,,! ,,confessions ,,( ,,jean ,,jacques  
,,r\sseau 7,9 #ab books7  ,privately    
,pr9t$ = ! ,memb]s ( ! ,aldus ,society  
,london1 #aijc    ,,book ,,ix4   ,my    
impati5ce to inhabit ! ,h]mitage n      
p]mitt+ me to wait until ! return ( f9e 
wea!r1 ! mom5t my lodg+ 0 prep>$ ,i     
ha/5$ to take possession ( x1 to ! great
 amusem5t ( ! ',cot]ie ,holba*aque'1 :i*
 publicly pr$ict$ ,i %\ld n be able to  
support solitude = ?ree mon?s1 & t ,i   
%\ld unsuccessfully return to ,p>is1 &  
live !re z !y did4  ,= my "p1 hav+ =    
fifte5 ye>s be5 out ( my elem5t1 f9d+   
myself ^u ! eve ( return+ to x1 ,i paid 
no att5tion to _! pleasantries4  ,s9ce  
contr>y to my incl9ations1 ,i h aga9    
ent]$ ! _w1 ,i h incessantly regrett$ my
 de> ,*>mettes1 & ! agreeable life ,i l$
 !re4  ,i felt a natural incl9ation to  
retirem5t & ! c\ntry3 x 0 impossible =  
me to live happily else:]e4  ,at ,v5ice1
 9 ! tra9 ( public affairs1 9 ! dignity 
( a k9d ( repres5tation1 9 ! pride (    
projects ( advancem5t2 at ,p>is1 9 !    

vortex ( ! great _w1 9 ! luxury (       
supp]s1 9 ! brilliancy ( spectacles1 9 !
 rays ( spl5dor2 my groves1 rivulets1 & 
solit>y walks1 con/antly pres5t$        
!mselves to my recollection1 int]rupt$  
my ?\ght1 r5d]$ me melan*oly1 & made me 
sigh ) desire4  ,all ! labor to :i* ,i  
_h subject$ myself1 e project ( ambition
 :i* by fits _h animat$ my ardor1 all _h
 = object ?is happy c\ntry retirem5t1   
:i* ,i n[ ?\ght ne> at h&4  ,)\t hav+   
acquir$ a g5teel indep5d5ce1 :i* ,i _h  
judg$ to be ! only means ( accompli%+ my
 views1 ,i imag9$ myself1 9 my p>ticul> 
situation1 to be able to d )\t x1 & t ,i
 c\ld obta9 ! same end by a means q     
opposite4  ,i _h no regul> income2 b ,i 
possess$ "s tal5ts1 & _h acquir$ a "n4  
,my wants 7 few1 & ,i _h fre$ myself f  
all ^? :i* 7 mo/ exp5sive1 & :i* m]ely  
dep5d$ on prejudice & op9ion4  ,besides 
?is1 al?\gh naturally indol5t1 ,i 0     
labori\s :5 ,i *ose to be s4 & my       
idl5ess 0 less t ( an indol5t man1 ?an t
 ( an indep5d5t "o :o applies to bus9ess

 :5 x pleases him4 ,my pr(ession ( a    
copyi/ ( music 0 nei!r spl5did nor      
lucrative1 b x 0 c]ta94  ,! _w gave me  
cr$it = ! c\rage ,i _h %[n 9 mak+ *oice 
( x4  ,i might dep5d ^u hav+ suffici5t  
employm5t to enable me to live4  ,two   
?\s& livres :i* rema9$ ( ! produce ( !  
',dev9 du ,village'1 & my o!r writ+s1 7 
a sum :i* kept me f be+ /rait5$1 &      
sev]al works ,i _h ^u ! /ocks promis$   
me1 )\t extort+ money f ! booksell]s1   
supplies suffici5t to enable me to "w at
 my ease )\t exhau/+ myself1 ev5 by     
turn+ to advantage ! leisure ( my walks4
  ,my little family1 consi/+ ( ?ree     
p]sons1 all ( :om 7 usefully employ$1 0 
n exp5sive to support4  ,f9ally1 f my   
res\rces1 proportion$ to my wants &     
desires1 ,i might reasonably expect a   
happy & p]man5t exi/5ce1 9 t mann] (    
life :i* my incl9ation _h induc$ me to  
adopt4  ,i might h tak5 ! int]e/$ side (
 ! "q1 &1 in/ead ( subject+ my p5 to    
copy+1 entirely devot$ x to works :i*1 f
 ! elevation to :i* ,i _h so>$1 & at :i*

 ,i f\nd myself capable ( cont9u+1 might
 h enabl$ me to live 9 ! mid/ (         
abundance1 nay1 ev5 ( opul5ce1 _h ,i be5
 ! lea/ dispos$ to jo9 ! manoeuvres ( an
 au?or to ! c>e ( publi%+ a good book4  
,b ,i felt t writ+ = bread w\ld soon h  
ext+ui%$ my g5ius1 & de/roy$ my tal5ts1 
:i* 7 less 9 my p5 ?an 9 my he>t1 &     
solely proce$$ f an elevat$ & noble     
mann] ( ?9k+1 by :i* alone !y c\ld be   
*]i%$ & pres]v$4  ,no?+ vigor\s or great
 c come f a p5 totally v5al4            
,necessity1 nay1 ev5 av>ice1 p]haps1    
w\ld h made me write r rapidly ?an well4
  ,if ! desire ( success _h n l$ me into
 cabals1 x might h made me endeavor to  
publi% few] true & useful works ?an ^?  
:i* might be pleas+ to ! multitude2 &   
in/ead ( a di/+ui%$ au?or1 :i* ,i might 
possibly become1 ,i %\ld h be5 no?+ m   
?an a scribbl]4 ,no3 ,i h always felt t 
! pr(ession ( lett]s 0 illu/ri\s 9      
proportion z x 0 less a trade4  ,x is   
too difficult to ?9k nobly :5 we ?9k = a
 livelihood4  ,to be able to d>e ev5 to 

speak great tru?s1 an au?or mu/ be      
indep5d5t ( success4  ,i gave my books  
to ! public ) a c]ta9ty ( hav+ writt5 = 
! g5]al good ( mank9d1 )\t giv+ myself !
 lea/ conc]n ab\t :at 0 to foll[4  ,if !
 "w 0 ?r[n aside1 s mu* ! worse = su* z 
did n *oose to pr(it by x4  ,_!         
approbation 0 n necess>y to enable me to
 live1 my pr(ession 0 suffici5t to      
ma9ta9 me _h n my works _h a sale1 = :i*
 reason alone !y all sold4  ,x 0 on !   
n9? ( ,augu/1 #agef1 t ,i left cities1  
nev] to reside 9 !m aga93 = ,i d n call 
a resid5ce ! few days ,i aft]w>ds rema9$
 9 ,p>is1 ,london1 or o!r cities1 always
 on ! w+1 or contr>y to my incl9ations4 
,madam d',ep9ay came & took u all ?ree 9
 h] coa*2 h] f>m] c>t$ away my little   
baggage1 & ,i 0 put into possession !   
same day4  ,i f\nd my little retreat    
simply furni%$1 b neatly1 & ) "s ta/e4  
,! h& :i* _h l5t its aid 9 ?is furni%+  
r5d]$ x ine/imable 9 my eyes1 & ,i ?\ght
 x *>m+ to be ! gue/ ( my female fri5d 9
 a h\se ,i _h made *oice (1 & :i* %e _h 

caus$ to be built purposely = me4       
,al?\gh ! wea!r 0 cold1 & ! gr\nd       
lightly cov]$ ) sn[1 ! e>? began to     
vegetate3 violets & primroses already   
made _! appe>ance1 ! trees began to bud1
 & ! ev5+ ( my arrival 0 di/+ui%$ by !  
song ( ! night+ale1 :i* 0 he>d almo/ "u 
my w9d[1 9 a wood adjo9+ ! h\se4  ,aft] 
a light sleep1 =gett+ :5 ,i awoke my    
*ange ( abode1 ,i /ill ?\ght myself 9 ! 
,rue ,gr5elle1 :5 sudd5ly ?is w>bl+ made
 me give a />t1 & ,i exclaim$ 9 my      
transport3 ,at l5g?1 all my wi%es are   
accompli%$6 ,! fir/ ?+ ,i did 0 to ab&on
 myself to ! impression ( ! rural       
objects ) :i* ,i 0 surr\nd$4  ,in/ead ( 
beg9n+ to set ?+s 9 ord] 9 my new       
habitation1 ,i began by do+ x = my      
walks1 & !re 0 n a pa?1 a copse1 a      
grove1 nor a corn] 9 ! environs ( my    
place ( resid5ce t ,i did n visit ! next
 day4  ,! m ,i exam9$ ?is *>m+ retreat1 
! m ,i f\nd x to my wi%es4  ,?is        
solit>y1 r ?an savage1 spot transport$  
me 9 idea to ! end ( ! _w4  ,x _h /rik+ 

beauties :i* are b seldom f\nd ne>      
cities1 & nev]1 if sudd5ly transport$   
?i!r1 c\ld any p]son h imag9$ himself )9
 f\r leagues ( ,p>is4  ,aft] ab&on+     
myself = a few days to ?is rural        
delirium1 ,i began to arrange my pap]s1 
& regulate my occupations4  ,i set ap>t1
 z ,i _h always done1 my morn+s to      
copy+1 & my aft]noons to walk+1 provid$ 
) my little pap] book & a p5cil1 = nev] 
hav+ be5 able to write & ?9k at my ease 
except 'sub dio'1 ,i _h no incl9ation to
 dep>t f ?is me?od1 & ,i 0 p]suad$ ! =e/
 ( ,montmor5cy1 :i* 0 almo/ at my door1 
w\ld 9 future be my closet & /udy4  ,i  
_h sev]al works begun2 ^! ,i ca/ my eye 
ov]4  ,my m9d 0 inde$ f]tile 9 great    
projects1 b 9 ! noise ( ! city !        
execution ( !m _h gone on b sl[ly4  ,i  
propos$ to myself to use m dilig5ce :5  
,i %\ld be less int]rupt$4  ,i am (     
op9ion ,i h suffici5tly fulfill$ ?is    
int5tion2 & = a man frequ5tly ill1 (t5  
at ,la ,*evrette1 at ,ep9ay1 at         
,raubonne1 at ! ca/le ( ,montmor5cy1 at 

o!r times int]rupt$ by ! indol5t &      
curi\s1 & always employ$ half ! day 9   
copy+1 if :at ,i produc$ dur+ ! six ye>s
 ,i pass$ at ! ,h]mitage & at           
,montmor5cy be consid]$1 ,i am p]suad$ x
 w appe> t if1 9 ?is int]val1 ,i lo/ my 
"t1 x 0 n 9 idl5ess4  ,( ! diff]5t works
 ,i _h ^u ! /ocks1 t ,i _h longe/       
resolv$ 9 my m9d :i* 0 mo/ to my ta/e2  
to :i* ,i de/9$ a c]ta9 portion ( my    
life1 & :i*1 9 my op9ion1 0 to confirm !
 reputation ,i _h acquir$1 0 my         
',in/itutions ,politiques4  ,i _h1      
f\rte5 ye>s be=e1 :5 at ,v5ice1 :]e ,i  
_h an opportunity ( rem>k+ ! defects ( t
 gov]nm5t s mu* boa/$ (1 conceiv$ ! fir/
 idea ( !m4  ,s9ce t "t my views _h     
become mu* m ext5d$ by ! hi/orical /udy 
( morality4  ,i _h p]ceiv$ ev]y?+ to be 
radically connect$ ) politics1 & t1 ^u  
:atev] pr9ciples ^! 7 f\nd$1 a p w\ld   
nev] be m ?an t :i* ! nature ( !        
gov]nm5t made !m2 !re=e ! great "q ( !  
be/ gov]nm5t possible appe>$ to me to be
 r$uc$ to ?is3 ,:at is ! nature ( a     

gov]nm5t ! mo/ prop] to =m ! mo/ virtu\s
 & enlight5$1 ! wise/ & be/ p1 tak+ !   
la/ epi!t 9 its mo/ ext5sive mean+8  ,i 
?\ght ?is "q 0 mu* if n q ( ! same      
nature ) t :i* foll[s3 ,:at gov]nm5t is 
t :i*1 by its nature1 always ma9ta9s    
itself ne>e/ to ! laws1 or lea/ deviates
 f ! laws4  ,h5ce1 :at is ! law8  & a   
s]ies ( que/ions ( simil> importance4   
,i p]ceiv$ ^! l$ to great tru?s1 useful 
to ! happ9ess ( mank9d1 b m especially  
to t ( my c\ntry1 :]e91 9 ! j\rney ,i _h
 j made to x1 ,i _h n f\nd notions (    
laws & lib]ty ei!r suffici5tly j or     
cle>4 ,i _h ?\ght ?is indirect mann] (  
communicat+ ^! to my fell[-citiz5s w\ld 
be lea/ mortify+ to _! pride1 & might   
obta9 me =giv5ess = hav+ se5 a little   
fur!r ?an !mselves4  ,al?\gh ,i _h      
already labor$ five or six ye>s at ! "w1
 ! progress ,i _h made 9 x 0 n          
consid]able4  ,writ+s ( ?is k9d require 
m$itation1 leisure & tranquillity4  ,i  
_h besides writt5 ! ',in/itutions       
,politiques'1 z ! expression is1 'en    

bonne =tune'1 & _h n communicat$ my     
project to any p]son2 n ev5 to ,did]ot4 
,i 0 afraid x w\ld be ?\ght too d>+ = ! 
age & c\ntry 9 :i* ,i wrote1 & t ! fe>s 
( my fri5ds w\ld re/ra9 me f c>ry+ x    
into execution4       ,x 0 m especially 
! wise sev]ity ( ,duclos :i* inspir$    
me ) ?is fe>2 z = ,did]ot1 ,i "k n by   
:at means all my      conf]5ces ) him   
t5d$ to make me m satirical ?an my      
natural disposition incl9$ me to be4    
,?is prev5t$ me f      consult+ him ^u  
an und]tak+1 9 :i* ,i wi%$ to introduce 
no?+ b ! =ce ( reason+ )\t ! lea/       
appe>ance (      ill humor or p>tiality4
  ,! mann] ( ?is "w may be judg$ (      
by t ( ! ',contrat ,social'1 :i* is tak5
 f x4  ,i did n yet "k t x w\ld be f9i%$
 9 "t1 & 9 su* a mann] z to appe> be=e  
my decease4  ,i wi%$ fe>lessly to give  
to my subject ev]y?+ x requir$2 fully   
p]suad$ t n be+ ( a satirical turn1 &   
nev] wi%+ to be p]sonal1 ,i %\ld 9      
equity always be judg$ irrepreh5sible4  
,i und\bt$ly wi%$ fully to enjoy ! "r ( 

?9k+ :i* ,i _h by bir?2 b /ill respect+ 
! gov]nm5t "u :i* ,i liv$1 )\t ev]      
disobey+ its laws1 & v att5tive n to    
violate ! rights ( p]sons1 ,i w\ld n f  
fe> r5\nce its advantages4  ,i confess1 
ev5 t1 z a /rang]1 & liv+ 9 ,france1 ,i 
f\nd my situation v favorable 9 d>+ to  
speak ! tru?2 well kn[+ t cont9u+1 z ,i 
0 det]m9$ to d1 n to pr9t any?+ 9 !     
k+dom )\t p]mission1 ,i 0 n oblig$ to   
give to any p]son 9 x an acc\nt ( my    
maxims nor ( _! publication else:]e4  ,i
 %\ld h be5 less indep5d5t ev5 at       
,g5eva1 :]e1 9 :atev] place my books    
might h be5 pr9t$1 ! magi/rate _h a "r  
to criticise _! cont5ts4  ,?is          
consid]ation _h greatly contribut$ to   
make me yield to ! solicitations (      
,madam d',ep9ay1 & ab&on ! project (    
fix+ my resid5ce at ,g5eva4  ,i felt1 z 
,i h rem>k$ 9 my ,emilius1 t unless an  
au?or be a man ( intrigue1 :5 he wi%es  
to r5d] 8 works really useful to any    
c\ntry :atsoev]1 he mu/ compose !m 9 "s 
o!r4  ,:at made me f9d my situation /ill

 m happy1 0 my be+ p]suad$ t ! gov]nm5t 
( ,france w\ld1 p]haps1 )\t look+ ^u me 
) a v favorable eye1 make x a po9t to   
protect me1 or at lea/ n to di/urb my   
tranquillity4  ,x appe>$ to me a /roke (
 simple1 yet dext]\s policy1 to make a  
m]it ( tol]at+ t :i* !re 0 no means (   
prev5t+2 s9ce1 _h ,i be5 driv5 f        
,france1 :i* 0 all gov]nm5t _h ! "r to  
d1 my "w w\ld /ill h be5 writt51 &      
p]haps ) less res]ve2 :]eas if ,i 7 left
 undi/urb$1 ! au?or rema9$ to answ] =   
:at he wrote1 & a prejudice1 g5]al      
?r\gh\t all ,europe1 w\ld be de/roy$ by 
acquir+ ! reputation ( obs]v+ a prop]   
respect = ! rights ( p]sons4  ,!y :o1 by
 ! ev5t1 %all judge ,i 0 deceiv$1 may   
p]haps be deceiv$ 9 _! turn4  ,9 ! /orm 
:i* has s9ce brok5 ov] my head1 my books
 s]v$ z a pret5ce1 b x 0 aga9/ my p]son 
t e %aft 0 direct$4  ,my p]secutors gave
 !mselves b little conc]n ab\t ! au?or1 
b !y wi%$ to ru9 ,jean ,jacques2 & !    
greate/ evil !y f\nd 9 my writ+s 0 !    
honor !y might possibly d me4  ,let u n 

encroa* ^u ! future4  ,i d n "k t ?is   
my/]y1 :i* is /ill "o to me1 w h]eaft]  
be cle>$ up to my read]s2 b _h my av[$  
pr9ciples be5 ( a nature to br+ ^u me ! 
treatm5t ,i receiv$1 ,i %\ld soon] h    
become _! victim1 s9ce ! "w 9 :i* ^!    
pr9ciples are manife/$ ) mo/ c\rage1 n  
to call x audacity1 seem$ to h _h its   
effect previ\s to my retreat to !       
,h]mitage1 )\t ,i w n only say my hav+  
receiv$ ! lea/ c5sure1 b )\t any /eps   
hav+ be5 tak5 to prev5t ! publication ( 
x 9 ,france1 :]e x 0 sold z publicly z 9
 ,holl&4 ,! ,new ,eloisa aft]w>ds appe>$
 ) ! same facility1 ,i d>e add2 ) ! same
 applause3 &1 :at seems incr$ible1 !    
pr(ession ( fai? ( ?is ,eloisa at ! po9t
 ( dea? is exactly simil> to t ( !      
,savoy>d vic>4  ,e /rong idea 9 !       
,social ,contract _h be5 be=e publi%$ 9 
! disc\rse on ,inequality2 & e bold     
op9ion 9 ,emilius previ\sly f\nd 9      
,eloisa4  ,?is unre/ra9$ fre$om did n   
excite ! lea/ murmur aga9/ ! fir/ two   
works2 !re=e x 0 n t :i* gave cause to x

 aga9/ ! latt]4  ,ano!r und]tak+ mu* ( !
 same k9d1 b ( :i* ! project 0 m rec5t1 
!n engag$ my att5tion3 ?is 0 ! extract (
 ! works ( ! ,abbe de ,sa9t ,pi]re1 (   
:i*1 hav+ be5 l$ away by ! ?read ( my   
n>rative1 ,i h n hi!rto be5 able to     
speak4  ,! idea 0 sugge/$ to me1 aft] my
 return f ,g5eva1 by ! ,abbe ,malby1 n  
imm$iately f himself1 b by !            
int]position ( ,madam ,dup91 :o _h "s   
int]e/ 9 engag+ me to adopt x4  ,%e 0 "o
 ( ! ?ree or f\r-pretty wom5 ( ,p>is1 ( 
:om ! ,abbe de ,sa9t ,pi]re _h be5 !    
spoil$ *ild1 & al?\gh %e _h n decid$ly  
_h ! pref]5ce1 %e _h at lea/ p>tak5 ( x 
) ,madam d',aiguillon4  ,%e pres]v$ = ! 
memory ( ! good man a respect & an      
affection :i* did honor to !m bo?2 & h] 
self-love w\ld h be5 flatt]$ by see+ !  
/ill-born works ( h] fri5d br\ght to    
life by h] secret>y4  ,^! works conta9$ 
excell5t ?+s1 b s badly told t ! read+ (
 !m 0 almo/ insupportable2 & x is       
a/oni%+ ! ,abbe de ,sa9t ,pi]re1 :o     
look$ ^u 8 read]s z s*oolboys1 %\ld     

nev]!less h spok5 to !m z m51 by !      
little c>e he took to induce !m to give 
him a he>+4  ,x 0 = ?is purpose t ! "w 0
 propos$ to me z useful 9 itself1 & v   
prop] = a man labori\s 9 manoeuvre1 b   
idle z an au?or1 :o f9d+ ! tr\ble ( ?9k+
 v fatigu+1 pref]r$1 9 ?+s :i* pleas$   
him1 ?r[+ a light ^u & ext5d+ ! ideas ( 
o!rs1 to produc+ any himself4 ,besides1 
n be+ conf9$ to ! functions ( a         
translator1 ,i 0 at lib]ty sometimes to 
?9k = myself2 & ,i _h x 9 my p[] to give
 su* a =m to my "w1 t _m important tru?s
 w\ld pass 9 x "u ! "n ( ! ,abbe de     
,sa9t ,pi]re1 mu* m safely ?an "u m9e4  
,! und]tak+ also 0 n trifl+2 ! bus9ess 0
 no?+ less ?an to read & m$itate        
tw5ty-?ree volumes1 diffuse1 confus$1   
full ( long n>rations & p]iods1         
repetitions1 & false or little views1 f 
among/ :i* x 0 necess>y to select "s few
 t 7 good & useful1 & suffici5tly       
enc\rag+ to enable me to support !      
pa9ful labor4  ,i frequ5tly wi%$ to h   
giv5 x up1 & %\ld h done s1 c\ld ,i h   

got x (f my h&s ) a great grace2 b :5 ,i
 receiv$ ! manuscripts ( ! abbe1 :i* 7  
giv5 to me by 8 nephew1 ! ,comte de     
,sa9t ,pi]re1 ,i _h1 by ! solicitation (
 ,/4 ,lamb]t1 9 "s measure engag$ to    
make use ( !m1 :i* ,i mu/ ei!r h done1  
or h giv5 !m back4  ,x 0 ) ! =m]        
int5tion ,i _h tak5 ! manuscripts to !  
,h]mitage1 & ?is 0 ! fir/ "w to :i* ,i  
propos$ to d$icate my leisure h\rs4  ,i 
_h likewise 9 my own m9d project$ a     
?ird1 ! idea ( :i* ,i ow$ to !          
obs]vations ,i _h made ^u myself & ,i   
felt ! m dispos$ to und]take ?is "w1 z  
,i _h reason to hope ,i c\ld make x a   
truly useful "o1 & p]haps1 ! mo/ s ( any
 t c\ld be (f]$ to ! _w1 7 ! execution  
equal to ! plan ,i _h laid d[n4  ,x has 
be5 rem>k$ t mo/ m5 are 9 ! c\rse ( _!  
lives frequ5tly unlike !mselves1 & seem 
to be trans=m$ into o!rs v diff]5t f :at
 !y 74  ,x 0 n to e/abli% a ?+ s g5]ally
 kn[n t ,i wi%$ to write a book2 ,i _h a
 new] & m important object4  ,?is 0 to  
se>* = ! causes ( ^! v>iations1 &1 by   

conf9+ my obs]vations to ^? :i* dep5d on
 ourselves1 to demon/rate 9 :at mann] x 
might be possible to direct !m1 9 ord]  
to r5d] u bett] & m c]ta9 ( our         
dispositions4  ,= x is und\bt$ly m      
pa9ful to an hone/ man to resi/ desires 
already =m$1 & :i* x is 8 duty to       
subdue1 ?an to prev5t1 *ange1 or modify 
! same desires 9 _! s\rce1 7 he capable 
( trac+ !m to x4  ,a man "u temptation  
resi/s once because he has /r5g? ( m9d1 
he yields ano!r "t because ?is is       
ov]come2 _h x be5 ! same z be=e he w\ld 
aga9 h triumph$4  ,by exam9+ )9 myself1 
& se>*+ 9 o!rs :at c\ld be ! cause ( ^! 
diff]5t mann]s ( be+1 ,i discov]$ t1 9 a
 great measure !y dep5d$ on ! ant]ior   
impressions ( ext]nal objects2 & t1     
cont9ually modifi$ by our s5ses &       
organs1 we1 )\t kn[+ x1 bore 9 our      
ideas1 s5tim5ts1 & ev5 actions1 ! effect
 ( ^! modifications4  ,! /rik+ & num]\s 
obs]vations ,i _h collect$ 7 beyond all 
mann] ( dispute1 & by _! natural        
pr9ciple seem$ prop] to furni% an       

ext]ior regim51 :i* v>i$ accord+ to     
circum/ances1 might place & support !   
m9d 9 ! /ate mo/ favorable to virtue4   
,f h[ _m mi/akes w\ld reason be pres]v$1
 h[ _m vices w\ld be /ifl$ 9 _! bir?1 7 
x possible to =ce animal economy to     
favor moral ord]1 :i* x s frequ5tly     
di/urbs6  ,climate1 seasons1 s\nds1     
colors1 light1 d>kness1 ! elem5ts1      
ailm5ts1 noise1 sil5ce1 motion1 re/1 all
 act on ! animal ma*9e1 & consequ5tly on
 ! m9d3 all (f] a ?\s& means1 almo/     
c]ta9 ( direct+ 9 _! orig9 ! s5tim5ts by
 :i* we suff] ourselves to be gov]n$4   
,su* 0 ! fundam5tal idea ( :i* ,i _h    
already made a sket* ^u pap]1 & :5ce ,i 
hop$ = an effect ! m c]ta91 9 favor (   
p]sons well dispos$1 :o1 s9c]ely lov+   
virtue1 7 afraid ( _! own weakness1 z x 
appe>$ to me easy to make ( x a book z  
agreeable to read z x 0 to compose4 ,i  
h1 h[ev]1 appli$ myself b v little to   
?is "w1 ! title ( :i* 0 to h be5        
',morale ,s5sitive' ou le ,mat]ialisme  
du ,sage4 --,s5sitive ,morality1 or !   

,mat]ialism ( ! ,sage4--,int]ruptions1 !
 cause ( :i* w soon appe>1 prev5t$ me f 
cont9u+ x1 & ! fate ( ! sket*1 :i* is m 
connect$ ) my own ?an x may appe> to be1
 w h]eaft] be se54  ,besides ?is1 ,i _h 
= "s "t m$itat$ a sy/em ( education1 (  
:i* ,madam de ,*5onceaux1 al>m$ = h] son
 by t ( h] husb&1 _h desir$ me to       
consid]4  ,! au?ority ( fri5d%ip plac$  
?is object1 al?\gh less 9 itself to my  
ta/e1 ne>] to my he>t ?an any o!r4  ,on 
:i* acc\nt ?is subject1 ( all ^? ( :i*  
,i h j spok51 is ! only "o ,i c>ri$ to  
its utmo/ ext5t4  ,! end ,i propos$ to  
myself 9 treat+ ( x %\ld1 ,i ?9k1 h     
procur$ ! au?or a bett] fate4  ,b ,i w n
 "h anticipate ?is melan*oly subject4   
,i %all h too mu* reason to speak ( x 9 
! c\rse ( my "w4  ,^! diff]5t objects   
(f]$ me subjects ( m$itation = my walks2
 =1 z ,i believ$ ,i _h already obs]v$1  
,i am unable to reflect :5 ,i am n      
walk+3 ! mom5t ,i /op1 ,i ?9k no m1 & z 
soon z ,i am aga9 9 motion my head      
resumes its work+s4  ,i _h1 h[ev]1      

provid$ myself ) a "w = ! closet ^u ra9y
 days4  ,?is 0 my diction>y ( music1 :i*
 my scatt]$1 mutilat$1 & un%ap5 mat]ials
 made x necess>y to rewrite almo/       
entirely4  ,i _h ) me "s books necess>y 
to ?is purpose2 ,i _h sp5t two mon?s 9  
mak+ extracts f o!rs1 ,i _h borr[$ f !  
k+'s libr>y1 :5ce ,i 0 p]mitt$ to take  
sev]al to ! ,h]mitage4  ,i 0 ?us provid$
 ) mat]ials = compos+ 9 my ap>tm5t :5 ! 
wea!r did n p]mit me to g out1 & my     
copy+ fatigu$ me4  ,?is arrangem5t 0 s  
conv5i5t t x made x turn to advantage z 
well at ! ,h]mitage z at ,montmor5cy1 & 
aft]w>ds ev5 at ,moti]s1 :]e ,i complet$
 ! "w :il/ ,i 0 engag$ 9 o!rs1 &        
con/antly f\nd a *ange ( occupation to  
be a real relaxation4  ,dur+ a          
consid]able "t ,i exactly foll[$ !      
di/ribution ,i _h prescrib$ myself1 &   
f\nd x v agreeable2 b z soon z ! f9e    
wea!r br\ght ,madam d',ep9ay m frequ5tly
 to ,ep9ay1 or to ! ,*]vette1 ,i f\nd t 
att5tions1 9 ! fir/ in/ance natural to  
me1 b :i* ,i _h n consid]$ 9 my s*eme1  

consid]ably d]ang$ my projects4  ,i h   
already obs]v$ t ,madam d',ep9ay _h _m  
amiable qualities2 %e s9c]ely lov$ h]   
fri5ds2 s]v$ !m ) zeal2 &1 n sp>+ = !m  
ei!r "t or pa9s1 c]ta9ly des]v$ on _! "p
 e att5tion 9 return4  ,i _h hi!rto     
dis*>g$ ?is duty )\t consid]+ x z "o1 b 
at l5g? ,i f\nd t ,i _h giv5 myself a   
*a9 ( :i* no?+ b fri5d%ip prev5t$ me f  
feel+ ! weight1 & ?is 0 /ill aggravat$  
by my dislike to num]\s societies4      
,madam d' ,ep9ay took advantage ( ^!    
circum/ances to make me a proposition   
seem+ly agreeable to me1 b :i* 0 m s to 
h]self2 ?is 0 to let me "k :5 %e 0      
alone1 or _h b little company4  ,i      
cons5t$1 )\t p]ceiv+ to :at a degree ,i 
engag$ myself4  ,! consequ5ce 0 t ,i no 
long] visit$ h] at my own h\r --b at    
h]s1 & t ,i nev] 0 c]ta9 ( be+ ma/] (   
myself = a day toge!r4  ,?is con/ra9t   
consid]ably dim9i%$ ! pleasure ,i _h 9  
go+ to see h]4  ,i f\nd ! lib]ty %e _h s
 frequ5tly promis$ 0 giv5 me ^u no o!r  
condition ?an t ( my nev] enjoy+ x2 &   

once or twice :5 ,i wi%$ to d ?is !re 7 
s _m messages1 notes1 & al>ms relative  
to my heal?1 t ,i p]ceiv$ t ,i c\ld h no
 excuse b be+ conf9$ to my b$1 = n      
imm$iately runn+ to h] ^u ! fir/        
intimation4  ,x 0 necess>y ,i %\ld      
submit to ?is yoke1 & ,i did x1 ev5 m   
volunt>ily ?an c\ld be expect$ f s great
 an enemy to dep5d5ce3 ! s9c]e atta*m5t 
,i _h to ,madam ,d',ep9ay prev5t+ me1 9 
a great measure1 f feel+ ! inconv5i5ce )
 :i* x 0 accompani$4  ,%e1 on h] "p1    
fill$ up1 well or ill1 ! void :i* !     
abs5ce ( h] usual circle left 9 h]      
amusem5ts4  ,?is = h] 0 b a v sl5d]     
supplem5t1 al?\gh pref]able to absolute 
solitude1 :i* %e c\ld n support4  ,%e _h
 ! means ( do+ x mu* m at h] ease aft]  
%e began ) lit]ature1 & at all ev5ts to 
write novels1 lett]s1 com$ies1 tales1 & 
o!r tra% ( ! same k9d4  ,b %e 0 n s mu* 
amus$ 9 writ+ ^! z 9 read+ !m2 & %e nev]
 scribbl$ ov] two or ?ree pages--at "o  
sitt+--)\t be+ previ\sly assur$ ( hav+1 
at lea/1 two or ?ree b5evol5t auditors  

at ! end ( s mu* labor4  ,i seldom _h ! 
honor ( be+ "o ( ! *os5 few except by   
means ( ano!r4  ,:5 alone1 ,i 01 = ! mo/
 "p1 consid]$ z a ciph] 9 ev]y?+2 & ?is 
n only 9 ! company ( ,madam ,d',ep9ay1 b
 9 t ( ,m4 d',holba*1 & 9 e place :]e   
,grimm gave ! 'ton'4  ,?is nullity 0 v  
conv5i5t to me1 except 9 a tete-a-tete1 
:5 ,i knew n :at c\nt5ance to put on1 n 
d>+ to speak ( lit]ature1 ( :i* x 0 n = 
me to say a ^w2 nor ( gallantry1 be+ too
 timid1 & fe>+1 m ?an dea?1 !           
ridicul\sness ( an old gallant2 besides 
t1 ,i nev] _h su* an idea :5 9 ! company
 ( ,madam ,d',ep9ay1 & t x p]haps w\ld  
nev] h occurr$ to me1 _h ,i pass$ my    
:ole life ) h]2 n t h] p]son 0 9 ! lea/ 
disagreeable to me2 on ! contr>y1 ,i    
lov$ h] p]haps too mu* z a fri5d to d x 
z a lov]4  ,i felt a pleasure 9 see+ &  
speak+ to h]4  ,h] conv]sation1 al?\gh  
agreeable en\gh 9 a mix$ company1  0    
un9t]e/+ 9 private2 m9e1 n m elegant or 
ent]ta9+ ?an h] own1 0 no great amusem5t
 to h]4  ,a%am$ ( be+ long sil5t1  ,i   

endeavor$ to enliv5 our tete-a-tete &1  
al?\gh ?is frequ5tly fatigu$ me1 ,i 0   
nev] disgu/$ ) x4  ,i 0 happy to %[ h]  
little att5tions1 & gave h] little      
frat]nal kisses1 :i* seem$ n to be m    
s5sual to h]self2 ^! 7 all4  ,%e 0 v ?91
 v pale1 & _h a bosom :i* resembl$ !    
back ( h] h&4 ,?is defect alone w\ld h  
be5 suffici5t to mod]ate my mo/ ard5t   
desires2 my he>t nev] c\ld di/+ui% a    
woman 9 a p]son :o _h x2 & besides o!r  
causes useless to m5tion1 always made me
 =get ! sex ( ?is lady4  ,hav+ resolv$  
to con=m to an assiduity :i* 0 necess>y1
 ,i imm$iately & volunt>ily ent]$ ^u x1 
& = ! fir/ ye> at lea/1 f\nd x less     
bur!nsome ?an ,i c\ld h expect$4  ,madam
 d',ep9ay1 :o commonly pass$ ! summ] 9 !
 c\ntry1 cont9u$ !re b a "p ( ?is2 :e!r 
%e 0 m deta9$ by h] affairs 9 ,p>is1 or 
t ! abs5ce ( ,grimm r5d]$ ! resid5ce ( !
 ,*evrette less agreeable to h]1 ,i "k  
n4  ,i took ! advantage ( ! int]vals (  
h] abs5ce1 or :5 ! company ) h] 0       
num]\s1 to enjoy my solitude ) my good  

