,,zones ,,( ,,! ,,_s ,a ,,book ,,( ,,?\ghts ,,by ,,augu/ ,,/r9db]g ,,au?or ,,( ,,! ,,inf]no1 ,,! ,,son ,,( ,a ,,s]vant1 ,,etc4 ,,) ,,an ,,introduction ,,by ,,ar?ur ,,babillotte ,,translat$ ,,by ,,claud ,,field1 ,m4,a4 ,g4,p4 ,,putnam',s ,,sons ,,new ,,york ,,& ,,london ,! ,knick]bock] press #aiac ,,introduction ,seldom has a man gone ?r\gh su* pr(\nd religi\s *anges z ?is ,sw$e1 :o di$ la/ ,may4 ,! demonic elem5t 9 him1 :i* spurr$ him on re/lessly1 made him scale heav5 & fa?om hell1 gave him glimpses ( bliss & damnation4 ,he bore ! ,ca9's m>k on 8 br[3 ,a fugitive & a w&]] %alt ?\ be4 ,he 0 fundam5tally religi\s1 = ev]yone :o se>*es aft] ,god is s1--a commonplace tru? c]ta9ly1 b "o :i* ne$s to be con/antly reit]at$4 ,& ,/r9db]g's se>* 0 m pa9ful1 exact1 & p]sev]+ ?an t ( mo/ p4 ,he 0 nev] cont5t ) sup]ficial =mulas1 b press$ to ! he>t ( ! matt]1 & foll[$ ea* w9d+ ( ! labyr9?9e problem ) endless pati5ce4 ,too (t5 ! ,div9ity :i* he ?\ght he _h discov]$ turn$ out a delusion1 to be scornfully reject$ ! mom5t aft]w>ds4 ,until he f\nd ! ,god1 :om he wor%ipp$ to ! end ( 8 days1 & ^: exi/5ce he resolutely ma9ta9$ aga9/ d5i]s4 ,z a *ild he _h be5 br\ght up 9 dev\t belief 9 ,god1 9 submission to ! inju/ice ( life1 & 9 fai? 9 a bett] h]eaft]4 ,he reg>d$ ,god z a ,fa!r1 to ,:om he made kn[n 8 little wants & anxieties4 ,b a y\? ) h>d exp]i5ces foll[$ 8 *ildhood4 ,! /ruggle = daily bread began1 & 8 heav5ly ,fa!r seem$ to fail him4 ,he appe>$ to reg>d unmov$1 f "s ,olympian height1 ! desp]ate /ruggles ( humanity bel[4 ,!n ! defiant elem5t :i* slumb]$ 9 ,/r9db]g wra?fully awoke1 & he gradually develop$ into a free-?9k]4 ,x f>$ ) him z x (t5 does ) "y & indep5d5t *>act]s :o ?9k4 ,beg9n+ ) diss5t f ?is & t ecclesia/ical dogma1 8 criticism embrac$ an ev]-wid5+ range1 & became ke5] & m unsp>+4 ,at la/ e b>ri] ( respect & rev]5ce fell1 ! defiant _s ( y\? broke l a flood ov] all religi\s dogmas1 swept !m away1 & did n /op %ort ( criticis+ ,god ,himself4 ,mean:ile 8 daily life1 ) its h>d exp]i5ces1 w5t on4 ,books writt5 f e conceivable po9t ( view came into 8 h&s4 ,gre$y = k z he 01 he read !m all4 ,^? ( ! free-?9k]s support$ 8 fre%ly ar\s$ incr$ulity1 :i* z yet ne$$ support4 ,8 /udy ( philosophical & sci5tific works made a clean sweep ( :at relics ( fai? rema9$4 ,anxiety ab\t 8 daily bread1 attacks f all sides1 ! ali5ation ( 8 fri5ds1 all contribut$ t[>ds mak+ ! free-?9k] into an a!i/4 ,h[ c !re be a ,god :5 ! _w is s full ( ugl9ess1 ( deceit1 ( di%on\r1 ( vulg>ity8 ,?is "q 0 b\nd to be rais$ at la/4 ,ab\t ?is "t he wrote ! ,new ,k+dom1 full ( %>p criticisms ( society & ,*ri/ianity4 ,z an a!i/ ,/r9db]g made v>i\s attempts to come to t]ms ) ! exi/+ /ate ( ?+s4 ,b be+ a g5ius out ( h>mony ) 8 contempor>ies1 & always long+ = "s va/]1 fair] future1 ?is 0 impossible = him4 ,:5 he f\nd t he came to no goal1 a p]petual unre/ tortur$ him4 ,8 e>li] autobiographic writ+s appe>$1 m>k$ by a /rong misan?ropy1 & compos$ ) an obscure consci\sness ( ! curse3 ,a fugitive & a w&]] %alt ?\ be4 ,at la/ 8 consci\sness becomes cle> & def9$4 ,he recognises t he is a lo/ s\l 9 hell already1 ?\gh outw>dly on e>?4 ,?is 0 ! mo/ extraord9>y p]iod 9 ,/r9db]g's life4 ,he liv$ 9 ! ,qu>ti] ,lat9 9 ,p>is1 9 a b>ely furni%$ room1 ) retorts & *emical app>atus1 l a second ,fau/ at ! end ( ! n9ete5? c5tury4 ,by exp]im5ts he discov]$ ! pres5ce ( c>bon 9 sulphur1 & consid]$ t by do+ s he _h solv$ a great problem1 upset ! rul+ sy/ems ( *emi/ry1 & ga9$ = himself ! only immortality all[$ to mortals4 ,he came to ! conclusion t ! reason :y he _h gradually become an a!i/ 0 t ! ,unkn[n ,p[]s _h left ! _w s long )\t a sign ( !mselves4 ,! discov]y made him ?ankful1 & he lam5t$ t he _h no "o to ?ank4 ,f t "t ! belief 9 unkn[n p[]s grew /rong] & /rong] 9 him4 ,x seems to h be5 ! result ( an almo/ complete1 long1 & pa9ful solitude4 ,at ?is "t 8 bra9 work$ m fev]i%ly1 & 8 n]ves 7 m s5sitive ?an usual4 ,at la/ he rea*$ ! 7= an a!i/7 a/\nd+ conclusion3 ,:5 ,i ?9k ov] my lot1 ,i recognise t invisible ,h& :i* discipl9es & *a/5s me1 )\t my kn[+ its purpose4 ,mu/ ,i be humbl$ 9 ord] to be lift$ up1 l[]$ 9 ord] to be rais$8 ,! ?\ght cont9ually recurs to me1 ',provid5ce is plann+ some?+ ) !e1 & ?is is ! beg9n+ ( ?y education4'#a ,soon aft] ?is he gave up 8 *emical exp]im5ts & took up al*emy1 ) a conviction1 almo/ pa!tic 9 its int5sity1 t he w\ld succe$ 9 mak+ gold4 ,al?\gh 8 dramas _h already be5 p]=m$ 9 ,p>is1 a success :i* _h fall5 to ! lot ( no o!r ,sw$i% dramati/1 he =got all 8 successes z an au?or1 & devot$ himself solely to ?is new pursuit1 to meet aga9 ) disappo9tm5t4 ,on ,m>* #bi1 #ahig1 he began ! /udy ( ,sw$5borg1 ! ,nor!rn ,se]4 ,a feel+ ( home-sickness aft] heav5 laid hold ( him1 & he began to believe t he 0 be+ prep>$ = a high] exi/5ce4 ,i despise ! e>?1 he writes1 ?is unclean _w1 ^! m5 & _! works4 ,i seem to myself a righte\s man1 l ,job1 :om ! ,et]nal is putt+ to ! te/1 & :om ! purgatorial fires ( ?is _w w soon make wor?y ( a spe$y deliv]ance4 ,m & m he seem$ to approa* ,ca?olicism4 ,"o day he1 ! =m] sociali/ & a!i/1 b\ght a ros>y4 ,x is pretty1 he said1 & ! evil spirits fe> ! cross4 ,at ! same "t1 x mu/ be confess$ t ?is transition to ! ,*ri/ian po9t ( view did n subdue 8 egotism & indep5d5ce ( "*4 ,x is my duty1 he said1 to fight = ! ma9t5ance ( my ego aga9/ all influ5ces :i* a sect or p>ty1 f love ( proselytis+1 might br+ to be> ^u x4 ,! consci5ce1 :i* ! grace ( my ,div9e protector has giv5 me1 tells me t4 ,& !n comes a s5t5ce full ( joy & sorr[ alike1 :i* seems to oblit]ate 8 :ole pa/4 ,born ) a home-sick long+ aft] heav51 z a *ild ,i wept ov] ! squalor ( exi/5ce & felt myself /range & homeless among m54 ,f *ildhood upw>ds ,i h look$ = ,god & f\nd ! ,devil4 ,he becomes actually humble1 & recognises t ,god1 on acc\nt ( 8 pride1 8 conceit1 8 1 _h s5t him = a "t to hell4 ,happy is he :om ,god puni%es4 ,! return to ,*ri/ is complete4 ,all 8 fai?1 all 8 hope n[ re/ solely on ! ,crucifi$1 :om he _h once demoniacally hat$4 ,he n[ devot$ himself entirely to ! /udy ( ,sw$5borg4 ,he felt t 9 "s way ! life ( ?is /range man _h =e%ad[$ 8 own4 ,j z ,sw$5borg 7#afhh-aggb7 _h pass$ f ! pr(ession ( a ma!matician to t ( a !ologian1 a my/ic1 & f9ally a gho/-se] & !osoph1 s ,/r9db]g pass$ f ! worldly call+ ( a romance-writ] to t ( a prea*] ( ,*ri/ian pati5ce & reconciliation4 ,he _h occasional relapses into 8 old p]v]se moods1 b ! attacks ( ! rebelli\s _s 7 weak] & weak]4 ,he told a fri5d :o ask$ 8 op9ion reg>d+ ! !osophical concept ( ,k>ma1 t x 0 impossible = him to belong to a p>ty :i* d5i$ a p]sonal ,god1 ,:o alone c\ld satisfy 8 religi\s ne$s4 ,9 a life s full ( intellectual activity z 8 _h be51 ,/r9db]g _h amass$ an enorm\s am\nt ( miscellane\s k4 ,:5 he 0 ne>ly sixty he began to collect & arrange all 8 exp]i5ces & inve/igations f ! po9t ( view he _h !n atta9$4 ,?us 0 compos$ 8 la/ important "w1 ,das ,blau ,bu*1 a book ( amaz+ copi\sness & orig9ality4 ,reg>d+ x1 ! ,norwegian au?or ,nils ,kja] writes 9 ! p]iodical ,v]d5s ,gang3 ,m compreh5sive ?an any mod]n collection ( aphorisms1 *aotic z ! ,koran1 wra?ful z ,isaiah1 z full ( occult ?+s z ! ,bible1 m ent]ta9+ ?an any romance1 ke5]-edg$ ?an mo/ pamphlets1 my/ical z ! ,cabbala1 subtle z ! s*ola/ic !ology1 s9c]e z ,r\sseau's confession1 /amp$ ) ! impress ( incomp>able orig9ality1 e s5t5ce %9+ l lum9\s lett]s 9 ! d>kness--su* is ?is book 9 :i* ! rem>kable writ] makes a f9al reckon+ ) 8 "t & proclaims 8 fai?1 z pugnaci\sly z ?\gh he 7 a desc5dant ( ! h]o ( ,lutz54 ,! book1 9 tru?1 =ms a _w ap>t1 f :i* all ly+1 hypocrisy1 & conv5tional cont5tm5t is bani%$2 9 x is he>d ! /ormy laught] ( a g5ius :o has fre$ himself f ! fett]s ( e>?1 ! proclamation ( ! cre$ ( a /range ,*ri/ian :o int]prets & rev]es ,*ri/ 9 8 own fa%ion1 ! *all5ge ( an orig9al & creative m9d :i* believes 9 its own cont9uance1 ! expression ( ! ye>n+ ( a lonely s\l to place itself 9 h>moni\s relations ) ! univ]se4 ,an especially int]e/+ feature ( ! ,blau ,bu* is ! expression ( ,/r9db]g's views reg>d+ ! great poets1 arti/s1 & ?9k]s ( ! pa/ & pres5t4 ,he speaks ( ,wagn] & ,nietzs*e1 ! two antipodes2 ( ,horace1 :o1 aft] _m w&]+s1 recognis$ ! h& ( ,god2 ( ,%akespe>e1 :o _h liv$ ?r\gh ! exp]i5ce ( e "* he creat$2 ( ,goe!1 reg>d+ :om he rem>ks1 ) evid5t satisfaction1 ,9 old age1 :5 he grew wise1 he became a my/ic1 i4e4 he recognis$ t !re are ?+s 9 heav5 & e>? ( :i* ! ,phili/9es nev] dream4 ,( ,maet]l9ck1 he says1 ,he kn[s h[ to c>icature 8 own faire/ creations2 & accuses ,osc> ,wilde ( want ( orig9ality4 ,reg>d+ ,hegel1 he notes ) pleasure t at ! end ( 8 life he return$ to ,*ri/ianity4 ,) deep satisfaction he writes1 ,hegel1 aft] hav+ gone v r\ndab\t ways1 di$ 9 #ahca1 ( *ol]a1 z a simple1 believ+ ,*ri/ian1 putt+ aside all philosophy & pray+ p5it5tial psalms4 ,9 ,r\sseau he recognises a k9dr$ _s1 9 s f> z ! ,fr5*man1 l himself1 hat$ all t 0 unnatural4 ,"o c agree ) ,r\sseau :5 he says1 ',all t comes f ! ,creator's h& is p]fect1 b :5 x falls into ! h&s ( man x is spoilt4' ,! ,blau ,bu* m>ks ! summit ( ,/r9db]g's *equ]$ sixty ye>s' pilgrimage4 ,b5ea? him lies ! v>icol\r$ l&scape ( 8 pa/ life1 n[ lit up ) gleams ( sun%9e1 n[ drap$ 9 d>k mi/s1 n[ dr[n$ 9 /orms ( ra94 ,b ,/r9db]g1 ! poet & ?9k]1 has escap$ f bo? d>k & bright days alike2 he /&s peacefully on ! summit1 above ! trivialities1 ! c>es1 & bitt]nesses ( life1 a free man4 ,he is l ,prome!us1 fett]$ to ! rock = hav+ be/[$ on m5 ! gift ( fire1 b lib]at$ aft] he has le>nt 8 lesson4 ,9 8 calm is some?+ resembl+ ! dignity ( ,goe!'s old age4 ,z ! latt] sat on ! ,kickelhahn1 look+ d[n on ,?ur+ia1 & saw ! panorama ( 8 life pass be=e him1 s ,/r9db]g takes a retrospect 9 8 ,blau ,bu*4 ,x is ! canticle ( 8 life1 a hymn ( ?ankfulness = ! recov]$ fai? 9 :i* he has f\nd peace4 ,at its conclusion he ?us sums up3 ,r\sseau's e>ly doctr9e reg>d+ ! curse ( m]e le>n+ %\ld be repond]$4 ,a new ,desc>tes %\ld arise & tea* ! m5 to d\bt ! untru?s ( ! sci5ces4 ,ano!r ,kant %\ld write a new ,critique ( ,pure ,reason & re-e/abli% ! doctr9e ( ! ,categorical ,imp]ative1 :i*1 h[ev]1 is already to be f\nd 9 ! ,t5 ,comm&m5ts & ! ,gospels4 ,a prophet %\ld be born to tea* m5 ! simple mean+ ( life 9 a few words4 ,x has already be5 s well summ$ up3 ',fe> ,god1 & keep ,8 comm&m5ts1' or ',pray & "w4' ,all ! errors & mi/akes :i* we h made %\ld s]ve to in/il into u a lively hatr$ ( evil1 & to imp>t a fre% impulse to good2 ^! we c take ) u to ! o!r side1 :]e !y w bloom & be> fruit4 ,t is ! true mean+ ( life1 at :i* ! ob/9ate & imp5it5t cavil1 9 ord] to save !mselves tr\ble4 ,pray1 b "w2 suff]1 b hope2 keep+ bo? ! e>? & ! />s 9 view4 ,d n try & settle p]man5tly1 = x is a place ( pilgrimage2 n a home1 b a halt+-place4 ,seek ! tru?1 = x is to be f\nd1 b only 9 "o place1 ) ! ,"o :o ,himself is ! ,way1 ! ,tru?1 & ! ,life4 ,,ar?ur ,,babillotte4 ,footnote #a3 ,/r9db]g's ,inf]no4 ,,cont5ts ,,! ,,hi/ory ,,( ,,! ,,blue ,,book ,a ,,blue ,,book-- ,! ,?irte5? ,axiom ,! ,ru/ic ,intellig5ce ( ! ,beans ,! ,hoopoo1 or ,an ,unusual ,occurr5ce ,bad ,dige/ion ,! ,song ( ! ,sawy]s ,al ,mansur 9 ! ,gymnasium ,! ,night+ale 9 ! ,v9ey>d ,! ,miracle ( ! ,corn-crakes ,coroll>ies ,phantasms :i* are ,real ,crex1 ,crex6 ,! ,electric ,batt]y & ! ,e>? ,circuit ,improp] & ,unansw]able ,que/ions ,sup]/ition & ,non-,sup]/ition ,?r\gh ,fai? to ,k ,! ,en*ant$ ,room ,conc]n+ ,correspond5ces ,! ,gre5 ,isl& ,sw$5borg's ,hell ,prelim9>y ,k ,necess>y ,p]v]se ,sci5ce ,tru? 9 ,error ,accumulators ,et]nal ,puni%m5t ,desolation ,a ,_w ( ,delusion ,! ,conv]sion ( ! ,*e]ful ,pagan1 ,horace ,*e]ful ,paganism & its ,doctr9e ( ,hell ,fai? ! ,*ief ,?+ ,p5it5ts ,pay+ = ,o!rs ,! ,lice-,k+ ,! ,art ( ,life ,! ,mitigation ( ,de/9y ,! ,good & ! ,evil ,mode/y & ! ,s5se ( ,ju/ice ,d]elicts ,human ,fate ,d>k ,rays ,bl9d & ,deaf ,! ,disrob+ ,*amb] ,! ,"* ,mask ,y\? & ,folly ,:5 ,i 0 ,"y & ,/upid ,con/ant ,illusions ,! ,m]its ( ! ,multiplication-,table ,"u ! ,pr9ce ( ?is ,_w ,! ,idea ( ,hell ,self-,k ,somnambulism & ,clairvoyance 9 ,ev]yday ,life ,practical ,measures aga9/ ,enemies ,! ,goddess ( ,reason ,/>s ,se5 by ,daylight ,! ,"r to ,remorse ,a ,religi\s ,!atre ,?r\gh ,con/ra9t to ,fre$om ,! ,praise ( ,folly ,! ,inevitable ,! ,poet's ,sacrifice ,! ,function ( ! ,phili/9es ,_w-,religion ,! ,return ( ,*ri/ ,correspond5ces ,good ,words ,sev]e & n ,sev]e ,yea/ & ,bread ,! ,man ( ,developm5t ,s9s ( ,?\ght ,s9s ( ,w ,! ,/udy ( ,mank9d ,fri5d ,z]o ,affable ,m5 ,cr++ be=e ! ,bea/ ,ecclesia ,triumphans ,logic 9 ,neura/h5ia ,my ,c>icature ,! ,inexplicable ,old-"t ,religion ,! ,s$uc$ become ,s$uc]s ,l>ge-he>t$ ,*ri/ianity ,reconnection ) ! ,arial ,wire ,! ,art ( ,conv]sion ,! ,sup]man ,to be a ,*ri/ian is n to be a ,pieti/ ,/r5g? & ,value ( ,words ,! ,black ,illum9ati ,an?ropomorphism ,fury-wor%ip z a ,p5al ,halluc9ation ,am]igo or ,columbus ,a ,circumnavigator ( ! ,globe ,! ,poet's ,*ildr5 ,fai?ful 9 ,little ,?+s ,! ,unpracticalness ( ,husk-eat+ ,a ,y\?ful ,dream = ,sev5 ,%ill+s ,envy ,nobody6 ,! ,galley-slaves ( ,ambition ,h>d to ,dis5tangle ,! ,art ( ,settl+ ,acc\nts ,gr[+ ,old ,gracefully ,! ,eight ,wild ,bea/s ,deaf & ,bl9d ,recollections ,*ildr5 are ,wond]-,*ildr5 ,m5-resembl+ ,m5 ,*ri/ is ,ris5 ,revolution-,%eep ,life ,wov5 ( ! ,same ,/uff z our ,dreams ,! ,gospel ( ! ,pagans ,puni%$ by ! ,imag9ation ,bankruptcy ( ,philosophy ,a ,:ole ,life 9 an ,h\r ,! ,aft]-,od\r ,pea*es & ,turnips ,! ,web ( ,lies ,le! ,a ,suff]+ ,god ,! ,atonem5t ,:5 ,nations ,g ,mad ,! ,poison ( ,lies ,murd]\s ,lies ,innoc5t ,guilt ,! ,*>m ( ,old ,age ,! ,r+-,sy/em ,lu/1 ,hate1 & ,fe>1 or ! ,religion ( ! ,hea!n ,:om ! ,gods ,wi% to ,de/roy ,! ,slav]y ( ! ,prophet ,absurd ,problems ,! ,crook$ ,rib ,:ite ,slav]y ,noodles ,inextricable ,confusion ,phantoms ,mirage ,pictures ,trifle n ) ,love ,a ,tak+ ,religion ,! ,six? ,s5se ,ext]iorisation ( ,s5sibility ,telepa?ic ,p]ception ,morse ,telepa?y ,nisus ,=mativus1 or ,unconsci\s ,sculpture ,projections ,app>itions ,! ,reaction>y ,type ,! ,hate ( ,p>asites ,a ,lett] f ! ,dead ,a ,lett] f ,hell ,an ,unconsci\s ,m$ium ,! ,rev5ant ,! ,meet+ 9 ! ,conv5t ,correspond5ces ,port5ts ,! ,difficult ,art ( ,ly+ ,religion & ,sci5tific ,intuition ,! ,fre$ ,?9k] ,primus int] p>es ,hea!n ,imag9ations ,?\ght ,b\nd by ,law ,cr$o quia 7et-si7 absurdum ,! ,fe> ( ,heav5 ,! ,goat-god ,pan & ! ,fe> ( ! ,pan-pipe ,_! ,gospel ,! ,deposition ( ! ,apes ,! ,secret ( ! ,cross ,exam9ation & ,summ] ,holidays ,ve]+ & ,tack+ ,attraction & ,repulsion ,! ,d\ble ,paw or ,h& ,! ,?\s&-,ye>s' ,night ( ! ,apes ,! ,fav\rite ,sci5tific ,villa9ies ,necrobiosis1 i4e4 ,dea? & ,resurrection ,secret ,judgm5t ,hammurabi's ,inspir$ ,laws ,receiv$ f ! ,sun-,god ,/rauss's ,life ( ,*ri/ ,*ri/ianity & ,radicalism ,:]e are ,we8 ,hegel's ,*ri/ianity ,m5 ( ,god's ,h& ,night-,owls ,apo!osis ,pa9t+ ,?+s ,black ,! ,?orn 9 ! ,fle% ,despair & ,grace ,! ,la/ ,act ,consequ5ces ( ,le>n+ ,r\sseau ,r\sseau ,aga9 ,mat]ialis$ ,app>itions ,! ,art ( ,dy+ ,c ,philosophy ,br+ any ,bless+ to ,mank9d8 ,goe! on ! ,bible ,n[ we ,c ,fly ,too6 ,hurrah ,! ,fall & ,orig9al ,s9 ,! ,gospel ,religi\s ,hea!n ,! ,pleasure-,g>d5 ,! ,happ9ess ( ,love ,our ,be/ ,feel+s ,blood-,frat]nity ,! ,p[] ( ,love ,! ,box on ! ,e> ,saul1 aft]w>ds ,call$ ,paul ,a ,sc5e f ,hell ,! ,jewel-,casket or 8 ,bett] ,half ,! ,mummy-,c(f9 ,9 ! ,attic ,! ,sculptor ,on ! ,?re%old at ,five ,ye>s ( ,age ,goe! on ,*ri/ianity & ,sci5ce ,summa ,summ>um ,zones ( ! ,_s ,,! ,,hi/ory ,,( ,,! ,,blue ,,book 7,prefix$ to ! ,?ird ,sw$i% ,edition7 ,i _h read h[ ,goe! _h once int5d$ to write a ,brevi>ium ,univ]sale1 a book ( edification = ! adh]5ts ( all religions4 ,9 my ,hi/orical ,m9iatures ,i h attempt$ to trace ,god's ways 9 ! hi/ory ( ! _w2 ,i includ$ ,*ri/ianity 9 my survey by comm5c+ ) ,israel1 b p]haps ,i made ! mi/ake ( rang+ o!r religions by ! side ( ,*ri/ianity1 :ile !y ought to h /ood bel[ x4 ,a ye> pass$4 ,i felt myself con/ra9$ by inw>d impulses to write a fairly unsect>ian brevi>y2 a ^w ( wisdom = ea* day 9 ! ye>4 ,= t purpose ,i collect$ ! sacr$ books ( all religions1 9 ord] to extract f !m say+s on :i* to write4 ,b ! books did n op5 !mselves to me6 ,! ,v$as & ,z5d-,ave/a 7 seal$1 & did n yield a s+le say+2 only ! ,koran gave "o1 b t 0 a lion6 7see ,fai? ! ,*ief ,?+1 ff474 ,!n ,i det]m9$ to alt] my design4 ,i =m$ ! plan ( writ+ apo!gms ( simply worldly wisdom reg>d+ m51 & ( call+ ! book ,h]b>ium ,humane4 ,b ,i po/pon$ ! "w s9ce ,i trembl$ at ! greatness ( ! task & ! crudity ( my plan4 ,!n came ,june #ae1 #aijf4 ,z ,i took my morn+ walk1 ! fir/ ?+ ,i saw 0 a tramc> ) ! numb] #cfe4 ,i 0 /ruck by ?is numb]1 & ?\ght ( ! #cfe pages :i* ,i int5d$ to write4 ,z ,i w5t on1 ,i ent]$ a n>r[ /reet4 ,a c>t w5t along by my side c>ry+ a r$ flag2 x 0 a p[d]-flag4 ,! c>t kept p>allel ) me & began to di/urb me4 ,9 ord] to escape ! sight ( ! p[d]-flag1 ,i look$ up 9 ! air1 & !re an enorm\s r$ flag 7! ,engli% "o7 flaunt$ conspicu\sly be=e my eyes4 ,i look$ d[n aga91 & a lady dress$ 9 black1 ) a fi]y-r$ hat1 0 cross+ ! /reet 9 a slant+ direction4 ,i ha/5$ my /eps4 ,imm$iately my eyes fell on ! w9d[ ( a /ation]'s %op2 9 x a piece ( c>dbo>d 0 display$1 be>+ ! ^w ,h]b>ium4 ,x 0 natural t all ?is %\ld make an impression on me4 ,my resolution 0 n[ tak52 ,i laid d[n ! plan ( my p[d]-*amb]1 :i* 0 to become ! ,blue ,book4 ,a ye> pass$1 sl[ly1 pa9fully4 ,! mo/ rem>kable ?+ t happ5$ 0 ?is4 ,!y began to rehe>se my drama1 ! ,dream ,play1 9 ! !atre2 simultane\sly1 a *ange took place 9 my daily life4 ,my s]vant left me2 my dome/ic arrangem5ts 7 upset2 )9 =ty days ,i _h six *anges ( s]vants--"o worse ?an ! o!r4 ,at la/ ,i _h to s]ve myself1 lay ! table & light ! /ove4 ,i ate black brok5 victuals out ( a basket4 ,9 %ort1 ,i _h to ta/e ! :ole bitt]ness ( life )\t kn[+ :y4 ,"o morn+ dur+ ?is fa/+ p]iod ,i pass$ by a %op w9d[ 9 :i* ,i saw a piece ( tape/ry :i* attract$ & delight$ me4 ,i ?\ght ,i saw my dream-play 9 ! design wov5 on ! tape/ry4 ,above 0 ! gr[+ ca/le1 & und]nea? ! gre5 isl& ov]-ar*$ by a ra9b[1 & ) ,alp9e summits illum9$ by ! sun4 ,r\nd x 0 ! sea reflect+ ! />s & a great gre5 sea-snake p>tly visible2 l[ d[n 9 ! bord] 0 a r[ ( fylfots--! symbol ,swa/ika1 signify+ good-luck4 ,t 01 at any rate1 my mean+2 ! arti/ _h int5d$ some?+ else :i* does n belong "h4 ,!n came ! dress-rehe>sal ( ! ,dream ,play4 ,?is drama ,i wrote sev5 ye>s ago1 aft] a p]iod ( =ty days' suff]+ :i* 7 among ! wor/ :i* ,i _h ev] und]gone4 ,& n[ aga9 exactly =ty days ( fa/+ & pa9 _h pass$4 ,!re seems1 !re=e1 to be a secret legislature :i* promulgates cle>ly def9$ s5t5ces4 ,i ?\ght ( ! =ty days ( ! flood1 ! =ty ye>s ( w&]+ 9 ! des]t1 ! =ty days' fa/ kept by ,moses1 ,elijah1 & ,*ri/4 ,my j\rnal ?us records my impressions3 ,! sun %9es4 ,a c]ta9 quiet resign$ unc]ta9ty reigns )9 me4 ,i ask myself :e!r a cata/rophe w n prev5t ! p]=mance ( ! piece1 :i* p]haps ought n to be play$4 ,9 x ,i h1 at any rate1 spok5 m5 fair1 b to advise ! ,rul] ( ! ,univ]se is presumption1 p]haps blasphemy4 ,! fact t ,i h laid b>e ! comp>ative no?+ness ( life 7) ,buddhism71 its irrational contradictions1 its wick$ness & lawlessness1 may be praisewor?y if x tea*es m5 resignation4 ,t ,i h %[n ! comp>ative innoc5ce ( m5 9 ?is life1 :i* ( itself involves guilt1 is n inde$ wrong1 b4444 ,j n[ comes a telephone message f ! !atre3 ,! result ( ?is is 9 ,god's h&4 ,exactly :at ,i ?9k1 ,i answ]1 & ask myself aga9 :e!r ! piece ought to be play$4 7,i believe x is already det]m9$ by ! high] p[]s :at ! issue ( ! fir/ p]=mance w prove47 ,i feel z ?\gh x 7 ,sunday4 ,! ,:ite ,%ape appe>s outside on ! balcony ( ! gr[+ ca/le4 ,my ?\ghts h lately be5 occupi$ ) dea? & ) ! life aft] ?is4 ,ye/]day ,i read ,plato's ,timu & ,phd4 ,at pres5t ,i write a "w call$ ,! ,isl& ( ! ,dead4 ,9 x ,i describe ! awak5+ aft] dea?1 & :at foll[s4 ,b ,i hesitate1 = ,i am fright5$ at ! b\ndless mis]y ( m]e life4 ,lately ,i burn$ a drama2 x 0 s s9c]e1 t ,i %udd]$ at x4 ,:at ,i d n und]/& is ?is3 ought "o to hide ! mis]y1 & flatt] m58 ,i wi% to write *e]fully & beautifully1 b ought n1 & _c4 ,i conceive x z a t]rible duty to be tru?ful1 & life is indescribably hide\s4 ,n[ ! clock /rikes elev51 & at twelve o'clock is ! rehe>sal4 ,! same day at #h ,p4,m4 ,i h se5 ! rehe>sal ( ! ,dream ,play1 & suff]$ greatly4 ,i receiv$ ! impression t ?is piece ought n to be play$4 ,x is presumptu\s1 & c]ta9ly blasphem\s 7874 ,i am di/urb$ & al>m$4 ,i h _h no midday meal2 at sev5 o'clock ,i ate "s cold food out ( ! basket 9 ! kit*54 ,dur+ ! religi\s brood+s ( my la/ =ty days ,i read ! ,book ( ,job1 say+ to myself c]ta9ly at ! same "t t ,i 0 no righte\s man l him4 ,!n ,i came to ! #bbnd *apt]1 9 :i* ,eliphaz ! ,temanite unmasks ,job3 ,?\ ha/ tak5 pl$ges ( ?y bro!r = n\ght1 & /ripp$ ! nak$ ( _! clo?+2 ?\ ha/ n giv5 wat] to ! we>y to dr9k1 & ?\ ha/ )hold5 bread f ! hungry4444 ,is n ?y wick$ness great & ?9e iniquities inf9ite8 ,!n ! :ole com=t ( ! ,book ( ,job vani%$1 & ,i /ood aga9 =lorn & irresolute4 ,:at %all a poor man hold on to8 ,:at %all ,i believe8 ,h[ c he help ?9k+ p]v]sely8 ,ye/]day ,i read ,plato's ,timu & ,phd4 ,!re ,i f\nd s mu* self-contradictory wisdom1 t 9 ! ev5+ ,i ?rew my devotional books away & pray$ to ,god out ( a full he>t4 ,:at w happ5 n[8 ,god help me6 ,am54 ,! /age-manag] visit$ me ye/]day ev5+4 ,we bo? felt1 9 despair4444 ,! night 0 quiet4 ,april #af1 #aijg4--,read ! pro( ( ! ,black ,flags1#a :i* ,i wrote 9 #aijd4 ,i ask$ myself :e!r ! book 0 a crime1 & :e!r x ought to be publi%$4 ,i op5$ ! ,bible1 & came on ! prophet ,jonah1 :o 0 compell$ to prophesy al?\gh he hid himself4 ,t quiet$ me4 ,b x is a t]rible book6 ,april #ag4--,to-day ! ,dream ,play w be p]=m$ = ! fir/ "t4 ,a g5tle fall ( sn[ 9 ! morn+4 ,read ! la/ *apt] ( ,job3 ,god puni%es ,job because he presum$ to wi% to und]/& ,8 "w4 ,job prays = p>don1 & is =giv54 ,quiet grey wea!r till #c ,p4,m4 ,!n ,g4 came ) a piece ( good news4 ,sp5t ! ev5+ alone at home4 ,at eight o'clock !re 0 a r+ at ! door4 ,a mess5g] br\ght a laurel-wrea? ) ! inscription3 ,tru?1 ,light1 ,lib]ation4 ,i took ! wrea? at once to ! bu/ ( ,bee?ov5 on ! til$ /ove & plac$ x on 8 head1 s9ce ,i _h s mu* to ?ank him =1 especially j n[ = ! music accompany+ my drama4 ,at elev5 o'clock a telephone f ! !atre ann\nces t ev]y?+ has gone well4 ,may #bi4--,! ,black ,flags come out to-day4 ,i make v satisfactory t]ms ) ! publi%] reg>d+ ! ,blue ,book 7& ,i _h ?\ght x w\ld n be pr9t$ at all74 ,s ,i det]m9$ to rema9 9 my h\se1 :i* ,i _h det]m9$ to leave on acc\nt ( pov]ty4 ,augu/ #bj4--;,i read ?is ev5+ ! pro(s ( ! ,blue ,book4 ,!n ! sky grew coal-black ) t[]+ d>k cl\ds4 ,a /orm ( ra9 fell2 !n x cle>$ up1 & a great ra9b[ /ood r\nd ! *ur*1 :i* 0 lit up by ! sun4 ,augu/ #bb4--;,i am read+ n[ ! pro(s ( ! ,blue ,book1 & ,i feel n[ z ?\gh my mission 9 life 7 end$4 ,i h be5 able to say all ,i _h to say4 ,i dreamt t ,i 0 9 ! home ( my *ildhood at ,sabbatsb]g1 & saw t ! great pond 0 dri$ up4 ,?is pond _h always be5 dang]\s to *ildr5 because x 0 surr\nd$ by a swamp2 x _h an evil smell1 & 0 full ( frogs1 h$gehogs1 & liz>ds4 ,n[ 9 my dream ,i walk$ ab\t on ! dry gr\nd1 & 0 a/oni%$ to f9d x s clean4 ,i ?\ght n[ t ,i h brok5 ) ! ,black ,flags ! frog-swamp is done )4 ,septemb] #a4--,read ! la/ pro(s ( ! ,blue ,book4 ,septemb] #b4--;,came across tramc> #cfe1 :i* ,i _h n se5 s9ce ,i began to write ! ,blue ,book on ,june #ae1 #aijf4 ,septemb] #ab4--,! ,blue ,book appe>s to-day4 ,x is ! fir/ cle> day 9 summ]4 ,i dreamt ,i f\nd myself 9 a /one-qu>ry1 & c\ld nei!r g up nor d[n4 ,i ?\ght q quietly1 ,well1 ,i mu/ cry = help6 ,! ,g]man motto to-day on ! te>-(f cal5d> is3 ,:at is to be cl>ifi$ mu/ fir/ f]m5t4 ,to-day ,i got new clo!s :i* fitt$4 ,my old ones _h be5 too tight to ! po9t ( torture4 ,my little daught] visit$ me4 ,i took h] home aga9 9 a *aise4 ,septemb] #ad4--,! :ole day cle>4 ,t[>ds ev5+1 h[ev]1 ab\t a qu>t] to six1 ! sky became cov]$ ) mo/ port5t\s-look+ cl\ds1 ) black outl9es l obliquely hang+ !atre-flies4 ,aft]w>ds ^! 7 driv5 out by a /orm ov] ! sea4 ,?is ev5+ my ,cr[n ,bride 0 p]=m$4 ,?us1 !n1 ! ,blue ,book _h appe>$4 ,x look$ well ) its blue & r$ b9d+1 :i* resembl$ t ( my fir/ book1 ! ,r$ ,room1 b 9 its cont5ts diff]$ z mu* f x z r$ f blue4 ,9 ! fir/ ,i _h1 l ,j]emiah1 to pluck up1 break d[n1 & de/roy2 b 9 ?is book ,i 0 able to build & to plant4 ,& ,i w conclude ) ,hezekiah's song ( praise3 ,i said1 9 ! noontide ( my days1 ,i %all g to ! gates ( ! grave3 ,my age is dep>t$1 & is remov$ f me z a %eph]d's t5t3 ,i h roll$ up l a weav] my life2 he w cut me (f f ! loom4 ,f day ev5 to night wilt ?\ make an end ( me4 ,l a swall[ or a crane1 s did ,i *att]2 ,i did m\rn z a dove3 m9e eyes fail ) look+ upw>d4 ,"l1 ,i am oppress$2 und]take = me4 ,:at %all ,i say8 ,he ha? bo? spok5 unto me1 & himself ha? done x4 ,behold1 x 0 = my peace t ,i _h great bitt]ness2 ,?\ ha/ 9 love to my s\l deliv]$ x f ! pit ( corruption4 ,! liv+1 ! liv+1 he %all praise !e1 z ,i d ?is day4 ,! fa!r to ! *ildr5 %all make kn[n ?y tru?4 99 99 99 99 99 ,i saw be=eh& :at await$ me if ,i broke ) ! ,black ,flags4 ,b ,i plac$ my s\l 9 ,god's h&s1 & w5t =w>ds4 ,i affix z a motto to ! foll[+ book1 ,he :o dep>te? f evil1 make? himself a prey4 ,! /range/ ?+1 h[ev]1 is t f ?is mom5t my own ,k>ma began to complete itself4 ,i 0 protect$1 ?+s w5t well ) me1 ,i f\nd bett] fri5ds ?an ^? ,i _h lo/4 ,n[ ,i am incl9$ to ascribe all my =m] mis*ances to ! fact t ,i s]v$ ! ,black ,flags4 ,!re 0 no bless+ ) !m6 ,footnote #a3 ,a roman clef 9 :i* ,/r9db]g fi]cely attacks ! ,bohemians & emancipat$ wom5 ( ,/ockholm4 ,a ,,blue ,,book ,! ,?irte5? ,axiom4--,euclid's twelf? axiom1 z is well kn[n1 runs ?us3 ,:5 "o /raight l9e cuts two o!r /raight l9es s t ! int]ior angles on ! same side are toge!r less ?an two "r angles1 ^! two l9es1 be+ produc$1 w at l5g? meet on t side on :i* are ! two angles1 :i* are toge!r less ?an two "r angles4 ,if t is a self-evid5t proposition1 :i* c nei!r be prov$1 nor ne$s to be prov$1 h[ mu* cle>] is ! axiom ( ! exi/5ce ( ,god6 ,anyone :o tries to prove an axiom1 loses himself 9 absurdity2 !re=e1 we %\ld n attempt to prove ! exi/5ce ( ,god4 ,he :o _c und]/& :at is self-evid5t 9 an axiom belongs to ! class ( p ( a l[] degree ( intellig5ce4 ,"o %\ld be sorry = su* dull>ds1 b n blame !m4 ,! fir/ po9t 9 ! def9ition ( ,god1 is t ,he is ,almighty4 ,!nce x foll[s t ,he c abrogate ,8 own laws4 ,b s9ce we d n "k all ,8 laws1 we d n "k :5 ,he employs a law :i* is unkn[n to u1 or susp5ds a law :i* is kn[n to u4 ,:at we call miracles1 may happ5 accord+ to /rict laws :i* we d n "k4 ,we mu/ !re=e take c>e1 :5 confront$ by unusual or inexplicable occurr5ces1 to see t we make no mi/akes4 ,^! draw d[n ^u u ! contempt ( our fell[-mortals :o are gift$ ) ke5] intellig5ce4 ,! ,ru/ic ,intellig5ce ( ! ,beans4--,! mill] turns 8 mill & ! seaman trims 8 sails accord+ to ! =ce & direction ( ! w9d4 ,!y d n see ! w9d1 b !y believe 9 its exi/5ce1 s9ce !y obs]ve ! results produc$ by x4 ,!y are wise p :o use _! intellig5ce4 ,intellig5ce 7ratio71 or ru/ic intellig5ce1 is an excell5t faculty :]eby to grasp :at is p]ceptible by ! s5ses1 ev5 :5 x is invisible4 ,reason is a high] faculty :]e) "o may grasp :at is n p]ceptible by s5se4 ,b :5 ! rationali/s try to compreh5d ! highe/ ?+s ) _! ru/ic intellig5ce1 !n !y see light z d>kness1 good z evil1 ! et]nal z temporal4 ,9 a ^w1 !y see di/ort$ly1 = !y see by ! light ( nature4 ,j z ! ru/ic intellig5ce is indisp5sable :5 "o goes to m>ket1 deals ) c(fee & sug>1 or draws up promissory-notes1 ev5 s is ! use ( reason necess>y :5 "o wi%es to approa* :at is above nature4 ,voltaire & ,he9e are c\nt$ among ! greate/ rationali/s because !y judg$ ( spiritual ?+s by ru/ic intellig5ce4 ,_! argum5ts are !re=e int]e/+1 b wor?less4 ,& ! mo/ int]e/+ fact ab\t bo? ^! m5 is1 t !y discov]$ _! errors1 decl>$ !mselves bankrupt1 & f9ally us$ _! reason4 ,b !re ! ,beans c no long] foll[ !m4 ,beans is a classical "n = ! ,phili/9es :o wor%ipp$ ,dagon1 ! fi%-god1 & ,beelzebub1 ! god ( dung4 ,! ,hoopoo1 or ,an ,unusual ,occurr5ce4--,johann 0 "o day on 8 travels1 & came to a wood4 ,9 an old tree he f\nd a bird's ne/ ) sev5 eggs1 :i* resembl$ ! eggs ( ! common swift4 ,b ! latt] bird only lays ?ree eggs1 s ! ne/ c\ld n belong to x4 ,s9ce ,johann 0 a great connoisseur 9 eggs1 he soon p]ceiv$ t !y 7 ! eggs ( ! hoopoo4 ,accord+ly1 he said to himself1 ,!re mu/ be a hoopoo some:]e 9 ! neighb\rhood1 al?\gh ! natural hi/ory books ass]t t x does n appe> "h4 ,aft] a "t he he>d q di/9ctly ! well-kn[n cry ( ! hoopoo4 ,!n he knew t ! bird 0 !re4 ,he hid himself beh9d a rock1 & he soon saw ! speckl$ bird ) its yell[ comb4 ,:5 ,johann return$ home aft] ?ree days1 he told 8 tea*] t he _h se5 ! hoopoo on ! isl&4 ,8 tea*] did n believe x1 b dem&$ pro(4 ,pro(6 said ,johann4 ,d y mean two witnesses8 ,yes6 ,good6 ,i h twice two witnesses1 & !y all agree3 my two e>s he>d x1 & my two eyes saw x4 ,maybe4 ,b ,i h n se5 x1 answ]$ ! tea*]4 ,johann 0 call$ a li> because he c\ld n prove t he _h se5 ! hoopoo 9 su* & su* a spot4 ,h[ev]1 x 0 a fact t ! hoopoo appe>$ !re1 al?\gh x 0 an unusual occurr5ce 9 ?is neighb\rhood4 ,bad ,dige/ion4--,:5 "o adds up sev]al l>ge numb]s1 "o owes x to oneself to d\bt ! correctness ( ! calculation4 ,9 ord] to te/ x1 "o g5]ally adds ! figures up aga91 b f ! bottom to ! top4 ,t is :olesome d\bt4 ,b !re is an un:olesome k9d ( d\bt1 :i* consi/s 9 d5y+ ev]y?+ :i* "o has n se5 & he>d oneself4 ,to treat "o's fell[-m5 z li>s is n humane1 & dim9i%es our k to a consid]able degree4 ,!re is a morbid k9d ( d\bt1 :i* resembles a weak /oma*4 ,ev]y?+ is swall[$1 b no?+ reta9$2 ev]y?+ is receiv$1 b no?+ dige/$4 ,! consequ5ce is emaciation1 exhau/ion1 consumption1 & premature dea?4 ,johann ,damasc5us#a _h pass$ ?r\gh sev]al ye>s ( :olesome d\bt1 prov+ ! tru?s ( fai? by sy/ematic d5ial4 ,b :51 aft] m9utely *eck+ 8 calculation1 he _h become sure ( _! ass]t$ values1 he believ$4 ,s9ce !n1 nei!r fe> ( m51 love ( ga91 contempt1 or ?reats c\ld cause him to ab&on 8 de>ly pur*as$ fai?4 ,& 9 t he 0 "r4 ,! ,song ( ! ,sawy]s4--,z ,damasc5us w&]$ 9 ,qualheim1 he came to a saw-mill4 ,outside x1 on ! edge ( a /ream1 sat two m51 & saw$ a /eel rail ) a d\ble saw4 ,!y accompani$ _! saw+ ) a rhy?mic *ant 9 two voices1 & some:at resembl$ two dr9k]s qu>rell+4 ,:at are y s++ ab\t8 ask$ ,damasc5us4 ,ab\t fai? & k1 answ]$ "o4 ,& !n !y recomm5c$4 ,:at ,i "k1 t ,i believe2 !re=e k is "u fai?1 & fai? /&s above x4 ,:at d y "k !n8 ,:at y h se5 ) y\r eye8 ,my eye sees no?+ ( itself4 ,if y 7 to take x out1 & lay x d[n "h1 x w\ld see no?+4 ,!re=e1 x is my inn] eye :i* sees4 ,c ,i !n see y\r inn] eye8 ,x is n to be se54 ,b y see ) t :i* is itself invisible4 ,!re=e1 y mu/ believe on ! invisible6 ,n[ y "k4 ,yes1 yes1 yes1 b1 b1 b4444 ,h y se5 ,god8 ,yes1 ) my inn] eye4 ,!re=e1 ,i believe on ,him4 ,b x is n necess>y = y to see ,him1 9 ord] = me to believe on ,him4 ,b k is ! highe/4 ,yes1 b fai? is ! highe/ ( all4 ,d y "k :at y believe8 ,yes1 al?\gh y don't "k x4 ,prove x4 ,by two concurr+ witnesses8 ,"h 9 ?is di/rict alone ,i c collect two million witnesses4 ,t mu/ be suffici5t pro( = y4 ,b1 b1 b1 b 444 ,& s on4 ,footnote #a3 ,/r9db]g gives himself ?is "n1 probably 9 allusion to 8 my/]y-play1 ,to ,damascus 7#aijj74 ,al ,mansur 9 ! ,gymnasium4--,damasc5us came into a l>ge gymnasium1 :i* at fir/ he ?\ght 0 empty4 ,b pres5tly he notic$ t m5 /ood along ! walls ) _! backs turn$ t[>ds him1 s t he only saw _! p]ukes & r$ e>s4 ,:y d !y /& & look at ! wall1 & :y d !y h su* r$ e>s8 he ask$ 8 tea*]4 ,!y are a%am$ ( !mselves1 answ]$ ! tea*]4 ,dur+ _! lifetime !y 7 reg>d$ z v clev] fell[s1 b n[ !y h discov]$ _! /upidity4 ,:at is /upidity8 ,he is /upid1 9 ! fir/ place1 :o is unpractical4 ,^! h practis$ gymna/ics all _! lives1 b nev] us$ ! /r5g? :i* !y h ga9$4 ,fur!rmore1 he is /upid :o f9ds x difficult to compreh5d simple propositions1 self-evid5t propositions or axioms2 = in/ance1 ! axiom ( ! exi/5ce ( ,god4 ,he is also /upid :o _c und]/& a logical pro(2 he :o _c accept reasonable premises1 c draw no correct inf]5ces4 ,b ! height ( /upidity is1 n to be able to accept an explanation f\nd$ on fact4 ,:5 ! ,apo/les told ,?omas t ,*ri/1 ! ,son ( ,god1 0 ris5 f ! dead1 he c\ld n receive ! new tru?1 because x 0 beyond 8 horizon4 ,su* a man is usually call$ ?ick-head$1 is he n8 ,damasc5us did n answ]1 b 8 e>s grew r$1 = he saw beh9d on ! spr+-bo>d a man :om he ?\ght he recognis$ by 8 broad neck & small e>s4 ,:at are y look+ at8 ask$ ! tea*]4 ,:o is ! man !re8 ,he 01 or 0 call$ ,al ,mansur1 ! ,victori\s1 because he lo/ all battles b "o--! battle ) himself4 ,by ! ,greeks he is call$ ,*rysoroas1 or ',gold5 ,/ream'2 by ! ,romans1 ,john ( ,damascus4 ,! ,night+ale 9 ! ,v9ey>d4--,johann w5t ) 8 tea*] ?r\gh a v9ey>d1 at ! season :5 ! v9es 7 fl\ri%+ & exhal+ _! delici\s p]fume1 :i* resembles t ( ! mignonette4 ,d y notice ! f9e sc5t8 ask$ ! tea*]4 ,oh yes2 x is ! sc5t ( ! v9es4 ,c y see x8 ,no1 x is invisible4 ,!n y c believe 9 :at is invisible1 z well z enjoy x4 ,y are1 !n1 on ! way4 ,a night+ale 0 s++ 9 a pomegranate tree4 ,c y see h] notes8 ask$ ! tea*]4 ,b y are delight$ by !m4 ,simil>ly1 ,i delight 9 ! invisible ,god ?r\gh ,8 way ( reveal+ ,himself 9 beauty1 goodness1 & righte\sness4 ,d y ?9k ,god _c reveal ,himself1 l ! night+ale1 by invisible b audible tones8 ,yes1 c]ta9ly4 ,!n y believe 9 revelations8 ,yes1 ,i am oblig$ to4 ,y believe t ,god is a ,_s8 ,yes4 ,!n y believe 9 spirits8 ,t is an incorrect inf]5ce4 ,i believe 9 "o ,_s4 ,h n m5 spirits or s\ls 9 _! bodies8 ,c]ta9ly4 ,!n y believe 9 spirits1 i4e4 9 ! exi/5ce ( spirits8 ,y are "r2 ,i believe 9 spirits4 ,don't =get t ! next "t "o asks y4 ,& don't be afraid :5 ! ,"l ( ,dung comes & ?reat5s y ) ! loss ( bread1 hon\r1 wife1 & *ild4 ,! ,miracle ( ! ,corn-crakes4--,"o summ] ev5+ ! tea*] w5t ) ,johann ?r\gh ! clov]-fields4 ,!re !y he>d a s\nd1 ,crex6 crex6 ,:at is t8 ask$ ! tea*]4 ,! corn-crake1 ( c\rse4 ,h y se5 ! corn-crake8 ,no4 ,d y "k a man :o has se5 x8 ,no4 ,h[ d y "k1 !n1 t x is x8 ,ev]yone says s4 ,look6 ,if ,i ?r[ a /one at x1 w x fly up8 ,no1 = x _c fly1 or flies v badly4 ,b 9 autumn1 x always flies to ,italy6 ,h[ does t happ58 ,i don't "k4 ,:at d ! zoologi/s say8 ,no?+4 ,d y believe t x flies ov] ! ,s\nd1 runs ?r\gh ,g]many1 & w&]s ov] ! ,alps or ?r\gh ! ,/4 ,go?>d ,tunnel8 ,!y say no?+ ab\t x4 ,well6 ,brehm calculates !re are a pair ( l>ks to e acre ( field & mead[2 if we reckon t !re are a pair ( corn-crakes to e two acres1 !n !re are 9 our c\ntry 9 spr+ five million corn-crakes4 ,! female lays f sev5 to twelve eggs dur+ ! summ]1 s t 9 autumn 9 our c\ntry !re are five-&-?irty million corn-crakes4 ,ought !y n to be visible :5 !y fly ov] ! ,s\nd8 ,i _c expla9 x4 ,a bad fly] _c fly ov] ! ,s\nd4 ,is x possible t !y g r\nd by ! ,gulf ( ,bo?nia8 ,no1 = !y h riv]s to cross1 & "o w\ld see _! flight l t ( ! lemm+s4 ,besides1 9 ,engl& !re are sev5ty million corn-crakes e autumn1 & !y _c g by l&4 ,!n a miracle happ5s4 ,:at is a miracle8 ,:at "o _c expla91 b has no "r to d5y4 ,!n ! flight ( ! corn-crakes is a miracle2 x mu/ take place accord+ to unkn[n natural laws or be sup]natural8 ,coroll>ies4--,! tea*] said3 ,! bee is a little creature1 b gives pl5ty ( honey4 ,! corn-crake is a little bird1 b x has %[n u t "s ( ! mo/ ord9>y natural occurr5ces _c be expla9$ by kn[n natural laws1 & mu/ !re=e be reg>d$1 = ! pres5t1 z sup]natural1 & = ! re/1 be tak5 on fai?4 ,y h nev] se5 ! corn-crake 9 fields or mead[s1 b y believe t x is !re4 ,if n[ a sportsman came1 :o _h %ot ! bird1 y w\ld be m quickly conv9c$ t ! bird does appe> 9 ! di/rict1 ev5 ?\gh ! sportsman 7 a li>4 ,b ! fact t millions ( birds n accu/om$ to fly+ _c fly ov] great spaces ( wat] or ,alp9e glaci]s1 does n expla9 ! autumn flight ( ! corn-crakes4 ,s9ce ?is _c be expla9$ on natural gr\nds1 x is sup]natural4 ,we mu/ accord+ly admit t we believe sometimes on ! sup]natural1 or on miracles4 ,f ?is prov$ !sis y c d$uce ! coroll>ies = y\rself if y possess ! faculty ( draw+ inf]5ces4 ,phantasms :i* ,are ,real4--,! tea*] ask$3 ,c "o see a phantasm8 ,:at is a phantasm8 ,!re are 9 optics real images :i* c be caught on a scre54 ,an image reflect$ 9 a flat mirror _c be caught ^u a scre51 & is !re=e a phantasm4 ,c y see y\r image 9 a flat mirror8 ,yes4 ,!n y c see a phantasm1 or an unreal image4 ,! eye1 !re=e1 is a skilful in/rum5t1 :i* c make ! unreal real4 ,"o might ?us be tempt$ to believe 9 gho/s4 ,:at are gho/s8 ,!y are phantasms1 or unreal images :i* ! eye c take 9 at c]ta9 di/ances4 ,great & cr$ible m51 su* z ,lu!r1 ,sw$5borg1 & ,goe!1 h se5 gho/s4 ,goe!8 ,yes2 9 ! elev5? book ( ,aus me9em ,leb5 he relates h[ he met ! image ( himself ^u a c\ntry road4 ',i saw1 t is to say1 n ) ! eye ( ! body1 b ( ! _s1' he adds4 ,d y consid] ,goe!'s te/imony cr$ible8 ,yes4 ,well1 su* sights are n se5 e day1 j z ! hoopoo is n se5 e day4 ,b t does n give "o any "r to d\bt t !y are se54 ,crex1 crex6--,! pupil ask$3 ,:at is *ance8 ,x means some?+ accid5tal1 irregul>1 illogical 9 ! occurr5ce ( an ev5t4 ,b ! ^w is (t5 misus$ by ^? :o see1 b d n und]/&4 ,= in/ance1 if aft] an evil de$ y are sy/ematically p]secut$ by mis=tune1 t is no *ance4 ,fir/ly1 because ! mis=tunes appe> regul>ly1 b *ance is irregul>4 ,secondly1 because ! puni%m5t foll[s logically on ! evil de$1 & *ance is illogical4 ,x is !re=e some?+ else4 ,yes1 x mu/ be s4 ,b :at is x t causes me to fail 9 all my und]tak+s1 to meet 9 ! /reets only enemies1 to be *eat$ 9 all ! %ops1 to get ! wor/ eatables 9 ! m>ket1 to read only ( wick$ness 9 ! pap]s1 n to receive pleasant lett]s ?\gh !y h be5 po/$1 to miss my tra91 to see ! la/ cab engag$ "u my nose1 to be giv5 ! only room 9 ! hotel :]e a suicide has be5 committ$1 n to meet ! p]son ,i h tak5 a special j\rney to see2 to h ! money ,i e>n imm$iately snat*$ away1 to h to rema9 9 a /range t[n f :i* all my acqua9tances h gone8 ,!n at la/1 :5 ,i h no food1 & am on ! po9t ( dr[n+ myself1 ,i f9d a %ill+ 9 ! /reet4 ,t _c be *ance8 ,:at is x !n8 ,x is some?