,,! ,,confessions ,,( ,,jean ,,jacques  
,,r\sseau  ,by ,jean ,jacques ,r\sseau  
7,9 #ab books7  ,privately ,pr9t$ = !   
,memb]s ( ! ,aldus ,society  ,london1   
#aijc   ,illu/ration3 cov]              
,illu/ration3 titlepage    ,illu/ration3
 frontispiece    ,illu/ration3 r\sseau  
,,book ,i4     ,,introduction4   ,among 
! notable books ( lat] times--we may    
say1 )\t exagg]ation1 ( all "t--mu/ be  
reckon$ ,! ,confessions ( ,jean ,jacques
 ,r\sseau4 ,x deals ) lead+ p]sonages & 
transactions ( a mom5t\s epo*1 :5       
absolutism & feudalism 7 rally+ = _! la/
 /ruggle aga9/ ! mod]n _s1 *iefly       
repres5t$ by ,voltaire1 ! ,encyclop$i/s1
 & ,r\sseau himself--a /ruggle to :i*1  
aft] _m fi]ce inte/9e qu>rels & sangu9>y
 w>s ?r\gh\t ,europe & ,am]ica1 has     
succe$$ ! preval5ce ( ^? m tol]ant &    
rational pr9ciples by :i* ! /atesm5 (   
our own day are actuat$4  ,on ^! matt]s1
 h[ev]1 x is n our prov9ce to enl>ge2   
nor is x necess>y to furni% any detail$ 
acc\nt ( our au?or's political1         

religi\s1 & philosophic axioms & sy/ems1
 8 p>adoxes & 8 errors 9 logic3 ^! h be5
 s long & s exhau/ively disput$ ov] by  
cont5d+ factions t little is left = ev5 
! mo/ assidu\s glean] 9 ! field4 ,!     
inquir] w f9d1 9 ,mr4 ,john ,money's    
excell5t "w1 ! op9ions ( ,r\sseau       
review$ succ9ctly & imp>tially4 ,!      
',contrat ,social'1 ! ',lettres ,ecrites
 de la ,montagne'1 & o!r treatises t    
once ar\s$ fi]ce controv]sy1 may !re=e  
be left 9 ! repose to :i* !y h long be5 
consign$1 s f> z ! mass ( mank9d is     
conc]n$1 ?\gh !y mu/ always =m "p ( !   
libr>y ( ! politician & ! hi/orian4 ,"o 
pref]s to turn to ! man ,r\sseau z he   
pa9ts himself 9 ! rem>kable "w be=e u4  
,t ! task :i* he und]took 9 (f]+ to %[  
himself--z ,p]sius puts x--',intus et 9 
cute'1 to po/]ity1 exce$$ 8 p[]s1 is a  
trite criticism2 l all human ent]prises1
 8 purpose 0 only imp]fectly fulfill$2 b
 ?is circum/ance 9 no way less5s !      
attractive qualities ( 8 book1 n only = 
! /ud5t ( hi/ory or psy*ology1 b = !    

intellig5t man ( ! _w4 ,its />tl+       
frankness gives x a peculi> int]e/ want+
 9 mo/ o!r autobiographies4  ,_m c5sors 
h elect$ to sit 9 judgm5t on ! fail+s ( 
?is /rangely con/itut$ be+1 & "s h      
pron\nc$ ^u him v sev]e s5t5ces4 ,let x 
be said once = all t 8 faults & mi/akes 
7 g5]ally due to causes ov] :i* he _h b 
little control1 su* z a defective       
education1 a too acute s5sitiv5ess1 :i* 
eng5d]$ suspicion ( 8 fell[s1           
irresolution1 an ov]/ra9$ s5se ( hon\r &
 indep5d5ce1 & an ob/9ate refusal to    
take advice f ^? :o really wi%$ to      
befri5d him2 nor %\ld x be =gott5 t he 0
 afflict$ dur+ ! great] "p ( 8 life ) an
 incurable disease4  ,"l ,byron _h a s\l
 ne> ak9 to ,r\sseau's1 ^: writ+s       
naturally made a deep impression on !   
poet's m9d1 & probably _h an influ5ce on
 8 conduct & modes ( ?\ght3 ,9 "s /anzas
 ( ',*ilde ,h>old' ?is sympa?y is       
express$ ) tru? & p[]2 especially is !  
weakness ( ! ,swiss philosoph]'s "*     
summ$ up 9 ! foll[+ admirable l9es3     

,"h ! self-tortur+ sophi/1 wild         
,r\sseau1           ,! apo/le (         
affliction1 he :o ?rew                  
,en*antm5t ov] passion1 & f woe         
,wrung ov]:elm+ eloqu5ce1 fir/ drew     
,! brea? :i* made him wret*$2 yet he    
knew           ,h[ to make madness      
beautiful1 & ca/           ,o'er err+   
de$s & ?\ghts a heav5ly hue           ,(
 words1 l sunbeams1 dazzl+ z !y pass$   
,! eyes1 :i* o'er !m %$ te>s feel+ly &  
fa/4           ,8 life 0 "o long w> )   
self-s\ght foes1           ,or fri5ds by
 him self-bani%$2 = 8 m9d           ,_h 
gr[n ,suspicion's sanctu>y1 & *ose1     
,= its own cruel sacrifice1 ! k9d1      
',ga9/ :om he rag$ ) fury /range & bl9d4
           ,b he 0 fr5zi$1--:]e=e1 :o   
may "k8           ,s9ce cause might be  
:i* skill c\ld nev] f9d2           ,b he
 0 fr5zi$ by disease or woe             
,to t wor/ pit* ( all1 :i* we>s a       
reason+ %[4  ,"o w\ld r1 h[ev]1 dwell on
 ! bright] hues ( ! picture ?an on its  
%ad[s & blemi%es2 let u n1 !n1 seek to  

draw 8 frailties f _! dread abode4 ,8   
greate/ fault 0 8 r5unciation ( a fa!r's
 duty to 8 (fspr+2 b ?is crime he       
expiat$ by a long & bitt] rep5tance4 ,we
 _c1 p]haps1 v readily excuse ! way 9   
:i* he has occasionally treat$ ! memory 
( 8 mi/ress & b5efactress4 ,t he lov$   
,madame de ,w>5s--8 ',mamma'--deeply &  
s9c]ely is und5iable1 not)/&+ :i* he n[ 
& !n dwells on h] improvid5ce & h]      
fem99e indiscretions ) an unnecess>y &  
unbecom+ lack ( delicacy t has an       
unpleasant effect on ! read]1 almo/     
seem+ to ju/ify ! rem>k ( "o ( 8 mo/    
l5i5t critics--t1 aft] all1 ,r\sseau _h 
! s\l ( a lackey4 ,he possess$1 h[ev]1  
_m amiable & *>m+ qualities1 bo? z a man
 & a writ]1 :i* 7 evid5t to ^? amid/ :om
 he liv$1 & w be equally s to !         
unprejudic$ read] ( ! ,confessions4 ,he 
_h a pr(\nd s5se ( ju/ice & a real      
desire = ! improvem5t & advancem5t ( !  
race4 ,ow+ to ^! excell5ces he 0 belov$ 
to ! la/ ev5 by p]sons :om he tri$ to   
repel1 look+ ^u !m z memb]s ( a b& (    

conspirators1 b5t ^u de/roy+ 8 dome/ic  
peace & depriv+ him ( ! means (         
subsi/5ce4  ,^? ( 8 writ+s t are mo/    
ne>ly alli$ 9 tone & _s to !            
',confessions' are ! ',rev]ies d'un     
,prom5eur ,solitaire' & ',la ,n\velle   
,heloise'4 ,8 correspond5ce ?r[s mu*    
light on 8 life & "*1 z d also p>ts (   
',emile'4 ,x is n easy 9 our day to     
realize ! effect wr\ght ^u ! public m9d 
by ! adv5t ( ',la ,n\velle ,heloise'4   
,julie & ,sa9t-,preux became names to   
conjure )2 _! ill-/>r$ am\rs 7 ev]y:]e  
sigh$ & wept ov] by ! t5d]-he>t$ fair2  
inde$1 9 compos+ ?is "w1 ,r\sseau may be
 said to h done = ,switz]l& :at ! au?or 
( ! ,wav]ly ,novels did = ,scotl&1 turn+
 its m\nta9s1 lakes & isl&s1 =m]ly      
reg>d$ ) av]sion1 into a fairyl& peopl$ 
) creatures ^: joys & sorr[s appeal$    
irresi/ibly to e brea/4 ,%ortly aft] its
 publication began to fl[ t /ream (     
t\ri/s & travell]s :i* t5ds to make     
,switz]l& n only m celebrat$ b m opul5t 
e ye>4 ,x1 is "o ( ! few romances writt5

 9 ! epi/ol>y =m t d n oppress ! read] )
 a s5se ( languor & unreality2 = its    
creator p\r$ into its pages a tide (    
passion unkn[n to 8 frigid & /ilt$      
pr$ecessors1 & d>$ to depict ,nature z  
%e really is1 n z %e 0 misrepres5t$ by !
 modi% au?ors & arti/s ( ! age4 ,"s     
p]sons seem %y ( own+ an acqua9tance )  
?is "w2 inde$1 x has be5 made ! butt (  
ridicule by ! disciples ( a decad5t     
s*ool4 ,its faults & its beauties are on
 ! surface2 ,r\sseau's own e/imate is   
freely express$ at ! beg9n+ ( ! elev5?  
book ( ! ,confessions & else:]e4 ,x     
might be wi%$ t ! preface _h be5        
diff]5tly conceiv$ & word$2 = ! ass]tion
 made !re9 t ! book may prove dang]\s   
has caus$ x to be inscrib$ on a sort (  
,index1 & good folk :o nev] read a l9e (
 x blu% at its "n4 ,its s5sibility1 too1
 is a little ov]done1 & has suppli$ !   
wits ) opportunities = satire2 =        
example1 ,cann+1 9 8 ',new ,morality'3  
,sweet ,s5sibility1 :o dwells en%r9$    
,9 ! f9e fold+s                ,sweet   

*ild ( sickly ,fancy6--h] ( yore        
,f h] lov$ ,france ,r\sseau to exile    
bore2                ,& :ile 'mid/ lakes
 & m\nta9s wild he ran1                 
,full ( himself1 & %unn$ ! haunts ( man1
                ,taught h] o'er ea* lone
 vale & ,alp9e1 /eep                ,to 
lisp ! /ory ( 8 wrongs & weep4  ,z might
 be imag9$1 ,voltaire _h slight sympa?y 
) our social re=m]'s notions & ways (   
promulgat+ !m1 & accord+ly took up 8    
wont$ weapons--s>casm & ridicule--aga9/ 
poor ,jean-,jacques4 ,! qu>rels ( ^! two
 great m5 _c be describ$ 9 ?is place2 b 
!y con/itute an important *apt] 9 !     
lit]>y & social hi/ory ( ! "t4 ,9 ! "w )
 :i* we are imm$iately conc]n$1 ! au?or 
seems to avoid frequ5t m5tion (         
,voltaire1 ev5 :]e we %\ld mo/ expect x4
 ,h[ev]1 ! /ate ( 8 m9d :5 he p5n$ ?is  
record ( 8 life %\ld be always rememb]$ 
9 relation to ?is z well z o!r          
occurr5ces4  ,r\sseau _h int5d$ to br+ 8
 autobiography d[n to a lat] date1 b    
obvi\s causes prev5t$ ?is3 h5ce x is    

believ$ t a summ>y ( ! *ief ev5ts t m>k$
 8 clos+ ye>s w n be out ( place "h4    
,on quitt+ ! ,ile de ,sa9t-,pi]re he    
travell$ to ,/rasb\rg1 :]e he 0 w>mly   
receiv$1 & !nce to ,p>is1 arriv+ 9 t    
city on ,decemb] #af1 #agfe4 ,! ,pr9ce  
de ,conti provid$ him ) a lodg+ 9 !     
,hotel ,sa9t-,simon1 )9 ! prec9cts ( !  
,temple--a place ( sanctu>y = ^? "u !   
ban ( au?ority4 ',e "o 0 eag] to see !  
illu/ri\s proscript1 :o compla9$ ( be+  
made a daily %[1 l ,san*o ,panza 9 8    
isl& ( ,b>at>ia4 ,dur+ 8 %ort /ay 9 !   
capital !re 0 circulat$ an ironical     
lett] purport+ to come f ! ,great       
,fr$]ick1 b really writt5 by ,horace    
,walpole4 ,?is cruel1 clumsy1 & ill-tim$
 joke ang]$ ,r\sseau1 :o ascrib$ x to1  
,voltaire4 ,a few s5t5ces may be quot$3 
,my ,de> ,jean-,jacques1--,y h r5\nc$   
,g5eva1 y\r native      place4  ,y h    
caus$ y\r expulsion f ,switz]l&1 a      
c\ntry      s extoll$ 9 y\r writ+s2     
,france has issu$ a w>rant aga9/      y3
 s d y come to me4  ,my /ates (f] y a   

peaceful retreat4      ,i wi% y well1 & 
w treat y well1 if y w let me4  ,b1     
if y p]si/ 9 refus+ my help1 d n reckon 
^u my tell+      any "o t y did s4  ,if 
y are b5t on torm5t+ y\r _s      to f9d 
new mis=tunes1 *oose :atev] y l be/4  ,i
 am a      k+1 & c procure !m = y at y\r
 pleasure2 &1 :at w      c]ta9ly nev]   
happ5 to y 9 respect ( y\r enemies1 ,i w
      cease to p]secute y z soon z y    
cease to take a pride 9 be+             
p]secut$4  ,y\r good fri5d1             
,,fr$]ick4   ,e>ly 9 #agff ,david ,hume 
p]suad$ ,r\sseau to g ) him to ,engl&1  
:]e ! exile c\ld f9d a secure %elt]4 ,9 
,london 8 appe>ance excit$ g5]al        
att5tion4 ,edmund ,burke _h an int]view 
) him & held t inord9ate vanity 0 !     
lead+ trait 9 8 "*4 ,mr4 ,dav5port1 to  
:om he 0 introduc$ by ,hume1 g5]\sly    
(f]$ ,r\sseau a home at ,wootton1 9     
,/af=d%ire1 ne> ! ,peak ,c\ntry2 !      
latt]1 h[ev]1 w\ld only accept ! (f] on 
condition t he %\ld pay a r5t ( ,l #cj a
 ye>4 ,he 0 accord$ a p5sion ( ,l #ajj  

by ,george ,,iii41 b decl9$ to draw aft]
 ! fir/ annual paym5t4 ,! climate &     
sc5]y ( ,wootton be+ simil> to ^? ( 8   
native c\ntry1 he 0 at fir/ delight$ ) 8
 new abode1 :]e he liv$ ) ,!rese1 &     
devot$ 8 "t to h]boris+ & indit+ ! fir/ 
six books ( 8 ,confessions4 ,soon1      
h[ev]1 8 old halluc9ations acquir$      
/r5g?1 & ,r\sseau conv9c$ himself t     
enemies 7 b5t ^u 8 capture1 if n 8 dea?4
 ,9 ,june1 #agff1 he wrote a viol5t     
lett] to ,hume1 call+ him "o ( ! wor/ ( 
m54 ,lit]>y ,p>is _h comb9$ ) ,hume & ! 
,engli% ,gov]nm5t to surr\nd him--z he  
suppos$--) gu>ds & spies2 he revolv$ 9 8
 tr\bl$ m9d all ! reports & rum\rs he _h
 he>d = mon?s & ye>s2 ,walpole's =g$    
lett] rankl$ 9 8 bosom2 & 9 ! spr+ (    
#agfg he fl$2 fir/ to ,spald+1 9        
,l9coln%ire1 & subsequ5tly to ,calais1  
:]e he l&$ 9 ,may4  ,on 8 arrival 9     
,france 8 re/less & w&]+ disposition =c$
 him cont9ually to *ange 8 resid5ce1 &  
acquir$ = him ! title ( ,voyageur       
,p]petuel4 ,:ile at ,trye1 9 ,gisors1 9 

#agfg--h1 he wrote ! second "p ( !      
,confessions4 ,he _h assum$ ! surname ( 
,r5\1 & ab\t ?is "t he decl>$ be=e two  
witnesses t ,!rese 0 8 wife--a proce$+  
to :i* he atta*$ ! sanctity ( m>riage4  
,9 #aggj he took up 8 abode 9 ,p>is1 :]e
 he liv$ cont9u\sly = sev5 ye>s1 9 a    
/reet :i* n[ be>s 8 "n1 & ga9$ a liv+ by
 copy+ music4 ,b]n>d9 de ,sa9t-,pi]re1 !
 au?or ( ',paul & ,virg9ia'1 :o became  
acqua9t$ ) him 9 #aggb1 has left "s     
int]e/+ p>ticul>s ( ,r\sseau's daily    
mode ( life at ?is p]iod4 ,monsieur de  
,gir>d9 hav+ (f]$ him an asylum at      
,ermemonville 9 ! spr+ ( #aggh1 he &    
,!rese w5t ?i!r to reside1 b = no long  
"t4 ,on ! #c;d ( ,july1 9 ! same ye>1   
?is p]turb$ _s at la/ f\nd re/1 /rick5  
by apoplexy4 ,a rumor t he _h committ$  
suicide 0 circulat$1 b ! evid5ce (      
tru/wor?y witnesses1 includ+ a          
physician1 effectually contradicts ?is  
accusation4 ,8 rema9s1 fir/ int]r$ 9 !  
,ile des ,peupli]s1 71 aft] !           
,revolution1 remov$ to ! ,pan!on4 ,9    

lat] times ! ,gov]nm5t ( ,g5eva made "s 
rep>ation = _! h>% treatm5t ( a fam\s   
citiz51 & erect$ 8 /atue1 modell$ by 8  
compatriot1 ,pradi]1 on an isl& 9 !     
,rhone4                ,see nations1    
sl[ly wise & meanly j1                  
,to buri$ m]it raise ! t>dy bu/4        
,novemb]1 #ahif4                        
,s4 ,w4 ,,orson4                        
,,! ,,confessions                       
,,(                                ,j4  
,j4 ,,r\sseau    ,,book ,i4   ,i h ent]$
 ^u a p]=mance :i* is )\t example1 ^:   
accompli%m5t w h no imitator4 ,i mean to
 pres5t my fell[-mortals ) a man 9 all !
 integrity ( nature2 & ?is man %all be  
myself4  ,i "k my he>t1 & h /udi$       
mank9d2 ,i am n made l any "o ,i h be5  
acqua9t$ )1 p]haps l no "o 9 exi/5ce2 if
 n bett]1 ,i at lea/ claim orig9ality1 &
 :e!r ,nature did wisely 9 break+ ! m\ld
 ) :i* %e =m$ me1 c only be det]m9$ aft]
 hav+ read ?is "w4  ,:5ev] ! la/ trumpet
 %all s\nd1 ,i w pres5t myself be=e !   
sov]eign judge ) ?is book 9 my h&1 &    

l\dly proclaim1 ?us h ,i act$2 ^! 7 my  
?\ghts2 su* 0 ,i4 ,) equal fre$om &     
v]acity h ,i relat$ :at 0 laudable or   
wick$1 ,i h conceal$ no crimes1 add$ no 
virtues2 & if ,i h sometimes introduc$  
sup]flu\s ornam5t1 x 0 m]ely to occupy a
 void occasion$ by defect ( memory3 ,i  
may h suppos$ t c]ta91 :i* ,i only knew 
to be probable1 b h nev] ass]t$ z tru?1 
a consci\s falsehood4 ,su* z ,i 01 ,i h 
decl>$ myself2 sometimes vile &         
despicable1 at o!rs1 virtu\s1 g5]\s &   
sublime2 ev5 z ?\ ha/ read my inmo/ s\l3
 ,p[] et]nal6 assemble r\nd ?y ?rone an 
innum]able ?rong ( my fell[-mortals1 let
 !m li/5 to my confessions1 let !m blu% 
at my depravity1 let !m tremble at my   
suff]+s2 let ea* 9 8 turn expose ) equal
 s9c]ity ! fail+s1 ! w&]+s ( 8 he>t1 &1 
if he d>e1 av]1 ,i 0 bett] ?an t man4   
,i 0 born at ,g5eva1 9 #agab1 son (     
,isaac ,r\sseau & ,susannah ,b]n>d1     
citiz5s4 ,my fa!r's %>e ( a mod]ate     
compet5cy1 :i* 0 divid$ among fifte5    
*ildr51 be+ v trivial1 8 bus9ess ( a    

wat*mak] 79 :i* he _h ! reputation (    
great +5uity7 0 8 only dep5d5ce4 ,my    
"m's circum/ances 7 m afflu5t2 %e 0     
daught] ( a ,mons4 ,b]n>d1 m9i/]1 &     
possess$ a consid]able %>e ( mode/y &   
beauty2 inde$1 my fa!r f\nd "s          
difficulty 9 obta9+ h] h&4  ,! affection
 !y ent]ta9$ = ea* o!r 0 almo/ z e>ly z 
_! exi/5ce2 at eight or n9e ye>s old !y 
walk$ toge!r e ev5+ on ! banks ( !      
,treille1 & be=e !y 7 t51 c\ld n support
 ! idea ( sep>ation4 ,a natural sympa?y 
( s\l conf9$ ^? s5tim5ts ( pr$ilection  
:i* habit at fir/ produc$2 born ) m9ds  
susceptible ( ! mo/ exquisite s5sibility
 & t5d]ness1 x 0 only necess>y to       
enc\nt] simil> dispositions2 t mom5t    
=tunately pres5t$ itself1 & ea* surr5d]$
 a will+ he>t4  ,! ob/acles t oppos$    
s]v$ only to give a decree ( vivacity to
 _! affection1 & ! "y lov]1 n be+ able  
to obta9 8 mi/ress1 0 ov]:elm$ ) sorr[ &
 despair4 ,%e advis$ him to travel--to  
=get h]4 ,he cons5t$--he travell$1 b    
return$ m passionate ?an ev]1 & _h !    

happ9ess to f9d h] equally con/ant1     
equally t5d]4 ,aft] ?is pro( ( mutual   
affection1 :at c\ld !y resolve8--to     
d$icate _! future lives to love6 !      
resolution 0 ratifi$ ) a v[1 on :i*     
,heav5 %$ its b5$iction4  ,=tunately1 my
 "m's bro!r1 ,gabriel ,b]n>d1 fell 9    
love ) "o ( my fa!r's si/]s2 %e _h no   
objection to ! mat*1 b made ! m>riage ( 
8 si/] ) h] bro!r an indisp5sable       
prelim9>y4 ,love soon remov$ e ob/acle1 
& ! two w$d+s 7 celebrat$ ! same day3   
?us my uncle became ! husb& ( my aunt1 &
 _! *ildr5 7 d\bly c\s9s g]man4 ,be=e a 
ye> 0 expir$1 bo? _h ! happ9ess to      
become fa!rs1 b 7 soon aft] oblig$ to   
submit to a sep>ation4  ,my uncle       
,b]n>d1 :o 0 an eng9e]1 w5t to s]ve 9 ! 
empire & ,hung>y1 "u ,pr9ce ,eug5e1 &   
di/+ui%$ himself bo? at ! siege & battle
 ( ,belgrade4 ,my fa!r1 aft] ! bir? ( my
 only bro!r1 set (f1 on recomm5dation1 =
 ,con/ant9ople1 & 0 appo9t$ wat*mak] to 
! ,s]aglio4 ,dur+ 8 abs5ce1 ! beauty1   
wit1 & accompli%m5ts ( my "m attract$ a 

numb] ( admir]s1 among :om ,mons4 de la 
,closure1 ,resid5t ( ,france1 0 ! mo/   
assidu\s 9 8 att5tions4       ,!y 7 too 
brilliant = h] situation1 ! m9i/]1 h]   
fa!r1 hav+ be/[$ great pa9s on h]       
education4  ,%e 0 taught      draw+1    
s++1 & to play on ! !orbo2 _h le>n+1 &  
wrote v agreeable v]ses4  ,! foll[+ is  
an extempore piece      :i* %e compos$ 9
 ! abs5ce ( h] husb& & bro!r1 9 a       
conv]sation ) "s p]son relative to !m1  
:ile walk+ )      h] si/]-9-law1 & _!   
two *ildr53                      ,ces   
deux messieurs1 qui sont abs5s1         
,n\s sont *]s de bi5 des mani]es2       
,ce sont nos amis1 nos amans1           
,ce sont nos m>is et nos fr]es1         
,et les p]es de ces enfans4             
,^! abs5t ones1 :o j claim              
,our he>ts1 by e t5d] "n1               
,to :om ea* wi% ext5ds                  
,our husb&s & our bro!rs are1           
,! fa!rs ( ?is bloom+ pair1             
,our lov]s & our fri5ds4  ,8 passion mu/
 h be5 extremely viol5t1 s9ce aft] a    

p]iod ( ?irty ye>s ,i h se5 him affect$ 
at ! v m5tion ( h] "n4 ,my "m _h a      
def5ce m p[]ful ev5 ?an h] virtue2 %e   
t5d]ly lov$ my fa!r1 & conjur$ him to   
return2 8 incl9ation second+ 8 reque/1  
he gave up e prospect ( emolum5t1 &     
ha/5$ to ,g5eva4  ,i 0 ! un=tunate fruit
 ( ?is return1 be+ born t5 mon?s aft]1 9
 a v weakly & infirm /ate2 my bir? co/  
my "m h] life1 & 0 ! fir/ ( my          
mis=tunes4 ,i am ignorant h[ my fa!r    
support$ h] loss at t "t1 b ,i "k he 0  
ev] aft] inconsolable4 ,9 me he /ill    
?\ght he saw h] he s t5d]ly lam5t$1 b   
c\ld nev] =get ,i _h be5 ! innoc5t cause
 ( 8 mis=tune1 nor did he ev] embrace   
me1 b 8 sighs1 ! convulsive pressure ( 8
 arms1 witness$ t a bitt] regret m+l$   
itself ) 8 c>esses1 ?\gh1 z may be      
suppos$1 !y 7 n on ?is acc\nt less      
ard5t4 ,:5 he said to me1 ,jean         
,jacques1 let u talk ( y\r "m1 my usual 
reply 01 ,yes1 fa!r1 b !n1 y "k1 we %all
 cry1 & imm$iately ! te>s />t$ f 8 eyes4
 ,ah6 exclaim$ he1 ) agitation1 ,give me

 back my wife2 at lea/ console me = h]  
loss2 fill up1 de> boy1 ! void %e has   
left 9 my s\l4 ,c\ld ,i love !e ?us w]t 
?\ only my son8 ,=ty ye>s aft] ?is loss 
he expir$ 9 ! arms ( 8 second wife1 b ! 
"n ( ! fir/ /ill vibrat$ on 8 lips1 /ill
 0 h] image engrav$ on 8 he>t4  ,su* 7 !
 au?ors ( my be+3 ( all ! gifts x _h    
pleas$ ,heav5 to be/[ on !m1 a feel+    
he>t 0 ! only "o t desc5d$ to me2 ?is _h
 be5 ! s\rce ( _! felicity1 x 0 !       
f\ndation ( all my mis=tunes4  ,i came  
into ! _w ) s few signs ( life1 t !y    
ent]ta9$ b little hope ( pres]v+ me1 ) !
 se$s ( a disord] t has ga!r$ /r5g? )   
ye>s1 & f :i* ,i am n[ reliev$ at       
int]vals1 only to suff] a diff]5t1 ?\gh 
m intol]able evil4 ,i ow$ my pres]vation
 to "o ( my fa!r's si/]s1 an amiable &  
virtu\s girl1 :o took ! mo/ t5d] c>e (  
me2 %e is yet liv+1 nurs+1 at ! age (   
f\r-score1 a husb& y\ng] ?an h]self1 b  
worn out ) excessive dr9k+4 ,de> aunt6  
,i freely =give y\r hav+ pres]v$ my     
life1 & only lam5t t x is n 9 my p[] to 

be/[ on ! decl9e ( y\r days ! t5d]      
solicitude & c>e y lavi%$ on ! fir/ dawn
 ( m9e4 ,my nurse1 ,jaquel9e1 is        
likewise liv+3 & 9 good heal?--! h&s t  
op5$ my eyes to ! light ( ?is _w may    
close !m at my dea?4 ,we suff] be=e we  
?9k2 x is ! common lot ( humanity4 ,i   
exp]i5c$ m ?an my proportion ( x4 ,i h  
no k ( :at pass$ prior to my fif? or    
six? ye>2 ,i recollect no?+ ( le>n+ to  
read1 ,i only rememb] :at effect ! fir/ 
consid]able ex]cise ( x produc$ on my   
m9d2 & f t mom5t ,i date an un9t]rupt$ k
 ( myself4  ,e night1 aft] supp]1 we    
read "s "p ( a small collection (       
romances :i* _h be5 my "m's4 ,my fa!r's 
design 0 only to improve me 9 read+1 &  
he ?\ght ^! ent]ta9+ works 7 calculat$  
to give me a fondness = x2 b we soon    
f\nd ourselves s int]e/$ 9 ! adv5tures  
!y conta9$1 t we alt]nately read :ole   
nights toge!r1 & c\ld n be> to give ov] 
until at ! conclusion ( a volume4       
,sometimes1 9 a morn+1 on he>+ ! swall[s
 at our w9d[1 my fa!r1 q a%am$ ( ?is    

weakness1 w\ld cry1 ,come1 come1 let u g
 to b$2 ,i am m a *ild ?an ?\ art4  ,i  
soon acquir$1 by ?is dang]\s cu/om1 n   
only an extreme facility 9 read+ &      
compreh5d+1 b1 = my age1 a too intimate 
acqua9tance ) ! passions4 ,an inf9ity ( 
s5sations 7 famili> to me1 )\t possess+ 
any precise idea ( ! objects to :i* !y  
relat$--,i _h conceiv$ no?+--,i _h felt 
! :ole4 ,?is confus$ succession (       
emotions did n ret>d ! future ef=ts ( my
 reason1 ?\gh !y add$ an extravagant1   
romantic notion ( human life1 :i*       
exp]i5ce & reflection h nev] be5 able to
 eradicate4  ,my romance read+ conclud$ 
) ! summ] ( #agai1 ! foll[+ w9t] 0      
diff]5tly employ$4 ,my "m's libr>y be+ q
 exhau/$1 we _h rec\rse to t "p ( h]    
fa!r's :i* _h devolv$ to u2 "h we       
happily f\nd "s valuable books1 :i* 0 by
 no means extraord9>y1 hav+ be5 select$ 
by a m9i/] t truly des]v$ t title1 9 :om
 le>n+ 7:i* 0 ! rage ( ! times7 0 b a   
second>y comm5dation1 8 ta/e & good s5se
 be+ mo/ conspicu\s4 ,! hi/ory ( ! ,*ur*

 & ,empire by ,le ,sueur1 ,bossuett's   
,disc\rses on ,univ]sal ,hi/ory1        
,plut>*'s ,lives1 ! hi/ory ( ,v5ice by  
,nani1 ,ovid's ,metamorphoses1 ,la      
,bruy]e1 ,font5elle's ,_w1 8 ,dialogues 
( ! ,dead1 & a few volumes ( ,moli]e1 7 
soon rang$ 9 my fa!r's closet1 :]e1 dur+
 ! h\rs he 0 employ$ 9 8 bus9ess1 ,i    
daily read !m1 ) an avidity & ta/e      
uncommon1 p]haps unprec$5t$ at my age4  
,plut>* pres5tly became my greate/      
favorite4 ,! satisfaction ,i d]iv$ f    
repeat$ read+s ,i gave ?is au?or1       
ext+ui%$ my passion = romances1 & ,i    
%ortly pref]r$ ,agesilaus1 ,brutus1 &   
,ari/ides1 to ,orondates1 ,artem5es1 &  
,juba4 ,^! int]e/+ /udies1 second$ by ! 
conv]sations !y frequ5tly occasion$ ) my
 fa!r1 produc$ t republican _s & love ( 
lib]ty1 t haughty & inv9cible turn (    
m9d1 :i* r5d]$ me impati5t ( re/ra9t or 
s]vitude1 & became ! torm5t ( my life1 z
 ,i cont9ually f\nd myself 9 situations 
incompatible ) ^! s5tim5ts4 ,incessantly
 occupi$ ) ,rome & ,a!ns1 conv]s+1 if ,i

 may s express myself ) _! illu/ri\s    
h]oes2 born ! citiz5 ( a republic1 ( a  
fa!r ^: rul+ passion 0 a love ( 8       
c\ntry1 ,i 0 fir$ ) ^! examples2 c\ld   
fancy myself a ,greek or ,roman1 &      
readily give into ! "* ( ! p]sonage ^:  
life ,i read2 transport$ by ! recital ( 
any extraord9>y in/ance ( =titude or    
intrepidity1 animation fla%$ f my eyes1 
& gave my voice additional /r5g? &      
en]gy4 ,"o day1 at table1 :ile relat+ ! 
=titude ( ,scoevola1 !y 7 t]rifi$ at    
see+ me />t f my seat & hold my h& ov] a
 hot *af+--di%1 to repres5t m =cibly !  
action ( t det]m9$ ,roman4  ,my bro!r1  
:o 0 sev5 ye>s old] ?an myself1 0 br\ght
 up to my fa!r's pr(ession4 ,!          
extraord9>y affection !y lavi%$ on me   
might be ! reason he 0 too mu* neglect$3
 ?is c]ta9ly 0 a fault :i* _c be        
ju/ifi$4 ,8 education & morals suff]$ by
 ?is neglect1 & he acquir$ ! habits ( a 
lib]t9e be=e he arriv$ at an age to be  
really "o4 ,my fa!r tri$ :at effect     
plac+ him ) a ma/] w\ld produce1 b he   

/ill p]si/$ 9 ! same ill conduct4 ,?\gh 
,i saw him s seldom t x c\ld h>dly be   
said we 7 acqua9t$1 ,i lov$ him t5d]ly1 
& believe he _h z /rong an affection =  
me z a y\? ( 8 dissipat$ turn ( m9d c\ld
 be suppos$ capable (4 ,"o day1 ,i      
rememb]1 :5 my fa!r 0 correct+ him      
sev]ely1 ,i ?rew myself betwe5 !m1      
embrac+ my bro!r1 :om ,i cov]$ ) my     
body1 receiv+ ! /rokes design$ = him2 ,i
 p]si/$ s ob/9ately 9 my protection1 t  
ei!r s(t5$ by my cries & te>s1 or fe>+  
to hurt me mo/1 8 ang] subsid$1 & he    
p>don$ 8 fault4 ,9 ! end1 my bro!r's    
conduct became s bad t he sudd5ly       
disappe>$1 & we le>n$ "s "t aft] t he 0 
9 ,g]many1 b he nev] wrote to u1 & f t  
day we he>d no news ( him3 ?us ,i became
 an only son4  ,if ?is poor lad 0       
neglect$1 x 0 q diff]5t ) 8 bro!r1 = !  
*ildr5 ( a k+ c\ld n be treat$ ) m      
att5tion & t5d]ness ?an 7 be/[$ on my   
infancy1 be+ ! d>l+ ( ! family2 & :at is
 r uncommon1 ?\gh treat$ z a belov$1    
nev] a spoil$ *ild2 0 nev] p]mitt$1 :ile

 "u pat]nal inspection1 to play 9 !     
/reet ) o!r *ildr52 nev] _h any occasion
 to contradict or indulge ^? fanta/ical 
humors :i* are usually attribut$ to     
nature1 b are 9 reality ! effects ( an  
injudici\s education4 ,i _h ! faults    
common to my age1 0 talkative1 a        
glutton1 & sometimes a li>1 made no     
scruple ( /eal+ sweetmeats1 fruits1 or1 
inde$1 any k9d ( eatables2 b nev] took  
delight 9 mis*iev\s wa/e1 9 accus+ o!rs1
 or torm5t+ h>mless animals4 ,i         
recollect1 inde$1 t "o day1 :ile ,madam 
,clot1 a neighbor ( ours1 0 gone to     
*ur*1 ,i made wat] 9 h] kettle3 !       
remembrance ev5 n[ makes me smile1 =    
,madame ,clot 7?\gh1 if y please1 a good
 sort ( creature7 0 "o ( ! mo/ t$i\s    
grumbl+ old wom5 ,i ev] knew4 ,?us h ,i 
giv5 a brief1 b fai?ful1 hi/ory ( my    
*ildi% transgressions4  ,h[ c\ld ,i     
become cruel or vici\s1 :5 ,i _h be=e my
 eyes only examples ( mildness1 & 0     
surr\nd$ by "s ( ! be/ p 9 ! _w8 ,my    
fa!r1 my aunt1 my nurse1 my relations1  

our fri5ds1 our neighbors1 all ,i _h any
 connection )1 did n obey me1 x is true1
 b lov$ me t5d]ly1 & ,i return$ _!      
affection4 ,i f\nd s little to excite my
 desires1 & ^? ,i _h 7 s seldom         
contradict$1 t ,i 0 h>dly s5sible (     
possess+ any1 & c solemnly av] ,i 0 an  
absolute /rang] to caprice until aft] ,i
 _h exp]i5c$ ! au?ority ( a ma/]4  ,^?  
h\rs t 7 n employ$ 9 read+ or writ+ ) my
 fa!r1 or walk+ ) my gov]ness1          
,jaquel9e1 ,i sp5t ) my aunt2 & :e!r    
see+ h] embroid]1 or he>+ h] s+1 :e!r   
sitt+ or /&+ by h] side1 ,i 0 ev] happy4
 ,h] t5d]ness & unaffect$ gayety1 ! *>ms
 ( h] figure & c\nt5ance h left su*     
indelible impressions on my m9d1 t h]   
mann]1 look1 & attitude are /ill be=e my
 eyes2 ,i recollect a ?\s& little c>ess+
 que/ions2 c\ld describe h] clo!s1 h]   
head-dress1 nor h ! two curls ( f9e     
black hair :i* hung on h] temples1      
accord+ to ! mode ( t "t1 escap$ my     
memory4  ,?\gh my ta/e1 or r passion1 = 
music1 did n %[ itself until a          

consid]able "t aft]1 ,i am fully p]suad$
 x is to h] ,i am indebt$ = x4 ,%e knew 
a great numb] ( songs1 :i* %e sung )    
great sweetness & melody4 ,! s]5ity &   
*e]fulness :i* 7 conspicu\s 9 ?is lovely
 girl1 bani%$ melan*oly1 & made all r\nd
 h] happy4  ,! *>ms ( h] voice _h su* an
 effect on me1 t n only sev]al ( h]     
songs h ev] s9ce rema9$ on my memory1 b 
"s ,i h n ?\ght ( f my infancy1 z ,i gr[
 old1 return ^u my m9d ) a *>m altoge!r 
inexpressible4 ,w\ld any "o believe t an
 old dot>d l me1 worn out ) c>e &       
infirmity1 %\ld sometime surprise       
himself weep+ l a *ild1 & 9 a voice     
qu]ul\s1 & brok5 by age1 mutt]+ out "o (
 ^? airs :i* 7 ! favorites ( my infancy8
 ,!re is "o song 9 p>ticul>1 ^: tune ,i 
p]fectly recollect1 b ! words t compose 
! latt] half ( x con/antly refuse e ef=t
 to recall !m1 ?\gh ,i h a confus$ idea 
( ! rhymes4 ,! beg9n+1 ) :at ,i h be5   
able to recollect ( ! rema9d]1 is z     
foll[s3                      ,tircis1 je
 n'ose                     ,ec\t] ton   

,*alumeau                     ,s\s      
l',ormeau2                     ,c> on en
 cause                     ,deja dans   
notre hameau4                     ----  
---- -------                     ------ 
--- un ,b]g]                            
s'engag]                     sans dang]1
                     ,et t\j\rs l'ep9e  
e/ sons la rose4   ,i h endeavor$ to    
acc\nt = ! inv9cible *>m my he>t feels  
on ! recollection ( ?is fragm5t1 b x is 
altoge!r inexplicable4 ,i only "k1 t    
be=e ,i get to ! end ( x1 ,i always f9d 
my voice int]rupt$ by t5d]ness1 & my    
eyes suffus$ ) te>s4 ,i h a hundr$ times
 =m$ ! resolution ( writ+ to ,p>is = !  
rema9d] ( ^! words1 if any "o %\ld *ance
 to "k !m3 b ,i am almo/ c]ta9 !        
pleasure ,i take 9 ! recollection w\ld  
be greatly dim9i%$ 0 ,i assur$ any "o b 
my poor aunt ,susan _h sung !m4  ,su* 7 
my affections on ent]+ ?is life4 ,?us   
began to =m & demon/rate itself1 a he>t1
 at once haughty & t5d]1 a "* effem9ate1
 yet inv9cible2 :i*1 fluctuat+ betwe5   

weakness & c\rage1 luxury & virtue1 has 
ev] set me 9 contradiction to myself2   
caus+ ab/95ce & enjoym5t1 pleasure &    
prud5ce1 equally to %un me4  ,?is c\rse 
( education 0 int]rupt$ by an accid5t1  
^: consequ5ces influ5c$ ! re/ ( my life4
 ,my fa!r _h a qu>rel ) ,m4 ,g----1 :o  
_h a capta9's commission 9 ,france1 & 0 
relat$ to sev]al ( ! ,c\ncil4 ,?is      
,g----1 :o 0 an insol5t1 ung5]\s man1   
happ5+ to ble$ at ! nose1 9 ord] to be  
rev5g$1 accus$ my fa!r ( hav+ drawn 8   
sword on him 9 ! city1 & 9 consequ5ce ( 
?is *>ge !y 7 ab\t to conduct him to    
prison4 ,he insi/$ 7accord+ to ! law (  
?is republic7 t ! accus] %\ld be conf9$ 
at ! same "t2 & n be+ able to obta9 ?is1
 pref]r$ a volunt>y bani%m5t = ! rema9d]
 ( 8 life1 to giv+ up a po9t by :i* he  
mu/ sacrifice 8 honor & lib]ty4  ,i     
rema9$ "u ! tuition ( my uncle ,b]n>d1  
:o 0 at t "t employ$ 9 ! =tifications ( 
,g5eva4 ,he _h lo/ 8 elde/ daught]1 b _h
 a son ab\t my own age1 & we 7 s5t      
toge!r to ,bossey1 to bo>d ) ! ,m9i/]   

,lamb]ci]4 ,"h we 7 to le>n ,lat91 ) all
 ! insignificant tra% t has obta9$ ! "n 
( education4  ,two ye>s sp5t 9 ?is      
village s(t5$1 9 "s degree1 my ,roman   
fi]c5ess1 & aga9 r$uc$ me to a /ate (   
*ildhood4 ,at ,g5eva1 :]e no?+ 0 exact$1
 ,i lov$ read+1 :i* 01 inde$1 my        
pr9cipal amusem5t2 b1 at ,bossey1 :]e   
application 0 expect$1 ,i 0 fond ( play 
z a relaxation4 ,! c\ntry 0 s new1 s    
*>m+ 9 my idea1 t x seem$ impossible to 
f9d satiety 9 its enjoym5ts1 & ,i       
conceiv$ a passion = rural life1 :i* "t 
has n be5 able to ext+ui%2 nor h ,i ev] 
ceas$ to regret ! pure & tranquil       
pleasures ,i enjoy$ at ?is place 9 my   
*ildhood2 ! remembrance hav+ foll[$ me  
?r\gh e age1 ev5 to t 9 :i* ,i am ha/5+ 
aga9 t[>ds x4  ,m4 ,lamb]ci] 0 a wor?y1 
s5sible man1 :o1 )\t neglect+ our       
in/ruction1 nev] made our acquisitions  
bur!nsome1 or tasks t$i\s4 ,:at conv9ces
 me ( ! rectitude ( 8 me?od is1 t       
not)/&+ my extreme av]sion to re/ra9t1 !
 recollection ( my /udies is nev] att5d$

 ) disgu/2 &1 if my improvem5t 0        
trivial1 x 0 obta9$ ) ease1 & has nev]  
escap$ memory4  ,! simplicity ( ?is     
rural life 0 ( inf9ite advantage 9 op5+ 
my he>t to ! reception ( true fri5d%ip4 
,! s5tim5ts ,i _h hi!rto =m$ on ?is     
subject 7 extremely elevat$1 b altoge!r 
imag9>y4 ,! habit ( liv+ 9 ?is peaceful 
mann] soon unit$ me t5d]ly to my c\s9   
,b]n>d2 my affection 0 m ard5t ?an t ,i 
_h felt = my bro!r1 nor has "t ev] be5  
able to efface x4 ,he 0 a tall1 lank1   
weakly boy1 ) a m9d z mild z 8 body 0   
feeble1 & :o did n wrong ! good op9ion  
!y 7 dispos$ to ent]ta9 = ! son ( my    
gu>dian4 ,our /udies1 amusem5ts1 &      
tasks1 7 ! same2 we 7 alone2 ea* want$ a
 playmate2 to sep>ate w\ld 9 "s measure1
 h be5 to annihilate u4 ,?\gh we _h n _m
 opportunities ( demon/rat+ our atta*m5t
 to ea* o!r1 x 0 c]ta9ly extreme2 & s f>
 f endur+ ! ?\ght ( sep>ation1 we c\ld n
 ev5 =m an idea t we %\ld ev] be able to
 submit to x4 ,ea* ( a disposition to be
 won by k9dness1 & complaisant1 :5 n    

s\r$ by contradiction1 we agre$ 9 e     
p>ticul>4 ,if1 by ! favor ( ^? :o gov]n$
 u he _h ! asc5dant :ile 9 _! pres5ce1  
,i 0 sure to acquire x :5 we 7 alone1 & 
?is pres]v$ ! equilibrium s necess>y 9  
fri5d%ip4 ,if he hesitat$ 9 repeat+ 8   
task1 ,i prompt$ him2 :5 my ex]cises 7  
f9i%$1 ,i help$ to write 82 &1 9 our    
amusem5ts1 my disposition be+ mo/       
active1 ev] _h ! lead4 ,9 a ^w1 our     
*>act]s accord$ s well1 & ! fri5d%ip t  
subsi/$ betwe5 u 0 s cordial1 t dur+ !  
five ye>s we 7 at ,bossey & ,g5eva we 7 
insep>able3 we (t5 f\ght1 x is true1 b  
!re nev] 0 any occasion to sep>ate u4   
,no "o ( our qu>rels la/$ m ?an a qu>t] 
( an h\r1 & nev] 9 our lives did we make
 any compla9t ( ea* o!r4 ,x may be said1
 ^! rem>ks are frivol\s2 b1 p]haps1 a   
simili> example among *ildr5 c h>dly be 
produc$4  ,! mann] 9 :i* ,i pass$ my "t 
at ,bossey 0 s agreeable to my          
disposition1 t x only requir$ a long]   
duration absolutely to h fix$ my "*1 :i*
 w\ld h _h only peaceable1 affectionate1

 b5evol5t s5tim5ts = its basis4 ,i      
believe no individual ( our k9d ev]     
possess$ less natural vanity ?an myself4
 ,at int]vals1 by an extraord9>y ef=t1  
,i arriv$ at sublime ideas1 b pres5tly  
sunk aga9 into my orig9al languor4 ,to  
be lov$ by e "o :o knew me 0 my mo/     
ard5t wi%4 ,i 0 naturally mild1 my c\s9 
0 equally s1 & ^? :o _h ! c>e ( u 7 (   
simili> dispositions4 ,ev]y?+ contribut$
 to /r5g!n ^? prop5sities :i* nature _h 
implant$ 9 my brea/1 & dur+ ! two ye>s  
,i 0 nei!r ! victim nor witness ( any   
viol5t emotions4  ,i knew no?+ s        
delightful z to see e "o cont5t1 n only 
) me1 b all t conc]n$ !m4 ,:5 repeat+   
our cate*ism at *ur*1 no?+ c\ld give me 
great] vexation1 on be+ oblig$ to       
hesitate1 ?an to see ,miss ,lamb]ci]'s  
c\nt5ance express disapprobation &      
uneas9ess4 ,?is alone 0 m afflict+ to me
 ?an ! %ame ( falt]+ be=e s _m          
witnesses1 :i*1 not)/&+1 0 suffici5tly  
pa9ful2 = ?\gh n ov]solicit\s ( praise1 
,i 0 feel+ly alive to %ame2 yet ,i c    

truly affirm1 ! dread ( be+ reprim&$ by 
,miss ,lamb]ci] al>m$ me less ?an !     
?\ght ( mak+ h] uneasy4  ,nei!r %e nor  
h] bro!r 7 defici5t 9 a reasonable      
sev]ity1 b z ?is 0 sc>ce ev] ex]t$ )\t j
 cause1 ,i 0 m afflict$ at _!           
disapprobation ?an ! puni%m5t4 ,c]ta9ly 
! me?od ( treat+ y\? w\ld be alt]$ if ! 
di/ant effects ?is indiscrim9ate1 &     
frequ5tly indiscreet me?od produces1 7 m
 conspicu\s4 ,i w\ld will+ly excuse     
myself f a fur!r explanation1 did n !   
lesson ?is example conveys 7:i* po9ts   
out an evil z frequ5t z x is p]nici\s7  
=bid my sil5ce4  ,z ,miss ,lamb]ci] felt
 a "m's affection1 %e sometimes ex]t$ a 
"m's au?ority1 ev5 to inflict+ on u :5  
we des]v$ x1 ! puni%m5t ( infants4 ,%e  
_h (t5 ?reat5$ x1 & ?is ?reat ( a       
treatm5t entirely new1 appe>$ to me     
extremely dreadful2 b ,i f\nd ! reality 
mu* less t]rible ?an ! idea1 & :at is   
/ill m unacc\ntable1 ?is puni%m5t       
increas$ my affection = ! p]son :o _h   
inflict$ x4 ,all ?is affection1 aid$ by 

my natural mildness1 0 sc>cely suffici5t
 to prev5t my seek+1 by fre% (f5ces1 a  
return ( ! same *a/isem5t2 = a degree ( 
s5suality _h m+l$ ) ! sm>t & %ame1 :i*  
left m desire ?an fe> ( a repetition4 ,i
 0 well conv9c$ ! same discipl9e f h]   
bro!r w\ld h produc$ a q contr>y effect2
 b f a man ( 8 disposition ?is 0 n      
probable1 & if ,i ab/a9$ f m]it+        
correction x 0 m]ely f a fe> ( (f5d+    
,miss ,lamb]ci]1 = b5evol5ce1 aid$ by ! 
passions1 has ev] ma9ta9$ an empire ov] 
me :i* has giv5 law to my he>t4  ,?is   
ev5t1 :i*1 ?\gh desirable1 ,i _h n      
endeavor$ to accel]ate1 arriv$ )\t my   
fault2 ,i %\ld say1 )\t my seek+2 & ,i  
pr(it$ by x ) a safe consci5ce2 b ?is   
second1 0 also ! la/ "t1 = ,miss        
,lamb]ci]1 :o d\btless _h "s reason to  
imag9e ?is *a/isem5t did n produce !    
desir$ effect1 decl>$ x 0 too fatigu+1 &
 t %e r5\nc$ x = ! future4 ,till n[ we  
_h slept 9 h] *amb]1 & dur+ ! w9t]1 ev5 
9 h] b$2 b two days aft] ano!r room 0   
prep>$ = u1 & f t mom5t ,i _h ! honor   

7:i* ,i c\ld v well h disp5s$ )7 ( be+  
treat$ by h] z a great boy4  ,:o w\ld   
believe ?is *ildi% discipl9e1 receiv$ at
 eight ye>s old1 f ! h&s ( a woman (    
?irty1 %\ld influ5ce my prop5sities1 my 
desires1 my passions1 = ! re/ ( my life1
 & t 9 q a contr>y s5se f :at might     
naturally h be5 expect$8 ,! v incid5t t 
inflam$ my s5ses1 gave my desires su* an
 extraord9>y turn1 t1 conf9$ to :at ,i  
_h already exp]i5c$1 ,i s\ght no fur!r1 
&1 ) blood boil+ ) s5suality1 almo/ f my
 bir?1 pres]v$ my purity beyond ! age :5
 ! colde/ con/itutions lose _!          
ins5sibility2 long torm5t$1 )\t kn[+ by 
:at1 ,i gaz$ on e h&some woman )        
delight2 imag9ation incessantly br\ght  
_! *>ms to my remembrance1 only to      
trans=m !m into s _m ,miss ,lamb]ci]s4  
,if ev] education 0 p]fectly *a/e1 x 0  
c]ta9ly t ,i receiv$2 my ?ree aunts 7 n 
only ( exempl>y prud5ce1 b ma9ta9$ a    
degree ( mode/ res]ve :i* wom5 h long   
s9ce ?\ght unnecess>y4 ,my fa!r1 x is   
true1 lov$ pleasure1 b 8 gallantry 0 r (

 ! la/ ?an ! pres5t c5tury1 & he nev]   
express$ 8 affection = any woman he     
reg>d$ 9 t]ms a virg9 c\ld h blu%$ at2  
inde$1 x 0 impossible m att5tion %\ld be
 paid to t reg>d we owe ! morals (      
*ildr5 ?an 0 uni=mly obs]v$ by e "o ,i  
_h any conc]n )4 ,an equal degree (     
res]ve 9 ?is p>ticul> 0 obs]v$ at ,m4   
,lamb]ci]'s1 :]e a good maid-s]vant 0   
dis*>g$ = hav+ once made use ( an       
expression be=e u :i* 0 ?\ght to conta9 
"s degree ( indelicacy4 ,i _h no precise
 idea ( ! ultimate effect ( ! passions1 
b ! conception ,i _h =m$ 0 extremely    
disgu/+2 ,i ent]ta9$ a p>ticul> av]sion 
= c\rtesans1 nor c\ld ,i look on a rake 
)\t a degree ( disda9 m+l$ ) t]ror4  ,^!
 prejudices ( education1 prop] 9        
!mselves to ret>d ! fir/ explosions ( a 
combu/ible con/itution1 7 /r5g!n$1 z ,i 
h already h9t$1 by ! effect ! fir/      
mom5ts ( s5suality produc$ 9 me1 =      
not)/&+ ! tr\blesome ebullition ( my    
blood1 ,i 0 satisfi$ ) ! species (      
voluptu\sness ,i _h already be5 acqua9t$

 )1 & s\ght no fur!r4  ,?us ,i pass$ !  
age ( pub]ty1 ) a con/itution extremely 
ard5t1 )\t kn[+ or ev5 wi%+ = any o!r   
gratification ( ! passions ?an :at ,miss
 ,lamb]ci] _h innoc5tly giv5 me an idea 
(2 & :5 ,i became a man1 t *ildi% ta/e1 
in/ead ( vani%+1 only associat$ ) ! o!r4
 ,?is folly1 jo9$ to a natural timidity1
 has always prev5t$ my be+ v ent]pris+ )
 wom51 s t ,i h pass$ my days 9 langui%+
 9 sil5ce = ^? ,i mo/ admir$1 )\t d>+ to
 disclose my wi%es4  ,to fall at ! feet 
( an imp]i\s mi/ress1 obey h] m&ates1 or
 implore p>don1 7 = me ! mo/ exquisite  
enjoym5ts1 & ! m my blood 0 inflam$ by !
 ef=ts ( a lively imag9ation ! m ,i     
acquir$ ! appe>ance ( a :9+ lov]4  ,x w 
be readily conceiv$ t ?is mode ( mak+   
love is n att5d$ ) a rapid progress or  
imm95t dang] to ! virtue ( its object2  
yet1 ?\gh ,i h few favors to boa/ (1 ,i 
h n be5 exclud$ f enjoym5t1 h[ev]       
imag9>y4 ,?us ! s5ses1 9 concurr5ce ) a 
m9d equally timid & romantic1 h pres]v$ 
my moral *a/e1 & feel+s uncorrupt$1 )   

precisely ! same incl9ations1 :i*1      
second$ ) a mod]ate portion ( effront]y1
 might h plung$ me into ! mo/           
unw>rantable excesses4  ,i h made !     
fir/1 mo/ difficult /ep1 9 ! obscure &  
pa9ful maze ( my ,confessions4 ,we nev] 
feel s great a degree ( repugnance 9    
divulg+ :at is really crim9al1 z :at is 
m]ely ridicul\s4 ,i am n[ assur$ ( my   
resolution1 = aft] :at ,i h d>$         
disclose1 no?+ c h p[] to det] me4 ,!   
difficulty att5d+ ^! ackn[l$gm5ts w be  
readily conceiv$1 :5 ,i decl>e1 t dur+ !
 :ole ( my life1 ?\gh frequ5tly labor+  
"u ! mo/ viol5t agitation1 be+ hurri$   
away ) ! impetuosity ( a passion :i* 7:5
 9 company ) ^? ,i lov$7 depriv$ me ( ! 
faculty ( sight & he>+1 ,i c\ld nev]1 9 
! c\rse ( ! mo/ unb\nd$ famili>ity1     
acquire suffici5t resolution to decl>e  
my folly1 & implore ! only favor t      
rema9$ to be/[4  ,9 ?us inve/igat+ !    
fir/ traces ( my s5sible exi/5ce1 ,i f9d
 elem5ts1 :i*1 ?\gh seem+ly             
incompatible1 h unit$ to produce a      

simple & uni=m effect2 :ile o!rs1       
app>5tly ! same1 h1 by ! concurr5ce (   
c]ta9 circum/ances1 =m$ su* diff]5t     
comb9ations1 t x w\ld nev] be imag9$ !y 
_h any aff9ity2 :o w\ld believe1 =      
example1 t "o ( ! mo/ vigor\s spr+s ( my
 s\l 0 temp]$ 9 ! id5tical s\rce f :5ce 
luxury & ease m+l$ ) my con/itution &   
circulat$ 9 my ve9s8 ,be=e ,i quit ?is  
subject1 ,i w add a /rik+ in/ance ( !   
diff]5t effects !y produc$4  ,"o day1   
:ile ,i 0 /udy+ 9 a *amb] contigu\s to !
 kit*51 ! maid set "s ( ,miss           
,lamb]ci]'s combs to dry by ! fire1 & on
 com+ to fet* !m "s "t aft]1 0 surpris$ 
to f9d ! tee? ( "o ( !m brok5 (f4 ,:o   
c\ld be suspect$ ( ?is mis*ief8 ,no "o b
 myself _h ent]$ ! room3 ,i 0 que/ion$1 
b d5i$ hav+ any k ( x4 ,mr4 & ,miss     
,lamb]ci] consult1 exhort1 ?reat51 b all
 to no purpose2 ,i ob/9ately p]si/ 9 !  
d5ial2 &1 ?\gh ?is 0 ! fir/ "t ,i _h be5
 detect$ 9 a confirm$ falsehood1        
appe>ances 7 s /rong t !y ov]?rew all my
 prote/ations4 ,?is affair 0 ?\ght      

s]i\s2 ! mis*ief1 ! lie1 ! ob/9acy1 7   
consid]$ equally des]v+ ( puni%m5t1 :i* 
0 n n[ to be adm9i/]$ by ,miss          
,lamb]ci]4 ,my uncle ,b]n>d 0 writt5 to2
 he arriv$2 & my poor c\s9 be+ *>g$ ) a 
crime no less s]i\s1 we 7 conduct$ to ! 
same execution1 :i* 0 inflict$ ) great  
sev]ity4 ,if f9d+ a rem$y 9 ! evil      
itself1 !y _h s\ght ev] to allay my     
deprav$ desires1 !y c\ld n h *os5 a     
%ort] me?od to accompli% _! designs1 &1 
,i c assure my read]s1 ,i 0 = a long "t 
fre$ f ! dom9ion ( !m4  ,z ?is sev]ity  
c\ld n draw f me ! expect$ ackn[l$gm5t1 
:i* ob/9acy br\ght on sev]al            
repetitions1 & r$uc$ me to a deplorable 
situation1 yet ,i 0 immovable1 &        
resolutely det]m9$ to suff] dea? r ?an  
submit4 ,=ce1 at l5g?1 0 oblig$ to yield
 to ! diabolical infatuation ( a *ild1 =
 no bett] "n 0 be/[$ on my con/ancy1 &  
,i came out ( ?is dreadful trial1 torn1 
x is true1 b triumphant4 ,fifty ye>s h  
expir$ s9ce ?is adv5ture--! fe> (       
puni%m5t is no m4 ,well1 !n1 ,i av]1 9 !

 face ( ,heav51 ,i 0 absolutely innoc5t3
 &1 s f> f break+1 or ev5 t\*+ ! comb1  
nev] came ne> ! fire4 ,x w be ask$1 h[  
did ?is mis*ief happ58 ,i c =m no       
conception ( x1 ,i only "k my own       
innoc5ce4  ,let any "o figure to himself
 a "* ^: lead+ traits 7 docility &      
timidity1 b haughty1 ard5t1 & inv9cible1
 9 its passions2 a *ild1 hi!rto gov]n$  
by ! voice ( reason1 treat$ ) mildness1 
equity1 & complaisance1 :o c\ld n ev5   
support ! idea ( inju/ice1 exp]i5c+1 = !
 fir/ "t1 s viol5t an in/ance ( x1      
inflict$ by ^? he mo/ lov$ & respect$4  
,:at p]v]sion ( ideas6 ,:at confusion 9 
! he>t1 ! bra91 9 all my little be+1    
intellig5t & moral6--let any "o1 ,i say1
 if possible1 imag9e all ?is1 = ,i am   
incapable ( giv+ ! lea/ idea ( :at pass$
 9 my m9d at t p]iod4  ,my reason 0 n   
suffici5tly e/abli%$ to enable me to put
 myself 9 ! place ( o!rs1 & judge h[ mu*
 appe>ances condemn$ me1 ,i only beheld 
! rigor ( a dreadful *a/isem5t1 inflict$
 = a crime ,i _h n committ$2 yet ,i c   

truly affirm1 ! sm>t ,i suff]$1 ?\gh    
viol5t1 0 inconsid]able comp>$ to :at ,i
 felt f indignation1 rage1 & despair4   
,my c\s91 :o 0 almo/ 9 simil>           
circum/ances1 hav+ be5 puni%$ = an      
involunt>y fault z guilty ( a prem$iat$ 
crime1 became furi\s by my example4 ,bo?
 9 ! same b$1 we embrac$ ea* o!r )      
convulsive transport2 we 7 almo/        
suffocat$2 & :5 our "y he>ts f\nd       
suffici5t relief to brea! out our       
indig9ation1 we sat up 9 ! b$1 & ) all  
our =ce1 repeat$ a hundr$ times1        
,c>nifex6 ,c>nifex6 ,c>nifex6           
execution]1 torm5tor4  ,ev5 :ile ,i     
write ?is ,i feel my pulse quick51 &    
%\ld ,i live a hundr$ ?\s& ye>s1 !      
agitation ( t mom5t w\ld /ill be fre% 9 
my memory4 ,! fir/ in/ance ( viol5ce &  
oppression is s deeply engrav$ on my    
s\l1 t e relative idea r5ews my emotion3
 ! s5tim5t ( indignation1 :i* 9 its     
orig9 _h ref]5ce only to myself1 has    
acquir$ su* /r5g?1 & is at pres5t s     
completely deta*$ f p]sonal motives1 t  

my he>t is z mu* inflam$ at ! sight or  
relation ( any act ( inju/ice 7:atev]   
may be ! object1 or :]esoev] x may be   
p]petrat$7 z if ,i 0 ! imm$iate suff]]4 
,:5 ,i read ! hi/ory ( a m]ciless       
tyrant1 or ! d>k & ! subtle ma*9ation ( 
a knavi% design+ prie/1 ,i c\ld on !    
in/ant set (f to /ab ! miscreants1 ?\gh 
,i 0 c]ta9 to p]i% 9 ! attempt4  ,i h   
frequ5tly fatigu$ myself by runn+ aft] &
 /on+ a cock1 a c[1 a dog1 or any animal
 ,i saw torm5t+ ano!r1 only because x 0 
consci\s ( possess+ sup]ior /r5g?4 ,?is 
may be natural to me1 & ,i am incl9$ to 
believe x is1 ?\gh ! lively impression (
 ! fir/ inju/ice ,i became ! victim ( 0 
too long & too p[]fully rememb]$ n to h 
add$ consid]able =ce to x4  ,?is        
occurr5ce t]m9at$ my infant9e s]5ity2 f 
t mom5t ,i ceas$ to enjoy a pure        
unadult]at$ happ9ess1 & on a            
retrospection ( ! pleasure ( my         
*ildhood1 ,i yet feel !y end$ "h4 ,we   
cont9ue at ,bossey "s mon?s aft] ?is    
ev5t1 b 7 l our fir/ p>5ts 9 ! ,g>d5 (  

,ed5 aft] !y _h lo/ _! innoc5ce2 9      
appe>ance our situation 0 ! same1 9     
effect x 0 totally diff]5t4  ,affection1
 respect2 intimacy1 confid5ce1 no long] 
atta*$ ! pupils to _! guides2 we beheld 
!m no long] z div9ities1 :o c\ld read ! 
secrets ( our he>ts2 we 7 less a%am$ (  
committ+ faults1 m afraid ( be+ accus$ (
 !m3 we le>n$ to dissemble1 to rebel1 to
 lie3 all ! vices common to our ye>s    
began to corrupt our happy innoc5ce1    
m+le ) our sports1 & embitt] our        
amusem5ts4 ,! c\ntry itself1 los+ ^?    
sweet & simple *>ms :i* captivate !     
he>t1 appe>$ a gloomy des]t1 or cov]$ ) 
a veil t conceal$ its beauties4 ,we     
cultivat$ our little g>d5s no m3 our    
fl[]s 7 neglect$4 ,we no long] scrat*$  
away ! m\ld1 & broke out into           
exclamations ( delight1 on discov]+ t ! 
gra9 we _h s[n began to %oot4 ,we 7     
disgu/$ ) our situation2 our preceptors 
7 we>y ( u4 ,9 a ^w1 my uncle wrote =   
our return1 & we left ,mr4 & ,miss      
,lamb]ci] )\t feel+ any regret at !     

sep>ation4  ,ne> ?irty ye>s pass$ away f
 my leav+ ,bossey1 )\t once recall+ !   
place to my m9d ) any degree (          
satisfaction2 b aft] hav+ pass$ ! prime 
( life1 z ,i decl9e into old age 7:ile m
 rec5t occurr5ces are we>+ out apace7 ,i
 feel ^! remembrances revive & impr9t   
!mselves on my he>t1 ) a =ce & *>m t e  
day acquires fre% /r5g?2 z if1 feel+    
life fleet f me1 ,i endeavor$ to cat* x 
aga9 by its comm5cem5t4 ,! mo/ trifl+   
incid5t ( ^? happy days delight me1 = no
 o!r reason ?an be+ ( ^? days4 ,i recall
 e circum/ance ( "t1 place1 & p]sons2 ,i
 see ! maid or footman busy 9 ! *amb]1 a
 swall[ ent]+ ! w9d[1 a fly settl+ on my
 h& :ile repeat+ my lessons4 ,i see !   
:ole economy ( ! ap>tm5t2 on ! "r h&    
,mr4 ,lamb]ci]'s closet1 ) a pr9t       
repres5t+ all ! popes1 a b>omet]1 a l>ge
 almanac1 ! w9d[s ( ! h\se 7:i* /ood 9 a
 holl[ at ! bottom ( ! g>d57 %ad$ by    
raspb]ry %rubs1 ^: %oots sometimes f\nd 
entrance2 ,i am s5sible ! read] has no  
occasion to "k all ?is1 b ,i feel a k9d 

( necessity = relat+ x4 ,:y am ,i n     
p]mitt$ to rec\nt all ! little anecdotes
 ( t ?rice happy age1 at ! recollection 
( ^: joys ,i ev] tremble ) delight8     
,five or six p>ticul>ly--let u          
compromise ! matt]--,i w give up five1 b
 !n ,i mu/ h "o1 & only "o1 provid$ ,i  
may draw x out to its utmo/ l5g?1 9 ord]
 to prolong my satisfaction4  ,if ,i    
only s\ght y\rs1 ,i %\ld *oose t ( ,miss
 ,lamb]ci]'s backside1 :i* by an unlucky
 fall at ! bottom ( ! mead[1 0 expos$ to
 ! view ( ! ,k+ ( ,s>d9ia1 :o happ5$ to 
be pass+ by2 b t ( ! walnut tree on !   
t]race is m amus+ to me1 s9ce "h ,i 0 an
 actor1 :]eas1 9 ! abovem5tion$ sc5e ,i 
0 only a spectator2 & ,i mu/ confess ,i 
see no?+ t %\ld occasion risibility 9 an
 accid5t1 :i*1 h[ev] laughable 9 itself1
 al>m$ me = a p]son ,i lov$ z a "m1 or  
p]haps some?+ m4  ,ye curi\s read]s1 ^: 
expectations are already on ! /ret* = ! 
noble hi/ory ( ! t]race1 li/5 to !      
trag$y1 & ab/a9 f trembl+1 if y c1 at ! 
horrible cata/rophe6  ,at ! outside ( ! 

c\rty>d door1 on ! left h&1 0 a t]race2 
"h !y (t5 sat aft] d9n]2 b x 0 subject  
to "o inconv5i5ce1 be+ too mu* expos$ to
 ! rays ( ! sun2 to obviate ?is defect1 
,mr4 ,lamb]ci] _h a walnut tree set !re1
 ! plant+ ( :i* 0 att5d$ ) great        
solemnity4 ,! two bo>d]s 7 godfa!rs1 &  
:ile ! e>? 0 replac+ r\nd ! root1 ea*   
held ! tree ) "o h&1 s++ songs (        
triumph4 ,9 ord] to wat] x ) m effect1  
!y =m$ a k9d ( luson ar\nd its foot3    
myself & c\s91 :o 7 e day ard5t         
spectators ( ?is wat]+1 confirm$ ea* o!r
 9 ! v natural idea t x 0 nobl] to plant
 trees on ! t]race ?an colors on a      
brea*1 & ?is glory we 7 resolv$ to      
procure )\t divid+ x ) any "o4  ,9      
pursuance ( ?is resolution1 we cut a    
slip (f a will[1 & plant$ x on ! t]race1
 at ab\t eight or t5 feet di/ance f !   
augu/ walnut tree4 ,we did n =get to    
make a holl[ r\nd x1 b ! difficulty 0 h[
 to procure a supply ( wat]1 :i* 0      
br\ght f a consid]able di/ance1 & we n  
p]mitt$ to fet* x3 b wat] 0 absolutely  

necess>y = our will[1 & we made use ( e 
/ratagem to obta9 x4  ,= a few days     
ev]y?+ succe$$ s well t x began to bud1 
& ?r[ out small leaves1 :i* we h\rly    
measur$ conv9c$ 7?o' n[ sc>ce a foot f !
 gr\nd7 x w\ld soon af=d u a refre%+    
%ade4 ,?is un=tunate will[1 by engross+ 
our :ole "t1 r5d]$ u incapable (        
application to any o!r /udy1 & ! cause (
 our inatt5tion n be+ kn[n1 we 7 kept   
clos] ?an be=e4 ,! fatal mom5t approa*$ 
:5 wat] mu/ fail1 & we 7 already        
afflict$ ) ! idea t our tree mu/ p]i% ) 
dr\ght4 ,at l5g? necessity1 ! p>5t (    
indu/ry1 sugge/$ an inv5tion1 by :i* we 
might save our tree f dea?1 & ourselves 
f despair2 x 0 to make a furr[          
und]gr\nd1 :i* w\ld privately conduct a 
"p ( ! wat] f ! walnut tree to our      
will[4 ,?is und]tak+ 0 execut$ ) ardor1 
b did n imm$iately succe$--our desc5t 0 
n skilfully plann$--! wat] did n run1 ! 
e>? fall+ 9 & /opp+ up ! furr[2 yet1    
?\gh all w5t contr>y1 no?+ disc\rag$ u1 
'omnia v9cit labor improbus'4 ,we made !

 bason deep]1 to give ! wat] a m s5sible
 desc5t2 we cut ! bottom ( a box into   
n>r[ planks2 increas$ ! *annel f !      
walnut tree to our will[ & lay+ a r[    
flat at ! bottom1 set two o!rs incl9+   
t[>ds ea* o!r1 s z to =m a triangul>    
*annel2 we =m$ a k9d ( grat+ ) small    
/icks at ! end next ! walnut tree1 to   
prev5t ! e>? & /ones f /opp+ x up1 &    
hav+ c>efully cov]$ our "w ) well-trodd5
 e>?1 9 a transport ( hope & fe> att5d$ 
! h\r ( wat]+4 ,aft] an int]val1 :i*    
seem$ an age ( expectation1 ?is h\r     
arriv$4 ,mr4 ,lamb]ci]1 z usual1 assi/$ 
at ! op]ation2 we contriv$ to get betwe5
 him & our tree1 t[>ds :i* he =tunately 
turn$ 8 back4 ,!y no soon] began to p\r 
! fir/ pail ( wat]1 ?an we p]ceiv$ x    
runn+ to ! will[2 ?is sight 0 too mu* = 
our prud5ce1 & we involunt>ily express$ 
our transport by a %\t ( joy4 ,! sudd5  
exclamation made ,mr4 ,lamb]ci] turn    
ab\t1 ?\gh at t in/ant he 0 delight$ to 
obs]ve h[ gre$ily ! e>?1 :i* surr\nd$ ! 
root ( 8 walnut tree1 imbib$ ! wat]4    

,surpris$ at see+ two tr5*es p>take ( x1
 he %\t$ 9 8 turn1 exam9es1 p]ceives !  
rogu]y1 &1 s5d+ in/antly = a pick axe1  
at "o fatal bl[ makes two or ?ree ( our 
planks fly1 cry+ out meantime ) all 8   
/r5g?1 an aqu$uct6 an aqu$uct6 ,8 /rokes
 r$\bl$1 e "o ( :i* made an impression  
on our he>ts2 9 a mom5t ! planks1 !     
*annel1 ! bason1 ev5 our favorite will[1
 all 7 pl\gh$ up1 nor 0 "o ^w pron\nc$  
dur+ ?is t]rible transaction1 except !  
above m5tion$ exclamation4 ,an aqu$uct6 
repeat$ he1 :ile de/roy+ all our hopes1 
an aqu$uct6 an aqu$uct6  ,x maybe       
suppos$ ?is adv5ture _h a /ill m        
melan*oly end = ! "y ar*itects2 ?is1    
h[ev]1 0 n ! case2 ! affair end$ "h4    
,mr4 ,lamb]ci] nev] reproa*$ u on ?is   
acc\nt1 nor 0 8 c\nt5ance cl\d$ ) a     
fr[n2 we ev5 he>d him m5tion !          
circum/ance to 8 si/] ) l\d bur/s (     
laught]4 ,! laugh ( ,mr4 ,lamb]ci] might
 be he>d to a consid]able di/ance4 ,b   
:at is /ill m surpris+ aft] ! fir/      
transport ( sorr[ _h subsid$1 we did n  

f9d ourselves viol5tly afflict$2 we     
plant$ a tree 9 ano!r spot1 & frequ5tly 
recollect$ ! cata/rophe ( ! =m]1 repeat+
 ) a significant emphasis1 an aqu$uct6  
an aqu$uct6 ,till !n1 at int]vals1 ,i _h
 fits ( ambition1 & c\ld fancy myself   
,brutus or ,ari/ides1 b ?is 0 ! fir/    
visible effect ( my vanity4 ,to h       
con/ruct$ an aqu$uct ) our own h&s1 to h
 set a slip ( will[ 9 competition ) a   
fl\ri%+ tree1 appe>$ to me a supreme    
degree ( glory6 ,i _h a ju/] conception 
( x at t5 ?an ,caes> ent]ta9$ at ?irty4 
,! idea ( ?is walnut tree1 ) ! little   
anecdotes x gave rise to1 h s well      
cont9u$1 or return$ to my memory1 t !   
design :i* convey$ ! mo/ pleas+         
s5sations1 dur+ my j\rney to ,g5eva1 9 !
 ye> #aged1 0 visit+ ,bossey1 & review+ 
! monum5ts ( my infant9e amusem5t1 above
 all1 ! belov$ walnut tree1 ^: age at t 
"t mu/ h be5 v]g+ on a ?ird ( a c5tury1 
b ,i 0 s beset ) company t ,i c\ld n f9d
 a mom5t to accompli% my design4 ,!re is
 little appe>ance n[ ( ! occasion be+   

r5ew$2 b %\ld ,i ev] return to t *>m+   
spot1 & f9d my favorite walnut tree /ill
 exi/+1 ,i am conv9c$ ,i %\ld wat] x )  
my te>s4  ,on my return to ,g5eva1 ,i   
pass$ two or ?ree ye>s at my uncle's1   
expect+ ! det]m9ation ( my fri5ds       
respect+ my future e/abli%m5t4 ,8 own   
son be+ devot$ to g5ius1 0 taught draw+1
 & in/ruct$ by 8 fa!r 9 ! elem5ts (     
,euclid2 ,i p>took ( ^! in/ructions1 b 0
 pr9cipally fond ( draw+4 ,meantime1 !y 
7 irresolute1 :e!r to make me a         
wat*mak]1 a lawy]1 or a m9i/]4 ,i %\ld h
 pref]r$ be+ a m9i/]1 z ,i ?\ght x mu/  
be a *>m+ ?+ to prea*1 b ! trifl+ income
 :i* _h be5 my "m's1 & 0 to be divid$   
betwe5 my bro!r & myself1 0 too         
inconsid]able to defray ! exp5se att5d+ 
! prosecution ( my /udies4 ,z my age did
 n r5d] ! *oice v press+1 ,i rema9$ ) my
 uncle1 pass+ my "t ) v little          
improvem5t1 & pay+ pretty de>1 ?\gh n   
unreasonably1 = my bo>d4  ,my uncle1 l  
my fa!r1 0 a man ( pleasure1 b _h n     
le>n$1 l him1 to abridge 8 amusem5ts = !

 sake ( in/ruct+ 8 family1 consequ5tly  
our education 0 neglect$4 ,my aunt 0 a  
devotee1 :o lov$ s++ psalms bett] ?an   
?9k+ ( our improvem5t1 s t we 7 left    
entirely to ourselves1 :i* lib]ty we    
nev] abus$4  ,ev] insep>able1 we 7 all !
 _w to ea* o!r2 &1 feel+ no incl9ation  
to frequ5t ! company ( a numb] (        
disord]ly lads ( our own age1 we le>n$  
none ( ^? habits ( lib]t9ism to :i* our 
idle life expos$ u4 ,p]haps ,i am wrong 
9 *>g+ myself & c\s9 ) idl5ess at ?is   
"t1 =1 9 our lives1 we 7 nev] less s2 & 
:at 0 extremely =tunate1 s incessantly  
occupi$ ) our amusem5ts1 t we f\nd no   
temptation to sp5d any "p ( our "t 9 !  
/reets4 ,we made cages1 pipes1 kites1   
drums1 h\ses1 %ips1 & b[s2 spoil$ !     
tools ( my good old gr&fa!r by endeavor+
 to make wat*es 9 imitation ( him2 b our
 favorite amusem5t 0 wa/+ pap]1 9 draw+1
 wa%+1 color+1 etc4 ,!re came an        
,italian m\ntebank to ,g5eva1 call$     
,gamb]-,corta1 :o _h an exhibition (    
puppets1 t he made play a k9d ( com$y4  

,we w5t once to see !m1 b c\ld n sp>e "t
 to g aga91 be+ busily employ$ 9 mak+   
puppets ( our own & inv5t+ com$ies1 :i* 
we imm$iately set ab\t mak+ !m p]=m1    
mimick+ to ! be/ ( our abilities ! unc\?
 voice ( ,pun*2 &1 to complete !        
bus9ess1 my good aunt & uncle ,b]n>d _h 
! pati5ce to see & li/5 to our          
imitations2 b my uncle1 hav+ "o day read
 an elaborate disc\rse to 8 family1 we  
in/antly gave up our com$ies1 & began   
compos+ s]mons4  ,^! details1 ,i        
confess1 are n v amus+1 b !y s]ve to    
demon/rate t ! =m] "p ( our education 0 
well direct$1 s9ce be+1 at su* an e>ly  
age1 ! absolute ma/]s ( our "t1 we f\nd 
no incl9ation to abuse x2 & s little 9  
want ( o!r companions1 t we con/antly   
neglect$ e occasion ( seek+ !m4 ,:5 tak+
 our walks toge!r1 we obs]v$ _!         
div]sions )\t feel+ any incl9ation to   
p>take ( !m4 ,fri5d%ip s entirely       
occupi$ our he>ts1 t1 pleas$ ) ea* o!r's
 company ! simple/ pa/imes 7 suffici5t  
to delight u4  ,we 7 soon rem>k$ = be+  

?us insep>able3 & :at r5d]$ u m         
conspicu\s1 my c\s9 0 v tall1 myself    
extremely %ort1 s t we exhibit$ a v     
:imsical contra/4 ,?is meagre figure1   
small1 sall[ c\nt5ance1 heavy air1 &    
sup9e gait1 excit$ ! ridicule ( !       
*ildr51 :o1 9 ! gibb]i% ( ! c\ntry1     
nicknam$ him ',b>na ,br$anna'2 & we no  
soon] got out ( doors ?an our e>s 7     
assail$ ) a repetition ( ,b>na ,br$anna4
 ,he bore ?is indignity ) tol]able      
pati5ce1 b ,i 0 in/antly = fight+4 ,?is 
0 :at ! "y rogues aim$ at4 ,i engag$    
accord+ly1 & 0 beat4 ,my poor c\s9 did  
all 9 8 p[] to assi/ me1 b he 0 weak1 & 
a s+le /roke br\ght him to ! gr\nd4 ,i  
!n became furi\s1 & receiv$ sev]al sm>t 
bl[s1 "s ( :i* 7 aim$ at ',b>na         
,br$anna'4 ,?is qu>rel s f> increas$ !  
evil1 t1 to avoid _! insults1 we c\ld   
only %[ ourselves 9 ! /reets :ile !y 7  
employ$ at s*ool4  ,i _h already become 
a r$ress] ( grievances2 !re only want$ a
 lady 9 ! way to be a knight-errant 9   
=m4 ,?is defect 0 soon suppli$2 ,i      

pres5tly _h two4 ,i frequ5tly w5t to see
 my fa!r at ,nion1 a small city 9 !     
,vaudois c\ntry1 :]e he 0 n[ settl$4    
,be+ univ]sally respect$1 ! affection   
ent]ta9$ = him ext5d$ to me3 &1 dur+ my 
visits1 ! "q seem$ to be1 :o %\ld %[ me 
mo/ k9dness4 ,a ,madame de ,vulson1 9   
p>ticul>1 load$ me ) c>esses2 &1 to     
complete all1 h] daught] made me h]     
gallant4 ,i ne$ n expla9 :at k9d (      
gallant a boy ( elev5 mu/ be to a girl (
 two & tw5ty2 ! artful hussies "k h[ to 
set ^! puppets up 9 front1 to conceal m 
s]i\s engagem5ts4 ,on my "p ,i saw no   
inequality betwe5 myself & ,miss        
,vulson1 0 flatt]$ by ! circum/ance1 &  
w5t into x ) my :ole he>t1 or r my :ole 
head1 = ?is passion c]ta9ly rea*$ no    
fur!r1 ?\gh x transport$ me almo/ to    
madness1 & frequ5tly produc$ sc5es      
suffici5t to make ev5 a cynic expire )  
laught]4  ,i h exp]i5c$ two k9ds ( love1
 equally real1 :i* h sc>ce any aff9ity1 
yet ea* diff]+ mat]ially f t5d]         
fri5d%ip4 ,my :ole life has be5 divid$  

betwe5 ^! affections1 & ,i h frequ5tly  
felt ! p[] ( bo? at ! same in/ant4 ,=   
example1 at ! v "t ,i s publically &    
tyrannically claim$ ,miss ,vulson1 t ,i 
c\ld n suff] any o!r ( my sex to approa*
 h]1 ,i _h %ort1 b passionate1          
assignations ) a ,miss ,goton1 :o ?\ght 
prop] to act ! s*oolmi/ress ) me4 ,our  
meet+s1 ?\gh absolutely *ildi%1 af=d$ me
 ! height ( happ9ess4 ,i felt ! :ole *>m
 ( my/]y1 & repaid ,miss ,vulson 9 k9d1 
:5 %e lea/ expect$ x1 ! use %e made ( me
 9 conceal+ h] am\rs4 ,to my great      
mortification1 ?is secret 0 soon        
discov]$1 & ,i pres5tly lo/ my "y       
s*oolmi/ress4  ,miss ,goton 01 9 fact1 a
 s+ul> p]sonage4 ,%e 0 n h&some1 yet !re
 0 a c]ta9 some?+ 9 h] figure :i* c\ld n
 easily be =gott51 & ?is = an old fool1 
,i am too (t5 conv9c$ (4 ,h] eyes1 9    
p>ticul>1 nei!r correspond$ ) h] age1 h]
 height1 nor h] mann]2 %e _h a l(ty     
impos+ air1 :i* agre$ extremely well ) !
 "* %e assum$1 b ! mo/ extraord9>y "p ( 
h] composition 0 a mixture ( =w>dness & 

res]ve difficult to be conceiv$2 & :ile 
%e took ! greate/ lib]ties ) me1 w\ld   
nev] p]mit any to be tak5 ) h] 9 return1
 treat+ me precisely l a *ild4 ,?is     
makes me suppose %e _h ei!r ceas$ h]self
 to be "o1 or 0 yet suffici5tly s to    
behold z play ! dang] to :i* ?is folly  
expos$ h]4  ,i 0 s absolutely 9 ! p[] ( 
bo? ^! mi/resses1 t :5 9 ! pres5ce (    
ei!r1 ,i nev] ?\ght ( h] :o 0 abs5t2 9  
o!r respects1 ! effects !y produc$ on me
 bore no aff9ity4 ,i c\ld h pass$ my    
:ole life ) ,miss ,vulson1 )\t =m+ a wi%
 to quit h]2 b !n1 my satisfaction 0    
att5d$ ) a pleas+ s]5ity2 &1 9 num]\s   
companies1 ,i 0 p>ticul>ly *>m$ ) h]4 ,!
 sprightly sallies ( h] wit1 ! ar*      
glance ( h] eye1 ev5 jeal\sy itself1    
/r5g!n$ my atta*m5t1 & ,i triumph$ 9 !  
pref]5ce %e seem$ to be/[ on me1 :ile   
address$ by m p[]ful rivals2 applause1  
enc\ragem5t1 & smiles1 gave animation to
 my happ9ess4 ,surr\nd$ by a ?rong (    
obs]v]s1 ,i felt ! :ole =ce ( love--,i 0
 passionate1 transport$2 9 a            

tete-a-tete1 ,i %\ld h be5 con/ra9$1    
?\ghtful1 p]haps unhappy4 ,if ,miss     
,vulson 0 ill1 ,i suff]$ ) h]2 w\ld     
will+ly h giv5 up my own heal? to       
e/abli% h]s 7&1 obs]ve ,i knew ! want ( 
x f exp]i5ce72 if abs5t1 %e employ$ my  
?\ghts1 ,i felt ! want ( h]2 :5 pres5t1 
h] c>esses came ) w>m? & rapture to my  
he>t1 ?\gh my s5ses 7 unaffect$4 ,!     
famili>ities %e be/[$ on me ,i c\ld n h 
support$ ! idea ( h] grant+ to ano!r2 ,i
 lov$ h] ) a bro!r's affection only1 b  
exp]i5c$ all ! jeal\sy ( a lov]4  ,)    
,miss ,goton ?is passion might h acquir$
 a degree ( fury2 ,i %\ld h be5 a ,turk1
 a tig]1 _h ,i once imag9$ %e be/[$ h]  
favors on any b myself4 ,! pleasure ,i  
felt on approa*+ ,miss ,vulson 0        
suffici5tly ard5t1 ?\gh unatt5d$ )      
uneasy s5sations2 b at sight ( ,miss    
,goton1 ,i felt myself bewild]$--e s5se 
0 absorb$ 9 ec/asy4 ,i believe x w\ld h 
be5 impossible to h rema9$ long ) h]2 ,i
 mu/ h be5 suffocat$ ) ! viol5ce ( my   
palpitations4 ,i equally dread$ giv+    

ei!r ( !m displeasure2 ) "o ,i 0 m      
complaisant2 ) ! o!r1 m submissive4 ,i  
w\ld n h (f5d$ ,miss ,vulson = ! _w2 b  
if ,miss ,goton _h comm&$ me to ?r[     
myself into ! flames1 ,i ?9k ,i %\ld h  
in/antly obey$ h]4 ,happily1 bo? = h] & 
myself1 our am\rs2 or r r5dezv\s1 7 n ( 
long duration3 & ?\gh my connection )   
,miss ,vulson 0 less dang]\s1 aft] a    
cont9uance ( "s great] l5g?1 t likewise 
_h its cata/rophe2 inde$ ! t]m9ation ( a
 love affair is good = no?+1 unless x   
p>takes ( ! romantic1 & c furni% out at 
lea/ an exclamation4  ,?\gh my          
correspond5ce ) ,miss ,vulson 0 less    
animat$1 x 0 p]haps m ende>+2 we nev]   
sep>at$ )\t te>s1 & x c h>dly be        
conceiv$ :at a void ,i felt 9 my he>t4  
,i c\ld nei!r ?9k nor speak ( any?+ b   
h]4 ,^! romantic sorr[s 7 n affect$1    
?\gh ,i am incl9$ to believe !y did n   
absolutely c5tre 9 h]1 = ,i am p]suad$  
7?\gh ,i did n p]ceive x at t "t7 be+   
depriv$ ( amusem5t bore a consid]able   
%>e 9 !m4  ,to s(t5 ! rigor ( abs5ce1 we

 agre$ to correspond ) ea* o!r1 & !     
pa!tic expressions ^! lett]s conta9$ 7  
suffici5t to h split a rock4 ,9 a ^w1 ,i
 _h ! honor ( h] n be+ able to endure ! 
pa9 ( sep>ation4 ,%e came to see me at  
,g5eva4  ,my head 0 n[ completely turn$2
 & dur+ ! two days %e rema9$ "h1 ,i 0   
intoxicat$ ) delight4 ,at h] dep>ture1  
,i w\ld h ?r[n myself into ! wat] aft]  
h]1 & absolutely r5t ! air ) my cries4  
,! week foll[+ %e s5t me sweetmeats1    
gloves1 etc4 ,?is c]ta9ly w\ld h appe>$ 
extremely gallant1 _h ,i n be5 in=m$ (  
h] m>riage at ! same in/ant1 & t !      
j\rney ,i _h ?\ght prop] to give myself 
! honor (1 0 only to buy h] w$d+ suit4  
,my indignation may easily be conceiv$2 
,i %all n attempt to describe x4 ,9 ?is 
h]oic fury1 ,i swore nev] m to see !    
p]fidi\s girl1 suppos+ x ! greate/      
puni%m5t t c\ld be inflict$ on h]4 ,?is1
 h[ev]1 did n occasion h] dea?1 = tw5ty 
ye>s aft]1 :ile on a visit to my fa!r1  
be+ on ! lake1 ,i ask$ :o ^? ladies 7 9 
a boat n f> f ours4 ,:at6 said my fa!r  

smil+1 does n y\r he>t in=m y8 ,x is y\r
 =m] flame1 x is ,madame ,*ri/91 or1 if 
y please1 ,miss ,vulson4 ,i />t$ at !   
almo/ =gott5 "n1 & in/antly ord]$ !     
wat]man to turn (f1 n judg+ x wor? :ile 
to be p]jur$1 h[ev] favorable !         
opportunity = rev5ge1 9 r5ew+ a dispute 
( tw5ty ye>s pa/1 ) a woman ( =ty4      
,?us1 be=e my future de/9ation 0        
det]m9$1 did ,i fool away ! mo/ preci\s 
mom5ts ( my y\?4 ,aft] delib]at+ a long 
"t on ! b5t ( my natural incl9ation1 !y 
resolv$ to dispose ( me 9 a mann] ! mo/ 
repugnant to !m4 ,i 0 s5t to ,mr4       
,mass]on1 ! ,city ,regi/]1 to le>n      
7accord+ to ! expression ( my uncle     
,b]n>d7 ! ?riv+ occupation ( a scrap]4  
,?is nickname 0 inconceivably displeas+ 
to me1 & ,i promis$ myself b little     
satisfaction 9 ! prospect ( heap+ up    
money by a mean employm5t4 ,! assiduity 
& subjection requir$1 complet$ my       
disgu/1 & ,i nev] set foot 9 ! (fice )\t
 feel+ a k9d ( horror1 :i* e day ga9$   
fre% /r5g?4  ,mr4 ,mass]on1 :o 0 n bett]

 pleas$ ) my abilities ?an ,i 0 ) !     
employm5t1 treat$ me ) disda91          
incessantly upbraid+ me ) be+ a fool &  
blockhead1 n =gett+ to repeat1 t my     
uncle _h assur$ him ,i 0 a kn[+ "o1 ?\gh
 he c\ld n f9d t ,i knew any?+4 ,t he _h
 promis$ to furni% him ) a sprightly    
boy1 b _h1 9 tru?1 s5t him an ass4 ,to  
conclude1 ,i 0 turn$ out ( ! regi/ry1 ) 
! additional ignom9y ( be+ pron\nc$ a   
fool by all ,mr4 ,mass]on's cl]ks1 & fit
 only to h&le a file4  ,my vocation ?us 
det]m9$1 ,i 0 b\nd appr5tice2 n1 h[ev]1 
to a wat*mak]1 b to an engrav]1 & ,i _h 
be5 s completely humiliat$ by ! contempt
 ( ! regi/]1 t ,i submitt$ )\t a murmur4
 ,my ma/]1 ^: "n 0 ,m4 ,ducommon1 0 a "y
 man ( a v viol5t & boori% "*1 :o       
contriv$ 9 a %ort "t to t>ni% all !     
amiable qualities ( my *ildhood1 to     
/upefy a disposition naturally          
sprightly1 & r$uce my feel+s1 z well z  
my condition1 to an absolute /ate (     
s]vitude4 ,i =got my ,lat91 hi/ory1 &   
antiquities2 ,i c\ld h>dly recollect    

:e!r su* p z ,romans ev] exi/$4 ,:5 ,i  
visit$ my fa!r1 he no long] beheld 8    
idol1 nor c\ld ! ladies recognize !     
gallant ,jean ,jacques2 nay1 ,i 0 s well
 conv9c$ t ,mr4 & ,miss ,lamb]ci] w\ld  
sc>ce receive me z _! pupil1 t ,i       
endeavor$ to avoid _! company1 & f t "t 
h nev] se5 !m4 ,! vile/ incl9ations1 !  
base/ actions1 succe$$ my amiable       
amusem5ts & ev5 oblit]at$ ! v           
remembrance ( !m4 ,i mu/ h _h1 9 spite (
 my good education1 a great prop5sity to
 deg5]ate1 else ! decl5sion c\ld n h    
foll[$ ) su* ease & rapidity1 = nev] did
 s promis+ a ,caes> s quickly become a  
,l>adon4  ,! art itself did n displease 
me4 ,i _h a lively ta/e = draw+4 ,!re 0 
no?+ displeas+ 9 ! ex]cise ( ! grav]2 & 
z x requir$ no v extraord9>y abilities  
to atta9 p]fection z a wat*case engrav]1
 ,i hop$ to arrive at x4 ,p]haps ,i %\ld
 h accompli%$ my design1 if unreasonable
 re/ra9t1 add$ to ! brutality ( my ma/]1
 _h n r5d]$ my bus9ess disgu/+4 ,i wa/$ 
8 "t1 & employ$ myself 9 engrav+ m$als1 

:i* s]v$ me & my companions z a k9d (   
insignia = a new inv5t$ ord] ( *ivalry1 
& ?\gh ?is diff]$ v little f my usual   
employ1 ,i consid]$ x z a relaxation4   
,un=tunately1 my ma/] caught me at ?is  
contrab& labor1 & a sev]e beat+ 0 !     
consequ5ce4 ,he reproa*$ me at ! same "t
 ) attempt+ to make c\nt]feit money     
because our m$als bore ! arms ( !       
,republic1 ?\gh1 ,i c truly av]1 ,i _h  
no conception ( false money1 & v little 
( ! true1 kn[+ bett] h[ to make a ,roman
 ,z ?an "o ( our ?reep5ny pieces4  ,my  
ma/]'s tyranny r5d]$ insupportable t    
labor ,i %\ld o!rwise h lov$1 & drove me
 to vices ,i naturally despis$1 su* z   
falsehood1 idl5ess1 & !ft4 ,no?+ ev]    
gave me a cle>] demon/ration ( !        
diff]5ce betwe5 filial dep5d5ce & abject
 slav]y1 ?an ! remembrance ( ! *ange    
produc$ 9 me at t p]iod4 ,hi!rto ,i _h  
enjoy$ a reasonable lib]ty2 ?is ,i _h   
sudd5ly lo/4 ,i 0 ent]pris+ at my       
fa!r's1 free at ,mr4 ,lamb]ci]'s1       
discreet at my uncle's2 b1 ) my ma/]1 ,i

 became fe>ful1 & f t mom5t my m9d 0    
vitiat$4 ,accu/om$ to live on t]ms (    
p]fect equality1 to be witness ( no     
pleasures ,i c\ld n comm&1 to see no di%
 ,i 0 n to p>take (1 or be s5sible ( a  
desire ,i might n express2 to be able to
 br+ e wi% ( my he>t to my lips--:at a  
transition6--at my ma/]'s ,i 0 sc>ce    
all[$ to speak1 0 =c$ to quit ! table   
)\t ta/+ :at ,i mo/ long$ =1 & ! room :5
 ,i _h no?+ p>ticul> to d !re2 0        
incessantly conf9$ to my "w1 :ile !     
lib]ty my ma/] & 8 j\rneym5 enjoy$1 s]v$
 only to increase ! weight ( my         
subjection4 ,:5 disputes happ5$ to      
arise1 ?\gh consci\s t ,i und]/ood !    
subject bett] ?an any ( !m1 ,i d>$ n (f]
 my op9ion2 9 a ^w1 ev]y?+ ,i saw became
 an object ( desire1 = no o!r reason ?an
 because ,i 0 n p]mitt$ to enjoy any?+4 
,f>ewell gayety1 ease1 ^? happy turns ( 
expressions1 :i* =m]ly ev5 made my      
faults escape correction4 ,i recollect1 
) pleasure1 a circum/ance t happ5$ at my
 fa!r's1 :i* ev5 n[ makes me smile4 ,be+

 = "s fault ord]$ to b$ )\t my supp]1 z 
,i 0 pass+ ?r\gh ! kit*51 ) my poor     
morsel ( bread 9 my h&1 ,i saw ! meat   
turn+ on ! spit2 my fa!r & ! re/ 7 r\nd 
! fire2 ,i mu/ b[ to e "o z ,i pass$4   
,:5 ,i _h gone ?r\gh ?is c]emony1 le]+ )
 a wi/ful eye at ! roa/ meat1 :i* look$ 
s invit+1 & smelt s savory1 ,i c\ld n   
ab/a9 f mak+ t a b[ likewise1 add+ 9 a  
pitiful tone1 good bye1 roa/ meal6 ,?is 
unprem$itat$ pleasantry put !m 9 su*    
good humor1 t ,i 0 p]mitt$ to /ay1 &    
p>take ( x4 ,p]haps ! same ?+ might h   
produc$ a simil> effect at my ma/]'s1 b 
su* a ?\ght c\ld nev] h occurr$ to me1  
or1 if x _h1 ,i %\ld n h _h c\rage to   
express x4  ,?us ,i le>n$ to covet1     
dissemble1 lie1 &1 at l5g?1 to /eal1 a  
prop5sity ,i nev] felt ! lea/ idea (    
be=e1 ?\gh s9ce t "t ,i h nev] be5 able 
entirely to dive/ myself ( x4 ,desire & 
inability unit$ naturally l$ to ?is     
vice1 :i* is ! reason pilf]+ is s common
 among footm5 & appr5tices1 ?\gh !      
latt]1 z !y gr[ up1 & f9d !mselves 9 a  

situation :]e ev]y?+ is at _! comm&1    
lose ?is %ameful prop5sity4 ,z ,i nev]  
exp]i5c$ ! advantage1 ,i nev] enjoy$ !  
b5efit4  ,good s5tim5ts1 ill-direct$1   
frequ5tly lead *ildr5 into vice4        
,not)/&+ my cont9ual wants &            
temptations1 x 0 m ?an a ye> be=e ,i    
c\ld resolve to take ev5 eatables4 ,my  
fir/ !ft 0 occasion$ by complaisance1 b 
x 0 productive ( o!rs :i* _h n s        
plausible an excuse4  ,my ma/] _h a     
j\rneyman nam$ ,v]rat1 ^: "m liv$ 9 !   
neighborhood1 & _h a g>d5 at a          
consid]able di/ance f ! h\se1 :i*       
produc$ excell5t asp>agus4 ,?is ,v]rat1 
:o _h no great pl5ty ( money1 took x 9 8
 head to rob h] ( ! mo/ e>ly production 
( h] g>d51 & by ! sale ( x procure ^?   
indulg5ces he c\ld n o!rwise af=d       
himself2 b n be+ v nimble1 he did n c>e 
to run ! haz>d ( a surprise4 ,aft] "s   
prelim9>y flatt]y1 :i* ,i did n         
compreh5d ! mean+ (1 he propos$ ?is     
exp$ition to me1 z an idea :i* _h t     
mom5t /ruck him4 ,at fir/ ,i w\ld n li/5

 to ! proposal2 b he p]si/$ 9 8         
solicitation1 & z ,i c\ld nev] resi/ !  
attacks ( flatt]y1 at l5g? prevail$4 ,9 
pursuance ( ?is virtu\s resolution1 ,i e
 morn+ repair$ to ! g>d51 ga!r$ ! be/ ( 
! asp>agus1 & took x to ! ,hol>d :]e "s 
good old wom51 :o guess$ h[ ,i came by  
x1 wi%+ to dim9i% ! price1 made no      
secret ( _! suspicions2 ?is produc$ !   
desir$ effect1 =1 be+ al>m$1 ,i took    
:atev] !y (f]$1 :i* be+ tak5 to ,mr4    
,v]rat1 0 pres5tly metamorphos$ into a  
breakfa/1 & divid$ ) a companion ( 82 =1
 ?\gh ,i procur$ x1 ,i nev] p>took ( _! 
good *e]1 be+ fully satisfi$ ) an       
inconsid]able bribe4  ,i execut$ my     
rogu]y ) ! greate/ fidelity1 seek+ only 
to please my employ]2 & sev]al days     
pass$ be=e x came into my head1 to rob !
 robb]1 & ti! ,mr4 ,v]rat's h>ve/4 ,i   
nev] consid]$ ! haz>d ,i run 9 ^!       
exp$itions1 n only ( a torr5t ( abuse1 b
 :at ,i %\ld h be5 /ill m s5sible (1 a  
he>ty beat+2 = ! miscreant1 :o receiv$ !
 :ole b5efit1 w\ld c]ta9ly h d5i$ all k 

( ! fact1 & ,i %\ld only h receiv$ a    
d\ble portion ( puni%m5t = d>+ to accuse
 him1 s9ce be+ only an appr5tice1 ,i    
/ood no *ance ( be+ believ$ 9 opposition
 to a j\rneyman4 ,?us1 9 e situation1   
p[]ful rogues "k h[ to save !mselves at 
! exp5se ( ! feeble4  ,?is practice     
taught me x 0 n s t]rible to ?ieve z ,i 
_h imag9$3 ,i took c>e to make ?is      
discov]y turn to "s acc\nt1 help+ myself
 to ev]y?+ )9 my rea*1 t ,i conceiv$ an 
incl9ation =4 ,i 0 n absolutely ill-f$  
at my ma/]'s1 & temp]ance 0 only pa9ful 
to me by comp>+ x ) ! luxury he enjoy$4 
,! cu/om ( s5d+ "y p f table precisely  
:5 ^? ?+s are s]v$ up :i* seem mo/      
tempt+1 is calculat$ to increase _!     
long+1 & induces !m to /eal :at !y      
conceive to be s delici\s4 ,x may be    
suppos$ ,i 0 n backw>d 9 ?is p>ticul>3 9
 g5]al my knav]y succe$$ pretty well1   
?\gh q ! rev]se :5 ,i happ5$ to be      
detect$4  ,i recollect an attempt to    
procure "s apples1 :i* 0 att5d$ )       
circum/ances t make me smile & %udd] ev5

 at ?is in/ant4 ,! fruit 0 /&+ 9 !      
pantry1 :i* by a lattice at a           
consid]able height receiv$ light f !    
kit*54 ,"o day1 be+ alone 9 ! h\se1 ,i  
climb$ up to see ^! preci\s apples1 :i* 
be+ out ( my rea*1 made ?is pantry appe>
 ! g>d5 ( ,hesp]ides4 ,i fet*$ !        
spit--tri$ if x w\ld rea* !m--x 0 too   
%ort--,i l5g!n$ x ) a small "o :i* 0 us$
 = game1--my ma/] be+ v fond ( hunt+1   
d>t$ at !m sev]al times )\t success2 at 
l5g? 0 m =tunate2 be+ transport$ to f9d 
,i 0 br++ up an apple1 ,i drew x g5tly  
to ! lattice--0 go+ to seize x :5 7:o c 
express my grief & a/oni%m5t67 ,i f\nd x
 w\ld n pass ?r\gh--x 0 too l>ge4 ,i    
tri$ e exp$i5t to accompli% my design1  
s\ght support]s to keep ! spits 9 ! same
 position1 a knife to divide ! apple1 & 
a la? to hold x )2 at l5g?1 ,i s f>     
succe$$ z to effect ! division1 & made  
no d\bt ( draw+ ! pieces ?r\gh2 b x 0   
sc>cely sep>at$1 7compassionate read]1  
sympa?ize ) my affliction7 :5 bo? pieces
 fell into ! pantry4  ,illu/ration3     

#jjbh  ,?\gh ,i lo/ "t by ?is exp]im5t1 
,i did n lose c\rage1 b1 dread+ a       
surprise1 ,i put (f ! attempt till next 
day1 :5 ,i hop$ to be m successful1 &   
return$ to my "w z if no?+ _h happ5$1   
)\t once ?9k+ ( :at ! two obvi\s        
witnesses ,i _h left 9 ! pantry depos$  
aga9/ me4  ,! next day 7a f9e           
opportunity (f]+7 ,i r5ew ! trial4 ,i   
fa/5 ! spits toge!r2 get on ! /ool2 take
 aim2 am j go+ to d>t at my             
prey--un=tunately ! dragon did n sleep2 
! pantry door op5s1 my ma/] makes 8     
appe>ance1 &1 look+ up1 exclaims1       
,bravo6--,! horror ( t mom5t returns--! 
p5 drops f my h&4  ,a cont9ual          
repetition ( ill treatm5t r5d]$ me      
call\s2 x seem$ a k9d ( composition = my
 crimes1 :i* au?oriz$ me to cont9ue !m1 
&1 in/ead ( look+ back at ! puni%m5t1 ,i
 look$ =w>d to rev5ge4 ,be+ beat l a    
slave1 ,i judg$ ,i _h a "r to all !     
vices ( "o4 ,i 0 conv9c$ t to rob & be  
puni%$ 7 insep>able1 & con/itut$1 if ,i 
may s express myself1 a k9d ( traffic1 9

 :i*1 if ,i p]=m my "p ( ! b>ga91 my    
ma/] w\ld take c>e n to be defici5t 9 82
 t prelim9>y settl$1 ,i appli$ myself to
 ?iev+ ) great tranquility1 & :5ev] ?is 
int]rogatory occurr$ to my m9d1 ,:at w  
be ! consequ5ce8 ! reply 0 ready1 ,i "k 
! wor/1 ,i %all be beat2 no matt]1 ,i 0 
made = x4  ,i love good eat+2 am s5sual1
 b n gre$y2 ,i h su* a v>iety (         
incl9ations to gratify1 t ?is c nev]    
pr$om9ate2 & unless my he>t is          
unoccupi$1 :i* v r>ely happ5s1 ,i pay b 
little att5tion to my appetite2 to      
purlo9+ eatables1 b ext5d$ ?is prop5sity
 to ev]y?+ ,i wi%$ to possess1 & if ,i  
did n become a robb] 9 =m1 x 0 only     
because money nev] tempt$ me4  ,my ma/] 
_h a closet 9 ! work%op1 :i* he kept    
lock$2 ?is ,i contriv$ to op5 & %ut z   
(t5 z ,i pleas$1 & laid 8 be/ tools1 f9e
 draw+s1 impressions1 9 a ^w1 ev]y?+ he 
wi%$ to keep f me1 "u contribution4  ,^!
 !fts 7 s f> innoc5t1 t !y 7 always     
employ$ 9 8 s]vice1 b ,i 0 transport$ at
 hav+ ! trifles 9 my possession1 &      

imag9$ ,i /ole ! art ) its productions4 
,besides :at ,i h m5tion$1 8 boxes      
conta9$ ?reads ( gold & silv]1 a numb] (
 small jewels1 valuable m$als1 & money2 
yet1 ?\gh ,i seldom _h five s\s 9 my    
pocket1 ,i d n recollect ev] hav+ ca/ a 
wi%ful look at !m2 on ! contr>y1 ,i     
beheld ^! valuables r ) t]ror ?an )     
delight4  ,i am conv9c$ ! dread ( tak+  
money 01 9 a great measure1 ! effect (  
education4 ,!re 0 m+l$ ) ! idea ( x !   
fe> ( infamy1 a prison1 puni%m5t1 &     
dea?3 _h ,i ev5 felt ! temptation1 ^!   
objects w\ld h made me tremble2 :]eas my
 fail+s appe>$ a species ( wagg]y1 &1 9 
tru?1 !y 7 little else2 !y c\ld b       
occasion a good trimm+1 & ?is ,i 0      
already prep>$ =4 ,a %eet ( f9e draw+   
pap] 0 a great] temptation ?an money    
suffici5t to h pur*as$ a ream4 ,?is     
unreasonable caprice is connect$ ) "o ( 
! mo/ /rik+ s+ul>ities ( my "*1 & has s 
f> influ5c$ my conduct1 t x requires a  
p>ticul> explanation4  ,my passions are 
extremely viol5t2 :ile "u _! influ5ce1  

no?+ c equal my impetuosity2 ,i am an   
absolute /rang] to discretion1 respect1 
fe>1 or decorum2 rude1 saucy1 viol5t1 & 
intrepid3 no %ame c /op1 no dang]       
intimidate me4 ,my m9d is frequ5tly s   
engross$ by a s+le object1 t beyond x ! 
:ole _w is n wor? a ?\ght2 ?is is !     
en?usiasm ( a mom5t1 ! next1 p]haps1 ,i 
am plung$ 9 a /ate ( annihilation4 ,take
 me 9 my mom5ts ( tranquility1 ,i am    
indol5ce & timidity itself2 a ^w to     
speak1 ! lea/ trifle to p]=m1 appe> an  
intol]able labor2 ev]y?+ al>ms &        
t]rifies me2 ! v buzz+ ( a fly w make me
 %udd]2 ,i am s subdu$ by fe> & %ame1 t 
,i w\ld gladly %ield myself f mortal    
view4  ,:5 oblig$ to ex]t myself1 ,i am 
ignorant :at to d6 :5 =c$ to speak1 ,i  
am at a loss = words2 & if any "o looks 
at me1 ,i am in/antly out ( c\nt5ance4  
,if animat$ ) my subject1 ,i express my 
?\ghts ) ease1 b1 9 ord9>y conv]sations1
 ,i c say no?+--absolutely no?+2 &1 be+ 
oblig$ to speak1 r5d]s !m insupportable4
  ,i may add1 t none ( my pr$om9ant     

incl9ations c5tre 9 ^? pleasures :i* are
 to be pur*as$3 money empoisons my      
delight2 ,i mu/ h !m unadult]at$2 ,i    
love ^? ( ! table1 = in/ance1 b _c      
endure ! re/ra9ts ( good company1 or !  
intemp]ance ( tav]ns2 ,i c enjoy !m only
 ) a fri5d1 = alone x is equally        
impossible2 my imag9ation is !n s       
occupi$ ) o!r ?+s1 t ,i f9d no pleasure 
9 eat+4 ,wom5 :o are to be pur*as$ h no 
*>ms = me2 my beat+ he>t _c be satisfi$ 
)\t affection2 x is ! same ) e o!r      
enjoym5t1 if n truly dis9t]e/$1 !y are  
absolutely insipid2 9 a ^w1 ,i am fond (
 ^? ?+s :i* are only e/imable to m9ds   
=m$ = ! peculi> enjoym5t ( !m4  ,i nev] 
?\ght money s desirable z x is usually  
imag9$2 if y w\ld enjoy y mu/ trans=m x2
 & ?is trans=mation is frequ5tly att5d$ 
) inconv5i5ce2 y mu/ b>ga91 pur*ase1 pay
 de>1 be badly s]v$1 & (t5 dup$4 ,i buy 
an egg1 am assur$ x is new-laid--,i f9d 
x /ale2 fruit 9 its utmo/               
p]fection--'tis absolutely gre54 ,i love
 good w9e1 b :]e %all ,i get x8 ,n at my

 w9e m]*ant's--he w poison me to a      
c]ta9ty4 ,i wi% to be univ]sally        
respect$2 h[ %all ,i compass my design8 
,i mu/ make fri5ds1 s5d messages1 write 
lett]s1 come1 g1 wait1 & be frequ5tly   
deceiv$4 ,money is ! p]petual s\rce (   
uneas9ess2 ,i fe> x m ?an ,i love good  
w9e4  ,a ?\s& times1 bo? dur+ & s9ce my 
appr5tice%ip1 h ,i gone out to pur*ase  
"s nicety1 ,i approa* ! pa/ry-cook's1   
p]ceive "s wom5 at ! c\nt]1 & imag9e !y 
are laugh+ at me4 ,i pass a fruit %op1  
see "s f9e pe>s1 _! appe>ance tempts me2
 b !n two or ?ree "y p are ne>1 or a man
 ,i am acqua9t$ ) is /&+ at ! door2 ,i  
take all t pass = p]sons ,i h "s k (1 & 
my ne> sight contributes to deceive me4 
,i am ev]y:]e intimidat$1 re/ra9$ by "s 
ob/acle1 & ) money 9 my pocket return z 
,i w5t1 = want ( resolution to pur*ase  
:at ,i long =4  ,i %\ld ent] into ! mo/ 
insipid details 0 ,i to relate ! tr\ble1
 %ame1 repugnance1 & inconv5i5ce ( all  
k9ds :i* ,i h exp]i5c$ 9 p>t+ ) my      
money1 :e!r 9 my own p]son1 or by !     

ag5cy ( o!rs2 z ,i proce$1 ! read] w get
 acqua9t$ ) my disposition1 & p]ceive   
all ?is )\t my tr\bl+ him ) ! recital4  
,?is once compreh5d$1 "o ( my app>5t    
contradictions w be easily acc\nt$ =1 & 
! mo/ sordid av>ice reconcil$ ) !       
greate/ contempt ( money4 ,x is a       
movable :i* ,i consid] ( s little value1
 t1 :5 de/itute ( x1 ,i nev] wi% to     
acquire any2 & :5 ,i h a sum ,i keep x  
by me1 = want ( kn[+ h[ to dispose ( x  
to my satisfaction2 b let an agreeable &
 conv5i5t opportunity pres5t itself1 &  
,i empty my purse ) ! utmo/ fre$om2 n t 
,i w\ld h ! read] imag9e ,i am          
extravagant f a motive ( o/5tation1 q ! 
rev]se2 x 0 ev] 9 subs]vi5ce to my      
pleasures1 &1 in/ead ( glory+ 9 exp5se1 
,i endeavor to conceal x4 ,i s well     
p]ceive t money is n made to answ] my   
purposes1 t ,i am almo/ a%am$ to h any1 
&1 /ill m1 to make use ( x4  ,_h ,i ev] 
possess$ a mod]ate indep5d5ce1 ,i am    
conv9c$ ,i %\ld h _h no prop5sity to    
become av>ici\s4 ,i %\ld h requir$ no m1

 & *e]fully liv$ up to my income2 b my  
prec>i\s situation has con/antly &      
necess>ily kept me 9 fe>4 ,i love       
lib]ty1 & ,i loa! con/ra9t1 dep5d5ce1 & 
all _! k9dr$ annoyances4 ,z long z my   
purse conta9s money x secures my        
indep5d5ce1 & exempts me f ! tr\ble (   
seek+ o!r money1 a tr\ble ( :i* ,i h    
always _h a p]fect horror2 & ! dread (  
see+ ! end ( my indep5d5ce1 makes me    
proportionately unwill+ to "p ) my      
money4 ,! money t we possess is !       
in/rum5t ( lib]ty1 t :i* we lack & /rive
 to obta9 is ! in/rum5t ( slav]y4 ,!nce 
x is t ,i hold fa/ to aught t ,i h1 &   
yet covet no?+ m4  ,my dis9t]e/$ness1   
!n1 is 9 reality only idl5ess1 !        
pleasure ( possess+ is n 9 my e/imation 
wor? ! tr\ble ( acquir+3 & my           
dissipation is only ano!r =m ( idl5ess2 
:5 we h an opportunity ( disburs+       
pleasantly we %\ld make ! be/ possible  
use ( x4  ,i am less tempt$ by money ?an
 by o!r objects1 because betwe5 ! mom5t 
( possess+ ! money & t ( us+ x to obta9 

! desir$ object !re is always an        
int]val1 h[ev] %ort2 :]eas to possess ! 
?+ is to enjoy x4 ,i see a ?+ & x tempts
 me2 b if ,i see n ! ?+ itself b only ! 
means ( acquir+ x1 ,i am n tempt$4      
,!re=e x is t ,i h be5 a pilf]]1 & am s 
ev5 n[1 9 ! way ( m]e trifles to :i* ,i 
take a fancy1 & :i* ,i f9d x easi] to   
take ?an to ask =2 b ,i nev] 9 my life  
recollect hav+ tak5 a f>?+ f any "o1    
except ab\t fifte5 ye>s ago1 :5 ,i /ole 
sev5 francs & t5 s\s4 ,! /ory is wor?   
rec\nt+1 z x exhibits a concurr5ce (    
ignorance & /upidity ,i %\ld sc>cely    
cr$it1 did x relate to any b myself4  ,x
 0 9 ,p>is3 ,i 0 walk+ ) ,m4 de         
,franceul at ! ,palais ,royal2 he pull$ 
out 8 wat*1 he look$ at x1 & said to me1
 ,suppose we g to ! op]a8--,) all my    
he>t4 ,we g3 he takes two box tickets1  
gives me "o1 & ent]s himself ) ! o!r2 ,i
 foll[1 f9d ! door cr[d$2 &1 look+ 91   
see e "o /&+2 judg+1 !re=e1 t ,m4 de    
,franceul might suppose me conceal$ by !
 company1 ,i g out1 ask = my ticket1 &1 

gett+ ! money return$1 leave ! h\se1 )\t
 consid]+1 t by !n ,i _h rea*$ ! door e 
"o w\ld be seat$1 & ,m4 de ,franceul    
might readily p]ceive ,i 0 n !re4  ,z   
no?+ c\ld be m opposite to my natural   
incl9ation ?an ?is abom9able meanness1  
,i note x1 to %[ !re are mom5ts (       
delirium :5 m5 ought n to be judg$ by _!
 actions3 ?is 0 n /eal+ ! money1 x 0    
only /eal+ ! use ( x1 & 0 ! m infam\s = 
want+ ! excuse ( a temptation4  ,i %\ld 
nev] end ^! acc\nts1 0 ,i to describe   
all ! gradations ?r\gh :i* ,i pass$1    
dur+ my appr5tice%ip1 f ! sublimity ( a 
h]o to ! bas5ess ( a villa94 ,?\gh ,i   
ent]$ into mo/ ( ! vices ( my situation1
 ,i _h no reli% = its pleasures2 !      
amusem5ts ( my companions 7 displeas+1 &
 :5 too mu* re/ra9t _h made my bus9ess  
we>isome1 ,i _h no?+ to amuse me4 ,?is  
r5ew$ my ta/e = read+ :i* _h long be5   
neglect$4 ,i ?us committ$ a fre% (f5ce1 
books made me neglect my "w1 & br\ght on
 additional puni%m5t1 :ile incl9ation1  
/r5g!n$ by con/ra9t1 became an          

unconqu]able passion4 ,la ,tribu1 a     
well-kn[n libr>ian1 furni%$ me ) all    
k9ds2 good or bad1 ,i p]us$ !m )        
avidity1 & )\t discrim9ation4  ,x w be  
said2 at l5g?1 !n1 money became         
necess>y--true2 b ?is happ5$ at a "t :5 
a ta/e = /udy _h depriv$ me bo? (       
resolution & activity2 totally occupi$  
by ?is new incl9ation1 ,i only wi%$ to  
read1 ,i robb$ no long]4 ,?is is ano!r (
 my peculi>ities2 a m]e no?+ frequ5tly  
calls me (f f :at ,i appe> ! mo/ atta*$ 
to2 ,i give 9 to ! new idea2 x becomes a
 passion1 & imm$iately e =m] desire is  
=gott54  ,read+ 0 my new hobby2 my he>t 
beat ) impati5ce to run ov] ! new book  
,i c>ri$ 9 my pocket2 ! fir/ mom5t ,i 0 
alone1 ,i seiz$ ! opportunity to draw x 
out1 & ?\ght no long] ( rummag+ my      
ma/]'s closet4 ,i 0 ev5 a%am$ to ?9k t  
,i _h be5 guilty ( su* meanness2 & _h my
 amusem5ts be5 m exp5sive1 ,i no long]  
felt an incl9ation to cont9ue x4 ,la    
,tribu gave me cr$it1 & :5 once ,i _h ! 
book 9 my possession1 ,i ?\ght no m ( ! 

trifle ,i 0 to pay = x2 z money came x  
naturally pass$ to ?is woman2 & :5 %e   
*anc$ to be press+1 no?+ 0 s conv5i5tly 
at h& z my own effects2 to /eal 9       
advance requir$ =esight1 & robb+ to pay 
0 no temptation4  ,! frequ5t bl[s ,i    
receiv$ f my ma/]1 ) my private &       
ill-*os5 /udies1 r5d]$ me res]v$1       
unsociable1 & almo/ d]ang$ my reason4   
,?\gh my ta/e _h n pres]v$ me f silly   
unmean+ books1 by good =tune ,i 0 a     
/rang] to lic5ti\s or obsc5e ones2 n t  
,la ,tribu 7:o 0 v accommodat+7 _h any  
scruple ( l5d+ ^!1 on ! contr>y1 to     
enhance _! wor? %e spoke ( !m ) an air (
 my/]y2 ?is produc$ an effect %e _h n   
=ese51 = bo? %ame & disgu/ made me      
con/antly refuse !m4 ,*ance s well      
second$ my ba%ful disposition1 t ,i 0   
pa/ ! age ( ?irty be=e ,i saw any ( ^?  
dang]\s compositions4  ,9 less ?an a ye>
 ,i _h exhau/$ ,la ,tribu's scanty      
libr>y1 & 0 unhappy = want ( fur!r      
amusem5t4 ,my read+1 ?\gh frequ5tly bad1
 _h worn (f my *ildi% follies1 & br\ght 

back my he>t to nobl] s5tim5ts ?an my   
condition _h inspir$2 meantime disgu/$ )
 all )9 my rea*1 & ?9k+ ev]y?+ *>m+ t 0 
out ( x1 my pres5t situation appe>$     
extremely mis]able4 ,my passions began  
to acquire /r5g?1 ,i felt _! influ5ce1  
)\t kn[+ :i!r !y w\ld conduct me4 ,i    
sometimes1 inde$1 ?\ght ( my =m]        
follies1 b s\ght no fur!r4  ,at ?is "t  
my imag9ation took a turn :i* help$ to  
calm my increas+ emotions2 x 01 to      
contemplate ^? situations 9 ! books ,i  
_h read1 :i* produc$ ! mo/ /rik+ effect 
on my m9d2 to recall1 comb9e1 & apply !m
 to myself 9 su* a mann]1 z to become "o
 ( ! p]sonages my recollection pres5t$1 
& be cont9ually 9 ^? fanci$ circum/ances
 :i* 7 mo/ agreeable to my incl9ations2 
9 a ^w1 by contriv+ to place myself 9 ^!
 fictiti\s situations1 ! idea ( my real 
"o 0 9 a great measure oblit]at$4  ,?is 
fondness = imag9>y objects1 & ! facility
 ) :i* ,i c\ld ga9 possession ( !m1     
complet$ my disgu/ = ev]y?+ ar\nd me1 & 
fix$ t incl9ation = solitude :i* has ev]

 s9ce be5 pr$om9ant4 ,we %all h m ?an   
once occasion to rem>k ! effects ( a    
disposition1 misan?ropic & melan*oly 9  
appe>ance1 b :i* proce$1 9 fact1 f a    
he>t too affectionate1 too ard5t1 :i*1 =
 want ( simil> dispositions1 is con/ra9$
 to cont5t itself ) non5tities1 & be    
satisfi$ ) fiction4 ,x is suffici5t1 at 
pres5t1 to h trac$ ! orig9 ( a prop5sity
 :i* has modifi$ my passions1 set b\nds 
to ea*1 & by giv+ too mu* ardor to my   
wi%es1 has ev] r5d]$ me too indol5t to  
obta9 !m4  ,?us ,i atta9$ my sixte5?    
ye>1 uneasy1 discont5t$ ) myself &      
ev]y?+ t surr\nd$ me2 displeas$ ) my    
occupation2 )\t enjoy+ ! pleasures      
common to my age1 weep+ )\t a cause1    
sigh+ ,i knew n :y1 & fond ( my *im]ical
 ideas = want ( m valuable realities4   
,e ,sunday1 aft] s]mon-"t1 my companions
 came to fet* me out1 wi%+ me to p>take 
( _! div]sions4 ,i w\ld will+ly h be5   
excus$1 b :5 once engag$ 9 amusem5t1 ,i 
0 m animat$ & ent]pris+ ?an any ( !m2 x 
0 equally difficult to engage or re/ra9 

me2 inde$1 ?is 0 ev] a lead+ trait 9 my 
"*4 ,9 our c\ntry walks ,i 0 ev] =emo/1 
& nev] ?\ght ( return+ till rem9d$ by "s
 ( my companions4 ,i 0 twice oblig$ to  
be f my ma/]'s ! :ole night1 ! city     
gates hav+ be5 %ut be=e ,i c\ld rea* !m4
 ,! read] may imag9e :at treatm5t ?is   
procur$ me ! foll[+ morn+s2 b ,i 0      
promis$ su* a reception = ! ?ird1 t ,i  
made a firm resolution nev] to expose   
myself to ! dang] ( x4 ,not)/&+ my      
det]m9ation1 ,i repeat$ ?is dread$      
transgression1 my vigilance hav+ be5    
r5d]$ useless by a curs$ capta91 nam$   
,m4 ,m9utoli1 :o1 :5 on gu>d1 always %ut
 ! gate he _h *>ge ( an h\r be=e ! usual
 "t4 ,i 0 return+ home ) my two         
companions1 & _h got )9 half a league ( 
! city1 :5 ,i he>d !m beat ! tattoo2 ,i 
r$\ble my pace1 ,i run ) my utmo/ spe$1 
,i approa* ! bridge1 see ! soldi]s      
already at _! po/s1 ,i call out to !m 9 
a suffocat$ voice--x is too late2 ,i am 
tw5ty paces f ! gu>d1 ! fir/ bridge is  
already drawn up1 & ,i tremble to see ^?

 t]rible horns advanc$ 9 ! air :i*      
ann\nce ! fatal & inevitable de/9y1 :i* 
f ?is mom5t began to pursue me4  ,i ?rew
 myself on ! glacis 9 a transport (     
despair1 :ile my companions1 :o only    
laugh$ at ! accid5t1 imm$iately det]m9$ 
:at to d4 ,my resolution1 ?\gh diff]5t f
 !irs1 0 equally sudd52 on ! spot1 ,i   
swore nev] to return to my ma/]'s1 & !  
next morn+1 :5 my companions ent]$ !    
city1 ,i bade !m an et]nal adieu1       
conjur+ !m at ! same "t to in=m my c\s9 
,b]n>d ( my resolution1 & ! place :]e he
 might see me = ! la/ "t4  ,f !         
comm5cem5t ( my appr5tice%ip ,i _h      
seldom se5 him2 at fir/1 inde$1 we saw  
ea* o!r on ,sundays1 b ea* acquir+      
diff]5t habits1 our meet+s 7 less       
frequ5t4 ,i am p]suad$ 8 "m contribut$  
greatly t[>ds ?is *ange2 he 0 to consid]
 himself z a p]son ( consequ5ce1 ,i 0 a 
pitiful appr5tice2 not)/&+ our          
relation%ip1 equality no long] subsi/$  
betwe5 u1 & x 0 degrad+ himself to      
frequ5t my company4 ,z he _h a natural  

good he>t 8 "m's lessons did n take an  
imm$iate effect1 & = "s "t he cont9u$ to
 visit me4  ,hav+ le>n$ my resolution1  
he ha/5$ to ! spot ,i _h appo9t$1 n1    
h[ev]1 to dissuade me f x1 b to r5d] my 
flight agreeable1 by "s trifl+ pres5ts1 
z my own res\rces w\ld n h c>ri$ me f>4 
,he gave me among o!r ?+s1 a small      
sword1 :i* ,i 0 v pr\d (1 & took ) me z 
f> z ,tur91 :]e absolute want con/ra9$  
me to dispose ( x4 ,! m ,i reflect on 8 
behavior at ?is critical mom5t1 ! m ,i  
am p]suad$ he foll[$ ! in/ructions ( 8  
"m1 & p]haps 8 fa!r likewise3 =1 _h he  
be5 left to 8 own feel+s1 he w\ld h     
endeavor$ to reta91 or h be5 tempt$ to  
accompany me2 on ! contr>y1 he enc\rag$ 
! design1 & :5 he saw me resolutely     
det]m9$ to pursue x1 )\t seem+ mu*      
affect$1 left me to my fate4 ,we nev]   
saw or wrote to ea* o!r f t "t2 ,i _c b 
regret ?is loss1 = 8 he>t 0 ess5tially  
good1 & we seem$ =m$ = a m la/+         
fri5d%ip4  ,be=e ,i ab&on myself to !   
fatality ( my de/9y1 let me contemplate 

= a mom5t ! prospect t await$ me _h ,i  
fall5 into ! h&s ( a bett] ma/]4 ,no?+  
c\ld h be5 m agreeable to my            
disposition1 or m likely to conf]       
happ9ess1 ?an ! peaceful condition ( a  
good artific]1 9 s respectable a l9e z  
engrav]s are consid]$ at ,g5eva4 ,i c\ld
 h obta9$ an easy subsi/5ce1 if n a     
=tune2 ?is w\ld h b\nd$ my ambition2 ,i 
%\ld h _h means to indulge 9 mod]ate    
pleasures1 & %\ld h cont9u$ 9 my natural
 sph]e1 )\t meet+ ) any temptation to g 
beyond x4 ,hav+ an imag9ation           
suffici5tly f]tile to embelli% ) its    
*im]as e situation1 & p[]ful en\gh to   
transport me f "o to ano!r1 x 0         
immat]ial 9 :i* ,i 0 fix$3 t 0 be/      
adapt$ to me1 :i*1 requir+ ! lea/ c>e or
 ex]tion1 left ! m9d mo/ at lib]ty2 &   
?is happ9ess ,i %\ld h enjoy$4 ,9 my    
native c\ntry1 9 ! bosom ( my religion1 
family & fri5ds1 ,i %\ld h pass$ a calm 
& peaceful life1 9 ! uni=mity ( a pleas+
 occupation1 & among connections de> to 
my he>t4 ,i %\ld h be5 a good ,*ri/ian1 

a good citiz51 a good fri5d1 a good man4
 ,i %\ld h reli%$ my condition1 p]haps h
 be5 an honor to x1 & aft] hav+ pass$ a 
life ( happy obscurity1 surr\nd$ by my  
family1 ,i %\ld h di$ at peace4 ,soon x 
may be =gott51 b :ile rememb]$ x w\ld h 
be5 ) t5d]ness & regret4  ,in/ead (     
?is--:at a picture am ,i ab\t to        
draw6--,alas6 :y %\ld ,i anticipate !   
mis]ies ,i h endur$8 ,! read] w h b too 
mu* ( ! melan*oly subject4     ,,book   
,,ii4   ,! mom5t 9 :i* fe> _h in/igat$  
my flight1 did n seem m t]rible ?an t   
:]e9 ,i put my design 9 execution appe>$
 delightful4 ,to leave my relations1 my 
res\rces1 :ile yet a *ild1 9 ! mid/ ( my
 appr5tice%ip1 be=e ,i _h le>n$ en\gh ( 
my bus9ess to obta9 a subsi/5ce2 to run 
on inevitable mis]y & dang]3 to expose  
myself 9 t age ( weakness & innoc5ce to 
all ! temptations ( vice & despair2 to  
set out 9 se>* ( errors1 mis=tunes1     
sn>es1 slav]y1 & dea?2 to endure m      
intol]able evils ?an ^? ,i meant to %un1
 0 ! picture ,i %\ld h drawn1 ! natural 

consequ5ce ( my haz>d\s ent]prise4 ,h[  
diff]5t 0 ! idea ,i ent]ta9$ ( x6--,!   
indep5d5ce ,i seem$ to possess 0 ! sole 
object ( my contemplation2 hav+ obta9$  
my lib]ty1 ,i ?\ght ev]y?+ atta9able3 ,i
 ent]$ ) confid5ce on ! va/ !atre ( !   
_w1 :i* my m]it 0 to captivate3 at e /ep
 ,i expect$ to f9d amusem5ts1 treasures1
 & adv5tures2 fri5ds ready to s]ve1 &   
mi/resses eag] to please me2 ,i _h b to 
%[ myself1 & ! :ole univ]se w\ld be     
int]e/$ 9 my conc]ns2 n b ,i c\ld h be5 
cont5t ) some?+ less2 a *>m+ society1 ) 
suffici5t means1 might h satisfi$ me4   
,my mod]ation 0 su*1 t ! sph]e 9 :i* ,i 
propos$ to %9e 0 r circumscrib$1 b !n x 
0 to possess ! v qu9tess5ce ( enjoym5t1 
& myself ! pr9cipal object4 ,a s+le     
ca/le1 = in/ance1 might h b\nd$ my      
ambition2 c\ld ,i h be5 ! favorite ( !  
"l & lady1 ! daught]'s lov]1 ! son's    
fri5d1 & protector ( ! neighbors1 ,i    
might h be5 tol]ably cont5t1 & s\ght no 
fur!r4  ,9 expectation ( ?is mode/      
=tune1 ,i pass$ a few days 9 ! environs 

( ! city1 ) "s c\ntry p ( my            
acqua9tance1 :o receiv$ me ) m k9dness  
?an ,i %\ld h met ) 9 t[n2 !y welcom$1  
lodg$1 & f$ me *e]fully2 ,i c\ld be said
 to live on *>ity1 ^! favors 7 n conf]r$
 ) a suffici5t appe>ance ( sup]iority to
 furni% out ! idea4  ,i rambl$ ab\t 9   
?is mann] till ,i got to ,confignon1 9  
,savoy1 at ab\t two leagues di/ance f   
,g5eva4 ,! vic> 0 call$ ,m4 de          
,pontv]re2 ?is "n1 s fam\s 9 ! hi/ory ( 
! ,republic1 caught my att5tion2 ,i 0   
curi\s to see :at appe>ance ! desc5dants
 ( ! g5tlem5 ( ! spoon exhibit$2 ,i w5t1
 !re=e1 to visit ?is ,m4 de ,pontv]re1 &
 0 receiv$ ) great civility4  ,he spoke 
( ! h]esy ( ,g5eva1 declaim$ on !       
au?ority ( holy "m *ur*1 & !n invit$ me 
to d9n]4 ,i _h little to object to      
argum5ts :i* _h s desirable a           
conclusion1 & 0 incl9$ to believe t     
prie/s1 :o gave su* excell5t d9n]s1     
might be z good z our m9i/]s4 ,not)/&+  
,m4 de ,pontv]re's p$igree1 ,i c]ta9ly  
possess$ mo/ le>n+2 b ,i r s\ght to be a

 good companion ?an an exp]t !ologian2 &
 8 ,frangi w9e1 :i* ,i ?\ght delici\s1  
argu$ s p[]fully on 8 side1 t ,i %\ld h 
blu%$ at sil5c+ s k9d a ho/2 ,i1 !re=e1 
yield$ him ! victory1 or r decl9$ !     
conte/4 ,any "o :o _h obs]v$ my         
precaution1 w\ld c]ta9ly h pron\nc$ me a
 dissembl]1 ?\gh1 9 fact1 ,i 0 only     
c\rte\s4  ,flatt]y1 or r condesc5sion1  
is n always a vice 9 "y p2 'tis (t5] a  
virtue4 ,:5 treat$ ) k9dness1 x is      
natural to feel an atta*m5t = ! p]son :o
 conf]s ! obligation2 we d n acquiesce  
because we wi% to deceive1 b f dread (  
giv+ uneas9ess1 or because we wi% to    
avoid ! +ratitude ( r5d]+ evil = good4  
,:at int]e/ _h ,m4 de ,pontv]re 9       
ent]ta9+1 treat+ ) respect1 & endeavor+ 
to conv9ce me8 ,none b m9e2 my "y he>t  
told me ?is1 & ,i 0 p5etrat$ ) gratitude
 & respect = ! g5]\s prie/2 ,i 0 s5sible
 ( my sup]iority1 b scorn$ to repay 8   
hospitality by tak+ advantage ( x4 ,i _h
 no conception ( hypocrisy 9 ?is        
=be>ance1 or ?\ght ( *ang+ my religion1 

nay1 s f> 0 ! idea f be+ famili> to me1 
t ,i look$ on x ) a degree ( horror :i* 
seem$ to exclude ! possibility ( su* an 
ev5t2 ,i only wi%$ to avoid giv+ (f5ce  
to ^? ,i 0 s5sible c>ess$ me f t motive2
 ,i wi%$ to cultivate _! good op9ion1 & 
meantime leave !m ! hope ( success by   
seem+ less on my gu>d ?an ,i really 04  
,my conduct 9 ?is p>ticul> resembl$ !   
coquetry ( "s v hone/ wom51 :o1 to obta9
 _! wi%es1 )\t p]mitt+ or promis+ any?+1
 sometimes enc\rage hopes !y nev] mean  
to realize4  ,reason1 piety1 & love (   
ord]1 c]ta9ly dem&$ t in/ead ( be+      
enc\rag$ 9 my folly1 ,i %\ld h be5      
dissuad$ f ! ru9 ,i 0 c\rt+1 & s5t back 
to my family2 & ?is conduct any "o t 0  
actuat$ by g5u9e virtue w\ld h pursu$2 b
 x %\ld be obs]v$ t ?\gh ,m4 de         
,pontv]re 0 a religi\s man1 he 0 n a    
virtu\s "o1 b a bigot1 :o knew no virtue
 except wor%ipp+ images & tell+ 8 beads1
 9 a ^w1 a k9d ( mission>y1 :o ?\ght !  
height ( m]it consi/$ 9 writ+ libels    
aga9/ ! m9i/]s ( ,g5eva4 ,f> f wi%+ to  

s5d me back1 he endeavor$ to favor my   
escape1 & put x out ( my p[] to return  
ev5 _h ,i be5 s dispos$4 ,x 0 a ?\s& to 
"o b he 0 s5d+ me to p]i% ) hung]1 or   
become a villa92 b all ?is 0 =eign to 8 
purpose2 he saw a s\l snat*$ f h]esy1 & 
re/or$ to ! bosom ( ! *ur*3 :e!r ,i 0 an
 hone/ man or a knave 0 v immat]ial1    
provid$ ,i w5t to mass4  ,?is ridicul\s 
mode ( ?9k+ is n peculi> to ,ca?olics2 x
 is ! voice ( e dogmatical p]suasion :]e
 m]it consi/s 9 belief1 & n 9 virtue4   
,y are call$ by ! ,almighty1 said ,m4 de
 ,pontv]re2 g to ,annecy1 :]e y w f9d a 
good & *>itable lady1 :om ! b\nty ( ! k+
 enables to turn s\ls f ^? errors %e has
 happily r5\nc$4 ,he spoke ( a ,madam de
 ,w>5s1 a new conv]t1 to :om ! prie/s   
contriv$ to s5d ^? wret*es :o 7 dispos$ 
to sell _! fai?1 & ) ^! %e 0 9 a mann]  
con/ra9$ to %>e a p5sion ( two ?\s&     
francs be/[$ on h] by ! ,k+ ( ,s>d9ia4  
,i felt myself extremely humiliat$ at   
be+ suppos$ to want ! assi/ance ( a good
 & *>itable lady4 ,i _h no objection to 

be accommodat$ ) ev]y?+ ,i /ood 9 ne$ (1
 b did n wi% to receive x on ! foot+ (  
*>ity & to owe ?is obligation to a      
devotee 0 /ill worse2 not)/&+ my        
scruples ! p]suasions ( ,m4 de          
,pontv]re1 ! dread ( p]i%+ ) hung]1 !   
pleasures ,i promis$ myself f ! j\rney1 
& hope ( obta9+ "s desirable situation1 
det]m9$ me2 & ,i set out ?\gh           
reluctantly1 = ,annecy4 ,i c\ld easily h
 rea*$ x 9 a day1 b be+ 9 no great ha/e 
to arrive !re1 x took me ?ree4 ,my head 
0 fill$ ) ! ideas ( adv5tures1 & ,i     
approa*$ e c\ntry-seat ,i saw 9 my way1 
9 expectation ( hav+ !m realiz$4 ,i _h  
too mu* timidity to knock at ! doors1 or
 ev5 ent] if ,i saw !m op51 b ,i did :at
 ,i d>$--:i* 0 to s+ "u ^? w9d[s t ,i   
?\ght _h ! mo/ favorable appe>ance2 & 0 
v mu* disconc]t$ to f9d ,i wa/$ my brea?
 to no purpose1 & t nei!r old nor "y    
ladies 7 attract$ by ! melody ( my      
voice1 or ! wit ( my poetry1 ?\gh "s    
songs my companions _h taught me ,i     
?\ght excell5t & t ,i sung !m           

incomp>ably4 ,at l5g? ,i arriv$ at      
,annecy1 & saw ,madam de ,w>5s4  ,z ?is 
p]iod ( my life1 9 a great measure1     
det]m9$ my "*1 ,i c\ld n resolve to pass
 x lightly ov]4 ,i 0 9 ! middle ( my    
sixte5? ye>1 & ?\gh ,i c\ld n be call$  
h&some1 0 well made = my height2 ,i _h a
 good foot1 a well turn$ leg1 & animat$ 
c\nt5ance2 a well proportion$ m\?1 black
 hair & eyebr[s1 & my eyes1 ?\gh small &
 r too f> 9 my head1 sp>kl+ ) vivacity1 
d>t$ t innate fire :i* inflam$ my blood2
 un=tunately = me1 ,i knew no?+ ( all   
?is1 nev] hav+ be/[$ a s+le ?\ght on my 
p]son till x 0 too late to be ( any     
s]vice to me4 ,! timidity common to my  
age 0 height5$ by a natural b5evol5ce1  
:i* made me dread ! idea ( giv+ pa94    
,?\gh my m9d _h receiv$ "s cultivation1 
hav+ se5 no?+ ( ! _w1 ,i 0 an absolute  
/rang] to polite address1 & my m5tal    
acquisitions1 s f> f supply+ ?is defect1
 only s]v$ to increase my emb>rassm5t1  
by mak+ me s5sible ( e defici5cy4       
,dep5d+ little1 !re=e1 on ext]nal       

appe>ances1 ,i _h rec\rse to o!r        
exp$i5ts3 ,i wrote a mo/ elaborate      
lett]1 :]e1 m+l+ all ! fl[]s ( rhetoric 
:i* ,i _h borr[$ f books ) ! phrases (  
an appr5tice1 ,i endeavor$ to /rike !   
att5tion1 & insure ! good w ( ,madam de 
,w>5s4 ,i enclos$ ,m4 de ,pontv]re's    
lett] 9 my own & wait$ on ! lady ) a    
he>t palpitat+ ) fe> & expectation4 ,x 0
 ,palm ,sunday1 ( ! ye> #agbh2 ,i 0     
in=m$ %e 0 t mom5t gone to *ur*2 ,i ha/5
 aft] h]1 ov]take1 & speak to h]4--,!   
place is yet fre% 9 my memory--h[ c x be
 o!rwise8 (t5 h ,i moi/5$ x ) my te>s & 
cov]$ x ) kisses4--,:y _c ,i enclose )  
gold ! happy spot1 & r5d] x ! object (  
univ]sal v5]ation8 ,:oev] wi%es to honor
 monum5ts ( human salvation w\ld only   
approa* x on _! knees4  ,x 0 a passage  
at ! back ( ! h\se1 bord]$ on ! left h& 
by a little rivulet1 :i* sep>at$ x f !  
g>d51 &1 on ! "r1 by ! c\rt y>d wall2 at
 ! end 0 a private door :i* op5$ into ! 
*ur* ( ! ,cordeli]s4 ,madam de ,w>5s 0 j
 pass+ ?is door2 b on he>+ my voice1    

in/antly turn$ ab\t4 ,:at an effect did 
! sight ( h] produce6 ,i expect$ to see 
a dev\t1 =bidd+ old woman2 ,m4 de       
,pontv]re's pi\s & wor?y lady c\ld be no
 o!r 9 my conception2 in/ead ( :i*1 ,i  
see a face beam+ ) *>ms1 f9e blue eyes  
full ( sweetness1 a complexion ^:       
:it5ess dazzl$ ! sight1 ! =m ( an       
en*ant+ neck1 no?+ escap$ ! eag] eye ( !
 "y proselyte2 = t in/ant ,i 0 h]s6--a  
religion prea*$ by su* mission>ies mu/  
lead to p>adise6  ,my lett] 0 pres5t$ ) 
a trembl+ h&2 %e took x ) a smile--op5$ 
x1 glanc$ an eye ov] ,m4 de ,pontv]re's 
& aga9 return$ to m9e1 :i* %e read ?r\gh
 & w\ld h read aga91 _h n ! footman t   
in/ant in=m$ h] t s]vice 0              
beg9n+--,*ild1 said %e1 9 a tone ( voice
 :i* made e n]ve vibrate1 y are w&]+    
ab\t at an e>ly age--x is really a      
pity6--& )\t wait+ = an answ]1 add$--,g 
to my h\se1 bid !m give y some?+ =      
breakfa/1 aft] mass1 ,i w speak to y4   
,l\isa-,eleanora de ,w>5s 0 ( ! noble & 
anci5t family ( ,la ,t\r de ,pit1 (     

,vevay1 a city 9 ! c\ntry ( ! ,vaudois4 
,%e 0 m>ri$ v "y to a ,m4 de ,w>5s1 ( ! 
h\se ( ,loys1 elde/ son ( ,m4 de        
,vill>d91 ( ,lausanne2 !re 7 no *ildr5  
by ?is m>riage1 :i* 0 f> f be+ a happy  
"o4 ,"s dome/ic uneas9ess made ,madam de
 ,w>5s take ! resolution ( cross+ !     
,lake1 & ?r[+ h]self at ! feet ( ,victor
 ,amadeus1 :o 0 !n at ,evian2 ?us ab&on+
 h] husb&1 family1 & c\ntry by a        
gidd9ess simil> to m9e1 :i*             
precipitation %e1 too1 has f\nd         
suffici5t "t & reason to lam5t4  ,! k+1 
:o 0 fond ( appe>+ a zeal\s promot] ( ! 
,ca?olic fai?1 took h] "u 8 protection1 
& complim5t$ h] ) a p5sion ( fifte5     
hundr$ livres ( ,pi$mont1 :i* 0 a       
consid]able appo9tm5t = a pr9ce :o nev] 
_h ! "* ( be+ g5]\s2 b f9d+ 8 lib]ality 
made "s conjecture he _h an affection = 
! lady1 he s5t h] to ,annecy escort$ by 
a deta*m5t ( 8 gu>ds1 :]e1 "u !         
direction ( ,mi*ael ,gabriel de ,b]nex1 
titul> bi%op ( ,g5eva1 %e abjur$ h] =m] 
religion at ! ,conv5t ( ! ,visitation4  

,i came to ,annecy j six ye>s aft] ?is  
ev5t2 ,madam de ,w>5s 0 !n              
eight-&-tw5ty1 be+ born ) ! c5tury4 ,h] 
beauty1 consi/+ m 9 ! expressive        
animation ( ! c\nt5ance1 ?an a set (    
features1 0 9 its m]idian2 h] mann]     
soo?+ & t5d]2 an angelic smile play$    
ab\t h] m\?1 :i* 0 small & delicate2 %e 
wore h] hair 7:i* 0 ( an a% color1 &    
uncommonly beautiful7 ) an air (        
neglig5ce t made h] appe> /ill m        
int]e/+2 %e 0 %ort1 & r ?ick = h]       
height1 ?\gh by no means disagreeably s2
 b !re c\ld n be a m lovely face1 a f9] 
neck1 or h&s & arms m exquisitely =m$4  
,h] education _h be5 d]iv$ f su* a      
v>iety ( s\rces1 t x =m$ an extraord9>y 
assemblage4 ,l me1 %e _h lo/ h] "m at h]
 bir?1 & _h receiv$ in/ruction z x *anc$
 to pres5t itself2 %e _h le>n$ some?+ ( 
h] gov]ness1 some?+ ( h] fa!r1 a little 
( h] ma/]s1 b copi\sly f h] lov]s2      
p>ticul>ly a ,m4 de ,tavel1 :o1 possess+
 bo? ta/e & in=mation1 endeavor$ to     
adorn ) !m ! m9d ( h] he lov$4 ,^! v>i\s

 in/ructions1 n be+ prop]ly arrang$1    
t5d$ to imp$e ea* o!r1 & %e did n       
acquire t degree ( improvem5t h] natural
 good s5se 0 capable ( receiv+2 %e knew 
some?+ ( philosophy & physic1 b n en\gh 
to eradicate ! fondness %e _h imbib$ f  
h] fa!r = empiricism & al*emy2 %e made  
elixirs1 t9ctures1 balsams1 pret5d$ to  
secrets1 & prep>$ mage/ry2 :ile quacks &
 pret5d]s1 pr(it+ by h] weakness1       
de/roy$ h] prop]ty among furnaces1 drugs
 & m9]als1 dim9i%+ ^? *>ms &            
accompli%m5ts :i* might h be5 ! delight 
( ! mo/ elegant circles4 ,b ?\gh ^!     
int]e/$ wret*es took advantage ( h]     
ill-appli$ education to obscure h]      
natural good s5se1 h] excell5t he>t     
reta9$ its purity2 h] amiable mildness1 
s5sibility = ! un=tunate1 inexhau/ible  
b\nty1 & op51 *e]ful frankness1 knew no 
v>iation2 ev5 at ! approa* ( old age1 :5
 attack$ by v>i\s calamities1 r5d]$ m   
cutt+ by indig5ce1 ! s]5ity ( h]        
disposition pres]v$ to ! end ( h] life !
 pleas+ gayety ( h] happie/ days4  ,h]  

errors proce$$ f an inexhau/ible fund ( 
activity1 :i* dem&$ p]petual employm5t4 
,%e f\nd no satisfaction 9 ! cu/om>y    
intrigues ( h] sex1 b1 be+ =m$ = va/    
designs1 s\ght ! direction ( important  
ent]prises & discov]ies4 ,9 h] place    
,madam de ,longueville w\ld h be5 a m]e 
trifl]1 9 ,madam de ,longueville's      
situation %e w\ld h gov]n$ ! /ate4 ,h]  
tal5ts did n accord ) h] =tune2 :at w\ld
 h ga9$ h] di/9ction 9 a m elevat$      
sph]e1 became h] ru94 ,9 ent]prises :i* 
suit$ h] disposition1 %e arrang$ ! plan 
9 h] imag9ation1 :i* 0 ev] c>ri$ ( its  
utmo/ ext5t1 & ! means %e employ$ be+   
proportion$ r to h] ideas ?an abilities1
 %e fail$ by ! mismanagem5t ( ^? ^u :om 
%e dep5d$1 & 0 ru9$ :]e ano!r w\ld sc>ce
 h be5 a los]4 ,?is active disposition1 
:i* involv$ h] 9 s _m difficulties1 0 at
 lea/ productive ( "o b5efit z x prev5t$
 h] f pass+ ! rema9d] ( h] life 9 !     
mona/ic asylum %e _h *os51 :i* %e _h "s 
?\ght (4 ,! simple & uni=m life ( a nun1
 & ! little cabals & gossip+s ( _!      

p>lor1 7 n adapt$ to a m9d vigor\s &    
active1 :i*1 e day =m+ new sy/ems1 _h   
occasions = lib]ty to attempt _!        
completion4  ,! good bi%op ( ,b]nex1 )  
less wit ?an ,francis ( ,sales1 resembl$
 him 9 _m p>ticul>s1 & ,madam de ,w>5s1 
:om he lov$ to call 8 daught]1 & :o 0 l 
,madam de ,*antel 9 sev]al respects1    
might h increas$ ! resemblance by retir+
 l h] f ! _w1 _h %e n be5 disgu/$ ) !   
idle trifl+ ( a conv5t4 ,x 0 n want (   
zeal prev5t$ ?is amiable woman f giv+ ^?
 pro(s ( devotion :i* might h be5       
expect$ f a new conv]t1 "u ! imm$iate   
direction ( a prelate4 ,:atev] might h  
influ5c$ h] to *ange h] religion1 %e 0  
c]ta9ly s9c]e 9 t %e _h embrac$2 %e     
might f9d suffici5t occasion to rep5t   
hav+ abjur$ h] =m] fai?1 b no incl9ation
 to return to x4 ,%e n only di$ a good  
,ca?olic1 b truly liv$ "o2 nay1 ,i d>e  
affirm 7& ,i ?9k ,i h _h ! opportunity  
to read ! secrets ( h] he>t7 t x 0 only 
h] av]sion to s+ul>ity t prev5t$ h] act+
 ! devotee 9 public2 9 a ^w1 h] piety 0 

too s9c]e to give way to any affectation
 ( x4 ,b ?is is n ! place to enl>ge on  
h] pr9ciples3 ,i %all f9d o!r occasions 
to speak ( !m4  ,let ^? :o d5y ! exi/5ce
 ( a sympa?y ( s\ls1 expla91 if !y "k   
h[1 :y ! fir/ glance1 ! fir/ ^w ( ,madam
 de ,w>5s inspir$ me1 n only ) a lively 
atta*m5t1 b ) ! mo/ unb\nd$ confid5ce1  
:i* has s9ce kn[n no abatem5t4 ,say ?is 
0 love 7:i* w at lea/ appe> d\btful to  
^? :o read ! sequel ( our atta*m5t7 h[  
c\ld ?is passion be att5d$ ) s5tim5ts   
:i* sc>ce ev] accompany its comm5cem5t1 
su* z peace1 s]5ity1 security1 &        
confid5ce4 ,h[1 :5 mak+ application to  
an amiable & poli%$ woman1 ^: situation 
9 life 0 s sup]ior to m9e1 s f> above   
any ,i _h yet approa*$1 on :om1 9 a     
great measure1 dep5d$ my future =tune by
 ! degree ( int]e/ %e might take 9 x2   
h[1 ,i say ) s _m reasons to depress me1
 did ,i feel myself z free1 z mu* at my 
ease1 z if ,i _h be5 p]fectly secure (  
pleas+ h]6 ,:y did ,i n exp]i5ce a mom5t
 ( emb>rassm5t1 timidity or re/ra9t8    

,naturally ba%ful1 easily confus$1 hav+ 
se5 no?+ ( ! _w1 c\ld ,i1 ! fir/ "t1 !  
fir/ mom5t ,i beheld h]1 adopt c>ess+   
language1 & a famili> tone1 z readily z 
aft] t5 ye>s' intimacy _h r5d]$ ^!      
fre$oms natural8 ,is x possible to      
possess love1 ,i w n say )\t desires1 = 
,i c]ta9ly _h !m1 b )\t inquietude1 )\t 
jeal\sy8 ,c we avoid feel+ an anxi\s wi%
 at lea/ to "k :e!r our affection is    
return$8 ,yet su* a "q nev] ent]$ my    
imag9ation2 ,i %\ld z soon h inquir$1 d 
,i love myself2 nor did %e ev] express a
 great] degree ( curiosity2 !re 01      
c]ta9ly1 some?+ extraord9>y 9 my        
atta*m5t to ?is *>m+ woman & x w be f\nd
 9 ! sequel1 t "s extravagances1 :i* _c 
be =ese51 att5d$ x4  ,:at c\ld be done =
 me1 0 ! pres5t "q1 & 9 ord] to discuss 
! po9t ) great] fre$om1 %e made me d9e )
 h]4 ,?is 0 ! fir/ meal 9 my life :]e ,i
 _h exp]i5c$ a want ( appetite1 & h]    
woman1 :o wait$1 obs]v$ x 0 ! fir/ "t %e
 _h se5 a travell] ( my age & appe>ance 
defici5t 9 t p>ticul>3 ?is rem>k1 :i*   

did me no injury 9 ! op9ion ( h]        
mi/ress1 fell h>d on an ov]gr[n cl[n1 :o
 0 my fell[ gue/1 & dev\r$ suffici5t to 
h s]v$ at lea/ six mod]ate fe$]s4 ,= me1
 ,i 0 too mu* *>m$ to ?9k ( eat+2 my    
he>t began to imbibe a delici\s         
s5sation1 :i* engross$ my :ole be+1 &   
left no room = o!r objects4  ,madam de  
,w>5s wi%$ to he> ! p>ticul>s ( my      
little hi/ory--all ! vivacity ,i _h lo/ 
dur+ my s]vitude return$ & assi/$ !     
recital4 ,9 proportion to ! int]e/ ?is  
excell5t woman took 9 my /ory1 did %e   
lam5t ! fate to :i* ,i _h expos$ myself2
 compassion 0 pa9t$ on h] features1 &   
express$ by e action4 ,%e c\ld n exhort 
me to return to ,g5eva1 be+ too well    
aw>e t h] words & actions 7 /rictly     
scrut9iz$1 & t su* advice w\ld be ?\ght 
high treason aga9/ ,ca?olicism1 b %e    
spoke s feel+ly ( ! affliction ,i mu/   
give my fa!r1 t x 0 easy to p]ceive %e  
w\ld h approv$ my return+ to console    
him4 ,alas6 %e little ?\ght h[ p[]fully 
?is plead$ aga9/ h]self2 ! m eloqu5tly  

p]suasive %e appe>$1 ! less c\ld ,i     
resolve to te> myself f h]4 ,i knew t   
return+ to ,g5eva w\ld be putt+ an      
insup]able b>ri] betwe5 u1 unless ,i    
repeat$ ! exp$i5t :i* _h br\ght me "h1 &
 x 0 c]ta9ly bett] to pres]ve ?an expose
 myself to ! dang] ( a relapse2 besides 
all ?is1 my conduct 0 pr$et]m9$1 ,i 0   
resolv$ n to return4 ,madam de ,w>5s1   
see+ h] endeavors w\ld be fruitless1    
became less explicit1 & only add$1 ) an 
air ( commis]ation1 ,poor *ild6 ?\ mu/ g
 :]e ,provid5ce directs !e1 b "o day ?\ 
wilt ?9k ( me4--,i believe %e _h no     
conception at t "t h[ fatally h]        
pr$iction w\ld be v]ifi$4  ,! difficulty
 /ill rema9$ h[ ,i 0 to ga9 a subsi/5ce8
 ,i h already obs]v$ t ,i knew too      
little ( engrav+ = t to furni% my       
res\rce1 & _h ,i be5 m exp]t1 ,savoy 0  
too poor a c\ntry to give mu*           
enc\ragem5t to ! arts4 ,! above-m5tion$ 
glutton1 :o ate = u z well z himself1   
be+ oblig$ to pause 9 ord] to ga9 "s    
relaxation f ! fatigue ( x1 imp>t$ a    

piece ( advice1 :i*1 accord+ to him1    
came express f ,heav52 ?\gh to judge by 
its effects x appe>$ to h be5 dictat$ f 
a direct contr>y qu>t]3 ?is 0 t ,i %\ld 
g to ,tur91 :]e1 9 a hospital in/itut$ =
 ! in/ruction ( cate*um5s1 ,i %\ld f9d  
food1 bo? spiritual & temporal1 be      
reconcil$ to ! bosom ( ! *ur*1 & meet ) 
"s *>itable ,*ri/ians1 :o w\ld make x a 
po9t to procure me a situation t w\ld   
turn to my advantage4 ,9 reg>d to !     
exp5ses ( ! j\rney1 cont9u$ our advisor1
 8 grace1 my "l bi%op1 w n be backw>d1  
:5 once madam has propos$ ?is holy "w1  
to (f] 8 *>itable donation1 & madam1 !  
b>oness1 ^: *>ity is s well kn[n1 once m
 address+ himself to ! cont9uation ( 8  
meal1 w c]ta9ly contribute4  ,i 0 by no 
means pleas$ ) all ^! *>ities2 ,i said  
no?+1 b my he>t 0 ready to bur/ )       
vexation4 ,madam de ,w>5s1 :o did n seem
 to ?9k s highly ( ?is exp$i5t z !      
projector pret5d$ to d1 cont5t$ h]self  
by say+1 ev]yone %\ld endeavor to       
promote good actions1 & t %e w\ld m5tion

 x to 8 lord%ip2 b ! m$dl+ devil1 :o _h 
"s private int]e/ 9 ?is affair1 &       
que/ion$ :e!r %e w\ld urge x to 8       
satisfaction1 took c>e to acqua9t !     
almon]s ) my /ory1 & s f> influ5c$ ^?   
good prie/s1 t :5 ,madam de ,w>5s1 :o   
dislik$ ! j\rney on my acc\nt1 m5tion$ x
 to ! bi%op1 %e f\nd x s f> conclud$ on1
 t he imm$iately put into h] h&s ! money
 design$ = my little viaticum4 ,%e d>$ n
 advance any?+ aga9/ x2 ,i 0 approa*+ an
 age :5 a woman l h] c\ld n1 ) any      
propriety1 appe> anxi\s to reta9 me4    
,my dep>ture be+ ?us det]m9$ by ^? :o   
und]took ! managem5t ( my conc]ns1 ,i _h
 only to submit2 & ,i did x )\t mu*     
repugnance4 ,?\gh ,tur9 0 at a great]   
di/ance f ,madam de ,w>5s ?an ,g5eva1   
yet be+ ! capital ( ! c\ntry ,i 0 n[ 91 
x seem$ to h m connection ) ,annecy ?an 
a city "u a diff]5t gov]nm5t & ( a      
contr>y religion2 besides1 z ,i und]took
 ?is j\rney 9 ob$i5ce to h]1 ,i consid]$
 myself z liv+ "u h] direction1 :i* 0 m 
flatt]+ ?an b>ely to cont9ue 9 !        

neighborhood2 to sum up all1 ! idea ( a 
long j\rney co9cid$ ) my insurm\ntable  
passion = rambl+1 :i* already began to  
demon/rate itself4 ,to pass ! m\nta9s1  
to my eye appe>$ delightful2 h[ *>m+ !  
reflection ( elevat+ myself above my    
companions by ! :ole height ( ! ,alps6  
,to see ! _w is an almo/ irresi/ible    
temptation to a ,g5evan1 accord+ly ,i   
gave my cons5t4  ,he :o sugge/$ ! j\rney
 0 to set (f 9 two days ) 8 wife4 ,i 0  
recomm5d$ to _! c>e2 !y 7 likewise made 
my purse-be>]s1 :i* _h be5 augm5t$ by   
,madam de ,w>5s1 :o1 n cont5t$ ) ^!     
k9dnesses1 add$ secretly a pecuni>y     
re9=cem5t1 att5d$ ) ! mo/ ample         
in/ructions1 & we dep>t$ on ! ,w$nesday 
be=e ,ea/]4  ,! day foll[+1 my fa!r     
arriv$ at ,annecy1 accompani$ by 8      
fri5d1 a ,mr4 ,rival1 :o 0 likewise a   
wat*mak]2 he 0 a man ( s5se & lett]s1 :o
 wrote bett] v]ses ?an ,la ,motte1 &    
spoke almo/ z well2 :at is /ill m to 8  
praise1 he 0 a man ( ! /ricte/          
integrity1 b ^: ta/e = lit]ature only   

s]v$ to make "o ( 8 sons a com$ian4     
,hav+ trac$ me to ! h\se ( ,madam de    
,w>5s1 !y cont5t$ !mselves ) lam5t+1 l  
h]1 my fate1 in/ead ( ov]tak+ me1 :i*1  
7z !y 7 on horseback & ,i on foot7 !y   
might h accompli%$ ) ! greate/ ease4    
,my uncle ,b]n>d did ! same ?+1 he      
arriv$ at ,consignon1 receiv$ in=mation 
t ,i 0 gone to ,annecy1 & imm$iately    
return$ back to ,g5eva2 ?us my ne>e/    
relations seem$ to h conspir$ ) my      
adv]se />s to consign me to mis]y & ru94
 ,by a simil> neglig5ce1 my bro!r 0 s   
entirely lo/1 t x 0 nev] kn[n :at 0     
become ( him4  ,my fa!r 0 n only a man (
 honor b ( ! /ricte/ probity1 & endur$ )
 t magnanimity :i* frequ5tly produces ! 
mo/ %9+ virtues3 ,i may add1 he 0 a good
 fa!r1 p>ticul>ly to me :om he t5d]ly   
lov$2 b he likewise lov$ 8 pleasures1 & 
s9ce we _h be5 sep>at$ o!r connections  
_h weak5$ 8 pat]nal affections4 ,he _h  
m>ri$ aga9 at ,nion1 & ?\gh 8 second    
wife 0 too old to expect *ildr51 %e _h  
relations2 my fa!r 0 unit$ to ano!r     

family1 surr\nd$ by o!r objects1 & a    
v>iety ( c>es prev5t$ my return+ to 8   
remembrance4 ,he 0 9 ! decl9e ( life &  
_h no?+ to support ! inconv5i5ces ( old 
age2 my "m's prop]ty devolv$ to me & my 
bro!r1 b1 dur+ our abs5ce1 ! int]e/ ( x 
0 enjoy$ by my fa!r3 ,i d n mean to inf]
 t ?is consid]ation _h an imm$iate      
effect on 8 conduct1 b x _h an          
imp]ceptible "o1 & prev5t$ him mak+ use 
( t ex]tion to rega9 me :i* he w\ld     
o!rwise h employ$2 & ?is1 ,i ?9k1 0 !   
reason t hav+ trac$ me z f> z ,annecy1  
he /opp$ %ort1 )\t proce$+ to ,*amb]y1  
:]e he 0 almo/ c]ta9 ,i %\ld be f\nd2 & 
likewise acc\nts :y1 on visit+ him      
sev]al times s9ce my flight1 he always  
receiv$ me ) great k9dness1 b nev] made 
any ef=ts to reta9 me4  ,?is conduct 9 a
 fa!r1 ^: affection & virtue ,i 0 s well
 conv9c$ (1 has giv5 bir? to reflections
 on ! regulation ( my own conduct :i* h 
greatly contribut$ to pres]ve !         
integrity ( my he>t4 ,x has taught me   
?is great lesson ( morality1 p]haps !   

only "o t c h any conspicu\s influ5ce on
 our actions1 t we %\ld ev] c>efully    
avoid putt+ our int]e/s 9 competition ) 
our duty1 or promise ourselves felicity 
f ! mis=tunes ( o!rs2 c]ta9 t 9 su*     
circum/ances1 h[ev] s9c]e our love (    
virtue may be1 soon] or lat] x w give   
way & we %all imp]ceptibly become unju/ 
& wick$1 9 fact1 h[ev] upright 9 our    
int5tions4  ,?is maxim1 /rongly impr9t$ 
on my m9d1 & r$uc$1 ?\gh r too late1 to 
practice1 has giv5 my conduct an        
appe>ance ( folly & :imsicality1 n only 
9 public1 b /ill m among my             
acqua9tances3 x has be5 said1 ,i affect$
 orig9ality1 & s\ght to act diff]5t f   
o!r p2 ! tru? is1 ,i nei!r endeavor to  
con=m or be s+ul>1 ,i desire only to act
 virtu\sly & avoid situations1 :i*1 by  
sett+ my int]e/ 9 opposition to t (     
ano!r p]son's1 might inspire me ) a     
secret1 ?\gh involunt>y wi% to 8        
disadvantage4  ,two ye>s ago1 ,my ,"l   
,m>%al w\ld h put my "n 9 8 w1 :i* ,i   
took e me?od to prev5t1 assur+ him ,i   

w\ld n = ! _w "k myself 9 ! w ( any "o1 
mu* less 9 82 he gave up ! idea2 b      
insi/$ 9 return1 t ,i %\ld accept an    
annuity on 8 life2 ?is ,i cons5t$ to4 ,x
 w be said1 ,i f9d my acc\nt 9 !        
alt]ation2 p]haps ,i may2 b oh1 my      
b5efactor6 my fa!r1 ,i am n[ s5sible t1 
%\ld ,i h ! mis=tune to survive !e1 ,i  
%\ld h ev]y?+ to lose1 no?+ to ga94     
,?is1 9 my idea1 9 true philosophy1 !   
sure/ bulw>k ( human rectitude2 e day d 
,i receive fre% conviction ( its pr(\nd 
solidity4 ,i h endeavor$ to recomm5d x 9
 all my latt] writ+s1 b ! multitude read
 too sup]ficially to h made ! rem>k4 ,if
 ,i survive my pres5t und]tak+1 & am    
able to beg9 ano!r1 ,i mean1 9 a        
cont9uation ( ,emilius1 to give su* a   
lively & m>k+ example ( ?is maxim z _c  
fail to /rike att5tion4 ,b ,i h made    
reflections en\gh = a travell]1 x is "t 
to cont9ue my j\rney4  ,x turn$ out m   
agreeable ?an ,i expect$3 my cl[ni%     
conductor 0 n s morose z he appe>$ to   
be4 ,he 0 a middle-ag$ man1 wore 8      

black1 grizzly hair1 9 a queue1 _h a    
m>tial air1 a /rong voice1 0 tol]ably   
*e]ful1 & to make up = n hav+ be5 taught
 any trade1 c\ld turn 8 h& to e "o4     
,hav+ propos$ to e/abli% "s k9d (       
manufactory at ,annecy1 he _h consult$  
,madam de ,w>5s1 :o imm$iately gave into
 ! project1 & he 0 n[ go+ to ,tur9 to   
lay ! plan be=e ! m9i/] & get 8         
approbation1 = :i* j\rney he took c>e to
 be well rew>d$4  ,?is drole _h ! art ( 
+ratiat+ himself ) ! prie/s1 :om he ev] 
appe>$ eag] to s]ve2 he adopt$ a c]ta9  
j>gon :i* he _h le>n$ by frequ5t+ _!    
company1 & ?\ght himself a notable      
prea*]2 he c\ld ev5 repeat "o passage f 
! ,bible 9 ,lat91 & x answ]$ 8 purpose z
 well z if he _h kn[n a ?\s&1 = he      
repeat$ x a ?\s& times a day4 ,he 0     
seldom at a loss = money :5 he knew :at 
purse conta9$ x2 yet1 0 r artful ?an    
knavi%1 & :5 deal+ out 9 an affect$ tone
 8 unmean+ disc\rses1 resembl$ ,pet] !  
,h]mit1 prea*+ up ! crusade ) a sabre at
 8 side4  ,madam ,sabran1 8 wife1 0 a   

tol]able1 good sort ( woman2 m peaceable
 by day ?an by night2 z ,i slept 9 !    
same *amb] ,i 0 frequ5tly di/urb$ by h] 
wakefulness1 & %\ld h be5 m s _h ,i     
compreh5d$ ! cause ( x2 b ,i 0 9 ! *apt]
 ( dullness1 :i* left to nature ! :ole  
c>e ( my own in/ruction4  ,i w5t on     
gayly ) my pi\s guide & 8 hopeful       
companion1 no s9i/] accid5t imp$+ our   
j\rney4 ,i 0 9 ! happie/ circum/ances   
bo? ( m9d & body t ,i ev] recollect hav+
 exp]i5c$2 "y1 full ( heal? & security1 
plac+ unb\nd$ confid5ce 9 myself & o!rs2
 9 t %ort b *>m+ mom5t ( human life1 ^: 
expansive en]gy c>ries1 if ,i may s     
express myself1 our be+ to ! utmo/ ext5t
 ( our s5sations1 embelli%+ all nature )
 an inexpressible *>m1 fl[+ f ! consci\s
 & ris+ enjoym5t ( our exi/5ce4  ,my    
pleas+ inquietudes became less w&]+3 ,i 
_h n[ an object on :i* imag9ation c\ld  
fix4 ,i look$ on myself z ! "w1 ! pupil1
 ! fri5d1 almo/ ! lov] ( ,madam de      
,w>5s2 ! oblig+ ?+s %e _h said1 !       
c>esses %e _h be/[$ on me2 ! t5d] int]e/

 %e seem$ to take 9 ev]y?+ t conc]n$ me2
 ^? *>m+ looks1 :i* seem$ replete )     
love1 because !y s p[]fully inspir$ x1 e
 consid]ation flatt]$ my ideas dur+ ?is 
j\rney1 & furni%$ ! mo/ delici\s        
rev]ies1 :i*1 no d\bt1 no fe> ( my      
future condition arose to embitt]4 ,9   
s5d+ me to ,tur91 ,i ?\ght !y engag$ to 
f9d me an agreeable subsi/5ce !re2 ?us  
eas$ ( e c>e ,i pass$ lightly on1 :ile  
"y desires1 en*ant+ hopes1 & brilliant  
prospects employ$ my m9d2 ea* object t  
pres5t$ itself seem$ to insure my       
approa*+ felicity4 ,i imag9$ t e h\se 0 
fill$ ) joy\s fe/ivity1 ! mead[s res\nd$
 ) sports & revelry1 ! riv]s (f]$       
refre%+ ba?s1 delici\s fi% wanton$ 9 ^! 
/reams1 & h[ delightful 0 x to ramble   
along ! fl[]y banks6 ,! trees 7 load$ ) 
! *oice/ fruits1 :ile _! %ade af=d$ !   
mo/ *>m+ & voluptu\s retreats to happy  
lov]s2 ! m\nta9s ab\nd$ ) milk & cream2 
peace & leisure1 simplicity & joy1 m+l$ 
) ! *>m ( go+ ,i knew n :i!r1 & ev]y?+  
,i saw c>ri$ to my he>t "s new cause =  

rapture4 ,! gr&eur1 v>iety1 & real      
beauty ( ! sc5e1 9 "s measure r5d]$ !   
*>m reasonable1 9 :i* vanity came 9 =   
its %>e2 to g s "y to ,italy1 view su*  
an ext5t ( c\ntry1 & pursue ! r\te (    
,hannibal ov] ! ,alps1 appe>$ a glory   
beyond my age2 add to all ?is our       
frequ5t & agreeable halts1 ) a good     
appetite & pl5ty to satisfy x2 = 9 tru? 
x 0 n wor? :ile to be sp>+2 at ,mr4     
,sabran's table :at ,i eat c\ld sc>ce be
 miss$4 ,9 ! :ole c\rse ( my life ,i _c 
recollect an int]val m p]fectly exempt f
 c>e1 ?an ! sev5 or eight days ,i 0     
pass+ f ,annecy to ,tur94 ,z we 7 oblig$
 to walk ,madam ,sabran's pace1 x r     
appe>$ an agreeable jaunt ?an a fatigu+ 
j\rney2 !re /ill rema9s ! mo/ pleas+    
impressions ( x on my m9d1 & ! idea ( a 
p$e/rian excursion1 p>ticul>ly among !  
m\nta9s1 has f ?is "t seem$ delightful4 
,x 0 only 9 my happie/ days t ,i        
travell$ on foot1 & ev] ) ! mo/ unb\nd$ 
satisfaction2 aft]w>ds1 occupi$ )       
bus9ess & encumb]$ ) baggage1 ,i 0 =c$  

to act ! g5tleman & employ a c>riage1   
:]e c>e1 emb>rassm5t1 & re/ra9t1 7 sure 
to be my companions1 & in/ead ( be+     
delight$ ) ! j\rney1 ,i only wi%$ to    
arrive at ! place ( de/9ation4  ,i 0 a  
long "t at ,p>is1 wi%+ to meet ) two    
companions ( simil> dispositions1 :o    
w\ld ea* agree to appropriate fifty     
gu9eas ( 8 prop]ty & a ye> ( 8 "t to    
mak+ ! t\r ( ,italy on foot1 ) no o!r   
att5dance ?an a "y fell[ to c>ry our    
necess>ies2 ,i h met ) _m :o seem$      
en*ant$ ) ! project1 b consid]$ x only z
 a vision>y s*eme1 :i* s]v$ well en\gh  
to talk (1 )\t any design ( putt+ x 9   
execution4 ,"o day1 speak+ ) en?usiasm (
 ?is project to ,did]ot & ,grimm1 !y    
gave into ! proposal ) su* w>m? t ,i    
?\ght ! matt] conclud$ on2 b x only     
turn$ out a j\rney on pap]1 9 :i* ,grimm
 ?\ght no?+ s pleas+ z mak+ ,did]ot     
commit a numb] ( impieties1 & %utt+ me  
up 9 ! ,inquisition = !m1 in/ead ( him4 
,my regret at arriv+ s soon at ,tur9 0  
comp5sat$ by ! pleasure ( view+ a l>ge  

city1 & ! hope ( figur+ !re 9 a         
conspicu\s "*1 = my bra9 already began  
to be intoxicat$ ) ! fumes ( ambition2  
my pres5t situation appe>$ inf9itely    
above t ( an appr5tice1 & ,i 0 f> f     
=esee+ h[ soon ,i %\ld be mu* bel[ x4   
,be=e ,i proce$1 ,i ought to (f] an     
excuse1 or ju/ification to ! read] = !  
great numb] ( un5t]ta9+ p>ticul>s ,i am 
necessitat$ to repeat4 ,9 pursuance ( ! 
resolution ,i h =m$ to ent] on ?is      
public exhibition ( myself1 x is        
necess>y t no?+ %\ld be> ! appe>ance (  
obscurity or concealm5t4 ,i %\ld be     
cont9ually "u ! eye ( ! read]1 he %\ld  
be enabl$ to foll[ me ,9 all ! w&]+s (  
my he>t1 ?r\gh e intricacy ( my         
adv5tures2 he mu/ f9d no void or *asm 9 
my relation1 nor lose sight ( me an     
in/ant1 le/ he %\ld f9d occasion to say1
 :at 0 he do+ at ?is "t2 & suspect me ( 
n hav+ d>$ to reveal ! :ole4 ,i give    
suffici5t scope to malignity 9 :at ,i   
say2 x is unnecess>y ,i %\ld furni% /ill
 m by my sil5ce4  ,my money 0 all gone1 

ev5 t ,i _h secretly receiv$ f ,madam de
 ,w>5s3 ,i _h be5 s indiscreet z to     
divulge ?is secret1 & my conductors _h  
tak5 c>e to pr(it by x4 ,madam ,sabran  
f\nd means to deprive me ( ev]y?+ ,i _h1
 ev5 to a ribbon embroid]$ ) silv]1 )   
:i* ,madam de ,w>5s _h adorn$ ! hilt (  
my sword2 ?is ,i regrett$ m ?an all !   
re/2 inde$ ! sword itself w\ld h gone ! 
same way1 _h ,i be5 less ob/9ately b5t  
on reta9+ x4 ,!y _h1 x is true1 support$
 me dur+ ! j\rney1 b left me no?+ at !  
end ( x1 & ,i arriv$ at ,tur91 )\t      
money1 clo!s1 or l951 be+ precisely 9 ! 
situation to owe to my m]it alone ! :ole
 honor ( t =tune ,i 0 ab\t to acquire4  
,i took c>e 9 ! fir/ place to deliv] !  
lett]s ,i 0 *>g$ )1 & 0 pres5tly        
conduct$ to ! hospital ( ! cate*um5s1 to
 be in/ruct$ 9 t religion1 = :i*1 9     
return1 ,i 0 to receive subsi/5ce4 ,on  
ent]+1 ,i pass$ an iron-b>r$ gate1 :i* 0
 imm$iately d\ble-lock$ on me2 ?is      
beg9n+ 0 by no means calculat$ to give  
me a favorable op9ion ( my situation4 ,i

 0 !n conduct$ to a l>ge ap>tm5t1 ^:    
furniture consi/$ ( a wood5 alt> at !   
f>!r end1 on :i* 0 a l>ge crucifix1 &   
r\nd x sev]al indiff]5t *airs1 ( ! same 
mat]ials4 ,9 ?is hall ( audi5ce 7       
assembl$ f\r or five ill-look+ b&itti1  
my comrades 9 in/ruction1 :o w\ld r h   
be5 tak5 = tru/y s]vants ( ! devil ?an  
c&idates = ! k+dom ( heav54 ,two ( ^!   
fell[s 7 ,sclavonians1 b gave out !y 7  
,african ,jews1 & 7z !y assur$ me7 _h   
run ?r\gh ,spa9 & ,italy1 embrac+ !     
,*ri/ian fai?1 & be+ baptis$ :]ev] !y   
?\ght x wor? _! labor4  ,soon aft] !y   
op5$ ano!r iron gate1 :i* divid$ a l>ge 
balcony t ov]look$ a c\rt y>d1 & by ?is 
av5ue ent]$ our si/] cate*um5s1 :o1 l   
me1 7 go+ to be reg5]at$1 n by baptism b
 a solemn abjuration4 ,a vil] set (     
idle1 dirty1 ab&on$ h>lots1 nev]        
disgrac$ any p]suasion2 "o among !m1    
h[ev]1 appe>$ pretty & int]e/+2 %e might
 be ab\t my own age1 p]haps a ye> or two
 old]1 & _h a pair ( rogui% eyes1 :i*   
frequ5tly enc\nt]$ m9e2 ?is 0 en\gh to  

inspire me ) ! desire ( becom+ acqua9t$ 
) h]1 b %e _h be5 s /rongly recomm5d$ to
 ! c>e ( ! old gov]ness ( ?is           
respectable si/]hood1 & 0 s n>r[ly wat*$
 by ! pi\s mission>y1 :o labor$ = h]    
conv]sion ) m zeal ?an dilig5ce1 t dur+ 
! two mon?s we rema9$ toge!r 9 ?is h\se 
7:]e %e _h already be5 ?ree7 ,i f\nd x  
absolutely impossible to ex*ange a ^w ) 
h]4 ,%e mu/ h be5 extremely /upid1 ?\gh 
%e _h n ! appe>ance ( x1 = nev] 0 a     
long] c\rse ( in/ruction2 ! holy man    
c\ld nev] br+ h] to a /ate ( m9d fit =  
abjuration2 meantime %e became we>y ( h]
 cloi/]1 decl>+ t1 ,*ri/ian or n1 %e    
w\ld /ay !re no long]2 & !y 7 oblig$ to 
take h] at h] ^w1 le/ %e %\ld gr[       
refractory1 & insi/ on dep>t+ z great a 
s9n] z %e came4  ,?is hopeful community 
7 assembl$ 9 honor ( ! new-com]2 :5 our 
guides made u a %ort exhortation3 ,i 0  
conjur$ to be ob$i5t to ! grace t ,heav5
 _h be/[$ on me2 ! re/ 7 admoni%$ to    
assi/ me ) _! pray]s1 & give me         
edification by _! good example4 ,our    

virg9s !n retir$ to ano!r ap>tm5t1 & ,i 
0 left to contemplate1 at leisure1 t    
:]e9 ,i f\nd myself4  ,! next morn+ we 7
 aga9 assembl$ = in/ruction3 ,i n[ began
 to reflect1 = ! fir/ "t1 on ! /ep ,i 0 
ab\t to take1 & ! circum/ances :i* _h l$
 me to x4  ,i repeat1 & %all p]haps     
repeat aga91 an ass]tion ,i h already   
advanc$1 & ( ^: tru? ,i e day receive   
fre% conviction1 :i* is1 t if ev] *ild  
receiv$ a reasonable & virtu\s          
education1 x 0 myself4 ,born 9 a family 
( unexceptionable morals1 e lesson ,i   
receiv$ 0 replete ) maxims ( prud5ce &  
virtue4 ,my fa!r 7?\gh fond ( gallantry7
 n only possess$ di/+ui%$ probity1 b mu*
 religion2 9 ! _w he appe>$ a man (     
pleasure1 9 8 family he 0 a ,*ri/ian1 & 
implant$ e>ly 9 my m9d ^? s5tim5ts he   
felt ! =ce (4 ,my ?ree aunts 7 wom5 (   
virtue & piety2 ! two elde/ 7 pr(ess$   
devotees1 & ! ?ird1 :o unit$ all !      
graces ( wit & good s5se1 01 p]haps1 m  
truly religi\s ?an ei!r1 ?\gh ) less    
o/5tation4 ,f ! bosom ( ?is amiable     

family ,i 0 transplant$ to ,m4          
,lamb]ci]'s1 a man d$icat$ to ! m9i/ry1 
:o believ$ ! doctr9e he taught1 & act$  
up to its precepts4 ,he & 8 si/] matur$ 
by _! in/ructions ^? pr9ciples (        
judici\s piety ,i _h already imbib$1 & !
 means employ$ by ^! wor?y p 7 s well   
adapt$ to ! effect !y meant to produce1 
t s f> f be+ fatigu$1 ,i sc>ce ev] li/5$
 to _! admonitions )\t f9d+ myself      
s5sibly affect$1 & =m+ resolutions to   
live virtu\sly1 f :i*1 except 9 mom5ts (
 =getfulness1 ,i seldom sw]v$4 ,at my   
uncle's1 religion 0 f> m tiresome1      
because !y made x an employm5t2 ) my    
ma/] ,i ?\ght no m ( x1 ?\gh my s5tim5ts
 cont9u$ ! same3 ,i _h no companions to 
vitiate my morals3 ,i became idle1      
c>eless1 & ob/9ate1 b my pr9ciples 7 n  
impair$4  ,i possess$ z mu* religion1   
!re=e1 z a *ild c\ld be suppos$ capable 
( acquir+4 ,:y %\ld ,i n[ disguise my   
?\ghts8 ,i am p]suad$ ,i _h m4 ,9 my    
*ildhood1 ,i 0 n a *ild2 ,i felt1 ,i    
?\ght z a man3 z ,i advanc$ 9 ye>s1 ,i  

m+l$ ) ! ord9>y class2 9 my infancy ,i 0
 di/+ui%$ f x4 ,i %all d\btless incur   
ridicule by ?us mode/ly hold+ myself up 
= a prodigy--,i am cont5t4 ,let ^? :o   
f9d !mselves dispos$ to x1 laugh _!     
fill2 aft]w>d1 let !m f9d a *ild t at   
six ye>s old is delight$1 int]e/$1      
affect$ ) romances1 ev5 to ! %$d+ floods
 ( te>s2 ,i %all !n feel my ridicul\s   
vanity1 & ackn[l$ge myself 9 an error4  
,?us :5 ,i said we %\ld n conv]se )     
*ildr5 on religion1 if we wi%$ !m ev] to
 possess any2 :5 ,i ass]t$ !y 7         
incapable ( communion ) ! ,supreme ,be+1
 ev5 9 our conf9$ degree1 ,i drew my    
conclusions f g5]al obs]vation2 ,i knew 
!y 7 n applicable to p>ticul> in/ances3 
f9d ,j4 ,j4 ,r\sseau ( six ye>s old1    
conv]se ) !m on religi\s subjects at    
sev51 & ,i w be answ]able t ! exp]im5t w
 be att5d$ ) no dang]4  ,x is und]/ood1 
,i believe1 t a *ild1 or ev5 a man1 is  
likely to be mo/ s9c]e :ile p]sev]+ 9 t 
religion 9 ^: belief he 0 born &        
educat$2 we frequ5tly detract f1 seldom 

make any additions to x3 dogmatical fai?
 is ! effect ( education4 ,9 addition to
 ?is g5]al pr9ciple :i* atta*$ me to !  
religion ( my =efa!rs1 ,i _h t p>ticul> 
av]sion our city ent]ta9s = ,ca?olicism1
 :i* is repres5t$ !re z ! mo/ mon/r\s   
idolatry1 & ^: cl]gy are pa9t$ 9 !      
blacke/ colors4 ,?is s5tim5t 0 s firmly 
impr9t$ on my m9d1 t ,i nev] d>$ to look
 into _! *ur*es--,i c\ld n be> to meet a
 prie/ 9 8 surplice1 & nev] did ,i he> !
 bells ( a procession s\nd )\t %udd]+ ) 
horror2 ^! s5sations soon wore (f 9     
great cities1 b frequ5tly return$ 9     
c\ntry p>i%es1 :i* bore m simil>ity to !
 spot :]e ,i fir/ exp]i5c$ !m2 meantime 
?is dislike 0 s+ul>ly contra/$ by !     
remembrance ( ^? c>esses :i* prie/s 9 ! 
neighborhood ( ,g5eva are fond ( be/[+  
on ! *ildr5 ( t city4 ,if ! bells ( !   
viaticum al>m$ me1 ! *im+ = mass or     
vesp]s call$ me to a breakfa/1 a        
collation1 to ! pleasure ( regal+ on    
fre% butt]1 fruits1 or milk2 ! good *e] 
( ,m4 de ,pontv]re _h produc$ a         

consid]able effect on me2 my =m]        
abhorr5ce began to dim9i%1 & look+ on   
pop]y ?r\gh ! m$ium ( amusem5t & good   
liv+1 ,i easily reconcil$ myself to !   
idea ( endur+1 ?\gh ,i nev] ent]ta9$ b a
 v transi5t & di/ant idea ( mak+ a      
solemn pr(ession ( x4  ,at ?is mom5t su*
 a transaction appe>$ 9 all its horrors2
 ,i %udd]$ at ! engagem5t ,i _h ent]$   
into1 & its inevitable consequ5ces4 ,!  
future neophytes ) :i* ,i 0 surr\nd$ 7 n
 calculat$ to su/a9 my c\rage by _!     
example1 & ,i c\ld n help consid]+ !    
holy "w ,i 0 ab\t to p]=m z ! action ( a
 villa94 ,?\gh "y1 ,i 0 suffici5tly     
conv9c$1 t :atev] religion might be !   
true "o1 ,i 0 ab\t to sell m9e2 & ev5   
%\ld ,i *ance to *ose ! be/1 ,i li$ to !
 ,holy ,gho/1 & m]it$ ! disda9 ( e good 
man4 ,! m ,i consid]$1 ! m ,i despis$   
myself1 & trembl$ at ! fate :i* _h l$ me
 into su* a pr$icam5t1 z if my pres5t   
situation _h n be5 ( my own seek+4 ,!re 
7 mom5ts :5 ^! compunctions 7 s /rong t 
_h ,i f\nd ! door op5 b = an in/ant1 ,i 

%\ld c]ta9ly h made my escape2 b ?is 0  
impossible1 nor 0 ! resolution ( any    
long duration1 be+ combat$ by too _m    
secret motives to /& any *ance ( ga9+ ! 
victory4  ,my fix$ det]m9ation n to     
return to ,g5eva1 ! %ame t w\ld att5d x1
 ! difficulty ( repass+ ! m\nta9s1 at a 
di/ance f my c\ntry1 )\t fri5ds1 & )\t  
res\rces1 ev]y?+ concurr$ to make me    
consid] my remorse ( consci5ce1 z a too 
late rep5tance4 ,i affect$ to reproa*   
myself = :at ,i _h done1 to seek excuses
 = t ,i int5d$ to d1 & by aggravat+ !   
errors ( ! pa/1 look$ on ! future z an  
inevitable consequ5ce4 ,i did n say1    
no?+ is yet done1 & y may be innoc5t if 
y please2 b ,i said1 tremble at ! crime 
?\ ha/ committ$1 :i* ha? r$uc$ !e to !  
necessity ( fill+ up ! measure ( ?9e    
iniquities4  ,x requir$ m resolution ?an
 0 natural to my age to revoke ^?       
expectations :i* ,i _h giv5 !m reason to
 ent]ta91 break ^? *a9s ) :i* ,i 0      
en?rall$1 & resolutely decl>e ,i w\ld   
cont9ue 9 ! religion ( my =efa!rs1      

:atev] might be ! consequ5ce4 ,! affair 
0 already too f> advanc$1 & spite ( all 
my ef=ts !y w\ld h made a po9t ( br++ x 
to a conclusion4  ,! sophism :i* ru9$ me
 has _h a simil> affect on ! great] "p (
 mank9d1 :o lam5t ! want ( resolution :5
 ! opportunity = ex]cis+ x is ov]4 ,!   
practice ( virtue is only difficult f   
our own neglig5ce2 7 we always discreet1
 we %\ld seldom h occasion = any pa9ful 
ex]tion ( x2 we are captivat$ by desires
 we might readily surm\nt1 give into    
temptations t might easily be resi/$1 & 
ins5sibly get into emb>rass+1 p]il\s    
situations1 f :i* we _c extricate       
ourselves b ) ! utmo/ difficulty2       
intimidat$ by ! ef=t1 we fall into !    
abyss1 say+ to ! ,almighty1 :y ha/ ?\   
made u su* weak creatures8 ,b1 not)/&+  
our va9 pretexts1 ,he replies1 by our   
consci5ces1 ,i =m$ ye too weak to get   
out ( ! gulf1 because ,i gave ye        
suffici5t /r5g? n to h fall5 into x4  ,i
 0 n absolutely resolv$ to become a     
,ca?olic1 b1 z x 0 n necess>y to decl>e 

my int5tions imm$iately1 ,i gradually   
accu/om$ myself to ! idea2 hop+1        
meantime1 t "s un=ese5 ev5t w\ld        
extricate me f my emb>rassm5t4 ,9 ord]  
to ga9 "t1 ,i resolv$ to make ! be/     
def5ce ,i possibly c\ld 9 favor ( my own
 op9ion2 b my vanity soon r5d]$ ?is     
resolution unnecess>y1 = on f9d+ ,i     
frequ5tly emb>rass$ ^? :o _h ! c>e ( my 
in/ruction1 ,i wi%$ to height5 my       
triumph by giv+ !m a complete ov]?r[4 ,i
 zeal\sly pursu$ my plan1 n )\t !       
ridicul\s hope ( be+ able to conv]t my  
conv]tors2 = ,i 0 simple en\gh to       
believe1 t c\ld ,i conv9ce !m ( _!      
errors1 !y w\ld become ,prote/ants2 !y  
did n f9d1 !re=e1 t facility 9 ! "w :i* 
!y _h expect$1 z ,i diff]$ bo? 9 reg>d  
to w & k f ! op9ion !y _h ent]ta9$ ( me4
  ,prote/ants1 9 g5]al1 are bett]       
in/ruct$ 9 ! pr9ciples ( _! religion ?an
 ,ca?olics2 ! reason is obvi\s2 !       
doctr9e ( ! =m] requires discussion1 ( !
 latt] a bl9d submission2 ! ,ca?olic mu/
 cont5t himself ) ! decisions ( o!rs1 ! 

,prote/ant mu/ le>n to decide = himself2
 !y 7 n ignorant ( ?is1 b nei!r my age  
nor appe>ance promis$ mu* difficulty to 
m5 s accu/om$ to disputation4 ,!y knew1 
likewise1 t ,i _h n receiv$ my fir/     
communion1 nor ! in/ructions :i*        
accompany x2 b1 on ! o!r h&1 !y _h no   
idea ( ! in=mation ,i receiv$ at ,m4    
,lamb]ci]'s1 or t ,i _h le>n$ ! hi/ory (
 ! *ur* & empire almo/ by he>t at my    
fa!r's2 & ?\gh1 s9ce t "t1 ne>ly =got1  
:5 w>m$ by ! dispute 7v un=tunately = ^!
 g5tlem571 x aga9 return$ to my memory4 
,a little old prie/1 b tol]ably v5]able1
 held ! fir/ conf]5ce2 at :i* we 7 all  
conv5$4 ,on ! "p ( my comrades1 x 0 r a 
cate*ism ?an a controv]sy1 & he f\nd m  
pa9s 9 giv+ !m in/ruction ?an answ]+ _! 
objections2 b :5 x came to my turn1 x 0 
a diff]5t matt]2 ,i /opp$ him at e      
article1 & did n sp>e a s+le rem>k t ,i 
?\ght w\ld create a difficulty3 ?is     
r5d]$ ! conf]5ce long & extremely       
tiresome to ! assi/ants4 ,my old prie/  
talk$ a great deal1 0 v w>m1 frequ5tly  

rambl$ f ! subject1 & extricat$ himself 
f difficulties by say+ he 0 n           
suffici5tly v]s$ 9 ! ,fr5* language4  ,!
 next day1 le/ my indiscreet objections 
%\ld injure ! m9ds ( ^? :o 7 bett]      
dispos$1 ,i 0 l$ into a sep>ate *amb] & 
put "u ! c>e ( a y\ng] prie/1 a f9e     
speak]2 t is1 "o :o 0 fond ( long       
p]plex$ s5t5ces1 & pr\d ( 8 own         
abilities1 if ev] doctor 04 ,i did n1   
h[ev]1 suff] myself to be intimidat$ by 
8 ov]be>+ looks3 & be+ s5sible t ,i c\ld
 ma9ta9 my gr\nd1 ,i combat$ 8          
ass]tions1 expos$ 8 mi/akes1 & laid ab\t
 me 9 ! be/ mann] ,i 0 able4 ,he ?\ght  
to sil5ce me at once ) ,/4 ,augu/9e1 ,/4
 ,gregory1 & ! re/ ( ! fa!rs1 b f\nd1 to
 8 ineffable surprise1 t ,i c\ld h&le ^!
 almo/ z dext]\sly z himself2 n t ,i _h 
ev] read !m1 or he ei!r1 p]haps1 b ,i   
reta9$ a numb] ( passages tak5 f my ,le 
,sueur1 & :5 he bore h>d on me ) "o     
citation1 )\t /&+ to dispute1 ,i p>ri$ x
 ) ano!r1 :i* me?od emb>rass$ him       
extremely4 ,at l5g?1 h[ev]1 he got !    

bett] ( me = two v pot5t reasons2 9 !   
fir/ place1 he 0 ( ! /ronge/ side2 "y z 
,i 01 ,i ?\ght x might be dang]\s to    
drive him to extremities1 = ,i pla9ly   
saw ! old prie/ 0 nei!r satisfi$ ) me   
nor my erudition4 ,9 ! next place1 he _h
 /udi$1 ,i _h n2 ?is gave a degree (    
me?od to 8 argum5ts :i* ,i c\ld n foll[2
 & :5ev] he f\nd himself press$ by an   
un=ese5 objection he put x (f to ! next 
conf]5ce1 pret5d+ ,i rambl$ f ! "q 9    
dispute4 ,sometimes he ev5 reject$ all  
my quotations1 ma9ta9+ !y 7 false1 &1   
(f]+ to fet* ! book1 defi$ me to f9d !m4
 ,he knew he ran v little risk1 & t1 )  
all my borr[$ le>n+1 ,i 0 n suffici5tly 
accu/om$ to books1 & too poor a ,lat9i/ 
to f9d a passage 9 a l>ge volume1 _h ,i 
be5 ev] s well assur$ x 0 !re4 ,i ev5   
suspect$ him ( hav+ be5 guilty ( a      
p]fidy ) :i* he accus$ our m9i/]s1 & t  
he fabricat$ passages sometimes 9 ord]  
to evade an objection t incommod$ him4  
,mean:ile ! hospital became e day m     
disagreeable to me1 & see+ b "o way to  

get out ( x1 ,i endeavor$ to ha/5 my    
abjuration ) z mu* eag]ness z ,i _h     
hi!rto s\ght to ret>d x4  ,! two        
,africans _h be5 baptis$ ) great        
c]emony1 !y 7 habit$ 9 :ite f head to   
foot to signify ! purity ( _! reg5]at$  
s\ls4 ,my turn came a mon? aft]2 = all  
?is "t 0 ?\ght necess>y by my directors1
 t !y might h ! honor ( a difficult     
conv]sion1 & e dogma ( _! fai? 0        
recapitulat$1 9 ord] to triumph ! m     
completely ov] my new docility4  ,at    
l5g?1 suffici5tly in/ruct$ & dispos$ to 
! w ( my ma/]s1 ,i 0 l$ 9 procession to 
! metropolitan *ur* ( ,/4 ,john1 to make
 a solemn abjuration1 & und]go a c]emony
 made use ( on ^! occasions1 :i*1 ?\gh n
 baptism1 is v simil>1 & s]ves to       
p]suade ! p t ,prote/ants are n         
,*ri/ians4 ,i 0 clo!d 9 a k9d ( gray    
robe1 decorat$ ) :ite ,br&5burgs4 ,two  
m51 "o beh9d1 ! o!r be=e me1 c>ri$ copp]
 bas9s :i* !y kept /rik+ ) a key1 & 9   
:i* ^? :o 7 *>itably dispos$ put _!     
alms1 accord+ z !y f\nd !mselves        

influ5c$ by religion or good w = ! new  
conv]t2 9 a ^w1 no?+ ( ,ca?olic         
pageantry 0 omitt$ t c\ld r5d] !        
solemnity edify+ to ! populace1 or      
humiliat+ to me4 ,! :ite dress might h  
be5 s]viceable1 b z ,i _h n ! honor to  
be ei!r ,moor or ,jew1 !y did n ?9k fit 
to complim5t me ) x4  ,! affair did n   
end "h1 ,i mu/ n[ g to ! ,inquisition to
 be absolv$ f ! dreadful s9 ( h]esy1 &  
return to ! bosom ( ! *ur* ) ! same     
c]emony to :i* ,h5ry ! ,f\r? 0 subject$ 
by 8 ambassador4 ,! air & mann] ( ! "r  
rev]5d ,fa!r ,inquisitor 0 by no means  
calculat$ to dissipate ! secret horror t
 seiz$ my spirits on ent]+ ?is holy     
mansion4 ,aft] sev]al que/ions relative 
to my fai?1 situation1 & family1 he ask$
 me bluntly if my "m 0 damn$8 ,t]ror    
repress$ ! fir/ gu/ ( indignation2 ?is  
gave me "t to recollect myself1 & ,i    
answ]$1 ,i hope n1 = ,god might h       
enlight5$ h] la/ mom5ts4 ,! monk made no
 reply1 b 8 sil5ce 0 att5d$ ) a look by 
no means expressive ( approbation4  ,all

 ^! c]emonies end$1 ! v mom5t ,i flatt]$
 myself ,i %\ld be pl5tifully provid$ =1
 !y exhort$ me to cont9ue a good        
,*ri/ian1 & live 9 ob$i5ce to ! grace ,i
 _h receiv$2 !n wi%+ me good =tune1 ) r 
m ?an tw5ty francs ( small money 9 my   
pocket1 ! produce ( ! above-m5tion$     
collection1 turn$ me out1 %ut ! door on 
me1 & ,i saw no m ( !m6  ,?us1 9 a      
mom5t1 all my flatt]+ expectations 7 at 
an end2 & no?+ rema9$ f my int]e/$      
conv]sion b ! remembrance ( hav+ be5    
made bo? a dupe & an apo/ate4 ,x is easy
 to imag9e :at a sudd5 revolution 0     
produc$ 9 my ideas1 :5 e brilliant      
expectation ( mak+ a =tune t]m9at$ by   
see+ myself plung$ 9 ! complete/ mis]y4 
,9 ! morn+ ,i 0 delib]at+ :at palace ,i 
%\ld inhabit1 be=e night ,i 0 r$uc$ to  
seek my lodg+ 9 ! /reet4 ,x may be      
suppos$ t ,i gave myself up to ! mo/    
viol5t transports ( despair1 r5d]$ m    
bitt] by a consci\sness t my own folly  
_h r$uc$ me to ^! extremities2 b ! tru? 
is1 ,i exp]i5c$ none ( ^! disagreeable  

s5sations4 ,i _h pass$ two mon?s 9      
absolute conf9em5t2 ?is 0 new to me2 ,i 
0 n[ emancipat$1 & ! s5tim5t ,i felt mo/
 =cibly1 0 joy at my recov]$ lib]ty4    
,aft] a slav]y :i* _h appe>$ t$i\s1 ,i 0
 aga9 ma/] ( my "t & actions1 9 a great 
city1 abundant 9 res\rces1 cr[d$ ) p (  
=tune1 to :om my m]it & tal5ts c\ld n   
fail to recomm5d me4 ,i _h suffici5t "t 
be=e me to expect ?is good =tune1 = my  
tw5ty livres seem$ an inexhau/ible      
treasure1 :i* ,i might dispose ( )\t    
r5d]+ an acc\nt ( to anyone4 ,x 0 ! fir/
 "t ,i _h f\nd myself s ri*1 & f> f giv+
 way to melan*oly reflections1 ,i only  
adopt$ o!r hopes1 9 :i* self-love 0 by  
no means a los]4 ,nev] did ,i feel s    
great a degree ( confid5ce & security2  
,i look$ on my =tune z already made & 0 
pleas$ to ?9k ,i %\ld h no "o b myself  
to ?ank = ! acquisition ( x4  ,! fir/ ?+
 ,i did 0 to satisfy my curiosity by    
rambl+ all ov] ! city1 & ,i seem$ to    
consid] x z a confirmation ( my lib]ty2 
,i w5t to see ! soldi]s m\nt gu>d1 & 0  

delight$ ) _! milit>y acc\t]m5t2 ,i     
foll[$ processions1 & 0 pleas$ ) !      
solemn music ( ! prie/s2 ,i next w5t to 
see ! k+'s palace1 :i* ,i approa*$ )    
awe1 b see+ o!rs ent]1 ,i foll[$ _!     
example1 & no "o prev5t$ me2 p]haps ,i  
ow$ ?is favor to ! small p>cel ,i c>ri$ 
"u my arm2 be t z x may1 ,i conceiv$ a  
high op9ion ( my consequ5ce f ?is       
circum/ance1 & already ?\ght myself an  
inhabitant !re4 ,! wea!r 0 hot2 ,i _h   
walk$ ab\t till ,i 0 bo? fatigu$ &      
hungry2 wi%+ = "s refre%m5t1 ,i w5t into
 a milk-h\se2 !y br\ght me "s           
cream-*eese curds & :ey1 & two slices ( 
t excell5t ,pi$mont bread1 :i* ,i pref] 
to any o!r2 & = five or six s\s ,i _h "o
 ( ! mo/ delici\s meals ,i ev] recollect
 to h made4  ,x 0 "t to seek a lodg+3 z 
,i already knew en\gh ( ! ,pi$montese   
language to make myself und]/ood1 ?is 0 
a "w ( no great difficulty2 & ,i _h s   
mu* prud5ce1 t ,i wi%$ to adapt x r to !
 /ate ( my purse ?an ! b5t ( my         
incl9ations4 ,9 ! c\rse ( my inquiries1 

,i 0 in=m$ t a soldi]'s wife1 9         
,po-/reet1 furni%$ lodg+s to s]vants out
 ( place at only "o s\ a night1 & f9d+  
"o ( h] poor b$s dis5gag$1 ,i took      
possession ( x4 ,%e 0 "y & newly m>ri$1 
?\gh %e already _h five or six *ildr54  
,"m1 *ildr5 & lodg]s1 all slept 9 ! same
 *amb]1 & x cont9u$ ?us :ile ,i rema9$  
!re4 ,%e 0 good-natur$1 swore l a c>man1
 & wore nei!r cap nor h&k]*ief2 b %e _h 
a g5tle he>t1 0 (fici\s2 & to me bo? k9d
 & s]viceable4  ,= sev]al days ,i gave  
myself up to ! pleasures ( indep5d5ce & 
curiosity2 ,i cont9u$ w&]+ ab\t ! city &
 its environs1 exam9+ e object t seem$  
curi\s or new2 &1 inde$1 mo/ ?+s _h t   
appe>ance to a "y novice4 ,i nev] omitt$
 visit+ ! c\rt1 & assi/$ regul>ly e     
morn+ at ! k+'s mass4 ,i ?\ght x a great
 honor to be 9 ! same *apel ) ?is pr9ce 
& 8 ret9ue2 b my passion = music1 :i* n[
 began to make its appe>ance1 0 a great]
 inc5tive ?an ! spl5dor ( ! c\rt1 :i*1  
soon se5 & always ! same1 pres5tly lo/  
its attraction4 ,! ,k+ ( ,s>d9ia _h at t

 "t ! be/ music 9 ,europe2 ,somis1      
,desj>d9s1 & ! ,bezuzzi %one !re        
alt]nately2 all ^! 7 n necess>y to      
fasc9ate a y\? :om ! s\nd ( ! mo/ simple
 in/rum5t1 provid$ x 0 j1 transport$ )  
joy4 ,magnific5ce only produc$ a /upid  
admiration1 )\t any viol5t desire to    
p>take ( x1 my ?\ghts 7 pr9cipally      
employ$ 9 obs]v+ :e!r any "y pr9cess 0  
pres5t t m]it$ my homage1 & :om ,i c\ld 
make ! h]o9e ( a romance4  ,meantime1 ,i
 0 on ! po9t ( beg9n+ "o2 9 a less      
elevat$ sph]e1 x is true1 b :]e c\ld ,i 
h br\ght x to a conclusion1 ,i %\ld h   
f\nd pleasures a ?\s& times m delici\s4 
,?\gh ,i liv$ ) ! /ricte/ economy1 my   
purse ins5sibly grew light]4 ,?is       
economy 01 h[ev]1 less ! effect (       
prud5ce ?an t love ( simplicity1 :i*1   
ev5 to ?is day1 ! use ( ! mo/ exp5sive  
tables has n be5 able to vitiate4 ,no?+ 
9 my idea1 ei!r at t "t or s9ce1 c\ld   
exce$ a ru/ic repa/2 give me milk1      
vegetables1 eggs1 & br[n bread1 )       
tol]able w9e & ,i %all always ?9k myself

 sumptu\sly regal$2 a good appetite w   
furni% out ! re/1 if ! maitre d' hotel1 
) a numb] ( unnecess>y footm51 d n      
satiate me ) _! important att5tions4    
,five or six s\s w\ld !n procure me a m 
agreeable meal ?an z _m livres w\ld h   
done s9ce2 ,i 0 ab/emi\s1 !re=e1 = want 
( a temptation to be o!rwise3 ?\gh ,i d 
n "k b ,i am wrong to call ?is ab/95ce1 
= ) my pe>s1 new *eese1 bread & "s      
glasses ( ,montf]rat w9e1 :i* y might h 
cut ) a knife1 ,i 0 ! greate/ (         
epicures4 ,not)/&+ my exp5ses 7 v       
mod]ate1 x 0 possible to see ! end (    
tw5ty livres2 ,i 0 e day m conv9c$ (    
?is1 &1 spite ( ! gidd9ess ( y\?1 my    
appreh5sions = ! future am\nt$ almo/ to 
t]ror4 ,all my ca/les 9 ! air 7 vani%$1 
& ,i became s5sible ( ! necessity (     
seek+ "s occupation t w\ld procure me a 
subsi/5ce4  ,ev5 ?is 0 a "w (           
difficulty2 ,i ?\ght ( my engrav+1 b    
knew too little ( x to be employ$ z a   
j\rneyman1 nor d ma/]s ab\nd 9 ,tur92 ,i
 resolv$1 !re=e1 till some?+ bett]      

pres5t$ itself1 to g f %op to %op1 (f]+ 
to engrave ciph]s1 or coats ( arms1 on  
pieces ( plate1 etc41 & hop$ to get     
employm5t by work+ at a l[ price2 or    
tak+ :at !y *ose to give me4 ,ev5 ?is   
exp$i5t did n answ] my expectations2    
almo/ all my applications 7 ineffectual1
 ! little ,i procur$ be+ h>dly suffici5t
 to produce a few scanty meals4  ,walk+ 
"o morn+ pretty e>ly 9 ! ',contra nova'1
 ,i saw a "y tradeswoman beh9d a c\nt]1 
^: looks 7 s *>m+ly attractive1 t1      
not)/&+ my timidity ) ! ladies1 ,i ent]$
 ! %op )\t hesitation1 (f]$ my s]vices z
 usual3 & _h ! happ9ess to h x accept$4 
,%e made me sit d[n & recite my little  
hi/ory1 piti$ my =lorn situation2 bade  
me be *e]ful1 & endeavor$ to make me s  
by an assurance t e good ,*ri/ian w\ld  
give me assi/ance2 !n 7:ile %e _h       
occasion =7 %e w5t up /airs & fet*$ me  
some?+ = breakfa/4 ,?is seem$ a promis+ 
beg9n+1 nor 0 :at foll[$ less flatt]+3  
%e 0 satisfi$ ) my "w1 &1 :5 ,i _h a    
little recov]$ myself1 /ill m ) my      

disc\rse4 ,%e 0 r elegantly dress$ &    
not)/&+ h] g5tle looks ?is appe>ance (  
gayety _h disconc]t$ me2 b h]           
good-nature1 ! compassionate tone ( h]  
voice1 ) h] g5tle & c>ess+ mann]1 soon  
set me at ease ) myself2 ,i saw my      
endeavors to please 7 cr[n$ ) success1 &
 ?is assurance made me succe$ ! m4 ,?\gh
 an ,italian1 & too pretty to be        
entirely devoid ( coquetry1 %e _h s mu* 
mode/y1 & ,i s great a %>e ( timidity1 t
 our adv5ture 0 n likely to be br\ght to
 a v spe$y conclusion1 nor did !y give u
 "t to make any good ( x4 ,i _c recall !
 few %ort mom5ts ,i pass$ ) ?is lovely  
woman )\t be+ s5sible ( an inexpressible
 *>m1 & c yet say1 x 0 !re ,i ta/$ 9 _! 
utmo/ p]fection ! mo/ delightful1 z well
 z ! pure/ pleasures ( love4  ,%e 0 a   
lively pleas+ brunette1 & ! good nature 
t 0 pa9t$ on h] lovely face r5d]$ h]    
vivacity m int]e/+4 ,%e 0 call$ ,madam  
,basile3 h] husb&1 :o 0 consid]ably old]
 ?an h]self1 consign$ h]1 dur+ 8 abs5ce1
 to ! c>e ( a cl]k1 too disagreeable to 

be ?\ght dang]\s2 b :o1 not)/&+1 _h     
pret5sions t he seldom %[$ any signs (1 
except ( ill-humors1 a good %>e ( :i* he
 be/[$ on me2 ?\gh ,i 0 pleas$ to he>   
him play ! flute1 on :i* he 0 a tol]able
 musician4 ,?is second ,egi/us 0 sure to
 grumble :5ev] he saw me g into 8       
mi/ress' ap>tm5t1 treat+ me ) a degree (
 disda9 :i* %e took c>e to repay him )  
int]e/2 seem+ pleas$ to c>ess me 9 8    
pres5ce1 on purpose to torm5t him4 ,?is 
k9d ( rev5ge1 ?\gh p]fectly to my ta/e1 
w\ld h be5 /ill m *>m+ 9 a 'tete a      
tete'1 b %e did n proce$ s f>2 at lea/1 
!re 0 a diff]5ce 9 ! expression ( h]    
k9dness4 ,:e!r %e ?\ght me too "y1 t x 0
 my place to make advances1 or t %e 0   
s]i\sly resolv$ to be virtu\s1 %e _h at 
su* times a k9d ( res]ve1 :i*1 ?\gh n   
absolutely disc\rag+1 kept my passion )9
 b\nds4  ,i did n feel ! same real &    
t5d] respect = h] z ,i did = ,madam de  
,w>5s3 ,i 0 emb>rass$1 agitat$1 fe>$ to 
look1 & h>dly d>$ to brea! 9 h] pres5ce1
 yet to h left h] w\ld h be5 worse ?an  

dea?3 ,h[ fondly did my eyes dev\r      
:atev] !y c\ld gaze on )\t be+ p]ceiv$6 
! fl[]s on h] g[n1 ! po9t ( h] pretty   
foot1 ! int]val ( a r\nd :ite arm t     
appe>$ betwe5 h] glove & ruffle1 ! lea/ 
"p ( h] neck1 ea* object increas$ ! =ce 
( all ! re/1 & add$ to ! infatuation4   
,gaz+ ?us on :at 0 to be se51 & ev5 m   
?an 0 to be se51 my sight became        
confus$1 my *e/ seem$ contract$1        
respiration 0 e mom5t m pa9ful4 ,i _h ! 
utmo/ difficulty to hide my agitation1  
to prev5t my sighs f be+ he>d1 & ?is    
difficulty 0 increas$ by ! sil5ce 9 :i* 
we 7 frequ5tly plung$4 ,happily1 ,madam 
,basile1 busy at h] "w1 saw no?+ ( all  
?is1 or seem$ n to see x3 yet ,i        
sometimes obs]v$ a k9d ( sympa?y1       
especially at ! frequ5t ris+ ( h]       
h&k]*ief1 & ?is dang]\s sight almo/     
ma/]$ e ef=t1 b :5 on ! po9t ( giv+ way 
to my transports1 %e spoke a few words  
to me ) an air ( tranquility1 & 9 an    
in/ant ! agitation subsid$4  ,i saw h]  
sev]al times 9 ?is mann] )\t a ^w1 a    

ge/ure1 or ev5 a look1 too expressive1  
mak+ ! lea/ intellig5ce betwe5 u4 ,!    
situation 0 bo? my torm5t & delight1 =  
h>dly 9 ! simplicity ( my he>t1 c\ld ,i 
imag9e ! cause ( my uneas9ess4 ,i %\ld  
suppose ^! 'tete a tete' c\ld n be      
displeas+ to h]1 at lea/1 %e s\ght      
frequ5t occasions to r5ew !m2 ?is 0 a v 
dis9t]e/$ labor1 c]ta9ly1 z appe>$ by ! 
use %e made1 or ev] suff]$ me to make ( 
!m4  ,be+1 "o day1 we>i$ ) ! cl]k's     
disc\rse1 %e _h retir$ to h] *amb]2 ,i  
made ha/e to f9i% :at ,i _h to d 9 !    
back %op1 & foll[$ h]2 ! door 0 half    
op51 & ,i ent]$ )\t be+ p]ceiv$4 ,%e 0  
embroid]+ ne> a w9d[ on ! opposite side 
( ! room2 %e c\ld n see me2 & ! c>ts 9 !
 /reets made too mu* noise = me to be   
he>d4 ,%e 0 always well dress$1 b ?is   
day h] attire bord]$ on coquetry4 ,h]   
attitude 0 graceful1 h] head lean+ g5tly
 =w>d1 discov]$ a small circle ( h]     
neck2 h] hair1 elegantly dress$1 0      
ornam5t$ ) fl[]s2 h] figure 0 univ]sally
 *>m+1 & ,i _h an un9t]rupt$ opportunity

 to admire x4 ,i 0 absolutely 9 a /ate (
 ec/asy1 &1 involunt>y1 s9k+ on my      
knees1 ,i passionately ext5d$ my arms   
t[>ds h]1 c]ta9 %e c\ld n he>1 & hav+ no
 conception t %e c\ld see me2 b !re 0 a 
*imney glass at ! end ( ! room t betray$
 all my proce$+s4 ,i am ignorant :at    
effect ?is transport produc$ on h]2 %e  
did n speak2 %e did n look on me2 b1    
p>tly turn+ h] head1 ) ! movem5t ( h]   
f+] only1 %e po9t$ to ! mat t 0 at h]   
feet--,to />t up1 ) an articulate cry ( 
joy1 & occupy ! place %e _h indicat$1 0 
! "w ( a mom5t2 b x w h>dly be believ$  
,i d>$ attempt no m1 n ev5 to speak1    
raise my eyes to h]s1 or re/ an in/ant  
on h] knees1 ?\gh 9 an attitude :i*     
seem$ to r5d] su* a support necess>y4 ,i
 0 dumb1 immovable1 b f> en\gh f a /ate 
( tranquility2 agitation1 joy1          
gratitude1 ard5t indef9ite wi%es1       
re/ra9$ by ! fe> ( giv+ displeasure1 :i*
 my unpractis$ he>t too mu* dread$1 7   
suffici5tly disc]nible4 ,%e nei!r appe>$
 m tranquil1 nor less intimidat$ ?an    

myself--uneasy at my pres5t situation2  
conf\nd$ at hav+ br\ght me !re1 beg9n+  
to tremble = ! effects ( a sign :i* %e  
_h made )\t reflect+ on ! consequ5ces1  
nei!r giv+ enc\ragem5t1 nor express+    
disapprobation1 ) h] eyes fix$ on h] "w1
 %e endeavor$ to appe> unconsci\s (     
ev]y?+ t pass$2 b all my /upidity c\ld n
 h9d] me f conclud+ t %e p>took ( my    
emb>rassm5t1 p]haps1 my transports1 & 0 
only h9d]$ by a ba%fulness l m9e1 )\t   
ev5 t supposition giv+ me p[] to surm\nt
 x4 ,five or six ye>s old] ?an myself1 e
 advance1 accord+ to my idea1 %\ld h be5
 made by h]1 &1 s9ce %e did no?+ to     
enc\rage m9e1 ,i conclud$ !y w\ld (f5d  
h]4 ,ev5 at ?is "t1 ,i am incl9$ to     
believe ,i ?\ght "r2 %e c]ta9ly _h wit  
en\gh to p]ceive t a novice l me _h     
occasion1 n only = enc\ragem5t b        
in/ruction4  ,i am ignorant h[ ?is      
animat$1 ?\gh dumb sc5e w\ld h end$1 or 
h[ long ,i %\ld h cont9u$ immovable 9   
?is ridicul\s1 ?\gh delici\s1 situation1
 _h we n be5 int]rupt$--9 ! height ( my 

agitation1 ,i he>d ! kit*5 door op51 :i*
 jo9$ ,madam ,basile's *amb]2 :o1 be+   
al>m$1 said1 ) a quick voice & action1  
,get up6 ,"h's ,ros9a6 ,ris+ ha/ily ,i  
seiz$ "o ( h] h&s1 :i* %e held out to   
me1 & gave x two eag] kisses2 at !      
second ,i felt ?is *>m+ h& press g5tly  
on my lips4 ,nev] 9 my life did ,i enjoy
 s sweet a mom5t2 b ! occasion ,i _h lo/
 return$ no m1 ?is be+ ! conclusion (   
our am\rs4  ,?is may be ! reason :y h]  
image yet rema9s impr9t$ on my he>t 9   
su* *>m+ colors1 :i* h ev5 acquir$ fre% 
lu/re s9ce ,i became acqua9t$ ) ! _w &  
wom54 ,_h %e be5 mi/ress ( ! lea/ degree
 ( exp]i5ce1 %e w\ld h tak5 o!r measures
 to animate s y\?ful a lov]2 b if h]    
he>t 0 weak1 x 0 virtu\s2 & only suff]$ 
itself to be borne away by a p[]ful ?\gh
 involunt>y incl9ation4 ,?is 01         
app>5tly1 h] fir/ infidelity1 & ,i %\ld1
 p]haps1 h f\nd m difficulty 9 vanqui%+ 
h] scruples ?an my own2 b1 )\t proce$+ s
 f>1 ,i exp]i5c$ 9 h] company ! mo/     
inexpressible delights4 ,nev] did ,i    

ta/e ) any o!r woman pleasures equal to 
^? two m9utes :i* ,i pass$ at ! feet (  
,madam ,basile )\t ev5 d>+ to t\* h]    
g[n4 ,i am conv9c$ no satisfaction c be 
comp>$ to t we feel ) a virtu\s woman we
 e/eem2 all is transport6--,a sign ) !  
f+]1 a h& lightly press$ aga9/ my lips1 
7 ! only favors ,i ev] receiv$ f ,madam 
,basile1 yet ! b>e remembrance ( ^!     
trifl+ condesc5sions cont9ues to        
transport me4  ,x 0 9 va9 ,i wat*$ ! two
 foll[+ days = ano!r tete a tete2 x 0   
impossible to f9d an opportunity2 nor   
c\ld ,i p]ceive on h] "p any desire to  
=w>d x2 h] behavior 0 n cold]1 b m      
di/ant ?an usual1 & ,i believe %e avoid$
 my looks = fe> ( n be+ able suffici5tly
 to gov]n h] own4 ,! curs$ cl]k 0 m     
vexati\s ?an ev]2 he ev5 became a wit1  
tell+ me1 ) a satirical sne]1 t ,i %\ld 
unque/ionably make my way among !       
ladies4 ,i trembl$ le/ ,i %\ld h be5    
guilty ( "s indiscretion1 & look+ at    
myself z already engag$ 9 an intrigue1  
endeavor$ to cov] ) an air ( my/]y an   

incl9ation :i* hi!rto c]ta9ly _h no     
great ne$ ( x2 ?is made me m circumspect
 9 my *oice ( opportunities1 & by       
resolv+ only to seize su* z %\ld be     
absolutely free f ! dang] ( a surprise1 
,i met none4  ,ano!r romantic folly1 :i*
 ,i c\ld nev] ov]come1 & :i*1 jo9$ to my
 natural timidity1 t5d$ directly to     
contradict ! cl]k's pr$ictions1 is1 ,i  
always lov$ too s9c]ely1 too p]fectly1  
,i may say1 to f9d happ9ess easily      
atta9able4 ,nev] 7 passions at ! same "t
 m lively & pure ?an m9e2 nev] 0 love m 
t5d]1 m true1 or m dis9t]e/$2 freely    
w\ld ,i h sacrific$ my own happ9ess to t
 ( ! object ( my affection2 h]          
reputation 0 de>] ?an my life1 & ,i c\ld
 promise myself no happ9ess = :i* ,i    
w\ld h expos$ h] peace ( m9d = a mom5t4 
,?is disposition has ev] made me employ 
s mu* c>e1 use s _m precautions1 su*    
secrecy 9 my adv5tures1 t all ( !m h    
fail$2 9 a ^w1 my want ( success ) !    
wom5 has ev] proce$$ f hav+ lov$ !m too 
well4  ,to return to our ,egi/us1 !     

flut]2 x 0 rem>kable t 9 becom+ m       
insupportable1 ! traitor put on !       
appe>ance ( complaisance4 ,f ! fir/ day 
,madam ,basile _h tak5 me "u h]         
protection1 %e _h endeavor$ to make me  
s]viceable 9 ! w>eh\se2 & f9d+ ,i       
und]/ood ari?metic tol]ably well1 %e    
propos$ 8 tea*+ me to keep ! books2 a   
proposition t 0 b indiff]5tly receiv$ by
 ?is humori/1 :o might1 p]haps1 be      
fe>ful ( be+ supplant$4 ,z ?is fail$1 my
 :ole employ1 besides :at engrav+ ,i _h 
to d1 0 to transcribe "s bills &        
acc\nts1 to write sev]al books ov] fair1
 & translate comm]cial lett]s f ,italian
 into ,fr5*4 ,all at once he ?\ght fit  
to accept ! be=e reject$ proposal1 say+1
 he w\ld tea* me bookkeep+ by           
d\ble-entry1 & put me 9 a situation to  
(f] my s]vices to ,m4 ,basile on 8      
return2 b !re 0 some?+ s false1         
malici\s1 & ironical1 9 8 air & mann]1 t
 x 0 by no means calculat$ to inspire me
 ) confid5ce4 ,madam ,basile1 repli$    
ar*ly1 t ,i 0 mu* oblig$ to him = 8 k9d 

(f]1 b %e hop$ =tune w\ld be m favorable
 to my m]its1 = x w\ld be a great       
mis=tune1 ) s mu* s5se1 t ,i %\ld only  
be a pitiful cl]k4  ,%e (t5 said1 %e    
w\ld procure me "s acqua9tance t might  
be useful2 %e d\btless felt ! necessity 
( p>t+ ) me1 & _h prud5tly resolv$ on x4
 ,our mute decl>ation _h be5 made on    
,?ursday1 ! ,sunday foll[+ %e gave a    
d9n]4 ,a ,jacob9 ( good appe>ance 0     
among ! gue/s1 to :om %e did me ! honor 
to pres5t me4 ,! monk treat$ me v       
affectionately1 congratulat$ me on my   
late conv]sion1 m5tion$ sev]al p>ticul>s
 ( my /ory1 :i* pla9ly %[$ he _h be5    
made acqua9t$ ) x1 !n1 tapp+ me         
famili>ly on ! *eek1 bade me be good1 to
 keep up my spirits1 & come to see him  
at 8 conv5t1 :]e he %\ld h m opportunity
 to talk ) me4 ,i judg$ him to be a     
p]son ( "s consequ5ce by ! def]5ce t 0  
paid him2 & by ! pat]nal tone he assum$ 
) ,madam ,basile1 to be h] confessor4 ,i
 likewise rememb] t 8 dec5t famili>ity 0
 att5d$ ) an appe>ance ( e/eem1 & ev5   

respect = 8 fair p5it5t1 :i* !n made    
less impression on me ?an at pres5t4 ,_h
 ,i possess$ m exp]i5ce h[ %\ld ,i h    
congratulat$ myself on hav+ t\*$ ! he>t 
( a "y woman respect$ by h] confessor6  
,! table n be+ l>ge en\gh to accommodate
 all ! company1 a small "o 0 prep>$1 :]e
 ,i _h ! satisfaction ( d9+ ) our       
agreeable cl]k2 b ,i lo/ no?+ ) reg>d to
 att5tion & good *e]1 = sev]al plates 7 
s5t to ! side-table :i* 7 c]ta9ly n     
int5d$ = him4  ,?us f> all w5t well2 !  
ladies 7 9 good spirits1 & ! g5tlem5 v  
gallant1 :ile ,madam ,basile did !      
honors ( ! table ) peculi> grace4 ,9 !  
mid/ ( ! d9n] we he>d a *aise /op at !  
door1 & pres5tly "s "o com+ up /airs--x 
0 ,m4 ,basile4 ,me?9ks ,i n[ see him    
ent]+1 9 8 sc>let coat ) gold buttons-- 
f t day ,i h held ! color 9 abhorr5ce4  
,m4 ,basile 0 a tall h&some man1 ( good 
address3 he ent]$ ) a consequ5tial look 
& an air ( tak+ 8 family unaw>es1 ?\gh  
none b fri5ds 7 pres5t4 ,8 wife ran to  
meet him1 ?rew h] arms ab\t 8 neck1 &   

gave him a ?\s& c>esses1 :i* he receiv$ 
) ! utmo/ indiff]5ce2 & )\t mak+ any    
return salut$ ! company & took 8 place  
at table4 ,!y 7 j beg9n+ to speak ( 8   
j\rney1 :5 ca/+ 8 eye on ! small table  
he ask$ 9 a %>p tone1 :at lad t 08      
,madam ,basile answ]$ +5u\sly4 ,he !n   
inquir$ :e!r ,i lodg$ 9 ! h\se2 & 0     
answ]$ 9 ! negative4 ,:y n8 repli$ he1  
rudely1 s9ce he /ays "h all day1 he     
might z well rema9 all night too4 ,!    
monk n[ int]f]$1 ) a s]i\s & true       
eulogium on ,madam ,basile3 9 a few     
words he made m9e also1 add+1 t s f> f  
blam+1 he ought to fur!r ! pi\s *>ity ( 
8 wife1 s9ce x 0 evid5t %e _h n pass$ ! 
b\nds ( discretion4 ,! husb& answ]$ ) an
 air ( petulance1 :i* 7re/ra9$ by !     
pres5ce ( ! monk7 he endeavor$ to /ifle2
 x 01 h[ev]1 suffici5t to let me und]/& 
he _h already receiv$ in=mation ( me1 & 
t our wor?y cl]k _h r5d]$ me an ill     
(fice4  ,we _h h>dly ris5 f table1 :5 ! 
latt] came 9 triumph f 8 employ]1 to    
in=m me1 ,i mu/ leave ! h\se t in/ant1 &

 nev] m dur+ my life d>e to set foot    
!re4 ,he took c>e to aggravate ?is      
commission by ev]y?+ t c\ld r5d] x cruel
 & insult+4 ,i dep>t$ )\t a ^w1 my he>t 
ov]:elm$ ) sorr[1 less = be+ oblig$ to  
quit ?is amiable woman1 ?an at ! ?\ght (
 leav+ h] to ! brutality ( su* a husb&4 
,he 0 c]ta9ly "r to wi% h] fai?ful2 b   
?\gh prud5t & wellborn1 %e 0 an         
,italian1 t is to say1 t5d] & v9dictive2
 :i* made me ?9k1 he 0 extremely        
imprud5t 9 us+ means ! mo/ likely 9 ! _w
 to draw on himself ! v evil he s mu*   
dread$4  ,su* 0 ! success ( my fir/     
adv5ture4 ,i walk$ sev]al times up & d[n
 ! /reet1 wi%+ to get a sight ( :at my  
he>t incessantly regrett$2 b ,i c\ld    
only discov] h] husb&1 or ! vigilant    
cl]k1 :o1 p]ceiv+ me1 made a sign ) !   
ell !y us$ 9 ! %op1 :i* 0 m expressive  
?an allur+3 f9d+1 !re=e1 t ,i 0 s       
completely wat*$1 my c\rage fail$1 & ,i 
w5t no m4 ,i wi%$1 at lea/1 to f9d out !
 patron %e _h provid$ me1 b1            
un=tunately1 ,i did n "k 8 "n4 ,i rang$ 

sev]al times r\nd ! conv5t1 endeavor+ 9 
va9 to meet ) him4 ,at l5g?1 o!r ev5ts  
bani%$ ! delightful remembrance ( ,madam
 ,basile2 & 9 a %ort "t ,i s f> =got h]1
 t ,i rema9$ z simple1 z mu* a novice z 
ev]1 nor did my p5*ant = pretty wom5 ev5
 receive any s5sible augm5tation4  ,h]  
lib]ality _h1 h[ev]1 increas$ my little 
w>drobe1 ?\gh %e _h done ?is )          
precaution & prud5ce1 reg>d+ neatness m 
?an decoration1 & to make me com=table r
 ?an brilliant4 ,! coat ,i _h br\ght f  
,g5eva 0 yet we>able1 %e only add$ a hat
 & "s l954 ,i _h no ruffles1 nor w\ld %e
 give me any1 n b ,i felt a great       
incl9ation = !m4 ,%e 0 satisfi$ ) hav+  
put x 9 my p[] to keep myself clean1    
?\gh a *>ge to d ?is 0 unnecess>y :ile  
,i 0 to appe> be=e h]4  ,a few days aft]
 ?is cata/rophe2 my ho/ess1 :o1 z ,i h  
already obs]v$1 0 v fri5dly1 ) great    
satisfaction in=m$ me %e _h he>d ( a    
situation1 & t a lady ( rank desir$ to  
see me4 ,i imm$iately ?\ght myself 9 !  
road to great adv5tures2 t be+ ! po9t to

 :i* all my ideas t5d$3 ?is1 h[ev]1 did 
n prove s brilliant z ,i _h conceiv$ x4 
,i wait$ on ! lady ) ! s]vant :o _h     
m5tion$ me3 %e ask$ a numb] ( que/ions1 
& my answ]s n displeas+ h]1 ,i          
imm$iately ent]$ into h] s]vice n1      
inde$1 9 ! quality ( favorite1 b z a    
footman4 ,i 0 clo!d l ! re/ ( h] p1 !   
only diff]5ce be+1 !y wore a %\ld]-knot1
 :i* ,i _h n1 &1 z !re 0 no lace on h]  
liv]y1 x appe>$ m]ely a tradesman's     
suit4 ,?is 0 ! un=ese5 conclusion ( all 
my great expectancies6  ,! ,c\ntess (   
,v]cellis1 ) :om ,i n[ liv$1 0 a wid[   
)\t *ildr52 h] husb& 0 a ,pi$montese1 b 
,i always believ$ h] to be a ,savoy>d1 z
 ,i c\ld h no conception t a native (   
,pi$mont c\ld speak su* good ,fr5*1 & ) 
s pure an acc5t4 ,%e 0 a middle-ag$     
woman1 ( a noble appe>ance & cultivat$  
und]/&+1 be+ fond ( ,fr5* lit]ature1 9  
:i* %e 0 well v]s$4 ,h] lett]s _h !     
expression1 & almo/ ! elegance ( ,madam 
de ,savigne's2 "s ( !m might h be5 tak5 
= h]s4 ,my pr9cipal employ1 :i* 0 by no 

means displeas+ to me1 0 to write f h]  
dictat+2 a canc] 9 ! brea/1 f :i* %e    
suff]$ extremely1 n p]mitt+ h] to write 
h]self4  ,madam de ,v]cellis n only     
possess$ a good und]/&+1 b a /rong &    
elevat$ s\l4 ,i 0 ) h] dur+ h] la/      
illness1 & saw h] suff] & die1 )\t %[+  
an in/ant ( weakness1 or ! lea/ ef=t (  
con/ra9t2 /ill reta9+ h] fem99e mann]s1 
)\t ent]ta9+ an idea t su* =titude gave 
h] any claim to philosophy2 a ^w :i* 0 n
 yet 9 fa%ion1 nor compreh5d$ by h] 9 ! 
s5se x is held at pres5t4 ,?is /r5g? (  
disposition sometimes ext5d$ almo/ to   
apa?y1 ev] appe>+ to feel z little =    
o!rs z h]self2 & :5 %e reliev$ !        
un=tunate1 x 0 r = ! sake ( act+ "r1 ?an
 f a pr9ciple ( real commis]ation4 ,i h 
frequ5tly exp]i5c$ ?is ins5sibility1 9  
"s measure1 dur+ ! ?ree mon?s ,i rema9$ 
) h]4 ,x w\ld h be5 natural to h _h an  
e/eem = a "y man ( "s abilities1 :o 0   
incessantly "u h] obs]vation1 & t %e    
%\ld ?9k1 z %e felt h] dissolution      
approa*+1 t aft] h] dea? he w\ld h      

occasion = assi/ance & support3 b :e!r  
%e judg$ me unwor?y ( p>ticul> att5tion1
 or t ^? :o n>r[ly wat*$ all h] motions1
 gave h] no opportunity to ?9k ( any b  
!mselves1 %e did no?+ = me4  ,i v well  
recollect t %e %[$ "s curiosity to "k my
 /ory1 frequ5tly que/ion+ me1 & appe>+  
pleas$ :5 ,i %[$ h] ! lett]s ,i wrote to
 ,madam de ,w>5s1 or expla9$ my         
s5tim5ts2 b z %e nev] discov]$ h] own1  
%e c]ta9ly did n take ! "r means to come
 at !m4 ,my he>t1 naturally             
communicative1 lov$ to display its      
feel+s1 :5ev] ,i enc\nt]$ a simil>      
disposition2 b dry1 cold int]rogatories1
 )\t any sign ( blame or approbation on 
my answ]s1 gave me no confid5ce4 ,n be+ 
able to det]m9e :e!r my disc\rse 0      
agreeable or displeas+1 ,i 0 ev] 9 fe>1 
& ?\ght less ( express+ my ideas1 ?an ( 
be+ c>eful n to say any?+ t might seem  
to my disadvantage4 ,i h s9ce rem>k$ t  
?is dry me?od ( que/ion+ !mselves into  
p's *>act]s is a common trick among wom5
 :o pride !mselves on sup]ior und]/&+4  

,^! imag9e1 t by conceal+ _! own        
s5tim5ts1 !y %all ! m easily p5etrate   
into ^? ( o!rs2 be+ ignorant t ?is me?od
 de/roys ! confid5ce s necess>y to make 
u reveal !m4 ,a man1 on be+ que/ion$1 is
 imm$iately on 8 gu>d3 & if once he     
supposes t1 )\t any int]e/ 9 8 conc]ns1 
y only wi% to set him a-talk+1 ei!r he  
ent]ta9s y ) lies1 is sil5t1 or1 exam9+ 
e ^w be=e he utt]s x1 r *ooses to pass =
 a fool1 ?an to be ! dupe ( y\r         
curiosity4 ,9 %ort1 x is ev] a bad me?od
 to attempt to read ! he>ts ( o!rs by   
endeavor+ to conceal our own4  ,madam de
 ,v]cellis nev] address$ a ^w to me :i* 
seem$ to express affection1 pity1 or    
b5evol5ce4 ,%e int]rogat$ me coldly1 &  
my answ]s 7 utt]$ ) s mu* timidity1 t %e
 d\btless ent]ta9$ b a mean op9ion ( my 
intellects1 = latt]ly %e nev] ask$ me   
any que/ions1 nor said any?+ b :at 0    
absolutely necess>y = h] s]vice4 ,%e    
drew h] judgm5t less f :at ,i really 01 
?an f :at %e _h made me1 & by consid]+  
me z a footman prev5t$ my appe>+        

o!rwise4  ,i am incl9$ to ?9k ,i suff]$ 
at t "t by ! same int]e/$ game (        
conceal$ manoeuvre1 :i* has c\nt]act$ me
 ?r\gh\t my life1 & giv5 me a v natural 
av]sion = ev]y?+ t has ! lea/ appe>ance 
( x4 ,madam de ,v]cellis hav+ no *ildr51
 h] nephew1 ! ,c\nt de la ,roque1 0 h]  
heir1 & paid 8 c\rt assidu\sly1 z did h]
 pr9cipal dome/ics1 :o1 see+ h] end     
approa*+1 endeavor$ to take c>e (       
!mselves2 9 %ort1 s _m 7 busy ab\t h]1 t
 %e c\ld h>dly h f\nd "t to ?9k ( me4   
,at ! head ( h] h\sehold 0 a ,m4        
,lor5zy1 an artful g5ius1 ) a /ill m    
artful wife2 :o _h s f> ins9uat$ h]self 
into ! good graces ( h] mi/ress1 t %e 0 
r on ! foot+ ( a fri5d ?an a s]vant4 ,%e
 _h introduc$ a niece ( h]s z lady's    
maid3 h] "n 0 ,mademoiselle ,pontal2 a  
cunn+ gypsy1 t gave h]self all ! airs ( 
a wait+-woman1 & assi/$ h] aunt s well 9
 besett+ ! c\ntess1 t %e only saw ) _!  
eyes1 & act$ ?r\gh _! h&s4 ,i _h n !    
happ9ess to please ?is wor?y            
triumvirate2 ,i obey$1 b did n wait on  

!m1 n conceiv+ t my duty to our g5]al   
mi/ress requir$ me to be a s]vant to h] 
s]vants4 ,besides ?is1 ,i 0 a p]son t   
gave !m "s inquietude2 !y saw ,i 0 n 9  
my prop] situation1 & fe>$ ! c\ntess    
w\ld discov] x likewise1 & by plac+ me 9
 x1 decrease _! portions2 = su* sort (  
p1 too gre$y to be j1 look on e legacy  
giv5 to o!rs z a dim9ution ( _! own     
weal?2 !y endeavor$1 !re=e1 to keep me z
 mu* out ( h] sight z possible4 ,%e lov$
 to write lett]s1 9 h] situation1 b !y  
contriv$ to give h] a di/a/e to x2      
p]suad+ h]1 by ! aid ( ! doctor1 t x 0  
too fatigu+2 &1 "u pret5ce t ,i did n   
und]/& h[ to wait on h]1 !y employ$ two 
great lubb]ly *airm5 = t purpose2 9 a   
^w1 !y manag$ ! affair s well1 t = eight
 days be=e %e made h] w1 ,i _h n be5    
p]mitt$ to ent] ! *amb]4 ,aft]w>ds ,i   
w5t 9 z usual1 & 0 ev5 m assidu\s ?an   
any "o1 be+ afflict$ at ! suff]+s ( !   
unhappy lady1 :om ,i truly respect$ &   
belov$ = ! calmness & =titude ) :i* %e  
bore h] illness1 & (t5 did ,i %$ te>s ( 

real sorr[ )\t be+ p]ceiv$ by any "o4   
,at l5g? we lo/ h]--,i saw h] expire4   
,%e _h liv$ l a woman ( s5se & virtue1  
h] dea? 0 t ( a philosoph]4 ,i c truly  
say1 %e r5d]$ ! ,ca?olic religion       
amiable to me by ! s]5ity ) :i* %e      
fulfill$ its dictates1 )\t any mixture (
 neglig5ce or affectation4 ,%e 0        
naturally s]i\s1 b t[>ds ! end ( h]     
illness %e possess$ a k9d ( gayety1 too 
regul> to be assum$1 :i* s]v$ z a       
c\nt]poise to ! melan*oly ( h]          
situation4 ,%e only kept h] b$ two days1
 cont9u+ to disc\rse *e]fully ) ^? ab\t 
h] to ! v la/4  ,%e _h bequea!d a ye>'s 
wages to all ! "u s]vants1 b1 n be+ on !
 h\sehold li/1 ,i _h no?+3 ! ,c\nt de la
 ,roque1 h[ev]1 ord]$ me ?irty livres1 &
 ! new coat ,i _h on1 :i* ,m4 ,lor5zy   
w\ld c]ta9ly h tak5 f me4 ,he ev5       
promis$ to procure me a place2 giv+ me  
p]mission to wait on him z (t5 z ,i     
pleas$4 ,accord+ly1 ,i w5t two or ?ree  
times1 )\t be+ able to speak to him1 & z
 ,i 0 easily repuls$1 return$ no m2 :e!r

 ,i did wrong w be se5 h]eaft]4  ,w\ld  
,i _h f9i%$ :at ,i h to say ( my liv+ at
 ,madam de ,v]cellis's4 ,?\gh my        
situation app>5tly rema9$ ! same1 ,i did
 n leave h] h\se z ,i _h ent]$ x3 ,i    
c>ri$ ) me ! long & pa9ful remembrance (
 a crime2 an insupportable weight (     
remorse :i* yet hangs on my consci5ce1 &
 ^: bitt] recollection1 f> f weak5+1    
dur+ a p]iod ( =ty ye>s1 seems to ga!r  
/r5g? z ,i gr[ old4 ,:o w\ld believe1 t 
a *ildi% fault %\ld be productive ( su* 
melan*oly consequ5ces8 ,b x is = ! m ?an
 probable effects t my he>t _c be       
consol$4 ,i h1 p]haps1 caus$ an amiable1
 hone/1 e/imable girl1 :o surely m]it$ a
 bett] fate ?an myself1 to p]i% ) %ame &
 mis]y4  ,?\gh x is v difficult to break
 up h\sekeep+ )\t confusion1 & ! loss ( 
"s prop]ty2 yet su* 0 ! fidelity ( !    
dome/ics1 & ! vigilance ( ,m4 & ,madam  
,lor5zy1 t no article ( ! inv5tory 0    
f\nd want+2 9 %ort1 no?+ 0 miss+ b a p9k
 & silv] ribbon1 :i* _h be5 worn1 &     
belong$ to ,mademoiselle ,pontal4 ,?\gh 

sev]al ?+s ( m value 7 9 my rea*1 ?is   
ribbon alone tempt$ me1 & accord+ly ,i  
/ole x4 ,z ,i took no great pa9s to     
conceal ! bauble1 x 0 soon discov]$2 !y 
imm$iately insi/$ on kn[+ f :5ce ,i _h  
tak5 x2 ?is p]plex$ me--,i hesitat$1 &  
at l5g? said1 ) confusion1 t ,m>ion gave
 x me4  ,m>ion 0 a "y ,mauri5nese1 & _h 
be5 cook to ,madam de ,v]cellis ev] s9ce
 %e left (f giv+ ent]ta9m5ts1 = be+     
s5sible %e _h m ne$ ( good bro?s ?an f9e
 rag\ts1 %e _h dis*>g$ h] =m] "o4 ,m>ion
 0 n only pretty1 b _h t fre%ness (     
color only to be f\nd among ! m\nta9s1  
&1 above all1 an air ( mode/y &         
sweetness1 :i* made x impossible to see 
h] )\t affection2 %e 0 besides a good   
girl1 virtu\s1 & ( su* /rict fidelity1 t
 ev]yone 0 surpris$ at he>+ h] nam$4 ,!y
 _h n less confid5ce 9 me1 & judg$ x    
necess>y to c]tify :i* ( u 0 ! ?ief4    
,m>ion 0 s5t =2 a great numb] ( p 7     
pres5t1 among :om 0 ! ,c\nt de la       
,roque3 %e arrives2 !y %[ h] ! ribbon2  
,i accuse h] boldly3 %e rema9s confus$ &

 spee*less1 ca/+ a look on me t w\ld h  
dis>m$ a demon1 b :i* my b>b>\s he>t    
resi/$4 ,at l5g?1 %e d5i$ x ) firmness1 
b )\t ang]1 exhort+ me to return to     
myself1 & n injure an innoc5t girl :o _h
 nev] wrong$ me4 ,) inf]nal impud5ce1 ,i
 confirm$ my accusation1 & to h] face   
ma9ta9$ %e _h giv5 me ! ribbon3 on :i*1 
! poor girl1 bur/+ into te>s1 said ^!   
words--,ah1 ,r\sseau6 ,i ?\ght y a good 
disposition--y r5d] me v unhappy1 b ,i  
w\ld n be 9 y\r situation4 ,%e cont9u$  
to def5d h]self ) z mu* innoc5ce z      
firmness1 b )\t utt]+ ! lea/ invective  
aga9/ me4 ,h] mod]ation1 comp>$ to my   
positive tone1 did h] an injury2 z x did
 n appe> natural to suppose1 on "o side 
su* diabolical assurance2 on ! o!r1 su* 
angelic mildness4 ,! affair c\ld n be   
absolutely decid$1 b ! presumption 0 9  
my favor2 & ! ,c\nt de la ,roque1 9 s5d+
 u bo? away1 cont5t$ himself ) say+1 ,! 
consci5ce ( ! guilty w\ld rev5ge !      
innoc5t4 ,8 pr$iction 0 true1 & is be+  
daily v]ifi$4  ,i am ignorant :at became