,!resa & h] "m1 9 su* a mann] z to ta/e 
all its *>ms4  ,al?\gh ,i _h = sev]al   
ye>s pass$ be5 frequ5tly 9 ! c\ntry1 ,i 
seldom _h enjoy$ mu* ( its pleasures2 & 
^! excursions1 always made 9 company ) p
 :o consid]$ !mselves z p]sons (        
consequ5ce1 & r5d]$ insipid by con/ra9t1
 s]v$ to increase 9 me ! natural desire 
,i _h = ru/ic pleasures4  ,! want ( ^! 0
 ! m s5sible to me z ,i _h ! image ( !m 
imm$iately be=e my eyes4  ,i 0 s tir$ ( 
saloons1 jets d'eau1 groves1 p>t]res1 & 
( m fatigu+ p]sons by :om !y 7 %[n2 s   
exhau/$ ) pamphlets1 h>psi*ords1 trios1 
unravell+s ( plots1 /upid bon mots1     
insipid affections1 pitiful /orytell]s1 
& great supp]s2 t :5 ,i gave a side     
glance at a poor simple haw?orn bu%1 a  
h$ge1 a b>n1 or a mead[2 :51 9 pass+    
?r\gh a hamlet1 ,i sc5t$ a good *]vil   
omelette1 & he>d at a di/ance ! burd5 ( 
a ru/ic song ( ! ,bisqui]es2 ,i wi%$ all
 r\ge1 furbel[s & amb] at ! d---l1 &    
envy+ ! d9n] ( ! good h\sewife1 & ! w9e 
( h] own v9ey>d1 ,i he>tily wi%$ to give

 a slap on ! *aps to ,monsieur le ,*ef &
 ,monsieur le ,maitre1 :o made me d9e at
 ! h\r ( supp]1 & sup :5 ,i %\ld h be5  
asleep1 b especially to ,messieurs !    
lackeys1 :o dev\r$ ) _! eyes ! morsel ,i
 put into my m\?1 & ^u pa9 ( my dy+ )   
?ir/1 sold me ! adult]at$ w9e ( _! ma/]1
 t5 times de>] ?an t ( a bett] quality  
w\ld h co/ me at a public h\se4  ,at    
l5g? ,i 0 settl$ 9 an agreeable &       
solit>y asylum1 at lib]ty to pass !re ! 
rema9d] ( my days1 9 t peaceful1 equal1 
& indep5d5t life = :i* ,i felt myself   
born4  ,be=e ,i relate ! effects ?is    
situation1 s new to me1 _h ^u my he>t1 x
 is prop] ,i %\ld recapitulate its      
secret affections1 t ! read] may bett]  
foll[ 9 _! causes ! progress ( ^! new   
modifications4  ,i h always consid]$ !  
day on :i* ,i 0 unit$ to ,!resa z t :i* 
fix$ my moral exi/5ce4  ,an atta*m5t 0  
necess>y = me1 s9ce t :i* %\ld h be5    
suffici5t to my he>t _h be5 s cruelly   
brok54  ,! ?ir/ aft] happ9ess is nev]   
ext+ui%$ 9 ! he>t ( man4  ,mamma 0      

advanc+ into ye>s1 & di%onor$ h]self6 ,i
 _h pro(s t %e c\ld nev] m be happy "h  
bel[2 x !re=e rema9$ to me to seek my   
own happ9ess1 hav+ lo/ all hopes (      
p>tak+ ( h]s4  ,i 0 sometimes           
irresolute1 & fluctuat$ f "o idea to    
ano!r1 & f project to project4  ,my     
j\rney to ,v5ice w\ld h ?r[n me into    
public life1 _h ! man ) :om1 almo/ aga9/
 my incl9ation1 ,i 0 connect$ !re _h    
common s5se4  ,i 0 easily disc\rag$1    
especially 9 und]tak+s ( l5g? &         
difficulty4  ,! ill success ( ?is       
disgu/$ me ) e o!r2 &1 accord+ to my old
 maxims1 consid]+ di/ant objects z      
deceitful allurem5ts1 ,i resolv$ 9      
future to provide = imm$iate wants1 see+
 no?+ 9 life :i* c\ld tempt me to make  
extraord9>y ef=ts4  ,x 0 precisely at   
?is "t we became acqua9t$4  ,! mild "* (
 ! good ,!resa seem$ s fitt$ to my own1 
t ,i unit$ myself to h] ) an atta*m5t   
:i* nei!r "t nor injuries h be5 able to 
impair1 & :i* has con/antly be5 increas$
 by ev]y?+ by :i* x might h be5 expect$ 

to be dim9i%$4  ,! =ce ( ?is s5tim5t w  
h]eaft] appe> :5 ,i come to speak ( !   
w\nds %e has giv5 my he>t 9 ! height (  
my mis]y1 )\t my ev] hav+1 until ?is    
mom5t1 once utt]$ a ^w ( compla9t to any
 p]son :atev]4  ,:5 x %all be kn[n1 t   
aft] hav+ done ev]y?+1 brav$ ev]y?+1 n  
to sep>ate f h]2 t aft] pass+ ) h] tw5ty
 ye>s 9 despite ( fate & m52 ,i h 9 my  
old age made h] my wife1 )\t ! lea/     
expectation or solicitation on h] "p1 or
 promise or engagem5t on m9e1 ! _w w ?9k
 t love bord]+ ^u madness1 hav+ f ! fir/
 mom5t turn$ my head1 l$ me by degrees  
to ! la/ act ( extravagance2 & ?is w no 
long] appe> d\btful :5 ! /rong &        
p>ticul> reasons :i* %\ld =ev] h prev5t$
 me f tak+ su* a /ep are made kn[n4     
,:at1 !re=e1 w ! read] ?9k :5 ,i %all h 
told him1 ) all ! tru? he has ev] f\nd 9
 me1 t1 f ! fir/ mom5t 9 :i* ,i saw h]1 
until t :]e9 ,i write1 ,i h nev] felt ! 
lea/ love = h]1 t ,i nev] desir$ to     
possess h] m ?an ,i did to possess      
,madam de ,w>r5s1 & t ! physical wants  

:i* 7 satisfi$ ) h] p]son 71 to me1     
solely ^? ( ! sex1 & by no means proce$+
 f ! individual8  ,he w ?9k t1 be+ ( a  
con/itution diff]5t f t ( o!r m51 ,i 0  
incapable ( love1 s9ce ?is 0 n "o ( !   
s5tim5ts :i* atta*$ me to wom5 ! mo/ de>
 to my he>t4 ,pati5ce1 ,o my de> read]6 
! fatal mom5t approa*es 9 :i* y w be b  
too mu* undeceiv$4  ,i fall into        
repetitions2 ,i "k x2 & ^! are necess>y4
  ,! fir/ ( my wants1 ! greate/1 /ronge/
 & mo/ insatiable1 0 :olly 9 my he>t2 ! 
want ( an intimate connection1 & z      
intimate z x c\ld possibly be3 = ?is    
reason especially1 a woman 0 m necess>y 
to me ?an a man1 a female r ?an a male  
fri5d4  ,?is s+ul> want 0 su* t ! close/
 corporal union 0 n suffici5t3 two s\ls 
w\ld h be5 necess>y to me 9 ! same body1
 )\t :i* ,i always felt a void4  ,i     
?\ght ,i 0 ^u ! po9t ( fill+ x up =ev]4 
,?is "y p]son1 amiable by a ?\s&        
excell5t qualities1 & at t "t by h] =m1 
)\t ! %ad[ ( art or coquetry1 w\ld h    
conf9$ )9 h]self my :ole exi/5ce1 c\ld  

h]s1 z ,i _h hop$ x w\ld1 h be5 totally 
conf9$ to me4  ,i _h no?+ to fe> f m52  
,i am c]ta9 ( be+ ! only man %e ev]     
really lov$ & h] mod]ate passions seldom
 want$ ano!r n ev5 aft] ,i ceas$ 9 ?is  
respect to be "o to h]4  ,i _h no       
family2 %e _h "o2 & ?is family 0 compos$
 ( individuals ^: dispositions 7 s      
diff]5t f m9e1 t ,i c\ld nev] make x my 
own4  ,?is 0 ! fir/ cause ( my          
unhapp9ess4  ,:at w\ld ,i n h giv5 to be
 ! *ild ( h] "m8 ,i did ev]y?+ 9 my p[] 
to become s1 b c\ld nev] succe$4 ,i 9   
va9 attempt$ to unite all our int]e/s3  
?is 0 impossible4 ,%e always creat$     
h]self "o diff]5t f m9e1 contr>y to x1 &
 to t ev5 ( h] daught]1 :i* already 0 no
 long] sep>at$ f x4  ,%e1 h] o!r *ildr51
 & gr&-*ildr51 became s _m lee*es1 & !  
lea/ evil ^! did to ,!resa 0 robb+ h]4  
,! poor girl1 accu/om$ to submit1 ev5 to
 h] nieces1 suff]$ h]self to be pilf]$ &
 gov]n$ )\t say+ a ^w2 & ,i p]ceiv$ )   
grief t by exhau/+ my purse1 & giv+ h]  
advice1 ,i did no?+ t c\ld be ( any real

 advantage to h]4  ,i endeavor$ to deta*
 h] f h] "m2 b %e con/antly resi/$ su* a
 proposal4  ,i c\ld n b respect h]      
resi/ance1 & e/eem$ h] ! m = x2 b h]    
refusal 0 n on ?is acc\nt less to !     
prejudice ( u bo?4  ,ab&on$ to h] "m & !
 re/ ( h] family1 %e 0 m _! companion   
?an m9e1 & r at _! comm& ?an mi/ress (  
h]self4  ,_! av>ice 0 less ru9\s ?an _! 
advice 0 p]nici\s to h]2 9 fact1 if1 on 
acc\nt ( ! love %e _h = me1 add$ to h]  
good natural disposition1 %e 0 n q _!   
slave1 %e 0 en\gh s to prev5t 9 a great 
measure ! effect ( ! good maxims ,i     
endeavor$ to in/il into h]1 &1 not)/&+  
all my ef=ts1 to prev5t our be+ unit$4  
,?us 0 x1 t not)/&+ a s9c]e & reciprocal
 atta*m5t1 9 :i* ,i _h lavi%$ all !     
t5d]ness ( my he>t1 ! void 9 t he>t 0   
nev] completely fill$4  ,*ildr51 by :om 
?is effect %\ld h be5 produc$1 7 br\ght 
into ! _w1 b ^! only made ?+s worse4  ,i
 trembl$ at ! ?\ght ( intru/+ !m to a   
family ill br\ght up1 to be /ill worse  
educat$4  ,! risk ( ! education ( !     

f\ndl+ hospital 0 mu* less4  ,?is reason
 = ! resolution ,i took1 mu* /rong] ?an 
all ^? ,i /at$ 9 my lett] to ,madam de  
,francueil1 01 h[ev]1 ! only "o ) :i* ,i
 d>$ n make h] acqua9t$2 ,i *ose r to   
appe> less excusable ?an to expose to   
reproa* ! family ( a p]son ,i lov$4  ,b 
by ! conduct ( h] wret*$ bro!r1 not)/&+ 
all t c be said 9 8 def5ce1 x w be judg$
 :e!r or n ,i ought to h expos$ my      
*ildr5 to an education simil> to 84  ,n 
hav+ x 9 my p[] to ta/e 9 all its       
pl5titude ! *>ms ( t intimate connection
 ( :i* ,i felt ! want1 ,i s\ght =       
sub/itutes :i* did n fill up ! void1 yet
 !y made x less s5sible4  ,n hav+ a     
fri5d entirely devot$ to me1 ,i want$   
o!rs1 ^: impulse %\ld ov]come my        
indol5ce2 = ?is reason ,i cultivat$ &   
/r5g!n$ my connection ) ,did]ot & !     
,abbe de ,condillac1 =m$ ) ,grimm a new 
"o /ill m intimate1 till at l5g? by !   
un=tunate disc\rse1 ( :i* ,i h relat$ "s
 p>ticul>s1 ,i unexpect$ly f\nd myself  
?r[n back into a lit]>y circle :i* ,i   

?\ght ,i _h quitt$ =ev]4  ,my fir/ /eps 
conduct$ me by a new pa? to ano!r       
intellectual _w1 ! simple & noble       
economy ( :i* ,i _c contemplate )\t     
en?usiasm4  ,i reflect$ s mu* on !      
subject t ,i soon saw no?+ b error &    
folly 9 ! doctr9e ( our sages1 &        
oppression & mis]y 9 our social ord]4   
,9 ! illusion ( my fooli% pride1 ,i     
?\ght myself capable ( de/roy+ all      
impo/ure2 & ?9k+ t1 to make myself li/5$
 to1 x 0 necess>y my conduct %\ld agree 
) my pr9ciples1 ,i adopt$ ! s+ul> mann] 
( life :i* ,i h n be5 p]mitt$ to        
cont9ue1 ! example ( :i* my pret5d$     
fri5ds h nev] =giv5 me1 :i* at fir/ made
 me ridicul\s1 & w\ld at l5g? h r5d]$ me
 respectable1 _h x be5 possible = me to 
p]sev]e4  ,until !n ,i _h be5 good2 f t 
mom5t ,i became virtu\s1 or at lea/     
infatuat$ ) virtue4  ,?is infatuation _h
 begun 9 my head1 b aft]w>ds pass$ into 
my he>t4  ,! mo/ noble pride !re took   
root among/ ! ru9s ( extirpat$ vanity4  
,i affect$ no?+2 ,i became :at ,i appe>$

 to be1 & dur+ f\r ye>s at lea/1 :il/   
?is eff]vesc5ce cont9u$ at its greate/  
height1 !re is no?+ great & good t c    
ent] ! he>t ( man1 ( :i* ,i 0 n capable 
betwe5 heav5 & myself4  ,h5ce fl[$ my   
sudd5 eloqu5ce2 h5ce1 9 my fir/ writ+s1 
t fire really cele/ial1 :i* consum$ me1 
& :5ce dur+ =ty ye>s n a s+le sp>k _h   
escap$1 because x 0 n yet light$ up4  ,i
 0 really trans=m$2 my fri5ds &         
acqua9tance sc>cely knew me4 ,i 0 no    
long] t timid1 & r ba%ful ?an mode/ man1
 :o nei!r d>$ to pres5t himself1 nor    
utt] a ^w2 :om a s+le pleasantry        
disconc]t$1 & ^: face 0 cov]$ ) a blu% !
 mom5t 8 eyes met ^? ( a woman4  ,i     
became bold1 haughty1 intrepid1 ) a     
confid5ce ! m firm1 z x 0 simple1 &     
resid$ 9 my s\l r ?an 9 my mann]4  ,!   
contempt ) :i* my pr(\nd m$itations _h  
inspir$ me = ! mann]s1 maxims &         
prejudices ( ! age 9 :i* ,i liv$1 r5d]$ 
me pro( aga9/ ! raill]y ( ^? by :om !y 7
 possess$1 & ,i cru%$ _! little         
pleasantries ) a s5t5ce1 z ,i w\ld h    

cru%$ an insect ) my f+]s4  ,:at a      
*ange6  ,all ,p>is repeat$ ! sev]e &    
acute s>casms ( ! same man :o1 two ye>s 
be=e1 & t5 ye>s aft]w>ds1 knew n h[ to  
f9d :at he _h to say1 nor ! ^w he ought 
to employ4  ,let ! situation 9 ! _w !   
mo/ contr>y to my natural disposition be
 s\ght aft]1 & ?is w be f\nd4  ,let "o (
 ! %ort mom5ts ( my life 9 :i* ,i became
 ano!r man1 & ceas$ to be myself1 be    
recollect$1 ?is also w be f\nd 9 ! "t ( 
:i* ,i speak2 b1 in/ead ( cont9u+ only  
six days1 or six weeks1 x la/$ almo/ six
 ye>s1 & w\ld p]haps /ill cont9ue1 b = !
 p>ticul> circum/ances :i* caus$ x to   
cease1 & re/or$ me to nature1 above :i* 
,i _h1 wi%$ to so>4  ,! beg9n+ ( ?is    
*ange took place z soon z ,i _h quitt$  
,p>is1 & ! sight ( ! vices ( t city no  
long] kept up ! indignation ) :i* x _h  
inspir$ me4  ,i no soon] _h lo/ sight ( 
m5 ?an ,i ceas$ to despise !m1 & once   
remov$ f ^? :o design$ me evil1 my hatr$
 aga9/ !m no long] exi/$4  ,my he>t1    
little fitt$ = hatr$1 piti$ _! mis]y1 & 

ev5 _! wick$ness4  ,?is situation1 m    
pleas+ b less sublime1 soon allay$ !    
ard5t en?usiasm by :i* ,i _h s long be5 
transport$2 & ,i ins5sibly1 almo/ to    
myself ev51 aga9 became fe>ful1         
complaisant & timid2 9 a ^w1 ! same     
,jean ,jacques ,i be=e _h be54  ,_h ?is 
resolution gone no fur!r ?an re/or+ me  
to myself1 all w\ld h be5 well2 b       
un=tunately x rapidly c>ri$ me away to !
 o!r extreme4  ,f t mom5t my m9d 9      
agitation pass$ ! l9e ( repose1 & its   
oscillations1 cont9ually r5ew$1 h nev]  
p]mitt$ x to rema9 "h4  ,i mu/ ent] into
 "s detail ( ?is second revolution2     
t]rible & fatal era1 ( a fate unp>allel$
 among/ mortals4  ,we 7 b ?ree p]sons 9 
our retirem5t2 x 0 !re=e natural our    
intimacy %\ld be increas$ by leisure &  
solitude4  ,?is 0 ! case betwe5 ,!resa &
 myself4  ,we pass$ 9 conv]sations 9 !  
%ade ! mo/ *>m+ & delightful h\rs1 m s  
?an any ,i _h hi!rto enjoy$4  ,%e seem$ 
to ta/e ( ?is sweet int]c\rse m ?an ,i  
_h until !n obs]v$ h] to d2 %e op5$ h]  

he>t1 & communicat$ to me1 relative to  
h] "m & family1 ?+s %e _h _h resolution 
en\gh to conceal = a great l5g? ( "t4   
,bo? _h receiv$ f ,madam ,dup9 num]\s   
pres5ts1 made !m on my acc\nt1 & mo/ly =
 me1 b :i* ! cunn+ old woman1 to prev5t 
my be+ angry1 _h appropriat$ to h] own  
use & t ( h] o!r *ildr51 )\t suff]+     
,!resa to h ! lea/ %>e1 /rongly =bidd+  
h] to say a ^w to me ( ! matt]3 an ord] 
! poor girl _h obey$ ) an incr$ible     
exactness4  ,b ano!r ?+ :i* surpris$ me 
m ?an ?is _h done1 0 ! discov]y t       
besides ! private conv]sations ,did]ot &
 ,grimm _h frequ5tly _h ) bo? to        
endeavor to deta* !m f me1 9 :i*1 by    
means ( ! resi/ance ( ,!resa1 !y _h n   
be5 able to succe$1 !y _h aft]w>ds _h   
frequ5t conf]5ces ) ! "m1 ! subject (   
:i* 0 a secret to ! daught]4  ,h[ev]1 %e
 knew little pres5ts _h be5 made1 & t   
!re 7 my/]i\s go+s backw>d & =w>d1 !    
motive ( :i* 0 entirely unkn[n to h]4   
,:5 we left ,p>is1 ,madam le ,vasseur _h
 long be5 9 ! habit ( go+ to see ,grimm 

twice or ?rice a mon?1 & cont9u+ ) him =
 h\rs toge!r1 9 conv]sation s secret t !
 s]vant 0 always s5t out ( ! room4  ,i  
judg$ ?is motive to be ( ! same nature )
 ! project into :i* !y _h attempt$ to   
make ! daught] ent]1 by promis+ to      
procure h] & h] "m1 by means ( ,madam   
d',ep9ay1 a salt huck/]'s lic5se1 or    
snuff-%op2 9 a ^w1 by tempt+ h] ) !     
allurem5ts ( ga94  ,!y _h be5 told t1 z 
,i 0 n 9 a situation to d any?+ = !m1 ,i
 c\ld n1 on _! acc\nt1 d any?+ = myself4
 ,z 9 all ?is ,i saw no?+ b good        
int5tions1 ,i 0 n absolutely displeas$ )
 !m = x4  ,! my/]y 0 ! only ?+ :i* gave 
me pa91 especially on ! "p ( ! old      
woman1 :o moreov] daily became m        
p>asitical & flatt]+ t[>ds me4  ,?is1   
h[ev]1 did n prev5t h] f reproa*+ h]    
daught] 9 private ) tell+ me ev]y?+1 &  
lov+ me too mu*1 obs]v+ to h] %e 0 a    
fool & w\ld at l5g? be made a dupe4     
,?is woman possess$1 to a supreme       
degree1 ! art ( multiply+ ! pres5ts made
 h]1 by conceal+ f "o :at %e receiv$ f  

ano!r1 & f me :at %e receiv$ f all4  ,i 
c\ld h p>don$ h] av>ice1 b x 0          
impossible ,i %\ld =give h]             
dissimulation4  ,:at c\ld %e h to       
conceal f me ^: happ9ess %e knew        
pr9cipally consi/$ 9 t ( h]self & h]    
daught]8  ,:at ,i _h done = ! daught] ,i
 _h done = myself1 b ! s]vices ,i r5d]$ 
! "m m]it$ on h] "p "s ackn[l$gm5t4  ,%e
 ought1 at lea/1 to h ?\ght h]self      
oblig$ = !m to h] daught]1 & to h lov$  
me = ! sake ( h] by :om ,i 0 already    
belov$4  ,i _h rais$ h] f ! l[e/ /ate ( 
wret*$ness2 %e receiv$ f my h&s ! means 
( subsi/5ce1 & 0 indebt$ to me = h]     
acqua9tance ) ! p]sons f :om %e f\nd    
means to reap consid]able b5efit4       
,!resa _h long support$ h] by h]        
indu/ry1 & n[ ma9ta9$ h] ) my bread4 ,%e
 ow$ ev]y?+ to ?is daught]1 = :om %e _h 
done no?+1 & h] o!r *ildr51 to :om %e _h
 giv5 m>riage portions1 & on ^: acc\nt  
%e _h ru9$ h]self1 f> f giv+ h] ! lea/  
aid1 dev\r$ h] sub/ance & m9e4  ,i ?\ght
 t 9 su* a situation %e ought to consid]

 me z h] only fri5d & mo/ sure          
protector1 & t1 f> f mak+ ( my own      
affairs a secret to me1 & conspir+ aga9/
 me 9 my h\se1 x 0 h] duty fai?fully to 
acqua9t me ) ev]y?+ 9 :i* ,i 0 int]e/$1 
:5 ?is came to h] k be=e x did to m9e4  
,9 :at light1 !re=e1 c\ld ,i consid] h] 
false & my/]i\s conduct8  ,:at c\ld ,i  
?9k ( ! s5tim5ts ) :i* %e endeavor$ to  
inspire h] daught]8  ,:at mon/r\s       
+ratitude 0 h]s1 to endeavor to in/il x 
into h] f :om ,i expect$ my greate/     
consolation8  ,^! reflections at l5g?   
ali5at$ my affections f ?is woman1 & to 
su* a degree t ,i c\ld no long] look ^u 
h] b ) contempt4 ,i nev]!less cont9u$ to
 treat ) respect ! "m ( ! fri5d ( my    
bosom1 & 9 ev]y?+ to %[ h] almo/ !      
rev]5ce ( a son2 b ,i mu/ confess ,i    
c\ld n rema9 long ) h] )\t pa91 & t ,i  
nev] knew h[ to be> re/ra9t4  ,?is is   
ano!r %ort mom5t ( my life1 9 :i* ,i    
approa*$ ne> to happ9ess )\t be+ able to
 atta9 x1 & ?is by no fault ( my own4   
,_h ! "m be5 ( a good disposition we all

 ?ree %\ld h be5 happy to ! end ( our   
days2 ! longe/ liv] only w\ld h be5 to  
be piti$4  ,in/ead ( :i*1 ! read] w see 
! c\rse ?+s took1 & judge :e!r or n x 0 
9 my p[] to *ange x4  ,madam le         
,vasseur1 :o p]ceiv$ ,i _h got m full   
possession ( ! he>t ( ,!resa1 & t %e _h 
lo/ gr\nd ) h]1 endeavor$ to rega9 x2 & 
in/ead ( /riv+ to re/ore h]self to my   
good op9ion by ! m$iation ( h] daught]  
attempt$ to ali5ate h] affections f me4 
,"o ( ! means %e employ$ 0 to call h]   
family to h] aid4  ,i _h begg$ ,!resa n 
to invite any ( h] relations to !       
,h]mitage1 & %e _h promis$ me %e w\ld n4
  ,^! 7 s5t = 9 my abs5ce1 )\t consult+ 
h]1 & %e 0 aft]w>ds prevail$ ^u to      
promise n to say any?+ ( ! matt]4  ,aft]
 ! fir/ /ep 0 tak5 all ! re/ 7 easy4    
,:5 once we make a secret ( any?+ to !  
p]son we love1 we soon make little      
scruple ( do+ x 9 ev]y?+2 ! mom5t ,i 0  
at ! ,*evrette ! ,h]mitage 0 full ( p :o
 suffici5tly amus$ !mselves4  ,a "m has 
always great p[] ov] a daught] ( a mild 

disposition2 yet not)/&+ all ! old woman
 c\ld d1 %e 0 nev] able to prevail ^u   
,!resa to ent] into h] views1 nor to    
p]suade h] to jo9 9 ! league aga9/ me4  
,= h] "p1 %e resolv$ ^u do+ x =ev]1 &   
see+ on "o side h] daught] & myself1 :o 
7 9 a situation to live1 & t 0 all2 on !
 o!r1 ,did]ot1 ,grimm1 ,d' ,holba* &    
,madam d',ep9ay1 :o promis$ great ?+s1 &
 gave "s little ones1 %e c\ld n conceive
 x 0 possible to be 9 ! wrong ) ! wife (
 a f>m]-g5]al & b>on4  ,_h ,i be5 m cle>
 sight$1 ,i %\ld f ?is mom5t h p]ceiv$  
,i n\ri%$ a s]p5t 9 my bosom4  ,b my    
bl9d confid5ce1 :i* no?+ _h yet dim9i%$1
 0 su* t ,i c\ld n imag9e %e wi%$ to    
injure ! p]son %e ought to love4  ,?\gh 
,i saw num]\s conspiracies =m$ on e     
side1 all ,i compla9 ( 0 ! tyranny (    
p]sons :o call$ !mselves my fri5ds1 &   
:o1 z x seem$1 w\ld =ce me to be happy 9
 ! mann] !y %\ld po9t out1 & n 9 t ,i _h
 *os5 = myself4  ,al?\gh ,!resa refus$  
to jo9 9 ! conf$]acy ) h] "m1 %e        
aft]w>ds kept h] secret4  ,= ?is h]     

motive 0 comm5dable1 al?\gh ,i w n      
det]m9e :e!r %e did x well or ill4  ,two
 wom51 :o h secrets betwe5 !m1 love to  
prattle toge!r2 ?is attract$ !m t[>ds   
ea* o!r1 & ,!resa1 by divid+ h]self1    
sometimes let me feel ,i 0 alone2 = ,i  
c\ld no long] consid] z a society t :i* 
we all ?ree =m$4  ,i n[ felt ! neglect  
,i _h be5 guilty ( dur+ ! fir/ ye>s (   
our connection1 9 n tak+ advantage ( !  
docility ) :i* h] love inspir$ h]1 to   
improve h] tal5ts & give h] k1 :i*1 by m
 closely connect+ u 9 our retirem5t w\ld
 agreeably h fill$ up h] "t & my own1   
)\t once suff]+ u to p]ceive ! l5g? ( a 
private conv]sation4  ,n t ?is 0 ev]    
exhau/$ betwe5 u1 or t %e seem$ disgu/$ 
) our walks2 b we _h n a suffici5t numb]
 ( ideas common to bo? to make ourselves
 a great /ore1 & we c\ld n incessantly  
talk ( our future projects :i* 7 conf9$ 
to ^? ( enjoy+ ! pleasures ( life4  ,!  
objects ar\nd u inspir$ me ) reflections
 beyond ! rea* ( h] compreh5sion4  ,an  
atta*m5t ( twelve ye>s' /&+ _h no long] 

ne$ ( words3 we 7 too well acqua9t$ )   
ea* o!r to h any new k to acquire 9 t   
respect4  ,! res\rce ( puns1 je/s1      
gossip+ & sc&al1 0 all t rema9$4  ,9    
solitude especially is x1 t ! advantage 
( liv+ ) a p]son :o kn[s h[ to ?9k is   
p>ticul>ly felt4  ,i want$ n ?is res\rce
 to amuse myself ) h]2 b %e w\ld h /ood 
9 ne$ ( x to h always f\nd amusem5t )   
me4  ,! wor/ ( all 0 our be+ oblig$ to  
hold our conv]sations :5 we c\ld2 h] "m1
 :o become importunate1 oblig$ me to    
wat* = opportunities to d x4  ,i 0 "u   
con/ra9t 9 my own h\se3 ?is is say+     
ev]y?+2 ! air ( love 0 prejudicial to   
good fri5d%ip4  ,we _h an intimate      
int]c\rse )\t liv+ 9 intimacy4  ,! mom5t
 ,i ?\ght ,i p]ceiv$ t ,!resa sometimes 
s\ght = a pretext to elude ! walks ,i   
propos$ to h]1 ,i ceas$ to invite h] to 
accompany me1 )\t be+ displeas$ ) h] = n
 f9d+ 9 !m s mu* amusem5t z ,i did4     
,pleasure is n a ?+ :i* dep5ds ^u ! w4  
,i 0 sure ( h] he>t1 & ! possession (   
?is 0 all ,i desir$4  ,z long z my      

pleasures 7 h]s1 ,i ta/$ ( !m ) h]2 :5  
?is ceas$ to be ! case ,i pref]r$ h]    
cont5tm5t to my own4  ,9 ?is mann] x 0  
t1 half deceiv$ 9 my expectation1 lead+ 
a life aft] my own he>t1 9 a resid5ce ,i
 _h *os5 ) a p]son :o 0 de> to me1 ,i at
 l5g? f\nd myself almo/ alone4  ,:at ,i 
/ill want$ prev5t$ me f enjoy+ :at ,i   
_h4  ,) respect to happ9ess & enjoym5t1 
ev]y?+ or no?+1 0 :at 0 necess>y to me4 
,! reason ( ^! obs]vations w h]eaft]    
appe>4  ,at pres5t ,i return to ! ?read 
( my n>rative4  ,i imag9$ t ,i possess$ 
treasures 9 ! manuscripts giv5 me by !  
,comte de ,/4  ,pi]re4  ,on exam9ation  
,i f\nd !y 7 a little m ?an ! collection
 ( ! pr9t$ works ( 8 uncle1 ) notes &   
corrections by 8 own h&1 & a few o!r    
trifl+ fragm5ts :i* _h n yet be5        
publi%$4  ,i confirm$ myself by ^! moral
 writ+s 9 ! idea ,i _h conceiv$ f "s ( 8
 lett]s1 %[n me by ,madam de ,crequi1 t 
he _h m s5se & +5uity ?an at fir/ ,i _h 
imag9$2 b aft] a c>eful exam9ation ( 8  
political works1 ,i disc]n$ no?+ b      

