is madd5$ me1 & ,i ?rew (f my clo!s1 &1 plac+ !m 9 ! wagon1 ,i jump$ into ! riv]1 tell+ !m !y c\ld g to h--4 ,i swam across ! riv]1 :i* 0 v high & rapid1 & approa*$ ! bank l[] d[n ! /ream4 ,lewis ,robison1 desir\s ( mak+ my acqua9tance1 & hav+ le>n$ t ,i 0 ! lo/ boy1 br\ght my clo!s d[n to me4 ,:5 ,i saw him com+ ,i rema9$ 9 ! wat]1 = fe> he w\ld cat* me1 = ,i felt t ,i w\ld r dr[n ?an be tak5 to ,utah4 ,he tri$ h>d to p]suade me to come out1 b ,i decl9$1 = fe> he w\ld take me to ,salt ,lake4 ,he in=m$ me :o he 01 & t he 0 acqua9t$ ) my fa!r1 b did n tell me 8 "n1 & ,i did n c>e to "k x4 ,p]ceiv+ t ,i w\ld n leave ! wat]1 he return$ to ! boat1 leav+ my clo!s on ! bank4 ,i !n came out & dress$ myself1 & 0 soon m\nt$ on "o ( ,spic]'s be/ horses1 :i* _h be5 br\ght ov]4 ,robison1 see+ t ,i _h come a%ore1 made ano!r attempt to conv]se ) me1 /at+ t ,i ne$ n be afraid4 ,i told him t ,i 0 n1 b = all t ,i did n all[ him to get clos] ?an ?irty feet4 ,f9d+ t ,i w\ld n keep /ill long en\gh = him to approa* me1 he talk$ ) me f a di/ance1 ask+ me if ,i w\ld g & see my fa!r1 ,heb] ,c4 ,kimball1 :5 ,i got to ,salt ,lake4 ,i told him ,i did n "k4 ,he add$ t my fa!r 0 a good man1 & w\ld be pleas$ to see me1 & said he 0 go+ to ,salt ,lake 9 a few days & w\ld in=m him t ,i 0 com+4 ,on le>n+ ?is1 ,i 0 c>eful n to dism\nt aga9 :ile rema9+ at ! f]ry4 ,,*apt] ,,iii4 ,,arrival ,,at ,,p>ley',s ,,p>k--,,prep>e ,,= ,,! ,,wor/1 ,,& ,,visit ,,wm4 ,h4 ,,kimball--,,favorably ,,impress$ ,,) ,,my ,,newly-,,f\nd ,,relatives--,,arrival ,,9 ,,salt ,,lake ,,city--,,dread ,,at ,,?\ghts ,,( ,,fall+ ,,into ,,! ,,h&s ,,( ,,! ,,mormons--,,decide ,,to ,,g ,,& ,,see ,,my ,,fa!r ,,& ,,surr5d]1 ,,expect+ ,,to ,,be ,,captur$ ,,if ,i ,,attempt$ ,,to ,,escape--,,odd ,,appe>ance ,,go+ ,,up ,,ea/ ,,temple ,,/reet--,,meet+ ,,) ,,my ,,fa!r--,,invit$ ,,to ,,*ange ,,my ,,clo!s4 ,we did n enc\nt] any m ,mormons t knew me until aft] arriv+ at ,silv] ,creek1 ne> ,p>ley's ,p>k1 ,utah4 ,on arriv+ !re ,i le>n$ t ,william ,h4 ,kimball liv$ at ! ,p>k4 ,i _h a fa9t recollection ( hav+ se5 him at gr&fa!r's1 :5 he call$ sev]al ye>s previ\s1 z he return$ f 8 ,european mission4 ,i conclud$ !n t ,i 0 approa*+ a region :]e some?+ desp]ate w\ld be requir$ ( me if ,i protect$ myself2 s ,i made up my m9d to put on a bold front & prep>e = ! wor/4 ,feel+ t ,i might z well meet my tr\bles fir/ z la/1 ,i decid$ to pay ,william ,h4 ,kimball a visit be=e he came aft] me4 ,i accord+ly arm$ myself ) a revolv] & a quid ( tobacco1 & ask$ "o ( ! boys1 a d>+ fell[1 to g ov] to ! ran* ) me4 ,on rea*+ !re ,i inquir$ = ,william ,h4 ,kimball1 & 0 in=m$ t he 0 9 ! mead[1 a %ort di/ance (f1 haul+ hay4 ,f ! description my uncle _h giv5 ( me1 my bro!r ,william at once recogniz$ me1 & said1 ,hello1 ,abe6 :]e did y come f8 ,he seem$ v glad to see me1 & ask$ me to wait a few m9utes & he w\ld g to ! h\se ) me1 z 8 "m 7,vilate ,kimball7 0 !re1 also two o!r bro!rs 7,*>les & ,solomon71 & "p ( 8 own family4 ,aft] be+ introduc$ to all1 we 7 invit$ to p>take ( a civiliz$ meal4 ,i 0 ask$ a great _m que/ions respect+ my previ\s c>e] & future int5tions4 ,aft] rema9+ till sunset we return$ to camp ) cordial invitations to call aga91 :i* we did1 dur+ our /ay on ,silv] ,creek4 ,i _h "o fight :ile !re1 & came v ne> gett+ :ipp$1 z my oppon5t 0 left-h&$4 ,i manag$1 h[ev]1 ) a skillful bl[1 to dispossess him ( 8 goatee4 ,! acqua9tance =m$ at ! ,p>k ) my relatives made a favorable impression ^u me1 & great inducem5ts 7 held out = me to call & see my fa!r4 ,my bro!r ,*>les w5t to ,salt ,lake & in=m$ my fa!r :]e ,i 04 ,he imm$iately s5t a team = me1 b ,i decl9$ to g4 ,spic] _h be5 a fri5d to me1 & ,i did n ?9k x "r to =sake an old fri5d = a new "o4 ,i1 !re=e1 refus$ to leave him on any acc\nt until ,i saw 8 outfit safely l&$ 9 ,salt ,lake ,city1 z he w\ld h be5 %ort ( help _h ,i done s4 ,x took u two days to travel f ! ,p>k to ,salt ,lake ,city4 ,my bro!r rema9$ "o day aft] we left1 z he expect$ to ov]take u be=e we rea*$ ! ,city1 & int5d$ to prevail on me to g home ) him4 ,he fail$1 h[ev]1 to f9d u1 z we w5t ov] ! ,little ,m\nta9 :ile he proce$$ d[n ,p>ley's ,canyon & rea*$ ! ,city be=e we did4 ,we encamp$ on ,emigration ,squ>e = ! night1 & x 0 a v sad night to me1 z ,i expect$ to fall into ! h&s ( ! ,mormons on ! foll[+ morn+1 & !n ,i c\ld n conceive :at my fate w\ld be4 ,i expect$1 h[ev]1 x w\ld be some?+ awful1 & dread$ x ! m z ,i ?\ght ( my e>ly tea*+s4 ,ab\t breakfa/ "t next morn+ an unexpect$ visitor--,si/] ,tuft--call$ to see me1 = ! purpose ( urg+ me to g & see my fa!r1 ?\gh ,i nev] knew h] reason4 ,%ortly aft]w>ds ,lewis ,robison call$1 hav+ le>n$ t ,i _h arriv$4 ,he 0 anxi\s to "k if ,i 0 go+ to see my fa!r4 ,i c>elessly rem>k$ t ,i did n "k4 ,he said he w\ld call 9 a little :ile1 & accompany me4 ,t[>ds noon ,spic] came to me1 & said3 ,abe1 :at are y go+ to d8 ,are y go+ to /op ) y\r fa!r1 or g ) me8 ,i told him ,i did n "k1 b ?\ght ,i _h bett] /op1 = if ,i w5t on !y w\ld take me prison] & br+ me back1 & ,i ?\ght ,i w\ld surr5d]4 ,!y might treat me bett] & n be s sev]e z !y w\ld if ,i tri$ to escape4 ,he ?\ght ! same z ,i did1 b said if ,i 0 n suit$1 & c\ld get away1 ,i %\ld f9d him at ,camp ,floyd1 :]e he w\ld w9t]2 & if ,i came !re he w\ld give me a home z long z he _h "o4 ,we bade ea* o!r good by1 bo? %$d+ te>s1 z we p>t$4 ,if ,i _h be5 call$ ^u to m\nt ! gall[s ,i %\ld n h done s ) great] reluctance ?an ,i !n manife/$ z ,i w5t =? to meet my fa!r4 ,i />t$ out ) a small fl\r sack ov] my %\ld]1 conta9+ all my e>?ly possessions1 & ^! consi/$ ( ! foll[+ articles ( clo?+3 "o old-fa%ion$ coat1 ( ! claw-hamm] patt]n1 "o *eck]$ g+ham coat & a pair ( pants 7home-made & color$ ) walnut b>k74 ,! legs ( ! pants 7 ab\t five in*es too long1 & proportionately l>ge 9 o!r p>ts4 ,! suit ,i wore 0 n z good z ! "o describ$1 & consi/$ ( a hickory %irt1 :ite duck+ pants 7eight in*es too %ort71 a pair ( %oes b no /ock+s1 & an old relic ( a :ite hat1 ) a small rim4 ,i rema9$ on ! squ>e1 alone1 z long z ,i d>$1 wat*+ ,spic]'s outfit mov+ d[n ! ,/ate ,road4 ,i kept hop+ t ,robison w\ld soon appe>1 accord+ to promise1 b1 z he fail$ to d s1 ,i %\ld]$ my sack & />t$ out 9 se>* ( my fa!r4 ,i rea*$ ,ea/ ,temple ,/reet1 b d>$ n speak to any "o1 &1 in/ead ( go+ on ! sidewalk1 ,i walk$ up ! middle ( ! /reet4 ,su* an odd-look+ g5ius z ,i appe>$1 ( c\rse1 caus$ ev]ybody to gaze at me4 ,i kept look+ w>ily ov] my %\ld]s1 z ,i suppos$ ev]ybody 0 anxi\s to cat* me4 ,i did n inquire = ,heb] ,c4 ,kimball until ,i arriv$ opposite ! ,ti?+ ,(fice1 :5 ,i enc\nt]$ a man nam$ ,b5jam9 ,hampton 7a gate keep]71 :o ey$ me ) suspicion1 z if he suspect$ t ,i 0 a desp]ado or a lunatic4 ,i v5tur$ to ask him :]e ,heb] ,c4 ,kimball liv$1 b he gave me no satisfaction2 9 fact he w\ld n ev5 ackn[l$ge t he knew su* a man4 ,?is caus$ me to give v5t to an exclamation t 0 m expressive ?an elegant1 aft] :i* ,i cont9u$ my j\rney up ! /reet till ,i cross$ ,city ,creek4 ,!re ,i v5tur$ to call at a h\se1 &1 conclud+ t ,heb] ,c4 ,kimball did n live 9 t vic9ity1 ,i ask$ = ,*>les ,kimball4 ,! lady to :om ,i address$ myself prov$ to be 8 wife1 & %e repli$ t h] husb& 0 at 8 fa!r's b>n a %ort di/ance away4 ,z ,i cross$ ! y>d numb]s ( p gaz$ curi\sly at me f w9d[s & doors4 ,i call$ at ! b>n1 & !re f\nd my bro!r1 hit*+ up ! horses to g aft] me aga94 ,he 0 q surpris$ to see me1 & said he w\ld unhit* & accompany me to ! h\se4 ,i !n wi%$ t ! e>? w\ld op5 & swall[ me4 ,on ne>+ ! h\se ,i p]ceiv$ a man :om ,i suppos$ to be my fa!r1 & my fe> ( him 0 v great z ,i approa*$4 ,my bro!r address$ him z fa!r1 &1 by way ( an introduction said1 ,"h's y\r boy6 ,my fa!r 0 six feet "o in* 9 height1 & _h ke51 pi]c+1 black eyes1 :i* seem$ to p5etrate my inmo/ ?\ghts4 ,8 c\nt5ance1 h[ev]1 0 v pleasant1 & he spoke to me 9 a k9d1 fa!rly mann]1 & und]took to embrace me1 :i* ,i decl9$1 z ,i 0 n us$ to su* exhibitions ( affection4 ,he said he 0 glad to see me1 & ask$ me if ,i knew he 0 my fa!r4 ,i told him ,i nei!r knew nor c>$1 & hop$ he w\ld kick me out & let me g4 ,he in=m$ me t su* 0 really ! case4 ,i told him t x 0 all "r1 !n1 ,i did n say he wasn't4 ,he invit$ me to take a *air & sit d[n1 :i* ,i did1 b kept my hat on4 ,aft] view+ me f head to foot1 he ask$ me if ,i _h any clo!s4 ,i repli$1 ,yes1 pl5ty ( !m6 ,he !n call$ 8 wife1 ,adelia1 & told h] to get a tub ( wat] & put x 9 a b$room1 s t ,i c\ld h a wa% & *ange my clo!s4 ,,*apt] ,,iv4 ,,a%am$ ,,( ,,my ,,appe>ance--,,introduc$ ,,to ,,my ,,num]\s ,,relatives--,,all[$ ,,to ,,sleep ,,) ,,! ,,boys--,,homesick--,,set ,,to ,,"w ,,& ,,made ,,cont5t$--,,baptiz$ ,,& ,,set ,,ap>t ,,= ,a ,,mission--,,return ,,to ,,i[a--,,meet ,,my ,,relatives--,,my ,,gr&fa!r',s ,,confession ,,& ,,te/imony--,,8 ,,exhortation ,,& ,,reque/--,,return ,,home ,,) ,,my ,,bro!r ,,isaac1 ,,?us ,,fulfill+ ,,my ,,fa!r',s ,,pr$iction--,,! ,,lessons ,i ,,le>n$ ,,by ,,my ,,exp]i5ce4 ,aft] tak+ a ba? ,i put on my new suit1 b 0 a%am$ !n to appe> be=e ! family1 z my surr\nd+s seem$ s nice t my old-fa%ion$ suit 0 made to appe> worse ?an x really 04 ,i !re=e decid$ to rema9 9 ! b$room until ,i 0 invit$ out4 ,my aunts1 ,vilate & ,adelia1 insi/$ ^u my jo9+ ! family1 & if ev] ,i felt a%am$ ( myself 9 ! _w x 0 !n4 ,my fa!r came to me 9 a few m9utes & c\ld n refra9 f smil+4 ,i suppose x 0 my clo!s t amus$ him4 ,he imm$iately reque/$ 8 wife ,adelia to comb my hair1 :i* 0 to me a sev]e infliction1 z ,i fe>$ ! results4 ,h[ev]1 ?is op]ation 0 safely pass$1 prov+ t my fe>s 7 gr\ndless1 & ! rema9d] ( ! day ,i sp5t pleasantly1 view+ ! premises4 ,imag9e my a/oni%m5t :51 9 ! ev5+1 my fa!r call$ into ! room ab\t tw5ty ( 8 boys & girls & five or six ( 8 wives4 ,aft] be+ introduc$ we sp5t ! ev5+ review+ my pa/ life4 ,i le>n$ t my fa!r 0 q prep>$ to f9d me 9 su* a r\gh condition1 = ,lewis ,robison1 on arriv+ 9 ! valley ahead ( me1 _h in=m$ him t ,i 0 "o ( ! mo/ unc\? boys he ev] met 9 all 8 travels4 ,at b$time fa!r ext5d$ to me ! privilege ( sleep+ ) ! boys1 9 a new room t he _h built4 ,?is k9dness ,i appreciat$ v mu*1 al?\gh aft] retir+1 ! boys comm5c$ mak+ sport ( _! c\ntry bro!r1 :i* caus$ me to get on ! w> pa?1 an indulg5ce ,i 0 r fond (1 hav+ be5 compell$ to fight my own way f *ildhood1 ?r\gh hav+ no fa!r or "m to take my "p4 ,h[ev]1 fa!r soon put a /op to ?is1 by appe>+ 9 8 night-clo!s & tell+ ! boys he w\ld att5d to !m if !y did n keep quiet4 ,we soon le>n$ to love & respect ea* o!r4 ,all ! lib]ties 7 ext5d$ to me t ,i ne$$1 b 9 a few days ,i became home-sick4 ,al?\gh ev]ybody 0 v k9d to me1 ,i c\ld n help ?9k+ ( my old home1 = all 7 /rang]s to me "h4 ,fa!r1 p]ceiv+ ?is1 set me to "w1 haul+ wood1 & ,i soon =got my tr\bles1 & 9 ! w9t] ,i att5d$ s*ool1 dur+ :i* "t my fa!r in=m$ me ( 8 desire = me to return to ! ,/ates = my bro!r ,isaac4 ,he ask$ me :at ,i ?\ght ( be+ baptiz$4 ,i told him ,i didn't "k4 ,he repli$ t ,i c\ld d j z ,i pleas$1 b if ,i believ$ 9 ! pr9ciples ( ! gospel he w\ld l me to be baptiz$ be=e go+ back4 ,no?+ m 0 said on ! subject = sev]al mon?s1 :5 ,i 0 aga9 ask$ if ,i _h conclud$ to be baptiz$4 ,i told him ,i _h1 & he propos$ imm$iately to s5d = ,eno* ,reese & h him baptize me4 ,we !n w5t up ,city ,creek1 above ! ,*ur* blacksmi?'s %op1 :]e ,i 0 baptiz$ by ,bro!r ,reese4 ,aft] return+ to ! h\se my fa!r confirm$ me1 & also orda9$ me an ,eld] & set me ap>t = a mission to ! ,/ates1 = ! purpose ( br++ my bro!r ,isaac1 & ?us confirm+ ! bless+ pron\nc$ ^u me 9 my infancy4 ,i 0 also to seek ,or9 ,rockwell 7,port] ,rockwell's elde/ son71 & br+ him & z _m o!rs z ,i c\ld induce to come4 ,i left home = ! ,/ates on ! #af? ( ,april1 #ahfc1 9 company ) my bro!r ,heb] & o!rs1 ) mule & horse teams1 & we made ! trip to ! ,miss\ri ,riv] 9 tw5ty-"o days4 ,aft] rema9+ a few days 9 ,flor5ce1 ,nebraska1 ,i set out = home on horseback4 ,on arriv+ at ,omaha my horse became v lame1 & ,i left x & />t$ out afoot4 ,i f\nd my bro!r ,heb] at ,kanesville1 ,i[a1 :]e he _h gone on bus9ess4 ,he b\ght me a suit ( clo!s & a pair ( %oes1 & gave me a few doll>s 9 money4 ,i left ,kanesville ab\t noon1 mak+ ,gl5wood 7tw5ty miles di/ant7 ! same day4 ,i /opp$ at a hotel = ! night1 & />t$ out at eight o'clock next morn+4 ,i arriv$ at my old home aft] d>k1 hav+ walk$ fifty miles t day1 & my feet 7 v sore4 ,my gr&fa!r1 gr&mo!r1 bro!r & fri5ds 7 all glad to see me1 & ,i sp5t sev]al days 9 visit+ my old resorts4 ,a few days aft] my arrival my gr&mo!r & a portion ( ! family w5t out visit+4 ,i rema9$1 at gr&fa!r's reque/1 z he 0 /ill an invalid ?r\gh ph?isic1 etc41 & 0 unable to leave ! h\se4 ,:5 alone1 he comm5c$ que/ion+ me conc]n+ ,utah1 ask+ me also ab\t ,bro!r ,s*(ield & "s o!rs ( 8 acqua9tance1 b ,i 0 unable to give mu* in=mation conc]n+ !m4 ,he ask$ me if ,i _h se5 my fa!r1 ,heb] ,c4 ,kimball4 ,i told him ,i _h4 ,he repli$ t he 0 glad ( x4 ,he also ask$ me if ,i _h be5 baptiz$1 & ,i told him ,i _h4 ,he aga9 repli$ t he 0 glad ( x4 ,he next ask$ me if ,i _h receiv$ my end[m5ts1 &1 :5 ,i in=m$ him t ,i _h1 he seem$ pleas$4 ,he !n said3 ,i h suff]$ y to be prejudic$ to ! ext5t t y 71 & x is n[ my duty to remove ! same4 ,y w5t (f )\t ask+ my cons5t1 :i* 0 all "r4 ,i knew t ,heb] ,c4 ,kimball 0 y\r fa!r1 & always did "k x2 b did n calculate t x %\ld be kn[n by y4 ,i int5d$ t y & ,isaac %\ld be ! means ( my support :ile ,i liv$4 ,y h n[ be5 to y\r fa!r1 & t is all "r4 ,i "k t ,joseph ,smi? 0 a prophet ( ,god1 & ,i "k t ,brigham ,"y is 8 legal successor1 & ,i always did "k x4 ,b ! tr\ble ) me 0 ,i want$ to lead1 & c\ld n be l$4 ,i h run my race & seal$ my doom1 & ,i "k :at ,i h got to meet4 ,i di$ once1 & 0 dead = "s l5g? ( "t4 ,my _s left my body & w5t to ! l& ( spirits4 ,i saw ! cr[n t ,i %\ld we> if ,i rema9$ fai?ful1 & ! condemnation ,i %\ld receive if ,i did n4 ,i begg$ to rema91 b 0 in=m$ t ,i mu/ return & w>n ! p to rep5t1 z my "w on e>? 0 n yet done4 ,aft] my _s return$ to my body1 ^? ar\nd discov]$ ! appe>ance ( life4 ,! fir/ words t ,i spoke 7 to ,sidney ,rigdon1 :o 0 /oop+ ov] me4 ,i call$ ^u him to rep5t ( 8 s9s1 or he w\ld be damn$4 ,my gr&fa!r paus$ "h1 b cont9u$ by say+3 ,i want y to g back to y\r fa!r1 tak+ y\r bro!r ,isaac ) y1 z ,i "k he is a good man1 & rema9 /eadfa/ to ',mormonism4' ,let :at may turn up1 nev] yield ! po9t2 = x w save & exalt y 9 ! k+dom ( ,god4 ,he wept l a *ild aft] say+ ?is4 ,he !n said to me3 ,"o favor ,i wi% to ask ( y1 namely1 t y w n divulge ?is confession to ^? :om ,i lead :ile ,i live4 ,) ?is he releas$ me1 & ,i cont9u$ my visit+4 ,my bro!r 0 p]fectly will+ to accompany me1 s 9 a few days we />t$ out = ,flor5ce1 accompani$ by "o c\s9 7,j$$iah ,&]son71 & ,*>les ,cox & two live raccoons1 :i* we br\ght along z curiosities4 ,aft] arriv+ at ,flor5ce we rema9$ a few weeks1 prep>+ to return to ,salt ,lake & drive teams = our bro!r ,heb]4 ,we arriv$ 9 ! valley safely1 & fa!r 0 mu* pleas$ at our return1 & gladly welcom$ bro!r ,isaac to 8 home4 ,my bro!r 0 z well suit$ z ,i _h previ\sly be51 & soon aft] jo9$ ! ,*ur*4 ,we !n cont5t$ly settl$ d[n ) fa!r & rema9$ ) him almo/ to ! "t ( 8 dea?1 :i* occurr$ on ! #bbnd ( ,june1 #ahfh4 ,9 ?is mann] did ,i f9d a lov+ & k9d fa!r1 ^: "* _h be5 mo/ %amefully malign$1 &1 ?\gh ,i 0 at "o "t reluctant to make 8 acqua9tance1 yet ,i h (t5 ?ank$ ,god s9ce = su* an exempl>y p>5t4 ,i le>n$ by ! exp]i5ce :i* ,i h relat$ _m lessons t ,i tru/ ,i may pr(it by z long z ,i live4 ,i le>n$ h[ difficult x is to ov]come prejudices & false impressions1 especially :5 =m$ 9 e>ly y\? or *ildhood4 ,i le>n$ :at a mis*iev\s & dang]\s quality ambition is1 :5 n prop]ly controll$4 ,9 ! case ( my gr&fa!r1 ambition = worldly honors1 = (fice & position among m51 l$ him to outrage 8 consci5ce4 ,x caus$ him to b>t] away 8 claim ^u ! et]nal ri*es & honor & glory ( heav5 = a mis]able mess ( pottage4 ,x caus$ him to lead a false life4 ,x caus$ him to make a pret5se ( believ+ t :i* he _h a positive k 0 untrue4 ,x caus$ him to br+ himself "u condemnation by deceiv+ o!rs4 ,x ev5 caus$ him to mislead 8 own (fspr+ until he c\ld d s no long]4 ,i le>n$ some?