 ( ! victim ( my calumny1 b !re is      
little probability ( h] hav+ be5 able to
 place h]self agreeably aft] ?is1 z %e  
labor$ "u an imputation cruel to h] "* 9
 e respect4 ,! !ft 0 a trifle1 yet x 0 a
 !ft1 &1 :at 0 worse1 employ$ to s$uce a
 boy2 :ile ! lie & ob/9acy left no?+ to 
hope f a p]son 9 :om s _m vices 7 unit$4
 ,i d n ev5 look on ! mis]y & disgrace 9
 :i* ,i plung$ h] z ! greate/ evil3 :o  
kn[s1 at h] age1 :i!r contempt &        
disreg>d$ innoc5ce might h l$           
h]8--,alas6 if remorse = hav+ made h]   
unhappy is insupportable1 :at mu/ ,i h  
suff]$ at ! ?\ght ( r5d]+ h] ev5 worse  
?an myself4 ,! cruel remembrance ( ?is  
transaction1 sometimes s tr\bles &      
disord]s me1 t1 9 my di/urb$ slumb]s1 ,i
 imag9e ,i see ?is poor girl ent] &     
reproa* me ) my crime1 z ?\gh ,i _h     
committ$ x b ye/]day4 ,:ile 9 easy      
tranquil circum/ances1 ,i 0 less        
mis]able on ?is acc\nt1 b1 dur+ a tr\bl$
 agitat$ life1 x has robb$ me ( ! sweet 
consolation ( p]secut$ innoc5ce1 & made 

me w(ully exp]i5ce1 :at1 ,i ?9k1 ,i h   
rem>k$ 9 "s ( my works1 t remorse sleeps
 9 ! calm sun%9e ( prosp]ity1 b wakes   
amid ! /orms ( adv]sity4 ,i c\ld nev]   
take on me to dis*>ge my he>t ( ?is     
weight 9 ! bosom ( a fri5d2 nor c\ld !  
close/ intimacy ev] enc\rage me to x1   
ev5 ) ,madam de ,w>5s3 all ,i c\ld d1 0 
to own ,i _h to accuse myself ( an      
atroci\s crime1 b nev] said 9 :at x     
consi/$4 ,! weight1 !re=e1 has rema9$   
heavy on my consci5ce to ?is day2 & ,i c
 truly own ! desire ( reliev+ myself1 9 
"s measure1 f x1 contribut$ greatly to !
 resolution ( writ+ my ,confessions4  ,i
 h proce$$ truly 9 t ,i h j made1 & x w 
c]ta9ly be ?\ght ,i h n s\ght to        
palliate ! turpitude ( my (f5ce2 b ,i   
%\ld n fulfill ! purpose ( ?is und]tak+1
 did ,i n1 at ! same "t1 divulge my     
int]ior disposition1 & excuse myself z  
f> z is con=mable ) tru?4  ,nev] 0      
wick$ness fur!r f my ?\ghts1 ?an 9 t    
cruel mom5t2 & :5 ,i accus$ ! unhappy   
girl1 x is /range1 b /rictly true1 t my 

fri5d%ip = h] 0 ! imm$iate cause ( x4   
,%e 0 pres5t to my ?\ghts2 ,i =m$ my    
excuse f ! fir/ object t pres5t$ itself3
 ,i accus$ h] ) do+ :at ,i meant to h   
done1 & z ,i design$ to h giv5 h] !     
ribbon1 ass]t$ %e _h giv5 x to me4 ,:5  
%e appe>$1 my he>t 0 agoniz$1 b !       
pres5ce ( s _m p 0 m p[]ful ?an my      
compunction4 ,i did n fe> puni%m5t1 b ,i
 dread$ %ame3 ,i dread$ x m ?an dea?1 m 
?an ! crime1 m ?an all ! _w4 ,i w\ld h  
buri$1 hid myself 9 ! c5tre ( ! e>?3    
inv9cible %ame bore d[n e o!r s5tim5t2  
%ame alone caus$ all my impud5ce1 & 9   
proportion z ,i became crim9al1 ! fe> ( 
discov]y r5d]$ me intrepid4 ,i felt no  
dread b t ( be+ detect$1 ( be+ publicly1
 & to my face1 decl>$ a ?ief1 li>1 &    
calumniator2 an unconqu]able fe> ( ?is  
ov]came e o!r s5sation4 ,_h ,i be5 left 
to myself1 ,i %\ld infallibly h decl>$ !
 tru?4 ,or if ,m4 de la ,roque _h tak5  
me aside1 & said--,d n injure ?is poor  
girl2 if y are guilty own x1--,i am     
conv9c$ ,i %\ld in/antly h ?r[n myself  

at 8 feet2 b !y intimidat$1 in/ead (    
enc\rag+ me4 ,i 0 h>dly out ( my        
*ildhood1 or r1 0 yet 9 x4 ,x is also j 
to make "s all[ance = my age4 ,9 y\?1   
d>k1 prem$itat$ villa9y is m crim9al ?an
 9 a rip] age1 b weaknesses are mu* less
 s2 my fault 0 truly no?+ m2 & ,i am    
less afflict$ at ! de$ itself ?an = its 
consequ5ces4 ,x _h "o good effect1      
h[ev]1 9 pres]v+ me ?r\gh ! re/ ( my    
life f any crim9al action1 f ! t]rible  
impression t has rema9$ f ! only "o ,i  
ev] committ$2 & ,i ?9k my av]sion = ly+ 
proce$s 9 a great measure f regret at   
hav+ be5 guilty ( s black a "o4 ,if x is
 a crime t c be expiat$1 z ,i d>e       
believe1 =ty ye>s ( uprightness & honor 
on v>i\s difficult occasions1 ) ! _m    
mis=tunes t h ov]:elm$ my latt] ye>s1   
may h complet$ x4 ,poor ,m>ion has f\nd 
s _m av5g]s 9 ?is _w1 t h[ev] great my  
(f5ce t[>ds h]1 ,i d n fe> to be> !     
guilt ) me4 ,?us h ,i disclos$ :at ,i _h
 to say on ?is pa9ful subject2 may ,i be
 p]mitt$ nev] to m5tion x aga94         

,,book ,,iii4   ,leav+ ! s]vice ( ,madam
 de ,v]cellis ne>ly z ,i _h ent]$ x1 ,i 
return$ to my =m] ho/ess1 & rema9$ !re  
five or six weeks2 dur+ :i* "t heal?1   
y\?1 & laz9ess1 frequ5tly r5d]$ my      
temp]am5t importunate4 ,i 0 re/less1    
abs5t1 & ?\ghtful3 ,i wept & sigh$ = a  
happ9ess ,i _h no idea (1 ?\gh at ! same
 "t highly s5sible ( "s defici5cy4 ,?is 
situation is indescribable1 few m5 c ev5
 =m any conception ( x1 because1 9      
g5]al1 !y h prev5t$ t pl5itude ( life1  
at once torm5t+ & delici\s4 ,my ?\ghts 7
 incessantly occupi$ ) girls & wom51 b 9
 a mann] peculi> to myself3 ^! ideas    
kept my s5ses 9 a p]petual &            
disagreeable activity1 ?\gh1 =tunately1 
!y did n po9t out ! means ( deliv]ance4 
,i w\ld h giv5 my life to h met ) a     
,miss ,goton1 b ! "t 0 pa/ 9 :i* ! play 
( infancy pr$om9at$2 increase ( ye>s _h 
introduc$ %ame1 ! insep>able companion (
 a consci\s deviation f rectitude1 :i* s
 confirm$ my natural timidity z to r5d] 
x inv9cible2 & nev]1 ei!r at t "t or    

s9ce1 c\ld ,i prevail on myself to (f] a
 proposition favorable to my wi%es      
7unless 9 a mann] con/ra9$ to x by      
previ\s advances7 ev5 ) ^? ^: scruples  
,i _h no cause to dread4  ,my /ay at    
,madam de ,v]cellis's _h procur$ me "s  
acqua9tance1 :i* ,i ?\ght might be      
s]viceable to me1 & !re=e wi%$ to reta94
 ,among o!rs1 ,i sometimes visit$ a     
,savoy>d abbe1 ,m4 ,gaime1 :o 0 tutor to
 ! ,c\nt ( ,mel>$e's *ildr54 ,he 0 "y1 &
 n mu* kn[n1 b possess$ an excell5t     
cultivat$ und]/&+1 ) great probity1 & 01
 altoge!r1 "o ( ! be/ m5 ,i ev] knew4   
,he 0 incapable ( do+ me ! s]vice ,i !n 
/ood mo/ 9 ne$ (1 n hav+ suffici5t      
int]e/ to procure me a situation1 b f   
him ,i reap$ advantages f> m preci\s1   
:i* h be5 useful to me ?r\gh life1      
lessons ( pure morality1 & maxims ( s\nd
 judgm5t4  ,9 ! successive ord] ( my    
incl9ations & ideas1 ,i _h ev] be5 too  
high or too l[4 ,a*illes or ,!rsites2   
sometimes a h]o1 at o!rs a villa94 ,m4  
,gaime took pa9s to make me prop]ly     

acqua9t$ ) myself1 )\t sp>+ or giv+ me  
too mu* disc\ragem5t4 ,he spoke 9       
advantage\s t]ms ( my disposition &     
tal5ts1 add+1 t he =esaw ob/acles :i*   
w\ld prev5t my pr(it+ by !m2 ?us1       
accord+ to him1 !y 7 to s]ve less z /eps
 by :i* ,i %\ld m\nt to =tune1 ?an z    
res\rces :i* might enable me to exi/ )\t
 "o4 ,he gave me a true picture ( human 
life1 ( :i*1 hi!rto1 ,i _h =m$ b a v    
errone\s idea1 tea*+ me1 t a man (      
und]/&+1 ?\gh de/9$ to exp]i5ce adv]se  
=tune1 might1 by skilful managem5t1     
arrive at happ9ess2 t !re 0 no true     
felicity )\t virtue1 :i* 0 practicable 9
 e situation4 ,he greatly dim9i%$ my    
admiration ( gr&eur1 by prov+ t ^? 9 a  
sup]ior situation are nei!r bett] nor   
happi] ?an ^? !y comm&4 ,"o ( 8 maxims  
has frequ5tly return$ to my memory3 x 01
 t if we c\ld truly read ! he>ts ( o!rs 
we %\ld feel m incl9ation to desc5d ?an 
rise3 ?is reflection1 ! tru? ( :i* is   
/rik+ )\t extravagance1 ,i h f\nd (     
great utility1 9 ! v>i\s exig5ces ( my  

life1 z x t5d$ to make me satisfi$ ) my 
condition4 ,he gave me ! fir/ j         
conception ( relative duties1 :i* my    
high-fl[n imag9ation _h ev] pictur$ 9   
extremes1 mak+ me s5sible t ! en?usiasm 
( sublime virtues is ( little use 9     
society2 t :ile endeavor+ to rise too   
high we are 9 dang] ( fall+2 & t a      
virtu\s & uni=m dis*>ge ( little duties 
requires z great a degree ( =titude z   
actions :i* are call$ h]oic1 & w\ld at !
 same "t procure m honor & happ9ess4 ,t 
x 0 inf9itely m desirable to possess !  
la/+ e/eem ( ^? ab\t u1 ?an at int]vals 
to attract admiration4  ,9 prop]ly      
arrang+ ! v>i\s duties betwe5 man & man1
 x 0 necess>y to asc5d to pr9ciples2 !  
/ep ,i _h rec5tly tak51 & ( :i* my      
pres5t situation 0 ! consequ5ce1        
naturally l$ u to speak ( religion4 ,x w
 easily be conceiv$ t ! hone/ ,m4 ,gaime
 01 9 a great measure1 ! orig9al ( !    
,savoy>d ,vic>2 prud5ce only oblig+ him 
to deliv] 8 s5tim5ts1 on c]ta9 po9ts1 ) 
m caution & res]ve1 & expla9 himself )  

less fre$om2 b 8 s5tim5ts & c\ncils 7 ! 
same1 n ev5 except+ 8 advice to return  
to my c\ntry2 all 0 precisely z ,i h    
s9ce giv5 x to ! pubic4 ,dwell+ no      
long]1 !re=e1 on conv]sations :i*       
ev]yone may see ! sub/ance (1 ,i %all   
only add1 t ^! wise in/ructions 7?\gh !y
 did n produce an imm$iate effect7 7 z s
 _m se$s ( virtue & religion 9 my he>t  
:i* 7 nev] root$ out1 & only requir$ !  
fo/]+ c>es ( fri5d%ip to br+ to         
maturity4  ,?\gh my conv]sation 0 n v   
s9c]e1 ,i 0 affect$ by 8 disc\rses1 & f>
 f be+ we>y1 0 pleas$ ) !m on acc\nt (  
_! cle>ness & simplicity1 b above all   
because 8 he>t seem$ int]e/$ 9 :at he   
said4 ,my disposition is naturally t5d]1
 ,i h ev] be5 less atta*$ to p = ! good 
!y h really done me ?an = t !y design$  
to d1 & my feel+s 9 ?is p>ticul> h      
seldom misl$ me3 ?us ,i truly e/eem$ ,m4
 ,gaime4 ,i 0 9 a mann] 8 second        
disciple1 :i* ev5 at t "t 0 ( ine/imable
 s]vice 9 turn+ me f a prop5sity to vice
 into :i* my idl5ess 0 lead+ me4  ,"o   

day1 :5 ,i lea/ expect$ x1 ,i 0 s5t = by
 ! ,c\nt de la ,roque4 ,hav+ frequ5tly  
call$ at 8 h\se1 )\t be+ able to speak )
 him1 ,i grew we>y1 & suppos+ he _h ei!r
 =got me or reta9$ "s unfavorable       
impression ( me1 return$ no m3 b ,i 0   
mi/ak5 9 bo? ^! conjectures4 ,he _h m   
?an once witness$ ! pleasure ,i took 9  
fulfill+ my duty to 8 aunt3 he _h ev5   
m5tion$ x to h]1 & aft]w>ds spoke ( x1  
:5 ,i no long] ?\ght ( x myself4  ,he   
receiv$ me graci\sly1 say+ t in/ead (   
amus+ me ) useless promises1 he _h s\ght
 to place me to advantage2 t he _h      
succe$$1 & w\ld put me 9 a way to bett] 
my situation1 b ! re/ mu/ dep5d on      
myself4 ,t ! family into :i* he %\ld    
introduce me be+ bo? p[]ful & e/eem$1 ,i
 %\ld ne$ no o!r patrons2 & ?\gh at fir/
 on ! foot+ ( a s]vant1 ,i might be     
assur$1 t if my conduct & s5tim5ts 7    
f\nd above t /ation1 ,i %\ld n long     
rema9 9 x4 ,! end ( ?is disc\rse cruelly
 disappo9t$ ! brilliant hopes ! beg9n+  
_h inspir$4 ,:at6 =ev] a footman8 said  

,i to myself1 ) a bitt]ness :i*         
confid5ce pres5tly effac$1 = ,i felt    
myself too sup]ior to t situation to fe>
 long rema9+ !re4  ,he took me to !     
,c\nt de ,gauvon1 ,ma/] ( ! ,horse to ! 
,que51 & ,*ief ( ! illu/ri\s ,h\se (    
,sol>4 ,! air ( dignity conspicu\s 9 ?is
 respectable old man1 r5d]$ ! affability
 ) :i* he receiv$ me yet m int]e/+4 ,he 
que/ion$ me ) evid5t int]e/1 & ,i repli$
 ) s9c]ity4 ,he !n told ! ,c\nt de la   
,roque1 t my features 7 agreeable1 &    
promis$ intellect1 :i* he believ$ ,i 0 n
 defici5t 92 b t 0 n en\gh1 & "t mu/ %[ 
! re/2 aft] :i*1 turn+ to me1 he said1  
,*ild1 almo/ all situations are att5d$ )
 difficulties 9 ! beg9n+2 y\rs1 h[ev]1  
%all n h too great a portion ( !m2 be   
prud5t1 & endeavor to please ev]yone1 t 
w be almo/ y\r only employm5t2 = ! re/  
fe> no?+1 y %all be tak5 c>e (4         
,imm$iately aft] he w5t to ! ,m>*ioness 
de ,breil1 8 daught]-9-law1 to :om he   
pres5t$ me1 & !n to ! ,abbe de ,gauvon1 
8 son4 ,i 0 elat$ ) ?is beg9n+1 z ,i    

knew en\gh ( ! _w already to conclude1 t
 s mu* c]emony is n g5]ally us$ at !    
reception ( a footman4 ,9 fact1 ,i 0 n  
treat$ l "o4 ,i d9$ at ! /ew>d's table2 
did n we> a liv]y2 & ! ,c\nt de ,favria 
7a giddy y\?7 hav+ comm&$ me to get     
beh9d 8 coa*1 8 gr&fa!r ord]$ t ,i %\ld 
get beh9d no coa*1 nor foll[ any "o out 
( ! h\se4 ,meantime1 ,i wait$ at table1 
& did1 )9 doors1 ! bus9ess ( a footman2 
b ,i did x1 z x 71 ( my own free w1 )\t 
be+ appo9t$ to any p>ticul> s]vice2 &   
except writ+ "s lett]s1 :i* 7 dictat$ to
 me1 & cutt+ out "s ornam5ts = ! ,c\nt  
de ,favria1 ,i 0 almo/ ! absolute ma/] (
 my "t4 ,?is trial ( my discretion1 :i* 
,i did n !n p]ceive1 0 c]ta9ly v        
dang]\s1 & n v humane2 = 9 ?is /ate (   
idl5ess ,i might h contract$ vices :i*  
,i %\ld n o!rwise h giv5 into4          
,=tunately1 x did n produce t effect2 my
 memory reta9$ ! lessons ( ,m4 ,gaime1  
!y _h made an impression on my he>t1 &  
,i sometimes escap$ f ! h\se ( my patron
 to obta9 a repetition ( !m4 ,i believe 

^? :o saw me go+ out1 app>5tly by /eal?1
 _h no conception ( my bus9ess4 ,no?+   
c\ld be m prud5t ?an ! advice he gave me
 respect+ my conduct4 ,my beg9n+ 0      
admirable2 s mu* att5tion1 assiduity1 & 
zeal1 _h *>m$ ev]yone4 ,! ,abby ,gaime  
advis$ me to mod]ate ?is fir/ ardor1 le/
 ,i %\ld relax1 & t relaxation %\ld be  
consid]$ z neglect4 ,y\r sett+ out1 said
 he1 is ! rule ( :at w be expect$ ( y2  
endeavor gradually to increase y\r      
att5tions1 b be cauti\s h[ y dim9i% !m4 
,z !y paid b little att5tion to my      
trifl+ tal5ts1 & suppos$ ,i possess$ no 
m ?an nature _h giv5 me1 !re 0 no       
appe>ance 7not)/&+ ! promises ( ,c\nt de
 ,gauvon7 ( my meet+ ) any p>ticul>     
consid]ation4 ,"s objects ( m consequ5ce
 _h int]v5$4 ,! ,m>quis de ,breil1 son (
 ! ,c\nt de ,gauvon1 0 !n ambassador at 
,vi5na2 "s circum/ances _h occurr$ at t 
c\rt :i* = "s weeks kept ! family 9     
cont9ual agitation1 & left !m no "t to  
?9k ( me4 ,meantime ,i _h relax$ b      
little 9 my att5tions1 ?\gh "o object 9 

! family did me bo? good & h>m1 mak+ me 
m secure f ext]ior dissipation1 b less  
att5tive to my duty4  ,mademoiselle de  
,breil 0 ab\t my own age1 tol]ably      
h&some1 & v fair complexion$1 ) black   
hair1 :i* not)/&+1 gave h] features t   
air ( s(tness s natural to ! flax51 &   
:i* my he>t c\ld nev] resi/4 ,! c\rt    
dress1 s favorable to y\?1 %[$ h] f9e   
neck & %ape to advantage1 & ! m\rn+1 :i*
 0 !n worn1 seem$ to add to h] beauty4  
,x w be said1 a dome/ic %\ld n take     
notice ( ^! ?+s2 ,i 0 c]ta9ly to blame1 
yet ,i p]ceiv$ all ?is1 nor 0 ,i ! only 
"o2 ! maitre d' hotel & valet de *ambre 
spoke ( h] sometimes at table ) a       
vulg>ity t pa9$ me extremely4 ,my head1 
h[ev]1 0 n suffici5tly turn$ to all[ (  
my be+ entirely 9 love2 ,i did n =get   
myself1 or my situation4 ,i lov$ to see 
,mademoiselle de ,breil2 to he> h] utt] 
any?+ t m>k$ wit1 s5se1 or good humor3  
my ambition1 conf9$ to a desire ( wait+ 
on h]1 nev] exce$$ its j rights4 ,at    
table ,i 0 ev] att5tive to make ! mo/ ( 

!m2 if h] footman quitt$ h] *air1 ,i    
in/antly suppli$ 8 place2 9 default (   
?is1 ,i /ood fac+ h]1 seek+ 9 h] eyes   
:at %e 0 ab\t to ask =1 & wat*+ ! mom5t 
to *ange h] plate4 ,:at w\ld ,i n h giv5
 to he> h] comm&1 to h h] look at1 or   
speak ! smalle/ ^w to me6 b no1 ,i _h ! 
mortification to be b5ea? h] reg>d2 %e  
did n ev5 p]ceive ,i 0 !re4 ,h] bro!r1  
:o frequ5tly spoke to me :ile at table1 
hav+ "o day said some?+ :i* ,i did n    
consid] oblig+1 ,i made him s ar* &     
well-turn$ an answ]1 t x drew h]        
att5tion2 %e ca/ h] eyes ^u me1 & ?is   
glance 0 suffici5t to fill me )         
transport4 ,! next day1 a second        
occasion pres5t$ itself1 :i* ,i         
=tunately made use (4 ,a great d9n] 0   
giv52 & ,i saw1 ) a/oni%m5t1 = ! fir/   
"t1 ! maitre d' hotel wait+ at table1 ) 
a sword by 8 side1 & hat on 8 head4 ,by 
*ance1 ! disc\rse turn$ on ! motto ( !  
h\se ( ,sol>1 :i* 01 ) ! arms1 work$ 9 !
 tape/ry3 ',tel fi]t qui ne fue pas'4 ,z
 ! ,pi$montese are n 9 g5]al v p]fect 9 

! ,fr5* language1 !y f\nd fault ) !     
or?ography1 say+1 t 9 ! ^w fi]t !re %\ld
 be no 't'4 ,! old ,c\nt de ,gauvon 0   
go+ to reply1 :5 happ5+ to ca/ 8 eyes on
 me1 he p]ceiv$ ,i smil$ )\t d>+ to say 
any?+2 he imm$iately ord]$ me to speak  
my op9ion4 ,i !n said1 ,i did n ?9k !   
't' sup]flu\s1 'fi]t' be+ an old ,fr5*  
^w1 n d]iv$ f ! n\n 'f]us'1 pr\d1       
?reat5+2 b f ! v]b 'f]it'1 he /rikes1 he
 w\nds2 ! motto1 !re=e1 did n appe> to  
mean1 "s ?reat1 b1 ',"s /rike :o d n    
kill'4 ,! :ole company fix$ _! eyes on  
me1 !n on ea* o!r1 )\t speak+ a ^w2 nev]
 0 a great] degree ( a/oni%m5t2 b :at   
mo/ flatt]$ me1 0 an air ( satisfaction 
:i* ,i p]ceiv$ on ! c\nt5ance (         
,mademoiselle de ,breil4 ,?is scornful  
lady deign$ to ca/ on me a second look  
at lea/ z valuable z ! =m]1 & turn+ to  
h] gr&fa!r1 appe>$ to wait ) impati5ce =
 ! praise t 0 due to me1 & :i* he fully 
be/[$1 ) su* app>5t satisfaction1 t x 0 
eag]ly *orus$ by ! :ole table4 ,?is     
int]val 0 %ort1 b delightful 9 _m       

respects2 x 0 "o ( ^? mom5ts s r>ely met
 )1 :i* place ?+s 9 _! natural ord]1 &  
rev5ge depress$ m]it = ! injuries (     
=tune4 ,"s m9utes aft] ,mademoiselle de 
,breil aga9 rais$ h] eyes1 desir+ me ) a
 voice ( timid affability to give h] "s 
dr9k4 ,x w easily be suppos$ ,i did n   
let h] wait1 b advanc+ t[>ds h]1 ,i 0   
seiz$ ) su* a trembl+1 t hav+ fill$ !   
glass too full1 ,i spill$ "s ( ! wat] on
 h] plate1 & ev5 on h]self4 ,h] bro!r   
ask$ me1 giddily1 :y ,i trembl$ ?us8    
,?is "q increas$ my confusion1 :ile !   
face ( ,mademoiselle de ,breil 0 suffus$
 ) a crimson blu%4  ,"h end$ ! romance2 
:]e x may be rem>k$ 7z ) ,madam ,basile1
 & o!rs 9 ! cont9uation ( my life7 t ,i 
0 n =tunate 9 ! conclusion ( my am\rs4  
,9 va9 ,i plac$ myself 9 ! ante*amb] (  
,madam de ,breil1 ,i c\ld n obta9 "o m>k
 ( att5tion f h] daught]2 %e w5t 9 & out
 )\t look+ at me1 nor _h ,i ! confid5ce 
to raise my eyes to h]2 ,i 0 ev5 s      
fooli%ly /upid1 t "o day1 on dropp+ h]  
glove z %e pass$1 in/ead ( seiz+ & cov]+

 x ) kisses1 z ,i w\ld gladly h done1 ,i
 did n d>e to quit my place1 b suff]$ x 
to be tak5 up by a great booby ( a      
footman1 :om ,i c\ld will+ly h knock$   
d[n = 8 (fici\sness4 ,to complete my    
timidity1 ,i p]ceiv$ ,i _h n ! good     
=tune to please ,madam de ,breil2 %e n  
only nev] ord]$1 b ev5 reject$1 my      
s]vices2 & hav+ twice f\nd me 9 h]      
ante*amb]1 ask$ me1 dryly1 ,if ,i _h    
no?+ to d8 ,i 0 oblig$1 !re=e1 to r5\nce
 ?is de> ante*amb]2 at fir/ x caus$ me  
"s uneas9ess1 b o!r ?+s int]v5+1 ,i     
pres5tly ?\ght no m ( x4  ,! disda9 (   
,madam de ,breil 0 fully comp5sat$ by ! 
k9dness ( h] fa!r-9-law1 :o at l5g?     
began to ?9k ( me4 ,! ev5+ aft] !       
ent]ta9m5t1 ,i h already m5tion$1 he _h 
a conv]sation ) me t la/$ half an h\r1  
:i* appe>$ to satisfy him1 & absolutely 
en*ant$ me4 ,?is good man _h less s5se  
?an ,madam de ,v]cellis1 b possess$ m   
feel+2 ,i !re=e succe$$ mu* bett] ) him4
 ,he bade me atta* myself to 8 son1 !   
,abbe ,gauvon1 :o _h an e/eem = me1 :i*1

 if ,i took c>e to cultivate1 might be  
s]viceable 9 furni%+ me ) :at 0 necess>y
 to complete _! views = my future       
e/abli%m5t4 ,! next morn+ ,i flew to ,m4
 ! ,abbe1 :o did n receive me z a       
s]vant1 b made me sit by 8 fireside1 &  
que/ion$ me ) great affability4 ,he soon
 f\nd t my education1 :i* _h attempt$ _m
 ?+s1 _h complet$ none2 b obs]v+ t ,i   
und]/ood some?+ ( ,lat91 he und]took to 
tea* me m1 & appo9t$ me to att5d him e  
morn+4 ,?us1 by "o ( ! :imsicalities :i*
 h m>k$ ! :ole c\rse ( my life1 at once 
above & bel[ my natural situation1 ,i 0 
pupil & footman 9 ! same h\se3 & ?\gh 9 
s]vitude1 _h a preceptor ^: bir? entitl$
 him to supply t place only to ! *ildr5 
( k+s4  ,! ,abbe de ,gauvon 0 a y\ng]   
son1 & design$ by 8 family = a bi%opric1
 = :i* reason 8 /udies _h be5 pursu$    
fur!r ?an is usual ) p ( quality4 ,he _h
 be5 s5t to ! univ]sity ( ,si5na1 :]e he
 _h resid$ "s ye>s1 & f :5ce he _h      
br\ght a good portion ( cruscantism1    
design+ to be t at ,tur9 :i* ! ,abbe de 

,dangeau 0 =m]ly at ,p>is4 ,be+ disgu/$ 
) !ology1 he gave 9 to ! belle-lettres1 
:i* is v frequ5t 9 ,italy1 ) ^? :o h    
ent]$ ! c>e] ( prelacy4 ,he _h /udi$ !  
poets1 & wrote tol]able ,lat9 & ,italian
 v]ses2 9 a ^w1 8 ta/e 0 calculat$ to =m
 m9e1 & give "s ord] to t *aos (        
insignificant tra% ) :i* my bra9 0      
encumb]$2 b :e!r my prat+ _h misl$ him1 
or t he c\ld n support ! tr\ble ( tea*+ 
! elem5t>y p>ts ( ,lat91 he put me at   
fir/ too high2 & ,i _h sc>cely translat$
 a few fables ( ,pho$rus be=e he put me 
into ,virgil1 :]e ,i c\ld h>dly und]/&  
any?+4 ,x w be se5 h]eaft] t ,i 0 de/9$ 
frequ5tly to le>n ,lat91 b nev] to atta9
 x4 ,i labor$ ) assiduity1 & ! abbe     
be/[$ 8 att5tion ) a degree ( k9dness1 !
 remembrance ( :i*1 ev5 at ?is "t1 bo?  
int]e/s & s(t5s me4 ,i pass$ ! great] "p
 ( ! morn+ ) him z mu* = my own         
in/ruction z 8 s]vice2 n t he ev]       
p]mitt$ me to p]=m any m5ial (fice1 b to
 copy1 or write f 8 dictat+2 & my       
employm5t ( secret>y 0 m useful ?an t ( 

s*ol>1 & by ?is means ,i n only le>n$ ! 
,italian 9 its utmo/ purity1 b also     
acquir$ a ta/e = lit]ature1 & "s        
disc]nm5t ( composition1 :i* c\ld n h   
be5 at ,la ,tribu's1 & :i* 0 useful to  
me :5 ,i aft]w>ds wrote alone4  ,at ?is 
p]iod ( my life1 )\t be+ romantic1 ,i   
might reasonably h indulg$ ! hope (     
pref]m5t4 ,! abbe1 ?or\ghly pleas$ ) me1
 express$ 8 satisfaction to ev]yone1    
:ile 8 fa!r _h su* a s+ul> affection =  
me1 t ,i 0 assur$ by ! ,c\nt de ,favria1
 t he _h spok5 ( me to ! k+2 ev5 ,madam 
de ,breil _h laid aside h] disda9ful    
looks2 9 %ort ,i 0 a g5]al favorite1 :i*
 gave great jeal\sy to ! o!r s]vants1 :o
 see+ me honor$ by ! in/ructions ( _!   
ma/]'s son1 7 p]suad$ ,i %\ld n rema9 _!
 equal4  ,z f> z ,i c\ld judge by "s    
words dropp$ at r&om1 & :i* ,i reflect$ 
on aft]w>ds1 x appe>$ to me1 t ! ,h\se (
 ,sol>1 wi%+ to run ! c>e] ( embassies1 
& hop+ p]haps 9 "t to arrive at !       
m9i/ry1 wi%$ to provide !mselves ) a    
p]son ( m]it & tal5ts1 :o dep5d+        

entirely on !m1 might obta9 _!          
confid5ce1 & be ( ess5tial s]vice4 ,?is 
project ( ! ,c\nt de ,gauvon 0 judici\s1
 magnanim\s1 & truly wor?y ( a p[]ful   
nobleman1 equally provid5t & g5]\s2 b   
besides my n see+1 at t "t1 its full    
ext5t1 x 0 f> too rational = my bra91 & 
requir$ too mu* conf9em5t4  ,my         
ridicul\s ambition s\ght = =tune 9 !    
mid/ ( brilliant adv5tures1 & n f9d+ "o 
woman 9 all ?is s*eme1 x appe>$ t$i\s1  
pa9ful & melan*oly2 ?\gh ,i %\ld r h    
?\ght x m honorable on ?is acc\nt1 z !  
species ( m]it g5]ally patroniz$ by wom5
 is c]ta9ly less wor?y t ,i 0 suppos$ to
 possess4  ,ev]y?+ succe$$ to my wi%3 ,i
 _h obta9$1 almo/ =c$1 ! e/eem ( all2 ! 
trial 0 ov]1 & ,i 0 univ]sally consid]$ 
z a "y man ) flatt]+ prospects1 :o 0 n  
at pres5t 9 8 prop] sph]e1 b 0 expect$  
soon to rea* x2 b my place 0 n assign$  
me by man1 & ,i 0 to rea* x by v        
difficult pa?s4 ,i n[ come to "o ( ^?   
*>act]i/ic traits1 :i* are s natural to 
me1 & :i*1 inde$1 ! read] might h obs]v$

 )\t ?is reflection4  ,!re 7 at ,tur9   
sev]al new conv]ts ( my own /amp1 :om ,i
 nei!r lik$ nor wi% to see2 b ,i _h met 
) "s ,g5evese :o 7 n ( ?is description1 
& among o!rs a ,m4 ,muss>d1 nicknam$    
,wryneck1 a m9iature pa9t]1 & a di/ant  
relation4 ,?is ,m4 ,muss>d1 hav+ le>n$  
my situation at ! ,c\nt de ,gauvon's1   
came to see me1 ) ano!r ,g5evese1 nam$  
,bacle1 :o _h be5 my comrade dur+ my    
appr5tice%ip4 ,?is ,bacle 0 a v         
sprightly1 amus+ "y fell[1 full ( lively
 sallies1 :i* at 8 "t ( life appe>$     
extremely agreeable4 ,at once1 !n1      
behold me delight$ ) ,m4 ,bacle2 *>m$ to
 su* a degree t ,i f\nd x impossible to 
quit him4 ,he 0 %ortly to dep>t =       
,g5eva2 :at a loss _h ,i to su/a96 ,i   
felt ! :ole =ce ( x1 & resolv+ to make !
 be/ use ( ?is preci\s int]val1 ,i      
det]m9$ n to leave him1 or1 r1 he nev]  
quitt$ me1 = my head 0 n yet suffici5tly
 turn$ to ?9k ( quitt+ ! h\se )\t leave1
 b x 0 soon p]ceiv$ t he engross$ my    
:ole "t1 & he 0 accord+ly =bid ! h\se4  

,?is s inc5s$ me1 t =gett+ ev]y?+ b my  
fri5d ,bacle1 ,i w5t nei!r to ! abbe nor
 ! c\nt1 & 0 no long] to be f\nd at     
home4 ,i paid no att5tion to repeat$    
reprim&s1 & at l5g? 0 ?reat5$ )         
dismissal4 ,?is ?reat 0 my ru91 z x     
sugge/$ ! idea t x 0 n absolutely       
necess>y t ,bacle %\ld dep>t alone4 ,f t
 mom5t ,i c\ld ?9k ( no o!r pleasure1 no
 o!r situation or happ9ess ?an tak+ ?is 
j\rney4 ,to r5d] ! felicity /ill m      
complete1 at ! end ( x 7?\gh at an      
imm5se di/ance7 ,i pictur$ to myself    
,madam de ,w>5s2 = z to return+ to      
,g5eva1 x nev] ent]$ into my imag9ation4
 ,! hills1 fields1 brooks & villages1   
incessantly succe$$ ea* o!r ) new *>ms1 
& ?is delightful jaunt seem$ wor?y to   
absorb my :ole exi/5ce4 ,memory recall$1
 ) inexpressible pleasure1 h[ *>m+ !    
c\ntry _h appe>$ 9 com+ to ,tur92 :at !n
 mu/ x be1 :51 to ! pleasure (          
indep5d5ce1 %\ld be add$ ! company ( a  
good-humor$ comrade ( my own age &      
disposition1 )\t any con/ra9t or        

obligation1 b free to g or /ay z we     
pleas$8 ,w\ld x n be madness to         
sacrifice ! prospect ( s mu* felicity to
 projects ( ambition1 sl[ & difficult 9 
_! execution1 & unc]ta9 9 _! ev5t8 ,b   
ev5 suppos+ !m realiz$1 & 9 _! utmo/    
spl5dor1 !y 7 n wor? "o qu>t] ( an h\r (
 ! sweet pleasure & lib]ty ( y\?4  ,full
 ( ^! wise conclusions1 ,i conduct$     
myself s improp]ly1 t 7n inde$ )\t "s   
tr\ble7 ,i got myself dismiss$2 = on my 
return "o night ! maitre de hotel gave  
me w>n+ on ! "p ( ! c\nt4 ,?is 0 exactly
 :at ,i want$2 = feel+1 spite ( myself1 
! extravagance ( my conduct1 ,i wi%$ to 
excuse x by ! addition ( inju/ice &     
+ratitude1 by ?r[+ ! blame on o!rs1 &   
%elt]+ myself "u ! idea ( necessity4  ,i
 0 told ! ,c\nt de ,favria wi%$ to speak
 ) me ! next morn+ be=e my dep>ture2 b1 
be+ s5sible t my head 0 s f> turn$ z to 
r5d] x possible = me to disobey !       
injunction1 ! maitre de hotel decl9$    
pay+ ! money design$ me1 & :i* c]ta9ly  
,i _h v ill e>n$1 till aft] ?is visit2 =

 my k9d patrons be+ unwill+ to place me 
9 ! situation ( a footman1 ,i _h n any  
fix$ wages4  ,! ,c\nt de ,favria1 ?\gh  
"y & giddy1 talk$ to me on ?is occasion 
9 ! mo/ s5sible & s]i\s mann]3 ,i might 
add1 if x w\ld n be ?\ght va91 ) ! utmo/
 t5d]ness4 ,he rem9d$ me1 9 ! mo/       
flatt]+ t]ms1 ( ! c>es ( 8 uncle1 &     
int5tions ( 8 gr&fa!r2 aft] hav+ drawn 9
 lively colors :at ,i 0 sacrific+ to    
ru91 he (f]$ to make my peace1 )\t      
/ipulat+ any conditions1 b t ,i %\ld no 
m see ! wor?less fell[ :o _h s$uc$ me4  
,x 0 s app>5t t he did n say all ?is (  
himself1 t not)/&+ my bl9d /upidity1 ,i 
p[]fully felt ! k9dness ( my good old   
ma/]1 b ! de> j\rney 0 too firmly pr9t$ 
on my imag9ation = any consid]ation to  
balance ! *>m4 ,b]eft ( und]/&+1 firm to
 my purpose1 ,i h>d5$ myself aga9/      
conviction1 & arrogantly answ]$1 t z !y 
_h ?\ght fit to give me w>n+1 ,i _h     
resolv$ to take x1 & conceiv$ x 0 n[ too
 late to retract1 s9ce1 :atev] might    
happ5 to me1 ,i 0 fully resolv$ n to be 

driv5 a second "t f ! same h\se4 ,!     
c\nt1 ju/ly irritat$1 be/[$ on me "s    
names :i* ,i des]v$1 & putt+ me out ( 8 
ap>tm5t by ! %\ld]s1 %ut ! door on me4  
,i dep>t$ triumphant1 z if ,i _h ga9$ ! 
greate/ victory1 & fe>ful ( su/a9+ a    
second combat ev5 _h ! +ratitude to     
leave ! h\se )\t ?ank+ ! abbe = 8       
k9dness4  ,to =m a j conception ( my    
delirium at t mom5t1 ! excess to :i* my 
he>t is subject to be heat$ by ! mo/    
trifl+ incid5ts1 & ! ardor ) :i* my     
imag9ation seizes on ! mo/ attractive   
objects %\ld be conceiv$4 ,at ^! times1 
plans ! mo/ ridicul\s1 *ildi%1 & void ( 
s5se1 flatt] my favorite idea1 & p]suade
 me t x is reasonable to sacrifice      
ev]y?+ to ! possession ( x4 ,w\ld x be  
believ$1 t :5 ne> n9ete51 any "o c\ld be
 s /upid z to build 8 hopes ( future    
subsi/5ce on an empty phial8 ,= example3
  ,! ,abbe de ,gauvon _h made me a      
pres5t1 "s weeks be=e1 ( a v pretty h]on
 f\nta91 ) :i* ,i 0 highly delight$4    
,play+ ) ?is toy1 & speak+ ( our        

dep>ture1 ! sage ,bacle & myself ?\ght x
 might be ( inf9ite advantage1 & enable 
u to l5g!n our j\rney4 ,:at 9 ! _w 0 s  
curi\s z a h]on f\nta98 ,?is idea 0 !   
f\ndation on :i* we built our future    
=tune3 we 7 to assemble ! c\ntry p 9 e  
village we might pass ?r\gh1 & delight  
!m ) ! sight ( x1 :5 fea/+ & good *e]   
w\ld be sure to p\r on u abundantly2 =  
we 7 bo? firmly p]suad$1 t provisions   
c\ld co/ no?+ to ^? :o grew & ga!r$ !m1 
& if !y did n /uff travell]s1 x 0       
d[nright ill-nature4  ,we pictur$ 9 all 
p>ts ent]ta9m5ts & w$d+s1 reckon+ t )\t 
any exp5se b w9d f our lungs1 & ! wat] (
 our f\nta91 we %\ld be ma9ta9$ ?r\gh   
,pi$mont1 ,savoy1 ,france1 & inde$1 all 
! _w ov]4 ,!re 0 no end to our project$ 
travels1 & we imm$iately direct$ our    
c\rse nor?w>d1 r = ! pleasure ( cross+ !
 ,alps1 ?an f a suppos$ necessity ( be+ 
oblig$ to /op at any place4  ,su* 0 !   
plan on :i* ,i set out1 ab&on+ )\t      
regret1 my preceptors1 /udies1 & hopes1 
) ! almo/ c]ta9 atta9m5t ( a =tune1 to  

lead ! life ( a real vagabond4 ,f>ewell 
to ! capital2 adieu to ! c\rt1 ambition1
 love1 ! fair1 & all ! great adv5tures  
into :i* hope _h l$ me dur+ ! prec$+    
ye>6 ,i dep>t$ ) my f\nta9 & my fri5d   
,bacle1 a purse lightly furni%$1 b a    
he>t ov]-fl[+ ) pleasure1 & only ?9k+ h[
 to enjoy ! ext5sive felicity :i* ,i    
suppos$ my project encircl$4  ,?is      
extravagant j\rney 0 p]=m$ almo/ z      
agreeably z ,i _h expect$1 ?\gh n       
exactly on ! same plan2 n b our f\nta9  
highly amus$ ! ho/ess & s]vants = "s    
m9utes at all ! ale-h\ses :]e we halt$1 
yet we f\nd x equally necess>y to pay on
 our dep>ture2 b t gave u no conc]n1 z  
we nev] ?\ght ( dep5d+ on x entirely    
until our money %\ld be exp5d$4 ,an     
accid5t sp>$ u t tr\ble1 our f\nta9 0   
brok5 ne> ,bramant1 & 9 good "t1 = we   
bo? felt 7?\gh )\t d>+ to own x to ea*  
o!r7 t we began to be we>y ( x4 ,?is    
mis=tune r5d]$ u gay] ?an ev]2 we laugh$
 he>tily at our gidd9ess 9 hav+ =gott5 t
 our clo!s & %oes w\ld we> out1 or tru/+

 to r5ew !m by ! play ( our f\nta94 ,we 
cont9u$ our j\rney z m]rily z we _h     
begun x1 only draw+ fa/] t[>ds t        
t]m9ation :]e our dra9$ purses made x   
necess>y = u to arrive4  ,at ,*amb]y ,i 
became p5sive2 n = ! folly ,i _h        
committ$1 = nev] did any "o ?9k less ( !
 pa/1 b on acc\nt ( ! reception ,i %\ld 
meet ) f ,madam de ,w>5s2 = ,i look$ on 
h] h\se z my pat]nal home4 ,i _h writt5 
h] an acc\nt ( my reception at ! ,c\nt  
de ,gauvon's2 %e knew my expectancies1  
&1 9 congratulat+ me on my good =tune1  
_h add$ "s wise lessons on ! return ,i  
ought to make = ! k9dness ) :i* !y      
treat$ me4 ,%e look$ on my =tune z      
already made1 if n de/roy$ by my own    
neglig5ce2 :at !n w\ld %e say on my     
arrival8 = x nev] ent]$ my m9d t %e     
might %ut ! door aga9/ me1 b ,i dread$ !
 uneas9ess ,i might give h]2 ,i dread$  
h] reproa*es1 to me m w\nd+ ?an want2 ,i
 resolv$ to be> all 9 sil5ce1 &1 if     
possible to appease h]4 ,i n[ saw no?+ b
 ,madam de ,w>5s 9 ! :ole univ]se1 & to 

live 9 disgrace ) h] 0 impossible4  ,i 0
 mo/ conc]n$ ab\t my companion1 :om ,i  
did n wi% to (f5d1 & fe>$ ,i %\ld n     
easily get rid (4 ,i prefac$ ?is        
sep>ation by an affect$ coldness dur+ ! 
la/ day's j\rney4 ,! drole und]/ood me  
p]fectly2 9 fact1 he 0 r giddy ?an      
defici5t 9 po9t ( s5se--,i expect$ he   
w\ld h be5 hurt at my incon/ancy1 b ,i 0
 q mi/ak52 no?+ affect$ my fri5d ,bacle1
 = h>dly _h we set foot 9 t[n1 on our   
arrival 9 ,annecy1 be=e he said1 ,y are 
n[ at home1--embrac$--bade me           
adieu--turn$ on 8 heel1 & disappe>$2 nor
 h ,i ev] he>d ( him s9ce4  ,h[ did my  
he>t beat z ,i approa*$ ! habitation (  
,madam de ,w>5s6 my legs trembl$ "u me1 
my eyes 7 cl\d$ ) a mi/1 ,i nei!r saw1  
he>d1 nor recollect$ any "o1 & 0 oblig$ 
frequ5tly to /op t ,i might draw brea?1 
& recall my bewild]$ s5ses4 ,0 x fe> ( n
 obta9+ t succor ,i /ood 9 ne$ (1 :i*   
agitat$ me to ?is degree8 ,at ! age ,i  
!n 01 does ! fe> ( p]i%+ ) hung] give   
su* al>ms8 ,no3 ,i decl>e ) z mu* tru? z

 pride1 t x 0 n 9 ! p[] ( int]e/ or     
indig5ce1 at any p]iod ( my life1 to    
exp& or contract my he>t4 ,9 ! c\rse ( a
 pa9ful life1 memorable = its           
vicissitudes1 frequ5tly de/itute ( an   
asylum1 & )\t bread1 ,i h contemplat$1 )
 equal indiff]5ce1 bo? opul5ce & mis]y4 
,9 want ,i might h begg$ or /ol51 z o!rs
 h done1 b nev] c\ld feel di/ress at be+
 r$uc$ to su* necessities4 ,few m5 h    
griev$ m ?an myself1 few h %$ s _m te>s2
 yet nev] did pov]ty1 or ! fe> ( fall+  
into x1 make me heave a sigh or moi/5 my
 eyelids4 ,my s\l1 9 despite ( =tune1   
has only be5 s5sible ( real good & evil1
 :i* did n dep5d on h]2 & frequ5tly1 :5 
9 possession ( ev]y?+ t c\ld make life  
pleas+1 ,i h be5 ! mo/ mis]able (       
mortals4  ,! fir/ glance ( ,madam de    
,w>5s bani%$ all my fe>s--my he>t leap$ 
at ! s\nd ( h] voice2 ,i ?rew myself at 
h] feet1 & 9 transports ( ! mo/ lively  
joy1 press$ my lips ^u h] h&4 ,i am     
ignorant :e!r %e _h receiv$ any rec5t   
in=mation ( me4 ,i discov]$ b little    

surprise on h] c\nt5ance1 & no sorr[4   
,poor *ild6 said %e1 9 an affectionate  
tone1 art ?\ "h aga98 ,i knew y 7 too "y
 = ?is j\rney2 ,i am v glad1 h[ev]1 t x 
did n turn out s bad z ,i appreh5d$4 ,%e
 !n made me rec\nt my hi/ory2 x 0 n     
long1 & ,i did x fai?fully3 suppress+   
only "s trifl+ circum/ances1 b on ! :ole
 nei!r sp>+ nor excus+ myself4  ,! "q 01
 :]e ,i c\ld lodge3 %e consult$ h] maid 
on ?is po9t--,i h>dly d>$ to brea! dur+ 
! delib]ation2 b :5 ,i he>d ,i 0 to     
sleep 9 ! h\se1 ,i c\ld sc>ce conta9 my 
joy2 & saw ! little bundle ,i br\ght )  
me c>ri$ into my de/9$ ap>tm5t ) mu* !  
same s5sations z ,/4 ,preux saw 8 *aise 
put up at ,madam de ,wolm>'s4 ,to       
complete all1 ,i _h ! satisfaction to   
f9d t ?is favor 0 n to be transitory2 = 
at a mom5t :5 !y ?\ght me att5tive to   
some?+ else1 ,i he>d ,madam de ,w>5s    
say1 ,!y may talk z !y please1 b s9ce   
,provid5ce has s5t him back1 ,i am      
det]m9$ n to ab&on him4  ,behold me1 !n1
 e/abli%$ at h] h\se2 n1 h[ev]1 t ,i    

date ! happie/ days ( my life f ?is     
p]iod1 b ?is s]v$ to prep>e me = !m4    
,?\gh t s5sibility ( he>t1 :i* enables u
 truly to enjoy our be+1 is ! "w (      
,nature1 & p]haps a m]e effect (        
organization1 yet x requires situations 
to unfold itself1 & )\t a c]ta9         
concurr5ce ( favorable circum/ances1 a  
man born ) ! mo/ acute s5sibility may g 
out ( ! _w )\t ev] hav+ be5 acqua9t$ ) 8
 own temp]am5t4 ,?is 0 my case till t   
"t1 & su* p]haps x might h rema9$ _h ,i 
nev] kn[n ,madam de ,w>5s1 or ev5 hav+  
kn[n h]1 _h ,i n rema9$ ) h] long en\gh 
to contract t pleas+ habit (            
affectionate s5tim5ts ) :i* %e inspir$  
me4 ,i d>e affirm1 t ^? :o only love1 d 
n feel ! mo/ *>m+ s5sations we are      
capable (3 ,i am acqua9t$ ) ano!r       
s5tim5t1 less impetu\s1 b a ?\s& times m
 delightful2 sometimes jo9$ ) love1 b   
frequ5tly sep>at$ f x4 ,?is feel+ is n  
simply fri5d%ip2 x is m en*ant+1 m t5d]2
 nor d ,i imag9e x c exi/ betwe5 p]sons 
( ! same sex2 at lea/ ,i h be5 truly a  

fri5d1 if ev] a man 01 & yet nev]       
exp]i5c$ x 9 t k9d4 ,?is di/9ction is n 
suffici5tly cle>1 b w become s h]eaft]3 
s5tim5ts are only di/+ui%able by _!     
effects4  ,madam de ,w>5s inhabit$ an   
old h\se1 b l>ge en\gh to h a h&some    
sp>e ap>tm5t1 :i* %e made h] draw+-room4
 ,i n[ occupi$ ?is *amb]1 :i* 0 9 !     
passage ,i h be=e m5tion$ z ! place (   
our fir/ meet+4 ,beyond ! brook & g>d5s 
0 a prospect ( ! c\ntry1 :i* 0 by no    
means un9t]e/+ to ! "y inhabitant1 be+ !
 fir/ "t1 s9ce my resid5ce at ,bossey1 t
 ,i _h se5 any?+ be=e my w9d[s b walls1 
ro(s1 or ! dirty /reet4 ,h[ pleas+ !n 0 
?is novelty6 x help$ to increase !      
t5d]ness ( my disposition1 = ,i look$ on
 ?is *>m+ l&scape z ! gift ( my de>     
patroness1 :o ,i c\ld almo/ fancy _h    
plac$ x !re on purpose = me4 ,peaceably 
seat$1 my eyes pursu$ h] amid/ ! fl[]s &
 ! v]dure2 h] *>ms seem$ to me conf\nd$ 
) ^? ( ! spr+2 my he>t1 till n[         
contract$1 "h f\nd means to exp& itself1
 & my sighs exhal$ freely 9 ?is *>m+    

retreat4  ,! magnific5ce ,i _h be5      
accu/om$ to at ,tur9 0 n to be f\nd at  
,madam de ,w>5s'1 b 9 lieu ( x !re 0    
neatness1 regul>ity1 & a patri>*al      
abundance1 :i* is seldom atta*$ to      
pomp\s o/5tation4 ,%e _h v little plate1
 no *9a1 no game 9 h] kit*51 or =eign   
w9es 9 h] cell>1 b bo? 7 well furni%$1 &
 at e "o's s]vice2 & h] c(fee1 ?\gh s]v$
 9 e>!nw>e cups1 0 excell5t4 ,:oev] came
 to h] h\se 0 invit$ to d9e !re1 & nev] 
did labor]1 mess5g]1 or travell]1 dep>t 
)\t refre%m5t4 ,h] family consi/$ ( a   
pretty *amb]maid f ,frib\rg1 nam$       
,m]c]et2 a valet f h] own c\ntry call$  
,claude ,anet 7( :om ,i %all speak      
h]eaft]71 a cook1 & two hir$ *airm5 :5  
%e visit$1 :i* seldom happ5$4 ,?is 0 a  
great deal to be done out ( two ?\s&    
livres a ye>2 yet1 ) good managem5t1 x  
might h be5 suffici5t 9 a c\ntry :]e l& 
is extremely good1 & money v sc>ce4     
,un=tunately1 economy 0 nev] h] favorite
 virtue2 %e contract$ debts--paid       
!m--?us h] money pass$ f h& to h& l a   

weav]'s %uttle1 & quickly disappe>$4  ,!
 arrangem5t ( h] h\sekeep+ 0 exactly :at
 ,i %\ld h *os51 & ,i %>$ x )           
satisfaction4 ,i 0 lea/ pleas$ ) !      
necessity ( rema9+ too long at table4   
,madam de ,w>5s 0 s mu* incommod$ ) !   
fir/ smell ( s\p or meat1 z almo/ to    
occasion fa9t+2 f ?is %e sl[ly recov]$1 
talk+ meantime1 & nev] attempt+ to eat =
 ! fir/ half h\r4 ,i c\ld h d9$ ?rice 9 
! "t1 & _h ev] f9i%$ my meal long be=e  
%e began2 ,i !n ate aga9 = company2 &   
?\gh by ?is means ,i usually d9$ twice1 
felt no inconv5i5ce f x4 ,9 %ort1 ,i 0  
p]fectly at my ease1 & ! happi] z my    
situation requir$ no c>e4 ,n be+ at ?is 
"t in/ruct$ 9 ! /ate ( h] f9ances1 ,i   
suppos$ h] means 7 adequate to h]       
exp5se2 & ?\gh ,i aft]w>ds f\nd ! same  
abundance1 yet :5 in/ruct$ 9 h] real    
situation1 f9d+ h] p5sion ev]           
anticipat$1 prev5t$ me f enjoy+ ! same  
tranquility4 ,=esight ) me has always   
embitt]$ enjoym5t2 9 va9 ,i saw !       
approa* ( mis=tunes1 ,i 0 nev] ! m      

likely to avoid !m4  ,f ! fir/ mom5t (  
our meet+1 ! s(te/ famili>ity 0 e/abli%$
 betwe5 u3 & 9 ! same degree x cont9u$  
dur+ ! re/ ( h] life4 ,*ild 0 my "n1    
,mamma 0 h]s1 & *ild & mamma we h ev]   
cont9u$1 ev5 aft] a numb] ( ye>s _h     
almo/ effac$ ! app>5t diff]5ce ( age    
betwe5 u4 ,i ?9k ^? names convey an     
exact idea ( our behavior1 ! simplicity 
( our mann]s1 & above all1 ! simil>ity (
 our dispositions4 ,to me %e 0 ! t5d]e/ 
( mo!rs1 ev] pref]r+ my welf>e to h] own
 pleasure2 & if my own satisfaction f\nd
 "s int]e/ 9 my atta*m5t to h]1 x 0 n to
 *ange its nature1 b only to r5d] x m   
exquisite1 & infatuate me ) ! *>m ( hav+
 a "m "y & h&some1 :om ,i 0 delight$ to 
c>ess3 ,i say lit]ally1 to c>ess1 = nev]
 did x ent] into h] imag9ation to d5y me
 ! t5d]e/ mat]nal kisses & ende>m5ts1 or
 into my he>t to abuse !m4 ,x w be said1
 at l5g? our connection 0 ( a diff]5t   
k9d3 ,i confess x2 b h pati5ce1 t w come
 9 its turn4  ,! sudd5 sight ( h]1 on   
our fir/ int]view1 0 ! only truly       

passionate mom5t %e ev] inspir$ me )2 & 
ev5 t 0 pr9cipally ! "w ( surprise4 ,)  
h] ,i _h nei!r transports nor desires1 b
 rema9$ 9 a ravi%+ calm1 s5sible ( a    
happ9ess ,i c\ld n def9e1 & ?us c\ld ,i 
h pass$ my :ole life1 or ev5 et]nity1   
)\t feel+ an in/ant ( uneas9ess4  ,%e 0 
! only p]son ) :om ,i nev] exp]i5c$ t   
want ( conv]sation1 :i* to me is s      
pa9ful to endure4 ,our tete-a-tetes 7 r 
an inexhau/ible *at ?an conv]sation1 :i*
 c\ld only conclude f int]ruption4 ,s f>
 f f9d+ disc\rse difficult1 ,i r ?\ght x
 a h>d%ip to be sil5t2 unless1 :5       
contemplat+ h] projects1 %e sunk into a 
rev]ie2 :5 ,i sil5tly let h] m$itate1 & 
gaz+ on h]1 0 ! happie/ ( m54 ,i _h     
ano!r s+ul> fancy1 :i* 0 t )\t pret5d+  
to ! favor ( a tete-a-tete1 ,i 0        
p]petually seek+ occasion to =m !m1     
enjoy+ su* opportunities ) rapture2 & :5
 importunate visitors broke 9 ^u u1 no  
matt] :e!r x 0 man or woman1 ,i w5t out 
murmur+1 n be+ able to rema9 a second>y 
object 9 h] company2 !n1 c\nt+ ! m9utes 

9 h] ante*amb]1 ,i us$ to curse ^!      
et]nal visitors1 ?9k+ x inconceivable h[
 !y c\ld f9d s mu* to say1 because ,i _h
 /ill m4  ,if ev] ,i felt ! full =ce (  
my atta*m5t1 x 0 :5 ,i did n see h]4 ,:5
 9 h] pres5ce1 ,i 0 only cont5t2 :5     
abs5t1 my uneas9ess rea*$ almo/ to      
melan*oly1 & a wi% to live ) h] gave me 
emotions ( t5d]ness ev5 to te>s4 ,nev]  
%all ,i =get "o great holiday1 :ile %e 0
 at vesp]s1 :5 ,i took a walk out ( !   
city1 my he>t full ( h] image1 & ! ard5t
 wi% to pass my life ) h]4 ,i c\ld      
easily en\gh see t at pres5t ?is 0      
impossible2 t ! happ9ess ,i enjoy$ w\ld 
be ( %ort duration1 & ?is idea gave to  
my contemplations a t9cture ( melan*oly1
 :i*1 h[ev]1 0 n gloomy1 b temp]$ ) a   
flatt]+ hope4 ,! r++ ( bells1 :i* ev]   
p>ticul>ly affects me1 ! s++ ( birds1 ! 
f95ess ( ! day1 ! beauty ( ! l&scape1 ! 
scatt]$ c\ntry h\ses1 among :i* 9 idea  
,i plac$ our future dwell+1 altoge!r    
/ruck me ) an impression s lively1 t5d]1
 melan*oly1 & p[]ful1 t ,i saw myself 9 

ec/asy transport$ into t happy "t &     
abode1 :]e my he>t1 possess+ all !      
felicity x c\ld desire1 might ta/e x )  
raptures inexpressible4  ,i nev]        
recollect to h enjoy$ ! future ) su* =ce
 ( illusions z at t "t2 & :at has       
p>ticul>ly /ruck me 9 ! recollection (  
?is rev]ie1 is t :5 realiz$1 ,i f\nd my 
situation exactly z ,i _h imag9$ x4 ,if 
ev] wak+ dream _h an appe>ance ( a      
prophetic vision1 x 0 assur$ly ?is2 ,i 0
 only deceiv$ 9 its imag9>y duration1 = 
days1 ye>s1 & life itself1 pass$ ideally
 9 p]fect tranquility1 :ile ! reality   
la/$ b a mom5t4 ,alas6 my mo/ durable   
happ9ess 0 b z a dream1 :i* ,i _h no    
soon] _h a glimpse (1 ?an ,i in/antly   
awoke4  ,i "k n :5 ,i %\ld h done1 if ,i
 0 to ent] into a detail ( all ! follies
 t affection = my de> ,madam de ,w>5s   
made me commit4 ,:5 abs5t f h]1 h[ (t5 h
 ,i kiss$ ! b$ on a supposition t %e _h 
slept !re2 ! curta9s & all ! furniture (
 my *amb]1 on recollect+ !y 7 h]s1 & t  
h] *>m+ h&s _h t\*$ !m2 nay1 ! floor    

itself1 :5 ,i consid]$ %e _h walk$ !re4 
,sometimes ev5 9 h] pres5ce1            
extravagancies escap$ me1 :i* only ! mo/
 viol5t passions seem$ capable (        
inspir+2 9 a ^w1 !re 0 b "o ess5tial    
diff]5ce to di/+ui% me f an absolute    
lov]1 & t p>ticul> r5d]s my situation   
almo/ inconceivable4  ,i _h return$ f   
,italy1 n absolutely z ,i w5t !re1 b z  
no "o ( my age1 p]haps1 ev] did be=e1   
be+ equally unacqua9t$ ) wom54 ,my ard5t
 con/itution _h f\nd res\rces 9 ^? means
 by :i* y\? ( my disposition sometimes  
pres]ve _! purity at ! exp5se ( heal?1  
vigor1 & frequ5tly ( life itself4 ,my   
local situation %\ld likewise be        
consid]$--liv+ ) a pretty woman1 *]i%+  
h] image 9 ! bottom ( my he>t1 see+ h]  
dur+ ! :ole day1 at night surr\nd$ )    
objects t recall$ h] incessantly to my  
remembrance1 & sleep+ 9 ! b$ :]e ,i knew
 %e _h slept4 ,:at a situation6 ,:o c   
read ?is )\t suppos+ me on ! br9k ( !   
grave8 ,b q ! contr>y2 t :i* might h    
ru9$ me1 act$ z a pres]vative1 at lea/ =

 a "t4 ,intoxicat$ ) ! *>m ( liv+ ) h]1 
) ! ard5t desire ( pass+ my life !re1   
abs5t or pres5t ,i saw 9 h] a t5d] "m1  
an amiable si/]1 a respect$ fri5d1 b    
no?+ m2 meantime1 h] image fill$ my     
he>t1 & left room f> no o!r object4 ,!  
extreme t5d]ness ) :i* %e inspir$ me    
exclud$ e o!r woman f my consid]ation1 &
 pres]v$ me f ! :ole sex3 9 a ^w1 ,i 0  
virtu\s1 because ,i lov$ h]4 ,let ^!    
p>ticul>s1 :i* ,i rec\nt b indiff]5tly1 
be consid]$1 & !n let any "o judge :at  
k9d ( atta*m5t ,i _h = h]3 = my "p1 all 
,i c say1 is1 t if x hi!rto appe>s      
extraord9>y1 x w appe> mu* m s 9 !      
sequel4  ,my "t pass$ 9 ! mo/ agreeable 
mann]1 ?\gh occupi$ 9 a way :i* 0 by no 
means calculat$ to please me2 su* z hav+
 projects to dige/1 bills to write fair1
 receipts to transcribe1 h]bs to pick1  
drugs to p\nd1 or di/illations to att5d2
 & 9 ! mid/ ( all ?is1 came cr[ds (     
travell]s1 begg>s1 & visitors ( all     
d5om9ations4 ,"s times x 0 necess>y to  
conv]se at ! same "t ) a soldi]1 an     

apo!c>y1 a preb5d>y1 a f9e lady1 & a lay
 bro!r4 ,i grumbl$1 swore1 & wi%$ all   
?is tr\blesome m$ley at ! devil1 :ile %e
 seem$ to enjoy x1 laugh+ at my *agr9   
till ! te>s ran d[n h] *eeks4 ,:at      
excit$ h] mir? /ill m1 0 to see t my    
ang] 0 increas$ by n be+ able myself to 
refra9 f laught]4 ,^! little int]vals1 9
 :i* ,i enjoy$ ! pleasure ( grumbl+1 7  
*>m+2 & if1 dur+ ! dispute1 ano!r       
importunate visitor arriv$1 %e w\ld add 
to h] amusem5t by malici\sly prolong+ ! 
visit1 meantime ca/+ glances at me = :i*
 ,i c\ld almo/ h beat h]2 nor c\ld %e   
)\t difficulty refra9 f laught] on see+ 
my con/ra9$ polit5ess1 ?\gh e mom5t     
glanc+ at h] ! look ( a fury1 :ile1 ev5 
9 spite ( myself1 ,i ?\ght ! sc5e truly 
div]t+4  ,all ?is1 )\t be+ pleas+ 9     
itself1 contribut$ to amuse1 because x  
made up a "p ( a life :i* ,i ?\ght      
delightful4 ,no?+ t 0 p]=m$ ar\nd me1   
no?+ t ,i 0 oblig$ to d1 suit$ my ta/e1 
b ev]y?+ suit$ my he>t2 & ,i believe1 at
 l5g?1 ,i %\ld h lik$ ! /udy ( m$ic9e1  

_h n my natural di/a/e to x p]petually  
engag$ u 9 :imsical sc5es1 t prev5t$ my 
?9k+ ( x 9 a s]i\s light4 ,x 01 p]haps1 
! fir/ "t t ?is art produc$ mir?4 ,i    
pret5d$ to di/+ui% a physical book by   
its smell1 & :at 0 m div]t+1 0 seldom   
mi/ak54 ,madam de ,w>5s made me ta/e !  
mo/ nause\s drugs2 9 va9 ,i ran1 or     
endeavor$ to def5d myself2 spite (      
resi/ance or wry faces1 spite ( my      
/ruggles1 or ev5 ( my tee?1 :5 ,i saw h]
 *>m+ f+]s approa* my lips1 ,i 0 oblig$ 
to give up ! conte/4  ,illu/ration3     
#jjih  ,:5 %ut up 9 an ap>tm5t ) all h] 
m$ical app>atus1 any "o :o _h he>d u    
runn+ & %\t+ amid/ peals ( laught] w\ld 
r h imag9$ we _h be5 act+ a f>ce ?an    
prep>+ opiates or elixirs4  ,my "t1     
h[ev]1 0 n entirely pass$ 9 ^! fool]ies2
 9 ! ap>tm5t :i* ,i occupi$ ,i f\nd a   
few books3 !re 0 ! ,spectator1          
,puff5dorf1 ,/4 ,ev]emond1 & ! ,h5riade4
 ,?\gh ,i _h n my old passion = books1  
yet ,i amus$ myself ) read+ a "p ( !m4  
,! ,spectator 0 p>ticul>ly pleas+ &     

s]viceable to me4 ,! ,abbe de ,gauvon _h
 taught me to read less eag]ly1 & ) a   
great] degree ( att5tion1 :i* r5d]$ my  
/udies m s]viceable4 ,i accu/om$ myself 
to reflect on elocution & ! elegance (  
composition2 ex]cis+ myself 9 disc]n+   
pure ,fr5* f my prov9cial idiom4 ,=     
example1 ,i correct$ an or?ographical   
fault 7:i* ,i _h 9 common ) all         
,g5evese7 by ^! two l9es ( ! ,h5riade3  
,soit qu' un anci5t respect p\r le sang 
de leurs maitres1      ,p>lat encore p\r
 lui dans le coeur de ces traitres  ,i 0
 /ruck ) ! ^w 'p>lat'1 & f\nd a 't' 0   
necess>y to =m ! ?ird p]son ( !         
subjunctive1 :]eas ,i _h always writt5 &
 pron\nc$ x p>la1 z 9 ! pres5t ( !      
indicative4  ,sometimes my /udies 7 !   
subject ( conv]sation ) ,madam de ,w>5s2
 sometimes ,i read to h]1 9 :i* ,i f\nd 
great satisfaction2 & z ,i endeavor$ to 
read well1 x 0 extremely s]viceable to  
me4 ,i h already obs]v$ t h] m9d 0      
cultivat$2 h] und]/&+ 0 at ?is "t 9 its 
m]idian4 ,sev]al p ( le>n+ hav+ be5     

assidu\s to +ratiate !mselves1 _h taught
 h] to di/+ui% works ( m]it2 b h] ta/e  
7if ,i may s express myself7 0 r        
,prote/ant2 ev] speak+ w>mly ( ,bayle1 &
 highly e/eem+ ,/4 ,evremond1 ?\gh long 
s9ce almo/ =gott5 9 ,france3 b ?is did n
 prev5t h] hav+ a ta/e = lit]ature1 or  
express+ h] ?\ghts ) elegance4 ,%e _h   
be5 br\ght up ) polite company1 & com+  
"y to ,savoy1 by associat+ ) p ( ! be/  
fa%ion1 _h lo/ ! affect$ mann]s ( h] own
 c\ntry1 :]e ! ladies mi/ake wit = s5se1
 & only speak 9 epigram4  ,?\gh %e _h   
se5 ! c\rt b sup]ficially1 t glance 0   
suffici5t to give h] a compet5t idea (  
x2 & not)/&+ secret jeal\sies & !       
murmurs excit$ by h] conduct & runn+ 9  
debt1 %e ev] pres]v$ fri5ds !re1 & nev] 
lo/ h] p5sion4 ,%e knew ! _w1 & 0       
useful4 ,?is 0 h] favorite !me 9 our    
conv]sations1 & 0 directly opposite to  
my *im]ical ideas1 ?\gh ! k9d (         
in/ruction ,i p>ticul>ly _h occasion =4 
,we read ,bruy]e toge!r2 he pleas$ h] m 
?an ,ro*ef\cault1 :o is a dull1         

melan*oly au?or1 p>ticul>ly to y\?1 :o  
are n fond ( contemplat+ man z he really
 is4 ,9 moraliz+ %e sometimes bewild]$  
h]self by ! l5g? ( h] disc\rse2 b by    
kiss+ h] lips or h& f "t to "t ,i 0     
easily consol$1 & nev] f\nd !m we>isome4
  ,?is life 0 too delightful to be la/+2
 ,i felt ?is1 & ! uneas9ess t ?\ght gave
 me 0 ! only ?+ t di/urb$ my enjoym5t4  
,ev5 9 playfulness %e /udi$ my          
disposition1 obs]v$ & int]rogat$ me1 =m+
 projects = my future =tune1 :i* ,i c\ld
 readily h disp5s$ )4 ,happily x 0 n    
suffici5t to "k my disposition1         
incl9ations & tal5ts2 x 0 likewise      
necess>y to f9d a situation 9 :i* !y    
w\ld be useful1 & ?is 0 n ! "w ( a day4 
,ev5 ! prejudices ?is good woman _h     
conceiv$ 9 favor ( my m]it put (f ! "t (
 call+ x into action1 by r5d]+ h] m     
difficult 9 ! *oice ( means2 ?us 7?anks 
to ! good op9ion %e ent]ta9$ ( me71     
ev]y?+ answ]$ to my wi%2 b a *ange soon 
happ5$ :i* put a p]iod to my            
tranquility4  ,a relation ( ,madam de   

,w>5s1 nam$ ,m4 d',aubonne1 came to see 
h]2 a man ( great und]/&+ & intrigue1   
be+1 l h]1 fond ( projects1 ?\gh c>eful 
n to ru9 himself by !m4 ,he _h (f]$     
,c>d9al ,fleury a v compact plan = a    
lott]y1 :i*1 h[ev]1 _h n be5 approv$ (1 
& he 0 n[ go+ to propose x to ! c\rt (  
,tur91 :]e x 0 accept$ & put into       
execution4 ,he rema9$ "s "t at ,annecy1 
:]e he fell 9 love ) ! ,int5dant's lady1
 :o 0 v amiable1 mu* to my ta/e & ! only
 p]son ,i saw ) pleasure at ! h\se (    
,madam de ,w>5s4 ,m4 d',aubonne saw me1 
,i 0 /rongly recomm5d$ by 8 relation2 he
 promis$1 !re=e1 to "q & see :at ,i 0   
fit =1 &1 if he f\nd me capable1 to seek
 me a situation4 ,madam de ,w>5s s5t me 
to him two or ?ree morn+s1 "u pret5se ( 
messages1 )\t acqua9t+ me ) h] real     
int5tion4 ,he spoke to me gayly1 on     
v>i\s subjects1 )\t any appe>ance (     
obs]vation2 8 famili>ity pres5tly set me
 talk+1 :i* by 8 *e]ful & je/+ mann] he 
enc\rag$ )\t re/ra9t--,i 0 absolutely   
*>m$ ) him4 ,! result ( 8 obs]vations 01

 t not)/&+ ! animation ( my c\nt5ance1 &
 promis+ ext]ior1 if n absolutely silly1
 ,i 0 a lad ( v little s5se1 & )\t ideas
 ( le>n+2 9 f9e1 v ignorant 9 all       
respects1 & if ,i c\ld arrive at be+    
curate ( "s village1 x 0 ! utmo/ honor  
,i ought ev] to aspire to4 ,su* 0 !     
acc\nt he gave ( me to ,madam de ,w>5s4 
,?is 0 n ! fir/ "t su* an op9ion _h be5 
=m$ ( me1 nei!r 0 x ! la/2 ! judgm5t (  
,m4 ,mass]on hav+ be5 repeat$ly         
confirm$4  ,! cause ( ^! op9ions is too 
mu* connect$ ) my "* n to ne$ a p>ticul>
 explanation2 = x w n be suppos$ t ,i c 
9 consci5ce subscribe to !m2 & ) all    
possible imp>tiality1 :atev] ,m4        
,mass]on1 ,m4 d',aubonne & _m o!rs may h
 said1 ,i _c help ?9k+ !m mi/ak54  ,two 
?+s v opposite1 unite 9 me1 & 9 a mann] 
:i* ,i _c myself conceive4 ,my          
disposition is extremely ard5t1 my      
passions lively & impetu\s1 yet my ideas
 are produc$ sl[ly1 ) great emb>rassm5t 
& aft] mu* aft]?\ght4 ,x might be said  
my he>t & und]/&+ d n belong to ! same  

individual4 ,a s5tim5t takes possession 
( my s\l ) ! rapidity ( lightn+1 b      
in/ead ( illum9at+1 x dazzles & conf\nds
 me2 ,i feel all1 b see no?+2 ,i am w>m1
 b /upid2 to ?9k ,i mu/ be cool4 ,:at is
 a/oni%+1 my conception is cle> &       
p5etrat+1 if n hurri$3 ,i c make        
excell5t impromptus at leisure1 b on !  
in/ant1 c\ld nev] say or d any?+ wor?   
notice4 ,i c\ld hold a tol]able         
conv]sation by ! po/1 z !y say !        
,spani>ds play at *ess1 & :5 ,i read t  
anecdote ( a duke ( ,savoy1 :o turn$    
himself r\nd1 :ile on a j\rney1 to cry  
out 'a votre gorge1 m>*& de ,p>is6' ,i  
said1 ,"h is a trait ( my "*6  ,?is     
sl[ness ( ?\ght1 jo9$ to vivacity (     
feel+1 ,i am n only s5sible ( 9         
conv]sation1 b ev5 alone4 ,:5 ,i write1 
my ideas are arrang$ ) ! utmo/          
difficulty4 ,!y glance on my imag9ation 
& f]m5t till !y discompose1 heat1 & br+ 
on a palpitation2 dur+ ?is /ate (       
agitation1 ,i see no?+ prop]ly1 _c write
 a s+le ^w1 & mu/ wait till x is ov]4   

,ins5sibly ! agitation subsides1 ! *aos 
acquires =m1 & ea* circum/ance takes its
 prop] place4 ,h y nev] se5 an op]a 9   
,italy8 :]e dur+ ! *ange ( sc5e ev]y?+  
is 9 confusion1 ! decorations are       
int]m+l$1 & any "o w\ld suppose t all   
w\ld be ov]?r[n2 yet by little & little1
 ev]y?+ is arrang$1 no?+ appe>s want+1 &
 we feel surpris$ to see ! tumult       
succe$$ by ! mo/ delightful spectacle4  
,?is is a resemblance ( :at passes 9 my 
bra9 :5 ,i attempt to write2 _h ,i      
always wait$ till t confusion 0 pa/1 &  
!n pa9t$1 9 _! natural beauties1 !      
objects t _h pres5t$ !mselves1 few      
au?ors w\ld h surpass$ me4  ,!nce arises
 ! extreme difficulty ,i f9d 9 writ+2 my
 manuscripts1 blott$1 scrat*$1 & sc>cely
 legible1 atte/ ! tr\ble !y co/ me2 nor 
is !re "o ( !m b ,i h be5 oblig$ to     
transcribe f\r or five times be=e x w5t 
to press4 ,nev] c\ld ,i d any?+ :5 plac$
 at a table1 p5 9 h&2 x mu/ be walk+    
among ! rocks1 or 9 ! woods2 x is at    
night 9 my b$1 dur+ my wakeful h\rs1 t  

,i compose2 x may be judg$ h[ sl[ly1    
p>ticul>ly = a man :o has n ! advantage 
( v]bal memory1 & nev] 9 8 life c\ld    
reta9 by he>t six v]ses4 ,"s ( my p]iods
 ,i h turn$ & return$ 9 my head five or 
six nights be=e !y 7 fit to be put to   
pap]3 ?us x is t ,i succe$ bett] 9 works
 t require labori\s att5tion1 ?an ^? t  
appe> m trivial1 su* z lett]s1 9 :i* ,i 
c\ld nev] succe$1 & be+ oblig$ to write 
"o is to me a s]i\s puni%m5t2 nor c ,i  
express my ?\ghts on ! mo/ trivial      
subjects )\t x co/+ me h\rs ( fatigue4  
,if ,i write imm$iately :at /rikes me1  
my lett] is a long1 confus$1 unconnect$ 
/r+ ( expressions1 :i*1 :5 read1 c h>dly
 be und]/ood4  ,x is n only pa9ful to me
 to give language to my ideas b ev5 to  
receive !m4 ,i h /udi$ mank9d1 & ?9k    
myself a tol]able obs]v]1 yet ,i "k no?+
 f :at ,i see1 b all f :at ,i rememb]1  
nor h ,i und]/&+ except 9 my            
recollections4 ,f all t is said1 f all t
 passes 9 my pres5ce1 ,i feel no?+1     
conceive no?+1 ! ext]ior sign be+ all t 

/rikes me2 aft]w>ds x returns to my     
remembrance2 ,i recollect ! place1 ! "t1
 ! mann]1 ! look1 & ge/ure1 n a         
circum/ance escapes me2 x is !n1 f :at  
has be5 done or said1 t ,i imag9e :at   
has be5 ?\ght1 & ,i h r>ely f\nd myself 
mi/ak54  ,s little ma/] ( my und]/&+ :5 
alone1 let any "o judge :at ,i mu/ be 9 
conv]sation1 :]e to speak ) any degree (
 ease y mu/ ?9k ( a ?\s& ?+s at ! same  
"t3 ! b>e idea t ,i %\ld =get some?+    
mat]ial w\ld be suffici5t to intimidate 
me4 ,nor c ,i compreh5d h[ p c h !      
confid5ce to conv]se 9 l>ge companies1  
:]e ea* ^w mu/ pass 9 review be=e s _m1 
& :]e x w\ld be requisite to "k _!      
sev]al *>act]s & hi/ories to avoid say+ 
:at might give (f5ce4 ,9 ?is p>ticul>1  
^? :o frequ5t ! _w w\ld h a great       
advantage1 z !y "k bett] :]e to be      
sil5t1 & c speak ) great] confid5ce2 yet
 ev5 !y sometimes let fall absurdities2 
9 :at pr$icam5t !n mu/ he be :o drops z 
x 7 f ! cl\ds8 ,x is almo/ impossible he
 %\ld speak t5 m9utes ) impunity4  ,9 a 

tete-a-tete !re is a /ill worse         
inconv5i5ce2 t is2 ! necessity ( talk+  
p]petually1 at lea/1 ! necessity (      
answ]+ :5 spok5 to1 & keep+ up !        
conv]sation :5 ! o!r is sil5t4 ,?is     
insupportable con/ra9t is alone         
suffici5t to disgu/ me ) v>iety1 = ,i _c
 =m an idea ( a great] torm5t ?an be+   
oblig$ to speak cont9ually )\t "t =     
recollection4 ,i "k n :e!r x proce$s f  
my mortal hatr$ ( all con/ra9t2 b if ,i 
am oblig$ to speak1 ,i infallibly talk  
nons5se4 ,:at is /ill worse1 in/ead (   
le>n+ h[ to be sil5t :5 ,i h absolutely 
no?+ to say1 x is g5]ally at su* times t
 ,i h a viol5t incl9ation3 & endeavor+  
to pay my debt ( conv]sation z spe$ily z
 possible1 ,i ha/ily gabble a numb] (   
words )\t ideas1 happy :5 !y only *ance 
to mean no?+2 ?us endeavor+ to conqu] or
 hide my incapacity1 ,i r>ely fail to %[
 x4  ,i ?9k ,i h said en\gh to %[ t1    
?\gh n a fool1 ,i h frequ5tly pass$ =   
"o1 ev5 among p capable ( judg+2 ?is 0 !
 m vexati\s1 z my physiognomy & eyes    

promis$ o!rwise1 & expectation be+      
fru/rat$1 my /upidity appe>$ ! m %ock+4 
,?is detail1 :i* a p>ticul> occasion    
gave bir? to1 w n be useless 9 ! sequel1
 be+ a key to _m ( my actions :i* might 
o!rwise appe> unacc\ntable2 & h be5     
attribut$ to a savage humor ,i d n      
possess4 ,i love society z mu* z any    
man1 0 ,i n c]ta9 to exhibit myself 9 x1
 n only disadvantage\sly1 b totally     
diff]5t f :at ,i really am4 ,! plan ,i h
 adopt$ ( writ+ & retirem5t1 is :at     
exactly suits me4 ,_h ,i be5 pres5t1 my 
wor? w\ld nev] h be5 kn[n1 no "o w\ld   
ev5 h suspect$ x2 ?us x 0 ) ,madam      
,dup91 a woman ( s5se1 9 ^: h\se ,i liv$
 = sev]al ye>s2 inde$1 %e has (t5 s9ce  
own$ x to me3 ?\gh on ! :ole ?is rule   
may be subject to "s exceptions4 ,i %all
 n[ return to my hi/ory4  ,! e/imate (  
my tal5ts ?us fix$1 ! situation ,i 0    
capable ( promis$1 ! "q only rema9$ h[  
to r5d] me capable ( fulfill+ my de/9$  
vocation4 ,! pr9ciple difficulty 01 ,i  
did n "k ,lat9 en\gh = a prie/4 ,madam  

de ,w>5s det]m9$ to h me taught = "s "t 
at ! sem9>y1 & accord+ly spoke ( x to ! 
,sup]ior1 :o 0 a ,laz>i/1 call$ ,m4     
,gras1 a good-natur$ little fell[1 half 
bl9d1 meagre1 gray-hair$1 ins5sible1 & !
 lea/ p$antic ( any ,laz>i/ ,i ev] knew2
 :i*1 9 fact1 is say+ no great matt]4   
,he frequ5tly visit$ ,madam de ,w>5s1 :o
 ent]ta9$1 c>ess$1 & made mu* ( him1    
lett+ him sometimes lace h] /ays1 an    
(fice he 0 will+ en\gh to p]=m4 ,:ile   
?us employ$1 %e w\ld run ab\t ! room1   
?is way or t1 z occasion happ5$ to call 
h]4 ,drawn by ! lace1 ,monsieur !       
,sup]ior foll[$1 grumbl+1 repeat+ at e  
mom5t1 ,pray1 madam1 d /& /ill2 ! :ole  
=m+ a sc5e truly div]t+4  ,m4 ,gras     
will+ly ass5t$ to ! project ( ,madam de 
,w>5s1 &1 = a v mod]ate p5sion1 *>g$    
himself ) ! c>e ( in/ruct+ me4 ,! cons5t
 ( ! bi%op 0 all t rema9$ necess>y1 :o n
 only grant$ x1 b (f]$ to pay ! p5sion1 
p]mitt+ me to reta9 ! secul> habit till 
!y c\ld judge by a trial :at success !y 
might h 9 my improvem5t4  ,:at a *ange6 

b ,i 0 oblig$ to submit2 ?\gh ,i w5t to 
! sem9>y ) ab\t ! same spirits z if !y  
_h be5 tak+ me to execution4 ,:at a     
melan*oly abode6 especially = "o :o left
 ! h\se ( a pretty woman4 ,i c>ri$ "o   
book ) me1 t ,i _h borr[$ ( ,madam de   
,w>5s1 & f\nd x a capital res\rce6 x w n
 be easily conjectur$ :at k9d ( book ?is
 0--x 0 a music book4 ,among ! tal5ts %e
 _h cultivat$1 music 0 n =gott52 %e _h a
 tol]able good voice1 sang agreeably1 & 
play$ on ! h>psi*ord4 ,%e _h tak5 ! pa9s
 to give me "s lessons 9 s++1 ?\gh be=e 
,i 0 v un9=m$ 9 t respect1 h>dly kn[+ ! 
music ( our psalms4 ,eight or t5        
int]rupt$ lessons1 f> f putt+ me 9 a    
condition to improve myself1 did n tea* 
me half ! notes2 not)/&+1 ,i _h su* a   
passion = ! art1 t ,i det]m9$ to ex]cise
 myself alone4 ,! book ,i took 0 n ( !  
mo/ easy k9d2 x 0 ! cantatas (          
,cl]ambault4 ,x may be conceiv$ ) :at   
att5tion & p]sev]ance ,i /udi$1 :5 ,i   
in=m my read]1 t )\t kn[+ any?+ (       
transposition or quantity1 ,i contriv$  

to s+ ) tol]able correctness1 ! fir/    
recitative & air 9 ! cantata ( ,alpheus 
& ,are?usa2 x is true ?is air is1 s     
ju/ly set1 t x is only necess>y to      
recite ! v]ses 9 _! j measure to cat* ! 
music4  ,!re 0 at ! sem9>y a cur/       
,laz>i/1 :o by und]tak+ to tea* me ,lat9
 made me dete/ x4 ,8 hair 0 co>se1 black
 & greasy1 8 face l ^? =m$ 9 g+]bread1  
he _h ! voice ( a buffalo1 ! c\nt5ance (
 an owl1 & ! bri/les ( a bo> 9 lieu ( a 
be>d2 8 smile 0 s>donic1 & 8 limbs play$
 l ^? ( a puppet mov$ by wires4 ,i h    
=gott5 8 odi\s "n1 b ! remembrance ( 8  
frightful precise c\nt5ance rema9s ) me1
 ?\gh h>dly c ,i recollect x )\t        
trembl+2 especially :5 ,i call to m9d   
our meet+ 9 ! gall]y1 :5 he graci\sly   
advanc$ 8 fil?y squ>e cap z a sign = me 
to ent] 8 ap>tm5t1 :i* appe>$ m dismal 9
 my appreh5sion ?an a dungeon4 ,let any 
"o judge ! contra/ betwe5 my pres5t ma/]
 & ! elegant ,abbe de ,gauvon4  ,_h ,i  
rema9$ two mon?s at ! m]cy ( ?is mon/]1 
,i am c]ta9 my head c\ld n h su/a9$ x2 b

 ! good ,m4 ,gras1 p]ceiv+ ,i 0         
melan*oly1 grew ?91 & did n eat my      
victuals1 guess$ ! cause ( my uneas9ess 
7:i* inde$ 0 n v difficult7 & tak+ me f 
! claws ( ?is bea/1 by ano!r yet m /rik+
 contra/1 plac$ me ) ! g5tle/ ( m51 a "y
 ,faucign]an abbe1 nam$ ,m4 ,gati]1 :o  
/udi$ at ! sem9>y1 & out ( complaisance 
= ,m4 ,gras1 & humanity to myself1 sp>$ 
"s "t f ! prosecution ( 8 own /udies 9  
ord] to direct m9e4 ,nev] did ,i see a m
 pleas+ c\nt5ance ?an t ( ,m4 ,gati]4   
,he 0 fair complexion$1 8 be>d r incl9$ 
to r$2 8 behavior l t ( ! g5]ality ( 8  
c\ntrym5 7:o "u a co>s5ess ( c\nt5ance  
conceal mu* und]/&+71 m>k$ 9 him a truly
 s5sible & affectionate s\l4 ,9 8 l>ge  
blue eyes !re 0 a mixture ( s(tness1    
t5d]ness1 & melan*oly1 :i* made x       
impossible to see him )\t feel+ "o's    
self int]e/$4 ,f ! looks & mann] ( ?is  
"y abbe he might h be5 suppos$ to h     
=ese5 8 de/9y1 & t he 0 born to be      
unhappy4  ,8 disposition did n belie 8  
physiognomy3 full ( pati5ce &           

complaisance1 he r appe>$ to /udy ) ?an 
to in/ruct me4 ,s mu* 0 n necess>y to   
make me love him1 8 pr$ecessor hav+     
r5d]$ t v easy2 yet1 not)/&+ all ! "t he
 be/[$ on me1 not)/&+ our mutual good   
incl9ations1 & t 8 plan ( tea*+ 0       
excell5t1 ) mu* labor1 ,i made little   
progress4 ,x is v s+ul>1 t ) a cle>     
conception ,i c\ld nev] le>n mu* f ma/]s
 except my fa!r & ,m4 ,lamb]ci]2 !      
little ,i "k besides ,i h le>n$ alone1 z
 w be se5 h]eaft]4 ,my _s1 impati5t ( e 
species ( con/ra9t1 _c submit to ! law (
 ! mom5t2 ev5 ! fe> ( n le>n+ prev5ts my
 be+ att5tive1 & a dread ( we>y+ ^? :o  
tea*1 makes me feign to und]/& !m2 ?us  
!y proce$ fa/] ?an ,i c compreh5d1 & !  
conclusion is ,i le>n no?+4 ,my und]/&+ 
mu/ take its own "t & _c submit to t (  
ano!r4  ,! "t ( ord9ation be+ arriv$1   
,m4 ,gati] return$ to 8 prov9ce z       
deacon1 leav+ me ) gratitude1 atta*m5t1 
& sorr[ = 8 loss4 ,! v[s ,i made = him 7
 no m answ]$ ?an ^? ,i (f]$ = myself4   
,"s ye>s aft]1 ,i le>n$1 t be+ vic> ( a 

p>i%1 a "y girl 0 ) *ild by him1 be+ !  
only "o 7?\gh he possess$ a v t5d] he>t7
 ) :om he 0 ev] 9 love4 ,?is 0 a        
dreadful sc&al 9 a diocese sev]ely      
gov]n$1 :]e ! prie/s 7be+ "u good       
regulation7 ought nev] to h             
*ildr5--except by m>ri$ wom54 ,hav+     
infr+$ ?is politic law1 he 0 put 9      
prison1 defam$1 & driv5 f 8 b5efice4 ,i 
"k n :e!r x 0 ev] aft] 9 8 p[] to       
ree/abli% 8 affairs2 b ! remembrance ( 8
 mis=tunes1 :i* 7 deeply engrav5 on my  
he>t1 /ruck me :5 ,i wrote ,emilius1 &  
unit+ ,m4 ,gati] ) ,m4 ,gaime1 ,i =m$ f 
^! two wor?y prie/s ! "* ( ! ,savoy>d   
,vic>1 & flatt] myself ! imitation has n
 di%onor$ ! orig9als4  ,:ile ,i 0 at !  
sem9>y1 ,m4 d',aubonne 0 oblig$ to quit 
,annecy1 ,m\lt\ be+ displeas$ t he made 
love to 8 wife1 :i* 0 act+ l a dog 9 !  
mang]1 = ?\gh ,madam ,m\lt\ 0 extremely 
amiable1 he liv$ v ill ) h]1 treat+ h] )
 su* brutality t a sep>ation 0 talk$ (4 
,m\lt\1 by repeat$ oppressions1 at l5g? 
procur$ a dismissal f 8 employm5t3 he 0 

a disagreeable man2 a mole c\ld n be    
black]1 nor an owl m knavi%4 ,x is said 
! prov9cials rev5ge !mselves on _!      
enemies by songs2 ,m4 d',aubonne rev5g$ 
himself on 8 by a com$y1 :i* he s5t to  
,madam de ,w>5s1 :o %[$ x to me4 ,i 0   
pleas$ ) x1 & imm$iately conceiv$ ! idea
 ( writ+ "o1 to try :e!r ,i 0 s silly z 
! au?or _h pron\nc$ me4 ,?is project 0 n
 execut$ till ,i w5t to ,*amb]y1 :]e ,i 
wrote ',! ,lov] ( ,himself'4 ,?us :5 ,i 
said 9 ! preface to t piece1 x 0 writt5 
at eighte51 ,i cut (f a few ye>s4       
,ne>ly ab\t ?is "t an ev5t happ5$1 n v  
important 9 itself1 b ^: consequ5ce     
affect$ me1 & made a noise 9 ! _w :5 ,i 
_h =gott5 x4 ,once a week ,i 0 p]mitt$  
to g out2 x is n necess>y to say :at use
 ,i made ( ?is lib]ty4 ,be+ "o ,sunday  
at ,madam de ,w>5s1 a build+ belong+ to 
! ,cordeli]s1 :i* jo9$ h] h\se1 took    
fire2 ?is build+ :i* conta9$ _! ov51 be+
 full ( dry fagots1 blaz$ viol5tly &    
greatly endang]$ ! h\se2 = ! w9d happ5+ 
to drive ! flames t way1 x 0 cov]$ ) !m4

 ,! furniture1 !re=e1 0 ha/ily got out &
 c>ri$ into ! g>d5 :i* front$ ! w9d[s1  
on ! o!r side ! be=e-m5tion$ brook4 ,i 0
 s al>m$ t ,i ?rew indiscrim9ately      
ev]y?+ t came to h& out ( ! w9d[1 ev5 to
 a l>ge /one mort>1 :i* at ano!r "t ,i  
%\ld h f\nd x difficult to remove1 &    
%\ld h ?r[n a h&some look+-glass aft] x 
_h n "s "o prev5t$ me4 ,! good bi%op1 :o
 t day 0 visit+ ,madam de ,w>5s1 did n  
rema9 idle2 he took h] into ! g>d51 :]e 
!y w5t to pray]s ) ! re/ t 7 assembl$   
!re1 & :]e sometime aft]w>ds1 ,i f\nd !m
 on _! knees1 & pres5tly jo9$ !m4 ,:ile 
! good man 0 at 8 devotions1 ! w9d      
*ang$1 s sudd5ly & critically1 t !      
flames :i* _h cov]$ ! h\se & began to   
ent] ! w9d[s1 7 c>ri$ to ! o!r side ( ! 
c\rt1 & ! h\se receiv$ no damage4 ,two  
ye>s aft]1 ,monsieur de ,b]n] be+ dead1 
! ,anto9es1 8 =m] bre?r51 began to      
collect anecdotes :i* might s]ve z      
argum5ts ( 8 beatification2 at ! desire 
( ,fa!r ,baudet1 ,i jo9$ to ^! an       
atte/ation ( :at ,i h j relat$1 9 do+   

:i*1 ?\gh ,i atte/$ no m ?an ! tru?1 ,i 
c]ta9ly act$ ill1 z x t5d$ to make an   
indiff]5t occurr5ce pass = a miracle4 ,i
 _h se5 ! bi%op 9 pray]1 & _h likewise  
se5 ! w9d *ange dur+ ! pray]1 & ev5 mu* 
to ! purpose1 all ?is ,i c\ld c]tify    
truly2 b t "o ( ^! facts 0 ! cause ( !  
o!r1 ,i ought n to h atte/$1 because x  
is :at ,i c\ld n possibly be assur$ (4  
,?us mu* ,i may say1 t z f> z ,i c      
recollect :at my ideas 7 at t "t1 ,i 0  
s9c]ely1 & 9 good e>ne/ a ,ca?olic4     
,love ( ! m>vell\s is natural to ! human
 he>t2 my v5]ation = ! virtu\s prelate1 
& secret pride 9 hav+1 p]haps1          
contribut$ to ! ev5t 9 "q1 all help$ to 
s$uce me2 & c]ta9ly1 if ?is miracle 0 ! 
effect ( ard5t pray]1 ,i _h a "r to     
claim a %>e ( ! m]its4  ,m ?an ?irty    
ye>s aft]1 :5 ,i publi%$ ! ',lettres de 
la ,montagne'1 ,m4 ,f]on 7,i "k n by :at
 means7 discov]$ ?is atte/ation1 & made 
use ( x 9 8 pap]4 ,i mu/ confess !      
discov]y 0 v critically tim$1 & appe>$ v
 div]t+1 ev5 to me4  ,i 0 de/9$ to be ! 

outca/ ( e condition2 = not)/&+ ,m4     
,gati] gave ! mo/ favorable acc\nt he   
possibly c\ld ( my /udies1 !y pla9ly saw
 ! improvem5t ,i receiv$ bore no        
proportion to ! pa9s tak5 to in/ruct me1
 :i* 0 no enc\ragem5t to cont9ue !m3 !  
bi%op & sup]ior1 !re=e1 7 di%e>t5$1 & ,i
 0 s5t back to ,madam de ,w>5s1 z a     
subject n ev5 fit to make a prie/ (2 b z
 !y all[$1 at ! same "t1 t ,i 0 a       
tol]ably good lad1 & f> f be+ vici\s1   
?is acc\nt c\nt]balanc$ ! =m]1 & det]m9$
 h] n to ab&on me4  ,i c>ri$ back 9     
triumph ! de> music book1 :i* _h be5 s  
useful to me1 ! air ( ,alpheus &        
,are?usa be+ almo/ all ,i _h le>n$ at ! 
sem9>y4 ,my pr$ilection = ?is art />t$ !
 idea ( mak+ a musician ( me4 ,a        
conv5i5t opportunity (f]$2 once a week1 
at lea/1 %e _h a conc]t at h] h\se1 & ! 
music-ma/] f ! ca!dral1 :o direct$ ?is  
little b&1 came frequ5tly to see h]4    
,?is 0 a ,p>isian1 nam$ ,m4 le ,maitre1 
a good compos]1 v lively1 gay1 "y1 well 
made1 ( little und]/&+1 b1 ^u ! :ole1 a 

good sort ( man4 ,madam de ,w>5s made u 
acqua9t$2 ,i atta*$ myself to him1 & he 
seem$ n displeas$ ) me4 ,a p5sion 0     
talk$ (1 & agre$ on2 9 %ort1 ,i w5t home
 ) him1 & pass$ ! w9t] ! m agreeably at 
8 *amb]s1 z !y 7 n above tw5ty paces    
di/ant f ,madam de ,w>5s'1 :]e we       
frequ5tly supp$ toge!r4 ,x may easily be
 suppos$ t ?is situation1 ev] gay1 & s++
 ) ! musicians & *ildr5 ( ! *oir1 0 m   
pleas+ to me ?an ! sem9>y & fa!rs ( ,/4 
,laz>us4 ,?is life1 ?\gh free1 0 regul>2
 "h ,i le>n$ to prize indep5d5ce1 b nev]
 to abuse x4 ,= six :ole mon?s ,i nev]  
once w5t out except to see ,madam de    
,w>5s1 or to *ur*1 nor _h ,i any        
incl9ation to x4 ,?is int]val is "o ( ^?
 9 :i* ,i enjoy$ ! greate/ satisfaction1
 & :i* ,i h ev] recollect$ ) pleasure4  
,among ! v>i\s situations ,i h be5 plac$
 91 "s 7 m>k$ ) su* an idea ( virtu\s   
satisfaction1 t ! b>e remembrance       
affects me z if !y 7 yet pres5t4 ,i     
vividly recollect ! "t1 ! place1 !      
p]sons1 & ev5 ! temp]ature ( ! air1 :ile

 ! lively idea ( a c]ta9 local          
impression peculi> to ^? times1         
transports me back aga9 to ! v spot2 =  
example1 all t 0 repeat$ at our meet+s1 
all t 0 sung 9 ! *oir1 ev]y?+ t pass$   
!re2 ! beautiful & noble habits ( !     
canons1 ! *asubles ( ! prie/s1 ! mitres 
( ! s+]s1 ! p]sons ( ! musicians2 an old
 lame c>p5t] :o play$ ! c\nt]-bass1 a   
little fair abbe :o p]=m$ on ! viol91 ! 
ragg$ cassock :i* ,m4 le ,maitre1 aft]  
tak+ (f 8 sword1 us$ to put ov] 8 secul>
 habit1 & ! f9e surplice ) :i* he cov]$ 
! rags ( ! =m]1 :5 he w5t to ! *oir2 !  
pride ) :i* ,i held my little flute to  
my lips1 & seat$ myself 9 ! or*e/ra1 to 
assi/ 9 a recitative :i* ,m4 le ,maitre 
_h compos$ on purpose = me2 ! good d9n] 
t aft]w>ds await$ u1 & ! good appetites 
we c>ri$ to x4 ,?is conc\rse ( objects1 
/rongly retrac$ 9 my memory1 has *>m$ me
 a hundr$ "t z mu*1 or p]haps m1 ?an ev]
 ! reality _h done4 ,i h always pres]v$ 
an affection = a c]ta9 air ( !          
',conditor alme ,syd]um'1 because "o    

,sunday 9 ,adv5t ,i he>d t hymn sung on 
! /eps ( ! ca!dral1 7accord+ to ! cu/om 
( t place7 z ,i lay 9 b$ be=e daybreak4 
,mademoiselle ,m]c]et1 ,madam de ,w>5s' 
*amb]maid1 knew some?+ ( music2 ,i %all 
nev] =get a little piece t ,m4 le       
,maitre made me s+ ) h]1 & :i* h]       
mi/ress li/5$ to ) great satisfaction4  
,9 a ^w1 e p>ticul>1 ev5 d[n to ! s]vant
 ,p]r9e1 :om ! boys ( ! *oir took su*   
delight 9 teas+4 ,! remembrance ( ^!    
times ( happ9ess & innoc5ce frequ5tly   
return+ to my m9d1 bo? ravi% & affect   
me4  ,i liv$ at ,annecy dur+ a ye> )\t !
 lea/ reproa*1 giv+ univ]sal            
satisfaction4 ,s9ce my dep>ture f ,tur9 
,i _h be5 guilty ( no folly1 committ$   
none :ile "u ! eye ( ,madam de ,w>5s4   
,%e 0 my conductor1 & ev] l$ me "r2 my  
atta*m5t = h] became my only passion1 & 
:at proves x 0 n a giddy "o1 my he>t &  
und]/&+ 7 9 unison4 ,x is true t a s+le 
s5tim5t1 absorb+ all my faculties1 put  
me out ( a capacity ( le>n+ ev5 music3 b
 ?is 0 n my fault1 s9ce to ! /ronge/    

incl9ation1 ,i add$ ! utmo/ assiduity4  
,i 0 att5tive & ?\ghtful2 :at c\ld ,i d8
 ,no?+ 0 want+ t[>ds my progress t      
dep5d$ on me2 meantime1 x only requir$ a
 subject t might inspire me to occasion 
! commission ( new follies3 t subject   
pres5t$ itself1 *ance arrang$ x1 & 7z w 
be se5 h]eaft]7 my inconsid]ate head    
gave 9 to x4  ,"o ev5+1 9 ! mon? (      
,febru>y1 :5 x 0 v cold1 be+ all sat    
r\nd ! fire1 we he>d "s "o knock at !   
/reet door4 ,p]r9e took a light1 w5t d[n
 & op5$ x3 a "y man ent]+1 came up/airs1
 pres5t$ himself ) an easy air1 & mak+  
,m4 ,maitre a %ort1 b well-turn$        
complim5t1 ann\nc$ himself z a ,fr5*    
musician1 con/ra9$ by ! /ate ( 8 f9ances
 to take ?is lib]ty4 ,! he>t ( ! good   
,le ,maitre leap$ at ! "n ( a ,fr5*     
musician1 = he passionately lov$ bo? 8  
c\ntry & pr(ession2 he !re=e (f]$ ! "y  
travell] 8 s]vice--& use ( 8 ap>tm5t1   
:i* he appe>$ to /& mu* 9 ne$ (1 & :i*  
he accept$ )\t mu* c]emony4 ,i obs]v$   
him :ile he 0 *att+ & w>m+ himself be=e 

supp]2 he 0 %ort & ?ick1 hav+ "s fault 9
 8 %ape1 ?\gh )\t any p>ticul> de=mity2 
he _h 7if ,i may s express myself7 an   
appe>ance ( be+ hun*back$1 ) flat       
%\ld]s1 & ,i ?9k he limp$4 ,he wore a   
black coat1 r worn ?an old1 :i* hung 9  
tatt]s1 a v f9e b dirty %irt1 fray$     
ruffles2 a pair ( splatt]da%es s l>ge t 
he c\ld h put bo? legs into ei!r ( !m1  
&1 to secure himself f ! sn[1 a little  
hat1 only fit to be c>ri$ "u 8 arm4 ,)  
?is :imsical equipage1 he _h1 h[ev]1    
some?+ elegant 9 8 mann]s & conv]sation2
 8 c\nt5ance 0 expressive & agreeable1 &
 he spoke ) facility if n ) mode/y2 9   
%ort1 ev]y?+ ab\t him bore ! m>k ( a "y 
debau*ee1 :o did n crave assi/ance l a  
begg>1 b z a ?\ghtless madcap4 ,he told 
u 8 "n 0 ,v5ture de ,vill5euve1 t he    
came f ,p>is1 _h lo/ 8 way1 & seem+ to  
=get t he _h ann\nc$ himself = a        
musician1 add$ t he 0 go+ to ,gr5oble to
 see a relation t 0 a memb] ( ,p>liam5t4
  ,dur+ supp] we talk$ ( music1 on :i*  
subject he spoke well3 he knew all !    

great virtuosi1 all ! celebrat$ works1  
all ! actors1 actresses1 pretty wom51 & 
p[]ful lords2 9 %ort no?+ 0 m5tion$ b   
:at he seem$ ?or\ghly acqua9t$ )4 ,?\gh 
no soon] 0 any topic />t$1 ?an by "s    
droll]y1 :i* set e "o a-laugh+1 he made 
!m =get :at _h be5 said4 ,?is 0 on a    
,saturday2 ! next day !re 0 to be music 
at ! ca!dral3 ,m4 le ,maitre ask$ if he 
w\ld s+ !re--,v will+ly4--,:at "p w\ld  
he *ose8--,! c\nt]-t5or3 & imm$iately   
began speak+ ( o!r ?+s4 ,be=e he w5t to 
*ur* !y (f]$ him 8 "p to p]use1 b he did
 n ev5 look at x4 ,?is ,gasconade       
surpris$ ,le ,maitre--,y'll see1 said   
he1 :isp]+ to me1 t he does n "k a s+le 
note4--,i repli$3 ,i am v mu* afraid (  
him4 ,i foll[$ !m into ! *ur*2 b 0      
extremely uneasy1 & :5 !y began1 my he>t
 beat viol5tly1 s mu* 0 ,i int]e/$ 9 8  
behalf4  ,i 0 pres5tly out ( pa93 he    
sung 8 two recitatives ) all imag9able  
ta/e & judgm5t2 & :at 0 yet m1 ) a v    
agreeable voice4 ,i nev] enjoy$ a m     
pleas+ surprise4 ,aft] mass1 ,m4 ,v5ture

 receiv$ ! highe/ complim5ts f ! canons 
& musicians1 :i* he answ]$ jok+ly1 ?\gh 
) great grace4 ,m4 le ,maitre embrac$   
him he>tily2 ,i did ! same2 he saw ,i 0 
rejoic$ at 8 success1 & appe>$ pleas$ at
 my satisfaction4  ,x w easily be       
surmis$1 t aft] hav+ be5 delight$ ) ,m4 
,bacle1 :o _h little to attract my      
admiration1 ,i %\ld be infatuat$ ) ,m4  
,v5ture1 :o _h education1 wit1 tal5ts1 &
 a k ( ! _w1 & might be call$ an        
agreeable rake4 ,?is 0 exactly :at      
happ5$1 & w\ld1 ,i believe1 h happ5$ to 
any o!r "y man 9 my place2 especially   
suppos+ him possess$ ( bett] judgm5t to 
di/+ui% m]it1 & m prop5sity to be engag$
 by x2 = ,v5ture d\btless possess$ a    
consid]able %>e1 & "o 9 p>ticul>1 v r>e 
at 8 age1 namely1 t ( nev] be+ 9 ha/e to
 display 8 tal5ts4 ,x is true1 he boa/$ 
( _m ?+s he did n und]/&1 b ( ^? he knew
 7:i* 7 v num]\s7 he said no?+1 pati5tly
 wait+ "s occasion to display !m1 :i* he
 !n did ) ease1 ?\gh )\t =w>dness1 & ?us
 gave !m m effect4 ,z !re 0 ev] "s      

int]mission betwe5 ! pro(s ( 8 v>i\s    
abilities1 x 0 impossible to conjecture 
:e!r he _h ev] discov]$ all 8 tal5ts4   
,playful1 giddy1 inexhau/ible1 s$uc+ 9  
conv]sation1 ev] smil+1 b nev] laugh+1 &
 repeat+ ! rude/ ?+s 9 ! mo/ elegant    
mann]--ev5 ! mo/ mode/ wom5 7 a/oni%$ at
 :at !y endur$ f him3 x 0 9 va9 = !m to 
det]m9e to be angry2 !y c\ld n assume ! 
appe>ance ( x4 ,x 0 extraord9>y t ) s _m
 agreeable tal5ts1 9 a c\ntry :]e !y are
 s well und]/ood1 & s mu* admir$1 he s  
long rema9$ only a musician4  ,my       
atta*m5t to ,m4 ,v5ture1 m reasonable 9 
its cause1 0 also less extravagant 9 its
 effects1 ?\gh m lively & durable ?an t 
,i _h conceiv$ = ,m4 ,bacle4 ,i lov$ to 
see him1 to he> him1 all 8 actions      
appe>$ *>m+1 ev]y?+ he said 0 an oracle 
to me1 b ! en*antm5t did n ext5d f>     
en\gh to disable me f quitt+ him4 ,i    
spoke ( him ) transport to ,madam de    
,w>5s1 ,le ,maitre likewise spoke 9 8   
praise1 & %e cons5t$ we %\ld br+ him to 
h] h\se4 ,?is int]view did n succe$2 he 

?\ght h] affect$1 %e f\nd him a lib]t9e1
 &1 al>m$ t ,i _h =m$ su* an ill        
acqua9tance1 n only =bade me br++ him   
!re aga91 b likewise pa9t$ s /rongly !  
dang] ,i ran ) ?is "y man1 t ,i became a
 little m circumspect 9 giv+ 9 to !     
atta*m5t2 & v happily1 bo? = my mann]s &
 wits1 we 7 soon sep>at$4  ,m4 le       
,maitre1 l mo/ ( 8 pr(ession1 lov$ good 
w9e2 at table he 0 mod]ate1 b :5 busy 9 
8 closet he mu/ dr9k4 ,8 maid 0 s well  
acqua9t$ ) ?is humor t no soon] _h he   
prep>$ 8 pap] to compose1 & tak5 8      
violoncello1 ?an ! bottle & glass       
arriv$1 & 0 repl5i%$ f "t to "t3 ?us1   
)\t be+ ev] absolutely intoxicat$1 he 0 
usually 9 a /ate ( elevation4 ,?is 0    
really un=tunate1 = he _h a good he>t1 &
 0 s playful t ,madam de ,w>5s us$ to   
call him ! kitt54 ,unhappily1 he lov$ 8 
pr(ession1 labor$ mu* & drank           
proportionately1 :i* injur$ 8 heal?1 &  
at l5g? s\r$ 8 temp]4 ,sometimes he 0   
gloomy & easily (f5d$1 ?\gh incapable ( 
rud5ess1 or giv+ (f5ce to any "o1 = nev]

 did he utt] a h>% ^w1 ev5 to ! boys ( !
 *oir3 on ! o!r h&1 he w\ld n suff]     
ano!r to (f5d him1 :i* 0 b j3 ! mis=tune
 01 hav+ little und]/&+1 he did n       
prop]ly discrim9ate1 & 0 (t5 angry )\t  
cause4  ,! ,*apt] ( ,g5eva1 :]e s _m    
pr9ces & bi%ops =m]ly ?\ght x an honor  
to be seat$1 ?\gh 9 exile x lo/ its     
anci5t spl5dor1 reta9$ 7)\t any         
dim9ution7 its pride4 ,to be admitt$1 y 
mu/ ei!r be a g5tleman or ,doctor (     
,sorbonne4 ,if !re is a p>donable pride1
 aft] t d]iv$ f p]sonal m]it1 x is      
d\btless t aris+ f bir?1 ?\gh1 9 g5]al1 
prie/s hav+ laym5 9 _! s]vice treat !m )
 suffici5t haught9ess1 & ?us ! canons   
behav$ to poor ,le ,maitre4 ,! *ant]1 9 
p>ticul>1 :o 0 call$ ! ,abbe de         
,vidonne1 9 o!r respects a well-behav$  
man1 b too full ( 8 nobility1 did n     
always %[ him ! att5tion 8 tal5ts m]it$4
 ,m4 le ,maitre c\ld n be> ^!           
indignities pati5tly2 & ?is ye>1 dur+   
passion week1 !y _h a m s]i\s dispute   
?an ord9>y4 ,at an in/itution d9n] t !  

bi%op gave ! canons1 & to :i* ,m4       
,maitre 0 always invit$1 ! abbe fail$ 9 
"s =mality1 add+1 at ! same "t1 "s h>%  
words1 :i* ! o!r c\ld n dige/2 he       
in/antly =m$ ! resolution to quit !m !  
foll[+ night2 nor c\ld any consid]ation 
make him give up 8 design1 ?\gh ,madam  
de ,w>5s 7:om he w5t to take leave (7   
sp>$ no pa9s to appease him4 ,he c\ld n 
rel9qui% ! pleasure ( leav+ 8 tyrants   
emb>rass$ = ! ,ea/] fea/1 at :i* "t he  
knew !y /ood 9 greate/ ne$ ( him4 ,he 0 
mo/ conc]n$ ab\t 8 music1 :i* he wi%$ to
 take ) him2 b ?is c\ld n easily be     
accompli%$1 z x fill$ a l>ge case1 & 0 v
 heavy1 & c\ld n be c>ri$ "u ! arm4     
,madam de ,w>5s did :at ,i %\ld h done 9
 h] situation2 & inde$1 :at ,i %\ld yet 
d3 aft] _m useless ef=ts to reta9 him1  
see+ he 0 resolv$ to dep>t1 :atev] might
 be ! ev5t1 %e =m$ ! resolution to give 
him e possible assi/ance4 ,i mu/ confess
 ,le ,maitre des]v$ x ( h]1 = he 0 7if  
,i may use ! expression7 d$icat$ to h]  
s]vice1 9 :atev] app]ta9$ to ei!r 8 art 

or k1 & ! read9ess ) :i* he oblig$ gave 
a d\ble value to 8 complaisance3 ?us %e 
only paid back1 on an ess5tial occasion1
 ! _m favors he _h be5 long conf]r+ on  
h]2 ?\gh ,i %\ld obs]ve1 %e possess$ a  
s\l t1 to fulfill su* duties1 _h no     
occasion to be rem9d$ ( previ\s         
obligations4 ,accord+ly %e ord]$ me to  
foll[ ,le ,maitre to ,lyons1 & to       
cont9ue ) him z long z he might h       
occasion = my s]vices4 ,%e has s9ce     
av[$1 t a desire ( deta*+ me f ,v5ture  
_h a great h& 9 ?is arrangem5t4 ,%e     
consult$ ,claude ,anet ab\t ! conveyance
 ( ! above-m5tion$ case4 ,he advis$1 t  
in/ead ( hir+ a bea/ at ,annecy1 :i*    
w\ld infallibly discov] u1 x w\ld be    
bett]1 at night1 to take x to "s        
neighbor+ village1 & !re hire an ass to 
c>ry x to ,seyssel1 :i* be+ 9 ! ,fr5*   
dom9ions1 we %\ld h no?+ to fe>4 ,?is   
plan 0 adopt$2 we dep>t$ ! same night at
 sev51 & ,madam de ,w>5s1 "u pret5se (  
pay+ my exp5ses1 increas$ ! purse ( poor
 ,le ,maitre by an addition t 0 v       

acceptable4 ,claude ,anet1 ! g>d9]1 &   
myself1 c>ri$ ! case to ! fir/ village1 
!n hir$ an ass1 & ! same night rea*$    
,seyssel4  ,i ?9k ,i h already rem>k$ t 
!re are times 9 :i* ,i am s unlike      
myself t ,i might be tak5 = a man ( a   
direct opposite disposition2 ,i %all n[ 
give an example ( ?is4 ,m4 ,reydelet1   
curate ( ,seyssel1 0 canon ( ,/4        
,pet]'s1 consequ5tly kn[n to ,m4 le     
,maitre1 & "o ( ! p f :om he %\ld h tak5
 mo/ pa9s to conceal himself2 my advice1
 on ! contr>y1 0 to pres5t ourselves to 
him1 &1 "u "s pretext1 entreat          
ent]ta9m5t z if we visit$ him by cons5t 
( ! *apt]4 ,le ,maitre adopt$ ! idea1   
:i* seem$ to give 8 rev5ge ! appe>ance (
 satire & wagg]y2 9 %ort1 we w5t boldly 
to ,reydelet1 :o receiv$ u v k9dly4 ,le 
,maitre told him he 0 go+ to ,bellay by 
desire ( ! bi%op1 t he might sup]9t5d ! 
music dur+ ! ,ea/] holidays1 & t he     
propos$ return+ t way 9 a few days4 ,to 
support ?is tale1 ,i told a hundr$ o!rs1
 s naturally t ,m4 ,reydelet ?\ght me a 

v agreeable y\?1 & treat$ me ) great    
fri5d%ip & civility4 ,we 7 well regal$ &
 well lodg$3 ,m4 ,reydelet sc>cely knew 
h[ to make en\gh ( u2 & we p>t$ ! be/   
fri5ds 9 ! _w1 ) a promise to /op long] 
on our return4 ,we f\nd x difficult to  
refra9 f laught]1 or wait till we 7     
alone to give free v5t to our mir?3     
inde$1 ev5 n[1 ! b>e recollection ( x   
=ces a smile1 = nev] 0 wagg]y bett] or m
 =tunately ma9ta9$4 ,?is w\ld h made u  
m]ry dur+ ! rema9d] ( our j\rney1 if ,m4
 le ,maitre 7:o did n cease dr9k+7 _h n 
be5 two or ?ree times attack$ ) a       
compla9t t he aft]w>ds became v subject 
to1 & :i* resembl$ an epilepsy4 ,^! fits
 ?rew me into ! mo/ fe>ful emb>rassm5ts1
 f :i* ,i resolv$ to extricate myself ) 
! fir/ opportunity4  ,accord+ to !      
in=mation giv5 to ,m4 ,reydelet1 we     
pass$ our ,ea/] holidays at ,bellay1 &  
?\gh n expect$ !re1 7 receiv$ by !      
music-ma/]1 & welcom$ by e "o ) great   
pleasure4 ,m4 le ,maitre 0 ( consid]able
 note 9 8 pr(ession1 &1 inde$1 m]it$ t  

di/9ction4 ,! music-ma/] ( ,bellay 7:o 0
 fond ( 8 own works7 endeavor$ to obta9 
! approbation ( s good a judge2 =       
besides be+ a connoisseur1 ,m4 le       
,maitre 0 equitable1 nei!r a jeal\s1    
ill-natur$ critic1 nor a s]vile flatt]]4
 ,he 0 s sup]ior to ! g5]ality ( c\ntry 
music-ma/]s & !y 7 s s5sible ( x1 t !y  
treat$ him r z _! *ief ?an a bro!r      
musician4  ,hav+ pass$ f\r or five days 
v agreeably at ,bellay1 we dep>t$1 &    
cont9u+ our j\rney )\t meet+ ) any      
accid5ts1 except ^? ,i h j spok5 (1     
arriv$ at ,lyons1 & 7 lodg$ at ,notre   
,dame de ,pitie4 ,:ile we wait$ = !     
arrival ( ! be=e-m5tion$ case 7:i* by ! 
assi/ance ( ano!r lie1 & ! c>e ( our    
good patron1 ,m4 ,reydelet1 we _h emb>k$
 on ! ,rhone7 ,m4 le ,maitre w5t to     
visit 8 acqua9tance1 & among o!rs ,fa!r 
,cato1 a ,cordeli]1 :o w be spok5 (     
h]eaft]1 & ! ,abbe ,dortan1 ,c\nt (     
,lyons1 bo? ( :om receiv$ him well1 b   
aft]w>ds betray$ him1 z w be se5        
pres5tly2 inde$1 8 good =tune t]m9at$ ) 

,m4 ,reydelet4  ,two days aft] our      
arrival at ,lyons1 z we pass$ a little  
/reet n f> f our inn1 ,le ,maitre 0     
attack$ by "o ( 8 fits2 b x 0 n[ s      
viol5t z to give me ! utmo/ al>m4 ,i    
scream$ ) t]ror1 call$ = help1 & nam+   
our inn1 entreat$ "s "o to be> him to x1
 !n 7:ile ! p 7 assembl$1 & busy r\nd a 
man t _h fall5 s5seless 9 ! /reet7 he 0 
ab&on$ by ! only fri5d on :om he c\ld h 
any reasonable dep5d5ce2 ,i seiz$ !     
in/ant :5 no "o he$$ me1 turn$ ! corn] (
 ! /reet & disappe>$4 ,?anks to ,heav51 
,i h made my ?ird pa9ful confession2 if 
_m su* rema9$1 ,i %\ld c]ta9ly ab&on !  
"w ,i h und]tak54  ,( all ! incid5ts ,i 
h yet relat$1 a few traces are rema9+ 9 
! places :]e ,i h liv$2 b :at ,i h to   
relate 9 ! foll[+ book is almo/ entirely
 unkn[n2 ^! are ! greate/ extravagancies
 ( my life1 & x is happy !y _h n worse  
conclusions4 ,my head1 7if ,i may use ! 
simile7 screw$ up to ! pit* ( an        
in/rum5t x did n naturally accord )1 _h 
lo/ its diapason2 9 "t x return$ to x   

aga91 :5 ,i discont9u$ my follies1 or at
 lea/ gave 9 to ^? m consonant to my    
disposition4 ,?is epo* ( my y\? ,i am   
lea/ able to recollect1 no?+ hav+ pass$ 
suffici5tly int]e/+ to influ5ce my he>t1
 to make me cle>ly retrace !            
remembrance4 ,9 s _m successive *anges1 
x is difficult n to make "s             
transpositions ( "t or place4 ,i write  
absolutely f memory1 )\t notes or       
mat]ials to help my recollection4 ,"s   
ev5ts are z fre% 9 my idea z if !y _h   
rec5tly happ5$1 b !re are c]ta9 *asms   
:i* ,i _c fill up b by ! aid ( recital1 
z confus$ z ! rema9+ traces ( ^? to :i* 
!y ref]4 ,x is possible1 !re=e1 t ,i may
 h err$ 9 trifles1 & p]haps %all aga91 b
 9 e matt] ( importance ,i c answ] t !  
acc\nt is fai?fully exact1 & ) ! same   
v]acity ! read] may dep5d ,i %all be    
c>eful to cont9ue x4  ,my resolution 0  
soon tak5 aft] quitt+ ,le ,maitre2 ,i   
set out imm$iately = ,annecy4 ,! cause &
 my/]y ( our dep>ture _h int]e/$ me = ! 
security ( our retreat3 ?is int]e/1 :i* 

entirely employ$ my ?\ghts = "s days1 _h
 bani%$ e o!r idea2 b no soon] 0 ,i     
secure & 9 tranquility1 ?an my pr$om9ant
 s5tim5t rega9$ its place4 ,no?+        
flatt]$1 no?+ tempt$ me1 ,i _h no wi% b 
to return to ,madam de ,w>5s2 ! t5d]ness
 & tru? ( my atta*m5t to h] _h root$ f  
my he>t e imag9able project1 & all !    
follies ( ambition1 ,i conceiv$ no      
happ9ess b liv+ ne> h]1 nor c\ld ,i take
 a /ep )\t feel+ t ! di/ance betwe5 u 0 
increas$4 ,i return$1 !re=e1 z soon z   
possible1 ) su* spe$1 & ) my spirits 9  
su* a /ate ( agitation1 t ?\gh ,i recall
 ) pleasure all my o!r travels1 ,i h n !
 lea/ recollection ( ?is1 only rememb]+ 
my leav+ ,lyons & rea*+ ,annecy4 ,let   
anyone judge :e!r ?is la/ ev5t c h      
slipp$ my memory1 :5 in=m$ t on my      
arrival ,i f\nd ,madam de ,w>5s 0 n !re1
 hav+ set out = ,p>is4  ,i 0 nev] well  
in=m$ ( ! motives ( ?is j\rney4 ,i am   
c]ta9 %e w\ld h told me _h ,i ask$ h]1 b
 nev] 0 man less curi\s to le>n !       
secrets ( 8 fri5d4 ,my he>t is ev] s    

entirely fill$ ) ! pres5t1 or ) pa/     
pleasures1 :i* become a pr9cipal "p ( my
 enjoym5t1 t !re is n a *9k or corn] =  
curiosity to ent]4 ,all t ,i conceive f 
:at ,i he>d ( x1 is1 t 9 ! revolution   
caus$ at ,tur9 by ! abdication ( ! ,k+ (
 ,s>d9ia1 %e fe>$ be+ =gott51 & 0 will+ 
by favor ( ! intrigues ( ,m4 d' ,aubonne
 to seek ! same advantage 9 ! c\rt (    
,france1 :]e %e has (t5 told me %e %\ld 
h pref]r$ x1 z ! multiplicity ( bus9ess 
!re prev5ts y\r conduct f be+ s closely 
inspect$4 ,if ?is 0 h] bus9ess1 x is    
a/oni%+ t on h] return %e 0 n ill       
receiv$2 be t z x w1 %e cont9u$ to enjoy
 h] all[ance )\t any int]ruption4 ,_m p 
imag9$ %e 0 *>g$ ) "s secret commission1
 ei!r by ! bi%op1 :o !n _h bus9ess at ! 
c\rt ( ,france1 :]e he himself 0 soon   
aft] oblig$ to g1 or "s "o yet m p[]ful1
 :o knew h[ to insure h] a graci\s      
reception at h] return4 ,if ?is 0 !     
case1 x is c]ta9 ! ambassadress 0 n ill 
*os51 s9ce be+ "y & h&some1 %e _h all ! 
necess>y qualifications to succe$ 9 a   

negotiation4     ,,book ,,iv4   ,let any
 "o judge my surprise & grief at n f9d+ 
h] on my arrival4 ,i n[ felt regret at  
hav+ ab&on$ ,m4 le ,maitre1 & my        
uneas9ess increas$ :5 ,i le>n$ !        
mis=tunes t _h befall5 him4 ,8 box (    
music1 conta9+ all 8 =tune1 t preci\s   
box1 pres]v$ ) s mu* c>e & fatigue1 _h  
be5 seiz$ on at ,lyons by means ( ,c\nt 
,dortan1 :o _h receiv$ in=mation f !    
,*apt] ( our hav+ abscond$ ) x4 ,9 va9  
did ,le ,maitre reclaim 8 prop]ty1 8    
means ( exi/5ce1 ! labor ( 8 life2 8 "r 
to ! music 9 "q 0 at lea/ subject to    
litigation1 b ev5 t lib]ty 0 n all[$    
him1 ! affair be+ in/antly decid$ on !  
pr9cipal ( sup]ior /r5g?4 ,?us poor ,le 
,maitre lo/ ! fruit ( 8 tal5ts1 ! labor 
( 8 y\?1 & pr9cipal dep5d5ce = ! support
 ( old age4  ,no?+ 0 want+ to r5d] !    
news ,i _h receiv$ truly afflict+1 b ,i 
0 at an age :5 ev5 ! greate/ calamities 
are to be su/a9$2 accord+ly ,i soon f\nd
 consolation4 ,i expect$ %ortly to he>  
news ( ,madam de ,w>5s1 ?\gh ,i 0       

ignorant ( ! address1 & %e knew no?+ (  
my return4 ,z to my des]tion ( ,le      
,maitre 7all ?+s consid]$7 ,i did n f9d 
x s v culpable4 ,i _h be5 s]viceable to 
him at 8 retreat2 x 0 n 9 my p[] to give
 him any fur!r assi/ance4 ,_h ,i rema9$ 
) him 9 ,france x w\ld n h cur$ 8       
compla9t4 ,i c\ld n h sav$ 8 music1 &   
%\ld only h d\bl$ 8 exp5se3 9 ?is po9t (
 view ,i !n saw my conduct2 ,i see x    
o!rwise n[4 ,x frequ5tly happ5s t a     
villa9\s action does n torm5t u at !    
in/ant we commit x1 b on recollection1 &
 sometimes ev5 aft] a numb] ( ye>s h    
elaps$1 = ! remembrance ( crimes is n to
 be ext+ui%$4  ,! only means ,i _h to   
obta9 news ( ,madam de ,w>5s 0 to rema9 
at ,annecy4 ,:]e %\ld ,i seek h] 9      
,p>is8 or h[ be> ! exp5se ( su* a       
j\rney8 ,soon] or lat] !re 0 no place   
:]e ,i c\ld be s c]ta9 to he> ( h] z t  
,i 0 n[ at2 ?is consid]ation det]m9$ me 
to rema9 !re1 ?\gh my conduct 0 v       
indiff]5t4 ,i did n g to ! bi%op1 :o _h 
already befri5d$ me1 & might cont9ue to 

d s2 my patroness 0 n pres5t1 & ,i fe>$ 
8 reprim&s on ! subject ( our flight2   
nei!r did ,i g to ! sem9>y1 ,m4 ,gras 0 
no long] !re2 9 %ort1 ,i w5t to none (  
my acqua9tances4 ,i %\ld gladly h visit$
 ! int5dant's lady1 b did n d>e2 ,i did 
worse1 ,i s\ght out ,m4 ,v5ture1 :om    
7not)/&+ my en?usiasm7 ,i _h nev] ?\ght 
( s9ce my dep>ture4 ,i f\nd him q gay1 9
 high spirits1 & ! univ]sal favorite ( !
 ladies ( ,annecy4  ,?is success        
complet$ my infatuation2 ,i saw no?+ b  
,m4 ,v5ture2 he almo/ made me =get ev5  
,madam de ,w>5s4 ,t ,i might pr(it m at 
ease by 8 in/ructions & example1 ,i     
propos$ to %>e 8 lodg+s1 to :i* he      
readily cons5t$4 ,x 0 at a %oemak]'s2 a 
pleasant1 jovial fell[1 :o1 9 8 c\nty   
dialect1 call$ 8 wife no?+ b trollop2 an
 appellation :i* %e c]ta9ly m]it$4      
,v5ture took c>e to augm5t _! diff]5ces1
 ?\gh "u an appe>ance ( do+ ! direct    
contr>y1 ?r[+ out 9 a di/ant mann]1 &   
prov9cial acc5ts1 h9ts t produc$ ! utmo/
 effect1 & furni%$ su* sc5es z 7        

suffici5t to make any "o die ) laught]4 
,?us ! morn+s pass$ )\t our ?9k+ ( !m2  
at two or ?ree o'clock we took "s       
refre%m5t4 ,v5ture !n w5t to 8 v>i\s    
engagem5ts1 :]e he supp$1 :ile ,i walk$ 
alone1 m$itat+ on 8 great m]it1 covet+ &
 admir+ 8 r>e tal5ts1 & curs+ my own    
unlucky />s1 t did n call me to s happy 
a life4 ,h[ little did ,i !n "k (       
myself6 m9e _h be5 a ?\s& times m       
delightful1 _h ,i n be5 su* a fool1 or  
kn[n bett] h[ to enjoy x4  ,madam de    
,w>5s _h tak5 no "o ) h] b ,anet3       
,m]c]et1 ! *amb]maid1 :om ,i h be=e     
m5tion$1 /ill rema9$ 9 ! h\se4 ,m]c]et 0
 some?+ old] ?an myself1 n pretty1 b    
tol]ably agreeable2 good-natur$1 free f 
malice1 hav+ no fault to my k b be+ a   
little refractory ) h] mi/ress4 ,i (t5  
w5t to see h]2 %e 0 an old acqua9tance1 
:o recall$ to my remembrance "o m       
belov$1 & ?is made h] de> to me4 ,%e _h 
sev]al fri5ds1 & among o!rs "o          
,mademoiselle ,giraud1 a ,g5evese1 :o1 =
 ! puni%m5t ( my s9s1 took x 9 h] head  

to h an incl9ation = me1 always press+  
,m]c]et1 :5 %e return$ h] visits1 to br+
 me ) h]4 ,z ,i lik$ ,m]c]et1 ,i felt no
 dis9cl9ation to accompany h]2 besides  
,i met !re ) "s "y p ^: company pleas$  
me4 ,= ,mademoiselle ,giraud1 :o (f]$ e 
k9d ( enticem5t1 no?+ c\ld increase !   
av]sion ,i _h = h]4 ,:5 %e drew ne> me1 
) h] dri$ black sn\t1 sme>$ ) ,spani%   
snuff1 x 0 ) ! utmo/ difficulty t ,i    
c\ld refra9 f express+ my di/a/e2 b1 be+
 pleas$ ) h] visitors1 ,i took pati5ce4 
,among ^! 7 two girls :o 7ei!r to pay _!
 c\rt to ,mademoiselle ,giraud or       
myself7 paid me e possible att5tion4 ,i 
conceiv$ ?is to be only fri5d%ip2 b h   
s9ce ?\ght x dep5d$ only on myself to h 
discov]$ some?+ m1 ?\gh ,i did n ev5 ?9k
 ( x at ! "t4  ,!re 0 ano!r reason = my 
/upidity4 ,seam/resses1 *amb]maids1 or  
mill9]s1 nev] tempt$ me2 ,i sigh$ =     
ladies6 ,e "o has 8 peculi> ta/e1 ?is   
has ev] be5 m9e2 be+ 9 ?is p>ticul> ( a 
diff]5t op9ion f ,horace4 ,yet x is n   
vanity ( ri*es or rank t attracts me2 x 

is a well-pres]v$ complexion1 f9e h&s1  
elegance ( ornam5ts1 an air ( delicacy &
 neatness ?r\gh\t ! :ole p]son2 m 9     
ta/e1 9 ! mann] ( express+ !mselves1 a  
f9] or bett] made g[n1 a well-turn$     
ankle1 small foot1 ribbons1 lace1 &     
well-dress$ hair2 ,i ev5 pref] ^? :o h  
less natural beauty1 provid$ !y are     
elegantly decorat$4 ,i freely confess   
?is pref]5ce is v ridicul\s2 yet my he>t
 gives 9 to x spite ( my und]/&+4 ,well1
 ev5 ?is advantage pres5t$ itself1 & x  
only dep5d$ on my own resolution to h   
seiz$ ! opportunity4  ,h[ d ,i love1 f  
"t to "t1 to return to ^? mom5ts ( my   
y\?1 :i* 7 s *>m+ly delightful2 s %ort1 
s sc>ce1 & enjoy$ at s *eap a rate6--h[ 
fondly d ,i wi% to dwell on !m6 ,ev5 yet
 ! remembrance ( ^! sc5es w>ms my he>t )
 a *a/e rapture1 :i* appe>s necess>y to 
reanimate my droop+ c\rage1 & enable me 
to su/a9 ! we>9ess ( my latt] days4  ,! 
appe>ance ( ,aurora seem$ s delightful  
"o morn+ t1 putt+ on my clo!s1 ,i ha/5$ 
into ! c\ntry1 to see ! ris+ ( ! sun4 ,i

 enjoy$ t pleasure 9 its utmo/ ext5t2 x 
0 "o week aft] midsumm]2 ! e>? 0 cov]$ )
 v]dure & fl[]s1 ! night+ales1 ^: s(t   
w>bl+s 7 almo/ conclud$1 seem$ to vie ) 
ea* o!r1 & 9 conc]t ) birds ( v>i\s k9ds
 to bid adieu to spr+1 & hail ! approa* 
( a beautiful summ]'s day3 "o ( ^?      
lovely days t are no long] to be enjoy$ 
at my age1 & :i* h nev] be5 se5 on !    
melan*oly soil ,i n[ inhabit4  ,i _h    
rambl$ ins5sibly1 to a consid]able      
di/ance f ! t[n--! heat augm5t$--,i 0   
walk+ 9 ! %ade along a valley1 by ! side
 ( a brook1 ,i he>d beh9d me ! /eps (   
horses1 & ! voice ( "s females :o1 ?\gh 
!y seem$ emb>rass$1 did n laugh ! less  
he>tily on t acc\nt4 ,i turn r\nd1 he>  
myself call$ by "n1 & approa*+1 f9d two 
"y p ( my acqua9tance1 ,mademoiselle de 
,g---- & ,mademoiselle ,galley1 :o1 n   
be+ v excell5t horsewom51 c\ld n make _!
 horses cross ! rivulet4  ,mademoiselle 
de ,g---- 0 a "y lady ( ,b]ne1 v        
amiable2 :o1 hav+ be5 s5t f t c\ntry =  
"s y\?ful folly1 _h imitat$ ,madam de   

,w>5s1 at ^: h\se ,i _h sometimes se5   
h]2 b n hav+1 l h]1 a p5sion1 %e _h be5 
=tunate 9 ?is atta*m5t to ,mademoiselle 
,galley1 :o _h prevail$ on h] "m to     
engage h] "y fri5d z a companion1 till  
%e c\ld be o!rwise provid$ =4           
,mademoiselle ,galley 0 "o ye> y\ng] ?an
 h] fri5d1 h&som]1 m delicate1 m +5i\s1 
& to complete all1 extremely well made4 
,!y lov$ ea* o!r t5d]ly1 & ! good       
disposition ( bo? c\ld n fail to r5d] _!
 union durable1 if "s lov] did n d]ange 
x4 ,!y in=m$ me !y 7 go+ to ,t\ne1 an   
old ca/le belong+ to ,madam ,galley1 &  
implor$ my assi/ance to make _! horses  
cross ! /ream1 n be+ able to compass x  
!mselves4 ,i w\ld h giv5 ea* a cut or   
two ) ! :ip1 b !y fe>$ ,i might be      
kick$1 & !mselves ?r[n2 ,i !re=e _h     
rec\rse to ano!r exp$i5t1 ,i took hold (
 ,mademoiselle ,galley's horse & l$ him 
?r\gh ! brook1 ! wat] rea*+ half-way up 
my legs4 ,! o!r foll[$ )\t any          
difficulty4 ,?is done1 ,i w\ld h paid my
 complim5ts to ! ladies1 & walk$ (f l a 

great booby z ,i 01 b aft] :isp]+ ea*   
o!r1 ,mademoiselle de ,g---- said1 ,no1 
no1 y mu/ n ?9k to escape ?us2 y h got  
wet 9 our s]vice1 & we ought 9 consci5ce
 to take c>e & dry y4 ,if y please y mu/
 g ) u1 y are n[ our prison]4 ,my he>t  
began to beat--,i look$ at ,mademoiselle
 ,galley--,yes1 yes1 add$ %e1 laugh+ at 
my fe>ful look2 our prison] ( w>2 come1 
get up beh9d h]1 we %all give a good    
acc\nt ( y4--,b1 mademoiselle1 cont9u$  
,i1 ,i h n ! honor to be acqua9t$ ) y\r 
"m2 :at w %e say on my arrival8--,h] "m1
 repli$ ,mademoiselle de ,g---- is n at 
,t\ne1 we are alone1 we %all return at  
night1 & y %all come back ) u4  ,! /roke
 ( electricity has n a m in/antane\s    
effect ?an ^! words produc$ on me4      
,leap+ beh9d ,mademoiselle de ,g----1 ,i
 trembl$ ) joy1 & :5 x became necess>y  
to clasp h] 9 ord] to hold myself on1 my
 he>t beat s viol5tly t %e p]ceiv$ x1 & 
told me h]s beat also f a fe> ( fall+4  
,9 my pres5t po/ure1 ,i might naturally 
h consid]$ ?is an invitation to satisfy 

myself ( ! tru? ( h] ass]tion1 yet ,i   
did n d>e1 & dur+ ! :ole way my arm s]v$
 z a girdle 7a v close "o1 ,i mu/       
confess71 )\t be+ a mom5t displac$4 ,"s 
wom5 t may read ?is w\ld be = giv+ me a 
box on ! e>1 &1 truly1 ,i des]v$ x4  ,! 
gayety ( ! j\rney1 & ! *at ( ^! girls1 s
 enliv5$ me1 t dur+ ! :ole "t we pass$  
toge!r we nev] ceas$ talk+ a mom5t4 ,!y 
_h set me s ?or\ghly at ease1 t my      
tongue spoke z fa/ z my eyes1 ?\gh n    
exactly ! same ?+s4 ,"s m9utes1 inde$1  
:5 ,i 0 left alone ) ei!r1 ! conv]sation
 became a little emb>rass$1 b nei!r ( !m
 0 abs5t long en\gh to all[ "t = expla9+
 ! cause4  ,arriv$ at ,t\ne1 & myself   
well dri$1 we breakfa/$ toge!r2 aft] :i*
 x 0 necess>y to settle ! important     
bus9ess ( prep>+ d9n]4 ,! "y ladies     
cook$1 kiss+ f "t to "t ! f>m]'s *ildr51
 :ile ! poor scullion look$ on grumbl+4 
,provisions _h be5 s5t = f t[n1 & !re 0 
ev]y?+ necess>y = a good d9n]1 b        
unhappily !y _h =gott5 w9e2 ?is         
=getfulness 0 by no means a/oni%+ to    

girls :o seldom drank any1 b ,i 0 sorry 
= ! omission1 z ,i _h reckon$ on its    
help1 ?9k+ x might add to my confid5ce4 
,!y 7 sorry likewise1 & p]haps f ! same 
motive2 ?\gh ,i h no reason to say ?is1 
= _! lively & *>m+ gayety 0 innoc5ce    
itself2 besides1 !re 7 two ( !m1 :at    
c\ld !y expect f me8 !y w5t ev]y:]e ab\t
 ! neighborhood to seek = w9e1 b none   
c\ld be procur$1 s pure & sob] are !    
peasants 9 ^? p>ts4 ,z !y 7 express+ _! 
conc]n1 ,i begg$ !m n to give !mselves  
any uneas9ess on my acc\nt1 = :ile ) !m 
,i _h no occasion = w9e to intoxicate   
me4 ,?is 0 ! only gallantry ,i v5tur$ at
 dur+ ! :ole ( ! day1 & ,i believe ! sly
 rogues saw well en\gh t ,i said no?+ b 
! tru?4  ,we d9$ 9 ! kit*52 ! two fri5ds
 7 seat$ on ! b5*es1 "o on ea* side !   
long table1 & _! gue/ at ! end1 betwe5  
!m1 on a ?ree--legg$ /ool4 ,:at a d9n]6 
h[ *>m+ ! remembrance6 ,:ile we c enjoy1
 at s small an exp5se1 su* pure1 su*    
true delights1 :y %\ld we be solicit\s =
 o!rs8 ,nev] did ^? 'petite s\pes'1 s   

celebrat$ 9 ,p>is1 equal ?is2 ,i d n    
only say = real pleasure & gayety1 b ev5
 = s5suality4  ,aft] d9n]1 we 7         
economical2 in/ead ( dr9k+ ! c(fee we _h
 res]v$ at breakfa/1 we kept x = an     
aft]noon collation1 ) cream1 & "s cake  
!y _h br\ght ) !m4 ,to keep our         
appetites 9 play1 we w5t into ! or*>d1  
mean+ to f9i% our dess]t ) *]ries4 ,i   
got into a tree1 ?r[+ !m d[n bun*es1 f  
:i* !y return$ ! /ones ?r\gh ! bran*es4 
,"o "t1 ,mademoiselle ,galley1 hold+ out
 h] apron1 & draw+ back h] head1 /ood s 
fair1 & ,i took su* good aim1 t ,i      
dropp$ a bun* into h] bosom4 ,on h]     
laugh+1 ,i said to myself1 ,:y are n my 
lips *]ries8 ,h[ gladly w\ld ,i ?r[ !m  
!re likewise4  ,?us ! day pass$ ) !     
greate/ fre$om1 yet ) ! utmo/ dec5cy2 n 
a s+le equivocal ^w1 n "o attempt at    
d\ble-mean+ pleasantry2 yet ?is delicacy
 0 n affect$1 we only p]=m$ ! p>ts our  
he>ts dictat$2 9 %ort1 my mode/y1 "s w  
say my folly1 0 su* t ! greate/         
famili>ity t escap$ me 0 once kiss+ ! h&

 ( ,mademoiselle ,galley2 x is true1 !  
att5d+ circum/ances help$ to /amp a     
value on ?is trifl+ favor2 we 7 alone1  
,i 0 emb>rass$1 h] eyes 7 fix$ on !     
gr\nd1 & my lips1 in/ead ( utt]+ words1 
7 press$ on h] h&1 :i* %e drew g5tly    
back aft] ! salute1 )\t any appe>ance ( 
displeasure4 ,i "k n :at ,i %\ld h said 
to h]2 b h] fri5d ent]$1 & at t mom5t ,i
 ?\ght h] ugly4  ,at l5g?1 !y be?\ght   
!mselves1 t !y mu/ return to t[n be=e   
night2 ev5 n[ we _h b j "t to rea* x by 
daylight2 & we ha/5$ our dep>ture 9 !   
same ord] we came4 ,_h ,i pleas$ myself1
 ,i %\ld c]ta9ly h rev]s$ ?is ord]1 = ! 
glance ( ,mademoiselle ,galley _h rea*$ 
my he>t1 b ,i d>$ n m5tion x1 & !       
proposal c\ld n reasonably come f h]4   
,on ! way1 we express$ our sorr[ t ! day
 0 ov]1 b f> f compla9+ ( ! %ortness (  
its duration1 we 7 consci\s ( hav+      
prolong$ x by e possible amusem5t4  ,i  
quitt$ !m 9 ne>ly ! same spot :]e ,i _h 
tak5 !m up4 ,) :at regret did we "p6 ,) 
:at pleasure did we =m projects to r5ew 

our meet+6 ,delightful h\rs1 :i* we     
pass$ innoc5tly toge!r1 yet 7 wor? ages 
( famili>ity6 ,! sweet remembrance ( ^? 
days co/ ^? amiable girls no?+2 ! t5d]  
union :i* reign$ among u equall$ m      
lively pleasures1 ) :i* x c\ld n h      
exi/$4 ,we lov$ ea* o!r )\t %ame or     
my/]y1 & wi%$ to cont9ue our reciprocal 
affection4 ,!re is a species ( enjoym5t 
connect$ ) innoc5ce ( mann]s :i* is     
sup]ior to any o!r1 because x has no    
int]val2 = myself1 ! remembrance ( su* a
 day t\*es me ne>]1 delights me m1 &    
returns ) great] rapture to my he>t ?an 
any o!r pleasure ,i ev] ta/$4 ,i h>dly  
knew :at ,i wi%$ ) ^? *>m+ girls4 ,i d n
 say3 t _h ! arrangem5t be5 9 my p[]1 ,i
 %\ld h divid$ my he>t betwe5 !m2 ,i    
c]ta9ly felt "s degree ( pref]5ce3 ?\gh 
,i %\ld h be5 happy to h _h             
,mademoiselle de ,g----1 = a mi/ress1 ,i
 ?9k1 by *oice1 ,i %\ld h lik$ h] bett] 
z a confidante2 be t z x may1 ,i felt on
 leav+ !m z ?\gh ,i c\ld n live )\t     
ei!r4 ,:o w\ld h ?\ght t ,i %\ld nev]   

see !m m2 & t "h our ephem]al am\rs mu/ 
end8  ,^? :o read ?is w n fail to laugh 
at my gallantries1 & rem>k1 t aft] v    
promis+ prelim9>ies1 my mo/ =w>d        
adv5tures conclud$ by a kiss ( ! h&3 yet
 be n mi/ak51 read]1 9 y\r e/imate ( my 
enjoym5ts2 ,i h1 p]haps1 ta/$ m real    
pleasure 9 my am\rs1 :i* conclud$ by a  
kiss ( ! h&1 ?an y w ev] h 9 y\rs1 :i*1 
at lea/1 beg9 !re4  ,v5ture1 :o _h gone 
to b$ late ! night be=e1 came 9 soon    
aft] me4 ,i did n n[ see him ) my usual 
satisfaction1 & took c>e n to in=m him  
h[ ,i _h pass$ ! day4 ,! ladies _h spok5
 ( him slight+ly1 & appe>$ discont5t$ at
 f9d+ me 9 su* bad h&s2 ?is hurt him 9  
my e/eem2 besides1 :atev] div]t$ my     
ideas f !m 0 at ?is "t disagreeable4    
,h[ev]1 he soon br\ght me back to him & 
myself1 by speak+ ( ! situation ( my    
affairs1 :i* 0 too critical to la/2 =1  
?\gh ,i sp5t v little1 my sl5d] f9ances 
7 almo/ exhau/$4 ,i 0 )\t res\rce2 no   
news ( ,madam de ,w>5s2 n kn[+ :at w\ld 
become ( me1 & feel+ a cruel pang at    

he>t to see ! fri5d ( ,mademoiselle     
,galley r$uc$ to begg>y4  ,i n[ le>n$ f 
,v5ture t he _h spok5 ( me to ! ,judge  
,major1 & w\ld take me next day to d9e )
 him2 t he 0 a man :o by means ( 8      
fri5ds might r5d] me ess5tial s]vice4 ,9
 o!r respects he 0 a desirable          
acqua9tance1 be+ a man ( wit & lett]s1 (
 agreeable conv]sation1 "o :o possess$  
tal5ts & lov$ !m 9 o!rs4 ,aft] ?is      
disc\rse 7m+l+ ! mo/ s]i\s conc]ns ) !  
mo/ trifl+ frivolity7 he %[$ me a pretty
 c\plet1 :i* came f ,p>is1 on an air 9  
"o ( ,m\ret's op]as1 :i* 0 !n play+4    
,monsieur ,simon 7! judge major7 0 s    
pleas$ ) ?is c\plet1 t he det]m9$ to    
make ano!r 9 answ] to x1 on ! same air4 
,he _h desir$ ,v5ture to write "o1 & he 
wi%$ me to make a ?ird1 t1 z he express$
 x1 !y might see c\plets />t up next day
 l incid5ts 9 a comic romance4  ,9 !    
night 7n be+ able to sleep7 ,i compos$ a
 c\plet1 z my fir/ essay 9 poetry4 ,x 0 
passable2 bett]1 or at lea/ compos$ ) m 
ta/e ?an x w\ld h be5 ! prec$+ night1 ! 

subject be+ t5d]ness1 to :i* my he>t 0  
n[ entirely dispos$4 ,9 ! morn+ ,i %[$  
my p]=mance to ,v5ture1 :o1 be+ pleas$ )
 ! c\plet1 put x 9 8 pocket1 )\t in=m+  
me :e!r he _h made 84 ,we d9$ ) ,m4     
,simon1 :o treat$ u v politely4 ,!      
conv]sation 0 agreeable2 inde$ x c\ld n 
be o!rwise betwe5 two m5 ( natural good 
s5se1 improv$ by read+4 ,= me1 ,i act$  
my prop] "p1 :i* 0 to li/5 )\t attempt+ 
to jo9 9 ! conv]sation4 ,nei!r ( !m     
m5tion$ ! c\plet nor d ,i "k t x ev]    
pass$ = m9e4 ,m4 ,simon appe>$ satisfi$ 
) my behavior2 inde$1 x 0 almo/ all he  
saw ( me at ?is int]view4 ,we _h (t5 met
 at ,madam de ,w>5s1 b he _h nev] paid  
mu* att5tion to me2 x is f ?is d9n]1    
!re=e1 t ,i date our acqua9tance1 :i*1  
?\gh ( no use 9 reg>d to ! object ,i !n 
_h 9 view1 0 aft]w>ds productive (      
advantages :i* make me recollect x )    
pleasure4 ,i %\ld be wrong n to give "s 
acc\nt ( ?is p]son1 s9ce f 8 (fice (    
magi/rate1 & ! reputation ( wit on :i*  
he piqu$ himself1 no idea c\ld be =m$ ( 

x4 ,! judge major1 ,simon1 c]ta9ly 0 n  
two feet high2 8 legs sp>e1 /raight1 &  
tol]ably long1 w\ld h add$ some?+ to 8  
/ature _h !y be5 v]tical1 b !y /ood 9 ! 
direction ( an op5 pair ( compasses4 ,8 
body 0 n only %ort1 b ?91 be+ 9 e       
respect ( mo/ inconceivable             
smallness--:5 nak$ he mu/ h appe>$ l a  
gras%opp]4 ,8 head 0 ( ! common size1 to
 :i* app]ta9$ a well-=m$ face1 a noble  
look1 & tol]ably f9e eyes2 9 %ort1 x    
appe>$ a borr[$ head1 /uck on a mis]able
 /ump4 ,he might v well h disp5s$ )     
dress1 = 8 l>ge wig alone cov]$ him f   
head to foot4  ,he _h two voices1       
p]fectly diff]5t1 :i* int]m+l$          
p]petually 9 8 conv]sation1 =m+ at fir/ 
a div]t+1 b aft]w>ds a v disagreeable   
contra/4 ,"o grave & sonor\s1 01 if ,i  
may haz>d ! expression1 ! voice ( 8     
head3 ! o!r1 cle>1 %>p1 & pi]c+1 ! voice
 ( 8 body4 ,:5 he paid p>ticul>         
att5tion1 & spoke leisurely1 s z to     
pres]ve 8 brea?1 he c\ld cont9ue 8 deep 
tone2 b if he 0 ! lea/ animat$1 or      

attempt$ a lively acc5t1 8 voice s\nd$ l
 ! :i/l+ ( a key1 & x 0 ) ! utmo/       
difficulty t he c\ld return to ! bass4  
,) ! figure ,i h j describ$1 & :i* is by
 no means ov]*>g$1 ,m4 ,simon 0 gallant1
 ev] ent]ta9+ ! ladies ) s(t tales1 &   
c>ry+ ! decoration ( 8 p]son ev5 to     
fopp]y4 ,will+ to make use ( e advantage
 he1 dur+ ! morn+1 gave audi5ce 9 b$1 = 
:5 a h&some head 0 discov]$ on ! pill[  
no "o c\ld h imag9$ :at belong$ to x4   
,?is circum/ance gave bir? to sc5es1 :i*
 ,i am c]ta9 are yet rememb]$ by all    
,annecy4  ,"o morn+1 :5 he expect$ to   
give audi5ce 9 b$1 or r on ! b$1 hav+ on
 a h&some night-cap ornam5t$ )          
rose-color$ ribbon1 a c\ntryman arriv+  
knock$ at ! door2 ! maid happ5$ to be   
out2 ! judge1 !re=e1 he>+ ! knock       
repeat$1 cri$ ,come 91 &1 z he spoke r  
l\d1 x 0 9 8 %rill tone4 ,! man ent]$1  
look$ ab\t1 endeavor+ to discov] :5ce ! 
female voice proce$$ & at l5g? see+ a   
h&some head-dress set (f ) ribbons1 0   
ab\t to leave ! room1 mak+ ! suppos$    

lady a hundr$ apologies4 ,m4 ,simon1 9 a
 rage1 scream$ ! m2 & ! c\ntryman1 yet m
 confirm$ 9 8 op9ion1 conceiv+ himself  
to be insult$1 began rail+ 9 8 turn1    
say+ t1 ,app>5tly1 %e 0 no?+ bett] ?an a
 common /reetwalk]1 & t ! judge major   
%\ld be a%am$ ( sett+ su* ill examples4 
,! enrag$ magi/rate1 hav+ no o!r weapon 
?an ! jordan "u 8 b$1 0 j go+ to ?r[ x  
at ! poor fell['s head z 8 s]vant       
return$4  ,?is dw>f1 ill-us$ by nature z
 to 8 p]son1 0 recomp5s$ by possess+ an 
und]/&+ naturally agreeable1 & :i* he _h
 be5 c>eful to cultivate4 ,?\gh he 0    
e/eem$ a good lawy]1 he did n l 8       
pr(ession1 delight+ m 9 ! f9] p>ts (    
lit]ature1 :i* he /udi$ ) success3 above
 all1 he possess$ t sup]ficial          
brilliancy1 ! art ( pleas+ 9            
conv]sation1 ev5 ) ! ladies4 ,he knew by
 he>t a numb] ( little /ories1 :i* he   
p]fectly well knew h[ to make ! mo/ (2  
relat+ ) an air ( secrecy1 & z an       
anecdote ( ye/]day1 :at happ5$ sixty    
ye>s be=e4 ,he und]/ood music1 & c\ld s+

 agreeably2 9 %ort1 = a magi/rate1 he _h
 _m pleas+ tal5ts4 ,by flatt]+ ! ladies 
( ,annecy1 he became fa%ionable among   
!m1 appe>+ cont9ually 9 _! tra94 ,he ev5
 pret5d$ to favors1 at :i* !y 7 mu*     
amus$4 ,a ,madam ,d',epigny us$ to say  
,! greate/ favor he c\ld aspire to1 0 to
 kiss a lady on h] knees4  ,z he 0 well 
read1 & spoke flu5tly1 8 conv]sation 0  
bo? amus+ & in/ructive4 ,:5 ,i aft]w>ds 
took a ta/e = /udy1 ,i cultivat$ 8      
acqua9tance1 & f\nd my acc\nt 9 x3 :5 at
 ,*amb]y1 ,i frequ5tly w5t f !nce to see
 him4 ,8 praises increas$ my emulation1 
to :i* he add$ "s good advice respect+ !
 prosecution ( my /udies1 :i* ,i f\nd   
useful4 ,unhappily1 ?is weakly body     
conta9$ a v feel+ s\l4 ,"s ye>s aft]1 he
 0 *agr9$ by ,i "k n :at unlucky affair1
 b x co/ him 8 life4 ,?is 0 really      
un=tunate1 = he 0 a good little man1 :om
 at a fir/ acqua9tance "o laugh$ at1 b  
aft]w>ds lov$4 ,?\gh our situations 9   
life 7 v little connect$ ) ea* o!r1 z ,i
 receiv$ "s useful lessons f him1 ,i    

?\ght gratitude dem&$ t ,i %\ld d$icate 
a few s5t5ces to 8 memory4  ,z soon z ,i
 f\nd myself at lib]ty1 ,i ran into !   
/reet :]e ,mademoiselle ,galley liv$1   
flatt]+ myself t ,i %\ld see someone g 9
 or out1 or at lea/ op5 a w9d[1 b ,i 0  
mi/ak51 n ev5 a cat appe>$1 ! h\se      
rema9+ z close all ! "t z if x _h be5   
un9habit$4 ,! /reet 0 small & lonely1   
any "o loit]+ ab\t 01 consequ5tly1 m    
likely to be notic$2 f "t to "t p pass$ 
9 & out ( ! neighborhood2 ,i 0 mu*      
emb>rass$1 ?9k+ my p]son might be kn[n1 
& ! cause t br\ght me !re conjectur$2   
?is idea tortur$ me1 = ,i h ev] pref]r$ 
! honor & happ9ess ( ^? ,i love to my   
own pleasures4  ,at l5g?1 we>y ( play+ !
 ,spani% lov]1 & hav+ no guit>1 ,i      
det]m9$ to write to ,mademoiselle de    
,g----4 ,i %\ld h pref]r$ writ+ to h]   
fri5d1 b did n d>e take t lib]ty1 z x   
appe>$ m prop] to beg9 ) h] to :om ,i   
ow$ ! acqua9tance1 & ) :om ,i 0 mo/     
famili>4 ,hav+ writt5 my lett]1 ,i took 
x to ,mademoiselle ,giraud1 z ! "y      

ladies _h agre$ at p>t+1 !y hav+ furni%$
 me ) ?is exp$i5t4 ,mademoiselle ,giraud
 0 a quilt]1 & sometimes work$ at ,madam
 ,galley's1 :i* procur$ h] free         
admission to ! h\se4 ,i mu/ confess1 ,i 
0 n ?or\ghly satisfi$ ) ?is mess5g]1 b 0
 cauti\s ( />t+ difficulties1 fe>+ t if 
,i object$ to h] no o!r might be nam$1 &
 x 0 impossible to intimate t %e _h an  
incl9ation to me h]self4 ,i ev5 felt    
humiliat$ t %e %\ld ?9k ,i c\ld imag9e  
h] ( ! same sex z ^? "y ladies3 9 a ^w1 
,i accept$ h] ag5cy r ?an none1 & avail$
 myself ( x at all ev5ts4  ,at ! v fir/ 
^w1 ,giraud discov]$ me4 ,i mu/ own ?is 
0 n a difficult matt]1 = if s5d+ a lett]
 to "y girls _h n spok5 suffici5tly     
pla91 my fooli% emb>rass$ air w\ld h    
betray$ me4 ,x w easily be suppos$ t !  
employm5t gave h] little satisfaction1  
%e und]took x1 h[ev]1 & p]=m$ x         
fai?fully4 ,! next morn+ ,i ran to h]   
h\se & f\nd an answ] ready = me4 ,h[ did
 ,i hurry away t ,i might h an          
opportunity to read & kiss x alone6 ?\gh

 ?is ne$ n be5 told1 b ! plan adopt$ by 
,mademoiselle ,giraud 7& 9 :i* ,i f\nd m
 delicacy & mod]ation ?an ,i _h expect$7
 %\ld4 ,%e _h s5se en\gh to conclude t  
h] ?irty-sev5 ye>s1 h>e's eyes1 daub$   
nose1 %rill voice1 & black sk91 /ood no 
*ance aga9/ two elegant "y girls1 9 all 
! height & bloom ( beauty2 %e resolv$1  
!re=e1 ne!r to betray nor assi/ !m1     
*oos+ r to lose me entirely ?an ent]ta9 
me = !m4  ,z ,m]c]et _h n he>d f h]     
mi/ress = "s "t1 %e ?\ght ( return+ to  
,frib\rg1 & ! p]suasions ( ,giraud      
det]m9$ h]2 nay m1 %e intimat$ x 0 prop]
 someone %\ld conduct h] to h] fa!r's & 
propos$ me4 ,z ,i happ5$ to be agreeable
 to little ,m]c]et1 %e approv$ ! idea1 &
 ! same day !y m5tion$ x to me z a fix$ 
po9t4 ,f9d+ no?+ displeas+ 9 ! mann] !y 
_h dispos$ ( me1 ,i cons5t$1 ?9k+ x c\ld
 n be above a week's j\rney at mo/2 b   
,giraud1 :o _h arrang$ ! :ole affair1   
?\ght o!rwise4 ,x 0 necess>y to av[ !   
/ate ( my f9ances1 & ! conclusion 01 t  
,m]c]et %\ld defray my exp5ses2 b to    

retr5* on "o h& :at 0 exp5d$ on ! o!r1  
,i advis$ t h] little baggage %\ld be   
s5t on be=e1 & t we %\ld proce$ by easy 
j\rneys on foot4  ,i am sorry to h s _m 
girls 9 love ) me1 b z !re is no?+ to be
 v va9 ( 9 ! success ( ^! am\rs1 ,i ?9k 
,i may tell ! tru? )\t scruple4 ,m]c]et1
 y\ng] & less artful ?an ,giraud1 nev]  
made me s _m advances1 b %e imitat$ my  
mann]s1 my actions1 repeat$ my words1 & 
%[$ me all ^? little att5tions ,i ought 
to h _h = h]4 ,be+ v timor\s1 %e took   
great c>e t we %\ld bo? sleep 9 ! same  
*amb]2 a circum/ance t usually produces 
"s consequ5ces betwe5 a lad ( tw5ty & a 
girl ( tw5ty-five4  ,= once1 h[ev]1 x   
w5t no fur!r2 my simplicity be+ su*1 t  
?\gh ,m]c]et 0 by no means a            
disagreeable girl1 an idea ( gallantry  
nev] ent]$ my head1 & ev5 if x _h1 ,i 0 
too great a novice to h pr(it$ by x4 ,i 
c\ld n imag9e h[ two "y p]sons c\ld br+ 
!mselves to sleep toge!r1 ?9k+ t su*    
famili>ity mu/ require an age (         
prep>ation4 ,if poor ,m]c]et paid my    

exp5ses 9 hopes ( any return1 %e 0      
t]ribly *eat$1 = we arriv$ at ,frib\rg  
exactly z we _h quitt$ ,annecy4  ,i     
pass$ ?r\gh ,g5eva )\t visit+ any "o4   
,:ile go+ ov] ! bridges1 ,i f\nd myself 
s affect$ t ,i c\ld sc>cely proce$4     
,nev] c\ld ,i see ! walls ( t city1 nev]
 c\ld ,i ent] x1 )\t feel+ my he>t s9k f
 excess ( t5d]ness1 at ! same "t t !    
image ( lib]ty elevat$ my s\l4 ,! ideas 
( equality1 union1 & g5tl5ess ( mann]s1 
t\*$ me ev5 to te>s1 & inspir$ me ) a   
lively regret at hav+ =feit$ all ^!     
advantages4 ,:at an error 0 ,i 96 b yet 
h[ natural6 ,i imag9$ ,i saw all ?is 9  
my native c\ntry1 because ,i bore x 9 my
 he>t4  ,x 0 necess>y to pass ?r\gh     
,nion3 c\ld ,i d ?is )\t see+ my good   
fa!r8 ,_h ,i resolv$ on do+ s1 ,i mu/   
aft]w>ds h di$ ) regret4 ,i left ,m]c]et
 at ! inn1 & v5tur$ to 8 h\se4 ,h[ wrong
 0 ,i to fe> him6 ,on see+ me1 8 s\l    
gave way to ! p>5tal t5d]ness ) :i* x 0 
fill$4 ,:at te>s 7 m+l$ ) our embraces6 
,he ?\ght ,i 0 return$ to him3 ,i relat$

 my hi/ory1 & in=m$ him ( my resolution4
 ,he oppos$ x feebly1 m5tion+ ! dang]s  
to :i* ,i expos$ myself1 & tell+ me !   
%orte/ follies 7 be/1 b did n attempt to
 keep me by =ce1 9 :i* p>ticul> ,i ?9k  
he act$ "r2 b x is c]ta9 he did n d     
ev]y?+ 9 8 p[] to deta9 me1 ev5 by fair 
means4 ,:e!r aft] ! /ep ,i _h tak51 he  
?\ght ,i ought n to return1 or 0 puzzl$ 
at my age to "k :at to d ) me--,i h s9ce
 f\nd t he conceiv$ a v unju/ op9ion (  
my travell+ companion4 ,my /ep-"m1 a    
good woman1 a little coax+ly put on an  
appe>ance ( wi%+ me to /ay to supp]2 ,i 
did n1 h[ev]1 comply1 b told !m ,i      
propos$ rema9+ long] ) !m on my return2 
leav+ z a deposit my little packet1 t _h
 come by wat]1 & w\ld h be5 an          
incumbrance1 _h ,i tak5 x ) me4 ,i      
cont9u$ my j\rney ! next morn+1 well    
satisfi$ t ,i _h se5 my fa!r1 & _h tak5 
c\rage to d my duty4  ,we arriv$ )\t any
 accid5t at ,frib\rg4 ,t[>ds !          
conclusion ( ! j\rney1 ! polit5ess (    
,mademoiselle ,m]c]et r dim9i%$1 &1 aft]

 our arrival1 %e treat$ me ev5 )        
coldness4 ,h] fa!r1 :o 0 n 9 ! be/      
circum/ances1 did n %[ me mu* att5tion1 
& ,i 0 oblig$ to lodge at an aleh\se4 ,i
 w5t to see !m ! next morn+1 & receiv$  
an invitation to d9e !re1 :i* ,i        
accept$4 ,we sep>at$ )\t te>s at night2 
,i return$ to my paltry lodg+1 & dep>t$ 
! second day aft] my arrival1 almo/ )\t 
kn[+ :i!r to g to4  ,?is 0 a circum/ance
 ( my life 9 :i* ,provid5ce (f]$ me     
precisely :at 0 necess>y to make my days
 pass happily4 ,m]c]et 0 a good girl1   
nei!r witty1 h&some1 nor ugly2 n v      
lively1 b tol]ably rational1 except :ile
 "u ! influ5ce ( "s little humors1 :i*  
usually evaporat$ 9 te>s1 )\t any viol5t
 outbreak ( temp]4 ,%e _h a real        
incl9ation = me2 ,i might h m>ri$ h] )\t
 difficulty1 & foll[$ h] fa!r's bus9ess4
 ,my ta/e = music w\ld h made me love   
h]2 ,i %\ld h settl$ at ,frib\rg1 a     
small t[n1 n pretty1 b inhabit$ by v    
wor?y p--,i %\ld c]ta9ly h miss$ great  
pleasures1 b %\ld h liv$ 9 peace to my  

la/ h\r1 & ,i mu/ "k be/ :at ,i %\ld h  
ga9$ by su* a /ep4  ,i did n return to  
,nion1 b to ,lausanne1 wi%+ to gratify  
myself ) a view ( t beautiful lake :i*  
is se5 !re 9 its utmo/ ext5t4 ,! great] 
"p ( my secret motives h n be5 s        
reasonable4 ,di/ant expectation has     
r>ely /r5g? en\gh to influ5ce my        
actions2 ! unc]ta9ty ( ! future ev] mak+
 me reg>d projects ^: execution requires
 a l5g? ( "t z deceitful lures4 ,i give 
9 to vision>y sc5es ( hope z well z     
o!rs1 provid$ !y co/ no?+1 b if att5d$ )
 any tr\ble1 ,i h done ) !m4 ,! smalle/1
 ! mo/ trifl+ pleasure t is conv5i5tly  
)9 my rea*1 tempts me m ?an all ! joys (
 p>adise4 ,i mu/ except1 h[ev]1 ^?      
pleasures :i* are necess>ily foll[$ by  
pa92 ,i only love ^? enjoym5ts :i* are  
unadult]at$1 :i* c nev] be ! case :]e we
 are consci\s !y mu/ be foll[$ by       
rep5tance4  ,x 0 necess>y ,i %\ld arrive
 at "s place1 & ! ne>e/ 0 be/2 = hav+   
lo/ my way on ! road1 ,i f\nd myself 9 !
 ev5+ at ,m\don1 :]e ,i sp5t all t      

rema9$ ( my little /ock except t5       
creuz]s1 :i* s]v$ to pur*ase my next    
day's d9n]4 ,arriv+ 9 ! ev5+ at         
,lausanne1 ,i w5t into an ale-h\se1 )\t 
a p5ny 9 my pocket to pay = my lodg+1 or
 kn[+ :at w\ld become ( me4 ,i f\nd     
myself extremely hungry--sett+1 !re=e1 a
 good face on ! matt]1 ,i ord]$ supp]1  
made my meal1 w5t to b$ )\t ?\ght &     
slept ) great composure4 ,9 ! morn+1    
hav+ breakfa/$ & reckon$ ) my ho/1 ,i   
(f]$ to leave my wai/coat 9 pl$ge = sev5
 batz1 :i* 0 ! am\nt ( my exp5ses4 ,!   
hone/ man refus$ ?is1 say+1 ?ank ,heav51
 he _h nev] /ripp$ any "o1 & w\ld n n[  
beg9 = sev5 batz1 add+ ,i %\ld keep my  
wai/coat & pay him :5 ,i c\ld4 ,i 0     
affect$ ) ?is unexpect$ k9dness1 b felt 
x less ?an ,i ought to h done1 or h s9ce
 exp]i5c$ on ! remembrance ( x4 ,i did n
 fail s5d+ him 8 money1 ) ?anks1 by "o  
,i c\ld dep5d on4 ,fifte5 ye>s aft]1    
pass+ ,lausanne1 on my return f ,italy1 
,i felt a s5sible regret at hav+ =gott5 
! "n ( ! l&lord & h\se4 ,i wi%$ to see  

him1 & %\ld h felt real pleasure 9      
recall+ to 8 memory t wor?y action4     
,s]vices :i* d\btless h be5 mu* m       
important1 b r5d]$ ) o/5tation1 h n     
appe>$ to me s wor?y ( gratitude z !    
simple unaffect$ humanity ( ?is hone/   
man4  ,z ,i approa*$ ,lausanne1 ,i ?\ght
 ( my di/ress1 & ! means ( extricat+    
myself1 )\t appe>+ 9 want to my /ep-"m4 
,i comp>$ myself1 9 ?is walk+           
pilgrimage1 to my fri5d ,v5ture1 on 8   
arrival at ,annecy1 & 0 s w>m$ ) ! idea1
 t )\t recollect+ t ,i _h nei!r 8       
g5tility nor 8 tal5ts1 ,i det]m9$ to act
 ! "p ( little ,v5ture at ,lausanne1 to 
tea* music1 :i* ,i did n und]/&1 & say  
,i came f ,p>is1 :]e ,i _h nev] be54  ,9
 consequ5ce ( ?is noble project 7z !re 0
 no company :]e ,i c\ld introduce myself
 )\t exp5se1 & n *oos+ to v5ture among  
pr(essional p71 ,i inquir$ = "s little  
inn1 :]e ,i c\ld lodge *eap1 & 0 direct$
 to "o nam$ ,p]rotet1 :o took 9 bo>d]s4 
,?is ,p]rotet1 :o 0 "o ( ! be/ m5 9 !   
_w1 receiv$ me v k9dly1 & aft] hav+ he>d

 my feign$ /ory & pr(ession1 promis$ to 
speak ( me1 & endeavor$ to procure me   
s*ol>s1 say+ he %\ld n expect any money 
till ,i _h e>n$ x4 ,8 price = bo>d1 ?\gh
 mod]ate 9 itself1 0 a great deal to me2
 he advis$ me1 !re=e1 to beg9 ) half    
bo>d1 :i* consi/$ ( good s\p only =     
d9n]1 b a pl5tiful supp] at night4 ,i   
clos$ ) ?is proposition1 & ! poor       
,p]rotet tru/$ me ) great *e]fulness1   
sp>+1 meantime1 no tr\ble to be useful  
to me4  ,hav+ f\nd s _m good p 9 my y\?1
 :y d ,i f9d s few 9 my age8 ,is _! race
 ext9ct8 ,no2 b ,i d n seek !m 9 ! same 
situation ,i did =m]ly1 among !         
commonality1 :]e viol5t passions        
pr$om9ate only at int]vals1 & :]e nature
 speaks h] g5u9e s5tim5ts4 ,9 m elevat$ 
/ations !y are entirely smo!r$1 & "u !  
mask ( s5tim5t1 only int]e/ or vanity is
 he>d4  ,hav+ writt5 to my fa!r f       
,lausanne1 he s5t my packet & "s        
excell5t advice1 ( :i* ,i %\ld h pr(it$ 
bett]4 ,i h already obs]v$ t ,i h mom5ts
 ( inconceivable delirium1 9 :i* ,i am  

entirely out ( myself4 ,! adv5ture ,i am
 ab\t to relate is an in/ance ( ?is3 to 
compreh5d h[ completely my bra9 0 turn$1
 & to :at degree ,i _h ',v5turis$' 7if  
,i may be all[$ ! expression71 ! _m     
extravagances ,i ran into at ! same "t  
%\ld be consid]$4 ,behold me1 !n1 a s++ 
ma/]1 )\t kn[+ h[ to note a common song2
 = if ! five or six mon?s pass$ ) ,le   
,maitre _h improv$ me1 !y c\ld n be     
suppos$ suffici5t to qualify me = su* an
 und]tak+2 besides1 be+ taught by a ma/]
 0 en\gh 7z ,i h be=e obs]v$7 to make me
 le>n ill4 ,be+ a ,p>isian f ,g5eva1 & a
 ,ca?olic 9 a ,prote/ant c\ntry1 ,i     
?\ght ,i %\ld *ange my "n ) my religion 
& c\ntry1 /ill approa*+ z ne> z possible
 to ! great model ,i _h 9 view4 ,he     
call$ himself ,v5ture de ,vill5euve4 ,i 
*ang$1 by anagram1 ! "n ,r\sseau into t 
( ,vaussore1 call+ myself ,monsieur     
,vaussore de ,vill5euve4 ,v5ture 0 a    
good compos]1 ?\gh he _h n said s2 )\t  
kn[+ any?+ ( ! art1 ,i boa/$ ( my skill 
to e "o4 ,?is 0 n all3 be+ pres5t$ to   

,monsieur de ,freytor5s1 pr(essor ( law1
 :o lov$ music1 & :o gave conc]ts at 8  
h\se1 no?+ w\ld d b ,i mu/ give him a   
pro( ( my tal5ts1 & accord+ly ,i set    
ab\t compos+ a piece = 8 conc]ts1 z     
boldly z if ,i _h really und]/ood !     
sci5ce4 ,i _h ! con/ancy to labor a     
=tnight at ?is curi\s bus9ess1 to copy x
 fair1 write out ! diff]5t p>ts1 &      
di/ribute !m ) z mu* assurance z if !y  
_h be5 ma/]pieces ( h>mony2 9 %ort 7:at 
w h>dly be believ$1 ?\gh /rictly true71 
,i tack$ a v pretty m9uet to ! end ( x1 
t 0 commonly play$ ab\t ! /reets1 & :i* 
_m may rememb] f ^! words1 s well kn[n  
at t "t3                           ,quel
 caprice6                               
,quelle inju/ice6                       
,quoi6 ta ,cl>ice                       
,trahirait tes feux6  'c4  ,v5ture _h   
taught me ?is air ) ! bass1 set to o!r  
words1 by ! help ( :i* ,i _h reta9$ x3  
?us at ! end ( my composition1 ,i put   
?is m9uet & bass1 suppress+ ! words1 &  
utt]+ x = my own z confid5tly z if ,i _h

 be5 speak+ to ! inhabitants ( ! moon4  
,!y assembl$ to p]=m my piece2 ,i expla9
 to ea* ! movem5t1 ta/e ( execution1 &  
ref]5ces to 8 "p--,i 0 fully occupi$4   
,!y 7 five or six m9utes prep>+1 :i* 7 =
 me s _m ages3 at l5g?1 ev]y?+ is       
adju/$1 myself 9 a conspicu\s situation1
 a f9e roll ( pap] 9 my h&1 gravely     
prep>+ to beat "t4 ,i gave f\r or five  
/rokes ) my pap]1 att5d+ ) take c>e6 !y 
beg9--,no1 nev] s9ce ,fr5* op]as exi/$ 0
 !re su* a confus$ discord6 ,! m9uet1   
h[ev]1 pres5tly put all ! company 9 good
 humor2 h>dly 0 x begun1 be=e ,i he>d   
bur/s ( laught] f all p>ts1 e "o        
congratulat$ me on my pretty ta/e =     
music1 decl>+ ?is m9uet w\ld make me    
spok5 (1 & t ,i m]it$ ! l\de/ praise4 ,x
 is n necess>y to describe my uneas9ess1
 or to own h[ mu* ,i des]v$ x4  ,next   
day1 "o ( ! musicians1 nam$ ,lutold1    
came to see me & 0 k9d en\gh to         
congratulate me on my success4 ,! pr(\nd
 conviction ( my folly1 %ame1 regret1 & 
! /ate ( despair to :i* ,i 0 r$uc$1 ) ! 

impossibility ( conceal+ ! cruel        
agitation ( my he>t1 made me op5 x to   
him2 giv+1 !re=e1 a loose to my te>s1 n 
cont5t ) own+ my ignorance1 ,i told all1
 conjur+ him to secrecy2 he kept 8 ^w1 z
 e "o w suppose4 ,! same ev5+1 all      
,lausanne knew :o ,i 01 b :at is        
rem>kable1 no "o seem$ to "k1 n ev5 !   
good ,p]rotet1 :o 7not)/&+ :at _h       
happ5$7 cont9u$ to lodge & bo>d me4  ,i 
l$ a melan*oly life "h2 ! consequ5ces ( 
su* an essay _h n r5d]$ ,lausanne a v   
agreeable resid5ce4 ,s*ol>s did n pres5t
 !mselves 9 cr[ds1 n a s+le female1 & n 
a p]son ( ! city4 ,i _h only two or ?ree
 great dunces1 z /upid z ,i 0 ignorant1 
:o fatigu$ me to dea?1 & 9 my h&s 7 n   
likely to edify mu*4  ,at l5g?1 ,i 0 s5t
 = to a h\se1 :]e a little s]p5t ( a    
girl amus$ h]self by %[+ me a p>cel (   
music t ,i c\ld n read a note (1 & :i*  
%e _h ! malice to s+ be=e h] ma/]1 to   
tea* him h[ x %\ld be execut$2 = ,i 0 s 
unable to read an air at fir/ sight1 t 9
 ! *>m+ conc]t ,i h j describ$1 ,i c\ld 

n possibly foll[ ! execution a mom5t1 or
 "k :e!r !y play$ truly :at lay be=e !m1
 & ,i myself _h compos$4  ,9 ! mid/ ( s 
_m humiliat+ circum/ances1 ,i _h !      
pleas+ consolation1 f "t to "t1 (       
receiv+ lett]s f my two *>m+ fri5ds4 ,i 
h ev] f\nd ! utmo/ consolatory virtue 9 
! fair2 :5 9 disgrace1 no?+ s(t5s my    
affliction m ?an to be s5sible t an     
amiable woman is int]e/$ = me4 ,?is     
correspond5ce ceas$ soon aft]1 & 0 nev] 
r5ew$3 inde$ x 0 my own fault1 = 9 *ang+
 situations ,i neglect$ s5d+ my address1
 & =c$ by necessity to ?9k p]petually ( 
myself1 ,i soon =got !m4  ,x is a long  
"t s9ce ,i m5tion$ ,madam de ,w>5s1 b x 
%\ld n be suppos$ ,i _h =gott5 h]2 nev] 
0 %e a mom5t abs5t f my ?\ghts4 ,i      
anxi\sly wi%$ to f9d h]1 n m]ely because
 %e 0 necess>y to my subsi/5ce1 b       
because %e 0 inf9itely m necess>y to my 
he>t4 ,my atta*m5t to h] 7?\gh lively & 
t5d]1 z x really 07 did n prev5t my lov+
 o!rs1 b !n x 0 n 9 ! same mann]4 ,all  
equally claim$ my t5d]ness = _! *>ms1 b 

x 0 ^? *>ms alone ,i lov$1 my passion   
w\ld n h surviv$ !m1 :ile ,madam de     
,w>5s might h become old or ugly )\t my 
lov+ h] ! less t5d]ly4 ,my he>t _h      
entirely transmitt$ to h]self ! homage x
 fir/ paid to h] beauty1 & :atev] *ange 
%e might exp]i5ce1 :ile %e rema9$       
h]self1 my s5tim5ts c\ld n *ange4 ,i 0  
s5sible h[ mu* gratitude ,i ow$ to h]1 b
 9 tru?1 ,i nev] ?\ght ( x1 & :e!r %e   
s]v$ me or n1 x w\ld ev] h be5 ! same   
?+4 ,i lov$ h] nei!r f duty1 int]e/1 nor
 conv5i5ce2 ,i lov$ h] because ,i 0 born
 to love h]4 ,dur+ my atta*m5t to ano!r1
 ,i own ?is affection 0 9 "s measure    
d]ang$2 ,i did n ?9k s frequ5tly ( h]1 b
 /ill ) ! same pleasure1 & nev]1 9 love 
or o!rwise1 did ,i ?9k ( h] )\t feel+ t 
,i c\ld expect no true happ9ess 9 life  
:ile 9 a /ate ( sep>ation4  ,?\gh 9 s   
long a "t ,i _h receiv$ no news f ,madam
 de ,w>5s1 ,i nev] imag9$ ,i _h entirely
 lo/ h]1 or t %e c\ld h =gott5 me4 ,i   
said to myself1 %e w "k soon] or lat] t 
,i am w&]+ ab\t1 & w f9d "s means to    

in=m me ( h] situation3 ,i am c]ta9 ,i  
%all f9d h]4 ,9 ! meantime1 x 0 a       
pleasure to live 9 h] native c\ntry1 to 
walk 9 ! /reets :]e %e _h walk$1 & be=e 
! h\ses t %e _h liv$ 92 yet all ?is 0 ! 
"w ( conjecture1 = "o ( my fooli%       
peculi>ities 01 n d>+ to inquire aft]   
h]1 or ev5 pron\nce h] "n )\t ! mo/     
absolute necessity4 ,x seem$ 9 speak+ ( 
h] t ,i decl>$ all ,i felt1 t my lips   
reveal$ ! secrets ( my he>t1 & 9 "s     
degree injur$ ! object ( my affection4  
,i believe fe> 0 likewise m+l$ ) ?is    
idea2 ,i dread$ to he> ill ( h]4 ,h]    
managem5t _h be5 mu* spok5 (1 & "s      
little ( h] conduct 9 o!r respects2     
fe>+1 !re=e1 t some?+ might be said :i* 
,i did n wi% to he>1 ,i pref]r$ be+     
sil5t on ! subject4  ,z my s*ol>s did n 
take up mu* ( my "t1 & ! t[n :]e %e 0   
born 0 n above f\r leagues f ,lausanne1 
,i made x a walk ( ?ree or f\r days2    
dur+ :i* "t a mo/ pleasant emotion nev] 
left me4 ,a view ( ! lake ( ,g5eva & its
 admirable banks1 _h ev]1 9 my idea1 a  

p>ticul> attraction :i* ,i _c describe2 
n aris+ m]ely f ! beauty ( ! prospect1 b
 some?+ else1 ,i "k n :y1 m int]e/+1 :i*
 affects & s(t5s me4 ,e "t ,i h approa*$
 ! ,vaudois c\ntry ,i h exp]i5c$ an     
impression compos$ ( ! remembrance (    
,madam de ,w>5s1 :o 0 born !re2 ( my    
fa!r1 :o liv$ !re2 ( ,miss ,vulson1 :o  
_h be5 my fir/ love1 & ( sev]al pleasant
 j\rneys ,i _h made !re 9 my *ildhood1  
m+l$ ) "s nameless *>m1 m p[]fully      
attractive ?an all ! re/4 ,:5 t ard5t   
desire = a life ( happ9ess & tranquility
 7:i* ev] foll[s me1 & = :i* ,i 0 born7 
inflames my m9d1 'tis ev] to ! c\ntry ( 
,vaud1 ne> ! lake1 9 ^? *>m+ pla9s1 t   
imag9ation leads me4 ,an or*>d on !     
banks ( t lake1 & no o!r1 is absolutely 
necess>y2 a firm fri5d1 an amiable      
woman1 a c[1 & a little boat2 nor c\ld  
,i enjoy p]fect happ9ess on e>? )\t ^!  
concomitants4 ,i laugh at ! simplicity )
 :i* ,i h sev]al times gone into t      
c\ntry = ! sole purpose ( seek+ ?is     
imag9>y happ9ess :5 ,i 0 ev] surpris$ to

 f9d ! inhabitants1 p>ticul>ly ! wom51 (
 a q diff]5t disposition to :at ,i      
s\ght4 ,h[ /range did ?is appe> to me6  
,! c\ntry & p :o inhabit x1 7 nev]1 9 my
 idea1 =m$ = ea* o!r4  ,walk+ along ^!  
beautiful banks1 on my way to ,vevay1 ,i
 gave myself up to ! s(t melan*oly2 my  
he>t ru%$ ) ardor into a ?\s& innoc5t   
felicities2 melt+ to t5d]ness1 ,i sigh$ 
& wept l a *ild4 ,h[ (t51 /opp+ to weep 
m at my ease1 & seat$ on a l>ge /one1   
did ,i amuse myself ) see+ my te>s drop 
into ! wat]4  ,on my arrival at ,vevay1 
,i lodg$ at ! ,key1 & dur+ ! two days ,i
 rema9$ !re1 )\t any acqua9tance1       
conceiv$ a love = t city1 :i* has foll[$
 me ?r\gh all my travels1 & 0 f9ally !  
cause t ,i fix$ on ?is spot1 9 ! novel  
,i aft]w>ds wrote1 = ! resid5ce ( my h]o
 & h]o9es4 ,i w\ld say to any "o :o has 
ta/e & feel+1 g to ,vevay1 visit !      
surr\nd+ c\ntry1 exam9e ! prospects1 g  
on ! lake & !n say1 :e!r nature has n   
design$ ?is c\ntry = a ,julia1 a ,cl>a1 
& a ,/4 ,preux2 b d n seek !m !re4 ,i n[

 return to my /ory4  ,giv+ myself out = 
a ,ca?olic1 ,i foll[$ )\t my/]y or      
scruple ! religion ,i _h embrac$4 ,on a 
,sunday1 if ! wea!r 0 f9e1 ,i w5t to he>
 mass at ,assans1 a place two leagues   
di/ant f ,lausanne1 & g5]ally 9 company 
) o!r ,ca?olics1 p>ticul>ly a ,p>isian  
embroid]]1 ^: "n ,i h =gott54 ,n su* a  
,p>isian z myself1 b a real native (    
,p>is1 an ar*-,p>isian f 8 mak]1 yet    
hone/ z a peasant4 ,he lov$ 8 c\ntry s  
well1 t he w\ld n d\bt my be+ 8         
c\ntryman1 = fe> he %\ld n h s mu*      
occasion to speak ( x4 ,!               
lieut5ant-gov]nor1 ,m4 de ,cr\zas1 _h a 
g>d5]1 :o 0 likewise f ,p>is1 b n s     
complaisant2 he ?\ght ! glory ( 8 c\ntry
 conc]n$1 :5 any "o claim$ t honor :o 0 
n really entitl$ to x2 he put que/ions  
to me1 !re=e1 ) an air & tone1 z if     
c]ta9 to detect me 9 a falsehood1 &     
once1 smil+ malignantly1 ask$ :at 0     
rem>kable 9 ! ',m>*5euf'8 ,x may be     
suppos$ ,i ask$ ! "q2 b ,i h s9ce pass$ 
tw5ty ye>s at ,p>is1 & c]ta9ly "k t     

city1 yet 0 ! same "q repeat$ at ?is    
day1 ,i %\ld be equally emb>rass$ to    
answ] x1 & f ?is emb>rassm5t x might be 
conclud$ ,i _h nev] be5 !re3 ?us1 ev5 :5
 we meet ) tru?s1 we are subject to     
build our op9ions on circum/ances1 :i*  
may easily deceive u4  ,i =m$ no ideas1 
:ile at ,lausanne1 t 7 wor? recollect+1 
nor c ,i say exactly h[ long ,i rema9$  
!re2 ,i only "k t n f9d+ suffici5t to   
subsi/ on1 ,i w5t f !nce to ,neu*atel1  
:]e ,i pass$ ! w9t]4 ,"h ,i succe$$     
bett]1 ,i got "s s*ol>s1 & sav$ en\gh to
 pay my good fri5d ,p]rotet1 :o _h      
fai?fully s5t my baggage1 ?\gh at t "t  
,i 0 consid]ably 9 8 debt4  ,by cont9u+ 
to tea* music1 ,i ins5sibly ga9$ "s k ( 
x4 ,! life ,i l$ 0 suffici5tly          
agreeable1 & any reasonable man might h 
be5 satisfi$1 b my unsettl$ he>t dem&$  
some?+ m4 ,on ,sundays1 or :5ev] ,i _h  
leisure1 ,i w&]$1 sigh+ & ?\ghtful1 ab\t
 ! adjo9+ woods1 & :5 once out ( ! city 
nev] return$ be=e night4 ,"o day1 be+ at
 ,b\dry1 ,i w5t to d9e at a public-h\se1

 :]e ,i saw a man ) a long be>d1 dress$ 
9 a violet-color$ ,grecian habit1 ) a   
fur cap1 & ^: air & mann] 7 r noble4    
,?is p]son f\nd "s difficulty 9 mak+    
himself und]/ood1 speak+ only an        
un9telligible j>gon1 :i* bore m         
resemblance to ,italian ?an any o!r     
language4 ,i und]/ood almo/ all he said1
 & ,i 0 ! only p]son pres5t :o c\ld d s1
 = he 0 oblig$ to make 8 reque/ kn[n to 
! l&lord & o!rs ab\t him by signs4 ,on  
my speak+ a few words 9 ,italian1 :i* he
 p]fectly und]/ood1 he got up & embrac$ 
me ) rapture2 a connection 0 soon =m$1 &
 f t mom5t1 ,i became 8 int]pret]4 ,8   
d9n] 0 excell5t1 m9e r worse ?an        
indiff]5t1 he gave me an invitation to  
d9e ) him1 :i* ,i accept$ )\t mu*       
c]emony4 ,dr9k+ & *att+ soon r5d]$ u    
famili>1 & by ! end ( ! repa/ we _h all 
! disposition 9 ! _w to become          
insep>able companions4 ,he in=m$ me he 0
 a ,greek prelate1 & ',ar*im&rite' (    
,j]usalem2 t he _h und]tak5 to make a   
ga!r+ 9 ,europe = ! ree/abli%m5t ( !    

,holy ,sepul*re1 & %[$ me "s v f9e      
pat5ts f ! cz>9a1 ! emp]or1 & sev]al o!r
 sov]eigns4 ,he 0 tol]ably cont5t ) :at 
he _h collect$ hi!rto1 ?\gh he _h       
exp]i5c$ inconceivable difficulties 9   
,g]many2 = n und]/&+ a ^w ( ,g]man1     
,lat91 or ,fr5*1 he _h be5 oblig$ to h  
rec\rse to 8 ,greek1 ,turki% ,l+ua      
,franca1 :i* did n procure him mu* 9 !  
c\ntry he 0 travell+ ?r\gh2 8 proposal1 
!re=e1 to me 01 t ,i %\ld accompany him 
9 ! quality ( secret>y & int]pret]4 ,9  
spite ( my violet-color$ coat1 :i*      
accord$ well en\gh ) ! propos$          
employm5t1 he guess$ f my meagre        
appe>ance1 t ,i %\ld easily be ga9$2 &  
he 0 n mi/ak54 ,! b>ga9 0 soon made1 ,i 
dem&$ no?+1 & he promis$ lib]ally2 ?us1 
)\t any security or k ( ! p]son ,i 0    
ab\t to s]ve1 ,i gave myself up entirely
 to 8 conduct1 & ! next day behold me on
 an exp$ition to ,j]usalem4  ,we began  
our exp$ition unsuccessfully by ! canton
 ( ,frib\rg4 ,episcopal dignity w\ld n  
suff] him to play ! begg>1 or solicit   

help f private individuals2 b we pres5t$
 8 commission to ! ,s5ate1 :o gave him a
 trifl+ sum4 ,f !nce we w5t to ,b]ne1   
:]e we lodg$ at ! ,falcon1 !n a good    
inn1 & frequ5t$ by respectable company2 
! public table be+ well suppli$ &       
num]\sly att5d$4 ,i _h f>$ indiff]5tly s
 long1 t ,i 0 glad to make myself am5ds1
 !re=e took c>e to pr(it by ! pres5t    
occasion4 ,my "l1 ! ,ar*im&rite1 0      
himself an excell5t companion1 lov$ good
 *e]1 0 gay1 spoke well = ^? :o und]/ood
 him1 & knew p]fectly well h[ to make ! 
mo/ ( 8 ,grecian erudition4 ,"o day1 at 
dess]t :ile crack+ nuts1 he cut 8 f+]   
pretty deeply1 & z x bl$ freely %[$ x to
 ! company1 say+ ) a laugh1 ,mirate1    
signori2 que/o a sangue ,pelasgo4  ,at  
,b]ne1 ,i 0 n useless to him1 nor 0 my  
p]=mance s bad z ,i _h fe>$3 ,i c]ta9ly 
spoke bett] & ) m confid5ce ?an ,i c\ld 
h done = myself4 ,matt]s 7 n conduct$ "h
 ) ! same simplicity z at ,frib\rg2 long
 & frequ5t conf]5ces 7 necess>y ) !     
,premi]s ( ! ,/ate1 & ! exam9ation ( 8  

titles 0 n ! "w ( a day2 at l5g?1 ev]y?+
 be+ adju/$1 he 0 admitt$ to an audi5ce 
by ! ,s5ate2 ,i ent]$ ) him z int]pret]1
 & 0 ord]$ to speak4 ,i expect$ no?+    
less1 = x nev] ent]$ my m9d1 t aft] su* 
long & frequ5t conf]5ces ) ! memb]s1 x 0
 necess>y to address ! assembly         
collectively1 z if no?+ _h be5 said4    
,judge my emb>rassm5t6--a man s ba%ful  
to speak1 n only 9 public1 b be=e ! :ole
 ( ! ,s5ate ( ,b]ne6 to speak impromptu1
 )\t a s+le mom5t = recollection2 x 0   
en\gh to annihilate me--,i 0 n ev5      
intimidat$4 ,i describ$ di/9ctly &      
cle>ly ! commission ( ! ,ar*im&rite2    
extoll$ ! piety ( ^? pr9ces :o _h       
contribut$1 & to height5 t ( _!         
excell5cies by emulation1 add$ t less   
c\ld n be expect$ f _! well-kn[n        
munific5ce2 !n1 endeavor+ to prove t ?is
 good "w 0 equally int]e/+ to all       
,*ri/ians1 )\t di/9ction ( sect2 &      
conclud$ by promis+ ! b5$iction ( ,heav5
 to all ^? :o took "p 9 x4 ,i w n say t 
my disc\rse 0 ! cause ( our success1 b x

 0 c]ta9ly well receiv$2 & on our quitt+
 ! ,ar*im&rite 0 gratifi$ by a v g5teel 
pres5t1 to :i* "s v h&some complim5ts 7 
add$ on ! und]/&+ ( 8 secret>y2 ^! ,i _h
 ! agreeable (fice ( int]pret+2 b c\ld n
 take c\rage to r5d] !m lit]ally4  ,?is 
0 ! only "t 9 my life t ,i spoke 9      
public1 & be=e a sov]eign2 & ! only "t1 
p]haps1 t ,i spoke boldly & well4 ,:at  
diff]5ce 9 ! disposition ( ! same p]son4
 ,?ree ye>s ago1 hav+ be5 to see my old 
fri5d1 ,m4 ,rogu91 at ,yv]don1 ,i       
receiv$ a deputation to ?ank me = "s    
books ,i _h pres5t$ to ! libr>y ( t     
city2 ! ,swiss are great speak]s2 ^!    
g5tlem51 accord+ly1 made me a long      
h>angue1 :i* ,i ?\ght myself oblig$ 9   
honor to answ]1 b s emb>rass$ myself 9 !
 attempt1 t my head became confus$1 ,i  
/opp$ %ort1 & 0 laugh$ at4 ,?\gh        
naturally timid1 ,i h sometimes act$ )  
confid5ce 9 my y\?1 b nev] 9 my advanc$ 
age3 ! m ,i h se5 ( ! _w ! less ,i h be5
 able to adapt its mann]s4  ,on leav+   
,b]ne1 we w5t to ,soleurre3 !           

,ar*im&rite design+ to re-ent] ,g]many1 
& return ?r\gh ,hung>y or ,pol& to 8 own
 c\ntry4 ,?is w\ld h be5 a prodigi\s    
t\r2 b z ! cont5ts ( 8 purse r increas$ 
?an dim9i%$ dur+ 8 j\rney1 he 0 9 no    
ha/e to return4 ,= me1 :o 0 almo/ z mu* 
pleas$ on horseback z on foot1 ,i w\ld h
 desir$ no bett] ?an to h travell$ ?us  
dur+ my :ole life2 b x 0 pre-orda9$ t my
 j\rney %\ld soon end4  ,! fir/ ?+ we   
did aft] our arrival at ,soleurre1 0 to 
pay our respects to ! ,fr5* ambassador  
!re4 ,un=tunately = my bi%op1 ?is *anc$ 
to be ! ,m>quis de ,bonac1 :o _h be5    
ambassador at ! ,porte1 & 0 acqua9t$ ) e
 p>ticul> relative to ! ,holy ,sepul*re4
 ,! ,ar*im&rite _h an audi5ce t la/$    
ab\t a qu>t] ( an h\r1 to :i* ,i 0 n    
admitt$1 z ! ambassador spoke ,fr5* &   
,italian at lea/ z well z myself4 ,on my
 ,grecian's retir+1 ,i 0 prep>$ to foll[
 him1 b 0 deta9$3 x 0 n[ my turn4 ,hav+ 
call$ myself a ,p>isian1 z su*1 ,i 0 "u 
! jurisdiction ( 8 excell5cy3 he !re=e  
ask$ me :o ,i 08 exhort+ me to tell !   

tru?2 ?is ,i promis$ to d1 b entreat$ a 
private audi5ce1 :i* 0 imm$iately       
grant$4 ,! ambassador took me to 8      
closet1 & %ut ! door2 !re1 ?r[+ myself  
at 8 feet1 ,i kept my ^w1 nor %\ld ,i h 
said less1 _h ,i promis$ no?+1 = a      
cont9ual wi% to unbosom myself1 puts my 
he>t p]petually ^u my lips4 ,aft] hav+  
disclos$ myself )\t res]ve to ! musician
 ,lutold1 !re 0 no occasion to attempt  
act+ ! my/]i\s ) ! ,m>quis de ,bonac1 :o
 0 s well pleas$ ) my little hi/ory1 & !
 +5u\sness ) :i* ,i _h relat$ x1 t he l$
 me to ! ambassadress1 & pres5t$ me1 )  
an abridgm5t ( my recital4 ,madam de    
,bonac receiv$ me k9dly1 say+1 ,i mu/ n 
be suff]$ to foll[ t ,greek monk4 ,x 0  
accord+ly resolv$ t ,i %\ld rema9 at _! 
hotel till some?+ bett] c\ld be done =  
me4 ,i wi%$ to bid adieu to my poor     
,ar*im&rite1 = :om ,i _h conceiv$ an    
atta*m5t1 b 0 n p]mitt$2 !y s5t him ^w t
 ,i 0 to be deta9$ !re1 & 9 qu>t] ( an  
h\r aft]1 ,i saw my little bundle       
arrive4 ,m4 de la ,m>t9i]e1 secret>y ( !

 embassy1 _h 9 a mann] ! c>e ( me2 :ile 
foll[+ him to ! *amb] appropriat$ to my 
use1 he said1 ,?is ap>tm5t 0 occupi$ "u 
! ,c\nt de ,luc1 by a celebrat$ man ( ! 
same "n z y\rself2 x is 9 y\r p[] to    
succe$ him 9 e respect1 & cause x to be 
said h]eaft]1 ,r\sseau ! ,fir/1 ,r\sseau
 ! ,second4 ,?is simil>ity :i* ,i did n 
!n expect1 w\ld h be5 less flatt]+ to my
 wi%es c\ld ,i h =ese5 at :at price ,i  
%\ld "o day pur*ase ! di/9ction4  ,:at  
,m4 de la ,m>t9i]e _h said excit$ my    
curiosity2 ,i read ! works ( ! p]son ^: 
*amb] ,i occupi$1 & on ! /r5g? ( !      
complim5t t _h be5 paid me 7imag9+ ,i _h
 a ta/e = poetry7 made my fir/ essay 9 a
 cantata 9 praise ( ,madam de ,bonac4   
,?is incl9ation 0 n p]man5t1 ?\gh f "t  
to "t ,i h compos$ tol]able v]ses4 ,i   
?9k x is a good ex]cise to tea* elegant 
turns ( expression1 & to write well 9   
prose1 b c\ld nev] f9d attractions en\gh
 9 ,fr5* poetry to give entirely 9 to x4
  ,m4 de la ,m>t9i]e wi%$ to see my     
/yle1 & ask$ me to write ! detail ,i _h 

be=e made ! ambassador2 accord+ly ,i    
wrote him a long lett]1 :i* ,i h s9ce   
be5 in=m$ 0 pres]v$ by ,m4 de ,m>ianne1 
:o _h long be5 atta*$ to ! ,m>quis de   
,bonac1 & has s9ce succe$$ ,m4 de       
,m>t9i]e z secret>y to ! embassy ( ,m4  
de ,c\rtellies4  ,! exp]i5ce ,i began to
 acquire t5d$ to mod]ate my romantic    
projects2 = example1 ,i did n fall 9    
love ) ,madam de ,bonac1 b also felt ,i 
did n /& mu* *ance ( succe$+ 9 ! s]vice 
( h] husb&4 ,m4 de la ,m>t9i]e 0 already
 9 ! only place t c\ld h satisfi$ my    
ambition1 & ,m4 de ,m>ianne 9           
expectancy3 ?us my utmo/ hopes c\ld only
 aspire to ! (fice ( "u secret>y1 :i*   
did n inf9itely tempt me3 ?is 0 ! reason
 t :5 consult$ on ! situation ,i %\ld l 
to be plac$ 91 ,i express$ a great      
desire to g to ,p>is4 ,! ambassador     
readily gave 9 to ! idea1 :i* at lea/   
t5d$ to disemb>rass him ( me4 ,m4 de    
,m]veilleux1 int]pret+ secret>y to !    
embassy1 said1 t 8 fri5d1 ,m4 ,god>d1 a 
,swiss colonel1 9 ! s]vice ( ,france1   

want$ a p]son to be ) 8 nephew1 :o _h   
ent]$ v "y into ! s]vice1 & made no d\bt
 t ,i %\ld suit him4 ,on ?is idea1 s    
lightly =m$1 my dep>ture 0 det]m9$2 &   
,i1 :o saw a long j\rney to p]=m ) ,p>is
 at ! end ( x1 0 enraptur$ ) ! project4 
,!y gave me sev]al lett]s1 a hundr$     
livres to defray ! exp5ses ( my j\rney1 
accompani$ ) "s good advice1 & ?us      
equipp$ ,i dep>t$4  ,i 0 a =tnight mak+ 
! j\rney1 :i* ,i may reckon among !     
happie/ days ( my life4 ,i 0 "y1 9      
p]fect heal?1 ) pl5ty ( money1 & ! mo/  
brilliant hopes1 add to ?is1 ,i 0 on    
foot1 & alone4 ,x may appe> /range1 ,i  
%\ld m5tion ! latt] circum/ance z       
advantage\s1 if my peculi>ity ( temp] is
 n already famili> to ! read]4 ,i 0     
cont9ually occupi$ ) a v>iety ( pleas+  
*im]as1 & nev] did ! w>m? ( my          
imag9ation produce m magnific5t ones4   
,:5 (f]$ an empty place 9 a c>riage1 or 
any p]son acco/$ me on ! road1 h[ vex$ 0
 ,i to see t =tune ov]?r[n1 ^: edifice1 
:ile walk+1 ,i _h tak5 su* pa9s to re>4 

,= once my ideas 7 all m>tial3 ,i 0 go+ 
to live ) a milit>y man2 nay1 to become 
"o1 = x 0 conclud$ ,i %\ld beg9 ) be+ a 
cadet4 ,i already fanci$ myself 9       
regim5tals1 ) a f9e :ite fea!r nodd+ on 
my hat1 & my he>t 0 inflam$ by ! noble  
idea4 ,i _h "s smatt]+ ( geometry &     
=tification2 my uncle 0 an eng9e]2 ,i 0 
9 a mann] a soldi] by inh]itance4 ,my   
%ort sight1 inde$1 pres5t$ "s little    
ob/acle1 b did n by any means disc\rage 
me1 z ,i reckon$ to supply t defect by  
coolness & intrepidity4 ,i _h read1 too1
 t ,m>%al ,s*omb]g 0 rem>kably          
%ortsight$1 & :y might n ,m>%al ,r\sseau
 be ! same8 ,my imag9ation 0 s w>m by ^!
 follies1 t x pres5t$ no?+ b troops1    
ramp>ts1 gabions1 batt]ies1 & myself 9 !
 mid/ ( fire & smoke1 an eyeglass 9 h&1 
comm&+ ) ! utmo/ tranquility4 ,not)/&+1 
:5 ! c\ntry pres5t$ a delightful        
prospect1 :5 ,i saw *>m+ groves &       
rivulets1 ! pleas+ sight made me sigh ) 
regret1 & feel1 9 ! mid/ ( all ?is      
glory1 t my he>t 0 n =m$ = su* havoc2 & 

soon )\t kn[+ h[1 ,i f\nd my ?\ghts w&]+
 among my de> %eep-folds1 r5\nc+ =ev] ! 
labor ( ,m>s4  ,h[ mu* did ,p>is        
disappo9t ! idea ,i _h =m$ ( x6 ,!      
ext]ior decorations ,i _h se5 at ,tur91 
! beauty ( ! /reets1 ! symmetry &       
regul>ity ( ! h\ses1 contribut$ to ?is  
disappo9tm5t1 s9ce ,i conclud$ t ,p>is  
mu/ be inf9itely sup]ior4 ,i _h figur$  
to myself a spl5did city1 beautiful z   
l>ge1 ( ! mo/ comm&+ aspect1 ^: /reets 7
 ranges ( magnific5t palaces1 compos$ ( 
m>ble & gold4 ,on ent]+ ! faub\rg ,/4   
,m>ceau1 ,i saw no?+ b dirty /9k+       
/reets1 fil?y black h\ses1 an air (     
slov5l9ess & pov]ty1 begg>s1 c>t]s1     
but*]s1 cries ( tisane & old hats4 ,?is 
/ruck me s =cibly1 t all ,i h s9ce se5 (
 real magnific5ce 9 ,p>is c\ld nev]     
erase ?is fir/ impression1 :i* has ev]  
giv5 me a p>ticul> disgu/ to resid+ 9 t 
capital2 & ,i may say1 ! :ole "t ,i     
rema9$ !re aft]w>ds1 0 employ$ 9 seek+  
res\rces :i* might enable me to live at 
a di/ance f x4 ,?is is ! consequ5ce (   

too lively imag9ation1 :i* exagg]ates   
ev5 beyond ! voice ( fame1 & ev] expects
 m ?an is told4 ,i h he>d ,p>is s       
flatt]+ly describ$1 t ,i pictur$ x l !  
anci5t ,babylon1 :i*1 p]haps1 _h ,i se51
 ,i might h f\nd equally faulty1 &      
unlike t idea ! acc\nt _h convey$4 ,!   
same ?+ happ5$ at ! ,op]a-h\se1 to :i*  
,i ha/5$ ! day aft] my arrival6 ,i 0    
s5sible ( ! same defici5cy at           
,v]sailles6 & "s "t aft] on view+ ! sea4
 ,i am conv9c$ ?is w\ld ev] be !        
consequ5ce ( a too flatt]+ description (
 any object2 = x is impossible = man1 & 
difficult ev5 = nature h]self1 to       
surpass ! ri*es ( my imag9ation4  ,by ! 
reception ,i met ) f all ^? to :om my   
lett]s 7 address$1 ,i ?\ght my =tune 0  
c]ta9ly made4 ,! p]son :o receiv$ me !  
lea/ k9dly 0 ,m4 de ,surbeck1 to :om ,i 
_h ! w>me/ recomm5dation4 ,he _h retir$ 
f ! s]vice1 & liv$ philosophically at   
,bagneux1 :]e ,i wait$ on him sev]al    
times )\t 8 (f]+ me ev5 a glass ( wat]4 
,i 0 bett] receiv$ by ,madam de         

,m]veilleux1 si/]-9-law to ! int]pret]1 
& by 8 nephew1 :o 0 an (fic] 9 ! gu>ds4 
,! "m & son n only receiv$ me k9dly1 b  
(f]$ me ! use ( _! table1 :i* favor ,i  
frequ5tly accept$ dur+ my /ay at ,p>is4 
,madam de ,m]veilleux appe>$ to h be5   
h&some2 h] hair 0 ( a f9e black1 :i*1   
accord+ to ! old mode1 %e wore curl$ on 
! temples4 ,%e /ill reta9$ 7:at d n p]i%
 ) a set ( features7 ! beauties ( an    
amiable m9d4 ,%e appe>$ satisfi$ ) m9e1 
& did all %e c\ld to r5d] me s]vice2 b  
no "o second$ h] endeavors1 & ,i 0      
pres5tly undeceiv$ 9 ! great int]e/ !y  
_h seem$ to take 9 my affairs4 ,i mu/1  
h[ev]1 d ! ,fr5* nation ! ju/ice to say1
 !y d n s exhau/ !mselves )             
prote/ations1 z "s h repres5t$1 & t ^?  
!y make are usually s9c]e2 b !y h a     
mann] ( appe>+ int]e/$ 9 y\r affairs1   
:i* is m deceiv+ ?an words4 ,! gross    
complim5ts ( ! ,swiss c only impose ^u  
fools2 ! mann]s ( ! ,fr5* are m s$uc+1 &
 at ! same "t s simple1 t y are p]suad$ 
!y d n express all !y mean to d = y1 9  

ord] t y may be ! m agreeably surpris$4 
,i w say m2 !y are n false 9 _!         
prote/ations1 be+ naturally zeal\s to   
oblige1 humane1 b5evol5t1 & ev5 7:atev] 
may be said to ! contr>y7 m s9c]e ?an   
any o!r nation2 b !y are too flighty3 9 
effect !y feel ! s5tim5ts !y pr(ess = y1
 b t s5tim5t flies (f z in/antane\sly z 
x 0 =m$4 ,9 speak+ to y1 _! :ole        
att5tion is employ$ on y alone1 :5 abs5t
 y are =gott54 ,no?+ is p]man5t 9 _!    
he>ts1 all is ! "w ( ! mom5t4  ,?us ,i 0
 greatly flatt]$1 b receiv$ little      
s]vice4 ,colonel ,god>d1 = ^: nephew ,i 
0 recomm5d$1 prov$ to be an av>ici\s old
 wret*1 :o1 on see+ my di/ress 7?\gh he 
0 imm5sely ri*71 wi%$ to h my s]vices = 
no?+1 mean+ to place me ) 8 nephew1 r z 
a valet )\t wages ?an a tutor4 ,he      
repres5t$ t z ,i 0 to be cont9ually     
engag$ ) him1 ,i %\ld be excus$ f duty1 
& might live on my cadet's all[ance2 t  
is to say1 on ! pay ( a soldi]3 h>dly   
w\ld he cons5t to give me a uni=m1 ?9k+ 
! clo?+ ( ! army might s]ve4 ,madam de  

,m]veilleux1 provok$ at 8 proposals1    
p]suad$ me n to accept !m2 h] son 0 ( ! 
same op9ion2 some?+ else 0 to be ?\ght  
on1 b no situation 0 procur$4 ,meantime1
 ,i began to be necessitat$2 = ! hundr$ 
livres ) :i* ,i _h comm5c$ my j\rney    
c\ld n la/ mu* long]2 happily1 ,i       
receiv$ a small remittance f !          
ambassador1 :i* 0 v s]viceable1 nor d ,i
 ?9k he w\ld h ab&on$ me _h ,i possess$ 
m pati5ce2 b langui%+1 wait+1 solicit+1 
are to me impossible3 ,i 0 di%e>t5$1    
displeas$1 & ?us all my brilliant       
expectations came once m to no?+4 ,i _h 
n all ?is "t =gott5 my de> ,madam de    
,w>5s1 b h[ 0 ,i to f9d h]8 ,:]e %\ld ,i
 seek h]8 ,madam de ,m]veilleux1 :o knew
 my /ory1 assi/$ me 9 ! se>*1 b = a long
 "t unavail+ly2 at l5g?1 %e in=m$ me t  
,madam de ,w>5s _h set out f ,p>is ab\t 
two mon?s be=e1 b x 0 n kn[n :e!r =     
,savoy or ,tur91 & t "s conjectur$ %e 0 
gone to ,switz]l&4 ,no?+ fur!r 0        
necess>y to fix my det]m9ation to foll[ 
h]1 c]ta9 t :]ev] %e might be1 ,i /ood m

 *ance ( f9d+ h] at ^? places ?an ,i    
c\ld possibly d at ,p>is4  ,be=e my     
dep>ture1 ,i ex]cis$ my new poetical    
tal5t 9 an epi/le to ,colonel ,god>d1   
:om ,i ridicul$ to ! utmo/ ( my         
abilities4 ,i %[$ ?is scribble to ,madam
 de ,m]veilleux1 :o1 in/ead ( disc\rag+ 
me1 z %e ought to h done1 laugh$ he>tily
 at my s>casms1 z well z h] son1 :o1 ,i 
believe1 did n l ,m4 ,god>d2 inde$1 x   
mu/ be confess$1 he 0 a man n calculat$ 
to obta9 affection4 ,i 0 tempt$ to s5d  
him my v]ses1 & !y enc\rag$ me 9 x2     
accord+ly ,i made !m up 9 a p>cel       
direct$ to him1 & !re be+ no po/ !n at  
,p>is by :i* ,i c\ld conv5i5tly s5d ?is1
 ,i put x 9 my pocket1 & s5t x to him f 
,aux]re1 z ,i pass$ ?r\gh t place4 ,i   
laugh1 ev5 yet1 sometimes1 at ! grimaces
 ,i fancy he made on read+ ?is          
panegyric1 :]e he 0 c]ta9ly drawn to !  
life2 x began ?us3            ,tu       
croyois1 vieux ,p5>d1 qu' une folle     
manie           ,d' elev] ton neveu     
m'inspir]oit l'envie4  ,?is little      

piece1 :i*1 x is true1 0 b indiff]5tly  
writt52 did n want = salt1 & ann\nc$ a  
turn = satire2 x is1 not)/&+1 ! only    
satirical writ+ t ev] came f my p54 ,i h
 too little hatr$ 9 my he>t to take     
advantage ( su* a tal5t2 b ,i believe x 
may be judg$ f ^? controv]sies1 9 :i* f 
"t to "t ,i h be5 engag$ 9 my own       
def5ce1 t _h ,i be5 ( a v9dictive       
disposition1 my adv]s>ies w\ld r>ely h  
_h ! laught] on _! side4  ,:at ,i mo/   
regret1 is n hav+ kept a j\rnal ( my    
travels1 be+ consci\s t a numb] (       
int]e/+ details h slipp$ my memory2 =   
nev] did ,i exi/ s completely1 nev] live
 s ?or\ghly1 nev] 0 s mu* myself1 if ,i 
d>e use ! expression1 z 9 ^? j\rneys    
made on foot4 ,walk+ animates & enliv5s 
my spirits2 ,i c h>dly ?9k :5 9 a /ate (
 inactivity2 my body mu/ be ex]cis$ to  
make my judgm5t active4 ,! view ( a f9e 
c\ntry1 a succession ( agreeable        
prospects1 a free air1 a good appetite1 
& ! heal? ,i ga9$ by walk+2 ! fre$om (  
inns1 & ! di/ance f ev]y?+ t c make me  

recollect ! dep5d5ce ( my situation1    
conspire to free my s\l1 & give boldness
 to my ?\ghts1 ?r[+ me1 9 a mann]1 into 
! imm5sity ( be+s1 :]e ,i comb9e1 *oose 
& appropriate !m to my fancy1 )\t       
con/ra9t or fe>4 ,i dispose ( all nature
 z ,i please2 my he>t w&]+ f object to  
object1 approximates & unites ) ^? t    
please x1 is surr\nd$ by *>m+ images1 & 
becomes intoxicat$ ) delici\s s5sations4
 ,if1 attempt+ to r5d] ^! p]man5t1 ,i am
 amus$ 9 describ+ to myself1 :at gl[ (  
color+1 :at en]gy ( expression1 d ,i    
give !m6--,x has be5 said1 t all ^! are 
to be f\nd 9 my works1 ?\gh writt5 9 !  
decl9e ( life4 ,oh6 _h ^? ( my e>ly y\? 
be5 se51 ^? made dur+ my travels1       
compos$1 b nev] writt56--,:y did ,i n   
write !m8 w be ask$2 & :y %\ld ,i h     
writt5 !m8 ,i may answ]4 ,:y deprive    
myself ( ! actual *>m ( my enjoym5ts to 
in=m o!rs :at ,i enjoy$8 ,:at to me 7   
read]s1 ! public1 or all ! _w1 :ile ,i 0
 m\nt+ ! empyrean4 ,besides1 did ,i c>ry
 p5s1 pap] & ink ) me8 ,_h ,i recollect$

 all ^!1 n a ?\ght w\ld h occurr$ wor?  
pres]v+4 ,i d n =esee :5 ,i %all h      
ideas2 !y come :5 !y please1 & n :5 ,i  
call = !m2 ei!r !y avoid me altoge!r1 or
 ru%+ 9 cr[ds1 ov]:elm me ) _! =ce &    
numb]4 ,t5 volumes a day w\ld n suffice 
b>ely to enum]ate my ?\ghts2 h[ !n %\ld 
,i f9d "t to write !m8 ,9 /opp+1 ,i     
?\ght ( no?+ b a he>ty d9n]2 on dep>t+1 
( no?+ b a *>m+ walk2 ,i felt t a new   
p>adise await$ me at ! door1 & eag]ly   
leap$ =w>d to enjoy x4  ,nev] did ,i    
exp]i5ce ?is s feel+ly z 9 !            
p]ambulation ,i am n[ describ+4 ,on com+
 to ,p>is1 ,i _h conf9$ myself to ideas 
:i* relat$ to ! situation ,i expect$ to 
occupy !re4 ,i _h ru%$ into ! c>e] ,i 0 
ab\t to run1 & %\ld h complet$ x )      
tol]able eclat1 b x 0 n t my he>t adh]$ 
to4 ,"s real be+s obscur$ my imag9$     
ones--,colonel ,god>d & 8 nephew c\ld n 
keep pace ) a h]o ( my disposition4     
,?ank ,heav51 ,i 0 soon deliv]$ f all ^!
 ob/acles1 & c\ld ent] at pleasure into 
! wild]ness ( *im]as1 = t alone rema9$  

be=e me1 & ,i w&]$ 9 x s completely t ,i
 sev]al times lo/ my way2 b ?is 0 no    
mis=tune1 ,i w\ld n h %ort5$ x1 =1 feel+
 ) regret1 z ,i approa*$ ,lyons1 t ,i   
mu/ aga9 return to ! mat]ial _w1 ,i %\ld
 h be5 glad nev] to h arriv$ !re4  ,"o  
day1 among o!rs1 hav+ purposely gone out
 ( my way to take a ne>] view ( a spot t
 appe>$ delightful1 ,i 0 s *>m$ ) x1 &  
w&]$ r\nd x s (t51 t at l5g? ,i         
completely lo/ myself1 & aft] sev]al    
h\rs' useless walk+1 we>y1 fa9t+ ) hung]
 & ?ir/1 ,i ent]$ a peasant's hut1 :i*  
_h n inde$ a v promis+ appe>ance1 b 0 ! 
only "o ,i c\ld discov] ne> me4 ,i ?\ght
 x 0 "h1 z at ,g5eva1 or 9 ,switz]l&1   
:]e ! inhabitants1 liv+ at ease1 h x 9  
_! p[] to ex]cise hospitality4 ,i       
entreat$ ! c\ntryman to give me "s d9n]1
 (f]+ to pay = x3 on :i* he pres5t$ me )
 "s skimm$ milk & co>se b>ley-bread1    
say+ x 0 all he _h4 ,i drank ! milk )   
pleasure1 & ate ! bread1 *aff & all2 b x
 0 n v re/orative to a man s9k+ )       
fatigue4 ,! c\ntryman1 :o wat*$ me      

n>r[ly1 judg$ ! tru? ( my /ory by my    
appetite1 & pres5tly 7aft] hav+ said t  
he pla9ly saw ,i 0 an hone/1 good-natur$
 "y man1 & did n come to betray him7    
op5$ a little trap door by ! side ( 8   
kit*51 w5t d[n1 & return$ a mom5t aft] )
 a good br[n loaf ( pure :eat1 ! rema9s 
( a well-flavor$ ham1 & a bottle ( w9e1 
! sight ( :i* rejoic$ my he>t m ?an all 
! re/3 he !n prep>$ a good ?ick omelet1 
& ,i made su* a d9n] z none b a walk+   
travell] ev] enjoy$4  ,:5 ,i aga9 (f]$  
to pay1 8 inquietude & fe>s return$2 he 
n only w\ld h no money1 b refus$ x ) !  
mo/ evid5t emotion2 & :at made ?is sc5e 
m amus+1 ,i c\ld n imag9e ! motive ( 8  
fe>4 ,at l5g?1 he pron\nc$ trembl+ly ^? 
t]rible words1 ,commission]s1 &         
,cell>-rats1 :i* he expla9$ by giv+ me  
to und]/& t he conceal$ 8 w9e because ( 
! excise1 & 8 bread on acc\nt ( ! tax   
impos$ on x2 add+1 he %\ld be an undone 
man1 if x 0 suspect$ he 0 n almo/ p]i%+ 
) want4 ,:at he said to me on ?is       
subject 7( :i* ,i _h n ! smalle/ idea7  

made an impression on my m9d t c nev] be
 effac$1 s[+ se$s ( t inext+ui%able     
hatr$ :i* has s9ce gr[n up 9 my he>t    
aga9/ ! vexations ^! unhappy p suff]1 & 
aga9/ _! oppressors4 ,?is man1 ?\gh 9   
easy circum/ances1 d>e n eat ! bread    
ga9$ by ! sweat ( 8 br[1 & c\ld only    
escape de/ruction by exhibit+ an outw>d 
appe>ance ( mis]y6--,i left 8 cottage ) 
z mu* indignation z conc]n1 deplor+ !   
fate ( ^? beautiful c\ntries1 :]e nature
 has be5 prodigal ( h] gifts1 only t !y 
may become ! prey ( b>b>\s exactors4  ,!
 incid5t :i* ,i h j relat$1 is ! only "o
 ,i h a di/9ct remembrance ( dur+ ?is   
j\rney3 ,i recollect1 inde$1 t on       
approa*+ ,lyons1 ,i wi%$ to prolong x by
 go+ to see ! banks ( ! ,lignon2 = among
 ! romances ,i _h read ) my fa!r1 ,a/rea
 0 n =gott5 & return$ m frequ5tly to my 
?\ghts ?an any o!r4 ,/opp+ = "s         
refre%m5t 7:ile *att+ ) my ho/ess71 ,i  
inquir$ ! way to ,=ez1 & 0 in=m$ t      
c\ntry 0 an excell5t place = me*anics1 z
 !re 7 _m =ges1 & mu* iron "w done !re4 

,?is eulogium in/antly calm$ my romantic
 curiosity1 = ,i felt no incl9ation to  
seek ,dianas & ,sylv&]s among a g5]ation
 ( blacksmi?s4 ,! good woman :o enc\rag$
 me ) ?is piece ( in=mation c]ta9ly     
?\ght ,i 0 a j\rneyman locksmi?4  ,i _h 
"s view 9 go+ to ,lyons3 on my arrival1 
,i w5t to ! ,*asattes1 to see           
,mademoiselle du ,*atelet1 a fri5d (    
,madam de ,w>5s1 = :om ,i _h br\ght a   
lett] :5 ,i came !re ) ,m4 le ,maitre1 s
 t x 0 an acqua9tance already =m$4      
,mademoiselle du ,*atelet in=m$ me h]   
fri5d _h pass$ ?r\gh ,lyons1 b c\ld n   
tell :e!r %e _h gone on to ,pi$mont1 be+
 unc]ta9 at h] dep>ture :e!r x w\ld n be
 necess>y to /op 9 ,savoy2 b if ,i      
*oose1 %e w\ld imm$iately write =       
in=mation1 & ?\ght my be/ plan w\ld be  
to rema9 at ,lyons till %e receiv$ x4 ,i
 accept$ ?is (f]2 b did n tell          
,mademoiselle du ,*atelet h[ mu* ,i 0   
press$ = an answ]1 & t my exhau/$ purse 
w\ld n p]mit me to wait long4 ,x 0 n an 
appe>ance ( coolness t )held me1 on !   

contr>y1 ,i 0 v k9dly receiv$1 treat$ on
 ! foot+ ( equality1 & ?is took f me !  
resolution ( expla9+ my circum/ances1 = 
,i c\ld n be> to desc5d f a companion to
 a mis]able begg>4  ,i seem to h reta9$ 
a v connect+ remembrance ( t "p ( my    
life conta9$ 9 ?is book2 yet ,i ?9k ,i  
rememb]1 ab\t ! same p]iod1 ano!r j\rney
 to ,lyons1 7! p>ticul>s ( :i* ,i _c    
recollect7 :]e ,i f\nd myself mu*       
/rait5$1 & a confus$ remembrance ( !    
extremities to :i* ,i 0 r$uc$ does n    
contribute to recall ! idea agreeably4  
,_h ,i be5 l _m o!rs1 _h ,i possess$ !  
tal5t ( borr[+ & runn+ 9 debt at e      
ale-h\se ,i came to1 ,i might h f>$     
bett]2 b 9 t my incapacity equall$ my   
repugnance1 & to demon/rate ! preval5ce 
( bo?1 x w be suffici5t to say1 t ?\gh  
,i h pass$ almo/ my :ole life 9         
indiff]5t circum/ances1 & frequ5tly h   
be5 ne> want+ bread1 ,i 0 nev] once ask$
 = money by a cr$itor )\t hav+ x 9 my   
p[] to pay x in/antly2 ,i c\ld nev] be> 
to contract clamor\s debts1 & h ev]     

pref]r$ suff]+ to ow+4  ,be+ r$uc$ to   
pass my nights 9 ! /reets1 may c]ta9ly  
be call$ suff]+1 & ?is 0 sev]al times ! 
case at ,lyons1 hav+ pref]r$ buy+ bread 
) ! few p5ce ,i _h rema9+1 to be/[+ !m  
on a lodg+2 z ,i 0 conv9c$ !re 0 less   
dang] ( dy+ = want ( sleep ?an ( hung]4 
,:at is a/oni%+1 :ile 9 ?is unhappy     
situation1 ,i took no c>e = ! future1 0 
nei!r uneasy nor melan*oly1 b pati5tly  
wait$ an answ] to ,mademoiselle du      
,*atelet's lett]1 & ly+ 9 ! op5 air1    
/ret*$ on ! e>?1 or on a b5*1 slept z   
s\ndly z if repos+ on a b$ ( roses4 ,i  
rememb]1 p>ticul>ly1 to h pass$ a mo/   
delightful night at "s di/ance f ! city1
 9 a road :i* _h ! ,rhone1 or ,soane1 ,i
 _c recollect :i*1 on ! "o side1 & a    
range ( rais$ g>d5s1 ) t]races1 on !    
o!r4 ,x _h be5 a v hot day1 ! ev5+ 0    
delightful1 ! dew moi/5$ ! fad+ grass1  
no w9d 0 /irr+1 ! air 0 fre% )\t        
*illness1 ! sett+ sun _h t+$ ! cl\ds ) a
 beautiful crimson1 :i* 0 aga9 reflect$ 
by ! wat]1 & ! trees t bord]$ ! t]race 7

 fill$ ) night+ales :o 7 cont9ually     
answ]+ ea* o!r's songs4 ,i walk$ along 9
 a k9d ( ec/asy1 giv+ up my he>t & s5ses
 to ! enjoym5t ( s _m delights1 & sigh+ 
only f a regret ( enjoy+ !m alone4      
,absorb$ 9 ?is pleas+ rev]ie1 ,i l5g!n$ 
my walk till x grew v late1 )\t p]ceiv+ 
,i 0 tir$2 at l5g?1 h[ev]1 ,i discov]$  
x1 & ?rew myself on ! /ep ( a k9d (     
ni*e1 or false door1 9 ! t]race wall4   
,h[ *>m+ 0 ! c\*6 ! trees =m$ a /ately  
canopy1 a night+ale sat directly ov] me1
 & ) 8 s(t notes lull$ me to re/3 h[    
pleas+ my repose2 my awak+ m s4 ,x 0    
broad day2 on op5+ my eyes ,i saw !     
wat]1 ! v]dure1 & ! admirable l&scape   
be=e me4 ,i arose1 %ook (f ! rema9s (   
dr[s9ess1 & f9d+ ,i 0 hungry1 retook !  
way to ! city1 resolv+1 ) inexpressible 
gayety1 to sp5d ! two pieces ( six      
francs ,i _h yet rema9+ 9 a good        
breakfa/4 ,i f\nd myself s *e]ful t ,i  
w5t all ! way s++2 ,i ev5 rememb] ,i    
sang a cantata ( ,bati/9's call$ ! ,ba?s
 ( ,?om]y1 :i* ,i knew by he>t4 ,may a  

bless+ light on ! good ,bati/9 & 8 good 
cantata1 :i* procur$ me a bett] breakfa/
 ?an ,i _h expect$1 & a /ill bett] d9n] 
:i* ,i did n expect at all6 ,9 ! mid/ ( 
my s++1 ,i he>d "s "o beh9d me1 & turn+ 
r\nd p]ceiv$ an ,anton9e1 :o foll[$ aft]
 & seem$ to li/5 ) pleasure to my song4 
,at l5g? acco/+ me1 he ask$1 ,if ,i     
und]/ood music4 ,i answ]$1 ,a little1 b 
9 a mann] to h x und]/ood ,i knew a     
great deal1 & z he cont9u$ que/ion+ (   
me1 relat$ a "p ( my /ory4 ,he ask$ me1 
,if ,i _h ev] copi$ music8 ,i repli$1   
,(t51 :i* 0 true3 ,i _h le>n$ mo/ by    
copy+4 ,well1 cont9u$ he1 come ) me1 ,i 
c employ y = a few days1 dur+ :i* "t y  
%all want = no?+2 provid$ y cons5t n to 
quit my room4 ,i acquiesc$ v will+ly1 & 
foll[$ him4  ,?is ,anton9e 0 call$ ,m4  
,roti*on2 he lov$ music1 und]/ood x1 &  
sang 9 "s little conc]ts ) 8 fri5ds2 ?us
 f> all 0 innoc5t & "r1 b app>5tly ?is  
ta/e _h become a furor1 "p ( :i* he 0   
oblig$ to conceal4 ,he conduct$ me into 
a *amb]1 :]e ,i f\nd a great quantity ( 

music3 he gave me "s to copy1 p>ticul>ly
 ! cantata he _h he>d me s++1 & :i* he 0
 %ortly to s+ himself4  ,i rema9$ "h    
?ree or f\r days1 copy+ all ! "t ,i did 
n eat1 = nev] 9 my life 0 ,i s hungry1  
or bett] f$4 ,m4 ,roli*on br\ght my     
provisions himself f ! kit*51 & x appe>$
 t ^! good prie/s liv$ well1 at lea/ if 
e "o f>$ z ,i did4 ,9 my life1 ,i nev]  
took su* pleasure 9 eat+1 & x mu/ be    
own$ ?is good *e] came v opportunely1 = 
,i 0 almo/ exhau/$4 ,i work$ z he>tily z
 ,i ate1 :i* is say+ a great deal2 'tis 
true ,i 0 n z correct z dilig5t1 = "s   
days aft]1 meet+ ,m4 ,roli*on 9 ! /reet1
 he in=m$ me !re 7 s _m omissions1      
repetitions1 & transpositions1 9 ! p>ts 
,i _h copi$1 t !y c\ld n be p]=m$4 ,x   
mu/ be own$1 t 9 *oos+ ! pr(ession (    
music1 ,i hit on t ,i 0 lea/ calculat$  
=2 yet my voice 0 good & ,i copi$       
neatly2 b ! fatigue ( long works        
bewild]s me s mu*1 t ,i sp5d m "t 9     
alt]+ & scrat*+ out ?an 9 prick+ d[n1 & 
if ,i d n employ ! /ricte/ att5tion 9   

comp>+ ! sev]al p>ts1 !y are sure to    
fail 9 ! execution4 ,?us1 ?r\gh         
endeavor+ to d well1 my p]=mance 0 v    
faulty2 = aim+ at exp$ition1 ,i did all 
amiss4 ,?is did n prev5t ,m4 ,roli*on f 
treat+ me well to ! la/1 & giv+ me      
half-a-cr[n at my dep>ture1 :i* ,i      
c]ta9ly did n des]ve1 & :i* completely  
set me up1 = a few days aft] ,i receiv$ 
news f ,madam de ,w>5s1 :o 0 at ,*amb]y1
 ) money to defray ! exp5ses ( my j\rney
 to h]1 :i* ,i p]=m$ ) rapture4 ,s9ce !n
 my f9ances h frequ5tly be5 v l[1 b nev]
 at su* an ebb z to r$uce me to fa/+1 & 
,i m>k ?is p]iod ) a he>t fully alive to
 ! b\nty ( ,provid5ce1 z ! la/ ( my life
 9 :i* ,i su/a9$ pov]ty & hung]4  ,i    
rema9$ at ,lyons sev5 or eight days to  
wait = "s little commissions ) :i*      
,madam de ,w>5s _h *>g$ ,mademoiselle du
 ,*atelet1 :o dur+ ?is int]val ,i visit$
 m assidu\sly ?an be=e1 hav+ ! pleasure 
( talk+ ) h] ( h] fri5d1 & be+ no long] 
di/urb$ by ! cruel remembrance ( my     
situation1 or pa9ful endeavors to       

conceal x4 ,mademoiselle du ,*atelet 0  
nei!r "y nor h&some1 b did n want =     
elegance2 %e 0 easy & oblig+ :ile h]    
und]/&+ gave price to h] famili>ity4 ,%e
 _h a ta/e = t k9d ( moral obs]vation   
:i* leads to ! k ( mank9d1 & f h]       
orig9at$ t /udy 9 myself4 ,%e 0 fond ( !
 works ( ,le ,sage1 p>ticul>ly ,gil     
,blas1 :i* %e l5t me1 & recomm5d$ to my 
p]usal4 ,i read ?is p]=mance ) pleasure1
 b my judgm5t 0 n yet ripe en\gh to     
reli% t sort ( read+4 ,i lik$ romances  
:i* ab\nd$ ) high-fl[n s5tim5ts4  ,?us  
did ,i pass my "t at ! grate (          
,mademoiselle du ,*atelet1 ) z mu* pr(it
 z pleasure4 ,x is c]ta9 t ! int]e/+ &  
s5sible conv]sation ( a des]v+ woman is 
m prop] to =m ! und]/&+ ( a "y man ?an  
all ! p$antic philosophy ( books4 ,i got
 acqua9t$ at ! ,*asattes ) "s o!r bo>d]s
 & _! fri5ds1 & among ! re/1 ) a "y     
p]son ( f\rte51 call$ ,mademoiselle     
,s]re1 :om ,i did n mu* notice at t "t1 
?\gh ,i 0 9 love ) h] eight or n9e ye>s 
aft]w>ds1 & ) great reason1 = %e 0 a mo/

 *>m+ girl4  ,i 0 fully occupi$ ) ! idea
 ( see+ ,madam de ,w>5s1 & ?is gave "s  
respite to my *im]as1 = f9d+ happ9ess 9 
real objects ,i 0 ! less incl9$ to seek 
x 9 non5tities4 ,i _h n only f\nd h]1 b 
also by h] means1 & ne> h]1 an agreeable
 situation1 hav+ s5t me ^w t %e _h      
procur$ "o t w\ld suit me1 & by :i* ,i  
%\ld n be oblig$ to quit h]4 ,i exhau/$ 
all my conjectures 9 guess+ :at ?is     
occupation c\ld be1 b ,i mu/ h possess$ 
! art ( div9ation to h hit x on ! "r4 ,i
 _h money suffici5t to make my j\rney   
agreeable3 ,mademoiselle du ,*atelet    
p]suad$ me to hire a horse1 b ?is ,i    
c\ld n cons5t to1 & ,i 0 c]ta9ly "r1 =  
by s do+ ,i %\ld h lo/ ! pleasure ( !   
la/ p$e/rian exp$ition ,i ev] made2 = ,i
 _c give t "n to ^? excursions ,i h     
frequ5tly tak5 ab\t my own neighborhood1
 :ile ,i liv$ at ,moti]s4  ,x is v s+ul>
 t my imag9ation nev] rises s high z :5 
my situation is lea/ agreeable or       
*e]ful4 ,:5 ev]y?+ smiles ar\nd me1 ,i  
am lea/ amus$2 my he>t _c conf9e itself 

to realities1 _c embelli%1 b mu/ create4
 ,real objects /rike me z !y really are1
 my imag9ation c only decorate ideal    
ones4 ,if ,i w\ld pa9t ! spr+1 x mu/ be 
9 w9t]2 if describe a beautiful l&scape1
 x mu/ be :ile surr\nd$ ) walls2 & ,i h 
said a hundr$ times1 t 7 ,i conf9$ 9 !  
,ba/ille1 ,i c\ld draw ! mo/ en*ant+    
picture ( lib]ty4 ,on my dep>ture f     
,lyons1 ,i saw no?+ b an agreeable      
future1 ! cont5t ,i n[ ) reason enjoy$ 0
 z great z my discont5t _h be5 at leav+ 
,p>is1 not)/&+1 ,i _h n dur+ ?is j\rney 
any ( ^? delightful rev]ies ,i !n       
enjoy$4 ,my m9d 0 s]5e1 & t 0 all2 ,i   
drew ne> ! excell5t fri5d ,i 0 go+ to   
see1 my he>t ov]fl[+ ) t5d]ness1 enjoy+ 
9 advance1 b )\t intoxication1 !        
pleasure ( liv+ ne> h]2 ,i _h always    
expect$ ?is1 & x 0 z if no?+ new _h     
happ5$4 ,meantime1 ,i 0 anxi\s ab\t !   
employm5t ,madam de ,w>5s _h procur$ me1
 z if t alone _h be5 mat]ial4 ,my ideas 
7 calm & peaceable1 n ravi%+ & cele/ial2
 e object /ruck my sight 9 its natural  

=m2 ,i obs]v$ ! surr\nd+ l&scape1 rem>k$
 ! trees1 ! h\ses1 ! spr+s1 delib]at$ on
 ! cross-roads1 0 fe>ful ( los+ myself1 
yet did n d s2 9 a ^w1 ,i 0 no long] 9 !
 empyrean1 b precisely :]e ,i f\nd      
myself1 or sometimes p]haps at ! end (  
my j\rney1 nev] f>!r4  ,i am 9 rec\nt+  
my travels1 z ,i 0 9 mak+ !m1 loa? to   
arrive at ! conclusion4 ,my he>t beat ) 
joy z ,i approa*$ my de> ,madam de      
,w>5s1 b ,i w5t no fa/] on t acc\nt4 ,i 
love to walk at my ease1 & /op at       
leisure2 a /roll+ life is necess>y to   
me3 travell+ on foot1 9 a f9e c\ntry1 ) 
f9e wea!r & hav+ an agreeable object to 
t]m9ate my j\rney1 is ! mann] ( liv+ (  
all o!rs mo/ suit$ to my ta/e4  ,x is   
already und]/ood :at ,i mean by a f9e   
c\ntry2 nev] c a flat "o1 ?\gh ev] s    
beautiful1 appe> su* 9 my eyes3 ,i mu/ h
 torr5ts1 fir trees1 black woods1       
m\nta9s to climb or desc5d1 & rugg$     
roads ) precipices on ei!r side to al>m 
me4 ,i exp]i5c$ ?is pleasure 9 its utmo/
 ext5t z ,i approa*$ ,*amb]y1 n f> f a  

m\nta9 :i* is call$ ,pas de l',e*elle4  
,above ! ma9 road1 :i* is hewn ?r\gh !  
rock1 a small riv] runs & ru%es into    
fe>ful *asms1 :i* x appe>s to h be5     
millions ( ages 9 =m+4 ,! road has be5  
h$g$ by a p>apet to prev5t accid5ts1 :i*
 enabl$ me to contemplate ! :ole desc5t1
 & ga9 v]tigoes at pleasure2 = a great  
"p ( my amusem5t 9 ^! /eep rocks1 is1 !y
 cause a gidd9ess & swimm+ 9 my head1   
:i* ,i am p>ticul>ly fond (1 provid$ ,i 
am 9 safety2 lean+1 !re=e1 ov] ! p>apet1
 ,i rema9$ :ole h\rs1 cat*+1 f "t to "t1
 a glance ( ! fro? & blue wat]1 ^: ru%+ 
caught my e>1 m+l$ ) ! cries ( rav5s1 & 
o!r birds ( prey t flew f rock to rock1 
& bu% to bu%1 at six hundr$ feet bel[   
me4 ,9 places :]e ! slope 0 tol]ably    
regul>1 & cle> en\gh f bu%es to let     
/ones roll freely1 ,i w5t a consid]able 
way to ga!r !m1 br++ ^? ,i c\ld b j     
c>ry1 :i* ,i pil$ on ! p>apet1 & !n ?rew
 d[n "o aft] ! o!r1 be+ transport$ at   
see+ !m roll1 reb\nd1 & fly into a ?\s& 
pieces1 be=e !y rea*$ ! bottom ( !      

precipice4  ,ne> ,*amb]y ,i enjoy$ an   
equal pleas+ spectacle1 ?\gh ( a diff]5t
 k9d2 ! road pass+ ne> ! foot ( ! mo/   
*>m+ cascade ,i ev] saw4 ,! wat]1 :i* is
 v rapid1 %oots f ! top ( an excessively
 /eep m\nta91 fall+ at su* a di/ance f  
its base t y may walk betwe5 ! cascade &
 ! rock )\t any inconv5i5ce2 b if n     
p>ticul>ly c>eful x is easy to be       
deceiv$ z ,i 01 = ! wat]1 fall+ f su* an
 imm5se height1 sep>ates1 & desc5ds 9 a 
ra9 z f9e z du/1 & on approa*+ too ne>  
?is cl\d1 )\t p]ceiv+ x1 y may be wet   
?r\gh 9 an in/ant4  ,at l5g? ,i arriv$  
at ,madam de ,w>5s2 %e 0 n alone1 !     
int5dant-g5]al 0 ) h]4 ,)\t speak+ a ^w 
to me1 %e caught my h&1 & pres5t+ me to 
him ) t natural grace :i* *>m$ all      
he>ts1 said3 ,?is1 sir1 is ! poor "y man
 ,i m5tion$2 deign to protect him z long
 z he des]ves x1 & ,i %all feel no      
conc]n = ! rema9d] ( 8 life4 ,!n add$1  
address+ h]self to me1 ,*ild1 y n[      
belong to ! k+1 ?ank ,monsieur !        
,int5dant1 :o furni%es y ) ! means (    

exi/5ce4 ,i />$ )\t answ]+1 )\t kn[+ :at
 to ?9k ( all ?is2 ris+ ambition almo/  
turn$ my head2 ,i 0 already prep>$ to   
act ! int5dant myself4 ,my =tune1 h[ev]1
 0 n s brilliant z ,i _h imag9$1 b x 0  
suffici5t to ma9ta9 me1 :i*1 z ,i 0     
situat$1 0 a capital acquisition4 ,i    
%all n[ expla9 ! nature ( my employm5t4 
,k+ ,victor ,amadeus1 judg+ by ! ev5t ( 
prec$+ w>s1 & ! situation ( ! anci5t    
patrimony ( 8 fa!rs1 t he %\ld n long be
 able to ma9ta9 x1 wi%$ to dra9 x       
be=eh&4 ,resolv+1 !re=e1 to tax !       
nobility1 he ord]$ a g5]al survey ( !   
:ole c\ntry1 9 ord] t x might be r5d]$ m
 equal & productive4 ,?is s*eme1 :i* 0  
begun "u ! fa!r1 0 complet$ by ! son3   
two or ?ree hundr$ m51 "p surveyors1 :o 
7 call$ geometricians1 & "p writ]s1 :o 7
 call$ secret>ies1 7 employ$ 9 ?is "w3  
among ^? ( ! latt] description ,madam de
 ,w>5s _h got me appo9t$4 ,?is po/1 )\t 
be+ v lucrative1 furni%$ ! means ( liv+ 
eligibly 9 t c\ntry2 ! mis=tune 01 ?is  
employm5t c\ld n be ( any great         

duration1 b x put me 9 tra9 to procure  
some?+ bett]1 z by ?is means %e hop$ to 
insure ! p>ticul> protection ( !        
int5dant1 :o might f9d me "s m settl$   
occupation be=e ?is 0 conclud$4  ,i     
ent]$ on my new employm5t a few days    
aft] my arrival1 & z !re 0 no great     
difficulty 9 ! bus9ess1 soon und]/ood x2
 ?us1 aft] f\r or five ye>s ( unsettl$  
life1 folly1 & suff]+1 s9ce my dep>ture 
f ,g5eva1 ,i began1 = ! fir/ "t1 to ga9 
my bread ) cr$it4  ,^! long details ( my
 e>ly y\? mu/ h appe>$ trifl+1 & ,i am  
sorry = x3 ?\gh born a man1 9 a v>iety (
 in/ances1 ,i 0 long a *ild1 & am s yet 
9 _m p>ticul>s4 ,i did n promise !      
public a great p]sonage3 ,i promis$ to  
describe myself z ,i am1 & to "k me 9 my
 advanc$ age x 0 necess>y to h kn[n me 9
 my y\?4 ,z1 9 g5]al1 objects t are     
pres5t make less impression on me ?an ! 
b>e remembrance ( !m 7my ideas be+ all f
 recollection71 ! fir/ traits :i* 7     
engrav5 on my m9d h di/9ctly rema9$3 ^? 
:i* h s9ce be5 impr9t$ !re1 h r comb9$ )

