,,! ,,confessions ,,( ,,jean ,,jacques  
,,r\sseau 7,9 #ab books7  ,privately    
,pr9t$ = ! ,memb]s ( ! ,aldus ,society  
,london1 #aijc    ,,book ,,vii4   ,aft] 
two ye>s' sil5ce & pati5ce1 & not)/&+ my
 resolutions1  ,i aga9 take up my p53   
,read]1 susp5d y\r judgm5t z to !       
reasons :i* =ce me to su* a /ep3 ( ^! y 
c be no judge until y %all h read my    
book4  ,my peaceful y\? has be5 se5 to  
pass away calmly & agreeably )\t any    
great disappo9tm5ts or rem>kable        
prosp]ity4  ,?is m$iocrity 0 mo/ly ow+  
to my ard5t yet feeble nature1 less     
prompt 9 und]tak+ ?an easy to disc\rage2
 quitt+ repose = viol5t agitations1 b   
return+ to x f lassitude & incl9ations1 
& :i*1 plac+ me 9 an idle & tranquil    
/ate = :i* alone ,i felt ,i 0 born1 at a
 di/ance f ! pa?s ( great virtues & /ill
 fur!r f ^? ( great vices1 nev] p]mitt$ 
me to arrive at any?+ great1 ei!r good  
or bad4  ,:at a diff]5t acc\nt w ,i soon
 h to give ( myself6 ,fate1 :i* = ?irty 
ye>s =c$ my incl9ations1 = ?irty o!rs   

has seem$ to oppose !m2 & ?is cont9u$   
opposition1 betwe5 my situation &       
incl9ations1 w appe> to h be5 ! s\rce ( 
enorm\s faults1 unhe>d ( mis=tunes1 & e 
virtue except t =titude :i* alone c d   
honor to adv]sity4  ,! hi/ory ( ! fir/  
"p ( my life 0 writt5 f memory1 & is    
consequ5tly full ( errors4  ,z ,i am    
oblig$ to write ! second "p f memory    
also1 ! errors 9 x w probably be /ill m 
num]\s4 ,! agreeable remembrance ( !    
f9e/ portion ( my ye>s1 pass$ ) s mu*   
tranquillity & innoc5ce1 has left 9 my  
he>t a ?\s& *>m+ impressions :i* ,i love
 incessantly to call to my recollection4
 ,x w soon appe> h[ diff]5t f ^! ^? ( ! 
re/ ( my life h be54  ,to recall !m to  
my m9d w\ld be to r5ew _! bitt]ness4 ,f>
 f increas+ t ( my situation by ^!      
sorr[ful reflections1 ,i repel !m z mu* 
z possible1 & 9 ?is endeavor (t5 succe$ 
s well z to be unable to f9d !m at w4   
,?is facility ( =gett+ my mis=tunes is a
 consolation :i* ,heav5 has res]v$ to me
 9 ! mid/ ( ^? :i* fate has "o day to   

accumulate ^u my head4  ,my memory1 :i* 
pres5ts to me no objects b su* z are    
agreeable1 is ! happy c\nt]poise ( my   
t]rifi$ imag9ation1 by :i* ,i =esee no?+
 b a cruel futurity4  ,all ! pap]s ,i _h
 collect$ to aid my recollection1 &     
guide me 9 ?is und]tak+1 are no long] 9 
my possession1 nor c ,i ev] aga9 hope to
 rega9 !m4  ,i h b "o fai?ful guide on  
:i* ,i c dep5d3 ?is is ! *a9 ( !        
s5tim5ts by :i* ! succession ( my       
exi/5ce has be5 m>k$1 & by ^! ! ev5ts   
:i* h be5 ei!r ! cause or ! effect ( !  
mann] ( x4  ,i easily =get my mis=tunes1
 b ,i _c =get my faults1 & /ill less my 
virtu\s s5tim5ts4  ,! remembrance ( ^!  
is too de> to me ev] to suff] !m to be  
effac$ f my m9d4  ,i may omit facts1    
transpose ev5ts1 & fall into "s errors (
 dates2 b ,i _c be deceiv$ 9 :at ,i h   
felt1 nor 9 t :i* f s5tim5t ,i h done2 &
 to relate ?is is ! *ief end ( my pres5t
 "w4  ,! real object ( my confessions is
 to communicate an exact k ( :at ,i     
int]iorly am & h be5 9 e situation ( my 

life4  ,i h promis$ ! hi/ory ( my m9d1 &
 to write x fai?fully ,i h no ne$ ( o!r 
memoirs3 to ent] into my own he>t1 z ,i 
h hi!rto done1 w alone be suffici5t4    
,!re is1 h[ev]1 & v happily1 an int]val 
( six or sev5 ye>s1 relative to :i* ,i h
 exact ref]5ces1 9 a collection ( lett]s
 copi$ f ! orig9als1 9 ! h&s ( ,m4 du   
,peyr\4  ,?is collection1 :i* concludes 
9 #agfj1 compreh5ds ! :ole "t ( my      
resid5ce at ! h]mitage1 & my great      
qu>rel ) ^? :o call$ !mselves my fri5ds2
 t memorable epo*a ( my life1 & ! s\rce 
( all my o!r mis=tunes4  ,) respect to m
 rec5t orig9al lett]s :i* may rema9 9 my
 possession1 & are b few 9 numb]1 in/ead
 ( transcrib+ !m at ! end ( ?is         
collection1 too volum9\s to enable me to
 deceive ! vigilance ( my ,arguses1 ,i w
 copy !m into ! "w :5ev] !y appe> to    
furni% any explanation1 be ?is ei!r = or
 aga9/ myself2 = ,i am n "u ! lea/      
appreh5sion le/ ! read] %\ld =get ,i    
make my confession1 & be induc$ to      
believe ,i make my apology2 b he _c     

expect ,i %all conceal ! tru? :5 x      
te/ifies 9 my favor4  ,! second "p1 x is
 likewise to be rememb]$1 conta9s no?+ 9
 common ) ! fir/1 except tru?2 nor has  
any o!r advantage ov] x1 b ! importance 
( ! facts2 9 ev]y?+ else1 x is inf]ior  
to ! =m]4  ,i wrote ! fir/ ) pleasure1 )
 satisfaction1 & at my ease1 at         
,wootton1 or 9 ! ca/le ,trie3 ev]y?+ ,i 
_h to recollect 0 a new enjoym5t4  ,i   
return$ to my closet ) an increas$      
pleasure1 &1 )\t con/ra9t1 gave t turn  
to my descriptions :i* mo/ flatt]$ my   
imag9ation4  ,at pres5t my head & memory
 are become s weak z to r5d] me almo/   
incapable ( e k9d ( application3 my     
pres5t und]tak+ is ! result ( con/ra9t1 
& a he>t full ( sorr[4  ,i h no?+ to    
treat ( b mis=tunes1 trea*]ies1         
p]fidies1 & circum/ances equally        
afflict+4  ,i w\ld give ! _w1 c\ld ,i   
bury 9 ! obscurity ( "t1 e ?+ ,i h to   
say1 & :i*1 9 spite ( myself1 ,i am     
oblig$ to relate4  ,i am1 at ! same "t1 
"u ! necessity ( be+ my/]i\s & subtle1 (

 endeavor+ to impose & ( desc5d+ to ?+s 
! mo/ =eign to my nature4  ,! ceil+ "u  
:i* ,i write has eyes2 ! walls ( my     
*amb] h e>s4  ,surr\nd$ by spies & by   
vigilant & malevol5t inspectors1        
di/urb$1 & my att5tion div]t$1 ,i ha/ily
 commit to pap] a few brok5 s5t5ces1 :i*
 ,i h sc>cely "t to read1 & /ill less to
 correct4  ,i "k t1 not)/&+ ! b>ri]s :i*
 are multipli$ ar\nd me1 my enemies are 
afraid tru? %\ld escape by "s little    
op5+4  ,:at means c ,i take to introduce
 x to ! _w8  ,?is1 h[ev]1 ,i attempt ) b
 few hopes ( success4  ,! read] w judge 
:e!r or n su* a situation furni%es !    
means ( agreeable descriptions1 or (    
giv+ !m a s$uctive color+6  ,i !re=e    
in=m su* z may und]take to read ?is "w1 
t no?+ c secure !m f we>9ess 9 !        
prosecution ( _! task1 unless x be !    
desire ( becom+ m fully acqua9t$ ) a man
 :om !y already "k1 & a s9c]e love (    
ju/ice & tru?4  ,9 my fir/ "p ,i br\ght 
d[n my n>rative to my dep>ture ) inf9ite
 regret f ,p>is1 leav+ my he>t at       

,*>mettes1 &1 !re build+ my la/ ca/le 9 
! air1 int5d+ "s day to return to ! feet
 ( mamma1 re/or$ to h]self1 ) !         
treasures ,i %\ld h acquir$1 & dep5d+ ^u
 my sy/em ( music z ^u a c]ta9 =tune4   
,i made "s /ay at ,lyons to visit my    
acqua9tance1 procure lett]s (           
recomm5dation to ,p>is1 & to sell my    
books ( geometry :i* ,i _h br\ght ) me4 
,i 0 well receiv$ by all :om ,i knew4   
,m4 & ,madam de ,malby seem$ pleas$ to  
see me aga91 & sev]al times invit$ me to
 d9n]4  ,at _! h\se ,i became acqua9t$ )
 ! ,abbe de ,malby1 z ,i _h already done
 ) ! ,abbe de ,condillac1 bo? ( :om 7 on
 a visit to _! bro!r4  ,! ,abbe de      
,malby gave me lett]s to ,p>is2 among   
o!rs1 "o to ,m4 de ,pont5elle1 & ano!r  
to ! ,comte de ,caylus4 ,^! 7 v         
agreeable acqua9tances1 especially !    
fir/1 to ^: fri5d%ip = me 8 dea? only   
put a p]iod1 & f :om1 9 our private     
conv]sations1 ,i receiv$ advice :i* ,i  
ought to h m exactly foll[$4  ,i        
likewise saw ,m4 ,bordes1 ) :om ,i _h   

be5 long acqua9t$1 & :o _h frequ5tly    
oblig$ me ) ! greate/ cordiality & ! mo/
 real pleasure4  ,he x 0 :o enabl$ me to
 sell my books2 & he also gave me f     
himself good recomm5dations to ,p>is4   
,i aga9 saw ! int5dant = ^: acqua9tance 
,i 0 indebt$ to ,m4 ,bordes1 & :o       
introduc$ me to ! ,duke de ,ri*elieu1 :o
 0 !n pass+ ?r\gh ,lyons4  ,m4 ,pallu   
pres5t$ me4  ,! ,duke receiv$ me well1 &
 invit$ me to come & see him at ,p>is2  
,i did s sev]al times2 al?\gh ?is great 
acqua9tance1 ( :i* ,i %all frequ5tly h  
occasion to speak1 0 nev] ( ! mo/ trifl+
 utility to me4  ,i visit$ ! musician   
,david1 :o1 9 "o ( my =m] j\rneys1 & 9  
my di/ress1 _h r5d]$ me s]vice4  ,he _h 
ei!r l5t or giv5 me a cap & a pair (    
/ock+s1 :i* ,i h nev] return$1 nor has  
he ev] ask$ me = !m1 al?\gh we h s9ce t 
"t frequ5tly se5 ea* o!r4  ,i1 h[ev]1   
made him a pres5t1 some?+ l an          
equival5t4 ,i w\ld say m ^u ?is subject1
 7 :at ,i h own$ 9 "q2 b ,i h to speak (
 :at ,i h done1 :i*1 un=tunately1 is f> 

f be+ ! same ?+4  ,i also saw ! noble & 
g5]\s ,p]ri*on1 & n )\t feel+ ! effects 
( 8 accu/om$ munific5ce2 = he made me ! 
same pres5t he _h previ\sly done to !   
elegant ,b]n>d1 by pay+ = my place 9 !  
dilig5ce4  ,i visit$ ! surgeon ,p>isot1 
! be/ & mo/ b5evol5t ( m52 z also 8     
belov$ ,godefroi1 :o _h liv$ ) him t5   
ye>s1 & ^: m]it *iefly consi/$ 9 h]     
g5tle mann]s & goodness ( he>t4  ,x 0   
impossible to see ?is woman )\t         
pleasure1 or to leave h] )\t regret4    
,no?+ bett] %[s ! incl9ations ( a man1  
?an ! nature ( 8 atta*m5ts4             
,unless he be deceiv$ 9 8 *oice1 or t   
%e1 to :om he      atta*es himself1     
*anges h] "* by an extraord9>y          
concurr5ce ( causes1 :i* is n absolutely
 impossible4  ,7      ?is consequ5ce to 
be admitt$ )\t modification1 ,socrates  
mu/      be judg$ ( by 8 wife ,xantippe1
 & ,dion by 8 fri5d ,calippus1      :i* 
w\ld be ! mo/ false & iniquit\s judgm5t 
ev] made4      ,h[ev]1 let no injuri\s  
application be "h made to my wife4  ,%e 

is weak & m easily deceiv$ ?an ,i at    
fir/ imag9$1 b by      h] pure &        
excell5t "* %e is wor?y ( all my e/eem4 
,^? :o _h once se5 ! g5tle ,godefroi1   
imm$iately knew ! good & amiable        
,p>isot4  ,i 0 mu* oblig$ to all ^! good
 p1 b ,i aft]w>ds neglect$ !m all2 n f  
+ratitude1 b f t inv9cible indol5ce :i* 
s (t5 assumes its appe>ance4  ,!        
remembrance ( _! s]vices has nev] be5   
effac$ f my m9d1 nor ! impression !y    
made f my he>t2 b ,i c\ld m easily h    
prov$ my gratitude1 ?an assidu\sly h %[n
 !m ! ext]ior ( t s5tim5t4  ,exactitude 
9 correspond5ce is :at ,i nev] c\ld     
obs]ve2 ! mom5t ,i began to relax1 !    
%ame & emb>rassm5t ( repair+ my fault   
made me aggravate x1 & ,i entirely desi/
 f writ+2 ,i h1 !re=e1 be5 sil5t1 &     
appe>$ to =get !m4  ,p>isot & ,p]ri*on  
took n ! lea/ notice ( my neglig5ce1 &  
,i ev] f\nd !m ! same4  ,b1 tw5ty ye>s  
aft]w>ds x w be se51 9 ,m4 ,bordes1 to  
:at a degree ! self-love ( a wit c make 
him c>ry 8 v5geance :5 he feels himself 

neglect$4  ,be=e ,i leave ,lyons1 ,i mu/
 n =get an amiable p]son1 :om ,i aga9   
saw ) m pleasure ?an ev]1 & :o left 9 my
 he>t ! mo/ t5d] remembrance4  ,?is 0   
,mademoiselle ,s]re1 ( :om ,i h spok5 9 
my fir/ "p2 ,i r5ew$ my acqua9tance ) h]
 :il/ ,i 0 at ,m4 de ,malby's4  ,be+ ?is
 "t m at leisure1 ,i saw h] m frequ5tly1
 & %e made ! mo/ s5sible impressions on 
my he>t4  ,i _h "s reason to believe h] 
own 0 n unfavorable to my pret5sions2 b 
%e honor$ me ) h] confid5ce s f> z to   
remove f me all temptation to allure h] 
p>tiality4  ,%e _h no =tune1 & 9 ?is    
respect exactly resembl$ myself2 our    
situations 7 too simil> to p]mit u to   
become unit$2 & ) ! views ,i !n _h1 ,i 0
 f> f ?9k+ ( m>riage4  ,%e gave me to   
und]/& t a "y m]*ant1 "o ,m4 ,g5eve1    
seem$ to wi% to obta9 h] h&4  ,i saw him
 once or twice at h] lodg+s2 he appe>$  
to me to be an hone/ man1 & ?is 0 8     
g5]al "*4  ,p]suad$ %e w\ld be happy )  
him1 ,i 0 desir\s he %\ld m>ry h]1 :i*  
he aft]w>ds did2 & t ,i might n di/urb  

_! innoc5t love1 ,i ha/5$ my dep>ture2  
(f]+ up1 = ! happ9ess ( t *>m+ woman1   
pray]s1 :i*1 "h bel[ 7 n long he>d4     
,alas6  h] "t 0 v %ort1 = ,i aft]w>ds   
he>d %e di$ 9 ! second or ?ird ye> aft] 
h] m>riage4  ,my m9d1 dur+ ! j\rney1 0  
:olly absorb$ 9 t5d] regret4  ,i felt1 &
 s9ce t "t1 :5 ^! circum/ances h be5    
pres5t to my recollection1 h frequ5tly  
done ! same2 t al?\gh ! sacrifices made 
to virtue & our duty may sometimes be   
pa9ful1 we are well rew>d$ by !         
agreeable remembrance !y leave deeply   
engrav]s 9 our he>ts4  ,i ?is "t saw    
,p>is 9 z favorable a po9t ( view z x _h
 appe>$ to me 9 an unfavorable "o at my 
fir/ j\rney2 n t my ideas ( its         
brilliancy arose f ! spl5dor ( my       
lodg+s2 = 9 consequ5ce ( an address giv5
 me by ,m4 ,bordes1 ,i resid$ at !      
,hotel ,/4 ,qu5t91 ,rue des ,cordi]1 ne>
 ! ,sorbonne2 a vile /reet1 a mis]able  
hotel1 & a wret*$ ap>tm5t3 b nev]!less a
 h\se 9 :i* sev]al m5 ( m]it1 su* z     
,gresset1 ,bordes1 ,abbe ,malby1        

,condillac1 & sev]al o!rs1 ( :om        
un=tunately ,i f\nd n "o1 _h tak5 up _! 
qu>t]s2 b ,i !re met ) ,m4 ,bonnefond1 a
 man unacqua9t$ ) ! _w1 lame1 litigi\s1 
& :o affect$ to be a puri/4  ,to him ,i 
owe ! acqua9tance ( ,m4 ,rogu91 at      
pres5t ! olde/ fri5d ,i h & by ^: means 
,i became acqua9t$ ) ,did]ot1 ( :om ,i  
%all soon h occasion to say a good deal4
  ,i arriv$ at ,p>is 9 ! autumn ( #agda1
 ) fifte5 l\is 9 my purse1 & ) my com$y 
( ,n>cissus & my musical project 9 my   
pocket4 ,^! compos$ my :ole /ock2       
consequ5tly ,i _h n mu* "t to lose be=e 
,i attempt$ to turn ! latt] to "s       
advantage4  ,i !re=e imm$iately ?\ght ( 
mak+ use ( my recomm5dations4  ,a "y man
 :o arrives at ,p>is1 ) a tol]able      
figure1 & ann\nces himself by 8 tal5ts1 
is sure to be well receiv$4  ,?is 0 my  
good =tune1 :i* procur$ me "s pleasure  
)\t lead+ to any?+ solid4  ,( all !     
p]sons to :om ,i 0 recomm5d$1 ?ree only 
7 useful to me4  ,m4 ,dames91 a g5tleman
 ( ,savoy1 at t "t equ]ry1 & ,i believe 

favorite1 ( ! ,pr9cess ( ,c>ignan2 ,m4  
de ,boze1 ,secret>y ( ! ,academy (      
,inscriptions1 & keep] ( ! m$als ( !    
k+'s cab9et2 & ,fa!r ,ca/el1 a ,jesuit1 
au?or ( ! ',clavec9 oculaire'4--ocul>   
h>psi*ord4  ,all ^! recomm5dations1     
except t to ,m4 ,dames91 7 giv5 me by ! 
,abbe de ,malby4  ,m4 ,dames9 provid$ me
 ) t :i* 0 mo/ ne$ful1 by means ( two   
p]sons ) :om he br\ght me acqua9t$4  ,"o
 0 ,m4 ,gase1 'presid5t a morti]' ( !   
p>liam5t ( ,bordeaux1 & :o play$ v well 
^u ! viol92 ! o!r1 ! ,abbe de ,leon1 :o 
!n lodg$ 9 ! ,sorbonne1 a "y nobleman2  
extremely amiable1 :o di$ 9 ! fl[] ( 8  
age1 aft] hav+1 = a few mom5ts1 made a  
figure 9 ! _w "u ! "n ( ! ,*evali] de   
,rohan4  ,bo? ^! g5tlem5 _h an          
incl9ation to le>n composition4  ,9 ?is 
,i gave !m lessons = a few mon?s1 by :i*
 means my decreas+ purse receiv$ "s     
little aid4  ,! ,abbe ,leon conceiv$ a  
fri5d%ip = me1 & wi%$ me to become 8    
secret>y2 b he 0 f> f be+ ri*1 & all !  
sal>y he c\ld (f] me 0 eight hundr$     

livres1 :i*1 ) inf9ite regret1 ,i       
refus$2 s9ce x 0 insuffici5t to defray !
 exp5ses ( my lodg+1 food1 & clo?+4  ,i 
0 well receiv$ by ,m4 de ,boze4  ,he _h 
a ?ir/ = k1 ( :i* he possess$ n a       
little1 b 0 some:at p$antic4  ,madam de 
,boze mu* resembl$ him2 %e 0 lively &   
affect$4  ,i sometimes d9$ ) !m1 & x is 
impossible to be m awkw>d ?an ,i 0 9 h] 
pres5ce4  ,h] easy mann] intimidat$ me1 
& r5d]$ m9e m rem>kable4  ,:5 %e pres5t$
 me a plate1 ,i mode/ly put =w>d my =k  
to take "o ( ! lea/ bits ( :at %e (f]$  
me1 :i* made h] give ! plate to h]      
s]vant1 turn+ h] head aside t ,i might n
 see h] laugh4  ,%e _h n ! lea/         
suspicion t 9 ! head ( ! ru/ic ) :om %e 
0 s div]t$ !re 0 "s small portion ( wit4
 ,m4 de ,boze pres5t$ me to ,m4 de      
,reaumur1 8 fri5d1 :o came to d9e ) him 
e ,friday1 ! day on :i* ! ,academy (    
,sci5ces met4  ,he m5tion$ to him my    
project1 & ! desire ,i _h ( hav+ x      
exam9$ by ! academy4  ,m4 de ,reaumur   
cons5t$ to make ! proposal1 & 8 (f] 0   

accept$4  ,on ! day appo9t$ ,i 0        
introduc$ & pres5t$ by ,m4 de ,reaumur1 
& on ! same day1 ,augu/ #bb;d1 #agdb1 ,i
 _h ! honor to read to ! academy !      
memoir ,i _h prep>$ = t purpose4 ,al?\gh
 ?is illu/ri\s assembly might c]ta9ly   
well be expect$ to inspire me ) awe1 ,i 
0 less intimidat$ on ?is occasion ?an ,i
 _h be5 9 ! pres5ce ( ,madam de ,boze1 &
 ,i got tol]ably well ?r\gh my read+ & !
 answ]s ,i 0 oblig$ to give4  ,! memoir 
0 well receiv$1 & acquir$ me "s         
complim5ts by :i* ,i 0 equally surpris$ 
& flatt]$1 imag9+ t be=e su* an         
assembly1 :oev] 0 n a memb] ( x c\ld n h
 commons5se4  ,! p]sons appo9t$ to      
exam9e my sy/em 7 ,m4 ,mairan1 ,m4      
,hellot1 & ,m4 de ,f\*y1 all ?ree m5 (  
m]it1 b n "o ( !m und]/ood music1 at    
lea/ n en\gh ( composition to enable !m 
to judge ( my project4  ,dur+ my        
conf]5ce ) ^! g5tlem51 ,i 0 conv9c$ ) no
 less c]ta9ty ?an surprise1 t if m5 (   
le>n+ h sometimes few] prejudices ?an   
o!rs1 !y m t5aci\sly reta9 ^? !y h4     