+ else1 b h[ x happ5s we don't "k1 s9ce we "k s little ab\t ! mo/ ord9>y ph5om5a4 ,t's only twaddle4 ,crex1 crex6 ,t's ! corn-crake4 ,yes1 x is4 ,! ,electric ,batt]y & ! ,e>? ,circuit4--,! pupil feign$ ignorance1 & ask$3 ,:at is religion8 ,if y d n "k f exp]i5ce or intuition1 ,i _c expla9 x to y2 9 t case x w\ld only seem to y folly4 ,b if y "k be=eh&1 y w be able to receive my explanations1 :i* are _m4 ,religion is connect$ ) ! ,s\rce or ! head /ation4 ,b 9 ord] to c>ry on a conv]sation "o mu/ h an e>?-curr5t4 ,:at is t8 ,t is ! dra9+ (f ( sup]flu\s e>?l9ess to ! e>?4 ,z "o advances 9 te*nical k1 "o le>ns to speak )\t a wire4 ,b = t !re are necess>y /rong /reams ( electricity1 clean in/rum5ts1 & cle> air4 ,! electric batt]y is ,fai?1 :i* is n m]ely cr$5ce1 b an app>atus = receiv+ & ar\s+ ! div9e electricity4 ,unless y believe 9 ! possibility ( success 9 an und]tak+1 y w n set to "w1 & accord+ly y acquire no en]gy4 ,) fai? & a good w all is possible4 ,b ,fai? is a gift = all t4 ,yes2 b if1 f pride or ob/9acy1 y refuse to receive x1 x is no gift = y4 ,is t cle>8 ,improp] & ,unansw]able ,que/ions4--,! pupil ask$3 ,if ,god is "o1 :y are !re sev]al religions8 ,s9ce ! exi/5ce ( ,god is an axiom1 y %\ld say1 ',s9ce ,god is "o1 :y are !re sev]al religions8' ,i answ]3 ,i d n "k1 &1 /rictly speak+1 x does n conc]n me4 ,all agree 9 ! *ief po9t--t !re is a ,god1 & t ! s\l is immortal4 ,if ! s\l is immortal1 h[ is x t !re are m5 :o reg>d _! s\ls z mortal1 & speak ( ! pres5t life z _! only "o8 ,_! feel+s may be p]v]t$1 l a man's :o believes he has a snake 9 8 /oma*4 ,p]haps !y h committ$ s\l-suicide4 ,p]haps !y ?9k ! doctr9e ( immortality fooli%1 or _! s\ls are really s rudim5t>y t !y c be buri$ & dissolv$4 ,if t is ! case1 "o _c argue ) !m1 = !y are "r z reg>ds !mselves4 ,ei!r !irs is an abnormal case1 or _! p]ceptions are p]v]se2 ,i _c say :i*4 ,i am incl9$ to reg>d ! "q z among ^? :i* are unansw]able1 or :i* h n yet be5 answ]$1 or :i* %\ld n be ask$4 ,sup]/ition & ,non-,sup]/ition4--,! pupil ask$3 ,:at is sup]/ition8 ,i don't "k2 b a /]ile intellect calls ! highe/ axioms sup]/itions1 e4g4 ,god1 ! religi\s life1 consci5ce4 ,! believ+ f]tile intellig5ce1 on ! o!r h&1 calls x sup]/ition :5 an unbeliev] avoids a squirrel1 spits :5 he sees an old woman or :5 "o wi%es him luck1 or d>es n beg9 a j\rney on ! ?irte5? ( ! mon?4 ,:at is wit*craft8 ,:5 bad m5 misemploy _! psy*ic =ces on weak] m9ds1 dazzle !m1 or torm5t !m f a di/ance1 & s on4 ,y h se5 all ?is at hypnotic seances4 ,9 !m1 = example1 ! m$ium's eyesight c be s p]v]t$ z to take a raw potato = an apple4 ,are !re !n wit*es8 ,yes2 c]ta9ly !re are4 ,an ugly & evil woman1 :o s dazzles ! eyes ( a man t he sees h] z ! mo/ beautiful & be/1 is a wit*4 ,%\ld %e be burnt8 ,no1 = %e burns h]self ?r\gh h] wick$ness :5 %e meets a man :o is mail-clad ) ! love ( ,god4 ,!n ! missiles ( ! wit* reb\nd & /rike h]self4 ,b "o %\ld n talk ( su*4 ,he :o t\*es pit* is defil$4 ,?r\gh ,fai? to ,k4--,! pupil ask$3 ,h[ %all ,i "k t ,i believe rightly8 ,i w tell y4 ,d\bt ! regul> d5ials ( y\r ev]yday intellig5ce4 ,g out ( y\rself if y c1 & place y\rself at ! believ]'s /&po9t4 ,act z ?\gh y believ$1 & !n te/ ! belief1 & see :e!r x agrees ) y\r exp]i5ces4 ,if x does1 !n y h ga9$ 9 wisdom1 & no "o c %ake y\r belief4 ,:5 ,i = ! fir/ "t obta9$ ,sw$5borg's ,arcana ,cle/ia1 & look$ ?r\gh ! t5 ?\s& pages1 x appe>$ to me all nons5se4 ,& yet ,i c\ld n help wond]+1 s9ce ! man 0 s extraord9>ily le>n$ 9 all ! natural sci5ces1 z well z 9 ma!matics1 philosophy1 & political economy4 ,amid ! app>5t fooli%ness ( ! book 7 "s details :i* rema9$ rivet$ 9 my memory4 ,"s "t lat]1 9 my ord9>y life1 !re happ5$ some?+ inexplicable4 ,subsequ5tly light 0 ?r[n ^u ?is by an exp]i5ce :i* ,sw$5borg ref]s to 8 s-call$ heav5 & 8 s-call$ angels4 ,!n ,i began to se>* & to comp>e1 to make exp]im5ts & to f9d explanations4 ,i come to ! conclusion t ,sw$5borg has _h exp]i5ces :i* resemble ^? ( e>?ly life1 b are n ! same4 ,?is he br+s out 9 8 !ory ( correspond5ces & agreem5ts4 ,! !osophi/s h express$ x ?us3 p>allel ) ! e>?-life we live ano!r life on ! a/ral plane1 b unconsci\sly to ourselves4 ,! ,en*ant$ ,room4--,! pupil became curi\s & ask$3 ,:at op5$ y\r eyes z reg>ds ,sw$5borg8 ,x is difficult to say1 b ,i w try to d s4 ,9 my lonely dwell+ !re 0 a room :i* ,i consid]$ ! mo/ beautiful 9 ! _w4 ,x _h n be5 s beautiful at fir/1 b great & important ev5ts _h tak5 place !re4 ,a *ild _h be5 born 9 x1 & 9 x a man _h di$4 ,f9ally ,i fitt$ x up z a temple ( memory1 & nev] %[$ x to anyone4 ,"o day1 h[ev]1 ! demon ( pride & o/5tation took possession ( me1 & ,i took a gue/ into x4 ,he happ5$ to be a 'black man1' a hopeless despair]1 :o only believ$ 9 physical =ce & 9 wick$ness1 & call$ himself 'a load ( e>?4' ,z ,i admitt$ him ,i said1 ',n[ y w see ! mo/ beautiful room 9 ! c\ntry4' ,i turn$ on ! electric light1 :i* g5]ally p\r$ d[n f ! ceil+ su* a blaze t n a d>k corn] 0 left 9 ! room4 ,! man /ood 9 ! middle ( ! room1 look$ r\nd1 grumbl$ to himself1 & said ',i c't see t4' ,z he spoke1 ! room d>k5$1 ! walls contract$1 ! floor %rank 9 size4 ,my spl5did temple 0 metamorphos$ be=e my eyes4 ,x seem$ to me l a room 9 a hospital1 ) co>se wall-pap]s2 ! beautiful fl[]$ curta9s look$ dirty2 ! :ite surface ( ! little writ+-table %[$ spots2 ! gild+ 0 black5$2 ! brass fitt+s ( ! til$ ov5 7 t>ni%$4 ,! :ole room 0 alt]$1 & ,i 0 a%am$4 ,x _h be5 en*ant$4 ,conc]n+ ,correspond5ces4--,n[ comes ,sw$5borg1 b 8 explanation is some:at difficult4 ,i mu/ make a prefatory rem>k1 9 ord] t y may n ?9k ,i reg>d myself z an angel4 ,by 'angel' ,sw$5borg means a deceas$ mortal1 :o by dea? has be5 releas$ f ! prison ( ! body1 & by suff]+ 9 fai? has recov]$ ! highe/ faculties ( 8 s\l4 ,x is necess>y to be> ?is def9ition ( ,sw$5borg's 9 m9d1 & to rememb] t x does n apply to my gue/ or myself4 ,sw$5borg fur!r rem>ks reg>d+ ^! demat]ialis$ be+s3 ',all :i* appe>s & exi/s ar\nd !m seems to be produc$ & creat$ by !m4 ,! fact t _! surr\nd+s are1 z x 71 produc$ & creat$ by !m is evid5t1 because :5 !y are no long] !re ! surr\nd+s are alt]$4 ,a *ange 9 ! surr\nd+s is also app>5t1 :5 o!r be+s come 9 _! place4 ,elysian pla9s *ange into _! trees & fruits2 g>d5s *ange into _! roses & plants1 & fields into _! h]bs & grasses4 ,! reason = ! appe>ance & alt]ation ( su* objects is t !y are produc$ by ! wi%es ( ^! angel be+s & ! curr5ts ( ?\ght set 9 motion !reby4' ,is n ?is a subtle obs]vation ( ,sw$5borg's1 & h n ! facts he alleges some?+ correspond+ to !m 9 our l[] sph]e8 ,does x n resemble my adv5ture 9 ! 'en*ant$ room8' ,p]haps y h _h a simil> exp]i5ce8 ,! ,gre5 ,isl&4--,! pupil answ]$3 ,i h c]ta9ly _h /range exp]i5ces1 b did n und]/& !m because ,i ?\ght ) ! fle%4 ,z ,i j he>d y say t our exp]i5ces c receive a symbolical int]pretation1 ,i rememb]$ an incid5t :i* resembl$ t :i* y h j relat$ & comp>$ ) an obs]vation ( ,sw$5borg's4 ,aft] a y\? sp5t "u intol]able pressure & too mu* "w1 a fri5d gave me a sum ( money t ,i might sp5d ! summ] on ! sea 9 lit]>y recreation4 ,:5 ,i saw ! ',gre5 ,isl&' ) its c>pets ( fl[]s1 b$s ( re$s1 banks ( will[s1 oak coppices1 & hazel woods1 ,i ?\ght t ,i beheld ,p>adise4 ,toge!r ) ?ree o!r "y poets ,i pass$ ! summ] 9 a /ate ( happ9ess :i* ,i h nev] exp]i5c$ s9ce4 ,we 7 fairly religi\s1 al?\gh we did n lit]ally believe 9 ! gods ( ! /ate1 & we liv$1 z a rule1 innoc5tly en\gh1 ) simple pleasures su* z ba?+1 sail+1 & fi%+4 ,b !re 0 an evil man among u4 ,he 0 ov]be>+1 & reg>d$ mank9d z 8 enemies2 d5i$ all goodness2 spi$ aft] o!rs' faults2 rejoic$ 9 o!rs' mis=tunes4 ,e "t he left u to g to ! t[n1 ! isl& seem$ to me m beautiful2 x seem$ l ,sunday4 ,i 0 always ! object ( 8 gibes1 b did n und]/& 8 malice4 ,my fri5ds wond]$ t ,i 0 n angry ) him1 z ,i 0 g5]ally s passionate4 ,i d n myself und]/& x1 b ,i 0 z ?\gh protect$1 & notic$ no?+1 :atev] ! cause may h be54 ,p]haps y ask :e!r ! isl& really 0 s wond]ful4 ,i answ]3 ,i f\nd x s1 b p]haps ! beauty 0 9 my way ( look+ at x4 ,sw$5borg's ,hell4--,! pupil cont9u$3 ,! next summ] ,i came aga91 b ?is "t ) o!r companions1 & ,i 0 ano!r man4 ,! bitt]ness ( life1 ! _s ( ! "t1 new tea*+s1 evil companion%ip made me d\bt ! b5efic5ce ( ,provid5ce1 & f9ally d5y its exi/5ce4 ,we l$ a dreadful life toge!r4 ,we sl&]$ ea* o!r1 suspect$ ea* o!r ev5 ( !ft4 ,all wi%$ to dom9ate1 nobody w\ld foll[ ano!r to ! be/ ba?+-place1 b ea* w5t to 8 own4 ,we c\ld n sail1 = ev]yone wi%$ to /e]4 ,we qu>rell$ f morn+ till night4 ,we drank also1 & half ( u 7 treat+ !mselves = incurable diseases4 ,my ',gre5 ,isl&1' ! fir/ p>adise ( my y\?1 became ugly & repulsive to me4 ,i c\ld see no m beauty 9 nature1 al?\gh at t "t ,i wor%ipp$ nature4 ,b wait a m9ute1 & see h[ x agre$ ) :at ,sw$5borg says6 ,! beautiful we$-fr+$ bay began to exhale su* miasmas1 t ,i got mal>ial fev]4 ,! gnats plagu$ u ! :ole night & /ung ?r\gh ! ?icke/ veil4 ,if ,i w&]$ 9 ! wood1 & wi%$ to pluck a fl[]1 ,i saw an add] re> its head4 ,"o day1 :5 ,i took "s moss f a rock1 ,i saw imm$iately a black snake zigzagg+ away4 ,x 0 inexplicable4 ,! peaceable inhabitants mu/ h be5 infect$ by our wick$ness1 = !y became malici\s1 ugly1 qu>relsome1 & enact$ dome/ic trag$ies4 ,x 0 hell6 ,:5 ,i became ill1 my companions sc(f$ at me1 & 7 angry1 because ,i _h to h a room to myself4 ,!y borr[$ money f me1 :i* 0 n my own1 & behav$ brutally4 ,:5 ,i want$ a doctor1 !y w\ld n fet* him4 ,! tea*] broke 93 ,t is h[ ,sw$5borg describes hell4 ,prelim9>y ,k ,necess>y4--,! pupil ask$3 ,is !re a hell8 ,y ask t1 :5 y h be5 9 x8 ,i mean1 ano!r "o4 ,:at d y mean by ano!r "o8 ,has y\r exp]i5ce n suffic$ to conv9ce y t !re is "o8 ,b :at does ,sw$5borg ?9k8 ,i don't "k4 ,x is possible t he does n mean a place1 b a condition ( m9d4 ,b z 8 descriptions ( ano!r side agree ) our exp]i5ces on ?is side 9 ?is po9t1 t :5ev] a man breaks ! connection ) ! high] sph]e1 :i* is ,love & ,wisdom1 a hell ensues1 x does n matt] :e!r x is "h or !re4 ,he uses p>ables & allegories1 z ,*ri/ did 9 ord] to be und]/ood4 ,em]son 9 8 ,repres5tative ,m5 reg>ds ,sw$5borg's g5ius z ! greate/ among mod]n ?9k]s1 b he w>ns u aga9/ /]eo-typ+ 8 =ms ( ?\ght4 ,true z transitional =ms1 !y are false if "o tries to fix !m fa/4 ,he calls ^! descriptions a transitory embodim5t ( ! tru?1 n ! tru? itself4 ,b ,i d n yet und]/& ,sw$5borg4 ,no1 because y h n ! necess>y prelim9>y k4 ,j l ! peasant :o came to a *emical lecture & only he>d ab\t lett]s & numb]s4 ,he consid]$ x ! mo/ /upid /uff he _h ev] he>d3 ',!y c\ld only spell1 b c\ld n put ! lett]s toge!r4' ,he lack$ ! necess>y prelim9>y k4 ,/ill1 :5 y read ,sw$5borg1 read ,em]son along ) him4 ,p]v]se ,sci5ce4--,! tea*] cont9u$3 ,sw$5borg nev] f\nd a contradiction betwe5 sci5ce & religion1 because he beheld ! h>mony 9 all1 correspond5ces 9 ! high] sph]e to ! l[]1 & ! unity und]ly+ opposites4 ,l ,py?agoras1 he saw ! ,law-giv] 9 ,8 laws1 ! ,creator 9 ,8 "w1 ,god 9 nature1 hi/ory & ! life ( m54 ,mod]n deg5]ate sci5ce sees no?+1 al?\gh x has obta9$ ! telescope & microscope4 ,newton1 ,leibnitz1 ,kepl]1 ,sw$5borg1 ,l9nu1 ! greate/ sci5ti/s 7 religi\s ,god-fe>+ m54 ,newton wrote also an ,exposition ( ! ,apocalypse4 ,kepl] 0 a my/ic 9 ! true/ s5se ( ! ^w4 ,x 0 8 my/icism :i* l$ to 8 discov]y ( ! laws regulat+ ! c\rses ( ! planets4 ,humble & pure-he>t$1 ^? m5 c\ld see ,god :ile our decad5ts only see an ape infe/$ by v]m94 ,! fact t our sci5ce has fall5 into di%>mony ) ,god1 %[s t x is p]v]se1 & d]ives its light f ! ,"l ( ,dung4 ,tru? 9 ,error4--,! tea*] cont9u$3 ,let u return = a mom5t to y\r gre5 isl&4 ,!re y discov]$ t ! _w is a reflection ( y\r int]ior /ate1 & ( ! int]ior /ate ( o!rs4 ,x is !re=e probable t ea* c>ries 8 own heav5 & hell )9 him4 ,?us we come to ! conclusion t religion is some?+ subjective1 & !re=e outside ! rea* ( discussion4 ,! believ] is !re=e "r :5 he receives spiritual edification f ! consecrat$ ,bread & ,w9e4 ,& ! unbeliev] is also n wrong :5 he ma9ta9s t = him x is only bread & w9e4 ,b if he ass]ts t x is ! same ) ! believ]1 he is wrong4 ,"o ought n to puni% him = x2 "o mu/ only lam5t 8 want ( intellig5ce4 ,by call+ religion subjective1 ,i h n !reby dim9i%$ its p[]4 ,! subjective is ! highe/ = p]sonality1 :i* is an end 9 itself1 inasmu* z ! education ( man to sup]man is ! mean+ ( exi/5ce4 ,b :5 _m individuals comb9e 9 "o belief1 !re results an objective =ce ( trem5d\s int5sity1 :i* c remove m\nta9s & ov]?r[ ! walls ( ,j]i*o4 ,accumulators4--,:5 a race ( wild m5 beg9 to wor%ip a meteoric /one1 & ?is /one is subsequ5tly v5]at$ by a nation = c5turies1 x accumulates psy*ic =ce1 i4e4 becomes a sacr$ object :i* c be/[ /r5g? on ^? :o possess ! receptive app>atus ( fai?4 ,x c accord+ly "w miracles :i* are q incompreh5sible to unbeliev]s4 ,su* a sacr$ object is call$ an amulet1 & is n really m rem>kable ?an an electric pocket-lamp4 ,b ! lamp gives light only on two conditions--t x is *>g$ ) electricity & t "o presses ! knob4 ,amulets also only op]ate "u c]ta9 conditions4 ,! same holds good ( sacr$ places1 sacr$ pictures & objects1 & also ( sacr$ rites :i* are call$ sacram5ts4 ,b x may be dang]\s = an unbeliev] to approa* too ne> to an accumulator4 ,! fai?-batt]ies ( o!rs c produce an effect on !m1 & !y may be kill$ !reby1 if !y possess n ! e>?-circuit to c>ry (f ! co>s] e>?ly elem5ts4 ,! electric c> proce$s securely & ev5ly z long z x is 9 contact ) ! ov]head wire & also connect$ ) ! e>?4 ,if ! =m] contact is int]rupt$1 ! c> /&s /ill4 ,if ! e>?-circuit is block$1 an electric /orm is ! result1 z 0 ! case ) ,/4 ,paul on ! way to ,damascus4 ,et]nal ,puni%m5t4--,! pupil ask$3 ,:at is y\r belief reg>d+ et]nal puni%m5ts8 ,let me answ] evasively1 s to speak3 s9ce wick$ness is its own puni%m5t1 & a wick$ man _c be happy1 & ! w is free1 an evil man may be p]petually torm5t$ ) 8 own wick$ness1 & 8 puni%m5t accord+ly h no end4 ,b we w hope t ! wick$ w n adh]e to 8 evil w = ev]4 ,a wick$ man (t5 exp]i5ces a *ange ( nature :5 he sees some?+ good4 ,!re=e1 x is our duty to %[ him :at is good4 ,! consci\sness ( fatality & be+ damn$ comes to ev]yone1 ev5 to ! incr$ul\s4 ,t proves t !re is an inborn s5se ( ju/ice1 a ne$ to puni% oneself1 & t q indep5d5t ( dogmas4 ,moreov]1 x is a gross falsehood t ! doctr9e ( hell 0 inv5t$ by ,*ri/ianity4 ,greeks & ,romans knew ,hades & ,t>t>us ) _! ref9$ tortures2 ! ,jews _h _! ,%eol & ,geh5na2 ! *e]ful ,japanese rival ,dante ) _! ,inf]no4 ,x is !re=e ?\ghtless nons5se to make ,*ri/ian !ology solely responsible = ! doctr9e ( hell4 ,x w\ld be j z fair to trace x to ! *e]ful view ( life ( ! ,greeks & ,romans1 :o fir/ came ^u ! idea4 ,desolation4--,! tea*] cont9u$3 ,:5 ?is feel+ ( fatality /rikes an unbeliev]1 x (t5 appe>s z ! s-call$ p]secution-mania4 ,he believes himself1 = example1 p]secut$ by m5 :o wi% to poison him4 ,s9ce 8 intellig5ce is s l[ t he _c rise to ! idea ( ,god1 8 evil consci5ce makes him conjure up evil m5 z 8 p]secutors4 ,?us he does n und]/& t x is ,god :o is pursu+ him1 & !re=e he dies or goes mad4 ,b he :o has /r5g? en\gh to b[ himself1 or intellig5ce en\gh to guess at a me?od 9 ?is madness1 cries to ,god = help & grace1 & escapes ! madh\se4 ,aft] a season ( self-*a/isem5t1 life beg9s to gr[ light]2 peace returns2 he succe$s 9 8 und]tak+s2 8 ',gre5 ,isl&' aga9 blooms ) spr+4 ,?is feel+ ( woebegon5ess (t5 occurs ab\t ! =tie? or fiftie? ye>4 ,x is ! balanc+ ( books at ! sol/ice4 ,! :ole pa/ is summ$ up1 & ! debit-side %[s a plus :i* makes "o despair4 ,sc5es ( e>li] life pass by l a panorama1 se5 9 a new light2 long-=gott5 incid5ts reappe> ev5 9 _! smalle/ details4 ,! op5+ ( ! seal$ ,book ( ,life1 spok5 ( 9 ! ,revelation1 is a v]itable reality4 ,x is ! day ( judgm5t4 ,! *ildr5 ( ! ,"l ( ,dung :o h lo/ _! intellig5ce und]/& no?+1 b buy bromkali at ! *emi/'s & take sick-leave because ( 'neura/h5ia4' ,t is a ,greek ^w1 :i* s]ves !m z an amulet4 ,sw$5borg calls ?is natural process '! desolation' ( ! wick$4 ,! pieti/s call x ! 'awak5+' be=e conv]sion4 ,a ,_w ( ,delusion4--,sw$5borg writes3 ',! angels are tr\bl$ conc]n+ ! d>kness on e>?4 ,!y say t !y c see h>dly any light any:]e1 t m5 live & /r5g!n !mselves 9 ly+ & deceit1 & s heap up falsity ^u falsity4 ,9 ord] to ratify ^!1 !y manage to extract1 by way ( inf]5ce1 su* true propositions f false premises1 z1 on acc\nt ( ! d>knesses :i* conceal ! true s\rces1 & because ! real /ate ( ! case is unkn[n1 _c be refut$4' ,?is agrees ) :at e ?9k+ man obs]ves1 t ly+ & deceit are univ]sal4 ,! :ole ( life--politics1 society1 m>riage1 ! family--is c\nt]feit4 ,views :i* univ]sally prevail are bas$ ^u false hi/ory2 sci5tific !ories are f\nd$ on error2 ! tru? ( to-day is discov]$ to be a lie to-morr[2 ! h]o turns out to be a c[>d1 ! m>tyr a hypocrite4 ,te ,deums are sung ov] a silv] w$d+1 & ! w$d$ pair1 /ill secretly lead+ immoral lives1 ?ank ,god t !y h liv$ toge!r happily = five-&-tw5ty ye>s4 ,! :ole populace assembles once 9 a ye> to celebrate ! memory ( ! ',de/roy] ( ! ,c\ntry4' ,he :o says ! mo/ fooli% ?+ possible1 receives a prize 9 money & a gold m$al4 ,at ! annual asses' fe/ival1 ! wor/ is cr[n$ ! asses' k+4 ,a mad _w1 my ma/]s6 ,if ,hamlet plays ! madman1 he sees h[ mad ! _w is4 ,b ! spectator believes himself to be ! only reasonable p]son1 !re=e ,he gives ,hamlet 8 sympa?y4 ,! ,conv]sion ( ! ,*e]ful ,pagan1 ,horace4--,among ! conv5tional falsehoods ( ! apes1#a "o ( ! be/ kn[n is t conv]sion f irreligion is a purely ,*ri/ian doctr9e4 ,by look+ into ,kuml9's ,sw$i% translation ( ,horace1 ev5 a s*oolboy c f9d ?is head+ to ! ?irty-f\r? ode ( ! fir/ book1 ',! ,religi\s ,conv]sion ( ! ,poet4' ,horace belong$ to ! ,epicurean sect :o only believ$ 9 phantom gods1 because !y held t ! div9ities did n tr\ble !mselves ) ! c\rse ( ! _w or ( ev5ts1 b enjoy$ a c>eless life ( cont9ual ease4 ,horace accord+ly _h n be5 rem>kably zeal\s 9 8 religi\s duties4 ,b a sudd5 fla% ( lightn+ & a heavy peal ( ?und] f a cle> sky taught him at la/ t x 0 no bl9d unconsci\s =ce ( nature1 b ! h& ( a ,god1 :i* hurl$ ! lightn+4 ,!reby he 0 awok5 to reflection1 & tri$ to w>n & sob] 8 frivol\s c\ntrym5 by dwell+ on ! p[] ( ,jupit]4 ',god c *ange ! l[e/ ) ! highe/2 ,he puts d[n ! exalt$ & uplifts ! obscure4' ,aft] ?is ,horace prea*$ l a ,j]emiah aga9/ ! corruption ( religion & morals4 ,a mod]n 'ape' might feel ju/ifi$ 9 call+ him a pieti/ s9ce he 0 conv]t$6 ,*e]ful ,paganism & its ,doctr9e ( ,hell4--,orig5 aga9/ ,celsus is ! title ( ! fir/ refutation ( ! ly+ accusations :i* ! pagans h br\ght aga9/ ,*ri/ianity4 ,:o w write a second8 ,:o w %[ t ! hell ( ! pagans 0 sev5 times worse ?an t ( ! ,*ri/ians8 ,9 "s ,*ri/ian c\ntries ! ,*ri/ian religion may n be taught 9 ! s*ools1 b boys are oblig$ to read ,virgil's ,six? neid1 :i* describes ! t]rors ( ! und]world4 ,!re is ! ,l]nan ,hydra1 ! ,*imra1 ,gorgons1 & ,h>pies4 ,on ! banks ( ,cocytus roam cr[ds ( ! unburi$2 !re !y mu/ roam = c5turies because !y h nev] f\nd a grave4 ,is t humane8 ,!n !re are ! poor suicides ev]la/+ly imm]s$ 9 ! ,/yx4 ,& ! field ( m\rn+ :]e unhappy lov]s hide !mselves4 ',ev5 aft] dea? _! pangs are n end$4' ,b ^! 7 comp>atively innoc5t4 ,crim9als1 h[ev]1 are puni%$ fir/ by ! fury ,tisiphone4 ,%e seizes ! damn$1 mocks !m ) helli% laught]1 & ?reat5s !m ) snakes4 ,a ,hydra op5s fifty black jaws4444 ,& s on till we come to ! sieve ( ! ,danaids1 ! :eel ( ,ixion1 ! ?ir/ ( ,tantalus4 ,let u rememb]1 h[ev]1 t ! m5 ( ! ,r5aissance1 ,dante & ,mi*ael ,angelo1 h depict$ ! mo/ extreme torm5ts1 z ?\gh !y believ$ 9 !m4 ,anyone :o wants to see h[ ! *e]ful ,japanese describe hell1 c look at ! pictures :i* ,riotor & ,le(anti publi%$ 9 ,p>is1 #ahie1 9 ! ,enf]s ,b\ddhiques4 ,footnote #a3 ,mat]iali/ic evolutioni/s4 ,fai? ! ,*ief ,?+4--,! tea*] cont9u$3 ,pietism is a condition ( rep5tance1 :i* m5 pass ?r\gh l a purify+ ba? & ga9 a consci\sness ( inw>d cleanl9ess4 ,x is !re=e no hypocrisy1 z ! *ildr5 ( ! ,"l ( ,dung suppose4 ,he :o is sev]e t[>ds himself may easily appe> malici\s to ! un9tellig5t2 & he :o has suff]$ = 8 wick$nesses feels himself fre$ f ! pa/4 ,?is feel+ ! unbeliev]s call 'self-satisfaction4' ,a p5it5t nev] atta9s p]fection1 b ceaselessly relapses into ! desires ( ! fle%4 ,?is may easily cause him to appe> a hypocrite4 ,lu!r quickly saw t x is impossible to make "o's acts correspond to "o's belief4 ,!re=e he laid /ress on fai?1 let acts g1 & adduc$ z 8 au?ority ,/4 ,paul's solution ( ! p>adox3 ',s ,i obey ! law ( ,god ) ! _s1 b ) ! fle% ! law ( s94' ,fai?1 ,hope1 & ,love3 t is ! ess5ce & k]nel ( religion4 ,"o's acts nev] come up to "o's fai?1 & (t5 lag f> beh9d x4 ,b !re are "s pi\s s\ls :o p]si/ 9 rema9+ 9 ! condition ( p5ance1 & x may easily seem z ?\gh !y wi%$ to ga9 heav5 9 advance ( ! re/4 ,b we %\ld n blame !m = x4 ,!re may be secret reasons :i* we d n "k1 & h nev] exp]i5c$4 ,socrates reg>d$ ! s5se ( %ame & consci5ce z :at di/+ui%$ man f ! bea/s4 ,to ^! two ,*ri/ add$ pity4 ,p5it5ts4--,! tea*] cont9u$3 ,muhamm$ e>ly trav]s$ ! /age ( desolation & became a pieti/1 :5 he believ$ himself p]secut$ by devils4 ,set free f9ally by suff]+ & pray]1 he exclaims 9 ! #icrd ,sura3 ',by ! =5oon1 & ! night :5 x d>k5s1 ?y ,"l has n =sak5 !e or hat$ !e1 & surely ! future = !e w be bett] ?an ! pa/4 ,& ?y ,"l w give !e suffici5t1 & ?\ %alt be satisfi$4 ,did ,he n f9d !e an orphan & give !e %elt]8 & f9d !e err+ & guide !e8 & f9d !e poor ) a family & n\ri% !e8 ,b z = ! orphan1 oppress him n2 & z = ! begg>1 drive him n away2 & z = ! fav\r ( ?y ,"l1 disc\rse !re(6' ,:5 ,buddha left 8 fa!r's palace & saw ! suff]+s ( m5 & ! in/ability ( life1 he became a p5it5t1 left wife & *ild1 w5t into ! wild]ness1 & *a/5$ himself by fa/+ & r5unciation4 ,b aft] he _h und]gone ! sev]e/ p5ances1 he cauti\sly return$ to ord9>y life1 & all[$ himself mod]ate enjoym5ts 9 ord] n to deva/ate 8 s\l4 ,"s ( 8 disciples des]t$ him & call$ him a recreant1 b t did n tr\ble him4 ,goe! himself pass$ ?r\gh religi\s crises1 & 0 at "o p]iod intimate ) ! ,h]mhut]s1 ! pieti/s ( t "t4 ,9 8 old age1 :5 he grew wise1 he became a my/ic1 i4e4 he discov]$ t !re are ?+s betwe5 heav5 & e>? ( :i* ! ',beans' h nev] let !mselves dream4 ,pay+ = ,o!rs4--,! pupil said3 ,i mu/ confess t ,i d n und]/& ! ,atonem5t4 ,y mean1 und]/& x ) ev]yday intellig5ce4 ,no "o c4 ,! highe/ que/ions _c be solv$ by u1 j z little z problems ( ! f\r? dim5sion4 ,b ! solution is giv5 to u1 if we ask = x 9 a prop] way4 ,z reg>ds ! r$emptive "w ( ,*ri/1 y c compreh5d x by an analogy4 ,y rememb]1 :5 y ow$ s _m debts1 t !re 7 knocks at y\r door all day long1 t y _h to g out e>ly 9 ! morn+ 9 ord] to borr[1 or to escape y\r cr$itors4 ,f9ally y fe>$ y\r room s1 t y d>$ n g home to sleep4 ,y sat on a seat 9 ! p>k1 & said to y\rself1 ',x is hell6' ,!n !re came a man :o knew y2 he paid y\r debts2 y call$ him y\r savi\r4 ,d y n see t "o c pay = ano!r1 & deliv] him8 ,yes1 b "o _c make an evil de$ undone4 ,no1 b ! ,almighty c oblit]ate x f our memory1 & f ! memory ( o!rs4 ,b m>k ?is well3 e "t t y rummage 9 ! pa/ ( ano!r1 al?\gh x has be5 aton$ =1 ! memory ( y\r own evil de$s />ts up4 ,j l a badly wa%$ /a9 :i* goes ?r\gh ! /uff & appe>s on ! o!r side4 ,all miracles are conditional1 j z v[s are4 ,! ,lice-,k+4--,z ! tea*] roam$ "o day 9 ,qualheim he came into a wood "u ^: %ad[ _m decay+ funguses grew4 ,on a footpa? he saw :at he ?\ght at fir/ 0 a snake wri?+ ab\t4 ,x 0 no snake1 h[ev]1 b a mass ( grubs clott$ toge!r4 ,! tea*] ask$ 8 guide3 ,:at is ! mean+ ( t8 ,ask fir/ :at x is2 !n ,i w tell y ! mean+ ( x4 ,well8 ,^! are ! l>v ( ! snake-worm1 :i* are oblig$1 l clay & wadd$ /raw1 to hold toge!r 9 ord] n to p]i%4 ,!y love poison\s funguses1 & _c be> ! light4 ,!y ma9ta9 _! exi/5ce by a mutual int]*ange ( slime1 )\t :i* !y become dead & dry4 ,b !y call d>kness light1 because ! sun w\ld kill !m4 ,!y fe$ on ! poison\s funguses4 ,!y hate ea* o!r1 b mu/ keep toge!r4 ,d y und]/& n[1 or n8 ,:at is ! "n ( ! creature8 ,x is call$ ! snake-worm or lice-k+1 appe>s once 9 e g5]ation1 & is a h]ald ( evil times4 ,:at does x mean !n8 ,x is a symbol ( ! m5 :o talk ) _! faces turn$ backw>ds1 & !re=e see ev]y?+ di/ort$2 :o call evil good1 & good evil4 ,because !y live 9 pride & self-love !y _c see ,god1 b elect "o ( ! mass to be _! k+1 & believe t !y are1 collectively1 ,god4 ,by 'fre$om1' !y mean fre$om to d evil4 ,(t5 an ox or c[ comes by & treads ^u ! motely mass4 ,!n1 ( c\rse1 x is oblit]at$ 9 slime1 b ano!r soon takes x place4 ,x seems to be z et]nal z evil4 ,! ,art ( ,life4--,! tea*] said3 ,life is h>d to live1 & ! de/9ies ( m5 appe> v diff]5t4 ,"s h bright] days1 o!rs d>k] ones4 ,x is !re=e difficult to "k h[ "o %\ld behave 9 life1 :at "o %\ld believe1 :at views "o %\ld adopt1 or to :i* p>ty "o %\ld adh]e4 ,?is de/9y is n ! inevitable bl9d fate ( ! anci5ts1 b ! commission :i* ea* "o has receiv$1 ! task he mu/ p]=m4 ,! !osophi/s call x ,k>ma1 & believe x is connect$ ) a pa/ :i* we only dimly rememb]4 ,he :o has e>ly discov]$ 8 de/9y1 & keeps closely to x1 )\t comp>+ 8 ) o!rs1 or envy+ o!rs _! easi] lot1 has discov]$ himself1 & w f9d life easi]4 ,b at p]iods :5 all wi% to h a simil> lot1 "o (t5 engages 9 a fruitless /ruggle to make "o's own h>d] de/9y resemble ! lot ( ^? to :om an easi] "o has be5 assign$4 ,!nce result di%>mony & friction4 ,ev5 up to old age1 _m m5 seek to conqu] _! de/9y1 & make x resemble t ( o!rs4 ,! pupil ask$3 ,if x is s1 :y is n "o in=m$ ( "o's ,k>ma f ! beg9n+8 ,! tea*] answ]$3 ,t is pure pity = u4 ,no man c\ld endure life1 if he knew :at lay be=e him4 ,moreov]1 man mu/ h a c]ta9 measure ( fre$om2 )\t t1 he w\ld only be a puppet4 ,also ! wise ?9k t ! voyage ( discov]y we make to discov] our de/9y is in/ructive = u4 ',let ,my ,grace be suffici5t = !e2 ,my /r5g? is made p]fect 9 weakness4' ,! ,mitigation ( ,de/9y4--,! tea*] cont9u$3 ,"s appe> to be de/9$ to hon\r & weal?1 o!rs only to hon\r1 & o!rs only to weal?4 ,_m seem to be born to humiliations1 pov]ty1 & sickness--'/ruck l a co9 9 ! m9t1' z ! say+ is4 ,ev]yone c mitigate 8 de/9y by submitt+ & adapt+ himself to x--by resignation1 9 a ^w4 ,! inw>d happ9ess :i* "o ga9s !reby1 excels all outw>d prosp]ity4 ,all ?+s "w = good to him :o s]ves ,god4 ,! man :o does n /rive aft] hon\r & weal? is impregnable2 9 a c]ta9 s5se1 all-p[]ful4 ,! h>de/ ?+ is to see ! inju/ice 9 ! _w2 b ev5 t c be ov]come by tak+ x z a trial4 ,if ! wick$ prosp]s1 let him2 we h no?+ to d ) x4 ,besides1 8 happ9ess is n s great :5 "o looks clos] at x4 ,:5 y are p]secut$ by mis=tune1 & y\r consci5ce _c call x des]v$1 take x quietly4 ,reg>d ! endurance ( ! ordeal z an hon\r4 ,!re w come a day :5 ev]y?+ w improve4 ,!n p]haps y w discov] t ! mis=tunes 7 b5efits1 or1 at any rate1 af=d$ opportunity = ex]cis+ endurance4 ,envy no man2 y "k n :at 8 envi$ lot might conceal1 if x actually came to *ang+ places4 ,! ,good & ! ,evil4--,! pupil ask$3 ,is !re really su* a great diff]5ce betwe5 m58 ,! tea*] answ]$3 ,yes & ,no6 ,b a sure m>k ( ! evil man is1 he does evil = evil's sake4 ,t is ! bad man--! s>ca/ic s*oolma/]1 ! dome/ic tyrant4 ,t is ! *ild1 :i* torm5ts its "m by f9d+ out ev]y?+ %e dislikes4 ,t is ! bad wife1 ! fury1 :o enjoys tortur+ & humiliat+ a man :o only wi%es h] good4 ,9 ! battles ( life x is q human to rejoice :5 a foe is defeat$4 ,on all battlefields ,god has be5 ?ank$ = ! victory4 ,t is some?+ diff]5t4 ,:5 "o sees ! insol5t /ruck by mis=tune1 "o rejoices t !re is ju/ice4 ,:5 "o sees ! wick$ puni%$1 "o feels satisfaction at see+ ! balance ( equity re/or$4 ,t is some?+ diff]5t4 ,b he :o rejoices ov] e evil de$ :i* he himself has be5 "u no necessity ( committ+2 he :o rejoices :5 ! crim9al escapes 8 puni%m5t2 he :o gloats ov] ! mis=tune ( a good man2 he :o suff]s :5 goodness & m]it are rew>d$--t is ! evil man4 ,su* 7 ^? :o clam\r$ = ! murd]] ,b>abbas's release & p]haps gave a fea/ 9 8 hon\r4 ,mode/y & ! ,s5se ( ,ju/ice4--,! tea*] cont9u$3 ,prop]ly speak+1 ! "q y %\ld h ask$ j n[ is1 ',:at m5 are good8' ,socrates1 accord+ to ,plato1 said1 ',^? :o possess mode/y & a s5se ( ju/ice4 ,^? are ! religi\s m54' ,he1 on ! o!r h&1 :o has nei!r fai? nor hope1 c assume ! outw>d aspect ( an hon\rable man4 ,b :5 8 worldly int]e/s or advantages are conc]n$1 he lets hon\r drop4 ,simil>ly1 :5 x is a "q ( sav+ "o ( 8 associates f puni%m5t4 ,!n he c be> false witness1 & believe x is a good act4 ,he does n /ick at help+ =w>d an unwor?y fri5d or relative4 ,he w swe> falsely 9 ord] to attack a believ]4 ,he ?9ks ev]y?+ lawful1 i4e4 on 8 side aga9/ o!rs1 & he nev] rep5ts any?+1 say+ to himself1 ',he :o lets himself be misl$ mu/ pay = x4' ,:5 a religi\s man makes a slip1 he is wont to feel a%am$1 & to reproa* himself4 ,(t5 he is nave en\gh to confess 8 fault or 8 mis-do+4 ,!n ! ,lice-,k+ %\ts ',hurrah6' ,= he w\ld nev] be s simple4 ,/ill1 ?\gh a believ] fall sev5ty times & sev51 he rises aga9 & confesses 8 fault4 ,t is ! diff]5ce4 ,d]elicts4--,! pupil ask$3 ,h[ is "o to judge ( ! m5 :o are ov]?r[n 9 ! battle ( life )\t be+ arm$ = ! conflict8 ,y rememb] su* *>act]s at s*ool2 !y c\ld n le>n1 c\ld n att5d2 !y 7 n a%am$1 h[ev]1 b reg>d$ !mselves z a k9d ( victims4 ,!y left s*ool1 w5t out into life1 & collaps$4 ,x 0 n ! fault ( _! dome/ic surr\nd+s1 = !y came ( good families1 :o support$ !m4 ,!y 7 n bad1 possess$ tal5ts1 7 clev]1 b _h no k & no int]e/s 9 life4 ',:at is ! object ( x8' !y 7 9 ! habit ( say+4 ,!y c\ld n br+ !mselves to "w1 b doz$ at _! desks4 ,!y seem$ to be born to d no?+1 :i* is a puni%m5t = ! active4 ,expla9 to me _! de/9y6 ,t ,i _c4 ,"s h di$ "y 9 pov]ty2 o!rs begg$ _! way ?r\gh to _! sixtie? ye>1 :ile !y saw =m] s*ool-fell[s :o _h be5 worse ?an !y1 prosp] & fl\ri%4 ,i h se5 & lam5t$ !m1 b ,i _c expla9 _! de/9y4 ,!n !y are n to blame1 & yet live su* lives ( %ame & pov]ty2 t is cruel4 ,hu%6 ,criticise n ,provid5ce6 ,:at is n[ inexplicable may "s day be expla9$6 ,& rememb] t life is n p>adise4 ,two %all be gr9d+ at "o mill2 "o %all be tak51 & ! o!r left6 ,human ,fate4--,! tea*] said3 ,! de/9ies ( m5 are obscure2 !re=e "o %\ld be extremely c>eful 9 judg+4 ,! ,t[] ( ,siloam 0 ready to fall1 & fell on good & evil alike4 ,! disciples ask$ ,*ri/ :at s9 ! man born bl9d _h committ$4 ,*ri/ answ]$ t nei!r he nor 8 p>5ts _h committ$ any special s94 ,:5 we see h[ "s are born crippl$1 bl9d1 deaf1 & dumb1 we _h be/ be sil5t4 ,to lam5t _! lot may annoy !m1 = !y seem to be protect$ 9 a my/]i\s way4 ,!y are objects ( pity1 & seldom fall into abject pov]ty4 ,!y are good-hum\r$ ?r\gh life1 & h>dly seem to suff] "u _! ailm5ts4 ,b woe to ! man :o ridicules anyone m>k$ out by su* a fate6 ,if he is p]si/5tly pursu$ by calamity1 or /ruck himself by a great] mis=tune1 "o c h>dly ignore x by us+ ! =mula '*ance4' ,a p]son :o _h sc(f$ at a bl9d man 0 /ruck 9 ! eye by a /one :i* 0 ?r[n into a tramc>4 ,at fir/ he 0 al>m$1 & ?\ght ( ,nemesis4 ,b :5 he he>d t ! /one _h be5 s hurl$ z ! result ( "s bla/+ op]ations he became *e]ful1 i4e4 m ignorant1 & said x 0 a *ance4 ,he saw ! ph5om5on1 b no?+ beh9d x2 ! effect1 b n ! cause4 ,! ',beans' _c see beyond _! noses4 ,sometimes1 :5 !y h long noses1 !y see some:at fur!r4 ,! sup]natural 9 nature is incompreh5sible to _! intellig5ce4 ,inde$1 all :i* passes _! limit$ und]/&+ is = !m sup]natural4 ,t is logical1 b ^! ru/ics reg>d x z illogical4 ,d>k ,rays4--,z ! tea*] w&]$ ?r\gh 8 ,inf]no1 he came to a temple ( black granite1 :i* 0 q d>k inside4 ,)9 x some?+ 0 go+ on1 b he c\ld n di/+ui% :at4 ,:at is x8 he ask$ a :ite-rob$ figure1 :i* wore a laurel-wrea?1 b _h a gre5 face spott$ blue l a corpse4 ,t is a temple ( light1 x answ]$2 b ! initiat$ _c see our black rays until he receives ! :ite ars5ic-kiss f ! ultra-violet prie/ess4 ,give me ! kiss1 answ]$ ! tea*]1 b he turn$ 8 back to h] at ! same "t4 ,h[ev]1 %e did n notice ?is1 z %e c\ld n di/+ui% back f front4 ,n[ 8 eyes 7 op5$1 & he saw h[ )9 ! temple !y 7 (f]+ inc5se to _! gods ( light1 z !y call$ !m4 ,!re /ood ! murd]] ,b>abbas1 a halo r\nd 8 head1 & a plate on 8 brea/ ) ! inscription3 ,acquitt$ because ( insuffici5t evid5ce4 ,!re sat ,judas ,isc>iot "u 8 fig-tree1 ) ! ?irty pieces ( silv]1 9 ! bosom ( 8 family1 promot$ to be g5]al-director ( cu/oms4 ,!re 7 ! ,emp]or ,n]o1 fre% f ! ba?1 ) a :ite dove on 8 h&1 & ,julian ! ,apo/ate ne> an alt>1 ) geese sacrific$ ^u x4 ,! prie/s & prie/esses sang a *ant ( ,new ,bir? & ,resurrection1 burn$ inc5se comp\nd$ ( rose-leaves & ars5ic-acid1 & danc$ a snake-dance1 :i* !y call$ ! joy ( life4 ,!n !y began to qu>rel ab\t a laurel-wrea?1 & f\ght "o ano!r4 ,z ! tea*] w5t1 !y all sat !re 9 ! d>kness & wept4 ,b :5 a fre% nor? w9d blew ?r\gh ! temple1 !y trembl$ l dry leaves4 ,bl9d & ,deaf4--,! tea*] said3 ,!re are1 z y "k1 p ) :om "o _c be angry4 ,p]haps x is because ( _! natural good-nature1 :i* %9es ev5 ?r\gh a cutt+ je/4 ,& !re are p ^: malice comes to light long aft] "o has met !m4 ,su* an aft]-effect ,i h exp]i5c$ myself4 ,five-&-tw5ty ye>s aft] a conv]sation ) a man1 ,i felt angry ) him4 ,naturally1 dur+ a sleepless night1 :5 memory ?rew a new light on ! sc5e :i* _h tak5 place betwe5 u4 ,n till !n did ! insult+ ^w he spoke receive its prop] signification1 :i* ,i n[ und]/ood4 ,!re are words :i* c murd]4 ,su* a ^w ?is "o 04 ,:at a good ?+ t ,i did n und]/& x at ! "t6 ,x w\ld h result$ 9 calamity to f\r p4 ,by develop+ a peculi> in/9ct ,i h succe$$ 9 fabricat+ a k9d ( div+-co/ume1 ) :i* ,i protect myself 9 society4 ,:5 ! insult+ ^w or ! bit+ allusion is utt]$1 ! s\nd c]ta9ly rea*es my e>1 b ! receptive app>atus refuses to let x g fur!r4 ,9 ! same way ,i c make myself lit]ally bl9d4 ,i oblit]ate ! face ( ! p]son ,i dislike4 ,h[ x is done1 ,i d n "k1 b x seems to be a psy*ological process4 ,! face becomes a dirty :iti%-grey spot & disappe>s4 ,x is necess>y to make oneself deaf & bl9d1 or x is impossible to live4 ,"o mu/ cancel & g on6 ,t is g5]ally call$ '=giv+1' b x may be a device ( ! rev5geful = sp>+ himself tr\ble1 or a s*eme ( ! s5sitive = n lett+ insults rea* him4 ,"o _c und]take m ?an "o c be>6 ,! ,disrob+ ,*amb]4--,! tea*] cont9u$3 ,sw$5borg says 9 8 ,inf]no4444 ,say ',hell1' ! pupil int]rupt$ him4 ,i "k t !re is a hell1 = ,i h be5 9 x4 ,well1 ,sw$5borg has 9 8 ,hell a disrob+ *amb] into :i* ! deceas$ are conduct$ imm$iately aft] _! dea?4 ,!re !y lay aside ! dress !y h _h to we> 9 society & 9 ! family4 ,!n ! angels see at once :om !y h be=e !m4 ,does ,sw$5borg !n mean t we are all hypocrites8 ,yes1 9 a c]ta9 way4 ,an inborn mode/y compels u to conceal :at has to d ) ! animal2 polit5ess obliges u to be sil5t on _m po9ts4 ,consid]ation1 fri5d%ip1 k9%ip1 love1 oblige u to ov]look our neighb\r's weaknesses1 al?\gh we disapprove !m ev5 9 ourselves4 ,a man :o is a%am$ ( 8 faults is also sil5t ab\t !m4 ,to boa/ ( "o's faults is %amelessness4 ,c "o really call su* consid]ation hypocrisy8 ,h>dly2 especially z ?+s g wrong1 h[ev] "o behaves4 ,yes1 life is n easy2 x is h>d to be a man2 almo/ impossible4 ,! ,"* ,mask4--,! tea*] said3 ,i knew 9 my y\? a man :o 0 imp]i\s1 quick to ang]1 rev5geful1 emotional4 ,accid5tally 8 gifts z a speak] 7 discov]$4 ,he c\ld ?rill ! m9ds ( 8 he>]s1 br+ !m into t\* ) himself1 lift !m up--yes1 & ne>ly c>ry !m away4 ,b on "o occasion :5 he 0 at ! height ( 8 oratory he halt$1 became grotesque & ridicul\s1 & p laugh$4 ,! fir/ "t t ?is happ5$1 he 0 depress$4 ,b !y ?\ght he wi%$ to produce a comical effect1 & he obta9$ ! reputation ( a humor\s speak]4 ,out ( 8 mis=tune he made a virtue1 accept$ ! rle :i* _h be5 assign$ to him1 & f9ally enjoy$ a great popul>ity z a hum\ri/4 ,he (t5 felt annoy$ at hav+ to play ! "p ( a buffoon1 b ! desire to he> 8 own voice & to be greet$ ) applause unceas+ly spurr$ him on to w9 new triumphs4 ,society _h made ( him a sort ( 'homunculus1' :i* x cultivat$4 ,b 9 8 family & 9 8 (fice x 0 n to be f\nd4 ,y\? & ,folly4--,! tea*] said3 ,:at d y ?9k ( ! prov]b1 ',! "y imag9e t ! old are fools1 & ! old "k t ! "y are fools8' ,x is q true4 ,:5 ,i 0 "y1 ,i imag9$ t ,i und]/ood ev]y?+ bett] ?an ! old1 b ,i really und]/ood no?+4 ,i 0 "y & /upid1 confus$ my own k ) t ( o!rs'1 believ$ t :at ,i _h le>nt 0 my own4 ,:5 ,i _h read a book1 ,i w5t into society & proclaim$ :at ,i _h read1 z ?\gh x 7 my own discov]y1 ,i 0 !re=e a ?ief4 ,b ,i 0 ! victim ( ano!r delusion1 i4e4 ,i believ$ t ,i und]/ood all t ,i rememb]$1 or t ,i knew :at ,i happ5$ at ! mom5t to rememb]4 ,= in/ance1 :5 ,i 0 f\rte5 ,i did n und]/& log>i?ms1 b ,i le>nt ! way ( proce$+ ) !m by he>t1 & us$ log>i?ms z a %ort-cut4 ,:5 "o /udies a sci5ce 9 detail1 "o beg9s to collect mat]ial1 else ! result is nil4 ,b ! "y man attacks ! difficult sci5ce ( life )\t exp]i5ce1 i4e4 )\t mat]ial4 ,& ! result is :at we see4 ,i c see myself n[ z a "y /ud5t4 ,h[ pr\d ,i 0 ( borr[$ k & borr[$ plumes6 ,h[ ,i despis$ ! old6 ,& yet all t ,i _h /ol5 f books 0 /ol5 f ! old1 :o _h writt5 ! text-books4 ,! "y write no text-books4 ,o ,y\?6 ,o ,fooli%ness6 ,:5 ,i 0 ,"y & ,/upid4--,:5 ,i 0 "y & /upid1 ,i always _h a b& ( he>]s :o saw a light 9 me4 ,:5 ,i grew old]1 & wisdom came1 ,i 0 left alone ) my lecture & reg>d$ z an old ass4 ,b ! passage f y\? to age 0 bitt]1 :5 ,i discov]$ t ! old c\ld n be deceiv$4 ,!y read my secret ?\ghts beh9d my l(ty words2 !y anticipat$ my evil purposes2 !y unmask$ my crude desires2 !y prophesi$ ! results ( my actions2 & f\nd 9 my pa/ ! true cause ( my pres5t condition4 ,!y seem$ to me to be wiz>ds & prophets1 al?\gh !y 7 simple *>act]s4 ,:5 ,i ask$ myself h[ !y c\ld "k ?is & t1 ,i f\nd ! answ] lat]--because !y _h collect$ mat]ial2 because !y _h pass$ ?r\gh all ! /ages :i* 7 new to me2 because !y _h also tri$ to deceive ! old 9 ! same way1 b _h n succe$$4 ,y\?1 h[ev]1 is always believ+ t x c deceive old age1 7 x only by /eal+ a ?\ght f him4 ,i "k1 moreov]1 :y ! "y ob/9ately imag9e !y are sup]ior because !y c deceive4 ,!re are old wise m5 :o h come to t]ms ) life1 & !re=e ?9k x a duty to let !mselves be deceiv$ n[ & !n2 !y let !mselves be deceiv$ ta/efully4 ,y\? is only an idea1 an ab/raction1 a boa/1 a !me = an essay1 a song1 a toa/6 ,con/ant ,illusions4--,! pupil cont9u$3 ,:5 ,i 0 "y ,i 0 nev] really happy1 because my s5iors oppress$ me1 because ! future disquiet$ me1 because ,i liv$ on my p>5ts' money almo/ z ?