+ ( ! mis]y & s5se ( loss & remorse ( consci5ce t result f su* a c\rse z t :i* my gr&fa!r pursu$1 & ,i hope t 8 example may ev] prove a w>n+ to all :o read ?is sket*4 ,may !y avoid su* unlawful aspirations z caus$ 8 ru91 & live s t !y c ev] look back ) satisfaction ^u ! pa/ & =w>d ) joy to ! future4 ,,sav$ ,,by ,,provid5ce4 ,,by ,j4 ,,ni*olson4 ,,appo9t$ ,,to ,,take ,,*>ge ,,( ,a ,,company ,,( ,,emigrants--,,leave ,,london ,,= ,,am]ica--,,surr\nd$ ,,by ,a ,,?ick ,,fog--,,! ,,capta9 ,,unable ,,to ,,take ,,obs]vations--,,! ,,fog ,,lifts--,,sav$ ,,f ,,be+ ,,da%$ ,,^u ,,! ,,rocks--,,?ank ,,god ,,= ,,our ,,deliv]ance4 ,! ,eld]s ( ! ,*ur* (t5 speak ( ! c>e %[n by ! ,"l 9 pres]v+ ,8 ,sa9ts f h>m4 ,he has deliv]$ !m miracul\sly f accid5ts & dea? _m times4 ,i w tell ( a case 9 :i* ,god ex]sis$ ,8 p[] 9 behalf ( a company ( ,8 p4 ,! "y p :o may read ?is p]haps all "k t hundr$s & ?\s&s ( ,sa9ts ga!r to ?is c\ntry1 f f> (f nations1 e ye>4 ,_m %ip loads ( !m h cross$ ! ,atlantic ,ocean--a voyage ( ne>ly #c1jjj miles4 ,on ! sea1 _m accid5ts occur :]eby p lose _! lives by dr[n+1 ?r\gh ! s9k+ ( %ips 9 /orms4 ,b no?+ ( ?is k9d has ev] tak5 place ) a %ip load ( ,sa9ts4 ,! reason = ?is is1 t ,god has promis$ to protect ,8 elect :o %\ld ga!r f ! f\r qu>t]s ( ! e>? 9 ^! latt] days4 ,9 ! ye> #ahff2 ,eld] ,brigham ,"y1 ,jr41 :o 0 !n ,presid5t ( :at is call$ ! ,european ,mission ( ! ,*ur*1 appo9t$ ! writ] ( ?is article to take *>ge ( a company ( ab\t five hundr$ ,sa9ts f ,great ,brita9 to ! banks ( ! ,miss\ri ,riv]1 9 ?is c\ntry1 on _! way to ,salt ,lake ,city4 ,! ,sa9ts did n cross ! sea 9 fa/-sail+ /eam%ips 9 ^? days4 ,!y travel$ ov] ! wat]s 9 sl[-go+ sail+ %ips1 dep5d+ = spe$ on favorable w9ds4 ,at t "t six weeks1 0 consid]$ ! av]age l5g? ( "t = a voyage f ,engl& to ,new ,york4 ,we left ! port ( ,london on ! #bcrd ( ,may1 #ahff1 a v f9e company ( p1 n a few ( :om1 ,i am pleas$ to say1 are good1 honorable memb]s ( ! ,*ur*1 9 ,utah1 to-day4 ,i h 9 my m9d especially n[ "s ( ! boys :o 7 ) u4 ,i h se5 !m gr[ up to manhood1 & !y are /ill fai?ful4 ,:5 ! %ip ,am]ican ,congress1 on :i* we sail$1 0 ne> ! %ores ( ,newf\ndl& a ?ick fog prevail$ = sev]al days1 :i* prev5t$ ,capta9 ,woodw>d f tak+ an obs]vation1 be+ unable to see ! sun4 ,he !re=e c\ld n tell exactly :]e we 74 ,ab\t ?is "t ! capta9 & ,bro!r ,john ,rid]1 :o n[ lives 9 ,kanab1 & :o 0 "o ( my c\nselors 9 ! presid5cy ( ! company1 7 conv]s+ on ! "p ( ! %ip call$ ! qu>t] deck4 ,i 0 /&+ "s di/ance away f !m4 ,bro!r ,rid] happ5$ to turn 8 face 9 ! direction 9 :i* ! %ip 0 sail+4 ,at t mom5t ! fog lift$ up f ! surface ( ! sea1 z if a vail or scroll _h be5 rais$4 ,he saw cle>ly betwe5 ! fog & ! wat] = "s di/ance ahead4 ,sudd5ly he exclaim$1 po9t+ =w>d1 ,capta91 :at is t8 ,capta9 ,woodw>d1 :o 0 tall1 p[]ful & active1 made no answ]4 ,x 0 no "t = ord]s4 ,he sprang to ! :eelh\se ) ! agility ( a tig]1 & knock$ ! man at ! helm heels ov] head1 s5d+ him sprawl+ ^u ! deck4 ,at ! same in/ant he grasp$ ! :eel1 turn+ x ) ! mo/ surpris+ rapidity4 ,al?\gh 8 movem5ts 7 s quick1 he did n lose 8 pres5ce ( m9d a mom5t4 ,he 0 busy ) 8 voice z well z 8 h&s1 = :ile he act$ z ,i h describ$1 he %\t$1 9 cle>1 l\d1 pi]c+ tones1 ! sev]al ord]s direct+ all h&s to 'b\t %ip4 ,! sailors sprang to _! po/s4 ,!re 7 active limbs & busy h&s among ! rigg+4 ,! good %ip ,am]ican ,congress1 sway$ sl[ly ar\nd1 & ! mom5t ( p]il 0 pa/4 ,_h ?is action be5 delay$ a few mom5ts ! vessel w\ld h be5 among ! break]s1 ^u ! rocks1 da%$ to pieces & probably n a s\l ( ! ne>ly five hundr$ on bo>d w\ld h escap$ a wat]y grave4 ,! rocks & break]s ahead1 on ! l9e ( ! vessel's c\rse1 7 :at ,bro!r ,rid] saw :5 ! fog lift$4 ,! capta9 ask$ u1 z a special favor1 n to say a ^w to ! p ab\t ! dang] ) :i* ! %ip _h be5 ?reat5$4 ,he be+ comm&] ( ! vessel1 we consid]$ x "r to respect 8 desire2 besides1 we ?\ght 8 sugge/ion wise1 z a k ( :at _h occurr$ w\ld d\btless h caus$ an uneasy feel+ among ! pass5g]s4 ,! company 71 !re=e1 n aw>e ( ! great dang] !y _h escap$4 ,eld] ,rid] & myself ?ank$ ,god = ,8 goodness 9 s manife/ly ex]cis+ ,8 p[] 9 behalf ( ,8 ,sa9ts4 ,! ,"l fulfill$ ! promises made to u by ,8 s]vants at ! "t we left ,engl& = ! l& ( ,zion4 ,,w>n+s ,,( ,,! ,,_s4 ,,by ,h4,g4,b4 ,,impress$ ,,by ,,! ,,_s ,,n ,,to ,,g ,,on ,a ,,/eam]1 ,,aft] ,,arrang+ ,,= ,,my ,,passage--,,ru% ,,a%ore ,,be=e ,,! ,,boat ,,/>ts--,,boat ,,snagg$ ,,& ,,sunk ,,9 ,,! ,,mississippi--,,w>n$ ,,by ,,! ,,_s ,,n ,,to ,,meet ,,an ,,appo9tm5t--,,urg$ ,,by ,,my ,,fri5ds1 ,i ,,/>t--,,av]sion ,,to ,,go+ ,,s ,,/rong1 ,i ,,gallop ,,back--,,fri5ds ,,unable ,,to ,,acc\nt ,,= ,,my ,,fe>s--,,robb]y ,,at ,,! ,,h\se ,,:]e ,i ,,0 ,,to ,,h ,,gone--,,sav$ ,,f ,,suspicion ,,by ,,obey+ ,,! ,,voice ,,( ,,! ,,_s4 ,!re are no p on ! e>?1 t we are acqua9t$ )1 t ex]cise s mu* fai? 9 ,god our ,heav5ly ,fa!r z d ! ,latt]-day ,sa9ts4 ,no o!r p seek = ,8 protect+ c>e z !y d4 ,nor are !re any p to :om ,8 protection is (t5] ext5d$ or made manife/ m visibly ?an unto ?is p4 ,especially has ?is be5 ! case ) hundr$s ( our ,eld]s1 :5 travel+ & prea*+ ! gospel4 ,a few ( ^! in/ances ( div9e protection 9 my own exp]i5ce ,i wi% to relate4 ,:ile on my way to ,nauvoo1 ,ill9ois1 9 ! mon? ( ,june1 #ahde1 go+ d[n ! ,ohio ,riv]1 ! /eam] ,i 0 abo>d ( ran agr\nd on ! ,fl9t ,isl& ,b>1 j above ,evansville1 ,indiana4 ,i rema9$ on ! boat = ?irty-six h\rs2 :51 ! wat] 9 ! riv] be+ v l[1 & gett+ l[] e day1 &1 see+ no prospect ( our gett+ pa/ ?is b>1 ,i conclud$ to g a%ore & "w a few days1 z ,i und]/ood labor]s 7 9 dem& 9 ,evansville4 ,! capta9 ( ! /eam] agr\nd1 accord+ly1 refund$ me a j proportion ( ! passage money ,i _h paid him4 ,i procur$ "w = "o week1 at ! end ( :i* "t ! riv] began to rise4 ,be+ v anxi\s to pursue my j\rney1 ,i w5t abo>d ! fir/ boat t l&$ at ,evansville1 :i* ,i le>n$ 0 go+ z f> up ! ,mississippi ,riv] z ,gal5a4 ,i made arrangem5ts ) ! cl]k = passage to ,nauvoo1 b did n pay him at ! "t1 z he said ! boat w\ld n leave = two h\rs4 ,i 0 nev] m desir\s ( pursu+ my j\rney ?an ,i 0 on ?is occasion1 yet soon aft] go+ abo>d a feel+ ( av]sion to go+ on t /eam] took possession ( me4 ,in/ead ( a s5sation ( joy1 an undef9able dread1 or =ebod+ ( com+ evil 0 ex]cis+ an influ5ce ov] me1 t increas$ 9 its p[] e mom5t1 until ,i c\ld resi/ no long]1 &1 snat*+ up my trunk1 ,i fl$ ) x to %ore1 j z ! deck h&s /opp$ to haul 9 ! gangway1 & ! boat mov$ (f4 ,i put my trunk d[n on ! bank ( ! riv]1 & sat d[n on x1 too weak to /& on my feet long]4 ,?is 0 a new exp]i5ce to me1 !n4 ,:at did x mean8 ,"o ?+ 0 c]ta91 ,i felt z if ,i _h j escap$ f "s great calamity to a place ( safety4 ,two days aft] ?is ,i took passage on ano!r /eam] = ,/4 ,l\is1 :]e 9 due "t ,i arriv$ 9 safety4 ,z ,i walk$ a%ore ,i met a newsboy cry+ 8 morn+ pap]1 & among ! items ( news x conta9$ ! mo/ prom95t 0 an acc\nt ( ! ill-fat$ /eam] t ,i _h made my escape f at ,evansville1 on ! ,ohio ,riv]4 ,i pur*as$ ! pap]1 & f\nd ! boat _h be5 snagg$ 9 ! ,mississippi ,riv]1 bel[ ,/4 ,l\is1 9 ! night1 & sank1 ) a loss ( ne>ly all t 7 on bo>d4 ,! my/]i\s feel+ t impell$ me to leave t boat 0 cle>$ up to my satisfaction4 ,!re rema9$ n ! %ad[ ( a d\bt t ,provid5ce _h int]pos$ betwe5 me & ! great dang]4 ,! ?anks1 gratitude1 & joy t fill$ my :ole be+ on ?is occasion1 ,i w n try to describe4 ,on ano!r occasion1 :5 on a mission 9 ! ,/ate ( ,cali=nia1 9 ! ye> #aheg1 x became necess>y = me to make a visit f ! nor? end to ! s\? end ( ,san ,francisco ,bay4 ,!re 7 two ways op5 to me to make ?is trip4 ,"o 0 to take ! /eam] & g by wat] f ,petaluma to ,san ,jose1 ! place ,i wi%$ to visit4 ,! o!r 0 by l&1 on horseback1 ar\nd ! ea/ side ( ! bay1 by way ( ,vallejo & ,b5icia4 ,i _h /ay$ ov] ,monday night at ! h\se ( a ,mr4 ,h--1 :o 0 prep>+ to move s\? ) 8 family1 & :o prevail$ on me to accompany him ar\nd by l&4 ,he (f]$ to fe$ bo? myself & horse z f> s\? z ,i desir$ to g1 ?us reliev+ me ( any exp5se4 ,mr4 ,h---- _h tak5 great pa9s to tell me ( a ,mr4 ,o----1 :o 0 v favorably incl9$ to our p & doctr9es4 ,he ?\ght t ,i ought1 by all means1 to visit him1 & t ,i c\ld d s on ! com+ ,friday ev5+1 & jo9 him 7,mr4 ,h--7 on ,saturday morn+ at ,vallejo1 on ! propos$ trip4 ,?is all appe>$ "r en\gh to me1 z ,mr4 ,o---- liv$ ne>ly 9 a direct l9e f ,petaluma 7! place ,i w\ld />t f on ,friday7 & ,vallejo4 ,mr4 ,o---- _h (t5 invit$ me to make him a visit1 & ,i !re=e promis$ ,mr4 ,h---- t ,i w\ld accept ( 8 k9d (f]1 & meet him at ,vallejo z propos$4 ,on ! ,friday foll[+1 ,i took d9n] at ,a4 ,j4 ,mayfield's1 ne> ,petaluma4 ,soon aft]w>ds ,i caught & saddl$ my horse1 :5 ,i began to feel oppos$ to go+ to ,mr4 ,o----'s4 ,i rem>k$ to ,mr4 ,mayfield t ,i 0 tempt$ to give up my visit1 at :i* he & wife 7:o 7 bo? great fri5ds ( ours7 began to insi/ t ,i mu/ n fail to visit ,mr4 ,o---- & family1 z !y 7 v anxi\s = me to d s4 ,8 acqua9tance & fri5d%ip1 !y said1 w\ld be a great advantage to me1 z he 0 a man ( weal? & great influ5ce4 ,hav+ no?+ to (f] z an excuse = n go+1 ,i m\nt$ my horse & rode away4 ,! di/ance 0 ab\t f\r miles2 &1 z ,i proce$$1 ! same my/]i\s influ5ce 0 br\ght to be> ^u me t _h sav$ my life on ! o!r occasion1 j relat$4 ,?is av]sion grew & increas$ ^u me until ,i came 9 sight ( ,mr4 ,o----'s h\se1 :i* 0 locat$ 9 a beautiful vale1 "s half a mile away4 ,f ?is po9t ,i c\ld proce$ no f>!r1 or1 to say ! lea/1 x seem$ madness to d s4 ,s p[]fully 0 ,i impress$ t "s imp5d+ evil await$ me if ,i w5t f>!r1 t ,i turn$ my horse ab\t & />t$ back on a gallop1 :i* ,i did n break until ,i arriv$ at ,mr4 ,mayfield's aga91 feel+ all ! "t z if ,i 0 flee+ f "s great calamity4 ,! explanation ,i gave ?is family did n seem to satisfy !m4 ,i c\ld see !y ?\ght me a little incl9$ to lunacy4 ,h[ev]1 next morn+ all 0 made pla9 en\gh4 ,hav+ giv5 up my trip ar\nd ! bay1 ,i w5t1 9 company ) ,mr4 ,mayfield1 to ,petaluma1 to take /eam] & make my way by wat]4 ,we _h be5 9 t[n b a few m9utes :5 we met ) ,mr4 ,o--1 :o _h come 9 to get out a w>rant & an (fic] to arre/ ,mr4 ,h--1 :om ,i 0 to h met t same morn+ at ,vallejo4 ,mr4 ,o---- _h be5 robb$ ! night be=e ( eight ?\s& doll>s 9 gold1 & he *>g$ ,h---- ) be+ ! guilty p>ty1 :i* aft]w>ds 0 prov$ to be true4 ,if ,i _h n be5 prev5t$ by a k9d ,provid5ce1 ,i w\ld d\btless h be5 arre/$ at ,b5icia ) him1 z an accomplice4 ,! read] c easily p]ceive ! dilemma ?is w\ld h plac$ me 94 ,& no d\bt ,mr4 ,h---- & 8 family w\ld h done all 9 _! p[] to fa/5 ! guilt ^u me1 9 ord] to save !mselves4 ,z soon z ,mr4 ,mayfield & ,i 7 alone1 he exclaim$1 ,o1 ,i "k n[ :y y c\ld n visit ,mr4 ,o---- la/ ev5+4 ,t family no long] reg>d$ me z be+ sup]/iti\s4 ,z 9 ! o!r case1 ,i consid]$ ?is a wond]ful escape f a t]rible sn>e1 & 0 full ( gratitude1 giv+ ?anks to ,almighty ,god = ! same4 ,s9ce !n ,i h giv5 m he$ to ! /ill small voice ( ! ,_s1 &1 consequ5tly1 h escap$ _m sn>es & evils t ,i might o!rwise h fall5 into4 ,_m o!r incid5ts ,i might relate ( a simil> nature4 ,& !re are ?\s&s ( our p t c\ld te/ify to a great _m m>vel\s deliv]ances1 _m ( !m m wond]ful ?an ^? ,i h giv5 9 ?is sket*4 ,!re=e1 ,i advise ! y\? ( ,zion to seek always = ! guidance ( ! ,holy ,_s1 & = our ,heav5ly ,fa!r's k9d & protect+ c>e to be ext5d$ ov] !m4 ,,rob]t ,,hamilton4 ,by ,h4 ,g4 ,b4 ,,*all5g$ ,,to ,,debate ,,by ,,dr4 ,,wal?oll--,,8 ,,discomfiture ,,& ,,defeat--,,dr4 ,,scott ,,attempts ,,to ,,retrieve ,,! ,,campbellite ,,cause1 ,,& ,,(f]s ,,ano!r ,,*all5ge--,,resorts ,,to ,,! ,,:isky ,,bottle--,,eld] ,,hamilton ,,scores ,,him ,,= ,,x4 ,*>les & ,rob]t ,hamilton 7 bro!rs1 born & rais$ 9 ,glasg[1 ,scotl&1 :]e1 also1 !y bo? obey$ ! gospel at an e>ly p]iod ( ! ,*ur*'s hi/ory4 ,i nev] _h ! pleasure ( an acqua9tance ) ,*>les1 b always und]/ood t he 0 "o ( ! mo/ able & fai?ful m5 9 ! ,*ur* 9 ^? e>ly times4 ,bo? ( ^! bre?r5 di$ previ\s to our exodus f ,nauvoo4 ,n[1 x is ( "s ( ! incid5ts t transpir$ :ile ,eld] ,rob]t ,hamilton & ,i travel$ toge!r z mission>ies 9 ! ,/ate ( ,virg9ia1 9 ! ye>s #ahdd & #ahde1 t ,i wi% to write4 ,:ile prea*+ at ,newca/le1 ! pres5t ,c\nty seat ( ,craig ,co41 ,virg9ia1 we 7 *all5g$ by ! ,rev4 ,dr4 ,wal?oll1 ( ! ,campbellite *ur*1 to meet him 9 discussion4 ,we accept$ ! *all5ge4 ,! l>ge *ur* 9 ,newca/le belong+ to ! ,campbellites1 0 (f]$ = ! purpose ( hold+ ! debate 94 ,! subjects & t]ms 7 agre$ ^u1 ! mod]ators *os51 & ! "t to comm5ce & cont9ue ! discussion to1 0 arrang$1 all ( :i* ! public 0 duly notifi$ (4 ,dur+ ! "t ! debate la/$ ! l>ge *ur* 0 fill$ to ov]fl[+1 good ord] prevail$1 & ! /ricte/ att5tion 0 giv54 ,eld] ,hamilton 0 ! speak] on our side4 ,he 0 a flu5t & p[]ful talk]1 enjoy+ mu* ( ! ,_s ( ! ,"l1 & z ! great tru?s ( ! gospel fl[$ f 8 lips ! audi5ce seem$ utt]ly entranc$ & c>ri$ away ) ! newness1 pla9ness & =ce ( 8 argum5ts1 = he taught !m z "o hav+ au?ority1 & n z ! scribes4 ,! great ,campbellite *ampion1 ! ,rev4 ,wal?oll1 :o 0 bo? prea*] & lawy] by pr(ession1 0 s utt]ly ov]:elm$ & fill$ ) confusion & t]ror f ! fir/1 t he nev] recov]$ f ! %ock dur+ ! "t ! debate la/$4 ,s mu* 0 ?is ! case ) him t he c\ld only occupy a small portion ( ! "t allott$ to him1 &1 on ! second day1 at 8 own reque/1 ! discussion 0 br\ght to a close1 al?\gh by 8 own proposition at fir/1 x 0 to h la/$ ?ree days4 ,! reason he assign$ = ?is 01 t he 0 entirely unprep>$ to meet ,eld] ,hamilton's argum5ts & evid5ce on ! subjects "u discussion1 :i* 7 ! au!nticity ( ! ,book ( ,mormon1 ! organization ( ! ,*ur*1 ) apo/les1 prophets1 etc41 & ! gifts1 bless+s & p[] ( ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,n "o ( ! hundr$s t att5d$ t discussion ev] pret5d$ t ! ,campbellites did n meet ) a great & decisive defeat on t occasion4 ,! news ( _! disa/] spread rapidly & widely ?r\gh\t ! l&1 & came to ! e>s ( ano!r ( _! great div9es1 by ! "n ( ,dr4 ,scott 7doctor ( div9ity1 n ( m$ic9e74 ,?is man flatt]$ himself t he 0 able to retrieve 8 cause f ! t]rible defeat t x _h suff]$ at ! h&s ( ,eld] ,hamilton1 at ,newca/le4 ,he1 !re=e1 *all5g$ ,bro!r ,hamilton to debate ) him ^u ! same subjects1 & ) ! same t]ms z at fir/1 b 9 ano!r *ur* & at ano!r place4 ,?is *all5ge 0 also accept$ by ,bro!r ,hamilton1 & ! discussion 0 held1 b x prov$ m disa/r\s to ! ,campbellite cause ?an ! fir/ _h done4 ,dr4 ,scott fail$ s completely on e po9t1 & s disgrac$ himself z well z ! cause1 t he nev] aft]w>d attempt$ to prea*4 ,:ile ! p[]1 gifts & bless+s ( ! ,holy ,gho/ 7 be+ discuss$1 ,eld] ,hamilton cont5d+ = its inspiration1 its gifts & bless+s z =m]ly enjoy$ by ! ,sa9ts1 & ! doctor argu+ aga9/ ^! gifts1 & d5y+ su* inspiration 9 any mann] or =m1 ,i occupi$ a seat 9 ! /&4 ,:ile wat*+ & li/5+ to ! proce$+s1 ,i caught ! doctor imbib+ freely f a bottle ( :isky1 :i* he replac$ 9 8 saddle-bags :5 ! op]ation ( dr9k+ 0 ov]4 ,i _h detect$ ! smell ( :isky ! day previ\s1 :ile seat$ ne> ! doctor1 b nev] suspect$ x 0 f 8 brea?4 ,i c\ld nev] h ?\ght a prea*] guilty ( s flagrant an outrage4 ,b s x 02 ,i _h caught him 9 ! v act1 & s in=m$ ,eld] ,hamilton4 ,su* a sca?+ z t prea*] receiv$ f ,bro!r ,hamilton ,i nev] witness$4 ,said he3 ,he d5ies ! inspiration & p[] ( ! ,holy ,gho/2 b !re is an inspiration t he does believe 91 & t is ! _s ( ! :isky bottle1 :i* he n[ c>ries 9 8 saddle-bags1 & f :i* he has (t5 s\ght & obta9$ 8 k9d ( inspiration s9ce ! beg9n+ ( ?is discussion4 ,?is exposure & 8 muddl$ condition r5d]$ ,dr4 ,scott unfit to cont9ue ! debate long]4 ,prior to ?is "t he _h be5 consid]$ a respectable1 pi\s & able prea*]4 ,h[ev]1 t defeat & consequ5t exposure de/roy$ 8 influ5ce f t "t =w>d4 ,z a rule1 public discussions d n result 9 mu* good1 b ^! 