,h[ev] weak or false mo/ ( _! objections
 71 & al?\gh ,i answ]$ !m ) great       
timidity1 & ,i confess1 9 bad t]ms1 yet 
) decisive reasons1 ,i nev] once made   
myself und]/ood1 or gave !m any         
explanation 9 ! lea/ satisfactory4  ,i 0
 con/antly surpris$ at ! facility ) :i*1
 by ! aid ( a few sonor\s phrases1 !y   
refut$1 )\t hav+ compreh5d$ me4  ,!y _h 
le>n$1 ,i "k n :]e1 t a monk ( ! "n (   
,s\haitti _h =m]ly inv5t$ a mode ( not+ 
! gamut by ciph]s3 a suffici5t pro( t my
 sy/em 0 n new4 ,?is might1 p]haps1 be !
 case2 = al?\gh ,i _h nev] he>d ( ,fa!r 
,s\haitti1 & not)/&+ 8 mann] ( writ+ !  
sev5 notes )\t att5d+ to ! octaves 0 n1 
"u any po9t ( view1 wor?y ( ent]+ into  
competition ) my simple & commodi\s     
inv5tion = easily not+ by ciph]s e      
possible k9d ( music1 keys1 re/s1       
octaves1 measure1 "t1 & l5g? ( note2 ?+s
 on :i* ,s\haitti _h nev] ?\ght x 0     
nev]!less true1 t ) respect to !        
elem5t>y expression ( ! sev5 notes1 he 0
 ! fir/ inv5tor4  ,b besides _! giv+ to 

?is primitive inv5tion m importance ?an 
0 due to x1 !y w5t /ill fur!r1 &1 :5ev] 
!y spoke ( ! fundam5tal pr9ciples ( !   
sy/em1 talk$ nons5se4  ,! greate/       
advantage ( my s*eme 0 to sup]s$e       
transpositions & keys1 s t ! same piece 
( music 0 not$ & transpos$ at w by means
 ( ! *ange ( a s+le initial lett] at !  
head ( ! air4  ,^! g5tlem5 _h he>d f !  
music--ma/]s ( ,p>is t ! me?od ( execut+
 by transposition 0 a bad "o2 & on ?is  
au?ority conv]t$ ! mo/ evid5t advantage 
( my sy/em into an inv9cible objection  
aga9/ x1 & affirm$ t my mode ( notation 
0 good = vocal music1 b bad =           
in/rum5tal2 in/ead ( conclud+ z !y ought
 to h done1 t x 0 good = vocal1 & /ill  
bett] = in/rum5tal4 ,on _! report !     
academy grant$ me a c]tificate full (   
f9e complim5ts1 amid/ :i* x appe>$ t 9  
reality x judg$ my sy/em to be nei!r new
 nor useful4  ,i did n ?9k prop] to     
ornam5t ) su* a pap] ! "w entitl$       
',diss]tation sur la musique mod]ne'1 by
 :i* ,i appeal$ to ! public4  ,i _h     

reason to rem>k on ?is occasion t1 ev5 )
 a n>r[ und]/&+1 ! sole b pr(\nd k ( a  
?+ is pref]able = ! purpose ( judg+ ( x1
 to all ! lights result+ f a cultivation
 ( ! sci5ces1 :5 to ^! a p>ticul> /udy (
 t 9 "q has n be5 jo9$4  ,! only solid  
objection to my sy/em 0 made by ,rameau4
  ,i _h sc>cely expla9$ x to him be=e he
 discov]$ its weak "p4  ,y\r signs1 said
 he1 are v good inasmu* z !y cle>ly &   
simply det]m9e ! l5g? ( notes1 exactly  
repres5t int]vals1 & %[ ! simple 9 !    
d\ble note1 :i* ! common notation does n
 d2 b !y are objectionable on acc\nt (  
_! requir+ an op]ation ( ! m9d1 :i* _c  
always accompany ! rapidity ( execution4
  ,! position ( our notes1 cont9u$ he1  
is describ$ to ! eye )\t ! concurr5ce ( 
?is op]ation4  ,if two notes1 "o v high 
& ! o!r v l[1 be jo9$ by a s]ies (      
int]m$iate ones1 ,i see at ! fir/ glance
 ! progress f "o to ! o!r by conjo9$    
degrees2 b 9 y\r sy/em1 to p]ceive ?is  
s]ies1 ,i mu/ necess>ily run ov] y\r    
ciph]s "o aft] ! o!r2 ! glance ( ! eye  

is "h useless4  ,! objection appe>$ to  
me insurm\ntable1 & ,i in/antly ass5t$  
to x4  ,al?\gh x be simple & /rik+1 no?+
 c sugge/ x b great k & practice ( !    
art1 & x is by no means a/oni%+ t n "o (
 ! academicians %\ld h ?\ght ( x4  ,b   
:at creates mu* surprise is1 t ^! m5 (  
great le>n+1 & :o are suppos$ to possess
 s mu* k1 %\ld s little "k t ea* ought  
to conf9e 8 judgm5t to t :i* relates to 
! /udy ) :i* he has be5 conv]sant4  ,my 
frequ5t visits to ! lit]ati appo9t$ to  
exam9e my sy/em & ! o!r academicians    
gave me an opportunity ( becom+ acqua9t$
 ) ! mo/ di/+ui%$ m5 ( lett]s 9 ,p>is1 &
 by ?is means ! acqua9tance t w\ld h be5
 ! consequ5ce ( my sudd5 admission      
among/ !m1 :i* aft]w>ds came to pass1 0 
already e/abli%$4 ,) respect to ! pres5t
 mom5t1 absorb$ 9 my new sy/em ( music1 
,i ob/9ately adh]$ to my int5tion (     
effect+ a revolution 9 ! art1 & by t    
means ( acquir+ a celebrity :i*1 9 ! f9e
 arts1 is 9 ,p>is mo/ly accompani$ by   
=tune4  ,i %ut myself 9 my *amb] &      

labor$ ?ree or f\r mon?s ) inexpressible
 ardor1 9 =m+ into a "w = ! public eye1 
! memoir ,i _h read be=e ! academy4 ,!  
difficulty 0 to f9d a booksell] to take 
my manuscript2 & ?is on acc\nt ( !      
necess>y exp5ses = new *>act]s1 &       
because booksell]s give n _! money by   
h&fuls to "y au?ors2 al?\gh to me x     
seem$ b j my "w %\ld r5d] me ! bread ,i 
_h eat5 :ile employ$ 9 its composition4 
,bonnefond introduc$ me to ,quillau !   
fa!r1 ) :om ,i agre$ to divide ! pr(its1
 )\t reckon+ ! privilege1 ( :i* ,i paid 
! :ole exp5se4  ,su* 7 ! future proce$+s
 ( ?is ,quillau t ,i lo/ ! exp5ses ( my 
privilege1 nev] hav+ receiv$ a f>?+ f t 
edition2 :i*1 probably1 _h b v middl+   
success1 al?\gh ! ,abbe des ,fonta9es   
promis$ to give x celebrity1 &1 not)/&+ 
! o!r j\rnali/s1 _h spok5 ( x v         
favorably4  ,! greate/ ob/acle to mak+ !
 exp]im5t ( my sy/em 0 ! fe>1 9 case (  
its n be+ receiv$1 ( los+ ! "t necess>y 
to le>n x4  ,to ?is ,i answ]$1 t my     
notes r5d]$ ! ideas s cle>1 t to le>n   

music by means ( ! ord9>y *>act]s1 "t   
w\ld be ga9$ by beg9n+ ) m9e4  ,to prove
 ?is by exp]i5ce1 ,i taught music gratis
 to a "y ,am]ican lady1 ,mademoiselle   
des ,r\l9s1 ) :om ,m4 ,rogu9 _h br\ght  
me acqua9t$4  ,9 ?ree mon?s %e read e   
k9d ( music1 by means ( my notation1 &  
sung at sight bett] ?an ,i did myself1  
any piece t 0 n too difficult4  ,?is    
success 0 conv9c+1 b n kn[n2 any o!r    
p]son w\ld h fill$ ! j\rnals ) ! detail1
 b ) "s tal5ts = discov]+ useful ?+s1 ,i
 nev] h possess$ t ( sett+ !m (f to     
advantage4  ,?us 0 my airy ca/le aga9   
ov]?r[n2 b ?is "t ,i 0 ?irty ye>s ( age1
 & 9 ,p>is1 :]e x is impossible to live 
= a trifle4 ,! resolution ,i took ^u ?is
 occasion w a/oni% none b ^? by :om !   
fir/ "p ( ^! memoirs has n be5 read )   
att5tion4 ,i _h j made great & fruitless
 ef=ts1 & 0 9 ne$ ( relaxation4  ,in/ead
 ( s9k+ ) despair ,i gave myself up     
quietly to my indol5ce & to ! c>e (     
,provid5ce2 & ! bett] to wait = its     
assi/ance ) pati5ce1 ,i lay d[n a frugal

 plan = ! sl[ exp5diture ( a few l\is1  
:i* /ill rema9$ 9 my possession1        
regulat+ ! exp5se ( my sup9e pleasures  
)\t retr5*+ x2 go+ to ! c(fee-h\se b e  
o!r day1 & to ! !atre b twice a week4   
,) respect to ! exp5ses ( girls ( easy  
virtue1 ,i _h no retr5*m5t to make2 nev]
 hav+ 9 ! :ole c\rse ( my life appli$ s 
mu* z a f>?+ to t use except once1 ( :i*
 ,i %all soon h occasion to speak4  ,!  
security1 voluptu\sness1 & confid5ce )  
:i* ,i gave myself up to ?is indol5t &  
solit>y life1 :i* ,i _h n ! means (     
cont9u+ = ?ree mon?s1 is "o ( !         
s+ul>ities ( my life1 & ! oddities ( my 
disposition4  ,! extreme desire ,i _h1 !
 public %\ld ?9k ( me 0 precisely :at   
disc\rag$ me f %[+ myself2 & ! necessity
 ( pay+ visits r5d]$ !m to su* a degree 
insupportable1 t ,i ceas$ visit+ !      
academicians & o!r m5 ( lett]s1 ) :om ,i
 _h cultivat$ an acqua9tance4  ,m>ivaux1
 ! ,abbe ,malby1 & ,font5elle1 7 almo/ !
 only p]sons :om ,i sometimes w5t to    
see4  ,to ! fir/ ,i %[$ my com$y (      

,n>cissus4  ,he 0 pleas$ ) x1 & _h !    
goodness to make 9 x "s improvem5ts4    
,did]ot1 y\ng] ?an ^!1 0 mu* ab\t my own
 age4  ,he 0 fond ( music1 & knew x     
!oretically2 we conv]s$ toge!r1 & he    
communicat$ to me "s ( 8 lit]>y         
projects4  ,?is soon =m$ betwixt u a m  
intimate connection1 :i* la/$ fifte5    
ye>s1 & :i* probably w\ld /ill exi/ 7 n 
,i1 un=tunately1 & by 8 own fault1 ( !  
same pr(ession ) himself4  ,x w\ld be   
impossible to imag9e 9 :at mann] ,i     
employ$ ?is %ort & preci\s int]val :i*  
/ill rema9$ to me1 be=e circum/ances =c$
 me to beg my bread3--9 le>n+ by memory 
passages f ! poets :i* ,i _h le>n$ &    
=gott5 a hundr$ times4  ,e morn+ at t5  
o'clock1 ,i w5t to walk 9 ! ,luxemb\rg )
 a ,virgil & a ,r\sseau 9 my pocket1 &  
!re1 until ! h\r ( d9n]1 ,i pass$ away !
 "t 9 re/or+ to my memory a sacr$ ode or
 a bucolic1 )\t be+ disc\rag$ by =gett+1
 by ! /udy ( ! morn+1 :at ,i _h le>n$ ! 
ev5+ be=e4  ,i recollect$ t aft] !      
defeat ( ,nicias at ,syracuse ! captive 

,a!nians obta9$ a livelihood by recit+ !
 poems ( ,hom]4  ,! use ,i made ( ?is   
erudition to w>d (f mis]y 0 to ex]cise  
my happy memory by le>n+ all ! poets by 
rote4  ,i _h ano!r exp$i5t1 n less      
solid1 9 ! game ( *ess1 to :i* ,i       
regul>ly d$icat$1 at ,maugis1 ! ev5+s on
 :i* ,i did n g to ! !atre4  ,i became  
acqua9t$ ) ,m4 de ,legal1 ,m4 ,husson1  
,philidor1 & all ! great *ess play]s ( !
 day1 )\t mak+ ! lea/ improvem5t 9 !    
game4  ,h[ev]1 ,i _h no d\bt b1 9 ! end1
 ,i %\ld become sup]ior to !m all1 &    
?is1 9 my own op9ion1 0 a suffici5t     
res\rce4  ,! same mann] ( reason+ s]v$  
me 9 e folly to :i* ,i felt myself      
incl9$4  ,i said to myself3 :oev] excels
 9 any?+ is sure to acquire a di/+ui%$  
reception 9 society4  ,let u !re=e      
excel1 no matt] 9 :at1 ,i %all c]ta9ly  
be s\ght aft]2 opportunities w pres5t   
!mselves1 & my own m]it w d ! re/4 ,?is 
*ildi%ness 0 n ! sophism ( my reason2 x 
0 t ( my indol5ce4  ,dismay$ at ! great 
& rapid ef=ts :i* w\ld h be5 necess>y to

 call =? my endeavors1 ,i /rove to      
flatt] my idl5ess1 & by argum5ts        
suitable to ! purpose1 veil$ f my own   
eyes ! %ame ( su* a /ate4  ,i ?us calmly
 wait$ = ! mom5t :5 ,i 0 to be )\t      
money2 & _h n ,fa!r ,ca/el1 :om ,i      
sometimes w5t to see 9 my way to !      
c(fee-h\se1 r\s$ me f my le?>gy1 ,i     
believe ,i %\ld h se5 myself r$uc$ to my
 la/ f>?+ )\t ! lea/ emotion4  ,fa!r    
,ca/el 0 a madman1 b a good man ^u !    
:ole2 he 0 sorry to see me ?us impov]i% 
myself to no purpose4  ,s9ce musicians &
 ! le>n$1 said he1 d n s+ by y\r scale1 
*ange ! /r+1 & apply to ! wom54  ,y w   
p]haps succe$ bett] ) !m4  ,i h spok5 ( 
y to ,madam de ,beuz5val2 g to h] f me2 
%e is a good woman :o w be glad to see !
 c\ntryman ( h] son & husb&4  ,y w f9d  
at h] h\se ,madam de ,broglie1 h]       
daught]1 :o is a woman ( wit4  ,madam   
,dup9 is ano!r to :om ,i also h m5tion$ 
y2 c>ry h] y\r "w2 %e is desir\s ( see+ 
y1 & w receive y well4  ,no ?+ is done 9
 ,p>is )\t ! wom54  ,!y are ! curves1 ( 

:i* ! wise are ! asymptotes2 !y         
incessantly approa* ea* o!r1 b nev] t\*4
  ,aft] hav+ f day to day delay$ ^! v   
disagreeable /eps1 ,i at l5g? took      
c\rage1 & call$ ^u ,madam de ,beuz5val4 
,%e receiv$ me ) k9dness2 & ,madam de   
,broglio ent]+ ! *amb]1 %e said to h]3  
,daught]1 ?is is ,m4 ,r\sseau1 ( :om    
,fa!r ,ca/el has spok5 to u4  ,madam de 
,broglie complim5t$ me ^u my "w1 & go+  
to h] h>psi*ord prov$ to me %e _h       
already giv5 x "s att5tion4 ,p]ceiv+ x  
to be ab\t "o o'clock1 ,i prep>$ to take
 my leave4 ,madam de ,beuz5val said to  
me3 ,y are at a great di/ance f ! qu>t] 
( ! t[n 9 :i* y reside2 /ay & d9e "h4   
,i did n want ask+ a second "t4  ,a     
qu>t] ( an h\r aft]w>ds1 ,i und]/ood1 by
 a ^w1 t ! d9n] to :i* %e _h invit$ me 0
 t ( h] s]vants' hall4  ,madam de       
,beuz5val 0 a v good k9d ( woman1 b ( a 
conf9$ und]/&+1 & too full ( h]         
illu/ri\s ,poli% nobility3 %e _h no idea
 ( ! respect due to tal5ts4  ,on ?is    
occasion1 likewise1 %e judg$ me by my   

mann] r ?an by my dress1 :i*1 al?\gh v  
pla91 0 v neat1 & by no means ann\nc$ a 
man to d9e ) s]vants4  ,i _h too long   
=gott5 ! way to ! place :]e !y eat to be
 incl9$ to take x aga94  ,)\t suff]+ my 
ang] to appe>1 ,i told ,madam de        
,beuz5val t ,i _h an affair ( a trifl+  
nature :i* ,i _h j recollect$ oblig$ me 
to return home1 & ,i imm$iately prep>$  
to dep>t4  ,madam de ,broglie approa*$  
h] "m1 & :isp]$ 9 h] e> a few words :i* 
_h _! effect4 ,madam de ,beuz5val rose  
to prev5t me f go+1 & said1 ,i expect t 
y w d u ! honor to d9e ) u4  ,9 ?is case
 ,i ?\ght to %[ pride w\ld be a m>k (   
folly1 & ,i det]m9$ to /ay4  ,! goodness
 ( ,madam de ,broglie _h besides made an
 impression ^u me1 & r5d]$ h] int]e/+ 9 
my eyes4  ,i 0 v glad to d9e ) h]1 &    
hop$1 t :5 %e knew me bett]1 %e w\ld n  
regret hav+ procur$ me t honor4  ,!     
,presid5t de ,lamoignon1 v intimate 9 ! 
family1 d9$ !re also4  ,he1 z well z    
,madam de ,broglie1 0 a ma/] ( all !    
modi% & fa%ionable small talk j>gon (   

,p>is4  ,poor ,jean ,jacques 0 unable to
 make a figure 9 ?is way4  ,i _h s5se   
en\gh n to pret5d to x1 & 0 sil5t4      
,happy w\ld x h be5 = me1 _h ,i always  
possess$ ! same wisdom2 ,i %\ld n be 9 !
 abyss into :i* ,i am n[ fall54  ,i 0   
vex$ at my own /upidity1 & at be+ unable
 to ju/ify to ,madam de ,broglie :at %e 
_h done 9 my favor4  ,aft] d9n] ,i ?\ght
 ( my ord9>y res\rce4  ,i _h 9 my pocket
 an epi/le 9 v]se1 writt5 to ,p>isot    
dur+ my resid5ce at ,lyons4  ,?is       
fragm5t 0 n )\t "s fire1 :i* ,i increas$
 by my mann] ( read+1 & made !m all ?ree
 %$ te>s4  ,:e!r x 0 vanity1 or really !
 tru?1 ,i ?\ght ! eyes ( ,madam de      
,broglie seem$ to say to h] "m3 ,well1  
mamma1 0 ,i wrong 9 tell+ y ?is man 0   
fitt] to d9e ) u ?an ) y\r wom58  ,until
 !n my he>t _h be5 r burd5$1 b aft] ?is 
rev5ge ,i felt myself satisfi$4  ,madam 
de ,broglie1 c>ry+ h] favorable op9ion (
 me r too f>1 ?\ght ,i %\ld imm$iately  
acquire fame 9 ,p>is1 & become a        
favorite ) f9e ladies4  ,to guide my    

inexp]i5ce %e gave me ! confessions ( ! 
,c\nt de -----4  ,?is book1 said %e1 is 
a ,m5tor1 ( :i* y w /& 9 ne$ 9 ! great  
_w4  ,y w d well by sometimes consult+  
x4  ,i kept ! book upw>ds ( tw5ty ye>s )
 a s5tim5t ( gratitude to h] f ^: h& ,i 
_h receiv$ x1 al?\gh ,i frequ5tly laugh$
 at ! op9ion ! lady seem$ to h ( my m]it
 9 gallantry4  ,f ! mom5t ,i _h read !  
"w1 ,i 0 desir\s ( acquir+ ! fri5d%ip ( 
! au?or4  ,my incl9ation l$ me "r2 he is
 ! only real fri5d ,i ev] possess$      
among/ m5 ( lett]s4       ,i h s long   
be5 ( ! same op9ion1 & s p]fectly       
conv9c$      ( its be+ well f\nd$1 t    
s9ce my return to ,p>is ,i confid$      
to him ! manuscript ( my confessions4   
,! suspici\s ,j4 ,j4      nev] suspect$ 
p]fidy & falsehood until he _h be5 _!   
victim4  ,f ?is "t ,i ?\ght ,i might    
dep5d on ! s]vices ( ,madam ! ,b>oness (
 ,beuz5val1 & ! ,m>*ioness ( ,broglie1 &
 t !y w\ld n long leave me )\t res\rce4 
,9 ?is ,i 0 n deceiv$4 ,b ,i mu/ n[     
speak ( my fir/ visit to ,madam ,dup91  

:i* produc$ m la/+ consequ5ces4  ,madam 
,dup9 01 z e "o 9 ,p>is kn[s1 ! daught] 
( ,samuel ,b]n>d & ,madam ,fonta9e4     
,!re 7 ?ree si/]s1 :o might be call$ !  
?ree graces4  ,madam de la ,t\*e :o     
play$ a little prank1 & w5t to ,engl& ) 
! ,duke ( ,k+/on4  ,madam ,d>by1 ! elde/
 ( ! ?ree2 ! fri5d1 ! only s9c]e fri5d (
 ! ,pr9ce ( ,conti2 an adorable woman1 z
 well by h] sweetness & ! goodness ( h] 
*>m+ "*1 z by h] agreeable wit &        
incessant *e]fulness4 ,la/ly1 ,madam    
,dup91 m beautiful ?an ei!r ( h] si/]s1 
& ! only "o :o has n be5 reproa*$ ) "s  
levity ( conduct4  ,%e 0 ! rew>d ( !    
hospitality ( ,m4 ,dup91 to :om h] "m   
gave h] 9 m>riage ) ! place ( f>m] g5]al
 & an imm5se =tune1 9 return = ! good   
reception he _h giv5 h] 9 8 prov9ce4    
,:5 ,i saw h] = ! fir/ "t1 %e 0 /ill "o 
( ! f9e/ wom5 9 ,p>is4  ,%e receiv$ me  
at h] toilette1 h] arms 7 uncov]$1 h]   
hair di%evell$1 & h] comb+-clo?         
ill-arrang$4 ,?is sc5e 0 new to me2 x 0 
too p[]ful = my poor head1 ,i became    

confus$1 my s5ses w&]$2 9 %ort1 ,i 0    
viol5tly smitt5 by ,madam ,dup94  ,my   
confusion 0 n prejudicial to me2 %e did 
n p]ceive x4  ,%e k9dly receiv$ ! book &
 ! au?or2 spoke ) in=mation ( my plan1  
sung1 accompani$ h]self on ! h>psi*ord1 
kept me to d9n]1 & plac$ me at table by 
h] side4  ,less ?an ?is w\ld h turn$ my 
bra92 ,i became mad4  ,%e p]mitt$ me to 
visit h]1 & ,i abus$ ! p]mission4  ,i   
w5t to see h] almo/ e day1 & d9$ ) h]   
twice or ?rice a week4  ,i burn$ )      
incl9ation to speak1 b nev] d>$ attempt 
x4  ,sev]al circum/ances increas$ my    
natural timidity4 ,p]mission to visit 9 
an opul5t family 0 a door op5 to =tune1 
& 9 my situation ,i 0 unwill+ to run !  
risk ( %utt+ x aga9/ myself4  ,madam    
,dup91 amiable z %e 01 0 s]i\s &        
unanimat$2 ,i f\nd no?+ 9 h] mann]s     
suffici5tly allur+ to embold5 me4  ,h]  
h\se1 at t "t1 z brilliant z any o!r 9  
,p>is1 0 frequ5t$ by societies ! less   
num]\s1 z ! p]sons by :om !y 7 compos$ 7
 *os5 on acc\nt ( "s di/+ui%$ m]it4  ,%e