\gh ,i 7 a p5sion>y4 ,:5 ! fir/ symptoms ( love %[$ !mselves1 life became a hell4 ,i 0 nev] v well1 = ! mo/ s]i\s illnesses--measles1 sc>let fev]1 agues1 cr\p1 & o!rs--affect only ! "y4 ,i c\ld nev] satisfy an innoc5t fancy1 = ,i _h no money2 e desire 0 nipp$ 9 ! bud4 ,i 0 a slave1 = my "t 0 n at my own disposal1 & ,i c\ld n leave my place 9 ord] to visit =eign c\ntries4 ,su* is ! huge humbug :i* is call$ 'y\?4' ,no "o has d>$ to unmask x1 = fe> le/ ! "y might pelt him ) /ones1 or draw c>icatures ( him on ! walls4 ,! tea*]s 9 ! s*ools cr\* be=e !m1 flatt] !m1 pret5d to envy !m4 ,if anyone comes :o does n flatt] ^! %ameless & consci5celess little b&its1 ^! lewd apes :o live 9 ! age ( innoc5ce1 ^! p>5t-murd]]s--!re is always "s old woman !re :o exclaims1 ',ah6 he does n und]/& ! "y6' ,he und]/&s !m v well1 = he has be5 "y himself4 ,b ! "y d n und]/& ! old1 = !y h nev] be5 old4 ,! "y ass]t t ! future is 9 _! h&s1 & t !re=e !y are fe>$ by ! c[>dly4 ,let u wait & see6 ,if ?irty p] c5t1 rea* ! future at all1 !y w "w j z _! eld]s h done1 & ) ! ?\ghts :i* !y h borr[$ f !m4 ,exceptions prove ! rule4 ,! ,m]its ( ! ,multiplication-,table4--,! tea*] said3 ,all wi% to haul at ! rope call$ ',developm5t4' ,! ^w g5]ally signifies 'alt]ation1' & m5 usually love any novelty :i* does n injure !m4 ,b !re are "s excell5t ?+s :i* are v old1 & !re=e !y rema9 unalt]$4 ,! multiplication-table1 = in/ance1 is spl5did1 ?\gh x is said to be z old z ,py?agoras4 ,! ,rule ( ,?ree holds good1 ?\gh x 0 ! anci5t ,h9dus :o discov]$ ?is law ( causes & effects4 ,! geometry ( ,euclid & ! logic ( ,ari/otle is /ill read 9 ! s*ools4 ,our ar*itecture imitates ,greek & ,roman models1 & ! sculpture ( ! anci5ts is n despicable4 ,we regulate our cal5d> v mu* z ! ,egyptians & ,*aldans did4 ,goe! & ,s*ill] c be read1 & ,%akespe>e is /ill p]=m$4 ,we see1 !re=e1 t n all :i* has be5 done 9 ! pa/ is to be despis$4 ,he :o prophesies t ,*ri/ianity w disappe> because x is old1 makes a miscalculation4 ,hom] is a ?\s& ye>s old]4 ,& ! ,old ,te/am5t w\ld fir/ h to be cancell$4 ,b ,*ri/ianity lives & fl\ri%es1 al?\gh x may be 9 secret & n publi%$ 9 ! newspap]s4 ,/ill !y s+ 9 s*ools & b>racks e morn+1 ',tru/ 9 ,god & 9 ,8 ^w & /r5g? 9 ord] to d good4' ,b x mu/ g h>d ) ! ,*ri/ians4 ',9 ?is _w ye h tribulation4' ,?r\gh p]iodical seasons ( bondage "u ,egyptian ,ph>aohs1 !y le>n pati5ce till !y beg9 _! w&]+s 9 ! wild]ness4 ,"u ! ,pr9ce ( ?is ,_w4--,! tea*] w&]$ 9 ,qualheim & came to a t[n4 ,9 ! mid/ ( ! *ief m>ket-place !re /ood a bronze image ( ! de/roy] ( 8 c\ntry4 ,! y\? ( ! place came out 9 holiday attire 9 ord] to celebrate ! h]o's memory4 ,! tea*] ask$ 8 guide3 ,:y d !y celebrate ! de/roy] ( ! fa!rl&8 ,i d n "k1 answ]$ ! guide4 ,are !y mad8 ,probably4 ,"h bel[ ev]y?+ is topsy-turvy4 ,?is h]o#a 0 consid]$ mad1 & c]ta9ly he 0 s4 ,he c>ri$ on mad w>s1 fl$ :5 defeat$1 & ca/ ! blame on o!rs4 ,:5 mis=tune came he collaps$ l a weakl+1 took to 8 b$1 & pret5d$ to be ill4 ,9 8 leisure h\rs he plott$1 b always ill4 ,at la/ he made false co9s1 b manag$ to procure a scapegoat1 :o 0 brok5 on ! :eel4 ,! c\ntry 0 ru9$ & c\ld nev] recov] its =m] pre/ige4 ,& ?is is ! man !y celebrate8 ,yes6 b !y h o!r /atues besides4 ,!re back 9 ! p>k /&s "o1 cr[n$ ) a laurel-wrea?4 ,he 0 ! wick$e/ man ( 8 "t4 ,& !re by ! h>b\r is a ?ird /atue--( a p]jur]444 ,t is j z x is ) u1 said ! tea*]4 ,yes1 x is ab\t ! same4 ,:]e are we !n8 ,"u ! ,pr9ce ( ?is ,_w1 ! ,"l ( ,dung4 ',b be ( good c\rage6 ,i h ov]come ! _w6' ,footnote #a2 ,he probably ref]s to ,*>les ,,xii ( ,sw$54 ,! ,idea ( ,hell4--,! pupil ask$3 ,:5 ,i read ,sw$5borg's ,hell1 ,i (t5 believ$ he 0 describ+ our life on e>?4 ,is x possible t we are already !re8 ,z a ,*ri/ian1 ,i h le>nt t !re 0 a ,fall foll[$ by a curse4 ,c]ta9ly life seems to me r an ,inf]no ?an a s*ool & a prison1 = no?+ keeps :at x promises4 ,! mo/ beautiful ?+s seem only made 9 ord] to become ugly1 ! good 9 ord] to become bad4 ,h y nev] se5 any?+ p]man5tly beautiful "h bel[8 ,yes1 ,nature at all seasons is s beautiful1 t ,i exclaim ) a feel+ ( pa91 ',h[ sup]-naturally beautiful6 ,& we are s hide\s6' ,life may also seem beautiful 9 a well-ord]$ family :]e !re is peace & happ9ess & fe/ival4 ,i h se5 x s1 b only = two m9utes at a "t1 & p]haps x 0 my way ( look+ at x4 ,yet !re are p :o c ?rive d[n "h4 ,he :o c ?rive "h is a pig4 ,i "k fell[s :o ?9k !y are 9 ,p>adise :5 !y are on a summ] holiday1 h a well-spread table lit up by ,*9ese lant]ns1 & let (f rockets4 ,b ',woe to ! man :o is born s5sitive6' says ,r\sseau4 ,ei!r he goes "u1 or he mu/ arm himself ) brutality4 ,9 ! la/ case x may happ5 t he _c dive/ himself ( ! arm\r1 :i* has become a second nature4 ,!re are "s extremely s5sitive natures :o _c come to t]ms ) life nor t\* reality4 ,^! un=tunates f9ally lose ! p[] ( look+ aft] !mselves1 & end 9 asylums4 ,self-,k4--,! tea*] said3 ,"o may h already liv$ a long "t1 consid] oneself a respectable man1 &1 z su*1 h enjoy$ ! e/eem ( o!rs4 ,!n !re comes a day :5 "o awakes z out ( slumb]1 sees oneself z a spectre1 is al>m$1 & asks1 ',am ,i t' ,"o discov]s t "o has done ?+s :i* n[ appe> inexcusable4 ,& "o asks oneself1 ',h[ c\ld ,i8' ,on "o occasion "o has ev5 committ$ a crime2 on ano!r1 "o has be5 dragg$1 s to speak1 by ! hair2 on a ?ird1 "o fell into a trap4 ,b !re are m5 :o are s sleepy t !y nev] awake2 & s want+ 9 intellig5ce t !y _c see h[ black !y are4 ,once ,i _h a fri5d :o 0 sixty ye>s old4 ,on "o occasion1 ) an outbreak ( /upid a/oni%m5t1 he exclaim$1 ',:y are p s prejudic$ aga9/ me8 ,i seem to myself an excell5t fell[6' ,& ?is man 0 a tyrant :o trampl$ m5 und]foot1 a hir$ execution]1 a murd]] :o betray$ ! innoc5t1 took bribes1 & practis$ simony & all k9ds ( wick$ness4 ,i did n wi% to condemn him1 b tri$ to def5d him4 ,p]haps he felt ju/ifi$ 9 becom+ an execution]1 = !re mu/ be su* (ficials2 s he adopt$ x z a pr(ession4 ,he _h an evil nature1 & f\nd x !re=e natural or "r :5 he act$ 9 accordance ) x4 ,he liv$ 9 complete h>mony ) himself1 & ^? :o resembl$ him pron\nc$ him a 'f9e fell['--'heal?y1 nave1 &1 !re=e1 excell5t society4' ,:5 he di$1 ,i drew a picture ( 8 "* = an acqua9tance4 ,! latt] 0 himself a black %eep1 & answ]$ q navely1 ',y are unfair to him2 ,i ?9k he 0 a f9e fell[4' ,somnambulism & ,clairvoyance 9 ,ev]yday ,life4---,! tea*] said3 ,i am n[ fifty-eight ye>s old1 & h se5 f\r g5]ations4 ,i h n be5 pure-he>t$1 = all black blood /reams into ! he>t1 b ,i h _h mom5ts 9 :i* ,i 0 transport$ into a *ildlike1 unconsci\s mood1 & took delight 9 int]c\rse ) m54 ,i knew t !y hat$ me1 laugh$ at my mis=tune1 & wait$ = my fall4 ,b ,i 0 immune aga9/ _! malice4 ,i saw 9 !m only poor m51 :o lik$ my company & 7 sympa!tic ) me4 ,ev5 :5 !y made ill-natur$ je/s aga9/ me1 ,i did n und]/& !m2 & :5 !y gave v5t to an op5 rud5ess1 ,i took x z a mean+less joke4 ,t is a k9d ( pleasant somnambulism4 ,(t51 h[ev]1 ,i c be wide-awake2 !n ,i see society nak$2 ,i see _! dirty l95 b5ea? _! clo!s1 _! de=mities1 _! unwa%$ feet4 ,b1 wor/ ( all1 ,i he> ! ?\ghts beh9d _! words2 ,i see _! ge/ures1 :i* d n h>monise ) :at !y say2 ,i int]cept a side-glance2 ,i notice a foot-/amp "u ! table1 a nose turn+ itself up ov] my w9e1 or a =k critically pass+ by a di%4444 ,!n life seems gha/ly6 ,i _h a fri5d1 :o once 9 society _h an attack ( ?is clairvoyance2 he sat d[n on ! middle ( ! table1 decl>$ all he _h se5 9 ! c\rse ( ! ev5+1 & /ripp$ 8 fri5ds b>e4 ,! result 01 he 0 pron\nc$ mad & tak5 to an asylum4 ,!re are _m k9ds ( madness4 ,let u confess t6 ,practical ,measures aga9/ ,enemies4--,! pupil ask$3 ,h[ c ,i love my neighb\r z myself8 ,9 ! fir/ place1 ,i ought n to love myself2 secondly1 ,i feel s out ( sympa?y ) m51 t x is difficult to reg>d !m z objects ( love4 ,! tea*] answ]$3 ,! v]b g5]ally means only 'treat+ k9dly1' & t y c manage to d4 ,b to love "o's enemies is suicide4 ,y ?9k s6 ,b h y tri$ ?is me?od8 ,x is v practical1 & ,i h te/$ x4 ,once aga9/ my wor/ enemy1 :o attack$ my hon\r & means ( livelihood1 ,i e/abli%$ a :olesome hatr$ l a bulw>k1 z ,i ?\ght4 ,b my hatr$ became a conductor by :i* ,i receiv$ ! curr5ts ( 84 ,!y surpris$ me 9 my weak mom5ts1 & 8 wick$ness pass$ ov] to me4 ,he grew to gigantic proportions1 & became a ,frank5/e9 :i* ,i _h myself produc$4 ,!n ,i resolv$ to break ! conductor4 ,i avoid$ see+ him1 & nev] m5tion$ 8 "n1 = t is a k9d ( incantation4 ,:5 p spoke ( him 9 society1 ,i 0 sil5t1 or ?rew 9 a fri5dly ^w on 8 behalf4 ,my ,frank5/e9 p9$ away = want ( n\ri%m5t1 & disappe>$ out ( my ?\ghts4 ,f9ally in=mation rea*$ my enemy t ,i _h spok5 good ( him4 ,he 0 /ruck ) amazem5t1 dw9dl$ d[n1 felt a%am$ ( himself1 & believ$ he _h made a mi/ake4 ,!re=e1 nev] speak ill ( y\r enemy2 t only r\ses p 9 8 def5ce1 & procures him fri5ds4 ,y see1 !re=e1 :at deep wisdom lies 9 ! simple/ tea*+ ( ! ,gospel1 :i* y believ$ y\rself compet5t to criticise4 ,! ,goddess ( ,reason4--,! tea*] cont9u$3 ,! fact t our intellig5ce f9ds s _m contradictions & difficulties 9 ! great tru?s ( religion is due n only to defects 9 our und]/&+ b to an evil w4 ,! presumption ( wi%+ to und]/& ,god & ,8 purposes is z ?\gh "o attempt$ to /e] a frigate ) an o>4 ,e ,greek trag$y closes ) a w>n+ aga9/ insol5ce & ,greek3 hubris ,no?+ is s displeas+ to ! gods4 ,sw$5borg says3 ',z soon z we break our connection ) :at is high]1 our und]/&+ is d>k5$4 ,at ! same "t we are puni%$ by be+ all[$ to imag9e ourselves m illum9at$ ?an o!rs4' ,all ! philosoph]s ( ! ',illum9ation' grope 9 d>kness4 ,t p]iod ( hi/ory :i* is je/+ly call$ ! ',illum9ation' is ! d>ke/ we h _h4 ,! goddess ( reason1 ,mademoiselle ,maill>d1 0 ador$ only by madm54 ,! tru?s ( religion nev] contradict reason until ! latt] has be5 cl\d$ by an evil w4 ,b !n ! discov]ies beg91 & !n e religi\s tru? 'contradicts reason1' su* z ! simple tru? t ,god exi/s1 t ! ,almighty c employ unkn[n laws or susp5d laws :i* ,he ,himself has giv51 t ,he c imp>t spiritual bless+s by means ( mat]ial symbols1 & s on4 ,all 'free-?9k+' is fooli%ness1 = ?\ght is n free1 b b\nd by ! laws ( ?\ght1 by logic1 j z nature is b\nd by ! laws ( nature4 ,! evil w seeks fre$om 9 ord] to d evil1 & ! evil m9d seeks fre$om 9 ord] to ?9k p]v]sely4 ,/>s ,se5 by ,daylight4--,! tea*] said3 ,! fool lives only = ! pres5t1 = ! mom5t1 9 ! la/ fa%ionable error ( ! day1 9 ! div+-bell ( 8 daily pap]1 9 dep5d5ce on public op9ion1 9 ! slav]y ( p>tisan%ip4 ,! wise man lives 9 all times4 ,= him !re is nei!r "t nor space4 ,he is pres5t always & ev]y:]e2 on ?is side & t side ( ! grave4 ,he ranges ov] ! _w's hi/ory & fa?oms ! dep?s ( himself2 he reg>ds himself z an inhabitant ( ! ,univ]se1 & n m]ely ( ! e>?4 ,he feels himself relat$ to ,plato & ,ari/otle2 holds conv]se ) ! great spirits ( ! pa/ 9 _! writ+s4 ,sometimes he lives 9 8 *ildhood2 sometimes 9 8 mature age4 ,he lives 9 ! pa/1 z ?\gh x 7 pres5t4 ,he c '?9k himself' into ! lives ( o!rs2 he rejoices ) ! joyful1 m\rns ) ! sorr[ful1 sympa?ises ) ! suff]+4 ,he feels on behalf ( humanity2 has no age1 no nation4 ,he sees ! record ( to-day's conflict laid up 9 hi/orical ar*ives1 (t5 )\t any o!r result4 ,on ! morr[1 to-day's wisdom is only /raw1 9 :i* some?+ else gr[s2 ev5 errors are useful z manure4 ,ev]y?+ s]ves4 ,he be>s ev]y?+1 = he hopes2 & hope is a virtue2 x means believ+ good ( ,god4 ,ephem]al flies get excit$ ab\t trifles1 & believe "o c discov] new tru?s among ! telegrams 9 ! breakfa/-table newspap]4 ,if a new /> is discov]$1 !y believe ! o!rs are ext+ui%$4 ,b hi!rto ! new h all be5 ext+ui%$4 ,! new /> 9 ,p]seus appe>$ only = two ye>s1 & !n x vani%$4 ,! ,*9ese ,y-,k+ says1 ',if "o goes into "o's t5t1 & makes x d>k ab\t "o1 "o c see ! /> ,mei 9 ! ,ar*] 9 broad daylight4' ,retire !n sometimes to y\r t5t 9 ! wild]ness1 & y w see ! />s by day4 ,! ,"r to ,remorse4--,! pupil ask$3 ,is "o "r 9 feel+ remorseful = "o's pa/1 aft] discov]+ "o's errors8 ,if y mean by 'feel+ remorse1' wi%+ ! pa/ undone1 y are n "r1 = 9 e man's life !re is a rectify+ elem5t2 e error by be+ refut$ becomes an involunt>y occasion = ! triumph ( tru?4 ,b if y mean by 'remorse1' hat+ y\rself z a purveyor ( falsity1 y are "r4 ,b say some?+ 9 y\r own def5ce4 ,i c say ?is mu*3 ,i 0 ! *ild ( an evil "t2 ,i 0 misl$ by ! s$uc]s ( my y\?2 ,i m5tion none ( !m4 ,my und]/&+ 0 /rong] ?an my div9e reason4 ,my fle% rul$ ov] my _s4 ,my inborn defiance ( au?ority1 my inh]it$ s5sitiv5ess ( nature receiv$ impressions1 )\t /opp+ to criticise !m4 ,9 a ^w1 ,i might call myself a victim ( my s$uc]s1 ( h]$ity1 ( my natural weakness1 & s5sitiv5ess4 ,! f9al awak5+ ( my reason1 h[ev]1 ,i reckon n z a m]it ( my own1 b z a grace conf]r$ ^u me4 ,! fact t ,i h _h suffici5t "t 9 :i* to refute my =m] errors1 ,i c\nt z ! greate/ good-=tune :i* has ev] befall5 me4 ,!re=e ,i d n wi% my pa/ undone1 al?\gh ,i abom9ate x4 ,a ,religi\s ,!atre4--,x looks z ?\gh m5 did n ?9k v highly ( !mselves4 ,if !y see a malici\sly satirical piece repres5t$1 !y enjoy x )\t apply+ x to !mselves4 ,!y take x z int5d$ only = o!rs4 ,9 my y\? !re 0 a dramati/1 :o 0 at fir/ a satiri/1 b f9ally came to feel sympa?y ) m54 ,aft] 8 feel+s _h become modifi$ by 8 liv+ a /eady & fairly happy life1 he saw m5 9 a m *e]ful light4 ,accord+ly1 he wrote a piece portray+ only noble *>act]s ) f9e feel+s & w>m he>ts4 ,:at happ5$8 ,! public believ$ at fir/ x 0 irony4 ,b dur+ ! second act !y discov]$ _! mi/ake4 ,a voice exclaim$ f ! /alls3 ',deuce take x6 ,x is meant s]i\sly6' ,! fur!r ! piece progress$1 ! great] 0 ! disgu/6 ,! audi5ce felt a%am$ be=e ea* o!r1 & = ! au?or4 ,"s hurri$ out1 & ^? :o rema9$ end$ by laugh+4 ,!y laugh$ at ! goodness1 self-sacrifice1 r5unciation1 =giv5ess depict$ 9 ! piece4 ,!y did n "k !mselves any m1 & reg>d$ ! descriptions z unnatural2 real life1 !y said1 0 n l t2 m5 7 n angels4 ,x may !re=e be risky to speak well ( m54 ,b "o mu/ n =get t religi\s p d n visit ! !atre1 because ! !atre is godless4 ,greek trag$ies us$ to comm5ce ) a sacrifice to ! gods1 & all trag$ies deal ) ! p[]lessness ( m5 9 conflict ) deities4 ,:y d n our religi\s lead]s build a !atre 9 :i* "o might see ! evil unmask$ & put to %ame8 ,?r\gh ,con/ra9t to ,fre$om4--,! tea*] cont9u$3 ,?is _w is gov]n$ by con/ra9t4 ,all m5 are dep5d5t on "o ano!r & press ^u "o ano!r l ! /ones 9 a vault$ build+--f above1 f bel[1 f ! sides4 ,!y wat* & spy on "o ano!r4 ,!re is !re=e no fre$om1 & !re c be none1 9 ?is edifice :i* is call$ ,gov]nm5t & ,society4 ,! f\ndation-/ones h ! mo/ to be>2 !re=e !y mu/ be ( granite1 :ile ! upp] ones are ( light brick4 ,= !re are fancy-bricks1 :i* support no?+1 b are m]ely ornam5tal2 !y are support$ by o!rs1 feel !mselves 9 ! way & disp5sable2 b !y s]ve z ornam5ts1 & ( t !y are aw>e4 ,he :o dem&s m fre$om ?an ! re/1 is a ?ief & tyrant2 if he )draws himself f 8 burd51 he lays x ^u o!rs4 ,?is p]petual long+ = fre$om1 :i* figures 9 biographies z a virtue & a di/9ction1 is really only a weakness4 ,m /r5g? is requir$ to be> ?an to be home4 ,! only ju/ifiable /riv+ aft] relative fre$om is1 n to h to be> m ?an "o ought4 ,!re=e x is ! bus9ess ( rul]s to apportion ! burd5s precisely4 ,b = t1 adequate k1 a ma!matical gift1 & a nice s5se ( ju/ice are necess>y4 ,b beh9d ?is common long+ aft] fre$om lies ano!r deep] "o1 :i* is confus$ ) ! =m]4 ,t is ! sigh+ ( creation = deliv]ance f ! bondage ( ! fle%4 ,?is has f\nd its /ronge/ expression 9 ,/4 ,paul's exclamation3 ',oh1 wret*$ man t ,i am6 ,:o %all deliv] me f ! body ( ?is dea?8' ,b ?is fre$om c only be won by pati5tly be>+ ! con/ra9t ( ?is _w4 ,?r\gh con/ra9t is ! way to fre$om !re=e6 ,! ,praise ( ,folly4--,9 ?is _w ( fooli%ness "o sees con/antly h[ fools smile ev5 :5 _! views are ratifi$ by "t4 ,t is1 9 tru?1 a silly smile4 ,! fool says1 ',we are "h 9 ord] to develop ourselves4' ,:5 !y see a man :o1 9 ! c\rse ( ye>s1 has gr[n wis] & m righte\s1 !y %\ld be glad t _! ass]tion is e/abli%$4 ,in/ead ( t !y make a malici\s grimace1 & say scornfully1 ',yes1 n[ y h gr[n old6' ,yet we bo? />t$ ) ! assumption t wisdom %\ld come ) ye>s4 ,let u rejoice toge!r t x is s4 ,if ! ,devil really becomes a monk :5 he is old1 :at a happ9ess & bless+ = mank9d t !re is "o evil _s ! less4 ,is x n s8 ,:y %\ld !y make a grimace at x8 ,voltaire 0 a sc(f] & a bit ( a knave up to old age4 ,f9ally1 h[ev]1 he recov]$ 8 reason1 j l lunatics %ortly be=e !y die4 ,& !n he wrote ( human life3 ',pleasure1 9 ! fre%ness ( y\?1 ,i s\ght ?y delici\sness2 ',f9ally1 9 ! w9t] ( old age1 ,i discov] ?y vanity2 ',! ?ir/ = reputation & hon\r makes m5 enemies to "o ano!r4 ,:at 0 x t ,i ?ir/$ =8 ,reputation is b vanity4 ',g5ius 9 its pride roams ?r\gh realms ( k4 ',b my k only plagues me2 k is b vanity4' ,b ! fools make grimaces1 :5 "o ( !m recov]s 8 reason4 ,!n !y say1 ',he has gone mad4' ,! ,inevitable4--,! tea*] said3 ,! "q1 ',:at has "o a "r to feel remorse =8' is v complicat$4 ,i once foll[$ ! c>e] ( a =eign writ]4 ,i read 8 works1 :i* seem$ to belong to ano!r _w1 ) great admiration4 ,8 dramas all appe>$ to brea! a melan*oly fe> ( "s unkn[n t]ror t 0 b\nd to come4 ,8 philosophy 0 t ( a sa9t4 ,8 l&scapes seem$ to be ba!d n 9 common air b 9 pure !r4 ,he 0 !n ab\t =ty ye>s old1 & ,i expect$ e day to he> t he _h gone into a conv5t4 ,b aft]w>ds ,i he>d he _h m>ri$ an actress1 ) :om he w5t ab\t1 & :o appe>$ z a 'liv+ /atue' 9 "o ( 8 pieces4 ,he also wrote new dramas = h]1 & n[1 :5 !y became cynical & brutal1 he a*iev$ a great] popul>ity ?an he _h ev] be5 able to ga9 be=e4 ,he degrad$ 8 p]son1 8 g5ius1 8 wife2 & z he sank1 ,i wept inw>dly4 ,"o day ,i read 9 ! pap] t %e _h des]t$ him1 b t may h be5 false4 ,! ?\ght ( 8 fate torm5t$ me2 x seem$ to h be5 pr$et]m9$4 ,all 8 dramas writt5 :ile he 0 /ill unm>ri$ treat$ ( ?is t]rible ?+ :i* he =esaw & fe>$4 ,x seem$ to me z ?\gh he 7 compell$ to take a mud-ba?1 & oblig$ to let himself be besmir*$ by life precisely 9 ?is way4 ,x seem$ z ?\gh he _h n ! "r to ante-date heav52 z ?\gh he 7 n all[$ to lead a pure1 sa9tly life4 ,x is t]rible1 because x is inexplicable4 ,! ,poet's ,sacrifice4--,! tea*] cont9u$3 ,?is man's de/9y rem9ds me ( ! ,indian drama1 ,urvasi4 ,a p5it5t :o )draws to solitude 9 ord] to purify 8 s\l by r5unciation1 may f9ally atta9 su* l(ty spiritual heights t 8 p[] may become dang]\s to ! l[] deities4 ,9 ord] to h9d] su* a p5it5t 9 8 spiritual developm5t1 ! god ,indra s5t an ,aps>a1 a sort ( cele/ial c\rtesan1 9 ord] to di/ract & s$uce him4 ,does n t resemble ! case :i* ,i m5tion$ j n[8 ,h[ c ! "o :o has be5 s$uc$ feel guilty 9 su* a case1 or h ! "r to rep5t a wrong he did n d8 ,n[ a poet is some?+ diff]5t to a recluse1 & 9 ord] to be able to describe life 9 all its aspects & dang]s he mu/ fir/ h liv$ x4 ,:at sort ( a poet w\ld ,%akespe>e h be5 if he _h liv$ z a /eady "y fell[1 cont9u$ 9 8 fa!r's hon\rable pr(ession1 & 9 leisure h\rs writt5 ab\t 8 little affairs8 ,al?\gh "o does n "k mu* ab\t ! great ,engli%man1 "o sees f 8 works :at a /ormy life he mu/ h l$4 ,!re is h>dly a mis=tune :i* he has n exp]i5c$1 h>dly a passion :i* he has n felt4 ,hate & love1 rev5ge & lu/1 murd] & fire1 all seem to h come )9 ! circle ( 8 exp]i5ce z a poet4 ,a real poet mu/ sacrifice 8 p]son = 8 "w4 ,i c conceive ( a symbolical monum5t to ,%akespe>e "u ! figure ( ,h]cules k9dl+ 8 own pyre on ,m\nt ,oeta1 sacrific+ 8 opul5t life z an (f]+ = mank9d4 ,t is a good idea1 is x n8 ,! pupil answ]$3 ,truly y h ! p[] ( b9d+ & loos+2 n[ y h loos$ me4 ,! ,function ( ! ,phili/9es4--,! tea*] said3 ,israel _h "s unpleasant neighb\rs call$ ,phili/9es1 :o gu>d$ ! coa/-l9e along ! sea4 ,!y wor%ipp$ weird gods1 su* z ,dagon ! ,fi%-god1 ,beelzebub ! ,"l ( ,dung1 & ,a/>te4 ,b unpleasant ?\gh !y 71 !y seem$ to h _h a "p to play 9 ! life ( ,israel4 ,z soon z ! *os5 p ab&on$ ! temple1 ! ,phili/9es came & clos$ ! sanctu>y1 set ! ,"l ( ,dung ^u ! alt>1 & burn$ inc5se be=e ! ,fi%-god4 ,z (t5 z ! *ildr5 ( ,israel qu>rell$ among !mselves1 ! ,phili/9es advanc$ irresi/ibly4 ,! h& ( ! ,"l 0 ) !m1 s t !y puni%$ & *a/is$ _! enemies4 ,once !y took possession ( ! ,ark ( ! ,cov5ant4 ,we h our ,phili/9es on ! ,bosphorus2 !y are call$ ,turks4 ,:5 ! ,*ri/ians 7 unfai?ful to _! ,"l1 ! ,turk took possession ( ,*ri/'s grave1 & ,/4 ,sophia became a mosque4 ,:5ev] ! ,*ri/ians f\ght ) ea* o!r1 ! ,turk appe>$4 ,aft] ! ,?irty ,ye>s' ,w>1 :5 ! ,*ri/ians _h tom ea* o!r l bloodh\nds1 ! ,turk came z f> z ,vi5na1 & ! ,cresc5t surm\nt$ ! ,cross 9 ,hung>y4 ,! pupil ask$3 ,:y d n ! great p[]s recapture ! ,holy ,sepul*re & ! ,*ur* ( ,/4 ,sophia8 ,!y c\ld d x 9 a mom5t6 ,i d n "k4 ,p]haps !y _c4 ,we ne$ our ,phili/9e1 ! bogie-man ) :om "o fright5s *ildr54 ,9 ,france ! *ur*es 7 %ut by ! pagans :5 p ceas$ to att5d ,mass4 ,n[ !y set up ! ,"l ( ,dung on ! alt>4 ,m>at1 9 8 "t1 0 buri$ 9 ! ,pan!on2 b :5 ,*ri/ re5t]$1 ,m>at 0 ?r[n into ! sew]4 ,! la/ to obta9 apo!osis 9 ! ,pan!on 0 an eng9e]1 :o _h a s+le m]it--t ( be+ murd]$ by a fri5d ( fre$om4 ,:5 we become ,*ri/ians aga91 we %all receive back bo? ! ,holy ,sepul*re & ,santa ,sophia4 ,we d n ne$ to take !m4 ,su* is ! great function ( ! ,phili/9es 9 ! spiritual economy ( nature4 ,_w-,religion4--,! tea*] cont9u$3 ,goe! wrote 9 8 y\? a treatise ma9ta9+ t ! religion impos$ by ! ,/ate 0 ! mo/ fav\rable = ! ma9t5ance ( ! ,/ate4 ,! pupil object$3 ,b h[ w x f>e ) ! individual consci5ce8 ,z x has done hi!rto4 ,! ,/ate det]m9es ! views ( ! individual 9 geometry1 botany1 hi/ory1 & religion1 by in/ruction 9 ! s*ools1 by religi\s s]vices 9 ! colleges1 & pray]s 9 camps & b>racks4 ,b :at ab\t fre$om ( belief & ?\ght8 ,we h already agre$ t !re is no fre$om1 b t all is dep5d5ce & compulsion en=c$ by mutual pressure4 ,!re=e misuse n ! sacr$ "n ( fre$om4 ,dur+ ! c\rse ( my long life1 ,i h (t5 ?\ght ,i c\ld int]pret ! int5tion ( ,provid5ce ?us3 ,if all religi\s =ms fell (f l husks1 & only ! k]nels rema9$1 !y might gr[ toge!r l botanical cells1 & =m a s+le plant--a _w-tree1 "u ^: %ad[ all nations might re/ 9 devotion & 9 unity4 ,! tea*] cont9u$3 ,i _h also believ$ t ,i _h notic$ !re is a special purpose 9 ! int]m+l+ ( races :i* is n[ proce$+4 ,?is has already gone s f>1 t 9 my insignificant family1 :i* is regi/]$ z ,sc&9avian1 we f9d traces ( all ! five qu>t]s ( ! _w4 ,b d y really believe x8 ,i d n "k4 ,& d y ?9k t all nations w be unit$ 9 a common ,*ri/ianity8 ,i d n "k6 ,b ! promise to ,abraham1 ',9 ?y se$ %all all nations be bless$1' has already be5 fulfill$ by ,abraham's desc5dant1 ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,z a matt] ( fact1 ,*ri/ian ,europe & ! we/]n hemisph]e ( ,nor? & ,s\? ,am]ica rule ! _w4 ,& be=e ! actual reality1 our wi%es1 ideas1 !ories1 & anticipations collapse4 ,! ,return ( ,*ri/4--,! pupil ask$3 ,are we to expect ! promis$ return ( ,*ri/8 ,*ri/ ,himself answ]$ ?is importunate "q ( 8 disciples by say+1 ',! ,k+dom ( ,god is among y4' ,& :5 ,he left !m ,he said1 ',behold1 ,i am ) y always till ! end ( ! _w4' ,good4 ,b h[ is ,*ri/'s ,k+dom to be set up on e>?8 ,n by crusades1 z y p]haps believe4 ,y "k t !re are plants :i* _c simultane\sly ?rive 9 ! same gr\nd2 "o k9d mu/ die out4 ,s !re are races :i* _c dwell toge!r 9 ! same l&4 ,z soon z ,*ri/ians become ,*ri/ians aga91 ! pagans d n ?rive1 & dep>t4 ,j l ! giants :o got e>a*e :5 !y he>d ! s\nd ( *ur*-bells1 sniff$ & snort$ :5 !y smelt ,*ri/ian blood1 & f9ally slunk back into _! caves4 ,"o ought to be tol]ant1 b n to c>ry x s f> z to take d[n ! *ur*-bells or lay ! cross l[1 because !y make ! giants ill4 ,sw$5borg says t ! gift ( free-w is nev] revok$1 & t !re=e ! damn$ !mselves *oose _! own hell4 ,if !y come into a pur] air1 !y are te/$2 if !y happ5 to get into good company1 !y d n ?rive1 & ca/ !mselves headlong into ! region ( ! ,"l ( ,dung4 ,!re !y f9d an environm5t 9 :i* !y c brea!4 ,if !re=e y wi% to fly evil companion%ip1 y ne$ n %ut y\r door4 ,only acquire an upright "*1 & y\r fell[s w %un y l ! pe/4 ,correspond5ces4--,! tea*] said3 ,we h discuss$ ,sw$5borg's hells & f\nd t !y are p>tly /ates ( m9d1 & p>tly resemble e>?ly life "u c]ta9 conditions4 ,i rememb] n[ c]ta9 /rik+ details 9 !m1 :i* br+ to my m9d c]ta9 exp]i5ces ( ev]yday life4 ,! fire ( hell consi/s1 he says1 p>tly 9 ?is1 t passions are ar\s$1 only to be mock$ & puni%$2 p>tly 9 ! k9dl+ ( desires1 :i* really mu/ be gratifi$1 b die away imm$iately aft]w>ds s9ce suff]+ consi/s 9 miss+ some?+4 ,d y "k t8 ,yes1 ,i "k x4 ,fur!r1 :5 heav5ly light rea*es ! damn$1 an icy *ill p]vades _! ve9s1 & _! blood ceases to fl[4 ,d y "k t8 ,yes1 ,i "k x6 ,& ,i rememb] once :5 ,i 0 v wick$ a good man began to talk k9dly to me4 ,i 0 n w>m$ !reby1 b began to feel s cold 9 ! room :]e ,i 01 t ,i put on my ov]coat4 ,fur!r1 !y w&] ab\t lonely & gloomy3 !y hung]1 & h no?+ to eat2 !y g to h\ses1 & ask = "w1 b :5 !y get x1 !y g _! way1 to be torm5t$ aga9 by ennui4 ,b :5 !y return1 ! doors are %ut2 !y mu/ "w = food & clo?+1 & h a h>lot = a companion1 is t s8 ,x is6 ,! rul+ pr9ciples ( hell are3 ! desire to rule f self-love2 ! desire = o!r p's goods f love ( ! _w2 ! desire = dissipation4 ,! rul+ pr9ciples ( heav5 are3 ! desire to rule ) a good object2 ! desire = money & prop]ty1 9 ord] to use !m = ! b5efit ( o!rs2 ! desire = m>riage4 ,good ,words4--,! pupil ask$3 ,does ,sw$5borg nev] speak a good ^w to com=t & *e] "o8 ,! tea*] answ]$3 ,yes1 c]ta9ly he does4 ,he says1 = example1 ',! *os5 are ^? :o h consci5ce2 ! reprobate are ^? :o h no consci5ce4' ,t agrees ) ,socrates' def9ition ( a man z a be+ possess+ bo? mode/y & consci5ce4 ,9 ano!r place ,sw$5borg ?us expla9s temptations3 ',evil spirits ar\se 9 ! memory ( a man all ! evil & falsity :i* he has ?\ght & practis$ s9ce *ildhood2 b ! angels :o accompany him produce 8 goodness & tru?1 & 9 ?is mann] def5d him4 ,x is ?is conflict :i* causes pangs ( consci5ce4 ',:5 a man is tri$ ) respect to 8 und]/&+1 evil spirits summon up only ! evil de$s :i* he has committ$4 ,^! are symbolis$ by unclean animals4 ,! evil spirits accuse & condemn by di/ort+ ! tru? 9 a ?\s& ways4' ,sw$5borg also m5tions a k9d ( spirits :o raise scruples ab\t trifles1 & ?us tr\ble ! consci5ces ( ! unw>y4 ,_! pres5ce ar\ses a feel+ ( discom=t at ! pit ( ! /oma*1 & !y take delight 9 burd5+ ! consci5ce4 ,f9ally !re are "s pagans f ! c\ntries inhabit$ by black m51 :o br+ ) !m f _! e>?ly life ! wi% to be treat$ h>dly1 "u ! idea t no "o c ent] heav5 )\t hav+ suff]$ puni%m5ts & torm5ts4 ,because !y h ?is belief1 !y are at fir/ treat$ h>dly by "s :om !y call devils4 ,9 ano!r place ,sw$5borg says3 ',!re are no devils except bad m54' ,"o ^w m4 ,! ,ma/] met "s 9 a /ate ( despair1 :o believ$ t pa9 w\ld be ev]la/+4 ',b x 0 giv5 me to com=t !m4' ,^! are good words = y4 ,sev]e & n ,sev]e4--,! pupil object$3 ,b ,sw$5borg is 9 g5]al too sev]e4 ,! tea*] answ]$3 ,no6 x is n he1 b life :i* is sev]e1 & life's laws are sev]e = ! unrighte\s4 ,! ,ma/] says3 ',wom5 :o atta9 to p[] & weal? f ! l[] ranks (t5 become furies2 b wom5 :o are born to p[] & weal?1 & d n uplift !mselves1 are happy4' ',to r5\nce ! pleasures ( life1' he says1 '& weal? & p[]1 ) ! idea ( e>n+ heav5 by asceticism1 is a false view4' ,we "k t ,sw$5borg 0 temp]ate 9 ev]yday life1 b w5t will+ly into society1 & !n he all[$ himself a poculum hil>itatus1 a cup ( *e]4 ,he decl>es himself decisively aga9/ ^? :o retreat f ! _w3 ',_m ?9k x is h>d to lead a life :i* conducts to heav51 because !y h he>d t1 = ?is object1 "o mu/ r5\nce ! _w & live to ! _s4 ,by ?is !y und]/& t "o mu/ cut oneself (f f all t is e>?ly1 & devotes "o's :ole life to spiritual contemplation & devotion4 ,b t x is n really s1 ,i h le>n$ ?r\gh long exp]i5ce4 ,he :o ?us sep>ates f ! _w 9 ord] to live to ! _s1 ent]s a gloomy life1 :i* is irreceptive ( ! joy ( heav54 ,9 ord] to prep>e = heav5 "o mu/ live 9 ! _w 9 activity & employm5t4444 ,i h spok5 ) "s :o _h )drawn f _! occupations 9 ord] to live a spiritual life1 & also ) "s :o _h torm5t$ !mselves 9 v>i\s ways1 because !y believ$ !y ought to suppress ! desires ( ! fle%4444 ,z a rule !y are puff$ up ) pride1 & reg>d heav5ly joy z a rew>d )\t kn[+ :at heav5 & heav5ly joy is4' ,! pupil int]rupt$3 ,?is seems to be ! case ) ! pieti/s4 ,n ) all4 ,!re are among !m p5it5ts1 or ^? :o really prep>e = dea?4 ,leave ! pieti/s 9 peace1 & don't try to sev] ! :eat f ! *aff4444 ,religion %\ld n m]ely be a ,sunday suit1 b a g5tle accompanim5t to mitigate ! pond]\s tones ( ev]yday life4 ,b "o mu/ n be c[>dly or indiff]5t1 z s _m mod]n ,*ri/ians are4 ,:5 !y he> ! big words ',developm5t1' ',mod]n ,?\ght1' ',sci5ce1' !y ?9k at once t ,*ri/ianity is a ?+ ( ! pa/4 ,if !y read 9 ! pap]s t ! ,lice-,k+ has ov]come ! ,*ri/ians1 !y believe at once t ,god has =sak5 ,8 own4 ,!y =get t ! ,egyptian bondage 0 an education = ,canaan1 & t ! ,phili/9es 7 employ$ z goads to spur on ! lazy4 ,unbelief1 sup]/ition1 delib]ate falsehood1 error--all s]ve ! ,tru?1 = all ?+s s]ve4 ,& to him :o loves ,god1 all ?+s turn out = good4 ,yea/ & ,bread4--,! neo-pagans :o h n[ ru%$ =w>d on ! /age1 & believe !y are ! lords ( ! _w because !y s]ve ! ,pr9ce ( ! ,_w1 seem to be a s$im5t ( savage races :i* by m>riage & immigration h p5etrat$ ! old nations ( ,europe l yea/4 ,yea/ fulfils its function 9 ! w>m? ( ! ov51 b is itself *ang$ into gases & disappe>s1 leav+ bubbles & holes beh9d4 ,! d\gh rema9s1 *ang$ into mell[1 l[1 crisp1 :ite1 fragrant1 w>m bread4 ,yea/ is a k9d ( m\ld produc$ by corruption1 yet x mu/ be pres5t 9 ord] to make :ite bread4 ,ev]y?+ s]ves6 ,b m\ld by itself c make no bread4 ,"o ought !re=e n to be angry ) ! pagans1 = !y "k no bett]4 ,to enlight5 !m is difficult2 "o c locate a grey />1 b n a black "o4 ,"o ought n to fe> !m1 = !n !y bite4 ,b !y mu/ h _! day4 ',i h se5 ! wick$ 9 great p[]1 & spread+ himself l a gre5 tree 9 its native soil2 b ,i pass$ by1 &1 lo1 he 0 n2 yea1 ,i s\ght him1 b he c\ld n be f\nd4' ,! ,man ( ,developm5t4--,! pupil ask$3 ,c ! pagans really n be enlight5$8 ,exp]i5ce has %[n t x is almo/ impossible4 ,= a blockhead _c und]/& ! simple/ ?+s2 he _c see ! self-evid5t nature ( an axiom4 ,if he is sy/ematically foll[$ by mis=tune1 he calls x 'bad-luck'2 if he is pro/rat$ ) illness1 he rises z /upid z he 0 be=e2 if he gets into prison1 he sits !re & m$itates new tricks2 if he lies on ! rack1 he ?9ks he is suff]+ = 8 fai?1 al?\gh he has n got any2 f w>n+s & trials he em]ges z great a calf z he 0 be=e1 = he has no intellig5ce4 ,all ! d5iz5s ( ! dunghill praise 8 firmness ( "*1 8 /r5g? ( s\l1 8 /rong belief 9 8 cause4 ,he is sixty ye>s old1 & he has work$ = 'developm5t1' b he has n be5 able to develop himself4 ,he hawks ab\t ! same rubbi% z he did =ty ye>s ago1 :5 he discov]$ :at he call$ '! tru?' 9 ! books ( 8 tea*]s2 he has nev] produc$ an orig9al ?\ght1 nor obta9$ a new view ( an old subject4 ,he has /ood /ill1 b ! _w has gone =w>d2 he believ$ he 0 lead+ ! van1 :5 he 0 br++ up ! re>4 ,*ri/ianity beckon$1 b crab-l he w5t backw>d to paganism4 ,su* is ! man ( 'developm5t4' ,d y "k him8 ,i h kn[n him1 b r5\nc$ 8 acqua9tance4 ,s9s ( ,?\ght4--,! tea*] said3 ,accord+ to ,lu!r1 man is a *ild till 8 =tie? ye>4 ,i 0 a *ild till my fiftie?1 i4e4 un9tellig5t1 conceit$4 ,i believ$ t ,i 0 inaccessible & irresponsible z reg>ds my ?\ghts4 ,b ,i 0 oblig$ to *ange my op9ion :5 ,i began to obs]ve myself4 ,i discov]$1 t is1 t :5 ,i _h s9n$1 hat$1 kill$1 /ol51 ?\gh only 9 ?\ght1 & !n came into ! company ( fri5ds1 !y treat$ me ru?lessly1 z ?\gh ,i 7 a murd]] or a ?ief4 ,i c\ld n expla91 b f9ally believ$ t my evil ?\ghts 7 legible 9 my face4 ,& :5 ,i obs]v$ t my fri5ds began to t\* on precisely ! same unpleasant subject :i* _h occupi$ my secret ?\ghts1 ,i saw t s-call$ ?\ght-read+ is daily & h\rly practis$ 9 social life4 ,:5 subsequ5tly ,i read ,maet]l9ck's f9e book1 ,! ,treasure ( ! ,humble1 my belief 9 ?is 0 /r5g!n$1 = he made ! same obs]vation4 ,:5 ,i f9ally took 9 h& my own spiritual education1 ,i f\nd t ?is 0 ! pr9cipal po9t1 & by wat*+ my ?\ghts ,i prev5t$ !m break+ out into action4 ,n[ = ! fir/ "t ,i und]/ood :y ,i _h s (t5 9 my life ?\ght myself unju/ly accus$ & puni%$ = (f5ces :i* ,i _h n committ$4 ,i confess n[ t ,i _h committ$ !m 9 ?\ght4 ,b h[ did m5 "k t8 ,assur$ly !re is a hidd5 ju/ice :i* puni%es s9s ( ?\ght1 & :5 m5 make ea* o!r acc\ntable = suspicions1 ugly looks or feel+s1 !y are "r4 ,t is a h>d say+1 b x is s4 ,s9s ( ,w4--,! tea*] cont9u$3 ,!re are also s9s ( wi% & volition4 ,y "k t "o c hate & worry a man dead4 ,i 0 once 9 a wat]+-place 9 :i* ! hotel proprietor _h introduc$ a sort ( monopoly4 ,he _h arrogat$ to himself ! privilege ( alone provid+ food = ! bo>d]s4 ,he />v$ !m by cook+ ! goodness out ( ! meat be=e he roa/$ x1 by mak+ s\p ( rye-meal1 & s on4 ,! bo>d]s 7 pati5t1 & no "o wi%$ to make a di/urbance4 ,b _! hatr$ ( ! man increas$4 ,aft] a mon? ,i obs]v$ t ! hotel proprietor began to look yell[ 9 ! face & to p9e away4 ,z he sat at 8 b> he became ! object ( glances full ( hatr$4 ,at la/1 "o day1 ! :ole company1 a hundr$ 9 numb]1 rose dur+ ! midday meal & dep>t$4 ,!n ! proprietor became ill ( a liv] disease4 ,x seem$ z ?\gh ! collect$ gall ( all ! gue/s _h someh[ transf]r$ itself to 8 liv]1 & curdl$ !re4 ,he vani%$2 !y _h kill$ him4 ,b _! hatr$ 0 ?is "t ju/ifi$1 or q natural4 ,:51 h[ev]1 we hate a man because he w n admire u or fur!r our selfi% int]e/s1 we may become simply murd]]s4 ,t1 h[ev]1 dep5ds on ! behavi\r ( ! o!r4 ,if he is innoc5t 9 ! matt]1 he w be immune & irreceptive ( ! poison4 ,i "k a p]son :o hat$ me because %e c\ld n rob me4 ,%e 0 a s]vant to :om ,i _h %[n no?+ b k9dness4 ,h] hate did n affect me s long z ,i 0 upright4 ,! ,/udy ( ,mank9d4--,! tea*] said3 ,"o ought n to attempt to /udy m54 ,p>tly because !y d n lay !mselves op5 to be /udi$1 p>tly because !y are aw>e :5 !y became objects ( delib]ate inve/igation4 ,he :o does n give himself1 receives no?+4 ,he :o does n approa* m5 9 a _s ( sympa?y1 f9ds no po9t ( contact ) !m4 ,:5 ,i reg>d !m z companions 9 mis=tune1 fell[-w&]]s 9 ! wild]ness1 !y op5 !mselves to me4 ,if ,i expose myself1 ,i %[ a confid5ce 9 !m1 :i* meets ) a response4 ,if ,i approa* !m ) suspicion1 !y %[ suspicion4 ,if anyone visits me1 9 ord] to exam9e me1 ,i let him sit = 8 portrait to me4 ,:5 ,i h _h frank int]c\rse = a consid]able "t ) a man1 & !n sum up 8 *>act]i/ics 9 my recollection1 ,i get a fair idea ( him1 b nev] q a correct "o4 ,m5 h a "r to hide _! secrets4 ,:5 ,i 0 "y & un9tellig5t1 ,i believ$ t1 z an au?or1 ,i _h a "r to inve/igate ! pa/ ( o!rs2 b ,i soon discov]$ t x is n all[$4 ,!y seem$ to be gu>d$4 ,he :o says "o ought to be s on gu>d 9 "o's int]c\rse ) a fri5d1 z ?\gh he might "s day become an enemy1 has _h little pleasure 9 fri5d%ip4 ,i h always behav$ to m5 z ?\gh !y 7 go+ to be my fri5ds = life1 & !re=e ,i h receiv$ some?+ 9 return4 ,:5 !y h disappo9t$ me1 ,i h said to myself4 ',:at matt]s x8 ,no?+ = no?+6' ,fri5d ,z]o4--,! tea*] cont9u$3 ,!re are p :o seem fri5dly1 h>mless1 consid]ate2 !y leave o!rs 9 peace1 nev] pry into _! affairs1 nev] say evil beh9d p's backs1 nor all[ evil to be said4 ,i h admir$ & envi$ !m = _! good natural qualities4 ,b among su* p]sons ,i h f\nd "s :o keep remote f unpleasantnesses out ( pure selfi%ness1 & :o out ( love = ease & com=t wi% to "k no?+ ( o!r p's affairs 9 ord] n to be drawn into !m4 ,^! are ^? :o w n give evid5ce 9 c\rt1 ev5 = ! sake ( def5d+ a fri5d4 ,!y are sil5t :5 !y ought to speak4 ,!y avoid recomm5d+ a relative on ! plea t '!y d n "k him4' ,:5 _! names are m5tion$ z au?orities = su* & su* a report1 !y h 'lo/ _! memories4' ,!y w n l5d money to anyone :o ne$s x1 because '!y d n wi% to h a disagreem5t ) him4' ,!y h no positive virtues1 & no positive faults4 ,consequ5tly !y are col\rless1 unreliable1 *>act]less1 =mless2 !y c n be classifi$ "u any sy/em4 ,i once knew "o ( ^! = t5 ye>s2 !n ,i =got him4 ,tw5ty ye>s lat] ,i f\nd "s ( my old lett]s 9 an attic2 among !m 7 hundr$s ( lett]s f my =mless fri5d4 ,i 0 a/oni%$ to f9d t ,i _h _h su* a l5g?y correspond5ce ) him4 ,& ,i look$ to see :at he _h _h to say4 ,i read five-&-tw5ty lett]s4 ,!y conta9$ no?+4 ,i read fifty2 ! result 0 ! same--no?+4 ,!y consi/$ solely ( h&writ+1 ink1 pap]1 envelopes1 & po/age-/amps4 ,i burnt !m & =got ,fri5d ,z]o h5ce=?4 ,he did n ev5 leave a memory beh9d him4 ,affable ,m54--,! tea*] said3 ,:5 ,i h se5 a "*-drama1 ,i h always ask$ myself1 ',are m5 really s simple & transp>5t8' ,!re is a k9d ( m5 ab\t :om "o c nev] be c]ta94 ,!y are s dispos$ by nature t !y adapt !mselves to _! companions out ( pure affability4 ,su* a man once came into my circle2 ,i f\nd him sympa!tic1 lovable1 good-natur$4 ,on "o occasion ,i imp>t$ to a ?ird p]son my op9ion ( my affable fri5d4 ,he answ]$1 ',y don't "k him6 ,he is a malici\s man2 he has only put on an air ( affability ) y4' ,!n !re came a f\r?3 ',he6 ,he is ! false/ man 9 exi/5ce6' ,f9ally 8 wife came3 ',no6 he is nei!r malici\s nor false2 he only wants to be on good t]ms ) p4' ,at ! beg9n+ ( our acqua9tance 7he confess$ x himself lat] on71 he _h det]m9$ to w9 me by affability1 & to pres]ve my affection by do+ ev]y?+1 or ne>ly ev]y?+1 t ,i wi%$4 ,he also ab/a9$ f contradict+ me4 ,dur+ a :ole ye> ,i nev] he>d him express a view ( 8 own2 he only repeat$ my ?\ghts4 ,i believ$ he _h no w1 no views1 n ev5 feel+s4 ,he seem$ to me to be a mirror 9 :i* ,i 0 reflect$2 ,i nev] f\nd him1 only myself4 ,!n ,i became tir$ ( him1 did n "k h[ to hold myself 91 & ask$ him to d some?