 ! =m] ?an effac$ !m4 ,!re is a c]ta91  
yet v>i$ succession ( affections &      
ideas1 :i* cont9ue to regulate ^? t     
foll[ !m1 & ?is progression mu/ be kn[n 
9 ord] to judge rightly ( ^? !y h       
influ5c$4 ,i h /udi$ to develop ! fir/  
causes1 ! bett] to %[ ! concat5ation (  
effects4 ,i w\ld be able by "s means to 
r5d] my s\l transp>5t to ! eyes ( !     
read]1 & = ?is purpose endeavor to %[ x 
9 e possible po9t ( view1 to give him e 
insight1 & act 9 su* a mann]1 t n a     
motion %\ld escape him1 z by ?is means  
he may =m a judgm5t ( ! pr9ciples t     
produce !m4  ,did ,i take ^u myself to  
decide1 & say to ! read]1 ,su* is my "*1
 he might ?9k t if ,i did n endeavor to 
deceive him1 ,i at lea/ deceiv$ myself2 
b 9 rec\nt+ simply all t has happ5$ to  
me1 all my actions1 ?\ghts1 & feel+s1 ,i
 _c lead him into an error1 unless ,i d 
x wilfully1 :i* by ?is means ,i c\ld n  
easily effect1 s9ce x is 8 prov9ce to   
comp>e ! elem5ts1 & judge ( ! be+ !y    
compose3 ?us ! result mu/ be 8 "w1 & if 

he is !n deceiv$ ! error w be 8 own4 ,x 
is n suffici5t = ?is purpose t my       
recitals %\ld be m]ely fai?ful1 !y mu/  
also be m9ute2 x is n = me to judge ( ! 
importance ( facts1 ,i ought to decl>e  
!m simply z !y are1 & leave ! e/imate t 
is to be =m$ ( !m to him4 ,i h adh]$ to 
?is pr9ciple hi!rto1 ) ! mo/ scrupul\s  
exactitude1 & %all n dep>t f x 9 !      
cont9uation2 b ! impressions ( age are  
less lively ?an ^? ( y\?2 ,i began by   
del9eat+ ! latt]3 %\ld ,i recollect !   
re/ ) ! same precision1 ! read]1 may1   
p]haps1 become we>y & impati5t1 b ,i    
%all n be dissatisfi$ ) my labor4 ,i h b
 "o ?+ to appreh5d 9 ?is und]tak+3 ,i d 
n dread say+ too mu*1 or advanc+        
falsities1 b ,i am fe>ful ( n say+      
en\gh1 or conceal+ tru?s4     ,,book ,v4
   ,x 01 ,i believe1 9 #agcb1 t ,i      
arriv$ at ,*amb]y1 z already relat$1 &  
began my employm5t ( regi/]+ l& = ! k+4 
,i 0 almo/ tw5ty-"o1 my m9d well en\gh  
=m$ = my age1 ) respect to s5se1 b v    
defici5t 9 po9t ( judgm5t1 & ne$+ e     

in/ruction f ^? into ^: h&s ,i fell1 to 
make me conduct myself ) propriety2 = a 
few ye>s' exp]i5ce _h n be5 able to cure
 me radically ( my romantic ideas2 &    
not)/&+ ! ills ,i _h su/a9$1 ,i knew z  
little ( ! _w1 or mank9d1 z if ,i _h    
nev] pur*as$ in/ruction4 ,i slept at    
home1 t is1 at ! h\se ( ,madam de ,w>5s2
 b x 0 n z at ,annecy3 "h 7 no g>d5s1 no
 brook1 no l&scape2 ! h\se 0 d>k &      
dismal1 & my ap>tm5t ! mo/ gloomy ( !   
:ole4 ,! prospect a dead wall1 an alley 
in/ead ( a /reet1 conf9$ air1 bad light1
 small rooms1 iron b>s1 rats1 & a rott5 
floor2 an assemblage ( circum/ances t d 
n con/itute a v agreeable habitation2 b 
,i 0 9 ! same h\se ) my be/ fri5d1      
incessantly ne> h]1 at my desk1 or 9    
*amb]1 s t ,i c\ld n p]ceive ! gloom9ess
 ( my own1 or h "t to ?9k ( x4 ,x may   
appe> :imsical t %e %\ld reside at      
,*amb]y on purpose to live 9 ?is        
disagreeable h\se2 b x 0 a trait (      
contrivance :i* ,i ought n to pass ov] 9
 sil5ce4 ,%e _h no great incl9ation = a 

j\rney to ,tur91 fe>+ t aft] ! rec5t    
revolutions1 & ! agitation 9 :i* ! c\rt 
yet 01 %e %\ld n be v favorably receiv$ 
!re2 b h] affairs seem$ to dem& h]      
pres5ce1 z %e fe>$ be+ =gott5 or        
ill-treat$1 p>ticul>ly z ! ,c\nt de     
,sa9t-,laur5t1 ,int5d5t-g5]al ( !       
,f9ances1 0 n 9 h] int]e/4 ,he _h an old
 h\se 9 ,*amb]y1 ill-built1 & /&+ 9 s   
disagreeable a situation t x 0 always   
unt5ant$2 %e hir$1 & settl$ 9 ?is h\se1 
a plan t succe$$ mu* bett] ?an a j\rney 
to ,tur9 w\ld h done1 = h] p5sion 0 n   
suppress$1 & ! ,c\nt de ,sa9t-,laur5t 0 
ev] aft] "o ( h] be/ fri5ds4  ,h]       
h\sehold 0 mu* on ! old foot+2 h]       
fai?ful ,claude ,anet /ill rema9$ ) h]4 
,he 01 z ,i h be=e m5tion$1 a peasant ( 
,m\tru1 :o 9 8 *ildhood _h ga!r$ h]bs 9 
,jura = ! purpose ( mak+ ,swiss tea2 %e 
_h tak5 him into h] s]vice = 8 k (      
drugs1 f9d+ x conv5i5t to h a h]bali/   
among h] dome/ics4 ,passionately fond ( 
! /udy ( plants1 he became a real       
botani/1 & _h he n di$ "y1 might h      

acquir$ z mu* fame 9 t sci5ce z he      
des]v$ = be+ an hone/ man4 ,s]i\s ev5 to
 gravity1 & old] ?an myself1 he 0 to me 
a k9d ( tutor1 comm&+ respect1 & pres]v+
 me f a numb] ( follies1 = ,i d>$ n =get
 myself be=e him4 ,he comm&$ x likewise 
f 8 mi/ress1 :o knew 8 und]/&+1         
uprightness1 & inviolable atta*m5t to   
h]self1 & return$ x4 ,claude ,anet 0 (  
an uncommon temp]4 ,i nev] enc\nt]$ a   
simil> disposition3 he 0 sl[1 delib]ate1
 & circumspect 9 8 conduct2 cold 9 8    
mann]2 laconic & s5t5ti\s 9 8 disc\rse2 
yet ( an impetuosity 9 8 passions1 :i*  
7?\gh c>eful to conceal7 prey$ ^u him   
inw>dly1 & urg$ him to ! only folly he  
ev] committ$2 t folly1 inde$1 0 t]rible1
 x 0 poison+ himself4 ,?is tragic sc5e  
pass$ soon aft] my arrival1 & op5$ my   
eyes to ! intimacy t subsi/$ betwe5     
,claude ,anet & 8 mi/ress1 = _h n !     
in=mation come f h]1 ,i %\ld nev] h     
suspect$ x2 yet1 surely1 if atta*m5t1   
fidelity1 & zeal1 c\ld m]it su* a       
recomp5se1 x 0 due to him1 & :at fur!r  

proves him wor?y su* a di/9ction1 he    
nev] once abus$ h] confid5ce4 ,!y seldom
 disput$1 & _! disagreem5ts ev] end$    
amicably2 "o1 inde$1 0 n s =tunate2 8   
mi/ress1 9 a passion1 said some?+       
affront+1 :i* n be+ able to dige/1 he   
consult$ only ) despair1 & f9d+ a bottle
 ( laudanum at h&1 drank x (f2 !n w5t   
peaceably to b$1 expect+ to awake no m4 
,madam de ,w>5s h]self 0 uneasy1        
agitat$1 w&]+ ab\t ! h\se &             
happily--f9d+ ! phial empty--guess$ !   
re/4 ,h] screams1 :ile fly+ to 8        
assi/ance1 al>m$ me2 %e confess$ all1   
implor$ my help1 & 0 =tunate en\gh1 aft]
 repeat$ ef=ts1 to make him ?r[ up !    
laudanum4 ,witness ( ?is sc5e1 ,i c\ld n
 b wond] at my /upidity 9 nev] hav+     
suspect$ ! connection2 b ,claude ,anet 0
 s discreet1 t a m p5etrat+ obs]v] might
 h be5 deceiv$4 ,_! reconciliation      
affect$ me1 & add$ respect to ! e/eem ,i
 be=e felt = him4 ,f ?is "t ,i became1 9
 "s measure1 8 pupil1 nor did ,i f9d    
myself ! worse = 8 in/ruction4  ,i c\ld 

n le>n1 )\t pa91 t %e liv$ 9 great]     
intimacy ) ano!r ?an ) myself3 x 0 a    
situation ,i _h n ev5 ?\ght (1 b 7:i* 0 
v natural7 x hurt me to see ano!r 9     
possession ( x4 ,nev]!less1 in/ead (    
feel+ any av]sion to ! p]son :o _h ?is  
advantage ov] me1 ,i f\nd ! atta*m5t ,i 
felt = h] actually ext5d to him4 ,i     
desir$ h] happ9ess above all ?+s1 & s9ce
 he 0 conc]n$ 9 h] plan ( felicity1 ,i 0
 cont5t he %\ld be happy likewise4      
,meantime he p]fectly ent]$ into ! views
 ( 8 mi/ress2 conceiv$ a s9c]e fri5d%ip 
= me1 & )\t affect+ ! au?ority 8        
situation might h entitl$ him to1 he    
naturally possess$ t :i* 8 sup]ior      
judgm5t gave him ov] m9e4 ,i d>$ d no?+ 
he disprov$ (1 b he 0 sure to disapprove
 only :at m]it$ disapprobation3 ?us we  
liv$ 9 an union :i* r5d]$ u mutually    
happy1 & :i* dea? alone c\ld dissolve4  
,"o pro( ( ! excell5ce ( ?is amiable    
woman's "*1 is1 t all ^? :o lov$ h]1    
lov$ ea* o!r2 ev5 jeal\sy & rival%ip    
submitt+ to ! m p[]ful s5tim5t ) :i* %e 

inspir$ !m1 & ,i nev] saw any ( ^? :o   
surr\nd$ h] ent]ta9 ! lea/ ill w among  
!mselves4 ,let ! read] pause a mom5t on 
?is encomium1 & if he c recollect any   
o!r woman :o des]ves x1 let him atta*   
himself to h]1 if he w\ld obta9         
happ9ess4  ,f my arrival at ,*amb]y to  
my dep>ture = ,p>is1 #agda1 includ$ an  
int]val ( eight or n9e ye>s1 dur+ :i* "t
 ,i h few adv5tures to relate2 my life  
be+ z simple z x 0 agreeable4 ,?is      
uni=mity 0 precisely :at 0 mo/ want+ to 
complete ! =mation ( my "*1 :i* cont9ual
 tr\bles _h prev5t$ f acquir+ any degree
 ( /ability4 ,x 0 dur+ ?is pleas+       
int]val1 t my unconnect$1 unf9i%$       
education1 ga9$ consi/5ce1 & made me :at
 ,i h unalt]ably rema9$ amid ! /orms )  
:i* ,i h s9ce be5 surr\nd$4  ,! progress
 0 sl[1 almo/ imp]ceptible1 & att5d$ by 
few memorable circum/ances2 yet x       
des]ves to be foll[$ & inve/igat$4  ,at 
fir/1 ,i 0 :olly occupi$ ) my bus9ess1 !
 con/ra9t ( a desk left little          
opportunity = o!r ?\ghts1 ! small       

portion ( "t ,i 0 at lib]ty 0 pass$ ) my
 de> ,madam de ,w>5s1 & n hav+ leisure  
to read1 ,i felt no incl9ation = x2 b :5
 my bus9ess 7by daily repetition7 became
 famili>1 & my m9d 0 less occupi$1 /udy 
aga9 became necess>y1 & 7z my desires 7 
ev] irritat$ by any difficulty t oppos$ 
! indulg5ce ( !m7 might once m h become 
a passion1 z at my ma/]'s1 _h n o!r     
incl9ations int]pos$ & div]t$ x4  ,?\gh 
our occupation did n dem& a v pr(\nd    
skill 9 ari?metic1 x sometimes requir$  
en\gh to puzzle me4 ,to conqu] ?is      
difficulty1 ,i pur*as$ books :i* treat$ 
on t sci5ce1 & le>n$ well1 = ,i n[ /udi$
 alone4 ,practical ari?metic ext5ds     
fur!r ?an is usually suppos$ if y w\ld  
atta9 exact precision4 ,!re are         
op]ations ( extreme l5g? 9 :i* ,i h     
sometimes se5 good geometricians lose   
!mselves4 ,reflection1 assi/$ by        
practice1 gives cle> ideas1 & enables y 
to devise %ort] me?ods1 ^! inv5tions    
flatt] our self-complac5cy1 :ile _!     
exactitude satisfies our und]/&+1 &     

r5d]s a /udy pleasant1 :i* is1 ( itself1
 heavy & un5t]ta9+4 ,at l5g? ,i became s
 exp]t z n to be puzzl$ by any "q t 0   
solvable by ari?metical calculation2 &  
ev5 n[1 :ile ev]y?+ ,i =m]ly knew fades 
daily on my memory1 ?is acquirem5t1 9 a 
great measure rema9s1 ?r\gh an int]val (
 ?irty ye>s4 ,a few days ago1 9 a j\rney
 ,i made to ,dav5port1 be+ ) my ho/ at  
an ari?metical lesson giv5 8 *ildr51 ,i 
did 7) pleasure1 & )\t errors7 a mo/    
complicat$ "w4 ,:ile sett+ d[n my       
figures1 me?\ght ,i 0 /ill at ,*amb]y1  
/ill 9 my days ( happ9ess--h[ f> _h ,i  
to look back = !m6  ,! color$ plans (   
our geometricians _h giv5 me a ta/e =   
draw+3 accord+ly ,i b\ght colors1 &     
began by attempt+ fl[]s & l&scapes4 ,x 0
 un=tunate t ,i _h n tal5ts = ?is art1 =
 my incl9ation 0 mu* dispos$ to x1 &    
:ile surr\nd$ ) crayons1 p5cils1 &      
colors1 ,i c\ld h pass$ :ole mon?s )\t  
wi%+ to leave !m4 ,?is amusem5t engag$  
me s mu* t !y 7 oblig$ to =ce me f x2 & 
?us x is ) e incl9ation ,i give into1 x 

cont9ues to augm5t1 till at l5g? x      
becomes s p[]ful1 t ,i lose sight (     
ev]y?+ except ! favorite amusem5t4 ,ye>s
 h n be5 able to cure me ( t fault1 nay1
 h n ev5 dim9i%$ x2 = :ile ,i am writ+  
?is1 behold me1 l an old dot>d1         
infatuat$ ) ano!r1 to me useless /udy1  
:i* ,i d n und]/&1 & :i* ev5 ^? :o h    
devot$ _! y\?ful days to ! acquisition  
(1 are con/ra9$ to ab&on1 at ! age ,i am
 beg9n+ ) x4  ,at t "t1 ! /udy ,i am n[ 
speak+ ( w\ld h be5 well plac$1 !       
opportunity 0 good1 & ,i _h "s          
temptation to pr(it by x2 = !           
satisfaction ,i saw 9 ! eyes ( ,anet1 :5
 he came home load$ ) new discov]$      
plants1 set me two or ?ree times on !   
po9t ( go+ to h]balize ) him1 & ,i am   
almo/ c]ta9 t _h ,i gone once1 ,i %\ld h
 be5 caught1 & p]haps at ?is day might h
 be5 an excell5t botani/1 = ,i "k no    
/udy m cong5ial to my natural           
incl9ation1 ?an t ( plants2 ! life ,i h 
l$ = ^! t5 ye>s pa/1 9 ! c\ntry1 be+    
little m ?an a cont9ual h]baliz+1 ?\gh  

,i mu/ confess1 )\t object1 & )\t       
improvem5t2 b at ! "t ,i am n[ speak+ ( 
,i _h no incl9ation = botany1 nay1 ,i   
ev5 despis$1 & 0 disgu/$ at ! idea1     
consid]+ x only z a fit /udy = an       
apo!c>y4 ,madam de ,w>5s 0 fond ( x     
m]ely = ?is purpose1 seek+ none b common
 plants to use 9 h] m$ical prep>ations2 
?us botany1 *emi/ry1 & anatomy 7        
conf\nd$ 9 my idea "u ! g5]al d5om9ation
 ( m$ic9e1 & s]v$ to furni% me )        
pleasant s>casms ! :ole day1 :i* procur$
 me1 f "t to "t1 a box on ! e>1 appli$  
by ,madam de ,w>5s4 ,besides ?is1 a v   
contr>y ta/e grew up ) me1 & by degrees 
absorb$ all o!rs2 ?is 0 music4 ,i 0     
c]ta9ly born = t sci5ce1 ,i lov$ x f my 
infancy1 & x 0 ! only incl9ation ,i h   
con/antly adh]$ to2 b x is a/oni%+ t :at
 nature seem$ to h design$ me = %\ld h  
co/ s mu* pa9s to le>n1 & t ,i %\ld     
acquire x s sl[ly1 t aft] a :ole life   
sp5t 9 ! practice ( ?is art1 ,i c\ld    
nev] atta9 to s+ ) any c]ta9ty at sight4
 ,:at r5d]$ ! /udy ( music m agreeable  

to me at t "t1 01 be+ able to practise x
 ) ,madam de ,w>5s4 ,9 o!r respects our 
ta/es 7 widely diff]5t3 ?is 0 a po9t (  
co9cid5ce1 :i* ,i lov$ to avail myself  
(4 ,%e _h no m objection to ?is ?an     
myself4 ,i knew at t "t almo/ z mu* ( x 
z %e did1 & aft] two or ?ree ef=ts1 we  
c\ld make %ift to deciph] an air4       
,sometimes1 :5 ,i saw h] busy at h]     
furnace1 ,i h said1 ,"h n[ is a *>m+    
duet1 :i* seems made = ! v purpose (    
spoil+ y\r drugs2 h] answ] w\ld be1 ,if 
y make me burn !m1 ,i'll make y eat !m3 
?us disput+1 ,i drew h] to ! h>psi*ord2 
! furnace 0 pres5tly =gott51 ! extract (
 junip] or wormwood calc9$ 7:i* ,i _c   
recollect )\t transport71 & ^! sc5es    
usually end$ by h] sme>+ my face ) !    
rema9s ( !m4  ,x may easily be          
conjectur$ t ,i _h pl5ty ( employm5t to 
fill up my leisure h\rs2 "o amusem5t1   
h[ev]1 f\nd room1 t 0 well wor? all !   
re/4  ,illu/ration3 #jafb  ,we liv$ 9   
su* a conf9$ dungeon1 t x 0 necess>y    
sometimes to brea! ! op5 air2 ,anet1    

!re=e1 engag$ ,madam de ,w>5s to hire a 
g>d5 9 ! suburbs1 bo? = ?is purpose & ! 
conv5i5ce ( re>+ plants1 etc42 to ?is   
g>d5 0 add$ a summ]-h\se1 :i* 0 furni%$ 
9 ! cu/om>y mann]2 we sometimes d9$1 &  
,i frequ5tly slept1 !re4 ,ins5sibly ,i  
became atta*$ to ?is little retreat1    
decorat$ x ) books & pr9ts1 sp5d+ "p (  
my "t 9 ornam5t+ x dur+ ! abs5ce (      
,madam de ,w>5s1 t ,i might surprise h] 
! m agreeably on h] return4 ,sometimes  
,i quitt$ ?is de> fri5d1 t ,i might     
enjoy ! un9t]rupt$ pleasure ( ?9k+ on   
h]2 ?is 0 a caprice ,i c nei!r excuse   
nor fully expla91 ,i only "k ?is really 
0 ! case1 & !re=e ,i av[ x4 ,i rememb]  
,madam de ,luxemb\rg told me "o day 9   
raill]y1 ( a man :o us$ to leave 8      
mi/ress t he might enjoy ! satisfaction 
( writ+ to h]2 ,i answ]$1 ,i c\ld h be5 
?is man2 ,i might h add$1 ,t ,i _h done 
! v same4  ,i did n1 h[ev]1 f9d x       
necess>y to leave ,madam de ,w>5s t ,i  
might love h] ! m ard5tly1 = ,i 0 ev] z 
p]fectly free ) h] z :5 alone2 an       

advantage ,i nev] enjoy$ ) any o!r      
p]son1 man or woman1 h[ev] ,i might be  
atta*$ to !m2 b %e 0 s (t5 surr\nd$ by  
company :o 7 f> f pleas+ me1 t spite &  
we>9ess drove me to ?is asylum1 :]e ,i  
c\ld indulge ! idea1 )\t dang] ( be+    
int]rupt$ by imp]t95ce4 ,?us1 my "t be+ 
divid$ betwe5 bus9ess1 pleasure1 &      
in/ruction1 my life pass$ 9 ! mo/       
absolute s]5ity4 ,europe 0 n equally    
tranquil3 ,france & ! emp]or _h mutually
 decl>$ w>1 ! ,k+ ( ,s>d9ia _h ent]$    
into ! qu>rel1 & a ,fr5* army _h fil$ (f
 into ,pi$mont to awe ! ,milanese4 ,our 
division pass$ ?r\gh ,*amb]y1 &1 among  
o!rs1 ! regim5t ( ,*ampaigne1 ^: colonel
 0 ! ,duke de la ,trim\ille1 to :om ,i 0
 pres5t$4 ,he promis$ _m ?+s1 b d\btless
 nev] m ?\ght ( me4 ,our little g>d5 0  
exactly at ! end ( ! suburb by :i* !    
troops ent]$1 s t ,i c\ld fully satisfy 
my curiosity 9 see+ !m pass1 & ,i became
 z anxi\s = ! success ( ! w> z if x _h  
ne>ly conc]n$ me4 ,till n[ ,i _h nev]   
tr\bl$ myself ab\t politics1 = ! fir/ "t

 ,i began read+ ! gazettes1 b ) s mu*   
p>tiality on ! side ( ,france1 t my he>t
 beat ) rapture on its mo/ trifl+       
advantages1 & ,i 0 z mu* afflict$ on a  
rev]se ( =tune1 z if ,i _h be5          
p>ticul>ly conc]n$4  ,_h ?is folly be5  
transi5t1 ,i %\ld n1 p]haps1 h m5tion$  
x1 b x took su* root 9 my he>t 7)\t any 
reasonable cause7 t :5 ,i aft]w>ds act$ 
! anti-despot & pr\d republican at      
,p>is1 9 spite ( myself1 ,i felt a      
secret pr$ilection = ! nation ,i decl>$ 
s]vile1 & = t gov]nm5t ,i affect$ to    
oppose4 ,! pleasante/ ( all 0 t1 a%am$ (
 an incl9ation s contr>y to my pr(ess$  
maxims1 ,i d>$ n own x to any "o1 b     
ralli$ ! ,fr5* on _! defeats1 :ile my   
he>t 0 m w\nd$ ?an _! own4 ,i am c]ta9ly
 ! fir/ man1 t1 liv+ ) a p :o treat$ him
 well1 & :om he almo/ ador$1 put on1 ev5
 9 _! own c\ntry1 a borr[$ air ( despis+
 !m2 yet my orig9al incl9ation is s     
p[]ful1 con/ant1 dis9t]e/$1 & inv9cible1
 t ev5 s9ce my quitt+ t k+dom1 s9ce its 
gov]nm5t1 magi/rates1 & au?ors1 h outvi$

 ea* o!r 9 rancor aga9/ me1 s9ce x has  
become fa%ionable to load me ) inju/ice 
& abuse1 ,i h n be5 able to get rid (   
?is folly1 b not)/&+ _! ill-treatm5t1   
love !m 9 spite ( myself4  ,i long s\ght
 ! cause ( ?is p>tiality1 b 0 nev] able 
to f9d any1 except 9 ! occasion t gave x
 bir?4 ,a ris+ ta/e = lit]ature atta*$  
me to ,fr5* books1 to _! au?ors1 & _!   
c\ntry3 at ! v mom5t ! ,fr5* troops 7   
pass+ ,*amb]y1 ,i 0 read+ ,brantome's   
',celebrat$ ,capta9s'2 my head 0 full ( 
! ,clissons1 ,bay>ds1 ,lautrecs1        
,colignys1 ,montmor5ceys1 & ,trim\ille1 
& ,i lov$ _! desc5dants z ! heirs ( _!  
m]it & c\rage4 ,9 ea* regim5t t pass$ by
 me?\ght ,i saw ^? fam\s black b&s :o _h
 =m]ly done s _m noble exploits 9       
,pi$mont2 9 f9e1 ,i appli$ to ^! all !  
ideas ,i _h ga!r$ f books2 my read+     
cont9u$1 :i*1 /ill drawn f ! same       
nation1 n\ri%$ my affection = t c\ntry1 
till1 at l5g?1 x became a bl9d passion1 
:i* no?+ c\ld ov]come4 ,i h _h occasion 
to rem>k sev]al times 9 ! c\rse ( my    

travels1 t ?is impression 0 n peculi> to
 me = ,france1 b 0 m or less active 9 e 
c\ntry1 = t "p ( ! nation :o 7 fond (   
lit]ature1 & cultivat$ le>n+2 & x 0 ?is 
consid]ation t balanc$ 9 my m9d ! g5]al 
hatr$ :i* ! conceit$ air ( ! ,fr5* is s 
apt to inspire4 ,_! romances1 m ?an _!  
m51 attract ! wom5 ( all c\ntries1 & !  
celebrat$ dramatic pieces ( ,france     
create a fondness 9 y\? = _! !at]s2 !   
reputation :i* t ( ,p>is 9 p>ticul> has 
acquir$1 draws to x cr[ds ( /rang]s1 :o 
return en?usia/s to _! own c\ntry3 9    
%ort1 ! excell5ce ( _! lit]ature        
captivates ! s5ses1 & 9 ! un=tunate w> j
 end$1 ,i h se5 _! au?ors & philosoph]s 
ma9ta9 ! glory ( ,france1 s t>ni%$ by   
its w>riors4  ,i 01 !re=e1 an ard5t     
,fr5*man2 ?is r5d]$ me a politician1 &  
,i att5d$ 9 ! public squ>e1 amid a ?rong
 ( news-mong]s1 ! arrival ( ! po/1 &1   
silli] ?an ! ass 9 ! fable1 0 v uneasy  
to "k ^: packsaddle ,i %\ld next h !    
honor to c>ry1 = x 0 !n suppos$ we %\ld 
belong to ,france1 & t ,savoy w\ld be   

ex*ang$ = ,milan4 ,i mu/ confess1 h[ev]1
 t ,i exp]i5c$ "s uneas9ess1 = _h ?is w>
 t]m9at$ un=tunately = ! allies1 !      
p5sion ( ,madam de ,w>5s w\ld h be5 9 a 
dang]\s situation2 nev]!less1 ,i _h     
great confid5ce 9 my good fri5ds1 !     
,fr5*1 & = once 79 spite ( ! surprise ( 
,m4 de ,broglio7 my confid5ce 0 n       
ill-f\nd$--?anks to ! ,k+ ( ,s>d9ia1 :om
 ,i _h nev] ?\ght (4  ,:ile we 7 fight+ 
9 ,italy1 !y 7 s++ 9 ,france3 ! op]as ( 
,rameau began to make a noise !re1 &    
once m raise ! cr$it ( 8 !oretic works1 
:i*1 f _! obscurity1 7 )9 ! compass ( v 
few und]/&+s4 ,by *ance ,i he>d ( 8     
',treatise on ,h>mony'1 & _h no re/ till
 ,i pur*as$ x4 ,by ano!r *ance ,i fell  
sick2 my illness 0 inflammatory1 %ort & 
viol5t1 b my convalesc5ce 0 t$i\s1 = ,i 
0 unable to g abroad = a :ole mon?4     
,dur+ ?is "t ,i eag]ly ran ov] my       
,treatise on ,h>mony1 b x 0 s long1 s   
diffuse1 & s badly dispos$1 t ,i f\nd x 
w\ld require a consid]able "t to unravel
 x3 accord+ly ,i susp5d$ my incl9ation1 

& recreat$ my sight ) music4  ,!        
cantatas ( ,b]ni] 7 :at ,i pr9cipally   
ex]cis$ myself )4 ,^! 7 nev] out ( my   
m9d2 ,i le>n$ f\r or five by he>t1 &    
among ! re/1 ',! ,sleep+ ,cupids'1 :i*  
,i h nev] se5 s9ce t "t1 ?\gh ,i /ill   
reta9 x almo/ entirely2 z well z ',cupid
 ,/ung by a ,bee'1 a v pretty cantata by
 ,cl]ambault1 :i* ,i le>n$ ab\t ! same  
"t4  ,to complete me1 !re arriv$ a "y   
organi/ f ,valdo/e1 call$ ! ,abbe       
,palais1 a good musician & an agreeable 
companion1 :o p]=m$ v well on !         
h>psi*ord2 ,i got acqua9t$ ) him1 & we  
soon became insep>able4 ,he _h be5      
br\ght up by an ,italian monk1 :o 0 a   
capital organi/4 ,he expla9$ to me 8    
pr9ciples ( music1 :i* ,i comp>$ )      
,rameau2 my head 0 fill$ )              
accompanim5ts1 concords & h>mony1 b z x 
0 necess>y to accu/om ! e> to all ?is1  
,i propos$ to ,madam de ,w>5s hav+ a    
little conc]t once a mon?1 to :i* %e    
cons5t$4  ,behold me !n s full ( ?is    
conc]t1 t night or day ,i c\ld ?9k (    

no?+ else1 & x actually employ$ a great 
"p ( my "t to select ! music1 assemble !
 musicians1 look to ! in/rum5ts1 & write
 out ! sev]al p>ts4 ,madam de ,w>5s     
sang2 ,fa!r ,cato 7:om ,i h be=e        
m5tion$1 & %all h occasion to speak (   
aga97 sang likewise2 a danc+-ma/] nam$  
,ro*e1 & 8 son1 play$ on ! viol92       
,canavas1 a ,pi$montese musician 7:o 0  
employ$ l myself 9 ! survey1 & has s9ce 
m>ri$ at ,p>is71 play$ on ! violoncello2
 ! ,abbe ,palais p]=m$ on ! h>psi*ord1 &
 ,i _h ! honor to conduct ! :ole4 ,x may
 be suppos$ all ?is 0 *>m+2 ,i _c say x 
equall$ my conc]t at ,monsieur de       
,tretor5's1 b c]ta9ly x 0 n f> beh9d x4 
,?is little conc]t1 giv5 by ,madam de   
,w>5s1 ! new conv]t1 :o liv$ 7x 0       
express$7 on ! k+'s *>ity1 made ! :ole  
tribe ( devotees murmur1 b 0 a v        
agreeable amusem5t to sev]al wor?y p1 at
 ! head ( :om x w\ld n be easily surmis$
 t ,i %\ld place a monk2 yet1 ?\gh a    
monk1 a man ( consid]able m]it1 & ev5 ( 
a v amiable disposition1 ^: subsequ5t   

mis=tunes gave me ! mo/ lively conc]n1 &
 ^: idea1 atta*$ to t ( my happy days1  
is yet de> to my memory4 ,i speak (     
,fa!r ,cato1 a ,cordeli]1 :o1 9         
conjunction ) ! ,c\nt d',ortan1 _h caus$
 ! music ( poor ,le ,maitre to be seiz$ 
at ,lyons2 :i* action 0 f> f be+ !      
brighte/ trait 9 8 hi/ory4 ,he 0 a      
,ba*elor ( ,sorbonne1 _h liv$ long 9    
,p>is among ! great _w1 & 0 p>ticul>ly  
c>ess$ by ! ,m>quis d',antremont1 !n    
,ambassador f ,s>d9ia4 ,he 0 tall & well
 made2 full fac$1 ) v f9e eyes1 & black 
hair1 :i* =m$ natural curls on ea* side 
( 8 =ehead4 ,8 mann] 0 at once noble1   
op51 & mode/2 he pres5t$ himself ) ease 
& good mann]s1 hav+ nei!r ! hypocritical
 nor impud5t behavior ( a monk1 or !    
=w>d assurance ( a fa%ionable coxcomb1 b
 ! mann]s ( a well-br$ man1 :o1 )\t     
blu%+ = 8 habit1 set a value on himself1
 & ev] felt 9 8 prop] situation :5 9    
good company4 ,?\gh ,fa!r ,cato 0 n     
deeply /udi$ = a doctor1 he 0 mu* s = a 
man ( ! _w1 & n be+ compell$ to %[ 8    

tal5ts1 he br\ght !m =w>d s             
advantage\sly t !y appe>$ great] ?an !y 
really 74 ,hav+ liv$ mu* 9 ! _w1 he _h r
 atta*$ himself to agreeable acquirem5ts
 ?an to solid le>n+2 _h s5se1 made      
v]ses1 spoke well1 sang bett]1 & aid$ 8 
good voice by play+ on ! organ &        
h>psi*ord4 ,s _m pleas+ qualities 7 n   
necess>y to make 8 company s\ght aft]1  
&1 accord+ly1 x 0 v mu* s1 b ?is did n  
make him neglect ! duties ( 8 function3 
he 0 *os5 79 spite ( 8 jeal\s           
competitors7 ,def9itor ( 8 ,prov9ce1 or1
 accord+ to !m1 "o ( ! greate/ pill>s ( 
_! ord]4  ,fa!r ,cato became acqua9t$ ) 
,madam de ,w>5s at ! ,m>quis (          
,antremont's2 he _h he>d ( h] conc]ts1  
wi%$ to assi/ at !m1 & by 8 company     
r5d]$ our meet+s truly agreeable4 ,we 7 
soon atta*$ to ea* o!r by our mutual    
ta/e = music1 :i* 9 bo? 0 a mo/ lively  
passion1 ) ?is diff]5ce1 t he 0 really a
 musician1 & myself a bungl]4 ,sometimes
 assi/$ by ,canavas & ! ,abbe ,palais1  
we _h music 9 8 ap>tm5t2 or on holidays 

at 8 organ1 & frequ5tly d9$ ) him2 =1   
:at 0 v a/oni%+ 9 a monk1 he 0 g5]\s1   
pr(use1 & lov$ good *e]1 )\t ! lea/     
t9cture ( gre$9ess4 ,aft] our conc]ts1  
he always us$ to /ay to supp]1 & ^!     
ev5+s pass$ ) ! greate/ gayety &        
good-humor2 we conv]s$ ) ! utmo/ fre$om1
 & sang duets2 ,i 0 p]fectly at my ease1
 _h sallies ( wit & m]rim5t2 ,fa!r ,cato
 0 *>m+1 ,madam de ,w>5s adorable1 & !  
,abbe ,palais1 ) 8 r\gh voice1 0 ! butt 
( ! company4 ,pleas+ mom5ts ( sportive  
y\?1 h[ long s9ce h ye fl$6  ,z ,i %all 
h no m occasion to speak ( poor ,fa!r   
,cato1 ,i w "h conclude 9 a few words 8 
melan*oly hi/ory4 ,8 bro!r monks1       
jeal\s1 or r exasp]at$ to discov] 9 him 
a m]it & elegance ( mann]s :i* favor$   
no?+ ( mona/ic /upidity1 conceiv$ ! mo/ 
viol5t hatr$ to him1 because he 0 n z   
despicable z !mselves2 ! *iefs1 !re=e1  
comb9$ aga9/ ?is wor?y man1 & set on !  
envi\s rabble ( monks1 :o o!rwise w\ld n
 h d>$ to haz>d ! attack4 ,he receiv$ a 
?\s& indignities2 !y degrad$ him f 8    

(fice1 took away ! ap>tm5t :i* he _h    
furni%$ ) elegant simplicity1 &1 at     
l5g?1 bani%$ him1 ,i "k n :i!r3 9 %ort1 
^! wret*es ov]:elm$ him ) s _m evils1 t 
8 hone/ & pr\d s\l sank "u ! pressure1  
&1 aft] hav+ be5 ! delight ( ! mo/      
amiable societies1 he di$ ( grief1 on a 
wret*$ b$1 hid 9 "s cell or dungeon1    
lam5t$ by all wor?y p ( 8 acqua9tance1  
:o c\ld f9d no fault 9 him1 except 8 be+
 a monk4  ,accu/om$ to ?is mann] ( life 
= "s "t1 ,i became s entirely atta*$ to 
music t ,i c\ld ?9k ( no?+ else4 ,i w5t 
to my bus9ess ) disgu/1 ! necess>y      
conf9em5t & assiduity appe>$ an         
insupportable puni%m5t1 :i* ,i at l5g?  
wi%$ to rel9qui%1 t ,i might give myself
 up )\t res]ve to my favorite amusem5t4 
,x w be readily believ$ t ?is folly met 
) "s opposition2 to give up a cr$itable 
employm5t & fix$ sal>y to run aft]      
unc]ta9 s*ol>s 0 too giddy a plan to be 
approv$ ( by ,madam de ,w>5s1 & ev5     
suppos+ my future success %\ld prove z  
great z ,i flatt]$ myself1 x 0 fix+ v   

humble limits to my ambition to ?9k (   
r$uc+ myself = life to ! condition ( a  
music-ma/]4 ,%e1 :o =m$ = me ! brighte/ 
projects1 & no long] tru/$ implicitly to
 ! judgm5t ( ,m4 d',aubonne1 see+ )     
conc]n t ,i 0 s s]i\sly occupi$ ) a     
tal5t :i* %e ?\ght frivol\s1 frequ5tly  
repeat$ to me t prov9cial prov]b1 :i*   
does n hold q s good 9 ,p>is1           
,qui bi5s *ante et bi5s dance1          
fait un meti] qui peu avance4           
,he :o c sweetly s+ & featly dance1     
,8 int]e/s "r little %all advance4  ,on 
! o!r h&1 %e saw me hurri$ away by ?is  
irresi/ible passion1 my ta/e = music    
hav+ become a furor1 & x 0 mu* to be    
fe>$ t my employm5t1 suff]+ by my       
di/raction1 might draw on me a dis*>ge1 
:i* w\ld be worse ?an a volunt>y        
resignation4 ,i repres5t$ to h]2 t ?is  
employm5t c\ld n la/ long1 t x 0        
necess>y ,i %\ld h "s p]man5t means (   
subsi/5ce1 & t x w\ld be mu* bett] to   
complete by practice ! acquisition ( t  
art to :i* my incl9ation l$ me ?an to   

make fre% essays1 :i* possibly might n  
succe$1 s9ce by ?is means1 hav+ pass$ ! 
age mo/ prop] = improvem5t1 ,i might be 
left )\t a s+le res\rce = ga9+ a        
livelihood3 9 %ort1 ,i extort$ h] cons5t
 m by importunity & c>esses ?an by any  
satisfactory reasons4 ,pr\d ( my        
success1 ,i imm$iately ran to ?ank ,m4  
,coccelli1 ,director-,g5]al ( ! ,survey1
 z ?\gh ,i _h p]=m$ ! mo/ h]oic action1 
& quitt$ my employm5t )\t cause1 reason1
 or pretext1 ) z mu* pleasure z ,i _h   
accept$ x two ye>s be=e4  ,?is /ep1     
ridicul\s z x may appe>1 procur$ me a   
k9d ( consid]ation1 :i* ,i f\nd         
extremely useful4 ,"s suppos$ ,i _h     
res\rces :i* ,i did n possess2 o!rs1    
see+ me totally giv5 up to music1 judg$ 
( my abilities by ! sacrifice ,i _h     
made1 & conclud$ t ) su* a passion = !  
art1 ,i mu/ possess x 9 a sup]ior       
degree4 ,9 a nation ( bl9d m51 ^? ) "o  
eye are k+s4 ,i pass$ "h = an excell5t  
ma/]1 because all ! re/ 7 v bad ones4   
,possess+ ta/e 9 s++1 & be+ favor$ by my

 age & figure1 ,i soon procur$ m s*ol>s 
?an 7 suffici5t to comp5sate = ! losses 
( my secret>y's pay4 ,x is c]ta91 t _h x
 be5 reasonable to consid] ! pleasure ( 
my situation only1 x 0 impossible to    
pass m spe$ily f "o extreme to ! o!r4   
,at our measur+1 ,i 0 conf9$ eight h\rs 
9 ! day to ! mo/ un5t]ta9+ employm5t1 ) 
yet m disagreeable company4 ,%ut up 9 a 
melan*oly c\nt+-h\se1 empoison$ by !    
smell & respiration ( a numb] ( cl[ns1 !
 major "p ( :om 7 ill-comb$ & v dirty1  
:at ) att5tion1 bad air1 con/ra9t &     
we>9ess1 ,i 0 sometimes s f> ov]come z  
to occasion a v]tigo4 ,in/ead ( ?is1    
behold me admitt$ into ! fa%ionable _w1 
s\ght aft] 9 ! fir/ h\ses1 & ev]y:]e    
receiv$ ) an air ( satisfaction2 amiable
 & gay "y ladies await+ my arrival1 &   
welcom+ me ) pleasure2 ,i see no?+ b    
*>m+ objects1 smell no?+ b roses &      
orange fl[]s2 s++1 *att+1 laught]1 &    
amusem5ts1 p]petually succe$ ea* o!r4 ,x
 mu/ be all[$1 t reckon+ all ^!         
advantages1 no hesitation 0 necess>y 9 !

 *oice2 9 fact1 ,i 0 s cont5t ) m9e1 t  
,i nev] once rep5t$ x2 nor d ,i ev5 n[1 
:51 free f ! irrational motives t       
influ5c$ me at t "t1 ,i weigh 9 ! scale 
( reason e action ( my life4  ,?is is1  
p]haps1 ! only "t t1 li/5+ to           
incl9ation1 ,i 0 n deceiv$ 9 my         
expectations4 ,! easy access1 oblig+    
temp]1 & free humor ( ?is c\ntry1 r5d]$ 
a comm]ce ) ! _w agreeable1 & !         
incl9ation ,i !n felt = x1 proves to me1
 t if ,i h a dislike = society1 x is m  
_! fault ?an m9e4 ,x is a pity !        
,savoy>ds are n ri*3 ?\gh1 p]haps1 x    
w\ld be a /ill great] pity if !y 7 s1 = 
altoge!r !y are ! be/1 ! mo/ sociable p 
t ,i "k1 & if !re is a little city 9 !  
_w :]e ! pleasures ( life are exp]i5c$ 9
 an agreeable & fri5dly comm]ce1 x is at
 ,*amb]y4 ,! g5try ( ! prov9ce :o       
assemble !re h only suffici5t weal? to  
live & n en\gh to spoil !m2 !y _c give  
way to ambition1 b foll[1 ?r\gh         
necessity1 ! c\nsel ( ,cyneas1 devot+ _!
 y\? to a milit>y employm5t1 & return+  

home to gr[ old 9 peace2 an arrangem5t  
ov] :i* honor & reason equally preside4 
,! wom5 are h&some1 yet d n /& 9 ne$ (  
beauty1 s9ce !y possess all ^?          
qualifications :i* enhance its value &  
ev5 supply ! want ( x4 ,x is rem>kable1 
t be+ oblig$ by my pr(ession to see a   
numb] ( "y girls1 ,i d n recollect "o at
 ,*amb]y b :at 0 *>m+3 x w be said ,i 0 
dispos$ to f9d !m s1 & p]haps !re may be
 "s tru? 9 ! surmise4 ,i _c rememb] my  
"y s*ol>s )\t pleasure4 ,:y1 9 nam+ !   
mo/ amiable1 _c ,i recall !m & myself   
also to t happy age 9 :i* our mom5ts1   
pleas+ z innoc5t1 7 pass$ ) su* happ9ess
 toge!r8 ,! fir/ 0 ,mademoiselle de     
,mall>$e1 my neighbor1 & si/] to a pupil
 ( ,monsieur ,gaime4 ,%e 0 a f9e cle>   
brunette1 lively & graceful1 )\t        
gidd9ess2 ?9 z girls ( t age usually    
are2 b h] bright eyes1 f9e %ape1 & easy 
air1 r5d]$ h] suffici5tly pleas+ ) t    
degree ( plumpness :i* w\ld h giv5 a    
height5+ to h] *>ms4 ,i w5t !re (       
morn+s1 :5 %e 0 usually 9 h] di%abille1 

h] hair c>elessly turn$ up1 &1 on my    
arrival1 ornam5t$ ) a fl[]1 :i* 0 tak5  
(f at my dep>ture = h] hair to be       
dress$4 ,!re is no?+ ,i fe> s mu* z a   
pretty woman 9 an elegant di%abille2 ,i 
%\ld dread !m a hundr$ times less 9 full
 dress4 ,mademoiselle de ,m5?on1 :om ,i 
att5d$ 9 ! aft]noon1 0 ev] s4 ,%e made  
an equally pleas+1 b q diff]5t          
impression on me4 ,h] hair 0 flax51 h]  
p]son delicate1 %e 0 v timid & extremely
 fair1 _h a cle> voice1 capable ( j     
modulation1 b :i* %e _h n c\rage to     
employ to its full ext5t4 ,%e _h ! m>k (
 a scald on h] bosom1 :i* a scanty piece
 ( blue *5ille did n entirely cov]1 ?is 
sc> sometimes drew my att5tion1 ?\gh n  
absolutely on its own acc\nt4           
,mademoiselle des ,*alles1 ano!r ( my   
neighbors1 0 a woman gr[n1 tall1        
well-=m$1 jolly1 v pleas+ ?\gh n a      
beauty1 & might be quot$ = h]           
gracefulness1 equal temp]1 & good humor4
 ,h] si/]1 ,madam de ,*>ly1 ! h&some/   
woman ( ,*amb]y1 did n le>n music1 b ,i 

taught h] daught]1 :o 0 yet "y1 b ^:    
gr[+ beauty promis$ to equal h] "m's1 if
 %e _h n un=tunately be5 a little       
r$-hair$4 ,i _h likewise among my s*ol>s
 a little ,fr5* lady1 ^: "n ,i h =gott51
 b :o m]its a place 9 my li/ (          
pref]5ces4 ,%e _h adopt$ ! sl[ drawl+   
tone ( ! nuns1 9 :i* voice %e w\ld utt] 
"s v ke5 ?+s1 :i* did n 9 ! lea/ appe>  
to correspond ) h] mann]2 b %e 0        
indol5t1 & c\ld n g5]ally take pa9s to  
%[ h] wit1 t be+ a favor %e did n grant 
to e "o4 ,aft] a mon? or two ( neglig5t 
att5dance1 ?is 0 an exp$i5t %e devis$ to
 make me m assidu\s1 = ,i c\ld n easily 
p]suade myself to be s4 ,:5 ) my s*ol>s1
 ,i 0 fond en\gh ( tea*+1 b c\ld n be> !
 idea ( be+ oblig$ to att5d at a        
p>ticul> h\r2 con/ra9t & subjection 9 e 
%ape are to me insupportable1 & alone   
suffici5t to make me hate ev5 pleasure  
itself4  ,i _h "s s*ol>s likewise among 
! tradespeople1 &1 among o!rs1 "o :o 0 !
 indirect cause ( a *ange ( relation%ip1
 :i* 7z ,i h promis$ to decl>e all7 ,i  

mu/ relate 9 its place4 ,%e 0 ! daught] 
( a groc]1 & 0 call$ ,mademoiselle de   
,l>nage1 a p]fect model = a ,grecian    
/atue1 & :om ,i %\ld quote = ! h&some/  
girl ,i h ev] se51 if true beauty c\ld  
exi/ )\t life or s\l4 ,h] indol5ce1     
res]ve1 & ins5sibility 7 inconceivable2 
x 0 equally impossible to please or make
 h] angry1 & ,i am conv9c$ t _h any "o  
=m$ a design ^u h] virtue1 he might h   
succe$$1 n ?r\gh h] incl9ation1 b f h]  
/upidity4 ,h] "m1 :o w\ld run no risk ( 
?is1 did n leave h] a s+le mom5t4 ,9    
hav+ h] taught to s+ & provid+ a "y     
ma/]1 %e _h hop$ to enliv5 h]1 b x all  
prov$ ineffectual4 ,:ile ! ma/] 0 admir+
 ! daught]1 ! "m 0 admir+ ! ma/]1 b ?is 
0 equally lo/ labor4 ,madam de ,l>nage  
add$ to h] natural vivacity t portion ( 
sprightl9ess :i* %\ld h belong$ to !    
daught]4 ,%e 0 a little1 ugly1 lively   
trollop1 ) small tw9kl+ f]ret eyes1 &   
m>k$ ) smallpox4 ,on my arrival 9 !     
morn+1 ,i always f\nd my c(fee & cream  
ready1 & ! "m nev] fail$ to welcome me )

 a kiss on ! lips1 :i* ,i w\ld will+ly h
 return$ ! daught]1 to see h[ %e w\ld h 
receiv$ x4 ,all ?is 0 done ) su* an air 
( c>elessness & simplicity1 t ev5 :5 ,m4
 de ,l>nage 0 pres5t1 h] kisses &       
c>esses 7 n omitt$4 ,he 0 a good quiet  
fell[1 ! true orig9al ( 8 daught]2 nor  
did 8 wife endeavor to deceive him1     
because !re 0 absolutely no occasion =  
x4  ,i receiv$ all ^! c>esses ) my usual
 /upidity1 tak+ !m only = m>ks ( pure   
fri5d%ip1 ?\gh !y 7 sometimes           
tr\blesome2 = ! lively ,madam ,l>d 0    
displeas$1 if1 dur+ ! day1 ,i pass$ !   
%op )\t call+2 x became necess>y1 !re=e 
7:5 ,i _h no "t to sp>e71 to g out ( my 
way ?r\gh ano!r /reet1 well kn[+ x 0 n s
 easy to quit h] h\se z to ent] x4      
,madam ,l>d ?\ght s mu* ( me1 t ,i c\ld 
n avoid ?9k+ some?+ ( h]4 ,h] att5tions 
affect$ me greatly2 & ,i spoke ( !m to  
,madam de ,w>5s1 )\t suppos+ any my/]y 9
 ! matt]1 b _h !re be5 "o ,i %\ld       
equally h divulg$ x1 = to h kept a      
secret ( any k9d f h] w\ld h be5        

impossible4 ,my he>t lay z op5 to ,madam
 de ,w>5s z to ,heav54 ,%e did n und]/& 
! matt] q s simply z ,i _h done1 b saw  
advances :]e ,i only discov]$ fri5d%ip4 
,%e conclud$ t ,madam ,l>d w\ld make a  
po9t ( n leav+ me z great a fool z %e   
f\nd me1 &1 "s way or o!r1 contrive to  
make h]self und]/ood2 b exclusive ( !   
consid]ation t x 0 n j1 t ano!r %\ld    
und]take ! in/ruction ( h] pupil1 %e _h 
motives m wor?y ( h]1 wi%+ to gu>d me   
aga9/ ! sn>es to :i* my y\? & inexp]i5ce
 expos$ me4 ,meantime1 a m dang]\s      
temptation (f]$ :i* ,i likewise escap$1 
b :i* prov$ to h] t su* a succession (  
dang]s requir$ e pres]vative %e c\ld    
possibly apply4  ,! ,c\ntess ( ,m5?on1  
"m to "o ( my s*ol>s1 0 a woman ( great 
wit1 & reckon$ to possess1 at lea/1 an  
equal %>e ( mis*ief1 hav+ 7z 0 report$7 
caus$ a numb] ( qu>rels1 &1 among o!rs1 
"o t t]m9at$ fatally = ! h\se (         
,d',antremont4 ,madam de ,w>5s _h se5   
en\gh ( h] to "k h] "*3 = hav+ 7v       
innoc5tly7 pleas$ "s p]son to :om ,madam

 de ,m5?on _h pret5sions1 %e f\nd h]    
guilty ( ! crime ( ?is pref]5ce1 ?\gh   
,madam de ,w>5s _h nei!r s\ght aft] nor 
accept$ x1 & f t mom5t endeavor$ to play
 h] rival a numb] ( ill turns1 none (   
:i* succe$$4 ,i %all relate "o ( ! mo/  
:imsical1 by way ( specim54  ,!y 7      
toge!r 9 ! c\ntry1 ) sev]al g5tlem5 ( ! 
neighborhood1 & among ! re/ ! lov] 9 "q4
 ,madam de ,m5?on took an opportunity to
 say to "o ( ^! g5tlem51 t ,madam de    
,w>5s 0 a prude1 t %e dress$ ill1 &     
p>ticul>ly t %e cov]$ h] neck l a       
tradeswoman4 ,o1 = t matt]1 repli$ !    
p]son %e 0 speak+ to 7:o 0 fond ( a     
joke71 %e has good reason1 = ,i "k %e is
 m>k$ ) a great ugly rat on h] bosom1 s 
naturally1 t x ev5 appe>s to be runn+4  
,hatr$1 z well z love1 r5d]s its vot>ies
 cr$ul\s4 ,madam de ,m5?on resolv$ to   
make use ( ?is discov]y1 & "o day1 :ile 
,madam de ,w>5s 0 at c>ds ) ?is lady's  
ungrateful favorite1 %e contriv$1 9     
pass+ beh9d h] rival1 almo/ to ov]set ! 
*air %e sat on1 & at ! same in/ant1 v   

dext]\sly displac$ h] h&k]*ief2 b in/ead
 ( ?is hide\s rat1 ! g5tleman beheld a  
f> diff]5t object1 :i* x 0 n m easy to  
=get ?an to obta9 a sight (1 & :i* by no
 means answ]$ ! int5tions ( ! lady4  ,i 
0 n calculat$ to engross ! att5tion (   
,madam de ,m5?on1 :o lov$ to be surr\nd$
 by brilliant company2 not)/&+ %e be/[$ 
"s att5tion on me1 n = ! sake ( my      
p]son1 :i* %e c]ta9ly did n reg>d1 b = !
 reputation ( wit :i* ,i _h acquir$1 &  
:i* might h r5d]$ me conv5i5t to h]     
pr$om9ant incl9ation4 ,%e _h a v lively 
passion = ridicule1 & lov$ to write     
songs & lampoons on ^? :o displeas$ h]3 
_h %e f\nd me possess$ ( suffici5t      
tal5ts to aid ! fabrication ( h] v]ses1 
& complaisance en\gh to d s1 we %\ld    
pres5tly h turn$ ,*amb]y upside d[n2 ^! 
libels w\ld h be5 trac$ to _! s\rce1    
,madam de ,m5?on w\ld h sav$ h]self by  
sacrific+ me1 & ,i %\ld h be5 coop$ up 9
 prison1 p]haps1 = ! re/ ( my life1 z a 
recomp5se = hav+ figur$ away z ! ,apollo
 ( ! ladies4 ,=tunately1 no?+ ( ?is k9d 

happ5$2 ,madam de ,m5?on made me /ay =  
d9n] two or ?ree days1 to *at ) me1 &   
soon f\nd ,i 0 too dull = h] purpose4 ,i
 felt ?is myself1 & 0 humiliat$ at !    
discov]y1 envy+ ! tal5ts ( my fri5d     
,v5ture2 ?\gh ,i %\ld r h be5 oblig$ to 
my /upidity = keep+ me out ( ! rea* (   
dang]4 ,i rema9$1 !re=e1 ,madam de      
,m5?on's daught]'s s++-ma/]1 & no?+ m6 b
 ,i liv$ happily1 & 0 ev] well receiv$  
at ,*amb]y1 :i* 0 a ?\s& times m        
desirable ?an pass+ = a wit ) h]1 & = a 
s]p5t ) ev]ybody else4  ,h[ev] ?is might
 be1 ,madam de ,w>5s conceiv$ x necess>y
 to gu>d me f ! p]ils ( y\? by treat+ me
 z a man3 ?is %e imm$iately set ab\t1 b 
9 ! mo/ extraord9>y mann] t any woman1 9
 simil> circum/ances1 ev] devis$4 ,i all
 at once obs]v$ t h] mann] 0 grav]1 & h]
 disc\rse m moral ?an usual4 ,to !      
playful gayety ) :i* %e us$ to int]m+le 
h] in/ructions sudd5ly succe$$ an       
uni=mity ( mann]1 nei!r famili> nor     
sev]e1 b :i* seem$ to prep>e me = "s    
explanation4 ,aft] hav+ va9ly rack$ my  

bra9 = ! reason ( ?is *ange1 ,i m5tion$ 
x to h]2 ?is %e _h expect$ & imm$iately 
propos$ a walk to our g>d5 ! next day4  
,accord+ly we w5t !re ! next morn+2 %e  
_h contriv$ t we %\ld rema9 alone ! :ole
 day1 :i* %e employ$ 9 prep>+ me = ^?   
favors %e meant to be/[2 n z ano!r woman
 w\ld h done1 by toy+ & folly1 b by     
disc\rses full ( s5tim5t & reason1 r    
t5d+ to in/ruct ?an s$uce1 & :i* spoke m
 to my he>t ?an to my s5ses4 ,meantime1 
h[ev] excell5t & to ! purpose ^!        
disc\rses might be1 & ?\gh f> en\gh f   
coldness or melan*oly1 ,i did n li/5 to 
!m ) all ! att5tion !y m]it$1 nor fix !m
 9 my memory z ,i %\ld h done at any o!r
 "t4 ,t air ( prep>ation :i* %e _h      
adopt$ gave me a degree ( inquietude2   
:ile %e spoke 79 spite ( myself7 ,i 0   
?\ghtful & abs5t1 att5d+ less to :at %e 
said ?an curi\s to "k :at %e aim$ at2 & 
no soon] _h ,i compreh5d$ h] design 7:i*
 ,i c\ld n easily d7 ?an ! novelty ( !  
idea1 :i*1 dur+ all ! ye>s ,i _h pass$ )
 h]1 _h nev] once ent]$ my imag9ation1  

took su* entire possession ( me t ,i 0  
no long] capable ( m9d+ :at %e said6 ,i 
only ?\ght ( h]2 ,i he>d h] no long]4   
,?9k+ to r5d] "y m9ds att5tive to reason
 by propos+ "s highly int]e/+ object z !
 result ( x1 is an error in/ructors     
frequ5tly run into1 & "o :i* ,i h n     
avoid$ 9 my ,umilius4 ,! "y pupil1 /ruck
 ) ! object pres5t$ to him1 is occupi$  
only ) t1 & leap+ lightly ov] y\r       
prelim9>y disc\rses1 lights at once on !
 po9t1 to :i*1 9 8 idea1 y lead him too 
t$i\sly4 ,to r5d] him att5tive1 he mu/  
be prev5t$ f see+ ! :ole ( y\r design2  
&1 9 ?is p>ticul>1 ,madam de ,w>5s did n
 act ) suffici5t precaution4  ,by a     
s+ul>ity :i* adh]$ to h] sy/ematic      
disposition1 %e took ! va9 precaution ( 
propos+ conditions2 b ! mom5t ,i knew ! 
pur*ase1 ,i no long] ev5 he>d !m1 b     
imm$iately cons5t$ to ev]y?+2 & ,i d\bt 
:e!r !re is a man on ! :ole e>? :o w\ld 
h be5 s9c]e or c\rage\s en\gh to dispute
 t]ms1 or "o s+le woman :o w\ld h p>don$
 su* a dispute4 ,by a cont9uation ( !   

same :imsicality1 %e atta*$ a numb] ( ! 
grave/ =malities to ! acquisition ( h]  
favors1 & gave me eight days to ?9k (   
!m1 :i* ,i assur$ h] ,i _h no ne$ (1    
?\gh t assurance 0 f> f a tru?3 = to    
complete ?is assemblage ( s+ul>ities1 ,i
 0 v glad to h ?is int]mission2 s mu* _h
 ! novelty ( ^! ideas /ruck me1 & su*   
disord] did ,i feel 9 m9e1 t x requir$  
"t to arrange !m4  ,x w be suppos$1 t ^!
 eight days appe>$ to me z _m ages2 on !
 contr>y1 ,i %\ld h be5 v glad _h ! "t  
be5 l5g!n$4 ,i f9d x difficult to       
describe ! /ate ,i f\nd myself 92 x 0 a 
/range *aos ( fe> & impati5ce1 dread+   
:at ,i desir$1 & /udy+ "s civil pretext 
to evade my happ9ess4  ,let ! w>m? ( my 
con/itution be rememb]$1 my age1 & my   
he>t intoxicat$ ) love2 let my t5d]     
atta*m5t to h] be suppos$1 :i*1 f> f    
hav+ dim9i%$1 _h daily ga9$ additional  
/r5g?2 let x be consid]$ t ,i 0 only    
happy :5 ) h]1 t my he>t 0 full1 n only 
( h] b\nty1 ( h] amiable disposition1 b 
( h] %ape1 ( h] p]son1 ( h]self2 9 a ^w1

 conceive me unit$ to h] by e aff9ity t 
c\ld possibly r5d] h] de>2 nor let x be 
suppos$1 t1 be+ t5 or twelve ye>s old]  
?an myself1 %e began to gr[ an old      
woman1 or 0 s 9 my op9ion4 ,f ! "t !    
fir/ sight ( h] _h made su* an          
impression on me1 %e _h really alt]$ v  
little1 &1 9 my m9d1 n at all4 ,to me %e
 0 ev] *>m+1 & 0 /ill ?\ght s by        
ev]yone4 ,%e _h got some?+ jolli]1 b _h 
! same f9e eyes1 ! same cle> complexion1
 ! same features1 ! same beautiful light
 hair1 ! sane gayety1 & ev5 ! same      
voice1 ^: y\?ful & silv]y s\nd made s   
lively an impression on my he>t1 t1 ev5 
to ?is day1 ,i _c he> a "y woman's      
voice1 t is at all h>moni\s1 )\t        
emotion4 ,x w be se51 t 9 a m advanc$   
age1 ! b>e idea ( "s trifl+ favors ,i _h
 to expect f ! p]son ,i lov$1 inflam$ me
 s f>1 t ,i c\ld n support1 ) any degree
 ( pati5ce1 ! "t necess>y to trav]se !  
%ort space t sep>at$ u2 h[ !n1 by :at   
miracle1 :5 9 ! fl[] ( my y\?1 _h ,i s  
little impati5ce = a happ9ess ,i _h nev]

 ta/$ b 9 idea8 ,h[ c\ld ,i see ! mom5t 
advanc+ ) m pa9 ?an pleasure8 ,:y1      
in/ead ( transports t %\ld h intoxicat$ 
me ) _! delici\sness1 did ,i exp]i5ce   
only fe>s & repugnance8 ,i h no d\bt t  
if ,i c\ld h avoid$ ?is happ9ess ) any  
degree ( dec5cy1 ,i %\ld h rel9qui%$ x )
 all my he>t4 ,i h promis$ a numb] (    
extravagancies 9 ! hi/ory ( my atta*m5t 
to h]2 ?is c]ta9ly is "o t no idea c\ld 
be =m$ (4  ,! read] 7already disgu/$7   
supposes1 t be+ 9 ! situation ,i h be=e 
describ$ ) ,claude ,anet1 %e 0 already  
degrad$ 9 my op9ion by ?is p>ticipation 
( h] favors1 & t a s5tim5t ( dise/eem   
weak5$ ^? %e _h be=e inspir$ me )2 b he 
is mi/ak54 ',tis true t ?is p>ticipation
 gave me a cruel uneas9ess1 z well f a v
 natural s5tim5t ( delicacy1 z because x
 appe>$ unwor?y bo? ( h] & myself2 b z  
to my s5tim5ts = h]1 !y 7 /ill ! same1 &
 ,i c solemnly av]1 t ,i nev] lov$ h] m 
t5d]ly ?an :5 ,i felt s little prop5sity
 to avail myself ( h] condesc5sion4 ,i 0
 too well acqua9t$ ) ! *a/ity ( h] he>t 

& ! ic9ess ( h] con/itution1 to suppose 
a mom5t t ! gratification ( ! s5ses _h  
any influ5ce ov] h]2 ,i 0 well conv9c$ t
 h] only motive 0 to gu>d me f dang]s1  
:i* appe>$ o!rwise inevitable1 by ?is   
extraord9>y favor1 :i* %e did n consid] 
9 ! same light t wom5 usually d2 z w    
pres5tly be expla9$4  ,! habit ( liv+ a 
long "t innoc5tly toge!r1 f> f weak5+ ! 
fir/ s5tim5ts ,i felt = h]1 _h          
contribut$ to /r5g!n !m1 giv+ a m       
lively1 a m t5d]1 b at ! same "t a less 
s5sual1 turn to my affection4 ,hav+ ev] 
accu/om$ myself to call h] ,mama 7z     
=m]ly obs]v$7 & enjoy+ ! famili>ity ( a 
son1 x became natural to consid] myself 
z su*1 & ,i am incl9$ to ?9k ?is 0 !    
true reason ( t ins5sibility ) a p]son  
,i s t5d]ly lov$2 = ,i c p]fectly       
recollect t my emotions on fir/ see+ h]1
 ?\gh n m lively1 7 m voluptu\s3 ,at    
,annecy ,i 0 intoxicat$1 at ,*amb]y ,i  
possess$ my reason4 ,i always lov$ h] z 
passionately z possible1 b ,i n[ lov$ h]
 m = h]self & less on my own acc\nt2 or1

 at lea/1 ,i r s\ght = happ9ess ?an     
pleasure 9 h] company4 ,%e 0 m to me ?an
 a si/]1 a "m1 a fri5d1 or ev5 ?an a    
mi/ress1 & = ?is v reason %e 0 n a      
mi/ress2 9 a ^w1 ,i lov$ h] too mu* to  
desire h]4  ,?is day1 m dread$ ?an hop$ 
=1 at l5g? arriv$4 ,i h be=e obs]v$1 t  
,i promis$ ev]y?+ t 0 requir$ ( me1 & ,i
 kept my ^w3 my he>t confirm$ my        
engagem5ts )\t desir+ ! fruits1 ?\gh at 
l5g? ,i obta9$ !m4 ,0 ,i happy8 ,no3 ,i 
felt ,i "k n :at inv9cible sadness :i*  
empoison$ my happ9ess1 x seem$ t ,i _h  
committ$ an ince/1 & two or ?ree times1 
press+ h] eag]ly 9 my arms1 ,i delug$ h]
 bosom ) my te>s4 ,on h] "p1 z %e _h    
nev] s\ght pleasure1 %e _h n ! /+s (    
remorse4  ,i repeat x1 all h] fail+s 7 !
 effect ( h] errors1 nev] ( h] passions4
 ,%e 0 well born1 h] he>t 0 pure1 h]    
mann]s noble1 h] desires regul> &       
virtu\s1 h] ta/e delicate2 %e seem$ =m$ 
= t elegant purity ( mann]s :i* %e ev]  
lov$1 b nev] practis$1 because in/ead ( 
li/5+ to ! dictates ( h] he>t1 %e foll[$

 ^? ( h] reason1 :i* l$ h] a/ray3 = :5  
once corrupt$ by false pr9ciples x w ev]
 run c\nt] to its natural s5tim5ts4     
,unhappily1 %e piqu$ h]self on          
philosophy1 & ! morals %e drew f !nce   
cl\d$ ! g5u9e purity ( h] he>t4  ,m4    
,tavel1 h] fir/ lov]1 0 also h]         
in/ructor 9 ?is philosophy1 & !         
pr9ciples he in/ill$ into h] m9d 7 su* z
 t5d$ to s$uce h]4 ,f9d+ h] cold &      
impregnable on ! side ( h] passions1 &  
firmly atta*$ to h] husb& & h] duty1 he 
attack$ h] by sophisms1 endeavor+ to    
prove t ! li/ ( duties %e ?\ght s sacr$1
 0 b a sort ( cate*ism1 fit only =      
*ildr54 ,t ! k9d ( infidelity %e ?\ght s
 t]rible1 01 9 itself1 absolutely       
indiff]5t2 t all ! morality ( conjugal  
fai? consi/$ 9 op9ion1 ! cont5tm5t (    
husb&s be+ ! only reasonable rule ( duty
 9 wives2 consequ5tly t conceal$        
infidelities1 do+ no injury1 c\ld be no 
crime2 9 a ^w1 he p]suad$ h] t ! s9     
consi/$ only 9 ! sc&al1 t woman be+     
really virtu\s :o took c>e to appe> s4  

,?us ! deceiv] obta9$ 8 end 9 ! subv]t+ 
! reason ( a girl2 ^: he>t he f\nd x    
impossible to corrupt1 & receiv$ 8      
puni%m5t 9 a dev\r+ jeal\sy1 be+ p]suad$
 %e w\ld treat him z he _h prevail$ on  
h] to treat h] husb&4  ,i don't "k :e!r 
he 0 mi/ak5 9 ?is respect3 ! ,m9i/]     
,p]ret pass$ = 8 successor2 all ,i "k1  
is1 t ! coldness ( temp]am5t :i* x might
 h be5 suppos$ w\ld h kept h] f embrac+ 
?is sy/em1 9 ! end prev5t$ h] f r5\nc+  
x4 ,%e c\ld n conceive h[ s mu*         
importance %\ld be giv5 to :at seem$ to 
h none = h]2 nor c\ld %e honor ) ! "n ( 
virtue1 an ab/95ce :i* w\ld h co/ h]    
little4  ,%e did n1 !re=e1 give 9 to ?is
 false pr9ciple on h] own acc\nt1 b = ! 
sake ( o!rs2 & t f ano!r maxim almo/ z  
false z ! =m]1 b m consonant to !       
g5]osity ( h] disposition4  ,%e 0       
p]suad$ t no?+ c\ld atta* a man s truly 
to any woman z an unb\nd$ fre$om1 & ?\gh
 %e 0 only susceptible ( fri5d%ip1 ?is  
fri5d%ip 0 s t5d]1 t %e made use ( e    
means :i* dep5d$ on h] to secure !      

objects ( x1 &1 :i* is v extraord9>y1   
almo/ always succe$$3 = %e 0 s truly    
amiable1 t an increase ( intimacy 0 sure
 to discov] additional reasons to love &
 respect h]4 ,ano!r ?+ wor?y ( rem>k is1
 t aft] h] fir/ folly1 %e only favor$ ! 
un=tunate4 ,lov]s 9 a m brilliant /ation
 lo/ _! labor ) h]1 b ! man :o at fir/  
attract$ h] pity1 mu/ h possess$ v few  
good qualities if 9 ! end he did n obta9
 h] affection4 ,ev5 :5 %e made an       
unwor?y *oice1 f> f proce$+ f base      
incl9ations 7:i* 7 /rang]s to h] noble  
he>t7 x 0 ! effect ( a disposition too  
g5]\s1 humane1 compassionate1 & s5sible1
 :i* %e did n always gov]n ) suffici5t  
disc]nm5t4  ,if "s false pr9ciples misl$
 h]1 h[ _m admirable ones did %e n      
possess1 :i* nev] =sook h]6 ,by h[ _m   
virtues did %e atone = h] fail+s6 if we 
c call by t "n errors 9 :i* ! s5ses _h s
 little %>e4 ,! man :o 9 "o p>ticul>    
deceiv$ h] s completely1 _h giv5 h]     
excell5t in/ructions 9 a ?\s& o!rs2 & h]
 passions1 be+ f> f turbul5t1 p]mitt$ h]

 to foll[ ! dictates4 ,%e ev] act$      
wisely :5 h] sophisms did n int]v5e1 &  
h] designs 7 laudable ev5 9 h] fail+s4  
,false pr9ciples might lead h] to d ill1
 b %e nev] did any?+ :i* %e conceiv$ to 
be wrong4 ,%e abhorr$ ly+ & duplicity1 0
 j1 equitable1 humane1 dis9t]e/$1 true  
to h] ^w1 h] fri5ds1 & ^? duties :i* %e 
conceiv$ to be su*2 incapable ( hatr$ or
 rev5ge1 & n ev5 conceiv+ !re 0 a m]it 9
 p>don+2 9 f9e 7to return to ^?         
qualities :i* 7 less excusable71 ?\gh %e
 did n prop]ly value1 %e nev] made a    
vile comm]ce ( h] favors2 %e lavi%$1 b  
nev] sold !m1 ?\gh cont9ually r$uc$ to  
exp$i5ts = a subsi/5ce3 & ,i d>e ass]t1 
t if ,socrates c\ld e/eem ,aspasia1 he  
w\ld h respect$ ,madam de ,w>5s4  ,i am 
well aw>e t ascrib+ s5sibility ( he>t ) 
coldness ( temp]am5t to ! same p]son1 ,i
 %all g5]ally1 & ) great appe>ance (    
reason1 be accus$ ( a contradiction4    
,p]haps ,nature sport$ or blund]$1 & ?is
 comb9ation ought n to h exi/$2 ,i only 
"k x did exi/4 ,all ^? :o "k ,madam de  

,w>5s 7a great numb] ( :om are yet liv+7
 h _h opportunities ( kn[+ ?is 0 a fact2
 ,i d>e ev5 av] %e _h b "o pleasure 9 ! 
_w1 :i* 0 s]v+ ^? %e lov$4 ,let e "o    
argue on ! po9t z he pleases1 & gravely 
prove t ?is _c be2 my bus9ess is to     
decl>e ! tru?1 & n to en=ce a belief (  
x4  ,i became acqua9t$ ) ! p>ticul>s ,i 
h j relat$1 9 ^? conv]sations :i*       
succe$$ our union1 & alone r5d]$ x      
delici\s4 ,%e 0 "r :5 %e conclud$ h]    
complaisance w\ld be useful to me2 ,i   
d]iv$ great advantages f x 9 po9t (     
useful in/ruction4 ,hi!rto %e _h us$ me 
z a *ild1 %e n[ began to treat me z a   
man1 & ent]ta9 me ) acc\nts ( h]self4   
,ev]y?+ %e said 0 s int]e/+1 & ,i 0 s   
s5sibly t\*$ ) x1 t1 reason+ ) myself1  
,i appli$ ^! confid5tial relations to my
 own improvem5t & receiv$ m in/ruction f
 !m ?an f h] tea*+4 ,:5 we truly feel t 
! he>t speaks1 our own op5s to receive  
its in/ructions1 nor c all ! pomp\s     
morality ( a p$agogue h half ! effect t 
is produc$ by ! t5d]1 affectionate1 &   

artless conv]sation ( a s5sible woman on
 him :o loves h]4  ,! intimacy 9 :i* ,i 
liv$ ) ,madam de ,w>5s1 hav+ plac$ me m 
advantage\sly 9 h] op9ion ?an =m]ly1 %e 
began to ?9k 7not)/&+ my awkw>d mann]7 t
 ,i des]v$ cultivation = ! polite _w1 & 
t if ,i c\ld "o day %[ myself !re 9 an  
eligible situation1 ,i %\ld soon be able
 to make my way4 ,9 consequ5ce ( ?is    
idea1 %e set ab\t =m+ n only my judgm5t1
 b my address1 endeavor+ to r5d] me     
amiable1 z well z e/imable2 & if x is   
true t success 9 ?is _w is consi/5t )   
/rict virtue 7:i*1 = my "p1 ,i d n      
believe71 ,i am c]ta9 !re is no o!r road
 ?an t %e _h tak51 & wi%$ to po9t out to
 me4 ,= ,madam de ,w>5s knew mank9d1 &  
und]/ood exquisitely well ! art ( treat+
 all ranks1 )\t falsehood1 & )\t        
imprud5ce1 nei!r deceiv+ nor provok+ !m2
 b ?is art 0 r 9 h] disposition ?an h]  
precepts1 %e knew bett] h[ to practise  
?an expla9 x1 & ,i 0 ( all ! _w ! lea/  
calculat$ to become ma/] ( su* an       
atta9m5t2 accord+ly1 ! means employ$ =  

?is purpose 7 ne>ly lo/ labor1 z well z 
! pa9s %e took to procure me a f5c+ & a 
danc+ ma/]4  ,?\gh v well made1 ,i c\ld 
nev] le>n to dance a m9uet2 = be+ plagu$
 ) corns1 ,i _h acquir$ a habit ( walk+ 
on my heels1 :i* ,ro*e1 ! danc+ ma/]1   
c\ld nev] break me (4 ,x 0 /ill worse at
 ! f5c+-s*ool1 :]e1 aft] ?ree mon?s'    
practice1 ,i made b v little progress1 &
 c\ld nev] attempt f5c+ ) any b my ma/]4
 ,my wri/ 0 n supple en\gh1 nor my arm  
suffici5tly firm to reta9 ! foil1 :5ev] 
he *ose to make x fly out ( my h&4 ,add 
to ?is1 ,i _h a mortal av]sion bo? to ! 
art itself & to ! p]son :o und]took to  
tea* x to me1 nor %\ld ,i ev] h imag9$1 
t anyone c\ld h be5 s pr\d ( ! sci5ce ( 
s5d+ m5 out ( ! _w4 ,to br+ ?is va/     
g5ius )9 ! compass ( my compreh5sion1 he
 expla9$ himself by comp>isons drawn f  
music1 :i* he und]/ood no?+ (4 ,he f\nd 
/rik+ analogies betwe5 a hit 9 'qu>te'  
or 'ti]ce' ) ! int]vals ( music :i* be>s
 ^? names3 :5 he made a fe9t he cri$    
out1 take c>e ( ?is 'diesis'1 because   

anci5tly !y call$ ! 'diesis' a fe9t3 &  
:5 he _h made ! foil fly f my h&1 he    
w\ld add1 ) a sne]1 t ?is 0 a pause3 9 a
 ^w1 ,i nev] 9 my life saw a m          
insupportable p$ant4  ,i made1 !re=e1 b 
little progress 9 my ex]cises1 :i* ,i   
pres5tly quitt$ f pure disgu/2 b ,i     
succe$$ bett] 9 an art ( a ?\s& times m 
value1 namely1 t ( be+ cont5t ) my      
situation1 & n desir+ "o m brilliant1 = 
:i* ,i began to be p]suad$ t ,nature _h 
n design$ me4 ,giv5 up to ! endeavor (  
r5d]+ ,madam de ,w>5s happy1 ,i 0 ev]   
be/ pleas$ :5 9 h] company1 &1 not)/&+  
my fondness = music1 began to grudge !  
"t ,i employ$ 9 giv+ lessons to my      
s*ol>s4  ,i am ignorant :e!r ,anet      
p]ceiv$ ! full ext5t ( our union2 b ,i  
am incl9$ to ?9k he 0 no /rang] to x4   
,he 0 a "y man ( great p5etration1 &    
/ill great] discretion2 :o nev] beli$ 8 
s5tim5ts1 b did n always speak !m3 )\t  
giv+ me ! lea/ h9t t he 0 acqua9t$ ) our
 intimacy1 he appe>$ by 8 conduct to be 
s2 nor did ?is mod]ation proce$ f       

bas5ess ( s\l1 b1 hav+ ent]$ entirely   
into ! pr9ciples ( 8 mi/ress1 he c\ld n 
reasonably disapprove ( ! natural       
consequ5ces ( !m4 ,?\gh z "y z h]self1  
he 0 s grave & ?\ghtful1 t he look$ on u
 z two *ildr5 :o requir$ indulg5ce1 & we
 reg>d$ him z a respectable man1 ^:     
e/eem we _h to pres]ve4 ,x 0 n until    
aft] %e 0 unfai?ful to ,anet1 t ,i le>n$
 ! /r5g? ( h] atta*m5t to him4 ,%e 0    
fully s5sible t ,i only ?\ght1 felt1 or 
liv$ = h]2 %e let me see1 !re=e1 h[ mu* 
%e lov$ ,anet1 t ,i might love him      
likewise1 & dwell less on h] fri5d%ip1  
?an on h] e/eem1 = him1 because ?is 0 ! 
s5tim5t t ,i c\ld mo/ fully p>take (4   
,h[ (t5 has %e affect$ our he>ts & made 
u embrace ) te>s1 by assur+ u t we 7 bo?
 necess>y to h] happ9ess6 ,let n wom5   
read ?is ) an ill-natur$ smile2 ) !     
temp]am5t %e possess$1 ?is necessity 0 n
 equivocal1 x 0 only t ( ! he>t4  ,?us  
!re 0 e/abli%$1 among u ?ree1 a union   
)\t example1 p]haps1 on ! face ( ! e>?4 
,all our wi%es1 our c>es1 our v he>ts1 7

 = ea* o!r1 & absolutely conf9$ to ?is  
little circle4 ,! habit ( liv+ toge!r1 &
 liv+ exclusively f ! re/ ( ! _w1 became
 s /rong1 t if at our repa/s "o ( ! ?ree
 0 want+1 or a f\r? p]son came 91 ev]y?+
 seem$ d]ang$2 &1 not)/&+ our p>ticul>  
atta*m5ts1 ev5 our tete-a-tete 7 less   
agreeable ?an our reunion4 ,:at bani%$ e
 species ( con/ra9t f our little        
community1 0 a lively reciprocal        
confid5ce1 & dulness or insipidity c\ld 
f9d no place among u1 because we 7      
always fully employ$4 ,madam de ,w>5s   
always project+1 always busy1 left u no 
"t = idl5ess1 ?\gh1 inde$1 we _h ea*    
suffici5t employm5t on our own acc\nt4  
,x is my maxim1 t idl5ess is z mu* ! pe/
 ( society z ( solitude4 ,no?+ m        
contracts ! m9d1 or eng5d]s m tales1    
mis*ief1 gossip+1 & lies1 ?an = p to be 
et]nally %ut up 9 ! same ap>tm5t toge!r1
 & r$uc$1 f ! want ( employm5t1 to !    
necessity ( an incessant *at4 ,:5 e "o  
is busy 7unless y h really some?+ to    
say71 y may cont9ue sil5t2 b if y h no?+

 to d1 y mu/ absolutely speak           
cont9ually1 & ?is1 9 my m9d1 is ! mo/   
burd5some & ! mo/ dang]\s con/ra9t4 ,i w
 g fur!r1 & ma9ta91 t to r5d] company   
h>mless1 z well z agreeable1 x is       
necess>y1 n only t !y %\ld h some?+ to  
d1 b some?+ t requires a degree (       
att5tion4  ,knitt+1 = in/ance1 is       
absolutely z bad z do+ no?+2 y mu/ take 
z mu* pa9s to amuse a woman ^: f+]s are 
?us employ$1 z if %e sat ) h] arms      
cross$2 b let h] embroid]1 & x is a     
diff]5t matt]2 %e is !n s f> busi$1 t a 
few int]vals ( sil5ce may be borne )4   
,:at is mo/ disgu/+ & ridicul\s1 dur+ ^!
 int]missions ( conv]sation1 is to see1 
p]haps1 a doz5 ov]-gr[n fell[s1 get up1 
sit d[n aga91 walk backw>ds & =w>ds1    
turn on _! heels1 play ) ! *imney       
ornam5ts1 & rack _! bra9s to ma9ta9 an  
inexhau/ible *a9 ( words3 :at a *>m+    
occupation6 ,su* p1 :]ev] !y g1 mu/ be  
tr\blesome bo? to o!rs & !mselves4 ,:5  
,i 0 at ,moti]s1 ,i us$ to employ myself
 9 mak+ laces ) my neighbors1 & 7 ,i    

aga9 to mix ) ! _w1 ,i w\ld always c>ry 
a cup-&-ball 9 my pocket2 ,i %\ld       
sometimes play ) x ! :ole day1 t ,i     
might n be con/ra9$ to speak :5 ,i _h   
no?+ to disc\rse ab\t2 & ,i am p]suad$1 
t if e "o w\ld d ! same1 mank9d w\ld be 
less mis*iev\s1 _! company w\ld become m
 rational1 &1 9 my op9ion1 a va/ deal m 
agreeable2 9 a ^w1 let wits laugh if !y 
please1 b ,i ma9ta91 t ! only practical 
lesson ( morality )9 ! rea* ( ! pres5t  
age1 is t ( ! cup-&-ball4  ,at ,*amb]y  
!y did n give u ! tr\ble ( /udy+        
exp$i5ts to avoid we>9ess1 :5 by        
ourselves1 = a troop ( important        
visitors gave u too mu* by _! company1  
to feel any :5 alone4 ,! annoyance !y   
=m]ly gave me _h n dim9i%$2 all !       
diff]5ce 01 t ,i n[ f\nd less           
opportunity to ab&on myself to my       
dissatisfaction4 ,poor ,madam de ,w>5s  
_h n lo/ h] old pr$ilection = s*emes &  
sy/ems2 on ! contr>y1 ! m %e felt !     
pressure ( h] dome/ic necessities1 ! m  
%e endeavor$ to extricate h]self f !m by

 vision>y projects2 &1 9 proportion to !
 decrease ( h] pres5t res\rces1 %e      
contriv$ to enl>ge1 9 idea1 ^? ( !      
future4 ,increase ( ye>s only /r5g!n$   
?is folly3 z %e lo/ h] reli% = !        
pleasures ( ! _w & y\?1 %e replac$ x by 
an additional fondness = secrets &      
projects2 h] h\se 0 nev] cle> ( quacks1 
contriv]s ( new manufactures1 al*emi/s1 
projects ( all k9ds & ( all             
descriptions1 ^: disc\rses began by a   
di/ribution ( millions & conclud$ by    
giv+ y to und]/& t !y 7 9 want ( a      
cr[n-piece4 ,no "o w5t f h] empty-h&$2 &
 :at a/oni%$ me mo/ 01 h[ %e c\ld s long
 support su* pr(usion1 )\t exhau/+ !    
s\rce or we>y+ h] cr$itors4  ,h]        
pr9cipal project at ! "t ,i am n[ speak+
 ( 0 t ( e/abli%+ a ,royal ,physical    
,g>d5 at ,*amb]y1 ) a ,demon/rator      
atta*$ to x2 x w be unnecess>y to add = 
:om ?is (fice 0 design$4 ,! situation ( 
?is city1 9 ! mid/ ( ! ,alps1 0         
extremely favorable to botany1 & z      
,madam de ,w>5s 0 always = help+ out "o 

project ) ano!r1 a ,college ( ,ph>macy 0
 to be add$1 :i* really w\ld h be5 a v  
useful f\ndation 9 s poor a c\ntry1 :]e 
apo!c>ies are almo/ ! only m$ical       
practition]s4 ,! retreat ( ! *ief       
physician1 ,grossi1 to ,*amb]y1 on !    
demise ( ,k+ ,victor1 seem$ to favor ?is
 idea1 or p]haps1 fir/ sugge/ x2 h[ev]  
?is may be1 by flatt]y & att5tion %e set
 ab\t manag+ ,grossi1 :o1 9 fact1 0 n v 
manageable1 be+ ! mo/ cau/ic & brutal1 =
 a man :o _h any pret5sions to ! quality
 ( a g5tleman1 t ev] ,i knew4 ,! read]  
may judge = himself by two or ?ree      
traits ( "*1 :i* ,i %all add by way (   
specim54  ,he assi/$ "o day at a        
consultation ) "s o!r doctors1 & among !
 re/1 a "y g5tleman f ,annecy1 :o 0     
physician 9 ord9>y to ! sick p]son4 ,?is
 "y man1 be+ b indiff]5tly taught = a   
doctor1 0 bold en\gh to diff] 9 op9ion f
 ,m4 ,grossi1 :o only answ]$ him by ask+
 him :5 he %\ld return1 :i* way he meant
 to take1 & :at conveyance he %\ld make 
use (8 ,! o!r1 hav+ satisfi$ ,grossi 9  

^! p>ticul>s1 ask$ him if !re 0 any?+ he
 c\ld s]ve him 98 ,no?+1 no?+1 answ]$   
he1 only ,i %all place myself at a w9d[ 
9 y\r way1 t ,i may h ! pleasure ( see+ 
an ass ride on horseback4 ,8 av>ice     
equall$ 8 ri*es & want ( feel+4 ,"o ( 8 
fri5ds want$ to borr[ "s money ( him1 on
 good security4 ,my fri5d1 answ]$ he1   
%ak+ him by ! arm1 & gr9d+ 8 tee?1 ,%\ld
 ,/4 ,pet] desc5d f heav5 to borr[ t5   
pi/oles ( me1 & (f] ! ,tr9ity z         
securities1 ,i w\ld n l5d !m4 ,"o day1  
be+ invit$ to d9n] ) ,c\nt ,picon1      
,gov]nor ( ,savoy1 :o 0 v religi\s1 he  
arriv$ be=e x 0 ready1 & f\nd 8         
excell5cy busy ) 8 devotions1 :o propos$
 to him ! same employm5t2 n kn[+ h[ to  
refuse1 he knelt d[n ) a frightful      
grimace1 b _h h>dly recit$ two          
,ave-,m>ias1 :51 n be+ able to conta9   
himself any long]1 he rose ha/ily1      
snat*$ 8 hat & cane1 & )\t speak+ a ^w1 
0 mak+ t[>d ! door2 ,c\nt ,picon ran    
aft] him1 cry+1 ,monsieur ,grossi6      
,monsieur ,grossi6 /op1 !re's a mo/     

excell5t ortolan on ! spit = y4         
,monsieur le ,c\nt1 repli$ ! o!r1 turn+ 
8 head1 ?\gh y %\ld give me a roa/$     
angel1 ,i w\ld n /ay4 ,su* 0 ,m4        
,grossi1 :om ,madam de ,w>5s und]took & 
succe$$ 9 civiliz+4 ,?\gh 8 "t 0 v mu*  
occupi$1 he accu/om$ himself to come    
frequ5tly to h] h\se1 conceiv$ a        
fri5d%ip = ,anet1 seem$ to ?9k him      
intellig5t1 spoke ( him ) e/eem1 &1 :at 
w\ld n h be5 expect$ ( su* a brute1     
affect$ to treat him ) respect1 wi%+ to 
efface ! impressions ( ! pa/2 = ?\gh    
,anet 0 no long] on ! foot+ ( a dome/ic1
 x 0 kn[n t he _h be5 "o1 & no?+ less   
?an ! c\nt5ance & example ( ! *ief      
physician 0 necess>y to set an example (
 respect :i* w\ld n o!rwise h be5 paid  
him4 ,?us ,claude ,anet1 ) a black coat1
 a well-dress$ wig1 a grave1 dec5t      
behavior1 a circumspect conduct1 & a    
tol]able k 9 m$ical & botanical matt]s1 
might reasonably h hop$ to fill1 )      
univ]sal satisfaction1 ! place ( public 
demon/rator1 _h ! propos$ e/abli%m5t    

tak5 place4 ,grossi highly approv$ !    
plan1 & only wait$ an opportunity to    
propose x to ! adm9i/ration1 :5ev] a    
return ( peace %\ld p]mit !m to ?9k (   
useful in/itutions1 & enable !m to sp>e 
! necess>y pecuni>y supplies4  ,b ?is   
project1 ^: execution w\ld probably h   
plung$ me into botanical /udies1 = :i*  
,i am incl9$ to ?9k ,nature design$ me1 
fail$ ?r\gh "o ( ^? unexpect$ /rokes :i*
 frequ5tly ov]?r[ ! be/ conc]t$ plans4  
,i 0 de/9$ to become an example ( human 
mis]y2 & x might be said t ,provid5ce1  
:o call$ me by degrees to ^! extraord9>y
 trials1 disconc]t$ e opportunity t c\ld
 prev5t my enc\nt]+ !m4  ,9 an excursion
 :i* ,anet made to ! top ( ! m\nta9 to  
seek = g5ipi1 a sc>ce plant t gr[s only 
on ! ,alps1 & :i* ,monsieur ,grossi _h  
occasion =1 un=tunately he heat$ himself
 s mu*1 t he 0 seiz$ ) a pleurisy1 :i* !
 g5ipi c\ld n relieve1 ?\gh said to be  
specific 9 t disord]2 &1 not)/&+ all !  
art ( ,grossi 7:o c]ta9ly 0 v skillful71
 & all ! c>e ( 8 good mi/ress & myself1 

he di$ ! fif? day ( 8 disord]1 9 ! mo/  
cruel agonies4 ,dur+ 8 illness he _h no 
exhortations b m9e1 be/[$ ) su*         
transports ( grief & zeal1 t _h he be5 9
 a /ate to und]/& !m1 !y mu/ h be5 "s   
consolation to him4 ,?us ,i lo/ ! firme/
 fri5d ,i ev] _h2 a man e/imable &      
extraord9>y2 9 :om ,nature suppli$ !    
defects ( education1 & :o 7?\gh 9 a /ate
 ( s]vitude7 possess$ all ! virtues     
necess>y to =m a great man1 :i*1 p]haps1
 he w\ld h %[n himself1 & be5 ackn[l$g$1
 _h he liv$ to fill ! situation he seem$
 s p]fectly adapt$ to4  ,! next day ,i  
spoke ( him to ,madam de ,w>5s ) ! mo/  
s9c]e & lively affection2 :51 sudd5ly1 9
 ! mid/ ( our conv]sation1 ! vile1      
ungrateful ?\ght occurr$1 t ,i %\ld     
inh]it 8 w>drobe1 & p>ticul>ly a h&some 
black coat1 :i* ,i ?\ght v becom+4 ,z ,i
 ?\ght ?is1 ,i consequ5tly utt]$ x2 = :5
 ) h]1 to ?9k & to speak 0 ! same ?+4   
,no?+ c\ld h made h] feel m =cibly !    
loss %e _h su/a9$1 ?an ?is unwor?y &    
odi\s obs]vation2 dis9t]e/$ness &       

greatness ( s\l be+ qualities t poor    
,anet _h em95tly possess$4 ,! g5]\s     
,madam de ,w>5s turn$ f me1 & 7)\t any  
reply7 bur/ into te>s4 ,de> & preci\s   
te>s6 y\r repreh5sion 0 fully felt2 ye  
ran into my v he>t1 wa%+ f !nce ev5 !   
smalle/ traces ( su* despicable &       
unwor?y s5tim5ts1 nev] to return4  ,?is 
loss caus$ ,madam de ,w>5s z mu*        
inconv5i5ce z sorr[1 s9ce f ?is mom5t h]
 affairs 7 /ill m d]ang$4 ,anet 0       
extremely exact1 & kept ev]y?+ 9 ord]2 8
 vigilance 0 univ]sally fe>$1 & ?is set 
"s b\nds to t pr(usion !y 7 too apt to  
run into2 ev5 ,madam de ,w>5s1 to avoid 
8 c5sure1 kept h] dissipation )9 b\nds2 
8 atta*m5t 0 n suffici5t1 %e wi%$ to    
pres]ve 8 e/eem1 & avoid ! j            
remon/rances he sometimes took ! lib]ty 
to make h]1 by repres5t+ t %e squ&]$ !  
prop]ty ( o!rs z well z h] own4 ,i ?\ght
 z he did1 nay1 ,i ev5 sometimes        
express$ myself to ! same effect1 b _h n
 an equal asc5dancy ov] h]1 & my advice 
did n make ! same impression4 ,on 8     

decease1 ,i 0 oblig$ to occupy 8 place1 
= :i* ,i _h z little incl9ation z       
abilities1 & !re=e fill$ x ill4 ,i 0 n  
suffici5tly c>eful1 & s v timid1 t ?\gh 
,i frequ5tly f\nd fault to myself1 ,i   
saw ill-managem5t )\t tak+ c\rage to    
oppose x2 besides1 ?\gh ,i acquir$ an   
equal %>e ( respect1 ,i _h n ! same     
au?ority4 ,i saw ! disord] t prevail$1  
trembl$ at x1 sometimes compla9$1 b 0   
nev] att5d$ to4 ,i 0 too "y & lively to 
h any pret5sions to ! ex]cise ( reason1 
& :5 ,i w\ld h act$ ! re=m]1 ,madam de  
,w>5s call+ me h] little ,m5tor1 ) two  
or ?ree playful slaps on ! *eek1 r$uc$  
me to my natural ?\ghtlessness4         
,not)/&+1 an idea ( ! c]ta9 di/ress 9   
:i* h] ill-regulat$ exp5ses1 soon] or   
lat]1 mu/ necess>ily plunge h]1 made a  
/rong] impression on me s9ce ,i _h      
become ! inspector ( h] h\sehold1 & _h a
 bett] opportunity ( calculat+ !        
inequality t subsi/$ betwe5 h] income & 
h] exp5ses4 ,i ev5 date f ?is p]iod !   
beg9n+ ( t incl9ation to av>ice :i* ,i h

 ev] s9ce be5 s5sible (4 ,i 0 nev]      
fooli%ly prodigal1 except by int]vals2 b
 till !n ,i 0 nev] conc]n$ :e!r ,i _h   
mu* or little money4 ,i n[ began to pay 
m att5tion to ?is circum/ance1 tak+ c>e 
( my purse1 & becom+ mean f a laudable  
motive2 = ,i only s\ght to insure ,madam
 de ,w>5s "s res\rces aga9/ t cata/rophe
 :i* ,i dread$ ! approa* (4 ,i fe>$ h]  
cr$itors w\ld seize h] p5sion or t x    
might be discont9u$ & %e r$uc$ to want1 
:5 ,i fooli%ly imag9$ t ! trifle ,i c\ld
 save might be ( ess5tial s]vice to h]2 
b to accompli% ?is1 x 0 necess>y ,i %\ld
 conceal :at ,i meant to make a res]ve  
(2 = x w\ld h be5 an awkw>d circum/ance1
 :ile %e 0 p]petually driv5 to exp$i5ts1
 to h h] "k t ,i ho>d$ money4           
,accord+ly1 ,i s\ght out "s hid+-place1 
:]e ,i laid up a few l\is1 resolv+ to   
augm5t ?is /ock f "t to "t1 till a      
conv5i5t opportunity to lay x at h]     
feet2 b ,i 0 s incauti\s 9 ! *oice ( my 
repositories1 t %e always discov]$ !m1  
&1 to conv9ce me t %e did s1 *ang$ !    

l\is ,i _h conceal$ = a l>g] sum 9      
diff]5t pieces ( co94 ,a%am$ ( ^!       
discov]ies1 ,i br\ght back to ! common  
purse my little treasure1 :i* %e nev]   
fail$ to lay out 9 clo!s1 or o!r ?+s =  
my use1 su* z a silv] hilt$ sword1 wat*1
 etc4 ,be+ conv9c$ t ,i %\ld nev] succe$
 9 accumulat+ money1 & t :at ,i c\ld    
save w\ld furni% b a v sl5d] res\rce    
aga9/ ! mis=tune ,i dread$1 made me wi% 
to place myself 9 su* a situation t ,i  
might be enabl$ to provide = h]1 :5ev]  
%e might *ance to be r$uc$ to want4     
,unhappily1 seek+ ^! res\rces on ! side 
( my incl9ations1 ,i fooli%ly det]m9$ to
 consid] music z my pr9cipal dep5d5ce2 &
 ideas ( h>mony ris+ 9 my bra91 ,i      
imag9$1 t if plac$ 9 a prop] situation  
to pr(it by !m1 ,i %\ld acquire         
celebrity1 & pres5tly become a mod]n    
,orpheus1 ^: my/ic s\nds w\ld attract   
all ! ri*es ( ,p]u4  ,z ,i began to read
 music tol]ably well1 ! "q 01 h[ ,i %\ld
 le>n composition8 ,! difficulty lay 9  
meet+ ) a good ma/]1 =1 ) ! assi/ance ( 

my ,rameau alone1 ,i despair$ ( ev] be+ 
able to accompli% x2 &1 s9ce ! dep>ture 
( ,m4 le ,maitre1 !re 0 nobody 9 ,savoy 
:o und]/ood any?+ ( ! pr9ciples (       
h>mony4  ,i am n[ ab\t to relate ano!r (
 ^? inconsequ5ces1 :i* my life is full  
(1 & :i* h s frequ5tly c>ri$ me directly
 f my designs1 ev5 :5 ,i ?\ght myself   
imm$iately )9 rea* ( !m4 ,v5ture _h     
spok5 to me 9 v high t]ms ( ! ,abbe     
,blan*>d1 :o _h taught him composition2 
a des]v+ man1 possess$ ( great tal5ts1  
:o 0 music-ma/] to ! ca!dral at         
,besancon1 & is n[ 9 t capacity at !    
,*apel ( ,v]sailles4 ,i !re=e det]m9$ to
 g to ,besancon1 & take "s lessons f !  
,abbe ,blan*>d1 & ! idea appe>$ s       
rational to me1 t ,i soon made ,madam de
 ,w>5s ( ! same op9ion1 :o imm$iately   
set ab\t ! prep>ations = my j\rney1 9 ! 
same /yle ( pr(usion ) :i* all h] plans 
7 execut$4 ,?us ?is project = prev5t+ a 
bankruptcy1 & repair+ 9 future ! wa/e ( 
dissipation1 began by caus+ h] to exp5d 
eight hundr$ livres2 h] ru9 be+         

accel]at$ t ,i might be put 9 a         
condition to prev5t x4 ,fooli% z ?is    
conduct may appe>1 ! illusion 0 complete
 on my "p1 & ev5 on h]s1 = ,i 0 p]suad$ 
,i %\ld labor = h] emolum5t1 & %e ?\ght 
%e 0 highly promot+ m9e4  ,i expect$ to 
f9d ,v5ture /ill at ,annecy1 & promis$  
myself to obta9 a recomm5datory lett] f 
him to ! ,abbe ,blan*>d2 b he _h left t 
place1 & ,i 0 oblig$ to cont5t myself 9 
! room ( x1 ) a mass 9 f\r p>ts ( 8     
composition1 :i* he _h left ) me4 ,) ?is
 sl5d] recomm5dation ,i set out =       
,besancon by ! way ( ,g5eva1 :]e ,i saw 
my relations2 & ?r\gh ,nion1 :]e ,i saw 
my fa!r1 :o receiv$ me 9 8 usual mann]1 
& promis$ to =w>d my portmanteau1 :i*1 z
 ,i travell$ on horseback1 came aft] me4
 ,i arriv$ at ,besancon1 & 0 k9dly      
receiv$ by ! ,abbe ,blan*>d1 :o promis$ 
me 8 in/ruction1 & (f]$ 8 s]vices 9 any 
o!r p>ticul>4 ,we _h j set ab\t our     
music1 :5 ,i receiv$ a lett] f my fa!r1 
in=m+ me t my portmanteau _h be5 seiz$ &
 confiscat$ at ,r\sses1 a ,fr5* b>ri] on

 ! side ( ,switz]l&4 ,al>m$ at ! news1  
,i employ$ ! acqua9tance ,i _h =m$ at   
,besancon1 to le>n ! motive ( ?is       
confiscation4 ,be+ c]ta9 !re 0 no?+     
contrab& among my baggage1 ,i c\ld n    
conceive on :at pretext x c\ld h be5    
seiz$ on2 at l5g?1 h[ev]1 ,i le>n$ !    
rights ( ! /ory1 :i* 7z x is a v curi\s 
"o7 mu/ n be omitt$4  ,i became acqua9t$
 at ,*amb]y ) a v wor?y old man1 f      
,lyons1 nam$ ,monsieur ,duvivi]1 :o _h  
be5 employ$ at ! ,visa1 "u ! reg5cy1 & =
 want ( o!r bus9ess1 n[ assi/$ at !     
,survey4 ,he _h liv$ 9 ! polite _w1     
possess$ tal5ts1 0 good-humor$1 &       
und]/ood music4 ,z we bo? wrote 9 ! same
 *amb]1 we pref]r$ ea* o!r's acqua9tance
 to t ( ! unlick$ cubs t surr\nd$ u4 ,he
 _h "s correspond5ts at ,p>is1 :o       
furni%$ him ) ^? little no?+s1 ^? daily 
novelties1 :i* circulate "o kn[s n :y1 &
 die "o c>es n :51 )\t any "o ?9k+ ( !m 
long] ?an !y are he>d4 ,z ,i sometimes  
took him to d9e ) ,madam de ,w>5s1 he 9 
"s measure treat$ me ) respect1 & 7wi%+ 

to r5d] himself agreeable7 endeavor$ to 
make me fond ( ^! trifles1 = :i* ,i     
naturally _h su* a di/a/e1 t ,i nev] 9  
my life read any ( !m4 ,unhappily "o (  
^! curs$ pap]s happ5$ to be 9 ! wai/coat
 pocket ( a new suit1 :i* ,i _h only    
worn two or ?ree times to prev5t its be+
 seiz$ by ! commission]s ( ! cu/oms4    
,?is pap] conta9$ an insipid ,jans5i/   
p>ody on t beautiful sc5e 9 ,rac9e's    
,mi?ridates3 ,i _h n read t5 l9es ( x1 b
 by =getfulness left x 9 my pocket1 &   
?is caus$ all my necess>ies to be       
confiscat$4 ,! commission]s at ! head ( 
! inv5tory ( my portmanteau1 set a mo/  
pomp\s v]bal process1 9 :i* x 0 tak5 =  
grant$ t ?is mo/ t]rible writ+ came f   
,g5eva = ! sole purpose ( be+ pr9t$ &   
di/ribut$ 9 ,france1 & !n ran into holy 
invectives aga9/ ! enemies ( ,god & !   
,*ur*1 & prais$ ! pi\s vigilance ( ^? :o
 _h prev5t$ ! execution ( ^! mo/ inf]nal
 ma*9ations4 ,!y d\btless f\nd also t my
 spirits smelt ( h]esy1 = on ! /r5g? (  
?is dreadful pap]1 !y 7 all seiz$1 & f t

 "t ,i nev] receiv$ any acc\nt ( my     
un=tunate portmanteau4 ,! rev5ue (fic]s 
:om ,i appli$ to = ?is purpose requir$ s
 _m in/ructions1 in=mations1            
c]tificates1 memorials1 etc41 etc41 t1  
lo/ a ?\s& times 9 ! p]plex+ labyr9?1 ,i
 0 glad to ab&on !m entirely4 ,i feel a 
real regret = n hav+ pres]v$ ?is v]bal  
process f ! (fice ( ,r\sses1 = x 0 a    
piece calculat$ to hold a di/+ui%$ rank 
9 ! collection :i* is to accompany ?is  
,"w4  ,! loss ( my necessities          
imm$iately br\ght me back to ,*amb]y1   
)\t hav+ le>n$ any?+ ( ! ,abbe ,blan*>d4
 ,reason+ ) myself on ! ev5ts ( ?is     
j\rney1 & see+ t mis=tunes att5d$ all my
 ent]prises1 ,i resolv$ to atta* myself 
entirely to ,madam de ,w>5s1 to %>e h]  
=tune1 & di/ress myself no long] ab\t   
future ev5ts1 :i* ,i c\ld n regulate4   
,%e receiv$ me z if ,i _h br\ght back   
treasures1 replac$ by degrees my little 
w>drobe1 & ?\gh ?is mis=tune fell heavy 
en\gh on u bo?1 x 0 =gott5 almo/ z      
sudd5ly z x arriv$4  ,?\gh ?is mis*ance 

_h r damp5$ my musical ardor1 ,i did n  
leave (f /udy+ my ,rameau1 &1 by repeat$
 ef=ts1 0 at l5g? able to und]/& x1 & to
 make "s little attempts at composition1
 ! success ( :i* enc\rag$ me to proce$4 
,! ,c\nt de ,belleg>de1 son ( ! ,m>quis 
( ,antremont1 _h return$ f ,dresd5 aft] 
! dea? ( ,k+ ,augu/us4 ,hav+ long resid$
 at ,p>is1 he 0 fond ( music1 &         
p>ticul>ly t ( ,rameau4 ,8 bro!r1 !     
,c\nt ( ,nangis1 play$ on ! viol92 !    
,c\ntess la ,t\r1 _! si/]1 sung         
tol]ably3 ?is r5d]$ music ! fa%ion at   
,*amb]y1 & a k9d ( public conc]t 0      
e/abli%$ !re1 ! direction ( :i* 0 at    
fir/ design$ = me1 b !y soon discov]$ ,i
 0 n compet5t to ! und]tak+1 & x 0      
o!rwise arrang$4 ,not)/&+ ?is1 ,i       
cont9u$ writ+ a numb] ( little pieces1 9
 my own way1 &1 among o!rs1 a cantata1  
:i* ga9$ great approbation2 x c\ld n1   
inde$1 be call$ a f9i%$ piece1 b ! airs 
7 writt5 9 a /yle ( novelty1 & produc$ a
 good effect1 :i* 0 n expect$ f me4 ,^! 
g5tlem5 c\ld n believe t1 read+ music s 

indiff]5tly1 x 0 possible ,i %\ld       
compose any t 0 passable1 & made no d\bt
 t ,i _h tak5 to myself ! cr$it ( "s o!r
 p]son's labors4 ,monsieur de ,nangis1  
wi%+ to be assur$ ( ?is1 call$ on me "o 
morn+ ) a cantata ( ,cl]ambault's :i* he
 _h transpos$ z he said1 to suit 8      
voice1 & to :i* ano!r bass 0 necess>y1 !
 transposition hav+ r5d]$ t (           
,cl]ambault impracticable4 ,i answ]$1 x 
requir$ consid]able labor1 & c\ld n be  
done on ! spot4 ,be+ conv9c$ ,i only    
s\ght an excuse1 he press$ me to write  
at lea/ ! bass to a recitative3 ,i did  
s1 n well1 d\btless1 because to attempt 
any?+ ) success ,i mu/ h bo? "t &       
fre$om1 b ,i did x at lea/ accord+ to   
rule1 & he be+ pres5t1 c\ld n d\bt b ,i 
und]/ood ! elem5ts ( composition4 ,i did
 n1 !re=e1 lose my s*ol>s1 ?\gh x hurt  
my pride t !re %\ld be a conc]t at      
,*amb]y 9 :i* ,i 0 n necess>y4  ,ab\t   
?is "t1 peace be+ conclud$1 ! ,fr5* army
 repass$ ! ,alps4 ,sev]al (fic]s came to
 visit ,madam de ,w>5s1 & among o!rs !  

,c\nt de ,lautrec1 ,colonel ( ! regim5t 
( ,orleans1 s9ce ,pl5ipot5ti>y ( ,g5eva1
 & aft]w>ds ,m>%al ( ,france1 to :om %e 
pres5t$ me4 ,on h] recomm5dation1 he    
appe>$ to int]e/ himself greatly 9 my   
behalf1 promis+ a great deal1 :i* he    
nev] rememb]$ till ! la/ ye> ( 8 life1  
:5 ,i no long] /ood 9 ne$ ( 8 assi/ance4
 ,! "y ,m>quis ( ,s5nect]re1 ^: fa!r 0  
!n ambassador at ,tur91 pass$ ?r\gh     
,*amb]y at ! same "t1 & d9$ "o day at   
,m4 de ,m5?on's1 :5 ,i happ5$ to be     
among ! gue/s4 ,aft] d9n]2 ! disc\rse   
turn$ on music1 :i* ! m>quis und]/ood   
extremely well4 ,! op]a ( ',jeph?a' 0 !n
 new2 he m5tion$ ?is piece1 x 0 br\ght  
him1 & he made me tremble by propos+ to 
execute x betwe5 u4 ,he op5$ ! book at t
 celebrat$ d\ble *orus1                 
,la ,t]ra1 l',enf]1 le ,ciel meme1      
,t\t tremble devant le ,seigneur6       
,! ,e>?1 & ,hell1 & ,heav5 itself1      
tremble be=e ! ,"l6  ,he said1 ,h[ _m   
p>ts w y take8 ,i w d ^! six4 ,i _h n   
yet be5 accu/om$ to ?is trait ( ,fr5*   

vivacity1 & ?\gh acqua9t$ ) divisions1  
c\ld n compreh5d h[ "o man c\ld und]take
 to p]=m six1 or ev5 two p>ts at ! same 
"t4 ,no?+ has co/ me m tr\ble 9 music   
?an to skip lightly f "o "p to ano!r1 & 
h ! eye at once on a :ole division4 ,by 
! mann] 9 :i* ,i evad$ ?is trial1 he mu/
 h be5 incl9$ to believe ,i did n und]/&
 music1 & p]haps x 0 to satisfy himself 
9 ?is p>ticul> t he propos$ my not+ a   
song = ,mademoiselle de ,m5?on1 9 su* a 
mann] t ,i c\ld n avoid x4 ,he sang ?is 
song1 & ,i wrote f 8 voice1 )\t giv+ him
 mu* tr\ble to repeat x4 ,:5 f9i%$ he   
read my p]=mance1 & said 7:i* 0 v true7 
t x 0 v correctly not$4 ,he _h obs]v$ my
 emb>rassm5t1 & n[ seem$ to enhance !   
m]it ( ?is little success4 ,9 reality1  
,i !n und]/ood music v well1 & only     
want$ t quickness at fir/ sight :i* ,i  
possess 9 no "o p>ticul>1 & :i* is only 
to be acquir$ 9 ?is art by long &       
con/ant practice4 ,be t z x may1 ,i 0   
fully s5sible ( 8 k9dness 9 endeavor+ to
 efface f ! m9ds ( o!rs1 & ev5 f my own1

 ! emb>rassm5t ,i _h exp]i5c$ on ?is    
occasion4 ,twelve or fifte5 ye>s        
aft]w>ds1 meet+ ?is g5tleman at sev]al  
h\ses 9 ,p>is1 ,i 0 tempt$ to make him  
recollect ?is anecdote1 & %[ him ,i /ill
 rememb]$ x2 b he _h lo/ 8 sight s9ce t 
"t2 ,i fe>$ to give him pa9 by recall+  
to 8 memory h[ useful x =m]ly _h be5 to 
him1 & 0 !re=e sil5t on t subject4  ,i  
n[ t\* on ! mom5t t b9ds my pa/ exi/5ce 
to ! pres5t1 "s fri5d%ips ( t p]iod1    
prolong$ to ! pres5t "t1 be+ v de> to   
me1 h frequ5tly made me regret t happy  
obscurity1 :5 ^? :o call$ !mselves my   
fri5ds 7 really s2 lov$ me = myself1    
?r\gh pure good w1 & n f ! vanity ( be+ 
acqua9t$ ) a conspicu\s "*1 p]haps = !  
secret purpose ( f9d+ m occasions to    
injure him4  ,f ?is "t ,i date my fir/  
acqua9tance ) my old fri5d ,gauffec\rt1 
:o1 not)/&+ e ef=t to disunite u1 has   
/ill rema9$ s4--,/ill rema9$ s6--,no1   
alas6 ,i h j lo/ him6--b 8 affection    
t]m9at$ only ) 8 life--dea? alone c\ld  
put a p]iod to our fri5d%ip4 ,monsieur  

de ,gauffec\rt 0 "o ( ! mo/ amiable m5 t
 ev] exi/$2 x 0 impossible to see him   
)\t affection1 or to live ) him )\t     
feel+ a s9c]e atta*m5t4 ,9 my life ,i   
nev] saw features m expressive (        
goodness & s]5ity1 or t m>k$ m feel+1 m 
und]/&+1 or inspir$ great] confid5ce4   
,h[ev] res]v$ "o might be1 x 0          
impossible ev5 at fir/ sight to avoid   
be+ z free ) him z if he _h be5 an      
acqua9tance ( tw5ty ye>s2 = myself1 :o  
f9d s mu* difficulty to be at ease among
 new faces1 ,i 0 famili> ) him 9 a      
mom5t4 ,8 mann]1 acc5t1 & conv]sation1  
p]fectly suit$ 8 features3 ! s\nd ( 8   
voice 0 cle>1 full & musical2 x 0 an    
agreeable & expressive bass1 :i*        
satisfi$ ! e>1 & s\nd$ full ^u ! he>t4  
,x 0 impossible to possess a m equal &  
pleas+ vivacity1 or m real & unaffect$  
gracefulness1 m natural tal5ts1 or      
cultivat$ ) great] ta/e2 jo9 to all ^!  
good qualities an affectionate he>t1 b  
lov+ r too diffusively1 & be/[+ 8 favors
 ) too little caution2 s]v+ 8 fri5ds )  

zeal1 or r mak+ himself ! fri5d ( e "o  
he c\ld s]ve1 yet contriv+ v dext]\sly  
to manage 8 own affairs1 :ile w>mly     
pursu+ ! int]e/s ( o!rs4  ,gauffec\rt 0 
! son ( a clock-mak]1 & w\ld h be5 a    
clock-mak] himself _h n 8 p]son & des]t 
call$ him to a sup]ior situation4 ,he   
became acqua9t$ ) ,m4 de la ,closure1 ! 
,fr5* ,resid5t at ,g5eva1 :o conceiv$ a 
fri5d%ip = him1 & procur$ him "s        
connections at ,p>is1 :i* 7 useful1 &   
?r\gh ^: influ5ce he obta9$ ! privilege 
( furni%+ ! salts ( ,valais1 :i* 0 wor? 
tw5ty ?\s& livres a ye>4 ,?is v amply   
satisfi$ 8 wi%es ) respect to =tune1 b )
 reg>d to wom5 he 0 m difficult2 he _h  
to provide = 8 own happ9ess1 & did :at  
he suppos$ mo/ conducive to x4 ,:at     
r5d]s 8 "* mo/ rem>kable1 & does him !  
greate/ honor1 is1 t ?\gh connect$ ) all
 conditions1 he 0 univ]sally e/eem$ &   
s\ght aft] )\t be+ envi$ or hat$ by any 
"o1 & ,i really believe he pass$ ?r\gh  
life )\t a s+le enemy4--,happy man6  ,he
 w5t e ye> to ! ba?s ( ,aix1 :]e ! be/  

company f ! neighbor+ c\ntries resort$1 
& be+ on t]ms ( fri5d%ip ) all !        
nobility ( ,savoy1 came f ,aix to       
,*amb]y to see ! "y ,c\nt de ,belleg>de 
& 8 fa!r ! ,m>quis ( ,antremont4 ,x 0 "h
 ,madam de ,w>5s introduc$ me to him1 & 
?is acqua9tance1 :i* appe>$ at t "t to  
end 9 no?+1 aft] _m ye>s _h elaps$1 0   
r5ew$ on an occasion :i* ,i %\ld relate1
 :5 x became a real fri5d%ip4 ,i        
appreh5d ,i am suffici5tly au?oriz$ 9   
speak+ ( a man to :om ,i 0 s firmly     
atta*$1 b ,i _h no p]sonal int]e/ 9 :at 
conc]n$ him2 he 0 s truly amiable1 &    
born ) s _m natural good qualities t1 = 
! honor ( human nature1 ,i %\ld ?9k x   
necess>y to pres]ve 8 memory4 ,?is man1 
e/imable z he c]ta9ly 01 _h1 l o!r      
mortals1 "s fail+s1 z w be se5 h]eaft]2 
p]haps _h x n be5 s1 he w\ld h be5 less 
amiable1 s9ce1 to r5d] him z int]e/+ z  
possible1 x 0 necess>y he %\ld sometimes
 act 9 su* a mann] z to require a small 
portion ( indulg5ce4  ,ano!r connection 
( ! same "t1 t is n yet ext+ui%$1 &     

cont9ues to flatt] me ) ! idea (        
temporal happ9ess1 :i* x is s difficult 
to oblit]ate f ! human he>t1 is         
,monsieur de ,conzie1 a ,savoy>d        
g5tleman1 !n "y & amiable1 :o _h a fancy
 to le>n music1 or r to be acqua9t$ ) ! 
p]son :o taught x4 ,) great und]/&+ &   
ta/e = polite acquirem5ts1 ,m4 de       
,conzie possess$ a mildness (           
disposition :i* r5d]$ him extremely     
attractive1 & my temp] be+ some:at      
simil>1 :5 x f\nd a c\nt]p>t1 our       
fri5d%ip 0 soon =m$4 ,! se$s ( lit]ature
 & philosophy1 :i* began to f]m5t 9 my  
bra91 & only wait$ = culture & emulation
 to spr+ up1 f\nd 9 him exactly :at 0   
want+ to r5d] !m prolific4 ,m4 de       
,conzie _h no great incl9ation to music1
 & ev5 ?is 0 useful to me1 = ! h\rs     
de/9$ = lessons 7 pass$ anyh[ r ?an     
musically2 we breakfa/$1 *att$1 & read  
new publications1 b n a ^w ( music4  ,! 
correspond5ce betwe5 ,voltaire & !      
,pr9ce ,royal ( ,prussia1 !n made a     
noise 9 ! _w1 & ^! celebrat$ m5 7       

frequ5tly ! subject ( our conv]sation1  
"o ( :om rec5tly seat$ on a ?rone1      
already indicat$ :at he w\ld prove      
himself h]eaft]1 :ile ! o!r1 z mu*      
disgrac$ z he is n[ admir$1 made u      
s9c]ely lam5t ! mis=tunes t seem$ to    
pursue him1 & :i* are s frequ5tly !     
app5dage ( sup]ior tal5ts4 ,! ,pr9ce (  
,prussia _h n be5 happy 9 8 y\?1 & x    
appe>$ t ,voltaire 0 =m$ nev] to be s4  
,! int]e/ we took 9 bo? p>ties ext5d$ to
 all t conc]n$ !m1 & no?+ t ,voltaire   
wrote escap$ u4 ,! incl9ation ,i felt = 
^! p]=mances inspir$ me ) a desire to   
write elegantly1 & caus$ me to endeavor 
to imitate ! color+s ( t au?or1 ) :om ,i
 0 s mu* en*ant$4 ,"s "t aft]1 8        
philosophical lett]s 7?\gh c]ta9ly n 8  
be/ "w7 greatly augm5t$ my fondness =   
/udy2 x 0 a ris+ incl9ation1 :i*1 f t   
"t1 has nev] be5 ext+ui%$4  ,b ! mom5t 0
 n yet arriv$ :5 ,i %\ld give into x    
entirely2 my rambl+ disposition 7r      
contract$ ?an eradicat$7 be+ kept alive 
by our mann] ( liv+ at ,madam de ,w>5s1 

:i* 0 too unsettl$ = "o ( my solit>y    
temp]4 ,! cr[d ( /rang]s :o daily sw>m$ 
ab\t h] f all p>ts1 & ! c]ta9ty ,i 0 9 t
 ^! p s\ght only to dupe h]1 ea* 9 8    
p>ticul> mode1 r5d]$ home disagreeable4 
,s9ce ,i _h succe$$ ,anet 9 ! confid5ce 
( 8 mi/ress1 ,i _h /rictly exam9$ h]    
circum/ances1 & saw _! evil t5d5cy )    
horror4 ,i _h remon/rat$ a hundr$ times1
 pray$1 argu$1 conjur$1 b all to no     
purpose4 ,i _h ?r[n myself at h] feet1 &
 /rongly repres5t$ ! cata/rophe t       
?reat5$ h]1 _h e>ne/ly entreat$ t %e    
w\ld re=m h] exp5ses1 & beg9 ) myself1  
repres5t+ t x 0 bett] to suff] some?+   
:ile %e 0 yet "y1 ?an by multiply+ h]   
debts & cr$itors1 expose h] old age to  
vexation & mis]y4  ,s5sible ( ! s9c]ity 
( my zeal1 %e 0 frequ5tly affect$1 &    
w\ld !n make ! f9e/ promises 9 ! _w3 b  
only let an artful s*em] arrive1 & 9 an 
in/ant all h] good resolutions 7 =gott54
 ,aft] a ?\s& pro(s ( ! inefficacy ( my 
remon/rances1 :at rema9$ b to turn away 
my eyes f ! ru9 ,i c\ld n prev5t2 & fly 

myself f ! door ,i c\ld n gu>d6 ,i made 
!re=e little j\rneys to ,g5eva & ,lyons1
 :i* div]t$ my m9d 9 "s measure f ?is   
secret uneas9ess1 ?\gh x increas$ !     
cause by ^! additional exp5ses4 ,i c    
truly av] t ,i %\ld h acquies$ )        
pleasure 9 e retr5*m5t1 _h ,madam de    
,w>5s really pr(it$ by x1 b be+ p]suad$ 
t :at ,i might refuse myself w\ld be    
di/ribut$ among a set ( int]e/$ villa9s1
 ,i took advantage ( h] eas9ess to      
p>take ) !m1 &1 l ! dog return+ f !     
%ambles1 c>ri$ (f a portion ( t morsel  
:i* ,i c\ld n protect4  ,pret5ces 7 n   
want+ = all ^! j\rneys2 ev5 ,madam de   
,w>5s w\ld alone h suppli$ me ) m ?an 7 
necess>y1 hav+ pl5ty ( connections1     
negotiations1 affairs1 & commissions1   
:i* %e wi%$ to h execut$ by "s tru/y h&4
 ,9 ^! cases %e usually appli$ to me2 ,i
 0 always will+ to g1 & consequ5tly f\nd
 occasions en\gh to furni% out a rambl+ 
k9d ( life4 ,^! excursions procur$ me "s
 good connections1 :i* h s9ce be5       
agreeable or useful to me4 ,among o!rs1 

,i met at ,lyons1 ) ,m4 ,p]ri*on1 ^:    
fri5d%ip ,i accuse myself ) n hav+      
suffici5tly cultivat$1 consid]+ !       
k9dness he _h = me2 & t ( ! good        
,p>isot1 :i* ,i %all speak ( 9 its      
place1 at ,gr5oble1 t ( ,madam ,deyb5s &
 ,madam la ,presid5te de ,b>donan*e1 a  
woman ( great und]/&+1 & :o w\ld h      
ent]ta9$ a fri5d%ip = me _h x be5 9 my  
p[] to h se5 h] (t5]2 at ,g5eva1 t ( ,m4
 de ,closure1 ! ,fr5* ,resid5t1 :o (t5  
spoke to me ( my "m1 ! remembrance ( :om
 nei!r dea? nor "t _h eras$ f 8 he>t2   
likewise ^? ( ! two ,b>illots1 ! fa!r1  
:o 0 v amiable1 a good companion1 & "o (
 ! mo/ wor?y m5 ,i ev] met1 call+ me 8  
gr&son4 ,dur+ ! tr\bles ( ! republic1 ^!
 two citiz5s took contr>y sides1 ! son  
sid+ ) ! p1 ! fa!r ) ! magi/rates4 ,:5  
!y took up arms 9 #agcg1 ,i 0 at ,g5eva1
 & saw ! fa!r & son quit ! same h\se    
arm$1 ! "o go+ to ! t[nh\se1 ! o!r to 8 
qu>t]s1 almo/ c]ta9 to meet face to face
 9 ! c\rse ( two h\rs1 & prep>$ to give 
or receive dea? f ea* o!r4 ,?is         

unnatural sight made s lively an        
impression on me1 t ,i solemnly v[$ nev]
 to int]f]e 9 any civil w>1 nor assi/ 9 
decid+ our int]nal dispute by arms1 ei!r
 p]sonally or by my influ5ce1 %\ld ,i   
ev] ent] into my rights z a citiz54 ,i c
 br+ pro(s ( hav+ kept ?is oa? on a v   
delicate occasion1 & x w be confess$ 7at
 lea/ ,i %\ld suppose s7 t ?is mod]ation
 0 ( "s wor?4  ,b ,i _h n yet arriv$ at 
t f]m5tation ( patriotism :i* ! fir/    
sight ( ,g5eva 9 arms has s9ce excit$ 9 
my he>t1 z may be conjectur$ by a v     
grave fact t w n tell to my advantage1  
:i* ,i =got to put 9 its prop] place1 b 
:i* ought n to be omitt$4  ,my uncle    
,b]n>d di$ at ,c>ol9a1 :]e he _h be5    
employ$ "s ye>s 9 ! build+ ( ,*>les     
,t[n1 :i* he _h =m$ ! plan (4 ,my poor  
c\s91 too1 di$ 9 ! ,prussian s]vice2 ?us
 my aunt lo/1 ne>ly at ! same p]iod1 h] 
son & husb&4 ,^! losses reanimat$ 9 "s  
measure h] affection = ! ne>e/ relative 
%e _h rema9+1 :i* 0 myself4 ,:5 ,i w5t  
to ,g5eva1 ,i reckon$ h] h\se my home1 &

 amus$ myself ) rummag+ & turn+ ov] !   
books & pap]s my uncle _h left4 ,among  
!m ,i f\nd "s curi\s ones1 & "s lett]s  
:i* !y c]ta9ly little ?\ght (4 ,my aunt1
 :o set no /ore by ^! du/y pap]s1 w\ld  
will+ly h giv5 ! :ole to me1 b ,i       
cont5t$ myself ) two or ?ree books1 )   
notes writt5 by ! ,m9i/] ,b]n>d1 my     
gr&fa!r1 & among ! re/1 ! po/hum\s works
 ( ,rohault 9 qu>to1 ! m>g9s ( :i* 7    
full ( excell5t comm5t>ies1 :i* gave me 
an incl9ation to ! ma!matics4 ,?is book 
rema9$ among ^? ( ,madam de ,w>5s1 & ,i 
h s9ce lam5t$ t ,i did n pres]ve x4 ,to 
^! ,i add$ five or six memorials 9      
manuscript1 & a pr9t$ "o1 compos$ by !  
fam\s ,mi*eli ,ducret1 a man (          
consid]able tal5ts1 be+ bo? le>n$ &     
enlight5$1 b too mu*1 p]haps1 incl9$ to 
s$ition1 = :i* he 0 cruelly treat$ by ! 
magi/rates ( ,g5eva1 & lately di$ 9 !   
=tress ( ,arb]g1 :]e he _h be5 conf9$ _m
 ye>s1 = be+1 z x 0 said1 conc]n$ 9 !   
conspiracy ( ,b]ne4  ,?is memorial 0 a  
judici\s critique on ! ext5sive b       

ridicul\s plan ( =tification1 :i* _h be5
 adopt$ at ,g5eva1 ?\gh c5sur$ by e     
p]son ( judgm5t 9 ! art1 :o 0 unacqua9t$
 ) ! secret motives ( ! c\ncil1 9 !     
execution ( ?is magnific5t ent]prise4   
,monsieur de ,mi*eli1 :o _h be5 exclud$ 
f ! committee ( =tification = hav+      
condemn$ ?is plan1 ?\ght t1 z a citiz51 
& a memb] ( ! two hundr$1 he might give 
8 advice1 at l>ge1 & !re=e1 did s 9 ?is 
memorial1 :i* he 0 imprud5t en\gh to h  
pr9t$1 ?\gh he nev] publi%$ x1 hav+ only
 ^? copies /ruck (f :i* 7 meant = ! two 
hundr$1 & :i* 7 all int]cept$ at !      
po/-h\se by ord] ( ! ,s5ate4       ,!   
gr& c\ncil ( ,g5eva 9 ,decemb]1 #agbh1  
pron\nc$ ?is      pap] highly           
disrespectful to ! c\ncils1 & injuri\s  
to !      committee ( =tification4  ,i  
f\nd ?is memorial among my uncle's      
pap]s1 ) ! answ] he _h be5 ord]$ to make
 to x1 & took bo?4 ,?is 0 soon aft] ,i  
_h left my place at ! survey1 & ,i yet  
rema9$ on good t]ms ) ! ,c\nsellor de   
,coccelli1 :o _h ! managem5t ( x4 ,"s "t

 aft]1 ! director ( ! cu/om-h\se        
entreat$ me to /& godfa!r to 8 *ild1 )  
,madam ,coccelli1 :o 0 to be godmo!r3   
pr\d ( be+ plac$ on su* t]ms ( equality 
) ! c\nsellor1 ,i wi%$ to assume        
importance1 & %[ myself wor?y ( t honor4
  ,full ( ?is idea1 ,i ?\ght ,i c\ld d  
no?+ bett] ?an %[ him ,mi*eli's         
memorial1 :i* 0 really a sc>ce piece1 & 
w\ld prove ,i 0 connect$ ) p (          
consequ5ce 9 ,g5eva1 :o 7 intru/$ ) !   
secrets ( ! /ate1 yet by a k9d ( res]ve 
:i* ,i %\ld f9d x difficult to acc\nt =1
 ,i did n %[ him my uncle's answ]1      
p]haps1 because x 0 manuscript1 & no?+  
less ?an pr9t 0 wor?y to approa* !      
c\nsellor4 ,he und]/ood1 h[ev]1 s well !
 importance ( ?is pap]1 :i* ,i _h !     
folly to put into 8 h&s1 t ,i c\ld nev] 
aft] get x into my possession1 & be+    
conv9c$ t e ef=t = t purpose w\ld be    
ineffectual1 ,i made a m]it ( my        
=be>ance1 trans=m+ ! !ft into a pres5t4 
,i made no d\bt t ?is writ+ 7m curi\s1  
h[ev]1 ?an useful7 answ]$ 8 purpose at !

 c\rt ( ,tur91 :]e probably he took c>e 
to be reimburs$ 9 "s way or o!r = !     
exp5se :i* ! acquisition ( x might be   
suppos$ to h co/ him4 ,happily1 ( all   
future cont+5cies1 ! lea/ probable1 is1 
t ev] ! ,k+ ( ,s>d9a %\ld besiege       
,g5eva1 b z t ev5t is n absolutely      
impossible1 ,i %all ev] reproa* my      
fooli% vanity ) hav+ be5 ! means ( po9t+
 out ! greate/ defects ( t city to its  
mo/ anci5t enemy4  ,i pass$ two or ?ree 
ye>s 9 ?is mann]1 betwe5 music1 /udy1   
projects1 & j\rneys1 float+ incessantly 
f "o object to ano!r1 & wi%+ to fix ?\gh
 ,i knew n on :at1 b ins5sibly incl9+   
t[>ds /udy4 ,i 0 acqua9t$ ) m5 ( lett]s1
 ,i _h he>d !m speak ( lit]ature1 &     
sometimes m+l$ 9 ! conv]sation1 yet r   
adopt$ ! j>gon ( books1 ?an ! k !y      
conta9$4 ,9 my excursions to ,g5eva1 ,i 
frequ5tly call$ on my good old fri5d    
,monsieur ,simon1 :o greatly promot$ my 
ris+ emulation by fre% news f ! republic
 ( lett]s1 extract$ f ,baillet or       
,colomies4 ,i frequ5tly saw too1 at     

,*amb]y1 a ,dom9ican pr(essor ( physic1 
a good k9d ( fri>1 ^: "n ,i h =gott51 :o
 (t5 made little *emical exp]im5ts :i*  
greatly amus$ me4 ,9 imitation ( him1 ,i
 attempt$ to make "s sympa!tic ink1 &   
hav+ = t purpose m ?an half fill$ a     
bottle ) quicklime1 orpim5t1 & wat]1 !  
eff]vesc5ce imm$iately became extremely 
viol5t2 ,i ran to un/op ! bottle1 b _h n
 "t to effect x1 =1 dur+ ! attempt1 x   
bur/ 9 my face l a bomb1 & ,i swall[$ s 
mu* ( ! orpim5t & lime1 t x ne>ly co/ me
 my life4 ,i rema9$ bl9d = six weeks1 & 
by ! ev5t ( ?is exp]im5t le>n$ to m$dle 
no m ) exp]im5tal ,*emi/ry :ile !       
elem5ts 7 unkn[n to me4  ,?is adv5ture  
happ5$ v unluckily = my heal?1 :i*1 = "s
 "t pa/1 _h be5 visibly on ! decl9e4    
,?is 0 r extraord9>y1 z ,i 0 guilty ( no
 k9d ( excess2 nor c\ld x h be5 expect$ 
f my make1 = my *e/1 be+ well =m$ & r   
capaci\s1 seem$ to give my lungs full   
lib]ty to play2 yet ,i 0 %ort brea!d1   
felt a v s5sible oppression1 sigh$      
involunt>ily1 _h palpitations ( ! he>t1 

& spitt+ ( blood1 accompani$ ) a l+]+   
fev]1 :i* ,i h nev] s9ce entirely       
ov]come4 ,h[ is x possible to fall into 
su* a /ate 9 ! fl[] ( "o's age1 )\t any 
inw>d decay1 or )\t hav+ done any?+ to  
de/roy heal?8  ,x is sometimes said1 !  
sword we>s ! scabb>d1 ?is 0 truly ! case
 ) me3 ! viol5ce ( my passions bo? kept 
me alive & ha/5$ my dissolution4 ,:at   
passions8 w be ask$3 m]e no?+s3 ! mo/   
trivial objects 9 nature1 b :i* affect$ 
me z =cibly z if ! acquisition ( a      
,hel51 or ! ?rone ( ! univ]se 7 at /ake4
 ,my s5ses1 = in/ance1 7 at ease ) "o   
woman1 b my he>t nev] 01 & ! necessities
 ( love consum$ me 9 ! v bosom (        
happ9ess4 ,i _h a t5d]1 respect$ &      
lovely fri5d1 b ,i sigh$ = a mi/ress2 my
 prolific fancy pa9t$ h] z su*1 & gave  
h] a ?\s& =ms1 = _h ,i conceiv$ t my    
ende>m5ts _h be5 lavi%$ on ,madam de    
,w>5s1 !y w\ld n h be5 less t5d]1 ?\gh  
inf9itely m tranquil4 ,b is x possible =
 man to ta/e1 9 _! utmo/ ext5t1 !       
delights ( love8 ,i _c tell1 b ,i am    

p]suad$ my frail exi/5ce w\ld h sunk "u 
! weight ( !m4  ,i 01 !re=e1 dy+ = love 
)\t an object1 & ?is /ate1 p]haps1 is1 (
 all o!rs1 ! mo/ dang]\s4 ,i 0 likewise 
uneasy1 torm5t$ at ! bad /ate ( poor    
,madam de ,w>5s' circum/ances1 & !      
imprud5ce ( h] conduct1 :i* c\ld n fail 
to br+ !m1 9 a %ort "t1 to total ru94   
,my tortur$ imag9ation 7:i* ev] pa9ts   
mis=tunes 9 ! extremity7 cont9ually     
beheld ?is 9 its utmo/ excess1 & 9 all !
 horror ( its consequ5ces4 ,i already   
saw myself =c$ by want to quit h]--to   
:om ,i _h consecrat$ my future life1 &  
)\t :om ,i c\ld n hope = happ9ess3 ?us 0
 my s\l cont9ually agitat$1 & hopes &   
fe>s dev\r$ me alt]nately4  ,music 0 a  
passion less turbul5t1 b n less consum+1
 f ! ardor ) :i* ,i atta*$ myself to x1 
by ! ob/9ate /udy ( ! obscure books (   
,rameau2 by an inv9cible resolution to  
*>ge my memory ) rules x c\ld n conta92 
by cont9ual application1 & by long &    
imm5se compilations :i* ,i frequ5tly    
pass$ :ole nights 9 copy+3 b :y dwell on

 ^! p>ticul>ly1 :ile e folly t took     
possession ( my w&]+ bra91 ! mo/        
transi5t ideas ( a s+le day1 a j\rney1 a
 conc]t1 a supp]1 a walk1 a novel to    
read1 a play to see1 ?+s 9 ! _w ! lea/  
prem$itat$ 9 my pleasures or occupation 
became = me ! mo/ viol5t passions1 :i*  
by _! ridicul\s impetuosity convey$ !   
mo/ s]i\s torm5ts2 ev5 ! imag9>y        
mis=tunes ( ,clevel&1 read ) avidity &  
frequ5t int]ruption1 h1 ,i am p]suad$1  
disord]$ me m ?an my own4  ,!re 0 a     
,g5evese1 nam$ ,bagu]et1 :o _h be5      
employ$ "u ,pet] ! ,great1 ( ! c\rt (   
,russia1 "o ( ! mo/ wor?less1 s5seless  
fell[s ,i ev] met )2 full ( projects z  
fooli% z himself1 :i* 7 to ra9 d[n      
millions on ^? :o took "p 9 !m4 ,?is    
man1 hav+ come to ,*amb]y on acc\nt ( "s
 suit dep5d+ be=e ! s5ate1 imm$iately   
got acqua9t$ ) ,madam de ,w>5s1 & )     
great reason on 8 side1 s9ce = ^?       
imag9>y treasures t co/ him no?+1 & :i* 
he be/[$ ) ! utmo/ prodigality1 he ga9$1
 9 ex*ange1 ! un=tunate cr[n pieces "o  

by "o out ( h] pocket4 ,i did n l him1 &
 he pla9ly p]ceiv$ ?is1 = ) me x is n a 
v difficult discov]y1 nor did he sp>e   
any sort ( meanness to ga9 my good w1 & 
among o!r ?+s propos$ tea*+ me to play  
at *ess1 :i* game he und]/ood some?+ (4 
,i made an attempt1 ?\gh almo/ aga9/ my 
incl9ation1 & aft] sev]al ef=ts1 hav+   
le>n$ ! moves1 my progress 0 s rapid1 t 
be=e ! end ( ! fir/ sitt+ ,i gave him ! 
rook1 :i* 9 ! beg9n+ he _h giv5 me4     
,no?+ m 0 necess>y2 behold me fasc9at$ )
 *ess6 ,i buy a bo>d1 ) ! re/ ( !       
app>atus1 & %utt+ myself up 9 my *amb]1 
pass :ole days & nights 9 /udy+ all !   
v>ieties ( ! game1 be+ det]m9$ by play+ 
alone1 )\t end or relaxation1 to drive  
!m into my head1 "r or wrong4 ,aft]     
incr$ible ef=ts1 dur+ two or ?ree mon?s 
pass$ 9 ?is curi\s employm5t1 ,i g to ! 
c(fee-h\se1 ?91 sall[1 & almo/ /upid2 ,i
 seat myself1 & aga9 attack ,m4         
,bagu]et3 he beats me1 once1 twice1     
tw5ty times2 s _m comb9ations 7 f]m5t+ 9
 my head1 & my imag9ation 0 s /upefi$1 t

 all appe>$ confusion4 ,i tri$ to       
ex]cise myself ) ,philidor's or ,/am9a's
 book ( in/ructions1 b ,i 0 /ill equally
 p]plex$1 &1 aft] hav+ exhau/$ myself ) 
fatigue1 0 fur!r to seek ?an ev]1 & :e!r
 ,i ab&on$ my *ess = a "t1 or resolv$ to
 surm\nt e difficulty by unremitt$      
practice1 x 0 ! same ?+4 ,i c\ld nev]   
advance "o /ep beyond ! improvem5t ( !  
fir/ sitt+1 nay1 ,i am conv9c$ t _h ,i  
/udi$ x a ?\s& ages1 ,i %\ld h end$ by  
be+ able to give ,bagu]et ! rook & no?+ 
m4  ,x w be said my "t 0 well employ$1 &
 n a little ( x pass$ 9 ?is occupation1 
nor did ,i quit my fir/ essay till      
unable to p]si/ 9 x1 = on leav+ my      
ap>tm5t ,i _h ! appe>ance ( a corpse1 & 
_h ,i cont9u$ ?is c\rse mu* long] ,i    
%\ld c]ta9ly h be5 "o4  ,any "o w all[ t
 x w\ld h be5 extraord9>y1 especially 9 
! ardor ( y\?1 t su* a head %\ld suff] !
 body to enjoy cont9u$ heal?2 !         
alt]ation ( m9e _h an effect on my      
temp]1 mod]at+ ! ardor ( my *im]ical    
fancies1 = z ,i grew weak] !y became m  

tranquil1 & ,i ev5 lo/1 9 "s measure1 my
 rage = travell+4 ,i 0 n seiz$ )        
heav9ess1 b melan*oly2 vapors succe$$   
passions1 languor became sorr[3 ,i wept 
& sigh$ )\t cause1 & felt my life ebb+  
away be=e ,i _h enjoy$ x4 ,i only       
trembl$ to ?9k ( ! situation 9 :i* ,i   
%\ld leave my de> ,madam de ,w>5s2 & ,i 
c truly say1 t quitt+ h]1 & leav+ h] 9  
^! melan*oly circum/ances1 0 my only    
conc]n4 ,at l5g? ,i fell q ill1 & 0     
nurs$ by h] z nev] "m nurs$ a *ild4 ,!  
c>e %e took ( me 0 ( real utility to h] 
affairs1 s9ce x div]t$ h] m9d f s*emes1 
& kept projectors at a di/ance4 ,h[     
pleas+ w\ld dea? h be5 at t "t1 :51 if  
,i _h n ta/$ _m ( ! pleasures ( life1 ,i
 _h felt b few ( its mis=tunes4 ,my     
tranquil s\l w\ld h tak5 h] flight1 )\t 
hav+ exp]i5c$ ^? cruel ideas ( !        
inju/ice ( mank9d :i* embitt]s bo? life 
& dea?4 ,i %\ld h enjoy$ ! sweet        
consolation t ,i /ill surviv$ 9 ! de>]  
"p ( myself3 9 ! situation ,i !n 01 x   
c\ld h>dly be call$ dea?2 & _h ,i be5   

dive/$ ( my uneas9ess on h] acc\nt1 x   
w\ld h appe>$ b a g5tle sleep2 yet ev5  
^! disquietudes _h su* an affectionate &
 t5d] turn1 t _! bitt]ness 0 temp]$ by a
 pleas+ s5sibility4 ,i said to h]1 ,y   
are ! depository ( my :ole be+1 act s t 
,i may be happy4 ,two or ?ree times1 :5 
my disord] 0 mo/ viol5t1 ,i crept to h] 
ap>tm5t to give h] my advice respect+ h]
 future conduct2 & ,i d>e affirm ^!     
admonitions 7 bo? wise & equitable1 9   
:i* ! int]e/ ,i took 9 h] future conc]ns
 0 /rongly m>k$4 ,z if te>s _h be5 bo?  
n\ri%m5t & m$ic9e1 ,i f\nd myself !     
bett] = ^? ,i %$ ) h]1 :ile seat$ on h] 
b$-side1 & hold+ h] h&s betwe5 m9e4 ,!  
h\rs crept ins5sibly away 9 ^! nocturnal
 disc\rses2 ,i return$ to my *amb] bett]
 ?an ,i _h quitt$ x1 be+ cont5t & calm$ 
by ! promises %e made1 & ! hopes ) :i*  
%e _h inspir$ me3 ,i slept on !m ) my   
he>t at peace1 & fully resign$ to !     
disp5sations ( ,provid5ce4 ,god grant1 t
 aft] hav+ _h s _m reasons to hate life1
 aft] be+ agitat$ ) s _m /orms1 aft] x  

has ev5 become a burd51 t dea?1 :i* mu/ 
t]m9ate all1 may be no m t]rible ?an x  
w\ld h be5 at t mom5t6  ,by             
inconceivable c>e & vigilance1 %e sav$  
my life2 & ,i am conv9c$ %e alone c\ld h
 done ?is4 ,i h little fai? 9 ! skill ( 
physicians1 b dep5d greatly on !        
assi/ance ( real fri5ds1 & am p]suad$ t 
be+ easy 9 ^? p>ticul>s on :i* our      
happ9ess dep5ds1 is m salut>y ?an any   
o!r application4 ,if !re is a s5sation 9
 life peculi>ly delightful1 we exp]i5c$ 
x 9 be+ re/or$ to ea* o!r2 our mutual   
atta*m5t did n increase1 = t 0          
impossible1 b x became1 ,i "k n h[1 m   
exquisitely t5d]1 fre% s(tness be+ add$ 
to its =m] simplicity4 ,i became 9 a    
mann] h] "w2 we got into ! habit1 ?\gh  
)\t design1 ( be+ cont9ually ) ea* o!r1 
& enjoy+1 9 "s measure1 our :ole exi/5ce
 toge!r1 feel+ reciprocally t we 7 n    
only necess>y1 b entirely suffici5t =   
ea* o!r's happ9ess4 ,accu/om$ to ?9k (  
no subject =eign to ourselves1 our      
happ9ess & all our desires 7 conf9$ to t

 pleas+ & s+ul> union1 :i*1 p]haps1 _h  
no equal1 :i* is n1 z ,i h be=e obs]v$1 
love1 b a s5tim5t inexpressibly m       
intimate1 nei!r dep5d+ on ! s5ses1 age1 
nor figure1 b an assemblage ( e ende>+  
s5sation t composes our rational exi/5ce
 & :i* c cease only ) our be+4  ,h[ 0 x 
t ?is delightful crisis did n secure our
 mutual felicity = ! rema9d] ( h] life &
 m9e8 ,i h ! consol+ conviction t x 0 n 
my fault2 nay1 ,i am p]suad$1 %e did n  
wilfully de/roy x2 ! inv9cible          
peculi>ity ( my disposition 0 doom$ soon
 to rega9 its empire2 b ?is fatal return
 0 n sudd5ly accompli%$1 !re 01 ?ank    
,heav51 a %ort b preci\s int]val1 t did 
n conclude by my fault1 & :i* ,i _c     
reproa* myself ) hav+ employ$ amiss4    
,?\gh recov]$ f my dang]\s illness1 ,i  
did n rega9 my /r5g?2 my /oma* 0 weak1  
"s rema9s ( ! fev] kept me 9 a langui%+ 
condition1 & ! only incl9ation ,i 0     
s5sible (1 0 to end my days ne> "o s    
truly de> to me2 to confirm h] 9 ^? good
 resolutions %e _h =m$2 to conv9ce h] 9 

:at consi/$ ! real *>ms ( a happy life1 
&1 z f> z dep5d$ on me1 to r5d] h]s s2 b
 ,i =esaw t 9 a gloomy1 melan*oly h\se1 
! cont9ual solitude ( our tete-a-tetes  
w\ld at l5g? become too dull &          
monoton\s3 a rem$y pres5t$ itself3      
,madam de ,w>5s _h prescrib$ milk = me1 
& insi/$ t ,i %\ld take x 9 ! c\ntry2 ,i
 cons5t$1 provid$ %e w\ld accompany me2 
no?+ m 0 necess>y to ga9 h] compliance1 
& :i!r we %\ld g 0 all t rema9$ to be   
det]m9$ on4 ,our g>d5 7:i* ,i h be=e    
m5tion$7 0 n prop]ly 9 ! c\ntry1 be+    
surr\nd$ by h\ses & o!r g>d5s1 &        
possess+ none ( ^? attractions s        
desirable 9 a rural retreat2 besides1   
aft] ! dea? ( ,anet1 we _h giv5 up ?is  
place f economical pr9ciples1 feel+ no  
long] a desire to re> plants1 & o!r     
views mak+ u n regret ! loss ( t little 
retreat4 ,improv+ ! di/a/e ,i f\nd %e   
began to imbibe = ! t[n1 ,i propos$ to  
ab&on x entirely1 & settle ourselves 9  
an agreeable solitude1 9 "s small h\se1 
di/ant en\gh f ! city to avoid !        

p]petual intrusion ( h] hang]s-on4 ,%e  
foll[$ my advice1 & ?is plan1 :i* h]    
good angel & m9e sugge/$1 might fully h 
secur$ our happ9ess & tranquility till  
dea? _h divid$ u--b ?is 0 n ! /ate we 7 
appo9t$ to2 ,madam de ,w>5s 0 de/9$ to  
endure all ! sorr[s ( indig5ce & pov]ty1
 aft] hav+ pass$ ! =m] "p ( h] life 9   
abundance1 t %e might le>n to quit x ) !
 less regret2 & myself1 by an assemblage
 ( mis=tunes ( all k9ds1 0 to become a  
/rik+ example to ^? :o1 inspir$ ) a love
 ( ju/ice & ! public good1 & tru/+ too  
implicitly to _! own innoc5ce1 %all     
op5ly d>e to ass]t tru? to mank9d1      
unsupport$ by cabals1 or )\t hav+       
previ\sly =m$ p>ties to protect !m4  ,an
 unhappy fe> furni%$ "s objections to   
our plan3 %e did n d>e to quit h]       
ill-contriv$ h\se1 = fe> ( displeas+ !  
proprietor4 ,y\r propos$ retirem5t is   
*>m+1 said %e1 & mu* to my ta/e1 b we   
are necessitat$ to rema9 "h1 =1 on      
quitt+ ?is dungeon1 ,i haz>d los+ ! v   
means ( life1 & :5 ^! fail u 9 ! woods1 

we mu/ aga9 return to seek !m 9 ! city4 
,t we may h ! lea/ possible cause = be+ 
r$uc$ to ?is necessity1 let u n leave   
?is h\se entirely1 b pay a small p5sion 
to ! ,c\nt ( ,sa9t-,laur5t1 t he may    
cont9ue m9e4 ,let u seek "s little      
habitation1 f> en\gh f ! t[n to be at   
peace1 yet ne> en\gh to return :5 x may 
appe> conv5i5t4  ,?is mode 0 f9ally     
adopt$2 & aft] "s small se>*1 we fix$ at
 ,*>mettes1 on an e/ate belong+ to ,m4  
de ,conzie1 at a v small di/ance f      
,*amb]y2 b z retir$ & solit>y z if x _h 
be5 a hundr$ leagues (f4 ,! spot we _h  
conclud$ on 0 a valley betwe5 two       
tol]ably high hills1 :i* ran nor? & s\?2
 at ! bottom1 among ! trees & pebbles1  
ran a rivulet1 & above ! declivity1 on  
ei!r side1 7 scatt]$ a numb] ( h\ses1   
=m+ altoge!r a beautiful retreat = ^? :o
 love a peaceful romantic asylum4 ,aft] 
hav+ exam9$ two or ?ree ( ^! h\ses1 we  
*ose t :i* we ?\ght ! mo/ pleas+1 :i* 0 
! prop]ty ( a g5tleman ( ! army1 call$  
,m4 ,noiret4 ,?is h\se 0 9 good         

condition1 be=e x a g>d51 =m+ a t]race2 
bel[ t on ! declivity an or*>d1 & on !  
asc5t1 beh9d ! h\se1 a v9ey>d3 a little 
wood ( *e/nut trees opposite2 a f\nta9 j
 by1 & high] up ! hill1 mead[s = !      
cattle2 9 %ort1 all t c\ld be ?\ght     
necess>y = ! c\ntry retirem5t we propos$
 to e/abli%4 ,to ! be/ ( my remembrance1
 we took possession ( x t[>d ! latt] end
 ( ! summ] ( #agcf4 ,i 0 delight$ on go+
 to sleep !re--,oh6 said ,i1 to ?is de> 
fri5d1 embrac+ h] ) te>s ( t5d]ness &   
delight1 ?is is ! abode ( happ9ess &    
innoc5ce2 if we d n f9d !m "h toge!r x w
 be 9 va9 to seek !m else:]e4     ,,book
 ,,vi4                  ,hoc erat 9     
votis3 ,modus agri non ita magnus       
,hortus ubi1 et tecto vic9us aqua fons2 
,et paulum sylvae sup] 8 =et4   ,i _c   
add1 'auctius acque di melius fec]e'2 b 
no matt]1 ! =m] is en\gh = my purpose2  
,i _h no occasion to h any prop]ty !re1 
x 0 suffici5t t ,i enjoy$ x2 = ,i h long
 s9ce bo? said & felt1 t ! proprietor & 
possessor are two v diff]5t p1 ev5 leav+

 husb&s & lov]s out ( ! "q4  ,at ?is    
mom5t began ! %ort happ9ess ( my life1  
^? peaceful & rapid mom5ts1 :i* h giv5  
me a "r to say1 ,i h liv$4 ,preci\s &   
ev]-regrett$ mom5ts6 ,ah6 recomm5ce y\r 
delightful c\rse2 pass m sl[ly ?r\gh my 
memory1 if possible1 ?an y actually did 
9 y\r fugitive succession4 ,h[ %all ,i  
prolong1 accord+ to my incl9ation1 ?is  
recital at once s pleas+ & simple8 ,h[  
%all ,i cont9ue to relate ! same        
occurr5ces1 )\t we>y+ my read]s ) !     
repetition1 any m ?an ,i 0 satiat$ ) !  
enjoym5t8 ,aga91 if all ?is consi/$ (   
facts1 actions1 or words1 ,i c\ld someh[
 or o!r convey an idea ( x2 b h[ %all ,i
 describe :at 0 nei!r said nor done1 nor
 ev5 ?\ght1 b enjoy$1 felt1 )\t be+ able
 to p>ticul>ize any o!r object ( my     
happ9ess ?an ! b>e idea8 ,i rose ) !    
sun1 & 0 happy2 ,i walk$1 & 0 happy2 ,i 
saw ,madam de ,w>5s1 & 0 happy2 ,i      
quitt$ h]1 & /ill 0 happy6--,:e!r ,i    
rambl$ ?r\gh ! woods1 ov] ! hills1 or   
/roll$ along ! valley2 read1 0 idle1    

work$ 9 ! g>d51 or ga!r$ fruits1        
happ9ess cont9ually accompani$ me2 x 0  
fix$ on no p>ticul> object1 x 0 )9 me1  
nor c\ld ,i dep>t f x a s+le mom5t4     
,no?+ t pass$ dur+ t *>m+ epo*a1 no?+ t 
,i did1 said1 or ?\ght1 has escap$ my   
memory4 ,! "t t prec$$ or foll[$ x1 ,i  
only recollect by int]vals1 unequally & 
confus$2 b "h ,i rememb] all z di/9ctly 
z if x exi/$ at ?is mom5t4 ,imag9ation1 
:i* 9 my y\? 0 p]petually anticipat+ !  
future1 b n[ takes a retrograde c\rse1  
makes "s am5ds by ^! *>m+ recollections 
= ! deprivation ( hope1 :i* ,i h lo/    
=ev]4 ,i no long] see any?+ 9 ! future t
 c tempt my wi%es1 x is a recollection (
 ! pa/ alone t c flatt] me1 & !         
remembrance ( ! p]iod ,i am n[ describ+ 
is s true & lively1 t x sometimes makes 
me happy1 ev5 9 spite ( my mis=tunes4   
,( ^! recollections ,i %all relate "o   
example1 :i* may give "s idea ( _! =ce &
 precision4 ,! fir/ day we w5t to sleep 
at ,*>mettes1 ! way be+ up-hill1 &      
,madam de ,w>5s r heavy1 %e 0 c>ri$ 9 a 

*air1 :ile ,i foll[$ on foot4 ,fe>+ !   
*airm5 w\ld be fatigu$1 %e got out ab\t 
half-way1 design+ to walk ! re/ ( x4 ,z 
we pass$ along1 %e saw some?+ blue 9 !  
h$ge1 & said1 ,!re's "s p]iw9kle 9 fl[] 
yet6 ,i _h nev] se5 any be=e1 nor did ,i
 /op to exam9e ?is3 my sight is too %ort
 to di/+ui% plants on ! gr\nd1 & ,i only
 ca/ a look at ?is z ,i pass$3 an       
int]val ( ne> ?irty ye>s _h elaps$ be=e 
,i saw any m p]iw9kle1 at lea/ be=e ,i  
obs]v$ x1 :5 be+ at ,cressi] 9 #agfd1 ) 
my fri5d1 ,m4 du ,peyr\1 we w5t up a    
small m\nta91 on ! summit ( :i* !re is a
 level spot1 call$1 ) reason1           
',belle-vue'1 ,i 0 !n beg9n+ to         
h]balize2--walk+ & look+ among ! bu%es1 
,i exclaim$ ) rapture1 ,ah1 !re's "s    
p]iw9kle6 ,du ,peyr\1 :o p]ceiv$ my     
transport1 0 ignorant ( ! cause1 b w "s 
day be in=m$3 ,i hope1 on read+ ?is4 ,! 
read] may judge by ?is impression1 made 
by s small an incid5t1 :at an effect mu/
 h be5 produc$ by e occurr5ce ( t "t4   
,meantime1 ! air ( ! c\ntry did n re/ore

 my heal?2 ,i 0 langui%+ & became m s2  
,i c\ld n endure milk1 & 0 oblig$ to    
discont9ue ! use ( x4 ,wat] 0 at ?is "t 
! fa%ionable rem$y = e compla9t2        
accord+ly ,i ent]$ on a c\rse ( x1 & s  
indiscreetly1 t x almo/ releas$ me1 n   
only f my illness b also f my life4 ,!  
wat] ,i drank 0 r h>d & difficult to    
pass1 z wat] f m\nta9s g5]ally is2 9    
%ort1 ,i manag$ s well1 t 9 ! c\rse (   
two mon?s ,i totally ru9$ my /oma*1 :i* 
until t "t _h be5 v good1 & no long]    
dige/+ any?+ prop]ly1 _h no reason to   
expect a cure4 ,at ?is "t an accid5t    
happ5$1 z s+ul> 9 itself z 9 its        
subsequ5t consequ5ces1 :i* c only       
t]m9ate ) my exi/5ce4  ,"o morn+1 be+ no
 worse ?an usual1 :ile putt+ up ! leaf (
 a small table1 ,i felt a sudd5 & almo/ 
inconceivable revolution ?r\gh\t my :ole
 frame4 ,i "k n h[ to describe x bett]  
?an z a k9d ( tempe/1 :i* sudd5ly rose 9
 my blood1 & spread 9 a mom5t ov] e "p (
 my body4 ,my art]ies began beat+ s     
viol5tly t ,i n only felt _! motion1 b  

ev5 he>d x1 p>ticul>ly t ( ! c>otids1   
att5d$ by a l\d noise 9 my e>s1 :i* 0 ( 
?ree1 or r f\r1 di/9ct k9ds4 ,= in/ance1
 fir/ a grave holl[ buzz+2 !n a m di/9ct
 murmur1 l ! runn+ ( wat]2 !n an        
extremely %>p hiss+1 att5d$ by ! beat+  
,i be=e m5tion$1 & ^: ?robs ,i c\ld     
easily c\nt1 )\t feel+ my pulse1 or     
putt+ a h& to any "p ( my body4 ,?is    
int]nal tumult 0 s viol5t t x has injur$
 my auricul> organs1 & r5d]$ me1 f t "t1
 n entirely deaf1 b h>d ( he>+4  ,my    
surprise & fe> may easily be conceiv$2  
imag9+ x 0 ! /roke ( dea?1 ,i w5t to b$1
 & ! physician be+ s5t =1 trembl+ )     
appreh5sion1 ,i relat$ my case2 judg+ x 
pa/ all cure4 ,i believe ! doctor 0 ( ! 
same op9ion2 h[ev] he p]=m$ 8 (fice1    
runn+ ov] a long /r+ ( causes & effects 
beyond my compreh5sion1 aft] :i*1 9     
consequ5ce ( ?is sublime !ory1 he set   
ab\t1 '9 anima vili'1 ! exp]im5tal "p ( 
8 art1 b ! means he 0 pleas$ to adopt 9 
ord] to effect a cure 7 s tr\blesome1   
disgu/+1 & foll[$ by s little effect1 t 

,i soon discont9u$ x1 & aft] "s weeks1  
f9d+ ,i 0 nei!r bett] nor worse1 left my
 b$1 & return$ to my usual me?od ( liv+2
 b ! beat+ ( my art]ies & ! buzz+ 9 my  
e>s has nev] quitt$ me a mom5t dur+ !   
?irty ye>s' "t :i* has elaps$ s9ce t "t4
  ,till n[1 ,i _h be5 a great sleep]1 b 
a total privation ( repose1 ) o!r al>m+ 
symptoms :i* h accompani$ x1 ev5 to ?is 
"t1 p]suad$ me ,i _h b a %ort "t to     
live4 ,?is idea tranquilliz$ me = a "t3 
,i became less anxi\s ab\t a cure1 & be+
 p]suad$ ,i c\ld n prolong life1 det]m9$
 to employ ! rema9d] ( x z usefully z   
possible4 ,?is 0 practicable by a       
p>ticul> indulg5ce ( ,nature1 :i*1 9 ?is
 melan*oly /ate1 exempt$ me f suff]+s   
:i* x might h be5 suppos$ ,i %\ld h     
exp]i5c$4 ,i 0 incommod$ by ! noise1 b  
felt no pa91 nor 0 x accompani$ by any  
habitual inconv5i5ce1 except nocturnal  
wakefulness1 & at all times a %ortness (
 brea?1 :i* is n viol5t en\gh to be     
call$ an a/hma1 b 0 tr\blesome :5 ,i    
attempt$ to run1 or use any degree (    

ex]tion4  ,?is accid5t1 :i* seem$ to    
?reat5 ! dissolution ( my body1 only    
kill$ my passions1 & ,i h reason to ?ank
 ,heav5 = ! happy effect produc$ by x on
 my s\l4 ,i c truly say1 ,i only began  
to live :5 ,i consid]$ myself z ent]+ ! 
grave2 =1 e/imat+ at _! real value ^?   
?+s ,i 0 quitt+2 ,i began to employ     
myself on nobl] objects1 namely by      
anticipat+ ^? ,i hop$ %ortly to h !     
contemplation (1 & :i* ,i _h hi!rto too 
mu* neglect$4 ,i _h (t5 made light (    
religion1 b 0 nev] totally devoid ( x2  
consequ5tly1 x co/ me less pa9 to employ
 my ?\ghts on t subject1 :i* is g5]ally 
?\ght melan*oly1 ?\gh highly pleas+ to  
^? :o make x an object ( hope &         
consolation2 ,madam de ,w>5s1 !re=e1 0 m
 useful to me on ?is occasion ?an all ! 
!ologians 9 ! _w w\ld h be54  ,%e1 :o   
br\ght ev]y?+ into a sy/em1 _h n fail$  
to d z mu* by religion2 & ?is sy/em 0   
compos$ ( ideas t bore no aff9ity to ea*
 o!r4 ,"s 7 extremely good1 & o!rs v    
ridicul\s1 be+ made up ( s5tim5ts       

proce$+ f h] disposition1 & prejudices  
d]iv$ f education4 ,m51 9 g5]al1 make   
,god l !mselves2 ! virtu\s make ,him    
good1 & ! pr(ligate make ,him wick$2    
ill-temp]$ & bili\s devotees see no?+ b 
hell1 because !y w\ld will+ly damn all  
mank9d2 :ile lov+ & g5tle s\ls          
disbelieve x altoge!r2 & "o ( !         
a/oni%m5ts ,i c\ld nev] ov]come1 is to  
see ! good ,f5elon speak ( x 9 8        
,telema*us z if he really gave cr$it to 
x2 b ,i hope he li$ 9 t p>ticul>1 =     
h[ev] /rict he might be 9 reg>d to tru?1
 a bi%op absolutely mu/ lie sometimes4  
,madam de ,w>5s spoke tru? ) me1 & t    
s\l1 made up )\t gall1 :o c\ld n imag9e 
a rev5geful & ev] angry ,god1 saw only  
clem5cy & =giv5ess1 :]e devotees be/[$  
inflexible ju/ice1 & et]nal puni%m5t4   
,%e frequ5tly said !re w\ld be no ju/ice
 9 ! ,supreme ,be+ %\ld ,he be /rictly j
 to u2 because1 n hav+ be/[$ :at 0      
necess>y to r5d] u ess5tially good1 x   
w\ld be requir+ m ?an he _h giv54 ,! mo/
 :imsical idea 01 t n believ+ 9 hell1 %e

 0 firmly p]suad$ ( ! reality (         
purgatory4 ,?is arose f h] n kn[+ :at to
 d ) ! wick$1 be+ loa!d to damn !m      
utt]ly1 nor yet c>+ to place !m ) ! good
 till !y _h become s2 & we mu/ really   
all[1 t bo? 9 ?is _w & ! next1 ! wick$  
are v tr\blesome company4  ,x is cle>ly 
se5 t ! doctr9e ( orig9al s9 & !        
r$emption ( mank9d is de/roy$ by ?is    
sy/em2 consequ5tly t ! basis ( !        
,*ri/ian disp5sation1 z g5]ally receiv$1
 is %ak51 & t ! ,ca?olic fai? _c subsi/ 
) ^! pr9ciples2 ,madam de ,w>5s1        
not)/&+1 0 a good ,ca?olic1 or at lea/  
pret5d$ to be "o1 & c]ta9ly desir$ to   
become su*1 b x appe>$ to h] t !        
,scriptures 7 too lit]ally & h>%ly      
expla9$1 suppos+ t all we read ( ev]la/+
 torm5ts 7 figurative ?reat5+s1 & ! dea?
 ( ,jesus ,*ri/ an example ( *>ity1     
truly div9e1 :i* %\ld tea* mank9d to    
love ,god & ea* o!r2 9 a ^w1 fai?ful to 
! religion %e _h embrac$1 %e acquiesc$ 9
 all its pr(essions ( fai?1 b on a      
discussion ( ea* p>ticul> article1 x 0  

pla9 %e ?\ght diametrically opposite to 
t *ur* ^: doctr9es %e pr(ess$ to        
believe4 ,9 ^! cases %e exhibit$        
simplicity ( art1 a frankness m eloqu5t 
?an sophi/ry1 :i* frequ5tly emb>rass$ h]
 confessor2 = %e disguis$ no?+ f him4 ,i
 am a good ,ca?olic1 %e w\ld say1 & w   
ev] rema9 s2 ,i adopt ) all ! p[]s ( my 
s\l ! decisions ( our holy ,"m ,*ur*2 ,i
 am n mi/ress ( my fai?1 b ,i am ( my w1
 :i* ,i submit to y )\t res]ve2 ,i w    
endeavor to believe all1--:at c y       
require m8  ,_h !re be5 no ,*ri/ian     
morality e/abli%$1 ,i am p]suad$ %e w\ld
 h liv$ z if regulat$ by its pr9ciples1 
s p]fectly did !y seem to accord ) h]   
disposition4 ,%e did ev]y?+ t 0 requir$2
 & %e w\ld h done ! same _h !re be5 no  
su* requisition3 b all ?is morality 0   
subord9ate to ! pr9ciples ( ,m4 ,tavel1 
or r %e pret5d$ to see no?+ 9 religion t
 contradict$ !m2 ?us %e w\ld h favor$   
tw5ty lov]s 9 a day1 )\t any idea ( a   
crime1 h] consci5ce be+ no m mov$ 9 t   
p>ticul> ?an h] passions4 ,i "k t a     

numb] ( devotees are n m scrupul\s1 b ! 
diff]5ce is1 !y are s$uc$ by            
con/itution1 %e 0 bl9d$ by h] sophisms4 
,9 ! mid/ ( conv]sations ! mo/ affect+1 
,i might say ! mo/ edify+1 %e w\ld t\*  
on ?is subject1 )\t any *ange ( air or  
mann]1 & )\t be+ s5sible ( any          
contradiction 9 h] op9ions2 s mu* 0 %e  
p]suad$ t our re/rictions on t head are 
m]ely political1 & t any p]son ( s5se   
might int]pret1 apply1 or make          
exceptions to !m1 )\t any dang] ( (f5d+ 
! ,almighty4  ,?\gh ,i 0 f> en\gh f be+ 
( ! same op9ion 9 ?is p>ticul>1 ,i      
confess ,i d>$ n combat h]s2 inde$1 z ,i
 0 situat$1 x w\ld h be5 putt+ myself 9 
r awkw>d circum/ances1 s9ce ,i c\ld only
 h s\ght to e/abli% my op9ion = o!rs1   
myself be+ an exception4 ,besides1 ,i   
ent]ta9$ b little hopes ( mak+ h] alt]  
h]s1 :i* nev] _h any great influ5ce on  
h] conduct1 & at ! "t ,i am speak+ (    
none2 b ,i h promis$ fai?fully to       
describe h] pr9ciples1 & ,i w p]=m my   
engagem5t--,i n[ return to myself4      

,f9d+ 9 h] all ^? ideas ,i _h occasion =
 to secure me f ! fe>s ( dea? & its     
future consequ5ces1 ,i drew confid5ce & 
security f ?is s\rce2 my atta*m5t became
 w>m] ?an ev]1 & ,i w\ld will+ly h      
transmitt$ to h] my :ole exi/5ce1 :i*   
seem$ ready to ab&on me4 ,f ?is r$\bl$  
atta*m5t1 a p]suasion t ,i _h b a %ort  
"t to live1 & pr(\nd security on my     
future /ate1 arose an habitual & ev5    
pleas+ s]5ity1 :i*1 calm+ e passion t   
ext5ds our hopes & fe>s1 made me enjoy  
)\t inquietude or conc]n ! few days :i* 
,i imag9$ rema9$ = me4 ,:at contribut$  
to r5d] !m /ill snore agreeable 0 an    
endeavor to enc\rage h] ris+ ta/e = !   
c\ntry1 by e amusem5t ,i c\ld possibly  
devise1 wi%+ to atta* h] to h] g>d51    
p\ltry1 pigeons1 & c[s3 ,i amus$ myself 
) !m & ^! little occupations1 :i*       
employ$ my "t )\t injur+ my             
tranquillity1 7 m s]viceable ?an a milk 
diet1 or all ! rem$ies be/[$ on my poor 
%att]$ ma*9e1 ev5 to effect+ ! utmo/    
possible ree/abli%m5t ( x4  ,! v9tage & 

ga!r+ 9 our fruit employ$ ! rema9d] ( ! 
ye>2 we became m & m atta*$ to a ru/ic  
life1 & ! society ( our hone/ neighbors4
 ,we saw ! approa* ( w9t] ) regret1 &   
return$ to ! city z if go+ into exile4  
,to me ?is return 0 p>ticul>ly gloomy1  
:o nev] expect$ to see ! return ( spr+1 
& ?\ght ,i took an ev]la/+ leave (      
,*>mettes4 ,i did n quit x )\t kiss+ ! v
 e>? & trees1 ca/+ back _m a wi%ful look
 z ,i w5t t[>ds ,*amb]y4  ,hav+ left my 
s*ol>s = s long a "t1 & lo/ my reli% = !
 amusem5ts ( ! t[n1 ,i seldom w5t out1  
conv]s+ only ) ,madam de ,w>5s & a      
,monsieur ,salomon1 :o _h lately become 
our physician4 ,he 0 an hone/ man1 (    
good und]/&+1 a great ,c>tesian1 spoke  
tol]ably well on ! sy/em ( ! _w1 & 8    
agreeable & in/ructive conv]sations 7 m 
s]viceable ?an 8 prescriptions4 ,i c\ld 
nev] be> t fooli% trivial mode (        
conv]sation :i* is s g5]ally adopt$2 b  
useful in/ructive disc\rse has always   
giv5 me great pleasure1 nor 0 ,i ev]    
backw>d to jo9 9 x4 ,i 0 mu* pleas$ ) t 

( ,m4 ,salomon2 x appe>$ to me1 t :5 9 8
 company1 ,i anticipat$ ! acquisition ( 
t sublime k :i* my s\l w\ld enjoy :5    
fre$ f its mortal fett]s4 ,! incl9ation 
,i _h = him ext5d$ to ! subjects :i* he 
treat$ on1 & ,i began to look aft] books
 :i* might bett] enable me to und]/& 8  
disc\rse4 ,^? :i* m+l$ devotion ) sci5ce
 7 mo/ agreeable to me1 p>ticul>ly ,port
 ,royal's ,oratory1 & ,i began to read  
or r to dev\r !m4 ,"o fell into my h&s  
writt5 by ,fa!r ,lami1 call$ ',entreti5s
 sur les ,sci5ces'1 :i* 0 a k9d (       
introduction to ! k ( ^? books x treat$ 
(4 ,i read x ov] a hundr$ times1 &      
resolv$ to make ?is my guide2 9 %ort1 ,i
 f\nd 7not)/&+ my ill /ate ( heal?7 t ,i
 0 irresi/ibly drawn t[>ds /udy1 & ?\gh 
look+ on ea* day z ! la/ ( my life1 read
 ) z mu* avidity z if c]ta9 ,i 0 to live
 =ev]4  ,i 0 assur$ t read+ w\ld injure 
me2 b on ! contr>y1 ,i am r incl9$ to   
?9k x 0 s]viceable1 n only to my s\l1 b 
also to my body2 = ?is application1 :i* 
soon became delightful1 div]t$ my ?\ghts

 f my disord]s1 & ,i soon f\nd myself   
mu* less affect$ by !m4 ,x is c]ta91    
h[ev]1 t no?+ gave me absolute ease1 b  
hav+ no long] any acute pa91 ,i became  
accu/om$ to langui%m5t & wakefulness2 to
 ?9k+ in/ead ( act+2 9 %ort1 ,i look$ on
 ! gradual & sl[ decay ( my body z      
inevitably progressive & only to be     
t]m9at$ by dea?4  ,?is op9ion n only    
deta*$ me f all ! va9 c>es ( life1 b    
deliv]$ me f ! importunity ( m$ic9e1 to 
:i* hi!rto1 ,i _h be5 =c$ to submit1    
?\gh contr>y to my incl9ation4 ,salomon1
 conv9c$ t 8 drugs 7 unavail+1 sp>$ me !
 disagreeable task ( tak+ !m1 & cont5t$ 
himself ) amus+ ! grief ( my poor ,madam
 de ,w>5s by "s ( ^? h>mless            
prep>ations1 :i* s]ve to flatt] ! hopes 
( ! pati5t & keep up ! cr$it ( ! doctor4
 ,i discont9u$ ! /rict regim5 ,i _h     
latt]ly obs]v$1 resum$ ! use ( w9e1 &   
liv$ 9 e respect l a man 9 p]fect heal?1
 z f> z my /r5g? w\ld p]mit1 only be+   
c>eful to run into no excess2 ,i ev5    
began to g out & visit my acqua9tance1  

p>ticul>ly ,m4 de ,conzie1 ^:           
conv]sation 0 extremely pleas+ to me4   
,:e!r x /ruck me z h]oic to /udy to my  
la/ h\r1 or t "s hopes ( life yet l+]$ 9
 ! bottom ( my he>t1 ,i _c tell1 b !    
app>5t c]ta9ty ( dea?1 f> f relax+ my   
incl9ation = improvem5t1 seem$ to       
animate x1 & ,i ha/5$ to acquire k = !  
o!r _w1 z if conv9c$ ,i %\ld only       
possess t portion ,i c\ld c>ry ) me4 ,i 
took a lik+ to ! %op ( a booksell]1 ^:  
"n 0 ,b\*>d1 :i* 0 frequ5t$ by "s m5 (  
lett]s1 & z ! spr+ 7^: return ,i _h nev]
 expect$ to see aga97 0 approa*+1       
furni%$ myself ) "s books = ,*>mettes1 9
 case ,i %\ld h ! happ9ess to return    
!re4  ,i _h t happ9ess1 & enjoy$ x to ! 
utmo/ ext5t4 ,! rapture ) :i* ,i saw !  
trees put out _! fir/ bud1 is           
inexpressible6 ,! return ( spr+ seem$ to
 me l ris+ f ! grave into p>adise4 ,!   
sn[ 0 h>dly (f ! gr\nd :5 we left our   
dungeon & return$ to ,*>mettes1 to enjoy
 ! fir/ w>bl+s ( ! night+ale4 ,i n[     
?\ght no m ( dy+1 & x is really s+ul>1 t

 f ?is "t ,i nev] exp]i5c$ any dang]\s  
illness 9 ! c\ntry4 ,i h suff]$ greatly1
 b nev] kept my b$1 & h (t5 said to ^?  
ab\t me1 on f9d+ myself worse ?an       
ord9>y1 ,%\ld y see me at ! po9t ( dea?1
 c>ry me "u ! %ade ( an oak1 & ,i       
promise y ,i %all recov]4  ,?\gh weak1  
,i resum$ my c\ntry occupations1 z f> z 
my /r5g? w\ld p]mit1 & conceiv$ a real  
grief at n be+ able to manage our g>d5  
)\t help2 = ,i c\ld n take five or six  
/rokes ) ! spade )\t be+ out ( brea? &  
ov]come ) p]spiration2 :5 ,i /oop$ !    
beat+ r$\bl$1 & ! blood flew ) su*      
viol5ce to my head1 t ,i 0 in/antly     
oblig$ to /& upright4 ,be+ !re=e conf9$ 
to less fatigu+ employm5ts1 ,i busi$    
myself ab\t ! dove-h\se1 & 0 s pleas$ ) 
x t ,i sometimes pass$ sev]al h\rs !re  
)\t feel+ a mom5t's we>9ess4 ,! pigeon  
is v timid & difficult to tame1 yet ,i  
inspir$ m9e ) s mu* confid5ce t !y      
foll[$ me ev]y:]e1 lett+ me cat* !m at  
pleasure1 nor c\ld ,i appe> 9 ! g>d5 )\t
 hav+ two or ?ree on my arms or head 9  

an in/ant1 & not)/&+ ! pleasure ,i took 
9 !m1 _! company became s tr\blesome t  
,i 0 oblig$ to less5 ! famili>ity4 ,i h 
ev] tak5 great pleasure 9 tam+ animals1 
p>ticul>ly ^? t are wild & fe>ful4 ,x   
appe>$ delightful to me1 to inspire !m )
 a confid5ce :i* ,i took c>e nev] to    
abuse1 wi%+ !m to love me freely4  ,i h 
already m5tion$ t ,i pur*as$ "s books3  
,i did n =get to read !m1 b 9 a mann] m 
prop] to fatigue ?an in/ruct me4 ,i     
imag9$ t to read a book pr(itably1 x 0  
necess>y to be acqua9t$ ) e bran* ( k x 
ev5 m5tion$2 f> f ?9k+ t ! au?or did n d
 ?is himself1 b drew assi/ance f o!r    
books1 z he might see occasion4 ,full ( 
?is silly idea1 ,i 0 /opp$ e mom5t1     
oblig$ to run f "o book to ano!r1 &     
sometimes1 be=e ,i c\ld rea* ! t5? page 
( :at ,i 0 /udy+1 f\nd x necess>y to    
turn ov] a :ole libr>y4 ,i 0 s atta*$ to
 ?is ridicul\s me?od1 t ,i lo/ a        
prodigi\s deal ( "t & _h bewild]$ my    
head to su* a degree1 t ,i 0 h>dly      
capable ( do+1 see+ or compreh5d+ any?+4

 ,i =tunately p]ceiv$1 at l5g?1 t ,i 0 9
 ! wrong road1 :i* w\ld entangle me 9 an
 inextricable labyr9?1 & quitt$ x be=e  
,i 0 irrevocably lo/4  ,:5 a p]son has  
any real ta/e = ! sci5ces1 ! fir/ ?+ he 
p]ceives 9 ! pursuit ( !m is t          
connection by :i* !y mutually attract1  
assi/1 & enlight5 ea* o!r1 & t x is     
impossible to atta9 "o )\t ! assi/ance (
 ! re/4 ,?\gh ! human und]/&+ _c grasp  
all1 & "o mu/ ev] be reg>d$ z ! pr9cipal
 object1 yet if ! re/ are totally       
neglect$1 ! favorite /udy is g5]ally    
obscure2 ,i 0 conv9c$ t my resolution to
 improve 0 good & useful 9 itself1 b t x
 0 necess>y ,i %\ld *ange my me?od2 ,i1 
!re=e1 _h rec\rse to ! encyclopa$ia4 ,i 
began by a di/ribution ( ! g5]al mass ( 
human k into its v>i\s bran*es1 b soon  
discov]$ t ,i mu/ pursue a contr>y      
c\rse1 t ,i mu/ take ea* sep>ately1 &   
trace x to t po9t :]e x unit$ ) ! re/3  
?us ,i return$ to ! g5]al syn!tical     
me?od1 b return$ ?i!r ) a conviction t  
,i 0 go+ "r4 ,m$itation suppli$ ! want (

 k1 & a v natural reflection gave /r5g? 
to my resolutions1 :i* 01 t :e!r ,i liv$
 or di$1 ,i _h no "t to lose2 = hav+    
le>n$ b little be=e ! age (             
five-&-tw5ty1 & !n resolv+ to le>n      
ev]y?+1 0 engag+ to employ ! future "t  
pr(itably4 ,i 0 ignorant at :at po9t    
accid5t or dea? might put a p]iod to my 
endeavors1 & resolv$ at all ev5ts to    
acquire ) ! utmo/ exp$ition "s idea ( e 
species ( k1 z well to try my natural   
disposition1 z to judge = myself :at mo/
 des]v$ cultivation4  ,9 ! execution (  
my plan1 ,i exp]i5c$ ano!r advantage :i*
 ,i _h nev] ?\ght (2 ?is 01 sp5d+ a     
great deal ( "t pr(itably4 ,nature      
c]ta9ly nev] meant me = /udy1 s9ce      
att5tive application fatigues me s mu*1 
t ,i f9d x impossible to employ myself  
half an h\r toge!r int5tly on any "o    
subject2 p>ticul>ly :ile foll[+ ano!r   
p]son's ideas1 = x has frequ5tly happ5$ 
t ,i h pursu$ my own = a mu* long] p]iod
 ) success4 ,aft] read+ a few pages ( an
 au?or ) close application1 my und]/&+  

is bewild]$1 & %\ld ,i ob/9ately        
cont9ue1 ,i tire myself to no purpose1 a
 /upefaction seizes me1 & ,i am no long]
 consci\s ( :at ,i read2 b 9 a          
succession ( v>i\s subjects1 "o relieves
 me f ! fatigue ( ! o!r1 & )\t f9d+     
respite necess>y1 ,i c foll[ !m )       
pleasure4  ,i took advantage ( ?is      
obs]vation 9 ! plan ( my /udies1 tak+   
c>e to int]m+le !m 9 su* a mann] t ,i 0 
nev] we>y3 x is true t dome/ic & rural  
conc]ns furni%$ _m pleas+ relaxations2 b
 z my eag]ness = improvem5t increas$1 ,i
 contriv$ to f9d opportunities = my     
/udies1 frequ5tly employ+ myself ab\t   
two ?+s at ! same "t1 )\t reflect+ t bo?
 7 consequ5tly neglect$4  ,9 relat+ s _m
 trifl+ details1 :i* delight me1 b      
frequ5tly tire my read]1 ,i make use ( !
 caution to suppress a great numb]1     
?\gh1 p]haps1 he w\ld h no idea ( ?is1  
if ,i did n take c>e to in=m him ( x3 = 
example1 ,i recollect ) pleasure all !  
diff]5t me?ods ,i adopt$ = ! di/ribution
 ( my "t1 9 su* a mann] z to produce !  

utmo/ pr(it & pleasure4 ,i may say1 t ! 
portion ( my life :i* ,i pass$ 9 ?is    
retirem5t1 ?\gh 9 cont9ual ill-heal?1 0 
t 9 :i* ,i 0 lea/ idle & lea/ we>i$4    
,two or ?ree mon?s 7 ?us employ$ 9      
discov]+ ! b5t ( my g5ius2 meantime1 ,i 
enjoy$1 9 ! f9e/ season ( ! ye>1 & 9 a  
spot x r5d]$ delightful1 ! *>ms ( a life
 ^: wor? ,i 0 s highly s5sible (1 9 su* 
a society1 z free z x 0 *>m+2 if a union
 s p]fect1 & ! ext5sive k ,i purpos$ to 
acquire1 c be call$ society4 ,x seem$ to
 me z if ,i already possess$ !          
improvem5ts ,i 0 only 9 pursuit (3 or r 
bett]1 s9ce ! pleasure ( le>n+ con/itut$
 a great "p ( my happ9ess4  ,i mu/ pass 
ov] ^! p>ticul>s1 :i* 7 to me ! height (
 enjoym5t1 b are too trivial to be>     
repeat+3 inde$1 true happ9ess is        
indescribable1 x is only to be felt1 &  
?is consci\sness ( felicity is          
proportionately m1 ! less able we are to
 describe x2 because x does n absolutely
 result f a conc\rse ( favorable        
incid5ts1 b is an affection ( ! m9d     

itself4 ,i am frequ5tly guilty (        
repetitions1 b %\ld be inf9itely m s1   
did ,i repeat ! same ?+ z (t5 z x recurs
 ) pleasure to my m9d4 ,:5 at l5g? my   
v>iable mode ( life 0 r$uc$ to a m uni=m
 c\rse1 ! foll[+ 0 ne>ly ! di/ribution (
 "t :i* ,i adopt$3 ,i rose e morn+ be=e 
! sun1 & pass$ ?r\gh a neighbor+ or*>d  
into a pleasant pa?1 :i*1 runn+ by a    
v9ey>d1 l$ t[>ds ,*amb]y4 ,:ile walk+1  
,i (f]$ up my pray]s1 n by a va9 motion 
( ! lips1 b a s9c]e elevation ( my he>t1
 to ! ,great ,au?or ( delightful nature1
 ^: beauties 7 s *>m+ly spread out be=e 
me6 ,i nev] love to pray 9 a *amb]2 x   
seems to me t ! walls & all ! little    
workman%ip ( man int]pos$ betwe5 ,god & 
myself3 ,i love to contemplate ,him 9 8 
works1 :i* elevate my s\l1 & raise my   
?\ghts to ,him4 ,my pray]s 7 pure1 ,i c 
affirm x1 & !re=e wor?y to be he>d3--,i 
ask$ = myself & h] f :om my ?\ghts 7    
nev] divid$1 only an innoc5t & quiet    
life1 exempt f vice1 sorr[ & want2 ,i   
pray$ t we might die ! dea? ( ! j1 &    

p>take ( _! lot h]eaft]3 = ! re/1 x 0 r 
admiration & contemplation ?an reque/1  
be+ satisfi$ t ! be/ means to obta9 :at 
is necess>y f ! ,giv] ( e p]fect good1  
is r to des]ve ?an to solicit4 ,return+ 
f my walk1 ,i l5g!n$ ! way by tak+ a    
r\ndab\t pa?1 /ill contemplat+ )        
e>ne/ness & delight ! beautiful sc5es ) 
:i* ,i 0 surr\nd$1 ^? only objects t    
nev] fatigue ei!r ! eye or ! he>t4 ,z ,i
 approa*$ our habitation1 ,i look$ =w>d 
to see if ,madam de ,w>5s 0 /irr+1 & :5 
,i p]ceiv$ h] %utt]s op51 ,i ev5 ran )  
joy t[>ds ! h\se3 if !y 7 yet %ut ,i w5t
 into ! g>d5 to wait _! op5+1 amus+     
myself1 meantime1 by a retrospection (  
:at ,i _h read ! prec$+ ev5+1 or 9      
g>d5+4 ,! mom5t ! %utt] drew back ,i    
ha/5$ to embrace h]1 frequ5tly half     
asleep2 & ?is salute1 pure z x 0        
affectionate1 ev5 f its innoc5ce1       
possess$ a *>m :i* ! s5ses c nev] be/[4 
,we usually breakfa/$ on milk-c(fee2 ?is
 0 ! "t ( day :5 we _h mo/ leisure1 & :5
 we *att$ ) ! greate/ fre$om4 ,^!       

sitt+s1 :i* 7 usually pretty long1 h    
giv5 me a fondness = breakfa/s1 & ,i    
inf9itely pref] ^? ( ,engl&1 or         
,switz]l&1 :i* are consid]$ z a meal1 at
 :i* all ! family assemble1 ?an ^? (    
,france1 :]e !y breakfa/ alone 9 _!     
sev]al ap>tm5ts1 or m frequ5tly h none  
at all4 ,aft] an h\r or two pass$ 9     
disc\rse1 ,i w5t to my /udy till d9n]2  
beg9n+ ) "s philosophical "w1 su* z !   
logic ( ,port-,royal1 ,locke's ,essays1 
,mallebran*e1 ,leibnitz1 ,desc>tes1 etc4
 ,i soon f\nd t ^! au?ors p]petually    
contradict ea* o!r1 & =m$ ! *im]ical    
project ( reconcil+ !m1 :i* co/ me mu*  
labor & loss ( "t1 bewild]+ my head )\t 
any pr(it4 ,at l5g? 7r5\nc+ ?is idea7 ,i
 adopt$ "o inf9itely m pr(itable1 to :i*
 ,i attribute all ! progress ,i h s9ce  
made1 not)/&+ ! defects ( my capacity2 =
 'tis c]ta9 ,i _h v little = /udy4 ,on  
read+ ea* au?or1 ,i acquir$ a habit (   
foll[+ all 8 ideas1 )\t suff]+ my own or
 ^? ( any o!r writ] to int]f]e ) !m1 or 
ent]+ into any dispute on _! utility4 ,i

 said to myself1 ,i w beg9 by lay+ up a 
/ock ( ideas1 true or false1 b cle>ly   
conceiv$1 till my und]/&+ %all be       
suffici5tly furni%$ to enable me to     
comp>e & make *oice ( ^? t are mo/      
e/imable4 ,i am s5sible ?is me?od is n  
)\t its inconv5i5ces1 b x succe$$ 9     
furni%+ me ) a fund ( in/ruction4 ,hav+ 
pass$ "s ye>s 9 ?9k+ aft] o!rs1 )\t     
reflection1 & almo/ )\t reason+1 ,i f\nd
 myself possess$ ( suffici5t mat]ials to
 set ab\t ?9k+ on my own acc\nt1 & :5   
j\rneys ( bus9ess depriv$ me ( !        
opportunities ( consult+ books1 ,i amus$
 myself ) recollect+ & comp>+ :at ,i _h 
read1 weigh+ e op9ion on ! balance (    
reason1 & frequ5tly judg+ my ma/]s4     
,?\gh x 0 late be=e ,i began to ex]cise 
my judicial faculties1 ,i h n discov]$ t
 !y _h lo/ _! vigor1 & on publi%+ my own
 ideas1 h nev] be5 accus$ ( be+ a s]vile
 disciple or ( swe>+ '9 v]ba magi/ri'4  
,f ^! /udies ,i pass$ to ! elem5ts (    
geometry1 = ,i nev] w5t fur!r1 =c+ my   
weak memory to reta9 !m by go+ ! same   

gr\nd a hundr$ & a hundr$ times ov]4 ,i 
did n admire ,euclid1 :o r seeks a *a9 (
 demon/ration ?an a connection ( ideas3 
,i pref]r$ ! geometry ( ,fa!r ,lama1 :o 
f t "t became "o ( my favorite au?ors1 &
 ^: works ,i yet read ) pleasure4       
,algebra foll[$1 & ,fa!r ,lama 0 /ill my
 guide3 :5 ,i made "s progress1 ,i p]us$
 ,fa!r ,reynaud's ,sci5ce (             
,calculation1 & !n 8 ,analysis          
,demon/rat$2 b ,i nev] w5t f> en\gh     
?or\ghly to und]/& ! application (      
algebra to geometry4 ,i 0 n pleas$ ) ?is
 me?od ( p]=m+ op]ations by rule )\t    
kn[+ :at ,i 0 ab\t3 resolv+ geometrical 
problems by ! help ( equations seem$ l  
play+ a tune by turn+ r\nd a h&le4 ,!   
fir/ "t ,i f\nd by calculation t ! squ>e
 ( a b9ocul> figure 0 compos$ ( ! squ>e 
( ea* ( its p>ts1 & d\ble ! product ( "o
 by ! o!r2 ?\gh conv9c$ t my            
multiplication 0 "r1 ,i c\ld n be       
satisfi$ till ,i _h made & exam9$ !     
figure3 n b ,i admire algebra :5 appli$ 
to ab/ract quantities1 b :5 us$ to      

demon/rate dim5sions1 ,i wi%$ to see !  
op]ation1 & unless expla9$ by l9es1 c\ld
 n rightly compreh5d x4  ,aft] ?is came 
,lat93 x 0 my mo/ pa9ful /udy1 & 9 :i*  
,i nev] made great progress4 ,i began by
 ,port-,royal's ,rudim5ts1 b )\t        
success2 ,i lo/ myself 9 a cr[d ( rules2
 & 9 /udy+ ! la/ =got all t prec$$ x4 ,a
 /udy ( words is n calculat$ = a man )\t
 memory1 & x 0 pr9cipally an endeavor to
 make my memory m ret5tive1 t urg$ me   
ob/9ately to p]si/ 9 ?is /udy1 :i* at   
l5g? ,i 0 oblig$ to rel9qui%4 ,z ,i     
und]/ood en\gh to read an easy au?or by 
! aid ( a diction>y1 ,i foll[$ t me?od1 
& f\nd x succe$ tol]ably well4 ,i       
likewise appli$ myself to translation1 n
 by writ+1 b m5tally1 & by ex]cise &    
p]sev]ance atta9$ to read ,lat9 au?ors  
easily1 b h nev] be5 able to speak or   
write t language1 :i* has frequ5tly     
emb>rass$ me :5 ,i h f\nd myself 7,i "k 
n by :at means7 enroll$ among m5 (      
lett]s4  ,ano!r inconv5i5ce t arose f   
?is mann] ( le>n+ is1 t ,i nev] und]/ood

 prosody1 mu* less ! rules (            
v]sification2 yet1 anxi\s to und]/& !   
h>mony ( ! language1 bo? 9 prose & v]se1
 ,i h made _m ef=ts to obta9 x1 b am    
conv9c$1 t )\t a ma/] x is almo/        
impossible4 ,hav+ le>n$ ! composition ( 
! hexamet]1 :i* is ! easie/ ( all v]ses1
 ,i _h ! pati5ce to measure out ! great]
 "p ( ,virgil into feet & quantity1 &   
:5ev] ,i 0 dubi\s :e!r a syllable 0 long
 or %ort1 imm$iately consult$ my        
,virgil4 ,x may easily be conceiv$ t ,i 
ran into _m errors 9 consequ5ce ( ^?    
lic5ses p]mitt$ by ! rules (            
v]sification2 & x is c]ta91 t if !re is 
an advantage 9 /udy+ alone1 !re are also
 great inconv5i5ces & inconceivable     
labor1 z ,i h exp]i5c$ m ?an any "o4    
,at twelve ,i quitt$ my books1 & if d9n]
 0 n ready1 paid my fri5ds1 ! pigeons1 a
 visit1 or work$ 9 ! g>d5 till x 01 & :5
 ,i he>d myself call$1 ran v will+ly1 & 
) a good appetite to p>take ( x1 = x is 
v rem>kable1 t let me be ev] s indispos$
 my appetite nev] fails4 ,we d9$ v      

agreeably1 *att+ till ,madam de ,w>5s   
c\ld eat4 ,two or ?ree times a week1 :5 
x 0 f9e1 we drank our c(fee 9 a cool    
%ady arbor beh9d ! h\se1 t ,i _h        
decorat$ ) hops1 & :i* 0 v refre%+ dur+ 
! heat2 we usually pass$ an h\r 9 view+ 
our fl[]s & vegetables1 or 9 conv]sation
 relative to our mann] ( life1 :i*      
greatly increas$ ! pleasure ( x4 ,i _h  
ano!r little family at ! end ( ! g>d52  
^! 7 sev]al hives ( bees1 :i* ,i nev]   
fail$ to visit once a day1 & 0 frequ5tly
 accompani$ by ,madam de ,w>5s4 ,i 0    
greatly int]e/$ 9 _! labor1 & amus$     
myself see+ !m return to ! hives1 _!    
little ?ighs s load$ ) ! preci\s /ore t 
!y c\ld h>dly walk4 ,at fir/1 curiosity 
made me indiscreet1 & !y /ung me sev]al 
times1 b aft]w>ds1 we 7 s well acqua9t$1
 t let me approa* z ne> z ,i w\ld1 !y   
nev] mole/$ me1 ?\gh ! hives 7 full & ! 
bees ready to sw>m4 ,at ^! times ,i h   
be5 surr\nd$1 hav+ !m on my h&s & face  
)\t appreh5d+ any dang]4 ,all animals   
are di/ru/ful ( man1 & ) reason1 b :5   

once assur$ he does n mean to injure !m1
 _! confid5ce becomes s great t he mu/  
be worse ?an a b>b>ian :o abuses x4     
,aft] ?is ,i return$ to my books2 b my  
aft]noon employm5t ought r to be> ! "n (
 recreation & amusem5t1 ?an labor or    
/udy4 ,i h nev] be5 able to be>         
application aft] d9n]1 & 9 g5]al any k9d
 ( att5tion is pa9ful to me dur+ ! heat 
( ! day4 ,i employ$ myself1 'tis true1 b
 )\t re/ra9t or rule1 & read )\t /udy+4 
,:at ,i mo/ att5d$ to at ^! times1 0    
hi/ory & geography1 & z ^! did n require
 int5se application1 made z mu* progress
 9 !m z my weak memory w\ld p]mit4 ,i _h
 an incl9ation to /udy ,fa!r ,petau1 &  
laun*$ into ! gloom ( *ronology1 b 0    
disgu/$ at ! critical "p1 :i* ,i f\nd _h
 nei!r bottom nor banks2 ?is made me    
pref] ! m exact measurem5t ( "t by !    
c\rse ( ! cele/ial bodies4 ,i %\ld ev5 h
 contract$ a fondness = a/ronomy1 _h ,i 
be5 9 possession ( in/rum5ts1 b 0 oblig$
 to cont5t myself ) "s ( ! elem5ts ( t  
art1 le>n$ f books1 & a few rude        

obs]vations made ) a telescope1         
suffici5t only to give me a g5]al idea (
 ! situation ( ! heav5ly bodies2 = my   
%ort sight is insuffici5t to di/+ui% !  
/>s )\t ! help ( a glass4  ,i recollect 
an adv5ture on ?is subject1 !           
remembrance ( :i* has (t5 div]t$ me4 ,i 
_h b\ght a cele/ial planisph]e to /udy !
 con/ellations by1 &1 hav+ fix$ x on a  
frame1 :5 ! nights 7 f9e & ! sky cle>1  
,i w5t into ! g>d52 & fix+ ! frame on   
f\r /icks1 some?+ high] ?an myself1 :i* 
,i drove into ! gr\nd1 turn$ !          
planisph]e d[nw>ds1 & contriv$ to light 
x by means ( a c&le 7:i* ,i put 9 a pail
 to prev5t ! w9d f bl[+ x out7 & !n     
plac$ 9 ! c5tre ( ! above-m5tion$ f\r   
support]s2 ?is done1 ,i exam9$ ! />s )  
my glass1 & f "t to "t ref]r+ to my     
planisph]e1 endeavor$ to di/+ui% ! v>i\s
 con/ellations4 ,i ?9k ,i h be=e obs]v$ 
t our g>d5 0 on a t]race1 & lay op5 to !
 road4 ,"o night1 "s c\ntry p pass+ v   
late1 saw me 9 a mo/ grotesque habit1   
busily employ$ 9 ^! obs]vations3 !      

light1 :i* /ruck directly on !          
planisph]e1 proce$+ f a cause !y c\ld n 
div9e 7! c&le be+ conceal$ by ! sides ( 
! pail71 ! f\r /akes support+ a l>ge    
pap]1 m>k$ ov] ) v>i\s unc\? figures1 ) 
! motion ( ! telescope1 :i* !y saw turn+
 backw>ds & =w>ds1 gave ! :ole an air ( 
conjuration t /ruck !m ) horror &       
amazem5t4 ,my figure 0 by no means      
calculat$ to dispel _! fe>s2 a flapp$   
hat put on ov] my nightcap1 & a %ort    
cloak ab\t my %\ld] 7:i* ,madam de ,w>5s
 _h oblig$ me to put on7 pres5t$ 9 _!   
idea ! image ( a real sorc]]4 ,be+ ne>  
midnight1 !y made no d\bt b ?is 0 !     
beg9n+ ( "s diabolical assembly1 & hav+ 
no curiosity to pry fur!r into ^!       
my/]ies1 !y fl$ ) all possible spe$1    
awak5$ _! neighbors1 & describ$ ?is mo/ 
dreadful vision4 ,! /ory spread s fa/ t 
! next day ! :ole neighborhood 0 in=m$ t
 a nocturnal assembly ( wit*es 0 held 9 
! g>d5 t belong$ to ,monsieur ,noiret1 &
 ,i am ignorant :at might h be5 !       
consequ5ce ( ?is rumor if "o ( !        

c\ntrym5 :o _h be5 witness to my        
conjurations _h n ! same day c>ri$ 8    
compla9t to two ,jesuits1 :o frequ5tly  
came to visit u1 & :o1 )\t kn[+ !       
f\ndation ( ! /ory1 undeceiv$ & satisfi$
 !m4 ,^! ,jesuits told u ! :ole affair1 
& ,i acqua9t$ !m ) ! cause ( x1 :i*     
altoge!r furni%$ u ) a he>ty laugh4     
,h[ev]1 ,i resolv$ = ! future to make my
 obs]vations )\t light1 & consult my    
planisph]e 9 ! h\se4 ,^? :o h read      
,v5etian magic1 9 ! ',lett]s f !        
,m\nta9'1 may f9d t ,i long s9ce _h !   
reputation ( be+ a conjur]4  ,su* 0 !   
life ,i l$ at ,*>mettes :5 ,i _h no     
rural employm5ts1 = !y ev] _h !         
pref]5ce1 & 9 ^? t did n exce$ my /r5g?1
 ,i work$ l a peasant2 b my extreme     
weakness left me little except ! w2     
besides1 z ,i h be=e obs]v$1 ,i wi%$ to 
d two ?+s at once1 & !re=e did nei!r    
well4 ,i ob/9ately p]si/$ 9 =c+ my      
memory to reta9 a great deal by he>t1 & 
= t purpose1 ,i always c>ri$ "s book )  
me1 :i*1 :ile at "w1 ,i /udi$ )         

inconceivable labor4 ,i 0 cont9ually    
repeat+ some?+1 & am really amaz$ t !   
fatigue ( ^! va9 & cont9ual ef=ts did n 
r5d] me entirely /upid4 ,i mu/ h le>n$ &
 rele>n$ ! ,eclogues ( ,virgil tw5ty    
times ov]1 ?\gh at ?is "t ,i _c         
recollect a s+le l9e ( !m4 ,i h lo/ or  
spoil$ a great numb] ( books by a cu/om 
,i _h ( c>ry+ !m ) me into ! dove-h\se1 
! g>d51 or*>d or v9ey>d1 :51 be+ busy   
ab\t some?+ else1 ,i laid my book at !  
foot ( a tree1 on ! h$ge1 or ! fir/     
place t came to h&1 & frequ5tly left !m 
!re1 f9d+ !m a =tnight aft]1 p]haps1    
rott$ to pieces1 or eat5 by ! ants or   
snails2 & ?is ardor = le>n+ became s f> 
a madness t x r5d]$ me almo/ /upid1 & ,i
 0 p]petually mutt]+ "s passage or o!r  
to myself4  ,! writ+s ( ,port-,royal1 & 
^? ( ! ,oratory1 be+ :at ,i mo/ read1 _h
 made me half a ,jans5i/1 &1 not)/&+ all
 my confid5ce1 _! h>% !ology sometimes  
al>m$ me4 ,a dread ( hell1 :i* till !n  
,i _h nev] mu* appreh5d$1 by little &   
little di/urb$ my security1 & _h n      

,madam de ,w>5s tranquilliz$ my s\l1    
w\ld at l5g? h be5 too mu* = me4 ,my    
confessor1 :o 0 h]s likewise1 contribut$
 all 9 8 p[] to keep up my hopes4 ,?is 0
 a ,jesuit1 nam$ ,fa!r ,hemet2 a good & 
wise old man1 ^: memory ,i %all ev] hold
 9 v5]ation4 ,?\gh a ,jesuit1 he _h !   
simplicity ( a *ild1 & 8 mann]s1 less   
relax$ ?an g5tle1 7 precisely :at 0     
necess>y to balance ! melan*oly         
impressions made on me by ,jans5ism4    
,?is good man & 8 companion1 ,fa!r      
,coppi]1 came frequ5tly to visit u at   
,*>mette1 ?\gh ! road 0 v r\gh & t$i\s =
 m5 ( _! age4 ,^! visits 7 v com=table  
to me1 :i* may ! ,almighty return to _! 
s\ls1 = !y 7 s old t ,i _c suppose !m   
yet liv+4 ,i sometimes w5t to see !m at 
,*amb]y1 became acqua9t$ at _! conv5t1 &
 _h free access to ! libr>y4 ,!         
remembrance ( t happy "t is s connect$ )
 ! idea ( ^? ,jesuits1 t ,i love "o on  
acc\nt ( ! o!r1 & ?\gh ,i h ev] ?\ght _!
 doctr9es dang]\s1 c\ld nev] f9d myself 
9 a disposition to hate !m cordially4   

,i %\ld l to "k :e!r !re ev] pass$ su*  
*ildi% notions 9 ! he>ts ( o!r m5 z     
sometimes d 9 m9e4 ,9 ! mid/ ( my       
/udies1 & ( a life z innoc5t z man c\ld 
lead1 not)/&+ e p]suasion to ! contr>y1 
! dread ( hell frequ5tly torm5t$ me4 ,i 
ask$ myself1 ,:at /ate am ,i 98 ,%\ld ,i
 die at ?is in/ant1 mu/ ,i be damn$8    
,accord+ to my ,jans5i/s ! matt] 0      
indubitable1 b accord+ to my consci5ce x
 appe>$ q ! contr>y3 t]rifi$ & float+ 9 
?is cruel unc]ta9ty1 ,i _h rec\rse to ! 
mo/ laughable exp$i5t to resolve my     
d\bts1 = :i* ,i w\ld will+ly %ut up any 
man z a lunatic %\ld ,i see him practise
 ! same folly4 ,"o day1 m$itat+ on ?is  
melan*oly subject1 ,i ex]cis$ myself 9  
?r[+ /ones at ! trunks ( trees1 ) my    
usual dext]ity1 t is to say1 )\t hitt+  
any ( !m4 ,9 ! height ( ?is *>m+        
ex]cise1 x ent]$ my m9d to make a k9d ( 
progno/ic1 t might calm my inquietude2  
,i said1 ,i w ?r[ ?is /one at ! tree    
fac+ me2 if ,i hit my m>k1 ,i w consid] 
x z a sign ( salvation2 if ,i miss1 z a 

tok5 ( damnation4 ,:ile ,i said ?is1 ,i 
?rew ! /one ) a trembl+ h& & beat+ brea/
 b s happily t x /ruck ! body ( ! tree1 
:i* truly 0 n a difficult matt]1 = ,i _h
 tak5 c>e to *oose "o t 0 v l>ge & v ne>
 me4 ,f t mom5t ,i nev] d\bt$ my        
salvation3 ,i "k n on recollect+ ?is    
trait1 :e!r ,i ought to laugh or %udd]  
at myself4 ,ye great g5iuses1 :o surely 
laugh at my folly1 congratulate         
y\rselves on y\r sup]ior wisdom1 b      
insult n my unhapp9ess1 = ,i swe> to y t
 ,i feel x mo/ s5sibly4  ,^! tr\bles1 ^!
 al>ms1 insep>able1 p]haps1 f devotion1 
7 only at int]vals2 9 g5]al1 ,i 0       
tranquil1 & ! impression made on my s\l 
by ! idea ( approa*+ dea?1 0 less t (   
melan*oly ?an a peaceful languor1 :i*   
ev5 _h its pleasures4 ,i h f\nd among my
 old pap]s a k9d ( congratulation &     
exhortation :i* ,i made to myself on dy+
 at an age :5 ,i _h ! c\rage to meet    
dea? ) s]5ity1 )\t hav+ exp]i5c$ any    
great evils1 ei!r ( body or m9d4 ,h[ mu*
 ju/ice 0 !re 9 ! ?\ght6 ,a             

preconception ( :at ,i _h to suff] made 
me fe> to live1 & x seem$ t ,i dread$ ! 
fate :i* mu/ att5d my future days4 ,i h 
nev] be5 s ne> wisdom z dur+ ?is p]iod1 
:5 ,i felt no great remorse = ! pa/1 nor
 torm5t+ fe> = ! future2 ! reign+       
s5tim5t ( my s\l be+ ! enjoym5t ( !     
pres5t4 ,s]i\s p usually possess a      
lively s5suality1 :i* makes !m highly   
enjoy ^? innoc5t pleasures t are all[$  
!m4 ,worldl+s 7,i "k n :y7 impute ?is to
 !m z a crime3 or r1 ,i well "k ! cause 
( ?is imputation1 x is because !y envy  
o!rs ! enjoym5t ( ^? simple & pure      
delights :i* !y h lo/ ! reli% (4 ,i _h  
^! incl9ations1 & f\nd x *>m+ to gratify
 !m 9 security ( consci5ce4 ,my yet     
inexp]i5c$ he>t gave 9 to all ) ! calm  
happ9ess ( a *ild1 or r 7if ,i d>e use !
 expression7 ) ! raptures ( an angel2 = 
9 reality ^! pure delights are z s]5e z 
^? ( p>adise4 ,d9n]s on ! grass at      
,montagnole1 supp]s 9 our arbor1 ga!r+ 9
 ! fruits1 ! v9tage1 a social meet+ )   
our neighbors2 all ^! 7 s _m holidays1 9

 :i* ,madam de ,w>5s took z mu* pleasure
 z myself4 ,solit>y walks af=d$ yet pur]
 pleasure1 because 9 !m our he>ts exp&$ 
) great] fre$om3 "o p>ticul>ly rema9s 9 
my memory2 x 0 on a ,/4 ,l\is' day1 ^:  
"n ,madam de ,w>5s bore3 we set out     
toge!r e>ly & unatt5d$1 aft] hav+ he>d a
 mass at break ( day 9 a *apel adjo9+   
our h\se1 f a ,c>melite1 :o att5d$ = t  
purpose4 ,z ,i propos$ walk+ ov] ! hills
 opposite our dwell+1 :i* we _h n yet   
visit$1 we s5t our provisions on be=e2 !
 excursion be+ to la/ ! :ole day4 ,madam
 de ,w>5s1 ?\gh r corpul5t1 did n walk  
ill1 & we rambl$ f hill to hill & wood  
to wood1 sometimes 9 ! sun1 b (t5] 9 !  
%ade1 re/+ f "t to "t1 & reg>dless h[ ! 
h\rs /ole away2 speak+ ( ourselves1 (   
our union1 ( ! g5tl5ess ( our fate1 &   
(f]+ up pray]s = its duration1 :i* 7    
nev] he>d4 ,ev]y?+ conspir$ to augm5t   
our happ9ess3 x _h ra9$ = sev]al days   
previ\s to ?is1 !re 0 no du/1 ! brooks 7
 full & rapid1 a g5tle breeze agitat$ ! 
leaves1 ! air 0 pure1 ! horizon free f  

cl\ds1 s]5ity reign$ 9 ! sky z 9 our    
he>ts4 ,our d9n] 0 prep>$ at a peasant's
 h\se1 & %>$ ) him & 8 family1 ^:       
b5$ictions we receiv$4 ,^! poor         
,savoy>ds are ! wor?ie/ ( p6 ,aft] d9n] 
we rega9$ ! %ade1 & :ile ,i 0 pick+ up  
bits ( dri$ /icks1 to boil our c(fee1   
,madam de ,w>5s amus$ h]self ) h]baliz+ 
among ! bu%es1 & ) ! fl[]s ,i _h ga!r$ =
 h] 9 my way4 ,%e made me rem>k 9 _!    
con/ruction a ?\s& natural beauties1 :i*
 greatly amus$ me1 & :i* ought to h giv5
 me a ta/e = botany2 b ! "t 0 n yet     
come1 & my att5tion 0 arre/$ by too _m  
o!r /udies4 ,besides ?is1 an idea /ruck 
me1 :i* div]t$ my ?\ghts f fl[]s &      
plants3 ! situation ( my m9d at t mom5t1
 all t we _h said or done t day1 e      
object t _h /ruck me1 br\ght to my      
remembrance ! k9d ( wak+ dream ,i _h at 
,annecy sev5 or eight ye>s be=e1 & :i*  
,i h giv5 an acc\nt ( 9 its place4 ,!   
simil>ity 0 s /rik+ t x affect$ me ev5  
to te>s3 9 a transport ( t5d]ness ,i    
embrac$ ,madam de ,w>5s4 ,my de>e/      

fri5d1 said ,i1 ?is day has long s9ce   
be5 promis$ me3 ,i c see no?+ beyond x3 
my happ9ess1 by y\r means1 is at its    
height2 may x nev] decrease2 may x      
cont9ue z long z ,i am s5sible ( its    
value--!n x c only f9i% ) my life4  ,?us
 happily pass$ my days1 & ! m happily z 
,i p]ceiv$ no?+ t c\ld di/urb or br+ !m 
to a conclusion2 n t ! cause ( my =m]   
uneas9ess _h absolutely ceas$1 b ,i saw 
x take ano!r c\rse1 :i* ,i direct$ ) my 
utmo/ c>e to useful objects1 t ! rem$y  
might accompany ! evil4 ,madam de ,w>5s 
naturally lov$ ! c\ntry1 & ?is ta/e did 
n cool :ile ) me4 ,by little & little %e
 contract$ a fondness = ru/ic           
employm5ts1 wi%$ to make ! mo/ ( h] l&1 
& _h 9 t p>ticul> a k :i* %e practis$ ) 
pleasure4  ,n satisfi$ ) :at belong$ to 
! h\se1 %e hir$ fir/ a field1 !n a      
mead[1 transf]r+ h] ent]pris+ humor to !
 objects ( agriculture1 & in/ead (      
rema9+ unemploy$ 9 ! h\se1 0 9 ! way (  
becom+ a complete f>m]4 ,i 0 n greatly  
pleas$ to see ?is passion increase1 &   

endeavor$ all ,i c\ld to oppose x2 = ,i 
0 c]ta9 %e w\ld be deceiv$1 & t h]      
lib]al extravagant disposition w\ld     
infallibly c>ry h] exp5ses beyond h]    
pr(its2 h[ev]1 ,i consol$ myself by ?9k+
 ! produce c\ld n be useless1 & w\ld at 
lea/ help h] to live4 ,( all ! projects 
%e c\ld =m1 ?is appe>$ ! lea/ ru9\s3 )\t
 reg>d+ x1 !re=e1 9 ! light %e did1 z a 
pr(itable s*eme1 ,i consid]$ x z a      
p]petual employm5t1 :i* w\ld keep h] f m
 ru9\s ent]prises1 & out ( ! rea* (     
impo/ors4 ,) ?is idea1 ,i ard5tly wi%$  
to recov] my heal? & /r5g?1 t ,i might  
sup]9t5d h] affairs1 ov]look h] labor]s1
 or1 r1 be ! pr9cipal "o myself4 ,!     
ex]cise ?is naturally oblig$ me to take1
 ) ! relaxation x procur$ me f books &  
/udy1 0 s]viceable to my heal?4  ,! w9t]
 foll[+1 ,b>illot return+ f ,italy1     
br\ght me "s books2 & among o!rs1 !     
',bontempi' & 'la ,c>tella p] ,musica'1 
( ,fa!r ,ban*i]i2 ^! gave me a ta/e = ! 
hi/ory ( music & = ! !oretical rese>*es 
( t pleas+ art4 ,b>illot rema9$ "s "t ) 

u1 & z ,i _h be5 ( age "s mon?s1 ,i     
det]m9$ to g to ,g5eva ! foll[+ spr+1 & 
dem& my "m's inh]itance1 or at lea/ t "p
 :i* belong$ to me1 till x c\ld be      
asc]ta9$ :at _h become ( my bro!r4 ,?is 
plan 0 execut$ z x _h be5 resolv$3 ,i   
w5t to ,g5eva2 my fa!r met me !re1 = he 
_h occasionally visit$ ,g5eva a long "t 
s9ce1 )\t its be+ p>ticul>ly notic$1    
?\gh ! decree t _h be5 pron\nc$ aga9/   
him _h nev] be5 rev]s$2 b be+ e/eem$ = 8
 c\rage1 & respect$ = 8 probity1 !      
situation ( 8 affairs 0 pret5d$ to be   
=gott52 or p]haps1 ! magi/rates1 employ$
 ) ! great project t broke out "s little
 "t aft]1 7 n will+ to al>m ! citiz5s by
 recall+ to _! memory1 at an improp] "t1
 ?is in/ance ( _! =m] p>tiality4  ,i    
appreh5d$ t ,i %\ld meet ) difficulties1
 on acc\nt ( hav+ *ang$ my religion1 b  
none occurr$2 ! laws ( ,g5eva be+ less  
h>% 9 t p>ticul> ?an ^? ( ,b]ne1 :]e1   
:oev] *anges 8 religion1 n only loses 8 
fre$om1 b 8 prop]ty4 ,my rights1 h[ev]1 
7 n disput$3 b ,i f\nd my patrimony1 ,i 

"k n h[1 r$uc$ to v little1 & ?\gh x 0  
kn[n almo/ to a c]ta9ty t my bro!r 0    
dead1 yet1 z !re 0 no legal pro(1 ,i    
c\ld n lay claim to 8 %>e1 :i* ,i left  
)\t regret to my fa!r1 :o enjoy$ x z    
long z he liv$4 ,no soon] 7 ! necess>y  
=malities adju/$1 & ,i _h receiv$ my    
money1 "s ( :i* ,i exp5d$ 9 books1 ?an  
,i flew ) ! rema9d] to ,madam de ,w>5s2 
my he>t beat ) joy dur+ ! j\rney1 & !   
mom5t 9 :i* ,i gave ! money into h] h&s1
 0 to me a ?\s& times m delightful ?an t
 :i* gave x into m9e4 ,%e receiv$ ?is ) 
a simplicity common to great s\ls1 :o1  
do+ simil> actions )\t ef=t1 see !m )\t 
admiration2 inde$ x 0 almo/ all exp5d$ =
 my use1 = x w\ld h be5 employ$ 9 ! same
 mann] _h x come f any o!r qu>t]4  ,my  
heal? 0 n yet re-e/abli%$2 ,i decay$    
visibly1 0 pale z dea?1 & r$uc$ to an   
absolute skeleton2 ! beat+ ( my art]ies 
0 extreme1 my palpitations 7 frequ5t3 ,i
 0 s5sible ( a cont9ual oppression1 & my
 weakness became at l5g? s great1 t ,i  
c\ld sc>cely move or /ep )\t dang] (    

suffocation1 /oop )\t v]tigoes1 or lift 
ev5 ! smalle/ weight1 :i* r$uc$ me to ! 
mo/ torm5t+ inaction = a man s naturally
 /irr+ z myself4 ,x is c]ta9 my disord] 
0 9 a great measure hypo*ondriacal4 ,!  
vapors is a malady common to p 9 =tunate
 situations3 ! te>s ,i frequ5tly %$1 )\t
 reason2 ! lively al>ms ,i felt on !    
fall+ ( a leaf1 or ! flutt]+ ( a bird2  
inequality ( humor 9 ! calm ( a mo/     
pleas+ life2 lassitude :i* made me we>y 
ev5 ( happ9ess1 & c>ri$ s5sibility to   
extravagance1 7 an in/ance ( ?is4 ,we   
are s little =m$ = felicity1 t :5 ! s\l 
& body d n suff] toge!r1 !y mu/         
necess>ily endure sep>ate inconv5i5ces1 
! good /ate ( ! "o be+ almo/ always     
injuri\s to ! happ9ess ( ! o!r4 ,_h all 
! pleasure ( life c\rt$ me1 my weak5$   
frame w\ld n h p]mitt$ ! enjoym5t ( !m1 
)\t my be+ able to p>ticul>ize ! real   
seat ( my compla9t2 yet 9 ! decl9e (    
life2 aft] hav+ enc\nt]$ v s]i\s & real 
evils1 my body seem$ to rega9 its /r5g?1
 z if on purpose to enc\nt] additional  

mis=tunes2 &1 at ! mom5t ,i write ?is1  
?\gh infirm1 ne> sixty1 & ov]:elm$ ) e  
k9d ( sorr[1 ,i feel m ability to suff] 
?an ,i ev] possess$ = enjoym5t :5 9 ! v 
fl[] ( my age1 & 9 ! bosom ( real       
happ9ess4  ,to complete me1 ,i _h m+l$ a
 little physiology among my o!r read+s3 
,i set ab\t /udy+ anatomy1 & consid]+ ! 
multitude1 movem5t1 & wond]ful          
con/ruction ( ! v>i\s p>ts t compos$ !  
human ma*9e2 my appreh5sions 7 in/antly 
increas$1 ,i expect$ to feel m9e d]ang$ 
tw5ty times a day1 & f> f be+ surpris$  
to f9d myself dy+1 0 a/oni%$ t ,i yet   
exi/$6 ,i c\ld n read ! description (   
any malady )\t ?9k+ x m9e1 &1 _h ,i n   
be5 already indispos$1 ,i am c]ta9 ,i   
%\ld h become s f ?is /udy4 ,f9d+ 9 e   
disease symptoms simil> to m9e1 ,i      
fanci$ ,i _h !m all1 &1 at l5g?1 ga9$ "o
 m tr\blesome ?an any ,i yet suff]$1 :i*
 ,i _h ?\ght myself deliv]$ f2 ?is 01 a 
viol5t incl9ation to seek a cure2 :i* x 
is v difficult to suppress1 :5 once a   
p]son beg9s read+ physical books4 ,by   

se>*+1 reflect+1 & comp>+1 ,i became    
p]suad$ t ! f\ndation ( my compla9t 0 a 
polypus at ! he>t1 & ,doctor ,salomon   
appe>$ to co9cide ) ! idea4 ,reasonably 
?is op9ion %\ld h confirm$ my =m]       
resolution ( consid]+ myself pa/ cure2  
?is1 h[ev]1 0 n ! case2 on ! contr>y2 ,i
 ex]t$ e p[] ( my und]/&+ 9 se>* ( a    
rem$y = a polypus1 resolv+ to und]take  
?is m>vell\s cure4  ,9 a j\rney :i*     
,anet _h made to ,montpeli]1 to see !   
physical g>d5 !re1 & visit ,monsieur    
,sauvages1 ! demon/rator1 he _h be5     
in=m$ t ,monsieur ,fizes _h cur$ a      
polypus simil> to t ,i fanci$ myself    
afflict$ )3 ,madam de ,w>5s1 recollect+ 
?is circum/ance1 m5tion$ x to me1 & no?+
 m 0 necess>y to inspire me ) a desire  
to consult ,monsieur ,fizes4 ,! hope (  
recov]y gave me c\rage & /r5g? to       
und]take ! j\rney2 ! money f ,g5eva     
furni%$ ! means2 ,madam de ,w>5s1 f> f  
dissuad+1 entreat$ me to g3 behold me1  
!re=e1 )\t fur!r c]emony1 set out =     
,montpeli]6--b x 0 n necess>y to g s f> 

to f9d ! cure ,i 0 9 se>* (4  ,f9d+ !   
motion ( ! horse too fatigu+1 ,i _h hir$
 a *aise at ,gr5oble1 & on ent]+        
,moirans1 five or six o!r *aises arriv$ 
9 a rank aft] m9e4 ,! great] "p ( ^! 7 9
 ! tra9 ( a new m>ri$ lady call$ ,madam 
du ,colombi]2 ) h] 0 a ,madam de        
,l>nage1 n s "y or h&some z ! =m]1 yet n
 less amiable4 ,! bride 0 to /op at     
,romans1 b ! o!r lady 0 to pursue h]    
r\te z f> z ,sa9t-,&iol1 ne> ! bridge du
 ,/4 ,esprit4 ,) my natural timidity x w
 n be conjectur$ t ,i 0 v ready at =m+  
an acqua9tance ) ^! f9e ladies1 & !     
company t att5d$ !m2 b travell+ ! same  
road1 lodg+ at ! same inns1 & be+ oblig$
 to eat at ! same table1 ! acqua9tance  
seem$ unavoidable1 z any backw>dness on 
my "p w\ld h got me ! "* ( a v          
unsociable be+3 x 0 =m$ !n1 & ev5 soon] 
?an ,i desir$1 = all ?is bu/le 0 by no  
means conv5i5t to a p]son 9 ill heal?1  
p>ticul>ly to "o ( my humor4 ,curiosity 
r5d]s ^! vix5s extremely ins9uat+2 !y   
accompli% _! design ( becom+ acqua9t$ ) 

a man by endeavor+ to turn 8 bra91 & ?is
 0 precisely :at happ5$ to me4 ,madam du
 ,colombi] 0 too mu* surr\nd$ by h] "y  
gallants to h any opportunity ( pay+ mu*
 att5tion to me2 besides1 x 0 n         
wor?:ile1 z we 7 to sep>ate 9 s %ort a  
"t2 b ,madam de ,l>nage 7less att5d$ to 
?an h] "y fri5d7 _h to provide h]self = 
! rema9d] ( ! j\rney2 behold me1 !n1    
attack$ by ,madam de ,l>nage1 & adieu to
 poor ,jean ,jacques1 or r f>ewell to   
fev]1 vapors1 & polypus2 all completely 
vani%$ :5 9 h] pres5ce4 ,! ill /ate ( my
 heal? 0 ! fir/ subject ( our           
conv]sation2 !y saw ,i 0 indispos$1 knew
 ,i 0 go+ to ,montpeli]1 b my air &     
mann] c]ta9ly did n exhibit ! appe>ance 
( a lib]t9e1 s9ce x 0 cle> by :at foll[$
 !y did n suspect ,i 0 go+ !re = a      
reason t c>ries _m t road4  ,9 ! morn+  
!y s5t to inquire aft] my heal? & invite
 me to take *ocolate ) !m1 & :5 ,i made 
my appe>ance ask$ h[ ,i _h pass$ !      
night4 ,once1 accord+ to my praisewor?y 
cu/om ( speak+ )\t ?\ght1 ,i repli$1 ,i 

did n "k1 :i* answ] naturally made !m   
conclude ,i 0 a fool3 b1 on que/ion+ me 
fur!r2 ! exam9ation turn$ out s f> to my
 advantage1 t ,i r rose 9 _! op9ion1 &  
,i once he>d ,madam du ,colombi] say to 
h] fri5d1 ,he is amiable1 b n           
suffici5tly acqua9t$ ) ! _w4 ,^! words 7
 a great enc\ragem5t1 & assi/$ me 9     
r5d]+ myself agreeable4  ,z we became m 
famili>1 x 0 natural to give ea* o!r "s 
little acc\nt ( :5ce we came & :o we 73 
?is emb>rass$ me greatly1 = ,i 0 s5sible
 t 9 good company & among wom5 ( _s1 ! v
 "n ( a new conv]t w\ld utt]ly undo me4 
,i "k n by :at :imsicality ,i resolv$ to
 pass = an ,engli%man2 h[ev]1 9         
consequ5ce ( t det]m9ation ,i gave      
myself out = a ,jacobite1 & 0 readily   
believ$4 ,!y call$ me ,monsieur ,dudd+1 
:i* 0 ! "n ,i assum$ ) my new "*1 & a   
curs$ ,m>quis ,torignan1 :o 0 "o ( !    
company1 an invalid l myself1 & bo? old 
& ill-temp]$1took x 9 8 head to beg9 a  
long conv]sation ) me4 ,he spoke ( ,k+  
,james1 ( ! ,pret5d]1 & ! old c\rt ( ,/4

 ,g]ma9's2 ,i sat on ?orns ! :ole "t1 = 
,i 0 totally unacqua9t$ ) all ^! except 
:at little ,i _h pick$ up 9 ! acc\nt (  
,e>l ,hamilton1 & f ! gazettes2 h[ev]1  
,i made su* =tunate use ( ! little ,i   
did "k z to extricate myself f ?is      
dilemma1 happy 9 n be+ que/ion$ on !    
,engli% language1 :i* ,i did n "k a s+le
 ^w (4  ,! company 7 all v agreeable2 we
 look$ =w>d to ! mom5t ( sep>ation )    
regret1 & !re=e made snails' j\rneys4   
,we arriv$ "o ,sunday at ,/4 ,m>cele9's2
 ,madam de ,l>nage w\ld g to mass2 ,i   
accompani$ h]1 & _h ne>ly ru9$ all my   
affairs1 = by my mode/ res]v$ c\nt5ance 
dur+ ! s]vice1 %e conclud$ me a bigot1 &
 conceiv$ a v indiff]5t op9ion ( me1 z  
,i le>n$ f h] own acc\nt two days aft]4 
,x requir$ a great deal ( gallantry on  
my "p to efface ?is ill impression1 or r
 ,madam de ,l>nage 7:o 0 n easily       
di%e>t5$7 det]m9$ to risk ! fir/        
advances1 & see h[ ,i %\ld behave4 ,%e  
made sev]al1 b f> f be+ presum+ on my   
figure1 ,i ?\ght %e 0 mak+ sport ( me3  

full ( ?is ridicul\s idea !re 0 no folly
 ,i 0 n guilty (4  ,madam de ,l>nage    
p]si/$ 9 su* c>ess+ behavior1 t a mu*   
wis] man ?an myself c\ld h>dly h tak5 x 
s]i\sly4 ,! m obvi\s h] advances 71 ! m 
,i 0 confirm$ 9 my mi/ake1 & :at        
increas$ my torm5t1 ,i f\nd ,i 0 really 
9 love ) h]4 ,i frequ5tly said to       
myself1 & sometimes to h]1 sigh+1 ,ah6  
:y is n all ?is real8 !n %\ld ,i be !   
mo/ =tunate ( m54 ,i am incl9$ to ?9k my
 /upidity did b increase h] resolution1 
& make h] det]m9$ to get ! bett] ( x4   
,we left ,madam du ,colombi] at ,romans2
 aft] :i* ,madam de ,l>nage1 ! ,m>quis  
de ,torignan1 & myself cont9u$ our r\te 
sl[ly1 & 9 ! mo/ agreeable mann]4 ,!    
m>quis1 ?\gh indispos$1 & r ill-humor$1 
0 an agreeable companion1 b 0 n be/     
pleas$ at see+ ! lady be/[ all h]       
att5tions on me1 :ile he pass$ unreg>d$2
 = ,madam de ,l>nage took s little c>e  
to conceal h] incl9ation1 t he p]ceiv$ x
 soon] ?an ,i did1 & 8 s>casms mu/ h    
giv5 me t confid5ce ,i c\ld n presume to

 take f ! k9dness ( ! lady1 if by a     
surmise1 :i* no "o b myself c\ld h      
blund]$ on1 ,i _h n imag9$ !y p]fectly  
und]/ood ea* o!r1 & 7 agre$ to turn my  
passion into ridicule4 ,?is fooli% idea 
complet$ my /upidity1 mak+ me act ! mo/ 
ridicul\s "p1 :ile1 _h ,i li/5$ to !    
feel+s ( my he>t1 ,i might h be5 p]=m+  
"o f> m brilliant4 ,i am a/oni%$ t      
,madam de ,l>nage 0 n disgu/$ at my     
folly1 & did n disc>d me ) disda92 b %e 
pla9ly p]ceiv$ !re 0 m ba%fulness ?an   
indiff]5ce 9 my composition4  ,we arriv$
 at ,val5ce to d9n]1 & accord+ to our   
usual cu/om pass$ ! rema9d] ( ! day !re4
 ,we lodg$ out ( ! city1 at ! ,/4       
,james1 an inn ,i %all nev] =get4 ,aft] 
d9n]1 ,madam de ,l>nage propos$ a walk2 
%e knew ! m>quis 0 no walk]1            
consequ5tly1 ?is 0 an excell5t plan = a 
tete-a-tete1 :i* %e 0 pr$et]m9$ to make 
! mo/ (4 ,:ile we 7 walk+ r\nd ! city by
 ! side ( ! moats1 ,i ent]$ on a long   
hi/ory ( my compla9t1 to :i* %e answ]$ 9
 s t5d] an acc5t1 frequ5tly press+ my   

arm1 :i* %e held to h] he>t1 t x requir$
 all my /upidity n to be conv9c$ ( !    
s9c]ity ( h] atta*m5t4 ,i h already     
obs]v$ t %e 0 amiable2 love r5d]$ h]    
*>m+1 add+ all ! lovel9ess ( y\?3 & %e  
manag$ h] advances ) s mu* art1 t !y 7  
suffici5t to h s$uc$ ! mo/ ins5sible3 ,i
 01 !re=e1 9 v uneasy circum/ances1 &   
frequ5tly on ! po9t ( mak+ a decl>ation2
 b ! dread ( (f5d+ h]1 & ! /ill great] (
 be+ laugh$ at1 ridicul$1 made          
table-talk1 & complim5t$ on my ent]prise
 by ! satirical m>quis1 _h su*          
unconqu]able p[] ov] me1 t1 ?\gh a%am$ (
 my ridicul\s ba%fulness1 ,i c\ld n take
 c\rage to surm\nt x4 ,i _h end$ !      
hi/ory ( my compla9ts1 :i* ,i felt !    
ridicul\sness ( at ?is "t2 & n kn[+ h[  
to look1 or :at to say1 cont9u$ sil5t1  
giv+ ! f9e/ opportunity 9 ! _w = t      
ridicule ,i s mu* dread$4 ,happily1     
,madam de ,l>nage took a m favorable    
resolution1 & sudd5ly int]rupt$ ?is     
sil5ce by ?r[+ h] arms r\nd my neck1    
:ile1 at ! same in/ant1 h] lips spoke   

too pla9ly on m9e to be any long]       
misund]/ood4 ,?is 0 repos+ t confid5ce 9
 me ! want ( :i* has almo/ always       
prev5t$ me f appe>+ myself3 = once ,i 0 
at ease1 my he>t1 eyes & tongue1 spoke  
freely :at ,i felt2 nev] did ,i make    
bett] rep>ation = my mi/akes1 & if ?is  
little conque/ _h co/ ,madam de ,l>nage 
"s difficulties1 ,i h reason to believe 
%e did n regret !m4  ,0 ,i to live a    
hundr$ ye>s1 ,i %\ld nev] =get ?is *>m+ 
woman4 ,i say *>m+1 = ?\gh nei!r "y nor 
beautiful1 %e 0 nei!r old nor ugly1 hav+
 no?+ 9 h] appe>ance t c\ld prev5t h]   
wit & accompli%m5ts f produc+ all _!    
effects4 ,x 0 possible to see h] )\t    
fall+ 9 love1 b ^? %e favor$ c\ld n fail
 to adore h]2 :i* proves1 9 my op9ion1 t
 %e 0 n g5]ally s prodigal ( h] favors4 
,x is true1 h] incl9ation = me 0 s sudd5
 & lively1 t x sc>ce appe>s excusable2  
?\gh f ! %ort1 b *>m+ int]val ,i pass$ )
 h]1 ,i h reason to ?9k h] he>t 0 m     
influ5c$ ?an h] passions4  ,our good    
intellig5ce did n escape ! p5etration ( 

! m>quis2 n t he discont9u$ 8 usual     
raill]y2 on ! contr>y1 he treat$ me z a 
sigh+1 hopeless swa91 langui%+ "u !     
rigors ( 8 mi/ress2 n a ^w1 smile1 or   
look escap$ him by :i* ,i c\ld imag9e he
 suspect$ my happ9ess2 & ,i %\ld h ?\ght
 him completely deceiv$1 _h n ,madam de 
,l>nage1 :o 0 m cle>-sight$ ?an myself1 
assur$ me ( ! contr>y2 b he 0 a well-br$
 man1 & x 0 impossible to behave ) m    
att5tion or great] civility1 ?an he     
con/antly paid me 7not)/&+ 8 satirical  
sallies71 especially aft] my success1   
:i*1 z he 0 unacqua9t$ ) my /upidity1 he
 p]haps gave me ! honor ( a*iev+4 ,x has
 already be5 se5 t he 0 mi/ak5 9 ?is    
p>ticul>2 b no matt]1 ,i pr(it$ by 8    
error1 = be+ consci\s t ! laugh 0 on my 
side1 ,i took all 8 sallies 9 good "p1 &
 sometimes p>ri$ !m ) tol]able success2 
=1 pr\d ( ! reputation ( wit :i* ,madam 
de ,l>nage _h ?\ght fit to discov] 9 me1
 ,i no long] appe>$ ! same man4  ,we 7  
bo? 9 a c\ntry & season ( pl5ty1 & _h   
ev]y:]e excell5t *e]1 ?anks to ! good   

c>es ( ! m>quis2 ?\gh ,i w\ld will+ly h 
rel9qui%$ ?is advantage to h be5 m      
satisfi$ ) ! situation ( our *amb]s2 b  
he always s5t 8 footman on to provide   
!m2 & :e!r ( 8 own accord1 or by ! ord] 
( 8 ma/]1 ! rogue always took c>e t !   
m>quis' *amb] %\ld be close by ,madam de
 ,l>nage's1 :ile m9e 0 at ! fur!r end ( 
! h\se3 b t made no great diff]5ce1 or  
p]haps x r5d]$ our r5dezv\s ! m *>m+2   
?is happ9ess la/$ f\r or five days1 dur+
 :i* "t ,i 0 intoxicat$ ) delight1 :i*  
,i ta/$ pure & s]5e )\t any alloy2 an   
advantage ,i c\ld nev] boa/ be=e2 &1 ,i 
may add1 x is ow+ to ,madam de ,l>nage t
 ,i did n g out ( ! _w )\t hav+ ta/$    
real pleasure4  ,if ! s5tim5t ,i felt = 
h] 0 n precisely love1 x 0 at lea/ a v  
t5d] return ( :at %e te/ifi$ = me2 our  
meet+s 7 s delightful1 t !y possess$ all
 ! sweets ( love2 )\t t k9d ( delirium  
:i* affects ! bra91 & ev5 t5ds to dim9i%
 our happ9ess4 ,i nev] exp]i5c$ true    
love b once 9 my life1 & t 0 n ) ,madam 
de ,l>nage1 nei!r did ,i feel t         

affection = h] :i* ,i _h be5 s5sible (1 
& yet cont9u$ to possess1 = ,madam de   
,w>5s2 b = ?is v reason1 our            
tete-a-tetes 7 a hundr$ times m         
delightful4 ,:5 ) ,madam de ,w>5s1 my   
felicity 0 always di/urb$ by a secret   
sadness1 a compunction ( he>t1 :i* ,i   
f\nd x impossible to surm\nt4 ,in/ead ( 
be+ delight$ at ! acquisition ( s mu*   
happ9ess1 ,i c\ld n help reproa*+ myself
 = contribut+ to r5d] h] ,i lov$        
unwor?y3 on ! contr>y1 ) ,madam de      
,lamage1 ,i 0 pr\d ( my happ9ess1 & gave
 9 to x )\t repugnance1 :ile my triumph 
r$\bl$ e o!r *>m4  ,i d n recollect     
exactly :]e we quitt$ ! m>quis1 :o      
resid$ 9 ?is c\ntry1 b ,i "k we 7 alone 
on our arrival at ,montelim>1 :]e ,madam
 de ,l>nage made h] *amb]maid get into  
my *aise1 & accommodate me ) a seat 9   
h]s4 ,x w easily be believ$1 t travell+ 
9 ?is mann] 0 by no means displeas+ to  
me1 & t ,i %\ld be v mu* puzzl$ to give 
any acc\nt ( ! c\ntry we pass$ ?r\gh4   
,%e _h "s bus9ess at ,montelim>1 :i*    

deta9$ h] !re two or ?ree days2 dur+ ?is
 "t %e quitt$ me b "o qu>t] ( an h\r1 = 
a visit %e c\ld n avoid1 :i* emb>rass$  
h] ) a numb] ( invitations %e _h no     
incl9ation to accept1 & !re=e excus$    
h]self by plead+ "s indisposition2 ?\gh 
%e took c>e ?is %\ld n prev5t our walk+ 
toge!r e day1 9 ! mo/ *>m+ c\ntry1 & "u 
! f9e/ sky imag9able4 ,oh6 ^! ?ree days6
 :at reason h ,i to regret !m6 ,nev] did
 su* happ9ess return aga94  ,! am\rs ( a
 j\rney _c be v durable3 x 0 necess>y we
 %\ld "p1 & ,i mu/ confess x 0 almo/ "t2
 n t ,i 0 we>y ( my happ9ess1 b ,i might
 z well h be54 ,we endeavor$ to com=t   
ea* o!r = ! pa9 ( p>t+1 by =m+ plans =  
our reunion2 & x 0 conclud$1 t aft] /ay+
 five or six weeks at ,montpeli] 7:i*   
w\ld give ,madam de ,l>nage "t to prep>e
 = my reception 9 su* a mann] z to      
prev5t sc&al7 ,i %\ld return to         
,sa9t-,&iol1 & sp5d ! w9t] "u h]        
direction4 ,%e gave me ample in/ruction 
on :at x 0 necess>y ,i %\ld "k1 on :at x
 w\ld be prop] to say2 & h[ ,i %\ld     

conduct myself4 ,%e spoke mu* & e>ne/ly 
on ! c>e ( my heal?1 conjur$ me to      
consult skilful physicians1 & be        
att5tive & exact 9 foll[+ _!            
prescriptions :atev] !y might happ5 to  
be4 ,i believe h] conc]n 0 s9c]e1 = %e  
lov$ me1 & gave pro(s ( h] affection    
less equivocal ?an ! prodigality ( h]   
favors2 = judg+ by my mode ( travell+1 t
 ,i 0 n 9 v afflu5t circum/ances 7?\gh n
 ri* h]self71 on our p>t+1 %e w\ld h _h 
me %>e ! cont5ts ( h] purse1 :i* %e _h  
br\ght pretty well furni%$ f ,gr5oble1 &
 x 0 ) great difficulty ,i c\ld make h] 
put up ) a d5ial4 ,9 a ^w1 we p>t$2 my  
he>t full ( h] idea1 & leav+ 9 h]s 7if  
,i am n mi/ak57 a firm atta*m5t to me4  
,:ile pursu+ ! rema9d] ( my j\rney1     
remembrance ran ov] ev]y?+ t _h pass$ f 
! comm5cem5t ( x1 & ,i 0 well satisfi$  
at f9d+ myself alone 9 a com=table      
*aise1 :]e ,i c\ld rum9ate at ease on ! 
pleasures ,i _h enjoy$1 & ^? :i* await$ 
my return4 ,i only ?\ght ( ,sa9t-,&iol2 
( ! life ,i 0 to lead !re2 ,i saw no?+ b

 ,madam de ,l>nage1 or :at relat$ to h]2
 ! :ole univ]se besides 0 no?+ to       
me--ev5 ,madam de ,w>5s 0 =gott56--,i   
set ab\t comb9+ all ! details by :i*    
,madam de ,l>nage _h endeavor$ to give  
me 9 advance an idea ( h] h\se1 ( !     
neighborhood1 ( h] connections1 & mann] 
( life1 f9d+ ev]y?+ *>m+4  ,%e _h a     
daught]1 :om %e _h (t5 describ$ 9 !     
w>me/ t]ms ( mat]nal affection3 ?is     
daught] 0 fifte51 lively1 *>m+1 & ( an  
amiable disposition4 ,madam de ,l>nage  
promis$ me h] fri5d%ip2 ,i _h n =gott5 t
 promise1 & 0 curi\s to "k h[           
,mademoiselle de ,l>nage w\ld treat h]  
"m's 'bon ami'4 ,^! 7 ! subjects ( my   
rev]ies f ! bridge ( ,/4 ,esprit to     
,rem\l93 ,i _h be5 advis$ to visit !    
,pont-du-,g>d2 hi!rto ,i _h se5 none ( !
 rema9+ monum5ts ( ,roman magnific5ce1 &
 ,i expect$ to f9d ?is wor?y ! h&s by   
:i* x 0 con/ruct$2 = once1 ! reality    
surpass$ my expectation2 ?is 0 ! only "t
 9 my life x ev] did s1 & ! ,romans     
alone c\ld h produc$ t effect4 ,! view (