 0 fond ( see+ e "o :o _h claims to a   
m>k$ sup]iority2 ! great m5 ( lett]s1 & 
f9e wom54  ,no p]son 0 se5 9 h] circle b
 dukes1 ambassadors1 & blue ribbons4  ,!
 ,pr9cess ( ,rohan1 ! ,c\ntess (        
,=calqui]1 ,madam de ,mirepoix1 ,madam  
de ,brignole1 & ,lady ,h]vey1 pass$ = h]
 intimate fri5ds4  ,! ,abbes de         
,font5elle1 de ,sa9t ,pi]re1 & ,salti]1 
,m4 de ,f\rmont1 ,m4 de ,b]ms1 ,m4 de   
,buffon1 & ,m4 de ,voltaire1 7 ( h]     
circle & h] d9n]s4  ,if h] res]v$ mann] 
did n attract _m "y p1 h] society       
inspir$ ! great] awe1 z x 0 compos$ (   
grav] p]sons1 & ! poor ,jean-,jacques _h
 no reason to flatt] himself he %\ld be 
able to take a di/+ui%$ "p 9 ! mid/ (   
su* sup]ior tal5ts4  ,i !re=e _h n      
c\rage to speak2 b no long] able to     
conta9 myself1 ,i took a resolution to  
write4  ,= ! fir/ two days %e said n a  
^w to me ^u ! subject4  ,on ! ?ird day1 
%e return$ me my lett]1 accompany+ x ) a
 few exhortations :i* froze my blood4   
,i attempt$ to speak1 b my words expir$ 

^u my lips2 my sudd5 passion 0 ext+ui%$ 
) my hopes1 & aft] a decl>ation 9 =m ,i 
cont9u$ to live ) h] ^u ! same t]ms z   
be=e1 )\t s mu* z speak+ to h] ev5 by ! 
language ( ! eyes4  ,i ?\ght my folly 0 
=gott51 b ,i 0 deceiv$4  ,m4 de         
,francueil1 son to ,m4 ,dup91 &         
son-9-law to ,madam ,dup91 0 mu* ! same 
) h]self & me4  ,he _h wit1 a good      
p]son1 & might h pret5sions4 ,?is 0 said
 to be ! case1 & probably proce$$ f 8   
"m-9-law's hav+ giv5 him an ugly wife ( 
a mild disposition1 ) :om1 z well z ) h]
 husb&1 %e liv$ ^u ! be/ ( t]ms4  ,m4 de
 ,francueil 0 fond ( tal5ts 9 o!rs1 &   
cultivat$ ^? he possess$4  ,music1 :i*  
he und]/ood v well1 0 a means ( produc+ 
a connection betwe5 u4  ,i frequ5tly saw
 him1 & he soon ga9$ my fri5d%ip4  ,he1 
h[ev]1 sudd5ly gave me to und]/& t      
,madam ,dup9 ?\ght my visits too        
frequ5t1 & begg$ me to discont9ue !m4   
,su* a complim5t w\ld h be5 prop] :5 %e 
return$ my lett]2 b eight or t5 days    
aft]w>ds1 & )\t any new cause1 x appe>$ 

to me ill-tim$4  ,?is r5d]$ my situation
 ! m s+ul>1 z ,m4 & ,madam de ,francueil
 /ill cont9u$ to give me ! same good    
reception z be=e4  ,i h[ev] made !      
int]vals betwe5 my visits long]1 & ,i   
%\ld entirely h ceas$ call+ on !m1 _h n 
,madam ,dup91 by ano!r unexpect$        
caprice1 s5t to desire ,i w\ld = a few  
days take c>e ( h] son1 :o *ang+ 8      
preceptor1 rema9$ alone dur+ t int]val4 
,i pass$ eight days 9 su* torm5ts z no?+
 b ! pleasure ( obey+ ,madam ,dup9 c\ld 
r5d] supportable3 ,i w\ld n h und]tak5  
to pass eight o!r days l !m _h ,madam   
,dup9 giv5 me h]self = ! recomp5se4  ,m4
 de ,francueil conceiv$ a fri5d%ip = me1
 & ,i /udi$ ) him4 ,we began toge!r a   
c\rse ( *emi/ry at ,r\elles4  ,t ,i     
might be ne>] at h&1 ,i left my hotel at
 ,qu5t91 & w5t to lodge at ! ,t5nis     
,c\rt1 ,rue ,v]delet1 :i* leads into !  
,rue ,plati]e1 :]e ,m4 ,dup9 liv$4      
,!re1 9 consequ5ce ( a cold neglect$1 ,i
 contract$ an inflammation ( ! lungs t  
_h lik$ to h c>ri$ me (f4  ,9 my y\ng]  

days ,i frequ5tly suff]$ f inflammatory 
disord]s1 pleurisies1 & especially      
qu9sies1 to :i* ,i 0 v subject1 & :i*   
frequ5tly br\ght me ne> en\gh to dea? to
 famili>ize me to its image4  ,dur+ my  
convalesc5ce ,i _h leisure to reflect ^u
 my situation1 & to lam5t my timidity1  
weakness & indol5ce2 ^!1 not)/&+ ! fire 
) :i* ,i f\nd myself inflam$1 left me to
 langui% 9 an inactivity ( m9d1         
cont9ually on ! v]ge ( mis]y4  ,! ev5+  
prec$+ ! day on :i* ,i 0 tak5 ill1 ,i   
w5t to an op]a by ,roy]2 ! "n ,i h      
=gott54  ,not)/&+ my prejudice 9 favor (
 ! tal5ts ( o!rs1 :i* has ev] made me   
di/ru/ful ( my own1 ,i /ill ?\ght !     
music feeble1 & devoid ( animation &    
inv5tion4  ,i sometimes _h ! vanity to  
flatt] myself3 ,i ?9k ,i c\ld d bett]   
?an t4  ,b ! t]rible idea ,i _h =m$ ( ! 
composition ( an op]a1 & ! importance ,i
 he>d m5 ( ! pr(ession affix to su* an  
und]tak+1 in/antly disc\rag$ me1 & made 
me blu% at hav+ s mu* z ?\ght ( x4      
,besides1 :]e 0 ,i to f9d a p]son to    

write ! words1 & "o :o w\ld give himself
 ! tr\ble ( turn+ ! poetry to my lik+8  
,^! ideas ( music & ! op]a _h possession
 ( my m9d dur+ my illness1 & 9 !        
delirium ( my fev] ,i compos$ songs1    
duets1 & *oruses4  ,i am c]ta9 ,i       
compos$ two or ?ree little pieces1 'di  
prima inf5zione'1 p]haps wor?y ( !      
admiration ( ma/]s1 c\ld !y h he>d !m   
execut$4  ,oh1 c\ld an acc\nt be tak5 ( 
! dreams ( a man 9 a fev]1 :at great &  
sublime ?+s w\ld sometimes proce$ f 8   
delirium6  ,^! subjects ( music & op]a  
/ill engag$ my att5tion dur+ my         
convalesc5ce1 b my ideas 7 less         
en]getic4  ,long & frequ5t m$itations1 &
 :i* 7 (t5 involunt>y1 & made su* an    
impression ^u my m9d t ,i resolv$ to    
attempt bo? words & music4 ,?is 0 n !   
fir/ "t ,i _h und]tak5 s difficult a    
task4  ,:il/ ,i 0 at ,*amb]y ,i _h      
compos$ an op]a entitl$ ',iphis &       
,anax>ete'1 :i* ,i _h ! good s5se to ?r[
 into ! fire4  ,at ,lyons ,i _h compos$ 
ano!r1 entitl$ ',la ,dec\v]te du ,n\veau

 ,monde'1 :i*1 aft] hav+ read x to ,m4  
,bordes1 ! ,abbes ,malby1 ,trublet1 &   
o!rs1 _h met ! same fate1 not)/&+ ,i _h 
set ! prologue & ! fir/ act to music1 & 
al?\gh ,david1 aft] exam9+ !            
composition1 _h told me !re 7 passages 9
 x wor?y ( ,buononc9i4  ,be=e ,i began !
 "w ,i took "t to consid] ( my plan4  ,9
 a h]oic ballet ,i propos$ ?ree diff]5t 
subjects1 9 ?ree acts1 deta*$ f ea* o!r1
 set to music ( a diff]5t "*1 tak+ = ea*
 subject ! am\rs ( a poet4  ,i entitl$  
?is op]a ,les ,muses ,galantes4 ,my fir/
 act1 9 music /rongly *>act]iz$1 0      
,tasso2 ! second 9 t5d] h>mony1 ,ovid2 &
 ! ?ird1 entitl$ ,anacreon1 0 to p>take 
( ! gayety ( ! di?yrambus4  ,i tri$ my  
skill on ! fir/ act1 & appli$ to x ) an 
ardor :i*1 = ! fir/ "t1 made me feel !  
delightful s5sation produc$ by !        
creative p[] ( composition4  ,"o ev5+1 z
 ,i ent]$ ! op]a1 feel+ myself /rongly  
incit$ & ov]p[]$ by my ideas1 ,i put my 
money aga9 into my pocket1 return$ to my
 ap>tm5t1 lock$ ! door1 &1 hav+ close   

drawn all ! curta9s1 t e ray ( light    
might be exclud$1 ,i w5t to b$1 ab&on+  
myself entirely to ?is musical &        
poetical 'oe/rum'1 & 9 sev5 or eight    
h\rs rapidly compos$ ! greate/ "p ( an  
act4  ,i c truly say my love = !        
,pr9cess ( ,f]r>a 7= ,i 0 ,tasso = !    
mom5t7 & my noble & l(ty s5tim5t )      
respect to h] unju/ bro!r1 procur$ me a 
night a hundr$ times m delici\s ?an "o  
pass$ 9 ! arms ( ! pr9cess w\ld h be54  
,9 ! morn+ b a v little ( :at ,i _h done
 rema9$ 9 my head1 b ?is little1 almo/  
effac$ by sleep & lassitude1 /ill       
suffici5tly ev9c$ ! en]gy ( ! pieces (  
:i* x 0 ! scatt]$ rema9s4  ,i ?is "t    
did1 n proce$ f> ) my und]tak+1 be+     
int]rupt$ by o!r affairs4  ,:il/ ,i     
atta*$ myself to ! family ( ,dup91      
,madam de ,beuz5val & ,madam de         
,broglie1 :om ,i cont9u$ to visit1 _h n 
=gott5 me4  ,! ,c\nt de ,montaigu1      
capta9 9 ! gu>ds1 _h j be5 appo9t$      
ambassador to ,v5ice4  ,he 0 an         
ambassador made by ,b>jac1 to :om he    

assidu\sly paid 8 c\rt4  ,8 bro!r1 !    
,*evali] de ,montaigu1 'g5tilhomme de la
 man*e' to ! dauph91 0 acqua9t$ ) ^!    
ladies1 & ) ! ,abbe ,al>y ( ! ,fr5*     
academy1 :om ,i sometimes visit$4       
,madam de ,broglie hav+ he>d !          
ambassador 0 seek+ a secret>y1 propos$  
me to him4  ,a conf]5ce 0 op5$ betwe5 u4
  ,i ask$ a sal>y ( fifty gu9eas1 a     
trifle = an employm5t :i* requir$ me to 
make "s appe>ance4  ,! ambassador 0     
unwill+ to give m ?an a ?\s& livres1    
leav+ me to make ! j\rney at my own     
exp5se4  ,! proposal 0 ridicul\s4  ,we  
c\ld n agree1 & ,m4 de ,francueil1 :o   
us$ all 8 ef=ts to prev5t my dep>ture1  
prevail$4  ,i /ay$1 & ,m4 de ,montaigu  
set out on 8 j\rney1 tak+ ) him ano!r   
secret>y1 "o ,m4 ,follau1 :o _h be5     
recomm5d$ to him by ! (fice ( =eign     
affairs4  ,!y no soon] arriv$ at ,v5ice 
?an !y qu>rell$4  ,bollau p]ceiv+ he _h 
to d ) a madman1 left him !re1 & ,m4 de 
,montaigu hav+ nobody ) him1 except a "y
 abbe ( ! "n ( ,b9is1 :o wrote "u !     

secret>y1 & 0 unfit to succe$ him1 _h   
rec\rse to me4  ,! *evali]1 8 bro!r1 a  
man ( wit1 by giv+ me to und]/& !re 7   
advantages annex$ to ! place ( secret>y1
 prevail$ ^u me to accept ! ?\s& livres4
 ,i 0 paid tw5ty l\is 9 advance = my    
j\rney1 & imm$iately dep>t$4  ,at ,lyons
 ,i w\ld mo/ will+ly h tak5 ! road to   
,m\nt ,c5is1 to see my poor mamma4  ,b  
,i w5t d[n ! ,rhone1 & emb>k$ at ,t\lon1
 z well on acc\nt ( ! w>1 & f a motive (
 economy1 z to obta9 a passport f ,m4 de
 ,mirepoix1 :o !n comm&$ 9 ,prov5ce1 &  
to :om ,i 0 recomm5d$4  ,m4 de ,montaigu
 n be+ able to d )\t me1 wrote lett]    
aft] lett]1 desir+ ,i w\ld ha/5 my      
j\rney2 ?is1 h[ev]1 an accid5t          
consid]ably prolong$4  ,x 0 at ! "t ( ! 
plague at ,mess9a1 & ! ,engli% fleet _h 
an*or$ !re1 & visit$ ! ,felucca1 on bo>d
 ( :i* ,i 01 & ?is circum/ance subject$ 
u1 on our arrival1 aft] a long &        
difficult voyage1 to a qu>ant9e (       
"o--&--tw5ty days4  ,! pass5g]s _h !    
*oice ( p]=m+ x on bo>d or 9 !          

,laz>etto1 :i* we 7 told 0 n yet        
furni%$4  ,!y all *ose ! ,felucca4  ,!  
insupportable heat1 ! clos5ess ( !      
vessel1 ! impossibility ( walk+ 9 x1 & !
 v]m9 ) :i* x sw>m$1 made me at all     
risks pref] ! ,laz>etto4  ,i 0 !re=e    
conduct$ to a l>ge build+ ( two /ories1 
q empty1 9 :i* ,i f\nd nei!r w9d[1 b$1  
table1 nor *air1 n s mu* z ev5 a        
jo9t-/ool or bundle ( /raw4  ,my night  
sack & my two trunks be+ br\ght me1 ,i 0
 %ut 9 by great doors ) huge locks1 &   
rema9$ at full lib]ty to walk at my ease
 f *amb] to *amb] & /ory to /ory1       
ev]y:]e f9d+ ! same solitude & nak$ness4
  ,?is1 h[ev]1 did n induce me to rep5t 
t ,i _h pref]r$ ! ,laz>etto to !        
,felucca2 &1 l ano!r ,rob9son ,crusoe1  
,i began to arrange myself = my "o-&    
tw5ty days1 j z ,i %\ld h done = my :ole
 life4  ,9 ! fir/ place1 ,i _h !        
amusem5t ( de/roy+ ! v]m9 ,i _h caught 9
 ! ,felucca4  ,z soon z ,i _h got cle> (
 ^!1 by means ( *ang+ my clo!s & l951 ,i
 proce$$ to furni% ! *amb] ,i _h *os54  

,i made a good mattress ) my wai/coats &
 %irts2 my napk9s ,i conv]t$1 by sew+ !m
 toge!r1 into %eets2 my robe de *ambre  
into a c\nt]pane2 & my cloak into a     
pill[4  ,i made myself a seat ) "o ( my 
trunks laid flat1 & a table ) ! o!r4  ,i
 took out "s writ+ pap] & an ink/&1 &   
di/ribut$1 9 ! mann] ( a libr>y1 a doz5 
books :i* ,i _h ) me4  ,9 a ^w1 ,i s    
well arrang$ my few movables1 t except  
curta9s & w9d[s1 ,i 0 almo/ z           
commodi\sly lodg$ 9 ?is ,laz]etto1      
absolutely empty z x 01 z ,i _h be5 at !
 ,t5nis ,c\rt 9 ! ,rue ,v]delet4  ,my   
d9n]s 7 s]v$ ) no small degree ( pomp2  
!y 7 escort$ by two gr5adi]s ) bayonets 
fix$2 ! /aircase 0 my d9+--room1 !      
l&+-place my table1 & ! /eps s]v$ me = a
 seat2 & z soon z my d9n] 0 s]v$ up a   
little bell 0 rung to in=m me ,i might  
sit d[n to table4  ,betwe5 my repa/s1 :5
 ,i did n ei!r read or write or "w at ! 
furni%+ ( my ap>tm5t1 ,i w5t to walk 9 !
 bury+-gr\nd ( ! ,prote/ants1 :i* s]v$  
me z a c\rty>d4  ,f ?is place ,i asc5d$ 

to a lan?orn :i* look$ into ! h>bor1 & f
 :i* ,i c\ld see ! %ips come 9 & g out4 
,9 ?is mann] ,i pass$ f\rte5 days1 &    
%\ld h ?us pass$ ! :ole "t ( ! qu>ant9e 
)\t ! lea/ we>9ess _h n ,m4 ,jo9ville1  
envoy f ,france1 to :om ,i f\nd means to
 s5d a lett]1 v9eg>$1 p]fum$1 & half    
burnt1 procur$ eight days ( ! "t to be  
tak5 (f3 ^! ,i w5t & sp5t at 8 h\se1 :]e
 ,i confess ,i f\nd myself bett] lodg$  
?an 9 ! ,laz>etto4  ,he 0 extremely     
civil to me4  ,dupont1 8 secret>y1 0 a  
good creature3 he introduc$ me1 z well  
at ,g5oa z 9 ! c\ntry1 to sev]al        
families1 ! company ( :i* ,i f\nd v     
ent]ta9+ & agreeable2 & ,i =m$ ) him an 
acqua9tance & a correspond5ce :i* we    
kept up = a consid]able l5g? ( "t4  ,i  
cont9u$ my j\rney1 v agreeably1 ?r\gh   
,lomb>dy4  ,i saw ,milan1 ,v]ona1       
,brescie1 & ,padua1 & at l5g? arriv$ at 
,v5ice1 :]e ,i 0 impati5tly expect$ by !
 ambassador4  ,i f\nd !re piles (       
despat*es1 f ! c\rt & f o!r ambassadors1
 ! ciph]$ "p ( :i* he _h n be5 able to  

read1 al?\gh he _h all ! ciph]s necess>y
 = t purpose1 nev] hav+ be5 employ$ 9   
any (fice1 nor ev5 se5 ! ciph] ( a      
m9i/]4  ,i 0 at fir/ appreh5sive ( meet+
 ) "s emb>rassm5t2 b ,i f\nd no?+ c\ld  
be m easy1 & 9 less ?an a week ,i _h    
deciph]$ ! :ole1 :i* c]ta9ly 0 n wor? ! 
tr\ble2 = n to m5tion ! little activity 
requir$ 9 ! embassy ( ,v5ice1 x 0 n to  
su* a man z ,m4 de ,montaigu t gov]nm5t 
w\ld confide a negotiation ( ev5 ! mo/  
trifl+ importance4  ,until my arrival he
 _h be5 mu* emb>rass$1 nei!r kn[+ h[ to 
dictate nor to write legibly4  ,i 0 v   
useful to him1 ( :i* he 0 s5sible2 & he 
treat$ me well4  ,to ?is he 0 also      
induc$ by ano!r motive4  ,s9ce ! "t (   
,m4 de ,fr\lay1 8 pr$ecessor1 ^: head   
became d]ang$1 ! consul f ,france1 ,m4  
le ,blond1 _h be5 *>g$ ) ! affairs ( !  
embassy1 & aft] ! arrival ( ,m4 de      
,montaigu1 cont9u$ to manage !m until he
 _h put him into ! track4  ,m4 de       
,montaigu1 hurt at ?is dis*>ge ( 8 duty 
by ano!r1 al?\gh he himself 0 incapable 

( x1 became disgu/$ ) ! consul1 & z soon
 z ,i arriv$ depriv$ him ( ! functions (
 secret>y to ! embassy to give !m to me4
  ,!y 7 insep>able f ! title1 & he told 
me to take x4  ,z long z ,i rema9$ ) him
 he nev] s5t any p]son except myself "u 
?is title to ! s5ate1 or to conf]5ce1 & 
^u ! :ole x 0 natural en\gh he %\ld     
pref] hav+ = secret>y to ! embassy a man
 atta*$ to him1 to a consul or a cl]k ( 
(fice nam$ by ! c\rt4  ,?is r5d]$ my    
situation v agreeable1 & prev5t$ 8      
g5tlem51 :o 7 ,italians1 z well z 8     
pages1 & mo/ ( 8 suite f disput+        
prec$5ce ) me 9 8 h\se4  ,i made an     
advantage\s use ( ! au?ority annex$ to !
 title he _h conf]r$ ^u me1 by ma9ta9+ 8
 "r ( protection1 t is1 ! fre$om ( 8    
neighborhood1 aga9/ ! attempts sev]al   
times made to infr+e x2 a privilege :i* 
8 ,v5etian (fic]s took no c>e to def5d4 
,b ,i nev] p]mitt$ b&itti to take refuge
 !re1 al?\gh ?is w\ld h produc$ me      
advantages ( :i* 8 excell5cy w\ld n h   
disda9$ to p>take4  ,he ?\ght prop]1    

h[ev]1 to claim a "p ( ^? ( !           
secret>y%ip1 :i* is call$ ! *anc]y4  ,x 
0 9 "t ( w>1 & !re 7 _m passports issu$4
  ,= ea* ( ^! passports a sequ9 0 paid  
to ! secret>y :o made x out & c\nt]sign$
 x4  ,all my pr$ecessors _h be5 paid ?is
 sequ9 by ,fr5*m5 & o!rs )\t di/9ction4 
,i ?\ght ?is unju/1 & al?\gh ,i 0 n a   
,fr5*man1 ,i aboli%$ x 9 favor ( !      
,fr5*2 b ,i s rigor\sly dem&$ my "r f   
p]sons ( e o!r nation1 t ! ,m>quis de   
,scotti1 bro!r to ! favorite ( ! ,que5 (
 ,spa91 hav+ ask$ = a passport )\t tak+ 
notice ( ! sequ93 ,i s5t to dem& x2 a   
boldness :i* ! v9dictive ,italian did n 
=get4  ,z soon z ! new regulation ,i _h 
made1 relative to passports1 0 kn[n1    
none b pret5d$ ,fr5*m51 :o 9 a gibb]i% !
 mo/ mispron\nc$1 call$ !mselves        
,prov5cals1 ,pic>ds1 or ,burgundians1   
came to dem& !m4  ,my e> be+ v f9e1 ,i 0
 n ?us made a dupe1 & ,i am almo/       
p]suad$ t n a s+le ,italian ev] *eat$ me
 ( my sequ91 & t n "o ,fr5*man ev] paid 
x4  ,i 0 fooli% en\gh to tell ,m4 de    