sup]ficial notions1 & projects t 7      
useful b impracticable1 9 consequ5ce ( !
 idea f :i* ! au?or nev] c\ld dep>t1 t  
m5 conduct$ !mselves by _! sagacity r   
?an by _! passions4  ,! high op9ion he  
_h ( ! k ( ! mod]ns _h made him adopt   
?is false pr9ciple ( improv$ reason1 !  
basis ( all ! in/itutions he propos$1 & 
! s\rce ( 8 political sophisms4  ,?is   
extraord9>y man1 an honor to ! age 9 :i*
 he liv$1 & to ! human species1 & p]haps
 ! only p]son1 s9ce ! creation ( mank9d1
 ^: sole passion 0 t ( reason1 w&]$ 9   
all 8 sy/ems f error to error1 by       
attempt+ to make m5 l himself1 in/ead ( 
tak+ !m z !y 71 are1 & w cont9ue to be4 
,he labor$ = imag9>y be+s1 :ile he ?\ght
 himself employ$ = ! b5efit ( 8         
contempor>ies4  ,all ^! ?+s consid]$1 ,i
 0 r emb>rass$ z to ! =m ,i %\ld give to
 my "w4  ,to suff] ! au?or's visions to 
pass 0 do+ no?+ useful2 fully to refute 
!m w\ld h be5 unpolite1 z ! c>e ( revis+
 & publi%+ 8 manuscripts1 :i* ,i _h     
accept$1 & ev5 reque/$1 _h be5 intru/$  

to me2 ?is tru/ _h impos$ on me !       
obligation ( treat+ ! au?or honorably4  
,i at l5g? conclud$ ^u t :i* to me      
appe>$ ! mo/ dec5t1 judici\s1 & useful4 
,?is 0 to give sep>ately my own ideas & 
^? ( ! au?or1 &1 = ?is purpose1 to ent] 
into 8 views1 to set !m 9 a new light1  
to amplify1 ext5d !m1 & sp>e no?+ :i*   
might contribute to pres5t !m 9 all _!  
excell5ce4  ,my "w !re=e 0 to be compos$
 ( two p>ts absolutely di/9ct3 "o1 to   
expla91 9 ! mann] ,i h j m5tion$1 !     
diff]5t projects ( ! au?or2 9 ! o!r1 :i*
 0 n to appe> until ! fir/ _h _h its    
effect1 ,i %\ld h giv5 my op9ion ^u ^!  
projects1 :i* ,i confess might sometimes
 h expos$ !m to ! fate ( ! sonnet ( !   
misan?rope4  ,at ! head ( ! :ole 0 to h 
be5 ! life ( ! au?or4  ,= ?is ,i _h     
collect$ "s good mat]ials1 & :i* ,i     
flatt]$ myself ,i %\ld n spoil 9 mak+   
use ( !m4  ,i _h be5 a little acqua9t$ )
 ! ,abbe de ,/4 ,pi]re1 9 8 old age1 & !
 v5]ation ,i _h = 8 memory w>rant$ to   
me1 ^u ! :ole1 t ! comte w\ld n be      

dissatisfi$ ) ! mann] 9 :i* ,i %\ld h   
treat$ 8 relation4  ,i made my fir/     
essay on ! ',p]petual ,peace'1 ! greate/
 & mo/ elaborate ( all ! works :i*      
compos$ ! collection2 & be=e ,i ab&on$  
myself to my reflections ,i _h ! c\rage 
to read ev]y?+ ! abbe _h writt5 ^u ?is  
f9e subject1 )\t once suff]+ myself to  
be disgu/$ ei!r by 8 sl[ness or 8       
repetitions4  ,! public has se5 !       
extract1 on :i* acc\nt ,i h no?+ to say 
^u ! subject4  ,my op9ion ( x has n be5 
pr9t$1 nor d ,i "k t x ev] w be2 h[ev]1 
x 0 writt5 at ! same "t ! extract 0     
made4  ,f ?is ,i pass$ to !             
',polysynodie'1 or ,plurality (         
,c\ncils1 a "w writt5 "u ! reg5t to     
favor ! adm9i/ration he _h *os51 & :i*  
caus$ ! ,abbe de ,sa9t ,pi]re to be     
expell$ f ! academy1 on acc\nt ( "s     
rem>ks unfavorable to ! prec$+          
adm9i/ration1 & ) :i* ! ,du*ess ( ,ma9e 
& ! ,c>d9al de ,polignac 7 displeas$4   
,i complet$ ?is "w z ,i did ! =m]1 ) an 
extract & rem>ks2 b ,i /opp$ "h )\t     

int5d+ to cont9ue ! und]tak+ :i* ,i     
ought nev] to h begun4  ,! reflection   
:i* induc$ me to give x up naturally    
pres5ts itself1 & x 0 a/oni%+ ,i _h n   
made x soon]4  ,mo/ ( ! writ+s ( ! ,abbe
 de ,sa9t ,pi]re 7 ei!r obs]vations1 or 
conta9$ obs]vations1 on "s p>ts ( !     
gov]nm5t ( ,france1 & sev]al ( ^! 7 ( s 
free a nature1 t x 0 happy = him he _h  
made !m ) impunity4  ,b 9 ! (fices ( all
 ! m9i/]s ( /ate ! ,abbe de ,/4 ,pi]re  
_h ev] be5 consid]$ z a k9d ( prea*] r  
?an a real politician1 & he 0 suff]$ to 
say :at he pleas$1 because x appe>$ t   
nobody li/5$ to him4 ,_h ,i procur$ him 
read]s ! case w\ld h be5 diff]5t4  ,he 0
 a ,fr5*man1 & ,i 0 n "o2 & by repeat+ 8
 c5sures1 al?\gh 9 8 own "n1 ,i expos$  
myself to be ask$1 r rudely1 b )\t      
inju/ice1 :at x 0 ) :i* ,i m$dl$4       
,happily be=e ,i proce$$ any fur!r1 ,i  
p]ceiv$ ! hold ,i 0 ab\t to give !      
gov]nm5t aga9/ me1 & ,i imm$iately      
)drew4  ,i knew t1 liv+ alone 9 ! mid/ (
 m5 m p[]ful ?an myself1 ,i nev] c\ld by

 any means :atev] be %elt]$ f ! injury  
!y *ose to d me4  ,!re 0 b "o ?+ :i*    
dep5d$ ^u my own ef=ts3 ?is 01 to obs]ve
 su* a l9e ( conduct t :5ev] !y *ose to 
make me feel ! weight ( au?ority !y c\ld
 n d x )\t be+ unju/4  ,! maxim :i*     
induc$ me to decl9e proce$+ ) ! works ( 
! ,abbe de ,sa9t ,pi]re1 has frequ5tly  
made me give up projects ,i _h mu* m at 
he>t4 ,p :o are always ready to con/rue 
adv]sity into a crime1 w\ld be mu*      
surpris$ 7 !y to "k ! pa9s ,i h tak51 t 
dur+ my mis=tunes x might nev] ) tru? be
 said ( me1 ,?\ ha/ des]v$ !m4  ,aft]   
hav+ giv5 up ! manuscript1 ,i rema9$ "s 
"t )\t det]m9+ ^u ! "w :i* %\ld succe$  
x1 & ?is int]val ( inactivity 0         
de/ructive2 by p]mitt+ me to turn my    
reflections on myself1 = want ( ano!r   
object to engage my att5tion4  ,i _h no 
project = ! future :i* c\ld amuse my    
imag9ation4  ,x 0 n ev5 possible to =m  
any1 z my situation 0 precisely t 9 :i* 
all my desires 7 unit$4  ,i _h n ano!r  
to conceive1 & yet !re 0 a void 9 my    

he>t4  ,?is /ate 0 ! m cruel1 z ,i saw  
no o!r t 0 to be pref]r$ to x4  ,i _h   
fix$ my mo/ t5d] affections ^u a p]son  
:o made me a return ( h] own4  ,i liv$ )
 h] )\t con/ra9t1 &1 s to speak1 at     
discretion4  ,not)/&+ ?is1 a secret     
grief ( m9d nev] quitt$ me = a mom5t1   
ei!r :5 %e 0 pres5t or abs5t4  ,9       
possess+ ,!resa1 ,i /ill p]ceiv$ %e     
want$ some?+ to h] happ9ess2 & ! sole   
idea ( my n be+ ev]y?+ to h] _h su* an  
effect ^u my m9d t %e 0 next to no?+ to 
me4  ,i _h fri5ds ( bo? sexes1 to :om ,i
 0 atta*$ by ! pure/ fri5d%ip & mo/     
p]fect e/eem2 ,i dep5d$ ^u a real return
 on _! "p1 & a d\bt ( _! s9c]ity nev]   
ent]$ my m9d2 yet ?is fri5d%ip 0 m      
torm5t+ ?an agreeable to me1 by _!      
ob/9ate p]sev]ance & ev5 by _!          
affectation1 9 oppos+ my ta/e1          
incl9ations & mann] ( liv+2 & ?is to su*
 a degree1 t ! mom5t ,i seem$ to desire 
a ?+ :i* int]e/$ myself only1 & dep5d$ n
 ^u !m1 !y imm$iately jo9$ _! ef=ts to  
oblige me to r5\nce x4  ,?is cont9u$    

desire to control me 9 all my wi%es1 ! m
 unju/1 z ,i did n s mu* z make myself  
acqua9t$ ) !irs1 became s cruelly       
oppressive1 t ,i nev] receiv$ "o ( _!   
lett]s )\t feel+ a c]ta9 t]ror z ,i op5$
 x1 & :i* 0 b too well ju/ifi$ by !     
cont5ts4  ,i ?\ght be+ treat$ l a *ild  
by p]sons y\ng] ?an myself1 & :o1 (     
!mselves1 /ood 9 great ne$ ( ! advice !y
 s prodigally be/[$ on me1 0 too mu*3   
,love me1 said ,i to !m1 z ,i love y1 b1
 9 e o!r respect1 let my affairs be z   
indiff]5t to y1 z y\rs are to me3 ?is is
 all ,i ask4  ,if !y grant$ me "o ( ^!  
two reque/s1 x 0 n ! latt]4  ,i _h a    
retir$ resid5ce 9 a *>m+ solitude1 0    
ma/] ( my own h\se1 & c\ld live 9 x 9 ! 
mann] ,i ?\ght prop]1 )\t be+ controll$ 
by any p]son4  ,?is habitation impos$ on
 me duties agreeable to dis*>ge1 b :i* 7
 indisp5sable4  ,my lib]ty 0 prec>i\s4  
,9 a great] /ate ( subjection ?an a     
p]son at ! comm& ( ano!r1 x 0 my duty to
 be s by incl9ation4  ,:5 ,i arose 9 !  
morn+1 ,i nev] c\ld say to myself1 ,i w 

employ ?is day z ,i ?9k prop]4 ,&1      
moreov]1 besides my be+ subject to obey 
! call ( ,madam d',ep9ay1 ,i 0 expos$ to
 ! /ill m disagreeable importunities ( !
 public & *ance com]s4  ,! di/ance ,i 0 
at f ,p>is did n prev5t cr[ds ( idl]s1 n
 kn[+ h[ to sp5d _! "t1 f daily break+ 9
 ^u me1 &1 )\t ! lea/ scruple1 freely   
dispos+ ( m9e4  ,:5 ,i lea/ expect$     
visitors ,i 0 unm]cifully assail$ by !m1
 & ,i seldom made a plan = ! agreeable  
employm5t ( ! day t 0 n c\nt]act$ by !  
arrival ( "s /rang]4  ,9 %ort1 f9d+ no  
real enjoym5t 9 ! mid/ ( ! pleasures ,i 
_h be5 mo/ desir\s to obta91 ,i1 by     
sudd5 m5tal transitions1 return$ 9      
imag9ation to ! s]5e days ( my y\?1 &   
sometimes exclaim$ ) a sigh3 ,ah6 ?is is
 n ,les ,*>mettes6  ,! recollection ( ! 
diff]5t p]iods ( my life l$ me to       
reflect ^u t at :i* ,i 0 arriv$1 & ,i   
f\nd ,i 0 already on ! decl9e1 a prey to
 pa9ful disord]s1 & imag9$ ,i 0 approa*+
 ! end ( my days )\t hav+1 ta/$1 9 all  
its pl5titude1 sc>cely anyone ( !       

pleasures aft] :i* my he>t _h s mu*     
?ir/$1 or hav+ giv5 scope to ! lively   
s5tim5ts ,i felt x _h 9 res]ve4 ,i _h n 
favor$ ev5 t intoxicat+ voluptu\sness ) 
:i* my m9d 0 ri*ly /or$1 & :i*1 = want (
 an object1 0 always compress$1 an nev] 
exhal$ b by signs4  ,h[ 0 x possible t1 
) a m9d naturally expansive1 ,i1 ) :om  
to live 0 to love1 %\ld n hi!rto h f\nd 
a fri5d entirely devot$ to me2 a real   
fri5d3 ,i :o felt myself s capable ( be+
 su* a fri5d to ano!r8  ,h[ c x be      
acc\nt$ = t ) su* w>m affections1 su*   
combu/ible s5ses1 & a he>t :olly made up
 ( love1 ,i _h n once1 at lea/1 felt its
 flame = a det]m9ate object8 ,torm5t$ by
 ! want ( lov+1 )\t ev] hav+ be5 able to
 satisfy x1 ,i p]ceiv$ myself approa*+ !
 eve ( old age1 & ha/5+ on to dea? )\t  
hav+ liv$4  ,^! melan*oly b affect+     
recollections l$ me to o!rs1 :i*1 al?\gh
 accompani$ ) regret1 7 n :olly         
unsatisfactory4  ,i ?\ght some?+ ,i _h n
 yet receiv$ 0 /ill due to me f de/9y4  
,to :at end 0 ,i born ) exquisite       

faculties8  ,to suff] !m to rema9       
unemploy$8  ! s5tim5t ( consci\s m]it1  
:i* made me consid] myself z suff]+     
inju/ice1 0 "s k9d ( rep>ation1 & caus$ 
me to %$ te>s :i* ) pleasure ,i suff]$  
to fl[4  ,^! 7 my m$iations dur+ ! f9e/ 
season ( ! ye>1 9 ! mon? ( ,june1 9 cool
 %ades1 to ! songs ( ! night+ale1 & !   
w>bl+ ( brooks4  ,ev]y?+ concurr$ 9     
plung+ me into t too s$uc+ /ate (       
indol5ce = :i* ,i 0 born1 & f :i* my    
au/]e mann]1 proce$+ f a long           
eff]vesc5ce1 %\ld =ev] h deliv]$ me4  ,i
 un=tunately rememb]$ ! d9n] ( ! ,*ateau
 de ,t\ne1 & my meet+ ) ! two *>m+ girls
 9 ! same season1 9 places mu* resembl+ 
t 9 :i* ,i !n 04  ,! remembrance ( ^!   
circum/ances1 :i* ! innoc5ce t          
accompani$ !m r5d]$ to me /ill m de>1   
br\ght sev]al o!rs ( ! nature to my     
recollection4  ,i pres5tly saw myself   
surr\nd$ by all ! objects :i*1 9 my y\?1
 _h giv5 me emotion4  ,mademoiselle     
,galley1 ,mademoiselle de ,graff5ri$1   
,mademoiselle de ,breil1 ,madam ,basile1

 ,madam de ,l>nage1 my pretty s*ol>s1 & 
ev5 ! bewit*+ ,zulietta1 :om my he>t    
c\ld n =get4  ,i f\nd myself 9 ! mid/ ( 
a s]aglio ( h\ris ( my old acqua9tance1 
= :om ! mo/ lively incl9ation 0 n new to
 me4  ,my blood became inflam$1 my head 
turn$1 not)/&+ my hair 0 almo/ gray1 & !
 grave citiz5 ( ,g5eva1 ! au/]e ,jean   
,jacques1 at =ty-five ye>s ( age1 aga9  
became ! fond %eph]d4 ,! intoxication1 )
 :i* my m9d 0 seiz$1 al?\gh sudd5 &     
extravagant1 0 s /rong & la/+1 t1 to    
enable me to recov] f x1 no?+ less ?an !
 un=ese5 & t]rible crisis x br\ght on 0 
necess>y4  ,?is intoxication1 to :atev] 
degree x 0 c>ri$1 w5t n s f> z to make  
me =get my age & situation1 to flatt] me
 t ,i c\ld /ill inspire love1 nor to    
make me attempt to communicate ! dev\r+ 
flame by :i* ev] s9ce my y\? ,i _h felt 
my he>t 9 va9 consum$4  ,= ?is ,i did n 
hope2 ,i did n ev5 desire x4  ,i knew ! 
season ( love 0 pa/2 ,i knew too well 9 
:at contempt ! ridicul\s pret5sions (   
sup]annuat$ gallants 7 held1 ev] to add 

"o to ! numb]1 & ,i 0 n a man to become 
an impud5t coxcomb 9 ! decl9e ( life1   
aft] hav+ be5 s little su* dur+ ! fl[] (
 my age4  ,besides1 z a fri5d to peace1 
,i %\ld h be5 appreh5sive ( dome/ic     
diss5sions2 & ,i too s9c]ely lov$ ,!resa
 to expose h] to ! mortification ( see+ 
me ent]ta9 = o!rs m lively s5tim5ts ?an 
^? ) :i* %e inspir$ me = h]self4  ,:at  
/ep did ,i take ^u ?is occasion8  ,my   
read] w already h guess$ x1 if he has   
tak5 ! tr\ble to pay ! lea/ att5tion to 
my n>rative4  ,! impossibility ( atta9+ 
real be+s ?rew me into ! regions (      
*im]a1 & see+ no?+ 9 exi/5ce wor?y ( my 
delirium1 ,i s\ght food = x 9 ! ideal   
_w1 :i* my imag9ation quickly peopl$ )  
be+s aft] my own he>t4  ,?is res\rce    
nev] came m apropos1 nor 0 x ev] s      
f]tile4  ,9 my cont9ual ec/asy ,i       
intoxicat$ my m9d ) ! mo/ delici\s      
s5tim5ts t ev] ent]$ ! he>t ( man4      
,entirely =gett+ ! human species1 ,i =m$
 to myself societies ( p]fect be+s1 ^:  
virtues 7 z cele/ial z _! beauty1 t5d] &

 fai?ful fri5ds1 su* z ,i nev] f\nd "h  
bel[4  ,i became s fond ( so>+ 9 !      
empyrean1 9 ! mid/ ( ! *>m+ objects )   
:i* ,i 0 surr\nd$1 t ,i ?us pass$ h\rs &
 days )\t p]ceiv+ x2 &1 los+ !          
remembrance ( all o!r ?+s1 ,i sc>cely _h
 eat5 a morsel 9 ha/e be=e ,i 0 impati5t
 to make my escape & run to rega9 my    
groves4  ,:5 ready to dep>t = ! en*ant$ 
_w1 ,i saw arrive wret*$ mortals :o came
 to deta9 me ^u e>?1 ,i c\ld nei!r      
conceal nor mod]ate my vexation2 & no   
long] ma/] ( myself1 ,i gave !m s       
uncivil a reception1 t x might ju/ly be 
t]m$ brutal4  ,?is t5d$ to confirm my   
reputation z a misan?rope1 f ! v cause  
:i*1 c\ld ! _w h read my he>t1 %\ld h   
acquir$ me "o ( a nature directly       
opposite4  ,9 ! mid/ ( my exultation ,i 
0 pull$ d[n l a pap] kite1 & re/or$ to  
my prop] place by means ( a sm>t attack 
( my disord]4 ,i recurr$ to ! only means
 t _h be=e giv5 me relief1 & ?us made a 
truce ) my angelic am\rs2 = besides t x 
seldom happ5s t a man is amor\s :5 he   

suff]s1 my imag9ation1 :i* is animat$ 9 
! c\ntry & b5ea? ! %ade ( trees1        
langui%es & becomes ext+ui%$ 9 a *amb]1 
& "u ! joi/s ( a ceil+4  ,i frequ5tly   
regrett$ t !re exi/$ no dryads2 x w\ld  
c]ta9ly h be5 among/ ^! t ,i %\ld h fix$
 my atta*m5t4  ,o!r dome/ic broils came 
at ! same "t to increase my *agr94      
,madam le ,vasseur1 :ile mak+ me ! f9e/ 
complim5ts 9 ! _w1 ali5at$ f me h]      
daught] z mu* z %e possibly c\ld4  ,i   
receiv$ lett]s f my late neighborhood1  
in=m+ me t ! good old lady _h secretly  
contract$ sev]al debts 9 ! "n ( ,!resa1 
to :om ^! became kn[n1 b ( :i* %e _h    
nev] m5tion$ to me a ^w4 ,! debts to be 
paid hurt me mu* less ?an ! secret t _h 
be5 made ( !m4  ,h[ c\ld %e1 = :om ,i _h
 nev] _h a secret1 h "o f me8  ,is x    
possible to dissimulate ) p]sons :om we 
love8  ,! ',cot]ie ,holba*ique'1 :o f\nd
 ,i nev] made a j\rney to ,p>is1 began  
s]i\sly to be afraid ,i 0 happy &       
satisfi$ 9 ! c\ntry1 & madman en\gh to  
reside !re4  ,h5ce ! cabals by :i*      

attempts 7 made to recall me indirectly 
to ! city4  ,did]ot1 :o did n imm$iately
 wi% to %[ himself1 began by deta*+ f me
 ,de ,leyre1 :om ,i _h br\ght acqua9t$ )
 him1 & :o receiv$ & transmitt$ to me ! 
impressions ,did]ot *ose to give )\t    
suspect+ to :at end !y 7 direct$4       
,ev]y?+ seem$ to concur 9 )draw+ me f my
 *>m+ & mad rev]ie4  ,i 0 n recov]$ f ! 
late attack ,i _h :5 ,i receiv$ ! copy (
 ! poem on ! de/ruction ( ,lisbon1 :i*  
,i imag9$ to be s5t by ! au?or4  ,?is   
made x necess>y ,i %\ld write to him &  
speak ( 8 composition4  ,i did s1 & my  
lett] 0 a long "t aft]w>ds pr9t$ )\t my 
cons5t1 z ,i %all h]eaft] h occasion to 
rem>k4  ,/ruck by see+ ?is poor man     
ov]:elm$1 if ,i may s speak1 ) prosp]ity
 & honor1 bitt]ly exclaim+ aga9/ !      
mis]ies ( ?is life1 & f9d+ ev]y?+ to be 
wrong1 ,i =m$ ! mad project ( mak+ him  
turn 8 att5tion to himself1 & ( prov+ to
 him t ev]y?+ 0 "r4  ,voltaire1 :ile he 
appe>$ to believe 9 ,god1 nev] really   
believ$ 9 any?+ b ! devil2 s9ce 8       

pret5d$ deity is a malici\s be+1 :o1    
accord+ to him1 _h no pleasure b 9 evil4
  ,! gl>+ absurdity ( ?is doctr9e is    
p>ticul>ly disgu/+ f a man enjoy+ !     
greate/ prosp]ity2 :o1 f ! bosom (      
happ9ess1 endeavors1 by ! frightful &   
cruel image ( all ! calamities f :i* he 
is exempt1 to r$uce 8 fell[ creatures to
 despair4  ,i1 :o _h a bett] "r ?an he  
to calculate & weigh all ! evils ( human
 life1 imp>tially exam9e !m1 & prov$ to 
him t ( all possible evils !re 0 n "o to
 be attribut$ to ,provid5ce1 & :i* _h n 
its s\rce r 9 ! abusive use man made ( 8
 faculties ?an 9 nature4  ,i treat$ him1
 9 ?is lett]1 ) ! greate/ respect &     
delicacy possible4  ,yet1 kn[+ 8        
self-love to be extremely irritable1 ,i 
did n s5d ! lett] imm$iately to himself1
 b to ,doctor ,tron*91 8 physician &    
fri5d1 ) full p[] ei!r to give x him or 
de/roy x4  ,voltaire in=m$ me 9 a few   
l9es t be+ ill1 hav+ likewise ! c>e ( a 
sick p]son1 he po/pon$ 8 answ] until "s 
future day1 & said n a ^w on ! subject4 

,tron*91 :5 he s5t me ! lett]1 inclos$ 9
 x ano!r1 9 :i* he express$ b v little  
e/eem = ! p]son f :om he receiv$ x4  ,i 
h nev] publi%$1 nor ev5 %[n1 ei!r ( ^!  
two lett]s1 n lik+ to make a p>ade ( su*
 little triumphs2 b ! orig9als are 9 my 
collections4  ,s9ce t "t ,voltaire has  
publi%$ ! answ] he promis$ me1 b :i* ,i 
nev] receiv$4  ,?is is ! novel (        
',c&ide'1 ( :i* ,i _c speak because ,i h
 n read x4  ,all ^! int]ruptions ought  
to h cur$ me ( my fanta/ic am\rs1 & !y 7
 p]haps ! means (f]$ me by ,heav5 to    
prev5t _! de/ructive consequ5ces2 b my  
evil g5ius prevail$1 & ,i _h sc>cely    
begun to g out be=e my he>t1 my head1 & 
my feet return$ to ! same pa?s4  ,i say 
! same 9 c]ta9 respects2 = my ideas1 r  
less exalt$1 rema9$ ?is "t ^u e>?1 b yet
 7 busi$ 9 mak+ s exquisite a *oice (   
all t 0 to be f\nd !re amiable ( e k9d1 
t x 0 n mu* less *im]ical ?an ! imag9>y 
_w ,i _h ab&on$4  ,i figur$ to myself   
love & fri5d%ip1 ! two idols ( my he>t1 
"u ! mo/ ravi%+ images4  ,i amus$ myself

 9 adorn+ !m ) all ! *>ms ( ! sex ,i _h 
always ador$4  ,i imag9$ two female     
fri5ds r ?an two ( my own sex1 because1 
al?\gh ! example be m r>e1 x is also m  
amiable4  ,i end[$ !m ) diff]5t *>act]s1
 b analog\s to _! connection1 ) two     
faces1 n p]fectly beautiful1 b accord+  
to my ta/e1 & animat$ ) b5evol5ce &     
s5sibility4  ,i made "o br[n & ! o!r    
fair1 "o lively & ! o!r langui%+1 "o    
wise & ! o!r weak1 b ( s amiable a      
weakness t x seem$ to add a *>m to      
virtue4  ,i gave to "o ( ! two a lov]1 (
 :om ! o!r 0 ! t5d] fri5d1 & ev5 some?+ 
m1 b ,i did n admit ei!r rivalry1       
qu>rels1 or jeal\sy3 because e pa9ful   
s5tim5t is pa9ful = me to imag9e1 & ,i 0
 unwill+ to t>ni% ?is delightful picture
 by any?+ :i* 0 degrad+ to nature4      
,smitt5 ) my two *>m+ models1 ,i drew my
 own portrait 9 ! lov] & ! fri5d1 z mu* 
z x 0 possible to d x2 b ,i made him "y 
& amiable1 giv+ him1 at ! same "t1 !    
virtues & ! defects :i* ,i felt 9       
myself4  ,t ,i might place my *>act]s 9 

a resid5ce prop] = !m1 ,i successively  
pass$ 9 review ! mo/ beautiful places ,i
 _h se5 9 my travels4  ,b ,i f\nd no    
grove suffici5tly delightful1 no l&scape
 t pleas$ me4  ,! valleys ( ,!ssaly w\ld
 h satisfi$ me _h ,i b once _h a sight (
 !m2 b my imag9ation1 fatigu$ )         
inv5tion1 wi%$ = "s real place :i* might
 s]ve x z a po9t to re/ ^u1 & create 9  
me an illusion ) respect to ! real      
exi/5ce ( ! inhabitants ,i int5d$ to    
place !re4  ,i ?\ght a good :ile ^u !   
,boromean ,isl&s1 ! delightful prospect 
( :i* _h transport$ me1 b ,i f\nd 9 !m  
too mu* art & ornam5t = my lov]s4  ,i   
h[ev] want$ a lake1 & ,i conclud$ by    
mak+ *oice ( t ab\t :i* my he>t has nev]
 ceas$ to w&]4  ,i fix$ myself ^u t "p (
 ! banks ( ?is lake :]e my wi%es h long 
s9ce plac$ my resid5ce 9 ! imag9>y      
happ9ess to :i* fate has conf9$ me4  ,! 
native place ( my poor mamma _h /ill =  
me a *>m4  ,! contra/ ( ! situations1 ! 
ri*ness & v>iety ( ! sites1 !           
magnific5ce1 ! maje/y ( ! :ole1 :i*     

ravi%es ! s5ses1 affects1 ! he>t1 &     
elevates ! m9d1 det]m9$ me to give x !  
pref]5ce1 & ,i plac$ my "y pupils at    
,v]vey4  ,?is is :at ,i imag9$ at ! fir/
 sket*2 ! re/ 0 n add$ until aft]w>ds4  
,i = a long "t conf9$ myself to ?is     
vague plan1 because x 0 suffici5t to    
fill my imag9ation ) agreeable objects1 
& my he>t ) s5tim5ts 9 :i* x delight$4  
,^! fictions1 by frequ5tly pres5t+      
!mselves1 at l5g? ga9$ a consi/5ce1 &   
took 9 my m9d a det]m9$ =m4  ,i !n _h an
 incl9ation to express ^u pap] "s ( !   
situations fancy pres5t$ to me1 &1      
recollect+ ev]y?+ ,i _h felt dur+ my    
y\?1 ?us1 9 "s measure1 gave an object  
to t desire ( lov+1 :i* ,i _h nev] be5  
able to satisfy1 & by :i* ,i felt myself
 consum$4  ,i fir/ wrote a few incoh]5t 
lett]s1 & :5 ,i aft]w>ds wi%$ to give !m
 connection1 ,i frequ5tly f\nd a        
difficulty 9 do+ x4  ,:at is sc>cely    
cr$ible1 al?\gh mo/ /rictly true1 is my 
hav+ writt5 ! fir/ two p>ts almo/ :olly 
9 ?is mann]1 )\t hav+ any plan =m$1 & n 

=esee+ ,i %\ld "o day be tempt$ to make 
x a regul> "w4  ,= ?is reason ! two p>ts
 aft]w>ds =m$ ( mat]ials n prep>$ = !   
place 9 :i* !y are dispos$1 are full (  
unmean+ expressions n f\nd 9 ! o!rs4  ,9
 ! mid/ ( my rev]ies ,i _h a visit f    
,madam d',h\detot1 ! fir/ %e _h ev] made
 me1 b :i* un=tunately 0 n ! la/1 z w   
h]eaft] appe>4  ,! ,comtesse d',h\detot 
0 ! daught] ( ! late ,m4 de ,belleg>de1 
a f>m]-g5]al1 si/] to ,m4 d',ep9ay1 &   
,messieurs de ,lalive & ,de la ,bri*e1  
bo? ( :om h s9ce be5 introductors to    
ambassadors4  ,i h spok5 ( ! acqua9tance
 ,i made ) h] be=e %e 0 m>ri$3 s9ce t   
ev5t ,i _h n se5 h]1 except at ! fetes  
at ,la ,*evrette1 ) ,madam d',ep9ay1 h] 
si/]-9-law4  ,hav+ frequ5tly pass$      
sev]al days ) h]1 bo? at ,la ,*evrette &
 ,ep9ay1 ,i always ?\ght h] amiable1 & t
 %e seem$ to be my well-wi%]4  ,%e 0    
fond ( walk+ ) me2 we 7 bo? good walk]s1
 & ! conv]sation betwe5 u 0             
inexhau/ible4  ,h[ev]1 ,i nev] w5t to   
see h] 9 ,p>is1 al?\gh %e _h sev]al     

times reque/$ & solicit$ me to d x4  ,h]
 connections ) ,m4 de ,/4 ,lamb]t1 ) :om
 ,i began to be intimate1 r5d]$ h] m    
int]e/+ to me1 & x 0 to br+ me "s acc\nt
 ( t fri5d :o 01 ,i believe1 !n at      
,mahon1 t %e came to see me at !        
,h]mitage4  ,?is visit _h some?+ ( !    
appe>ance ( ! beg9n+ ( a romance4 ,%e   
lo/ h] way4  ,h] coa*man1 quitt+ ! road1
 :i* turn$ to ! "r1 attempt$ to cross   
/raight ov] f ! mill ( ,clairvaux to !  
,h]mitage3 h] c>riage /uck 9 a quagmire 
9 ! bottom ( ! valley1 & %e got out &   
walk$ ! re/ ( ! road4  ,h] delicate %oes
 7 soon worn ?r\gh2 %e sunk into ! dirt1
 h] s]vants _h ! greate/ difficulty 9   
extricat+ h]1 & %e at l5g? arriv$ at !  
,h]mitage 9 boots1 mak+ ! place res\nd )
 h] laught]1 9 :i* ,i mo/ he>tily jo9$4 
,%e _h to *ange ev]y?+4  ,!resa provid$ 
h] ) :at 0 necess>y1 & ,i prevail$ ^u h]
 to =get h] dignity & p>take ( a ru/ic  
collation1 ) :i* %e seem$ highly        
satisfi$4  ,x 0 late1 & h] /ay 0 %ort2 b
 ! int]view 0 s mir?ful t x pleas$ h]1 &

 %e seem$ dispos$ to return4  ,%e did n 
h[ev] put ?is project into execution    
until ! next ye>3 b1 alas6  ! delay 0 n 
favorable to me 9 any?+4  ,i pass$ !    
autumn 9 an employm5t no p]son w\ld     
suspect me ( und]tak+3 ?is 0 gu>d+ !    
fruit ( ,m4 d',ep9ay4  ,! ,h]mitage 0 ! 
res]voir ( ! wat]s ( ! p>k ( !          
,*evrette2 !re 0 a g>d5 wall$ r\nd &    
plant$ ) espali]s & o!r trees1 :i*      
produc$ ,m4 d',ep9ay m fruit ?an 8      
kit*5-g>d5 at ! ,*evrette1 al?\gh       
?ree-f\r?s ( x 7 /ol5 f him4  ,t ,i     
might n be a gue/ entirely useless1 ,i  
took ^u myself ! direction ( ! g>d5 & ! 
inspection ( ! conduct ( ! g>d5]4       
,ev]y?+ w5t on well until ! fruit       
season1 b z ?is became ripe1 ,i obs]v$ t
 x disappe>$ )\t kn[+ 9 :at mann] x 0   
dispos$ (4  ,! g>d5] assur$ me x 0 !    
dormice :i* eat x all4  ,i de/roy$ a    
great numb] ( ^! animals1 not)/&+ :i* ! 
fruit /ill dim9i%$4  ,i wat*$ ! g>d5]'s 
motions s n>r[ly1 t ,i f\nd he 0 ! great
 dorm\se4  ,he lodg$ at ,montmor5cy1    

:5ce he came 9 ! night ) 8 wife & *ildr5
 to take away ! fruit he _h conceal$ 9 !
 daytime1 & :i* he sold 9 ! m>ket at    
,p>is z publicly z if he _h br\ght x f a
 g>d5 ( 8 own4  ,! wret* :om ,i load$ ) 
k9dness1 ^: *ildr5 7 clo!d by ,!resa1 & 
^: fa!r1 :o 0 a begg>1 ,i almo/         
support$1 robb$ u ) z mu* ease z        
effront]y1 n "o ( ! ?ree be+ suffici5tly
 vigilant to prev5t him3 & "o night he  
empti$ my cell>4  ,:il/ he seem$ to     
address himself to me only1 ,i suff]$   
ev]y?+1 b be+ desir\s ( giv+ an acc\nt (
 ! fruit1 ,i 0 oblig$ to decl>e by :om a
 great "p ( x _h be5 /ol54  ,madam      
d',ep9ay desir$ me to pay & dis*>ge him1
 & look out = ano!r2 ,i did s4 ,z ?is   
rascal rambl$ ab\t ! ,h]mitage 9 !      
night1 arm$ ) a ?ick club /aff ) an iron
 f]rule1 & accompani$ by o!r villa9s l  
himself1 to relieve ! gov]nesses f _!   
fe>s1 ,i made 8 successor sleep 9 ! h\se
 ) u2 & ?is n be+ suffici5t to remove _!
 appreh5sions1 ,i s5t to ask ,m4        
d',ep9ay = a musket1 :i* ,i kept 9 !    