7 exceptions1 & 9 & ar\nd ?is place we soon _h ! names ( =ty p]sons :o 7 applicants = baptism4 ,i h travel$ & labor$ 9 company ) _m ( our mo/ wor?y ,eld]s1 b nev] ) "o m fai?ful1 contrite 9 _s & *ild-l1 & yet m det]m9$1 valiant & undeviat+ 9 def5se ( ! tru?1 & 9 e duty devolv+ ^u him1 ?an 0 ,eld] ,rob]t ,hamilton2 & ,i h writt5 ?is little sket* z a feeble tribute to 8 memory & 8 /]l+ wor?4 ,dur+ ! eight or t5 mon?s we travel$ toge!r1 our union & love = ea* o!r resembl$ v mu* t :i* exi/$ betwe5 ,david & ,jona?an4 ,,h[ ,,success ,,is ,,ga9$4 ,by ,h4 ,g4 ,b4 ,,eld]s ,,to ,,g ,,out ,,two ,,& ,,two--,,"y ,,mission>ies ,,incl9$ ,,to ,,%irk--,,eld] ,,moses ,,?at*]--,,8 ,,diffid5ce--,,! ,,way ,,he ,,0 ,,brok5 ,,9--,,8 ,,success--,,eld] ,m',,ali/]--,,8 ,,backw>dness ,,9 ,,speak+--,,=c$ ,,into ,,x--,,8 ,,te/imony--,,eld] ,,coray',s ,,exp]i5ce--,,promises ,,( ,,! ,,"l ,,prov$ ,,true4 ,we are in=m$ 9 ! book ( ,doctr9e & ,cov5ants1 sec4 #db1 v]se #f1 t ! ,eld]s are to travel two & two1 & 9 sec4 #hd1 v]se #ajf 7late/ edition7 t ! /rong 9 _s are to take ) !m ! weak4 ,t is1 z ,i und]/& x1 ^? t are exp]i5c$ are to take ) !m ! inexp]i5c$4 ,?us has x always transpir$ 9 my mission>y labors4 ,! fir/ mission ,i ev] 0 call$ ^u to p]=m 0 to ! ,/ate ( ,virg9ia1 9 #ahdd4 ,dur+ t mission ,i travel$ successively ) ,eld]s ,seb]t ,c4 ,%elton1 ,*apman ,duncan & ,rob]t ,hamilton4 ,^! ,eld]s _h m exp]i5ce ?an ,i _h1 consequ5tly1 x 0 v natural = me to dep5d ^u !m to d ! prea*+1 all[+ ! burd5 ( our labors to re/ ^u _! %\ld]s4 ,b if !y _h humor$ me1 & all[$ me to %irk my legitimate %>e ( ! "w1 ,i am satisfi$ t ,i w\ld h fail$ to succe$ on t mission4 ,!y1 h[ev]1 took great pa9s to see t ,i %\ld n neglect my %>e 9 all ! labors4 ,!y put me =w>d1 & n unfrequ5tly manag$ to leave me to fill appo9tm5ts alone1 & sometimes to travel alone = a week or two at a "t4 ,?is left me to dep5d ^u ,god & ,8 ,_s entirely1 & ,i c truly te/ify t ?is c\rse 0 v valuable to me4 ,i 0 (t5 v mu* surpris$ & enc\rag$ at ! assi/ance af=d$ me ?r\gh ! ,_s on ^! occasions4 ,s9ce t fir/ mission ,i h be5 s5t on _m o!rs1 & h travel$ ) sev5te5 o!r ,eld]s at diff]5t times1 mo/ ( :om 7 )\t exp]i5ce4 ,among ^! 7 sev]al m or less l ,i _h be5--backw>d1 & incl9$ to %irk ! responsibility ( prea*+4 ,i h _h to resort to "s pretty %>p managem5t 9 break+ !m 94 ,a few ( ^! in/ances ,i w relate4 ,:5 ,eld] ,moses ,?at*] 0 only betwe5 fifte5 & sixte5 ye>s ( age1 he travel$ ) me z a mission>y 9 ,cali=nia4 ,he 0 naturally incl9$ to mode/y & diffid5ce1 & said to me "o day t he w\ld black our boots1 curry & saddle our horses1 & d all t 0 to be done except ! prea*+1 if ,i w\ld d t "p ( ! "w & excuse him4 ,naturally ,i ent]ta9$ a great am\nt ( sympa?y = him1 on acc\nt ( 8 extreme y\?1 also because ,i rememb]$ my own %ortcom+s :5 out on my fir/ mission1 dur+ :i* "t no?+ ev] s fright5$ me z ! ?\ghts ( be+ call$ ^u to arise & try to prea*4 ,i !re=e favor$ him until ,i ?\ght x unwise & an injury to him to indulge him f>!r4 ,hav+ be5 invit$ to visit & prea* 9 a new locality1 ,i ask$ ,eld] ,t4 to take "s tracts & visit ! place1 & see ! tru/ees ( ! s*ool h\se4 ,if ! lib]ty to prea* 9 ! h\se 0 grant$1 !n he 0 to proce$ to notify ! neighborhood ( ! meet+1 di/ribut+ ! pamphlets z he w5t4 ,i also told him if any?+ happ5$ to prev5t my be+ !re he 0 to fill ! appo9tm5t4 ,at ?is he trembl$1 & ) a face :ite ) fe> he begg$ me n to fail to be !re1 until ,i ne>ly rep5t$ ( my int5tion4 ,he succe$$ 9 obta9+ ! use ( ! h\se1 & 9 notify+ ! p he came ^u a quilt+ p>ty ( wom5 & girls1 :o readily promis$ to be at ! meet+1 provid$ he 7,eld] ,t47 w\ld prea*4 ,he repli$ t 8 colleague w\ld mo/ likely d ! prea*+4 ,b x turn$ out o!rwise1 & ,eld] ,t4 0 left to 8 fate2 b he fill$ 8 appo9tm5t l a man4 ,judg+ f ! report t spread f t meet+1 ,eld] ,t4 prea*$ z good a disc\rse !n z at any "t s9ce1 & probably ) great] satisfaction to himself4 ,f t "t =w>d he nev] fail$ to d 8 "p 9 our labors1 & ,i h no d\bt t he looks back ^u t a*ievem5t z "o ( ! greate/ ( a v ev5tful & useful life4 ,eld] ,j4 ,d4 ,h4 ,mc,allister travel$ ) me 9 ,arkansas1 & = ! fir/ two mon?s ( our labors1 :5 call$ ^u to talk1 w\ld n occupy above five m9utes1 & (t5 n half t "t4 ,x w\ld !n occur to him t ! audi5ce w\ld r he> "s "o else ?an him1 aft] :i* he w\ld n possess c\rage to try to talk long]1 & w\ld take 8 seat4 ,he w\ld (t5 say t he c\ld n acc\nt = 8 be+ call$ on a mission4 ,:at c ,i d8 ,i d n ev5 "k t ?is latt]-day "w is true4 ,my fa!r has (t5 borne te/imony t he knew ?is "w to be true4 ,he is a good man & ,i believe 8 te/imony2 b ,i d n "k x to be true = myself4 ,h[ev]1 an opportunity occurr$ t dispell$ all ^! d\bts1 & plant$ 9 ! place !re(1 facts & c]ta9ties4 ,i _h tak5 a sev]e cold1 & 0 s ho>se t ,i c\ld n talk4 ,a meet+ 0 to be held1 & at t meet+ "s "o w\ld h to prea*4 ,! only alt]native 0 = him to att5d & d ! prea*+4 ,to d ?is he _h to travel five or six miles across ! sla%es1 face a l>ge congregation compos$ almo/ entirely ( /rang]s1 & d all ! prea*+1 & t1 too1 alone4 ,i nev]1 :ile 9 t c\ntry1 he>d ! la/ ( ! praises heap$ ^u him by ! p = ! be/ s]mon !y _h ev] li/5$ to4 ,he _h no difficulty 9 te/ify+ to ! div9ity ( ! great latt]-day "w4 ,! ,holy ,_s re/$ ^u him1 & he c\ld n keep back ?is te/imony1 :i* 0 z new to him z x 0 to ^? t he>d him4 ,t day's "w is no d\bt rememb]$ by him ) ! greate/ pleasure ( any ev5t ( 8 life1 & w prove z pr(itable z any 9 8 future c>e]4 ,eld] ,h4 ,k4 ,coray 0 ! mo/ ba%ful ( all ! "y ,eld]s ,i ev] travel$ )1 & x 0 m ?an a ye> be=e he ov]came ?is fault4 ,i _h almo/ despair$ ( 8 ev] mak+ a success z a mission>y4 ,b ,i am pr\d to say he did f9ally succe$1 & dur+ ! la/ ye> ( our labors toge!r1 ?r\gh ! bless+s ( ! ,holy ,_s1 he became an able speak]1 & our he>]s li/5$ to him 9 rapt att5tion4 ,he has (t5 said t ! exp]i5ce he ga9$ dur+ t mission 0 wor? m to him ?an all ! weal? ( ! _w4 ,i c\ld ref] to ! exp]i5ces ( _m o!r ,eld]s :o h travel$ ) me1 :i* 71 9 _m in/ances1 simil> to ^? t ,i h relat$4 ,"s ( !m h be5 s f> disc\rag$ t !y w\ld weep l a *ild2 o!rs w\ld beg ( me to release !m & let !m return home1 :o at bright] mom5ts w\ld *>ge me n to p]mit su* a ?+1 z !y did n wi% to disgrace !mselves or _! p>5ts4 ,i c ?9k ( no?+ t w\ld s blight a "y ,eld]'s future usefulness & de/9y z a failure to make a success ( 8 mission1 or any "w t ! prie/hood may h set him ap>t to d4 ,& ,i feel x my duty 9 ?is connection to be> my te/imony to ! tru? conta9$ 9 ! book ( ,doctr9e & ,cov5ants1 t has nev] fail$ to be v]ifi$ 9 my exp]i5ce1 & 9 t ( all o!r ,eld]s ^: labors h come )9 my obs]vation4 ,^! promises are z foll[s3 ,any man t %all g & prea* ?is gospel ( ! k+dom1 & fail n to cont9ue fai?ful 9 all ?+s %all n be we>y 9 m9d1 nei!r d>k5$1 nei!r 9 body1 limb1 nor jo9t3 & an hair ( 8 head %all n fall to ! gr\nd unnotic$4 ,& !y %all n g hungry1 nei!r a?ir/4 7sec4 #hd1 v]se #hj74 ,nei!r take ye ?\ght be=eh& :at ye %all say1 b treasure up 9 y\r m9ds cont9ually ! words ( life1 & x %all be giv5 y 9 ! v h\r t portion t %all be met$ unto e man4 7v]se #he74 ,i h writt5 ! above incid5ts ( mission>y life & made ^! quotations 9 connection ) !m = ! enc\ragem5t ( "y ,eld]s n[ on missions1 & ! ?\s&s ( boys & "y m5 t may1 & w yet h to take missions to ! _m nations ( ! e>?4 ,,help ,,9 ,,"t ,,( ,,ne$4 ,by ,c4 ,,*apt] ,i4 ,,/>t ,,^u ,a ,,mission1 ,,p5niless--,,aid ,,f ,,! ,,capta9 ,,& ,,pass5g]s ,,on ,,! ,,/eamboat--,,arrive ,,at ,,new ,,orleans--,,fail ,,9 ,,try+ ,,to ,,f9d ,,free ,,passage ,,to ,,engl&--,,disc\ragem5t--,,pray]--,,rebu ke ,,& ,,answ]--,,apply ,,= ,,passage ,,on ,,! ,,b]l9--,,k9d ,,reception ,,f ,,capta9 ,,bak]--,,b>ga9 ,,= ,,passage--,,"o ,,half ,,to ,,be ,,paid ,,9 ,,discuss+ ,,religion ,,) ,,an ,,episcopalian ,,m9i/]4 ,9 ! ye> #ahdf1 at a c\ncil ( ! ,twelve ,apo/les held 9 ! temple at ,nauvoo1 ,i 0 appo9t$ to g on a mission to ,engl&4 ,aft] see+ my wife & our "o *ild provid$ =1 z to travel & bo>d 9 ! great exodus !n be+ inaugurat$ = ! unkn[n some:]e = ! ,sa9ts to seek1 ,i left ,nauvoo1 poor & p5niless1 = ,/4 ,l\is1 ,miss\ri4 ,aft] procur+ "s pecuni>y help1 ,i took passage = ,new ,orleans on bo>d ! /eam] ,brunswick1 ,capta9 ,moore comm&+4 ,f "s ( ! pass5g]s ,i receiv$ sub/antial evid5ces ( answ] to pray] = means to prosecute my j\rney4 ,9 my labors 9 prea*+ ! ^w ,i 0 wond]fully bless$1 ! capta9 k9dly remitt+ "o-half ( ! cab9 passage money4 ,arriv+ at ,new ,orleans a /rang]1 & kn[+ no ,sa9ts if !re 7 any 9 t city1 ,i secur$ lodg+s & bo>d at #a4jj p] day4 ,x n[ became a new & peculi> duty & /ra9 on my fai? & pocket to seek a passage 9 "s sail+ vessel1 b\nd = ,liv]pool4 ,i _h "s #de4jj 9 my pocket1 ! gifts ( de> fri5ds 9 ,/4 ,l\is1 on bo>d ! /eam] ,brunswick1 & f "o p]son p>ticul>ly 9 answ] to a masonic %ake ( ! h&1 un9t5tionally giv54 ,i endeavor$ to f9d passage on ! no purse or scrip pr9ciple1 & 0 9 e in/ance unsuccessful4 ,i attribut$ ^! repulses to meanness or ! non-appreciation ( ! "* ( a mission>y1 su* z ,i proclaim$ myself1 & to ! national "* ( ! capta9s ( ! sev]al vessels to :om ,i appli$1 =1 be+ ,engli% myself1 to ?is class ,i _h purposely made my applications4 ,meet+ ) sev]al rebuffs1 ,i 0 fa/ drift+ on ! road to disc\ragem5t4 ,on ! ,?ursday succe$+ my arrival ,i /ood on ! levee1 & 9 f]v5t pray] ,i ask$ ,god to op5 ! way = me to fill ?is mission--to s(t5 ! he>t ( ! next capta9 ,i appli$ to1 s t he might take me to ,liv]pool1 free4 ,i reque/$ ?is z an evid5ce to me ( ,god's favor2 & if refus$1 ,i w\ld take x z an evid5ce t ,i %\ld return1 ov]take ! ,sa9ts go+ we/1 &1 ) my family1 f9d a new home4 ,:ile ?us m$itat+ & pray+1 x seem$ z if "s "o came up to me & ask$ me h[ mu* money ,i _h4 ,i in/9ctively repli$1 ,ab\t #dj4jj4 ,!n came ! qu]y3 ,:at did ,i want ) t b to pay my way8 ,:y ask = a ,div9e int]position on ! he>t or purse ( any "o :ile ,i _h money 9 my pocket8 ,i felt ! rebuke1 yet ,i ?\ght ( my %abby clo!s1 my go+ home to see a pr\d-feel+ "m1 my desire by my p]sonal appe>ance to ca/ no discr$it on ! cause ,i _h esp\s$4 ,^! & _m simil> reflections pass$ hurri$ly ?r\gh my m9d4 ,my invisible monitor did n leave me1 b1 wak+ me f ! rev]ie1 he aga9 pli$ me ) simil> int]rogations & rebukes1 & told me to apply to ! %ip !n 9 direct sight4 ,i look$ up & saw ! words3 ,= ,liv]pool4 ,i walk$ d[n to ! pile ( cotton f :i* ! mate & "s /ev$ores 7 load+ ! good %ip ,b]l94 ,i ask$ ! mate :at 0 ! *ance to obta9 passage on bo>d 8 %ip = ,liv]pool4 ,9 ! mo/ *]ry voice he repli$3 ,fir/ rate6 ,b "h comes ,capta9 ,bak]2 talk ) him4 ,i approa*$ him4 ,he (f]$ 8 h&4 ,i told him my bus9ess1 my wi%es & aims4 ,he invit$ me on bo>d1 &1 x be+ noon1 to d9n]4 ,aft] d9n] he rem>k$3 ,n[ to bus9ess6 ,y say y are a ',mormon' mission>y4 ,y wi% to g to ,engl&6 ,& h[ d y wi% to g8 ,i repli$ t ,i _h b little money1 & w\ld be oblig$ to cont5t myself ) a /e]age passage4 ,to ?is he /r5u\sly object$1 rem>k+ t ,i knew n ! life ( a /e]age pass5g]4 ,he ask$ me h[ mu* money ,i _h1 rem>k+ t 8 cab9 f>e 0 #hj4jj4 ,i put my h& 9 my pocket & drew out my entire /ock ( ca%1 #dj4jj4 ,!re capta91 ,i rem>k$1 is all ,i h1 :i* is j half ! price ( a cab9 passage4 ,he rem>k$1 ,i w take ?is 9 "p paym5t6 ,b1 ,i ask$1 h[ %all ,i1 h[ c ,i pay y ! diff]5ce8 ,he repli$1 ,i h he>d mu* ( ! prea*]s ( ! ',mormon' fai? be+ exp]ts 9 ! scriptures4 ,we %all take on bo>d on ,sunday ev5+ an ,episcopalian m9i/]1 & :5 we get out to sea & all ?+s 9 trim1 ,i %all expect y & ! m9i/] to give me & my wife "s ,bible conte/s4 ,n[1 said ,i to ! capta91 hav+ giv5 y all my money1 h[ c ,i pay my bo>d bill till y sail8 ,:y1 he repli$1 h[ c y bo>d b bo>d ! %ip ,b]l96 ,"h1 7call+ to "o ( ! m57 g ) ?is boy & help him ) any luggage he may h1 & put x 9 ! cab94 ,soon ,i 0 duly in/all$4 ,y may readily imag9e my feel+s ( gratitude to ,god & ! monitor on ! levee4 ,9 due "t we sail$1 aft] receiv+ ! rev]5d g5t1 :o 0 a tall1 portly p]son1 we>+ ! g>b & look ( 8 *ur*4 ,,*apt] ,,ii4 ,,! ,,voyage--,,discussion--,,m9i/]',s ,,discomfiture--,,arrive ,,9 ,,liv]pool--,,k9dness ,,( ,,capta9 ,,bak]--,,le>n ,,( ,,8 ,,dea? ,,& ,,my ,,duty--,,my ,,%abby ,,appe>ance--,,fir/ ,,s]mon--,,money ,,put ,,into ,,my ,,h&--,,visit ,,home--,,unk9dness ,,( ,,relatives--,,m ,,help ,,f ,,/rang]s4 ,:5 fairly out at sea1 & z ev5+ set 91 ! capta9 w\ld ord] lights & reque/ ! m9i/] to br+ out 8 l>ge ,bible1 & y1 little "o1 br+ out y\r little ,bible4 ,nei!r ( u 0 lo?1 & ! !ological set-to w\ld comm5ce4 ,capta9 ,bak] w\ld exclaim ) a he>ty oa?1 t ! little "o _h ! be/ ( x1 & !n ! big "o w\ld get wra?y1 & close 8 book ) a bang & decl>e ! conte/ (f4 ,b ,mrs4 ,bak] w\ld int]pose & s(t5 8 ire1 & aga9 we w\ld return to ! law & ! te/imony4 ,b1 alas6 at "o ( ^! !ological b\ts1 ! !me be+ wat] baptism1 spr9kl+ & circumcision1 ! new bir?1 etc41 ,i 0 s m>vel\sly assi/$ 9 del9eat+ ! new bir?--wat] baptism1 t he clos$ 8 big book ) a clang1 & decl>$ t he w\ld nev] argue ) me any m4 ,! capta91 jump+ up1 swore ) an oa? t ! little "o _h ! be/ ( x1 & ,mrs4 ,bak] smil$ h] approval4 ,i pass ov] ! g5]al features ( ! voyage4 ,arriv+ 9 ! riv] ,m]sey e>ly 9 ! morn+1 & ! tide n s]v+1 ! prospect 0 to rema9 on bo>d till ! tide *ang$4 ,! capta9 hail$ a boat to g on %ore1 & bid me g ) him4 ,at fir/ ,i decl9$1 kn[+ ,i _h no means1 b by p]suasion ,i cons5t$4 ,he ask$ me :]e ,i 0 go+ to1 & if ,i knew any "o4 ,i told him ,/anley ,build+s1 & ,i knew no "o only z my cr$5tials nam$ c]ta9 p]sons1 su* z ,messrs4 ,w>d1 ,h$lock & ,wilson4 ,he accompani$ me to ,/anley ,build+s1 b f9d+ no "o !re1 x be+ too e>ly = (fice h\rs1 he invit$ me to breakfa/4 ,aft] breakfa/1 he took me to ! (fice ( ! ,mill5nial ,/>1 reque/+ me be=e leav+1 to come d[n to ! dock at a c]ta9 h\r1 :i* he nam$1 z ! %ip w\ld !n be 9 h] b]?4 ,at ! appo9t$ "t ,i 0 !re4 ,my little trunk 0 exam9$ & pass$4 ,i 0 9 ! act ( ?r[+ x ov] my %\ld] :5 ! capta9 seiz$ x1 hail$ a cab1 ?rew ! trunk to ! driv]1 & lit]ally pu%$ me inside ! cab4 ,i !n said3 ,capta91 ?is is pu%+ ?+s to an extreme4 ,i h no money1 ,i gave y all ,i _h4 ,i owe y #dj4jj balance ( my passage money4 ,h[ c ,i pay ?is f>e & y8 ,) ?is half sov]eign pay y\r f>e4 ,z to ! balance ( ! passage money1 pay t by prea*+ ! gospel z y "k x1 & z y\r little book 7a small pocket ,bible7 tea*es x4 ,d all ! good y c1 & :5 y pray1 z ,i "k y d1 = ,i h he>d y on bo>d ! %ip1 pray = ,sam ,bak]4 ,god bless y2 & :5 y get ?r\gh & want to g back home1 & ,i am 9 port1 come to me & ,i w take y back free4 ,!n giv+ ! door ( ! cab a slam1 he said3 ,take ?is boy to ,/anley ,build+s6 ,i nev] saw ,capta9 ,bak] aga94 ,i le>n$ t 9 a subsequ5t voyage he 0 lo/ at sea1 9 a t]rific /orm4 ,on ! receipt ( ! news1 z s5sibly z y c he> a p5ny drop into an empty contribution box1 s s5sibly did my monitor ( ! levee tell me ( my duty--to be baptiz$ = ,capta9 ,bak]4 ,baptism = ! dead 0 !n a new pr9ciple 9 ?is age1 & "o b rec5tly reveal$ ?r\gh ! ,prophet ,joseph2 ,i !re=e hail$ ) joy unspeakable ?is1 ano!r direct manife/ation ( ! pres5ce ( ,god ) me1 ! div9e inspiration ( ,joseph ,smi?1 & ! tru? ( ?is "w4 ,my arrival at ,liv]pool 0 9 ! mid/ ( ! dazzl+ sumptu\sness ( ! ,jo9t ,/ock ,company4 ,fea/+s1 dress & ! appo9tm5ts ( well-paid atta*es 7 ! ord] ( ! day4 ,my appe>ance z to dress 0 n becom+4 ,i saw 9 fancy my presid+ (fic]s !re1 myself1 my int5d$ visit home1 p5niless4 ,yet _h n ,god m>vel\sly wr\ght = me8 ,:y %\ld ,i despair8 ,plac>ds ann\nc$ my com+--! fir/ f ! temple at ,nauvoo4 ,sunday f\nd me 9 ! pulpit1 ) a va/ ho/ assembl$4 ,h[ %all ,i1 9 adequate words1 portray ev5 n[ ! gr&eur ( language1 ideas1 ! sublimity ( ! op5+ vision ( m9d1 z ,i dilat$ on ,ye mu/ be born aga98 ,h[ enwrapp$1 h[ enlight5$ ,i 0 by ! ,_s6 ,h[ scripture1 un?\ght (1 unkn[n or unappreciat$ be=e1 m>*$ 9 s+le file be=e my m9d6 ,h[1 aft] ne>ly two h\rs1 ,i sank to my seat exhau/$1 & ?