,montaigu1 :o 0 ignorant ( ev]y?+ t     
pass$1 :at ,i _h done4  ,! ^w sequ9 made
 him op5 8 e>s1 & )\t giv+ me 8 op9ion (
 ! abolition ( t tax ^u ! ,fr5*1 he     
pret5d$ ,i ought to acc\nt ) him = !    
o!rs1 promis+ me at ! same "t equival5t 
advantages4  ,m fill$ ) indignation at  
?is meanness1 ?an conc]n = my own       
int]e/1  ,i reject$ 8 proposal4  ,he    
insi/$1 & ,i grew w>m4  ,no1 sir1 said  
,i1 ) "s heat1 y\r excell5cy may keep   
:at belongs to y1 b d n take f me t :i* 
is m9e2 ,i w n suff] y to t\* a p5ny ( !
 p]quisites aris+ f passports4  ,p]ceiv+
 he c\ld ga9 no?+ by ^! means he _h     
rec\rse to o!rs1 & blu%$ n to tell me t 
s9ce ,i _h appropriat$ to myself !      
pr(its ( ! *anc]y1 x 0 b j ,i %\ld pay !
 exp5ses4  ,i 0 unwill+ to dispute ^u   
?is subject1 & f t "t ,i furni%$ at my  
own exp5se1 ink1 pap]1 wax1 wax-c&le1   
tape1 & ev5 a new seal1 = :i* he nev]   
reimburs$ me to ! am\nt ( a f>?+4  ,?is1
 h[ev]1 did n prev5t my giv+ a small "p 
( ! produce ( ! passports to ! ,abbe de 

,b9is1 a good creature1 & :o 0 f> f     
pret5d+ to h ! lea/ "r to any su* ?+4   
,if he 0 oblig+ to me my polit5ess to   
him 0 an equival5t1 & we always liv$    
toge!r on ! be/ ( t]ms4  ,on ! fir/     
trial ,i made ( 8 tal5ts 9 my (ficial   
functions1 ,i f\nd him less tr\blesome  
?an ,i expect$ he w\ld h be51 consid]+  
he 0 a man )\t exp]i5ce1 9 ! s]vice ( an
 ambassador :o possess$ no m ?an        
himself1 & ^: ignorance & ob/9acy       
con/antly c\nt]act$ ev]y?+ ) :i*        
common-s5se & "s in=mation inspir$ me = 
8 s]vice & t ( ! k+4  ,! next ?+ !      
ambassador did 0 to connect himself ) ! 
,m>quis ,m>i1 ambassador f ,spa91 an    
+5i\s & artful man1 :o1 _h he wi%$ s to 
d1 might h l$ him by ! nose1 yet on     
acc\nt ( ! union ( ! int]e/s ( ! two    
cr[ns he g5]ally gave him good advice1  
:i* might h be5 ( ess5tial s]vice1 _h n 
! o!r1 by jo9+ 8 own op9ion1 c\nt]act$ x
 9 ! execution4  ,! only bus9ess !y _h  
to conduct 9 conc]t ) ea* o!r 0 to      
engage ! ,v5etians to ma9ta9 _!         

neutrality4  ,^! did n neglect to give !
 /ronge/ assurances ( _! fidelity to _! 
engagem5t at ! same "t t !y publicly    
furni%$ ammunition to ! ,au/rian troops1
 & ev5 recruits "u pret5se ( des]tion4  
,m4 de ,montaigu1 :o ,i believe wi%$ to 
r5d] himself agreeable to ! republic1   
fail$ n on 8 "p1 not)/&+ my             
repres5tation to make me assure !       
gov]nm5t 9 all my despat*es1 t !        
,v5etians w\ld nev] violate an article (
 ! neutrality4  ,! ob/9acy & /upidity ( 
?is poor wret* made me write & act      
extravagantly3 ,i 0 oblig$ to be ! ag5t 
( 8 folly1 because he w\ld h x s1 b he  
sometimes r5d]$ my employm5t            
insupportable & ! functions ( x almo/   
impracticable4 ,= example1 he insi/$ on 
! greate/ "p ( 8 despat*es to ! k+1 & ( 
^? to ! m9i/]1 be+ writt5 9 ciph]1      
al?\gh nei!r ( !m conta9$ any?+ t       
requir$ t precaution4  ,i repres5t$ to  
him t betwe5 ! ,friday1 ! day !         
despat*es f ! c\rt arriv$1 & ,saturday1 
on :i* ours 7 s5t (f1 !re 0 n suffici5t 

"t to write s mu* 9 ciph]1 & c>ry on !  
consid]able correspond5ce ) :i* ,i 0    
*>g$ = ! same c\ri]4  ,he f\nd an       
admirable exp$i5t1 :i* 0 to prep>e on   
,?ursday ! answ] to ! despat*es we 7    
expect$ to receive on ! next day4  ,?is 
appe>$ to him s happily imag9$1 t       
not)/&+ all ,i c\ld say on !            
impossibility ( ! ?+1 & ! absurdity (   
attempt+ its execution1 ,i 0 oblig$ to  
comply dur+ ! :ole "t ,i aft]w>ds rema9$
 ) him1 aft] hav+ made notes ( ! few    
loose words he spoke to me 9 ! c\rse ( !
 week1 & ( "s trivial circum/ances :i*  
,i collect$ by hurry+ f place to place4 
,provid$ ) ^! mat]ials ,i nev] once     
fail$ c>ry+ to him on ! ,?ursday morn+ a
 r\gh draft ( ! despat*es :i* 7 to be   
s5t (f on ,saturday1 except+ ! few      
additions & corrections ,i ha/ily made 9
 answ] to ! lett]s :i* arriv$ on !      
,friday1 & to :i* ours s]v$ = answ]4    
,he _h ano!r cu/om1 div]t+ en\gh & :i*  
made 8 correspond5ce ridicul\s beyond   
imag9ation4  ,he s5t back all in=mation 

to its respective s\rce1 in/ead ( mak+ x
 foll[ its c\rse4  ,to ,m4 ,amelot he   
transmitt$ ! news ( ! c\rt2 to ,m4      
,maurepas1 t ( ,p>is2 to ,m4 d'         
,havr9c\rt1 ! news f ,sw$52 to ,m4 de   
,*et>die1 t f ,pet]sb\rg2 & sometimes to
 ea* ( ^? ! news !y _h respectively s5t 
to him1 & :i* ,i 0 employ$ to dress up 9
 t]ms diff]5t f ^? 9 :i* x 0 convey$ to 
u4 ,z he read no?+ ( :at ,i laid be=e   
him1 except ! despat*es = ! c\rt1 &     
sign$ ^? to o!r ambassadors )\t read+   
!m1 ?is left me m at lib]ty to give :at 
turn ,i ?\ght prop] to ! latt]1 & 9 ^!  
!re=e ,i made ! articles ( in=mation    
cross ea* o!r4  ,b x 0 impossible =-me  
to d ! same by despat*es ( importance2 &
 ,i ?\ght myself happy :5 ,m4 de        
,montaigu did n take x into 8 head to   
cram into !m an impromptu ( a few l9es  
aft] 8 mann]4  ,?is oblig$ me to return1
 & ha/ily transcribe ! :ole despat*     
decorat$ ) 8 new nons5se1 & honor x ) ! 
ciph]1 )\t :i* he w\ld h refus$ 8       
signature4  ,i 0 frequ5tly almo/ tempt$1

 = ! sake ( 8 reputation1 to ciph]      
some?+ diff]5t f :at he _h writt51 b    
feel+ t no?+ c\ld au?orize su* a        
deception1 ,i left him to answ] = 8 own 
folly1 satisfy+ myself ) hav+ spok5 to  
him ) fre$om1 & dis*>g$ at my own p]il !
 duties ( my /ation4  ,?is is :at ,i    
always did ) an uprightness1 a zeal &   
c\rage1 :i* m]it$ on 8 "p a v diff]5t   
recomp5se f t :i* 9 ! end ,i receiv$ f  
him4  ,x 0 "t ,i %\ld once be :at       
,heav51 :i* _h end[$ me ) a happy       
disposition1 :at ! education t _h be5   
giv5 me by ! be/ ( wom51 & t ,i _h giv5 
myself1 _h prep>$ me =1 & ,i became s4  
,left to my own reflections1 )\t a fri5d
 or advice1 )\t exp]i5ce1 & 9 a =eign   
c\ntry1 9 ! s]vice ( a =eign nation1    
surr\nd$ by a cr[d ( knaves1 :o1 = _!   
own int]e/1 & to avoid ! sc&al ( good   
example1 endeavor$ to prevail ^u me to  
imitate !m2 f> f yield+ to _!           
solicitations1 ,i s]v$ ,france well1 to 
:i* ,i ow$ no?+1 & ! ambassador /ill    
bett]1 z x 0 "r & j ,i %\ld d to ! utmo/

 ( my p[]4  ,irreproa*able 9 a po/1     
suffici5tly expos$ to c5sure1 ,i m]it$ &
 obta9$ ! e/eem ( ! republic1 t ( all ! 
ambassadors ) :om we 7 9 correspond5ce1 
& ! affection ( ! ,fr5* :o resid$ at    
,v5ice1 n ev5 except+ ! consul1 :om )   
regret ,i supplant$ 9 ! functions :i* ,i
 knew belong$ to him1 & :i* occasion$ me
 m emb>rassm5t ?an !y af=d$ me          
satisfaction4  ,m4 de ,montaigu1 confid+
 )\t res]ve to ! ,m>quis ,m>i1 :o did n 
?or\ghly und]/& 8 duty1 neglect$ x to   
su* a degree t )\t me ! ,fr5* :o 7 at   
,v5ice w\ld n h p]ceiv$ t an ambassador 
f _! nation resid$ !re4  ,always put (f 
)\t be+ he>d :5 !y /ood 9 ne$ ( 8       
protection1 !y became disgu/$ & no long]
 appe>$ 9 8 company or at 8 table1 to   
:i* inde$ he nev] invit$ !m4  ,i        
frequ5tly did f myself :at x 0 8 duty to
 h done2 ,i r5d]$ to ! ,fr5*1 :o appli$ 
to me1 all ! s]vices 9 my p[]4  ,9 any  
o!r c\ntry ,i %\ld h done m1 b1 on      
acc\nt ( my employm5t1 n be+ able to see
 p]sons 9 place1 ,i 0 (t5 oblig$ to     

apply to ! consul1 & ! consul1 :o 0     
settl$ 9 ! c\ntry ) 8 family1 _h _m     
p]sons to oblige1 :i* prev5t$ him f act+
 z he o!rwise w\ld h done4  ,h[ev]1     
p]ceiv+ him unwill+ & afraid to speak1  
,i v5tur$ haz>d\s measures1 :i*         
sometimes succe$$4  ,i recollect "o :i* 
/ill makes me laugh4  ,no p]son w\ld    
suspect x 0 to me1 ! lov]s ( ! !atre at 
,p>is1 owe ,corall9e & h] si/] ,camille1
 no?+ h[ev]1 c be m true4 ,v]onese1 _!  
fa!r1 _h engag$ himself ) 8 *ildr5 9 !  
,italian company1 & aft] hav+ receiv$   
two ?\s& livres = ! exp5ses ( 8 j\rney1 
in/ead ( sett+ out = ,france1 quietly   
cont9u$ at ,v5ice1 & accept$ an         
engagem5t 9 ! !atre ( ,sa9t ,luke1 to   
:i* ,corall9e1 a *ild z %e /ill 01 drew 
great numb]s ( p4  ,! ,duke de ,greves1 
z fir/ g5tleman ( ! *amb]1 wrote to !   
ambassador to claim ! fa!r & ! daught]4 
,m4 de ,montaigu :5 he gave me ! lett]1 
conf9$ 8 in/ructions to say+1 'voyez    
cela'1 exam9e & pay att5tion to ?is4  ,i
 w5t to ,m4 ,blond to beg he w\ld speak 

to ! patrician1 to :om ! !atre belong$1 
& :o1 ,i believe1 0 nam$ ,zu/9ian1 t he 
might dis*>ge ,v]onese1 :o _h engag$ 9 !
 "n ( ! k+4  ,le ,blond1 to :om !       
commission 0 n v agreeable1 execut$ x   
badly4  ,zu/9ian answ]$ vaguely1 &      
,v]onese 0 n dis*>g$4  ,i 0 piqu$ at    
?is4  ,x 0 dur+ ! c>nival1 & hav+ tak5 !
 bahute & a mask1 ,i set out = ! palace 
,zu/9ian4  ,^? :o saw my gondola arrive 
) ! liv]y ( ! ambassador1 7 lo/ 9       
a/oni%m5t4 ,v5ice _h nev] se5 su* a ?+4 
,i ent]$1 & caus$ myself to be ann\nc$  
by ! "n ( ',una ,siora ,maseh]a'4  ,z   
soon z ,i 0 introduc$ ,i took (f my mask
 & told my "n4  ,! s5ator turn$ pale &  
appe>$ /upefi$ ) surprise4  ,sir2 said  
,i to him 9 ,v5etian1 x is ) mu* regret 
,i importune y\r excell5cy ) ?is visit2 
b y h 9 y\r !atre ( ,sa9t ,luke1 a man (
 ! "n ( ,v]onese1 :o is engag$ 9 !      
s]vice ( ! k+1 & :om y h be5 reque/$1 b 
9 va91 to give up3 ,i come to claim him 
9 ! "n ( 8 maje/y4  ,my %ort h>angue 0  
effectual4  ,i _h no soon] left ! palace

 ?an ,zu/9ian ran to communicate !      
adv5ture to ! /ate inquisitors1 by :om  
he 0 sev]ely repreh5d$4  ,v]onese 0     
dis*>g$ ! same day4  ,i s5t him ^w t if 
he did n set (f )9 a week ,i w\ld h him 
arre/$4  ,he did n wait = my giv+ him   
?is intimation a second "t4  ,on ano!r  
occasion ,i reliev$ f difficulty solely 
by my own means1 & almo/ )\t ! assi/ance
 ( any o!r p]son1 ! capta9 ( a          
m]*ant-%ip4  ,?is 0 "o ,capta9 ,olivet1 
f ,m>seilles2 ! "n ( ! vessel ,i h      
=gott54  ,8 m5 _h qu>rel$ ) !           
,sclavonians 9 ! s]vice ( ! republic1 "s
 viol5ce _h be5 committ$1 & ! vessel 0  
"u s sev]e an emb>go t nobody except !  
ma/] 0 suff]$ to g on bo>d or leave x   
)\t p]mission4  ,he appli$ to !         
ambassador1 :o w\ld he> no?+ he _h to   
say4  ,he aft]w>ds w5t to ! consul1 :o  
told him x 0 n an affair ( comm]ce1 & t 
he c\ld n int]f]e 9 x4  ,n kn[+ :at     
fur!r /eps to take he appli$ to me4  ,i 
told ,m4 de ,montaigu he ought to p]mit 
me to lay be=e ! s5ate a memoir on !    

subject4  ,i d n recollect :e!r or n he 
cons5t$1 or t ,i pres5t$ ! memoir2 b ,i 
p]fectly rememb] t if ,i did x 0        
ineffectual1 & ! emb>go /ill cont9u+1 ,i
 took ano!r me?od1 :i* succe$$4  ,i     
ins]t$ a relation ( ! affairs 9 "o ( our
 lett]s to ,m4 de ,maurepas1 ?\gh ,i _h 
difficulty 9 prevail+ ^u ,m4 de         
,montaigne to suff] ! article to pass4  
,i knew t our despat*es1 al?\gh _!      
cont5ts 7 insignificant1 7 op5$ at      
,v5ice4  ,( ?is ,i _h a pro( by f9d+ !  
articles !y conta9$1 v]batim 9 !        
gazette1 a trea*]y ( :i* ,i _h 9 va9    
attempt$ to prevail ^u ! ambassador to  
compla94  ,my object 9 speak+ ( ! affair
 9 ! lett] 0 to turn ! curiosity ( !    
m9i/]s ( ! republic to advantage1 to    
inspire !m ) "s appreh5sions1 & to      
induce ! /ate to release ! vessel3 = _h 
x be5 necess>y to ?is effect to wait =  
an answ] f ! c\rt1 ! capta9 w\ld h be5  
ru9$ be=e x c\ld h arriv$4  ,i did /ill 
m1 ,i w5t alongside ! vessel to make    
inquiries ( ! %ip's company4  ,i took ) 

me ! ,abbe ,patizel1 *ancellor ( !      
consul%ip1 :o w\ld r h be5 excus$1 s mu*
 7 ^! poor creatures afraid ( displeas+ 
! ,s5ate4  ,z ,i c\ld n g on bo>d1 on   
acc\nt ( ! ord] f ! /ates1 ,i rema9$ 9  
my gondola1 & !re took ! depositions    
successively1 int]rogat+ ea* ( ! m>9]s1 
& direct+ my que/ions 9 su* a mann] z to
 produce answ]s :i* might be to _!      
advantage4  ,i wi%$ to prevail ^u       
,patizel to put ! que/ions & take       
depositions himself1 :i* 9 fact 0 m 8   
bus9ess ?an m9e2 b to ?is he w\ld n     
cons5t2 he nev] once op5$ 8 m\? & refus$
 to sign ! depositions aft] me4  ,?is   
/ep1 some:at bold1 0 h[ev]1 successful1 
& ! vessel 0 releas$ long be=e an answ] 
came f ! m9i/]4  ,! capta9 wi%$ to make 
me a pres5t2 b )\t be+ angry ) him on t 
acc\nt1 ,i tapp$ him on ! %\ld]1 say+1  
,capta9 ,olivet1 c y imag9e t he :o does
 n receive f ! ,fr5* 8 p]quisite =      
passports1 :i* he f\nd 8 e/abli%$ "r1 is
 a man likely to sell !m ! k+'s         
protection8  ,he1 h[ev]1 insi/$ on giv+ 

me a d9n] on bo>d 8 vessel1 :i* ,i      
accept$1 & took ) me ! secret>y to !    
,spani% embassy1 ,m4 ,c>rio1 a man ( wit
 & amiable mann]s1 to p>take ( x3 he has
 s9ce be5 secret>y to ! ,spani% embassy 
at ,p>is & *>ge des affaires4  ,i _h =m$
 an intimate connection ) him aft] !    
example ( our ambassadors4  ,happy %\ld 
,i h be51 if1 :5 9 ! mo/ dis9t]e/$ mann]
 ,i did all ! s]vice ,i c\ld1 ,i _h kn[n
 h[ to introduce suffici5t ord] into all
 ^! little details1 t ,i might n h s]v$ 
o!rs at my own exp5se4  ,b 9 employm5ts 
simil> to t ,i held1 9 :i* ! mo/ trifl+ 
faults are ( consequ5ce1 my :ole        
att5tion 0 engag$ 9 avoid+ all su*      
mi/akes z might be detrim5tal to my     
s]vice4  ,i conduct$1 till ! la/ mom5t1 
ev]y?+ relative to my imm$iate duty1 ) !
 greate/ ord] & exactness4  ,except+ a  
few errors :i* a =c$ precipitation made 
me commit 9 ciph]+1 & ( :i* ! cl]ks (   
,m4 ,amelot once compla9$1 nei!r !      
ambassador nor any o!r p]son _h ev] !   
lea/ reason to reproa* me ) neglig5ce 9 

any "o ( my functions4  ,?is is         
rem>kable 9 a man s neglig5t z ,i am4   
,b my memory sometimes fail$ me1 & ,i 0 
n suffici5tly c>eful 9 ! private affairs
 ) :i* ,i 0 *>g$2 h[ev]1 a love ( ju/ice
 always made me take ! loss on myself1 &
 ?is volunt>ily1 be=e anybody ?\ght (   
compla9+4  ,i w m5tion b "o circum/ance 
( ?is nature2 x relates to my dep>ture f
 ,v5ice1 & ,i aft]w>ds felt ! effects ( 
x 9 ,p>is4  ,our cook1 ^: "n 0          
,r\sselot1 _h br\ght f ,france an old   
note = two hundr$ livres1 :i* a         
hairdress]1 a fri5d ( 81 _h receiv$ f a 
noble ,v5etian ( ! "n ( ,zanetto ,nani1 
:o _h _h wigs ( him to t am\nt4         
,r\sselot br\ght me ! note1 begg+ ,i    
w\ld endeavor to obta9 paym5t ( "s "p ( 
x1 by way ( accommodation4  ,i knew1 &  
he knew x also1 t ! con/ant cu/om (     
noble ,v5etians 01 :5 once return$ to _!
 c\ntry1 nev] to pay ! debts !y _h      
contract$ abroad4  ,:5 means are tak5 to
 =ce !m to paym5t1 ! wret*$ cr$itor f9ds
 s _m delays1 & incurs su* enorm\s      

exp5ses1 t he becomes disgu/$ &         
concludes by giv+ up 8 debtor accept+ ! 
mo/ trifl+ composition4  ,i begg$ ,m4 le
 ,blond to speak to ,zanetto4  ,!       
,v5etian ackn[l$g$ ! note1 b did n agree
 to paym5t4  ,aft] a long dispute he at 
l5g? promis$ ?ree sequ9s2 b :5 ,le      
,blond c>ri$ him ! note ev5 ^! 7 n      
ready1 & x 0 necess>y to wait4  ,9 ?is  
int]val happ5$ my qu>rel ) ! ambassador 
& ,i quitt$ 8 s]vice4  ,i _h left !     
pap]s ( ! embassy 9 ! greate/ ord]1 b ! 
note ( ,r\sselot 0 n to be f\nd4  ,m4 le
 ,blond assur$ me he _h giv5 x me back4 
,i knew him to be too hone/ a man to h !
 lea/ d\bt ( ! matt]2 b x 0 impossible =
 me to recollect :at ,i _h done ) x4  ,z
 ,zanetto _h ackn[l$g$ ! debt1 ,i desir$
 ,m4 le ,blond to endeavor to obta9 f   
him ! ?ree sequ9s on giv+ him a receipt 
= ! am\nt1 or to prevail ^u him to r5ew 
! note by way ( duplicate4  ,zanetto1   
kn[+ ! note to be lo/1 w\ld n agree to  
ei!r4  ,i (f]$ ,r\sselot ! ?ree sequ9s f
 my own purse1 z a dis*>ge ( ! debt4    