*amb] ( ! g>d5]1 ) a *>ge n to make use 
( x except an attempt 0 made to break   
op5 ! door or scale ! walls ( ! g>d51 & 
to fire no?+ b p[d]1 mean+ only to      
fright5 ! ?ieves4  ,?is 0 c]ta9ly ! lea/
 precaution a man indispos$ c\ld take = 
! common safety ( himself & family1 hav+
 to pass ! w9t] 9 ! mid/ ( a wood1 ) two
 timid wom54  ,i also procur$ a little  
dog to s]ve z a s5t9el4  ,de ,leyre com+
 to see me ab\t ?is "t1 ,i relat$ to him
 my situation1 & we laugh$ toge!r at my 
milit>y app>atus4  ,at 8 return to ,p>is
 he wi%$ to amuse ,did]ot ) ! /ory1 & by
 ?is means ! ',cot]ie d',holba*ique'    
le>n$ t ,i 0 s]i\sly resolv$ to pass !  
w9t] at ! ,h]mitage4  ,?is p]sev]ance1 (
 :i* !y _h n imag9$ me to be capable1   
disconc]t$ !m1 &1 until !y c\ld ?9k ( "s
 o!r means ( mak+ my resid5ce           
disagreeable to me1 !y s5t back1 by     
means ( ,did]ot1 ! same ,de ,leyre1 :o1 
?\gh at fir/ he _h ?\ght my precautions 
q natural1 n[ pret5d$ to discov] t !y 7 
inconsi/5t ) my pr9ciples1 & /yl$ !m m  

?an ridicul\s 9 8 lett]s1 9 :i* he      
ov]:elm$ me ) pleasantries suffici5tly  
bitt] & satirical to (f5d me _h ,i be5 !
 lea/ dispos$ to take (f5ce4  ,b at t "t
 be+ full ( t5d] & affectionate         
s5tim5ts1 & n susceptible ( any o!r1 ,i 
p]ceiv$ 9 8 bit+ s>casms no?+ m ?an a   
je/1 & believ$ him only jocose :5 o!rs  
w\ld h ?\ght him mad4  ,by my c>e &     
vigilance ,i gu>d$ ! g>d5 s well1 t1    
al?\gh !re _h be5 b little fruit t ye> !
 produce 0 triple t ( ! prec$+ ye>s2 x  
is true1 ,i sp>$ no pa9s to pres]ve x1 &
 ,i w5t s f> z to escort :at ,i s5t to !
 ,*evrette & to ,ep9ay1 & to c>ry       
baskets ( x myself4  ,! aunt & ,i c>ri$ 
"o ( ^!1 :i* 0 s heavy t we 7 oblig$ to 
re/ at e doz5 /eps1 & :i* we arriv$ ) x 
we 7 q wet ) p]spiration4  ,z soon z !  
bad season began to conf9e me to ! h\se1
 ,i wi%$ to return to my indol5t        
amusem5ts1 b ?is ,i f\nd impossible4  ,i
 _h ev]y:]e two *>m+ female fri5ds be=e 
my eyes1 _! fri5d1 ev]y?+ by :i* !y 7   
surr\nd$1 ! c\ntry !y inhabit$1 & !     

objects creat$ or embelli%$ = !m by my  
imag9ation4  ,i 0 no long] myself = a   
mom5t1 my delirium nev] left me4  ,aft] 
_m useless ef=ts to bani% all fictions f
 my m9d1 !y at l5g? s$uc$ me1 & my      
future endeavors 7 conf9$ to giv+ !m    
ord] & coh]5ce1 = ! purpose ( conv]t+ !m
 into a species ( novel4  ,:at emb>rass$
 me mo/ 01 t ,i _h contradict$ myself s 
op5ly & fully4  ,aft] ! sev]e pr9ciples 
,i _h j s publicly ass]t$1 aft] ! au/]e 
maxims ,i _h s l\dly prea*$1 & my viol5t
 invectives aga9/ books1 :i* brea!d no?+
 b effem9acy & love1 c\ld any?+ be less 
expect$ or m extraord9>y1 ?an to see me1
 ) my own h&1 write my "n 9 ! li/ (     
au?ors ( ^? books ,i _h s sev]ely       
c5sur$8  ,i felt ?is incoh]5ce 9 all its
 ext5t4  ,i reproa*$ myself ) x1 ,i     
blu%$ at x & 0 vex$2 b all ?is c\ld n   
br+ me back to reason4  ,completely     
ov]come1 ,i 0 at all risks oblig$ to    
submit1 & to resolve to brave ! ,:at w !
 _w say ( x8  ,except only delib]at+    
aft]w>ds :e!r or n ,i %\ld %[ my "w1 =  

,i did n yet suppose ,i %\ld ev] det]m9e
 to publi% x4  ,?is resolution tak51 ,i 
entirely ab&on$ myself to my rev]ies1 &1
 by frequ5tly resolv+ ^! 9 my m9d1 =m$ )
 !m ! k9d ( plan ( :i* ! execution has  
be5 se54  ,?is 0 c]ta9ly ! greate/      
advantage t c\ld be drawn f my follies2 
! love ( good :i* has nev] once be5     
effac$ f my he>t1 turn$ !m t[>ds useful 
objects1 ! moral ( :i* might h produc$  
its good effects4 ,my voluptu\s         
descriptions w\ld h lo/ all _! graces1  
_h !y be5 devoid ( ! color+ ( innoc5ce4 
,a weak girl is an object ( pity1 :om   
love may r5d] int]e/+1 & :o frequ5tly is
 n !re=e ! less amiable2 b :o c see )\t 
indignation ! mann]s ( ! age2 & :at is m
 disgu/+ ?an ! pride ( an un*a/e wife1  
:o1 op5ly tread+ "u foot e duty1 pret5ds
 t h] husb& ought to be grateful = h]   
unwill+ness to suff] h]self to be tak5 9
 ! fact8  ,p]fect be+s are n 9 nature1 &
 _! examples are n ne> en\gh to u4  ,b  
:oev] says t ! description ( a "y p]son 
born ) good dispositions1 & a he>t      

equally t5d] & virtu\s1 :o suff]s       
h]self1 :5 a girl1 to be ov]come by     
love1 & :5 a woman1 has resolution en\gh
 to conqu] 9 h] turn1 is ^u ! :ole      
sc&al\s & useless1 is a li> & a         
hypocrite2 he>k5 n to him4  ,besides ?is
 object ( morality & conjugal *a/ity :i*
 is radically connect$ ) all social     
ord]1 ,i _h 9 view "o m secret 9 behalf 
( concord & public peace1 a great]1 &   
p]haps m important object 9 itself1 at  
lea/ = ! mom5t = :i* x 0 creat$4  ,!    
/orm br\ght on by ! ',encyclop$ie'1 f> f
 be+ appeas$1 0 at ! "t at its height4  
,two p>ties exasp]at$ aga9/ ea* o!r to !
 la/ degree ( fury soon resembl$ enrag$ 
wolves1 set on = _! mutual de/ruction1 r
 ?an ,*ri/ians & philosoph]s1 :o _h a   
reciprocal wi% to enlight5 & conv9ce ea*
 o!r1 & lead _! bre?r5 to ! way ( tru?4 
,p]haps no?+ m 0 want+ to ea* p>ty ?an a
 few turbul5t *iefs1 :o possess$ a      
little p[]1 to make ?is qu>rel t]m9ate 9
 a civil w>2 & ,god only kn[s :at a     
civil w> ( religion f\nd$ on ea* side ^u

 ! mo/ cruel intol]ance w\ld h produc$4 
,naturally an enemy to all _s ( p>ty1 ,i
 _h freely spok5 sev]e tru?s to ea*1 (  
:i* !y _h n li/5$4 ,i ?\ght ( ano!r     
exp$i5t1 :i*1 9 my simplicity1 appe>$ to
 me admirable3 ?is 0 to abate _!        
reciprocal hatr$ by de/roy+ _!          
prejudices1 & %[+ to ea* p>ty ! virtue &
 m]it :i* 9 ! o!r 0 wor?y ( public e/eem
 & respect4  ,?is project1 little       
rem>kable = its wisdom1 :i* support$    
s9c]ity 9 mank9d1 & :]eby ,i fell into !
 error ) :i* ,i reproa*$ ! ,abbe de     
,sa9t ,pi]re1 _h ! success t 0 to be    
expect$ f x3 ,x drew toge!r & unit$ !   
p>ties = no o!r purpose ?an t ( cru%+ ! 
au?or4  ,until exp]i5ce made me discov] 
my folly1 ,i gave my att5tion to x ) a  
zeal wor?y ( ! motive by :i* ,i 0       
inspir$2 & ,i imag9$ ! two *>act]s (    
,wolm> & ,julia 9 an ec/asy1 :i* made me
 hope to r5d] !m bo? amiable1 &1 :at is 
/ill m1 by means ( ea* o!r4  ,satisfi$ )
 hav+ made a r\gh sket* ( my plan1 ,i   
return$ to ! situations 9 detail1 :i* ,i

 _h m>k$ out2 & f ! arrangem5t ,i gave  
!m result$ ! fir/ two p>ts ( ! ,eloisa1 
:i* ,i f9i%$ dur+ ! w9t] ) inexpressible
 pleasure1 procur+ gilt-pap] to receive 
a fair copy ( !m1 azure & silv] p[d] to 
dry ! writ+1 & blue n>r[ ribbon to tack 
my %eets toge!r2 9 a ^w1 ,i ?\ght no?+  
suffici5tly elegant & delicate = my two 
*>m+ girls1 ( :om1 l ano!r ,pygmalion1  
,i became madly enam\r$4  ,e ev5+1 by ! 
fireside1 ,i read ! two p>ts to !       
gov]nesses4  ,! daught]1 )\t say+ a ^w1 
0 l myself mov$ to t5d]ness1 & we m+l$  
our sighs2 h] "m1 f9d+ !re 7 no         
complim5ts1 und]/ood no?+ ( ! matt]1    
rema9$ unmov$1 & at ! int]vals :5 ,i 0  
sil5t always repeat$3 ,sir1 t is v f9e4 
,madam d',ep9ay1 uneasy at my be+ alone1
 9 w9t]1 9 a solit>y h\se1 9 ! mid/ (   
woods1 (t5 s5t to inquire aft] my heal?4
  ,i nev] _h su* real pro(s ( h]        
fri5d%ip = me1 to :i* m9e nev] m fully  
answ]$4  ,x w\ld be wrong 9 me 7 n ,i1  
among ^! pro(s1 to make special m5tion (
 h] portrait1 :i* %e s5t me1 at ! same  

"t reque/+ in/ructions f me 9 :at mann] 
%e might h m9e1 pa9t$ by ,la ,t\r1 & :i*
 _h be5 %[n at ! exhibition4  ,i ought  
equally to speak ( ano!r pro( ( h]      
att5tion to me1 :i*1 al?\gh x be        
laughable1 is a feature 9 ! hi/ory ( my 
"*1 on acc\nt ( ! impression receiv$ f  
x4  ,"o day :5 x froze to an extreme    
degree1 9 op5+ a packet %e _h s5t me (  
sev]al ?+s ,i _h desir$ h] to pur*ase = 
me1 ,i f\nd a little "u-petticoat (     
,engli% flannel1 :i* %e told me %e _h   
worn1 & desir$ ,i w\ld make ( x an      
"u-wai/coat4  ,?is c>e1 m ?an fri5dly1  
appe>$ to me s t5d]1 & z if %e _h /ripp$
 h]self to clo! me1 t 9 my emotion ,i   
repeat$ly kiss$1 %$d+ te>s at ! same "t1
 bo? ! note & ! petticoat4 ,!resa ?\ght 
me mad4  ,x is s+ul> t ( all ! m>ks (   
fri5d%ip ,madam d',ep9ay ev] %[$ me ?is 
t\*$ me ! mo/1 & t ev] s9ce our rupture 
,i h nev] recollect$ x )\t be+ v s5sibly
 affect$4  ,i = a long "t pres]v$ h]    
little note1 & x w\ld /ill h be5 9 my   
possession _h n x %>$ ! fate ( my o!r   

notes receiv$ at ! same p]iod4  ,al?\gh 
my disord] !n gave me b little respite 9
 w9t]1 & a "p ( ! int]val 0 employ$ 9   
seek+ relief f pa91 ?is 0 /ill ^u ! :ole
 ! season :i* s9ce my resid5ce 9 ,france
 ,i _h pass$ ) mo/ pleasure &           
tranquillity4  ,dur+ f\r or five mon?s1 
:il/ ! bad wea!r %elt]$ me f !          
int]ruptions ( importunate visits1 ,i   
ta/$ to a great] degree ?an ,i _h ev]   
yet or h s9ce done1 ( t equal simple &  
indep5d5t life1 ! enjoym5t ( :i* /ill   
made x m desirable to me2 )\t any o!r   
company ?an ! two gov]nesses 9 reality1 
& ! two female c\s9s 9 idea4  ,x 0 !n   
especially t ,i daily congratulat$      
myself ^u ! resolution ,i _h _h ! good  
s5se to take1 unm9dful ( ! clamors ( my 
fri5ds1 :o 7 vex$ at see+ me deliv]$ f  
_! tyranny2 & :5 ,i he>d ( ! attempt ( a
 madman1 :5 ,de ,leyre & ,madam d',ep9ay
 spoke to me 9 lett]s ( ! tr\ble &      
agitation :i* reign$ 9 ,p>is1 h[ ?ankful
 0 ,i to ,heav5 = hav+ plac$ me at a    
di/ance f all su* spectacles ( horror & 

guilt4  ,^! w\ld h be5 cont9u$ &        
increas$ ! bili\s humor :i* ! sight (   
public disord]s _h giv5 me2 :il/ see+   
no?+ ar\nd me 9 my retirem5t b gay &    
pleas+ objects1 my he>t 0 :olly ab&on$  
to s5tim5ts :i* 7 amiable4  ,i rem>k "h 
) pleasure ! c\rse ( ! la/ peaceful     
mom5ts t 7 left me4  ,! spr+ succe$+ to 
?is w9t]1 :i* _h be5 s calm1 develop$ ! 
g]m ( ! mis=tunes ,i h yet to describe2 
9 ! tissue ( :i*1 alike int]val1 :]e9 ,i
 _h leisure to respite1 w n be f\nd4  ,i
 ?9k h[ev]1 ,i recollect1 t dur+ ?is    
int]val ( peace1 & 9 ! bosom ( my       
solitude1 ,i 0 n q undi/urb$ by !       
,holba*i5s4 ,did]ot /irr$ me up "s      
/rife1 & ,i am mu* deceiv$ if x 0 n 9 ! 
c\rse ( ?is w9t] t ! ',fils             
,naturel'--,natural ,son--( :i* ,i %all 
soon h occasion to speak1 made its      
appe>ance4 ,indep5d5tly ( ! causes :i*  
left me b few pap]s relative to t p]iod1
 ^? ev5 :i* ,i h be5 able to pres]ve are
 n v exact ) respect to dates4  ,did]ot 
nev] dat$ 8 lett]s--,madam d',ep9ay &   

,madam d' ,h\detot seldom dat$ !irs     
except ! day ( ! week1 & ,de ,leyre     
mo/ly conf9$ himself to ! same rules4   
,:5 ,i 0 desir\s ( putt+ ^! lett]s 9    
ord] ,i 0 oblig$ to supply :at 0 want+  
by guess+ at dates1 s unc]ta9 t ,i _c   
dep5d ^u !m4  ,unable !re=e to fix )    
c]ta9ty ! beg9n+ ( ^! qu>rels1 ,i pref] 
relat+ 9 "o subsequ5t article ev]y?+ ,i 
c recollect conc]n+ !m4  ,! return (    
spr+ _h increas$ my amor\s delirium1 & 9
 my melan*oly1 occasion$ by ! excess (  
my transports1 ,i _h compos$ = ! la/    
p>ts ( ,eloisa sev]al lett]s1 :]e9      
evid5t m>ks ( ! rapture 9 :i* ,i wrote  
!m are f\nd4  ,among/ o!rs ,i may quote 
^? f ! ,elysium1 & ! excursion ^u !     
lake1 :i*1 if my memory does n deceive  
me1 are at ! end ( ! f\r? "p4  ,:oev]1 9
 read+ ^! lett]s1 does n feel 8 he>t    
s(t5 & melt into ! t5d]ness by :i* !y 7 
dictat$1 ought to lay d[n ! book3 nature
 has refus$ him ! means ( judg+ (       
s5tim5t4  ,precisely at ! same "t ,i    
receiv$ a second un=ese5 visit f ,madam 

d',h\detot1 9 ! abs5ce ( h] husb&1 :o 0 
capta9 ( ! ,g5d>m>ie1 & ( h] lov]1 :o 0 
also 9 ! s]vice4  ,%e _h come to        
,eaubonne1 9 ! middle ( ! ,valley (     
,montmor5cy1 :]e %e _h tak5 a pretty    
h\se1 f !nce %e made a new excursion to 
! ,h]mitage4  ,%e came on horseback1 &  
dress$ 9 m5's clo!s4 ,al?\gh ,i am n v  
fond ( ?is k9d ( masqu]ade1 ,i 0 /ruck )
 ! romantic appe>ance %e made1 &1 =     
once1 x 0 ) love4  ,z ?is 0 ! fir/ &    
only "t 9 all my life1 ! consequ5ce (   
:i* w =ev] r5d] x t]rible to my         
remembrance1 ,i mu/ take ! p]mission to 
ent] into "s p>ticul>s on ! subject4  ,!
 ,c\ntess d',h\detot 0 ne>ly ?irty ye>s 
( age1 & n h&some2 h] face 0 m>k$ ) !   
smallpox1 h] complexion co>se1 %e 0     
%ort-sight$1 & h] eyes 7 r r\nd2 b %e _h
 f9e long black hair1 :i* hung d[n 9    
natural curls bel[ h] wai/2 h] figure 0 
agreeable1 & %e 0 at once bo? awkw>d &  
graceful 9 h] motions2 h] wit 0 natural 
& pleas+2 to ?is gayety1 he$lessness &  
+5u\sness 7 p]fectly suit$3 %e ab\nd$ 9 

*>m+ sallies1 aft] :i* %e s little      
s\ght1 t !y sometimes escap$ h] lips 9  
spite ( h]self4  ,%e possess$ sev]al    
agreeable tal5ts1 play$ ! h>psi*ord1    
danc$ well1 & wrote pleas+ poetry4  ,h] 
"* 0 angelic--?is 0 f\nd$ ^u a sweetness
 ( m9d1 & except prud5ce & =titude1     
conta9$ 9 x e virtue4  ,%e 0 besides s  
mu* to be dep5d$ ^u 9 all int]c\rse1 s  
fai?ful 9 society1 ev5 h] enemies 7 n "u
 ! necessity ( conceal+ f h] _! secrets4
  ,i mean by h] enemies ! m51 or r !    
wom51 by :om %e 0 n belov$2 = z to      
h]self %e _h n a he>t capable ( hatr$1 &
 ,i am ( op9ion ?is con=mity ) m9e      
greatly contribut$ t[>ds inspir+ me ) a 
passion = h]4  ,9 confid5ce ( ! mo/     
intimate fri5d%ip1 ,i nev] he>d h] speak
 ill ( p]sons :o 7 abs5t1 nor ev5 ( h]  
si/]-9-law4  ,%e c\ld nei!r conceal h]  
?\ghts f anyone1 nor disguise any ( h]  
s5tim5ts1 & ,i am p]suad$ %e spoke ( h] 
lov] to h] husb&1 z %e spoke ( him to h]
 fri5ds & acqua9tances1 & to ev]ybody   
)\t di/9ction ( p]sons4  ,:at prov$1    

beyond all mann] ( d\bt1 ! purity &     
s9c]ity ( h] nature 01 t subject to v   
extraord9>y abs5ces ( m9d1 & ! mo/      
laughable inconsid]at5ess1 %e 0 (t5     
guilty ( "s v imprud5t ones ) respect to
 h]self1 b nev] 9 ! lea/ (f5sive to any 
p]son :atsoev]4  ,%e _h be5 m>ri$ v "y &
 aga9/ h] incl9ations to ! ,comte       
d',h\detot1 a man ( fa%ion1 & a good    
(fic]2 b a man :o lov$ play & *icane1 :o
 0 n v amiable1 & :om %e nev] lov$4 ,%e 
f\nd 9 ,m4 de ,sa9t ,lamb]t all ! m]it (
 h] husb&1 ) m ageeeable qualities (    
m9d1 jo9$ ) virtue & tal5ts4  ,if any?+ 
9 ! mann]s ( ! age c be p>don$1 x is an 
atta*m5t :i* duration r5d]s m pure1 to  
:i* its effects d honor1 & :i* becomes  
cem5t$ by reciprocal e/eem4  ,x 0 a     
little f incl9ation1 z ,i am dispos$ to 
?9k1 b mu* m to please ,sa9t ,lamb]t1 t 
%e came to see me4  ,he _h reque/$ h] to
 d x1 & !re 0 reason to believe !       
fri5d%ip :i* began to be e/abli%$ betwe5
 u w\ld r5d] ?is society agreeable to   
all ?ree4  ,%e knew ,i 0 acqua9t$ ) _!  

connection1 & z %e c\ld speak to me )\t 
re/ra9t1 x 0 natural %e %\ld f9d my     
conv]sation agreeable4  ,%e came2 ,i saw
 h]2 ,i 0 intoxicat$ ) love )\t an      
object2 ?is intoxication fasc9at$ my    
eyes2 ! object fix$ itself ^u h]4  ,i   
saw my ,julia 9 ,madam d',h\detot1 & ,i 
soon saw no?+ b ,madam d',h\detot1 b )  
all ! p]fections ) :i* ,i _h j adorn$ ! 
idol ( my he>t4 ,to complete my delirium
 %e spoke to me ( ,sa9t ,lamb]t ) a     
fondness ( a passionate lov]4           
,contagi\s =ce ( love6 :ile li/5+ to h]1
 & f9d+ myself ne> h]1 ,i 0 seiz$ ) a   
delici\s trembl+1 :i* ,i _h nev] be=e   
exp]i5c$ :5 ne> to any p]son :atsoev]4  
,%e spoke1 & ,i felt myself affect$2 ,i 
?\ght ,i 0 no?+ m ?an int]e/$ 9 h]      
s5tim5ts1 :5 ,i p]ceiv$ ,i possess$ ^?  
:i* 7 simil>2 ,i drank freely ( !       
poison$ cup1 ( :i* ,i yet ta/$ no?+ m   
?an ! sweetness4  ,f9ally1 imp]ceptibly 
to u bo?1 %e inspir$ me = h]self ) all  
%e express$ = h] lov]4  ,alas6 x 0 v    
late 9 life1 & cruel 0 x to consume ) a 

passion n less viol5t ?an un=tunate = a 
woman ^: he>t 0 already 9 ! possession (
 ano!r4  ,not)/&+ ! extraord9>y emotions
 ,i _h felt :5 ne> to h]1 ,i did n at   
fir/ p]ceive :at _h happ5$ to me2 x 0 n 
until aft] h] dep>ture t1 wi%+ to ?9k ( 
,julia1 ,i 0 /ruck ) surprise at be+    
unable to ?9k ( any?+ b ,madam d'       
,h\detot4 ,!n 0 x my eyes 7 op5$3 ,i    
felt my mis=tune1 & lam5t$ :at _h       
happ5$1 b ,i did n =esee ! consequ5ces4 
,i hesitat$ a long "t on ! mann] 9 :i*  
,i %\ld conduct myself t[>ds h]1 z if   
real love left beh9d x suffici5t reason 
to delib]ate & act accord+ly4  ,i _h n  
yet det]m9$ ^u ?is :5 %e unexpect$ly    
return$ & f\nd me unprovid$4  ,x 0 ?is  
"t1 p]fectly acqua9t$ ) my situation1   
%ame1 ! companion ( evil1 r5d]$ me dumb1
 & made me tremble 9 h] pres5ce2 ,i     
nei!r d>$ to op5 my m\? or raise my     
eyes2 ,i 0 9 an inexpressible confusion 
:i* x 0 impossible %e %\ld n p]ceive4   
,i resolv$ to confess to h] my tr\bl$   
/ate ( m9d1 & left h] to guess ! cause  

:5ce x proce$$3 ?is 0 tell+ h] 9 t]ms   
suffici5tly cle>4  ,_h ,i be5 "y &      
amiable1 & ,madam d' ,h\detot1 aft]w>ds 
weak1 ,i %\ld "h blame h] conduct2 b ?is
 0 n ! case1 & ,i am oblig$ to applaud &
 admire x4  ,! resolution %e took 0     
equally prud5t & g5]\s4  ,%e c\ld n     
sudd5ly break ) me )\t giv+ h] reasons =
 x to ,sa9t ,lamb]t1 :o himself _h      
desir$ h] to come & see me2 ?is w\ld h  
expos$ two fri5ds to a rupture1 & p]haps
 a public "o1 :i* %e wi%$ to avoid4  ,%e
 _h = me e/eem & good wi%es2 %e piti$ my
 folly )\t enc\rag+ x1 & endeavor$ to   
re/ore me to reason4  ,%e 0 glad to     
pres]ve to h] lov] & h]self a fri5d =   
:om %e _h "s respect2 & %e spoke ( no?+ 
) m pleasure ?an ! intimate & agreeable 
society we might =m betwe5 u ?ree !     
mom5t ,i %\ld become reasonable4 ,%e did
 n always conf9e h]self to ^! fri5dly   
exhortations1 &1 9 case ( ne$1 did n    
sp>e me m sev]e reproa*es1 :i* ,i _h    
ri*ly des]v$4  ,i sp>$ myself /ill less3
 ! mom5t ,i 0 alone ,i began to recov]2 

,i 0 m calm aft] my decl>ation--love1   
kn[n to ! p]son by :om x is inspir$1    
becomes m supportable4  ,! =cible mann] 
9 :i* ,i approa*$ myself ) m9e1 ought to
 h cur$ me ( x _h ! ?+ be5 possible4    
,:at p[]ful motives did ,i n call to my 
m9d to /ifle x8  ,my morals1 s5tim5ts & 
pr9ciples2 ! %ame1 ! trea*]y & crime1 ( 
abus+ :at 0 confid$ to fri5d%ip1 & !    
ridicul\sness ( burn+1 at my age1 ) !   
mo/ extravagant passion = an object ^:  
he>t 0 pre5gag$1 & :o c\ld nei!r make me
 a return1 nor lea/ hope2 moreov] ) a   
passion :i*1 f> f hav+ any?+ to ga9 by  
con/ancy1 daily became less suff]able4  
,we w\ld imag9e t ! la/ consid]ation :i*
 ought to h add$ weight to all ! o!rs1 0
 t :]eby ,i elud$ !m6  ,:at scruple1    
?\ght ,i1 ought ,i to make ( a folly    
prejudicial to nobody b myself8 ,am ,i  
!n a "y man ( :om ,madam d',h\detot     
ought to be afraid8  ,w\ld n x be said  
by my presumptive remorse t1 by my      
gallantry1 mann] & dress1 ,i 0 go+ to   
s$uce h]8  ,poor ,jean ,jacques1 love on

 at ?y ease1 9 all safety ( consci5ce1 &
 be n afraid t ?y sighs w be prejudicial
 to ,sa9t ,lamb]t4  ,x has be5 se5 t ,i 
nev] 0 a coxcomb1 n ev5 9 my y\?4  ,!   
mann] ( ?9k+1 ( :i* ,i h spok51 0       
accord+ to my turn ( m9d1 x flatt]$ my  
passions2 ?is1 0 suffici5t to induce me 
to ab&on myself to x )\t res]ve1 & to   
laugh ev5 at ! imp]t95t scruple ,i ?\ght
 ,i _h made f vanity1 r ?an f reason4   
,?is is a great lesson = virtu\s m9ds1  
:i* vice nev] attacks op5ly2 x f9ds     
means to surprise !m by mask+ itself )  
sophisms1 & n unfrequ5tly ) a virtue4   
,guilty )\t remorse1 ,i soon became s   
)\t measure2 & ,i entreat x may be      
obs]v$ 9 :at mann] my passion foll[$ my 
nature1 at l5g? to plunge me into an    
abyss4  ,9 ! fir/ place1 x assum$ ! air 
( humility to enc\rage me2 & to r5d] me 
intrepid x c>ri$ ?is humility ev5 to    
mi/ru/4  ,madam d',h\detot incessantly  
putt+ 9 m9d ( my duty1 )\t once = a s+le
 mom5t flatt]+ my folly1 treat$ me ) !  
greate/ mildness1 & rema9$ ) me ^u !    

foot+ ( ! mo/ t5d] fri5d%ip4  ,?is      
fri5d%ip w\ld1 ,i prote/1 h satisfi$ my 
wi%es1 _h ,i ?\ght x s9c]e2 b f9d+ x too
 /rong to be real1 ,i took x into my    
head t love1 s ill-suit$ to my age &    
appe>ance1 _h r5d]$ me contemptible 9 ! 
eyes ( ,madam d',h\detot2 t ?is "y mad  
creature only wi%$ to div]t h]self ) me 
& my sup]annuat$ passion2 t %e _h       
communicat$ ?is to ,sa9t ,lamb]t2 & t ! 
indignation caus$ by my brea* (         
fri5d%ip1 hav+ made h] lov] ent] into h]
 views1 !y 7 agre$ to turn my head & !n 
to laugh at me4  ,?is folly1 :i* at     
tw5ty-six ye>s ( age1 _h made me guilty 
( "s extravagant behavior to ,madam de  
,l>nage1 :om ,i did n "k1 w\ld h be5    
p>donable 9 me at =ty-five ) ,madam d'  
,h\detot _h n ,i kn[n t %e & h] lov] 7  
p]sons ( too mu* uprightness to indulge 
!mselves 9 su* a b>b>\s amusem5t4       
,madam d' ,h\detot cont9u$ h] visits1   
:i* ,i delay$ n to return4 ,%e1 z well z
 myself1 0 fond ( walk+1 & we took long 
walks 9 an en*ant+ c\ntry4  ,satisfi$ ) 

lov+ & d>+ to say ,i lov$1 ,i %\ld h be5
 9 ! mo/ agreeable situation _h n my    
extravagance spoil$ all ! *>m ( x4  ,%e1
 at fir/1 c\ld n compreh5d ! fooli%     
petti%ness ) :i* ,i receiv$ h]          
att5tions2 b my he>t1 incapable (       
conceal+ :at pass$ 9 x1 did n long leave
 h] ignorant ( my suspicions2 %e        
endeavor$ to laugh at !m1 b ?is exp$i5t 
did n succe$2 transports ( rage w\ld h  
be5 ! consequ5ce1 & %e *ang$ h] tone4   
,h] compassionate g5tl5ess 0 inv9cible2 
%e made me reproa*es1 :i* p5etrat$ my   
he>t2 %e express$ an inquietude at my   
unju/ fe>s1 ( :i* ,i took advantage4 ,i 
requir$ pro(s ( h] be+ 9 e>ne/4  ,%e    
p]ceiv$ !re 0 no o!r means ( reliev+ me 
f my appreh5sions4  ,i became press+3 ! 
/ep 0 delicate4  ,x is a/oni%+1 & p]haps
 )\t example1 t a woman hav+ suff]$     
h]self to be br\ght to hesitate %\ld h  
got h]self (f s well4  ,%e refus$ me    
no?+ ! mo/ t5d] fri5d%ip c\ld grant2 yet
 %e grant$ me no?+ t r5d]$ h] unfai?ful1
 & ,i _h ! mortification to see t !     