\ght ( my clo!s & my "m's *agr9 if ,i saw h] 9 t plight4 ,aft] ! b5$iction1 ,i desc5d$ to m+le ) ! p4 ,_m /rang]s to ! hall & ! ,sa9ts came troop+ to me1 eag] to press my h&1 leav+ !re9 weighty metallic evid5ces ( _! appreciation ( a ,god-help$ ,mormon mission>y4 ,i n[ _h m money ?an :5 on ! levee at ,new ,orleans4 ,h[ vividly ,i recall1 ev5 n[1 my gratitude1 z on b5d$ knees at my lodg+s ,i ?ank$ ,god = ,8 wond]ful int]positions 9 my behalf1 & :at joy ,i felt z ,i c\nt$ ! metallic evid5ces ( tru/ & answ] to pray]4 ,z soon z ,i c\ld ,i visit$ home1 f :i* ,i _h be5 exil$ = my fai?4 ,!y scann$ me well1 & "o memb] ( ! family1 ref]r+ to our mode ( travel+--)\t purse or scrip1 want$ to "k if ,i _h come home to sponge on !m4 ,i repli$ ,no6 &1 putt+ my h& into my pocket1 drew =? a sov]eign4 ,pu%+ t t[>ds !m1 ,i rem>k$1 ,t w pay my bo>d bill :ile ,i /ay4 ,our ,eld]s d n sponge6 ,i 0 pr\d t ,i _h good clo!s & money4 ,at ! ,sunday d9n] ! same acrimoni\s feel+s 7 aga9 exhibit$4 ,i arose f ! table1 sorr[$ t ye>s ( abs5ce _h n s(t5$ _! he>ts t[>ds me & ! cause de>e/ to my he>t1 rem>k+ t ,?is ev5+ ,i w prea* 9 ! ,!obald ,road room1 at #f-cj4 ,my bro!rs came to he> me1 & "h aga9 ,god op5$ ! sacr$ volume1 %[$ me new beauties1 gave me impassion$ language to exp\nd ! scriptures1 af=d$ me p[] to en*a9 ! audi5ce1 & aga9 to see /rang]s ru% to give me money4 ,my bro!rs laugh$ ! laugh ( unbelief1 :ile /rang]s & ,sa9ts ?ank$ ,god = ! words he>d1 & gave me m money4 ,i hope ?is brief & hurri$ b tru?ful n>rative may inspire "s "y ,sa9t1 mission>y or o!rwise1 to be hone/ & tru/ 9 ,god :5 out )\t purse or scrip4 ,,ov]com+ ,,diffid5ce4 ,by ,g4 ,q4 ,c4 ,,diff]5ce ,,9 ,,p]sons ,,ab\t ,,speak+ ,,9 ,,public--,,! ,,"l ,,will+ ,,to ,,help ,,8 ,,s]vants ,,to ,,ov]come ,,timidity--,,e>ly ,,exp]i5ce ,,9 ,,prea*+--,a ,,feel+ ,,( ,,fe> ,,& ,,! ,,_s ,,( ,,god ,,n ,,cong5ial--,,timidity ,,conqu]$4 ,x is mo/ int]e/+ to li/5 at meet+s to ! diff]5t te/imonies :i* ! ,latt]-day ,sa9ts be> conc]n+ ! "w ( ,god4 ,! exp]i5ce ( no two p]sons is exactly ! same1 & yet all are true4 ,"o is impress$ ) an evid5ce ( ! tru? 9 "o way & ano!r 9 ano!r way4 ,s also x is ) ! exp]i5ce ( ! ,eld]s2 ! exp]i5ce ( ea* v>ies accord+ to ! con/itution & temp]am5t1 ! b5t ( m9d & ! circum/ances :i* surr\nd ea* "o4 ,we h met ) a few m5 9 our life :o nev] seem$ to "k :at x 0 to be timid 9 /&+ up be=e an audi5ce4 ,!y always seem$ to be p]fectly self-possess$1 & did n suff] 9 ! lea/ f fe>2 :ile we h kn[n o!rs :o felt t x 0 impossible = !m to /& on _! feet & address an audi5ce4 ,"s ,eld]s 9 />t+ out1 quickly conqu] _! feel+s ( timidity4 ,!y soon get into ! habit ( ?9k+ & talk+ ^u _! feet4 ,!y seem to c>e no?+ ab\t ! congregation1 :ile o!rs require a long "t to get accu/om$ to speak+ to audi5ces1 & are easily emb>rass$4 ,we firmly believe t ! ,"l w help e man to ov]come ?is timidity :5 s5t ^u a mission to prea* ! gospel4 ,if he does n conqu] ! feel+ ( fe>1 x is because he all[s x to ma/] him1 & does n use t fai? :i* he %\ld to %ake x (f4 ,! writ] />t$ out z a mission>y :5 he felt t he 0 b a comp>ative y\?4 ,he 0 exce$+ly timid1 & _h a mortal dread ( /&+ up be=e a congregation4 ,he sometimes ?\ght t no "o c\ld h suff]$ f ?is feel+ z he did4 ,b !re 0 "o ?+ t he made up 8 m9d to d--to nev] %r9k f ! dis*>ge ( 8 duty4 ,if he %\ld be call$ ^u to pray1 to be> te/imony or to speak1 he 0 resolv$ t he w\ld d 8 be/1 & put 8 tru/ 9 ! ,"l to help him out4 ,) ! exception ( a few meet+s1 8 fir/ exp]i5ce z a mission>y 0 9 prea*+ 9 a /range language to a =eign p4 ,?is 0 d\btless m emb>rass+ ?an x w\ld h be5 to speak to ! p 9 8 "m tongue1 because !re 0 8 awkw>dness 9 ! use ( ! language 9 addition to ! ord9>y feel+s ( timidity to cont5d )4 ,he well rememb]s ! feel+s t he _h prior to ! fir/ meet+4 ,if he c\ld h run away1 & done s honorably1 he w\ld h done x1 b ?is w\ld h be5 disgraceful4 ,he did ! be/ he c\ld1 & suff]$ consid]ably f emb>rassm5t2 & ?\gh he baptiz$ "s n9ete5 s\ls 9 ! ensu+ five weeks1 yet he suff]$ at ea* meet+ f ! same feel+s ( dread4 ,some?+ occurr$ on ! six? ,sunday to ar\se him & make him some:at angry4 ,! conduct ( "s prea*]s & oppon5ts ( ! gospel 0 v hateful1 & 9 att5d+ meet+ t day he enjoy$ great] lib]ty ?an he _h at any "t previ\sly4 ,a fe>less _s took possession ( him1 & ! ,_s 0 able to speak ?r\gh him z x _h n done be=e4 ,! feel+ ( fe> :5 x re/s ^u a man1 drives away ! ,_s ( ,god4 ,! two spirits _c exi/ 9 ! same bosom4 ,"o mu/ h ! ma/]y4 ,if ! ,_s ( ,god has ! ma/]y1 x drives away all fe>1 & enables a man to speak "u its influ5ce ) p[]4 ,if ! _s ( fe> has ! ma/]y1 ! ,_s ( ,god is *eck$1 & ! man is n able to tell ! p ! w & c\nsel ( ! ,"l4 ,aft] six weeks' prea*+ 9 ?is locality1 ! writ] visit$ ano!r place1 :]e ! p 7 v anxi\s to he>4 ,he succe$$ 9 gett+ a l>ge meet+-h\se to prea* 91 & :5 he arose to give out ! hymns & to pray1 ! s\nd ( 8 own voice 9 ! build+ fright5$ him4 ,! congregation 0 a l>g] "o ?an he _h ev] address$ be=e2 b he pray$ e>ne/ly to ! ,"l = help4 ,he knew t no p[] b ,god's c\ld assi/ him & enable him to decl>e ! tru?4 ,aft] read+ a portion ( ! scriptures1 he comm5c$ speak+1 & cont9u$ to address ! p = upw>ds ( an h\r4 ,he 0 completely c>ri$ away by ! ,_s1 & fe> 0 bani%$4 ,te>s c\rs$ d[n ! *eeks ( ! congregation1 & _m felt ! p[] ( ,god to s great an ext5t t !y came =w>d & (f]$ !mselves = baptism4 ,a great "w 0 done 9 t place & ! vic9ity1 & f t "t to ! pres5t--ab\t ?irty ye>s--! writ] has nev] suff]$ f fe> z he did previ\s to t day4 ,x is true t _m m5 nev] c arise be=e a congregation )\t feel+ "s degree ( emb>rassm5t & trepidation4 ,! writ] is "o ( ^!2 b t fe> :i* p>alyzes ! m9d1 t impairs ! memory & produces a feel+ ( dread & utt] =getfulness ( ev]y?+ t "o kn[s1 he has nev] exp]i5c$ f t "t4 ,we relate ?is in/ance 9 our exp]i5ce to %[ h[ diff]5tly ,eld]s are affect$4 ,"s c speak )\t any difficulty or fe> aft] ! fir/ "t !y get on _! feet4 ,x takes o!rs1 z 9 our own case1 a long] "t to ov]come ?is feel+1 probably aris+ f ! fact t "s h by nature m ( t man-fe>+ _s4 ,o!rs1 aga91 may require a /ill long] "t2 b :at we wi% to impress ^u our "y read]s1 & ^u all :o read ^! pages1 is t !y %\ld n be disc\rag$ because ! fir/ "t !y get on _! feet1 or ! second or ?ird1 !y d n speak ) t fre$om !y desire4 ,:5 ! ,_s ( ,god takes possession ( a man1 & he w yield to its influ5ce1 x w take away all fe>1 & enable him to tell ! tru? 9 great pla9ness2 & if he w p]sev]e1 no?+ d\bt+1 we d>e promise e ,eld] t he w be able to ov]come 8 feel+s ( fe> & emb>rassm5t1 & be fill$ ) holy boldness to decl>e ! gospel unto ! p 9 ^: mid/ he is appo9t$ to labor4 ,,! ,,"l ,,w ,,provide4 ,by ,c4 ,h4 ,b4 ,a ,,"m ,,& ,,*ildr5 ,,9 ,,great ,,want--,,! ,,"m',s ,,fai?--,,h] ,,pray]--,,is ,,provid$ ,,) ,,money ,,9 ,a ,,my/]i\s ,,way4 ,9 ! ye> #ahfd1 a little boy nam$ ,*>les liv$ ) 8 "m & si/] 9 ! city ( ,c----1 ne> ! c5tral "p ( ! ,/ate ( ,indiana4 ,8 fa!r & eld] bro!r _h enli/$ 9 ! army1 !n fight+ = ! ,union4 ,*>les 0 b f\r ye>s ( age1 n l>ge en\gh to e>n any?+1 & _! daily food dep5d$ ^u :at 8 "m e>n$ by h] h>d day's labor4 ,x 0 9 ! w9t] season4 ,times 7 h>d1 & gr[+ worse e day1 & ! p _h b little = ! "m to d4 ,x 0 ) great difficulty t %e e>n$ en\gh = h]self & *ildr5 to live ^u4 ,"o morn+ %e w5t out 9 ! cold w9try bla/ & ga!r$ b>k f ! f5ce rails to keep h] *ildr5 f suff]+ ) ! sev]e cold1 & at breakfa/ %e gave !m ! la/ cru/ ( bread t 0 9 ! h\se1 n eat+ any h]self4 ,!n %e w5t out into ! city to seek some?+ to d to e>n "s m bread = h] little ones4 ,b aft] a long se>* %e return$1 v tir$1 bo? 9 body & m9d1 )\t accompli%+ h] object4 ,! poor woman sat d[n & wept bitt]ly4 ,h] *ildr5 7 cry+ = bread1 & %e _h none to give !m4 ,b :5 !y aga9 ask$ h] = bread %e said to !m1 ,! ,"l w provide4 ,pres5tly %e knelt d[n1 h] bosom swell+ ) grief1 & ask$ ! ,"l to sp>e h] *ildr5's lives4 ,!n ris+ to h] feet1 %e ?\ght ( "s c>pet rags %e _h put into a b>rel j ! day be=e1 & decid$ to take !m to a /ore & see if %e c\ld sell !m = "s bread4 ,j z %e turn$ ! b>rel up-side d[n1 to empty out ! rags1 %e said 9 a tone ( mo!rly k9dness3 ,de> *ildr51 d n cry2 ! ,"l w n let u />ve4 ,!n %e turn$ ! b>rel back1 &1 on look+ into x1 :at d y suppose greet$ h] eyes8 ,x 0 some?+ t made h] c\nt5ance beam ) gladness & h] eyes dance ) joy1 & %e exclaim$1 ,! ,"l w provide6 ,bless$ be ! "n ( ! ,"l6 ,x 0 a doll> bill4 ,x _h nev] be5 lo/ !re1 because %e _h wa%$ out ! b>rel ! day %e put ! rags into x4 ,b h[ x got !re ,i w leave y to =m y\r own op9ion4 ,suffice x to say1 t x 0 nei!r 9 ! rags nor b>rel ! day be=e4 ,x pur*as$ bread en\gh to la/ !m a few days1 till !y receiv$ sev5ty doll>s s5t !m f ! army4 ,,dialogue ,,on ,,religion4 ,:i* occurr$ at ,healdsburg1 ,sonoma ,co41 ,cal41 9 #aheg1 betwe5 ,doctor ,bonham1 a ,me?odi/ ,m9i/]1 & a ,mormon ,eld]4 ,by ,h4 ,g4 ,b4 ,,dr4 ,,bonham4--,i und]/& t y are mak+ "s prosylytes to y\r ,*ur* 9 ?is c\ntry4 ,,mormon ,,eld]4--,yes1 we h "s fifty or sixty memb]s t h be5 add$ to ! ,*ur* lately1 on ?is side ( ,sacram5to ,riv]4 ,,dr4 ,b4--,n9e-t5?s ( ! religi\s portion ( ! community 9 ?is c\ntry look ^u y\r p z be+ deceiv$1 & y\r m9i/]s z deceiv]s1 & y\r doctr9es z be+ false & p]nici\s4 ,m4 ,e4--,yes1 ,i am aw>e ( ?is fact1 & also ( ano!r fact3 t is1 t ! same op9ion prevail$ among n9e-t5?s ( ! ,ph>isees & ,sadducees1 eighte5 hundr$ ye>s ago1 ab\t our ,savior & ,8 apo/les & prophets1 & ! doctr9es :i* !y taught4 ,! same k9d ( religi\s s5tim5t 0 array$ aga9/ ! gospel !n1 z n[4 ,,dr4 ,b4--,b y mu/ "k t ! doctr9es ( a new revelation1 & ( apo/les & prophets are a delusion1 & t y are lead+ a/ray _m ( ! p4 ,m4 ,e4--,!n ! ,bible mu/ be a delusion1 & x mu/ be t x is lead+ _m ( ! p a/ray1 = ! ,bible tea*es ! same doctr9e t we tea*1 namely1 new revelation1 apo/les & prophets4 ,,dr4 ,b4--,i d5y t x does4 ,! law & ! prophets cont9u$ until ,john1 aft] :i* ! k+dom ( heav5 0 prea*$4 ,m4 ,e4--,w\ld y prove by ?is quotation t !re 7 to be no m revelation1 nor apo/les & prophets aft] ,john8 ,!n1 inde$1 0 ,jesus ,himself a false prophet1 & ,8 apo/les 7 false tea*]s1 & all t 0 reveal$ to ! _w ?r\gh ,him & !m 0 also false4 ,su* a conclusion is impossible4 ,:at1 !n1 are ! facts8 ,! k+dom ( heav5 0 really prea*$ aft]w>ds1 & t1 too1 by apo/les & prophets1 ) a cont9ual fl[ ( revelation4 ,,dr4 ,b4--,yes1 ,i w agree t new revelation & apo/les & prophets 7 necess>y till ! k+dom 0 e/abli%$2 b aft] t "t1 !y 7 no long] ne$$1 & 7 rightly done away4 ,!y left u a p]fect patt]n 9 ! ,new ,te/am5t1 :i* is all t is ne$$ to guide ! *ur* 9 all ?+s4 ,m4 ,e4--,&1 accord+ to ?is p]fect patt]n y allude to1 y h eld]s1 bi%ops1 prie/s1 tea*]s & deacons 9 y\r *ur*1 h y8 ,,dr4 ,b4--,yes2 to be sure we h4 ,& ^! (fic]s are 9 our *ur* accord+ to ! p]fect patt]n giv5 u 9 ! ,new ,te/am5t4 ,m4 ,e4--,i suppose1 !n1 y h apo/les1 prophets & sev5ties 9 y\r *ur*1 ?us foll[+ out ! p]fect patt]n to its complet5ess4 ,,dr4 ,b4--,no2 we h no apo/les nor prophets2 nor h we any sev5ties4 ,!y are all done away )4 ,m4 ,e4--,n[1 c't y see t y are inconsi/5t8 ,if ! ,new ,te/am5t patt]n requires eld]s & bi%ops to be organiz$ 9 ! *ur*1 x also requires apo/les & prophets j ! same4 ,if ?is patt]n is au?ority = an eld]1 x is j z good au?ority = an apo/le4 ,if au?ority = a bi%op1 x is j z surely au?ority = a prophet4 ,y\r ass]tion t !y are done away )1 & no long] ne$$1 is a palpable contradiction ( ! pla9e/ tru?s ( ! ,new ,te/am5t patt]n4 ,,dr4 ,b4--,does n ,paul1 9 ! #h? v]se ( ! #ac? *apt] ( 8 fir/ lett] to ! ,cor9?ians1 say1 ,:e!r !re be prophecies !y %all fail8 ,m4 ,e4--,yes1 & 9 ! #aj? v]se ( ! same *apt] ,paul pla9ly tells !m :5 prophecy %all fail1 t is3 ,:5 t :i* is p]fect is come4 ,paul1 9 8 #d? *apt] to ! ,ephesians1 #aa? to #ac? v]ses1 also ref]s to ! apo/les & prophets z be+ necess>y 9 ! *ur* to br+ ab\t ?is p]fection1 also = ! "w ( ! m9i/ry1 & to cont9ue till we all come 9 ! unity ( ! fai?4 ,! "w ( ! m9i/ry is n or ought n to be done away4 ,! p]fect+ ( ! ,sa9ts1 & t unity spok5 (1 are works t belong to all "t1 z surely z x 0 necess>y 9 ,paul's "t4 ,!re=e1 y\r quotation f ,paul is c]ta9ly a v /rong pro( 9 favor ( our doctr9es4 ,,dr4 ,b--,i _c see ! necessity ( apo/les & prophets2 nor d ,i believe t ,god int5d$ t !y %\ld be cont9u$ 9 ! *ur*4 ,is x n writt5 9 ! la/ *apt] ( ,john's ,revelations1 #ah? & #ai? v]ses1 t if any man %all add to or dim9i% f ! words ( ?is book1 t a heavy p5alty %all re/ ^u him8 ,if ,god did n all[ any m revelations to ! _w ?an !y at t "t possess$1 !n ! necessity = apo/les & prophets no long] exi/$1 z !y 7 ! only m$iums ?r\gh :om ,he reveal$ ,8 w to mank9d4 ,m4 ,e--,:at y see1 or _c see1 or :at y believe1 or d n believe 9 ?is connection1 does n am\nt to a p91 unless y see & believe ! tru?4 ,9 ! #ab? *apt] ( ! fir/ epi/le to ! ,cor9?ians1 ,paul comp>es ! *ur* ( ,*ri/ to ! body ( a man1 plac+ ! apo/les & prophets z ! head ( t body2 o!r (fic]s & memb]s compos+ ! o!r portions ( ! body4 ,!re 7 _m memb]s1 yet b "o body4 ,god _h set ! memb]s 9 ! body z x pleas$ him2 fir/1 apo/les1 !n prophets1 etc41 d[n to ! feet4 ,! head c\ld n say to ! body1 ,i h no ne$ ( y2 nor aga91 c\ld ! feet say to ! body1 ,we h no ne$ ( y4 ,! body c\ld n live an h\r )\t ! head4 ,!re=e1 ! *ur* ( ,*ri/ c\ld n live )\t apo/les & prophets1 ^! con/itut+ ! head ( ! ,*ur*4 ,,dr4 ,b4--,b y h n answ]$ my quotation f ,john1 =bidd+ any addition to ! ^w ( ,god1 ?us cutt+ (f ! necessity ( new revelation1 & ! *annels or m$iums ?r\gh :i* x 0 giv51 =ev] aft]4 ,m4 ,e4--,t 0 j :at ,i 0 go+ to come to :5 y int]rupt$ me4 ,god did1 inde$1 =bid any man to add to1 or dim9i% f ,8 ^w1 z y correctly quot$4 ,also 9 ,deut]onomy1 #d? *apt] & #bnd v]se1 we f9d a simil> prohibition1 giv5 ?r\gh ,moses4 ,n[ :at d ^! passages prove8 ,simply ?is3 ,man %all n add nor dim9i%1 b ! ,"l c d s at ,8 pleasure4 ,a few days aft] ! dea? ( ,moses ! ,"l began to reveal m ( ,8 ^w to ,jo%ua1 ! successor ( ,moses4 ,& x is record$ 9 hi/ory t ! ,"l did ! same ?