,he refus$ !m1 & said ,i might settle ! 
matt] ) ! cr$itor at ,p>is1 ( :om he    
gave me ! address4  ,! hair-dress]1 hav+
 be5 in=m$ ( :at _h pass$1 w\ld ei!r h 8
 note or ! :ole sum = :i* x 0 giv54     
,:at1 9 my indignation1 w\ld ,i h giv5  
to h f\nd ?is vexati\s pap]6  ,i paid ! 
two hundr$ livres1 & t 9 my greate/     
di/ress4  ,9 ?is mann] ! loss ( ! note  
produc$ to ! cr$itor ! paym5t ( ! :ole  
sum1 :]eas _h x1 un=tunately = him1 be5 
f\nd1 he w\ld h _h "s difficulty 9      
recov]+ ev5 ! t5 cr[ns1 :i* 8 excell5cy1
 ,zanetto ,nani1 _h promis$ to pay4  ,! 
tal5ts ,i ?\ght ,i felt 9 myself = my   
employm5t made me dis*>ge ! functions ( 
x ) satisfaction1 & except ! society (  
my fri5d de ,c>rio1 t ( ! virtu\s       
,altuna1 ( :om ,i %all soon h an        
occasion to speak1 ! innoc5t recreations
 ( ! place ,sa9t ,m>k1 ( ! !atre1 & ( a 
few visits :i* we1 = ! mo/ "p1 made     
toge!r1 my only pleasure 0 9 ! duties ( 
my /ation4 ,al?\gh ^! 7 n consid]able1  
especially ) ! aid ( ! ,abbe de ,b9is1  

yet z ! correspond5ce 0 v ext5sive & !re
 0 a w>1 ,i 0 a good deal employ$4  ,i  
appli$ to bus9ess ! greate/ "p ( e      
morn+1 & on ! days previ\s to ! dep>ture
 ( ! c\ri]1 9 ! ev5+s1 & sometimes till 
midnight4  ,! re/ ( my "t ,i gave to !  
/udy ( ! political pr(essions ,i _h     
ent]$ ^u1 & 9 :i* ,i hop$1 f my         
successful beg9n+1 to be advantage\sly  
employ$4  ,9 fact ,i 0 9 favor ) e "o2 !
 ambassador himself spoke highly ( my   
s]vices1 & nev] compla9$ ( any?+ ,i did 
= him2 8 dissatisfaction proce$$ f my   
hav+ insi/$ on quitt+ him1 inconsequ5ce 
( ! useless compla9ts ,i _h frequ5tly   
made on sev]al occasions4  ,!           
ambassadors & m9i/]s ( ! k+ ) :om we 7 9
 correspond5ce complim5t$ him on ! m]it 
( 8 secret>y1 9 a mann] by :i* he ought 
to h be5 flatt]$1 b :i* 9 8 poor head   
produc$ q a contr>y effect4  ,he receiv$
 "o 9 p>ticul> relative to an affair (  
importance1 = :i* he nev] p>don$ me4    
,he 0 s incapable ( be>+ ! lea/         
con/ra9t1 t on ! ,saturday1 ! day ( !   

despat*es = mo/ ( ! c\rts he c\ld n     
conta9 himself1 & wait till ! bus9ess 0 
done be=e he w5t out1 & incessantly     
press+ me to ha/5 ! despat*es to ! k+ & 
m9i/]s1 he sign$ !m ) precipitation1 &  
imm$iately w5t ,i "k n :]e1 leav+ mo/ ( 
! o!r lett]s )\t sign+2 ?is oblig$ me1  
:5 ^! conta9$ no?+ b news1 to conv]t !m 
into j\rnals2 b :5 affairs :i* relat$ to
 ! k+ 7 9 "q x 0 necess>y somebody %\ld 
sign1 & ,i did x4  ,?is once happ5$     
relative to "s important advice we _h j 
receiv$ f ,m4 ,v9c5t1 *>ge des affaires 
f ! k+1 at ,vi5na4  ,! ,pr9ce ,lobk[itz 
0 !n m>*+ to ,naples1 & ,c\nt ,gages _h 
j made ! mo/ memorable retreat1 ! f9e/  
milit>y manoeuvre ( ! :ole c5tury1 ( :i*
 ,europe has n suffici5tly spok54  ,!   
despat* in=m$ u t a man1 ^: p]son ,m4   
,v9c5t describ$1 _h set out f ,vi5na1 & 
0 to pass by ,v5ice1 9 8 way into       
,abruzzo1 :]e he 0 secretly to /ir up ! 
p at ! approa* ( ! ,au/rians4  ,9 !     
abs5ce ( ,m4 le ,comte de ,montaigu1 :o 
did n give himself ! lea/ conc]n ab\t   

any?+1 ,i =w>d$ ?is advice to ! ,m>quis 
de l',hopital1 s apropos1 t x is p]haps 
to ! poor ,jean ,jacques1 s abus$ &     
laugh$ at1 t ! h\se ( ,b\rbon owes !    
pres]vation ( ! k+dom ( ,naples4  ,!    
,m>quis de l',hopital1 :5 he ?ank$ 8    
colleague1 z x 0 prop] he %\ld d1 spoke 
to him ( 8 secret>y1 & m5tion$ ! s]vice 
he _h j r5d]$ to ! common cause4  ,!    
,comte de ,montaigu1 :o 9 t affair _h to
 reproa* himself ) neglig5ce1 ?\ght he  
p]ceiv$ 9 ! complim5t paid him by ,m4 de
 l',hopital1 some?+ l a reproa*1 & spoke
 ( x to me ) signs ( ill-humor4  ,i f\nd
 x necess>y to act 9 ! same mann] ) !   
,c\nt de ,ca/ellane1 ambassador at      
,con/ant9ople1 z ,i _h done ) ! ,m>quis 
de l',hopital1 al?\gh 9 ?+s ( less      
importance4  ,z !re 0 no o!r conveyance 
to ,con/ant9ople ?an by c\ri]s1 s5t f "t
 to "t by ! s5ate to its ,bailli1 advice
 ( _! dep>ture 0 giv5 to ! ambassador ( 
,france1 t he might write by !m to 8    
colleague1 if he ?\ght prop] s to d4    
,?is advice 0 commonly s5t a day or two 

be=eh&2 b ,m4 de ,montaigu 0 held 9 s   
little respect1 t m]ely = ! sake ( =m he
 0 s5t to1 a c\ple ( h\rs be=e ! c\ri]s 
set (f4  ,?is frequ5tly oblig$ me to    
write ! despat* 9 8 abs5ce4 ,m4 de      
,ca/ellane1 9 8 answ] made honorable    
m5tion ( me2 ,m4 de ,jonville1 at ,g5oa1
 did ! same1 & ^! in/ances ( _! reg>d & 
e/eem became new grievances4  ,i        
ackn[l$ge ,i did n neglect any          
opportunity ( mak+ myself kn[n2 b ,i    
nev] s\ght "o improp]ly1 & 9 s]v+ well  
,i ?\ght ,i _h a "r to aspire to !      
natural return = ess5tial s]vices2 !    
e/eem ( ^? capable ( judg+ (1 & rew>d+  
!m4  ,i w n say :e!r or n my exactness 9
 dis*>g+ ! duties ( my employm5t 0 a j  
subject ( compla9t f ! ambassador2 b ,i 
_c refra9 f decl>+ t x 0 ! sole         
grievance he ev] m5tion$ previ\s to our 
sep>ation4  ,8 h\se1 :i* he _h nev] put 
on a good foot+1 0 con/antly fill$ )    
rabble2 ! ,fr5* 7 ill-treat$ 9 x1 & !   
asc5dancy 0 giv5 to ! ,italians2 ( ^!   
ev51 ! m hone/ "p1 !y :o _h long be5 9 !

 s]vice ( ! embassy1 7 indec5tly        
dis*>g$1 8 fir/ g5tleman 9 p>ticul>1 :om
 he _h tak5 f ! ,comte de ,fr\lay1 & :o1
 if ,i rememb] "r1 0 call$ ,comte de    
,peati1 or some?+ v l t "n4  ,! second  
g5tleman1 *os5 by ,m4 de ,montaigu1 0 an
 outlaw highwayman f ,mantua1 call$     
,dom9ic ,vitali1 to :om ! ambassador    
intru/$ ! c>e ( 8 h\se1 & :o _h by means
 ( flatt]y & sordid economy1 obta9$ 8   
confid5ce1 & became 8 favorite to !     
great prejudice ( ! few hone/ p he /ill 
_h ab\t him1 & ( ! secret>y :o 0 at _!  
head4  ,! c\nt5ance ( an upright man    
always gives inquietude to knaves4      
,no?+ m 0 necess>y to make ,vitali      
conceive a hatr$ aga9/ me3 b = ?is      
s5tim5t !re 0 /ill ano!r cause :i* r5d]$
 x m cruel4  ,( ?is ,i mu/ give an      
acc\nt1 t ,i may be condemn$ if ,i am   
f\nd 9 ! wrong4  ,! ambassador _h1      
accord+ to cu/om1 a box at ea* ( !      
!at]s4 ,e day at d9n] he nam$ ! !at] to 
:i* x 0 8 int5tion to g3 ,i *ose aft]   
him1 & ! g5tlem5 dispos$ ( ! o!r boxes4 

,:5 ,i w5t out ,i took ! key ( ! box ,i 
_h *os54  ,"o day1 ,vitali n be+ 9 !    
way1 ,i ord]$ ! footman :o att5d$ on me1
 to br+ me ! key to a h\se :i* ,i nam$  
to him4  ,vitali1 in/ead ( s5d+ ! key1  
said he _h dispos$ ( x4  ,i 0 ! m enrag$
 at ?is z ! footman deliv]$ 8 message 9 
public4  ,9 ! ev5+ ,vitali wi%$ to make 
me "s apology1 to :i* h[ev] ,i w\ld n   
li/54 ,to--morr[1 sir1 said ,i to him1 y
 w come at su* an h\r & apologize to me 
9 ! h\se :]e ,i receiv$ ! affront1 & 9 !
 pres5ce ( ! p]sons :o 7 witnesses to x2
 or aft] to--morr[1 :atev] may be !     
consequ5ces1 ei!r y or ,i w leave !     
h\se4 ,?is firmness intimidat$ him4  ,he
 came to ! h\se at ! h\r appo9t$1 & made
 me a public apology1 ) a meanness wor?y
 ( himself4  ,b he aft]w>ds took 8      
measures at leisure1 & at ! same "t t he
 cr+$ to me 9 public1 he secretly act$ 9
 s vile a mann]1 t al?\gh unable to     
prevail on ! ambassador to give me my   
dismission1 he laid me "u ! necessity ( 
resolv+ to leave him4  ,a wret* l him1  

c]ta9ly1 c\ld n "k me1 b he knew en\gh (
 my "* to make x s]viceable to 8        
purposes4  ,he knew ,i 0 mild to an     
excess1 & pati5t 9 be>+ involunt>y      
wrongs2 b haughty & impati5t :5 insult$ 
) prem$itat$ (f5ces2 lov+ dec5cy &      
dignity 9 ?+s 9 :i* ^! 7 requisite1 & n 
m exact 9 requir+ ! respect due to      
myself1 ?an att5tive 9 r5d]+ t :i* ,i   
ow$ to o!rs4  ,9 ?is he und]took to     
disgu/ me1 & 9 ?is he succe$$4  ,he     
turn$ ! h\se upside d[n1 & de/roy$ !    
ord] & subord9ation ,i _h endeavor$ to  
e/abli% 9 x4  ,a h\se )\t a woman /&s 9 
ne$ ( r a sev]e discipl9e to pres]ve t  
mode/y :i* is insep>able f dignity4  ,he
 soon conv]t$ ours into a place ( fil?y 
debau* & sc&al\s lic5ti\sness1 ! haunt (
 knaves & debau*ees4  ,he procur$ =     
second g5tleman to 8 excell5cy1 9 !     
place ( him :om he got dis*>g$1 ano!r   
pimp l himself1 :o kept a h\se (        
ill--fame1 at ! ,cross ( ,malta2 & !    
indec5cy ( ^! two rascals 0 equall$ by  
no?+ b _! insol5ce4  ,except ! b$-*amb] 

( ! ambassador1 :i*1 h[ev]1 0 n 9 v good
 ord]1 !re 0 n a corn] 9 ! :ole h\se    
supportable to an mode/ man4  ,z 8      
excell5cy did n sup1 ! g5tleman & myself
 _h a private table1 at :i* ! ,abbe     
,b9is & ! pages also eat4  ,9 ! mo/     
paltry ale-h\se p are s]v$ ) m          
cleanl9ess & dec5cy1 h clean] l951 & a  
table bett] suppli$4  ,we _h b "o little
 & v fil?y c&le1 pewt] plates1 & iron   
=ks4  ,i c\ld h ov]look$ :at pass$ 9    
secret1 b ,i 0 depriv$ ( my gondola4  ,i
 0 ! only secret>y to an ambassador1 :o 
0 oblig$ to hire "o or g on foot1 & !   
liv]y ( 8 excell5cy no long] accompani$ 
me1 except :5 ,i w5t to ! s5ate4        
,besides1 ev]y?+ :i* pass$ 9 ! h\se 0   
kn[n 9 ! city4  ,all ^? :o 7 9 ! s]vice 
( ! o!r ambassadors l\dly exclaim$2     
,dom9ic1 ! only cause ( all1 exclaim$   
l\d] ?an anybody1 well kn[+ ! indec5cy )
 :i* we 7 treat$ 0 m affect+ to me ?an  
to any o!r p]son4  ,?\gh ,i 0 ! only "o 
9 ! h\se :o said no?+ ( ! matt] abroad1 
,i compla9$ l\dly ( x to ! ambassador1 z

 well z ( himself1 :o1 secretly excit$  
by ! wret*1 entirely devot$ to 8 w1     
daily made me suff] "s new affront4     
,oblig$ to sp5d a good deal to keep up a
 foot+ ) ^? 9 ! same situation ) myself1
 & to make are appe>ance prop] to my    
employm5t1 ,i c\ld n t\* a f>?+ ( my    
sal>y1 & :5 ,i ask$ him = money1 he     
spoke ( 8 e/eem = me1 & 8 confid5ce1 z  
if ei!r ( ^! c\ld h fill$ my purse1 &   
provid$ = ev]y?+4  ,^! two b&itti at    
l5g? q turn$ ! head ( _! ma/]1 :o       
naturally _h n a good "o1 & ru9$ him by 
a cont9ual traffic1 & by b>ga9s1 ( :i*  
he 0 ! dupe1 :il/ !y p]suad$ him !y 7   
greatly 9 8 favor4  ,!y p]suad$ him to  
take ^u ! ,br5ta1 a ,palazzo1 at twice !
 r5t x 0 wor?1 & divid$ ! surplus ) !   
proprietor4  ,! ap>tm5ts 7 inlaid )     
mosaic1 & ornam5t$ ) columns & pila/]s1 
9 ! ta/e ( ! c\ntry4  ,m4 de ,montaigu1 
_h all ^! sup]bly mask$ by fir wa9scot+1
 = no o!r reason ?an because at ,p>is   
ap>tm5ts 7 ?us fitt$ up4  ,x 0 = a      
simil> reason t he only1 ( all !        

ambassadors :o 7 at ,v5ice1 took f 8    
pages _! swords1 & f 8 footm5 _! canes4 
,su* 0 ! man1 :o1 p]haps f ! same motive
 took a dislike to me on acc\nt ( my    
s]v+ him fai?fully4  ,i pati5tly endur$ 
8 disda91 8 brutality1 & ill-treatm5t1 z
 long z1 p]ceiv+ !m accompani$ by       
ill-humor1 ,i ?\ght !y _h 9 !m no       
portion ( hatr$2 b ! mom5t ,i saw !     
design =m$ ( depriv+ me ( ! honor ,i    
m]it$ by my fai?ful s]vices1 ,i resolv$ 
to resign my employm5t4  ,! fir/ m>k ,i 
receiv$ ( 8 ill w 0 relative to a d9n]  
he 0 to give to ! ,duke ( ,mod5a & 8    
family1 :o 7 at ,v5ice1 & at :i* he     
signifi$ to me ,i %\ld n be pres5t4  ,i 
answ]$1 piqu$1 b n angry1 t hav+ ! honor
 daily to d9e at 8 table1 if ! ,duke (  
,mod5a1 :5 he came1 requir$ ,i %\ld n   
appe> at x1 my duty z well z ! dignity (
 8 excell5cy w\ld n suff] me to cons5t  
to su* a reque/4  ,h[2 said he          
passionately1 my secret>y1 :o is n a    
g5tleman1 pret5ds to d9e ) a sov]eign :5
 my g5tlem5 d n6  ,yes1 sir1 repli$ ,i1 

! po/ ) :i* y\r excell5cy has honor$ me1
 z long z ,i dis*>ge ! functions ( x1 s 
f> ennobles me t my rank is sup]ior to t
 ( y\r g5tlem5 or ( ! p]sons call+      
!mselves su*2 & ,i am admitt$ :]e !y _c 
appe>4  ,y _c b "k t on ! day on :i* y  
%all make y\r public entry1 ,i am call$ 
to ! c]emony by etiquette2 & by an      
immemorial cu/om1 to foll[ y 9 a dress (
 c]emony1 & aft]w>ds to d9e ) y at !    
palace ( ,/4 ,m>k2 & ,i "k n :y a man :o
 has a "r & is to eat 9 public ) ! doge 
& ! s5ate ( ,v5ice %\ld n eat 9 private 
) ! ,duke ( ,mod5a4  ,?\gh ?is argum5t 0
 unansw]able1 x did n conv9ce !         
ambassador2 b we _h no occasion to r5ew 
! dispute1 z ! ,duke ( ,mod5a did n come
 to d9e ) him4  ,f t mom5t he did ev]y?+
 9 8 p[] to make ?+s disagreeable to me2
 & endeavor$ unju/ly to deprive me ( my 
rights1 by tak+ f me ! pecuni>y         
advantages annex$ to my employm5t1 to   
give !m to 8 de> ,vitali2 & ,i am       
conv9c$ t _h he d>$ to s5d him to !     
s5ate1 9 my place1 he w\ld h done x4    

,he commonly employ$ ! ,abbe ,b9is 9 8  
closet1 to write 8 private lett]s3 he   
made use ( him to write to ,m4 de       
,maurepas an acc\nt ( ! affair ( ,capta9
 ,olivet1 9 :i*1 f> f tak+ ! lea/ notice
 ( me1 ! only p]son :o gave himself any 
conc]n ab\t ! matt]1 he depriv$ me ( !  
honor ( ! depositions1 ( :i* he s5t him 
a duplicate1 = ! purpose ( attribut+ !m 
to ,patizel1 :o _h n op5$ 8 m\?4 ,he    
wi%$ to mortify me1 & please 8 favorite2
 b _h no desire to dismiss me 8 s]vice4 
,he p]ceiv$ x w\ld be m difficult to f9d
 me a successor1 ?an ,m4 ,follau1 :o _h 
already made him kn[n to ! _w4  ,an     
,italian secret>y 0 absolutely necess>y 
to him1 on acc\nt ( ! answ]s f ! s5ate2 
"o :o c\ld write all 8 despat*es1 &     
conduct 8 affairs1 )\t 8 giv+ himself ! 
lea/ tr\ble ab\t any?+2 a p]son :o1 to !
 m]it ( s]v+ him well1 c\ld jo9 !       
bas5ess ( be+ ! toad-eat] ( 8 g5tlem51  
)\t honor1 m]it1 or pr9ciples4  ,he wi%$
 to reta91 & humble me1 by keep+ me f> f
 my c\ntry1 & 8 own1 )\t money to return

 to ei!r1 & 9 :i* he w\ld1 p]haps1 _h   
succe$$1 _h he began ) m mod]ation3 b   
,vitali1 :o _h o!r views1 & wi%$ to =ce 
me to extremities1 c>ri$ 8 po9t4  ,!    
mom5t ,i p]ceiv$1 ,i lo/ all my tr\ble1 
t ! ambassador imput$ to me my s]vices z
 s _m crimes1 in/ead ( be+ satisfi$ )   
!m2 t ) him ,i _h no?+ to expect1 b ?+s 
disagreeable at home1 & inju/ice abroad2
 & t1 9 ! g5]al dise/eem into :i* he 0  
fall51 8 ill (fices might be prejudicial
 to me1 )\t ! possibility ( my be+ s]v$ 
by 8 good ones2 ,i took my resolution1 &
 ask$ him = my dismission1 leav+ him    
suffici5t "t to provide himself ) ano!r 
secret>y4  ,)\t answ]+ yes or no1 he    
cont9u$ to treat me 9 ! same mann]1 z if
 no?+ _h be5 said4  ,p]ceiv+ ?+s to     
rema9 9 ! same /ate1 & t he took no     
measures to procure himself a new       
secret>y1 ,i wrote to 8 bro!r1 &1       
expla9+ to him my motives1 begg$ he w\ld
 obta9 my dismission f 8 excell5cy1 add+
 t :e!r ,i receiv$ x or n1 ,i c\ld n    
possibly rema9 ) him4  ,i wait$ a long  

"t )\t any answ]1 & began to be         
emb>rass$3 b at l5g? ! ambassador       
receiv$ a lett] f 8 bro!r1 :i* mu/ h    
remon/rat$ ) him 9 v pla9 t]ms2 = al?\gh
 he 0 extremely subject to f]oci\s rage1
 ,i nev] saw him s viol5t z on ?is      
occasion4  ,aft] torr5ts ( unsuff]able  
reproa*es1 n kn[+ :at m to say1 he      
accus$ me ( hav+ sold 8 ciph]s4  ,i bur/
 into a l\d laught]1 & ask$ him1 9 a    
sne]+ mann]1 if he ?\ght !re 0 9 ,v5ice 
a man :o w\ld be fool en\gh to give half
 a cr[n = !m all4  ,he ?reat5$ to call 8
 s]vants to ?r[ me out ( ! w9d[4  ,until
 !n ,i _h be5 v compos$2 b on ?is ?reat1
 ang] & indignation seiz$ me 9 my turn4 
,i sprang to ! door1 & aft] hav+ turn$ a
 button :i* fa/5$ x )93 ,no1 c\nt1 said 
,i1 return+ to him ) a grave /ep1 ,y\r  
s]vants %all h no?+ to d ) ?is affair2  
please to let x be settl$ betwe5        
ourselves4  ,my action & mann] in/antly 
made him calm2 fe> & surprise 7 m>k$ 9 8
 c\nt5ance4  ,! mom5t ,i saw 8 fury     
abat$1 ,i bid him adieu 9 a v few words1