+ wrong4 ,!n at la/ ,i discov]$ ! man himself4 ,) an unp>allel$ /r5g? ( "*1 he left wife1 *ild1 & home6 ,9 ord] 'to save 8 s\l1' z he said4 ',h y !n got a s\l8' ,i ask$4 ',judge = y\rself1' he answ]$1 & dep>t$4 ,x is dang]\s to be affable1 & x is dang]\s to consid] m5 simple4 ,cr++ be=e ! ,bea/4--,! tea*] said3 ,:5 a man once yields to desire1 ! ceas+ ( a c]ta9 re/ra9t c>ries ) x a feel+ ( fre$om & deliv]ance4 ,?is pleasurable feel+ we almo/ reg>d z a rew>d1 & conclude t we h act$ rightly :5 we h ?r[n a bone to ! b>k+ dog4 ,b _h we =borne to d s1 ! dog w\ld n h =m$ ! habit ( b>k+1 & we might h gone our way 9 ! pr\d consci\sness ( n hav+ cr+$ be=e ! bea/1 by brib+ x to sil5ce4 ,! feel+ ( pleasure w\ld h be5 *ang$ into a consci\sness ( victory & p[]1 :i* is f> sup]ior to s5suality4 ,nev] cr+e be=e ! bea/2 !n x w n get ! bett] ( y4 ,! suppression ( an unlawful desire is l w9d+ up a wat*2 ! ma9spr+ contracts till x creaks1 b x does n d its "w prop]ly till !n4 ,pres]ve y\r /r5g? = y\rself2 !n y w conqu] y\r foes 9 ! battles ( life4 ,wa/e n y\r virile en]gy1 or ! woman w get ! bett] ( y4 ,y "k v well :at ,i mean by 'desire'3 ,i d n mean mod]ate eat+ & dr9k+2 & y "k v well :at 'wa/e' means4 ,y mu/ also n believe t desire decreases ) age4 ,x is n s2 b ! intellig5ce & w-p[] increase1 & !re=e ! victory is proportionably easi]4 ,i make y a pres5t ( ?is explanation3 keep x1 & %[ t y are intellig5t en\gh to be able to receive a real "o4 ,ecclesia ,triumphans4--,! tea*] said3 ,! _w is full ( lies1 b !re are also errors & misund]/&+s4 ,no two m5 give words ! same mean+4 ,b !re are p]si/5t lies :i* circulate l co9s4 ,!re are lies ( ! l[] classes1 & lies ( ! upp] classes2 lies ( ! ,ca?olics & ( ! ,prote/ants4 ,b ^? ( ! pagans are ! wor/ ( all4 ,!y believe !y h ! "r to lie1 because x pr(its !m or _! fri5ds4 ,"o ( ! greate/ lies ( ! pagans :i* misl$ me = a long "t is ! false ass]tion t ,japan has accept$ ! mat]ial culture ( ,europe1 b reject$ ,*ri/ianity4 ,two ,japanese pr(essors1 :o lately visit$ our l&1 decl>$ on ! contr>y t !re 0 a ,*ri/ian *ur* 9 ea* ( ! l>g] t[ns ( ,japan4 ,!re are ,*ri/ians 9 ! army1 p>liam5t1 & univ]sities4 ,_! numb] is great--five-&-=ty ?\s& ,prote/ants1 eight-&-fifty ?\s& ,ca?olics1 & five-&-tw5ty ?\s& adh]5ts ( ! ,greek ,*ur*4 ,9 ! ,second ,*amb] ( ! ,japanese p>liam5t two ( ! presid5ts h become ,*ri/ians4 ,& all t has tak5 place 9 ?irty-five ye>s4 ,a ?\s& ye>s pass by l no?+1 & ! future seems to belong to ,*ri/ianity1 s9ce we h already se5 t ! *ief p[]s ( ! _w1 ,europe & ,am]ica1 are ,*ri/ian4 ,!re is c]ta9ly no obligation to be a ,*ri/ian1 b "s day x may be a disgrace n to be "o1 :5 "o is born 9 a ,*ri/ian c\ntry4 ,x may come to be ?\ght retrograde & cons]vative1 & a failure to keep pace ) developm5t4 ,! pagans celebrat$ ! end ( ! eighte5? c5tury z m>k+ ! ov]?r[ ( ,*ri/ianity1 b 9 #ahjb appe>$ ! f9e/ book :i* has be5 writt5 on ,*ri/ianity1 ,le ,gnie du ,*ri/ianisme1 by ,*ateaubri&1 & by its means ! ,*ur* triumph$ aga94 ,logic 9 ,neura/h5ia4--,z ! ,tea*] w&]$ 9 ,qualheim1 he came into a m\nta9\s region1 & saw a ca/le :i* 0 ( dreamlike beauty4 ,:o is ! enviable man :o lives 9 su* a palace8 he ask$4 ,8 guide answ]$3 ,he is an unhappy1 helpless h]mit1 )\t peace1 & )\t a home4 ,he 0 born ) great arti/ic gifts1 b employ$ !m on rubbi%4 ,he drew nons5sical & trifl+ c>icatures1 di/ort$ all t 0 beautiful into ugl9ess1 & all t 0 great into pett9ess4 ,h[ does he occupy himself n[8 ,%all ,i say x8 ,he sits f morn+ till ev5+1 mak+ balls out ( dung4 ,y mean to say1 he cont9ues z he began4 ,is t 8 puni%m5t8 ,yes6 ,isn't x logical8 ,he obta9$ ! ca/le1 b _c use x4 ,!n !y w5t fur!r & came into a g>d51 :]e !y f\nd a man graft+ pea*es on turnips4 ,:at has he done8 ask$ ! tea*]4 ,9 life he 0 especially fond ( turnips1 & n[ he wi%es to inoculate pea*es1 :i* he f9ds insipid1 ) ! f9e flav\r ( turnips4 ,he 01 moreov]1 an au?or1 & wi%$ to rejuv5ate poetry ) bawdy peasant songs4 ,:y1 t is symbolism6 ,yes1 & logical mo/ ( all4 ,!n !y came to a cottage1 :]e !y f\nd a man ly+ on a b$1 surr\nd$ by piles ( books4 ,! man _h read himself ill2 he lay !re exhau/$ by hung] & ?ir/1 & c\ld h>dly brea!4 ,:at is he read+8 ask$ ! tea*]4 ,only !ology1 exegetics1 dogmatics1 isogogy1 es*atology4 ,dur+ lifetime he d5i$ ! exi/5ce ( ,god4 ,n[ he seeks ,him 9 !ology1 b has n yet f\nd ,him4 ,w he f9d ,him8 ,yes1 c]ta9ly he w4 ,b he mu/ fir/ seek6 ,:y1 x is j l t 9 our lunatic asylums4 ,& !re is logic 9 neura/h5ia1 "h z !re4 ,my ,c>icature4--,! tea*] said3 ,m5 (t5 appe> 9 our lives z ?\gh !y 7 s5t2 we d n "k :y !y int]f]e ) our de/9y2 !y !mselves p]haps d n "k4 ,:5 ,i 0 a "y man :o gave promise ( a future1 :i* ,i _h n fulfill$1 ,i receiv$ z a colleague 9 my "w a man :om ,i at once felt to be antipa!tic to me1 & :o hat$ me4 ,b he s\ght me1 drew me out1 & compell$ me to dr9k1 al?\gh ,i 0 n exactly difficult to p]suade4 ,he drank himself t]ribly1 & (t5 ,i ?\ght he wi%$ to make me dr9k myself to dea?4 ,:5 half-intoxicat$1 he always made p]sonal rem>ks on me1 bo? flatt]+ & critical4 ,he also appe>$ z a *>latan1 pr(ess+ to "k & prophesy my de/9y4 ,?is sometimes attract$ me1 & sometimes repell$ me4 ,f9ally1 on "o occasion :5 intoxicat$1 he attack$ me be=e o!rs1 & call$ me 'a humbug :o w\ld come to no?+4' ,i 0 at t "t fully consci\s ( my vocation z au?or2 excit$ by ! attack1 & be+ p>tially 9 liquor1 ,i made a presumptu\s ass]tion t ,i w\ld be 'great4' ,!n ! man fell 9 a rage & swore by h--l t ,i %\ld n be great4 ,aft] ?is our ways divid$4 ,my fri5ds notic$ x1 & ask$1 ',d y n g ab\t any m ) y\r c>icature8' ',:at d y mean by t8' ,i ask$4 ',8 face 0 really a c>icature ( y\rs4' ,& s x 04 ,two ye>s aft]w>ds ,i em]g$ f ! ruck1 & rememb] t my ?\ghts turn$ back to ! my/]i\s p]son :o _h int]e/$ himself 9 my de/9y4 ,some:at lat] ,i he>d t ! man _h di$ at tw5ty-sev5 ye>s ( age "u peculi> circum/ances4 ,he 0 /&+ on a m\nta9 9 ! ev5+ ( ,midsumm] ,day :5 he _h a /roke4 ',he flew asund] l a gobl9 9 ! sunlight1' ,i said jocosely4 ,?is man look$ l a ,hun or a dea?'s-head4 ,he 0 born 9 ! sev5? mon?1 & pres]v$ by be+ wrapp$ 9 wadd+ & laid 9 a corn] ( ! til$ /ove4 ,b t expla9s no?+ p]haps8 ,! ,inexplicable4--,! tea*] cont9u$3 ,he _h1 h[ev]1 a peculi> influ5ce ov] p1 & t n only because he flatt]$ !m4 ,i saw him :5 he 0 tw5ty-five ye>s old talk+ ) our =emo/ /atesman1 :o 0 !n fifty4 ,! widely exp]i5c$1 sceptical politician li/5$ to ! ill-dress$ unwa%$ man1 flu%$ ) w9e1 :o almo/ monopolis$ ! talk4 ,he claim$ an au?oritative k ( all subjects1 teem$ ) facts & figures1 allud$ to all prom95t m5 z old acqua9tances1 0 well v]s$ 9 family *ronicles & political intrigues4 ',:]e did he get all t8' ,i ask$ someone4 ',i don't "k1 b he is a rem>kable man ) great influ5ce1' 0 ! answ]4 ,9 addition to 8 o!r *>act]i/ics ,i c m5tion ?is3 ) all 8 co>s5ess he _h traits ( s5sitiv5ess4 ,he wept :5 he read ( ! cruelties 9 ! ,russo-,turki% w>4 ,he lov$ beautiful poetry4 ,he _h a *ivalr\s en?usiasm = wom54 ,he gave out 8 money g5]\sly1 b :5 he 0 tipsy he 0 /+y4 ,demons plagu$ him1 & he us$ to roam 9 ! woods alone2 b he always sma%$ 8 top-hat fir/4 ,"o c\ld see into 8 no/rils1 &1 :5 he laugh$1 all 8 back tee? c\ld be c\nt$4 ,he always wore too long tr\s]s on :i* he trod1 = he 0 9 ! habit ( walk+ on 8 heels4 ,he 0 be>dless l ,attila1 because 8 *eeks simply consi/$ ( n]ves4 ,b :at _h he to d ) my de/9y1 & :5ce sprang 8 b\ndless hatr$ = me8 ,x is inexplicable1 l s mu* else4 ,old-"t ,religion4--,! pupil said3 ,i h he>d1 ,i h ?\ght2 n[ ,i w speak4 ,i believe 9 ,*ri/ianity z a _w-hi/orical fact1 ) :i* a new era has begun & proce$s4 ,i believe t all nations w "o day b[ ! knee 9 ! "n ( ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,e "t t ! pagans ga9 ! upp] h&1 ,i w reg>d x z a te/1 & n imm$iately believe t ,god is ) !m aga9/ ,8 own4 ,b let u h a simple1 *e]ful ,*ri/ianity :i* ga!rs all to ! ,sunday fe/ival4 ,reg>d x z a misuse ( ,god's "n to h religi\s s]vices e day4 ,simplify ! dogmas & keep !m flexible s t all may f9d a place 9 !m4 ,%ort5 ! s]vices2 let praise1 ?anks1 & wor%ip pr$om9ate1 & let ! s]mon1 :i* %\ld be only tw5ty m9utes long1 be subord9ate4 ,! prea*] %\ld /ick to 8 text1 & n make p]sonal allusions l a j\rnali/4 ,n till t is done w "o be able to talk ( 'assemblies1' ( national fe/ivals l ! ,pan-,a!nan & ,olympian games4 ,b x is madness to put pagans at ! head ( a ,*ri/ian ,/ate z tea*]s1 educators1 or (ficials4 ,t is n tol]ance1 b tomfool]y4 ,t is mak+ ! goat ! g>d5]1 sett+ ! foe 9 ! =tress1 play+ ! c[>d be=e public op9ion1 & m]e weakness4 ,!re w come a day 9 :i* ! "n ',*ri/ian' w be a title ( hon\r & a diploma ( nobility4 ,to say ',i am a ,*ri/ian' is equival5t to say+ ',i am a ,roman citiz54' ,he :o d>es to call himself a pagan or an a!i/1 w be reg>d$ z a blockhead1 an old-fa%ion$ ass1 a cons]vative reaction>y1 a /ick-9-!-mud4 ,! ,s$uc$ ,become ,s$uc]s4--,! pupil cont9u$3 ,! reason :y x has be5 s h>d = me & _m o!rs to become really ,*ri/ian1 is t we are all directly desc5d$ f ! pagans4 ,we 7 n acclimatis$ 9 ! ,*ri/ian atmosph]e1 b liable to wild impulses2 our fle% 0 too co>se to endure r5unciation & re/ra9t4 ,we _h be5 educat$ 9 ! evolution>y ape-!ory1 & be5 taught t man belongs to ! dep>tm5t ( zoology & n t ( an?ropology4 ,we _h also be5 told t ! physical process t prec$es ! ,new ,bir? ( ! s\l1 :i* is call$ conv]sion f evil1 0 neura/h5ia1 & %\ld be treat$ ) w>m ba?s or bromkali4 ,vet]9>y doctors held pr(essor%ips ( philosophy & introduc$ zoology z a compulsory subject 9 prie/s' exam9ations4 ,! s]vants ( ! ,"l le>nt t religion 0 a deposit f ! t]ti>y p]iod1 t animals 7 m religi\s ?an man1 & t man _h creat$ ,god4 ,! s$uc] ( our y\? taught u t ! ,life ( ,jesus 0 a lubric\s novel1 t ! doctr9e ( ! ,bible reg>d+ ,*ri/ simply am\nt$ to ?is--t ,he 0 a prom95t ,galilan2 & f9ally1 t ! sup]man 0 ! b&it :o may commit any outrage aga9/ o!rs1 provid$ he c prove a false alibi & has no witnesses4 ,x 0 a t]rible p]iod :i* recall$ t ( ! ,roman emp]ors1 & l t1 h]ald$ ! arrival ( ,*ri/ianity4 ,we1 :o _h be5 s$uc$1 !n became s$uc]s4 ,b we ?ank ,god t no h>m 0 done4 ,ev]y?+ s]ves1 & we _h to s]ve z a t]rify+ example4 ,!re is always some?+4 ,l>ge-he>t$ ,*ri/ianity4--,b we ought n to fright5 m5 ) ,*ri/ianity1 nor become hair-splitt]s4 ,let fai? be a unit+ bond to lead u onw>d1 let fai? be hope 9 a bett] life aft] ?is1 a connect+-l9k ) t :i* is high]4 ,let ! fruits ( fai? be se5 to be humanity1 resignation1 m]cifulness4 ,b don't g & c\nt h[ _m glasses ( :isky y\r neighb\r dr9ks2 don't call him a hypocrite if he once 9 a :ile gives way to ! fle%1 or if he is angry & says h>d words4 ,don't ask h[ (t5 he goes to *ur*2 don't spy on 8 words1 if 9 an access ( ill-hum\r he speaks o!rwise ?an he w\ld4 ,y _c see :e!r 9 solitude he does n regret x & *a/5s himself4 ,a :ite lie or ! embelli%m5t ( a /ory is n a deadly s92 an impropriety c be s aton$ = by imprisonm5t t x ought to be =gott54 ,d n sec$e f ! ,*ur* because ( "s dogmas :i* y d n und]/&4 ,don't =m a sect ) ! idea ( rais+ y\rself to ! rank ( %eph]d1 in/ead ( =m+ "p ( ! flock4 ,"o %\ld h a l>ge-he>t$ ,*ri/ianity = daily use1 & a /rict] "o = fe/ival days4 ,don't talk ab\t religion4 ,x is too good = t4444 ,virtue consi/s 9 /riv+1 ev5 :5 x does n always succe$4 ,! noble ,_s n[ is free ,& sav$ f evil s*em+1 ,:o]'er aspires unwe>i$ly ,is n beyond r$eem+4 ,& if he feels ! grace ( ,love ,t f on high is giv51 ,! bless$ ho/s t wait above ,%all welcome him to heav54 7,fau/1 ,"p ,,ii47 ,reconnection ) ! ,arial ,wire4--,! pupil spoke3 ,y said once t ! tramc> comes to a /&/ill if x loses connection ) ! arial wire4 ,i "k t v well4 ,w\ld t my fri5ds :o are a!i/s & pagans knew :at a relief x is to f9d ! connection aga94 ,x is l div+ 9 cry/al-cle> sea-wat] aft] p]spir+ 9 ! heat ( ! dog-days on a du/y high-road4 ,! he>t gr[s light2 ! sy/ematic ill-luck ceases2 "o has "s success1 "o's und]tak+s prosp]1 "o c sleep at night1 & neura/h5ia ceases4 ,i rememb] h[1 aft] a night ( debau*]y1 ! mo/ beautiful l&scape at sunrise look$ gha/ly2 :ile aft] a night ( quiet sleep ! same sc5e look$ p>adisal4 ,:5 we ga9 ! c]ta9ty1 & ! belief f\nd$ on c]ta9ty1 t life is cont9u$ on ! o!r side1 !n we f9d x easi] on ?is "o1 & d n hunt aft] trifles till we are we>y4 ,!n we discov] ! div9e light-he>t$ness ( :i* ,goe! speaks1 :i* f9ds expression 9 a c]ta9 contempt ( hon\rs & di/9ction1 promotion & money4 ,we become m 9-s5sible to bl[s & abuse4 ,ev]y?+ goes m s(tly & smoo?ly4 ,h[ev] d>k ! surr\nd+s may be1 we become self-lum9\s s to speak1 & c>ry ! little pocket-lamp hope ) u4 ,! ,art ( ,conv]sion4--,! pupil cont9u$3 ,plato describes e>?ly life z foll[s3 ',m5 sit 9 a cav]n ) _! backs t[>ds ! light4 ,!re=e !y only see ! %ad[s or simulacra ( :at passes 9 front ( ! cav]n4 ,:oev] hits on ! brilliant idea ( turn+ r\nd1 sees ! orig9als1 ! realities 9 !mselves1 ! light4' ,s simple is x6 ,only to turn r\nd1 or be conv]t$1 9 a ^w4 ,b x is n necess>y on t acc\nt to become a monk1 ascetic1 or h]mit4 ,i almo/ agree ) ,lu!r t fai? is ev]y?+4 ,our de$s lag f> beh9d1 & ne$ only consi/ 9 refra9+ f all delib]ate evil4 ,z a beg9n+1 "o may be cont5t ) n /eal+1 ly+1 or be>+ false witness4 ,if we h great] claims & wi% to tra9 ourselves into sup]m51 we may4 ,b if we d n succe$1 we %\ld n ?r[ ! :ole sy/em ov]-bo>d1 b ceaselessly comm5ce anew1 nev] despair1 try to smile at our va9 ef=ts1 be pati5t ) ourselves1 & believe good ( ,god4 ,:5 ! religi\s man falls1 he gets up aga91 bru%es himself1 & goes on2 ! irreligi\s "o rema9s ly+ 9 ! dirt4 ,?us ! :ole art ( life consi/s 9 n turn+ "o's back to ! light4 ,! ,sup]man4--,! g5tlem5 :o talk ab\t developm5t say t ,*ri/ianity is out ( date & lies beh9d u4 ,no6 ,*ri/ianity is ev]y:]e2 beh9d u1 ne> u1 be=e u4 ,pagans ( all k9ds really creat$ _! gods 9 _! own lik5ess4 ,b ) ,*ri/ianity came ! transc5d5t ,god & reveal$ ,himself to m5 :o _h ! goodwill to und]/& ,him4 ,!re=e ,*ri/ianity is ! beg9n+ ( ! _w's hi/ory1 its middle1 & its end4 ',:i!r & :5ce ev]y?+ /reams1' z ,hegel says4 ,! multiplication-table is /ill old]1 b is n out ( date2 x is /ill us$1 ?\gh log>i?ms h be5 discov]$4 ,! laws ( ?\ght1 atomic weights1 oscillations ( waves ( light & s\nd1 h n be5 left beh9d u1 b are /ill cont9ually close to u4 ,b if "o does reatta* oneself to ,*ri/ianity1 "o %\ld take x )\t ref9+--/ock & b>rel1 dogmas & miracles4 ,"o %\ld swall[ x uncritically1 navely1 9 great gulps1 !n x goes d[n l ca/or-oil 9 hot c(fee4 ',op5 y\r m\? & %ut y\r eyes4' ,t is ! only way4 ,i am a ,*ri/ian1 i4e4 ,i am a nobleman2 ,i belong to ! upp] class2 ,i h be5 vacc9at$2 ,i h s]v$ my "t 9 ! army2 ,i am a citiz5 & ( full age2 ,i am a :ite man2 ,i h a clean bir?-c]tificate2 ,i am a sup]man4 ,to be a ,*ri/ian ,is n to be a ,pieti/4--,! pupil cont9u$3 ,if my pagan fri5ds w\ld only give up ! idea t a ,*ri/ian mu/ be a pieti/1 !y w\ld come into our pan!on 9 cr[ds4 ,lu!r ate & drank :at 0 set be=e him1 z ,/4 ,paul enjo9s2 he play$1 sang1 hunt$1 & play$ skittles4 ,he swore also2 b notice well1 he nev] ask$ ,god to curse him1 or ! ,devil to take him2 he only said1 ',curse su* & su* a ?+1' or ',to ! devil ) x6' ,c]ta9ly ,i ?9k he might h modifi$ t habit1 z x creat$ annoyance1 & he 0 a *ief prie/ & prophet4 ,x is a /&+ error to ?9k t we lay-m5 %\ld live e day l prie/s4 ,we _c2 we h nei!r ! "t nor ! means2 x is a %ame to dem& x4 ,b ) ! prie/ x is o!rwise4 ,he has devot$ 8 life to ! s]vice ( ! ,"l4 ,he %\ld sp5d ! six days ( ! week 9 s prep>+ 8 s]mon t he c say x by he>t4 ,i w n comp>e ! cl]gyman ) ! actor1 b on ,sunday he ought at any rate be able to repeat 8 rle v]batim4 ,= do+ t he gets 8 bread4 ,if ! congregation see t he reads 8 s]mon1 !y ?9k1 ',we c\ld d t too2 !re is no art 9 t6' ,& ! m9i/] ( ! ,"l mu/ take good he$ to himself else he ar\ses annoyance4 ,p w n take x ill if he is au/]e1 & refra9s f society1 = he is a repres5tative1 n a private p]son4 ,) ! layman x is o!rwise4 ,he is a poor s9ful man1 ( :om too mu* _c be dem&$ z he drags 8 daily burd5 ?r\gh ! wick$ _w4 ,/r5g? & ,value ( ,words4--,! tea*] said3 ,?\ght is an act ( ! m9d1 & words are congeal$ ?\ghts4 ,! utt]$ ^w c h an effect l a *>m or an adjuration4 ,!re are m5 :o are s s5sitive t !y are aw>e at a di/ance :e!r p are speak+ well or ill ( !m4 ,!re are m5 :o are n afraid ( committ+ a crime1 b are />tl$ at ! ^w :i* names x4 ,weak m5 _c endure h>d words2 !y make !m ill4 ,a ^w may kill4 ,if ,i 7 a judge1 ,i w\ld always fir/ ask ! man-slay]1 ',:at did he say :i* made y /rike him d[n8' ,& !n ,i %\ld all[ = ext5uat+ circum/ances1 or ev5 acquit ! man1 if ! deadly ^w caus$ ! deadly bl[ z a reflex-action4 ,if = fifty ye>s ,i h *]i%$ ! memory ( my p>5ts1 & my family1 prop]ty1 & hon\r is bas$ on my relation%ip to !m1 & !n someone comes & tells me ,i am n my fa!r's son1 he has kill$ me2 ! :ole edifice ( my emotional life collapses4 ,he has p>alys$ my en]gy & will+ness to sacrifice myself2 he has impos$ ^u me ! mon/r\s task ( radically *ang+ my views ( ! _w & m52 he has root$-up my filial affection2 ) a s+le ^w he has annihilat$ my :ole life4 ,if he has li$1 he is simply a murd]]6 ,! ,black ,illum9ati4--,! tea*] said3 ,ev]y?+ s]ves1 & error (t5 helps =w>d tru?4 ,at ! end ( ! la/ c5tury1 ! mat]iali/s began to sniff ab\t 9 ! occult4 ,"o day !y discov]$ ! capacity ( m51 :5 9 a hypnotic /ate1 ( see+ at a di/ance1 ( behold+ ! invisible1 & ( p5etrat+ ! future4 ,!n !y accompli%$1 curi\sly en\gh1 ! hon\rable task ( e/abli%+ ! tru? ( clairvoyance & prophecy1 z well z ! possibility ( miracles4 ,! !osophi/s1 :o really at a t]rible p]iod ( ! 'black illum9ation' s\ght to p5etrate beh9d ph5om5a & dug up useful fragm5ts ( anci5t wisdom1 7 h[ev] ho/ile to ,*ri/ianity4 ,!y w5t s f> z to s5d "o ( _! prophets to ,india to w>n ! natives aga9/ ! mission>ies4 ,b 9 c\rse ( "t !y began to inve/igate ,*ri/ianity aga92 !y 7 n[ provid$ ) ! prop] means = und]/&+ ! my/]ies ( ,*ri/'s inc>nation & aton+ dea?1 ( sacram5ts & miracles4 ,& see n[6 _! late/ prophetess has writt5 a book to expla9 & def5d ,*ri/ianity6 ,all roads seem to lead to ,*ri/4 ,no "o has done su* good s]vice to ,*ri/ianity z ! mat]iali/ic occulti/s & ! a!i/ic !osophi/s4 ,"y ,france has be5 ,*ri/ianis$ by ! pagans4 ,! la/ apo/le ( ! ru/ic intellig5ce /&s isolat$ !re 9 8 damnable infatuation1 believ+ himself to be ! only 'illum9at$' "o 9 ! _w4 ,let u hope t he is ! la/ ( ! ',illum9ati4' ,yes1 let u hope s4 ,an?ropomorphism4--,man is incl9$ to make ev]y?+ aft] 8 own lik5ess4 ,:5 ! hea!n made !mselves gods1 ! latt] resembl$ _! creators 9 all _! defects & s9s4 ,t is call$ ,an?ropomorphism4 ,! arti/ :o pa9ts a portrait1 always puts some?+ ( 8 own into x4 ,i "k a sculptor :o always us$ to model 8 own und]siz$ figure ) its two %ort legs1 :e!r he 0 repres5t+ m\nta9e]s1 fauns1 m5 ( sci5ce1 or k+s4 ,! plump] he became 9 c\rse ( "t1 ! m rotund 8 figures grew4 ,i "k a photograph] :o always ret\*es 8 portraits ( p till !y resemble himself4 ,he mu/ admire 8 own ext]ior1 & wi% to h x tak5 z a /&>d-type4 ,! critic :5 he describes an au?or1 proce$s 9 a simil> fa%ion4 ,e po9t 9 :i* ! au?or resembles him is reckon$ a m]it2 ev]yone 9 :i* he diff]s1 a fault4 ,:5 anyone says1 ',?is poet is ! be/ ,i "k2 y mu/ read him6' t means1 ',?is poet has my views2 y mu/ %>e !m1 = !y are ! be/ 9 ! _w4' ,ev]yone w\ld l to fa%ion humanity & ! _w 9 8 own image4 ,b if ev]yone _h 8 way1 :at w\ld ! _w look l8 ,fury-wor%ip z a ,p5al ,halluc9ation4--,! tea*] said3 ,sw$5borg describes1 9 8 fa%ion1 h[ ! greate/ tyrant arriv$ 9 ,hades4 ,he wi%$ to /ir up hell aga9/ heav51 & he 0 puni%$ by hav+ a t]rible woman s5t to rule him1 :om he wor%ipp$4 ,%e 0 a comp5dium ( orig9al s91 delib]ate falsehood1 wilful deceit1 ugl9ess1 uncleanness1 de/ructiv5ess4 ,b he 0 compell$ to see 9 h] ! good1 ! beautiful1 ! lovable2 he call$ h] 'my angel4' ,all 8 adh]5ts 7 oblig$ to wor%ip h]1 or he call$ !m 'woman-hat]s4' ,:5ce ,sw$5borg d]iv$ 8 n>ratives1 ,i "k n1 b 8 descriptions are l photographs ( our ev]yday life4 ,! mod]n wor%ip ( wom5 does n come d[n f ! ,*ri/ian ages ( *ivalry1 = ^? romantici/s hon\r$ womanhood 9 its virtues4 ,our new gyneolatry is d]iv$ f ! hea!n2 x is a k9d ( fury-wor%ip impos$ on u z a p5al halluc9ation4 ,! sons ( ! ,"l ( ,dung deify _! furies1 & praise _! faults4 ,9 _! view s9 is virtue1 wick$ness is "*1 deceitfulness is a pro( ( intellig5ce1 co>s5ess is /r5g?4 ,he :o w n jo9 9 ?is devil-wor%ip is call$ a woman-hat]4 ,*a/e wives & mo!rs are call$ old-fa%ion$ & p]v]se4 ,euripides describes 9 ! ,hippolytus h[ ?is k+'s son d$icat$ 8 devotion to ! *a/e ,diana & fl$ ! demotic ,v5us4 ,?is impure goddess av5g$ h]self by accus+ ! innoc5t ,hippolytus ( ince/ & !n caus$ him to be put to dea?4 ,euripides on acc\nt ( writ+ ?is trag$y 0 call$ a 'woman-hat]1' & is said to h be5 tom 9 pieces by female dogs4 ,t is a pretty leg5d6 ,am]igo or ,columbus4--,! tea*] said3 ,human greatness & ! way ( becom+ great is some?+ v rem>kable4 ,(t5 envi\s hatr$ ( ! des]v+ seems to be conv]t$ into imm5se love = ! undes]v+4 ,! infatuation ( hatr$ may g s f> t :5 ! des]v+ has done a good "w1 ! undes]v+ gets ! glory ( x4 ,b (t5 also !re are secret reasons = ?is abnormal result4 ,e s*oolboy has ask$ :y ,am]ica 0 n nam$ aft] ,columbus1 :o discov]$ x4 ,i also made t inquiry1 & :ile ,i s]v$ ! ,"l ( ,dung ,i f\nd x q natural t ! undes]v+ c>tograph] ,vespucci %\ld h ! hon\r ( ! discov]y4 ,b :5 ,i recov]$ my reason 7& m5 call$ me mad71 ,i read ! biography ( ,columbus aga94 ,!re ,i f\nd t1 toge!r ) 8 m]its1 he _h great faults4 ,l ,david1 he s9n$ by pride1 av>ice1 cruelty1 & deceit4 ,8 pride 0 b\ndless4 ,be=e und]tak+ 8 d\btful voyage1 he laid d[n z a condition t he 0 to be ,vic]oy 7he1 ! weav]'s son67 & receive a ti! ( ! rev5ues4 ,well1 he nev] le>nt t he _h discov]$ a new qu>t] ( ! globe4 ,he di$ & 0 =gott54 ,vespucci1 on ! o!r h&1 0 n only a c>tograph]1 b sail$ r\nd ,s\? ,am]ica1 & discov]$ t ! ,new ,_w 0 n ,india4 ,he seems to h be5 a good-natur$1 upright1 & mode/ man4 ,toscanelli1 8 contempor>y1 is also said to h ann\nc$ ! exi/5ce ( a new _w1 b t is n s c]ta94 ,a ,circumnavigator ( ! ,globe4--,! pupil said3 ,c y resolve my discords8 ,i w call y a circumnavigator ( ! globe4 ,y h sail$ r\nd x1 & return$ to ! po9t :5ce y set out4 ,no "o c g fur!r ?an t4 ,b y return ) a freight ( exp]i5ce1 k1 & wisdom4 ,!re=e ! j\rney 0 n 9 va91 or to speak m correctly1 x has fulfill$ its object4 ,max ,mull]1 :o at ! "t ( ! decad5ce 0 ! scapegoat = all ! a!i/s1 concludes 8 hi/ory ( religion ?us3 ',x is easy to say t ! complete/ fai? is a *ild's fai?4 ,no?+ c be tru]4 ,! old] we gr[1 ! m we le>n to compreh5d ! wisdom ( *ildr5's fai?4' ,& 9 ano!r place he says3 ',to expla9 religion by ref]r+ x to a religi\s impulse1 or a religi\s capacity1 is m]ely to expla9 ! kn[n by ! less kn[n4 ,! real religi\s impulse or in/9ct is ! appreh5sion ( ! inf9ite4' ,?ank y\r mis=tunes t y h arriv$ at ! inf9ite4 ',! =tunate d n believe t miracles /ill happ51 = only 9 mis]y we recognise ,god's h& & f+]1 :i* leads good m5 to good4' ,d y "k :o said t8 ,no2 is x ,lu!r8 ,no2 x is ,goe! 9 ,h]mann & ,doro!a4 ,& ! 'great pagan' wrote 9 #aggi to ,lavat]3 ',my ,god1 to :om ,i h be5 ev] fai?ful1 has 9 secret ri*ly bless$ me4 ,= my de/9y is q hidd5 f m52 !y c nei!r he> nor see at all1 h[ x is det]m9$4' ,! ,lice-,k+ omits su* expressions :5 he wi%es to incorporate ,goe! among 8 slimy l>v4 ,! ,poet's ,*ildr54--,! tea*] cont9u$3 ,moreov]1 z ,i h already told y1 y are a poet1 & mu/ pass ?r\gh y\r re9c>nations "h4 ,y h a "r to inv5t poetic p]sonalities1 & at e /age to speak ! spee* ( ! "o y repres5t4 ,%akespe>e has done s1 :e!r he did x consci\sly1 or :e!r life assign$ him ! v>i\s roles he play$4 ,at "o "t he is a *e]ful optimi/2 at ano!r1 ! misogyni/ ,timon1 or ! _w-despis] ,hamlet2 he is ! jeal\s ,o!llo1 ! amor\s ,romeo1 s-&-s ! panegyri/ ( wom51 & s-&-s ! misogyni/4 ,i believe inde$ t he has1 by way ( exp]im5t1 be5 ! murd]] ,macbe?1 & ! mon/] ,ri*>d ,,iii4 ,he utt]s ! malignant spee*es ( ! la/ ) real reli%4 ,e rascal may def5d himself1 & ,%akespe>e is 8 advocate4 ,!re ! poet %\ld h no grave2 8 a%es %\ld be /rewn to all ! w9ds ( heav54 ,he %\ld only live 9 8 works1 if !y possess vital p[]4 ,m5 %\ld accu/om !mselves to look ^u him z some?+ diff]5t f an ord9>y man2 !y ought n to judge him1 b reg>d him z some?+ :i* !y _c und]/&4 ,y rememb] ! dy+ ,epam9ondas4 ,:5 !y condol$ ) him because he left no *ildr51 he answ]$3 ',*ildr58 ,i h ,leuktra & ,mant9ea4' ,fai?ful 9 ,little ,?+s4--,! pupil said3 ,i _h a fri5d1 :o di$ lately at ! age ( sixty4 ,accord+ to my view1 he has 9 8 own way realis$ ! type ( a good citiz5 & a good man4 ,he 0 a tradesman1 & _h pass$ ?r\gh a y\? ( h>d%ip1 be+ f six 9 ! morn+ till t5 at night 9 ! %op1 ! doors ( :i* 7 op5 ev5 9 w9t]4 ,"u 8 fir/ ma/] he quickly discov]$ t di%one/ tricks did n pay4 ,!re=e he became rigidly hone/1 /udi$ ! details ( 8 trade1 made rapid progress1 kept sob] & wide-awake4 ,accord+ly he soon became 8 own ma/]1 & weal? came ( itself4 ,he m>ri$ & _h *ildr51 :o turn$ out excell5tly 9 consequ5ce ( _! fa!r's example4 ,n[1 ?is man liv$ 8 :ole life accord+ to ! tea*+ he _h receiv$ 9 s*ool & *ur*4 ,he did 8 duty1 hon\r$ fa!r & "m1 obey$ law & au?ority1 nev] criticis$ ^? :o manag$ ! gov]nm5t ( ! c\ntry1 :i* he did n pr(ess to und]/&4 ,he took no notice ( selfi% agitations1 did n worry himself ab\t ! riddle ( ! univ]se1 & w>n$ 8 *ildr5 n to be eag] aft] novelties4 ,he also possess$ positive virtues2 he 0 m]ciful & helpful1 fai?ful & mode/4 ,:5 8 sons began to /udy1 he did n attempt to vie ) !m 9 le>n+4 ,b :5 !y attack$ 8 *ildlike fai?1 he def5d$ x l a man4 ,he nev] v5tur$ to occupy a public po/1 = he knew 8 limits4 ,he nev] s\ght = di/9ctions1 nor did he obta9 any4 ,well1 :at "n d ! l>v ( ! snake-worm give su* a blameless1 good1 fai?ful man8 ,!y call him 'a s]vile rascal4' ,is t j8 ,! tea*] answ]$3 ,no6 x is flagrantly unju/6 ,b !re are o!r types ( "*1 :i* are also laudable4 ,yes1 inde$1 b t does n less5 ! value ( 8 life2 he 0 fai?ful 9 small ?+s4 ,! ,unpracticalness ( ,husk-eat+4--,! tea*] said3 ,"y p say1 ',:at d we want ) ! wisdom ( age8 ,we want to le>n = ourselves4' ,i g5]ally answ]1 ',yes1 le>n = y\rselves--f u6 ,:at good-=tune to be able to inh]it ! ri* exp]i5ces ( o!rs1 & n to make ^! exp5sive1 dirty exp]im5ts = oneself6 ,if ! "y comm5c$ :]e we left (f1 ! _w & humanity w\ld progress ) giant /rides4 ,in/ead ( ?is ev]yone beg9s afre%1 t is1 9 ! moral sph]e4 ,:5 x is a "q ( mak+ a new inc&esc5t lamp1 we d n beg9 ) a ma*9e = g5]at+ electricity1 b cont9ue f ! late/ discov]y ( our pr$ecessors4 ,i h also ask$ myself :e!r x is necess>y fir/ to be burnt 9 ord] to dread ! fire4 ,i h nev] se5 my *ildr5 g to ! ov5 & lay hold ( ! r$ damp]s to see :e!r !y w\ld be burnt4 ,!y let !mselves be w>n$1 & !re=e escap$ ! pa9ful exp]i5ce4 ,i h ask$ myself :e!r "o mu/ fir/ fe$ ) ! sw9e be=e "o c appreciate ! food ( ! h\sehold1 & :e!r ! ,prodigal ,son is a necess>y transition>y type4 ,b to all ^! /upid & imp]t95t que/ions life has giv5 a negative answ]4 ,sw$5borg says t all s9 & wick$ness leave traces beh9d !m1 b t ^! are n app>5t 9 ! human face till old age4 ,subsequ5tly1 9 ! disrob+-room on ! o!r side1 !y look z if !y _h be5 ?r[n ?r\gh a magnify+-glass on a :ite scre54 ,i once look$ into an attic-room2 ! curta9 0 drawn aside1 & an old man put out 8 head 9 ord] to look at ! sun4 ,:5 he saw me he hid 8 face imm$iately4 ,t 0 a face6444 ,god protect u6 ,a ,y\?ful ,dream = ,sev5 ,%ill+s4--,! tea*] said3 ,!re are p :o c>ry ab\t ) !m a measur+-rule = ev]y?+4 ,!y dem& exactness & ord]2 !y love p]fection 9 all ?+s4 ,!y are call$ discont5t$1 c>p+1 p$antic4 ,b x is unfair to blame !m4 ,if "o is cont5t ) ! m$iocre1 "o w at la/ only get ! wor/4 ,m5 give only z little z !y c1 & ! :ole ( life is defective4 ,consci5ti\s m5 are n happy1 = !y _c l[] _! dem&s2 !y appe> to simpletons :o h n le>nt1 t no?+ is :at x gives itself out to be1 t no?+ answ]s ! expectations we =m$ ( x4 ,"o is incl9$ to ask :e!r su* m5 br+ ) !m at bir? recollections ( a place or a condition :]e ideal p]fection exi/$4 ,:5 ,i 0 sev5 ye>s old1 ,i (t5 rema9$ /&+ fasc9at$ be=e a music-deal]'s %op w9d[1 & contemplat$ a hunt]'s horn :i* 0 hung up !re4 ,!re 0 some?+ *>m+ 9 ! proportions ( ^! curv$ l9es4 ,?is brass tube tap]$ (f beautifully f ! great wid? ( its bell-m\? to its n>r[$ m\?piece4 ,9 ! gloomy /reet x made me he> nature's music 9 woods & fields2 ,i lov$ ! in/rum5t4 ,b :5 a boy told me t x co/ ?irty %ill+s1 ,i wond]$ :e!r life w\ld ev] fulfil my desire1 = 9 ord] to buy x ,i w\ld h to g = two & a half ye>s )\t breakfa/4 ,f9ally ,i got to be ?irty ye>s old1 & _h "s money to sp>e = ! fir/ "t 9 my life4 ,i b\ght ! hunt+-horn2 x co/ only sev5 %ill+s2 ! boy _h told a lie4 ,b ! in/rum5t _h only ?ree notes4 ,:5 ,i got tir$ ( my prize x 0 consign$ to ! attic4 ,x 01 at any rate1 ! fulfilm5t ( a y\?ful dream6 ,envy ,nobody6--,! tea*] said3 ,envy nobody6 ,z a *ild ,i 0 bo>d$ out 9 ! c\ntry 9 mean surr\nd+s4 ,i liv$ 9 a k9d ( %anty1 ate f an e>!nw>e plate1 sat on a wood5 /ool4 ,b !re 0 a ca/le 9 ! neighb\rhood1 a real ca/le1 ) portraits ( k+s 9 ! entrance-hall1 ! ance/ors ( ! "y c\nt :o liv$ !re4 ,"o ,sunday we 7 all[$ to g1 fir/ into ! ca/le1 !n into ! g>d54 ,t 0 p>adise6 ,we c\ld ba!1 & 7 all[$ to pick ! *]ries1 blood-black1 gold-yell[1 fire-r$4 ,! c\nt look$ on1 b ate no?+2 he _h _h en\gh4 ,!n we left1 & ! gate ( p>adise 0 %ut beh9d u4 ,fifty ye>s lat] ,i saw ! portrait ( ! "y c\nt1 & he>d 8 hi/ory4 ,he look$ unhappy & despair+1 z ?\gh he 7 we>y ( ev]y?+4 ,he _h pass$ ?r\gh ! bitt]e/ exp]i5ces ( life1 includ+ pov]ty = a "t4 ,8 affairs came into liquidation1 & he _h to sp5d t5 ye>s abroad 9 an hotel1 8 exp5ses be+ defray$ by 8 cr$itors4 ,he also _h 8 wife ) him1 :o1 z %e ?\ght1 _h m>ri$ into p>adise1 9 ord] to be imm$iately driv5 out ( x aga94 ,! man _h be5 no?+ & _h done no?+2 all he c\ld d 0 to wait = 8 meals4 ,he _h possess$ horses & a ya*t2 he _h gambl$ & borr[$ money2 he _h eat5 truffles & drunk w9e2 b :5 he 0 =ty _h to give x up1 = 8 nose grew r$ & he _h g\t 9 8 great toe4 ,i w n speak ( 8 dome/ic mis]ies4 ,n[ he sits 9 8 ca/le1 ri* z ,crsus1 b lonely1 & educates 8 h\sekeep]'s *ildr51 :i* are 81 b :i* _c be> 8 "n4 ,8 ev5+ meal consi/s ( gruel1 & he goes to b$ at half-pa/ n9e4 ,he d>es n use 8 w9e-cell>1 = !n 8 great toe a*es4 ,8 solit>y comp>ative pleasure is to be able to walk1 9 ord] to eat 8 gruel & be able to sleep4 ,envy nobody6 ,! ,galley-slaves ( ,ambition4--,! tea*] said3 ,balzac speaks 9 "o place ( ! galley-slaves ( ambition1 & describes _! condition v mu* z ,sw$5borg describes c]ta9 ( 8 hells1 or z ,hom] depicts ,tantalus1 ,ixion1 & ! ,danaides4 ,!y are ceaselessly haunt$ by _! passion to be sup]ior to o!rs2 to be se5 & he>d be=e all o!rs4 ,! malice & love ( p[] :i* ?is involves are necess>ily puni%$4 ,:5 ! ambiti\s man _c be ! fir/ & only "o he becomes ill4 ,voltaire _h to g to b$ :5 a pr9ce travell$ pa/ 8 h\se )\t visit+ him4 ,if "o ( su* p's lett]s rema9s unansw]$ !y ?9k x is a sign t _! cr$it has sunk1 & !y worry ab\t ! reason ( x till !y gr[ h[ hypo*ondriacal4 ,if !y read 9 ! pap] su* & su* important p 7 pres5t :5 ! k+ l&$1 & _! names are omitt$1 ! _w is d>k5$ = !m4 ,t is to say1 x is n en\gh = !m t !y %\ld be prais$ & call$ ! greate/2 !y suff] pa9s l dea? :5 o!rs are eulogis$4 ,!y feel p]petual fe> le/ !y %\ld be set aside & _! juniors get ahead ( !m4 ,9 t !y resemble a great crim9al :o expects to be detect$4 ,! portrait ( an ambiti\s man has a great resemblance to t ( a galley-slave4 ,imp]i\sness1 hatr$1 fe>--especially fe>--are depict$ 9 8 face4 ,balzac1 on ! o!r h&1 0 impell$ by ! noble ambition to make discov]ies1 & to d good "w 9 :i* he took pleasure4 ,b 8 own life 0 hidd54 ,unkn[n & misund]/ood 9 8 own ,p>is1 :i* he _h discov]$1 he saw petty *ronicl]s obta9 ! fir/ prizes )\t be+ made ill by x4 ,& :51 at ! age ( fifty-"o1 he _h succe$$ 9 mak+ a home = himself1 into :i* he 0 ab\t to br+ 8 fir/ & only wife1 he di$ on ! day ( ! publication ( ! banns4 ,a f9e dea? aft] a life ( r5unciation6 ,h>d to ,dis5tangle4--,! tea*] said3 ,) age1 z is well kn[n1 "o arrives at a diff]5t view ( life ?an "o _h =m]ly4 ,!n1 on acc\nt ( its weal? & v>iety1 life is almo/ immeasurable1 & above all1 v difficult to dis5tangle4 ,at ! age ( =ty ,i came home aft] an abs5ce ( _m ye>s4 ,on my arrival ,i receiv$ a dunn+ lett] f an antiqu>ian booksell]4 ,curi\sly en\gh1 )\t my be+ able to expla9 :y1 ?is debt caus$ me no fur!r uneas9ess ( consci5ce4 ,b !n a fri5d came & advis$ me to settle ! matt]1 z ! booksell] 0 spread+ an evil report ab\t me4 ,i w5t & paid ! trifl+ acc\nt1 b ! booksell] look$ s uneasy & /range1 0 s polite & grateful1 t ,i began to reflect ab\t him4 ,:5 ,i came home ,i rememb]$ ?is3 tw5ty ye>s previ\sly ,i _h entru/$ him ) an antique "w ( art to sell4 ,aft] ,i _h visit$ ! man sev]al times 9 8 %op & ! article _h n be5 sold1 ,i felt a%am$ to g any m1 began to ?9k ( some?+ else1 & =got ! matt]4 ,8 pres5t ?ankfulness %[$ t he _h n =gott5 x2 we 7 !n quits1 if he did n /ill owe me some?+4 ,n[ ,i felt a%am$ on 8 acc\nt1 & det]m9$ n to m5tion ! matt]4 ,b !n x occurr$ to me t ,i ow$ 8 pr$ecessor a sum ( money = books4 ,i w5t aga91 f\nd him %[+ ! same uneasy mann] z be=e1 & ask$ = 8 pr$ecessor's address4 ,he 0 9 ,am]ica4 ,i ask$ :e!r he _h relatives "h 9 ! t[n4 ,he _h none4 ,i w5t home & ?\ght to myself1 ',!n we mu/ drop t matt] also4' ,9 ?is way1 9 old age1 "o mu/ alt]nate pay & let g2 n[ z a debtor1 n[ z cr$itor4 ,b :o /rikes ! balance ( acc\nts8 ,! goddess ( ju/ice1 & %e is nei!r deaf nor bl9d4 ,! ,art ( ,settl+ ,acc\nts4--,! tea*] cont9u$3 ,x really looks z ?\gh we c\ld n g h5ce till ev]y?+ is settl$1 great & small alike4 ,rec5tly !re di$ an e>ly fri5d ( m9e1 :o1 at an important juncture1 _h help$ me ) a hundr$ kronas4#a ,i _h at fir/ reg>d$ x z a loan4 ,b he nev] dunn$ me1 & dur+ ! =ty ye>s :i* h s9ce elaps$ he 0 gradually trans=m$ 9 my memory into a b5efactor1 & all 0 well4 ,:5 at la/ he di$ a millionaire1 ,i did n wi% to tr\ble 8 executors ) ! trifle1 b s5t a wrea? to ! fun]al ) a sigh ( gratitude & _m k9dly ?\ghts4 ,0 t ! end8 ,no6 ,%ortly aft]w>ds ,i felt a k9d ( inw>d admonition to resume relations ) a bookb9d] :om ,i _h ceas$ to employ on acc\nt ( 8 c>elessness4 ,he came & 0 glad to get "w aga92 he 0 greatly pleas$1 & decl>$ t ,i _h appe>$ j 9 "t to deliv] him4 ,:5 ,i und]/ood 8 difficulties1 = he _h a family1 ,i 0 will+ to give him fifty kronas 9 advance1 b z ,i _h no *ange ,i gave him a hundr$1 ?\gh reluctantly4 ,i saw h[ 8 back /raight5$ itself1 & 8 confid5ce 9 life reawoke4 ,he w5t--& nev] return$4 ,i 0 angry at fir/1 because he _h treat$ me l a fool1 & ,i dunn$ him ) lett]s4 ,b !n ! memory ( my dep>t$ fri5d recurr$2 v>i\s ?\ghts wove !mselves toge!r 9 my m9d--! pleasure ( call+ him a scamp1 ! fifty-krona note :i* _h turn$ into a hundr$-krona note1 ! scamp's ne$1 & ! "p ,i _h play$ z deliv]]4 ,9 my own m9d ,i gave him a dis*>ge1 & became q quiet4 ,footnote #a3 ,a krona #as4 #c;d4 ,gr[+ ,old ,gracefully4--,! tea*] cont9u$3 ,:5 "o becomes old1 "o wond]s at fir/ h[ m5 h1 z x 71 p]mission to d "o an inju/ice4 ,if "o compla9s1 "o f9ds no sympa?y4 ,ev5 our fri5ds take ! "p ( ^? :o injure u4 ,b :5 we h discov]$ ! secret ( x1 we take x all quietly4 ,"o is *eat$ 9 ord9>y bus9ess1 & says to oneself1 ',?is is 9 requital = t4' ,our *ildr5 prove ungrateful & difficult to manage1 exactly l we 74 ,"y p are insol5t & p]t t[>ds u1 & we see our =m] selves reflect$ 9 !m4 ,s]vants d _! "w badly1 & p]petrate petty !fts2 we mu/ put up ) x1 :5 we ?9k ( our own "w scamp$ on v>i\s occasions4 ,fri5ds are fai?less1 j z we h be5 ourselves4 ,by practice "o comes at la/ s f>1 t "o asks = no m1 dem&s no m1 & is no long] angry4 ,i !n always ?9k ( ,david :5 ,%imei ca/ /ones at him & curs$ him1 & ,abi%ai want$ to /rike (f ! calumniator's head4 ,david decl9$ to take v5geance1 say+1 ',let him curse1 = ! ,"l ha? bidd5 him4' ,:5 ! same k+1 because ( 8 s9s1 _h to *oose betwe5 fam9e1 pe/il5ce1 or raids ( ! enemy1 he pray$ 'to fall into ! h&s ( ,god1 & n into ! h&s ( man4' ,he und]/ood h[ to gr[ old gracefully1 & to make up 8 acc\nts4 ,s he dep>t$ prais+ ,god1 ',:o prove? ! he>t & love? uprightness4' ,! ,eight ,wild ,bea/s4--,! tea*] said3 ,y "k y\rself t :5 "o awakes f somnambulism1 "o f9ds ! _w q mad4 ,!n "o loses all hope & all confid5ce1 & believes we are deliv]$ into ! p[] ( ! ,devil4 ,once dur+ su* a mom5t ( awak5+1 ,i read ! works ( ! ,adv5ti/s1 & ! idea /ruck me t !y 7 "r4 ,!y gr\nd _! belief on ! ,revelation ( ,/4 ,john1 & say z foll[s3 ',we live 9 ! la/ era dur+ :i* ! eight wild bea/s rule ! e>?4 ,( ,*ri/ianity no trace is to be f\nd3 p[]1 weal?1 indu/ry1 art1 sci5ce1 lit]ature1 are 9 ! h&s ( ! pagans4 ,! /ate-craft ( ! wild bea/s is ly+ & =ce1 alt]nat+ ) ! mo/ insidi\s hypocrisy4 ,!y prea* peace1 di/ribute peace-prizes1 build peace-palaces1 b are always seek+ w> 9 ord] to be able to rob & tyrannise4 ,if _! subord9ates believe !m1 & prea* peace !mselves1 !y are ?r[n into prison4 ,b1 says ,/4 ,john1 nations w come f ! ,ea/ & de/roy ! godless :o h reject$ ,*ri/4 ,! la/ battle is to be at ,megiddo 9 ,syria4 ,b s9ce all ?is takes place "u ,god's control1 ! wild bea/s are protect$ 9 ord] to c>ry out _! "w ( execution4 ,! numb] ( ! la/ wild bea/1 #fff1 is n yet int]pret$1 = x is n yet come4 ,! eight wild bea/s y c f9d 9 a book1 :i* is call$ ,a de ,g2#a ( ! p ( ! ,ea/ y read e morn+ 9 y\r pap]4 ,x looks almo/ z ?\gh x 7 true4 ,! pieti/s believe x1 & keep _! lamps burn+4' ,deaf & ,bl9d4--,! tea*] cont9u$3 ,"u ! rule ( ! wild bea/ m5 h become demoralis$4 ,!y reject e idea ( a retributive ju/ice4 ,if anyone po9ts to an in/ance ( x1 he is suppress$4 ,if a blasphem] loses 8 tongue1 !y call x ',act9omyces1' no?+ m4 ,& ! ob/9acy ( ! unrep5tant revolts aga9/ heav5 itself3 ',x is s f> to heav52 :at d we "k ab\t x8 ,we are ants2 no ,god tr\bles himself ab\t u4' ,if some?+ good happ5s to a man1 he attributes x to 8 own p[]2 if some?+ evil1 he calls x 'bad-luck4' ,sci5ce expla9s e>?quakes by algebra1 & if x wants to be v le>n$1 by seismology4 ,! quantity ( crime & wick$ness :i* mu/ exi/ is fix$ by /ati/ics4 ,& yet heav5 is s ne>4 ,god's invisible s]vants are ar\nd u1 9 ! /reets & 9 our rooms4 ,we d n see !m1 b ^? :o h eyes1 & only !y1 behold _! op]ations4 ,! _w is l a va/ in/itute = ! deaf & bl9d1 9 :i* ! un=tunates are told by _! tea*]s t !y are ! only ones :o c see & he>4 ,! !osophi/s say t we are already liv+ two lives--a consci\s "o on ! e>?1 & an unconsci\s "o above4 ,b mo/ m5 seem to h brok5 (f communication ) ! high] plane1 & !re=e !y _c compreh5d :at is f above1 b h discov]$ t !re is no high] & no l[] 9 ! univ]se4 ,footnote #a3 ,n expla9$ 9 orig9al footnote4 ,recollections4--,! pupil said3 ,(t5 has my exp]i5ce confirm$ ?is say+ ( ! !osophi/s1 t1 z well z "h1 we live also on a high] plane f :5ce we receive our inspirations1 ideas1 & intuitions4 ,aft] su* visitations 7d !y take place by night87 ,i d n fl\ri% d[n "h1 b f9d ev]y?