 ?is noble & sublime "w1 /ruck me ! m   
=cibly1 f be+ 9 ! mid/ ( a des]t1 :]e   
sil5ce & solitude r5d] ! maje/ic edifice
 m /rik+1 & admiration m lively1 = ?\gh 
call$ a bridge x is no?+ m ?an an       
aqu$uct4 ,"o _c help exclaim+1 :at /r5g?
 c\ld h transport$ ^! enorm\s /ones s f>
 f any qu>ry8 ,& :at motive c\ld h unit$
 ! labors ( s _m millions ( m51 9 a     
place t no "o inhabit$8 ,i rema9$ "h    
:ole h\rs1 9 ! mo/ ravi%+ contemplation1
 & return$ p5sive & ?\ghtful to my inn4 
,?is rev]ie 0 by no means favorable to  
,madam de ,l>nage2 %e _h tak5 c>e to    
=ew>n me aga9/ ! girls ( ,montpeli]1 b n
 aga9/ ! ,pont-du-,g>d--x is impossible 
to provide = e cont+5cy4  ,on my arrival
 at ,nismes1 ,i w5t to see ! amphi!atre1
 :i* is a f> m magnific5t "w ?an ev5 !  
,pont-du-,g>d1 yet x made a mu* less    
impression on me1 p]haps1 because my    
admiration _h be5 already exhau/$ on !  
=m] object2 or t ! situation ( ! latt]1 
9 ! mid/ ( a city1 0 less prop] to      
excite x4 ,?is va/ & sup]b circus is    

surr\nd$ by small dirty h\ses1 :ile yet 
small] & dirti] fill up ! area1 9 su* a 
mann] t ! :ole produces an unequal &    
confus$ effect1 9 :i* regret &          
indignation /ifle pleasure & surprise4  
,! amphi!atre at ,v]ona is a va/ deal   
small]1 & less beautiful ?an t at       
,nismes1 b pres]v$ ) all possible c>e & 
neatness1 by :i* means alone x made a   
mu* /rong] & m agreeable impression on  
me4 ,! ,fr5* pay no reg>d to ^! ?+s1    
respect no monum5t ( antiquity2 ev] eag]
 to und]take1 !y nev] f9i%1 nor pres]ve 
any?+ t is already f9i%$ to _! h&s4  ,i 
0 s mu* bett]1 & _h ga9$ su* an appetite
 by ex]cise1 t ,i /opp$ a :ole day at   
,pont-du-,lunel1 = ! sake ( good        
ent]ta9m5t & company1 ?is be+ des]v$ly  
e/eem$ at t "t ! be/ inn 9 ,europe2 = ^?
 :o kept x1 kn[+ h[ to make its =tunate 
situation turn to advantage1 took c>e to
 provide bo? abundance & v>iety4 ,x 0   
really curi\s to f9d 9 a lonely         
c\ntry-h\se1 a table e day furni%$ ) sea
 & fre%-wat] fi%1 excell5t game1 & *oice

 w9es1 s]v$ up ) all ! att5tion & c>e1  
:i* are only to be expect$ among ! great
 or opul5t1 & all ?is = ?irty five s\s  
ea* p]son3 b ! ,pont-du-,lunel did n    
long rema9 on ?is foot+1 = ! proprietor1
 presum+ too mu* on its reputation1 at  
l5g? lo/ x entirely4  ,dur+ ?is j\rney1 
,i really =got my compla9ts1 b          
recollect$ !m aga9 on my arrival at     
,montpeli]4 ,my vapors 7 absolutely     
gone1 b e o!r compla9t rema9$1 & ?\gh   
cu/om _h r5d]$ !m less tr\blesome1 !y 7 
/ill suffici5t to make any "o :o _h be5 
sudd5ly seiz$ ) !m1 suppose himself     
attack$ by "s mortal disease4 ,9 effect 
!y 7 r al>m+ ?an pa9ful1 & made ! m9d   
suff] m ?an ! body1 ?\gh x app>5tly     
?reat5$ ! latt] ) de/ruction4 ,:ile my  
att5tion 0 call$ (f by ! vivacity ( my  
passions1 ,i paid no att5tion to my     
heal?2 b z my compla9ts 7 n altoge!r    
imag9>y1 ,i ?\ght ( !m s]i\sly :5 !     
tumult _h subsid$4 ,recollect+ ! salut>y
 advice ( ,madam de ,l>nage1 & ! cause (
 my j\rney1 ,i consult$ ! mo/ fam\s     

practition]s1 p>ticul>ly ,monsieur      
,fizes2 & ?r\gh sup]abundance (         
precaution bo>d$ at a doctor's :o 0 an  
,iri%man1 & nam$ ,fitz-,morris4  ,?is   
p]son bo>d$ a numb] ( "y g5tlem5 :o 7   
/udy+ physic2 & :at r5d]$ 8 h\se v      
commodi\s = an invalid1 he cont5t$      
himself ) a mod]ate p5sion = provisions1
 lodg+1 etc41 & took no?+ ( 8 bo>d]s =  
att5dance z a physician4 ,he ev5        
und]took to execute ! ord]s ( ,m4       
,fizes1 & endeavor$ to re-e/abli% my    
heal?4 ,he c]ta9ly acquitt$ himself v   
well 9 ?is employm5t2 z to regim51      
indige/ions 7 n to be ga9$ at 8 table2 &
 ?\gh ,i am n mu* hurt at privations ( t
 k9d1 ! objects ( comp>ison 7 s ne>1 t  
,i c\ld n help ?9k+ ) myself sometimes1 
t ,m4 de ,torignan 0 a mu* bett] provid]
 ?an ,m4 ,fitz-,morris2 not)/&+1 z !re 0
 no dang] ( dy+ ) hung]1 & all ! y\?s 7 
gay & good-humor$1 ,i believe ?is mann] 
( liv+ 0 really s]viceable1 & prev5t$ my
 fall+ into ^? languors ,i _h latt]ly   
be5 s subject to4 ,i pass$ ! morn+ 9    

tak+ m$ic9es1 p>ticul>ly1 ,i "k n :at   
k9d ( wat]s1 b believe !y 7 ^? ( ,vals1 
& 9 writ+ to ,madam de ,l>nage3 = !     
correspond5ce 0 regul>ly kept up1 &     
,r\sseau k9dly und]took to receive ^!   
lett]s = 8 good fri5d ,dudd+4 ,at noon  
,i took a walk to ! ,can\rgue1 ) "s (   
our "y bo>d]s1 :o 7 all v good lads2    
aft] ?is we assembl$ = d9n]2 :5 ?is 0   
ov]1 an affair ( importance employ$ !   
great] "p ( u till night2 ?is 0 go+ a   
little way out ( t[n to take our        
aft]noon's collation1 & make up two or  
?ree p>ties at mall1 or mallet4 ,z ,i _h
 nei!r /r5g? nor skill1 ,i did n play   
myself b ,i bett$ on ! game1 &1 int]e/$ 
= ! success ( my wag]1 foll[$ ! play]s &
 _! balls ov] r\gh & /ony roads1 procur+
 by ?is means bo? an agreeable & salut>y
 ex]cise4 ,we took our aft]noon's       
refre%m5t at an inn out ( ! city4 ,i ne$
 n obs]ve t ^! meet+s 7 extremely m]ry1 
b %\ld n omit t !y 7 equally innoc5t1   
?\gh ! girls ( ! h\se 7 v pretty4 ,m4   
,fitz-,morris 7:o 0 a great mall play]  

himself7 0 our presid5t2 & ,i mu/       
obs]ve1 not)/&+ ! imputation ( wildness 
t is g5]ally be/[$ on /ud5ts1 t ,i f\nd 
m virtu\s dispositions among ^! y\?s ?an
 c\ld easily be f\nd among an equal     
numb] ( m53 !y 7 r noisy ?an fond ( w9e1
 & m m]ry ?an lib]t9e4  ,i accu/om$     
myself s mu* to ?is mode ( life1 & x    
accord$ s entirely ) my humor1 t ,i %\ld
 h be5 v well cont5t ) a cont9uance ( x4
 ,sev]al ( my fell[-bo>d]s 7 ,iri%1 f   
:om ,i endeavor$ to le>n "s ,engli%     
words1 z a precaution = ,sa9t-,&iol4 ,! 
"t n[ drew ne> = my dep>ture2 e lett]   
,madam de ,l>nage wrote1 %e entreat$ me 
n to delay x1 & at l5g? ,i prep>$ to    
obey h]4  ,i 0 conv9c$ t ! physicians   
7:o und]/ood no?+ ( my disord]7 look$ on
 my compla9t z imag9>y1 & treat$ me     
accord+ly1 ) _! wat]s & :ey4 ,9 ?is     
respect physicians & philosoph]s diff]  
widely f !ologians2 admitt+ ! tru? only 
( :at !y c expla91 & mak+ _! k ! measure
 ( possibilities4 ,^! g5tlem5 und]/ood  
no?+ ( my illness1 !re=e conclud$ ,i    

c\ld n be ill2 & :o w\ld presume to d\bt
 ! pr(\nd skill ( a physician8 ,i pla9ly
 saw !y only meant to amuse1 & make me  
swall[ my money2 & judg+ _! sub/itute at
 ,sa9t-,&iol w\ld d me q z mu* s]vice1 &
 be inf9itely m agreeable1 ,i resolv$ to
 give h] ! pref]5ce2 full1 !re=e1 ( ?is 
wise resolution1 ,i quitt$ ,montpeli]4  
,i set (f t[>ds ! end ( ,novemb]1 aft] a
 /ay ( six weeks or two mon?s 9 t city1 
:]e ,i left a doz5 l\is1 )\t ei!r my    
heal? or und]/&+ be+ ! bett] = x1 except
 f a %ort c\rse ( anatomy begun "u ,m4  
,fitz-,morris1 :i* ,i 0 soon oblig$ to  
ab&on1 f ! horrid /5* ( ! bodies he     
dissect$1 :i* ,i f\nd x impossible to   
endure4  ,n ?or\ghly satisfi$ 9 my own  
m9d on ! rectitude ( ?is exp$ition1 z ,i
 advanc$ t[>ds ! ,bridge ( ,/4 ,esprit  
7:i* 0 equally ! road to ,sa9t-,&iol &  
to ,*amb]y7 ,i began to reflect on      
,madam de ,w>5s1 ! remembrance ( ^:     
lett]s1 ?\gh less frequ5t ?an ^? f      
,madam de ,l>nage1 awak5$ 9 my he>t a   
remorse t passion _h /ifl$ 9 ! fir/ "p (

 my j\rney1 b :i* became s lively on my 
return1 t1 sett+ j e/imate on ! love (  
pleasure1 ,i f\nd myself 9 su* a        
situation ( m9d t ,i c\ld li/5 :olly to 
! voice ( reason4 ,besides1 9 cont9u+ to
 act ! "p ( an adv5tur]1 ,i might be    
less =tunate ?an ,i _h be5 9 ! beg9n+2 =
 x 0 only necess>y t 9 all ,sa9t-,&iol  
!re %\ld be "o p]son :o _h be5 9 ,engl&1
 or :o knew ! ,engli% or any?+ ( _!     
language1 to prove me an impo/or4 ,!    
family ( ,madam de ,l>nage might n be   
pleas$ ) me1 & w\ld1 p]haps1 treat me   
unpolitely2 h] daught] too made me      
uneasy1 =1 spite ( myself1 ,i ?\ght m ( 
h] ?an 0 necess>y4 ,i trembl$ le/ ,i    
%\ld fall 9 love ) ?is girl1 & t v fe>  
_h already half done ! bus9ess4 ,0 ,i   
go+1 9 return = ! "m's k9dness1 to seek 
! ru9 ( ! daught]8 ,to s[ diss5sion1    
di%onor1 sc&al1 & hell itself1 9 h]     
family8 ,! v idea /ruck me ) horror1 &  
,i took ! firme/ resolution to combat & 
vanqui% ?is unhappy atta*m5t1 %\ld ,i be
 s un=tunate z to exp]i5ce x4 ,b :y     

expose myself to ?is dang]8 ,h[ mis]able
 mu/ ! situation be to live ) ! "m1 :om 
,i %\ld be we>y (1 & sigh = ! daught]1  
)\t d>+ to make kn[n my affection6 ,:at 
necessity 0 !re to seek ?is situation1 &
 expose myself to mis=tunes1 affronts & 
remorse1 = ! sake ( pleasures ^: greate/
 *>m 0 already exhau/$8 ,= ,i 0 s5sible 
?is atta*m5t _h lo/ its fir/ vivacity4  
,) ^! ?\ghts 7 m+l$ reflections relative
 to my situation & duty to t good &     
g5]\s fri5d1 :o already load$ ) debts1  
w\ld become m s f ! fooli% exp5ses ,i 0 
runn+ into1 & :om ,i 0 deceiv+ s        
unwor?ily4 ,?is reproa* at l5g? became s
 ke5 t x triumph$ ov] e temptation1 & on
 approa*+ ! bridge ( ,/4 ,esprit ,i =m$ 
! resolution to burn my :ole magaz9e (  
lett]s f ,sa9t-,&iol1 & cont9ue my      
j\rney "r =w>d to ,*amb]y4  ,i execut$  
?is resolution c\rage\sly1 ) "s sighs ,i
 confess1 b ) ! he>t-felt satisfaction1 
:i* ,i enjoy$ = ! fir/ "t 9 my life1 (  
say+1 ,i m]it my own e/eem1 & "k h[ to  
pref] duty to pleasure4 ,?is 0 ! fir/   

real obligation ,i ow$ my books1 s9ce ^!
 _h taught me to reflect & comp>e4 ,aft]
 ! virtu\s pr9ciples ,i _h s lately     
adopt$1 aft] all ! rules ( wisdom &     
honor ,i _h propos$ to myself1 & felt s 
pr\d to foll[1 ! %ame ( possess+ s      
little /ability1 & contradict+ s        
egregi\sly my own maxims1 triumph$ ov] !
 allurem5ts ( pleasure4 ,p]haps1 aft]   
all1 pride _h z mu* %>e 9 my resolution 
z virtue2 b if ?is pride is n virtue    
itself1 its effects are s simil> t we   
are p>donable 9 deceiv+ ourselves4  ,"o 
advantage result+ f good actions is t !y
 elevate ! s\l to a disposition (       
attempt+ /ill bett]2 = su* is human     
weakness1 t we mu/ place among our good 
de$s an ab/95ce f ^? crimes we are      
tempt$ to commit4 ,no soon] 0 my        
resolution confirm$ ?an ,i became ano!r 
man1 or r1 ,i became :at ,i 0 be=e ,i _h
 err$1 & saw 9 its true colors :at !    
intoxication ( ! mom5t _h ei!r conceal$ 
or disguis$4 ,full ( wor?y s5tim5ts &   
wise resolutions1 ,i cont9u$ my j\rney1 

int5d+ to regulate my future conduct by 
! laws ( virtue1 & d$icate myself )\t   
res]ve to t be/ ( fri5ds1 to :om ,i v[$ 
z mu* fidelity 9 future z ,i felt real  
atta*m5t4 ,! s9c]ity ( ?is return to    
virtue appe>$ to promise a bett] de/9y2 
b m9e1 alas6 0 fix$1 & already begun3   
ev5 at ! v mom5t :5 my he>t1 full ( good
 & virtu\s s5tim5ts1 0 contemplat+ only 
innoc5ce & happ9ess ?r\gh life1 ,i t\*$ 
on ! fatal p]iod t 0 to draw aft] x !   
long *a9 ( my mis=tunes6  ,my impati5ce 
to arrive at ,*amb]y _h made me use m   
dilig5ce ?an ,i meant to d4 ,i _h s5t a 
lett] f ,val5ce1 m5tion+ ! day & h\r ,i 
%\ld arrive1 b ,i _h ga9$ half a day on 
?is calculation1 :i* "t ,i pass$ at     
,*ap>illan1 t ,i might arrive exactly at
 ! "t ,i m5tion$4 ,i wi%$ to enjoy to   
its full ext5t ! pleasure ( see+ h]1 &  
pref]r$ def]r+ ?is happ9ess a little1 t 
expectancy might increase ! value ( x4  
,?is precaution _h always succe$$2      
hi!rto my arrival _h caus$ a little     
holiday2 ,i expect$ no less ?is "t1 & ^!

 prep>ations1 s de> to me1 w\ld h be5   
well wor? ! tr\ble ( contriv+ !m4  ,i   
arriv$ !n exactly at ! h\r1 & :ile at a 
consid]able di/ance1 look$ =w>d ) an    
expectancy ( see+ h] on ! road to meet  
me4 ,! beat+ ( my he>t increas$ z ,i    
drew ne> ! h\se2 at l5g? ,i arriv$1 q   
out ( brea?2 = ,i _h left my *aise 9 !  
t[n4 ,i see no "o 9 ! g>d51 at ! door1  
or at ! w9d[s2 ,i am seiz$ ) t]ror1     
fe>ful t "s accid5t has happ5$4 ,i ent]2
 all is quiet2 ! labor]s are eat+ _!    
lun*eon 9 ! kit*51 & f> f obs]v+ any    
prep>ation1 ! s]vants seem surpris$ to  
see me1 n kn[+ ,i 0 expect$4 ,i g       
up-/airs1 at l5g? see h]6--t de> fri5d6 
s t5d]ly1 truly1 & entirely belov$4 ,i  
in/antly ran t[>ds h]1 & ?rew myself at 
h] feet4 ,ah6 *ild6 said %e1 art ?\     
return$ !n6 embrac+ me at ! same "t4 ,h 
y _h a good j\rney8 ,h[ d y d8 ,?is     
reception amus$ me = "s mom5ts4 ,i !n   
ask$1 :e!r %e _h receiv$ my lett]8 %e   
answ]$ ,yes4--,i %\ld h ?\ght n1 repli$ 
,i2 & ! in=mation conclud$ !re4 ,a "y   

man 0 ) h] at ?is "t4 ,i recollect$ hav+
 se5 him 9 ! h\se be=e my dep>ture1 b at
 pres5t he seem$ e/abli%$ !re2 9 %ort1  
he 0 s2 ,i f\nd my place already        
suppli$6  ,?is "y man came f ! c\ntry ( 
,vaud2 8 fa!r1 nam$ ,v9tz5ri$1 0 keep] (
 ! prison1 or1 z he express$ himself1   
,capta9 ( ! ,ca/le ( ,*illon4 ,?is son (
 ! capta9 0 a j\rneyman p]uke-mak]1 &   
ga9$ 8 liv+ 9 t capacity :5 he fir/     
pres5t$ himself to ,madam de ,w>5s1 :o  
receiv$ him k9dly1 z %e did all com]s1  
p>ticul>ly ^? f h] own c\ntry4 ,he 0 a  
tall1 fair1 silly y\?2 well en\gh made1 
) an unmean+ face1 & a m9d ( ! same     
description1 speak+ always l ! beau 9 a 
com$y1 & m+l+ ! mann]s & cu/oms ( 8 =m] 
situation ) a long hi/ory ( 8 gallantry 
& success2 nam+1 accord+ to 8 acc\nt1 n 
above half ! m>*ionesses :o _h favor$   
him & pret5d+ nev] to h dress$ ! head ( 
a pretty woman1 )\t hav+ likewise       
decorat$ h] husb&'s2 va91 fooli%1       
ignorant & insol5t2 su* 0 ! wor?y       
sub/itute tak5 9 my abs5ce1 & !         

companion (f]$ me on my return6  ,o6 if 
s\ls dis5gag$ f _! t]re/rial bonds1 yet 
view f ! bosom ( et]nal light :at passes
 "h bel[1 p>don1 de> & respectable %ade1
 t ,i %[ no m favor to y\r fail+s ?an my
 own1 b equally unveil bo?4 ,i ought & w
 be j to y z to myself2 b h[ mu* less w 
y lose by ?is resolution ?an ,i %all6   
,h[ mu* d y\r amiable & g5tle           
disposition1 y\r inexhau/ible goodness (
 he>t1 y\r frankness & o!r amiable      
virtues1 comp5sate = y\r foibles1 if a  
subv]sion ( reason alone c be call$ su*4
 ,y _h errors1 b n vices2 y\r conduct 0 
repreh5sible1 b y\r he>t 0 ev] pure4  ,!
 new-com] _h %[n himself zeal\s & exact 
9 all h] little commissions1 :i* 7 ev]  
num]\s1 & he dilig5tly ov]look$ !       
labor]s4 ,z noisy & insol5t z ,i 0 quiet
 & =be>+1 he 0 se5 or r he>d at ! pl\gh1
 9 ! hay-l(t1 wood-h\se1 /able1 f>m-y>d1
 at ! same in/ant4 ,he neglect$ ! g>d5+1
 ?is labor be+ too peaceful & mod]ate2 8
 *ief pleasure 0 to load or drive ! c>t1
 to saw or cleave wood2 he 0 nev] se5   

)\t a hat*et or pick-axe 9 8 h&1 runn+1 
knock+ & halloo+ ) all 8 might4 ,i "k n 
h[ _m m5's labor he p]=m$1 b he c]ta9ly 
made noise en\gh = t5 or a doz5 at lea/4
 ,all ?is bu/le impos$ on poor ,madam de
 ,w>5s2 %e ?\ght ?is "y man a treasure1 
&1 will+ to atta* him to h]self1 employ$
 ! means %e imag9$ necess>y = t purpose1
 n =gett+ :at %e mo/ dep5d$ on1 !       
surr5d] ( h] p]son4  ,^? :o h ?us f>    
read ?is "w %\ld be able to =m "s       
judgm5t ( my he>t2 its s5tim5ts 7 ! mo/ 
con/ant & s9c]e1 p>ticul>ly ^? :i* _h   
br\ght me back to ,*amb]y2 :at a sudd5 &
 complete ov]?r[ 0 ?is to my :ole be+6 b
 to judge fully ( ?is1 ! read] mu/ place
 himself = a mom5t 9 my situation4 ,i   
saw all ! future felicity ,i _h promis$ 
myself vani% 9 a mom5t2 all ! *>m+ ideas
 ,i _h indulg$ s affectionately1        
disappe> entirely2 & ,i1 :o ev5 f       
*ildhood _h n be5 able to consid] my    
exi/5ce = a mom5t z sep>ate f h]s1 = !  
fir/ "t saw myself utt]ly alone4 ,?is   
mom5t 0 dreadful1 & ^? t succe$$ x 7 ev]

 gloomy4 ,i 0 yet "y1 b ! pleas+        
s5tim5ts ( enjoym5t & hope1 :i* enliv5  
y\?1 7 ext+ui%$4 ,f t h\r my exi/5ce    
seem$ half annihilat$4 ,i contemplat$ 9 
advance ! melan*oly rema9s ( an insipid 
life1 & if at any "t an image ( happ9ess
 glanc$ ?r\gh my m9d1 x 0 n t :i* appe>$
 natural to me1 & ,i felt t ev5 %\ld ,i 
obta9 x ,i mu/ /ill be wret*$4  ,i 0 s  
dull ( appreh5sion1 & my confid5ce 9 h] 
0 s great1 t1 not)/&+ ! famili> tone ( !
 new-com]1 :i* ,i look$ on z an effect (
 ! easy disposition ( ,madam de ,w>5s1  
:i* r5d]$ h] free ) ev]yone1 ,i nev]    
%\ld h suspect$ 8 real situation _h n %e
 h]self in=m$ me ( x2 b %e ha/5$ to make
 ?is av[al ) a fre$om calculat$ to      
inflame me ) res5tm5t1 c\ld my he>t h   
turn$ to t po9t4 ,speak+ ( ?is          
connection z q immat]ial ) respect to   
h]self1 %e reproa*$ me ) neglig5ce 9 !  
c>e ( ! family1 & m5tion$ my frequ5t    
abs5ce1 z ?\gh %e _h be5 9 ha/e to      
supply my place4 ,ah6 said ,i1 my he>t  
bur/+ ) ! mo/ poignant grief1 :at d y   

d>e to in=m me (8 ,is ?is ! rew>d ( an  
atta*m5t l m9e8 ,h y s _m times pres]v$ 
my life1 = ! sole purpose ( tak+ f me   
all t c\ld r5d] x desirable8 ,y\r       
infidelity w br+ me to ! grave1 b y w   
regret my loss6 ,%e answ]$ ) a          
tranquillity suffici5t to di/ract me1 t 
,i talk$ l a *ild2 t p did n die f su*  
slight causes2 t our fri5d%ip ne$ be no 
less s9c]e1 nor we any less intimate1 = 
t h] t5d] atta*m5t to me c\ld nei!r     
dim9i% nor end b ) h]self2 9 a ^w %e    
gave me to und]/& t my happ9ess ne$ n   
suff] any decrease f ! good =tune ( ?is 
new favorite4  ,nev] did ! purity1 tru? 
& =ce ( my atta*m5t to h] appe> m       
evid5t2 nev] did ,i feel ! s9c]ity &    
hone/y ( my s\l m =cibly1 ?an at t      
mom5t4 ,i ?rew myself at h] feet1       
embrac+ h] knees ) torr5ts ( te>s4 ,no1 
madam1 repli$ ,i1 ) ! mo/ viol5t        
agitation1 ,i love y too mu* to disgrace
 y ?us f>1 & too truly to %>e y2 !      
regret t accompani$ ! fir/ acquisition (
 y\r favors has cont9u$ to increase ) my

 affection4 ,i _c pres]ve !m by s viol5t
 an augm5tation ( x4 ,y %all ev] h my   
adoration3 be wor?y ( x2 to me t is m   
necess>y ?an all y c be/[4 ,x is to y1  
,o my de>e/ fri5d6 t ,i resign my       
rights2 x is to ! union ( our he>ts t ,i
 sacrifice my pleasure2 r w\ld ,i p]i% a
 ?\s& times ?an ?us degrade h] ,i love4 
,i pres]v$ ?is resolution ) a con/ancy  
wor?y1 ,i may say1 ( ! s5tim5t t gave x 
bir?4 ,f ?is mom5t ,i saw ?is belov$    
woman b ) ! eyes ( a real son4 ,x %\ld  
be rem>k$ "h1 t ?is resolve did n meet  
h] private approbation1 z ,i too well   
p]ceiv$2 yet %e nev] employ$ ! lea/ art 
to make me r5\nce x ei!r by ins9uat+    
proposals1 c>esses1 or any ( ^? means   
:i* wom5 s well "k h[ to employ )\t     
expos+ !mselves to viol5t c5sure1 & :i* 
seldom fail to succe$4 ,r$uc$ to seek a 
fate indep5d5t ( h]s1 & n able to devise
 "o1 ,i pass$ to ! o!r extreme1 plac+ my
 happ9ess s absolutely 9 h]1 t ,i became
 almo/ reg>dless ( myself4 ,! ard5t     
desire to see h] happy1 at any rate1    

absorb$ all my affections2 x 0 9 va9 %e 
endeavor$ to sep>ate h] felicity f m9e1 
,i felt ,i _h a "p 9 x1 spite ( e       
imp$im5t4  ,?us ^? virtues ^: se$s 9 my 
he>t begun to spr+ up ) my mis=tunes3 !y
 _h be5 cultivat$ by /udy1 & only wait$ 
! f]m5tation ( adv]sity to become       
prolific4 ,! fir/-fruit ( ?is dis9t]e/$ 
disposition 0 to put f my he>t e s5tim5t
 ( hatr$ & envy aga9/ him :o _h         
supplant$ me4 ,i ev5 s9c]ely wi%$ to    
atta* myself to ?is "y man2 to =m &     
educate him2 to make him s5sible ( 8    
happ9ess1 &1 if possible1 r5d] him wor?y
 ( x2 9 a ^w1 to d = him :at ,anet _h   
=m]ly done = me4 ,b ! simil>ity (       
dispositions 0 want+4 ,m ins9uat+ &     
enlight5$ ?an ,anet1 ,i possess$ nei!r 8
 coolness1 =titude1 nor comm&+ /r5g? (  
"*1 :i* ,i mu/ h _h 9 ord] to succe$4   
,nei!r did ! "y man possess ^? qualities
 :i* ,anet f\nd 9 me2 su* z g5tl5ess1   
gratitude1 & above all1 ! k ( a want ( 8
 in/ructions1 & an ard5t desire to r5d] 
!m useful4 ,all ^! 7 want+2 ! p]son ,i  

wi%$ to improve1 saw 9 me no?+ b an     
importunate1 *att]+ p$ant3 :ile on !    
contr>y he admir$ 8 own importance 9 !  
h\se1 measur+ ! s]vices he ?\ght he     
r5d]$ by ! noise he made1 & look+ on 8  
saws1 hat*ets1 & pick-axes1 z inf9itely 
m useful ?an all my old books3 &1       
p]haps1 9 ?is p>ticul>1 he might n be   
altoge!r blamable2 b he gave himself a  
numb] ( airs suffici5t to make anyone   
die ) laught]4 ,) ! peasants he assum$ !
 airs ( a c\ntry g5tleman2 pres5tly he  
did z mu* ) me1 & at l5g? ) ,madam de   
,w>5s h]self4 ,8 "n1 ,v9tz5ri$1 did n   
appe> noble en\gh1 he !re=e *ang$ x to t
 ( ,monsieur de ,c\rtilles1 & by ! latt]
 appellation he 0 kn[n at ,*amb]y1 & 9  
,mauri5ne1 :]e he m>ri$4  ,at l5g? ?is  
illu/ri\s p]sonage gave himself su* airs
 ( consequ5ce1 t he 0 ev]y?+ 9 ! h\se1 &
 myself no?+4 ,:5 ,i _h ! mis=tune to   
displease him1 he scold$ ,madam de      
,w>5s1 & a fe> ( expos+ h] to 8         
brutality r5d]$ me subs]vi5t to all 8   
:ims1 s t e "t he cleav$ wood 7an (fice 

:i* he p]=m$ ) s+ul> pride7 x 0 necess>y
 ,i %\ld be an idle spectator & admir] (
 8 pr[ess4 ,?is lad 0 n1 h[ev]1 ( a bad 
disposition2 he lov$ ,madam de ,w>5s1   
inde$ x 0 impossible to d o!rwise2 nor  
_h he any av]sion ev5 to me1 & :5 he    
happ5$ to be out ( 8 airs w\ld li/5 to  
our admonitions1 & frankly own he 0 a   
fool2 yet not)/&+ ^! ackn[l$gem5ts 8    
follies cont9u$ 9 ! same proportion4 ,8 
k 0 s contract$1 & 8 incl9ations s mean1
 t x 0 useless to reason1 & almo/       
impossible to be pleas$ ) him4 ,n cont5t
 ) a mo/ *>m+ woman1 he amus$ himself ) 
an old r$-hair$1 too?less wait+-maid1 ^:
 unwelcome s]vice ,madam de ,w>5s _h !  
pati5ce to endure1 ?\gh x 0 absolutely  
disgu/+4 ,i soon p]ceiv$ ?is new        
incl9ation1 & 0 exasp]at$ at x2 b ,i saw
 some?+ else1 :i* affect$ me yet m1 &   
made a deep] impression on me ?an any?+ 
_h hi!rto done2 ?is 0 a visible coldness
 9 ! behavior ( ,madam de ,w>5s t[>ds   
me4  ,! privation ,i _h impos$ on       
myself1 & :i* %e affect$ to approve1 is 

"o ( ^? affronts :i* wom5 sc>cely ev]   
=give4 ,take ! mo/ s5sible1 ! mo/       
philosophic female1 "o ! lea/ atta*$ to 
pleasure1 & slight+ h] favors1 if )9 y\r
 rea*1 w be f\nd ! mo/ unp>donable      
crime1 ev5 ?\gh %e may c>e no?+ = ! man4
 ,?is rule is c]ta9ly )\t exception2    
s9ce a sympa?y s natural & ard5t 0      
impair$ 9 h]1 by an ab/95ce f\nd$ only  
on virtue1 atta*m5t & e/eem1 ,i no long]
 f\nd ) h] t union ( he>ts :i* con/itut$
 all ! happ9ess ( m9e2 %e seldom s\ght  
me b :5 we _h occasion to compla9 ( ?is 
new-com]1 = :5 !y 7 agre$1 ,i enjoy$ b  
little ( h] confid5ce1 &1 at l5g?1 0    
sc>cely ev] consult$ 9 h] affairs4 ,%e  
seem$ pleas$1 inde$1 ) my company1 b _h 
,i pass$ :ole days )\t see+ h] %e w\ld  
h>dly h miss$ me4  ,ins5sibly1 ,i f\nd  
myself desolate & alone 9 t h\se :]e ,i 
_h =m]ly be5 ! v s\l2 :]e1 if ,i may s  
express myself1 ,i _h enjoy$ a d\ble    
life1 & by degrees1 ,i accu/om$ myself  
to disreg>d ev]y?+ t pass$1 & ev5 ^? :o 
dwelt !re4 ,to avoid cont9ual           

mortifications1 ,i %ut myself up ) my   
books1 or else wept & sigh$ unnotic$ 9 !
 woods4 ,?is life soon became           
insupportable2 ,i felt t ! pres5ce ( a  
woman s de> to me1 :ile e/rang$ f h]    
he>t1 increas$ my unhapp9ess1 & 0       
p]suad$1 t1 ceas+ to see h]1 ,i %\ld    
feel myself less cruelly sep>at$4  ,i   
resolv$1 !re=e1 to quit ! h\se1 m5tion$ 
x to h]1 & %e1 f> f oppos+ my           
resolution1 approv$ x4 ,%e _h an        
acqua9tance at ,gr5oble1 call$ ,madam de
 ,deyb5s1 ^: husb& 0 on t]ms ( fri5d%ip 
) ,monsieur ,malby1 *ief ,provo/ (      
,lyons4 ,m4 ,deyb5s propos$ my educat+  
,m4 ,malby's *ildr52 ,i accept$ ?is (f]1
 & dep>t$ = ,lyons )\t caus+1 & almo/   
)\t feel+1 ! lea/ regret at a sep>ation1
 ! b>e idea ( :i*1 a few mon?s be=e1    
w\ld h giv5 u bo? ! mo/ excruciat+      
torm5ts4  ,i _h almo/ z mu* k z 0       
necess>y = a tutor1 & flatt]$ myself t  
my me?od w\ld be unexceptionable2 b !   
ye> ,i pass$ at ,m4 ,malby's 0 suffici5t
 to undeceive me 9 t p>ticul>4 ,!       

natural g5tl5ess ( my disposition seem$ 
calculat$ = ! employm5t1 if ha/9ess _h n
 be5 m+l$ ) x4 ,:ile ?+s w5t favorably1 
& ,i saw ! pa9s 7:i* ,i did n sp>e7     
succe$1 ,i 0 an angel2 b a devil :5 !y  
w5t contr>y4 ,if my pupils did n und]/& 
me1 ,i 0 ha/y1 & :5 !y %[$ any symptoms 
( an unt[>d disposition1 ,i 0 s provok$ 
t ,i c\ld h kill$ !m2 :i* behavior 0 n  
likely to r5d] !m ei!r good or wise4 ,i 
_h two "u my c>e1 & !y 7 ( v diff]5t    
temp]s4 ,/4 ,m>ie1 :o 0 betwe5 eight &  
n9e ye>s old1 _h a good p]son & quick   
appreh5sion1 0 giddy1 lively1 playful & 
mis*iev\s2 b 8 mis*ief 0 ev]            
good-humor$4 ,! y\ng] "o1 nam$          
,condillac1 appe>$ /upid & fretful1 0   
head/rong z a mule1 & seem$ incapable ( 
in/ruction4 ,x may be suppos$ t betwe5  
bo? ,i did n want employm5t1 yet )      
pati5ce & temp] ,i might h succe$$2 b   
want+ bo?1 ,i did no?+ wor? m5tion+1 &  
my pupils pr(it$ v little4 ,i c\ld only 
make use ( ?ree means1 :i* are v weak1 &
 (t5 p]nici\s ) *ildr52 namely1 s5tim5t1

 reason+1 passion4 ,i sometimes ex]t$   
myself s mu* ) ,/4 ,m>ie1 t ,i c\ld n   
refra9 f te>s1 & wi%$ to excite simil>  
s5sations 9 him2 z if x 0 reasonable to 
suppose a *ild c\ld be susceptible to   
su* emotions4 ,sometimes ,i exhau/$     
myself 9 reason+1 z if p]suad$ he c\ld  
compreh5d me2 & z he frequ5tly =m$ v    
subtle argum5ts1 conclud$ he mu/ be     
reasonable1 because he bid fair to be s 
good a logician4  ,! little ,condillac 0
 /ill m emb>rass+2 = he nei!r und]/ood1 
answ]$1 nor 0 conc]n$ at any?+2 he 0 (  
an ob/9acy beyond belief1 & 0 nev]      
happi] ?an :5 he _h succe$$ 9 putt+ me 9
 a rage2 !n1 inde$1 he 0 ! philosoph]1 &
 ,i ! *ild4 ,i 0 consci\s ( all my      
faults1 /udi$ ! temp]s ( my pupils1 &   
became acqua9t$ ) !m2 b :]e 0 ! use (   
see+ ! evil1 )\t be+ able to apply a    
rem$y8 ,my p5etration 0 unavail+1 s9ce x
 nev] prev5t$ any mis*ief2 & ev]y?+ ,i  
und]took fail$1 because all ,i did to   
effect my designs 0 precisely :at ,i    
ought n to h done4  ,i 0 n m =tunate 9  

:at _h only ref]5ce to myself1 ?an 9 :at
 conc]n$ my pupils4 ,madam ,deyb5s1 9   
recomm5d+ me to h] fri5d ,madam de      
,malby1 _h reque/$ h] to =m my mann]s1 &
 endeavor to give me an air ( ! _w4 ,%e 
took "s pa9s on ?is acc\nt1 wi%+ to tea*
 me h[ to d ! honors ( ! h\se2 b ,i 0 s 
awkw>d1 ba%ful1 & /upid1 t %e f\nd x    
necess>y to /op !re4 ,?is1 h[ev]1 did n 
prev5t me f fall+ 9 love ) h]1 accord+  
to my usual cu/om2 ,i ev5 behav$ 9 su* a
 mann]1 t %e c\ld n avoid obs]v+ x2 b ,i
 nev] dur/ decl>e my passion2 & z ! lady
 nev] seem$ 9 a humor to make advances1 
,i soon became we>y ( my sighs & ogl+1  
be+ conv9c$ !y answ]$ no mann] (        
purpose4  ,i _h q lo/ my incl9ation =   
little ?iev]ies :ile ) ,madam de ,w>5s2 
inde$1 z ev]y?+ belong$ to me1 !re 0    
no?+ to /eal2 besides1 ! elevat$ notions
 ,i _h imbib$ ought to h r5d]$ me 9     
future above su* meanness1 & g5]ally    
speak+ !y c]ta9ly did s2 b ?is r proce$$
 f my hav+ le>n$ to conqu] temptations1 
?an hav+ succe$$ 9 root+ out !          

prop5sity1 & ,i %\ld ev5 n[ greatly     
dread /eal+1 z 9 my infancy1 7 ,i yet   
subject to ! same incl9ations4 ,i _h a  
pro( ( ?is at ,m4 ,malby's1 :51 ?\gh    
surr\nd$ by a numb] ( little ?+s t ,i   
c\ld easily h pilf]$1 & :i* appe>$ no   
temptation1 ,i took x into my head to   
cov]t "s :ite ,arbois w9e1 "s glasses ( 
:i* ,i _h drank at table1 & ?\ght       
delici\s4 ,x happ5$ to be r ?ick1 & z ,i
 fanci$ myself an excell5t f9] ( w9e1 ,i
 m5tion$ my skill1 & ?is 0 accord+ly    
tru/$ to my c>e1 b 9 attempt+ to m5d1 ,i
 spoil$ x1 ?\gh to ! sight only1 = x    
rema9$ equally agreeable to ! ta/e4     
,pr(it+ by ?is opportunity1 ,i furni%$  
myself f "t to "t ) a few bottles to    
dr9k 9 my own ap>tm5t2 b unluckily1 ,i  
c\ld nev] dr9k )\t eat+2 ! difficulty   
lay !re=e1 9 procur+ bread4 ,x 0        
impossible to make a res]ve ( ?is       
article1 & to h x br\ght by ! footman 0 
discov]+ myself1 & insult+ ! ma/] ( !   
h\se2 ,i c\ld n be> to pur*ase x myself2
 h[ c\ld a f9e g5tleman1 ) a sword at 8 

side1 ent] a bak]'s %op to buy a small  
loaf ( bread8 x 0 utt]ly impossible4 ,at
 l5g? ,i recollect$ ! ?\ghtless say+ ( a
 great pr9cess1 :o1 on be+ in=m$ t !    
c\ntry p _h no bread1 repli$1 ,!n let !m
 eat pa/ry6 ,yet ev5 ?is res\rce 0      
att5d$ ) a difficulty4 ,i sometimes w5t 
out alone = ?is v purpose1 runn+ ov] !  
:ole city1 & pass+ ?irty pa/ry cook's   
%ops1 )\t d>+ to ent] any "o ( !m4 ,9 ! 
fir/ place1 x 0 necess>y !re %\ld be    
only "o p]son 9 ! %op1 & t p]son's      
physiognomy mu/ be s enc\rag+ z to give 
me confid5ce to pass ! ?re%old2 b :5    
once ! de> little cake 0 procur$1 & ,i  
%ut up 9 my *amb] ) t & a bottle ( w9e1 
tak5 cauti\sly f ! bottom ( a cupbo>d1  
h[ mu* did ,i enjoy dr9k+ my w9e1 &     
read+ a few pages ( a novel2 = :5 ,i h  
no company ,i always wi% to read :ile   
eat+2 x seems a sub/itute = society1 &  
,i dispat* alt]nately a page & a morsel2
 'tis inde$1 z if my book d9$ ) me4  ,i 
0 nei!r dissolute nor sotti%1 nev] 9 my 
:ole life hav+ be5 intoxicat$ ) liquor2 

my little !fts 7 n v indiscreet1 yet !y 
7 discov]$2 ! bottles betray$ me1 & ?\gh
 no notice 0 tak5 ( x1 ,i _h no long] ! 
managem5t ( ! cell>4 ,9 all ?is         
,monsieur ,malby conduct$ himself )     
prud5ce & polit5ess1 be+ really a v     
des]v+ man1 :o1 "u a mann] z h>% z 8    
employm5t1 conceal$ a real g5tl5ess (   
disposition & uncommon goodness ( he>t3 
he 0 judici\s1 equitable1 & 7:at w\ld n 
be expect$ f an (fic] ( ! ,m>e*ausse7 v 
humane4  ,s5sible ( 8 indulg5ce1 ,i     
became greatly atta*$ to him1 :i* made  
my /ay at ,lyons long] ?an x w\ld       
o!rwise h be52 b at l5g?1 disgu/$ ) an  
employm5t :i* ,i 0 n calculat$ =1 & a   
situation ( great conf9em5t1 consequ5tly
 disagreeable to me1 aft] a ye>'s trial1
 dur+ :i* "t ,i sp>$ no pa9s to fulfill 
my engagem5t1 ,i det]m9$ to quit my     
pupils2 be+ conv9c$ ,i %\ld nev] succe$ 
9 educat+ !m prop]ly4 ,monsieur ,malby  
saw ?is z cle>ly z myself1 ?\gh ,i am   
incl9$ to ?9k he w\ld nev] h dismiss$ me
 _h ,i n sp>$ him ! tr\ble1 :i* 0 an    

excess ( condesc5sion 9 ?is p>ticul>1 t 
,i c]ta9ly _c ju/ify4  ,:at r5d]$ my    
situation yet m insupportable 0 !       
comp>ison ,i 0 cont9ually draw+ betwe5 !
 life ,i n[ l$ & t :i* ,i _h quitt$2 !  
remembrance ( my de> ,*>mettes1 my g>d51
 trees1 f\nta9 & or*>d1 b1 above all1 ! 
company ( h] :o 0 born to give life &   
s\l to e o!r enjoym5t4 ,on call+ to m9d 
our pleasures & innoc5t life1 ,i 0 seiz$
 ) su* oppressions & heav9ess ( he>t1 z 
depriv$ me ( ! p[] ( p]=m+ any?+ z x    
%\ld be4 ,a hundr$ times 0 ,i tempt$    
in/antly to set (f on foot to my de>    
,madam de ,w>5s1 be+ p]suad$ t c\ld ,i  
once m see h]1 ,i %\ld be cont5t to die 
t mom5t3 9 f9e1 ,i c\ld no long] resi/ !
 t5d] emotions :i* recall$ me back to   
h]1 :atev] x might co/ me4 ,i accus$    
myself ( n hav+ be5 suffici5tly pati5t1 
complaisant & k9d2 conclud+ ,i might yet
 live happily ) h] on ! t]ms ( t5d]     
fri5d%ip1 & by %[+ m = h] ?an ,i _h     
hi!rto done4 ,i =m$ ! f9e/ projects 9 ! 
_w1 burn$ to execute !m1 left all1      

r5\nc$ ev]y?+1 dep>t$1 fl$1 & arriv+ 9  
all ! transports ( my e>ly y\?1 f\nd    
myself once m at h] feet4 ,alas6 ,i %\ld
 h di$ !re ) joy1 _h ,i f\nd 9 h]       
reception1 9 h] embrace1 or 9 h] he>t1  
"o-qu>t] ( :at ,i _h =m]ly f\nd !re1 &  
:i* ,i yet f\nd ! undim9i%$ w>m? (4     
,fe>ful illusions ( transitory ?+s1 h[  
(t5 do/ ?\ torm5t u 9 va96 ,%e receiv$  
me ) t excell5ce ( he>t :i* c\ld only   
die ) h]2 b ,i s\ght ! influ5ce !re :i* 
c\ld nev] be recall$1 & _h h>dly be5    
half an h\r ) h] be=e ,i 0 once m       
conv9c$ t my =m] happ9ess _h vani%$     
=ev]1 & t ,i 0 9 ! same melan*oly       
situation :i* ,i _h be5 oblig$ to fly f2
 yet )\t be+ able to accuse any p]son ) 
my unhapp9ess1 = ,c\rtilles really 0 n  
to blame1 appe>+ to see my return ) m   
pleasure ?an dissatisfaction4 ,b h[ c\ld
 ,i be> to be a second>y p]son ) h] to  
:om ,i _h be5 ev]y?+1 & :o c\ld nev]    
cease be+ su* to me8 ,h[ c\ld ,i live an
 ali5 9 t h\se :]e ,i _h be5 ! *ild8 ,! 
sight ( e object t _h be5 witness to my 

=m] happ9ess1 r5d]$ ! comp>ison yet m   
di/ress+2 ,i %\ld h suff]$ less 9 any   
o!r habitation1 = ?is incessantly       
recall$ su* pleas+ remembrances1 t x 0  
irritat+ ! recollection ( my loss4      
,consum$ ) va9 regrets1 giv5 up to ! mo/
 gloomy melan*oly1 ,i resum$ ! cu/om (  
rema9+ alone1 except at meals2 %ut up ) 
my books1 ,i s\ght to give "s useful    
div]sion to my ideas1 & feel+ ! imm95t  
dang] ( want1 :i* ,i _h s long dread$1  
,i s\ght means to prep>e = & receive x1 
:5 ,madam de ,w>5s %\ld h no o!r        
res\rce4 ,i _h plac$ h] h\sehold on a   
foot+ n to become worse2 b s9ce my      
dep>ture ev]y?+ _h be5 alt]$4 ,he :o n[ 
manag$ h] affairs 0 a sp5d?rift1 & wi%$ 
to make a great appe>ance2 su* z keep+ a
 good horse ) elegant trapp+s2 lov$ to  
appe> gay 9 ! eyes ( ! neighbors1 & 0   
p]petually und]tak+ some?+ he did n     
und]/&4 ,h] p5sion 0 tak5 up 9 advance1 
h] r5t 0 9 arre>s1 debts ( e k9d cont9u$
 to accumulate2 ,i c\ld pla9ly =esee t  
h] p5sion w\ld be seiz$1 & p]haps       

suppress$2 9 %ort1 ,i expect$ no?+ b ru9
 & mis=tune1 & ! mom5t appe>$ to approa*
 s rapidly t ,i already felt all its    
horrors4  ,my closet 0 my only amusem5t1
 & aft] a t$i\s se>* = rem$ies = !      
suff]+s ( my m9d1 ,i det]m9$ to seek "s 
aga9/ ! evil ( di/ress+ circum/ances1   
:i* ,i daily expect$ w\ld fall ^u u1 &  
return+ to my old *im]as1 behold me once
 m build+ ca/les 9 ! air to relieve ?is 
de> fri5d f ! cruel extremities into :i*
 ,i saw h] ready to fall4 ,i did n      
believe myself wise en\gh to %9e 9 !    
republic ( lett]s1 or to /& any *ance ( 
mak+ a =tune by t means2 a new idea1    
!re=e1 inspir$ me ) t confid5ce1 :i* !  
m$iocrity ( my tal5ts c\ld n imp>t4  ,9 
ceas+ to tea* music ,i _h n ab&on$ !    
?\ghts ( x2 on ! contr>y1 ,i _h /udi$ ! 
!ory suffici5tly to consid] myself well 
in=m$ on ! subject4 ,:5 reflect+ on !   
tr\ble x _h co/ me to read music1 & !   
great difficulty ,i yet exp]i5c$ 9 s++  
at sight1 ,i began to ?9k ! fault might 
z well arise f ! mann] ( not+ z f my own

 dulness1 be+ s5sible x 0 an art :i* mo/
 p f9d difficult to und]/&4 ,by exam9+ !
 =mation ( ! signs1 ,i 0 conv9c$ !y 7   
frequ5tly v ill devis$4 ,i _h be=e ?\ght
 ( m>k+ ! gamut by figures1 to prev5t ! 
tr\ble ( hav+ l9es to draw1 on not+ !   
pla9e/ air2 b _h be5 /opp$ by !         
difficulty ( ! octaves1 & by ! di/9ction
 ( measure & quantity3 ?is idea return$ 
aga9 to my m9d1 & on a c>eful revision (
 x1 ,i f\nd ! difficulties by no means  
insurm\ntable4 ,i pursu$ x successfully1
 & 0 at l5g? able to note any music     
:atev] by figures1 ) ! greate/          
exactitude & simplicity4 ,f ?is mom5t ,i
 suppos$ my =tune made1 & 9 ! ardor (   
%>+ x ) h] to :om ,i ow$ ev]y?+1 ?\ght  
only ( go+ to ,p>is1 n d\bt+ t on       
pres5t+ my project to ! ,academy1 x w\ld
 be adopt$ ) rapture4 ,i _h br\ght "s   
money f ,lyons2 ,i augm5t$ ?is /ock by !
 sale ( my books1 & 9 ! c\rse ( a       
=tnight my resolution 0 bo? =m$ &       
execut$3 9 %ort1 full ( ! magnific5t    
ideas x _h inspir$1 & :i* 7 common to me

 on e occasion1 ,i dep>t$ f ,savoy ) my 
new sy/em ( music1 z ,i _h =m]ly done f 
,tur9 ) my h]on-f\nta94  ,su* h be5 !   
errors & faults ( my y\?2 ,i h relat$ ! 
hi/ory ( !m ) a fidelity :i* my he>t    
approves2 if my rip] ye>s 7 dignifi$ )  
"s virtues1 ,i %\ld h relat$ !m ) ! same
 frankness2 x 0 my int5tion to h done   
?is1 b ,i mu/ =ego ?is pleas+ task & /op
 "h4 ,"t1 :i* r5d]s ju/ice to ! *>act]s 
( mo/ m51 may )draw ! veil2 & %\ld my   
memory rea* po/]ity1 !y may "o day      
discov] :at ,i _h to say--!y w !n und]/&
 :y ,i am n[ sil5t4     ,,book ,,vii4   
,aft] two ye>s' sil5ce & pati5ce1 &     
not)/&+ my resolutions1 ,i aga9 take up 
my p53 ,read]1 susp5d y\r judgm5t z to !
 reasons :i* =ce me to su* a /ep3 ( ^! y
 c be no judge until y %all h read my   
book4  ,my peaceful y\? has be5 se5 to  
pass away calmly & agreeably )\t any    
great disappo9tm5ts or rem>kable        
prosp]ity4 ,?is m$iocrity 0 mo/ly ow+ to
 my ard5t yet feeble nature1 less prompt
 9 und]tak+ ?an easy to disc\rage2      

quitt+ repose = viol5t agitations1 b    
return+ to x f lassitude & incl9ations1 
& :i*1 plac+ me 9 an idle & tranquil    
/ate = :i* alone ,i felt ,i 0 born1 at a
 di/ance f ! pa?s ( great virtues & /ill
 fur!r f ^? ( great vices1 nev] p]mitt$ 
me to arrive at any?+ great1 ei!r good  
or bad4 ,:at a diff]5t acc\nt w ,i soon 
h to give ( myself6 ,fate1 :i* = ?irty  
ye>s =c$ my incl9ations1 = ?irty o!rs   
has seem$ to oppose !m2 & ?is cont9u$   
opposition1 betwe5 my situation &       
incl9ations1 w appe> to h be5 ! s\rce ( 
enorm\s faults1 unhe>d ( mis=tunes1 & e 
virtue except t =titude :i* alone c d   
honor to adv]sity4  ,! hi/ory ( ! fir/  
"p ( my life 0 writt5 f memory1 & is    
consequ5tly full ( errors4 ,z ,i am     
oblig$ to write ! second "p f memory    
also1 ! errors 9 x w probably be /ill m 
num]\s4 ,! agreeable remembrance ( !    
f9e/ portion ( my ye>s1 pass$ ) s mu*   
tranquillity & innoc5ce1 has left 9 my  
he>t a ?\s& *>m+ impressions :i* ,i love
 incessantly to call to my recollection4

 ,x w soon appe> h[ diff]5t f ^! ^? ( ! 
re/ ( my life h be54 ,to recall !m to my
 m9d w\ld be to r5ew _! bitt]ness4 ,f> f
 increas+ t ( my situation by ^!        
sorr[ful reflections1 ,i repel !m z mu* 
z possible1 & 9 ?is endeavor (t5 succe$ 
s well z to be unable to f9d !m at w4   
,?is facility ( =gett+ my mis=tunes is a
 consolation :i* ,heav5 has res]v$ to me
 9 ! mid/ ( ^? :i* fate has "o day to   
accumulate ^u my head4 ,my memory1 :i*  
pres5ts to me no objects b su* z are    
agreeable1 is ! happy c\nt]poise ( my   
t]rifi$ imag9ation1 by :i* ,i =esee no?+
 b a cruel futurity4  ,all ! pap]s ,i _h
 collect$ to aid my recollection1 &     
guide me 9 ?is und]tak+1 are no long] 9 
my possession1 nor c ,i ev] aga9 hope to
 rega9 !m4  ,i h b "o fai?ful guide on  
:i* ,i c dep5d3 ?is is ! *a9 ( !        
s5tim5ts by :i* ! succession ( my       
exi/5ce has be5 m>k$1 & by ^! ! ev5ts   
:i* h be5 ei!r ! cause or ! effect ( !  
mann] ( x4 ,i easily =get my mis=tunes1 
b ,i _c =get my faults1 & /ill less my  

virtu\s s5tim5ts4 ,! remembrance ( ^! is
 too de> to me ev] to suff] !m to be    
effac$ f my m9d4 ,i may omit facts1     
transpose ev5ts1 & fall into "s errors (
 dates2 b ,i _c be deceiv$ 9 :at ,i h   
felt1 nor 9 t :i* f s5tim5t ,i h done2 &
 to relate ?is is ! *ief end ( my pres5t
 "w4 ,! real object ( my confessions is 
to communicate an exact k ( :at ,i      
int]iorly am & h be5 9 e situation ( my 
life4 ,i h promis$ ! hi/ory ( my m9d1 & 
to write x fai?fully ,i h no ne$ ( o!r  
memoirs3 to ent] into my own he>t1 z ,i 
h hi!rto done1 w alone be suffici5t4    
,!re is1 h[ev]1 & v happily1 an int]val 
( six or sev5 ye>s1 relative to :i* ,i h
 exact ref]5ces1 9 a collection ( lett]s
 copi$ f ! orig9als1 9 ! h&s ( ,m4 du   
,peyr\4 ,?is collection1 :i* concludes 9
 #agfj1 compreh5ds ! :ole "t ( my       
resid5ce at ! h]mitage1 & my great      
qu>rel ) ^? :o call$ !mselves my fri5ds2
 t memorable epo*a ( my life1 & ! s\rce 
( all my o!r mis=tunes4 ,) respect to m 
rec5t orig9al lett]s :i* may rema9 9 my 

possession1 & are b few 9 numb]1 in/ead 
( transcrib+ !m at ! end ( ?is          
collection1 too volum9\s to enable me to
 deceive ! vigilance ( my ,arguses1 ,i w
 copy !m into ! "w :5ev] !y appe> to    
furni% any explanation1 be ?is ei!r = or
 aga9/ myself2 = ,i am n "u ! lea/      
appreh5sion le/ ! read] %\ld =get ,i    
make my confession1 & be induc$ to      
believe ,i make my apology2 b he _c     
expect ,i %all conceal ! tru? :5 x      
te/ifies 9 my favor4  ,! second "p1 x is
 likewise to be rememb]$1 conta9s no?+ 9
 common ) ! fir/1 except tru?2 nor has  
any o!r advantage ov] x1 b ! importance 
( ! facts2 9 ev]y?+ else1 x is inf]ior  
to ! =m]4 ,i wrote ! fir/ ) pleasure1 ) 
satisfaction1 & at my ease1 at ,wootton1
 or 9 ! ca/le ,trie3 ev]y?+ ,i _h to    
recollect 0 a new enjoym5t4 ,i return$  
to my closet ) an increas$ pleasure1 &1 
)\t con/ra9t1 gave t turn to my         
descriptions :i* mo/ flatt]$ my         
imag9ation4  ,at pres5t my head & memory
 are become s weak z to r5d] me almo/   

incapable ( e k9d ( application3 my     
pres5t und]tak+ is ! result ( con/ra9t1 
& a he>t full ( sorr[4 ,i h no?+ to     
treat ( b mis=tunes1 trea*]ies1         
p]fidies1 & circum/ances equally        
afflict+4 ,i w\ld give ! _w1 c\ld ,i    
bury 9 ! obscurity ( "t e ?+ ,i h to    
say1 & :i*1 9 spite ( myself1 ,i am     
oblig$ to relate4 ,i am1 at ! same "t1  
"u ! necessity ( be+ my/]i\s & subtle1 (
 endeavor+ to impose & ( desc5d+ to ?+s 
! mo/ =eign to my nature4 ,! ceil+ "u   
:i* ,i write has eyes2 ! walls ( my     
*amb] h e>s4 ,surr\nd$ by spies & by    
vigilant & malevol5t inspectors1        
di/urb$1 & my att5tion div]t$1 ,i ha/ily
 commit to pap] a few brok5 s5t5ces1 :i*
 ,i h sc>cely "t to read1 & /ill less to
 correct4 ,i "k t1 not)/&+ ! b>ri]s :i* 
are multipli$ ar\nd me1 my enemies are  
afraid tru? %\ld escape by "s little    
op5+4 ,:at means c ,i take to introduce 
x to ! _w8 ,?is1 h[ev]1 ,i attempt ) b  
few hopes ( success4 ,! read] w judge   
:e!r or n su* a situation furni%es !    

means ( agreeable descriptions1 or (    
giv+ !m a s$uctive color+6 ,i !re=e in=m
 su* z may und]take to read ?is "w1 t   
no?+ c secure !m f we>9ess 9 !          
prosecution ( _! task1 unless x be !    
desire ( becom+ m fully acqua9t$ ) a man
 :om !y already "k1 & a s9c]e love (    
ju/ice & tru?4  ,9 my fir/ "p ,i br\ght 
d[n my n>rative to my dep>ture ) inf9ite
 regret = ,p>is1 leav+ my he>t at       
,*>mettes1 &1 !re build+ my la/ ca/le 9 
! air1 int5d+ "s day to return to ! feet
 ( mamma1 re/or$ to h]self1 ) !         
treasures ,i %\ld h acquir$1 & dep5d+ ^u
 my sy/em ( music z ^u a c]ta9 =tune4   
,i made "s /ay at ,lyons to visit my    
acqua9tance1 procure lett]s (           
recomm5dation to ,p>is1 & to sell my    
books ( geometry :i* ,i _h br\ght ) me4 
,i 0 well receiv$ by all :om ,i knew4   
,m4 & ,madam de ,malby seem$ pleas$ to  
see me aga91 & sev]al times invit$ me to
 d9n]4 ,at _! h\se ,i became acqua9t$ ) 
! ,abbe de ,malby1 z ,i _h already done 
) ! ,abbe de ,condillac1 bo? ( :om 7 on 

a visit to _! bro!r4 ,! ,abbe de ,malby 
gave me lett]s to ,p>is2 among o!rs1 "o 
to ,m4 de ,pont5elle1 & ano!r to !      
,comte de ,caylus4 ,^! 7 v agreeable    
acqua9tances1 especially ! fir/1 to ^:  
fri5d%ip = me 8 dea? only put a p]iod1 &
 f :om1 9 our private conv]sations1 ,i  
receiv$ advice :i* ,i ought to h m      
exactly foll[$4  ,i likewise saw ,m4    
,bordes1 ) :om ,i _h be5 long acqua9t$1 
& :o _h frequ5tly oblig$ me ) ! greate/ 
cordiality & ! mo/ real pleasure4 ,he x 
0 :o enabl$ me to sell my books2 & he   
also gave me f himself good             
recomm5dations to ,p>is4 ,i aga9 saw !  
int5dant = ^: acqua9tance ,i 0 indebt$  
to ,m4 ,bordes1 & :o introduc$ me to !  
,duke de ,ri*elieu1 :o 0 !n pass+ ?r\gh 
,lyons4 ,m4 ,pallu pres5t$ me4 ,! ,duke 
receiv$ me well1 & invit$ me to come &  
see him at ,p>is2 ,i did s sev]al times2
 al?\gh ?is great acqua9tance1 ( :i* ,i 
%all frequ5tly h occasion to speak1 0   
nev] ( ! mo/ trifl+ utility to me4  ,i  
visit$ ! musician ,david1 :o1 9 "o ( my 

=m] j\rneys1 & 9 my di/ress1 _h r5d]$ me
 s]vice4 ,he _h ei!r l5t or giv5 me a   
cap & a pair ( /ock+s1 :i* ,i h nev]    
return$1 nor has he ev] ask$ me = !m1   
al?\gh we h s9ce t "t frequ5tly se5 ea* 
o!r4 ,i1 h[ev]1 made him a pres5t1      
some?+ l an equival5t4 ,i w\ld say m ^u 
?is subject1 7 :at ,i h own$ 9 "q2 b ,i 
h to speak ( :at ,i h done1 :i*1        
un=tunately1 is f> f be+ ! same ?+4  ,i 
also saw ! noble & g5]\s ,p]ri*on1 & n  
)\t feel+ ! effects ( 8 accu/om$        
munific5ce2 = he made me ! same pres5t  
he _h previ\sly done to ! elegant       
,b]n>d1 by pay+ = my place 9 ! dilig5ce4
 ,i visit$ ! surgeon ,p>isot1 ! be/ &   
mo/ b5evol5t ( m52 z also 8 belov$      
,godefroi1 :o _h liv$ ) him t5 ye>s1 &  
^: m]it *iefly consi/$ 9 h] g5tle mann]s
 & goodness ( he>t4 ,x 0 impossible to  
see ?is woman )\t pleasure1 or to leave 
h] )\t regret4 ,no?+ bett] %[s !        
incl9ations ( a man1 ?an ! nature ( 8   
atta*m5ts4       ,unless he be deceiv$ 9
 8 *oice1 or t %e1 to :om he            

atta*es himself1 *anges h] "* by an     
extraord9>y      concurr5ce ( causes1   
:i* is n absolutely impossible4  ,7     
?is consequ5ce to be admitt$ )\t        
modification1 ,socrates mu/      be     
judg$ ( by 8 wife ,xantippe1 & ,dion by 
8 fri5d ,calippus1      :i* w\ld be !   
mo/ false & iniquit\s judgm5t ev] made4 
,h[ev]1 let no injuri\s application be  
"h made to my wife4  ,%e      is weak & 
m easily deceiv$ ?an ,i at fir/ imag9$1 
b by      h] pure & excell5t "* %e is   
wor?y ( all my e/eem4  ,^? :o _h once   
se5 ! g5tle ,godefroi1 imm$iately knew !
 good & amiable ,p>isot4  ,i 0 mu*      
oblig$ to all ^! good p1 b ,i aft]w>ds  
neglect$ !m all2 n f +ratitude1 b f t   
inv9cible indol5ce :i* s (t5 assumes its
 appe>ance4 ,! remembrance ( _! s]vices 
has nev] be5 effac$ f my m9d1 nor !     
impression !y made f my he>t2 b ,i c\ld 
m easily h prov$ my gratitude1 ?an      
assidu\sly h %[n !m ! ext]ior ( t       
s5tim5t4 ,exactitude 9 correspond5ce is 
:at ,i nev] c\ld obs]ve2 ! mom5t ,i     

began to relax1 ! %ame & emb>rassm5t (  
repair+ my fault made me aggravate x1 & 
,i entirely desi/ f writ+2 ,i h1 !re=e1 
be5 sil5t1 & appe>$ to =get !m4 ,p>isot 
& ,p]ri*on took n ! lea/ notice ( my    
neglig5ce1 & ,i ev] f\nd !m ! same4 ,b1 
tw5ty ye>s aft]w>ds x w be se51 9 ,m4   
,bordes1 to :at a degree ! self-love ( a
 wit c make him c>ry 8 v5geance :5 he   
feels himself neglect$4  ,be=e ,i leave 
,lyons1 ,i mu/ n =get an amiable p]son1 
:om ,i aga9 saw ) m pleasure ?an ev]1 & 
:o left 9 my he>t ! mo/ t5d]            
remembrance4 ,?is 0 ,mademoiselle ,s]re1
 ( :om ,i h spok5 9 my fir/ "p2 ,i r5ew$
 my acqua9tance ) h] :il/ ,i 0 at ,m4 de
 ,malby's4  ,be+ ?is "t m at leisure1 ,i
 saw h] m frequ5tly1 & %e made ! mo/    
s5sible impressions on my he>t4 ,i _h "s
 reason to believe h] own 0 n           
unfavorable to my pret5sions2 b %e      
honor$ me ) h] confid5ce s f> z to      
remove f me all temptation to allure h] 
p>tiality4  ,%e _h no =tune1 & 9 ?is    
respect exactly resembl$ myself2 our    

situations 7 too simil> to p]mit u to   
become unit$2 & ) ! views ,i !n _h1 ,i 0
 f> f ?9k+ ( m>riage4 ,%e gave me to    
und]/& t a "y m]*ant1 "o ,m4 ,g5eve1    
seem$ to wi% to obta9 h] h&4 ,i saw him 
once or twice at h] lodg+s2 he appe>$ to
 me to be an hone/ man1 & ?is 0 8 g5]al 
"*4 ,p]suad$ %e w\ld be happy ) him1 ,i 
0 desir\s he %\ld m>ry h]1 :i* he       
aft]w>ds did2 & t ,i might n di/urb _!  
innoc5t love1 ,i ha/5$ my dep>ture2 (f]+
 up1 = ! happ9ess ( t *>m+ woman1       
pray]s1 :i*1 "h bel[ 7 n long he>d4     
,alas6 h] "t 0 v %ort1 = ,i aft]w>ds    
he>d %e di$ 9 ! second or ?ird ye> aft] 
h] m>riage4 ,my m9d1 dur+ ! j\rney1 0   
:olly absorb$ 9 t5d] regret4 ,i felt1 & 
s9ce t "t1 :5 ^! circum/ances h be5     
pres5t to my recollection1 h frequ5tly  
done ! same2 t al?\gh ! sacrifices made 
to virtue & our duty may sometimes be   
pa9ful1 we are well rew>d$ by !         
agreeable remembrance !y leave deeply   
engrav5 9 our he>ts4  ,i ?is "t saw     
,p>is 9 z favorable a po9t ( view z x _h

 appe>$ to me 9 an unfavorable "o at my 
fir/ j\rney2 n t my ideas ( its         
brilliancy arose f ! spl5dor ( my       
lodg+s2 = 9 consequ5ce ( an address giv5
 me by ,m4 ,bordes1 ,i resid$ at !      
,hotel ,/4 ,qu5t91 ,rue des ,cordi]s1   
ne> ! ,sorbonne2 a vile /reet1 a        
mis]able hotel1 & a wret*$ ap>tm5t3 b   
nev]!less a h\se 9 :i* sev]al m5 ( m]it1
 su* z ,gresset1 ,bordes1 ,abbe ,malby1 
,condillac1 & sev]al o!rs1 ( :om        
un=tunately ,i f\nd n "o1 _h tak5 up _! 
qu>t]s2 b ,i !re met ) ,m4 ,bonnefond1 a
 man unacqua9t$ ) ! _w1 lame1 litigi\s1 
& :o affect$ to be a puri/4 ,to him ,i  
owe ! acqua9tance ( ,m4 ,rogu91 at      
pres5t ! olde/ fri5d ,i h & by ^: means 
,i became acqua9t$ ) ,did]ot1 ( :om ,i  
%all soon h occasion to say a good deal4
  ,i arriv$ at ,p>is 9 ! autumn ( #agda1
 ) fifte5 l\is 9 my purse1 & ) my com$y 
( ,n>cissus & my musical project 9 my   
pocket4 ,^! compos$ my :ole /ock2       
consequ5tly ,i _h n mu* "t to lose be=e 
,i attempt$ to turn ! latt] to "s       

advantage4 ,i !re=e imm$iately ?\ght (  
mak+ use ( my recomm5dations4  ,a "y man
 :o arrives at ,p>is1 ) a tol]able      
figure1 & ann\nces himself by 8 tal5ts1 
is sure to be well receiv$4 ,?is 0 my   
good =tune1 :i* procur$ me "s pleasure  
)\t lead+ to any?+ solid4 ,( all !      
p]sons to :om ,i 0 recomm5d$1 ?ree only 
7 useful to me4 ,m4 ,dames91 a g5tleman 
( ,savoy1 at t "t equ]ry1 & ,i believe  
favorite1 ( ! ,pr9cess ( ,c>ignan2 ,m4  
de ,boze1 ,secret>y ( ! ,academy (      
,inscriptions1 & keep] ( ! m$als ( !    
k+'s cab9et2 & ,fa!r ,ca/el1 a ,jesuit1 
au?or ( ! ',clavec9 oculaire'4--ocul>   
h>psi*ord4  ,all ^! recomm5dations1     
except t to ,m4 ,dames91 7 giv5 me by ! 
,abbe de ,malby4  ,m4 ,dames9 provid$ me
 ) t :i* 0 mo/ ne$ful1 by means ( two   
p]sons ) :om he br\ght me acqua9t$4 ,"o 
0 ,m4 ,gase1 'presid5t a morti]' ( !    
p>liam5t ( ,bordeaux1 & :o play$ v well 
^u ! viol92 ! o!r1 ! ,abbe de ,leon1 :o 
!n lodg$ 9 ! ,sorbonne1 a "y nobleman2  
extremely amiable1 :o di$ 9 ! fl[] ( 8  

age1 aft] hav+1 = a few mom5ts1 made a  
figure 9 ! _w "u ! "n ( ! ,*evali] de   
,rohan4 ,bo? ^! g5tlem5 _h an incl9ation
 to le>n composition4 ,9 ?is ,i gave !m 
lessons = a few mon?s1 by :i* means my  
decreas+ purse receiv$ "s little aid4 ,!
 ,abbe ,leon conceiv$ a fri5d%ip = me1 &
 wi%$ me to become 8 secret>y2 b he 0 f>
 f be+ ri*1 & all ! sal>y he c\ld (f] me
 0 eight hundr$ livres1 :i*1 ) inf9ite  
regret1 ,i refus$2 s9ce x 0 insuffici5t 
to defray ! exp5ses ( my lodg+1 food1 & 
clo?+4  ,i 0 well receiv$ by ,m4 de     
,boze4 ,he _h a ?ir/ = k1 ( :i* he      
possess$ n a little1 b 0 some:at        
p$antic4 ,madam de ,boze mu* resembl$   
him2 %e 0 lively & affect$4 ,i sometimes
 d9$ ) !m1 & x is impossible to be m    
awkw>d ?an ,i 0 9 h] pres5ce4 ,h] easy  
mann] intimidat$ me1 & r5d]$ m9e m      
rem>kable4 ,:5 %e pres5t$ me a plate1 ,i
 mode/ly put =w>d my =k to take "o ( !  
lea/ bits ( :at %e (f]$ me1 :i* made h] 
give ! plate to h] s]vant1 turn+ h] head
 aside t ,i might n see h] laugh4 ,%e _h

 n ! lea/ suspicion t 9 ! head ( ! ru/ic
 ) :om %e 0 s div]t$ !re 0 "s small     
portion ( wit4 ,m4 de ,boze pres5t$ me  
to ,m4 de ,reaumur1 8 fri5d1 :o came to 
d9e ) him e ,friday1 ! day on :i* !     
,academy ( ,sci5ces met4 ,he m5tion$ to 
him my project1 & ! desire ,i _h ( hav+ 
x exam9$ by ! academy4 ,m4 de ,reaumur  
cons5t$ to make ! proposal1 & 8 (f] 0   
accept$4 ,on ! day appo9t$ ,i 0         
introduc$ & pres5t$ by ,m4 de ,reaumur1 
& on ! same day1 ,augu/ #bb;d1 #agdb1 ,i
 _h ! honor to read to ! academy !      
memoir ,i _h prep>$ = t purpose4 ,al?\gh
 ?is illu/ri\s assembly might c]ta9ly   
well be expect$ to inspire me ) awe1 ,i 
0 less intimidat$ on ?is occasion ?an ,i
 _h be5 9 ! pres5ce ( ,madam de ,boze1 &
 ,i got tol]ably well ?r\gh my read+ & !
 answ]s ,i 0 oblig$ to give4 ,! memoir 0
 well receiv$1 & acquir$ me "s          
complim5ts by :i* ,i 0 equally surpris$ 
& flatt]$1 imag9+ t be=e su* an         
assembly1 :oev] 0 n a memb] ( x c\ld n h
 commons5se4 ,! p]sons appo9t$ to exam9e

 my sy/em 7 ,m4 ,mairan1 ,m4 ,hellot1 & 
,m4 de ,f\*y1 all ?ree m5 ( m]it1 b n "o
 ( !m und]/ood music1 at lea/ n en\gh ( 
composition to enable !m to judge ( my  
project4  ,dur+ my conf]5ce ) ^!        
g5tlem51 ,i 0 conv9c$ ) no less c]ta9ty 
?an surprise1 t if m5 ( le>n+ h         
sometimes few] prejudices ?an o!rs1 !y m
 t5aci\sly reta9 ^? !y h4 ,h[ev] weak or
 false mo/ ( _! objections 71 & al?\gh  
,i answ]$ !m ) great timidity1 & ,i     
confess1 9 bad t]ms1 yet ) decisive     
reasons1 ,i nev] once made myself       
und]/ood1 or gave !m any explanation 9 !
 lea/ satisfactory4 ,i 0 con/antly      
surpris$ at ! facility ) :i*1 by ! aid (
 a few sonor\s phrases1 !y refut$1 )\t  
hav+ compreh5d$ me4 ,!y _h le>n$1 ,i "k 
n :]e1 t a monk ( ! "n ( ,s\haitti _h   
=m]ly inv5t$ a mode ( not+ ! gamut by   
ciph]s3 a suffici5t pro( t my sy/em 0 n 
new4 ,?is might1 p]haps1 be ! case2 =   
al?\gh ,i _h nev] he>d ( ,fa!r          
,s\haitti1 & not)/&+ 8 mann] ( writ+ !  
sev5 notes )\t att5d+ to ! octaves 0 n1 

"u any po9t ( view1 wor?y ( ent]+ into  
competition ) my simple & commodi\s     
inv5tion = easily not+ by ciph]s e      
possible k9d ( music1 keys1 re/s1       
octaves1 measure1 "t1 & l5g? ( note2 ?+s
 on :i* ,s\haitti _h nev] ?\ght3 x 0    
nev]!less true1 t ) respect to !        
elem5t>y expression ( ! sev5 notes1 he 0
 ! fir/ inv5tor4  ,b besides _! giv+ to 
?is primitive inv5tion m importance ?an 
0 due to x1 !y w5t /ill fur!r1 &1 :5ev] 
!y spoke ( ! fundam5tal pr9ciples ( !   
sy/em1 talk$ nons5se4 ,! greate/        
advantage ( my s*eme 0 to sup]s$e       
transpositions & keys1 s t ! same piece 
( music 0 not$ & transpos$ at w by means
 ( ! *ange ( a s+le initial lett] at !  
head ( ! air4 ,^! g5tlem5 _h he>d f !   
music-ma/]s ( ,p>is t ! me?od ( execut+ 
by transposition 0 a bad "o2 & on ?is   
au?ority conv]t$ ! mo/ evid5t advantage 
( my sy/em into an inv9cible objection  
aga9/ x1 & affirm$ t my mode ( notation 
0 good = vocal music1 b bad =           
in/rum5tal2 in/ead ( conclud+ z !y ought

 to h done1 t x 0 good = vocal1 & /ill  
bett] = in/rum5tal4 ,on _! report !     
academy grant$ me a c]tificate full (   
f9e complim5ts1 amid/ :i* x appe>$ t 9  
reality x judg$ my sy/em to be nei!r new
 nor useful4 ,i did n ?9k prop] to      
ornam5t ) su* a pap] ! "w entitl$       
',diss]tation sur la musique mod]ne'1 by
 :i* ,i appeal$ to ! public4  ,i _h     
reason to rem>k on ?is occasion t1 ev5 )
 a n>r[ und]/&+1 ! sole b pr(\nd k ( a  
?+ is pref]able = ! purpose ( judg+ ( x1
 to all ! lights result+ f a cultivation
 ( ! sci5ces1 :5 to ^! a p>ticul> /udy (
 t 9 "q has n be5 jo9$4 ,! only solid   
objection to my sy/em 0 made by ,rameau4
 ,i _h sc>cely expla9$ x to him be=e he 
discov]$ its weak "p4 ,y\r signs1 said  
he1 are v good inasmu* z !y cle>ly &    
simply det]m9e ! l5g? ( notes1 exactly  
repres5t int]vals1 & %[ ! simple 9 !    
d\ble note1 :i* ! common notation does n
 d2 b !y are objectionable on acc\nt (  
_! requir+ an op]ation ( ! m9d1 :i* _c  
always accompany ! rapidity ( execution4

 ,! position ( our notes1 cont9u$ he1 is
 describ$ to ! eye )\t ! concurr5ce (   
?is op]ation4 ,if two notes1 "o v high &
 ! o!r v l[1 be jo9$ by a s]ies (       
int]m$iate ones1 ,i see at ! fir/ glance
 ! progress f "o to ! o!r by conjo9$    
degrees2 b 9 y\r sy/em1 to p]ceive ?is  
s]ies1 ,i mu/ necess>ily run ov] y\r    
ciph]s "o aft] ! o!r2 ! glance ( ! eye  
is "h useless4 ,! objection appe>$ to me
 insurm\ntable1 & ,i in/antly ass5t$ to 
x4 ,al?\gh x be simple & /rik+1 no?+ c  
sugge/ x b great k & practice ( ! art1 &
 x is by no means a/oni%+ t n "o ( !    
academicians %\ld h ?\ght ( x4 ,b :at   
creates mu* surprise is1 t ^! m5 ( great
 le>n+1 & :o are suppos$ to possess s   
mu* k1 %\ld s little "k t ea* ought to  
conf9e 8 judgm5t to t :i* relates to !  
/udy ) :i* he has be5 conv]sant4  ,my   
frequ5t visits to ! lit]ati appo9t$ to  
exam9e my sy/em & ! o!r academicians    
gave me an opportunity ( becom+ acqua9t$
 ) ! mo/ di/+ui%$ m5 ( lett]s 9 ,p>is1 &
 by ?is means ! acqua9tance t w\ld h be5

 ! consequ5ce ( my sudd5 admission      
among/ !m1 :i* aft]w>ds came to pass1 0 
already e/abli%$4 ,) respect to ! pres5t
 mom5t1 absorb$ 9 my new sy/em ( music1 
,i ob/9ately adh]$ to my int5tion (     
effect+ a revolution 9 ! art1 & by t    
means ( acquir+ a celebrity :i*1 9 ! f9e
 arts1 is 9 ,p>is mo/ly accompani$ by   
=tune4 ,i %ut myself 9 my *amb] & labor$
 ?ree or f\r mon?s ) inexpressible      
ardor1 9 =m+ into a "w = ! public eye1 !
 memoir ,i _h read be=e ! academy4 ,!   
difficulty 0 to f9d a booksell] to take 
my manuscript2 & ?is on acc\nt ( !      
necess>y exp5ses = new *>act]s1 &       
because booksell]s give n _! money by   
h&fuls to "y au?ors2 al?\gh to me x     
seem$ b j my "w %\ld r5d] me ! bread ,i 
_h eat5 :ile employ$ 9 its composition4 
,bonnefond introduc$ me to ,quillau !   
fa!r1 ) :om ,i agre$ to divide ! pr(its1
 )\t reckon+ ! privilege1 ( :i* ,i paid 
! :ole exp5se4 ,su* 7 ! future proce$+s 
( ?is ,quillau t ,i lo/ ! exp5ses ( my  
privilege1 nev] hav+ receiv$ a f>?+ f t 

edition2 :i*1 probably1 _h b v middl+   
success1 al?\gh ! ,abbe des ,fonta9es   
promis$ to give x celebrity1 &1 not)/&+ 
! o!r j\rnali/s1 _h spok5 ( x v         
favorably4  ,! greate/ ob/acle to mak+ !
 exp]im5t ( my sy/em 0 ! fe>1 9 case (  
its n be+ receiv$1 ( los+ ! "t necess>y 
to le>n x4 ,to ?is ,i answ]$1 t my notes
 r5d]$ ! ideas s cle>1 t to le>n music  
by means ( ! ord9>y *>act]s1 "t w\ld be 
ga9$ by beg9n+ ) m9e4 ,to prove ?is by  
exp]i5ce1 ,i taught music gratis to a "y
 ,am]ican lady1 ,mademoiselle des       
,r\l9s1 ) :om ,m4 ,rogu9 _h br\ght me   
acqua9t$4 ,9 ?ree mon?s %e read e k9d ( 
music1 by means ( my notation1 & sung at
 sight bett] ?an ,i did myself1 any     
piece t 0 n too difficult4 ,?is success 
0 conv9c+1 b n kn[n2 any o!r p]son w\ld 
h fill$ ! j\rnals ) ! detail1 b ) "s    
tal5ts = discov]+ useful ?+s1 ,i nev] h 
possess$ t ( sett+ !m (f to advantage4  
,?us 0 my airy ca/le aga9 ov]?r[n2 b ?is
 "t ,i 0 ?irty ye>s ( age1 & 9 ,p>is1   
:]e x is impossible to live = a trifle4 

,! resolution ,i took ^u ?is occasion w 
a/oni% none b ^? by :om ! fir/ "p ( ^!  
memoirs has n be5 read ) att5tion4 ,i _h
 j made great & fruitless ef=ts1 & 0 9  
ne$ ( relaxation4 ,in/ead ( s9k+ )      
despair ,i gave myself up quietly to my 
indol5ce & to ! c>e ( ,provid5ce2 & !   
bett] to wait = its assi/ance ) pati5ce1
 ,i lay d[n a frugal plan = ! sl[       
exp5diture ( a few l\is1 :i* /ill rema9$
 9 my possession1 regulat+ ! exp5se ( my
 sup9e pleasures )\t retr5*+ x2 go+ to !
 c(fee-h\se b e o!r day1 & to ! !atre b 
twice a week4 ,) respect to ! exp5ses ( 
girls ( easy virtue1 ,i _h no retr5*m5t 
to make2 nev] hav+ 9 ! :ole c\rse ( my  
life appli$ s mu* z a f>?+ to t use     
except once1 ( :i* ,i %all soon h       
occasion to speak4 ,! security1         
voluptu\sness1 & confid5ce ) :i* ,i gave
 myself up to ?is indol5t & solit>y     
life1 :i* ,i _h n ! means ( cont9u+ =   
?ree mon?s1 is "o ( ! s+ul>ities ( my   
life1 & ! oddities ( my disposition4 ,! 
extreme desire ,i _h ! public %\ld ?9k (

 me 0 precisely :at disc\rag$ me f %[+  
myself2 & ! necessity ( pay+ visits     
r5d]$ !m to su* a degree insupportable1 
t ,i ceas$ visit+ ! academicians & o!r  
m5 ( lett]s1 ) :om ,i _h cultivat$ an   
acqua9tance4 ,m>ivaux1 ! ,abbe ,malby1 &
 ,font5elle1 7 almo/ ! only p]sons :om  
,i sometimes w5t to see4 ,to ! fir/ ,i  
%[$ my com$y ( ,n>cissus4 ,he 0 pleas$ )
 x1 & _h ! goodness to make 9 x "s      
improvem5ts4 ,did]ot1 y\ng] ?an ^!1 0   
mu* ab\t my own age4 ,he 0 fond ( music1
 & knew x !oretically2 we conv]s$       
toge!r1 & he communicat$ to me "s ( 8   
lit]>y projects4 ,?is soon =m$ betwixt u
 a m intimate connection1 :i* la/$      
fifte5 ye>s1 & :i* probably w\ld /ill   
exi/ 7 n ,i1 un=tunately1 & by 8 own    
fault1 ( ! same pr(ession ) himself4  ,x
 w\ld be impossible to imag9e 9 :at     
mann] ,i employ$ ?is %ort & preci\s     
int]val :i* /ill rema9$ to me1 be=e     
circum/ances =c$ me to beg my bread3--9 
le>n+ by memory passages f ! poets :i*  
,i _h le>n$ & =gott5 a hundr$ times4 ,e 

morn+ at t5 o'clock1 ,i w5t to walk 9 ! 
,luxemb\rg ) a ,virgil & a ,r\sseau 9 my
 pocket1 & !re1 until ! h\r ( d9n]1 ,i  
pass$ away ! "t 9 re/or+ to my memory a 
sacr$ ode or a bucolic1 )\t be+         
disc\rag$ by =gett+1 by ! /udy ( !      
morn+1 :at ,i _h le>n$ ! ev5+ be=e4 ,i  
recollect$ t aft] ! defeat ( ,nicias at 
,syracuse ! captive ,a!nians obta9$ a   
livelihood by recit+ ! poems ( ,hom]4 ,!
 use ,i made ( ?is erudition to w>d (f  
mis]y 0 to ex]cise my happy memory by   
le>n+ all ! poets by rote4  ,i _h ano!r 
exp$i5t1 n less solid1 9 ! game ( *ess1 
to :i* ,i regul>ly d$icat$1 at ,maugis1 
! ev5+s on :i* ,i did n g to ! !atre4 ,i
 became acqua9t$ ) ,m4 de ,legal1 ,m4   
,husson1 ,philidor1 & all ! great *ess  
play]s ( ! day1 )\t mak+ ! lea/         
improvem5t 9 ! game4 ,h[ev]1 ,i _h no   
d\bt b1 9 ! end1 ,i %\ld become sup]ior 
to !m all1 & ?is1 9 my own op9ion1 0 a  
suffici5t res\rce4 ,! same mann] (      
reason+ s]v$ me 9 e folly to :i* ,i felt
 myself incl9$4 ,i said to myself3 :oev]

 excels 9 any?+ is sure to acquire a    
di/+ui%$ reception 9 society4 ,let u    
!re=e excel1 no matt] 9 :at1 ,i %all    
c]ta9ly be s\ght aft]2 opportunities w  
pres5t !mselves1 & my own m]it w d !    
re/4 ,?is *ildi%ness 0 n ! sophism ( my 
reason2 x 0 t ( my indol5ce4 ,dismay$ at
 ! great & rapid ef=ts :i* w\ld h be5   
necess>y to call =? my endeavors1 ,i    
/rove to flatt] my idl5ess1 & by        
argum5ts suitable to ! purpose1 veil$ f 
my own eyes ! %ame ( su* a /ate4  ,i ?us
 calmly wait$ = ! mom5t :5 ,i 0 to be   
)\t money2 & _h n ,fa!r ,ca/el1 :om ,i  
sometimes w5t to see 9 my way to !      
c(fee-h\se1 r\s$ me f my le?>gy1 ,i     
believe ,i %\ld h se5 myself r$uc$ to my
 la/ f>?+ )\t ! lea/ emotion4 ,fa!r     
,ca/el 0 a madman1 b a good man ^u !    
:ole2 he 0 sorry to see me ?us impov]i% 
myself to no purpose4 ,s9ce musicians & 
! le>n$1 said he1 d n s+ by y\r scale1  
*ange ! /r+1 & apply to ! wom54 ,y w    
p]haps succe$ bett] ) !m4 ,i h spok5 ( y
 to ,madam de ,beuz5val2 g to h] f me2  

%e is a good woman :o w be glad to see !
 c\ntryman ( h] son & husb&4 ,y w f9d at
 h] h\se ,madam de ,broglie1 h] daught]1
 :o is a woman ( wit4 ,madam ,dup9 is   
ano!r to :om ,i also h m5tion$ y2 c>ry  
h] y\r "w2 %e is desir\s ( see+ y1 & w  
receive y well4 ,no ?+ is done 9 ,p>is  
)\t ! wom54 ,!y are ! curves1 ( :i* !   
wise are ! asymptotes2 !y incessantly   
approa* ea* o!r1 b nev] t\*4  ,aft] hav+
 f day to day delay$ ^! v disagreeable  
/eps1 ,i at l5g? took c\rage1 & call$ ^u
 ,madam de ,beuz5val4 ,%e receiv$ me )  
k9dness2 & ,madam de ,broglio ent]+ !   
*amb]1 %e said to h]3 ,daught]1 ?is is  
,m4 ,r\sseau1 ( :om ,fa!r ,ca/el has    
spok5 to u4 ,madam de ,broglie          
complim5t$ me ^u my "w1 & go+ to h]     
h>psi*ord prov$ to me %e _h already giv5
 x "s att5tion4 ,p]ceiv+ x to be ab\t "o
 o'clock1 ,i prep>$ to take my leave4   
,madam de ,beuz5val said to me3 ,y are  
at a great di/ance f ! qu>t] ( ! t[n 9  
:i* y reside2 /ay & d9e "h4 ,i did n    
want ask+ a second "t4 ,a qu>t] ( an h\r

 aft]w>ds1 ,i und]/ood1 by a ^w1 t !    
d9n] to :i* %e _h invit$ me 0 t ( h]    
s]vants' hall4 ,madam de ,beuz5val 0 a v
 good k9d ( woman1 b ( a conf9$ und]/&+1
 & too full ( h] illu/ri\s ,poli%       
nobility3 %e _h no idea ( ! respect due 
to tal5ts4 ,on ?is occasion1 likewise1  
%e judg$ me by my mann] r ?an by my     
dress1 :i*1 al?\gh v pla91 0 v neat1 &  
by no means ann\nc$ a man to d9e )      
s]vants4 ,i _h too long =gott5 ! way to 
! place :]e !y eat to be incl9$ to take 
x aga94 ,)\t suff]+ my ang] to appe>1 ,i
 told ,madam de ,beuz5val t ,i _h an    
affair ( a trifl+ nature :i* ,i _h j    
recollect$ oblig$ me to return home1 &  
,i imm$iately prep>$ to dep>t4 ,madam de
 ,broglie approa*$ h] "m1 & :isp]$ 9 h] 
e> a few words :i* _h _! effect4 ,madam 
de ,beuz5val rose to prev5t me f go+1 & 
said1 ,i expect t y w d u ! honor to d9e
 ) u4 ,9 ?is case ,i ?\ght to %[ pride  
w\ld be a m>k ( folly1 & ,i det]m9$ to  
/ay4 ,! goodness ( ,madam de ,broglie _h
 besides made an impression ^u me1 &    

r5d]$ h] int]e/+ 9 my eyes4 ,i 0 v glad 
to d9e ) h]1 & hop$1 t :5 %e knew me    
bett]1 %e w\ld n regret hav+ procur$ me 
t honor4 ,! ,presid5t de ,lamoignon1 v  
intimate 9 ! family1 d9$ !re also4 ,he1 
z well z ,madam de ,broglie1 0 a ma/] ( 
all ! modi% & fa%ionable small talk     
j>gon ( ,p>is4 ,poor ,jean ,jacques 0   
unable to make a figure 9 ?is way4 ,i _h
 s5se en\gh n to pret5d to x1 & 0 sil5t4
 ,happy w\ld x h be5 = me1 _h ,i always 
possess$ ! same wisdom2 ,i %\ld n be 9 !
 abyss into :i* ,i am n[ fall54 ,i 0    
vex$ at my own /upidity1 & at be+ unable
 to ju/ify to ,madam de ,broglie :at %e 
_h done 9 my favor4  ,aft] d9n] ,i ?\ght
 ( my ord9>y res\rce4 ,i _h 9 my pocket 
an epi/le 9 v]se1 writt5 to ,p>isot dur+
 my resid5ce at ,lyons4 ,?is fragm5t 0 n
 )\t "s fire1 :i* ,i increas$ by my     
mann] ( read+1 & made !m all ?ree %$    
te>s4 ,:e!r x 0 vanity1 or really !     
tru?1 ,i ?\ght ! eyes ( ,madam de       
,broglie seem$ to say to h] "m3 ,well1  
mamma1 0 ,i wrong 9 tell+ y ?is man 0   

fitt] to d9e ) u ?an ) y\r wom58 ,until 
!n my he>t _h be5 r burd5$1 b aft] ?is  
rev5ge ,i felt myself satisfi$4 ,madam  
de ,broglie1 c>ry+ h] favorable op9ion (
 me r too f>1 ?\ght ,i %\ld imm$iately  
acquire fame 9 ,p>is1 & become a        
favorite ) f9e ladies4 ,to guide my     
inexp]i5ce %e gave me ! confessions ( ! 
,c\nt de -----4 ,?is book1 said %e1 is a
 ,m5tor1 ( :i* y w /& 9 ne$ 9 ! great   
_w4 ,y w d well by sometimes consult+ x4
 ,i kept ! book upw>ds ( tw5ty ye>s ) a 
s5tim5t ( gratitude to h] f ^: h& ,i _h 
receiv$ x1 al?\gh ,i frequ5tly laugh$ at
 ! op9ion ! lady seem$ to h ( my m]it 9 
gallantry4 ,f ! mom5t ,i _h read ! "w1  
,i 0 desir\s ( acquir+ ! fri5d%ip ( !   
au?or4 ,my incl9ation l$ me "r2 he is ! 
only real fri5d ,i ev] possess$ among/  
m5 ( lett]s4       ,i h s long be5 ( !  
same op9ion1 & s p]fectly conv9c$      (
 its be+ well f\nd$1 t s9ce my return to
 ,p>is ,i confid$      to him !         
manuscript ( my confessions4  ,!        
suspici\s ,j4 ,j4      nev] suspect$    

p]fidy & falsehood until he _h be5 _!   
victim4  ,f ?is "t ,i ?\ght ,i might    
dep5d on ! s]vices ( ,madam ! ,b>oness (
 ,beuz5val1 & ! ,m>*ioness ( ,broglie1 &
 t !y w\ld n long leave me )\t res\rce4 
,9 ?is ,i 0 n deceiv$4 ,b ,i mu/ n[     
speak ( my fir/ visit to ,madam ,dup91  
:i* produc$ m la/+ consequ5ces4  ,madam 
,dup9 01 z e "o 9 ,p>is kn[s1 ! daught] 
( ,samuel ,b]n>d & ,madam ,fonta9e4 ,!re
 7 ?ree si/]s1 :o might be call$ ! ?ree 
graces4 ,madam de la ,t\*e :o play$ a   
little prank1 & w5t to ,engl& ) ! ,duke 
( ,k+/on4 ,madam ,d>by1 ! elde/ ( !     
?ree2 ! fri5d1 ! only s9c]e fri5d ( !   
,pr9ce ( ,conti2 an adorable woman1 z   
well by h] sweetness & ! goodness ( h]  
*>m+ "*1 z by h] agreeable wit &        
incessant *e]fulness4 ,la/ly1 ,madam    
,dup91 m beautiful ?an ei!r ( h] si/]s1 
& ! only "o :o has n be5 reproa*$ ) "s  
levity ( conduct4  ,%e 0 ! rew>d ( !    
hospitality ( ,m4 ,dup91 to :om h] "m   
gave h] 9 m>riage ) ! place ( f>m] g5]al
 & an imm5se =tune1 9 return = ! good   

reception he _h giv5 h] 9 8 prov9ce4 ,:5
 ,i saw h] = ! fir/ "t1 %e 0 /ill "o ( !
 f9e/ wom5 9 ,p>is4 ,%e receiv$ me at h]
 toilette1 h] arms 7 uncov]$1 h] hair   
di%evell$1 & h] comb+-clo? ill-arrang$4 
,?is sc5e 0 new to me2 x 0 too p[]ful = 
my poor head1 ,i became confus$1 my     
s5ses w&]$2 9 %ort1 ,i 0 viol5tly smitt5
 by ,madam ,dup94  ,illu/ration3 #jbfh  
,my confusion 0 n prejudicial to me2 %e 
did n p]ceive x4 ,%e k9dly receiv$ !    
book & ! au?or2 spoke ) in=mation ( my  
plan1 sung1 accompani$ h]self on !      
h>psi*ord1 kept me to d9n]1 & plac$ me  
at table by h] side4 ,less ?an ?is w\ld 
h turn$ my bra92 ,i became mad4 ,%e     
p]mitt$ me to visit h]1 & ,i abus$ !    
p]mission4 ,i w5t to see h] almo/ e day1
 & d9$ ) h] twice or ?rice a week4 ,i   
burn$ ) incl9ation to speak1 b nev] d>$ 
attempt x4 ,sev]al circum/ances increas$
 my natural timidity4 ,p]mission to     
visit 9 an opul5t family 0 a door op5 to
 =tune1 & 9 my situation ,i 0 unwill+ to
 run ! risk ( %utt+ x aga9/ myself4     

,madam ,dup91 amiable z %e 01 0 s]i\s & 
unanimat$2 ,i f\nd no?+ 9 h] mann]s     
suffici5tly allur+ to embold5 me4 ,h]   
h\se1 at t "t1 z brilliant z any o!r 9  
,p>is1 0 frequ5t$ by societies ! less   
num]\s1 z ! p]sons by :om !y 7 compos$ 7
 *os5 on acc\nt ( "s di/+ui%$ m]it4 ,%e 
0 fond ( see+ e "o :o _h claims to a    
m>k$ sup]iority2 ! great m5 ( lett]s1 & 
f9e wom54 ,no p]son 0 se5 9 h] circle b 
dukes1 ambassadors1 & blue ribbons4 ,!  
,pr9cess ( ,rohan1 ! ,c\ntess (         
,=calqui]1 ,madam de ,mirepoix1 ,madam  
de ,brignole1 & ,lady ,h]vey1 pass$ = h]
 intimate fri5ds4 ,! ,abbes de          
,font5elle1 de ,sa9t ,pi]re1 & ,salti]1 
,m4 de ,f\rmont1 ,m4 de ,b]ms1 ,m4 de   
,buffon1 & ,m4 de ,voltaire1 7 ( h]     
circle & h] d9n]s4 ,if h] res]v$ mann]  
did n attract _m "y p1 h] society       
inspir$ ! great] awe1 z x 0 compos$ (   
grav] p]sons1 & ! poor ,jean-,jacques _h
 no reason to flatt] himself he %\ld be 
able to take a di/+ui%$ "p 9 ! mid/ (   
su* sup]ior tal5ts4 ,i !re=e _h n c\rage

 to speak2 b no long] able to conta9    
myself1 ,i took a resolution to write4  
,= ! fir/ two days %e said n a ^w to me 
^u ! subject4 ,on ! ?ird day1 %e return$
 me my lett]1 accompany+ x ) a few      
exhortations :i* froze my blood4 ,i     
attempt$ to speak1 b my words expir$ ^u 
my lips2 my sudd5 passion 0 ext+ui%$ )  
my hopes1 & aft] a decl>ation 9 =m ,i   
cont9u$ to live ) h] ^u ! same t]ms z   
be=e1 )\t s mu* z speak+ to h] ev5 by ! 
language ( ! eyes4  ,i ?\ght my folly 0 
=gott51 b ,i 0 deceiv$4 ,m4 de          
,francueil1 son to ,m4 ,dup91 &         
son-9-law to ,madam ,dup91 0 mu* ! same 
) h]self & me4 ,he _h wit1 a good p]son1
 & might h pret5sions4 ,?is 0 said to be
 ! case1 & probably proce$$ f 8         
"m-9-law's hav+ giv5 him an ugly wife ( 
a mild disposition1 ) :om1 z well z ) h]
 husb&1 %e liv$ ^u ! be/ ( t]ms4 ,m4 de 
,francueil 0 fond ( tal5ts 9 o!rs1 &    
cultivat$ ^? he possess$4 ,music1 :i* he
 und]/ood v well1 0 a means ( produc+ a 
connection betwe5 u4 ,i frequ5tly saw   

him1 & he soon ga9$ my fri5d%ip4 ,he1   
h[ev]1 sudd5ly gave me to und]/& t      
,madam ,dup9 ?\ght my visits too        
frequ5t1 & begg$ me to discont9ue !m4   
,su* a complim5t w\ld h be5 prop] :5 %e 
return$ my lett]2 b eight or t5 days    
aft]w>ds1 & )\t any new cause1 x appe>$ 
to me ill-tim$4 ,?is r5d]$ my situation 
! m s+ul>1 z ,m4 & ,madam de ,francueil 
/ill cont9u$ to give me ! same good     
reception z be=e4  ,i h[ev] made !      
int]vals betwe5 my visits long]1 & ,i   
%\ld entirely h ceas$ call+ on !m1 _h n 
,madam ,dup91 by ano!r unexpect$        
caprice1 s5t to desire ,i w\ld = a few  
days take c>e ( h] son1 :o *ang+ 8      
preceptor1 rema9$ alone dur+ t int]val4 
,i pass$ eight days 9 su* torm5ts z no?+
 b ! pleasure ( obey+ ,madam ,dup9 c\ld 
r5d] supportable3 ,i w\ld n h und]tak5  
to pass eight o!r days l !m _h ,madam   
,dup9 giv5 me h]self = ! recomp5se4  ,m4
 de ,francueil conceiv$ a fri5d%ip = me1
 & ,i /udi$ ) him4 ,we began toge!r a   
c\rse ( *emi/ry at ,r\elles4 ,t ,i might

 be ne>] at h&1 ,i left my hotel at     
,qu5t91 & w5t to lodge at ! ,t5nis      
,c\rt1 ,rue ,v]delet1 :i* leads into !  
,rue ,plati]e1 :]e ,m4 ,dup9 liv$4 ,!re1
 9 consequ5ce ( a cold neglect$1 ,i     
contract$ an inflammation ( ! lungs t _h
 lik$ to h c>ri$ me (f4 ,9 my y\ng] days
 ,i frequ5tly suff]$ f inflammatory     
disord]s1 pleurisies1 & especially      
qu9sies1 to :i* ,i 0 v subject1 & :i*   
frequ5tly br\ght me ne> en\gh to dea? to
 famili>ize me to its image4  ,dur+ my  
convalesc5ce ,i _h leisure to reflect ^u
 my situation1 & to lam5t my timidity1  
weakness & indol5ce2 ^!1 not)/&+ ! fire 
) :i* ,i f\nd myself inflam$1 left me to
 langui% 9 an inactivity ( m9d1         
cont9ually on ! v]ge ( mis]y4 ,! ev5+   
prec$+ ! day on :i* ,i 0 tak5 ill1 ,i   
w5t to an op]a by ,roy]2 ! "n ,i h      
=gott54 ,not)/&+ my prejudice 9 favor ( 
! tal5ts ( o!rs1 :i* has ev] made me    
di/ru/ful ( my own1 ,i /ill ?\ght !     
music feeble1 & devoid ( animation &    
inv5tion4 ,i sometimes _h ! vanity to   

flatt] myself3 ,i ?9k ,i c\ld d bett]   
?an t4 ,b ! t]rible idea ,i _h =m$ ( !  
composition ( an op]a1 & ! importance ,i
 he>d m5 ( ! pr(ession affix to su* an  
und]tak+1 in/antly disc\rag$ me1 & made 
me blu% at hav+ s mu* z ?\ght ( x4      
,besides1 :]e 0 ,i to f9d a p]son to    
write ! words1 & "o :o w\ld give himself
 ! tr\ble ( turn+ ! poetry to my lik+8  
,^! ideas ( music & ! op]a _h possession
 ( my m9d dur+ my illness1 & 9 !        
delirium ( my fev] ,i compos$ songs1    
duets1 & *oruses4 ,i am c]ta9 ,i compos$
 two or ?ree little pieces1 'di prima   
inf5zione'1 p]haps wor?y ( ! admiration 
( ma/]s1 c\ld !y h he>d !m execut$4 ,oh1
 c\ld an acc\nt be tak5 ( ! dreams ( a  
man 9 a fev]1 :at great & sublime ?+s   
w\ld sometimes proce$ f 8 delirium6  ,^!
 subjects ( music & op]a /ill engag$ my 
att5tion dur+ my convalesc5ce1 b my     
ideas 7 less en]getic4 ,long & frequ5t  
m$itations1 & :i* 7 (t5 involunt>y1 &   
made su* an impression ^u my m9d t ,i   
resolv$ to attempt bo? words & music4   

,?is 0 n ! fir/ "t ,i _h und]tak5 s     
difficult a task4 ,:il/ ,i 0 at ,*amb]y 
,i _h compos$ an op]a entitl$ ',iphis & 
,anax>ete'1 :i* ,i _h ! good s5se to ?r[
 into ! fire4 ,at ,lyons ,i _h compos$  
ano!r1 entitl$ ',la ,dec\v]te du ,n\veau
 ,monde'1 :i*1 aft] hav+ read x to ,m4  
,bordes1 ! ,abbes ,malby1 ,trublet1 &   
o!rs1 _h met ! same fate1 not)/&+ ,i _h 
set ! prologue & ! fir/ act to music1 & 
al?\gh ,david1 aft] exam9+ !            
composition1 _h told me !re 7 passages 9
 x wor?y ( ,buononc9i4  ,be=e ,i began !
 "w ,i took "t to consid] ( my plan4 ,9 
a h]oic ballet ,i propos$ ?ree diff]5t  
subjects1 9 ?ree acts1 deta*$ f ea* o!r1
 set to music ( a diff]5t "*1 tak+ = ea*
 subject ! am\rs ( a poet4 ,i entitl$   
?is op]a ,les ,muses ,galantes4 ,my fir/
 act1 9 music /rongly *>act]iz$1 0      
,tasso2 ! second 9 t5d] h>mony1 ,ovid2 &
 ! ?ird1 entitl$ ,anacreon1 0 to p>take 
( ! gayety ( ! di?yrambus4 ,i tri$ my   
skill on ! fir/ act1 & appli$ to x ) an 
ardor :i*1 = ! fir/ "t1 made me feel !  

delightful s5sation produc$ by !        
creative p[] ( composition4 ,"o ev5+1 z 
,i ent]$ ! op]a1 feel+ myself /rongly   
incit$ & ov]p[]$ by my ideas1 ,i put my 
money aga9 into my pocket1 return$ to my
 ap>tm5t1 lock$ ! door1 &1 hav+ close   
drawn all ! curta9s1 t e ray ( light    
might be exclud$1 ,i w5t to b$1 ab&on+  
myself entirely to ?is musical &        
poetical 'oe/rum'1 & 9 sev5 or eight    
h\rs rapidly compos$ ! greate/ "p ( an  
act4 ,i c truly say my love = ! ,pr9cess
 ( ,f]r>a 7= ,i 0 ,tasso = ! mom5t7 & my
 noble & l(ty s5tim5t ) respect to h]   
unju/ bro!r1 procur$ me a night a hundr$
 times m delici\s ?an "o pass$ 9 ! arms 
( ! pr9cess w\ld h be54 ,9 ! morn+ b a v
 little ( :at ,i _h done rema9$ 9 my    
head1 b ?is little1 almo/ effac$ by     
sleep & lassitude1 /ill suffici5tly     
ev9c$ ! en]gy ( ! pieces ( :i* x 0 !    
scatt]$ rema9s4  ,i ?is "t did1 n proce$
 f> ) my und]tak+1 be+ int]rupt$ by o!r 
affairs4 ,:il/ ,i atta*$ myself to !    
family ( ,dup91 ,madam de ,beuz5val &   

,madam de ,broglie1 :om ,i cont9u$ to   
visit1 _h n =gott5 me4 ,! ,c\nt de      
,montaigu1 capta9 9 ! gu>ds1 _h j be5   
appo9t$ ambassador to ,v5ice4 ,he 0 an  
ambassador made by ,b>jac1 to :om he    
assidu\sly paid 8 c\rt4 ,8 bro!r1 !     
,*evali] de ,montaigu1 'g5tilhomme de la
 man*e' to ! dauph91 0 acqua9t$ ) ^!    
ladies1 & ) ! ,abbe ,al>y ( ! ,fr5*     
academy1 :om ,i sometimes visit$4 ,madam
 de ,broglie hav+ he>d ! ambassador 0   
seek+ a secret>y1 propos$ me to him4 ,a 
conf]5ce 0 op5$ betwe5 u4 ,i ask$ a     
sal>y ( fifty gu9eas1 a trifle = an     
employm5t :i* requir$ me to make "s     
appe>ance4 ,! ambassador 0 unwill+ to   
give m ?an a ?\s& livres1 leav+ me to   
make ! j\rney at my own exp5se4 ,!      
proposal 0 ridicul\s4 ,we c\ld n agree1 
& ,m4 de ,francueil1 :o us$ all 8 ef=ts 
to prev5t my dep>ture1 prevail$4  ,i    
/ay$1 & ,m4 de ,montaigu set out on 8   
j\rney1 tak+ ) him ano!r secret>y1 "o   
,m4 ,follau1 :o _h be5 recomm5d$ to him 
by ! (fice ( =eign affairs4 ,!y no soon]

 arriv$ at ,v5ice ?an !y qu>rell$4      
,follau p]ceiv+ he _h to d ) a madman1  
left him !re1 & ,m4 de ,montaigu hav+   
nobody ) him1 except a "y abbe ( ! "n ( 
,b9is1 :o wrote "u ! secret>y1 & 0 unfit
 to succe$ him1 _h rec\rse to me4 ,!    
*evali]1 8 bro!r1 a man ( wit1 by giv+  
me to und]/& !re 7 advantages annex$ to 
! place ( secret>y1 prevail$ ^u me to   
accept ! ?\s& livres4 ,i 0 paid tw5ty   
l\is 9 advance = my j\rney1 & imm$iately
 dep>t$4  ,at ,lyons ,i w\ld mo/ will+ly
 h tak5 ! road to ,m\nt ,c5is1 to see my
 poor mamma4 ,b ,i w5t d[n ! ,rhone1 &  
emb>k$ at ,t\lon1 z well on acc\nt ( !  
w>1 & f a motive ( economy1 z to obta9 a
 passport f ,m4 de ,mirepoix1 :o !n     
comm&$ 9 ,prov5ce1 & to :om ,i 0        
recomm5d$4 ,m4 de ,montaigu n be+ able  
to d )\t me1 wrote lett] aft] lett]1    
desir+ ,i w\ld ha/5 my j\rney2 ?is1     
h[ev]1 an accid5t consid]ably prolong$4 
,x 0 at ! "t ( ! plague at ,mess9a1 & ! 
,engli% fleet _h an*or$ !re1 & visit$ ! 
,felucca1 on bo>d ( :i* ,i 01 & ?is     

circum/ance subject$ u1 on our arrival1 
aft] a long & difficult voyage1 to a    
qu>ant9e ( "o-&-tw5ty days4  ,! pass5g]s
 _h ! *oice ( p]=m+ x on bo>d or 9 !    
,laz>etto1 :i* we 7 told 0 n yet        
furni%$4 ,!y all *ose ! ,felucca4 ,!    
insupportable heat1 ! clos5ess ( !      
vessel1 ! impossibility ( walk+ 9 x1 & !
 v]m9 ) :i* x sw>m$1 made me at all     
risks pref] ! ,laz>etto4 ,i 0 !re=e     
conduct$ to a l>ge build+ ( two /ories1 
q empty1 9 :i* ,i f\nd nei!r w9d[1 b$1  
table1 nor *air1 n s mu* z ev5 a        
jo9t-/ool or bundle ( /raw4 ,my night   
sack & my two trunks be+ br\ght me1 ,i 0
 %ut 9 by great doors ) huge locks1 &   
rema9$ at full lib]ty to walk at my ease
 f *amb] to *amb] & /ory to /ory1       
ev]y:]e f9d+ ! same solitude & nak$ness4
  ,?is1 h[ev]1 did n induce me to rep5t 
t ,i _h pref]r$ ! ,laz>etto to !        
,felucca2 &1 l ano!r ,rob9son ,crusoe1  
,i began to arrange myself = my "o-&    
tw5ty days1 j z ,i %\ld h done = my :ole
 life4 ,9 ! fir/ place1 ,i _h ! amusem5t

 ( de/roy+ ! v]m9 ,i _h caught 9 !      
,felucca4 ,z soon z ,i _h got cle> ( ^!1
 by means ( *ang+ my clo!s & l951 ,i    
proce$$ to furni% ! *amb] ,i _h *os54 ,i
 made a good mattress ) my wai/coats &  
%irts2 my napk9s ,i conv]t$1 by sew+ !m 
toge!r1 into %eets2 my robe de *ambre   
into a c\nt]pane2 & my cloak into a     
pill[4 ,i made myself a seat ) "o ( my  
trunks laid flat1 & a table ) ! o!r4 ,i 
took out "s writ+ pap] & an ink/&1 &    
di/ribut$1 9 ! mann] ( a libr>y1 a doz5 
books :i* ,i _h ) me4 ,9 a ^w1 ,i s well
 arrang$ my few movables1 t except      
curta9s & w9d[s1 ,i 0 almo/ z           
commodi\sly lodg$ 9 ?is ,laz]etto1      
absolutely empty z x 01 z ,i _h be5 at !
 ,t5nis ,c\rt 9 ! ,rue ,v]delet4 ,my    
d9n]s 7 s]v$ ) no small degree ( pomp2  
!y 7 escort$ by two gr5adi]s ) bayonets 
fix$2 ! /aircase 0 my d9+-room1 !       
l&+-place my table1 & ! /eps s]v$ me = a
 seat2 & z soon z my d9n] 0 s]v$ up a   
little bell 0 rung to in=m me ,i might  
sit d[n to table4  ,betwe5 my repa/s1 :5

 ,i did n ei!r read or write or "w at ! 
furni%+ ( my ap>tm5t1 ,i w5t to walk 9 !
 bury+-gr\nd ( ! ,prote/ants1 :i* s]v$  
me z a c\rty>d4 ,f ?is place ,i asc5d$  
to a lan?orn :i* look$ into ! h>bor1 & f
 :i* ,i c\ld see ! %ips come 9 & g out4 
,9 ?is mann] ,i pass$ f\rte5 days1 &    
%\ld h ?us pass$ ! :ole "t ( ! qu>ant9e 
)\t ! lea/ we>9ess _h n ,m4 ,jo9ville1  
envoy f ,france1 to :om ,i f\nd means to
 s5d a lett]1 v9eg>$1 p]fum$1 & half    
burnt1 procur$ eight days ( ! "t to be  
tak5 (f3 ^! ,i w5t & sp5t at 8 h\se1 :]e
 ,i confess ,i f\nd myself bett] lodg$  
?an 9 ! ,laz>etto4 ,he 0 extremely civil
 to me4 ,dupont1 8 secret>y1 0 a good   
creature3 he introduc$ me1 z well at    
,g5oa z 9 ! c\ntry1 to sev]al families1 
! company ( :i* ,i f\nd v ent]ta9+ &    
agreeable2 & ,i =m$ ) him an acqua9tance
 & a correspond5ce :i* we kept up = a   
consid]able l5g? ( "t4 ,i cont9u$ my    
j\rney1 v agreeably1 ?r\gh ,lomb>dy4 ,i 
saw ,milan1 ,v]ona1 ,brescie1 & ,padua1 
& at l5g? arriv$ at ,v5ice1 :]e ,i 0    

impati5tly expect$ by ! ambassador4  ,i 
f\nd !re piles ( despat*es1 f ! c\rt & f
 o!r ambassadors1 ! ciph]$ "p ( :i* he  
_h n be5 able to read1 al?\gh he _h all 
! ciph]s necess>y = t purpose1 nev] hav+
 be5 employ$ 9 any (fice1 nor ev5 se5 ! 
ciph] ( a m9i/]4 ,i 0 at fir/           
appreh5sive ( meet+ ) "s emb>rassm5t2 b 
,i f\nd no?+ c\ld be m easy1 & 9 less   
?an a week ,i _h deciph]$ ! :ole1 :i*   
c]ta9ly 0 n wor? ! tr\ble2 = n to m5tion
 ! little activity requir$ 9 ! embassy (
 ,v5ice1 x 0 n to su* a man z ,m4 de    
,montaigu t gov]nm5t w\ld confide a     
negotiation ( ev5 ! mo/ trifl+          
importance4 ,until my arrival he _h be5 
mu* emb>rass$1 nei!r kn[+ h[ to dictate 
nor to write legibly4 ,i 0 v useful to  
him1 ( :i* he 0 s5sible2 & he treat$ me 
well4 ,to ?is he 0 also induc$ by ano!r 
motive4 ,s9ce ! "t ( ,m4 de ,fr\lay1 8  
pr$ecessor1 ^: head became d]ang$1 !    
consul f ,france1 ,m4 le ,blond1 _h be5 
*>g$ ) ! affairs ( ! embassy1 & aft] !  
arrival ( ,m4 de ,montaigu1 cont9u$ to  

manage !m until he _h put him into !    
track4 ,m4 de ,montaigu1 hurt at ?is    
dis*>ge ( 8 duty by ano!r1 al?\gh he    
himself 0 incapable ( x1 became disgu/$ 
) ! consul1 & z soon z ,i arriv$ depriv$
 him ( ! functions ( secret>y to !      
embassy to give !m to me4 ,!y 7         
insep>able f ! title1 & he told me to   
take x4 ,z long z ,i rema9$ ) him he    
nev] s5t any p]son except myself "u ?is 
title to ! s5ate1 or to conf]5ce1 & ^u !
 :ole x 0 natural en\gh he %\ld pref]   
hav+ = secret>y to ! embassy a man      
atta*$ to him1 to a consul or a cl]k (  
(fice nam$ by ! c\rt4  ,?is r5d]$ my    
situation v agreeable1 & prev5t$ 8      
g5tlem51 :o 7 ,italians1 z well z 8     
pages1 & mo/ ( 8 suite f disput+        
prec$5ce ) me 9 8 h\se4 ,i made an      
advantage\s use ( ! au?ority annex$ to !
 title he _h conf]r$ ^u me1 by ma9ta9+ 8
 "r ( protection1 t is1 ! fre$om ( 8    
neighborhood1 aga9/ ! attempts sev]al   
times made to infr+e x2 a privilege :i* 
8 ,v5etian (fic]s took no c>e to def5d4 

,b ,i nev] p]mitt$ b&itti to take refuge
 !re1 al?\gh ?is w\ld h produc$ me      
advantages ( :i* 8 excell5cy w\ld n h   
disda9$ to p>take4 ,he ?\ght prop]1     
h[ev]1 to claim a "p ( ^? ( !           
secret>y%ip1 :i* is call$ ! *anc]y4 ,x 0
 9 "t ( w>1 & !re 7 _m passports issu$4 
,= ea* ( ^! passports a sequ9 0 paid to 
! secret>y :o made x out & c\nt]sign$ x4
 ,all my pr$ecessors _h be5 paid ?is    
sequ9 by ,fr5*m5 & o!rs )\t di/9ction4  
,i ?\ght ?is unju/1 & al?\gh ,i 0 n a   
,fr5*man1 ,i aboli%$ x 9 favor ( !      
,fr5*2 b ,i s rigor\sly dem&$ my "r f   
p]sons ( e o!r nation1 t ! ,m>quis de   
,scotti1 bro!r to ! favorite ( ! ,que5 (
 ,spa91 hav+ ask$ = a passport )\t tak+ 
notice ( ! sequ93 ,i s5t to dem& x2 a   
boldness :i* ! v9dictive ,italian did n 
=get4 ,z soon z ! new regulation ,i _h  
made1 relative to passports1 0 kn[n1    
none b pret5d$ ,fr5*m51 :o 9 a gibb]i% !
 mo/ mispron\nc$1 call$ !mselves        
,prov5cals1 ,pic>ds1 or ,burgundians1   
came to dem& !m4 ,my e> be+ v f9e1 ,i 0 

n ?us made a dupe1 & ,i am almo/ p]suad$
 t n a s+le ,italian ev] *eat$ me ( my  
sequ91 & t n "o ,fr5*man ev] paid x4 ,i 
0 fooli% en\gh to tell ,m4 de ,montaigu1
 :o 0 ignorant ( ev]y?+ t pass$1 :at ,i 
_h done4 ,! ^w sequ9 made him op5 8 e>s1
 & )\t giv+ me 8 op9ion ( ! abolition ( 
t tax ^u ! ,fr5*1 he pret5d$ ,i ought to
 acc\nt ) him = ! o!rs1 promis+ me at ! 
same "t equival5t advantages4 ,m fill$ )
 indignation at ?is meanness1 ?an conc]n
 = my own int]e/1 ,i reject$ 8 proposal4
 ,he insi/$1 & ,i grew w>m4 ,no1 sir1   
said ,i1 ) "s heat1 y\r excell5cy may   
keep :at belongs to y1 b d n take f me t
 :i* is m9e2 ,i w n suff] y to t\* a    
p5ny ( ! p]quisites aris+ f passports4  
,p]ceiv+ he c\ld ga9 no?+ by ^! means he
 _h rec\rse to o!rs1 & blu%$ n to tell  
me t s9ce ,i _h appropriat$ to myself ! 
pr(its ( ! *anc]y1 x 0 b j ,i %\ld pay !
 exp5ses4 ,i 0 unwill+ to dispute ^u ?is
 subject1 & f t "t ,i furni%$ at my own 
exp5se1 ink1 pap]1 wax1 wax-c&le1 tape1 
& ev5 a new seal1 = :i* he nev]         

reimburs$ me to ! am\nt ( a f>?+4 ,?is1 
h[ev]1 did n prev5t my giv+ a small "p (
 ! produce ( ! passports to ! ,abbe de  
,b9is1 a good creature1 & :o 0 f> f     
pret5d+ to h ! lea/ "r to any su* ?+4   
,if he 0 oblig+ to me my polit5ess to   
him 0 an equival5t1 & we always liv$    
toge!r on ! be/ ( t]ms4  ,on ! fir/     
trial ,i made ( 8 tal5ts 9 my (ficial   
functions1 ,i f\nd him less tr\blesome  
?an ,i expect$ he w\ld h be51 consid]+  
he 0 a man )\t exp]i5ce1 9 ! s]vice ( an
 ambassador :o possess$ no m ?an        
himself1 & ^: ignorance & ob/9acy       
con/antly c\nt]act$ ev]y?+ ) :i*        
common-s5se & "s in=mation inspir$ me = 
8 s]vice & t ( ! k+4 ,! next ?+ !       
ambassador did 0 to connect himself ) ! 
,m>quis ,m>i1 ambassador f ,spa91 an    
+5i\s & artful man1 :o1 _h he wi%$ s to 
d1 might h l$ him by ! nose1 yet on     
acc\nt ( ! union ( ! int]e/s ( ! two    
cr[ns he g5]ally gave him good advice1  
:i* might h be5 ( ess5tial s]vice1 _h n 
! o!r1 by jo9+ 8 own op9ion1 c\nt]act$ x

 9 ! execution4 ,! only bus9ess !y _h to
 conduct 9 conc]t ) ea* o!r 0 to engage 
! ,v5etians to ma9ta9 _! neutrality4 ,^!
 did n neglect to give ! /ronge/        
assurances ( _! fidelity to _! engagem5t
 at ! same "t t !y publicly furni%$     
ammunition to ! ,au/rian troops1 & ev5  
recruits "u pret5se ( des]tion4 ,m4 de  
,montaigu1 :o ,i believe wi%$ to r5d]   
himself agreeable to ! republic1 fail$ n
 on 8 "p1 not)/&+ my repres5tation to   
make me assure ! gov]nm5t 9 all my      
despat*es1 t ! ,v5etians w\ld nev]      
violate an article ( ! neutrality4 ,!   
ob/9acy & /upidity ( ?is poor wret* made
 me write & act extravagantly3 ,i 0     
oblig$ to be ! ag5t ( 8 folly1 because  
he w\ld h x s1 b he sometimes r5d]$ my  
employm5t insupportable & ! functions ( 
x almo/ impracticable4 ,= example1 he   
insi/$ on ! greate/ "p ( 8 despat*es to 
! k+1 & ( ^? to ! m9i/]1 be+ writt5 9   
ciph]1 al?\gh nei!r ( !m conta9$ any?+ t
 requir$ t precaution4 ,i repres5t$ to  
him t betwe5 ! ,friday1 ! day !         

despat*es f ! c\rt arriv$1 & ,saturday1 
on :i* ours 7 s5t (f1 !re 0 n suffici5t 
"t to write s mu* 9 ciph]1 & c>ry on !  
consid]able correspond5ce ) :i* ,i 0    
*>g$ = ! same c\ri]4 ,he f\nd an        
admirable exp$i5t1 :i* 0 to prep>e on   
,?ursday ! answ] to ! despat*es we 7    
expect$ to receive on ! next day4 ,?is  
appe>$ to him s happily imag9$1 t       
not)/&+ all ,i c\ld say on !            
impossibility ( ! ?+1 & ! absurdity (   
attempt+ its execution1 ,i 0 oblig$ to  
comply dur+ ! :ole "t ,i aft]w>ds rema9$
 ) him1 aft] hav+ made notes ( ! few    
loose words he spoke to me 9 ! c\rse ( !
 week1 & ( "s trivial circum/ances :i*  
,i collect$ by hurry+ f place to place4 
,provid$ ) ^! mat]ials ,i nev] once     
fail$ c>ry+ to him on ! ,?ursday morn+ a
 r\gh draft ( ! despat*es :i* 7 to be   
s5t (f on ,saturday1 except+ ! few      
additions & corrections ,i ha/ily made 9
 answ] to ! lett]s :i* arriv$ on !      
,friday1 & to :i* ours s]v$ = answ]4 ,he
 _h ano!r cu/om1 div]t+ en\gh & :i* made

 8 correspond5ce ridicul\s beyond       
imag9ation4 ,he s5t back all in=mation  
to its respective s\rce1 in/ead ( mak+ x
 foll[ its c\rse4 ,to ,m4 ,amelot he    
transmitt$ ! news ( ! c\rt2 to ,m4      
,maurepas1 t ( ,p>is2 to ,m4 d'         
,havr9c\rt1 ! news f ,sw$52 to ,m4 de   
,*et>die1 t f ,pet]sb\rg2 & sometimes to
 ea* ( ^? ! news !y _h respectively s5t 
to him1 & :i* ,i 0 employ$ to dress up 9
 t]ms diff]5t f ^? 9 :i* x 0 convey$ to 
u4 ,z he read no?+ ( :at ,i laid be=e   
him1 except ! despat*es = ! c\rt1 &     
sign$ ^? to o!r ambassadors )\t read+   
!m1 ?is left me m at lib]ty to give :at 
turn ,i ?\ght prop] to ! latt]1 & 9 ^!  
!re=e ,i made ! articles ( in=mation    
cross ea* o!r4 ,b x 0 impossible = me to
 d ! same by despat*es ( importance2 &  
,i ?\ght myself happy :5 ,m4 de         
,montaigu did n take x into 8 head to   
cram into !m an impromptu ( a few l9es  
aft] 8 mann]4 ,?is oblig$ me to return1 
& ha/ily transcribe ! :ole despat*      
decorat$ ) 8 new nons5se1 & honor x ) ! 

ciph]1 )\t :i* he w\ld h refus$ 8       
signature4 ,i 0 frequ5tly almo/ tempt$1 
= ! sake ( 8 reputation1 to ciph] some?+
 diff]5t f :at he _h writt51 b feel+ t  
no?+ c\ld au?orize su* a deception1 ,i  
left him to answ] = 8 own folly1        
satisfy+ myself ) hav+ spok5 to him )   
fre$om1 & dis*>g$ at my own p]il !      
duties ( my /ation4 ,?is is :at ,i      
always did ) an uprightness1 a zeal &   
c\rage1 :i* m]it$ on 8 "p a v diff]5t   
recomp5se f t :i* 9 ! end ,i receiv$ f  
him4 ,x 0 "t ,i %\ld once be :at ,heav51
 :i* _h end[$ me ) a happy disposition1 
:at ! education t _h be5 giv5 me by !   
be/ ( wom51 & t ,i _h giv5 myself1 _h   
prep>$ me =1 & ,i became s4 ,left to my 
own reflections1 )\t a fri5d or advice1 
)\t exp]i5ce1 & 9 a =eign c\ntry1 9 !   
s]vice ( a =eign nation1 surr\nd$ by a  
cr[d ( knaves1 :o1 = _! own int]e/1 & to
 avoid ! sc&al ( good example1 endeavor$
 to prevail ^u me to imitate !m2 f> f   
yield+ to _! solicitations1 ,i s]v$     
,france well1 to :i* ,i ow$ no?+1 & !   

ambassador /ill bett]1 z x 0 "r & j ,i  
%\ld d to ! utmo/ ( my p[]4             
,irreproa*able 9 a po/1 suffici5tly     
expos$ to c5sure1 ,i m]it$ & obta9$ !   
e/eem ( ! republic1 t ( all !           
ambassadors ) :om we 7 9 correspond5ce1 
& ! affection ( ! ,fr5* :o resid$ at    
,v5ice1 n ev5 except+ ! consul1 :om )   
regret ,i supplant$ 9 ! functions :i* ,i
 knew belong$ to him1 & :i* occasion$ me
 m emb>rassm5t ?an !y af=d$ me          
satisfaction4  ,m4 de ,montaigu1 confid+
 )\t res]ve to ! ,m>quis ,m>i1 :o did n 
?or\ghly und]/& 8 duty1 neglect$ x to   
su* a degree t )\t me ! ,fr5* :o 7 at   
,v5ice w\ld n h p]ceiv$ t an ambassador 
f _! nation resid$ !re4 ,always put (f  
)\t be+ he>d :5 !y /ood 9 ne$ ( 8       
protection1 !y became disgu/$ & no long]
 appe>$ 9 8 company or at 8 table1 to   
:i* inde$ he nev] invit$ !m4 ,i         
frequ5tly did f myself :at x 0 8 duty to
 h done2 ,i r5d]$ to ! ,fr5*1 :o appli$ 
to me1 all ! s]vices 9 my p[]4 ,9 any   
o!r c\ntry ,i %\ld h done m1 b1 on      

acc\nt ( my employm5t1 n be+ able to see
 p]sons 9 place1 ,i 0 (t5 oblig$ to     
apply to ! consul1 & ! consul1 :o 0     
settl$ 9 ! c\ntry ) 8 family1 _h _m     
p]sons to oblige1 :i* prev5t$ him f act+
 z he o!rwise w\ld h done4 ,h[ev]1      
p]ceiv+ him unwill+ & afraid to speak1  
,i v5tur$ haz>d\s measures1 :i*         
sometimes succe$$4 ,i recollect "o :i*  
/ill makes me laugh4 ,no p]son w\ld     
suspect x 0 to me ! lov]s ( ! !atre at  
,p>is1 owe ,corall9e & h] si/] ,camille1
 no?+ h[ev]1 c be m true4 ,v]onese1 _!  
fa!r1 _h engag$ himself ) 8 *ildr5 9 !  
,italian company1 & aft] hav+ receiv$   
two ?\s& livres = ! exp5ses ( 8 j\rney1 
in/ead ( sett+ out = ,france1 quietly   
cont9u$ at ,v5ice1 & accept$ an         
engagem5t 9 ! !atre ( ,sa9t ,luke1 to   
:i* ,corall9e1 a *ild z %e /ill 01 drew 
great numb]s ( p4 ,! ,duke de ,greves1 z
 fir/ g5tleman ( ! *amb]1 wrote to !    
ambassador to claim ! fa!r & ! daught]4 
,m4 de ,montaigu :5 he gave me ! lett]1 
conf9$ 8 in/ructions to say+1 'voyez    

cela'1 exam9e & pay att5tion to ?is4 ,i 
w5t to ,m4 ,blond to beg he w\ld speak  
to ! patrician1 to :om ! !atre belong$1 
& :o1 ,i believe1 0 nam$ ,zu/9ian1 t he 
might dis*>ge ,v]onese1 :o _h engag$ 9 !
 "n ( ! k+4 ,le ,blond1 to :om !        
commission 0 n v agreeable1 execut$ x   
badly4  ,zu/9ian answ]$ vaguely1 &      
,v]onese 0 n dis*>g$4 ,i 0 piqu$ at ?is4
 ,x 0 dur+ ! c>nival1 & hav+ tak5 !     
bahute & a mask1 ,i set out = ! palace  
,zu/9ian4 ,^? :o saw my gondola arrive )
 ! liv]y ( ! ambassador1 7 lo/ 9        
a/oni%m5t4 ,v5ice _h nev] se5 su* a ?+4 
,i ent]$1 & caus$ myself to be ann\nc$  
by ! "n ( ',una ,siora ,mas*]a'4 ,z soon
 z ,i 0 introduc$ ,i took (f my mask &  
told my "n4 ,! s5ator turn$ pale &      
appe>$ /upefi$ ) surprise4 ,sir2 said ,i
 to him 9 ,v5etian1 x is ) mu* regret ,i
 importune y\r excell5cy ) ?is visit2 b 
y h 9 y\r !atre ( ,sa9t ,luke1 a man ( !
 "n ( ,v]onese1 :o is engag$ 9 ! s]vice 
( ! k+1 & :om y h be5 reque/$1 b 9 va91 
to give up3 ,i come to claim him 9 ! "n 

( 8 maje/y4 ,my %ort h>angue 0          
effectual4 ,i _h no soon] left ! palace 
?an ,zu/9ian ran to communicate !       
adv5ture to ! /ate inquisitors1 by :om  
he 0 sev]ely repreh5d$4 ,v]onese 0      
dis*>g$ ! same day4 ,i s5t him ^w t if  
he did n set (f )9 a week ,i w\ld h him 
arre/$4 ,he did n wait = my giv+ him ?is
 intimation a second "t4  ,on ano!r     
occasion ,i reliev$ f difficulty solely 
by my own means1 & almo/ )\t ! assi/ance
 ( any o!r p]son1 ! capta9 ( a          
m]*ant-%ip4 ,?is 0 "o ,capta9 ,olivet1 f
 ,m>seilles2 ! "n ( ! vessel ,i h       
=gott54 ,8 m5 _h qu>rel$ ) !            
,sclavonians 9 ! s]vice ( ! republic1 "s
 viol5ce _h be5 committ$1 & ! vessel 0  
"u s sev]e an emb>go t nobody except !  
ma/] 0 suff]$ to g on bo>d or leave x   
)\t p]mission4 ,he appli$ to !          
ambassador1 :o w\ld he> no?+ he _h to   
say4 ,he aft]w>ds w5t to ! consul1 :o   
told him x 0 n an affair ( comm]ce1 & t 
he c\ld n int]f]e 9 x4 ,n kn[+ :at fur!r
 /eps to take he appli$ to me4 ,i told  

,m4 de ,montaigu he ought to p]mit me to
 lay be=e ! s5ate a memoir on ! subject4
 ,i d n recollect :e!r or n he cons5t$1 
or t ,i pres5t$ ! memoir2 b ,i p]fectly 
rememb] t if ,i did x 0 ineffectual1 & !
 emb>go /ill cont9u+1 ,i took ano!r     
me?od1 :i* succe$$4 ,i ins]t$ a relation
 ( ! affairs 9 "o ( our lett]s to ,m4 de
 ,maurepas1 ?\gh ,i _h difficulty 9     
prevail+ ^u ,m4 de ,montaigne to suff] !
 article to pass4  ,i knew t our        
despat*es1 al?\gh _! cont5ts 7          
insignificant1 7 op5$ at ,v5ice4 ,( ?is 
,i _h a pro( by f9d+ ! articles !y      
conta9$1 v]batim 9 ! gazette1 a trea*]y 
( :i* ,i _h 9 va9 attempt$ to prevail ^u
 ! ambassador to compla94 ,my object 9  
speak+ ( ! affair 9 ! lett] 0 to turn ! 
curiosity ( ! m9i/]s ( ! republic to    
advantage1 to inspire !m ) "s           
appreh5sions1 & to induce ! /ate to     
release ! vessel3 = _h x be5 necess>y to
 ?is effect to wait = an answ] f ! c\rt1
 ! capta9 w\ld h be5 ru9$ be=e x c\ld h 
arriv$4 ,i did /ill m1 ,i w5t alongside 

! vessel to make inquiries ( ! %ip's    
company4 ,i took ) me ! ,abbe ,patizel1 
*ancellor ( ! consul%ip1 :o w\ld r h be5
 excus$1 s mu* 7 ^! poor creatures      
afraid ( displeas+ ! ,s5ate4 ,z ,i c\ld 
n g on bo>d1 on acc\nt ( ! ord] f !     
/ates1 ,i rema9$ 9 my gondola1 & !re    
took ! depositions successively1        
int]rogat+ ea* ( ! m>9]s1 & direct+ my  
que/ions 9 su* a mann] z to produce     
answ]s :i* might be to _! advantage4 ,i 
wi%$ to prevail ^u ,patizel to put !    
que/ions & take depositions himself1 :i*
 9 fact 0 m 8 bus9ess ?an m9e2 b to ?is 
he w\ld n cons5t2 he nev] once op5$ 8   
m\? & refus$ to sign ! depositions aft] 
me4 ,?is /ep1 some:at bold1 0 h[ev]1    
successful1 & ! vessel 0 releas$ long   
be=e an answ] came f ! m9i/]4 ,! capta9 
wi%$ to make me a pres5t2 b )\t be+     
angry ) him on t acc\nt1 ,i tapp$ him on
 ! %\ld]1 say+1 ,capta9 ,olivet1 c y    
imag9e t he :o does n receive f ! ,fr5* 
8 p]quisite = passports1 :i* he f\nd 8  
e/abli%$ "r1 is a man likely to sell !m 

! k+'s protection8 ,he1 h[ev]1 insi/$ on
 giv+ me a d9n] on bo>d 8 vessel1 :i* ,i
 accept$1 & took ) me ! secret>y to !   
,spani% embassy1 ,m4 ,c>rio1 a man ( wit
 & amiable mann]s1 to p>take ( x3 he has
 s9ce be5 secret>y to ! ,spani% embassy 
at ,p>is & *>ge des affaires4 ,i _h =m$ 
an intimate connection ) him aft] !     
example ( our ambassadors4  ,happy %\ld 
,i h be51 if1 :5 9 ! mo/ dis9t]e/$ mann]
 ,i did all ! s]vice ,i c\ld1 ,i _h kn[n
 h[ to introduce suffici5t ord] into all
 ^! little details1 t ,i might n h s]v$ 
o!rs at my own exp5se4 ,b 9 employm5ts  
simil> to t ,i held1 9 :i* ! mo/ trifl+ 
faults are ( consequ5ce1 my :ole        
att5tion 0 engag$ 9 avoid+ all su*      
mi/akes z might be detrim5tal to my     
s]vice4 ,i conduct$1 till ! la/ mom5t1  
ev]y?+ relative to my imm$iate duty1 ) !
 greate/ ord] & exactness4 ,except+ a   
few errors :i* a =c$ precipitation made 
me commit 9 ciph]+1 & ( :i* ! cl]ks (   
,m4 ,amelot once compla9$1 nei!r !      
ambassador nor any o!r p]son _h ev] !   

lea/ reason to reproa* me ) neglig5ce 9 
any "o ( my functions4 ,?is is rem>kable
 9 a man s neglig5t z ,i am4 ,b my      
memory sometimes fail$ me1 & ,i 0 n     
suffici5tly c>eful 9 ! private affairs )
 :i* ,i 0 *>g$2 h[ev]1 a love ( ju/ice  
always made me take ! loss on myself1 & 
?is volunt>ily1 be=e anybody ?\ght (    
compla9+4 ,i w m5tion b "o circum/ance (
 ?is nature2 x relates to my dep>ture f 
,v5ice1 & ,i aft]w>ds felt ! effects ( x
 9 ,p>is4  ,our cook1 ^: "n 0 ,r\sselot1
 _h br\ght f ,france an old note = two  
hundr$ livres1 :i* a hairdress]1 a fri5d
 ( 81 _h receiv$ f a noble ,v5etian ( ! 
"n ( ,zanetto ,nani1 :o _h _h wigs ( him
 to t am\nt4 ,r\sselot br\ght me ! note1
 begg+ ,i w\ld endeavor to obta9 paym5t 
( "s "p ( x1 by way ( accommodation4 ,i 
knew1 & he knew x also1 t ! con/ant     
cu/om ( noble ,v5etians 01 :5 once      
return$ to _! c\ntry1 nev] to pay !     
debts !y _h contract$ abroad4 ,:5 means 
are tak5 to =ce !m to paym5t1 ! wret*$  
cr$itor f9ds s _m delays1 & incurs su*  

enorm\s exp5ses1 t he becomes disgu/$ & 
concludes by giv+ up 8 debtor accept+ ! 
mo/ trifl+ composition4 ,i begg$ ,m4 le 
,blond to speak to ,zanetto4 ,! ,v5etian
 ackn[l$g$ ! note1 b did n agree to     
paym5t4 ,aft] a long dispute he at l5g? 
promis$ ?ree sequ9s2 b :5 ,le ,blond    
c>ri$ him ! note ev5 ^! 7 n ready1 & x 0
 necess>y to wait4 ,9 ?is int]val happ5$
 my qu>rel ) ! ambassador & ,i quitt$ 8 
s]vice4 ,i _h left ! pap]s ( ! embassy 9
 ! greate/ ord]1 b ! note ( ,r\sselot 0 
n to be f\nd4 ,m4 le ,blond assur$ me he
 _h giv5 x me back4 ,i knew him to be   
too hone/ a man to h ! lea/ d\bt ( !    
matt]2 b x 0 impossible = me to         
recollect :at ,i _h done ) x4 ,z        
,zanetto _h ackn[l$g$ ! debt1 ,i desir$ 
,m4 le ,blond to endeavor to obta9 f him
 ! ?ree sequ9s on giv+ him a receipt = !
 am\nt1 or to prevail ^u him to r5ew !  
note by way ( duplicate4 ,zanetto1 kn[+ 
! note to be lo/1 w\ld n agree to ei!r4 
,i (f]$ ,r\sselot ! ?ree sequ9s f my own
 purse1 z a dis*>ge ( ! debt4 ,he refus$

 !m1 & said ,i might settle ! matt] ) ! 
cr$itor at ,p>is1 ( :om he gave me !    
address4 ,! hair-dress]1 hav+ be5 in=m$ 
( :at _h pass$1 w\ld ei!r h 8 note or ! 
:ole sum = :i* x 0 giv54 ,:at1 9 my     
indignation1 w\ld ,i h giv5 to h f\nd   
?is vexati\s pap]6 ,i paid ! two hundr$ 
livres1 & t 9 my greate/ di/ress4 ,9 ?is
 mann] ! loss ( ! note produc$ to !     
cr$itor ! paym5t ( ! :ole sum1 :]eas _h 
x1 un=tunately = him1 be5 f\nd1 he w\ld 
h _h "s difficulty 9 recov]+ ev5 ! t5   
cr[ns1 :i* 8 excell5cy1 ,zanetto ,nani1 
_h promis$ to pay4  ,! tal5ts ,i ?\ght  
,i felt 9 myself = my employm5t made me 
dis*>ge ! functions ( x ) satisfaction1 
& except ! society ( my fri5d de ,c>rio1
 t ( ! virtu\s ,altuna1 ( :om ,i %all   
soon h an occasion to speak1 ! innoc5t  
recreations ( ! place ,sa9t ,m>k1 ( !   
!atre1 & ( a few visits :i* we1 = ! mo/ 
"p1 made toge!r1 my only pleasure 0 9 ! 
duties ( my /ation4 ,al?\gh ^! 7 n      
consid]able1 especially ) ! aid ( !     
,abbe de ,b9is1 yet z ! correspond5ce 0 

v ext5sive & !re 0 a w>1 ,i 0 a good    
deal employ$4 ,i appli$ to bus9ess !    
greate/ "p ( e morn+1 & on ! days       
previ\s to ! dep>ture ( ! c\ri]1 9 !    
ev5+s1 & sometimes till midnight4 ,! re/
 ( my "t ,i gave to ! /udy ( ! political
 pr(essions ,i _h ent]$ ^u1 & 9 :i* ,i  
hop$1 f my successful beg9n+1 to be     
advantage\sly employ$4 ,9 fact ,i 0 9   
favor ) e "o2 ! ambassador himself spoke
 highly ( my s]vices1 & nev] compla9$ ( 
any?+ ,i did = him2 8 dissatisfaction   
proce$$ f my hav+ insi/$ on quitt+ him1 
9 consequ5ce ( ! useless compla9ts ,i _h
 frequ5tly made on sev]al occasions4 ,! 
ambassadors & m9i/]s ( ! k+ ) :om we 7 9
 correspond5ce complim5t$ him on ! m]it 
( 8 secret>y1 9 a mann] by :i* he ought 
to h be5 flatt]$1 b :i* 9 8 poor head   
produc$ q a contr>y effect4 ,he receiv$ 
"o 9 p>ticul> relative to an affair (   
importance1 = :i* he nev] p>don$ me4    
,he 0 s incapable ( be>+ ! lea/         
con/ra9t1 t on ! ,saturday1 ! day ( !   
despat*es = mo/ ( ! c\rts1 he c\ld n    

conta9 himself1 & wait till ! bus9ess 0 
done be=e he w5t out1 & incessantly     
press+ me to ha/5 ! despat*es to ! k+ & 
m9i/]s1 he sign$ !m ) precipitation1 &  
imm$iately w5t ,i "k n :]e1 leav+ mo/ ( 
! o!r lett]s )\t sign+2 ?is oblig$ me1  
:5 ^! conta9$ no?+ b news1 to conv]t !m 
into j\rnals2 b :5 affairs :i* relat$ to
 ! k+ 7 9 "q x 0 necess>y somebody %\ld 
sign1 & ,i did x4 ,?is once happ5$      
relative to "s important advice we _h j 
receiv$ f ,m4 ,v9c5t1 *>ge des affaires 
f ! k+1 at ,vi5na4 ,! ,pr9ce ,lobk[itz 0
 !n m>*+ to ,naples1 & ,c\nt ,gages _h j
 made ! mo/ memorable retreat1 ! f9e/   
milit>y manoeuvre ( ! :ole c5tury1 ( :i*
 ,europe has n suffici5tly spok54 ,!    
despat* in=m$ u t a man1 ^: p]son ,m4   
,v9c5t describ$1 _h set out f ,vi5na1 & 
0 to pass by ,v5ice1 9 8 way into       
,abruzzo1 :]e he 0 secretly to /ir up ! 
p at ! approa* ( ! ,au/rians4  ,9 !     
abs5ce ( ,m4 le ,comte de ,montaigu1 :o 
did n give himself ! lea/ conc]n ab\t   
any?+1 ,i =w>d$ ?is advice to ! ,m>quis 

de l',hopital1 s apropos1 t x is p]haps 
to ! poor ,jean ,jacques1 s abus$ &     
laugh$ at1 t ! h\se ( ,b\rbon owes !    
pres]vation ( ! k+dom ( ,naples4  ,!    
,m>quis de l',hopital1 :5 he ?ank$ 8    
colleague1 z x 0 prop] he %\ld d1 spoke 
to him ( 8 secret>y1 & m5tion$ ! s]vice 
he _h j r5d]$ to ! common cause4 ,!     
,comte de ,montaigu1 :o 9 t affair _h to
 reproa* himself ) neglig5ce1 ?\ght he  
p]ceiv$ 9 ! complim5t paid him by ,m4 de
 l',hopital1 some?+ l a reproa*1 & spoke
 ( x to me ) signs ( ill-humor4 ,i f\nd 
x necess>y to act 9 ! same mann] ) !    
,c\nt de ,ca/ellane1 ambassador at      
,con/ant9ople1 z ,i _h done ) ! ,m>quis 
de l',hopital1 al?\gh 9 ?+s ( less      
importance4 ,z !re 0 no o!r conveyance  
to ,con/ant9ople ?an by c\ri]s1 s5t f "t
 to "t by ! s5ate to its ,bailli1 advice
 ( _! dep>ture 0 giv5 to ! ambassador ( 
,france1 t he might write by !m to 8    
colleague1 if he ?\ght prop] s to d4    
,?is advice 0 commonly s5t a day or two 
be=eh&2 b ,m4 de ,montaigu 0 held 9 s   

little respect1 t m]ely = ! sake ( =m he
 0 s5t to1 a c\ple ( h\rs be=e ! c\ri]s 
set (f4 ,?is frequ5tly oblig$ me to     
write ! despat* 9 8 abs5ce4 ,m4 de      
,ca/ellane1 9 8 answ] made honorable    
m5tion ( me2 ,m4 de ,jonville1 at ,g5oa1
 did ! same1 & ^! in/ances ( _! reg>d & 
e/eem became new grievances4  ,i        
ackn[l$ge ,i did n neglect any          
opportunity ( mak+ myself kn[n2 b ,i    
nev] s\ght "o improp]ly1 & 9 s]v+ well  
,i ?\ght ,i _h a "r to aspire to !      
natural return = ess5tial s]vices2 !    
e/eem ( ^? capable ( judg+ (1 & rew>d+  
!m4 ,i w n say :e!r or n my exactness 9 
dis*>g+ ! duties ( my employm5t 0 a j   
subject ( compla9t f ! ambassador2 b ,i 
_c refra9 f decl>+ t x 0 ! sole         
grievance he ev] m5tion$ previ\s to our 
sep>ation4  ,8 h\se1 :i* he _h nev] put 
on a good foot+1 0 con/antly fill$ )    
rabble2 ! ,fr5* 7 ill-treat$ 9 x1 & !   
asc5dancy 0 giv5 to ! ,italians2 ( ^!   
ev51 ! m hone/ "p1 !y :o _h long be5 9 !
 s]vice ( ! embassy1 7 indec5tly        

dis*>g$1 8 fir/ g5tleman 9 p>ticul>1 :om
 he _h tak5 f ! ,comte de ,fr\lay1 & :o1
 if ,i rememb] "r1 0 call$ ,comte de    
,peati1 or some?+ v l t "n4 ,! second   
g5tleman1 *os5 by ,m4 de ,montaigu1 0 an
 outlaw highwayman f ,mantua1 call$     
,dom9ic ,vitali1 to :om ! ambassador    
intru/$ ! c>e ( 8 h\se1 & :o _h by means
 ( flatt]y & sordid economy1 obta9$ 8   
confid5ce1 & became 8 favorite to !     
great prejudice ( ! few hone/ p he /ill 
_h ab\t him1 & ( ! secret>y :o 0 at _!  
head4 ,! c\nt5ance ( an upright man     
always gives inquietude to knaves4 ,no?+
 m 0 necess>y to make ,vitali conceive a
 hatr$ aga9/ me3 b = ?is s5tim5t !re 0  
/ill ano!r cause :i* r5d]$ x m cruel4 ,(
 ?is ,i mu/ give an acc\nt1 t ,i may be 
condemn$ if ,i am f\nd 9 ! wrong4  ,!   
ambassador _h1 accord+ to cu/om1 a box  
at ea* ( ! !at]s4 ,e day at d9n] he nam$
 ! !at] to :i* x 0 8 int5tion to g3 ,i  
*ose aft] him1 & ! g5tlem5 dispos$ ( !  
o!r boxes4 ,:5 ,i w5t out ,i took ! key 
( ! box ,i _h *os54 ,"o day1 ,vitali n  

be+ 9 ! way1 ,i ord]$ ! footman :o      
att5d$ on me1 to br+ me ! key to a h\se 
:i* ,i nam$ to him4 ,vitali1 in/ead (   
s5d+ ! key1 said he _h dispos$ ( x4 ,i 0
 ! m enrag$ at ?is z ! footman deliv]$ 8
 message 9 public4 ,9 ! ev5+ ,vitali    
wi%$ to make me "s apology1 to :i* h[ev]
 ,i w\ld n li/54 ,to-morr[1 sir1 said ,i
 to him1 y w come at su* an h\r &       
apologize to me 9 ! h\se :]e ,i receiv$ 
! affront1 & 9 ! pres5ce ( ! p]sons :o 7
 witnesses to x2 or aft] to-morr[1      
:atev] may be ! consequ5ces1 ei!r y or  
,i w leave ! h\se4 ,?is firmness        
intimidat$ him4 ,he came to ! h\se at ! 
h\r appo9t$1 & made me a public apology1
 ) a meanness wor?y ( himself4 ,b he    
aft]w>ds took 8 measures at leisure1 &  
at ! same "t t he cr+$ to me 9 public1  
he secretly act$ 9 s vile a mann]1 t    
al?\gh unable to prevail on ! ambassador
 to give me my dismission1 he laid me "u
 ! necessity ( resolv+ to leave him4  ,a
 wret* l him1 c]ta9ly1 c\ld n "k me1 b  
he knew en\gh ( my "* to make x         

s]viceable to 8 purposes4 ,he knew ,i 0 
mild to an excess1 & pati5t 9 be>+      
involunt>y wrongs2 b haughty & impati5t 
:5 insult$ ) prem$itat$ (f5ces2 lov+    
dec5cy & dignity 9 ?+s 9 :i* ^! 7       
requisite1 & n m exact 9 requir+ !      
respect due to myself1 ?an att5tive 9   
r5d]+ t :i* ,i ow$ to o!rs4 ,9 ?is he   
und]took to disgu/ me1 & 9 ?is he       
succe$$4 ,he turn$ ! h\se upside d[n1 & 
de/roy$ ! ord] & subord9ation ,i _h     
endeavor$ to e/abli% 9 x4 ,a h\se )\t a 
woman /&s 9 ne$ ( r a sev]e discipl9e to
 pres]ve t mode/y :i* is insep>able f   
dignity4 ,he soon conv]t$ ours into a   
place ( fil?y debau* & sc&al\s          
lic5ti\sness1 ! haunt ( knaves &        
debau*ees4 ,he procur$ = second g5tleman
 to 8 excell5cy1 9 ! place ( him :om he 
got dis*>g$1 ano!r pimp l himself1 :o   
kept a h\se ( ill-fame1 at ! ,cross (   
,malta2 & ! indec5cy ( ^! two rascals 0 
equall$ by no?+ b _! insol5ce4 ,except !
 b$-*amb] ( ! ambassador1 :i*1 h[ev]1 0 
n 9 v good ord]1 !re 0 n a corn] 9 !    

:ole h\se supportable to an mode/ man4  
,z 8 excell5cy did n sup1 ! g5tleman &  
myself _h a private table1 at :i* !     
,abbe ,b9is & ! pages also ate4 ,9 ! mo/
 paltry ale-h\se p are s]v$ ) m         
cleanl9ess & dec5cy1 h clean] l951 & a  
table bett] suppli$4 ,we _h b "o little 
& v fil?y c&le1 pewt] plates1 & iron    
=ks4  ,i c\ld h ov]look$ :at pass$ 9    
secret1 b ,i 0 depriv$ ( my gondola4 ,i 
0 ! only secret>y to an ambassador1 :o 0
 oblig$ to hire "o or g on foot1 & !    
liv]y ( 8 excell5cy no long] accompani$ 
me1 except :5 ,i w5t to ! s5ate4        
,besides1 ev]y?+ :i* pass$ 9 ! h\se 0   
kn[n 9 ! city4 ,all ^? :o 7 9 ! s]vice (
 ! o!r ambassadors l\dly exclaim$2      
,dom9ic1 ! only cause ( all1 exclaim$   
l\d] ?an anybody1 well kn[+ ! indec5cy )
 :i* we 7 treat$ 0 m affect+ to me ?an  
to any o!r p]son4 ,?\gh ,i 0 ! only "o 9
 ! h\se :o said no?+ ( ! matt] abroad1  
,i compla9$ l\dly ( x to ! ambassador1 z
 well z ( himself1 :o1 secretly excit$  
by ! wret*1 entirely devot$ to 8 w1     

daily made me suff] "s new affront4     
,oblig$ to sp5d a good deal to keep up a
 foot+ ) ^? 9 ! same situation ) myself1
 & to make are appe>ance prop] to my    
employm5t1 ,i c\ld n t\* a f>?+ ( my    
sal>y1 & :5 ,i ask$ him = money1 he     
spoke ( 8 e/eem = me1 & 8 confid5ce1 z  
if ei!r ( ^! c\ld h fill$ my purse1 &   
provid$ = ev]y?+4  ,^! two b&itti at    
l5g? q turn$ ! head ( _! ma/]1 :o       
naturally _h n a good "o1 & ru9$ him by 
a cont9ual traffic1 & by b>ga9s1 ( :i*  
he 0 ! dupe1 :il/ !y p]suad$ him !y 7   
greatly 9 8 favor4 ,!y p]suad$ him to   
take ^u ! ,br5ta1 a ,palazzo1 at twice !
 r5t x 0 wor?1 & divid$ ! surplus ) !   
proprietor4 ,! ap>tm5ts 7 inlaid )      
mosaic1 & ornam5t$ ) columns & pila/]s1 
9 ! ta/e ( ! c\ntry4 ,m4 de ,montaigu1  
_h all ^! sup]bly mask$ by fir wa9scot+1
 = no o!r reason ?an because at ,p>is   
ap>tm5ts 7 ?us fitt$ up4 ,x 0 = a simil>
 reason t he only1 ( all ! ambassadors  
:o 7 at ,v5ice1 took f 8 pages _!       
swords1 & f 8 footm5 _! canes4 ,su* 0 ! 

man1 :o1 p]haps f ! same motive took a  
dislike to me on acc\nt ( my s]v+ him   
fai?fully4  ,i pati5tly endur$ 8 disda91
 8 brutality1 & ill-treatm5t1 z long z1 
p]ceiv+ !m accompani$ by ill-humor1 ,i  
?\ght !y _h 9 !m no portion ( hatr$2 b !
 mom5t ,i saw ! design =m$ ( depriv+ me 
( ! honor ,i m]it$ by my fai?ful        
s]vices1 ,i resolv$ to resign my        
employm5t4 ,! fir/ m>k ,i receiv$ ( 8   
ill w 0 relative to a d9n] he 0 to give 
to ! ,duke ( ,mod5a & 8 family1 :o 7 at 
,v5ice1 & at :i* he signifi$ to me ,i   
%\ld n be pres5t4 ,i answ]$1 piqu$1 b n 
angry1 t hav+ ! honor daily to d9e at 8 
table1 if ! ,duke ( ,mod5a1 :5 he came1 
requir$ ,i %\ld n appe> at x1 my duty z 
well z ! dignity ( 8 excell5cy w\ld n   
suff] me to cons5t to su* a reque/4 ,h[2
 said he passionately1 my secret>y1 :o  
is n a g5tleman1 pret5ds to d9e ) a     
sov]eign :5 my g5tlem5 d n6 ,yes1 sir1  
repli$ ,i1 ! po/ ) :i* y\r excell5cy has
 honor$ me1 z long z ,i dis*>ge !       
functions ( x1 s f> ennobles me t my    

rank is sup]ior to t ( y\r g5tlem5 or ( 
! p]sons call+ !mselves su*2 & ,i am    
admitt$ :]e !y _c appe>4 ,y _c b "k t on
 ! day on :i* y %all make y\r public    
entry1 ,i am call$ to ! c]emony by      
etiquette2 & by an immemorial cu/om1 to 
foll[ y 9 a dress ( c]emony1 & aft]w>ds 
to d9e ) y at ! palace ( ,/4 ,m>k2 & ,i 
"k n :y a man :o has a "r & is to eat 9 
public ) ! doge & ! s5ate ( ,v5ice %\ld 
n eat 9 private ) ! ,duke ( ,mod5a4     
,?\gh ?is argum5t 0 unansw]able1 x did n
 conv9ce ! ambassador2 b we _h no       
occasion to r5ew ! dispute1 z ! ,duke ( 
,mod5a did n come to d9e ) him4  ,f t   
mom5t he did ev]y?+ 9 8 p[] to make ?+s 
disagreeable to me2 & endeavor$ unju/ly 
to deprive me ( my rights1 by tak+ f me 
! pecuni>y advantages annex$ to my      
employm5t1 to give !m to 8 de> ,vitali2 
& ,i am conv9c$ t _h he d>$ to s5d him  
to ! s5ate1 9 my place1 he w\ld h done  
x4 ,he commonly employ$ ! ,abbe ,b9is 9 
8 closet1 to write 8 private lett]s3 he 
made use ( him to write to ,m4 de       

,maurepas an acc\nt ( ! affair ( ,capta9
 ,olivet1 9 :i*1 f> f tak+ ! lea/ notice
 ( me1 ! only p]son :o gave himself any 
conc]n ab\t ! matt]1 he depriv$ me ( !  
honor ( ! depositions1 ( :i* he s5t him 
a duplicate1 = ! purpose ( attribut+ !m 
to ,patizel1 :o _h n op5$ 8 m\?4 ,he    
wi%$ to mortify me1 & please 8 favorite2
 b _h no desire to dismiss me 8 s]vice4 
,he p]ceiv$ x w\ld be m difficult to f9d
 me a successor1 ?an ,m4 ,follau1 :o _h 
already made him kn[n to ! _w4 ,an      
,italian secret>y 0 absolutely necess>y 
to him1 on acc\nt ( ! answ]s f ! s5ate2 
"o :o c\ld write all 8 despat*es1 &     
conduct 8 affairs1 )\t 8 giv+ himself ! 
lea/ tr\ble ab\t any?+2 a p]son :o1 to !
 m]it ( s]v+ him well1 c\ld jo9 !       
bas5ess ( be+ ! toad-eat] ( 8 g5tlem51  
)\t honor1 m]it1 or pr9ciples4 ,he wi%$ 
to reta91 & humble me1 by keep+ me f> f 
my c\ntry1 & 8 own1 )\t money to return 
to ei!r1 & 9 :i* he w\ld1 p]haps1 _h    
succe$$1 _h he began ) m mod]ation3 b   
,vitali1 :o _h o!r views1 & wi%$ to =ce 

me to extremities1 c>ri$ 8 po9t4 ,!     
mom5t ,i p]ceiv$1 ,i lo/ all my tr\ble1 
t ! ambassador imput$ to me my s]vices z
 s _m crimes1 in/ead ( be+ satisfi$ )   
!m2 t ) him ,i _h no?+ to expect1 b ?+s 
disagreeable at home1 & inju/ice abroad2
 & t1 9 ! g5]al dise/eem into :i* he 0  
fall51 8 ill (fices might be prejudicial
 to me1 )\t ! possibility ( my be+ s]v$ 
by 8 good ones2 ,i took my resolution1 &
 ask$ him = my dismission1 leav+ him    
suffici5t "t to provide himself ) ano!r 
secret>y4 ,)\t answ]+ yes or no1 he     
cont9u$ to treat me 9 ! same mann]1 z if
 no?+ _h be5 said4 ,p]ceiv+ ?+s to rema9
 9 ! same /ate1 & t he took no measures 
to procure himself a new secret>y1 ,i   
wrote to 8 bro!r1 &1 expla9+ to him my  
motives1 begg$ he w\ld obta9 my         
dismission f 8 excell5cy1 add+ t :e!r ,i
 receiv$ x or n1 ,i c\ld n possibly     
rema9 ) him4 ,i wait$ a long "t )\t any 
answ]1 & began to be emb>rass$3 b at    
l5g? ! ambassador receiv$ a lett] f 8   
bro!r1 :i* mu/ h remon/rat$ ) him 9 v   

pla9 t]ms2 = al?\gh he 0 extremely      
subject to f]oci\s rage1 ,i nev] saw him
 s viol5t z on ?is occasion4 ,aft]      
torr5ts ( unsuff]able reproa*es1 n kn[+ 
:at m to say1 he accus$ me ( hav+ sold 8
 ciph]s4 ,i bur/ into a l\d laught]1 &  
ask$ him1 9 a sne]+ mann]1 if he ?\ght  
!re 0 9 ,v5ice a man :o w\ld be fool    
en\gh to give half a cr[n = !m all4 ,he 
?reat5$ to call 8 s]vants to ?r[ me out 
( ! w9d[4 ,until !n ,i _h be5 v compos$2
 b on ?is ?reat1 ang] & indignation     
seiz$ me 9 my turn4 ,i sprang to ! door1
 & aft] hav+ turn$ a button :i* fa/5$ x 
)93 ,no1 c\nt1 said ,i1 return+ to him )
 a grave /ep1 ,y\r s]vants %all h no?+  
to d ) ?is affair2 please to let x be   
settl$ betwe5 ourselves4 ,my action &   
mann] in/antly made him calm2 fe> &     
surprise 7 m>k$ 9 8 c\nt5ance4 ,! mom5t 
,i saw 8 fury abat$1 ,i bid him adieu 9 
a v few words1 & )\t wait+ = 8 answ]1   
w5t to ! door1 op5$ x1 & pass$ sl[ly    
across ! ante*amb]1 ?r\gh ! mid/ ( 8 p1 
:o rose accord+ to cu/om1 & :o1 ,i am ( 

op9ion1 w\ld r h l5t _! assi/ance aga9/ 
him ?an me4 ,)\t go+ back to my ap>tm5t1
 ,i desc5d$ ! /airs1 & imm$iately w5t   
out ( ! palace nev] m to ent] x4  ,i    
ha/5$ imm$iately to ,m4 le ,blond &     
relat$ to him :at _h happ5$4 ,kn[+ !    
man1 he 0 b little surpris$4 ,he kept me
 to d9n]4 ,?is d9n]1 al?\gh )\t         
prep>ation1 0 spl5did4 ,all ! ,fr5* (   
consequ5ce :o 7 at ,v5ice1 p>took ( x4  
,! ambassador _h n a s+le p]son4 ,!     
consul relat$ my case to ! company4 ,!  
cry 0 g5]al1 & by no means 9 favor ( 8  
excell5cy4 ,he _h n settl$ my acc\nt1   
nor paid me a f>?+1 & be+ r$uc$ to ! few
 l\is ,i _h 9 my pocket1 ,i 0 extremely 
emb>rass$ ab\t my return to ,france4 ,e 
purse 0 op5$ to me4 ,i took tw5ty sequ9s
 f t ( ,m4 le ,blond1 & z _m f t ( ,m4  
,/4 ,cyr1 ) :om1 next to ,m4 le ,blond1 
,i 0 ! mo/ intimately connect$4 ,i      
return$ ?anks to ! re/2 &1 till my      
dep>ture1 w5t to lodge at ! h\se ( !    
*ancellor ( ! consul%ip1 to prove to !  
public1 ! nation 0 n an accomplice 9 !  

inju/ice ( ! ambassador4  ,8 excell5cy1 
furi\s at see+ me tak5 notice ( 9 my    
mis=tune1 at ! same "t t1 not)/&+ 8 be+ 
an ambassador1 nobody w5t ne> 8 h\se1 q 
lo/ 8 s5ses & behav$ l a madman4 ,he    
=got himself s f> z to pres5t a memoir  
to ! s5ate to get me arre/$4 ,on be+    
in=m$ ( ?is by ! ,abbe de ,b9is1 ,i     
resolv$ to rema9 a =tnight long]1 in/ead
 ( sett+ (f ! next day z ,i _h int5d$4  
,my conduct _h be5 kn[n & approv$ ( by  
ev]ybody2 ,i 0 univ]sally e/eem$4 ,!    
s5ate did n deign to return an answ] to 
! extravagant memoir ( ! ambassador1 b  
s5t me ^w ,i might rema9 9 ,v5ice z long
 z ,i ?\ght prop]1 )\t mak+ myself      
uneasy ab\t ! attempts ( a madman4 ,i   
cont9u$ to see my fri5ds3 ,i w5t to take
 leave ( ! ambassador f ,spa91 :o       
receiv$ me well1 & ( ! ,comte de        
,f9o*ietti1 m9i/] f ,naples1 :om ,i did 
n f9d at home4 ,i wrote him a lett] &   
receiv$ f 8 excell5cy ! mo/ polite &    
oblig+ answ]4 ,at l5g? ,i took my       
dep>ture1 leav+ beh9d me1 not)/&+ my    

emb>rassm5t1 no o!r debts ?an ! two sums
 ,i _h borr[$1 & ( :i* ,i h j spok52 &  
an acc\nt ( fifty cr[ns ) a %opkeep]1 ( 
! "n ( ,mor&i1 :i* ,c>rio promis$ to    
pay1 & :i* ,i h nev] reimburs$ him1     
al?\gh we h frequ5tly met s9ce t "t2 b )
 respect to ! two sums ( money1 ,i      
return$ !m v exactly ! mom5t ,i _h x 9  
my p[]4  ,i _c take leave ( ,v5ice )\t  
say+ some?+ ( ! celebrat$ amusem5ts ( t 
city1 or at lea/ ( ! little "p ( !m (   
:i* ,i p>took dur+ my resid5ce !re4 ,x  
has be5 se5 h[ little 9 my y\? ,i ran   
aft] ! pleasures ( t age1 or ^? t are s 
call$4 ,my incl9ations did n *ange at   
,v5ice1 b my occupations1 :i* moreov]   
w\ld h prev5t$ ?is1 r5d]$ m agreeable to
 me ! simple recreations ,i p]mitt$     
myself4 ,! fir/ & mo/ pleas+ ( all 0 !  
society ( m5 ( m]it4 ,m4 le ,blond1 de  
,/4 ,cyr1 ,c>rio ,altuna1 & a ,=l9ian   
g5tleman1 ^: "n ,i am v sorry to h      
=gott51 & :om ,i nev] call to my        
recollection )\t emotion3 he 0 ! man (  
all ,i ev] knew ^: he>t mo/ resembl$ my 

own4 ,we 7 connect$ ) two or ?ree       
,engli%m5 ( great wit & in=mation1 &1 l 
ourselves1 passionately fond ( music4   
,all ^! g5tlem5 _h _! wives1 female     
fri5ds1 or mi/resses3 ! latt] 7 mo/ ( !m
 wom5 ( tal5ts1 at ^: ap>tm5ts !re 7    
balls & conc]ts4 ,!re 0 b little play2 a
 lively turn1 tal5ts1 & ! !atres r5d]$  
?is amusem5t incipid4 ,play is ! res\rce
 ( none b m5 ^: "t hangs heavy on _!    
h&s4 ,i _h br\ght ) me f ,p>is !        
prejudice ( t city aga9/ ,italian music2
 b ,i _h also receiv$ f nature a        
s5sibility & nic5ess ( di/9ction :i*    
prejudice _c )/&4 ,i soon contract$ t   
passion = ,italian music ) :i* x        
inspires all ^? :o are capable ( feel+  
its excell5ce4 ,9 li/5+ to b>c>oles1 ,i 
f\nd ,i _h n yet kn[n :at s++ 01 & ,i   
soon became s fond ( ! op]a t1 tir$ (   
babbl+1 eat+1 & play+ 9 ! boxes :5 ,i   
wi%$ to li/51 ,i frequ5tly )drew f !    
company to ano!r "p ( ! !at]4 ,!re1 q   
alone1 %ut up 9 my box1 ,i ab&on$       
myself1 not)/&+ ! l5g? ( !              

repres5tation1 to ! pleasure ( enjoy+ x 
at ease unto ! conclusion4 ,"o ev5+ at !
 !atre ( ,sa9t ,*ryso/om1 ,i fell into a
 m pr(\nd sleep ?an ,i %\ld h done 9 my 
b$4 ,! l\d & brilliant airs did n di/urb
 my repose4 ,b :o c expla9 ! delici\s   
s5sations giv5 me by ! s(t h>mony ( !   
angelic music1 by :i* ,i 0 *>m$ f sleep2
 :at an awak+6 :at ravi%m5t6 :at ec/asy1
 :5 at ! same in/ant ,i op5$ my e>s &   
eyes6 ,my fir/ idea 0 to believe ,i 0 9 
p>adise4 ,! ravi%+ air1 :i* ,i /ill     
recollect & %all nev] =get1 began ) ^!  
words3                                  
,cons]vami la bella1                    
,*e si m'acc5de il cor4  ,i 0 desir\s ( 
hav+ x2 ,i _h & kept x = a "t2 b x 0 n !
 same ?+ ^u pap] z 9 my head4 ,! notes 7
 ! same b ! ?+ 0 diff]5t4 ,?is div9e    
composition c nev] be execut$ b 9 my    
m9d1 9 ! same mann] z x 0 ! ev5+ on :i* 
x woke me f sleep4  ,a k9d ( music f>   
sup]ior1 9 my op9ion1 to t ( op]as1 &   
:i* 9 all ,italy has n its equal1 nor   
p]haps 9 ! :ole _w1 is t ( ! 'scuole'4  

,! 'scuole' are h\ses ( *>ity1 e/abli%$ 
= ! education ( "y girls )\t =tune1 to  
:om ! republic aft]w>ds gives a portion 
ei!r 9 m>riage or = ! cloi/]4 ,among/   
tal5ts cultivat$ 9 ^! "y girls1 music is
 9 ! fir/ rank4 ,e ,sunday at ! *ur* (  
ea* ( ! f\r 'scuole'1 dur+ vesp]s1      
motettos or an!ms ) full *oruses1       
accompani$ by a great or*e/ra1 & compos$
 & direct$ by ! be/ ma/]s 9 ,italy1 are 
sung 9 ! gall]ies by girls only2 n "o ( 
:om is m ?an tw5ty ye>s ( age4 ,i h n an
 idea ( any?+ s voluptu\s & affect+ z   
?is music2 ! ri*ness ( ! art1 !         
exquisite ta/e ( ! vocal "p1 ! excell5ce
 ( ! voices1 ! ju/ness ( ! execution1   
ev]y?+ 9 ^! delightful conc]ts concurs  
to produce an impression :i* c]ta9ly is 
n ! mode1 b f :i* ,i am ( op9ion no he>t
 is secure4 ,c>rio & ,i nev] fail$ be+  
pres5t at ^! vesp]s ( ! ',m5dicanti'1 & 
we 7 n alone4 ,! *ur* 0 always full ( ! 
lov]s ( ! art1 & ev5 ! actors ( ! op]a  
came !re to =m _! ta/es aft] ^! excell5t
 models4 ,:at vex$ me 0 ! iron grate1   

:i* suff]$ no?+ to escape b s\nds1 &    
conceal$ f me ! angels ( :i* !y 7 wor?y4
 ,i talk$ ( no?+ else4 ,"o day ,i spoke 
( x at ,le ,blond's2 ,if y are s        
desir\s1 said he1 to see ^? little      
girls1 x w be an easy matt] to satisfy  
y\r wi%es4 ,i am "o ( ! adm9i/rators ( !
 h\se1 ,i w give y a collation ) !m4 ,i 
did n let him re/ until he _h fulfill$ 8
 promise4 ,9 ent]+ ! saloon1 :i* conta9$
 ^! beauties ,i s mu* sigh$ to see1 ,i  
felt a trembl+ ( love :i* ,i _h nev]    
be=e exp]i5c$4 ,m4 le ,blond pres5t$ to 
me "o aft] ! o!r1 ^! celebrat$ female   
s+]s1 ( :om ! names & voices 7 all ) :i*
 ,i 0 acqua9t$4 ,come1 ,sophia1--%e 0   
horrid4 ,come1 ,catt9a1--%e _h b "o eye4
 ,come1 ,bett9a1--! small-pox _h        
entirely disfigur$ h]4 ,sc>cely "o ( !m 
0 )\t "s /rik+ defect4  ,le ,blond      
laugh$ at my surprise2 h[ev]1 two or    
?ree ( !m appe>$ tol]able2 ^! nev] sung 
b 9 ! *oruses2 ,i 0 almo/ 9 despair4    
,dur+ ! collation we endeavor$ to excite
 !m1 & !y soon became enliv5$2 ugl9ess  

does n exclude ! graces1 & ,i f\nd !y   
possess$ !m4 ,i said to myself1 !y _c s+
 9 ?is mann] )\t intellig5ce &          
s5sibility1 !y mu/ h bo?2 9 f9e1 my     
mann] ( see+ !m *ang$ to su* a degree t 
,i left ! h\se almo/ 9 love ) ea* ( ^!  
ugly faces4 ,i _h sc>cely c\rage en\gh  
to return to vesp]s4 ,b aft] hav+ se5 ! 
girls1 ! dang] 0 less5$4 ,i /ill f\nd _!
 s++ delightful2 & _! voices s mu*      
embelli%$ _! p]sons t1 9 spite ( my     
eyes1 ,i ob/9ately cont9u$ to ?9k !m    
beautiful4  ,music 9 ,italy is          
accompani$ ) s trifl+ an exp5se1 t x is 
n wor? :ile = su* z h a ta/e = x to d5y 
!mselves ! pleasure x af=ds4 ,i hir$ a  
h>psi*ord1 &1 = half a cr[n1 ,i _h at my
 ap>tm5t f\r or five symphoni/s1 ) :om  
,i practis$ once a week 9 execut+ su*   
airs1 etc41 z _h giv5 me mo/ pleasure at
 ! op]a4 ,i also _h "s symphonies p]=m$ 
f my ',muses ,galantes'4 ,:e!r ^! pleas$
 ! p]=m]s1 or ! ballet-ma/] ( ,/4 ,john 
,*ryso/om wi%$ to flatt] me1 he desir$  
to h two ( !m2 & ,i _h aft]w>ds !       

pleasure ( he>+ ^! execut$ by t         
admirable or*e/ra4 ,!y 7 danc$ to by a  
little ,bett9a1 pretty & amiable1 & kept
 by a ,spani>d1 ,m4 ,fagoaga1 a fri5d ( 
ours ) :om we (t5 w5t to sp5d ! ev5+4 ,b
 apropos ( girls ( easy virtue3 x is n 9
 ,v5ice t a man ab/a9s f !m4 ,h y no?+  
to confess1 somebody w ask me1 ^u ?is   
subject8 ,yes3 ,i h some?+ to say ^u x1 
& ,i w proce$ to ! confession ) ! same  
+5u\sness ) :i* ,i h made my =m] ones4  
,i always _h a dis9cl9ation to girls (  
pleasure1 b at ,v5ice ^? 7 all ,i _h )9 
my rea*2 mo/ ( ! h\ses be+ %ut aga9/ me 
on acc\nt ( my place4 ,! daught]s ( ,m4 
le ,blond 7 v amiable1 b difficult (    
access2 & ,i _h too mu* respect = ! fa!r
 & "m ev] once to h ! lea/ desire = !m4 
,i %\ld h _h a mu* /rong] incl9ation to 
a "y lady nam$ ,mademoiselle de         
,cataneo1 daught] to ! ag5t f ! ,k+ (   
,prussia1 b ,c>rio 0 9 love ) h]3 !re 0 
ev5 betwe5 !m "s "q ( m>riage4 ,he 0 9  
easy circum/ances1 & ,i _h no =tune3 8  
sal>y 0 a hundr$ l\is 7gu9eas7 a ye>1 & 

m9e am\nt$ to no m ?an a ?\s& livres    
7ab\t =ty p\nds /]l+7 &1 besides my be+ 
unwill+ to oppose a fri5d1 ,i knew t 9  
all places1 & especially at ,v5ice1 ) a 
purse s ill furni%$ z m9e 01 gallantry 0
 out ( ! "q4 ,i _h n lo/ ! p]nici\s     
cu/om ( deceiv+ my wants4 ,too busily   
employ$ =cibly to feel ^? proce$+ f !   
climate1 ,i liv$ upw>ds ( a ye> 9 t city
 z *a/ely z ,i _h done 9 ,p>is1 & at !  
end ( eighte5 mon?s ,i quitt$ x )\t hav+
 approa*$ ! sex1 except twice by means (
 ! s+ul> opportunities ( :i* ,i am go+  
to speak4  ,! fir/ 0 procur$ me by t    
hone/ g5tleman1 ,vitali1 "s "t aft] !   
=mal apology ,i oblig$ him to make me4  
,! conv]sation at ! table turn$ on !    
amusem5ts ( ,v5ice4 ,^! g5tlem5 reproa*$
 me ) my indiff]5ce ) reg>d to ! mo/    
delightful ( !m all2 at ! same "t       
extoll+ ! gracefulness & elegant mann]s 
( ! wom5 ( easy virtue ( ,v5ice2 & add+ 
t !y 7 sup]ior to all o!rs ( ! same     
description 9 any o!r "p ( ! _w4 ,dom9ic
 said ,i mu/ make ! acqua9tance ( ! mo/ 

amiable ( !m all2 & he (f]$ to take me  
to h] ap>tm5ts1 & assur$ me ,i %\ld be  
pleas$ ) h]4 ,i laugh$ at ?is oblig+    
(f]3 & ,c\nt ,piati1 a man 9 ye>s &     
v5]able1 obs]v$ to me1 ) m c&or ?an ,i  
%\ld h expect$ f an ,italian1 t he ?\ght
 me too prud5t to suff] myself to be    
tak5 to su* a place by my enemy4 ,9 fact
 ,i _h no incl9ation to d x3 b not)/&+  
?is1 by an incoh]5ce ,i _c myself       
compreh5d1 ,i at l5g? 0 prevail$ ^u to  
g1 contr>y to my incl9ation1 ! s5tim5t (
 my he>t1 my reason1 & ev5 my w2 solely 
f weakness1 & be+ a%am$ to %[ an        
appe>ance to ! lea/ mi/ru/2 & besides1 z
 ! expression ( ! c\ntry is1 'p] non p>]
 troppo cogliono'--,n to appe> too great
 a blockhead4--,! ',padoana' :om we w5t 
to visit 0 pretty1 %e 0 ev5 h&some1 b h]
 beauty 0 n ( t k9d t pleas$ me4 ,dom9ic
 left me ) h]1 ,i s5t = ,sorbetti1 &    
ask$ h] to s+4 ,9 ab\t half an h\r ,i   
wi%$ to take my leave1 aft] hav+ put a  
ducat on ! table1 b ?is by a s+ul>      
scruple %e refus$ until %e _h des]v$ x1 

& ,i f z s+ul> a folly cons5t$ to remove
 h] d\bts4 ,i return$ to ! palace s     
fully p]suad$ t ,i %\ld feel !          
consequ5ces ( ?is /ep1 t ! fir/ ?+ ,i   
did 0 to s5d = ! k+'s surgeon to ask him
 = ptisans4 ,no?+ c equal ! uneas9ess ( 
m9d ,i suff]$ = ?ree weeks1 )\t its be+ 
ju/ifi$ by any real inconv5i5ce or      
app>5t sign4 ,i c\ld n believe x 0      
possible to )draw ) impunity f ! arms ( 
! 'padoana'4 ,! surgeon himself _h !    
greate/ difficulty 9 remov+ my          
appreh5sions2 nor c\ld he d ?is by any  
o!r means ?an by p]suad+ me ,i 0 =m$ 9  
su* a mann] z n to be easily infect$3 & 
al?\gh 9 ! exp]im5t ,i expos$ myself    
less ?an any o!r man w\ld h done1 my    
heal? 9 t respect nev] hav+ suff]$ !    
lea/ inconv5i5ce1 9 my op9ion a pro( !  
surgeon 0 "r4 ,h[ev]1 ?is has nev] made 
me imprud5t1 & if 9 fact ,i h receiv$   
su* an advantage f nature ,i c safely   
ass]t ,i h nev] abus$ x4  ,my second    
adv5ture1 al?\gh likewise ) a common    
girl1 0 ( a nature v diff]5t1 z well 9  

its orig9 z 9 its effects2 ,i h already 
said t ,capta9 ,olivet gave me a d9n] on
 bo>d 8 vessel1 & t ,i took ) me !      
secret>y ( ! ,spani% embassy4 ,i expect$
 a salute ( cannon4  ,! %ip's company 0 
drawn up to receive u1 b n s mu* z a    
prim+ 0 burnt1 at :i* ,i 0 mortifi$1 on 
acc\nt ( ,c>rio1 :om ,i p]ceiv$ to be r 
piqu$ at ! neglect4 ,a salute ( cannon 0
 giv5 on bo>d m]*ant-%ips to p ( less   
consequ5ce ?an we 72 ,i besides ?\ght ,i
 des]v$ "s di/+ui%$ m>k ( respect f !   
capta94 ,i c\ld n conceal my ?\ghts1    
because ?is at all times 0 impossible to
 me1 & al?\gh ! d9n] 0 a v good "o1 &   
,olivet did ! honors ( x p]fectly well1 
,i began x 9 an ill humor1 eat+ b       
little1 & speak+ /ill less4 ,at ! fir/  
heal?1 at lea/1 ,i expect$ a volley2    
no?+4 ,c>rio1 :o read :at pass$ )91 me1 
laugh$ at he>+ me grumble l a *ild4     
,be=e d9n] 0 half ov] ,i saw a gondola  
approa* ! vessel4 ,bless me1 sir1 said !
 capta91 take c>e ( y\rself1 ! enemy    
approa*es4 ,i ask$ him :at he meant1 &  

he answ]$ jocosely4 ,! gondola made !   
%ip's side1 & ,i obs]v$ a gay "y damsel 
come on bo>d v lightly1 & coquetti%ly   
dress$1 & :o at ?ree /eps 0 9 ! cab91   
seat$ by my side1 be=e ,i _h "t to      
p]ceive a cov] 0 laid = h]4 ,%e 0       
equally *>m+ & lively1 a brunette1 n m  
?an tw5ty ye>s ( age4 ,%e spoke no?+ b  
,italian1 & h] acc5t alone 0 suffici5t  
to turn my head4 ,z %e ate & *att]$ %e  
ca/ h] eyes ^u me2 /eadfa/ly look$ at me
 = a mom5t1 & !n exclaim$1 ,good ,virg96
 ,ah1 my de> ,bremond1 :at an age x is  
s9ce ,i saw !e6 ,!n %e ?rew h]self into 
my arms1 seal$ h] lips to m9e1 & press$ 
me almo/ to /rangl+4 ,h] l>ge black     
eyes1 l ^? ( ! beauties ( ! ,ea/1 d>t$  
fi]y %afts into my he>t1 & al?\gh !     
surprise at fir/ /upefi$ my s5ses1      
voluptu\sness made a rapid progress )91 
& ?is to su* a degree t ! beautiful     
s$uc] h]self 01 not)/&+ ! spectators1   
oblig$ to re/ra9 my ardor1 = ,i 0       
intoxicat$1 or r become furi\s4 ,:5 %e  
p]ceiv$ %e _h made ! impression %e      

desir$1 %e became m mod]ate 9 h]        
c>esses1 b n 9 h] vivacity1 & :5 %e     
?\ght prop] to expla9 to u ! real or    
false cause ( all h] petulance1 %e said 
,i resembl$ ,m4 de ,bremond1 director ( 
! cu/oms ( ,tuscany1 to su* a degree z  
to be mi/ak5 = him2 t %e _h turn$ ?is   
,m4 de ,bremond's head1 & w\ld d x aga92
 t %e _h quitt$ him because he 0 a fool2
 t %e took me 9 8 place2 t %e w\ld love 
me because x pleas$ h] s to d1 = :i*    
reason ,i mu/ love h] z long z x 0      
agreeable to h]1 & :5 %e ?\ght prop] to 
s5d me ab\t my bus9ess1 ,i mu/ be pati5t
 z h] de> ,bremond _h be54 ,:at 0 said 0
 done4 ,%e took possession ( me z ( a   
man t belong$ to h]1 gave me h] gloves  
to keep1 h] fan1 h] 'c9da'1 & h] coif1 &
 ord]$ me to g "h or !re1 to d ?is or t1
 & ,i in/antly obey$ h]4 ,%e told me to 
g & s5d away h] gondola1 because %e *ose
 to make use ( m9e1 & ,i imm$iately s5t 
x away2 %e bid me to move f my place1 & 
pray ,c>rio to sit d[n 9 x1 because %e  
_h some?+ to say to him2 & ,i did z %e  

desir$4 ,!y *att$ a good :ile toge!r1 b 
spoke l[1 & ,i did n int]rupt !m4 ,%e   
call$ me1 & ,i approa*$ h]4 ,h>k !e1    
,zanetto1 said %e to me1 ,i w n be lov$ 
9 ! ,fr5* mann]2 ?is inde$ w n be well4 
,9 ! fir/ mom5t ( lassitude1 get !e     
gone3 b /ay n by ! way1 ,i caution !e4  
,aft] d9n] we w5t to see ! glass        
manufactory at ,murano4 ,%e b\ght a     
great numb] ( little curiosities2 = :i* 
%e left me to pay )\t ! lea/ c]emony4 ,b
 %e ev]y:]e gave away little tr9kets to 
a mu* great] am\nt ?an ( ! ?+s we _h    
pur*as$4 ,by ! indiff]5ce ) :i* %e ?rew 
away h] money1 ,i p]ceiv$ %e annex$ to x
 b little value4 ,:5 %e insi/$ ^u a     
paym5t1 ,i am ( op9ion x 0 m f a motive 
( vanity ?an av>ice4 ,%e 0 flatt]$ by ! 
price h] admir]s set ^u h] favors4  ,9 !
 ev5+ we conduct$ h] to h] ap>tm5ts4 ,z 
we conv]s$ toge!r1 ,i p]ceiv$ a c\ple ( 
pi/ols ^u h] toilette4 ,ah6 ,ah6 said   
,i1 tak+ "o ( !m up1 ?is is a pat*box ( 
a new con/ruction3 may ,i ask :at is its
 use8 ,i "k y h o!r arms :i* give m fire

 ?an ^? ^u y\r table4 ,aft] a few       
pleasantries ( ! same k9d1 %e said to u1
 ) an +5u\sness :i* r5d]$ h] /ill m     
*>m+1 ,:5 ,i am complaisant to p]sons   
:om ,i d n love1 ,i make !m pay = !     
we>9ess !y cause me2 no?+ c be m j2 b if
 ,i suff] _! c>esses1 ,i w n be> _!     
insults2 nor miss ! fir/ :o %all be     
want+ to me 9 respect4  ,at tak+ leave (
 h]1 ,i made ano!r appo9tm5t = ! next   
day4 ,i did n make h] wait4 ,i f\nd h] 9
 've/ito di confid5za'1 9 an undress m  
?an wanton1 unkn[n to nor!rn c\ntries1 &
 :i* ,i w n amuse myself 9 describ+1    
al?\gh ,i recollect x p]fectly well4 ,i 
%all only rem>k t h] ruffles & coll> 7  
edg$ ) silk network ornam5t$ )          
rose-color$ pompons4 ,?is1 9 my eyes1   
mu* enliv5$ a beautiful complexion4 ,i  
aft]w>ds f\nd x to be ! mode at ,v5ice1 
& ! effect is s *>m+ t ,i am surpris$ x 
has nev] be5 introduc$ 9 ,france4 ,i _h 
no idea ( ! transports :i* await$ me4 ,i
 h spok5 ( ,madam de ,l>nage ) !        
transport :i* ! remembrance ( h] /ill   

sometimes gives me2 b h[ old1 ugly &    
cold %e appe>$1 comp>$ ) my ,zulietta6  
,d n attempt to =m to y\rself an idea ( 
! *>ms & graces ( ?is en*ant+ girl1 y w 
be f> too %ort ( tru?4 ,"y virg9s 9     
cloi/]s are n s fre%3 ! beauties ( !    
s]aglio are less animat$3 ! h\ris (     
p>adise less engag+4 ,nev] 0 s sweet an 
enjoym5t (f]$ to ! he>t & s5ses ( a     
mortal4 ,ah6 _h ,i at lea/ be5 capable (
 fully ta/+ ( x = a s+le mom5t6 ,i _h   
ta/$ ( x1 b )\t a *>m4 ,i enfeebl$ all  
its delights3 ,i de/roy$ !m z at w4 ,no2
 ,nature has n made me capable (        
enjoym5t4 ,%e has infus$ into my wret*$ 
head ! poison ( t ineffable happ9ess1 ! 
desire ( :i* %e fir/ plac$ 9 my he>t4   
,if !re be a circum/ance 9 my life1 :i* 
describes my nature1 x is t :i* ,i am   
go+ to relate4 ,! =cible mann] 9 :i* ,i 
at ?is mom5t recollect ! object ( my    
book1 w "h make me hold 9 contempt !    
false delicacy :i* w\ld prev5t me f     
fulfill+ x4 ,:oev] y may be :o are      
desir\s ( kn[+ a man1 h ! c\rage to read

 ! two or ?ree foll[+ pages1 & y w      
become fully acqua9t$ ) ,j4 ,j4         
,r\sseau4  ,i ent]$ ! *amb] ( a woman ( 
easy virtue1 z ! sanctu>y ( love &      
beauty3 & 9 h] p]son1 ,i ?\ght ,i saw ! 
div9ity4 ,i %\ld h be5 incl9$ to ?9k t  
)\t respect & e/eem x 0 impossible to   
feel any?+ l t :i* %e made me exp]i5ce4 
,sc>cely _h ,i1 9 h] fir/ famili>ities1 
discov]$ ! =ce ( h] *>ms & c>esses1 be=e
 ,i wi%$1 = fe> ( los+ ! fruit ( !m1 to 
ga!r x be=eh&4 ,sudd5ly1 in/ead ( !     
flame :i* consum$ me1 ,i felt a mortal  
cold run ?r\gh all my ve9s2 my legs     
fail$ me2 & ready to fa9t away1 ,i sat  
d[n & wept l a *ild4  ,:o w\ld guess !  
cause ( my te>s1 & :at1 at ?is mom5t1   
pass$ )9 me8 ,i said to myself3 ! object
 9 my p[] is ! ma/]piece ( love2 h] wit 
& p]son equally approa* p]fection2 %e is
 z good & g5]\s z %e is amiable &       
beautiful4 ,yet %e is a mis]able        
pro/itute1 ab&on$ to ! public4 ,! capta9
 ( a m]*ant%ip dispos$ ( h] at w2 %e has
 ?r[n h]self into my arms1 al?\gh %e    

kn[s ,i h no?+2 & my m]it ) :i* %e _c be
 acqua9t$1 c be to h] no inducem5t4 ,9  
?is !re is some?+ inconceivable4 ,ei!r  
my he>t deceives me1 fasc9ates my s5ses1
 & makes me ! dupe ( an unwor?y slut1 or
 "s secret defect1 ( :i* ,i am ignorant1
 de/roys ! effect ( h] *>ms1 & r5d]s h] 
odi\s 9 ! eyes ( ^? by :om h] *>ms w\ld 
o!rwise be disput$4 ,i endeavor$1 by an 
extraord9>y ef=t ( m9d1 to discov] ?is  
defect1 b x did n s mu* z /rike me t ev5
 ! consequ5ces to be appreh5d$1 might   
possibly h "s influ5ce4 ,! cle>ness ( h]
 sk91 ! brilliancy ( h] complexion1 h]  
:ite tee?1 sweet brea?1 & ! appe>ance ( 
neatness ab\t h] p]son1 s f> remov$ f me
 ?is idea1 t1 /ill 9 d\bt relative to my
 situation aft] ! affair ( ! 'padoana'1 
,i r appreh5d$ ,i 0 n suffici5tly 9     
heal? = h]3 & ,i am firmly p]suad$ ,i 0 
n deceiv$ 9 my op9ion4 ,^! reflections1 
s apropos1 agitat$ me to su* a degree z 
to make me %$ te>s4 ,zuliette1 to :om ! 
sc5e 0 q novel1 0 /ruck spee*less = a   
mom5t4 ,b hav+ made a turn 9 h] *amb]1 &

 pass+ be=e h] glass1 %e compreh5d$1 &  
my eyes confirm$ h] op9ion1 t disgu/ _h 
no "p 9 :at _h happ5$4 ,x 0 n difficult 
= h] to recov] me & dispel ?is          
%amefac$ness4  ,b1 at ! mom5t 9 :i* ,i 0
 ready to fa9t ^u a bosom1 :i* = ! fir/ 
"t seem$ to suff] ! impression ( ! h& & 
lips ( a man1 ,i p]ceiv$ %e _h a )]$    
'teton'4 ,i /ruck my =ehead3 ,i exam9$1 
& ?\ght ,i p]ceiv$ ?is teton 0 n =m$ l !
 o!r4 ,i imm$iately began to consid] h[ 
x 0 possible to h su* a defect1 &       
p]suad$ ( its proce$+ f "s great natural
 vice1 ,i 0 cle>ly conv9c$1 t1 in/ead ( 
! mo/ *>m+ p]son ( :om ,i c\ld =m to    
myself an idea1 ,i _h 9 my arms a       
species ( a mon/]1 ! refuse ( nature1 ( 
m5 & ( love4 ,i c>ri$ my /upidity s f> z
 to speak to h] ( ! discov]y ,i _h made4
 ,%e1 at fir/1 took :at ,i said         
jocosely2 & 9 h] frolicsome humor1 did &
 said ?+s :i* made me die ( love4 ,b    
p]ceiv+ an inquietude ,i c\ld n conceal1
 %e at l5g? r$d5$1 adju/$ h] dress1     
rais$ h]self up1 & )\t say+ a ^w1 w5t & 

plac$ h]self at a w9d[4 ,i attempt$ to  
place myself by h] side3 %e )drew to a  
s(a1 rose f x ! next mom5t1 & fann+     
h]self z %e walk$ ab\t ! *amb]1 said to 
me 9 a res]v$ & disda9ful tone ( voice1 
,zanetto1 'lascia le donne1 a /udia la  
matematica4--,leave wom5 & /udy         
ma!matics4  ,be=e ,i took leave ,i      
reque/$ h] to appo9t ano!r r5dezv\s = ! 
next day1 :i* %e po/pon$ = ?ree days1   
add+1 ) a satirical smile1 t ,i mu/ ne$s
 be 9 want ( repose4 ,i 0 v ill at ease 
dur+ ! int]val2 my he>t 0 full ( h] *>ms
 & graces2 ,i felt my extravagance1 &   
reproa*$ myself ) x1 regrett+ ! loss ( !
 mom5ts ,i _h s ill employ$1 & :i*1 _h  
,i *os51 ,i might h r5d]$ m agreeable   
?an any 9 my :ole life2 wait+ ) ! mo/   
burn+ impati5ce = ! mom5t 9 :i* ,i might
 repair ! loss1 & yet1 not)/&+ all my   
reason+ ^u :at ,i _h discov]$1 anxi\s to
 reconcile ! p]fections ( ?is adorable  
girl ) ! indignity ( h] situation4 ,i   
ran1 ,i flew to h] ap>tm5t at ! h\r     
appo9t$4 ,i "k n :e!r or n h] ardor w\ld

 h be5 m satisfi$ ) ?is visit1 h] pride 
at lea/ w\ld h be5 flatt]$ by x1 & ,i   
already rejoic$ at ! idea ( my conv9c+  
h]1 9 e respect1 t ,i knew h[ to repair 
! wrongs ,i _h done4 ,%e sp>$ me ?is    
ju/ification4 ,! gondoli] :om ,i _h s5t 
to h] ap>tm5t br\ght me = answ] t %e _h 
set (f1 ! ev5+ be=e1 = ,flor5ce4 ,if ,i 
_h n felt all ! love ,i _h = h] p]son :5
 ?is 0 9 my possession1 ,i felt x 9 !   
mo/ cruel mann] on los+ h]4 ,amiable &  
*>m+ z %e 0 9 my eyes1 ,i c\ld n console
 myself = ! loss ( h]2 b ?is ,i h nev]  
be5 able to d relative to ! contemptu\s 
idea :i* at h] dep>ture %e mu/ h _h (   
me4  ,^! are my two n>ratives4 ,!       
eighte5 mon?s ,i pass$ at ,v5ice furni%$
 me ) no o!r ( ! same k9d1 except a     
simple prospect at mo/4 ,c>rio 0 a      
gallant4 ,tir$ ( visit+ girls engag$ to 
o!rs1 he took a fancy to h "o to        
himself1 &1 z we 7 insep>able1 he       
propos$ to me an arrangem5t common en\gh
 at ,v5ice1 :i* 0 to keep "o girl = u   
bo?4 ,to ?is ,i cons5t$4 ,! "q 01 to f9d

 "o :o 0 safe4 ,he 0 s indu/ri\s 9 8    
rese>*es t he f\nd out a little girl f  
elev5 to twelve ye>s ( age1 :om h]      
infam\s "m 0 endeavor+ to sell1 & ,i w5t
 ) ,c>rio to see h]4 ,! sight ( ! *ild  
mov$ me to ! mo/ lively compassion4 ,%e 
0 fair & z g5tle z a lamb4 ,nobody w\ld 
h tak5 h] = an ,italian4 ,liv+ is v *eap
 9 ,v5ice2 we gave a little money to !  
"m1 & provid$ = ! subsi/5ce ( h]        
daught]4 ,%e _h a voice1 & to procure h]
 "s res\rce we gave h] a sp9net1 & a    
s++-ma/]4 ,all ^! exp5ses did n co/ ea* 
( u m ?an two sequ9s a mon?1 & we       
contriv$ to save a mu* great] sum 9 o!r 
matt]s2 b z we 7 oblig$ to wait until %e
 became ( a rip] age1 ?is 0 s[+ a long  
"t be=e we c\ld possibly reap4 ,h[ev]1  
satisfi$ ) pass+ our ev5+s1 *att+ &     
innoc5tly play+ ) ! *ild1 we p]haps     
enjoy$ great] pleasure ?an if we _h     
receiv$ ! la/ favors4 ,s true is x t m5 
are m atta*$ to wom5 by a c]ta9 pleasure
 !y h 9 liv+ ) !m1 ?an by any k9d (     
lib]t9ism4 ,my he>t became ins5sibly    

atta*$ to ! little ,anzoletta1 b my     
atta*m5t 0 pat]nal1 9 :i* ! s5ses _h s  
little %>e1 t 9 proportion z ! =m]      
increas$1 to h connect$ x ) ! latt] w\ld
 h be5 less possible2 & ,i felt ,i %\ld 
h exp]i5c$1 at approa*+ ?is little      
creature :5 become nubile1 ! same horror
 ) :i* ! abom9able crime ( ince/ w\ld h 
inspir$ me4 ,i p]ceiv$ ! s5tim5ts (     
,c>rio take1 unobs]v$ by himself1       
exactly ! same turn4 ,we ?us prep>$ =   
ourselves1 )\t int5d+ x1 pleasure n less
 delici\s1 b v diff]5t f t ( :i* we fir/
 _h an idea2 & ,i am fully p]suad$ t    
h[ev] beautiful ! poor *ild might h     
become1 f> f be+ ! corrupt]s ( h]       
innoc5ce we %\ld h be5 ! protectors ( x4
 ,! circum/ance :i* %ortly aft]w>ds     
befell me depriv$ me ( ! happ9ess ( tak+
 a "p 9 ?is good "w1 & my only m]it 9 ! 
affair 0 ! incl9ation ( my he>t4  ,i w  
n[ return to my j\rney4  ,my fir/       
int5tions aft] leav+ ,m4 de ,montaigu1 0
 to retire to ,g5eva1 until "t & m      
favorable circum/ances %\ld h remov$ !  

ob/acles :i* prev5t$ my union ) my poor 
mamma2 b ! qu>rel betwe5 me & ,m4 de    
,montaigu be+ become public1 & he hav+  
_h ! folly to write ab\t x to ! c\rt1 ,i
 resolv$ to g !re to give an acc\nt ( my
 conduct & compla9 ( t ( a madman4 ,i   
communicat$ my int5tion1 f ,v5ice1 to   
,m4 du ,!il1 *>g$ p] int]im ) =eign     
affairs aft] ! dea? ( ,m4 ,amelot4 ,i   
set (f z soon z my lett]1 & took my r\te
 ?r\gh ,b]gamo1 ,como1 & ,domo          
,d',oscela1 & cross+ ,sa9t ,plomb4 ,at  
,sion1 ,m4 de ,*aignon1 *>ge des        
affaires f ,france1 %[$ me great        
civility2 at ,g5eva ,m4 de la ,closure  
treat$ me ) ! same polite att5tion4 ,i  
!re r5ew$ my acqua9tance ) ,m4 de       
,gauffec\rt1 f :om ,i _h "s money to    
receive4 ,i _h pass$ ?r\gh ,nion )\t go+
 to see my fa!r3 n t ?is 0 a matt] (    
indiff]5ce to me1 b because ,i 0 unwill+
 to appe> be=e my "m-9-law1 aft] !      
disa/] :i* _h befall5 me1 c]ta9 ( be+   
condemn$ by h] )\t be+ he>d4 ,!         
booksell]1 ,du ,vill>d1 an old fri5d (  

my fa!r's1 reproa*$ me sev]ely ) ?is    
neglect4 ,i gave him my reasons = x1 &  
to repair my fault1 )\t expos+ myself to
 meet my "m-9-law1 ,i took a *aise & we 
w5t toge!r to ,nion & /opp$ at a public 
h\se4 ,du ,vill>d w5t to fet* my fa!r1  
:o came runn+ to embrace me4 ,we supp$  
toge!r1 &1 aft] pass+ an ev5+ v         
agreeable to ! wi%es ( my he>t1 ,i      
return$ ! next morn+ to ,g5eva ) ,du    
,vill>d1 = :om ,i h ev] s9ce reta9$ a   
s5tim5t ( gratitude 9 return = ! s]vice 
he did me on ?is occasion4  ,lyons 0 a  
little out ( my direct road1 b ,i 0     
det]m9$ to pass ?r\gh t city 9 ord] to  
conv9ce myself ( a knavi% trick play$ me
 by ,m4 de ,montaigu4 ,i _h s5t me f    
,p>is a little box conta9+ a wai/coat1  
embroid]$ ) gold1 a few pairs ( ruffles1
 & six pairs ( :ite silk /ock+s2 no?+ m4
 ,^u a proposition made me by ,m4 de    
,montaigu1 ,i ord]$ ?is box to be add$  
to 8 baggage4 ,9 ! apo!c>y's bill he    
(f]$ me 9 paym5t ( my sal>y1 & :i* he   
wrote out himself1 he /at$ ! weight (   

?is box1 :i* he call$ a bale1 at elev5  
hundr$ p\nds1 & *>g$ me ) ! c>riage ( x 
at an enorm\s rate4 ,by ! c>es ( ,m4    
,boy de la ,t\r1 to :om ,i 0 recomm5d$  
by ,m4 ,roqu91 8 uncle1 x 0 prov$ f !   
regi/]s ( ! cu/oms ( ,lyons &           
,m>seilles1 t ! said bale weigh$ no m   
?an =ty-five p\nds1 & _h paid c>riage   
accord+ to t weight4 ,i jo9$ ?is au!ntic
 extract to ! memoir ( ,m1 de ,montaigu1
 & provid$ ) ^! pap]s & o!rs conta9+    
/rong] facts1 ,i return$ to ,p>is1 v    
impati5t to make use ( !m4 ,dur+ ! :ole 
( ?is long j\rney ,i _h little          
adv5tures2 at ,como1 9 ,valais1 &       
else:]e4 ,i !re saw _m curi\s ?+s1      
among/ o!rs ! ,boroma isl&s1 :i* are    
wor?y ( be+ describ$4 ,b ,i am press$ by
 "t1 & surr\nd$ by spies4 ,i am oblig$  
to write 9 ha/e1 & v imp]fectly1 a "w   
:i* requires ! leisure & tranquility ,i 
d n enjoy4 ,if ev] provid5ce 9 its      
goodness grants me days m calm1 ,i %all 
de/9e !m to new modell+ ?is "w1 %\ld ,i 
be able to d x1 or at lea/ to giv+ a    

supplem5t1 ( :i* ,i p]ceive x /&s 9 !   
greate/ ne$4--,i h giv5 up ?is project4 
,! news ( my qu>rel _h rea*$ ,p>is be=e 
me & on my arrival ,i f\nd ! p 9 all !  
(fices1 & ! public 9 g5]al1 sc&aliz$ at 
! follies ( ! ambassador4  ,not)/&+ ?is1
 ! public talk at ,v5ice1 & !           
unansw]able pro( ,i exhibit$1 ,i c\ld n 
obta9 ev5 ! %ad[ ( ju/ice4 ,f> f obta9+ 
satisfaction or rep>ation1 ,i 0 left at 
! discretion ( ! ambassador = my sal>y1 
& ?is = no o!r reason ?an because1 n be+
 a ,fr5*man1 ,i _h no "r to national    
protection1 & t x 0 a private affair    
betwe5 him & myself4 ,ev]ybody agre$ ,i 
0 insult$1 injur$1 & un=tunate2 t !     
ambassador 0 mad1 cruel1 & iniquit\s1 & 
t ! :ole ( ! affair di%onor$ him =ev]4  
,b :at ( ?is6 ,he 0 ! ambassador1 & ,i 0
 no?+ m ?an ! secret>y4  ,ord]1 or t :i*
 is s call$1 0 9 opposition to my obta9+
 ju/ice1 & ( ?is ! lea/ %ad[ 0 n grant$ 
me4 ,i suppos$ t1 by l\dly compla9+1 &  
by publicly treat+ ?is madman 9 ! mann] 
he des]v$1 ,i %\ld at l5g? be told to   

hold my tongue2 ?is 0 :at ,i wi%$ =1 &  
,i 0 fully det]m9$ n to obey until ,i _h
 obta9$ r$ress4 ,b at t "t !re 0 no     
m9i/] = =eign affairs4 ,i 0 suff]$ to   
exclaim1 nay1 ev5 enc\rag$ to d x1 &    
jo9$ )2 b ! affair /ill rema9$ 9 ! same 
/ate1 until1 tir$ ( be+ 9 ! "r )\t      
obta9+ ju/ice1 my c\rage at l5g? fail$  
me1 & let ! :ole drop4  ,! only p]son by
 :om ,i 0 ill receiv$1 & f :om ,i %\ld h
 lea/ expect$ su* an inju/ice1 0 ,madam 
de ,beuz5val4 ,full ( ! pr]ogatives (   
rank & nobility1 %e c\ld n conceive x 0 
possible an ambassador c\ld ev] be 9 !  
wrong ) respect to 8 secret>y4 ,!       
reception %e gave me 0 con=mable to ?is 
prejudice4 ,i 0 s piqu$ at x t1         
imm$iately aft] leav+ h]1 ,i wrote h]   
p]haps "o ( ! /ronge/ & mo/ viol5t      
lett]s t ev] came f my p51 & s9ce t "t  
,i nev] once return$ to h] h\se4 ,i 0   
bett] receiv$ by ,fa!r ,ca/el2 b1 9 !   
mid/ ( 8 ,jesuitical :e$l+ ,i p]ceiv$   
him fai?fully to foll[ "o ( ! great     
maxims ( 8 society1 :i* is to sacrifice 

! weak to ! p[]ful4 ,! /rong conviction 
,i felt ( ! ju/ice ( my cause1 & my     
natural greatness ( m9d did n suff] me  
pati5tly to endure ?is p>tiality4 ,i    
ceas$ visit+ ,fa!r ,ca/el1 & on t       
acc\nt1 go+ to ! college ( ! ,jesuits1  
:]e ,i knew nobody b himself4 ,besides !
 intrigu+ & tyrannical _s ( 8 bre?r51 s 
diff]5t f ! cordiality ( ! good ,fa!r   
,hemet1 gave me su* a disgu/ = _!       
conv]sation t ,i h nev] s9ce be5        
acqua9t$ )1 nor se5 anyone ( !m except  
,fa!r ,b]?i]1 :om ,i saw twice or ?rice 
at ,m4 ,dup9's1 9 conjunction ) :om he  
labor$ ) all 8 might at ! refutation (  
,montesquieu4  ,t ,i may n return to !  
subject1 ,i w conclude :at ,i h to say (
 ,m4 de ,montaigu4 ,i _h told him 9 our 
qu>rels t a secret>y 0 n :at he want$1 b
 an attorney's cl]k4 ,he took ! h9t1 & !
 p]son :om he procur$ to succe$ me 0 a  
real attorney1 :o 9 less ?an a ye> robb$
 him ( tw5ty or ?irty ?\s& livres4 ,he  
dis*>g$ him1 & s5t him to prison1       
dismiss$ 8 g5tleman ) disgrace1 &1 9    

wret*$ness1 got himself ev]y:]e into    
qu>rels1 receiv$ affronts :i* a footman 
w\ld n h put up )1 &1 aft] num]\s       
follies1 0 recall$1 & s5t f ! capital4  
,x is v probable t among ! reprim&s he  
receiv$ at c\rt1 8 affair ) me 0 n      
=gott54 ,at lea/1 a little "t aft] 8    
return he s5t 8 maitre d' hotel1 to     
settle my acc\nt1 & give me "s money4 ,i
 0 9 want ( x at t mom5t2 my debts at   
,v5ice1 debts ( honor1 if ev] !re 7 any1
 lay heavy ^u my m9d4 ,i made use ( !   
means :i* (f]$ to dis*>ge !m1 z well z !
 note ( ,zanetto ,nani4 ,i receiv$ :at 0
 (f]$ me1 paid all my debts1 & rema9$ z 
be=e1 )\t a f>?+ 9 my pocket1 b reliev$ 
f a weight :i* _h become insupportable4 
,f t "t ,i nev] he>d speak ( ,m4 de     
,montaigu until 8 dea?1 ) :i* ,i became 
acqua9t$ by means ( ! ,gazette4 ,! peace
 ( ,god be ) t poor man6 ,he 0 z fit = !
 functions ( an ambassador z 9 my       
infancy ,i _h be5 = ^? (                
,grapignan4--,h[ev]1 x 0 9 8 p[] to h   
honorably support$ himself by my        

s]vices1 & rapidly to h advanc$ me 9 a  
c>e] to :i* ! ,comte de ,gauvon _h de/9$
 me 9 my y\?1 & ( ! functions ( :i* ,i  
_h 9 a m advanc$ age r5d]$ myself       
capable4  ,! ju/ice & inutility ( my    
compla9ts1 left 9 my m9d se$s (         
indignation aga9/ our fooli% civil      
in/itutions1 by :i* ! welf>e ( ! public 
& real ju/ice are always sacrific$ to ,i
 "k n :at appe>ance ( ord]1 & :i* does  
no?+ m ?an add ! sanction ( public      
au?ority to ! oppression ( ! weak1 & !  
iniquity ( ! p[]ful4 ,two ?+s prev5t$ ^!
 se$s f putt+ =? at t "t z !y aft]w>ds  
did3 "o 01 myself be+ 9 "q 9 ! affair1 &
 private int]e/1 :5ce no?+ great or     
noble ev] proce$$1 c\ld n draw f my he>t
 ! div9e so>+s1 :i* ! mo/ pure love1    
only ( t :i* is j & sublime1 c produce4 
,! o!r 0 ! *>m ( fri5d%ip :i* temp]$ &  
calm$ my wra? by ! asc5dancy ( a m      
pleas+ s5tim5t4 ,i _h become acqua9t$ at
 ,v5ice ) a ,biscayan1 a fri5d ( my     
fri5d ,c>rio's1 & wor?y ( be+ t ( e     
hone/ man4 ,?is amiable "y man1 born ) e

 tal5t & virtue1 _h j made ! t\r (      
,italy to ga9 a ta/e = ! f9e arts1 &1   
imag9+ he _h no?+ m to acquire1 int5d$  
to return by ! mo/ direct road to 8 own 
c\ntry4 ,i told him ! arts 7 no?+ m ?an 
a relaxation to a g5ius l 81 fit to     
cultivate ! sci5ces2 & to give him a    
ta/e = ^!1 ,i advis$ him to make a      
j\rney to ,p>is & reside !re = six      
mon?s4 ,he took my advice1 & w5t to     
,p>is4 ,he 0 !re & expect$ me :5 ,i     
arriv$4 ,8 lodg+ 0 too consid]able =    
him1 & he (f]$ me ! half ( x1 :i* ,i    
in/antly accept$4 ,i f\nd him absorb$ 9 
! /udy ( ! sublime/ sci5ces4 ,no?+ 0    
above 8 rea*4 ,he dige/$ ev]y?+ ) a     
prodigi\s rapidity4 ,h[ cordially did he
 ?ank me = hav+ procur$ him ?is food = 8
 m9d1 :i* 0 torm5t$ by a ?ir/ aft] k1   
)\t 8 be+ aw>e ( x6 ,:at a treasure (   
light & virtue ,i f\nd 9 ! vigor\s m9d (
 ?is "y man6 ,i felt he 0 ! fri5d ,i    
want$4 ,we soon became intimate4 ,our   
ta/es 7 n ! same1 & we con/antly        
disput$4 ,bo? op9ionat$1 we nev] c\ld   

agree ab\t any?+4 ,nev]!less we c\ld n  
sep>ate2 &1 not)/&+ our reciprocal &    
incessant contradiction1 we nei!r ( u   
wi%$ ! o!r to be diff]5t f :at he 04    
,ignacio ,emanuel de ,altuna 0 "o ( ^?  
r>e be+s :om only ,spa9 produces1 & (   
:om %e produces too few = h] glory4 ,he 
_h n ! viol5t national passions common 9
 8 own c\ntry4 ,! idea ( v5geance c\ld  
no m ent] 8 head1 ?an ! desire ( x c\ld 
proce$ f 8 he>t4 ,8 m9d 0 too great to  
be v9dictive1 & ,i h frequ5tly he>d him 
say1 ) ! greate/ coolness1 t no mortal  
c\ld (f5d him4 ,he 0 gallant1 )\t be+   
t5d]4 ,he play$ ) wom5 z ) s _m pretty  
*ildr54 ,he amus$ himself ) ! mi/resses 
( 8 fri5ds1 b ,i nev] knew him to h "o (
 8 own1 nor ! lea/ desire = x4 ,!       
emanations f ! virtue ) :i* 8 he>t 0    
/or$1 nev] p]mitt$ ! fire ( ! passions  
to excite s5sual desires4  ,aft] 8      
travels he m>ri$1 di$ "y1 & left *ildr52
 &1 ,i am z conv9c$ z ( my exi/5ce1 t 8 
wife 0 ! fir/ & only woman ) :om he ev] 
ta/$ ( ! pleasures ( love4  ,ext]nally  

he 0 dev\t1 l a ,spani>d1 b 9 8 he>t he 
_h ! piety ( an angel4 ,except myself1  
he is ! only man ,i ev] saw ^: pr9ciples
 7 n intol]ant4 ,he nev] 9 8 life ask$  
any p]son 8 op9ion 9 matt]s ( religion4 
,x 0 n ( ! lea/ consequ5ce to him :e!r 8
 fri5d 0 a ,jew1 a ,prote/ant1 a ,turk1 
a ,bigot1 or an ,a!i/1 provid$ he 0 an  
hone/ man4 ,ob/9ate & head/rong 9 matt]s
 ( indiff]5ce1 b ! mom5t religion 0 9   
"q1 ev5 ! moral "p1 he collect$ himself1
 0 sil5t1 or simply said3 ,i am *>g$ ) !
 c>e ( myself1 only4 ,x is a/oni%+ s mu*
 elevation ( m9d %\ld be compatible ) a 
_s ( detail c>ri$ to m9ut5ess4 ,he      
previ\sly divid$ ! employm5t ( ! day by 
h\rs1 qu>t]s & m9utes2 & s scrupul\sly  
adh]$ to ?is di/ribution1 t _h ! clock  
/ruck :ile he 0 read+ a phrase1 he w\ld 
h %ut 8 book )\t f9i%+ x4 ,8 portions ( 
"t ?us laid out1 7 "s ( !m set ap>t to  
/udies ( "o k9d1 & o!rs to ^? ( ano!r3  
he _h "s = reflection1 conv]sation1     
div9e s]vice1 ! read+ ( ,locke1 = 8     
ros>y1 = visits1 music & pa9t+2 & nei!r 

pleasure1 temptation1 nor complaisance1 
c\ld int]rupt ?is ord]3 a duty he might 
h _h to dis*>ge 0 ! only ?+ t c\ld h    
done x4 ,:5 he gave me a li/ ( 8        
di/ribution1 t ,i might con=m myself    
!reto1 ,i fir/ laugh$1 & !n %$ te>s (   
admiration4 ,he nev] con/ra9$ anybody   
nor suff]$ con/ra9t3 he 0 r r\gh ) p1 :o
 f polit5ess1 attempt$ to put x ^u him4 
,he 0 passionate )\t be+ sull54 ,i h (t5
 se5 him w>m1 b nev] saw him really     
angry ) any p]son4 ,no?+ c\ld be m      
*e]ful ?an 8 temp]3 he knew h[ to pass &
 receive a joke2 raill]y 0 "o ( 8       
di/+ui%$ tal5ts1 & ) :i* he possess$ t (
 po9t$ wit & rep>tee4 ,:5 he 0 animat$1 
he 0 noisy & he>d at a great di/ance2 b 
:il/ he l\dly inveigh$1 a smile 0 spread
 ov] 8 c\nt5ance1 & 9 ! mid/ ( 8 w>m? he
 us$ "s div]t+ expression :i* made all 8
 he>]s break out into a l\d laugh4 ,he  
_h no m ( ! ,spani% complexion ?an ( !  
phlegm ( t c\ntry4 ,8 sk9 0 :ite1 8     
*eeks f9ely color$1 & 8 hair ( a light  
*e/nut4 ,he 0 tall & well made2 8 body 0

 well =m$ = ! resid5ce ( 8 m9d4  ,?is   
wise-he>t$ z well z wise-head$ man1 knew
 mank9d1 & 0 my fri5d2 ?is 0 my only    
answ] to su* z are n s4 ,we 7 s         
intimately unit$1 t our int5tion 0 to   
pass our days toge!r4 ,9 a few ye>s ,i 0
 to g to ,ascoytia to live ) him at 8   
e/ate2 e "p ( ! project 0 arrang$ ! eve 
( 8 dep>ture2 no?+ 0 left undet]m9$1    
except t :i* dep5ds n ^u m5 9 ! be/     
conc]t$ plans1 po/]ior ev5ts4 ,my       
disa/]s1 8 m>riage1 & f9ally1 8 dea?1   
sep>at$ u =ev]4 ,"s m5 w\ld be tempt$ to
 say1 t no?+ succe$s except ! d>k       
conspiracies ( ! wick$1 & t ! innoc5t   
int5tions ( ! good are seldom or nev]   
accompli%$4 ,i _h felt ! inconv5i5ce (  
dep5d5ce1 & took a resolution nev] aga9 
to expose myself to x2 hav+ se5 !       
projects ( ambition1 :i* circum/ances _h
 induc$ me to =m1 ov]turn$ 9 _! bir?4   
,disc\rag$ 9 ! c>e] ,i _h s well begun1 
f :i*1 h[ev]1 ,i _h j be5 expell$1 ,i   
resolv$ nev] m to atta* myself to any   
p]son1 b to rema9 9 an indep5d5t /ate1  

turn+ my tal5ts to ! be/ advantage3 ( ^!
 ,i at l5g? began to feel ! ext5t1 & t  
,i _h hi!rto _h too mode/ an op9ion (   
!m4 ,i aga9 took up my op]a1 :i* ,i _h  
laid aside to g to ,v5ice2 & t ,i might 
be less int]rupt$ aft] ! dep>ture (     
,altuna1 ,i return$ to my old hotel ,/4 
,qu5t92 :i*1 9 a solit>y "p ( ! t[n1 & n
 f> f ! ,luxemb\rg1 0 m prop] = my      
purpose ?an noisy ,rue ,/4 ,honor4  ,!re
 ! only consolation :i* ,heav5 suff]$ me
 to ta/e 9 my mis]y1 & ! only "o :i*    
r5d]$ x supportable1 await$ me4 ,?is 0 n
 a tranci5t acqua9tance2 ,i mu/ ent]    
into "s detail relative to ! mann] 9 :i*
 x 0 made4  ,we _h a new l&lady f       
,orleans2 %e took = a ne$lewoman a girl 
f h] own c\ntry1 ( betwe5 tw5ty-two &   
tw5ty-?ree ye>s ( age1 & :o1 z well z ! 
ho/ess1 ate at our table4 ,?is girl1    
nam$ ,!resa le ,vasseur1 0 ( a good     
family2 h] fa!r 0 an (fic] 9 ! m9t (    
,orleans1 & h] "m a %opkeep]2 !y _h _m  
*ildr54 ,! function ( ! m9t ( ,orleans  
be+ suppress$1 ! fa!r f\nd himself )\t  

employm5t2 & ! "m hav+ suff]$ losses1 0 
r$uc$ to n>r[ circum/ances4 ,%e quitt$  
h] bus9ess & came to ,p>is ) h] husb& & 
daught]1 :o1 by h] indu/ry1 ma9ta9$ all 
! ?ree4  ,! fir/ "t ,i saw ?is girl at  
table1 ,i 0 /ruck ) h] mode/y2 & /ill m 
s ) h] lively yet *>m+ look1 :i*1 )     
respect to ! impression x made ^u me1 0 
nev] equall$4 ,beside ,m4 de ,bonnefond1
 ! company 0 compos$ ( sev]al ,iri%     
prie/s1 ,gascons & o!rs ( mu* ! same    
description4 ,our ho/ess h]self _h n    
made ! be/ possible use ( h] "t1 & ,i 0 
! only p]son at ! table :o spoke &      
behav$ ) dec5cy4 ,allurem5ts 7 ?r[n out 
to ! "y girl4 ,i took h] "p1 & ! joke 0 
!n turn$ aga9/ me4 ,_h ,i _h no natural 
incl9ation to ! poor girl1 compassion & 
contradiction w\ld h produc$ x 9 me3 ,i 
0 always a great fri5d to dec5cy 9      
mann]s & conv]sation1 especially 9 !    
fair sex4 ,i op5ly decl>$ myself h]     
*ampion1 & p]ceiv$ %e 0 n ins5sible ( my
 att5tion2 h] looks1 animat$ by !       
gratitude %e d>$ n express by words1 7 =

 ?is reason /ill m p5etrat+4  ,%e 0 v   
timid1 & ,i 0 z mu* s z h]self4 ,!      
connection :i* ?is disposition common to
 bo? seem$ to remove to a di/ance1 0    
h[ev] rapidly =m$4 ,our l&lady p]ceiv+  
its progress1 became furi\s1 & h]       
brutality =w>d$ my affair ) ! "y girl1  
:o1 hav+ no p]son 9 ! h\se except myself
 to give h] ! lea/ support1 0 sorry to  
see me g f home1 & sigh$ = ! return ( h]
 protector4 ,! aff9ity our he>ts bore to
 ea* o!r1 & ! simil>ity ( our           
dispositions1 _h soon _! ord9>y effect4 
,%e ?\ght %e saw 9 me an hone/ man1 & 9 
?is %e 0 n deceiv$4 ,i ?\ght ,i p]ceiv$ 
9 h] a woman ( great s5sibility1 simple 
9 h] mann]s1 & devoid ( all             
coquetry3--,i 0 no m deceiv$ 9 h] ?an %e
 9 me4 ,i began by decl>+ to h] t ,i    
w\ld nev] ei!r ab&on or m>ry h]4 ,love1 
e/eem1 artless s9c]ity 7 ! m9i/]s ( my  
triumph1 & x 0 because h] he>t 0 t5d] & 
virtu\s1 t ,i 0 happy )\t be+ presum+4  
,! appreh5sions %e 0 "u ( my n f9d+ 9 h]
 t = :i* ,i s\ght1 ret>d$ my happ9ess m 

?an e o!r circum/ance4 ,i p]ceiv$ h]    
disconc]t$ & confus$ be=e %e yield$ h]  
cons5t1 wi%+ to be und]/ood & n d>+ to  
expla9 h]self4 ,f> f suspect+ ! real    
cause ( h] emb>rassm5t1 ,i falsely      
imag9$ x to proce$ f ano!r motive1 a    
supposition highly insult+ to h] morals1
 & ?9k+ %e gave me to und]/& my heal?   
might be expos$ to dang]1 ,i fell into s
 p]plex$ a /ate t1 al?\gh x 0 no re/ra9t
 ^u me1 x poison$ my happ9ess dur+      
sev]al days4 ,z we did n und]/& ea* o!r1
 our conv]sations ^u ?is subject 7 s _m 
enigmas m ?an ridicul\s4 ,%e 0 ^u ! po9t
 ( believ+ ,i 0 absolutely mad2 & ,i on 
my "p 0 z ne> n kn[+ :at else to ?9k (  
h]4 ,at la/ we came to an explanation2  
%e confess$ to me ) te>s ! only fault ( 
! k9d ( h] :ole life1 imm$iately aft] %e
 became nubile2 ! fruit ( h] ignorance &
 ! address ( h] s$uc]4 ,! mom5t ,i      
compreh5d$ :at %e meant1 ,i gave a %\t (
 joy4 ,a ,hym56 exclaim$ ,i2 s\ght = at 
,p>is1 & at tw5ty ye>s ( age6 ,ah my    
,!resa6 ,i am happy 9 possess+ !e1      

virtu\s & heal?y z ?\ art1 & 9 n f9d+ t 
= :i* ,i nev] s\ght4  ,at fir/ amusem5t 
0 my only object2 ,i p]ceiv$ ,i _h gone 
fur!r & _h giv5 myself a companion4 ,a  
little intimate connection ) ?is        
excell5t girl1 & a few reflections ^u my
 situation1 made me discov] t1 :ile ?9k+
 ( no?+ m ?an my pleasures1 ,i _h done a
 great deal t[>ds my happ9ess4 ,9 !     
place ( ext+ui%$ ambition1 a life (     
s5tim5t1 :i* _h entire possession ( my  
he>t1 0 necess>y to me4 ,9 a ^w1 ,i     
want$ a successor to mamma3 s9ce ,i 0   
nev] aga9 to live ) h]1 x 0 necess>y "s 
p]son %\ld live ) h] pupil1 & a p]son1  
too1 9 :om ,i might f9d t simplicity &  
docility ( m9d & he>t :i* %e _h f\nd 9  
me4 ,x 01 moreov]1 necess>y t ! happ9ess
 ( dome/ic life %\ld indemnify me = !   
spl5did c>e] ,i _h j r5\nc$4 ,:5 ,i 0 q 
alone !re 0 a void 9 my he>t1 :i* want$ 
no?+ m ?an ano!r he>t to fill x up4     
,fate _h depriv$ me ( ?is1 or at lea/ 9 
"p ali5at$ me f t = :i* by nature ,i 0  
=m$4 ,f t mom5t ,i 0 alone1 = !re nev] 0

 = me ! lea/ ?+ int]m$iate betwe5 ev]y?+
 & no?+4 ,i f\nd 9 ,!resa ! supplem5t ( 
:i* ,i /ood 9 ne$2 by means ( h] ,i liv$
 z happily z ,i possibly c\ld d1 accord+
 to ! c\rse ( ev5ts4  ,i at fir/        
attempt$ to improve h] m9d4 ,9 ?is my   
pa9s 7 useless4 ,h] m9d is z nature =m$ 
x3 x 0 n susceptible ( cultivation4 ,i d
 n blu% 9 ackn[l$g+ %e nev] knew h[ to  
read well1 al?\gh %e writes tol]ably4   
,:5 ,i w5t to lodge 9 ! ,rue ,neuve des 
,petits ,*amps1 opposite to my w9d[s at 
! ,hotel de ,pon*>tra91 !re 0 a         
sun-dial1 on :i* = a :ole mon? ,i us$   
all my ef=ts to tea* h] to "k ! h\rs2   
yet1 %e sc>cely kn[s !m at pres5t4 ,%e  
nev] c\ld enum]ate ! twelve mon?s ( !   
ye> 9 ord]1 & _c di/+ui% "o num]al f    
ano!r1 not)/&+ all ! tr\ble ,i took     
endeavor+ to tea* !m to h]4 ,%e nei!r   
kn[s h[ to c\nt money1 nor to reckon !  
price ( any?+4 ,! ^w :i* :5 %e speaks1  
pres5ts itself to h] m9d1 is frequ5tly  
opposite to t ( :i* %e means to make    
use4 ,i =m]ly made a diction>y ( h]     

phrases1 to amuse ,m4 de ,luxemb\rg1 &  
h] 'qui pro quos' (t5 became celebrat$  
among ^? ) :om ,i 0 mo/ intimate4 ,b ?is
 p]son1 s conf9$ 9 h] intellects1 &1 if 
! _w pleases1 s /upid1 c give excell5t  
advice 9 cases ( difficulty4 ,9         
,switz]l&1 9 ,engl& & 9 ,france1 %e     
frequ5tly saw :at ,i _h n myself        
p]ceiv$2 %e has (t5 giv5 me ! be/ advice
 ,i c\ld possibly foll[2 %e has rescu$  
me f dang]s into :i* ,i _h bl9dly       
precipitat$ myself1 & 9 ! pres5ce (     
pr9ces & ! great1 h] s5tim5ts1 good     
s5se1 answ]s1 & conduct h acquir$ h]    
univ]sal e/eem1 & myself ! mo/ s9c]e    
congratulations on h] m]it4 ,) p]sons   
:om we love1 s5tim5t =tifies ! m9d z    
well z ! he>t2 & !y :o are ?us atta*$1 h
 little ne$ ( se>*+ = ideas else:]e4  ,i
 liv$ ) my ,!resa z agreeably z ) ! f9e/
 g5ius 9 ! _w4 ,h] "m1 pr\d ( hav+ be5  
br\ght up "u ! ,m>*ioness ( ,monpipeau1 
attempt$ to be witty1 wi%$ to direct !  
judgm5t ( h] daught]1 & by h] knavi%    
cunn+ de/roy$ ! simplicity ( our        

int]c\rse4  ,! fatigue ( ?is opportunity
 made me 9 "s degree surm\nt ! fooli%   
%ame :i* prev5t$ me f appe>+ ) ,!resa 9 
public2 & we took %ort c\ntry walks1    
tete-a-tete1 & p>took ( little          
collations1 :i*1 to me1 7 delici\s4 ,i  
p]ceiv$ %e lov$ me s9c]ely1 & ?is       
increas$ my t5d]ness4 ,?is *>m+ intimacy
 left me no?+ to wi%2 futurity no long] 
gave me ! lea/ conc]n1 or at mo/ appe>$ 
only z ! pres5t mom5t prolong$3 ,i _h no
 o!r desire ?an t ( insur+ its duration4
  ,?is atta*m5t r5d]$ all o!r           
dissipation sup]flu\s & insipid to me4  
,z ,i only w5t out = ! purpose ( go+ to 
! ap>tm5t ( ,!resa1 h] place ( resid5ce 
almo/ became my own4 ,my retirem5t 0 s  
favorable to ! "w ,i _h und]tak51 t1 9  
less ?an ?ree mon?s1 my op]a 0 entirely 
f9i%$1 bo? words & music1 except a few  
accompanim5ts1 & fill+s up :i* /ill     
rema9$ to be add$4 ,?is maneuv]+ bus9ess
 0 v fatigu+ to me4 ,i propos$ x to     
,philidor1 (f]+ him at ! same "t a "p ( 
! pr(its4 ,he came twice1 & did some?+  

to ! middle p>ts 9 ! act ( ,ovid2 b he  
c\ld n conf9e himself to an assidu\s    
application by ! allurem5t ( advantages 
:i* 7 di/ant & unc]ta94 ,he did n come a
 ?ird "t1 & ,i f9i%$ ! "w myself4  ,my  
op]a complet$1 ! next ?+ 0 to make      
some?+ ( x3 ?is 0 by mu* ! m difficult  
task ( ! two4 ,a man liv+ 9 solitude 9  
,p>is w nev] succe$ 9 any?+4 ,i 0 on !  
po9t ( mak+ my way by means ( ,m4 de la 
,popl9i]e1 to :om ,gauffec\rt1 at my    
return to ,g5eva1 _h introduc$ me4 ,m4  
de la ,popl9i]e 0 ! ,meca5as ( ,rameau2 
,madam de la ,popl9i]e 8 v humble s*ol>4
 ,rameau 0 said to gov]n 9 t h\se4      
,judg+ t he w\ld ) pleasure protect ! "w
 ( "o ( 8 disciples1 ,i wi%$ to %[ him  
:at ,i _h done4 ,he refus$ to exam9e x2 
say+ he c\ld n read score1 x 0 too      
fatigu+ to him4 ,m4 de la ,popl9i]e1 to 
obviate ?is difficulty1 said he might   
he> x2 & (f]$ me to s5d = musicians to  
execute c]ta9 deta*$ pieces4 ,i wi%$ =  
no?+ bett]4 ,rameau cons5t$ ) an ill    
grace1 incessantly repeat+ t !          

composition ( a man n regul>ly br$ to ! 
sci5ce1 & :o _h le>n$ music )\t a ma/]1 
mu/ c]ta9ly be v f9e6 ,i ha/5$ to copy  
into p>ts five or six select passages4  
,t5 symphonies 7 procur$1 & ,alb]t1     
,b]>d1 & ,mademoiselle ,b\rbonnais      
und]took ! vocal "p4 ,rameau1 ! mom5t he
 he>d ! ov]ture1 0 purposely extravagant
 9 8 eulogium1 by :i* he int5d$ x %\ld  
be und]/ood x c\ld n be my composition4 
,he %[$ signs ( impati5ce at e passage3 
b aft] a c\nt] t5or song1 ! air ( :i* 0 
noble & h>moni\s1 ) a brilliant         
accompanim5t1 he c\ld no long] conta9   
himself2 he apo/rophis$ me ) a brutality
 at :i* ev]ybody 0 %ock$1 ma9ta9+ t a "p
 ( :at he _h he>d 0 by a man exp]i5c$ 9 
! art1 & ! re/ by "s ignorant p]son :o  
did n s mu* z und]/& music4 ,x is true  
my composition1 unequal & )\t rule1 0   
sometimes sublime1 & at o!rs insipid1 z 
t ( a p]son :o =ms himself 9 an art by !
 so>+s ( 8 own g5ius1 unsupport$ by     
sci5ce1 mu/ necess>ily be4 ,rameau      
pret5d$ to see no?+ 9 me b a            

contemptible pilf]]1 )\t tal5ts or ta/e4
 ,! re/ ( ! company1 among :om ,i mu/   
di/+ui% ! ma/] ( ! h\se1 7 ( a diff]5t  
op9ion4 ,m4 de ,ri*elieu1 :o at t "t    
frequ5tly visit$ ,m4 & ,madam de la     
,popl9i]e1 he>d !m speak ( my "w1 & wi%$
 to he> ! :ole ( x1 ) an int5tion1 if x 
pleas$ him1 to h x p]=m$ at c\rt4 ,!    
op]a 0 execut$ ) full *oruses1 & by a   
great or*e/ra1 at ! exp5se ( ! k+1 at   
,m4 de ,bonneval's int5dant ( ! ,m5us2  
,francoeur direct$ ! b&4 ,! effect 0    
surpris+3 ! duke nev] ceas$ to exclaim &
 applaud2 &1 at ! end ( "o ( ! *oruses1 
9 ! act ( ,tasso1 he arose & came to me1
 &1 press+ my h&1 said3 ,m4 ,r\sseau1   
?is is transport+ h>mony4 ,i nev] he>d  
any?+ f9]4 ,i w get ?is p]=m$ at        
,v]sailles4  ,madam de la ,pol9i]e1 :o 0
 pres5t1 said n a ^w4 ,rameau1 al?\gh   
invit$1 refus$ to come4 ,! next day1    
,madam de la ,popl9i]e receiv$ me at h] 
toilette v ungraci\sly1 affect$ to      
und]value my piece1 & told me1 t al?\gh 
a little false glitt] _h at fir/ dazzl$ 

,m4 de ,ri*elieu1 he _h recov]$ f 8     
error1 & %e advis$ me n to place ! lea/ 
dep5d5ce ^u my op]a4 ,! duke arriv$ soon
 aft]1 & spoke to me 9 q a diff]5t      
language4 ,he said v flatt]+ ?+s ( my   
tal5ts1 & seem$ z mu* dispos$ z ev] to h
 my composition p]=m$ be=e ! k+4 ,!re is
 no?+1 said he1 b ! act ( ,tasso :i* _c 
pass at c\rt3 y mu/ write ano!r4 ,^u ?is
 s+le ^w ,i %ut myself up 9 my ap>tm5t2 
& 9 ?ree weeks produc$1 9 ! place (     
,tasso1 ano!r act1 ! subject ( :i* 0    
,hesiod inspir$ by ! muses4 ,9 ?is ,i   
f\nd ! secret ( introduc+ a "p ( !      
hi/ory ( my tal5ts1 & ( ! jeal\sy ) :i* 
,rameau _h be5 pleas$ to honor me4 ,!re 
0 9 ! new act an elevation less gigantic
 & bett] support$ ?an 9 ! act ( ,tasso4 
,! music 0 z noble & ! composition      
bett]2 & _h ! o!r two acts be5 equal to 
?is1 ! :ole piece w\ld h support$ a     
repres5tation to advantage4 ,b :il/ ,i 0
 endeavor+ to give x ! la/ f9i%+1 ano!r 
und]tak+ susp5d$ ! completion ( t ,i _h 
9 my h&4 ,9 ! w9t] :i* succe$$ ! battle 

( ,font5oi1 !re 7 _m galas at           
,v]sailles1 & sev]al op]as p]=m$ at !   
!at] ( ! little /ables4 ,among ! numb] (
 ! latt] 0 ! dramatic piece ( ,voltaire1
 entitl$ ',la ,pr9cesse de ,nav>re'1 !  
music by ,rameau1 ! "n ( :i* has j be5  
*ang$ to t ( ',fetes de ,ramire'4 ,?is  
new subject requir$ sev]al *anges to be 
made 9 ! div]tissem5ts1 z well 9 !      
poetry z 9 ! music4  ,a p]son capable ( 
bo? 0 n[ s\ght aft]4 ,voltaire 0 9      
,lorra9e1 & ,rameau also2 bo? ( :om 7   
employ$ on ! op]a ( ! ,temple ( ,glory1 
& c\ld n give _! att5tion to ?is4 ,m4 de
 ,ri*elieu ?\ght ( me1 & s5t to desire  
,i w\ld und]take ! alt]ations2 &1 t ,i  
might ! bett] exam9e :at !re 0 to d1 he 
gave me sep>ately ! poem & ! music4 ,9 !
 fir/ place1 ,i w\ld n t\* ! words )\t !
 cons5t ( ! au?or1 to :om ,i wrote ^u ! 
subject a v polite & respectful lett]1  
su* a "o z 0 prop]2 & receiv$ f him !   
foll[+ answ]3  ,,sir3 ,9 y two tal5ts1  
:i* hi!rto h always be5 sep>at$1 are    
unit$4 ,^! are two good reasons = me to 

e/eem & to endeavor to love y4 ,i am    
sorry1 on y\r acc\nt1 y %\ld employ ^!  
tal5ts 9 a "w :i* is s little wor?y (   
!m4 ,a few mon?s ago ! ,duke de         
,ri*elieu comm&$ me to make1 absolutely 
9 ! tw9kl+ ( an eye1 a little & bad     
sket* ( a few insipid & imp]fect sc5es  
to be adapt$ to div]tissem5ts :i* are n 
( a nature to be jo9$ ) !m4 ,i obey$ ) !
 greate/ exactness4 ,i wrote v fa/1 & v 
ill4 ,i s5t ?is wret*$ production to ,m4
 de ,ri*elieu1 imag9+ he w\ld make no   
use ( x1 or t ,i %\ld h x aga9 to make !
 necess>y corrections4 ,happily x is 9  
y\r h&s1 & y are at full lib]ty to d ) x
 :atev] y please3 ,i h entirely lo/     
sight ( ! ?+4 ,i d\bt n b y w h correct$
 all ! faults :i* _c b ab\nd 9 s ha/y a 
composition ( su* a v simple sket*1 & am
 p]suad$ y w h suppli$ :atev] 0 want+4  
,i rememb] t1 among o!r /upid           
inatt5tions1 no acc\nt is giv5 9 ! sc5es
 :i* connect ! div]tissem5ts ( ! mann] 9
 :i* ! ,pr9cess ,gr5ad9e imm$iately     
passes f a prison to a g>d5 or palace4  

,z x is n a magician b a ,spani%        
nobleman :o gives h] ! gala1 ,i am (    
op9ion no?+ %\ld be effect$ by          
en*antm5t4  ,i beg1 sir1 y w exam9e ?is 
"p1 ( :i* ,i h b a confus$ idea4  ,y w  
likewise consid]1 :e!r or n x be        
necess>y ! prison %\ld be op5$1 & !     
pr9cess convey$ f x to a f9e palace1    
gilt & v>ni%$1 & prep>$ = h]4 ,i "k all 
?is is wret*$1 & t x is b5ea? a ?9k+ be+
 to make a s]i\s affair ( su* trifles2  
b1 s9ce we mu/ displease z little z     
possible1 x is necess>y we %\ld con=m to
 reason1 ev5 9 a bad div]tissem5t ( an  
op]a4  ,i dep5d :olly ^u y & ,m4        
,ballot1 & soon expect to h ! honor (   
return+ y my ?anks1 & assur+ y h[ mu* ,i
 am1 etc4  ,!re is no?+ surpris+ 9 !    
great polit5ess ( ?is lett]1 comp>$ ) ! 
almo/ crude ones :i* he has s9ce writt5 
to me4 ,he ?\ght ,i 0 9 great favor )   
,madam ,ri*elieu2 & ! c\rtly suppl5ess1 
:i* ev]yone kn[s to be ! "* ( ?is au?or1
 oblig$ him to be extremely polite to a 
new com]1 until he become bett] acqua9t$

 ) ! measure ( ! favor & patronage he   
enjoy$4  ,au?oriz$ by ,m4 de ,voltaire1 
& n "u ! necessity ( giv+ myself ! lea/ 
conc]n ab\t ,m4 ,rameau1 :o endeavor$ to
 injure me1 ,i set to "w1 & 9 two mon?s 
my und]tak+ 0 f9i%$4 ,) respect to !    
poetry1 x 0 conf9$ to a m]e trifle2 ,i  
aim$ at no?+ m ?an to prev5t ! diff]5ce 
( /yle f be+ p]ceiv$1 & _h ! vanity to  
?9k ,i _h succe$$4 ,! musical "p 0 long]
 & m labori\s4 ,besides my hav+ to      
compose sev]al prep>atory pieces1 &1    
among/ o!rs1 ! ov]ture1 all !           
recitative1 ) :i* ,i 0 *>g$1 0 extremely
 difficult on acc\nt ( ! necessity !re 0
 ( connect+1 9 a few v]ses1 & by v rapid
 modulations1 symphonies & *oruses1 9   
keys v diff]5t f ea* o!r2 = ,i 0 det]m9$
 nei!r to *ange nor transpose any ( !   
airs1 t ,rameau might n accuse me ( hav+
 disfigur$ !m4 ,i succe$$ 9 !           
recitative2 x 0 well acc5t$1 full (     
en]gy & excell5t modulation4 ,! idea (  
two m5 ( sup]ior tal5ts1 ) :om ,i 0     
associat$1 _h elevat$ my g5ius1 & ,i c  

ass]t1 t 9 ?is b>r5 & +lori\s task1 (   
:i* ! public c\ld h no k1 ,i 0 = ! mo/  
"p equal to my models4  ,! piece1 9 !   
/ate to :i* ,i _h br\ght x1 0 rehe>s$ 9 
! great !atre ( ! op]a4 ,( ! ?ree au?ors
 :o _h contribut$ to ! production1 ,i 0 
! only "o pres5t4 ,voltaire 0 n 9 ,p>is1
 & ,rameau ei!r did n come1 or conceal$ 
himself4 ,! words ( ! fir/ monologue 7 v
 m\rnful2 !y began )3            ,o     
,mort6 vi5s t]m9] les malheurs de ma    
vie4       ,o ,dea?6 ha/5 to t]m9ate !  
mis=tunes ( my life4  ,to ^!1 suitable  
music 0 necess>y4 ,x 01 h[ev]1 ^u ?is t 
,madam de la ,popl9i]e f\nd$ h] c5sure2 
accus+ me1 ) mu* bitt]ness1 ( hav+      
compos$ a fun]al an!m4 ,m4 de ,ri*elieu 
v judici\sly began by in=m+ himself :o 0
 ! au?or ( ! poetry ( ?is monologue2 ,i 
pres5t$ him ! manuscript he _h s5t me1  
:i* prov$ x 0 by ,voltaire4 ,9 t case1  
said ! duke1 ,voltaire alone is to      
blame4 ,dur+ ! rehe>sal1 ev]y?+ ,i _h   
done 0 disapprov$ by ,madam de la       
,popl9i]e1 & approv$ ( by ,m4 de        

,ri*elieu2 b ,i _h aft]w>ds to d ) too  
p[]ful an adv]s>y4 ,x 0 signifi$ to me t
 sev]al p>ts ( my composition want$     
revis+1 & t on ?is x 0 necess>y ,i %\ld 
consult ,m4 ,rameau2 my he>t 0 w\nd$ by 
su* a conclusion1 in/ead ( ! eulogium ,i
 expect$1 & :i* c]ta9ly ,i m]it$1 & ,i  
return$ to my ap>tm5t ov]:elm$ ) grief1 
exhau/$ ) fatigue1 & consum$ by *agr94  
,i 0 imm$iately tak5 ill1 & conf9$ to my
 *amb] = upw>ds ( six weeks4  ,rameau1  
:o 0 *>g$ ) ! alt]ations indicat$ by    
,madam de la ,popl9i]e1 s5t to ask me = 
! ov]ture ( my great op]a1 to sub/itute 
x to t ,i _h j compos$4 ,happily ,i     
p]ceiv$ ! trick he int5d$ to play me1 & 
refus$ him ! ov]ture4 ,z ! p]=mance 0 to
 be 9 five or six days1 he _h n "t to   
make "o1 & 0 oblig$ to leave t ,i _h    
prep>$4 ,x 0 9 ! ,italian ta/e1 & 9 a   
/yle at t "t q new 9 ,france4 ,x gave   
satisfaction1 & ,i le>n$ f ,m4 de       
,valmalette1 maitre d'hotel to ! k+1 &  
son-9-law to ,m4 ,muss>d1 my relation & 
fri5d1 t ! connoisseurs 7 highly        

satisfi$ ) my "w1 & t ! public _h n     
di/+ui%$ x f t ( ,rameau4 ,h[ev]1 he &  
,madam de la ,popl9i]e took measures to 
prev5t any p]son f kn[+ ,i _h any conc]n
 9 ! matt]4 ,9 ! books di/ribut$ to !   
audi5ce1 & 9 :i* ! au?ors are always    
nam$1 ,voltaire 0 ! only p]son m5tion$1 
& ,rameau pref]r$ ! suppression ( 8 own 
"n to see+ x associat$ ) m9e4  ,z soon z
 ,i 0 9 a situation to leave my room1 ,i
 wi%$ to wait ^u ,m4 de ,ri*elieu1 b x 0
 too late2 he _h j set (f = ,dunkirk1   
:]e he 0 to comm& ! exp$ition de/9$ to  
,scotl&4 ,at 8 return1 said ,i to       
myself1 to au?orize my idl5ess1 x w be  
too late = my purpose1 n hav+ se5 him   
s9ce t "t4 ,i lo/ ! honor ( mywork & !  
emolum5ts x %\ld h produc$ me1 besides  
consid]+ my "t1 tr\ble1 grief1 &        
vexation1 my illness1 & ! money ?is co/ 
me1 )\t ev] receiv+ ! lea/ b5efit1 or r1
 recomp5se4 ,h[ev]1 ,i always ?\ght ,m4 
de ,ri*elieu 0 dispos$ to s]ve me1 & t  
he _h a favorable op9ion ( my tal5ts2 b 
my mis=tune1 & ,madam de la ,popl9i]e1  

prev5t$ ! effect ( 8 good wi%es4  ,i    
c\ld n div9e ! reason ( ! av]sion ?is   
lady _h to me4 ,i _h always endeavor$ to
 make myself agreeable to h]1 & regul>ly
 paid h] my c\rt4 ,gauffec\rt expla9$ to
 me ! causes ( h] dislike3 ,! fir/1 said
 he1 is h] fri5d%ip = ,rameau1 ( :om %e 
is ! decl>$ panegyri/1 & :o w n suff] a 
competitor2 ! next is an orig9al s91 :i*
 ru9s y 9 h] e/imation1 & :i* %e w nev] 
=give2 y are a ,g5evese4 ,^u ?is he told
 me ! ,abbe ,hub]t1 :o 0 f ! same city1 
& ! s9c]e fri5d ( ,m4 de la ,popl9i]e1  
_h us$ all 8 ef=ts to prev5t him f m>ry+
 ?is lady1 ) ^: "* & temp] he 0 v well  
acqua9t$2 & t aft] ! m>riage %e _h v[$  
him an implacable hatr$1 z well z all ! 
,g5evese4 ,al?\gh ,la ,popl9i]e has a   
fri5d%ip = y1 d n1 said he1 dep5d ^u 8  
protection3 he is /ill 9 love ) 8 wife3 
%e hates y1 & is v9dictive & artful2 y w
 nev] d any?+ 9 t h\se4 ,all ?is ,i took
 = grant$4  ,! same ,gauffec\rt r5d]$ me
 mu* ab\t ?is "t1 a s]vice ( :i* ,i /ood
 9 ! greate/ ne$4 ,i _h j lo/ my virtu\s

 fa!r1 :o 0 ab\t sixty ye>s ( age4 ,i   
felt ?is loss less sev]ely ?an ,i %\ld h
 done at any o!r "t1 :5 ! emb>rassm5ts (
 my situation _h less engag$ my         
att5tion4 ,dur+ 8 life-"t ,i _h nev]    
claim$ :at rema9$ ( ! prop]ty ( my "m1 &
 ( :i* he receiv$ ! little int]e/4 ,8   
dea? remov$ all my scruples ^u ?is      
subject4 ,b ! want ( a legal pro( ( !   
dea? ( my bro!r creat$ a difficulty :i* 
,gauffec\rt und]took to remove1 & ?is he
 effect$ by means ( ! good (fices ( !   
advocate ,de ,lolme4 ,z ,i /ood 9 ne$ ( 
! little res\rce1 & ! ev5t be+ d\btful1 
,i wait$ = a def9itive acc\nt ) !       
greate/ anxiety4  ,"o ev5+ on ent]+ my  
ap>tm5t ,i f\nd a lett]1 :i* ,i knew to 
conta9 ! in=mation ,i want$1 & ,i took x
 up ) an impati5t trembl+1 ( :i* ,i 0   
inw>dly a%am$4 ,:at8 said ,i to myself1 
) disda91 %all ,jean ,jacques ?us suff] 
himself to be subdu$ by int]e/ &        
curiosity8 ,i imm$iately laid ! lett]   
aga9 ^u ! *imney-piece4 ,i undress$     
myself1 w5t to b$ ) great composure1    

slept bett] ?an ord9>y1 & rose 9 ! morn+
 at a late h\r1 )\t ?9k+ m ( my lett]4  
,z ,i dress$ myself1 x caught my eye2 ,i
 broke ! seal v leisurely1 & f\nd "u !  
envelope a bill ( ex*ange4 ,i felt a    
v>iety ( pleas+ s5sations at ! same "t3 
b ,i c ass]t1 ^u my honor1 t ! mo/      
lively ( !m all 0 t proce$+ f hav+ kn[n 
h[ to be ma/] ( myself4  ,i c\ld m5tion 
tw5ty su* circum/ances 9 my life1 b ,i  
am too mu* press$ = "t to say ev]y?+4 ,i
 s5t a small "p ( ?is money to my poor  
mamma2 regrett+1 ) my eyes suffus$ )    
te>s1 ! happy "t :5 ,i %\ld h laid x all
 at h] feet4 ,all h] lett]s conta9$     
evid5t m>ks ( h] di/ress4 ,%e s5t me    
piles ( recipes1 & num]\s secrets1 ) :i*
 %e pret5d$ ,i might make my =tune & h] 
own4 ,! idea ( h] wret*$ness already    
affect$ h] he>t & contract$ h] m9d4 ,!  
little ,i s5t h] fell a prey to ! knaves
 by :om %e 0 surr\nd$2 %e receiv$ n !   
lea/ advantage f any?+4 ,! idea ( divid+
 :at 0 necess>y to my own subsi/5ce ) ^!
 wret*es disgu/$ me1 especially aft] !  