disord] into :i* ! mo/ trifl+ favors _h 
?r[n all my s5ses _h n ! lea/ effect ^u 
h]s4  ,i h some:]e said1 t no?+ %\ld be 
grant$ to ! s5ses1 :5 we wi%$ to refuse 
!m any?+4  ,to prove h[ false ?is maxim 
0 relative to ,madam d' ,h\detot1 & h[  
f> %e 0 "r to dep5d ^u h] own /r5g? (   
m9d1 x w\ld be necess>y to ent] into !  
detail ( our long & frequ5t             
conv]sations1 & foll[ !m1 9 all _!      
livel9ess dur+ ! f\r mon?s we pass$     
toge!r 9 an intimacy almo/ )\t example  
betwe5 two fri5ds ( diff]5t sexes :o    
conta9 !mselves )9 ! b\nds :i* we nev]  
exce$$4  ,ah6 if ,i _h liv$ s long )\t  
feel+ ! p[] ( real love1 my he>t & s5ses
 abundantly paid ! arre>s4  ,:at1 !re=e1
 are ! transports we feel ) ! object (  
our affections by :om we are belov$1    
s9ce ! passions ( :i* my idol did n     
p>take inspir$ su* z ,i felt8  ,b ,i am 
wrong 9 say+ ,madam ,h\detot did n      
p>take ( ! passion ( love2 t :i* ,i felt
 0 9 "s measure conf9$ to myself2 yet   
love 0 equal on bo? sides1 b n          

reciprocal4  ,we 7 bo? intoxicat$ ) !   
passion1 %e = h] lov]1 & ,i = h]self2   
our sighs & delici\s te>s 7 m+l$ toge!r4
  ,t5d] confidants ( ! secrets ( ea*    
o!r1 !re 0 s great a simil>ity 9 our    
s5tim5ts t x 0 impossible !y %\ld n f9d 
"s common po9t ( union4  ,9 ! mid/ ( ?is
 delici\s intoxication1 %e nev] =got    
h]self = a mom5t1 & ,i solemnly prote/  
t1 if ev]1 l$ away by my s5ses1 ,i h    
attempt$ to r5d] h] unfai?ful1 ,i 0 nev]
 really desir\s ( succe$+4  ,! vehem5ce 
itself ( my passion re/ra9$ x )9 b\nds4 
,! duty ( self-d5ial _h elevat$ my m9d4 
,! lu/re ( e virture adorn$ 9 my eyes ! 
idol ( my he>t2 to h soil$ _! div9e     
image w\ld h be5 to de/roy x4  ,i might 
h committ$ ! crime2 x has be5 a hundr$  
times committ$ 9 my he>t2 b to di%onor  
my ,sophia6  ,ah6 0 ?is ev] possible8   
,no6 ,i h told h] a hundr$ times x 0 n4 
,_h ,i _h x 9 my p[] to satisfy my      
desires1 _h %e cons5t$ to commit h]self 
to my discretion1 ,i %\ld1 except 9 a   
few mom5ts ( delirium1 h refus$ to be   

happy at ! price ( h] honor4  ,i lov$ h]
 too well to wi% to possess h]4  ,!     
di/ance f ! ,h]mitage to ,raubonne is   
almo/ a league2 9 my frequ5t excursions 
to x ,i h sometimes slept !re4  ,"o ev5+
 aft] hav+ supp$ tete-a-tete we w5t to  
walk 9 ! g>d5 by a f9e moonlight4  ,at !
 bottom ( ! g>d5 a consid]able copse1   
?r\gh :i* we pass$ on our way to a      
pretty grove ornam5t$ ) a cascade1 ( :i*
 ,i _h giv5 h] ! idea1 & %e _h procur$ x
 to be execut$ accord+ly4  ,et]nal      
remembrance ( innoc5ce & enjoym5t6  ,x 0
 9 ?is grove t1 seat$ by h] side ^u a   
seat ( turf "u an acacia 9 full bloom1  
,i f\nd = ! emotions ( my he>t a        
language wor?y ( !m4 ,x 0 ! fir/ & only 
"t ( my life2 b ,i 0 sublime3 if ev]y?+ 
amiable & s$uc+ ) :i* ! mo/ t5d] & ard5t
 love c inspire ! he>t ( man c be s     
call$4  ,:at intoxicat+ te>s did ,i %$  
^u h] knees6 h[ _m did ,i make h] to %$ 
involunt>ily6  ,at l5g? 9 an involunt>y 
transport %e exclaim$3 ,no1 nev] 0 a man
 s amiable1 nor ev] 0 !re "o :o lov$ l  

y6  ,b y\r fri5d ,sa9t ,lamb]t he>s u1 &
 my he>t is incapable ( lov+ twice4  ,i 
exhau/$ myself ) sighs2 ,i embrac$      
h]--:at an embrace6  ,b ?is 0 all4  ,%e 
_h liv$ alone = ! la/ six mon?s1 t is   
abs5t f h] husb& & lov]2 ,i _h se5 h]   
almo/ e day dur+ ?ree mon?s1 & love     
seldom fail$ to make a ?ird4  ,we _h    
supp$ tete-a-tete1 we 7 alone1 9 ! grove
 by moonlight1 & aft] two h\rs ( ! mo/  
lively & t5d] conv]sation1 %e left ?is  
grove at midnight1 & ! arms ( h] lov]1 z
 morally & physically pure z %e _h ent]$
 x4  ,read]1 weigh all ^! circum/ances2 
,i w add no?+ m4  ,d n1 h[ev]1 imag9e t 
9 ?is situation my passions left me z   
undi/urb$ z ,i 0 ) ,!resa & mamma4  ,i h
 already obs]v$ ,i 0 ?is "t inspir$ n   
only ) love1 b ) love & all its en]gy & 
fury4  ,i w n describe ei!r !           
agitations1 trembl+s1 palpitations1     
convulsion>y emotions1 nor fa9t+s ( !   
he>t1 ,i cont9ually exp]i5c$2 ^! may be 
judg$ ( by ! effect h] image alone made 
^u me4  ,i h obs]v$ ! di/ance f !       

,h]mitage to ,eaubonne 0 consid]able2 ,i
 w5t by ! hills ( ,&illy1 :i* are       
delightful2 ,i mus$1 z ,i walk$1 on h]  
:om ,i 0 go+ to see1 ! *>m+ reception %e
 w\ld give me1 & ^u ! kiss :i* await$ me
 at my arrival4  ,?is s+le kiss1 ?is    
p]nici\s embrace1 ev5 be=e ,i receiv$ x1
 inflam$ my blood to su* a degree z to  
affect my head1 my eyes 7 dazzl$1 my    
knees trembl$1 & 7 unable to support me2
 ,i 0 oblig$ to /op & sit d[n2 my :ole  
frame 0 9 inconceivable disord]1 & ,i 0 
^u ! po9t ( fa9t+4  ,kn[+ ! dang]1 ,i   
endeavor$ at sett+ out to div]t my      
att5tion f ! object1 & ?9k ( some?+     
else4  ,i _h n proce$$ tw5ty /eps be=e !
 same recollection1 & all t 0 !         
consequ5ce ( x1 assail$ me 9 su* a mann]
 t x 0 impossible to avoid !m1 & 9 spite
 ( all my ef=ts ,i d n believe ,i ev]   
made ?is little excursion alone )       
impunity4  ,i arriv$ at ,eaubonne1 weak1
 exhau/$1 & sc>cely able to support     
myself4  ,! mom5t ,i saw h] ev]y?+ 0    
repair$2 all ,i felt 9 h] pres5ce 0 !   

importunity ( an inexhau/ible & useless 
ardor4  ,^u ! road to ,raubonne !re 0 a 
pleasant t]race call$ ,mont ,olympe1 at 
:i* we sometimes met4  ,i arriv$ fir/1 x
 0 prop] ,i %\ld wait = h]2 b h[ de> ?is
 wait+ co/ me6  ,to div]t my att5tion1  
,i endeavor$ to write ) my p5cil        
billets1 :i* ,i c\ld h writt5 ) ! pure/ 
drops ( my blood2 ,i nev] c\ld f9i% "o  
:i* 0 eligible4  ,:5 %e f\nd a note 9 ! 
ni*e ^u :i* we _h agre$1 all %e le>n$ f 
! cont5ts 0 ! deplorable /ate 9 :i* ,i 0
 :5 ,i wrote x4  ,?is /ate & its        
cont9uation1 dur+ ?ree mon?s (          
irritation & self-d5ial1 s exhau/$ me1 t
 ,i 0 sev]al ye>s be=e ,i recov]$ f x1 &
 at ! end ( ^! x left me an ailm5t :i*  
,i %all c>ry ) me1 or :i* w c>ry me to !
 grave4  ,su* 0 ! sole enjoym5t ( a man 
( ! mo/ combu/ible con/itution1 b :o 01 
at ! same "t1 p]haps1 "o ( ! mo/ timid  
mortals nature ev] produc$4  ,su* 7 !   
la/ happy days ,i c reckon ^u e>?2 at ! 
end ( ^! began ! long tra9 ( evils1 9   
:i* !re w be f\nd b little int]ruption4 

,x has be5 se5 t1 dur+ ! :ole c\rse ( my
 life1 my he>t1 z transp>5t z cry/al1   
has nev] be5 capable ( conceal+ = !     
space ( a mom5t any s5tim5t 9 ! lea/    
lively :i* _h tak5 refuge 9 x4  ,x w    
!re=e be judg$ :e!r or n x 0 possible = 
me long to conceal my affection = ,madam
 d',h\detot4  ,our intimacy /ruck ! eyes
 ( ev]ybody1 we did n make ( x ei!r a   
secret or a my/]y4  ,x 0 n ( a nature to
 require any su* precaution1 & z ,madam 
d',h\detot _h = me ! mo/ t5d] fri5d%ip )
 :i* %e did n reproa* h]self1 & ,i = h] 
an e/eem ) ! ju/ice ( :i* nobody 0 bett]
 acqua9t$ ?an myself2 %e frank1 abs5t1  
he$less2 ,i true1 awkw>d1 haughty1      
impati5t & *ol]ic2 ,we expos$ ourselves 
m 9 deceitful security ?an we %\ld h    
done _h we be5 culpable4  ,we bo? w5t to
 ! ,*evrette2 we sometimes met !re by   
appo9tm5t4  ,we liv$ !re accord+ to our 
accu/om$ mann]2 walk+ toge!r e day talk+
 ( our am\rs1 our duties1 our fri5d1 &  
our innoc5t projects2 all ?is 9 ! p>k   
opposite ! ap>tm5t ( ,madam d',ep9ay1 "u

 h] w9d[s1 :5ce incessantly exam9+ u1 & 
?9k+ h]self brav$1 %e by h] eyes fill$  
h] he>t ) rage & indignation4  ,wom5 h !
 art ( conceal+ _! ang]1 especially :5 x
 is great4  ,madam d',ep9ay1 viol5t b   
delib]ate1 possess$ ?is art to an em95t 
degree4  ,%e feign$ n to see or suspect 
any?+1 & at ! same "t t %e d\bl$ t[>ds  
me h] c>es1 att5tion1 & allurem5ts1 %e  
affect$ to load h] si/]-9-law )         
incivilities & m>ks ( disda91 :i* %e    
seem+ly wi%$ to communicate to me4 ,x w 
easily be imag9$ %e did n succe$2 b ,i 0
 on ! rack4 ,torn by opposite passions1 
at ! same "t t ,i 0 s5sible ( h]        
c>esses1 ,i c\ld sc>cely conta9 my ang] 
:5 ,i saw h] want+ 9 good mann]s to     
,madam d',h\detot4  ,! angelic sweetness
 ( ?is lady made h] endure ev]y?+ )\t   
compla9t1 or ev5 )\t be+ (f5d$4  ,%e 01 
9 fact1 s abs5t1 & always s little      
att5tive to ^! ?+s1 t half ! "t %e did n
 p]ceive !m4  ,i 0 s tak5 up ) my       
passion1 t1 see+ no?+ b ,sophia 7"o ( ! 
names ( ,madam d',h\detot71,i did n     

p]ceive t ,i 0 become ! laugh+-/ock ( ! 
:ole h\se1 & all ^? :o came to x4  ,!   
,b>on d',holba*1 :o nev]1 z ,i he>d (1  
_h be5 at ! ,*evrette1 0 "o ( ! latt]4  
,_h ,i at t "t be5 z mi/ru/ful z ,i am  
s9ce become1 ,i %\ld /rongly h suspect$ 
,madam d',ep9ay to h contriv$ ?is j\rney
 to give ! b>on ! amus+ spectacle ( an  
amor\s citiz54  ,b ,i 0 !n s /upid t ,i 
saw n t ev5 :i* 0 gl>+ to ev]ybody4  ,my
 /upidity did n1 h[ev]1 prev5t me f f9d+
 9 ! b>on a m jovial & satisfi$         
appe>ance ?an ord9>y4  ,in/ead ( look+  
^u me ) 8 usual moros5ess1 he said to me
 a hundr$ jocose ?+s )\t my kn[+ :at he 
meant4  ,surprise 0 pa9t$ 9 my          
c\nt5ance1 b ,i answ]$ n a ^w3 ,madam   
d',ep9ay %ook h] sides ) laugh+2 ,i knew
 n :at possess$ !m4 ,z no?+ yet pass$ ! 
b\nds ( pleasantry1 ! be/ ?+ ,i c\ld _h 
done1 _h ,i be5 9 ! secret1 w\ld h be5  
to h humor$ ! joke4  ,x is true ,i      
p]ceiv$ amid ! rally+ gayety ( ! b>on1 t
 8 eyes sp>kl$ ) a malici\s joy1 :i*    
c\ld h giv5 me pa9 _h ,i !n rem>k$ x to 

! degree x has s9ce occurr$ to my       
recollection4  ,"o day :5 ,i w5t to see 
,madam d',h\detot1 at ,eaubonne1 aft] h]
 return f "o ( h] j\rneys to ,p>is1 ,i  
f\nd h] melan*oly1 & obs]v$ t %e _h be5 
weep+4  ,i 0 oblig$ to put a re/ra9t on 
myself1 because ,madam de ,bla9ville1   
si/] to h] husb&1 0 pres5t2 b ! mom5t ,i
 f\nd an opportunity1 ,i express$ to h] 
my uneas9ess4 ,ah1 said %e1 ) a sigh1 ,i
 am mu* afraid y\r follies w co/ me !   
repose ( ! re/ ( my days4  ,/4 ,lamb]t  
has be5 in=m$ ( :at has pass$1 & ill    
in=m$ ( x4  ,he does me ju/ice1 b he is 
vex$2 & :at is /ill worse1 he conceals f
 me a "p ( 8 vexation4 ,=tunately ,i h n
 conceal$ f him any?+ relative to our   
connection :i* 0 =m$ "u 8 auspices4  ,my
 lett]s1 l my he>t1 7 full ( y\rself2 ,i
 made him acqua9t$ ) ev]y?+1 except y\r 
extravagant passion1 ( :i* ,i hop$ to   
cure y2 & :i* he imputes to me z a      
crime4  ,somebody has done u ill (fices4
  ,i h be5 injur$1 b :at does ?is       
signify8  ,ei!r let u entirely break )  

ea* o!r1 or d y be :at y ought to be4   
,i w n 9 future h any?+ to conceal f my 
lov]4  ,?is 0 ! fir/ mom5t 9 :i* ,i 0   
s5sible ( ! %ame ( feel+ myself humbl$  
by ! s5tim5t ( my fault1 9 pres5ce ( a  
"y woman ( ^: j reproa*es ,i approv$1 & 
to :om ,i ought to h be5 a m5tor4  ,!   
indignation ,i felt aga9/ myself w\ld1  
p]haps1 h be5 suffici5t to ov]come my   
weakness1 _h n ! t5d] passion inspir$ me
 by ! victim ( x1 aga9 s(t5$ my he>t4   
,alas6 0 ?is a mom5t to h>d5 x :5 x 0   
ov]fl[$ by ! te>s :i* p5etrat$ x 9 e "p8
  ,?is t5d]ness 0 soon *ang$ into rage  
aga9/ ! vile in=m]s1 :o _h se5 no?+ b ! 
evil ( a crim9al b involunt>y s5tim5t1  
)\t believ+ or ev5 imag9+ ! s9c]e       
uprightness ( he>t by :i* x 0 c\nt]act$4
  ,we did n rema9 long 9 d\bt ab\t ! h& 
by :i* ! bl[ 0 direct$4  ,we bo? knew t 
,madam d',ep9ay correspond$ ) ,/4       
,lamb]t4  ,?is 0 n ! fir/ /orm %e _h    
rais$ up aga9/ ,madam d',h\detot1 f :om 
%e _h made a ?\s& ef=ts to deta* h]     
lov]1 ! success ( "s ( :i* made !       

consequ5ces to be dread$4  ,besides1    
,grimm1 :o1 ,i ?9k1 _h accompani$ ,m4 de
 ,ca/ries to ! army1 0 9 ,we/phalia1 z  
well z ,sa9t ,lamb]t2 !y sometimes      
visit$4  ,grimm _h made "s attempts on  
,madam d',h\detot1 :i* _h n succe$$1 &  
be+ extremely piqu$1 sudd5ly discont9u$ 
8 visits to h]4  ,let x be judg$ ) :at  
calmness1 mode/ z he is kn[n to be1 he  
suppos$ %e pref]r$ to him a man old] ?an
 himself1 & ( :om1 s9ce he _h frequ5t$ !
 great1 he _h nev] spok5 b z a p]son :om
 he patroniz$4  ,my suspicions ( ,madam 
d',ep9ay 7 *ang$ into a c]ta9ty ! mom5t 
,i he>d :at _h pass$ 9 my own h\se4  ,:5
 ,i 0 at ! ,*evrette1 ,!resa frequ5tly  
came !re1 ei!r to br+ me lett]s or to   
pay me t att5tion :i* my ill /ate (     
heal? r5d]$ necess>y4  ,madam d',ep9ay  
_h ask$ h] if ,madam d',h\detot & ,i did
 n write to ea* o!r4  ,^u h] answ]+ 9 ! 
affirmative1 ,madam d',ep9ay press$ h]  
to give h] ! lett]s ( ,madam d',h\detot1
 assur+ h] t %e w\ld reseal !m 9 su* a  
mann] z x %\ld nev] be kn[n4  ,!resa1   

)\t %[+ h[ mu* %e 0 %ock$ at !          
proposition1 & )\t ev5 putt+ me ^u my   
gu>d1 did no?+ m ?an seal ! lett]s %e   
br\ght me m c>efully2 a lucky           
precaution1 = ,madam d',ep9ay _h h]     
wat*$ :5 %e arriv$1 &1 wait+ = h] 9 !   
passage1 sev]al times c>ri$ h]          
audaci\sness z f> z to exam9e h] tuck]4 
,%e did m ev5 ?an ?is3 hav+ "o day      
invit$ h]self ) ,m4 de ,m>g5cy to d9n]  
at ! ,h]mitage1 = ! fir/ "t s9ce ,i     
resid$ !re1 %e seiz$ ! mom5t ,i 0 walk+ 
) ,m>g5cy to g into my closet ) ! "m &  
daught]1 & to press !m to %[ h] ! lett]s
 ( ,madam d',h\detot4  ,_h ! "m kn[n :]e
 ! lett]s 71 !y w\ld h be5 giv5 to h]2  
=tunately1 ! daught] 0 ! only p]son :o 0
 9 ! secret1 & d5i$ my hav+ pres]v$ any 
"o ( !m4  ,a virtu\s1 fai?ful & g5]\s   
falsehood2 :il/ tru? w\ld h be5 a       
p]fidy4  ,madam d' ,ep9ay1 p]ceiv+      
,!resa 0 n to be s$uc$1 endeavor$ to    
irritate h] by jeal\sy1 reproa*+ h] ) h]
 easy temp] & bl9dness4  ,h[ is x       
possible1 said %e to h]1 y _c p]ceive   

!re is a crim9al int]c\rse betwe5 !m8   
,if besides :at /rikes y\r eyes y /& 9  
ne$ ( o!r pro(s1 l5d y\r assi/ance to   
obta9 t :i* may furni% !m2 y say he te>s
 ! lett]s f ,madam d',h\detot z soon z  
he has read !m4  ,well1 c>efully ga!r up
 ! pieces & give !m to me2 ,i w take ^u 
myself to put !m toge!r4  ,su* 7 !      
lessons my fri5d gave to ! p>tn] ( my   
b$4  ,!resa _h ! discretion to conceal f
 me1 = a consid]able "t1 all ^!         
attempts2 b p]ceiv+ h[ mu* ,i 0 p]plex$1
 %e ?\ght h]self oblig$ to in=m me (    
ev]y?+1 to ! end t kn[+ ) :om ,i _h to  
d1 ,i might take my measures accord+ly4 
,my rage & indignation are n to be      
describ$4  ,in/ead ( dissembl+ ) ,madam 
d',ep9ay1 accord+ to h] own example1 &  
mak+ use ( c\nt]plots1 ,i ab&on$ myself 
)\t res]ve to ! natural impetuosity ( my
 temp]2 & ) my accu/om$ inconsid]at5ess 
came to an op5 rupture4 ,my imprud5ce w 
be judg$ ( by ! foll[+ lett]s1 :i*      
suffici5tly %[ ! mann] ( proce$+ ( bo?  
p>ties on ?is occasion3  ,,note ,,f     

,,madam ,d',,ep9ay4 ,:y1 my de> fri5d1 d
 ,i n see y8  ,y make me uneasy4  ,y h s
 (t5 promis$ me to d no?+ b g & come    
betwe5 ?is place & ! ,h]mitage6  ,9 ?is 
,i h left y at lib]ty2 & y h suff]$ a   
week to pass )\t com+4  ,_h n ,i be5    
told y 7 well ,i %\ld h imag9$ !        
contr>y4  ,i expect$ y ei!r ! day be=e  
ye/]day1 or ye/]day1 b f\nd myself      
disappo9t$4  ,my ,god1 :at is ! matt] ) 
y8  ,y h no bus9ess1 nor c y h any      
uneas9ess2 = _h ?is be5 ! case1 ,i      
flatt] myself y w\ld h come &           
communicat$ x to me4  ,y are1 !re=e1    
ill6  ,relieve me1 ,i besee* y1 spe$ily 
f my fe>s4  ,adieu1 my de> fri5d3 let   
?is adieu produce me a good-morn+ f y4  
,,answ]4 ,i _c yet say any?+ to y4  ,i  
wait to be bett] in=m$1 & ?is ,i %all be
 soon] or lat]4  ,9 ! meantime be       
p]suad$ t innoc5ce w f9d a def5d]       
suffici5tly p[]ful to cause "s rep5tance
 9 ! sl&]]s1 be !y :o !y may4  ,,second 
,,note ,,f ,,! ,,same4 ,d y "k t y\r    
lett] fright5s me8  ,:at does x mean8   

,i h read x tw5ty times4  ,9 tru? ,i d n
 und]/& :at x means4  ,all ,i c p]ceive 
is1 t y are uneasy & torm5t$1 & t y wait
 until y are no long] s be=e y speak to 
me ^u ! subject4 ,is ?is1 my de> fri5d1 
:at we agre$ ^u8  ,:at !n is become ( t 
fri5d%ip & confid5ce1 & by :at means h  
,i lo/ !m8 ,is x ) me or = me t y are   
angry8  ,h[ev] ?is may be1 come to me   
?is ev5+ ,i conjure y2 rememb] y promis$
 me no long] ?an a week ago to let no?+ 
rema9 ^u y\r m9d1 b imm$iately to       
communicate to me :atev] might make x   
uneasy4  ,my de> fri5d1 ,i live 9 t     
confid5ce--,!re--,i h j read y\r lett]  
aga92 ,i d n und]/& ! cont5ts bett]1 b  
!y make me tremble4  ,y seem to be      
cruelly agitat$4  ,i c\ld wi% to calm   
y\r m9d1 b z ,i am ignorant ( ! cause   
:5ce y\r uneas9ess arises1 ,i "k n :at  
to say1 except t ,i am z wret*$ z       
y\rself1 & %all rema9 s until we meet4  
,if y are n "h ?is ev5+ at six o'clock1 
,i set (f to morr[ = ! ,h]mitage1 let ! 
wea!r be h[ x w1 & 9 :atev] /ate ( heal?

 ,i may be2 = ,i c no long] support !   
inquietude ,i n[ feel4  ,good day1 my   
de> fri5d1 at all risks ,i take ! lib]ty
 to tell y1 )\t kn[+ :e!r or n y are 9  
ne$ ( su* advice1 to endeavor to /op !  
progress uneas9ess makes 9 solitude4  ,a
 fly be comes a mon/]4  ,i h frequ5tly  
exp]i5c$ x4  ,,answ]4 ,i c nei!r come to
 see y nor receive y\r visit s long z my
 pres5t inquietude cont9ues4  ,!        
confid5ce ( :i* y speak no long] exi/s1 
& x w be easy = y to recov] x4  ,i see  
no?+ m 9 y\r pres5t anxiety ?an ! desire
 ( draw+ f ! confessions ( o!rs "s      
advantage agreeable to y\r views2 & my  
he>t1 s ready to p\r its ov]fl[+s into  
ano!r :i* op5s itself to receive !m1 is 
%ut aga9/ trick & cunn+4  ,i di/+ui% y\r
 ord9>y address 9 ! difficulty y f9d 9  
und]/&+ my note4 ,d y ?9k me dupe en\gh 
to believe y h n compreh5d$ :at x meant8
  ,no3 b ,i %all "k h[ to ov]come y\r   
subtleties by my frankness4  ,i w expla9
 myself m cle>ly1 t y may und]/& me /ill
 less4  ,two lov]s closely unit$ & wor?y

 ( ea* o!r's love are de> to me2 ,i     
expect y w n "k :o ,i mean unless ,i "n 
!m4  ,i presume attempts h be5 made to  
disunite !m1 & t ,i h be5 made use ( to 
inspire "o ( ! two ) jeal\sy4  ,! *oice 
0 n judici\s1 b x appe>$ conv5i5t to !  
purposes ( malice1 & ( ?is malice x is y
 :om ,i suspect to be guilty4  ,i hope  
?is becomes m cle>4  ,?us ! woman :om ,i
 mo/ e/eem w\ld1 ) my k1 h be5 load$ ) !
 infamy ( divid+ h] he>t & p]son betwe5 
two lov]s1 & ,i ) t ( be+ "o ( ^!       
wret*es4  ,if ,i knew t1 = a s+le mom5t 
9 y\r life1 y ev] _h ?\ght ?is1 ei!r (  
h] or myself1 ,i %\ld hate y until my   
la/ h\r4  ,b x is ) hav+ said1 & n )    
hav+ ?\ght x1 t ,i *>ge y4  ,9 ?is case1
 ,i _c compreh5d :i* ( ! ?ree y wi%$ to 
injure2 b1 if y love peace ( m9d1       
tremble le/ y %\ld h succe$$4 ,i h n    
conceal$ ei!r f y or h] all ! ill ,i ?9k
 ( c]ta9 connections1 b ,i wi% ^! to end
 by a means z virtu\s z _! cause1 & t an
 illegitimate love may be *ang$ into an 
et]nal fri5d%ip4  ,%\ld ,i1 :o nev] d   

ill to any p]son1 be ! innoc5t means (  
do+ x to my fri5ds8  ,no1 ,i %\ld nev]  
=give y2 ,i %\ld become y\r             
irreconcilable enemy4  ,y\r secrets are 
all ,i %\ld respect2 = ,i w nev] be a   
man )\t honor4  ,i d n appreh5d my      
pres5t p]plexity w cont9ue a long "t4   
,i %all soon "k :e!r or n ,i am deceiv$2
 ,i %all !n p]haps h great injuries to  
repair1 :i* ,i w d ) z mu* *e]fulness z 
t ) :i* ! mo/ agreeable act ( my life   
has be5 accompani$4 ,b d y "k 9 :at     
mann] ,i w make am5ds = my faults dur+ !
 %ort space ( "t ,i h to rema9 ne> to y8
  ,by do+ :at nobody b myself w\ld d2 by
 tell+ y freely :at ! _w ?9ks ( y1 & !  
brea*es y h to repair 9 y\r reputation4 
,not)/&+ all ! pret5d$ fri5ds by :om y  
are surr\nd$1 ! mom5t y see me dep>t y  
may bid adieu to tru?1 y w no long] f9d 
any p]son :o w tell x to y4   ,,?ird    
,,lett] ,,f ,,! ,,same4  ,i did n und]/&
 y\r lett] ( ?is morn+2 ?is ,i told y   
because x 0 ! case4  ,i und]/& t ( ?is  
ev5+2 d n imag9e ,i %all ev] return an  

answ] to x2 ,i am too anxi\s to =get :at
 x conta9s2 & al?\gh y excite my pity1  
,i am n pro( aga9/ ! bitt]ness ) :i* x  
has fill$ my m9d4  ,i6  desc5d to trick 
& cunn+ ) y6  ,i6  accus$ ( ! blacke/ ( 
all infamies6 ,adieu1 ,i regret y\r hav+
 ! adieu4  ,i "k n :at ,i say adieu3 ,i 
%all be v anxi\s to =give y4  ,y w come 
:5 y please2 y w be bett] receiv$ ?an   
y\r suspicions des]ve4  ,all ,i h to    
desire ( y is n to tr\ble y\rself ab\t  
my reputation4  ,! op9ion ( ! _w conc]n+
 me is ( b little importance 9 my e/eem4
  ,my conduct is good1 & ?is is         
suffici5t = me4  ,besides1 ,i am        
ignorant ( :at has happ5$ to ! two      
p]sons :o are de> to me z !y are to y4  
,?is la/ lett] extricat$ me f a t]rible 
emb>rassm5t1 & ?rew me into ano!r (     
almo/ ! same magnitude4  ,al?\gh ^!     
lett]s & answ]s 7 s5t & return$ ! same  
day ) an extreme rapidity1 ! int]val _h 
be5 suffici5t to place ano!r betwe5 my  
rage & transport1 & to give me "t to    
reflect on ! enormity ( my imprud5ce4   

,madam d',h\detot _h n recomm5d$ to me  
any?+ s mu* z to rema9 quiet1 to leave  
h] ! c>e ( extricat+ h]self1 & to avoid1
 especially at t mom5t1 all noise &     
rupture2 & ,i1 by ! mo/ op5 & atroci\s  
insults1 took ! prop]e/ means ( c>ry+   
rage to its greate/ height 9 ! he>t ( a 
woman :o 0 already b too well dispos$ to
 x4  ,i n[ c\ld naturally expect no?+ f 
h] b an answ] s haughty1 disda9ful1 &   
expressive ( contempt1 t ,i c\ld n1 )\t 
! utmo/ meanness1 d o!rwise ?an         
imm$iately quit h] h\se4  ,happily %e1 m
 adroit ?an ,i 0 furi\s1 avoid$1 by !   
mann] ( h] answ]1 r$uc+ me to t         
extremity4  ,b x 0 necess>y ei!r to quit
 or imm$iately g & see h]2 ! alt]native 
0 inevitable2 ,i resolv$ on ! latt]1    
?\gh ,i =esaw h[ mu* ,i mu/ be emb>rass$
 9 ! explanation4  ,= h[ 0 ,i to get    
?r\gh x )\t expos+ ei!r ,madam          
d',h\detot or ,!resa8 & woe to h] :om ,i
 %\ld h nam$6  ,!re 0 no?+ t ! v5geance 
( an implacable & an intrigu+ woman did 
n make me fe> = ! p]son :o %\ld be !    