 & )\t wait+ = 8 answ]1 w5t to ! door1  
op5$ x1 & pass$ sl[ly across !          
ante*amb]1 ?r\gh ! mid/ ( 8 p1 :o rose  
accord+ to cu/om1 & :o1 ,i am ( op9ion1 
w\ld r h l5t _! assi/ance aga9/ him ?an 
me4  ,)\t go+ back to my ap>tm5t1 ,i    
desc5d$ ! /airs1 & imm$iately w5t out ( 
! palace nev] m to ent] x4  ,i ha/5$    
imm$iately to ,m4 le ,blond & relat$ to 
him :at _h happ5$4  ,kn[+ ! man1 he 0 b 
little surpris$4  ,he kept me to d9n]4  
,?is d9n]1 al?\gh )\t prep>ation1 0     
spl5did4 ,all ! ,fr5* ( consequ5ce :o 7 
at ,v5ice1 p>took ( x4 ,! ambassador _h 
n a s+le p]son4  ,! consul relat$ my    
case to ! company4  ,! cry 0 g5]al1 & by
 no means 9 favor ( 8 excell5cy4  ,he _h
 n settl$ my acc\nt1 nor paid me a f>?+1
 & be+ r$uc$ to ! few l\is ,i _h 9 my   
pocket1 ,i 0 extremely emb>rass$ ab\t my
 return to ,france4  ,e purse 0 op5$ to 
me4 ,i took tw5ty sequ9s f t ( ,m4 le   
,blond1 & z _m f t ( ,m4 ,/4 ,cyr1 )    
:om1 next to ,m4 le ,blond1 ,i 0 ! mo/  
intimately connect$4  ,i return$ ?anks  

to ! re/2 &1 till my dep>ture1 w5t to   
lodge at ! h\se ( ! *ancellor ( !       
consul%ip1 to prove to ! public1 !      
nation 0 n an accomplice 9 ! inju/ice ( 
! ambassador4  ,8 excell5cy1 furi\s at  
see+ me tak5 notice ( 9 my mis=tune1 at 
! same "t t1 not)/&+ 8 be+ an           
ambassador1 nobody w5t ne> 8 h\se1 q lo/
 8 s5ses & behav$ l a madman4  ,he =got 
himself s f> z to pres5t a memoir to !  
s5ate to get me arre/$4  ,on be+ in=m$ (
 ?is by ! ,abbe de ,b9is1 ,i resolv$ to 
rema9 a =tnight long]1 in/ead ( sett+ (f
 ! next day z ,i _h int5d$4  ,my conduct
 _h be5 kn[n & approv$ ( by ev]ybody2 ,i
 0 univ]sally e/eem$4  ,! s5ate did n   
deign to return an answ] to !           
extravagant memoir ( ! ambassador1 b s5t
 me ^w ,i might rema9 9 ,v5ice z long z 
,i ?\ght prop]1 )\t mak+ myself uneasy  
ab\t ! attempts ( a madman4  ,i cont9u$ 
to see my fri5ds3 ,i w5t to take leave (
 ! ambassador f ,spa91 :o receiv$ me    
well1 & ( ! ,comte de ,f9o*ietti1 m9i/] 
f ,naples1 :om ,i did n f9d at home4 ,i 

wrote him a lett] & receiv$ f 8         
excell5cy ! mo/ polite & oblig+ answ]4  
,at l5g? ,i took my dep>ture1 leav+     
beh9d me1 not)/&+ my emb>rassm5t1 no o!r
 debts ?an ! two sums ,i _h borr[$1 & ( 
:i* ,i h j spok52 & an acc\nt ( fifty   
cr[ns ) a %opkeep]1 ( ! "n ( ,mor&i1 :i*
 ,c>rio promis$ to pay1 & :i* ,i h nev] 
reimburs$ him1 al?\gh we h frequ5tly met
 s9ce t "t2 b ) respect to ! two sums ( 
money1 ,i return$ !m v exactly ! mom5t  
,i _h x 9 my p[]4  ,i _c take leave (   
,v5ice )\t say+ some?+ ( ! celebrat$    
amusem5ts ( t city1 or at lea/ ( !      
little "p ( !m ( :i* ,i p>took dur+ my  
resid5ce !re4  ,x has be5 se5 h[ little 
9 my y\? ,i ran aft] ! pleasures ( t    
age1 or ^? t are s call$4 ,my           
incl9ations did n *ange at ,v5ice1 b my 
occupations1 :i* moreov] w\ld h prev5t$ 
?is1 r5d]$ m agreeable to me ! simple   
recreations ,i p]mitt$ myself4  ,! fir/ 
& mo/ pleas+ ( all 0 ! society ( m5 (   
m]it4  ,m4 le ,blond1 de ,/4 ,cyr1      
,c>rio ,altuna1 & a ,=l9ian g5tleman1 ^:

 "n ,i am v sorry to h =gott51 & :om ,i 
nev] call to my recollection )\t        
emotion3 he 0 ! man ( all ,i ev] knew ^:
 he>t mo/ resembl$ my own4  ,we 7       
connect$ ) two or ?ree ,engli%m5 ( great
 wit & in=mation1 &1 l ourselves1       
passionately fond ( music4  ,all ^!     
g5tlem5 _h _! wives1 female fri5ds1 or  
mi/resses3 ! latt] 7 mo/ ( !m wom5 (    
tal5ts1 at ^: ap>tm5ts !re 7 balls &    
conc]ts4 ,!re 0 b little play2 a lively 
turn1 tal5ts1 & ! !atres r5d]$ ?is      
amusem5t incipid4  ,play is ! res\rce ( 
none b m5 ^: "t hangs heavy on _! h&s4  
,i _h br\ght ) me f ,p>is ! prejudice ( 
t city aga9/ ,italian music2 b ,i _h    
also receiv$ f nature a s5sibility &    
nic5ess ( di/9ction :i* prejudice _c    
)/&4  ,i soon contract$ t passion =     
,italian music ) :i* x inspires all ^?  
:o are capable ( feel+ its excell5ce4 ,9
 li/5+ to b>c>oles1 ,i f\nd ,i _h n yet 
kn[n :at s++ 01 & ,i soon became s fond 
( ! op]a t1 tir$ ( babbl+1 eat+1 & play+
 9 ! boxes :5 ,i wi%$ to li/51 ,i       

frequ5tly )drew f ! company to ano!r "p 
( ! !at]4  ,!re1 q alone1 %ut up 9 my   
box1 ,i ab&on$ myself1 not)/&+ ! l5g? ( 
! repres5tation1 to ! pleasure ( enjoy+ 
x at ease unto ! conclusion4  ,"o ev5+  
at ! !atre ( ,sa9t ,*ryso/om1 ,i fell   
into a m pr(\nd sleep ?an ,i %\ld h done
 9 my b$4  ,! l\d & brilliant airs did n
 di/urb my repose4  ,b :o c expla9 !    
delici\s s5sations giv5 me by ! s(t     
h>mony ( ! angelic music1 by :i* ,i 0   
*>m$ f sleep2 :at an awak+6  :at        
ravi%m5t6 :at ec/asy1 :5 at ! same      
in/ant ,i op5$ my e>s & eyes6  ,my fir/ 
idea 0 to believe ,i 0 9 p>adise4  ,!   
ravi%+ air1 :i* ,i /ill recollect & %all
 nev] =get1 began ) ^! words3           
,cons]vami la bella1                    
,*e si m'acc5de il cor4  ,i 0 desir\s ( 
hav+ x2 ,i _h & kept x = a "t2 b x 0 n !
 same ?+ ^u pap] z 9 my head4  ,! notes 
7 ! same b ! ?+ 0 diff]5t4  ,?is div9e  
composition c nev] be execut$ b 9 my    
m9d1 9 ! same mann] z x 0 ! ev5+ on :i* 
x woke me f sleep4  ,a k9d ( music f>   

sup]ior1 9 my op9ion1 to t ( op]as1 &   
:i* 9 all ,italy has n its equal1 nor   
p]haps 9 ! :ole _w1 is t ( ! 'scuole'4  
,! 'scuole' are h\ses ( *>ity1 e/abli%$ 
= ! education ( "y girls )\t =tune1 to  
:om ! republic aft]w>ds gives a portion 
ei!r 9 m>riage or = ! cloi/]4  ,among/  
tal5ts cultivat$ 9 ^! "y girls1 music is
 9 ! fir/ rank4  ,e ,sunday at ! *ur* ( 
ea* ( ! f\r 'scuole'1 dur+ vesp]s1      
motettos or an!ms ) full *oruses1       
accompani$ by a great or*e/ra1 & compos$
 & direct$ by ! be/ ma/]s 9 ,italy1 are 
sung 9 ! gall]ies by girls only2 n "o ( 
:om is m ?an tw5ty ye>s ( age4  ,i h n  
an idea ( any?+ s voluptu\s & affect+ z 
?is music2 ! ri*ness ( ! art1 !         
exquisite ta/e ( ! vocal "p1 ! excell5ce
 ( ! voices1 ! ju/ness ( ! execution1   
ev]y?+ 9 ^! delightful conc]ts concurs  
to produce an impression :i* c]ta9ly is 
n ! mode1 b f :i* ,i am ( op9ion no he>t
 is secure4  ,c>rio & ,i nev] fail$ be+ 
pres5t at ^! vesp]s ( ! ',m5dicanti'1 & 
we 7 n alone4  ,! *ur* 0 always full ( !

 lov]s ( ! art1 & ev5 ! actors ( ! op]a 
came !re to =m _! ta/es aft] ^! excell5t
 models4  ,:at vex$ me 0 ! iron grate1  
:i* suff]$ no?+ to escape b s\nds1 &    
conceal$ f me ! angels ( :i* !y 7 wor?y4
  ,i talk$ ( no?+ else4  ,"o day ,i     
spoke ( x at ,le ,blond's2 ,if y are s  
desir\s1 said he1 to see ^? little      
girls1 x w be an easy matt] to satisfy  
y\r wi%es4 ,i am "o ( ! adm9i/rators ( !
 h\se1 ,i w give y a collation ) !m4  ,i
 did n let him re/ until he _h fulfill$ 
8 promise4 ,9 ent]+ ! saloon1 :i*       
conta9$ ^! beauties ,i s mu* sigh$ to   
see1 ,i felt a trembl+ ( love :i* ,i _h 
nev] be=e exp]i5c$4 ,m4 le ,blond       
pres5t$ to me "o aft] ! o!r1 ^!         
celebrat$ female s+]s1 ( :om ! names &  
voices 7 all ) :i* ,i 0 acqua9t$4       
,come1 ,sophia1--%e 0 horrid4  ,come1   
,catt9a1--%e _h b "o eye4  ,come1       
,bett9a1--! small-pox _h entirely       
disfigur$ h]4 ,sc>cely "o ( !m 0 )\t "s 
/rik+ defect4  ,le ,blond laugh$ at my  
surprise2 h[ev]1 two or ?ree ( !m appe>$

 tol]able2 ^! nev] sung b 9 ! *oruses2  
,i 0 almo/ 9 despair4 ,dur+ ! collation 
we endeavor$ to excite !m1 & !y soon    
became enliv5$2 ugl9ess does n exclude !
 graces1 & ,i f\nd !y possess$ !m4  ,i  
said to myself1 !y _c s+ 9 ?is mann] )\t
 intellig5ce & s5sibility1 !y mu/ h bo?2
 9 f9e1 my mann] ( see+ !m *ang$ to su* 
a degree t ,i left ! h\se almo/ 9 love )
 ea* ( ^! ugly faces4  ,i _h sc>cely    
c\rage en\gh to return to vesp]s4  ,b   
aft] hav+ se5 ! girls1 ! dang] 0 less5$4
  ,i /ill f\nd _! s++ delightful2 & _!  
voices s mu* embelli%$ _! p]sons t1 9   
spite ( my eyes1 ,i ob/9ately cont9u$ to
 ?9k !m beautiful4  ,music 9 ,italy is  
accompani$ ) s trifl+ an exp5se1 t x is 
n wor? :ile = su* z h a ta/e = x to d5y 
!mselves ! pleasure x af=ds4  ,i hir$ a 
h>psi*ord1 &1 = half a cr[n1 ,i _h at my
 ap>tm5t f\r or five symphoni/s1 ) :om  
,i practis$ once a week 9 execut+ su*   
airs1 etc41 z _h giv5 me mo/ pleasure at
 ! op]a4  ,i also _h "s symphonies p]=m$
 f my ',muses ,galantes'4 ,:e!r ^!      

pleas$ ! p]=m]s1 or ! ballet-ma/] ( ,/4 
,john ,*ryso/om wi%$ to flatt] me1 he   
desir$ to h two ( !m2 & ,i _h aft]w>ds !
 pleasure ( he>+ ^! execut$ by t        
admirable or*e/ra4  ,!y 7 danc$ to by a 
little ,bett9a1 pretty & amiable1 & kept
 by a ,spani>d1 ,m4 ,fagoaga1 a fri5d ( 
ours ) :om we (t5 w5t to sp5d ! ev5+4   
,b apropos ( girls ( easy virtue3 x is n
 9 ,v5ice t a man ab/a9s f !m4  ,h y    
no?+ to confess1 somebody w ask me1 ^u  
?is subject8  ,yes3 ,i h some?+ to say  
^u x1 & ,i w proce$ to ! confession ) ! 
same +5u\sness ) :i* ,i h made my =m]   
ones4  ,i always _h a dis9cl9ation to   
girls ( pleasure1 b at ,v5ice ^? 7 all  
,i _h )9 my rea*2 mo/ ( ! h\ses be+ %ut 
aga9/ me on acc\nt ( my place4  ,!      
daught]s ( ,m4 le ,blond 7 v amiable1 b 
difficult ( access2 & ,i _h too mu*     
respect = ! fa!r & "m ev] once to h !   
lea/ desire = !m4  ,i %\ld h _h a mu*   
/rong] incl9ation to a "y lady nam$     
,mademoiselle de ,cataneo1 daught] to ! 
ag5t f ! ,k+ ( ,prussia1 b ,c>rio 0 9   

love ) h] !re 0 ev5 betwe5 !m "s "q (   
m>riage4  ,he 0 9 easy circum/ances1 &  
,i _h no =tune3 8 sal>y 0 a hundr$ l\is 
7gu9eas7 a ye>1 & m9e am\nt$ to no m ?an
 a ?\s& livres 7ab\t =ty p\nds /]l+7 &1 
besides my be+ unwill+ to oppose a      
fri5d1 ,i knew t 9 all places1 &        
especially at ,v5ice1 ) a purse s ill   
furni%$ z m9e 01 gallantry 0 out ( ! "q4
  ,i _h n lo/ ! p]nici\s cu/om ( deceiv+
 my wants4  ,too busily employ$ =cibly  
to feel ^? proce$+ f ! climate1 ,i liv$ 
upw>ds ( a ye> 9 t city z *a/ely z ,i _h
 done 9 ,p>is1 & at ! end ( eighte5     
mon?s ,i quitt$ x )\t hav+ approa*$ !   
sex1 except twice by means ( ! s+ul>    
opportunities ( :i* ,i am go+ to speak4 
,! fir/ 0 procur$ me by t hone/         
g5tleman1 ,vitali1 "s "t aft] ! =mal    
apology ,i oblig$ him to make me4  ,!   
conv]sation at ! table turn$ on !       
amusem5ts ( ,v5ice4  ,^! g5tlem5        
reproa*$ me ) my indiff]5ce ) reg>d to !
 mo/ delightful ( !m all2 at ! same "t  
extoll+ ! gracefulness & elegant mann]s 

( ! wom5 ( easy virtue ( ,v5ice2 & add+ 
t !y 7 sup]ior to all o!rs ( ! same     
description 9 any o!r "p ( ! _w4        
,dom9ic1 said ,i1 7,i7mu/ make an       
acqua9tance ) ! mo/ amiable ( !m all1 he
 (f]$ to take me to h] ap>tm5ts1 &      
assur$ me ,i %\ld be pleas$ ) h]4  ,i   
laugh$ at ?is oblig+ (f]3 & ,c\nt       
,piati1 a man 9 ye>s & v5]able1 obs]v$  
to me1 ) m c&or ?an ,i %\ld h expect$ f 
an ,italian1 t he ?\ght me too prud5t to
 suff] myself to be tak5 to su* a place 
by my enemy4  ,9 fact ,i _h no          
incl9ation to d x3 b not)/&+ ?is1 by an 
incoh]5ce ,i _c myself compreh5d1 ,i at 
l5g? 0 prevail$ ^u to g1 contr>y to my  
incl9ation1 ! s5tim5t ( my he>t1 my     
reason1 & ev5 my w2 solely f weakness1 &
 be+ a%am$ to %[ an appe>ance to ! lea/ 
mi/ru/2 & besides1 z ! expression ( !   
c\ntry is1 'p] non p>] troppo           
cogliono'--,n to appe> too great a      
blockhead4--,! ',padoana' :om we w5t to 
visit 0 pretty1 %e 0 ev5 h&some1 b h]   
beauty 0 n ( t k9d t pleas$ me4 ,dom9ic 

left me ) h]1 ,i s5t = ,sorbetti1 & ask$
 h] to s+4 ,9 ab\t half an h\r ,i wi%$  
to take my leave1 aft] hav+ put a ducat 
on ! table1 b ?is by a s+ul> scruple %e 
refus$ until %e _h des]v$ x1 & ,i f z   
s+ul> a folly cons5t$ to remove h]      
d\bts4  ,i return$ to ! palace s fully  
p]suad$ t ,i %\ld feel ! consequ5ces (  
?is /ep1 t ! fir/ ?+ ,i did 0 to s5d = !
 k+'s surgeon to ask him = ptisans4     
,no?+ c equal ! uneas9ess ( m9d ,i      
suff]$ = ?ree weeks1 )\t its be+ ju/ifi$
 by any real inconv5i5ce or app>5t sign4
  ,i c\ld n believe x 0 possible to     
)draw ) impunity f ! arms ( ! 'padoana'4
  ,! surgeon himself _h ! greate/       
difficulty 9 remov+ my appreh5sions2 nor
 c\ld he d ?is by any o!r means ?an by  
p]suad+ me ,i 0 =m$ 9 su* a mann] z n to
 be easily infect$3 & al?\gh 9 !        
exp]im5t ,i expos$ myself less ?an any  
o!r man w\ld h done1 my heal? 9 t       
respect nev] hav+ suff]$ ! lea/         
inconv5i5ce1 9 my op9ion a pro( !       
surgeon 0 "r4 ,h[ev]1 ?is has nev] made 

me imprud5t1 & if 9 fact ,i h receiv$   
su* an advantage f nature ,i c safely   
ass]t ,i h nev] abus$ x4  ,my second    
adv5ture1 al?\gh likewise ) a common    
girl1 0 ( a nature v diff]5t1 z well 9  
its orig9 z 9 its effects2 ,i h already 
said t ,capta9 ,olivet gave me a d9n] on
 bo>d 8 vessel1 & t ,i took ) me !      
secret>y ( ! ,spani% embassy4  ,i       
expect$ a salute ( cannon4  ,! %ip's    
company 0 drawn up to receive u1 b n s  
mu* z a prim+ 0 burnt1 at :i* ,i 0      
mortifi$1 on acc\nt ( ,c>rio1 :om ,i    
p]ceiv$ to be r piqu$ at ! neglect4  ,a 
salute ( cannon 0 giv5 on bo>d          
m]*ant-%ips to p ( less consequ5ce ?an  
we 72 ,i besides ?\ght ,i des]v$ "s     
di/+ui%$ m>k ( respect f ! capta94  ,i  
c\ld n conceal my ?\ghts1 because ?is at
 all times 0 impossible to me1 & al?\gh 
! d9n] 0 a v good "o1 & ,olivet did !   
honors ( x p]fectly well1 ,i began x 9  
an ill humor1 eat+ b little1 & speak+   
/ill less4  ,at ! fir/ heal?1 at lea/1  
,i expect$ a volley2 no?+4  ,c>rio1 :o  

read :at pass$ )91 me1 laugh$ at he>+ me
 grumble l a *ild4  ,be=e d9n] 0 half   
ov] ,i saw a gondola approa* ! vessel4  
,bless me1 sir1 said ! capta91 take c>e 
( y\rself1 ! enemy approa*es4  ,i ask$  
him :at he meant1 & he answ]$ jocosely4 
,! gondola made ! %ip's side1 & ,i      
obs]v$ a gay "y damsel come on bo>d v   
lightly1 & coquetti%ly dress$1 & :o at  
?ree /eps 0 9 ! cab91 seat$ by my side1 
be=e ,i _h "t to p]ceive a cov] 0 laid =
 h]4  ,%e 0 equally *>m+ & lively1 a    
brunette1 n m ?an tw5ty ye>s ( age4  ,%e
 spoke no?+ b ,italian1 & h] acc5t alone
 0 suffici5t to turn my head4  ,z %e eat
 & *att]$ %e ca/ h] eyes ^u me2         
/eadfa/ly look$ at me = a mom5t1 & !n   
exclaim$1 ,good ,virg96  ,ah1 my de>    
,bremond1 :at an age x is s9ce ,i saw   
!e6 ,!n %e ?rew h]self into my arms1    
seal$ h] lips to m9e1 & press$ me almo/ 
to /rangl+4 ,h] l>ge black eyes1 l ^? ( 
! beauties ( ! ,ea/1 d>t$ fi]y %afts    
into my he>t1 & al?\gh ! surprise at    
fir/ /upefi$ my s5ses1 voluptu\sness    

made a rapid progress )91 & ?is to su* a
 degree t ! beautiful s$uc] h]self 01   
not)/&+ ! spectators1 oblig$ to re/ra9  
my ardor1 = ,i 0 intoxicat$1 or r become
 furi\s4  ,:5 %e p]ceiv$ %e _h made !   
impression %e desir$1 %e became m       
mod]ate 9 h] c>esses1 b n 9 h] vivacity1
 & :5 %e ?\ght prop] to expla9 to u !   
real or false cause ( all h] petulance1 
%e said ,i resembl$ ,m4 de ,bremond1    
director ( ! cu/oms ( ,tuscany1 to su* a
 degree z to be mi/ak5 = him2 t %e _h   
turn$ ?is ,m4 de ,bremond's head1 & w\ld
 d x aga92 t %e _h quitt$ him because he
 0 a fool2 t %e took me 9 8 place2 t %e 
w\ld love me because x pleas$ h] s to d1
 = :i* reason ,i mu/ love h] z long z x 
0 agreeable to h]1 & :5 %e ?\ght prop]  
to s5d me ab\t my bus9ess1 ,i mu/ be    
pati5t z h] de> ,bremond _h be54  ,:at 0
 said 0 done4  ,%e took possession ( me 
z ( a man t belong$ to h]1 gave me h]   
gloves to keep1 h] fan1 h] c9da1 & h]   
coif1 & ord]$ me to g "h or !re1 to d   
?is or t1 & ,i in/antly obey$ h]4  ,%e  

told me to g & s5d away h] gondola1     
because %e *ose to make use ( m9e1 & ,i 
imm$iately s5t x away2 %e bid me to move
 f my place1 & pray ,c>rio to sit d[n 9 
x1 because %e _h some?+ to say to him2 &
 ,i did z %e desir$4 ,!y *att$ a good   
:ile toge!r1 b spoke l[1 & ,i did n     
int]rupt !m4  ,%e call$ me1 & ,i        
approa*$ h]4  ,h>k !e1 ,zanetto1 said %e
 to me1 ,i w n be lov$ 9 ! ,fr5* mann]2 
?is inde$ w n be well4  ,9 ! fir/ mom5t 
( lassitude1 get !e gone3 b /ay n by !  
way1 ,i caution !e4  ,aft] d9n] we w5t  
to see ! glass manufactory at ,murano4  
,%e b\ght a great numb] ( little        
curiosities2 = :i* %e left me to pay )\t
 ! lea/ c]emony4 ,b %e ev]y:]e gave away
 little tr9kets to a mu* great] am\nt   
?an ( ! ?+s we _h pur*as$4  ,by !       
indiff]5ce ) :i* %e ?rew away h] money1 
,i p]ceiv$ %e annex$ to x b little      
value4 ,:5 %e insi/$ ^u a paym5t1 ,i am 
( op9ion x 0 m f a motive ( vanity ?an  
av>ice4  ,%e 0 flatt]$ by ! price h]    
admir]s set ^u h] favors4  ,9 ! ev5+ we 