va9 attempt ,i _h made to deliv] h] f   
!m1 & ( :i* ,i %all h occasion to speak4
 ,"t slipp$ away1 & ) x ! little money  
,i _h2 we 7 two1 or inde$1 f\r p]sons2  
or1 to speak /ill m correctly1 sev5 or  
eight4 ,al?\gh ,!resa 0 dis9t]e/$ to a  
degree ( :i* !re are b few examples1 h] 
"m 0 n s4 ,%e 0 no soon] a little       
reliev$ f h] necessities by my c>es1 ?an
 %e s5t = h] :ole family to p>take ( !  
fruits ( !m4 ,h] si/]s1 sons1 daught]s1 
all except h] elde/ daught]1 m>ri$ to ! 
director ( ! coa*es ( ,aug]s1 came to   
,p>is4 ,ev]y?+ ,i did = ,!resa1 h] "m   
div]t$ f its orig9al de/9ation 9 favor (
 ^! p :o 7 />v+4 ,i _h n to d ) an      
av>ici\s p]son2 &1 n be+ "u ! influ5ce (
 an unruly passion1 ,i 0 n guilty (     
follies4 ,satisfi$ ) g5teelly support+  
,!resa )\t luxury1 & unexpos$ to press+ 
wants1 ,i readily cons5t$ to let all !  
e>n+s ( h] indu/ry g to ! pr(it ( h] "m2
 & to ?is ev5 ,i did n conf9e myself2 b1
 by a fatality by :i* ,i 0 pursu$1 :il/ 
mamma 0 a prey to ! rascals ab\t h]     

,!resa 0 ! same to h] family2 & ,i c\ld 
n d any?+ on ei!r side = ! b5efit ( h]  
to :om ! succor ,i gave 0 de/9$4 ,x 0   
odd en\gh ! y\nge/ *ild ( ,m4 de la     
,vasseur1 ! only "o :o _h n receiv$ a   
m>riage portion f h] p>5ts1 %\ld provide
 = _! subsi/5ce2 & t1 aft] hav+ a long  
"t be5 beat5 by h] bro!rs1 si/]s1 & ev5 
h] nieces1 ! poor girl %\ld be plund]$  
by !m all1 )\t be+ m able to def5d      
h]self f _! !fts ?an f _! bl[s4 ,"o ( h]
 nieces1 nam$ ,gorton le ,duc1 0 ( a    
mild & amiable "*2 al?\gh spoil$ by !   
lessons & examples ( ! o!rs4 ,z ,i      
frequ5tly saw !m toge!r1 ,i gave !m     
names1 :i* !y aft]w>ds gave to ea* o!r2 
,i call$ ! niece my niece1 & ! aunt my  
aunt2 !y bo? call$ me uncle4 ,h5ce ! "n 
( aunt1 by :i* ,i cont9u$ to call       
,!resa1 & :i* my fri5ds sometimes       
jocosely repeat$4 ,x w be judg$ t 9 su* 
a situation ,i _h n a mom5t to lose1    
be=e ,i attempt$ to extricate myself4   
,imag9+ ,m4 de ,ri*elieu _h =gott5 me1 &
 hav+ no m hopes f ! c\rt1 ,i made "s   

attempts to get my op]a br\ght out at   
,p>is2 b ,i met ) difficulties :i* c\ld 
n imm$iately be remov$1 & my situation  
became daily m pa9ful4 ,i pres5t$ my    
little com$y ( ,n>cisse to ! ,italians2 
x 0 receiv$1 & ,i _h ! fre$om ( ! !atre1
 :i* gave mu* pleasure4 ,b ?is 0 all2 ,i
 c\ld nev] get my piece p]=m$1 &1 tir$ (
 pay+ my c\rt to play]s1 ,i gave myself 
no m tr\ble ab\t !m4 ,at l5g? ,i _h     
rec\rse to ! la/ exp$i5t :i* rema9$ to  
me1 & ! only "o ( :i* ,i ought to h made
 use4 ,:ile frequ5t+ ! h\se ( ,m4 de la 
,popl9i]e1 ,i _h neglect$ ! family (    
,dup94 ,! two ladies1 al?\gh relat$1 7 n
 on good t]ms1 & nev] saw ea* o!r4 ,!re 
0 n ! lea/ int]c\rse betwe5 ! two       
families1 & ,?i]iot 0 ! only p]son :o   
visit$ bo?4 ,he 0 desir$ to endeavor to 
br+ me aga9 to ,m4 ,dup9's4 ,m4 de      
,francueil 0 !n /udy+ natural hi/ory &  
*emi/ry1 & collect+ a cab9et4 ,i believe
 he aspir$ to become a memb] ( !        
,academy ( ,sci5ces2 to ?is effect he   
int5d$ to write a book1 & judg$ ,i might

 be ( use to him 9 ! und]tak+4 ,madam de
 ,dup91 :o1 on h] "p1 _h ano!r "w 9     
contemplation1 _h mu* ! same views 9    
respect to me4 ,!y wi%$ to h me 9 common
 z a k9d ( secret>y1 & ?is 0 ! reason ( 
! invitations ( ,?i]iot4  ,i requir$ t  
,m4 de ,francueil %\ld previ\sly employ 
8 int]e/ ) t ( ,jelyote to get my "w    
rehe>s$ at ! op]a-h\se2 to ?is he       
cons5t$4 ,! ,muses ,galantes 7 sev]al   
times rehe>s$1 fir/ at ! ,magaz9e1 &    
aft]w>ds 9 ! great !atre4 ,! audi5ce 0 v
 num]\s at ! great rehe>sal1 & sev]al   
p>ts ( ! composition 7 highly applaud$4 
,h[ev]1 dur+ ?is rehe>sal1 v            
ill-conduct$ by ,rebel1 ,i felt ! piece 
w\ld n be receiv$2 & t1 be=e x c\ld     
appe>1 great alt]ations 7 necess>y4 ,i  
!re=e )drew x )\t say+ a ^w1 or expos+  
myself to a refusal2 b ,i pla9ly        
p]ceiv$1 by sev]al indications1 t ! "w1 
_h x be5 p]fect1 c\ld n h succe$$4 ,m4  
de ,francueil _h promis$ me to get x    
rehe>s$1 b n t x %\ld be receiv$4 ,he   
exactly kept 8 ^w4 ,i ?\ght ,i p]ceiv$  

on ?is occasion1 z well z _m o!rs1 t    
nei!r ,madam ,dup9 nor himself 7 will+  
,i %\ld acquire a c]ta9 reputation 9 !  
_w1 le/1 aft] ! publication ( _! books1 
x %\ld be suppos$ !y _h graft$ _! tal5ts
 ^u m9e4 ,yet z ,madam ,dup9 always     
suppos$ ^? ,i _h to be v mod]ate1 & nev]
 employ$ me except x 0 to write :at %e  
dictat$1 or 9 rese>*es ( pure erudition1
 ! reproa*1 ) respect to h]1 w\ld h be5 
unju/4  ,?is la/ failure ( success      
complet$ my disc\ragem5t4 ,i ab&on$ e   
prospect ( fame & advancem5t2 &1 )\t    
fur!r tr\bl+ my head ab\t real or       
imag9>y tal5ts1 ) :i* ,i _h s little    
success1 ,i d$icat$ my :ole "t & c>es to
 procure myself & ,!resa a subsi/5ce 9 !
 mann] mo/ pleas+ to ^? to :om x %\ld be
 agreeable to provide = x4 ,i !re=e     
entirely atta*$ myself to ,madam ,dup9 &
 ,m4 de ,francueil4 ,?is did n place me 
9 a v opul5t situation2 = ) eight or n9e
 hundr$ livres1 :i* ,i _h ! fir/ two    
ye>s1 ,i _h sc>cely en\gh to provide =  
my prim>y wants2 be+ oblig$ to live 9 _!

 neighborhood1 a de> "p ( ! t[n1 9 a    
furni%$ lodg+1 & hav+ to pay = ano!r    
lodg+ at ! extremity ( ,p>is1 at ! v top
 ( ! ,rue ,sa9t ,jacques1 to :i*1 let ! 
wea!r be z x w\ld1 ,i w5t almo/ e ev5+  
to supp]4 ,i soon got into ! track ( my 
new occupations1 & conceiv$ a ta/e = !m4
 ,i atta*$ myself to ! /udy ( *emi/ry1 &
 att5d$ sev]al c\rses ( x ) ,m4 de      
,francueil at ,m4 ,r\elle's1 & we began 
to scribble ov] pap] ^u t sci5ce1 ( :i* 
we sc>cely possess$ ! elem5ts4 ,9 #agag1
 we w5t to pass ! autumn 9 ,t\rra9e1 at 
! ca/le ( ,*5onceaux1 a royal mansion ^u
 ! ,*]1 built by ,h5ry ! ,,ii1 = ,diana 
( ,poiti]s1 ( :om ! ciph]s are /ill se51
 & :i* is n[ 9 ! possession ( ,m4 ,dup91
 a f>m] g5]al4 ,we amus$ ourselves v    
agreeably 9 ?is beautiful place1 & liv$ 
v well3 ,i became z fat !re z a monk4   
,music 0 a favorite relaxation4 ,i      
compos$ sev]al trios full ( h>mony1 & ( 
:i* ,i may p]haps speak 9 my supplem5t  
if ev] ,i %\ld write "o4 ,!atrical      
p]=mances 7 ano!r res\rce4 ,i wrote a   

com$y 9 fifte5 days1 entitl$            
'l',engagem5t ,tem]aire'1--,! ,ra%      
,engagem5t--:i* w be f\nd among/ my     
pap]s2 x has no o!r m]it ?an t ( be+    
lively4 ,i compos$ sev]al o!r little    
?+s3 among/ o!rs a poem entitl$1        
'l',aliee de ,sylvie'1 f ! "n ( an alley
 9 ! p>k ^u ! bank ( ! ,*]2 & ?is )\t   
discont9u+ my *emical /udies1 or        
int]rupt+ :at ,i _h to d = ,madam ,dup94
  ,:il/ ,i 0 increas+ my corpul5cy at   
,*5onceaux1 t ( my poor ,!resa 0 augm5t$
 at ,p>is 9 ano!r mann]1 & at my return 
,i f\nd ! "w ,i _h put ^u ! frame 9     
great] =w>dness ?an ,i _h expect$4 ,?is1
 on acc\nt ( my situation1 w\ld h ?r[n  
me into ! greate/ emb>rassm5t1 _h n "o (
 my messmates furni%$ me ) ! only       
res\rce :i* c\ld relieve me f x4 ,?is is
 "o ( ^? ess5tial n>ratives :i* ,i _c   
give ) too mu* simplicity2 because1 9   
mak+ an improp] use ( _! names1 ,i %\ld 
ei!r excuse or inculpate myself1 bo? (  
:i* 9 ?is place are entirely out ( ! "q4
  ,dur+ ! resid5ce ( ,altuna at ,p>is1  

in/ead ( go+ to eat at a ',traiteurs'1  
he & ,i commonly ate 9 ! neighborhood1  
almo/ opposite ! cul de sac ( ! op]a1 at
 ! h\se ( a ,madam la ,selle1 ! wife ( a
 tailor1 :o gave b v ord9>y d9n]s1 b ^: 
table 0 mu* frequ5t$ on acc\nt ( ! safe 
company :i* g5]ally resort$ to x2 no    
p]son 0 receiv$ )\t be+ introduc$ by "o 
( ^? :o us$ ! h\se4 ,! comm&]1 ,de      
,graville1 an old debau*ee1 ) mu* wit & 
polit5ess1 b obsc5e 9 conv]sation1 lodg$
 at ! h\se1 & br\ght to x a set ( riot\s
 & extravagant "y m52 (fic]s 9 ! gu>ds &
 m\squetaires4 ,! ,comm&] de ,nonant1   
*evali] to all ! girls ( ! op]a1 0 !    
daily oracle1 :o convey$ to u ! news (  
?is motley crew4 ,m4 du ,plessis1 a     
lieut5ant-colonel1 retir$ f ! s]vice1 an
 old man ( great goodness & wisdom2 &   
,m4 ,ancelet1 an (fic] 9 ! m\squetaires1
 kept ! "y p 9 a c]ta9 k9d ( ord]4      
,x 0 to ?is ,m4 ,ancelet ,i gave a      
little com$y1 aft] my own      mann]    
entitl$ 'les ,pris\ni]s de ,gu]re'1 :i* 
,i wrote aft] !      disa/]s ( ! ,fr5* 9

 ,bav>ia & ,bohemia3 ,i d>$ n ei!r      
av[ ?is com$y or %[ x1 & ?is = ! s+ul>  
reason t      nei!r ! ,k+ ( ,france nor 
! ,fr5* 7 ev] bett] spok5 (      nor    
prais$ ) m s9c]ity ( he>t ?an 9 my piece
 ?\gh      writt5 by a pr(ess$          
republican1 ,i d>$ n decl>e myself !    
panegyri/ ( a nation1 ^: maxims 7       
exactly ! rev]se ( my      own4  ,m     
griev$ at ! mis=tunes ( ,france ?an !   
,fr5*      !mselves ,i 0 afraid ! public
 w\ld con/rue into flatt]y &      mean  
complaisance ! m>ks ( a s9c]e atta*m5t1 
( :i* 9 my      fir/ "p ,i h m5tion$ !  
date & ! cause1 & :i* ,i 0      a%am$ to
 %[4  ,?is table 0 also frequ5t$ by     
comm]cial p1 f9anci]s & contractors1 b  
extremely polite1 & su* z 7 di/+ui%$    
among/ ^? ( ! same pr(ession4 ,m4 de    
,besse1 ,m4 de ,=cade1 & o!rs ^: names  
,i h =gott51 9 %ort1 well-dress$ p ( e  
description 7 se5 !re2 except abbes & m5
 ( ! long robe1 n "o ( :om ,i ev] met 9 
! h\se1 & x 0 agre$ n to introduce m5 ( 
ei!r ( ^! pr(essions4 ,?is table1       

suffici5tly resort$ to1 0 v *e]ful )\t  
be+ noisy1 & _m ( ! gue/s 7 waggi%1 )\t 
desc5d+ to vulg>ity4 ,! old comm&] ) all
 8 smutty /ories1 ) respect to !        
sub/ance1 nev] lo/ sight ( ! polit5ess (
 ! old c\rt2 nor did any indec5t        
expression1 :i* ev5 wom5 w\ld n h p>don$
 him1 escape 8 lips4 ,8 mann] s]v$ z a  
rule to e p]son at table2 all ! "y m5   
relat$ _! adv5tures ( gallantry ) equal 
grace & fre$om1 & ^! n>ratives 7 ! m    
complete1 z ! s]aglio 0 at ! door2 !    
entry :i* l$ to x 0 ! same2 = !re 0 a   
communication betwe5 ?is & ! %op ( ,le  
,du*apt1 a celebrat$ mill9]1 :o at t "t 
_h sev]al v pretty girls1 ) :om our "y p
 w5t to *at be=e or aft] d9n]4 ,i %\ld  
?us h amus$ myself z well z ! re/1 _h ,i
 be5 less mode/3 ,i _h only to g 9 z !y 
did1 b ?is ,i nev] _h c\rage en\gh to d4
 ,) respect to ,madam de ,selle1 ,i (t5 
w5t to eat at h] h\se aft] ! dep>ture ( 
,altuna4 ,i le>n$ a great numb] ( amus+ 
anecdotes1 & by degrees ,i adopt$1 ?ank 
,god1 n ! morals1 b ! maxims ,i f\nd to 

be e/abli%$ !re4 ,hone/ m5 injur$1      
husb&s deceiv$1 wom5 s$uc$1 7 ! mo/     
ord9>y topics1 & he :o _h be/ fill$ !   
f\ndl+ hospital 0 always ! mo/ applaud$4
 ,i caught ! mann]s ,i daily _h be=e my 
eyes3 ,i =m$ my mann] ( ?9k+ ^u t ,i    
obs]v$ to be ! reign+ "o among/ amiable1
 & ^u ! :ole1 v hone/ p4 ,i said to     
myself1 s9ce x is ! cu/om ( ! c\ntry1 !y
 :o live "h may adopt x2 ?is is !       
exp$i5t = :i* ,i s\ght4 ,i *e]fully     
det]m9$ ^u x )\t ! lea/ scruple1 & !    
only "o ,i _h to ov]come 0 t ( ,!resa1  
:om1 ) ! greate/ imag9able difficulty1  
,i p]suad$ to adopt ?is only means (    
sav+ h] honor4 ,h] "m1 :o 0 moreov]     
appreh5sive ( a new emb>rassm5t by an   
increase ( family1 came to my aid1 & %e 
at l5g? suff]$ h]self to be prevail$ ^u4
 ,we made *oice ( a midwife1 a safe &   
prud5t woman1 ,mademoiselle ,g\91 :o    
liv$ at ! ,po9t ,sa9t ,eu/a*e1 & :5 ! "t
 came1 ,!resa 0 conduct$ to h] h\se by  
h] "m4  ,i w5t ?i!r sev]al times to see 
h]1 & gave h] a ciph] :i* ,i _h made    

d\ble ^u two c>ds2 "o ( !m 0 put into ! 
l95 ( ! *ild1 & by ! midwife deposit$ ) 
! infant 9 ! (fice ( ! f\ndl+ hospital  
accord+ to ! cu/om>y =m4 ,! ye> foll[+1 
a simil> inconv5i5ce 0 rem$i$ by ! same 
exp$i5t1 except+ ! ciph]1 :i* 0 =gott53 
no m reflection on my "p1 nor           
approbation on t ( ! "m2 %e obey$ )     
trembl+4 ,all ! vicissitudes :i* ?is    
fatal conduct has produc$ 9 my mann] (  
?9k+1 z well z 9 my de/9y1 w be         
successively se54 ,= ! pres5t1 we w     
conf9e ourselves to ?is fir/ p]iod2 its 
cruel & un=ese5 consequ5ces w b too     
frequ5tly oblige me to ref] to x4  ,i "h
 m>k t ( my fir/ acqua9tance ) ,madam   
,d',ep9ay1 ^: "n w frequ5tly appe> 9 ^! 
memoirs4 ,%e 0 a ,mademoiselle ,d'      
,esclavelles1 & _h lately be5 m>ri$ to  
,m4 ,d',ep9ay1 son ( ,m4 de ,lalive de  
,belleg>de1 a f>m] g5]al4 ,%e und]/ood  
music1 & a passion = ! art produc$      
betwe5 ^! ?ree p]sons ! greate/         
intimacy4 ,madam ,francueil introduc$ me
 to ,madam ,d',ep9ay1 & we sometimes    

supp$ toge!r at h] h\se4 ,%e 0 amiable1 
_h wit & tal5t1 & 0 c]ta9ly a desirable 
acqua9tance2 b %e _h a female fri5d1 a  
,mademoiselle d',ette1 :o 0 said to h   
mu* malignancy 9 h] disposition2 %e liv$
 ) ! ,*evali] de ,valory1 ^: temp] 0 f> 
f be+ "o ( ! be/4 ,i am ( op9ion1 an    
acqua9tance ) ^! two p]sons 0           
prejudicial to ,madam ,d',ep9ay1 to :om1
 ) a disposition :i* requir$ ! greate/  
att5tion f ^? ab\t h]1 nature _h giv5 v 
excell5t qualities to regulate or       
c\nt]balance h] extravagant pret5sions4 
,m4 de ,francueil inspir$ h] ) a "p ( ! 
fri5d%ip he _h conceiv$ = me1 & told me 
( ! connection betwe5 !m1 ( :i*1 = t    
reason1 ,i w\ld n n[ speak1 7 x n become
 s public z n to be conceal$ f ,m4      
,d',ep9ay himself4  ,m4 de ,francueil   
confid$ to me secrets ( a v s+ul> nature
 relative to ?is lady1 ( :i* %e h]self  
nev] spoke to me1 nor s mu* z suspect$  
my hav+ a k2 = ,i nev] op5$ my lips to  
h] ^u ! subject1 nor w ,i ev] d x to any
 p]son4 ,! confid5ce all p>ties _h 9 my 

prud5ce r5d]$ my situation v emb>rass+1 
especially ) ,madam de ,francueil1 ^: k 
( me 0 suffici5t to remove f h] all     
suspicion on my acc\nt1 al?\gh ,i 0     
connect$ ) h] rival4 ,i did ev]y?+ ,i   
c\ld to console ?is poor woman1 ^: husb&
 c]ta9ly did n return ! affection %e _h 
= him4 ,i li/5$ to ^! ?ree p]sons       
sep>ately2 ,i kept all _! secrets s     
fai?fully t n "o ( ! ?ree ev] drew f me 
^? ( ! two o!rs1 & ?is1 )\t conceal+ f  
ei!r ( ! wom5 my atta*m5t to ea* ( !m4  
,madam de ,francueil1 :o frequ5tly wi%$ 
to make me an ag5t1 receiv$ refusals 9  
=m1 & ,madam ,d',ep9ay1 once desir+ me  
to *>ge myself ) a lett] to ,m4 de      
,francueil receiv$ ! same mortification1
 accompani$ by a v express decl>ation1 t
 if ev] %e wi%$ to drive me =ev] f !    
h\se1 %e _h only a second "t to make me 
a l proposition4  ,9 ju/ice to ,madam   
,d',ep9ay1 ,i mu/ say1 t f> f be+ (f5d$ 
) me %e spoke ( my conduct to ,m4 de    
,francueil 9 t]ms ( ! highe/            
approbation1 & cont9u$ to receive me z  

well1 & z politely z ev]4 ,x 0 ?us1     
amid/ ! he>t-burn+s ( ?ree p]sons to :om
 ,i 0 oblig$ to behave ) ! greate/      
circumspection1 on :om ,i 9 "s measure  
dep5d$1 & = :om ,i _h conceiv$ an       
atta*m5t1 t by conduct+ myself )        
mildness & complaisance1 al?\gh         
accompani$ ) ! greate/ firmness1 ,i     
pres]v$ unto ! la/ n only _! fri5d%ip1 b
 _! e/eem & confid5ce4 ,not)/&+ my      
absurdities & awkw>dness1 ,madam        
,d',ep9ay w\ld h me make "o ( ! p>ty to 
! ,*evrette1 a c\ntry-h\se1 ne> ,sa9t   
,d5is1 belong+ to ,m4 de ,belleg>de4    
,!re 0 a !atre1 9 :i* p]=mances 7 n     
unfrequ5t4 ,i _h a "p giv5 me1 :i* ,i   
/udi$ = six mon?s )\t int]mission1 & 9  
:i*1 on ! ev5+ ( ! repres5tation1 ,i 0  
oblig$ to be prompt$ f ! beg9n+ to !    
end4 ,aft] ?is exp]im5t no second       
proposal ( ! k9d 0 ev] made to me4  ,my 
acqua9tance ) ,m4 ,d',ep9ay procur$ me t
 ( h] si/]-9-law1 ,mademoiselle de      
,belleg>de1 :o soon aft]w>ds became     
,c\ntess ( ,h\detot4 ,! fir/ "t ,i saw  

h] %e 0 ^u ! po9t ( m>riage2 :5 %e      
conv]s$ ) me a long "t1 ) t *>m+        
famili>ity :i* 0 natural to h]4 ,i ?\ght
 h] v amiable1 b ,i 0 f> f p]ceiv+ t ?is
 "y p]son w\ld lead me1 al?\gh          
innoc5tly1 into ! abyss 9 :i* ,i /ill   
rema94  ,al?\gh ,i h n spok5 ( ,did]ot  
s9ce my return f ,v5ice1 no m ?an ( my  
fri5d ,m4 ,rogu91 ,i did n neglect ei!r 
( !m1 especially ! =m]1 ) :om ,i daily  
became m intimate4 ,he _h a ,nannette1 z
 well z ,i a ,!resa2 ?is 0 betwe5 u     
ano!r con=mity ( circum/ances4 ,b my    
,!resa1 z f9e a woman z 8 ,nannette1 0 (
 a mild & amiable "*1 :i* might ga9 &   
fix ! affections ( a wor?y man2 :]eas   
,nannette 0 a vix51 a tr\blesome prat]1 
& _h no qualities 9 ! eyes ( o!rs :i* 9 
any measure comp5sat$ = h] want (       
education4 ,h[ev] he m>ri$ h]1 :i* 0    
well done ( him1 if he _h giv5 a promise
 to t effect4 ,i1 = my "p1 n hav+ ent]$ 
into any su* engagem5t1 0 n 9 ! lea/    
ha/e to imitate him4  ,i 0 also connect$
 ) ! ,abbe de ,condillac1 :o _h acquir$ 

no m lit]>y fame ?an myself1 b 9 :om !re
 0 e appe>ance ( 8 becom+ :at he n[ is4 
,i 0 p]haps ! fir/ :o discov]$ ! ext5t (
 8 abilities1 & e/eem$ !m z !y des]v$4  
,he on 8 "p seem$ satisfi$ ) me1 &1 :il/
 %ut up 9 my *amb] 9 ! ,rue ,jean ,sa9t 
,d5is1 ne> ! op]a-h\se1 ,i compos$ my   
act ( ,hesiod1 he sometimes came to d9e 
) me tete-a-tete4 ,we s5t = our d9n]1 & 
paid %>e & %>e alike4 ,he 0 at t "t     
employ$ on 8 ,essay on ! ,orig9 ( ,human
 ,k1 :i* 0 8 fir/ "w4 ,:5 ?is 0 f9i%$1 !
 difficulty 0 to f9d a booksell] :o w\ld
 take x4 ,! booksell]s ( ,p>is are %y ( 
e au?or at 8 beg9n+1 & metaphysics1 n   
mu* !n 9 vogue1 7 no v invit+ subject4  
,i spoke to ,did]ot ( ,condillac & 8 "w1
 & ,i aft]w>ds br\ght !m acqua9t$ ) ea* 
o!r4 ,!y 7 wor?y ( ea* o!r's e/eem1 & 7 
pres5tly on ! mo/ fri5dly t]ms4 ,did]ot 
p]suad$ ! booksell]1 ,dur&1 to take !   
manuscript f ! abbe1 & ?is great        
metaphysician receiv$ = 8 fir/ "w1 &    
almo/ z a favor1 a hundr$ cr[ns1 :i*    
p]haps he w\ld n h obta9$ )\t my        

assi/ance4 ,z we liv$ 9 a qu>t] ( ! t[n 
v di/ant f ea* o!r1 we all assembl$ once
 a week at ! ,palais ,royal1 & w5t to   
d9e at ! ,hotel du ,pani] ,fleuri4 ,^!  
little weekly d9n]s mu/ h be5 extremely 
pleas+ to ,did]ot2 = he :o fail$ 9 almo/
 all 8 appo9tm5ts nev] miss$ "o ( ^!4   
,at our little meet+ ,i =m$ ! plan ( a  
p]iodical pap]1 entitl$ 'le             
,p]sifleur'--,! ,je]]--:i* ,did]ot & ,i 
7 alt]nately to write4 ,i sket*$ out !  
fir/ %eet1 & ?is br\ght me acqua9t$ )   
,d',alemb]t1 to :om ,did]ot _h m5tion$  
x4 ,un=ese5 ev5ts fru/rat$ our int5tion1
 & ! project 0 c>ri$ no fur!r4  ,^! two 
au?ors _h j und]tak5 ! ',dictionnaire   
,encyclop$ique'1 :i* at fir/ 0 int5d$ to
 be no?+ m ?an a k9d ( translation (    
,*amb]s1 some?+ l t ( ! ,m$ical         
,diction>y ( ,james1 :i* ,did]ot _h j   
f9i%$4 ,did]ot 0 desir\s ,i %\ld d      
some?+ 9 ?is second und]tak+1 & propos$ 
to me ! musical "p1 :i* ,i accept$4 ,?is
 ,i execut$ 9 great ha/e1 & consequ5tly 
v ill1 9 ! ?ree mon?s he _h giv5 me1 z  

well z all ! au?ors :o 7 engag$ 9 ! "w4 
,b ,i 0 ! only p]son 9 read9ess at ! "t 
prescrib$4 ,i gave him my manuscript1   
:i* ,i _h copi$ by a lackey1 belong+ to 
,m4 de ,francueil1 ( ! "n ( ,dupont1 :o 
wrote v well4 ,i paid him t5 cr[ns out (
 my own pocket1 & ^! h nev] be5         
reimburs$ me4 ,did]ot _h promis$ me a   
retribution on ! "p ( ! booksell]s1 (   
:i* he has nev] s9ce spok5 to me nor ,i 
to him4  ,?is und]tak+ ( !              
',encyclop$ie' 0 int]rupt$ by 8         
imprisonm5t4 ,! ',p5sees                
,philosophiques' drew ^u him "s tempor>y
 inconv5i5ce :i* _h no disagreeable     
consequ5ces4 ,he did n come (f s easily 
on acc\nt ( ! ',lettre sur les          
,aveugles'1 9 :i* !re 0 no?+            
repreh5sible1 b "s p]sonal attacks ) :i*
 ,madam du ,pre ,/4 ,maur1 & ,m4 de     
,raumur 7 displeas$3 = ?is he 0 conf9$ 9
 ! dungeon ( ,v9c5nes4 ,no?+ c describe 
! angui% ,i felt on acc\nt ( ! mis=tunes
 ( my fri5d4 ,my wret*$ imag9ation1 :i* 
always sees ev]y?+ 9 ! wor/ light1 0    

t]rifi$4 ,i imag9$ him to be conf9$ = ! 
rema9d] ( 8 life4 ,i 0 almo/ di/ract$ ) 
! ?\ght4 ,i wrote to ,madam de          
,pompad\r1 besee*+ h] to release him or 
obta9 an ord] to %ut me up 9 ! same     
dungeon4 ,i receiv$ no answ] to my      
lett]3 ?is 0 too reasonable to be       
efficaci\s1 & ,i d n flatt] myself t x  
contribut$ to ! alleviation :i*1 "s "t  
aft]w>ds1 0 grant$ to ! sev]ities ( !   
conf9em5t ( poor ,did]ot4 ,_h ?is       
cont9u$ = any l5g? ( "t ) ! same rigor1 
,i v]ily believe ,i %\ld h di$ 9 despair
 at ! foot ( ! hat$ dungeon4 ,h[ev]1 if 
my lett] produc$ b little effect1 ,i did
 n on acc\nt ( x attribute to myself mu*
 m]it1 = ,i m5tion$ x b to v few p1 &   
nev] to ,did]ot himself4     ,,book     
,,viii4   ,at ! end ( ! prec$+ book a   
pause 0 necess>y4 ,) ?is beg9s ! long   
*a9 ( my mis=tunes d$uc$ f _! orig94    
,hav+ liv$ 9 ! two mo/ spl5did h\ses 9  
,p>is1 ,i _h1 not)/&+ my c&or & mode/y1 
made "s acqua9tance4 ,among o!rs at     
,dup9's1 t ( ! "y h]$it>y pr9ce (       

,saxe-,go?a1 & ( ! ,b>on de ,?un1 8     
gov]nor2 at ! h\se ( ,m4 de la          
,popl9i]e1 t ( ,m4 ,seguy1 fri5d to !   
,b>on de ,?un1 & kn[n 9 ! lit]>y _w by 8
 beautiful edition ( ,r\sseau4 ,! b>on  
invit$ ,m4 ,seguy & myself to g & pass a
 day or two at ,font5ai s\s bois1 :]e ! 
pr9ce _h a h\se4 ,z ,i pass$ ,v9c5nes1  
at ! sight ( ! dungeon1 my feel+s 7     
acute2 ! effect ( :i* ! b>on p]ceiv$ on 
my c\nt5ance4 ,at supp] ! pr9ce m5tion$ 
! conf9em5t ( ,did]ot4 ,! b>on1 to he>  
:at ,i _h to say1 accus$ ! prison] (    
imprud5ce2 & ,i %[$ n a little ( ! same 
9 ! impetu\s mann] 9 :i* ,i def5d$ him4 
,?is excess ( zeal1 inspir$ by !        
mis=tune :i* _h befall5 my fri5d1 0     
p>don$1 & ! conv]sation imm$iately      
*ang$4 ,!re 7 pres5t two ,g]mans 9 !    
s]vice ( ! pr9ce4 ,m4 ,klupssel1 a man (
 great wit1 8 *apla91 & :o aft]w>ds1    
hav+ supplant$ ! b>on1 became 8 gov]nor4
 ,! o!r 0 a "y man nam$ ,m4 ,grimm1 :o  
s]v$ him z a read] until he c\ld obta9  
"s place1 & ^: indiff]5t appe>ance      

suffici5tly prov$ ! press+ necessity he 
0 "u ( imm$iately f9d+ "o4 ,f ?is v ev5+
 ,klupssel & ,i began an acqua9tance :i*
 soon l$ to fri5d%ip4 ,t ) ! ,sieur     
,grimm did n make q s rapid a progress2 
he made b few advances1 & 0 f> f hav+ t 
haughty presumption :i* prosp]ity       
aft]w>ds gave him4 ,! next day at d9n]1 
! conv]sation turn$ ^u music2 he spoke  
well on ! subject4 ,i 0 transport$ ) joy
 :5 ,i le>n$ f him he c\ld play an      
accompanim5t on ! h>psi*ord4 ,aft] d9n] 
0 ov] music 0 introduc$1 & we amus$     
ourselves ! re/ ( ! aft]noon on !       
h>pis*ord ( ! pr9ce4 ,?us began t       
fri5d%ip :i*1 at fir/1 0 s agreeable to 
me1 aft]w>ds s fatal1 & ( :i* ,i %all   
h]eaft] h s mu* to say4  ,at my return  
to ,p>is1 ,i le>n$ ! agreeable news t   
,did]ot 0 releas$ f ! dungeon1 & t he _h
 on 8 p>ole ! ca/le & p>k ( ,v9c5nes = a
 prison1 ) p]mission to see 8 fri5ds4   
,h[ pa9ful 0 x to me n to be able       
in/antly to fly to him6 ,b ,i 0 deta9$  
two or ?ree days at ,madam ,dup9's by   

indisp5sable bus9ess4 ,aft] ages (      
impati5ce1 ,i flew to ! arms ( my fri5d4
 ,he 0 n alone3 ,d' ,alemb]t & !        
treasur] ( ! ,sa9te ,*apelle 7 ) him4 ,z
 ,i ent]$ ,i saw nobody b himself1 ,i   
made b "o /ep1 "o cry2 ,i rivet$ my face
 to 83 ,i press$ him 9 my arms1 )\t     
speak+ to him1 except by te>s & sighs3  
,i /ifl$ him ) my affection & joy4 ,!   
fir/ ?+ he did1 aft] quitt+ my arms1 0  
to turn himself t[>ds ! ecclesia/ic1 &  
say3 ,y see1 sir1 h[ mu* ,i am belov$ by
 my fri5ds4 ,my emotion 0 s great1 t x 0
 !n impossible = me to reflect ^u ?is   
mann] ( turn+ x to advantage2 b ,i h    
s9ce ?\ght t1 _h ,i be5 9 ! place (     
,did]ot1 ! idea he manife/$ w\ld n h be5
 ! fir/ t w\ld h occurr$ to me4  ,i f\nd
 him mu* affect$ by 8 imprisonm5t4 ,!   
dungeon _h made a t]rible impression ^u 
8 m9d1 &1 al?\gh he 0 v agreeably       
situat$ 9 ! ca/le1 & at lib]ty to walk  
:]e he pleas$ 9 ! p>k1 :i* 0 n inclos$  
ev5 by a wall1 he want$ ! society ( 8   
fri5ds to prev5t him f yield+ to        

melan*oly4 ,z ,i 0 ! p]son mo/ conc]n$ =
 8 suff]+s1 ,i imag9$ ,i %\ld also be ! 
fri5d1 ! sight ( :om w\ld give him      
consolation2 on :i* acc\nt1 not)/&+ v   
press+ occupations1 ,i w5t e two days at
 f>!/1 ei!r alone1 or accompani$ by 8   
wife1 to pass ! aft]noon ) him4  ,! heat
 ( ! summ] 0 ?is ye> 7#agdi7 excessive4 
,v9c5nes is two leagues f ,p>is4 ,! /ate
 ( my f9ances n p]mitt+ me to pay =     
hackney coa*es1 at two o'clock 9 !      
aft]noon1 ,i w5t on foot1 :5 alone1 &   
walk$ z fa/ z possible1 t ,i might      
arrive ! soon]4 ,! trees by ! side ( !  
road1 always lopp$1 accord+ to ! cu/om (
 ! c\ntry1 af=d$ b little %ade1 &       
exhau/$ by fatigue1 ,i frequ5tly ?rew   
myself on ! gr\nd1 be+ unable to proce$ 
any fur!r4 ,i ?\ght a book 9 my h& might
 make me mod]ate my pace4 ,"o day ,i    
took ! ,m]cure de ,france1 & z ,i walk$ 
& read1 ,i came to ! foll[+ "q propos$  
by ! academy ( ,dijon1 = ! premium ( !  
ensu+ ye>1 ',has ! progress ( sci5ces & 
arts contribut$ to corrupt or purify    

morals8'  ,! mom5t ,i _h read ?is1 ,i   
seem$ to behold ano!r _w1 & became a    
diff]5t man4 ,al?\gh ,i h a lively      
remembrance ( ! impression x made ^u me1
 ! detail has escap$ my m9d1 s9ce ,i    
communicat$ x to ,m4 de ,male%]bes 9 "o 
( my f\r lett]s to him4 ,?is is "o ( !  
s+ul>ities ( my memory :i* m]its to be  
rem>k$4 ,x s]ves me 9 proportion to my  
dep5d5ce ^u x2 ! mom5t ,i h committ$ to 
pap] t ) :i* x 0 *>g$1 x =sakes me1 & ,i
 h no soon] writt5 a ?+ ?an ,i _h =gott5
 x entirely4 ,?is s+ul>ity is ! same )  
respect to music4 ,be=e ,i le>n$ ! use (
 notes ,i knew a great numb] ( songs2 ! 
mom5t ,i _h made a suffici5t progress to
 s+ an air set to music1 ,i c\ld n      
recollect any "o ( !m2 &1 at pres5t1 ,i 
mu* d\bt :e!r ,i %\ld be able entirely  
to g ?r\gh "o ( ^? ( :i* ,i 0 ! mo/     
fond4 ,all ,i di/9ctly recollect ^u ?is 
occasion is1 t on my arrival at         
,v9c5nes1 ,i 0 9 an agitation :i*       
approa*$ a delirium4 ,did]ot p]ceiv$ x2 
,i told him ! cause1 & read to him !    

prosopopoeia ( ,fabricius1 writt5 ) a   
p5cil "u a tree4 ,he enc\rag$ me to     
pursue my ideas1 & to become a          
competitor = ! premium4 ,i did s1 & f t 
mom5t ,i 0 ru9$4  ,all ! re/ ( my       
mis=tunes dur+ my life 7 ! inevitable   
effect ( ?is mom5t ( error4  ,my        
s5tim5ts became elevat$ ) ! mo/         
inconceivable rapidity to ! level ( my  
ideas4 ,all my little passions 7 /ifl$  
by ! en?usiasm ( tru?1 lib]ty1 & virtue2
 &1 :at is mo/ a/oni%+1 ?is eff]vesc5ce 
cont9u$ 9 my m9d upw>ds ( five ye>s1 to 
z great a degree p]haps z x has ev] done
 9 t ( any o!r man4 ,i compos$ !        
disc\rse 9 a v s+ul> mann]1 & 9 t /yle  
:i* ,i h always foll[$ 9 my o!r works4  
,i d$icat$ to x ! h\rs ( ! night 9 :i*  
sleep des]t$ me1 ,i m$itat$ 9 my b$ ) my
 eyes clos$1 & 9 my m9d turn$ ov] & ov] 
aga9 my p]iods ) incr$ible labor & c>e2 
! mom5t !y 7 f9i%$ to my satisfaction1  
,i deposit$ !m 9 my memory1 until ,i _h 
an opportunity ( committ+ !m to pap]2 b 
! "t ( ris+ & putt+ on my clo!s made me 

lose ev]y?+1 & :5 ,i took up my p5 ,i   
recollect$ b little ( :at ,i _h compos$4
 ,i made ,madam le ,vasseur my secret>y2
 ,i _h lodg$ h] ) h] daught]1 & husb&1  
ne>] to myself2 & %e1 to save me !      
exp5se ( a s]vant1 came e morn+ to make 
my fire1 & to d su* o!r little ?+s z 7  
necess>y4 ,z soon z %e arriv$ ,i dictat$
 to h] :ile 9 b$ :at ,i _h compos$ 9 !  
night1 & ?is me?od1 :i* = a long "t ,i  
obs]v$1 pres]v$ me _m ?+s ,i %\ld       
o!rwise h =gott54  ,z soon z ! disc\rse 
0 f9i%$1 ,i %[$ x to ,did]ot4 ,he 0     
satisfi$ ) ! production1 & po9t$ out "s 
corrections he ?\ght necess>y to be     
made4  ,h[ev]1 ?is composition1 full (  
=ce & fire1 absolutely wants logic &    
ord]2 ( all ! works ,i ev] wrote1 ?is is
 ! weake/ 9 reason+1 & ! mo/ devoid (   
numb] & h>mony4 ,) :atev] tal5t a man   
may be born1 ! art ( writ+ is n easily  
le>n$4  ,i s5t (f ?is piece )\t m5tion+ 
x to anybody1 except1 ,i ?9k1 to ,grimm1
 ) :om1 aft] 8 go+ to live ) ! ,comte de
 ,vriese1 ,i began to be ^u ! mo/       

intimate foot+4 ,8 h>psi*ord s]v$ z a   
r5dezv\s1 & ,i pass$ ) him at x all !   
mom5ts ,i _h to sp>e1 9 s++ ,italian    
airs1 & b>c>oles2 sometimes )\t         
int]mission1 f morn+ till night1 or r f 
night until morn+2 & :5 ,i 0 n to be    
f\nd at ,madam ,dup9's1 ev]ybody        
conclud$ ,i 0 ) ,grimm at 8 ap>tm5t1 !  
public walk1 or !atre4 ,i left (f go+ to
 ! ,com$ie ,itali5ne1 ( :i* ,i 0 free1  
to g ) him1 & pay1 to ! ,com$ie         
,francoise1 ( :i* he 0 passionately     
fond4 ,9 %ort1 s p[]ful an attraction   
connect$ me ) ?is "y man1 & ,i became s 
insep>able f him1 t ! poor aunt h]self 0
 r neglect$1 t is1 ,i saw h] less       
frequ5tly2 = 9 no mom5t ( my life has my
 atta*m5t to h] be5 dim9i%$4  ,?is      
impossibility ( divid+1 9 favor ( my    
incl9ations1 ! little "t ,i _h to       
myself1 r5ew$ m /rongly ?an ev] ! desire
 ,i _h long ent]ta9$ ( hav+ b "o home = 
,!resa & myself2 b ! emb>rassm5t ( h]   
num]\s family1 & especially ! want (    
money to pur*ase furniture1 _h hi!rto   

)held me f accompli%+ x4 ,an opportunity
 to endeavor at x pres5t$ itself1 & (   
?is ,i took advantage4 ,m4 de ,francueil
 & ,madam ,dup91 cle>ly p]ceiv+ t eight 
or n9e hundr$ livres a ye> 7 unequal to 
my wants1 increas$1 ( _! own accord1 my 
sal>y to fifty gu9eas2 & ,madam ,dup91  
hav+ he>d ,i wi%$ to furni% myself      
lodg+s1 assi/$ me ) "s articles = t     
purpose4 ,) ?is furniture & t ,!resa    
already _h1 we made "o common /ock1 &1  
hav+ an ap>tm5t 9 ! ,hotel de ,langu$oc1
 ,rue de ,gr5elle-,sa9t-,honore1 kept by
 v hone/ p1 we arrang$ ourselves 9 ! be/
 mann] we c\ld1 & liv$ !re peaceably &  
agreeably dur+ sev5 ye>s1 at ! end ( :i*
 ,i remov$ to g & live at ! ,h]mitage4  
,!resa's fa!r 0 a good old man1 v mild 9
 8 disposition1 & mu* afraid ( 8 wife2 =
 ?is reason he _h giv5 h] ! surname (   
,lieut5ant ,crim9al1 :i* ,grimm1        
jocosely1 aft]w>ds transf]r$ to !       
daught]4 ,madam le ,vasseur did n want  
s5se1 t is address2 & pret5d$ to !      
polit5ess & airs ( ! fir/ circles2 b %e 

_h a my/]i\s :e$l+1 :i* to me 0         
insupportable1 gave bad advice to h]    
daught]1 endeavor$ to make h] dissemble 
) me1 & sep>ately1 cajol$ my fri5ds at  
my exp5se1 & t ( ea* o!r2 except+ ^!    
circum/ances1 %e 0 a tol]ably good "m1  
because %e f\nd h] acc\nt 9 be+ s1 &    
conceal$ ! faults ( h] daught] to turn  
!m to h] own advantage4 ,?is woman1 :o  
_h s mu* ( my c>e & att5tion1 to :om ,i 
made s _m little pres5ts1 & by :om ,i _h
 x extremely at he>t to make myself     
belov$1 01 f ! impossibility ( my       
succe$+ 9 ?is wi%1 ! only cause ( !     
uneas9ess ,i suff]$ 9 my little         
e/abli%m5t4 ,except ! effects ( ?is     
cause ,i enjoy$1 dur+ ^! six or sev5    
ye>s1 ! mo/ p]fect dome/ic happ9ess (   
:i* human weakness is capable4 ,! he>t (
 my ,!resa 0 t ( an angel2 our atta*m5t 
increas$ ) our intimacy1 & we 7 m & m   
daily conv9c$ h[ mu* we 7 made = ea*    
o!r4 ,c\ld our pleasures be describ$1 _!
 simplicity w\ld cause laught]4 ,our    
walks1 tete-a-tete1 on ! outside ( !    

city1 :]e ,i magnific5tly sp5t eight or 
t5 s\s 9 ea* gu+uette4--,ale-h\se--,our 
little supp]s at my w9d[1 seat$ opposite
 to ea* o!r ^u two little *airs1 plac$  
^u a trunk1 :i* fill$ up ! sp>e ( !     
embrasure4 ,9 ?is situation ! w9d[ s]v$ 
u z a table1 we respir$ ! fre% air1     
enjoy$ ! prospect ( ! environs & ! p :o 
pass$2 &1 al?\gh ^u ! f\r? /ory1 look$  
d[n into ! /reet z we ate4  ,:o c       
describe1 & h[ few c feel1 ! *>ms ( ^!  
repa/s1 consi/+ ( a qu>t]n loaf1 a few  
*]ries1 a morsel ( *eese1 & half-a-p9t (
 w9e :i* we drank betwe5 u8 ,fri5d%ip1  
confid5ce1 intimacy1 sweetness (        
disposition1 h[ delici\s are y\r        
reason+s6 ,we sometimes rema9$ 9 ?is    
situation until midnight1 & nev] ?\ght (
 ! h\r1 unless in=m$ ( x by ! old lady4 
,b let u quit ^! details1 :i* are ei!r  
insipid or laughable2 ,i h always said &
 felt t real enjoym5t 0 n to be         
describ$4  ,mu* ab\t ! same "t ,i       
indulg$ 9 "o n s delicate1 & ! la/ ( !  
k9d ) :i* ,i h to reproa* myself4 ,i h  

obs]v$ t ! m9i/] ,klupssel 0 an amiable 
man2 my connections ) him 7 almo/ z     
intimate z ^? ,i _h ) ,grimm1 & 9 ! end 
became z famili>2 ,grimm & he sometimes 
ate at my ap>tm5t4 ,^! repa/s1 a little 
m ?an simple1 7 enliv5$ by ! witty &    
extravagant wantonness ( expression (   
,klupssel1 & ! div]t+ ,g]manicisms (    
,grimm1 :o 0 n yet become a puri/4      
,s5suality did n preside at our little  
orgies1 b joy1 :i* 0 pref]able1 reign$ 9
 !m all1 & we enjoy$ ourselves s well   
toge!r t we knew n h[ to sep>ate4       
,klupssel _h furni%$ a lodg+ = a little 
girl1 :o1 not)/&+ ?is1 0 at ! s]vice (  
anybody1 because he c\ld n support h]   
entirely himself4 ,"o ev5+ z we 7 go+   
into ! c(fee-h\se1 we met him com+ out  
to g & sup ) h]4 ,we ralli$ him2 he     
rev5g$ himself gallantly1 by invit+ u to
 ! same supp]1 & !re rally+ u 9 our     
turn4 ,! poor "y creature appe>$ to be (
 a good disposition1 mild & little fitt$
 to ! way ( life to :i* an old hag %e _h
 ) h]1 prep>$ h] 9 ! be/ mann] %e c\ld4 

,w9e & conv]sation enliv5$ u to su* a   
degree t we =got ourselves4 ,! amiable  
,klupssel 0 unwill+ to d ! honors ( 8   
table by halves1 & we all ?ree          
successively took a view ( ! next *amb]1
 9 company ) 8 little fri5d1 :o knew n  
:e!r %e %\ld laugh or cry4 ,grimm has   
always ma9ta9$ t he nev] t\*$ h]2 x 0   
!re=e to amuse himself ) our impati5ce1 
t he rema9$ s long 9 ! o!r *amb]1 & if  
he ab/a9$1 !re is n mu* probability ( 8 
hav+ done s f scruple1 because previ\s  
to 8 go+ to live ) ! ,comte de ,friese1 
he lodg$ ) girls ( ! t[n 9 ! same qu>t] 
( ,/4 ,ro*4  ,i left ! ,rue des         
,mo9eaux1 :]e ?is girl lodg$1 z mu*     
a%am$ z ,sa9t ,preux left ! h\se 9 :i*  
he _h become intoxicat$1 & :5 ,i wrote 8
 /ory ,i well rememb]$ my own4 ,!resa   
p]ceiv$ by "s sign1 & especially by my  
confusion1 ,i _h some?+ ) :i* ,i        
reproa*$ myself2 ,i reliev$ my m9d by my
 free & imm$iate confession4 ,i did     
well1 = ! next day ,grimm came 9 triumph
 to relate to h] my crime ) aggravation1

 & s9ce t "t he has nev] fail$          
malici\sly to recall x to h]            
recollection2 9 ?is he 0 ! m culpable1  
s9ce ,i _h freely & volunt>ily giv5 him 
my confid5ce1 & _h a "r to expect he    
w\ld n make me rep5t ( x4 ,i nev] _h a m
 conv9c+ pro( ?an on ?is occasion1 ( !  
goodness ( my ,!resa's he>t2 %e 0 m     
%ock$ at ! behavior ( ,grimm ?an at my  
infidelity1 & ,i receiv$ no?+ f h] b    
t5d] reproa*es1 9 :i* !re 0 n ! lea/    
appe>ance ( ang]4  ,! simplicity ( m9d (
 ?is excell5t girl 0 equal to h]        
goodness ( he>t2 & ?is is say+ ev]y?+3 b
 "o in/ance ( x1 :i* is pres5t to my    
recollection1 is wor?y ( be+ relat$4 ,i 
_h told h] ,klupssel 0 a m9i/]1 & *apla9
 to ! pr9ce ( ,saxe-,go?a4 ,a m9i/] 0 to
 h] s s+ul> a man1 t oddly conf\nd+ !   
mo/ dissimil> ideas1 %e took x into h]  
head to take ,klupssel = ! pope2 ,i     
?\ght h] mad ! fir/ "t %e told me :5 ,i 
came 91 t ! pope _h call$ to see me4 ,i 
made h] expla9 h]self & lo/ n a mom5t 9 
go+ to relate ! /ory to ,grimm &        

,klupssel1 :o among/ ourselves nev] lo/ 
! "n ( pope4 ,we gave to ! girl 9 ! ,rue
 des ,mo9eaux ! "n ( ,pope ,joan4 ,our  
laught] 0 incessant2 x almo/ /ifl$ u4   
,!y1 :o 9 a lett] :i* x ha? pleas$ !m to
 attribute to me1 h made me say ,i nev] 
laugh$ b twice 9 my life1 did n "k me at
 ?is p]iod1 nor 9 my y\ng] days2 = if !y
 _h1 ! idea c\ld nev] h ent]$ into _!   
heads4  ,! ye> foll[+ 7#agej71 n ?9k+ m 
( my disc\rse2 ,i le>n$ x _h ga9$ !     
premium at ,dijon4 ,?is news awak5$ all 
! ideas :i* _h dictat$ x to me1 gave !m 
new animation1 & complet$ ! f]m5tation (
 my he>t ( t fir/ leav5 ( h]oism &      
virtue :i* my fa!r1 my c\ntry1 & ,plut>*
 _h inspir$ 9 my infancy4 ,no?+ n[      
appe>$ great 9 my eyes b to be free &   
virtu\s1 sup]ior to =tune & op9ion1 &   
indep5d5t ( all ext]ior circum/ances2   
al?\gh a false %ame1 & ! fe> (          
disapprobation at fir/ prev5t$ me f     
conduct+ myself accord+ to ^! pr9ciples1
 & f sudd5ly qu>rel+ ) ! maxims ( ! age 
9 :i* ,i liv$1 ,i f t mom5t took a      

decid$ resolution to d x4--,& ( ?is ,i  
purposely delay$ ! execution1 t irritat$
 by contradiction1 x might be r5d]$     
triumphant4  ,:ile ,i 0 philosophiz+ ^u 
! duties ( man1 an ev5t happ5$ :i* made 
me bett] reflect ^u my own4 ,!resa      
became pregnant = ! ?ird "t4 ,too s9c]e 
) myself1 too haughty 9 my m9d to       
contradict my pr9ciples by my actions1  
,i began to exam9e ! de/9ation ( my     
*ildr51 & my connections ) ! "m1 accord+
 to ! laws ( nature1 ju/ice1 & reason1 &
 ^? ( t religion1 pure1 holy1 & et]nal1 
l its au?or1 :i* m5 h pollut$ :ile !y   
pret5d$ to purify x1 & :i* by _!        
=mul>ies !y h r$uc$ to a religion (     
words1 s9ce ! difficulty ( prescrib+    
impossibilities is b trifl+ to ^? by :om
 !y are n practis$4  ,if ,i deceiv$     
myself 9 my conclusions1 no?+ c be m    
a/oni%+ ?an ! security ) :i* ,i dep5d$  
^u !m4 ,7 ,i "o ( ^? m5 un=tunately born
 deaf to ! voice ( nature1 9 :om no     
s5tim5t ( ju/ice or humanity ev] took ! 
lea/ root1 ?is obduracy w\ld be natural4

 ,b t w>m? ( he>t1 /rong s5sibility1 &  
facility ( =m+ atta*m5ts2 ! =ce ) :i* !y
 subdue me2 my cruel suff]+s :5 oblig$  
to break !m2 ! innate b5evol5ce ,i *]i%$
 t[>ds my fell[-creatures2 ! ard5t love 
,i be> to great virtues1 to tru? &      
ju/ice1 ! horror 9 :i* ,i hold evil ( e 
k9d2 ! impossibility ( hat+1 ( injur+ or
 wi%+ to injure anyone2 ! s(t & lively  
emotion ,i feel at ! sight ( :atev] is  
virtu\s1 g5]\s & amiable2 c ^! meet 9 ! 
same m9d ) ! depravity :i* )\t scruple  
treads "u foot ! mo/ pleas+ ( all our   
duties8 ,no1 ,i feel1 & op5ly decl>e ?is
 to be impossible4 ,nev] 9 8 :ole life  
c\ld ,j4 ,j4 be a man )\t s5tim5t or an 
unnatural fa!r4 ,i may h be5 deceiv$1 b 
x is impossible ,i %\ld h lo/ ! lea/ (  
my feel+s4 ,7 ,i to give my reasons1 ,i 
%\ld say too mu*2 s9ce !y h s$uc$ me1 !y
 w\ld s$uce _m o!rs4 ,i w n !re=e expose
 ^? "y p]sons by :om ,i may be read to !
 same dang]4 ,i w satisfy myself by     
obs]v+ t my error 0 su*1 t 9 ab&on+ my  
*ildr5 to public education = want ( !   

means ( br++ !m up myself2 9 de/9+ !m to
 become workm5 & peasants1 r ?an        
adv5tur]s & =tune-hunt]s1 ,i ?\ght ,i   
act$ l an hone/ citiz51 & a good fa!r1 &
 consid]$ myself z a memb] ( ! republic 
( ,plato4 ,s9ce t "t ! regrets ( my he>t
 h m ?an once told me ,i 0 deceiv$2 b my
 reason 0 s f> f giv+ me ! same         
intimation1 t ,i h frequ5tly return$    
?anks to ,heav5 = hav+ by ?is means     
pres]v$ !m f ! fate ( _! fa!r1 & t by   
:i* !y 7 ?reat5$ ! mom5t ,i %\ld h be5  
"u ! necessity ( leav+ !m4 ,_h ,i left  
!m to ,madam d',up9ay1 or ,madam de     
,luxemb\rg1 :o1 f fri5d%ip1 g5]osity1 or
 "s o!r motive1 (f]$ to take c>e ( !m 9 
due "t1 w\ld !y h be5 m happy1 bett]    
br\ght up1 or hone/] m58 ,to ?is ,i _c  
answ]2 b ,i am c]ta9 !y w\ld h be5      
taught to hate & p]haps betray _! p>5ts3
 x is mu* bett] t !y h nev] kn[n !m4    
,my ?ird *ild 0 !re=e c>ri$ to ! f\ndl+ 
hospital z well z ! two =m]1 & ! next   
two 7 dispos$ ( 9 ! same mann]2 = ,i h  
_h five *ildr5 9 all4 ,?is arrangem5t   

seem$ to me to be s good1 reasonable &  
lawful1 t if ,i did n publicly boa/ ( x1
 ! motive by :i* ,i 0 )held 0 m]ely my  
reg>d = _! "m3 b ,i m5tion$ x to all ^? 
to :om ,i _h decl>$ our connection1 to  
,did]ot1 to ,grimm1 aft]w>ds to ,m4     
d',ep9ay1 & aft] ano!r int]val to ,madam
 de ,luxemb\rg2 & ?is freely &          
volunt>ily1 )\t be+ "u ! lea/ necessity 
( do+ x1 hav+ x 9 my p[] to conceal !   
/ep f all ! _w2 = ,la ,g\9 0 an hone/   
woman1 v discreet1 & a p]son on :om ,i  
_h ! greate/ reliance4 ,! only "o ( my  
fri5ds to :om x 0 9 "s measure my int]e/
 to op5 myself1 0 ,?i]ry ! physician1 :o
 _h ! c>e ( my poor aunt 9 "o ( h] ly+s 
91 9 :i* %e 0 v ill4 ,9 a ^w1 !re 0 no  
my/]y 9 my conduct1 n only on acc\nt (  
my nev] hav+ conceal$ any?+ f my fri5ds1
 b because ,i nev] f\nd any h>m 9 x4    
,ev]y?+ consid]$1 ,i *ose ! be/         
de/9ation = my *ildr51 or t :i* ,i ?\ght
 to be su*4 ,i c\ld h wi%$1 & /ill %\ld 
be glad1 _h ,i be5 br\ght up z !y h be54
  ,:il/ ,i 0 ?us communicat+ :at ,i _h  

done1 ,madam le ,vasseur did ! same ?+  
among/ h] acqua9tance1 b ) less         
dis9t]e/$ views4 ,i introduc$ h] & h]   
daught] to ,madam ,dup91 :o1 f fri5d%ip 
to me1 %[$ !m ! greate/ k9dness4 ,! "m  
confid$ to h] ! secret ( ! daught]4     
,madam ,dup91 :o is g5]\s & k9d1 & to   
:om %e nev] told h[ att5tive ,i 0 to h]1
 not)/&+ my mod]ate res\rces1 9 provid+ 
= ev]y?+1 provid$ on h] "p = :at 0      
necess>y1 ) a lib]ality :i*1 by ord] (  
h] "m1 ! daught] conceal$ f me dur+ my  
resid5ce 9 ,p>is1 nor ev] m5tion$ x     
until we 7 at ! ,h]mitage1 :5 %e in=m$  
me ( x1 aft] hav+ disclos$ to me sev]al 
o!r secrets ( h] he>t4 ,i did n "k      
,madam ,dup91 :o nev] took ! lea/ notice
 to me ( ! matt]1 0 s well in=m$3 ,i "k 
n yet :e!r ,madam de ,*5onceaux1 h]     
daught]-9-law1 0 z mu* 9 ! secret3 b    
,madam de ,brancueil knew ! :ole & c\ld 
n refra9 f prattl+4 ,%e spoke ( x to me 
! foll[+ ye>1 aft] ,i _h left h] h\se4  
,?is induc$ me to write h] a lett] ^u ! 
subject1 :i* w be f\nd 9 my collections1

 & :]e9 ,i gave su* ( my reasons z ,i   
c\ld make public1 )\t expos+ ,madam le  
,vasseur & h] family2 ! mo/ det]m9ative 
( !m came f t qu>t]1 & ^! ,i kept       
pr(\ndly secret4  ,i c rely ^u !        
discretion ( ,madam ,dup91 & ! fri5d%ip 
( ,madam de ,*5onceaux2 ,i _h ! same    
dep5d5ce ^u t ( ,madam de ,francueil1   
:o1 h[ev]1 0 long dead be=e my secret   
made its way into ! _w4 ,?is x c\ld nev]
 h done except by means ( ! p]sons to   
:om ,i intru/$ x1 nor did x until aft]  
my rupture ) !m4 ,by ?is s+le fact !y   
are judg$2 )\t exculpat+ myself f !     
blame ,i des]ve1 ,i pref] x to t result+
 f _! malignity4 ,my fault is great1 b x
 0 an error4 ,i h neglect$ my duty1 b ! 
desire ( do+ an injury nev] ent]$ my    
he>t2 & ! feel+s ( a fa!r 7 nev] m      
eloqu5t 9 favor ( *ildr5 :om he nev]    
saw4 ,b3 betray+ ! confid5ce ( fri5d%ip1
 violat+ ! mo/ sacr$ ( all engagem5ts1  
publi%+ secrets confid$ to u1 & wantonly
 di%onor+ ! fri5d we h deceiv$1 & :o 9  
deta*+ himself f our society /ill       

respects u1 are n faults1 b bas5ess (   
m9d1 & ! la/ degree ( he9\sness4  ,i h  
promis$ my confession & n my            
ju/ification2 on :i* acc\nt ,i %all /op 
"h4 ,x is my duty fai?fully to relate ! 
tru?1 t ( ! read] to be j2 m ?an ?is ,i 
nev] %all require ( him4  ,! m>riage (  
,m4 de ,*5onceaux r5d]$ 8 "m's h\se /ill
 m agreeable to me1 by ! wit & m]it ( ! 
new bride1 a v amiable "y p]son1 :o     
seem$ to di/+ui% me among/ ! scribes (  
,m4 ,dup94 ,%e 0 ! only daught] ( !     
,visc\ntess de ,ro*e*\>t1 a great fri5d 
( ! ,comte de ,friese1 & consequ5tly (  
,grimm's1 :o 0 v att5tive to h]4 ,h[ev]1
 x 0 ,i :o introduc$ him to h] daught]2 
b _! *>act]s n suit+ ea* o!r1 ?is       
connection 0 n ( long duration2 &       
,grimm1 :o f t "t aim$ at :at 0 solid1  
pref]r$ ! "m1 a woman ( ! _w1 to !      
daught] :o wi%$ = /eady fri5ds1 su* z 7 
agreeable to h]1 )\t tr\bl+ h] head ab\t
 ! lea/ intrigue1 or mak+ any int]e/    
among/ ! great4 ,madam ,dup9 no long]   
f9d+ 9 ,madam de ,*5onceaux all !       

docility %e expect$1 made h] h\se v     
disagreeable to h]1 & ,madam de         
,*5onceaux1 hav+ a great op9ion ( h] own
 m]it1 &1 p]haps1 ( h] bir?1 *ose r to  
give up ! pleasures ( society1 & rema9  
almo/ alone 9 h] ap>tm5t1 ?an to submit 
to a yoke %e 0 n dispos$ to be>4 ,?is   
species ( exile increas$ my atta*m5t to 
h]1 by t natural incl9ation :i* excites 
me to approa* ! wret*$1 ,i f\nd h] m9d  
metaphysical & reflective1 al?\gh at    
times a little sophi/ical2 h]           
conv]sation1 :i* 0 by no means t ( a "y 
woman com+ f a conv5t1 _h = me ! greate/
 attractions2 yet %e 0 n tw5ty ye>s (   
age4 ,h] complexion 0 s$uc+ly fair2 h]  
figure w\ld h be5 maje/ic _h %e held    
h]self m upright4 ,h] hair1 :i* 0 fair1 
bord]+ ^u a% color1 & uncommonly        
beautiful1 call$ to my recollection t ( 
my poor mamma 9 ! fl[] ( h] age1 &      
/rongly agitat$ my he>t4 ,b ! sev]e     
pr9ciples ,i _h j laid d[n = myself1 by 
:i* at all ev5ts ,i 0 det]m9$ to be     
guid$1 secur$ me f ! dang] ( h] & h]    

*>ms4 ,dur+ ! :ole summ] ,i pass$ ?ree  
or f\r h\rs a day 9 a tete-a-tete       
conv]sation ) h]1 tea*+ h] ari?metic1 & 
fatigu+ h] ) my innum]able ciph]s1 )\t  
utt]+ a s+le ^w ( gallantry1 or ev5 once
 glanc+ my eyes ^u h]4 ,five or six ye>s
 lat] ,i %\ld n h _h s mu* wisdom or    
folly2 b x 0 decre$ ,i 0 nev] to love b 
once 9 my life1 & t ano!r p]son 0 to h !
 fir/ & la/ sighs ( my he>t4  ,s9ce ,i  
_h liv$ 9 ! h\se ( ,madam ,dup91 ,i _h  
always be5 satisfi$ ) my situation1 )\t 
%[+ ! lea/ sign ( a desire to improve x4
 ,! addition :i*1 9 conjunction ) ,m4 de
 ,francueil1 %e _h made to my sal>y1 0  
entirely ( _! own accord4 ,?is ye> ,m4  
de ,francueil1 ^: fri5d%ip = me daily   
increas$1 _h x 9 8 ?\ghts to place me m 
at ease1 & 9 a less prec>i\s situation4 
,he 0 receiv]-g5]al ( f9ance4 ,m4       
,dudoy]1 8 ca%-keep]1 0 old & ri*1 &    
wi%$ to retire4 ,m4 de ,francueil (f]$  
me 8 place1 & to prep>e myself = x1 ,i  
w5t dur+ a few weeks1 to ,dudoy]1 to    
take ! necess>y in/ructions4 ,b :e!r my 

tal5ts 7 ill-suit$ to ! employm5t1 or t 
,m4 ,dudoy]1 :o ,i ?\ght wi%$ to procure
 8 place = ano!r1 0 n 9 e>ne/ 9 !       
in/ructions he gave me1 ,i acquir$ by   
sl[ degrees1 & v imp]fectly1 ! k ,i 0 9 
want (1 & c\ld nev] und]/& ! nature (   
acc\nts1 r5d]$ intricate1 p]haps        
design$ly4 ,h[ev]1 )\t hav+ possess$    
myself ( ! :ole scope ( ! bus9ess1 ,i   
le>n$ en\gh ( ! me?od to pursue x )\t ! 
lea/ difficulty2 ,i ev5 ent]$ on my new 
(fice2 ,i kept ! ca%book & ! ca%2 ,i    
paid & receiv$ money1 took & gave       
receipts2 & al?\gh ?is bus9ess 0 s ill  
suit$ to my incl9ations z to my         
abilities1 maturity ( ye>s beg9n+ to    
r5d] me s$ate1 ,i 0 det]m9$ to conqu] my
 disgu/1 & entirely devote myself to my 
new employm5t4  ,un=tunately = me1 ,i _h
 no soon] begun to proce$ )\t           
difficulty1 ?an ,m4 de ,francueil took a
 little j\rney1 dur+ :i* ,i rema9$      
intru/$ ) ! ca%1 :i*1 at t "t1 did n    
am\nt to m ?an tw5ty-five to ?irty ?\s& 
livres4 ,! anxiety ( m9d ?is sum ( money

 occasion$ me1 made me p]ceive ,i 0 v   
unfit to be a ca%-keep]1 & ,i h no d\bt 
b my uneasy situation1 dur+ 8 abs5ce1   
contribut$ to ! illness ) :i* ,i 0 seiz$
 aft] 8 return4  ,i h obs]v$ 9 my fir/  
"p t ,i 0 born 9 a dy+ /ate4 ,a defect 9
 ! bladd] caus$ me1 dur+ my e>ly ye>s1  
to suff] an almo/ cont9ual ret5tion (   
ur9e1 & my ,aunt ,susan1 to ^: c>e ,i 0 
intru/$1 _h inconceivable difficulty 9  
pres]v+ me4 ,h[ev]1 %e succe$$1 & my    
robu/ con/itution at l5g? got ! bett] ( 
all my weakness1 & my heal? became s    
well e/abli%$ t except ! illness f      
languor1 ( :i* ,i h giv5 an acc\nt1 &   
frequ5t heats 9 ! bladd] :i* ! lea/     
heat+ ( ! blood r5d]$ tr\blesome1 ,i    
arriv$ at ! age ( ?irty almo/ )\t feel+ 
my orig9al infirmity4 ,! fir/ "t ?is    
happ5$ 0 ^u my arrival at ,v5ice4 ,!    
fatigue ( ! voyage1 & ! extreme heat ,i 
_h suff]$1 r5ew$ ! burn+s1 & gave me a  
pa9 9 ! lo9s1 :i* cont9u$ until ! beg9n+
 ( w9t]4 ,aft] hav+ se5 padoana1 ,i     
?\ght myself ne> ! end ( my c>e]1 b ,i  

suff]$ n ! lea/ inconv5i5ce4 ,aft]      
exhau/+ my imag9ation m ?an my body = my
 ,zulietta1 ,i enjoy$ bett] heal? ?an   
ev]4 ,x 0 n until aft] ! imprisonm5t (  
,did]ot t ! heat ( blood1 br\ght on by  
my j\rneys to ,v9c5nes dur+ ! t]rible   
heat ( t summ]1 gave me a viol5t        
nephritic colic1 s9ce :i* ,i h nev]     
recov]$ my primitive good /ate ( heal?4 
,at ! "t ( :i* ,i speak1 hav+ p]haps    
fatigu$ myself too mu* 9 ! fil?y "w ( ! 
curs$ receiv]-g5]al's (fice1 ,i fell    
into a worse /ate ?an ev]1 & rema9$ five
 or six weeks 9 my b$ 9 ! mo/ melan*oly 
/ate imag9able4 ,madam ,dup9 s5t me !   
celebrat$ ,mor& :o1 not)/&+ 8 address & 
! delicacy ( 8 t\*1 made me suff] !     
greate/ torm5ts4 ,he advis$ me to h     
rec\rse to ,d>an1 :o1 9 fact gave me "s 
relief3 b ,mor&1 :5 he gave ,madam ,dup9
 an acc\nt ( ! /ate ,i 0 91 decl>$ to h]
 ,i %\ld n be alive 9 six mon?s4 ,?is   
aft]w>ds came to my e>1 & made me       
reflect s]i\sly on my situation & !     
folly ( sacrific+ ! repose ( ! few days 

,i _h to live to ! slav]y ( an employm5t
 = :i* ,i felt no?+ b disgu/4 ,besides1 
h[ 0 x possible to reconcile ! sev]e    
pr9ciples ,i _h j adopt$ to a situation 
) :i* !y _h s little relation8 ,%\ld n  
,i1 ! ca%-keep] ( a receiv]-g5]al (     
f9ances1 h prea*$ pov]ty & dis9t]e/$ness
 ) a v ill grace8 ,^! ideas f]m5t$ s    
p[]fully 9 my m9d ) ! fev]1 & 7 s       
/rongly impress$1 t f t "t no?+ c\ld    
remove !m2 &1 dur+ my convalesc5ce1 ,i  
confirm$ myself ) ! greate/ coolness 9 !
 resolutions ,i _h tak5 dur+ my         
delirium4 ,i =ev] ab&on$ all projects ( 
=tune & advancem5t1 resolv$ to pass 9   
indep5d5ce & pov]ty ! little "t ,i _h to
 exi/4 ,i made e ef=t ( :i* my m9d 0    
capable to break ! fett]s ( prejudice1 &
 c\rage\sly to d ev]y?+ t 0 "r )\t giv+ 
myself ! lea/ conc]n ab\t ! judgm5t (   
o!rs4 ,! ob/acles ,i _h to combat1 & !  
ef=ts ,i made to triumph ov] !m1 are    
inconceivable4 ,i succe$$ z mu* z x 0   
possible ,i %\ld1 & to a great] degree  
?an ,i myself _h hop$ =4 ,_h ,i at !    

same "t %ak5 (f ! yoke ( fri5d%ip z well
 z t ( prejudice1 my design w\ld h be5  
accompli%$1 p]haps ! greate/1 at lea/ ! 
mo/ useful "o to virtue1 t mortal ev]   
conceiv$2 b :il/ ,i despis$ ! fooli%    
judgm5ts ( ! vulg> tribe call$ great &  
wise1 ,i suff]$ myself to be influ5c$ & 
l$ by p]sons :o call$ !mselves my       
fri5ds4 ,^!1 hurt at see+ me walk alone 
9 a new pa?1 :ile ,i seem$ to take      
measures = my happ9ess1 us$ all _!      
endeavors to r5d] me ridicul\s1 & t !y  
might aft]w>ds defame me1 fir/ /rove to 
make me contemptible4 ,x 0 less my      
lit]>y fame ?an my p]sonal re=mation1 ( 
:i* ,i "h /ate ! p]iod1 t drew ^u me _! 
jeal\sy2 !y p]haps might h p>don$ me =  
hav+ di/+ui%$ myself 9 ! art ( writ+2 b 
!y c\ld nev] =give my sett+ !m1 by my   
conduct1 an example1 :i*1 9 _! eyes1    
seem$ to reflect on !mselves4 ,i 0 born 
= fri5d%ip2 my m9d & easy disposition   
n\ri%$ x )\t difficulty4 ,z long z ,i   
liv$ unkn[n to ! public ,i 0 belov$ by  
all my private acqua9tance1 & ,i _h n a 

s+le enemy4 ,b ! mom5t ,i acquir$ lit]>y
 fame1 ,i _h no long] a fri5d4 ,?is1 0 a
 great mis=tune2 b a /ill great] 0 t (  
be+ surr\nd$ by p :o call$ !mselves my  
fri5ds1 & us$ ! rights atta*$ to t sacr$
 "n to lead me on to de/ruction4 ,!     
succe$+ "p ( ^! memoirs w expla9 ?is    
odi\s conspiracy4 ,i "h speak ( its     
orig91 & ! mann] ( ! fir/ intrigue w    
%ortly appe>4  ,9 ! indep5d5ce 9 :i* ,i 
liv$1 x 01 h[ev]1 necess>y to subsi/4   
,to ?is effect ,i ?\ght ( v simple      
means3 :i* 7 copy+ music at s mu* a     
page4 ,if any employm5t m solid w\ld h  
fulfill$ ! same end ,i w\ld h tak5 x up2
 b ?is occupation be+ to my ta/e1 & !   
only "o :i*1 )\t p]sonal att5dance1 c\ld
 procure me daily bread1 ,i adopt$ x4   
,?9k+ ,i _h no long] ne$ ( =esight1 &1  
/ifl+ ! vanity ( ca%-keep] to a f9anci]1
 ,i made myself a copyi/ ( music4 ,i    
?\ght ,i _h made an advantage\s *oice1 &
 ( ?is ,i s little rep5t$1 t ,i nev]    
quitt$ my new pr(ession until ,i 0 =c$  
to d x1 aft] tak+ a fix$ resolution to  

return to x z soon z possible4  ,!      
success ( my fir/ disc\rse r5d]$ !      
execution ( ?is resolution m easy4 ,z   
soon z x _h ga9$ ! premium1 ,did]ot     
und]took to get x pr9t$4 ,:il/ ,i 0 9 my
 b$1 he wrote me a note in=m+ me ( !    
publication & effect3 ,x takes1 said he1
 beyond all imag9ation2 nev] 0 !re an   
in/ance ( a l success4  ,?is favor ( !  
public1 by no means solicit$1 & to an   
unkn[n au?or1 gave me ! fir/ real       
assurance ( my tal5ts1 ( :i*1 not)/&+ an
 int]nal s5tim5t1 ,i _h always _h my    
d\bts4 ,i conceiv$ ! great advantage to 
be drawn f x 9 favor ( ! way ( life ,i  
_h det]m9$ to pursue2 & 0 ( op9ion1 t a 
copyi/ ( "s celebrity 9 ! republic (    
lett]s 0 n likely to want employm5t4  ,!
 mom5t my resolution 0 confirm$1 ,i     
wrote a note to ,m4 de ,francueil1      
communicat+ to him my int5tions1 ?ank+  
him & ,madam ,dup9 = all goodness1 &    
(f]+ !m my s]vices 9 ! way ( my new     
pr(ession4 ,francueil did n und]/& my   
note1 &1 ?9k+ ,i 0 /ill 9 ! delirium (  

fev]1 ha/5$ to my ap>tm5t2 b he f\nd me 
s det]m9$1 t all he c\ld say to me 0 )\t
 ! lea/ effect4 ,he w5t to ,madam ,dup91
 & told h] & ev]ybody he met1 t ,i _h   
become insane4 ,i let him say :at he    
pleas$1 & pursu$ ! plan ,i _h conceiv$4 
,i began ! *ange 9 my dress2 ,i quitt$  
lac$ clo!s & :ite /ock+s2 ,i put on a   
r\nd wig1 laid aside my sword1 & sold my
 wat*2 say+ to myself1 ) inexpressible  
pleasure3 ,?ank ,heav56 ,i %all no long]
 want to "k ! h\r6 ,m4 de ,francueil _h 
! goodness to wait a consid]able "t be=e
 he dispos$ ( my place4 ,at l5g? p]ceiv+
 me inflexibly resolv$1 he gave x to ,m4
 d',alib>d1 =m]ly tutor to ! "y         
,*5onceaux1 & kn[n z a botani/ by 8     
,flora ,p>isi5sis4       ,i d\bt n b ^! 
circum/ances are n[ diff]5tly relat$ by 
,m4 ,francueil & 8 consorts3 b ,i appeal
 to :at he said ( !m      at ! "t & long
 aft]w>ds1 to ev]ybody he knew1 until ! 
=m+ ( ! conspiracy1 & ( :i* m5 ( common 
s5se &      honor1 mu/ h pres]v$ a      
remembrance4  ,h[ev] au/]e my sumptu>y  

re=m might be1 ,i did n at fir/ ext5d x 
to my l951 :i* 0 f9e & 9 great quantity1
 ! rema9d] ( my /ock :5 at ,v5ice1 & to 
:i* ,i 0 p>ticul>ly atta*$4 ,i _h made x
 s mu* an object ( cleanl9ess1 t x      
became "o ( luxury1 :i* 0 r exp5sive4   
,"s p]sons1 h[ev]1 did me ! favor to    
deliv] me f ?is s]vitude4 ,on ,*ri/mas  
,eve1 :il/ ! gov]nesses 7 at vesp]s1 &  
,i 0 at ! spiritual conc]t1 ! door ( a  
g>ret1 9 :i* all our l95 0 hung up aft] 
be+ wa%$1 0 brok5 op54 ,ev]y?+ 0 /ol52 &
 among/ o!r ?+s1 =ty-two ( my %irts1 ( v
 f9e l951 & :i* 7 ! pr9cipal "p ( my    
/ock4 ,by ! mann] 9 :i* ! neighbors     
describ$ a man :om !y _h se5 come out ( 
! hotel ) sev]al p>cels :il/ we 7 all   
abs5t1 ,!resa & myself suspect$ h]      
bro!r1 :om we knew to be a wor?less man4
 ,! "m /rongly endeavor$ to remove ?is  
suspicion1 b s _m circum/ances concurr$ 
to prove x to be well f\nd$1 t1 not)/&+ 
all %e c\ld say1 our op9ions rema9$ /ill
 ! same3 ,i d>$ n make a /rict se>* =   
fe> ( f9d+ m ?an ,i wi%$ to d4 ,! bro!r 

nev] return$ to ! place :]e ,i liv$1 &1 
at l5g?1 0 no m he>d ( by any ( u4 ,i 0 
mu* griev$ ,!resa & myself %\ld be      
connect$ ) su* a family1 & ,i exhort$ h]
 m ?an ev] to %ake (f s dang]\s a yoke4 
,?is adv5ture cur$ me ( my incl9ation = 
f9e l951 & s9ce t "t all ,i h _h has be5
 v common1 & m suitable to ! re/ ( my   
dress4  ,hav+ ?us complet$ ! *ange ( t  
:i* relat$ to my p]son1 all my c>es     
t5d]$ to r5d] x solid & la/+1 by /riv+  
to root out f my he>t ev]y?+ susceptible
 ( receiv+ an impression f ! judgm5t (  
m51 or :i*1 f ! fe> ( blame1 might turn 
me aside f any?+ good & reasonable 9    
itself4 ,9 consequ5ce ( ! success ( my  
"w1 my resolution made "s noise 9 ! _w  
also1 & procur$ me employm5t2 s t ,i    
began my new pr(ession ) great appe>ance
 ( success4 ,h[ev]1 sev]al causes       
prev5t$ me f succe$+ 9 x to ! same      
degree ,i %\ld "u any o!r circum/ances h
 done4 ,9 ! fir/ place my ill /ate (    
heal?4 ,! attack ,i _h j _h1 br\ght on  
consequ5ces :i* prev5t$ my ev] be+ s    

well z ,i 0 be=e2 & ,i am ( op9ion1 !   
physicians1 to ^: c>e ,i intru/$ myself1
 did me z mu* h>m z my illness4 ,i 0    
successively "u ! h&s ( ,mor&1 ,d>an1   
,helvetius1 ,mal\91 & ,?y]ri3 m5 able 9 
_! pr(ession1 & all ( !m my fri5ds1 :o  
treat$ me ea* accord+ to 8 own mann]1   
)\t giv+ me ! lea/ relief1 & weak5$ me  
consid]ably4 ,! m ,i submitt$ to _!     
direction1 ! yell[]1 ?9n]1 & weak] ,i   
became4 ,my imag9ation1 :i* !y t]rifi$1 
judg+ ( my situation by ! effect ( _!   
drugs1 pres5t$ to me1 on ?is side ( !   
tomb1 no?+ b cont9u$ suff]+s f ! gravel1
 /one1 & ret5tion ( ur9e4 ,ev]y?+ :i*   
gave relief to o!rs1 ptisans1 ba?s1 &   
ble$+1 increas$ my tortures4 ,p]ceiv+ ! 
b\gees ( ,d>an1 ! only ones t _h any    
favorable effect1 & )\t :i* ,i ?\ght ,i 
c\ld no long] exi/1 to give me a mom5t>y
 relief1 ,i procur$ a prodigi\s numb] ( 
!m1 t1 9 case ( ,d>an's dea?1 ,i might  
nev] be at a loss4 ,dur+ ! eight or t5  
ye>s 9 :i* ,i made su* frequ5t use ( ^!1
 !y mu/1 ) :at ,i _h left1 h co/ me     

fifty l\is4  ,x w easily be judg$1 t su*
 exp5sive & pa9ful means did n p]mit me 
to "w )\t int]ruption2 & t a dy+ man is 
n ard5tly indu/ri\s 9 ! bus9ess by :i*  
he ga9s 8 daily bread4  ,lit]>y         
occupations caus$ ano!r int]ruption n   
less prejudicial to my daily employm5t4 
,my disc\rse _h no soon] appe>$ ?an !   
def5d]s ( lett]s fell ^u me z if !y _h  
agre$ ) ea* to d x4 ,my indignation 0 s 
rais$ at see+ s _m blockheads1 :o did n 
und]/& ! "q1 attempt to decide ^u x     
imp]i\sly1 t 9 my answ] ,i gave "s ( !m 
! wor/ ( x4 ,"o ,m4 ,gauti]1 ( ,nancy1 !
 fir/ :o fell "u ! la% ( my p51 0 v     
r\ghly treat$ 9 a lett] to ,m4 ,grimm4  
,! second 0 ,k+ ,/anislaus1 himself1 :o 
did n disda9 to ent] ! li/s ) me4 ,!    
honor he did me1 oblig$ me to *ange my  
mann] 9 combat+ 8 op9ions2 ,i made use (
 a grav] /yle1 b n less n]v\s2 & )\t    
fail+ 9 respect to ! au?or1 ,i          
completely refut$ 8 "w4 ,i knew a       
,jesuit1 ,fa!r de ,m5\1 _h be5 conc]n$ 9
 x4 ,i dep5d$ on my judgm5t to di/+ui%  

:at 0 writt5 by ! pr9ce1 f ! production 
( ! monk1 & fall+ )\t m]cy ^u all !     
jesuitical phrases1 ,i rem>k$1 z ,i w5t 
along1 an ana*ronism :i* ,i ?\ght c\ld  
come f nobody b ! prie/4 ,?is           
composition1 :i*1 = :at reason ,i knew  
n1 has be5 less spok5 ( ?an any ( my o!r
 writ+s1 is ! only "o ( its k9d4 ,i     
seiz$ ! opportunity :i* (f]$ ( %[+ to ! 
public 9 :at mann] an individual may    
def5d ! cause ( tru? ev5 aga9/ a        
sov]eign4 ,x is difficult to adopt a m  
dignifi$ & respectful mann] ?an t 9 :i* 
,i answ]$ him4 ,i _h ! happ9ess to h to 
d ) an adv]s>y to :om1 )\t adulation1 ,i
 c\ld %[ e m>k ( ! e/eem ( :i* my he>t 0
 full2 & ?is ,i did ) success & a prop] 
dignity4 ,my fri5ds1 conc]n$ = my       
safety1 imag9$ !y already saw me 9 !    
,ba/ile4 ,?is appreh5sion nev] once     
ent]$ my head1 & ,i 0 "r 9 n be+ afraid4
 ,! good pr9ce1 aft] read+ my answ]1    
said3 ,i h en\gh ( at2 ,i w n return to 
! *>ge4 ,i h1 s9ce t "t receiv$ f him   
diff]5t m>ks ( e/eem & b5evol5ce1 "s (  

:i* ,i %all h occasion to speak (2 & :at
 ,i _h writt5 0 read 9 ,france1 &       
?r\gh\t ,europe1 )\t meet+ ! lea/       
c5sure4  ,9 a little "t ,i _h ano!r     
adv]s>y :om ,i _h n expect$2 ?is 0 !    
same ,m4 ,bordes1 ( ,lyons1 :o t5 ye>s  
be=e _h %[n me mu* fri5d%ip1 & f :om ,i 
_h receiv$ sev]al s]vices4 ,i _h n      
=gott5 him1 b _h neglect$ him f idl5ess1
 & _h n s5t him my writ+s = want ( an   
opportunity1 )\t seek+ = x1 to get !m   
convey$ to 8 h&s4 ,i 0 !re=e 9 ! wrong1 
& he attack$ me2 ?is1 h[ev]1 he did     
politely1 & ,i answ]$ 9 ! same mann]4   
,he repli$ m decid$ly4 ,?is produc$ my  
la/ answ]2 aft] :i* ,i he>d no m f him  
^u ! subject2 b he became my mo/ viol5t 
enemy1 took ! advantage ( ! "t ( my     
mis=tunes1 to publi% aga9/ me ! mo/     
indec5t libels1 & made a j\rney to      
,london on purpose to d me an injury4   
,all ?is controv]sy employ$ me a good   
deal1 & caus$ me a great loss ( my "t 9 
my copy+1 )\t mu* contribut+ to !       
progress ( tru?1 or ! good ( my purse4  

,pissot1 at t "t my booksell]1 gave me b
 little = my pamphlets1 frequ5tly no?+  
at all1 & ,i nev] receiv$ a f>?+ = my   
fir/ disc\rse4 ,did]ot gave x him4 ,i 0 
oblig$ to wait a long "t = ! little he  
gave me1 & to take x f him 9 ! mo/      
trifl+ sums4 ,not)/&+ ?is1 my copy+ w5t 
on b sl[ly4 ,i _h two ?+s toge!r ^u my  
h&s1 :i* 0 ! mo/ likely means ( do+ !m  
bo? ill4  ,!y 7 v opposite to ea* o!r 9 
_! effects by ! diff]5t mann]s ( liv+ to
 :i* !y r5d]$ me subject4 ,! success (  
my fir/ writ+s _h giv5 me celebrity4 ,my
 new situation excit$ curiosity4        
,ev]ybody wi%$ to "k t :imsical man :o  
s\ght n ! acqua9tance ( any "o1 & ^:    
only desire 0 to live free & happy 9 !  
mann] he _h *os52 ?is 0 suffici5t to    
make ! ?+ impossible to me4 ,my ap>tm5t 
0 cont9ually full ( p1 :o1 "u diff]5t   
pret5ces1 came to take up my "t4 ,! wom5
 employ$ a ?\s& artifices to engage me  
to d9n]4 ,! m unpolite ,i 0 ) p1 ! m    
ob/9ate !y became4 ,i c\ld n refuse     
ev]ybody4 ,:ile ,i made myself a ?\s&   

enemies by my refusals1 ,i 0 incessantly
 a slave to my complaisance1 &1 9 :atev]
 mann] ,i made my engagem5ts1 ,i _h n an
 h\r 9 a day to myself4  ,i !n p]ceiv$ x
 0 n s easy to be poor & indep5d5t1 z ,i
 _h imag9$4 ,i wi%$ to live by my       
pr(ession3 ! public w\ld n suff] me to d
 x4 ,a ?\s& means 7 ?\ght ( to indemnify
 me = ! "t ,i lo/4 ,! next ?+ w\ld h be5
 %[+ myself l ,pun*1 at s mu* ea* p]son4
 ,i knew no dep5d5ce m cruel & degrad+  
?an ?is4 ,i saw no o!r me?od ( putt+ an 
end to x ?an refus+ all k9ds ( pres5ts1 
great & small1 let !m come f :om !y     
w\ld4 ,?is _h no o!r effect ?an to      
increase ! numb] ( giv]s1 :o wi%$ to h !
 honor ( ov]com+ my resi/ance1 & to =ce 
me1 9 spite ( myself1 to be "u an       
obligation to !m4  ,_m1 :o w\ld n h giv5
 me half-a-cr[n _h ,i ask$ x f !m1      
incessantly importun$ me ) _! (f]s1 &1 9
 rev5ge = my refusal1 tax$ me )         
arrogance & o/5tation4  ,x w naturally  
be conceiv$ t ! resolutions ,i _h tak51 
& ! sy/em ,i wi%$ to foll[1 7 n         

agreeable to ,madam le ,vasseur4 ,all ! 
dis9t]e/$ness ( ! daught] did n prev5t  
h] f foll[+ ! directions ( h] "m2 & !   
gov]nesses1 z ,gauffec\rt call$ !m1 7 n 
always s /eady 9 _! refusals z ,i 04    
,al?\gh _m ?+s 7 conceal$ f me1 ,i      
p]ceiv$ s _m z 7 necess>y to enable me  
to judge t ,i did n see all1 & ?is      
torm5t$ me less by ! accusation (       
connivance1 :i* x 0 s easy = me to      
=esee1 ?an by ! cruel idea ( nev] be+   
ma/] 9 my own ap>tm5ts1 nor ev5 ( my own
 p]son4 ,i pray$1 conjur$1 & became     
angry1 all to no purpose2 ! "m made me  
pass = an et]nal grumbl]1 & a man :o 0  
peevi% & ungov]nable4 ,%e held p]petual 
:isp]+s ) my fri5ds2 ev]y?+ 9 my little 
family 0 my/]i\s & a secret to me2 &1 t 
,i might n incessantly expose myself to 
noisy qu>rell+1 ,i no long] d>$ to take 
notice ( :at pass$ 9 x4 ,a firmness (   
:i* ,i 0 n capable1 w\ld h be5 necess>y 
to )draw me f ?is dome/ic /rife4 ,i knew
 h[ to compla91 b n h[ to act3 !y suff]$
 me to say :at ,i pleas$1 & cont9u$ to  

act z !y ?\ght prop]4  ,?is con/ant     
teas+1 & ! daily importunities to :i* ,i
 0 subject1 r5d]$ ! h\se1 & my resid5ce 
at ,p>is1 disagreeable to me4 ,:5 my    
indisposition p]mitt$ me to g out1 & ,i 
did n suff] myself to be l$ by my       
acqua9tance fir/ to "o place & !n to    
ano!r1 ,i took a walk1 alone1 & reflect$
 on my gr& sy/em1 some?+ ( :i* ,i       
committ$ to pap]1 b\nd up betwe5 two    
cov]s1 :i*1 ) a p5cil1 ,i always _h 9 my
 pocket4 ,9 ?is mann]1 ! un=ese5        
disagreeabl5ess ( a situation ,i _h *os5
 entirely l$ me back to lit]ature1 to   
:i* unsuspect$ly ,i _h rec\rse z a means
 ( releav+ my m9d1 & ?us1 9 ! fir/ works
 ,i wrote1 ,i introduc$ ! peevi%ness &  
ill-humor :i* 7 ! cause ( my und]tak+   
!m4 ,!re 0 ano!r circum/ance :i*        
contribut$ n a little to ?is2 ?r[n into 
! _w despite ( myself1 )\t hav+ ! mann]s
 ( x1 or be+ 9 a situation to adopt &   
con=m myself to !m1 ,i took x into my   
head to adopt o!rs ( my own1 to enable  
me to disp5se ) ^? ( society4 ,my fooli%

 timidity1 :i* ,i c\ld n conqu]1 hav+ = 
pr9ciple ! fe> ( be+ want+ 9 ! common   
=ms1 ,i took1 by way ( enc\rag+ myself1 
a resolution to tread !m "u foot4 ,i    
became s\r & cynic f %ame1 & affect$ to 
despise ! polit5ess :i* ,i knew n h[ to 
practice4 ,?is au/]ity1 con=mable to my 
new pr9ciples1 ,i mu/ confess1 seem$ to 
ennoble itself 9 my m9d2 x assum$ 9 my  
eyes ! =m ( ! intrepidity ( virtue1 & ,i
 d>e ass]t x to be ^u ?is noble basis1 t
 x support$ itself long] & bett] ?an    
c\ld h be5 expect$ f any?+ s contr>y to 
my nature4 ,yet1 n )/&+1 ,i _h ! "n ( a 
misan?rope1 :i* my ext]ior appe>ance &  
"s happy expressions _h giv5 me 9 ! _w3 
x is c]ta9 ,i did n support ! "* well 9 
private1 t my fri5ds & acqua9tance l$   
?is untractable be> ab\t l a lamb1 & t1 
conf9+ my s>casms to sev]e b g5]al      
tru?s1 ,i 0 nev] capable ( say+ an      
uncivil ?+ to any p]son :atsoev]4  ,!   
',dev9 du ,village' br\ght me completely
 into vogue1 & pres5tly aft] !re 0 n a  
man 9 ,p>is ^: company 0 m s\ght aft]   

?an m9e4 ,! hi/ory ( ?is piece1 :i* is a
 k9d ( era 9 my life1 is jo9$ ) t ( !   
connections ,i _h at t "t4 ,i mu/ ent] a
 little into p>ticul>s to make :at is to
 foll[ ! bett] und]/ood4  ,i _h a num]\s
 acqua9tance1 yet no m ?an two fri5ds3  
,did]ot & ,grimm4 ,by an effect ( !     
desire ,i h ev] felt to unite ev]y?+ t  
is de> to me1 ,i 0 too mu* a fri5d to   
bo? n to make !m %ortly become s to ea* 
o!r4 ,i connect$ !m3 !y agre$ well      
toge!r1 & %ortly become m intimate ) ea*
 o!r ?an ) me4 ,did]ot _h a num]\s      
acqua9tance1 b ,grimm1 a /rang] & a     
new-com]1 _h 8 to procure1 & ) ! greate/
 pleasure ,i procur$ him all ,i c\ld4 ,i
 _h already giv5 him ,did]ot4 ,i        
aft]w>ds br\ght him acqua9t$ )          
,gauffec\rt4 ,i introduc$ him to ,madam 
,*5onceaux1 ,madam ,d',ep9ay1 & ! ,b>on 
d',holba*2 ) :om ,i _h become connect$  
almo/ 9 spite ( myself4 ,all my fri5ds  
became 83 ?is 0 natural3 b n "o ( 8 ev] 
became m9e2 :i* 0 incl9+ to ! contr>y4  
,:il/ he yet lodg$ at ! h\se ( ! ,comte 

de ,friese1 he frequ5tly gave u d9n]s 9 
8 ap>tm5t1 b ,i nev] receiv$ ! lea/ m>k 
( fri5d%ip f ! ,comte de ,friese1 ,comte
 de ,s*omb]g1 8 relation1 v famili> )   
,grimm1 nor f any o!r p]son1 man or     
woman1 ) :om ,grimm1 by _! means1 _h any
 connection4 ,i except ! ,abbe ,raynal1 
:o1 al?\gh 8 fri5d1 gave pro(s ( 8 be+  
m9e2 & 9 cases ( ne$1 (f]$ me 8 purse ) 
a g5]osity n v common4 ,b ,i knew !     
,abbe ,raynal long be=e ,grimm _h any   
acqua9tance ) him1 & _h ent]ta9$ a great
 reg>d = him on acc\nt ( 8 delicate &   
honorable behavior to me ^u a slight    
occasion1 :i* ,i %all nev] =get4  ,!    
,abbe ,raynal is c]ta9ly a w>m fri5d2 ( 
?is ,i saw a pro(1 mu* ab\t ! "t ( :i*  
,i speak1 ) respect to ,grimm himself1 )
 :om he 0 v intimate4 ,grimm1 aft] hav+ 
be5 sometime on a foot+ ( fri5d%ip )    
,mademoiselle ,fel1 fell viol5tly 9 love
 ) h]1 & wi%$ to supplant ,cahusac4 ,!  
"y lady1 piqu+ h]self on h] con/ancy1   
refus$ h] new admir]4 ,he took ?is s mu*
 to he>t1 t ! appe>ance ( 8 affliction  

became tragical4 ,he sudd5ly fell into !
 /range/ /ate imag9able4 ,he pass$ days 
& nights 9 a cont9u$ le?>gy4 ,he lay ) 8
 eyes op52 & al?\gh 8 pulse cont9u$ to  
beat regul>ly1 )\t speak+1 eat+1 or     
/irr+1 yet sometimes seem+ to he> :at 0 
said to him1 b nev] answ]+1 n ev5 by a  
sign1 & rema9+ almo/ z immovable z if he
 _h be5 dead1 yet )\t agitation1 pa91 or
 fev]4 ,! ,abbe ,raynal & myself wat*$  
ov] him2 ! abbe1 m robu/1 & 9 bett]     
heal? ?an ,i 01 by night1 & ,i by day1  
)\t ev] bo? be+ abs5t at "o "t4 ,!      
,comte de ,friese 0 al>m$1 & br\ght to  
him ,s5ac1 :o1 aft] hav+ exam9$ ! /ate 9
 :i* he 01 said !re 0 no?+ to appreh5d1 
& took 8 leave )\t giv+ a prescription4 
,my fe>s = my fri5d made me c>efully    
obs]ve ! c\nt5ance ( ! physician1 & ,i  
p]ceiv$ him smile z he w5t away4 ,h[ev]1
 ! pati5t rema9$ sev]al days almo/      
motionless1 )\t tak+ any?+ except a few 
pres]v$ *]ries1 :i* f "t to "t ,i put ^u
 8 tongue1 & :i* he swall[$ )\t         
difficulty4 ,at l5g? he1 "o morn+1 rose1

 dress$ himself1 & return$ to 8 usual   
way ( life1 )\t ei!r at t "t or aft]w>ds
 speak+ to me or ! ,abbe ,raynal1 at    
lea/ t ,i "k (1 or to any o!r p]son1 (  
?is s+ul> le?>gy1 or ! c>e we _h tak5 ( 
him dur+ ! "t x la/$4  ,! affair made a 
noise1 & x w\ld really h be5 a wond]ful 
circum/ance _h ! cruelty ( an op]a girl 
made a man die ( despair4 ,?is /rong    
passion br\ght ,grimm into vogue2 he 0  
soon consid]$ z a prodigy 9 love1       
fri5d%ip1 & atta*m5ts ( e k9d4 ,su* an  
op9ion made 8 company s\ght aft]1 &     
procur$ him a good reception 9 ! fir/   
circles2 by :i* means he sep>at$ f me1 )
 :om he 0 nev] incl9$ to associate :5 he
 c\ld d x ) anybody else4 ,i p]ceiv$ him
 to be on ! po9t ( break+ ) me entirely2
 = ! lively & ard5t s5tim5ts1 ( :i* he  
made a p>ade1 7 ^? :i* ) less noise &   
pret5sions1 ,i _h really conceiv$ = him4
 ,i 0 glad he succe$$ 9 ! _w2 b ,i did n
 wi% him to d ?is by =gett+ 8 fri5d4 ,i 
"o day said to him3 ,grimm1 y neglect   
me1 & ,i =give y = x4 ,:5 ! fir/        

intoxication ( y\r success is ov]1 & y  
beg9 to p]ceive a void 9 y\r enjoym5ts1 
,i hope y w return to y\r fri5d1 :om y w
 always f9d 9 ! same s5tim5ts2 at pres5t
 d n con/ra9 y\rself1 ,i leave y at     
lib]ty to act z y please1 & wait y\r    
leisure4 ,he said ,i 0 "r1 made 8       
arrangem5ts 9 consequ5ce1 & %ook (f all 
re/ra9t1 s t ,i saw no m ( him except 9 
company ) our common fri5ds4  ,our *ief 
r5dezv\s1 be=e he 0 connect$ ) ,madam   
d',ep9ay z he aft]w>ds became1 0 at !   
h\se ( ,b>on d',holba*4 ,?is said b>on 0
 ! son ( a man :o _h rais$ himself f    
obscurity4 ,8 =tune 0 consid]able1 & he 
us$ x nobly1 receiv+ at 8 h\se m5 (     
lett]s & m]it3 &1 by ! k he himself _h  
acquir$1 0 v wor?y ( hold+ a place      
among/ !m4 ,hav+ be5 long atta*$ to     
,did]ot1 he endeavor$ to become acqua9t$
 ) me by 8 means1 ev5 be=e my "n 0 kn[n 
to ! _w4 ,a natural repugnancy prev5t$  
me a long "t f answ]+ 8 advances4 ,"o   
day1 :5 he ask$ me ! reason ( my        
unwill+ness1 ,i told him he 0 too ri*4  

,he 01 h[ev]1 resolv$ to c>ry 8 po9t1 & 
at l5g? succe$$4 ,my greate/ mis=tune   
proce$$ f my be+ unable to resi/ ! =ce (
 m>k$ att5tion4 ,i h ev] _h reason to   
rep5t ( hav+ yield$ to x4  ,ano!r       
acqua9tance :i*1 z soon z ,i _h any     
pret5sions to x1 0 conv]t$ into         
fri5d%ip1 0 t ( ,m4 ,duclos4 ,i _h      
sev]al ye>s be=e se5 him1 = ! fir/ "t1  
at ! ,*evrette1 at ! h\se ( ,madam      
d',ep9ay1 ) :om he 0 ^u v good t]ms4 ,on
 t day we only d9$ toge!r1 & he return$ 
to t[n 9 ! aft]noon4 ,b we _h a         
conv]sation ( a few mom5ts aft] d9n]4   
,madam d',ep9ay _h m5tion$ me to him1 & 
my op]a ( ! ',muses ,gallantes'4        
,duclos1 end[$ ) too great tal5ts n to  
be a fri5d to ^? 9 :om ! l 7 f\nd1 0    
prepossess$ 9 my favor1 & invit$ me to g
 & see him4 ,not)/&+ my =m] wi%1        
increas$ by an acqua9tance1 ,i 0 )held  
by my timidity & indol5ce1 z long z ,i  
_h no o!r passport to him ?an 8         
complaisance4 ,b enc\rag$ by my fir/    
success1 & by 8 eulogiums1 :i* rea*$ my 

e>s1 ,i w5t to see him2 he return$ my   
visit1 & ?us began ! connection betwe5  
u1 :i* w ev] r5d] him de> to me4 ,by    
him1 z well z f ! te/imony ( my own     
he>t1 ,i le>n$ t uprightness & probity  
may sometimes be connect$ ) !           
cultivation ( lett]s4  ,_m o!r          
connections less solid1 & :i* ,i %all n 
"h p>ticul>ize1 7 ! effects ( my fir/   
success1 & la/$ until curiosity 0       
satisfi$4 ,i 0 a man s easily kn[n1 t on
 ! next day no?+ new 0 to be discov]$ 9 
me4 ,h[ev]1 a woman1 :o at t "t 0       
desir\s ( my acqua9tance1 became mu* m  
solidly atta*$ to me ?an any ( ^? ^:    
curiosity ,i _h excit$3 ?is 0 !         
,m>*ioness ( ,crequi1 niece to ,m4 le   
,bailli de ,fr\lay1 ambassador f ,malta1
 ^: bro!r _h prec$$ ,m4 de ,montaigu 9 !
 embassy to ,v5ice1 & :om ,i _h gone to 
see on my return f t city4 ,madam de    
,crequi wrote to me3 ,i visit$ h]3 %e   
receiv$ me into h] fri5d%ip4 ,i         
sometimes d9$ ) h]4 ,i met at h] table  
sev]al m5 ( lett]s1 among/ o!rs ,m4     

,saur91 ! au?or ( ,sp>tacus1 ,b>nevelt1 
etc41 s9ce become my implacable enemy2 =
 no o!r reason1 at lea/ t ,i c imag9e1  
?an my be>+ ! "n ( a man :om 8 fa!r has 
cruelly p]secut$4  ,x w appe> t = a     
copyi/1 :o ought to be employ$ 9 8      
bus9ess f morn+ till night1 ,i _h _m    
int]ruptions1 :i* r5d]$ my days n v     
lucrative1 & prev5t$ me f be+           
suffici5tly att5tive to :at ,i did to d 
x well2 = :i* reason1 half ! "t ,i _h to
 myself 0 lo/ 9 eras+ errors or beg9n+  
my %eet anew4 ,?is daily importunity    
r5d]$ ,p>is m unsupportable1 & made me  
ard5tly wi% to be 9 ! c\ntry4 ,i sev]al 
times w5t to pass a few days at         
,m]c\ssis1 ! vic> ( :i* 0 kn[n to ,madam
 le ,vasseur1 & ) :om we all arrang$    
ourselves 9 su* a mann] z n to make ?+s 
disagreeable to him4 ,grimm once w5t    
?i!r ) u4       ,s9ce ,i h neglect$ to  
relate "h a trifl+1 b memorable         
adv5ture ,i _h ) ! said ,grimm "o day1  
on :i* we 7 to      d9e at ! f\nta9 (   
,/4 ,v&rille1 ,i w let x pass3 b :5     

,i ?\ght ( x aft]w>ds1 ,i conclud$ t he 
0 brood+ 9 8      he>t ! conspiracy he  
has1 ) s mu* success1 s9ce c>ri$        
into execution4  ,! vic> _h a tol]able  
voice1 sung well1 &1 al?\gh he did n    
read music1 le>n$ 8 "p ) great facility 
& precision4 ,we pass$ our "t 9 s++ !   
trios ,i _h compos$ at ,*5onceaux4 ,to  
^! ,i add$ two or ?ree new ones1 to !   
words ,grimm & ! vic> wrote1 well or    
ill4 ,i _c refra9 f regrett+ ^! trios   
compos$ & sung 9 mom5ts ( pure joy1 &   
:i* ,i left at ,wootton1 ) all my music4
 ,mademoiselle ,dav5port has p]haps     
curl$ h] hair ) !m2 b !y are wor?y ( be+
 pres]v$1 & are1 = ! mo/ "p1 ( v good   
c\nt]po9t4 ,x 0 aft] "o ( ^! little     
excursions 9 :i* ,i _h ! pleasure ( see+
 ! aunt at h] ease & v *e]ful1 & 9 :i*  
my spirits 7 mu* enliv5$1 t ,i wrote to 
! vic> v rapidly & v ill1 an epi/le 9   
v]se :i* w be f\nd among/ my pap]s4  ,i 
_h ne>] to ,p>is ano!r /ation mu* to my 
lik+ ) ,m4 ,muss>d1 my c\ntryman1       
relation & fri5d1 :o at ,passy _h made  

himself a *>m+ retreat1 :]e ,i h pass$  
"s v peaceful mom5ts4 ,m4 ,muss>d 0 a   
jewell]1 a man ( good s5se1 :o1 aft]    
hav+ acquir$ a g5teel =tune1 _h giv5 8  
only daught] 9 m>riage to ,m4 de        
,valmalette1 ! son ( an ex*ange brok]1 &
 maitre d'hotel to ! k+1 took ! wise    
resolution to quit bus9ess 9 8 decl9+   
ye>s1 & to place an int]val ( repose &  
enjoym5t betwe5 ! hurry & ! end ( life4 
,! good man ,muss>d1 a real philosoph] 9
 practice1 liv$ )\t c>e1 9 a v pleasant 
h\se :i* he himself _h built 9 a v      
pretty g>d51 laid out ) 8 own h&s4 ,9   
digg+ ! t]races ( ?is g>d5 he f\nd      
fossil %ells1 & 9 su* great quantities t
 8 lively imag9ation saw no?+ b %ells 9 
nature4 ,he really ?\ght ! univ]se 0    
compos$ ( %ells & ! rema9s ( %ells1 & t 
! :ole e>? 0 only ! s& ( ^! 9 diff]5t   
/ratae4 ,8 att5tion ?us con/antly engag$
 ) 8 s+ul> discov]ies1 8 imag9ation     
became s heat$ ) ! ideas !y gave him1 t1
 9 8 head1 !y w\ld soon h be5 conv]t$   
into a sy/em1 t is into folly1 if1      

happily = 8 reason1 b un=tunately = 8   
fri5ds1 to :om he 0 de>1 & to :om 8 h\se
 0 an agreeable asylum1 a mo/ cruel &   
extraord9>y disease _h n put an end to 8
 exi/5ce4 ,a con/antly increas+ tumor 9 
8 /oma* prev5t$ him f eat+1 long be=e ! 
cause ( x 0 discov]$1 &1 aft] sev]al    
ye>s ( suff]+1 absolutely occasion$ him 
to die ( hung]4 ,i c nev]1 )\t ! greate/
 affliction ( m9d1 call to my           
recollection ! la/ mom5ts ( ?is wor?y   
man1 :o /ill receiv$ ) s mu* pleasure   
,l5eips & myself1 ! only fri5ds :om !   
sight ( 8 suff]+s did n sep>ate f him   
until 8 la/ h\r1 :5 he 0 r$uc$ to dev\r+
 ) 8 eyes ! repa/s he _h plac$ be=e u1  
sc>cely hav+ ! p[] ( swall[+ a few drops
 ( weak tea1 :i* came up aga9 a mom5t   
aft]w>ds4 ,b be=e ^! days ( sorr[1 h[ _m
 h ,i pass$ at 8 h\se1 ) ! *os5 fri5ds  
he _h made himself6 ,at ! head ( ! li/  
,i place ! ,abbe ,prevot1 a v amiable   
man1 & v s9c]e1 ^: he>t vivifi$ 8       
writ+s1 wor?y ( immortality1 & :o1 nei!r
 9 8 disposition nor 9 society1 _h !    

lea/ ( ! melan*oly color+ he gave to 8  
works4 ,procope1 ! physician1 a little  
,esop1 a favorite ) ! ladies2 ,b\lang]1 
! celebrat$ po/hum\s au?or (            
',despotisme ,ori5tal'1 & :o1 ,i am (   
op9ion1 ext5d$ ! sy/ems ( ,muss>d on !  
duration ( ! _w4 ,! female "p ( 8 fri5ds
 consi/$ ( ,madam ,d5is1 niece to       
,voltaire1 :o1 at t "t1 0 no?+ m ?an a  
good k9d ( woman1 & pret5d$ n to wit3   
,madam ,vanloo1 c]ta9ly n h&some1 b     
*>m+1 & :o sang l an angel3 ,madam de   
,valmalette1 h]self1 :o sang also1 & :o1
 al?\gh v ?91 w\ld h be5 v amiable _h %e
 _h few] pret5sions4 ,su*1 or v ne>ly   
su*1 0 ! society ( ,m4 ,muss>d1 ) :i* ,i
 %\ld _h be5 mu* pleas$1 _h n 8         
con*yliomania m engag$ my att5tion2 & ,i
 c say1 ) great tru?1 t1 = upw>ds ( six 
mon?s1 ,i work$ ) him 9 8 cab9et ) z mu*
 pleasure z he felt himself4  ,he _h    
long insi/$ ^u ! virtue ( ! wat]s (     
,passy1 t !y 7 prop] 9 my case1 &       
recomm5d$ me to come to 8 h\se to dr9k  
!m4 ,to )draw myself f ! tumult ( !     

city1 ,i at l5g? cons5t$1 & w5t to pass 
eight or t5 days at ,passy1 :i*1 on     
acc\nt ( my be+ 9 ! c\ntry1 7 ( m s]vice
 to me ?an ! wat]s ,i drank dur+ my /ay 
!re4 ,muss>d play$ ! viol9cello1 & 0    
passionately f\nd ( ,italian music4 ,?is
 0 ! subject ( a long conv]sation we _h 
"o ev5+ aft] supp]1 p>ticul>ly !        
'op]a-buffe' we _h bo? se5 9 ,italy1 & )
 :i* we 7 highly delight$4 ,my sleep    
hav+ =sak5 me 9 ! night1 ,i consid]$ 9  
:at mann] x w\ld be possible to give 9  
,france an idea ( ?is k9d ( drama4 ,!   
',am\rs de ,ragonde' did n 9 ! lea/     
resemble x4 ,9 ! morn+1 :il/ ,i took my 
walk & drank ! wat]s1 ,i ha/ily ?rew    
toge!r a few c\plets to :i* ,i adapt$   
su* airs z occurr$ to me at ! mom5ts4 ,i
 scribbl$ ov] :at ,i _h compos$1 9 a k9d
 ( vault$ saloon at ! end ( ! g>d51 & at
 tea4 ,i c\ld n refra9 f %[+ ! airs to  
,muss>d & to ,mademoiselle du ,v]nois1 8
 'g\v]nante'1 :o 0 a v good & amiable   
girl4 ,?ree pieces ( composition ,i _h  
sket*$ out 7 ! fir/ monologue3 ',j'ai   

p]du mon s]viteur2'--! air ( ! ,dev92   
',l'am\r croit s'il s'inquiete2' & ! la/
 duo3 ',a jamais1 ,col91 je t'engage1   
etc4' ,i 0 s f> f ?9k+ x wor? :ile to   
cont9ue :at ,i _h begun1 t1 _h x n be5 =
 ! applause & enc\ragem5t ,i receiv$ f  
bo? ,muss>d & ,mademoiselle1 ,i %\ld h  
?r[n my pap]s into ! fire & ?\ght no m (
 _! cont5ts1 z ,i _h frequ5tly done by  
?+s ( mu* ! same m]it2 b ,i 0 s animat$ 
by ! encomiums ,i receiv$1 t 9 six days1
 my drama1 except+ a few c\plets1 0     
writt54 ,! music also 0 s f> sket*$ out1
 t all ,i _h fur!r to d to x aft] my    
return f ,p>is1 0 to compose a little ( 
! recitative1 & to add ! middle p>ts1 ! 
:ole ( :i* ,i f9i%$ ) s mu* rapidity1 t 
9 ?ree weeks my "w 0 ready =            
repres5tation4 ,! only ?+ n[ want+1 0 ! 
div]tissem5t1 :i* 0 n compos$ until a   
long "t aft]w>ds4  ,my imag9ation 0 s   
w>m$ by ! composition ( ?is "w t ,i _h !
 /ronge/ desire to he> x p]=m$1 & w\ld h
 giv5 any?+ to h se5 & he>d ! :ole 9 !  
mann] ,i %\ld h *os51 :i* w\ld h be5 t (

 ,lully1 :o is said to h _h ',armide'   
p]=m$ = himself only4 ,z x 0 n possible 
,i %\ld he> ! p]=mance unaccompani$ by !
 public1 ,i c\ld n see ! effect ( my    
piece )\t gett+ x receiv$ at ! op]a4    
,un=tunately x 0 q a new species (      
composition1 to :i* ! e>s ( ! public 7 n
 accu/om$2 & besides ! ill success ( !  
',muses ,gallantes' gave too mu* reason 
to fe> = ! ,dev91 if ,i pres5t$ x 9 my  
own "n4 ,duclos reliev$ me f ?is        
difficulty1 & engag$ to get ! piece     
rehe>s$ )\t m5tion+ ! au?or4 ,t ,i might
 n discov] myself1 ,i did n g to !      
rehe>sal1 & ! ',petits violons'1 by :om 
x 0 direct$1 knew n :o ! au?or 0 until  
aft] a g5]al plaudit _h borne ! te/imony
 ( ! "w4       ,rebel & ,frauneur1 :o1  
:5 !y 7 v "y1 w5t toge!r      f h\se to 
h\se play+ on ! viol91 7 s call$4       
,ev]ybody pres5t 0 s delight$ ) x1 t1 on
 ! next day1 no?+ else 0 spok5 ( 9 !    
diff]5t companies4 ,m4 de ,cury1        
,int5dant des ,m5us1 :o 0 pres5t at !   
rehe>sal1 dem&$ ! piece to h x p]=m$ at 

c\rt4 ,duclos1 :o knew my int5tions1 &  
?\ght ,i %\ld be less ma/] ( my "w at ! 
c\rt ?an at ,p>is1 refus$ to give x4    
,cury claim$ x au?oratively4 ,duclos    
p]si/$ 9 8 refusal1 & ! dispute betwe5  
!m 0 c>ri$ to su* a l5g?1 t "o day !y   
w\ld h gone out f ! op]a-h\se toge!r _h 
!y n be5 sep>at$4 ,m4 de ,cury appli$ to
 me1 & ,i ref]r$ him to ,duclos4 ,?is   
made x necess>y to return to ! latt]4 ,!
 ,duke d',aumont int]f]$2 & at l5g?     
,duclos ?\ght prop] to yield to         
au?ority1 & ! piece 0 giv5 to be play$  
at ,fonta9ebleau4  ,! "p to :i* ,i _h   
be5 mo/ att5tive1 & 9 :i* ,i _h kept at 
! greate/ di/ance f ! common track1 0 ! 
recitative4 ,m9e 0 acc5t$ 9 a mann]     
entirely new1 & accompani$ ! utt]ance ( 
! ^w4 ,! directors d>$ n suff] ?is      
horrid innovation to pass1 le/ x %\ld   
%ock ! e>s ( p]sons :o nev] judge =     
!mselves4 ,ano!r recitative 0 propos$ by
 ,francueil & ,jelyotte1 to :i* ,i      
cons5t$2 b refus$ at ! same "t to h     
any?+ to d ) x myself4  ,:5 ev]y?+ 0    

ready & ! day ( p]=mance fix$1 a        
proposition 0 made me to g to           
,fonta9ebleau1 t ,i might at lea/ be at 
! la/ rehe>sal4 ,i w5t ) ,mademoiselle  
,fel1 ,grimm1 & ,i ?9k ! ,abbe ,raynal1 
9 "o ( ! /ages to ! c\rt4 ,! rehe>sal 0 
tol]able3 ,i 0 m satisfi$ ) x ?an ,i    
expect$ to h be54 ,! or*e/ra 0 num]\s1  
compos$ ( ! or*e/ras ( ! op]a & ! k+'s  
b&4 ,jelyotte play$ ,col91 ,mademoiselle
 ,fel1 ,colette1 ,cuvilli] ! ,dev93 !   
*oruses 7 ^? ( ! op]a4 ,i said b little2
 ,jelyotte _h prep>$ ev]y?+2 ,i 0       
unwill+ ei!r to approve ( or c5sure :at 
he _h done2 & not)/&+ ,i _h assum$ ! air
 ( an old ,roman1 ,i 01 9 ! mid/ ( s _m 
p1 z ba%ful z a s*oolboy4  ,! next      
morn+1 ! day ( p]=mance1 ,i w5t to      
breakfa/ at ! c(fee-h\se 'du gr&        
commun'1 :]e ,i f\nd a great numb] ( p4 
,! rehe>sal ( ! prec$+ ev5+1 & !        
difficulty ( gett+ into ! !atre1 7 !    
subjects ( conv]sation4 ,an (fic] pres5t
 said he ent]$ ) ! greate/ ease1 gave a 
long acc\nt ( :at _h pass$1 describ$ !  

au?or1 & relat$ :at he _h said & done2 b
 :at a/oni%$ me mo/ 9 ?is long n>rative1
 giv5 ) z mu* assurance z simplicity1 0 
t x did n conta9 a syllable ( tru?4 ,x 0
 cle> to me t he :o spoke s positively (
 ! rehe>sal _h n be5 at x1 because1 )\t 
kn[+ him1 he _h be=e 8 eyes t au?or :om 
he said he _h se5 & exam9$ s m9utely4   
,h[ev]1 :at 0 m s+ul> /ill 9 ?is sc5e1 0
 its effect ^u me4 ,! (fic] 0 a man r 9 
ye>s1 he _h no?+ ( ! appe>ance ( a      
coxcomb2 8 features appe>$ to ann\nce a 
man ( m]it2 & 8 cross ( ,sa9t ,l\is1 an 
(fic] ( long /&+4 ,he int]e/$ me3       
not)/&+ 8 impud5ce4 ,:il/ he utt]$ 8    
lies1 ,i blu%$1 look$ d[n1 & 0 ^u ?orns2
 ,i1 = "s "t1 endeavor$ )9 myself to f9d
 ! means ( believ+ him to be 9 an       
involunt>y error4 ,at l5g?1 trembl+ le/ 
"s p]son %\ld "k me1 & by ?is means     
conf\nd him1 ,i ha/ily drank my         
*ocolate1 )\t say+ a ^w1 &1 hold+ d[n my
 head1 ,i pass$ be=e him1 got out ( !   
c(fee-h\se z soon z possible1 :il/ !    
company 7 mak+ _! rem>ks ^u ! relation t

 _h be5 giv54 ,i 0 no soon] 9 ! /reet   
?an ,i 0 9 a p]spiration1 & _h anybody  
kn[n & nam$ me be=e ,i left ! room1 ,i  
am c]ta9 all ! %ame & emb>rassm5t ( a   
guilty p]son w\ld h appe>$ 9 my         
c\nt5ance1 proce$+ f :at ,i felt ! poor 
man w\ld h _h to h suff]$ _h 8 lie be5  
discov]$4  ,i come to "o ( ! critical   
mom5ts ( my life1 9 :i* x is difficult  
to d any?+ m ?an to relate1 because x is
 almo/ impossible t ev5 n>rative %\ld n 
c>ry ) x ! m>ks ( c5sure or apology4 ,i 
w1 h[ev]1 endeavor to relate h[ & ^u :at
 motives ,i act$1 ) out add+ ei!r       
approbation or c5sure4  ,i 0 on t day 9 
! same c>eless undress z usual1 ) a long
 be>d & wig badly comb$4 ,consid]+ ?is  
want ( dec5cy z an act ( c\rage1 ,i     
ent]$ ! !atre :]e9 ! k+1 que51 ! royal  
family1 & ! :ole c\rt 7 to ent]         
imm$iately aft]4 ,i 0 conduct$ to a box 
by ,m4 de ,cury1 & :i* belong$ to him4  
,x 0 v spaci\s1 ^u ! /age & opposite to 
a less]1 b m elevat$ "o1 9 :i* ! k+ sat 
) ,madam de ,pompad\r4  ,z ,i 0 surr\nd$

 by wom51 & ! only man 9 front ( ! box1 
,i _h no d\bt ( my hav+ be5 plac$ !re   
purposely to be expos$ to view4 ,z soon 
z ! !atre 0 light$ up1 f9d+ ,i 0 9 !    
mid/ ( p all extremely well dress$1 ,i  
began to be less at my ease1 & ask$     
myself if ,i 0 9 my place8 :e!r or n ,i 
0 prop]ly dress$8 ,aft] a few m9utes (  
inquietude3 ,yes1 repli$ ,i1 ) an       
intrepidity :i* p]haps proce$$ m f !    
impossibility ( retract+ ?an ! =ce ( all
 my reason+1 ,i am 9 my place1 because  
,i am go+ to see my own piece p]=m$1 to 
:i* ,i h be5 invit$1 = :i* reason only  
,i am come "h2 & aft] all1 no p]son has 
a great] "r ?an ,i h to reap ! fruit (  
my labor & tal5ts2 ,i am dress$ z usual1
 nei!r bett] nor worse2 & if ,i once    
beg9 to subject myself to public op9ion1
 ,i %all %ortly become a slave to x 9   
ev]y?+4 ,to be always consi/5t ) myself1
 ,i ought n to blu%1 9 any place :atev]1
 at be+ dress$ 9 a mann] suitable to !  
/ate ,i h *os54 ,my ext]ior appe>ance is
 simple1 b nei!r dirty nor slov5ly2 nor 

is a be>d ei!r ( ^! 9 itself1 because x 
is giv5 u by nature1 & accord+ to "t1   
place & cu/om1 is sometimes an ornam5t4 
,p ?9k ,i am ridicul\s1 nay1 ev5 absurd2
 b :at signifies ?is to me8 ,i ought to 
"k h[ to be> c5sure & ridicule1 provid$ 
,i d n des]ve !m4 ,aft] ?is little      
soliloquy ,i became s firm t1 _h x be5  
necess>y1 ,i c\ld h be5 intrepid4 ,b    
:e!r x 0 ! effect ( ! pres5ce ( 8       
maje/y1 or ! natural disposition ( ^?   
ab\t me1 ,i p]ceiv$ no?+ b :at 0 civil &
 oblig+ 9 ! curiosity ( :i* ,i 0 !      
object4 ,?is s mu* affect$ me t ,i began
 to be uneasy = myself1 & ! fate ( my   
piece2 fe>+ ,i %\ld efface ! favorable  
prejudices :i* seem$ to lead to no?+ b  
applause4 ,i 0 arm$ aga9/ raill]y2 b1 s 
f> ov]come1 by ! flatt]+ & oblig+       
treatm5t ,i _h n expect$1 t ,i trembl$ l
 a *ild :5 ! p]=mance 0 begun4  ,i _h   
soon suffici5t reason to be enc\rag$4 ,!
 piece 0 v ill play$ ) respect to !     
actors1 b ! musical "p 0 well sung &    
execut$4 ,dur+ ! fir/ sc5e1 :i* 0 really

 ( a delightful simplicity1 ,i he>d 9 ! 
boxes a murmur ( surprise & applause1   
:i*1 relative to pieces ( ! same k9d1 _h
 nev] yet happ5$4 ,! f]m5tation 0 soon  
increas$ to su* a degree z to be        
p]ceptible ?r\gh ! :ole audi5ce1 & (    
:i*1 to speak--aft] ! mann] (           
,montesquieu--! effect 0 augm5t$ by     
itself4 ,9 ! sc5e betwe5 ! two good     
little folks1 ?is effect 0 complete4    
,!re is no clapp+ ( h&s be=e ! k+2 !re=e
 ev]y?+ 0 he>d1 :i* 0 advantage\s to !  
au?or & ! piece4 ,i he>d ab\t me a      
:isp]+ ( wom51 :o appe>$ z beautiful z  
angels4 ,!y said to ea* o!r 9 a l[      
voice3 ,?is is *>m+3 ,t is ravi%+3 ,!re 
is n a s\nd :i* does n g to ! he>t4 ,!  
pleasure ( giv+ ?is emotion to s _m     
amiable p]sons mov$ me to te>s2 & ^! ,i 
c\ld n conta9 9 ! fir/ duo1 :5 ,i rem>k$
 t ,i 0 n ! only p]son :o wept4 ,i      
collect$ myself = a mom5t1 on recollect+
 ! conc]t ( ,m4 de ,treitor5s4 ,?is     
rem9isc5ce _h ! effect ( ! slave :o held
 ! cr[n ov] ! head ( ! g5]al :o         

triumph$1 b my reflection 0 %ort1 & ,i  
soon ab&on$ myself )\t int]ruption to ! 
pleasure ( enjoy+ my success4 ,h[ev]1 ,i
 am c]ta9 ! voluptu\sness ( ! sex 0 m   
pr$om9ant ?an ! vanity ( ! au?or1 & _h  
none b m5 be5 pres5t1 ,i c]ta9ly %\ld n 
h _h ! incessant desire ,i felt ( cat*+ 
on my lips ! delici\s te>s ,i _h caus$  
to fl[4 ,i h kn[n pieces excite m lively
 admiration1 b ,i nev] saw s complete1  
delightful1 & affect+ an intoxication ( 
! s5ses reign1 dur+ a :ole              
repres5tation1 especially at c\rt1 & at 
a fir/ p]=mance4 ,!y :o saw ?is mu/     
recollect x1 = x has nev] yet be5       
equall$4  ,! same ev5+ ! ,duke d'       
,aumont s5t to desire me to be at !     
palace ! next day at elev5 o'clock1 :5  
he w\ld pres5t me to ! k+4 ,m4 de ,cury1
 :o deliv]$ me ! message1 add$ t he     
?\ght a p5sion 0 int5d$1 & t 8 maje/y   
wi%$ to ann\nce x to me himself4 ,w x be
 believ$ t ! night ( s brilliant a day 0
 = me a night ( angui% & p]plexity8 ,my 
fir/ idea1 aft] t ( be+ pres5t$1 0 t (  

my frequ5tly want+ to retire2 ?is _h    
made me suff] v consid]ably at ! !atre1 
& might torm5t me ! next day :5 ,i %\ld 
be 9 ! gall]y1 or 9 ! k+'s ap>tm5t1     
among/ all ! great1 wait+ = ! pass+ ( 8 
maje/y4 ,my infirmity 0 ! pr9cipal cause
 :i* prev5t$ me f mix+ 9 polite         
companies1 & enjoy+ ! conv]sation ( !   
fair4 ,! idea alone ( ! situation 9 :i* 
?is want might place me1 0 suffici5t to 
produce x to su* a degree z to make me  
fa9t away1 or to recur to means to :i*1 
9 my op9ion1 dea? 0 mu* pref]able4 ,none
 b p]sons :o are acqua9t$ ) ?is         
situation c judge ( ! horror :i* be+    
expos$ to ! risk ( x inspires4  ,i !n   
suppos$ myself be=e ! k+1 pres5t$ to 8  
maje/y1 :o deign$ to /op & speak to me4 
,9 ?is situation1 ju/ness ( expression &
 pres5ce ( m9d 7 peculi>ly necess>y 9   
answ]+4 ,w\ld my timidity :i* disconc]ts
 me 9 pres5ce ( any /rang] :atev]1 h be5
 %ak5 (f 9 pres5ce ( ! ,k+ ( ,france2 or
 w\ld x h suff]$ me in/antly to make    
*oice ( prop] expressions8 ,i wi%$1 )\t 

lay+ aside ! au/]e mann] ,i _h adopt$1  
to %[ myself s5sible ( ! honor done me  
by s great a mon>*1 & 9 a h&some & m]it$
 eulogium to convey "s great & useful   
tru?4 ,i c\ld n prep>e a suitable answ] 
)\t exactly kn[+ :at 8 maje/y 0 to say  
to me2 & _h ?is be5 ! case1 ,i 0 c]ta9  
t1 9 8 pres5ce1 ,i %\ld n recollect a ^w
 ( :at ,i _h previ\sly m$itat$4 ,:at1   
said ,i1 w become ( me 9 ?is mom5t1 &   
be=e ! :ole c\rt1 if1 9 my confusion1   
any ( my /upid expressions %\ld escape  
me8 ,?is dang] al>m$ & t]rifi$ me4 ,i   
trembl$ to su* a degree t at all ev5ts  
,i 0 det]m9$ n to expose myself to x4   
,i lo/1 x is true1 ! p5sion :i* 9 "s    
measure 0 (f]$ me2 b ,i at ! same "t    
exempt$ myself f ! yoke x w\ld h impos$4
 ,adieu1 tru?1 lib]ty1 & c\rage6 ,h[    
%\ld ,i aft]w>ds h d>$ to speak (       
dis9t]e/$ness & indep5d5ce8 ,_h ,i      
receiv$ ! p5sion ,i mu/ ei!r h become a 
flatt]] or rema9$ sil5t2 &1 moreov]1 :o 
w\ld h insur$ to me ! paym5t ( x6 ,:at  
/eps %\ld ,i h be5 "u ! necessity (     

tak+6 ,h[ _m p mu/ ,i h solicit$6 ,i    
%\ld h _h m tr\ble & anxi\s c>es 9      
pres]v+ ?an 9 do+ )\t x4 ,!re=e1 ,i     
?\ght ,i act$ accord+ to my pr9ciples by
 refus+1 & sacrific+ appe>ances to      
reality4 ,i communicat$ my resolution to
 ,grimm1 :o said no?+ aga9/ x4 ,to o!rs 
,i alleg$ my ill /ate ( heal?1 & left ! 
c\rt 9 ! morn+4  ,my dep>ture made "s   
noise1 & 0 g5]ally condemn$4 ,my reasons
 c\ld n be kn[n to ev]ybody1 x 0 !re=e  
easy to accuse me ( fooli% pride1 & ?us 
n irritate ! jeal\sy ( su* z felt !y    
w\ld n h act$ z ,i _h done4 ,! next day 
,jelyotte wrote me a note1 9 :i* he /at$
 ! success ( my piece1 & ! pleasure x _h
 af=d$ ! k+4 ,all day long1 said he1 8  
maje/y s+s1 ) ! wor/ voice 9 8 k+dom3   
',j'ai p]du mon s]viteur3 ,j'ai p]du t\t
 mon bonheur4' ,he likewise add$1 t 9 a 
=tnight ! ,dev9 0 to be p]=m$ a second  
"t2 :i* confirm$ 9 ! eyes ( ! public !  
complete success ( ! fir/4  ,two days   
aft]w>ds1 ab\t n9e o'clock 9 ! ev5+1 z  
,i 0 go+ to sup ) ,madam ,d',ep9ay1 ,i  

p]ceiv$ a hackney-coa* pass by ! door4  
,somebody )9 made a sign to me to       
approa*4 ,i did s1 & got into x1 & f\nd 
! p]son to be ,did]ot4 ,he spoke ( !    
p5sion ) m w>m? ?an1 ^u su* a subject1  
,i %\ld h expect$ f a philosoph]4 ,he   
did n blame me = hav+ be5 unwill+ to be 
pres5t$ to ! k+1 b sev]ely reproa*$ me )
 my indiff]5ce ab\t ! p5sion4 ,he obs]v$
 t al?\gh on my own acc\nt ,i might be  
dis9t]e/$1 ,i ought n to be s on t (    
,madam ,vasseur & h] daught]2 t x 0 my  
duty to seize e means ( provid+ = _!    
subsi/5ce2 & t z1 aft] all1 x c\ld n be 
said ,i _h refus$ ! p5sion1 he ma9ta9$  
,i ought1 s9ce ! k+ seem$ dispos$ to    
grant x to me1 to solicit & obta9 x by  
"o means or ano!r4 ,al?\gh ,i 0 oblig$  
to him = 8 good wi%es1 ,i c\ld n reli% 8
 maxims1 :i* produc$ a w>m dispute1 !   
fir/ ,i ev] _h ) him4 ,all our disputes 
7 ( ?is k9d1 he prescrib+ to me :at he  
pret5d$ ,i ought to d1 & ,i def5d+      
myself because ,i 0 ( a diff]5t op9ion4 
,x 0 late :5 we p>t$4 ,i w\ld h tak5 him

 to supp] at ,madam d' ,ep9ay's1 b he   
refus$ to g2 &1 not)/&+ all ! ef=ts :i* 
at diff]5t times ! desire ( unit+ ^? ,i 
love induc$ me to make1 to prevail ^u   
him to see h]1 ev5 t ( conduct+ h] to 8 
door :i* he kept %ut aga9/ u1 he        
con/antly refus$ to d x1 & nev] spoke ( 
h] b ) ! utmo/ contempt4 ,x 0 n until   
aft] ,i _h qu>rell$ ) bo? t !y became   
acqua9t$ & t he began to speak honorably
 ( h]4  ,f ?is "t ,did]ot & ,grimm seem$
 to h und]tak5 to ali5ate f me !        
gov]nesses1 by giv+ !m to und]/& t if !y
 7 n 9 easy circum/ances ! fault 0 my   
own1 & t !y nev] w\ld be s ) me4 ,!y    
endeavor$ to prevail on !m to leave me1 
promis+ !m ! privilege = retail+ salt1 a
 snuff %op1 & ,i "k n :at o!r advantages
 by means ( ! influ5ce ( ,madam d'      
,ep9ay4 ,!y likewise wi%$ to ga9 ov]    
,duclos & d',holba*1 b ! =m] con/antly  
refus$ _! proposals4 ,i _h at ! "t "s   
intimation ( :at 0 go+ =w>d1 b ,i 0 n   
fully acqua9t$ ) ! :ole until long      
aft]w>ds2 & ,i frequ5tly _h reason to   

lam5t ! effects ( ! bl9d & indiscreet   
zeal ( my fri5ds1 :o1 9 my ill /ate (   
heal?1 /riv+ to r$uce me to ! mo/       
melan*oly solitude1 endeavor$1 z !y     
imag9$1 to r5d] me happy by ! means :i*1
 ( all o!rs1 7 ! mo/ prop] to make me   
mis]able4  ,9 ! c>nival foll[+ !        
conclusion ( ! ye> #agec1 ! ,dev9 0     
p]=m$ at ,p>is1 & 9 ?is int]val ,i _h   
suffici5t "t to compose ! ov]ture &     
div]tissem5t4 ,?is div]tissem5t1 su* z x
 /&s engrav$1 0 to be 9 action f !      
beg9n+ to ! end1 & 9 a cont9u$ subject1 
:i* 9 my op9ion1 af=d$ v agreeable      
repres5tations4 ,b :5 ,i propos$ ?is    
idea at ! op]a-h\se1 nobody w\ld s mu* z
 he>k5 to me1 & ,i 0 oblig$ to tack     
toge!r music & dances 9 ! usual mann]3  
on ?is acc\nt ! div]tissem5t1 al?\gh    
full ( *>m+ ideas :i* d n dim9i% !      
beauty ( sc5es1 succe$$ b v middl+ly4 ,i
 suppress$ ! recitative ( ,jelyotte1 &  
sub/itut$ my own1 su* z ,i _h fir/      
compos$ x1 & z x is n[ engrav$2 & ?is   
recitative a little aft] ! ,fr5* mann]1 

,i confess1 drawl$ out1 in/ead (        
pron\nc$ by ! actors1 f> f %ock+ ! e>s (
 any p]son1 equally succe$$ ) ! airs1 & 
seem$ 9 ! judgm5t ( ! public to possess 
z mu* musical m]it4 ,i d$icat$ my piece 
to ,duclos1 :o _h giv5 x 8 protection1 &
 decl>$ x %\ld be my only d$ication4 ,i 
h1 h[ev]1 ) 8 cons5t1 writt5 a second2 b
 he mu/ h ?\ght himself m honor$ by !   
exception1 ?an if ,i _h n writt5 a      
d$ication to any p]son4  ,i c\ld relate 
_m anecdotes conc]n+ ?is piece1 b ?+s ( 
great] importance prev5t me f ent]+ into
 a detail ( !m at pres5t4 ,i %all p]haps
 resume ! subject 9 a supplem5t4 ,!re is
 h[ev] "o :i* ,i _c omit1 z x relates to
 ! great] "p ( :at is to foll[4 ,i "o   
day exam9$ ! music ( ,d',holba*1 9 8    
closet4 ,aft] hav+ look$ ov] _m diff]5t 
k9ds1 he said1 %[+ me a collection (    
pieces = ! h>psi*ord3 ,^! 7 compos$ =   
me2 !y are full ( ta/e & h>mony1 &      
unkn[n to ev]ybody b myself4 ,y ought to
 make a selection f !m = y\r            
div]tissem5t4 ,hav+ 9 my head m subjects

 ( airs & symphonies ?an ,i c\ld make   
use (1 ,i 0 n ! lea/ anxi\s to h any (  
84 ,h[ev]1 he press$ me s mu*1 t1 f a   
motive ( complaisance1 ,i *ose a        
,pa/oral1 :i* ,i abridg$ & conv]t$ into 
a trio1 = ! entry ( ! companions (      
,colette4 ,"s mon?s aft]w>ds1 & :il/ !  
,dev9 /ill cont9u$ to be p]=m$1 go+ into
 ,grimms ,i f\nd sev]al p ab\t 8        
h>psi*ord1 :5ce he ha/ily rose on my    
arrival4 ,z ,i accid5tly look$ t[>d 8   
music /&1 ,i !re saw ! same collection (
 ! ,b>on d',holba*1 op5$ precisely at ! 
piece he _h prevail$ ^u me to take1     
assur+ me at ! same "t t x %\ld nev] g  
out ( 8 h&s4 ,"s "t aft]w>ds1 ,i aga9   
saw ! collection op5 on ! h>pis*ord (   
,m4 d',pap9ay1 "o day :5 he gave a      
little conc]t4 ,nei!r ,grimm1 nor       
anybody else1 ev] spoke to me ( ! air1 &
 my reason = m5tion+ x "h is t "s "t    
aft]w>ds1 a rumor 0 spread t ,i 0 n !   
au?or ( ,dev94 ,z ,i nev] made a great  
progress 9 ! practical "p1 ,i am p]suad$
 t _h x n be5 = my diction>y ( music1 x 

w\ld 9 ! end h be5 said ,i did n und]/& 
composition4  ,sometime be=e ! ',dev9 du
 ,village' 0 p]=m$1 a company ( ,italian
 ,b\ffons _h arriv$ at ,p>is1 & 7 ord]$ 
to p]=m at ! op]a-h\se1 )\t ! effect !y 
w\ld produce !re be+ =ese54 ,al?\gh !y 7
 dete/able1 & ! or*e/ra1 at t "t v      
ignorant1 mutilat$ at w ! pieces !y     
gave1 !y did ! ,fr5* op]a an injury t w 
nev] be repair$4 ,! comp>ison ( ^! two  
k9ds ( music1 he>d ! same ev5+ 9 ! same 
!atre1 op5$ ! e>s ( ! ,fr5*2 nobody c\ld
 endure _! languid music aft] ! m>k$ &  
lively acc5ts ( ,italian composition2 & 
! mom5t ! ,b\ffons _h done1 ev]ybody w5t
 away4 ,! manag]s 7 oblig$ to *ange !   
ord] ( repres5tation1 & let ! p]=mance (
 ! ,b\ffons be ! la/4 ',egle ,pigmalion'
 & 'le ,sylphe' 7 successively giv53    
no?+ c\ld be> ! comp>ison4 ,! ',dev9 du 
,village' 0 ! only piece t did x1 & ?is 
0 /ill reli%$ aft] 'la ,s]va ,padrona'4 
,:5 ,i compos$ my int]lude1 my head 0   
fill$ ) ^! pieces1 & !y gave me ! fir/  
idea ( x3 ,i 01 h[ev]1 f> f imag9+ !y   

w\ld "o day be pass$ 9 review by ! side 
( my composition4 ,_h ,i be5 a plagi>i/1
 h[ _m pilf]+s w\ld h be5 manife/1 & :at
 c>e w\ld h be5 tak5 to po9t !m out to !
 public6 ,b ,i _h done no?+ ( ! k9d4    
,all attempts to discov] any su* ?+ 7   
fruitless3 no?+ 0 f\nd 9 my music :i* l$
 to ! recollection ( t ( any o!r p]son2 
& my :ole composition comp>$ ) ! pret5d$
 orig9al1 0 f\nd to be z new z ! musical
 *>act]s ,i _h inv5t$4 ,_h ,mondonville 
or ,rameau und]gone ! same ordeal1 !y   
w\ld h lo/ mu* ( _! sub/ance4  ,!       
,b\ffons acquir$ = ,italian music v w>m 
p>tisans4 ,all ,p>is 0 divid$ into two  
p>ties1 ! viol5ce ( :i* 0 great] ?an if 
an affair ( /ate or religion _h be5 9   
"q4 ,"o ( !m1 ! mo/ p[]ful & num]\s1    
compos$ ( ! great1 ( m5 ( =tune1 & !    
ladies1 support$ ,fr5* music2 ! o!r1 m  
lively & haughty1 & full] ( en?usiasm1 0
 compos$ ( real connoisseurs1 & m5 (    
tal5ts1 & g5ius4 ,?is little gr\p       
assembl$ at ! op]a-h\se1 "u ! box       
belong+ to ! que54 ,! o!r p>ty fill$ up 

! re/ ( ! pit & ! !atre2 b ! heads 7    
mo/ly assembl$ "u ! box ( 8 maje/y4     
,h5ce ! p>ty names ( ,co9 du ,roi1 ,co9 
de la ,re9e1--,k+'s corn]1--,que5's     
corn]4--!n 9 great celebrity4 ,!        
dispute1 z x became m animat$1 produc$  
sev]al pamphlets4 ,! k+'s corn] aim$ at 
pleasantry2 x 0 laugh$ at by ! ',petit  
,prophete'4 ,x attempt$ to reason2 !    
',lettre sur la ,musique ,francoise'    
refut$ its reason+4 ,^! two little      
productions1 ! =m] ( :i* 0 by ,grimm1 ! 
latt] by myself1 are ! only ones :i* h  
outliv$ ! qu>rel2 all ! re/ are long    
s9ce =gott54  ,b ! ,petit ,prophete1    
:i*1 not)/&+ all ,i c\ld say1 0 = a long
 "t attribut$ to me1 0 consid]$ z a     
pleasantry1 & did n produce ! lea/      
inconv5i5ce to ! au?or3 :]eas ! lett] on
 music 0 tak5 s]i\sly1 & inc5s$ aga9/ me
 ! :ole nation1 :i* ?\ght itself (f5d$  
by ?is attack on its music4 ,!          
description ( ! incr$ible effect ( ?is  
pamphlet w\ld be wor?y ( ! p5 (         
,tacitus4 ,! great qu>rel betwe5 !      

p>liam5t & ! cl]gy 0 !n at its height4  
,! p>liam5t _h j be5 exil$2 ! f]m5tation
 0 g5]al2 ev]y?+ ann\nc$ an approa*+    
insurrection4 ,! pamphlet appe>$3 f t   
mom5t e o!r qu>rel 0 =gott52 ! p]il\s   
/ate ( ,fr5* music 0 ! only ?+ by :i* ! 
att5tion ( ! public 0 engag$1 & ! only  
insurrection 0 aga9/ myself4 ,?is 0 s   
g5]al t x has nev] s9ce be5 totally     
calm$4 ,at c\rt1 ! ba/ile or bani%m5t 0 
absolutely det]m9$ on1 & a 'lettre de   
ca*et' w\ld h be5 issu$ _h n ,m4 de     
,voy] set =? 9 ! mo/ =cible mann] t su* 
a /ep w\ld be ridicul\s4 ,7 ,i to say   
?is pamphlet probably prev5t$ a         
revolution1 ! read] w\ld imag9e ,i 0 9 a
 dream4 ,x is1 h[ev]1 a fact1 ! tru? (  
:i* all ,p>is c atte/1 x be+ no m ?an   
fifte5 ye>s s9ce ! date ( ?is s+ul>     
fact4 ,al?\gh no attempts 7 made on my  
lib]ty1 ,i suff]$ num]\s insults2 & ev5 
my life 0 9 dang]4 ,! musicians ( ! op]a
 or*e/ra humanely resolv$ to murd] me z 
,i w5t out ( ! !atre4 ,( ?is ,i receiv$ 
in=mation2 b ! only effect x produc$ on 

me 0 to make me m assidu\sly att5d !    
op]a2 & ,i did n le>n1 until a          
consid]able "t aft]w>ds1 t ,m4 ,ancelot1
 (fic] 9 ! m\squetaires1 & :o _h a      
fri5d%ip = me1 _h prev5t$ ! effect ( ?is
 conspiracy by giv+ me an escort1 :i*1  
unkn[n to myself1 accompani$ me until ,i
 0 out ( dang]4 ,! direction ( !        
op]a-h\se _h j be5 giv5 to ! hotel de   
ville4 ,! fir/ exploit p]=m$ by !       
,prevot des ,m>*&s1 0 to take f me my   
fre$om ( ! !atre1 & ?is 9 ! mo/ uncivil 
mann] possible4 ,admission 0 publicly   
refus$ me on my pres5t+ myself1 s t ,i 0
 oblig$ to take a ticket t ,i might n t 
ev5+ h ! mortification to return z ,i _h
 come4 ,?is inju/ice 0 ! m %ameful1 z ! 
only price ,i _h set on my piece :5 ,i  
gave x to ! manag]s 0 a p]petual fre$om 
( ! h\se2 = al?\gh ?is 0 a "r1 common to
 e au?or1 & :i* ,i enjoy$ "u a d\ble    
title1 ,i expressly /ipulat$ = x 9      
pres5ce ( ,m4 ,duclos4 ,x is true1 !    
treasur] br\ght me fifty l\is1 = :i* ,i 
_h n ask$2 b1 besides ! smallness ( !   

sum1 comp>$ ) t :i*1 accord+ to ! rule1 
e/abli%$ 9 su* cases1 0 due to me1 ?is  
paym5t _h no?+ 9 common ) ! "r ( entry  
=m]ly grant$1 & :i* 0 entirely indep5d5t
 ( x4 ,!re 0 9 ?is behavior su* a       
complication ( iniquity & brutality1 t !
 public1 not)/&+ its animosity aga9/ me1
 :i* 0 !n at its highe/1 0 univ]sally   
%ock$ at x1 & _m p]sons :o insult$ me ! 
prec$+ ev5+1 ! next day exclaim$ 9 ! op5
 !atre1 t x 0 %ameful ?us to deprive an 
au?or ( 8 "r ( entry2 & p>ticul>ly "o :o
 _h s well des]v$ x1 & 0 entitl$ to     
claim x = himself & ano!r p]son4 ,s true
 is ! ,italian prov]b3 ,ogn'un ama la   
giu/izia 9 cosa d'altrui4--,e "o loves  
ju/ice 9 ! affairs ( ano!r4  ,9 ?is     
situation ! only ?+ ,i _h to d 0 to dem&
 my "w1 s9ce ! price ,i _h agre$ to     
receive = x 0 refus$ me4 ,= ?is purpose 
,i wrote to ,m4 d',arg5son1 :o _h !     
dep>tm5t ( ! op]a4 ,i likewise enclos$  
to him a memoir :i* 0 unansw]able2 b    
?is1 z well z my lett]1 0 ineffectual1 &
 ,i receiv$ no answ] to ei!r4 ,! sil5ce 

( t unju/ man hurt me extremely1 & did n
 contribute to increase ! v mod]ate good
 op9ion ,i always _h ( 8 "* & abilities4
 ,x 0 9 ?is mann] ! manag]s kept my     
piece :ile !y depriv$ me ( t = :i* ,i _h
 giv5 x !m4 ,f ! weak to ! /rong1 su* an
 act w\ld be a !ft3 f ! /rong to ! weak1
 x is no?+ m ?an an appropriation (     
prop]ty1 )\t a "r4  ,) respect to !     
pecuni>y advantages ( ! "w1 al?\gh x did
 n produce me a f\r? "p ( ! sum x w\ld h
 done to any o!r p]son1 !y 7 consid]able
 en\gh to enable me to subsi/ sev]al    
ye>s1 & to make am5ds = ! ill success ( 
copy+1 :i* w5t on b v sl[ly4 ,i receiv$ 
a hundr$ l\is f ! k+2 fifty f ,madam de 
,pompad\r1 = ! p]=mance at ,bellevue1   
:]e %e h]self play$ ! "p ( ,col92 fifty 
f ! op]a2 & five hundr$ livres f        
,pissot1 = ! engrav+2 s t ?is int]lude1 
:i* co/ me no m ?an five or six weeks'  
application1 produc$1 not)/&+ ! ill     
treatm5t ,i receiv$ f ! manag]s & my    
/upidity at c\rt1 almo/ z mu* money z my
 ',emilius'1 :i* _h co/ me tw5ty ye>s'  

m$itation1 & ?ree ye>s' labor4 ,b ,i    
paid de>ly = ! pecuni>y ease ,i receiv$ 
f ! piece1 by ! inf9ite vexations x     
br\ght ^u me4 ,x 0 ! g]m ( ! secret     
jeal\sies :i* did n appe> until a long  
"t aft]w>ds4 ,aft] its success ,i did n 
rem>k1 ei!r 9 ,grimm1 ,did]ot1 or any ( 
! m5 ( lett]s1 ) :om ,i 0 acqua9t$1 !   
same cordiality & frankness1 nor t      
pleasure 9 see+ me1 ,i _h previ\sly     
exp]i5c$4 ,! mom5t ,i appe>$ at !       
b>on's1 ! conv]sation 0 no long] g5]al2 
! company divid$ into small p>ties2     
:isp]$ into ea* o!r's e>s2 & ,i rema9$  
alone1 )\t kn[+ to :om to address       
myself4 ,i endur$ = a long "t ?is       
mortify+ neglect2 &1 p]ceiv+ t ,madam   
d',holba*1 :o 0 mild & amiable1 /ill    
receiv$ me well1 ,i bore ) ! vulg>ity ( 
h] husb& z long z x 0 possible4 ,b he "o
 day attack$ me )\t reason or pret5ce1 &
 ) su* brutality1 9 pres5ce ( ,did]ot1  
:o said n a ^w1 & ,m>g5cy1 :o s9ce t "t 
has (t5 told me h[ mu* he admir$ !      
mod]ation & mildness ( my answ]s1 t1 at 

l5g? driv5 f 8 h\se1 by ?is unwor?y     
treatm5t1 ,i took leave ) a resolution  
nev] to ent] x aga94 ,?is did n1 h[ev]1 
prev5t me f speak+ honorably ( him & 8  
h\se1 :il/ he cont9ually express$       
himself relative to me 9 ! mo/ insult+  
t]ms1 call+ me t 'petit cui/re'3 !      
little college p$ant1 or s]vitor 9 a    
college1 )\t1 h[ev]1 be+ able to *>ge me
 ) hav+ done ei!r to himself or any     
p]son to :om he 0 atta*$ ! mo/ trifl+   
injury4 ,9 ?is mann] he v]ifi$ my fe>s &
 pr$ictions4 ,i am ( op9ion my pret5d$  
fri5ds w\ld h p>don$ me = hav+ writt5   
books1 & ev5 excell5t ones1 because ?is 
m]it 0 n =eign to !mselves2 b t !y c\ld 
n =give my writ+ an op]a1 nor !         
brilliant success x _h2 because !re 0 n 
"o among/ !m capable ( ! same1 nor 9 a  
situation to aspire to l honors4        
,duclos1 ! only p]son sup]ior to        
jeal\sy1 seem$ to become m atta*$ to me3
 he introduc$ me to ,mademoiselle       
,qu9ault1 9 ^: h\se ,i receiv$ polite   
att5tion1 & civility to z great an      

extreme1 z ,i _h f\nd a want ( x 9 t (  
,m4 d',holba*4  ,:il/ ! p]=mance ( !    
',dev9 du ,village' 0 cont9u$ at !      
op]a-h\se1 ! au?or ( x _h an advantage\s
 negotiation ) ! manag]s ( ! ,fr5*      
com$y4 ,n hav+1 dur+ sev5 or eight ye>s1
 be5 able to get my ',n>cissis' p]=m$ at
 ! ,italian !atre1 ,i _h1 by ! bad      
p]=mance 9 ,fr5* ( ! actors1 become     
disgu/$ ) x1 & %\ld r h _h my piece     
receiv$ at ! ,fr5* !atre ?an by !m4 ,i  
m5tion$ ?is to ,la ,none1 ! com$ian1 )  
:om ,i _h become acqua9t$1 & :o1 z      
ev]ybody kn[s1 0 a man ( m]it & an      
au?or4 ,he 0 pleas$ ) ! piece1 & promis$
 to get x p]=m$ )\t suff]+ ! "n ( !     
au?or to be kn[n2 & 9 ! meantime procur$
 me ! fre$om ( ! !atre1 :i* 0 extremely 
agreeable to me1 = ,i always pref]r$ x  
to ! two o!rs4 ,! piece 0 favorably     
receiv$1 & )\t ! au?or's "n be+ m5tion$2
 b ,i h reason to believe x 0 kn[n to ! 
actors & actresses1 & _m o!r p]sons4    
,mademoiselles ,gauff9 & ,gr&val play$ !
 amor\s p>ts2 & al?\gh ! :ole p]=mance  

01 9 my op9ion1 injudici\s1 ! piece c\ld
 n be said to be absolutely ill play$4  
,! indulg5ce ( ! public1 = :i* ,i felt  
gratitude1 surpris$ me2 ! audi5ce _h !  
pati5ce to li/5 to x f ! beg9n+ to !    
end1 & to p]mit a second repres5tation  
)\t %[+ ! lea/ sign ( disapprobation4 ,=
 my "p1 ,i 0 s we>i$ ) ! fir/1 t ,i c\ld
 n hold out to ! end2 & ! mom5t ,i left 
! !atre1 ,i w5t into ! ,cafe de         
,procope1 :]e ,i f\nd ,boissi1 & o!rs ( 
my acqua9tance1 :o _h probably be5 z mu*
 fatigu$ z myself4 ,i !re humbly or     
haughtily av[$ myself ! au?or ( ! piece1
 judg+ x z ev]ybody else _h done4 ,?is  
public av[al ( an au?or ( a piece :i* _h
 n succe$$1 0 mu* admir$1 & 0 by no     
means pa9ful to myself4 ,my self-love 0 
flatt]$ by ! c\rage ) :i* ,i made x3 &  
,i am ( op9ion1 t1 on ?is occasion1 !re 
0 m pride 9 speak+1 ?an !re w\ld h be5  
fooli% %ame 9 be+ sil5t4 ,h[ev]1 z x 0  
c]ta9 ! piece1 al?\gh insipid 9 !       
p]=mance w\ld be> to be read1 ,i _h x   
pr9t$3 & 9 ! preface1 :i* is "o ( ! be/ 

?+s ,i ev] wrote1 ,i began to make my   
pr9ciples m public ?an ,i _h be=e done4 
,i soon _h an opportunity to expla9 !m  
entirely 9 a "w ( ! greate/ importance3 
= x 01 ,i ?9k1 ?is ye>1 #agec1 t !      
programma ( ! ,academy ( ,dijon ^u !    
',orig9 ( ! ,inequality ( ,mank9d' made 
its appe>ance4 ,/ruck ) ?is great "q1 ,i
 0 surpris$ ! academy _h d>$ to propose 
x3 b s9ce x _h %[n suffici5t c\rage to d
 x1 ,i ?\ght ,i might v5ture to treat x1
 & imm$iately und]took ! discussion4  ,t
 ,i might consid] ?is gr& subject m at  
my ease1 ,i w5t to ,/4 ,g]ma9 = sev5 or 
eight days ) ,!resa1 our ho/ess1 :o 0 a 
good k9d ( woman1 & "o ( h] fri5ds4 ,i  
consid] ?is walk z "o ( ! mo/ agreeable 
ones ,i ev] took4 ,! wea!r 0 v f9e4 ,^! 
good wom5 took ^u !mselves all ! c>e &  
exp5se4 ,!resa amus$ h]self ) !m2 & ,i1 
free f all dome/ic conc]ns1 div]t$      
myself1 )\t re/ra9t1 at ! h\rs ( d9n] & 
supp]4 ,all ! re/ ( ! day w&]+ 9 ! =e/1 
,i s\ght = & f\nd !re ! image ( !       
primitive ages ( :i* ,i boldly trac$ !  

hi/ory4 ,i conf\nd$ ! pitiful lies ( m52
 ,i d>$ to unveil _! nature2 to foll[ ! 
progress ( "t1 & ! ?+s by :i* x has be5 
disfigur$2 & comp>+ ! man ( art ) !     
natural man1 to %[ !m1 9 _! pret5d$     
improvem5t1 ! real s\rce ( all _! mis]y4
 ,my m9d1 elevat$ by ^! contemplations1 
asc5d$ to ! ,div9ity1 & !nce1 see+ my   
fell[ creatures foll[ 9 ! bl9d track (  
_! prejudices t ( _! errors & mis=tunes1
 ,i cri$ out to !m1 9 a feeble voice1   
:i* !y c\ld n he>3 ,madm56 "k t all y\r 
evils proce$ f y\rselves6  ,f ^!        
m$itations result$ ! disc\rse on        
,inequality1 a "w m to ! ta/e ( ,did]ot 
?an any ( my o!r writ+s1 & 9 :i* 8      
advice 0 ( ! greate/ s]vice to me4      
,at ! "t ,i wrote ?is1 ,i _h n ! lea/   
suspicion ( !      gr& conspiracy (     
,did]ot & ,grimm4  ,o!rwise ,i %\ld     
easily      h discov]$ h[ mu* ! =m]     
abus$ my confid5ce1 by giv+      to my  
writ+s t sev]ity & melan*oly :i* 7 n to 
be      f\nd 9 !m f ! mom5ts he ceas$ to
 direct me4  ,! passage      ( !        

philosoph]1 :o argues ) himself1 & /ops 
8 e>s      aga9/ ! compla9ts ( a man 9  
di/ress1 is aft] 8 mann]3      & he gave
 me o!rs /ill m extraord9>y2 :i* ,i c\ld
 nev]      resolve to make use (4  ,b1  
attribut+1 ?is melan*oly to t      he _h
 acquir$ 9 ! dungeon ( ,v9c5nes1 & ( :i*
 !re is a      v suffici5t dose 9 8     
,clairoal1 ,i nev] once suspect$ !      
lea/ unfri5dly deal+4   ,x 01 h[ev]1    
und]/ood b by few read]s1 & n "o ( ^!   
w\ld ev] speak ( x4 ,i _h writt5 x to   
become a competitor = ! premium1 & s5t x
 away fully p]suad$ x w\ld n obta9 x2   
well conv9c$ x 0 n = productions ( ?is  
nature t academies 7 f\nd$4  ,?is       
excursion & ?is occupation enliv5$ my   
spirits & 0 ( s]vice to my heal?4       
,sev]al ye>s be=e1 torm5t$ by my        
disord]1 ,i _h entirely giv5 myself up  
to ! c>e ( physicians1 :o1 )\t alleviat+
 my suff]+s1 exhau/$ my /r5g? & de/roy$ 
my con/itution4 ,at my return f ,/4     
,g]ma91 ,i f\nd myself /rong] & p]ceiv$ 
my heal? to be improv$4 ,i foll[$ ?is   

indication1 & det]m9$ to cure myself or 
die )\t ! aid ( physicians & m$ic9e4 ,i 
bade !m =ev] adieu1 & liv$ f day to day1
 keep+ close :5 ,i f\nd myself          
indispos$1 & go+ abroad ! mom5t ,i _h   
suffici5t /r5g? to d x4 ,! mann] ( liv+ 
9 ,p>is amid/ p ( pret5sions 0 s little 
to my lik+2 ! cabals ( m5 ( lett]s1 _!  
little c&or 9 _! writ+s1 & ! air (      
importance !y gave !mselves 9 ! _w1 7 s 
odi\s to me2 ,i f\nd s little mildness1 
op5ness ( he>t & frankness 9 ! int]c\rse
 ev5 ( my fri5ds2 t1 disgu/$ ) ?is life 
( tumult1 ,i began ard5tly to wi% to    
reside 9 ! c\ntry1 & n p]ceiv+ t my     
occupation p]mitt$ me to d x1 ,i w5t to 
pass !re all ! "t ,i _h to sp>e4 ,=     
sev]al mon?s ,i w5t aft] d9n] to walk   
alone 9 ! ,bois de ,b\logne1 m$itat+ on 
subjects = future works1 & n return+    
until ev5+4  ,gauffec\rt1 ) :om ,i 0 at 
t "t extremely intimate1 be+ on acc\nt (
 8 employm5t oblig$ to g to ,g5eva1     
propos$ to me ! j\rney1 to :i* ,i       
cons5t$4 ,! /ate ( my heal? 0 su* z to  

require ! c>e ( ! gov]ness2 x 0 !re=e   
decid$ %e %\ld accompany u1 & t h] "m   
%\ld rema9 9 ! h\se4 ,aft] ?us hav+ made
 our arrangem5ts1 we set (f on ! fir/ ( 
,june1 #aged4  ,?is 0 ! p]iod :5 at !   
age ( =ty-two1 ,i = ! fir/ "t 9 my life 
felt a dim9ution ( my natural confid5ce 
to :i* ,i _h ab&on$ myself )\t res]ve or
 inconv5i5ce4 ,we _h a private c>riage1 
9 :i* ) ! same horses we travell$ v     
sl[ly4 ,i frequ5tly got out & walk$4 ,we
 _h sc>cely p]=m$ half our j\rney :5    
,!resa %[$ ! greate/ uneas9ess at be+   
left 9 ! c>riage ) ,gauffec\rt1 & :51   
not)/&+ h] remon/rances1 ,i w\ld get out
 z usual1 %e insi/$ ^u do+ ! same1 &    
walk+ ) me4 ,i *id h] = ?is caprice1 & s
 /rongly oppos$ x1 t at l5g? %e f\nd    
h]self oblig$ to decl>e to me ! cause   
:5ce x proce$$4 ,i ?\ght ,i 0 9 a dream2
 my a/oni%m5t 0 beyond expression1 :5 ,i
 le>n$ t my fri5d ,m4 de ,gauffec\rt1   
upw>ds ( sixty ye>s ( age1 crippl$ by ! 
g\t1 impot5t & exhau/$ by pleasures1 _h1
 s9ce our dep>ture1 incessantly         

endeavor$ to corrupt a p]son :o belong$ 
to 8 fri5d1 & 0 no long] "y nor h&some1 
by ! mo/ base & %ameful means1 su* z    
pres5t+ to h] a purse1 attempt+ to      
inflame h] imag9ation by ! read+ ( an   
abom9able book1 & by ! sight ( infam\s  
figures1 ) :i* x 0 fill$4 ,!resa1 full (
 indignation1 once ?rew 8 sc&al\s book  
out ( ! c>riage2 & ,i le>n$ t on ! fir/ 
ev5+ ( our j\rney1 a viol5t heada*e hav+
 oblig$ me to retire to b$ be=e supp]1  
he _h employ$ ! :ole "t ( ?is           
tete-a-tete 9 actions m wor?y ( a satyr 
?an a man ( wor? & honor1 to :om ,i     
?\ght ,i _h intru/$ my companion &      
myself4 ,:at a/oni%m5t & grief ( he>t = 
me6 ,i1 :o until !n _h believ$ fri5d%ip 
to be insep>able f e amiable & noble    
s5tim5t :i* con/itutes all its *>m1 = ! 
fir/ "t 9 my life f\nd myself "u !      
necessity ( connect+ x ) disda91 & (    
)draw+ my confid5ce f a man = :om ,i _h 
an affection1 & by :om ,i imag9$ myself 
belov$6 ,! wret* conceal$ f me 8        
turpitude2 & t ,i might n expose ,!resa1

 ,i 0 oblig$ to conceal f him my        
contempt1 & secretly to h>bor 9 my he>t 
su* s5tim5ts z 7 =eign to its nature4   
,sweet & sacr$ illusion ( fri5d%ip6     
,gauffec\rt fir/ took ! veil f be=e my  
eyes4 ,:at cruel h&s h s9ce t "t prev5t$
 x f aga9 be+ drawn ov] !m6  ,at ,lyons 
,i quitt$ ,gauffec\rt to take ! road to 
,savoy1 be+ unable to be s ne> to mamma 
)\t see+ h]4 ,i saw h]--,good ,god1 9   
:at a situation6 ,h[ contemptible6 ,:at 
rema9$ to h] ( primitive virtue8 ,0 x ! 
same ,madam de ,w>5s1 =m]ly s gay &     
lively1 to :om ! vic> ( ,pontv]re _h    
giv5 me recomm5dations8 ,h[ my he>t 0   
w\nd$6 ,! only res\rce ,i saw = h] 0 to 
quit ! c\ntry4 ,i e>ne/ly b va9ly       
repeat$ ! invitation ,i _h sev]al times 
giv5 h] 9 my lett]s to come & live      
peacefully ) me1 assur+ h] ,i w\ld      
d$icate ! re/ ( my life1 & t ( ,!resa1  
to r5d] h] happy4 ,atta*$ to h] p5sion1 
f :i*1 al?\gh x 0 regul>ly paid1 %e _h n
 = a long "t receiv$ ! lea/ advantage1  
my (f]s 7 lo/ ^u h]4 ,i aga9 gave h] a  

trifl+ "p ( ! cont5ts ( my purse1 mu*   
less ?an ,i ought to h done1 &          
consid]ably less ?an ,i %\ld h (f]$ h]  
_h n ,i be5 c]ta9 ( its n be+ ( ! lea/  
s]vice to h]self4 ,dur+ my resid5ce at  
,g5eva1 %e made a j\rney into ,*ablais1 
& came to see me at ,grange-canal4 ,%e 0
 9 want ( money to cont9ue h] j\rney3   
:at ,i _h 9 my pocket 0 insuffici5t to  
?is purpose1 b an h\r aft]w>ds ,i s5t x 
h] by ,!resa4 ,poor mamma6 ,i mu/ relate
 ?is pro( ( ! goodness ( h] he>t4 ,a    
little diamond r+ 0 ! la/ jewel %e _h   
left4 ,%e took x f h] f+]1 to put x ^u t
 ( ,!resa1 :o in/antly replac$ x ^u t   
:5ce x _h be5 tak51 kiss+ ! g5]\s h& :i*
 %e ba!d ) h] te>s4 ,ah6 ?is 0 ! prop]  
mom5t to dis*>ge my debt6 ,i %\ld h     
ab&on$ ev]y?+ to foll[ h]1 & %>e h]     
fate3 let x be :at x w\ld4 ,i did no?+ (
 ! k9d4 ,my att5tion 0 engag$ by ano!r  
atta*m5t1 & ,i p]ceiv$ ! atta*m5t ,i _h 
to h] 0 abat$ by ! sl5d] hopes !re 7 (  
r5d]+ x useful to ei!r ( u4 ,i sigh$    
aft] h]1 my he>t 0 griev$ at h]         

situation1 b ,i did n foll[ h]4 ,( all !
 remorse ,i felt ?is 0 ! /ronge/ & mo/  
la/+4 ,i m]it$ ! t]rible *a/isem5t ) :i*
 ,i h s9ce t "t incessantly be5         
ov]:elm$3 may ?is h expiat$ my          
+ratitude6 ,( ?is ,i appe> guilty 9 my  
conduct1 b my he>t has be5 too mu*      
di/ress$ by :at ,i did ev] to h be5 t ( 
an ungrateful man4  ,be=e my dep>ture f 
,p>is ,i _h sket*$ out ! d$ication ( my 
disc\rse on ! ',inequality ( ,mank9d'4  
,i f9i%$ x at ,*amb]y1 & dat$ x f t     
place1 ?9k+ t1 to avoid all *icane1 x 0 
bett] n to date x ei!r f ,france or     
,g5eva4 ,! mom5t ,i arriv$ 9 t city ,i  
ab&on$ myself to ! republican en?usiasm 
:i* _h br\ght me to x4 ,?is 0 augm5t$ by
 ! reception ,i !re met )4 ,k9dly treat$
 by p]sons ( e description1 ,i entirely 
gave myself up to a patriotic zeal1 &   
mortifi$ at be+ exclud$ f ! rights ( a  
citiz5 by ! possession ( a religion     
diff]5t f t ( my =efa!rs1 ,i resolv$    
op5ly to return to ! latt]4 ,i ?\ght !  
gospel be+ ! same = e ,*ri/ian1 & ! only

 diff]5ce 9 religi\s op9ions ! result ( 
! explanations giv5 by m5 to t :i* !y   
did n und]/&1 x 0 ! exclusive "r ( !    
sov]eign p[] 9 e c\ntry to fix ! mode ( 
wor%ip1 & ^! un9telligible op9ions2 & t 
consequ5tly x 0 ! duty ( a citiz5 to    
admit ! "o1 & con=m to ! o!r 9 ! mann]  
prescrib$ by ! law4 ,! conv]sation ( !  
encyclopa$i/s1 f> f /agg]+ my fai?1 gave
 x new /r5g? by my natural av]sion to   
disputes & p>ty4 ,! /udy ( man & !      
univ]se _h ev]y:]e %[n me ! f9al causes 
& ! wisdom by :i* !y 7 direct$4 ,! read+
 ( ! ,bible1 & especially t ( ! ,new    
,te/am5t1 to :i* ,i _h = sev]al ye>s pa/
 appli$ myself1 _h giv5 me a sov]eign   
contempt = ! base & /upid int]pretations
 giv5 to ! words ( ,jesus ,*ri/ by      
p]sons ! lea/ wor?y ( und]/&+ 8 div9e   
doctr9e4 ,9 a ^w1 philosophy1 :ile x    
atta*$ me to ! ess5tial "p ( religion1  
_h deta*$ me f ! tra% ( ! little        
=mul>ies ) :i* m5 _h r5d]$ x obscure4   
,judg+ t = a reasonable man !re 7 n two 
ways ( be+ a ,*ri/ian1 ,i 0 also (      

op9ion t 9 ea* c\ntry ev]y?+ relative to
 =m & discipl9e 0 )9 ! jurisdiction ( ! 
laws4 ,f ?is pr9ciple1 s social &       
pacific1 & :i* has br\ght ^u me su*     
cruel p]secutions1 x foll[$ t1 if ,i    
wi%$ to be a citiz5 ( ,g5eva1 ,i mu/    
become a ,prote/ant1 & con=m to ! mode (
 wor%ip e/abli%$ 9 my c\ntry4 ,?is ,i   
resolv$ ^u2 ,i moreov] put myself "u !  
in/ructions ( ! pa/or ( ! p>i% 9 :i* ,i 
liv$1 & :i* 0 )\t ! city4 ,all ,i desir$
 0 n to appe> at ! consi/ory4 ,h[ev]1 ! 
ecclesia/ical edict 0 expressly to t    
effect2 b x 0 agre$ ^u to disp5se ) x 9 
my favor1 & a commission ( five or six  
memb]s 0 nam$ to receive my pr(ession ( 
fai?4 ,un=tunately1 ! m9i/] ,p]driau1 a 
mild & an amiable man1 took x into 8    
head to tell me ! memb]s 7 rejoic$ at ! 
?\ghts ( he>+ me speak 9 ! little       
assembly4 ,?is expectation al>m$ me to  
su* a degree t hav+ night & day dur+    
?ree weeks /udi$ a little disc\rse ,i _h
 prep>$1 ,i 0 s confus$ :5 ,i ought to h
 pron\nc$ x t ,i c\ld n utt] a s+le ^w1 

& dur+ ! conf]5ce ,i _h ! appe>ance ( ! 
mo/ /upid s*oolboy4 ,! p]sons deput$    
spoke = me1 & ,i answ]$ yes & no1 l a   
blockhead2 ,i 0 aft]w>ds admitt$ to !   
communion1 & re9/at$ 9 my rights z a    
citiz54 ,i 0 enroll$ z su* 9 ! li/s (   
gu>ds1 paid by none b citiz5s &         
burgesses1 & ,i att5d$ at a c\ncil-g5]al
 extraord9>y to receive ! oa? f ! syndic
 ,muss>d4 ,i 0 s impress$ ) ! k9dness   
%[n me on ?is occasion by ! c\ncil & !  
consi/ory1 & by ! great civility &      
oblig+ behavior ( ! magi/rates1 m9i/]s &
 citiz5s1 t1 press$ by ! wor?y ,de ,luc1
 :o 0 incessant 9 8 p]suasions1 & /ill m
 s by my own incl9ation1 ,i did n ?9k ( 
go+ back to ,p>is = any o!r purpose ?an 
to break up h\sekeep+1 f9d a situation =
 ,m4 & ,madam le ,vasseur1 or provide = 
_! subsi/5ce1 & !n return ) ,!resa to   
,g5eva1 !re to settle = ! re/ ( my days4
  ,aft] tak+ ?is resolution ,i susp5d$  
all s]i\s affairs ! bett] to enjoy !    
company ( my fri5ds until ! "t ( my     
dep>ture4 ,( all ! amusem5ts ( :i* ,i   

p>took1 t ) :i* ,i 0 mo/ pleas$1 0 sail+
 r\nd ! lake 9 a boat1 ) ,de ,luc1 !    
fa!r1 8 daught]-9-law1 8 two sons1 & my 
,!resa4 ,we gave sev5 days to ?is       
excursion 9 ! f9e/ wea!r possible4 ,i   
pres]v$ a lively remembrance ( !        
situation :i* /ruck me at ! o!r         
extremity ( ! lake1 & ( :i* ,i1 "s ye>s 
aft]w>ds1 gave a description 9 my ,new  
,eloisa4  ,! pr9cipal connections ,i    
made at ,g5eva1 besides ! ,de ,lucs1 (  
:i* ,i h spok51 7 ! "y ,v]nes1 ) :om ,i 
_h already be5 acqua9t$ at ,p>is1 & (   
:om ,i !n =m$ a bett] op9ion ?an ,i     
aft]w>ds _h ( him4 ,m4 ,p]driau1 !n a   
c\ntry pa/or1 n[ pr(essor ( ,belles     
,lettres1 ^: mild & agreeable society w 
ev] make me regret ! loss ( x1 al?\gh he
 has s9ce ?\ght prop] to deta* himself f
 me2 ,m4 ,jalab]t1 at t "t pr(essor (   
natural philosophy1 s9ce become         
c\nsellor & syndic1 to :om ,i read my   
disc\rse ^u ,inequality 7b n !          
d$ication71 ) :i* he seem$ to be        
delight$2 ! ,pr(essor ,lull91 ) :om ,i  

ma9ta9$ a correspond5ce until 8 dea?1 & 
:o gave me a commission to pur*ase books
 = ! libr>y2 ! ,pr(essor ,v]net1 :o1 l  
mo/ o!r p1 turn$ 8 back ^u me aft] ,i _h
 giv5 him pro(s ( atta*m5t & confid5ce (
 :i* he ought to h be5 s5sible1 if a    
!ologian c be affect$ by any?+2 ,*app9s1
 cl]k & successor to ,gauffec\rt1 :om he
 wi%$ to supplant1 & :o1 soon aft]w>ds1 
0 himself supplant$2 ,m>cet de ,mezi]es1
 an old fri5d ( my fa!r's1 & :o _h also 
%[n himself to be m9e3 aft] hav+ well   
des]v$ ( 8 c\ntry1 he became a dramatic 
au?or1 &1 pret5d+ to be ( ! c\ncil ( two
 hundr$1 *ang$ 8 pr9ciples1 &1 be=e he  
di$1 became ridicul\s4 ,b he f :om ,i   
expect$ mo/ 0 ,m4 ,m\lt\1 a v promis+ "y
 man by 8 tal5ts & 8 brilliant          
imag9ation1 :om ,i h always lov$1 al?\gh
 8 conduct ) respect to me 0 frequ5tly  
equivocal1 &1 n )/&+ 8 be+ connect$ ) my
 mo/ cruel enemies1 :om ,i _c b look ^u 
z de/9$ to become ! def5d] ( my memory &
 ! av5g] ( 8 fri5d4  ,9 ! mid/ ( ^!     
dissipations1 ,i nei!r lo/ ! ta/e = my  

solit>y excursions1 nor ! habit ( !m2 ,i
 frequ5tly made long ones ^u ! banks ( !
 lake1 dur+ :i* my m9d1 accu/om$ to     
reflection1 did n rema9 idle2 ,i dige/$ 
! plan already =m$ ( my political       
in/itutions1 ( :i* ,i %all %ortly h to  
speak2 ,i m$itat$ a hi/ory ( ! ,valais2 
! plan ( a trag$y 9 prose1 ! subject (  
:i*1 no?+ less ?an ,lucretia1 did n     
deprive me ( ! hope ( succe$+1 al?\gh ,i
 _h d>$ aga9 to exhibit t un=tunate     
h]o9e1 :5 %e c\ld no long] be suff]$ ^u 
any ,fr5* /age4 ,i at t "t tri$ my      
abilities ) ,tacitus1 & translat$ ! fir/
 books ( 8 hi/ory1 :i* w be f\nd among/ 
my pap]s4  ,aft] a resid5ce ( f\r mon?s 
at ,g5eva1 ,i return$ 9 ! mon? ( ,octob]
 to ,p>is2 & avoid$ pass+ ?r\gh ,lyons t
 ,i might n aga9 h to travel )          
,gauffec\rt4 ,z ! arrangem5t ,i _h made 
did n require my be+ at ,g5eva until !  
spr+ foll[+1 ,i return$1 dur+ ! w9t]1 to
 my habits & occupations2 ! pr9cipal ( !
 latt] 0 exam9+ ! pro( %eets ( my       
disc\rse on ! ,inequality ( ,mank9d1 :i*

 ,i _h procur$ to be pr9t$ 9 ,holl&1 by 
! booksell] ,rey1 ) :om ,i _h j become  
acqua9t$ at ,g5eva4 ,?is "w 0 d$icat$ to
 ! republic2 b z ! publication might be 
unpleas+ to ! c\ncil1 ,i wi%$ to wait   
until x _h tak5 its effect at ,g5eva    
be=e ,i return$ ?i!r4 ,?is effect 0 n   
favorable to me2 & ! d$ication1 :i* !   
mo/ pure patriotism _h dictat$1 creat$  
me enemies 9 ! c\ncil1 & inspir$ ev5 _m 
( ! burgesses ) jeal\sy4 ,m4 ,*\et1 at t
 "t fir/ syndic1 wrote me a polite b v  
cold lett]1 :i* w be f\nd among/ my     
pap]s4 ,i receiv$ f private p]sons1     
among/ o!rs f ,du ,luc & ,de ,jalab]t1 a
 few complim5ts1 & ^! 7 all4 ,i did n   
p]ceive t a s+le ,g5evese 0 pleas$ ) !  
he>ty zeal f\nd 9 ! "w4 ,?is indiff]5ce 
%ock$ all ^? by :om x 0 rem>k$4 ,i      
rememb] t d9+ "o day at ,cli*y1 at      
,madam ,dup9's1 ) ,crommel91 resid5t f !
 republic1 & ,m4 de ,mairan1 ! latt]    
op5ly decl>$ ! c\ncil ow$ me a pres5t & 
public honors = ! "w1 & t x w\ld di%onor
 itself if x fail$ 9 ei!r4 ,crommel91 :o

 0 a black & mis*iev\s little man1 d>$ n
 reply 9 my pres5ce1 b he made a        
frightful grimace1 :i* h[ev] =c$ a smile
 f ,madam ,dup94 ,! only advantage ?is  
"w procur$ me1 besides t result+ f !    
satisfaction ( my own he>t1 0 ! title ( 
citiz5 giv5 me by my fri5ds1 aft]w>ds by
 ! public aft] _! example1 & :i* ,i     
aft]w>ds lo/ by hav+ too well m]it$4    
,?is ill success w\ld n1 h[ev]1 h       
prev5t$ my retir+ to ,g5eva1 _h n m     
p[]ful motives t5d$ to ! same effect4   
,m4 ,d',ep9ay1 wi%+ to add a w+ :i* 0   
want+ to ! *ateau ( ! ,*evrette1 0 at an
 imm5se exp5se 9 complet+ x4 ,go+ "o day
 ) ,madam ,d',ep9ay to see ! build+1 we 
cont9u$ our walk a qu>t] ( a league     
fur!r to ! res]voir ( ! wat]s ( ! p>k   
:i* jo9$ ! =e/ ( ,montmor5cy1 & :]e !re 
0 a h&some kit*5 g>d51 ) a little lodge1
 mu* out ( repair1 call$ ! ,h]mitage4   
,?is solit>y & v agreeable place _h     
/ruck me :5 ,i saw x = ! fir/ "t be=e my
 j\rney to ,g5eva4 ,i _h exclaim$ 9 my  
transport3 ,ah1 madam1 :at a delightful 

habitation6 ,?is asylum 0 purposely     
prep>$ = me4 ,madam ,d',ep9ay did n pay 
mu* att5tion to :at ,i said2 b at ?is   
second j\rney ,i 0 q surpris$ to f9d1   
in/ead ( ! old decay$ build+1 a little  
h\se almo/ entirely new1 well laid out1 
& v habitable = a little family ( ?ree  
p]sons4 ,madam ,d',ep9ay _h caus$ ?is to
 be done 9 sil5ce1 & at a v small       
exp5se1 by deta*+ a few mat]ials & "s ( 
! "w m5 f ! ca/le4 ,%e n[ said to me1 on
 rem>k+ my surprise3 ,my de>1 "h behold 
y\r asylum2 x is y :o h *os5 x2 fri5d%ip
 (f]s x to y4 ,i hope ?is w remove f y !
 cruel idea ( sep>at+ f me4 ,i d n ?9k  
,i 0 ev] 9 my life m /rongly or m       
delici\sly affect$4 ,i ba!d ) te>s !    
b5efic5t h& ( my fri5d2 & if ,i 7 n     
conqu]$ f t v in/ant ev51 ,i 0 extremely
 /agg]$4 ,madam ,d',ep9ay1 :o w\ld n be 
d5i$1 became s press+1 employ$ s _m     
means1 s _m p to circumv5t me1 proce$+  
ev5 s f> z to ga9 ov] ,madam le ,vasseur
 & h] daught]1 t at l5g? %e triumph$ ov]
 all my resolutions4 ,r5\nc+ ! idea (   

resid+ 9 my own c\ntry1 ,i resolv$1 ,i  
promis$1 to inhabit ! ,h]mitage2 &1 :il/
 ! build+ 0 dry+1 ,madam ,d',ep9ay took 
c>e to prep>e furniture1 s t ev]y?+ 0   
ready ! foll[+ spr+4  ,illu/ration3     
frontispiece  ,"o ?+ :i* greatly aid$ me
 9 det]m9+1 0 ! resid5ce ,voltaire _h   
*os5 ne> ,g5eva2 ,i easily compreh5d$   
?is man w\ld cause a revolution !re1 & t
 ,i %\ld f9d 9 my c\ntry ! mann]s1 :i*  
drove me f ,p>is2 t ,i %\ld be "u !     
necessity ( incessantly /ruggl+ h>d1 & h
 no o!r alt]native ?an t ( be+ an       
unsupportable p$ant1 a poltroon1 or a   
bad citiz54 ,! lett] ,voltaire wrote me 
on my la/ "w1 induc$ me to ins9uate my  
fe>s 9 my answ]2 & ! effect ?is produc$ 
confirm$ !m4 ,f t mom5t ,i consid]$     
,g5eva z lo/1 & ,i 0 n deceiv$4 ,i      
p]haps ought to h met ! /orm1 _h ,i     
?\ght myself capable ( resi/+ x4 ,b :at 
c\ld ,i h done alone1 timid1 & speak+   
badly1 aga9/ a man1 arrogant1 opul5t1   
support$ by ! cr$it ( ! great1 eloqu5t1 
& already ! idol ( ! wom5 & "y m58 ,i 0 

afraid ( uselessly expos+ myself to     
dang] to no purpose4 ,i li/5$ to no?+ b 
my peaceful disposition1 to my love (   
repose1 :i*1 if x !n deceiv$ me1 /ill   
cont9ues to deceive me on ! same        
subject4 ,by retir+ to ,g5eva1 ,i %\ld h
 avoid$ great mis=tunes2 b ,i h my d\bts
 :e!r1 ) all my ard5t & patriotic zeal1 
,i %\ld h be5 able to effect any?+ great
 & useful = my c\ntry4  ,tron*91 :o ab\t
 ! same "t w5t to reside at ,g5eva1 came
 aft]w>ds to ,p>is & br\ght ) him       
treasures4 ,at 8 arrival he came to see 
me1 ) ! ,*evali] ,jauc\rt4 ,madam       
,d',ep9ay _h a /rong desire to consult  
him 9 private1 b ?is x 0 n easy to d4   
,%e address$ h]self to me1 & ,i engag$  
,tron*9 to g & see h]4 ,?us "u my       
auspices !y began a connection1 :i* 0   
aft]w>ds increas$ at my exp5se4 ,su* has
 ev] be5 my de/9y3 ! mom5t ,i _h unit$  
two fri5ds :o 7 sep>ately m9e1 !y nev]  
fail$ to comb9e aga9/ me4 ,al?\gh1 9 !  
conspiracy !n =m$ by ! ,tron*9s1 !y mu/ 
all h borne me a mortal hatr$4 ,he /ill 

cont9u$ fri5dly to me3 he ev5 wrote me a
 lett] aft] 8 return to ,g5eva1 to      
propose to me ! place ( honor>y         
libr>ian4 ,b ,i _h tak5 my resolution1 &
 ! (f] did n tempt me to dep>t f x4     
,ab\t ?is "t ,i aga9 visit$ ,m4         
d',holba*4 ,my visit 0 occasion$ by !   
dea? ( 8 wife1 :i*1 z well z t ( ,madam 
,francueil1 happ5$ :il/ ,i 0 at ,g5eva4 
,did]ot1 :5 he communicat$ to me ^!     
melan*oly ev5ts1 spoke ( ! deep         
affliction ( ! husb&4 ,8 grief affect$  
my he>t4 ,i myself 0 griev$ = ! loss ( t
 excell5t woman1 & wrote to ,m4         
d',holba* a lett] ( condol5ce4 ,i =got  
all ! wrongs he _h done me1 & at my     
return f ,g5eva1 & aft] he _h made ! t\r
 ( ,france ) ,grimm & o!r fri5ds to     
alleviate 8 affliction1 ,i w5t to see   
him1 & cont9u$ my visits until my       
dep>ture = ! ,h]mitage4 ,z soon z x 0   
kn[n 9 8 circle t ,madam ,d',ep9ay 0    
prep>+ me a habitation !re1 innum]able  
s>casms1 f\nd$ ^u ! want ,i mu/ feel ( !
 flatt]y & amusem5t ( ! city1 & !       

supposition ( my n be+ able to support !
 solitude = a =tnight1 7 utt]$ aga9/ me4
 ,feel+ )9 myself h[ ,i /ood affect$1 ,i
 left him & 8 fri5ds to say :at !y      
pleas$1 & pursu$ my int5tion4 ,m4       
d',holba* r5d]$ me "s s]vices 9 f9d+ a  
place = ! old ,le ,vasseur1 :o 0 eighty 
ye>s ( age & a burd5 to 8 wife1 f :i* %e
 begg$ me to relieve h]4       ,?is is  
an in/ance ( ! trea*]y ( my memory4  ,a 
long "t      aft] ,i _h writt5 :at ,i h 
/at$ above1 ,i le>n$1 9      conv]s+ )  
my wife1 t x 0 n ,m4 d',holba*1 b ,m4 de
      ,*5onceaux1 !n "o ( ! adm9i/rators
 ( ! ,hotel ,dieu1 :o      procur$ ?is  
place = h] fa!r4  ,i _h s totally =gott5
 !      circum/ance1 & ! idea ( ,m4     
d',holba*'s hav+ done x 0 s      /rong 9
 my m9d t ,i w\ld h sworn x _h be5 him4 
,he 0 put into a h\se ( *>ity1 :]e1     
almo/ z soon z he arriv$ !re1 age & !   
grief ( f9d+ himself remov$ f 8 family  
s5t him to ! grave4 ,8 wife & all 8     
*ildr51 except ,!resa1 did n mu* regret 
8 loss4 ,b %e1 :o lov$ him t5d]ly1 has  

ev] s9ce be5 inconsolable1 & nev] =giv5 
h]self = hav+ suff]$ him1 at s advanc$  
an age1 to end 8 days 9 any o!r h\se ?an
 h] own4  ,mu* ab\t ! same "t ,i receiv$
 a visit ,i little expect$1 al?\gh x 0 f
 a v old acqua9tance4 ,my fri5d ,v5ture1
 accompani$ by ano!r man1 came ^u me "o 
morn+ by surprise4 ,:at a *ange did ,i  
discov] 9 8 p]son6 ,in/ead ( 8 =m]      
gracefulness1 he appe>$ sotti% & vulg>1 
:i* made me extremely res]v$ ) him4 ,my 
eyes deceiv$ me1 or ei!r debau*]y _h    
/upefi$ 8 m9d1 or all 8 fir/ spl5dor 0 !
 effect ( 8 y\?1 :i* 0 pa/4 ,i saw him  
almo/ ) indiff]5ce1 & we p>t$ r coolly4 
,b :5 he 0 gone1 ! remembrance ( our =m]
 connection s /rongly call$ to my       
recollection t ( my y\ng] days1 s       
*>m+ly1 s prud5tly d$icat$ to t angelic 
woman 7,madam de ,w>5s7 :o 0 n mu* less 
*ang$ ?an himself2 ! little anecdotes ( 
t happy "t1 ! romantic day ( ,t\ne pass$
 ) s mu* innoc5ce & enjoym5t betwe5 ^?  
two *>m+ girls1 f :om a kiss ( ! h& 0 ! 
only favor1 & :i*1 not)/&+ its be+ s    

trifl+1 _h left me su* lively1 affect+ &
 la/+ regrets2 & ! ravi%+ delirium ( a  
"y he>t1 :i* ,i _h j felt 9 all its =ce1
 & ( :i* ,i ?\ght ! season =ev] pa/ =   
me4 ,! t5d] remembrance ( ^! delightful 
circum/ances made me %$ te>s ov] my fad$
 y\? & its transports = ev] lo/ to me4  
,ah6 h[ _m te>s %\ld ,i h %$ ov] _! t>dy
 & fatal return _h ,i =ese5 ! evils ,i  
_h yet to suff] f !m4  ,be=e ,i left    
,p>is1 ,i enjoy$ dur+ ! w9t] :i* prec$$ 
my retreat1 a pleasure aft] my own he>t1
 & ( :i* ,i ta/$ 9 all its purity4      
,palissot1 academician ( ,nancy1 kn[n by
 a few dramatic compositions1 _h j _h "o
 ( !m p]=m$ at ,luneville be=e ! ,k+ (  
,pol&4 ,he p]haps ?\ght to make 8 c\rt  
by repres5t+ 9 8 piece a man :o _h d>$  
to ent] into a lit]>y dispute ) ! k+4   
,/anislaus1 :o 0 g5]\s1 & did n l       
satire1 0 fill$ ) indignation at !      
au?or's d>+ to be p]sonal 9 8 pres5ce4  
,! ,comte de ,tressan1 by ord] ( !      
pr9ce1 wrote to ,m4 d',alemb]t1 z well z
 to myself1 to in=m me t x 0 ! int5tion 

( 8 maje/y to h ,palissot expell$ 8     
academy4 ,my answ] 0 a /rong            
solicitation 9 favor ( ,palissot1 begg+ 
,m4 de ,tressan to int]c$e ) ! k+ 9 8   
behalf4 ,8 p>don 0 grant$1 & ,m4 de     
,tressan1 :5 he communicat$ to me !     
in=mation 9 ! "n ( ! mon>*1 add$ t !    
:ole ( :at _h pass$ %\ld be ins]t$ 9 !  
regi/] ( ! academy4 ,i repli$ t ?is 0   
less grant+ a p>don ?an p]petuat+ a     
puni%m5t4 ,at l5g?1 aft] repeat$        
solicitations1 ,i obta9$ a promise1 t   
no?+ relative to ! affair %\ld be ins]t$
 9 ! regi/]1 & t no public trace %\ld   
rema9 ( x4 ,! promise 0 accompani$1 z   
well on ! "p ( ! k+ z on t ( ,m4 de     
,tressan1 ) assurance ( e/eem & respect1
 ) :i* ,i 0 extremely flatt]$2 & ,i felt
 on ?is occasion t ! e/eem ( m5 :o are  
!mselves wor?y ( x1 produc$ 9 ! m9d a   
s5tim5t inf9itely m noble & pleas+ ?an t
 ( vanity4 ,i h transcrib$ into my      
collection ! lett]s ( ,m4 de ,tressan1 )
 my answ]s to !m3 & ! orig9al ( ! =m] w 
be f\nd among/ my o!r pap]s4  ,i am     

p]fectly aw>e t if ev] ^! memoirs become
 public1 ,i "h p]petuate ! remembrance (
 a fact ( :i* ,i w\ld wi% to efface e   
trace2 b ,i transmit _m o!rs z mu* aga9/
 my incl9ation4 ,! gr& object ( my      
und]tak+1 con/antly be=e my eyes1 & !   
indisp5sable duty ( fulfill+ x to its   
utmo/ ext5t1 w n p]mit me to be turn$   
aside by trifl+ consid]ations1 :i* w\ld 
lead me f my purpose4 ,9 my /range &    
unp>allel$ situation1 ,i owe too mu* to 
tru? to be fur!r ?an ?is indebt$ to any 
p]son :atev]4 ,!y :o wi% to "k me well  
mu/ be acqua9t$ ) me 9 e po9t ( view1 9 
e relative situation1 bo? good & bad4   
,my confessions are necess>ily connect$ 
) ^? ( _m o!r p3 ,i write bo? ) ! same  
frankness 9 ev]y?+ t relates to t :i*   
has befall5 me2 & am n oblig$ to sp>e   
any p]son m ?an myself1 al?\gh x is my  
wi% to d x4 ,i am det]m9$ always to be j
 & true1 to say ( o!rs all ! good ,i c1 
nev] speak+ ( evil except :5 x relates  
to my own conduct1 & !re is a necessity 
= my s do+4 ,:o1 9 ! situation 9 :i* !  

_w has plac$ me1 has a "r to require m  
at my h&s8 ,my confessions are n int5d$ 
to appe> dur+ my lifetime1 nor t ( ^? !y
 may disagreeably affect4 ,7 ,i ma/] (  
my own de/9y1 & t ( ! book ,i am n[     
writ+1 x %\ld nev] be made public until 
aft] my dea? & !irs4 ,b ! ef=ts :i* !   
dread ( tru? obliges my p[]ful enemies  
to make to de/roy e trace ( x1 r5d] x   
necess>y = me to d ev]y?+1 :i* ! /ricte/
 "r1 & ! mo/ sev]e ju/ice1 w p]mit1 to  
pres]ve :at ,i h writt54 ,7 !           
remembrance ( me to be lo/ at my        
dissolution1 r ?an expose any p]son     
alive1 ,i w\ld )\t a murmur suff] an    
unju/ & mom5t>y reproa*4 ,b s9ce my "n  
is to live1 x is my duty to endeavor to 
transmit ) x to po/]ity ! remembrance ( 
! un=tunate man by :om x 0 borne1 su* z 
he really 01 & n su* z 8 unju/ enemies  
incessantly endeavor$ to describe him4  
,,book ,,ix4   ,my impati5ce to inhabit 
! ,h]mitage n p]mitt+ me to wait until !
 return ( f9e wea!r1 ! mom5t my lodg+ 0 
prep>$ ,i ha/5$ to take possession ( x1 

to ! great amusem5t ( ! ',cot]ie        
,holba*ique'1 :i* publicly pr$ict$ ,i   
%\ld n be able to support solitude =    
?ree mon?s1 & t ,i %\ld unsuccessfully  
return to ,p>is1 & live !re z !y did4 ,=
 my "p1 hav+ = fifte5 ye>s be5 out ( my 
elem5t1 f9d+ myself ^u ! eve ( return+  
to x1 ,i paid no att5tion to _!         
pleasantries4 ,s9ce contr>y to my       
incl9ations1 ,i h aga9 ent]$ ! _w1 ,i h 
incessantly regrett$ my de> ,*>mettes1 &
 ! agreeable life ,i l$ !re4 ,i felt a  
natural incl9ation to retirem5t & !     
c\ntry3 x 0 impossible = me to live     
happily else:]e4 ,at ,v5ice1 9 ! tra9 ( 
public affairs1 9 ! dignity ( a k9d (   
repres5tation1 9 ! pride ( projects (   
advancem5t2 at ,p>is1 9 ! vortex ( !    
great _w1 9 ! luxury ( supp]s1 9 !      
brilliancy ( spectacles1 9 ! rays (     
spl5dor2 my groves1 rivulets1 & solit>y 
walks1 con/antly pres5t$ !mselves to my 
recollection1 int]rupt$ my ?\ght1 r5d]$ 
me melan*oly1 & made me sigh ) desire4  
,all ! labor to :i* ,i _h subject$      

myself1 e project ( ambition :i* by fits
 _h animat$ my ardor1 all _h = object   
?is happy c\ntry retirem5t1 :i* ,i n[   
?\ght ne> at h&4 ,)\t hav+ acquir$ a    
g5teel indep5d5ce1 :i* ,i _h judg$ to be
 ! only means ( accompli%+ my views1 ,i 
imag9$ myself1 9 my p>ticul> situation1 
to be able to d )\t x1 & t ,i c\ld obta9
 ! same end by a means q opposite4 ,i _h
 no regul> income2 b ,i possess$ "s     
tal5ts1 & _h acquir$ a "n4 ,my wants 7  
few1 & ,i _h fre$ myself f all ^? :i* 7 
mo/ exp5sive1 & :i* m]ely dep5d$ on     
prejudice & op9ion4 ,besides ?is1 al?\gh
 naturally indol5t1 ,i 0 labori\s :5 ,i 
*ose to be s4 & my idl5ess 0 less t ( an
 indol5t man1 ?an t ( an indep5d5t "o :o
 applies to bus9ess :5 x pleases him4   
,my pr(ession ( a copyi/ ( music 0 nei!r
 spl5did nor lucrative1 b x 0 c]ta94 ,! 
_w gave me cr$it = ! c\rage ,i _h %[n 9 
mak+ *oice ( x4 ,i might dep5d ^u hav+  
suffici5t employm5t to enable me to     
live4 ,two ?\s& livres :i* rema9$ ( !   
produce ( ! ',dev9 du ,village'1 & my   

o!r writ+s1 7 a sum :i* kept me f be+   
/rait5$1 & sev]al works ,i _h ^u ! /ocks
 promis$ me1 )\t extort+ money f !      
booksell]s1 supplies suffici5t to enable
 me to "w at my ease )\t exhau/+ myself1
 ev5 by turn+ to advantage ! leisure (  
my walks4 ,my little family1 consi/+ (  
?ree p]sons1 all ( :om 7 usefully       
employ$1 0 n exp5sive to support4       
,f9ally1 f my res\rces1 proportion$ to  
my wants & desires1 ,i might reasonably 
expect a happy & p]man5t exi/5ce1 9 t   
mann] ( life :i* my incl9ation _h induc$
 me to adopt4  ,i might h tak5 ! int]e/$
 side ( ! "q1 &1 in/ead ( subject+ my p5
 to copy+1 entirely devot$ x to works   
:i*1 f ! elevation to :i* ,i _h so>$1 & 
at :i* ,i f\nd myself capable ( cont9u+1
 might h enabl$ me to live 9 ! mid/ (   
abundance1 nay1 ev5 ( opul5ce1 _h ,i be5
 ! lea/ dispos$ to jo9 ! manoeuvres ( an
 au?or to ! c>e ( publi%+ a good book4  
,b ,i felt t writ+ = bread w\ld soon h  
ext+ui%$ my g5ius1 & de/roy$ my tal5ts1 
:i* 7 less 9 my p5 ?an 9 my he>t1 &     

solely proce$$ f an elevat$ & noble     
mann] ( ?9k+1 by :i* alone !y c\ld be   
*]i%$ & pres]v$4 ,no?+ vigor\s or great 
c come f a p5 totally v5al4 ,necessity1 
nay1 ev5 av>ice1 p]haps1 w\ld h made me 
write r rapidly ?an well4 ,if ! desire (
 success _h n l$ me into cabals1 x might
 h made me endeavor to publi% few] true 
& useful works ?an ^? :i* might be      
pleas+ to ! multitude2 & in/ead ( a     
di/+ui%$ au?or1 :i* ,i might possibly   
become1 ,i %\ld h be5 no?+ m ?an a      
scribbl]4 ,no3 ,i h always felt t !     
pr(ession ( lett]s 0 illu/ri\s 9        
proportion z x 0 less a trade4 ,x is too
 difficult to ?9k nobly :5 we ?9k = a   
livelihood4 ,to be able to d>e ev5 to   
speak great tru?s1 an au?or mu/ be      
indep5d5t ( success4 ,i gave my books to
 ! public ) a c]ta9ty ( hav+ writt5 = ! 
g5]al good ( mank9d1 )\t giv+ myself !  
lea/ conc]n ab\t :at 0 to foll[4 ,if !  
"w 0 ?r[n aside1 s mu* ! worse = su* z  
did n *oose to pr(it by x4 ,_!          
approbation 0 n necess>y to enable me to

 live1 my pr(ession 0 suffici5t to      
ma9ta9 me _h n my works _h a sale1 = :i*
 reason alone !y all sold4  ,x 0 on !   
n9? ( ,augu/1 #agef1 t ,i left cities1  
nev] to reside 9 !m aga93 = ,i d n call 
a resid5ce ! few days ,i aft]w>ds rema9$
 9 ,p>is1 ,london1 or o!r cities1 always
 on ! w+1 or contr>y to my incl9ations4 
,madam d',ep9ay came & took u all ?ree 9
 h] coa*2 h] f>m] c>t$ away my little   
baggage1 & ,i 0 put into possession !   
same day4 ,i f\nd my little retreat     
simply furni%$1 b neatly1 & ) "s ta/e4  
,! h& :i* _h l5t its aid 9 ?is furni%+  
r5d]$ x ine/imable 9 my eyes1 & ,i ?\ght
 x *>m+ to be ! gue/ ( my female fri5d 9
 a h\se ,i _h made *oice (1 & :i* %e _h 
caus$ to be built purposely = me4       
,al?\gh ! wea!r 0 cold1 & ! gr\nd       
lightly cov]$ ) sn[1 ! e>? began to     
vegetate3 violets & primroses already   
made _! appe>ance1 ! trees began to bud1
 & ! ev5+ ( my arrival 0 di/+ui%$ by !  
song ( ! night+ale1 :i* 0 he>d almo/ "u 
my w9d[1 9 a wood adjo9+ ! h\se4 ,aft] a

 light sleep1 =gett+ :5 ,i awoke my     
*ange ( abode1 ,i /ill ?\ght myself 9 ! 
,rue ,gr5elle1 :5 sudd5ly ?is w>bl+ made
 me give a />t1 & ,i exclaim$ 9 my      
transport3 ,at l5g?1 all my wi%es are   
accompli%$6 ,! fir/ ?+ ,i did 0 to ab&on
 myself to ! impression ( ! rural       
objects ) :i* ,i 0 surr\nd$4 ,in/ead (  
beg9n+ to set ?+s 9 ord] 9 my new       
habitation1 ,i began by do+ x = my      
walks1 & !re 0 n a pa?1 a copse1 a      
grove1 nor a corn] 9 ! environs ( my    
place ( resid5ce t ,i did n visit ! next
 day4 ,! m ,i exam9$ ?is *>m+ retreat1 !
 m ,i f\nd x to my wi%es4 ,?is solit>y1 
r ?an savage1 spot transport$ me 9 idea 
to ! end ( ! _w4 ,x _h /rik+ beauties   
:i* are b seldom f\nd ne> cities1 &     
nev]1 if sudd5ly transport$ ?i!r1 c\ld  
any p]son h imag9$ himself )9 f\r       
leagues ( ,p>is4  ,aft] ab&on+ myself = 
a few days to ?is rural delirium1 ,i    
began to arrange my pap]s1 & regulate my
 occupations4 ,i set ap>t1 z ,i _h      
always done1 my morn+s to copy+1 & my   

aft]noons to walk+1 provid$ ) my little 
pap] book & a p5cil1 = nev] hav+ be5    
able to write & ?9k at my ease except   
'sub dio'1 ,i _h no incl9ation to dep>t 
f ?is me?od1 & ,i 0 p]suad$ ! =e/ (     
,montmor5cy1 :i* 0 almo/ at my door1    
w\ld 9 future be my closet & /udy4 ,i _h
 sev]al works begun2 ^! ,i ca/ my eye   
ov]4 ,my m9d 0 inde$ f]tile 9 great     
projects1 b 9 ! noise ( ! city !        
execution ( !m _h gone on b sl[ly4 ,i   
propos$ to myself to use m dilig5ce :5  
,i %\ld be less int]rupt$4 ,i am (      
op9ion ,i h suffici5tly fulfill$ ?is    
int5tion2 & = a man frequ5tly ill1 (t5  
at ,la ,*evrette1 at ,ep9ay1 at         
,raubonne1 at ! ca/le ( ,montmor5cy1 at 
o!r times int]rupt$ by ! indol5t &      
curi\s1 & always employ$ half ! day 9   
copy+1 if :at ,i produc$ dur+ ! six ye>s
 ,i pass$ at ! ,h]mitage & at           
,montmor5cy be consid]$1 ,i am p]suad$ x
 w appe> t if1 9 ?is int]val1 ,i lo/ my 
"t1 x 0 n 9 idl5ess4  ,( ! diff]5t works
 ,i _h ^u ! /ocks1 t ,i _h longe/       

resolv$ 9 my m9d :i* 0 mo/ to my ta/e1  
to :i* ,i de/9$ a c]ta9 portion ( my    
life1 & :i*1 9 my op9ion1 0 to confirm !
 reputation ,i _h acquir$1 0 my         
',in/itutions ,politiques'4 ,i _h1      
f\rte5 ye>s be=e1 :5 at ,v5ice1 :]e ,i  
_h an opportunity ( rem>k+ ! defects ( t
 gov]nm5t s mu* boa/$ (1 conceiv$ ! fir/
 idea ( !m4 ,s9ce t "t my views _h      
become mu* m ext5d$ by ! hi/orical /udy 
( morality4 ,i _h p]ceiv$ ev]y?+ to be  
radically connect$ ) politics1 & t1 ^u  
:atev] pr9ciples ^! 7 f\nd$1 a p w\ld   
nev] be m ?an t :i* ! nature ( !        
gov]nm5t made !m2 !re=e ! great "q ( !  
be/ gov]nm5t possible appe>$ to me to be
 r$uc$ to ?is3 ,:at is ! nature ( a     
gov]nm5t ! mo/ prop] to =m ! mo/ virtu\s
 & enlight5$1 ! wise/ & be/ p1 tak+ !   
la/ epi!t 9 its mo/ ext5sive mean+8 ,i  
?\ght ?is "q 0 mu* if n q ( ! same      
nature ) t :i* foll[s3 ,:at gov]nm5t is 
t :i*1 by its nature1 always ma9ta9s    
itself ne>e/ to ! laws1 or lea/ deviates
 f ! laws4 ,h5ce1 :at is ! law8 & a     

s]ies ( que/ions ( simil> importance4 ,i
 p]ceiv$ ^! l$ to great tru?s1 useful to
 ! happ9ess ( mank9d1 b m especially to 
t ( my c\ntry1 :]e91 9 ! j\rney ,i _h j 
made to x1 ,i _h n f\nd notions ( laws &
 lib]ty ei!r suffici5tly j or cle>4 ,i  
_h ?\ght ?is indirect mann] (           
communicat+ ^! to my fell[-citiz5s w\ld 
be lea/ mortify+ to _! pride1 & might   
obta9 me =giv5ess = hav+ se5 a little   
fur!r ?an !mselves4  ,al?\gh ,i _h      
already labor$ five or six ye>s at ! "w1
 ! progress ,i _h made 9 x 0 n          
consid]able4 ,writ+s ( ?is k9d require  
m$itation1 leisure & tranquillity4 ,i _h
 besides writt5 ! ',in/itutions         
,politiques'1 z ! expression is1 'en    
bonne =tune'1 & _h n communicat$ my     
project to any p]son2 n ev5 to ,did]ot4 
,i 0 afraid x w\ld be ?\ght too d>+ = ! 
age & c\ntry 9 :i* ,i wrote1 & t ! fe>s 
( my fri5ds w\ld re/ra9 me f c>ry+ x    
into execution4       ,x 0 m especially 
! wise sev]ity ( ,duclos :i* inspir$    
me ) ?is fe>2 z = ,did]ot1 ,i "k n by   

:at means all my      conf]5ces ) him   
t5d$ to make me m satirical ?an my      
natural disposition incl9$ me to be4    
,?is prev5t$ me f      consult+ him ^u  
an und]tak+1 9 :i* ,i wi%$ to introduce 
no?+ b ! =ce ( reason+ )\t ! lea/       
appe>ance (      ill humor or p>tiality4
  ,! mann] ( ?is "w may be judg$ (      
by t ( ! ',contrat ,social'1 :i* is tak5
 f x4  ,i did n yet "k t x w\ld be f9i%$
 9 "t1 & 9 su* a mann] z to appe> be=e  
my decease4 ,i wi%$ fe>lessly to give to
 my subject ev]y?+ x requir$2 fully     
p]suad$ t n be+ ( a satirical turn1 &   
nev] wi%+ to be p]sonal1 ,i %\ld 9      
equity always be judg$ irrepreh5sible4  
,i und\bt$ly wi%$ fully to enjoy ! "r ( 
?9k+ :i* ,i _h by bir?2 b /ill respect+ 
! gov]nm5t "u :i* ,i liv$1 )\t ev]      
disobey+ its laws1 & v att5tive n to    
violate ! rights ( p]sons1 ,i w\ld n f  
fe> r5\nce its advantages4  ,i confess1 
ev5 t1 z a /rang]1 & liv+ 9 ,france1 ,i 
f\nd my situation v favorable 9 d>+ to  
speak ! tru?2 well kn[+ t cont9u+1 z ,i 

0 det]m9$ to d1 n to pr9t any?+ 9 !     
k+dom )\t p]mission1 ,i 0 n oblig$ to   
give to any p]son 9 x an acc\nt ( my    
maxims nor ( _! publication else:]e4 ,i 
%\ld h be5 less indep5d5t ev5 at ,g5eva1
 :]e1 9 :atev] place my books might h   
be5 pr9t$1 ! magi/rate _h a "r to       
criticise _! cont5ts4 ,?is consid]ation 
_h greatly contribut$ to make me yield  
to ! solicitations ( ,madam d',ep9ay1 & 
ab&on ! project ( fix+ my resid5ce at   
,g5eva4 ,i felt1 z ,i h rem>k$ 9 my     
,emilius1 t unless an au?or be a man (  
intrigue1 :5 he wi%es to r5d] 8 works   
really useful to any c\ntry :atsoev]1 he
 mu/ compose !m 9 "s o!r4  ,:at made me 
f9d my situation /ill m happy1 0 my be+ 
p]suad$ t ! gov]nm5t ( ,france w\ld1    
p]haps1 )\t look+ ^u me ) a v favorable 
eye1 make x a po9t to protect me1 or at 
lea/ n to di/urb my tranquillity4 ,x    
appe>$ to me a /roke ( simple1 yet      
dext]\s policy1 to make a m]it ( tol]at+
 t :i* !re 0 no means ( prev5t+2 s9ce1  
_h ,i be5 driv5 f ,france1 :i* 0 all    

gov]nm5t _h ! "r to d1 my "w w\ld /ill h
 be5 writt51 & p]haps ) less res]ve2    
:]eas if ,i 7 left undi/urb$1 ! au?or   
rema9$ to answ] = :at he wrote1 & a     
prejudice1 g5]al ?r\gh\t all ,europe1   
w\ld be de/roy$ by acquir+ ! reputation 
( obs]v+ a prop] respect = ! rights (   
p]sons4  ,!y :o1 by ! ev5t1 %all judge  
,i 0 deceiv$1 may p]haps be deceiv$ 9 _!
 turn4 ,9 ! /orm :i* has s9ce brok5 ov] 
my head1 my books s]v$ z a pret5ce1 b x 
0 aga9/ my p]son t e %aft 0 direct$4 ,my
 p]secutors gave !mselves b little      
conc]n ab\t ! au?or1 b !y wi%$ to ru9   
,jean ,jacques2 & ! greate/ evil !y f\nd
 9 my writ+s 0 ! honor !y might possibly
 d me4 ,let u n encroa* ^u ! future4 ,i 
d n "k t ?is my/]y1 :i* is /ill "o to   
me1 w h]eaft] be cle>$ up to my read]s2 
b _h my av[$ pr9ciples be5 ( a nature to
 br+ ^u me ! treatm5t ,i receiv$1 ,i    
%\ld soon] h become _! victim1 s9ce ! "w
 9 :i* ^! pr9ciples are manife/$ ) mo/  
c\rage1 n to call x audacity1 seem$ to h
 _h its effect previ\s to my retreat to 

! ,h]mitage1 )\t ,i w n only say my hav+
 receiv$ ! lea/ c5sure1 b )\t any /eps  
hav+ be5 tak5 to prev5t ! publication ( 
x 9 ,france1 :]e x 0 sold z publicly z 9
 ,holl&4 ,! ,new ,eloisa aft]w>ds appe>$
 ) ! same facility1 ,i d>e add2 ) ! same
 applause3 &1 :at seems incr$ible1 !    
pr(ession ( fai? ( ?is ,eloisa at ! po9t
 ( dea? is exactly simil> to t ( !      
,savoy>d vic>4 ,e /rong idea 9 ! ,social
 ,contract _h be5 be=e publi%$ 9 !      
disc\rse on ,inequality2 & e bold op9ion
 9 ,emilius previ\sly f\nd 9 ,eloisa4   
,?is unre/ra9$ fre$om did n excite !    
lea/ murmur aga9/ ! fir/ two works2     
!re=e x 0 n t :i* gave cause to x aga9/ 
! latt]4  ,ano!r und]tak+ mu* ( ! same  
k9d1 b ( :i* ! project 0 m rec5t1 !n    
engag$ my att5tion3 ?is 0 ! extract ( ! 
works ( ! ,abbe de ,sa9t ,pi]re1 ( :i*1 
hav+ be5 l$ away by ! ?read ( my        
n>rative1 ,i h n hi!rto be5 able to     
speak4 ,! idea 0 sugge/$ to me1 aft] my 
return f ,g5eva1 by ! ,abbe ,malby1 n   
imm$iately f himself1 b by !            

int]position ( ,madam ,dup91 :o _h "s   
int]e/ 9 engag+ me to adopt x4 ,%e 0 "o 
( ! ?ree or f\r pretty wom5 ( ,p>is1 (  
:om ! ,abbe de ,sa9t ,pi]re _h be5 !    
spoil$ *ild1 & al?\gh %e _h n decid$ly  
_h ! pref]5ce1 %e _h at lea/ p>tak5 ( x 
) ,madam d',aiguillon4 ,%e pres]v$ = !  
memory ( ! good man a respect & an      
affection :i* did honor to !m bo?2 & h] 
self-love w\ld h be5 flatt]$ by see+ !  
/ill-born works ( h] fri5d br\ght to    
life by h] secret>y4 ,^! works conta9$  
excell5t ?+s1 b s badly told t ! read+ (
 !m 0 almo/ insupportable2 & x is       
a/oni%+ ! ,abbe de ,sa9t ,pi]re1 :o     
look$ ^u 8 read]s z s*oolboys1 %\ld     
nev]!less h spok5 to !m z m51 by !      
little c>e he took to induce !m to give 
him a he>+4 ,x 0 = ?is purpose t ! "w 0 
propos$ to me z useful 9 itself1 & v    
prop] = a man labori\s 9 manoeuvre1 b   
idle z an au?or1 :o f9d+ ! tr\ble ( ?9k+
 v fatigu+1 pref]r$1 9 ?+s :i* pleas$   
him1 ?r[+ a light ^u & ext5d+ ! ideas ( 
o!rs1 to produc+ any himself4 ,besides1 

n be+ conf9$ to ! functions ( a         
translator1 ,i 0 at lib]ty sometimes to 
?9k = myself2 & ,i _h x 9 my p[] to give
 su* a =m to my "w1 t _m important tru?s
 w\ld pass 9 x "u ! "n ( ! ,abbe de     
,sa9t ,pi]re1 mu* m safely ?an "u m9e4  
,! und]tak+ also 0 n trifl+2 ! bus9ess 0
 no?+ less ?an to read & m$itate        
tw5ty-?ree volumes1 diffuse1 confus$1   
full ( long n>rations & p]iods1         
repetitions1 & false or little views1 f 
among/ :i* x 0 necess>y to select "s few
 t 7 good & useful1 & suffici5tly       
enc\rag+ to enable me to support !      
pa9ful labor4 ,i frequ5tly wi%$ to h    
giv5 x up1 & %\ld h done s1 c\ld ,i h   
got x (f my h&s ) a great grace2 b :5 ,i
 receiv$ ! manuscripts ( ! abbe1 :i* 7  
giv5 to me by 8 nephew1 ! ,comte de     
,sa9t ,pi]re1 ,i _h1 by ! solicitation (
 ,/4 ,lamb]t1 9 "s measure engag$ to    
make use ( !m1 :i* ,i mu/ ei!r h done1  
or h giv5 !m back4 ,x 0 ) ! =m] int5tion
 ,i _h tak5 ! manuscripts to !          
,h]mitage1 & ?is 0 ! fir/ "w to :i* ,i  

propos$ to d$icate my leisure h\rs4  ,i 
_h likewise 9 my own m9d project$ a     
?ird1 ! idea ( :i* ,i ow$ to !          
obs]vations ,i _h made ^u myself & ,i   
felt ! m dispos$ to und]take ?is "w1 z  
,i _h reason to hope ,i c\ld make x a   
truly useful "o1 & p]haps1 ! mo/ s ( any
 t c\ld be (f]$ to ! _w1 7 ! execution  
equal to ! plan ,i _h laid d[n4 ,x has  
be5 rem>k$ t mo/ m5 are 9 ! c\rse ( _!  
lives frequ5tly unlike !mselves1 & seem 
to be trans=m$ into o!rs v diff]5t f :at
 !y 74 ,x 0 n to e/abli% a ?+ s g5]ally 
kn[n t ,i wi%$ to write a book2 ,i _h a 
new] & m important object4 ,?is 0 to    
se>* = ! causes ( ^! v>iations1 &1 by   
conf9+ my obs]vations to ^? :i* dep5d on
 ourselves1 to demon/rate 9 :at mann] x 
might be possible to direct !m1 9 ord]  
to r5d] u bett] & m c]ta9 ( our         
dispositions4 ,= x is und\bt$ly m pa9ful
 to an hone/ man to resi/ desires       
already =m$1 & :i* x is 8 duty to       
subdue1 ?an to prev5t1 *ange1 or modify 
! same desires 9 _! s\rce1 7 he capable 

( trac+ !m to x4 ,a man "u temptation   
resi/s once because he has /r5g? ( m9d1 
he yields ano!r "t because ?is is       
ov]come2 _h x be5 ! same z be=e he w\ld 
aga9 h triumph$4  ,by exam9+ )9 myself1 
& se>*+ 9 o!rs :at c\ld be ! cause ( ^! 
diff]5t mann]s ( be+1 ,i discov]$ t1 9 a
 great measure !y dep5d$ on ! ant]ior   
impressions ( ext]nal objects2 & t1     
cont9ually modifi$ by our s5ses &       
organs1 we1 )\t kn[+ x1 bore 9 our      
ideas1 s5tim5ts1 & ev5 actions1 ! effect
 ( ^! modifications4 ,! /rik+ & num]\s  
obs]vations ,i _h collect$ 7 beyond all 
mann] ( dispute1 & by _! natural        
pr9ciple seem$ prop] to furni% an       
ext]ior regim51 :i* v>i$ accord+ to     
circum/ances1 might place & support !   
m9d 9 ! /ate mo/ favorable to virtue4 ,f
 h[ _m mi/akes w\ld reason be pres]v$1  
h[ _m vices w\ld be /ifl$ 9 _! bir?1 7 x
 possible to =ce animal economy to favor
 moral ord]1 :i* x s frequ5tly di/urbs6 
,climate1 seasons1 s\nds1 colors1 light1
 d>kness1 ! elem5ts1 ailm5ts1 noise1    

sil5ce1 motion1 re/1 all act on ! animal
 ma*9e1 & consequ5tly on ! m9d3 all (f] 
a ?\s& means1 almo/ c]ta9 ( direct+ 9 _!
 orig9 ! s5tim5ts by :i* we suff]       
ourselves to be gov]n$4 ,su* 0 !        
fundam5tal idea ( :i* ,i _h already made
 a sket* ^u pap]1 & :5ce ,i hop$ = an   
effect ! m c]ta91 9 favor ( p]sons well 
dispos$1 :o1 s9c]ely lov+ virtue1 7     
afraid ( _! own weakness1 z x appe>$ to 
me easy to make ( x a book z agreeable  
to read z x 0 to compose4 ,i h1 h[ev]1  
appli$ myself b v little to ?is "w1 !   
title ( :i* 0 to h be5 ',morale         
,s5sitive' ou le ,mat]ialisme du        
,sage4----,int]ruptions1 ! cause ( :i* w
 soon appe>1 prev5t$ me f cont9u+ x1 & !
 fate ( ! sket*1 :i* is m connect$ ) my 
own ?an x may appe> to be1 w h]eaft] be 
se54  ,besides ?is1 ,i _h = "s "t       
m$itat$ a sy/em ( education1 ( :i*      
,madam de ,*5onceaux1 al>m$ = h] son by 
t ( h] husb&1 _h desir$ me to consid]4  
,! au?ority ( fri5d%ip plac$ ?is object1
 al?\gh less 9 itself to my ta/e1 ne>]  

to my he>t ?an any o!r4 ,on :i* acc\nt  
?is subject1 ( all ^? ( :i* ,i h j      
spok51 is ! only "o ,i c>ri$ to its     
utmo/ ext5t4 ,! end ,i propos$ to myself
 9 treat+ ( x %\ld1 ,i ?9k1 h procur$ ! 
au?or a bett] fate4 ,b ,i w n "h        
anticipate ?is melan*oly subject4 ,i    
%all h too mu* reason to speak ( x 9 !  
c\rse ( my "w4  ,^! diff]5t objects (f]$
 me subjects ( m$itation = my walks2 =1 
z ,i believ$ ,i _h already obs]v$1 ,i am
 unable to reflect :5 ,i am n walk+3 !  
mom5t ,i /op1 ,i ?9k no m1 & z soon z ,i
 am aga9 9 motion my head resumes its   
work+s4 ,i _h1 h[ev]1 provid$ myself ) a
 "w = ! closet ^u ra9y days4 ,?is 0 my  
diction>y ( music1 :i* my scatt]$1      
mutilat$1 & un%ap5 mat]ials made x      
necess>y to rewrite almo/ entirely4 ,i  
_h ) me "s books necess>y to ?is        
purpose2 ,i _h sp5t two mon?s 9 mak+    
extracts f o!rs1 ,i _h borr[$ f ! k+'s  
libr>y1 :5ce ,i 0 p]mitt$ to take sev]al
 to ! ,h]mitage4 ,i 0 ?us provid$ )     
mat]ials = compos+ 9 my ap>tm5t :5 !    

wea!r did n p]mit me to g out1 & my     
copy+ fatigu$ me4 ,?is arrangem5t 0 s   
conv5i5t t x made x turn to advantage z 
well at ! ,h]mitage z at ,montmor5cy1 & 
aft]w>ds ev5 at ,moti]s1 :]e ,i complet$
 ! "w :il/ ,i 0 engag$ 9 o!rs1 &        
con/antly f\nd a *ange ( occupation to  
be a real relaxation4  ,dur+ a          
consid]able "t ,i exactly foll[$ !      
di/ribution ,i _h prescrib$ myself1 &   
f\nd x v agreeable2 b z soon z ! f9e    
wea!r br\ght ,madam d',ep9ay m frequ5tly
 to ,ep9ay1 or to ! ,*]vette1 ,i f\nd t 
att5tions1 9 ! fir/ in/ance natural to  
me1 b :i* ,i _h n consid]$ 9 my s*eme1  
consid]ably d]ang$ my projects4 ,i h    
already obs]v$ t ,madam d',ep9ay _h _m  
amiable qualities2 %e s9c]ely lov$ h]   
fri5ds2 s]v$ !m ) zeal2 &1 n sp>+ = !m  
ei!r "t or pa9s1 c]ta9ly des]v$ on _! "p
 e att5tion 9 return4 ,i _h hi!rto      
dis*>g$ ?is duty )\t consid]+ x z "o1 b 
at l5g? ,i f\nd t ,i _h giv5 myself a   
*a9 ( :i* no?+ b fri5d%ip prev5t$ me f  
feel+ ! weight1 & ?is 0 /ill aggravat$  

by my dislike to num]\s societies4      
,madam d' ,ep9ay took advantage ( ^!    
circum/ances to make me a proposition   
seem+ly agreeable to me1 b :i* 0 m s to 
h]self2 ?is 0 to let me "k :5 %e 0      
alone1 or _h b little company4 ,i       
cons5t$1 )\t p]ceiv+ to :at a degree ,i 
engag$ myself4 ,! consequ5ce 0 t ,i no  
long] visit$ h] at my own h\r--b at h]s1
 & t ,i nev] 0 c]ta9 ( be+ ma/] ( myself
 = a day toge!r4 ,?is con/ra9t          
consid]ably dim9i%$ ! pleasure ,i _h 9  
go+ to see h]4 ,i f\nd ! lib]ty %e _h s 
frequ5tly promis$ 0 giv5 me ^u no o!r   
condition ?an t ( my nev] enjoy+ x2 &   
once or twice :5 ,i wi%$ to d ?is !re 7 
s _m messages1 notes1 & al>ms relative  
to my heal?1 t ,i p]ceiv$ t ,i c\ld h no
 excuse b be+ conf9$ to my b$1 = n      
imm$iately runn+ to h] ^u ! fir/        
intimation4 ,x 0 necess>y ,i %\ld submit
 to ?is yoke1 & ,i did x1 ev5 m         
volunt>ily ?an c\ld be expect$ f s great
 an enemy to dep5d5ce3 ! s9c]e atta*m5t 
,i _h to ,madam ,d',ep9ay prev5t+ me1 9 

a great measure1 f feel+ ! inconv5i5ce )
 :i* x 0 accompani$4 ,%e1 on h] "p1     
fill$ up1 well or ill1 ! void :i* !     
abs5ce ( h] usual circle left 9 h]      
amusem5ts4 ,?is = h] 0 b a v sl5d]      
supplem5t1 al?\gh pref]able to absolute 
solitude1 :i* %e c\ld n support4 ,%e _h 
! means ( do+ x mu* m at h] ease aft] %e
 began ) lit]ature1 & at all ev5ts to   
write novels1 lett]s1 com$ies1 tales1 & 
o!r tra% ( ! same k9d4 ,b %e 0 n s mu*  
amus$ 9 writ+ ^! z 9 read+ !m2 & %e nev]
 scribbl$ ov] two or ?ree pages--at "o  
sitt+--)\t be+ previ\sly assur$ ( hav+1 
at lea/1 two or ?ree b5evol5t auditors  
at ! end ( s mu* labor4 ,i seldom _h !  
honor ( be+ "o ( ! *os5 few except by   
means ( ano!r4 ,:5 alone1 ,i 01 = ! mo/ 
"p1 consid]$ z a ciph] 9 ev]y?+2 & ?is n
 only 9 ! company ( ,madam ,d',ep9ay1 b 
9 t ( ,m4 d',holba*1 & 9 e place :]e    
,grimm gave ! 'ton'4 ,?is nullity 0 v   
conv5i5t to me1 except 9 a tete-a-tete1 
:5 ,i knew n :at c\nt5ance to put on1 n 
d>+ to speak ( lit]ature1 ( :i* x 0 n = 

me to say a ^w2 nor ( gallantry1 be+ too
 timid1 & fe>+1 m ?an dea?1 !           
ridicul\sness ( an old gallant2 besides 
t1 ,i nev] _h su* an idea :5 9 ! company
 ( ,madam ,d',ep9ay1 & t x p]haps w\ld  
nev] h occurr$ to me1 _h ,i pass$ my    
:ole life ) h]2 n t h] p]son 0 9 ! lea/ 
disagreeable to me2 on ! contr>y1 ,i    
lov$ h] p]haps too mu* z a fri5d to d x 
z a lov]4 ,i felt a pleasure 9 see+ &   
speak+ to h]4 ,h] conv]sation1 al?\gh   
agreeable en\gh 9 a mix$ company1 0     
un9t]e/+ 9 private2 m9e1 n m elegant or 
ent]ta9+ ?an h] own1 0 no great amusem5t
 to h]4 ,a%am$ ( be+ long sil5t1 ,i     
endeavor$ to enliv5 our tete-a-tete &1  
al?\gh ?is frequ5tly fatigu$ me1 ,i 0   
nev] disgu/$ ) x4 ,i 0 happy to %[ h]   
little att5tions1 & gave h] little      
frat]nal kisses1 :i* seem$ n to be m    
s5sual to h]self2 ^! 7 all4 ,%e 0 v ?91 
v pale1 & _h a bosom :i* resembl$ ! back
 ( h] h&4 ,?is defect alone w\ld h be5  
suffici5t to mod]ate my mo/ ard5t       
desires2 my he>t nev] c\ld di/+ui% a    

woman 9 a p]son :o _h x2 & besides o!r  
causes useless to m5tion1 always made me
 =get ! sex ( ?is lady4  ,hav+ resolv$  
to con=m to an assiduity :i* 0 necess>y1
 ,i imm$iately & volunt>ily ent]$ ^u x1 
& = ! fir/ ye> at lea/1 f\nd x less     
bur!nsome ?an ,i c\ld h expect$4 ,madam 
d',ep9ay1 :o commonly pass$ ! summ] 9 ! 
c\ntry1 cont9u$ !re b a "p ( ?is2 :e!r  
%e 0 m deta9$ by h] affairs 9 ,p>is1 or 
t ! abs5ce ( ,grimm r5d]$ ! resid5ce ( !
 ,*evrette less agreeable to h]1 ,i "k  
n4 ,i took ! advantage ( ! int]vals ( h]
 abs5ce1 or :5 ! company ) h] 0 num]\s1 
to enjoy my solitude ) my good ,!resa & 
h] "m1 9 su* a mann] z to ta/e all its  
*>ms4 ,al?\gh ,i _h = sev]al ye>s pa/   
be5 frequ5tly 9 ! c\ntry1 ,i seldom _h  
enjoy$ mu* ( its pleasures2 & ^!        
excursions1 always made 9 company ) p :o
 consid]$ !mselves z p]sons (           
consequ5ce1 & r5d]$ insipid by con/ra9t1
 s]v$ to increase 9 me ! natural desire 
,i _h = ru/ic pleasures4 ,! want ( ^! 0 
! m s5sible to me z ,i _h ! image ( !m  

imm$iately be=e my eyes4 ,i 0 s tir$ (  
saloons1 jets d'eau1 groves1 p>t]res1 & 
( m fatigu+ p]sons by :om !y 7 %[n2 s   
exhau/$ ) pamphlets1 h>psi*ords1 trios1 
unravell+s ( plots1 /upid bon mots1     
insipid affections1 pitiful /orytell]s1 
& great supp]s2 t :5 ,i gave a side     
glance at a poor simple haw?orn bu%1 a  
h$ge1 a b>n1 or a mead[2 :51 9 pass+    
?r\gh a hamlet1 ,i sc5t$ a good *]vil   
omelette1 & he>d at a di/ance ! burd5 ( 
a ru/ic song ( ! ,bisqui]es2 ,i wi%$ all
 r\ge1 furbel[s & amb]gris at ! devil1 &
 envy+ ! d9n] ( ! good h\sewife1 & ! w9e
 ( h] own v9ey>d1 ,i he>tily wi%$ to    
give a slap on ! *aps to ,monsieur le   
,*ef & ,monsieur le ,maitre1 :o made me 
d9e at ! h\r ( supp]1 & sup :5 ,i %\ld h
 be5 asleep1 b especially to ,messieurs 
! lackeys1 :o dev\r$ ) _! eyes ! morsel 
,i put into my m\?1 & ^u pa9 ( my dy+ ) 
?ir/1 sold me ! adult]at$ w9e ( _! ma/]1
 t5 times de>] ?an t ( a bett] quality  
w\ld h co/ me at a public h\se4  ,at    
l5g? ,i 0 settl$ 9 an agreeable &       

solit>y asylum1 at lib]ty to pass !re ! 
rema9d] ( my days1 9 t peaceful1 equal1 
& indep5d5t life = :i* ,i felt myself   
born4 ,be=e ,i relate ! effects ?is     
situation1 s new to me1 _h ^u my he>t1 x
 is prop] ,i %\ld recapitulate its      
secret affections1 t ! read] may bett]  
foll[ 9 _! causes ! progress ( ^! new   
modifications4  ,i h always consid]$ !  
day on :i* ,i 0 unit$ to ,!resa z t :i* 
fix$ my moral exi/5ce4 ,an atta*m5t 0   
necess>y = me1 s9ce t :i* %\ld h be5    
suffici5t to my he>t _h be5 s cruelly   
brok54 ,! ?ir/ aft] happ9ess is nev]    
ext+ui%$ 9 ! he>t ( man4 ,mamma 0       
advanc+ into ye>s1 & di%onor$ h]self6 ,i
 _h pro(s t %e c\ld nev] m be happy "h  
bel[2 x !re=e rema9$ to me to seek my   
own happ9ess1 hav+ lo/ all hopes (      
p>tak+ ( h]s4 ,i 0 sometimes irresolute1
 & fluctuat$ f "o idea to ano!r1 & f    
project to project4 ,my j\rney to ,v5ice
 w\ld h ?r[n me into public life1 _h !  
man ) :om1 almo/ aga9/ my incl9ation1 ,i
 0 connect$ !re _h common s5se4 ,i 0    

easily disc\rag$1 especially 9 und]tak+s
 ( l5g? & difficulty4 ,! ill success (  
?is disgu/$ me ) e o!r2 &1 accord+ to my
 old maxims1 consid]+ di/ant objects z  
deceitful allurem5ts1 ,i resolv$ 9      
future to provide = imm$iate wants1 see+
 no?+ 9 life :i* c\ld tempt me to make  
extraord9>y ef=ts4  ,x 0 precisely at   
?is "t we became acqua9t$4 ,! mild "* ( 
! good ,!resa seem$ s fitt$ to my own1 t
 ,i unit$ myself to h] ) an atta*m5t :i*
 nei!r "t nor injuries h be5 able to    
impair1 & :i* has con/antly be5 increas$
 by ev]y?+ by :i* x might h be5 expect$ 
to be dim9i%$4 ,! =ce ( ?is s5tim5t w   
h]eaft] appe> :5 ,i come to speak ( !   
w\nds %e has giv5 my he>t 9 ! height (  
my mis]y1 )\t my ev] hav+1 until ?is    
mom5t1 once utt]$ a ^w ( compla9t to any
 p]son :atev]4  ,:5 x %all be kn[n1 t   
aft] hav+ done ev]y?+1 brav$ ev]y?+1 n  
to sep>ate f h]2 t aft] pass+ ) h] tw5ty
 ye>s 9 despite ( fate & m52 ,i h 9 my  
old age made h] my wife1 )\t ! lea/     
expectation or solicitation on h] "p1 or

 promise or engagem5t on m9e1 ! _w w ?9k
 t love bord]+ ^u madness1 hav+ f ! fir/
 mom5t turn$ my head1 l$ me by degrees  
to ! la/ act ( extravagance2 & ?is w no 
long] appe> d\btful :5 ! /rong &        
p>ticul> reasons :i* %\ld =ev] h prev5t$
 me f tak+ su* a /ep are made kn[n4     
,:at1 !re=e1 w ! read] ?9k :5 ,i %all h 
told him1 ) all ! tru? he has ev] f\nd 9
 me1 t1 f ! fir/ mom5t 9 :i* ,i saw h]1 
until t :]e9 ,i write1 ,i h nev] felt ! 
lea/ love = h]1 t ,i nev] desir$ to     
possess h] m ?an ,i did to possess      
,madam de ,w>5s1 & t ! physical wants   
:i* 7 satisfi$ ) h] p]son 71 to me1     
solely ^? ( ! sex1 & by no means proce$+
 f ! individual8 ,he w ?9k t1 be+ ( a   
con/itution diff]5t f t ( o!r m51 ,i 0  
incapable ( love1 s9ce ?is 0 n "o ( !   
s5tim5ts :i* atta*$ me to wom5 ! mo/ de>
 to my he>t4 ,pati5ce1 ,o my de> read]6 
! fatal mom5t approa*es 9 :i* y w be b  
too mu* undeceiv$4  ,i fall into        
repetitions2 ,i "k x2 & ^! are necess>y4
 ,! fir/ ( my wants1 ! greate/1 /ronge/ 

& mo/ insatiable1 0 :olly 9 my he>t2 !  
want ( an intimate connection1 & z      
intimate z x c\ld possibly be3 = ?is    
reason especially1 a woman 0 m necess>y 
to me ?an a man1 a female r ?an a male  
fri5d4 ,?is s+ul> want 0 su* t ! close/ 
corporal union 0 n suffici5t3 two s\ls  
w\ld h be5 necess>y to me 9 ! same body1
 )\t :i* ,i always felt a void4 ,i ?\ght
 ,i 0 ^u ! po9t ( fill+ x up =ev]4 ,?is 
"y p]son1 amiable by a ?\s& excell5t    
qualities1 & at t "t by h] =m1 )\t !    
%ad[ ( art or coquetry1 w\ld h conf9$ )9
 h]self my :ole exi/5ce1 c\ld h]s1 z ,i 
_h hop$ x w\ld1 h be5 totally conf9$ to 
me4 ,i _h no?+ to fe> f m52 ,i am c]ta9 
( be+ ! only man %e ev] really lov$ & h]
 mod]ate passions seldom want$ ano!r1 n 
ev5 aft] ,i ceas$ 9 ?is respect to be "o
 to h]4 ,i _h no family2 %e _h "o2 & ?is
 family 0 compos$ ( individuals ^:      
dispositions 7 s diff]5t f m9e1 t ,i    
c\ld nev] make x my own4 ,?is 0 ! fir/  
cause ( my unhapp9ess4 ,:at w\ld ,i n h 
giv5 to be ! *ild ( h] "m8 ,i did ev]y?+

 9 my p[] to become s1 b c\ld nev]      
succe$4 ,i 9 va9 attempt$ to unite all  
our int]e/s3 ?is 0 impossible4 ,%e      
always creat$ h]self "o diff]5t f m9e1  
contr>y to x1 & to t ev5 ( h] daught]1  
:i* already 0 no long] sep>at$ f x4 ,%e1
 h] o!r *ildr51 & gr&-*ildr51 became s  
_m lee*es1 & ! lea/ evil ^! did to      
,!resa 0 robb+ h]4 ,! poor girl1        
accu/om$ to submit1 ev5 to h] nieces1   
suff]$ h]self to be pilf]$ & gov]n$ )\t 
say+ a ^w2 & ,i p]ceiv$ ) grief t by    
exhau/+ my purse1 & giv+ h] advice1 ,i  
did no?+ t c\ld be ( any real advantage 
to h]4 ,i endeavor$ to deta* h] f h] "m2
 b %e con/antly resi/$ su* a proposal4  
,i c\ld n b respect h] resi/ance1 &     
e/eem$ h] ! m = x2 b h] refusal 0 n on  
?is acc\nt less to ! prejudice ( u bo?4 
,ab&on$ to h] "m & ! re/ ( h] family1 %e
 0 m _! companion ?an m9e1 & r at _!    
comm& ?an mi/ress ( h]self4 ,_! av>ice 0
 less ru9\s ?an _! advice 0 p]nici\s to 
h]2 9 fact1 if1 on acc\nt ( ! love %e _h
 = me1 add$ to h] good natural          

disposition1 %e 0 n q _! slave1 %e 0    
en\gh s to prev5t 9 a great measure !   
effect ( ! good maxims ,i endeavor$ to  
in/il into h]1 &1 not)/&+ all my ef=ts1 
to prev5t our be+ unit$4  ,?us 0 x1 t   
not)/&+ a s9c]e & reciprocal atta*m5t1 9
 :i* ,i _h lavi%$ all ! t5d]ness ( my   
he>t1 ! void 9 t he>t 0 nev] completely 
fill$4 ,*ildr51 by :om ?is effect %\ld h
 be5 produc$1 7 br\ght into ! _w1 b ^!  
only made ?+s worse4 ,i trembl$ at !    
?\ght ( intru/+ !m to a family ill      
br\ght up1 to be /ill worse educat$4 ,! 
risk ( ! education ( ! f\ndl+ hospital 0
 mu* less4 ,?is reason = ! resolution ,i
 took1 mu* /rong] ?an all ^? ,i /at$ 9  
my lett] to ,madam de ,francueil1 01    
h[ev]1 ! only "o ) :i* ,i d>$ n make h] 
acqua9t$2 ,i *ose r to appe> less       
excusable ?an to expose to reproa* !    
family ( a p]son ,i lov$4 ,b by !       
conduct ( h] wret*$ bro!r1 not)/&+ all t
 c be said 9 8 def5ce1 x w be judg$ :e!r
 or n ,i ought to h expos$ my *ildr5 to 
an education simil> to 84  ,n hav+ x 9  

my p[] to ta/e 9 all its pl5titude !    
*>ms ( t intimate connection ( :i* ,i   
felt ! want1 ,i s\ght = sub/itutes :i*  
did n fill up ! void1 yet !y made x less
 s5sible4 ,n hav+ a fri5d entirely      
devot$ to me1 ,i want$ o!rs1 ^: impulse 
%\ld ov]come my indol5ce2 = ?is reason  
,i cultivat$ & /r5g!n$ my connection )  
,did]ot & ! ,abbe de ,condillac1 =m$ )  
,grimm a new "o /ill m intimate1 till at
 l5g? by ! un=tunate disc\rse1 ( :i* ,i 
h relat$ "s p>ticul>s1 ,i unexpect$ly   
f\nd myself ?r[n back into a lit]>y     
circle :i* ,i ?\ght ,i _h quitt$ =ev]4  
,my fir/ /eps conduct$ me by a new pa?  
to ano!r intellectual _w1 ! simple &    
noble economy ( :i* ,i _c contemplate   
)\t en?usiasm4 ,i reflect$ s mu* on !   
subject t ,i soon saw no?+ b error &    
folly 9 ! doctr9e ( our sages1 &        
oppression & mis]y 9 our social ord]4 ,9
 ! illusion ( my fooli% pride1 ,i ?\ght 
myself capable ( de/roy+ all impo/ure2 &
 ?9k+ t1 to make myself li/5$ to1 x 0   
necess>y my conduct %\ld agree ) my     

pr9ciples1 ,i adopt$ ! s+ul> mann] (    
life :i* ,i h n be5 p]mitt$ to cont9ue1 
! example ( :i* my pret5d$ fri5ds h nev]
 =giv5 me1 :i* at fir/ made me          
ridicul\s1 & w\ld at l5g? h r5d]$ me    
respectable1 _h x be5 possible = me to  
p]sev]e4  ,until !n ,i _h be5 good2 f t 
mom5t ,i became virtu\s1 or at lea/     
infatuat$ ) virtue4 ,?is infatuation _h 
begun 9 my head1 b aft]w>ds pass$ into  
my he>t4 ,! mo/ noble pride !re took    
root among/ ! ru9s ( extirpat$ vanity4  
,i affect$ no?+2 ,i became :at ,i appe>$
 to be1 & dur+ f\r ye>s at lea/1 :il/   
?is eff]vesc5ce cont9u$ at its greate/  
height1 !re is no?+ great & good t c    
ent] ! he>t ( man1 ( :i* ,i 0 n capable 
betwe5 heav5 & myself4 ,h5ce fl[$ my    
sudd5 eloqu5ce2 h5ce1 9 my fir/ writ+s1 
t fire really cele/ial1 :i* consum$ me1 
& :5ce dur+ =ty ye>s n a s+le sp>k _h   
escap$1 because x 0 n yet light$ up4  ,i
 0 really trans=m$2 my fri5ds &         
acqua9tance sc>cely knew me4 ,i 0 no    
long] t timid1 & r ba%ful ?an mode/ man1