+ 9 ,/4 ,john's case1 = he wrote 8 n>rative ( ! gospel & 8 ?ree epi/les aft] 8 ,book ( ,revelations1 f :i* y made y\r quotation4 ,,dr4 ,b4--,y\r doctr9es are ! mo/ dang]\s t ,i "k (1 & ! be/ calculat$ to deceive ! ignorant & ! unw>y4 ,& y\r prea*+ ought n to be all[$ 9 ?is c\ntry1 & ,i %all try to prev5t all t ,i c h any influ5ce ov] f go+ to he> y4 ,m4 ,e4--,i h n done ) y\r quotations yet4 ,no man 9 our ,*ur* has ev] add$ to or dim9i%$ ! ^w ( ,god4 ,we h nev] violat$ ^? re/rictions 9 ! lea/1 b ! ,me?odi/s & _m o!r sects ( ! pres5t day h bo? add$ to & tak5 f ! ^w ( ,god4 ,!y h add$ ! practice ( infant baptism1 & sub/itut$ spr9kl+ = ! ord9ance ( baptism by imm]sion4 ,!y h heap$ to !mselves tea*]s1 hav+ it*+ e>s1 :o h turn$ f ! tru? & h add$ _! fables2 !y div9e = money & prea* = hire4 ,!y h add$ ! m\rn]'s b5* to :at !y call ! wor%ip ( ,god4 ,! fe> ( ,god is taught by ! precepts ( m51 & ne>ly all t is prea*$ or believ$ 9 by !m is ( _! own add+4 ,!y h dim9i%$ f ! ^w ( ,god 9 t !y d5y new revelation1 apo/les1 prophets1 sev5ties1 ! gifts ( ! ,holy ,gho/1 ! ord9ances & p[] ( ! gospel1 & all ! gr&e/1 be/ & mo/ glori\s promises conta9$ 9 ! great plan ( salvation4 ,& ,i w>n y to bew>e t ! plagues ,john spoke ( be n add$ to y1 & t y\r "p 9 ! book ( life & y\r "p 9 ! holy city be n tak5 away4 ,= y h transgress$ ! law1 *ang$ ! ord9ances & brok5 ! ev]la/+ cov5ant4 ,,dr4 ,b4--,i und]/& t ! gov]nm5t is s5d+ an army to ,utah1 to ext]m9ate y ,mormons4 ,& ,i ?9k x w s]ve !m j "r4 ,su* gross impo/ors ought n to be all[$ to live4 ,no su* delusion %\ld be tol]at$ among civiliz$ communities4 ,m4 ,e4--,t's "r2 come out 9 y\r true colors6 ,l ! ,ph>isees ( old1 :5 y _c br+ any argum5ts to prevail aga9/ ! tru?1 y w\ld resort to ! sword--y w\ld h rec\rse to arms--to viol5ce1 & de/roy all ^? t love & su/a9 ! tru?4 ,& y1 ,doctor ,bonham1 w\ld h be5 fir/ among ! m5 t crucifi$ ! ,r$eem]1 _h y liv$ !n4 ,y w\ld h be5 ! man to h behead$ ,john ! ,bapti/1 & = ! same reason2 & to h sla9 ! apo/les & prophets4 ,y\r antipa?y to apo/les & prophets prove x4 ,fill ye up !n ! measure ( y\r fa!rs1 ! ,ph>isees4 ,,te/imonies ,,= ,,! ,,tru?4 ,by ,,b5jam9 ,,br[n4 ,,*apt] ,i4 ,,! ,,au?or',s ,,bir? ,,& ,,p>5tage--,,e>ly ,,religi\s ,,impressions--,,m>riage--,,vision ,,( ,,8 ,,bro!r1 ,,& ,,( ,,! ,,bible--,,! ,,au?or ,,dreams ,,( ,,prea*+--,,att5ds ,a ,,protract$ ,,meet+--,,8 ,,impressions ,,:ile ,,!re--,,he ,,meets ,,) ,,! ,,latt]-,,day ,,sa9ts--,,vision ,,( ,,two ,,nephite ,,apo/les4 ,i 0 born on ! #cj? ( ,septemb]1 9 ! ye> #agid1 9 ! t[n ( ,que5sbury1 ,wa%+ton ,c\nty1 ,/ate ( ,new ,york4 ,my fa!r1 ,asa ,br[n1 belong$ to ! d5om9ation ( ,fri5d ,quak]s4 ,8 bus9ess 0 t ( a f>m]4 ,i work$ ) him *iefly until ,i 0 tw5ty ye>s ( age4 ,dur+ my boyhood ,i 0 mu* depriv$ ( ! b5efits ( education1 ow+ to my fa!r's remov+ f place to place1 9 new settlem5ts1 !y af=d+ him great] facilities = ! pur*ase ( *eap l& ?an old] ones4 ,by ^! means he 0 enabl$ to h 8 *ildr5 settle ar\nd him4 ,be+ ?us br\ght up1 f> f ! abodes ( ! religi\s sect>ies ( ! day1 my ideas ( religion 7 j ^? :i* are naturally in/ill$ into ! m9d by ! /atem5ts ( ,scripture1 :]e no prie/craft exi/s to p]v]t !m1 dim9i% _! =ce or cl\d _! mean+2 consequ5tly1 ,i believ$ 9 ! ,bible j z x read1 :]e ! self-evid5t r5d]+ ( ! context did n prove x figurative or p>abolic4 ,! idea t revelation f ,god 0 unatta9able 9 ?is age1 or t ! anci5t gifts ( ! gospel _h ceas$ =ev]1 nev] ent]$ my head1 until ,i ga!r$ ! notion f ! cre$s ( *ur*es ) :i* ,i became acqua9t$ 9 aft] ye>s4 ,i c rememb] _m times1 on occasions ( sickness among my relatives1 :ile yet q a boy1 retir+ to "s b>n1 or o!r conv5i5t place ( ! k9d1 & _! be+ sudd5ly re/or$ to heal?1 9 answ] to pray]s (f]$ !re1 by me1 9 _! behalf4 ,i cont9u$ ?us until ab\t fifte5 ye>s ( age1 :5 circum/ances caus$ me to live 9 settlem5ts :]e ! sects ( ! day _h e/abli%$ "s ( _! *ur*es1 & ,i 0 un=tunate en\gh to he> _! prea*+4 ,i soon began to lose my pure1 simple ideas ( ,god1 & imbibe ^? m g5]ally receiv$2 &1 %ortly aft]1 by li/5+ to ! cont5d+ op9ions ( ^! p>ties1 ,i f\nd ! hi!rto simple ,bible a p]fect my/]y4 ,i _h previ\sly be5 s]i\sly & religi\sly incl9$1 b ! j>r+s & unc]ta9ty ( my new ideas %ook t simple fai? :i* ,i _h repos$ 9 ! ,scriptures1 & 9 ,god1 until ,i began to mix ) light or va9 company4 ,i at times ?\ght little ab\t su* matt]s1 b1 9 mom5ts ( reflection1 ! ,_s ( ! ,"l w\ld (t5 %[ me ! folly ( my conduct1 & br+ to my remembrance ! goodness ( ,god manife/$ to me 9 pa/ times4 ,! ,univ]sali/ sy/em appe>$ to me ! mo/ reasonable ( ! v>i\s d5om9ations ,i came 9 contact )4 ,! horrible hell & damnation !ories ( mo/ ( ! o!r p>ties1 9 my idea1 7 inconsi/5t ) ! m]cies & love ( ,god4 ,h[ev]1 ,i did n actually jo9 ! ,univ]sali/s4 ,b _! doctr9es1 ) respect to ! et]nity ( puni%m5t1 etc41 savor$ to me ( a m g5]\s & ,god-l nature1 ?an ! contract$ notions held by ! o!r d5om9ations1 conc]n+ ,god's purposes t[>ds ! human family4 ,amid/ all ! folly :i*1 = %ort p]iods1 ,i gave way to1 a deep anxiety possess$ me to f9d ! tru?1 & ,i visit$1 &1 to "s ext5t1 m+l$ )1 ! religi\s pr(essors ( _m ( ! sects1 at _! meet+s1 & took "p 9 ! same4 ,ab\t ! age ( tw5ty-five1 ,i m>ri$1 & settl$ on a small f>m ( my own4 ,ab\t n9e or t5 ye>s lat] ?an ?is1 aft] a fatigu+ day's labor1 ,i return$ home "o ev5+1 &1 hav+ p>tak5 ( my supp]1 turn$ my back to ! fire1 z my cu/om 01 & lean$1 ) my head on my arms1 on ! *air top1 to re/ myself1 & dry my clo!s1 :i* 7 moi/5$ ) ! p]spiration caus$ by ! heat4 ,my wife retir$ to re/1 expect+ me %ortly to foll[4 ,?us left alone1 ,i 0 mus+ on ?+s g5]ally1 b n p>ticul>ly on any religi\s subject1 :5 a vision ( my bro!r1 :o _h di$ "s f\rte5 ( fifte5 ye>s previ\s1 appe>$ be=e me1 pray+4 ,i he>d 8 voice cle>ly & di/9ctly1 & li/5$ att5tively4 ,9 ! c\rse ( 8 pray]1 he ref]r$ to ! great "w to be done on ! e>? dur+ ! la/ days1 quot+ sev]al ,scriptures4 ,i did n1 h[ev]1 fully compreh5d ! mean+ ( !m1 until1 com+ into ! ,*ur* ( ,jesus ,*ri/ ( ,latt]-day ,sa9ts1 ye>s aft]1 ,i saw ! applicability ( 8 words to ! views ( t p1 ) reg>d to ! re/oration ( ! gospel gifts1 ! great "w ( ga!r+ ! ,sa9ts ( all nations 9 ! la/ days1 & ! fullness ( ! latt]-day glory1 = he p>ticul>ly pray$ = ! ha/5+ ( ^! ?+s4 ,soon he disappe>$ f my view1 :5 sudd5ly1 to use a ,scripture phrase1 a s\nd1 z ( a ru%+ mighty w9d1 ) "s accompany+ influ5ce1 seem$ to fill ! h\se & myself1 & ,i he>d a voice say+3 ,?is is ! _s ( und]/&+4 ,an op5 ,bible appe>$ be=e me1 s peculi>ly plac$1 t ,i c\ld see portions ( sev]al books ( ! prophets & apo/les at once4 ,directly ,i he>d ! above words1 ,i began to read1 und]/&+ & intellig5ce bur/ ^u my m9d1 & ! glory & beauty t seem$ to %9e =? 9 ! subjects treat$ ^u1 no language c describe4 ,! despat* ) :i* ,i read1 a/oni%$ me1 = ,i seem$ able to read a *apt] 9 ! "t usually occupi$ 9 read+ a v]se1 & ! cont5ts ( a :ole book 7 laid be=e my m9d ab\t z quickly z o!rwise ,i c\ld h p]us$ a s+le *apt]4 ,) ! rapidity ( lightn+1 v>i\s tru?s ( ! ,bible 7 pres5t$ to my m9d1 & :at ea* prophet or apo/le _h said on ea* p>ticul> subject met my eyes1 9 consecutive ord]1 conc5trat$ & connect$1 %[+ t ea* & all ( ^? m5 7 inspir$ by ! same ,_s1 & _h a di/9ct k ( ! same gr& ev5ts & glori\s tru?s1 p>ticul>ly ^? :i* ,i _h he>d my bro!r pray ab\t4 ,i nev] be=e saw su* connection betwe5 ! ,scriptures4 ,:at "o prophet _h said on a subject met my sight1 & directly1 ) ! quickness ( ?\ght1 ,i read :at ea* ( ! o!r prophets or apo/les _h said ab\t ! same ?+4 ,i saw ! :ole at a glance1 br\ght z x 7 to a focus4 ,su* a *a9 ( te/imonies1 & an int]weav+ ( evid5ces1 accompani$ ) t p]ception & compreh5sion :i* ! ,holy ,gho/ alone c give1 none c realize b ^? :o h receiv$ t ,_s & revelations unto !mselves4 ,su* p]sons "k j h[ x is4 ,i 0 di/urb$1 app>5tly 9 ! mid/ ( my vision1 by my wife's call+ to me1 :5 ! vision left me1 & ,i felt j l a hungry man :o is call$ or snat*$ sudd5ly away f a fea/4 ,b ! joy & peace ) :i* my _s 0 fill$ rema9$ ) me1 & ,i glorifi$ ,god4 ,?+s w5t on mu* z usual1 till some?+ l a ye> aft]w>ds1 :5 ,i _h a s+ul> dream1 :i*1 z x _h a be>+ on my future life1 ,i w relate3 ,i dream$ t ,i _h be5 call$ to prea* ! gospel1 & ! fir/ "t ,i ?us (ficiat$1 x 0 9 a s*ool-h\se1 9 an adjo9+ t[n1 ) :i* ,i 0 well acqua9t$4 ,i saw all ! memb]s ( ! congregation1 :i* 0 small1 &1 :5 ,i awoke1 ,i c\ld di/9ctly rememb] ! position ea* p]son occupi$ 9 ! room4 ,?is s impress$ my m9d t ,i told my wife ( x1 & said ,i believ$ x w\ld be realiz$2 b %e sc\t$ ! idea4 ,:at 0 ,i1 a work+ man1 to d ) prea*+8 ,well1 at o!r times1 x w\ld h appe>$ equally fooli% to myself1 b x _h be5 giv5 to me t h] "m1 liv+ at ! place1 knew by a dream ! same ?+1 & ,i told ?is to my wife4 ,at la/ %e promis$ t1 if x turn$ out to be ! case1 %e w\ld believe ! dream to be true4 ,9 a day or s1 we paid h] "m a visit1 & f\nd t %e _h dream$1 t night1 t ,i 0 com+ to prea* 9 ! t[n :]e %e liv$1 & we le>n$1 f h] fri5ds1 t %e _h be5 entreat+ "o ( h] relatives to c>ry h] to my resid5ce1 t %e might tell me ( x4 ,al?\gh ! tru? ( ! dream 0 ?us prov$ to me1 ,i little ?\ght :at doctr9es ,i 0 to prea*1 & 9 connection ) :at p or *ur*4 ,b ,i 0 to h great] evid5ce ( ! tru? ( my dream1 z w be se5 h]eaft]4 ,five ye>s m pass$1 & ,i 0 /ill unconnect$ ) any religi\s p>ty4 ,at ?is "t1 :at 7 call$ protract$ meet+s1 or religi\s s]vices1 cont9u$ = days1 & sometimes weeks1 7 v popul> 9 ,am]ica4 ,9 common ) ! ,univ]sali/s1 ,i felt unfavorable to ! meet+s1 b su* magnific5t reports ( _! results--! :olesale conv]sion ( s\ls1 l$ me to att5d "o4 ,i humbl$ myself1 & det]m9$ to dive/ my m9d ( all prejudice1 & put myself at lea/ 9 a position to receive all ! good t c\ld be obta9$4 ,be=e go+1 ,i cov5ant$ ) ! ,"l1 t if ,he w\ld reveal ,8 m9d & w unto me1 :atev] sacrifice or duty ,he might require at my h&s1 ,i w\ld d x4 ,little did ,i ?9k ( ! way my tru?fulness w\ld be tri$1 or possibly ,i might h %unn$ su* a contract4 ,z soon z ,i began to att5d1 ,i felt ! ,_s ( ! ,"l op]at+ ^u me1 s t ,i seem$ fill$ to ov]fl[+ ) its tea*+s4 ,a cont9ual /ream ( glori\s tru?s pass$ ?r\gh my m9d1 my happ9ess 0 great1 & my m9d 0 s absorb$ 9 spiritual ?+s1 t all ! "t ! meet+s la/$1 :i* 0 ab\t fifte5 days1 ,i sc>cely ate or drank any?+4 ,at o!r times1 t :i* ,i subsi/$ on dur+ ^! fifte5 days1 c\ld sc>cely h su/a9$ life1 b ! ,_s ( ! ,"l s op]at$ on my sy/em1 t ,i felt full all ! "t1 & _h no desire to eat or p>take ( any?+4 ,! subject ( ,freemasonry 0 j !n agitat+ ! public m9d1 s t _m ( ! *ur*es 7 divid$ ab\t x1 m especially ! "o to :i* mo/ ( ! memb]s att5d+ ?is meet+ belong$1 be+ divid$ into ,masons & ,anti-,masons4 ,?is meet+ 0 call$ ! ,masonic p>ty4 ,! o!r m9i/] ( ! same *ur* held ,anti-,masonic pr9ciples1 & refus$ to meet ) ! ,masonic p>ty1 & kept mo/ ( 8 p>ty away4 ,?is caus$ a great deal ( qu>rell+ & cont5tion1 & mu* ang] & bad feel+1 ( :i* ,i knew b little until aft]w>ds4 ,i _h he>d ( ! two p>ties1 b _h n int]e/$ myself 9 ! matt]1 & consequ5tly did n c>e mu* ab\t x4 ,:ile sitt+ 9 ! meet+1 li/5+ to ! prea*+1 be+ mu* int]e/$ 9 :at 0 be+ said1 ! ,_s ( ! ,"l came ^u me1 & reveal$ t ,i 0 to visit ! m9i/] ( ! ,anti-,masonic p>ty1 ,judge ,cu%+1 & tell him ( 8 fooli%ness & wick$ness 9 increas+ ! _s ( division betwe5 ^? :o ought to be unit$ z bre?r5 9 "o common int]e/4 ,x ra9$ h>d at ! "t1 & feel+ r tak5 up ) ! prea*+1 ,i ?\ght ,i w\ld delay until ! close ( ! meet+4 ,?is mission to me 0 a v h>d task4 ,h[ 0 ,i1 a man f ! ?ra%+-floor1 to reprove a m9i/]1 &1 moreov]1 a judge8 ,b a few m9utes _h sc>cely elaps$1 be=e ! ^w ( ! ,"l came to me aga91 ) great] p[] ?an be=e1 t ,i 0 to g at once6 ,i _h cov5ant$ ) ! ,"l1 & ,i felt det]m9$ to fulfill1 if x kill$ me2 s ,i sprang to my feet1 took my hat1 & dep>t$ f ! meet+4 ,i f\nd ! judge at a public inn1 engag$ 9 mak+ "s pur*ase4 ,i reque/$ to speak ) him = a few m9utes 9 private4 ,he said he w\ld att5d to me pres5tly4 ,i sat d[n1 b ,i _h h>dly done s be=e ! ,_s ( ! ,"l 0 aga9 ^u me1 l fire 9 my bones1 comm&+ me to deliv] my message directly4 ,i aga9 reque/$ to speak ) ! ,judge1 /at+ t my bus9ess 0 urg5t4 ,he compli$ ?is "t1 & retir$ ) me outside ! h\se4 ,! ,_s ( ! ,"l gave me utt]ance1 & fill$ my m\? ) words1 & ,i laid be=e him1 9 language :i* 0 giv5 me1 ! impropriety ( 8 conduct4 ,! same ,_s be>+ witness1 ! judge ackn[l$g$ 8 folly1 said he w\ld am5d1 & told me t he _h sp5t _m sleepless nights z a result ( 8 c\rse4 ,he also said t1 directly ,i sat d[n1 some?+ told him = :at ,i _h come1 al?\gh ,i 0 a /rang] to him4 ,9 fact1 he knew ne>ly z well be=e ,i _h spok51 z aft]4 ,?is confirm$ my fai? t ! ,"l _h s5t me1 b x 0 a great trial to my feel+s at ! "t4 ,h[ev]1 ,i _h ano!r trial to und]go1 :i* occurr$ "s days aft]w>ds dur+ ! same meet+4 ,:ile ! m9i/] 0 prea*+1 x 0 reveal$ to me to arise & decl>e to ! congregation1 t !y1 be=e com+ toge!r to pray = ! conv]sion ( o!rs1 ought fir/ to be reconcil$ "o to ! o!r1 s t _! gifts ( pray] might be accept$ by ! ,"l4 ,! ,_s also said1 t "s 9 ! congregation 7 guilty ( oppress+ ! poor1 tak+ unlawful usury1 oppress+ ! hirel+ 9 8 wages1 & _m o!r s9s ( a simil> "*4 ,i wait$ until ! prea*] _h f9i%$ 8 disc\rse1 dur+ :i* ! idea ( hav+ to arise & speak be=e ?is congregation ( ab\t fifte5 hundr$ p1 mo/ ( :om1 be+ memb]s ( ,*ri/ian societies1 ,i consid]$ bett] p]sons ?an myself1 fill$ me ) fe>1 & ! p]spiration roll$ (f me pr(usely4 ,c\ld su* a ?+ h avail$1 ,i w\ld soon] h giv5 five hundr$ doll>s ?an h buckl$ up to ?is task1 b !re 0 no escape2 ,i _h cov5ant$1 & ! mom5t ! m9i/] ceas$ speak+ ,i deliv]$ my message4 ,x 0 receiv$ v well by ! congregation1 _m fancy+ ,i 0 conv]t$ to _! fai?1 &1 be+ bless$ ) su* gifts1 a bit ( a prize4 ,on com+ out1 two m51 "o a ju/ice ( ! peace1 & ! o!r a colonel1 came up to me4 ,! ju/ice ask$ :y1 if ,i _h any?+ aga9/ him1 ,i did n1 z ! ,scripture directs1 g to him privately1 & n expose him be=e all ! congregation4 ,! o!r said1 ,if y h got a man by ! ?roat1 y ne$ n ?9k t because x is pleasant to y1 x is s to him4 ,i told !m t z ! cap seem$ to fit !y might we> x4 ,b ,i 0 mu* surpris$1 = ,i 0 n aw>e !y 7 pres5t4 ,ab\t a day previ\s to ! close ( ?is meet+1 ,i receiv$ a m important communication ?an ei!r ( ! previ\s ones4 ,a k 0 giv5 me t ! anci5t gifts ( ! gospel--speak+ 9 tongues1 ! p[] to heal ! sick1 ! _s ( prophecy1 etc41 7 j ab\t to be re/or$ to ! believ]s 9 ,*ri/4 ,! revelation 0 a p]fect k ( ! fact1 s sure & c]ta91 t ,i felt z ?\gh ! tru? _h be5 /]eotyp$ ^u me4 ,i knew x f ! cr[n ( my head to ! sole ( my foot1 ! :ole ( my sy/em be+ fill$ ) ! ,holy ,gho/6 ,i c comp>e x to no?+ bett] ?an ! *ange made on a clean %eet ( pap] by a pr9t+ press1 leav+ an indellible impression beh9d4 ,z ! ,_s did n tell me to :om ^! ?+s 7 to be re/or$1 ,i at fir/ fanci$1 9 my ignorance1 t ! p ) :om ,i _h be5 meet+ 7 ab\t to be bless$ ) ^! ?+s1 s ,i joyfully visit$ ! m9i/] ( ! meet+1 & laid be=e him ! intellig5ce ,i _h receiv$4 ,b1 to my great a/oni%m5t1 ,i met ) an utt] repulse4 ,he told me x 0 all ( ! devil1 = su* ?+s _h ceas$ =ev]6 ,_h anyone knock$ me d[n ) a beetle1 ,i c\ld n h felt m s5sibly ! opposition betwe5 ! spirits by :i* we 7 actuat$4 ,i soon f\nd1 by ! bold & det]m9$ way 9 :i* he f\ght aga9/ ! pr9ciple ( pres5t revelation1 etc41 t x 0 n to him or 8 p t ^! gifts w\ld be giv54 ,s ,i s\ght = !m else:]e4 ,a few days aft]w>ds1 curiosity l$ me to visit ! ,latt]-day ,sa9ts1 among :om ,i witness$ a fulfillm5t ( ! pr$iction1 = ,i beheld a manife/ation ( ! gifts ( prophecy & tongues1 & receiv$ ! latt] myself4 ,not)/&+ ?is confirmation :i* ,i _h receiv$ ( ! tru? ( ! ,*ur* ( ! ,latt]-day ,sa9ts 0 v great1 ,i did n feel suffici5tly conv9c$ to be induc$ to jo9 !m at once4 ,i _h exp]i5c$ ! ,_s ( ! ,"l 9 a simil> way else:]e1 s t :5 ! ,eld]s ( ! ,*ur*1 at ?is meet+1 urg$ ^u me to yield ob$i5ce to ! gospel !y prea*$1 :i* possess$ su* evid5ces z ! manife/ation ( ! anci5t gifts1 ,i treat$ ! ,eld]s v lightly1 & repli$1 t z = ! gift ( tongues1 ,i c\ld speak 9 tongues z well z any ( !m4 ,s ,i c\ld1 = directly "o ( !m manife/$ ?is gift1 ! gift ( tongues re/$ ^u me1 & gave me ! same p[]4 ,?us did ! devil seek to bl9d me1 & turn t te/imony :i* ! ,"l _h giv5 me = ! tru?1 almo/ into an evid5ce aga9/ x6 ,h[ev]1 ,i procur$ a ,book ( ,mormon1 & took x home to read1 det]m9$ to inve/igate until ,i 0 fully satisfi$4 ,b ,i _h sc>cely begun to read1 be=e ,i felt greatly to dislike ! book4 ,ere ,i _h p]us$ t5 pages1 ,i reject$ x altoge!r4 ,act+ 9 ?is bigot$ mann]1 ,i _h resign$ myself to ! evil influ5ce t 0 ga9+ p[] ov] me1 s t1 directly aft]1 ,i felt a simil> dislike seize me t[>ds ! ,bible4 ,its /atem5ts ( miracles1 etc41 appe>$ to me to be comp\nds ( ! grosse/ absurdity possible4 ,i c\ld see no light or good 9 x1 & actually resolv$ nev] to read x aga96 ,b1 oh6 ! d>kness t seiz$ me z soon z ,i _h made ?is resolution6 ,! light t 0 9 me became d>kness1 & h[ great x 01 no language c describe4 ,all k ( religi\s tru? seem$ to =sake me1 & if ,i attempt$ to quote ,scripture1 my recollection fail$1 aft] ! fir/ ^w or s6 ,s rem>kable 0 ?is1 t x excit$ reflection1 & caus$ me to m>vel1 & f9ally ,i det]m9$ to rep5t ( my resolve respect+ ! ,bible1 & ,i comm5c$ to read aga94 ,! book 0 h>dly 9 my h&1 :51 z 9 a mom5t1 my light & recollection return$ z usual4 ,?is made me rejoice1 & imm$iately ! idea fla%$ across my m9d1 ,:at h y done ) ! ,book ( ,mormon8 ,behave z fairly to t4 ,i soon reprocur$ x4 ,b1 ev5 ?is "t1 ,i felt prejudic$ aga9/ ! book4 ,i resolv$1 h[ev]1 to read x ?r\gh1 & ,i p]sev]$ 9 its p]usal1 till ,i came to t "p :]e ,jesus1 on visit+ ! cont95t ( ,am]ica1 aft] 8 resurrection1 grants ! reque/ ( ?ree ( ! apo/les :om he _h *os51 to p]mit !m to live until 8 second com+ on ! e>? 