conduct$ h] to h] ap>tm5ts4  ,z we      
conv]s$ toge!r1 ,i p]ceiv$ a c\ple (    
pi/ols ^u h] toilette4  ,ah6 ,ah6 said  
,i1 tak+ "o ( !m up1 ?is is a pat*box ( 
a new con/ruction3 may ,i ask :at is its
 use8  ,i "k y h o!r arms :i* give m    
fire ?an ^? ^u y\r table4  ,aft] a few  
pleasantries ( ! same k9d1 %e said to u1
 ) an +5u\sness :i* r5d]$ h] /ill m     
*>m+1 ,:5 ,i am complaisant to p]sons   
:om ,i d n love1 ,i make !m pay = !     
we>9ess !y cause me2 no?+ c be m j2 b if
 ,i suff] _! c>esses1 ,i w n be> _!     
insults2 nor miss ! fir/ :o %all be     
want+ to me 9 respect4  ,at tak+ leave (
 h]1 ,i made ano!r appo9tm5t = ! next   
day4  ,i did n make h] wait4  ,i f\nd h]
 9 've/ito di conid5za'1 9 an undress m 
?an wanton1 unkn[n to nor!rn c\ntries1 &
 :i* ,i w n amuse myself 9 describ+1    
al?\gh ,i recollect x p]fectly well4 ,i 
%all only rem>k t h] ruffles & coll> 7  
edg$ ) silk network ornam5t$ )          
rose--color$ pompons4  ,?is1 9 my eyes1 
mu* enliv5$ a beautiful complexion4  ,i 

aft]w>ds f\nd x to be ! mode at ,v5ice1 
& ! effect is s *>m+ t ,i am surpris$ x 
has nev] be5 introduc$ 9 ,france4  ,i _h
 no idea ( ! transports :i* await$ me4  
,i h spok5 ( ,madam de ,l>nage ) !      
transport :i* ! remembrance ( h] /ill   
sometimes gives me2 b h[ old1 ugly &    
cold %e appe>$1 comp>$ ) my ,zulietta6  
,d n attempt to =m to y\rself an idea ( 
! *>ms & graces ( ?is en*ant+ girl1 y w 
be f> too %ort ( tru?4  ,"y virg9s 9    
cloi/]s are n s fre%3 ! beauties ( !    
s]aglio are less animat$3 ! h\ris (     
p>adise less engag+4  ,nev] 0 s sweet an
 enjoym5t (f]$ to ! he>t & s5ses ( a    
mortal4  ,ah6 _h ,i at lea/ be5 capable 
( fully ta/+ ( x = a s+le mom5t6  ,i _h 
ta/$ ( x1 b )\t a *>m4  ,i enfeebl$ all 
its delights3 ,i de/roy$ !m z at w4     
,no2 ,nature has n made me capable (    
enjoym5t4  ,%e has infus$ into my wret*$
 head ! poison ( t ineffable happ9ess1 !
 desire ( :i* %e fir/ plac$ 9 my he>t4  
,if !re be a circum/ance 9 my life1 :i* 
describes my nature1 x is t :i* ,i am   

go+ to relate4  ,! =cible mann] 9 :i* ,i
 at ?is mom5t recollect ! object ( my   
book1 w "h make me hold 9 contempt !    
false delicacy :i* w\ld prev5t me f     
fulfill+ x4 ,:oev] y may be :o are      
desir\s ( kn[+ a man1 h ! c\rage to read
 ! two or ?ree foll[+ pages1 & y w      
become fully acqua9t$ ) ,j4 ,j4         
,r\sseau4  ,i ent]$ ! *amb] ( a woman ( 
easy virtue1 z ! sanctu>y ( love &      
beauty3 & 9 h] p]son1 ,i ?\ght ,i saw ! 
div9ity4  ,i %\ld h be5 incl9$ to ?9k t 
)\t respect & e/eem x 0 impossible to   
feel any?+ l t :i* %e made me exp]i5ce4 
,sc>cely _h ,i1 9 h] fir/ famili>ities1 
discov]$ ! =ce ( h] *>ms & c>esses1 be=e
 ,i wi%$1 = fe> ( los+ ! fruit ( !m1 to 
ga!r x be=eh&4  ,sudd5ly1 in/ead ( !    
flame :i* consum$ me1 ,i felt a mortal  
cold run ?r\gh all my ve9s2 my legs     
fail$ me2 & ready to fa9t away1 ,i sat  
d[n & wept l a *ild4  ,:o w\ld guess !  
cause ( my te>s1 & :at1 at ?is mom5t1   
pass$ )9 me8  ,i said to myself3 !      
object 9 my p[] is ! ma/]piece ( love2  

h] wit & p]son equally approa*          
p]fection2 %e is z good & g5]\s z %e is 
amiable & beautiful4  ,yet %e is a      
mis]able pro/itute1 ab&on$ to ! public4 
,! capta9 ( a m]*ant%ip dispos$ ( h] at 
w2 %e has ?r[n h]self into my arms1     
al?\gh %e kn[s ,i h no?+2 & my m]it )   
:i* %e _c be acqua9t$1 c be to h] no    
inducem5t4  ,9 ?is !re is some?+        
inconceivable4  ,ei!r my he>t deceives  
me1 fasc9ates my s5ses1 & makes me !    
dupe ( an unwor?y slut1 or "s secret    
defect1 ( :i* ,i am ignorant1 de/roys ! 
effect ( h] *>ms1 & r5d]s h] odi\s 9 !  
eyes ( ^? by :om h] *>ms w\ld o!rwise be
 disput$4  ,i endeavor$1 by an          
extraord9>y ef=t ( m9d1 to discov] ?is  
defect1 b x did n s mu* z /rike me t ev5
 ! consequ5ces to be appreh5d$1 might   
possibly h "s influ5ce4  ,! cle>ness (  
h] sk91 ! brilliancy ( h] complexion1 h]
 :ite tee?1 sweet brea?1 & ! appe>ance (
 neatness ab\t h] p]son1 s f> remov$ f  
me ?is idea1 t1 /ill 9 d\bt relative to 
my situation aft] ! affair ( !          

'padoana'1 ,i r appreh5d$ ,i 0 n        
suffici5tly 9 heal? = h]3 & ,i am firmly
 p]suad$ ,i 0 n deceiv$ 9 my op9ion4 ,^!
 reflections1 s apropos1 agitat$ me to  
su* a degree z to make me %$ te>s4      
,zuliette1 to :om ! sc5e 0 q novel1 0   
/ruck spee*less = a mom5t4  ,b hav+ made
 a turn 9 h] *amb]1 & pass+ be=e h]     
glass1 %e compreh5d$1 & my eyes confirm$
 h] op9ion1 t disgu/ _h no "p 9 :at _h  
happ5$4  ,x 0 n difficult = h] to recov]
 me & dispel ?is %amefac$ness4  ,b1 at !
 mom5t 9 :i* ,i 0 ready to fa9t ^u a    
bosom1 :i* = ! fir/ "t seem$ to suff] ! 
impression ( ! h& & lips ( a man1 ,i    
p]ceiv$ %e _h a )]$ 'teton'4  ,i /ruck  
my =ehead3 ,i exam9$1 & ?\ght ,i p]ceiv$
 ?is teton 0 n =m$ l ! o!r4  ,i         
imm$iately began to consid] h[ x 0      
possible to h su* a defect1 & p]suad$ ( 
its proce$+ f "s great natural vice1 ,i 
0 cle>ly conv9c$1 t1 in/ead ( ! mo/ *>m+
 p]son ( :om ,i c\ld =m to myself an    
idea1 ,i _h 9 my arms a species ( a     
mon/]1 ! refuse ( nature1 ( m5 & ( love4

  ,i c>ri$ my /upidity s f> z to speak  
to h] ( ! discov]y ,i _h made4  ,%e1 at 
fir/1 took :at ,i said jocosely2 & 9 h] 
frolicsome humor1 did & said ?+s :i*    
made me die ( love4  ,b p]ceiv+ an      
inquietude ,i c\ld n conceal1 %e at l5g?
 r$d5$1 adju/$ h] dress1 rais$ h]self   
up1 & )\t say+ a ^w1 w5t & plac$ h]self 
at a w9d[4  ,i attempt$ to place myself 
by h] side3 %e )drew to a s(a1 rose f x 
! next mom5t1 & fann+ h]self z %e walk$ 
ab\t ! *amb]1 said to me 9 a res]v$ &   
disda9ful tone ( voice1 ,zanetto1       
'lascia le donne1 a /udia la            
matematica4--,leave wom5 & /udy         
ma!matics4  ,be=e ,i took leave ,i      
reque/$ h] to appo9t ano!r r5dezv\s = ! 
next day1 :i* %e po/pon$ = ?ree days1   
add+1 ) a satirical smile1 t ,i mu/ ne$s
 be 9 want ( repose4  ,i 0 v ill at ease
 dur+ ! int]val2 my he>t 0 full ( h]    
*>ms & graces2 ,i felt my extravagance1 
& reproa*$ myself ) x1 regrett+ ! loss (
 ! mom5ts ,i _h s ill employ$1 & :i*1 _h
 ,i *os51 ,i might h r5d]$ m agreeable  

?an any 9 my :ole life2 wait+ ) ! mo/   
burn+ impati5ce = ! mom5t 9 :i* ,i might
 repair ! loss1 & yet1 not)/&+ all my   
reason+ ^u :at ,i _h discov]$1 anxi\s to
 reconcile ! p]fections ( ?is adorable  
girl ) ! indignity ( h] situation4  ,i  
ran1 ,i flew to h] ap>tm5t at ! h\r     
appo9t$4  ,i "k n :e!r or n h] ardor    
w\ld h be5 m satisfi$ ) ?is visit1 h]   
pride at lea/ w\ld h be5 flatt]$ by x1 &
 ,i already rejoic$ at ! idea ( my      
conv9c+ h]1 9 e respect1 t ,i knew h[ to
 repair ! wrongs ,i _h done4  ,%e sp>$  
me ?is ju/ification4  ,! gondoli] :om ,i
 _h s5t to h] ap>tm5t br\ght me = answ] 
t %e _h set (f1 ! ev5+ be=e1 = ,flor5ce4
  ,if ,i _h n felt all ! love ,i _h = h]
 p]son :5 ?is 0 9 my possession1 ,i felt
 x 9 ! mo/ cruel mann] on los+ h]4      
,amiable & *>m+ z %e 0 9 my eyes1 ,i    
c\ld n console myself = ! loss ( h]2 b  
?is ,i h nev] be5 able to d relative to 
! contemptu\s idea :i* at h] dep>ture %e
 mu/ h _h ( me4  ,^! are my two         
n>ratives4  ,! eighte5 mon?s ,i pass$ at

 ,v5ice furni%$ me ) no o!r ( ! same    
k9d1 except a simple prospect at mo/4   
,c>rio 0 a gallant4  ,tir$ ( visit+     
girls engag$ to o!rs1 he took a fancy to
 h "o to himself1 &1 z we 7 insep>able1 
he propos$ to mean arrangem5t common    
en\gh at ,v5ice1 :i* 0 to keep "o girl =
 u bo?4  ,to ?is ,i cons5t$4  ,! "q 01  
to f9d "o :o 0 safe4  ,he 0 s indu/ri\s 
9 8 rese>*es t he f\nd out a little girl
 f elev5 to twelve ye>s ( age1 :om h]   
infam\s "m 0 endeavor+ to sell1 & ,i w5t
 ) ,c>rio to see h]4  ,! sight ( ! *ild 
mov$ me to ! mo/ lively compassion4  ,%e
 0 fair & z g5tle z a lamb4  ,nobody    
w\ld h tak5 h] = an ,italian4 ,liv+ is v
 *eap 9 ,v5ice2 we gave a little money  
to ! "m1 & provid$ = ! subsi/5ce ( h]   
daught]4  ,%e _h a voice1 & to procure  
h] "s res\rce we gave h] a sp9net1 & a  
s++--ma/]4 ,all ^! exp5ses did n co/ ea*
 ( u m ?an two sequ9s a mon?1 & we      
contriv$ to save a mu* great] sum 9 o!r 
matt]s2 b z we 7 oblig$ to wait until %e
 became ( a rip] age1 ?is 0 s[+ a long  

"t be=e we c\ld possibly reap4  ,h[ev]1 
satisfi$ ) pass+ our ev5+s1 *att+ &     
innoc5tly play+ ) ! *ild1 we p]haps     
enjoy$ great] pleasure ?an if we _h     
receiv$ ! la/ favors4  ,s true is x t m5
 are m atta*$ to wom5 by a c]ta9        
pleasure !y h 9 liv+ ) !m1 ?an by any   
k9d ( lib]t9ism4  ,my he>t became       
ins5sibly atta*$ to ! little ,anzoletta1
 b my atta*m5t 0 pat]nal1 9 :i* ! s5ses 
_h s little %>e1 t 9 proportion z ! =m] 
increas$1 to h connect$ x ) ! latt] w\ld
 h be5 less possible2 & ,i felt ,i %\ld 
h exp]i5c$1 at approa*+ ?is little      
creature :5 become nubile1 ! same horror
 ) :i* ! abom9able crime ( ince/ w\ld h 
inspir$ me4  ,i p]ceiv$ ! s5tim5ts (    
,c>rio take1 unobs]v$ by himself1       
exactly ! same turn4 ,we ?us prep>$ =   
ourselves1 )\t int5d+ x1 pleasure n less
 delici\s1 b v diff]5t f t ( :i* we fir/
 _h an idea2 & ,i am fully p]suad$ t    
h[ev] beautiful ! poor *ild might h     
become1 f> f be+ ! corrupt]s ( h]       
innoc5ce we %\ld h be5 ! protectors ( x4

  ,! circum/ance :i* %ortly aft]w>ds    
befell me depriv$ me1 ( ! happ9ess (    
tak+ a "p 9 ?is good "w1 & my only m]it 
9 ! affair 0 ! incl9ation ( my he>t4  ,i
 w n[ return to my j\rney4  ,my fir/    
int5tions aft] leav+ ,m4 de ,montaigu1 0
 to retire to ,g5eva1 until "t & m      
favorable circum/ances %\ld h remov$ !  
ob/acles :i* prev5t$ my union ) my poor 
mamma2 b ! qu>rel betwe5 me & ,m4 de    
,montaigu be+ become public1 & he hav+  
_h ! folly to write ab\t x to ! c\rt1 ,i
 resolv$ to g !re to give an acc\nt ( my
 conduct & compla9 ( t ( a madman4  ,i  
communicat$ my int5tion1 f ,v5ice1 to   
,m4 du ,!il1 *>g$ p] int]im ) =eign     
affairs aft] ! dea? ( ,m4 ,amelot4  ,i  
set (f z soon z my lett]1 & took my r\te
 ?r\gh ,b]gamo1 ,como1 & ,domo          
,d',oscela1 & cross+ ,sa9t ,plomb4  ,at 
,sion1 ,m4 de ,*aignon1 *>ge des        
affaires f ,france1 %[$ me great        
civility2 at ,g5eva ,m4 de la ,closure  
treat$ me ) ! same polite att5tion4  ,i 
!re r5ew$ my acqua9tance ) ,m4 de       

,gauffec\rt1 f :om ,i _h "s money to    
receive4  ,i _h pass$ ?r\gh ,nion )\t   
go+ to see my fa!r3 n t ?is 0 a matt] ( 
indiff]5ce to me1 b because ,i 0 unwill+
 to appe> be=e my "m-9-law1 aft] !      
disa/] :i* _h befall5 me1 c]ta9 ( be+   
condemn$ by h] )\t be+ he>d4  ,!        
booksell]1 ,du ,vill>d1 an old fri5d (  
my fa!r's1 reproa*$ me sev]ely ) ?is    
neglect4  ,i gave him my reasons = x1 & 
to repair my fault1 )\t expos+ myself to
 meet my "m-9-law1 ,i took a *aise & we 
w5t toge!r to ,nion & /opp$ at a public 
h\se4  ,du ,vill>d w5t to fet* my fa!r1 
:o came runn+ to embrace me4  ,we supp$ 
toge!r1 &1 aft] pass+ an ev5+ v         
agreeable to ! wi%es ( my he>t1 ,i      
return$ ! next morn+ to ,g5eva ) ,du    
,vill>d1 = :om ,i h ev] s9ce reta9$ a   
s5tim5t ( gratitude 9 return = ! s]vice 
he did me on ?is occasion4  ,lyons 0 a  
little out ( my direct road1 b ,i 0     
det]m9$ to pass ?r\gh t city 9 ord] to  
conv9ce myself ( a knavi% trick play$ me
 by ,m4 de ,montaigu4  ,i _h s5t me f   

,p>is a little box conta9+ a wai/coat1  
embroid]$ ) gold1 a few pairs ( ruffles1
 & six pairs ( :ite silk /ock+s2 no?+ m4
  ,^u a proposition made me by ,m4 de   
,montaigu1 ,i ord]$ ?is box to be add$  
to 8 baggage4  ,9 ! apo!c>y's bill he   
(f]$ me 9 paym5t ( my sal>y1 & :i* he   
wrote out himself1 he /at$ ! weight (   
?is box1 :i* he call$ a bale1 at elev5  
hundr$ p\nds1 & *>g$ me ) ! c>riage ( x 
at an enorm\s rate4  ,by ! c>es ( ,m4   
,boy de la ,t\r1 to :om ,i 0 recomm5d$  
by ,m4 ,roqu91 8 uncle1 x 0 prov$ f !   
regi/]s ( ! cu/oms ( ,lyons &           
,m>seilles1 t ! said bale weigh$ no m   
?an =ty-five p\nds1 & _h paid c>riage   
accord+ to t weight4 ,i jo9$ ?is au!ntic
 extract to ! memoir ( ,m1 de ,montaigu1
 & provid$ ) ^! pap]s & o!rs conta9+    
/rong] facts1 ,i return$ to ,p>is1 v    
impati5t to make use ( !m4  ,dur+ ! :ole
 ( ?is long j\rney ,i _h little         
adv5tures2 at ,como1 9 ,valais1 &       
else:]e4  ,i !re saw _m curi\s ?+s1     
among/ o!rs ! ,boroma isl&s1 :i* are    

wor?y ( be+ describ$4  ,b ,i am press$  
by "t1 & surr\nd$ by spies4  ,i am      
oblig$ to write 9 ha/e1 & v imp]fectly1 
a "w :i* requires ! leisure &           
tranquility ,i d n enjoy4  ,if ev]      
provid5ce 9 its goodness grants me days 
m calm1 ,i %all de/9e !m to new modell+ 
?is "w1 %\ld ,i be able to d x1 or at   
lea/ to giv+ a supplem5t1 ( :i* ,i      
p]ceive x /&s 9 ! greate/ ne$4--,i h    
giv5 up ?is project4  ,! news ( my      
qu>rel _h rea*$ ,p>is be=e me & on my   
arrival ,i f\nd ! p 9 all ! (fices1 & ! 
public 9 g5]al1 sc&aliz$ at ! follies ( 
! ambassador4  ,not)/&+ ?is1 ! public   
talk at ,v5ice1 & ! unansw]able pro( ,i 
exhibit$1 ,i c\ld n obta9 ev5 ! %ad[ (  
ju/ice4  ,f> f obta9+ satisfaction or   
rep>ation1 ,i 0 left at ! discretion ( !
 ambassador = my sal>y1 & ?is = no o!r  
reason ?an because1 n be+ a ,fr5*man1 ,i
 _h no "r to national protection1 & t x 
0 a private affair betwe5 him & myself4 
,ev]ybody agre$ ,i 0 insult$1 injur$1 & 
un=tunate2 t ! ambassador 0 mad1 cruel1 

& iniquit\s1 & t ! :ole ( ! affair      
di%onor$ him =ev]4  ,b :at ( ?is6  ,he 0
 ! ambassador1 & ,i 0 no?+ m ?an !      
secret>y4  ,ord]1 or t :i* is s call$1 0
 9 opposition to my obta9+ ju/ice1 & (  
?is ! lea/ %ad[ 0 n grant$ me4  ,i      
suppos$ t1 by l\dly compla9+1 & by      
publicly treat+ ?is madman 9 ! mann] he 
des]v$1 ,i %\ld at l5g? be told to hold 
my tongue2 ?is 0 :at ,i wi%$ =1 & ,i 0  
fully det]m9$ n to obey until ,i _h     
obta9$ r$ress4  ,b at t "t !re 0 no     
m9i/] = =eign affairs4  ,i 0 suff]$ to  
exclaim1 nay1 ev5 enc\rag$ to d x1 &    
jo9$ )2 b ! affair /ill rema9$ 9 ! same 
/ate1 until1 tir$ ( be+ 9 ! "r )\t      
obta9+ ju/ice1 my c\rage at l5g? fail$  
me1 & let ! :ole drop4  ,! only p]son by
 :om ,i 0 ill receiv$1 & f :om ,i %\ld h
 lea/ expect$ su* an inju/ice1 0 ,madam 
de ,beuz5val4  ,full ( ! pr]ogatives (  
rank & nobility1 %e c\ld n conceive x 0 
possible an ambassador c\ld ev] be 9 !  
wrong ) respect to 8 secret>y4 ,!       
reception %e gave me 0 con=mable to ?is 

prejudice4  ,i 0 s piqu$ at x t1        
imm$iately aft] leav+ h]1 ,i wrote h]   
p]haps "o ( ! /ronge/ & mo/ viol5t      
lett]s t ev] came f my p51 & s9ce t "t  
,i nev] once return$ to h] h\se4  ,i 0  
bett] receiv$ by ,fa!r ,ca/el2 b1 9 !   
mid/ ( 8 ,jesuitical :e$l+ ,i p]ceiv$   
him fai?fully to foll[ "o ( ! great     
maxims ( 8 society1 :i* is to sacrifice 
! weak to ! p[]ful4  ,! /rong conviction
 ,i felt ( ! ju/ice ( my cause1 & my    
natural greatness ( m9d did n suff] me  
pati5tly to endure ?is p>tiality4  ,i   
ceas$ visit+ ,fa!r ,ca/el1 & on t       
acc\nt1 go+ to ! college ( ! ,jesuits1  
:]e ,i knew nobody b himself4  ,besides 
! intrigu+ & tyrannical _s ( 8 bre?r51 s
 diff]5t f ! cordiality ( ! good ,fa!r  
,hemet1 gave me su* a disgu/ = _!       
conv]sation t ,i h nev] s9ce be5        
acqua9t$ )1 nor se5 anyone ( !m except  
,fa!r ,b]?i]1 :om ,i saw twice or ?rice 
at ,m4 ,dup9's1 9 conjunction ) :om he  
labor$ ) all 8 might at ! refutation (  
,montesquieu4  ,t ,i may n return to !  