 :o nei!r d>$ to pres5t himself1 nor    
utt] a ^w2 :om a s+le pleasantry        
disconc]t$1 & ^: face 0 cov]$ ) a blu% !
 mom5t 8 eyes met ^? ( a woman4 ,i      
became bold1 haughty1 intrepid1 ) a     
confid5ce ! m firm1 z x 0 simple1 &     
resid$ 9 my s\l r ?an 9 my mann]4 ,!    
contempt ) :i* my pr(\nd m$itations _h  
inspir$ me = ! mann]s1 maxims &         
prejudices ( ! age 9 :i* ,i liv$1 r5d]$ 
me pro( aga9/ ! raill]y ( ^? by :om !y 7
 possess$1 & ,i cru%$ _! little         
pleasantries ) a s5t5ce1 z ,i w\ld h    
cru%$ an insect ) my f+]s4  ,:at a      
*ange6 ,all ,p>is repeat$ ! sev]e &     
acute s>casms ( ! same man :o1 two ye>s 
be=e1 & t5 ye>s aft]w>ds1 knew n h[ to  
f9d :at he _h to say1 nor ! ^w he ought 
to employ4 ,let ! situation 9 ! _w ! mo/
 contr>y to my natural disposition be   
s\ght aft]1 & ?is w be f\nd4 ,let "o ( !
 %ort mom5ts ( my life 9 :i* ,i became  
ano!r man1 & ceas$ to be myself1 be     
recollect$1 ?is also w be f\nd 9 ! "t ( 
:i* ,i speak2 b1 in/ead ( cont9u+ only  

six days1 or six weeks1 x la/$ almo/ six
 ye>s1 & w\ld p]haps /ill cont9ue1 b = !
 p>ticul> circum/ances :i* caus$ x to   
cease1 & re/or$ me to nature1 above :i* 
,i _h wi%$ to so>4  ,! beg9n+ ( ?is     
*ange took place z soon z ,i _h quitt$  
,p>is1 & ! sight ( ! vices ( t city no  
long] kept up ! indignation ) :i* x _h  
inspir$ me4 ,i no soon] _h lo/ sight (  
m5 ?an ,i ceas$ to despise !m1 & once   
remov$ f ^? :o design$ me evil1 my hatr$
 aga9/ !m no long] exi/$4 ,my he>t1     
little fitt$ = hatr$1 piti$ _! mis]y1 & 
ev5 _! wick$ness4 ,?is situation1 m     
pleas+ b less sublime1 soon allay$ !    
ard5t en?usiasm by :i* ,i _h s long be5 
transport$2 & ,i ins5sibly1 almo/ to    
myself ev51 aga9 became fe>ful1         
complaisant & timid2 9 a ^w1 ! same     
,jean ,jacques ,i be=e _h be54  ,_h ?is 
resolution gone no fur!r ?an re/or+ me  
to myself1 all w\ld h be5 well2 b       
un=tunately x rapidly c>ri$ me away to !
 o!r extreme4 ,f t mom5t my m9d 9       
agitation pass$ ! l9e ( repose1 & its   

oscillations1 cont9ually r5ew$1 h nev]  
p]mitt$ x to rema9 "h4 ,i mu/ ent] into 
"s detail ( ?is second revolution2      
t]rible & fatal era1 ( a fate unp>allel$
 among/ mortals4  ,we 7 b ?ree p]sons 9 
our retirem5t2 x 0 !re=e natural our    
intimacy %\ld be increas$ by leisure &  
solitude4 ,?is 0 ! case betwe5 ,!resa & 
myself4 ,we pass$ 9 conv]sations 9 !    
%ade ! mo/ *>m+ & delightful h\rs1 m s  
?an any ,i _h hi!rto enjoy$4 ,%e seem$  
to ta/e ( ?is sweet int]c\rse m ?an ,i  
_h until !n obs]v$ h] to d2 %e op5$ h]  
he>t1 & communicat$ to me1 relative to  
h] "m & family1 ?+s %e _h _h resolution 
en\gh to conceal = a great l5g? ( "t4   
,bo? _h receiv$ f ,madam ,dup9 num]\s   
pres5ts1 made !m on my acc\nt1 & mo/ly =
 me1 b :i* ! cunn+ old woman1 to prev5t 
my be+ angry1 _h appropriat$ to h] own  
use & t ( h] o!r *ildr51 )\t suff]+     
,!resa to h ! lea/ %>e1 /rongly =bidd+  
h] to say a ^w to me ( ! matt]3 an ord] 
! poor girl _h obey$ ) an incr$ible     
exactness4  ,b ano!r ?+ :i* surpris$ me 

m ?an ?is _h done1 0 ! discov]y t       
besides ! private conv]sations ,did]ot &
 ,grimm _h frequ5tly _h ) bo? to        
endeavor to deta* !m f me1 9 :i*1 by    
means ( ! resi/ance ( ,!resa1 !y _h n   
be5 able to succe$1 !y _h aft]w>ds _h   
frequ5t conf]5ces ) ! "m1 ! subject (   
:i* 0 a secret to ! daught]4 ,h[ev]1 %e 
knew little pres5ts _h be5 made1 & t !re
 7 my/]i\s go+s backw>d & =w>d1 ! motive
 ( :i* 0 entirely unkn[n to h]4 ,:5 we  
left ,p>is1 ,madam le ,vasseur _h long  
be5 9 ! habit ( go+ to see ,grimm twice 
or ?rice a mon?1 & cont9u+ ) him = h\rs 
toge!r1 9 conv]sation s secret t !      
s]vant 0 always s5t out ( ! room4  ,i   
judg$ ?is motive to be ( ! same nature )
 ! project into :i* !y _h attempt$ to   
make ! daught] ent]1 by promis+ to      
procure h] & h] "m1 by means ( ,madam   
d',ep9ay1 a salt huck/]'s lic5se1 or    
snuff-%op2 9 a ^w1 by tempt+ h] ) !     
allurem5ts ( ga94 ,!y _h be5 told t1 z  
,i 0 n 9 a situation to d any?+ = !m1 ,i
 c\ld n1 on _! acc\nt1 d any?+ = myself4

 ,z 9 all ?is ,i saw no?+ b good        
int5tions1 ,i 0 n absolutely displeas$ )
 !m = x4 ,! my/]y 0 ! only ?+ :i* gave  
me pa91 especially on ! "p ( ! old      
woman1 :o moreov] daily became m        
p>asitical & flatt]+ t[>ds me4 ,?is1    
h[ev]1 did n prev5t h] f reproa*+ h]    
daught] 9 private ) tell+ me ev]y?+1 &  
lov+ me too mu*1 obs]v+ to h] %e 0 a    
fool & w\ld at l5g? be made a dupe4     
,?is woman possess$1 to a supreme       
degree1 ! art ( multiply+ ! pres5ts made
 h]1 by conceal+ f "o :at %e receiv$ f  
ano!r1 & f me :at %e receiv$ f all4 ,i  
c\ld h p>don$ h] av>ice1 b x 0          
impossible ,i %\ld =give h]             
dissimulation4 ,:at c\ld %e h to conceal
 f me ^: happ9ess %e knew pr9cipally    
consi/$ 9 t ( h]self & h] daught]8 ,:at 
,i _h done = ! daught] ,i _h done =     
myself1 b ! s]vices ,i r5d]$ ! "m m]it$ 
on h] "p "s ackn[l$gm5t4 ,%e ought1 at  
lea/1 to h ?\ght h]self oblig$ = !m to  
h] daught]1 & to h lov$ me = ! sake ( h]
 by :om ,i 0 already belov$4 ,i _h rais$

 h] f ! l[e/ /ate ( wret*$ness2 %e      
receiv$ f my h&s ! means ( subsi/5ce1 & 
0 indebt$ to me = h] acqua9tance ) !    
p]sons f :om %e f\nd means to reap      
consid]able b5efit4 ,!resa _h long      
support$ h] by h] indu/ry1 & n[ ma9ta9$ 
h] ) my bread4 ,%e ow$ ev]y?+ to ?is    
daught]1 = :om %e _h done no?+1 & h] o!r
 *ildr51 to :om %e _h giv5 m>riage      
portions1 & on ^: acc\nt %e _h ru9$     
h]self1 f> f giv+ h] ! lea/ aid1 dev\r$ 
h] sub/ance & m9e4 ,i ?\ght t 9 su* a   
situation %e ought to consid] me z h]   
only fri5d & mo/ sure protector1 & t1 f>
 f mak+ ( my own affairs a secret to me1
 & conspir+ aga9/ me 9 my h\se1 x 0 h]  
duty fai?fully to acqua9t me ) ev]y?+ 9 
:i* ,i 0 int]e/$1 :5 ?is came to h] k   
be=e x did to m9e4 ,9 :at light1 !re=e1 
c\ld ,i consid] h] false & my/]i\s      
conduct8 ,:at c\ld ,i ?9k ( ! s5tim5ts )
 :i* %e endeavor$ to inspire h] daught]8
 ,:at mon/r\s +ratitude 0 h]s1 to       
endeavor to in/il x into h] f :om ,i    
expect$ my greate/ consolation8  ,^!    

reflections at l5g? ali5at$ my          
affections f ?is woman1 & to su* a      
degree t ,i c\ld no long] look ^u h] b )
 contempt4 ,i nev]!less cont9u$ to treat
 ) respect ! "m ( ! fri5d ( my bosom1 & 
9 ev]y?+ to %[ h] almo/ ! rev]5ce ( a   
son2 b ,i mu/ confess ,i c\ld n rema9   
long ) h] )\t pa91 & t ,i nev] knew h[  
to be> re/ra9t4  ,?is is ano!r %ort     
mom5t ( my life1 9 :i* ,i approa*$ ne>  
to happ9ess )\t be+ able to atta9 x1 &  
?is by no fault ( my own4 ,_h ! "m be5 (
 a good disposition we all ?ree %\ld h  
be5 happy to ! end ( our days2 ! longe/ 
liv] only w\ld h be5 to be piti$4       
,in/ead ( :i*1 ! read] w see ! c\rse ?+s
 took1 & judge :e!r or n x 0 9 my p[] to
 *ange x4  ,madam le ,vasseur1 :o       
p]ceiv$ ,i _h got m full possession ( ! 
he>t ( ,!resa1 & t %e _h lo/ gr\nd ) h]1
 endeavor$ to rega9 x2 & in/ead ( /riv+ 
to re/ore h]self to my good op9ion by ! 
m$iation ( h] daught] attempt$ to       
ali5ate h] affections f me4 ,"o ( !     
means %e employ$ 0 to call h] family to 

h] aid4 ,i _h begg$ ,!resa n to invite  
any ( h] relations to ! ,h]mitage1 & %e 
_h promis$ me %e w\ld n4 ,^! 7 s5t = 9  
my abs5ce1 )\t consult+ h]1 & %e 0      
aft]w>ds prevail$ ^u to promise n to say
 any?+ ( ! matt]4 ,aft] ! fir/ /ep 0    
tak5 all ! re/ 7 easy4 ,:5 once we make 
a secret ( any?+ to ! p]son we love1 we 
soon make little scruple ( do+ x 9      
ev]y?+2 ! mom5t ,i 0 at ! ,*evrette !   
,h]mitage 0 full ( p :o suffici5tly     
amus$ !mselves4 ,a "m has always great  
p[] ov] a daught] ( a mild disposition2 
yet not)/&+ all ! old woman c\ld d1 %e 0
 nev] able to prevail ^u ,!resa to ent] 
into h] views1 nor to p]suade h] to jo9 
9 ! league aga9/ me4 ,= h] "p1 %e       
resolv$ ^u do+ x =ev]1 & see+ on "o side
 h] daught] & myself1 :o 7 9 a situation
 to live1 & t 0 all2 on ! o!r1 ,did]ot1 
,grimm1 ,d' ,holba* & ,madam d',ep9ay1  
:o promis$ great ?+s1 & gave "s little  
ones1 %e c\ld n conceive x 0 possible to
 be 9 ! wrong ) ! wife ( a f>m]-g5]al & 
b>on4 ,_h ,i be5 m cle> sight$1 ,i %\ld 

f ?is mom5t h p]ceiv$ ,i n\ri%$ a s]p5t 
9 my bosom4 ,b my bl9d confid5ce1 :i*   
no?+ _h yet dim9i%$1 0 su* t ,i c\ld n  
imag9e %e wi%$ to injure ! p]son %e     
ought to love4 ,?\gh ,i saw num]\s      
conspiracies =m$ on e side1 all ,i      
compla9 ( 0 ! tyranny ( p]sons :o call$ 
!mselves my fri5ds1 & :o1 z x seem$1    
w\ld =ce me to be happy 9 ! mann] !y    
%\ld po9t out1 & n 9 t ,i _h *os5 =     
myself4  ,al?\gh ,!resa refus$ to jo9 9 
! conf$]acy ) h] "m1 %e aft]w>ds kept h]
 secret4 ,= ?is h] motive 0 comm5dable1 
al?\gh ,i w n det]m9e :e!r %e did x well
 or ill4 ,two wom51 :o h secrets betwe5 
!m1 love to prattle toge!r2 ?is attract$
 !m t[>ds ea* o!r1 & ,!resa1 by divid+  
h]self1 sometimes let me feel ,i 0      
alone2 = ,i c\ld no long] consid] z a   
society t :i* we all ?ree =m$4  ,i n[   
felt ! neglect ,i _h be5 guilty ( dur+ !
 fir/ ye>s ( our connection1 9 n tak+   
advantage ( ! docility ) :i* h] love    
inspir$ h]1 to improve h] tal5ts & give 
h] k1 :i*1 by m closely connect+ u 9 our

 retirem5t w\ld agreeably h fill$ up h] 
"t & my own1 )\t once suff]+ u to       
p]ceive ! l5g? ( a private conv]sation4 
,n t ?is 0 ev] exhau/$ betwe5 u1 or t %e
 seem$ disgu/$ ) our walks2 b we _h n a 
suffici5t numb] ( ideas common to bo? to
 make ourselves a great /ore1 & we c\ld 
n incessantly talk ( our future projects
 :i* 7 conf9$ to ^? ( enjoy+ ! pleasures
 ( life4 ,! objects ar\nd u inspir$ me )
 reflections beyond ! rea* ( h]         
compreh5sion4 ,an atta*m5t ( twelve     
ye>s' /&+ _h no long] ne$ ( words3 we 7 
too well acqua9t$ ) ea* o!r to h any new
 k to acquire 9 t respect4 ,! res\rce ( 
puns1 je/s1 gossip+ & sc&al1 0 all t    
rema9$4 ,9 solitude especially is x1 t !
 advantage ( liv+ ) a p]son :o kn[s h[  
to ?9k is p>ticul>ly felt4 ,i want$ n   
?is res\rce to amuse myself ) h]2 b %e  
w\ld h /ood 9 ne$ ( x to h always f\nd  
amusem5t ) me4 ,! wor/ ( all 0 our be+  
oblig$ to hold our conv]sations :5 we   
c\ld2 h] "m1 :o become importunate1     
oblig$ me to wat* = opportunities to d  

x4 ,i 0 "u con/ra9t 9 my own h\se3 ?is  
is say+ ev]y?+2 ! air ( love 0          
prejudicial to good fri5d%ip4 ,we _h an 
intimate int]c\rse )\t liv+ 9 intimacy4 
,! mom5t ,i ?\ght ,i p]ceiv$ t ,!resa   
sometimes s\ght = a pretext to elude !  
walks ,i propos$ to h]1 ,i ceas$ to     
invite h] to accompany me1 )\t be+      
displeas$ ) h] = n f9d+ 9 !m s mu*      
amusem5t z ,i did4 ,pleasure is n a ?+  
:i* dep5ds ^u ! w4 ,i 0 sure ( h] he>t1 
& ! possession ( ?is 0 all ,i desir$4 ,z
 long z my pleasures 7 h]s1 ,i ta/$ ( !m
 ) h]2 :5 ?is ceas$ to be ! case ,i     
pref]r$ h] cont5tm5t to my own4  ,9 ?is 
mann] x 0 t1 half deceiv$ 9 my          
expectation1 lead+ a life aft] my own   
he>t1 9 a resid5ce ,i _h *os5 ) a p]son 
:o 0 de> to me1 ,i at l5g? f\nd myself  
almo/ alone4 ,:at ,i /ill want$ prev5t$ 
me f enjoy+ :at ,i _h4 ,) respect to    
happ9ess & enjoym5t1 ev]y?+ or no?+1 0  
:at 0 necess>y to me4 ,! reason ( ^!    
obs]vations w h]eaft] appe>4 ,at pres5t 
,i return to ! ?read ( my n>rative4  ,i 

imag9$ t ,i possess$ treasures 9 !      
manuscripts giv5 me by ! ,comte de ,/4  
,pi]re4 ,on exam9ation ,i f\nd !y 7 a   
little m ?an ! collection ( ! pr9t$     
works ( 8 uncle1 ) notes & corrections  
by 8 own h&1 & a few o!r trifl+ fragm5ts
 :i* _h n yet be5 publi%$4 ,i confirm$  
myself by ^! moral writ+s 9 ! idea ,i _h
 conceiv$ f "s ( 8 lett]s1 %[n me by    
,madam de ,crequi1 t he _h m s5se &     
+5uity ?an at fir/ ,i _h imag9$2 b aft] 
a c>eful exam9ation ( 8 political works1
 ,i disc]n$ no?+ b sup]ficial notions1 &
 projects t 7 useful b impracticable1 9 
consequ5ce ( ! idea f :i* ! au?or nev]  
c\ld dep>t1 t m5 conduct$ !mselves by _!
 sagacity r ?an by _! passions4 ,! high 
op9ion he _h ( ! k ( ! mod]ns _h made   
him adopt ?is false pr9ciple ( improv$  
reason1 ! basis ( all ! in/itutions he  
propos$1 & ! s\rce ( 8 political        
sophisms4 ,?is extraord9>y man1 an honor
 to ! age 9 :i* he liv$1 & to ! human   
species1 & p]haps ! only p]son1 s9ce !  
creation ( mank9d1 ^: sole passion 0 t (

 reason1 w&]$ 9 all 8 sy/ems f error to 
error1 by attempt+ to make m5 l himself1
 in/ead ( tak+ !m z !y 71 are1 & w      
cont9ue to be4 ,he labor$ = imag9>y     
be+s1 :ile he ?\ght himself employ$ = ! 
b5efit ( 8 contempor>ies4  ,all ^! ?+s  
consid]$1 ,i 0 r emb>rass$ z to ! =m ,i 
%\ld give to my "w4 ,to suff] ! au?or's 
visions to pass 0 do+ no?+ useful2 fully
 to refute !m w\ld h be5 unpolite1 z !  
c>e ( revis+ & publi%+ 8 manuscripts1   
:i* ,i _h accept$1 & ev5 reque/$1 _h be5
 intru/$ to me2 ?is tru/ _h impos$ on me
 ! obligation ( treat+ ! au?or          
honorably4 ,i at l5g? conclud$ ^u t :i* 
to me appe>$ ! mo/ dec5t1 judici\s1 &   
useful4 ,?is 0 to give sep>ately my own 
ideas & ^? ( ! au?or1 &1 = ?is purpose1 
to ent] into 8 views1 to set !m 9 a new 
light1 to amplify1 ext5d !m1 & sp>e no?+
 :i* might contribute to pres5t !m 9 all
 _! excell5ce4  ,my "w !re=e 0 to be    
compos$ ( two p>ts absolutely di/9ct3   
"o1 to expla91 9 ! mann] ,i h j m5tion$1
 ! diff]5t projects ( ! au?or2 9 ! o!r1 

:i* 0 n to appe> until ! fir/ _h _h its 
effect1 ,i %\ld h giv5 my op9ion ^u ^!  
projects1 :i* ,i confess might sometimes
 h expos$ !m to ! fate ( ! sonnet ( !   
misan?rope4 ,at ! head ( ! :ole 0 to h  
be5 ! life ( ! au?or4 ,= ?is ,i _h      
collect$ "s good mat]ials1 & :i* ,i     
flatt]$ myself ,i %\ld n spoil 9 mak+   
use ( !m4 ,i _h be5 a little acqua9t$ ) 
! ,abbe de ,/4 ,pi]re1 9 8 old age1 & ! 
v5]ation ,i _h = 8 memory w>rant$ to me1
 ^u ! :ole1 t ! comte w\ld n be         
dissatisfi$ ) ! mann] 9 :i* ,i %\ld h   
treat$ 8 relation4  ,i made my fir/     
essay on ! ',p]petual ,peace'1 ! greate/
 & mo/ elaborate ( all ! works :i*      
compos$ ! collection2 & be=e ,i ab&on$  
myself to my reflections ,i _h ! c\rage 
to read ev]y?+ ! abbe _h writt5 ^u ?is  
f9e subject1 )\t once suff]+ myself to  
be disgu/$ ei!r by 8 sl[ness or 8       
repetitions4 ,! public has se5 !        
extract1 on :i* acc\nt ,i h no?+ to say 
^u ! subject4 ,my op9ion ( x has n be5  
pr9t$1 nor d ,i "k t x ev] w be2 h[ev]1 

x 0 writt5 at ! same "t ! extract 0     
made4 ,f ?is ,i pass$ to !              
',polysynodie'1 or ,plurality (         
,c\ncils1 a "w writt5 "u ! reg5t to     
favor ! adm9i/ration he _h *os51 & :i*  
caus$ ! ,abbe de ,sa9t ,pi]re to be     
expell$ f ! academy1 on acc\nt ( "s     
rem>ks unfavorable to ! prec$+          
adm9i/ration1 & ) :i* ! ,du*ess ( ,ma9e 
& ! ,c>d9al de ,polignac 7 displeas$4 ,i
 complet$ ?is "w z ,i did ! =m]1 ) an   
extract & rem>ks2 b ,i /opp$ "h )\t     
int5d+ to cont9ue ! und]tak+ :i* ,i     
ought nev] to h begun4  ,! reflection   
:i* induc$ me to give x up naturally    
pres5ts itself1 & x 0 a/oni%+ ,i _h n   
made x soon]4  ,mo/ ( ! writ+s ( ! ,abbe
 de ,sa9t ,pi]re 7 ei!r obs]vations1 or 
conta9$ obs]vations1 on "s p>ts ( !     
gov]nm5t ( ,france1 & sev]al ( ^! 7 ( s 
free a nature1 t x 0 happy = him he _h  
made !m ) impunity4 ,b 9 ! (fices ( all 
! m9i/]s ( /ate ! ,abbe de ,/4 ,pi]re _h
 ev] be5 consid]$ z a k9d ( prea*] r ?an
 a real politician1 & he 0 suff]$ to say

 :at he pleas$1 because x appe>$ t      
nobody li/5$ to him4 ,_h ,i procur$ him 
read]s ! case w\ld h be5 diff]5t4 ,he 0 
a ,fr5*man1 & ,i 0 n "o2 & by repeat+ 8 
c5sures1 al?\gh 9 8 own "n1 ,i expos$   
myself to be ask$1 r rudely1 b )\t      
inju/ice1 :at x 0 ) :i* ,i m$dl$4       
,happily be=e ,i proce$$ any fur!r1 ,i  
p]ceiv$ ! hold ,i 0 ab\t to give !      
gov]nm5t aga9/ me1 & ,i imm$iately      
)drew4 ,i knew t1 liv+ alone 9 ! mid/ ( 
m5 m p[]ful ?an myself1 ,i nev] c\ld by 
any means :atev] be %elt]$ f ! injury !y
 *ose to d me4 ,!re 0 b "o ?+ :i* dep5d$
 ^u my own ef=ts3 ?is 01 to obs]ve su* a
 l9e ( conduct t :5ev] !y *ose to make  
me feel ! weight ( au?ority !y c\ld n d 
x )\t be+ unju/4 ,! maxim :i* induc$ me 
to decl9e proce$+ ) ! works ( ! ,abbe de
 ,sa9t ,pi]re1 has frequ5tly made me    
give up projects ,i _h mu* m at he>t4 ,p
 :o are always ready to con/rue adv]sity
 into a crime1 w\ld be mu* surpris$ 7 !y
 to "k ! pa9s ,i h tak51 t dur+ my      
mis=tunes x might nev] ) tru? be said ( 

me1 ,?\ ha/ des]v$ !m4  ,aft] hav+ giv5 
up ! manuscript1 ,i rema9$ "s "t )\t    
det]m9+ ^u ! "w :i* %\ld succe$ x1 & ?is
 int]val ( inactivity 0 de/ructive2 by  
p]mitt+ me to turn my reflections on    
myself1 = want ( ano!r object to engage 
my att5tion4 ,i _h no project = ! future
 :i* c\ld amuse my imag9ation4 ,x 0 n   
ev5 possible to =m any1 z my situation 0
 precisely t 9 :i* all my desires 7     
unit$4 ,i _h n ano!r to conceive1 & yet 
!re 0 a void 9 my he>t4 ,?is /ate 0 ! m 
cruel1 z ,i saw no o!r t 0 to be pref]r$
 to x4 ,i _h fix$ my mo/ t5d] affections
 ^u a p]son :o made me a return ( h]    
own4 ,i liv$ ) h] )\t con/ra9t1 &1 s to 
speak1 at discretion4 ,not)/&+ ?is1 a   
secret grief ( m9d nev] quitt$ me = a   
mom5t1 ei!r :5 %e 0 pres5t or abs5t4 ,9 
possess+ ,!resa1 ,i /ill p]ceiv$ %e     
want$ some?+ to h] happ9ess2 & ! sole   
idea ( my n be+ ev]y?+ to h] _h su* an  
effect ^u my m9d t %e 0 next to no?+ to 
me4  ,i _h fri5ds ( bo? sexes1 to :om ,i
 0 atta*$ by ! pure/ fri5d%ip & mo/     

p]fect e/eem2 ,i dep5d$ ^u a real return
 on _! "p1 & a d\bt ( _! s9c]ity nev]   
ent]$ my m9d2 yet ?is fri5d%ip 0 m      
torm5t+ ?an agreeable to me1 by _!      
ob/9ate p]sev]ance & ev5 by _!          
affectation1 9 oppos+ my ta/e1          
incl9ations & mann] ( liv+2 & ?is to su*
 a degree1 t ! mom5t ,i seem$ to desire 
a ?+ :i* int]e/$ myself only1 & dep5d$ n
 ^u !m1 !y imm$iately jo9$ _! ef=ts to  
oblige me to r5\nce x4 ,?is cont9u$     
desire to control me 9 all my wi%es1 ! m
 unju/1 z ,i did n s mu* z make myself  
acqua9t$ ) !irs1 became s cruelly       
oppressive1 t ,i nev] receiv$ "o ( _!   
lett]s )\t feel+ a c]ta9 t]ror z ,i op5$
 x1 & :i* 0 b too well ju/ifi$ by !     
cont5ts4 ,i ?\ght be+ treat$ l a *ild by
 p]sons y\ng] ?an myself1 & :o1 (       
!mselves1 /ood 9 great ne$ ( ! advice !y
 s prodigally be/[$ on me1 0 too mu*3   
,love me1 said ,i to !m1 z ,i love y1 b1
 9 e o!r respect1 let my affairs be z   
indiff]5t to y1 z y\rs are to me3 ?is is
 all ,i ask4 ,if !y grant$ me "o ( ^!   

two reque/s1 x 0 n ! latt]4  ,i _h a    
retir$ resid5ce 9 a *>m+ solitude1 0    
ma/] ( my own h\se1 & c\ld live 9 x 9 ! 
mann] ,i ?\ght prop]1 )\t be+ controll$ 
by any p]son4 ,?is habitation impos$ on 
me duties agreeable to dis*>ge1 b :i* 7 
indisp5sable4 ,my lib]ty 0 prec>i\s4 ,9 
a great] /ate ( subjection ?an a p]son  
at ! comm& ( ano!r1 x 0 my duty to be s 
by incl9ation4 ,:5 ,i arose 9 ! morn+1  
,i nev] c\ld say to myself1 ,i w employ 
?is day z ,i ?9k prop]4 ,&1 moreov]1    
besides my be+ subject to obey ! call ( 
,madam d',ep9ay1 ,i 0 expos$ to ! /ill m
 disagreeable importunities ( ! public &
 *ance com]s4 ,! di/ance ,i 0 at f ,p>is
 did n prev5t cr[ds ( idl]s1 n kn[+ h[  
to sp5d _! "t1 f daily break+ 9 ^u me1  
&1 )\t ! lea/ scruple1 freely dispos+ ( 
m9e4 ,:5 ,i lea/ expect$ visitors ,i 0  
unm]cifully assail$ by !m1 & ,i seldom  
made a plan = ! agreeable employm5t ( ! 
day t 0 n c\nt]act$ by ! arrival ( "s   
/rang]4  ,9 %ort1 f9d+ no real enjoym5t 
9 ! mid/ ( ! pleasures ,i _h be5 mo/    

desir\s to obta91 ,i1 by sudd5 m5tal    
transitions1 return$ 9 imag9ation to !  
s]5e days ( my y\?1 & sometimes exclaim$
 ) a sigh3 ,ah6 ?is is n ,les ,*>mettes6
  ,! recollection ( ! diff]5t p]iods (  
my life l$ me to reflect ^u t at :i* ,i 
0 arriv$1 & ,i f\nd ,i 0 already on !   
decl9e1 a prey to pa9ful disord]s1 &    
imag9$ ,i 0 approa*+ ! end ( my days )\t
 hav+1 ta/$1 9 all its pl5titude1       
sc>cely any "o ( ! pleasures aft] :i* my
 he>t _h s mu* ?ir/$1 or hav+ giv5 scope
 to ! lively s5tim5ts ,i felt x _h 9    
res]ve4 ,i _h n favor$ ev5 t intoxicat+ 
voluptu\sness ) :i* my m9d 0 ri*ly /or$1
 & :i*1 = want ( an object1 0 always    
compress$1 & nev] exhal$ b by signs4    
,h[ 0 x possible t1 ) a m9d naturally   
expansive1 ,i1 ) :om to live 0 to love1 
%\ld n hi!rto h f\nd a fri5d entirely   
devot$ to me2 a real fri5d3 ,i :o felt  
myself s capable ( be+ su* a fri5d to   
ano!r8 ,h[ c x be acc\nt$ = t ) su* w>m 
affections1 su* combu/ible s5ses1 & a   
he>t :olly made up ( love1 ,i _h n once1

 at lea/1 felt its flame = a det]m9ate  
object8 ,torm5t$ by ! want ( lov+1 )\t  
ev] hav+ be5 able to satisfy x1 ,i      
p]ceiv$ myself approa*+ ! eve ( old age1
 & ha/5+ on to dea? )\t hav+ liv$4  ,^! 
melan*oly b affect+ recollections l$ me 
to o!rs1 :i*1 al?\gh accompani$ )       
regret1 7 n :olly unsatisfactory4 ,i    
?\ght some?+ ,i _h n yet receiv$ 0 /ill 
due to me f de/9y4  ,to :at end 0 ,i    
born ) exquisite faculties8 ,to suff] !m
 to rema9 unemploy$8 ! s5tim5t (        
consci\s m]it1 :i* made me consid]      
myself z suff]+ inju/ice1 0 "s k9d (    
rep>ation1 & caus$ me to %$ te>s :i* )  
pleasure ,i suff]$ to fl[4  ,^! 7 my    
m$iations dur+ ! f9e/ season ( ! ye>1 9 
! mon? ( ,june1 9 cool %ades1 to ! songs
 ( ! night+ale1 & ! w>bl+ ( brooks4     
,ev]y?+ concurr$ 9 plung+ me into t too 
s$uc+ /ate ( indol5ce = :i* ,i 0 born1 &
 f :i* my au/]e mann]1 proce$+ f a long 
eff]vesc5ce1 %\ld =ev] h deliv]$ me4 ,i 
un=tunately rememb]$ ! d9n] ( ! ,*ateau 
de ,t\ne1 & my meet+ ) ! two *>m+ girls 

9 ! same season1 9 places mu* resembl+ t
 9 :i* ,i !n 04 ,! remembrance ( ^!     
circum/ances1 :i* ! innoc5ce t          
accompani$ !m r5d]$ to me /ill m de>1   
br\ght sev]al o!rs ( ! nature to my     
recollection4 ,i pres5tly saw myself    
surr\nd$ by all ! objects :i*1 9 my y\?1
 _h giv5 me emotion4 ,mademoiselle      
,galley1 ,mademoiselle de ,graff5ri$1   
,mademoiselle de ,breil1 ,madam ,basile1
 ,madam de ,l>nage1 my pretty s*ol>s1 & 
ev5 ! bewit*+ ,zulietta1 :om my he>t    
c\ld n =get4 ,i f\nd myself 9 ! mid/ ( a
 s]aglio ( h\ris ( my old acqua9tance1 =
 :om ! mo/ lively incl9ation 0 n new to 
me4 ,my blood became inflam$1 my head   
turn$1 not)/&+ my hair 0 almo/ gray1 & !
 grave citiz5 ( ,g5eva1 ! au/]e ,jean   
,jacques1 at =ty-five ye>s ( age1 aga9  
became ! fond %eph]d4 ,! intoxication1 )
 :i* my m9d 0 seiz$1 al?\gh sudd5 &     
extravagant1 0 s /rong & la/+1 t1 to    
enable me to recov] f x1 no?+ less ?an !
 un=ese5 & t]rible crisis x br\ght on 0 
necess>y4  ,?is intoxication1 to :atev] 

degree x 0 c>ri$1 w5t n s f> z to make  
me =get my age & situation1 to flatt] me
 t ,i c\ld /ill inspire love1 nor to    
make me attempt to communicate ! dev\r+ 
flame by :i* ev] s9ce my y\? ,i _h felt 
my he>t 9 va9 consum$4 ,= ?is ,i did n  
hope2 ,i did n ev5 desire x4 ,i knew !  
season ( love 0 pa/2 ,i knew too well 9 
:at contempt ! ridicul\s pret5sions (   
sup]annuat$ gallants 7 held1 ev] to add 
"o to ! numb]1 & ,i 0 n a man to become 
an impud5t coxcomb 9 ! decl9e ( life1   
aft] hav+ be5 s little su* dur+ ! fl[] (
 my age4 ,besides1 z a fri5d to peace1  
,i %\ld h be5 appreh5sive ( dome/ic     
diss5sions2 & ,i too s9c]ely lov$ ,!resa
 to expose h] to ! mortification ( see+ 
me ent]ta9 = o!rs m lively s5tim5ts ?an 
^? ) :i* %e inspir$ me = h]self4  ,:at  
/ep did ,i take ^u ?is occasion8 ,my    
read] w already h guess$ x1 if he has   
tak5 ! tr\ble to pay ! lea/ att5tion to 
my n>rative4 ,! impossibility ( atta9+  
real be+s ?rew me into ! regions (      
*im]a1 & see+ no?+ 9 exi/5ce wor?y ( my 

delirium1 ,i s\ght food = x 9 ! ideal   
_w1 :i* my imag9ation quickly peopl$ )  
be+s aft] my own he>t4 ,?is res\rce nev]
 came m apropos1 nor 0 x ev] s f]tile4  
,9 my cont9ual ec/asy ,i intoxicat$ my  
m9d ) ! mo/ delici\s s5tim5ts t ev]     
ent]$ ! he>t ( man4 ,entirely =gett+ !  
human species1 ,i =m$ to myself         
societies ( p]fect be+s1 ^: virtues 7 z 
cele/ial z _! beauty1 t5d] & fai?ful    
fri5ds1 su* z ,i nev] f\nd "h bel[4 ,i  
became s fond ( so>+ 9 ! empyrean1 9 !  
mid/ ( ! *>m+ objects ) :i* ,i 0        
surr\nd$1 t ,i ?us pass$ h\rs & days )\t
 p]ceiv+ x2 &1 los+ ! remembrance ( all 
o!r ?+s1 ,i sc>cely _h eat5 a morsel 9  
ha/e be=e ,i 0 impati5t to make my      
escape & run to rega9 my groves4 ,:5    
ready to dep>t = ! en*ant$ _w1 ,i saw   
arrive wret*$ mortals :o came to deta9  
me ^u e>?1 ,i c\ld nei!r conceal nor    
mod]ate my vexation2 & no long] ma/] (  
myself1 ,i gave !m s uncivil a          
reception1 t x might ju/ly be t]m$      
brutal4 ,?is t5d$ to confirm my         

reputation z a misan?rope1 f ! v cause  
:i*1 c\ld ! _w h read my he>t1 %\ld h   
acquir$ me "o ( a nature directly       
opposite4  ,9 ! mid/ ( my exultation ,i 
0 pull$ d[n l a pap] kite1 & re/or$ to  
my prop] place by means ( a sm>t attack 
( my disord]4 ,i recurr$ to ! only means
 t _h be=e giv5 me relief1 & ?us made a 
truce ) my angelic am\rs2 = besides t x 
seldom happ5s t a man is amor\s :5 he   
suff]s1 my imag9ation1 :i* is animat$ 9 
! c\ntry & b5ea? ! %ade ( trees1        
langui%es & becomes ext+ui%$ 9 a *amb]1 
& "u ! joi/s ( a ceil+4 ,i frequ5tly    
regrett$ t !re exi/$ no dryads2 x w\ld  
c]ta9ly h be5 among/ ^! t ,i %\ld h fix$
 my atta*m5t4  ,o!r dome/ic broils came 
at ! same "t to increase my *agr94      
,madam le ,vasseur1 :ile mak+ me ! f9e/ 
complim5ts 9 ! _w1 ali5at$ f me h]      
daught] z mu* z %e possibly c\ld4 ,i    
receiv$ lett]s f my late neighborhood1  
in=m+ me t ! good old lady _h secretly  
contract$ sev]al debts 9 ! "n ( ,!resa1 
to :om ^! became kn[n1 b ( :i* %e _h    

nev] m5tion$ to me a ^w4 ,! debts to be 
paid hurt me mu* less ?an ! secret t _h 
be5 made ( !m4 ,h[ c\ld %e1 = :om ,i _h 
nev] _h a secret1 h "o f me8 ,is x      
possible to dissimulate ) p]sons :om we 
love8 ,! ',cot]ie ,holba*ique'1 :o f\nd 
,i nev] made a j\rney to ,p>is1 began   
s]i\sly to be afraid ,i 0 happy &       
satisfi$ 9 ! c\ntry1 & madman en\gh to  
reside !re4  ,h5ce ! cabals by :i*      
attempts 7 made to recall me indirectly 
to ! city4 ,did]ot1 :o did n imm$iately 
wi% to %[ himself1 began by deta*+ f me 
,de ,leyre1 :om ,i _h br\ght acqua9t$ ) 
him1 & :o receiv$ & transmitt$ to me !  
impressions ,did]ot *ose to give )\t    
suspect+ to :at end !y 7 direct$4       
,ev]y?+ seem$ to concur 9 )draw+ me f my
 *>m+ & mad rev]ie4 ,i 0 n recov]$ f !  
late attack ,i _h :5 ,i receiv$ ! copy (
 ! poem on ! de/ruction ( ,lisbon1 :i*  
,i imag9$ to be s5t by ! au?or4 ,?is    
made x necess>y ,i %\ld write to him &  
speak ( 8 composition4 ,i did s1 & my   
lett] 0 a long "t aft]w>ds pr9t$ )\t my 

cons5t1 z ,i %all h]eaft] h occasion to 
rem>k4  ,/ruck by see+ ?is poor man     
ov]:elm$1 if ,i may s speak1 ) prosp]ity
 & honor1 bitt]ly exclaim+ aga9/ !      
mis]ies ( ?is life1 & f9d+ ev]y?+ to be 
wrong1 ,i =m$ ! mad project ( mak+ him  
turn 8 att5tion to himself1 & ( prov+ to
 him t ev]y?+ 0 "r4 ,voltaire1 :ile he  
appe>$ to believe 9 ,god1 nev] really   
believ$ 9 any?+ b ! devil2 s9ce 8       
pret5d$ deity is a malici\s be+1 :o1    
accord+ to him1 _h no pleasure b 9 evil4
 ,! gl>+ absurdity ( ?is doctr9e is     
p>ticul>ly disgu/+ f a man enjoy+ !     
greate/ prosp]ity2 :o1 f ! bosom (      
happ9ess1 endeavors1 by ! frightful &   
cruel image ( all ! calamities f :i* he 
is exempt1 to r$uce 8 fell[ creatures to
 despair4 ,i1 :o _h a bett] "r ?an he to
 calculate & weigh all ! evils ( human  
life1 imp>tially exam9$ !m1 & prov$ to  
him t ( all possible evils !re 0 n "o to
 be attribut$ to ,provid5ce1 & :i* _h n 
its s\rce r 9 ! abusive use man made ( 8
 faculties ?an 9 nature4 ,i treat$ him1 

9 ?is lett]1 ) ! greate/ respect &      
delicacy possible4 ,yet1 kn[+ 8         
self-love to be extremely irritable1 ,i 
did n s5d ! lett] imm$iately to himself1
 b to ,doctor ,tron*91 8 physician &    
fri5d1 ) full p[] ei!r to give x him or 
de/roy x4 ,voltaire in=m$ me 9 a few    
l9es t be+ ill1 hav+ likewise ! c>e ( a 
sick p]son1 he po/pon$ 8 answ] until "s 
future day1 & said n a ^w on ! subject4 
,tron*91 :5 he s5t me ! lett]1 inclos$ 9
 x ano!r1 9 :i* he express$ b v little  
e/eem = ! p]son f :om he receiv$ x4  ,i 
h nev] publi%$1 nor ev5 %[n1 ei!r ( ^!  
two lett]s1 n lik+ to make a p>ade ( su*
 little triumphs2 b ! orig9als are 9 my 
collections4 ,s9ce t "t ,voltaire has   
publi%$ ! answ] he promis$ me1 b :i* ,i 
nev] receiv$4 ,?is is ! novel (         
',c&ide'1 ( :i* ,i _c speak because ,i h
 n read x4  ,all ^! int]ruptions ought  
to h cur$ me ( my fanta/ic am\rs1 & !y 7
 p]haps ! means (f]$ me by ,heav5 to    
prev5t _! de/ructive consequ5ces2 b my  
evil g5ius prevail$1 & ,i _h sc>cely    

begun to g out be=e my he>t1 my head1 & 
my feet return$ to ! same pa?s4 ,i say !
 same 9 c]ta9 respects2 = my ideas1 r   
less exalt$1 rema9$ ?is "t ^u e>?1 b yet
 7 busi$ 9 mak+ s exquisite a *oice (   
all t 0 to be f\nd !re amiable ( e k9d1 
t x 0 n mu* less *im]ical ?an ! imag9>y 
_w ,i _h ab&on$4  ,i figur$ to myself   
love & fri5d%ip1 ! two idols ( my he>t1 
"u ! mo/ ravi%+ images4 ,i amus$ myself 
9 adorn+ !m ) all ! *>ms ( ! sex ,i _h  
always ador$4 ,i imag9$ two female      
fri5ds r ?an two ( my own sex1 because1 
al?\gh ! example be m r>e1 x is also m  
amiable4 ,i end[$ !m ) diff]5t *>act]s1 
b analog\s to _! connection1 ) two      
faces1 n p]fectly beautiful1 b accord+  
to my ta/e1 & animat$ ) b5evol5ce &     
s5sibility4 ,i made "o br[n & ! o!r     
fair1 "o lively & ! o!r langui%+1 "o    
wise & ! o!r weak1 b ( s amiable a      
weakness t x seem$ to add a *>m to      
virtue4 ,i gave to "o ( ! two a lov]1 ( 
:om ! o!r 0 ! t5d] fri5d1 & ev5 some?+  
m1 b ,i did n admit ei!r rivalry1       

qu>rels1 or jeal\sy3 because e pa9ful   
s5tim5t is pa9ful = me to imag9e1 & ,i 0
 unwill+ to t>ni% ?is delightful picture
 by any?+ :i* 0 degrad+ to nature4      
,smitt5 ) my two *>m+ models1 ,i drew my
 own portrait 9 ! lov] & ! fri5d1 z mu* 
z x 0 possible to d x2 b ,i made him "y 
& amiable1 giv+ him1 at ! same "t1 !    
virtues & ! defects :i* ,i felt 9       
myself4  ,t ,i might place my *>act]s 9 
a resid5ce prop] = !m1 ,i successively  
pass$ 9 review ! mo/ beautiful places ,i
 _h se5 9 my travels4 ,b ,i f\nd no     
grove suffici5tly delightful1 no l&scape
 t pleas$ me4 ,! valleys ( ,!ssaly w\ld 
h satisfi$ me _h ,i b once _h a sight ( 
!m2 b my imag9ation1 fatigu$ ) inv5tion1
 wi%$ = "s real place :i* might s]ve x z
 a po9t to re/ ^u1 & create 9 me an     
illusion ) respect to ! real exi/5ce ( !
 inhabitants ,i int5d$ to place !re4 ,i 
?\ght a good :ile ^u ! ,borromean       
,isl&s1 ! delightful prospect ( :i* _h  
transport$ me1 b ,i f\nd 9 !m too mu*   
art & ornam5t = my lov]s4 ,i h[ev] want$

 a lake1 & ,i conclud$ by mak+ *oice ( t
 ab\t :i* my he>t has nev] ceas$ to w&]4
 ,i fix$ myself ^u t "p ( ! banks ( ?is 
lake :]e my wi%es h long s9ce plac$ my  
resid5ce 9 ! imag9>y happ9ess to :i*    
fate has conf9$ me4 ,! native place ( my
 poor mamma _h /ill = me a *>m4 ,!      
contra/ ( ! situations1 ! ri*ness &     
v>iety ( ! sites1 ! magnific5ce1 !      
maje/y ( ! :ole1 :i* ravi%es ! s5ses1   
affects ! he>t1 & elevates ! m9d1       
det]m9$ me to give x ! pref]5ce1 & ,i   
plac$ my "y pupils at ,v]vey4 ,?is is   
:at ,i imag9$ at ! fir/ sket*2 ! re/ 0 n
 add$ until aft]w>ds4  ,i = a long "t   
conf9$ myself to ?is vague plan1 because
 x 0 suffici5t to fill my imag9ation )  
agreeable objects1 & my he>t ) s5tim5ts 
9 :i* x delight$4 ,^! fictions1 by      
frequ5tly pres5t+ !mselves1 at l5g? ga9$
 a consi/5ce1 & took 9 my m9d a det]m9$ 
=m4 ,i !n _h an incl9ation to express ^u
 pap] "s ( ! situations fancy pres5t$ to
 me1 &1 recollect+ ev]y?+ ,i _h felt    
dur+ my y\?1 ?us1 9 "s measure1 gave an 

object to t desire ( lov+1 :i* ,i _h    
nev] be5 able to satisfy1 & by :i* ,i   
felt myself consum$4  ,i fir/ wrote a   
few incoh]5t lett]s1 & :5 ,i aft]w>ds   
wi%$ to give !m connection1 ,i frequ5tly
 f\nd a difficulty 9 do+ x4 ,:at is     
sc>cely cr$ible1 al?\gh mo/ /rictly     
true1 is my hav+ writt5 ! fir/ two p>ts 
almo/ :olly 9 ?is mann]1 )\t hav+ any   
plan =m$1 & n =esee+ ,i %\ld "o day be  
tempt$ to make x a regul> "w4 ,= ?is    
reason ! two p>ts aft]w>ds =m$ (        
mat]ials n prep>$ = ! place 9 :i* !y are
 dispos$1 are full ( unmean+ expressions
 n f\nd 9 ! o!rs4  ,9 ! mid/ ( my       
rev]ies ,i _h a visit f ,madam          
d',h\detot1 ! fir/ %e _h ev] made me1 b 
:i* un=tunately 0 n ! la/1 z w h]eaft]  
appe>4 ,! ,comtesse d',h\detot 0 !      
daught] ( ! late ,m4 de ,belleg>de1 a   
f>m]-g5]al1 si/] to ,m4 d',ep9ay1 &     
,messieurs de ,lalive & ,de la ,bri*e1  
bo? ( :om h s9ce be5 introductors to    
ambassadors4 ,i h spok5 ( ! acqua9tance 
,i made ) h] be=e %e 0 m>ri$3 s9ce t    

ev5t ,i _h n se5 h]1 except at ! fetes  
at ,la ,*evrette1 ) ,madam d',ep9ay1 h] 
si/]-9-law4 ,hav+ frequ5tly pass$ sev]al
 days ) h]1 bo? at ,la ,*evrette &      
,ep9ay1 ,i always ?\ght h] amiable1 & t 
%e seem$ to be my well-wi%]4 ,%e 0 fond 
( walk+ ) me2 we 7 bo? good walk]s1 & ! 
conv]sation betwe5 u 0 inexhau/ible4    
,h[ev]1 ,i nev] w5t to see h] 9 ,p>is1  
al?\gh %e _h sev]al times reque/$ &     
solicit$ me to d x4 ,h] connections )   
,m4 de ,/4 ,lamb]t1 ) :om ,i began to be
 intimate1 r5d]$ h] m int]e/+ to me1 & x
 0 to br+ me "s acc\nt ( t fri5d :o 01  
,i believe1 !n at ,mahon1 t %e came to  
see me at ! ,h]mitage4  ,?is visit _h   
some?+ ( ! appe>ance ( ! beg9n+ ( a     
romance4 ,%e lo/ h] way4 ,h] coa*man1   
quitt+ ! road1 :i* turn$ to ! "r1       
attempt$ to cross /raight ov] f ! mill (
 ,clairvaux to ! ,h]mitage3 h] c>riage  
/uck 9 a quagmire 9 ! bottom ( ! valley1
 & %e got out & walk$ ! re/ ( ! road4   
,h] delicate %oes 7 soon worn ?r\gh2 %e 
sunk into ! dirt1 h] s]vants _h !       

greate/ difficulty 9 extricat+ h]1 & %e 
at l5g? arriv$ at ! ,h]mitage 9 boots1  
mak+ ! place res\nd ) h] laught]1 9 :i* 
,i mo/ he>tily jo9$4 ,%e _h to *ange    
ev]y?+4 ,!resa provid$ h] ) :at 0       
necess>y1 & ,i prevail$ ^u h] to =get h]
 dignity & p>take ( a ru/ic collation1 )
 :i* %e seem$ highly satisfi$4 ,x 0     
late1 & h] /ay 0 %ort2 b ! int]view 0 s 
mir?ful t x pleas$ h]1 & %e seem$       
dispos$ to return4 ,%e did n h[ev] put  
?is project into execution until ! next 
ye>3 b1 alas6 ! delay 0 n favorable to  
me 9 any?+4  ,i pass$ ! autumn 9 an     
employm5t no p]son w\ld suspect me (    
und]tak+3 ?is 0 gu>d+ ! fruit ( ,m4     
d',ep9ay4 ,! ,h]mitage 0 ! res]voir ( ! 
wat]s ( ! p>k ( ! ,*evrette2 !re 0 a    
g>d5 wall$ r\nd & plant$ ) espali]s &   
o!r trees1 :i* produc$ ,m4 d',ep9ay m   
fruit ?an 8 kit*5-g>d5 at ! ,*evrette1  
al?\gh ?ree-f\r?s ( x 7 /ol5 f him4 ,t  
,i might n be a gue/ entirely useless1  
,i took ^u myself ! direction ( ! g>d5 &
 ! inspection ( ! conduct ( ! g>d5]4    

,ev]y?+ w5t on well until ! fruit       
season1 b z ?is became ripe1 ,i obs]v$ t
 x disappe>$ )\t kn[+ 9 :at mann] x 0   
dispos$ (4 ,! g>d5] assur$ me x 0 !     
dormice :i* eat x all4 ,i de/roy$ a     
great numb] ( ^! animals1 not)/&+ :i* ! 
fruit /ill dim9i%$4 ,i wat*$ ! g>d5]'s  
motions s n>r[ly1 t ,i f\nd he 0 ! great
 dorm\se4 ,he lodg$ at ,montmor5cy1 :5ce
 he came 9 ! night ) 8 wife & *ildr5 to 
take away ! fruit he _h conceal$ 9 !    
daytime1 & :i* he sold 9 ! m>ket at     
,p>is z publicly z if he _h br\ght x f a
 g>d5 ( 8 own4 ,! wret* :om ,i load$ )  
k9dness1 ^: *ildr5 7 clo!d by ,!resa1 & 
^: fa!r1 :o 0 a begg>1 ,i almo/         
support$1 robb$ u ) z mu* ease z        
effront]y1 n "o ( ! ?ree be+ suffici5tly
 vigilant to prev5t him3 & "o night he  
empti$ my cell>4  ,:il/ he seem$ to     
address himself to me only1 ,i suff]$   
ev]y?+1 b be+ desir\s ( giv+ an acc\nt (
 ! fruit1 ,i 0 oblig$ to decl>e by :om a
 great "p ( x _h be5 /ol54 ,madam       
d',ep9ay desir$ me to pay & dis*>ge him1

 & look out = ano!r2 ,i did s4 ,z ?is   
rascal rambl$ ab\t ! ,h]mitage 9 !      
night1 arm$ ) a ?ick club /aff ) an iron
 f]rule1 & accompani$ by o!r villa9s l  
himself1 to relieve ! gov]nesses f _!   
fe>s1 ,i made 8 successor sleep 9 ! h\se
 ) u2 & ?is n be+ suffici5t to remove _!
 appreh5sions1 ,i s5t to ask ,m4        
d',ep9ay = a musket1 :i* ,i kept 9 !    
*amb] ( ! g>d5]1 ) a *>ge n to make use 
( x except an attempt 0 made to break   
op5 ! door or scale ! walls ( ! g>d51 & 
to fire no?+ b p[d]1 mean+ only to      
fright5 ! ?ieves4 ,?is 0 c]ta9ly ! lea/ 
precaution a man indispos$ c\ld take = !
 common safety ( himself & family1 hav+ 
to pass ! w9t] 9 ! mid/ ( a wood1 ) two 
timid wom54 ,i also procur$ a little dog
 to s]ve z a s5t9el4 ,de ,leyre com+ to 
see me ab\t ?is "t1 ,i relat$ to him my 
situation1 & we laugh$ toge!r at my     
milit>y app>atus4 ,at 8 return to ,p>is 
he wi%$ to amuse ,did]ot ) ! /ory1 & by 
?is means ! ',cot]ie d',holba*ique'     
le>n$ t ,i 0 s]i\sly resolv$ to pass !  

w9t] at ! ,h]mitage4 ,?is p]sev]ance1 ( 
:i* !y _h n imag9$ me to be capable1    
disconc]t$ !m1 &1 until !y c\ld ?9k ( "s
 o!r means ( mak+ my resid5ce           
disagreeable to me1 !y s5t back1 by     
means ( ,did]ot1 ! same ,de ,leyre1 :o1 
?\gh at fir/ he _h ?\ght my precautions 
q natural1 n[ pret5d$ to discov] t !y 7 
inconsi/5t ) my pr9ciples1 & /yl$ !m m  
?an ridicul\s 9 8 lett]s1 9 :i* he      
ov]:elm$ me ) pleasantries suffici5tly  
bitt] & satirical to (f5d me _h ,i be5 !
 lea/ dispos$ to take (f5ce4 ,b at t "t 
be+ full ( t5d] & affectionate s5tim5ts1
 & n susceptible ( any o!r1 ,i p]ceiv$ 9
 8 bit+ s>casms no?+ m ?an a je/1 &     
believ$ him only jocose :5 o!rs w\ld h  
?\ght him mad4  ,by my c>e & vigilance  
,i gu>d$ ! g>d5 s well1 t1 al?\gh !re _h
 be5 b little fruit t ye> ! produce 0   
triple t ( ! prec$+ ye>s2 x is true1 ,i 
sp>$ no pa9s to pres]ve x1 & ,i w5t s f>
 z to escort :at ,i s5t to ! ,*evrette &
 to ,ep9ay1 & to c>ry baskets ( x       
myself4 ,! aunt & ,i c>ri$ "o ( ^!1 :i* 

0 s heavy t we 7 oblig$ to re/ at e doz5
 /eps1 & :i* we arriv$ ) x we 7 q wet ) 
p]spiration4  ,z soon z ! bad season    
began to conf9e me to ! h\se1 ,i wi%$ to
 return to my indol5t amusem5ts1 b ?is  
,i f\nd impossible4 ,i _h ev]y:]e two   
*>m+ female fri5ds be=e my eyes1 _!     
fri5d1 ev]y?+ by :i* !y 7 surr\nd$1 !   
c\ntry !y inhabit$1 & ! objects creat$  
or embelli%$ = !m by my imag9ation4 ,i 0
 no long] myself = a mom5t1 my delirium 
nev] left me4 ,aft] _m useless ef=ts to 
bani% all fictions f my m9d1 !y at l5g? 
s$uc$ me1 & my future endeavors 7 conf9$
 to giv+ !m ord] & coh]5ce1 = ! purpose 
( conv]t+ !m into a species ( novel4    
,:at emb>rass$ me mo/ 01 t ,i _h        
contradict$ myself s op5ly & fully4     
,aft] ! sev]e pr9ciples ,i _h j s       
publicly ass]t$1 aft] ! au/]e maxims ,i 
_h s l\dly prea*$1 & my viol5t          
invectives aga9/ books :i* brea!d no?+ b
 effem9acy & love1 c\ld any?+ be less   
expect$ or m extraord9>y1 ?an to see me1
 ) my own h&1 write my "n 9 ! li/ (     

au?ors ( ^? books ,i _h s sev]ely       
c5sur$8 ,i felt ?is incoh]5ce 9 all its 
ext5t4 ,i reproa*$ myself ) x1 ,i blu%$ 
at x & 0 vex$2 b all ?is c\ld n br+ me  
back to reason4 ,completely ov]come1 ,i 
0 at all risks oblig$ to submit1 & to   
resolve to brave :atev] ! _w might say (
 x4 ,except only delib]at+ aft]w>ds :e!r
 or n ,i %\ld %[ my "w1 = ,i did n yet  
suppose ,i %\ld ev] det]m9e to publi% x4
  ,?is resolution tak51 ,i entirely     
ab&on$ myself to my rev]ies1 &1 by      
frequ5tly resolv+ ^! 9 my m9d1 =m$ ) !m 
! k9d ( plan ( :i* ! execution has be5  
se54 ,?is 0 c]ta9ly ! greate/ advantage 
t c\ld be drawn f my follies2 ! love (  
good :i* has nev] once be5 effac$ f my  
he>t1 turn$ !m t[>ds useful objects1 !  
moral ( :i* might h produc$ its good    
effects4 ,my voluptu\s descriptions w\ld
 h lo/ all _! graces1 _h !y be5 devoid (
 ! color+ ( innoc5ce4  ,a weak girl is  
an object ( pity1 :om love may r5d]     
int]e/+1 & :o frequ5tly is n !re=e !    
less amiable2 b :o c see )\t indignation

 ! mann]s ( ! age2 & :at is m disgu/+   
?an ! pride ( an un*a/e wife1 :o1 op5ly 
tread+ "u foot e duty1 pret5ds t h]     
husb& ought to be grateful = h]         
unwill+ness to suff] h]self to be tak5 9
 ! fact8 ,p]fect be+s are n 9 nature1 & 
_! examples are n ne> en\gh to u4 ,b    
:oev] says t ! description ( a "y p]son 
born ) good dispositions1 & a he>t      
equally t5d] & virtu\s1 :o suff]s       
h]self1 :5 a girl1 to be ov]come by     
love1 & :5 a woman1 has resolution en\gh
 to conqu] 9 h] turn1 is ^u ! :ole      
sc&al\s & useless1 is a li> & a         
hypocrite2 he>k5 n to him4  ,besides ?is
 object ( morality & conjugal *a/ity :i*
 is radically connect$ ) all social     
ord]1 ,i _h 9 view "o m secret 9 behalf 
( concord & public peace1 a great]1 &   
p]haps m important object 9 itself1 at  
lea/ = ! mom5t = :i* x 0 creat$4 ,! /orm
 br\ght on by ! ',encyclop$ie'1 f> f be+
 appeas$1 0 at ! "t at its height4 ,two 
p>ties exasp]at$ aga9/ ea* o!r to ! la/ 
degree ( fury soon resembl$ enrag$      

wolves1 set on = _! mutual de/ruction1 r
 ?an ,*ri/ians & philosoph]s1 :o _h a   
reciprocal wi% to enlight5 & conv9ce ea*
 o!r1 & lead _! bre?r5 to ! way ( tru?4 
,p]haps no?+ m 0 want+ to ea* p>ty ?an a
 few turbul5t *iefs1 :o possess$ a      
little p[]1 to make ?is qu>rel t]m9ate 9
 a civil w>2 & ,god only kn[s :at a     
civil w> ( religion f\nd$ on ea* side ^u
 ! mo/ cruel intol]ance w\ld h produc$4 
,naturally an enemy to all _s ( p>ty1 ,i
 _h freely spok5 sev]e tru?s to ea*1 (  
:i* !y _h n li/5$4 ,i ?\ght ( ano!r     
exp$i5t1 :i*1 9 my simplicity1 appe>$ to
 me admirable3 ?is 0 to abate _!        
reciprocal hatr$ by de/roy+ _!          
prejudices1 & %[+ to ea* p>ty ! virtue &
 m]it :i* 9 ! o!r 0 wor?y ( public e/eem
 & respect4 ,?is project1 little        
rem>kable = its wisdom1 :i* support$    
s9c]ity 9 mank9d1 & :]eby ,i fell into !
 error ) :i* ,i reproa*$ ! ,abbe de     
,sa9t ,pi]re1 _h ! success t 0 to be    
expect$ f x3 x drew toge!r & unit$ !    
p>ties = no o!r purpose ?an t ( cru%+ ! 

au?or4 ,until exp]i5ce made me discov]  
my folly1 ,i gave my att5tion to x ) a  
zeal wor?y ( ! motive by :i* ,i 0       
inspir$2 & ,i imag9$ ! two *>act]s (    
,wolm> & ,julia 9 an ec/asy1 :i* made me
 hope to r5d] !m bo? amiable1 &1 :at is 
/ill m1 by means ( ea* o!r4  ,satisfi$ )
 hav+ made a r\gh sket* ( my plan1 ,i   
return$ to ! situations 9 detail1 :i* ,i
 _h m>k$ out2 & f ! arrangem5t ,i gave  
!m result$ ! fir/ two p>ts ( ! ,eloisa1 
:i* ,i f9i%$ dur+ ! w9t] ) inexpressible
 pleasure1 procur+ gilt-pap] to receive 
a fair copy ( !m1 azure & silv] p[d] to 
dry ! writ+1 & blue n>r[ ribbon to tack 
my %eets toge!r2 9 a ^w1 ,i ?\ght no?+  
suffici5tly elegant & delicate = my two 
*>m+ girls1 ( :om1 l ano!r ,pygmalion1  
,i became madly enam\r$4 ,e ev5+1 by !  
fireside1 ,i read ! two p>ts to !       
gov]nesses4 ,! daught]1 )\t say+ a ^w1 0
 l myself mov$ to t5d]ness1 & we m+l$   
our sighs2 h] "m1 f9d+ !re 7 no         
complim5ts1 und]/ood no?+ ( ! matt]1    
rema9$ unmov$1 & at ! int]vals :5 ,i 0  

sil5t always repeat$3 ,sir1 t is v f9e4 
,madam d',ep9ay1 uneasy at my be+ alone1
 9 w9t]1 9 a solit>y h\se1 9 ! mid/ (   
woods1 (t5 s5t to inquire aft] my heal?4
 ,i nev] _h su* real pro(s ( h] fri5d%ip
 = me1 to :i* m9e nev] m fully answ]$4  
,x w\ld be wrong 9 me 7 n ,i1 among ^!  
pro(s1 to make special m5tion ( h]      
portrait1 :i* %e s5t me1 at ! same "t   
reque/+ in/ructions f me 9 :at mann] %e 
might h m9e1 pa9t$ by ,la ,t\r1 & :i* _h
 be5 %[n at ! exhibition4 ,i ought      
equally to speak ( ano!r pro( ( h]      
att5tion to me1 :i*1 al?\gh x be        
laughable1 is a feature 9 ! hi/ory ( my 
"*1 on acc\nt ( ! impression receiv$ f  
x4 ,"o day :5 x froze to an extreme     
degree1 9 op5+ a packet %e _h s5t me (  
sev]al ?+s ,i _h desir$ h] to pur*ase = 
me1 ,i f\nd a little "u-petticoat (     
,engli% flannel1 :i* %e told me %e _h   
worn1 & desir$ ,i w\ld make ( x an      
"u-wai/coat4  ,?is c>e1 m ?an fri5dly1  
appe>$ to me s t5d]1 & z if %e _h /ripp$
 h]self to clo! me1 t 9 my emotion ,i   

repeat$ly kiss$1 %$d+ te>s at ! same "t1
 bo? ! note & ! petticoat4 ,!resa ?\ght 
me mad4 ,x is s+ul> t ( all ! m>ks (    
fri5d%ip ,madam d',ep9ay ev] %[$ me ?is 
t\*$ me ! mo/1 & t ev] s9ce our rupture 
,i h nev] recollect$ x )\t be+ v s5sibly
 affect$4 ,i = a long "t pres]v$ h]     
little note1 & x w\ld /ill h be5 9 my   
possession _h n x %>$ ! fate ( my o!r   
notes receiv$ at ! same p]iod4  ,al?\gh 
my disord] !n gave me b little respite 9
 w9t]1 & a "p ( ! int]val 0 employ$ 9   
seek+ relief f pa91 ?is 0 /ill ^u ! :ole
 ! season :i* s9ce my resid5ce 9 ,france
 ,i _h pass$ ) mo/ pleasure &           
tranquillity4 ,dur+ f\r or five mon?s1  
:il/ ! bad wea!r %elt]$ me f !          
int]ruptions ( importunate visits1 ,i   
ta/$ to a great] degree ?an ,i _h ev]   
yet or h s9ce done1 ( t equal simple &  
indep5d5t life1 ! enjoym5t ( :i* /ill   
made x m desirable to me2 )\t any o!r   
company ?an ! two gov]nesses 9 reality1 
& ! two female c\s9s 9 idea4 ,x 0 !n    
especially t ,i daily congratulat$      

myself ^u ! resolution ,i _h _h ! good  
s5se to take1 unm9dful ( ! clamors ( my 
fri5ds1 :o 7 vex$ at see+ me deliv]$ f  
_! tyranny2 & :5 ,i he>d ( ! attempt ( a
 madman1 :5 ,de ,leyre & ,madam d',ep9ay
 spoke to me 9 lett]s ( ! tr\ble &      
agitation :i* reign$ 9 ,p>is1 h[ ?ankful
 0 ,i to ,heav5 = hav+ plac$ me at a    
di/ance f all su* spectacles ( horror & 
guilt4 ,^! w\ld h be5 cont9u$ & increas$
 ! bili\s humor :i* ! sight ( public    
disord]s _h giv5 me2 :il/ see+ no?+     
ar\nd me 9 my retirem5t b gay & pleas+  
objects1 my he>t 0 :olly ab&on$ to      
s5tim5ts :i* 7 amiable4  ,i rem>k "h )  
pleasure ! c\rse ( ! la/ peaceful mom5ts
 t 7 left me4 ,! spr+ succe$+ to ?is    
w9t]1 :i* _h be5 s calm1 develop$ ! g]m 
( ! mis=tunes ,i h yet to describe2 9 ! 
tissue ( :i*1 a l int]val1 :]e9 ,i _h   
leisure to respite1 w n be f\nd4  ,i ?9k
 h[ev]1 ,i recollect1 t dur+ ?is int]val
 ( peace1 & 9 ! bosom ( my solitude1 ,i 
0 n q undi/urb$ by ! ,holba*i5s4 ,did]ot
 /irr$ me up "s /rife1 & ,i am mu*      

deceiv$ if x 0 n 9 ! c\rse ( ?is w9t] t 
! ',fils ,naturel'--,natural ,son--( :i*
 ,i %all soon h occasion to speak1 made 
its appe>ance4 ,indep5d5tly ( ! causes  
:i* left me b few pap]s relative to t   
p]iod1 ^? ev5 :i* ,i h be5 able to      
pres]ve are n v exact ) respect to      
dates4 ,did]ot nev] dat$ 8              
lett]s--,madam d',ep9ay & ,madam d'     
,h\detot seldom dat$ !irs except ! day (
 ! week1 & ,de ,leyre mo/ly conf9$      
himself to ! same rules4 ,:5 ,i 0       
desir\s ( putt+ ^! lett]s 9 ord] ,i 0   
oblig$ to supply :at 0 want+ by guess+  
at dates1 s unc]ta9 t ,i _c dep5d ^u !m4
 ,unable !re=e to fix ) c]ta9ty ! beg9n+
 ( ^! qu>rels1 ,i pref] relat+ 9 "o     
subsequ5t article ev]y?+ ,i c recollect 
conc]n+ !m4  ,! return ( spr+ _h        
increas$ my amor\s delirium1 & 9 my     
melan*oly1 occasion$ by ! excess ( my   
transports1 ,i _h compos$ = ! la/ p>ts (
 ,eloisa sev]al lett]s1 :]e9 evid5t m>ks
 ( ! rapture 9 :i* ,i wrote !m are f\nd4
 ,among/ o!rs ,i may quote ^? f !       

,elysium1 & ! excursion ^u ! lake1 :i*1 
if my memory does n deceive me1 are at !
 end ( ! f\r? "p4 ,:oev]1 9 read+ ^!    
lett]s1 does n feel 8 he>t s(t5 & melt  
into ! t5d]ness by :i* !y 7 dictat$1    
ought to lay d[n ! book3 nature has     
refus$ him ! means ( judg+ ( s5tim5t4   
,precisely at ! same "t ,i receiv$ a    
second un=ese5 visit f ,madam           
d',h\detot1 9 ! abs5ce ( h] husb&1 :o 0 
capta9 ( ! ,g5d>m>ie1 & ( h] lov]1 :o 0 
also 9 ! s]vice4 ,%e _h come to         
,eaubonne1 9 ! middle ( ! ,valley (     
,montmor5cy1 :]e %e _h tak5 a pretty    
h\se1 f !nce %e made a new excursion to 
! ,h]mitage4 ,%e came on horseback1 &   
dress$ 9 m5's clo!s4 ,al?\gh ,i am n v  
fond ( ?is k9d ( masqu]ade1 ,i 0 /ruck )
 ! romantic appe>ance %e made1 &1 =     
once1 x 0 ) love4 ,z ?is 0 ! fir/ & only
 "t 9 all my life1 ! consequ5ce ( :i* w 
=ev] r5d] x t]rible to my remembrance1  
,i mu/ take ! p]mission to ent] into "s 
p>ticul>s on ! subject4  ,! ,c\ntess    
d',h\detot 0 ne>ly ?irty ye>s ( age1 & n

 h&some2 h] face 0 m>k$ ) ! smallpox1 h]
 complexion co>se1 %e 0 %ort-sight$1 &  
h] eyes 7 r r\nd2 b %e _h f9e long black
 hair1 :i* hung d[n 9 natural curls bel[
 h] wai/2 h] figure 0 agreeable1 & %e 0 
at once bo? awkw>d & graceful 9 h]      
motions2 h] wit 0 natural & pleas+2 to  
?is gayety1 he$lessness & +5u\sness 7   
p]fectly suit$3 %e ab\nd$ 9 *>m+        
sallies1 aft] :i* %e s little s\ght1 t  
!y sometimes escap$ h] lips 9 spite (   
h]self4 ,%e possess$ sev]al agreeable   
tal5ts1 play$ ! h>psi*ord1 danc$ well1 &
 wrote pleas+ poetry4 ,h] "* 0          
angelic--?is 0 f\nd$ ^u a sweetness (   
m9d1 & except prud5ce & =titude1 conta9$
 9 x e virtue4 ,%e 0 besides s mu* to be
 dep5d$ ^u 9 all int]c\rse1 s fai?ful 9 
society1 ev5 h] enemies 7 n "u !        
necessity ( conceal+ f h] _! secrets4 ,i
 mean by h] enemies ! m51 or r ! wom51  
by :om %e 0 n belov$2 = z to h]self %e  
_h n a he>t capable ( hatr$1 & ,i am (  
op9ion ?is con=mity ) m9e greatly       
contribut$ t[>ds inspir+ me ) a passion 

= h]4 ,9 confid5ce ( ! mo/ intimate     
fri5d%ip1 ,i nev] he>d h] speak ill (   
p]sons :o 7 abs5t1 n ev5 ( h]           
si/]-9-law4 ,%e c\ld nei!r conceal h]   
?\ghts f anyone1 nor disguise any ( h]  
s5tim5ts1 & ,i am p]suad$ %e spoke ( h] 
lov] to h] husb&1 z %e spoke ( him to h]
 fri5ds & acqua9tances1 & to ev]ybody   
)\t di/9ction ( p]sons4 ,:at prov$1     
beyond all mann] ( d\bt1 ! purity &     
s9c]ity ( h] nature 01 t subject to v   
extraord9>y abs5ces ( m9d1 & ! mo/      
laughable inconsid]at5ess1 %e 0 (t5     
guilty ( "s v imprud5t ones ) respect to
 h]self1 b nev] 9 ! lea/ (f5sive to any 
p]son :atsoev]4  ,%e _h be5 m>ri$ v "y &
 aga9/ h] incl9ations to ! ,comte       
d',h\detot1 a man ( fa%ion1 & a good    
(fic]2 b a man :o lov$ play & *icane1 :o
 0 n v amiable1 & :om %e nev] lov$4 ,%e 
f\nd 9 ,m4 de ,sa9t ,lamb]t all ! m]it (
 h] husb&1 ) m agreeable qualities (    
m9d1 jo9$ ) virtue & tal5ts4 ,if any?+ 9
 ! mann]s ( ! age c be p>don$1 x is an  
atta*m5t :i* duration r5d]s m pure1 to  

:i* its effects d honor1 & :i* becomes  
cem5t$ by reciprocal e/eem4 ,x 0 a      
little f incl9ation1 z ,i am dispos$ to 
?9k1 b mu* m to please ,sa9t ,lamb]t1 t 
%e came to see me4 ,he _h reque/$ h] to 
d x1 & !re 0 reason to believe !        
fri5d%ip :i* began to be e/abli%$ betwe5
 u w\ld r5d] ?is society agreeable to   
all ?ree4 ,%e knew ,i 0 acqua9t$ ) _!   
connection1 & z %e c\ld speak to me )\t 
re/ra9t1 x 0 natural %e %\ld f9d my     
conv]sation agreeable4 ,%e came2 ,i saw 
h]2 ,i 0 intoxicat$ ) love )\t an       
object2 ?is intoxication fasc9at$ my    
eyes2 ! object fix$ itself ^u h]4 ,i saw
 my ,julia 9 ,madam d',h\detot1 & ,i    
soon saw no?+ b ,madam d',h\detot1 b )  
all ! p]fections ) :i* ,i _h j adorn$ ! 
idol ( my he>t4 ,to complete my delirium
 %e spoke to me ( ,sa9t ,lamb]t ) a     
fondness ( a passionate lov]4 ,contagi\s
 =ce ( love6 :ile li/5+ to h]1 & f9d+   
myself ne> h]1 ,i 0 seiz$ ) a delici\s  
trembl+1 :i* ,i _h nev] be=e exp]i5c$ :5
 ne> to any p]son :atsoev]4 ,%e spoke1 &

 ,i felt myself affect$2 ,i ?\ght ,i 0  
no?+ m ?an int]e/$ 9 h] s5tim5ts1 :5 ,i 
p]ceiv$ ,i possess$ ^? :i* 7 simil>2 ,i 
drank freely ( ! poison$ cup1 ( :i* ,i  
yet ta/$ no?+ m ?an ! sweetness4        
,f9ally1 imp]ceptibly to u bo?1 %e      
inspir$ me = h]self ) all %e express$ = 
h] lov]4 ,alas6 x 0 v late 9 life1 &    
cruel 0 x to consume ) a passion n less 
viol5t ?an un=tunate = a woman ^: he>t 0
 already 9 ! possession ( ano!r4        
,not)/&+ ! extraord9>y emotions ,i _h   
felt :5 ne> to h]1 ,i did n at fir/     
p]ceive :at _h happ5$ to me2 x 0 n until
 aft] h] dep>ture t1 wi%+ to ?9k (      
,julia1 ,i 0 /ruck ) surprise at be+    
unable to ?9k ( any?+ b ,madam          
d',h\detot4 ,!n 0 x my eyes 7 op5$3 ,i  
felt my mis=tune1 & lam5t$ :at _h       
happ5$1 b ,i did n =esee ! consequ5ces4 
,i hesitat$ a long "t on ! mann] 9 :i*  
,i %\ld conduct myself t[>ds h]1 z if   
real love left beh9d x suffici5t reason 
to delib]ate & act accord+ly4 ,i _h n   
yet det]m9$ ^u ?is :5 %e unexpect$ly    

return$ & f\nd me unprovid$4 ,x 0 ?is   
"t1 p]fectly acqua9t$ ) my situation1   
%ame1 ! companion ( evil1 r5d]$ me dumb1
 & made me tremble 9 h] pres5ce2 ,i     
nei!r d>$ to op5 my m\? or raise my     
eyes2 ,i 0 9 an inexpressible confusion 
:i* x 0 impossible %e %\ld n p]ceive4 ,i
 resolv$ to confess to h] my tr\bl$ /ate
 ( m9d1 & left h] to guess ! cause :5ce 
x proce$$3 ?is 0 tell+ h] 9 t]ms        
suffici5tly cle>4  ,_h ,i be5 "y &      
amiable1 & ,madam d',h\detot aft]w>ds   
weak1 ,i %\ld "h blame h] conduct2 b ?is
 0 n ! case1 & ,i am oblig$ to applaud &
 admire x4 ,! resolution %e took 0      
equally prud5t & g5]\s4 ,%e c\ld n      
sudd5ly break ) me )\t giv+ h] reasons =
 x to ,sa9t ,lamb]t1 :o himself _h      
desir$ h] to come & see me2 ?is w\ld h  
expos$ two fri5ds to a rupture1 & p]haps
 a public "o1 :i* %e wi%$ to avoid4 ,%e 
_h = me e/eem & good wi%es2 %e piti$ my 
folly )\t enc\rag+ x1 & endeavor$ to    
re/ore me to reason4 ,%e 0 glad to      
pres]ve to h] lov] & h]self a fri5d =   

:om %e _h "s respect2 & %e spoke ( no?+ 
) m pleasure ?an ! intimate & agreeable 
society we might =m betwe5 u ?ree !     
mom5t ,i %\ld become reasonable4 ,%e did
 n always conf9e h]self to ^! fri5dly   
exhortations1 &1 9 case ( ne$1 did n    
sp>e me m sev]e reproa*es1 :i* ,i _h    
ri*ly des]v$4  ,i sp>$ myself /ill less3
 ! mom5t ,i 0 alone ,i began to recov]2 
,i 0 m calm aft] my decl>ation--love1   
kn[n to ! p]son by :om x is inspir$1    
becomes m supportable4  ,! =cible mann] 
9 :i* ,i approa*$ myself ) m9e1 ought to
 h cur$ me ( x _h ! ?+ be5 possible4    
,:at p[]ful motives did ,i n call to my 
m9d to /ifle x8 ,my morals1 s5tim5ts &  
pr9ciples2 ! %ame1 ! trea*]y & crime1 ( 
abus+ :at 0 confid$ to fri5d%ip1 & !    
ridicul\sness ( burn+1 at my age1 ) !   
mo/ extravagant passion = an object ^:  
he>t 0 pre5gag$1 & :o c\ld nei!r make me
 a return1 nor lea/ hope2 moreov] ) a   
passion :i*1 f> f hav+ any?+ to ga9 by  
con/ancy1 daily became less suff]able4  
,we w\ld imag9e t ! la/ consid]ation :i*

 ought to h add$ weight to all ! o!rs1 0
 t :]eby ,i elud$ !m6 ,:at scruple1     
?\ght ,i1 ought ,i to make ( a folly    
prejudicial to nobody b myself8 ,am ,i  
!n a "y man ( :om ,madam d',h\detot     
ought to be afraid8 ,w\ld n x be said by
 my presumptive remorse t1 by my        
gallantry1 mann] & dress1 ,i 0 go+ to   
s$uce h]8 ,poor ,jean ,jacques1 love on 
at ?y ease1 9 all safety ( consci5ce1 & 
be n afraid t ?y sighs w be prejudicial 
to ,sa9t ,lamb]t4  ,x has be5 se5 t ,i  
nev] 0 a coxcomb1 n ev5 9 my y\?4 ,!    
mann] ( ?9k+1 ( :i* ,i h spok51 0       
accord+ to my turn ( m9d1 x flatt]$ my  
passion2 ?is 0 suffici5t to induce me to
 ab&on myself to x )\t res]ve1 & to     
laugh ev5 at ! imp]t95t scruple ,i ?\ght
 ,i _h made f vanity1 r ?an f reason4   
,?is is a great lesson = virtu\s m9ds1  
:i* vice nev] attacks op5ly2 x f9ds     
means to surprise !m by mask+ itself )  
sophisms1 & n unfrequ5tly ) a virtue4   
,guilty )\t remorse1 ,i soon became s   
)\t measure2 & ,i entreat x may be      

obs]v$ 9 :at mann] my passion foll[$ my 
nature1 at l5g? to plunge me into an    
abyss4 ,9 ! fir/ place1 x assum$ ! air (
 humility to enc\rage me2 & to r5d] me  
intrepid x c>ri$ ?is humility ev5 to    
mi/ru/4 ,madam d',h\detot incessantly   
putt+ 9 m9d ( my duty1 )\t once = a s+le
 mom5t flatt]+ my folly1 treat$ me ) !  
greate/ mildness1 & rema9$ ) me ^u !    
foot+ ( ! mo/ t5d] fri5d%ip4 ,?is       
fri5d%ip w\ld1 ,i prote/1 h satisfi$ my 
wi%es1 _h ,i ?\ght x s9c]e2 b f9d+ x too
 /rong to be real1 ,i took x into my    
head t love1 s ill-suit$ to my age &    
appe>ance1 _h r5d]$ me contemptible 9 ! 
eyes ( ,madam d',h\detot2 t ?is "y mad  
creature only wi%$ to div]t h]self ) me 
& my sup]annuat$ passion2 t %e _h       
communicat$ ?is to ,sa9t ,lamb]t2 & t ! 
indignation caus$ by my brea* (         
fri5d%ip1 hav+ made h] lov] ent] into h]
 views1 !y 7 agre$ to turn my head & !n 
to laugh at me4 ,?is folly1 :i* at      
tw5ty-six ye>s ( age1 _h made me guilty 
( "s extravagant behavior to ,madam de  

,l>nage1 :om ,i did n "k1 w\ld h be5    
p>donable 9 me at =ty-five ) ,madam     
d',h\detot _h n ,i kn[n t %e & h] lov] 7
 p]sons ( too mu* uprightness to indulge
 !mselves 9 su* a b>b>\s amusem5t4      
,madam d' ,h\detot cont9u$ h] visits1   
:i* ,i delay$ n to return4 ,%e1 z well z
 myself1 0 fond ( walk+1 & we took long 
walks 9 an en*ant+ c\ntry4 ,satisfi$ )  
lov+ & d>+ to say ,i lov$1 ,i %\ld h be5
 9 ! mo/ agreeable situation _h n my    
extravagance spoil$ all ! *>m ( x4 ,%e1 
at fir/1 c\ld n compreh5d ! fooli%      
petti%ness ) :i* ,i receiv$ h]          
att5tions2 b my he>t1 incapable (       
conceal+ :at pass$ 9 x1 did n long leave
 h] ignorant ( my suspicions2 %e        
endeavor$ to laugh at !m1 b ?is exp$i5t 
did n succe$2 transports ( rage w\ld h  
be5 ! consequ5ce1 & %e *ang$ h] tone4   
,h] compassionate g5tl5ess 0 inv9cible2 
%e made me reproa*es1 :i* p5etrat$ my   
he>t2 %e express$ an inquietude at my   
unju/ fe>s1 ( :i* ,i took advantage4 ,i 
requir$ pro(s ( h] be+ 9 e>ne/4 ,%e     

p]ceiv$ !re 0 no o!r means ( reliev+ me 
f my appreh5sions4 ,i became press+3 !  
/ep 0 delicate4 ,x is a/oni%+1 & p]haps 
)\t example1 t a woman hav+ suff]$      
h]self to be br\ght to hesitate %\ld h  
got h]self (f s well4 ,%e refus$ me no?+
 ! mo/ t5d] fri5d%ip c\ld grant2 yet %e 
grant$ me no?+ t r5d]$ h] unfai?ful1 &  
,i _h ! mortification to see t ! disord]
 into :i* ! mo/ trifl+ favors _h ?r[n   
all my s5ses _h n ! lea/ effect ^u h]s4 
,i h some:]e said1 t no?+ %\ld be grant$
 to ! s5ses1 :5 we wi%$ to refuse !m    
any?+4 ,to prove h[ false ?is maxim 0   
relative to ,madam d' ,h\detot1 & h[ f> 
%e 0 "r to dep5d ^u h] own /r5g? ( m9d1 
x w\ld be necess>y to ent] into ! detail
 ( our long & frequ5t conv]sations1 &   
foll[ !m1 9 all _! livel9ess dur+ ! f\r 
mon?s we pass$ toge!r 9 an intimacy     
almo/ )\t example betwe5 two fri5ds (   
diff]5t sexes :o conta9 !mselves )9 !   
b\nds :i* we nev] exce$$4 ,ah6 if ,i _h 
liv$ s long )\t feel+ ! p[] ( real love1
 my he>t & s5ses abundantly paid !      

arre>s4 ,:at1 !re=e1 are ! transports we
 feel ) ! object ( our affections by :om
 we are belov$1 s9ce ! passions ( :i* my
 idol did n p>take inspir$ su* z ,i     
felt8  ,b ,i am wrong 9 say+ ,madam     
,h\detot did n p>take ( ! passion (     
love2 t :i* ,i felt 0 9 "s measure      
conf9$ to myself2 yet love 0 equal on   
bo? sides1 b n reciprocal4 ,we 7 bo?    
intoxicat$ ) ! passion1 %e = h] lov]1 & 
,i = h]self2 our sighs & delici\s te>s 7
 m+l$ toge!r4 ,t5d] confidants ( !      
secrets ( ea* o!r1 !re 0 s great a      
simil>ity 9 our s5tim5ts t x 0          
impossible !y %\ld n f9d "s common po9t 
( union4 ,9 ! mid/ ( ?is delici\s       
intoxication1 %e nev] =got h]self = a   
mom5t1 & ,i solemnly prote/ t1 if ev]1  
l$ away by my s5ses1 ,i h attempt$ to   
r5d] h] unfai?ful1 ,i 0 nev] really     
desir\s ( succe$+4 ,! vehem5ce itself ( 
my passion re/ra9$ x )9 b\nds4 ,! duty (
 self-d5ial _h elevat$ my m9d4 ,! lu/re 
( e virture adorn$ 9 my eyes ! idol ( my
 he>t2 to h soil$ _! div9e image w\ld h 

be5 to de/roy x4 ,i might h committ$ !  
crime2 x has be5 a hundr$ times committ$
 9 my he>t2 b to di%onor my ,sophia6    
,ah6 0 ?is ev] possible8 ,no6 ,i h told 
h] a hundr$ times x 0 n4 ,_h ,i _h x 9  
my p[] to satisfy my desires1 _h %e     
cons5t$ to commit h]self to my          
discretion1 ,i %\ld1 except 9 a few     
mom5ts ( delirium1 h refus$ to be happy 
at ! price ( h] honor4 ,i lov$ h] too   
well to wi% to possess h]4  ,! di/ance f
 ! ,h]mitage to ,raubonne is almo/ a    
league2 9 my frequ5t excursions to x ,i 
h sometimes slept !re4 ,"o ev5+ aft]    
hav+ supp$ tete-a-tete we w5t to walk 9 
! g>d5 by a f9e moonlight4 ,at ! bottom 
( ! g>d5 a consid]able copse1 ?r\gh :i* 
we pass$ on our way to a pretty grove   
ornam5t$ ) a cascade1 ( :i* ,i _h giv5  
h] ! idea1 & %e _h procur$ x to be      
execut$ accord+ly4  ,et]nal remembrance 
( innoc5ce & enjoym5t6 ,x 0 9 ?is grove 
t1 seat$ by h] side ^u a seat ( turf "u 
an acacia 9 full bloom1 ,i f\nd = !     
emotions ( my he>t a language wor?y (   

!m4 ,x 0 ! fir/ & only "t ( my life2 b  
,i 0 sublime3 if ev]y?+ amiable & s$uc+ 
) :i* ! mo/ t5d] & ard5t love c inspire 
! he>t ( man c be s call$4 ,:at         
intoxicat+ te>s did ,i %$ ^u h] knees6  
h[ _m did ,i make h] to %$ involunt>ily6
 ,at l5g? 9 an involunt>y transport %e  
exclaim$3 ,no1 nev] 0 a man s amiable1  
nor ev] 0 !re "o :o lov$ l y6 ,b y\r    
fri5d ,sa9t ,lamb]t he>s u1 & my he>t is
 incapable ( lov+ twice4 ,i exhau/$     
myself ) sighs2 ,i embrac$ h]--:at an   
embrace6 ,b ?is 0 all4 ,%e _h liv$ alone
 = ! la/ six mon?s1 t is abs5t f h]     
husb& & lov]2 ,i _h se5 h] almo/ e day  
dur+ ?ree mon?s1 & love seldom fail$ to 
make a ?ird4 ,we _h supp$ tete-a-tete1  
we 7 alone1 9 ! grove by moonlight1 &   
aft] two h\rs ( ! mo/ lively & t5d]     
conv]sation1 %e left ?is grove at       
midnight1 & ! arms ( h] lov]1 z morally 
& physically pure z %e _h ent]$ x4      
,read]1 weigh all ^! circum/ances2 ,i w 
add no?+ m4  ,d n1 h[ev]1 imag9e t 9 ?is
 situation my passions left me z        

undi/urb$ z ,i 0 ) ,!resa & mamma4 ,i h 
already obs]v$ ,i 0 ?is "t inspir$ n    
only ) love1 b ) love & all its en]gy & 
fury4 ,i w n describe ei!r ! agitations1
 trembl+s1 palpitations1 convulsion>y   
emotions1 nor fa9t+s ( ! he>t1 ,i       
cont9ually exp]i5c$2 ^! may be judg$ (  
by ! effect h] image alone made ^u me4  
,i h obs]v$ ! di/ance f ! ,h]mitage to  
,eaubonne 0 consid]able2 ,i w5t by !    
hills ( ,&illy1 :i* are delightful2 ,i  
mus$1 z ,i walk$1 on h] :om ,i 0 go+ to 
see1 ! *>m+ reception %e w\ld give me1 &
 ^u ! kiss :i* await$ me at my arrival4 
,?is s+le kiss1 ?is p]nici\s embrace1   
ev5 be=e ,i receiv$ x1 inflam$ my blood 
to su* a degree z to affect my head1 my 
eyes 7 dazzl$1 my knees trembl$1 & 7    
unable to support me2 ,i 0 oblig$ to /op
 & sit d[n2 my :ole frame 0 9           
inconceivable disord]1 & ,i 0 ^u ! po9t 
( fa9t+4 ,kn[+ ! dang]1 ,i endeavor$ at 
sett+ out to div]t my att5tion f !      
object1 & ?9k ( some?+ else4 ,i _h n    
proce$$ tw5ty /eps be=e ! same          

recollection1 & all t 0 ! consequ5ce (  
x1 assail$ me 9 su* a mann] t x 0       
impossible to avoid !m1 & 9 spite ( all 
my ef=ts ,i d n believe ,i ev] made ?is 
little excursion alone ) impunity4 ,i   
arriv$ at ,eaubonne1 weak1 exhau/$1 &   
sc>cely able to support myself4 ,! mom5t
 ,i saw h] ev]y?+ 0 repair$2 all ,i felt
 9 h] pres5ce 0 ! importunity ( an      
inexhau/ible & useless ardor4 ,^u ! road
 to ,raubonne !re 0 a pleasant t]race   
call$ ,mont ,olympe1 at :i* we sometimes
 met4 ,i arriv$ fir/1 x 0 prop] ,i %\ld 
wait = h]2 b h[ de> ?is wait+ co/ me6   
,to div]t my att5tion1 ,i endeavor$ to  
write ) my p5cil billets1 :i* ,i c\ld h 
writt5 ) ! pure/ drops ( my blood2 ,i   
nev] c\ld f9i% "o :i* 0 eligible4 ,:5 %e
 f\nd a note 9 ! ni*e ^u :i* we _h      
agre$1 all %e le>n$ f ! cont5ts 0 !     
deplorable /ate 9 :i* ,i 0 :5 ,i wrote  
x4 ,?is /ate & its cont9uation1 dur+    
?ree mon?s ( irritation & self-d5ial1 s 
exhau/$ me1 t ,i 0 sev]al ye>s be=e ,i  
recov]$ f x1 & at ! end ( ^! x left me  

an ailm5t :i* ,i %all c>ry ) me1 or :i* 
w c>ry me to ! grave4 ,su* 0 ! sole     
enjoym5t ( a man ( ! mo/ combu/ible     
con/itution1 b :o 01 at ! same "t1      
p]haps1 "o ( ! mo/ timid mortals nature 
ev] produc$4 ,su* 7 ! la/ happy days ,i 
c reckon ^u e>?2 at ! end ( ^! began !  
long tra9 ( evils1 9 :i* !re w be f\nd b
 little int]ruption4  ,x has be5 se5 t1 
dur+ ! :ole c\rse ( my life1 my he>t1 z 
transp>5t z cry/al1 has nev] be5 capable
 ( conceal+ = ! space ( a mom5t any     
s5tim5t 9 ! lea/ lively :i* _h tak5     
refuge 9 x4 ,x w !re=e be judg$ :e!r or 
n x 0 possible = me long to conceal my  
affection = ,madam d',h\detot4 ,our     
intimacy /ruck ! eyes ( ev]ybody1 we did
 n make ( x ei!r a secret or a my/]y4 ,x
 0 n ( a nature to require any su*      
precaution1 & z ,madam d',h\detot _h =  
me ! mo/ t5d] fri5d%ip ) :i* %e did n   
reproa* h]self1 & ,i = h] an e/eem ) !  
ju/ice ( :i* nobody 0 bett] acqua9t$ ?an
 myself2 %e frank1 abs5t1 he$less2 ,i   
true1 awkw>d1 haughty1 impati5t &       

*ol]ic2 ,we expos$ ourselves m 9        
deceitful security ?an we %\ld h done _h
 we be5 culpable4 ,we bo? w5t to !      
,*evrette2 we sometimes met !re by      
appo9tm5t4 ,we liv$ !re accord+ to our  
accu/om$ mann]2 walk+ toge!r e day talk+
 ( our am\rs1 our duties1 our fri5d1 &  
our innoc5t projects2 all ?is 9 ! p>k   
opposite ! ap>tm5t ( ,madam d',ep9ay1 "u
 h] w9d[s1 :5ce incessantly exam9+ u1 & 
?9k+ h]self brav$1 %e by h] eyes fill$  
h] he>t ) rage & indignation4  ,wom5 h !
 art ( conceal+ _! ang]1 especially :5 x
 is great4 ,madam d',ep9ay1 viol5t b    
delib]ate1 possess$ ?is art to an em95t 
degree4 ,%e feign$ n to see or suspect  
any?+1 & at ! same "t t %e d\bl$ t[>ds  
me h] c>es1 att5tion1 & allurem5ts1 %e  
affect$ to load h] si/]-9-law )         
incivilities & m>ks ( disda91 :i* %e    
seem+ly wi%$ to communicate to me4 ,x w 
easily be imag9$ %e did n succe$2 b ,i 0
 on ! rack4 ,torn by opposite passions1 
at ! same "t t ,i 0 s5sible ( h]        
c>esses1 ,i c\ld sc>cely conta9 my ang] 

:5 ,i saw h] want+ 9 good mann]s to     
,madam d',h\detot4 ,! angelic sweetness 
( ?is lady made h] endure ev]y?+ )\t    
compla9t1 or ev5 )\t be+ (f5d$4  ,%e 01 
9 fact1 s abs5t1 & always s little      
att5tive to ^! ?+s1 t half ! "t %e did n
 p]ceive !m4  ,i 0 s tak5 up ) my       
passion1 t1 see+ no?+ b ,sophia 7"o ( ! 
names ( ,madam d',h\detot71 ,i did n    
p]ceive t ,i 0 become ! laugh+-/ock ( ! 
:ole h\se1 & all ^? :o came to x4 ,!    
,b>on d',holba*1 :o nev]1 z ,i he>d (1  
_h be5 at ! ,*evrette1 0 "o ( ! latt]4  
,_h ,i at t "t be5 z mi/ru/ful z ,i am  
s9ce become1 ,i %\ld /rongly h suspect$ 
,madam d',ep9ay to h contriv$ ?is j\rney
 to give ! b>on ! amus+ spectacle ( an  
amor\s citiz54 ,b ,i 0 !n s /upid t ,i  
saw n t ev5 :i* 0 gl>+ to ev]ybody4 ,my 
/upidity did n1 h[ev]1 prev5t me f f9d+ 
9 ! b>on a m jovial & satisfi$ appe>ance
 ?an ord9>y4 ,in/ead ( look+ ^u me ) 8  
usual moros5ess1 he said to me a hundr$ 
jocose ?+s )\t my kn[+ :at he meant4    
,surprise 0 pa9t$ 9 my c\nt5ance1 b ,i  

answ]$ n a ^w3 ,madam d',ep9ay %ook h]  
sides ) laugh+2 ,i knew n :at possess$  
!m4 ,z no?+ yet pass$ ! b\nds (         
pleasantry1 ! be/ ?+ ,i c\ld h done1 _h 
,i be5 9 ! secret1 w\ld h be5 to h      
humor$ ! joke4 ,x is true ,i p]ceiv$    
amid ! rally+ gayety ( ! b>on1 t 8 eyes 
sp>kl$ ) a malici\s joy1 :i* c\ld h giv5
 me pa9 _h ,i !n rem>k$ x to ! degree x 
has s9ce occurr$ to my recollection4    
,"o day :5 ,i w5t to see ,madam         
d',h\detot1 at ,eaubonne1 aft] h] return
 f "o ( h] j\rneys to ,p>is1 ,i f\nd h] 
melan*oly1 & obs]v$ t %e _h be5 weep+4  
,i 0 oblig$ to put a re/ra9t on myself1 
because ,madam de ,bla9ville1 si/] to h]
 husb&1 0 pres5t2 b ! mom5t ,i f\nd an  
opportunity1 ,i express$ to h] my       
uneas9ess4 ,ah1 said %e1 ) a sigh1 ,i am
 mu* afraid y\r follies w co/ me !      
repose ( ! re/ ( my days4 ,/4 ,lamb]t   
has be5 in=m$ ( :at has pass$1 & ill    
in=m$ ( x4 ,he does me ju/ice1 b he is  
vex$2 & :at is /ill worse1 he conceals f
 me a "p ( 8 vexation4 ,=tunately ,i h n

 conceal$ f him any?+ relative to our   
connection :i* 0 =m$ "u 8 auspices4 ,my 
lett]s1 l my he>t1 7 full ( y\rself2 ,i 
made him acqua9t$ ) ev]y?+1 except y\r  
extravagant passion1 ( :i* ,i hop$ to   
cure y2 & :i* he imputes to me z a      
crime4 ,somebody has done u ill (fices4 
,i h be5 injur$1 b :at does ?is signify8
 ,ei!r let u entirely break ) ea* o!r1  
or d y be :at y ought to be4 ,i w n 9   
future h any?+ to conceal f my lov]4    
,?is 0 ! fir/ mom5t 9 :i* ,i 0 s5sible (
 ! %ame ( feel+ myself humbl$ by !      
s5tim5t ( my fault1 9 pres5ce ( a "y    
woman ( ^: j reproa*es ,i approv$1 & to 
:om ,i ought to h be5 a m5tor4 ,!       
indignation ,i felt aga9/ myself w\ld1  
p]haps1 h be5 suffici5t to ov]come my   
weakness1 _h n ! t5d] passion inspir$ me
 by ! victim ( x1 aga9 s(t5$ my he>t4   
,alas6 0 ?is a mom5t to h>d5 x :5 x 0   
ov]fl[$ by ! te>s :i* p5etrat$ x 9 e "p8
 ,?is t5d]ness 0 soon *ang$ into rage   
aga9/ ! vile in=m]s1 :o _h se5 no?+ b ! 
evil ( a crim9al b involunt>y s5tim5t1  

)\t believ+ or ev5 imag9+ ! s9c]e       
uprightness ( he>t by :i* x 0 c\nt]act$4
 ,we did n rema9 long 9 d\bt ab\t ! h&  
by :i* ! bl[ 0 direct$4  ,we bo? knew t 
,madam d',ep9ay correspond$ ) ,/4       
,lamb]t4 ,?is 0 n ! fir/ /orm %e _h     
rais$ up aga9/ ,madam d',h\detot1 f :om 
%e _h made a ?\s& ef=ts to deta* h]     
lov]1 ! success ( "s ( :i* made !       
consequ5ces to be dread$4 ,besides1     
,grimm1 :o1 ,i ?9k1 _h accompani$ ,m4 de
 ,ca/ries to ! army1 0 9 ,we/phalia1 z  
well z ,sa9t ,lamb]t2 !y sometimes      
visit$4 ,grimm _h made "s attempts on   
,madam d',h\detot1 :i* _h n succe$$1 &  
be+ extremely piqu$1 sudd5ly discont9u$ 
8 visits to h]4 ,let x be judg$ ) :at   
calmness1 mode/ z he is kn[n to be1 he  
suppos$ %e pref]r$ to him a man old] ?an
 himself1 & ( :om1 s9ce he _h frequ5t$ !
 great1 he _h nev] spok5 b z a p]son :om
 he patroniz$4  ,my suspicions ( ,madam 
d',ep9ay 7 *ang$ into a c]ta9ty ! mom5t 
,i he>d :at _h pass$ 9 my own h\se4 ,:5 
,i 0 at ! ,*evrette1 ,!resa frequ5tly   

came !re1 ei!r to br+ me lett]s or to   
pay me t att5tion :i* my ill /ate (     
heal? r5d]$ necess>y4 ,madam d',ep9ay _h
 ask$ h] if ,madam d',h\detot & ,i did n
 write to ea* o!r4 ,^u h] answ]+ 9 !    
affirmative1 ,madam d',ep9ay press$ h]  
to give h] ! lett]s ( ,madam d',h\detot1
 assur+ h] t %e w\ld reseal !m 9 su* a  
mann] z x %\ld nev] be kn[n4 ,!resa1 )\t
 %[+ h[ mu* %e 0 %ock$ at ! proposition1
 & )\t ev5 putt+ me ^u my gu>d1 did no?+
 m ?an seal ! lett]s %e br\ght me m     
c>efully2 a lucky precaution1 = ,madam  
d',ep9ay _h h] wat*$ :5 %e arriv$1 &1   
wait+ = h] 9 ! passage1 sev]al times    
c>ri$ h] audaci\sness z f> z to exam9e  
h] tuck]4 ,%e did m ev5 ?an ?is3 hav+ "o
 day invit$ h]self ) ,m4 de ,m>g5cy to  
d9n] at ! ,h]mitage1 = ! fir/ "t s9ce ,i
 resid$ !re1 %e seiz$ ! mom5t ,i 0 walk+
 ) ,m>g5cy to g into my closet ) ! "m & 
daught]1 & to press !m to %[ h] ! lett]s
 ( ,madam d',h\detot4 ,_h ! "m kn[n :]e 
! lett]s 71 !y w\ld h be5 giv5 to h]2   
=tunately1 ! daught] 0 ! only p]son :o 0

 9 ! secret1 & d5i$ my hav+ pres]v$ any 
"o ( !m4 ,a virtu\s1 fai?ful & g5]\s    
falsehood2 :il/ tru? w\ld h be5 a       
p]fidy4 ,madam d' ,ep9ay1 p]ceiv+ ,!resa
 0 n to be s$uc$1 endeavor$ to irritate 
h] by jeal\sy1 reproa*+ h] ) h] easy    
temp] & bl9dness4 ,h[ is x possible1    
said %e to h]1 y _c p]ceive !re is a    
crim9al int]c\rse betwe5 !m8 ,if besides
 :at /rikes y\r eyes y /& 9 ne$ ( o!r   
pro(s1 l5d y\r assi/ance to obta9 t :i* 
may furni% !m2 y say he te>s ! lett]s f 
,madam d',h\detot z soon z he has read  
!m4 ,well1 c>efully ga!r up ! pieces &  
give !m to me2 ,i w take ^u myself to   
put !m toge!r4  ,su* 7 ! lessons my     
fri5d gave to ! p>tn] ( my b$4  ,!resa  
_h ! discretion to conceal f me1 = a    
consid]able "t1 all ^! attempts2 b      
p]ceiv+ h[ mu* ,i 0 p]plex$1 %e ?\ght   
h]self oblig$ to in=m me ( ev]y?+1 to ! 
end t kn[+ ) :om ,i _h to d1 ,i might   
take my measures accord+ly4 ,my rage &  
indignation are n to be describ$4       
,in/ead ( dissembl+ ) ,madam d',ep9ay1  

accord+ to h] own example1 & mak+ use ( 
c\nt]plots1 ,i ab&on$ myself )\t res]ve 
to ! natural impetuosity ( my temp]2 & )
 my accu/om$ inconsid]at5ess came to an 
op5 rupture4 ,my imprud5ce w be judg$ ( 
by ! foll[+ lett]s1 :i* suffici5tly %[ !
 mann] ( proce$+ ( bo? p>ties on ?is    
occasion3  ,,note ,,f ,,madam           
,d',,ep9ay4 ,:y1 my de> fri5d1 d ,i n   
see y8 ,y make me uneasy4 ,y h s (t5    
promis$ me to d no?+ b g & come betwe5  
?is place & ! ,h]mitage6 ,9 ?is ,i h    
left y at lib]ty2 & y h suff]$ a week to
 pass )\t com+4 ,_h n ,i be5 told y 7   
well ,i %\ld h imag9$ ! contr>y4 ,i     
expect$ y ei!r ! day be=e ye/]day1 or   
ye/]day1 b f\nd myself disappo9t$4 ,my  
,god1 :at is ! matt] ) y8 ,y h no       
bus9ess1 nor c y h any uneas9ess2 = _h  
?is be5 ! case1 ,i flatt] myself y w\ld 
h come & communicat$ x to me4 ,y are1   
!re=e1 ill6 ,relieve me1 ,i besee* y1   
spe$ily f my fe>s4 ,adieu1 my de> fri5d3
 let ?is adieu produce me a good-morn+ f
 y4  ,,answ]4 ,i _c yet say any?+ to y4 

,i wait to be bett] in=m$1 & ?is ,i %all
 be soon] or lat]4 ,9 ! meantime be     
p]suad$ t innoc5ce w f9d a def5d]       
suffici5tly p[]ful to cause "s rep5tance
 9 ! sl&]]s1 be !y :o !y may4  ,,second 
,,note ,,f ,,! ,,same4 ,d y "k t y\r    
lett] fright5s me8 ,:at does x mean8 ,i 
h read x tw5ty times4 ,9 tru? ,i d n    
und]/& :at x means4 ,all ,i c p]ceive   
is1 t y are uneasy & torm5t$1 & t y wait
 until y are no long] s be=e y speak to 
me ^u ! subject4 ,is ?is1 my de> fri5d1 
:at we agre$ ^u8 ,:at !n is become ( t  
fri5d%ip & confid5ce1 & by :at means h  
,i lo/ !m8 ,is x ) me or = me t y are   
angry8 ,h[ev] ?is may be1 come to me ?is
 ev5+ ,i conjure y2 rememb] y promis$ me
 no long] ?an a week ago to let no?+    
rema9 ^u y\r m9d1 b imm$iately to       
communicate to me :atev] might make x   
uneasy4 ,my de> fri5d1 ,i live 9 t      
confid5ce--,!re--,i h j read y\r lett]  
aga92 ,i d n und]/& ! cont5ts bett]1 b  
!y make me tremble4 ,y seem to be       
cruelly agitat$4 ,i c\ld wi% to calm y\r

 m9d1 b z ,i am ignorant ( ! cause :5ce 
y\r uneas9ess arises1 ,i "k n :at to    
say1 except t ,i am z wret*$ z y\rself1 
& %all rema9 s until we meet4 ,if y are 
n "h ?is ev5+ at six o'clock1 ,i set (f 
to morr[ = ! ,h]mitage1 let ! wea!r be  
h[ x w1 & 9 :atev] /ate ( heal? ,i may  
be2 = ,i c no long] support ! inquietude
 ,i n[ feel4 ,good day1 my de> fri5d1 at
 all risks ,i take ! lib]ty to tell y1  
)\t kn[+ :e!r or n y are 9 ne$ ( su*    
advice1 to endeavor to /op ! progress   
uneas9ess makes 9 solitude4 ,a fly      
becomes a mon/]4 ,i h frequ5tly exp]i5c$
 x4  ,,answ]4 ,i c nei!r come to see y  
nor receive y\r visit s long z my pres5t
 inquietude cont9ues4 ,! confid5ce ( :i*
 y speak no long] exi/s1 & x w be easy =
 y to recov] x4 ,i see no?+ m 9 y\r     
pres5t anxiety ?an ! desire ( draw+ f ! 
confessions ( o!rs "s advantage         
agreeable to y\r views2 & my he>t1 s    
ready to p\r its ov]fl[+s into ano!r :i*
 op5s itself to receive !m1 is %ut aga9/
 trick & cunn+4 ,i di/+ui% y\r ord9>y   

address 9 ! difficulty y f9d 9 und]/&+  
my note4 ,d y ?9k me dupe en\gh to      
believe y h n compreh5d$ :at x meant8   
,no3 b ,i %all "k h[ to ov]come y\r     
subtleties by my frankness4 ,i w expla9 
myself m cle>ly1 t y may und]/& me /ill 
less4  ,two lov]s closely unit$ & wor?y 
( ea* o!r's love are de> to me2 ,i      
expect y w n "k :o ,i mean unless ,i "n 
!m4 ,i presume attempts h be5 made to   
disunite !m1 & t ,i h be5 made use ( to 
inspire "o ( ! two ) jeal\sy4 ,! *oice 0
 n judici\s1 b x appe>$ conv5i5t to !   
purposes ( malice1 & ( ?is malice x is y
 :om ,i suspect to be guilty4 ,i hope   
?is becomes m cle>4  ,?us ! woman :om ,i
 mo/ e/eem w\ld1 ) my k1 h be5 load$ ) !
 infamy ( divid+ h] he>t & p]son betwe5 
two lov]s1 & ,i ) t ( be+ "o ( ^!       
wret*es4 ,if ,i knew t1 = a s+le mom5t 9
 y\r life1 y ev] _h ?\ght ?is1 ei!r ( h]
 or myself1 ,i %\ld hate y until my la/ 
h\r4 ,b x is ) hav+ said1 & n ) hav+    
?\ght x1 t ,i *>ge y4 ,9 ?is case1 ,i _c
 compreh5d :i* ( ! ?ree y wi%$ to       

injure2 b1 if y love peace ( m9d1       
tremble le/ y %\ld h succe$$4 ,i h n    
conceal$ ei!r f y or h] all ! ill ,i ?9k
 ( c]ta9 connections1 b ,i wi% ^! to end
 by a means z virtu\s z _! cause1 & t an
 illegitimate love may be *ang$ into an 
et]nal fri5d%ip4 ,%\ld ,i1 :o nev] d ill
 to any p]son1 be ! innoc5t means ( do+ 
x to my fri5ds8 ,no1 ,i %\ld nev] =give 
y2 ,i %\ld become y\r irreconcilable    
enemy4 ,y\r secrets are all ,i %\ld     
respect2 = ,i w nev] be a man )\t honor4
  ,i d n appreh5d my pres5t p]plexity w 
cont9ue a long "t4 ,i %all soon "k :e!r 
or n ,i am deceiv$2 ,i %all !n p]haps h 
great injuries to repair1 :i* ,i w d ) z
 mu* *e]fulness z t ) :i* ! mo/         
agreeable act ( my life has be5         
accompani$4 ,b d y "k 9 :at mann] ,i w  
make am5ds = my faults dur+ ! %ort space
 ( "t ,i h to rema9 ne> to y8 ,by do+   
:at nobody b myself w\ld d2 by tell+ y  
freely :at ! _w ?9ks ( y1 & ! brea*es y 
h to repair 9 y\r reputation4 ,not)/&+  
all ! pret5d$ fri5ds by :om y are       

surr\nd$1 ! mom5t y see me dep>t y may  
bid adieu to tru?1 y w no long] f9d any 
p]son :o w tell x to y4   ,,?ird ,,lett]
 ,,f ,,! ,,same4  ,i did n und]/& y\r   
lett] ( ?is morn+2 ?is ,i told y because
 x 0 ! case4 ,i und]/& t ( ?is ev5+2 d n
 imag9e ,i %all ev] return an answ] to  
x2 ,i am too anxi\s to =get :at x       
conta9s2 & al?\gh y excite my pity1 ,i  
am n pro( aga9/ ! bitt]ness ) :i* x has 
fill$ my m9d4 ,i6 desc5d to trick &     
cunn+ ) y6 ,i6 accus$ ( ! blacke/ ( all 
infamies6 ,adieu1 ,i regret y\r hav+ !  
adieu4 ,i "k n :at ,i say adieu3 ,i %all
 be v anxi\s to =give y4 ,y w come :5 y 
please2 y w be bett] receiv$ ?an y\r    
suspicions des]ve4 ,all ,i h to desire (
 y is n to tr\ble y\rself ab\t my       
reputation4 ,! op9ion ( ! _w conc]n+ me 
is ( b little importance 9 my e/eem4 ,my
 conduct is good1 & ?is is suffici5t =  
me4 ,besides1 ,i am ignorant ( :at has  
happ5$ to ! two p]sons :o are de> to me 
z !y are to y4   ,?is la/ lett]         
extricat$ me f a t]rible emb>rassm5t1 & 

?rew me into ano!r ( almo/ ! same       
magnitude4 ,al?\gh ^! lett]s & answ]s 7 
s5t & return$ ! same day ) an extreme   
rapidity1 ! int]val _h be5 suffici5t to 
place ano!r betwe5 my rage & transport1 
& to give me "t to reflect on ! enormity
 ( my imprud5ce4 ,madam d',h\detot _h n 
recomm5d$ to me any?+ s mu* z to rema9  
quiet1 to leave h] ! c>e ( extricat+    
h]self1 & to avoid1 especially at t     
mom5t1 all noise & rupture2 & ,i1 by !  
mo/ op5 & atroci\s insults1 took !      
prop]e/ means ( c>ry+ rage to its       
greate/ height 9 ! he>t ( a woman :o 0  
already b too well dispos$ to x4 ,i n[  
c\ld naturally expect no?+ f h] b an    
answ] s haughty1 disda9ful1 & expressive
 ( contempt1 t ,i c\ld n1 )\t ! utmo/   
meanness1 d o!rwise ?an imm$iately quit 
h] h\se4 ,happily %e1 m adroit ?an ,i 0 
furi\s1 avoid$1 by ! mann] ( h] answ]1  
r$uc+ me to t extremity4 ,b x 0 necess>y
 ei!r to quit or imm$iately g & see h]2 
! alt]native 0 inevitable2 ,i resolv$ on
 ! latt]1 ?\gh ,i =esaw h[ mu* ,i mu/ be

 emb>rass$ 9 ! explanation4 ,= h[ 0 ,i  
to get ?r\gh x )\t expos+ ei!r ,madam   
d',h\detot or ,!resa8 & woe to h] :om ,i
 %\ld h nam$6 ,!re 0 no?+ t ! v5geance (
 an implacable & an intrigu+ woman did n
 make me fe> = ! p]son :o %\ld be !     
object ( x4 ,x 0 to prev5t ?is mis=tune 
t 9 my lett] ,i _h spok5 ( no?+ b       
suspicions1 t ,i might n be "u !        
necessity ( produc+ my pro(s4 ,?is1 x is
 true1 r5d]$ my transports less         
excusable2 no simple suspicions be+     
suffici5t to au?orize me to treat a     
woman1 & especially a fri5d1 9 ! mann]  
,i _h treat$ ,madam d',ep9ay4 ,b "h     
beg9s ! noble task ,i wor?ily fulfill$ (
 expiat+ my faults & secret weaknesses  
by *>g+ myself ) su* ( ! =m] z ,i 0     
incapable ( committ+1 & :i* ,i nev] did 
commit4  ,i _h n to be> ! attack ,i _h  
expect$1 & fe> 0 ! greate/ evil ,i      
receiv$ f x4 ,at my approa*1 ,madam d'  
,ep9ay ?rew h] arms ab\t my neck1 bur/+ 
into te>s4 ,?is unexpect$ reception1 &  
by an old fri5d1 extremely affect$ me2  

,i also %$ _m te>s4 ,i said to h] a few 
words :i* _h n mu* mean+2 %e utt]$ o!rs 
) /ill less1 & ev]y?+ end$ "h4 ,supp] 0 
s]v$2 we sat d[n to table1 :]e1 9       
expectation ( ! explanation ,i imag9$ to
 be def]r$ until supp] 0 ov]1 ,i made a 
v poor figure2 = ,i am s ov]p[]$ by !   
mo/ trifl+ inquietude ( m9d t ,i _c     
conceal x f p]sons ! lea/ cle>-sight$4  
,my emb>rass$ appe>ance mu/ h giv5 h]   
c\rage1 yet %e did n risk any?+ ^u t    
f\ndation4 ,!re 0 no m explanation aft] 
?an be=e supp]3 none took place on !    
next day1 & our little tete-a-tete      
conv]sations consi/$ ( indiff]5t ?+s1 or
 "s complim5t>y words on my "p1 by :i*1 
:ile ,i in=m$ h] ,i c\ld n say m        
relative to my suspicions1 ,i ass]t$1 ) 
! greate/ tru?1 t1 if !y 7 ill-f\nd$1 my
 :ole life %\ld be employ$ 9 repair+ !  
inju/ice4 ,%e did n %[ ! lea/ curiosity 
to "k precisely :at !y 71 nor = :at     
reason ,i _h =m$ !m1 & all our peacemak+
 consi/$1 on h] "p z well z on m9e1 9 ! 
embrace at our fir/ meet+4 ,s9ce ,madam 

d',ep9ay 0 ! only p]son (f5d$1 at lea/ 9
 =m1 ,i ?\ght x 0 n = me to /rive to br+
 ab\t an eclaircissem5t = :i* %e h]self 
did n seem anxi\s1 & ,i return$ z ,i _h 
come2 cont9u+1 besides1 to live ) h] ^u 
! same foot+ z be=e1 ,i soon almo/      
entirely =got ! qu>rel1 & fooli%ly      
believ$ %e _h done ! same1 because %e   
seem$ n to rememb] :at _h pass$4  ,?is1 
x w soon appe>1 0 n ! only vexation     
caus$ me by weakness2 b ,i _h o!rs n    
less disagreeable :i* ,i _h n br\ght ^u 
myself4 ,! only cause ( ^! 0 a desire ( 
=c+ me f my solitude1 by means ( torm5t+
 me4 ,^! orig9at$ f ,did]ot & !         
d',holba*i5s4       ,t is to take f x ! 
old woman :o 0 want$ 9 !                
conspiracy4  ,x is a/oni%+ t1 dur+ ?is  
long qu>rel1      my /upid confid5ce    
pres5t$ me f compreh5d+ t x 0      n me 
b h] :om !y want$ 9 ,p>is4  ,s9ce ,i _h 
resid$ at ! ,h]mitage1 ,did]ot          
incessantly h>rass$ me1 ei!r himself or 
by means ( ,de ,leyre1 & ,i soon p]ceiv$
 f ! pleasantries ( ! latt] ^u my       

rambl+s 9 ! groves1 ) :at pleasure he _h
 trave/i$ ! h]mit into ! gallant %eph]d4
 ,b ?is 0 n ! "q 9 my qu>rels ) ,did]ot2
 ! cause ( ^! 7 m s]i\s4 ,aft] !        
publication ( ,fils ,naturel he _h s5t  
me a copy ( x1 :i* ,i _h read ) ! int]e/
 & att5tion ,i ev] be/[$ on ! works ( a 
fri5d4 ,9 read+ ! k9d ( poem annex$ to  
x1 ,i 0 surpris$ & r griev$ to f9d 9 x1 
among/ sev]al ?+s1 disoblig+ b          
supportable aga9/ m5 9 solitude1 ?is    
bitt] & sev]e s5t5ce )\t ! lea/ s(t5+3  
',il n'y a que le m*ant qui soit seul4' 
--,?is s5t5ce is equivocal1 & seems to  
pres5t a d\ble mean+2 ! "o true1 ! o!r  
false1 s9ce x is impossible t a man :o  
is det]m9$ to rema9 alone c d ! lea/ h>m
 to anybody1 & consequ5tly he _c be     
wick$4 ,! s5t5ce 9 itself !re=e requir$ 
an int]pretation2 ! m s f an au?or :o1  
:5 he s5t x to ! press1 _h a fri5d      
retir$ f ! _w4 ,x appe>$ to me %ock+ &  
uncivil1 ei!r to h =gott5 t solit>y     
fri5d1 or1 9 rememb]+ him1 n to h made f
 ! g5]al maxim ! honorable & j exception

 :i* he ow$1 n only to 8 fri5d1 b to s  
_m respectable sages1 :o1 9 all ages1 h 
s\ght = peace & tranquillity 9          
retirem5t1 & ( :om1 = ! fir/ "t s9ce !  
creation ( ! _w1 a writ] took x into 8  
head indiscrim9ately to make s _m       
villa9s4  ,i _h a great affection & !   
mo/ s9c]e e/eem = ,did]ot1 & fully      
dep5d$ ^u 8 hav+ ! same s5tim5ts = me4  
,b tir$ ) 8 indefatigable ob/9acy 9     
cont9ually oppos+ my incl9ations1 ta/e1 
& mann] ( liv+1 & ev]y?+ :i* relat$ to  
no p]son b myself2 %ock$ at see+ a man  
y\ng] ?an ,i 0 wi%1 at all ev5ts1 to    
gov]n me l a *ild2 disgu/$ ) 8 facility 
9 promis+1 & 8 neglig5ce 9 p]=m+2 we>y (
 s _m appo9tm5ts giv5 by himself1 &     
caprici\sly brok51 :ile new ones 7 aga9 
giv5 only to be aga9 brok52 displeas$ at
 uselessly wait+ = him ?ree or f\r times
 a mon? on ! days he _h assign$1 & 9 d9+
 alone at night aft] hav+ gone to ,sa9t 
,d5is to meet him1 & wait$ ! :ole day = 
8 com+2 my he>t 0 already full ( ^!     
multipli$ injuries4 ,?is la/ appe>$ to  

me /ill m s]i\s1 & gave me inf9ite pa94 
,i wrote to compla9 ( x1 b 9 s mild &   
t5d] a mann] t ,i moi/5$ my pap] ) my   
te>s1 & my lett] 0 suffici5tly affect+  
to h drawn o!rs f himself4 ,x w\ld be   
impossible to guess 8 answ] on ?is      
subject3 x 0 lit]ally z foll[s3 ,i am   
glad my "w has pleas$ & affect$ y4 ,y   
are n ( my op9ion relative to h]mits4   
,say z mu* good ( !m z y please1 y w be 
! only "o 9 ! _w ( :om ,i %all ?9k well3
 ev5 on ?is !re w\ld be mu* to say 7 x  
possible to speak to y )\t giv+ y (f5ce4
 ,a woman eighty ye>s ( age6 etc4 ,a    
phrase ( a lett] f ! son ( ,madam       
d',ep9ay :i*1 if ,i "k y well1 mu/ h    
giv5 y mu* pa91 has be5 m5tion$ to me4  
,! la/ two expressions ( ?is lett] want 
explanation4  ,soon aft] ,i w5t to      
reside at ! ,h]mitage1 ,madam le        
,vasseur seem$ dissatisfi$ ) h]         
situation1 & to ?9k ! habitation too    
retir$4 ,hav+ he>d %e _h express$ h]    
dislike to ! place1 ,i (f]$ to s5d h]   
back to ,p>is1 if t 7 m agreeable to h]2

 to pay h] lodg+1 & to h ! same c>e tak5
 ( h] z if %e rema9$ ) me4 ,%e reject$  
my (f]1 assur$ me %e 0 v well satisfi$ )
 ! ,h]mitage1 & t ! c\ntry air 0 (      
s]vice to h]4 ,?is 0 evid5t1 =1 if ,i   
may s speak1 %e seem$ to become "y aga91
 & enjoy$ bett] heal? ?an at ,p>is4 ,h] 
daught] told me h] "m w\ld1 on ! :ole1 h
 be5 v sorry to quit ! ,h]mitage1 :i* 0 
really a v delightful abode1 be+ fond ( 
! little amusem5ts ( ! g>d5 & ! c>e ( ! 
fruit ( :i* %e _h ! h&l+1 b t %e _h     
said1 :at %e _h be5 desir$ to say1 to   
induce me to return to ,p>is4  ,fail+ 9 
?is attempt !y endeavor$ to obta9 by a  
scruple ! effect :i* complaisance _h n  
produc$1 & con/ru$ into a crime my keep+
 ! old woman at a di/ance f ! succors ( 
:i*1 at h] age1 %e might be 9 ne$4 ,!y  
did n recollect t %e1 & _m o!r old p1 ^:
 lives 7 prolong$ by ! air ( ! c\ntry1  
might obta9 ^! succors at ,montmor5cy1  
ne> to :i* ,i liv$2 z if !re 7 no old p1
 except 9 ,p>is1 & t x 0 impossible = !m
 to live 9 any o!r place4 ,madam le     

,vasseur :o ate a great deal1 & )       
extreme voracity1 0 subject to ov]fl[+s 
( bile & to /rong di>rhoeas1 :i* la/$   
sev]al days1 & s]v$ h] in/ead ( cly/]s4 
,at ,p>is %e nei!r did nor took any?+ = 
!m1 b left nature to itself4 ,%e obs]v$ 
! same rule at ! ,h]mitage1 kn[+ x 0 !  
be/ ?+ %e c\ld d4 ,no matt]1 s9ce !re 7 
n 9 ! c\ntry ei!r physicians or         
apo!c>ies1 keep+ h] !re mu/1 no d\bt1 be
 ) ! desire ( putt+ an end to h]        
exi/5ce1 al?\gh %e 0 9 p]fect heal?4    
,did]ot %\ld h det]m9$ at :at age1 "u   
pa9 ( be+ puni%$ = homicide1 x is no    
long] p]mitt$ to let old p rema9 out (  
,p>is4  ,?is 0 "o ( ! atroci\s          
accusations f :i* he did n except me 9 8
 rem>k2 t none b ! wick$ 7 alone3 & !   
mean+ ( 8 pa!tic exclamation ) ! et     
cet]a1 :i* he _h b5ignantly add$3 ,a    
woman ( eighty ye>s ( age1 etc4  ,i     
?\ght ! be/ answ] t c\ld be giv5 to ?is 
reproa* w\ld be f ,madam le ,vasseur    
h]self4 ,i desir$ h] to write freely &  
naturally h] s5tim5ts to ,madam         

d',ep9ay4 ,to relieve h] f all con/ra9t 
,i w\ld n see h] lett]4 ,i %[$ h] t :i* 
,i am go+ to transcribe4 ,i wrote x to  
,madam d',ep9ay ^u ! subject ( an answ] 
,i wi%$ to return to a lett] /ill m     
sev]e f ,did]ot1 & :i* %e _h prev5t$ me 
f s5d+4                                 
,?ursday4  ,my good fri5d4 ,madam le    
,vasseur is to write to y3 ,i h desir$  
h] to tell y s9c]ely :at %e ?9ks4 ,to   
remove f h] all con/ra9t1 ,i h intimat$ 
to h] t ,i w n see :at %e writes1 & ,i  
beg ( y n to communicate to me any "p ( 
! cont5ts ( h] lett]4  ,i w n s5d my    
lett] because y d n *oose ,i %\ld2 b1   
feel+ myself griev\sly (f5d$1 x w\ld be 
bas5ess & falsehood1 ( ei!r ( :i* x is  
impossible = me to be guilty1 to        
ackn[l$ge myself 9 ! wrong4 ,holy writ  
comm&s him to :om a bl[ is giv51 to turn
 ! o!r *eek1 b n to ask p>don4 ,d y     
rememb] ! man 9 com$y :o exclaims1 :ile 
he is giv+ ano!r bl[s ) 8 /aff1 ',?is is
 ! "p ( a philosoph]6'  ,d n flatt]     
y\rself t he w be prev5t$ f com+ by !   

bad wea!r we n[ h4 ,8 rage w give him ! 
"t & /r5g? :i* fri5d%ip refuses him1 & x
 w be ! fir/ "t 9 8 life he ev] came ^u 
! day he _h appo9t$4  ,he w neglect no?+
 to come & repeat to me v]bally !       
injuries ) :i* he loads me 9 8 lett]s2  
,i w endure !m all ) pati5ce--he w      
return to ,p>is to be ill aga92 &1      
accord+ to cu/om1 ,i %all be a v hateful
 man4 ,:at is to be done8 ,endure x all4
  ,b d n y admire ! wisdom ( ! man :o   
w\ld absolutely come to ,sa9t ,d5is 9 a 
hackney-coa* to d9e !re1 br+ me home 9 a
 hackney-coa*1 & ^: f9ances1 eight days 
aft]w>ds1 obliges him to come to !      
,h]mitage on foot8 ,x is n possible1 to 
speak 8 own language1 t ?is %\ld be !   
/yle ( s9c]ity4 ,b 7 ?is ! case1 /range 
*anges ( =tune mu/ h happ5$ 9 ! c\rse ( 
a week4  ,i jo9 9 y\r affliction = !    
illness ( madam1 y\r "m1 b y w p]ceive  
y\r grief is n equal to m9e4 ,we suff]  
less by see+ ! p]sons we love ill ?an :5
 !y are unju/ & cruel4  ,adieu1 my good 
fri5d1 ,i %all nev] aga9 m5tion to y ?is

 unhappy affair4 ,y speak ( go+ to ,p>is
 ) an unconc]n1 :i*1 at any o!r "t1 w\ld
 give me pleasure4  ,i wrote to ,did]ot1
 tell+ him :at ,i _h done1 relative to  
,madam le ,vasseur1 ^u ! proposal (     
,madam d',ep9ay h]self2 & ,madam le     
,vasseur hav+1 z x may be imag9$1 *os5  
to rema9 at ! ,h]mitage1 :]e %e enjoy$ a
 good /ate ( heal?1 always _h company1 &
 liv$ v agreeably1 ,did]ot1 n kn[+ :at  
else to attribute to me z a crime1      
con/ru$ my precaution into "o1 &        
discov]$ ano!r 9 ,madam le ,vasseur     
cont9u+ to reside at ! ,h]mitage1 al?\gh
 ?is 0 by h] own *oice2 & ?\gh h] go+ to
 ,p>is _h dep5d$1 & /ill dep5d$ ^u      
h]self1 :]e %e w\ld cont9ue to receive !
 same succors f me z ,i gave h] 9 my    
h\se4  ,?is is ! explanation ( ! fir/   
reproa* 9 ! lett] ( ,did]ot4 ,t ( !     
second is 9 ! lett] :i* foll[s3 ,! le>n$
 man 7a "n giv5 9 a joke by ,grimm to ! 
son ( ,madam d',ep9ay7 mu/ h in=m$ y !re
 7 ^u ! ramp>t tw5ty poor p]sons :o 7   
dy+ ) cold & hung]1 & wait+ = ! f>?+ y  

cu/om>ily gave !m4 ,?is is a specim5 (  
our little babbl+44444,& if y und]/& !  
re/ x w amuse y p]hap4  ,my answ] to ?is
 t]rible argum5t1 ( :i* ,did]ot seem$ s 
pr\d1 0 9 ! foll[+ words3  ,i ?9k ,i    
answ]$ ! le>n$ man2 t is1 ! f>m]-g5]al1 
t ,i did n pity ! poor :om he _h se5 ^u 
! ramp>t1 wait+ = my f>?+2 t he _h      
probably amply made x up to !m2 t ,i    
appo9t$ him my sub/itute1 t ! poor (    
,p>is w\ld h no reason to compla9 ( !   
*ange2 & t ,i %\ld n easily f9d s good a
 "o = ! poor ( ,montmor5cy1 :o 7 9 mu*  
great] ne$ ( assi/ance4 ,"h is a good & 
respectable old man1 :o1 aft] hav+ work$
 h>d all 8 lifetime1 no long] be+ able  
to cont9ue 8 labors1 is 9 8 old days dy+
 ) hung]4 ,my consci5ce is m satisfi$ ) 
! two s\s ,i give him e ,monday1 ?an ) !
 hundr$ f>?+s ,i %\ld h di/ribut$ among/
 all ! begg>s on ! ramp>t4 ,y are       
pleasant m51 y philosoph]s1 :ile y      
consid] ! inhabitants ( ! cities z !    
only p]sons :om y ought to befri5d4 ,x  
is 9 ! c\ntry m5 le>n h[ to love & s]ve 

humanity2 all !y le>n 9 cities is to    
despise x4  ,su* 7 ! s+ul> scruples on  
:i* a man ( s5se _h ! folly to attribute
 to me z a crime my retir+ f ,p>is1 &   
pret5d$ to prove to me by my own        
example1 t x 0 n possible to live out ( 
! capital )\t becom+ a bad man4 ,i _c at
 pres5t conceive h[ ,i c\ld be guilty ( 
! folly ( answ]+ him1 & ( suff]+ myself 
to be angry in/ead ( laugh+ 9 8 f>e4    
,h[ev]1 ! decisions ( ,madam d',ep9ay & 
! clamors ( ! ',cot]ie ,holba*ique' _h s
 f> op]at$ 9 h] favor1 t ,i 0 g5]ally   
?\ght to be 9 ! wrong2 & ! ,d',h\detot  
h]self1 v p>tial to ,did]ot1 insi/$ ^u  
my go+ to see him at ,p>is1 & mak+ all !
 advances t[>ds an accommodation :i*1   
full & s9c]e z x 0 on my "p1 0 n ( long 
duration4 ,! victori\s argum5t by :i* %e
 subdu$ my he>t 01 t at t mom5t ,did]ot 
0 9 di/ress4 ,besides ! /orm excit$     
aga9/ ! ',encyclop$ie'1 he _h !n ano!r  
viol5t "o to make head aga9/1 relative  
to 8 piece1 :i*1 not)/&+ ! %ort hi/ory  
he _h pr9t$ at ! head ( x1 he 0 accus$ (

 hav+ entirely tak5 f ,goldoni4 ,did]ot1
 m w\nd$ by criticisms ?an ,voltaire1 0 
ov]:elm$ by !m4 ,madam de ,grasigny _h  
be5 malici\s en\gh to spread a report t 
,i _h brok5 ) him on ?is acc\nt4 ,i     
?\ght x w\ld be j & g5]\s publicly to   
prove ! contr>y1 & ,i w5t to pass two   
days1 n only ) him1 b at 8 lodg+s4 ,?is1
 s9ce ,i _h tak5 up my abode at !       
,h]mitage1 0 my second j\rney to ,p>is4 
,i _h made ! fir/ to run to poor        
,gauffec\rt1 :o _h _h a /roke (         
apoplexy1 f :i* he has nev] p]fectly    
recov]$3 ,i did n quit ! side ( 8 pill[ 
until he 0 s f> re/or$ z to h no fur!r  
ne$ ( my assi/ance4  ,did]ot receiv$ me 
well4 ,h[ _m wrongs are effac$ by !     
embraces ( a fri5d6 aft] ^!1 :at        
res5tm5t c rema9 9 ! he>t8 ,we came to b
 little explanation4 ,?is is ne$less =  
reciprocal invectives4 ,! only ?+       
necess>y is to "k h[ to =get !m4 ,!re _h
 be5 no und]h& proce$+s1 none at lea/ t 
_h come to my k3 ! case 0 n ! same )    
,madam d' ,ep9ay4 ,he %[$ me ! plan ( ! 

',p]e de ,famille'4 ,?is1 said ,i to    
him1 is ! be/ def5ce to ! ',fils        
,naturel'4 ,be sil5t1 give y\r att5tion 
to ?is piece1 & !n ?r[ x at ! head ( y\r
 enemies z ! only answ] y ?9k prop] to  
make !m4 ,he did s1 & 0 satisfi$ ) :at  
he _h done4  ,i _h six mon?s be=e s5t   
him ! fir/ two p>ts ( my ',eloisa' to h 
8 op9ion ^u !m4 ,he _h n yet read ! "w  
ov]4 ,we read a "p ( x toge!r4 ,he f\nd 
?is 'feuillet'1 t 0 8 t]m1 by :i* he    
meant load$ ) words & r$undancies4 ,i   
myself _h already p]ceiv$ x2 b x 0 !    
babbl+ ( ! fev]3 ,i h nev] be5 able to  
correct x4 ,! la/ p>ts are n ! same4 ,! 
f\r? especially1 & ! six?1 are          
ma/]-pieces ( diction4  ,! day aft] my  
arrival1 he w\ld absolutely take me to  
sup ) ,m4 d',holba*4 ,we 7 f> f agree+  
on ?is po9t2 = ,i wi%$ ev5 to get rid ( 
! b>ga9 = ! manuscript on *emi/ry1 = :i*
 ,i 0 enrag$ to be oblig$ to t man4     
,did]ot c>ri$ all be=e him4 ,he swore   
,d',holba* lov$ me ) all 8 he>t1 said ,i
 mu/ =give him 8 mann]1 :i* 0 ! same to 

ev]ybody1 & m disagreeable to 8 fri5ds  
?an to o!rs4 ,he obs]v$ to me t1 refus+ 
! produce ( ?is manuscript1 aft] hav+   
accept$ x two ye>s be=e1 0 an affront to
 ! donor :i* he _h n des]v$1 & t my     
refusal might be int]pret$ into a secret
 reproa*1 = hav+ wait$ s long to        
conclude ! b>ga94 ,i see1 add$ he1      
,d',holba* e day1 & "k bett] ?an y d !  
nature ( 8 disposition4 ,_h y reason to 
be dissatisfi$ ) him1 d y ?9k y\r fri5d 
capable ( advis+ y to d a mean ?+8 ,9   
%ort1 ) my accu/om$ weakness1 ,i suff]$ 
myself to be prevail$ ^u1 & we w5t to   
sup ) ! b>on1 :o receiv$ me z he usually
 _h done4 ,b 8 wife receiv$ me coldly & 
almo/ uncivilly4 ,i saw no?+ 9 h] :i*   
resembl$ ! amiable ,c>ol9e1 :o1 :5 a    
maid1 express$ = me s _m good wi%es4 ,i 
?\ght ,i _h already p]ceiv$ t s9ce      
,grimm _h frequ5t$ ! h\se ( ,d',a9e1 ,i 
_h n met !re s fri5dly a reception4     
,:il/ ,i 0 at ,p>is1 ,sa9t ,lamb]t      
arriv$ !re f ! army4 ,z ,i 0 n acqua9t$ 
) 8 arrival1 ,i did n see him until aft]

 my return to ! c\ntry1 fir/ at !       
,*evrette1 & aft]w>ds at ! ,h]mitage2 to
 :i* he came ) ,madam d',h\detot1 &     
invit$ himself to d9n] ) me4 ,x may be  
judg$ :e!r or n ,i receiv$ him )        
pleasure6 ,b ,i felt "o /ill great] at  
see+ ! good und]/&+ betwe5 my gue/s4    
,satisfi$ ) n hav+ di/urb$ _! happ9ess1 
,i myself 0 happy 9 be+ a witness to x1 
& ,i c safely ass]t t1 dur+ ! :ole ( my 
mad passion1 & especially at ! mom5t (  
:i* ,i speak1 _h x be5 9 my p[] to take 
f him ,madam d',h\detot ,i w\ld n h done
 x1 nor %\ld ,i h s mu* z be5 tempt$ to 
und]take x4 ,i f\nd h] s amiable 9 h]   
passion = ,sa9t ,lamb]t1 t ,i c\ld      
sc>cely imag9e %e w\ld h be5 z mu* s _h 
%e lov$ me in/ead ( him2 & )\t wi%+ to  
di/urb _! union1 all ,i really desir$ ( 
h] 0 to p]mit h]self to be lov$4        
,f9ally1 h[ev] viol5t my passion may h  
be5 = ?is lady1 ,i f\nd x z agreeable to
 be ! confidant1 z ! object ( h] am\rs1 
& ,i nev] = a mom5t consid]$ h] lov] z a
 rival1 b always z my fri5d4 ,x w be    

said ?is 0 n love3 be x s1 b x 0 some?+ 
m4  ,z = ,sa9t ,lamb]t1 he behav$ l an  
hone/ & judici\s man3 z ,i 0 ! only     
p]son culpable1 s 0 ,i ! only "o :o 0   
puni%$2 ?is1 h[ev]1 0 ) ! greate/       
indulg5ce4 ,he treat$ me sev]ely1 b 9 a 
fri5dly mann]1 & ,i p]ceiv$ ,i _h lo/   
some?+ 9 8 e/eem1 b n ! lea/ "p ( 8     
fri5d%ip4 ,= ?is ,i consol$ myself1 kn[+
 x w\ld be mu* m easy to me to recov] ! 
"o ?an ! o!r1 & t he _h too mu* s5se to 
conf\nd an involunt>y weakness & a      
passion ) a vice ( "*4 ,if ev5 ,i 7 9   
fault 9 all t _h pass$1 ,i 0 b v little 
s4 ,_h ,i fir/ s\ght aft] 8 mi/ress8 ,_h
 n he himself s5t h] to me8 ,did n %e   
come 9 se>* ( me8 ,c\ld ,i avoid receiv+
 h]8 ,:at c\ld ,i d8 ,!y !mselves _h    
done ! evil1 & ,i 0 ! p]son on :om x    
fell4 ,9 my situation !y w\ld h done z  
mu* z ,i did1 & p]haps m2 =1 h[ev]      
e/imable & fai?ful ,madam d',h\detot    
might be1 %e 0 /ill a woman2 h] lov] 0  
abs5t2 opportunities 7 frequ5t2         
temptations /rong2 & x w\ld h be5 v     

difficult = h] always to h def5d$ h]self
 ) ! same success aga9/ a m ent]pris+   
man4 ,we c]ta9ly _h done a great deal 9 
our situation1 9 plac+ b\nd>ies beyond  
:i* we nev] p]mitt$ ourselves to pass4  
,al?\gh at ! bottom ( my he>t ,i f\nd   
evid5ce suffici5tly honorable 9 my      
favor1 s _m appe>ances 7 aga9/ me1 t !  
inv9cible %ame always pr$om9ant 9 me1   
gave me 9 8 pres5ce ! appe>ance ( guilt1
 & ( ?is he took advantage = ! purpose (
 humbl+ me3 a s+le circum/ance w        
describe ?is reciprocal situation4 ,i   
read to him1 aft] d9n]1 ! lett] ,i _h   
writt5 ! prec$+ ye> to ,voltaire1 & (   
:i* ,sa9t ,lamb]t _h he>d speak4 ,:il/  
,i 0 read+ he fell asleep1 & ,i1 lately 
s haughty1 at pres5t s fooli%1 d>$ n    
/op1 & cont9u$ to read :il/ he cont9u$  
to snore4 ,su* 7 my indignities & su* 8 
rev5ge2 b 8 g5]osity nev] p]mitt$ him to
 ex]cise !m2 except betwe5 ourselves4   
,aft] 8 return to ! army1 ,i f\nd ,madam
 d',h\detot greatly *ang$ 9 h] mann] )  
me4 ,at ?is ,i 0 z mu* surpris$ z if x  

_h n be5 :at ,i ought to h expect$2 x   
affect$ me m ?an x ought to h done1 &   
did me consid]able h>m4 ,x seem$ t      
ev]y?+ f :i* ,i expect$ a cure1 /ill    
plung$ deep] into my he>t ! d>t1 :i* ,i 
at l5g? broke 9 r ?an draw out4  ,i 0 q 
det]m9$ to conqu] myself1 & leave no    
means untri$ to *ange my fooli% passion 
into a pure & la/+ fri5d%ip4 ,= ?is     
purpose ,i _h =m$ ! f9e/ projects 9 !   
_w2 = ! execution ( :i* ! concurr5ce (  
,madam d' ,h\detot 0 necess>y4 ,:5 ,i   
wi%$ to speak to h] ,i f\nd h] abs5t &  
emb>rass$2 ,i p]ceiv$ ,i 0 no long]     
agreeable to h]1 & t some?+ _h pass$ :i*
 %e w\ld n communicate to me1 & :i* ,i h
 nev] yet kn[n4 ,?is *ange1 & !         
impossibility ( kn[+ ! reason ( x1      
griev$ me to ! he>t4  ,%e ask$ me = h]  
lett]s2 ^! ,i return$ h] ) a fidelity ( 
:i* %e did me ! insult to d\bt = a      
mom5t4  ,?is d\bt 0 ano!r w\nd giv5 to  
my he>t1 ) :i* %e mu/ h be5 s well      
acqua9t$4 ,%e did me ju/ice1 b n        
imm$iately3 ,i und]/ood t an exam9ation 

( ! packet ,i _h s5t h]1 made h] p]ceive
 h] error2 ,i saw %e reproa*$ h]self )  
x1 by :i* ,i 0 a ga9] ( some?+4 ,%e c\ld
 n take back h] lett]s )\t return+ me   
m9e4 ,%e told me %e _h burnt !m3 ( ?is  
,i d>$ to d\bt 9 my turn1 & ,i confess  
,i d\bt ( x at ?is mom5t4 ,no1 su*      
lett]s z m9e to h] 71 are nev] ?r[n into
 ! fire4 ,^? ( ,eloisa h be5 f\nd ard5t4
  ,heav5s6 :at w\ld h be5 said ( ^!6    
,no1 ,no1 %e :o c inspire a l passion1 w
 nev] h ! c\rage to burn ! pro(s ( x4 ,b
 ,i am n afraid ( h] hav+ made a bad use
 ( !m3 ( ?is ,i d n ?9k h] capable2 &   
besides ,i _h tak5 prop] measures to    
prev5t x4 ,! fooli%1 b /rong appreh5sion
 ( raill]y1 _h made me beg9 ?is         
correspond5ce 9 a mann] to secure my    
lett]s f all communication4 ,i c>ri$ !  
famili>ity ,i p]mitt$ myself ) h] 9 my  
intoxication s f> z to speak to h] 9 !  
s+ul> numb]3 b :at !e+ & ?\+6 %e c]ta9ly
 c\ld n be (f5d$ ) x4 ,yet %e sev]al    
times compla9$1 b ?is 0 always useless3 
h] compla9ts _h no o!r effect ?an t (   

awak5+ my fe>s1 & ,i besides c\ld n     
suff] myself to lose gr\nd4 ,if ^!      
lett]s be n yet de/roy$1 & %\ld !y ev]  
be made public1 ! _w w see 9 :at mann]  
,i h lov$4  ,! grief caus$ me by !      
coldness ( ,madam d',h\detot1 & !       
c]ta9ty ( n hav+ m]it$ x1 made me take !
 s+ul> resolution to compla9 ( x to     
,sa9t ,lamb]t himself4 ,:ile wait+ !    
effect ( ! lett] ,i wrote to him1 ,i    
s\ght dissipations to :i* ,i ought soon]
 to h _h rec\rse4 ,fetes 7 giv5 at !    
,*evrette = :i* ,i compos$ music4 ,!    
pleasure ( honor+ myself 9 ! eyes (     
,madam d',h\detot by a tal5t %e lov$1   
w>m$ my imag9ation1 & ano!r object /ill 
contribut$ to give x animation1 ?is 0 ! 
desire ! au?or ( ! ',dev9 du ,village'  
_h ( %[+ he und]/ood music2 = ,i _h     
p]ceiv$ "s p]sons _h1 = a consid]able "t
 pa/1 endeavor$ to r5d] ?is d\btful1 at 
lea/ ) respect to composition4 ,my      
beg9n+ at ,p>is1 ! ordeal ?r\gh :i* ,i  
_h sev]al times pass$ !re1 bo? at ! h\se
 ( ,m4 ,dup9 & t ( ,m4 de la ,popl9i]e2 

! quantity ( music ,i _h compos$ dur+   
f\rte5 ye>s 9 ! mid/ ( ! mo/ celebrat$  
ma/]s & be=e _! eyes3--f9ally1 ! op]a ( 
! ',muses ,gallantes'1 & t ev5 ( !      
',dev9'2 a motet ,i _h compos$ =        
,mademoiselle ,fel1 & :i* %e _h sung at 
! spiritual conc]t2 ! frequ5t conf]5ces 
,i _h _h ^u ?is f9e art ) ! fir/        
compos]s1 all seem$ to prev5t or        
dissipate a d\bt ( su* a nature4 ,?is   
h[ev] exi/$ ev5 at ! ,*evrette1 & 9 !   
m9d ( ,m4 d',ep9ay himself4 ,)\t appe>+ 
to obs]ve x1 ,i und]took to compose him 
a motet = ! d$ication ( ! *apel ( !     
,*evrette1 & ,i begg$ him to make *oice 
( ! words4 ,he direct$ de ,l9ant1 !     
tutor to 8 son1 to furni% me ) ^!4 ,de  
,l9ant gave me words prop] to ! subject1
 & 9 a week aft] ,i _h receiv$ !m !     
motet 0 f9i%$4 ,?is "t1 spite 0 my      
,apollo1 & nev] did bett] music come f  
my h&4 ,! words began )3 ',ecce s$es hic
 ,tonantis'4 7,i h s9ce le>n$ ^! 7 by   
,santeuil1 & t ,m4 de ,l9ant _h )\t     
scruple appropriat$ !m to himself47 ,!  

gr&eur ( ! op5+ is suitable to ! words1 
& ! re/ ( ! motet is s elegantly        
h>moni\s t ev]yone 0 /ruck ) x4 ,i _h   
compos$ x = a great or*e/ra4 ,d',ep9ay  
procur$ ! be/ p]=m]s4 ,madam ,bruna1 an 
,italian s+]1 sung ! motet1 & 0 well    
accompani$4 ,! composition succe$$ s    
well t x 0 aft]w>ds p]=m$ at ! spiritual
 conc]t1 :]e1 9 spite ( secret cabals1 &
 not)/&+ x 0 badly execut$1 x 0 twice   
g5]ally applaud$4 ,i gave = ! bir?day ( 
,m4 d',ep9ay ! idea ( a k9d ( piece half
 dramatic & half pantomimical1 ( :i* ,i 
also compos$ ! music4 ,grimm1 on 8      
arrival1 he>d speak ( my musical        
success4 ,an h\r aft]w>ds n a ^w m 0    
said on ! subject2 b !re no long] rema9$
 a d\bt1 n at lea/ t ,i "k (1 ( my k (  
composition4  ,grimm 0 sc>cely arriv$ at
 ! ,*evrette1 :]e ,i already did n mu*  
amuse myself1 be=e he made x            
insupportable to me by airs ,i nev] be=e
 saw 9 any p]son1 & ( :i* ,i _h no idea4
 ,! ev5+ be=e he came1 ,i 0 dislodg$ f !
 *amb] ( favor1 contigu\s to t ( ,madam 

d',ep9ay2 x 0 prep>$ = ,grimm1 & in/ead 
( x1 ,i 0 put into ano!r fur!r (f4 ,9   
?is mann]1 said ,i1 laugh+ly1 to ,madam 
d',ep9ay1 new-com]s displace ^? :i* are 
e/abli%$4 ,%e seem$ emb>rass$4 ,i 0     
bett] acqua9t$ ! same ev5+ ) ! reason = 
! *ange1 9 le>n+ t betwe5 h] *amb] & t  
,i _h quitt$ !re 0 a private door :i* %e
 _h ?\ght ne$less to %[ me4 ,h]         
int]c\rse ) ,grimm 0 n a secret ei!r 9  
h] own h\se or to ! public1 n ev5 to h] 
husb&2 yet1 f> f confess+ x to me1 !    
confidant ( secrets m important to h]1 &
 :i* 0 sure w\ld be fai?fully kept1 %e  
con/antly d5i$ x 9 ! /ronge/ mann]4 ,i  
compreh5d$ ?is res]ve proce$$ f ,grimm1 
:o1 ?\gh intru/$ ) all my secrets1 did n
 *oose ,i %\ld be ) any ( 84  ,h[ev]    
prejudic$ ,i 0 9 favor ( ?is man by =m] 
s5tim5ts1 :i* 7 n ext+ui%$1 & by ! real 
m]it he _h1 all 0 n pro( aga9/ ! c>es he
 took to de/roy x4 ,he receiv$ me l !   
,comte de ,tuffi]e2 he sc>cely deign$ to
 return my salute2 he nev] once spoke to
 me1 & prev5t$ my speak+ to him by n    

mak+ me any answ]2 he ev]y:]e pass$     
fir/1 & took ! fir/ place )\t ev] pay+  
me ! lea/ att5tion4 ,all ?is w\ld h be5 
supportable _h he n accompani$ x ) a    
%ock+ affectation1 :i* may be judg$ ( by
 "o example tak5 f a hundr$4 ,"o ev5+   
,madam d',ep9ay1 f9d+ h]self a little   
indispos$1 ord]$ some?+ = h] supp] to be
 c>ri$ into h] *amb]1 & w5t up /airs to 
sup by ! side ( ! fire4 ,%e ask$ me to g
 ) h]1 :i* ,i did4 ,grimm came aft]w>ds4
 ,! little table 0 already plac$1 & !re 
7 b two cov]s4 ,supp] 0 s]v$2 ,madam d' 
,ep9ay took h] place on "o side ( !     
fire1 ,grimm took an arm$ *air1 seat$   
himself at ! o!r1 drew ! little table   
betwe5 !m1 op5$ 8 napk91 & prep>$       
himself = eat+ )\t speak+ to me a s+le  
^w4  ,madam d' ,ep9ay blu%$ at 8        
behavior1 &1 to induce him to repair 8  
rud5ess1 (f]$ me h] place4 ,he said     
no?+1 nor did he ev] look at me4 ,n be+ 
able to approa* ! fire1 ,i walk$ ab\t ! 
*amb] until a cov] 0 br\ght4 ,indispos$ 
z ,i 01 old] ?an himself1 long] acqua9t$

 9 ! h\se ?an he _h be51 ! p]son :o _h  
introduc$ him !re1 & to :om z a favorite
 ( ! lady he ought to h done ! honors ( 
x1 he suff]$ me to sup at ! end ( !     
table1 at a di/ance f ! fire1 )\t %[+ me
 ! lea/ civility4 ,8 :ole behavior to me
 correspond$ ) ?is example ( x4 ,he did 
n treat me precisely z 8 inf]ior1 b he  
look$ ^u me z a ciph]4 ,i c\ld sc>cely  
recognize ! same ,grimm1 :o1 at ! h\se (
 ! ,pr9ce de ,saxe-,go?a1 ?\ght himself 
honor$ :5 ,i ca/ my eyes ^u him4 ,i _h  
/ill m difficulty 9 reconcil+ ?is pr(\nd
 sil5ce & insult+ haught9ess ) ! t5d]   
fri5d%ip he pr(ess$ = me to ^? :om he   
knew to be real fri5ds4 ,x is true !    
only pro(s he gave ( x 0 pity+ my wret*$
 =tune1 ( :i* ,i did n compla92         
compassionat+ my sad fate1 ) :i* ,i 0   
satisfi$2 & lam5t+ to see me ob/9ately  
refuse ! b5evol5t s]vices1 he said1 he  
wi%$ to r5d] me4 ,?us 0 x he artfully   
made ! _w admire 8 affectionate         
g5]osity1 blame my ungrateful           
misan?ropy1 & ins5sibly accu/om$ p to   

imag9e !re 0 no?+ m betwe5 a protector l
 him & a wret* l myself1 ?an a          
connection f\nd$ ^u b5efactions on "o "p
 & obligations on ! o!r1 )\t once ?9k+ (
 a fri5d%ip betwe5 equals4 ,= my "p1 ,i 
h va9ly s\ght to discov] 9 :at ,i 0 "u  
an obligation to ?is new protector4 ,i  
_h l5t him money1 he _h nev] l5t me any2
 ,i _h att5d$ him 9 8 illness1 he       
sc>cely came to see me 9 m9e2 ,i _h giv5
 him all my fri5ds1 he nev] _h giv5 me  
any ( 82 ,i _h said ev]y?+ ,i c\ld 9 8  
favor1 & if ev] he has spok5 ( me x has 
be5 less publicly & 9 ano!r mann]4 ,he  
has nev] ei!r r5d]$ or (f]$ me ! lea/   
s]vice ( any k9d4 ,h[1 !re=e1 0 he my   
,meca5as8 ,9 :at mann] 0 ,i protect$ by 
him8 ,?is 0 incompreh5sible to me1 &    
/ill rema9s s4  ,x is true1 he 0 m or   
less arrogant ) ev]ybody1 b ,i 0 ! only 
p]son ) :om he 0 brutally s4 ,i rememb] 
,sa9t ,lamb]t once ready to ?r[ a plate 
at 8 head1 ^u 81 9 "s measure1 giv+ him 
! lie at table by vulg>ly say+1 ,t is n 
true4 ,) 8 naturally imp]i\s mann] he _h

 ! self-suffici5cy ( an up/>t1 & became 
ridicul\s by be+ extravagantly imp]t95t4
 ,an int]c\rse ) ! great _h s f>        
intoxicat$ him t he gave himself airs   
:i* none b ! contemptible "p ( !m ev]   
assume4 ,he nev] call$ 8 lackey b by    
,eh6 z if among/ ! numb] ( 8 s]vants my 
"l _h n kn[n :i* 0 9 wait+4 ,:5 he s5t  
him to buy any?+1 he ?rew ! money ^u !  
gr\nd in/ead ( putt+ x into 8 h&4 ,9    
%ort1 entirely =gett+ he 0 a man1 he    
treat$ him ) su* %ock+ contempt1 & s    
cruel a disda9 9 ev]y?+1 t ! poor lad1 a
 v good creature1 :om ,madam d',ep9ay _h
 recomm5d$1 quitt$ 8 s]vice )\t any o!r 
compla9t ?an t ( ! impossibility (      
endur+ su* treatm5t4 ,?is 0 ! la ,fleur 
( ?is new presum+ up/>t4  ,z ^! ?+s 7   
no?+ m ?an ridicul\s1 b q opposite to my
 "*1 !y contribut$ to r5d] him suspici\s
 to me4 ,i c\ld easily imag9e t a man ^:
 head 0 s mu* d]ang$ c\ld n h a he>t    
well plac$4 ,he piqu$ himself ^u no?+ s 
mu* z ^u s5tim5ts4 ,h[ c\ld ?is agree ) 
defects :i* are peculi> to little m9ds8 

,h[ c ! cont9u$ ov]fl[+s ( a susceptible
 he>t suff] x to be incessantly employ$ 
9 s _m little c>es relative to ! p]son8 
,he :o feels 8 he>t inflam$ ) ?is       
cele/ial fire /rives to diffuse x1 &    
wi%es to %[ :at he int]nally is4 ,he    
w\ld wi% to place 8 he>t 9 8 c\nt5ance1 
& ?9ks n ( o!r pa9t = 8 *eeks4  ,i      
rememb] ! summ>y ( 8 morality :i* ,madam
 d',ep9ay _h m5tion$ to me & adopt$4    
,?is consi/$ 9 "o s+le article2 t ! sole
 duty ( man is to foll[ all !           
incl9ations ( 8 he>t4 ,?is morality1 :5 
,i he>d x m5tion$1 gave me great matt] (
 reflection1 al?\gh ,i at fir/ consid]$ 
x solely z a play ( wit4 ,b ,i soon     
p]ceiv$ x 0 a pr9ciple really ! rule ( 8
 conduct1 & ( :i* ,i aft]w>ds _h1 at my 
own exp5se1 b too _m conv9c+ pro(s4 ,x  
is ! int]ior doctr9e ,did]ot has s      
frequ5tly intimat$ to me1 b :i* ,i nev] 
he>d him expla94  ,i rememb] hav+ sev]al
 ye>s be=e be5 frequ5tly told t ,grimm 0
 false1 t he _h no?+ m ?an ! appe>ance (
 s5tim5t1 & p>ticul>ly t he did n love  

me4 ,i recollect$ sev]al little         
anecdotes :i* ,i _h he>d ( him by ,m4 de
 ,francueil & ,madam de ,*5onceaux1     
nei!r ( :om e/eem$ him1 & to :om he mu/ 
h be5 kn[n1 z ,madam de ,*5onceaux 0    
daught] to ,madam de ,ro*e*\>t1 !       
intimate fri5d ( ! late ,comte de       
,friese1 & t ,m4 de ,francueil1 at t "t 
v intimate ) ! ,visc\nt de ,polignac1 _h
 liv$ a good deal at ! ,palais ,royal   
precisely :5 ,grimm began to introduce  
himself !re4 ,all ,p>is he>d ( 8 despair
 aft] ! dea? ( ! ,comte de ,friese4 ,x 0
 necess>y to support ! reputation he _h 
acquir$ aft] ! rigors ( ,mademoiselle   
,fel1 & ( :i* ,i1 m ?an any o!r p]son1  
%\ld h se5 ! impo/ure1 _h ,i be5 less   
bl9d4 ,he 0 oblig$ to be dragg$ to !    
,hotel de ,ca/ries :]e he wor?ily play$ 
8 "p1 ab&on$ to ! mo/ mortal affliction4
 ,!re1 he e morn+ w5t into ! g>d5 to    
weep at 8 ease1 hold+ be=e 8 eyes 8     
h&k]*ief moi/5$ ) te>s1 z long z he 0 9 
sight ( ! hotel1 b at ! turn+ ( a c]ta9 
alley1 p1 ( :om he little ?\ght1 saw him

 in/antly put 8 h&k]*ief 9 8 pocket &   
take out ( x a book4 ,?is obs]vation1   
:i* 0 repeat$ly made1 soon became public
 9 ,p>is1 & 0 almo/ z soon =gott54 ,i   
myself _h =gott5 x2 a circum/ance 9 :i* 
,i 0 conc]n$ br\ght x to my             
recollection4 ,i 0 at ! po9t ( dea? 9 my
 b$1 9 ! ,rue de ,gr5elle1 ,grimm 0 9 ! 
c\ntry2 he came "o morn+1 q out ( brea?1
 to see me1 say+1 he _h arriv$ 9 t[n t v
 in/ant2 & a mom5t aft]w>ds ,i le>n$ he 
_h arriv$ ! ev5+ be=e1 & _h be5 se5 at !
 !atre4  ,i he>d _m ?+s ( ! same k9d2 b 
an obs]vation1 :i* ,i 0 surpris$ n to h 
made soon]1 /ruck me m ?an any?+ else4  
,i _h giv5 to ,grimm all my fri5ds )\t  
exception1 !y 7 become 84 ,i 0 s        
insep>able f him1 t ,i %\ld h _h "s     
difficulty 9 cont9u+ to visit at a h\se 
:]e he 0 n receiv$4 ,madam de ,crequi 0 
! only p]son :o refus$ to admit him into
 h] company1 & :om = t reason ,i h      
seldom s9ce se54 ,grimm on 8 "p made    
himself o!r fri5ds1 z well by 8 own     
means1 z by ^? ( ! ,comte de ,friese4 ,(

 all ^! n "o ( !m ev] became my fri5d3  
he nev] said a ^w to induce me ev5 to   
become acqua9t$ ) !m1 & n "o ( ^? ,i    
sometimes met at 8 ap>tm5ts ev] %[$ me !
 lea/ good w2 ! ,comte de ,friese1 9 ^: 
h\se he liv$1 & ) :om x consequ5tly w\ld
 h be5 agreeable to me to =m "s         
connection1 n except$1 nor ! ,comte de  
,s*omb]g1 8 relation1 ) :om ,grimm 0    
/ill m intimate4  ,add to ?is1 my own   
fri5ds1 :om ,i made 81 & :o 7 all t5d]ly
 atta*$ to me be=e ?is acqua9tance1 7 no
 long] s ! mom5t x 0 made4 ,he nev] gave
 me "o ( 84 ,i gave him all m9e1 & ^! he
 has tak5 f me4 ,if ^! be ! effects (   
fri5d%ip1 :at are ^? ( enmity8  ,did]ot 
himself told me sev]al times at ! beg9n+
 t ,grimm 9 :om ,i _h s mu* confid5ce1 0
 n my fri5d4 ,he *ang$ 8 language !     
mom5t he 0 no long] s himself4  ,! mann]
 9 :i* ,i _h dispos$ ( my *ildr5 want$ n
 ! concurr5ce ( any p]son4 ,yet ,i in=m$
 "s ( my fri5ds ( x1 solely to make x   
kn[n to !m1 & t ,i might n 9 _! eyes    
appe> bett] ?an ,i 04 ,^! fri5ds 7 ?ree 

9 numb]3 ,did]ot1 ,grimm1 & ,madam      
d',ep9ay4 ,duclos1 ! mo/ wor?y ( my     
confid5ce1 0 ! only real fri5d :om ,i   
did n in=m ( x4 ,he nev]!less knew :at  
,i _h done4 ,by :om8 ,?is ,i "k n4 ,x is
 n v probable ! p]fidy came f ,madam    
d',ep9ay1 :o knew t by foll[+ h]        
example1 _h ,i be5 capable ( do+ x1 ,i  
_h 9 my p[] ! means ( a cruel rev5ge4 ,x
 rema9s !re=e betwe5 ,grimm & ,did]ot1  
!n s mu* unit$1 especially aga9/ me1 & x
 is probable ?is crime 0 common to !m   
bo?4 ,i w\ld lay a wag] t ,duclos1 to   
:om ,i nev] told my secret1 & :o        
consequ5tly 0 at lib]ty to make :at use 
he pleas$ ( 8 in=mation1 is ! only p]son
 :o has n spok5 ( x aga94  ,grimm &     
,did]ot1 9 _! project to take f me !    
gov]nesses1 _h us$ ! greate/ ef=ts to   
make ,duclos ent] into _! views2 b ?is  
he refus$ to d ) disda94 ,x 0 n until   
sometime aft]w>ds t ,i le>n$ f him :at  
_h pass$ betwe5 !m on ! subject2 b ,i   
le>n$ at ! "t f ,!resa en\gh to p]ceive 
!re 0 "s secret design1 & t !y wi%$ to  

dispose ( me1 if n aga9/ my own cons5t1 
at lea/ )\t my k1 or _h an int5tion (   
mak+ ^! two p]sons s]ve z in/rum5ts ( "s
 project !y _h 9 view4 ,?is 0 f> f      
upright conduct4 ,! opposition ( ,duclos
 is a conv9c+ pro( ( x4 ,!y :o ?9k prop]
 may believe x to be fri5d%ip4  ,?is    
pret5d$ fri5d%ip 0 z fatal to me at home
 z x 0 abroad4 ,! long & frequ5t        
conv]sations ) ,madam le ,vasseur1 =    
sev]al ye>s pa/1 _h made a s5sible *ange
 9 ?is woman's behavior to me1 & ! *ange
 0 f> f be+ 9 my favor4 ,:at 0 ! subject
 ( ^! s+ul> conv]sations8 ,:y su* a     
pr(\nd my/]y8 ,0 ! conv]sation ( t old  
woman agreeable en\gh to take h] into   
favor1 & ( suffici5t importance to make 
( x s great a secret8 ,dur+ ! two or    
?ree ye>s ^! colloquies _h1 f "t to "t1 
be5 cont9u$1 !y _h appe>$ to me         
ridicul\s2 b :5 ,i ?\ght ( !m aga91 !y  
began to a/oni% me4 ,?is a/oni%m5t w\ld 
h be5 c>ri$ to inquietude _h ,i !n kn[n 
:at ! old creature 0 prep>+ = me4       
,not)/&+ ! pret5d$ zeal = my welf>e (   

:i* ,grimm made su* a public boa/1      
difficult to reconcile ) ! airs he gave 
himself :5 we 7 toge!r1 ,i he>d no?+ (  
him f any qu>t] ! lea/ to my advantage1 
& 8 feign$ commis]ation t5d$ less to d  
me s]vice ?an to r5d] me contemptible4  
,he depriv$ me z mu* z he possibly c\ld 
( ! res\rce ,i f\nd 9 ! employm5t ,i _h 
*os51 by decry+ me z a bad copyi/4 ,i   
confess he spoke ! tru?2 b 9 ?is case x 
0 n = him to d x4 ,he prov$ himself 9   
e>ne/ by employ+ ano!r copyi/1 &        
prevail+ ^u ev]ybody he c\ld1 by :om ,i 
0 engag$1 to d ! same4 ,8 int5tion might
 h be5 suppos$ to be t ( r$uc+ me to a  
dep5d5ce ^u him & 8 cr$it = a subsi/5ce1
 & to cut (f ! latt] until ,i 0 br\ght  
to t degree ( di/ress4  ,all ?+s        
consid]$1 my reason impos$ sil5ce ^u my 
=m] prejudice1 :i* /ill plead$ 9 8      
favor4 ,i judg$ 8 "* to be at lea/      
suspici\s1 & ) respect to 8 fri5d%ip ,i 
positively decid$ x to be false4 ,i !n  
resolv$ to see him no m1 & in=m$ ,madam 
d',ep9ay ( ! resolution ,i _h tak51     

support+1 x ) sev]al unansw]able facts1 
b :i* ,i h n[ =gott54  ,%e /rongly      
combat$ my resolution )\t kn[+ h[ to    
reply to ! reasons on :i* x 0 f\nd$4 ,%e
 _h n conc]t$ ) him2 b ! next day1      
in/ead ( expla9+ h]self v]bally1 %e1 )  
great address1 gave me a lett] !y _h    
drawn up toge!r1 & by :i*1 )\t ent]+    
into a detail ( facts1 %e ju/ifi$ him by
 8 conc5trat$ "*1 attribut$ to me z a   
crime my hav+ suspect$ him ( p]fidy     
t[>ds 8 fri5d1 & exhort$ me to come to  
an accommodation ) him4 ,?is lett]      
/agg]$ me4 ,9 a conv]sation we aft]w>ds 
_h toge!r1 & 9 :i* ,i f\nd h] bett]     
prep>$ ?an %e _h be5 ! fir/ "t1 ,i      
suff]$ myself to be q prevail$ ^u1 & 0  
incl9$ to believe ,i might h judg$      
errone\sly4 ,9 ?is case ,i ?\ght ,i     
really _h done a fri5d a v s]i\s injury1
 :i* x 0 my duty to repair4 ,9 %ort1 z  
,i _h already done sev]al times )       
,did]ot1 & ! ,b>on d',holba*1 half f    
incl9ation1 & half f weakness1 ,i made  
all ! advances ,i _h a "r to require2 ,i

 w5t to ,m4 ,grimm1 l ano!r ,george     
,d&91 to make him my apologies = ! (f5ce
 he _h giv5 me2 /ill 9 ! false          
p]suasion1 :i*1 9 ! c\rse ( my life has 
made me guilty ( a ?\s& meannesses to my
 pret5d$ fri5ds1 t !re is no hatr$ :i*  
may n be dis>m$ by mildness & prop]     
behavior2 :]eas1 on ! contr>y1 ! hatr$ (
 ! wick$ becomes /ill m env5om$ by !    
impossibility ( f9d+ any?+ to f\nd x ^u1
 & ! s5tim5t ( _! own inju/ice is ano!r 
cause ( (f5ce aga9/ ! p]son :o is !     
object ( x4 ,i h1 )\t go+ fur!r ?an my  
own hi/ory1 a /rong pro( ( ?is maxim 9  
,grimm1 & 9 ,tron*92 bo? became my      
implacable enemies f incl9ation1        
pleasure & fancy1 )\t hav+ be5 able to  
*>ge me ) hav+ done ei!r ( !m ! mo/     
trifl+ injury1 & ^: rage1 l t ( tig]s1  
becomes daily m fi]ce by ! facility (   
satiat+ x4       ,i did n give ! surname
 ( ,jongleur  to ! latt] until a        
long "t aft] 8 enmity _h be5 decl>$1 & !
 p]secutions      he br\ght ^u me at    
,g5eva & else:]e4  ,i soon suppress$ !  

"n ! mom5t ,i p]ceiv$ ,i 0 entirely 8   
victim4  ,mean      v5geance is unwor?y 
( my he>t1 & hatr$ nev] takes ! lea/    
root 9 x4  ,i expect$ t ,grimm1 confus$ 
by my condesc5sion & advances1 w\ld     
receive me ) op5 arms1 & ! mo/ t5d]     
fri5d%ip4 ,he receiv$ me z a ,roman     
,emp]or w\ld h done1 & ) a haught9ess ,i
 nev] saw 9 any p]son b himself4 ,i 0 by
 no means prep>$ = su* a reception4 ,:51
 9 ! emb>rassm5t ( ! "p ,i _h to act1 & 
:i* 0 s unwor?y ( me1 ,i _h1 9 a few    
words & ) a timid air1 fulfill$ ! object
 :i* _h br\ght me to him2 be=e he       
receiv$ me into favor1 he pron\nc$1 ) a 
deal ( maje/y1 an h>angue he _h prep>$1 
& :i* conta9$ a long enum]ation ( 8 r>e 
virtues1 & especially ^? connect$ )     
fri5d%ip4 ,he laid great /ress ^u a ?+  
:i* at fir/ /ruck me a great deal3 ?is 0
 8 hav+ always pres]v$ ! same fri5ds4   
,:il/ he 0 yet speak+1 ,i said to       
myself1 x w\ld be cruel = me to be !    
only exception to ?is rule4 ,he return$ 
to ! subject s frequ5tly1 & ) su*       

emphasis1 t ,i ?\ght1 if 9 ?is he foll[$
 no?+ b ! s5tim5ts ( 8 he>t1 he w\ld be 
less /ruck ) ! maxim1 & t he made ( x an
 art useful to 8 views by procur+ !     
means ( accompli%+ !m4 ,until !n ,i _h  
be5 9 ! same situation2 ,i _h pres]v$   
all my fir/ fri5ds1 ^? ev5 f my t5d]e/  
infancy1 )\t hav+ lo/ "o ( !m except by 
dea?1 & yet ,i _h nev] be=e made !      
reflection3 x 0 n a maxim ,i _h         
prescrib$ myself4 ,s9ce1 !re=e1 !       
advantage 0 common to bo?1 :y did he    
boa/ ( x 9 pref]5ce1 if he _h n         
previ\sly int5d$ to deprive me ( ! m]it8
 ,he aft]w>ds endeavor$ to humble me by 
pro(s ( ! pref]5ce our common fri5ds    
gave to him4 ,) ?is ,i 0 z well acqua9t$
 z himself2 ! "q 01 by :at means he _h  
obta9$ x8 :e!r x 0 by m]it or address8  
by exalt+ himself1 or endeavor+ to abase
 me8 ,at la/1 :5 he _h plac$ betwe5 u   
all ! di/ance t he c\ld add to ! value (
 ! favor he 0 ab\t to conf]1 he grant$  
me ! kiss ( peace1 9 a slight embrace   
:i* resembl$ ! accolade :i* ! k+ gives  

to newmade knights4 ,i 0 /upefi$ )      
surprise3 ,i knew n :at to say2 n a ^w  
c\ld ,i utt]4 ,! :ole sc5e _h !         
appe>ance ( ! reprim& a preceptor gives 
to 8 pupil :ile he graci\sly sp>es      
inflict+ ! rod4 ,i nev] ?9k ( x )\t     
p]ceiv+ to :at degree judgm5ts1 f\nd$ ^u
 appe>ances to :i* ! vulg> give s mu*   
weight1 are deceitful1 & h[ frequ5tly   
audaci\sness & pride are f\nd 9 !       
guilty1 & %ame & emb>rassm5t 9 !        
innoc5t4  ,we 7 reconcil$3 ?is 0 a      
relief to my he>t1 :i* e k9d ( qu>rel   
fills ) angui%4 ,x w naturally be       
suppos$ t a l reconciliation *ang$ no?+ 
9 8 mann]s2 all x effect$ 0 to deprive  
me ( ! "r ( compla9+ ( !m4 ,= ?is reason
 ,i took a resolution to endure ev]y?+1 
& = ! future to say n a ^w4  ,s _m      
successive vexations ov]:elm$ me to su* 
a degree z to leave me b little p[] ov] 
my m9d4 ,receiv+ no answ] f ,sa9t       
,lamb]t1 neglect$ by ,madam d',h\detot1 
& no long] d>+ to op5 my he>t to any    
p]son1 ,i began to be afraid t by mak+  

fri5d%ip my idol1 ,i %\ld sacrifice my  
:ole life to *im]as4 ,aft] putt+ all ^? 
) :om ,i _h be5 acqua9t$ to ! te/1 !re  
rema9$ b two :o _h pres]v$ my e/eem1 & 9
 :om my he>t c\ld confide3 ,duclos1 (   
:om s9ce my retreat to ! ,h]mitage ,i _h
 lo/ sight1 & ,sa9t ,lamb]t4 ,i ?\ght ! 
only means ( repair+ ! wrongs ,i _h done
 ! latt]1 0 to op5 myself to him )\t    
res]ve1 & ,i resolv$ to confess to him  
ev]y?+ by :i* 8 mi/ress %\ld n be       
expos$4 ,i h no d\bt b ?is 0 ano!r sn>e 
( my passions to keep me ne>] to h]     
p]son2 b ,i %\ld c]ta9ly h _h no res]ve 
) h] lov]1 entirely submitt+ to 8       
direction1 & c>ry+ s9c]ity z f> z x 0   
possible to d x4 ,i 0 ^u ! po9t ( writ+ 
to him a second lett]1 to :i* ,i 0 c]ta9
 he w\ld h return$ an answ]1 :5 ,i le>n$
 ! melan*oly cause ( 8 sil5ce relative  
to ! fir/4 ,he _h be5 unable to support 
until ! end ! fatigues ( ! campaign4    
,madam d',ep9ay in=m$ me he _h _h an    
attack ( ! palsy1 & ,madam d',h\detot1  
ill f affliction1 wrote me two or ?ree  

days aft] f ,p>is1 t he 0 go+ to        
,aix-la-,*apelle to take ! b5efit ( !   
wat]s4 ,i w n say ?is melan*oly         
circum/ance afflict$ me z x did h]2 b ,i
 am ( op9ion my grief ( he>t 0 z pa9ful 
z h] te>s4 ,! pa9 ( kn[+ him to be 9 su*
 a /ate1 increas$ by ! fe> lea/         
inquietude %\ld h contribut$ to occasion
 x1 affect$ me m ?an any?+ t _h yet     
happ5$1 & ,i felt mo/ cruelly a want (  
=titude1 :i* 9 my e/imation 0 necess>y  
to enable me to support s _m mis=tunes4 
,happily ?is g5]\s fri5d did n long     
leave me s ov]:elm$ ) affliction2 he did
 n =get me1 not)/&+ 8 attack2 & ,i soon 
le>n$ f himself t ,i _h ill judg$ 8     
s5tim5ts1 & be5 too mu* al>m$ = 8       
situation4 ,x is n[ "t ,i %\ld come to !
 gr& revolution ( my de/9y1 to !        
cata/rophe :i* has divid$ my life 9 two 
p>ts s diff]5t f ea* o!r1 &1 f a v      
trifl+ cause1 produc$ su* t]rible       
effects4  ,"o day1 little ?9k+ ( :at 0  
to happ51 ,madam d',ep9ay s5t = me to ! 
,*evrette4 ,! mom5t ,i saw h] ,i p]ceiv$

 9 h] eyes & :ole c\nt5ance an appe>ance
 ( uneas9ess1 :i* /ruck me ! m1 z ?is 0 
n cu/om>y1 nobody kn[+ bett] ?an %e did 
h[ to gov]n h] features & h] movem5ts4  
,my fri5d1 said %e to me1 ,i am         
imm$iately go+ to set (f = ,g5eva2 my   
brea/ is 9 a bad /ate1 & my heal? s     
d]ang$ t ,i mu/ g & consult ,tron*94 ,i 
0 ! m a/oni%$ at ?is resolution s       
sudd5ly tak51 & at ! beg9n+ ( ! bad     
season ( ! ye>1 z ?irty-six h\rs be=e %e
 _h n1 :5 ,i left h]1 s mu* z ?\ght ( x4
 ,i ask$ h] :o %e w\ld take ) h]4 ,%e   
said h] son & ,m4 de ,l9ant2 & aft]w>ds 
c>elessly add$1 ,& y1 de>1 w n y g also8
 ,z ,i did n ?9k %e spoke s]i\sly1 kn[+ 
t at ! season ( ! ye> ,i 0 sc>cely 9 a  
situation to g to my *amb]1 ,i jok$ ^u !
 utility ( ! company1 ( "o sick p]son to
 ano!r4 ,%e h]self _h n seem$ to make ! 
proposition s]i\sly1 & "h ! matt]       
dropp$4 ,! re/ ( our conv]sation ran ^u 
! necess>y prep>ations = h] j\rney1 ab\t
 :i* %e imm$iately gave ord]s1 be+      
det]m9$ to set (f )9 a =tnight4 ,%e lo/ 

no?+ by my refusal1 hav+ prevail$ ^u h] 
husb& to accompany h]4  ,a few days     
aft]w>ds ,i receiv$ f ,did]ot ! note ,i 
am go+ to transcribe4 ,?is note1 simply 
d\bl$ up1 s t ! cont5ts 7 easily read1 0
 address$ to me at ,madam d',ep9ay's1 & 
s5t to ,m4 de ,l9ant1 tutor to ! son1 & 
confidant to ! "m4   ,,note ,,f         
,,did]ot4  ,i am naturally dispos$ to   
love y1 & am born to give y tr\ble4 ,i  
am in=m$ ,madam d',ep9ay is go+ to      
,g5eva1 & d n he> y are to accompany h]4
 ,my fri5d1 y are satisfi$ ) ,madam     
d',ep9ay1 y mu/ g1 ) h]2 if dissatisfi$ 
y ought /ill less to hesitate4 ,d y f9d 
! weight ( ! obligations y are "u to h] 
uneasy to y8 ,?is is an opportunity (   
dis*>g+ a "p ( !m1 & reliev+ y\r m9d4 ,d
 y ev] expect ano!r opportunity l !     
pres5t "o1 ( giv+ h] pro(s ( y\r        
gratitude8 ,%e is go+ to a c\ntry :]e %e
 w be q a /rang]4 ,%e is ill1 & w /& 9  
ne$ ( amusem5t & dissipation4 ,! w9t]   
season too6 ,consid]1 my fri5d4 ,y\r ill
 /ate ( heal? may be a mu* great]       

objection ?an ,i ?9k x is2 b are y n[ m 
indispos$ ?an y 7 a mon? ago1 or ?an y w
 be at ! beg9n+ ( spr+8 ,w y ?ree mon?s 
h5ce be 9 a situation to p]=m ! j\rney m
 at y\r ease ?an at pres5t8 ,= my "p ,i 
_c b obs]ve to y t 7 ,i unable to be> ! 
%ak+ ( ! c>riage ,i w\ld take my /aff & 
foll[ h]4 ,h y no fe>s le/ y\r conduct  
%\ld be mis9t]pret$8 ,y w be suspect$ ( 
+ratitude or ( a secret motive4 ,i well 
"k1 t let y d z y w y w h 9 y\r favor ! 
te/imony ( y\r consci5ce1 b w ?is alone 
be suffici5t1 & is x p]mitt$ to neglect 
to a c]ta9 degree t :i* is necess>y to  
acquire ! approbation ( o!rs8 ,:at ,i n[
 write1 my good fri5d1 is to acquit     
myself ( :at ,i ?9k ,i owe to u bo?4    
,%\ld my lett] displease y1 ?r[ x into !
 fire & let x be =gott54 ,i salute1 love
 & embrace y4  ,al?\gh trembl+ & almo/  
bl9d ) rage :il/ ,i read ?is epi/le1 ,i 
rem>k$ ! address ) :i* ,did]ot affect$ a
 mild] & m polite language ?an he _h    
done 9 8 =m] ones1 :]e9 he nev] w5t     
fur!r ?an ,my de>1 )\t ev] deign+ to add

 ! "n ( fri5d4 ,i easily discov]$ !     
secondh& means by :i* ! lett] 0 convey$ 
to me2 ! subscription1 mann] & =m       
awkw>dly betray$ ! manoeuvre2 = we      
commonly wrote to ea* o!r by po/1 or !  
mess5g] ( ,montmor5cy1 & ?is 0 ! fir/ & 
only "t he s5t me 8 lett] by any o!r    
conveyance4  ,z soon z ! fir/ transports
 ( my indignation p]mitt$ me to write1  
,i1 ) great precipitation1 wrote him !  
foll[+ answ]1 :i* ,i imm$iately c>ri$ f 
! ,h]mitage1 :]e ,i !n 01 to ,*evrette1 
to %[ x to ,madam d' ,ep9ay2 to :om1 9  
my bl9d rage1 ,i read ! cont5ts1 z well 
z ! lett] f ,did]ot4  ,y _c1 my de>     
fri5d1 ei!r "k ! magnitude ( !          
obligations ,i am "u to ,madam d',ep9ay1
 to :at a degree ,i am b\nd by !m1 :e!r 
or n %e is desir\s ( my accompany+ h]1 t
 ?is is possible1 or ! reasons ,i may h 
= my noncompliance4 ,i h no objection to
 discuss all ^! po9ts ) y2 b y w 9 !    
meantime confess t prescrib+ to me s    
positively :at ,i ought to d1 )\t fir/  
enabl+ y\rself to judge ( ! matt]1 is1  

my de> philosoph]1 act+ v               
inconsid]ately4 ,:at is /ill worse1 ,i  
p]ceive ! op9ion y give comes n f       
y\rself4 ,besides my be+ b little       
dispos$ to suff] myself to be l$ by !   
nose "u y\r "n by any ?ird or f\r?      
p]son1 ,i obs]ve 9 ?is second>y advice  
c]ta9 und]h& deal+1 :i* ill agrees ) y\r
 c&or1 & f :i* y w on y\r acc\nt1 z well
 z m9e1 d well 9 future to ab/a94  ,y   
are afraid my conduct %\ld be           
mis9t]pret$2 b ,i defy a he>t l y\rs to 
?9k ill ( m9e4 ,o!rs w\ld p]haps speak  
bett] ( me if ,i resembl$ !m m4 ,god    
pres]ve me f ga9+ _! approbation6 ,let !
 vile & wick$ wat* ov] my conduct &     
mis9t]pret my actions1 ,r\sseau is n a  
man to be afraid ( !m1 nor is ,did]ot to
 be prevail$ ^u to he>k5 to :at !y say4 
,if ,i am displeas$ ) y\r lett]1 y wi%  
me to ?r[ x into ! fire1 & pay no       
att5tion to ! cont5ts4 ,d y imag9e t    
any?+ com+ f y c be =gott5 9 su* a      
mann]8 ,y hold1 my de> fri5d1 my te>s z 
*eap 9 ! pa9 y give me1 z y d my life & 

heal?1 9 ! c>es y exhort me to take4    
,c\ld y b break y\rself ( ?is1 y\r      
fri5d%ip w\ld be m pleas+ to me1 & ,i   
%\ld be less to be piti$4  ,on ent]+ !  
*amb] ( ,madam d',ep9ay ,i f\nd ,grimm )
 h]1 ) :i* ,i 0 highly delight$4 ,i read
 to !m1 9 a l\d & cle> voice1 ! two     
lett]s1 ) an intrepidity ( :i* ,i %\ld n
 h ?\ght myself capable1 & conclud$ ) a 
few obs]vations n 9 ! lea/ d]ogatory to 
x4 ,at ?is unexpect$ audacity 9 a man   
g5]ally timid1 !y 7 /ruck dumb )        
surprise2 ,i p]ceiv$ t arrogant man look
 d[n ^u ! gr\nd1 n d>+ to meet my eyes1 
:i* sp>kl$ ) indignation2 b 9 ! bottom (
 8 he>t he f t in/ant resolv$ ^u my     
de/ruction1 &1 ) ,madam d' ,ep9ay1 ,i am
 c]ta9 conc]t$ measures to t effect be=e
 !y sep>at$4  ,x 0 mu* ab\t ?is "t t ,i 
at l5g? receiv$1 by ,madam d',h\detot1 !
 answ] f ,sa9t ,lamb]t1 dat$ f          
,wolf5bttel1 a few days aft] ! accid5t  
_h happ5$ to him1 to my lett] :i* _h be5
 long delay$ ^u ! road4 ,?is answ] gave 
me ! consolation ( :i* ,i !n /ood s mu* 

9 ne$2 x 0 full ( assurance ( e/eem &   
fri5d%ip1 & ^! gave me /r5g? & c\rage to
 des]ve !m4 ,f t mom5t ,i did my duty1 b
 _h ,sa9t ,lamb]t be5 less reasonable1  
g5]\s & hone/1 ,i 0 inevitably lo/4  ,! 
season became bad1 & p began to quit !  
c\ntry4 ,madam d',h\detot in=m$ me ( !  
day on :i* %e int5d$ to come & bid adieu
 to ! valley1 & gave me a r5dezv\s at   
,eaubonne4 ,?is happ5$ to be ! same day 
on :i* ,madam d',ep9ay left ! ,*evrette 
to g to ,p>is = ! purpose ( complet+    
prep>ations = h] j\rney4 ,=tunately %e  
set (f 9 ! morn+1 & ,i _h /ill "t to g &
 d9e ) h] si/]-9-law4 ,i _h ! lett] f   
,sa9t ,lamb]t 9 my pocket1 & read x ov] 
sev]al times z ,i walk$ along1 ,?is     
lett] s]v$ me z a %ield aga9/ my        
weakness4 ,i made & kept to ! resolution
 ( see+ no?+ 9 ,madam d',h\detot b my   
fri5d & ! mi/ress ( ,sa9t ,lamb]t2 & ,i 
pass$ ) h] a tete-a-tete ( f\r h\rs 9 a 
mo/ delici\s calm1 inf9itely pref]able1 
ev5 ) respect to enjoym5t1 to ! p>oxysms
 ( a burn+ fev]1 :i*1 always1 until t   

mom5t1 ,i _h _h :5 9 h] pres5ce4 ,z %e  
too well knew my he>t n to be *ang$1 %e 
0 s5sible ( ! ef=ts ,i made to conqu]   
myself1 & e/eem$ me ! m = !m1 & ,i _h ! 
pleasure ( p]ceiv+ t h] fri5d%ip = me 0 
n ext+ui%$4 ,%e ann\nc$ to me ! approa*+
 return ( ,sa9t ,lamb]t1 :o1 al?\gh well
 en\gh recov]$ f 8 attack1 0 unable to  
be> ! fatigues ( w>1 & 0 quitt+ ! s]vice
 to come & live 9 peace ) h]4 ,we =m$ ! 
*>m+ project ( an intimate connection   
betwe5 u ?ree1 & _h reason to hope x    
w\ld be la/+1 s9ce x 0 f\nd$ on e       
s5tim5t by :i* hone/ & susceptible he>ts
 c\ld be unit$2 & we _h moreov] among/ u
 all ! k & tal5ts necess>y to be        
suffici5t to ourselves )\t ! aid ( any  
=eign supplem5t4 ,alas6 9 ab&on+ myself 
to ! hope ( s agreeable a life ,i little
 suspect$ t :i* await$ me4  ,we aft]w>ds
 spoke ( my situation ) ,madam d',ep9ay4
 ,i %[$ h] ! lett] f ,did]ot1 ) my answ]
 to x2 ,i relat$ to h] ev]y?+ t _h pass$
 ^u ! subject1 & decl>$ to h] my        
resolution ( quitt+ ! ,h]mitage4  ,?is  

%e vehem5tly oppos$1 & by reasons all   
p[]ful ov] my he>t4 ,%e express$ to me  
h[ mu* %e c\ld h wi%$ ,i _h be5 ( ! p>ty
 to ,g5eva1 =esee+ %e %\ld inevitably be
 consid]$ z hav+ caus$ ! refusal1 :i* ! 
lett] ( ,did]ot seem$ previ\sly to      
ann\nce4 ,h[ev]1 z %e 0 acqua9t$ ) my   
reasons1 %e did n insi/ ^u ?is po9t1 b  
conjur$ me to avoid com+ to an op5      
rupture let x co/ me :at mortification x
 w\ld1 & to palliate my refusal by      
reasons suffici5tly plausible to put    
away all unju/ suspicions ( h] hav+ be5 
! cause ( x4 ,i told h] ! task %e impos$
 on me 0 n easy2 b t1 resolv$ to expiate
 my faults at ! exp5se ( my reputation1 
,i w\ld give ! pref]5ce to h]s 9 ev]y?+ 
t honor p]mitt$ me to suff]4 ,x w soon  
be se5 :e!r or n ,i fulfill$ ?is        
engagem5t4  ,my passion 0 s f> f hav+   
lo/ any "p ( its =ce t ,i nev] 9 my life
 lov$ my ,sophia s ard5tly & t5d]ly z on
 t day1 b su* 0 ! impression made ^u me 
by ! lett] ( ,sa9t ,lamb]t1 ! s5tim5t ( 
my duty & ! horror 9 :i* ,i held p]fidy1

 t dur+ ! :ole "t ( ! int]view my s5ses 
left me 9 peace1 & ,i 0 n s mu* z tempt$
 to kiss h] h&4 ,at p>t+ %e embrac$ me  
be=e h] s]vants4 ,?is embrace1 s diff]5t
 f ^? ,i _h sometimes /ol5 f h] "u !    
foliage1 prov$ ,i 0 become ma/] (       
myself2 & ,i am c]ta9 t _h my m9d1      
undi/urb$1 _h "t to acquire m firmness1 
?ree mon?s w\ld h cur$ me radically4    
,"h ends my p]sonal connections ) ,madam
 d',h\detot2 connections ( :i* ea* has  
be5 able to judge by appe>ance accord+  
to ! disposition ( 8 own he>t1 b 9 :i* !
 passion inspir$ me by t amiable woman1 
! mo/ lively passion1 p]haps1 man ev]   
felt1 w be honorable 9 our own eyes by !
 r>e & pa9ful sacrifice we bo? made to  
duty1 honor1 love1 & fri5d%ip4 ,we ea*  
_h too high an op9ion ( ! o!r easily to 
suff] ourselves to d any?+ d]ogatory to 
our dignity4 ,we mu/ h be5 unwor?y ( all
 e/eem _h we n set a prop] value ^u "o l
 ?is1 & ! en]gy ( my s5tim5ts :i* h     
r5d]$ u culpable1 0 t :i* prev5t$ u f   
becom+ s4  ,?us aft] a long fri5d%ip =  

"o ( ^! wom51 & ! /ronge/ affection = ! 
o!r1 ,i bade !m bo? adieu ! same day1 to
 "o nev] to see h] m1 to ! o!r to see h]
 aga9 twice1 ^u occasions ( :i* ,i %all 
h]eaft] speak4  ,aft] _! dep>ture1 ,i   
f\nd myself mu* emb>rass$ to fulfill s  
_m press+ & contradictory duties1 !     
consequ5ces ( my imprud5ce2 _h ,i be5 9 
my natural situation1 aft] ! proposition
 & refusal ( ! j\rney to ,g5eva1 ,i _h  
only to rema9 quiet1 & ev]y?+ 0 z x %\ld
 be4 ,b ,i _h fooli%ly made ( x an      
affair :i* c\ld n rema9 9 ! /ate x 01 & 
an explanation 0 absolutely necess>y1   
unless ,i quitt$ ! ,h]mitage1 :i* ,i _h 
j promis$ ,madam d',h\detot n to d1 at  
lea/ = ! pres5t4 ,moreov] %e _h requir$ 
me to make kn[n ! reasons = my refusal  
to my pret5d$ fri5ds1 t x might n be    
imput$ to h]4 ,yet ,i c\ld n /ate ! true
 reason )\t do+ an outrage to ,madam    
d',ep9ay1 :o c]ta9ly _h a "r to my      
gratitude = :at %e _h done = me4 ,ev]y?+
 well consid]$1 ,i f\nd myself r$uc$ to 
! sev]e b indisp5sable necessity ( fail+

 9 respect1 ei!r to ,madam d',up9ay1    
,madam d',h\detot or to myself2 & x 0 ! 
la/ ,i resolv$ to make my victim4 ,?is  
,i did )\t hesitation1 op5ly & fully1 & 
) s mu* g5]osity z to make ! act wor?y (
 expiat+ ! faults :i* _h r$uc$ me to su*
 an extremity4 ,?is sacrifice1 tak5     
advantage ( by my enemies1 & :i* !y1    
p]haps1 did n expect1 has ru9$ my       
reputation1 & by _! assiduity1 depriv$  
me ( ! e/eem ( ! public2 b x has re/or$ 
to me my own1 & giv5 me consolation 9 my
 mis=tune4 ,?is1 z x w h]eaft] appe>1 is
 n ! la/ "t ,i made su* a sacrifice1 nor
 t advantages 7 tak5 ( x to d me an     
injury4  ,grimm 0 ! only p]son :o appe>$
 to h tak5 no "p 9 ! affair1 & x 0 to   
him ,i det]m9$ to address myself4 ,i    
wrote him a long lett]1 9 :i* ,i set =? 
! ridicul\sness ( consid]+ x z my duty  
to accompany ,madam d' ,ep9ay to ,g5eva1
 ! inutility ( ! measure1 & !           
emb>rassm5t ev5 x w\ld h caus$ h]1      
besides ! inconv5i5ce to myself4 ,i c\ld
 n resi/ ! temptation ( lett+ him       

p]ceive 9 ?is lett] h[ fully ,i 0 in=m$ 
9 :at mann] ?+s 7 arrang$1 & t to me x  
appe>$ s+ul> ,i %\ld be expect$ to      
und]take ! j\rney :il/ he himself       
disp5s$ ) x1 & t 8 "n 0 nev] m5tion$4   
,?is lett]1 :]e91 on acc\nt ( my n be+  
able cle>ly to /ate my reasons1 ,i 0 (t5
 oblig$ to w&] f ! text1 w\ld h r5d]$ me
 culpable 9 ! eyes ( ! public1 b x 0 a  
model ( res]v$ness & discretion = ! p   
:o1 l ,grimm1 7 fully acqua9t$ ) ! ?+s  
,i =bore to m5tion1 & :i* ju/ifi$ my    
conduct4 ,i did n ev5 hesitate to raise 
ano!r prejudice aga9/ myself 9 attribut+
 ! advice ( ,did]ot1 to my o!r fri5ds4  
,?is ,i did to ins9uate t ,madam        
d',h\detot _h be5 9 ! same op9ion z %e  
really 01 & 9 n m5tion+ t1 ^u ! reasons 
,i gave h]1 %e ?\ght diff]5tly1 ,i c\ld 
n bett] remove ! suspicion ( h] hav+    
conniv$ at my proce$+s ?an appe>+       
dissatisfi$ ) h] behavior4  ,?is lett] 0
 conclud$ by an act ( confid5ce :i* w\ld
 h _h an effect ^u any o!r man2 =1 9    
desir+ ,grimm to weigh my reasons &     

aft]w>ds to give me 8 op9ion1 ,i in=m$  
him t1 let ?is be :at x w\ld1 ,i %\ld   
act accord+ly1 & su* 0 my int5tion _h he
 ev5 ?\ght ,i ought to set (f2 = ,m4    
d',ep9ay hav+ appo9t$ himself !         
conductor ( 8 wife1 my go+ ) !m w\ld !n 
h _h a diff]5t appe>ance2 :]eas x 0 ,i  
:o1 9 ! fir/ place1 0 ask$ to take ^u me
 t employm5t1 & he 0 out ( ! "q until   
aft] my refusal4  ,! answ] f ,grimm 0   
sl[ incom+2 x 0 s+ul> en\gh1 on :i*     
acc\nt ,i w "h transcribe x4  ,!        
dep>ture ( ,madam d',ep9ay is po/pon$2  
h] son is ill1 & x is necess>y to wait  
until 8 heal? is re-e/abli%$4 ,i w      
consid] ! cont5ts ( y\r lett]4 ,rema9   
quiet at y\r ,h]mitage4 ,i w s5d y my   
op9ion z soon z ?is %all be necess>y4 ,z
 %e w c]ta9ly n set (f = "s days1 !re is
 no imm$iate occasion = x4 ,9 ! meantime
 y may1 if y ?9k prop]1 make h] y\r     
(f]s1 al?\gh ?is to me seems a matt] (  
indiff]5ce4 ,=1 kn[+ y\r situation z    
well z y d y\rself1 ,i d\bt n ( h]      
return+ to y\r (f] su* an answ] z %e    

ought to d2 & all ! advantage :i*1 9 my 
op9ion1 c result f ?is1 w be y\r hav+ x 
9 y\r p[] to say to ^? by :om y may be  
importun$1 t y\r n be+ ( ! travell+ p>ty
 0 n = want ( hav+ made y\r (f]s to t   
effect4 ,moreov]1 ,i d n see :y y w     
absolutely h x t ! philosoph] is !      
speak+-trumpet ( all ! _w1 nor because  
he is ( op9ion y ought to g1 :y y %\ld  
imag9e all y\r fri5ds ?9k z he does8 ,if
 y write to ,madam d',ep9ay1 h] answ] w 
be y\rs to all y\r fri5ds1 s9ce y h x s 
mu* at he>t to give !m all an answ]4    
,adieu4 ,i embrace ,madam le ,vasseur & 
! ,crim9al4       ,m4 le ,vasseur1 ^:   
wife gov]n$ him r rudely1 call$ h]      
! ,lieut5ant ,crim9al4  ,grimm 9 a joke 
gave ! same "n to !      daught]1 & by  
way ( abridgm5t 0 pleas$ to retr5* !    
fir/      ^w4  ,/ruck ) a/oni%m5t at    
read+ ?is lett] ,i va9ly endeavor$ to   
f9d out :at x meant4 ,h[6 in/ead (      
answ]+ me ) simplicity1 he took "t to   
consid] ( :at ,i _h writt51 z if ! "t he
 _h already tak5 0 n suffici5t6 ,he     

intimates ev5 ! /ate ( susp5se 9 :i* he 
wi%es to keep me1 z if a pr(\nd problem 
0 to be resolv$1 or t x 0 ( importance  
to 8 views to deprive me ( e means (    
compreh5d+ 8 int5tions until ! mom5t he 
%\ld ?9k prop] to make !m kn[n4 ,:at    
!re=e did he mean by ^! precautions1    
delays1 & my/]ies8 ,0 ?is mann] ( act+  
consi/5t ) honor & uprightness8 ,i va9ly
 s\ght = "s favorable int]pretation ( 8 
conduct2 x 0 impossible to f9d "o4      
,:atev] 8 design might be1 7 ?is        
inimical to me1 8 situation facilitat$ !
 execution ( x )\t its be+ possible = me
 9 m9e to oppose ! lea/ ob/acle4 ,9     
favor 9 ! h\se ( a great pr9ce1 hav+ an 
ext5sive acqua9tance1 & giv+ ! tone to  
common circles ( :i* he 0 ! oracle1 he  
_h x 9 8 p[]1 ) 8 usual address1 to     
dispose ev]y?+ 9 8 favor2 & ,i1 alone 9 
my ,h]mitage1 f> remov$ f all society1  
)\t ! b5efit ( advice1 & hav+ no        
communication ) ! _w1 _h no?+ to d b to 
rema9 9 peace4 ,all ,i did 0 to write to
 ,madam d',ep9ay ^u ! illness ( h] son1 

z polite a lett] z c\ld be writt51 b 9  
:i* ,i did n fall into ! sn>e ( (f]+ to 
accompany h] to ,g5eva4  ,aft] wait+ = a
 long "t 9 ! mo/ cruel unc]ta9ty1 into  
:i* t b>b>\s man _h plung$ me1 ,i le>n$1
 at ! expiration ( eight or t5 days1 t  
,madam d',ep9ay 0 set (f1 & receiv$ f   
him a second lett]4 ,x conta9$ n m ?an  
sev5 or eight l9es :i* ,i did n entirely
 read4 ,x 0 a rupture1 b 9 su* t]ms z ! 
mo/ inf]nal hatr$ only c dictate1 & ^!  
became unmean+ by ! excessive degree (  
acrimony ) :i* he wi%$ to *>ge !m4 ,he  
=bade me 8 pres5ce z he w\ld h =bidd5 me
 8 /ates4 ,all t 0 want+ to 8 lett] to  
make x laughable1 0 to be read ov] )    
coolness4 ,)\t tak+ a copy ( x1 or read+
 ! :ole ( ! cont5ts1 ,i return$ x him   
imm$iately1 accompani$ by ! foll[+ note3
  ,i refus$ to admit ! =ce ( ! j reasons
 ,i _h ( suspicion3 ,i n[1 :5 x is too  
late1 am become suffici5tly acqua9t$ )  
y\r "*4  ,?is !n is ! lett] ^u :i* y    
took "t to m$itate3 ,i return x to y1 x 
is n = me4 ,y may %[ m9e to ! :ole _w & 

hate me op5ly2 ?is on y\r "p w be a     
falsehood ! less4  ,my tell+ he might %[
 my prec$+ lett] relat$ to an article 9 
8 by :i* 8 pr(\nd address ?r\gh\t ! :ole
 affair w be judg$ (4  ,i h obs]v$ t my 
lett] might inculpate me 9 ! eyes (     
p]sons unacqua9t$ ) ! p>ticul>s ( :at _h
 pass$4 ,?is he 0 delight$ to discov]2 b
 h[ 0 he to take advantage ( x )\t      
expos+ himself8 ,by %[+ ! lett] he ran !
 risk ( be+ reproa*$ ) abus+ ! confid5ce
 ( 8 fri5d4  ,to relieve himself f ?is  
emb>rassm5t he resolv$ to break ) me 9 !
 mo/ viol5t mann] possible1 & to set =? 
9 8 lett] ! favor he did me 9 n %[+ m9e4
 ,he 0 c]ta9 t 9 my indignation & ang]  
,i %\ld refuse 8 feign$ discretion1 &   
p]mit him to %[ my lett] to ev]ybody2   
?is 0 :at he wi%$ =1 & ev]y?+ turn$ out 
z he expect$ x w\ld4 ,he s5t my lett]   
all ov] ,p>is1 ) 8 own comm5t>ies ^u x1 
:i*1 h[ev]1 7 n s successful z he _h    
expect$ !m to be4 ,x 0 n judg$ t !      
p]mission he _h extort$ to make my lett]
 public exempt$ him f ! blame ( hav+ s  

lightly tak5 me at my ^w to d me an     
injury4 ,p cont9ually ask$ :at p]sonal  
compla9ts he _h aga9/ me to au?orize s  
viol5t a hatr$4 ,f9ally1 x 0 ?\ght t if 
ev5 my behavior _h be5 su* z to au?orize
 him to break ) me1 fri5d%ip1 al?\gh    
ext+ui%$1 _h rights :i* he ought to h   
respect$4 ,b un=tunately ! inhabitants (
 ,p>is are frivol\s2 rem>ks ( ! mom5t   
are soon =gott52 ! abs5t & un=tunate are
 neglect$2 ! man :o prosp]s secures     
favor by 8 pres5ce2 ! intrigu+ &        
malici\s support ea* o!r1 r5ew _! vile  
ef=ts1 & ! effects ( ^!1 incessantly    
succe$+ ea* o!r1 efface ev]y?+ by :i* !y
 7 prec$$4  ,?us1 aft] hav+ s long      
deceiv$ me1 ?is man ?rew aside 8 mask2  
conv9c$ t1 9 ! /ate to :i* he _h br\ght 
?+s1 he no long] /ood 9 ne$ ( x4        
,reliev$ f ! fe> ( be+ unju/ t[>ds !    
wret*1 ,i left him to 8 reflections1 &  
?\ght no m ( him4 ,a week aft]w>ds ,i   
receiv$ an answ] f ,madam d',ep9ay1 dat$
 f ,g5eva4 ,i und]/ood f ! mann] ( h]   
lett]1 9 :i* = ! fir/ "t 9 h] life1 %e  

put on airs ( /ate ) me1 t bo? dep5d+ b 
little ^u ! success ( _! measures1 &    
consid]+ me a man inevitably lo/1 _!    
int5tions 7 to give !mselves ! pleasure 
( complet+ my de/ruction4  ,9 fact1 my  
situation 0 deplorable4 ,i p]ceiv$ all  
my fri5ds )drew !mselves f me )\t kn[+  
h[ or = :y4 ,did]ot1 :o boa/$ ( !       
cont9uation ( 8 atta*m5t1 & :o1 = ?ree  
mon?s pa/1 _h promis$ me a visit1 did n 
come4 ,! w9t] began to make its         
appe>ance1 & br\ght ) x my habitual     
disord]s4 ,my con/itution1 al?\gh       
vigor\s1 _h be5 unequal to ! combat ( s 
_m opposite passions4 ,i 0 s exhau/$ t  
,i _h nei!r /r5g? nor c\rage suffici5t  
to resi/ ! mo/ trifl+ indisposition4 ,_h
 my engagem5ts1 & ! cont9u$ remon/rances
 ( ,did]ot & ,madam d',h\detot !n       
p]mitt$ me to quit ! ,h]mitage1 ,i knew 
n :]e to g1 nor 9 :at mann] to drag     
myself along4 ,i rema9$ /upid &         
immovable4 ,! idea alone ( a /ep to     
take1 a lett] to write1 or a ^w to say1 
made me tremble4 ,i c\ld n h[ev] d      

o!rwise ?an reply to ! lett] ( ,madam   
d',ep9ay )\t ackn[l$g+ myself to be     
wor?y ( ! treatm5t ) :i* %e & h] fri5d  
ov]:elm$ me4 ,i det]m9$ ^u notify+ to h]
 my s5tim5ts & resolutions1 n d\bt+ a   
mom5t t f humanity1 g5]osity1 propriety1
 & ! good mann] ( ?9k+1 ,i imag9$ ,i _h 
obs]v$ 9 h]1 not)/&+ h] bad "o1 %e w\ld 
imm$iately subscribe to !m4 ,my lett] 0 
z foll[s3                               
,,h]mitage #bc;d ,,nov41 #ageg4  ,7 x   
possible to die ( grief ,i %\ld n n[ be 
alive4  ,b ,i h at l5g? det]m9$ to      
triumph ov] ev]y?+4 ,fri5d%ip1 madam1 is
 ext+ui%$ betwe5 u1 b t :i* no long]    
exi/s /ill has its rights1 & ,i respect 
!m4  ,i h n =gott5 y\r goodness to me1 &
 y may1 on my "p1 expect z mu* gratitude
 z x is possible to h t[>ds a p]son ,i  
no long] c love4 ,all fur!r explanation 
w\ld be useless4 ,i h 9 my favor my own 
consci5ce1 & ,i return y y\r lett]4  ,i 
wi%$ to quit ! ,h]mitage1 & ,i ought to 
h done x4 ,my fri5ds pret5d ,i mu/ /ay  
!re until spr+2 & s9ce my fri5ds desire 

x ,i w rema9 !re until t season if y w  
cons5t to my /ay4  ,aft] writ+ &        
despat*+ ?is lett] all ,i ?\ght ( 0     
rema9+ quiet at ! ,h]mitage & tak+ c>e (
 my heal?2 ( endeavor+ to recov] my     
/r5g?1 & tak+ measures to remove 9 !    
spr+ )\t noise or mak+ ! rupture public4
 ,b ^! 7 n ! int5tions ei!r ( ,grimm or 
,madam d',ep9ay1 z x w pres5tly appe>4  
,a few days aft]w>ds1 ,i _h ! pleasure (
 receiv+ f ,did]ot ! visit he _h s      
frequ5tly promis$1 & 9 :i* he _h z      
con/antly fail$4 ,he c\ld n h come m    
opportunely2 he 0 my olde/ fri5d3 almo/ 
! only "o :o rema9$ to me2 ! pleasure ,i
 felt 9 see+ him1 z ?+s 7 circum/anc$1  
may easily be imag9$4 ,my he>t 0 full1 &
 ,i disclos$ x to him4 ,i expla9$ to him
 sev]al facts :i* ei!r _h n come to 8 k1
 or _h be5 disguis$ or suppress$4 ,i    
in=m$ him1 z f> z ,i c\ld d x )         
propriety1 ( all t _h pass$4 ,i did n   
affect to conceal f him t ) :i* he 0 b  
too well acqua9t$1 t a passion equally  
unreasonable & un=tunate1 _h be5 ! cause

 ( my de/ruction2 b ,i nev] ackn[l$g$ t 
,madam d',h\detot _h be5 made acqua9t$ )
 x1 or at lea/ t ,i _h decl>$ x to h]4  
,i m5tion$ to him ! unwor?y manoeuvres (
 ,madam d',ep9ay to int]cept ! innoc5t  
lett]s h] si/]-9-law wrote to me4 ,i 0  
det]m9$ he %\ld he> ! p>ticul>s f ! m\? 
( ! p]sons :om %e _h attempt$ to s$uce4 
,!resa relat$ !m ) great precision2 b   
:at 0 my a/oni%m5t :5 ! "m came to      
speak1 & ,i he>d h] decl>e & ma9ta9 t   
no?+ ( ?is _h come to h] k8 ,^! 7 h]    
words f :i* %e w\ld nev] dep>t4 ,n f\r  
days be=e %e h]self _h recit$ to me all 
! p>ticul>s ,!resa _h j /at$1 & 9       
pres5ce ( my fri5d %e contradict$ me to 
my face4 ,?is1 to me1 0 decisive1 & ,i  
!n cle>ly saw my imprud5ce 9 hav+ s long
 a "t kept su* a woman ne> me4 ,i made  
no use ( invective2 ,i sc>cely deign$ to
 speak to h] a few words ( contempt4 ,i 
felt :at ,i ow$ to ! daught]1 ^: /eadfa/
 uprightness 0 a p]fect contra/ to !    
base monoeuvres ( ! "m4 ,b f ! in/ant my
 resolution 0 tak5 relative to ! old    

woman1 & ,i wait$ = no?+ b ! mom5t to   
put x into execution4  ,?is pres5t$     
itself soon] ?an ,i expect$4 ,on ! #aj? 
( ,decemb] ,i receiv$ f ,madam d',ep9ay 
! foll[+ answ] to my prec$+ lett]3      
,,g5eva1 #a/ ,decemb]1 #ageg4  ,aft]    
hav+ = sev]al ye>s giv5 y e possible m>k
 ( fri5d%ip all ,i c n[ d is to pity y4 
,y are v unhappy4 ,i wi% y\r consci5ce  
may be z calm z m9e4 ,?is may be        
necess>y to ! repose ( y\r :ole life4   
,s9ce y are det]m9$ to quit ! ,h]mitage1
 & are p]suad$ t y ought to d x1 ,i am  
a/oni%$ y\r fri5ds h prevail$ ^u y to   
/ay !re4 ,= my "p ,i nev] consult m9e ^u
 my duty1 & ,i h no?+ fur!r to say to y 
^u y\r own4  ,su* an un=ese5 dismission1
 & s fully pron\nc$1 left me n a mom5t  
to hesitate4 ,x 0 necess>y to quit      
imm$iately1 let ! wea!r & my heal? be 9 
:at /ate !y might1 al?\gh ,i 7 to sleep 
9 ! woods & ^u ! sn[1 ) :i* ! gr\nd 0 !n
 cov]$1 & 9 defiance ( ev]y?+ ,madam    
d',h\detot might say2 = ,i 0 will+ to d 
ev]y?+ to please h] except r5d] myself  

infam\s4  ,i nev] _h be5 s emb>rass$ 9  
my :ole life z ,i !n 02 b my resolution 
0 tak54 ,i swore1 let :at w\ld happ51 n 
to sleep at ! ,h]mitage on ! night ( t  
day week4 ,i began to prep>e = s5d+ away
 my effects1 resolv+ to leave !m 9 ! op5
 field r ?an n give up ! key 9 ! c\rse (
 ! week3 = ,i 0 det]m9$ ev]y?+ %\ld be  
done be=e a lett] c\ld be writt5 to     
,g5eva1 & an answ] to x receiv$4 ,i nev]
 felt myself s inspir$ ) c\rage3 ,i _h  
recov]$ all my /r5g?4 ,honor &          
indignation1 ^u :i* ,madam d',ep9ay _h n
 calculat$1 contribut$ to re/ore me to  
vigor4 ,=tune aid$ my audacity4 ,m4     
,ma?as1 fiscal procur]1 he>d ( my       
emb>rassm5t4 ,he s5t to (f] me a little 
h\se he _h 9 8 g>d5 ( ,mont ,l\is1 at   
,montmor5cy4 ,i accept$ x ) eag]ness &  
gratitude4 ,! b>ga9 0 soon conclud$3 ,i 
imm$iately s5t to pur*ase a little      
furniture to add to t we already _h4 ,my
 effects ,i _h c>t$ away ) a deal (     
tr\ble1 & a great exp5se3 not)/&+ ! ice 
& sn[ my removal 0 complet$ 9 a c\ple ( 

days1 & on ! fifte5? ( ,decemb] ,i gave 
up ! keys ( ! ,h]mitage1 aft] hav+ paid 
! wages ( ! g>d5]1 n be+ able to pay my 
r5t4  ,) respect to ,madam le ,vasseur1 
,i told h] we mu/ "p2 h] daught]        
attempt$ to make me r5\nce my           
resolution1 b ,i 0 inflexible4 ,i s5t h]
 (f1 to ,p>is 9 a c>riage ( ! mess5g] ) 
all ! furniture & effects %e & h]       
daught] _h 9 common4 ,i gave h] "s      
money1 & engag$ to pay h] lodg+ ) h]    
*ildr51 or else:]e to provide = h]      
subsi/5ce z mu* z x %\ld be possible =  
me to d x1 & nev] to let h] want bread z
 long z ,i %\ld h x myself4  ,f9ally !  
day aft] my arrival at ,mont ,l\is1 ,i  
wrote to ,madam d',ep9ay ! foll[+ lett]3
                                        
,,montmor5cy1 #ag? ,decemb] #ageg4      
,no?+1 madam1 is s natural & necess>y z 
to leave y\r h\se ! mom5t y no long]    
approve ( my rema9+ !re4 ,^u y refus+   
y\r cons5t to my pass+ ! re/ ( ! w9t] at
 ! ,h]mitage ,i quitt$ x on ! fifte5? ( 
,decemb]4 ,my de/9y 0 to ent] x 9 spite 

( myself & to leave x ! same4 ,i ?ank y 
= ! resid5ce y prevail$ ^u me to make   
!re1 & ,i w\ld ?ank y /ill m _h ,i paid 
= x less de>4 ,y are "r 9 believ+ me    
unhappy2 nobody ^u e>? kn[s bett] ?an   
y\rself to :at a degree ,i mu/ be s4 ,if
 be+ deceiv$ 9 ! *oice ( our fri5ds be a
 mis=tune1 x is ano!r n less cruel to   
recov] f s pleas+ an error4  ,su* is !  
fai?ful n>rative ( my resid5ce at !     
,h]mitage1 & ( ! reasons :i* oblig$ me  
to leave x4 ,i c\ld n break (f !        
recital1 x 0 necess>y to cont9ue x ) !  
greate/ exactness2 ?is epo* ( my life   
hav+ _h ^u ! re/ ( x an influ5ce :i* w  
ext5d to my late/ remembrance4          
,,book ,x4   ,illu/ration3 #jaef   ,!   
extraord9>y degree ( /r5g? a mom5t>y    
eff]vesc5ce _h giv5 me to quit !        
,h]mitage1 left me ! mom5t ,i 0 out ( x4
 ,i 0 sc>cely e/abli%$ 9 my new         
habitation be=e ,i frequ5tly suff]$ f   
ret5tions1 :i* 7 accompani$ by a new    
compla9t2 t ( a rupture1 f :i* ,i _h =  
"s "t1 )\t kn[+ :at x 01 felt great     

inconv5i5ce4 ,i soon 0 r$uc$ to ! mo/   
cruel /ate4 ,! physician ,?ieiry1 my old
 fri5d1 came to see me1 & made me       
acqua9t$ ) my situation4 ,! sight ( all 
! app>atus ( ! infirmities ( ye>s1 made 
me sev]ely feel t :5 ! body is no long] 
"y1 ! he>t is n s ) impunity4 ,! f9e    
season did n re/ore me1 & ,i pass$ !    
:ole ye>1 #ageh1 9 a /ate ( languor1 :i*
 made me ?9k ,i 0 almo/ at ! end ( my   
c>e]4 ,i saw1 ) impati5ce1 ! clos+ sc5e 
approa*4 ,recov]$ f ! *im]as ( fri5d%ip1
 & deta*$ f ev]y?+ :i* _h r5d]$ life    
desirable to me1 ,i saw no?+ m 9 x t    
c\ld make x agreeable2 all ,i p]ceiv$ 0 
wret*$ness & mis]y1 :i* prev5t$ me f    
enjoy+ myself4 ,i sigh$ aft] ! mom5t :5 
,i 0 to be free & escape f my enemies4  
,b ,i mu/ foll[ ! ord] ( ev5ts4  ,my    
retreat to ,montmor5cy seem$ to         
disconc]t ,madam d',ep9ay2 probably %e  
did n expect x4 ,my melan*oly situation1
 ! sev]ity ( ! season1 ! g5]al          
d]eliction ( me by my fri5ds1 all made  
h] & ,grimm believe1 t by driv+ me to ! 

la/ extremity1 !y %\ld oblige me to     
implore m]cy1 & ?us1 by vile meanness1  
r5d] myself contemptible1 to be suff]$  
to rema9 9 an asylum :i* honor comm&$ me
 to leave4 ,i left x s sudd5ly t !y _h n
 "t to prev5t ! /ep f be+ tak51 & !y 7  
r$uc$ to ! alt]native ( d\ble or quit1  
to endeavor to ru9 me entirely1 or to   
prevail ^u me to return4 ,grimm *ose !  
=m]2 b ,i am ( op9ion ,madam d',ep9ay   
w\ld h pref]r$ ! latt]1 & ?is f h] answ]
 to my la/ lett]1 9 :i* %e seem$ to h   
laid aside ! airs %e _h giv5 h]self 9 ! 
prec$+ ones1 & to give an op5+ to an    
accommodation4 ,! long delay ( ?is      
answ]1 = :i* %e made me wait a :ole     
mon?1 suffici5tly indicates ! difficulty
 %e f\nd 9 giv+ x a prop] turn1 & !     
delib]ations by :i* x 0 prec$$4 ,%e c\ld
 n make any fur!r advances )\t expos+   
h]self2 b aft] h] =m] lett]s1 & my sudd5
 retreat f h] h\se1 x is impossible n to
 be /ruck ) ! c>e %e takes 9 ?is lett] n
 to suff] an (f5sive expression to      
escape h]4 ,i w copy x at l5g? to enable

 my read] to judge ( :at %e wrote3      
,,g5eva1 ,janu>y #ag1 #ageh4  ,,sir3 ,i 
did n receive y\r lett] ( ! #ag? (      
,decemb] until ye/]day4 ,x 0 s5t me 9 a 
box fill$ ) diff]5t ?+s1 & :i* has be5  
all ?is "t ^u ! road4 ,i %all answ] only
 ! po/script4 ,y may recollect1 sir1 t  
we agre$ ! wages ( ! g>d5] ( ! ,h]mitage
 %\ld pass ?r\gh y\r h&s1 ! bett] to    
make him feel t he dep5d$ ^u y1 & to    
avoid ! ridicul\s & indec5t sc5es :i*   
happ5$ 9 ! "t ( 8 pr$ecessor4 ,z a pro( 
( ?is1 ! fir/ qu>t] ( 8 wages 7 giv5 to 
y1 & a few days be=e my dep>ture we     
agre$ ,i %\ld reimburse y :at y _h      
advanc$4 ,i "k t ( ?is y1 at fir/1 made 
"s difficulty2 b ,i _h desir$ y to make 
^! advances2 x 0 natural ,i %\ld acquit 
myself t[>ds y1 & ?is we conclud$ ^u4   
,cah\et in=ms me t y refus$ to receive !
 money4 ,!re is c]ta9ly "s mi/ake 9 !   
matt]4 ,i h giv5 ord]s t x may aga9 be  
(f]$ to y1 & ,i see no reason = y\r wi%+
 to pay my g>d5]1 not)/&+ our           
conv5tions1 & beyond ! t]m ev5 ( y\r    

inhabit+ ! ,h]mitage4 ,i !re=e expect1  
sir1 t recollect+ ev]y?+ ,i h ! honor to
 /ate1 y w n refuse to be reimburs$ = ! 
sums y h be5 pleas$ to advance = me4    
,aft] :at _h pass$1 n hav+ ! lea/       
confid5ce 9 ,madam d' ,ep9ay1 ,i 0      
unwill+ to r5ew my connection ) h]2 ,i  
return$ no answ] to ?is lett]1 & !re our
 correspond5ce end$4 ,p]ceiv+ ,i _h tak5
 my resolution1 %e took h]s2 &1 ent]+   
into all ! views ( ,grimm & ! ,cot]ie   
,holba*ique1 %e unit$ h] ef=ts ) !irs to
 accompli% my de/ruction4 ,:il/ !y      
manoevur$ at ,p>is1 %e did ! same at    
,g5eva4 ,grimm1 :o aft]w>ds w5t to h]   
!re1 complet$ :at %e _h begun4 ,tron*91 
:om !y _h no difficulty 9 ga9+ ov]1     
second$ !m p[]fully1 & became ! mo/     
viol5t ( my p]secutors1 )\t hav+ aga9/  
me1 any m ?an ,grimm _h1 ! lea/ subject 
( compla9t4 ,!y all ?ree spread 9 sil5ce
 t ( :i* ! effects 7 se5 !re f\r ye>s   
aft]w>ds4  ,!y _h m tr\ble at ,p>is1 :]e
 ,i 0 bett] kn[n to ! citiz5s1 ^: he>ts1
 less dispos$ to hatr$1 less easily     

receiv$ its impressions4 ,! bett] to    
direct _! bl[1 !y began by giv+ out t x 
0 ,i :o _h left !m4 ,!nce1 /ill feign+  
to be my fri5ds1 !y dext]\sly spread _! 
malignant accusations by compla9+ ( !   
inju/ice ( _! fri5d4 ,_! auditors1 ?us  
?r[n (f _! gu>d1 li/5$ m att5tively to  
:at 0 said ( me1 & 7 incl9$ to blame my 
conduct4 ,! secret accusations ( p]fidy 
& +ratitude 7 made ) great] precaution1 
& by t means ) great] effect4 ,i knew !y
 imput$ to me ! mo/ atroci\s crimes )\t 
be+ able to le>n 9 :at ^! consi/$4 ,all 
,i c\ld inf] f public rumor 0 t ?is 0   
f\nd$ ^u ! f\r foll[+ capital (f5ces3 my
 retir+ to ! c\ntry2 my passion = ,madam
 d',h\detot2 my refus+ to accompany     
,madam d',ep9ay to ,g5eva1 & my leav+ ! 
,h]mitage4 ,if to ^! !y add$ o!r griefs1
 !y took _! measures s well t x has     
hi!rto be5 impossible = me to le>n !    
subject ( !m4  ,x is !re=e at ?is p]iod 
t ,i ?9k ,i may fix ! e/abli%m5t ( a    
sy/em1 s9ce adopt$ by ^? by :om my fate 
has be5 det]m9$1 & :i* has made su* a   

progress z w seem miracul\s to p]sons :o
 "k n ) :at facility ev]y?+ :i* favors !
 malignity ( man is e/abli%$4 ,i w      
endeavor to expla9 9 a few words :at to 
me appe>$ visible 9 ?is pr(\nd & obscure
 sy/em4  ,) a "n already di/+ui%$ & kn[n
 ?r\gh\t all ,europe1 ,i _h /ill pres]v$
 my primitive simplicity4 ,my mortal    
av]sion to all p>ty faction & cabal _h  
kept me free & indep5d5t1 )\t any o!r   
*a9 ?an ! atta*m5ts ( my he>t4 ,alone1 a
 /rang]1 )\t family or =tune1 &         
unconnect$ ) ev]y?+ except my pr9ciples 
& duties1 ,i intrepidly foll[$ ! pa?s ( 
uprightness1 nev] flatt]+ or favor+ any 
p]son at ! exp5se ( tru? & ju/ice4      
,besides1 hav+ liv$ = two ye>s pa/ 9    
solitude1 )\t obs]v+ ! c\rse ( ev5ts1 ,i
 0 unconnect$ ) ! affairs ( ! _w1 & n   
in=m$ ( :at pass$1 nor desir\s ( be+    
acqua9t$ ) x4 ,i liv$ f\r leagues f     
,p>is z mu* sep>at$ f t capital by my   
neglig5ce z ,i %\ld h be5 9 ! ,isl& (   
,t9ian by ! sea4  ,grimm1 ,did]ot &     
,d',holba* 71 on ! contr>y1 9 ! c5tre ( 

! vortex1 liv$ 9 ! great _w1 & divid$   
among/ !m almo/ all ! sph]es ( x4 ,!    
great wits1 m5 ( lett]s1 m5 ( long robe1
 & wom51 all li/5$ to !m :5 !y *ose to  
act 9 conc]t4 ,! advantage ?ree m5 9 ?is
 situation unit$ mu/ h ov] a f\r? 9 m9e1
 _c b already appe>4 ,x is true ,did]ot 
& ,d',holba* 7 incapable1 at lea/ ,i ?9k
 s1 ( =m+ black conspiracies2 "o ( !m 0 
n base en\gh1 nor ! o!r suffici5tly     
able2 b x 0 = ?is reason t ! p>ty 0 m   
unit$4 ,grimm alone =m$ 8 plan 9 8 own  
m9d1 & discov]$ m ( x ?an 0 necess>y to 
induce 8 associates to concur 9 !       
execution4 ,! asc5d5cy he _h ga9$ ov] !m
 made ?is q easy1 & ! effect ( ! :ole   
answ]$ to ! sup]iority ( 8 tal5ts4  ,x 0
 ) ^!1 :i* 7 ( a sup]ior k9d1 t1 p]ceiv+
 ! advantage he might acquire f our     
respective situations1 he conceiv$ !    
project ( ov]turn+ my reputation1 &1 )\t
 expos+ himself1 ( giv+ me "o ( a nature
 q opposite1 by rais+ up ab\t me an     
edifice ( obscurity :i* x 0 impossible =
 me to p5etrate1 & by t means ?r[ a     

light ^u 8 manoevures & unmask him4     
,?is ent]prise 0 difficult1 because x 0 
necess>y to palliate ! iniquity 9 ! eyes
 ( ^? ( ^: assi/ance he /ood 9 ne$4 ,he 
_h hone/ m5 to deceive1 to ali5ate f me 
! good op9ion ( ev]ybody1 & to deprive  
me ( all my fri5ds4 ,:at say ,i8 ,he _h 
to cut (f all communication ) me1 t n a 
s+le ^w ( tru? might rea* my e>s4 ,_h a 
s+le man ( g5]osity come & said to me1  
,y assume ! appe>ance ( virtue1 yet ?is 
is ! mann] 9 :i* y are treat$1 & ^! !   
circum/ances by :i* y are judg$3 :at h y
 to say8 tru? w\ld h triumph$ & ,grimm h
 be5 undone4 ,( ?is he 0 fully conv9c$2 
b he _h exam9$ 8 own he>t & e/imat$ m5  
accord+ to _! m]it4 ,i am sorry1 = !    
honor ( humanity1 t he judg$ ) s mu*    
tru?4  ,9 ^! d>k & crook$ pa?s 8 /eps to
 be ! m sure 7 necess>ily sl[4 ,he has =
 twelve ye>s pursu$ 8 plan & ! mo/      
difficult "p ( ! execution ( x is /ill  
to come2 ?is is to deceive ! public     
entirely4 ,he is afraid ( ?is public1 & 
d>es n lay 8 conspiracy op54       ,s9ce

 ?is 0 writt5 he has made ! dang]\s /ep 
) !      fulle/ & mo/ inconceivable     
success4  ,i am ( op9ion x 0            
,tron*9 :o inspir$ him ) c\rage1 &      
suppli$ him ) !      means4  ,b he has  
f\nd ! easy means ( accompany+ x ) p[]1 
& ?is p[] has ! disposal ( me4 ,?us     
support$ he advances ) less dang]4 ,!   
ag5ts ( p[] piqu+ !mselves b little on  
uprightness1 & /ill less on c&or1 he has
 no long] ! indiscretion ( an hone/ man 
to fe>4 ,8 safety is 9 my be+ envelop$ 9
 an imp5etrable obscurity1 & 9 conceal+ 
f me 8 conspiracy1 well kn[+ t ) :atev] 
art he may h =m$ x1 ,i c\ld by a s+le   
glance ( ! eye discov] ! :ole4 ,8 great 
address consi/s 9 appe>+ to favor :il/  
he defames me1 & 9 giv+ to 8 p]fidy an  
air ( g5]osity4  ,i felt ! fir/ effects 
( ?is sy/em by ! secret accusations ( ! 
,cot]ie ,holba*ique )\t its be+ possible
 = me to "k 9 :at ! accusations consi/$1
 or to =m a probable conjecture z to !  
nature ( !m4 ,de ,leyre in=m$ me 9 8    
lett]s t he9\s ?+s 7 attribut$ to me4   

,did]ot m my/]i\sly told me ! same ?+1 &
 :5 ,i came to an explanation ) bo?1 !  
:ole 0 r$uc$ to ! heads ( accusation (  
:i* ,i h already spok54 ,i p]ceiv$ a    
gradual increase ( coolness 9 ! lett]s f
 ,madam d',h\detot4 ,?is ,i c\ld n      
attribute to ,sa9t ,lamb]t2 he cont9u$  
to write to me ) ! same fri5d%ip1 & came
 to see me aft] 8 return4 ,x 0 also     
impossible to ?9k myself ! cause ( x1 z 
we _h sep>at$ well satisfi$ ) ea* o!r1 &
 no?+ s9ce t "t _h happ5$ on my "p1     
except my dep>ture f ! ,h]mitage1 ( :i* 
%e felt ! necessity4 ,!re=e1 n kn[+ :5ce
 ?is coolness1 :i* %e refus$ to         
ackn[l$ge1 al?\gh my he>t 0 n to be     
deceiv$1 c\ld proce$1 ,i 0 uneasy ^u e  
acc\nt4 ,i knew %e greatly favor$ h]    
si/]-9-law & ,grimm1 9 consequ5ce ( _!  
connections ) ,sa9t ,lamb]t2 & ,i 0     
afraid ( _! ma*9ations4 ,?is agitation  
op5$ my w\nds1 & r5d]$ my correspond5ce 
s disagreeable z q to disgu/ h] ) x4 ,i 
saw1 z at a di/ance1 a ?\s& cruel       
circum/ances1 )\t discov]+ any?+        

di/9ctly4 ,i 0 9 a situation ! mo/      
insupportable to a man ^: imag9ation is 
easily heat$4 ,_h ,i be5 q retir$ f !   
_w1 & kn[n no?+ ( ! matt] ,i %\ld h     
become m calm2 b my he>t /ill clung to  
atta*m5ts1 by means ( :i* my enemies _h 
great advantages ov] me2 & ! feeble rays
 :i* p5etrat$ my asylum convey$ to me   
no?+ m ?an a k ( ! blackness ( ! my/]ies
 :i* 7 conceal$ f my eyes4  ,i %\ld h   
sunk1 ,i h n a d\bt ( x1 "u ^! torm5ts1 
too cruel & insupportable to my op5     
disposition1 :i*1 by ! impossibility (  
conceal+ my s5tim5ts1 makes me fe>      
ev]y?+ f ^? conceal$ f me1 if =tunately 
objects suffici5tly int]e/+ to my he>t  
to div]t x f o!rs ) :i*1 9 spite (      
myself1 my imag9ation 0 fill$1 _h n     
pres5t$ !mselves4 ,9 ! la/ visit ,did]ot
 paid me1 at ! ,h]mitage1 he _h spok5 ( 
! article ',g5eva'1 :i* ,d',alemb]t _h  
ins]t$ 9 ! ',encyclop$ie'2 he _h in=m$  
me t ?is article1 conc]t$ ) p ( ! fir/  
consid]ation1 _h = object ! e/abli%m5t (
 a !atre at ,g5eva1 t measures _h be5   

tak5 accord+ly1 & t ! e/abli%m5t w\ld   
soon take place4 ,z ,did]ot seem$ to ?9k
 all ?is v prop]1 & did n d\bt ( !      
success ( ! measure1 & z ,i _h besides  
to speak to him ^u too _m o!r subjects  
to t\* ^u t article1 ,i made him no     
answ]3 b sc&aliz$ at ^! prep>atives to  
corruption & lic5ti\sness 9 my c\ntry1  
,i wait$ ) impati5ce = ! volume ( !     
',encyclop$ie'1 9 :i* ! article 0       
ins]t$2 to see :e!r or n x w\ld be      
possible to give an answ] :i* might w>d 
(f ! bl[4 ,i receiv$ ! volume soon aft] 
my e/abli%m5t at ,mont ,l\is1 & f\nd !  
articles to be writt5 ) mu* art &       
address1 & wor?y ( ! p5 :5ce x proce$$4 
,?is1 h[ev]1 did n abate my desire to   
answ] x1 & not)/&+ ! dejection ( spirits
 ,i !n labor$ "u1 my griefs & pa9s1 !   
sev]ity ( ! season1 & ! inconv5i5ce ( my
 new abode1 9 :i* ,i _h n yet _h "t to  
arrange myself1 ,i set to "w ) a zeal   
:i* surm\nt$ e ob/acle4  ,9 a sev]e     
w9t]1 9 ! mon? ( ,febru>y1 & 9 !        
situation ,i h describ$1 ,i w5t e day1  

morn+ & ev5+1 to pass a c\ple ( h\rs 9  
an op5 alcove :i* 0 at ! bottom ( ! g>d5
 9 :i* my habitation /ood4 ,?is alcove1 
:i* t]m9at$ an alley ( a t]race1 look$  
^u ! valley & ! pond ( ,montmor5cy1 &   
pres5t$ to me1 z ! clos+ po9t ( a       
prospect1 ! pla9 b respectable ca/le (  
,/4 ,grati51 ! retreat ( ! virtu\s      
,cat9at4 ,x 0 9 ?is place1 !n1 expos$ to
 freez+ cold1 t )\t be+ %elt]$ f ! w9d &
 sn[1 & hav+ no o!r fire ?an t 9 my     
he>t2 ,i compos$1 9 ! space ( ?ree      
weeks1 my lett] to ,d',alemb]t on       
!atres4 ,x 0 9 ?is1 = my ',eloisa' 0 n  
!n half writt51 t ,i f\nd *>ms 9        
philosophical labor4 ,until !n virtu\s  
indignation _h be5 a sub/itute to       
,apollo1 t5d]ness & a g5tl5ess ( m9d n[ 
became s4 ,! inju/ice ,i _h be5 witness 
to _h irritat$ me1 t ( :i* ,i became !  
object r5d]$ me melan*oly2 & ?is        
melan*oly )\t bitt]ness 0 t ( a he>t too
 t5d] & affectionate1 & :i*1 deceiv$ by 
^? 9 :om x _h confid$1 0 oblig$ to rema9
 conc5tr$4 ,full ( t :i* _h befall5 me1 

& /ill affect$ by s _m viol5t emotions1 
my he>t add$ ! s5tim5t ( its suff]+s to 
! ideas ) :i* a m$itation on my subject 
_h inspir$ me2 :at ,i wrote bore evid5t 
m>ks ( ?is mixture4 ,)\t p]ceiv+ x ,i   
describ$ ! situation ,i 0 !n 91 gave    
portraits ( ,grimm1 ,madam d',ep9ay1    
,madam d' ,h\detot1 ,sa9t ,lamb]t &     
myself4 ,:at delici\s te>s did ,i %$ z  
,i wrote6 ,alas6 9 ^! descriptions !re  
are pro(s b too evid5t t love1 ! fatal  
love ( :i* ,i made su* ef=ts to cure    
myself1 /ill rema9$ 9 my he>t4 ,) all   
?is !re 0 a c]ta9 s5tim5t ( t5d]ness    
relative to myself2 ,i ?\ght ,i 0 dy+1 &
 imag9$ ,i bid ! public my la/ adieu4   
,f> f fe>+ dea?1 ,i joyfully saw x      
approa*2 b ,i felt "s regret at leav+ my
 fell[ creatures )\t _! hav+ p]ceiv$ my 
real m]it1 & be+ conv9c$ h[ mu* ,i %\ld 
h des]v$ _! e/eem _h !y kn[n me bett]4  
,^! are ! secret causes ( ! s+ul> mann] 
9 :i* ?is "w1 opposite to t ( ! "w by   
:i* x 0 prec$$1 is writt54--,disc\rs sur
 l',inegalite4 ,disc\rse on !           