+ p]v]se1 defective1 absurd4 ,i once conceiv$ ! /range idea t ,i h my true home some:]e else1 & t a vague recollection has made me give my pres5t home an arrangem5t simil> to t ( my real "o4 ,9 my pres5t abode !re 0 a room :i*1 aft] c]ta9 /orms t la/$ = two ye>s1 0 s deva/at$ t x look$ z if devils _h haunt$ x4 ,!n a sum ( money came into my h&s unexpect$ly4 ,! next morn+ ,i awoke ) ! di/9ct det]m9ation to repair & furni% ! room4 ,i w5t at once to ! uphol/]]1 & knew s exactly :at furniture & curta9s ,i want$1 t :5 ,i saw ! mat]ial x look$ to me famili> & welcome4 ,a workman came1 prov$ hone/1 work$ quietly l a _s1 & 9 a few days ! room 0 ready4 ,:5 ,i ent]$ x1 ,i 0 seiz$ ) a sort ( ec/atic %iv] z ?\gh ,i _h already se5 ?is room once be=e "u happy circum/ances4 ,& n[ :5 ,i ent] ! room alone1 ,i see x resembles some?+ :i* ,i d n rememb]1 b :i* waits = me4 ,i seem to "k t !re ,i am wait$ = by my only true wife1 by my *ildr51 fri5ds & relations1 & t ?is incomplet5ess ,i see is only a poor copy drawn f a dim recollection4 ,?9k1 if x only 7 s6 ,*ildr5 ,are ,wond]-,*ildr54--,! tea*] answ]$3 ,:at y say accords ) ,plato's !ory ( recollection4 ,he believes t all :i* a *ild le>ns is recov]$ f "s previ\s k4 ,dur+ my long exp]i5ce x has (t5 happ5$ to me to meet p :o1 ! fir/ "t ,i saw !m1 seem$ l old acqua9tances4 ,x seems1 too1 t ! woman we love appe>s cong5ial to u1 made = u1 s5t 9 our way4 ,b mo/ ( all is ?is ! case ) our *ildr54 ,all *ildr5 are1 9 spite ( idle talk1 wond]-*ildr5--till !y h le>nt to talk4 ,little *ildr5 (t5 say ?+s :i* a/\nd "o4 ,!y und]/& all t we say ev5 :5 we hide x f !m4 ,!y seem to be ?\ght-read]s1 div9e our mo/ secret purposes1 & rebuke u be=eh&4 ',don't d t1' said my two-ye>-old *ild be=e my plan 0 half =m$4 ',:at8' ,i ask$4 ,! *ild did n answ]1 b smil$ rogui%ly & half emb>rass$1 z ?\gh x wi%$ to say1 ',y "k y\rself already4' ,:5 ! *ild _h le>nt to be sil5t1 x pu%$ ) its foot aga9/ ! *air :5 ! p>5ts' talk bord]$ on impropriety4 ,(t5 x spoke l an eld] p]son :o und]/&s ?+s bett] ?an o!rs4 ,at ?ree ye>s old x pron\nc$ ?is op9ion on ! nurse1 ',hannah is v nice1 b %e does n und]/& h[ to treat *ildr54' ,:5 h] "m 0 sad1 x said1 ',sit d[n "h & don't be sad2 ,i w tell y a /ory4' ,i w only add--!re 0 no mimicry ab\t x1 z ! ape-k+ w\ld be incl9$ to believe4 ,:at 0 x !n8 ,m5-resembl+ ,m54--,! tea*] said3 ,x seems z ?\gh "s errors 7 necess>y & unavoidable4 ,!y appe> z a k9d ( infecti\s virus4 ,a g5]ation is inoculat$ ) x1 c>ries ! g]m till x has spr\t$1 & !n !re is an end ( x4 ,views ( ! _w & man come up1 are dissem9at$1 evaporat$1 & disappe>4 ,b ^? :o h be5 inoculat$ ) !m believe !y are _! own views1 because !y h assimilat$ !m ) _! p]sonality4 ,(t5 ! error ends 9 a compromise ) a new view4 ,?us ,d>w9ism made x seem probable t m5 d]iv$ _! orig9 f animals4 ,!n came ! !osophi/s ) ! op9ion t our s\ls are 9 process ( transmigration f "o human body to ano!r4 ,!nce comes ?is excessive feel+ ( discom=t1 ?is long+ = deliv]ance1 ?is s5sation ( con/ra9t1 ! pa9 ( exi/5ce1 ! sigh+ ( ! creature4 ,^? :o d n feel ?is uneas9ess1 b fl\ri% "h1 are probably at home "h4 ,_! inexplicable sympa?y = animals & _! disbelief 9 ! immortality ( ! s\l po9ts to a connection ) ! l[] =ms ( exi/5ce ( :i* !y are consci\s1 & :i* we _c d5y4 ,! doctr9e t we are creat$ aft] ,god's image involves no contradiction1 = ! _s is f ,god2 b !re is no ^w :i* fright5s ^! an?ropomorphi/s s mu* z ! ^w '_s4' ,yes1 !re is "o1 & t is ! ^w 'spirits1' :i* makes ! fle%y "p ( !m %udd]4 ,*ri/ ,is ,ris54--,! tea*] said3 ,aft] we h _h ,*ri/ianity z a civilis+ ag5cy = n9ete5 hundr$ ye>s1 p beg9 to discuss x4 ,is ?is ! opportune "t to ask :e!r ,*ri/ has exi/$ & :e!r ! docum5ts ( ,*ri/ianity are g5u9e8 ,x rem9ds "o ( ! au?or :o wrote a book to prove t ,napoleon nev] exi/$4 ,x is z if we 7 n[ to discov] t ,cs>'s ,comm5t>ies are false1 & t he nev] conqu]$ ,gaul1 or z if we discuss$ :e!r ! discov]y ( ,am]ica _h be5 useful4 ,ibs5's p>tisans h d5i$ t ,columbus discov]$ ,am]ica2 !y say x 0 ,leif ,erikss5 7p]haps we %all soon he> x 0 8 wife74 ,h[ev]1 ,*ri/ return$ aga9 at ! end ( ! la/ c5tury1 & 0 receiv$ by all4 ,! pagans depict$ him z ! poor s*ool-tea*]2 ! an>*i/s celebrat$ him z ! type ( suff]+ humanity2 ! symboli/s did homage to him z ,*ri/us ,consolator2 ! sociali/s prea*$ 8 gospel to ! obscure1 ! we>y1 & heavy-lad54 ,he 0 to be se5 e-:]e--9 ! qu>t]s ( ! ,fr5* g5]al /aff & 9 ! espionage (fice2 9 ,l\rdes & 9 ,rome2 on ,mont ,m>tre & 9 ,mosc[4 ,8 *ur*es & conv5ts 7 purifi$2 8 miracles expla9$ by occulti/s1 spiriti/s1 hypnoti/s2 sci5ce progress$ & confirm$ ! prophecies4 ,f9ally we saw at ! congress ( religions 9 ,*icago 9 #ahig t all peoples & religions ( ! _w b5t _! knees :5 ,*ri/'s especial pray]1 ! ,"l's ,pray]1 0 recit$4 ,!n ! believ]s gave ea* o!r ! bro!rly kiss & greet+1 ',*ri/ is ris56' ,revolution-,%eep4--,! tea*] cont9u$3 ,9 ! ye> #ahhi we celebrat$ ! ,fr5* ,revolution1 b !re 0 little life or ord] 9 ! celebration4 ,ev]y?+ :i* 0 uproot$ 9 #aghi /ill exi/$--,*ur* & ,/ate1 k+s & c\rts1 prie/s & (ficials4 ,! ,fr5* republic 0 ! wor/ ( all1 ) its ,panama ,canal jobb]s at ! head3 ,wilson1 ,h]z1 ,clem5ceau1 ,arton4 ,! con/itution 0 kept alive by bribes1 bills ( ex*ange m or less false1 & p5sions4 ,(fices 7 creat$ 9 ord] to f9d places = vot]s1 husb&s ( mi/resses1 & ! discont5t$4 ,at t "t ! ,fr5* republic 0 gov]n$ by crim9als1 & ! ,*ur* by pagans4 ,milit>y & civil ord]s 7 sold1 works ( art b\ght1 votes canvass$ =4 ,"o c\ld n become a deputy = less ?an two hundr$ ?\s& francs4 ,!n execution]s & revolutions 7 necess>y1 = ! pr9ciples ( ! ,great ,revolution1 if "o c talk ( pr9ciples 9 connection ) a volcano 9 eruption1 7 =gott54 ,n[ 9 ! p]spective ( a hundr$ ye>s ! ',great' ,revolution appe>$ only l an execution1 a decimation on a l>ge scale2 an exp]im5t ) negative results1 b z su* c]ta9ly v int]e/+4 ,"o ( ! recollections ( my y\? is t :5 we ':o 7 born ) ! ideas ( ! ,fr5* ,revolution' 7ideas reviv$ 9 #ahdh7 began to talk ( ! ',great' ,revolution1 we 7 call$ ',revolution-%eep4' ,i did n und]/& ?is at ! "t1 = ,i did n yet ?9k = myself b m]ely drivell$4 ,b n[ ,i und]/& x4 ,n[ we "k t ! con/itution ( a c\ntry is almo/ a matt] ( indiff]5ce = ! common weal2 ?us "o con/itution is n mu* bett] or worse ?an ano!r4 ,life ,wov5 ( ! ,same ,/uff z our ,dreams--,! tea*] said3 ,life itself c (t5 appe> l a bad dream4 ,"o morn+ ,i w5t = a walk 9 ! c\ntry1 & 0 absorb$ 9 my ?\ghts1 :5 a great ,dani% dog ru%$ t[>ds me4 ,a "y rascal /ood ne>1 laugh+4 ,i drew my revolv]1 & exclaim$1 ',call (f ! dog1 or ,i %oot x4' ,! "y fell[ only laugh$1 ! dog retreat$1 & ,i w5t on4 ,on my way back1 a man arm$ ) a musket met me1 & ask$ h[ ,i d>$ ?reat5 to %oot 8 son4 ,i answ]$1 t ! ?reat _h only ref]r$ to ! dog4 ,on ! ev5+ ( ! same day ,i 0 told t ! dog _h be5 f\nd dead1 & t ,i 0 suspect$ ( hav+ poison$ x4 ,al?\gh ,i 0 innoc5t1 ,i 0 reg>d$ z an assass94 ,t 0 a nice bus9ess6 ,aga93 "o ev5+ ,i w5t to see my f\r-ye>-old daught]1 :o wait$ = me bel[ 9 ! p>k4 ,f ! di/ance ,i saw h] 9 ! company ( two unpleasant-look+ *ildr51 b %e did n see me4 ,z ,i quick5$ my /eps1 ,i saw t %e w5t (f f>!r ) ! *ildr54 ,i call$ h]1 b %e did n he>4 ,i ran & saw h] at ! entrance ( a cell>1 into :i* ! *ildr5 want$ to pull h] d[n4 ,%e resi/$ !m1 b !y took hold ( h] clo!s4 ,n[ %e scream$1 & consequ5tly did n he> my call4 ,i wi%$ to ha/5 to h]1 b betwe5 u !re 0 a grass lawn1 ) an iron rail+ r\nd x1 on :i* ,i did n v5ture to tread = fe> ( ! police4 ,s ,i /ood !re & call$4 ,at la/ my *ild pull$ h]self free1 b did n see me4 ,s weirdly ?+s may happ5 sometimes6 ,! ,gospel ( ! ,pagans4--,! tea*] cont9u$3 ,! gospel ( ! pagans is immunity f puni%m5t2 if "o m5tions a case :]e x has gone ill ) a sc\ndrel1 ! pagans snort & say "o is too sev]e4 ,b x is life :i* is sev]e4 ,! gospel ( ! pagans consi/s 9 %[+ t virtue is simplicity & is s$uc$2 t religion is a disease2 t sc\ndrelism is a =m ( /r5g?1 & ought to conqu] by ! "r ( ! /rong]4 ,sometimes1 by way ( a *ange1 !y dem& t a weak rascal %\ld be p>don$2 t ev]y?+ %\ld be =giv5 & tol]at$4 ,by 'tol]ation' !y mean t "o %\ld let oneself be suppress$ & p]secut$ by !m4 ,if "o resi/s1 !y cry1 ',he rev5ges himself4 ,he is a bad man4' ,b rev5ge presupposes "s (f5ce z ! cause1 & :5 ! cause disappe>s ! effect disappe>s4 ,c]ta9ly !re are "s m5 :o av5ge _! own /upidity on ! innoc5t4 ,i h an enemy1 :o /ill rev5ges himself on me because he c\ld n /eal my money4 ,! gospel = him w\ld be ! law rev]s$1 ',y may /eal1 b o!rs may n4' ,puni%$ by ! ,imag9ation4--,! tea*] cont9u$3 ,sw$5borg speaks ( be+ puni%$ by ! imag9ation4 ,t is :at doctors g5]ally call 'halluc9ation4' ,he :o suff]s f p]secution-mania is p]secut$4 ,! ,phili/9es ?9k he is only p]secut$ by 8 imag9ations1 b if ! wise man asks :y he is p]secut$ by 8 imag9ations1 consci5ce answ]s by ceaselessly endeav\r+ to discov] ! p]secutor4 ,! pati5t goes ?r\gh ! :ole li/ ( ! p]sons :om he has (f5d$4 ,if !y are _m 9 numb]1 & _! hatr$ is ju/ifi$1 "o may well suppose t ! sick man is p]secut$ by _! hatr$1 = :i* 8 awak5$ consci5ce is n[ receptive4 ,9 my inn] life puni%m5t by halluc9ations has play$ ! *ief "p2 b aft] ,i _h discov]$ ! rationale ( x1 ,i reg>d$ ! halluc9ation itself z a puni%m5t4 ,! sev]e/ =m ( puni%m5t is suspicion1 :5 ,i am oblig$ to suspect ! innoc5t4 ,t is irresi/ible4 ,my ?\ghts sway betwe5 tru/ & mi/ru/4 ,i /ruggle & conqu] myself gradually1 ei!r by ackn[l$g+ myself wrong1 or by accept+ ! brea* ( fai? resign$ly4 ,b if ,i give v5t to suspicion ,i mu/ ask = p>don2 !n ,i take ?is humiliation z a dis*>ge4 ,mo/ ( my mis=tunes h be5 imag9>y2 b !y h _h ! same effect z real ones1 because ,i came to ! consci\sness ( my own wrong-do+4 ,! incurable man is ! ob/9ate "o :o believes himself wrongfully p]secut$ by o!r m54 ,bankruptcy ( ,philosophy4--,:5 ,kant dur+ ! d>k p]iod ( ! ',illum9ation' _h prov$ t philosophy c prove no?+1 he set up ! !ory ( ! categorical imp]ative & po/ulate1 i4e4 ! dem&s ( religion & morality4 ,put 9 pla9 language1 t is equival5t to fai?4 ,?is decl>ation ( ! bankruptcy ( philosophy sav$ m5 f useless bra9-cudgell+4 ,*ri/ianity reviv$1 n[ support$ by ! philosoph]s ) ,hegel at _! head4 ,b ! old /ream fl[$ p>allel ) x once m4 ,9 spite ( ! bankruptcy ( philosophy1 notes ( ex*ange 7 issu$ & ca%$ by ! dund]-head$ free-?9k]s ,feu]ba* & ,/rauss4 ,!y want$ to approa* ,god ) ! ev]yday intellig5ce :i* "o uses 9 kit*5s & groc]s' %ops4 ,! la/ fool 0 ,r5an1 ^: *eques /ill circulate mo/ly among college-/ud5ts & ! l4 ,at ! beg9n+ ( ! la/ c5tury ,e4,t4,a4 ,h(fmann wrote ?us3 ',9 anci5t times we _h a simple g5]\s fai?2 we recognis$ t !re 0 a ,high]1 b knew also t our s5ses 7 insuffici5t to rea* x4 ,!n came ! ,illum9ation1 :i* made ev]y?+ s cle>1 t = %e] cle>ness n a trace c\ld be se54 ,& n[ we are told t ! sup]natural is to be grasp$ by a firm arm ( fle% & bone4' ,to-day x is call$ ! ,sci5ce ( ,religion4 ,t is a sci5ce :i* />ts f ! false presupposition t religion is a m5tal disease because x _c be ma!matically prov$4 ,a ,:ole ,life 9 an ,h\r4--,! tea*] said3 ,i _h a /range exp]i5ce1 :i* ,i h n und]/ood1 b :i* ,i mu/ rememb]4 ,i woke up "o morn+ feel+ *e]ful )\t any special reason4 ,obey+ an impulse1 ,i w5t into ! t[n4 ,z ,i w&]$ ab\t at r&om1 ,i came into ! qu>t] :]e ,i _h be5 born & br\ght up4 ,i saw ! k9d]g>t5 & s*ool ,i us$ to att5d1 & my p>5ts' h\se4 ,i w5t ?r\gh n>r[ /reets & pass$ by ! national s*ool 9 :i* ,i 0 worri$ z a /ud5t-tea*]4 ,i saw two diff]5t h\ses 9 :i* ,i _h suff]$ z a private tutor4 ,i w5t nor?w>ds & came to ano!r s*ool 9 :i* ,i _h be5 tortur$4 ,9 a m>ket-place ,i pass$ ano!r h\se 9 :i*1 dur+ my *ildhood1 our only acqua9tance liv$1 & tw5ty ye>s lat] 9 ! same dwell+ !re liv$ my wor/ enemy4 ,i pass$ by a h\se 9 :i* my si/] _h be5 m>ri$ ?irty ye>s be=e1 & ano!r h\se 9 :i* my bro!r _h _h a h>d /ruggle4 ,!n ,i came to a ?ird s*ool 9 :i* ,i 0 a /ud5t2 9 ! same h\se lives /ill my fir/ & la/ publi%]4 ,i pass$ by a h\se :]e1 =ty ye>s ago1 ,i 0 accept$ z an aspirant = ! /age1 & :]e ,i (f]$ my fir/ drama2 also by ! h\se :]e ,i 0 m>ri$ = ! fir/ "t4 ,!n ! mean+ ( x began to gr[ cle>]4 ,i saw ! furniture w>eh\se :5ce ,i ord]$ my furniture ! la/ "t4 ,i pass$ by ! h\se :]e my wife & *ild liv$ ?ree ye>s ago4 ,9 ! space ( "o h\r ,i _h se5 ! panorama ( my :ole life 9 liv+ pictures4 ,only ?ree ye>s 7 want+ to ! pres5t "t4 ,x 0 l an agony or a dea?-h\r :5 ! :ole ( life ru%es pa/ "o4 ,!n ,i felt drawn nor?w>d :]e my la/ *ild & h] "m live4 ,an in/9ct told me to br+ p]fume = ! "m & s*ool-fees = ! *ild1 z t day x 0 go+ to ! k9d]g>t5 = ! fir/ "t4 ,!n ,i began to hunt = ! p]fume2 x ought to h be5 lilac1 b ,i _h to take lily-(-!-valley4 ,i also want$ fl[]s1 b c\ld n f9d any4 ,s ,i cont9u$ nor?w>ds & came to _! h\se2 ! sun %one 91 ! table 0 spread = c(fee2 !re 0 an air ( com=t1 homel9ess1 & k9dness ov] all4 ,i 0 receiv$ 9 a fri5dly way1 felt 9 a mom5t t ! :ole ( my black life lay beh9d me1 & realis$ ! happ9ess ( m]ely be+ alive4 ,! ,aft]-,od\r4--,! tea*] cont9u$3 ,z ,i w5t !nce1 ,i felt ! happ9ess ( ! pres5t4 ,all ! pa/ 0 only ! d>k backgr\nd4 ,i 0 ?ankful 9 my he>t1 :5 ,i rememb]$ all ,i _h come ?r\gh )\t p]i%+4 ,:5 ,i came home1 ,i le>nt ?r\gh ! telephone t my wor/ enemy _h di$ on ! morn+ ( ?is v day4 ,8 dea?-/ruggle 0 tak+ place at ! v "t t ,i made ! pilgrimage ?r\gh my pa/ life4 ,i reflect$3 ,:y %\ld ,i pass ?r\gh my agony j :5 he di$8 ,he 0 a 'black man'#a ) an obsolete mat]iali/ic view ( ?+s :i* he ?\ght 0 mod]n2 a lit]>y huck/] :o wrote reviews ( m>*ionesses' rubbi%y books1 9 ord] to be invit$ to _! ca/les1 & prais$ 8 associates z long z !y consort$ ) him2 ! p>tisan ( a cot]ie & a log-roll]4 ,i _h nev] come into p]sonal contact ) him1 b once1 a long "t ago1 he _h call$ himself my pupil4 ,he c\ld n h[ev] gr[1 nor foll[ me upw>ds4 ,x 0 n[ z ?\gh my old self _h di$ 9 him4 ,p]haps !re=e ,i suff]$ 8 dea? & felt x j n[4 ,b :y ! p]fume8 ,t ,i "k n4 ,b :5 ,i le>nt t ! deceas$ decompos$ s rapidly t he _h to be buri$ at once1 ,i c\ld n help connect+ ! p]fume ) 8 dissolution4 ,:51 eight days aft]w>ds1 ,i read a po/hum\s review by ! deceas$ ( my la/ "w1 & saw t he regrett$ t ,i 0 n a pagan & lam5t$ my defection f ! ,"l ( ,dung1 x 0 z ?\gh ,i sniff$ an aft]-od\r f ! dunghole1 & ,i seiz$ ! p]fume-flask 9 good e>ne/4 ,footnote #a3 ,/r9db]g's expression = a free-?9k]4 ,pea*es & ,turnips4--,! tea*] cont9u$3 ,at ! same "t a simil> dea? happ5$4 ,ano!r ( ! ',black ,flags' dep>t$ "u peculi> circum/ances two days aft] ! fir/4 ,i _h kn[n ?is man dur+ ! p]iod 9 :i* ! ape-k+ rul$4 ,we did n l ea* o!r1 b l condemn$ crim9als 7 compell$ to keep toge!r4 ,our fri5d%ip 0 only ! rev]se-side ( a hatr$2 8 hide\s appe>ance fright5$ me2 8 pr(ession 0 equally repulsive1 b br\ght 9 mu* money4 ,he wrote accord+ to ! ta/e ( ! "t1 & liv$ 9 ! false idea t he 0 'illum9at$' & lib]al-m9d$4 ,:5 8 fa!r di$1 ! son express$ 8 regret t '8 fa!r _h recov]$ ! fai? ( 8 *ildhood4' ,:at happ5$ !n8 ,! son :o liv$ 9 fai? 9 wick$ness & ugl9ess1 began to develop ?is fai? 9 a peculi> way4 ,he _h 9 8 writ+s %[n a pr$ilection = turnips2 9 8 latt] days he inoculat$ pea*es ) turnip-juice 9 ord] to make ! s\!rn fruit p>take ( ! beautiful flav\r ( ! latt]4 ,! same p]v]se ta/e 0 evid5t 9 8 la/ book2 !re 8 sympa?y is decid$ly on ! side ( ! 'blacks4' ,he end$ 9 an asylum4 ,he c\ld n be sav$1 = he did n "k h[ to seek ! ,savi\r4 ,s he di$4 ,i _h j regrett$ n hav+ s5t "s fl[]s to 8 grave1 :5 ,i saw 9 an obitu>y notice t ! dead man _h v5t$ a noisome lie aga9/ me1 :i* a bosom fri5d ( 8 n[ repeats 9 pr9t4 ,9 ! same notice ! _w is ?reat5$ ) 8 po/hum\s writ+s4 ,:5 !y come out1 ,i w buy a fl[] & hold x "u my nose1 :ile ,i brea! a sigh ( gratitude to him1 :o re/or$ to me ! fai? ( my *ildhood & sav$ me f ! mad-h\se4 ,! ,web ( ,lies4--,! pupil said3 ,i am eight-&-fifty ye>s old2 h li$ less ?an o!rs2 & h !re=e always believ$ :at o!rs said4 ,:51 9 my old age1 ,i sit toge!r ) fri5ds ( my y\? & make comp>isons1 ,i f9d t my :ole life is a web ( lies4 ,la/ night ,i sat ) su* a fri5d1 & _h a protract$ talk ( ! foll[+ intellig5t k9d4 ,i said1 ',:5 ! ,pr9ce ( ,x4 m>ri$4444' ',m>ri$6 ,he isn't m>ri$4' ',isn't he8 ,is t a lie too8' ',he has nev] be5 m>ri$4' ',n[ dur+ tw5ty ye>s ,i h spread x abroad t he 0 m>ri$1 & a :ole /ory has be5 built on ?is lie1 :i* ,i 0 ab\t to relate1 b n[ ,i mu/ drop x4' ,"h is ano!r lie6 ,dur+ ?irty ye>s ,i h told p t ,dr4 ,h4 0 pres5t :5 ! ,malung] murd]] 0 execut$4 ,he _h falsely in=m$ me t1 z a m$ical /ud5t1 he _h receiv$ a commission to exam9e ! head aft] x _h be5 cut (f4 ,he gave me su* int]e/+ details on ! subject t ,i 0 accu/om$ to describe !m 9 company4 ,:at a li> he 06 ',b he 0 !re4' ',0 he !re8' ',c]ta9ly2 ,i saw him /&+ beh9d ! prie/ :5 ,i took a photograph ( ! scaffold4' ',y8 ,h y 444 ,are y ly+ or is he8' ',i am n4' ',no2 n[ ,i don't "k :]e ,i am4 ,ev]y?+ is topsy-turvy4 ,= ! la/ t5 ye>s ,i h retract$ ! lie :i* ,i _h spread4 ,i h made ,dr4 ,h4 a li>6 ,"o ought nev] to speak or write1 b only draw ! ?+s :i* "o absolutely ne$s4 ,he 0 !n really !re6 ,h[ c ,i re/ore to him 8 hon\r1 ( :i* ,i h robb$ him8' ,le!4--,! tea*] answ]$3 ,?is :ole web ( lies1 errors1 misund]/&+s1 :i* =ms ! basis ( our lives1 trans=ms life itself into some?+ dreamlike & unreal1 & mu/ be dissolv$ :5 we pass into ! o!r life4 ,i read to-day ( a dy+ man4 ,in/ead ( see+ 8 life pass by him1 z is usually ! case1 8 :ole life dissolv$ into a cl\d2 8 memory fail$2 all bitt]ness & all tr\ble disappe>$2 & on ! o!r h&1 all 8 disappo9t$ hopes assum$ an aspect ( reality4 ,he ?\ght he 0 lov$ by 8 wife1 :o _h be5 cold to him2 he ?ank$ h] = all ! t5d]ness :i* %e _h nev] %[n him4 ,! *ildr5 :o _h des]t$ him he saw aga9 9 ! bright light ( y\?2 he seem$ to he> ! s\nd ( little feet ^u ! floor1 ! *>act]i/ic ( a happy home1 & 8 face wore a happy smile4 ,! d>k autumn wea!r outside *ang$ into spr+2 little girls h&$ him roses to kiss 9 ord] to en*ance _! value4 ,f9ally he saw himself & 8 family 9 an arb\r dr9k+ c(fee out ( ,dresd5 *9a cups1 into :i* !y dipp$ yell[ saffron-cakes4444 ,!n he fell into 8 la/ sleep4 ,x 0 a beautiful & enviable dea?2 x 0 p>adise4 ,f ! anci5t ,le! he drank =getfulness ( ! tr\bles he _h und]gone be=e he trod ! ,elysian fields4 ,if x only 7 s6 ,to drag all "o's bygone fil? ) "o 9 memory _c be fav\rable to a new life 9 purity4 ,!re are illnesses 9 :i* "o loses memory4 ,may dea? prove to be su* an illness6 ,a ,suff]+ ,god4--,! tea*] said3 ,! idea ( a suff]+ ,god 0 fooli%ness to ! ,greeks1 :o consid]$ a ,god z a tyrant gloat+ ov] ! suff]+s ( m54 ,b ! seem+ contradiction is solv$ if "o supposes t a ,holy ,be+ deposits itself1 s to speak1 9 humanity1 & t humanity !n becomes defil$4 ,t is a b\ndless grief l 8 :o has deposit$ ! be/ "p ( 8 s\l & 8 emotions ) a woman4 ,if %e !n goes & defiles h]self1 %e defiles h] husb&4 ,or a fa!r's nature has pass$ ov] to 8 *ildr51 & he wi%es to see 8 be/ impulses cont9u$ & multipli$ by !m1 & 8 lik5ess ennobl$4 ,if ! *ildr5 di%on\r !mselves1 ! fa!r suff]s2 ! /em )]s :5 ! roots are injur$4 ,su* ,i imag9e to be ! feel+s ( ,god ! ,fa!r :5 ! s9fulness ( humanity gr[s noisome & di%on\rs ,him1 & p]haps ?reat5s to affect ,8 own hol9ess4 ,he w be wro? & lam5t--p]haps ev5 feel ,himself defil$--r ?an cut (f ! canc]\s limb ( humanity4 ,*ri/ is no m repres5t$ z beautiful1 b ) features di/ort$ by ! s9s ( o!rs2 ^! he has tak5 on himself or drawn to himself1 = he :o approa*es pit* is defil$4 ,9 ord] to be free f ! impure elem5t he mu/ die by ! de/ruction ( ! body4 ,inc>nation involv$ ! greate/ suff]+ ( all4 ,b ! dea? ( ,*ri/ may also signify t ! ,fa!r fre$ himself f ! s9s ( humanity1 & broke (f connection ) ! evil race :o di%on\r$ ,him4 ,he :o w n[ seek ,him mu/ rise to ,8 heights1 & ga9 admission by a pure life4 ,he ,himself w desc5d no m into ?is valley ( fil?2 ! air is too ?ick1 ! company too mix$4 ,& t is :y ?+s are z !y are4 ,! ,atonem5t4--,! tea*] said3 ,! "w ( ! ,atonem5t has be5 v difficult = me to und]/&4 ,(t5 ,i h tri$ to expla9 9 a way satisfactory to myself1 b )\t success4 ,if ,god _h (f]$ up ,8 ,son z an atonem5t = mank9d1 !re w\ld necess>ily h be5 peace & p>adisal quietness on e>?1 b su* is n ! case4 ,! p]iod ( ! ,roman emp]ors be=e ,*ri/ 0 inde$ t]rible1 b ! next ?\s& ye>s 7 no bett]2 !y r resembl$ a deluge 9 :i* ! old nations 7 ext]m9at$ by b>b>ians4 ,! second mill5nium 0 bett]1 v mu* bett]4 ,! ?ird w p]haps close ) a complete reconciliation betwe5 humanity & ,god4 ,ev]y?+ po9ts to t1 ?\gh ! hea!n may reign = a :ile z in/rum5ts ( *a/isem5t1 & execution]s & possessors ( weal?4 ,! ,egyptian has an important "p to play1 & slav]y is n bad z a s*ool ( discipl9e4 ,9 ! des]t "o le>ns ! difficult art ( lonel9ess1 & 9 ! /range l& ( ,assyria "o feels a :olesome home-sickness4 ,/ill1 :5 ! ,egyptian raises 8 /ick to /rike1 com=t y\rself ) ,*ri/'s words to ,pilate1 ',?\ w\lde/ h no p[] ov] ,me1 if x 7 n giv5 !e f above4' ,& :5 y eat ! bread ( ! hea!n1 ?9k l ! ,maccabees1 ',i eat ?y bread1 b ,i d n sacrifice ^u ?y alt>4' ,ev]y?+ is tol]able s long z we d n let ourselves be beguil$ into believ+ t ^? :o are 9 p[] are ,god's fri5ds & fav\rites4 ,our f9e g5tlem5 :o imag9e t !y are =w>d+ developm5t & are ! sole tru/ees ( "r1 progress1 & illum9ation1 are only *ildr5 ( ?is _w4 ,let t be grant$ !m1 & mu* good may x d !m6 ,:5 ,nations ,g ,mad4--,! tea*] said3 ,nations are sometimes seiz$ by madness z by o!r diseases4 ,! ,javanese are said to suff] f *ronic madness2 ! m5 run amuck ) a knife 9 ord] to slay2 ! wom5 suff] f a mania = mimicry2 if !y see anyone ?r[ some?+ into ! air1 !y imitate ! ge/ure2 !y c ev5 "u su* circum/ances ?r[ _! *ildr5 away4 ,! ,japanese aga9 are attack$ by megalomania2 someone beg9s to %\t1 ',we w conqu] ,*9a6' & 8 cry is tak5 up by ! :ole t[n & ! :ole l&4 ,! ,fr5* 7 rav+ :51 9 #ahgj1 !y sang ',a ,b]l91' & did n ev5 rea* ! ,rh9e4 ,p>is 0 captur$4 ,b ! ,fr5* decl>$ x 0 n captur$1 b _h surr5d]$4 ,:5 ! enemy _h m>*$ 9 peaceably & sp>$ ! t[n1 & aft] peace 0 conclud$ ! ,fr5* set _! own t[n on fire4 ,t 0 madness4 ,!n !y %ot d[n ?irty ?\s& ( _! own c\ntrym51 :ile 9 ! w> itself only eighty ?\s& ,fr5* _h fall54 ,b "s nations are seiz$ by a mania = suicide4 ,i "k a l& f :i* p emigrate at ! rate ( a hundr$ a day2 9 :i* ! only important indu/ry--iron-m9+--is hamp]$ by an export duty2 t is suicide4 ,9 ! same l&1 :]e ! taxes are g5]ally collect$ by levy+ di/ra9ts1 !y vot$ =ty million p\nds = ! army2 b :5 ! mu/]-rolls came to be made up1 ! m5 7 n to be f\nd4 ,9 ! same c\ntry ! ,/ate ma9ta9s a railway ( a hundr$ miles 9 l5g?2 rec5tly ! tra9 came 9 ) "o pass5g]1 ^: j\rney _h co/ ! ,/ate m ?an a ?\s& kronas4 ,t is suicide4 ,! ,poison ( ,lies4--,! tea*] said3 ,let u return to life1 & to m5 :om we ?9k we "k bett] ?an any?+ else1 al?\gh self-k is ! h>de/ ( all4 ,a p]petual accusation :i* p br+ aga9/ ea* o!r is t ( ly+4 ,all lie m or less--by omitt+ pr9cipal po9ts & emphasis+ second>y ones1 or by col\r+ matt]s ( fact4 ,(t5 !y d x ) an excusable purpose2 = in/ance1 :5 a fri5d is be+ spok5 ab\t4 ,b !re are m5 :o seem to be compos$ ( falsehood & deceit4 ,su* are ! li>s f necessity1 :o lie 9 ord] to obta9 some?+2 su*1 too1 are ! li>s f o/5tation1 :o lie 9 ord] to be sup]ior to o!rs1 & to keep !m d[n4 ,"o may be poison$ 9 ! atmosph]e :i* !y spread ar\nd !m4 ,!re is a pair ( li>s :om ,i h nev] se51 b (t5 he>d spok5 ab\t4 ,:5 ,i m]ely he> ab\t !m & _! falsehoods1 ,i feel my bra9 affect$1 & _! poison works telepa?ically on my n]ves4 ,! pair are dogg$ by mis=tune1 & live alone4 ,!y tell ea* o!r lies also1 & pret5d to !mselves t !y are m>tyrs1 al?\gh _! mis=tunes are solely due to _! deceits4 ,!y believe t !y are p]secut$ by m51 :ile1 on ! contr>y1 m5 fly f !m4 ,su* !y h be5 s9ce *ildhood1 & seem unable to *ange4 ,p]haps _! m5dacity is a =m ( puni%m5t1 = '!y t hate ! righte\s %all be guilty4' ,murd]\s ,lies4--,! tea*] cont9u$3 ,:5 "o lives on intimate t]ms ) li>s1 "o runs a risk ( becom+ a li> oneself4 ,"o believes :at !y say1 bases 8 views on _! falsehoods1 spreads _! false reports 9 good fai?1 def5ds _! sophi/ries1 & is entangl$ 9 _! deceits4 ,moreov]1 "o's :ole view ( life is di/ort$1 "o loses contact ) reality1 lives 9 a fictiti\s _w ( feel+1 reg>ds fri5ds z foes & foes z fri5ds1 ?9ks "o is lov$ :ile "o is hat$1 & vice v]sa4 ,on "o occasion a li> ) :om ,i liv$ on intimate t]ms made me ?9k t my la/ book _h be5 a failure4 ,= five ye>s ,i believ$ x1 suff]$ "u ! belief1 & lo/ my c\rage4 ,on my return to ,sw$5 ,i f\nd t ! book _h _h a great success4 ,five ye>s _h be5 /ruck out ( my life2 ,i 0 ne>ly los+ self-respect & ! c\rage to support exi/5ce4 ,t is equival5t to murd]4 ,& ?is behavi\r on ! "p ( my only fri5d1 = :om ,i _h work$ & made sacrifices1 gave me su* a %ock t all my ideas 7 confus$4 ,x took me ye>s to re>range !m & br+ !m into prop] ord]4 ,true & false 7 m+l$ toge!r3 lies became reality1 & my :ole life seem$ z unsub/antial z smoke4 ,i 0 n f> f ru9 & ! loss ( reason4 ,innoc5t ,guilt4--,! tea*] cont9u$3 ,dur+ ! five ye>s 9 :i* ,i believ$ myself unju/ly treat$1 ,i also incurr$ guilt4 ,i _h curs$ ^? :o _h be5 j t[>ds me1 wi%$ evil to my b5efactors1 repell$ my admir]s1 avoid$ my adh]5ts4 ,& :5 ,i %\ld n[ h felt remorse = x1 ,i c\ld n d s s9c]ely4 ,on ! "o h& ,i felt myself innoc5t1 & almo/ ! victim ( ano!r's falsehood4 ,b ! evil :i* ,i _h done 0 !re1 & mu/ be aton$ =4 ,su* tangles are n easy to undo4 ,yet x is n good 9 life to %[ mi/ru/ t[>ds m52 "o mu/ take ?+s easily1 )\t criticism & too c>eful reckon+4 ,! deceiv] says1 to be sure1 ',he :o does n keep a %>p look-out1 has himself to blame if he is *eat$4' ,b if "o does look out1 & w n let oneself be *eat$1 "o is cr$it$ ) a morbid mi/ru/fulness4 ,x is n easy to live1 & among lawless m5 x is bett] to be *eat$ ?an to *eat4 ,! ,talmud says3 ',be r among ^? :o are curs$ ?an ^? :o curse2 r among ! p]secut$ ?an ! p]secutors3 read 9 ! ,scripture1 ,no bird is m p]secut$ ?an ! dove2 yet ,god has *os5 x = a sacrifice on ,8 alt>4' ,! ,*>m ( ,old ,age4--,! tea*] said3 ,! *>ms ( old age are _m4 ,! greate/ is ! consci\sness t x is n long till ev5+ :5 "o c undress & lie d[n1 )\t ! necessity ( ris+ up & dress+ aga94 ,! dim9ution ( ! body's /r5g? less5s its resi/ance to ! free motions ( ! s\l4 ,"o's int]e/ 9 m]ely temporal matt]s decreases1 & "o beg9s to take a bird's-eye view ( ?+s4 ,seem+ly important trifles %r9k to insignificance4 ,old e/imates ( ! values ( ?+s are *ang$4 ,all t "o has exp]i5c$ lies l a litt] ( /raw "u "o's feet2 "o /&s 9 x & gr[s 9 ! mid/ ( "o's pa/4 ,we h f\nd a con/ant amid all v>iables1 t is1 ! in/ability ( life1 ! transitor9ess & mutability ( all ?+s4 ,ev]y?+ is repeat$2 !re are sc>cely any surprises4 ,we "k ev]y?+ be=eh&1 expect no improvem5t1 are no m deceiv$ by false hopes1 dem& no?+ m ( m51 nei!r gratitude1 nor fai?fulness1 nor love1 only "s companion%ip 9 solitude4 ,if we are deceiv$1 we ?9k x is "p ( ! play1 & ev5 f9d a sort ( consolation 9 x1 because x confirms our views1 :i* we d n l to see refut$4 ,we become1 f9ally1 *e]ful pessimi/s4 ,:51 on ! discov]y ( a new *eat1 we c say1 ',:at did ,i tell y8' we feel almo/ a s5se ( pleasure4 ,! ,r+-,sy/em4--,! tea*] said3 ,9 our old s*ools1 ! pupils 7 arrang$ n 9 classes1 b 9 r+s1 & ! =ms 7 n plac$ 9 r[s1 b 9 circles4 ,:5 ,i read ( ! circles ( ,dante's hell1 ,i ?\ght ( my old s*ool4 ,b outside 9 life1 ,i f\nd ?is r+-sy/em also4 ,m5 seem$ l9k$ toge!r 9 conc5tric circles1 ea* ( :i* =m$ a little sy/em ( views4 ,ea* circle spoke its own language1 express$ its mean+ 9 old =mulas1 rev]$ its gods1 creat$ its great m51 (t5 out ( no?+4 ,9 ea* circle !y _h f\nd ! tru?1 & work$ = developm5t1 b 9 a diff]5t way to ! o!rs4 ,! fir/ circle 0 really ! l[e/1 b x consid]$ itself ! mo/ important1 because x 0 ! fir/4 ,:5 ,i read a pap] or a book :i* comes f o!r circles ?an m9e1 ,i only see s mu*--t !y are mad or /& on _! heads4 ,x /ifles me1 & has a ho/ile effect4 ,i surmise t ! five great races ( ! e>? feel t1 :5 !y meet "o ano!r4 ,9 _! m9ds !y are z =eign to ea* o!r z ?\gh !y came f ! five great planets1 al?\gh !y h _m human *>act]i/ics 9 common4 ,lu/1 ,hate1 & ,fe>1 or ! ,religion ( ! ,hea!n4--,! tea*] said3 ,y "k "o ( my tasks 9 life has be5 to unmask gyneolatry1 ! wor%ip ( wom5 9 hi/ory & life4 ,i h call$ x '! sup]/ition ( ! hea!n1' because !re is some?+ exclusively hea!ni% ab\t x4 ,woman-wor%ip is ! religion ( ! hea!n1 b x is a religion ( fe>1 :i* has no?+ to d ) love4 ,lu/1 hate1 & fe>--^? are ! compon5t p>ts ( x4 ,z soon z a hea!n comes 9 ! proximity ( a woman1 he becomes tame & c[>dly2 fai?less t[>ds 8 fri5ds1 8 convictions1 & himself4 ,he imm$iately desires t o!rs %\ld v5]ate 8 idol :om he hates & fe>s4 ,t is a side ( 8 animal self-love4 ,gyneolatry is n ,*ri/ian 9 its orig91 b hea!ni%4 ,all animals & savage races fe> _! wom54 ,:5 hea!nism 9 ! ,grco-,roman & ,moori% colonies ( s\!rn ,france & ,italy got ! upp] h&1 !n began gyneolatry1 ! wor%ip ( mi/resses4 ,?is wor%ip 0 di%one/ly conf\nd$ ) *ivalr\s rev]5ce = ! ,madonna1 :i* 0 q ano!r ?+4 ,?is religion ( ! hea!n is ! religion ( fe> & conceal$ hatr$4 ,!re=e all tyrants h be5 puni%$ by hav+ a woman oppress & torm5t !m4 ,sw$5borg expla9s ! reason4 ,:om ! ,gods ,wi% to ,de/roy4--,! tea*] cont9u$3 ,a man's goodwill & g5]osity t[>ds 8 wife /&s 9 direct relation to h] behavi\r4 ,:5 !re=e a woman is ill-treat$ by h] husb&1 we "k ( :at sort %e is4 ,! app>5tly subord9ate position :i* ! woman occupies is ! direct result ( ! position :i* nature has assign$ to ?is immature transition-=m betwe5 *ild & man4 ,! *ild has also a subord9ate position2 t is q natural1 & no reasonable man has object$ to x4 ,woman is ! e>?-_s :o effectuates a c]ta9 h>mony ) ! e>?-life4 ,to ?is e>?-life we mu/ br+ our sacrifice2 !re=e x is t a man feels at home 9 8 h\se1 & !re=e wife & *ild com=t & protect u aga9/ ! cold ab/raction1 life4 ,m>riage is ! h>de/ s*ool 9 :i* r5unciation & self-conque/ is le>n$2 x is also a =c+-h\se = wick$ness ( all k9ds1 especially ! helli% s9 ( imp]i\sness4 ,h[ l[ ! sons ( ! ,"l ( ,dung /& on ! ladd] ( developm5t may be se5 f _! conviction t !y are only equal to ! woman or subord9ate to h]4 ,bl9d$ by ?is p5al halluc9ation1 !y "w = _! own de/ruction :5 !y battle = ! emancipation ( wom51 = ! gods wi% to de/roy !m4 ,! ,slav]y ( ! ,prophet4--,/u>t ,mill1 :o became ! prophet ( ! woman's cause1 _h =m$ an atta*m5t = ano!r man's wife4#a ,z a puni%m5t he _h to live 9 ! halluc9ation t he d]iv$ all 8 ?\ghts f h]4 ,%e 0 inde$ 8 m$ium1 & z su* %e repeat$ 8 ?\ghts z ?\gh !y came f h]1 & he believ$ %e 0 8 sup]ior4 ,:5 somebody ask$ if he _h receiv$ 8 ',logic1' :i* he wrote be=e he knew h]1 also f h]1 he answ]$1 ',yes4' ,?is sob] ,positivi/1 :o only believ$ 9 tables ( /ati/ics1 0 obsess$ by ! p[]ful delusion t ! simple-m9d$ woman 0 8 ,g5ius4 ,he c\ld n rise to a high] idea ( ,god4 ,"o ?+ ,i am sure (3 z soon z a man des]ts ,god1 he becomes ! ?rall ( a female devil4 ,all tyrants1 above & bel[1 are caught 9 ^! *a9s1 out ( :i* only ,god 9 heav5 c help a man4 ,b ,he c c]ta9ly4 ,"o sees x 9 ^? :o h come alive out ( ?is hell4 ,i "k "o4444 ,i "k two6 ! pupil int]rupt$4 ,footnote #a3 ,mrs4 ,taylor4 ,absurd ,problems4--,! tea*] cont9u$3 ,!re are sev]al reasons :y woman is depict$ z a sph9x by m54 ,%e is incompreh5sible because h] s\l is rudim5t>y1 & %e ?9ks ) h] body4 ,h] judgm5ts are dictat$ by int]e/s & passions1 %e draws conclusions accord+ to ! /ate ( ! wea!r & ! phases ( ! moon4 ,%e w sell h] be/ fri5d = a !atre-ticket1 or leave h] sick *ild to see a balloon asc5d4 ,%e murd]s h] husb& 9 ord] to be able to g to a ba?+-resort1 & =swe>s h] religion = a diamond r+4 ,at ! same "t %e c appe> to be a *>m+ woman1 t5d] t[>ds h] *ildr51 amiable1 & be=e all ?+s polite & affable4 ,%e may also appe> a good h\sehold manag]1 or at any rate enjoy ! reputation ( be+ "o4 ,%e c produce ! illusion t %e is quick at appreh5sion1 al?\gh %e does n really und]/& a ^w4 ,%e c exhibit sacrifices :i* are only o/5tation1 & give away only 9 ord] to receive back4 ,:y _c "o guess ! riddle ( ?is sph9x8 ,because !re is no riddle !re6 ,:y is woman incompreh5sible8 ,because ! problem is absurd4 ,%e is an irrational function because %e op]ates ) v>iable quantities "u ! radical signs4 ,nev]!less we take h] z a *>m+ actuality1 a delightful *ild :o may pull ?ree hairs out ( our be>d2 b if x pulls ! f\r?1 !re is an end to ! en*antm5t4 ,! ,crook$ ,rib4--,! tea*] said3 ,goe! says 9 8 ,divan1#a ',woman is fa%ion$ out ( a crook$ rib2 if "o tries to b5d h]1 %e breaks2 if "o lets h] alone1 %e becomes /ill m crook$4' ,?us !re is no?+ to be done4 ,! only tactics "o c adopt1 z ,napoleon did1 are flight1 or at any rate to break (f contact & intimacy4 ,?is nev] fails2 if "o deprives a woman ( ! victim ( h] hatr$1 %e p9es away4 ,man loves & woman hates2 man gives & woman takes2 man sacrifices & woman dev\rs4 ,:5 ! woman wi%es to %[ h] sup]iority 9 intellect1 %e commits a rascality4 ,h] utmo/ endeav\r is to deceive h] husb&4 ,if %e c trick him into eat+ horse-fle% )\t notic+ x1 %e is happy4 ,:5 woman gets h] milk-tee?1 %e does n le>n to speak b to lie1 = spee* & falsehood are synonym\s = h]4 ,e m>ri$ man kn[s all t4 ,b polit5ess & 8 own vanity keep him sil5t4 ,(t5 he is sil5t because ( 8 *ildr52 (t5 because he is a%am$ 9 ! "n ( humanity4 ,he ?9ks h[ (t5 "o has drunk ! toa/s ( "m1 wife1 si/]1 daught]--^! fictions 9 a _w ( deceit1 :]e all is vanity ( vanities4 ,b _m m5 are sil5t because !y are afraid ( be+ call$ 'woman-hat]s4' ,!y are afraid6 ,footnote #a3 ,! say+ is orig9ally ,muhamm$'s4 ,:ite ,slav]y4--,! tea*] said3 ,9 ! :ole ( ! upp] & middle classes & a good way bel[ !m ! foll[+ is ! case ) reg>d to m>riage3 ,:5 a man m>ries1 8 "w1 :i* he c devolve on no "o else1 increases4 ,8 wife1 on ! o!r h&1 at once gets a s]vant to d h] "w2 if %e has *ildr51 !n %e gets a nurse besides4 ,b %e h]self sits !re )\t occupation1 & tries to kill "t ) useless trivialities4 ,9 ?is way %e c nei!r get an appetite = d9n]1 nor sleep at night4 ,9 ! ev5+ h] husb& comes home1 & wants to enjoy ! dome/ic he>?2 b 8 wife wants to g to ! !atre & re/aurant4 ,%e is n tir$1 b bor$ by want ( occupation1 & !re=e wants amusem5t4 ,wom51 9 fact1 seem n to be born = dome/ic life1 b = ! !atre1 ! re/aurant1 & ! /reet4 ,!re=e wom5 compla9 t !y mu/ sit at home4 ,al?\gh !y h slaves to s]ve !m1 !y call !mselves 'slaves' & hold meet+s to _! own emancipation1 b n t ( _! s]vants4 ,_! animalis$ husb&s support !m )\t obs]v+ t !y !mselves are slaves2 = he :o works = ! idle is a slave4 ,b x is writt51 ',ye are b\ght ) a price2 be slaves to no man4' ,noodles4--,! pupil ask$3 ,:at is a woman-hat]8 ,! tea*] answ]$3 ,i d n "k4 ,b ! expression is us$ z a t]m ( reproa* by noodles1 = ^? :o say :at all ?9k4 ,noodles are ^? m5 :o _c come ne> a woman )\t los+ _! heads & becom+ fai?less4 ,!y pur*ase ! woman's fav\r by deliv]+ up ! heads ( _! fri5ds on silv] *>g]s2 & !y absorb s mu* fem99ity1 t !y see ) fem99e eyes & feel ) fem99e feel+s4 ,!re are ?+s :i* "o does n say e day1 & "o does n tell "o's wife :at h] sex is compos$ (4 ,b "o has ! "r to put x on pap] sometimes4 ,s*op5hau] has done x ! be/1 ,nietzs*e n badly1 ,peladan is ! ma/]4 ,?ack]ay wrote ,m5's ,wives b ! book 0 ignor$4 ,balzac has unmask$ ,c>ol9e 9 ! ,petites ,misres de la vie ,conjugale4 ,otto ,we9+] discov]$ ! deceit at ! age ( tw5ty2 he did n wait = ! consequ5t v5geance1 b w5t 8 own way1 i4e4 di$4 ,i h said t ! *ild is a little crim9al1 incapable ( self-guidance1 b ,i love *ildr5 all ! same4 ,i h said t a woman is--:at %e is1 b ,i h always lov$ "s woman1 & be5 a fa!r4 ,:oev] !re=e calls me a woman-hat] is a blockhead1 a li>1 or a noodle4 ,or all ?ree toge!r4 ,inextricable ,confusion4--,! tea*] cont9u$3 ,if on ! o!r side ( ! grave !re 7 a ,judge ,rhadaman?us appo9t$ to arrange ! disputes ( m51 he w\ld nev] come to an end4 ,life is su* a tissue ( lies1 errors1 misund]/&+s1 ( debts & dem&s1 t a balanc+ ( ! books is impossible4 ,i "k m5 :o h be5 li$ ab\t _! :ole lives ?r\gh4 ,i "k ( "o :o 0 br&$ ?r\gh 8 :ole life ) ! /igma ( a s$uc]1 al?\gh he has nev] s$uc$1 b 0 s$uc$ himself4 ,i "k ( an uncommonly tru?ful man :o _h ! reputation ( be+ a li>4 ,i "k an hon\rable man :o pass$ = a ?ief4 ,i "k a man :o 0 ?ree times m>ri$1 & _h *ildr5 9 all ?ree m>riages1 b 0 said to be no man1 because he1 z a man1 w\ld n be ! slave ( 8 wife4 ,i "k _m :o are s9c]ely religi\s & yet are call$ hypocrites1 al?\gh ! *ief po9t 9 religion is s9c]ity4 ,b1 on ! o!r h&1 ,i "k hea!n :o pr(ess$ to be a!i/s1 al?\gh 9 _! b$*amb]s !y sang p5it5tial psalms :5 !y 7 n]v\s 9 ! d>k & fe>$ ! consequ5ces ( _! misde$s4 ,!y 7 s c[>dly t !y d>$ n fall "u ! suspicion ( be+ religi\s1 b bragg$ ( _! c\rage & /r5g? ( "*4 ,!y w\ld n ab&on ! ,black ,flag2 !y w\ld n be untrue to ! ideal ( _! y\?--godlessness4 ,rascally "r & good-he>t$ /upidity =m a problem too complicat$ = ,rhadaman?us himself to solve4 ,only ! ,crucifi$ c\ld d x ) ! s+le say+ :i* ,he address$ to ! p5it5t ?ief1 ',to-day %alt ?