object ( x4  ,x 0 to prev5t ?is mis=tune
 t 9 my lett] ,i _h spok5 ( no?+ b      
suspicions1 t ,i might n be "u !        
necessity ( produc+ my pro(s4  ,?is1 x  
is true1 r5d]$ my transports less       
excusable2 no simple suspicions be+     
suffici5t to au?orize me to treat a     
woman1 & especially a fri5d1 9 ! mann]  
,i _h treat$ ,madam d',ep9ay4  ,b "h    
beg9s ! noble task ,i wor?ily fulfill$ (
 expiat+ my faults & secret weaknesses  
by *>g+ myself ) su* ( ! =m] z ,i 0     
incapable ( committ+1 & :i* ,i nev] did 
commit4  ,i _h n to be> ! attack ,i _h  
expect$1 & fe> 0 ! greate/ evil ,i      
receiv$ f x4  ,at my approa*1 ,madam d' 
,ep9ay ?rew h] arms ab\t my neck1 bur/+ 
into te>s4  ,?is unexpect$ reception1 & 
by an old fri5d1 extremely affect$ me2  
,i also %$ _m te>s4  ,i said to h] a few
 words :i* _h n mu* mean+2 %e utt]$ o!rs
 ) /ill less1 & ev]y?+ end$ "h4  ,supp] 
0 s]v$2 we sat d[n to table1 :]e1 9     
expectation ( ! explanation ,i imag9$ to
 be def]r$ until supp] 0 ov]1 ,i made a 

v poor figure2 = ,i am s ov]p[]$ by !   
mo/ trifl+ inquietude ( m9d t ,i _c     
conceal x f p]sons ! lea/ cle>-sight$4  
,my emb>rass$ appe>ance mu/ h giv5 h]   
c\rage1 yet %e did n risk any?+ ^u t    
f\ndation4 ,!re 0 no m explanation aft] 
?an be=e supp]3 none took place on !    
next day1 & our little tete-a-tete      
conv]sations consi/$ ( indiff]5t ?+s1 or
 "s complim5t>y words on my "p1 by :i*1 
:ile ,i in=m$ h] ,i c\ld n say m        
relative to my suspicions1 ,i ass]t$1 ) 
! greate/ tru?1 t1 if !y 7 ill-f\nd$1 my
 :ole life %\ld be employ$ 9 repair+ !  
inju/ice4  ,%e did n %[ ! lea/ curiosity
 to "k precisely :at !y 71 nor = :at    
reason ,i _h =m$ !m1 & all our peacemak+
 consi/$1 on h] "p z well z on m9e1 9 ! 
embrace at our fir/ meet+4  ,s9ce ,madam
 d',ep9ay 0 ! only p]son (f5d$1 at lea/ 
9 =m1 ,i ?\ght x 0 n = me to /rive to   
br+ ab\t an eclaircissem5t = :i* %e     
h]self did n seem anxi\s1 & ,i return$ z
 ,i _h come2 cont9u+1 besides1 to live )
 h] ^u ! same foot+ z be=e1 ,i soon     

almo/ entirely =got ! qu>rel1 & fooli%ly
 believ$ %e _h done ! same1 because %e  
seem$ n to rememb] :at _h pass$4  ,?is1 
x w soon appe>1 0 n ! only vexation     
caus$ me by weakness2 b ,i _h o!rs n    
less disagreeable :i* ,i _h n br\ght ^u 
myself4  ,! only cause ( ^! 0 a desire (
 =c+ me f my solitude1       ,t is to   
take f x ! old woman :o 0 want$ 9 !     
conspiracy4  ,x is a/oni%+ t1 dur+ ?is  
long qu>rel1      my /upid confid5ce    
pres5t$ me f compreh5d+ t x 0      n me 
b h] :om !y want$ 9 ,p>is4  by means (  
torm5t+ me4  ,^! orig9at$ f ,did]ot & ! 
d',holba*i5s4  ,s9ce ,i _h resid$ at !  
,h]mitage1 ,did]ot incessantly h>rass$  
me1 ei!r himself or by means ( ,de      
,leyre1 & ,i soon p]ceiv$ f !           
pleasantries ( ! latt] ^u my rambl+s 9 !
 groves1 ) :at pleasure he _h trave/i$ !
 h]mit into ! gallant %eph]d4  ,b ?is 0 
n ! "q 9 my qu>rels ) ,did]ot2 ! cause (
 ^! 7 m s]i\s4  ,aft] ! publication (   
,fils ,naturel he _h s5t me a copy ( x1 
:i* ,i _h read ) ! int]e/ & att5tion ,i 

ev] be/[$ on ! works ( a fri5d4  ,9     
read+ ! k9d ( poem annex$ to x1 ,i 0    
surpris$ & r griev$ to f9d 9 x1 among/  
sev]al ?+s1 disoblig+ b supportable     
aga9/ m5 9 solitude1 ?is bitt] & sev]e  
s5t5ce )\t ! lea/ s(t5+3 ',il n'y a que 
le me*ant qui fail feul4'--,! wick$ only
 is alone4 --,?is s5t5ce is equivocal1 &
 seems to pres5t a d\ble mean+2 ! "o    
true1 ! o!r false1 s9ce x is impossible 
t a man :o is det]m9$ to rema9 alone c d
 ! lea/ h>m to anybody1 & consequ5tly he
 _c be wick$4  ,! s5t5ce 9 itself !re=e 
requir$ an int]pretation2 ! m s f an    
au?or :o1 :5 he s5t x to ! press1 _h a  
fri5d retir$ f ! _w4  ,x appe>$ to me   
%ock+ & uncivil1 ei!r to h =gott5 t     
solit>y fri5d1 or1 9 rememb]+ him1 n to 
h made f ! g5]al maxim ! honorable & j  
exception :i* he ow$1 n only to 8 fri5d1
 b to s _m respectable sages1 :o1 9 all 
ages1 h s\ght = peace & tranquillity 9  
retirem5t1 & ( :om1 = ! fir/ "t s9ce !  
creation ( ! _w1 a writ] took x into 8  
head indiscrim9ately to make s _m       

villa9s4  ,i _h a great affection & !   
mo/ s9c]e e/eem = ,did]ot1 & fully      
dep5d$ ^u 8 hav+ ! same s5tim5ts = me4  
,b tir$ ) 8 indefatigable ob/9acy 9     
cont9ually oppos+ my incl9ations1 ta/e1 
& mann] ( liv+1 & ev]y?+ :i* relat$ to  
no p]son b myself2 %ock$ at see+ a man  
y\ng] ?an ,i 0 wi%1 at all ev5ts1 to    
gov]n me l a *ild2 disgu/$ ) 8 facility 
9 promis+1 & 8 neglig5ce 9 p]=m+2 we>y (
 s _m appo9tm5ts giv5 by himself1 &     
caprici\sly brok51 :ile new ones 7 aga9 
giv5 only to be aga9 brok52 displeas$ at
 uselessly wait+ = him ?ree or f\r times
 a mon? on ! days he _h assign$1 & 9 d9+
 alone at night aft] hav+ gone to ,sa9t 
,d5is to meet him1 & wait$ ! :ole day = 
8 com+2 my he>t 0 already full ( ^!     
multipli$ injuries4  ,?is la/ appe>$ to 
me /ill m s]i\s1 & gave me inf9ite pa94 
,i wrote to compla9 ( x1 b 9 s mild &   
t5d] a mann] t ,i moi/5$ my pap] ) my   
te>s1 & my lett] 0 suffici5tly affect+  
to h drawn o!rs f himself4  ,x w\ld be  
impossible to guess 8 answ] on ?is      

subject3 x 0 lit]ally z foll[s3 ,i am   
glad my "w has pleas$ & affect$ y4  ,y  
are n ( my op9ion relative to h]mits4   
,say z mu* good ( !m z y please1 y w be 
! only "o 9 ! _w ( :om ,i %all ?9k well3
 ev5 on ?is !re w\ld be mu* to say 7 x  
possible to speak to y )\t giv+ y (f5ce4
  ,a woman eighty ye>s ( age6  etc4  ,a 
phrase ( a lett] f ! son ( ,madam       
d',ep9ay :i*1 if ,i "k y well1 mu/ h    
giv5 y mu* pa91 has be5 m5tion$ to me4  
,! la/ two expressions ( ?is lett] want 
explanation4  ,soon aft] ,i w5t to      
reside at ! ,h]mitage1 ,madam le        
,vasseur seem$ dissatisfi$ ) h]         
situation1 & to ?9k ! habitation too    
retir$4 ,hav+ he>d %e _h express$ h]    
dislike to ! place1 ,i (f]$ to s5d h]   
back to ,p>is1 if t 7 m agreeable to h]2
 to pay h] lodg+1 & to h ! same c>e tak5
 ( h] z if %e rema9$ ) me4  ,%e reject$ 
my (f]1 assur$ me %e 0 v well satisfi$ )
 ! ,h]mitage1 & t ! c\ntry air 0 (      
s]vice to h]4  ,?is 0 evid5t1 =1 if ,i  
may s speak1 %e seem$ to become "y aga91

 & enjoy$ bett] heal? ?an at ,p>is4  ,h]
 daught] told me h] "m w\ld1 on ! :ole1 
_h be5 v sorry to quit ! ,h]mitage1 :i* 
0 really a v delightful abode1 be+ fond 
( ! little amusem5ts ( ! g>d5 & ! c>e ( 
! fruit ( :i* %e _h ! h&l+1 b t %e _h   
said1 :at %e _h be5 desir$ to say1 to   
induce me to return to ,p>is4  ,fail+ 9 
?is attempt !y endeavor$ to obta9 by a  
scruple ! effect :i* complaisance _h n  
produc$1 & con/ru$ into a crime my keep+
 ! old woman at a di/ance f ! succors ( 
:i*1 at h] age1 %e might be 9 ne$4  ,!y 
did n recollect t %e1 & _m o!r old p1 ^:
 lives 7 prolong$ by ! air ( ! c\ntry1  
might obta9 ^! succors at ,montmor5cy1  
ne> to :i* ,i liv$2 z if !re 7 no old p1
 except 9 ,p>is1 & t x 0 impossible = !m
 to live 9 any o!r place4  ,madam le    
,vasseur :o eat a great deal1 & )       
extreme voracity1 0 subject to ov]fl[+s 
( bile & to /rong di>rhoeas1 :i* la/$   
sev]al days1 & s]v$ h] in/ead ( cly/]s4 
,at ,p>is %e nei!r did nor took any?+ = 
!m1 b left nature to itself4  ,%e obs]v$

 ! same rule at ! ,h]mitage1 kn[+ x 0 ! 
be/ ?+ %e c\ld d4  ,no matt]1 s9ce !re 7
 n 9 ! c\ntry ei!r physicians or        
apo!c>ies1 keep+ h] !re mu/1 no d\bt1 be
 ) ! desire ( putt+ an end to h]        
exi/5ce1 al?\gh %e 0 9 p]fect heal?4    
,did]ot %\ld h det]m9$ at :at age1 "u   
pa9 ( be+ puni%$ = homicide1 x is no    
long] p]mitt$ to let old p rema9 out (  
,p>is4  ,?is 0 "o ( ! atroci\s          
accusations f :i* he did n except me 9 8
 rem>k2 t none b ! wick$ 7 alone3 & !   
mean+ ( 8 pa!tic exclamation ) ! et     
cet]a1 :i* he _h b5ignantly add$3 ,a    
woman ( eighty ye>s ( age1 etc4  ,i     
?\ght ! be/ answ] t c\ld be giv5 to ?is 
reproa* w\ld be f ,madam le ,vasseur    
h]self4  ,i desir$ h] to write freely & 
naturally h] s5tim5ts to ,madam         
d',ep9ay4  ,to relieve h] f all con/ra9t
 ,i w\ld n see h] lett]4  ,i %[$ h] t   
:i* ,i am go+ to transcribe4  ,i wrote x
 to ,madam d',ep9ay ^u ! subject ( an   
answ] ,i wi% to return to a lett] /ill m
 sev]e f ,did]ot1 & :i* %e _h prev5t$ me

 f s5d+4                                
,?ursday4  ,my good fri5d4  ,madam le   
,vasseur is to write to y3 ,i h desir$  
h] to tell y s9c]ely :at %e ?9ks4  ,to  
remove f h] all con/ra9t1 ,i h intimat$ 
to h] t ,i w n see :at %e writes1 & ,i  
beg ( y n to communicate to me any "p ( 
! cont5ts ( h] lett]4  ,i w n s5d my    
lett] because y d n *oose ,i %\ld2 b1   
feel+ myself griev\sly (f5d$1 x w\ld be 
bas5ess & falsehood1 ( ei!r ( :i* x is  
impossible = me to be guilty1 to        
ackn[l$ge myself 9 ! wrong4  ,holy writ 
comm&s him to :om a bl[ is giv51 to turn
 ! o!r *eek1 b n to ask p>don4  ,d y    
rememb] ! man 9 com$y :o exclaims1 :ile 
he is giv+ ano!r bl[s ) 8 /aff1 ',?is is
 ! "p ( a philosoph]6'  ,d n flatt]     
y\rself t he w be prev5t$ f com+ by !   
bad wea!r we n[ h4  ,8 rage w give him !
 "t & /r5g? :i* fri5d%ip refuses him1 & 
x w be ! fir/ "t 9 8 life he ev] came ^u
 ! day he _h appo9t$4  ,he w neglect    
no?+ to come & repeat to me v]bally !   
injuries ) :i* he loads me 9 8 lett]s2  

,i w endure !m all ) pati5ce--he w      
return to ,p>is to be ill aga92 &1      
accord+ to cu/om1 ,i %all be a v hateful
 man4  ,:at is to be done8  ,endure x   
all4  ,b d n y admire ! wisdom ( ! man  
:o w\ld absolutely come to ,sa9t ,d5is 9
 a hackney-coa* to d9e !re1 br+ me home 
9 a hackney-coa*1 & ^: f9ances1 eight   
days aft]w>ds1 obliges him to come to ! 
,h]mitage on foot8  ,x is n possible1 to
 speak 8 own language1 t ?is %\ld be !  
/yle ( s9c]ity4  ,b 7 ?is ! case1 /range
 *anges ( =tune mu/ h happ5$ 9 ! c\rse (
 a week4  ,i jo9 9 y\r affliction = !   
illness ( madam1 y\r "m1 b y w p]ceive  
y\r grief is n equal to m9e4  ,we suff] 
less by see+ ! p]sons we love ill ?an :5
 !y are unju/ & cruel4  ,adieu1 my good 
fri5d1 ,i %all nev] aga9 m5tion to y ?is
 unhappy affair4  ,y speak ( go+ to     
,p>is ) an unconc]n1 :i*1 at any o!r "t1
 w\ld give me pleasure4  ,i wrote to    
,did]ot1 tell+ him :at ,i _h done1      
relative to ,madam le ,vasseur1 ^u !    
proposal ( ,madam d',ep9ay h]self2 &    

,madam le ,vasseur hav+1 z x may be     
imag9$1 *os5 to rema9 at ! ,h]mitage1   
:]e %e enjoy$ a good /ate ( heal?1      
always _h company1 & liv$ v agreeably1  
,did]ot1 n kn[+ :at else to attribute to
 me z a crime1 con/ru$ my precaution    
into "o1 & discov]$ ano!r 9 ,madam le   
,vasseur cont9u+ to reside at !         
,h]mitage1 al?\gh ?is 0 by h] own *oice2
 & ?\gh h] go+ to ,p>is _h dep5d$1 &    
/ill dep5d$ ^u h]self1 :]e %e w\ld      
cont9ue to receive ! same succors f me z
 ,i gave h] 9 my h\se4  ,?is is !       
explanation ( ! fir/ reproa* 9 ! lett] (
 ,did]ot4 ,t ( ! second is 9 ! lett] :i*
 foll[s3 ,! le>n$ man 7a "n giv5 9 a    
joke by ,grimm to ! son ( ,madam        
d',ep9ay7 mu/ h in=m$ y !re 7 ^u !      
ramp>t tw5ty poor p]sons :o 7 dy+ ) cold
 & hung]1 & wait+ = ! f>?+ y cu/om>ily  
gave !m4  ,?is is a specim5 ( our little
 babbl+44444,& if y und]/& ! re/ x w    
amuse y p]hap4  ,my answ] to ?is t]rible
 argum5t1 ( :i* ,did]ot seem$ s pr\d1 0 
9 ! foll[+ words3  ,i ?9k ,i answ]$ !   

le>n$ man2 t is1 ! f>m]-g5]al1 t ,i did 
n pity ! poor :om he _h se5 ^u ! ramp>t1
 wait+ = my f>?+2 t he _h probably amply
 made x up to !m2 t ,i appo9t$ him my   
sub/itute1 t ! poor ( ,p>is w\ld h no   
reason to compla9 ( ! *ange2 & t ,i %\ld
 n easily f9d s good a "o = ! poor (    
,montmor5cy1 :o 7 9 mu* great] ne$ (    
assi/ance4 ,"h is a good & respectable  
old man1 :o1 aft] hav+ work$ h>d all 8  
lifetime1 no long] be+ able to cont9ue 8
 labors1 is 9 8 old days dy+ ) hung]4   
,my consci5ce is m satisfi$ ) ! two s\s 
,i give him e ,monday1 ?an ) ! hundr$   
f>?+s ,i %\ld h di/ribut$ among/ all !  
begg>s on ! ramp>t4  ,y are pleasant m51
 y philosoph]s1 :ile y consid] !        
inhabitants ( ! cities z ! only p]sons  
:om y ought to befri5d4  ,x is 9 !      
c\ntry m5 le>n h[ to love & s]ve        
humanity2 all !y le>n 9 cities is to    
despise x4  ,su* 7 ! s+ul> scruples on  
:i* a man ( s5se _h ! folly to attribute
 to me z a crime my retir+ f ,p>is1 &   
pret5d$ to prove to me by my own        

example1 t x 0 n possible to live out ( 
! capital )\t becom+ a bad man4  ,i _c  
at pres5t conceive h[ ,i c\ld be guilty 
( ! folly ( answ]+ him1 & ( suff]+      
myself to be angry in/ead ( laugh+ 9 8  
f>e4  ,h[ev]1 ! decisions ( ,madam      
d',ep9ay & ! clamors ( ! ',cote 9       
,holba*ique' _h s f> op]at$ 9 h] favor1 
t ,i 0 g5]ally ?\ght to be 9 ! wrong2 & 
! ,d',h\detot h]self1 v p>tial to       
,did]ot1 insi/$ ^u my go+ to see him at 
,p>is1 & mak+ all ! advances t[>ds an   
accommodation :i*1 full & s9c]e z x 0 on
 my "p1 0 n ( long duration4  ,!        
victori\s argum5t by :i* %e subdu$ my   
he>t 01 t at t mom5t ,did]ot 0 9        
di/ress4  ,besides ! /orm excit$ aga9/ !
 ',encyclop$ie'1 he _h !n ano!r viol5t  
"o to make head aga9/1 relative to 8    
piece1 :i*1 not)/&+ ! %ort hi/ory he _h 
pr9t$ at ! head ( x1 he 0 accus$ ( hav+ 
entirely tak5 f ,goldoni4  ,did]ot1 m   
w\nd$ by criticisms ?an ,voltaire1 0    
ov]:elm$ by !m4  ,madam de ,grasigny _h 
be5 malici\s en\gh to spread a report t 

,i _h brok5 ) him on ?is acc\nt4 ,i     
?\ght x w\ld be j & g5]\s publicly to   
prove ! contr>y1 & ,i w5t to pass two   
days1 n only ) him1 b at 8 lodg+s4 ,?is1
 s9ce ,i _h tak5 up my abode at !       
,h]mitage1 0 my second j\rney to ,p>is4 
,i _h made ! fir/ to run to poor        
,gauffec\rt1 :o _h _h a /roke (         
apoplexy1 f :i* he has nev] p]fectly    
recov]$3 ,i did n quit ! side ( 8 pill[ 
until he 0 s f> re/or$ z to h no fur!r  
ne$ ( my assi/ance4  ,did]ot receiv$ me 
well4  ,h[ _m wrongs are effac$ by !    
embraces ( a fri5d6  aft] ^!1 :at       
res5tm5t c rema9 9 ! he>t8  ,we came to 
b little explanation4  ,?is is ne$less =
 reciprocal invectives4 ,! only ?+      
necess>y is to "k h[ to =get !m4  ,!re  
_h be5 no und]h& proce$+s1 none at lea/ 
t _h come to my k3 ! case 0 n ! same )  
,madam d' ,ep9ay4  ,he %[$ me ! plan ( !
 ',p]e de ,famille'4  ,?is1 said ,i to  
him1 is ! be/ def5ce to ! ',fils        
,naturel'4  ,be sil5t1 give y\r att5tion
 to ?is piece1 & !n ?r[ x at ! head (   

y\r enemies z ! only answ] y ?9k prop]  
to make !m4  ,he did s1 & 0 satisfi$ )  
:at he _h done4  ,i _h six mon?s be=e   
s5t him ! fir/ two p>ts ( my ',eloisa'  
to h 8 op9ion ^u !m4  ,he _h n yet read 
! "w ov]4  ,we read a "p ( x toge!r4    
,he f\nd ?is 'feuillet'1 t 0 8 t]m1 by  
:i* he meant load$ ) words &            
r$undancies4  ,i myself _h already      
p]ceiv$ x2 b x 0 ! babbl+ ( ! fev]3 ,i h
 nev] be5 able to correct x4  ,! la/    
p>ts are n ! same4  ,! f\r? especially1 
& ! six?1 are ma/]-pieces ( diction4  ,!
 day aft] my arrival1 he w\ld absolutely
 take me to sup ) ,m4 d',holba*4  ,we 7 
f> f agree+ on ?is po9t2 = ,i wi%$ ev5  
to get rid ( ! b>ga9 = ! manuscript on  
*emi/ry1 = :i* ,i 0 enrag$ to be oblig$ 
to t man4  ,did]ot c>ri$ all be=e him4  
,he swore ,d',holba* lov$ me ) all 8    
he>t1 said ,i mu/ =give him 8 mann]1 :i*
 0 ! same to ev]ybody1 & m disagreeable 
to 8 fri5ds ?an to o!rs4  ,he obs]v$ to 
me t1 refus+ ! produce ( ?is manuscript1
 aft] hav+ accept$ x two ye>s be=e1 0 an

 affront to ! donor :i* he _h n des]v$1 
& t my refusal might be int]pret$ into a
 secret reproa*1 = hav+ wait$ s long to 
conclude ! b>ga94  ,i see1 add$ he1     
,d',holba* e day1 & "k bett] ?an y d !  
nature ( 8 disposition4  ,_h y reason to
 be dissatisfi$ ) him1 d y ?9k y\r fri5d
 capable ( advis+ y to d a mean ?+8  ,9 
%ort1 ) my accu/om$ weakness1 ,i suff]$ 
myself to be prevail$ ^u1 & we w5t to   
sup ) ! b>on1 :o receiv$ me z he usually
 _h done4  ,b 8 wife receiv$ me coldly &
 almo/ uncivilly4  ,i saw no?+ 9 h] :i* 
resembl$ ! amiable ,c>ol9e1 :o1 :5 a    
maid1 express$ = me s _m good wi%es4  ,i
 ?\ght ,i _h already p]ceiv$ t s9ce     
,grimm _h frequ5t$ ! h\se ( ,d',a9e1 ,i 
_h n met !re s fri5dly a reception4     
,:il/ ,i 0 at ,p>is1 ,sa9t ,lamb]t      
arriv$ !re f ! army4  ,z ,i 0 n acqua9t$
 ) 8 arrival1 ,i did n see him until    
aft] my return to ! c\ntry1 fir/ at !   
,*evrette1 & aft]w>ds at ! ,h]mitage2 to
 :i* he came ) ,madam d',h\detot1 &     
invit$ himself to d9n] ) me4  ,x may be 

judg$ :e!r or n ,i receiv$ him )        
pleasure6  ,b ,i felt "o /ill great] at 
see+ ! good und]/&+ betwe5 my gue/s4    
,satisfi$ ) n hav+ di/urb$ _! happ9ess1 
,i myself 0 happy 9 be+ a witness to x1 
& ,i c safely ass]t t1 dur+ ! :ole ( my 
mad passion1 & especially at ! mom5t (  
:i* ,i speak1 _h x be5 9 my p[] to take 
f him ,madam d',h\detot ,i w\ld n h done
 x1 nor %\ld ,i h s mu* z be5 tempt$ to 
und]take x4  ,i f\nd h] s amiable 9 h]  
passion = ,sa9t ,lamb]t1 t ,i c\ld      
sc>cely imag9e %e w\ld h be5 z mu* s _h 
%e lov$ me in/ead ( him2 & )\t wi%+ to  
di/urb _! union1 all ,i really desir$ ( 
h] 0 to p]mit h]self to be lov$4        
,f9ally1 h[ev] viol5t my passion may h  
be5 = ?is lady1 ,i f\nd x z agreeable to
 be ! confidant1 z ! object ( h] am\rs1 
& ,i nev] = a mom5t consid]$ h] lov] z a
 rival1 b always z my fri5d4 ,x w be    
said ?is 0 n love3 be x s1 b x 0 some?+ 
m4  ,z = ,sa9t ,lamb]t1 he behav$ l an  
hone/ & judici\s man3 z ,i 0 ! only     
p]son culpable1 s 0 ,i ! only "o :o 0   

puni%$2 ?is1 h[ev]1 0 ) ! greate/       
indulg5ce4  ,he treat$ me sev]ely1 b 9 a
 fri5dly mann]1 & ,i p]ceiv$ ,i _h lo/  
some?+ 9 8 e/eem1 b n ! lea/ "p ( 8     
fri5d%ip4  ,= ?is ,i consol$ myself1    
kn[+ x w\ld be mu* m easy to me to      
recov] ! "o ?an ! o!r1 & t he _h too mu*
 s5se to conf\nd an involunt>y weakness 
& a passion ) a vice ( "*4  ,if ev5 ,i 7
 9 fault 9 all t _h pass$1 ,i 0 b v     
little s4  ,_h ,i fir/ s\ght aft] 8     
mi/ress8  ,_h n he himself s5t h] to me8
  ,did n %e come 9 se>* ( me8  ,c\ld ,i 
avoid receiv+ h]8  ,:at c\ld ,i d8  ,!y 
!mselves _h done ! evil1 & ,i 0 ! p]son 
on :om x fell4  ,9 my situation !y w\ld 
h done z mu* z ,i did1 & p]haps m2 =1   
h[ev] e/imable & fai?ful ,madam         
d',h\detot might be1 %e 0 /ill a woman2 
h] lov] 0 abs5t2 opportunities 7        
frequ5t2 temptations /rong2 & x w\ld h  
be5 v difficult = h] always to h def5d$ 
h]self ) ! same success aga9/ a m       
ent]pris+ man4  ,we c]ta9ly _h done a   
great deal 9 our situation1 9 plac+     

b\nd>ies beyond :i* we nev] p]mitt$     
ourselves to pass4  ,al?\gh at ! bottom 
( my he>t ,i f\nd evid5ce suffici5tly   
honorable 9 my favor1 s _m appe>ances 7 
aga9/ me1 t ! inv9cible %ame always     
pr$om9ant 9 me1 gave me 9 8 pres5ce !   
appe>ance ( guilt1 & ( ?is he took      
advantage = ! purpose ( humbl+ me3 a    
s+le circum/ance w describe ?is         
reciprocal situation4  ,i read to him1  
aft] d9n]1 ! lett] ,i _h writt5 ! prec$+
 ye> to ,voltaire1 & ( :i* ,sa9t ,lamb]t
 _h he>d speak4 ,:il/ ,i 0 read+ he fell
 asleep1 & ,i1 lately s haughty1 at     
pres5t s fooli%1 d>$ n /op1 & cont9u$ to
 read :il/ he cont9u$ to snore4  ,su* 7 
my indignities & su* 8 rev5ge2 b 8      
g5]osity nev] p]mitt$ him to ex]cise !m2
 except betwe5 ourselves4  ,aft] 8      
return to ! army1 ,i f\nd ,madam        
d',h\detot greatly *ang$ 9 h] mann] )   
me4  ,at ?is ,i 0 z mu* surpris$ z if x 
_h n be5 :at ,i ought to h expect$2 x   
affect$ me m ?an x ought to h done1 &   
did me consid]able h>m4  ,x seem$ t     

ev]y?+ f :i* ,i expect$ a cure1 /ill    
plung$ deep] into my he>t ! d>t1 :i* ,i 
at l5g? broke 9 r ?an draw out4  ,i 0 q 
det]m9$ to conqu] myself1 & leave no    
means untri$ to *ange my fooli% passion 
into a pure & la/+ fri5d%ip4  ,= ?is    
purpose ,i _h =m$ ! f9e/ projects 9 !   
_w2 = ! execution ( :i* ! concurr5ce (  
,madam d' ,h\detot 0 necess>y4  ,:5 ,i  
wi%$ to speak to h] ,i f\nd h] abs5t &  
emb>rass$2 ,i p]ceiv$ ,i 0 no long]     
agreeable to h]1 & t some?+ _h pass$ :i*
 %e w\ld n communicate to me1 & :i* ,i h
 nev] yet kn[n4  ,?is *ange1 & !        
impossibility ( kn[+ ! reason ( x1      
griev$ me to ! he>t4  ,%e ask$ me = h]  
lett]s2 ^! ,i return$ h] ) a fidelity ( 
:i* %e did me ! insult to d\bt = a      
mom5t4  ,?is d\bt 0 ano!r w\nd giv5 to  
my he>t1 ) :i* %e mu/ h be5 s well      
acqua9t$4  ,%e did me ju/ice1 b n       
imm$iately3 ,i und]/ood t an exam9ation 
( ! packet ,i _h s5t h]1 made h] p]ceive
 h] error2 ,i saw %e reproa*$ h]self )  
x1 by :i* ,i 0 a ga9] ( some?+4  ,%e    

c\ld n take back h] lett]s )\t return+  
me m9e4  ,%e told me %e _h burnt !m3 (  
?is ,i d>$ to d\bt 9 my turn1 & ,i      
confess ,i d\bt ( x at ?is mom5t4  ,no1 
su* lett]s z m9e to h] 71 are nev] ?r[n 
into ! fire4  ,^? ( ,eloisa h be5 f\nd  
ard5t4  ,heav5s6  :at w\ld h be5 said ( 
^!6  ,no1 ,no1 %e :o c inspire a l      
passion1 w nev] h ! c\rage to burn !    
pro(s ( x4  ,b ,i am n afraid ( h] hav+ 
made a bad use ( !m3 ( ?is ,i d n ?9k h]
 capable2 & besides ,i _h tak5 prop]    
measures to prev5t x4  ,! fooli%1 b     
/rong appreh5sion ( raill]y1 _h made me 
beg9 ?is correspond5ce 9 a mann] to     
secure my lett]s f all communication4   
,i c>ri$ ! famili>ity ,i p]mitt$ myself 
) h] 9 my intoxication s f> z to speak  
to h] 9 ! s+ul> numb]3 b :at !e+ & ?\+6 
%e c]ta9ly c\ld n be (f5d$ ) x4 ,yet %e 
sev]al times compla9$1 b ?is 0 always   
useless3 h] compla9ts _h no o!r effect  
?an t ( awak5+ my fe>s1 & ,i besides    
c\ld n suff] myself to lose gr\nd4  ,if 
^! lett]s be n yet de/roy$1 & %\ld !y   

ev] be made public1 ! _w w see 9 :at    
mann] ,i h lov$4  ,! grief caus$ me by !
 coldness ( ,madam d',h\detot1 & !      
c]ta9ty ( n hav+ m]it$ x1 made me take !
 s+ul> resolution to compla9 ( x to     
,sa9t ,lamb]t himself4  ,:ile wait+ !   
effect ( ! lett] ,i wrote to him1 ,i    
s\ght dissipations to :i* ,i ought soon]
 to h _h rec\rse4  ,fetes 7 giv5 at !   
,*evrette = :i* ,i compos$ music4  ,!   
pleasure ( honor+ myself 9 ! eyes (     
,madam d',h\detot by a tal5t %e lov$1   
w>m$ my imag9ation1 & ano!r object /ill 
contribut$ to give x animation1 ?is 0 ! 
desire ! au?or ( ! ',dev9 du ,villaqe'  
_h ( %[+ he und]/ood music2 = ,i _h     
p]ceiv$ "s p]sons _h1 = a consid]able "t
 pa/1 endeavor$ to r5d] ?is d\btful1 at 
lea/ ) respect to composition4 ,my      
beg9n+ at ,p>is1 ! ordeal ?r\gh :i* ,i  
_h sev]al times pass$ !re1 bo? at ! h\se
 ( ,m4 ,dup9 & t ( ,m4 de la ,popl9i]e2 
! quantity ( music ,i _h compos$ dur+   
f\rte5 ye>s 9 ! mid/ ( ! mo/ celebrat$  
ma/]s & be=e _! eyes3--f9ally1 ! op]a ( 