,inequality ( ,mank9d4  ,i correct$ &   
copi$ ! lett]1 & 0 prep>+ to pr9t x :51 
aft] a long sil5ce1 ,i receiv$ "o f     
,madam d',h\detot1 :i* br\ght ^u me a   
new affliction m pa9ful ?an any ,i _h   
yet suff]$4 ,%e in=m$ me t my passion = 
h] 0 kn[n to all ,p>is1 t ,i _h spok5 ( 
x to p]sons :o _h made x public1 t ?is  
rumor1 hav+ rea*$ ! e>s ( h] lov]1 _h   
ne>ly co/ him 8 life2 yet he did h]     
ju/ice1 & peace 0 re/or$ betwe5 !m2 b on
 8 acc\nt1 z well z on h]s1 & = ! sake (
 h] reputation1 %e ?\ght x h] duty to   
break (f all correspond5ce ) me1 at !   
same "t assur+ me t %e & h] fri5d 7 bo? 
int]e/$ 9 my welf>e1 t !y w\ld def5d me 
to ! public1 & t %e h]self w\ld1 f "t to
 "t1 s5d to inquire aft] my heal?4  ,&  
?\ also1 ,did]ot1 exclaim$ ,i1 unwor?y  
fri5d6  ,i c\ld n1 h[ev]1 yet resolve to
 condemn him4 ,my weakness 0 kn[n to    
o!rs :o might h spok5 ( x4 ,i wi%$ to   
d\bt1 b ?is 0 soon out ( my p[]4 ,sa9t  
,lamb]t %ortly aft] p]=m$ an action     
wor?y ( himself4 ,kn[+ my mann] ( ?9k+1 

he judg$ ( ! /ate 9 :i* ,i mu/ be2      
betray$ by "o "p ( my fri5ds & =sak5 by 
! o!r4 ,he came to see me4 ,! fir/ "t he
 _h n _m mom5ts to sp>e4 ,he came aga94 
,un=tunately1 n expect+ him1 ,i 0 n at  
home4 ,!resa _h ) him a conv]sation (   
upw>ds ( two h\rs1 9 :i* !y in=m$ ea*   
o!r ( facts ( great importance to u all4
 ,! surprise ) :i* ,i le>n$ t nobody    
d\bt$ ( my hav+ liv$ ) ,madam d',ep9ay1 
z ,grimm !n did1 _c be equall$1 except  
by t ( ,sa9t ,lamb]t1 :5 he 0 conv9c$ t 
! rumor 0 false4 ,he1 to ! great        
dissatisfaction ( ! lady1 0 9 ! same    
situation ) myself1 & ! eclaircissem5ts 
result+ f ! conv]sation remov$ f me all 
regret1 on acc\nt ( my hav+ brok5 ) h]  
=ev]4 ,relative to ,madam d',h\detot1 he
 m5tion$ sev]al circum/ances ) :i* nei!r
 ,!resa nor ,madam d',h\detot h]self 7  
acqua9t$2 ^! 7 kn[n to me only 9 ! fir/ 
in/ance1 & ,i _h nev] m5tion$ !m except 
to ,did]ot1 "u ! seal ( fri5d%ip2 & x 0 
to ,sa9t ,lamb]t himself to :om he _h   
*os5 to communicate !m4 ,?is la/ /ep 0  

suffici5t to det]m9e me4 ,i resolv$ to  
break ) ,did]ot =ev]1 & ?is )\t fur!r   
delib]ation1 except on ! mann] ( do+ x2 
= ,i _h p]ceiv$ secret ruptures turn$ to
 my prejudice1 because !y left ! mask ( 
fri5d%ip 9 possession ( my mo/ cruel    
enemies4  ,! rules ( good bre$+1        
e/abli%$ 9 ! _w on ?is head1 seem to h  
be5 dictat$ by a _s ( trea*]y &         
falsehood4 ,to appe> ! fri5d ( a man :5 
9 reality we are no long] s1 is to      
res]ve to ourselves ! means ( do+ him an
 injury by surpris+ hone/ m5 into an    
error4 ,i recollect$ t :5 ! illu/ri\s   
,montesquieu broke ) ,fa!r de ,t\rnem9e1
 he imm$iately said to ev]ybody3 ,li/5  
nei!r to ,fa!r ,t\rnem9e nor myself1 :5 
we speak ( ea* o!r1 = we are no long]   
fri5ds4 ,?is op5 & g5]\s proce$+ 0      
univ]sally applaud$4 ,i resolv$ to foll[
 ! example ) ,did]ot2 b :at me?od 0 ,i  
to take to publi% ! rupture au!ntically 
f my retreat1 & yet )\t sc&al8 ,i       
conclud$ on ins]t+ 9 ! =m ( a note1 9 my
 "w1 a passage f ! book (               

,ecclesia/icus1 :i* decl>$ ! rupture &  
ev5 ! subject ( x1 9 t]ms suffici5tly   
cle> to su* z 7 acqua9t$ ) ! previ\s    
circum/ances1 b c\ld signify no?+ to !  
re/ ( ! _w4 ,i det]m9$ n to speak 9 my  
"w ( ! fri5d :om ,i r5\nc$1 except ) !  
honor always due to ext+ui%$ fri5d%ip4  
,! :ole may be se5 9 ! "w itself4  ,!re 
is no?+ 9 ?is _w b "t & mis=tune1 & e   
act ( c\rage seems to be a crime 9      
adv]sity4 ,= t :i* has be5 admir$ 9     
,montesquieu1 ,i receiv$ only blame &   
reproa*4 ,z soon z my "w 0 pr9t$1 & ,i  
_h copies ( x1 ,i s5t "o to ,sa9t       
,lamb]t1 :o1 ! ev5+ be=e1 _h writt5 to  
me 9 8 own "n & t ( ,madam d' ,h\detot1 
a note expressive ( ! mo/ t5d] fri5d%ip4
  ,! foll[+ is ! lett] he wrote to me :5
 he return$ ! copy ,i _h s5t him4       
,,eaubonne1 #aj? ,octob]1 #ageh4        
,inde$1 sir1 ,i _c accept ! pres5t y h j
 made me4 ,9 t "p ( y\r preface :]e1    
relative to ,did]ot1 y quote a passage f
 ,ecclesia/es 7he mi/akes1 x is f       
,ecclesia/icus7 ! book dropp$ f my h&4  

,9 ! conv]sations we _h toge!r 9 !      
summ]1 y seem$ to be p]suad$ ,did]ot 0 n
 guilty ( ! pret5d$ indiscretions y _h  
imput$ to him4 ,y may1 = aught ,i "k to 
! contr>y1 h reason to compla9 ( him1 b 
?is does n give y a "r to insult him    
publicly4 ,y are n unacqua9t$ ) ! nature
 ( ! p]secutions he suff]s1 & y jo9 !   
voice ( an old fri5d to t ( envy4 ,i _c 
refra9 f tell+ y1 sir1 h[ mu* ?is he9\s 
act ( y\rs has %ock$ me4 ,i am n        
acqua9t$ ) ,did]ot1 b ,i honor him1 & ,i
 h a lively s5se ( ! pa9 y give to a    
man1 :om1 at lea/ n 9 my he>+1 y h nev] 
reproa*$ ) any?+ m ?an a trifl+         
weakness4 ,y & ,i1 sir1 diff] too mu* 9 
our pr9ciples ev] to be agreeable to ea*
 o!r4 ,=get t ,i exi/2 ?is y w easily d4
 ,i h nev] done to m5 ei!r good or evil 
( a nature to be long rememb]$4 ,i      
promise y1 sir1 to =get y\r p]son & to  
rememb] no?+ relative to y b y\r tal5ts4
  ,?is lett] fill$ me ) indignation &   
affliction2 &1 9 ! excess ( my pangs1   
feel+ my pride w\nd$1 ,i answ]$ him by !

 foll[+ note3                           
,,montmor5cy1 #aa? ,octob]1 #ageh4      
,,sir3 ,:ile read+ y\r lett]1 ,i did y !
 honor to be surpris$ at x1 & _h !      
weakness to suff] x to affect me2 b ,i  
f9d x unwor?y ( an answ]4  ,i w no long]
 cont9ue ! copies ( ,madam d',h\detot4  
,if x be n agreeable to h] to keep t %e 
has1 %e may s5d x me back & ,i w return 
h] money4 ,if %e keeps x1 %e mu/ /ill   
s5d = ! re/ ( h] pap] & ! money2 & at ! 
same "t ,i beg %e w return me !         
prospectus :i* %e has 9 h] possession4  
,adieu1 sir4  ,c\rage "u mis=tune       
irritates ! he>ts ( c[>ds1 b x is pleas+
 to g5]\s m9ds4 ,?is note seem$ to make 
,sa9t ,lamb]t reflect ) himself & to    
regret 8 hav+ be5 s viol5t2 b too       
haughty 9 8 turn to make op5 advances1  
he seiz$ & p]haps prep>$1 ! opportunity 
( palliat+ :at he _h done4  ,a =tnight  
aft]w>ds ,i receiv$ f ,madam d',ep9ay ! 
foll[+ lett]3                           
,?ursday1 #bf?4  ,,sir3 ,i receiv$ !    
book y _h ! goodness to s5d me1 & :i* ,i

 h read ) mu* pleasure4 ,i h always     
exp]i5c$ ! same s5tim5t 9 read+ all !   
works :i* h come f y\r p54 ,receive my  
?anks = ! :ole4 ,i %\ld h return$ y ^! 9
 p]son _h my affairs p]mitt$ me to rema9
 any "t 9 y\r neighborhood2 b ,i 0 n ?is
 ye> long at ! ,*evrette4 ,m4 & ,madam  
,dup9 come !re on ,sunday to d9n]4 ,i   
expect ,m4 de ,sa9t ,lamb]t1 ,m4 de     
,francueil1 & ,madam d',h\detot w be ( !
 p>ty2 y w d me mu* pleasure by mak+ "o 
also4 ,all ! p]sons :o are to d9e ) me1 
desire1 & w1 z well z myself1 be        
delight$ to pass ) y a "p ( ! day4 ,i h 
! honor to be ) ! mo/ p]fect            
consid]ation1 etc4  ,?is lett] made my  
he>t beat viol5tly2 aft] hav+ = a ye>   
pa/ be5 ! subject ( conv]sation ( all   
,p>is1 ! idea ( pres5t+ myself z a      
spectacle be=e ,madam d',h\detot1 made  
me tremble1 & ,i _h mu* difficulty to   
f9d suffici5t c\rage to support t       
c]emony4 ,yet z %e & ,sa9t ,lamb]t 7    
desir\s ( x1 & ,madam d',ep9ay spoke 9 !
 "n ( h] gue/s )\t nam+ "o :om ,i %\ld n

 be glad to see1 ,i did n ?9k ,i %\ld   
expose myself accept+ a d9n] to :i* ,i 0
 9 "s degree invit$ by all ! p]sons :o )
 myself 7 to p>take ( x4 ,i !re=e       
promis$ to g3 on ,sunday ! wea!r 0 bad1 
& ,madam ,d',ep9ay s5t me h] c>riage4   
,my arrival caus$ a s5sation4 ,i nev]   
met a bett] reception4 ,an obs]v] w\ld h
 ?\ght ! :ole company felt h[ mu* ,i    
/ood 9 ne$ ( enc\ragem5t4 ,none b ,fr5* 
he>ts are susceptible ( ?is k9d (       
delicacy4 ,h[ev]1 ,i f\nd m p ?an ,i    
expect$ to see4 ,among/ o!rs ! ,comte d'
 ,h\detot1 :om ,i did n "k1 & 8 si/]    
,madam de ,bla9ville1 )\t ^: company ,i 
%\ld h be5 z well pleas$4 ,%e _h ! ye>  
be=e came sev]al times to ,eaubonne1 &  
h] si/]-9-law _h left h] 9 our solit>y  
walks to wait until %e ?\ght prop] to   
suff] h] to jo9 u4 ,%e _h h>bor$ a      
res5tm5t aga9/ me1 :i* dur+ ?is d9n] %e 
gratifi$ at h] ease4 ,! pres5ce ( !     
,comte d' ,h\detot & ,sa9t ,lamb]t did n
 give me ! laugh on my side1 & x may be 
judg$ t a man emb>rass$ 9 ! mo/ common  

conv]sations 0 n v brilliant 9 t :i* !n 
took place4 ,i nev] suff]$ s mu*1 appe>$
 s awkw>d1 or receiv$ m unexpect$       
mortifications4 ,z soon z we _h ris5 f  
table1 ,i )drew f t wick$ woman2 ,i _h !
 pleasure ( see+ ,sa9t ,lamb]t & ,madam 
d',h\detot approa* me1 & we conv]s$     
toge!r a "p ( ! aft]noon1 ^u ?+s v      
indiff]5t x is true1 b ) ! same         
famili>ity z be=e my involunt>y error4  
,?is fri5dly att5tion 0 n lo/ ^u my     
he>t1 & c\ld ,sa9t ,lamb]t h read :at   
pass$ !re1 he c]ta9ly w\ld h be5        
satisfi$ ) x4 ,i c safely ass]t t al?\gh
 on my arrival ! pres5ce ( ,madam       
d',h\detot gave me ! mo/ viol5t         
palpitations1 on return+ f ! h\se ,i    
sc>cely ?\ght ( h]2 my m9d 0 entirely   
tak5 up ) ,sa9t ,lamb]t4  ,not)/&+ !    
malignant s>casms ( ,madam de           
,bla9ville1 ! d9n] 0 ( great s]vice to  
me1 & ,i congratulat$ myself ^u n hav+  
refus$ ! invitation4 ,i n only discov]$ 
t ! intrigues ( ,grimm & ! ,holba*i5s _h
 n depriv$ me ( my old acqua9tance1 b1  

:at flatt]$ me /ill m1 t ,madam         
d',h\detot & ,sa9t ,lamb]t 7 less *ang$ 
?an ,i _h imag9$1 & ,i at l5g? und]/ood 
t 8 keep+ h] at a di/ance f me proce$$ m
 f jeal\sy ?an f dise/eem4       ,su* 9 
! simplicity ( my he>t 0 my op9ion :5 ,i
 wrote      ^! confessions4  ,?is 0 a   
consolation to me1 & calm$ my m9d4      
,c]ta9 ( n be+ an object ( contempt 9 ! 
eyes ( p]sons :om ,i e/eem$1 ,i work$ ^u
 my own he>t ) great] c\rage & success4 
,if ,i did n q ext+ui% 9 x a guilty & an
 unhappy passion1 ,i at lea/ s well     
regulat$ ! rema9s ( x t !y h nev] s9ce t
 mom5t l$ me into ! mo/ trifl+ error4 ,!
 copies ( ,madam d' ,h\detot1 :i* %e    
prevail$ ^u me to take aga91 & my works1
 :i* ,i cont9u$ to s5d h] z soon z !y   
appe>$1 produc$ me f h] a few notes &   
messages1 indiff]5t b oblig+4 ,%e did   
/ill m1 z w h]eaft] appe>1 & !          
reciprocal conduct ( h] lov] & myself1  
aft] our int]c\rse _h ceas$1 may s]ve z 
an example ( ! mann] 9 :i* p]sons (     
honor sep>ate :5 x is no long] agreeable

 to !m to associate ) ea* o!r4  ,ano!r  
advantage ?is d9n] procur$ me 0 its be+ 
spok5 ( 9 ,p>is1 :]e x s]v$ z a         
refutation ( ! rumor spread by my       
enemies1 t ,i _h qu>rell$ ) e p]son :o  
p>took ( x1 & especially ) ,m4 d',ep9ay4
 ,:5 ,i left ! ,h]mitage ,i _h writt5   
him a v polite lett] ( ?anks1 to :i* he 
answ]$ n less politely1 & mutual        
civilities _h cont9u$1 z well betwe5 u z
 betwe5 me & ,m4 de la ,lalive1 8       
bro!r-9-law1 :o ev5 came to see me at   
,montmor5cy1 & s5t me "s ( 8 engrav+s4  
,except+ ! two si/]s-9-law ( ,madam     
d',h\detot1 ,i h nev] be5 on bad t]ms ) 
any p]son ( ! family4  ,my lett] to     
,d',alemb]t _h great success4 ,all my   
works _h be5 v well receiv$1 b ?is 0 m  
favorable to me4 ,x taught ! public to  
gu>d aga9/ ! ins9uations ( ! ,cot]ie    
,holba*ique4 ,:5 ,i w5t to ! ,h]mitage1 
?is ,cot]ie pr$ict$ ) its usual         
suffici5cy1 t ,i %\ld n rema9 !re ?ree  
mon?s4 ,:5 ,i _h /ay$ !re tw5ty mon?s1 &
 0 oblig$ to leave x1 ,i /ill fix$ my   

resid5ce 9 ! c\ntry4 ,! ,cot]ie insi/$  
?is 0 f a motive ( pure ob/9acy1 & t ,i 
0 we>y ev5 to dea? ( my retirem5t2 b t1 
eat5 up ) pride1 ,i *ose r to become a  
victim ( my /ubbornness ?an to recov] f 
x & return to ,p>is4 ,! lett] to        
,d',alemb]t brea!d a g5tl5ess ( m9d :i* 
e "o p]ceiv$ n to be affect$4 ,_h ,i be5
 dissatisfi$ ) my retreat1 my /yle &    
mann] w\ld h borne evid5t m>ks ( my     
ill-humor4 ,?is reign$ 9 all ! works ,i 
_h writt5 9 ,p>is2 b 9 ! fir/ ,i wrote 9
 ! c\ntry n ! lea/ appe>ance ( x 0 to be
 f\nd4 ,to p]sons :o knew h[ to di/+ui%1
 ?is rem>k 0 decisive4 ,!y p]ceiv$ ,i 0 
return$ to my elem5t4  ,yet ! same "w1  
not)/&+ all ! mildness x brea!d1 made me
 by a mi/ake ( my own & my usual        
ill-luck1 ano!r enemy among/ m5 (       
lett]s4 ,i _h become acqua9t$ )         
,m>montel at ! h\se ( ,m4 de la         
,popl9i]e1 & 8 acqua9tance _h be5       
cont9u$ at t ( ! b>on4 ,m>montel at t "t
 wrote ! ',m]cure de ,france'4 ,z ,i _h 
too mu* pride to s5d my works to !      

au?ors ( p]iodical publications1 & wi%+ 
to s5d him ?is )\t 8 imag9+ x 0 9       
consequ5ce ( t title1 or be+ desir\s he 
%\ld speak ( x 9 ! ,m]cure1 ,i wrote ^u 
! book t x 0 n = ! au?or ( ! ,m]cure1 b 
= ,m4 ,m>montel4 ,i ?\ght ,i paid him a 
f9e complim5t2 he mi/ook x = a cruel    
(f5ce1 & became my irreconcilable enemy4
 ,he wrote aga9/ ! lett] ) polit5ess1 x 
is true1 b ) a bitt]ness easily         
p]ceptible1 & s9ce t "t has nev] lo/ an 
opportunity ( injur+ me 9 society1 & (  
indirectly ill-treat+ me 9 8 works4 ,su*
 difficulty is !re 9 manag+ ! irritable 
self-love ( m5 ( lett]s1 & s c>eful     
ought e p]son to be n to leave any?+    
equivocal 9 ! complim5ts !y pay !m4     
,hav+ no?+ m to di/urb me1 ,i took      
advantage ( my leisure & indep5d5ce to  
cont9ue my lit]>y pursuits ) m coh]5ce4 
,i ?is w9t] f9i%$ my ,eloisa1 & s5t x to
 ,rey1 :o _h x pr9t$ ! ye> foll[+4 ,i 01
 h[ev]1 int]rupt$ 9 my projects by a    
circum/ance suffici5tly disagreeable4 ,i
 he>d new prep>ations 7 mak+ at !       

op]a-h\se to give ! ',dev9 du ,village'4
 ,enrag$ at see+ ^! p arrogantly dispose
 ( my prop]ty1 ,i aga9 took up ! memoir 
,i _h s5t to ,m4 ,d',arg5son1 to :i* no 
answ] _h be5 return$1 & hav+ made "s    
trifl+ alt]ations 9 x1 ,i s5t !         
manuscript by ,m4 ,sellon1 resid5t f    
,g5eva1 & a lett] ) :i* he 0 pleas$ to  
*>ge himself1 to ! ,comte de ,/4        
,flor5t91 :o _h succe$$ ,m4 ,d',arg5son 
9 ! op]a dep>tm5t4 ,duclos1 to :om ,i   
communicat$ :at ,i _h done1 m5tion$ x to
 ! 'petits violons'1 :o (f]$ to re/ore  
me1 n my op]a1 b my fre$om ( ! !atre1   
:i* ,i 0 no long] 9 a situation to      
enjoy4 ,p]ceiv+ ,i _h n f any qu>t] !   
lea/ ju/ice to expect1 ,i gave up !     
affair2 & ! directors ( ! op]a1 )\t ei!r
 answ]+ or li/5+ to my reasons1 h       
cont9u$ to dispose z ( _! own prop]ty1 &
 to turn to _! pr(it1 ! ,dev9 du        
,village1 :i* inconte/ably belongs to   
nobody b myself4  ,s9ce ,i _h %ak5 (f ! 
yoke ( my tyrants1 ,i l$ a life         
suffici5tly agreeable & peaceful2       

depriv$ ( ! *>m ( too /rong atta*m5ts ,i
 0 deliv]$ f ! weight ( _! *a9s4        
,disgu/$ ) ! fri5ds :o pret5d$ to be my 
protectors1 & wi%$ absolutely to dispose
 ( me at w1 & 9 spite ( myself1 to      
subject me to _! pret5d$ good s]vices1  
,i resolv$ 9 future to h no o!r         
connections ?an ^? ( simple b5evol5ce4  
,^!1 )\t ! lea/ con/ra9t ^u lib]ty1     
con/itute ! pleasure ( society1 ( :i*   
equality is ! basis4 ,i _h ( !m z _m z 7
 necess>y to enable me to ta/e ( ! *>m (
 lib]ty )\t be+ subject to ! dep5d5ce ( 
x2 & z soon z ,i _h made an exp]im5t (  
?is mann] ( life1 ,i felt x 0 ! mo/     
prop] to my age1 to end my days 9 peace1
 f> remov$ f ! agitations1 qu>rels &    
cavill+s 9 :i* ,i _h j be5 half subm]g$4
  ,dur+ my resid5ce at ! ,h]mitage1 &   
aft] my settlem5t at ,montmor5cy1 ,i _h 
made 9 ! neighborhood "s agreeable      
acqua9tance1 & :i* did n subject me to  
any inconv5i5ce4 ,! pr9cipal ( ^! 0 "y  
,loyseau de ,mauleon1 :o1 !n beg9n+ to  
plead at ! b>1 did n yet "k :at rank he 

w\ld "o day hold !re4 ,i = my "p 0 n 9 !
 lea/ d\bt ab\t ! matt]4 ,i soon po9t$  
out to him ! illu/ri\s c>e] 9 ! mid/ (  
:i* he is n[ se51 & pr$ict$ t1 if he    
laid d[n to himself rigid rules = !     
*oice ( causes1 & nev] became ! def5d] (
 any?+ b virtue & ju/ice1 8 g5ius1      
elevat$ by ?is sublime s5tim5t1 w\ld be 
equal to t ( ! greate/ orators4 ,he     
foll[$ my advice1 & n[ feels ! good     
effects ( x4 ,8 def5ce ( ,m4 de ,portes 
is wor?y ( ,demo/h5es4 ,he came e ye> )9
 a qu>t] ( a league ( ! ,h]mitage to    
pass ! vacation at ,/4 ,brice1 9 ! fief 
( ,mauleon1 belong+ to 8 "m1 & :]e !    
great ,bossuet _h =m]ly lodg$4 ,?is is a
 fief1 ( :i* a l succession (           
proprietors w\ld r5d] nobility difficult
 to support4  ,i _h also = a neighbor 9 
! same village ( ,/4 ,brice1 ! booksell]
 ,gu]91 a man ( wit1 le>n+1 ( an amiable
 disposition1 & "o ( ! fir/ 9 8         
pr(ession4 ,he br\ght me acqua9t$ )     
,jean ,neaulme1 booksell] ( ,am/]dam1 8 
fri5d & correspond5t1 :o aft]w>ds pr9t$ 

,emilius4  ,i _h ano!r acqua9tance /ill 
ne>] ?an ,/4 ,brice1 ?is 0 ,m4 ,maltor1 
vic> ( ,groslay1 a man bett] adapt$ = ! 
functions ( a /atesman & a m9i/]1 ?an = 
^? ( ! vic> ( a village1 & to :om a     
diocese at lea/ w\ld h be5 giv5 to gov]n
 if tal5ts decid$ ! disposal ( places4  
,he _h be5 secret>y to ! ,comte de ,luc1
 & 0 =m]ly intimately acqua9t$ ) ,jean  
,bapi/e ,r\sseau4 ,hold+ 9 z mu* e/eem !
 memory ( t illu/ri\s exile1 z he held !
 villa9 :o ru9$ him 9 horror2 he        
possess$ curi\s anecdotes ( bo?1 :i*    
,segur _h n ins]t$ 9 ! life1 /ill 9     
manuscript1 ( ! =m]1 & he assur$ me t ! 
,comte de ,luc1 f> f ev] hav+ _h reason 
to compla9 ( 8 conduct1 _h until 8 la/  
mom5t pres]v$ = him ! w>me/ fri5d%ip4   
,m4 ,maltor1 to :om ,m4 de ,v9timille   
gave ?is retreat aft] ! dea? ( 8 patron1
 _h =m]ly be5 employ$ 9 _m affairs (    
:i*1 al?\gh f> advanc$ 9 ye>s1 he /ill  
pres]v$ a di/9ct remembrance1 & reason$ 
^u !m tol]ably well4 ,8 conv]sation1    
equally amus+ & in/ructive1 _h no?+ 9 x 

resembl+ t ( a village pa/or3 he jo9$ ! 
mann]s ( a man ( ! _w to ! k ( "o :o    
passes 8 life 9 /udy4 ,he1 ( all my     
p]man5t neighbors1 0 ! p]son ^: society 
0 ! mo/ agreeable to me4  ,i 0 also     
acqua9t$ at ,montmor5cy ) sev]al fa!rs (
 ! oratory1 & among/ o!rs ,fa!r ,b]?i]1 
pr(essor ( natural philosophy2 to :om1  
not)/&+ "s little t9cture ( p$antry1 ,i 
become atta*$ on acc\nt ( a c]ta9 air ( 
cordial good nature :i* ,i obs]v$ 9 him4
 ,i _h1 h[ev]1 "s difficulty to         
reconcile ?is great simplicity ) !      
desire & ! art he _h ( ev]y:]e ?ru/+    
himself into ! company ( ! great1 z well
 z t ( ! wom51 devotees1 & philosoph]s4 
,he knew h[ to accommodate himself to e 
"o4 ,i 0 greatly pleas$ ) ! man1 & spoke
 ( my satisfaction to all my o!r        
acqua9tances4 ,app>5tly :at ,i said (   
him came to 8 e>4 ,he "o day ?ank$ me = 
hav+ ?\ght him a good-natur$ man4 ,i    
obs]v$ some?+ 9 8 =c$ smile :i*1 9 my   
eyes1 totally *ang$ 8 physiognomy1 & :i*
 has s9ce frequ5tly occurr$ to my m9d4  

,i _c bett] comp>e ?is smile ?an to t ( 
,panurge pur*as+ ! ,%eep ( ,d9d5aut4    
,our acqua9tance _h begun a little "t   
aft] my arrival at ! ,h]mitage1 to :i*  
place he frequ5tly came to see me4 ,i 0 
already settl$ at ,montmor5cy :5 he left
 x to g & reside at ,p>is4 ,he (t5 saw  
,madam le ,vasseur !re4 ,"o day1 :5 ,i  
lea/ expect$ any?+ ( ! k9d1 he wrote to 
me 9 behalf ( t woman1 in=m+ me t ,grimm
 (f]$ to ma9ta9 h]1 & to ask my         
p]mission to accept ! (f]4 ,?is ,i      
und]/ood consi/$ 9 a p5sion ( ?ree      
hundr$ livres1 & t ,madam le ,vasseur 0 
to come & live at ,deuil1 betwe5 !      
,*evrette & ,montmor5cy4 ,i w n say :at 
impression ! application made on me4 ,x 
w\ld h be5 less surpris+ _h ,grimm _h t5
 ?\s& livres a ye>1 or any relation m   
easy to compreh5d ) t woman1 & _h n su* 
a crime be5 made ( my tak+ h] to !      
c\ntry1 :]e1 z if %e _h become y\ng]1 he
 0 n[ pleas$ to ?9k ( plac+ h]4 ,i      
p]ceiv$ ! good old lady _h no o!r reason
 = ask+ my p]mission1 :i* %e might      

easily h done )\t1 b ! fe> ( los+ :at ,i
 already gave h]1 %\ld ,i ?9k ill ( !   
/ep %e took4 ,al?\gh ?is *>ity appe>$ to
 be v extraord9>y1 x did n /rike me s   
mu* !n z aft]w>ds4 ,b _h ,i kn[n ev5    
ev]y?+ ,i h s9ce discov]$1 ,i %\ld /ill 
z readily h giv5 my cons5t z ,i did & 0 
oblig$ to d1 unless ,i _h exce$$ ! (f] (
 ,m4 ,grimm4 ,fa!r ,b]?i] aft]w>ds cur$ 
me a little ( my op9ion ( 8 good nature 
& cordiality1 ) :i* ,i _h s un?9k+ly    
*>g$ him4  ,?is same ,fa!r ,b]?i] 0     
acqua9t$ ) two m51 :o1 = :at reason ,i  
"k n1 7 to become s ) me2 !re 0 b little
 simil>ity betwe5 _! ta/e & m9e4 ,!y 7 !
 *ildr5 ( ,mel*is$ec1 ( :om nei!r !     
c\ntry nor ! family 0 kn[n1 no m ?an1 9 
all probability1 ! real "n4 ,!y 7       
,jans5i/s1 & pass$ = prie/s 9 disguise1 
p]haps on acc\nt ( _! ridicul\s mann] ( 
we>+ long swords1 to :i* !y appe>$ to h 
be5 fa/5$4 ,! prodigi\s my/]y 9 all _!  
proce$+s gave !m ! appe>ance ( ! heads (
 a p>ty1 & ,i nev] _h ! lea/ d\bt ( _!  
be+ ! au?ors ( ! ',gazette              

,ecclesia/ique'4 ,! "o1 tall1           
smoo?-tongu$1 & %>p+1 0 nam$ ,f]r&2 !   
o!r1 %ort1 squat1 a sne]]1 & punctili\s1
 0 a ,m4 ,m9>d4 ,!y call$ ea* o!r c\s94 
,!y lodg$ at ,p>is ) ,d',alemb]t1 9 !   
h\se ( 8 nurse nam$ ,madam ,r\sseau1 &  
_h tak5 at ,montmor5cy a little ap>tm5t 
to pass ! summ]s !re4 ,!y did ev]y?+ =  
!mselves1 & _h nei!r a s]vant nor runn]2
 ea* _h 8 turn weekly to pur*ase        
provisions1 d ! bus9ess ( ! kit*51 &    
sweep ! h\se4 ,!y manag$ tol]ably well1 
& we sometimes ate ) ea* o!r4 ,i "k n = 
:at reason !y gave !mselves any conc]n  
ab\t me3 = my "p1 my only motive =      
beg9n+ an acqua9tance ) !m 0 _! play+ at
 *ess1 & to make a poor little p>ty ,i  
suff]$ f\r h\rs' fatigue4 ,z !y ?ru/    
!mselves into all companies1 & wi%$ to  
int]m$dle 9 ev]y?+1 ,!resa call$ !m !   
gossips1 & by ?is "n !y 7 long kn[n at  
,montmor5cy4  ,su*1 ) my ho/ ,m4 ,ma?as1
 :o 0 a good man1 7 my pr9cipal c\ntry  
acqua9tance4 ,i /ill _h a suffici5t     
numb] at ,p>is to live !re agreeably    

:5ev] ,i *ose x1 out ( ! sph]e ( m5 (   
lett]s1 among/ :om ,duclos1 0 ! only    
fri5d ,i reckon$3 = ,de ,leyre 0 /ill   
too "y1 & al?\gh1 aft] hav+ be5 a       
witness to ! manoeuvres ( !             
philosophical tribe aga9/ me1 he _h     
)drawn f x1 at lea/ ,i ?\ght s1 ,i c\ld 
n yet =get ! facility ) :i* he made     
himself ! m\?piece ( all ! p ( t        
description4  ,9 ! fir/ place ,i _h my  
old & respectable fri5d ,rogu94 ,?is 0 a
 good old-fa%ion$ fri5d = :om ,i 0 n    
indebt$ to my writ+s b to myself1 & :om 
= t reason ,i h always pres]v$4 ,i _h ! 
good ,l5ieps1 my c\ntryman1 & 8 daught]1
 !n alive1 ,madam ,lamb]t4 ,i _h a "y   
,g5evese1 nam$ ,co9det1 a good creature1
 c>eful1 (fici\s1 zeal\s1 :o came to see
 me soon aft] ,i _h gone to reside at ! 
,h]mitage1 &1 )\t any o!r introduc] ?an 
himself1 _h made 8 way into my good     
graces4 ,he _h a ta/e = draw+1 & 0      
acqua9t$ ) arti/s4 ,he 0 ( s]vice to me 
relative to ! engrav+s ( ! ,new ,eloisa2
 he und]took ! direction ( ! draw+s & ! 

plates1 & acquitt$ himself well ( !     
commission4  ,i _h free access to ! h\se
 ( ,m4 ,dup91 :i*1 less brilliant ?an 9 
! "y days ( ,madam ,dup91 0 /ill1 by !  
m]it ( ! heads ( ! family1 & ! *oice (  
company :i* assembl$ !re1 "o ( ! be/    
h\ses 9 ,p>is4 ,z ,i _h n pref]r$       
anybody to !m1 & _h sep>at$ myself f _! 
society to live free & indep5d5t1 !y _h 
always receiv$ me 9 a fri5dly mann]1 &  
,i 0 always c]ta9 ( be+ well receiv$ by 
,madam ,dup94 ,i might ev5 h c\nt$ h]   
among/ my c\ntry neighbors aft] h]      
e/abli%m5t at ,cli*y1 to :i* place ,i   
sometimes w5t to pass a day or two1 &   
:]e ,i %\ld h be5 m frequ5tly _h ,madam 
,dup9 & ,madam de ,*5onceaux be5 ^u     
bett] t]ms4 ,b ! difficulty ( divid+ my 
"t 9 ! same h\se betwe5 two wom5 ^:     
mann] ( ?9k+ 0 unfavorable to ea* o!r1  
made ?is disagreeable3 h[ev] ,i _h !    
pleasure ( see+ h] m at my ease at      
,deuil1 :]e1 at a trifl+ di/ance f me1  
%e _h tak5 a small h\se1 & ev5 at my own
 habitation1 :]e %e (t5 came to see me4 

,i _h likewise = a fri5d ,madam de      
,crequi1 :o1 hav+ become dev\t1 no long]
 receiv$ ,d',alemb]t1 ,m>montel1 nor a  
s+le man ( lett]s1 except1 ,i believe ! 
,abbe ,trublet1 half a hypocrite1 ( :om 
%e 0 we>y4 ,i1 ^: acqua9tance %e _h     
s\ght1 lo/ nei!r h] good wi%es nor      
int]c\rse4 ,%e s5t me "y fat pullets f  
,mons1 & h] int5tion 0 to come & see me 
! ye> foll[+ _h n a j\rney1 ^u :i*      
,madam de ,luxemb\rg det]m9$1 prev5t$   
h]4 ,i "h owe h] a place ap>t2 %e w     
always hold a di/+ui%$ "o 9 my          
remembrance4  ,9 ?is li/ ,i %\ld also   
place a man :om1 except ,rogu91 ,i ought
 to h m5tion$ z ! fir/ ^u x2 my old     
fri5d & bro!r politician1 ,de ,c>rio1   
=m]ly titul>y secret>y to ! embassy f   
,spa9 to ,v5ice1 aft]w>ds 9 ,sw$51 :]e  
he 0 *>ge des affaires1 & at l5g? really
 secret>y to ! embassy f ,spa9 at ,p>is4
 ,he came & surpris$ me at ,montmor5cy  
:5 ,i lea/ expect$ him4 ,he 0 decorat$ )
 ! insignia ( a ,spani% ord]1 ! "n ( :i*
 ,i h =gott51 ) a f9e cross 9 jewelry4  

,he _h be5 oblig$1 9 8 pro(s ( nobility1
 to add a lett] to 8 "n1 & to be> t ( ! 
,*evali] de ,c>rion4 ,i f\nd him /ill ! 
same man1 possess+ ! same excell5t he>t1
 & 8 m9d daily improv+1 & becom+ m & m  
amiable4 ,we w\ld h r5ew$ our =m]       
intimacy _h n ,co9det int]pos$ accord+  
to cu/om1 tak5 advantage ( ! di/ance ,i 
0 at f t[n to ins9uate himself into my  
place1 &1 9 my "n1 into 8 confid5ce1 &  
supplant me by ! excess ( 8 zeal to r5d]
 me s]vices4  ,! remembrance ( ,c>rion  
makes me recollect "o ( my c\ntry       
neighbors1 ( :om ,i %\ld be inexcusable 
n to speak1 z ,i h to make confession ( 
an unp>donable neglect ( :i* ,i 0 guilty
 t[>ds him3 ?is 0 ! hone/ ,m4 le ,blond1
 :o _h done me a s]vice at ,v5ice1 &1   
hav+ made an excursion to ,france ) 8   
family1 _h tak5 a h\se 9 ! c\ntry1 at   
,bir*e1 n f> f ,montmor5cy4       ,:5 ,i
 wrote ?is1 full ( my bl9d confid5ce1 ,i
 0 f> f      suspect+ ! real motive & ! 
effect ( 8 j\rney to ,p>is4  ,z soon z  
,i he>d he 0 my neighbor1 ,i1 9 ! joy ( 

my he>t1 & mak+ x m a pleasure ?an a    
duty1 w5t to pay him a visit4 ,i set (f 
^u ?is err& ! next day4 ,i 0 met by p :o
 7 com+ to see me1 & ) :om ,i 0 oblig$  
to return4 ,two days aft]w>ds ,i set (f 
aga9 = ! same purpose3 he _h d9$ at     
,p>is ) all 8 family4 ,a ?ird "t he 0 at
 home3 ,i he>d ! voice ( wom51 & saw1 at
 ! door1 a coa* :i* al>m$ me4 ,i wi%$ to
 see him1 at lea/ = ! fir/ "t1 q at my  
ease1 t we might talk ov] :at _h pass$  
dur+ our =m] connection4  ,9 f9e1 ,i s  
(t5 po/pon$ my visit f day to day1 t !  
%ame ( dis*>g+ a l duty s late prev5t$  
me f do+ x at all2 aft] hav+ d>$ to wait
 s long1 ,i no long] d>$ to pres5t      
myself4 ,?is neglig5ce1 at :i* ,m4 le   
,blond c\ld n b be ju/ly (f5d$1 gave1   
relative to him1 ! appe>ance ( +ratitude
 to my indol5ce1 & yet ,i felt my he>t s
 little culpable t1 _h x be5 9 my p[] to
 d ,m4 le ,blond ! lea/ s]vice1 ev5     
unkn[n to himself1 ,i am c]ta9 he w\ld n
 h f\nd me idle4 ,b indol5ce1 neglig5ce 
& delay 9 little duties to be fulfill$ h

 be5 m prejudicial to me ?an great      
vices4 ,my greate/ faults h be5         
omissions3 ,i h seldom done :at ,i ought
 n to h done1 & un=tunately x has /ill m
 r>ely happ5$ t ,i h done :at ,i ought4 
,s9ce ,i am n[ ^u ! subject ( my        
,v5etian acqua9tance1 ,i mu/ n =get "o  
:i* ,i /ill pres]v$ = a consid]able "t  
aft] my int]c\rse ) ! re/ _h ceas$4 ,?is
 0 ,m4 de ,jo9ville1 :o cont9u$ aft] 8  
return f ,g5oa to %[ me mu* fri5d%ip4   
,he 0 fond ( see+ me & ( conv]s+ ) me ^u
 ! affairs ( ,italy1 & ! follies ( ,m4  
de ,montaigu1 ( :om he ( himself knew _m
 anecdotes1 by means ( 8 acqua9tance 9 !
 (fice = =eign affairs 9 :i* he 0 mu*   
connect$4 ,i _h also ! pleasure ( see+  
at my h\se my old comrade ,dupont :o _h 
pur*as$ a place 9 ! prov9ce ( :i* he 01 
& ^: affairs _h br\ght him to ,p>is4 ,m4
 de ,jo9ville became by degrees s       
desir\s ( see+ me1 t he 9 "s measure    
laid me "u con/ra9t2 &1 al?\gh our      
places ( resid5ce 7 at a great di/ance f
 ea* o!r1 we _h a fri5dly qu>rel :5 ,i  

let a week pass )\t go+ to d9e ) him4   
,:5 he w5t to ,jo9ville he 0 always     
desir\s ( my accompany+ him2 b hav+ once
 be5 !re to pass a week ,i _h n ! lea/  
desire to return4 ,m4 de ,jo9ville 0    
c]ta9ly an hone/ man1 & ev5 amiable 9   
c]ta9 respects b 8 und]/&+ 0 b5ea?      
m$iocrity2 he 0 h&some1 r fond ( 8 p]son
 & tol]ably fatigu+4 ,he _h "o ( ! mo/  
s+ul> collections p]haps 9 ! _w1 to :i* 
he gave mu* ( 8 att5tion & endeavor$ to 
acquire x t ( 8 fri5ds1 to :om x        
sometimes af=d$ less amusem5t ?an x did 
to himself4 ,?is 0 a complete collection
 ( songs ( ! c\rt & ,p>is = upw>ds (    
fifty ye>s pa/1 9 :i* _m anecdotes 7 to 
be f\nd t w\ld h be5 s\ght = 9 va9      
else:]e4 ,^! are memoirs = ! hi/ory (   
,france1 :i* w\ld sc>cely be ?\ght ( 9  
any o!r c\ntry4  ,"o day1 :il/ we 7 /ill
 ^u ! v be/ t]ms1 he receiv$ me s coldly
 & 9 a mann] s diff]5t f t :i* 0 cu/om>y
 to him1 t aft] hav+ giv5 him an        
opportunity to expla91 & ev5 hav+ begg$ 
him to d x1 ,i left 8 h\se ) a          

resolution1 9 :i* ,i h p]sev]$1 nev] to 
return to x aga92 = ,i am seldom se5 :]e
 ,i h be5 once ill receiv$1 & 9 ?is case
 !re 0 no ,did]ot :o plead$ = ,m4 de    
,jo9ville4 ,i va9ly endeavor$ to discov]
 :at ,i _h done to (f5d him2 ,i c\ld n  
recollect a circum/ance at :i* he c\ld  
possibly h tak5 (f5ce4 ,i 0 c]ta9 ( nev]
 hav+ spok5 ( him or 8 9 any o!r ?an 9 !
 mo/ honorable mann]2 = he _h acquir$ my
 fri5d%ip1 & besides my hav+ no?+ b     
favorable ?+s to say ( him1 my mo/      
inviolable maxim has be5 t ( nev] speak+
 b 9 an honorable mann] ( ! h\ses ,i    
frequ5t$4  ,at l5g?1 by cont9ually      
rum9at+4 ,i =m$ ! foll[+ conjecture3 !  
la/ "t we _h se5 ea* o!r1 ,i _h supp$ ) 
him at ! ap>tm5t ( "s girls ( 8         
acqua9tance1 9 company ) two or ?ree    
cl]ks 9 ! (fice ( =eign affairs1 v      
amiable m51 & :o _h nei!r ! mann] nor   
appe>ance ( lib]t9es2 & on my "p1 ,i c  
ass]t t ! :ole ev5+ pass$ 9 mak+        
melan*oly reflections on ! wret*$ fate (
 ! creatures ) :om we 74 ,i did n pay   

any?+1 z ,m4 de ,jo9ville gave ! supp]1 
nor did ,i make ! girls ! lea/ pres5t1  
because ,i gave !m n ! opportunity ,i _h
 done to ! padoana ( e/abli%+ a claim to
 ! trifle ,i might h (f]$4 ,we all came 
away toge!r1 *e]fully & ^u v good t]ms4 
,)\t hav+ made a second visit to !      
girls1 ,i w5t ?ree or f\r days aft]w>ds 
to d9e ) ,m4 de ,jo9ville1 :om ,i _h n  
se5 dur+ t int]val1 & :o gave me !      
reception ( :i* ,i h spok54 ,unable to  
suppose any o!r cause = x ?an "s        
misund]/&+ relative to ! supp]1 &       
p]ceiv+ he _h no incl9ation to expla91  
,i resolv$ to visit him no long]1 b ,i  
/ill cont9u$ to s5d him my works3 he    
frequ5tly s5t me 8 complim5ts1 & "o     
ev5+1 meet+ him 9 ! gre5-room ( ! ,fr5* 
!atre1 he oblig+ly reproa*$ me ) n hav+ 
call$ to see him1 :i*1 h[ev]1 did n     
induce me to dep>t f my resolution4     
,!re=e ?is affair _h r ! appe>ance ( a  
coolness ?an a rupture4 ,h[ev]1 n hav+  
he>d ( nor se5 him s9ce t "t1 x w\ld h  
be5 too late aft] an abs5ce ( sev]al    

ye>s1 to r5ew my acqua9tance ) him4 ,x  
is = ?is reason ,m4 de ,jo9ville is n   
nam$ 9 my li/1 al?\gh ,i _h = a         
consid]able "t frequ5t$ 8 h\se4  ,i w n 
swell my catalogue ) ! names ( _m o!r   
p]sons ) :om ,i 0 or _h become less     
intimate1 al?\gh ,i sometimes saw !m 9 !
 c\ntry1 ei!r at my own h\se or t ( "s  
neighbor1 su* = in/ance z ! ,abbes de   
,condillac & ,de ,malby1 ,,mm4 de       
,mairan1 de ,lalive1 ,de ,boisgel\1     
,vatelet1 ,ancelet1 & o!rs4 ,i w also   
pass lightly ov] t ( ,m4 de ,m>g5cy1    
g5tleman 9 ord9>y ( ! k+1 an anci5t     
memb] ( ! ',cot]ie ,holba*ique'1 :i* he 
_h quitt$ z well z myself1 & ! old fri5d
 ( ,madam d',ep9ay f :om he _h sep>at$ z
 ,i _h done2 ,i likewise consid] t ( ,m4
 ,desmahis1 8 fri5d1 ! celebrat$ b      
%ort-liv$ au?or ( ! com$y ( ! ,imp]t95t1
 ( mu* ! same importance4 ,! fir/ 0 my  
neighbor 9 ! c\ntry1 8 e/ate at ,m>g5cy 
be+ ne> to ,montmor5cy4 ,we 7 old       
acqua9tances1 b ! neighborhood & a c]ta9
 con=mity ( exp]i5ce connect$ u /ill m4 

,! la/ di$ soon aft]w>ds4 ,he _h m]it & 
ev5 wit1 b he 0 9 "s degree ! orig9al ( 
8 com$y1 & a little ( a coxcomb ) wom51 
by :om he 0 n mu* regrett$4             
,illu/ration3 #jagh  ,i _c1 h[ev]1 omit 
tak+ notice ( a new correspond5ce ,i    
ent]$ into at ?is p]iod1 :i* has _h too 
mu* influ5ce ov] ! re/ ( my life n to   
make x necess>y = me to m>k its orig94  
,! p]son 9 "q is ,de ,lamoignon de      
,male%]bes ( ! ',c\r des aides'1 !n     
c5sor ( books1 :i* (fice he ex]cis$ )   
equal intellig5ce & mildness1 to ! great
 satisfaction ( m5 ( lett]s4 ,i _h n    
once be5 to see him at ,p>is2 yet ,i _h 
nev] receiv$ f him any o!r ?an ! mo/    
oblig+ condesc5sions relative to !      
c5sor%ip1 & ,i knew t he _h m ?an once v
 sev]ely reprim&$ p]sons :o _h writt5   
aga9/ me4 ,i _h new pro(s ( 8 goodness  
^u ! subject ( ! edition ( ,eloisa4 ,!  
pro(s ( s great a "w be+ v exp5sive f   
,am/]dam by po/1 he1 to :om all lett]s 7
 free1 p]mitt$ ^! to be address$ to him1
 & s5t !m to me "u ! c\nt]sign ( !      

*ancellor 8 fa!r4 ,:5 ! "w 0 pr9t$ he   
did n p]mit ! sale ( x 9 ! k+dom until1 
contr>y to my wi%es1 an edition _h be5  
sold = my b5efit4 ,z ! pr(it ( ?is w\ld 
on my "p h be5 a !ft committ$ ^u ,rey1  
to :om ,i _h sold ! manuscript1 ,i n    
only refus$ to accept ! pres5t int5d$   
me1 )\t 8 cons5t1 :i* he v g5]\sly gave1
 b p]si/$ ^u divid+ ) him ! hundr$      
pi/oles 7a ?\s& livres--=ty p\nds71 !   
am\nt ( x b ( :i* he w\ld n receive     
any?+4 ,= ^! hundr$ pi/oles ,i _h !     
mortification1 aga9/ :i* ,m4 de         
,male%]bes _h n gu>d$ me1 ( see+ my "w  
horribly mutilat$1 & ! sale ( ! good    
edition /opp$ until ! bad "o 0 entirely 
dispos$ (4  ,i h always consid]$ ,m4 de 
,male%]bes z a man ^: uprightness 0 pro(
 aga9/ e temptation4 ,no?+ t has happ5$ 
has ev5 made me d\bt = a mom5t ( 8      
probity2 b1 z weak z he is polite1 he   
sometimes injures ^? he wi%es to s]ve by
 ! excess ( 8 zeal to pres]ve !m f evil4
 ,he n only retr5*$ a hundr$ pages 9 !  
edition ( ,p>is1 b he made ano!r        

retr5*m5t1 :i* no p]son b ! au?or c\ld  
p]mit himself to d1 9 ! copy ( ! good   
edition he s5t to ,madam de ,pompad\r4  
,x is some:]e said 9 t "w t ! wife ( a  
coal-heav] is m respectable ?an !       
mi/ress ( a pr9ce4 ,?is phrase _h       
occurr$ to me 9 ! w>m? ( composition )\t
 any application4 ,9 read+ ov] ! "w ,i  
p]ceiv$ x w\ld be appli$1 yet 9         
consequ5ce ( ! v imprud5t maxim ,i _h   
adopt$ ( n suppress+ any?+1 on acc\nt ( 
! application :i* might be made1 :5 my  
consci5ce bore witness to me t ,i _h n  
made !m at ! "t ,i wrote1 ,i det]m9$ n  
to expunge ! phrase1 & cont5t$ myself ) 
sub/itut+ ! ^w ,pr9ce to ,k+1 :i* ,i _h 
fir/ writt54 ,?is s(t5+ did n seem      
suffici5t to ,m4 de ,male%]bes3 he      
retr5*$ ! :ole expression 9 a new %eet  
:i* he _h pr9t$ on purpose & /uck 9     
betwe5 ! o!r ) z mu* exactness z        
possible 9 ! copy ( ,madam de ,pompad\r4
 ,%e 0 n ignorant ( ?is manoeuvre4 ,"s  
good-natur$ p took ! tr\ble to in=m h] (
 x4 ,= my "p1 x 0 n until a long "t     

aft]w>ds1 & :5 ,i began to feel !       
consequ5ces ( x1 t ! matt] came to my k4
  ,is n ?is ! orig9 ( ! conceal$ b      
implacable hatr$ ( ano!r lady :o 0 9 a l
 situation1 )\t my kn[+ x1 or ev5 be+   
acqua9t$ ) h] p]son :5 ,i wrote !       
passage8 ,:5 ! book 0 publi%$ !         
acqua9tance 0 made1 & ,i 0 v uneasy4 ,i 
m5tion$ ?is to ! ,*evali] de ,lor5zy1 :o
 laugh$ at me1 & said ! lady 0 s little 
(f5d$ t %e _h n ev5 tak5 notice ( !     
matt]4 ,i believ$ him1 p]haps r too     
lightly1 & made myself easy :5 !re 0 mu*
 reason = my be+ o!rwise4  ,at ! beg9n+ 
( ! w9t] ,i receiv$ an additional m>k ( 
! goodness ( ,m4 de ,male%]bes ( :i* ,i 
0 v s5sible1 al?\gh ,i did n ?9k prop]  
to take advantage ( x4 ,a place 0 vacant
 9 ! ',j\rnal des ,savans'4 ,m>g5cy     
wrote to me1 propos+ to me ! place1 z f 
himself4 ,b ,i easily p]ceiv$ f ! mann] 
( ! lett] t he 0 dictat$ to & au?oriz$2 
he aft]w>ds told me he _h be5 desir$ to 
make me ! (f]4 ,! occupations ( ?is     
place 7 b trifl+4 ,all ,i %\ld h _h to d

 w\ld h be5 to make two ab/racts a mon?1
 f ! books br\ght to me = t purpose1 )\t
 be+ "u ! necessity ( go+ once to ,p>is1
 n ev5 to pay ! magi/rate a visit (     
?anks4 ,by ?is employm5t ,i %\ld h ent]$
 a society ( m5 ( lett]s ( ! fir/ m]it2 
,m4 de ,mairan1 ,clairaut1 ,de ,guignes 
& ! ,abbe ,b>!lemi1 ) ! fir/ two ( :om  
,i _h already made an acqua9tance1 & t (
 ! two o!rs 0 v desirable4 ,9 f9e1 = ?is
 trifl+ employm5t1 ! duties ( :i* ,i    
might s commodi\sly h dis*>g$1 !re 0 a  
sal>y ( eight hundr$ livres 7?irty-?ree 
p\nds72 ,i 0 = a few h\rs undecid$1 &   
?is f a fe> ( mak+ ,m>g5cy angry &      
displeas+ ,m4 de ,male%]bes4 ,b at l5g? 
! insupportable con/ra9t ( n hav+ x 9 my
 p[] to "w :5 ,i ?\ght prop]1 & to be   
comm&$ by "t2 & moreov] ! c]ta9ty (     
badly p]=m+ ! functions ) :i* ,i 0 to   
*>ge myself1 prevail$ ov] ev]y?+1 &     
det]m9$ me to refuse a place = :i* ,i 0 
unfit4 ,i knew t my :ole tal5t consi/$ 9
 a c]ta9 w>m? ( m9d ) respect to !      
subjects ( :at ,i _h to treat1 & t no?+ 

b ! love ( t :i* 0 great1 beautiful &   
sublime1 c\ld animate my g5ius4 ,:at    
w\ld ! subjects ( ! extracts ,i %\ld h  
_h to make f books1 or ev5 ! books      
!mselves1 h signifi$ to me8 ,my         
indiff]5ce ab\t !m w\ld h froz5 my p51 &
 /upefi$ my m9d4 ,p ?\ght ,i c\ld make a
 trade ( writ+1 z mo/ ( ! o!r m5 (      
lett]s did1 in/ead ( :i* ,i nev] c\ld   
write b f ! w>m? ( imag9ation4 ,?is     
c]ta9ly 0 n necess>y = ! ',j\rnal des   
,savans'4 ,i !re=e wrote to ,m>g5cy a   
lett] ( ?anks1 9 ! polite/ t]ms         
possible1 & s well expla9$ to him my    
reasons1 t x 0 n possible t ei!r he or  
,m4 de ,male%]bes c\ld imag9e !re 0     
pride or ill-humor 9 my refusal4 ,!y bo?
 approv$ ( x )\t receiv+ me less        
politely1 & ! secret 0 s well kept t x 0
 nev] kn[n to ! public4  ,! proposition 
did n come 9 a favorable mom5t4 ,i _h "s
 "t be=e ?is =m$ ! project ( quitt+     
lit]ature1 & especially ! trade ( an    
au?or4 ,i _h be5 disgu/$ ) m5 ( lett]s  
by ev]y?+ t _h lately befall5 me1 & _h  

le>n$ f exp]i5ce t x 0 impossible to    
proce$ 9 ! same track )\t hav+ "s       
connections ) !m4 ,i 0 n mu* less       
dissatisfi$ ) m5 ( ! _w1 & 9 g5]al ) !  
mix$ life ,i _h lately l$1 half to      
myself & half devot$ to societies = :i* 
,i 0 unfit4 ,i felt m ?an ev]1 & by     
con/ant exp]i5ce1 t e unequal           
association is disadvantage\s to ! weak]
 p]son4 ,liv+ ) opul5t p1 & 9 a         
situation diff]5t f t ,i _h *os51 )\t   
keep+ a h\se z !y did1 ,i 0 oblig$ to   
imitate !m 9 _m ?+s2 & little exp5ses1  
:i* 7 no?+ to _! =tunes1 7 = me n less  
ru9\s ?an indisp5sable4 ,ano!r man 9 !  
c\ntry-h\se ( a fri5d1 is s]v$ by 8 own 
s]vant1 z well at table z 9 8 *amb]2 he 
s5ds him to seek = ev]y?+ he wants2 hav+
 no?+ directly to d ) ! s]vants ( !     
h\se1 n ev5 see+ !m1 he gives !m :at he 
pleases1 & :5 he ?9ks prop]2 b ,i1      
alone1 & )\t a s]vant1 0 at ! m]cy ( !  
s]vants ( ! h\se1 ( :om x 0 necess>y to 
ga9 ! good graces1 t ,i might n h mu* to
 suff]2 & be+ treat$ z ! equal ( _!     

ma/]1 ,i 0 oblig$ to treat !m accord+ly1
 & bett] ?an ano!r w\ld h done1 because1
 9 fact1 ,i /ood 9 great] ne$ ( _!      
s]vices4 ,?is1 :]e !re are b few        
dome/ics1 may be compli$ )2 b 9 ! h\ses 
,i frequ5t$ !re 7 a great numb]1 & !    
knaves s well und]/ood _! int]e/s t !y  
knew h[ to make me want ! s]vices ( !m  
all successively4 ,! wom5 ( ,p>is1 :o h 
s mu* wit1 h no j idea ( ?is            
inconv5i5ce1 & 9 _! zeal to economize my
 purse !y ru9$ me4 ,if ,i supp$ 9 t[n1  
at any consid]able di/ance f my lodg+s1 
in/ead ( p]mitt+ me to s5d = a hackney  
coa*1 ! mi/ress ( ! h\se ord]$ h] horses
 to be put to & s5t me home 9 h]        
c>riage4 ,%e 0 v glad to save me !      
tw5ty-f\r s\s 7%ill+7 = ! fiacre1 b nev]
 ?\ght ( ! half-cr[n ,i gave to h]      
coa*man & footman4 ,if a lady wrote to  
me f ,p>is to ! ,h]mitage or to         
,montmor5cy1 %e regrett$ ! f\r s\s 7two 
p5ce7 ! po/age ( ! lett] w\ld h co/ me1 
& s5t x by "o ( h] s]vants1 :o came     
sweat+ on foot1 & to :om ,i gave a d9n] 

& half a cr[n1 :i* he c]ta9ly _h well   
e>n$4 ,if %e propos$ to me to pass ) h] 
a week or a =tnight at h] c\ntry-h\se1  
%e /ill said to h]self1 ,x w be a sav+  
to ! poor man2 dur+ t "t 8 eat+ w co/   
him no?+4 ,%e nev] recollect$ t ,i 0 !  
:ole "t idle1 t ! exp5ses ( my family1  
my r5t1 l95 & clo!s 7 /ill go+ on1 t ,i 
paid my b>b] d\ble t x co/ me m be+ 9 h]
 h\se ?an 9 my own1 & al?\gh ,i conf9$  
my little l>gesses to ! h\se 9 :i* ,i   
cu/om>ily liv$1 t ^! 7 /ill ru9\s to me4
 ,i am c]ta9 ,i h paid upw>ds (         
tw5ty-five cr[ns 9 ! h\se ( ,madam      
d',h\detot1 at ,raubonne1 :]e ,i nev]   
slept m ?an f\r or five times1 & upw>ds 
( a ?\s& livres 7=ty p\nds7 z well at   
,ep9ay z at ! ,*evrette1 dur+ ! five or 
six ye>s ,i 0 mo/ assidu\s !re4 ,^!     
exp5ses are inevitable to a man l me1 :o
 kn[s n h[ to provide any?+ = himself1 &
 _c support ! sight ( a lackey :o       
grumbles & s]ves him ) a s\r look4 ,)   
,madam ,dup91 ev5 :]e ,i 0 "o ( !       
family1 & 9 ^: h\se ,i r5d]$ _m s]vices 

to ! s]vants1 ,i nev] receiv$ !irs b =  
my money4 ,9 c\rse ( "t x 0 necess>y to 
r5\nce ^! little lib]alities1 :i* my    
situation no long] p]mitt$ me to be/[1 &
 ,i felt /ill m sev]ely ! inconv5i5ce ( 
associat+ ) p 9 a situation diff]5t f my
 own4  ,_h ?is mann] ( life be5 to my   
ta/e1 ,i %\ld h be5 consol$ = a heavy   
exp5se1 :i* ,i d$icat$ to my pleasures2 
b to ru9 myself at ! same "t t ,i       
fatigu$ my m9d1 0 insupportable1 & ,i _h
 s felt ! weight ( ?is1 t1 pr(it+ by !  
int]val ( lib]ty ,i !n _h1 ,i 0 det]m9$ 
to p]petuate x1 & entirely to r5\nce    
great companies1 ! composition ( books1 
& all lit]>y conc]ns1 & = ! rema9d] ( my
 days to conf9e myself to ! n>r[ &      
peaceful sph]e 9 :i* ,i felt ,i 0 born  
to move4  ,! produce ( ?is lett] to     
,d',alemb]t1 & ( ! ,new ,elosia1 _h a   
little improv$ ! /ate ( my f9ances1 :i* 
_h be5 consid]ably exhau/$ at !         
,h]mitage4 ,emilius1 to :i*1 aft] ,i _h 
f9i%$ ,eloisa1 ,i _h giv5 great         
application1 0 9 =w>dness1 & ! produce (

 ?is c\ld n be less ?an ! sum ( :i* ,i 0
 already 9 possession4 ,i int5d$ to     
place ?is money 9 su* a mann] z to      
produce me a little annual income1 :i*1 
) my copy+1 might be suffici5t to my    
wants )\t writ+ any m4 ,i _h two o!r    
works ^u ! /ocks4 ,! fir/ ( ^! 0 my     
',in/itutions ,politiques'4 ,i exam9$ ! 
/ate ( ?is "w1 & f\nd x requir$ sev]al  
ye>s' labor4 ,i _h n c\rage en\gh to    
cont9ue x1 & to wait until x 0 f9i%$    
be=e ,i c>ri$ my int5tions into         
execution4 ,!re=e1 lay+ ! book aside1 ,i
 det]m9$ to take f x all ,i c\ld1 & to  
burn ! re/2 & cont9u+ ?is ) zeal )\t    
int]rupt+ ,emilius1 ,i f9i%$ ! ',contrat
 ,social'4  ,! diction>y ( music n[     
rema9$4 ,?is 0 me*anical1 & might be    
tak5 up at any "t2 ! object ( x 0       
entirely pecuni>y4 ,i res]v$ to myself !
 lib]ty ( lay+ x aside1 or ( f9i%+ x at 
my ease1 accord+ z my o!r res\rces      
collect$ %\ld r5d] ?is necess>y or      
sup]flu\s4 ,) respect to ! ',morale     
,s5sitive'1 ( :i* ,i _h made no?+ m ?an 

a sket*1 ,i entirely gave x up4  ,z my  
la/ project1 if ,i f\nd ,i c\ld n       
entirely d )\t copy+1 0 t ( remov+ f    
,p>is1 :]e ! afflu5ce ( my visitors     
r5d]$ my h\sekeep+ exp5sive1 & depriv$  
me ( ! "t ,i %\ld h turn$ to advantage  
to provide = x2 to prev5t 9 my retirem5t
 ! /ate ( lassitude into :i* an au?or is
 said to fall :5 he has laid d[n 8 p51  
,i res]v$ to myself an occupation :i*   
might fill up ! void 9 my solitude )\t  
tempt+ me to pr9t any?+ m4 ,i "k n = :at
 reason !y _h long torm5t$ me to write !
 memoirs ( my life4 ,al?\gh ^! 7 n until
 t "t int]e/+ z to ! facts1 ,i felt !y  
might become s by ! c&or ) :i* ,i 0     
capable ( giv+ !m1 & ,i det]m9$ to make 
( ^! ! only "w ( ! k9d1 by an unexampl$ 
v]acity1 t1 = once at lea/1 ! _w might  
see a man su* z he int]nally 04 ,i _h   
always laugh$ at ! false +5u\sness (    
,montaigne1 :o1 feign+ to confess 8     
faults1 takes great c>e n to give       
himself any1 except su* z are amiable2  
:il/ ,i1 :o h ev] ?\ght1 & /ill ?9k     

myself1 consid]+ ev]y?+1 ! be/ ( m51    
felt !re is no human be+1 h[ev] pure he 
may be1 :o does n int]nally conceal "s  
odi\s vice4 ,i knew ,i 0 describ$ to !  
public v diff]5t f :at ,i really 01 & s 
opposite1 t not)/&+ my faults1 all ( :i*
 ,i 0 det]m9$ to relate1 ,i c\ld n b be 
a ga9] by %[+ myself 9 my prop] colors4 
,?is1 besides1 n be+ to be done )\t     
sett+ =? o!rs also 9 !irs & ! "w = !    
same reason n be+ ( a nature to appe>   
dur+ my lifetime1 & t ( sev]al o!r      
p]sons1 ,i 0 ! m enc\rag$ to make my    
confession1 at :i* ,i %\ld nev] h to    
blu% be=e any p]son4 ,i !re=e resolv$ to
 d$icate my leisure to ! execution ( ?is
 und]tak+1 & imm$iately began to collect
 su* lett]s & pap]s z might guide or    
assi/ my memory1 greatly regrett+ ! loss
 ( all ,i _h burn$1 mislaid & de/roy$4  
,! project ( absolute retirem5t1 "o ( ! 
mo/ reasonable ,i _h ev] =m$1 0 /rongly 
impress$ ^u my m9d1 & = ! execution ( x 
,i 0 already tak+ measures1 :5 ,heav51  
:i* prep>$ me a diff]5t de/9y1 plung$ me

 into a ano!r vortex4  ,montmor5cy1 !   
anci5t & f9e patrimony ( ! illu/ri\s    
family ( t "n1 0 tak5 f x by            
confiscation4 ,x pass$ by ! si/] ( ,duke
 ,h5ry1 to ! h\se ( ,conde1 :i* has     
*ang$ ! "n ( ,montmor5cy to t ( ,engui51
 & ! du*y has no o!r ca/le ?an an old   
t[]1 :]e ! ar*ives are kept1 & to :i* ! 
vassals come to d homage4 ,b at         
,montmor5cy1 or ,engui51 !re is a       
private h\se1 built by ,crosat1 call$   
'le pauvre'1 :i* hav+ ! magnific5ce ( ! 
mo/ sup]b *ateaux1 des]ves & be>s ! "n (
 a ca/le4 ,! maje/ic appe>ance ( ?is    
noble edifice1 ! view f x1 n equall$    
p]haps 9 any c\ntry2 ! spaci\s saloon1  
pa9t$ by ! h& ( a ma/]2 ! g>d51 plant$  
by ! celebrat$ ,le ,notre2 all comb9$ to
 =m a :ole /rik+ly maje/ic1 9 :i* !re is
 /ill a simplicity t en=ces admiration4 
,! ,m>e*al ,duke de ,luxemb\rg :o !n    
inhabit$ ?is h\se1 came e ye> into !    
neighborhood :]e =m]ly 8 ance/ors 7 !   
ma/]s1 to pass1 at lea/1 five or six    
weeks z a private inhabitant1 b ) a     

spl5dor :i* did n deg5]ate f ! anci5t   
lu/re ( 8 family4 ,on ! fir/ j\rney he  
made to x aft] my resid+ at ,montmor5cy1
 he & 8 lady s5t to me a valet de       
*ambre1 ) _! complim5ts1 invit+ me to   
sup ) !m z (t5 z x %\ld be agreeable to 
me2 & at ea* "t ( _! com+ !y nev] fail$ 
to reit]ate ! same complim5ts &         
invitation4 ,?is call$ to my            
recollection ,madam ,beuz5val s5d+ me to
 d9e 9 ! s]vants' hall4 ,times 7 *ang$2 
b ,i 0 /ill ! same man4 ,i did n *oose  
to be s5t to d9e 9 ! s]vants' hall1 & 0 
b little desir\s ( appe>+ at ! table ( !
 great2 ,i %\ld h be5 mu* bett] pleas$  
_h !y left me z ,i 01 )\t c>ess+ me &   
r5d]+ me ridicul\s4 ,i answ]$ politely &
 respectfully to ,monsieur & ,madam de  
,luxemb\rg1 b ,i did n accept _! (f]s1 &
 my indisposition & timidity1 ) my      
emb>rassm5t 9 speak+2 mak+ me tremble at
 ! idea alone ( appe>+ 9 an assembly ( p
 ( ! c\rt4 ,i did n ev5 g to ! ca/le to 
pay a visit ( ?anks1 al?\gh ,i          
suffici5tly compreh5d$ ?is 0 all !y     

desir$1 & t _! eag] polit5ess 0 r a     
matt] ( curiosity ?an b5evol5ce4        
,h[ev]1 advances /ill 7 made1 & ev5     
became m press+4 ,! ,c\ntess de         
,b\ffl]s1 :o 0 v intimate ) ! lady ( !  
m>e*al1 s5t to inquire aft] my heal?1 & 
to beg ,i w\ld g & see h]4 ,i return$ h]
 a prop] answ]1 b did n /ir f my h\se4  
,at ! j\rney ( ,ea/]1 ! ye> foll[+1     
#agei1 ! ,*evali] de ,lor5zy1 :o belong$
 to ! c\rt ( ! ,pr9ce ( ,conti1 & 0     
intimate ) ,madam de ,luxemb\rg1 came   
sev]al times to see me1 & we became     
acqua9t$2 he press$ me to g to ! ca/le1 
b ,i refus$ to comply4 ,at l5g?1 "o     
aft]noon1 :5 ,i lea/ expect$ any?+ ( !  
k9d1 ,i saw com+ up to ! h\se ! ,m>e*al 
de ,luxemb\rg1 foll[$ by five or six    
p]sons4 ,!re 0 n[ no long] any means (  
def5ce2 & ,i c\ld n1 )\t be+ arrogant & 
unmann]ly1 d o!rwise ?an return ?is     
visit1 & make my c\rt to ,madam la      
,m>e*ale1 f :om ! m>e*al _h be5 ! be>] (
 ! mo/ oblig+ complim5ts to me4 ,?us1 "u
 un=tunate auspices1 began ! connections

 f :i* ,i c\ld no long] pres]ve myself1 
al?\gh a too well-f\nd$ =esight made me 
afraid ( !m until !y 7 made4  ,i 0      
excessively afraid ( ,madam de          
,luxemb\rg4 ,i knew %e 0 amiable z to   
mann]4 ,i _h se5 h] sev]al times at !   
!atre1 :5 %e 0 ,du*ess ( ,b\ffl]s1 & 9 !
 bloom ( h] beauty2 b %e 0 said to be   
malignant2 & ?is 9 a woman ( h] rank    
made me tremble4 ,i _h sc>cely se5 h]   
be=e ,i 0 subjugat$4 ,i ?\ght h] *>m+1 )
 t *>m pro( aga9/ "t & :i* _h ! mo/     
p[]ful action ^u my he>t4 ,i expect$ to 
f9d h] conv]sation satirical & full (   
pleasantries & po9ts4 ,x 0 n s2 x 0 mu* 
bett]4 ,! conv]sation ( ,madam de       
,luxemb\rg is n rem>kably full ( wit2 x 
has no sallies1 nor ev5 f9esse2 x is    
exquisitely delicate1 nev] /rik+1 b     
always pleas+4 ,h] flatt]y is ! m       
intoxicat+ z x is natural2 x seems to   
escape h] involunt>ily1 & h] he>t to    
ov]fl[ because x is too full4 ,i ?\ght  
,i p]ceiv$1 on my fir/ visit1 t not)/&+ 
my awkw>d mann] & emb>rass$ expression1 

,i 0 n displeas+ to h]4 ,all ! wom5 ( ! 
c\rt "k h[ to p]suade u ( ?is :5 !y     
please1 :e!r x be true or n1 b !y d n   
all1 l ,madam de ,luxemb\rg1 possess !  
art ( r5d]+ t p]suasion s agreeable t we
 are no long] dispos$ ev] to h a d\bt   
rema9+4 ,f ! fir/ day my confid5ce 9 h] 
w\ld h be5 z full z x soon aft]w>ds     
became1 _h n ! ,du*ess ( ,montmor5cy1 h]
 daught]-9-law1 "y1 giddy1 & malici\s   
also1 tak5 x into h] head to attack me1 
& 9 ! mid/ ( ! eulogiums ( h] mamma1 &  
feign$ allurem5ts on h] own acc\nt1 made
 me suspect ,i 0 only consid]$ by !m z a
 subject ( ridicule4  ,x w\ld p]haps h  
be5 difficult to relieve me f ?is fe> ) 
^! two ladies _h n ! extreme goodness ( 
! m>e*al confirm$ me 9 ! belief t !irs 0
 n real4 ,no?+ is m surpris+1 consid]+  
my timidity1 ?an ! promptitude ) :i* ,i 
took him at 8 ^w on ! foot+ ( equality  
to :i* he w\ld absolutely r$uce himself 
) me1 except x be t ) :i* he took me at 
m9e ) respect to ! absolute indep5d5ce 9
 :i* ,i 0 det]m9$ to live4 ,bo? p]suad$ 

,i _h reason to be cont5t ) my          
situation1 & t ,i 0 unwill+ to *ange x1 
nei!r he nor ,madam de ,luxemb\rg seem$ 
to ?9k a mom5t ( my purse or =tune2     
al?\gh ,i c h no d\bt ( ! t5d] conc]n !y
 _h = me1 !y nev] propos$ to me a place 
nor (f]$ me _! int]e/1 except x 7 once1 
:5 ,madam de ,luxemb\rg seem$ to wi% me 
to become a memb] ( ! ,fr5* ,academy4 ,i
 alleg$ my religion2 ?is %e told me 0 no
 ob/acle1 or if x 0 "o %e engag$ to     
remove x4 ,i answ]$1 t h[ev] great !    
honor ( becom+ a memb] ( s illu/ri\s a  
body might be1 hav+ refus$ ,m4 de       
,tressan1 &1 9 "s measure1 ! ,k+ (      
,pol&1 to become a memb] ( ! ,academy at
 ,nancy1 ,i c\ld n ) propriety ent] into
 any o!r4 ,madam de ,luxemb\rg did n    
insi/1 & no?+ m 0 said ^u ! subject4    
,?is simplicity ( int]c\rse ) p]sons (  
su* rank1 & :o _h ! p[] ( do+ any?+ 9 my
 favor1 ,m4 de ,luxemb\rg be+1 & highly 
des]v+ to be1 ! p>ticul> fri5d ( ! k+1  
af=ds a s+ul> contra/ ) ! cont9ual c>es1
 equally importunate & (fici\s1 ( !     

fri5ds & protectors f :om ,i _h j       
sep>at$1 & :o endeavor$ less to s]ve me 
?an to r5d] me contemptible4  ,:5 !     
m>e*al came to see me at ,mont ,l\is1 ,i
 0 uneasy at receiv+ him & 8 ret9ue 9 my
 only *amb]2 n because ,i 0 oblig$ to   
make !m all sit d[n 9 ! mid/ ( my dirty 
plates & brok5 pots1 b on acc\nt ( !    
/ate ( ! floor1 :i* 0 rott5 & fall+ to  
ru91 & ,i 0 afraid ! weight ( 8         
att5dants w\ld entirely s9k x4 ,less    
conc]n$ on acc\nt ( my own dang] ?an = t
 to :i* ! affability ( ! m>e*al expos$  
him1 ,i ha/5$ to remove him f x by      
conduct+ him1 not)/&+ ! coldness ( !    
wea!r1 to my alcove1 :i* 0 q op5 to !   
air1 & _h no *imney4 ,:5 he 0 !re ,i    
told him my reason = hav+ br\ght him to 
x2 he told x to 8 lady1 & !y bo? press$ 
me to accept1 until ! floor 0 repair$1 a
 lodg+ ( ! ca/le2 or1 if ,i pref]r$ x1 9
 a sep>ate edifice call$ ! ,little      
,ca/le :i* 0 9 ! middle ( ! p>k4 ,?is   
delightful abode des]ves to be spok5 (4 
,! p>k or g>d5 ( ,montmor5cy is n a     

pla91 l t ( ! ,*evrette4 ,x is unev51   
m\nta9\s1 rais$ by little hills &       
valleys1 ( :i* ! able arti/ has tak5    
advantage2 & !reby v>i$ 8 groves1       
ornam5ts1 wat]s1 & po9ts ( view1 &1 if  
,i may s speak1 multipli$ by art & g5ius
 a space 9 itself r n>r[4 ,?is p>k is   
t]m9at$ at ! top by a t]race & ! ca/le2 
at bottom x =ms a n>r[ passage :i* op5s 
& becomes wid] t[>ds ! valley1 ! angle (
 :i* is fill$ up ) a l>ge piece ( wat]4 
,betwe5 ! orang]y1 :i* is 9 ?is wid5+1 &
 ! piece ( wat]1 ! banks ( :i* are      
agreeably decorat$1 /&s ! ,little ,ca/le
 ( :i* ,i h spok54 ,?is edifice1 & !    
gr\nd ab\t x1 =m]ly belong$ to !        
celebrat$ ,le ,brun1 :o amus$ himself 9 
build+ & decorat+ x 9 ! exquisite ta/e (
 ar*itectual ornam5ts :i* t great pa9t] 
_h =m$ to himself4 ,! ca/le has s9ce be5
 rebuilt1 b /ill1 accord+ to ! plan &   
design ( its fir/ ma/]4 ,x is little &  
simple1 b elegant4 ,z x /&s 9 a holl[   
betwe5 ! orang]y & ! l>ge piece ( wat]1 
& consequ5tly is liable to be damp1 x is

 op5 9 ! middle by a p]i/yle betwe5 two 
r[s ( columns1 by :i* means ! air       
circulat+ ?r\gh\t ! :ole edifice keeps x
 dry1 not)/&+ its unfavorable situation4
 ,:5 ! build+ is se5 f ! opposite       
elevation1 :i* is a po9t ( view1 x      
appe>s absolutely surr\nd$ ) wat]1 & we 
imag9e we h be=e our eyes an en*ant$    
isl&1 or ! mo/ beautiful ( ! ?ree       
,boromeans1 call$ ,isola ,bella1 9 !    
great] lake4  ,9 ?is solit>y edifice ,i 
0 (f]$ ! *oice ( f\r complete ap>tm5ts x
 conta9s1 besides ! gr\nd floor1 consi/+
 ( a danc+ room1 billi>d room & a kit*54
 ,i *ose ! smalle/ ov] ! kit*51 :i* also
 ,i _h ) x4 ,x 0 *>m+ly neat1 ) blue &  
:ite furniture4 ,9 ?is pr(\nd & delici\s
 solitude1 9 ! mid/ ( ! woods1 ! s++ (  
birds ( e k9d1 & ! p]fume ( orange      
fl[]s1 ,i compos$1 9 a cont9ual ec/asy1 
! fif? book ( ,emilius1 ! color+ ( :i*  
,i owe 9 a great measure to ! lively    
impression ,i receiv$ f ! place ,i      
inhabit$4  ,) :at eag]ness did ,i run e 
morn+ at sunrise to respire ! p]fum$ air

 9 ! p]i/yle6 ,:at excell5t c(fee ,i    
took !re tete-a-tete ) my ,!resa4 ,my   
cat & dog 7 our company4 ,?is ret9ue    
alone w\ld h be5 suffici5t = me dur+ my 
:ole life1 9 :i* ,i %\ld n h _h "o we>y 
mom5t4 ,i 0 !re 9 a t]re/rial p>adise2  
,i liv$ 9 innoc5ce & ta/$ ( happ9ess4   
,at ! j\rney ( ,july1 ,m4 & ,madam de   
,luxemb\rg %[$ me s mu* att5tion1 & 7 s 
extremely k9d1 t1 lodg$ 9 _! h\se1 &    
ov]:elm$ ) _! goodness1 ,i c\ld n d less
 ?an make !m a prop] return 9 assidu\s  
respect ne> _! p]sons2 ,i sc>cely quitt$
 !m2 ,i w5t 9 ! morn+ to pay my c\rt to 
,madam la ,m>e*ale2 aft] d9n] ,i walk$ )
 ! m>e*al2 b did n sup at ! ca/le on    
acc\nt ( ! num]\s gue/s1 & because !y   
supp$ too late = me4 ,?us f> ev]y?+ 0 z 
x %\ld be1 & no h>m w\ld h be5 done c\ld
 ,i h rema9$ at ?is po9t4 ,b ,i h nev]  
kn[n h[ to pres]ve a m$ium 9 my         
atta*m5ts1 & simply fulfil ! duties (   
society4 ,i h ev] be5 ev]y?+ or no?+4 ,i
 0 soon ev]y?+2 & receiv+ ! mo/ polite  
att5tion f p]sons ( ! highe/ rank1 ,i   

pass$ ! prop] b\nds1 & conceiv$ = !m a  
fri5d%ip n p]mitt$ except among equals4 
,( ^! ,i _h all ! famili>ity 9 my       
mann]s1 :il/ !y /ill pres]v$ 9 !irs !   
same polit5ess to :i* !y _h accu/om$ me4
 ,yet ,i 0 nev] q at my ease ) ,madam de
 ,luxemb\rg4 ,al?\gh ,i 0 n q reliev$ f 
my fe>s relative to h] "*1 ,i appreh5d$ 
less dang] f x ?an f h] wit4 ,x 0 by ?is
 especially t %e impress$ me ) awe4 ,i  
knew %e 0 difficult z to conv]sation1 & 
%e _h a "r to be s4 ,i knew wom51       
especially ^? ( h] rank1 w\ld absolutely
 be amus$1 t x 0 bett] to (f5d ?an to   
we>y !m1 & ,i judg$ by h] comm5t>ies ^u 
:at ! p :o w5t away _h said :at %e mu/  
?9k ( my blund]s4 ,i ?\ght ( an exp$i5t 
to sp>e me ) h] ! emb>rassm5t ( speak+2 
?is 0 read+4 ,%e _h he>d ( my ,eloisa1 &
 knew x 0 9 ! press2 %e express$ a      
desire to see ! "w2 ,i (f]$ to read x to
 h]1 & %e accept$ my (f]4 ,i w5t to h] e
 morn+ at t5 o'clock2 ,m4 de ,luxemb\rg 
0 pres5t1 & ! door 0 %ut4 ,i read by !  
side ( h] b$1 & s well proportion$ my   

read+s t !re w\ld h be5 suffici5t = !   
:ole "t %e _h to /ay1 _h !y ev5 n be5   
int]rupt$4       ,! loss ( a great      
battle1 :i* mu* afflict$ ! ,k+1         
oblig$ ,m4 de ,luxemb\rg precipitately  
to return to c\rt4  ,! success ( ?is    
exp$i5t surpass$ my expectation4 ,madam 
de ,luxemb\rg took a great lik+ to      
,julia & ! au?or2 %e spoke ( no?+ b me1 
?\ght ( no?+ else1 said civil ?+s to me 
f morn+ till night1 & embrac$ me t5     
times a day4 ,%e insi/$ on me always    
hav+ my place by h] side at table1 & :5 
any great lords wi%$ x %e told !m x 0   
m9e1 & made !m sit d[n some:]e else4 ,! 
impression ^! *>m+ mann]s made ^u me1 :o
 0 subjugat$ by ! lea/ m>k ( affection1 
may easily be judg$ (4 ,i became really 
atta*$ to h] 9 proportion to ! atta*m5t 
%e %[$ me4 ,all my fe> 9 p]ceiv+ ?is    
infatuation1 & feel+ ! want (           
agreeabl5ess 9 myself to support x1 0 t 
x w\ld be *ang$ into disgu/2 &          
un=tunately ?is fe> 0 b too well f\nd$4 
,!re mu/ h be5 a natural opposition     

betwe5 h] turn ( m9d & m9e1 s9ce1       
indep5d5tly ( ! num]\s /upid ?+s :i* at 
e in/ant escap$ me 9 conv]sation1 & ev5 
9 my lett]s1 & :5 ,i 0 ^u ! be/ t]ms )  
h]1 !re 7 c]ta9 o!r ?+s ) :i* %e 0      
displeas$ )\t my be+ able to imag9e !   
reason4 ,i w quote "o in/ance f among   
tw5ty4 ,%e knew ,i 0 writ+ = ,madam     
d',h\detot a copy ( ! ,new ,eloisa4 ,%e 
0 desir\s to h "o on ! same foot+4 ,?is 
,i promis$ h]1 & !reby mak+ h] "o ( my  
cu/om]s1 ,i wrote h] a polite lett] ^u !
 subject1 at lea/ su* 0 my int5tion4 ,h]
 answ]1 :i* 0 z foll[s1 /upefi$ me )    
surprise4                               
,,v]sailles1 ,tuesday4  ,i am ravi%$1 ,i
 am satisfi$3 y\r lett] has giv5 me     
inf9ite pleasure1 & ,i take ! e>lie/    
mom5t to acqua9t y )1 & ?ank y = x4  ,^!
 are ! exact words ( y\r lett]3 ',al?\gh
 y are c]ta9ly a v good cu/om]1 ,i h "s 
pa9 9 receiv+ y\r money3 accord+ to     
regul> ord] ,i ought to pay = ! pleasure
 ,i %\ld h 9 work+ = y4' ,i w say no?+ m
 on ! subject4 ,i h to compla9 ( y\r n  

speak+ ( y\r /ate ( heal?3 no?+ int]e/s 
me m4 ,i love y ) all my he>t3 & be     
assur$ t ,i write ?is to y 9 a v        
melan*oly mood1 = ,i %\ld h mu* pleasure
 9 tell+ x to y myself4 ,m4 de          
,luxemb\rg loves & embraces y ) all 8   
he>t4  ,on receiv+ ! lett] ,i ha/5$ to  
answ] x1 res]v+ to myself m fully to    
exam9e ! matt]1 prote/+ aga9/ all       
disoblig+ int]pretation1 & aft] hav+    
giv5 sev]al days to ?is exam9ation ) an 
inquietude :i* may easily be conceiv$1 &
 /ill )\t be+ able to discov] 9 :at ,i  
c\ld h err$1 :at foll[s 0 my f9al answ] 
on ! subject4                           
,,montmor5cy1 #h? ,decemb]1 #agei4      
,s9ce my la/ lett] ,i h exam9$ a hundr$ 
times ! passage 9 "q4 ,i h consid]$ x 9 
its prop] & natural mean+1 z well z 9 e 
o!r :i* may be giv5 to x1 & ,i confess  
to y1 madam1 t ,i "k n :e!r x be ,i :o  
owe to y excuses1 or y f :om !y are due 
to me4  ,x is n[ t5 ye>s s9ce ^! lett]s 
7 writt54 ,i h s9ce t "t frequ5tly ?\ght
 ( ! subject ( !m2 & su* is /ill my     

/upidity t ,i h hi!rto be5 unable to    
discov] :at 9 ! passages1 quot$ f my    
lett]1 %e c\ld f9d (f5sive1 or ev5      
displeas+4  ,i mu/ "h m5tion1 relative  
to ! manuscript copy ( ,eloisa ,madam de
 ,luxemb\rg wi%$ to h1 9 :at mann] ,i   
?\ght to give x "s m>k$ advantage :i*   
%\ld di/+ui% x f all o!rs4 ,i _h writt5 
sep>ately ! adv5tures ( ,"l ,edw>d1 & _h
 long be5 undet]m9$ :e!r ,i %\ld ins]t  
!m :olly1 or 9 extracts1 9 ! "w 9 :i* !y
 seem$ to be want+4 ,i at l5g? det]m9$  
to retr5* !m entirely1 because1 n be+ 9 
! mann] ( ! re/1 !y w\ld h spoil$ !     
int]e/+ simplicity1 :i* 0 its pr9cipal  
m]it4 ,i _h /ill a /rong] reason :5 ,i  
came to "k ,madam de ,luxemb\rg3 ,!re 0 
9 ^! adv5tures a ,roman m>*ioness1 ( a  
bad "*1 "s p>ts ( :i*1 )\t be+          
applicable1 might h be5 appli$ to h] by 
^? to :om %e 0 n p>ticul>ly kn[n4 ,i 0  
!re=e1 highly pleas$ ) ! det]m9ation to 
:i* ,i _h come1 & resolv$ to abide by x4
 ,b 9 ! ard5t desire to enri* h] copy ) 
some?+ :i* 0 n 9 ! o!r1 :at %\ld ,i fall

 ^u b ^! un=tunate adv5tures1 & ,i      
conclud$ on mak+ an extract f !m to add 
to ! "w2 a project dictat$ by madness1 (
 :i* ! extravagance is inexplicable1    
except by ! bl9d fatality :i* l$ me on  
to de/ruction4                 ',quos   
vult p]d]e ,jupit] dem5tet4'  ,i 0 /upid
 en\gh to make ?is extract ) ! greate/  
c>e & pa9s1 & to s5d x h] z ! f9e/ ?+ 9 
! _w2 x is true1 ,i at ! same "t in=m$  
h] ! orig9al 0 burn$1 :i* 0 really !    
case1 t ! extract 0 = h] alone1 & w\ld  
nev] be se51 except by h]self1 unless %e
 *ose to %[ x2 :i*1 f> f prov+ to h] my 
prud5ce & discretion1 z x 0 my int5tion 
to d1 cle>ly intimat$ :at ,i ?\ght ( !  
application by :i* %e might be (f5d$4   
,my /upidity 0 su*1 t ,i _h no d\bt ( h]
 be+ delight$ ) :at ,i _h done4 ,%e did 
n make me ! complim5t ^u x :i* ,i       
expect$1 &1 to my great surprise1 nev]  
once m5tion$ ! pap] ,i _h s5t h]4 ,i 0 s
 satisfi$ ) myself1 t x 0 n until a long
 "t aft]w>ds1 ,i judg$1 f o!r           
indications1 ( ! effect x _h produc$4   

,i _h /ill1 9 favor ( h] manuscript1    
ano!r idea m reasonable1 b :i*1 by m    
di/ant effects1 has n be5 mu* less      
prejudicial to me2 s mu* does ev]y?+    
concur ) ! "w ( de/9y1 :5 t hurries on a
 man to mis=tune4 ,i ?\ght ( ornam5t+ ! 
manuscript ) ! engrav+s ( ! ,new        
,eloisa1 :i* 7 ( ! same size4 ,i ask$   
,co9det = ^! engrav+s1 :i* belong$ to me
 by e k9d ( title1 & ! m s z ,i _h giv5 
him ! produce ( ! plates1 :i* _h a      
consid]able sale4 ,co9det is z cunn+ z  
,i am ! contr>y4 ,by frequ5tly ask+ him 
= ! engrav+s he came to ! k ( ! use ,i  
int5d$ to make ( !m4 ,he !n1 "u pret5ce 
( add+ "s new ornam5t1 /ill kept !m f   
me2 & at l5g? pres5t$ !m himself4       
',ego v]siculos feci1 tulit alt]        
honores4'  ,?is gave him an introduction
 ^u a c]ta9 foot+ to ! ,hotel de        
,luxemb\rg4 ,aft] my e/abli%m5t at !    
little ca/le he came r frequ5tly to see 
me1 & always 9 ! morn+1 especially :5   
,m4 & ,madam de ,luxemb\rg 7 at         
,montmor5cy4 ,!re=e t ,i might pass !   

day ) him1 ,i did n g ! ca/le4          
,reproa*es 7 made me on acc\nt ( my     
abs5ce2 ,i told ! reason ( !m4 ,i 0     
desir$ to br+ ) me ,m4 ,co9det2 ,i did  
s4 ,?is 01 :at he _h s\ght aft]4 ,!re=e1
 ?anks to ! excessive goodness ,m4 &    
,madam de ,luxemb\rg _h = me1 a cl]k to 
,m4 ,!lusson1 :o 0 sometimes pleas$ to  
give him 8 table :5 he _h nobody else to
 d9e ) him1 0 sudd5ly plac$ at t ( a    
m>e*al ( ,france1 ) pr9ces1 du*esses1 & 
p]sons ( ! highe/ rank at c\rt4 ,i %all 
nev] =get1 t "o day be+ oblig$ to return
 e>ly to ,p>is1 ! m>e*al said1 aft]     
d9n]1 to ! company1 ,let u take a walk  
^u ! road to ,/4 ,d5is1 & we w accompany
 ,m4 ,co9det4 ,?is 0 too mu* = ! poor   
man2 8 head 0 q turn$4 ,= my "p1 my he>t
 0 s affect$ t ,i c\ld n say a ^w4 ,i   
foll[$ ! company1 weep+ l a *ild1 & hav+
 ! /ronge/ desire to kiss ! foot ( !    
good m>e*al2 b ! cont9uation ( ! hi/ory 
( ! manuscript has made me anticipate4  
,i w g a little back1 &1 z f> z my      
memory w p]mit1 m>k ea* ev5t 9 its prop]

 ord]4  ,z soon z ! little h\se ( ,mont 
,l\is 0 ready1 ,i _h x neatly furni%$ & 
aga9 e/abli%$ myself !re4 ,i c\ld n     
break ?r\gh ! resolution ,i _h made on  
quitt+ ! ,h]mitage ( always hav+ my     
ap>tm5t to myself2 b ,i f\nd a          
difficulty 9 resolv+ to quit ! little   
ca/le4 ,i kept ! key ( x1 & be+ delight$
 ) ! *>m+ breakfa/s ( ! p]i/yle1        
frequ5tly w5t to ! ca/le to sleep1 &    
/ay$ ?ree or f\r days z at a            
c\ntry-h\se4 ,i 0 at t "t p]haps bett] &
 m agreeably lodg$ ?an any private      
individual 9 ,europe4 ,my ho/1 ,m4      
,ma?as1 "o ( ! be/ m5 9 ! _w1 _h left me
 ! absolute direction ( ! repairs at    
,mont ,l\is1 & insi/$ ^u my dispos+ ( 8 
workm5 )\t 8 int]f]5ce4 ,i !re=e f\nd ! 
means ( mak+ ( a s+le *amb] ^u ! fir/   
/ory1 a complete set ( ap>tm5ts consi/+ 
( a *amb]1 ante*amb]1 & a wat] closet4  
,^u ! gr\nd-floor 0 ! kit*5 & ! *amb] ( 
,!resa4 ,! alcove s]v$ me = a closet by 
means ( a glaz$ p>tition & a *imney ,i  
_h made !re4 ,aft] my return to ?is     

habitation1 ,i amus$ myself 9 decorat+ !
 t]race1 :i* 0 already %ad$ by two r[s (
 l9d5 trees2 ,i add$ two o!rs to make a 
cab9et ( v]dure1 & plac$ 9 x a table &  
/one b5*es3 ,i surr\nd$ x ) lilies1     
syr+a & woodb9es1 & _h a beautiful bord]
 ( fl[]s p>allel ) ! two r[s ( trees4   
,?is t]race1 m elevat$ ?an t ( ! ca/le1 
f :i* ! view 0 at lea/ z f9e1 & :]e ,i  
_h tam$ a great numb] ( birds1 0 my     
draw+-room1 9 :i* ,i receiv$ ,m4 &      
,madam de ,luxemb\rg1 ! ,duke (         
,vill]oy1 ! ,pr9ce ( ,t+ry1 ! ,m>quis ( 
,arm5ti]es1 ! ,du*ess ( ,montmor5cy1 !  
,du*ess ( ,b\ffi]s1 ! ,c\ntess (        
,val5t9ois1 ! ,c\ntess ( ,b\ffl]s1 & o!r
 p]sons ( ! fir/ rank2 :o1 f ! ca/le    
disda9$ n to make1 ov] a v fatigu+      
m\nta91 ! pilgrimage ( ,mont ,l\is4 ,i  
ow$ all ^! visits to ! favor ( ,m4 &    
,madam de ,luxemb\rg2 ?is ,i felt1 & my 
he>t on t acc\nt did !m all due homage4 
,x 0 ) ! same s5tim5t t ,i once said to 
,m4 de ,luxemb\rg1 embrac+ him3 ,ah6    
,monsieur le ,m>e*al1 ,i hat$ ! great   

be=e ,i knew y1 & ,i h hat$ !m /ill m   
s9ce y h %[n me ) :at ease !y might     
acquire univ]sal respect4 ,fur!r ?an ?is
 ,i defy any p]son ) :om ,i 0 !n        
acqua9t$1 to say ,i 0 ev] dazzl$ = an   
in/ant ) spl5dor1 or t ! vapor ( !      
inc5se ,i receiv$ ev] affect$ my head2 t
 ,i 0 less uni=m 9 my mann]1 less pla9 9
 my dress1 less easy ( access to p ( !  
l[e/ rank1 less famili> ) neighbors1 or 
less ready to r5d] s]vice to e p]son :5 
,i _h x 9 my p[] s to d1 )\t ev] once   
be+ disc\rag$ by ! num]\s & frequ5tly   
unreasonable importunities ) :i* ,i 0   
incessantly assail$4  ,al?\gh my he>t l$
 me to ! ca/le ( ,montmor5cy1 by my     
s9c]e atta*m5t to ^? by :om x 0         
inhabit$1 x by ! same means drew me back
 to ! neighborhood ( x1 !re to ta/e !   
sweets ( ! equal & simple life1 9 :i* my
 only happ9ess consi/$4 ,!resa _h       
contract$ a fri5d%ip ) ! daught] ( "o ( 
my neighbors1 a mason ( ! "n ( ,pilleu2 
,i did ! same ) ! fa!r1 & aft] hav+ d9$ 
at ! ca/le1 n )\t "s con/ra9t1 to please

 ,madam de ,luxemb\rg1 ) :at eag]ness   
did ,i return 9 ! ev5+ to sup ) ! good  
man ,pilleu & 8 family1 sometimes at 8  
own h\se & at o!rs at m9e4  ,besides my 
two lodg+s 9 ! c\ntry1 ,i soon _h a ?ird
 at ! ,hotel de ,luxemb\rg1 !           
proprietors ( :i* press$ me s mu* to g &
 see !m !re1 t ,i cons5t$1 not)/&+ my   
av]sion to ,p>is1 :]e1 s9ce my retir+ to
 ! ,h]mitage1 ,i _h be5 b twice1 ^u !   
two occasions ( :i* ,i h spok54 ,i did n
 n[ g !re except on ! days agre$ ^u1    
solely to supp]1 & ! next morn+ ,i      
return$ to ! c\ntry4 ,i ent]$ & came out
 by ! g>d5 :i* faces ! b\lev>d1 s t ,i  
c\ld ) ! greate/ tru?1 say ,i _h n set  
my foot ^u ! /ones ( ,p>is4  ,9 ! mid/ (
 ?is transi5t prosp]ity1 a cata/rophe1  
:i* 0 to be ! conclusion ( x1 0 prep>+  
at a di/ance4 ,a %ort "t aft] my return 
to ,mont ,l\is1 ,i made !re1 & z x 0    
cu/om>y1 aga9/ my incl9ation1 a new     
acqua9tance1 :i* makes ano!r era 9 my   
private hi/ory4 ,:e!r ?is be favorable  
or unfavorable1 ! read] w h]eaft] be    

able to judge4 ,! p]son ) :om ,i became 
acqua9t$ 0 ! ,m>*ioness ( ,v]del91 my   
neighbor1 ^: husb& _h j b\ght a         
c\ntry-h\se at ,soisy1 ne> ,montmor5cy4 
,mademoiselle d',ars1 daught] to !      
,comte d',ars1 a man ( fa%ion1 b poor1  
_h m>ri$ ,m4 de ,v]del91 old1 ugly1     
deaf1 unc\?1 brutal1 jeal\s1 ) ga%es 9 8
 face1 & bl9d ( "o eye1 b1 ^u ! :ole1 a 
good man :5 prop]ly manag$1 & 9         
possession ( a =tune ( f fifte5 to tw5ty
 ?\s& a ye>4 ,?is *>m+ object1 swe>+1   
ro>+1 scold+1 /orm+1 & mak+ 8 wife cry  
all day long1 end$ by do+ :atev] %e     
?\ght prop]1 & ?is to set h] 9 a rage1  
because %e knew h[ to p]suade him t x 0 
he :o w\ld1 & %e w\ld n h x s4 ,m4 de   
,m>g5cy1 ( :om ,i h spok51 0 ! fri5d (  
madam1 & became t ( monsieur4 ,he _h a  
few ye>s be=e let !m 8 ca/le ( ,m>g5cy1 
ne> ,eaubonne & ,&illy1 & !y resid$ !re 
precisely at ! "t ( my passion = ,madam 
d',h\detot4 ,madam d',h\detot & ,madam  
de ,v]del9 became acqua9t$ ) ea* o!r1 by
 means ( ,madam d',aubet]re _! common   

fri5d2 & z ! g>d5 ( ,m>g5cy 0 9 ! road  
by :i* ,madam d',h\detot w5t to ,mont   
,olympe1 h] favorite walk1 ,madam de    
,v]del9 gave h] a key t %e might pass   
?r\gh x4 ,by means ( ?is key ,i cross$ x
 sev]al times ) h]2 b ,i did n l        
unexpect$ meet+s1 & :5 ,madam de ,v]del9
 0 by *ance ^u our way ,i left !m toge!r
 )\t speak+ to h]1 & w5t on be=e4 ,?is  
want ( gallantry mu/ h made on h] an    
impression unfavorable to me4 ,yet :5 %e
 0 at ,soisy %e 0 anxi\s to h my        
company4 ,%e came sev]al times to see me
 at ,mont ,l\is1 )\t f9d+ me at home1 & 
p]ceiv+ ,i did n return h] visit1 took x
 into h] head1 z a means ( =c+ me to d  
x1 to s5d me pots ( fl[]s = my t]race4  
,i 0 "u ! necessity ( go+ to ?ank h]2   
?is 0 all %e want$1 & we ?us became     
acqua9t$4  ,?is connection1 l e o!r ,i  
=m$2 or 0 l$ into contr>y to my         
incl9ation1 began r boi/]\sly4 ,!re nev]
 reign$ 9 x a real calm4 ,! turn ( m9d (
 ,madam de ,v]del9was too opposite to   
m9e4 ,malignant expressions & po9t$     

s>casms came f h] ) s mu* simplicity1 t 
a cont9ual att5tion too fatigu+ = me 0  
necess>y to p]ceive %e 0 turn+ into     
ridicule ! p]son to :om %e spoke4 ,"o   
trivial circum/ance :i* occurs to my    
recollection w be suffici5t to give an  
idea ( h] mann]4 ,h] bro!r _h j obta9$ !
 comm& ( a frigate cruis+ aga9/ !       
,engli%4 ,i spoke ( ! mann] ( fitt+ out 
?is frigate )\t dim9i%+ its swiftness ( 
sail+4 ,yes1 repli$ %e1 9 ! mo/ natural 
tone ( voice1 no m cannon are tak5 ?an  
are necess>y = fight+4 ,i seldom h he>d 
h] speak well ( any ( h] abs5t fri5ds   
)\t lett+ slip some?+ to _! prejudice4  
,:at %e did n see ) an evil eye %e look$
 ^u ) "o ( ridicule1 & h] fri5d ,m>g5cy 
0 n except$4 ,:at ,i f\nd mo/           
insupportable 9 h] 0 ! p]petual con/ra9t
 proce$+ f h] little messages1 pres5ts &
 billets1 to :i* x 0 a labor = me to    
answ]1 & ,i _h cont9ual emb>rassm5ts    
ei!r 9 ?ank+ or refus+4 ,h[ev]1 by      
frequ5tly see+ ?is lady ,i became atta*$
 to h]4 ,%e _h h] tr\bles z well z ,i _h

 m9e4 ,reciprocal confid5ce r5d]$ our   
conv]sations int]e/+4 ,no?+ s cordially 
atta*es two p]sons z ! satisfaction (   
weep+ toge!r4 ,we s\ght ! company ( ea* 
o!r = our reciprocal consolation1 & !   
want ( ?is has frequ5tly made me pass   
ov] _m ?+s4 ,i _h be5 s sev]e 9 my      
frankness ) h]1 t aft] hav+ sometimes   
%[n s little e/eem = h] "*1 a great deal
 0 necess>y to be able to believe %e    
c\ld s9c]ely =give me4  ,! foll[+ lett] 
is a specim5 ( ! epi/les ,i sometimes   
wrote to h]1 & x is to be rem>k$ t %e   
nev] once 9 any ( h] answ]s to !m seem$ 
to be 9 ! lea/ degree piqu$4            
,,montmor5cy1 #e? ,novemb]1 #agfj4  ,y  
tell me1 madam1 y h n well expla9$      
y\rself1 9 ord] to make me und]/& ,i h  
expla9$ myself ill4 ,y speak ( y\r      
pret5d$ /upidity = ! purpose ( mak+ me  
feel my own4 ,y boa/ ( be+ no?+ m ?an a 
good k9d ( woman1 z if y 7 afraid to be+
 tak5 at y\r ^w1 & y make me apologies  
to tell me ,i owe !m to y4 ,yes1 madam1 
,i "k x2 x is ,i :o am a fool1 a good   

k9d ( man2 &1 if x be possible1 worse   
?an all ?is2 x is ,i :o make a bad *oice
 ( my expressions 9 ! op9ion ( a f9e    
,fr5* lady1 :o pays z mu* att5tion to   
words1 & speaks z well z y d4 ,b consid]
 t ,i take !m 9 ! common mean+ ( !      
language )\t kn[+ or tr\bl+ my head ab\t
 ! polite acceptations 9 :i* !y are tak5
 9 ! virtu\s societies ( ,p>is4 ,if my  
expressions are sometimes equivocal1 ,i 
endeavor$ by my conduct to det]m9e _!   
mean+1 etc4 ,! re/ ( ! lett] is mu* !   
same4  ,co9det1 ent]pris+1 bold1 ev5 to 
effront]y1 & :o 0 ^u ! wat* aft] all my 
fri5ds1 soon introduc$ himself 9 my "n  
to ! h\se ( ,madam de ,v]del91 &1 unkn[n
 to me1 %ortly became !re m famili> ?an 
myself4 ,?is ,co9det 0 an extraord9>y   
man4 ,he pres5t$ himself 9 my "n 9 !    
h\ses ( all my acqua9tance1 ga9$ a foot+
 9 !m1 & ate !re )\t c]emony4           
,transport$ ) zeal to d me s]vice1 he   
nev] m5tion$ my "n )\t 8 eyes be+       
suffus$ ) te>s2 b1 :5 he came to see me1
 he kept ! mo/ pr(\nd sil5ce on !       

subject ( all ^! connections1 &         
especially on t 9 :i* he knew ,i mu/ be 
int]e/$4 ,in/ead ( tell+ me :at he _h   
he>d1 said1 or se51 relative to my      
affairs1 he wait$ = my speak+ to him1 & 
ev5 int]rogat$ me4 ,he nev] knew any?+ (
 :at pass$ 9 ,p>is1 except t :i* ,i told
 him3 f9ally1 al?\gh ev]ybody spoke to  
me ( him1 he nev] once spoke to me ( any
 p]son2 he 0 secret & my/]i\s ) 8 fri5d 
only2 b ,i w = ! pres5t leave ,co9det & 
,madam de ,v]del91 & return to !m at a  
prop] "t4  ,sometime aft] my return to  
,mont ,l\is1 ,la ,t\r1 ! pa9t]1 came to 
see me1 & br\ght ) him my portrait 9    
crayons1 :i* a few ye>s be=e he _h      
exhibit$ at ! salon4 ,he wi%$ to give me
 ?is portrait1 :i* ,i did n *oose to    
accept4 ,b ,madam d',ep9ay1 :o _h giv5  
me h]s1 & w\ld h _h ?is1 prevail$ ^u me 
to ask him = x4 ,he _h tak5 "s "t to    
ret\* ! features4 ,9 ! int]val happ5$ my
 rupture ) ,madam d',ep9ay2 ,i return$  
h] h] portrait2 & giv+ h] m9e be+ no    
long] 9 "q1 ,i put x into my *amb]1 9 ! 

ca/le4 ,m4 de ,luxemb\rg saw x !re1 &   
f\nd x a good "o2 ,i (f]$ x him1 he     
accept$ x1 & ,i s5t x to ! ca/le4 ,he & 
8 lady compreh5d$ ,i %\ld be v glad to h
 !irs4 ,!y _h !m tak5 9 m9iature by a v 
skilful h&1 set 9 a box ( rock cry/al1  
m\nt$ ) gold1 & 9 a v h&some mann]1 )   
:i* ,i 0 delight$1 made me a pres5t (   
bo?4 ,madam de ,lux5b\rg w\ld nev]      
cons5t t h] portrait %\ld be on ! upp]  
"p ( ! box4 ,%e _h reproa*$ me sev]al   
times ) lov+ ,m4 de ,luxemb\rg bett] ?an
 ,i did h]2 ,i _h n d5i$ x because x 0  
true4 ,by ?is mann] ( plac+ h] portrait 
%e %[$ v politely1 b v cle>ly1 %e _h n  
=gott5 ! pref]5ce4  ,mu* ab\t ?is "t ,i 
0 guilty ( a folly :i* did n contribute 
to pres]ve me to h] good graces4 ,al?\gh
 ,i _h no k ( ,m4 de ,silh\tte1 & 0 n   
mu* dispos$ to l him1 ,i _h a great     
op9ion ( 8 adm9i/ration4 ,:5 he began to
 let 8 h& fall r heavily ^u f9anci]s1 ,i
 p]ceiv$ he did n beg9 8 op]ation 9 a   
favorable mom5t1 b he _h my w>me/ wi%es 
= 8 success2 & z soon z ,i he>d he 0    

displac$ ,i wrote to him1 9 my intrepid1
 he$less mann]1 ! foll[+ lett]1 :i* ,i  
c]ta9ly d n und]take to ju/ify4         
,,montmor5cy1 #b;d ,decemb]1 #agei4     
,v\*safe1 sir1 to receive ! homage ( a  
solit>y man1 :o is n kn[n to y1 b :o    
e/eems y = y\r tal5ts1 respects y = y\r 
adm9i/ration1 & :o did y ! honor to     
believe y w\ld n long rema9 9 x4 ,unable
 to save ! ,/ate1 except at ! exp5se ( !
 capital by :i* x has be5 ru9$1 y h     
brav$ ! clamors ( ! ga9]s ( money4 ,:5  
,i saw y cru% ^! wret*es1 ,i envi$ y y\r
 place2 & at see+ y quit x )\t dep>t+ f 
y\r sy/em1 ,i admire y4 ,be satisfi$ )  
y\rself1 sir2 ! /ep y h tak5 w leave y  
an honor y w long enjoy )\t a           
competitor4 ,! mal$iction ( knaves is ! 
glory ( an hone/ man4  ,madam de        
,luxemb\rg1 :o knew ,i _h writt5 ?is    
lett]1 spoke to me ( x :5 %e came into !
 c\ntry at ,ea/]4 ,i %[$ x to h] & %e 0 
desir\s ( a copy2 ?is ,i gave h]1 b :5  
,i did x ,i did n "k %e 0 int]e/$ 9     
"u-f>ms1 & ! displac+ ( ,m4 de          

,silh\tte4 ,by my num]\s follies any    
p]son w\ld h imag9$ ,i wilfully         
endeavor$ to br+ on myself ! hatr$ ( an 
amiable woman :o _h p[]1 & to :om1 9    
tru?1 ,i daily became m atta*$1 & 0 f> f
 wi%+ to occasion h] displeasure1 al?\gh
 by my awkw>d mann] ( proce$+1 ,i did   
ev]y?+ prop] = t purpose4 ,i ?9k x      
sup]flu\s to rem>k "h1 t x is to h] !   
hi/ory ( ! opiate ( ,m4 ,tron*91 ( :i*  
,i h spok5 9 ! fir/ "p ( my memoirs1    
relates2 ! o!r lady 0 ,madam de         
,mirepoix4 ,!y h nev] m5tion$ to me !   
circum/ance1 nor has ei!r ( !m1 9 !     
lea/1 seem$ to h pres]v$ a remembrance (
 x2 b to presume t ,madam de ,luxemb\rg 
c possibly h =gott5 x appe>s to me v    
difficult1 & w\ld /ill rema9 s1 ev5 7 ! 
subsequ5t ev5ts entirely unkn[n4 ,= my  
"p1 ,i fell into a deceitful security   
relative to ! effects ( my /upid        
mi/akes1 by an int]nal evid5ce ( my n   
hav+ tak5 any /ep ) an int5tion to (f5d2
 z if a woman c\ld ev] =give :at ,i _h  
done1 al?\gh %e might be c]ta9 ! w _h n 

! lea/ "p 9 ! matt]4  ,al?\gh %e seem$ n
 to see or feel any?+1 & t ,i did n     
imm$iately f9d ei!r h] w>m? ( fri5d%ip  
dim9i%$ or ! lea/ *ange 9 h] mann]1 !   
cont9uation & ev5 increase ( a too well 
f\nd$ =ebod+ made me incessantly        
tremble1 le/ disgu/ %\ld succe$ to      
infatuation4 ,0 x possible = me to      
expect 9 a lady ( su* high rank1 a      
con/ancy pro( aga9/ my want ( address to
 support x8 ,i 0 unable to conceal f h] 
?is secret =ebod+1 :i* made me uneasy1 &
 r5d]$ me /ill m disagreeable4 ,?is w be
 judg$ ( by ! foll[+ lett]1 :i* conta9s 
a v s+ul> pr$iction4  ,n4 ,b4 ,?is      
lett]1 )\t date 9 my r\gh copy1 0 writt5
 9 ,octob]1 #agfj1 at late/4  ,h[ cruel 
is y\r goodness8 ,:y di/urb ! peace ( a 
solit>y mortal :o _h r5\nc$ ! pleasures 
( life1 t he might no long] suff] !     
fatigues ( !m4 ,i h pass$ my days 9     
va9ly se>*+ = solid atta*m5ts4 ,i h n   
be5 able to =m any 9 ! ranks to :i* ,i 0
 equal2 is x 9 y\rs t ,i ought to seek =
 !m8 ,nei!r ambition nor int]e/ c tempt 

me3 ,i am n va91 b little fe>ful2 ,i c  
resi/ ev]y?+ except c>esses4 ,:y d y bo?
 attack me by a weakness :i* ,i mu/     
ov]come1 because 9 ! di/ance by :i* we  
are sep>at$1 ! ov]-fl[+s ( susceptible  
he>ts _c br+ m9e ne> to y8 ,w gratitude 
be suffici5t = a he>t :i* kn[s n two    
mann]s ( be/[+ its affections1 & feels  
itself incapable ( ev]y?+ except        
fri5d%ip8 ,( fri5d%ip1 madam la m>e*ale6
 ,ah6 !re is my mis=tune6 ,x is good 9 y
 & ! m>e*al to make use ( ?is           
expression2 b ,i am mad :5 ,i take y at 
y\r ^w4 ,y amuse y\rselves1 & ,i become 
atta*$2 & ! end ( ?is prep>es = me new  
regrets4 ,h[ ,i d hate all y\r titles1 &
 pity y on acc\nt ( y\r be+ oblig$ to   
be> !m8 ,y seem to me to be s wor?y (   
ta/+ ! *>ms ( private life6 ,:y d n y   
reside at ,cl>5s8 ,i w\ld g !re 9 se>* (
 happ9ess2 b ! ca/le ( ,montmor5cy1 & ! 
,hotel de ,luxemb\rg6 ,is x 9 ^! places 
,jean ,jacques ought to be se58 ,is x   
!re a fri5d to equality ought to c>ry ! 
affections ( a s5sible he>t1 & :o ?us   

pay+ ! e/eem 9 :i* he is held1 ?9ks he  
returns z mu* z he receives8 ,y are good
 & susceptible also3 ?is ,i "k & h se52 
,i am sorry ,i 0 n soon] conv9c$ ( x2 b 
9 ! rank y hold1 9 ! mann] ( liv+1 no?+ 
c make a la/+ impression2 a succession (
 new objects efface ea* o!r s t n "o (  
!m rema9s4 ,y w =get me1 madam1 aft]    
hav+ made x impossible = me to imitate  
y4 ,y h done a great deal to make me    
unhappy1 to be inexcusable4  ,i jo9$ )  
h] ! m>e*al1 to r5d] ! complim5t less   
sev]e2 = ,i 0 moreov] s sure ( him1 t ,i
 nev] _h a d\bt 9 my m9d ( ! cont9uation
 ( 8 fri5d%ip4 ,no?+ t intimidat$ me 9  
madam la m>e*ale1 ev] = a mom5t ext5d$  
to him4 ,i nev] h _h ! lea/ mi/ru/      
relative to 8 "*1 :i* ,i knew to be     
feeble1 b con/ant4 ,i no m fe>$ a       
coldness on 8 "p ?an ,i expect$ f him an
 h]oic atta*m5t4 ,! simplicity &        
famili>ity ( our mann]s ) ea* o!r prov$ 
h[ f> dep5d5ce 0 reciprocal4 ,we 7 bo?  
always "r3 ,i %all ev] honor & hold de> 
! memory ( ?is wor?y man1 &1 not)/&+    

ev]y?+ t 0 done to deta* him f me1 ,i am
 z c]ta9 ( 8 hav+ di$ my fri5d z if ,i  
_h be5 pres5t 9 8 la/ mom5ts4  ,at !    
second j\rney to ,montmor5cy1 9 ! ye>   
#agfj1 ! read+ ( ,eloisa be+ f9i%$1 ,i  
_h rec\rse to t ( ,emilius1 to support  
myself 9 ! good graces ( ,madam de      
,luxemb\rg2 b ?is1 :e!r ! subject 0 less
 to h] ta/e2 or t s mu* read+ at l5g?   
fatigu$ h]1 did n succe$ s well4 ,h[ev]1
 z %e reproa*$ me ) suff]+ myself to be 
! dupe ( booksell]s1 %e wi%$ me to leave
 to h] c>e ! pr9t+ ! "w1 t ,i might reap
 f x a great] advantage4 ,i cons5t$ to  
h] do+ x1 on ! express condition ( its n
 be+ pr9t$ 9 ,france1 on :i* we _h along
 dispute2 ,i affirm+ t x 0 impossible to
 obta91 & ev5 imprud5t to solicit1 a    
tacit p]mission2 & be+ unwill+ to p]mit 
! impression ^u any o!r t]ms 9 ! k+dom2 
%e1 t ! c5sor c\ld n make ! lea/        
difficulty1 accord+ to ! sy/em gov]nm5t 
_h adopt$4 ,%e f\nd means to make ,m4 de
 ,male%]bes ent] into h] views4 ,he     
wrote to me on ! subject a long lett] ) 

8 own h&1 to prove ! pr(ession ( fai? ( 
! ,savoy>d vic> to be a composition :i* 
mu/ ev]y:]e ga9 ! approbation ( its     
read]s & t ( ! c\rt1 z ?+s 7 !n         
circum/anc$4 ,i 0 surpris$ to see ?is   
magi/rate1 always s prud5t1 become s    
smoo? 9 ! bus9ess1 z ! pr9t+ ( a book 0 
by t alone legal1 ,i _h no long] any    
objection to make to t ( ! "w4 ,yet1 by 
an extraord9>y scruple1 ,i /ill requir$ 
x %\ld be pr9t$ 9 ,holl&1 & by !        
booksell] ,neaulme1 :om1 n satisfi$ )   
indicat+ him1 ,i in=m$ ( my wi%es1      
cons5t+ ! edition %\ld be br\ght out = !
 pr(it ( a ,fr5* booksell]1 & t z soon z
 x 0 ready x %\ld be sold at ,p>is1 or  
:]ev] else x might be ?\ght prop]1 z )  
?is ,i _h no mann] ( conc]n4 ,?is is    
exactly :at 0 agre$ ^u betwe5 ,madam de 
,luxemb\rg & myself1 aft] :i* ,i gave h]
 my manuscript4  ,madam de ,luxemb\rg 0 
?is "t accompani$ by h] gr&daught]      
,mademoiselle de ,b\ffl]s1 n[ ,du*ess ( 
,lauzun4 ,h] "n 0 ,amelia4 ,%e 0 a *>m+ 
girl4 ,%e really _h a maid5 beauty1     

mildness & timidity4 ,no?+ c\ld be m    
lovely ?an h] p]son1 no?+ m *a/e & t5d] 
?an ! s5tim5ts %e inspir$4 ,%e 01       
besides1 /ill a *ild "u elev5 ye>s (    
age4 ,madam de ,luxemb\rg1 :o ?\ght h]  
too timid1 us$ e endeavor to animate h]4
 ,%e p]mitt$ me sev]al times to give h] 
a kiss1 :i* ,i did ) my usual           
awkw>dness4 ,in/ead ( say+ flatt]+ ?+s  
to h]1 z any o!r p]son w\ld h done1 ,i  
rema9$ sil5t & disconc]t$1 & ,i "k n :i*
 ( ! two1 ! little girl or myself1 0 mo/
 a%am$4  ,illu/ration3 #jbjb  ,i met h] 
"o day alone 9 ! /aircase ( ! little    
ca/le4 ,%e _h be5 to see ,!resa1 ) :om  
h] gov]ness /ill 04 ,n kn[+ :at else to 
say1 ,i propos$ to h] a kiss1 :i*1 9 !  
innoc5ce ( h] he>t1 %e did n refuse2    
hav+ 9 ! morn+ receiv$ "o f me by ord] (
 h] gr&mo!r1 & 9 h] pres5ce4 ,! next    
day1 :ile read+ ,emilius by ! side ( !  
b$ ( ,madam de ,luxemb\rg1 ,i came to a 
passage 9 :i* ,i ju/ly c5sure t :i* ,i  
_h done ! prec$+ ev5+4 ,%e ?\ght !      
reflection extremely j1 & said "s v     

s5sible ?+s ^u ! subject :i* made me    
blu%4 ,h[ 0 ,i enrag$ at my incr$ible   
/upidity1 :i* has frequ5tly giv5 me !   
appe>ance ( guilt :5 ,i 0 no?+ m ?an a  
fool & emb>rass$6 ,a /upidity1 :i* 9 a  
man kn[n to be end[$ ) "s wit1 is       
consid]$ z a false excuse4 ,i c safely  
swe> t 9 ?is kiss1 z well z 9 ! o!rs1 ! 
he>t & ?\ghts ( ,mademoiselle ,amelia 7 
n m pure ?an my own1 & t if ,i c\ld h   
avoid$ meet+ h] ,i %\ld h done x2 n t ,i
 _h n great pleasure 9 see+ h]1 b f !   
emb>rassm5t ( n f9d+ a ^w prop] to say4 
,:5ce comes x t ev5 a *ild c intimidate 
a man1 :om ! p[] ( k+s has nev] inspir$ 
) fe>8 ,:at is to be done8 ,h[1 )\t     
pres5ce ( m9d1 am ,i to act8 ,if ,i     
/rive to speak to ! p]sons ,i meet1 ,i  
c]ta9ly say "s /upid ?+ to !m2 if ,i    
rema9 sil5t1 ,i am a misan?rope1 an     
unsociable animal1 a be>4 ,total        
imbecility w\ld h be5 m favorable to me2
 b ! tal5ts :i* ,i h fail$ to improve 9 
! _w h become ! in/rum5ts ( my          
de/ruction1 & ( t ( ! tal5ts ,i         

possess$4  ,at ! latt] end ( ?is j\rney1
 ,madam de ,luxemb\rg did a good action 
9 :i* ,i _h "s %>e4 ,did]ot hav+ v      
imprud5tly (f5d$ ! ,pr9cess ( ,robeck1  
daught] ( ,m4 de ,luxemb\rg1 ,palissot1 
:om %e protect$1 took up ! qu>rel1 &    
rev5g$ h] by ! com$y ( ',!              
,philosoph]s'1 9 :i* ,i 0 ridicul$1 &   
,did]ot v r\ghly h&l$4 ,! au?or treat$  
me ) m g5tl5ess1 less1 ,i am ( op9ion1  
on acc\nt ( ! obligation he 0 "u to me1 
?an f ! fe> ( displeas+ ! fa!r ( 8      
protectress1 by :om he knew ,i 0 belov$4
 ,! booksell] ,du*esne1 ) :om ,i 0 n at 
t "t acqua9t$1 s5t me ! com$y :5 x 0    
pr9t$1 & ?is ,i suspect 0 by ! ord] (   
,palissot1 :o1 p]haps1 ?\ght ,i %\ld h a
 pleasure 9 see+ a man ) :om ,i 0 no    
long] connect$ defam$4 ,he 0 greatly    
deceiv$4 ,:5 ,i broke ) ,did]ot1 :om ,i 
?\ght less ill-natur$ ?an weak &        
indiscreet1 ,i /ill always pres]v$ = 8  
p]son an atta*m5t1 an e/eem ev51 & a    
respect = our anci5t fri5d%ip1 :i* ,i "k
 0 = a long "t z s9c]e on 8 "p z on m9e4

 ,! case 0 q diff]5t ) ,grimm2 a man    
false by nature1 :o nev] lov$ me1 :o is 
n ev5 capable ( fri5d%ip1 & a p]son :o1 
)\t ! lea/ subject ( compla9t1 & solely 
to satisfy 8 gloomy jeal\sy1 became1 "u 
! mask ( fri5d%ip1 my mo/ cruel         
calumniator4 ,?is man is to me a ciph]2 
! o!r w always be my old fri5d4  ,my v  
b[els ye>n$ at ! sight ( ?is odi\s      
piece3 ! read+ ( x 0 insupportable to   
me1 &1 )\t go+ ?r\gh ! :ole1 ,i return$ 
! copy to ,du*esne ) ! foll[+ lett]3    
,,montmor5cy1 #ba/1 ,may1 #agfj4  ,9    
ca/+ my eyes ov] ! piece y s5t me1 ,i   
trembl$ at see+ myself well spok5 ( 9 x4
 ,i d n accept ! horrid pres5t4 ,i am   
p]suad$ t 9 s5d+ x me1 y did n int5d an 
insult2 b y d n "k1 or h =gott51 t ,i h 
! honor to be ! fri5d ( a respectable   
man1 :o is %amefully defam$ & calumniat$
 9 ?is libel4  ,du*5se %[$ ! lett]4     
,did]ot1 ^u :om x ought to h _h an      
effect q contr>y1 0 vex$ at x4 ,8 pride 
c\ld n =give me ! sup]iority ( a g5]\s  
action1 & ,i 0 in=m$ 8 wife ev]y:]e     

inveigh$ aga9/ me ) a bitt]ness ) :i* ,i
 0 n 9 ! lea/ affect$1 z ,i knew %e 0   
kn[n to ev]ybody to be a noisy babbl]4  
,did]ot 9 8 turn f\nd an av5g] 9 ! ,abbe
 ,morrellet1 :o wrote aga9/ ,palissot a 
little "w1 imitat$ f ! ',petit          
,prophete'1 & entitl$ ! ,vision4 ,9 ?is 
production he v imprud5tly (f5d$ ,madam 
de ,robeck1 ^: fri5ds got him s5t to !  
,ba/ile2 ?\gh %e1 n naturally v9dictive1
 & at t "t 9 a dy+ /ate1 ,i am c]ta9 _h 
no?+ to d ) ! affair4  ,d',alemb]t1 :o 0
 v intimately connect$ ) ,morrellet1    
wrote me a lett]1 desir+ ,i w\ld beg (  
,madam de ,luxemb\rg to solicit 8       
lib]ty1 promis+ h] 9 return encomiums 9 
! ',encyclop$ie'2 my answ] to ?is lett] 
0 z foll[s3  ,i did n wait ! receipt (  
y\r lett] be=e ,i express$ to ,madam de 
,luxemb\rg ! pa9 ! conf9em5t ( ! ,abbe  
,morrellet gave me4 ,%e kn[s my conc]n1 
& %all be made acqua9t$ ) y\rs1 & h]    
kn[+ t ! abbe is a man ( m]it w be      
suffici5t to make h] int]e/ h]self 9 8  
behalf4 ,h[ev]1 al?\gh %e & ! m>e*al    

honor me ) a b5evol5ce :i* is my greate/
 consolation1 & t ! "n ( y\r fri5d be to
 !m a recomm5dation 9 favor ( ! ,abbe   
,morrellet1 ,i "k n h[ f>1 on ?is       
occasion1 x may be prop] = !m to employ 
! cr$it atta*$ to ! rank !y hold1 & !   
consid]ation due to _! p]sons4 ,i am n  
ev5 conv9c$ t ! v5geance 9 "q relates to
 ! ,pr9cess ,robeck s mu* z y seem to   
imag9e2 & 7 ?is ev5 ! case1 we mu/ n    
suppose t ! pleasure ( v5geance belongs 
to philosoph]s exclusively1 & t :5 !y   
*oose to become wom51 wom5 w become     
philosoph]s4  ,i w communicate to y     
:atev] ,madam de ,luxemb\rg may say to  
me aft] hav+ %[n h] y\r lett]4 ,9 !     
meantime1 ,i ?9k ,i "k h] well en\gh to 
assure y t1 %\ld %e h ! pleasure (      
contribut+ to ! enl>gem5t ( ! ,abbe     
,morrellet1 %e w n accept ! tribute (   
ackn[l$gm5t y promise h] 9 !            
,encyclop$ie1 al?\gh %e might ?9k h]self
 honor$ by x1 because %e does n d good 9
 ! expectation ( praise1 b f ! dictates 
( h] he>t4  ,i made e ef=t to excite !  

zeal & commis]ation ( ,madam de         
,luxemb\rg 9 favor ( ! poor captive1 &  
succe$$ to my wi%es4 ,%e w5t to         
,v]sailles on purpose to speak to ,m4 de
 ,/4 ,flor5t91 & ?is j\rney %ort5$ !    
resid5ce at ,montmor5cy1 :i* ! m>e*al 0 
oblig$ to quit at ! same "t to g to     
,r\51 :i!r ! k+ s5t him z gov]nor (     
,norm&y1 on acc\nt ( ! motions ( !      
p>liam5t1 :i* gov]nm5t wi%$ to keep )9  
b\nds4 ,madam de ,luxemb\rg wrote me !  
foll[+ lett] ! day aft] h] dep>ture3    
,,v]sailles1 ,w$nesday4  ,m4 de         
,luxemb\rg set (f ye/]day morn+ at six  
o'clock4 ,i d n yet "k t ,i %all foll[  
him4 ,i wait until he writes to me1 z he
 is n yet c]ta9 ( ! /ay x w be necess>y 
= him to make4 ,i h se5 ,m4 de ,/4      
,flor5t91 :o is z favorably dispos$ z   
possible t[>ds ! ,abbe ,morrellet2 b he 
f9ds "s ob/acles to 8 wi%es :i* h[ev]1  
he is 9 hopes ( remov+ ! fir/ "t he has 
to d bus9ess ) ! k+1 :i* w be next week4
 ,i h also desir$ z a favor t he might n
 be exil$1 because ?is 0 int5d$2 he 0 to

 be s5t to ,nancy4 ,?is1 sir1 is :at ,i 
h be5 able to obta92 b ,i promise y ,i w
 n let ,m4 de ,/4 ,flor5t9 re/ until !  
affair is t]m9at$ 9 ! mann] y desire4   
,let me n[ express to y h[ sorry ,i am  
on acc\nt ( my be+ oblig$ to leave y s  
soon1 ( :i* ,i flatt] myself y h n !    
lea/ d\bt4 ,i love y ) all my he>t1 &   
%all d s = my :ole life4  ,a few days   
aft]w>ds ,i receiv$ ! foll[+ note f     
,d',alemb]t1 :i* gave me real joy4      
,augu/ #a/4  ,?anks to y\r c>es1 my de> 
philosoph]1 ! abbe has left ! ,ba/ile1 &
 8 imprisonm5t w h no o!r consequ5ce4   
,he is sett+ (f = ! c\ntry1 &1 z well z 
myself1 returns y a ?\s& ?anks &        
complim5ts4 ',vale et me ama'4  ,! abbe 
also wrote to me a few days aft]w>ds a  
lett] ( ?anks1 :i* did n1 9 my op9ion1  
seem to brea! a c]ta9 effusion ( ! he>t1
 & 9 :i* he seem$ 9 "s measure to       
ext5uate ! s]vice ,i _h r5d]$ him4 ,"s  
"t aft]w>ds1 ,i f\nd t he & ,d',alemb]t 
_h1 to a c]ta9 degree1 ,i w n say       
supplant$1 b succe$$ me 9 ! good graces 

( ,madam de ,luxemb\rg1 & t ,i _h lo/ 9 
!m all !y _h ga9$4 ,h[ev]1 ,i am f> f   
suspect+ ! ,abbe ,morrellet ( hav+      
contribut$ to my disgrace2 ,i h too mu* 
e/eem = him to h>bor any su* suspicion4 
,) respect to ,d',alemb]t1 ,i %all at   
pres5t leave him out ( ! "q1 & h]eaft]  
say ( him :at may seem necess>y4  ,i _h1
 at ! same "t1 ano!r affair :i*         
occasion$ ! la/ lett] ,i wrote to       
,voltaire2 a lett] aga9/ :i* he         
vehem5tly exclaim$1 z an abom9able      
insult1 al?\gh he nev] %[$ x to any     
p]son4 ,i w "h supply ! want ( t :i* he 
refus$ to d4  ,! ,abbe ,trublet1 ) :om  
,i _h a slight acqua9tance1 b :om ,i _h 
b seldom se51 wrote to me on ! #ac? (   
,june1 #agfj1 in=m+ me t ,m4 ,=mey1 8   
fri5d & correspond5t1 _h pr9t$ 9 8      
j\rnal my lett] to ,voltaire ^u ! disa/]
 at ,lisbon4 ,! abbe wi%$ to "k h[ !    
lett] came to be pr9t$1 & 9 8 jesuitical
 mann]1 ask$ me my op9ion1 )\t giv+ me 8
 own on ! necessity ( repr9t+ x4 ,z ,i  
mo/ sov]eignly hate ?is k9d ( artifice &

 /rategem1 ,i return$ su* ?anks z 7     
prop]1 b 9 a mann] s res]v$ z to make   
him feel x1 al?\gh ?is did n prev5t him 
f :e$l+ me 9 two or ?ree o!r lett]s     
until he _h ga!r$ all he wi%$ to "k4  ,i
 cle>ly und]/ood t1 n )/&+ all ,trublet 
c\ld say1 ,=mey _h n f\nd ! lett] pr9t$1
 & t ! fir/ impression ( x came f       
himself4 ,i knew him to be an impud5t   
pilf]]1 :o1 )\t c]emony1 made himself a 
rev5ue by ! works ( o!rs4 ,al?\gh he _h 
n yet _h ! incr$ible effront]y to take f
 a book already publi%$ ! "n ( ! au?or1 
to put 8 own 9 ! place ( x1 & to sell ! 
book = 8 own pr(it4       ,9 ?is mann]  
he aft]w>ds appropriat$ to himself      
,emilius4  ,b by :at means _h ?is       
manuscript fall5 into 8 h&s8 ,t 0 a "q n
 easy to resolve1 b by :i* ,i _h !      
weakness to be emb>rass$4 ,al?\gh       
,voltaire 0 excessively honor$ by !     
lett]1 z 9 fact1 not)/&+ 8 rude         
proce$+s1 he w\ld h _h a "r to compla9  
_h ,i _h x pr9t$ )\t 8 cons5t1 ,i       
resolv$ to write to him ^u ! subject4 ,!

 second lett] 0 z foll[s1 to :i* he     
return$ no answ]1 & giv+ great] scope to
 8 brutality1 he feign$ to be irritat$  
to fury4                                
,,montmor5cy1 #ag? ,june1 #agfj4  ,i did
 n ?9k1 sir1 ,i %\ld ev] h occasion to  
correspond ) y4 ,b le>n+ ! lett] ,i     
wrote to y 9 #agef _h be5 pr9t$ at      
,b]l91 ,i owe y an acc\nt ( my conduct 9
 t respect1 & w fulfil ?is duty ) tru? &
 simplicity4  ,! lett] hav+ really be5  
address$ to y 0 n int5d$ to be pr9t$4 ,i
 communicat$ ! cont5ts ( x1 on c]ta9    
conditions1 to ?ree p]sons1 to :om ! "r 
( fri5d%ip did n p]mit me to refuse     
any?+ ( ! k9d1 & :om ! same rights /ill 
less p]mitt$ to abuse my confid5ce by   
betray+ _! promise4 ,^! p]sons are      
,madam de ,*5onceaux1 daught]-9-law to  
,madam ,dup91 ! ,comtesse d',h\detot1 & 
a ,g]man ( ! "n ( ,grimm4 ,madam de     
,*5onceaux 0 desir\s ! lett] %\ld be    
pr9t$1 & ask$ my cons5t4 ,i told h] t   
dep5d$ ^u y\rs4 ,?is 0 ask$ ( y :i* y   
refus$1 & ! matt] dropp$4  ,h[ev]1 !    

,abbe ,trublet1 ) :om ,i h n ! lea/     
connection1 has j writt5 to me f a      
motive ( ! mo/ polite att5tion t hav+   
receiv$ ! pap]s ( ! j\rnal ( ,m4 ,=mey1 
he f\nd 9 !m ?is same lett] ) an        
adv]tisem5t1 dat$ on ! #bc;d ( ,octob]1 
#agei1 9 :i* ! editor /ates t he _h a   
few weeks be=e f\nd x 9 ! %ops ( !      
booksell]s ( ,b]l91 &1 z x is "o ( ^?   
loose %eets :i* %ortly disappe>1 he     
?\ght prop] to give x a place 9 8       
j\rnal4  ,?is1 sir1 is all ,i "k ( !    
matt]4 ,x is c]ta9 ! lett] _h n until   
lately be5 he>d ( at ,p>is4 ,x is also z
 c]ta9 t ! copy1 ei!r 9 manuscript or   
pr9t1 fall5 into ! h&s ( ,m4 de ,=mey1  
c\ld nev] h rea*$ !m except by y\r means
 7:i* is n probable7 or ( ^? ( "o ( !   
?ree p]sons ,i h m5tion$4 ,f9ally1 x is 
well kn[n ! two ladies are incapable (  
su* a p]fidy4 ,i _c1 9 my retirem5t le>n
 m relative to ! affair4 ,y h a         
correspond5ce by means ( :i* y may1 if y
 ?9k x wor? ! tr\ble1 g back to ! s\rce 
& v]ify ! fact4  ,9 ! same lett] ! ,abbe

 ,trublet in=ms me t he keeps ! pap] 9  
res]ve1 & w n l5d x )\t my cons5t1 :i*  
mo/ assur$ly ,i w n give4 ,b x is       
possible ?is copy may n be ! only "o 9  
,p>is4 ,i wi%1 sir1 ! lett] may n be    
pr9t$ !re1 & ,i w d all 9 my p[] to     
prev5t ?is f happ5+2 b if ,i _c succe$1 
& t1 timely p]ceiv+ x1 ,i c h !         
pref]5ce1 ,i w n !n hesitate to h x     
imm$iately pr9t$4 ,?is to me appe>s j & 
natural4  ,) respect to y\r answ] to !  
same lett]1 x has n be5 communicat$ to  
anyone1 & y may be assur$ x %all n be   
pr9t$ )\t y\r cons5t1 :i* ,i c]ta9ly    
%all n be indiscreet en\gh to ask ( y1  
well kn[+ t :at "o man writes to ano!r  
is n writt5 to ! public4 ,b %\ld y *oose
 to write "o y wi% to h publi%$1 &      
address x to me1 ,i promise y fai?fully 
to add to x my lett] & n to make to x a 
s+le ^w ( reply4  ,i love y n1 sir2 y h 
done me1 y\r disciple & en?usia/ic      
admir]2 injuries :i* might h caus$ me ! 
mo/ exquisite pa94 ,y h ru9$ ,g5eva1 9  
return = ! asylum x has af=d$ y2 y h    

ali5at$ f me my fell[-citiz5s1 9 return 
= eulogiums ,i made ( y among/ !m2 x is 
y :o r5d] to me ! resid5ce ( my own     
c\ntry insupportable2 x is y :o w oblige
 me to die 9 a =eign l&1 depriv$ ( all !
 consolations usually adm9i/]$ to a dy+ 
p]son2 & cause me1 in/ead ( receiv+     
fun]al rites1 to be ?r[n to ! dogs1 :il/
 all ! honors a man c expect w accompany
 y 9 my c\ntry4 ,f9ally ,i hate y       
because y h be5 desir\s ,i %\ld2 b ,i   
hate y z a man m wor?y ( lov+ y _h y    
*os5 x4 ,( all ! s5tim5ts ) :i* my he>t 
0 p5etrat$ = y1 admiration1 :i* _c be   
refus$ y\r f9e g5ius1 & a p>tiality to  
y\r writ+s1 are ^? y h n effac$4 ,if ,i 
c honor no?+ 9 y except y\r tal5ts1 !   
fault is n m9e4 ,i %all nev] be want+ 9 
! respect due to !m1 nor 9 t :i* ?is    
respect requires4  ,9 ! mid/ ( ^! little
 lit]>y cavill+s1 :i* /ill =tifi$ my    
resolution1 ,i receiv$ ! greate/ honor  
lett]s ev] acquir$ me1 & ( :i* ,i 0 !   
mo/ s5sible1 9 ! two visits ! ,pr9ce (  
,conti deign$ to make to me1 "o at !    

,little ,ca/le & ! o!r at ,mont ,l\is4  
,he *ose ! "t = bo? ( ^! :5 ,m4 de      
,luxemb\rg 0 n at ,montmor5cy1 9 ord] to
 r5d] x m manife/ t he came !re solely  
on my acc\nt4 ,i h nev] _h a d\bt ( my  
ow+ ! fir/ condesc5sions ( ?is pr9ce to 
,madam de ,luxemb\rg & ,madam de        
,b\ffl]s2 b ,i am ( op9ion ,i owe to 8  
own s5tim5ts & to myself ^? ) :i* he has
 s9ce t "t cont9ually honor$ me4        
,rem>k ! p]sev]ance ( ?is bl9d & /upid  
confid5ce 9 !      mid/ ( all ! treatm5t
 :i* %\ld soone/ h undeceiv$ me4      ,x
 cont9u$ until my return to ,p>is 9     
#aggj4  ,my ap>tm5ts at ,mont ,l\is be+ 
small1 & ! situation ( ! alcove *>m+1 ,i
 conduct$ ! pr9ce to x1 :]e1 to complete
 ! condesc5sion he 0 pleas$ to %[ me1 he
 *ose ,i %\ld h ! honor ( play+ ) him a 
game ( *ess4 ,i knew he beat ! ,*evali] 
de ,lor5zy1 :o play$ bett] ?an ,i did4  
,h[ev]1 not)/&+ ! signs & grimace ( !   
*evali] & ! spectators1 :i* ,i feign$ n 
to see1 ,i won ! two games we play$3 ,:5
 !y 7 end$1 ,i said to him 9 a          

respectful b v grave mann]3 ,my "l1 ,i  
honor y\r s]5e highness too mu* n to    
beat y always at *ess4 ,?is great pr9ce1
 :o _h real wit1 s5se1 & k1 & s 0 wor?y 
n to be treat$ ) mean adulation1 felt 9 
fact1 at lea/ ,i ?9k s1 t ,i 0 ! only   
p]son pres5t :o treat$ him l a man1 & ,i
 h e reason to believe he 0 n displeas$ 
) me = x4  ,_h ?is ev5 be5 ! case1 ,i   
%\ld n h reproa*$ myself ) hav+ be5     
unwill+ to deceive him 9 any?+1 & ,i    
c]ta9ly _c d x ) hav+ 9 my he>t made an 
ill return = 8 goodness1 b solely ) hav+
 sometimes done x ) an ill grace1 :il/  
he himself accompani$ ) inf9ite         
gracefulness ! mann] 9 :i* he %[$ me !  
m>ks ( x4 ,a few days aft]w>ds he ord]$ 
a hamp] ( game to be s5t me1 :i* ,i     
receiv$ z ,i ought4 ,?is 9 a little "t 0
 succe$$ by ano!r1 & "o ( 8 gamekeep]s  
wrote me1 by ord] ( 8 highness1 t ! game
 x conta9$ _h be5 %ot by ! pr9ce        
himself4 ,i receiv$ ?is second hamp]1 b 
,i wrote to ,madam de ,b\ffl]s t ,i w\ld
 n receive a ?ird4 ,?is lett] 0 g5]ally 

blam$1 & des]v$ly s4 ,refus+ to accept  
pres5ts ( game f a pr9ce ( ! blood1 :o  
moreov] s5ds x 9 s polite a mann]1 is   
less ! delicacy ( a haughty man1 :o     
wi%es to pres]ve 8 indep5d5ce1 ?an !    
ru/icity ( a cl[n1 :o does n "k himself4
 ,i h nev] read ?is lett] 9 my          
collection )\t blu%+ & reproa*+ myself =
 hav+ writt5 x4 ,b ,i h n und]tak5 my   
,confession ) an int5tion ( conceal+ my 
faults1 & t ( :i* ,i h j spok5 is too   
%ock+ 9 my own eyes to suff] me to pass 
x ov] 9 sil5ce4  ,if ,i 7 n guilty ( !  
(f5ce ( becom+ 8 rival ,i 0 v ne> do+ x2
 = ,madam de ,b\ffl]s 0 /ill 8 mi/ress1 
& ,i knew no?+ ( ! matt]4 ,%e came r    
frequ5tly to see me ) ! ,*evali] de     
,lor5zy4 ,%e 0 yet "y & beautiful1      
affect$ to be :imsical1 & my m9d 0      
always romantic1 :i* 0 mu* ( ! same     
nature4 ,i 0 ne> be+ laid hold (2 ,i    
believe %e p]ceiv$ x2 ! *evali] saw x   
also1 at lea/ he spoke to me ^u !       
subject1 & 9 a mann] n disc\rag+4 ,b ,i 
0 ?is "t reasonable1 & at ! age ( fifty 

x 0 "t ,i %\ld be s4 ,full ( ! doctr9e  
,i _h j prea*$ to graybe>ds 9 my lett]  
to ,d',alemb]t1 ,i %\ld h be5 a%am$ ( n 
pr(it+ by x myself2 besides1 com+ to ! k
 ( t ( :i* ,i _h be5 ignorant1 ,i mu/ h 
be5 mad to h c>ri$ my pret5sions s f> z 
to expose myself to su* an illu/ri\s    
rivalry4 ,f9ally1 ill cur$ p]haps ( my  
passion = ,madam de ,h\detot1 ,i felt   
no?+ c\ld replace x 9 my he>t1 & ,i bade
 adieu to love = ! re/ ( my life4 ,i h  
?is mom5t j )/ood ! dang]\s allurem5ts (
 a "y woman :o _h h] views2 & if %e     
feign$ to =get my twelve lu/res ,i      
rememb] !m4 ,aft] hav+ ?us )drawn myself
 f dang]1 ,i am no long] afraid ( a     
fall1 & ,i answ] = myself = ! re/ ( my  
days4  ,madam de ,b\ffl]s1 p]ceiv+ !    
emotion %e caus$ 9 me1 might also obs]ve
 ,i _h triumph$ ov] x4 ,i am nei!r mad  
nor va9 en\gh to believe ,i 0 at my age 
capable ( inspir+ h] ) ! same feel+s2 b1
 f c]ta9 words :i* %e let drop to       
,!resa1 ,i ?\ght ,i _h inspir$ h] ) a   
curiosity2 if ?is be ! case1 & t %e has 

n =giv5 me ! disappo9tm5t %e met )1 x   
mu/ be confess$ ,i 0 born to be ! victim
 ( my weaknesses1 s9ce triumphant love 0
 s prejudicial to me1 & love triumph$   
ov] n less s4  ,"h f9i%es ! collection (
 lett]s :i* has s]v$ me z a guide 9 !   
la/ two books4 ,my /eps w 9 future be   
direct$ by memory only2 b ?is is ( su* a
 nature1 relative to ! p]iod to :i* ,i  
am n[ come1 & ! /rong impression (      
objects has rema9$ s p]fectly ^u my m9d1
 t lo/ 9 ! imm5se sea ( my mis=tunes1 ,i
 _c =get ! detail ( my fir/ %ipwreck1   
al?\gh ! consequ5ces pres5t to me b a   
confus$ remembrance4 ,i !re=e %all be   
able to proce$ 9 ! succe$+ book )       
suffici5t confid5ce4 ,if ,i g fur!r x w 
be grop+ 9 ! d>k4     ,,book ,,xi4      
,al?\gh ,eloisa1 :i* = a long "t _h be5 
9 ! press1 did n yet1 at ! end ( ! ye>1 
#agfj1 appe>1 ! "w already began to make
 a great noise4 ,madam de ,luxemb\rg _h 
spok5 ( x at c\rt1 & ,madam de ,h\detot 
at ,p>is4 ,! latt] _h obta9$ f me       
p]mission = ,sa9t ,lamb]t to read !     

manuscript to ! ,k+ ( ,pol&1 :o _h be5  
delight$ ) x4 ,duclos1 to :om ,i _h also
 giv5 ! p]usal ( ! "w1 _h spok5 ( x at !
 academy4 ,all ,p>is 0 impati5t to see !
 novel2 ! booksell]s ( ! ,rue ,sa9t     
,jacques1 & t ( ! ,palais ,royal1 7     
beset ) p :o came to inquire :5 x 0 to  
be publi%$4 ,x 0 at l5g? br\ght out1 & !
 success x _h1 answ]$1 contr>y to cu/om1
 to ! impati5ce ) :i* x _h be5 expect$4 
,! dauph9ess1 :o 0 "o ( ! fir/ :o read  
x1 spoke ( x to ,m4 de ,luxemb\rg z a   
ravi%+ p]=mance4 ,! op9ions ( m5 (      
lett]s diff]$ f ea* o!r1 b 9 ^? ( any   
o!r class approbation 0 g5]al1          
especially ) ! wom51 :o became s        
intoxicat$ ) ! book & ! au?or1 t !re 0 n
 "o 9 high life ) :om ,i might n h      
succe$$ _h ,i und]tak5 to d x4 ,( ?is ,i
 h su* pro(s z ,i w n commit to pap]1 & 
:i* )\t ! aid ( exp]i5ce1 au?oriz$ my   
op9ion4 ,x is s+ul> t ! book %\ld h     
succe$$ bett] 9 ,france ?an 9 ! re/ (   
,europe1 al?\gh ! ,fr5*1 bo? m5 & wom51 
are sev]ely treat$ 9 x4 ,contr>y to my  

expectation x 0 lea/ successful 9       
,switz]l&1 & mo/ s 9 ,p>is4 ,d fri5d%ip1
 love & virtue reign 9 ?is capital m ?an
 else:]e8 ,c]ta9ly n2 b !re reigns 9 x  
an exquisite s5sibility :i* transports !
 he>t to _! image1 & makes u *]i% 9 o!rs
 ! pure1 t5d] & virtu\s s5tim5ts we no  
long] possess4 ,corruption is ev]y:]e ! 
same2 virtue & morality no long] exi/ 9 
,europe2 b if ! lea/ love ( !m /ill     
rema9s1 x is 9 ,p>is t ?is w be         
f\nd4--,i wrote ?is 9 #agfi4  ,9 ! mid/ 
( s _m prejudices & feign$ passions1 !  
real s5tim5ts ( nature are n to be      
di/+ui%$ f o!rs1 unless we well "k to   
analyze ! human he>t4 ,a v nice         
discrim9ation1 n to be acquir$ except by
 ! education ( ! _w1 is necess>y to feel
 ! f9esses ( ! he>t1 if ,i d>e use !    
expression1 ) :i* ?is "w ab\nds4 ,i d n 
hesitate to place ! f\r? "p ( x ^u an   
equality ) ! ,pr9cess ( ,cleves2 nor to 
ass]t t _h ^! two works be5 read n[h]e b
 9 ! prov9ces1 _! m]it w\ld nev] h be5  
discov]$4 ,x mu/ n1 !re=e1 be consid]$ z

 a matt] ( a/oni%m5t1 t ! greate/       
success ( my "w 0 at c\rt4 ,x ab\nds )  
lively b veil$ t\*es ( ! p5cil1 :i* c\ld
 n b give pleasure !re1 because ! p]sons
 :o frequ5t x are m accu/om$ ?an o!rs to
 discov] !m4 ,a di/9ction mu/1 h[ev]1 be
 made4 ,! "w is by no means prop] = !   
species ( m5 ( wit :o h no?+ b cunn+1 :o
 possess no o!r k9d ( disc]nm5t ?an t   
:i* p5etrates evil1 & see no?+ :]e good 
only is to be f\nd4 ,if1 = in/ance1     
,eloisa _h be5 publi%$ 9 a c]ta9 c\ntry1
 ,i am conv9c$ x w\ld n h be5 read ?r\gh
 by a s+le p]son1 & ! "w w\ld h be5     
/ifl$ 9 its bir?4  ,i h collect$ mo/ ( !
 lett]s writt5 to me on ! subject ( ?is 
publication1 & deposit$ !m1 ti$ up      
toge!r1 9 ! h&s ( ,madam de ,nadillac4  
,%\ld ?is collection ev] be giv5 to !   
_w1 v s+ul> ?+s w be se51 & an          
opposition ( op9ion1 :i* %[s :at x is to
 h to d ) ! public4 ,! ?+ lea/ kept 9   
view1 & :i* w ev] di/+ui% x f e o!r "w1 
is ! simplicity ( ! subject & !         
cont9uation ( ! int]e/1 :i*1 conf9$ to  

?ree p]sons1 is kept up ?r\gh\t six     
volumes1 )\t episode1 romantic adv5ture1
 or any?+ malici\s ei!r 9 ! p]sons or   
actions4 ,did]ot complim5t$ ,ri*>dson on
 ! prodigi\s v>iety ( 8 portraits & !   
multiplicity ( 8 p]sons4 ,9 fact1       
,ri*>dson has ! m]it ( hav+ well        
*>act]iz$ !m all2 b ) respect to _!     
numb]1 he has t 9 common ) ! mo/ insipid
 writ]s ( novels :o attempt to make up =
 ! /]ility ( _! ideas by multiply+      
p]sons & adv5tures4 ,x is easy to awak5 
! att5tion by incessantly pres5t+ unhe>d
 ( adv5tures & new faces1 :i* pass be=e 
! imag9ation z ! figures 9 a magic      
lan?orn d be=e ! eye2 b to keep up t    
att5tion to ! same objects1 & )\t ! aid 
( ! wond]ful1 is c]ta9ly m difficult2 & 
if1 ev]y?+ else be+ equal1 ! simplicity 
( ! subject adds to ! beauty ( ! "w1 !  
novels ( ,ri*>dson1 sup]ior 9 s _m o!r  
respects1 _c 9 ?is be comp>$ to m9e4 ,i 
"k x is already =gott51 & ! cause ( its 
be+ s2 b x w be tak5 up aga94 ,all my   
fe> 0 t1 by an extreme simplicity1 !    

n>rative w\ld be fatigu+1 & t x 0 n     
suffici5tly int]e/+ to engage ! att5tion
 ?r\gh\t ! :ole4 ,i 0 reliev$ f ?is     
appreh5sion by a circum/ance :i* alone 0
 m flatt]+ to my pride ?an all !        
complim5ts made me ^u ! "w4  ,x appe>$  
at ! beg9n+ ( ! c>nival2 a hawk] c>ri$ x
 to ! ,pr9cess ( ,talmont--,x 0 n !     
pr9cess1 b "s o!r lady1 ^: "n ,i d n    
"k4--on ! ev5+ ( a ball night at ! op]a4
 ,aft] supp] ! ,pr9cess dress$ h]self = 
! ball1 & until ! h\r ( go+ !re1 took up
 ! new novel4 ,at midnight %e ord]$ !   
horses to be put into ! c>riage1 &      
cont9u$ to read4 ,! s]vant return$ to   
tell h] ! horses 7 put to2 %e made no   
answ]4 ,h] p p]ceiv+ %e =got h]self1    
came to tell h] x 0 two o'clock4 ,!re is
 yet no hurry1 repli$ ! pr9cess1 /ill   
read+ on4 ,"s "t aft]w>ds1 h] wat* hav+ 
/opp$1 %e rang to "k ! h\r4 ,%e 0 told x
 0 f\r o'clock4 ,t be+ ! case1 %e said1 
x is too late to g to ! ball2 let !     
horses be tak5 (f4 ,%e undress$ h]self &
 pass$ ! re/ ( ! night 9 read+4  ,ev]   

s9ce ,i came to ! k ( ?is circum/ance1  
,i h _h a con/ant desire to see ! lady1 
n only to "k f h]self :e!r or n :at ,i h
 relat$ be exactly true1 b because ,i h 
always ?\ght x impossible to be int]e/$ 
9 s lively a mann] 9 ! happ9ess (       
,julia1 )\t hav+ t six? & moral s5se )  
:i* s few he>ts are end[$1 & )\t :i* no 
p]son :atev] c und]/& ! s5tim5ts ( m9e4 
,:at r5d]$ ! wom5 s favorable to me 01  
_! be+ p]suad$ t ,i _h writt5 my own    
hi/ory1 & 0 myself ! h]o ( ! romance4   
,?is op9ion 0 s firmly e/abli%$1 t      
,madam de ,polignac wrote to ,madam de  
,v]del91 begg+ %e w\ld prevail ^u me to 
%[ h] ! portrait ( ,julia4 ,ev]ybody    
?\ght x 0 impossible s /rongly to       
express s5tim5ts )\t hav+ felt !m1 or   
?us to describe ! transports ( love1    
unless imm$iately f ! feel+s ( ! he>t4  
,?is 0 true1 & ,i c]ta9ly wrote ! novel 
dur+ ! "t my imag9ation 0 inflam$ to    
ec/asy2 b !y :o ?\ght real objects      
necess>y to ?is effect 7 deceiv$1 & f> f
 conceiv+ to :at a degree ,i c at w     

produce x = imag9>y be+s4 ,)\t ,madam   
d',h\detot1 & ! recollection ( a few    
circum/ances 9 my y\?1 ! am\rs ,i h felt
 & describ$ w\ld h be5 ) fairy nymphs4  
,i 0 unwill+ ei!r to confirm or de/roy  
an error :i* 0 advantage\s to me4 ,!    
read] may see 9 ! preface a dialogue1   
:i* ,i _h pr9t$ sep>ately1 9 :at mann]  
,i left ! public 9 susp5se4 ,rigor\s p  
say1 ,i ought to h explicity decl>$ !   
tru?4 ,= my "p ,i see no reason = ?is1  
nor any?+ t c\ld oblige me to x1 & am ( 
op9ion !re w\ld h be5 m folly ?an c&or 9
 ! decl>ation )\t necessity4  ,mu* ab\t 
! same "t ! ',paix ,p]petuelle' made its
 appe>ance1 ( ?is ,i _h ! ye> be=e giv5 
! manuscript to a c]ta9 ,m4 de ,ba/ide1 
! au?or ( a j\rnal call$ ,le ,monde1    
into :i* he w\ld at all ev5ts cram all  
my manuscripts4 ,he 0 kn[n to ,m4       
,duclos1 & came 9 8 "n to beg ,i w\ld   
help him to fill ! ,monde4 ,he _h he>d  
speak ( ,eloisa1 & w\ld h me put ?is    
into 8 j\rnal2 he 0 also desir\s ( mak+ 
! same use ( ,emilius2 he w\ld h ask$ me

 = ! ,social ,contract = ! same purpose1
 _h he suspect$ x to be writt54 ,at     
l5g?1 fatigu$ ) 8 importunities1 ,i     
resolv$ ^u lett+ him h ! ,paix          
,p]petuelle1 :i* ,i gave him = twelve   
l\is4 ,our agreem5t 01 t he %\ld pr9t x 
9 8 j\rnal2 b z soon z he became !      
proprietor ( ! manuscript1 he ?\ght     
prop] to pr9t x sep>ately1 ) a few      
retr5*m5ts1 :i* ! c5sor requir$ him to  
make4 ,:at w\ld h happ5$ _h ,i jo9$ to !
 "w my op9ion ( x1 :i* =tunately ,i did 
n communicate to ,m4 de ,ba/ide1 nor 0 x
 compreh5d$ 9 our agreem5t8 ,?is rema9s 
/ill 9 manuscript among/ my pap]s4 ,if  
ev] x be made public1 ! _w w see h[ mu* 
! pleasantries & self-suffici5t mann] ( 
,m4 de ,voltaire on ! subject mu/ h made
 me1 :o 0 s well acqua9t$ ) !           
%ort-sight$ness ( ?is poor man 9        
political matt]s1 ( :i* he took x into 8
 head to speak1 %ake my sides ) laught]4
  ,9 ! mid/ ( my success ) ! wom5 & !   
public1 ,i felt ,i lo/ gr\nd at ! ,hotel
 de ,luxemb\rg1 n ) ! m>e*al1 ^:        

goodness to me seem$ daily to increase1 
b ) 8 lady4 ,s9ce ,i _h _h no?+ m to    
read to h]1 ! door ( h] ap>tm5t 0 n s   
frequ5tly op5 to me1 & dur+ h] /ay at   
,montmor5cy1 al?\gh ,i regul>ly pres5t$ 
myself1 ,i seldom saw h] except at      
table4 ,my place ev5 !re 0 n di/9ctly   
m>k$ out z usual4 ,z %e no long] (f]$ me
 t by h] side1 & spoke to me b seldom1 n
 hav+ on my "p mu* to say to h]1 ,i 0   
well satisfi$ ) ano!r1 :]e ,i 0 m at my 
ease1 especially 9 ! ev5+2 = ,i         
me*anically contract$ ! habit ( plac+   
myself ne>] & ne>] to ! m>e*al4         
,apropos ( ! ev5+3 ,i recollect hav+    
said ,i did n sup at ! ca/le1 & ?is 0   
true1 at ! beg9n+ ( my acqua9tance !re2 
b z ,m4 de ,luxemb\rg did n d9e1 nor ev5
 sit d[n to table1 x happ5$ t ,i 0 =    
sev]al mon?s1 & already v famili> 9 !   
family1 )\t ev] hav+ eat5 ) him4 ,?is he
 _h ! goodness to rem>k1 ^u :i* ,i      
det]m9$ to sup !re f "t to "t1 :5 !     
company 0 n num]\s2 ,i did s1 & f\nd !  
supp]s v agreeable1 z ! d9n]s 7 tak5    

almo/ /&+2 :]eas ! =m] 7 long1 ev]ybody 
rema9+ seat$ ) pleasure aft] a long     
walk2 & v good & agreeable1 because ,m4 
de ,luxemb\rg lov$ good eat+1 & ! honors
 ( !m 7 done 9 a *>m+ mann] by madam de 
m>e*ale4 ,)\t ?is explanation x w\ld be 
difficult to und]/& ! end ( a lett] f   
,m4 de ,luxemb\rg1 9 :i* he says he     
recollects our walks ) ! greate/        
pleasure2 especially1 adds he1 :5 9 !   
ev5+ we ent]$ ! c\rt & did n f9d !re !  
traces ( c>riages4 ,! rake be+ e morn+  
drawn ov] ! gravel to efface ! m>ks left
 by ! coa* :eels1 ,i judg$ by ! numb] ( 
ruts ( t ( ! p]sons :o _h arriv$ 9 !    
aft]noon4  ,?is ye>1 #agfa1 complet$ !  
heavy losses ?is good man _h suff]$ s9ce
 ,i _h _h ! honor ( be+ kn[n to him4 ,z 
if x _h be5 orda9$ t ! evils prep>$ = me
 by de/9y %\ld beg9 by ! man to :om ,i 0
 mo/ atta*$1 & :o 0 ! mo/ wor?y ( e/eem4
 ,! fir/ ye> he lo/ 8 si/]1 ! ,du*ess ( 
,vill]oy2 ! second1 8 daught]1 !        
,pr9cess ( ,robeck2 ! ?ird1 he lo/ 9 !  
,duke ( ,montmor5cy 8 only son2 & 9 !   

,comte de ,luxemb\rg1 8 gr&son1 ! la/   
two support]s ( ! bran* ( :i* he 01 & ( 
8 "n4 ,he support$ all ^! losses )      
app>5t c\rage1 b 8 he>t incessantly bl$ 
9 secret dur+ ! re/ ( 8 life1 & 8 heal? 
0 ev] aft] ^u ! decl9e4 ,! unexpect$ &  
tragical dea? ( 8 son mu/ h afflict$ him
 ! m1 z x happ5$ imm$iately aft] ! k+ _h
 grant$ him = 8 *ild1 & giv5 him !      
promise = 8 gr&son1 ! rev]sion ( !      
commission he himself !n held ( ! capta9
 ( ! ,g>des de ,corps4 ,he _h !         
mortification to see ! la/1 a mo/       
promis+ "y man1 p]i% by degrees f ! bl9d
 confid5ce ( ! "m 9 ! physician1 :o giv+
 ! unhappy y\? m$ic9es = food1 suff]$   
him to die ( inanition4 ,alas6 _h my    
advice be5 tak51 ! gr&fa!r & ! gr&son   
w\ld bo? /ill h be5 alive4 ,:at did n ,i
 say & write to ! m>e*al1 :at           
remon/rances did ,i make to ,madam de   
,montmor5cy1 ^u ! m ?an sev]e regim51   
:i*1 ^u ! fai? ( physicians1 %e made h] 
son obs]ve6 ,madam de ,luxemb\rg1 :o    
?\ght z ,i did1 w\ld n usurp ! au?ority 

( ! "m2 ,m4 de ,luxemb\rg1 a man ( mild 
& easy "*1 did n l to contradict h]4    
,madam de ,montmor5cy _h 9 ,bord5 a     
confid5ce to :i* h] son at l5g? became a
 victim4 ,h[ delight$ 0 ! poor creature 
:5 he c\ld obta9 p]mission to come to   
,mont ,l\is ) ,madam de ,b\ffl]s1 to ask
 ,!resa = "s victuals = 8 fami%$ /oma*6 
,h[ did ,i secretly deplore ! mis]ies ( 
greatness 9 see+ ?is only heir to a     
imm5se =tune1 a great "n1 & s _m        
dignifi$ titles1 dev\r ) ! gre$9ess ( a 
begg> a wret*$ morsel ( bread6 ,at l5g?1
 not)/&+ all ,i c\ld say & d1 !         
physician triumph$1 & ! *ild di$ (      
hung]4  ,! same confid5ce 9 quacks1 :i* 
de/roy$ ! gr&son1 ha/5$ ! dissolution ( 
! gr&fa!r1 & to ?is he add$ !           
pusillanimity ( wi%+ to dissimulate !   
infirmities ( age4 ,m4 de ,luxemb\rg _h 
at int]vals a pa9 9 ! great toe2 he 0   
seiz$ ) x at ,montmor5cy1 :i* depriv$   
him ( sleep1 & br\ght on slight fev]4 ,i
 _h c\rage en\gh to pron\nce ! ^w g\t4  
,madam de ,luxemb\rg gave me a reprim&4 

,! surgeon1 valet de *ambre ( ! m>e*al1 
ma9ta9$ x 0 n ! g\t1 & dress$ ! suff]+  
"p ) beaume tranquille4 ,un=tunately !  
pa9 subsid$1 & :5 x return$ ! same rem$y
 0 _h rec\rse to4 ,! con/itution ( !    
m>e*al 0 weak5$1 & 8 disord] increas$1 z
 did 8 rem$ies 9 ! same proportion4     
,madam de ,luxemb\rg1 :o at l5g? p]ceiv$
 ! prim>y disord] to be ! g\t1 object$  
to ! dang]\s mann] ( treat+ x4 ,?+s 7   
aft]w>ds conceal$ f h]1 & ,m4 de        
,luxemb\rg 9 a few ye>s lo/ 8 life 9    
consequ5ce ( 8 ob/9ate adh]5ce to :at he
 imag9$ to be a me?od ( cure4 ,b let me 
n anticipate mis=tune3 h[ _m o!rs h ,i  
to relate be=e ,i come to ?is6  ,x is   
s+ul> ) :at fatality ev]y?+ ,i c\ld say 
& d seem$ ( a nature to displease ,madam
 de ,luxemb\rg1 ev5 :5 ,i _h x mo/ at   
he>t to pres]ve h] fri5d%ip4 ,! repeat$ 
afflictions :i* fell ^u ,m4 de          
,luxemb\rg /ill atta*$ me to him ! m1 & 
consequ5tly to ,madam de ,luxemb\rg2 =  
!y always seem$ to me to be s s9c]ely   
unit$1 t ! s5tim5ts 9 favor ( ! "o      

necess>ily ext5d$ to ! o!r4 ,! m>e*al   
grew old4 ,8 assiduity at c\rt1 ! c>es  
?is br\ght on1 cont9ually hunt+1        
fatigue1 & especially t ( ! s]vice dur+ 
! qu>t] he 0 9 wait+1 requir$ ! vigor ( 
a "y man1 & ,i did n p]ceive any?+ t    
c\ld support 8 9 t c\rse ( life2 s9ce1  
besides aft] 8 dea?1 8 dignities 7 to be
 disp]s$ & 8 "n ext9ct1 x 0 by no means 
necess>y = him to cont9ue a labori\s    
life ( :i* ! pr9cipal object _h be5 to  
dispose ! pr9ce favorably to 8 *ildr54  
,"o day :5 we ?ree 7 toge!r1 & he       
compla9$ ( ! fatigues ( ! c\rt1 z a man 
:o _h be5 disc\rag$ by 8 losses1 ,i took
 ! lib]ty to speak ( retirem5t1 & to    
give him ! advice ,cyneas gave to       
,pyrrhus4 ,he sigh$1 & return$ no       
positive answ]4 ,b ! mom5t ,madam de    
,luxemb\rg f\nd me alone %e reprim&$ me 
sev]ely = :at ,i _h said1 at :i* %e     
seem$ to be al>m$4 ,%e made a rem>k (   
:i* ,i s /rongly felt ! ju/ness t ,i    
det]m9$ nev] aga9 to t\* ^u ! subject3  
?is 01 t ! long habit ( liv+ at c\rt    

made t life necess>y1 t x 0 become a    
matt] ( amusem5t = ,m4 de ,luxemb\rg1 & 
t ! retirem5t ,i propos$ to him w\ld be 
less a relaxation f c>e ?an an exile1 9 
:i* inactivity1 we>9ess & melan*oly w\ld
 soon put an end to 8 exi/5ce4 ,al?\gh  
%e mu/ h p]ceiv$ ,i 0 conv9c$1 & ought  
to h reli$ ^u ! promise ,i made h]1 &   
:i* ,i fai?fully kept1 %e /ill seem$ to 
d\bt ( x2 & ,i recollect t !            
conv]sations ,i aft]w>ds _h ) ! m>e*al 7
 less frequ5t & almo/ always int]rupt$4 
,:il/ my /upidity & awkw>dness injur$ me
 9 h] op9ion1 p]sons :om %e frequ5tly   
saw & mo/ lov$1 7 f> f be+ dispos$ to   
aid me 9 ga9+ :at ,i _h lo/4 ,! ,abbe de
 ,b\ffl]s especially1 a "y man z l(ty z 
x 0 possible = a man to be1 nev] seem$  
well dispos$ t[>ds me2 & besides 8 be+ !
 only p]son ( ! society ( ,madam de     
,luxemb\rg :o nev] %[$ me ! lea/        
att5tion1 ,i ?\ght ,i p]ceiv$ ,i lo/    
some?+ ) h] e "t he came to ! ca/le4 ,x 
is true t )\t 8 wi%+ ?is to be ! case1 8
 pres5ce alone 0 suffici5t to produce ! 

effect2 s mu* did 8 graceful & elegant  
mann] r5d] /ill m dull my /upid         
propositi4 ,dur+ ! fir/ two ye>s he     
seldom came to ,montmor5cy1 & by !      
indulg5ce ( ,madam de ,luxemb\rg ,i _h  
tol]ably support$ myself1 b z soon z 8  
visits began to be regul> ,i 0          
irretrievably lo/4 ,i wi%$ to take      
refuge "u 8 w+1 & ga9 8 fri5d%ip2 b !   
same awkw>dness :i* made x necess>y ,i  
%\ld please him prev5t$ me f succe$+ 9 !
 attempt ,i made to d x1 & :at ,i did ) 
t int5tion entirely lo/ me ) ,madam de  
,luxemb\rg1 )\t be+ ( ! lea/ s]vice to  
me ) ! abbe4 ,) 8 und]/&+ he might h    
succe$$ 9 any?+1 b ! impossibility (    
apply+ himself1 & 8 turn = dissipation1 
prev5t$ 8 acquir+ a p]fect k ( any      
subject4 ,8 tal5ts are h[ev] v>i\s1 &   
?is is suffici5t = ! circles 9 :i* he   
wi%es to di/+ui% himself4 ,he writes    
light poetry & fa%ionable lett]s1 /rums 
on ! ci!rn1 & pret5ds to draw ) crayon4 
,he took x into 8 head to attempt !     
portrait ( ,madam de ,luxemb\rg2 ! sket*

 he produc$ 0 horrid4 ,%e said x did n 9
 ! lea/ resemble h] & ?is 0 true4 ,!    
traitor\s abbe consult$ me1 & ,i l a    
fool & a li>1 said !re 0 a lik5ess4 ,i  
wi%$ to flatt] ! abbe1 b ,i did n please
 ! lady :o not$ d[n :at ,i _h said1 & ! 
abbe1 hav+ obta9$ :at he want$1 laugh$  
at me 9 8 turn4 ,i p]ceiv$ by ! ill     
success ( ?is my late beg9n+ ! necessity
 ( mak+ ano!r attempt to flatt] 'invita 
,m9]va'4  ,my tal5t 0 t ( tell+ m5      
useful b sev]e tru?s ) en]gy & c\rage2  
to ?is x 0 necess>y to conf9e myself4 ,n
 only ,i 0 n born to flatt]1 b ,i knew n
 h[ to comm5d4 ,! awkw>dness ( ! mann] 9
 :i* ,i h sometimes be/[$ eulogium has  
done me m h>m ?an ! sev]ity ( my c5sure4
 ,( ?is ,i h to adduce "o t]rible       
in/ance1 ! consequ5ces ( :i* h n only   
fix$ my fate = ! re/ ( my life1 b w     
p]haps decide on my reputation ?r\gh\t  
all po/]ity4  ,dur+ ! resid5ce ( ,m4 de 
,luxemb\rg at ,montmor5cy1 ,m4 de       
,*oiseul sometimes came to supp] at !   
ca/le4 ,he arriv$ !re "o day aft] ,i _h 

left x4 ,my "n 0 m5tion$1 & ,m4 de      
,luxemb\rg relat$ to him :at _h happ5$  
at ,v5ice betwe5 me & ,m4 de ,montaigu4 
,m4 de ,*oiseul said x 0 a pity ,i _h   
quitt$ t track1 & t if ,i *ose to ent] x
 aga9 he w\ld mo/ will+ly give me       
employm5t4 ,m4 de ,luxemb\rg told me :at
 _h pass$4 ,( ?is ,i 0 ! m s5sible z ,i 
0 n accu/om$ to be spoil$ by m9i/]s1 &  
_h ,i be5 9 a bett] /ate ( heal? x is n 
c]ta9 t ,i %\ld n h be5 guilty ( a new  
folly4 ,ambition nev] _h p[] ov] my m9d 
except dur+ ! %ort int]vals 9 :i* e o!r 
passion left me at lib]ty2 b "o ( ^!    
int]vals w\ld h be5 suffici5t to det]m9e
 me4 ,?is good int5tion ( ,m4 de        
,*oiseul ga9$ him my atta*m5t & increas$
 ! e/eem :i*1 9 consequ5ce ( "s         
op]ations 9 8 adm9i/ration1 ,i _h       
conceiv$ = 8 tal5ts2 & ! family compact 
9 p>ticul> _h appe>$ to me to ev9ce a   
/atesman ( ! fir/ ord]4 ,he moreov] ga9$
 gr\nd 9 my e/imation by ! little       
respect ,i ent]ta9$ = 8 pr$ecessors1 n  
ev5 except+ ,madam de ,pompad\r1 :om ,i 

consid]$ z a species ( prime m9i/]1 & :5
 x 0 report$ t "o ( ^! two w\ld expel ! 
o!r1 ,i ?\ght ,i (f]$ up pray]s = !     
honor ( ,france :5 ,i wi%$ t ,m4 de     
,*oiseul might triumph4 ,i _h always    
felt an antipa?y to ,madam de ,pompad\r1
 ev5 be=e h] pref]m5t2 ,i _h se5 h] )   
,madam de la ,popl9i]e :5 h] "n 0 /ill  
,madam d',etioles4 ,i 0 aft]w>ds        
dissatisfi$ ) h] sil5ce on ! subject (  
,did]ot1 & ) h] proce$+s relative to    
myself1 z well on ! subject ( ! ',muses 
,galantes'1 z on t ( ! ',dev9 du        
,village'1 :i* _h n 9 any mann] produc$ 
me advantages proportion$ to its        
success2 & on all occasions ,i _h f\nd  
h] b little dispos$ to s]ve me4 ,?is    
h[ev] did n prev5t ! ,*evali] de ,lor5zy
 f propos+ to me to write some?+ 9      
praise ( t lady1 ins9uat+ t ,i might    
acquire "s advantage by x4 ,!           
proposition excit$ my indignation1 ! m z
 ,i p]ceiv$ x did n come f himself1 kn[+
 t1 passive z he 01 he ?\ght & act$     
accord+ to ! impulsion he receiv$4 ,i am

 s little accu/om$ to con/ra9t t x 0    
impossible = me to conceal f him my     
disda91 nor f anybody ! mod]ate op9ion  
,i _h ( ! favorite2 ?is ,i am sure %e   
knew1 & ?us my own int]e/ 0 add$ to my  
natural incl9ation 9 ! wi%es ,i =m$ =   
,m4 de ,*oiseul4 ,hav+ a great e/eem = 8
 tal5ts1 :i* 0 all ,i knew ( him1 full (
 gratitude = 8 k9d int5tions1 & moreov] 
unacqua9t$ 9 my retirem5t ) 8 ta/e &    
mann] ( liv+1 ,i already consid]$ him z 
! av5g] ( ! public & myself2 & be+ at t 
"t writ+ ! conclusion ( my ,social      
,contract1 ,i /at$ 9 x1 9 a s+le        
passage1 :at ,i ?\ght ( prec$+ m9i/]s1 &
 ( him by :om !y began to be eclips$4   
,on ?is occasion ,i act$ contr>y to my  
mo/ con/ant maxim2 & besides1 ,i did n  
recollect t1 9 be/[+ praise & /rongly   
c5sur+ 9 ! same article1 )\t nam+ !     
p]sons1 ! language mu/ be s appropriat$ 
to ^? to :om x is applicable1 t ! mo/   
tickli% pride _c f9d 9 x ! lea/ ?+      
equivocal4 ,i 0 9 ?is respect 9 su* an  
imprud5t security1 t ,i nev] once ?\ght 

x 0 possible any "o %\ld make a false   
application4 ,x w soon appe> :e!r or n  
,i 0 "r4  ,"o ( my mis=tunes 0 always to
 be connect$ ) "s female au?or4 ,?is ,i 
?\ght ,i might avoid among/ ! great4 ,i 
0 deceiv$2 x /ill pursu$ me4 ,madam de  
,luxemb\rg 0 n1 h[ev]2 at lea/ t ,i "k  
(1 attack$ ) ! mania ( writ+2 b ,madam  
de ,b\ffl]s 04 ,%e wrote a trag$y 9     
prose1 :i*1 9 ! fir/ place1 0 read1 h&$ 
ab\t1 & highly spok5 ( 9 ! society ( !  
,pr9ce ,conti1 & ^u :i*1 n satisfi$ ) ! 
encomiums %e receiv$1 %e w\ld absolutely
 consult me = ! purpose ( hav+ m9e4 ,?is
 %e obta9$1 b ) t mod]ation :i* ! "w    
des]v$4 ,%e besides _h ) x ! in=mation  
,i ?\ght x my duty to give h]1 t h]     
piece1 entitl$ ',l',esclave ,g5]eux'1   
greatly resembl$ ! ,engli% trag$y (     
',oroonoko'1 b little kn[n 9 ,france1   
al?\gh translat$ into ! ,fr5* language4 
,madam de ,b\ffi]s ?ank$ me = ! rem>k1  
b1 h[ev]1 assur$ me !re 0 n ! lea/      
resemblance betwe5 h] piece & ! o!r4 ,i 
nev] spoke ( ! plagi>isms except to     

h]self1 & ,i did x to dis*>ge a duty %e 
_h impos$ on me2 b ?is has n s9ce       
prev5t$ me f frequ5tly recollect+ !     
consequ5ces ( ! s9c]ity ( ,gil ,blas to 
! prea*+ ar*bi%op4  ,besides ! ,abbe de 
,b\ffi]s1 by :om ,i 0 n belov$1 & ,madam
 de ,b\ffi]s1 9 ^: op9ion ,i 0 guilty ( 
t :i* nei!r wom5 nor au?ors ev] p>don1 !
 o!r fri5ds ( ,madam de ,luxemb\rg nev] 
seem$ mu* dispos$ to become m9e1        
p>ticul>ly ! ,presid5t ,h5ault1 :o1     
enroll$ among/ au?ors1 0 n exempt f _!  
weaknesses2 also ,madam du ,deff&1 &    
,mademoiselle de ,lesp9asse1 bo?        
intimate ) ,voltaire & ! fri5ds (       
,d',alemb]t1 ) :om ! latt] at l5g? liv$1
 h[ev] ^u an honorable foot+1 = x _c be 
und]/ood ,i mean o!rwise4 ,i fir/ began 
to int]e/ myself = ,madam du ,deff&1 :om
 ! loss ( h] eyes made an object (      
commis]ation 9 m9e2 b h] mann] ( liv+ s 
contr>y to my own1 t h] h\r ( go+ to b$ 
0 almo/ m9e = ris+2 h] unb\nd$ passion =
 l[ wit1 ! importance %e gave to e k9d (
 pr9t$ tra%1 ei!r complim5t>y or        

abusive1 ! despotism & transports ( h]  
oracles1 h] excessive admiration or     
dislike ( ev]y?+1 :i* did n p]mit h] to 
speak ^u any subject )\t convulsions1 h]
 inconceivable prejudices1 inv9cible    
ob/9acy1 & ! en?usiasm ( folly to :i*   
?is c>ri$ h] 9 h] passionate judgm5ts2  
all disgu/$ me & dim9i%$ ! att5tion ,i  
wi%$ to pay h]4 ,i neglect$ h] & %e     
p]ceiv$ x2 ?is 0 en\gh to set h] 9 a    
rage1 &1 al?\gh ,i 0 suffici5tly aw>e h[
 mu* a woman ( h] "* 0 to be fe>$1 ,i   
pref]r$ expos+ myself to ! sc\rge ( h]  
hatr$ r ?an to t ( h] fri5d%ip4  ,my    
hav+ s few fri5ds 9 ! society ( ,madam  
de ,luxemb\rg w\ld n h be5 9 ! lea/     
dang]\s _h ,i _h no enemies 9 ! family4 
,( ^! ,i _h b "o1 :o1 9 my !n situation1
 0 z p[]ful z a hundr$4 ,x c]ta9ly 0 n  
,m4 de ,vill]oy1 h] bro!r2 = he n only  
came to see me1 b _h sev]al times invit$
 me to ,vill]oy2 & z ,i _h answ]$ to !  
invitation ) all possible polit5ess &   
respect1 he _h tak5 my vague mann] ( do+
 x z a cons5t1 & arrang$ ) ,madam de    

,luxemb\rg a j\rney ( a =tnight1 9 :i* x
 0 propos$ to me to make "o ( ! p>ty4 ,z
 ! c>es my heal? !n requir$ did n p]mit 
me to g f home )\t risk1 ,i pray$ ,madam
 de ,luxemb\rg to h ! goodness to make  
my apologies4 ,h] answ] proves ?is 0    
done ) all possible ease1 & ,m4 de      
,vill]oy /ill cont9u$ to %[ me 8 usual  
m>ks ( goodness4 ,8 nephew & heir1 ! "y 
,m>quis ( ,vill]oy1 _h n = me ! same    
b5evol5ce1 nor _h ,i = him ! respect ,i 
_h = 8 uncle4 ,8 h>ebra9$ mann] r5d]$   
him insupportable to me1 & my coldness  
drew ^u me 8 av]sion4 ,he insult+ly     
attack$ me "o ev5+ at table1 & ,i _h !  
wor/ ( x because ,i am a fool1 )\t      
pres5ce ( m9d2 & because ang]1 in/ead ( 
r5d]+ my wit m poignant1 deprives me ( !
 little ,i h4 ,i _h a dog :i* _h be5    
giv5 me :5 he 0 q "y1 soon aft] my      
arrival at ! ,h]mitage1 & :i* ,i _h     
call$ ,duke4 ,?is dog1 n h&some1 b r>e (
 8 k9d1 ( :i* ,i _h made my companion & 
fri5d1 a title :i* he c]ta9ly m]it$ mu* 
m ?an mo/ ( ! p]sons by :om x 0 tak51   

became 9 great reque/ at ! ca/le (      
,montmor5cy = 8 good nature & fondness1 
& ! atta*m5t we _h = ea* o!r2 b f a     
fooli% pusillanimity ,i _h *ang$ 8 "n to
 ,turk1 z if !re 7 n _m dogs call$      
,m>quis1 )\t giv+ ! lea/ (f5ce to any   
m>quis :atsoev]4 ,! ,m>quis ( ,vill]oy1 
:o knew ( ! *ange ( "n1 attack$ me 9 su*
 a mann] t ,i 0 oblig$ op5ly at table to
 relate :at ,i _h done4 ,:atev] !re     
might be (f5sive 9 ! "n ( duke1 x 0 n 9 
my hav+ giv5 b 9 my hav+ tak5 x away4 ,!
 wor/ ( x all 01 !re 7 _m dukes pres5t1 
among/ o!rs ,m4 de ,luxemb\rg & 8 son2 &
 ! ,m>quis de ,vill]oy1 :o 0 "o day to  
h1 & n[ has ! title1 enjoy$ 9 ! mo/     
cruel mann] ! emb>rassm5t into :i* he _h
 ?r[n me4 ,i 0 told ! next day 8 aunt _h
 sev]ely reprim&$ him1 & x may be judg$ 
:e!r or n1 suppos+ h] to h be5 s]i\s1   
?is put me ^u bett] t]ms ) him4  ,to    
enable me to support 8 enmity ,i _h no  
p]son1 nei!r at ! ,hotel de ,luxemb\rg  
nor at ! ,temple1 except ! ,*evali] de  
,lor5zy1 :o pr(ess$ himself my fri5d2 b 

he 0 m t ( ,d',alemb]t1 "u ^: protection
 he pass$ ) wom5 = a great geometrician4
 ,he 0 moreov] ! cicisbeo1 or r !       
complaisant *evali] ( ! ,c\ntess (      
,b\ffl]s1 a great fri5d also to         
,d',alemb]t1 & ! ,*evali] de ,lor5zy 0 !
 mo/ passive in/rum5t 9 h] h&s4 ,?us1 f>
 f hav+ 9 t circle any c\nt]-balance to 
my inaptitude1 to keep me 9 ! good      
graces ( ,madam de ,luxemb\rg1 ev]ybody 
:o approa*$ h] seem$ to concur 9 injur+ 
me 9 h] good op9ion4 ,yet1 besides      
,emilius1 ) :i* %e *>g$ h]self1 %e gave 
me at ! same "t ano!r m>k ( h]          
b5evol5ce1 :i* made me imag9e t1 al?\gh 
we>i$ ) my conv]sation1 %e w\ld /ill    
pres]ve = me ! fri5d%ip %e _h s _m times
 promis$ me = life4  ,z soon z ,i ?\ght 
,i c\ld dep5d ^u ?is1 ,i began to ease  
my he>t1 by confess+ to h] all my       
faults1 hav+ made x an inviolable maxim 
to %[ myself to my fri5ds su* z ,i      
really 01 nei!r bett] nor worse4 ,i _h  
decl>$ to h] my connection ) ,!resa1 &  
ev]y?+ t _h result$ f x1 )\t conceal+ ! 

mann] 9 :i* ,i _h dispos$ ( my *ildr54  
,%e _h receiv$ my confessions favorably1
 & ev5 too mu* s1 s9ce %e sp>$ me !     
c5sures ,i s mu* m]it$2 & :at made !    
greate/ impression ^u me 0 h] goodness  
to ,!resa1 mak+ h] pres5ts1 s5d+ = h]1 &
 begg+ h] to come & see h]1 receiv+ h] )
 c>esses1 & (t5 embrac+ h] 9 public4    
,?is poor girl 0 9 transports ( joy &   
gratitude1 ( :i* ,i c]ta9ly p>took2 !   
fri5d%ip ,madam de ,luxemb\rg %[$ me 9  
h] condesc5sions to ,!resa affect$ me   
mu* m ?an if !y _h be5 made imm$iately  
to myself4  ,?+s rema9$ 9 ?is /ate = a  
consid]able "t2 b at l5g? ,madam de     
,luxemb\rg c>ri$ h] goodness s f> z to h
 a desire to take "o ( my *ildr5 f !    
hospital4 ,%e knew ,i _h put a ciph]    
into ! swaddl+ clo!s ( ! elde/2 %e ask$ 
me = ! c\nt]p>t ( ! ciph]1 & ,i gave x  
to h]4 ,9 ?is rese>* %e employ$ ,la     
,ro*e1 h] valet de *ambre & confid5tial 
s]vant1 :o made va9 inquiries1 al?\gh   
aft] only ab\t twelve or f\rte5 ye>s1 _h
 ! regi/]s ( ! f\ndl+ hospital be5 9    

ord]1 or ! se>* prop]ly made1 ! orig9al 
ciph] ought to h be5 f\nd4 ,h[ev] ?is   
may be1 ,i 0 less sorry = 8 want (      
success ?an ,i %\ld h be5 _h ,i f "t to 
"t cont9u$ to see ! *ild f its bir?     
until t mom5t4 ,if by ! aid ( !         
indications giv51 ano!r *ild _h be5     
pres5t$ z my own1 ! d\bt ( its be+ s 9  
fact1 & ! fe> ( hav+ "o ?us sub/itut$ = 
x1 w\ld h contract$ my affections1 & ,i 
%\ld n h ta/$ ( ! *>m ( ! real s5tim5t (
 nature4 ,?is dur+ infancy /&s 9 ne$ (  
be+ support$ by habit4 ,! long abs5ce ( 
a *ild :om ! fa!r has se5 b = an in/ant1
 weak5s1 & at l5g? annihilates pat]nal  
s5tim5t1 & p>5ts w nev] love a *ild s5t 
to nurse1 l t :i* is br\ght up "u _!    
eyes4 ,?is reflection may ext5uate my   
faults 9 _! effects1 b x mu/ aggravate  
!m 9 _! s\rce4  ,x may n p]haps be      
useless to rem>k t by ! means ( ,!resa1 
! same ,la ,ro*e became acqua9t$ )      
,madam le ,vasseur1 :om ,grimm /ill kept
 at ,deuil1 ne> ,la ,*evrette1 & n f> f 
,montmor5cy4  ,aft] my dep>ture x 0 by  

means ( ,la ,ro*e t ,i cont9u$ to s5d   
?is woman ! money ,i _h con/antly s5t h]
 at /at$ times1 & ,i am ( op9ion he (t5 
c>ri$ h] pres5ts f ,madam de ,luxemb\rg2
 !re=e %e c]ta9ly 0 n to be piti$1      
al?\gh %e con/antly compla9$4 ,) respect
 to ,grimm1 z ,i am n fond ( speak+ (   
p]sons :om ,i ought to hate1 ,i nev]    
m5tion$ 8 "n to ,madam de ,luxemb\rg1   
except :5 ,i c\ld n avoid x2 b %e       
frequ5tly made him ! subject (          
conv]sation1 )\t tell+ me :at %e ?\ght (
 ! man1 or lett+ me discov] :e!r or n he
 0 ( h] acqua9tance4 ,res]ve ) p ,i love
 & :o are op5 ) me be+ contr>y to my    
nature1 especially 9 ?+s relat+ to      
!mselves1 ,i h s9ce t "t frequ5tly ?\ght
 ( t ( ,madam de ,luxemb\rg2 b nev]1    
except :5 o!r ev5ts r5d]$ ! recollection
 natural4  ,hav+ wait$ a long "t )\t    
he>+ speak ( ,emilius1 aft] ,i _h giv5 x
 to ,madam de ,luxemb\rg1 ,i at la/ he>d
 ! agreem5t 0 made at ,p>is1 ) !        
booksell] ,du*esne1 & by him ) ,neaulme1
 ( ,am/]dam4 ,madam de ,luxemb\rg s5t me

 ! orig9al & ! duplicate ( my agreem5t )
 ,du*esne1 t ,i might sign !m4 ,i       
discov]$ ! writ+ to be by ! same h& z t 
( ! lett]s ( ,m4 de ,male%]bes1 :i* he  
himself did n write4 ,! c]ta9ty t my    
agreem5t 0 made by ! cons5t1 & "u ! eye 
( t magi/rate1 made me sign )\t         
hesitation4 ,du*esne gave me = !        
manuscript six ?\s& livres 7two hundr$ &
 fifty p\nds71 half 9 specie1 & "o or   
two hundr$ copies4 ,aft] hav+ sign$ !   
two p>ts1 ,i s5t !m bo? to ,madam de    
,luxemb\rg1 accord+ to h] desire2 %e    
gave "o to ,du*esne1 & in/ead ( return+ 
! o!r kept x h]self1 s t ,i nev] saw x  
aft]w>ds4  ,my acqua9tance ) ,m4 &      
,madam de ,luxemb\rg1 ?\gh x div]t$ me a
 little f my plan ( retirem5t1 did n    
make me entirely r5\nce x4 ,ev5 at ! "t 
,i 0 mo/ 9 favor ) ,madam de ,luxemb\rg1
 ,i always felt t no?+ b my s9c]e       
atta*m5t to ! m>e*al & h]self c\ld r5d] 
to me supportable ! p ) :om !y 7        
connect$1 & all ! difficulty ,i _h 0 9  
conciliat+ ?is atta*m5t ) a mann] ( life

 m agreeable to my incl9ation1 & less   
contr>y to my heal?1 :i* con/ra9t & late
 supp]s cont9ually d]ang$1 not)/&+ all !
 c>e tak5 to prev5t x2 = 9 ?is1 z 9     
ev]y?+ else1 att5tion 0 c>ri$ z f> z    
possible2 ?us1 = in/ance1 e ev5+ aft]   
supp] ! m>e*al1 :o w5t e>ly to b$1 nev] 
fail$1 not)/&+ ev]y?+ t c\ld be said to 
! contr>y1 to make me )draw at ! same   
"t4 ,x 0 n until "s little "t be=e my   
cata/rophe t1 = :at reason ,i "k n1 he  
ceas$ to pay me t att5tion4 ,be=e ,i    
p]ceiv$ ! coolness ( ,madam de          
,luxemb\rg1 ,i 0 desir\s1 t ,i might n  
expose myself to x1 to execute my old   
project2 b n hav+ ! means to t effect1  
,i 0 oblig$ to wait = ! conclusion ( !  
agreem5t = ',emilius'1 & 9 ! "t ,i f9i%$
 ! ',social ,contract'1 & s5t x to ,rey1
 fix+ ! price ( ! manuscript at a ?\s&  
livres 7=ty-"o p\nds71 :i* he paid me4  
,i ought n p]haps to omit a trifl+      
circum/ance relative to ?is manuscript4 
,i gave x1 well seal$ up1 to ,du ,vois91
 a m9i/] 9 ! pays de ,vaud & *apla9 at !

 ,hotel de ,holl&e1 :o sometimes came to
 see me1 & took ^u himself to s5d !     
packet to ,rey1 ) :om he 0 connect$4 ,! 
manuscript1 writt5 9 a small lett]1 0 b 
v trifl+1 & did n fill 8 pocket4 ,yet1 9
 pass+ ! b>ri]e1 ! packet fell1 ,i "k n 
by :at means1 into ! h&s ( ! ,commis1 :o
 op5$ & exam9$ x1 & aft]w>ds return$ x  
to him1 :5 he _h reclaim$ x 9 ! "n ( !  
ambassador4 ,?is gave him an opportunity
 ( read+ x himself1 :i* he +5i\sly wrote
 me he _h done1 speak+ highly ( ! "w1   
)\t suff]+ a ^w ( criticism or c5sure to
 escape him2 und\bt$ly res]v+ to himself
 to become ! av5g] ( ,*ri/ianity z soon 
z ! "w %\ld appe>4 ,he reseal$ ! packet 
& s5t x to ,rey4 ,su* is ! sub/ance ( 8 
n>rative 9 ! lett] 9 :i* he gave an     
acc\nt ( ! affair1 & is all ,i ev] knew 
( ! matt]4  ,besides ^! two books & my  
diction>y ( music1 at :i* ,i /ill did   
some?+ z opportunity (f]$1 ,i _h o!r    
works ( less importance ready to make _!
 appe>ance1 & :i* ,i propos$ to publi%  
ei!r sep>ately or 9 my g5]al collection1

 %\ld ,i ev] und]take x4 ,! pr9cipal (  
^! works1 mo/ ( :i* are /ill 9          
manuscript 9 ! h&s ( ,de ,peyr\1 0 an   
essay on ! orig9 ( ,languages1 :i* ,i _h
 read to ,m4 de ,male%]bes & ! ,*evali] 
de ,lor5zy1 :o spoke favorably ( x4 ,i  
expect$ all ! productions toge!r w\ld   
produce me a net capital ( f eight to t5
 ?\s& livres 7?ree to f\r hundr$ p\nds71
 :i* ,i int5d$ to s9k 9 annuities = my  
life & t ( ,!resa2 aft] :i*1 our design1
 z ,i h already m5tion$1 0 to g & live  
toge!r 9 ! mid/ ( "s prov9ce1 )\t fur!r 
tr\bl+ ! public ab\t me1 or myself ) any
 o!r project ?an t ( peacefully end+ my 
days & /ill cont9u+ to d 9 my           
neighborhood all ! good 9 my p[]1 & to  
write at leisure ! memoirs :i* ,i       
int5d$4  ,su* 0 my int5tion1 & !        
execution ( x 0 facilitat$ by an act (  
g5]osity 9 ,rey1 ^u :i* ,i _c be sil5t4 
,?is booksell]1 ( :om s _m unfavorable  
?+s 7 told me 9 ,p>is1 is1 not)/&+1 !   
only "o ) :om ,i h always _h reason to  
be satisfi$4 ,x is true1 we frequ5tly   

disagre$ z to ! execution ( my works4   
,he 0 he$less & ,i 0 *ol]ic2 b 9 matt]s 
( int]e/ :i* relat$ to !m1 al?\gh ,i    
nev] made ) him an agreem5t 9 =m1 ,i    
always f\nd 9 him great exactness &     
probity4 ,he is also ! only p]son ( 8   
pr(ession :o frankly confess$ to me he  
ga9$ l>gely by my means2 & he frequ5tly1
 :5 he (f]$ me a "p ( 8 =tune1 told me  
,i 0 ! au?or ( x all4 ,n f9d+ ! means ( 
ex]cis+ 8 gratitude imm$iately ^u       
myself1 he wi%$ at lea/ to give me pro(s
 ( x 9 ! p]son ( my gov]nante1 ^u :om he
 settl$ an annuity ( ?ree hundr$ livres 
7twelve p\nds71 express+ 9 ! de$ t x 0  
an ackn[l$gm5t = ! advantages ,i _h     
procur$ him4 ,?is he did betwe5 himself 
& me1 )\t o/5tation1 pret5sion1 or      
noise1 & _h n ,i spok5 ( x to anybody1 n
 a s+le p]son w\ld ev] h kn[n any?+ ( ! 
matt]4 ,i 0 s pleas$ ) ?is action t ,i  
became atta*$ to ,rey1 & conceiv$ = him 
a real fri5d%ip4 ,sometime aft]w>ds he  
desir$ ,i w\ld become godfa!r to "o ( 8 
*ildr52 ,i cons5t$1 & a "p ( my regret 9

 ! situation to :i* ,i am r$uc$1 is my  
be+ depriv$ ( ! means ( r5d]+ 9 future  
my atta*m5t ( my goddaught] useful to h]
 & h] p>5ts4 ,:y am ,i1 :o am s s5sible 
( ! mode/ g5]osity ( ?is booksell]1 s   
little s ( ! noisy eag]ness ( _m p]sons 
( ! highe/ rank1 :o pomp\sly fill ! _w )
 acc\nts ( ! s]vices !y say !y wi%$ to  
r5d] me1 b ! good effects ( :i* ,i nev] 
felt8 ,is x _! fault or m9e8 ,are !y    
no?+ m ?an va92 is my ins5sibility      
purely +ratitude8 ,intellig5t read]1    
weigh & det]m9e2 = my "p ,i say no m4   
,?is p5sion 0 a great res\rce to ,!resa 
& consid]able alleviation to me1 al?\gh 
,i 0 f> f receiv+ f x a direct          
advantage1 any m ?an f ! pres5ts t 7    
made h]4  ,%e h]self has always dispos$ 
( ev]y?+4 ,:5 ,i kept h] money ,i gave  
h] a fai?ful acc\nt ( x1 )\t ev] apply+ 
any "p ( ! deposit to our common        
exp5ses1 n ev5 :5 %e 0 ri*] ?an myself4 
,:at is m9e is ours1 said ,i to h]2 &   
:at is ?9e is ?9e4 ,i nev] dep>t$ f ?is 
maxim4 ,!y :o h _h ! bas5ess to accuse  

me ( receiv+ by h] h&s t :i* ,i refus$  
to take ) m9e1 und\bt$ly judg$ ( my he>t
 by _! own1 & knew b little ( me4 ,i    
w\ld will+ly eat ) h] ! bread %e %\ld h 
e>n$1 b n t %e %\ld h _h giv5 h]4 ,= a  
pro( ( ?is ,i appeal to h]self1 bo? n[ &
 h]eaft]1 :51 accord+ to ! c\rse (      
nature1 %e %all h surviv$ me4           
,un=tunately1 %e und]/&s b little (     
economy 9 any respect1 & is1 besides1   
c>eless & extravagant1 n f vanity nor   
gluttony1 b solely f neglig5ce4 ,no     
creature is p]fect "h bel[1 & s9ce !    
excell5t qualities mu/ be accompani$ )  
"s defects2 ,i pref] ^! to vices2 al?\gh
 h] defects are m prejudicial to u bo?4 
,! ef=ts ,i h made1 z =m]ly ,i did =    
mamma1 to accumulate some?+ 9 advance   
:i* might "s day be to h] a nev]-fail+  
res\rce1 are n to be conceiv$2 b my c>es
 7 always ineffectual4  ,nei!r ( ^! wom5
 ev] call$ !mselves to an acc\nt1 &1    
not)/&+ all my ef=ts1 ev]y?+ ,i acquir$ 
0 dissipat$ z fa/ z x came4 ,not)/&+ !  
great simplicity ( ,!resa's dress1 !    

p5sion f ,rey has nev] be5 suffici5t to 
buy h] clo!s1 & ,i h e ye> be5 "u !     
necessity ( add+ some?+ to x = t        
purpose4 ,we are nei!r ( u born to be   
ri*1 & ?is ,i c]ta9ly d n reckon among/ 
our mis=tunes4  ,! ',social ,contract' 0
 soon pr9t$4 ,?is 0 n ! case )          
',emilius'1 = ! publication ( :i* ,i    
wait$ to g into ! retirem5t ,i m$itat$4 
,du*esne1 f "t to "t1 s5t me specim5s ( 
impression to *oose f2 :5 ,i _h made my 
*oice1 in/ead ( beg9n+ he s5t me o!rs4  
,:51 at l5g?1 we 7 fully det]m9$ on !   
size & lett]1 & sev]al %eets 7 already  
pr9t$ (f1 on "s trifl+ alt]ation ,i made
 9 a pro(1 he began ! :ole aga92 & at ! 
end ( six mon?s we 7 9 less =w>dness ?an
 on ! fir/ day4 ,dur+ all ^! exp]im5ts  
,i cle>ly p]ceiv$ ! "w 0 pr9t+ 9 ,france
 z well z 9 ,holl&1 & t two editions ( x
 7 prep>+ at ! same "t4 ,:at c\ld ,i d8 
,! manuscript 0 no long] m9e4 ,f> f hav+
 any?+ to d ) ! edition 9 ,france1 ,i 0 
always aga9/ x2 b s9ce1 at l5g?1 ?is 0  
prep>+ 9 spite ( all opposition1 & 0 to 

s]ve z a model to ! o!r1 x 0 necess>y ,i
 %\ld ca/ my eyes ov] x & exam9e !      
pro(s1 t my "w might n be mutilat$4 ,x  
01 besides1 pr9t$ s mu* by ! cons5t ( ! 
magi/rate1 t x 0 he :o1 9 "s measure1   
direct$ ! und]tak+2 he likewise wrote to
 me frequ5tly1 & once came to see me &  
conv]se on ! subject ^u an occasion (   
:i* ,i am go+ to speak4  ,:il/ ,du*esne 
crept l a snail1 ,neaulme1 :om he )held1
 sc>cely mov$ at all4 ,! %eets 7 n      
regul>ly s5t him z !y 7 pr9t$4 ,he ?\ght
 !re 0 "s trick 9 ! manoeuvre (         
,du*esne1 t is1 ( ,guy :o act$ = him2 & 
p]ceiv+ ! t]ms ( ! agreem5t to be dep>t$
 f1 he wrote me lett] aft] lett] full ( 
compla9ts1 & x 0 less possible = me to  
remove ! subject ( !m ?an t ( ^? ,i     
myself _h to make4 ,8 fri5d ,gu]91 :o at
 t "t came frequ5tly to see my h\se1    
nev] ceas$ speak+ to me ab\t ! "w1 b    
always ) ! greate/ res]ve4 ,he knew & he
 did n "k t x 0 pr9t+ 9 ,france1 & t !  
magi/rate _h a h& 9 x4 ,9 express+ 8    
conc]n = my emb>rassm5t1 he seem$ to    

accuse me ( imprud5ce )\t ev] say+ 9 :at
 ?is consi/$2 he incessantly equivocat$1
 & seem$ to speak = no o!r purpose ?an  
to he> :at ,i _h to say4 ,i ?\ght myself
 s secure t ,i laugh$ at 8 my/]y &      
circumspection z at a habit he _h       
contract$ ) m9i/]s & magi/rates ^:      
(fices he mu* frequ5t$4 ,c]ta9 ( hav+   
con=m$ to e rule ) ! "w1 & /rongly      
p]suad$ t ,i _h n only ! cons5t &       
protection ( ! magi/rate1 b t ! book    
m]it$ & _h obta9$ ! favor ( ! m9i/]1 ,i 
congratulat$ myself ^u my c\rage 9 do+  
good1 & laugh$ at my pusillanim\s fri5ds
 :o seem$ uneasy on my acc\nt4 ,duclos 0
 "o ( ^!1 & ,i confess my confid5ce 9 8 
und]/&+ & uprightness might h al>m$ me1 
_h ,i _h less 9 ! utility ( ! "w & 9 !  
probity ( ^? by :om x 0 patroniz$4 ,he  
came f ! h\se ( ,m4 ,baille to see me   
:il/ ',emilius' 0 9 ! press2 he spoke to
 me conc]n+ x2 ,i read to him !         
',pr(ession ( ,fai? ( ! ,savoy>d ,vic>'1
 to :i* he li/5$ att5tively &1 z x seem$
 to me ) pleasure4 ,:5 ,i _h f9i%$ he   

said3 ,:at6 citiz51 ?is is a "p ( a "w  
n[ pr9t+ 9 ,p>is8--,yes1 answ]$ ,i1 & x 
ought to be pr9t$ at ! ,l\vre by ord] ( 
! k+4--,i confess x1 repli$ he2 b pray d
 n m5tion to anybody y\r hav+ read to me
 ?is fragm5t4  ,?is /rik+ mann] (       
express+ himself surpris$ )\t al>m+ me4 
,i knew ,duclos 0 intimate ) ,m4 de     
,male%]bes1 & ,i c\ld n conceive h[ x 0 
possible he %\ld ?9k s diff]5tly f him  
^u ! same subject4  ,i _h liv$ at       
,montmor5cy = ! la/ f\r ye>s )\t ev]    
hav+ _h !re "o day ( good heal?4 ,al?\gh
 ! air is excell5t1 ! wat] is bad1 & ?is
 may possibly be "o ( ! causes :i*      
contribut$ to increase my habitual      
compla9ts4 ,t[>ds ! end ( ! autumn (    
#agfg1 ,i fell q ill1 & pass$ ! :ole    
w9t] 9 suff]+ almo/ )\t int]mission4 ,! 
physical ill1 augm5t$ by a ?\s&         
inquietudes1 r5d]$ ^! t]rible4 ,= "s "t 
pa/ my m9d _h be5 di/urb$ by melan*oly  
=ebod+s )\t my kn[+ to :at ^! directly  
t5d$4 ,i receiv$ anonym\s lett]s ( an   
extraord9>y nature1 & o!rs1 t 7 sign$1  

mu* ( ! same import4 ,i receiv$ "o f a  
c\nsellor ( ! p>liam5t ( ,p>is1 :o1     
dissatisfi$ ) ! pres5t con/itution (    
?+s1 & =esee+ no?+ b disagreeable ev5ts1
 consult$ me ^u ! *oice ( an asylum at  
,g5eva or 9 ,switz]l&1 to retire to ) 8 
family4 ,ano!r 0 br\ght me f ,m4 de     
-----1 'presid5t a morti]' ( ! p>liam5t 
( -----1 :o propos$ to me to draw up =  
?is ,p>liam5t1 :i* 0 !n at v>iance ) !  
c\rt1 memoirs & remon/rances1 & (f]+ to 
furni% me ) all ! docum5ts & mat]ials   
necess>y = t purpose4  ,:5 ,i suff] ,i  
am subject to ill humor4 ,?is 0 ! case  
:5 ,i receiv$ ^! lett]s1 & my answ]s to 
!m1 9 :i* ,i flatly refus$ ev]y?+ t 0   
ask$ ( me1 bore /rong m>ks ( ! effect !y
 _h _h ^u my m9d4 ,i d n h[ev] reproa*  
myself ) ?is refusal1 z ! lett]s might  
be s _m sn>es laid by my enemies1 & :at 
0 requir$ ( me 0 contr>y to ! pr9ciples 
f :i* ,i 0 less will+ ?an ev] to sw]ve4 
,b hav+ x )9 my p[] to refuse )         
polit5ess ,i did x ) rud5ess1 & 9 ?is   
consi/s my error4       ,i knew1 =      

in/ance1 ! ,presid5t de ----- to be     
connect$ )      ! ,encyclop$i/s & !     
,holba*i5s4  ,! two lett]s ( :i* ,i h j 
spok5 w be f\nd among/ my pap]s4 ,!     
lett] f ! *ancellor did n absolutely    
surprise me1 because ,i agre$ ) him 9   
op9ion1 & ) _m o!rs1 t ! decl9+         
con/itution ( ,france ?reat5$ an        
approa*+ de/ruction4 ,! disa/]s ( an    
unsuccessful w>1 all ( :i* proce$$ f a  
fault 9 ! gov]nm5t2 ! incr$ible         
confusion 9 ! f9ances2 ! p]petual draw+s
 ^u ! treasury by ! adm9i/ration1 :i* 0 
!n divid$ betwe5 two or ?ree m9i/]s1    
among/ :om reign$ no?+ b discord1 & :o1 
to c\nt]act ! op]ations ( ea* o!r1 let !
 k+dom g to ru92 ! discont5t ( ! p1 & ( 
e o!r rank ( subjects2 ! ob/9acy ( a    
woman :o1 con/antly sacrific+ h]        
judgm5t1 if %e inde$ possess$ any1 to h]
 incl9ations1 kept f public employm5t   
p]sons capable ( dis*>g+ ! duties ( !m1 
to place 9 !m su* z pleas$ h] be/2      
ev]y?+ occurr$ 9 ju/ify+ ! =esight ( !  
c\nsellor1 t ( ! public1 & my own4 ,?is1

 made me sev]al times consid] :e!r or n 
,i myself %\ld seek an asylum out ( !   
k+dom be=e x 0 torn by ! diss5sions by  
:i* x seem$ to be ?reat5$2 b reliev$ f  
my fe>s by my insignificance1 & !       
peacefulness ( my disposition1 ,i ?\ght 
t 9 ! /ate ( solitude 9 :i* ,i 0 det]m9$
 to live1 no public commotion c\ld rea* 
me4 ,i 0 sorry only t1 9 ?is /ate ( ?+s1
 ,m4 de ,luxemb\rg %\ld accept          
commissions :i* t5d$ to injure him 9 !  
op9ion ( ! p]sons ( ! place ( :i* he 0  
gov]nor4 ,i c\ld h wi%$ he _h prep>$    
himself a retreat !re1 9 case ! great   
ma*9e _h fall5 9 pieces1 :i* seem$ mu*  
to be appreh5d$2 & /ill appe>s to me    
beyond a d\bt1 t if ! re9s ( gov]nm5t _h
 n fall5 into a s+le h&1 ! ,fr5* mon>*y 
w\ld n[ be at ! la/ gasp4  ,:il/ my     
situation became worse ! pr9t+ (        
',emilius' w5t on m sl[ly1 & 0 at l5g?  
susp5d$ )\t my be+ able to le>n ! reason
 :y2 ,guy did n deign to answ] my lett] 
( inquiry1 & ,i c\ld obta9 no in=mation 
f any p]son ( :at 0 go+ =w>d1 ,m4 de    

,male%]bes be+ !n 9 ! c\ntry4 ,a        
mis=tune nev] makes me uneasy provid$ ,i
 "k 9 :at x consi/s2 b x is my nature to
 be afraid ( d>kness1 ,i tremble at !   
appe>ance ( x2 my/]y always gives me    
inquietude1 x is too opposite to my     
natural disposition1 9 :i* !re is an    
op5ness bord]+ on imprud5ce4 ,! sight ( 
! mo/ hide\s mon/] w\ld1 ,i am ( op9ion1
 al>m me b little2 b if by night ,i 7 to
 see a figure 9 a :ite %eet ,i %\ld be  
afraid ( x4 ,my imag9ation1 wr\ght ^u by
 ?is long sil5ce1 0 n[ employ$ 9 creat+ 
phantoms4 ,i torm5t$ myself ! m 9       
endeavor+ to discov] ! imp$im5t to !    
pr9t+ ( my la/ & be/ production1 z ,i _h
 ! publication ( x mu* at he>t2 & z ,i  
always c>ri$ ev]y?+ to an extreme1 ,i   
imag9$ t ,i p]ceiv$ 9 ! susp5sion !     
suppression ( ! "w4 ,yet1 be+ unable to 
discov] ei!r ! cause or mann] ( x1 ,i   
rema9$ 9 ! mo/ cruel /ate ( susp5se4 ,i 
wrote lett] aft] lett] to ,guy1 to ,m4  
de ,male%]bes & to ,madam de ,luxemb\rg1
 & n receiv+ answ]s1 at lea/ :5 ,i      

expect$ !m1 my head became s affect$ t  
,i 0 n f> f a delirium4 ,i un=tunately  
he>d t ,fa!r ,griffet1 a ,jesuit1 _h    
spok5 ( ',emilius' & repeat$ f x "s     
passages4 ,my imag9ation in/antly       
unveil$ to me ! my/]y ( iniquity2 ,i saw
 ! :ole progress ( x z cle>ly z if x _h 
be5 reveal$ to me4 ,i figur$ to myself t
 ! ,jesuits1 furi\s on acc\nt ( !       
contemptu\s mann] 9 :i* ,i _h spok5 (   
colleges1 7 9 possession ( my "w2 t x 0 
!y :o _h delay$ ! publication2 t1 in=m$ 
by _! fri5d ,gu]9 ( my situation1 &     
=esee+ my approa*+ dissolution1 ( :i* ,i
 myself _h no mann] ( d\bt1 !y wi%$ to  
delay ! appe>ance ( ! "w until aft] t   
ev5t1 ) an int5tion to curtail &        
mutilate x1 & 9 favor ( _! own views1 to
 attribute to me s5tim5ts n my own4 ,!  
numb] ( facts & circum/ances :i* occurr$
 to my m9d1 9 confirmation ( ?is silly  
proposition1 & gave x an appe>ance (    
tru? support$ by evid5ce & demon/ration1
 is a/oni%+4 ,i knew ,gu]9 to be        
entirely 9 ! int]e/ ( ! ,jesuits4 ,i    

attribut$ to !m all ! fri5dly advances  
he _h made me2 ,i 0 p]suad$ he _h1 by _!
 entreaties1 press$ me to engage )      
,neaulme1 :o _h giv5 !m ! fir/ %eets (  
my "w2 t !y _h aft]w>ds f\nd means to   
/op ! pr9t+ ( x by ,du*esne1 & p]haps to
 get possession ( ! manuscript to make  
su* alt]ations 9 x z !y %\ld ?9k prop]1 
t aft] my dea? !y might publi% x        
disguis$ 9 _! own mann]4 ,i _h always   
p]ceiv$1 not)/&+ ! :e$l+ ( ,fa!r ,b]?i]1
 t ! ,jesuits did n l me1 n only z an   
,encyclop$i/1 b because all my pr9ciples
 7 m 9 opposition to _! maxims &        
influ5ce ?an ! incr$ulity ( my          
colleagues1 s9ce a!i/ical & dev\t       
fanaticism1 approa*+ ea* o!r by _!      
common enmity to tol]ation1 may become  
unit$2 a pro( ( :i* is se5 9 ,*9a1 & 9 !
 cabal aga9/ myself2 :]eas religion1 bo?
 reasonable & moral1 tak+ away all p[]  
ov] ! consci5ce1 deprives ^? :o assume t
 p[] ( e res\rce4 ,i knew ! *ancellor 0 
a great fri5d to ! ,jesuits1 & ,i _h my 
fe>s less ! son1 intimidat$ by ! fa!r1  

%\ld f9d himself "u ! necessity ( ab&on+
 ! "w he _h protect$4 ,i besides imag9$ 
t ,i p]ceiv$ ?is to be ! case 9 !       
*ican]y employ$ aga9/ me relative to !  
fir/ two volumes1 9 :i* alt]ations 7    
requir$ = reasons ( :i* ,i c\ld n feel !
 =ce2 :il/ ! o!r two volumes 7 kn[n to  
conta9 ?+s ( su* a nature z1 _h ! c5sor 
object$ to !m 9 ! mann] he did to !     
passages he ?\ght exceptionable 9 !     
o!rs1 w\ld h requir$ _! be+ entirely    
writt5 ov] aga94 ,i also und]/ood1 & ,m4
 de ,male%]bes himself told me ( x1 t ! 
,abbe de ,grave1 :om he _h *>g$ ) !     
inspection ( ?is edition1 0 ano!r       
p>tisan ( ! ,jesuits4 ,i saw no?+ b     
,jesuits1 )\t consid]+ t1 ^u ! po9t (   
be+ suppress$1 & :olly tak5 up 9 mak+ _!
 def5ce1 !y _h some?+ :i* int]e/$ !m mu*
 m ?an ! cavill+s relative to a "w 9 :i*
 !y 7 n 9 "q4 ,i am wrong1 h[ev]1 9 say+
 ?is did n occur to me2 = ,i really     
?\ght ( x1 & ,m4 de ,male%]bes took c>e 
to make ! obs]vation to me ! mom5t he   
he>d ( my extravagant suspicions4 ,b by 

ano!r ( ^? absurdities ( a man1 :o1 f ! 
bosom ( obscurity1 w absolutely judge ( 
! secret ( great affairs1 ) :i* he is   
totally unacqua9t$4 ,i nev] c\ld br+    
myself to believe ! ,jesuits 7 9 dang]1 
& ,i consid]$ ! rumor ( _! suppression z
 an artful manoeuvre ( _! own to deceive
 _! adv]s>ies4 ,_! pa/ successes1 :i* _h
 be5 un9t]rupt$1 gave me s t]rible an   
idea ( ! p[]1 t ,i already 0 griev$ at !
 ov]?r[ ( ! p>liam5t4 ,i knew ,m4 de    
,*oiseul _h prosecut$ 8 /udies "u !     
,jesuits1 t ,madam de ,pompad\r 0 n ^u  
bad t]ms ) !m1 & t _! league ) favorites
 & m9i/]s _h con/antly appe>$           
advantage\s to _! ord] aga9/ _! common  
enemies4 ,! c\rt seem$ to rema9 neutral1
 & p]suad$ z ,i 0 t %\ld ! society      
receive a sev]e *eck x w\ld n come f !  
p>liam5t1 ,i saw 9 ! inaction ( gov]nm5t
 ! gr\nd ( _! confid5ce & ! om5 ( _!    
triumph4 ,9 f9e1 p]ceiv+ 9 ! rumors ( ! 
day no?+ m ?an art & dissimulation on _!
 "p1 & ?9k+ !y1 9 _! /ate ( security1 _h
 "t to wat* ov] all _! int]e/s1 ,i _h _h

 n ! lea/ d\bt ( _! %ortly cru%+        
,jans5ism1 ! p>liam5t & ! ,encyclop$i/s1
 ) e o!r association :i* %\ld n submit  
to _! yoke2 & t if !y ev] suff]$ my "w  
to appe>1 ?is w\ld n happ5 until x %\ld 
be s trans=m$ z to favor _! pret5sions1 
& ?us make use ( my "n ! bett] to       
deceive my read]s4  ,i felt my heal? &  
/r5g? decl9e2 & su* 0 ! horror ) :i* my 
m9d 0 fill$1 at ! idea ( di%onor to my  
memory 9 ! "w mo/ wor?y ( myself1 t ,i  
am surpris$ s _m extravagant ideas did n
 occasion a spe$y end to my exi/5ce4 ,i 
nev] 0 s mu* afraid ( dea? z at ?is "t1 
& _h ,i di$ ) ! appreh5sions ,i !n _h ^u
 my m9d1 ,i %\ld h di$ 9 despair4 ,at   
pres5t1 al?\gh ,i p]ceive no ob/acle to 
! execution ( ! blacke/ & mo/ dreadful  
conspiracy ev] =m$ aga9/ ! memory ( a   
man1 ,i %all die mu* m 9 peace1 c]ta9 ( 
leav+ 9 my writ+s a te/imony 9 my favor1
 & "o :i*1 soon] or lat]1 w triumph ov] 
! calumnies ( mank9d4  ,m4 de           
,male%]bes1 :o discov]$ ! agitation ( my
 m9d1 & to :om ,i ackn[l$g$ x1 us$ su*  

endeavors to re/ore me to tranquility z 
prov$ 8 excessive goodness ( he>t4      
,madam de ,luxemb\rg aid$ him 9 8 good  
"w1 & sev]al times w5t to ,du*esne to "k
 9 :at /ate ! edition 04 ,at l5g? !     
impression 0 aga9 begun1 & ! progress ( 
x became m rapid ?an ev]1 )\t my kn[+ = 
:at reason x _h be5 susp5d$4 ,m4 de     
,male%]bes took ! tr\ble to come to     
,montmor5cy to calm my m9d2 9 ?is he    
succe$$1 & ! full confid5ce ,i _h 9 8   
uprightness hav+ ov]come ! d]angem5t (  
my poor head1 gave efficacy to !        
endeavors he made to re/ore x4 ,aft] :at
 he _h se5 ( my angui% & delirium1 x 0  
natural he %\ld ?9k ,i 0 to be piti$2 & 
he really commis]at$ my situation4 ,!   
expressions1 incessantly repeat$1 ( !   
philosophical cabal by :i* he 0         
surr\nd$1 occurr$ to 8 memory4 ,:5 ,i   
w5t to live at ! ,h]mitage1 !y1 z ,i h  
already rem>k$1 said ,i %\ld n rema9 !re
 long4 ,:5 !y saw ,i p]sev]$1 !y *>g$ me
 ) ob/9acy & pride1 proce$+ f a want (  
c\rage to retract1 & insi/$ t my life 0 

!re a burd5 to me2 9 %ort1 t ,i 0 v     
wret*$4 ,m4 de ,male%]bes believ$ ?is   
really to be ! case1 & wrote to me ^u ! 
subject4 ,?is error 9 a man = :om ,i _h 
s mu* e/eem gave me "s pa91 & ,i wrote  
to him f\r lett]s successively1 9 :i* ,i
 /at$ ! real motives ( my conduct1 &    
made him fully acqua9t$ ) my ta/e1      
incl9ation & "*1 & ) ! mo/ int]ior      
s5tim5ts ( my he>t4 ,^! lett]s1 writt5  
ha/ily1 almo/ )\t tak+ p5 f pap]1 & :i* 
,i nei!r copi$1 correct$1 nor ev5 read1 
are p]haps ! only ?+s ,i ev] wrote )    
facility1 :i*1 9 ! mid/ ( my suff]+s1 01
 ,i ?9k1 a/oni%+4 ,i sigh$1 z ,i felt   
myself decl9+1 at ! ?\ght ( leav+ 9 !   
mid/ ( hone/ m5 an op9ion ( me s f> f   
tru?2 & by ! sket* ha/ily giv5 9 my f\r 
lett]s1 ,i endeavor$1 9 "s measure1 to  
sub/itute !m to ! memoirs ,i _h propos$ 
to write4 ,!y are expressive ( my grief 
to ,m4 de ,male%]bes1 :o %[$ !m 9 ,p>is1
 & are1 besides1 a k9d ( summ>y ( :at ,i
 "h give 9 detail1 &1 on ?is acc\nt1    
m]it pres]vation4 ,! copy ,i begg$ ( !m 

"s ye>s aft]w>ds w be f\nd among/ my    
pap]s4  ,! only ?+ :i* cont9u$ to give  
me pa91 9 ! idea ( my approa*+          
dissolution1 0 my n hav+ a man ( lett]s 
= a fri5d1 to :om ,i c\ld confide my    
pap]s1 t aft] my dea? he might take a   
prop] *oice ( su* z 7 wor?y (           
publication4  ,aft] my j\rney to ,g5eva1
 ,i conceiv$ a fri5d%ip = ,m\lt\2 ?is "y
 man pleas$ me1 & ,i c\ld h wi%$ him to 
receive my la/ brea?4 ,i express$ to him
 ?is desire1 & am ( op9ion he w\ld      
readily h compli$ ) x1 _h n 8 affairs   
prev5t$ him f s do+4 ,depriv$ ( ?is     
consolation1 ,i /ill wi%$ to give him a 
m>k ( my confid5ce by s5d+ him !        
',pr(ession ( ,fai? ( ! ,savoy>d ,vic>' 
be=e x 0 publi%$4 ,he 0 pleas$ ) ! "w1 b
 did n 9 8 answ] seem s fully to expect 
f x ! effect ( :i* ,i _h b little d\bt4 
,he wi%$ to receive f me "s fragm5t :i* 
,i _h n giv5 to anybody else4 ,i s5t him
 ! fun]al oration ( ! late ,duke (      
,orleans2 ?is ,i _h writt5 = ! ,abbe    
,d>ty1 :o _h n pron\nc$ x1 because1     

contr>y to 8 expectation1 ano!r p]son 0 
appo9t$ to p]=m t c]emony4  ,! pr9t+ (  
,emilius1 aft] hav+ be5 aga9 tak5 9 h&1 
0 cont9u$ & complet$ )\t mu* difficulty2
 & ,i rem>k$ ?is s+ul>ity1 t aft] !     
curtail+s s mu* insi/$ ^u 9 ! fir/ two  
volumes1 ! la/ two 7 pass$ ov] )\t an   
objection1 & _! cont5ts did n delay !   
publication = a mom5t4 ,i _h1 h[ev]1 "s 
uneas9ess :i* ,i mu/ n pass ov] 9       
sil5ce4 ,aft] hav+ be5 afraid ( !       
,jesuits1 ,i begun to fe> ! ,jans5i/s & 
philosoph]s4 ,an enemy to p>ty1 faction 
& cabal1 ,i nev] he>d ! lea/ good (     
p>ties conc]n$ 9 !m4 ,! gossips _h      
quitt$ _! old abode & tak5 up _!        
resid5ce by ! side ( me1 s t 9 _! *amb]1
 ev]y?+ said 9 m9e1 & ^u ! t]race1 0    
di/9ctly he>d2 & f _! g>d5 x w\ld h be5 
easy to scale ! l[ wall by :i* x 0      
sep>at$ f my alcove4 ,?is 0 become my   
/udy2 my table 0 cov]$ ) pro(%eets (    
,emilius & ! ,social ,contract & /it*+  
^! %eets z !y 7 s5t to me1 ,i _h all my 
volumes a long "t be=e !y 7 publi%$4 ,my

 neglig5ce & ! confid5ce ,i _h 9 ,m4    
,ma?as1 9 ^: g>d5 ,i 0 %ut up1 frequ5tly
 made me =get to lock ! door at night1 &
 9 ! morn+ ,i sev]al times f\nd x wide  
op52 ?is1 h[ev]1 w\ld n h giv5 me ! lea/
 inquietude _h ,i n ?\ght my pap]s seem$
 to h be5 d]ang$4 ,aft] hav+ sev]al     
times made ! same rem>k1 ,i became m    
c>eful1 & lock$ ! door4 ,! lock 0 a bad 
"o1 & ! key turn$ 9 x no m ?an half     
r\nd4 ,z ,i became m att5tive1 ,i f\nd  
my pap]s 9 a mu* great] confusion ?an !y
 7 :5 ,i left ev]y?+ op54 ,at l5g? ,i   
miss$ "o ( my volumes )\t kn[+ :at 0    
become ( x until ! morn+ ( ! ?ird day1  
:5 ,i aga9 f\nd x ^u ! table4 ,i nev]   
suspect$ ei!r ,m4 ,ma?as or 8 nephew ,m4
 du ,m\l91 kn[+ myself to be belov$ by  
bo?1 & my confid5ce 9 !m 0 unb\nd$4 ,t  
,i _h 9 ! gossips began to dim9i%4      
,al?\gh !y 7 ,jans5i/s1 ,i knew !m to h 
"s connection ) ,d' ,alemb]t1 & moreov] 
!y all ?ree lodg$ 9 ! same h\se4 ,?is   
gave me "s uneas9ess1 & put me m ^u my  
gu>d4 ,i remov$ my pap]s f ! alcove to  

my *amb]1 & dropp$ my acqua9tance ) ^!  
p1 hav+ le>n$ !y _h %[n 9 sev]al h\ses !
 fir/ volume ( ',emilius'1 :i* ,i _h be5
 imprud5t en\gh to l5d !m4 ,al?\gh !y   
cont9u$ until my dep>ture to be my      
neighbors ,i nev]1 aft] my fir/         
suspicions1 _h ! lea/ communication )   
!m4 ,! ',social ,contract' appe>$ a mon?
 or two be=e ',emilius'4 ,rey1 :om ,i _h
 desir$ nev] secretly to introduce into 
,france any ( my books1 appli$ to !     
magi/rate = leave to s5d ?is book by    
,r\51 to :i* place he s5t 8 package by  
sea4 ,he receiv$ no answ]1 & 8 bales1   
aft] rema9+ at ,r\5 sev]al mon?s1 7     
return$ to him1 b n until an attempt _h 
be5 made to confiscate !m2 ?is1         
probably1 w\ld h be5 done _h n he made a
 great clamor4 ,sev]al p]sons1 ^:       
curiosity ! "w _h excit$1 s5t to        
,am/]dam = copies1 :i* 7 circulat$ )\t  
be+ mu* notic$4 ,maulion1 :o _h he>d (  
?is1 & _h1 ,i believe1 se5 ! "w1 spoke  
to me on ! subject ) an air ( my/]y :i* 
surpris$ me1 & w\ld likewise h made me  

uneasy if1 c]ta9 ( hav+ con=m$ to e     
rule1 ,i _h n by virtue ( my gr& maxim1 
kept my m9d calm4 ,i moreov] _h no d\bt 
b ,m4 de ,*oiseul1 already well dispos$ 
t[>ds me1 & s5sible ( ! eulogium ( 8    
adm9i/ration1 :i* my e/eem = him _h     
induc$ me to make 9 ! "w1 w\ld support  
me aga9/ ! malevol5ce ( ,madam de       
,pompad\r4  ,i c]ta9ly _h !n z mu*      
reason z ev] to hope = ! goodness ( ,m4 
de ,luxemb\rg1 & ev5 = 8 assi/ance 9    
case ( ne$2 = he nev] at any "t _h giv5 
me m frequ5t & m po9t$ m>ks ( 8         
fri5d%ip4 ,at ! j\rney ( ,ea/]1 my      
melan*oly /ate no long] p]mitt+ me to g 
to ! ca/le1 he nev] suff]$ a day to pass
 )\t com+ to see me1 & at l5g?1 p]ceiv+ 
my suff]+s to be incessant1 he prevail$ 
^u me to det]m9e to see ,fri> ,come4 ,he
 imm$iately s5t = him1 came ) him1 & _h 
! c\rage1 uncommon to a man ( 8 rank1 to
 rema9 ) me dur+ ! op]ation :i* 0 cruel 
& t$i\s4 ,^u ! fir/ exam9ation1 ,come   
?\ght he f\nd a great /one1 & told me s2
 at ! second1 he c\ld n f9d x aga94     

,aft] hav+ made a ?ird attempt ) s mu*  
c>e & circumspection t ,i ?\ght ! "t    
long1 he decl>$ !re 0 no /one1 b t !    
pro/ate gl& 0 s*irr\s & consid]ably     
?ick5$4 ,he besides add$1 t ,i _h a     
great deal to suff]1 & %\ld live a long 
"t4 ,%\ld ! second pr$iction be z fully 
accompli%$ z ! fir/1 my suff]+s are f> f
 be+ at an end4  ,x 0 ?us ,i le>n$ aft] 
hav+ be5 s _m ye>s treat$ = disord]s :i*
 ,i nev] _h1 t my incurable disease1 )\t
 be+ mortal1 w\ld la/ z long z myself4  
,my imag9ation1 repress$ by ?is         
in=mation1 no long] pres5t$ to me 9     
prospective a cruel dea? 9 ! agonies ( !
 /one4  ,deliv]$ f imag9>y evils1 m     
cruel to me ?an ^? :i* 7 real1 ,i m     
pati5tly suff]$ ! latt]4 ,x is c]ta9 ,i 
h s9ce suff]$ less f my disord] ?an ,i  
_h done be=e1 & e "t ,i recollect t ,i  
owe ?is alleviation to ,m4 de           
,luxemb\rg1 8 memory becomes m de> to   
me4  ,re/or$1 z ,i may say1 to life1 & m
 ?an ev] occupi$ ) ! plan accord+ to :i*
 ,i 0 det]m9$ to pass ! re/ ( my days1  

all ! ob/acle to ! imm$iate execution ( 
my design 0 ! publication ( ',emilius'4 
,i ?\ght ( ,t\ra9e :]e ,i _h already be5
 & :i* pleas$ me mu*1 z well on acc\nt (
 ! mildness ( ! climate1 z on t ( ! "* (
 ! inhabitants4                     ',la
 t]ra molle lieta a dilettosa           
,simile a se l'habitator produce4'  ,i  
_h already spok5 ( my project to ,m4 de 
,luxemb\rg1 :o endeavor$ to dissuade me 
f x2 ,i m5tion$ x to him a second "t z a
 ?+ resolv$ ^u4 ,he !n (f]$ me ! ca/le (
 ,m]lon1 fifte5 leagues f ,p>is1 z an   
asylum :i* might be agreeable to me1 &  
:]e he & ,madam de ,luxemb\rg w\ld h a  
real pleasure 9 see+ me settl$4 ,!      
proposition made a pleas+ impression on 
my m9d4 ,b ! fir/ ?+ necess>y 0 to see !
 place1 & we agre$ ^u a day :5 ! m>e*al 
0 to s5d 8 valet de *ambre ) a c>riage  
to take me to x4 ,on ! day appo9t$1 ,i 0
 mu* indispos$2 ! j\rney 0 po/pon$1 &   
diff]5t circum/ances prev5t$ me f ev]   
mak+ x4 ,i h s9ce le>n$ ! e/ate ( ,m]l\ 
did n belong to ! m>e*al b to 8 lady1 on

 :i* acc\nt ,i 0 ! less sorry ,i _h n   
gone to live !re4  ',emilius' 0 at l5g? 
giv5 to ! public1 )\t my hav+ he>d fur!r
 ( retr5*m5ts or difficulties4 ,previ\s 
to ! publication1 ! m>e*al ask$ me = all
 ! lett]s ,m4 de ,male%]bes _h writt5 to
 me on ! subject ( ! "w4 ,my great      
confid5ce 9 bo?1 & ! p]fect security 9  
:i* ,i felt myself1 prev5t$ me f        
reflect+ ^u ?is extraord9>y & ev5 al>m+ 
reque/4 ,i return$ all ! lett]s except+ 
"o or two :i*1 f inatt5tion1 7 left     
betwe5 ! leaves ( a book4 ,a little "t  
be=e ?is1 ,m4 de ,male%]bes told me he  
%\ld )draw ! lett]s ,i _h writt5 to     
,du*esne dur+ my al>m relative to !     
,jesuits1 &1 x mu/ be confess$1 ^!      
lett]s did no great honor to my reason4 
,b 9 my answ] ,i assur$ him ,i w\ld n 9 
any?+ pass = be+ bett] ?an ,i 01 & t he 
might leave ! lett]s :]e !y 74 ,i "k n  
:at he resolv$ ^u4  ,! publication ( ?is
 "w 0 n succe$$ by ! applause :i* _h    
foll[$ t ( all my o!r writ+s4 ,no "w 0  
ev] m highly spok5 ( 9 private1 nor _h  

any lit]>y production ev] _h less public
 approbation4 ,:at 0 said & writt5 to me
 ^u ! subject by p]sons mo/ capable (   
judg+1 confirm$ me 9 my op9ion t x 0 !  
be/1 z well z ! mo/ important ( all !   
works ,i _h produc$4 ,b ev]y?+ favorable
 0 said ) an air ( ! mo/ extraord9>y    
my/]y1 z if !re _h be5 a necessity (    
keep+ x a secret4 ,madam de ,b\ffl]s1 :o
 wrote to me t ! au?or ( ! "w m]it$ a   
/atue1 & ! homage ( mank9d1 at ! end (  
h] lett] desir$ x might be return$ to   
h]4 ,d',alemb]t1 :o 9 8 note said ! "w  
gave me a decid$ sup]iority1 & ought to 
place me at ! head ( m5 ( lett]s1 did n 
sign :at he wrote1 al?\gh he _h sign$ e 
note ,i _h be=e receiv$ f him4 ,duclos1 
a sure fri5d1 a man ( v]acity1 b        
circumspect1 al?\gh he _h a good op9ion 
( ! "w1 avoid$ m5tion+ x 9 8 lett]s to  
me4 ,la ,condom9e fell ^u ! ,confession 
( ,fai?1 & w&]$ f ! subject4 ,clairaut  
conf9$ himself to ! same "p2 b he 0 n   
afraid ( express+ to me ! emotion :i* ! 
read+ ( x _h caus$ 9 him1 & 9 ! mo/     

direct t]ms wrote to me t x _h w>m$ 8   
old imag9ation3 ( all ^? to :om ,i _h   
s5t my book1 he 0 ! only p]son :o spoke 
freely :at he ?\ght ( x4  ,ma?as1 to :om
 ,i also _h giv5 a copy be=e !          
publication1 l5t x to ,m4 de ,blaire1   
c\nsellor 9 ! p>liam5t ( ,/rasb\rg4 ,m4 
de ,blaire _h a c\ntry-h\se at ,/4      
,grati51 & ,ma?as1 8 old acqua9tance1   
sometimes w5t to see him !re4 ,he made  
him read ,emilius be=e x 0 publi%$4 ,:5 
he return$ x to him1 ,m4 de ,blaire     
express$ himself 9 ! foll[+ t]ms1 :i* 7 
repeat$ to me ! same day3 ,m4 ,ma?as1   
?is is a v f9e "w1 b x w 9 a %ort "t be 
spok5 ( m ?an1 = ! au?or1 might be wi%$4
 ,i laugh$ at ! pr$iction1 & saw 9 x    
no?+ m ?an ! importance ( a man ( !     
robe1 :o treats ev]y?+ ) an air ( my/]y4
 ,all ! al>m+ obs]vations repeat$ to me 
made no impression ^u my m9d1 &1 f> f   
=esee+ ! cata/rophe s ne> at h&1 c]ta9 (
 ! utility & excell5ce ( my "w1 & t ,i  
_h 9 e respect con=m$ to e/abli%$ rules2
 conv9c$1 z ,i ?\ght ,i 0 t ,i %\ld be  

support$ by all ! cr$it ( ,m4 de        
,luxemb\rg & ! favor ( ! m9i/ry1 ,i 0   
satisfi$ ) myself = ! resolution ,i _h  
tak5 to retire 9 ! mid/ ( my triumphs1 &
 at my return to cru% ^? by :om ,i 0    
envi$4  ,"o ?+ 9 ! publication ( ! "w   
al>m$ me1 less on acc\nt ( my safety ?an
 = ! unburd5+ ( my m9d4 ,at ! ,h]mitage 
& at ,montmor5cy ,i _h se5 ) indignation
 ! vexations :i* ! jeal\s c>e ( !       
pleasures ( pr9ces causes to be ex]cis$ 
on wret*$ peasants1 =c$ to suff] ! havoc
 made by game 9 _! fields1 )\t d>+ to   
take any o!r measure to prev5t ?is      
deva/ation ?an t ( mak+ a noise1 pass+ !
 night among/ ! beans & peas1 ) drums1  
kettles & bells1 to keep (f ! wild bo>s4
 ,z ,i _h be5 a witness to ! b>b>\s     
cruelty ) :i* ! ,comte de ,*>olois      
treat$ ^! poor p1 ,i _h t[>d ! end (    
,emilius exclaim$ aga9/ x4 ,?is 0 ano!r 
infraction ( my maxims1 :i* has n rema9$
 unpuni%$4 ,i 0 in=m$ t ! p ( ! ,pr9ce (
 ,conti 7 b little less sev]e ^u 8      
e/ates2 ,i trembl$ le/ t pr9ce1 = :om ,i

 0 p5etrat$ ) respect & gratitude1 %\ld 
take to 8 own acc\nt :at %ock$ humanity 
_h made me say on t ( o!rs1 & feel      
himself (f5d$4 ,yet1 z my consci5ce     
fully acquitt$ me ^u ?is article1 ,i    
made myself easy1 & by s do+ act$       
wisely3 at lea/1 ,i h n he>d t ?is great
 pr9ce took notice ( ! passage1 :i*1    
besides1 0 writt5 long be=e ,i _h !     
honor ( be+ kn[n to him4  ,a few days   
ei!r be=e or aft] ! publication ( my "w1
 = ,i d n exactly recollect ! "t1 !re   
appe>$ ano!r "w ^u ! same subject1 tak5 
v]batim f my fir/ volume1 except a few  
/upid ?+s :i* 7 jo9$ to ! extract4 ,!   
book bore ! "n ( a ,g5evese1 "o         
,balexs]t1 &1 accord+ to ! title-page1  
_h ga9$ ! premium 9 ! ,academy ( ,h>lem4
 ,i easily imag9$ ! academy & ! premium 
to be newly f\nd$1 ! bett] to conceal ! 
plagi>ism f ! eyes ( ! public2 b ,i     
fur!r p]ceiv$ !re 0 "s prior intrigue   
:i* ,i c\ld n unravel2 ei!r by ! l5d+ ( 
my manuscript1 )\t :i* ! !ft c\ld n h   
be5 committ$1 or = ! purpose ( =g+ !    