7l unto ,john spok5 ( 9 ! ,bible74 ,"h my m9d half yield$ to ! belief :i* arose )9 me1 t p]haps x might be true1 :]eupon ,i took ! book & laid x be=e ! ,"l1 & plead$ ) ,him 9 pray] = a te/imony :e!r x 0 true or false1 &1 z ,i f\nd x /at$ t ! ?ree ,nephites _h p[] to %[ !mselves to any p]sons !y might wi% to1 ,jews or ,g5tiles1 ,i ask$ ! ,"l to all[ me to see !m = a witness & te/imony ( ! tru? ( ! ,book ( ,mormon1 & ,i cov5ant$ ) ,him1 if ,he compli$ ) my reque/1 t ,i w\ld prea* x1 ev5 at ! exp5se ( my life1 %\ld x be necess>y4 ,! ,"l he>d my pray]1 &1 ab\t five days aft]w>ds1 two ( ! ?ree visit$ me 9 my b$room4 ,i did n see !m come1 b ,i f\nd !m !re4 ,"o spoke to me = "s "t1 & reprov$ me %>ply on acc\nt ( my behavior at ! "t :5 ,i fir/ att5d$ ! meet+ ( ! ,sa9ts1 & treat$ s lightly ! gift ( tongues4 ,he told me nev]1 z long z ,i liv$1 to d s aga91 = ,i _h griev$ ! ,_s ( ! ,"l1 by ^: p[] t gift _h be5 giv54 ,?is p]sonage spoke 9 ! ,nephite language1 b ,i und]/ood1 by ! ,_s :i* accompani$ him1 e ^w z pla9ly z if he _h spok5 9 ,engli%4 ,i recogniz$ ! language to be ! same z t 9 :i* ,i _h he>d ,fa!r ,fi%] speak at ! meet+4 ,su* a rebuke1 ) su* p[]1 ,i nev] _h 9 my life1 be=e nor s9ce1 & nev] wi% to h aga94 ,i 0 dumb be=e my rebuk]1 = ,i knew t :at he said 0 "r1 & ,i felt des]v+ ( x4 ,h[ ^! m5 w5t1 ,i d n "k1 b directly !y 7 gone1 ! ,_s ( ! ,"l said to me1 ,n[1 y "k = y\rself6 ,y h se5 & he>d6 ,if y n[ fall away1 !re is no =giv5ess = y4 ,did ,i n "k !n1 t ! ,book ( ,mormon 0 true1 & t ,joseph ,smi? 0 a prophet ( ! ,"l8 ,surely ,i did1 & ,i d n[1 z surely z ,i "k t ,i live4 ,! _w wond]s at ! zeal & fai? ( ,mormon mission>ies 9 diffus+ _! pr9ciples ov] ! _w2 b ! surprise ( ! _w w\ld soon cease did !y "k by :at evid5ces ! tru? ( ! fai? ( ! ,latt]-day ,sa9ts _h be5 made kn[n unto !m1 = by su* pro(s z ! =ego+1 & by ! revelations ( ! ,holy ,gho/1 9 tongues1 prophecy+s1 visions1 etc41 has ! "w ( ! la/ days be5 atte/$ unto ?\s&s ^u ?\s&s1 9 ways s peculi>1 & att5d$ ) su* circum/ances1 t no p[] ( sophi/ry or reason c possibly %[ ^! pro(s to be ! effects ( a fanatical m9d or a diseas$ imag9ation4 ,& ev5 c\ld ^! pro(s be ov]turn$1 ! ,latt]-day ,sa9ts h /ill /rong] pro(s f\nd 9 ! evid5ces ( glori\s pr9ciples1 nev] be=e discov]$1 h>moniz+ ) ea* o!r1 & e kn[n tru?1 & cle>+ up & connect+ ,scripture /atem5ts f beg9n+ to end1 unlock+ ! great sci5ce ( life1 %$d+ light on our exi/5ce1 & discov]+1 9 ! arrangem5t & comb9ation ( ^! tru?s1 an inf9ite intellig5ce t none b a m9d t knew ! end f ! beg9n+ c\ld display6 ,,*apt] ,,ii4 ,,vision ,,( ,,! ,,la/ ,,days--,,baptism ,,( ,,! ,,au?or ,,& ,,f\r ,,o!rs--,,8 ,,wife',s ,,dream ,,& ,,baptism--,,he ,,is ,,orda9$ ,,an ,,eld]--,,visits ,,kirtl&--,,on ,,8 ,,return1 ,,is ,,attack$ ,,by ,,fev]--,,is ,,miracul\sly ,,heal$--,,re-,,visits ,,kirtl&--,,beg9s ,,to ,,prea*--,,miracul\s ,,heal+ ,,( ,a ,,canc]--,,accid5t ,,& ,,miracul\s ,,heal+ ,,( ,,jesse ,w4 ,,crosby--,,poison ,,miracul\sly ,,nullifi$----,,ca/+ ,,out ,,( ,,evil ,,spirits4 ,i 0 n baptiz$ directly1 z ,i hop$ to h ! pleasure ( see+ my wife comply ) ! same ord9ance1 :5 we c\ld ent] ! ,*ur* toge!r4 ,9 ! meantime ,i prosecut$ my inquiries4 ,%ortly aft] inquir+ ( ! ,"l conc]n+ ! tru? ( ! judgm5ts prea*$ by ! ,latt]-day ,sa9ts z be+ at h&1 & imp5d+ ov] ?is g5]ation1 ,i 0 %[n1 9 answ]1 by a vision1 ! v>i\s sc5es describ$ 9 ! revelations ( ! anci5t prophets4 ,! inhabitants ( ! e>? appe>$ be=e me 9 _! v>i\s occupations--pl[+1 s[+1 fi%+1 & engag$ 9 me*anical bus9ess4 ,i saw !m1 "u ! infliction ( ! plagues1 etc41 lift _! eyes t[>ds heav51 curse ,god1 & die4 ,i also saw _m o!r ?+s z pr$ict$ by anci5t prophets4 ,?us d ,i "k ! tru? ( ! ,bible z well z ( ! ,book ( ,mormon1 & ,i am witness = bo?6 ,a :ole ye> & a half ,i def]r$ my baptism1 /ill wait+ = my wife1 :o1 al?\gh at fir/ favorable to ,mormonism1 _h become a det]m9$ enemy to ! ,*ur*4 ,:5 ,i w5t to he> ! ,mormons prea* at ,we/field1 a village :]e ! ,twelve ,apo/les 7 hold+ _! fir/ conf]5ce1 curiosity _h drawn great numb]s to he> !m1 s t !y _h cr[d$ meet+s all ! "t4 ,! second day ( ?is conf]5ce1 ,i1 ) f\r o!rs1 0 baptiz$ by ,eld] ,mc,lellin1 & confirm$ ! same night4 ,:ile undress+ on ! banks ( ! creek1 prep>+ = ! ord9ance1 ,satan made a la/ ef=t to prev5t my ent]+ ! ,*ur*4 ,a man1 walk+ along by ! wat]'s side1 came up to me & said1 ,i wi% to speak to y = a few m9utes be=e y g into ! wat]4 ,?9k+1 ( c\rse1 t he 0 a fri5d1 or a memb] ( ! ,*ur*1 :o int5d$ to give me "s in/ruction z to my behavior 9 ! wat]1 ,i foll[$ him1 &1 hav+ got me to retire "s rods (f1 he said1 ,h y he>d :at has come out8 ,no1 ,i repli$1 :at ab\t8 ,:y1 he cont9u$1 conc]n+ ! ',mormons4' ,x has be5 discov]$ t x is all an impo/ure1 a regul> hoax to deceive ! p4 ,! affair has j come to light4 ,if y wait only a little1 y'll he> all ab\t x4 ,at fir/ ?is completely /unn$ me1 = ,i 0 li/5+ v att5tively1 consid]+ him "o ( ! ,*ur*1 & = a mom5t ,i began to "q1 b quickly recollect+ ! manife/ations ,i _h receiv$1 ,i told him he 0 a *ild ( ! devil1 & ,i pu%$ pa/ him to ! wat]1 & 0 baptiz$ at once4 ,?is 0 on ! #ae? ( ,may1 #ahce4 ,my wife1 :o _h manag$ to be pres5t :5 ,i 0 go+ to ! wat]1 & ev5 ?reat5$ t %e w\ld n live ) me1 01 = a long :ile aft]1 7p]haps a ye> & a half17 bitt]ly oppos$ to ! "w1 b ,i knew f ! ,"l t %e w\ld come into ! ,*ur*1 & ,i told h] s4 ,z ! way %e 0 at la/ br\ght 9 0 v curi\s1 ,i w m5tion x4 ,%e dream$ "o night t a l>ge company ( visitors _h come to h] h\se1 = :om %e _h to prep>e supp]4 ,on go+ into h] butt]y to procure ! necess>y food to cook1 %e c\ld only f9d a small potato1 ab\t ! size ( a rob9's egg1 ly+ on a wood5 tr5*]4 ,h[ev]1 ) ?is small /ock %e comm5c$1 & by "s wond]ful means conv]t$ ?is little affair into a spl5did prep>ation ( pies1 pudd+s1 etc4 ,:5 !y 7 ready %e /ood /ill1 wond]+ h[ x _h all be5 done1 =1 z may be suppos$1 x puzzl$ h] sorely to conceive h[1 f a small potato1 & t on a wood5 tr5*]1 %e _h produc$ su* an elegant ent]ta9m5t4 ,j at ?is mom5t :ile %e 0 ?us m>vel+1 ,i 0 awak5$ f my sleep1 ) a comm& s\nd+ 9 my e>s t ,i 0 to say to my wife1 ,don't y rememb] he>+ t y %\ld n despise ! day ( small ?+s8 ,i 0 to speak at once1 )\t wait+4 ,s ,i awoke h]1 & )\t any preface did z ,i 0 bid4 ,! wond]ful concurr5ce ( ^! words ) h] dream1 & ! self-evid5t int]pretation ( x1 ref]r+ z x did to h] pa/ conduct 7= "o ( ! pr9cipal reasons ( ! opposition %e felt to my jo9+ ! ,*ur* 01 t %e consid]$ x disgrac$ h] to h h] husb& belong to a ,*ur* t 0 s poor1 & ev]y:]e spok5 aga9/71 s impress$ itself ^u h] m9d1 ) o!r confirmations1 t %e 0 baptiz$1 & has rema9$ firm to ! ,*ur* ev] s9ce4 ,:5 ,i _h be5 9 ! ,*ur* ab\t ?ree mon?s1 ,i 0 orda9$ an ,eld]1 "u ! h&s ( ,j>$ ,c>t]4 ,! next day ,i1 ) my wife1 w5t up to ,kirtl&1 to visit ! ,sa9ts liv+ !re4 ,aft] a v happy "t1 dur+ :i* ! book ( ,doctr9e & ,cov5ants 0 fir/ pres5t$ to ! ,*ur*1 we />t$ = home4 ,:ile on ! lakes1 ,i 0 attack$ by "o ( ! lake fev]s preval5t !re1 & became v ill inde$4 ,i 01 h[ev]1 tak5 home & put to b$4 ,! same day two ,eld]s ( ! ,*ur* call$ 9 to see me1 & f9d+ ,i 0 9 su* a condition1 !y laid _! h&s ^u me4 ,:ile _! h&s 7 yet ^u my head1 ,i felt ! disease remove f my body1 comm5c+ at ! pit ( my /oma*1 mov+ gradually upw>ds t[>ds ! h&s ( ! ,eld]s1 & ,i 0 made p]fectly :ole4 ,! same day ,i 0 out at "w milk+ my c[s1 & w5t ar\nd to invite my neighbors to he> ! prea*+ 9 ! ev5+4 ,?is 0 ! fir/ case ( heal+ ,i _h ev] witness$4 ,! succe$+ w9t] ,i aga9 w5t up to ,kirtl&1 to att5d ! d$ication ( ! temple1 & to meet ) ! solemn assembly t 0 !re conv5$4 ,!re ! ,_s ( ! ,"l1 z on ! day ( ,p5teco/1 0 pr(usely p\r$ out4 ,hundr$s ( ,eld]s spoke 9 tongues1 b1 _m ( !m be+ "y 9 ! ,*ur*1 & nev] hav+ witness$ ! manife/ation ( ?is gift be=e1 "s felt a little al>m$4 ,?is caus$ ! ,prophet ,joseph ,smi? to pray to ! ,"l to )hold ! ,_s4 ,joseph !n in/ruct$ !m on ! nature ( ! gift ( tongues1 & ! op]ation ( ! ,_s g5]ally4 ,we _h a mo/ glori\s & nev]-to-be-=gott5 "t4 ,angels 7 se5 by numb]s pres5t1 & ! fir/ end[m5ts 7 receiv$4 ,x 0 dur+ ?is assembly t ! ,sa9ts' favorite hymn 0 giv51 by inspiration1 comm5c+3 ,! ,_s ( ,god1 l a fire1 is burn+6 ,! latt]-day glory beg9s to come =?2 ,! visions & bless+s ( old are return+1 ,! angels are com+ to visit ! e>?4 ,! beauty & applicability ( ?is hymn w be se5 by ! ,sa9ts1 on read+ ! ?ird & f\r? v]ses1 :5 x is recollect$ t ?is 0 a solemn assembly1 & t ! ord9ance ( wa%+ ( feet1 etc41 0 j !n be+ att5d$ to4 ,x 0 also at ?is "t t ,elijah ! ,prophet appe>$1 & conf]r$ ^u ,joseph ! keys ( turn+ ! he>ts ( ! fa!rs to ! *ildr51 previ\s to ! re-in/itution ( ! ord9ance ( baptism = ! dead4 ,by ?is "t mo/ ( ! memb]s ( ! ,pomphret ,bran*1 into :i* ,i _h be5 baptiz$1 7 ga!r$ up to ,kirtl&1 ! fir/ ga!r+-place ( ! ,sa9ts2 & ,i 0 left )\t any "o to c\nsel or direct me z to ! way 9 :i* ,i %\ld devote my labors 9 spread+ ! pr9ciples ( tru?1 :5 "o day ! ,^w ( ! ,"l1 by ! p[] ( ! ,_s1 came unto me1 say+1 ,i h f\rte5 %eep 9 ,portl&3 g & ga!r !m2 !n g s\?1 :]e ,i h tw5ty-two m1 & ga!r !m also4 ,i !n began to prea* = ! fir/ "t1 & = t purpose procur$ ! s*ool-room 9 ,portl&1 &1 ?r\gh my fri5ds1 circulat$ a notice t ,i 0 go+ to prea*4 ,?is ga!r$ a small congregation ( "s ?irty or =ty p4 ,at ! "t appo9t$ ,i /ood up to address !m4 ,z soon z ,i arose on my feet & look$ on ! congregation1 ! dream :i* ,i _h _h five ye>s be=e1 b :i* ,i _h entirely =gott51 fla%$ across my recollection4 ,!re 0 ! id5tical room ,i _h se51 ) ! v p & *ildr51 j 9 ^? positions 9 ! place t ,i _h describ$ !m to my wife ye>s be=e1 :5 ,i in=m$ h] t ,i dream$ ,i 0 call$ to prea* ! ,gospel6 ,?is 0 summ] "t4 ,i cont9u$ prea*+ at ,portl& until ! w9t] came on1 :51 hav+ baptiz$ a few out ( ! place1 !y met at my h\se at ,pomphret on ,sundays1 & on ! week days ,i ext5d$ my labors 9 ! s\?4 ,z ,i 0 told1 ,i f\nd j f\rte5 9 ,portl& will+ to obey ! gospel1 & by no ex]tion ( m9e c\ld ,i get any m6 ,i also obta9$1 9 ! s\?1 ! tw5ty-two previ\sly spok5 (1 b x 0 a ye> & a half be=e ,i complet$ ! numb]4 ,n long aft] receiv+ ! (fice ( ,eld]1 ,i 0 call$ to lay h&s on a si/] nam$ ,cr[ell1 9 ,*autauqua ,c\nty1 ,new ,york1 :o 0 afflict$ ) a canc]4 ,h] life 0 despair$ ( by h]self & h] neighbors1 :5 %e s5t to me1 tell+ me to come t night if ,i wi%$ to see h] alive6 ,n be+ able to g !n1 ,i pray$ ! ,"l to give h] a good night's re/4 ,i visit$ h] 9 ! morn+1 & f\nd t %e _h _h a bett] night's re/ ?an usual4 ,i f\nd h] head1 :]e ! canc] _h brok5 out1 a dreadful sight1 full ( canc] worms1 :i* 7 eat+ into ! skull1 ?ree pieces ( :i* _h come out4 ,i ano9t$ h] head ) oil1 & pray$ ! ,"l on h] behalf1 &1 be+ oblig$1 left imm$iately to att5d to my hay4 ,! next "t ,i saw h] 0 ! foll[+ ,sunday1 :5 ,i met h] at ! meet+4 ,%e pull$ (f h] cap1 & %[$ me h] head4 ,x 0 entirely heal$1 & ! fle% 0 z s\nd z ev]4 ,%e said t )9 half an h\r aft] my adm9i/]+ to h]1 %e felt all ! pa91 :i* _h previ\sly be5 int5se1 &1 to use h] expression1 l a ?\s& gimlets bor+ into h] bra91 leave h] entirely1 & ! w\nd heal$ up rapidly4 ,! ,sa9ts t ,i ga!r$ at ,portl&1 & t met at my h\se1 7 ri*ly bless$ ) ! v>i\s gifts ( ! ,_s--tongues1 int]pretations1 prophecy1 etc4 ,i w relate an in/ance or two4 ,"o ,sunday morn+1 :ile op5+ ! meet+ ) pray]1 ! gift ( tongues came ^u me1 b ?9k+ ( ,paul's words1 t x is sometimes wisdom n to speak 9 tongues unless "o is pres5t :o c int]pret1 & =gett+ t a si/] possess+ ! gift ( int]pretation 0 pres5t1 ,i qu5*$ ! ,_s1 & x left me4 ,imm$iately aft]1 ano!r bro!r spoke 9 tongues1 ! int]pretation ( :i* 01 t ! ,"l knew we 7 anxi\s to le>n ( ! affairs ( our bre?r5 9 ,miss\ri1 & t if we w\ld humble ourselves be=e ,him1 & ask1 ,he w\ld reveal unto u ! desires ( our he>ts4 ,miss\ri 0 "s ?\s& miles f ,portl&4 ,we accord+ly b[$ aga9 9 supplication be=e ! ,"l1 &1 aft] ris+ f our knees & re-seat+ ourselves1 ! same bro!r broke out s++ 9 tongues 9 a l[1 m\rnful /ra94 ,b judge our feel+s :5 ! int]pretation 0 giv51 & 0 f\nd to be "s ?irte5 or f\rte5 v]ses ( poetry1 descriptive ( affairs 9 ,miss\ri1 & ! murd] ( our bre?r5 !re1 tell+ u t j at t "t-- ,our bre?r5 lay ble$+ on ! gr\nd1 ,) _! wives & *ildr5 weep+ ar\nd4 ,we _h s (t5 prov$ ! tru? ( simil> communications1 t we felt z assur$ ( ! tru? ( ?is %ock+ news z ?\gh our eyes actually beheld ! horrid sight4 ,our he>ts 7 fill$ ) sorr[4 ,9 a =tnight aft]w>ds we receiv$ a lett] f ,john ,p4 ,gre5e1 a fai?ful ,eld] ( ! ,*ur* 9 ,miss\ri1 :o 01 at ! "t he manag$ to write1 secret$ 9 ! woods4 ,! lett] detail$ & confirm$ all ! ev5ts previ\sly reveal$ 9 tongues1 prov+ t on ! v day we _h be5 in=m$ ( ! transactions occurr+ a ?\s& miles (f1 ! ble$+ corpses ( our bre?r5 lay /ret*$ on ! gr\nd aft] ! slaught]4 ,x 0 ei!r at or ab\t ?is "t1 t ! massacre at ,haun's ,mill took place4 ,:5 ,eld]s ,orson ,hyde & ,heb] ,c4 ,kimball visit$ ,engl& on ! fir/ mission to t c\ntry1 & :ile we 7 yet ignorant ( _! success1 x 0 reveal$ 9 tongues at ?is same bran*1 t j at ! "t we _h ! gift1 ^? ,eld]s 7 /&+ ) a l>ge multitude ar\nd "s wat]s1 att5d+ to ! ord9ance ( baptism4 ,in=mation aft]w>ds receiv$ f ,engl& confirm$ ?is /atem5t 9 all its p>ts4 ,su* ?+s z ^!1 (t repeat$1 confirm$ our fai?1 &1 ,i ask1 is x wond]ful1 possess+ su* evid5ces t ! ,"l 0 ) ! ,*ur*1 z ^? m5tion$ 9 ! previ\s n>rations1 t nei!r reproa*1 driv+s1 burn+s1 robb+s1 nor ev5 murd]+s1 %\ld be able to qu5* our love = ! tru? :i* _h ga9$ u su* bless+s8 ,!re 0 n a bran* 9 ! :ole ( ! ,*ur* t did n possess abundance ( su* te/imonies4 ,"h1 9 ^! & ! foll[+ /atem5ts1 is ! te/imony ( "o individual only4 ,b c\ld ,i cr[d into ?is little "w all t ,i h witness$ ( ! k9d1 & !n add to x ! collect$ te/imonies ( ! ?\s&s 9 ,am]ica alone1 leav+ out ,europe altoge!r1 x w\ld pres5t a flood ( te/imony ( a mighti] & m conclusive k9d ?an has be5 giv5 to au!nticate any tru? ev] submitt$ to ! _w4 ,"o ( ! f\rte5 p]sons conv]t$ at ,portl& 0 a "y man nam$ ,jesse ,w4 ,crosby1 &1 z x may prove int]e/+ to _m ( ! ,sa9ts1 ,i w relate some?+ t p>ticul>ly affect$ him1 occurr+ 9 8 hi/ory4 ,he _h be5 engag$ ) 8 bro!r & bro!r-9-law1 9 fell+ trees 9 a wood4 ,! trees grew v close toge!r1 & "o :i* !y cut d[n _h1 9 fall+1 /ruck ano!r1 & brok5 (f "o ( its limbs1 :i* hung susp5d$ by ! o!r bran*es4 ,x is a v common ?