! ',muses ,gallantes'1 & t ev5 ( !      
',dev9'2 a motet ,i _h compos$ =        
,mademoiselle ,fel1 & :i* %e _h sung at 
! spiritual conc]t2 ! frequ5t conf]5ces 
,i _h _h ^u ?is f9e art ) ! fir/        
compos]s1 all seem$ to prev5t or        
dissipate a d\bt ( su* a nature4  ,?is  
h[ev] exi/$ ev5 at ! ,*evrette1 & 9 !   
m9d ( ,m4 d',ep9ay himself4  ,)\t appe>+
 to obs]ve x1 ,i und]took to compose him
 a motet = ! d$ication ( ! *apel ( !    
,*evrette1 & ,i begg$ him to make *oice 
( ! words4  ,he direct$ de ,l9ant1 !    
tutor to 8 son1 to furni% me ) ^!4  ,de 
,l9ant gave me words prop] to ! subject1
 & 9 a week aft] ,i _h receiv$ !m !     
motet 0 f9i%$4  ,?is "t1 spite 0 my     
,apollo1 & nev] did bett] music come f  
my h&4  ,! words began )3 ',ecce s$es   
hic tonantis'4  7,i h s9ce le>n$ ^! 7 by
 ,santeuil1 & t ,m4 de ,l9ant _h )\t    
scruple appropriat$ !m to himself47 ,!  
gr&eur ( ! op5+ is suitable to ! words1 
& ! re/ ( ! motet is s elegantly        
h>moni\s t ev]yone 0 /ruck ) x4  ,i _h  

compos$ x = a great or*e/ra4  ,d',ep9ay 
procur$ ! be/ p]=m]s4  ,madam ,bruna1 an
 ,italian s+]1 sung ! motet1 & 0 well   
accompani$4  ,! composition succe$$ s   
well t x 0 aft]w>ds p]=m$ at ! spiritual
 conc]t1 :]e1 9 spite ( secret cabals1 &
 not)/&+ x 0 badly execut$1 x 0 twice   
g5]ally applaud$4  ,i gave = ! bir?day (
 ,m4 d',ep9ay ! idea ( a k9d ( piece    
half dramatic & half pantomimical1 ( :i*
 ,i also compos$ ! music4  ,grimm1 on 8 
arrival1 he>d speak ( my musical        
success4  ,an h\r aft]w>ds n a ^w m 0   
said on ! subject2 b !re no long] rema9$
 a d\bt1 n at lea/ t ,i "k (1 ( my k (  
composition4  ,grimm 0 sc>cely arriv$ at
 ! ,*evrette1 :]e ,i already did n mu*  
amuse myself1 be=e he made x            
insupportable to me by airs ,i nev] be=e
 saw 9 any p]son1 & ( :i* ,i _h no idea4
  ,! ev5+ be=e he came1 ,i 0 dislodg$ f 
! *amb] ( favor1 contigu\s to t ( ,madam
 d',ep9ay2 x 0 prep>$ = ,grimm1 & in/ead
 ( x1 ,i 0 put into ano!r fur!r (f4  ,9 
?is mann]1 said ,i1 laugh+ly1 to ,madam 

d',ep9ay1 new-com]s displace ^? :i* are 
e/abli%$4  ,%e seem$ emb>rass$4  ,i 0   
bett] acqua9t$ ! same ev5+ ) ! reason = 
! *ange1 9 le>n+ t betwe5 h] *amb] & t  
,i _h quitt$ !re 0 a private door :i* %e
 _h ?\ght ne$less to %[ me4  ,h]        
int]c\rse ) ,grimm 0 n a secret ei!r 9  
h] own h\se or to ! public1 n ev5 to h] 
husb&2 yet1 f> f confess+ x to me1 !    
confidant ( secrets m important to h]1 &
 :i* 0 sure w\ld be fai?fully kept1 %e  
con/antly d5i$ x 9 ! /ronge/ mann]4  ,i 
compreh5d$ ?is res]ve proce$$ f ,grimm1 
:o1 ?\gh intru/$ ) all my secrets1 did n
 *oose ,i %\ld be ) any ( 84  ,h[ev]    
prejudic$ ,i 0 9 favor ( ?is man by =m] 
s5tim5ts1 :i* 7 n ext+ui%$1 & by ! real 
m]it he _h1 all 0 n pro( aga9/ ! c>es he
 took to de/roy x4  ,he receiv$ me l !  
,comte de ,tuffi]e2 he sc>cely deign$ to
 return my salute2 he nev] once spoke to
 me1 & prev5t$ my speak+ to him by n    
mak+ me any answ]2 he ev]y:]e pass$     
fir/1 & took ! fir/ place )\t ev] pay+  
me ! lea/ att5tion4  ,all ?is w\ld h be5

 supportable _h he n accompani$ x ) a   
%ock+ affectation1 :i* may be judg$ ( by
 "o example tak5 f a hundr$4  ,"o ev5+  
,madam d',ep9ay1 f9d+ h]self a little   
indispos$1 ord]$ some?+ = h] supp] to be
 c>ri$ into h] *amb]1 & w5t up /airs to 
sup by ! side ( ! fire4  ,%e ask$ me to 
g ) h]1 :i* ,i did4  ,grimm came        
aft]w>ds4 ,! little table 0 already     
plac$1 & !re 7 b two cov]s4 ,supp] 0    
s]v$2 ,madam d' ,ep9ay took h] place on 
"o side ( ! fire1 ,grimm took an arm$   
*air1 seat$ himself at ! o!r1 drew !    
little table betwe5 !m1 op5$ 8 napk91 & 
prep>$ himself = eat+ )\t speak+ to me a
 s+le ^w4  ,madam d' ,ep9ay blu%$ at 8  
behavior1 &1 to induce him to repair 8  
rud5ess1 (f]$ me h] place4  ,he said    
no?+1 nor did he ev] look at me4  ,n be+
 able to approa* ! fire1 ,i walk$ ab\t !
 *amb] until a cov] 0 br\ght4           
,indispos$ z ,i 01 old] ?an himself1    
long] acqua9t$ 9 ! h\se ?an he _h be51 !
 p]son :o _h introduc$ him !re1 & to :om
 z a favorite ( ! lady he ought to h    

done ! honors ( x1 he suff]$ me to sup  
at ! end ( ! table1 at a di/ance f !    
fire1 )\t %[+ me ! lea/ civility4  ,8   
:ole behavior to me correspond$ ) ?is   
example ( x4 ,he did n treat me         
precisely z 8 inf]ior1 b he look$ ^u me 
z a ciph]4  ,i c\ld sc>cely recognize ! 
same ,grimm1 :o1 to ! h\se ( ! ,pr9ce de
 ,saxe-,go?a1 ?\ght himself honor$ :5 ,i
 ca/ my eyes ^u him4  ,i _h /ill m      
difficulty 9 reconcil+ ?is pr(\nd sil5ce
 & insult+ haught9ess ) ! t5d] fri5d%ip 
he possess$ = me to ^? :om he knew to be
 real fri5ds4  ,x is true ! only pro(s  
he gave ( x 0 pity+ my wret*$ =tune1 (  
:i* ,i did n compla92 compassionat+ my  
sad fate1 ) :i* ,i 0 satisfi$2 & lam5t+ 
to see me ob/9ately refuse ! b5evol5t   
s]vices he said1 he wi%$ to r5d] me4    
,?us 0 x he artfully made ! _w admire 8 
affectionate g5]osity1 blame my         
ungrateful misan?ropy1 & ins5sibly      
accu/om$ p to imag9e !re 0 no?+ m betwe5
 a protector l him & a wret* l myself1  
?an a connection f\nd$ ^u b5efactions on

 "o "p & obligations on ! o!r1 )\t once 
?9k+ ( a fri5d%ip betwe5 equals4  ,= my 
"p1 ,i h va9ly s\ght to discov] 9 :at ,i
 0 "u an obligation to ?is new          
protector4  ,i _h l5t him money1 he _h  
nev] l5t me any2 ,i _h att5d$ him 9 8   
illness1 he sc>cely came to see me 9    
m9e2 ,i _h giv5 him all my fri5ds1 he   
nev] _h giv5 me any ( 82 ,i _h said     
ev]y?+ ,i c\ld 9 8 favor1 & if ev] he   
has spok5 ( me x has be5 less publicly &
 9 ano!r mann]4  ,he has nev] ei!r r5d]$
 or (f]$ me ! lea/ s]vice ( any k9d4    
,h[1 !re=e1 0 he my ,meca5as8  ,9 :at   
mann] 0 ,i protect$ by him8  ,?is 0     
incompreh5sible to me1 & /ill rema9s s4 
,x is true1 he 0 m or less arrogant )   
ev]ybody1 b ,i 0 ! only p]son ) :om he 0
 brutally s4  ,i rememb] ,sa9t ,lamb]t  
once ready to ?r[ a plate at 8 head1 ^u 
81 9 "s measure1 giv+ him ! lie at table
 by vulg>ly say+1 ,t is n true4  ,) 8   
naturally imp]i\s mann] he _h !         
self-suffici5cy ( an up/>t1 & became    
ridicul\s by be+ extravagantly imp]t95t4

  ,an int]c\rse ) ! great _h s f>       
intoxicat$ him t he gave himself airs   
:i* none b ! contemptible "p ( !m ev]   
assume4  ,he nev] call$ 8 lackey b by   
,eh6 z if among/ ! numb] ( 8 s]vants my 
"l _h n kn[n :i* 0 9 wait+4  ,:5 he s5t 
him to buy any?+1 he ?rew ! money ^u !  
gr\nd in/ead ( putt+ x into 8 h&4 ,9    
%ort1 entirely =gett+ he 0 a man1 he    
treat$ him ) su* %ock+ contempt1 & s    
cruel a disda9 9 ev]y?+1 t ! poor lad1 a
 v good creature1 :om ,madam d',ep9ay _h
 recomm5d$1 quitt$ 8 s]vice )\t any o!r 
compla9t ?an t ( ! impossibility (      
endur+ su* treatm5t4  ,?is 0 ! la ,fleur
 ( ?is new presum+ up/>t4  ,z ^! ?+s 7  
no?+ m ?an ridicul\s1 b q opposite to my
 "*1 !y contribut$ to r5d] him suspici\s
 to me4  ,i c\ld easily imag9e t a man  
^: head 0 s mu* d]ang$ c\ld n h a he>t  
well plac$4  ,he piqu$ himself ^u no?+ s
 mu* z ^u s5tim5ts4  ,h[ c\ld ?is agree 
) defects :i* are peculi> to little     
m9ds8  ,h[ c ! cont9u$ ov]fl[+s ( a     
susceptible he>t suff] x to be          

incessantly employ$ 9 s _m little c>es  
relative to ! p]son8  ,he :o feels 8    
he>t inflam$ ) ?is cele/ial fire /rives 
to diffuse x1 & wi%es to %[ :at he      
int]nally is4  ,he w\ld wi% to place 8  
he>t 9 8 c\nt5ance1 & ?9ks n ( o!r pa9t 
= 8 *eeks4  ,i rememb] ! summ>y ( 8     
morality :i* ,madam d',ep9ay _h m5tion$ 
to me & adopt$4  ,?is consi/$ 9 "o s+le 
article2 t ! sole duty ( man is to foll[
 all ! incl9ations ( 8 he>t4  ,?is      
morality1 :5 ,i he>d x m5tion$1 gave me 
great matt] ( reflection1 al?\gh ,i at  
fir/ consid]$ x solely z a play ( wit4  
,b ,i soon p]ceiv$ x 0 a pr9ciple really
 ! rule ( 8 conduct1 & ( :i* ,i aft]w>ds
 _h1 at my own exp5se1 b too _m conv9c+ 
pro(s4 ,x is ! int]ior doctr9e ,did]ot  
has s frequ5tly intimat$ to me1 b :i* ,i
 nev] he>d him expla94  ,i rememb] hav+ 
sev]al ye>s be=e be5 frequ5tly told t   
,grimm 0 false1 t he _h no?+ m ?an !    
appe>ance ( s5tim5t1 & p>ticul>ly t he  
did n love me4  ,i recollect$ sev]al    
little anecdotes :i* ,i _h he>d ( him by

 ,m4 de ,francueil & ,madam de          
,*5onceaux1 nei!r ( :om e/eem$ him1 & to
 :om he mu/ h be5 kn[n1 z ,madam de     
,*5onceaux 0 daught] to ,madam de       
,ro*e*\>t1 ! intimate fri5d ( ! late    
,comte de ,friese1 & t ,m4 de           
,francueil1 at t "t v intimate ) !      
,visc\nt de ,polignac1 _h liv$ a good   
deal at ! ,palais ,royal precisely :5   
,grimm began to introduce himself !re4  
,all ,p>is he>d ( 8 despair aft] ! dea? 
( ! ,comte de ,friese4  ,x 0 necess>y to
 support ! reputation he _h acquir$ aft]
 ! rigors ( ,mademoiselle ,fel1 & ( :i* 
,i1 m ?an any o!r p]son1 %\ld h se5 !   
impo/ure1 _h ,i be5 less bl9d4  ,he 0   
oblig$ to be dragg$ to ! ,hotel de      
,ca/ries :]e he wor?ily play$ 8 "p1     
ab&on$ to ! mo/ mortal affliction4 ,!re1
 he e morn+ w5t into ! g>d5 to weep at 8
 ease1 hold+ be=e 8 eyes 8 h&k]*ief     
moi/5$ ) te>s1 z long z he 0 9 sight ( !
 hotel1 b at ! turn+ ( a c]ta9 alley1 p1
 ( :om he little ?\ght1 saw him in/antly
 put 8 h&k]*ief 9 8 pocket & take out ( 

x a book4  ,?is obs]vation1 :i* 0       
repeat$ly made1 soon became public 9    
,p>is1 & 0 almo/ z soon =gott54 ,i      
myself _h =gott5 x2 a circum/ance 9 :i* 
,i 0 conc]n$ br\ght x to my             
recollection4  ,i 0 at ! po9t ( dea? 9  
my b$1 9 ! ,rue de ,gr5elle1 ,grimm 0 9 
! c\ntry2 he came "o morn+1 q out (     
brea?1 to see me1 say+1 he _h arriv$ 9  
t[n t v in/ant2 & a mom5t aft]w>ds ,i   
le>n$ he _h arriv$ ! ev5+ be=e1 & _h be5
 se5 at ! !atre4  ,i he>d _m ?+s ( !    
same k9d2 b an obs]vation1 :i* ,i 0     
surpris$ n to h made soon]1 /ruck me m  
?an any?+ else4 ,i _h giv5 to ,grimm all
 my fri5ds )\t exception1 !y 7 become 84
  ,i 0 s insep>able f him1 t ,i %\ld h  
_h "s difficulty 9 cont9u+ to visit at a
 h\se :]e he 0 n receiv$4 ,madam de     
,crequi 0 ! only p]son :o refus$ to     
admit him into h] company1 & :om = t    
reason ,i h seldom s9ce se54  ,grimm on 
8 "p made himself o!r fri5ds1 z well by 
8 own means1 z by ^? ( ! ,comte de      
,friese4  ,( all ^! n "o ( !m ev] became

 my fri5d3 he nev] said a ^w to induce  
me ev5 to become acqua9t$ ) !m1 & n "o (
 ^? ,i sometimes met at 8 ap>tm5ts ev]  
%[$ me ! lea/ good w2 ! ,comte de       
,friese1 9 ^: h\se he liv$1 & ) :om x   
consequ5tly w\ld h be5 agreeable to me  
to =m "s connection1 n except$1 nor !   
,comte de ,s*omb]g1 8 relation1 ) :om   
,grimm 0 /ill m intimate4  ,add to ?is1 
my own fri5ds1 :om ,i made 81 & :o 7 all
 t5d]ly atta*$ to me be=e ?is           
acqua9tance1 7 no long] s ! mom5t x 0   
made4  ,he nev] gave me "o ( 84  ,i gave
 him all m9e1 & ^! he has tak5 f me4    
,if ^! be ! effects ( fri5d%ip1 :at are 
^? ( enmity8  ,did]ot himself told me   
sev]al times at ! beg9n+ t ,grimm 9 :om 
,i _h s mu* confid5ce1 0 n my fri5d4    
,he *ang$ 8 language ! mom5t he 0 no    
long] s himself4  ,! mann] 9 :i* ,i _h  
dispos$ ( my *ildr5 want$ n ! concurr5ce
 ( any p]son4  ,yet ,i in=m$ "s ( my    
fri5ds ( x1 solely to make x kn[n to !m1
 & t ,i might n 9 _! eyes appe> bett]   
?an ,i 04  ,^! fri5ds 7 ?ree 9 numb]3   

,did]ot1 ,grimm1 & ,madam d',ep9ay4     
,duclos1 ! mo/ wor?y ( my confid5ce1 0 !
 only real fri5d :om ,i did n in=m ( x4 
,he nev]!less knew :at ,i _h done4  ,by 
:om8  ,?is ,i "k n4  ,x is n v probable 
! p]fidy came f ,madam d',ep9ay1 :o knew
 t by foll[+ h] example1 _h ,i be5      
capable ( do+ x1 ,i _h 9 my p[] ! means 
( a cruel rev5ge4  ,x rema9s !re=e      
betwe5 ,grimm & ,did]ot1 !n s mu* unit$1
 especially aga9/ me1 & x is probable   
?is crime 0 common to !m bo?4  ,i w\ld  
lay a wag] t ,duclos1 to :om ,i nev]    
told my secret1 & :o consequ5tly 0 at   
lib]ty to make :at use he pleas$ ( 8    
in=mation1 is ! only p]son :o has n     
spok5 ( x aga94  ,grimm & ,did]ot1 9 _! 
project to take f me ! gov]nesses1 _h   
us$ ! greate/ ef=ts to make ,duclos ent]
 into _! views2 b ?is he refus$ to d )  
disda94  ,x 0 n until sometime aft]w>ds 
t ,i le>n$ f him :at _h pass$ betwe5 !m 
on ! subject2 b ,i le>n$ at ! "t f      
,!resa en\gh to p]ceive !re 0 "s secret 
design1 & t !y wi%$ to dispose ( me1 if 

n aga9/ my own cons5t1 at lea/ )\t my k1
 or _h an int5tion ( mak+ ^! two p]sons 
s]ve z in/rum5ts ( "s project !y _h 9   
view4 ,?is 0 f> f upright conduct4  ,!  
opposition ( ,duclos is a conv9c+ pro( (
 x4  ,!y :o ?9k prop] may believe x to  
be fri5d%ip4  ,?is pret5d$ fri5d%ip 0 z 
fatal to me at home z x 0 abroad4 ,!    
long & frequ5t conv]sations ) ,madam le 
,vasseur1 =1 sev]al ye>s pa/1 _h made a 
s5sible *ange 9 ?is woman's behavior to 
me1 & ! *ange 0 f> f be+ 9 my favor4    
,:at 0 ! subject ( ^! s+ul>             
conv]sations8  ,:y su* a pr(\nd my/]y8  
,0 ! conv]sation ( t old woman agreeable
 en\gh to take h] into favor1 & (       
suffici5t importance to make ( x s great
 a secret8  ,dur+ ! two or ?ree ye>s ^! 
colloquies _h1 f "t to "t1 be5 cont9u$1 
!y _h appe>$ to me ridicul\s2 b :5 ,i   
?\ght ( !m aga91 !y began to a/oni% me4 
,?is a/oni%m5t w\ld h be5 c>ri$ to      
inquietude _h ,i !n kn[n :at ! old      
creature 0 prep>+ = me4  ,not)/&+ !     
pret5d$ zeal = my welf>e ( :i* ,grimm   

made su* a public boa/1 difficult to    
reconcile ) ! airs he gave himself :5 we
 7 toge!r1 ,i he>d no?+ ( him f any     
qu>t] ! lea/ to my advantage1 & 8 feign$
 commis]ation t5d$ less to d me s]vice  
?an to r5d] me contemptible4  ,he       
depriv$ me z mu* z he possibly c\ld ( ! 
res\rce ,i f\nd 9 ! employm5t ,i _h     
*os51 by decry+ me z a bad copyi/4  ,i  
confess he spoke ! tru?2 b 9 ?is case x 
0 n = him to d x4  ,he prov$ himself 9  
e>ne/ by employ+ ano!r copyi/1 &        
prevail+ ^u ev]ybody he c\ld1 by :om ,i 
0 engag$1 to d ! same4  ,8 int5tion     
might h be5 suppos$ to be t ( r$uc+ me  
to a dep5d5ce ^u him & 8 cr$it = a      
subsi/5ce1 & to cut (f ! latt] until ,i 
0 br\ght to t degree ( di/ress4  ,all   
?+s consid]$1 my reason impos$ sil5ce ^u
 my =m] prejudice1 :i* /ill plead$ 9 8  
favor4  ,i judg$ 8 "* to be at lea/     
suspici\s1 & ) respect to 8 fri5d%ip ,i 
positively decid$ x to be false4  ,i !n 
resolv$ to see him no m1 & in=m$ ,madam 
d',ep9ay ( ! resolution ,i _h tak51     

support+1 x ) sev]al unansw]able facts1 
b :i* ,i h n[ =gott54  ,%e /rongly      
combat$ my resolution )\t kn[+ h[ to    
reply to ! reasons on :i* x 0 f\nd$4    
,%e _h n conc]t$ ) him2 b ! next day1   
in/ead ( expla9+ h]self v]bally1 %e1 )  
great address1 gave me a lett] !y _h    
drawn up toge!r1 & by :i*1 )\t ent]+    
into a detail ( facts1 %e ju/ifi$ him by
 8 conc5trat$ "*1 attribut$ to me z a   
crime my hav+ suspect$ him ( p]fidy     
t[>ds 8 fri5d1 & exhort$ me to come to  
an accommodation ) him4  ,?is lett]     
/agg]$ me4  ,9 a conv]sation we aft]w>ds
 _h toge!r1 & 9 :i* ,i f\nd h] bett]    
prep>$ ?an %e _h be5 ! fir/ "t1 ,i      
suff]$ myself to be q prevail$ ^u1 & 0  
incl9$ to believe ,i might h judg$      
errone\sly4  ,9 ?is case ,i ?\ght ,i    
really _h done a fri5d a v s]i\s injury1
 :i* x 0 my duty to repair4  ,9 %ort1 z 
,i _h already done sev]al times )       
,did]ot1 & ! ,b>on d',holba*1 half f    
incl9ation1 & half f weakness1 ,i made  
all ! advances ,i _h a "r to require2 ,i

 w5t to ,m4 ,grimm1 l ano!r ,george     
,d&91 to make him my apologies = ! (f5ce
 he _h giv5 me2 /ill 9 ! false          
p]suasion1 :i*1 9 ! c\rse ( my life has 
made me guilty ( a ?\s& meannesses to my
 pret5d$ fri5ds1 t !re is no hatr$ :i*  
may n be dis>m$ by mildness & prop]     
behavior2 :]eas1 on ! contr>y1 ! hatr$ (
 ! wick$ becomes /ill m env5om$ by !    
impossibility ( f9d+ any?+ to f\nd x ^u1
 & ! s5tim5t ( _! own inju/ice is ano!r 
cause ( (f5ce aga9/ ! p]son :o is !     
object ( x4 ,i h1 )\t go+ fur!r ?an my  
own hi/ory1 a /rong pro( ( ?is maxim 9  
,grimm1 & 9 ,tron*92 bo? became my      
implacable enemies f incl9ation1        
pleasure & fancy1 )\t hav+ be5 able to  
*>ge me ) hav+ done ei!r ( !m ! mo/     
trifl+ injury1       ,i did n give !    
surname ( ,jongleur only to ! latt]     
until a      long "t aft] 8 enmity _h   
be5 decl>$1 & ! p]secutions      he     
br\ght ^u me at ,g5eva & else:]e4  ,i   
soon suppress$ !      "n ! mom5t ,i     
p]ceiv$ ,i 0 entirely 8 victim4  ,mean  

v5geance is unwor?y ( my he>t1 & hatr$  
nev] takes ! lea/      root 9 x4  & ^:  
rage1 l t ( tig]s1 becomes daily m fi]ce
 by ! facility ( satiat+ x4  ,i expect$ 
t ,grimm1 confus$ by my condesc5sion &  
advances1 w\ld receive me ) op5 arms1 & 
! mo/ t5d] fri5d%ip4  ,he receiv$ me z a
 ,roman ,emp]or w\ld h done1 & ) a      
haught9ess ,i nev] saw 9 any p]son b    
himself4  ,i 0 by no means prep>$ = su* 
a reception4  ,:51 9 ! emb>rassm5t ( !  
"p ,i _h to act1 & :i* 0 s unwor?y ( me1
 ,i _h1 9 a few words & ) a timid air1  
fulfill$ ! object :i* _h br\ght me to   
him2 be=e he receiv$ me into favor1 he  
pron\nc$1 ) a deal ( maje/y1 an h>angue 
he _h prep>$1 & :i* conta9$ a long      
enum]ation ( 8 r>e virtues1 & especially
 ^? connect$ ) fri5d%ip4  ,he laid great
 /ress ^u a ?+ :i* at fir/ /ruck me a   
great deal3 ?is 0 8 hav+ always pres]v$ 
! same fri5ds4  ,:il/ he 0 yet speak+1  
,i said to myself1 x w\ld be cruel = me 
to be ! only exception to ?is rule4 ,he 
return$ to ! subject s frequ5tly1 & )   

su* emphasis1 t ,i ?\ght1 if 9 ?is he   
foll[$ no?+ b ! s5tim5ts ( 8 he>t1 he   
w\ld be less /ruck ) ! maxim1 & t he    
made ( x an art useful to 8 views by    
procur+ ! means ( accompli%+ !m4  ,until
 !n ,i _h be5 9 ! same situation2 ,i _h 
pres]v$ all my fir/ fri5ds1 ^? ev5 f my 
t5d]e/ infancy1 )\t hav+ lo/ "o ( !m    
except by dea?1 & yet ,i _h nev] be=e   
made ! reflection3 x 0 n a maxim ,i _h  
prescrib$ myself4  ,s9ce1 !re=e1 !      
advantage 0 common to bo?1 :y did he    
boa/ ( x 9 pref]5ce1 if he _h n         
previ\sly int5d$ to deprive me ( ! m]it8
  ,he aft]w>ds endeavor$ to humble me by
 pro(s ( ! pref]5ce our common fri5ds   
gave to me4 ,) ?is ,i 0 z well acqua9t$ 
z himself2 ! "q 01 by :at means he _h   
obta9$ x8 :e!r x 0 by m]it or address8  
by exalt+ himself1 or endeavor+ to abase
 me8  ,at la/1 :5 he _h plac$ betwe5 u  
all ! di/ance t he c\ld add to ! value (
 ! favor he 0 ab\t to conf]1 he grant$  
me ! kiss ( peace1 9 a slight embrace   
:i* resembl$ ! accolade :i* ! k+ gives  

to newmade knights4 ,i 0 /upefi$ )      
surprise3 ,i knew n :at to say2 n a ^w  
c\ld ,i utt]4  ,! :ole sc5e _h !        
appe>ance ( ! reprim& a preceptor gives 
to 8 pupil :ile he graci\sly sp>es      
inflict+ ! rod4 ,i nev] ?9k ( x )\t     
p]ceiv+ to :at degree judgm5ts1 f\nd$ ^u
 appe>ances to :i* ! vulg> give s mu*   
weight1 are deceitful1 & h[ frequ5tly   
audaci\sness & pride are f\nd 9 !       
guilty1 & %ame & emb>rassm5t 9 !        
innoc5t4  ,we 7 reconcil$3 ?is 0 a      
relief to my he>t1 :i* e k9d ( qu>rel   
fills ) angui%4  ,x w naturally be      
suppos$ t a l reconciliation *ang$ no?+ 
9 8 mann]s2 all x effect$ 0 to deprive  
me ( ! "r ( compla9+ ( !m4  ,= ?is      
reason ,i took a resolution to endure   
ev]y?+1 & = ! future to say n a ^w4  ,s 
_m successive vexations ov]:elm$ me to  
su* a degree z to leave me b little p[] 
ov] my m9d4  ,receiv+ no answ] f ,sa9t  
,lamb]t1 neglect$ by ,madam d',h\detot1 
& no long] d>+ to op5 my he>t to any    
p]son1 ,i began to be afraid t by mak+  

fri5d%ip my idol1 ,i %\ld sacrifice my  
:ole life to *im]as4  ,aft] putt+ all ^?
 ) :om ,i _h be5 acqua9t$ to ! te/1 !re 
rema9$ b two :o _h pres]v$ my e/eem1 & 9
 :om my he>t c\ld confide3 ,duclos1 (   
:om s9ce my retreat to ! ,h]mitage ,i _h
 lo/ sight1 & ,sa9t ,lamb]t4  ,i ?\ght !
 only means ( repair+ ! wrongs ,i _h    
done ! latt]1 0 to op5 myself to him )\t
 res]ve1 & ,i resolv$ to confess to him 
ev]y?+ by :i* 8 mi/ress %\ld n be       
expos$4 ,i h no d\bt b ?is 0 ano!r sn>e 
( my passions to keep me ne>] to h]     
p]son2 b ,i %\ld c]ta9ly h _h no res]ve 
) h] lov]1 entirely submitt+ to 8       
direction1 & c>ry+ s9c]ity z f> z x 0   
possible to d x4  ,i 0 ^u ! po9t ( writ+
 to him a second lett]1 to :i* ,i 0     
c]ta9 he w\ld h return$ an answ]1 :5 ,i 
le>n$ ! melan*oly cause ( 8 sil5ce      
relative to ! fir/4 ,he _h be5 unable to
 support until ! end ! fatigues ( !     
campaign4 ,madam d',ep9ay in=m$ me he _h
 _h an attack ( ! palsy1 & ,madam       
d',h\detot1 ill f affliction1 wrote me  

two or ?ree days aft] f ,p>is1 t he 0   
go+ to ,aix-la-,*apelle to take ! b5efit
 ( ! wat]s4  ,i w n say ?is melan*oly   
circum/ance afflict$ me z x did h]2 b ,i
 am ( op9ion my grief ( he>t 0 z pa9ful 
z h] te>s4  ,! pa9 ( kn[+ him to be 9   
su* a /ate1 increas$ by ! fe> lea/      
inquietude %\ld h contribut$ to occasion
 x1 affect$ me m ?an any?+ t _h yet     
happ5$1 & ,i felt mo/ cruelly a want (  
=titude1 :i* 9 my e/imation 0 necess>y  
to enable me to support s _m mis=tunes4 
,happily ?is g5]\s fri5d did n long     
leave me s ov]:elm$ ) affliction2 he did
 n =get me1 not)/&+ 8 attack2 & ,i soon 
le>n$ f himself t ,i _h ill judg$ 8     
s5tim5ts1 & be5 too mu* al>m$ = 8       
situation4 ,x is n[ "t ,i %\ld come to !
 gr& revolution ( my de/9y1 to !        
cata/rophe :i* has divid$ my life 9 two 
p>ts s diff]5t f ea* o!r1 &1 f a v      
trifl+ cause1 produc$ su* t]rible       
effects4  ,"o day1 little ?9k+ ( :at 0  
to happ51 ,madam d',ep9ay s5t = me to ! 
,*evrette4  ,! mom5t ,i saw h] ,i       

p]ceiv$ 9 h] eyes & :ole c\nt5ance an   
appe>ance ( uneas9ess1 :i* /ruck me ! m1
 z ?is 0 n cu/om>y1 nobody kn[+ bett]   
?an %e did h[ to gov]n h] features & h] 
movem5ts4  ,my fri5d1 said %e to me1 ,i 
am imm$iately go+ to set (f = ,g5eva2 my
 brea/ is 9 a bad /ate1 & my heal? s    
d]ang$ t ,i mu/ g & consult ,tron*94 ,i 
0 ! m a/oni%$ at ?is resolution s       
sudd5ly tak51 & at ! beg9n+ ( ! bad     
season ( ! ye>1 z ?irty-six h\rs be=e %e
 _h n1 :5 ,i left h]1 s mu* z ?\ght ( x4
  ,i ask$ h] :o %e w\ld take ) h]4  ,%e 
said h] son & ,m4 de ,l9ant2 & aft]w>ds 
c>elessly add$1 ,& y1 de>1 w n y g also8
  ,z ,i did n ?9k %e spoke s]i\sly1 kn[+
 t at ! season ( ! ye> ,i 0 sc>cely 9 a 
situation to g to my *amb]1 ,i jok$ ^u !
 utility ( ! company1 ( "o sick p]son to
 ano!r4  ,%e h]self _h n seem$ to make !
 proposition s]i\sly1 & "h ! matt]      
dropp$4  ,! re/ ( our conv]sation ran ^u
 ! necess>y prep>ations = h] j\rney1    
ab\t :i* %e imm$iately gave ord]s1 be+  
det]m9$ to set (f )9 a =tnight4  ,%e lo/

 no?+ by my refusal1 hav+ prevail$ ^u h]
 husb& to accompany h]4  ,a few days    
aft]w>ds ,i receiv$ f ,did]ot ! note ,i 
am go+ to transcribe4  ,?is note1 simply
 d\bl$ up1 s t ! cont5ts 7 easily read1 
0 address$ to me at ,madam d',ep9ay's1 &
 s5t to ,m4 de ,l9ant1 tutor to ! son1 &
 confidant to ! "m4   ,,note ,,f        
,,did]ot4  ,i am naturally dispos$ to   
love y1 & am born to give y tr\ble4  ,i 
am in=m$ ,madam d',ep9ay is go+ to      
,g5eva1 & d n he> y are to accompany h]4
  ,my fri5d1 y are satisfi$ ) ,madam    
d',ep9ay1 y mu/ g1 ) h]2 if dissatisfi$ 
y ought /ill less to hesitate4  ,d y f9d
 ! weight ( ! obligations y are "u to h]
 uneasy to y8  ,?is is an opportunity ( 
dis*>g+ a "p ( !m1 & reliev+ y\r m9d4   
,d y ev] expect ano!r opportunity l !   
pres5t "o1 ( giv+ h] pro(s ( y\r        
gratitude8  ,%e is go+ to a c\ntry :]e  
%e w be q a /rang]4  ,%e is ill1 & w /& 
9 ne$ ( amusem5t & dissipation4  ,! w9t]
 season too6  ,consid]1 my fri5d4 ,y\r  
ill /ate ( heal? may be a mu* great]    

objection ?an ,i ?9k x is2 b are y n[ m 
indispos$ ?an y 7 a mon? ago1 or ?an y w
 be at ! beg9n+ ( spr+8  ,w y ?ree mon?s
 h5ce be 9 a situation to p]=m ! j\rney 
m at y\r ease ?an at pres5t8 ,= my "p ,i
 _c b obs]ve to y t 7 ,i unable to be> !
 %ak+ ( ! c>riage ,i w\ld take my /aff &
 foll[ h]4  ,h y no fe>s le/ y\r conduct
 %\ld be mis9t]pret$8  ,y w be suspect$ 
( +ratitude or ( a secret motive4  ,i   
well "k1 t let y d z y w y w h 9 y\r    
favor ! te/imony ( y\r consci5ce1 b w   
?is alone be suffici5t1 & is x p]mitt$  
to neglect to a c]ta9 degree t :i* is   
necess>y to acquire ! approbation (     
o!rs8  ,:at ,i n[ write1 my good fri5d1 
is to acquit myself ( :at ,i ?9k ,i owe 
to u bo?4  ,%\ld my lett] displease y1  
?r[ x into ! fire & let x be =gott54  ,i
 salute1 love & embrace y4  ,al?\gh     
trembl+ & almo/ bl9d ) rage :il/ ,i read
 ?is epi/le1 ,i rem>k$ ! address ) :i*  
,did]ot affect$ a mild] & m polite      
language ?an he _h done 9 8 =m] ones1   
:]e9 he nev] w5t fur!r ?an ,my de>1 )\t 

ev] deign+ to add ! "n ( fri5d4  ,i     
easily discov]$ ! secondh& means by :i* 
! lett] 0 convey$ to me2 ! subscription1
 mann] & =m awkw>dly betray$ !          
manoeuvre2 = we commonly wrote to ea*   
o!r by po/1 or ! mess5g] ( ,montmor5cy1 
& ?is 0 ! fir/ & only "t he s5t me 8    
lett] by any o!r conveyance4  ,z soon z 
! fir/ transports ( my indignation      
p]mitt$ me to write1 ,i1 ) great        
precipitation1 wrote him ! foll[+ answ]1
 :i* ,i imm$iately c>ri$ f ! ,h]mitage1 
:]e ,i !n 01 to ,*evrette1 to %[ x to   
,madam d' ,ep9ay2 to :om1 9 my bl9d     
rage1 ,i read ! cont5ts1 z well z !     
lett] f ,did]ot4  ,y _c1 my de> fri5d1  
ei!r "k ! magnitude ( ! obligations ,i  
am "u to ,madam d',ep9ay1 to :at a      
degree ,i am b\nd by !m1 :e!r or n %e is
 desir\s ( my accompany+ h]1 t ?is is   
possible1 or ! reasons ,i may h = my    
noncompliance4  ,i h no objection to    
discuss all ^! po9ts ) y2 b y w 9 !     
meantime confess t prescrib+ to me s    
positively :at ,i ought to d1 )\t fir/  

enabl+ y\rself to judge ( ! matt]1 is1  
my de> philosoph]1 act+ v               
inconsid]ately4  ,:at is /ill worse1 ,i 
p]ceive ! op9ion y give comes n f       
y\rself4  ,besides my be+ b little      
dispos$ to suff] myself to be l$ by !   
nose "u y\r "n by any ?ird or f\r?      
p]son1 ,i obs]ve 9 ?is second>y advice  
c]ta9 und]h& deal+1 :i* ill agrees ) y\r
 c&or1 & f :i* y w on y\r acc\nt1 z well
 z m9e1 d well 9 future to ab/a94  ,y   
are afraid my conduct %\ld be           
mis9t]pret$2 b ,i defy a he>t l y\rs to 
?9k ill ( m9e4  ,o!rs w\ld p]haps speak 
bett] ( me if ,i resembl$ !m m4  ,god   
pres]ve me f ga9+ _! approbation6  ,let 
! vile & wick$ wat* ov] my conduct &    
mis9t]pret my actions1 ,r\sseau is n a  
man to be afraid ( !m1 nor is ,did]ot to
 be prevail$ ^u to he>k5 to :at !y say4 
,if ,i am displeas$ ) y\r lett]1 y wi%  
me to ?r[ x into ! fire1 & pay no       
att5tion to ! cont5ts4  ,d y imag9e t   
any?+ com+ f y c be =gott5 9 su* a      
mann]8  ,y hold1 my de> fri5d1 my te>s z