\ be ) ,me 9 ,p>adise4' ,phantoms4--,! tea*] said3 ,:5 intellig5ce & ! p[] ( reflection are matur$1 & "o ?9ks ab\t m51 _! outl9es beg9 to dissolve1 & !y turn into phantoms4 ,inde$1 "o nev] really kn[s a man2 "o kn[s only 8 own1 or o!rs' ideas ( him1 b :5 ^! ideas *ange1 ! image ( him becomes indi/9ct & is obscur$ ) a veil4 ,we =m our conception ( a p]son :om we h nev] se5 accord+ to o!rs' ideas ( him4 ,?us1 = example1 ! p]sonality ( a fam\s pa9t] 0 describ$ to me by an au?or4 ,aft] two ye>s ! au?or _h =m$ ano!r idea ( him1 & imp>t$ t to me1 & ,i _h to alt] my view ( him4 ,!n !re came ano!r describ]1 & gave me q a diff]5t idea ( ! pa9t]4 ,he 0 foll[$ by a ?ird & a f\r?4 ,aft] ?is ,i saw ! pa9t]'s pictures1 & c\ld n und]/& h[ he c\ld pa9t 9 ! way he did4 ,b ! pa9t] himself ,i nev] saw4 ,he has become = me a phantom )\t cle> outl9es1 compos$ ( diff]5t-col\r$ pieces ( glass1 :i* d n h>monise1 & alt] accord+ to my moods4 ,i expect t :5 ,i meet him he w n resemble my idea ( him at all1 b h ! effect ( q ano!r indep5d5t phantom4 ,mirage ,pictures4--,! tea*] said3 ,:5 ,i h liv$ = "s "t 9 solitude my acqua9tances beg9 to appe> l mirage-pictures be=e me4 ,"s ga9 by di/ance1 occasion only fri5dly feel+s1 & are surr\nd$ by an atmosph]e ( light & peace4 ,o!rs :om ,i really l v well :5 !y are ne>1 lose by abs5ce1 & appe> to be ho/ile4 ,?us ,i may hate a fri5d 9 8 abs5ce1 look ^u him z unpleasant & inimical1 b z soon z he comes1 ent] into fri5dly contact ) him4 ,!re is a woman ^: proximity ,i _c be>1 b :om ,i love at a di/ance4 ,we write lett]s to ea* full ( reg>d & fri5dl9ess4 ,:5 we h long$ = ea* o!r = a "t & mu/ meet1 we imm$iately beg9 to qu>rel1 become vulg> & unsympa!tic1 & "p 9 ang]4 ,we love ea* o!r on a high] plane1 b _c live 9 ! same room4 ,we dream ( meet+ aga91 spiritualis$1 on "s gre5 isl&1 :]e only we two c live1 or1 at any rate1 only our *ild ) u4 ,i rememb] a half-h\r :i* we ?ree actually sp5t h& 9 h& on a gre5 isl& by ! sea-coa/4 ,x seem$ to me l heav54 ,!n ! clocks /ruck ! h\r ( noon1 & we 7 back aga9 on e>?1 & soon aft] t1 9 hell4 ,trifle n ) ,love4--,! pupil said3 ,:5 a man & a woman are unit$ 9 love1 a s+le be+ is ! result1 ^: exi/5ce is a positive pleasure1 z long z h>mony reigns4 ,b ?is be+ is an extremely s5sitive receptive in/rum5t1 & is expos$ to di/urbances f out] curr5ts :i* act f all di/ances1 an inconv5i5ce :i* x %>es ) wireless telegraphy4 ,!re=e a di/urbance ( ! relation%ip betwe5 a m>ri$ pair is ! greate/ pa9 :i* exi/s4 ,unfai?fulness is a cosmic crime :i* br+s ! "o or ! o!r memb] ( ! m>ri$ pair into p]v]se relations ) _! own sex4 ,if ! husb& loves ano!r woman1 8 wife is expos$ to t]rible alt]nate curr5ts2 by turns %e loves & hates ! woman :o is h] rival4 ,(t5 %e c be ! fri5d ( h] husb&'s p>am\r1 b m (t5 h] enemy4 ,:oev] comes betwe5 a pair :o love1 does n s ) impunity4 ,! hate :i* he ar\ses is s t]rible1 t he c be lam$ by ! dis*>ge1 lose all en]gy & pleasure 9 life4 ,!re=e x is rightly said1 ',trifle n ) love4' ,a ,tak+ ,religion4--,! pupil said3 ,:5 ,buddhism1 mix$ ) ,v$antism1 became fa%ionable 9 #ahij1 all ! r5egades f ,*ri/ianity flock$ to x & tri$ to fill ! vacuum 9 _! religi\s lives4 ,six ?\s& new gods 7 receiv$ ) applause =?)2 ! new tr9ity--,brahma1 ,vi%nu1 ,siva--enc\nt]$ no objections2 spirits1 gho/s1 g5ies1 fairies 7 ?\ght q natural2 ,gautama's heav5 & hell 7 ?r[n into ! b>ga91 accompani$ by a slight flav\r ( asceticism4 ,^? :o d5i$ ! ,resurrection f\nd re9c>nation q a simple affair4 ,b ! fav\rite 0 ,kri%na4 ,he 0 ! inc>nation ( ! god ,vi%nu1 :o desc5d$ to e>? 9 ord] to be born ( e>?ly p>5ts & to save fall5 humanity4 ,8 com+ 0 prophesi$1 & s dread$ t a massacre ( new-born infants l t at ,be?lehem 0 plott$1 b unsuccessfully4 ,kri%na fulfill$ 8 mission1 conqu]$ ! evil p[]s1 & f9ally endur$ a volunt>y dea?4 ,t 'took'6 ,! tr9ity ,brahma1 ,vi%nu1 ,siva 'took1' b ,fa!r1 ,son1 ,holy ,_s did n 'take4' ,kri%na 'took1' b n ,*ri/4 ,x 0 /range6 ,! ,six? ,s5se4--,! pupil cont9u$3 ,! out] eye c reflect images1 ! inn] eye c conceive !m4 ,!re are !re=e two k9ds ( sight1 an out] & an inn]4 ,( ! s5ses1 t ( smell is ! mo/ imm$iate :5 x has to d ) ! conveyance ( impressions4 ,b !re seem also to be two k9ds ( faculties ( smell4 ,sw$5borg says t a false man smells ( s\r ga/ric juice1 b only = ! p]son to :om he has be5 false4 ,9 ?is case ! smell-p]ception is only subjective1 b x is ( great objective value 9 judg+ m54 ,9 ?is case ! organ ( smell seems to op]ate ) !r-waves4 ,accord+ to ,sw$5borg's doctr9e ( correspond5ces1 good m5 exhale sweet p]fume1 & bad m5 a /5* l t ( corpses4 ,he says t mis]s smell l rats1 & s on4 ,leg5ds ( ! sa9ts relate t ! corpses ( ^? :o h kept _! s\ls & bodies pure1 :5 !y dissolve1 exhale a fl[]-l p]fume4 ,9 %ort1 e s\l has its sc5t1 :i* v>ies accord+ to its *>act]i/ics4 ,?is six? s5se ! clo!s-hygi5i/ ,jg] believ$ he _h discov]$ aft] he _h begun to obs]ve & tra9 8 out] & inn] man4 ,i w speak n[ ( my own exp]i5ces 9 ! matt]4 ,!y did n beg9 till ,i _h pass$ ?r\gh ! great purgatorial fire :i* burnt up ! rubbi% ( my s\l1 & aft] ,i _h scrambl$ out ( ! wor/ ( ! mire by self-discipl9e & asceticism4 ,!y are accu/om$ to boil (f ! gum f raw silk be=e x is spun1 & s my n]ve-fibres seem$ to h be5 'sc\r$' by ! suff]+s ( life1 & gone ?r\gh a process l ! 'f9+' ( silk4 ,ext]iorisation ( ,s5sibility4--,! pupil cont9u$3 ,i happ5$ once1 :5 wat*+ a spid] 9 a web1 to see h] 'ext]iorise h] s5sibility1' or 9 o!r words reel out a n]ve-sub/ance = h]self ) :i* %e rema9s 9 t\*1 & by means ( :i* %e becomes aw>e :5 flies come & :5 ! wea!r *anges4 ,raspail1 :o 9 8 ma/]ly works has ca/ _m a f>-rea*+ glance beh9d ! curta9s ( nature1 has 9 "o place philosophis$ ov] ! spid]'s web4 ,9 o!r works deal+ ) transc5d5t natural sci5ces1 "o f9ds ! d\bt express$ :e!r ! object ( ! spid]'s web is only to be a fly-trap4 ,i myself h c\nt$ f\r & tw5ty radii 9 ! web ( ! g>d5-spid] resembl+ an h\r-circle1 & h ask$ myself :e!r1 besides be+ a b>omet] & trap1 ! web is also a k9d ( clock4 ,n[ x seems z ?\gh ,i _h myself 9 a simil> mann] ext]ioris$ my s5sibility4 ,i feel at a di/ance :5 anyone int]f]es ) my de/9y1 :5 enemies ?reat5 my p]sonal exi/5ce1 & also :5 p speak well ( me or wi% me well4 ,i feel 9 ! /reet :e!r ^? ,i meet are fri5ds or foes2 ,i h felt ! pa9 ( an op]ation und]gone by a man to :om ,i 0 fairly indiff]5t2 twice ,i h %>$ ! dea?-agonies ( o!rs ) ! accompany+ corporeal & psy*ical suff]+s4 ,! la/ "t ,i w5t ?r\gh ?ree illnesses 9 six h\rs1 & :5 ! abs5t p]son ) :om ,i suff]$ 0 lib]at$ by dea?1 ,i rose up well4 ,?is makes life pa9ful1 b ri* & int]e/+4 ,telepa?ic ,p]ception4--,! pupil said3 ,:ile ,i liv$ 9 ! mo/ intimate relations ) a woman1 ,i arriv$1 l ,gu/av ,jg]1 at '! discov]y ( ! s\l4' ,i 0 always 9 communication ) h]1 (t5 ?r\gh obscure s5sations1 b v (t5 ?r\gh ! s5se ( smell2 ^! 7 subjective h[ev]1 z o!r p 7 n aw>e ( !m4 ,:5 %e 0 travell+ ,i knew :e!r %e 0 9 a /eam] or on a tra92 ,i c\ld di/+ui% ! revolutions ( ! screw f ! vibration ( ! railway c>riage & ! puff+ ( ! eng9e4 ,%e us$ to make h] pres5ce felt by me at a c]ta9 h\r ( ! day1 i4e4 five o'clock 9 ! morn+4 ,once1 :5 %e 0 9 ,p>is1 ?is "t *ang$ to f\r o'clock4 ,:5 ,i consult$ ! table ( "t v>iations1 ,i f\nd t x 0 f\r o'clock 9 ,p>is :5 x 0 five o'clock ) me4 ,ano!r "t %e 0 9 ,/4 ,pet]sburg1 !n our meet+ took place an h\r lat]2 t also agre$ ) ! "t-table4 ,:5 %e hat$ me1 ,i 0 consci\s ( a smell & ta/e l t ( mortal92 ?is happ5$ "o night s di/9ctly t ,i _h to rise & op5 ! w9d[4 ,:5 %e ?\ght k9dly ( me1 ,i p]ceiv$ a smell ( inc5se & (t5 ( jasm9e1 b ^! sc5ts sometimes *ang$ into s5sations ( ta/e4 ,:5 %e 0 9 society )\t me ,i felt t %e 0 away1 & :5 ! conv]sation turn$ on me ,i 0 aw>e :e!r !y 7 speak+ good or ill ab\t me4 ,morse ,telepa?y4--,! pupil cont9u$3 ,i 0 sp5d+ "o ev5+ at home alone2 ,i did n "k :]e %e 01 b _h ! feel+ t %e 0 lo/ to me4 ,at #aj4dj p4m4 ,i 0 aw>e ( a pass+ brea? ( p]fume4 ,!n ,i said to myself1 ',%e has be5 9 ! !atre6 ,b 9 :i*8' ,i took ! daily pap]1 read ! !atre adv]tisem5ts1 & f\nd t "o !atre clos$ at #aj4dj4 ,fur!r inquiry prov$ t my surmise 0 "r4 ,on ano!r occasion :5 9 company ,i broke (f a lively conv]sation ) a smile4 ',:at are y smil+ at8' ',j n[ ! tra9 f ! s\? ent]$ ! t]m9us4' ,ano!r "t "u simil> circum/ances ,i said3 ',n[ ! curta9 falls on ! la/ act 9 ,hels+=s6' & ,i he>d ! applause :i* greet$ ! prima donna :o _h play$ 9 my piece4 ,! conv]sation ( ! p 9 ! re/aurant aft] ! conclusion ( ! piece s\nd$ l r++ 9 my e>s4 ,i c he> t z f> z f ,g]many :5 a prima donna is act+ 9 "o ( my pieces !re1 al?\gh ,i d n "k be=eh& t x is go+ to be play$4 ,"o ev5+ ,i _h gone to b$ ab\t half-pa/ n9e1 & 0 awok5 ab\t half-pa/ elev5 by a smell ( pun* & tobacco & 9 ! impression t two ( my acqua9tances 9 a caf 7 talk+ ab\t me4 ,i _h e reason to believe t ,i _h be5 pres5t !re 9 "s way or ano!r1 b ,i 0 s accu/om$ to ?is ph5om5on t ?is "t ,i did n te/ x4 ,flamm>ion gives a hundr$ su* cases 9 8 book ,! ,unkn[n4 ,nisus ,=mativus1 or ,unconsci\s ,sculpture4--,! pupil cont9u$3 ,once ,i sign$ a contract ) a m]*ant4 ,aft] sleep+ ! night ov] x1 ,i notic$ t he _h *eat$ me4 ,) angry ?\ghts ,i w5t out = my morn+ /roll4 ,:5 ,i came back ,i wi%$ to *ange my clo!s1 & ?rew my h&k]*ief on ! table4 ,aft] ,i _h undress$ myself ,i notic$ t ! h&k]*ief _h be5 crumpl$ toge!r by my n]v\s clut*1 & n[1 :]e x lay1 =m$ a ca/ ( ! m]*ant's head1 l a pla/]-(-,p>is bu/4 ,! "q arises3 ,_h my h& unconsci\sly =m$ an image ( my ?\ghts8 ,l95 is a v pla/ic mat]ial1 & "o (t5 f9ds excell5t pieces ( 'sculpture' 9 h&k]*iefs1 %eets1 & cu%ions4 ,:5 a m>ri$ man comes home ) 8 wife f a ball1 he %\ld look at ! h&k]*ief *ief :i* %e has held ! :ole ev5+ 9 h] h&1 & !n p]haps he might see ) :om %e pref]r$ mo/ to dance4 ,9 ,india a ,buddhi/ prie/ is said to repres5t ! #bjh inc>nations ( ,vi%nu by putt+ 8 h& 9 a l95 bag1 & m\ld+ rapidly f )9 ! l95 ( ! bag into ! %apes ( an elephant1 tortoise1 etc4 ,:5 ,/4 ,v]onica's napk9 reta9$ ! impress ( ,*ri/'s face1 t is n m improbable ?an t my pill[ 9 ! morn+ %\ld %[ ! impress ( faces :i* are n l m9e4 ,i h read ( ,indian vases :i* are s modell$ t at fir/ "o only sees a *aos resembl+ cl\ds1 twi/$ entrails1 or ! convolutions ( ! bra94 ,aft] ! eye has become accu/om$ to ?is ! confusion beg9s to be dis5tangl$2 all k9ds ( objects su* z plants & animals em]ge 9 cle> outl9e4 ,:e!r all obs]v]s see ! same ,i "k n4 ,b ,i believe t ! m\ld] ( ! vase has work$ un9t5tionally & unconsci\sly4 ,projections4--,! pupil cont9u$3 ,b !re are also projections :i* ,i _c expla94 ,x is possible t only poets & arti/s possess ! p[] s to project _! inw>d images 9 e life t !y become half real4 ,x is q a usual occurr5ce t ! dy+ %[ !mselves to _! abs5t fri5ds4 ,liv+ p]sons c also appe> at a di/ance1 b only to ^? :o keep !m 9 _! ?\ghts4 ,i us$ to %[ my initiat$ fri5ds ! foll[+ ph5om5on3 ,i obs]v$ a /rang] :o resembl$ an abs5t acqua9tance4 ,z soon z my eye complet$ ! image1 :atev] unlik5ess rema9$ 0 eras$4 ',see1 !re goes ,x41' ,i said4 ,my fri5ds saw ! resemblance1 und]/ood t x 0 n ,x41 compreh5d$ my mean+1 & agre$ ) me )\t fur!r ?\ght4 ,if we %ortly aft]w>ds met ,x4 we 7 a/oni%$1 & attempt$ to f9d no explanation 9 face ( ! inexplicable latt] "p ( ! ph5om5on4 ,b "o day ,i w5t d[n a /reet & 'saw' my fri5d ,dr4 ,y4 :o liv$ fifty miles away4 ,x 0 he1 & yet x 0 n he4 ,x 0 ! same little figure al?\gh some:at wav]+ & unc]ta94 ,! grey-yell[ face 0 also ! same al?\gh almo/ gho/-l1 ) deep furr[s :i* foll[$ ! oval l9es ( ! face1 & ) ! =c$ laugh ( suff]+4 ,:5 ,i came home ,i read 9 ! pap] t ! man 0 dead4 ,app>itions4--,! pupil cont9u$3 ,"o ev5+ ,i pass$ a well-kn[n !atre :ile a p]=mance 0 go+ on inside4 ,!re 0 no "o outside4 ,sudd5ly on ! pavem5t ,i saw an actor :o _h di$ ?irty ye>s previ\sly1 aft] he _h fir/ gone crazy ) vexation because he _h fail$ z an actor 9 ?is v !atre4 ,8 face1 l t ( my deceas$ fri5d ! doctor's1 0 l9$ ) ^? p>allel furr[s :i* run f ! =ehead to ! jaw4 ',0 x he1 or n8' ,i ask$ myself1 & left ! "q op54 ,on ano!r occasion ,i 0 travell+ by rail 9 a =eign c\ntry4 ,! tra9 halt$ at a /ation = ?ree m9utes4 ,on ! plat=m 9 broad daylight a man 0 go+ up & d[n ) a pa9t-box 9 8 h&4 ,he look$ n]v\s & suff]+ & 0 badly dress$4 ',t is he6' ,i ?\ght4 ',h[ has he got "h8 ,:y has he come d[n 9 ! _w8' ,dur+ ?is ?ree m9utes ,i suff]$ all ! tortures ( unc]ta9ty & ( a bad consci5ce1 = ,i 0 p>tly to blame = 8 mis=tune & 8 pov]ty4 ,! tra9 w5t on1 & ,i h nev] discov]$ :e!r x 7 really he4 ,x 0 c]ta9ly improbable4 ,yet ano!r "t ,i 0 travell+ by rail4 ,at a remote /ation a man came into my comp>tm5t & sat opposite me4 ,i ?\ght he 0 an acqua9tance1 b he look$ at me unrecognis+ly4 ,!n ,i let my eyes fall4 ,imm$iately he reg>d$ me ) an ironical smile :i* ,i aga9 recognis$4 ',x is he1' ,i ?\ght1 'b he w n greet me4' ,s ,i suff]$ = "s h\rs4 ,my consci5ce endur$ all t ,i ow$ him4 ,:e!r x really 0 he ,i "k n1 b ! effect 0 ! same4 ,! ,reaction>y ,type4--,! tea*] said3 ,m5 seem to react aga9/ !mselves & _! own bad qualities :5 !y dem& f o!rs :at !y _c !mselves d4 ,a man :o is full ( hate dem&s to be lov$4 ,a fai?less deceiv] came lately to me & f9i%$ 8 wily talk by say+1 ',all ,i ask is t y tru/ me6' ,he only ask$ t 9 ord] t he might be able to deceive me4 ,b p]haps he tru/$ me m ?an himself2 he did n "k himself1 b _h an inkl+ ( :at he 04 ,p]haps he felt t my belief 9 him w\ld /r5g!n & elevate him1 & might possibly neutralise 8 untru/wor?9ess4 ,x s\nd$ at any rate v nave1 & ,i felt myself hon\r$ by ! complim5t4 ,aga91 a sp5d?rift :o _h no means ( 8 own always caution$ me to be frugal4 ,he gave brilliant p>ties1 b :5 he came to me he only got potatoes & h]r+s1 & yet he ?\ght t 0 beyond my means4 ,on "o occasion ,i _h b\ght #bjj grammes ( nickel-sulphate = my *emical exp]im5ts4 ,!y co/ fifty-two p5ce4 ,! sp5d?rift came to visit me1 look$ at ! sulphate1 & exclaim$1 ',c y af=d x8 ,nickel-sulphate :i* is s de>4' ,fifty-two p5ce6 ,!n he invit$ me to a drive 9 a c>riage1 & a meal :i* co/ fifty-two kronas = an altoge!r unproductive purpose4 ,:5 he _h to pay ! reckon+ he suff]$ torm5ts4 ,p]haps he 0 by nature a sk9fl9t1 :o _h yield$ to a mania = extravagance & react$ aga9/ x4 ,i tri$ to expla9 ?is once to him1 z on pr9ciple ,i wi%$ to ?9k well ( ! man4 ,! ,hate ( ,p>asites4--,! tea*] cont9u$3 ,!re are m5 :o are spiritually s empty t !y only live on o!rs4 ,i h an acqua9tance 7:5 "o is ov] fifty "o does n ask = fri5ds any m7 :o con/antly visits me b nev] says any?+4 ,our social int]c\rse consi/s 9 my speak+ alone4 ,:5 he leaves me aft] sev]al h\rs1 ,i feel z if ,i _h be5 und]go+ blood-lett+4 ,x is c]ta9ly good to be able to talk oneself out (t51 b "o w\ld (t5 l to h an answ] to "o's que/ions2 b ,i nev] get an answ]1 n ev5 to a "q 9 8 own special l9e4 ,i c only rememb] "o expression :i* ?is man us$1 & t 0 extraord9>ily /upid4 ,somebody _h sl&]$ me1 & my 'acqua9tance' _h believ$ e ^w & pa9t$ my figure 9 false col\rs4 ,f9ally "o ev5+ ,i def5d$ myself1 & prov$ t my sl&]] 0 n 9 8 "r s5ses4 ,he reject$ my explanation1 exclaim+ ',fie6 h[ cynical y are6' ,:at did ?is answ] mean8 ,fir/1 t ,i mu/ n wa% myself clean1 = he want$ to h me dirty2 secondly1 t he gave me ! lie2 ?irdly1 t 8 sympa?ies 7 on ! side ( ! sl&]]4 ,i draw ! inf]5ce t ?is man hat$ me1 & !re=e visit$ me4 ,if he c\ld n h int]c\rse ) me1 he c\ld n abuse my confid5ce & gratify 8 hate4 ,8 tactics 7--to live my life1 to dev\r my s\l1 to gnaw my bones4 ,! attraction he felt to me he call$ sympa?y1 ?\gh x 0 antipa?y4 ,!re are _m k9ds ( hate1 & a wife's 'love' to h] husb& is a v>iety ( hate4 ,%e desires 8 virile p[] 9 ord] to become a husb& & make him into a passive-wife4 ,a ,lett] f ! ,dead4--,! tea*] said3 ,x seems z ?\gh "o c\ld live ! life ( ano!r p>allel ) "o's own1 or z ?\gh "o might be 9 t\* ) a /rang] on ano!r cont95t4 ,"o morn+ ,i receiv$ a lett] ( tw5ty-qu>to pages f ,am]ica4 ,long lett]s make me n]v\s2 !y always beg9 ) flatt]y & end ) scold+4 ,i read1 z ,i usually d1 ! signature fir/1 :i* 0 unkn[n to me4 ,!n ,i dipp$ into ! lett] "h & !re1 & saw t ! writ] wi%$ to influ5ce me4 ,"o ^w prick$ me l a ne$le1 & ,i tore ! lett] into small pieces :i* ,i ?rew 9 ! pap]-basket4 ,9 ! night ,i dreamt t ! rem>kable man1#a :o seem$ /ill to guide my /eps aft] 8 dea?1 %[$ me an old manuscript :i* ,i _h n f\nd wor? read+4 ,! old s]vant held ! manuscript aga9/ ! light1 & !n ,i saw l a wat]-m>k ano!r writ+ betwe5 ! l9es4 ,imm$iately aft]w>ds ,i saw 9 my dream a brok5-(f lead5 wire1 b clos] inspection %[$ its surface to be gold4 ,:5 ,i awoke 9 ! morn+ ,i und]/ood ! dream 9 its p]fectly cle> symbolism4 ,i w5t to ! pap]-basket1 collect$ ! fragm5ts ( ! /rang]'s lett]1 & sp5t six h\rs 9 piec+ !m toge!r4 ,!n ,i began to read4 ,i %\ld premise t ! h&writ+ 0 s l t ( my deceas$ & hon\r$ tea*]1 t ,i believ$ ,i 0 read+ a lett] f ! dead4 ,footnote #a3 ,he ref]s probably to ! ,*ief ,libr>ian 9 ! ,royal ,/ockholm ,libr>y1 :]e he _h be5 an assi/ant 9 8 y\?4 ,a ,lett] f ,hell4--,! lett] prick$ me l a packet ( ne$les4 ,b x 0 s int]e/+ t ,i 0 cont9ually lur$ onw>d to read to ! end4 ,! writ] began by say+ t he _h receiv$ 8 fir/ intellectual awak5+ ?r\gh my books4 ,s9ce !n 8 c\rse = tw5ty ye>s _h be5 v irregul>2 l$ a/ray by ! prevail+ ape-morality1 he _h gone 9 evil ways4 ,9 ! mid/ ( 8 w&]+1 x happ5$ to him z to ,dante & o!rs--he came into hell1 b f\nd a ,virgil :o l$ him out & sav$ him4 ,!n 8 own real life began4 ,he pass$ all ! sci5ces f philosophy to *emi/ry "u critical review1 & f\nd !m consi/+ ( m]e conv5tional lies4 ,he drift$ ab\t helplessly till he f\nd an an*orage-gr\nd 9 fai? 9 ,*ri/1 ! ,exorcis] ( demons1 ! highe/ ,wisdom1 ! ,r$eem] :o saves f d\bt1 despair1 & madness4 ,dur+ ! p]usal ,i felt sometimes z ?\gh ,i 7 read+ my own life or a satire on x4 ,annoy$ by :at seem$ a tactless encroa*m5t1 ,i (t5 wi%$ to ?r[ ! lett] away b c\ld n2 ! dream always recurr$ to me1 & ! lett] conta9$ new & bold ideas sp>kl+ 9 a *aos ( contradictions & p>adoxes4 ,9 %ort1 x prov$ a turn+-po9t 9 my life4 ,x expos$ my faults1 b %[$ me at ! same "t t ,i _h held ! "r c\rse1 9 spite ( ! deflections & cross-curr5ts to :i* ,i _h be5 expos$4 ,an ,unconsci\s ,m$ium4--,n[ let me say a few words ab\t my deceas$ m5tor1 :o already 9 8 lifetime ex]cis$ a great influ5ce on my developm5t1 ?\gh )\t kn[+ or wi%+ x4 ,i 0 "y1 precoci\s1 dull1 & untru/wor?y1 mo/ly because ,i wi%$ to pres]ve my p]sonal indep5d5ce1 b also because ,i 0 godless1 & consequ5tly immoral )\t any o!r pr9ciple except t ( gett+ on4 ,he1 my *ief1 attract$ me1 9 spite ( ! fact t ,i 0 antipa!tic to him 9 mo/ ?+s4 ,my position requir$ t ,i %\ld s]ve him devot$ly1 b ,i wi%$ also to s]ve my own int]e/s4 ,he 0 a spiriti/ & ,sw$5borgian1 b ,i 0 a mat]iali/4 ,?is he 0 aw>e (1 because ,i 0 brutally tru?ful4 ,b /ruggle z ,i might1 ,i came "u 8 influ5ce & became 8 m$ium4 ,!re 7 days on :i* he 0 s bl9d t he c\ld n read ! old manuscripts :i* he 0 edit+4 ,"o day he gave me a m$ival codex 9 a difficult "*1 & half 9 joke told me to read x4 ,i read x at once1 )\t hav+ le>nt ! "*4 ,!n he _h discov]$ me4 ,b ,i work$ alone1 al?\gh unconsci\sly4 ,"o day ,i /umbl$ on a pile ( old docum5ts1 & f\nd a date :i* he _h be5 hunt+ = = tw5ty ye>s4 ,ano!r "t ,i f\nd an hi/oric detail ( great importance :i* alt]$ our ideas ( our e>ly hi/ory4 ,"o day our pa?s div]g$4 ,! ,rev5ant4--,ye>s pass$4 ,i liv$ abroad1 b my ?\ghts (t5 rev]t$ to ! savant :o _h _h a great influ5ce on my life4 ,(t51 )\t any special reason1 ,i spoke ( him = h\rs at a "t--n always ) ! respect :i* ,i ow$ him4 ,i 01 x mu/ be rememb]$1 a pione]1 to :om no?+ 0 sacr$1 nei!r p>5ts nor tea*]4 ,"o day ,i he>d t ! old man 0 dead4 ,eight days lat] !re appe>$ 9 ! pap] ?is my/]i\s ann\ncem5t4 ,an intimate fri5d ( ! deceas$ receiv$1 eight days aft] 8 dea?1 ?r\gh ! po/1 a lett] f him4 ,! pap] consid]$ x a jocose my/ification on ! "p ( ! deceas$1 :o lov$ jokes4 ,i guess$ :o might h be5 entru/$ ) ! lett]1 b felt a/oni%$ t a dy+ man c\ld take su* pleasure 9 je/+1 especially ab\t ?+s :i* he _h tak5 s s]i\sly4 ,:51 two ye>s lat]1 began ! exp]i5ces describ$ 9 my book ,inf]no1 ,i felt t ,i 0 9 t\* ) my dep>t$ tea*]4 ,!re 7 c]ta9 rogui% traits 9 ! ph5om5a :i* rem9d$ me ( him4 ,i rememb] "o night address+ ! "q to ! d>kness1 ',is x y8' ,! :ole affair 0 9 8 /yle1 teas+ 9 =m1 b well-mean+ 9 purpose4 ,i receiv$ no answ]1 b ! impression rema9$--a mixture ( t]rible grim e>ne/ & beh9d x a fri5dly smile1 com=t+1 p>don+1 protect+1 j z 9 8 lifetime1 :5 he practis$ pati5ce ) my ill mann]s4 ,! ,meet+ 9 ! ,conv5t4--,! tea*] cont9u$3 ,dur+ my w&]+s ,i happ5$ once to visit a conv5t ) a travell+ companion 9 a corn] ( ,europe4 ,:at int]e/$ me specially 0 ! libr>y1 = ,i _h long be5 try+ to trace ,ans*>'s#a j\rnal4 ,aft] ,i _h slept ! night 9 a cell :i* bore ! inscription ',b4 ,victor ,,iii4 ,p4,p41' 9 memory ( ,pope ,victor ,,iii ':o puni%$ ! h]etics :o d5i$ ! div9ity ( ,*ri/1' ,i 0 tak5 into ! libr>y4 ,! fir/ ?+ %[n me 0 a collection ( ,lat9 hymns ( ! ,middle ,ages :i* _h be5 edit$ by my deceas$ tea*]4 ,! inn] side ( ! title-page conta9$ "s h&writ+ by ! editor1 :i* 0 s peculi> t x c\ld h>dly be imitat$4 ,i ask$ ! ,b5$ict9e monk :o accompani$ me1 ^: signature x 04 ,he answ]$1 ',! conv5t libr>ian's4' ',are y c]ta98' ,i ask$4 ',yes1 q c]ta94' ,?is discov]y ( 8 h&writ+1 :i* ,i _h nev] se5 else:]e1 aft] s _m ye>s made a deep impression on me4 ,i ask$ myself :e!r ! monk1 act+ z a m$ium1 c\ld h imitat$ ! h&writ+ ( ! deceas$ editor4 ,aft] an aft]noon's se>* ,i f\nd ! valuable explanation t ,ans*>'s j\rnal _h be5 tak5 by ,abbot ,?ymo f ,corvey to ,rome 9 ,a4,d4 #abfa4 ,x 0 kn[n t x _h s9ce disappe>$1 b n[ ,i _h f\nd a trace ( x4 ,i felt z ?\gh my deceas$ fri5d _h br\ght me "h into ! conv5t 9 ord] to discuss ,ans*>'s j\rnal1 conc]n+ ! fate ( :i* we _h (t5 made guesses & se>*es4 ,footnote #a3 ,a fam\s ,fr5* mission>y 9 ,sw$51 a4d4 #hja-hfe4 ,correspond5ces4--,! tea*] said3 ,x seems to me z ?\gh ,sw$5borg's correspond5ces or correlatives 7 to be f\nd aga9 9 all dep>tm5ts1 z ?\gh natural laws on a high] plane c be appli$ to ! spiritual life ( man4 ,if an object comes too close to ! magnify+ glass1 x becomes indi/9ct4 ,simil>ly "o _c see ! object ( "o's affections if %e comes too close4 ,%e becomes small & indi/9ct1 loses outl9e & col\r2 b remove h] to ! prop] focus1 & %e becomes magnifi$ & cle>4 ,?us x is ) pr9ces & _! valets de *ambre4 ,b !re are also exceptions to ! rule4 ,_m fri5ds ga9 by proximity2 "o mu/ see !m (t51 o!rwise !y *ange _! %ape & become gho/ly & al>m+4 ,o!rs aga9 seem bett] at a di/ance2 :5ev] we meet !m we lose an illusion4 ,! attraction betwe5 lov]s c increase 9 proportion to ! squ>e ( ! di/ance betwe5 !m1 & also 9 rev]se proportion2 ! great] ! di/ance1 ! great] ! pa9 ( sep>ation4 ,x seems also possible to apply ! facts ( electricity 9 ! psy*ical sph]e4 ,pellets ( eld]-pi? attract "o ano!r s long z !y are ( opposite pol>ity1 b :5 !y are saturat$ or ov]-saturat$ !y repel "o ano!r4 ,b ! mutual repulsion also takes place :5 a =eign body is int]pos$ betwe5 !m1 = !n an influ5ce is produc$ :i* op]ates lat]ally4 ,port5ts4--,! tea*] cont9u$3 ,z soon z ,i believe 9 an ,almighty ,god1 :o c susp5d ! few natural laws :i* we "k1 & br+ into op]ation ! c\ntless ho/ ( laws :i* we d n "k1 ,i mu/ believe 9 miracles4 ,sw$5borg does n deal s h>dly ) anyone 7at ! same "t t he commis]ates !m7 z ! asses :o rev]e ! creation & ! laws ( nature1 )\t believ+ 9 ! ,creator & ,law-giv]4 ,!y g ) _! noses on ! gr\nd1 & if any?+ unusual happ5s '9 ! air1' z !y say1 !y call x 'a meteorological ph5om5on1' & attribute x to su* & su* natural causes4 ,!y regi/] ! ph5om5on 9 _! records )\t dream+ ( any?+ beh9d x1 & =?) =get ! matt]4 ,we1 on ! o!r h&1 w m5tion "s ev5ts ( rec5t ye>s & connect !m ) c]ta9 natural ph5om5a :i* may possibly d5ote ! pres5ce ( w>n+ & *a/is+ p[]s4 ,on ! #g? ,june1 #aije1 ,sw$5 & ,norway sep>at$4 ,a ye> previ\s an e>?quake took place :i* _h its c5tre 9 ! ,kattegat4 ,"o %ock rea*$ ,*ri/iania & caus$ a t]rible panic 9 ! *ur*es2 p trampl$ "o ano!r to dea? or lo/ _! reason4 ,ano!r %ock affect$ ,/ockholm & caus$ al>m1 b 9 a m9or degree2 among ^? affect$ by x 0 a pr9ce ( high milit>y rank4 ,9 ,janu>y1 #aije1 a hurricane bur/ ov] ,*ri/iania1 tore ! ro( f ! royal ca/le1 & injur$ ! =tress ( ,ak]%us4 ,! same hurricane travell$ ea/-w>d to ,/ockholm1 tore ! ro( f ! gu>ds' b>racks & ?rew x on ! drill+-gr\nd4 ,^! /atem5ts c be v]ifi$ by ref]5ce to ! newspap]s4 ,! "q is3 ',are ^! port5ts or n8' ,are symbolic natural ph5om5a port5ts8 ,! ,difficult ,art ( ,ly+4--,! tea*] said3 ,:5 p lie delib]ately1 usually ) ! object ( ga9+ some?+1 ,i (t5 d n he> :at !y say4 ,"o day a c>p5t] came to me ) a compla9t4 ,i li/5$ to him & help$ him4 ,! next day he came aga9 9 ord] to d a piece ( "w4 ,!n1 among o!r ?+s he let ?is rem>k fall3 ',to-day1 ?ank ,god1 %e is bett]4' ',:o8' ,i ask$4 ',i m5tion$ ye/]day t my *ild _h fall5 d[n ! /aircase4' ,!n ,i felt a%am$ ( hav+ tak5 s little int]e/ 9 8 tr\bles1 & murmur$ "s sympa!tic words4 ,b :5 he _h gone ,i ?\ght ov] ! matt]4 ,s9ce ,i g5]ally he> v well & att5d to :at p say1 ,i 0 a/oni%$ t ,i _h n notic$ 8 acc\nt ( 8 tr\ble4 ,i c\ld n expla9 x to myself4 ,"s "t lat]1 aft] "s mon?s1 ,i conceiv$ a /rong feel+ ( di/ru/ t[>ds ?is man4 ,i rememb]$ ! ,g]man prov]b1 ',a li> %\ld h a good memory1' & det]m9$ to te/ him4 ,!re=e ,i said to him abruptly1 ',did y h a good summ]8' ',spl5did1' he answ]$4 ',is y\r wife q well8' ',p]fectly4' ',y\r *ild too8' ',%e has nev] pass$ ?r\gh ! summ] s well4' ,accord+ly he _h li$ :5 he said ! little girl _h _h an accid5t1 & _h subsequ5tly =gott5 x4 ,:at 0 unreal c\ld leave no impression beh9d--an int]e/+ fact1 z x seem$ to me4 ,9 connection ) ?is ,i rememb]$ t an actor1 a pessimi/ & hopeless despair]1 _h to play ! "p ( a believ+ & positive "* on a c]ta9 occasion4 ,t ev5+ ! audi5ce c\ld h>dly he> a ^w ( :at he said4 ,i 0 a/oni%$ at ! "t1 b n[ ,i und]/& t he 0 ly+4 ,religi\s & ,sci5tific ,intuition4--,! pupil said3 ,! ev]la/+ /rife betwe5 ,fai? & ,k w\ld h be5 /ifl$ at ! outset if "s %>p wit _h discov]$ 9 "t t ! problem is wrongly /at$1 = ! two ideas =m no real anti!sis4 ,:at ,i "k1 t ,i believe2 consequ5tly fai? presupposes k1 consequ5tly k is subsum$ "u fai?4 ,b ! ^w 'belief' has receiv$ o!r significations4 ,9 religion x means reception or absorption4 ,sci5ce recognises ! fact ( intuition or rapid inf]5ce1 i4e4 ! faculty ( rea*+ c]ta9ty )\t suffici5t reason & )\t a complete *a9 ( pro(4 ,t is sci5tific belief1 & is 9 complete analogy ) religi\s belief4 ,:5 a man arrives at ! k ( ,god & ( ,8 laws by way ( intuition1 :5 he !n te/s ?is k by obs]v+ 8 exp]i5ces & f9ds x confirm$1 !n ! f9al outcome ( 8 inve/igation is ,belief4 ,belief is complete objective c]ta9ty1 b on a high] plane1 s t all sci5tific *att] t ,k is high] ?an ,belief is m]e nons5se4 ,by 'k' 9 ?is case "o und]/&s = ! mo/ "p in=mation ab\t /ones1 plants1 & animals1 & hi/orical facts su* z ! ye> 9 :i* a c]ta9 book 0 publi%$1 :5 ,goe! 0 9 ,/rasburg1 :e!r ,rebecca ,o/'s real "n 0 ,pop(fsky or ,johanna ,hagel/rom1 or :e!r an ,apo/le-mug is g5u9e or imitation4 ,! anti!sis ',fai? or ,k' is ! /upide/ dispute ab\t words :i* ev] took place1 & a disgrace to humanity4 ,! ,fre$ ,?9k]4--,! tea*] said3 ,9 ord] to ?9k rightly & 9 accordance ) law1 ,i mu/ free my reason f fett]s ( ru/ic intellig5ce1 f int]e/s1 passions1 conv5tional consid]ations4 ,"o mu/ g into deep solitude1 & n be afraid ( rema9+ alone1 des]t$ by all4 ,above all1 "o mu/ n belong to any p>ty :i* regulates1 inspects1 & degrades4 ,9 ord] to be able to d>e to give up ! weak & hamp]+ support ( m51 "o mu/ be able ?or\ghly to rely ^u ,god4 ,9 ord] to d t "o mu/ keep "o's consci5ce z clean z possible1 mu/ hate evil1 /rive aft] righte\sness & goodness1 be> ev]y?+ except humiliation1 ex]cise m]cifulness1 & take trials z su* & n z p]secutions4 ,! electric clock has contact & connection ) a correctly-tim$ *ronomet]4 ,& s my reason _c ?9k logically till ,i h op5$ connection ) ! ,logos1 & no long] dis*>ge contr>y curr5ts ( /]ile d5ial & d\bt4 ,only 9 life ) ,god is !re fre$om ( ?\ght1 fre$om f impure impulses1 selfi% & ambiti\s int]e/s1 fre$om f ! wi% to /& well ) ! cr[d4 ,t is ! fre$ ?9k] 9 contra/ to ! 'free-?9k]1' :o has left ! rails & lo/ connection ) ! ov]head wire2 he w come to grief at ! next /reet-corn]1 & is ( no m use z a vehicle ( traffic4 ,primus int] p>es4--,! pupil cont9u$3 ,religions seem$ to be det]m9$ by regions l nationalities4 ,sw$5borg h9ts at some?+ ( ! sort1 say+ t p h ! religion :i* !y ought to h4 ,^? :o h no religion are tramps & vagabonds1 p>iahs & gipsies1 sc\ndrels & sw9dl]s4 ,!y ?9k !y are at home ev]y:]e1 b are s only on ! high-roads1 9 ! m>ket-places1 beh9d ! circus-/able1 9 ! aleh\se4 ,:5 ,less+ ass]ts 9 ,na?an d] ,weise t all religions are equally good1 he %[s t he has n und]/ood ,*ri/ianity1 :i* is ! beg9n+ & end ( ! _w's hi/ory4 ,! ,muhamm$ans are c]ta9ly religi\s1 m religi\s ?an ! ,*ri/ians1 & among ! adh]5ts ( ,islam are _m sects1 b no a!i/ic ones4 ,all obs]ve ! h\rs ( pray]1 fa/s1 & daily wa%+s4 ,muhamm$ 0 no ,*ri/-hat]4 ,b !y are ali5 to our climate4 ,/ill we h some?+ to le>n f !m2 !y are n a%am$ to %[ _! religion1 :ile we %uffle ) x4 ,!y are n only religi\s on ,sundays b e day & all day4 ,b1 if we he>d t a ,*ri/ian _h gone ov] to ,islam we %\ld reg>d x z a fall f ! high] to ! l[]1 :ile ! conv]sion ( a ,muhamm$an to ,*ri/ianity w\ld be hail$ z an asc5t4 ,salad9 0 c]ta9ly noble & ,na?an wise1 b ! nobl5ess ( ! =m] _h some:at ( a pose ab\t x1 & ! wisdom ( ! latt] 0 ( ! same homely k9d z ,voltaire's4 ,on ! o!r h&1 ,godfrey de ,b\illon accept$ ! cr[n ( ?orns in/ead ( ! k+'s cr[n1 & ,/4 ,l\is gave 8 life = ! wisdom :i* surpasses all und]/&+4 ,hea!n ,imag9ations4--,! tea*] said3 ,religions are repres5t$ by regions1 def9$ t]ritories1 circles1 ( :i* ea* consid]s himself ! c5tre4 ,! mod]n hea!n sit 9 _! little bag1 :i* is big en\gh to be se51 & :5 !y only see hea!n !y imag9e t ,*ri/ianity is decay+ or altoge!r done )4 ,& yet x is fl\ri%+ z x nev] did be=e2 ev]y?+ s]ves ! ,gospel ) or aga9/ its w4 ,! hea!n f9d new weapons 9 heaps ( ru9s & 9 temple-libr>ies2 !y close *ur*es & !reby br+ ,*ri/ianity into life & into ! dome/ic circle4 ,:5 !y make life bitt] = ! ,*ri/ians1 ! latt] turn f ! s\r & seek ! fre%4 ,! mission>ies :o 7 only lately reg>d$ ) a contemptu\s smile are n[ discov]$ by great explor]s 9 des]ts & wild]nesses1 :]e !y h e/abli%$ oases ( humanity & m]cy4 ,!re ! plund]$ w&]] c re/ 8 we>y head1 secure ( hav+ f\nd "o tru/wor?y man4 ,he :o wi%es to "k ! effect ( ,*ri/ianity on an idolat] %\ld read ,kanso ,uts*imura's ,memoirs ( a ,japanese2 or1 ,h[ ,i ,became a ,*ri/ian4 ,^? :o prea* '*e]ful paganism' c see 9 ?is "w h[ a poly!i/ is tom & tortur$ by d\bt1 & toss$ to-&-fro betwe5 ! contradictory comm&s ( eighty million gods4 ,?\ght ,b\nd by ,law4--,! tea*] said3 ,:5 a "y man comes & says he is a free-?9k]1 say to him3 ',y lie4 ,y ?9k ) y\r /oma*1 y\r ?roat1 y\r sexuality1 ) y\r passions & y\r int]e/s1 y\r hate & y\r sympa?ies4 ,b 9 y\r y\?ful immaturity y d n really ?9k at all1 b m]ely drivel4 ,:at is in/ill$ into y1 y give out1 & dub y\r wi%es by ! "n ( ?\ghts4' ,moreov] 'free-?\ght' is a contradiction 9 t]ms1 = ?\ght obeys laws1 j z s\nd1 light1 & *emical comb9ations d4 ,?\ght is b\nd1 b\nd by laws4 ,if y say ',!re is no ,god1' y speak )\t ?9k+4 ',non-exi/5ce' & ',god' are two incomm5surate ideas :i* _c be br\ght into juxtaposition4 ,if !y are1 !re results an absurdity :i* is ! secretion or excretion ( an illogical & confus$ m9d4 ,if on ! o!r h& y say ',!re is no ,god = me1' !re is some?+ probable 9 t4 ,b y %\ld be a%am$ to speak ( x4 ,x only means t y are a godless dog1 a p]v]se ape1 a consci5celess deceiv] & ?ief :om m5 mu/ avoid & detectives mu/ wat*4 ,=tunately godlessness is an halluc9ation impos$ on haughty blockheads z a puni%m5t4 ,:5 ! 'free-?9k]' discov]s "s day h[ /upid he is1 !n he is fre$1 & t is a m]cy = him4 ,cr$o quia 7et-si7 absurdum4--,! tea*] said3 ,if ,i call myself a ,*ri/ian x is because ,i recognise ,*ri/ z a p[]1 a s\rce ( /r5g?1 f :om ,i obta9 /r5g? by pray] 9 ord] to support tol]ably ! burd5s ( life4 ,b at ! same "t ,i confess t ,i _c und]/& nor expla9 ! doctr9e ( ,atonem5t ?r\gh sacrificial dea?4 ,t is n1 h[ev]1 ! fault ( ! doctr9e b a defect 9 me4 ,i h also no "r to d5y a matt] ( fact because ,i d n und]/& x4 ,"h is an illu/ration4 ,if ,i multiply #b by #b ,i obta9 an increase--#d4 ,b if ,i multiply by ,i obta9 z a result a decrease by half1 i4e4 4 ,"h is an incompreh5sible contradiction4 ,multiplication _c produce a decrease4 ,yet x is ma!matically true t #b multipli$ by #b is d\bl$1 i4e4 #d1 b multipli$ by is halv$1 i4e4 4 ,my intellig5ce w\ld fa9 d5y x1 b ,i mu/ believe x1 & 9 do+ s ,i d well1 o!rwise ! :ole sci5ce ( ma!matics w\ld be unusable1 :i* w\ld be a great loss4 ,cr$o quia absurdum4 ,t means1 ,i mu/ believe a fact j because x is incompreh5sible & absurd 7= me1 b n = o!rs74 ,if ,i c\ld und]/& x1 ! em]g5cy %ort-cut ( 'fai?' w\ld n be necess>y4 ,t is ! sacrifice1 n ( my reason1 b ( my ru/ic und]/&+ & ( my pride4 ,! ,fe> ( ,heav54--,! pupil said3 ,! a/ronomy or uranology ( ! a/ronom]s has ceas$ to make any progress s9ce x has become godless4 ,!y h giv5 up obs]v+ ! sky4 ,!y sit !re & calculate1 ) ! express purpose ( calculat+ ,god's exi/5ce away4 ,sev5 ye>s ago ,i met a tea*] ( a/ronomy4 ,he did n "k t ! equator ( ! sky passes ?r\gh ! belt ( ,orion1 & c\ld n po9t out ! ecliptic4 ,he boa/$ ( n kn[+ ! con/ellations1 say+ x 0 no sci5ce to "k !m4 ,our ne>e/ neighb\r ! moon has be5 ignor$ = a long "t4 ,& yet 9 #ahff x 0 notic$ t *anges _h tak5 place !re1 & t ! crat] ( ,l9nu 0 on ! po9t ( disappe>+4 ,on ! o!r h&1 !y are try+ to signal to ,m>s4 ,if man1 :o lately 9 8 folly ?9ks he has solv$ ! riddle ( ! univ]se )\t ,god1 only knew h[ ! 'gods' are to u1 & if he und]/ood ! signals :i* !y s5d to u daily & h\rly1 he w\ld g out l ,pet] & weep t he _h d5i$ 8 ,"l or behav$ z ?\gh he knew ,him n4 ,! ,goat-god ,pan & ! ,fe> ( ! ,pan-pipe4--,! tea*] said3 ,l all l[] classes ! apel+s reg>d !mselves z sup]m51 :o m>* at ! head ( all movem5ts & c regulate developm5ts4 ,_! god is ! %aggy ,pan1 :o _h be5 a goat & became a half-man1 & lat] ! ,evil ,"o1 ,satan1 or ,god's oppon5t4 ,b !y mu/ be a%am$ ( _! god1 = !y call !mselves a!i/s4 ,_! religion is t ( ! ,satani/s4 ,:5 !y he> ( any good action !y snort4 ,!y delight 9 p]secut+ & torm5t+ anyone 9 :om !re is any good visible1 & call him a hypocrite4 ,_! *ildr5 le>n to lie z soon z !y le>n to talk4 ,! greate/ poet ( ! apel+s has writt5 a lam5t ov] ! ',decay ( ly+' & an h]oic poem 9 six cantos 9 praise ( unnatural vice4 ,!y are all p]v]se1 mo/ly 9 secret1 b !y betray !mselves 9 _! writ]s1 :o write 9 ! "n ( woman1 & f ! woman's po9t ( view1 aga9/ man4 ,= by confusion ( sex !y h lo/ all di/9ction ( sex2 !y h ceas$ to ?9k & to feel z m54 ,!y run l dogs ) _! noses on ! track ( ! :ite man1 9 ord] to bite him1 t he may become l "o ( !m4 ,!re are :ite m5 :o h be5 s$uc$ by ! females ( ! apel+s4 ,! *ildr5 are ba/>ds1 & _! lives are a p]petual conflict aga9/ ! ,satanic inh]itance !y h receiv$ f _! mo!rs4 ,"s fight 9 va92 o!rs f9d ! ,help]4 ,!re is only ,"o--,jesus ,*ri/1 ! ,exorcis] ( demons4 ,y "k t ,i 0 su* a ba/>d & f\ght ! battle1 :i* is n yet conclud$4 ,! apel+s prea* tol]ation4 ,by t !y mean t :atev] !y d mu/ be ov]look$1 & t !y %\ld be left at lib]ty to propagate _! doctr9es1 :ile !y m or less secretly p]secute ! ,*ri/ians4 ,z soon z !y beg9 to sc5t ,*ri/ian blood !y %udd]4 ,!n !y beg9 to excommunicate ! 'h]etic4' ,8 "n is no m m5tion$1 & if x appe>s 9 pr9t x is cut out4 ,if he =m]ly belong$ to ! body ( ! apel+s he is n[ call$ an apo/ate1 & mu/ die z a traitor4 ,:5 an apel+ dies he obta9s an apo!osis 9 ! abs5ce ( a pan!on4 ,at ! burial ! wrea?s are c\nt$1 & ! inscriptions atta*$ to !m exam9$2 if anyone's "n is miss+ he is excommunicat$4 ,! c]emonial is j l t ( a wit*es' sabba? :5 ! 'fai?ful' gave _! te/imony4 ,b x may happ51 :5 !y invoke ,pan1 t he answ]s ) ! re$-pipe4 ,!n if he %[s himself 9 ! wood or 9 ! b$*amb]1 !y are seiz$ ) a panic fe>2 !y weep l *ildr5 :o are afraid ( ! d>k1 or fly to sanatoriums to be cur$ ( _! neura/h5ia1 _! sleeplessness1 & _! he>t-compla9ts4 ,_! ,gospel4--,! tea*] cont9u$3 ,b ! apel+s h also con/ruct$ a dogmatic !ology :i* is a p>ody ( ! ,*ri/ian fai?4 ,!y h a doctr9e ( reconciliation :i* proclaims reconciliation ) life1 b x is really a compromise ) all ! dirt ( life :i* "o g5]ally wipes (f on ! mat at ! h\se-door4 ,!y tea* m5 to be tol]ant t[>ds turpitude & wick$ness2 !y describe m5 z good fell[s1 z c>eless creatures :o are ?or\ghly good at bottom--'!re is no malice 9 !m4' ,! really good m51 :o _c d any?+ wick$1 seem$ to ! apel+s puritanical4 ',:y %\ld we torm5t ourselves 9 ! only life we h8' !y ask1 feel+ q sure t !y w be annihilat$ at dea?1 l maggots4 ,accord+ to ?is di/ort$ gospel1 x is wrong to describe 9 a lit]>y "w h[ ! malici\s1 ! li>1 ! deceiv]1 ! p&] get _! des]ts4 ,we %\ld1 !y say1 p>don ! consci5celess & ob/9ate4 ,*ri/ianity1 on ! o!r h&1 tea*es t we %\ld p>don ! rep5tant :o improve4 ,9 ! apel+s' gospel all ! tea*+ ( ,*ri/ is sophi/icat$4 ,9 _! view all ,magdal5es are int]e/+ innoc5t victims ( social circum/ances1 :ile ,*ri/ only receiv$ ! ,magdal5e :o _h ab&on$ vice4 ,! ,disposition ( ! ,apes4--,! tea*] cont9u$3 ,?is is ! :ole k]nel ( ,d>w9ism1 ?is madness :i* infect$ ! m9d ( a g5]ation :i* 0 ov]/ra9$ ) ! pursuit ( p[] & luxury4 ,b ?is ,beelzebub c\ld only be driv5 out by ano!r4 ,t 0 ,nietzs*e4 ,he 0 a demon let loose1 :o kill$ ! ape1 re/or$ ! man1 & alt]$ ! old popul> e/imates4 ,he 0 und]/ood because he spoke ! language ( ! apel+s4 ,t 0 ! only way to compel !m to li/51 = !y w\ld nev] h he>d a ,*ri/ian prophet4 ,b aft] he _h 8 say 8 tongue 0 spik$ & 8 tale 0 ov]4 ,joseph ,peladan 0 a ,*ri/ian prophet ( ! s*ool ( ! ,!rapeut & ,ess5es4 ,! apel+s fe>$ him1 & c\ld n "n 8 "n1 = x /uck 9 _! ?roats4 ,only ! ,*ri/ian upp] class und]/ood him4 ,8 ,*ri/ianity 0 lum9\s & esot]ic1 p]haps too lum9\s4 ,b aft] a pilgrimage to ,*ri/'s grave he discov]$ ! deceit1 turn$ 8 back on ! 'reconciliation ) life1' & =swore ! wor%ip ( beauty :i* 0 m]ely ! dress+ up ( ! apes ) :ite %eets & ivy leaves4 ,he ceas$ to be int]e/$ 9 ! be/ial & ! nude1 saw ?r\gh ! 'joy ( life' & ,nora1#a unmask$ ! humbug ( tol]ance1 & took ! cross 9 real e>ne/1 z x is1 on himself4 ,peladan 0 a liv+ prote/ aga9/ api%ness4 ,he repres5t$ ! und]curr5t1 n ! surface-/ream4 ,/ill ! und]curr5t is always ready to m\nt & ov]fl[ & cleanse ! banks1 :i* at ! ebb-tide h s]v$ z a place = dump+ d[n rubbi%4 ,footnote #a3 ,! h]o9e ( ,ibs5's ,doll's ,h\se4 ,! ,secret ( ! ,cross4--,! tea*] said3 ,! conflict betwe5 paganism & ,*ri/ianity is n[ be+ f\ght out 9 ! _w4 ,b j z surely z ,*ri/ianity prec$$ paganism 9 "t1 s surely does ! future belong to ,*ri/ianity1 al?\gh = ! mom5t ! apel+s h ! upp] h&4 ,_! edict ( tol]ation all[s !m 9 ! "n ( fre$om to =bid ! prea*+ ( ,*ri/ianity4 ,!y close ! *ur*es1 decl>e ,judas innoc5t1 give mad wom5 ! vote1 write hea!ni% s*oolbooks = *ildr51 place =g]s & pettifogg]s 9 p[]1 = _! k+dom is ( ?is _w4 ,b x is ) ,*ri/ianity z ) ! walnut-tree1 ^: fruit is knock$ d[n ) poles1 & :i* is r\ghly treat$ 9 ord] t x may be> fruit & ?rive4 ,! night gr[s d>k] t[>ds ! dawn4 ,sp9a*-se$ is trodd5 d[n t x may gr[ bett]2 ! gr\nd mu/ be h>r[$1 brok51 & roll$ 9 ord] to be able to yield a crop2 gold mu/ be ref9$ 9 fire1 & flax be /eep$ 9 wat]4 ,! cross po9ts upw>ds1 d[nw>ds1 sideways1 to ! f\r qu>t]s ( heav5 at once2 x is a completion ( ! compass4 ,suff]+ bums up ! rubbi% ( ! s\l4 ,i h se5 a man :o _h suff]$ all ! griefs endur$ by humanity2 yet ! m he suff]$ ! m beautiful he became4 ,t is ! secret ( ! cross & ( suff]+4 ',because ye are n ( ! _w1 !re=e ! _w hate? y4 ,9 ! _w ye h tribulation1 b be ( good *e]2 ,i h ov]come ! _w4' ,exam9ation & ,summ] ,holidays4--,! tea*] said3 ,:51 on rea*+ maturity1 "o awakes to new consci\sness & discov]s t ev]y?