+ 9 =e/ c\ntry1 to see dry1 deta*$ limbs hang+ 9 ?is way = mon?s1 & sometimes ye>s1 )\t fall+4 ,?is "o 0 ab\t t5 or elev5 feet long1 & z ?ick z a man's ?igh1 & v high up ! tree4 ,n appreh5d+ dang]1 ,jesse 0 work+ )\t 8 hat1 j "u ?is bran*4 ,sudd5ly1 a movem5t1 caus$ by ! w9d1 %ook ! tree1 & ! loose bran* fell f a hight ( at lea/ sixty feet1 /rik+ him on ! cr[n ( 8 head1 cru%+ him to ! e>?4 ,! viol5ce ( ! bl[ broke 9 a portion ( 8 skull1 =m+ a holl[ ab\t z l>ge z ! palm ( a man's h&4 ,8 neck & %\ld]s 7 also mu* injur$4 ,altoge!r1 a m deplorable object ,i nev] saw 9 my life4 ,he 0 c>ri$ home by 8 fri5ds1 mo/ ( :om 7 memb]s ( ! ,*ur*1 & 8 fa!r1 :o 0 n a memb]1 procur$ a doctor1 :o pron\nc$ ,jesse's case desp]ate1 unless1 on remov+ ! brok5 "p ( ! skull1 x %\ld be f\nd t ! sk9 ( ! bra9 0 /ill entire1 :51 by us+ a silv] plate ov] ! expos$ portion1 a *ance might /ill exi/ ( 8 life4 ,! doctor proce$$ to cut ,jesse's head = t purpose1 b 0 /opp$ by 8 "m1 :o /rongly object$ to ?is exp]im5t1 & s5t = me to adm9i/] to him4 ,i 0 !n eight miles (f1 & at ! "t ( my arrival he _h n spok51 nor sc>cely indicat$ any signs ( life4 ,go+ into ! room :]e he lay1 ,i f\nd x fill$ ) ! neighbors1 :o 7 mo/ly enemies ( ! ,*ur*4 ,sne]s & je]s ( ,"h comes ! ,mormon1 we'll soon see :e!r he c heal n[1 salut$ my e>s on all sides4 ,f a sign :i* ,i _h receiv$ :ile on my way1 ,i knew ,jesse w\ld recov]1 & be+ rem9d$1 on acc\nt ( ! reason giv5 9 ! previ\s rem>ks1 t su* p %\ld n be privileg$ to behold a manife/ation ( ! p[] ( ,god1 ,i1 l ,pet] ( old1 cle>$ ! h\se ( all b ,jesse's relatives1 & adm9i/]$ to him 9 ! "n ( ! ,"l4 ,jesse !n recov]$ suffici5tly to speak1 aft] :i* he fell into a peaceful sleep1 &1 be=e morn+1 0 altoge!r bett]4 ,9 less ?an f\r days f ! "t ( receiv+ ?is t]rible accid5t1 f :i* !re seem$ no human probability t he c\ld recov]1 or1 if he did1 only to survive ! loss ( reason1 he 0 aga9 at "w 9 ! woods haul+ timb]1 ! w\nd be+ entirely heal$ up4 ,s9ce !n1 he1 z an ,eld] ( ?is ,*ur*1 has be5 on missions to v>i\s p>ts ( ! _w1 includ+ ,engl&1 & has also fulfill$ a mission to ,nova ,scotia4 ,! above case ( heal+ occurr$ 9 ! w9t]4 ,ano!r v rem>kable case ( prophecy & heal+ came "u my obs]vation ! foll[+ spr+4 ,a revelation 0 giv5 by ! ,_s1 9 tongues1 to ! effect t "o ( our numb] w\ld be poison$ by ! enemies ( ! ,*ur*1 & be br\ght nigh unto dea?1 b t if %e 0 fai?ful & s5t = ! ,eld]s ( ! ,*ur*1 %e %\ld be re/or$4 ,?is w>n+ 0 repeat$ twice at int]vals ( ab\t a mon?4 ,on ! la/ occasion1 9 addition1 x 0 /at$ t ! p]son giv+ ! int]pretation w\ld be ! suff]]4 ,?is t]rible idea s affect$ h] t %e 0 completely ov]come4 ,aft] recov]+ %e proce$$ home1 & ! wea!r be+ w>m %e drank ( "s sweet5$ wat]1 :i* %e _h prep>$ 9 ! morn+ = use1 & _h left 9 an expos$ situation4 ,:5 %e _h drank a second "t %e felt h] m\? burn4 ,%e imm$iately decl>$ %e 0 poison$1 & comm5c$ rea*+ viol5tly until %e became bl9d4 ,h] husb&1 aft] procur+ a p]son to /ay ) h]1 w5t = "o ( ! ,eld]s1 b z he _h to g "s six miles be=e he return$ ) myself1 %e 0 to all appe>ance dead1 & _h n be5 p]ceiv$ to brea! = an h\r4 ,^u arriv+ at ! h\se1 ,i ask$ ! ,"l to cause h] to brea! if %e 0 to recov]4 ,^u look+ at h] closely ,i p]ceiv$ t %e gave two di/9ct gasps1 su* z are usually giv5 :5 ! brea? is leav+ ! body4 ,_h ,i n se5 ?is1 ,i %\ld h conclud$ t %e 0 dead1 = ! wom5 :o 7 wat*+ ) h] said1 directly we ent]$1 t %e 0 dead1 & _h be5 s = an h\r4 ,i !n adm9i/]$ to h] 9 ! "n ( ,jesus1 & pray$ ! ,"l to pres]ve h] life till my son-9-law return$ ) "s oil he _h gone to procure4 ,z soon z ,i _h done ?is %e 0 able to speak suffici5tly1 9 a :isp]1 to ask = "s wat]1 b1 s great 0 h] weakness1 t %e fell on h] face :5 rais$ to receive ! wat]4 ,! oil arriv+1 we adm9i/]$ "s to h] int]nally1 9 ! "n ( ! ,"l1 :5 %e arose )\t any assi/ance1 say+1 ,i am heal$6 ,i am well6 b ,i am bl9d6 ,i !n ano9t$ h] eyes1 tell+ h] t %e %\ld see ! light ( day4 ,h] sight imm$iately return$1 & ! next day1 %e1 ) h] husb&1 0 on h] way to ,ill9ois4 ,! cause ( h] go+ !re s sudd5ly 0 t x _h be5 giv5 9 tongues1 directly aft] h] recov]y1 t unless h] husb& dep>t$ at once f t place1 bo? ( !m w\ld be poison$4 ,) :at _h j occurr$ be=e _! eyes1 !y ne$$ no second w>n+ ?is "t4 ,?is 0 ! same woman t 0 heal$ ( ! canc]4 ,! signs spok5 ( include ! ca/+ out ( devils4 ,?is recalls to my remembrance some?+ ( ! k9d :i* occurr$ at ! ,pomphret bran*1 previ\s to :i* ,i _h _h b v little exp]i5ce z to :at may be t]m$ ! physical p[] ( ! devil4 ,i 0 !n f> f ! body ( ! ,*ur*1 consequ5tly1 :at ,i le>n$1 ,i _h to f9d out by exp]i5ce1 hav+ no "o to tell me4 ,! case 0 t ( a si/] :o 0 possess$1 & :om ,i1 ) two o!r ,eld]s1 0 call$ ^u to visit4 ,directly we ent]$ h] room1 %e call$ out1 ,take y\r %oes f (f y\r feet2 ?is is holy gr\nd1 ! ,prophet ,elijah is "h4 ,i saw ! _s by :i* %e 0 influ5c$1 s ,i walk$ up to h] & said1 ,i am a s]vant ( ! ,"l1 ,i obey no comm& ( ! devil4 ,%e became upro>i\s directly1 = all :o _h gone 9 previ\sly _h compli$ ) h] directions4 ,z soon z we attempt$ to rebuke ! evil _s 9 ! "n ( ! ,"l1 %e arose up f ! b$ on h] feet1 )\t app>5tly b5d+ a jo9t 9 h] body1 z /iff z a rod ( iron4 ,f ?is we saw ! p[] ) :i* we _h to cont5d2 &1 fail+ at fir/ to eject ! _s1 we b[$ ourselves 9 pray] be=e ! ,"l1 & ask$ him to assi/ u4 ,! evil _s !n came out full ( fury1 &1 z he pass$ by "o ( ! bre?r51 seiz$ him by bo? arms & gripp$ !m viol5tly4 ,pass+ t[>ds me1 some?+1 :i* by ! feel appe>$ l a man's h&1 grasp$ me by bo? sides ( ! face1 & attempt$ to pull me sideways to ! gr\nd1 b ! hold appe>+ to slip1 ,i recov]$ my balance imm$iately4 ,my face 0 sore = "s days aft] ?is4 ,! o!r bro!r t 0 seiz$ 0 lame = a week aft]w>ds4 ,z soon z ?is 0 done1 ! si/] p>tly recov]$1 s mu* s t %e obey$ ev]y?+ ,i *ose to tell h] to d1 :]eas1 be=e1 %e 0 p]fectly ungov]nable4 ,/ill %e seem$ to be surr\nd$ by "s evil influ5ce4 ,?is puzzl$ u1 = we knew ! _s 0 ca/ out1 b we le>n$ ! cause aft]w>ds4 ,j !n x 0 reveal$ to u t if we w5t to sleep ! devil w\ld ent] "o ( ! bre?r54 ,my nephew1 ,melv9 ,br[n1 neglect$ ! w>n+1 & compos$ himself to sleep 9 an arm *air1 :ile we 7 /ill wat*+ ) ! si/]4 ,directly he did s ! devil ent]$ into him1 & he became black 9 ! face1 & ne>ly suffocat$4 ,he awoke imm$iately1 & motion$ = u to lay h&s on him1 = he c\ld n speak4 ,we did s1 & ! evil _s !n left him1 & he recov]$ at once4 ,ab\t a week aft]w>ds ! same _s re-ent]$ ! si/]1 & ?is "t fully confess$ 8 "*4 ,9 answ] to our enquiries1 he said 8 "n 0 ,legion4 ,?is expla9$ h[ x 0 t ! woman1 aft] we _h ca/ out an evil _s1 0 "u an evil influ5ce1 = !re mu/ h be5 _m spirits4 ,he also revil$ our prie/hood1 b he _h to submit to x at la/1 say+ to u1 ,o6 y h ! prie/hood h y8 ,well1 !n1 ca/ me out1 comm& me to come out1 try+ to %ake our fai?1 & ?us incapacitate u to rebuke him successfully4 ,fail+ 9 ?is1 he tri$ ano!r me?od by ent]+ me4 ,i felt seiz$ by a /range influ5ce1 & to e "q put to ! woman ,i knew ! answ] %e 0 go+ to give1 = ,i 0 possess$ by a simil> _s4 ,?is broke ! *a9 ( our union & /r5g?1 consequ5tly ,i reque/$ ! ,eld]s to rebuke ! evil _s f me1 aft] :i*1 at our unit$ rebuke1 he left ! woman4 ,previ\s to ?is ! si/] _h be5 a v fai?ful ,sa9t1 & %e ev] aft]w>ds 01 b %e _h giv5 ! devil gr\nd by enc\rag+ a _s contr>y to ! ord] ( ! ,*ur*1 tak+ ^u h]self to rebuke ! ,eld]s1 & he claim$ 8 "r by virtue ( h] transgression4 ,no d\bt "o object ( ! ,"l 9 p]mitt+ him to ex]cise 8 physical p[] 0 to give me exp]i5ce ( su* facts1 )\t :i* ,i nev] c\ld h kn[n2 b ,i1 l _m o!rs :o may read ?is record1 might h argu$ my ignorance ( su* ?+s z a pro( t !y did n exi/1 except 9 imag9ation4 ,,*apt] ,,iii4 ,,removal ,,to ,,nauvoo--,,sickness--,,miracul\sly ,,heal$--,,acquire ,,consid]able ,,prop]ty--,,acqua9tance ,,) ,,joseph ,,smi?--,,missions ,,to ,,albany1 ,,& ,,! ,,ea/]n ,,/ates2 ,,also1 ,,) ,,eld] ,j4 ,w4 ,,crosby1 ,,to ,,nova ,,scotia--,,prea* ,,9 ,,jeff]son ,,co41 ,n4 ,y41 ,,& ,,organize ,,six ,,bran*es ,,( ,,! ,,*ur*--,,travel ,,to ,,new ,,brunswick--,,invit$ ,,to ,,prea*--,,baptisms--,,p]secution--,,! ,,au?or ,,waylaid ,,by ,a ,,mob1 ,,beat51 ,,& ,,left ,,= ,,dead--,,attack ,,on ,,! ,,h\se ,,:]e ,,he ,,& ,,eld] ,,crosby ,,7 ,,9 ,,b$--,,! ,,mob ,,disp]s$ ,,by ,,mrs4 ,,%elton--,,!y ,,return ,,& ,,re-,,attack ,,! ,,h\se--,,are ,,disp]s$ ,,by ,,mr4 ,,%elton--,,two ,,bran*es ,,organiz$4 ,! doctr9e ( ! ga!r+ _h be5 taught ! ,sa9ts1 at ,pomphret1 &1 9 common ) ! o!rs1 ,i felt a great desire to ga!r up & live ) ! body ( ! ,*ur*4 ,) ?is idea ,i endeavor$ to dispose ( my f>m1 b failure 9 my ef=ts to d ?is 0 ! only ?+ t sav$ me f a %>e 9 ! ,miss\ri p]secutions4 ,! w9t] previ\s to ! poison+ case ,i sold my f>m1 & ! "t = me to vacate expir$ j be=e ?is took place4 ,= sev]al mon?s ,i 0 prep>+ to remove1 gett+ teams1 wagons1 etc4 ,:5 ! "t arriv$1 ) my wife & *ildr51 & "p ( ! bran*1 includ+ ! woman :o _h be5 poison$ & h] husb&1 ,i />t$ to f9d ! ,*ur*1 ?9k+ x 0 /ill 9 ,miss\ri1 ?\gh we _h he>d t x _h be5 mobb$ & brok5 up4 ,we j\rney$ until we came to ,spr+field1 ab\t a hundr$ miles f ,nauvoo1 :]e we met ) "s bre?r5 :o _h be5 driv5 out ( ,miss\ri1 & :o told u t ! ,*ur* 0 collect+ 9 ,nauvoo1 !n call$ ,comm]ce4 ,we turn$ our c\rse 9 t direction1 & arriv$ !re 9 ,june1 ! wea!r be+ v w>m at ! "t4 ,we f\nd bro!rs ,joseph ,smi? & ,sidney ,rigdon !re1 ) a few o!rs4 ,! re/ 7 com+ 9 daily1 9 a mo/ di/ress$ condition4 ,_m ( !m 7 sick1 & !y _h no h\se to ent] :5 !y arriv$4 ,! nature ( ! climate1 comb9$ ) ! h>d%ips !y _h endur$1 soon made ^? ill :o 7 n s previ\sly4 ,numb]s ( ! sick & dy+ _h to lie on ! gr\nd1 ) only a blanket ov] !m4 ,no spr+s or wells 7 h&y1 & ! ,mississippi wat] 0 unfit to dr9k1 s t _m _h to g miles = wat] to give to ! afflict$4 ,sometimes "o w\ld g on horseback ) a jug1 & fet* a little = ! sick1 & take x r\nd to !m4 ,x 0 frequ5tly decl>$ t ! p]secutions 9 ,miss\ri 7 small matt]s comp>$ to ! mis]ies endur$ at ?is p]iod 9 ,nauvoo4 ,my family1 ) myself1 7 also tak5 sick1 & ,i laid s = two or ?ree weeks4 ,i 0 s f> gone t ,i 0 q s5seless1 & all ?\ght ,i 0 dy+4 ,d\btless ,i %\ld h di$1 b "o day ,joseph ,smi? 0 pass+ by my door 7= ,i _h manag$ to procure a h\se7 & 0 call$ 91 &1 z ,i 0 aft]w>ds in=m$1 laid 8 h&s ^u me1 & comm&$ me to arise & walk1 9 ! "n ( ! ,"l4 ,! fir/ ?+ ,i knew 0 t ,i f\nd myself walk+ on ! floor1 p]fectly well1 & )9 t5 m9utes aft]w>ds ,i 0 out ( ! h\se visit+ my daught]1 :om ,i _h n se5 = ne>ly a mon?4 ,i felt s full ( joy & happ9ess1 t ,i 0 greatly surpris$ t e "o else 0 n z full ( praise z myself4 ,?is 0 ! second "t t ,i _h be5 heal$ in/antly by ! p[] ( ,god1 ?r\gh ,8 s]vants4 ,attempts _h be5 made to build a city on ! site ( ,nauvoo1 previ\s to ! entrance ( ! ,sa9ts1 b all ! inhabitants1 ) ! exception ( ?ree or f\r families1 _h di$1 & ! ,sa9ts us$ ! des]t$ h\ses z f> z !y w\ld g4 ,x 0 a common say+ among ! inhabitants ( ! surr\nd+ c\ntry t1 if ! ,mormons c\ld live "h1 !y c\ld live any:]e4 ,x truly 0 a mo/ unheal?y spot1 fill$ ) ponds & /agnant wat]1 left by ! ov]fl[+ ( ! ,mississippi riv]1 afflict+ all ! neighborhood ) fev] & ague4 ,f ?is condition ,i saw ! city become1 ?r\gh ! indu/ry ( ! ,sa9ts1 a heal?y & prosp]\s place1 be+ dra9$ ( ^! swamps1 etc4 ,i liv$ !re until ,i _h accumulat$ consid]able prop]ty4 ,dur+ ?is "t1 ab\t sev5 ye>s1 ,i _h frequ5t opportunities ( cont9u+ my acqua9tance ) ,joseph ,smi?1 see+ him ne>ly e day4 ,f my actual k1 ,i c te/ify to ! purity & uprightness ( 8 life1 & ,i "k t he 0 a man ( ,god4 ,i _h e opportunity to acquire ?is in=mation1 =1 :5 escap+ f 8 enemies1 he has liv$ sometimes = a week at a "t at my resid5ce4 ,dur+ ?is p]iod sev]al missions 7 appo9t$ me1 "o to ! nor? ( ,albany1 :]e ,i succe$$ 9 baptiz+ a goodly numb]2 ano!r to ! ,ea/]n ,/ates4 ,ab\t a ye> previ\s to ! dea? ( ,joseph1 ) ,jesse ,w4 ,crosby1 :o _h fri5ds 9 t "p1 ,i 0 assign$ a mission to ,nova ,scotia4 ,our r\te lay ?r\gh ,*icago1 a di/ance ( two hundr$ miles1 :i* we walk$4 ,we !n1 by /eam]1 pass$ d[n ! nor!rn lakes to ,buffalo1 a j\rney ( at lea/ a ?\s& miles1 & aga9 took /eam] on ,lake ,ont>io1 ab\t f\r hundr$ miles fur!r1 & arriv$ at ,sackett's ,h>bor4 ,z we 7 de/itute ( means to prosecute our j\rney fur!r1 &1 z ,i _h "s relatives liv+ at h&1 we conclud$ to /op & prea* a:ile1 until we c\ld procure means to g on1 b ! wea!r com+ on v cold1 ! riv]s froze ov]1 & we 7 compell$ to sp5d ! w9t] 9 ?is place4 ,?is br\ght me into ! region ( c\ntry :]e ,i _h liv$ = t5 ye>s :5 a "y man4 ,! fir/ place we comm5c$ at 0 9 ! t[n ( ,lime1 ,jeff]son ,co41 ,new ,york4 ,"h we procur$ a s*ool-h\se4 ,two m9i/]s1 :o usually occupi$ ! room1 greatly oppos$ u at ! close ( our prea*+1 & endeavor$ to set ! p aga9/ u1 b !y display$ su* a weak1 mean _s1 t _! congregation left !m4 ,"o m9i/]1 :o _h a regul> sal>y ) a small f>m1 = 8 prea*+1 _h !m tak5 f him1 & _m ( 8 foll[]s became memb]s ( ! ,*ur*4 ,we conf9$ our labors *iefly to ,jeff]son ,co41 :]e we f\nd a few scatt]$ memb]s1 & manag$ to raise up "s six bran*es1 consi/+ ( ab\t two hundr$ memb]s4 ,^! 7 abundantly bless$ ) ! gifts ( tongues1 prophecy1 heal+s1 etc41 & ! bran*es became v /rong 9 ! fai?4 ,:ile we 7 "h1 ,i felt v anxi\s to "k ( ! position ( affairs at head qu>t]s1 & bes\ght ! ,"l to enlight5 me on ! subject4 ,he did s1 reveal+ unto me1 ?r\gh ! gift ( tongues1 ! int]pretation ( :i* 0 giv5 to myself1 _m ?+s conc]n+ ! ,*ur*1 ! temple ord9ances at ,nauvoo1 & sev]al o!r ?+s1 t ,i f\nd1 on my return to t place1 to be /rictly true4 ,j at ?is "t ! spr+ 0 com+ on1 & ! ,/4 ,lawr5ce riv] began to cle> f ice1 s t we 7 able to cont9ue our j\rney to ,nova ,scotia4 ,previ\s to our dep>ture we _h a f>ewell meet+ ) ! ,sa9ts4 ,x 0 a delightful meet+1 & !y rejoic$ mu*1 = ! ,_s ( ! ,"l 0 greatly p\r$ out4 ,dur+ ! meet+1 a little boy /ood up & spoke 9 tongues1 ! te>s roll+ d[n 8 face all ! "t4 ,! int]pretation /at$ t1 aft] leav+ t place1 ,i %\ld g to ano!r1 :]e ,i %\ld be mobb$ & left = dead1 & t ! blood %\ld run d[n f my head on my clo!s & on ! gr\nd4 ,i took ?is = a timely w>n+1 & ?\ght t1 by prud5ce1 ,i might escape4 ,accord+ly1 by great caution1 ,i kept cle> ( mu* t ,i might h suff]$4 ,we pass$ d[n ! ,/4 ,lawr5ce riv]1 &1 aft] prea*+ a few times at ,montreal1 pass$ on to ,quebec1 :]e we di/ribut$ a few books1 b ! prie/s w\ld n all[ u to prea*4 ,at ?is place we wi%$ to take ! /eamboat to ,nova ,scotia1 b our means 7 inadequate1 & ! capta9 refus$ to l[] ! f>e4 ,aga9 we 7 fru/rat$ 9 our purpose to proce$ on our mission4 ,?is 0 our position :51 "o day1 z ,eld] ,crosby & ,i 7 walk+ ab\t ,quebec1 wond]+ :at we %\ld d to accompli% our purpose1 we came 9 contact ) a g5tleman :o told u a plan by :i* we might fulfill our mission--go+ on a sail+ vessel to ! m\? ( ! riv] ,delieu1 !n by l& to ! head wat]s ( ,/4 ,johns riv]1 ,new ,brunswick2 !n to buy a canoe1 & paddle d[n t riv] to ! m\?1 :]e we c\ld1 = a small sum1 take %ip any day = ,nova ,scotia4 ,?is advice we conclud$ to act ^u1 b be=e we left ,quebec1 z our j\rney seem$ to be div]t$ f its orig9al purpose1 ,i pray$ ! ,"l to %[ u1 9 vision1 ^? p among :om he wi%$ u to /op & conf9e our ef=ts1 = our mission to ,nova ,scotia _h be5 assign$ to u at ! reque/ ( ,bro!r ,crosby1 ^: fri5ds liv$ 9 t "p1 & 0 m to comply ) 8 desire ?an f any prior int5tion ! ,presid5cy _h ) reg>d to ! place4 ,desc5d+ ,/4 ,john's riv] 9 ! canoe1 we ov]took a man on a raft1 :o ask$ u sev]al que/ions1 & f9ally we told him t we 7 prea*]s ( ! gospel4 ,aft] he>+ ?is he invit$ u to /op at 8 h\se1 ab\t tw5ty miles f>!r d[n ! riv]1 & prea* !re on ! ,sunday4 ,?is we did4 ,we _h a l>ge congregation1 & f\nd a f9e op5+ = ! spread ( ! tru?4 ,at ! close ( ! meet+1 at :i* ,i prea*$ & ,eld] ,crosby bore te/imony1 we 7 invit$ to d9e ) a family resid+ !re4 ,! wife ( our ho/ told u t1 ab\t two or ?ree mon?s be=e1 ! m9i/] t _h prea*$ 9 t "p ( ! c\ntry _h left1 & !y 7 )\t any religi\s in/ructor1 :5 %e pray$ ! ,"l to s5d "s fai?ful p]son to supply 8 place4 ,?us engag$1 %e 0 %[n 9 a vision two m51 ! eld] ( :om 0 prea*+1 b ! o!r deliv]$ an exhortation ( a diff]5t k9d4 ,! doctr9e1 %e said1 0 new to h]1 b x seem$ true4 ,%e also recollect$ di/9ctly ! clo!s & appe>ance ( ^! m51 &1 to h] great surprise & pleasure1 recogniz$ !m 9 ! p]sons ( ,eld] ,crosby & myself1 directly we ent]$ ! room4 ,( c\rse our he>ts 7 *e]$ at he>+ ?is1 & we felt assur$ t ! ,"l 0 work+ 9 ! v9ey>d ) ,8 s]vants4 ,we comm5c$ to baptize soon aft]w>ds1 & ! ,_s ( ! ,"l 0 mightily p\r$ out1 9 proportion to :i* ! p[]s ( d>kness began to manife/ !mselves ?r\gh ! unbeliev]s4 ,b t :i* enrag$ our oppon5ts mo/ 0 ! baptism ( "s ( ! greate/ m5 9 ! place4 ,all mann] ( lies began to circulate ab\t our conduct & int5tions4 ,among o!r ?+s1 x 0 /at$ t we 7 9 ! habit ( int]rupt+ public meet+s1 & _m su* /atem5ts 7 privately =w>d$ to ! gov]nor ( ,new ,brunswick by ! religi\s m9i/]s & o!rs ( our enemies4 ,?is l$ him to s5d d[n an ord] to ?ree ju/ices ( ! peace to conv5e a meet+1 & produce :atev] k9d ( evid5ce c\ld be procur$1 ei!r = or aga9/1 & report accord+ly4 ,be=e ?is meet+ 0 held we asc]ta9$ t ^! ju/ices1 :o 7 our mo/ bitt] enemies1 _h be5 se>*+ law books = some?+ to lay hold ( u )1 & _h f\nd an old /atute1 apply+ to ! :ole ( ! prov9ce1 =bidd+ all diss5t]s to hold public religi\s s]vices )\t a writt5 lic5se f ! gov]nor4 ,b ! _s ( _! purpose 0 %[n by ! fact t !y _h nev] put ?is law 9 =ce aga9/ ! num]\s diss5t]s t _h fl\ri%$ !re--9 fact1 two ( ^! ju/ices 7 diss5t]s !mselves4 ,! day ( ! meet+ arriv$1 & all mann] ( witnesses t c\ld be rak$ toge!r 7 produc$--among o!rs a negro's evid5ce 0 tak51 :o _h previ\sly be5 convict$ ( tak+ a false oa?4 ,b = ! purpose ( ?is holy tribunal ?is te/imony 0 good en\gh6 ,:at matt]$8 ,he 0 n = ! def5se--^u :i* side ( ! "q x did n occur to ! ju/ices1 z a necess>y ?