 *eap 9 ! pa9 y give me1 z y d my life &
 heal?1 9 ! c>es y exhort me to take4   
,c\ld y b break y\rself ( ?is1 y\r      
fri5d%ip w\ld be m pleas+ to me1 & ,i   
%\ld be less to be piti$4  ,on ent]+ !  
*amb] ( ,madam d',ep9ay ,i f\nd ,grimm )
 h]1 ) :i* ,i 0 highly delight$4  ,i    
read to !m1 9 a l\d & cle> voice1 ! two 
lett]s1 ) an intrepidity ( :i* ,i %\ld n
 h ?\ght myself capable1 & conclud$ ) a 
few obs]vations n 9 ! lea/ d]ogatory to 
x4  ,at ?is unexpect$ audacity 9 a man  
g5]ally timid1 !y 7 /ruck dumb )        
surprise2 ,i p]ceiv$ t arrogant man look
 d[n ^u ! gr\nd1 n d>+ to meet my eyes1 
:i* sp>kl$ ) indignation2 b 9 ! bottom (
 8 he>t he f t in/ant resolv$ ^u my     
de/ruction1 &1 ) ,madam d' ,ep9ay1 ,i am
 c]ta9 conc]t$ measures to t effect be=e
 !y sep>at$4  ,x 0 mu* ab\t ?is "t t ,i 
at l5g? receiv$1 by ,madam d',h\detot1 !
 answ] f ,sa9t ,lamb]t1 dat$ f          
,wolf5buttle1 a few days aft] ! accid5t 
_h happ5$ to him1 to my lett] :i* _h be5
 long delay$ ^u ! road4  ,?is answ] gave

 me ! consolation ( :i* ,i !n /ood s mu*
 9 ne$2 x 0 full ( assurance ( e/eem &  
fri5d%ip1 & ^! gave me /r5g? & c\rage to
 des]ve !m4  ,f t mom5t ,i did my duty1 
b _h ,sa9t ,lamb]t be5 less reasonable1 
g5]\s & hone/1 ,i 0 inevitably lo/4  ,! 
season became bad1 & p began to quit !  
c\ntry4  ,madam d',h\detot in=m$ me ( ! 
day on :i* %e int5d$ to come & bid adieu
 to ! valley1 & gave me a r5dezv\s at   
,laubonne4  ,?is happ5$ to be ! same day
 on :i* ,madam d',ep9ay left ! ,*evrette
 to g to ,p>is = ! purpose ( complet+   
prep>ations = h] j\rney4 ,=tunately %e  
set (f 9 ! morn+1 & ,i _h /ill "t to g &
 d9e ) h] si/]-9-law4  ,i _h ! lett] f  
,sa9t ,lamb]t 9 my pocket1 & read x ov] 
sev]al times z ,i walk$ along1 ,?is     
lett] s]v$ me z a %ield aga9/ my        
weakness4  ,i made & kept to !          
resolution ( see+ no?+ 9 ,madam         
d',h\detot b my fri5d & ! mi/ress (     
,sa9t ,lamb]t2 & ,i pass$ ) h] a        
tete-a-fete ( f\r h\rs 9 a mo/ delici\s 
calm1 inf9itely pref]able1 ev5 ) respect

 to enjoym5t1 to ! p>oxysms ( a burn+   
fev]1 :i*1 always1 until t mom5t1 ,i _h 
_h :5 9 h] pres5ce4  ,z %e too well knew
 my he>t n to be *ang$1 %e 0 s5sible ( !
 ef=ts ,i made to conqu] myself1 &      
e/eem$ me ! m = !m1 & ,i _h ! pleasure (
 p]ceiv+ t h] fri5d%ip = me 0 n         
ext+ui%$4  ,%e ann\nc$ to me ! approa*+ 
return ( ,sa9t ,lamb]t1 :o1 al?\gh well 
en\gh recov]$ f 8 attack1 0 unable to   
be> ! fatigues ( w>1 & 0 quitt+ ! s]vice
 to come & live 9 peace ) h]4 ,we =m$ ! 
*>m+ project ( an intimate connection   
betwe5 u ?ree1 & _h reason to hope x    
w\ld be la/+1 s9ce x 0 f\nd$ on e       
s5tim5t by :i* hone/ & susceptible he>ts
 c\ld be unit$2 & we _h moreov] among/ u
 all ! k & tal5ts necess>y to be        
suffici5t to ourselves )\t ! aid ( any  
=eign supplem5t4  ,alas6  9 ab&on+      
myself to ! hope ( s agreeable a life ,i
 little suspect$ t :i* await$ me4  ,we  
aft]w>ds spoke ( my situation ) ,madam  
d',ep9ay4  ,i %[$ h] ! lett] f ,did]ot1 
) my answ] to x2 ,i relat$ to h] ev]y?+ 

t _h pass$ ^u ! subject1 & decl>$ to h] 
my resolution ( quitt+ ! ,h]mitage4     
,?is %e vehem5tly oppos$1 & by reasons  
all p[]ful ov] my he>t4 ,%e express$ to 
me h[ mu* %e c\ld h wi%$ ,i _h be5 ( !  
p>ty to ,g5eva1 =esee+ %e %\ld          
inevitably be consid]$ z hav+ caus$ !   
refusal1 :i* ! lett] ( ,did]ot seem$    
previ\sly to ann\nce4  ,h[ev]1 z %e 0   
acqua9t$ ) my reasons1 %e did n insi/ ^u
 ?is po9t1 b conjur$ me to avoid com+ to
 an op5 rupture let x co/ me :at        
mortification x w\ld1 & to palliate my  
refusal by reasons suffici5tly plausible
 to put away all unju/ suspicions ( h]  
hav+ be5 ! cause ( x4  ,i told h] ! task
 %e impos$ on me 0 n easy2 b t1 resolv$ 
to expiate my faults at ! exp5se ( my   
reputation1 ,i w\ld give ! pref]5ce to  
h]s 9 ev]y?+ t honor p]mitt$ me to      
suff]4  ,x w soon be se5 :e!r or n ,i   
fulfill$ ?is engagem5t4  ,my passion 0 s
 f> f hav+ lo/ any "p ( its =ce t ,i    
nev] 9 my life lov$ my ,sophia s ard5tly
 & t5d]ly z on t day1 b su* 0 !         

impression made ^u me by ! lett] ( ,sa9t
 ,lamb]t1 ! s5tim5t ( my duty & ! horror
 9 :i* ,i held p]fidy1 t dur+ ! :ole "t 
( ! int]view my s5ses left me 9 peace1 &
 ,i 0 n s mu* z tempt$ to kiss h] h&4   
,at p>t+ %e embrac$ me be=e h] s]vants4 
,?is embrace1 s diff]5t f ^? ,i _h      
sometimes /ol5 f h] "u ! foliage1 prov$ 
,i 0 become ma/] ( myself2 & ,i am c]ta9
 t _h my m9d1 undi/urb$1 _h "t to       
acquire m firmness1 ?ree mon?s w\ld h   
cur$ me radically4  ,"h ends my p]sonal 
connections ) ,madam d',h\detot2        
connections ( :i* ea* has be5 able to   
judge by appe>ance accord+ to !         
disposition ( 8 own he>t1 b 9 :i* !     
passion inspir$ me by t amiable woman1 !
 mo/ lively passion1 p]haps1 man ev]    
felt1 w be honorable 9 our own eyes by !
 r>e & pa9ful sacrifice we bo? made to  
duty1 honor1 love1 & fri5d%ip4  ,we ea* 
_h too high an op9ion ( ! o!r easily to 
suff] ourselves to d any?+ d]ogatory to 
our dignity4  ,we mu/ h be5 unwor?y (   
all e/eem _h we n set a prop] value ^u  

"o l ?is1 & ! en]gy ( my s5tim5ts :i* h 
r5d]$ u culpable1 0 t :i* prev5t$ u f   
becom+ s4  ,?us aft] a long fri5d%ip =  
"o ( ^! wom51 & ! /ronge/ affection = ! 
o!r1 ,i bade !m bo? adieu ! same day1 to
 "o nev] to see h] m1 to ! o!r to see h]
 aga9 twice1 ^u occasions ( :i* ,i %all 
h]eaft] speak4  ,aft] _! dep>ture1 ,i   
f\nd myself mu* emb>rass$ to fulfill s  
_m press+ & contradictory duties1 !     
consequ5ces ( my imprud5ce2 _h ,i be5 9 
my natural situation1 aft] ! proposition
 & refusal ( ! j\rney to ,g5eva1 ,i _h  
only to rema9 quiet1 & ev]y?+ 0 z x %\ld
 be4  ,b ,i _h fooli%ly made ( x an     
affair :i* c\ld n rema9 9 ! /ate x 01 & 
an explanation 0 absolutely necess>y1   
unless ,i quitt$ ! ,h]mitage1 :i* ,i _h 
j promis$ ,madam d',h\detot n to d1 at  
lea/ = ! pres5t4  ,moreov] %e _h requir$
 me to make kn[n ! reasons = my refusal 
to my pret5d$ fri5ds1 t x might n be    
imput$ to h]4  ,yet ,i c\ld n /ate !    
true reason )\t do+ an outrage to ,madam
 d',ep9ay1 :o c]ta9ly _h a "r to my     

gratitude = :at %e _h done = me4        
,ev]y?+ well consid]$1 ,i f\nd myself   
r$uc$ to ! sev]e b indisp5sable         
necessity ( fail+ 9 respect1 ei!r to    
,madam d',up9ay1 ,madam d',h\detot or to
 myself2 & x 0 ! la/ ,i resolv$ to make 
my victim4  ,?is ,i did )\t hesitation1 
op5ly & fully1 & ) s mu* g5]osity z to  
make ! act wor?y ( expiat+ ! faults :i* 
_h r$uc$ me to su* an extremity4  ,?is  
sacrifice1 tak5 advantage ( by my       
enemies1 & :i* !y1 p]haps1 did n expect1
 has ru9$ my reputation1 & by _!        
assiduity1 depriv$ me ( ! e/eem ( !     
public2 b x has re/or$ to me my own1 &  
giv5 me consolation 9 my mis=tune4      
,?is1 z x w h]eaft] appe>1 is n ! la/ "t
 ,i made su* a sacrifice1 nor t         
advantages 7 tak5 ( x to d me an injury4
  ,grimm 0 ! only p]son :o appe>$ to h  
tak5 no "p 9 ! affair1 & x 0 to him ,i  
det]m9$ to address myself4  ,i wrote him
 a long lett]1 9 :i* ,i set =? !        
ridicul\sness ( consid]+ x z my duty to 
accompany ,madam d' ,ep9ay to ,g5eva1 ! 

inutility ( ! measure1 & ! emb>rassm5t  
ev5 x w\ld h caus$ h]1 besides !        
inconv5i5ce to myself4  ,i c\ld n resi/ 
! temptation ( lett+ him p]ceive 9 ?is  
lett] h[ fully ,i 0 in=m$ 9 :at mann]   
?+s 7 arrang$1 & t to me x appe>$ s+ul> 
,i %\ld be expect$ to und]take ! j\rney 
:il/ he himself disp5s$ ) x1 & t 8 "n 0 
nev] m5tion$4  ,?is lett]1 :]e91 on     
acc\nt ( my n be+ able cle>ly to /ate my
 reasons1 ,i 0 (t5 oblig$ to w&] f !    
text1 w\ld h r5d]$ me culpable 9 ! eyes 
( ! public1 b x 0 a model ( res]v$ness &
 discretion = ! p :o1 l ,grimm1 7 fully 
acqua9t$ ) ! ?+s ,i =bore to m5tion1 &  
:i* ju/ifi$ my conduct4  ,i did n ev5   
hesitate to raise ano!r prejudice aga9/ 
myself 9 attribut+ ! advice ( ,did]ot1  
to my o!r fri5ds4  ,?is ,i did to       
ins9uate t ,madam d',h\detot _h be5 9 ! 
same op9ion z %e really 01 & 9 n m5tion+
 t1 ^u ! reasons ,i gave h]1 %e ?\ght   
diff]5tly1 ,i c\ld n bett] remove !     
suspicion ( h] hav+ conniv$ at my       
proce$+s ?an appe>+ dissatisfi$ ) h]    

behavior4  ,?is lett] 0 conclud$ by an  
act ( confid5ce :i* w\ld h _h an effect 
^u any o!r man2 =1 9 desir+ ,grimm to   
weigh my reasons & aft]w>ds to give me 8
 op9ion1 ,i in=m$ him t1 let ?is be :at 
x w\ld1 ,i %\ld act accord+ly1 & su* 0  
my int5tion _h he ev5 ?\ght ,i ought to 
set (f2 = ,m4 d',ep9ay hav+ appo9t$     
himself ! conductor ( 8 wife1 my go+ )  
!m w\ld !n h _h a diff]5t appe>ance2    
:]eas x 0 ,i :o1 9 ! fir/ place1 0 ask$ 
to take ^u me t employm5t1 & he 0 out ( 
! "q until aft] my refusal4  ,! answ] f 
,grimm 0 sl[ incom+2 x 0 s+ul> en\gh1 on
 :i* acc\nt ,i w "h transcribe x4  ,!   
dep>ture ( ,madam d',ep9ay is po/pon$2  
h] son is ill1 & x is necess>y to wait  
until 8 heal? is re-e/abli%$4  ,i w     
consid] ! cont5ts ( y\r lett]4  ,rema9  
quiet at y\r ,h]mitage4  ,i w s5d y my  
op9ion z soon z ?is %all be necess>y4   
,z %e w c]ta9ly n set (f = "s days1 !re 
is no imm$iate occasion = x4  ,9 !      
meantime y may1 if y ?9k prop]1 make h] 
y\r (f]s1 al?\gh ?is to me seems a matt]

 ( indiff]5ce4  ,=1 kn[+ y\r situation z
 well z y d y\rself1 ,i d\bt n ( h]     
return+ to y\r (f] su* an answ] z %e    
ought to d2 & all ! advantage :i*1 9 my 
op9ion1 c result f ?is1 w be y\r hav+ x 
9 y\r p[] to say to ^? by :om y may be  
importun$1 t y\r n be+ ( ! travell+ p>ty
 0 n = want ( hav+ made y\r (f]s to t   
effect4  ,moreov]1 ,i d n see :y y w    
absolutely h x t ! philosoph] is !      
speak+-trumpet ( all ! _w1 nor because  
he is ( op9ion y ought to g1 :y y %\ld  
imag9e all y\r fri5ds ?9k z he does8    
,if y write to ,madam d',ep9ay1 h] answ]
 w be y\rs to all y\r fri5ds1 s9ce y h x
 s mu* at he>t to give !m all an answ]4 
,adieu4  ,i embrace ,madam le ,vasseur &
 ! ,crim9al4       ,m4 le ,vasseur1 ^:  
wife gov]n$ him r rudely1 call$ h]      
! ,lieut5ant ,crim9al4  ,grimm 9 a joke 
gave ! same "n to !      daught]1 & by  
way ( abridgm5t 0 pleas$ to retr5* !    
fir/      ^w4  ,/ruck ) a/oni%m5t at    
read+ ?is lett] ,i va9ly endeavor$ to   
f9d out :at x meant4  ,h[6  in/ead (    

answ]+ me ) simplicity1 he took "t to   
consid] ( :at ,i _h writt51 z if ! "t he
 _h already tak5 0 n suffici5t6  ,he    
intimates ev5 ! /ate ( susp5se 9 :i* he 
wi%es to keep me1 z if a pr(\nd problem 
0 to be resolv$1 or t x 0 ( importance  
to 8 views to deprive me ( e means (    
compreh5d+ 8 int5tions until ! mom5t he 
%\ld ?9k prop] to make !m kn[n4  ,:at   
!re=e did he mean by ^! precautions1    
delays1 & my/]ies8  ,0 ?is mann] ( act+ 
consi/5t ) honor & uprightness8  ,i     
va9ly s\ght = "s favorable int]pretation
 ( 8 conduct2 x 0 impossible to f9d "o4 
,:atev] 8 design might be1 7 ?is        
inimical to me1 8 situation facilitat$ !
 execution ( x )\t its be+ possible = me
 9 m9e to oppose ! lea/ ob/acle4  ,9    
favor 9 ! h\se ( a great pr9ce1 hav+ an 
ext5sive acqua9tance1 & giv+ ! tone to  
common circles ( :i* he 0 ! oracle1 he  
_h x 9 8 p[]1 ) 8 usual address1 to     
dispose ev]y?+ 9 8 favor2 & ,i1 alone 9 
my ,h]mitage1 f> remov$ f all society1  
)\t ! b5efit ( advice1 & hav+ no        

communication ) ! _w1 _h no?+ to d b to 
rema9 9 peace4 ,all ,i did 0 to write to
 ,madam d',ep9ay ^u ! illness ( h] son1 
z polite a lett] z c\ld be writt51 b 9  
:i* ,i did n fall into ! sn>e ( (f]+ to 
accompany h] to ,g5eva4  ,aft] wait+ = a
 long "t 9 ! mo/ cruel unc]ta9ty1 into  
:i* t b>b>\s man _h plung$ me1 ,i le>n$1
 at ! expiration ( eight or t5 days1 t  
,madam d',ep9ay 0 set(f1 & receiv$ f him
 a second lett]4  ,x conta9$ n m ?an    
sev5 or eight l9es :i* ,i did n entirely
 read4  ,x 0 a rupture1 b 9 su* t]ms z !
 mo/ inf]nal hatr$ only c dictate1 & ^! 
became unmean+ by ! excessive degree (  
acrimony ) :i* he wi%$ to *>ge !m4  ,he 
=bade me 8 pres5ce z he w\ld h =bidd5 me
 8 /ates4  ,all t 0 want+ to 8 lett] to 
make x laughable1 0 to be read ov] )    
coolness4  ,)\t tak+ a copy ( x1 or     
read+ ! :ole ( ! cont5ts1 ,i return$ x  
him imm$iately1 accompani$ by ! foll[+  
note3  ,i refus$ to admit ! =ce ( ! j   
reasons ,i _h ( suspicion3 ,i n[1 :5 x  
is too late1 am become suffici5tly      

acqua9t$ ) y\r "*4  ,?is !n is ! lett]  
^u :i* y took "t to m$itate3 ,i return x
 to y1 x is n = me4  ,y may %[ m9e to ! 
:ole _w & hate me op5ly2 ?is on y\r "p w
 be a falsehood ! less4  ,my tell+ he   
might %[ my prec$+ lett] relat$ to an   
article 9 8 by :i* 8 pr(\nd address     
?r\gh\t ! :ole affair w be judg$ (4  ,i 
h obs]v$ t my lett] might inculpate me 9
 ! eyes ( p]sons unacqua9t$ ) !         
p>ticul>s ( :at _h pass$4  ,?is he 0    
delight$ to discov]2 b h[ 0 he to take  
advantage ( x )\t expos+ himself8  ,by  
%[+ ! lett] he ran ! risk ( be+ reproa*$
 ) abus+ ! confid5ce ( 8 fri5d4  ,to    
relieve himself f ?is emb>rassm5t he    
resolv$ to break ) me 9 ! mo/ viol5t    
mann] possible1 & to set =? 9 8 lett] ! 
favor he did me 9 n %[+ m9e4  ,he 0     
c]ta9 t 9 my indignation & ang] ,i %\ld 
refuse 8 feign$ discretion1 & p]mit him 
to %[ my lett] to ev]ybody2 ?is 0 :at he
 wi%$ =1 & ev]y?+ turn$ out z he expect$
 x w\ld4  ,he s5t my lett] all ov]      
,p>is1 ) 8 own comm5t>ies ^u x1 :i*1    

h[ev]1 7 n s successful z he _h expect$ 
!m to be4  ,x 0 n judg$ t ! p]mission he
 _h extort$ to make my lett] public     
exempt$ him f ! blame ( hav+ s lightly  
tak5 me at my ^w to d me an injury4 ,p  
cont9ually ask$ :at p]sonal compla9ts he
 _h aga9/ me to au?orize s viol5t a     
hatr$4  ,f9ally1 x 0 ?\ght t if ev5 my  
behavior _h be5 su* z to au?orize him to
 break ) me1 fri5d%ip1 al?\gh ext+ui%$1 
_h rights :i* he ought to h respect$4   
,b un=tunately ! inhabitants ( ,p>is are
 frivol\s2 rem>ks ( ! mom5t are soon    
=gott52 ! abs5t & un=tunate are         
neglect$2 ! man :o prosp]s secures favor
 by 8 pres5ce2 ! intrigu+ & malici\s    
support ea* o!r1 r5ew _! vile ef=ts1 & !
 effects ( ^!1 incessantly succe$+ ea*  
o!r1 efface ev]y?+ by :i* !y 7 prec$$4  
,?us1 aft] hav+ s long deceiv$ me1 ?is  
man ?rew aside 8 mask2 conv9c$ t1 9 !   
/ate to :i* he _h br\ght ?+s1 he no     
long] /ood 9 ne$ ( x4  ,reliev$ f ! fe> 
( be+ unju/ t[>ds ! wret*1 ,i left him  
to 8 reflections1 & ?\ght no m ( him4   

,a week aft]w>ds ,i receiv$ an answ] f  
,madam d',ep9ay1 dat$ f ,g5eva4  ,i     
und]/ood f ! mann] ( h] lett]1 9 :i* = !
 fir/ "t 9 h] life1 %e put on airs (    
/ate ) me1 t bo? dep5d+ b little ^u !   
success ( _! measures1 & consid]+ me a  
man inevitably lo/1 _! int5tions 7 to   
give !mselves ! pleasure ( complet+ my  
de/ruction4  ,9 fact1 my situation 0    
deplorable4  ,i p]ceiv$ all my fri5ds   
)drew !mselves f me )\t kn[+ h[ or = :y4
  ,did]ot1 :o boa/$ ( ! cont9uation ( 8 
atta*m5t1 & :o1 = ?ree mon?s pa/1 _h    
promis$ me a visit1 did n come4  ,! w9t]
 began to make its appe>ance1 & br\ght )
 x my habitual disord]s4  ,my           
con/itution1 al?\gh vigor\s1 _h be5     
unequal to ! combat ( s _m opposite     
passions4  ,i 0 s exhau/$ t ,i _h nei!r 
/r5g? nor c\rage suffici5t to resi/ !   
mo/ trifl+ indisposition4  ,_h my       
engagem5ts2 & ! cont9u$ remon/rances (  
,did]ot & ,madam de ,h\detot !n p]mitt$ 
me to quit ! ,h]mitage1 ,i knew n :]e to
 g1 nor 9 :at mann] to drag myself      

along4  ,i rema9$ /upid & immovable4  ,!
 idea alone ( a /ep to take1 a lett] to 
write1 or a ^w to say1 made me tremble4 
,i c\ld n h[ev] d o!rwise ?an reply to !
 lett] ( ,madam d',ep9ay )\t ackn[l$g+  
myself to be wor?y ( ! treatm5t ) :i* %e
 & h] fri5d ov]:elm$ me4  ,i det]m9$ ^u 
notify+ to h] my s5tim5ts & resolutions1
 n d\bt+ a mom5t t f humanity1 g5]osity1
 propriety1 & ! good mann] ( ?9k+1 ,i   
imag9$ ,i _h obs]v$ 9 h]1 not)/&+ h] bad
 "o1 %e w\ld imm$iately subscribe to !m4
  ,my lett] 0 z foll[s3                 
,,h]mitage #bc;d ,,nov41 #ageg4  ,7 x   
possible to die ( grief ,i %\ld n n[ be 
alive4  ,b ,i h at l5g? det]m9$ to      
triumph ov] ev]y?+4  ,fri5d%ip1 madam1  
is ext+ui%$ betwe5 u1 b t :i* no long]  
exi/s /ill has its rights1 & ,i respect 
!m4  ,i h n =gott5 y\r goodness to me1 &
 y may1 on my "p1 expect z mu* gratitude
 z x is possible to h t[>ds a p]son ,i  
no long] c love4  ,all fur!r explanation
 w\ld be useless4  ,i h 9 my favor my   
own consci5ce1 & ,i return y y\r lett]4 

,i wi%$ to quit ! ,h]mitage1 & ,i ought 
to h done x4  ,my fri5ds pret5d ,i mu/  
/ay !re until spr+2 & s9ce my fri5ds    
desire x ,i w rema9 !re until t season  
if y w cons5t to my /ay4  ,aft] writ+ & 
despat*+ ?is lett] all ,i ?\ght ( 0     
rema9+ quiet at ! ,h]mitage & tak+ c>e (
 my heal?2 ( endeavor+ to recov] my     
/r5g?1 & tak+ measures to remove 9 !    
spr+ )\t noise or mak+ ! rupture public4
  ,b ^! 7 n ! int5tions ei!r ( ,grimm or
 ,madam d',ep9ay1 z x w pres5tly appe>4 
,a few days aft]w>ds1 ,i _h ! pleasure (
 receiv+ f ,did]ot ! visit he _h s      
frequ5tly promis$1 & 9 :i* he _h z      
con/antly fail$4  ,he c\ld n h come m   
opportunely2 he 0 my olde/ fri5d3 almo/ 
! only "o :o rema9$ to me2 ! pleasure ,i
 felt 9 see+ him1 z ?+s 7 circum/anc$1  
may easily be imag9$4  ,my he>t 0 full1 
& ,i disclos$ x to him4  ,i expla9$ to  
him sev]al facts :i* ei!r _h n come to 8
 k1 or _h be5 disguis$ or suppress$4  ,i
 in=m$ him1 z f> z ,i c\ld d x )        
propriety1 ( all t _h pass$4  ,i did n  

affect to conceal f him t ) :i* he 0 b  
too well acqua9t$1 t a passion equally  
unreasonable & un=tunate1 _h be5 ! cause
 ( my de/ruction2 b ,i nev] ackn[l$g$ t 
,madam d',h\detot _h be5 made acqua9t$ )
 x1 or at lea/ t ,i _h decl>$ x to h]4  
,i m5tion$ to him ! unwor?y manoeuvres (
 ,madam d' ,ep9ay to int]cept ! innoc5t 
lett]s h] si/]-9-law wrote to me4  ,i 0 
det]m9$ he %\ld he> ! p>ticul>s f ! m\? 
( ! p]sons :om %e _h attempt$ to s$uce4 
,!resa relat$ !m ) great precision2 b   
:at 0 my a/oni%m5t :5 ! "m came to      
speak1 & ,i he>d h] decl>e & ma9ta9 t   
no?+ ( ?is _h come to h] k8  ,^! 7 h]   
words f :i* %e w\ld nev] dep>t4  ,n f\r 
days be=e %e h]self _h recit$ to me all 
! p>ticul>s ,!resa _h j /at$1 & 9       
pres5ce ( my fri5d %e contradict$ me to 
my face4  ,?is1 to me1 0 decisive1 & ,i 
!n cle>ly saw my imprud5ce 9 hav+ s long
 a "t kept su* a woman ne> me4  ,i made 
no use ( invective2 ,i sc>cely deign$ to
 speak to h] a few words ( contempt4  ,i
 felt :at ,i ow$ to ! daught]1 ^:       

/eadfa/ uprightness 0 a p]fect contra/  
to ! base monoeuvres ( ! "m4  ,b f !    
in/ant my resolution 0 tak5 relative to 
! old woman1 & ,i wait$ = no?+ b ! mom5t
 to put x into execution4  ,?is pres5t$ 
itself soon] ?an ,i expect$4  ,on ! #aj?
 ( ,decemb] ,i receiv$ f ,madam d',ep9ay
 ! foll[+ answ] to my prec$+ lett]3     
,,g5eva1 #a/ ,decemb]1 #ageg4  ,aft]    
hav+ = sev]al ye>s giv5 y e possible m>k
 ( fri5d%ip all ,i c n[ d is to pity y4 
,y are v unhappy4  ,i wi% y\r consci5ce 
may be z calm z m9e4  ,?is may be       
necess>y to ! repose ( y\r :ole life4   
,s9ce y are det]m9$ to quit ! ,h]mitage1
 & are p]suad$ t y ought to d x1 ,i am  
a/oni%$ y\r fri5ds h prevail$ ^u y to   
/ay !re4  ,= my "p ,i nev] consult m9e  
^u my duty1 & ,i h no?+ fur!r to say to 
y ^u y\r own4  ,su* an un=ese5          
dismission1 & s fully pron\nc$1 left me 
n a mom5t to hesitate4  ,x 0 necess>y to
 quit imm$iately1 let ! wea!r & my heal?
 be 9 :at /ate !y might1 al?\gh ,i 7 to 
sleep 9 ! woods & ^u ! sn[1 ) :i* !     

gr\nd 0 !n cov]$1 & 9 defiance ( ev]y?+ 
,madam d',h\detot might say2 = ,i 0     
will+ to d ev]y?+ to please h] except   
r5d] myself infam\s4  ,i nev] _h be5 s  
emb>rass$ 9 my :ole life z ,i !n 02 b my
 resolution 0 tak54  ,i swore1 let :at  
w\ld happ51 n to sleep at ! ,h]mitage on
 ! night ( t day week4  ,i began to     
prep>e = s5d+ away my effects1 resolv+  
to leave !m 9 ! op5 field r ?an n give  
up ! key 9 ! c\rse ( ! week3 = ,i 0     
det]m9$ ev]y?+ %\ld be done be=e a lett]
 c\ld be writt5 to ,g5eva1 & an answ] to
 x receiv$4  ,i nev] felt myself s      
inspir$ ) c\rage3 ,i _h recov]$ all my  
/r5g?4  ,honor & indignation1 ^u :i*    
,madam d',ep9ay _h n calculat$1         
contribut$ to re/ore me to vigor4       
,=tune aid$ my audacity4  ,m4 ,ma?as1   
fiscal procur]1 he>d ( my emb>rasam5t4  
,he s5t to (f] me a little h\se he _h 9 
8 g>d5 ( ,mont ,l\is1 at ,montmor5cy4   
,i accept$ x ) eag]ness & gratitude4  ,!
 b>ga9 0 soon conclud$3 ,i imm$iately   
s5t to pur*ase a little furniture to add

 to t we already _h4  ,my effects ,i _h 
c>t$ away ) a deal ( tr\ble1 & a great  
exp5se3 not)/&+ ! ice & sn[ my removal 0
 complet$ 9 a c\ple ( days1 & on !      
fifte5? ( ,decemb] ,i gave up ! keys ( !
 ,h]mitage1 aft] hav+ paid ! wages ( !  
g>d5]1 n be+ able to pay my r5t4  ,)    
respect to ,madam le ,vasseur1 ,i told  
h] we mu/ "p2 h] daught] attempt$ to    
make me r5\nce my resolution1 b ,i 0    
inflexible4 ,i s5t h] (f1 to ,p>is 9 a  
c>riage ( ! mess5g] ) all ! furniture & 
effects %e & h] daught] _h 9 common4  ,i
 gave h] "s money1 & engag$ to pay h]   
lodg+ ) h] *ildr51 or else:]e to provide
 = h] subsi/5ce z mu* z x %\ld be       
possible = me to d x1 & nev] to let h]  
want bread z long z ,i %\ld h x myself4 
,f9ally ! day aft] my arrival at ,mont  
,l\is1 ,i wrote to ,madam d',ep9ay !    
foll[+ lett]3                           
,,montmor5cy1 #ag? ,decemb] #ageg4      
,no?+1 madam1 is s natural & necess>y z 
to leave y\r h\se ! mom5t y no long]    
approve ( my rema9+ !re4  ,^u y refus+  

y\r cons5t to my pass+ ! re/ ( ! w9t] at
 ! ,h]mitage ,i quitt$ x on ! fifte5? ( 
,decemb]4  ,my de/9y 0 to ent] x 9 spite
 ( myself & to leave x ! same4  ,i ?ank 
y = ! resid5ce y prevail$ ^u me to make 
!re1 & ,i w\ld ?ank y /ill m _h ,i paid 
= x less de>4  ,y are "r 9 believ+ me   
unhappy2 nobody ^u e>? kn[s bett] ?an   
y\rself to :at a degree ,i mu/ be s4    
,if be+ deceiv$ 9 ! *oice ( our fri5ds  
be a mis=tune1 x is ano!r n less cruel  
to recov] f s pleas+ an error4  ,su* is 
! fai?ful n>rative ( my resid5ce at !   
,h]mitage1 & ( ! reasons :i* oblig$ me  
to leave x4  ,i c\ld n break (f !       
recital1 x 0 necess>y to cont9ue x ) !  
greate/ exactness2 ?is epo* ( my life   
hav+ _h ^u ! re/ ( x an influ5ce :i* w  
ext5d to my late/ remembrance4