+ "o has is borr[$1 "o beg9s to cut oneself d[n to ! root1 9 ord] to let /rike a new /em :i* is "o's own4 ,:5 we ent] old age ?is /em )]s d[n to ! root 7! process ,sw$5borg calls 'desolation'72 ! bran*es =m]ly cut d[n bloom aga9 & put =? new foliage :i* is l1 & yet n l ! =m]4 ,b :5 old & new fl\ri% toge!r1 ! :ole result is confus+2 b ! root rema9s ! same & reveals ! nature ( ! plant4 ,! dissonances ( life increase ) ! ye>s1 & ! mat]ial ( life becomes s imm5se t x is impossible to survey x prop]ly4 ,!re=e "o lives m 9 remembrance ?an 9 ! pres5t1 & along ! :ole l9e ( "o's exp]i5ce4 ,sometimes ,i live 9 my *ildhood1 sometimes 9 my mature age4 ,b x is /range t "o does n feel old age to be ! beg9n+ ( an end b ! introduction to some?+ new1 i4e4 :5 "o has recov]$ ! belief or assurance t !re is a life on ! o!r side4 ,"o feels z ?\gh "o 7 prep>+ = an exam9ation by do+ prelim9>y ex]cises & "o becomes lit]ally "y aga94 ,!re is a little t\* ( exam9ation fev] ) x1 b also great hopes m+l$ ) dreams ( ! future4 ,^! rem9d u ( ,*ri/mas joys1 summ] holidays1 family ga!r+s ) reconciliations & wi%es fulfill$4 ,b !re is also a sc5t ( brok5-(f bir*-leaves & ! sea%ore2 !re is a s\nd ( ,sunday bells & organs1 ! attraction ( new clo!s1 :ite l951 & a ba? 9 gre5 sea-wat]4 ,!re is a feel+ l t ( ev5+ pray] & a good consci5ce1 wife1 home1 & *ild aft] a j\rney1 ! he>?-fire aft] a sn[-/orm1 ! fir/ ball & ! "o we lov$ to dance ) mo/1 ! op5+ ( ! sav+s-box1 & fir/ & la/ ! exam9ation & ! summ] holidays4 ,ve]+ & ,tack+4--,! tea*] cont9u$3 ,! ,!osophi/s speak ( ! sev5 planes ( ! ,kama-,loka1 ! condition aft] dea?4 ,i w admit t1 9 c]ta9 circum/ances1 ,i h liv$ simultane\sly on sev]al planes4 ,?is 0 difficult = me1 & /ill m difficult = my enemies to und]/&4 ,i %\ld l to h expla9$ ^! contradictions 9 exi/5ce by a cleavage ( ! p]sonality or a multiplication ( ! ego4 ,i h also s\ght ! solution ( ! riddle 9 ! self-adaptation to "o's surr\nd+s1 to :i* ,/4 ,paul ref]s 9 ! ,fir/ ,epi/le to ! ,cor9?ians3 ',to ! ,jews ,i became a ,jew4444 ,to ^? :o are "u ! law1 ,i became z "u ! law4444 ,to ^? :o are )\t law1 ,i became z "o )\t law4 ,to ! weak ,i became z weak4' 444 ,ki]kega>d speaks ( ,sympas*om5os :o rejoices ) ! joyful1 m\rns ) ! sad1 is co>se ) ! co>se1 ref9$ ) ! ref9$4 ,sw$5borg makes ano!r sugge/ion1 ',:5 a man is to be born aga91 8 desires & falsities _c be /ripp$ (f at once1 = t w\ld be equival5t to de/roy+ ! :ole man1 because z yet he only lives 9 !m4 ,!re=e = a long :ile evil spirits are left ) him1 to /ir up 8 desires t !y may be dissolv$ 9 _m ways4' ,=m]ly ,i believ$1 :5 ,i 0 "y ) ! y\?ful1 old & wise ) ! old1 mad ) ! mad1 t ,i 0 do+ !m a s]vice4 ,z a poet1 ,i liv$ = ! mom5t 9 _! life & _! moods1 :i* ,i !n depict$ & =got myself4 ,(t5 by ^! relapses into /ages ,i _h left beh9d1 ,i seem$ to h work$ myself high]1 z ! %ip tacks 9 ord] to get a m fav\rable w9d4 ,attraction & ,repulsion4--,! tea*] cont9u$3 ,!re is bo? an attraction & a repulsion betwe5 simil> s\ls4 ,l loves l1 b n always2 (t5 ! unlike seeks ! unlike4 ,a good man lam5t$ to me t x 0 8 lot always to be 9 bad society1 & nev] to meet good m5 :o c\ld elevate him4 ,s9ce he 0 /rong he 0 at any rate n drawn d[n1 b he did n obs]ve t he ex]cis$ a good influ5ce on 8 bad surr\nd+s4 ,he _h1 x is true1 occasion to see & to he> evil2 b1 on ! o!r h&1 he 0 able to react aga9/ x ?r\gh ! disgu/ ) :i* x inspir$ him4 ,)\t in/itut+ a comp>ison we may say t ,*ri/ did n attract p ( high position & good "*1 b poor devils & weak *>act]s1 ! sick1 ! possess$1 ! wick$1 ?ieves1 publicans1 & h>lots4 ,8 disciples did n und]/& 8 doctr9e1 b int]pret$ x all 9 a mat]ial way4 ,he answ]$ _! reproa*es by say+1 ',only ! sick ne$ a physician4' ,i w suppress my =m] objection1 = ,i b[ myself exp]im5tally be=e '! folly ( ! cross1' s9ce exp]i5ce has taught me t wisdom c only be receiv$ by a humble m9d1 & t ob$i5ce is m ?an sacrifice4 ,9 rec5t times my con/ant pray] has be5 t ,i might come into good society :i* might elevate me1 & avoid evil companion%ip :i*1 to say ! lea/1 involves an injuri\s connection ) ! l[] plane4 ,x is 9 tru? my fault t ^? :o seek me seek my old ego1 &1 :5 !y d n f9d x1 believe t ,i am n to be f\nd4 ,! ,d\ble4--,! pupil said3 ,:5 a man beg9s to love a woman he ?r[s himself into a trance1 & becomes a poet & arti/4 ,out ( h] pla/ic1 un9dividualis$ mat]ial he fa%ions an ideal =m into :i* he puts all t is be/ 9 himself4 ,?us he creates an homunculus :i* he adopts z 8 d\ble1 & ) t %e lets him d z he likes4 ,b ?is a/ral image may be also ! doll :i* %e ! huntress sets up z a decoy1 :ile %e ) a load$ gun lies beh9d ! bu% & wat*es = h] prey4 ,! love ( a man = 8 homunculus (t5 survives e illusion2 he may h conceiv$ a deadly hatr$ aga9/ h]self1 :ile 8 love = 8 d\ble cont9ues4 ,b ?is masqu]ade gives rise to ! deepe/ dissonances & tr\bles4 ,he becomes squ9t-ey$ by contemplat+ two images :i* d n co9cide4 ,he wi%es to embrace 8 cl\d1 b takes hold ( a body2 he wi%es to he> 8 poem1 b x is someone else's2 he wants to see 8 "w ( art1 b x is only a model4 ,he is happy dur+ 8 trance1 al?\gh ! _w _c und]/& him4 ,:5 he awakes f 8 somnambulism1 8 hatr$ to ! woman increases 9 proportion z %e fails to correspond to 8 image ( h]4 ,& if he murd]s 8 d\ble1 !n love is done )1 & only b\ndless hate rema9s4 ,paw or ,h&4--,! pupil said3 ,9 ,kipl+'s wond]ful ,jungle ,book1 ! boy is intimate ) all k9ds ( animals b n ) apes1 :i* are ! wor/ ( all creatures & compos$ ( wick$ness & crime4 ,:5 ,goe!1 9 ! second "p ( ,fau/1 wi%es to repres5t phantoms & evil spirits1 he uses ! same masks & co/umes z = ! monkeys 9 ! ,wit*es' ,kit*5 9 ! fir/ "p4 ,& x is among ^! deg5]ate brutes t man 787 n[ does 8 be/ to seek 8 ance/ry4 ,= my "p ,i w\ld r trace my orig9 f a noble horse1 or a sagaci\s & hone/ elephant1 or f a c\rage\s & ?ankful eagle4 ,b x is probable t apes spr+ f deg5]ate m51 escap$ crim9als1 & %ip-wreck$ ,rob9son ,crusoes4 ,! h& ( ! *impanzee is n a paw :i* is be+ evolv$ into a h&1 b x is a human h& :i* is deg5]at+ into a paw4 ,a palmi/ c\ld read ! l9es ( x2 a manicuri/ c\ld improve x & make x capable ( we>+ a glove4 ,if man really sprang f apes1 accord+ to ! law ( phylog5y1 a *ild ought to be born ) a hairy body4 ,b n[ x comes into ! _w z smoo? z an angel1 (t5 )\t hairs ev5 on its head4 ,x is a disgrace to me t ,i s]v$ ! ,ape-k+1 ! s$uc] ( my y\?6 ,& x 0 s /upid6 ,! ,?\s&-,ye>s' ,night ( ! ,apes4--,:5 ! sun ( ,*ri/ianity rose ov] ! _w1 x naturally became night = ! apel+s4 ,:5 !y turn$ _! backs to ! light1 ev]y?+ became di/ort$ = !m4 ,"r became left1 ea/ became we/1 good became evil1 black became :ite1 day became night4 ,!re=e "o reads /ill ( _! ?\s&-ye>s' night1 z !y call ! ,middle ,ages4 ,:5 ! savage tribes ( ,europe became tame1 :5 ! ag$ & sick became objects ( pity1 :5 gov]nm5ts rul$ & laws protect$1 :5 fai?1 hope & love1 self-sacrifice & *ivalry fl\ri%$1 !n x 0 night = ! pagans4 ,:5 ,europe receiv$ sci5ce1 :5 ,alb]tus ,magnus1 ,?omas ,aqu9as1 ,rog] ,bacon1 ,arnold1 & ,basilius f\nd$ *emi/ry1 metallurgy1 & physic1 _! d>kness increas$4 ,:5 m$ival art culm9at$ 9 ! noble/ "w ( art !re is--! ,go?ic ca!dral--!n x grew d>k be=e ! eyes ( ! giants2 _! e>s c\ld n endure ! *ime ( bells & organ-music4 ,f9ally ! ,middle ,ages discov]$ gunp[d]1 ! compass1 & pr9t+4 ,a religi\s man1 ^: sails bore ! sign ( ! cross1 discov]$ ,am]ica4 ,b ,pauli1 ! disciple ( ,clem5s ,romanus1 already knew ! ocean :i* _c be cross$ by m51 & ! l&s :i* lie beh9d x4#a ,9 ! mid/ ( ! d>kness ( ! hea!n !re 0 ! light ( conv5t-s*ools & univ]sities1 9 :i* spiritual z well z worldly wisdom 0 taught4 ,poems ( *ivalry1 romances & dramas 7 compos$4 ,*>lemagne 0 a ,*ri/ian ,k+ ,solomon2 he defeat$ ! ,phili/9es 9 ,saxony1 built temples out ( ! ru9s ( ,rome1 held le>n$ conv]sations & li/5$ to leg5ds1 cultivat$ ! l& & gave laws4 ,t 0 ! brighte/ phase ( a ,europe gr[n patri>*al & ,*ri/ian4 ,! gods c]ta9ly did n walk any m on e>?1 b ,god's mess5g]s 7 9 con/ant communication ) m51 & disclos$ to !m ! secrets ( ,god's k+dom1 :i* 7 writt5 d[n 9 ,apocalypses &1 be/ ( all1 9 ! ,leg5da ,aurea4 ,?omas ,kempis's ,imitation ( ,*ri/ 0 pr9t$ & is /ill read ev5 by ,prote/ants4 ,"o c ev5 read ! ,*ur* ,fa!rs1 ,augu/9e1 ,j]ome1 ,*ryso/om2 ,augu/9e 0 us$ 9 my y\? z a confirmation-manual4 ,two hundr$ ye>s be=e ! ,re=mation--! s*ism 9 ! ,*ur* z x %\ld r be call$--,dante wrote ! mo/ ,*ri/ian ( all poems1 :i* ! hea!n h tri$ to /eal = !mselves4 ,boccaccio exp\nd$ ! ,inf]no f a pr(essor's *air1 a fitt+ p5alty = ! trespasses ( 8 y\?4 ,botticelli1 ,lippi1 ,ghirl&ajo 7 ! great religi\s pa9t]s ( ! ,middle ,ages4 ,_! pupils ,mi*ael ,angelo & ,raphael 7 dev\t ,*ri/ians1 al?\gh ! hea!n h wi%$ to appropriate !m "u ! false designation ,r5aissance1 or new bir? ( hea!nism4 ,:5 at ! beg9n+ ( mod]n times x began to gr[ dusk1 ! dawn rose = ! hea!n & = ! la/ ,a!nians4 ,! la/8 ,!re w c]ta9ly be m ,a!nians :o w wi% to c>ry owls to ,a!ns4 ,footnote #a3 ,clem5t1 ,epi/le to ! ,romans1 *ap4 xx4 ,! ,fav\rite4--,julian 0 an ,illyrian1 f ! pr$atory /ate compos$ ( a mix$ ,phnician race :o wor%ipp$ ,baal & ,a/>te4 ,he _h a small head1 & no occiput2 he _h ?ick lips1 a be>d t sw>m$ ) v]m91 long nails & black h&s ) :i* he grop$ 9 ! ble$+ bodies ( sla9 bea/s 9 ord] to progno/icate ! future f _! he>ts & liv]s4 ,8 *e]ful religi\s s]vices consi/$ 9 ! sacrifice ( animals1 & 7 accompani$ by ! dances ( immode/ girls4 ,9 ord] to refute anci5t prophecy1 he wi%$ to build aga9 ! ,temple at ,j]usalem4 ,b fire broke out ( ! gr\nd1 s t ! und]tak+ 0 fru/rat$ at its comm5cem5t4 ,?is madman once came to ,antio*1 :]e !re 7 a hundr$ ?\s& hea!n :om he expect$ to receive him ) public sacrifices & dances4 ,in/ead ( :i* he 0 met by a solit>y prie/ be>+ a goose4 ,t 0 all6 ,?is unattractive p]son1 :o has become ! d>l+ ( ,! ,la/ ,a!nian#a & ! new hea!n1 0 f9ally entic$ into a des]t4 ,!re he suff]$ hung] & ?ir/ till a lance pi]c$ 8 liv]4 ,b x is incr$ible t he exclaim$1 ,?\ ha/ conqu]$1 ,o ,galilean6 ,he 0 f> too /upid = t4 ,sci5tific ,villa9ies4--,if anyone comes to y & says1 ,i don't und]/& ! pro( = ! exi/5ce ( ,god1 y %\ld answ]1 ,y don't und]/& because y\r wick$ness d>k5s y\r und]/&+4 ,all a!i/s are rascals1 & all rascals are a!i/s4 ,_! intellig5ce is s beclogg$ ) s9 t !y _c und]/& ! simple/ tea*+s ( ,*ri/ianity1 ! ,inc>nation &1 consequ5tly1 ,immaculate ,bir? ( ,god1 ,8 ,resurrection & ,asc5sion4 ,:5 ! sect>ies came to ,lu!r & said t !y c\ld n und]/& him1 because !y _h ano!r ,_s1 he answ]$1 ,i smite y\r ,_s on ! sn\t6 ,god rebuke !e1 ,satan6 ,a godless man or a s-call$ free-?9k] is a rascal :o p]mits himself ev]y?+4 ,8 natural sympa?y = sc\ndrels is s /rong t he w swe> a false oa? 9 ord] to save ! guilty f condemnation by a false alibi4 ,he w accuse an innoc5t man1 & p]secute him f "o c\rt ( appeal to ano!r1 9 ord] to get him into prison1 & w dem& a l>ge sum ( money z a rew>d = 8 ill-do+4 ,:5 ! guilty is acquitt$ !y give him a banquet1 8 companions write odes 9 8 hon\r1 he is promot$ & f9ally appo9t$ to be an in/ructor ( y\?4 ,:5 an a!i/ adopts ! pursuit ( sci5ce1 "o is sure only villa9y w result4 ,he says falsely t he has se5 su* & su* ?+s "u ! microscope1 9 ord] to be able to write a treatise on !m4 ,if he is an a/ronom] he w see z _m canals 9 ,m>s z 8 pr(essor wi%es4 ,if 8 pr(essor does n believe 9 ! canals 9 ,m>s1 he w n see any4 ,footnote #a3 ,! ,la/ ,a!nian1 title ( a "w by ,victor ,rydb]g4 ,necrobiosis1 i4e4 ,dea? & ,resurrection4--,dur+ ! w9t] ,i f\nd ! *rysalis ( a cock*af] & laid x on my writ+-table4 ,"o ev5+ 9 ! lamplight x began to click & make small movem5ts4 ,believ+ t ! w>m? _h develop$ my beetle ,i op5$ its black c(f91 b f\nd to my a/oni%m5t only a :ite slime )\t a sign ( organisation2 x smelt ( s\r ga/ric juice4 ,?is half-fluid mass1 h[ev]1 possess$ ! capacity ( movem5t4 ,lat] on1 :5 ,i _h a microscope ) a l>ge field ( view1 ,i op5$ ! *rysalis ( a butt]fly & exam9$ x4 ,on a cle> yell[ backgr\nd ( fluid matt] !re 0 sket*$1 z x 71 ! outl9e ( ! future butt]fly 9 half-%ad[1 )\t1 z yet1 any bodily organisation4 ,t is call$ necrobiosis1 or ! dy+-(f ( liv+ tissue4 ,& ! deliquesc5ce ( ! *rysalis 9 slime is t]m$ hi/olysis4 ,its reorganisation is said to take place by means ( corpora adiposa1 or p>ticles ( fat4 ,m ?an ?is ,i d n "k4 ,i wrote to ,g]many 7:]e !y are accu/om$ to "k ev]y?+7 & ask$ = "s works treat+ ( ! metamorphosis ( ! *rysalis1 b !re 7 none on ?is mo/ important & int]e/+ "q4 ,fa!r ,d>w9 & 8 son ,haeckel knew no?+ & wi%$ to "k no?+ ab\t ! resurrection2 !y only knew ab\t bir? & dea?4 ,f9ally ,i b\ght = five-&-tw5ty kron]s a l>ge "w on butt]flies compos$ by a pr(essor4 ,!re 0 n a ^w 9 x reg>d+ ! necrobiosis ( ! *rysalis4 ,b sometimes ,i see on a grave/one )9 a *ur* wall ?is symbol3 cat]pill>1 *rysalis1 & butt]fly4 ,secret ,judgm5t4--,:5 "o sees a fact repeat$ regul>ly & "u def9$ conditions1 "o believes "o has discov]$ a law4 ,i ?9k ,i h discov]$ a law1 & consequ5tly a tribunal ^: decisions we see1 b ^: inn] work+ we c only guess at4 ,i _h a relative :o _h rea*$ a c]ta9 age )\t ev] hav+ "t to ?9k ( dea?4 ,on ! #ah? ,janu>y ( ! ye> #ah-- he _h a /roke & fell4 ,t 0 ! fir/ w>n+4 ,!n he began to ?9k ab\t dea? & ! life aft] ?is1 & occupi$ himself ?us = six ye>s2 !n he di$ exactly on ! same day1 on ! #ah? ( ,janu>y4 ,! fact ( ! int]val be+ six ye>s made me ?9k ( ,bism>ck's six ye>s 9 ,sa*s5wald1 :5 he sat alone & brood$ on ! transitory "* ( greatness1 & curi\sly en\gh injur$ 8 reputation ?r\gh be+ betray$ by vanity into mak+ incauti\s revelations4 ,!n x occurr$ to me t ,napoleon 0 six ye>s on ,/4 ,hel5a1 & f9ally became s well prep>$ t he receiv$ ! sacram5t on 8 dea?-b$4 ,:e!r ,he9e lay on ! gr\nd = exactly six ye>s1 ) 8 body wa/$ to ! size ( a *ild's & torm5t$ by ! fe> ( los+ 8 wife1 ,i _c say def9itely2 b x 0 ab\t six4 ,x is well kn[n t ! pi\s ,l9nu _h to sp5d 8 la/ ye>s seat$ 9 a *air1 lam$ by p>alysis2 nor did ev5 he escape be+ worri$ by a qu>relsome wife1 ,god alone kn[s :y6 ,our great & glori\s ,tegn] receiv$ 8 fir/ w>n+ 9 #ahdj4 ,x 0 accompani$ by a condition l t describ$ 9 my ,inf]no1 dur+ :i*1 among o!r ?+s1 he saw 8 :ole poetical "w 9 a depreciatory light1 & ev5 at la/ wi%$ to cancel x all4 ,aft] j six ye>s' prep>ation he di$ on ,novemb] #b1 #ahdf1 9 a *e]ful /ate ( m9d1 ! sky be+ lit up at ! "t by a spl5did aurora4 ,golds*midt m5tions t & /ill m rem>kable ?+s 9 8 excell5t ,nemesis ,div9a4 ,i read lately h[ ,f]s5 0 murd]$ 9 8 c>riage on ,june #bj1 #ahaj4 ,i recall$ to m9d t x 0 ! same ,f]s5 :o drove ! c>riage 9 :i* ,m>ie ,anto9ette fl$ to ,v>5nes4 ,i ref]r$ to ! ,hi/ory ( ! ,_w1 & f\nd t ! flight to ,v>5nes took place on ,june #bj1 #agia4 ,! "q arises3 ,0 x a crime to wi% to save ! que58 ,! au?or ( ! article 9 ! ,biographical ,lexicon m5tions ! crime by "n2 b x 0 some?+ o!r ?an ! attempt to fur!r h] escape4 ,hammurabi's ,inspir$ ,laws ,receiv$ f ! ,sun-,god4--,! laws ( ,hammurabi occupy fifte5 qu>to pages4 ,t is ! :ole f9d6 ,& ^! pages are to nullify ! ,bible1 :i* is s unse>*ably ri* & possesses su* my/]i\s dep?s t ev]yone 9 tr\ble1 :o ) humility seeks = c\nsel & com=t !re1 f9ds x =?)1 al?\gh he may fir/ receive "s bl[s :i* /rike ! nail on ! head6 ,hammurabi's laws 9 fifte5 pages resemble ,deut]onomy to a c]ta9 degree1 b are mu* m meagre2 !y (t5 recall our old ,sw$i% law ) its trivialities4 ,= in/ance3 ,if anyone /rikes out a man's tee?1 8 tee? %all be /ruck out2 b if he /rikes out ! tee? ( an emancipat$ slave1 he %all pay "o-eigh? ( a m9a ( silv]4 ,9 any case ,god is "o1 & ,8 laws are 9 pr9ciple ! same4 ,! ,bible may h us$ ! same s\rce z ,hammurabi4 ,b :5 ! hea!n try to use ! laws ( ! ,assyrian clay tablets 9 ord] to prove t ! ,bible is n inspir$1 !y miss ! m>k4 ,inspir$ means receiv$ f ,god4 ,see h[ ! hea!n has adorn$ 8 paltry pamphlet ) a frontispiece1 :i* ass]ts1 aga9/ 8 w1 t ,hammurabi's laws 7 also inspir$4 ,= ! frontispiece portrays ,hammurabi receiv+ 8 laws f ! ,sun-god4 ,/rauss's ,life ( ,*ri/4--,n[ t ,i am sixty ye>s old1 x occurr$ to me to see :at sort ( a book ,/rauss's ,leb5 ,jesu is be=e ,i dep>t4 ,9 my y\?1 9 ! 'sixties1 we read 9 s*ool 7( our own accord1 h[ev]7 ! la/ ,a!nian's doctr9e ( ! ,bible1 b we nev] succe$$ 9 see+ ! orig9al ,life ( ,jesus4 ,& al?\gh ,i h be5 9 libr>ies1 collect$ books1 visit$ second-h& book-/alls1 ,i h n se5 ,/rauss's book4 ,x seem$ z ?\gh x _h be5 confiscat$ by ! ,invisible ,p[]s4 ,n[ :5 ,i am sixty1 x has arriv$ & ,i tri$ to read x4 ,b ,i c\ld n4 ,x 0 simply unreadable6 ,all ^! _m pages conta9$ no?+1 & :at 0 pr9t$ seem$ to me incompreh5sible1 s\lless1 dry4 ,a man :o writes a book ab\t :at he does n und]/&2 a /ud5t :o has le>nt ! /hetic sy/ems by he>t2 a philosoph] :o tries to def9e ! beautiful2 a ma!matician :o wants to prove or disprove axioms2 a drunk5 man :o tries to play ! flute2 a feeble fooli% attempt to expla9 ,god's great miracle 9 ! ,atonem5t4 ,i ?rew ! book away1 else ,i %\ld h gone to sleep ov] x4 ,/rauss di$ 9 #ahgd1 & 9 spite ( ! la/ /age ( 8 developm5t1 :5 he did n believe any m 9 ! immortality ( ! s\l1 he sp5t 8 la/ h\rs 9 read+ ,plato's ,phd1 9 :i* at ! dea?-b$ ( ,socrates ! immortality ( ! s\l is s cle>ly demon/rat$4 ,8 dea? 0 l t ( ,socrates1 8 pupils said4 ,b !y d n in=m u :e!r ! cup ( poison 0 at h&4 ,*ri/ianity & ,radicalism4--,*ri/ianity is really m radical ?an ,radicalism4 ,*ri/ turns 8 back on ! :ole ( society ) its in/itutions1 sci5ce1 & art4 ,he w>ns u aga9/ ! scribes2 ! ri* are n 8 fri5ds1 b r ,laz>us2 ! ri* y\? is told to sell all t he has & to give to ! poor4 ,to soldi]s ,*ri/ says1 ,^? :o take ! sword %all p]i% ) ! sword4 ,he says no?+ ab\t sci5ce1 art1 & indu/ry because ,he is indiff]5t to !m4 ,he has no great illusions ab\t m51 = he calls !m a g5]ation ( vip]s4 ,& rightly2 s9ce ! e>? is a prison = ^? :o h committ$ crimes 9 heav51 we are all rascals2 b x is ! prison *apla9's duty to prea* p>don to ^? :o behave prop]ly4 ,to op5 ! prison w\ld be unwise & unlawful2 !re ,*ri/ianity diff]s f ,an>*ism4 ,give cu/om to :om cu/om is due1 & to ,cs> :at is ,cs>'s4 ,au?ority is orda9$ ( ,god1 & be>e? n ! sword 9 va94 ,*ri/ianity & ,radicalism accord+ly agree 9 _! criticism ( society1 b n 9 ! inf]5ces !y draw4 ,! ,*ri/ian endures ! suff]+s ( ! prison-h\se ) religi\s resignation2 he does n wa/e valuable "t 9 mak+ fooli% proposals reg>d+ ! re=m ( prison-life & managem5t4 ,9 ord] to obta9 mitigation & p>don1 & to escape ! d>k cell & sc\rg+1 he tries to behave well1 b he does n believe t ! prison c be a place ( recreation4 ,all t ,r\sseau1 ,max ,nordau1 & ,tol/oi h said aga9/ ! faults ( society is q true1 b _! inf]5ces are false4 ,socialism1 i4e4 pagan socialism1 :i* prea*$ developm5t & progress1 w5t its crab-l c\rse backw>ds to ! trade unions :i* _h be5 dissolv$1 limit$ indu/rial fre$om1 introduc$ inquisitorial me?ods1 excommunicat$ h]etics4 ,9 ! great /rike non-sociali/s 7 refus$ wat] & gas1 bread & milk = *ildr54 ,!y compell$ ! cont5t$ to be discont5t$1 made m5 wild & despair+1 & really made ?+s worse1 :5 !y ought to h improv$ !m4 ,b 9 _! pagan ,radicalism !y did n atta9 to ! height ( ,*ri/ianity4 ,unbeliev+1 !y believ$ 9 ev]y?+ t 0 false--sci5tific fallacies1 politico-economical errors1 philosophical /upidities4 ,into a pagan "o may in/il e possible falsehood & /upidity2 b = ! tru? 9 its real relations he is deaf & bl9d4 ,to h a mod]ate quiet contempt ( ! _w1 to be already half out ( x1 "o's /aff 9 "o's h& & "o's knapsack on "o's back1 ev] ready = dep>ture1 to h clean h&s & a good consci5ce--t is ! way n to be easily assailable4 ,!n "o is n envi$1 & suff]s n f disappo9tm5ts & humiliations1 = "o is prep>$ = all1 & has anticipat$ all 9 advance4 ,vanity1 ,vanity1 sai? ! ,prea*]4 ,s[ 9 ! morn+ ?y se$1 & 9 ! ev5+ )hold n ?y h&1 = ?\ kn[e/ n :i* %all succe$1 or :e!r bo? alike are good4 ,:]e ,are ,we8--,if m5 only knew :]e !y are6 ,! description :i* ! anci5ts gave ( ,t>t>us exactly fits our condition 9 ?is life4 ,! ambiti\s man rolls 8 /one up ! hill l ,sisyphus1 & :5 he has got x to ! top x rolls d[n aga94 ,a c]ta9 ar*itect sp5t tw5ty-five ye>s ( 8 life 9 work+ & intrigu+ 9 ord] to build a temple = ! /ate4 ,! temple 0 built & consecrat$1 a tor*-light procession 0 held 9 hon\r ( ! ar*itect1 & he 0 cr[n$ ) a laurel-wrea?4 ,! next day ! newspap]s in=m$ u t ! temple mu/ be pull$ d[n because x 0 a failure4 ,! ar*itect di$ half a ye> aft]w>ds 9 an asylum2 ! temple 0 demoli%$ & ! ar*itect's "n =gott5 & oblit]at$4 ,tantalus1 ! ri* mis]1 /&s 9 ! mid/ ( a spr+ ( wat]1 b _c dr9k2 bran*es lad5 ) fruit hang ov] 8 head1 b :5 he /ret*es out 8 h& to pluck a fruit a gu/ ( w9d comes & te>s ! bran* away4 ,! ri* man has work$ & sw9dl$ till old age beg9s4 ,!n at la/1 :5 ! gr\se come fly+ t[>ds him1 he has no tee? left2 8 w9e-cell> is full1 b ! doctor has =bidd5 him w9e4 ,t is ,tantalus6 ,ixion revolves on 8 :eel1 at "o mom5t up1 at ano!r d[n4 ,! anci5ts assign$ z ! reason ( 8 puni%m5t t he _h boa/$ ( ! fav\r ( a woman :o _h nev] be5 84 ,! ,danaides1 ! coquettes1 are p]petually draw+ wat]1 b _! vessel is l a sieve2 ev]y?+ ent]s x1 b no?+ rema9s4 ,all day long & e day "o he>s ! expression ,t is hell6--su* is ! univ]sal view4 ,:5 ?+s look a little bright]1 ! table is cov]$1 ! b$ made1 & we feel well aga94 ,we *eat ourselves (t5 ) alcohol1 & cont9ue our somnambulism4 ,!n we are awok5 by a noise1 />t up1 ru% ab\t1 weep1 & !n g to sleep aga94 ,at la/ sleep is bani%$ once = all1 & we wake nev] to sleep any m4 ,once we are well awake no opiates are ( avail4 ,!n we discov] ! :ole *eat4 ,we see :]e we are1 & :at our pa/1 :i* seem$ s real1 04 ,! comp>atively wise man !n turns away f ! phantoms & %ad[s ( reality 9 ord] to seek ! o!r1 ! true1 ! actual ,real4 ,!n ! /ate is se5 to be a prison2 ! def5d]s ( ! fa!rl& are body-snat*]s2 society is a madh\se1 ^: w>d]s are ! (ficials & police2 family life is concub9age2 capitali/s are usur]s2 ! f9e arts are sup]fluities2 lit]ature is pr9t$ nons5se2 indu/ry fe$s unnecess>y luxury2 railways are in/rum5ts ( torture2 ! electric light ru9s ! eyes2 all ! bless+s ( civilisation are ei!r curses or sup]flu\s4 ,:5 we h se5 ?is1 we turn our backs on all & seek ! only ?+ t holds1 t gives a real answ]1 t fulfils :at x promises4 ,b ?is sup]-real fools call a phantom4 ,hegel's ,*ri/ianity4--,!re are two ,voltaires3 "o1 ! mock] at all def9ite religion1 :o is rev]$ by ! godless2 ! o!r1 ! fanatical *ampion ( ,god :o is ridicul$ by ! a!i/s because he believ$ 9 ,god z navely z a *ild4 ,voltaire recov]$ 8 reason be=e he di$1 z lunatics are wont to d2 :5 he di$ he 0 def9itely religi\s & took ! sacram5t4 ,!re are also two ,hegels4 ,b !y are m complicat$ ?an ,voltaire1 :o 0 z simple z a feuilletoni/4 ,hegel discov]$ ) 8 logic t :at exi/s has a "r to exi/2 he def5ds ! /atus quo1 society1 /ate1 religion ) all _! coroll>ies1 because !y h proce$$ f ,god2 ev]y?+ is "r s9ce x exi/s4 ,x belongs1 he says1 to ! ess5ce ( religion t x %\ld realise itself 9 sev]al hi/orical religi\s =ms4 ,( ^!1 h[ev]1 ,*ri/ianity is ! only "o :i* suitably expresses ! ess5ce ( religion4 ,9 h] doctr9e ( ! ,tr9ity ! ,*ri/ian ,*ur* conta9s ! nucleus ( all philosophical speculation4 ,= ?is signifies no?+ less ?an t ! ,et]nal ,god1 en?ron$ 9 ,8 maje/y ov] ! sph]e ( ! f9ite1 condesc5ds & reconciles ,himself to ! f9ite1 becomes man1 suff]s1 dies1 & returns to ,himself z ! ,holy ,_s4 ,t is well put2 b e s*ool*ild knew x already f ,lu!r's little cate*ism4 ,= :at object !n is ?is extraord9>y accumulation ( sev]al ?\s& pages ( incompreh5sible philosophy8 ,to :at purpose8 ,hegel di$ ( *ol]a 9 #ahca1 aft] trav]s+ _m devi\s ways1 z a simple1 believ+ ,*ri/ian1 )\t any philosophy1 repeat+ ! p5it5tial psalms4 ,m5 ( ,god's ,h&4--,t is ,k9d ,david's expression 7,ps4 xvii41 #ad7 :i* he uses ( ! godless1 to :om ! ,"l gave p[] ov] ,8 p ,israel :5 !y behav$ badly4 ,!reby is ! knotty problem solv$1 :y ,god gives ! godless p[]1 hon\r1 & weal?1 :ile ,he (t5 *a/ises ,8 s]vants4 ,! ,ph>aohs 7 idolat]s & wiz>ds1 b ,god's *os5 p _h to be _! slaves4 ,! ,phili/9es wor%ipp$ ,baal & ,a/>te1 b !y 7 all[$ to deva/ate ,canaan & ev5 to c>ry away ! ,ark ( ! ,cov5ant4 ,nebu*adnezz> 0 no sa9t1 q ! contr>y1 b he 0 p]mitt$ to c>ry ! *ildr5 ( ,israel into captivity4 ,good m5 are n adapt$ to be in/rum5ts ( *a/isem5t1 & ! (fice ( execution] is n an enviable "o4 ,ev]yone has 8 ,egyptian arm$ ) a rod1 :e!r !y are call$ sup]iors1 employ]s1 cu/om]s1 ! public1 newspap]s1 or ev5 public op9ion4 ,all /rive = an imag9>y indep5d5ce or s-call$ fre$om1 :ile !re is no indep5d5ce & no fre$om4 ,!re=e ! ef=t is va94 ,only "o ?+ rema9s--to reconcile oneself to ob$i5ce to human au?ority = ! ,"l's sake1 & to pay taxes :]e taxes are due4 ,& :]e "o e>ns "o's bread1 "o mu/ be polite4 ,vex1 n ?yself t ?y trade & ?y position are difficult2 ,god has s appo9t$ x4 ,night ,owls4--,! maggot 9 ! apple d\btless imag9es t ! apple 0 gr[n = its sake1 & t ! _w c\ld n exi/ )\t apples4 ,s we also imag9e t sci5ce & art are c]ta9ly necess>y4 ,sw$5borg1 9 8 description ( ano!r sph]e1 tells u h[ happy m5 c be )\t su* luxuries4 ,!y "k no?+ ( sci5ces z we see !m 9 our _w1 & wi% to "k no?+2 !y call !m '%ad[s1' & comp>e !m ) cl\ds :i* come betwe5 ! sun & ! spectator4 ,?is idea ( ! sci5ces !y h d]iv$ f c]ta9 spirits :o came f our e>? & introduc$ !mselves z ^? :o _h gr[n wise ?r\gh sci5ce4 ,^! spirits f our e>? :o made ?is claim belong$ to ^? :o see wisdom 9 su* ?+s z are pure matt]s ( memory1 su* z languages2 9 hi/orical matt]s1 :i* belong to ! lit]>y _w2 9 b>e exp]i5ces & t]ms1 especially philosophical ones4 ,because ^! h n develop$ _! faculty ( reason+ ?r\gh sci5ce1 !y h 9 _! second life little p[] ( p]ceiv+ ! tru?1 = !y see only 9 & by means ( te*nical t]ms1 :i* l hills & ?ick cl\ds ob/ruct ! sight ( reason4 ,^? :o h employ$ ! sci5ces 9 ord] to de/roy matt]s ( fai? h _! reason s ?or\ghly unsettl$ t 9 pit*-d>kness !y take false = true1 & evil = good1 l night-owls4 ,! flag ( ! univ]sity also c>ries ! sign ( an owl1 b !y d n "k :at x means4 ,apo!osis4--,:5 a man :o has be5 ne> to u dies1 he beg9s to loom magnifi$ ?r\gh a k9d ( haze4 ,all 8 less-pleas+ *>act]i/ics are oblit]at$1 z if !y 7 "p ( t du/ :i* is n[ dissolv$4 ,8 bett] self1 on ! o!r h&1 becomes l>g] & cle>]4 ,x is inde$ possible t ! lib]at$ _s becomes ennobl$ by dea?1 & t !re=e ! survivor is "r 9 =m+ a new conception ( ! p]sonality ( ! deceas$4 ,he ) :om ! survivor n[ holds spiritual int]c\rse is p]haps :at ! survivor feels him to be1 & has ceas$ to be :at he 0 9 life4 ,x is almo/ inv>iably ! case t ! survivor torm5ts himself ) reproa*es t he has be5 guilty ( "s neglect t[>ds ! dead1 has done him slight inju/ices & spok5 h>d words4 ,ev5 ! colde/-he>t$ begs ! dead secretly = =giv5ess--=giv5ess = all ev5 :5 x 0 h>dly ill-meant4 ,all ?is seems to signify t ! dead "o is alive1 & has ne$ ( k9dly ?\ghts z a comp5sation = ! reproa*es he makes himself reg>d+ ^? he has left beh9d4 ,pa9t+ ,?+s ,black4--,!re are m5 :o anticipate _! tr\bles1 hop+ !reby to neutralise or to bribe de/9y4 ,b t is a mi/ak5 calculation4 ,i "k ( an au?or :o saw a great calamity approa*+ & tri$ to write x away4 ,he compos$ a drama on t !me1 & hop$ !reby to h escap$ x4 ,soon aft]w>ds1 h[ev]1 x arriv$ & ! effect 0 z /rong z ?\gh x _h nev] be5 writt5 ab\t1 p]haps ev5 m4 ,!osophi/s say t we c create ?\ght-=ms :i* assume life & reality4 ,!y mean t m5 c s5d f a di/ance evil sugge/ions :i* o!rs c>ry out4 ,?us crim9al romances h nev] det]r$ anyone f crime2 !y h on ! contr>y giv5 sc\ndrels bright ideas = new pieces ( rascality4 ,i actually "k ( a society novel :i* criticis$ bank & jo9t-/ock company frauds1 ) ! result t su* frauds increas$4 ,x is z ?\gh "o let loose demons4 ,!re=e x is dang]\s m]ely to ?9k evil ( m52 "o may d !m h>m !reby4 ,b :at a sup]natural ef=t is necess>y always to see good :]e s little is to be f\nd6 ,& :5 we try our be/ we f9d t we h play$ ! hypocrite4 ,x is almo/ hopeless to hold ! balance level :5 x is a matt] ( judg+ m5 ju/ly1 = human nature is evil & _c be alt]$4 ,! ,?orn 9 ! ,fle%4--,:5ce come evil & ugly ?\ghts :i* />t up 9 our mo/ beautiful mom5ts1 9 ! h\r ( devotion1 & ev5 9 pray]8 ,we wi% to ignore !m2 we h ! impression t !y come f )\t4 ,b x is possible t !y are born ( ! habit ( lett+ evil ?\ghts h free c\rse 9 sil5ce & solitude4 ,/ill x is my/]i\s t ! great] ! height to :i* we h atta9$ by /riv+1 ! deep] we fall4 ,& ,i c te/ify f my own exp]i5ce t x is at ! v "t ( r5unciation & self-discipl9e t "o is mo/ liable to unclean ?\ghts & imag9ations4 ,/4 ,an?ony & o!r sa9ts are examples ( ?is4 ,a great sorr[1 = in/ance1 ! long+ = a lo/ *ild1 is ! quicke/ & be/ means ( burn+ away ! rubbi%4 ,b (t51 alas6 on ! sorr[ !re foll[s a boi/]\s joy :i* is n ( ! noble/ k9d4 ,imm$iately aft] our noble/ moods1 :5 we h be5 inspir$ by ! mo/ beautiful ?\ghts & purposes1 x is possible 9 ! next mom5t to feel l a coxcomb4 ,x is n /range t ! anci5ts believ$ 9 demons :o :isp] into "o's e> & sugge/ impure imag9ations4 ,possibly ?is 0 ,/4 ,paul's ?orn 9 ! fle%1 :i* prick$ him s t he %\ld n be too mu* uplift$4 ,despair & ,grace4--,:5 9 y\? "o s\ght to conqu] evil desires1 & ev5 h>mless ones1 ) ! sev]e/ sc\rge provid$ by religion1 & !n saw t "o c\ld n *ange "o's vices1 "o let g ( ! re9s & life w5t z x w5t4 ,"w 0 ! *ief occupation ( middle life1 & !re 0 no "t to ?9k ( "o's s\l4 ,life itself m\ld$ "o's "*1 & "o ?rew a bone to ! dog--! fle% 9 ord] to be able to "w 9 peace4 ,!n :5 9 old age we come to reflect1 & at sixty f9d t we h rema9$ v mu* ! same1 we wi% to beg9 our spiritual education1 b ) indiff]5t success4 ,we _h hop$ t c]ta9 desires w\ld disappe> & c]ta9 virtues take _! place by a k9d ( natural necessity1 z we _h believ$ :5 "y4 ,b1 alas6 t is n ! case4 ,:5 n[ we aga9 resume ! /ruggles ( our y\? ! case is ?us4 ,we h rais$ our /&>d high]1 & wi% to root out all ! we$s4 ,:at =m]ly seem$ q natural--envy ( a fell[-work]1 rev5ge on an enemy1 pride 9 success1 exultation at a foe's d[nfall1 a small :ite lie--we n[ f9d hateful4 ,& s we beg9 to /ruggle aga9/ ! outw>d manife/ations ( ^! ?+s4 ,b :5 we f9d ! inn] evil j z /rong z be=e1 we f9ally reg>d ourselves z great hypocrites & are ready to despair4 ,:]e is com=t to be f\nd !n8 ,religion only ass]ts t we are hypocrites1 & our fell[-m5 reg>d x z a fact4 ,absolute despair seizes u4 ,:at foll[s !n8 ,grace6 ,x becomes cle> to u t ev]y?+ is grace1 & f grace4 ,& t we h be5 liv+ on ! bread ( *>ity :i* we believ$ we _h e>n$4 ,! ,la/ ,act 7,f ! life ( a lead] ( ! ,r5aissance74--,! f9al act is ! mo/ important "o 9 a drama1 & a dramati/ g5]ally beg9s 8 "w at ! end4 ,we sit out a long ev5+ at ! !atre 9 ord] to see ! la/ act or h[ x w g4 ,b 9 ! significant lives ( c]ta9 m5 p l to ignore ! la/ act1 because x is uncom=table & might %[ h[ ! godless f>e at la/4 ,he :o wrote ! op]etta ,boccaccio _h to app5d ! la/ act to x2 ! jovial ,flor5t9e became a prie/ & deliv]$ lectures on ,dante's ,hell1 ?\gh he only rea*$ ! sev5te5? canto4 ,voltaire's la/ h\rs1 :5 he took ! sacram5t1 might furni% a subject = a trag$y l ! second "p ( ,fau/4 ,he9e ann\nc$ 8 conv]sion1 :i* took place 9 #ahea1 9 ! preface to ! ,romanc]o3 ,i h return$ to ,god l ! prodigal son1 aft] ,i _h f$ sw9e ) ! ,hegelians = a long "t4 ,?is preface %\ld be pr9t$ be=e e collection ( ,he9e's poems4 ,hegel s++ p5it5tial psalms on 8 dea?-b$ might =m ! subject ( a fresco pa9t+ = ! entrance-hall ( ,b]l9 ,univ]sity4 ,b ! mo/ affect+ f9al act is ,osc> ,wilde's description ( 8 prison life 9 ,de ,pr(undis4 ,he 0 ! s-call$ r5aissance lead]1 :o dis9t]r$ hea!nism ) its false wor%ip ( beauty1 :i* conta9s ! f\le/ ( all4 ,ki]kega>d#a w\ld h call$ him ! /hete1 ! ,syb>ite cold z ca/ iron1 ! egoi/ r\nd ^: petty ,i ! :ole _w 0 to revolve 9 ord] to und]/& him alone4 ,_m1 l$ a/ray l him by ! s$uc+ spirits ( 8 y\?1 rema9$ fairly free f public puni%m5t4 ,wilde seems to h be5 pick$ out to furni% a />tl+ example1 = 8 position1 at any rate 9 8 own c\ntry1 0 almo/ t ( an idol4 ,:at he wrote lacks orig9ality2 x is :ipp$-up foam2 glaz+ :i*1 :5 wa%$ (f1 leaves no texture2 x is z re/less z cross-lights1 or l a mirror 9 a public re/aurant1 9 a labyr9?9e hall ) deceptive l9es & false p]spectives2 x runs out ( ! h& l album5 or frog-spawn2 x is p]v]se z 9 ,dorian ,gray1 ! h]o ( :i* %\ld h lo/ 8 y\? by nightly excesses1 :ile on ! contr>y x is only 8 portrait :i* *anges4 ,! la/ act 0 play$1 & t outdid all horror1 0 s horrible t ,wilde himself c\ld n describe its details1 :i*1 h[ev]1 oral tradition has pres]v$ 9 a ,sw$5borgian leg5d4 ,de ,pr(undis ar\ses pity & fe>1 & "o w\ld gladly acquit ! man :o 0 p]haps ! victim ( 8 delusion2 a worldly tribunal w\ld n h judg$ him if he _h n himself appeal$ to x1 & t inde$ = a wrong done him4 ,x 0 :at our r5aissance-critic call$ a piece ( /upidity :5 he made ,wilde out to be a m>tyr ( hypocrisy1 z he call$ ju/ice4 ,wilde h[ev] seems to h tak5 ano!r view ( ! matt] to 8 imp>tial def5d]3 ,a day 9 prison on :i* "o does n weep is a day on :i* "o's he>t is h>d1 n a day on :i* "o's he>t is happy4 ,once ,i _h put into motion ! =ces ( society1 society turn$ on me & said3 ',h y be5 liv+ all ?is "t 9 defiance ( my laws1 & d y n[ appeal to ^? laws = protection8 ,y %all h ^? laws ex]cis$ to ! full4' ,a man's v highe/ mom5t1 ,i h no d\bt at all1 is :5 he kneels 9 ! du/ & beats 8 brea/ & tells u all ! s9s ( 8 life4 ,! joy ( life ^: p]fume he _h inhal$ at ,ox=d ?r\gh ,pat]'s ,r5aissance n[ began to gr[ s\r4 ,cl]gym5 & p :o use phrases )\t wisdom sometimes talk ( suff]+ z a my/]y4 ,x is really a revelation4 ,beh9d joy & laught] !re may be a temp]am5t co>se1 h>d1 & call\s4 ,pa91 unlike pleasure1 we>s no mask4 ,!re are times :5 sorr[ seems to me to be ! only tru?4 ,! secret ( life is suff]+4 ,let u add t ,wilde d]iv$ 8 mo/ dang]\s doctr9e f ,baudelaire & ,%akespe>e's sonnets4 ,& let u close ) ! new view ( ! ,r5aissance :i* he atta9$ to 9 prison3 ,to me "o ( ! ?+s 9 hi/ory ! mo/ to be regrett$ is t ! ,*ri/'s own r5aissance :i* has produc$ ! ,ca!dral at ,*>tres1 ! ,ar?urian cycle ( leg5ds1 ! life ( ,/4 ,francis ( ,assisi1 ! art ( ,giotto1 & ,dante's ,div9e ,com$y1 0 n all[$ to develop on its own l9es1 b 0 int]rupt$ & spoil$ by ! dre>y classical ,r5aissance4 ,footnote #a3 ,dani% !ologian4 ,consequ5ces ( ,le>n+4--,z soon z a man buries himself 9 books he gets black nails & dirty cuffs1 =gets to wa%1 to comb 8 hair1 & to %ave4 ,he neglects 8 duties t[>ds life1 society1 & m52 loses spiritual capacities1 becomes abs5t-m9d$1 %ort-sight$1 we>s glasses1 & takes snuff 9 ord] to keep himself awake4 ,he _c foll[ a conv]sation ) att5tion1 _c int]e/ himself 9 o!r p's affairs1 does n see ! face ( ! e>? by day nor ! />s by night4 ,beh9d 8 desire to inve/igate lies ! insidi\s ambition to ma/] 8 mat]ial1 to become an au?ority1 to tyrannise1 to make a c>e] = himself1 & to receive di/9ctions4 ,if m5 only reflect$ :at tyrants !y obey--^! black magicians :o are call$ pr(essors2 :o settle :at we are to ?9k & believe2 :o te/ & exam9e1 reject & *oose2 :o =m committees1 write h&books1 deliv] lectures1 & be/[ prizes on ^? :o accept _! hypo!ses4 ,& has x ev] occurr$ to a /ud5t to criticise 8 tea*]8 ,no2 he swall[s ev]y?+ uncritically4 ,b if he goes into a *ur* :]e he he>s ,god's own ^w reveal$ by way ( intuition to ! prophets1 !n he beg9s to ex]cise 8 critical faculty2 !n he f9ds x v difficult to compreh5d ! simple/ ?+s2 !n he wants ma!matical c]ta9ty1 :i* he consid]s ! highe/ :ile x is really ! l[e/4 ,sw$5borg says 9 "o place3 ,?\gh goodness & tru? are s5t d[n ?r\gh ! heav5s1 :5 !y rea* ! hells !y are *ang$ into evil & falsity2 ! brilliant light ( ! sun *anges into ugly col\rs & its w>m? becomes an evil od\r4 ,r\sseau4--,9 my y\? ,i read ( an ,engli%man :o %ot himself because life 0 s we>isome4 ,he _h c\nt$ ! buttons :i* he _h to unbutton & button up e day--9 8 "u-clo?+ half a doz51 9 8 day-%irt half a doz51 9 8 coll> & cuffs half a doz51 9 8 wai/coat1 tr\s]s1 & coat a doz51 9 8 boots1 gait]s1 & gloves two doz54 ,:5 he want$ to ride out he _h to *ange1 z he _h also to d = d9n] & ! ev5+4 ,?is /ory1 ?\gh absurd1 reveals ! nak$ tru?4 ,life has become s burd5some1 & half ! day is sp5t 9 useless occupations3 unnecess>y visits1 telephon+1 writ+ lett]s ab\t no?+1 read+ ! pap]s2 especially 9 mak+ "o's toilette :i* =m]ly consi/$ ( a becom+ mantle fa/5$ ) a s+le cord1 b has n[ develop$ into a :ole set ( ?+s ) buttons1 hooks1 eyes1 /r+s1 ribbons1 ne$les1 buckles4 ,our toilettes are a m9iature picture ( our civilisation ) all its "t-wa/+ fuss9ess1 mo/ ( :i* is useless nons5se4 ,! man :o lives 9 ! c\ntry & cultivates ! gr\nd ne$s nei!r art1 sci5ce1 nor lit]ature4 ,he :o has nature ne$s no art1 & religion is m ?an sci5ce & lit]ature4 ,!re are *ur*es ev]y:]e1 b museums1 !atres1 book-%ops1 & clubs only 9 ! t[ns4 ,:e!r !y are necess>y is ano!r "q4 ,t is ,r\sseau6 ,r\sseau ,aga94--,9 ,s\!rn ,france ,i once saw "s half-wild ,arab horses runn+ loose 9 a mead[4 ,!y /ill _h _! long tails to hide :at is n beautiful & to protect !m aga9/ ! /+s ( insects4 ,!y seem$ well adapt$ to _! purpose1 b !y 7 m ?an useful3 !y 7 beautiful4 ,& :5 ,i contemplat$ ! l9es 9 ^! beautiful creatures' bodies--! curve ( ! )]s su* z is n f\nd 9 geometry1 its cont9uation along ! back & lo9s2 ! noble con/ruction & movem5ts ( ! h9d-legs2 ! proportions ( ! %ank bel[ ! knee tap]+ d[n to ! ho(1 :i* leaves on ! s& graceful pr9ts l ,moori% ar*es--& :5 ! pr\d creatures sp$ ov] ! mead[ 9 full gallop ) movem5ts l t ( a sail+-boat on ! waves1 !n ! curves play$ into new h>monies & *ang$ _! =m1 tail1 mane1 & =elock float$ l drap]ies ab\t ! body1 & ,i ?