+1 to call = any witnesses :atev]4 ,i quickly discov]$ t x 0 high "t to /ir 9 ! matt]1 or possibly ! next discov]y w\ld be t we 7 inmates ( a jail2 s1 tak+ ! advice ( ,squire ,%elton1 a g5tleman :om we _h baptiz$1 ,i wait$ ) him on ,judge ,b>dsley1 ! judge ( ! c\nty1 :o _h frequ5tly att5d$ our meet+s1 & ,i procur$ a c]tificate f him t he _h done s1 & _h he>d no?+ injuri\s to ! p or ! gov]nm5t4 ,) ?is & a simil> c]tificate f ,mr4 ,%elton1 :o 0 also a ju/ice ( ! peace1 ,bro!r ,crosby & ,i w5t to ! gov]nor's resid5ce1 & obta9$ an int]view2 b we f\nd him mo/ t]ribly prejudic$ aga9/ u1 & v ignorant ( law & gospel4 ,he broke d[n1 h[ev]1 be=e ! argum5ts ( 8 aid-de-camp & c\nsel1 :o plead$ on our behalf1 aft] battl+ ) him = ab\t two h\rs4 ,! result 01 t all law proce$+s aga9/ u 7 /opp$4 ,?is enrag$ our enemies s mu* t our lives became endang]$1 &1 to escape _! viol5ce1 we _h to sleep 9 ! woods1 & d our baptiz+ 9 ! night1 z _! det]m9ation 0 to mob u ! fir/ opportunity4 ,un=tunately1 "o ( !m ov]he>d me promise to visit "o ( ! bre?r5 aft] ,i _h be5 prea*+ "o day4 ,?is mobb]1 ) a p>ty ( ab\t t5 o!rs1 waylaid me4 ,"s ( !m held me :ile ! re/ beat me ab\t ! head ) _! fi/s2 b n be+ able to bruise me suffici5tly 9 ?is mann]1 "o ( !m took (f "o ( my boots1 & belabor$ me ab\t ! head ) ! heel ( x until ,i 0 cov]$ ) blood1 :i* ran d[n on to my clo!s & ! gr\nd4 ,"s ( !m !n ?rew me d[n1 & jump$ ^u me ) _! knees until !y broke sev]al ( my ribs4 ,all ?is :ile ,i _h be5 call+ out l\dly1 :5ev] !y did n /op my m\?4 ,b x sudd5ly occurr$ to me t1 if ,i 7 to pret5d to be dead !y w\ld leave me1 ?9k+ _! murd]\s "w accompli%$2 s ,i groan$ l\dly z if dy+1 & resign$ myself into _! h&s1 hold+ my brea? z mu* z possible4 ,?is succe$$1 ! d>kness ( ! night favor+ my purpose1 & !y left me1 & ran (f z fa/ z !y c\ld4 ,directly !y 7 gone ,i arose1 ?\gh ) great difficulty1 & w5t into a h\se n f> di/ant1 :]e ,i wa%$ ! blood (f my p]son1 & ,eld] ,crosby1 :o also came !re1 laid h&s ^u me4 ,! mob1 h[ev]1 by "s means discov]+ t ,i 0 n yet dead1 & t ,eld] ,crosby 0 ) me1 met1 & resolv$ to attack ! h\se t night1 &1 if possible1 get possession ( bo? ( u1 aft] :i* !y purpos$ to cut (f ,eld] ,crosby's e>s1 t> & fea!r u1 c>ry u out into ! middle ( ,/4 ,johns riv]1 &1 aft] ty+ /ones to our feet1 s9k u bo?4 ,! fir/ intimation t we receiv$ ( ?is det]m9ation 0 by a wood5 rail be+ hurl$ aga9/ ! w9d[4 ,! rail broke ?r\gh ! w9d[1 came 9 ^u ! b$ :]e we 7 sleep+1 & awoke u bo?4 ,we imm$iately sprang up1 & ,eld] ,crosby ru%$ to ! door :]e !y 7 hamm]+ to get 94 ,he held x z well z he c\ld1 b 9 ano!r mom5t !y w\ld h succe$$1 _h n ,mrs4 ,%elton1 :o _h be5 al>m$ by ! noise1 come ^u !m unexpect$ly ) a light$ c&le1 & surpris$ !m 9 ! act4 ,?is fright5$ !m1 &1 al>m$ le/ !y %\ld be kn[n1 !y fl$ ) ! re/ t _h be5 po/$ at ! o!r p>ts ( ! h\se4 ,we 7 quiet aft] ?is = ab\t an h\r1 & ,ju/ice ,%elton1 at ^: h\se we 7 /opp+1 w5t to al>m ! neighbors & 8 son1 :o liv$ "s di/ance (f1 s t we might h assi/ance 9 case ( ! mob return+4 ,! mob return$ :ile he 0 gone1 hav+ recruit$ _! spirits ) :isky4 ,!y made a second attack ^u ! h\se1 try+ ano!r door ?is "t4 ,b ,eld] ,crosby held ! door ) an iron grasp & ! resolution ( a lion1 s !y 7 aga9 unsuccessful4 ,aft] dr9k+ r\nd !y tri$ a ?ird "t1 & "o ( !m manag$ to get 8 arm ?r\gh ! door op5+1 b :ile do+ s he 0 caught r\nd ! wai/ 9 ! arms ( ,mr4 ,%elton's son1 :o1 ) sev]al o!rs ent]$ ! place at ! mom5t4 ,& ?us ! ,"l deliv]$ u out ( _! h&s1 = !y 7 n long disp]s+ !mselves aft] ?is4 ,sev]al ( !m 7 recogniz$ by our fri5ds4 ,^! ,mr4 ,%elton put "u bonds1 b !y ?reat5$ to burn 8 h\se & b>n if he attempt$ to prosecute2 & fe>+ t ! gov]nm5t1 f its dislike to ! ,sa9ts1 w\ld refuse to back him up1 he 0 compell$ to let ^! mobb]s g1 & we rema9$ )\t r$ress4 ,9 ! =ego+ recital1 ! read] w p]ceive h[ fully ! ^w ( ! ,"l1 spok5 9 tongues by ! y\? be=e we left ,jeff]son ,c\nty1 0 fulfill$4 ,! next day1 by ! bless+ ( ,god1 ,i recov]$ suffici5tly to walk sev5te5 miles & prea*1 b my face 0 discolor$1 & ,i c\ld only see ) "o eye4 ,i took = my text1 ,paul's words1 ?rice h ,i be5 beat5 ) /ripes1 etc4 &1 z may be suppos$1 my p]sonal appe>ance furni%$ a v favorable evid5ce1 on behalf ( my argum5t1 t ! same effects--viol5ce & dea?1 foll[$ ! prea*+ ( ! gospel 9 ^! days1 z did anci5tly4 ,not)/&+ our p]secutions we did n leave ! c\ntry1 b cont9u$ to prea*1 fe>less ( opposition1 until we _h baptiz$ ab\t fifty1 & organiz$ two bran*es4 ,^! 7 also visit$ abundantly ) ! signs foll[+1 & ! ,sa9ts rejoic$ greatly 9 ! "w4 ,! p]secution 0 a failure 9 ,satan's calculation2 x only excit$ curiosity & awak5$ att5tion to our pr9ciples4 ,,*apt] ,,iv4 ,,return ,,to ,,nauvoo--,,s5t ,,to ,,jeff]son ,,c\nty ,,on ,a ,,ti?+ ,,mission--,,return ,,) ,a ,,?\s& ,,doll>s--,,remove ,,we/ ,,) ,,! ,,*ur*--,,/ay ,,at ,,w9t] ,,qu>t]s--,,orda9$ ,,bi%op--,,scurvy ,,9 ,,camp--,,hire ,,out ,,9 ,,miss\ri--,,arrive ,,9 ,,salt ,,lake ,,valley--,,eld] ,,kimball',s ,,prophecy ,,& ,,its ,,fulfillm5t4 ,! "w 9 ,new ,brunswick roll$ on prosp]\sly1 b ! "t came :5 we _h calculat$ to be at home4 ,we _h he>d1 too1 t our belov$ ,prophet _h be5 murd]$ 9 ,c>?age jail1 & we naturally felt anxi\s to "k h[ ?+s 7 ) our families & fri5ds at ,nauvoo4 ,our p>t+ ) ! ,sa9ts 9 ,new ,brunswick 0 n v pleasant1 z may be suppos$4 ,z we 7 leav+ ! place1 :ile /opp+ by "s wat]1 wait+ to cross by means ( ! f]ry1 we 7 ov]tak5 by two p]sons1 :o reque/$ u to baptize !m4 ,?is we did1 & confirm$ !m on ! spot--su* 0 ! _s ( ! "w 9 t region4 ,we return$ by way ( ,bo/on1 :]e ,i left ,bro!r ,crosby4 ,i arriv$ at ,nauvoo safely1 b ,i _h sc>cely be5 !re ?ree weeks be=e ,i 0 aga9 s5t to ,jeff]son ,co41 ?is "t on a ti?+ mission4 ,i got back 9 ab\t f\r mon?s1 c>ry+ ) me ab\t a ?\s& doll>s :i* ! ,sa9ts _h donat$ t[>ds build+ ! temple ( ! ,"l4 ,:ile ,i 0 on my mission to ,new ,brunswick1 ! ,*ur* promis$ ! mob to leave ,nauvoo by ! next grass "t--spr+1 s t :5 ,i return$ ! second "t ! city 0 all excitem5t4 ,all t c\ld 7 sell+ out1 "s 7 dispos+ ( _! ?+s by auction1 = :atev] c\ld be got1 :ile o!rs w\ld take c>t-loads ( furniture out into ! c\ntry1 & swap x = money or cattle2 =1 ready or n ready1 ! mob meant to h ! ,sa9ts out by ! "t /at$4 ,my prop]ty 0 r m pleasantly situat$ ?an _m o!rs'1 & ,i succe$$ 9 gett+ ! munific5t sum ( #bej = my h\se & or*>d1 ! nurs]y to :i* conta9$ six ?\s& "y graft$ fruit trees1 & 0 wor? #c1jjj at lea/4 ,_m ( ! ,sa9ts w\ld h be5 glad to h got (f ) no great] sacrifice ?an myself1 b z ! "t drew ne>1 ! prices (f]$ = our prop]ty fell 9 proportion4 ,"s ( ! ,sa9ts did n get half z mu* z ,i did1 = prop]ty equally valuable4 ,o!rs got no?+ at all1 b _h to leave _! h\ses j z !y 71 & ^? liv+ 9 ! outskirts ( ! city 7 sav$ ! sacrifice ( sell+ _! h\ses = less ?an _! wor?1 = ! mob burn$ ab\t ?ree hundr$ ( !m d[n1 & de/roy$ ! prop]ty ( ! own]s4 ,! ,sa9ts 7 h>d at "w all ! w9t] mak+ wagons4 ,! p t came into ! city 7 a/oni%$ to see ! hundr$s & ?\s&s ( wagons t 7 turn$ out 9 a few mon?s4 ,9 ,febru>y1 #ahdf1 ! au?orities took ! lead1 cross$ ! riv] ,mississippi ) a l>ge camp1 & /opp$ "s sev5 or eight miles f ! wat] on ! o!r side1 wait+ = ! sn[ to g (f1 :i* j !n _h fall5 heavily4 ,9 consequ5ce ( ?is !y _h no food = _! cattle1 & be+ at ! end ( regul> settlem5ts1 _h great difficulty 9 procur+ any food1 b z soon z possible !y 7 on ! move4 ,:5 ! g5]al emigration ( ! ma9 body ( ! ,*ur* came on1 x 0 pretty mu* all at once4 ,on ! ,nauvoo side ( ! riv] two or ?ree hundr$ wagons 7 wait+ at "o "t = ! f]ry4 ,9 ^! wagons ! ,sa9ts _h to sleep1 cook+ _! food on ! bea*4 ,al?\gh all ! boats & f]ries t c\ld be _h 7 employ$1 ?is /ate ( ?+s cont9u$ = upw>ds ( a mon?4 ,all ! opposite %ore 0 cov]$ ) wagons 9 :i* ! ,sa9ts 7 liv+1 b multitudes 7 )\t any protection f ! wea!r1 except t5ts made ) blankets1 "u "o ( :i* a :ole family _h to live4 ,a sc5e ( human suff]+ & endurance = ! gospel's sake1 on s l>ge a scale1 has seldom if ev] be=e be5 se5 on ! e>?4 ,! suff]+s ( ! ,sa9ts dur+ _! expulsion f ,miss\ri1 & _! entrance to ,nauvoo1 7 p]haps m int5se1 b n s _m ,sa9ts endur$ !m4 ,picture1 de> read]1 to y\rself1 ! case ( ?\s&s--!y _h be5 mobb$ & plund]$ 9 ,miss\ri1 _h escap$ only z fugitives1 & _h arriv$ at a new location1 ,nauvoo1 only to see _! families die (f ar\nd !m by ! fev] & ague ( t place4 ,aft] surviv+ ^! tr\bles1 *e]+ up1 beg9n+ life afre%1 & see+ ?is abode ( dea? conv]t$1 by incessant toil1 into a g>d5 ( heal? & prosp]ity1 fancy to y\rself ! feel+s ( ! ,sa9ts :5 call$ ^u to resign ^! bless+s1 made d\bly valuable by be+ s de>ly paid =1 & to ex*ange !m = a b>r5 wild]ness1 a prospect ( a ?\s& miles' j\rney across untrack$ pla9s & m\nta9s1 & ! probability ( dea? on ! j\rney1 or ( />vation aft]w>ds4 ,w ! annals ( hi/ory pres5t a simil> case8 ,! exodus ( ,moses & 8 b&s 0 n equal to x1 = he _h a goodly l& to promise 8 ho/s--a l& fl[+ ) milk & honey1 to *e] _! spirits up4 ,!y only _h to ent] ^u ! already cultivat$ l& ( _! enemies4 ,b "h 7 tw5ty ?\s& p />t+ to locate a ?\s& miles beyond ! bord]s ( civiliz$ life1 ov] :at _h always be5 consid]$ impassable m\nta9s4 ,reports _h arriv$ ( ,colonel ,fremont's exploration1 & ! h>d%ips he _h suff]$1 b "h 7 n only m51 b ?\s&s ( wom5 & *ildr51 />t+ on ! same haz>d\s j\rney1 n only tempor>ily to endure ^! difficulties1 b propos+ to make a settl$ home 9 ^? dre>y wilds1 & live :]e !y 7 told n a spe> ( :eat c\ld be rais$4 ,not)/&+ all ^! ?+s1 ! recollection ( pa/ h>d%ips1 & ! prospect ( ^? 9 ! future1 ! ,sa9ts 7 n dispirit$1 b f _! abodes asc5d$ ! s\nd ( joy & ( rejoic+1 to ?9k t !y _h at la/ a prospect ( gett+ beyond ! p[] ( _! enemies4 ,%ortly ! fir/ camp mov$ on1 & ! re/ ( ! ,sa9ts came up to x 9 succession1 b n until ! fir/ camp _h cross$ ! ,miss\ri riv]4 ,"h ! comm& 01 ,/op & raise gra9 to g on ) next ye>1 = we _h a ?\s& miles' j\rney ahead1 & n a settlem5t on ! road2 besides1 unless we wi%$ to />ve1 we mu/ h gra9 to s[ our l&s :5 we got !re4 ,s1 at ! ^w1 a spot 0 select$ &1 be=e _m weeks _h pass$1 l&s 9 all directions 7 f5c$ 91 & a city compos$ ( r\ghly-built h\ses & wagons1 & call$ ,w9t] ,qu>t]s1 sprang into exi/5ce4 ,z ! w9t] 01 h[ev]1 j com+ on1 ( c\rse we c\ld n put 9 any gra9 until ! spr+4 ,we began1 !n1 m ?an ev]1 to feel ! de/itution ( our position1 = want ( vegetables _h br\ght on ! scurvy1 ! provisions ( _m became exhau/$1 & our prospects ( a fre% supply seem$ r di/ant4 ,! city 0 laid out 9 w>ds1 ov] ea* ( :i* a ,bi%op 0 appo9t$4 ,"o ( ^! w>ds 0 committ$ to me1 & ?is1 ( c\rse1 entail$ ^u me ! c>e ( ! poor--no trifl+ matt] "u su* circum/ances4 ,x w\ld take no small space to describe all ! exp$i5ts to :i* ,i 0 (t5 driv5 9 fulfillm5t ( ?is duty1 = ! little /ock ,i _h ( my own 0 soon gone1 & /ill ! poor _h n done eat+4 ,:at 0 to be done8 ,i w5t to ,presid5t ,"y1 & v pa!tically told him t all my gra9 0 gone1 & ,i _h n ! fir/ %ill+ 9 my possession ) :i* to get any m4 ,all ! consolation ,i got f him 0 "s in/ruction to fe$ !m well1 & take c>e !y h en\gh to eat1 & x w\ld n d = a ,sa9t to say he c\ld n4 ,s ,i _h to s*eme4 ,i borr[$ t5 doll>s f a si/] :o possess$ a small /ore4 ,i !n cross$ ! ,miss\ri riv]1 & laid ! money out 9 meal & meat4 ,b :5 ?is 0 gone ,i _h to borr[ ( "s "o else to pay h]1 & !n ( "s "o else to pay him4 ,i borr[$ until ,i made my debt up to fifty doll>s1 & no m *ance ( paym5t appe>$ ?an at fir/4 ,:o w\ld n h be5 a ,bi%op !n8 ,=tunately1 j at ?is juncture1 ! lo/ cattle ( "o :o _h di$ 9 my w>d came into my h&s1 & ,i sold !m = fifty doll>s4 ,i paid my debt1 & 0 ready to comm5ce borr[+ aga9 ) a cle> consci5ce4 ,! ,pione]s />t$ = ! m\nta9s to seek out a re/+ place = ! ,sa9ts1 & ! body ( ^? t rema9$ began to raise corn4 ,i & _m o!rs left our families1 w5t d[n into ,miss\ri1 & hir$ ourselves out to obta9 means to buy teams1 clo!s1 fl\r1 etc41 s t we might foll[ ! ,pione]s' camp4 ,:5 ! "t arriv$ ! ,sa9ts mov$ out promiscu\sly1 &1 aft] cross+ ! ,elk ,horn riv]1 !y 7 organiz$ into two l>ge divisions call$ ,brigham's & ,heb]'s companies4 ,^! 7 subdivid$ into small] companies ( hundr$s1 fifties & t5s1 & 9 ?is way ! ,sa9ts proce$$ across ! pla9s4 ,9 ,septemb]1 #ahdg1 we f\nd t ! ,pione]s & o!rs ( ! ,sa9ts t _h gone into ! ,valley %ortly aft] !m1 _h be5 h>d at "w s[+ all ! w9t]1 = e wagon _h tak5 ab\t two bu%els ( gra91 consequ5tly1 mo/ ( ! :eat t ! crickets _h n h>ve/$ on _! own acc\nt1 ! inhabitants _h1 & !y _h rais$ a consid]able quantity ( vegetables also4 ,&1 z x is well kn[n1 aft] we _h be5 9 ! ,valley ab\t a =tnight1 !y prep>$ a spl5did fea/1 compos$ mo/ly ( ! fruits ( _! labor1 to :i* fea/ all ! ,sa9ts & /rang]s 9 ! valley 7 invit$4 ,su* numb]s1 h[ev]1 _h arriv$ 9 ! ,valley1 t ! vegetables rais$ by our bre?r5 w5t b a little way1 & aft] ! fea/ at _! exp5se1 x 0 a r>ity to get any vegetables until ! foll[+ ,june1 f\rte5 mon?s f ! "t we left ,w9t] ,qu>t]s1 :5 we p>took ( vegetables rais$ by ourselves4 ,our bread also became v sc>ce be=e ! :eat put 9 by ! ,sa9ts g5]ally 0 ready to h>ve/4 ,"s p]sons liv$ = ?ree mon?s on _! cattle1 :i* !y _h to kill = food1 & on roots :i* !y dug up4 ,( c\rse1 aft] a "t1 our clo!s & f>m+ implem5ts began to we> out1 & we _h ! delightful prospect ( we>+ %eep sk9s1 etc4 ,our wagons 7 becom+ sc>ce1 _m hav+ be5 brok5 9 ! canyons1 & we _h no timb] suitable = mak+ m1 & if !re _h be51 f :]e 7 we to get ! iron "w necess>y = mak+ !m1 or = mak+ pl[s1 %ovels1 etc41 = cultivat+ ! gr\nd1 )\t :i*1 ( c\rse1 food w\ld cease & />vation ensue8 ,9 fact1 naturally speak+1 ?+s look$ al>m+1 & j calculat$ to dry up our hopes & fill u ) fe>s4 ,matt]s 7 at ?is crisis1 :5 "o day ,eld] ,heb] ,c4 ,kimball /ood up 9 ! congregation ( ! ,sa9ts1 & prophesi$ t 9 a %ort "t we %\ld be able to buy articles ( clo?+ & ut5sils *eap] 9 ! ,valley ?an we c\ld pur*ase !m 9 ! ,/ates4 ,i 0 pres5t on ! occasion1 & ) o!rs !re1 only hop$ ! case might be s1 = _m ( ! ,sa9ts felt l ! man spok5 ( 9 ! scriptures1 :o he>d ,eli%a prophesy at ! "t ( a h>d fam9e 9 ,sam>ia1 t be=e to-morr[1 a measure ( f9e fl\r %\ld be sold = a %ekel1 & two measures ( b>ley = a %ekel4 ,we ?\ght t if ! ,"l w\ld make w9d[s 9 heav51 might ?is ?+ be1 b )\t an absolute miracle !re seem$ no human probability ( its fulfillm5t4 ,h[ev]1 ,eld] ,kimball's prophecy 0 fulfill$ 9 a few mon?s4 ,in=mation ( ! great discov]y ( gold 9 ,cali=nia _h rea*$ ! ,/ates1 & l>ge companies 7 =m$ = ! purpose ( supply+ ! gold digg]s ) food & clo?+1 & implem5ts ( e k9d = digg+1 etc4 ,numb]s ( sub/antial wagons 7 prep>$1 /or$ ) :olesale quantities ( clo?+ ( e k9d1 spades1 picks1 %ovels1 *e/s ( c>p5t]s' tools1 tea1 c(fee1 sug>1 fl\r1 fruits1 etc4 ,:5 ^! companies arriv$ )9 a %ort di/ance ( ,salt ,lake ,city1 news rea*$ !m t %ips _h be5 dispat*$ f _m p>ts ( ! _w1 fitt$ out ) goods = ,cali=nia4 ,?is ?reat5$ to flood ! m>ket4 ,s ^! companies br\ght _! goods into ! ,valley1 & dispos$ ( !m = j :at c\ld be got--provisions1 wagons1 clo!s1 tools1 almo/ = ! tak+ away1 at lea/ at half ! price = :i* ! goods c\ld h be5 pur*as$ 9 ! ,/ates4 ,_m dispos$ ( _! wagons because ! teams gave out1 & c\ld n get on any f>!r4 ,"s sold almo/ all !y _h to pur*ase a mule or a horse to pack ?r\gh )4 ,?us 7 ! ,sa9ts amply provid$1 ev5 to ov]fl[+1 ) e "o ( ! necess>ies & _m ( ! luxuries ( :i* !y _h be5 s de/itute1 & ?us 0 ! pr$iction ( ! s]vant ( ! ,"l fulfill$4 ,?is 0 a miracul\s ,provid5ce1 b n m s ?an ^? :i* x has be5 my lot to see ! ,*ur* ( ,jesus ,*ri/ ( ,latt]-day ,sa9ts exp]i5ce ev] s9ce my connection ) x4 ,9 ?is %ort hi/ory ( "s ( ! te/imonies ,i h witness$ & receiv$1 ! read] may see t ,i h _h mu* to e/abli% me 9 ! belief ( ! tru?s ( ,mormonism4 ,transcrib]'s ,note3 ,v>i\s *anges 7 made to resolve app>5t pr9t]'s errors 9 ! orig9al book1 su* z aftew>ds = aft]w>ds1 ,spirt = ,_s1 etc4