/ory ( ! pret5d$ premium1 to :i* x 0    
necess>y to give "s f\ndation4 ,x 0 n   
until sev]al ye>s aft]w>ds1 t by a ^w   
:i* escap$ ,d',iv]nois1 ,i p5etrat$ !   
my/]y & discov]$ ^? by :om ,balexs]t _h 
be5 br\ght =w>d4  ,! l[ murmur+s :i*    
prec$e a /orm began to be he>d1 & m5 (  
p5etration cle>ly saw !re 0 some?+      
ga!r+1 relative to me & my book1 :i*    
w\ld %ortly break ov] my head4 ,= my "p 
my /upidity 0 su*1 t1 f> f =esee+ my    
mis=tune1 ,i did n suspect ev5 ! cause (
 x aft] ,i _h felt its effect4 ,x 0     
artfully giv5 out t :ile ! ,jesuits 7   
treat$ ) sev]ity1 no indulg5ce c\ld be  
%[n to books nor ! au?ors ( !m 9 :i*    
religion 0 attack$4 ,i 0 reproa*$ ) hav+
 put my "n to ,emilius1 z if ,i _h n put
 x to all my o!r works ( :i* no?+ 0     
said4 ,gov]nm5t seem$ to fe> x %\ld be  
oblig$ to take "s /eps :i* circum/ances 
r5d]$ necess>y on acc\nt ( my imprud5ce4
 ,rumors to ?is effect rea*$ my e>s1 b  
gave me n mu* uneas9ess3 x nev] ev5 came
 into my head1 t !re c\ld be ! lea/ ?+ 9

 ! :ole affair :i* relat$ to me         
p]sonally1 s p]fectly irreproa*able &   
well support$ did ,i ?9k myself2 hav+   
besides con=m$ to e m9i/]ial regulation1
 ,i did n appreh5d ,madam de ,luxemb\rg 
w\ld leave me 9 difficulties = an error1
 :i*1 if x exi/$1 proce$$ entirely f    
h]self4 ,b kn[+ ! mann] ( proce$+ 9 l   
cases1 & t x 0 cu/om>y to puni%         
booksell]s :ile au?ors 7 favor$2 ,i _h  
"s uneas9ess on acc\nt ( poor ,du*esne1 
:om ,i saw expos$ to dang]1 %\ld ,m4 de 
,male%]bes ab&on him4  ,my tranquility  
/ill cont9u$4 ,rumors increas$ & soon   
*ang$ _! nature4 ,! public1 & especially
 ! p>liam5t1 seem$ irritat$ by my       
composure4 ,9 a few days ! f]m5tation   
became t]rible1 & ! object ( ! m5aces   
be+ *ang$1 ^! 7 imm$iately address$ to  
me4 ,! p>liam5t>ians 7 he>d to decl>e t 
burn+ books 0 ( no effect1 ! au?ors also
 %\ld be burn$ ) !m2 n a ^w 0 said ( !  
booksell]s4 ,! fir/ "t ^! expressions1 m
 wor?y ( an inquisitor ( ,goa ?an a     
s5ator1 7 relat$ to me1 ,i _h no d\bt ( 

_! com+ f ! ,holba*iques ) an int5tion  
to al>m me & drive me f ,france4 ,i     
laugh$ at _! pu]ile manoeuvre1 & said !y
 w\ld1 _h !y kn[n ! real /ate ( ?+s1 h  
?\ght ( "s o!r means ( inspir+ me ) fe>2
 b ! rumor at l5g? became su* t ,i      
p]ceiv$ ! matt] 0 s]i\s4 ,m4 & ,madam de
 ,luxemb\rg _h ?is ye> come to          
,montmor5cy 9 ! mon? ( ,june1 :i*1 = _! 
second j\rney1 0 m e>ly ?an common4 ,i  
he>d b little !re ( my new books1       
not)/&+ ! noise !y made 9 ,p>is2 nei!r !
 m>e*al nor 8 lady said a s+le ^w to me 
on ! subject4 ,h[ev]1 "o morn+1 :5 ,m4  
de ,luxemb\rg & ,i 7 toge!r1 he ask$ me 
if1 9 ! ',social ,contract'1 ,i _h spok5
 ill ( ,m4 de ,*oiseul4 ,i8 said ,i1    
retreat+ a few /eps ) surprise2 no1 ,i  
swe> to y ,i h n2 b on ! contr>y1 ,i h  
made on him1 & ) a p5 n giv5 to praise1 
! f9e/ eulogium a m9i/] ev] receiv$4 ,i 
!n %[$ him ! passage4 ,& 9 ,emilius8    
repli$ he4 ,n a ^w1 said ,i2 !re is n 9 
x a s+le ^w :i* relates to him4--,ah6   
said he1 ) m vivacity ?an 0 common to   

him1 y %\ld h tak5 ! same c>e 9 ! o!r   
book1 or h express$ y\rself m cle>ly6 ,i
 ?\ght1 repli$ ,i1 :at ,i wrote c\ld n  
be miscon/ru$2 my e/eem = him 0 su* z to
 make me extremely cauti\s n to be      
equivocal4  ,he 0 aga9 go+ to speak2 ,i 
p]ceiv$ him ready to op5 8 m9d3 he /opp$
 %ort & held 8 tongue4 ,wret*$ policy ( 
a c\rti]1 :i* 9 ! be/ ( he>ts1          
subjugates fri5d%ip itself6  ,?is       
conv]sation al?\gh %ort1 expla9$ to me  
my situation1 at lea/ 9 c]ta9 respects1 
& gave me to und]/& t x 0 aga9/ myself !
 ang] ( adm9i/ration 0 rais$4 ,! unhe>d 
( fatality1 :i* turn$ to my prejudice   
all ! good ,i did & wrote1 afflict$ my  
he>t4 ,yet1 feel+ myself %ield$ 9 ?is   
affair by ,madam de ,luxemb\rg & ,m4 de 
,male%]bes1 ,i did n p]ceive 9 :at my   
p]secutors c\ld deprive me ( _!         
protection4 ,h[ev]1 ,i1 f t mom5t 0     
conv9c$ equity & judgm5t 7 no long] 9   
"q1 & t no pa9s w\ld be sp>$ 9 exam9+   
:e!r or n ,i 0 culpable4 ,! /orm became 
/ill m m5ac+4 ,neaulme himself express$ 

to me1 9 ! excess ( 8 babbl+1 h[ mu* he 
rep5t$ hav+ _h any?+ to d 9 ! bus9ess1 &
 8 c]ta9ty ( ! fate ) :i* ! book & !    
au?or 7 ?reat5$4 ,"o ?+1 h[ev]1         
alleviat$ my fe>s3 ,madam de ,luxemb\rg 
0 s calm1 satisfi$ & *e]ful1 t ,i       
conclud$ %e mu/ necess>ily be c]ta9 ( ! 
suffici5cy ( h] cr$it1 especially if %e 
did n seem to h ! lea/ appreh5sion on my
 acc\nt2 moreov]1 %e said n to me a ^w  
ei!r ( consolation or apology1 & saw !  
turn ! affair took ) z mu* unconc]n z if
 %e _h no?+ to d ) x or any?+ else t    
relat$ to me4 ,:at surpris$ me mo/ 0 h] 
sil5ce4 ,i ?\ght %e %\ld h said some?+  
on ! subject4 ,madam de ,b\ffl]s seem$ r
 uneasy4 ,%e appe>$ agitat$1 /ra9$      
h]self a good deal1 assur$ me ! ,pr9ce (
 ,conti 0 tak+ great pa9s to w>d (f !   
bl[ ab\t to be direct$ aga9/ my p]son1 &
 :i* %e attribut$ to ! nature ( pres5t  
circum/ances1 9 :i* x 0 ( importance to 
! p>liam5t n to leave ! ,jesuits an op5+
 :]eby !y might br+ an accusation aga9/ 
x z be+ indiff]5t ) respect to religion4

 ,%e did n1 h[ev]1 seem to dep5d mu*    
ei!r ^u ! success ( h] own ef=ts or ev5 
^? ( ! pr9ce4 ,h] conv]sations1 m al>m+ 
?an consolatory1 all t5d$ to p]suade me 
to leave ! k+dom & g to ,engl&1 :]e %e  
(f]$ me an introduction to _m ( h]      
fri5ds1 among/ o!rs "o to ! celebrat$   
,hume1 ) :om %e _h long be5 ^u a foot+ (
 intimate fri5d%ip4 ,see+ me /ill       
un%ak51 %e _h rec\rse to o!r argum5ts m 
capable ( di/urb+ my tranquillity4 ,%e  
intimat$ t1 9 case ,i 0 arre/$ &        
int]rogat$1 ,i %\ld be "u ! necessity ( 
nam+ ,madam de ,luxemb\rg1 & t h]       
fri5d%ip = me requir$1 on my "p1 su*    
precautions z 7 necess>y to prev5t h]   
be+ expos$4 ,my answ] 01 t %\ld :at %e  
seem$ to appreh5d come to pass1 %e ne$ n
 be al>m$2 t ,i %\ld d no?+ by :i* !    
lady %e m5tion$ might become a suff]]4  
,%e said su* a resolution 0 m easily    
tak5 ?an adh]$ to1 & 9 ?is %e 0 "r1     
especially ) respect to me1 det]m9$ z ,i
 always h be5 nei!r to prejudice myself 
nor lie be=e judges1 :atev] dang] !re   

might be 9 speak+ ! tru?4  ,p]ceiv+ ?is 
obs]vation _h made "s impression ^u my  
m9d1 )\t h[ev] induc+ me to resolve ^u  
evasion1 %e spoke ( ! ,ba/ile = a few   
weeks1 z a means ( plac+ me beyond !    
rea* ( ! jurisdiction ( ! p>liam5t1 :i* 
has no?+ to d ) prison]s ( /ate4 ,i _h  
no objection to ?is s+ul> favor1 provid$
 x 7 n solicit$ 9 my "n4 ,z %e nev]     
spoke ( x a second "t1 ,i aft]w>ds ?\ght
 h] proposition 0 made to s\nd me1 & t !
 p>ty did n ?9k prop] to h rec\rse to an
 exp$i5t :i* w\ld h put an end to       
ev]y?+4  ,a few days aft]w>ds ! m>e*al  
receiv$ f ! ,cure de ,dueil1 ! fri5d (  
,grimm & ,madam d',ep9ay1 a lett] in=m+ 
him1 z f good au?ority1 t ! p>liam5t 0  
to proce$ aga9/ me ) ! greate/ sev]ity1 
& t1 on a day :i* he m5tion$1 an ord] 0 
to be giv5 to arre/ me4 ,i imag9$ ?is 0 
fabricat$ by ! ,holba*iques2 ,i knew !  
p>liam5t to be v att5tive to =ms1 & t on
 ?is occasion1 beg9n+ by arre/+ me be=e 
x 0 juridically kn[n ,i av[$ myself !   
au?or ( ! book 0 violat+ !m all4 ,i     

obs]v$ to ,madam de ,b\ffl]s t none b   
p]sons accus$ ( crimes :i* t5d to       
endang] ! public safety 71 on a simple  
in=mation1 ord]$ to be arre/$ le/ !y    
%\ld escape puni%m5t4 ,b :5 gov]nm5t wi%
 to puni% a crime l m9e1 :i* m]its honor
 & recomp5se1 ! proce$+s are direct$    
aga9/ ! book1 & ! au?or is z mu* z      
possible left out ( ! "q4  ,^u ?is %e   
made "s subtle di/9ction1 :i* ,i h      
=gott51 to prove t ord]+ me to be arre/$
 in/ead ( summon+ me to be he>d 0 a     
matt] ( favor4 ,! next day ,i receiv$ a 
lett] f ,guy1 :o in=m$ me t hav+ 9 !    
morn+ be5 ) ! attorney-g5]al1 he _h se5 
9 8 (fice a r\gh draft ( a requisition  
aga9/ ,emilius & ! au?or4 ,guy1 x is to 
be rememb]$1 0 ! p>tn] ( ,du*esne1 :o _h
 pr9t$ ! "w1 & )\t appreh5sions on 8 own
 acc\nt1 *>itably gave ?is in=mation to 
! au?or4 ,! cr$it ,i gave to him maybe  
judg$ (4  ,x 01 no d\bt1 a v probable   
/ory1 t a booksell]1 admitt$ to an      
audi5ce by ! attorney-g5]al1 %\ld read  
at ease scatt]$ r\gh drafts 9 ! (fice ( 

t magi/rate6 ,madam de ,b\ffl]s & o!rs  
confirm$ :at he _h said4 ,by !          
absurdities :i* 7 incessantly rung 9 my 
e>s1 ,i 0 almo/ tempt$ to believe t     
ev]ybody ,i he>d speak _h lo/ _! s5ses4 
,cle>ly p]ceiv+ t !re 0 "s my/]y1 :i* no
 "o ?\ght prop] to expla9 to me1 ,i     
pati5tly await$ ! ev5t1 dep5d+ ^u my    
integrity & innoc5ce1 & ?9k+ myself     
happy1 let ! p]secution :i* await$ me be
 :at x w\ld1 to be call$ to ! honor (   
suff]+ 9 ! cause ( tru?4 ,f> f be+      
afraid & conceal+ myself1 ,i w5t e day  
to ! ca/le1 & 9 ! aft]noon took my usual
 walk4 ,on ! eigh? ( ,june1 ! ev5+ be=e 
! ord] 0 conclud$ on1 ,i walk$ 9 company
 ) two pr(essors ( ! oratory1 ,fa!r     
,alamanni & ,fa!r ,m&>d4 ,we c>ri$ to   
,*ampeaux a little collation1 :i* we ate
 ) a ke5 appetite4 ,we _h =gott5 to br+ 
glasses1 & suppli$ ! want ( !m by /alks 
( rye1 ?r\gh :i* we suck$ up ! w9e f !  
bottle1 piqu+ ourselves ^u ! *oice (    
l>ge tubes to vie ) ea* o!r 9 pump+ up  
:at we drank4 ,i nev] 0 m *e]ful 9 my   

life4  ,i h relat$ 9 :at mann] ,i lo/ my
 sleep dur+ my y\?4 ,i _h s9ce t "t     
contract$ a habit ( read+ e night 9 my  
b$1 until ,i f\nd my eyes beg9 to gr[   
heavy4 ,i !n ext+ui%$ my wax tap]1 &    
endeavor$ to slumb] = a few mom5ts1 :i* 
7 9 g5]al v %ort4 ,! book ,i commonly   
read at night 0 ! ,bible1 :i*1 9 ?is    
mann] ,i read five or six times f !     
beg9n+ to ! end4 ,?is ev5+1 f9d+ myself 
less dispos$ to sleep ?an ord9>y1 ,i    
cont9u$ my read+ beyond ! usual h\r1 &  
read ! :ole book :i* f9i%es at ! ,levite
 ( ,ephraim1 ! ,book ( judges1 if ,i    
mi/ake n1 = s9ce t "t ,i h nev] once se5
 x4 ,?is hi/ory affect$ me exce$+ly1 &1 
9 a k9d ( a dream1 my imag9ation /ill   
ran on x1 :5 sudd5ly ,i 0 r\s$ f my     
/upor by a noise & light4 ,!resa c>ry+ a
 c&le1 light$ ,m4 la ,ro*e1 :o p]ceiv+  
me ha/ily raise myself up1 said3 ,d n be
 al>m$2 ,i come f ,madam de ,luxemb\rg1 
:o1 9 h] lett] incloses y ano!r f !     
,pr9ce ( ,conti4 ,9 fact1 9 ! lett] (   
,madam de ,luxemb\rg ,i f\nd ano!r1 :i* 

an express f ! pr9ce _h br\ght h]1 /at+ 
t1 not)/&+ all 8 ef=ts1 x 0 det]m9$ to  
proce$ aga9/ me ) ! utmo/ rigor4 ,!     
f]m5tation1 said he1 is extreme2 no?+ c 
w>d (f ! bl[2 ! c\rt requires x1 & !    
p>liam5t w absolutely proce$2 at sev5   
o'clock 9 ! morn+ an ord] w be made to  
arre/ him1 & p]sons w imm$iately be s5t 
to execute x4 ,i h obta9$ a promise t he
 %all n be pursu$ if he makes 8 escape2 
b if he p]si/s 9 expos+ himself to be   
tak5 ?is w imm$iately happ54 ,la ,ro*e  
conjur$ me 9 behalf ( ,madam de         
,luxemb\rg to rise & g & speak to h]4 ,x
 0 two o'clock & %e _h j retir$ to b$4  
,%e expects y1 add$ he1 & w n g to sleep
 )\t speak+ to y4 ,i dress$ myself 9    
ha/e & ran to h]4  ,%e appe>$ to be     
agitat$2 ?is 0 = ! fir/ "t4 ,h] di/ress 
affect$ me4 ,9 ?is mom5t ( surprise & 9 
! night1 ,i myself 0 n free f emotion2 b
 on see+ h] ,i =got my own situation1 & 
?\ght ( no?+ b ! melan*oly "p %e w\ld h 
to act %\ld ,i suff] myself to be       
arre/$2 = feel+ ,i _h suffici5t c\rage  

/rictly to adh]e to tru?1 al?\gh ,i     
might be c]ta9 ( its be+ prejudicial or 
ev5 de/ructive to me1 ,i 0 conv9c$ ,i _h
 n pres5ce ( m9d1 address1 nor p]haps   
firmness en\gh1 n to expose h] %\ld ,i  
be closely press$4 ,?is det]m9$ me to   
sacrifice my reputation to h]           
tranquillity1 & to d = h] t :i* no?+    
c\ld h prevail$ ^u me to d = myself4 ,! 
mom5t ,i _h come to ?is resolution1 ,i  
decl>$ x1 wi%+ n to dim9i% ! magnitude (
 ! sacrifice by giv+ h] ! lea/ tr\ble to
 obta9 x4 ,i am sure %e c\ld n mi/ake my
 motive1 al?\gh %e said n a ^w1 :i*     
prov$ to me %e 0 s5sible ( x4 ,i 0 s mu*
 %ock$ at h] indiff]5ce t ,i1 = a mom5t1
 ?\ght ( retract+2 b ! m>e*al came 91 & 
,madam de ,b\ffl]s arriv$ f ,p>is a few 
mom5ts aft]w>ds4 ,!y did :at ,madam de  
,luxemb\rg ought to h done4 ,i suff]$   
myself to be flatt]$2 ,i 0 a%am$ to     
retract2 & ! only ?+ t rema9$ to be     
det]m9$ ^u 0 ! place ( my retreat & ! "t
 ( my dep>ture4 ,m4 de ,luxemb\rg       
propos$ to me to rema9 incognito a few  

days at ! ca/le1 t we might delib]ate at
 leisure1 & take su* measures z %\ld    
seem mo/ prop]2 to ?is ,i w\ld n cons5t1
 no m ?an to g secretly to ! temple4 ,i 
0 det]m9$ to set (f ! same day r ?an    
rema9 conceal$ 9 any place :atev]4      
,kn[+ ,i _h secret & p[]ful enemies 9 ! 
k+dom1 ,i ?\ght1 not)/&+ my atta*m5t to 
,france1 ,i ought to quit x1 ! bett] to 
insure my future tranquillity4 ,my fir/ 
int5tion 0 to retire to ,g5eva1 b a     
mom5t ( reflection 0 suffici5t to       
dissuade me f committ+ t act ( folly2 ,i
 knew ! m9i/ry ( ,france1 m p[]ful at   
,g5eva ?an at ,p>is1 w\ld n leave me m  
at peace 9 "o ( ^! cities ?an 9 ! o!r1 7
 a resolution tak5 to torm5t me4 ,i 0   
also conv9c$ ! ',disc\rse ^u            
,inequality' _h excit$ aga9/ me 9 !     
c\ncil a hatr$ ! m dang]\s z ! c\ncil   
d>$ n make x manife/4 ,i _h also le>n$1 
t :5 ! ,new ,eloisa appe>$1 ! same      
c\ncil _h imm$iately =bidd5 ! sale ( t  
"w1 ^u ! solicitation ( ,doctor ,tron*92
 b p]ceiv+ ! example n to be imitat$1   

ev5 9 ,p>is1 ! memb]s 7 a%am$ ( :at !y  
_h done1 & )drew ! prohibition4  ,i _h  
no d\bt t1 f9d+ 9 ! pres5t case a m     
favorable opportunity1 !y w\ld be v     
c>eful to take advantage ( x4 ,not)/&+  
ext]ior appe>ances1 ,i knew !re reign$  
aga9/ me 9 ! he>t ( e ,g5evese a secret 
jeal\sy1 :i*1 9 ! fir/ favorable mom5t1 
w\ld publicly %[ itself4 ,nev]!less1 !  
love ( my c\ntry call$ me to x1 & c\ld  
,i h flatt]$ myself ,i %\ld !re h liv$ 9
 peace1 ,i %\ld n h hesitat$2 b nei!r   
honor nor reason p]mitt+ me to take     
refuge z a fugitive 9 a place ( :i* ,i 0
 a citiz51 ,i resolv$ to approa* x only1
 & to wait 9 ,switz]l& until some?+     
relative to me %\ld be det]m9$ ^u 9     
,g5eva4 ,?is /ate ( unc]ta9ty did n1 z x
 w soon appe>1 cont9ue long4  ,madam de 
,b\ffl]s highly disapprov$ ?is          
resolution1 & r5ew$ h] ef=ts to induce  
me to g to ,engl&1 b all %e c\ld say 0 (
 no effect2 ,i _h nev] lov$ ,engl& nor !
 ,engli%1 & ! eloqu5ce ( ,madam de      
,b\ffl]s1 f> f conqu]+ my repugnancy1   

seem$ to increase x )\t my kn[+ :y4     
,det]m9$ to set (f ! same day1 ,i 0 f ! 
morn+ inaccessible to ev]ybody1 & ,la   
,ro*e1 :om ,i s5t to fet* my pap]s1 w\ld
 n tell ,!resa :e!r or n ,i 0 gone4     
,s9ce ,i _h det]m9$ to write my own     
memoirs1 ,i _h collect$ a great numb] ( 
lett]s & o!r pap]s1 s t he 0 oblig$ to  
return sev]al times4 ,a "p ( ^! pap]s1  
already select$1 7 laid aside1 & ,i     
employ$ ! morn+ 9 sort+ ! re/1 t ,i     
might take ) me su* only z 7 necess>y & 
de/roy :at rema9$4 ,m4 de ,luxemb\rg 0  
k9d en\gh to assi/ me 9 ?is bus9ess1 :i*
 we c\ld n f9i% be=e x 0 necess>y ,i    
%\ld set (f1 & ,i _h n "t to burn a s+le
 pap]4 ,! m>e*al (f]$ to take ^u himself
 to sort :at ,i %\ld leave beh9d me1 &  
?r[ into ! fire e %eet t he f\nd        
useless1 )\t tru/+ to any p]son         
:omsoev]1 & to s5d me ^? ( :i* he %\ld  
make *oice4 ,i accept$ 8 (f]1 v glad to 
be deliv]$ f t c>e1 t ,i might pass !   
few h\rs ,i _h to rema9 ) p]sons s de>  
to me1 f :om ,i 0 go+ to sep>ate =ev]4  

,he took ! key ( ! *amb] 9 :i* ,i _h    
left ^! pap]s2 &1 at my e>ne/           
solicitation1 s5t = my poor aunt1 :o1 n 
kn[+ :at _h become ( me1 or :at 0 to    
become ( h]self1 & 9 mom5t>y expectation
 ( ! arrival ( ! (fic]s ( ju/ice1 )\t   
kn[+ h[ to act or :at to answ] !m1 0    
mis]able to an extreme4 ,la ,ro*e       
accompani$ h] to ! ca/le 9 sil5ce2 %e   
?\ght ,i 0 already f> f ,montmor5cy2 on 
p]ceiv+ me1 %e made ! place res\nd ) h] 
cries1 & ?rew h]self into my arms4 ,oh1 
fri5d%ip1 aff9ity ( s5tim5t1 habit &    
intimacy4 ,9 ?is pleas+ yet cruel mom5t1
 ! remembrance ( s _m days ( happ9ess1  
t5d]ness & peace pass$ toge!r augm5t$ ! 
grief ( a fir/ sep>ation aft] an union (
 sev5te5 ye>s dur+ :i* we _h sc>cely lo/
 sight ( ea* o!r = a s+le day4          
,illu/ration3 #jbdh  ,! m>e*al1 :o saw  
?is embrace1 c\ld n suppress 8 te>s4 ,he
 )drew4 ,!resa det]m9$ nev] m to leave  
me out ( h] sight4 ,i made h] feel !    
inconv5i5ce ( accompany+ me at t mom5t1 
& ! necessity ( h] rema9+ to take c>e ( 

my effects & collect my money4 ,:5 an   
ord] is made to arre/ a man1 x is       
cu/om>y to seize 8 pap]s & put a seal ^u
 8 effects1 or to make an inv5tory ( !m 
& appo9t a gu>dian to ^: c>e !y are     
intru/$4 ,x 0 necess>y ,!resa %\ld rema9
 to obs]ve :at pass$1 & get ev]y?+      
settl$ 9 ! mo/ advantage\s mann]        
possible4 ,i promis$ h] %e %\ld %ortly  
come to me2 ! m>e*al confirm$ my        
promise2 b ,i did n *oose to tell h] to 
:at place ,i 0 go+1 t1 9 case ( be+     
int]rogat$ by ! p]sons :o came to take  
me into cu/ody1 %e might ) tru? plead   
ignorance ^u t head4 ,9 embrac+ h] !    
mom5t be=e we sep>at$ ,i felt )9 me a   
mo/ extraord9>y emotion1 & ,i said to h]
 ) an agitation :i*1 alas6 0 b too      
prophetic3 ,my de> girl1 y mu/ arm      
y\rself ) c\rage4 ,y h p>tak5 ( my      
prosp]ity2 x n[ rema9s to y1 s9ce y h   
*os5 x1 to p>take ( my mis]y4 ,expect   
no?+ 9 future b insult & calamity 9     
foll[+ me4 ,! de/9y begun = me by ?is   
melan*oly day w pursue me until my late/

 h\r4  ,i _h n[ no?+ to ?9k ( b my      
dep>ture4 ,! (fic]s 7 to arrive at t5   
o'clock4 ,x 0 f\r 9 ! aft]noon :5 ,i set
 (f1 & !y 7 n yet come4 ,x 0 det]m9$ ,i 
%\ld take po/4 ,i _h no c>riage1 ,!     
m>e*al made me a pres5t ( a cabriolet1 &
 l5t me horses & a po/illion ! fir/     
/age1 :]e1 9 consequ5ce ( ! measures he 
_h tak51 ,i _h no difficulty 9 procur+  
o!rs4  ,z ,i _h n d9$ at table1 nor made
 my appe>ance 9 ! ca/le1 ! ladies came  
to bid me adieu 9 ! entresol :]e ,i _h  
pass$ ! day4 ,madam de ,luxemb\rg       
embrac$ me sev]al times ) a melan*oly   
air2 b ,i did n 9 ^! embraces feel !    
press+ ,i _h done 9 ^? %e _h lavi%$ ^u  
me two or ?ree ye>s be=e4 ,madam de     
,b\ffl]s also embrac$ me1 & said to me  
_m civil ?+s4 ,an embrace :i* surpris$  
me m ?an all ! re/ _h done 0 "o f ,madam
 de ,mirepoix1 = %e also 0 at ! ca/le4  
,madam la ,m>e*ale de ,mirepoix is a    
p]son extremely cold1 dec5t1 & res]v$1 &
 did n1 at lea/ z %e appe>$ to me1 seem 
q exempt f ! natural haught9ess ( ! h\se

 ( ,lorra9e4 ,%e _h nev] %[n me mu*     
att5tion4 ,:e!r1 flatt]$ by an honor ,i 
_h n expect$1 ,i endeavor$ to enhance ! 
value ( x2 or t !re really 0 9 ! embrace
 a little ( t commis]ation natural to   
g5]\s he>ts1 ,i f\nd 9 h] mann] & look  
some?+ en]getical :i* p5etrat$ me4 ,i h 
s9ce t "t frequ5tly ?\ght t1 acqua9t$ ) 
my de/9y1 %e c\ld n refra9 f a mom5t>y  
conc]n = my fate4  ,! m>e*al did n op5 8
 m\?2 he 0 z pale z dea?4 ,he w\ld      
absolutely accompany me to ! c>riage :i*
 wait$ at ! wat]+ place4 ,we cross$ !   
g>d5 )\t utt]+ a s+le ^w4 ,i _h a key ( 
! p>k ) :i* ,i op5$ ! gate1 & in/ead (  
putt+ x aga9 into my pocket1 ,i held x  
out to ! m>e*al )\t say+ a ^w4 ,he took 
x ) a vivacity :i* surpris$ me1 & :i*   
has s9ce frequ5tly intrud$ itself ^u my 
?\ghts4  ,i h n 9 my :ole life _h a m   
bitt] mom5t ?an t ( ?is sep>ation4 ,our 
embrace 0 long & sil5t3 we bo? felt t   
?is 0 our la/ adieu4  ,betwe5 ,b>re &   
,montmor5cy ,i met1 9 a hir$ c>riage1   
f\r m5 9 black1 :o salut$ me smil+ly4   

,accord+ to :at ,!resa has s9ce told me 
( ! (fic]s ( ju/ice1 ! h\r ( _! arrival 
& _! mann] ( behavior1 ,i h no d\bt1 t  
!y 7 ! p]sons ,i met1 especially z !    
ord] to arre/ me1 in/ead ( be+ made out 
at sev5 o'clock1 z ,i _h be5 told x     
w\ld1 _h n be5 giv5 till noon4 ,i _h to 
g ?r\gh ,p>is4 ,a p]son 9 a cabriolet is
 n mu* conceal$4 ,i saw sev]al p]sons 9 
! /reets :o salut$ me ) an air (        
famili>ity b ,i did n "k "o ( !m4 ,!    
same ev5+ ,i *ang$ my r\te to pass      
,vill]oy4 ,at ,lyons ! c\ri]s 7 conduct$
 to ! comm&ant4 ,?is might h be5        
emb>rass+ to a man unwill+ ei!r to lie  
or *ange 8 "n4 ,i w5t ) a lett] f ,madam
 de ,luxemb\rg to beg ,m4 de ,vill]oy   
w\ld sp>e me ?is disagreeable c]emony4  
,m4 de ,vill]oy gave me a lett] ( :i* ,i
 made no use1 because ,i did n g ?r\gh  
,lyons4 ,?is lett] /ill rema9s seal$ up 
among/ my pap]s4 ,! duke press$ me to   
sleep at ,vill]oy1 b ,i pref]r$ return+ 
to ! great road1 :i* ,i did1 & travell$ 
two m /ages ! same ev5+4  ,my c>riage 0 

inconv5i5t & uncom=table1 & ,i 0 too mu*
 indispos$ to g f> 9 a day4 ,my         
appe>ance besides 0 n suffici5tly       
di/+ui%$ = me to be well s]v$1 & 9      
,france po/-horses feel ! :ip 9         
proportion to ! favorable op9ion !      
po/illion has ( 8 tempor>y ma/]4 ,by    
pay+ ! guides g5]\sly ?\ght ,i %\ld make
 up = my %abby appe>ance3 ?is 0 /ill    
worse4 ,!y took me = a wor?less fell[ :o
 0 c>ry+ ord]s1 &1 = ! fir/ "t 9 my     
life1 travell+ po/4 ,f t mom5t ,i _h    
no?+ b worn-out hacks1 & ,i became !    
sport ( ! po/illions4 ,i end$ z ,i %\ld 
h begun by be+ pati5t1 hold+ my tongue1 
& suff]+ myself to be driv5 z my        
conductors ?\ght prop]4  ,i _h suffici5t
 matt] ( reflection to prev5t me f be+  
we>y on ! road1 employ+ myself 9 !      
recollection ( t :i* _h j happ5$2 b ?is 
0 nei!r my turn ( m9d nor ! incl9ation (
 my he>t4 ,! facility ) :i* ,i =get pa/ 
evils1 h[ev] rec5t !y may be1 is        
a/oni%+4 ,! remembrance ( !m becomes    
feeble1 &1 soon] or lat]1 effac$1 9 !   

inv]se proportion to ! great] degree (  
fe> ) :i* ! approa* ( !m inspires me4   
,my cruel imag9ation1 incessantly       
torm5t$ by ! appreh5sion ( evils /ill at
 a di/ance1 div]ts my att5tion1 &       
prev5ts me f recollect+ ^? :i* are pa/4 
,caution is ne$less aft] ! evil has     
happ5$1 & x is "t lo/ to give x a ?\ght4
 ,i1 9 "s measure1 put a p]iod to my    
mis=tunes be=e !y happ53 ! m ,i h suff]$
 at _! approa* ! great] is ! facility ) 
:i* ,i =get !m2 :il/1 on ! contr>y1     
incessantly recollect+ my pa/ happ9ess1 
,i1 if ,i may s speak1 enjoy x a second 
"t at pleasure4 ,x is to ?is happy      
disposition ,i am indebt$ = an exemption
 f t ill humor :i* f]m5ts 9 a v9dictive 
m9d1 by ! cont9ual remembrance (        
injuries receiv$1 & torm5ts x ) all !   
evil x wi%es to d its enemy4 ,naturally 
*ol]ic1 ,i h felt all ! =ce ( ang]1 :i* 
9 ! fir/ mom5ts has sometimes be5 c>ri$ 
to fury1 b a desire ( v5geance nev] took
 root )9 me4 ,i ?9k too little ( ! (f5ce
 to give myself mu* tr\ble ab\t ! (f5d]4

 ,i ?9k ( ! injury ,i h receiv$ f him on
 acc\nt ( t he may d me a second "t1 b 7
 ,i c]ta9 he w\ld nev] d me ano!r ! fir/
 w\ld be in/antly =gott54 ,p>don (      
(f5ces is cont9ually prea*$ to u4 ,i    
knew n :e!r or n my he>t w\ld be capable
 ( ov]com+ its hatr$1 = x nev] yet felt 
t passion1 & ,i give myself too little  
conc]n ab\t my enemies to h ! m]it (    
p>don+ !m4 ,i w n say to :at a degree1 9
 ord] to torm5t me1 !y torm5t !mselves4 
,i am at _! m]cy1 !y h unb\nd$ p[]1 &   
make ( x :at use !y please4 ,!re is b "o
 ?+ 9 :i* ,i set !m at defiance3 :i* is 
9 torm5t+ !mselves ab\t me1 to =ce me to
 give myself ! lea/ tr\ble ab\t !m4  ,! 
day aft] my dep>ture ,i _h s p]fectly   
=gott5 :at _h pass$1 ! p>liam5t1 ,madam 
de ,pompad\r1 ,m4 de ,*oiseul1 ,grimm1 &
 ,d',alemb]t1 ) _! conspiracies1 t _h n 
x be5 = ! necess>y precautions dur+ !   
j\rney ,i %\ld h ?\ght no m ( !m4 ,!    
remembrance ( "o ?+ :i* suppli$ ! place 
( all ^! 0 :at ,i _h read ! ev5+ be=e my
 dep>ture4 ,i recollect1 also1 !        

pa/orals ( ,gessn]1 :i* 8 translator    
,hub]t _h s5t me a little "t be=e4 ,^!  
two ideas occurr$ to me s /rongly1 & 7  
connect$ 9 su* a mann] 9 my m9d1 t ,i 0 
det]m9$ to endeavor to unite !m by      
treat+ aft] ! mann] ( ,gessn]1 ! subject
 ( ! ,levite ( ,ephraim4 ,8 pa/oral &   
simple /yle appe>$ to me b little fitt$ 
to s horrid a subject1 & x 0 n to be    
presum$ ! situation ,i 0 !n 9 w\ld      
furni% me ) su* ideas z w\ld enliv5 x4  
,h[ev]1 ,i attempt$ ! ?+1 solely to     
amuse myself 9 my cabriolet1 & )\t !    
lea/ hope ( success4 ,i _h no soon]     
begun ?an ,i 0 a/oni%$ at ! livel9ess ( 
my ideas1 & ! facility ) :i* ,i express$
 !m4 ,9 ?ree days ,i compos$ ! fir/ ?ree
 cantos ( ! little poem ,i f9i%$ at     
,moti]s1 & ,i am c]ta9 ( n hav+ done    
any?+ 9 my life 9 :i* !re is a m int]e/+
 mildness ( mann]s1 a great] brilliancy 
( color+1 m simple del9eations1 great]  
exactness ( proportion1 or m antique    
simplicity 9 g5]al1 not)/&+ ! horror ( !
 subject :i* 9 itself is abom9able1 s t 

besides e o!r m]it ,i _h /ill t ( a     
difficulty conqu]$4 ,if ! ,levite (     
,ephraim be n ! be/ ( my works1 x w ev] 
be t mo/ e/eem$4 ,i h nev] read1 nor    
%all ,i ev] read x aga9 )\t feel+       
int]iorly ! applause ( a he>t )\t       
acrimony1 :i*1 f> f be+ embitt]$ by     
mis=tunes1 is susceptible ( consolation 
9 ! mid/ ( !m1 & f9ds )9 itself a       
res\rce by :i* !y are c\nt]balanc$4     
,assemble ! great philosoph]s1 s sup]ior
 9 _! books to adv]sity :i* !y d n      
suff]1 place !m 9 a situation simil> to 
m9e1 &1 9 ! fir/ mom5ts ( ! indignation 
( _! injur$ honor1 give !m a l "w to    
compose1 & x w be se5 9 :at mann] !y w  
acquit !mselves ( ! task4  ,:5 ,i set (f
 f ,montmor5cy to g into ,switz]l&1 ,i  
_h resolv$ to /op at ,yv]don1 at ! h\se 
( my old fri5d ,rogu91 :o _h sev]al ye>s
 be=e retir$ to t place1 & _h invit$ me 
to g & see him4 ,i 0 told ,lyons 0 n !  
direct road1 = :i* reason ,i avoid$ go+ 
?r\gh x4 ,b ,i 0 oblig$ to pass ?r\gh   
,besancon1 a =tifi$ t[n1 & consequ5tly  

subject to ! same inconv5i5ce4 ,i took x
 into my head to turn ab\t & to g to    
,sal9s1 "u ! pret5se ( go+ to see ,m4 de
 ,m>ian1 ! nephew ( ,m4 ,dup91 :o _h an 
employm5t at ! salt-works1 & =m]ly _h   
giv5 me _m invitations to 8 h\se4 ,!    
exp$ition succe$$3 ,m4 de ,m>ian 0 n 9 !
 way1 &1 happily1 n be+ oblig$ to /op1  
,i cont9u$ my j\rney )\t be+ spok5 to by
 anybody4  ,! mom5t ,i 0 )9 ! t]ritory (
 ,b]ne1 ,i ord]$ ! po/illion to /op2 ,i 
got out ( my c>riage1 pro/rat$ myself1  
kiss$ ! gr\nd1 & exclaim$ 9 a transport 
( joy3 ,heav51 ! protector ( virtue be  
prais$1 ,i t\* a l& ( lib]ty6 ,?us bl9d 
& unsuspect+ 9 my hopes1 h ,i ev] be5   
passionately atta*$ to t :i* 0 to make  
me unhappy4 ,! man ?\ght me mad4 ,i got 
into ! c>riage1 & a few h\rs aft]w>ds ,i
 _h ! pure & lively satisfaction ( feel+
 myself press$ )9 ! arms ( ! respectable
 ,r\g94 ,ah6 let me brea! = a mom5t )   
?is wor?y ho/6 ,x is necess>y ,i %\ld   
ga9 /r5g? & c\rage be=e ,i proce$ fur!r4
 ,i %all soon f9d t 9 my way :i* w give 

employm5t to !m bo?4 ,x is n )\t reason 
t ,i h be5 diffuse 9 ! recital ( all !  
circum/ances ,i h be5 able to recollect4
 ,al?\gh !y may seem un9t]e/+1 yet1 :5  
once ! ?read ( ! conspiracy is got hold 
(1 !y may ?r[ "s light ^u ! progress (  
x2 &1 = in/ance1 )\t giv+ ! fir/ idea ( 
! problem ,i am go+ to propose1 af=d "s 
aid 9 solv+ x4  ,suppose t1 = !         
execution ( ! conspiracy ( :i* ,i 0 !   
object1 my abs5ce 0 absolutely necess>y1
 ev]y?+ t5d+ to t effect c\ld n h happ5$
 o!rwise ?an x did2 b if )\t suff]+     
myself to be al>m$ by ! nocturnal       
embassy ( ,madam de ,luxemb\rg1 ,i _h   
cont9u$ to hold out1 &1 in/ead ( rema9+ 
at ! ca/le1 _h return$ to my b$ &       
quietly slept until morn+1 %\ld ,i h    
equally _h an ord] ( arre/ made out     
aga9/ me8 ,?is is a great "q ^u :i* !   
solution ( _m o!rs dep5ds1 & = !        
exam9ation ( x1 ! h\r ( ! comm9atory    
decree ( arre/1 & t ( ! real decree may 
be rem>k$ to advantage4 ,a rude b       
s5sible example ( ! importance ( ! lea/ 

detail 9 ! exposition ( facts1 ( :i* !  
secret causes are s\ght = to discov] !m 
by induction4     ,,book ,,xii4   ,) ?is
 book beg9s ! "w ( d>kness1 9 :i* ,i h =
 ! la/ eight ye>s be5 envelop$1 ?\gh x  
has n by any means be5 possible = me to 
p5etrate ! dreadful obscurity4 ,9 !     
abyss ( evil into :i* ,i am plung$1 ,i  
feel ! bl[s rea* me1 )\t p]ceiv+ ! h& by
 :i* !y are direct$ or ! means x        
employs4 ,%ame & mis=tune seem (        
!mselves to fall ^u me4 ,:5 9 !         
affliction ( my he>t ,i suff] a groan to
 escape me1 ,i h ! appe>ance ( a man :o 
compla9s )\t reason1 & ! au?ors ( my ru9
 h ! inconceivable art ( r5d]+ ! public1
 unkn[n to itself1 or )\t its p]ceiv+ ! 
effects ( x1 accomplice 9 _! conspiracy4
 ,!re=e1 9 my n>rative ( circum/ances   
relative to myself1 ( ! treatm5t ,i h   
receiv$1 & all t has happ5$ to me1 ,i   
%all n be able to indicate ! h& by :i* !
 :ole has be5 direct$1 nor assign !     
causes1 :ile ,i /ate ! effect4 ,!       
primitive causes are all giv5 9 ! prec$+

 books2 & ev]y?+ 9 :i* ,i am int]e/$1 & 
all ! secret motives po9t$ out4 ,b x is 
impossible = me to expla91 ev5 by       
conjecture1 t 9 :i* ! diff]5t causes are
 comb9$ to op]ate ! /range ev5ts ( my   
life4 ,if among/ my read]s "o ev5 ( !m  
%\ld be g5]\s en\gh to wi% to exam9e !  
my/]y to ! bottom1 & discov] ! tru?1 let
 him c>efully read ov] a second "t !    
?ree prec$+ books1 aft]w>ds at ea* fact 
he %all f9d /at$ 9 ! books :i* foll[1   
let him ga9 su* in=mation z is )9 8     
rea*1 & g back f intrigue to intrigue1 &
 f ag5t to ag5t1 until he comes to !    
fir/ mov] ( all4 ,i "k :]e 8 rese>*es w 
t]m9ate2 b 9 ! meantime ,i lose myself 9
 ! crook$ & obscure subt]rane\s pa?     
?r\gh :i* 8 /eps mu/ be direct$4  ,dur+ 
my /ay at ,yv]don1 ,i became acqua9t$ ) 
all ! family ( my fri5d ,rogu91 & among/
 o!rs ) 8 niece1 ,madam ,boy de la ,t\r1
 & h] daught]s1 ^: fa!r1 z ,i ?9k ,i h  
already obs]v$1 ,i =m]ly knew at ,lyons4
 ,%e 0 at ,yv]don1 ^u a visit to h]     
uncle & 8 si/]2 h] elde/ daught]1 ab\t  

fifte5 ye>s ( age1 delight$ me by h] f9e
 und]/&+ & excell5t disposition4 ,i     
conceiv$ ! mo/ t5d] fri5d%ip = ! "m & ! 
daught]4 ,! latt] 0 de/9$ by ,m4 ,r\g9  
to ! colonel1 8 nephew1 a man already   
v]g+ t[>ds ! decl9e ( life1 & :o %[$ me 
m>ks ( great e/eem & affection2 b al?\gh
 ! he>t ( ! uncle 0 set ^u ?is m>riage1 
:i* 0 mu* wi%$ = by ! nephew also1 & ,i 
0 greatly desir\s to promote !          
satisfaction ( bo?1 ! great             
disproportion ( age1 & ! extreme        
repugnancy ( ! "y lady1 made me jo9 ) ! 
"m 9 po/pon+ ! c]emony1 & ! affair 0 at 
l5g? brok5 (f4 ,! colonel has s9ce m>ri$
 ,mademoiselle ,dillan1 8 relation1     
beautiful1 & amiable z my he>t c\ld wi%1
 & :o has made him ! happie/ ( husb&s & 
fa!rs4 ,h[ev]1 ,m4 ,r\g9 has n yet      
=gott5 my opposition to 8 wi%es4 ,my    
consolation is 9 ! c]ta9ty ( hav+       
dis*>g$ to him1 & 8 family1 ! duty ( !  
mo/ pure fri5d%ip1 :i* does n always    
consi/ 9 be+ agreeable1 b 9 advis+ = !  
be/4  ,i did n rema9 long 9 d\bt ab\t ! 

reception :i* await$ me at ,g5eva1 _h ,i
 *os5 to return to t city4 ,my book 0   
burn$ !re1 & on ! #ah? ( ,june1 n9e days
 aft] an ord] to arre/ me _h be5 giv5 at
 ,p>is1 ano!r to ! same effect 0 det]m9$
 ^u by ! republic4 ,s _m incr$ible      
absurdities 7 /at$ 9 ?is second decree1 
9 :i* ! ecclesia/ical edict 0 =mally    
violat$1 t ,i refus$ to believe ! fir/  
acc\nts ,i he>d ( x1 & :5 ^! 7 well     
confirm$1 ,i trembl$ le/ s manife/ an   
infraction ( e law1 beg9n+ ) t (        
common-s5se1 %\ld create ! greate/      
confusion 9 ! city4 ,i 01 h[ev]1 reliev$
 f my fe>s2 ev]y?+ rema9$ quiet4 ,if !re
 0 any rumor among/ ! populace1 x 0     
unfavorable to me1 & ,i 0 publicly      
treat$ by all ! gossips & p$ants l a    
s*ol> ?reat5$ ) a flogg+ = n hav+ said 8
 cate*ism4  ,^! two decrees 7 ! signal =
 ! cry ( mal$iction1 rais$ aga9/ me )   
unexampl$ fury 9 e "p ( ,europe4 ,all ! 
gazettes1 j\rnals & pamphlets1 rang !   
al>m-bell4 ,! ,fr5* especially1 t mild1 
g5]\s1 & poli%$ p1 :o s mu* pique       

!mselves ^u _! att5tion & prop]         
condesc5sion to ! un=tunate1 in/antly   
=gett+ _! favorite virtues1 signaliz$   
!mselves by ! numb] & viol5ce ( !       
outrages ) :i*1 :ile ea* seem$ to /rive 
:o %\ld afflict me mo/1 !y ov]:elm$ me4 
,i 0 impi\s1 an a!i/1 a madman1 a wild  
bea/1 a wolf4 ,! cont9uator ( ! ,j\rnal 
( ,trev\x 0 guilty ( a piece (          
extravagance 9 attack+ my pret5d$       
,lycan?ropy1 :i* 0 by no means pro( ( 8 
own4 ,a /rang] w\ld h ?\ght an au?or 9  
,p>is 0 afraid ( incurr+ ! animadv]sion 
( ! police1 by publi%+ a "w ( any k9d   
)\t cramm+ into x "s insult to me4 ,i   
s\ght 9 va9 ! cause ( ?is unanim\s      
animosity1 & 0 almo/ tempt$ to believe !
 _w 0 gone mad4 ,:at6 said ,i to myself1
 ! editor ( ! ',p]petual ,peace'1 spread
 discord2 ! au?or ( ! ',confession ( !  
,savoy>d ,vic>'1 impi\s2 ! writ] ( !    
',new ,eloisa'1 a wolf2 ! au?or (       
',emilius'1 a madman6 ,graci\s ,god6 :at
 !n %\ld ,i h be5 _h ,i publi%$ !       
treatise ( ',esprit'1 or any simil> "w8 

,& yet1 9 ! /orm rais$ aga9/ ! au?or ( t
 book1 ! public1 f> f jo9+ ! cry ( 8    
p]secutors1 rev5g$ him ( !m by eulogium4
 ,let 8 book & m9e1 ! receptions ! two  
works met )1 & ! treatm5t ( ! two au?ors
 9 ! diff]5t c\ntries ( ,europe1 be     
comp>$2 & = ! diff]5ce let causes       
satisfactory to a man ( s5se be f\nd1 & 
,i w ask no m4  ,i f\nd ! resid5ce (    
,yv]don s agreeable t ,i resolv$ to     
yield to ! solicitations ( ,m4 ,rogu9 & 
8 family1 :o1 7 desir\s ( keep+ me !re4 
,m4 de ,moiry de ,g+9s1 bailiff ( t     
city1 enc\rag$ me by 8 goodness to rema9
 )9 8 jurisdiction4 ,! colonel press$ me
 s mu* to accept = my habitation a      
little pavilion he _h 9 8 h\se betwe5 ! 
c\rt & ! g>d51 t ,i compli$ ) 8 reque/1 
& he imm$iately furni%$ x ) ev]y?+      
necess>y = my little h\sehold           
e/abli%m5t4 ,! bann]et ,rogu91 "o ( !   
p]sons :o %[$ me ! mo/ assidu\s         
att5tion1 did n leave me = an in/ant    
dur+ ! :ole day4 ,i 0 mu* flatt]$ by 8  
civilities1 b !y sometimes importun$ me4

 ,! day on :i* ,i 0 to take possession (
 my new habitation 0 already fix$1 & ,i 
_h writt5 to ,!resa to come to me1 :5   
sudd5ly a /orm 0 rais$ aga9/ me 9 ,b]ne1
 :i* 0 attribut$ to ! devotees1 b ,i h  
nev] be5 able to le>n ! cause ( x4 ,!   
s5ate1 excit$ aga9/ me1 )\t my kn[+ by  
:om1 did n seem dispos$ to suff] me to  
rema9 undi/urb$ 9 my retreat4 ,! mom5t !
 bailiff 0 in=m$ ( ! new f]m5tation1 he 
wrote 9 my favor to sev]al ( ! memb]s ( 
! gov]nm5t1 reproa*+ !m ) _! bl9d       
intol]ance1 & tell+ !m x 0 %ameful to   
refuse to a man ( m]it1 "u oppression1 !
 asylum :i* su* a num]\s b&itti f\nd 9  
_! /ates4 ,s5sible p 7 ( op9ion ! w>m? (
 8 reproa*es _h r embitt]$ ?an s(t5$ !  
m9ds ( ! magi/rates4 ,h[ev] ?is may be1 
nei!r 8 influ5ce nor eloqu5ce c\ld w>d  
(f ! bl[4 ,hav+ receiv$ an intimation ( 
! ord] he 0 to signify to me1 he gave me
 a previ\s communication ( x2 & t ,i    
might wait its arrival1 ,i resolv$ to   
set (f ! next day4 ,! difficulty 0 to "k
 :]e to g1 f9d+ myself %ut out f ,g5eva 

& all ,france1 & =esee+ t 9 ! affair ea*
 /ate w\ld be anxi\s to imitate its     
neighbor4  ,madam ,boy de la ,t\r       
propos$ to me to g & reside 9 an        
un9habit$ b completely furni%$ h\se1 :i*
 belong$ to h] son 9 ! village (        
,moti]s1 9 ! ,val de ,trav]s1 9 ! c\nty 
( ,neu*atel4 ,i _h only a m\nta9 to     
cross to arrive at x4 ,! (f] came ! m   
opportunely1 z 9 ! /ates ( ! ,k+ (      
,prussia ,i %\ld naturally be %elt]$ f  
all p]secution1 at lea/ religion c\ld n 
s]ve z a pretext = x4 ,b a secret       
difficulty3 improp] = me at t mom5t to  
divulge1 _h 9 x t :i* 0 v suffici5t to  
make me hesitate4 ,! innnate love (     
ju/ice1 to :i* my he>t 0 con/antly      
subject1 add$ to my secret incl9ation to
 ,france1 _h inspir$ me ) an av]sion to 
! ,k+ ( ,prussia1 :o by 8 maxims &      
conduct1 seem$ to tread "u foot all     
respect = natural law & e duty (        
humanity4 ,among/ ! fram$ engrav+s1 )   
:i* ,i _h decorat$ my alcove at         
,montmor5cy1 0 a portrait ( ?is pr9ce1 &

 "u x a di/i*1 ! la/ l9e ( :i* 0 z      
foll[s3            ,il p5se en          
philosophe1 et se conduit en roi4       
,he ?9ks l a philosoph]1 & acts l a k+4 
,?is v]se1 :i* f any o!r p5 w\ld h be5 a
 f9e eulogium1 f m9e _h an unequivocal  
mean+1 & too cle>ly expla9$ ! v]se by   
:i* x 0 prec$$4 ,! di/i* _h be51 read by
 ev]ybody :o came to see me1 & my       
visitors 7 num]\s4 ,! ,*evali] de       
,lor5zy _h ev5 writt5 x d[n to give x to
 ,d',alemb]t1 & ,i _h no d\bt b ,d'     
,alemb]t _h tak5 c>e to make my c\rt ) x
 to ! pr9ce4 ,i _h also aggravat$ ?is   
fir/ fault by a passage 9 ',emilius'1   
:]e "u ! "n ( ,adra/us1 k+ ( !          
,daunians1 x 0 cle>ly se5 :om ,i _h 9   
view1 & ! rem>k _h n escap$ critics1    
because ,madam de ,b\ffl]s _h sev]al    
times m5tion$ ! subject to me4 ,i 01    
!re=e1 c]ta9 ( be+ inscrib$ 9 r$ ink 9 !
 regi/]s ( ! ,k+ ( ,prussia1 & besides1 
suppos+ 8 maje/y to h ! pr9ciples ,i _h 
d>$ to attribute to him1 he1 = t reason1
 c\ld n b be displeas$ ) my writ+s & _! 

au?or2 = ev]ybody kn[s ! wor?less "p (  
mank9d1 & tyrants h nev] fail$ to       
conceive ! mo/ mortal hatr$ aga9/ me1   
solely on read+ my works1 )\t be+       
acqua9t$ ) my p]son4  ,h[ev]1 ,i _h     
presumption en\gh to dep5d ^u 8 m]cy1 & 
0 f> f ?9k+ ,i ran mu* risk4 ,i knew    
none b weak m5 7 slaves to ! base       
passions1 & t ^! _h b little p[] ov]    
/rong m9ds1 su* z ,i _h always ?\ght 8  
to be4 ,accord+ to 8 art ( reign+1 ,i   
?\ght he c\ld n b %[ himself magnanim\s 
on ?is occasion1 & t be+ s 9 fact 0 n   
above 8 "*4 ,i ?\ght a mean & easy      
v5geance w\ld n = a mom5t c\nt]balance 8
 love ( glory1 & putt+ myself 9 8 place1
 8 tak+ advantage ( circum/ances to     
ov]:elm ) ! weight ( 8 g5]osity a man :o
 _h d>$ to ?9k ill ( him1 did n appe> to
 me impossible4 ,i !re=e w5t to settle  
at ,moti]s1 ) a confid5ce ( :i* ,i      
imag9$ he w\ld feel all ! value1 & said 
to myself3 ,:5 ,jean ,jacques rises to !
 elevation ( ,coriolanus1 w ,fr$]ick s9k
 bel[ ! ,g5]al ( ! ,volsci8  ,colonel   

,rogu9 insi/$ on cross+ ! m\nta9 ) me1 &
 in/all+ me at ,moit]s4 ,a si/]-9-law to
 ,madam ,boy de la ,t\r1 nam$ ,madam    
,gir>di]1 to :om ! h\se 9 :i* ,i 0 go+  
to live 0 v conv5i5t1 did n see me      
arrive !re ) pleasure2 h[ev]1 %e ) a    
good grace put me 9 possession ( my     
lodg+s1 & ,i ate ) h] until ,!resa came1
 & my little e/abli%m5t 0 =m$4  ,p]ceiv+
 at my dep>ture f ,montmor5cy ,i %\ld 9 
future be a fugitive ^u ! e>?1 ,i       
hesitat$ ab\t p]mitt+ h] to come to me &
 p>take ( ! w&]+ life to :i* ,i saw     
myself condemn$4 ,i felt ! nature ( our 
relation to ea* o!r 0 ab\t to *ange1 & t
 :at until !n _h on my "p be5 favor &   
fri5d%ip1 w\ld 9 future become s on h]s4
 ,if h] atta*m5t 0 pro( aga9/ my        
mis=tunes1 to ?is ,i knew %e mu/ become 
a victim1 & t h] grief w\ld add to my   
pa94 ,%\ld my disgrace weak5 h]         
affections1 %e w\ld make me consid] h]  
con/ancy z a sacrifice1 & in/ead ( feel+
 ! pleasure ,i _h 9 divid+ ) h] my la/  
morsel ( bread1 %e w\ld see no?+ b h]   

own m]it 9 foll[+ me :]ev] ,i 0 driv5 by
 fate4  ,i mu/ say ev]y?+2 ,i h nev]    
conceal$ ! vices ei!r ( my poor mamma or
 myself2 ,i _c be m favorable to ,!resa1
 & :atev] pleasure ,i may h 9 do+ honor 
to a p]son :o is de> to me1 ,i w n      
disguise ! tru?1 al?\gh x may discov] 9 
h] an error1 if an involunt>y *ange ( ! 
affections ( ! he>t be "o4 ,i _h long   
p]ceiv$ h]s to gr[ cool] t[>ds me1 & t  
%e 0 no long] = me :at %e _h be5 9 our  
y\ng] days4 ,( ?is ,i 0 ! m s5sible1 z =
 h] ,i 0 :at ,i _h always be54 ,i fell  
into ! same inconv5i5ce z t ( :i* ,i _h 
felt ! effect ) mamma1 & ?is effect 0 ! 
same n[ ,i 0 ) ,!resa4 ,let u n seek =  
p]fection1 :i* nature nev] produces2 x  
w\ld be ! same ?+ ) any o!r woman4 ,!   
mann] 9 :i* ,i _h dispos$ ( my *ildr51  
h[ev] reasonable x _h appe>$ to me1 _h n
 always left my he>t at ease4 ,:ile     
writ+ my ',treatise on ,education'1 ,i  
felt ,i _h neglect$ duties ) :i* x 0 n  
possible to disp5se4 ,remorse at l5g?   
became s /rong t x almo/ =c$ f me a     

public confession ( my fault at ! beg9n+
 ( my ',emilius'1 & ! passage is s cle>1
 t x is a/oni%+ any p]son %\ld1 aft]    
read+ x1 h _h ! c\rage to reproa* me )  
my error4 ,my situation 0 h[ev] /ill !  
same1 or some?+ worse1 by ! animosity ( 
my enemies1 :o s\ght to f9d me 9 a      
fault4 ,i fe>$ a relapse1 & unwill+ to  
run ! risk1 ,i pref]r$ ab/95ce to expos+
 ,!resa to a simil> mortification4 ,i _h
 besides rem>k$ t a connection ) wom5 0 
prejudicial to my heal?2 ?is d\ble      
reason made me =m resolutions to :i* ,i 
_h b sometimes badly kept1 b = ! la/    
?ree or f\r ye>s ,i _h m con/antly adh]$
 to !m4 ,x 0 9 ?is int]val ,i _h rem>k$ 
,!resa's coolness2 %e _h ! same atta*m5t
 to me f duty1 b n ! lea/ f love4 ,our  
int]c\rse naturally became less         
agreeable1 & ,i imag9$ t1 c]ta9 ( !     
cont9uation ( my c>es :]ev] %e might be1
 %e w\ld *oose to /ay at ,p>is r ?an to 
w&] ) me4 ,yet %e _h giv5 su* signs (   
grief at our p>t+1 _h requir$ ( me su*  
positive promises t we %\ld meet aga91  

&1 s9ce my dep>ture1 _h express$ to !   
,pr9ce de ,conti & ,m4 de ,luxemb\rg s  
/rong a desire ( x1 t1 f> f hav+ !      
c\rage to speak to h] ( sep>ation1 ,i   
sc>cely _h en\gh to ?9k ( x myself2 &   
aft] hav+ felt 9 my he>t h[ impossible x
 0 = me to d )\t h]1 all ,i ?\ght (     
aft]w>ds 0 to recall h] to me z soon z  
possible4 ,i wrote to h] to ?is effect1 
& %e came4 ,x 0 sc>cely two mon?s s9ce  
,i _h quitt$ h]2 b x 0 our fir/         
sep>ation aft] a union ( s _m ye>s4 ,we 
_h bo? ( u felt x mo/ cruelly4 ,:at     
emotion 9 our fir/ embrace6 ,o h[       
delightful are ! te>s ( t5d]ness & joy6 
,h[ does my he>t dr9k !m up6 ,:y h ,i n 
_h reason to %$ !m m frequ5tly8  ,on my 
arrival at ,moti]s ,i _h writt5 to ,"l  
,kei?1 m>%al ( ,scotl& & gov]nor (      
,neu*atel1 in=m+ him ( my retreat into !
 /ates ( 8 ,prussian maje/y1 & reque/+ (
 him 8 protection4 ,he answ]$ me ) 8    
well-kn[n g5]osity1 & 9 ! mann] ,i _h   
expect$ f him4 ,he invit$ me to 8 h\se4 
,i w5t ) ,m4 ,m>t9et1 "l ( ! manor (    

,val de ,trav]s1 :o 0 9 great favor ) 8 
excell5cy4 ,! v5]able appe>ance ( ?is   
illu/ri\s & virtu\s ,scot*man p[]fully  
affect$ my he>t1 & f t in/ant began     
betwe5 him & me ! /rong atta*m5t1 :i* on
 my "p /ill rema9s ! same1 & w\ld be s  
on 81 _h n ! traitors1 :o h depriv$ me (
 all ! consolation ( life1 tak5         
advantage ( my abs5ce to deceive 8 old  
age & depreciate me 9 8 e/eem4  ,george 
,kei?1 h]$it>y m>%al ( ,scotl&1 & bro!r 
to ! fam\s ,g5]al ,kei?1 :o liv$        
glori\sly & di$ 9 ! b$ ( honor1 _h      
quitt$ 8 c\ntry at a v e>ly age1 & 0    
proscrib$ on acc\nt ( 8 atta*m5t to !   
h\se ( ,/u>t4 ,) t h\se1 h[ev]1 he soon 
became disgu/$ ) ! unju/ & tyrannical _s
 he rem>k$ 9 ! rul+ "* ( ! ,/u>t family4
 ,he liv$ a long "t 9 ,spa91 ! climate (
 :i* pleas$ him exce$+ly1 & at l5g?     
atta*$ himself1 z 8 bro!r _h done1 to ! 
s]vice ( ! ,k+ ( ,prussia1 :o knew m5 & 
gave !m ! reception !y m]it$4 ,8 maje/y 
receiv$ a great return = ?is reception1 
9 ! s]vices r5d]$ him by ,m>%al ,kei?1 &

 by :at 0 inf9itely m preci\s1 ! s9c]e  
fri5d%ip ( 8 lord%ip4 ,! great m9d ( ?is
 wor?y man1 haughty & republican1 c\ld  
/oop to no o!r yoke ?an t ( fri5d%ip1 b 
to ?is x 0 s ob$i5t1 t ) v diff]5t      
maxims he saw no?+ b ,fr$]ic ! mom5t he 
became atta*$ to him4 ,! k+ *>g$ ! m>%al
 ) affairs ( importance1 s5t him to     
,p>is1 to ,spa91 & at l5g?1 see+ he 0   
already advanc$ 9 ye>s1 let him retire )
 ! gov]nm5t ( ,neu*atel1 & ! delightful 
employm5t ( pass+ !re ! rema9d] ( 8 life
 9 r5d]+ ! inhabitants happy4  ,! p (   
,neu*atel1 ^: mann]s are trivial1 "k n  
h[ to di/+ui% solid m]it1 & suppose wit 
to consi/ 9 long disc\rses4 ,:5 !y saw a
 s$ate man ( simple mann]s appe> among/ 
!m1 !y mi/ook 8 simplicity = haught9ess1
 8 c&or = ru/icity1 8 laconism =        
/upidity1 & reject$ 8 b5evol5t c>es1    
because1 wi%+ to be useful1 & n be+ a   
sycophant1 he knew n h[ to flatt] p he  
did n e/eem4 ,9 ! ridicul\s affair ( !  
m9i/] ,petitpi]re1 :o 0 displac$ by 8   
colleagues1 = hav+ be5 unwill+ !y %\ld  

be et]nally damn$1 my "l1 oppos+ !      
usurpations ( ! m9i/]s1 saw ! :ole      
c\ntry ( :i* he took ! "p1 rise up aga9/
 him1 & :5 ,i arriv$ !re ! /upid murmur 
_h n entirely subsid$4 ,he pass$ = a man
 influ5c$ by ! prejudices ) :i* he 0    
inspir$ by o!rs1 & ( all ! imputations  
br\ght aga9/ him x 0 ! mo/ devoid (     
tru?4 ,my fir/ s5tim5t on see+ ?is      
v5]able old man1 0 t ( t5d]             
commis]ation1 on acc\nt ( 8 extreme     
leanness ( body1 ye>s hav+ already left 
him little else b sk9 & bone2 b :5 ,i   
rais$ my eyes to 8 animat$1 op51 noble  
c\nt5ance1 ,i felt a respect1 m+l$ )    
confid5ce1 :i* absorb$ e o!r s5tim5t4   
,he answ]$ ! v %ort complim5t ,i made   
him :5 ,i fir/ came into 8 pres5ce by   
speak+ ( some?+ else1 z if ,i _h already
 be5 a week 9 8 h\se4 ,he did n bid u   
sit d[n4 ,! /upid *atela91 ! "l ( !     
manor1 rema9$ /&+4 ,= my "p ,i at fir/  
sight saw 9 ! f9e & pi]c+ eye ( 8       
lord%ip some?+ s conciliat+ t1 feel+    
myself entirely at ease1 ,i )\t c]emony1

 took my seat by 8 side ^u ! s(a4 ,by ! 
famili>ity ( 8 mann] ,i imm$iately      
p]ceiv$ ! lib]ty ,i took gave him       
pleasure1 & t he said to himself3 ,?is  
is n a ,neu*atelois4  ,s+ul> effect ( ! 
simil>ity ( *>act]s6 ,at an age :5 !    
he>t loses its natural w>m?1 t ( ?is    
good old man grew w>m by 8 atta*m5t to  
me to a degree :i* surpris$ ev]ybody4   
,he came to see me at ,moti]s "u !      
pret5ce ( quail %oot+1 & /ay$ !re two   
days )\t t\*+ a gun4 ,we conceiv$ su* a 
fri5d%ip = ea* o!r t we knew n h[ to    
live sep>ate2 ! ca/le ( ,colombi]1 :]e  
he pass$ ! summ]1 0 six leagues f       
,moti]s2 ,i w5t !re at lea/ once a      
=tnight1 & made a /ay ( tw5ty-f\r h\rs1 
& !n return$ l a pilgrim ) my he>t full 
( affection = my ho/4 ,! emotion ,i _h  
=m]ly exp]i5c$ 9 my j\rneys f !         
,h]mitage to ,eaubonne 0 c]ta9ly v      
diff]5t1 b x 0 n m pleas+ ?an t ) :i* ,i
 approa*$ ,columbi]4  ,:at te>s (       
t5d]ness h ,i %$ :5 on ! road to x1 :ile
 ?9k+ ( ! pat]nal goodness1 amiable     

virtues1 & *>m+ philosophy ( ?is        
respectable old man6 ,i call$ him fa!r1 
& he call$ me son4 ,^! affectionate     
names give1 9 "s measure1 an idea ( !   
atta*m5t by :i* we 7 unit$1 b by no     
means t ( ! want we felt ( ea* o!r1 nor 
( our cont9ual desire to be toge!r4 ,he 
w\ld absolutely give me an ap>tm5t at ! 
ca/le ( ,columbi]1 & = a long "t press$ 
me to take up my resid5ce 9 t 9 :i* ,i  
lodg$ dur+ my visits4 ,i at l5g? told   
him ,i 0 m free & at my ease 9 my own   
h\se1 & t ,i _h r cont9ue until ! end ( 
my life to come & see him4 ,he approv$ (
 my c&or1 & nev] aft]w>ds spoke to me on
 ! subject4 ,oh1 my good "l6 ,oh1 my    
wor?y fa!r6 ,h[ is my he>t /ill mov$ :5 
,i ?9k ( y\r goodness8 ,ah1 b>b>\s      
wret*es6 h[ deeply did !y w\nd me :5 !y 
depriv$ me ( y\r fri5d%ip8 ,b no1 great 
man1 y are & ev] w be ! same = me1 :o am
 /ill ! same4 ,y h be5 deceiv$1 b y are 
n *ang$4 ,my "l m>e*al is n )\t faults2 
he is a man ( wisdom1 b he is /ill a    
man4 ,) ! greate/ p5etration1 ! nice/   

discrim9ation1 & ! mo/ pr(\nd k ( m51 he
 sometimes suff]s himself to be deceiv$1
 & nev] recov]s 8 error4 ,8 temp] is v  
s+ul> & =eign to 8 g5]al turn ( m9d4 ,he
 seems to =get ! p he sees e day1 & ?9ks
 ( !m 9 a mom5t :5 !y lea/ expect x2 8  
att5tion seems ill-tim$2 8 pres5ts are  
dictat$ by caprice & n by propriety4 ,he
 gives or s5ds 9 an in/ant :atev] comes 
into 8 head1 be ! value ( x ev] s small4
 ,a "y ,g5evese1 desir\s ( ent]+ into ! 
s]vice ( ,prussia1 made a p]sonal       
application to him2 8 lord%ip1 in/ead ( 
giv+ him a lett]1 gave him a little bag 
( peas1 :i* he desir$ him to c>ry to !  
k+4 ,on receiv+ ?is s+ul> recomm5dation 
8 maje/y gave a commission to ! be>] (  
x4 ,^! elevat$ g5iuses h betwe5 !mselves
 a language :i* ! vulg> w nev] und]/&4  
,! :imsical mann] ( my "l m>e*al1 some?+
 l ! caprice ( a f9e woman1 r5d]$ him   
/ill m int]e/+ to me4 ,i 0 c]ta91 &     
aft]w>ds _h pro(s1 t x _h n ! lea/      
influ5ce ov] 8 s5tim5ts1 nor did x      
affect ! c>es prescrib$ by fri5d%ip on  

s]i\s occasions1 yet 9 8 mann] ( oblig+ 
!re is ! same s+ul>ity z 9 8 mann]s 9   
g5]al4 ,( ?is ,i w give "o in/ance      
relative to a matt] ( no great          
importance4 ,! j\rney f ,moti]s to      
,colombi] be+ too long = me to p]=m 9 "o
 day1 ,i commonly divid$ x by sett+ (f  
aft] d9n] & sleep+ at ,brot1 :i* is half
 way4 ,! l&lord ( ! h\se :]e ,i /opp$1  
nam$ ,s&oz1 hav+ to solicit at ,b]l9 a  
favor ( importance to him1 begg$ ,i w\ld
 reque/ 8 excell5cy to ask x 9 8 behalf4
 ,mo/ will+ly1 said ,i1 & took him ) me4
 ,i left him 9 ! ante*amb]1 & m5tion$ ! 
matt] to 8 lord%ip1 :o return$ me no    
answ]4 ,aft] pass+ ) him ! :ole morn+1  
,i saw z ,i cross$ ! hall to g to d9n]1 
poor ,s&oz1 :o 0 fatigu$ to dea? )      
wait+4 ,?9k+ ! gov]nor _h =gott5 :at ,i 
_h said to him1 ,i aga9 spoke ( !       
bus9ess be=e we sat d[n to table1 b /ill
 receiv$ no answ]4 ,i ?\ght ?is mann] ( 
mak+ me feel ,i 0 importunate r sev]e1  
&1 pity+ ! poor man 9 wait+1 held my    
tongue4 ,on my return ! next day ,i 0   

mu* surpris$ at ! ?anks he return$ me = 
! good d9n] 8 excell5cy _h giv5 him aft]
 receiv+ 8 pap]4 ,?ree weeks aft]w>ds 8 
lord%ip s5t him ! rescript he _h        
solicit$1 dispat*$ by ! m9i/]1 & sign$  
by ! k+1 & ?is )\t hav+ said a ^w ei!r  
to myself or ,s&oz conc]n+ ! bus9ess1   
ab\t :i* ,i ?\ght he did n wi% to give  
himself ! lea/ conc]n4  ,i c\ld wi%     
incessantly to speak ( ,george ,kei?2 f 
him proce$s my recollection ( ! la/     
happy mom5ts ,i h enjoy$3 ! re/ ( my    
life1 s9ce our sep>ation1 has be5 pass$ 
9 affliction & grief ( he>t4 ,!         
remembrance ( ?is is s melan*oly &      
confus$ t x 0 impossible = me to obs]ve 
! lea/ ord] 9 :at ,i write1 s t 9 future
 ,i %all be "u ! necessity ( /at+ facts 
)\t giv+ !m a regul> arrangem5t4  ,i 0  
soon reliev$ f my inquietude aris+ f !  
unc]ta9ty ( my asylum1 by ! answ] f 8   
maje/y to ! "l m>%al1 9 :om1 z x w      
readily be believ$1 ,i _h f\nd an able  
advocate4 ,! k+ n only approv$ ( :at he 
_h done1 b desir$ him1 = ,i mu/ relate  

ev]y?+1 to give me twelve l\is4 ,! good 
old man1 r emb>rass$ by ! commission1 & 
n kn[+ h[ to execute x prop]ly1         
endeavor$ to s(t5 ! insult by trans=m+ !
 money into provisions1 & writ+ to me t 
he _h receiv$ ord]s to furni% me ) wood 
& coal to beg9 my little e/abli%m5t2 he 
moreov] add$1 & p]haps f himself1 t 8   
maje/y w\ld will+ly build me a little   
h\se1 su* a "o z ,i %\ld *oose to h1    
provid$ ,i w\ld fix ^u ! gr\nd4 ,i 0    
extremely s5sible ( ! k9dness ( ! la/   
(f]1 :i* made me =get ! weakness ( !    
o!r4 ,)\t accept+ ei!r1 ,i consid]$     
,fr$]ic z my b5efactor & protector1 &   
became s s9c]ely atta*$ to him1 t f t   
mom5t ,i int]e/$ myself z mu* 9 8 glory 
z until !n ,i _h ?\ght 8 successes      
unju/4 ,at ! peace he made soon aft]1 ,i
 express$ my joy by an illum9ation 9 a v
 good ta/e3 x 0 a /r+ ( g>l&s1 ) :i* ,i 
decorat$ ! h\se ,i inhabit$1 & 9 :i*1 x 
is true1 ,i _h ! v9dictive haught9ess to
 sp5d almo/ z mu* money z he _h wi%$ to 
give me4 ,! peace ratifi$1 ,i ?\ght z he

 0 at ! highe/ p9nacle ( milit>y &      
political fame1 he w\ld ?9k ( acquir+ t 
( ano!r nature1 by reanimat+ 8 /ates1   
enc\rag+ 9 !m comm]ce & agriculture1    
creat+ a new soil1 cov]+ x ) a new p1   
ma9ta9+ peace among/ 8 neighbors1 &     
becom+ ! arbitrator1 aft] hav+ be5 !    
t]ror1 ( ,europe4 ,he 0 9 a situation to
 %ea? 8 sword )\t dang]1 c]ta9 t no     
sov]eign w\ld oblige him aga9 to draw x4
 ,p]ceiv+ he did n dis>m1 ,i 0 afraid he
 w\ld pr(it b little by ! advantages he 
_h ga9$1 & t he w\ld be great only by   
halves4 ,i d>$ to write to him ^u !     
subject1 & ) a famili>ity ( a nature to 
please m5 ( 8 "*1 convey+ to him ! sacr$
 voice ( tru?1 :i* b few k+s are wor?y  
to he>4 ,! lib]ty ,i took 0 a secret    
betwe5 him & myself4 ,i did n           
communicate x ev5 to ! "l m>%al1 to :om 
,i s5t my lett] to ! k+ seal$ up4 ,8    
lord%ip =w>d$ my dispat* )\t ask+ :at x 
conta9$4 ,8 maje/y return$ me no answ] &
 ! m>%al go+ soon aft] to ,b]l91 ! k+   
told him he _h receiv$ f me a scold+4   

,by ?is ,i und]/ood my lett] _h be5 ill 
receiv$1 & ! frankness ( my zeal _h be5 
mi/ak5 = ! ru/icity ( a p$ant4 ,9 fact1 
?is might possibly be ! case2 p]haps ,i 
did n say :at 0 necess>y1 nor 9 ! mann] 
prop] to ! occasion4 ,all ,i c answ] =  
is ! s5tim5t :i* induc$ me to take up ! 
p54  ,%ortly aft] my e/abli%m5t at      
,moti]s1 ,trav]s hav+ e possible        
assurance t ,i %\ld be suff]$ to rema9  
!re 9 peace1 ,i took ! ,arm5ian habit4  
,?is 0 n ! fir/ "t ,i _h ?\ght ( do+ x4 
,i _h =m]ly _h ! same int5tion1         
p>ticul>ly at ,montmor5cy1 :]e ! frequ5t
 use ( probes (t5 oblig+ me to keep my  
*amb]1 made me m cle>ly p]ceive !       
advantages ( a long robe4 ,! conv5i5ce (
 an ,arm5ian tailor1 :o frequ5tly came  
to see a relation he _h at ,montmor5cy1 
almo/ tempt$ me to det]m9e on tak+ ?is  
new dress1 tr\bl+ myself b little ab\t  
:at ! _w w\ld say ( x4 ,yet1 be=e ,i    
conclud$ ab\t ! matt]1 ,i wi%$ to take !
 op9ion ( ,m4 de ,luxemb\rg1 :o         
imm$iately advis$ me to foll[ my        

incl9ation4 ,i !re=e procur$ a little   
,arm5ian w>drobe1 b on acc\nt ( ! /orm  
rais$ aga9/ me1 ,i 0 induc$ to po/pone  
mak+ use ( x until ,i %\ld enjoy        
tranquillity1 & x 0 n until "s mon?s    
aft]w>ds t1 =c$ by new attacks ( my     
disord]1 ,i ?\ght ,i c\ld prop]ly1 & )\t
 ! lea/ risk1 put on my new dress at    
,moti]s1 especially aft] hav+ consult$ !
 pa/or ( ! place1 :o told me ,i might   
we> x ev5 9 ! temple )\t indec5cy4 ,i !n
 adopt$ ! wai/coat1 caffetan1 fur       
bonnet1 & girdle2 & aft] hav+ 9 ?is     
dress att5d$ div9e s]vice1 ,i saw no    
impropriety 9 go+ 9 x to visit 8        
lord%ip4 ,8 excell5cy 9 see+ me clo!d 9 
?is mann] made me no o!r complim5t ?an t
 :i* consi/$ 9 say+ ,salaam aleki1 i4e41
 ,peace be ) y2 ! common ,turki%        
salutation2 aft] :i* no?+ m 0 said ^u ! 
subject1 & ,i cont9u$ to we> my new     
dress4  ,hav+ q ab&on$ lit]ature1 all ,i
 n[ ?\ght ( 0 lead+ a quiet life1 & "o z
 agreeable z ,i c\ld make x4 ,:5 alone1 
,i h nev] felt we>9ess ( m9d1 n ev5 9   

complete inaction2 my imag9ation fill+  
up e void1 0 suffici5t to keep up my    
att5tion4 ,! inactive babbl+ ( a private
 circle1 :]e1 seat$ opposite to ea* o!r1
 !y :o speak move no?+ b ! tongue1 is ! 
only ?+ ,i h ev] be5 unable to support4 
,:5 walk+ & rambl+ ab\t !re is "s       
satisfaction 9 conv]sation2 ! feet &    
eyes d some?+2 b to he> p ) _! arms     
across speak ( ! wea!r1 ( ! bit+ (      
flies1 or :at is /ill worse1 complim5t  
ea* o!r1 is to me an insupportable      
torm5t4 ,t ,i might n live l a savage1  
,i took x into my head to le>n to make  
laces4 ,l ! wom51 ,i c>ri$ my cu%ion )  
me1 :5 ,i w5t to make visits1 or sat d[n
 to "w at my door1 & *att$ ) pass]s-by4 
,?is made me ! bett] support ! empt9ess 
( babbl+1 & enabl$ me to pass my "t ) my
 female neighbors )\t we>9ess4 ,sev]al (
 ^! 7 v amiable & n devoid ( wit4 ,"o 9 
p>ticul>1 ,isabella d',iv]nois1 daught] 
( ! attorney-g5]al ( ,neu*atel1 ,i f\nd 
s e/imable z to induce me to ent] ) h]  
into t]ms ( p>ticul> fri5d%ip1 f :i* %e 

d]iv$ "s advantage by ! useful advice ,i
 gave h]1 & ! s]vices %e receiv$ f me on
 occasions ( importance1 s t n[ a wor?y 
& virtu\s "m ( a family1 %e is p]haps   
indebt$ to me = h] reason1 h] husb&1 h] 
life1 & happ9ess4 ,on my "p1 ,i receiv$ 
f h] g5tle consolation1 p>ticul>ly dur+ 
a melan*oly w9t]1 ?r\gh\t ! :ole ( :i*  
:5 my suff]+s 7 mo/ cruel1 %e came to   
pass ) ,!resa & me long ev5+s1 :i* %e   
made v %ort = u by h] agreeable         
conv]sation1 & our mutual op5ness (     
he>t4 ,%e call$ me papa1 & ,i call$ h]  
daught]1 & ^! names1 :i* we /ill give to
 ea* o!r1 w1 ,i hope1 cont9ue to be z   
de> to h] z !y are to me4 ,t my laces   
might be ( "s utility1 ,i gave !m to my 
"y female fri5ds at _! m>riages1 ^u     
condition ( _! suckl+ _! *ildr52        
,isabella's elde/ si/] _h "o ^u ^! t]ms1
 & well des]v$ x by h] obs]vance ( !m2  
,isabella h]self also receiv$ ano!r1    
:i*1 by int5tion1 %e z fully m]it$4 ,%e 
has n be5 happy en\gh to be able to     
pursue h] incl9ation4 ,:5 ,i s5t ! laces

 to ! two si/]s1 ,i wrote ea* ( !m a    
lett]2 ! fir/ has be5 %[n ab\t 9 ! _w2 !
 second has n ! same celebrity3 fri5d%ip
 proce$s ) less noise4  ,among/ !       
connections ,i made 9 my neighborhood1 (
 :i* ,i w n ent] into a detail1 ,i mu/  
m5tion t ) ,colonel ,pury1 :o _h a h\se 
^u ! m\nta91 :]e he came to pass !      
summ]4 ,i 0 n anxi\s to become acqua9t$ 
) him1 because ,i knew he 0 ^u bad t]ms 
at c\rt1 & ) ! "l m>%al1 :om he did n   
visit4 ,yet1 z he came to see me1 & %[$ 
me mu* att5tion1 ,i 0 "u ! necessity (  
return+ 8 visit2 ?is 0 repeat$1 & we    
sometimes d9$ ) ea* o!r4 ,at 8 h\se ,i  
became acqua9t$ ) ,m4 du ,p]\1 &        
aft]w>ds too intimately connect$ ) him  
to pass 8 "n ov] 9 sil5ce4  ,m4 du ,p]\ 
0 an ,am]ican1 son to a comm&ant (      
,sur9am1 ^: successor1 ,m4 le ,*ambri]1 
( ,neu*atel1 m>ri$ 8 wid[4 ,left a wid[ 
a second "t1 %e came ) h] son to live 9 
! c\ntry ( h] second husb&4  ,du ,p]\1  
an only son1 v ri*1 & t5d]ly belov$ by 8
 "m1 _h be5 c>efully br\ght up1 & 8     

education 0 n lo/ ^u him4 ,he _h acquir$
 mu* k1 a ta/e = ! arts1 & piqu$ himself
 ^u 8 hav+ cultivat$ 8 rational faculty3
 8 ,dut* appe>ance1 yell[ complexion1 & 
sil5t & close disposition1 favor$ ?is   
op9ion4 ,al?\gh "y1 he 0 already deaf & 
g\ty4 ,?is r5d]$ 8 motions delib]ate & v
 grave1 & al?\gh he 0 fond ( disput+1 he
 9 g5]al spoke b little because 8 he>+ 0
 bad4 ,i 0 /ruck ) 8 ext]ior1 & said to 
myself1 ?is is a ?9k]1 a man ( wisdom1  
su* a "o z anybody w\ld be happy to h = 
a fri5d4 ,he frequ5tly address$ himself 
to me )\t pay+ ! lea/ complim5t1 & ?is  
/r5g!n$ ! favorable op9ion ,i _h already
 =m$ ( him4 ,he said b little to me (   
myself or my books1 & /ill less (       
himself2 he 0 n de/itute ( ideas1 & :at 
he said 0 j4 ,?is ju/ness & equality    
attract$ my reg>d4 ,he _h nei!r !       
elevation ( m9d1 nor ! discrim9ation ( !
 "l m>%al1 b he _h all 8 simplicity3 ?is
 0 /ill repres5t+ him 9 some?+4 ,i did n
 become infatuat$ ) him1 b he acquir$ my
 atta*m5t f e/eem2 & by degrees ?is     

e/eem l$ to fri5d%ip1 & ,i totally =got 
! objection ,i made to ! ,b>on ,holba*3 
t he 0 too ri*4  ,= a long "t ,i saw b  
little ( ,du ,p]\1 because ,i did n g to
 ,neu*atel1 & he came b once a ye> to ! 
m\nta9 ( ,colonel ,pury4 ,:y did ,i n g 
to ,neu*atel8 ,?is proce$$ f a          
*ildi%ness ^u :i* ,i mu/ n be sil5t4    
,al?\gh protect$ by ! ,k+ ( ,prussia & !
 "l m>%al1 :ile ,i avoid$ p]secution 9  
my asylum1 ,i did n avoid ! murmurs ( ! 
public1 ( municipal magi/rates & m9i/]s4
 ,aft] :at _h happ5$ 9 ,france x became 
fa%ionable to insult me2 ^! p w\ld h be5
 afraid to seem to disapprove ( :at my  
p]secutors _h done by n imitat+ !m4 ,!  
'classe' ( ,neu*atel1 t is1 ! m9i/]s ( t
 city1 gave ! impulse1 by endeavor+ to  
move ! c\ncil ( /ate aga9/ me4 ,?is     
attempt n hav+ succe$$1 ! m9i/]s        
address$ !mselves to ! municipal        
magi/rate1 :o imm$iately prohibit$ my   
book1 treat+ me on all occasions ) b    
little civility1 & say+1 t _h ,i wi%$ to
 reside 9 ! city ,i %\ld n h be5 suff]$ 

to d x4 ,!y fill$ _! ,m]cury )          
absurdities & ! mo/ /upid hypocrisy1    
:i*1 al?\gh1 x makes e man ( s5se laugh1
 animat$ ! p aga9/ me4 ,?is1 h[ev]1 did 
n prev5t !m f sett+ =? t ,i ought to be 
v grateful = _! p]mitt+ me to live at   
,moti]s1 :]e !y _h no au?ority2 !y w\ld 
will+ly h measur$ me ! air by ! p9t1    
provid$ ,i _h paid = x a de> price4 ,!y 
w\ld h x t ,i 0 oblig$ to !m = !        
protection ! k+ grant$ me 9 spite ( !   
ef=ts !y incessantly made to deprive me 
( x4 ,f9ally1 fail+ ( success1 aft] hav+
 done me all ! injury !y c\ld1 & defam$ 
me to ! utmo/ ( _! p[]1 !y made a m]it (
 _! impot5ce1 by boa/+ ( _! goodness 9  
suff]+ me to /ay 9 _! c\ntry4 ,i ought  
to h laugh$ at _! va9 ef=ts1 b ,i 0     
fooli% en\gh to be vex$ at !m1 & _h !   
weakness to be unwill+ to g to          
,neu*atel1 to :i* ,i yield$ = almo/ two 
ye>s1 z if x 0 n do+ too mu* honor to   
su* wret*es1 to pay att5tion to _!      
proce$+s1 :i*1 good or bad1 c\ld n be   
imput$ to !m1 because !y nev] act b f a 

=eign impulse4 ,besides1 m9ds )\t s5se  
or k1 ^: objects ( e/eem are influ5ce1  
p[] & money1 & f> f imag9+ ev5 t "s     
respect is due to tal5ts1 & t x is      
di%onorable to injure & insult !m4  ,a  
c]ta9 mayor ( a village1 :o f sundry    
malv]sations _h be5 depriv$ ( 8 (fice1  
said to ! lieut5ant ( ,val de ,trav]s1 !
 husb& ( ,isabella3 ,i am told ?is      
,r\sseau has great wit1--br+ him to me t
 ,i may see :e!r he has or n4 ,!        
disapprobation ( su* a man ought c]ta9ly
 to h no effect ^u ^? on :om x falls4   
,aft] ! treatm5t ,i _h receiv$ at ,p>is1
 ,g5eva1 ,b]ne1 & ev5 at ,neu*atel1 ,i  
expect$ no favor f ! pa/or ( ?is place4 
,i _h1 h[ev]1 be5 recomm5d$ to him by   
,madam ,boy de la ,t\r1 & he _h giv5 me 
a good reception2 b 9 t c\ntry :]e e    
new-com] is indiscrim9ately flatt]$1    
civilities signify b little4 ,yet1 aft] 
my solemn union ) ! re=m$ *ur*1 & liv+ 9
 a ,prote/ant c\ntry1 ,i c\ld n1 )\t    
fail+ 9 my engagem5ts1 z well z 9 ! duty
 ( a citiz51 neglect ! public pr(ession 

( ! religion into :i* ,i _h ent]$2 ,i   
!re=e att5d$ div9e s]vice4 ,on ! o!r h&1
 _h ,i gone to ! holy table1 ,i 0 afraid
 ( expos+ myself to a refusal1 & x 0 by 
no means probable1 t aft] ! tumult      
excit$ at ,g5eva by ! c\ncil1 & at      
,neu*atel by ! classe 7! m9i/]s71 he    
w\ld1 )\t difficulty1 adm9i/] to me !   
sacram5t 9 8 *ur*4 ,! "t ( communion    
approa*+1 ,i wrote to ,m4 de ,montmoll91
 ! m9i/]1 to prove to him my desire (   
communicat+1 & decl>+ myself he>tily    
unit$ to ! ,prote/ant *ur*2 ,i also told
 him1 9 ord] to avoid disput+ ^u        
articles ( fai?1 t ,i w\ld n he>k5 to   
any p>ticul> explanation ( ! po9t (     
doctr9e4 ,aft] tak+ ^! /eps ,i made     
myself easy1 n d\bt+ b ,m4 de ,montmoll9
 w\ld refuse to admit me )\t ! prelim9>y
 discussion to :i* ,i refus$ to cons5t1 
& t 9 ?is mann] ev]y?+ w\ld be at an end
 )\t any fault ( m9e4 ,i 0 deceiv$3 :5  
,i lea/ expect$ any?+ ( ! k9d1 ,m4 de   
,montmoll9 came to decl>e to me n only t
 he admitt$ me to ! communion "u !      

condition :i* ,i _h propos$1 b t he & ! 
eld]s ?\ght !mselves mu* honor$ by my   
be+ "o ( _! flock4 ,i nev] 9 my :ole    
life felt great] surprise or receiv$ f x
 m consolation4 ,liv+ always alone &    
unconnect$ appe>$ to me a melan*oly     
de/9y1 especially 9 adv]sity4 ,9 ! mid/ 
( s _m proscriptions & p]secutions1 ,i  
f\nd x extremely agreeable to be able to
 say to myself3 ,i am at lea/ among/ my 
bre?r52 & ,i w5t to ! communion ) an    
emotion ( he>t1 & my eyes suffus$ ) te>s
 ( t5d]ness1 :i* p]haps 7 ! mo/         
agreeable prep>ation to ,him to ^: table
 ,i 0 draw+ ne>4  ,sometime aft]w>ds 8  
lord%ip s5t me a lett] f ,madam de      
,b\ffl]s1 :i* he _h receiv$1 at lea/ ,i 
presum$ s1 by means ( ,d',alemb]t1 :o 0 
acqua9t$ ) ! m>e*al4 ,9 ?is lett]1 !    
fir/ ?is lady _h writt5 to me aft] my   
dep>ture f ,montmor5cy1 %e rebuk$ me    
sev]ely = hav+ writt5 to ,m4 de         
,montmoll91 & especially = hav+         
communicat$4 ,i ! less und]/ood :at %e  
meant by h] repro(1 z aft] my j\rney to 

,g5eva1 ,i _h con/antly decl>$ myself a 
,prote/ant1 & _h gone publicly to !     
,hotel de ,holl&e )\t incurr+ ! lea/    
c5sure f anybody4 ,x appe>$ to me div]t+
 en\gh1 t ,madam de ,b\ffl]s %\ld wi% to
 direct my consci5ce 9 matt]s (         
religion4 ,h[ev]1 z ,i _h no d\bt ( !   
purity ( h] int5tion1 ,i 0 n (f5d$ by   
?is s+ul> sally1 & ,i answ]$ h] )\t     
ang]1 /at+ to h] my reasons4  ,calumnies
 9 pr9t 7 /ill indu/ri\sly circulat$1 & 
_! b5ign au?ors reproa*$ ! diff]5t p[]s 
) treat+ me too mildly4 ,= my "p1 ,i let
 !m say & write :at !y pleas$1 )\t giv+ 
myself ! lea/ conc]n ab\t ! matt]4 ,i 0 
told !re 0 a c5sure f ! ,sorbonne1 b ?is
 ,i c\ld n believe4 ,:at c\ld !         
,sorbonne h to d 9 ! matt]8 ,did !      
doctors wi% to "k to a c]ta9ty t ,i 0 n 
a ,ca?olic8 ,ev]ybody already knew ,i 0 
n "o4 ,7 !y desir\s ( prov+ ,i 0 n a    
good ,calv9i/8 ,( :at consequ5ce 0 ?is  
to !m8 ,x 0 tak+ ^u !mselves a s+ul>    
c>e1 & becom+ ! sub/itutes ( our m9i/]s4
 ,be=e ,i saw ?is publication ,i ?\ght x

 0 di/ribut$ 9 ! "n ( ! ,sorbonne1 by   
way ( mock]y3 & :5 ,i _h read x ,i 0    
conv9c$ ?is 0 ! case4 ,b :5 at l5g? !re 
0 n a d\bt ( its au!nticity1 all ,i c\ld
 br+ myself to believe 01 t ! le>n$     
doctors w\ld h be5 bett] plac$ 9 a      
madh\se ?an !y 7 9 ! college4  ,i 0 m   
affect$ by ano!r publication1 because x 
came f a man = :om ,i always _h an      
e/eem1 & ^: con/ancy ,i admir$1 ?\gh ,i 
piti$ 8 bl9dness4 ,i mean ! m&atory     
lett] aga9/ me by ! ar*bi%op ( ,p>is4 ,i
 ?\ght to return an answ] to x 0 a duty 
,i ow$ myself4 ,?is ,i felt ,i c\ld d   
)\t d]ogat+ f my dignity2 ! case 0      
some?+ simil> to t ( ! ,k+ ( ,pol&4 ,i  
_h always dete/$ brutal disputes1 aft] !
 mann] ( ,voltaire4 ,i nev] combat b )  
dignity1 & be=e ,i deign to def5d myself
 ,i mu/ be c]ta9 t he by :om ,i am      
attack$ w n di%onor my retort4 ,i _h no 
d\bt b ?is lett] 0 fabricat$ by !       
,jesuits1 & al?\gh !y 7 at t "t 9       
di/ress1 ,i discov]$ 9 x _! old pr9ciple
 ( cru%+ ! wret*$4 ,i 0 !re=e at lib]ty 

to foll[ my anci5t maxim1 by honor+ !   
titul>y au?or1 & refut+ ! "w :i* ,i ?9k 
,i did completely4  ,i f\nd my resid5ce 
at ,moti]s v agreeable1 & no?+ 0 want+  
to det]m9e me to end my days !re1 b a   
c]ta9ty ( ! means ( subsi/5ce4 ,liv+ is 
de> 9 t neighborhood1 & all my old      
projects _h be5 ov]turn$ by !           
dissolution ( my h\sehold arrangem5ts at
 ,montmor5cy1 ! e/abli%m5t ( o!rs1 !    
sale or squ&]+ ( my furniture1 & !      
exp5ses incurr$ s9ce my dep>ture4 ,!    
little capital :i* rema9$ to me daily   
dim9i%$4 ,two or ?ree ye>s 7 suffici5t  
to consume ! rema9d] )\t my hav+ ! means
 ( r5ew+ x1 except by aga9 engag+ 9     
lit]>y pursuits3 a p]nici\s pr(ession   
:i* ,i _h already ab&on$4 ,p]suad$ t    
ev]y?+ :i* conc]n$ me w\ld *ange1 & t ! 
public1 recov]$ f its fr5zy1 w\ld make  
my p]secutors blu%1 all my endeavors    
t5d$ to prolong my res\rces until ?is   
happy revolution %\ld take place1 aft]  
:i* ,i %\ld m at my ease *oose a res\rce
 f among/ ^? :i* might (f] !mselves4 ,to

 ?is effect ,i took up my ,diction>y (  
,music1 :i* t5 ye>s' labor _h s f>      
advanc$ z to leave no?+ want+ to x b !  
la/ corrections4 ,my books :i* ,i _h    
lately receiv$1 enabl$ me to f9i% ?is   
"w2 my pap]s s5t me by ! same           
conveyance1 furni%$ me ) ! means (      
beg9n+ my memoirs to :i* ,i 0 det]m9$ to
 give my :ole att5tion4 ,i began by     
transcrib+ ! lett]s into a book1 by :i* 
my memory might be guid$ 9 ! ord] ( fact
 & "t4 ,i _h already select$ ^? ,i      
int5d$ to keep = ?is purpose1 & = t5    
ye>s ! s]ies 0 n int]rupt$4 ,h[ev]1 9   
prep>+ !m = copy+ ,i f\nd an int]ruption
 at :i* ,i 0 surpris$4 ,?is 0 = almo/   
six mon?s1 f ,octob]1 #agef1 to ,m>*    
foll[+4 ,i recollect$ hav+ put into my  
selection a numb] ( lett]s f ,did]ot1   
,de ,leyre1 ,madam d' ,ep9ay1 ,madam de 
,*5onceaux1 etc41 :i* fill$ up ! void & 
7 miss+4 ,:at 0 become ( !m8 ,_h any    
p]son laid _! h&s ^u my pap]s :il/ !y   
rema9$ 9 ! ,hotel de ,luxemb\rg8 ,?is 0 
n conceivable1 & ,i _h se5 ,m4 de       

,luxemb\rg take ! key ( ! *amb] 9 :i* ,i
 _h deposit$ !m4 ,_m lett]s f diff]5t   
ladies1 & all ^? f ,did]ot1 7 )\t date1 
on :i* acc\nt ,i _h be5 "u ! necessity (
 dat+ !m f memory be=e !y c\ld be put 9 
ord]1 & ?9k+ ,i might h committ$ errors1
 ,i aga9 look$ !m ov] = ! purpose ( see+
 :e!r or n ,i c\ld f9d ^? :i* ought to  
fill up ! void4 ,?is exp]im5t did n     
succe$4 ,i p]ceiv$ ! vacancy to be real1
 & t ! lett]s _h c]ta9ly be5 tak5 away4 
,by :om & = :at purpose8 ,?is 0 :at ,i  
c\ld n compreh5d4 ,^! lett]s1 writt5    
prior to my great qu>rels1 & at ! "t (  
my fir/ en?usiasm 9 ! composition (     
',eloisa'1 c\ld n be int]e/+ to any     
p]son4 ,!y conta9$ no?+ m ?an cavill+s  
by ,did]ot1 je]+s f ,de ,leyre1         
assurances ( fri5d%ip f ,m4 de          
,*5onceaux1 & ev5 ,madam d',ep9ay1 ) :om
 ,i 0 !n ^u ! be/ ( t]ms4 ,to :om 7 ^!  
lett]s ( consequ5ce8 ,to :at use 7 !y to
 be put8 ,x 0 n until sev5 ye>s aft]w>ds
 t ,i suspect$ ! nature ( ! !ft4  ,!    
defici5cy be+ no long] d\btful1 ,i look$

 ov] my r\gh drafts to see :e!r or n x 0
 ! only "o4 ,i f\nd sev]al1 :i* on      
acc\nt ( ! badness ( my memory1 made me 
suppose o!rs 9 ! multitude ( my pap]s4  
,^? ,i rem>k$ 7 t ( ! ',morale          
,s5sitive'1 & ! extract ( ! adv5tures ( 
,"l ,edw>d4 ,! la/1 ,i confess1 made me 
suspect ,madam de ,luxemb\rg4 ,la ,ro*e1
 h] valet de *ambre1 _h s5t me ! pap]s1 
& ,i c\ld ?9k ( nobody b h]self to :om  
?is fragm5t c\ld be ( consequ5ce2 b :at 
conc]n c\ld ! o!r give h]1 any m ?an !  
re/ ( ! lett]s miss+1 ) :i*1 ev5 ) evil 
int5tions1 no?+ to my prejudice c\ld be 
done1 unless !y 7 falsifi$8 ,z = !      
m>e*al1 ) ^: fri5d%ip = me1 & inv>iable 
integrity1 ,i 0 p]fectly acqua9t$1 ,i   
nev] c\ld suspect him = a mom5t4 ,! mo/ 
reasonable supposition1 aft] long       
torm5t+ my m9d 9 endeavor+ to discov] ! 
au?or ( ! !ft1 0 t :i* imput$ x to      
,d',alemb]t1 :o1 hav+ ?ru/ himself into 
! company ( ,madam de ,luxemb\rg1 might 
h f\nd means to turn ov] ^! pap]s1 &    
take f among/ !m su* manuscripts &      

lett]s z he might h ?\ght prop]1 ei!r = 
! purpose ( endeavor+ to embroil me ) ! 
writ] ( !m1 or to appropriate ^? he %\ld
 f9d useful to 8 own private purposes4  
,i imag9$ t1 deceiv$ by ! title (       
,morale ,s5sitive1 he might h suppos$ x 
to be ! plan ( a real treatise ^u       
mat]ialism1 ) :i* he w\ld h arm$ himself
 aga9/ me 9 a mann] easy to be imag9$4  
,c]ta9 t he w\ld soon be undeceiv$ by   
read+ ! sket* & det]m9$ to quit all     
lit]>y pursuits1 ^! l>c5ies gave me b   
little conc]n4 ,!y besides 7 n ! fir/ ! 
same h& _h committ$ ^u me )\t hav+      
compla9$ ( ^! pilf]+s4       ,i _h f\nd 
9 8 ',elem5s de  ,musique' 7,elem5ts (  
,music7      sev]al ?+s tak5 f :at ,i _h
 writt5 = ! ',encyclop$ie'1      & :i* 7
 giv5 to him sev]al ye>s be=e !         
publication (      8 elem5ts4  ,i "k n  
:at he may h _h to d ) a book           
entitl$ ',dictionaire des ,beaux ,arts' 
7,diction>y ( ! ,f9e ,arts7      b ,i   
f\nd 9 x articles transcrib$ ^w = ^w f  
m9e1 &      ?is long be=e ! same        

articles 7 pr9t$ 9 !      ,encyclop$ie4 
,9 a v little "t ,i ?\ght no m ( ! trick
 t _h be5 play$ me ?an if no?+ _h       
happ5$1 & began to collect ! mat]ials ,i
 _h left = ! purpose ( und]tak+ my      
project$ confessions4  ,i _h long ?\ght 
! company ( m9i/]s1 or at lea/ ! citiz5s
 & burgesses ( ,g5eva1 w\ld remon/rate  
aga9/ ! infraction ( ! edict 9 ! decree 
made aga9/ me4 ,ev]y?+ rema9$ quiet1 at 
lea/ to all ext]ior appe>ance2 =        
discont5t 0 g5]al1 & ready1 on ! fir/   
opportunity1 op5ly to manife/ itself4   
,my fri5ds1 or p]sons call+ !mselves    
su*1 wrote lett] aft] lett] exhort+ me  
to come & put myself at _! head1 assur+ 
me ( public sep>ation f ! c\ncil4 ,! fe>
 ( ! di/urbance & tr\bles :i* might be  
caus$ by my pres5ce1 prev5t$ me f       
acquiesc+ ) _! desires1 &1 fai?ful to ! 
oa? ,i _h =m]ly made1 nev] to take !    
lea/ "p 9 any civil diss5sion 9 my      
c\ntry1 ,i *ose r to let ! (f5ce rema9 z
 x 01 & bani% myself =ev] f ! c\ntry1   
?an to return to x by means :i* 7 viol5t

 & dang]\s4 ,x is true1 ,i expect$ !    
burgesses w\ld make legal remon/rances  
aga9/ an infraction 9 :i* _! int]e/s 7  
deeply conc]n$2 b no su* /eps 7 tak54   
,!y :o conduct$ ! body ( citiz5s s\ght  
less ! real r$ress ( grievances ?an an  
opportunity to r5d] !mselves necess>y4  
,!y caball$ b 7 sil5t1 & suff]$ me to be
 bespatt]$ by ! gossips & hypocrites set
 on to r5d] me odi\s 9 ! eyes ( !       
populace1 & pass (f _! misdemeanors z   
religi\s zeal4  ,aft] hav+1 dur+ a :ole 
ye>1 va9ly expect$ t "s "o w\ld         
remon/rate aga9/ an illegal proce$+1 &  
see+ myself ab&on$ by my fell[-citiz5s1 
,i det]m9$ to r5\nce my ungrateful      
c\ntry 9 :i* ,i nev] _h liv$1 f :i* ,i  
_h n receiv$ ei!r inh]itance or s]vices1
 & by :i*1 9 return = ! honor ,i _h     
endeavor$ to d x1 ,i saw myself s       
unwor?ily treat$ by unanim\s cons5t1    
s9ce !y1 :o %\ld h spok51 _h rema9$     
sil5t4 ,i !re=e wrote to ! fir/ syndic =
 t ye>1 to ,m4 ,favre1 if ,i rememb] "r1
 a lett] 9 :i* ,i solemnly gave up my   

fre$om ( ! city ( ,g5eva1 c>efully      
obs]v+ 9 x1 h[ev]1 t dec5cy & mod]ation1
 f :i* ,i h nev] dep>t$ 9 ! acts (      
haught9ess :i*1 9 my mis=tunes1 !       
cruelty ( my enemies h frequ5tly =c$ ^u 
me1  ,?is /ep op5$ ! eyes ( ! citiz5s1  
:o feel+ !y _h neglect$ _! own int]e/s  
by ab&on+ my def5ce1 took my "p :5 x 0  
too late4 ,!y _h wrongs ( _! own :i* !y 
jo9$ to m9e1 & made ^! ! subject (      
sev]al well-reason$ repres5tations1 :i* 
!y /r5g!n$ & ext5d$1 z ! refusal ( !    
c\ncil1 support$ by ! m9i/ry ( ,france1 
made !m m cle>ly p]ceive ! project =m$  
to impose on !m a yoke4 ,^! alt]cations 
produc$ sev]al pamphlets :i* 7          
undecisive1 until t appe>$ entitl$      
',lettres ecrites de la ,campagne'1 a "w
 writt5 9 favor ( ! c\ncil1 ) inf9ite   
art1 & by :i* ! remon/rat+ p>ty1 r$uc$  
to sil5ce1 0 cru%$ = a "t4 ,?is         
production1 a la/+ monum5t ( ! r>e      
tal5ts ( its au?or1 came f !            
,attorney-,g5]al ,tron*91 a man ( wit & 
an enlight5$ und]/&+1 well v]s$ 9 ! laws

 & gov]nm5t ( ! republic4 ',siluit      
t]ra'4  ,! remon/rators1 recov]$ f _!   
fir/ ov]?r[1 und]took to give an answ]1 
& 9 "t produc$ "o :i* br\ght !m (f      
tol]ably well4 ,b !y all look$ to me1 z 
! only p]son capable ( combat+ a l      
adv]s>y ) hope ( success4 ,i confess ,i 
0 ( _! op9ion1 & excit$ by my =m]       
fell[-citiz5s1 :o ?\ght x 0 my duty to  
aid !m ) my p51 z ,i _h be5 ! cause ( _!
 emb>rassm5t1 ,i und]took to refute !   
',lettres ecrites de la ,campagne'1 &   
p>odi$ ! title ( !m by t ( ',lettres    
ecrites de la ,montagne1' :i* ,i gave to
 m9e4 ,i wrote ?is answ] s secretly1 t  
at a meet+ ,i _h at ,?onon1 ) ! *iefs ( 
! malcont5ts to talk ( _! affairs1 & :]e
 !y %[$ me a sket* ( _! answ]1 ,i said n
 a ^w ( m9e1 :i* 0 q ready1 fe>+        
ob/acles might arise relative to !      
impression ( x1 %\ld ! magi/rate or my  
enemies he> ( :at ,i _h done4 ,?is "w 01
 h[ev] kn[n 9 ,france be=e !            
publication2 b gov]nm5t *ose r to let x 
appe>1 ?an to suff] me to guess at !    

means by :i* my secret _h be5 discov]$4 
,conc]n+ ?is ,i w /ate :at ,i "k1 :i* is
 b trifl+3 :at ,i h conjectur$ %all     
rema9 ) myself4  ,i receiv$1 at ,moti]s1
 almo/ z _m visits z at ! ,h]mitage &   
,montmor5cy2 b ^!1 = ! mo/ "p 7 a       
diff]5t k9d4 ,!y :o _h =m]ly come to see
 me 7 p :o1 hav+ ta/e1 tal5ts1 &        
pr9ciples1 some?+ simil> to m9e1 alleg$ 
!m z ! causes ( _! visits1 & introduc$  
subjects on :i* ,i c\ld conv]se4 ,at    
,moti]s ! case 0 diff]5t1 especially ) !
 visitors :o came f ,france4 ,!y 7      
(fic]s or o!r p]sons :o _h no ta/e =    
lit]ature1 nor _h _m ( !m read my works1
 al?\gh1 accord+ to _! own acc\nts1 !y  
_h travell$ ?irty1 =ty1 sixty1 & ev5 a  
hundr$ leagues to come & see me1 &      
admire ! illu/ri\s man1 ! v celebrat$1 !
 great man1 etc4 ,= f ! "t ( my settl+  
at ,moti]s1 ,i receiv$ ! mo/ impud5t    
flatt]y1 f :i* ! e/eem ( ^? ) :om ,i    
associat$ _h =m]ly %elt]$ me4 ,z b few (
 my new visitors deign$ to tell me :o or
 :at !y 71 & z !y _h nei!r read nor ca/ 

_! eye ov] my works1 nor _h _! rese>*es 
& m9e be5 direct$ to ! same objects1 ,i 
knew n :at to speak to !m ^u3 ,i wait$ =
 :at !y _h to say1 because x 0 = !m to  
"k & tell me ! purpose ( _! visit4 ,x w 
naturally be imag9$ ?is did n produce   
conv]sations v int]e/+ to me1 al?\gh !y1
 p]haps1 7 s to my visitors1 accord+ to 
! in=mation !y might wi% to acquire2 = z
 ,i 0 )\t suspicion1 ,i answ]$ )\t      
res]ve1 to e "q !y ?\ght prop] to ask   
me1 & !y commonly w5t away z well in=m$ 
z myself ( ! p>ticul>s ( my situation4  
,i 01 = example1 visit$ 9 ?is mann] by  
,m4 de ,fe9s1 equ]ry to ! que51 & capta9
 ( cavalry1 :o _h ! pati5ce to pass     
sev]al days at ,moti]s1 & to foll[ me on
 foot ev5 to ,la ,f]ri]e1 lead+ 8 horse 
by ! bridle1 )\t hav+ ) me any po9t (   
union1 except our acqua9tance )         
,mademoiselle ,fel1 & t we bo? play$ at 
'bilboquet'4 ,a k9d ( cup & ball4  ,be=e
 ?is ,i _h receiv$ ano!r visit mu* m    
extraord9>y4 ,two m5 arriv$ on foot1 ea*
 lead+ a mule load$ ) 8 little baggage1 

lodg+ at ! inn1 tak+ c>e ( _! mules &   
ask+ to see me4 ,by ! equipage ( ^!     
mulete]s !y 7 tak5 = smuggl]s1 & ! news 
t smuggl]s 7 come to see me 0 in/antly  
spread4 ,_! mann] ( address+ me         
suffici5tly %[$ !y 7 p]sons ( ano!r     
description2 b )\t be+ smuggl]s !y might
 be adv5tur]s1 & ?is d\bt kept me = "s  
"t on my gu>d4 ,!y soon remov$ my       
appreh5sions4 ,"o 0 ,m4 de ,montauban1  
:o _h ! title ( ,comte de la ,t\r du    
,p91 g5tleman to ! dauph92 ! o!r1 ,m4   
,da/i] de ,c>p5tras1 an old (fic] :o _h 
8 cross ( ,/4 ,l\is 9 8 pocket1 because 
he c\ld n display x4 ,^! g5tlem51 bo? v 
amiable1 7 m5 ( s5se1 & _! mann] (      
travell+1 s mu* to my own ta/e1 & b     
little l t ( ,fr5* g5tlem51 9 "s measure
 ga9$ !m my atta*m5t1 :i* an int]c\rse )
 !m s]v$ to improve4 ,our acqua9tance   
did n end ) ! visit2 x is /ill kept up1 
& !y h s9ce be5 sev]al times to see me1 
n on foot1 t 0 v well = ! fir/ "t2 b ! m
 ,i h se5 ( ^! g5tlem5 ! less simil>ity 
h ,i f\nd betwe5 _! ta/e & m9e2 ,i h n  

discov]$ _! maxims to be su* z ,i h ev] 
obs]v$1 t my writ+s are famili> to !m1  
or t !re is any real sympa?y betwe5 !m &
 myself4 ,:at1 !re=e1 did !y want ) me8 
,:y came !y to see me ) su* an equipage8
 ,:y repeat _! visit8 ,:y 7 !y s desir\s
 ( hav+ me = _! ho/8 ,i did n at t "t   
propose to myself ^! que/ions2 b !y h   
sometimes occurr$ to me s9ce4  ,won by  
_! advances1 my he>t ab&on$ itself )\t  
res]ve1 especially to ,m4 ,da/i]1 ) ^:  
op5 c\nt5ance ,i 0 m p>ticul>ly pleas$4 
,i ev5 correspond$ ) him1 & :5 ,i       
det]m9$ to pr9t ! ',lett]s f !          
,m\nta9s'1 ,i ?\ght ( address+ myself to
 him1 to deceive ^? by :om my packet 0  
wait$ = ^u ! road to ,holl&4 ,he _h     
spok5 to me a good deal1 & p]haps       
purposely1 ^u ! lib]ty ( ! press at     
,avignon2 he (f]$ me 8 s]vices %\ld ,i h
 any?+ to pr9t !re3 ,i took advantage ( 
! (f] & s5t him successively by ! po/ my
 fir/ %eets4 ,aft] hav+ kept ^! = "s "t1
 he s5t !m back to me1 ,because1 said   
he1 no booksell] d>$ to sell !m2 & ,i 0 

oblig$ to h rec\rse to ,rey tak+ c>e to 
s5d my pap]s1 "o aft] ! o!r1 & n to "p )
 ^? :i* succe$$ until ,i _h advice ( !  
reception ( ^? already s5t4 ,be=e ! "w 0
 publi%$1 ,i f\nd x _h be5 se5 9 ! (fice
 ( ! m9i/]s1 & ,d',es*]ny1 ( ,neu*atel1 
spoke to me ( ! book1 entitl$ ',de      
l',homme de la ,montagne'1 :i*          
,d',holba* _h told him 0 by me4 ,i      
assur$ him1 & x 0 true1 t ,i nev] _h    
writt5 a book :i* bore t title4 ,:5 !   
lett]s appe>$ he became furi\s1 & accus$
 me ( falsehood2 al?\gh ,i _h told him  
tru?4 ,by ?is means ,i 0 c]ta9 my       
manuscript _h be5 read2 z ,i c\ld n d\bt
 ! fidelity ( ,rey1 ! mo/ rational      
conjecture seem$ to be1 t my packets _h 
be5 op5$ at ! po/-h\se4  ,ano!r         
acqua9tance ,i made mu* ab\t ! same "t1 
b :i* 0 begun by lett]s1 0 t ) ,m4      
,lali& ( ,nimes1 :o wrote to me f ,p>is1
 begg+ ,i w\ld s5d him my pr(ile2 he    
said he 0 9 want ( x = my bu/ 9 m>ble1  
:i* ,le ,mo9e 0 mak+ = him to be plac$ 9
 8 libr>y4 ,if ?is 0 a pret5ce inv5t$ to

 deceive me1 x fully succe$$4 ,i imag9$ 
t a man :o wi%$ to h my bu/ 9 m>ble 9 8 
libr>y _h 8 head full ( my works1       
consequ5tly ( my pr9ciples1 & t he lov$ 
me because 8 m9d 0 9 unison ) m9e4 ,x 0 
natural ?is idea %\ld s$uce me4 ,i h    
s9ce se5 ,m4 ,lali&4 ,i f\nd him v ready
 to r5d] me _m trifl+ s]vices1 & to     
conc]n himself 9 my little affairs1 b ,i
 h my d\bts ( 8 hav+1 9 ! few books he  
ev] read1 fall5 ^u any "o ( ^? ,i h     
writt54 ,i d n "k t he has a libr>y1 or 
t su* a ?+ is ( any use to him2 & = !   
bu/ he has a bad figure 9 pla/]1 by ,le 
,mo9e1 f :i* has be5 engrav$ a hide\s   
portrait t be>s my "n1 z if x bore to me
 "s resemblance4  ,! only ,fr5*man :o   
seem$ to come to see me1 on acc\nt ( my 
s5tim5ts1 & 8 ta/e = my works1 0 a "y   
(fic] ( ! regim5t ( ,lim\s91 nam$       
,segui] de ,/4 ,brisson4 ,he made a     
figure 9 ,p>is1 :]e he /ill p]haps      
di/+ui%es himself by 8 pleas+ tal5ts &  
wit4 ,he came once to ,montmor5cy1 !    
w9t] :i* prec$$ my cata/rophe4 ,i 0     

pleas$ ) 8 vivacity4 ,he aft]w>ds wrote 
to me at ,moti]s1 & :e!r he wi%$ to     
flatt] me1 or t 8 head 0 turn$ )        
,emilius1 he in=m$ me he 0 ab\t to quit 
! s]vice to live indep5d5tly1 & _h begun
 to le>n ! trade ( a c>p5t]4 ,he _h an  
eld] bro!r1 a capta9 9 ! same regim5t1 !
 favorite ( ! "m1 :o1 a devotee to      
excess1 & direct$ by ,i "k n :at        
hypocrite1 did n treat ! y\nge/ son     
well1 accus+ him ( irreligion1 & :at 0  
/ill worse1 ( ! unp>donable crime ( be+ 
connect$ ) me4 ,^! 7 ! grievances1 on   
acc\nt ( :i* he 0 det]m9$ to break ) 8  
"m1 & adopt ! mann] ( life ( :i* ,i h j 
spok51 all to play ! "p ( ! "y ,emilius4
 ,al>m$ at 8 petulance1 ,i imm$iately   
wrote to him1 endeavor+ to make him     
*ange 8 resolution1 & my exhortations 7 
z /rong z ,i c\ld make !m4 ,!y _h _!    
effect4 ,he return$ to 8 duty1 to 8 "m1 
& took back ! resignation he _h giv5 !  
colonel1 :o _h be5 prud5t en\gh to make 
no use ( x1 t ! "y man might h "t to    
reflect ^u :at he _h done4 ,/4 ,brisson1

 cur$ ( ^! follies1 0 guilty ( ano!r    
less al>m+1 b1 to me1 n less            
disagreeable ?an ! re/3 he became an    
au?or4 ,he successively publi%$ two or  
?ree pamphlets :i* ann\nc$ a man n      
devoid ( tal5ts1 b ,i h n to reproa*    
myself ) hav+ enc\rag$ him by my praises
 to cont9ue to write4  ,"s "t aft]w>ds  
he came to see me1 & we made toge!r a   
pilgrimage to ! isl& ( ,/4 ,pi]re4 ,dur+
 ?is j\rney ,i f\nd him diff]5t f :at ,i
 saw ( him at ,montmor5cy4 ,he _h1 9 8  
mann]1 some?+ affect$1 :i* at fir/ did n
 mu* disgu/ me1 al?\gh ,i h s9ce ?\ght (
 x to 8 disadvantage4 ,he once visit$ me
 at ! hotel de ,/4 ,simon1 z ,i pass$   
?r\gh ,p>is on my way to ,engl&4 ,i     
le>n$ !re :at he _h n told me1 t he liv$
 9 ! great _w1 & (t5 visit$ ,madam de   
,luxemb\rg4 ,:il/ ,i 0 at ,trie1 ,i nev]
 he>d f him1 nor did he s mu* z make    
inquiry aft] me1 by means ( 8 relation  
,mademoiselle ,segui]1 my neighbor4 ,?is
 lady nev] seem$ favorably dispos$ t[>ds
 me4 ,9 a ^w1 ! infatuation ( ,m4 de ,/4

 ,brisson end$ sudd5ly1 l ! connection (
 ,m4 de ,fe9s3 b ?is man ow$ me no?+1 & 
! =m] 0 "u obligations to me1 unless !  
follies ,i prev5t$ him f committ+ 7 no?+
 m ?an affectation2 :i* might v possibly
 be ! case4  ,i _h visits f ,g5eva also4
 ,! ,delucs1 fa!r & son1 successively   
*ose me = _! att5dant 9 sickness4 ,!    
fa!r 0 tak5 ill on ! road1 ! son 0      
already sick :5 he left ,g5eva2 !y bo?  
came to my h\se4 ,m9i/]s1 relations1    
hypocrites1 & p]sons ( e description    
came f ,g5eva & ,switz]l&1 n l ^? f     
,france1 to laugh at & admire me1 b to  
rebuke & cate*ise me4 ,! only p]son     
among/ !m :o gave me pleasure1 0 ,m\lt\1
 :o pass$ ) me ?ree or f\r days1 & :om  
,i wi%$ to rema9 mu* long]2 ! mo/       
p]sev]+ ( all1 ! mo/ ob/9ate1 & :o      
conqu]$ me by importunity1 0 a ,m4      
d',iv]nois1 a m]*ant at ,g5eva1 a ,fr5* 
refugee1 & relat$ to ! attorney-g5]al ( 
,neu*atel4 ,?is man came f ,g5eva to    
,moti]s twice a ye>1 on purpose to see  
me1 rema9$ ) me sev]al days toge!r f    

morn+ to night1 accompani$ me 9 my      
walks1 br\ght me a ?\s& little pres5ts1 
ins9uat$ himself 9 spite ( me into my   
confid5ce1 & int]m$dl$ 9 all my affairs1
 not)/&+ !re 0 n betwe5 him & myself !  
lea/ simil>ity ( ideas1 incl9ation1     
s5tim5t1 or k4 ,i d n believe he ev]    
read a book ( any k9d ?r\gh\t1 or t he  
kn[s ^u :at subject m9e are writt54 ,:5 
,i began to h]balize1 he foll[$ me 9 my 
botanical rambles1 )\t ta/e = t         
amusem5t1 or hav+ any?+ to say to me or 
,i to him4 ,he _h ! pati5ce to pass ) me
 ?ree days 9 a public h\se at ,g\mo9s1  
:5ce1 by we>y+ him & mak+ him feel h[   
mu* he we>i$ me1 ,i 0 9 hopes ( driv+   
him away4 ,i c\ld n1 h[ev]1 %ake 8      
incr$ible p]sev]ance1 nor by any means  
discov] ! motive ( x4  ,among/ ^!       
connections1 made & cont9u$ by =ce1 ,i  
mu/ n omit ! only "o t 0 agreeable to   
me1 & 9 :i* my he>t 0 really int]e/$3   
?is 0 t ,i _h ) a "y ,hung>ian :o came  
to live at ,neu*atel1 & f t place to    
,moti]s1 a few mon?s aft] ,i _h tak5 up 

my resid5ce !re4 ,he 0 call$ by ! p ( ! 
c\ntry ! ,b>on de ,sautt]n1 by :i* "n he
 _h be5 recomm5d$ f ,zuri*4 ,he 0 tall1 
well made1 _h an agreeable c\nt5ance1 & 
mild & social qualities4 ,he told       
ev]ybody1 & gave me also to und]/& t he 
came to ,neu*atel = no o!r purpose1 ?an 
t ( =m+ 8 y\? to virtue1 by 8 int]c\rse 
) me4 ,8 physiognomy1 mann]1 & behavior1
 seem$ well suit$ to 8 conv]sation1 & ,i
 %\ld h ?\ght ,i fail$ 9 "o ( ! greate/ 
duties _h ,i turn$ my back ^u a "y man 9
 :om ,i p]ceiv$ no?+ b :at 0 amiable1 & 
:o s\ght my acqua9tance f s respectable 
a motive4 ,my he>t kn[s n h[ to connect 
itself by halves4 ,he soon acquir$ my   
fri5d%ip1 & all my confid5ce1 & we 7    
pres5tly insep>able4 ,he accompani$ me 9
 all my walks1 & became fond ( !m4 ,i   
took him to ! m>e*al1 :o receiv$ him ) !
 utmo/ k9dness4 ,z he 0 yet unable to   
expla9 himself 9 ,fr5*1 he spoke & wrote
 to me 9 ,lat91 ,i answ]$ 9 ,fr5*1 & ?is
 m+l+ ( ! two languages did n make our  
conv]sations ei!r less smoo? or lively4 

,he spoke ( 8 family1 8 affairs1 8      
adv5tures1 & ( ! c\rt ( ,vi5na1 ) !     
dome/ic details ( :i* he seem$ well     
acqua9t$4 ,9 f9e1 dur+ two ye>s :i* we  
pass$ 9 ! greate/ intimacy1 ,i f\nd 9   
him a mildness ( "* pro( aga9/ ev]y?+1  
mann]s n only polite b elegant1 great   
neatness ( p]son1 an extreme dec5cy 9 8 
conv]sation1 9 a ^w1 all ! m>ks ( a man 
born & educat$ a g5tleman1 & :i* r5d]$  
him 9 my eyes too e/imable n to make him
 de> to me4  ,at ! "t we 7 ^u ! mo/     
intimate & fri5dly t]ms1 ,d' ,iv]nois   
wrote to me f ,g5eva1 putt+ me ^u my    
gu>d aga9/ ! "y ,hung>ian :o _h tak5 up 
8 resid5ce 9 my neighborhood2 tell+ me  
he 0 a spy :om ! m9i/] ( ,france _h     
appo9t$ to wat* my proce$+s4 ,?is       
in=mation 0 ( a nature to al>m me ! m1 z
 ev]ybody advis$ me to gu>d aga9/ !     
ma*9ations ( p]sons :o 7 employ$ to keep
 an eye ^u my actions1 & to entice me   
into ,france = ! purpose ( betray+ me4  
,to %ut ! m\?s1 once = all1 ( ^! fooli% 
advis]s1 ,i propos$ to ,sautt]n1 )\t    

giv+ him ! lea/ intimation ( ! in=mation
 ,i _h receiv$1 a j\rney on foot to     
,pont>li]1 to :i* he cons5t$4 ,z soon z 
we arriv$ !re ,i put ! lett] f          
,d',iv]nois into 8 h&s1 & aft] giv+ him 
an ard5t embrace1 ,i said3 ,sautt]n has 
no ne$ ( a pro( ( my confid5ce 9 him1 b 
x is necess>y ,i %\ld prove to ! public 
t ,i "k 9 :om to place x4 ,?is embrace 0
 accompani$ ) a pleasure :i* p]secutors 
c nei!r feel !mselves1 nor take away f !
 oppress$4  ,i w nev] believe ,sautt]n 0
 a spy1 nor t he betray$ me3 b ,i 0     
deceiv$ by him4 ,:5 ,i op5$ to him my   
he>t )\t res]ve1 he con/antly kept 8 own
 %ut1 & abus$ me by lies4 ,he inv5t$ ,i 
"k n :at k9d ( /ory1 to prove to me 8   
pres5ce 0 necess>y 9 8 own c\ntry4 ,i   
exhort$ him to return to x z soon z     
possible4 ,he set (f1 & :5 ,i ?\ght he 0
 9 ,hung>y1 ,i le>n$ he 0 at ,/rasb\rgh4
 ,?is 0 n ! fir/ "t he _h be5 !re4 ,he  
_h caus$ "s disord] 9 a family 9 t city2
 & ! husb& kn[+ ,i receiv$ him 9 my     
h\se1 wrote to me4 ,i us$ e ef=t to br+ 

! "y woman back to ! pa?s ( virtue1 &   
,sautt]n to 8 duty4  ,:5 ,i ?\ght !y 7  
p]fectly deta*$ f ea* o!r1 !y r5ew$ _!  
acqua9tance1 & ! husb& _h ! complaisance
 to receive ! "y man at 8 h\se2 f t     
mom5t ,i _h no?+ m to say4 ,i f\nd !    
pret5d$ b>on _h impos$ ^u me by a great 
numb] ( lies4 ,8 "n 0 n ,sautt]n1 b     
,sautt]%eim4 ,) respect to ! title (    
b>on1 giv5 him 9 ,switz]l&1 ,i c\ld n   
reproa* him ) ! impropriety1 because he 
_h nev] tak5 x2 b ,i h n a d\bt ( 8 be+ 
a g5tleman1 & ! m>%al1 :o knew mank9d1 &
 _h be5 9 ,hung>y1 always consid]$ &    
treat$ him z su*4  ,he _h no soon] left 
my neighborhood1 ?an ! girl at ! inn :]e
 he ate1 at ,moti]s1 decl>$ h]self )    
*ild by him4 ,%e 0 s dirty a creature1 &
 ,sautt]n1 g5]ally e/eem$ 9 ! c\ntry = 8
 conduct & purity ( morals1 piqu$       
himself s mu* ^u cleanl9ess1 t ev]ybody 
0 %ock$ at ?is impud5t pret5sion4 ,! mo/
 amiable wom5 ( ! c\ntry1 :o _h va9ly   
display$ to him _! *>ms1 7 furi\s3 ,i   
myself 0 almo/ *ok$ ) indignation4 ,i   

us$ e ef=t to get ! tongue ( ?is impud5t
 woman /opp$1 (f]+ to pay all exp5ses1 &
 to give security = ,sautt]%eim4 ,i     
wrote to him 9 ! fulle/ p]suasion1 n    
only t ?is pregnancy c\ld n relate to   
him1 b t x 0 feign$1 & ! :ole a         
ma*9ation ( 8 enemies & m9e4 ,i wi%$ him
 to return & conf\nd ! /rumpet1 & ^? by 
:om %e 0 dictat$ to4 ,! pusillanimity ( 
8 answ] surpris$ me4 ,he wrote to ! ma/]
 ( ! p>i% to :i* ! creature belong$1 &  
endeavor$ to /ifle ! matt]4 ,p]ceiv+    
?is1 ,i conc]n$ myself no m ab\t x1 b ,i
 0 a/oni%$ t a man :o c\ld /oop s l[    
%\ld h be5 suffici5tly ma/] ( himself to
 deceive me by 8 res]ve 9 ! close/      
famili>ity4  ,f ,/rasb\rgh1 ,sautt]%eim 
w5t to seek 8 =tune 9 ,p>is1 & f\nd !re 
no?+ b mis]y4 ,he wrote to me ackn[l$g+ 
8 error4 ,my compassion 0 excit$ by !   
recollection ( our =m] fri5d%ip1 & ,i   
s5t him a sum ( money4 ,! ye> foll[+1 z 
,i pass$ ?r\gh ,p>is1 ,i saw him mu* 9 !
 same situation2 b he 0 ! intimate fri5d
 ( ,m4 de ,lali&1 & ,i c\ld n le>n by   

:at means he _h =m$ ?is acqua9tance1 or 
:e!r x 0 rec5t or ( long /&+4 ,two ye>s 
aft]w>ds ,sautt]%eim return$ to         
,/rasb\rgh1 :5ce he wrote to me & :]e he
 di$4 ,?is1 9 a few words1 is ! hi/ory (
 our connection1 & :at ,i "k ( 8        
adv5tures2 b :ile ,i m\rn ! fate ( !    
unhappy "y man1 ,i /ill1 & ev] %all1    
believe he 0 ! son ( p ( di/9ction1 & ! 
impropriety ( 8 conduct 0 ! effect ( !  
situations to :i* he 0 r$uc$4  ,su* 7 ! 
connections & acqua9tance ,i acquir$ at 
,moti]s4 ,h[ _m ( ^! w\ld h be5 necess>y
 to comp5sate ! cruel losses ,i suff]$  
at ! same "t4  ,! fir/ ( ^! 0 t ( ,m4 de
 ,luxemb\rg1 :o1 aft] hav+ be5 long     
torm5t$ by ! physicians1 at l5g? became 
_! victim1 by be+ treat$ = ! g\t :i* !y 
w\ld n ackn[l$ge him to h1 z = a disord]
 !y ?\ght !y c\ld cure4  ,accord+ to :at
 ,la ,ro*e1 ! confid5tial s]vant (      
,madam de ,luxemb\rg1 wrote to me       
relative to :at _h happ5$1 x is by ?is  
cruel & memorable example t ! mis]ies ( 
greatness are to be deplor$4  ,! loss ( 

?is good nobleman afflict$ me ! m1 z he 
0 ! only real fri5d ,i _h 9 ,france1 & !
 mildness ( 8 "* 0 su* z to make me q   
=get 8 rank1 & atta* myself to him z 8  
equal4 ,our connection 0 n brok5 (f on  
acc\nt ( my hav+ quitt$ ! k+dom2 he     
cont9u$ to write to me z usual4  ,i     
nev]!less ?\ght ,i p]ceiv$ t abs5ce1 or 
my mis=tune1 _h cool$ 8 affection = me4 
,x is difficult to a c\rti] to pres]ve !
 same atta*m5t to a p]son :om he kn[s to
 be 9 disgrace ) c\rts4 ,i moreov]      
suspect$ ! great asc5dancy ,madam de    
,luxemb\rg _h ov] 8 m9d _h be5          
unfavorable to me1 & t %e _h tak5       
advantage ( our sep>ation to injure me 9
 8 e/eem4 ,= h] "p1 not)/&+ a few       
affect$ m>ks ( reg>d1 :i* daily became  
less frequ5t1 %e less conceal$ ! *ange 9
 h] fri5d%ip4 ,%e wrote to me f\r or    
five times into ,switz]l&1 aft] :i* %e  
nev] wrote to me aga91 & no?+ b my      
prejudice1 confid5ce & bl9dness1 c\ld h 
prev5t$ my discov]+ 9 h] some?+ m ?an a 
coolness t[>ds me4  ,guy ! booksell]1   

p>tn] ) ,du*esne1 :o1 aft] ,i _h left   
,montmor5cy1 frequ5tly w5t to ! hotel de
 ,luxemb\rg1 wrote to me t my "n 0 9 ! w
 ( ! m>e*al4 ,!re 0 no?+ 9 ?is ei!r     
incr$ible or extraord9>y1 on :i* acc\nt 
,i _h no d\bt ( ! tru? ( ! in=mation4 ,i
 delib]at$ )9 myself :e!r or n ,i %\ld  
receive ! legacy4 ,ev]y?+ well consid]$1
 ,i det]m9$ to accept x1 :atev] x might 
be1 & to d t honor to ! memory ( an     
hone/ man1 :o1 9 a rank 9 :i* fri5d%ip  
is seldom f\nd1 _h _h a real "o = me4 ,i
 _h n ?is duty to fulfill4 ,i he>d no m 
( ! legacy1 :e!r x 7 true or false2 & 9 
tru? ,i %\ld h felt "s pa9 9 (f5d+ aga9/
 "o ( ! great maxims ( my sy/em (       
morality1 9 pr(it+ by any?+ at ! dea? ( 
a p]son :om ,i _h once held de>4 ,dur+ !
 la/ illness ( our fri5d ,muss>d1       
,l5eips propos$ to me to take advantage 
( ! grateful s5se he express$ = our     
c>es1 to ins9uate to him dispositions 9 
our favor4 ,ah6 my de> ,l5eips1 said ,i1
 let u n pollute by int]e/$ ideas ! sad 
b sacr$ duties we dis*>ge t[>ds our dy+ 

fri5d4 ,i hope my "n w nev] be f\nd 9 ! 
te/am5t ( any p]son1 at lea/ n 9 t ( a  
fri5d4 ,x 0 ab\t ?is "t t my "l m>%al   
spoke to me ( 81 ( :at he int5d$ to d 9 
x = me1 & t ,i made him ! answ] ( :i* ,i
 h spok5 9 ! fir/ "p ( my memoirs4  ,my 
second loss1 /ill m afflict+ &          
irrep>able1 0 t ( ! be/ ( wom5 & mo!rs1 
:o1 already weigh$ d[n ) ye>s1 &        
ov]bur!n$ ) infirmities & mis]y1 quitt$ 
?is vale ( te>s = ! abode ( ! bless$1   
:]e ! amiable remembrance ( ! good we h 
done "h bel[ is ! et]nal rew>d ( our    
b5evol5ce4 ,g1 g5tle & b5efic5t %ade1 to
 ^? ( ,f5elon1 ,b]nex1 ,cat9at1 & o!rs1 
:o 9 a m humble /ate h1 l !m1 op5$ _!   
he>ts to pure *>ity2 g & ta/e ( ! fruit 
( y\r own b5evol5ce1 & prep>e = y\r son 
! place he hopes to fill by y\r side4   
,happy 9 y\r mis=tunes t ,heav51 9 putt+
 to !m a p]iod1 has sp>$ y ! cruel      
spectacle ( 86 ,fe>+1 le/ ,i %\ld fill  
h] he>t ) sorr[ by ! recital ( my fir/  
disa/]s1 ,i _h n writt5 to h] s9ce my   
arrival 9 ,switz]l&2 b ,i wrote to ,m4  

de ,conzie1 to inquire aft] h]          
situation1 & x 0 f him ,i le>n$ %e _h   
ceas$ to alleviate ! suff]+s ( !        
afflict$1 & t h] own 7 at an end4 ,i    
myself %all n suff] long2 b if ,i ?\ght 
,i %\ld n see h] aga9 9 ! life to come1 
my feeble imag9ation w\ld less delight 9
 ! idea ( ! p]fect happ9ess ,i !re hope 
to enjoy4  ,my ?ird & la/ loss1 = s9ce t
 "t ,i h n _h a fri5d to lose1 0 t ( !  
"l m>%al4 ,he did n die b tir$ ( s]v+ ! 
ungrateful1 he left ,neu*atel1 & ,i h   
nev] se5 him s9ce4 ,he /ill lives1 & w1 
,i hope1 survive me3 he is alive1 &     
?anks to him all my atta*m5ts on e>? are
 n de/roy$4 ,!re is "o man /ill wor?y ( 
my fri5d%ip2 = ! real value ( ?is       
consi/s m 9 :at we feel ?an 9 t :i* we  
inspire2 b ,i h lo/ ! pleasure ,i enjoy$
 9 81 & c rank him 9 ! numb] ( ^? only  
:om ,i love1 b ) :om ,i am no long]     
connect$4 ,he w5t to ,engl& to receive !
 p>don ( ! k+1 & acquir$ ! possession ( 
! prop]ty :i* =m]ly _h be5 confiscat$4  
,we did n sep>ate )\t an int5tion ( aga9

 be+ unit$1 ! idea ( :i* seem$ to give  
him z mu* pleasure z ,i receiv$ f x4 ,he
 det]m9$ to reside at ,kei? ,hall1 ne>  
,ab]de51 & ,i 0 to jo9 him z soon z he 0
 settl$ !re3 b ?is project 0 too flatt]+
 to my hopes to give me any ( its       
success4 ,he did n rema9 9 ,scotl&4 ,!  
affectionate solicitations ( ! ,k+ (    
,prussia induc$ him to return to ,b]l91 
& ! reason ( my n go+ to him !re w      
pres5tly appe>4  ,be=e ?is dep>ture1    
=esee+ ! /orm :i* my enemies began to   
raise aga9/ me1 he ( 8 own accord s5t me
 lett]s ( naturalization1 :i* seem$ to  
be a c]ta9 means ( prev5t+ me f be+     
driv5 f ! c\ntry4 ,! community ( !      
,conv5t ( ,val de ,trav]s foll[$ !      
example ( ! gov]nor1 & gave me lett]s ( 
,communion1 gratis1 z !y 7 ! fir/4 ,?us1
 9 e respect1 become a citiz51 ,i 0     
%elt]$ f legal expulsion1 ev5 by !      
pr9ce2 b x has nev] be5 by legitimate   
means1 t ! man :o1 ( all o!rs1 has %[n !
 greate/ respect = ! laws1 has be5      
p]secut$4 ,i d n ?9k ,i ought to        

enum]ate1 among/ ! numb] ( my losses at 
?is "t1 t ( ! ,abbe ,malby4 ,hav+ liv$  
sometime at ! h\se ( 8 "m1 ,i h be5     
acqua9t$ ) ! abbe1 b n v intimately1 &  
,i h reason to believe ! nature ( 8     
s5tim5ts ) respect to me *ang$ aft] ,i  
acquir$ a great] celebrity ?an he       
already _h4 ,b ! fir/ "t ,i discov]$ 8  
ins9c]ity 0 imm$iately aft] !           
publication ( ! ',lett]s f ! ,m\nta9'4  
,a lett] attribut$ to him1 address$ to  
,madam ,salad91 0 h&$ ab\t 9 ,g5eva1 9  
:i* he spoke ( ?is "w z ! s$iti\s       
clamors ( a furi\s demagogue4  ,! e/eem 
,i _h = ! ,abbe ,malby1 & my great      
op9ion ( 8 und]/&+1 did n p]mit me to   
believe ?is extravagant lett] 0 writt5  
by him4 ,i act$ 9 ?is bus9ess ) my usual
 c&or4 ,i s5t him a copy ( ! lett]1     
in=m+ him he 0 said to be ! au?or ( x4  
,he return$ me no answ]4 ,?is sil5ce    
a/oni%$ me3 b :at 0 my surprise :5 by a 
lett] ,i receiv$ f ,madam de ,*5onceaux1
 ,i le>n$ ! ,abbe 0 really ! au?or ( t  
:i* 0 attribut$ to him1 & f\nd himself  

greatly emb>rass$ by m9e4 ,= ev5 suppos+
 = a mom5t t :at he /at$ 0 true1 h[ c\ld
 he ju/ify s public an attack1 wantonly 
made1 )\t obligation or necessity1 = !  
sole purpose ( ov]:elm+ 9 ! mid/ ( 8    
greate/ mis=tunes1 a man to :om he _h   
%[n himself a well-wi%]1 & :o _h n done 
any?+ t c\ld excite 8 enmity8 ,9 a %ort 
"t aft]w>ds ! ',dialogues ( ,phocion'1 9
 :i* ,i p]ceiv$ no?+ b a compilation1   
)\t %ame or re/ra9t1 f my writ+s1 made  
_! appe>ance4  ,9 read+ ?is book ,i     
p]ceiv$ ! au?or _h n ! lea/ reg>d = me1 
& t 9 future ,i mu/ numb] him among my  
mo/ bitt] enemies4 ,i d n believe he has
 ev] p>don$ me = ! ,social ,contract1 f>
 sup]ior to 8 abilities1 or ! ,p]petual 
,peace2 & ,i am1 besides1 ( op9ion t !  
desire he express$ t ,i %\ld make an    
extract f ! ,abbe de ,/4 ,pi]re1 proce$$
 f a supposition 9 him t ,i %\ld n      
acquit myself ( x s well4  ,! fur!r ,i  
advance 9 my n>rative1 ! less ord] ,i   
feel myself capable ( obs]v+4 ,!        
agitation ( ! re/ ( my life has d]ang$ 9

 my ideas ! succession ( ev5ts4 ,^! are 
too num]\s1 confus$1 & disagreeable to  
be recit$ 9 due ord]4 ,! only /rong     
impression !y h left ^u my m9d is t ( ! 
horrid my/]y by :i* ! cause ( !m is     
conceal$1 & ( ! deplorable /ate to :i*  
!y h r$uc$ me4 ,my n>rative w 9 future  
be irregul>1 & accord+ to ! ev5ts :i*1  
)\t ord]1 may occur to my recollection4 
,i rememb] ab\t ! "t to :i* ,i ref]1    
full ( ! idea ( my confessions1 ,i v    
imprud5tly spoke ( !m to ev]ybody1 nev] 
imag9+ x c\ld be ! wi% or int]e/1 mu*   
less )9 ! p[] ( any p]son :atsoev]1 to  
?r[ an ob/acle 9 ! way ( ?is und]tak+1 &
 _h ,i suspect$ x1 ev5 ?is w\ld n h     
r5d]$ me m discreet1 z f ! nature ( my  
disposition x is totally impossible = me
 to conceal ei!r my ?\ghts or feel+s4 ,!
 k ( ?is ent]prise 01 z f> z ,i c judge1
 ! cause ( ! /orm t 0 rais$ to drive me 
f ,switz]l&1 & deliv] me into ! h&s ( ^?
 by :om ,i might be prev5t$ f execut+ x4
  ,i _h ano!r project 9 contemplation   
:i* 0 n look$ ^u ) a m favorable eye by 

^? :o 7 afraid ( ! fir/3 ?is 0 a g5]al  
edition ( my works4 ,i ?\ght ?is edition
 ( !m necess>y to asc]ta9 :at books1    
among/ ^? to :i* my "n 0 affix$1 7      
really writt5 by me1 & to furni% !      
public ) ! means ( di/+ui%+ !m f !      
writ+s falsely attribut$ to me by my    
enemies1 to br+ me to di%onor &         
contempt4 ,?is 0 besides a simple & an  
honorable means ( insur+ to myself a    
livelihood1 & ! only "o t rema9$ to me4 
,z ,i _h r5\nc$ ! pr(ession ( an au?or1 
my memoirs n be+ ( a nature to appe>    
dur+ my lifetime2 z ,i no long] ga9$ a  
f>?+ 9 any mann] :atsoev]1 & con/antly  
liv$ at a c]ta9 exp5se1 ,i saw ! end (  
my res\rces 9 t ( ! produce ( ! la/ ?+s 
,i _h writt54 ,?is reason _h induc$ me  
to ha/5 ! f9i%+ ( my ,diction>y (       
,music1 :i* /ill 0 incomplete4 ,i _h    
receiv$ = x a hundr$ l\is 7gu9eas7 & a  
life annuity ( ?ree hundr$ livres2 b a  
hundr$ l\is c\ld n la/ long 9 ! h&s ( a 
man :o annually exp5d$ upw>ds ( sixty1 &
 ?ree-hundr$ livres 7twelve gu9eas7 a   

ye> 0 b a trifl+ sum to "o ^u :om       
p>asites & begg>ly visitors light$ l a  
sw>m ( flies4  ,a company ( m]*ants f   
,neu*atel came to und]take ! g5]al      
edition1 & a pr9t] or booksell] ( ! "n (
 ,reguillat1 f ,lyons1 ?ru/ himself1 ,i 
"k n by :at means1 among/ !m to direct  
x4 ,! agreem5t 0 made ^u reasonable     
t]ms1 & suffici5t to accompli% my       
object4 ,i _h 9 pr9t & manuscript1 matt]
 = six volumes 9 qu>to4 ,i moreov] agre$
 to give my assi/ance 9 br++ out !      
edition4 ,! m]*ants 71 on _! "p1 to pay 
me a ?\s& cr[ns 7"o hundr$ & tw5ty-five 
p\nds7 d[n1 & to assign me an annuity ( 
sixte5 hundr$ livres 7sixty-six p\nds7 =
 life4  ,! agreem5t 0 conclud$ b n      
sign$1 :5 ! ,lett]s f ! ,m\nta9 appe>$4 
,! t]rible explosion caus$ by ?is       
inf]nal "w1 & its abom9able au?or1      
t]rifi$ ! company1 & ! und]tak+ 0 at an 
end4 ,i w\ld comp>e ! effect ( ?is la/  
production to t ( ! ,lett] on ,fr5*     
,music1 _h n t lett]1 :ile x br\ght ^u  
me hatr$1 & expos$ me to dang]1 acquir$ 

me respect & e/eem4 ,b aft] ! appe>ance 
( ! la/ "w1 x 0 a matt] ( a/oni%m5t at  
,g5eva & ,v]sailles t su* a mon/] z !   
au?or ( x %\ld be suff]$ to exi/4 ,!    
little c\ncil1 excit$ by ! ,fr5*        
resid5t1 & direct$ by ! attorney-g5]al1 
made a decl>ation aga9/ my "w1 by :i*1 9
 ! mo/ sev]e t]ms1 x 0 decl>$ to be     
unwor?y ( be+ burn$ by ! h&s ( !        
hangman1 add+1 ) an address :i* bord]$  
^u ! burlesque1 !re 0 no possibility (  
speak+ ( or answ]+ x )\t di%onor4 ,i    
w\ld "h transcribe ! curi\s piece (     
composition1 b un=tunately ,i h x n by  
me4 ,i ard5tly wi% "s ( my read]s1      
animat$ by ! zeal ( tru? & equity1 w\ld 
read ov] ! ,lett]s f ! ,m\nta93 !y w1 ,i
 d>e hope1 feel ! /oical mod]ation :i*  
reigns ?r\gh\t ! :ole1 aft] all ! cruel 
outrages ) :i* ! au?or 0 load$4 ,b      
unable to answ] ! abuse1 because no "p (
 x c\ld be call$ by t "n nor to !       
reasons because ^! 7 unansw]able1 my    
enemies pret5d$ to appe> too mu* enrag$ 
to reply3 & x is true1 if !y took !     

inv9cible argum5ts x conta9s = abuse1 !y
 mu/ h felt !mselves r\ghly treat$4  ,! 
remon/rat+ p>ty1 f> f compla9+ ( ! odi\s
 decl>ation1 act$ accord+ to ! _s ( x1 &
 in/ead ( mak+ a trophy ( ! ,lett]s f ! 
,m\nta91 :i* !y veil$ to make !m s]ve z 
a %ield1 7 pusillanim\s en\gh n to d    
ju/ice or honor to t "w1 writt5 to def5d
 !m1 & at _! own solicitation4 ,!y did n
 ei!r quote or m5tion ! lett]s1 al?\gh  
!y tacitly drew f !m all _! argum5ts1 & 
by exactly foll[+ ! advice ) :i* !y     
conclude1 made !m ! sole cause ( _!     
safety & triumph4 ,!y _h impos$ on me   
?is duty3 ,i _h fulfill$ x1 & unto ! end
 _h s]v$ _! cause & ! c\ntry4 ,i begg$ (
 !m to ab&on me1 & 9 _! qu>rels to ?9k (
 nobody b !mselves4 ,!y took me at my   
^w1 & ,i conc]n$ myself no m ab\t _!    
affairs1 fur!r ?an con/antly to exhort  
!m to peace1 n d\bt+1 %\ld !y cont9ue to
 be ob/9ate1 ( _! be+ cru%$ by ,france2 
?is h[ev] did n happ52 ,i "k ! reason :y
 x did n1 b ?is is n ! place to expla9  
:at ,i mean4  ,! effect produc$ at      

,neu*atel by ! ,lett]s f ! ,m\nta9 0 at 
fir/ v mild4 ,i s5t a copy ( !m to ,m4  
de ,montmoll91 :o receiv$ x favorably1 &
 read x )\t mak+ any objection4 ,he 0   
ill z well z myself2 z soon z he recov]$
 he came 9 a fri5dly mann] to see me1 & 
conv]s$ on g5]al subjects4 ,a rumor 0   
h[ev] begun2 ! book 0 burn$ ,i "k n :]e4
 ,f ,g5eva1 ,b]ne1 & p]haps f           
,v]sailles1 ! eff]vesc5ce quickly pass$ 
to ,neu*atel1 & especially to ,val de   
,trav]s1 :]e1 be=e ev5 ! m9i/]s _h tak5 
any app>5t /eps1 an attempt 0 secretly  
made to /ir up ! p4 ,i ought1 ,i d>e    
ass]t1 to h be5 belov$ by ! p ( t c\ntry
 9 :i* ,i h liv$1 giv+ alms 9 abundance1
 n leav+ ab\t me an indig5t p]son )\t   
assi/ance1 nev] refus+ to d any s]vice 9
 my p[]1 & :i* 0 consi/5t ) ju/ice1 mak+
 myself p]haps too famili> ) ev]ybody1 &
 avoid+1 z f> z x 0 possible = me to d  
x1 all di/9ction :i* might excite ! lea/
 jeal\sy4 ,?is1 h[ev]1 did n prev5t !   
populace1 secretly /irr$ up aga9/ me1 by
 ,i "k n :om1 f be+ by degrees irritat$ 

aga9/ me1 ev5 to fury1 nor f publicly   
insult+ me1 n only 9 ! c\ntry & ^u !    
road1 b 9 ! /reet4 ,^? to :om ,i _h     
r5d]$ ! greate/ s]vices became mo/      
irritat$ aga9/ me1 & ev5 p :o /ill      
cont9u$ to receive my b5efactions1 n d>+
 to appe>1 excit$ o!rs1 & seem$ to wi%  
?us to be rev5g$ ( me = _! humiliation1 
by ! obligations !y 7 "u = ! favors ,i  
_h conf]r$ ^u !m4 ,montmoll9 seem$ to   
pay no att5tion to :at 0 pass+1 & did n 
yet come =w>d4 ,b z ! "t ( communion    
approa*$1 he came to advise me n to     
pres5t myself at ! holy table1 assur+   
me1 h[ev]1 he 0 n my enemy1 & t he w\ld 
leave me undi/urb$4 ,i f\nd ?is         
complim5t :imsical en\gh2 x br\ght to my
 recollection ! lett] f ,madam de       
,b\ffl]s1 & ,i c\ld n conceive to :om x 
c\ld be a matt] ( su* importance :e!r ,i
 communicat$ or n4 ,consid]+ ?is        
condesc5sion on my "p z an act (        
c[>dice1 & moreov]1 be+ unwill+ to give 
to ! p a new pretext "u :i* !y might    
*>ge me ) impiety1 ,i refus$ ! reque/ ( 

! m9i/]1 & he w5t away dissatisfi$1 giv+
 me to und]/& ,i %\ld rep5t ( my        
ob/9acy4  ,he c\ld n ( 8 own au?ority   
=bid me ! communion3 t ( ! ,consi/ory1  
by :i* ,i _h be5 admitt$ to x1 0        
necess>y1 & z long z !re 0 no objection 
f t body ,i might pres5t myself )\t !   
fe> ( be+ refus$4 ,montmoll9 procur$ f !
 ,classe 7! m9i/]s7 a commission to     
summon me to ! ,consi/ory1 !re to give  
an acc\nt ( ! articles ( my fai?1 & to  
excommunicate me %\ld ,i refuse to      
comply4 ,?is excommunication c\ld n be  
pron\nc$ )\t ! aid ( ! ,consi/ory also1 
& a majority ( ! voices4 ,b ! peasants1 
:o "u ! appellation ( eld]s1 compos$ ?is
 assembly1 presid$ ov] & gov]n$ by _!   
m9i/]1 might naturally be expect$ to    
adopt 8 op9ion1 especially 9 matt]s ( ! 
cl]gy1 :i* !y /ill less und]/ood ?an he 
did4 ,i 0 !re=e summon$1 & ,i resolv$ to
 appe>4  ,:at a happy circum/ance &     
triumph w\ld ?is h be5 to me c\ld ,i h  
spok51 & _h ,i1 if ,i may s speak1 _h my
 p5 9 my m\?6 ,) :at sup]iority1 ) :at  

facility ev51 %\ld ,i h ov]?r[n ?is poor
 m9i/] 9 ! mid/ ( 8 six peasants6 ,!    
?ir/ aft] p[] hav+ made ! ,prote/ant    
cl]gy =get all ! pr9ciples ( !          
re=mation1 all ,i _h to d to recall ^!  
to _! recollection & to r$uce !m to     
sil5ce1 0 to make comm5ts ^u my fir/    
',lett]s f ! ,m\nta9'1 ^u :i* !y _h !   
folly to animadv]t4  ,my text 0 ready1 &
 ,i _h only to enl>ge on x1 & my adv]s>y
 0 conf\nd$4 ,i %\ld n h be5 weak en\gh 
to rema9 on ! def5sive2 x 0 easy to me  
to become an assailant )\t 8 ev5 p]ceiv+
 x1 or be+ able to %elt] himself f my   
attack4 ,! contemptible prie/s ( !      
,classe1 equally c>eless & ignorant1 _h 
( !mselves plac$ me 9 ! mo/ favorable   
situation ,i c\ld desire to cru% !m at  
pleasure4 ,b :at ( ?is8 ,x 0 necess>y ,i
 %\ld speak )\t hesitation1 & f9d ideas1
 turn ( expression1 & words at w1       
pres]v+ a pres5ce ( m9d1 & keep+ myself 
collect$1 )\t once suff]+ ev5 a mom5t>y 
confusion4 ,= :at c\ld ,i hope1 feel+ z 
,i did1 my want ( aptitude to express   

myself ) ease8 ,i _h be5 r$uc$ to ! mo/ 
mortify+ sil5ce at ,g5eva1 be=e an      
assembly :i* 0 favorable to me1 &       
previ\sly resolv$ to approve ( ev]y?+ ,i
 %\ld say4 ,"h1 on ! contr>y1 ,i _h to d
 ) a cavali] :o1 sub/itut+ cunn+ to k1  
w\ld spread = me a hundr$ sn>es be=e ,i 
c\ld p]ceive "o ( !m1 & 0 resolutely    
det]m9$ to cat* me 9 an error let !     
consequ5ce be :at x w\ld4 ,! m ,i exam9$
 ! situation 9 :i* ,i /ood1 ! great]    
dang] ,i p]ceiv$ myself expos$ to1 &    
feel+ ! impossibility ( successfully    
)draw+ f x1 ,i ?\ght ( ano!r exp$i5t4 ,i
 m$itat$ a disc\rse :i* ,i int5d$ to    
pron\nce be=e ! ,consi/ory1 to exempt   
myself f ! necessity ( answ]+4 ,! ?+ 0  
easy4 ,i wrote ! disc\rse & began to    
le>n x by memory1 ) an inconceivable    
ardor4 ,!resa laugh$ at he>+ me mutt] & 
incessantly repeat ! same phrases1 :ile 
endeavor+ to cram !m into my head4 ,i   
hop$1 at l5g?1 to rememb] :at ,i _h     
writt53 ,i knew ! *atela9 z an (fic]    
atta*$ to ! s]vice ( ! pr9ce1 w\ld be   

pres5t at ! ,consi/ory1 & t not)/&+ !   
manoeuvres & bottles ( ,montmoll91 mo/ (
 ! eld]s 7 well dispos$ t[>ds me4 ,i _h1
 moreov]1 9 my favor1 reason1 tru?1 &   
ju/ice1 ) ! protection ( ! k+1 !        
au?ority ( ! c\ncil ( /ate1 & ! good    
wi%es ( e real patriot1 to :om !        
e/abli%m5t ( ?is inquisition 0 ?reat5+4 
,9 f9e1 ev]y?+ contribut$ to enc\rage   
me4  ,on ! eve ( ! day appo9t$1 ,i _h my
 disc\rse by rote1 & recit$ x )\t miss+ 
a ^w4 ,i _h x 9 my head all night3 9 !  
morn+ ,i _h =gott5 x4 ,i hesitat$ at e  
^w1 ?\ght myself be=e ! assembly1 became
 confus$1 /amm]$1 & lo/ my pres5ce (    
m9d4 ,9 f9e1 :5 ! "t to make my         
appe>ance 0 almo/ at h&1 my c\rage      
totally fail$ me4 ,i rema9$ at home &   
wrote to ! ,consi/ory1 ha/ily /at+ my   
reasons1 & plead$ my disord]1 :i*       
really1 9 ! /ate to :i* appreh5sion _h  
r$uc$ me1 w\ld sc>cely h p]mitt$ me to  
/ay out ! :ole sitt+4  ,! m9i/]1        
emb>rass$ by my lett]1 adj\rn$ !        
,consi/ory4 ,9 ! int]val1 he ( himself1 

& by 8 creatures1 made a ?\s& ef=ts to  
s$uce ! eld]s1 :o1 foll[+ ! dictates (  
_! consci5ces1 r ?an ^? !y receiv$ f    
him1 did n vote accord+ to 8 wi%es1 or  
^? ( ! ,classe4 ,:atev] p[] 8 argum5ts  
drawn f 8 cell> might h ov] ?is k9d ( p1
 he c\ld n ga9 "o ( !m1 m ?an ! two or  
?ree :o 7 already devot$ to 8 w1 & :o 7 
call$ 8 'ames damnees'4--damn$ s\ls--,! 
(fic] ( ! pr9ce1 & ! ,colonel ,pury1 :o1
 9 ?is affair1 act$ ) great zeal1 kept !
 re/ to _! duty1 & :5 ,montmoll9 wi%$ to
 proce$ to excommunication1 8           
,consi/ory1 by a majority ( voices1     
flatly refus$ to au?orize him to d x4   
,?us r$uc$ to ! la/ exp$i5t1 t ( /irr+  
up ! p aga9/ me1 he1 8 colleagues1 & o!r
 p]sons1 set ab\t x op5ly1 & 7 s        
successful1 t n-)/&+ ! /rong & frequ5t  
rescripts ( ! k+1 & ! ord]s ( ! c\ncil (
 /ate1 ,i 0 at l5g? oblig$ to quit !    
c\ntry1 t ,i might n expose ! (fic] ( ! 
k+ to be himself assass9at$ :ile he     
protect$ me4  ,! recollection ( ! :ole (
 ?is affair is s confus$1 t x is        

impossible = me to r$uce to or connect !
 circum/ances ( x4 ,i rememb] a k9d (   
negotiation _h be5 ent]$ into ) !       
,classe1 9 :i* ,montmoll9 0 ! m$iator4  
,he feign$ to believe x 0 fe>$ ,i %\ld1 
by my writ+s1 di/urb ! peace ( ! c\ntry1
 9 :i* case1 ! lib]ty ,i _h ( writ+ w\ld
 be blam$4 ,he _h giv5 me to und]/& t if
 ,i cons5t$ to lay d[n my p51 :at 0 pa/ 
w\ld be =gott54 ,i _h already ent]$ into
 ?is engagem5t ) myself1 & did n        
hesitate 9 do+ x ) ! ,classe1 b         
conditionally & solely 9 matt]s (       
religion4 ,he f\nd means to h a         
duplicate ( ! agreem5t ^u "s *ange      
necess>y to be made 9 x1 ! condition    
hav+ be5 reject$ by ! ,classe2 ,i dem&$ 
back ! writ+1 :i* 0 return$ to me1 b he 
kept ! duplicate1 pret5d+ x 0 lo/4 ,aft]
 ?is1 ! p1 op5ly excit$ by ! m9i/]s1    
laugh$ at ! rescripts ( ! k+1 & ! ord]s 
( ! c\ncil ( /ate1 & %ook (f all        
re/ra9t4 ,i 0 declaim$ aga9/ f ! pulpit1
 call$ anti*ri/1 & pursu$ 9 ! c\ntry l a
 mad wolf4 ,my ,arm5ian dress discov]$  

me to ! populace2 ( ?is ,i felt ! cruel 
inconv5i5ce1 b to quit x 9 su*          
circum/ances1 appe>$ to me an act (     
c[>dice4 ,i c\ld n prevail ^u myself to 
d x1 & ,i quietly walk$ ?r\gh ! c\ntry )
 my caffetan & fur bonnet 9 ! mid/ ( !  
hoot+s ( ! dregs ( ! p1 & sometimes     
?r\gh a %[] ( /ones4 ,sev]al times z ,i 
pass$ be=e h\ses1 ,i he>d ^? by :om !y 7
 inhabit$ call out3 ,br+ me my gun t ,i 
may fire at him4 ,z ,i did n on ?is     
acc\nt ha/5 my pace1 my calmness        
increas$ _! fury1 b !y nev] w5t fur!r   
?an ?reats1 at lea/ ) respect to        
fire>ms4  ,dur+ ! f]m5tation ,i receiv$ 
f two circum/ances ! mo/ s5sible        
pleasure4 ,! fir/ 0 my hav+ x 9 my p[]  
to prove my gratitude by means ( ! "l   
m>%al4 ,! hone/ "p ( ! inhabitants (    
,neu*atel1 full ( indignation at !      
treatm5t ,i receiv$1 & ! manoeuvres (   
:i* ,i 0 ! victim1 held ! m9i/]s 9      
execration1 cle>ly p]ceiv+ !y 7 ob$i5t  
to a =eign impulse1 & ! vile ag5ts ( p1 
:o1 9 mak+ !m act1 kept !mselves        

conceal$2 !y 7 moreov] afraid my case   
w\ld h dang]\s consequ5ces1 & be made a 
prec$5t = ! purpose ( e/abli%+ a real   
inquisition4  ,! magi/rates1 &          
especially ,m4 ,meuron1 :o _h succe$$   
,m4 d' ,iv]nois 9 ! (fice (             
attorney-g5]al1 made e ef=t to def5d me4
 ,colonel ,pury1 al?\gh a private       
individual1 did m & succe$$ bett]4 ,x 0 
! colonel :o f\nd means to make         
,montmoll9 submit 9 8 ,consi/ory1 by    
keep+ ! eld]s to _! duty4 ,he _h cr$it1 
& employ$ x to /op ! s$ition2 b he _h   
no?+ m ?an ! au?ority ( ! laws1 & ! aid 
( ju/ice & reason1 to oppose to t (     
money & w9e3 ! combat 0 unequal1 & 9 ?is
 po9t ,montmoll9 0 triumphant4 ,h[ev]1  
?ankful = 8 zeal & c>es1 ,i wi%$ to h x 
9 my p[] to make him a return ( good    
(fices1 & 9 "s measure dis*>ge a "p ( ! 
obligations ,i 0 "u to him4 ,i knew he 0
 v desir\s ( be+ nam$ a c\nsellor (     
/ate2 b hav+ displeas$ ! c\rt by 8      
conduct 9 ! affair ( ! m9i/]            
,petitpi]re1 he 0 9 disgrace ) ! pr9ce &

 gov]nor4 ,i h[ev] und]took1 at all     
risks1 to write to ! "l m>%al 9 8 favor3
 ,i w5t s f> z ev5 to m5tion ! employm5t
 ( :i* he 0 desir\s1 & my application 0 
s well receiv$ t1 contr>y to !          
expectations ( 8 mo/ ard5t well wi%]s1 x
 0 almo/ in/antly conf]r$ ^u him by !   
k+4 ,9 ?is mann] fate1 :i* has con/antly
 rais$ me to too great an elevation1 or 
plung$ me into an abyss ( adv]sity1     
cont9u$ to toss me f "o extreme to      
ano!r1 & :il/ ! populace cov]$ me ) mud 
,i 0 able to make a c\nsellor ( /ate4   
,! o!r pleas+ circum/ance 0 a visit ,i  
receiv$ f ,madam de ,v]del9 ) h]        
daught]1 ) :om %e _h be5 at ! ba?s (    
,b\rbonne1 :5ce !y came to ,moti]s &    
/ay$ ) me two or ?ree days4 ,by h]      
att5tion & c>es1 %e at l5g? conqu]$ my  
long repugnancy2 & my he>t1 won by h]   
ende>+ mann]1 made h] a return ( all !  
fri5d%ip ( :i* %e _h long giv5 me pro(s4
 ,?is j\rney made me extremely s5sible (
 h] k9dness3 my situation r5d]$ !       
consolations ( fri5d%ip highly necess>y 

to support me "u my suff]+s4 ,i 0 afraid
 %e w\ld be too mu* affect$ by ! insults
 ,i receiv$ f ! populace1 & c\ld h wi%$ 
to conceal !m f h] t h] feel+s might n  
be hurt1 b ?is 0 impossible2 & al?\gh h]
 pres5ce 0 "s *eck ^u ! insol5t populace
 9 our walks1 %e saw en\gh ( _!         
brutality to enable h] to judge ( :at   
pass$ :5 ,i 0 alone4 ,dur+ ! %ort       
resid5ce %e made at ,moti]s1 ,i 0 /ill  
attack$ 9 my habitation4 ,"o morn+ h]   
*amb]maid f\nd my w9d[ block$ up )      
/ones1 :i* _h be5 ?r[n at x dur+ !      
night4 ,a v heavy b5* plac$ 9 ! /reet by
 ! side ( ! h\se1 & /rongly fa/5$ d[n1 0
 tak5 up & re>$ aga9/ ! door 9 su* a    
mann] z1 _h x n be5 p]ceiv$ f ! w9d[1 to
 h knock$ d[n ! fir/ p]son :o %\ld h    
op5$ ! door to g out4 ,madam de ,v]del9 
0 acqua9t$ ) ev]y?+ t pass$2 =1 besides 
:at %e h]self 0 witness to1 h]          
confid5tial s]vant w5t into _m h\ses 9 !
 village1 spoke to ev]ybody1 & 0 se5 9  
conv]sation ) ,montmoll94 ,%e did n1    
h[ev]1 seem to pay ! lea/ att5tion to t 

:i* happ5$ to me1 nor nev] m5tion$      
,montmoll9 nor any o!r p]son1 & answ]$ 9
 a few words to :at ,i said to h] ( him4
 ,p]suad$ t a resid5ce 9 ,engl& w\ld be 
m agreeable to me ?an any o!r1 %e       
frequ5tly spoke ( ,mr4 ,hume :o 0 !n at 
,p>is1 ( 8 fri5d%ip = me1 & ! desire he 
_h ( be+ ( s]vice to me 9 8 own c\ntry4 
,x is "t ,i %\ld say some?+ ( ,hume4    
,he _h acquir$ a great reputation 9     
,france among/ ! ,encyclop$i/s by 8     
essays on comm]ce & politics1 & 9 ! la/ 
place by 8 hi/ory ( ! ,h\se ( ,/u>t1 !  
only "o ( 8 writ+s ( :i* ,i _h read a   
"p1 9 ! translation ( ! ,abbe ,prevot4  
,= want ( be+ acqua9t$ ) 8 o!r works1 ,i
 0 p]suad$1 accord+ to :at ,i he>d (    
him1 t ,mr4 ,hume jo9$ a v republican   
m9d to ! ,engli% ,p>adoxes 9 favor (    
luxury4 ,9 ?is op9ion ,i consid]$ 8 :ole
 apology ( ,*>les ,i4 z a prodigy (     
imp>tiality1 & ,i _h z great an idea ( 8
 virtue z ( 8 g5ius4 ,! desire ( be+    
acqua9t$ ) ?is great man1 & ( obta9+ 8  
fri5d%ip1 _h greatly /r5g!n$ !          

incl9ation ,i felt to g to ,engl&1      
induc$ by ! solicitations ( ,madam de   
,b\ffl]s1 ! intimate fri5d ( ,hume4     
,aft] my arrival 9 ,switz]l&1 ,i receiv$
 f him1 by means ( ?is lady1 a lett]    
extremely flatt]+2 9 :i*1 to ! highe/   
encomiums on my g5ius1 he subjo9$ a     
press+ invitation to induce me to g to  
,engl&1 & ! (f] ( all 8 int]e/1 & t ( 8 
fri5ds1 to make my resid5ce !re         
agreeable4 ,i f\nd 9 ! c\ntry to :i* ,i 
_h retir$1 ! "l m>%al1 ! c\ntryman &    
fri5d ( ,hume1 :o confirm$ my good      
op9ion ( him1 & f :om ,i le>n$ a lit]>y 
anecdote1 :i* did him great honor 9 !   
op9ion ( 8 lord%ip & _h ! same effect 9 
m9e4 ,wallace1 :o _h writt5 aga9/ ,hume 
^u ! subject ( ! population ( ! anci5ts1
 0 abs5t :il/ 8 "w 0 9 ! press4 ,hume   
took ^u himself to exam9e ! pro(s1 & to 
d ! ne$ful to ! edition4 ,?is mann] (   
act+ 0 accord+ to my way ( ?9k+4 ,i _h  
sold at six s\s 7?ree p5ce7 a piece1 !  
copies ( a song writt5 aga9/ myself4 ,i 
01 !re=e1 /rongly prejudic$ 9 favor (   

,hume1 :5 ,madam de ,v]del9 came &      
m5tion$ ! lively fri5d%ip he express$ = 
me1 & 8 anxiety to d me ! honors (      
,engl&2 su* 0 h] expression4 ,%e press$ 
me a good deal to take advantage ( ?is  
zeal & to write to him4 ,z ,i _h n      
naturally an incl9ation to ,engl&1 & did
 n int5d to g !re until ! la/ extremity1
 ,i refus$ to write or make any promise2
 b ,i left h] at lib]ty to d :atev] %e  
%\ld ?9k necess>y to keep ,mr4 ,hume    
favorably dispos$ t[>ds me4 ,:5 %e w5t f
 ,moti]s1 %e left me 9 ! p]suasion1 by  
ev]y?+ %e _h said to me ( t illu/ri\s   
man1 t he 0 my fri5d1 & %e h]self /ill m
 84  ,aft] h] dep>ture1 ,montmoll9 c>ri$
 on 8 manoeuvres ) m vigor1 & ! populace
 ?rew (f all re/ra9t4 ,yet ,i /ill      
cont9u$ to walk quietly amid/ ! hoot+s (
 ! vulg>2 & a ta/e = botany1 :i* ,i _h  
begun to contract ) ,doctor d',iv]nois1 
mak+ my rambl+ m amus+1 ,i w5t ?r\gh !  
c\ntry h]balis+1 )\t be+ affect$ by !   
clamors ( ?is scum ( ! e>?1 ^: fury 0   
/ill augm5t$ by my calmness4 ,:at       

affect$ me mo/ 01 see+ families ( my    
fri5ds1 or ( p]sons :o gave !mselves t  
"n1 op5ly jo9 ! league ( my p]secutors2 
su* z ! ,d',iv]nois1 )\t except+ ! fa!r 
& bro!r ( my ,isabel le ,boy de la ,t\r1
 a relation to ! fri5d 9 ^: h\se ,i     
lodg$1 & ,madam ,gir>di]1 h] si/]-9-law4
       ,?is fatality _h begun ) my      
resid5ce at ,yv]don2 ! bann]et          
,rogu9 dy+ a ye> or two aft] my dep>ture
 f t city1 !      old papa ,rogu9 _h !  
c&or to in=m me ) grief1 z he said1     
t 9 ! pap]s ( 8 relation1 pro(s _h be5  
f\nd ( 8      hav+ be5 conc]n$ 9 !      
conspiracy to expel me f ,yv]don &      
! /ate ( ,b]ne4  ,?is cle>ly prov$ !    
conspiracy n to be1      z "s p pret5d$ 
to believe1 an affair ( hypocrisy2 s9ce 
! bann]et1 f> f be+ a devotee1 c>ri$    
mat]ialism &      incr$ulity to         
intol]ance & fanaticism4  ,besides1     
nobody at      ,yv]don _h %[n me m      
con/ant att5tion1 nor _h s prodigally   
be/[$ ^u me praises & flatt]y z ?is     
bann]et4  ,he      fai?fully foll[$ !   

favorite plan ( my p]secutors4  ,?is    
,pet] ,boy 0 su* a brute2 s /upid1 &    
behav$ s unc\?ly1 t1 to prev5t my m9d f 
be+ di/urb$1 ,i took ! lib]ty to        
ridicule him2 & aft] ! mann] ( ! ',petit
 ,prophete'1 ,i wrote a pamphlet ( a few
 pages1 entitl$1 'la ,vision de ,pi]re  
de la ,montagne dit le ,voyant1--,!     
vision ( ,pet] ( ! ,m\nta9 call$ !      
,se]4--9 :i* ,i f\nd means to be div]t+ 
en\gh on ! miracles :i* !n s]v$ z !     
great pretext = my p]secution4 ,du      
,peyr\ _h ?is scrap pr9t$ at ,g5eva1 b  
its success 9 ! c\ntry 0 b mod]ate2 !   
,neu*atelois ) all _! wit1 ta/e b weakly
 attic salt or pleasantry :5 ^! are a   
little ref9$4  ,9 ! mid/ ( decrees &    
p]secutions1 ! ,g5evese _h di/+ui%$     
!mselves by sett+ up a hue & cry ) all  
_! might2 & my fri5d ,v]nes among/ o!rs1
 ) an h]oical g5]osity1 *ose t mom5t    
precisely to publi% aga9/ me lett]s 9   
:i* he pret5d$ to prove ,i 0 n a        
,*ri/ian4 ,^! lett]s1 writt5 ) an air ( 
self-suffici5cy1 7 n ! bett] = x1 al?\gh

 x 0 positively said ! celebrat$ ,bonnet
 _h giv5 !m "s correction3 = ?is man1   
al?\gh a mat]iali/1 has an intol]ant    
or?odoxy ! mom5t ,i am 9 "q4 ,!re       
c]ta9ly 0 no?+ 9 ?is "w :i* c\ld tempt  
me to answ] x2 b hav+ an opportunity (  
say+ a few words ^u x 9 my ',lett]s f ! 
,m\nta9'1 ,i ins]t$ 9 !m a %ort note    
suffici5tly expressive ( disda9 to r5d] 
,v]nes furi\s4 ,he fill$ ,g5eva ) 8     
furi\s exclamations1 & ,d',iv]nois wrote
 me ^w he _h q lo/ 8 s5ses4 ,sometime   
aft]w>ds appe>$ an anonym\s %eet1 :i*   
in/ead ( ink seem$ to be writt5 ) wat] (
 ,phlege?on4 ,9 ?is lett] ,i 0 accus$ ( 
hav+ expos$ my *ildr5 9 ! /reets1 ( tak+
 ab\t ) me a soldi]'s trull1 ( be+ worn 
out ) debau*]ies4441 & o!r f9e ?+s ( a l
 nature4 ,x 0 n difficult = me to       
discov] ! au?or4 ,my fir/ idea on read+ 
?is libel1 0 to r$uce to its real value 
ev]y?+ ! _w calls fame & reputation     
among/ m52 see+ ?us a man :o 0 nev] 9 a 
bro!l 9 8 life1 & ^: greate/ defect 0 9 
be+ z timid & %y z a virg91 treat$ z a  

frequ5t] ( places ( t description2 & 9  
f9d+ myself *>g$ ) be+4444441 ,i1 :o n  
only nev] _h ! lea/ ta9t ( su* disord]1 
b1 accord+ to ! faculty1 0 s con/ruct$ z
 to make x almo/ impossible = me to     
contract x4 ,ev]y?+ well consid]$1 ,i   
?\ght ,i c\ld n bett] refute ?is libel  
?an by hav+ x pr9t$ 9 ! city 9 :i* ,i   
longe/ resid$1 & ) ?is int5tion ,i s5t x
 to ,du*esne to pr9t x z x 0 ) an       
adv]tisem5t 9 :i* ,i nam$ ,m4 ,v]nes & a
 few %ort notes by way ( eclaircissem5t4
 ,n satisfi$ ) pr9t+ x only1 ,i s5t     
copies to sev]al p]sons1 & among/ o!rs  
"o copy to ! ,pr9ce ,l\is ( ,wirtemb]g1 
:o _h made me polite advances & ) :om ,i
 0 9 correspond5ce4 ,! pr9ce1 ,du       
,peyr\1 & o!rs1 seem$ to h _! d\bts ab\t
 ! au?or ( ! libel1 & blam$ me = hav+   
nam$ ,v]nes ^u s slight a f\ndation4 ,_!
 rem>ks produc$ 9 me "s scruples1 & ,i  
wrote to ,du*esne to suppress ! pap]4   
,guy wrote to me he _h suppress$ x3 ?is 
may or may n be ! case2 ,i h be5 deceiv$
 on s _m occasions t !re w\ld be no?+   

extraord9>y 9 my be+ s on ?is1 & f ! "t 
( :i* ,i speak1 0 s envelop$ 9 pr(\nd   
d>kness t x 0 impossible = me to come at
 any k9d ( tru?4  ,m4 ,v]nes bore !     
imputation ) a mod]ation m ?an a/oni%+ 9
 a man :o 0 suppos$ n to h des]v$ x1 &  
aft] ! fury ) :i* he 0 seiz$ on =m]     
occasions4 ,he wrote me two or ?ree     
lett]s 9 v gu>d$ t]ms1 ) a view1 z x    
appe>$ to me1 to endeavor by my answ]s  
to discov] h[ f> ,i 0 c]ta9 ( 8 be+ !   
au?or ( ! pap]1 & :e!r or n ,i _h any   
pro(s aga9/ him4 ,i wrote him two %ort  
answ]s1 sev]e 9 ! s5se1 b politely      
express$1 & ) :i* he 0 n displeas$4 ,to 
8 ?ird lett]1 p]ceiv+ he wi%$ to =m ) me
 a k9d ( correspond5ce1 ,i return$ no   
answ]1 & he got ,d',iv]nois to speak to 
me4 ,madam ,cram] wrote to ,du ,peyr\1  
tell+ him %e 0 c]ta9 ! libel 0 n by     
,v]nes4 ,?is h[ev]1 did n make me *ange 
my op9ion4 ,b z x 0 possible ,i might be
 deceiv$1 & z x is c]ta9 t if ,i 71 ,i  
ow$ ,v]nes an explicit rep>ation1 ,i s5t
 him ^w by ,d',iv]nois t ,i w\ld make   

him su* a "o z he %\ld ?9k prop]1       
provid$ he w\ld "n to me ! real au?or ( 
! libel1 or at lea/ prove t he himself 0
 n s4 ,i w5t fur!r3 feel+ t1 aft] all1 7
 he n culpable1 ,i _h no "r to call ^u  
him = pro(s ( any k9d1 ,i /at$ 9 a      
memoir ( consid]able l5g?1 ! reasons    
:5ce ,i _h inf]r$ my conclusion1 &      
det]m9$ to submit !m to ! judgm5t ( an  
arbitrator1 aga9/ :om ,v]nes c\ld n     
except4 ,b few p w\ld guess ! arbitrator
 ( :om ,i made *oice4 ,i decl>$ at ! end
 ( ! memoir1 t if1 aft] hav+ exam9$ x1 &
 made su* inquiries z %\ld seem         
necess>y1 ! c\ncil pron\nc$ ,m4 ,v]nes n
 to be ! au?or ( ! libel1 f t mom5t ,i  
%\ld be fully p]suad$ he 0 n1 & w\ld    
imm$iately g & ?r[ myself at 8 feet1 &  
ask 8 p>don until ,i _h obta9$ x4 ,i c  
say ) ! greate/ tru? t my ard5t zeal =  
equity1 ! uprightness & g5]osity ( my   
he>t1 & my confid5ce 9 ! love ( ju/ice  
innate 9 e m9d nev] appe>$ m fully &    
p]ceptible ?an 9 ?is wise & int]e/+     
memoir1 9 :i* ,i took1 )\t hesitation1  

my mo/ implacable enemies = arbitrators 
betwe5 a calumniator & myself4 ,i read  
to ,du ,peyr\ :at ,i _h writt53 he      
advis$ me to suppress x1 & ,i did s4 ,he
 wi%$ me to wait = ! pro(s ,v]nes       
promis$1 & ,i am /ill wait+ = !m3 he    
?\ght x be/ t ,i %\ld 9 ! meantime be   
sil5t1 & ,i held my tongue1 & %all d s !
 re/ ( my life1 c5sur$ z ,i am = hav+   
br\ght aga9/ ,v]nes a heavy imputation1 
false & unsupportable by pro(1 al?\gh ,i
 am /ill fully p]suad$1 nay1 z conv9c$ z
 ,i am ( my exi/5ce1 t he is ! au?or ( !
 libel4 ,my memoir is 9 ! h&s ( ,du     
,peyr\4 ,%\ld x ev] be publi%$ my       
reasons w be f\nd 9 x1 & ! he>t ( ,jean 
,jacques1 ) :i* my contempor>ies w\ld n 
be acqua9t$1 w ,i hope be kn[n4  ,i h n[
 to proce$ to my cata/rophe at ,moti]s1 
& to my dep>ture f ,val de ,trav]s1 aft]
 a resid5ce ( two ye>s & a half1 & an   
eight mon?s suff]+ ) un%ak5 con/ancy ( !
 mo/ unwor?y treatm5t4 ,x is impossible 
= me cle>ly to recollect ! circum/ances 
( ?is disagreeable p]iod1 b a detail (  

!m w be f\nd 9 a publication to t effect
 by ,du ,peyr\1 ( :i* ,i %all h]eaft] h 
occasion to speak4  ,aft] ! dep>ture (  
,madam de ,v]del9 ! f]m5tation increas$1
 &1 not)/&+ ! reit]at$ rescripts ( ! k+1
 ! frequ5t ord]s ( ! c\ncil ( /ate1 & ! 
c>es ( ! *atela9 & magi/rates ( ! place1
 ! p1 s]i\sly consid]+ me z anti*ri/1 & 
p]ceiv+ all _! clamors to be ( no       
effect1 seem$ at l5g? det]m9$ to proce$ 
to viol5ce2 /ones 7 already ?r[n aft] me
 9 ! roads1 b ,i 0 h[ev] 9 g5]al at too 
great a di/ance to receive any h>m f !m4
 ,at la/1 9 ! night ( ! fair ( ,moti]s1 
:i* is 9 ! beg9n+ ( ,septemb]1 ,i 0     
attack$ 9 my habitation 9 su* a mann] z 
to endang] ! lives ( ev]ybody 9 ! h\se4 
,at midnight ,i he>d a great noise 9 !  
gall]y :i* ran along ! back "p ( ! h\se4
 ,a %[] ( /ones ?r[n aga9/ ! w9d[ & !   
door :i* op5$ to ! gall]y fell into x ) 
s mu* noise & viol5ce1 t my dog1 :i*    
usually slept !re1 & _h begun to b>k1   
ceas$ f fright1 & ran into a corn] gnaw+
 & scrat*+ ! planks to endeavor to make 

8 escape4 ,i imm$iately rose1 & 0 prep>+
 to g f my *amb] into ! kit*51 :5 a /one
 ?r[n by a vigor\s arm cross$ ! latt]1  
aft] hav+ brok5 ! w9d[1 =c$ op5 ! door (
 my *amb]1 & fell at my feet1 s t _h ,i 
be5 a mom5t soon] ^u ! floor ,i %\ld h  
_h ! /one aga9/ my /oma*4 ,i judg$ !    
noise _h be5 made to br+ me to ! door1 &
 ! /one ?r[n to receive me z ,i w5t out4
 ,i ran into ! kit*51 :]e ,i f\nd       
,!resa1 :o also _h ris51 & 0 trembl+ly  
mak+ h] way to me z fa/ z %e c\ld4 ,we  
plac$ ourselves aga9/ ! wall out ( !    
direction ( ! w9d[ to avoid ! /ones1 &  
delib]ate ^u :at 0 be/ to be done2 = go+
 out to call assi/ance 0 ! c]ta9 means (
 gett+ ourselves knock$ on ! head4      
,=tunately ! maid-s]vant ( an old man :o
 lodg$ "u me 0 wak$ by ! noise1 & got up
 & ran to call ! *atela91 ^: h\se 0 next
 to m9e4 ,he jump$ f 8 b$1 put on 8 robe
 de *ambre1 & in/antly came to me ) !   
gu>d1 :i*1 on acc\nt ( ! fair1 w5t !    
r\nd t night1 & 0 j at h&4 ,! *atela9 0 
s al>m$ at ! sight ( ! effects ( :at _h 

happ5$ t he turn$ pale & on see+ ! /ones
 9 ! gall]y1 exclaim$1 ,good ,god6 "h is
 a qu>ry6 ,on exam9+ bel[ /airs1 a door 
( a little c\rt 0 f\nd to h be5 =c$1 &  
!re 0 an appe>ance ( an attempt hav+ be5
 made to get into ! h\se by ! gall]y4   
,on inquir+ ! reason :y ! gu>d _h nei!r 
prev5t$ nor p]ceiv$ ! di/urbance1 x came
 out t ! gu>ds ( ,moti]s _h insi/$ ^u   
do+ duty t night1 al?\gh x 0 ! turn ( ^?
 ( ano!r village4  ,! next day ! *atela9
 s5t 8 report to ! c\ncil ( /ate1 :i*   
two days aft]w>ds s5t an ord] to inquire
 into ! affair1 to promise a rew>d &    
secrecy to ^? :o %\ld impea* su* z 7    
guilty1 & 9 ! meantime to place1 at !   
exp5se ( ! k+1 gu>ds ab\t my h\se1 & t (
 ! *atela91 :i* jo9$ to x4 ,! day aft] !
 di/urbance1 ,colonel ,pury1 !          
,attorney-,g5]al ,meuron1 ! ,*atela9    
,m>t9et1 ! ,receiv] ,guy5et1 ! ,treasur]
 d',iv]nois & 8 fa!r1 9 a ^w1 e p]son ( 
consequ5ce 9 ! c\ntry1 came to see me1 &
 unit$ _! solicitations to p]suade me to
 yield to ! /orm & leave1 at lea/ = a   

"t1 a place 9 :i* ,i c\ld no long] live 
9 safety nor ) honor4 ,i p]ceiv$ t ev5 !
 *atela9 0 fright5$ at ! fury ( ! p1 &  
appreh5d+ x might ext5d to himself1 w\ld
 be glad to see me dep>t z soon z       
possible1 t he might no long] h ! tr\ble
 ( protect+ me !re1 & be able to quit ! 
p>i%1 :i* he did aft] my dep>ture4 ,i   
!re=e yield$ to _! solicitations1 & ?is 
) b little pa91 = ! hatr$ ( ! p s       
afflict$ my he>t t ,i 0 no long] able to
 support x4  ,i _h a *oice ( places to  
retire to4 ,aft] ,madam de ,v]del9      
return$ to ,p>is1 %e _h1 9 sev]al       
lett]s1 m5tion$ a ,mr4 ,walpole1 :om %e 
call$ my "l1 :o1 hav+ a /rong desire to 
s]ve me1 propos$ to me an asylum at "o (
 8 c\ntry h\ses1 ( ! situation ( :i* %e 
gave me ! mo/ agreeable description2    
ent]+1 relative to lodg+ & subsi/5ce1   
into a detail :i* prov$ %e & ,"l        
,walpole _h held p>ticul> consultations 
^u ! project4 ,my "l m>%al _h always    
advis$ me to g to ,engl& or ,scotl&1 & 9
 case ( my det]m9+ ^u ! latt]1 (f]$ me  

!re an asylum4 ,b he (f]$ me ano!r at   
,potsdam1 ne> to 8 p]son1 & :i* tempt$  
me m ?an all ! re/4  ,he _h j           
communicat$ to me :at ! k+ _h said to   
him ab\t my go+ !re1 :i* 0 a k9d (      
invitation to me f t mon>*1 & ! ,du*ess 
( ,saxe-,go?a dep5d$ s mu* ^u my tak+ ! 
j\rney t %e wrote to me desir+ ,i %\ld g
 to see h] 9 my way to ! c\rt (         
,prussia1 & /ay "s "t be=e ,i proce$$   
f>!r2 b ,i 0 s atta*$ to ,switz]l& t ,i 
c\ld n resolve to quit x s long z x 0   
possible = me to live !re1 & ,i seiz$   
?is opportunity to execute a project (  
:i* ,i _h = sev]al mon?s conceiv$ !     
idea1 & ( :i* ,i h def]r$ speak+1 t ,i  
might n int]rupt my n>rative4  ,?is     
project consi/$ 9 go+ to reside 9 ! isl&
 ( ,/4 ,pet]1 an e/ate belong+ to !     
,hospital ( ,b]ne1 9 ! middle ( ! lake (
 ,bi5ne4 ,9 a p$e/rian pilgrimage ,i _h 
made ! prec$+ ye> ) ,du ,peyr\ we _h    
visit$ ?is isle1 ) :i* ,i 0 s mu*       
delight$ t ,i _h s9ce t "t incessantly  
?\ght ( ! means ( mak+ x my place (     

resid5ce4 ,! greate/ ob/acle to my wi%es
 arose f ! prop]ty ( ! isl& be+ ve/$ 9 !
 p ( ,b]ne1 :o ?ree ye>s be=e _h driv5  
me f among/ !m2 & besides !             
mortification ( return+ to live ) p :o  
_h giv5 me s unfavorable a reception1 ,i
 _h reason to fe> !y w\ld leave me no m 
at peace 9 ! isl& ?an !y _h done at     
,yv]don4 ,i _h consult$ ! "l m>%al ^u ! 
subject1 :o ?9k+ z ,i did1 t ! p ( ,b]ne
 w\ld be glad to see me bani%$ to !     
isl&1 & to keep me !re z a ho/age = !   
works ,i might be tempt$ to write1 &    
s\nd$ _! dispositions by means ( ,m4    
,/url]1 8 old neighbor at ,colombi]4 ,m4
 ,/url] address$ himself to ! *iefs ( ! 
/ate1 &1 accord+ to _! answ] assur$ !   
m>%al ! ,b]nois1 sorry = _! pa/         
behavior1 wi%$ to see me settl$ 9 ! isl&
 ( ,/4 ,pet]1 & to leave me !re at      
peace4 ,z an additional precaution1 be=e
 ,i det]m9$ to reside !re1 ,i desir$ !  
,colonel ,*aillet to make new inquiries4
 ,he confirm$ :at ,i _h already he>d1 & 
! receiv] ( ! isl& hav+ obta9$ f 8      

sup]iors p]mission to lodge me 9 x1 ,i  
?\ght ,i might )\t dang] g to ! h\se1 ) 
! tacit cons5t ( ! sov]eign & !         
proprietors2 = ,i c\ld n expect ! p (   
,b]ne w\ld op5ly ackn[l$ge ! inju/ice !y
 _h done me1 & ?us act contr>y to ! mo/ 
inviolable maxim ( all sov]eigns4  ,!   
isl& ( ,/4 ,pet]1 call$ at ,neu*atel !  
isl& ( ,la ,motte1 9 ! middle ( ! lake (
 ,bi5ne1 is half a league 9 circumf]5ce2
 b 9 ?is little space all ! *ief        
productions necess>y to subsi/5ce are   
f\nd4 ,! isl& has fields1 mead[s1       
or*>ds1 woods1 & v9ey>ds1 & all ^!1     
favor$ by v>iegat$ & m\nta9\s           
situations1 =m a di/ribution ( ! m      
agreeable1 z ! p>ts1 n be+ discov]$ all 
at once1 are se5 successively to        
advantage1 & make ! isl& appe> great]   
?an x really is4 ,a v elevat$ t]race =ms
 ! we/]n "p ( x1 & comm&s ,gl]esse &    
,neuv]ville4 ,?is t]race is plant$ )    
trees :i* =m a long alley1 int]rupt$ 9 !
 middle by a great saloon1 9 :i*1 dur+ !
 v9tage1 ! p f ! neighbor+ %ores        

assemble & div]t !mselves4 ,!re is b "o 
h\se 9 ! :ole isl&1 b t is v spaci\s &  
conv5i5t1 inhabit$ by ! receiv]1 &      
situat$ 9 a holl[ by :i* x is %elt]$ f !
 w9ds4  ,five or six hundr$ paces to !  
s\? ( ! isl& ( ,/4 ,pet] is ano!r isl&1 
consid]ably less ?an ! =m]1 wild &      
uncultivat$1 :i* appe>s to h be5 deta*$ 
f ! great] isl& by /orms3 its gravelly  
soil produces no?+ b will[s & p]sic>ia1 
b !re is 9 x a high hill well cov]$ )   
gre5sw>d & v pleasant4 ,! =m ( ! lake is
 an almo/ regul> oval4 ,! banks1 less   
ri* ?an ^? ( ! lake ( ,g5eva &          
,neu*atel1 =m a beautiful decoration1   
especially t[>ds ! we/]n "p1 :i* is well
 peopl$1 & edg$ ) v9ey>ds at ! foot ( a 
*a9 ( m\nta9s1 some?+ l ^? (            
,cote-,rotie1 b :i* produce n su*       
excell5t w9e4 ,! bailiwick ( ,/4 ,john1 
,neuveville1 ,b]ne1 & ,bi5ne1 lie 9 a   
l9e f ! s\? to ! nor?1 to ! extremity ( 
! lake1 ! :ole int]sp]s$ ) v agreeable  
villages4  ,su* 0 ! asylum ,i _h prep>$ 
= myself1 & to :i* ,i 0 det]m9$ to      

retire aft] quitt+ ,val de ,trav]s4     
,x may p]haps be necess>y to rem>k t ,i 
left !re an enemy 9      ,m4 du ,t5eaux1
 mayor ( ,v]ri]es1 n mu* e/eem$ 9 !     
c\ntry1      b :o has a bro!r1 said to  
be an hone/ man1 9 ! (fice ( ,m4      de
 ,/4 ,flor5t94  ,! mayor _h be5 to see  
him "s "t be=e my      adv5ture4        
,little rem>ks ( ?is k9d1 ?\gh ( no     
consequ5ce1      9 !mselves1 may lead to
 ! discov]y ( _m und]h&      deal+s4    
,?is *oice 0 s agreeable to my peaceful 
incl9ations1 & my solit>y & indol5t     
disposition1 t ,i consid] x z "o ( !    
pleas+ rev]ies ( :i* ,i became ! mo/    
passionately fond4 ,i ?\ght ,i %\ld 9 t 
isl& be m sep>at$ f m51 m %elt]$ f _!   
outrages1 & soon] =gott5 by mank9d3 9 a 
^w1 m ab&on$ to ! delightful pleasures (
 ! inaction ( a contemplative life4 ,i  
c\ld h wi%$ to h be5 conf9$ 9 x 9 su* a 
mann] z to h _h no int]c\rse ) mortals1 
& ,i c]ta9ly took e measure ,i c\ld     
imag9e to relieve me f ! necessity (    
tr\bl+ my head ab\t !m4  ,! great "q 0 t

 ( subsi/5ce1 & by ! de>ness (          
provisions1 & ! difficulty ( c>riage1   
?is is exp5sive 9 ! isl&2 ! inhabitants 
are besides at ! m]cy ( ! receiv]4 ,?is 
difficulty 0 remov$ by an arrangem5t :i*
 ,du ,peyr\ made ) me 9 becom+ a        
sub/itute to ! company :i* _h und]tak5 &
 ab&on$ my g5]al edition4 ,i gave him   
all ! mat]ials necess>y1 & made ! prop] 
arrangem5t & di/ribution4 ,to !         
engagem5t betwe5 u ,i add$ t ( giv+ him 
! memoirs ( my life1 & made him ! g5]al 
deposit>y ( all my pap]s1 "u ! express  
condition ( mak+ no use ( !m until aft] 
my dea?1 hav+ x at he>t quietly to end  
my days )\t do+ any?+ :i* %\ld aga9 br+ 
me back to ! recollection ( ! public4 ,!
 life annuity he und]took to pay me 0   
suffici5t to my subsi/5ce4 ,my "l m>%al 
hav+ recov]$ all 8 prop]ty1 _h (f]$ me  
twelve hundr$ livres 7fifty p\nds7 a    
ye>1 half ( :i* ,i accept$4 ,he wi%$ to 
s5d me ! pr9cipal1 & ?is ,i refus$ on   
acc\nt ( ! difficulty ( plac+ x4 ,he !n 
s5t ! am\nt to ,du ,peyr\1 9 ^: h&s x   

rema9$1 & :o pays me ! annuity accord+  
to ! t]ms agre$ ^u ) 8 lord%ip4 ,add+   
!re=e to ! result ( my agreem5t ) ,du   
,peyr\1 ! annuity ( ! m>%al1 two-?irds (
 :i* 7 rev]sible to ,!resa aft] my dea?1
 & ! annuity ( ?ree hundr$ livres f     
,du*esne1 ,i 0 assur$ ( a g5teel        
subsi/5ce = myself1 & aft] me = ,!resa1 
to :om ,i left sev5 hundr$ livres       
7tw5ty-n9e p\nds7 a ye>1 f ! annuities  
paid me by ,rey & ! "l m>%al2 ,i _h     
!re=e no long] to fe> a want ( bread4 ,b
 x 0 orda9$ t honor %\ld oblige me to   
reject all ^! res\rces :i* =tune & my   
labors plac$ )9 my rea*1 & t ,i %\ld die
 z poor z ,i _h liv$4 ,x w be se5 :e!r  
or n1 )\t r$uc+ myself to ! la/ degree (
 infamy1 ,i c\ld abide by ! engagem5ts  
:i* c>e has always tak5 to r5d]         
ignom9i\s1 by depriv+ me ( e o!r res\rce
 to =ce me to cons5t to my own di%onor4 
,h[ 0 x possible anybody c\ld d\bt ( !  
*oice ,i %\ld make 9 su* an alt]native8 
,o!rs h judg$ ( my he>t by _! own4  ,my 
m9d at ease relative to subsi/5ce 0 )\t 

c>e ^u e o!r subject4 ,al?\gh ,i left 9 
! _w ! field op5 to my enemies1 !re     
rema9$ 9 ! noble en?usiasm by :i* my    
writ+s 7 dictat$1 & 9 ! con/ant uni=mity
 ( my pr9ciples1 an evid5ce ( !         
uprightness ( my he>t :i* answ]$ to t   
d$ucible f my conduct 9 favor ( my      
natural disposition4 ,i _h no ne$ ( any 
o!r def5se aga9/ my calumniators4 ,!y   
might "u my "n describe ano!r man1 b x 0
 impossible !y %\ld deceive su* z 7     
unwill+ to be impos$ ^u4 ,i c\ld h giv5 
!m my :ole life to animadv]t ^u1 ) a    
c]ta9ty1 not)/&+ all my faults &        
weaknesses1 & my want ( aptitude to     
support ! lighte/ yoke1 ( _! f9d+ me 9 e
 situation a j & good man1 )\t          
bitt]ness1 hatr$1 or jeal\sy1 ready to  
ackn[l$ge my errors1 & /ill m prompt to 
=get ! injuries ,i receiv$ f o!rs2 seek+
 all my happ9ess 9 love1 fri5d%ip1 &    
affection1 & 9 ev]y?+ c>ry+ my s9c]ity  
ev5 to imprud5ce & ! mo/ incr$ible      
dis9t]e/$ness4  ,i !re=e 9 "s measure   
took leave ( ! age 9 :i* ,i liv$ & my   

contempor>ies1 & bade adieu to ! _w1 )  
an int5tion to conf9e myself = ! re/ (  
my days to t isl&2 su* 0 my resolution1 
& x 0 !re ,i hop$ to execute ! great    
project ( ! indol5t life to :i* ,i _h   
until !n consecrat$ ! little activity ) 
:i* ,heav5 _h end[$ me4 ,! isl& 0 to    
become to me t ( ,papimanie1 t happy    
c\ntry :]e ! inhabitants sleep3         
,on n'y fait plus1 on n'y fait nulle    
*ose4                 ,!re !y d no m3   
!re !y d no?+4  ,?is 'no m' 0 ev]y?+ =  
me1 = ,i nev] mu* regrett$ sleep2       
indol5ce is suffici5t to my happ9ess1 & 
provid$ ,i d no?+1 ,i _h r dream wak+   
?an asleep4 ,be+ pa/ ! age ( romantic   
projects1 & hav+ be5 m /unn$ ?an flatt]$
 by ! trumpet ( fame1 my only hope 0 t (
 liv+ at ease1 & con/antly at leisure4  
,?is is ! life ( ! bless$ 9 ! _w to     
come1 & = ! re/ ( m9e "h bel[ ,i made x 
my supreme happ9ess4  ,!y :o reproa* me 
) s _m contradictions1 w n fail "h to   
add ano!r to ! numb]4 ,i h obs]v$ !     
indol5ce ( great companies made !m      

unsupportable to me1 & ,i am n[ seek+   
solitude = ! sole purpose ( ab&on+      
myself to inaction4 ,?is h[ev] is my    
disposition2 if !re be 9 x a            
contradiction1 x proce$s f nature & n f 
me2 b !re is s little t x is precisely  
on t acc\nt t ,i am always consi/5t4 ,! 
indol5ce ( company is burd5some because 
x is =c$4 ,t ( solitude is *>m+ because 
x is free1 & dep5ds ^u ! w4 ,9 company  
,i suff] cruelly by inaction1 because   
?is is ( necessity4 ,i mu/ !re rema9    
nail$ to my *air1 or /& upright l a     
picket1 )\t /irr+ h& or foot1 n d>+ to  
run1 jump1 s+1 exclaim1 nor ge/iculate  
:5 ,i please1 n all[$ ev5 to dream1     
suff]+ at ! same "t ! fatigue ( inaction
 & all ! torm5t ( con/ra9t2 oblig$ to   
pay att5tion to e fooli% ?+ utt]$1 & to 
all ! idle complim5ts paid1 & con/antly 
to keep my m9d ^u ! rack t ,i may n fail
 to introduce 9 my turn my je/ or my    
lie4 ,& ?is is call$ idl5ess6 ,x is !   
labor ( a galley slave4  ,! indol5ce ,i 
love is n t ( a lazy fell[ :o sits ) 8  

arms across 9 total inaction1 & ?9ks no 
m ?an he acts1 b t ( a *ild :i* is      
incessantly 9 motion do+ no?+1 & t ( a  
dot>d :o w&]s f 8 subject4 ,i love to   
amuse myself ) trifles1 by beg9n+ a     
hundr$ ?+s & nev] f9i%+ "o ( !m1 by go+ 
or com+ z ,i take ei!r into my head1 by 
*ang+ my project at e in/ant1 by foll[+ 
a fly ?r\gh all its w9d+s1 9 wi%+ to    
ov]turn a rock to see :at is "u x1 by   
und]tak+ ) ardor ! "w ( t5 ye>s1 &      
ab&on+ x )\t regret at ! end ( t5       
m9utes2 f9ally1 9 mus+ f morn+ until    
night )\t ord] or coh]5ce1 & 9 foll[+ 9 
ev]y?+ ! caprice ( a mom5t4  ,botany1   
su* z ,i h always consid]$ x1 & ( :i*   
aft] my own mann] ,i began to become    
passionately fond1 0 precisely an idle  
/udy1 prop] to fill up ! void ( my      
leisure1 )\t leav+ room = ! delirium (  
imag9ation or ! we>9ess ( total         
inaction4 ,c>elessly w&]+ 9 ! woods & ! 
c\ntry1 me*anically ga!r+ "h a fl[] &   
!re a bran*2 eat+ my morsel almo/ by    
*ance1 obs]v+ a ?\s& & a ?\s& times !   

same ?+s1 & always ) ! same int]e/1     
because ,i always =got !m1 7 to me !    
means ( pass+ an et]nity )\t a we>y     
mom5t4 ,h[ev] elegant1 admirable1 &     
v>iegat$ ! /ructure ( plants may be1 x  
does n /rike an ignorant eye suffici5tly
 to fix ! att5tion4 ,! con/ant analogy1 
)1 at ! same "t1 ! prodigi\s v>iety :i* 
reigns 9 _! con=mation1 gives pleasure  
to ^? only :o h already "s idea ( !     
vegetable sy/em4 ,o!rs at ! sight ( ^!  
treasures ( nature feel no?+ m ?an a    
/upid & monoton\s admiration4 ,!y see   
no?+ 9 detail because !y "k n = :at to  
look1 nor d !y p]ceive ! :ole1 hav+ no  
idea ( ! *a9 ( connection & comb9ations 
:i* ov]:elms ) its wond]s ! m9d ( !     
obs]v]4 ,i 0 arriv$ at t happy po9t ( k1
 & my want ( memory 0 su* z con/antly to
 keep me !re1 t ,i knew little en\gh to 
make ! :ole new to me1 & yet ev]y?+ t 0 
necess>y to make me s5sible to !        
beauties ( all ! p>ts4 ,! diff]5t soils 
into :i* ! isl&1 al?\gh little1 0       
divid$1 (f]$ a suffici5t v>iety (       

plants1 = ! /udy & amusem5t ( my :ole   
life4 ,i 0 det]m9$ n to leave a blade ( 
grass )\t analyz+ x1 & ,i began already 
to take measures = mak+1 ) an imm5se    
collection ( obs]vations1 ! ',flora     
,petr9sul>is'4  ,i s5t = ,!resa1 :o     
br\ght ) h] my books & effects4 ,we     
bo>d$ ) ! receiv] ( ! isl&4 ,8 wife _h  
si/]s at ,nidau1 :o by turns came to see
 h]1 & 7 company = ,!resa4 ,i "h made ! 
exp]im5t ( ! agreeable life :i* ,i c\ld 
h wi%$ to cont9ue to ! end ( my days1 & 
! pleasure ,i f\nd 9 x only s]v$ to make
 me feel to a great] degree ! bitt]ness 
( t by :i* x 0 %ortly to be succe$$4  ,i
 h ev] be5 passionately fond ( wat]1 & !
 sight ( x ?r[s me into a delightful    
rev]ie1 al?\gh frequ5tly )\t a det]m9ate
 object4  ,imm$iately aft] ,i rose f my 
b$ ,i nev] fail$1 if ! wea!r 0 f9e1 to  
run to ! t]race to respire ! fre% &     
salubri\s air ( ! morn+1 & glide my eye 
ov] ! horizon ( ! lake1 b\nd$ by banks &
 m\nta9s1 delightful to ! view4 ,i "k no
 homage m wor?y ( ! div9ity ?an ! sil5t 

admiration excit$ by ! contemplation ( 8
 works1 & :i* is n ext]nally express$4  
,i c easily compreh5d ! reason :y !     
inhabitants ( great cities1 :o see no?+ 
b walls1 & /reets1 h b little fai?2 b n 
:5ce x happ5s t p 9 ! c\ntry1 &         
especially su* z live 9 solitude1 c     
possibly be )\t x4 ,h[ comes x to pass t
 ^! d n a hundr$ times a day elevate _! 
m9ds 9 ec/asy to ! ,au?or ( ! wond]s :i*
 /rike _! s5ses4 ,= my "p1 x is         
especially at ris+1 we>i$ by a want (   
sleep1 t long habit incl9es me to ?is   
elevation :i* imposes n ! fatigue (     
?9k+4 ,b to ?is effect my eyes mu/ be   
/ruck ) ! ravi%+ beauties ( nature4 ,9  
my *amb] ,i pray less frequ5tly1 & n s  
f]v5tly2 b at ! view ( a f9e l&scape ,i 
feel myself mov$1 b by :at ,i am unable 
to tell4 ,i h some:]e read ( a wise     
bi%op :o 9 a visit to 8 diocese f\nd an 
old woman ^: only pray] consi/$ 9 ! s+le
 int]jection ,oh6--,good "m1 said he to 
h]1 cont9ue to pray 9 ?is mann]2 y\r    
pray] is bett] ?an ours4 ,?is bett]     

pray] is m9e also4  ,aft] breakfa/1 ,i  
ha/5$1 ) a fr[n on my br[1 to write a   
few pitiful lett]s1 long+ ard5tly = !   
mom5t aft] :i* ,i %\ld h no m to write4 
,i busi$ myself = a few m9utes ab\t my  
books & pap]s1 to unpack & arrange !m1 r
 ?an to read :at !y conta9$2 & ?is      
arrangem5t1 :i* to me became ! "w (     
,p5elope1 gave me ! pleasure ( mus+ = a 
:ile4 ,i !n grew we>y1 & quitt$ my books
 to sp5d ! ?ree or f\r h\rs :i* rema9$  
to me ( ! morn+ 9 ! /udy ( botany1 &    
especially ( ! sy/em ( ,l9naeus1 ( :i*  
,i became s passionately fond1 t1 aft]  
hav+ felt h[ useless my atta*m5t to x 01
 ,i yet c\ld n entirely %ake x (f4 ,?is 
great obs]v] is1 9 my op9ion1 ! only "o 
:o1 ) ,ludwig1 has hi!rto consid]$      
botany z a naturali/1 & a philosoph]2 b 
he has too mu* /udi$ x 9 h]bals & g>d5s1
 & n suffici5tly 9 nature h]self4 ,= my 
"p1 ^: g>d5 0 always ! :ole isl&1 !     
mom5t ,i want$ to make or v]ify an      
obs]vation1 ,i ran into ! woods or      
mead[s ) my book "u my arm1 & !re laid  

myself ^u ! gr\nd ne> ! plant 9 "q1 to  
exam9e x at my ease z x /ood4 ,?is me?od
 0 ( great s]vice to me 9 ga9+ a k (    
vegetables 9 _! natural /ate1 be=e !y _h
 be5 cultivat$ & *ang$ 9 _! nature by ! 
h&s ( m54 ,fagon1 fir/ physician to     
,l\is ,,xiv41 & :o nam$ & p]fectly knew 
all ! plants 9 ! royal g>d51 is said to 
h be5 s ignorant 9 ! c\ntry z n to "k h[
 to di/+ui% ! same plants4 ,i am        
precisely ! contr>y4 ,i "k some?+ ( ! "w
 ( nature1 b no?+ ( t ( ! g>d5]4  ,i    
gave e aft]noon totally up to my indol5t
 & c>eless disposition1 & to foll[+ )\t 
regul>ity ! impulse ( ! mom5t4 ,:5 !    
wea!r 0 calm1 ,i frequ5tly w5t          
imm$iately aft] ,i rose f d9n]1 & alone 
got into ! boat4 ,! receiv] _h taught me
 to r[ ) "o o>2 ,i r[$ out into ! middle
 ( ! lake4 ,! mom5t ,i )drew f ! bank1  
,i felt a secret joy :i* almo/ made me  
leap1 & ( :i* x is impossible = me to   
tell or ev5 compreh5d ! cause1 if x 7 n 
a secret congratulation on my be+ out ( 
! rea* ( ! wick$4 ,i aft]w>ds r[$ ab\t !

 lake1 sometimes approa*+ ! opposite    
bank1 b nev] t\*+ at x4 ,i (t5 let my   
boat float at ! m]cy ( ! w9d & wat]1    
ab&on+ myself to rev]ies )\t object1 &  
:i* 7 n ! less agreeable = _! /upidity4 
,i sometimes exclaim$1 ,o nature6 ,o my 
"m6 ,i am "h "u ?y gu>dian%ip alone2 "h 
is no deceitful & cunn+ mortal to       
int]f]e betwe5 !e & me4 ,9 ?is mann] ,i 
)drew half a league f l&2 ,i c\ld h wi%$
 ! lake _h be5 ! ocean4 ,h[ev]1 to      
please my poor dog1 :o 0 n s fond z ,i 0
 ( su* a long /ay on ! wat]1 ,i commonly
 foll[$ "o con/ant c\rse2 ?is 0 go+ to  
l& at ! little isl& :]e ,i walk$ an h\r 
or two1 or laid myself d[n on ! grass on
 ! summit ( ! hill1 !re to satiate      
myself ) ! pleasure ( admir+ ! lake &   
its environs1 to exam9e & dissect all ! 
h]bs )9 my rea*1 &1 l ano!r ,rob9son    
,crusoe1 built myself an imag9>y place (
 resid5ce 9 ! isl&4 ,i became v mu*     
atta*$ to ?is em95ce4 ,:5 ,i br\ght     
,!resa1 ) ! wife ( ! receiv] & h] si/]s1
 to walk !re1 h[ pr\d 0 ,i to be _!     

pilot & guide6 ,we took !re rabbits to  
/ock x4 ,?is 0 ano!r s\rce ( pleasure to
 ,jean ,jacques4 ,^! animals r5d]$ !    
isl& /ill m int]e/+ to me4 ,i aft]w>ds  
w5t to x m frequ5tly1 & ) great]        
pleasure to obs]ve ! progress ( ! new   
inhabitants4  ,to ^! amusem5ts ,i add$  
"o :i* recall$ to my recollection !     
delightful life ,i l$ at ! ,*>mettes1 & 
to :i* ! season p>ticul>ly invit$ me4   
,?is 0 assi/+ 9 ! ru/ic labors ( ga!r+ (
 roots & fruits1 ( :i* ,!resa & ,i made 
x a pleasure to p>take ) ! wife ( !     
receiv] & 8 family4 ,i rememb] a        
,b]nois1 "o ,m4 ,kirkeb]gu]1 com+ to see
 me1 f\nd me p]*$ ^u a tree ) a sack    
fa/5$ to my wai/1 & already s full (    
apples t ,i c\ld n /ir f ! bran* on :i* 
,i /ood4 ,i 0 n sorry to be caught 9 ?is
 & simil> situations4 ,i hop$ ! p (     
,b]ne1 witnesses to ! employm5t ( my    
leisure1 w\ld no long] ?9k ( di/urb+ my 
tranquillity b leave me at peace 9 my   
solitude4 ,i %\ld h pref]r$ be+ conf9$  
!re by _! desire3 ?is w\ld h r5d]$ !    

cont9uation ( my repose m c]ta94  ,?is  
is ano!r decl>ation ^u :i* ,i am        
previ\sly c]ta9 ( ! incr$ulity ( _m ( my
 read]s1 :o ob/9ately cont9ue to judge  
me by !mselves1 al?\gh !y _c b h se51 9 
! c\rse ( my life1 a ?\s& int]nal       
affections :i* bore no resemblance to   
any ( !irs4 ,b :at is /ill m extraord9>y
 is1 t !y refuse me e s5tim5t1 good or  
indiff]5t1 :i* !y h n1 & are con/antly  
ready to attribute to me su* bad ones z 
_c ent] into ! he>t ( man3 9 ?is case !y
 f9d x easy to set me 9 opposition to   
nature1 & to make ( me su* a mon/] z _c 
9 reality exi/4 ,no?+ absurd appe>s to  
!m incr$ible1 ! mom5t x has a t5d5cy to 
black5 me1 & no?+ 9 ! lea/ extraord9>y  
seems to !m possible1 if x t5ds to d me 
honor4  ,b1 not)/&+ :at !y may ?9k or   
say1 ,i w /ill cont9ue fai?fully to /ate
 :at ,j4 ,j4 ,r\sseau 01 did1 & ?\ght2  
)\t expla9+1 or ju/ify+1 ! s+ul>ity ( 8 
s5tim5ts & ideas1 or endeavor+ to       
discov] :e!r or n o!rs h ?\ght z he did4
 ,i became s delight$ ) ! isl& ( ,/4    

,pet]1 & my resid5ce !re 0 s agreeable  
to me t1 by conc5trat+ all my desires )9
 x1 ,i =m$ ! wi% t ,i might /ay !re to !
 end ( my life4 ,! visits ,i _h to      
return 9 ! neighborhood1 ! j\rneys ,i   
%\ld be "u ! necessity ( mak+ to        
,neu*atel1 ,bi5ne1 ,yv]don1 & ,nidau1   
already fatigu$ my imag9ation4 ,a day   
pass$ out ( ! isl&1 seem$ to me a loss (
 s mu* happ9ess1 & to g beyond ! b\nds (
 ! lake 0 to g out ( my elem5t4 ,pa/    
exp]i5ce _h besides r5d]$ me            
appreh5sive4 ,! v satisfaction t ,i     
receiv$ f any?+ :atev] 0 suffici5t to   
make me fe> ! loss ( x1 & ! ard5t desire
 ,i _h to end my days 9 t isl&1 0       
insep>able f ! appreh5sion ( be+ oblig$ 
to leave x4 ,i _h contract$ a habit (   
go+ 9 ! ev5+ to sit ^u ! s&y %ore1      
especially :5 ! lake 0 agitat$4 ,i felt 
a s+ul> pleasure 9 see+ ! waves break at
 my feet4 ,i =m$ ( !m 9 my imag9ation ! 
image ( ! tumult ( ! _w contra/$ ) !    
peace ( my habitation2 & ?is pleas+ idea
 sometimes s(t5$ me ev5 to te>s4 ,!     

repose ,i enjoy$ ) ec/asy 0 di/urb$ by  
no?+ b ! fe> ( be+ depriv$ ( x1 & ?is   
inquietude 0 accompani$ ) "s bitt]ness4 
,i felt my situation s prec>i\s z n to  
d>e to dep5d ^u its cont9uance4 ,ah6 h[ 
will+ly1 said ,i to myself1 w\ld ,i     
r5\nce ! lib]ty ( quitt+ ?is place1 =   
:i* ,i h no desire1 = ! assurance (     
always rema9+ 9 x4 ,in/ead ( be+ p]mitt$
 to /ay "h by favor1 :y am ,i n deta9$  
by =ce6 ,!y :o suff] me to rema9 may 9 a
 mom5t drive me away1 & c ,i hope my    
p]secutors1 see+ me happy1 w leave me "h
 to cont9ue to be s8 ,p]mitt+ me to live
 9 ! isl& is b a trifl+ favor4 ,i c\ld  
wi% to be condemn$ to d x1 & con/ra9$ to
 rema9 "h t ,i may n be oblig$ to g     
else:]e4 ,i ca/ an envi\s eye ^u ,mi*eli
 du ,cret1 :o1 quiet 9 ! ca/le (        
,arb\rg1 _h only to det]m9e to be happy 
to become s4 ,9 f9e1 by ab&on+ myself to
 ^! reflections1 & ! al>m+ appreh5sions 
( new /orms always ready to break ov] my
 head1 ,i wi%$ = !m ) an incr$ible      
ardor1 & t in/ead ( suff]+ me to reside 

9 ! isl&1 ! ,b]nois w\ld give x me = a  
p]petual prison2 & ,i c ass]t t _h x    
dep5d$ ^u me to get myself condemn$ to  
?is1 ,i w\ld mo/ joyfully h done x1     
pref]r+ a ?\s& times ! necessity ( pass+
 my life !re to ! dang] ( be+ driv5 to  
ano!r place4  ,?is fe> did n long rema9 
on my m9d4 ,:5 ,i lea/ expect$ :at 0 to 
happ51 ,i receiv$ a lett] f ! bailiff ( 
,nidau1 )9 ^: jurisdiction ! isl& ( ,/4 
,pet] 02 by 8 lett] he ann\nc$ to me f  
_! excell5cies an ord] to quit ! isl& & 
_! /ates4 ,i ?\ght myself 9 a dream4    
,no?+ c\ld be less natural1 reasonable1 
or =ese5 ?an su* an ord]3 = ,i consid]$ 
my appreh5sions z ! result ( inquietude 
9 a man ^: imag9ation 0 di/urb$ by 8    
mis=tunes1 & n to proce$ f a =esight :i*
 c\ld h ! lea/ f\ndation4 ,! measures ,i
 _h tak5 to insure myself ! tacit cons5t
 ( ! sov]eign1 ! tranquillity ) :i* ,i  
_h be5 left to make my e/abli%m5t1 !    
visits ( sev]al p f ,b]ne1 & t ( !      
bailiff himself1 :o _h %[n me su*       
fri5d%ip & att5tion1 & ! rigor ( !      

season 9 :i* x 0 b>b>\s to expel a man  
:o 0 sickly & infirm1 all ^!            
circum/ances made me & _m p believe t   
!re 0 "s mi/ake 9 ! ord] & t ill-dispos$
 p _h purposely *os5 ! "t ( ! v9tage & !
 vacation ( ! s5ate sudd5ly to d me an  
injury4  ,_h ,i yield$ to ! fir/ impulse
 ( my indignation1 ,i %\ld imm$iately h 
dep>t$4 ,b to :at place 0 ,i to g8 ,:at 
0 to become ( me at ! beg9n+ ( ! w9t]1  
)\t object1 prep>ation1 guide or        
c>riage8 ,n to leave my pap]s & effects 
at ! m]cy ( ! fir/ com]1 "t 0 necess>y  
to make prop] arrangem5ts1 & x 0 n /at$ 
9 ! ord] :e!r or n ?is w\ld be grant$   
me4 ,! cont9uance ( mis=tune began to   
weigh d[n my c\rage4 ,= ! fir/ "t 9 my  
life ,i felt my natural haught9ess /oop 
to ! yoke ( necessity1 &1 not)/&+ !     
murmurs ( my he>t1 ,i 0 oblig$ to demean
 myself by ask+ = a delay4 ,i appli$ to 
,m4 de ,graff5ri$1 :o _h s5t me ! ord]1 
= an explanation ( x4 ,8 lett]1 conceiv$
 9 ! /ronge/ t]ms ( disapprobation ( !  
/ep t _h be5 tak51 assur$ me x 0 ) !    

greate/ regret he communicat$ to me !   
nature ( x1 & ! expressions ( grief &   
e/eem x conta9$ seem$ s _m g5tle        
invitations to op5 to him my he>t3 ,i   
did s4 ,i _h no d\bt b my lett] w\ld op5
 ! eyes ( my p]secutors1 & t if s cruel 
an ord] 0 n revok$1 at lea/ a reasonable
 delay1 p]haps ! :ole w9t]1 to make !   
necess>y prep>ations = my retreat1 & to 
*oose a place ( abode1 w\ld be grant$   
me4  ,:il/ ,i wait$ = an answ]1 ,i      
reflect$ ^u my situation1 & delib]at$ ^u
 ! /eps ,i _h to take4 ,i p]ceiv$ s _m  
difficulties on all sides1 ! vexation ,i
 _h suff]$ _h s /rongly affect$ me1 & my
 heal? 0 !n 9 su* a bad /ate1 t ,i 0 q  
ov]come1 & ! effect ( my disc\ragem5t 0 
to deprive me ( ! little res\rce :i*    
rema9$ 9 my m9d1 by :i* ,i might1 z well
 z x 0 possible to d x1 h )drawn myself 
f my melan*oly situation4 ,9 :atev]     
asylum ,i %\ld take refuge1 x appe>$    
impossible to avoid ei!r ( ! two means  
made use ( to expel me4 ,"o ( :i* 0 to  
/ir up aga9/ me ! populace by secret    

manoeuvres2 & ! o!r to drive me away by 
op5 =ce1 )\t giv+ a reason = s do+4 ,i  
c\ld n1 !re=e1 dep5d ^u a safe retreat1 
unless ,i w5t 9 se>* ( x f>!r ?an my    
/r5g? & ! season seem$ likely to p]mit4 
,^! circum/ances aga9 br++ to my        
recollection ! ideas :i* _h lately      
occurr$ to me1 ,i wi%$ my p]secutors to 
condemn me to p]petual imprisonm5t r ?an
 oblige me incessantly to w&] ^u ! e>?1 
by successively expell+ me f ! asylums (
 :i* ,i %\ld make *oice3 & to ?is effect
 ,i made !m a proposal4 ,two days aft]  
my fir/ lett] to ,m4 de ,graff5ri$1 ,i  
wrote him a second1 desir+ he w\ld /ate 
:at ,i _h propos$ to _! excell5cies4 ,! 
answ] f ,b]ne to bo? 0 an ord]1 conceiv$
 9 ! mo/ =mal & sev]e t]ms1 to g out ( !
 isl&1 & leave e t]ritory1 m$iate &     
imm$iate ( ! republic1 )9 ! space (     
tw5ty-f\r h\rs1 & nev] to ent] !m aga9  
"u ! mo/ griev\s p5alties4  ,?is 0 a    
t]rible mom5t4 ,i h s9ce t "t felt      
great] angui%1 b nev] h ,i be5 m        
emb>rass$4 ,:at afflict$ me mo/ 0 be+   

=c$ to ab&on ! project :i* _h made me   
desir\s to pass ! w9t] 9 ! isl&4 ,x is  
n[ "t ,i %\ld relate ! fatal anecdote   
:i* complet$ my disa/]s1 & involv$ 9 my 
ru9 an un=tunate p1 ^: ris+ virtues     
already promis$ to equal ^? ( ,rome &   
,sp>ta1 ,i _h spok5 ( ! ,corsicans 9 !  
',social ,contract' z a new p1 ! only   
nation 9 ,europe n too worn out =       
legislation1 & _h express$ ! great hope 
!re 0 ( su* a p1 if x 7 =tunate en\gh to
 h a wise legislator4 ,my "w 0 read by  
"s ( ! ,corsicans1 :o 7 s5sible ( !     
honorable mann] 9 :i* ,i _h spok5 ( !m2 
& ! necessity "u :i* !y f\nd !mselves ( 
endeavor+ to e/abli% _! republic1 made  
_! *iefs ?9k ( ask+ me = my ideas ^u !  
subject4 ,m4 ,buttafuoco1 ( "o ( ! fir/ 
families 9 ! c\ntry1 & capta9 9 ,france1
 9 ! ,royal ,italians1 wrote to me to t 
effect1 & s5t me sev]al pap]s = :i* ,i  
_h ask$ to make myself acqua9t$ ) !     
hi/ory ( ! nation & ! /ate ( ! c\ntry4  
,m4 ,paoli1 also1 wrote to me sev]al    
times1 & al?\gh ,i felt su* an und]tak+ 

to be sup]ior to my abilities2 ,i ?\ght 
,i c\ld n refuse to give my assi/ance to
 s great & noble a "w1 ! mom5t ,i %\ld h
 acquir$ all ! necess>y in=mation4 ,x 0 
to ?is effect ,i answ]$ bo? ^! g5tlem51 
& ! correspond5ce la/$ until my         
dep>ture4  ,precisely at ! same "t1 ,i  
he>d t ,france 0 s5d+ troops to         
,corsica1 & t %e _h ent]$ into a treaty 
) ! ,g5oese4 ,?is treaty & s5d+ ( troops
 gave me uneas9ess1 &1 )\t imag9+ ,i _h 
any fur!r relation ) ! bus9ess1 ,i ?\ght
 x impossible & ! attempt ridicul\s1 to 
labor at an und]tak+ :i* requir$ su*    
undi/urb$ tranquillity z ! political    
in/itution ( a p 9 ! mom5t :5 p]haps !y 
7 ^u ! po9t ( be+ subjugat$4 ,i did n   
conceal my fe>s f ,m4 ,buttafuoco1 :o r 
reliev$ me f !m by ! assurance t1 7 !re 
9 ! treaty ?+s contr>y to ! lib]ty ( 8  
c\ntry1 a good citiz5 l himself w\ld n  
rema9 z he did 9 ! s]vice ( ,france4 ,9 
fact1 8 zeal = ! legislation ( !        
,corsicans1 & 8 connections ) ,m4       
,paoli1 c\ld n leave a d\bt on my m9d   

respect+ him2 & :5 ,i he>d he made      
frequ5t j\rneys to ,v]sailles &         
,fonta9ebleau1 & _h conv]sations ) ,m4  
de ,*oiseul1 all ,i conclud$ f ! :ole 01
 t ) respect to ! real int5tions (      
,france he _h assurances :i* he gave me 
to und]/&1 b conc]n+ :i* he did n *oose 
op5ly to expla9 himself by lett]4  ,?is 
remov$ a "p ( my appreh5sions4 ,yet1 z  
,i c\ld n compreh5d ! mean+ ( !         
transportation ( troops f ,france1 nor  
reasonably suppose !y 7 s5t to ,corsica 
to protect ! lib]ty ( ! inhabitants1 :i*
 !y ( !mselves 7 v well able to def5d   
aga9/ ! ,g5oese1 ,i c\ld nei!r make     
myself p]fectly easy1 nor s]i\sly       
und]take ! plan ( ! propos$ legislation1
 until ,i _h solid pro(s t ! :ole 0     
s]i\s1 & t ! p>ties meant n to trifle ) 
me4 ,i mu* wi%$ = an int]view ) ,m4     
,buttafuoco1 z t 0 c]ta9ly ! be/ means (
 com+ at ! explanation ,i wi%$4 ,( ?is  
he gave me hopes1 & ,i wait$ = x ) !    
greate/ impati5ce4 ,i "k n :e!r he      
really int5d$ me any int]view or n2 b _h

 ?is ev5 be5 ! case1 my mis=tunes w\ld h
 prev5t$ me f pr(it+ by x4  ,! m ,i     
consid]$ ! propos$ und]tak+1 & ! fur!r  
,i advanc$ 9 ! exam9ation ( ! pap]s ,i  
_h 9 my h&s1 ! great] ,i f\nd !         
necessity ( /udy+1 9 ! c\ntry1 ! p = :om
 in/itutions 7 to be made1 ! soil !y    
inhabit$1 & all ! relative circum/ances 
by :i* x 0 necess>y to appropriate to !m
 t in/itution4 ,i daily p]ceiv$ m cle>ly
 ! impossibility ( acquir+ at a di/ance 
all ! in=mation necess>y to guide me4   
,?is ,i wrote to ,m4 ,buttafuoco1 & he  
felt z ,i did4 ,al?\gh ,i did n =m !    
precise resolution ( go+ to ,corsica4 ,i
 consid]$ a good deal ( ! means necess>y
 to make t voyage4 ,i m5tion$ x to ,m4  
,da/i]1 :o hav+ =m]ly s]v$ 9 ! isl& "u  
,m4 de ,maillebois1 0 necess>ily        
acqua9t$ ) x4 ,he us$ e ef=t to dissuade
 me f ?is int5tion1 & ,i confess !      
frightful description he gave me ( !    
,corsicans & _! c\ntry1 consid]ably     
abat$ ! desire ,i _h ( go+ to live      
among/ !m4  ,b :5 ! p]secutions (       

,moti]s made me ?9k ( quitt+ ,switz]l&1 
?is desire 0 aga9 /r5g!n$ by ! hope ( at
 l5g? f9d+ among/ ^! isl&]s ! repose    
refus$ me 9 e o!r place4 ,"o ?+ only    
al>m$ me1 :i* 0 my unfitness = ! active 
life to :i* ,i 0 go+ to be condemn$1 & !
 av]sion ,i _h always _h to x4 ,my      
disposition1 prop] = m$itat+ at leisure 
& 9 solitude1 0 n s = speak+ & act+1 &  
treat+ ( affairs ) m54 ,nature1 :i* _h  
end[$ me ) ! fir/ tal5t1 _h refus$ me ! 
la/4 ,yet ,i felt t1 ev5 )\t tak+ a     
direct & active "p 9 public affairs1 ,i 
%\ld z soon z ,i 0 9 ,corsica1 be "u !  
necessity ( yield+ to ! desires ( ! p1 &
 ( frequ5tly conf]r+ ) ! *iefs4 ,!      
object ev5 ( ! voyage requir$ t1 in/ead 
( seek+ retirem5t1 ,i %\ld 9 ! he>t ( ! 
c\ntry endeavor to ga9 ! in=mation ( :i*
 ,i /ood 9 ne$4 ,x 0 c]ta9 t ,i %\ld no 
long] be ma/] ( my own "t1 & t1 9 spite 
( myself1 precipitat$ into ! vortex 9   
:i* ,i 0 n born to move1 ,i %\ld !re    
lead a life contr>y to my incl9ation1 & 
nev] appe> b to disadvantage4 ,i =esaw t

 ill-support+ by my pres5ce ! op9ion my 
books might h giv5 ! ,corsicans ( my    
capacity1 ,i %\ld lose my reputation    
among/ !m1 &1 z mu* to _! prejudice z my
 own1 be depriv$ ( ! confid5ce !y _h 9  
me1 )\t :i*1 h[ev]1 ,i c\ld n           
successfully produce ! "w !y expect$ f  
my p54 ,i am c]ta9 t1 by ?us go+ out (  
my sph]e1 ,i %\ld become useless to !   
inhabitants1 & r5d] myself unhappy4     
,torm5t$1 beat5 by /orms f e qu>t]1 &1 =
 sev]al ye>s pa/1 fatigu$ by j\rneys &  
p]secution1 ,i /rongly felt a want ( !  
repose ( :i* my b>b>\s enemies wantonly 
depriv$ me3 ,i sigh$ m ?an ev] aft] t   
delici\s indol5ce1 t s(t tranquillity ( 
body & m9d1 :i* ,i _h s mu* desir$1 & to
 :i*1 n[ t ,i _h recov]$ f ! *im]as (   
love & fri5d%ip1 my he>t limit$ its     
supreme felicity4 ,i view$ ) t]ror ! "w 
,i 0 ab\t to und]take2 ! tumultu\s life 
into :i* ,i 0 to ent] made me tremble1 &
 if ! gr&eur1 beauty1 & utility ( !     
object animat$ my c\rage1 !             
impossibility ( conqu]+ s _m            

difficulties entirely depriv$ me ( x4   
,tw5ty ye>s ( pr(\nd m$itation 9        
solitude w\ld h be5 less pa9ful to me   
?an an active life ( six mon?s 9 ! mid/ 
( m5 & public affairs1 ) a c]ta9ty ( n  
succe$+ 9 my und]tak+4  ,i ?\ght ( an   
exp$i5t :i* seem$ prop] to obviate e    
difficulty4 ,pursu$ by ! und]h& deal+s (
 my secret p]secutors to e place 9 :i*  
,i took refuge1 & see+ no o!r except    
,corsica :]e ,i c\ld 9 my old days hope 
= ! repose ,i _h until !n be5 ev]y:]e   
depriv$ (1 ,i resolv$ to g !re ) !      
directions ( ,m4 ,buttafuoco z soon z   
?is 0 possible1 b to live !re 9         
tranquillity2 r5\nc+1 9 appe>ance1      
ev]y?+ relative to legislation1 &1 9 "s 
measure1 to make my ho/s a return = _!  
hospitality1 to conf9e myself to writ+ 9
 ! c\ntry ! hi/ory ( ! ,corsicans1 ) a  
res]ve 9 my own m9d ( ! int5tion (      
secretly acquir+ ! necess>y in=mation to
 become m useful to !m %\ld ,i see a    
probability ( success4 ,9 ?is mann]1 by 
n ent]+ into an engagem5t1 ,i hop$ to be

 enabl$ bett] to m$itate 9 secret & m at
 my ease1 a plan :i* might be useful to 
_! purpose1 & ?is )\t mu* break+ 9 ^u my
 de>ly belov$ solitude1 or submitt+ to a
 k9d ( life :i* ,i _h ev] f\nd          
insupportable4  ,b ! j\rney 0 n1 9 my   
situation1 a ?+ s easy to get ov]4      
,accord+ to :at ,m4 ,da/i] _h told me ( 
,corsica1 ,i c\ld n expect to f9d !re ! 
mo/ simple conv5i5ces ( life1 except su*
 z ,i %\ld take ) me2 l951 clo!s1 plate1
 kit*5 furniture1 & books1 all 7 to be  
convey$ ?i!r4 ,to get !re myself ) my   
g\v]nante1 ,i _h ! ,alps to cross1 & 9 a
 j\rney ( two hundr$ leagues to drag    
aft] me all my baggage2 ,i _h also to   
pass ?r\gh ! /ates ( sev]al sov]eigns1 &
 accord+ to ! example set to all        
,europe1 ,i _h1 aft] :at _h befall5 me1 
naturally to expect to f9d ob/acles 9 e 
qu>t]1 & t ea* sov]eign w\ld ?9k he did 
himself honor by ov]:elm+ me ) "s new   
insult1 & violat+ 9 my p]son all !      
rights ( p]sons & humanity4 ,! imm5se   
exp5se1 fatigue1 & risk ( su* a j\rney  

made a previ\s consid]ation ( !m1 &     
weigh+ e difficulty1 ! fir/ /ep         
necess>y4 ,! idea ( be+ alone1 &1 at my 
age1 )\t res\rce1 f> remov$ f all my    
acqua9tance1 & at ! m]cy ( ^!           
semi-b>b>\s & f]oci\s p1 su* z ,m4      
,da/i] _h describ$ !m to me1 0 suffici5t
 to make me delib]ate be=e ,i resolv$ to
 expose myself to su* dang]s4 ,i ard5tly
 wi%$ = ! int]view = :i* ,m4 ,buttafuoco
 _h giv5 me reason to hope1 & ,i wait$ !
 result ( x to guide me 9 my            
det]m9ation4  ,:il/ ,i ?us hesitat$ came
 on ! p]secutions ( ,moti]s1 :i* oblig$ 
me to retire4 ,i 0 n prep>$ = a long    
j\rney1 especially to ,corsica4 ,i      
expect$ to he> f ,buttafuoco2 ,i took   
refuge 9 ! isl& ( ,/4 ,pet]1 :5ce ,i 0  
driv5 at ! beg9n+ ( w9t]1 z ,i h already
 /at$4 ,! ,alps1 cov]$ ) sn[1 !n r5d]$  
my emigration impracticable1 especially 
) ! promptitude requir$ f me4 ,x is     
true1 ! extravagant sev]ity ( a l ord]  
r5d]$ ! execution ( x almo/ impossible2 
=1 9 ! mid/ ( t conc5tr$ solitude1      

surr\nd$ by wat]1 & hav+ b tw5ty-f\r    
h\rs aft] receiv+ ! ord] to prep>e = my 
dep>ture1 & f9d a boat & c>riages to get
 out ( ! isl& & ! t]ritory1 _h ,i _h    
w+s1 ,i %\ld sc>cely h be5 able to pay  
ob$i5ce to x4 ,?is ,i wrote to ! bailiff
 ( ,nidau1 9 answ] to 8 lett]1 & ha/5$  
to take my dep>ture f a c\ntry (        
iniquity4 ,9 ?is mann] 0 ,i oblig$ to   
ab&on my favorite project1 = :i* reason1
 n hav+ 9 my oppression be5 able to     
prevail ^u my p]secutors to dispose ( me
 o!rwise1 ,i det]m9$1 9 consequ5ce ( !  
invitation ( my "l m>%al1 ^u a j\rney to
 ,b]l91 leav+ ,!resa to pass ! w9t] 9 ! 
isl& ( ,/4 ,pet]1 ) my books & effects1 
& deposit+ my pap]s 9 ! h&s ( ,m4 du    
,peyr\4 ,i us$ s mu* dilig5ce t ! next  
morn+ ,i left ! isl& & arriv$ at ,bi5ne 
be=e noon4 ,an accid5t1 :i* ,i _c pass  
ov] 9 sil5ce1 _h "h well nigh put an end
 to my j\rney4  ,z soon z ! news or my  
hav+ receiv$ an ord] to quit my asylum 0
 circulat$1 ,i receiv$ a great numb] (  
visits f ! neighborhood1 & especially f 

! ,b]nois1 :o came ) ! mo/ dete/able    
falsehood to flatt] & soo! me1 prote/+ t
 my p]secutors _h seiz$ ! mom5t ( !     
vacation ( ! s5ate to obta9 & s5d me !  
ord]1 :i*1 said !y1 _h excit$ !         
indignation ( ! two hundr$4 ,"s ( ^!    
com=t]s came f ! city ( ,bi5ne1 a little
 free /ate )9 t ( ,b]ne1 & among/ o!rs a
 "y man ( ! "n ( ,wildremet ^: family 0 
( ! fir/ rank1 & _h ! greate/ cr$it 9 t 
city4 ,wildremet /rongly solicit$ me 9 !
 "n ( 8 fell[-citiz5s to *oose my       
retreat among/ !m1 assur+ me t !y 7     
anxi\sly desir\s ( x1 & t !y w\ld ?9k x 
an honor & _! duty to make me =get !    
p]secutions ,i _h suff]$2 t ) !m ,i _h  
no?+ to fe> f ! influ5ce ( ! ,b]nois1 t 
,bi5ne 0 a free city1 gov]n$ by its own 
laws1 & t ! citiz5s 7 unanim\sly resolv$
 n to he>k5 to any solicitation :i* %\ld
 be unfavorable to me4  ,wildremet      
p]ceiv+ all he c\ld say to be           
ineffectual1 br\ght to 8 aid sev]al o!r 
p]sons1 z well f ,bi5ne & ! environs z f
 ,b]ne2 ev51 & among/ o!rs1 ! same      

,kirkeb]gu]1 ( :om ,i h spok51 :o1 aft] 
my retreat to ,switz]l& _h endeavor$ to 
obta9 my e/eem1 & by 8 tal5ts &         
pr9ciples _h int]e/$ me 9 8 favor4 ,b ,i
 receiv$ mu* less expect$ & m weighty   
solicitations f ,m4 ,b>!s1 secret>y to !
 embassy f ,france1 :o came ) ,wildremet
 to see me1 exhort$ me to accept 8      
invitation1 & surpris$ me by ! lively & 
t5d] conc]n he seem$ to feel = my       
situation4 ,i did n "k ,m4 ,b>!s2 h[ev] 
,i p]ceiv$ 9 :at he said ! w>m? & zeal (
 fri5d%ip1 & t he _h x at he>t to       
p]suade me to fix my resid5ce at ,bi5ne4
 ,he made ! mo/ pomp\s eulogium ( ! city
 & its inhabitants1 ) :om he %[$ himself
 s intimately connect$ z to call !m     
sev]al times 9 my pres5ce 8 patrons &   
fa!rs4  ,?is f ,b>!s bewild]$ me 9 my   
conjectures4 ,i _h always suspect$ ,m4  
de ,*oisuel to be ! secret au?or ( all !
 p]secutions ,i suff]$ 9 ,switz]l&4 ,!  
conduct ( ! resid5t ( ,g5eva1 & t ( !   
ambassador at ,soleure b too mu*        
confirm$ my suspicion2 ,i p]ceiv$ !     

secret influ5ce ( ,france 9 ev]y?+ t    
happ5$ to me at ,b]ne1 ,g5eva &         
,neu*atel1 & ,i did n ?9k ,i _h any     
p[]ful enemy 9 t k+dom1 except ! ,duke  
de ,*oiseul4 ,:at !re=e c\ld ,i ?9k ( ! 
visit ( ,b>!s & ! t5d] conc]n he %[$ =  
my welf>e8 ,my mis=tunes _h n yet       
de/roy$ ! confid5ce natural to my he>t1 
& ,i _h /ill to le>n f exp]i5ce to      
disc]n sn>es "u ! appe>ance ( fri5d%ip4 
,i s\ght ) surprise ! reason ( !        
b5evol5ce ( ,m4 ,b>!s2 ,i 0 n weak en\gh
 to believe he _h act$ f himself2 !re 0 
9 8 mann] some?+ o/5tati\s1 an          
affectation ev5 :i* decl>$ a conceal$   
int5tion1 & ,i 0 f> f hav+ f\nd 9 any ( 
^! little subalt]n ag5ts1 t g5]\s       
intrepidity :i*1 :5 ,i 0 9 a simil>     
employm5t1 _h (t5 caus$ a f]m5tation 9  
my he>t4 ,i _h =m]ly kn[n some?+ ( !    
,*evali] ,beauteville1 at ! ca/le (     
,montmor5cy2 he _h %[n me m>ks ( e/eem2 
s9ce 8 appo9tm5t to ! embassy he _h giv5
 me pro(s ( 8 n hav+ entirely =gott5 me1
 accompani$ ) an invitation to g & see  

him at ,soleure4 ,?\gh ,i did n accept  
?is invitation1 ,i 0 extremely s5sible (
 8 civility1 n hav+ be5 accu/om$ to be  
treat$ ) su* k9dness by p 9 place4 ,i   
presume ,m4 de ,beauteville1 oblig$ to  
foll[ 8 in/ructions 9 :at relat$ to !   
affairs ( ,g5eva1 yet pity+ me "u my    
mis=tunes1 _h by 8 private c>es prep>$ =
 me ! asylum ( ,bi5ne1 t ,i might live  
!re 9 peace "u 8 auspices4 ,i 0 prop]ly 
s5sible ( 8 att5tion1 b )\t wi%+ to     
pr(it by x & q det]m9$ ^u ! j\rney to   
,b]l91 ,i sigh$ aft] ! mom5t 9 :i* ,i 0 
to see my "l m>%al1 p]suad$ ,i %\ld 9   
future f9d real repose & la/+ happ9ess  
n[h]e b ne> 8 p]son4  ,on my dep>ture f 
! isl&1 ,kirkeb]gu] accompani$ me to    
,bi5ne4 ,i f\nd ,wildremet & o!r        
,bi5nois1 :o1 by ! wat] side1 wait$ my  
gett+ out ( ! boat4 ,we all d9$ toge!r  
at ! inn1 & on my arrival !re my fir/   
c>e 0 to provide a *aise1 be+ det]m9$ to
 set (f ! next morn+4 ,:il/ we 7 at d9n]
 ^! g5tlem5 repeat$ _! solicitations to 
prevail ^u me to /ay ) !m1 & ?is ) su*  

w>m? & oblig+ prote/ations1 t not)/&+   
all my resolutions1 my he>t1 :i* has    
nev] be5 able to resi/ fri5dly          
att5tions1 receiv$ an impression f !irs2
 ! mom5t !y p]ceiv$ ,i 0 %ak51 !y r$\bl$
 _! ef=ts ) s mu* effect t ,i 0 at l5g? 
ov]come1 & cons5t$ to rema9 at ,bi5ne1  
at lea/ until ! spr+4  ,wildremet       
imm$iately set ab\t provid+ me ) a      
lodg+1 & boa/$1 z ( a =tunate discov]y1 
( a dirty little *amb] 9 ! back ( !     
h\se1 on ! ?ird /ory1 look+ into a      
c\rty>d1 :]e ,i _h = a view ! display ( 
! /9k+ sk9s ( a dress] ( *amois lea!r4  
,my ho/ 0 a man ( a mean appe>ance1 & a 
good deal ( a rascal2 ! next day aft] ,i
 w5t to 8 h\se ,i he>d t he 0 a         
debau*ee1 a game/]1 & 9 bad cr$it 9 !   
neighborhood4 ,he _h nei!r wife1 *ildr51
 nor s]vants1 & %ut up 9 my solit>y     
*amb]1 ,i 0 9 ! mid/ ( "o ( ! mo/       
agreeable c\ntries 9 ,europe1 lodg$ 9 a 
mann] to make me die ( melan*oly 9 !    
c\rse ( a few days4 ,:at affect$ me mo/ 
01 t1 not)/&+ :at ,i _h he>d ( ! anxi\s 

wi% ( ! inhabitants to receive me among/
 !m1 ,i _h n p]ceiv$1 z ,i pass$ ?r\gh !
 /reets1 any?+ polite t[>ds me 9 _!     
mann]s1 or oblig+ 9 _! looks4 ,i 01     
h[ev]1 det]m9$ to rema9 !re2 b ,i le>n$1
 saw1 & felt1 ! day aft]1 t !re 0 9 !   
city a t]rible f]m5tation1 ( :i* ,i 0 ! 
cause4 ,sev]al p]sons ha/5$ oblig+ly to 
in=m me t on ! next day ,i 0 to receive 
an ord] conceiv$ 9 ! mo/ sev]e t]ms1    
imm$iately to quit ! /ate1 t is ! city4 
,i _h nobody 9 :om ,i c\ld confide2 !y  
:o _h deta9$ me 7 disp]s$4 ,wildremet _h
 disappe>$2 ,i he>d no m ( ,b>!s1 & x   
did n appe> t 8 recomm5dation _h br\ght 
me into great favor ) ^? :om he _h /yl$ 
8 patrons & fa!rs4 ,"o ,m4 de ,van      
,trav]s1 a ,b]nois1 :o _h an agreeable  
h\se n f> f ! city1 (f]$ x to me = my   
asylum1 hop+1 z he said1 t ,i might !re 
avoid be+ /on$4 ,! advantage ?is (f]    
held out 0 n suffici5tly flatt]+ to     
tempt me to prolong my abode ) ^!       
hospitable p4  ,yet1 hav+ lo/ ?ree days 
by ! delay1 ,i _h greatly exce$$ !      

tw5ty-f\r h\rs ! ,b]nois _h giv5 me to  
quit _! /ates1 & kn[+ _! sev]ity1 ,i 0 n
 )\t appreh5sions z to ! mann] 9 :i* !y 
w\ld suff] me to cross !m1 :5 ! bailiff 
( ,nidau came opportunely & reliev$ me f
 my emb>rassm5t4 ,z he _h highly        
disapprov$ ( ! viol5t proce$+s ( _!     
excell5cies1 he ?\ght1 9 8 g5]osity1 he 
ow$ me "s public pro( ( 8 tak+ no "p 9  
!m1 & _h c\rage to leave 8 bailiwick to 
come & pay me a visit at ,bi5ne4 ,he did
 me ?is favor ! ev5+ be=e my dep>ture1 &
 f> f be+ incognito he affect$ c]emony1 
com+ 9 fioc*i 9 8 coa* ) 8 secret>y1 &  
br\ght me a passport 9 8 own "n t ,i    
might cross ! /ate ( ,b]ne at my ease1 &
 )\t fe> ( mole/ation4 ,i 0 m flatt]$ by
 ! visit ?an by ! passport1 & %\ld h be5
 z s5sible ( ! m]it ( x1 _h x _h =      
object any o!r p]son :atsoev]4 ,no?+    
makes a great] impression on my he>t ?an
 a well-tim$ act ( c\rage 9 favor ( !   
weak unju/ly oppress$4  ,at l5g?1 aft]  
hav+ ) difficulty procur$ a *aise1 ,i   
next morn+ left ?is b>b>\s c\ntry1 be=e 

! arrival ( ! deputation ) :i* ,i 0 to  
be honor$1 & ev5 be=e ,i _h se5 ,!resa1 
to :om ,i _h writt5 to come to me1 :5 ,i
 ?\ght ,i %\ld rema9 at ,bi5ne1 & :om ,i
 _h sc>cely "t to c\nt]m& by a %ort     
lett]1 in=m+ h] ( my new disa/]4 ,9 !   
?ird "p ( my memoirs1 if ev] ,i be able 
to write !m1 ,i %all /ate 9 :at mann]1  
?9k+ to set (f = ,b]l91 ,i really took  
my dep>ture = ,engl&1 & ! means by :i* !
 two ladies :o wi%$ to dispose ( my     
p]son1 aft] hav+ by _! manoeuvres driv5 
me f ,switz]l&1 :]e ,i 0 n suffici5tly 9
 _! p[]1 at la/ deliv]$ me into ! h&s ( 
_! fri5d4  ,i add$ :at foll[s on read+  
my memoirs to ,m4 & ,madam1 ! ,c\ntess (
 ,egmont1 ! ,pr9ce ,pignatelli1 !       
,m>*ioness ( ,mesme1 & ! ,m>quis (      
,juigne4  ,i h writt5 ! tru?3 if any    
p]son has he>d ( ?+s contr>y to ^? ,i h 
j /at$1 7 !y a ?\s& times prov$1 he has 
he>d calumny & falsehood2 & if he       
refuses ?or\ghly to exam9e & comp>e !m )
 me :il/ ,i am alive1 he is n a fri5d   
ei!r to ju/ice or tru?4 ,= my "p1 ,i    

op5ly1 & )\t ! lea/ fe> decl>e1 t :oev]1
 ev5 )\t hav+ read my works1 %all h     
exam9$ ) 8 own eyes1 my disposition1 "*1
 mann]s1 incl9ations1 pleasures1 &      
habits1 & pron\nce me a di%one/ man1 is 
himself "o :o des]ves a gibbet4  ,?us ,i
 conclud$1 & e p]son 0 sil5t2 ,madam    
d',egmont 0 ! only p]son :o seem$       
affect$2 %e visibly trembl$1 b soon     
recov]$ h]self1 & 0 sil5t l ! re/ ( !   
company4 ,su* 7 ! fruits ( my read+ &   
decl>ation4    ,,note3 ,"h is a %ort li/
 ( bookm>ks1 or po9t]s1 at ! end ( !    
file = ^? :o may wi% to sample ! au?or's
 ideas be=e mak+ an entire meal ( !m4   
,d4,w4   ,,etext ,,editor',s ,,bookm>ks3
    ,a feel+ he>t ! f\ndation ( all my  
mis=tunes   ,a religion prea*$ by su*   
mission>ies mu/ lead to p>adise6   ,a   
subject n ev5 fit to make a prie/ (   ,a
 man1 on be+ que/ion$1 is imm$iately on 
8 gu>d   ,adopt$ ! j>gon ( books1 ?an ! 
k !y conta9$   ,all animals are         
di/ru/ful ( man1 & ) reason   ,all y\r  
evils proce$ f y\rselves6   ,an au?or   

mu/ be indep5d5t ( success   ,ardor =   
le>n+ became s f> a madness   ,av]sion  
to s+ul>ity   ,avoid putt+ our int]e/s 9
 competition ) our duty   ,be+ beat l a 
slave1 ,i judg$ ,i _h a "r to all vices 
,bilboquet   ,ca?olic mu/ cont5t himself
 ) ! decisions ( o!rs   ,caution is     
ne$less aft] ! evil has happ5$   ,cem5t$
 by reciprocal e/eem   ,consid]+ ?is    
want ( dec5cy z an act ( c\rage         
,conv]sations 7 m s]viceable ?an 8      
prescriptions   ,degree ( s5suality _h  
m+l$ ) ! sm>t & %ame   ,die )\t ! aid ( 
physicians   ,difficult to ?9k nobly :5 
we ?9k = a livelihood   ,d9e at ! h\r ( 
supp]2 sup :5 ,i %\ld h be5 asleep      
,disgu/$ ) ! idle trifl+ ( a conv5t     
,dissembl]1 ?\gh1 9 fact1 ,i 0 only     
c\rte\s   ,dy+ = love )\t an object     
,endeavor+ to hide my incapacity1 ,i    
r>ely fail to %[ x   ,endeavor+ to rise 
too high we are 9 dang] ( fall+   ,ev]  
appe>+ to feel z little = o!rs z h]self 
,f9d+ 9 e disease symptoms simil> to m9e
   ,fir/ in/ance ( viol5ce & oppression 

is s deeply engrav$   ,fir/ "t 9 my     
life1 ( say+1 ,i m]it my own e/eem      
,flatt]y1 or r condesc5sion1 is n always
 a vice   ,=ce me to be happy 9 ! mann] 
!y %\ld po9t out   ,=esight ) me has    
always embitt]$ enjoym5t   ,ha/5+ on to 
dea? )\t hav+ liv$   ,hat1 only fit to  
be c>ri$ "u 8 arm   ,h ! pleasure ( see+
 an ass ride on horseback   ,h ev]      
pref]r$ suff]+ to ow+   ,h] excessive   
admiration or dislike ( ev]y?+   ,hold  
fa/ to aught t ,i h1 & yet covet no?+ m 
,hopes1 9 :i* self-love 0 by no means a 
los]   ,h[ _m wrongs are effac$ by !    
embraces ( a fri5d6   ,i nev] mu*       
regrett$ sleep   ,i /rove to flatt] my  
idl5ess   ,i nev] he>d h] speak ill (   
p]sons :o 7 abs5t   ,i lov$ h] too well 
to wi% to possess h]   ,i felt no dread 
b t ( be+ detect$   ,i 0 long a *ild1 & 
am s yet 9 _m p>ticul>s   ,i am *>g$ ) !
 c>e ( myself only   ,i only wi%$ to    
avoid giv+ (f5ce   ,i did n fe>         
puni%m5t1 b ,i dread$ %ame   ,i _h a    
num]\s acqua9tance1 yet no m ?an two    

fri5ds   ,idea ( my n be+ ev]y?+ to h]  
,idl5ess is z mu* ! pe/ ( society z (   
solitude   ,if y h no?+ to d1 y mu/     
absolutely speak cont9ually   ,9 ! c\rse
 ( _! lives frequ5tly unlike !mselves   
,9 company ,i suff] cruelly by inaction 
,9 a nation ( bl9d m51 ^? ) "o eye are  
k+s   ,indol5ce1 neglig5ce & delay 9    
little duties to be fulfill$   ,indol5ce
 ( company is burd5some because x is =c$
   ,inju/ice ( mank9d :i* embitt]s bo?  
life & dea?   ,insignificant tra% t has 
obta9$ ! "n ( education   ,in/ead ( be+ 
delight$ ) ! j\rney only wi%$ arrival   
,is x possible to dissimulate ) p]sons  
:om we love8   ,jean ,bapi/e ,r\sseau   
,knew h[ to compla91 b n h[ to act      
,law t ! accus] %\ld be conf9$ at ! same
 "t   ,left to nature ! :ole c>e ( my   
own in/ruction   ,less degree (         
repugnance 9 divulg+ :at is really      
crim9al   ,lett]s illu/ri\s 9 proportion
 z x 0 less a trade   ,load$ ) words &  
r$undancies   ,look+ on ea* day z ! la/ 
( my life   ,love ( ! m>vell\s is       

natural to ! human he>t   ,make m5 l    
himself1 in/ead ( tak+ !m z !y 7   ,mak+
 _! k ! measure ( possibilities   ,mak+ 
me s5sible ( e defici5cy   ,manoeuvres (
 an au?or to ! c>e ( publi%+ a good book
   ,m51 9 g5]al1 make ,god l !mselves   
,m5 ( le>n+ m t5aci\sly reta9 _!        
pr$judices   ,mi/ake wit = s5se   ,mom5t
 ,i acquir$ lit]>y fame1 ,i _h no long] 
a fri5d   ,money t we possess is !      
in/rum5t ( lib]ty   ,money we lack &    
/rive to obta9 is ! in/rum5t ( slav]y   
,m /unn$ ?an flatt]$ by ! trumpet ( fame
   ,m folly ?an c&or 9 ! decl>ation )\t 
necessity   ,multiply+ p]sons &         
adv5tures   ,my greate/ faults h be5    
omissions   ,myself ! pr9cipal object   
,necessity1 ! p>5t ( indu/ry1 sugge/$ an
 inv5tion   ,nei!r ! victim nor witness 
( any viol5t emotions   ,no soon] _h lo/
 sight ( m5 ?an ,i ceas$ to despise !m  
,no long] p]mitt$ to let old p rema9 out
 ( ,p>is   ,n s easy to quit h] h\se z  
to ent] x   ,n kn[+ h[ to sp5d _! "t1   
daily break+ 9 ^u me   ,no?+ absurd     

appe>s to !m incr$ible   ,oblig$ to pay 
att5tion to e fooli% ?+ utt]$   ,obta9  
_! wi%es1 )\t p]mitt+ or promis+ any?+  
,"o ( ^? affronts :i* wom5 sc>cely ev]  
=give   ,only pray] consi/$ 9 ! s+le    
int]jection ,oh6   ,pa9ful to an hone/  
man to resi/ desires already =m$        
,pass$ my days 9 langui%+ 9 sil5ce = ^? 
,i mo/ admire   ,piety 0 too s9c]e to   
give way to any affectation ( x   ,plac+
 unb\nd$ confid5ce 9 myself & o!rs      
,prescriptions s]ve to flatt] ! hopes ( 
! pati5t   ,prie/s ought nev] to h      
*ildr5--except by m>ri$ wom5            
,proportion$ r to h] ideas ?an abilities
   ,prote/ants1 9 g5]al1 are bett]      
in/ruct$   ,r ba%ful ?an mode/   ,r     
appe>$ to /udy ) ?an to in/ruct me      
,read ! he>ts ( o!rs by endeavor+ to    
conceal our own   ,read description (   
any malady )\t ?9k+ x m9e   ,read )\t   
/udy+   ,remorse wakes amid ! /orms (   
adv]sity   ,remorse sleeps 9 ! calm     
sun%9e ( prosp]ity   ,reproa* me ) s _m 
contradictions   ,return ( spr+ seem$ to

 me l ris+ f ! grave   ,rogues "k h[ to 
save !mselves at ! exp5se ( ! feeble    
,satisfaction ( weep+ toge!r   ,seek+1  
by fre% (f5ces1 a return ( ! same       
*a/isem5t   ,s9 consi/$ only 9 ! sc&al  
,slight+ h] favors1 if )9 y\r rea*1 a   
unp>donable crime   ,sometimes enc\rage 
hopes !y nev] mean to realize           
,sub/itut+ cunn+ to k   ,suppos$ t      
c]ta91 :i* ,i only knew to be probable  
,taught me x 0 n s t]rible to ?ieve z ,i
 _h imag9$   ,t :i* nei!r wom5 nor      
au?ors ev] p>don   ,! mal$iction (      
knaves is ! glory ( an hone/ man   ,!   
consci5ce ( ! guilty w\ld rev5ge !      
innoc5t   ,!re is no?+ 9 ?is _w b "t &  
mis=tune   ,!re is no clapp+ ( h&s be=e 
! k+   ,?is cont9u$ desire to control me
 9 all my wi%es   ,?\gh n a fool1 ,i h  
frequ5tly pass$ = "o   ,to make him my  
apologies = ! (f5ce he _h giv5 me       
,true happ9ess is indescribable1 x is   
only to be felt   ,tru/+ too implicitly 
to _! own innoc5ce   ,tyranny ( p]sons  
:o call$ !mselves my fri5ds   ,virtu\s  

m9ds1 :i* vice nev] attacks op5ly       
,voltaire 0 =m$ nev] to be happy   ,we  
le>n$ to dissemble1 to rebel1 to lie    
,:at facility ev]y?+ :i* favors !       
malignity ( man   ,:5 once we make a    
secret ( any?+ to ! p]son we love   ,:5 
ev]yone is busy1 y may cont9ue sil5t    
,:5ce comes x t ev5 a *ild c intimidate 
a man   ,:]e m]it consi/s 9 belief1 & n 
9 virtue   ,:ole univ]se w\ld be int]e/$
 9 my conc]ns   ,^: disc\rses began by a
 di/ribution ( millions   ,wi% ?us to be
 rev5g$ ( me = _! humiliation   ,)\t !  
lea/ scruple1 freely dispos+ ( my "t    
,writ+ = bread w\ld soon h ext+ui%$ my  
g5ius   ,yield$ him ! victory1 or r     
decl9$ ! conte/