\ght ,all t is c]ta9ly adapt$ = runn+1 b x is mu* m1 x is beautiful2 x has n come to be ( itself1 b x is creat$ by a ,contriv]1 a wise & great ,arti/4 ,x is1 h[ev]1 m ?an a "w ( art1 = x has life & individuality1 & no two horses are exactly alike4 ,!n ,i ?\ght ( ! attempts ( m5 to improve ?is ma/]piece1 ( ! ,engli% race-horses--^? ma*9es6 ,9 ?is process ( selection !y h *os5 ! uglie/1 dock$ _! tails1 robb$ !m ( _! faire/ ornam5t1 plac$ an apelike jockey on _! backs 9 ord] to make money by rac+4 ,to ?is c>icature m5 h degrad$ ! beautiful gift ( ,god4 ,anyone :o has le>nt at s*ool to draw a horse kn[s h[ difficult x is to make ^! l9es h>monise1 & fall & rise 9 ! "r places2 to draw ! head n too l>ge & n too small1 b exactly proportion$2 to br+ ! =ep>t & ! lo9s into symmetrical relations ) ea* o!r2 to make ! neck slope g5tly into ! f9e curve ( ! back4 ,x 0 ! "w ( _m days m]ely to copy ! outl9e correctly4 ,raphael c\ld n draw a horse2 8 ,attila rides on a rock+-horse4 ,"o is (t5 incl9$ to agree ) ,r\sseau :5 he says ev]y?+ :i* comes f ! h& ( ! ,creator is p]fect1 b :5 x falls into ! h&s ( man x is spoil$4 ,mat]ialis$ ,app>itions4--,i h nev] se5 x1 b x is said to be a fact t 9 hypnotic seances ^? :o are pres5t produce f ! half-e!rialis$ sub/ance ( ! m$ium a k9d ( be+ :i* is visible & leads an app>itional life1 s long z ! circle keeps toge!r4 ,su* among o!rs 0 ,pr(essor ,crookes' ,katie ,k+4 ,b :at causes me to believe ?is is a matt] ( ev]yday exp]i5ce4 ,m5 create _! idols out ( no?+1 & by means ( _! imag9ation fa%ion _! fell[-m51 bo? liv+ & dead1 into some?+ q diff]5t to :at !y really are4 ,^! creations naturally p>take ( _! own sub/ance & are aft] _! own lik5ess4 ,sometimes !y create some?+ really great1 sometimes a mon/]1 a demigod1 or a devil4 ,we (t5 see t hatr$ aga9/ "o p]son is1 s to speak1 pol>is$ & conv]t$ into love t[>ds 8 antagoni/4 ,a great unpopul>ity is1 9 ! p]son ( ano!r1 *ang$ into a great popul>ity4 ,! rew>d :i* %\ld h be5 giv5 to ! wor?ie/ is giv5 to ! unwor?y1 9 ord] to cru% ! des]v+4 ,at ! aw>d ( a fam\s prize "o :o 0 un9itiat$ lately ask$3 ,:y did n ,x get ! prize8 ,because ,y 0 to h x1 0 ! answ]4 ,fifte5 ye>s ago a v rem>kable book ( #fej pages 0 publi%$4 ,x obta9$ no notice 9 ! press4 ,b at ! same "t a wret*$ pamphlet receiv$ all ! praise :i* ! l>ge book ought to h _h4 ,:5 ,i read ! reviews ( ! paltry pamphlet ,i ?\ght ,i 0 read+ ^? ( ! book1 = ! subject-matt] 0 ! same4 ,rec5tly an important po/ 0 fill$ up1 connect$1 let u say1 ) road-mak+ & hydraulic /ructures4 ,! p]son :o receiv$ x 0 a v rem>kable man4 ,public op9ion 7?\gh n private7 reg>d$ him z ! mo/ des]v+ & suitable c&idate4 ,he pass$ = a di/+ui%$ eng9e]1 ?or\ghly up 9 8 pr(ession1 0 said to be well (f1 an able organis]1 dilig5t & consid]ate t[>ds 8 subord9ates4 ,n[ x is to be rem>k$ t ! man 0 no?+ ( all t2 he _h nev] made roads or con/ruct$ hydraulic works1 b left t to 8 skilful assi/ants2 he did n "k 8 pr(ession2 he neglect$ :at he _h 9 h&2 he 0 n to be f\nd 9 8 (fice1 = he play$ c>ds & sp5t ! nights 9 c>\s+4 ,he 0 h>d t[>ds 8 employees1 manag$ s badly t he nev] knew ! /ate ( 8 affairs1 & 0 c>eless 9 money matt]s4 ,h[ !n _h he come to be elect$8 ,"s said he _h be5 *os5 9 ord] to puni% & humble ! conceit$ eng9e]s :o _h become unpopul>4 ,o!rs ?\ght t ! int5tion 0 t he %\ld come to grief & be ru9$ because he 0 fe>$ & hat$4 ,h[ev] t may be1 he 0 a mat]ialis$ app>ition creat$ by ! hate1 envy1 & malignity ( ! cr[d2 he _h become an idea1 a lucky rascal1 a ru?less man ^: elevation 0 necess>y 9 ord] to /ill ! tumult4 ,he 0 l a crude mass ( ore :i* /ood = f\r hundr$ ye>s 9 ! m>ket-place & 0 suppos$ to repres5t ,ju/ice1 b 0 really ! c\nt]feit pres5tm5t ( a ?ievi% ald]man foi/$ 9 by ! burgoma/]4 ,! ,art ( ,dy+4--,! wi% = p[] is said to be a fundam5tal condition ( ! exi/5ce ( ! ego1 )\t :i* a man w\ld p]i%1 z he c\ld n resi/ ! pressure ( o!rs4 ,s we 7 taught by ! s$uc+ spirits ( our y\?4 ,b ,sw$5borg says ! ?ir/ = p[] comes f hell1 & ,balzac speaks ( ! galley-slaves ( ambition :o c nev] re/4 ,dante has a f9e v]se reg>d+ ! fate ( ! great pa9t]s3 "o mu/ retire 9 ord] to make place = ano!r2 he passes into ! %ad[ & is =gott54 ,ev5 :5 x is unju/1 z x (t5 is1 "o mu/ acquiesce 9 be+ relegat$ to ! back-gr\nd1 = m5 get tir$ ev5 ( ! be/ & desire *ange4 ,a great "n becomes oppressive1 is felt z a tyranny1 & h9d]s o!rs f also mak+ great names = !mselves4 ,napoleon & ,bism>ck saw ?is cle>ly1 = bo? said be=eh& t ! _w w\ld give a sigh ( relief :5 !y 7 gone4 ,b1 9 ord] to dep>t cont5t1 we require religi\s resignation1 complete irrevocable )drawal f ! _w4 ,su* z ,*>les ! ,fif?'s retirem5t into a mona/]y4 ,to receive a b5efit on "o's retirem5t & !n to reappe> on ! /age is n becom+4 ,if "o consid]s oneself dead to ! _w & takes no notice ( x1 !n a new life beg9s1 b on ! o!r side2 x is a mu* m peaceful "o1 = x is ! resurrection f ! dead already "h6 ,bee?ov5 0 vex$ t ! ,vi5nese 7 ungrateful & =getful :5 ,ross9i appe>$ & br\ght aga9 9 fa%ion ! ,italian op]a1 :i* ,bee?ov51 _h devot$ 8 life to extirpate4 ,bee?ov5 h[ev]1 0 a h>d1 selfi%1 & v pr\d man1 :o 0 accord+ly lit]ally torm5t$ out ( life1 9 great matt]s & 9 small4 ,increas+ deafness1 a disagreeable lawsuit1 a mad "y relative1 dome/ic sc&al1 illnesses tr\bl$ 8 la/ ye>s2 he _h ev5 to be expos$ to ! undes]v$ ridicule ( und]l+s4 ,?us1 well prep>$1 he turn$ 8 back on life1 & dep>t$ f all )\t miss+ any?+4 ,s x %\ld be1 9 ord] t no?+ %\ld b9d "o ei!r ) long+ or ) hope1 9 ord] t on ! o!r side ( ! riv] "o may n look back b g /raight =w>d4 ,! object ( ! trials ( old age is to adju/ acc\nts1 to f9i% up unsettl$ affairs1 to see ?r\gh ! *eat ( life1 & to become we>y ( ! incomplete1 s t no backw>d long+s may di/urb ! repose ( ! grave4 ,c ,philosophy ,br+ any ,bless+ to ,mank9d8--,su* 0 ! title ( a pamphlet writt5 9 ! 'sixties by a tea*] ( philosophy1 ,pontus ,wikn]4 ,! "q 0 ju/ifi$2 h[ x 0 answ]$ ,i d n rememb]1 b ! answ] mu/ h be5 evasive1 = ! writ] ( ! pamphlet 0 a pr(essor4 ,if he _h said t all philosophy1 especially sy/ematic philosophy1 0 rubbi%1 8 c>e] w\ld h be5 at an end4 ,:51 9 #ahgj at ! univ]sity1 ,i wi%$ to /udy /hetics1 ! pr(essor ( ! subject s5t me to ! lectur] 9 ord] to take lessons4 ,z he sat !re & talk$ = h\rs by ! light ( a composite c&le1 ,i tri$ to deciph] ! furr[$ br[ ( ! pale man & to asc]ta9 :e!r he really und]/ood :at he taught1 or :e!r he only taught by rote4 ,b ,i c\ld n see ?r\gh him & ,i despair$1 = ,i und]/ood no?+1 & ,i _c le>n by he>t :at ,i d n und]/&4 ,t w\ld be humbug4 ,ab\t =ty ye>s lat] ,i met ! pr(essor :o 0 n[ p5sion$1 & consequ5tly no long] a memb] ( ! college ( augurs4 ,!n ,i ask$ him :e!r he _h ev] ma/]$ /hetics8 ,good graci\s1 no6 ,t is :y ,i s5t y to ! lectur]4 ,did he und]/& !m !n8 ,i don't ?9k s4 ,b he _h a good memory4 ,!n aft] all x 0 n my fault1 & ,i 0 n m /upid ?an ! re/4 ,anyone :o reads a %ort hi/ory ( philosophy1 & obs]ves h[ "o sy/em replaces & refutes ano!r1 mu/ be incl9$ to say1 ,surely x is "t to make an end ( ?is drivel6 ,= ! :ole hi/ory ( philosophy proves t ?\ght _c solve ^! problems1 or t !y _c be solv$ by con/ruct+ a sy/em ( philosophy4 ,! few philosoph]s1 on ! o!r h&1 :o h limit$ !mselves to reflections on ! v>iegat$ m$ley ( life z se5 9 man1 politics1 & nature1 h be5 ( "s use1 b !y are h>dly c\nt$ philosoph]s4 ,"o c read fragm5ts ( ,plato ) int]e/1 & also ! unappreciat$ ,s*op5hau]1 especially 9 8 lea/-valu$ "w ,p>]ga & ,p>alipom5a1 b n 9 8 sy/ematic treatise ,! ,_w z ,w & ,idea4 ,ki]kega>d is n reg>d$ z a philosoph]1 nor are ,feu]ba* & 8 pupil ,nietzs*e1 b !y are extraord9>ily in/ructive4 ,all :o con/ruct an empty sy/em ) facts are fools4 ,su* is ,bo/rm1 :o tries to subtilise conceptions1 analyse ideas1 & classify & arrange ,god1 man1 & human life "u heads4 ,! hi/ory ( philosophy is ! hi/ory ( errors1 ! hi/ory ( ly+1 = ne>ly all philosoph]s are disguis$ rebels aga9/ ,god & oppon5ts ( religion4 ,philosophy is a hi/ory ( falsehood1 & s9ce x has demon/rat$ its own absurdity1 all pr(essor%ips ( philosophy %\ld be aboli%$4 ,= a ,*ri/ian /ate fru/rates its own aims & is fooli% if x supports a tea*] ( error & falsehood4 ,if = once 9 a way a philosoph] is religi\s1 p give him ! contemptu\s "n ( my/ic1 al?\gh v few "k :at my/icism is4 ,9 "o pr(essorial *air sits an ,hegelian & prea*es ,hegel's pan!ism z ! tru?1 & 9 ano!r sits a ,bo/rmian & pulls ,hegel to pieces4 ,b ! /ud5t mu/ be exam9$ by bo?1 & give 8 adh]5ce to bo? sy/ems toge!r4 ,t is ! high] education1 academic culture1 & le>n+ 9 its glory6 ,! mass ( p believe t all :i* is difficult to und]/& is deep1 b x is n s4 ,:at is difficult to und]/& is immature1 vague1 & (t5 false4 ,! highe/ wisdom is simple1 cle>1 & goes ?r\gh ! bra9 /raight into ! he>t4 ,set a philosoph] on ! grave :]e 8 e>?ly hopes lie buri$1 & let him disc\rse ( ,h]b]t ,sp5c] & ! bla/od]m6 ,place a philosoph] 9 ! ,privy ,c\ncil1 & let him h a %>e 9 ! conduct ( ! /ate6 ,ask a philosoph] to write a drama1 to pa9t a picture1 or ev5 to tea* s*ool-*ildr51 & he is useless4 ,philosoph] is synonym\s ) sup]annuat$ donkey6 ,away ) him6 nd :5 he compla9$ t ! ,apocryphal books 7 miss+1 ,goe! said among o!r ?+s3 ,x is sup]flu\s to raise ! "q ( au!ntic or unau!ntic 9 matt]s ( ! ,bible4 ,i reg>d ! f\r gospels z completely g5u9e1 = 9 !m %9es ! reflect$ spl5d\r ( ! l(ty p]sonality ( ,*ri/1 z div9e z any?+ :i* has appe>$ on e>?4 ,if any "o asks me :e!r ,i f9d x possible to pay him wor%ip & rev]5ce1 ,i answ]1 ',c]ta9ly6' ,!n !re foll[s "s ,voltairian talk ab\t ! sun & religi\s relics1 ab\t prie/craft & bi%ops' incomes1 :i* belong$ to ! bad tone ( ! "t4 ,^! /upid free-?9k]s c\ld n imag9e h[ ?ree c\ld be equival5t to "o1 & !re=e !y /umbl$ at ! doctr9e ( ! ,tr9ity4 ,did !y n "k t ?ree ?irds are equival5t to "o1 & t "o is equival5t to ?ree ?irds8 ,or 0 _! reason s d>k5$ by pride8 ,or did !y n "k t spiritual ?+s mu/ be spiritually judg$2 t ! ,highe/ _c be rea*$ by ! highe/ ma!matics8 ,= nei!r ,laplace nor ,po9c>1 :o busi$ !mselves ) ! ,mcanique cle/e1 rea*$ heav51 mu* less ,god4 ,n[ we ,c ,fly too6 ,hurrah6--,a fri5d ( my y\?1 :o two weeks ago di$ 9 a di/ant place1 wrote on 8 la/ po/c>d to me ^! words1 ,n[ we c fly too6 ,hurrah6 ,he 0 a pagan1 i4e4 an a!i/1 & ?is la/ ^w ,hurrah6 0 an expression ( scorn & a ?reat aga9/ heav54 ,e gift ( ,god is reg>d$ by ! pagans z a victory ov] ,god4 ,!y always ?9k t !y h made ! discov]y1 & !y /ill build at ! ,t[] ( ,babel1 ! tru? ( ^: /ory !y d5y1 = !y are ly+ spirits4 ,:5 ! pi\s ,frankl9 drew d[n lightn+ ) 8 damp tw9e1 he trembl$ & ?ank$ ,god t ,he _h n kill$ him4 ,b :5 ! godless physici/s imitat$ ,frankl91 & wi%$ to /ore ! lightn+ 9 laboratory bottles1 !y 7 sla94 ,p d inde$ make lightn+-conductors n[adays1 b !y are n always efficaci\s ev5 :5 ! conduction is "r4 ,only imag9e6--a man receives a gift1 & z a m>k ( gratitude puts out 8 tongue6 ,e "t t ,god gives some?+1 irreligi\s sci5ce celebrates a triumph--t is1 puts out its tongue6 ,t is ! nature ( sci5ce6 ,& x seems z ?\gh x 7 /ill at pres5t =bidd5 to t\* ! tree ( k1 = ! transgression ( ! prohibition is always accompani$ by +ratitude & a curse4 ,! ,fall & ,orig9al ,s94--,9 ^! times :5 ! ape-morality rules1 x is consid]$ up-to-date to *ange ! doctr9e ( vic>i\s satisfaction = t ( h]$ity4 ,! blame = our faults is put on our p>5ts1 especially1 z might be expect$1 on ! fa!r4 ,b :5 ! fa!r 0 alive1 he put ! blame on 8 fa!r1 & s on till we come to our fir/ p>5ts4 ,t is inde$ j l :at ! ,bible tea*es ab\t ! ,fall & orig9al s91 & ought to confirm ! tea*+ ( religion1 b ( c\rse t _c be6 ,t is ! doctr9e ( h]$ity4 ,b :5ce comes x8 ,:]e is ! />t+-po9t8 ,s9ce ev]yone n[adays feels burd5$ ) evil impulses & disease g]ms :i* he has inh]it$1 & all our pr$ecessors h felt ! same1 ! only ?+ left is to lay ! blame on our fir/ p>5ts4 ,h[ !n is "o to get rid ( guilt--! consci\sness ( guilt & ! evil impulses8 ,*ri/ answ]s m simply ?an ! !ologians :o repres5t ! "w ( grace z an exam9ation c\rse4 ,to-day %alt ?\ be ) ,me 9 ,p>adise1 ,he said to ! ?ief :o confess$ t he suff]$ = 8 evil de$s2 b ,he did n say s to ! o!r :o revil$ ,him4 ,g5]ally speak+1 "o %\ld take "o's doctr9e /raight f ! ,gospels1 :i* are simpl]1 great]1 div9] ?an o!r writ+s4 ,devotional books are l ! high] ma!matics1 mix$1 complicat$1 & affect$ ) human weaknesses4 ,! ,gospel4--,all boa/ ( ! ,gospel1 b !y mean ?is joyful message--! abrogation ( civic laws & ! op5+ ( ! jails2 9 a ^w1 immunity f puni%m5t = !mselves & m /r+5t regulations = o!rs4 ,t 0 ! ,r5aissance morality prea*$ at ! conclusion ( ! ,middle ,ages z at ! end ( our c5tury4 ,!y wi%$ to enlight5 mank9d by proclaim+ t ev]y?+ is lawful 7aga9/ o!rs71 & t if "o only und]/ood m51 "o w\ld =give !m4 ,he does n und]/&1 0 ! =mula 9 common use4 ,7 ,i n[ to enum]ate all ! victims ( ?is gospel1 :i* we _h to le>n1 p w\ld cry ,sc&al6 ,!n !y w\ld proce$ to expla9 ! trag$ies on natural gr\nds1 su* z neura/h5ia1 infection1 h]$ity 7b n f our fir/ p>5ts72 ! un=tunate ,engli%man1#a !y say1 0 wrongfully imprison$1 because society consi/s ( hypocrites2 n because ( 8 own s91 = x 0 n 8 own s93 !re is no s94 ,e sugge/ion t !re are misdemean\rs :i* draw d[n ! unpleasant consequ5ces1 :i* are call$ puni%m5ts1 is tak5 ill4 ,five ye>s ago ,i he>d "o ( ^! evangeli/s exclaim1 ,morality6 t is a ^w :i* ,i _c take 9 my m\?4 ,?is say+ 0 (t5 quot$4 ,b %ortly aft]w>ds ! same g5tleman set heav5 & hell 9 motion because a pupil _h us$ a /atem5t 9 "o ( 8 lectures to base a treatise on4 ,?is innoc5t proce$+ ! evangeli/ /igmatis$ z !ft1 & he wi%$ to annihilate ! ?ief4 ,! "y man answ]$ q rightly t 9 t case p ought to be puni%$ = /eal+ _! k out ( manuals )\t ackn[l$gm5t1 or t if !y gave *apt] & v]se = e /atem5t1 a treatise w\ld look l ?is3 ,sum1 ',i am' 7,rabe's ,gramm>1 #f? edition1 ,/ockholm1 #aheh71 call$ an auxili>y v]b 7,sundel9 ,s*w$is*e ,spra*lehre1 rebro1 #aija71 :i* indicates ! passive voice 7,sjob]g1 ,logic1 ,upsala1 #ahie71 & s on4 ,?is g5tleman 0 a v sev]e morali/1 al?\gh he c\ld n take ! ^w morality 9 8 m\?4 ,footnote #a3 ,osc> ,wilde4 ,religi\s ,hea!n4--,h>dly any:]e are !re su* religi\s m5 z ! ,ori5tals4 ,five times a day ! muezz9 calls f ea* m9>et 9 ea/]n l&s3 ,god is great6 ,i be> witness t !re is no ,god b ,god6 ,i be> witness t ,muhamm$ is ! ,apo/le ( ,god6 ,come to pray]6 ,come to salvation6 ,god is great6 ,!re is no ,god b ,god6 ,e>ly 9 ! morn+ !y cry 9 addition1 ,pray] is bett] ?an sleep4 ,on ! /reets & m>ket-places1 9 ! %ops & inns1 ev]y:]e "o is summon$ to pray]4 ,is x n impressive to see a :ole p1 ( :om n "o is a%am$ ( 8 ,god--n "o6 ,a p among :om1 five times a day1 ?is joyful message comes f ! ,"l1 ! ,all-,m]ciful1 :o has n =sak5 & has n repuls$ !e6 ,& is x n uplift+ 9 ! mid/ ( ! sev]e & squalid tasks ( e day to he> a voice f above witness+1 )\t attempt+ to conv9ce1 t ,god is ,god8 ,any?+ s p]v]se & /upid z free-?9k+ & a!ism does n exi/ 9 ! ,ori5t4 ,if anyone attempt$ to ass]t su* an abom9able t5et z ! non-exi/5ce ( ,god1 he w\ld be imprison$ or put to dea?4 ,& if anyone came & tri$ to close ! mosques 444 b no "o comes1 = ! mosques are nev] empty3 ,by ! spl5d\r ( ! day1 ,by ! d>kness ( ! night1 ,?y ,"l ha? n =sak5 !e1 ,nei!r ha? ,he repell$ !e4--,koran4 ,t is ! implicit & *ildlike fai? :i* ,*ri/ian hea!n call$ intol]ance1 fanaticism1 & s on4 ,! ,pleasure-,g>d54--,if ! inexp]i5c$ man knew h[ mu* suff]+ a sep>ation betwe5 a m>ri$ pair involves1 he w\ld reflect be=e tak+ su* a /ep4 ,! two s\ls h s gr[n into ea* o!r1 t ! dissolution ( ! duplex p]sonality :i* !y =m is ! mo/ pa9ful op]ation possible4 ,x is a k9d ( dea?4 ,:5 "o uproots ! we$s r\nd a fl[]1 ! fl[] fades away--p>tly because its roots are injur$1 p>tly because x has be5 depriv$ ( %ade1 moi/ure1 & support1 or p]haps m]ely companion%ip4 ,! sorr[ 9 ?is case resembles t :i* foll[s on a dea?1 b is n s uplift+ & ennobl+4 ,! image ( ! sep>at$ wife is always pres5t to "o's eyes1 & becomes idealis$ 9 memory2 ugly traits are oblit]at$1 "o beg9s to reproa* oneself1 !re is a pa9ful empt9ess & long+2 "o's s\l is tom 9 pieces by h] dep>ture2 %e has c>ri$ (f its f9e/-fibr$ roots1 & "o feels z ?\gh ble$+ to dea?4 ,"o c no m ex*ange common recollections4 ,! loss ( ! illusions ( ! fir/ spr+tide ( love %att]s "o's fai? 9 ev]y?+4 ,a cry ( m\rn+ r+s ?r\gh ! univ]se z ?\gh an irrep>able crime _h be5 committ$1 su* z ! s9 aga9/ ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,love1 ,god's creative p[]1 ! sun's w>m? t fills ! heav5s1 ! orig9 ( life has ceas$ to exi/4 ,*aos & d>kness resume _! reign4 ,x is a spiritual dea?1 )\t com=t & )\t hope4 ,nev]!less some?+ rema9s1 if !re ev] 0 some?+ !re4 ,& ?\gh bo? may m>ry aga91 !re is a recollection ( ! =m] tie4 ,x _c be z ?\gh x _h n be51 nor be =gott54 ,h[ev] unpleasant ! relation%ip may h be51 /ill 9 its be/ h\rs x resembl$ some?+ :i* is n to be f\nd on e>?4 ,9 its glori\s beg9n+ x 0 a ,g>d5 ( ,ed51 su* a height5+ ( exi/5ce t "o felt ne>] ,god4 ,t 0 no optical delusion1 b a high] reality4 ,!n came ! ,fall & ! expulsion4 ,b ! memory ( ! fir/ joy rema9s1 & x is true t a real love nev] ends4 ,p ask :e!r x cont9ues on ! o!r side ev5 :5 incl9ation has *ang$ its object4 ,probably "s ( x rema9s1 b 9 an incompreh5sible way1 ev5 if "o 7 to suppose t ! p]sonality is resolv$ into sev]al monads1 ( :i* "o seeks a simil> "o1 & ano!r ano!r2 & :at is call$ love c "h become fri5d%ip4 ,accord+ to ,plato's doctr9e ( rem9isc5ce & ! re9c>nation !ory ( ! !osophi/s1 "o might believe t :5 two fall 9 love x is only a meet+ aga94 ,& all ! beauty :i* !y !n see r\nd !m is ! reflection ( ! memories ( "s f> beautiful l& :]e !y h met be=e1 b :i* !y n[ rememb] = ! fir/ "t4 ,! cont9ual illusions ( love w\ld !n be connect$ ) exp]i5ces on ! o!r side1 :i* n[ come up 9 memory f ! side :]e all is completion & beauty4 ,!re=e we h su* a t]rible awak5+ f our dreams ( happ9ess :5 we f9d t ev]y?+ d[n "h is di/ort$1 ev]y?+ a c>icature1 ev5 love itself4 ,! ,happ9ess ( ,love4--,ev5 ?\gh e>?ly love be a c>icature or bad copy ( ! heav5ly x has "s traits ( resemblance to its prototype4 ,9 ! fir/ spr+-days ( love !re are elevat$ mom5ts1 9 :i* "o compassionates o!r mortals :o are n s happy4 ,we tremble = our bless$ness1 f9d+ x n q j2 yet x is possible ev5 to wi% = a mis=tune to rectify ! balance4 ,!re 0 a dramati/ :o became engag$1 & at ! same "t _h j celebrat$ 8 greate/ triumph on ! /age4 ,! gr\nd seem$ to sway "u 8 feet1 ! air c>ess$ 8 face1 m5 paid him homage on ! /reets2 he felt h>dly on e>?1 z he 0 belov$ by ! woman :om he lov$4 ,!n !re came ! cra% ( a failure6 ,all 8 =m] m]its 7 =gott52 he 0 call$ a noodle & a *>latan4 ,b he 0 s happy 9 8 love t he did n feel ! bl[4 ,he felt1 on ! contr>y1 an inn] joy t mis=tune _h drawn him & 8 fiance clos] toge!r2 he 0 s high t he did n grudge m5 ! joy ( pull+ him d[n a little4 ,8 fame _h begun to bore !m2 n[ t he 0 d[n1 he f\nd sympa?y1 :ile =m]ly he _h be5 ! object ( envy4 ,t 0 ! miracle ( love6 ,x made him s little self-seek+1 t on behalf ( m5 he suff]$ "u 8 oppressive fame & 8 great happ9ess4 ,our ,be/ ,feel+s4--,life is n beautiful2 on its animal1 dome/ic1 & bus9ess sides x br+s u into s _m ugly situations4 ,life is cynical s9ce x ridicules our nobl] feel+s & fl+s scorn on our fai?4 ,!re=e x is difficult to use f9e words 9 ! /ress ( e-day2 "o hides "o's bett] feel+s 9 ord] n to expose !m to ridicule4 ,"o might !re=e say t m5 are p>tly bett] ?an !y appe> to be4 ,"o is =c$ to play ! sceptic 9 ord] n to p]i%1 & "o is made cynical by ! cynicism ( life4 ,x is !re=e unju/ to call m5 hypocrites 9 a bad s5se1 = mo/ m51 on ! contr>y1 make !mselves out worse ?an !y are4 ,:5 a man writes a lett] to an intimate fri5d1 or to ! woman he loves1 he puts on 8 fe/ive dress2 t is befitt+4 ,& 9 ! quiet lett]1 on ! :ite pap]1 he expresses 8 be/ feel+s4 ,! tongue & ! spok5 ^w are s vulg>is$ by ev]yday use1 t !y _c say al\d ! beautiful ?+s :i* ! p5 says sil5tly4 ,x is n pos+ or attitud9is+1 x is n falsity :5 "o exhibits 9 correspond5ce a bett] s\l ?an 9 ev]yday life4 ,! lov] is n untrue 9 8 love-lett]s4 ,he does n make himself out bett] ?an he is2 he becomes bett]1 & is s = ! pass+ mom5t4 ,he is true at su* mom5ts1 ! greate/ :i* life grants u6 ,blood-,frat]nity4--,blood-frat]nity us$ to be seal$ ) a sacr$ c]emonial--! m+l+ ( blood4 ,! life ( ! s\l is 9 ! blood1 says ! ,old ,te/am5t2 & x is probable t !re 0 some?+ my/]i\s 9 x :i* we d n und]/&1 z 9 all sacram5ts1 :i* we und]/& z little4 ,an old saga tells u t ,torg] & ,tormod _h m+l$ _! blood & _h f\ght battles & won victories toge!r4 ,b "o day1 :5 ,torg] 0 intoxicat$ by success1 he c>elessly rem>k$ to 8 bro!r1 ,:i* ( u1 d y ?9k1 w\ld prove ! bett] man if we v5tur$ on a conflict8 ,i don't "k1 answ]$ 8 bro!r1 b ,i "k t y\r "q makes an end ( our liv+ toge!r4 ,i w n rema9 ) y any m4 ,i did n s]i\sly mean t we %\ld try our /r5g? on "o ano!r4 ,b x came into y\r m9d1 s9ce y said x4 ,he dep>t$1 & _! tie ( bro!rhood 0 at an end4 ,! n>rator adds1 ,! bond ( _! fri5d%ip 0 s fragile1 t x c\ld n be> ! t\* ( an ov]-ha/y ?\ght4 ,m>riage is a blood-bond & m--x is a sacr$ transaction4 ,x is s t5d] & s fragile1 t a ha/y ^w--a joke1 z "o calls x--c make an end ( x = ! :ole ( life4 ,x is no use aft]w>ds to say1 ,x 0 only a je/4 ,we h ! answ] ( ! m$ival ,norse poet ,tormod1 ,x came into y\r m9d4 ,long ye>s mu/ pay = ! wrong ( a second4 ,& !n1 ,:i* ( u two d y ?9k w\ld prove ! ma/]8 ,z soon z a m>ri$ pair conceive _! relation z a /ruggle = p[]1 :ile x is j ! contr>y1 hell comes into ! h\se4 ,! woman has an incl9ation to rule4 ,b if1 9 h] def5ce1 ,i say t ?is incl9ation is h] way ( react+ aga9/ ! suppress+1 n oppressive1 man 7= su* a "o ,i h nev] se571 ,i hope ,i %all n h to rep5t x4 ,if we v5tur$ on a conflict6 ,yes1 !n x is z if "o drew a weapon on oneself1 or z if a k+dom 7 divid$4 ,e bl[ :i* "o deals1 /rikes "o's own he>t4 ,cic]o says t fri5d%ip is only possible betwe5 fri5dly equals4 ,sw$5borg says t m>riage is impossible betwe5 godless p4 ,i am conv9c$ ( x2 = )\t contact ) ,god1 :o is ! ,f\nta9-head ( love1 no /ream ( illum9ation c fl[ f ! ,et]nal4 ,i h describ$ ! m>riage ( godless p4 ,i h suff]$ = do+ s1 b ,i d n regret x1 & d n recall a ^w4 ,x is z ,i said4 ,! dev\t d n describe _! m>riages1 & !y write nei!r dramas nor romances2 lit]>y hi/ory :i* mo/ly deals ) irreligi\s books1 %\ld take notice ( t4 ,! ,p[] ( ,love4--,9 ,france !re lives a m>quis :o is an occulti/4 ,end[$ by nature ) a s5sitive type ( s\l1 ref9$ by education1 protect$ by weal? aga9/ ! brutality ( life1 purifi$ by suff]+ & r5unciation1 he ent]$ into contact ) ! high] =ms ( exi/5ce1 :i* ! !osophi/s call ! a/ral plane4 ,8 s5sitiv5ess 0 elaborat$ to su* a pit*1 t he became a m$ium1 & c\ld ent] into t\* ) fri5ds at a di/ance4 ,!n he met a woman belong+ to ! same spiritual sph]e1 a transp>5t airy figure1 ^: /eps 7 inaudible1 ^: words 7 r to be appreh5d$ ?an he>d4 ,?is m>ri$ pair 7 s unit$1 t ea* 01 z x 71 born 9 ! o!r4 ,he c>ri$ h] he>t ab\t 9 him lit]ally4 ,:51 on a j\rney to "s relatives1 %e 0 fright5$ by a %y+ horse & _h a fit ( palpitations1 he felt x 9 8 brea/1 & 8 he>t /ood /ill = a mom5t :5 %e fa9t$4 ,simil>ly1 :5 he once prick$ himself ) a ne$le1 %e felt x4 ,!y liv$ 9 ea* o!r1 7 ea* o!r's *ildr5 & ea* o!r's p>5ts4 ,!n %e di$4 ,he ne>ly di$ too1 did die p]haps1 & rose aga94 ,& n[ he speaks ) h]1 he>s h] voice 9 8 he>t1 lit]ally1 n 9 a figure4 ,i d n d\bt x at all1 = ,i h _h a simil> exp]i5ce1 & mu*1 mu* m4 ,! ,box on ! ,e>4--,i 0 ?irty ye>s old1 & life 0 m9e = ! fir/ "t aft] ,i _h la9 9 ! potato-cell> & %ot out :ite rootlets in/ead ( gr[+4 ,i _h secur$ a home1 wife1 & *ild1 & 0 my own ma/]4 ,aft] ,i _h done ! day's task ,i us$ to invite fri5ds 92 ,i call !m fri5ds because !y got on well ) me & ,i ) !m4 ,we did no h>m2 we play$ l *ildr5 ) words & s\nds2 we disguis$ ourselves 9 ord] to look m f9e2 we compos$ & deliv]$ spee*es4 ,i ?9k no "o w\ld grudge me ^! h\rs4 ,b soon !re 0 some?+ ( satiety 9 x2 we _h w\nd$ ! dignity ( sacr$ sleep2 ! w9e turn$ s\r 9 ! glasses4 ,"o night t[>ds morn+1 9 a *e]ful circle1 at a full table1 my high spirits broke b\nds1 s9ce =tune _h giv5 me ev]y?+ at once1 & ,i utt]$ a ^w :i* a m>ri$ man %\ld n utt]4 ,i imm$iately receiv$ a box on ! e> f a /rong h&4 ,i f\nd x q natural1 & cont9u$ :at ,i 0 say+1 b 9 ano!r & bett] tone4 ,no "o took notice ( :at _h happ5$2 all w5t on z be=e2 & we all p>t$ z fri5ds4 ,he :o gave me ! buffet 0 a ba*elor ( n sup]f9e morals4 ,if he _h disapprov$ my po9t ( view1 x mu/ h be5 a v l[ "o4 ,= sev]al days ,i _h a blue m>k on my *eek4 ,my wife said no?+1 only "o ( my fri5ds let fall a rem>k1 ,h[ c\ld y put up ) t8 ,i mu/ h felt t ,i des]v$ x6 ,o!rwise ,i _c expla9 x4 ,n[1 :5 ,i am sixty ye>s old1 ,i wi% t ,i _h receiv$ sev]al su* boxes on ! e>1 = ! fir/ 0 no use4 ,recognis+ t1 ,i feel t x 0 a great piece ( good-=tune t ,i 0 able to confess x4 ,& n[ ,i %\ld l to live tw5ty ye>s m1 9 ord] to =get my sl[ness to le>n1 ) its sad consequ5ces4 ,saul1 ,aft]w>ds ,call$ ,paul4--,saul 0 /&+ by :5 ,/eph5 0 /on$1 or1 at any rate1 kept ! clo!s ( ^? :o /on$ him4 ,he also p]secut$ ,*ri/ & ! ,*ri/ians4 ,! "q is (t51 almo/ con/antly ask$1 ,_h he a "r1 lat] on1 to be sev]e aga9/ ^? :o ?rew ! /ones8 ,"o c only answ] ) an unconditional ,yes1 = he wi%$ to make good ! wrong he _h done2 & x 0 8 duty to speak ) 8 new tongue4 ,b he is hon\rable & c\rage\s en\gh to rem9d 8 he>]s t he does n reg>d himself z an exception4 ,he calls himself ! *ief ( s9n]s1 & says1 ,i ?ank ,him :o has enabl$ me1 :o 0 =m]ly a blasphem]1 & p]secutor1 & evil do]2 b m]cy 0 %[n to me because ,i did x ignorantly 9 unbelief4 ,h[ entirely ,paul felt himself to be q a diff]5t p]son to ! dead ,saul "o sees f 8 trem5d\s sev]ity aga9/ ! two blasphem]s1 ,hym5u & ,alex&]1 :om he deliv]$ ov] to ,satan1 t !y might le>n n to blaspheme4 ,:at is to be und]/ood by ^! t]rible words1 ,i h expla9$ 9 ! ,inf]no4 ,he :o has n und]/ood x !re1 c obta9 a cle>] explanation 9 ! asylums1 :]e !re is no re/1 no peace1 only t]ror & despair4 ,^! _c be cur$ by cold or by w>m wat] ba?s1 = x is a sickness ( ! s\l1 (t5 call$ ,p>anoia1 because ! s5ses see :at is n to be se5 e day4 ,a ,sc5e f ,hell4--,! man :o _h be5 sep>at$ f 8 wife w5t "o day to fet* 8 little six-ye>-old daught] f h] "m4 ,!y meant to g = a walk1 look at ! %op-w9d[s1 & buy toys only = an h\r4 ,!y 7 to meet be=e ! "m's h\se4 ,! little "o came1 half-sad1 half-joyful1 ) a slightly rogui% look4 ,?is /reet1 ?is /reet1 ?is h\se1 ^! /airs :i* only a %ort "t ago he _h hurri$ up ) 8 h&s full ( pres5ts 9 ord] = an h\r long to see 8 beautiful home1 & ! be/ :i* life has to %[--! "y maid5ly "m putt+ h] *ild to b$6 ,! two toge!r6 ,"o /ill m beautiful ?an ! o!r6 ,& made m beautiful by love1 or a fri5d%ip :i* has sprung up 9 pa9ful solitude4 ,he took ! little girl's h&1 & !y w5t d[n ! n[ d>k5$ /reet4 ,!n ! *ild turn$ r\nd1 & said al\d1 ,mamma is com+ beh9d u4 ,:y did he n turn r\nd1 b w5t on /ill fa/]1 draw+ ! *ild ) him8 ,ask ! pa9s ( sev5 long ye>s1 :i* _h robb$ him ( 8 self-e/eem s t he no long] believ$ he possess$ ! poor solit>y he>t t foll[$ him contritely & long$ = reconciliation4 ,! *ild turn$ r\nd yet aga91 & sev]al times1 z ?\gh x 7 a plot laid 9 all fri5dl9ess1 & ! man felt by ! ?robb+ ( ! little h& h[ its he>t beat 9 hope & expectation4 ,b he w5t /raight =w>d1 = he did n believe any m 9 ! possibility ( a return1 & he did n d>e to enc\nt] a scornful smile1 or a pr\d1 %>p ^w4 ,he turn$ d[n side-/reets1 b he felt t %e foll[$4 ,:o suff]$ mo/ dur+ ?is five m9utes 9 hell1 9 ?is int]play ( feel+s8 ,! *ild ) h] beautiful hopes :i* 7 disappo9t$2 ! "m ) h] injur$ self-e/eem1 z %e s\ght on ! /reet :at %e _h ?r[n away2 or ! man ) unc]ta9ty & d\bt 9 "o half ( 8 he>t1 & 9 ! o!r ! immeasurable grief ( be+ oblig$ to hurt ! innoc5t little *ild-he>t8 ,b :ile x 0 actually go+ on1 he felt almo/ no?+1 = he 0 /unn$ by ! %ock4 ,n till ! next day did he feel ! pa9 9 8 he>t1 & ! long] ! "t t elaps$1 ! m t pa9 increas$4 ,! ,jewel-casket or 8 ,bett] ,half4--,:5 a man dur+ ! fir/ days ( love has deposit$ ! be/ & faire/ "p ( 8 s\l ) ! woman he loves1 he has laid up a treasure ) h]4 ,if !n he s9ks bel[ ! heavy burd5s ( ev]yday life & loses 8 ornam5ts1 he g5]ally f9ds !m aga9 ) h]2 %e has kept & gu>d$ !m 7n always1 h[ev]74 ,at su* mom5ts he calls h] 8 bett] half1 & su* %e is4 ,%e c1 at ! "r "t1 return to him a beautiful ?\ght or ^w1 :i* he has giv5 h] once2 !n he is a%am$ & lam5ts ov] 8 fall4 ,& :5 he sees 8 e>li] bett] self 9 h]1 he realises h[ l[ he has sunk1 :ile %e /ill /&s on ! cle> cliff4 ,!n he looks up to h]1 cries out = help1 & :5 %e rea*es him h] h&1 he is rais$1 & he ?anks h] = hav+ sav$ him4 ,paul expla9s ?is relation betwe5 man & wife1 :i* is s (t5 misund]/ood & really difficult to und]/&4 ,= 9 ! ,"l1 nei!r is ! man )\t ! woman1 nor ! woman )\t ! man2 = z ! woman is f ! man1 s also is ! man by ! woman1 b all is ( ,god4 ,!re=e 9 a true m>riage nei!r ! husb& nor ! wife appe> sep>ate1 b bo? reg>d !mselves1 & are reg>d$ by o!rs1 z "o be+4 ,if "o receives any good f ! o!r1 ! recipi5t %\ld ?ank1 & ! giv] also because he 0 able to give4 ,!y ?ank ea* o!r because !y are "o be+1 & ! int]*ange ( gifts is cont9u\s & unceas+1 s t !y _c di/+ui% betwe5 giv+ & tak+4 ,!re=e a true m>riage is indissoluble2 x _c suff] sev]ance1 = :at x possesses is n ali5able1 x is common2 x is a spiritual prop]ty :i* _c be sold or b\ght4 ,b 9 ! r\gh tumult ( life ! man loses 8 ideal "p soon] ?an ! woman1 :o sits %elt]$ by ! w>m he>? ( ! well-protect$ home4 ,!re %e c gu>d 8 jewel-casket = him1 & if %e does x fai?fully1 he w always look up to h]1 z to 8 bett] self4 ,! ,mummy-,c(f94--,sev5 ye>s ( m>riage _h pass$2 !y _h n t5d$ _! lamp1 b x smok$ s t ev]y?+ 9 ! beautiful home 0 black5$4 ,n[ ea* sits 9 _! own com] ( ! dwell+1 because !y _c look ea* o!r 9 ! eyes4 ,!y lam5t ea* o!r z dead1 & miss ea* o!r l lo/ *ildr54 ,!n he op5s a draw] & takes out a little box4 ,a sc5t ( fre% roses /reams into ! room1 al?\gh x comes f dry rose-leaves press$ betwe5 %eets ( pap]4 ,^? are h] lett]s :i* %e wrote dur+ h] engagem5t sev5 ye>s ago4 ,h[ beautiful x all is3 ! pap] ) its f9e1 /ill unblea*$ lav5d] t9t & gold bord]s1 j l ! w$d+-breakfa/ glasses2 ! envelopes c>efully fold$ l ! embroid]$ cu%ion-cov] ( ! cradle2 ! lett]s !mselves 9 beautiful r[s ( g5tle words f beautiful lips :i* smile gracefully4 ,beauty & love 9 ?\ghts & feel+s--!re he _h f\nd h] aga9 9 ! little box embalm$ ) rose-leaves & violets4 ,b n[ %e is dead1 & he weeps6 ,& at ! o!r end ( ! h\se %e sits ov] h] little mummy-c(f9 & speaks ) h] belov$ dead1 & weeps4 ,lo/ = ev]6 ,= ev]6 ,9 ! ,attic4--,only ?ree ye>s _h pass$ s9ce 8 m>riage1 & n[ ! /orm _h c>ri$ away all--8 wife & *ild4 ,he _h occasion to g up to ! attic to fet* some?+ :i* _h be5 put away !re4 ,s he came up to ?is room1 :]e x always ru/l$ & creak$1 & cats slunk ab\t1 & ! visc]a ( ! h\se1 s to speak1 7 visible 9 beams & *imney1 :]e !re 7 ru/ & soot & hang+ cobwebs4 ,he unfa/5$ ! padlock4 ,!re lay all ! flotsam & jetsam aft] ! wreck4 ,x 0 too late to turn back1 & he rema9$4 ,!re 0 ! canopy ( _! m>riage-b$1 ) gre5 silk & gilt-brass ornam5ts4 ,!re 0 ! cradle ( ! little "o1 & ! six milk-bottles :i* ! "m always us$ to wa% ) h] small h&s 9 ! ice-cold wat]2 all ! fl[]-vases & glasses :i* came into ! h\se on ! w$d+ ev5+1 :5 ! table 0 laid 9 ! hall4 ,!re /ood ! basket once fill$ ) roses1 :i* %e _h receiv$ on h] engagem5t1 :i* _h aft]w>ds become a "w-basket4 ,!re 7 )]$ b\quets1 laurel-wrea?s1 & ev5 books1 pres5ts f him at ,*ri/mas & on bir?days1 ) beautiful inscriptions4444 ,b !re 7 also prehi/oric articles3 pieces ( furniture belong+ to h] girlhood :i* %e _h br\ght into ! new home--a ,japanese umbrella adorn$ ) *rysan!mums & gold5 pheasants1 a small c>pet1 a fl[]-/&4444 ,b :y did all ^! relics lie "h 9 ! du/ & soot1 & n d[n/airs ) him :o *]i%$ ^? memories8 ,0 x t he did n d>e to see !m e day1 or did n wi% to8 ,!n 8 eyes fell on a little toy cupbo>d1 :i* lay 9 a pap]-basket4 ,!re occurr$ to 8 m9d ! fa9t recollection ( a mom5t l a ,*ri/mas ev5+1 a *ild's eyes1 little :ite milk tee?1 ! fir/ musical-box :i* ! little "o play$ to ! ,*ri/mas-tree1 ! rock+-horse1 & h] dolls ,rosa & ,brita4 ,he op5$ ! toy cupbo>d2 x conta9$ no musical-box1 b a phonograph1 v small & simple1 a toy :i* c\ld only utt] a s+le ^w6 ,he did n rememb] :i*4 ,! key lay close by2 he w\nd x up & set x go+4 ,at fir/ x humm$ l a bee2 x did n /+1 h[ev]1 b :isp]$ ! only ^w x c\ld1 ,d>l+6 ,& 9 h] voice6 ,yes1 %e _h spok5 x into ! phonograph1 ?\gh he _h =gott5 x4 ,d>l+6 ,!n he cri$ to ,god1 !n he rag$ aga9/ fate1 & !n he fell to ! gr\nd6 ,& z he lay !re he c\ld only lam5t1 ,if !y 7 at lea/ only dead6 ,if4444 ,= !y 7 n dead4 ,!y liv$4 ,t 0 ! ?+ :i* c\ld n be alt]$ nor aton$ =1 & all ^! ?+s 7 n relics2 !y 7 ! flotsam & jetsam ( a wreck4 ,! ,sculptor4--,ev5 :5 a man has f\nd a ma/]piece ( creation 9 8 wife1 he /ill tries to improve away little faults 9 design & col\r1 9 ord] to make 8 "w ( art z free f faults z possible4 ,8 little wife does n always und]/& t1 & (t5 becomes irritable4 ,y only see faults 9 me4 ,on ! contr>y1 y are = me ! mo/ beautiful t exi/s1 b ,i want to h y p]fect4 ,y %\ld1 = example1 nev] be angry1 = !n y\r beautiful eyes gr[ ugly1 & ,i suff]4 ,y mu/ n dress 9 v]digris-col\r1 = t does n suit y1 & y look poison\s1 s t ,i turn my looks away4 ,& s on4 ,eat+ is n beautiful1 & to wat* "o's d>l+ /[+ away food 9 h] beautiful m\?1 :i* ought to speak beautiful words1 smile bewit*+ly1 & purse up h] t5d] lips to a k9d ( fl[]-bud :i* "o inhales 9 a kiss--t may be d[nright repugnant6 ,!re=e "o is accu/om$ to hide ?is unseemly function "u light conv]sation1 & =gets :at ! beautiful m\? is occupi$ )4 ,y are always f9d+ fault6 ,say some?+ nice = once4 ,c y n read 9 my eyes t ,i admire y2 ,i d n g5]ally say x fir/ ) my lips4 ,b ,i want y to be p]fect4 ,t is ! :ole matt]6 ,on ! ,?re%old at ,five ,ye>s ( ,age4--,a c]ta9 ,dr4 ,ogle /ates 9 8 /ati/ics t 9 six-&-tw5ty ye>s f\r cases ( suicide h tak5 place among *ildr5 betwe5 five & t5 ye>s old4 ,:5 ,i read t1 betwe5 five & t5 ye>s old1 ,i ?\ght1 ,no6 betwe5 five & t56 ,is t possible8 ,& ! reason ( x8 ,i c\ld n ?9k m1 b ,i saw "o sc5e1 two sc5es1 ?ree sc5es4444 ,! little girl 0 five ye>s old2 %e 0 play+ 9 ! room ne> h] "m2 *ildr5 mu/ h some?+ to d1 b ! "m 0 n]v\s1 because %e _h be5 go+ into gaiety & flirt+ beyond measure4 ,don't rock ! horse2 x makes mamma's head a*e4 ,! little "o took ! cat1 & p9*$ x1 s t x mew$4 ,don't d t1 *ild2 mamma is ill4 ,! *ild 0 good1 & did n wi% to be tr\blesome4 ,%e sat d[n at ! table1 & 0 sil5t 9 ord] n to irritate mamma4 ,b a *ild's little body _c be /ill2 nor ought x inde$2 x moves ( itself4 ,probably ! *ild mu/ h be5 s++ a song to itself1 = ! little unruly feet beat "t aga9/ ! legs ( ! *air4 ,! "m />t$ up1 ,g to ,ell5 9 ! kit*51 disob$i5t *ild6 ,! *ild 0 n disob$i5t2 d\bly w\nd$ 9 h] little he>t1 %e w5t into ! kit*51 good & ob$i5t4 ,b imm$iately aft]w>ds %e reappe>$ 9 ! doorway1 ,ell5 0 wa%+ up4 ,!re /ood ! *ild on ! ?re%old1 turn$ out & repuls$ f bo? sides1 & c\ld n g any:]e4 ,%e look$ l a despair+ *ild1 te>less1 b ) all ! t]ror ( ! lonely 9 h] face4 ,dumb1 turn$ to /one1 z ?\gh 9 ! :ole _w !re 7 no place = h]1 z ?\gh no "o w\ld h h]1 & %e knew n :y4 ,at ?is mom5t %e really /ood on ! ?re%old ( life1 = %e sudd5ly bright5$ up1 & approa*$ ! op5 w9d[1 :i* 0 high above ! gr\nd4 ,to ! hon\r ( ! "m1 ,i mu/ confess t %e has describ$ ?is sc5e to me ) ! greate/ remorse2 x end$ by h] spr++ up1 tak+ ! *ild 9 h] arms1 & play+ ) h] till ! sun w5t d[n4 ,if any?+ _h happ5$ to ! *ild1 ,i %\ld h liv$ 9 a hell ( self-reproa*6 ,& n[ ,i ?9k2 = e mom5t :i* ,i _h n devot$ to my *ild1 = e little joy :i* ,i _h d5i$ h]1 ,i w\ld1 if x _h dep>t$1 weep my s\l out ( my body2 ,i w\ld plunge into space & seek ! *ild "u ! />s 9 ord] to beg h] =giv5ess1 if ,i c\ld be =giv54444 ,to ?9k ( x6 ,at five ye>s old1 on ! ?re%old ( life6 ,goe! on ,*ri/ianity & ,sci5ce4--,z ,i wad$ 9 ,pr(essor ,delitzs*'s dung-heap1#a ,i rea*$ at la/ 8 ?ird lecture4 ,9 ! la/ l9es ( ! la/ page ,i f\nd a pe>l1 :i* ,i w set1 9 ord] to %[ x to ^? :o misuse poor ,goe!'s "n = _! hea!ni% propag&a4 ,9 a conv]sation ) ,eck]mann1 on ,m>* #aa1 #ahcb1 t is1 elev5 days be=e 8 dea?1 ,goe! spoke ^! ev] memorable words3 ,let m5tal culture g on advanc+1 let ! natural sci5ces g on ga9+ 9 dep? & bread?1 & ! human m9d exp& z x may1 x w nev] g beyond ! elevation & moral culture ( ,*ri/ianity z x %9es 9 ! ,gospel4 ,t 0 ! fruit ( a life ( eighty ye>s sp5t 9 seek+ ,god & ,8 ,son4 ,aft] long useless det\rs1 ,goe! f\nd x aga9 at ! end ( 8 life1 z is app>5t f ! conclusion ( ! second "p ( ,fau/4 ,i w only add "s words ( ,goe!'s on sup]/ition1 z x is n compreh5d$ by ! apel+s3 ,sup]/ition is an inh]itance ( p[]ful1 e>ne/1 progressive natures2 unbelief is peculi>ly *>act]i/ic ( weak1 petty1 retrogressive m54 ,su* is unbelief z ,goe! said 9 #ahjh4 ,footnote #a3 ,! "w entitl$ ,babel und ,bibel4 ,summa ,summ>um4--,s9ce de/ructive sci5ce has prov$ itself s holl[1 consi/+ z x does ( guesses1 false inf]5ces1 self-deceit1 hair-splitt+s1 :y does ! ,/ate support ^! armies ( conjectur]s & soo?say]s8 ,r\sseau's fir/ prize-essay reg>d+ ! curse ( culture & le>n+ %\ld be repond]$4 ,a ,desc>tes ought to return & tea* m5 to d\bt ! untru?s ( ! sci5ces4 ,ano!r ,kant might write a new ,critique ( ,pure ,reason & re-e/abli% ! doctr9e ( ! ,categorical ,imp]ative & ,po/ulate1 :i*1 h[ev]1 is already to be f\nd 9 ! ,t5 ,comm&m5ts & ! ,gospels4 ,& a prophet mu/ be born to tea* m5 ! simple mean+ ( life 9 a few words1 ?\gh x has be5 already s well summ$ up3 ,fe> ,god1 & keep ,8 comm&m5ts1 or ,pray & "w4 ,all ! errors & mi/akes :i* we h made %\ld s]ve to in/il into u a lively hatr$ ( evil1 & to imp>t to u fre% impulses to good2 ^! we c take ) u to ! o!r side1 :]e !y c fir/ bloom & be> fruit4 ,t is ! true mean+ ( life1 at :i* ! ob/9ate & imp5it5t cavil 9 ord] to escape tr\ble4 ,pray1 b "w2 suff]1 b hope2 keep+ bo? ! e>? & ! />s 9 view4 ,d n try & settle p]man5tly1 = x is a place ( pilgrimage2 n a home1 b a halt+-place4 ,seek tru?1 = x is to be f\nd1 b only 9 "o place1 ) ,him :o ,himself is ! ,way1 ! ,tru?1 & ! ,life4 ,,! ,,end