subject1 ,i w conclude :at ,i h to say (
 ,m4 de ,montaigu4  ,i _h told him 9 our
 qu>rels t a secret>y 0 n :at he want$1 
b an attorney's cl]k4  ,he took ! h9t1 &
 ! p]son :om he procur$ to succe$ me 0 a
 real attorney1 :o 9 less ?an a ye>     
robb$ him ( tw5ty or ?irty ?\s& livres4 
,he dis*>g$ him1 & s5t him to prison1   
dismiss$ 8 g5tleman ) disgrace1 &1 9    
wret*$ness1 got himself ev]y:]e into    
qu>rels1 receiv$ affronts :i* a footman 
w\ld n h put up )1 &1 aft] num]\s       
follies1 0 recall$1 & s5t f ! capital4  
,x is v probable t among ! reprim&s he  
receiv$ at c\rt1 8 affair ) me 0 n      
=gott54  ,at lea/1 a little "t aft] 8   
return he s5t 8 maitre d' hotel1 to     
settle my acc\nt1 & give me "s money4   
,i 0 9 want ( x at t mom5t2 my debts at 
,v5ice1 debts ( honor1 if ev] !re 7 any1
 lay heavy ^u my m9d4  ,i made use ( !  
means :i* (f]$ to dis*>ge !m1 z well z !
 note ( ,zanetto ,nani4  ,i receiv$ :at 
0 (f]$ me1 paid all my debts1 & rema9$ z
 be=e1 )\t a f>?+ 9 my pocket1 b reliev$

 f a weight :i* _h become insupportable4
  ,f t "t ,i nev] he>d speak ( ,m4 de   
,montaigu until 8 dea?1 ) :i* ,i became 
acqua9t$ by means ( ! ,gazette4  ,!     
peace ( ,god be ) t poor man6  ,he 0 z  
fit = ! functions ( an ambassador z 9 my
 infancy ,i _h be5 = ^? (               
,grapignan4--,i h n be5 able to f9d ?is 
^w 9 any diction>y1 nor does any        
,fr5*man ( lett]s ( my acqua9tance "k   
:at x means4 --,t4--,h[ev]1 x 0 9 8 p[] 
to h honorably support$ himself by my   
s]vices1 & rapidly to h advanc$ me 9 a  
c>e] to :i* ! ,comte de ,gauvon _h de/9$
 me 9 my y\?1 & ( ! functions ( :i* ,i  
_h 9 a m advanc$ age r5d]$ myself       
capable4  ,! ju/ice & inutility ( my    
compla9ts1 left 9 my m9d se$s (         
indignation aga9/ our fooli% civil      
in/itutions1 by :i* ! welf>e ( ! public 
& real ju/ice are always sacrific$ to ,i
 "k n :at appe>ance ( ord]1 & :i* does  
no?+ m ?an add ! sanction ( public      
au?ority to ! oppression ( ! weak1 & !  
iniquity ( ! p[]ful4  ,two ?+s prev5t$  

^! se$s f putt+ =? at t "t z !y aft]w>ds
 did3 "o 01 myself be+ 9 "q 9 ! affair1 
& private int]e/1 :5ce no?+ great or    
noble ev] proce$$1 c\ld n draw f my he>t
 ! div9e so>+s1 :i* ! mo/ pure love1    
only ( t :i* is j & sublime1 c produce4 
,! o!r 0 ! *>m ( fri5d%ip :i* temp]$ &  
calm$ my wra? by ! asc5dancy ( a m      
pleas+ s5tim5t4  ,i _h become acqua9t$  
at ,v5ice ) a ,biscayan1 a fri5d ( my   
fri5d ,c>rio's1 & wor?y ( be+ t ( e     
hone/ man4  ,?is amiable "y man1 born ) 
e tal5t & virtue1 _h j made ! t\r (     
,italy to ga9 a ta/e = ! f9e arts1 &1   
imag9+ he _h no?+ m to acquire1 int5d$  
to return by ! mo/ direct road to 8 own 
c\ntry4  ,i told him ! arts 7 no?+ m ?an
 a relaxation to a g5ius l 81 fit to    
cultivate ! sci5ces2 & to give him a    
ta/e = ^!1 ,i advis$ him to make a      
j\rney to ,p>is & reside !re = six      
mon?s4  ,he took my advice1 & w5t to    
,p>is4  ,he 0 !re & expect$ me :5 ,i    
arriv$4 ,8 lodg+ 0 too consid]able =    
him1 & he (f]$ me ! half ( x1 :i* ,i    

in/antly accept$4  ,i f\nd him absorb$ 9
 ! /udy ( ! sublime/ sci5ces4  ,no?+ 0  
above 8 rea*4  ,he dige/$ ev]y?+ ) a    
prodigi\s rapidity4  ,h[ cordially did  
he ?ank me = hav+ procur$ him ?is food =
 8 m9d1 :i* 0 torm5t$ by a ?ir/ aft] k1 
)\t 8 be+ aw>e ( x6  ,:at a treasure (  
light & virtue ,i f\nd 9 ! vigor\s m9d (
 ?is "y man6  ,i felt he 0 ! fri5d ,i   
want$4  ,we soon became intimate4  ,our 
ta/es 7 n ! same1 & we con/antly        
disput$4  ,bo? op9ionat$1 we nev] c\ld  
agree ab\t any?+4  ,nev]!less we c\ld n 
sep>ate2 &1 not)/&+ our reciprocal &    
incessant contradiction1 we nei!r ( u   
wi%$ ! o!r to be diff]5t f :at he 04    
,ignacio ,emanuel de ,altuna 0 "o ( ^?  
r>e be+s :om only ,spa9 produces1 & (   
:om %e produces too few = h] glory4  ,he
 _h n ! viol5t national passions common 
9 8 own c\ntry4  ,! idea ( v5geance c\ld
 no m ent] 8 head1 ?an ! desire ( x c\ld
 proce$ f 8 he>t4  ,8 m9d 0 too great to
 be v9dictive1 & ,i h frequ5tly he>d him
 say1 ) ! greate/ coolness1 t no mortal 

c\ld (f5d him4  ,he 0 gallant1 )\t be+  
t5d]4  ,he play$ ) wom5 z ) s _m pretty 
*ildr54  ,he amus$ himself ) ! mi/resses
 ( 8 fri5ds1 b ,i nev] knew him to h "o 
( 8 own1 nor ! lea/ desire = x4  ,!     
emanations f ! virtue ) :i* 8 he>t 0    
/or$1 nev] p]mitt$ ! fire ( ! passions  
to excite s5sual desires4  ,aft] 8      
travels he m>ri$1 di$ "y1 & left *ildr52
 &1 ,i am z conv9c$ z ( my exi/5ce1 t 8 
wife 0 ! fir/ & only woman ) :om he ev] 
ta/$ ( ! pleasures ( love4  ,ext]nally  
he 0 dev\t1 l a ,spani>d1 b 9 8 he>t he 
_h ! piety ( an angel4  ,except myself1 
he is ! only man ,i ev] saw ^: pr9ciples
 7 n intol]ant4  ,he nev] 9 8 life ask$ 
any p]son 8 op9ion 9 matt]s ( religion4 
,x 0 n ( ! lea/ consequ5ce to him :e!r 8
 fri5d 0 a ,jew1 a ,prote/ant1 a ,turk1 
a ,bigot1 or an ,a!i/1 provid$ he 0 an  
hone/ man4  ,ob/9ate & head/rong 9      
matt]s ( indiff]5ce1 b ! mom5t religion 
0 9 "q1 ev5 ! moral "p1 he collect$     
himself1 0 sil5t1 or simply said3 ,i am 
*>g$ ) ! c>e ( myself1 only4  ,x is     

a/oni%+ s mu* elevation ( m9d %\ld be   
compatible ) a _s ( detail c>ri$ to     
m9ut5ess4  ,he previ\sly divid$ !       
employm5t ( ! day by h\rs1 qu>t]s &     
m9utes2 & s scrupul\sly adh]$ to ?is    
di/ribution1 t _h ! clock /ruck :ile he 
0 read+ a phrase1 he w\ld h %ut 8 book  
)\t f9i%+ x4  ,8 portions ( "t ?us laid 
out1 7 "s ( !m set ap>t to /udies ( "o  
k9d1 & o!rs to ^? ( ano!r3 he _h "s =   
reflection1 conv]sation1 div9e s]vice1 !
 read+ ( ,locke1 = 8 ros>y1 = visits1   
music & pa9t+2 & nei!r pleasure1        
temptation1 nor complaisance1 c\ld      
int]rupt ?is ord]3 a duty he might h _h 
to dis*>ge 0 ! only ?+ t c\ld h done x4 
,:5 he gave me a li/ ( 8 di/ribution1 t 
,i might con=m myself !reto1 ,i fir/    
laugh$1 & !n %$ te>s ( admiration4  ,he 
nev] con/ra9$ anybody nor suff]$        
con/ra9t3 he 0 r r\gh ) p1 :o f         
polit5ess1 attempt$ to put x ^u him4    
,he 0 passionate )\t be+ sull54  ,i h   
(t5 se5 him w>m1 b nev] saw him really  
angry ) any p]son4  ,no?+ c\ld be m     

*e]ful ?an 8 temp]3 he knew h[ to pass &
 receive a joke2 raill]y 0 "o ( 8       
di/+ui%$ tal5ts1 & ) :i* he possess$ t (
 po9t$ wit & rep>tee4  ,:5 he 0 animat$1
 he 0 noisy & he>d at a great di/ance2 b
 :il/ he l\dly inveigh$1 a smile 0      
spread ov] 8 c\nt5ance1 & 9 ! mid/ ( 8  
w>m? he us$ "s div]t+ expression :i*    
made all 8 he>]s break out into a l\d   
laugh4  ,he _h no m ( ! ,spani%         
complexion ?an ( ! phlegm ( t c\ntry4   
,8 sk9 0 :ite1 8 *eeks f9ely color$1 & 8
 hair ( a light *e/nut4  ,he 0 tall &   
well made2 8 body 0 well =m$ = !        
resid5ce ( 8 m9d4  ,?is wise--he>t$ z   
well z wise--head$ man1 knew mank9d1 & 0
 my fri5d2 ?is 0 my only answ] to su* z 
are n s4  ,we 7 s intimately unit$1 t   
our int5tion 0 to pass our days toge!r4 
,9 a few ye>s ,i 0 to g to ,ascoytia to 
live ) him at 8 e/ate2 e "p ( ! project 
0 arrang$ ! eve ( 8 dep>ture2 no?+ 0    
left undet]m9$1 except t :i* dep5ds n ^u
 m5 9 ! be/ conc]t$ plans1 po/]ior      
ev5ts4  ,my disa/]s1 8 m>riage1 &       

f9ally1 8 dea?1 sep>at$ u =ev]4  ,"s m5 
w\ld be tempt$ to say1 t no?+ succe$s   
except ! d>k conspiracies ( ! wick$1 & t
 ! innoc5t int5tions ( ! good are seldom
 or nev] accompli%$4  ,i _h felt !      
inconv5i5ce ( dep5d5ce1 & took a        
resolution nev] aga9 to expose myself to
 x2 hav+ se5 ! projects ( ambition1 :i* 
circum/ances _h induc$ me to =m1        
ov]turn$ 9 _! bir?4  ,disc\rag$ 9 ! c>e]
 ,i _h s well begun1 f :i*1 h[ev]1 ,i _h
 j be5 expell$1 ,i resolv$ nev] m to    
atta* myself to any p]son1 b to rema9 9 
an indep5d5t /ate1 turn+ my tal5ts to ! 
be/ advantage3 ( ^! ,i at l5g? began to 
feel ! ext5t1 & t ,i _h hi!rto _h too   
mode/ an op9ion ( !m4  ,i aga9 took up  
my op]a1 :i* ,i _h laid aside to g to   
,v5ice2 & t ,i might be less int]rupt$  
aft] ! dep>ture ( ,altuna1 ,i return$ to
 my old hotel ,/4 ,qu5t92 :i*1 9 a      
solit>y "p ( ! t[n1 & n f> f !          
,luxemb\rg1 0 m prop] = my purpose ?an  
noisy ,rue ,/4 ,honor4  ,!re ! only     
consolation :i* ,heav5 suff]$ me to ta/e

 9 my mis]y1 & ! only "o :i* r5d]$ x    
supportable1 await$ me4  ,?is 0 n a     
tranci5t acqua9tance2 ,i mu/ ent] into  
"s detail relative to ! mann] 9 :i* x 0 
made4  ,we _h a new l&lady f ,orleans2  
%e took = a ne$lewoman a girl f h] own  
c\ntry1 ( betwe5 tw5ty--two &           
tw5ty--?ree ye>s ( age1 & :o1 z well z !
 ho/ess1 ate at our table4  ,?is girl1  
nam$ ,!resa le ,vasseur1 0 ( a good     
family2 h] fa!r 0 an (fic] 9 ! m9t (    
,orleans1 & h] "m a %opkeep]2 !y _h _m  
*ildr54 ,! function ( ! m9t ( ,orleans  
be+ suppress$1 ! fa!r f\nd himself )\t  
employm5t2 & ! "m hav+ suff]$ losses1 0 
r$uc$ to n>r[ circum/ances4  ,%e quitt$ 
h] bus9ess & came to ,p>is ) h] husb& & 
daught]1 :o1 by h] indu/ry1 ma9ta9$ all 
! ?ree4  ,! fir/ "t ,i saw ?is girl at  
table1 ,i 0 /ruck ) h] mode/y2 & /ill m 
s ) h] lively yet *>m+ look1 :i*1 )     
respect to ! impression x made ^u me1 0 
nev] equall$4  ,beside ,m4 de           
,bonnefond1 ! company 0 compos$ ( sev]al
 ,iri% prie/s1 ,gascons & o!rs ( mu* !  

same description4  ,our ho/ess h]self _h
 n made ! be/ possible use ( h] "t1 & ,i
 0 ! only p]son at ! table :o spoke &   
behav$ ) dec5cy4  ,allurem5ts 7 ?r[n out
 to ! "y girl4  ,i took h] "p1 & ! joke 
0 !n turn$ aga9/ me4 ,_h ,i _h no       
natural incl9ation to ! poor girl1      
compassion & contradiction w\ld h       
produc$ x 9 me3 ,i 0 always a great     
fri5d to dec5cy 9 mann]s & conv]sation1 
especially 9 ! fair sex4  ,i op5ly      
decl>$ myself h] *ampion1 & p]ceiv$ %e 0
 n ins5sible ( my att5tion2 h] looks1   
animat$ by ! gratitude %e d>$ n express 
by words1 7 = ?is reason /ill m         
p5etrat+4  ,%e 0 v timid1 & ,i 0 z mu* s
 z h]self4  ,! connection :i* ?is       
disposition common to bo? seem$ to      
remove to a di/ance1 0 h[ev] rapidly    
=m$4  ,our l&lady p]ceiv+ its progress1 
became furi\s1 & h] brutality =w>d$ my  
affair ) ! "y girl1 :o1 hav+ no p]son 9 
! h\se except myself to give h] ! lea/  
support1 0 sorry to see me g f home1 &  
sigh$ = ! return ( h] protector4  ,!    

aff9ity our he>ts bore to ea* o!r1 & !  
simil>ity ( our dispositions1 _h soon _!
 ord9>y effect4  ,%e ?\ght %e saw 9 me  
an hone/ man1 & 9 ?is %e 0 n deceiv$4 ,i
 ?\ght ,i p]ceiv$ 9 h] a woman ( great  
s5sibility1 simple 9 h] mann]s1 & devoid
 ( all coquetry3--,i 0 no m deceiv$ 9 h]
 ?an %e 9 me4  ,i began by decl>+ to h] 
t ,i w\ld nev] ei!r ab&on or m>ry h]4   
,love1 e/eem1 artless s9c]ity 7 ! m9i/]s
 ( my triumph1 & x 0 because h] he>t 0  
t5d] & virtu\s1 t ,i 0 happy )\t be+    
presum+4  ,! appreh5sions %e 0 "u ( my n
 f9d+ 9 h] t = :i* ,i s\ght1 ret>d$ my  
happ9ess m ?an e o!r circum/ance4  ,i   
p]ceiv$ h] disconc]t$ & confus$ be=e %e 
yield$ h] cons5t1 wi%+ to be und]/ood & 
n d>+ to expla9 h]self4  ,f> f suspect+ 
! real cause ( h] emb>rassm5t1 ,i       
falsely imag9$ x to proce$ f ano!r      
motive1 a supposition highly insult+ to 
h] morals1 & ?9k+ %e gave me to und]/&  
my heal? might be expos$ to dang]1 ,i   
fell into s p]plex$ a /ate t1 al?\gh x 0
 no re/ra9t ^u me1 x poison$ my happ9ess

 dur+ sev]al days4  ,z we did n und]/&  
ea* o!r1 our conv]sations ^u ?is subject
 7 s _m enigmas m ?an ridicul\s4  ,%e 0 
^u ! po9t ( believ+ ,i 0 absolutely mad2
 & ,i on my "p 0 z ne> n kn[+ :at else  
to ?9k ( h]4  ,at la/ we came to an     
explanation2 %e confess$ to me ) te>s ! 
only fault ( ! k9d ( h] :ole life1      
imm$iately aft] %e became nubile2 !     
fruit ( h] ignorance & ! address ( h]   
s$uc]4  ,! mom5t ,i compreh5d$ :at %e   
meant1 ,i gave a %\t ( joy4  ,a ,hym56  
exclaim$ ,i2 s\ght = at ,p>is1 & at     
tw5ty ye>s ( age6  ,ah my ,!resa6  ,i am
 happy 9 possess+ !e1 virtu\s & heal?y z
 ?\ art1 & 9 n f9d+ t = :i* ,i nev]     
s\ght4  ,at fir/ amusem5t 0 my only     
object2 ,i p]ceiv$ ,i _h gone fur!r & _h
 giv5 myself a companion4  ,a little    
intimate connection ) ?is excell5t girl1
 & a few reflections ^u my situation1   
made me discov] t1 :ile ?9k+ ( no?+ m   
?an my pleasures1 ,i _h done a great    
deal t[>ds my happ9ess4  ,9 ! place (   
ext+ui%$ ambition1 a life ( s5tim5t1 :i*

 _h entire possession ( my he>t1 0      
necess>y to me4  ,9 a ^w1 ,i want$ a    
successor to mamma3 s9ce ,i 0 nev] aga9 
to live ) h]1 x 0 necess>y "s p]son %\ld
 live ) h] pupil1 & a p]son1 too1 9 :om 
,i might f9d t simplicity & docility (  
m9d & he>t :i* %e _h f\nd 9 me4  ,x 01  
moreov]1 necess>y t ! happ9ess ( dome/ic
 life %\ld indemnify me = ! spl5did c>e]
 ,i _h j r5\nc$4  ,:5 ,i 0 q alone !re 0
 a void 9 my he>t1 :i* want$ no?+ m ?an 
ano!r he>t to fill x up4  ,fate _h      
depriv$ me ( ?is1 or at lea/ 9 "p       
ali5at$ me f t = :i* by nature ,i 0 =m$4
  ,f t mom5t ,i 0 alone1 = !re nev] 0 = 
me ! lea/ ?+ int]m$iate betwe5 ev]y?+ & 
no?+4  ,i f\nd 9 ,!resa ! supplem5t (   
:i* ,i /ood 9 ne$2 by means ( h] ,i liv$
 z happily z ,i possibly c\ld d1 accord+
 to ! c\rse ( ev5ts4  ,i at fir/        
attempt$ to improve h] m9d4  ,9 ?is my  
pa9s 7 useless4 ,h] m9d is z nature =m$ 
x3 x 0 n susceptible ( cultivation4 ,i d
 n blu% 9 ackn[l$g+ %e nev] knew h[ to  
read well1 al?\gh %e writes tol]ably4   

,:5 ,i w5t to lodge 9 ! ,rue ,neuve des 
,petits ,*amps1 opposite to my w9d[s at 
! ,hotel de ,pon*>tra91 !re 0 a         
sun-dial1 on :i* = a :ole mon? ,i us$   
all my ef=ts to tea* h] to "k ! h\rs2   
yet1 %e sc>cely kn[s !m at pres5t4  ,%e 
nev] c\ld enum]ate ! twelve mon?s ( !   
ye> 9 ord]1 & _c di/+ui% "o num]al f    
ano!r1 not)/&+ all ! tr\ble ,i took     
endeavor+ to tea* !m to h]4  ,%e nei!r  
kn[s h[ to c\nt money1 nor to reckon !  
price ( any?+4  ,! ^w :i* :5 %e speaks1 
pres5ts itself to h] m9d1 is frequ5tly  
opposite to t ( :i* %e means to make    
use4  ,i =m]ly made a diction>y ( h]    
phrases1 to amuse ,m4 de ,luxemb\rg1 &  
h] 'qui pro quos' (t5 became celebrat$  
among ^? ) :om ,i 0 mo/ intimate4  ,b   
?is p]son1 s conf9$ 9 h] intellects1 &1 
if ! _w pleases1 s /upid1 c give        
excell5t advice 9 cases ( difficulty4   
,9 ,switz]l&1 9 ,engl& & 9 ,france1 %e  
frequ5tly saw :at ,i _h n myself        
p]ceiv$2 %e has (t5 giv5 me ! be/ advice
 ,i c\ld possibly foll[2 %e has rescu$  

me f dang]s into :i* ,i _h bl9dly       
precipitat$ myself1 & 9 ! pres5ce (     
pr9ces & ! great1 h] s5tim5ts1 good     
s5se1 answ]s1 & conduct h acquir$ h]    
univ]sal e/eem1 & myself ! mo/ s9c]e    
congratulations on h] m]it4  ,) p]sons  
:om we love1 s5tim5t =tifies ! m9d z    
well z ! he>t2 & !y :o are ?us atta*$1 h
 little ne$ ( se>*+ = ideas else:]e4  ,i
 liv$ ) my ,!resa z agreeably z ) ! f9e/
 g5ius 9 ! _w4  ,h] "m1 pr\d ( hav+ be5 
br\ght up "u ! ,m>*ioness ( ,monpipeau1 
attempt$ to be witty1 wi%$ to direct !  
judgm5t ( h] daught]1 & by h] knavi%    
cunn+ de/roy$ ! simplicity ( our        
int]c\rse4  ,! fatigue ( ?is opportunity
 made me 9 "s degree surm\nt ! fooli%   
%ame :i* prev5t$ me f appe>+ ) ,!resa 9 
public2 & we took %ort c\ntry walks1    
tete-a-tete1 & p>took ( little          
collations1 :i*1 to me1 7 delici\s4  ,i 
p]ceiv$ %e lov$ me s9c]ely1 & ?is       
increas$ my t5d]ness4  ,?is *>m+        
intimacy left me no?+ to wi%2 futurity  
no long] gave me ! lea/ conc]n1 or at   

mo/ appe>$ only z ! pres5t mom5t        
prolong$3 ,i _h no o!r desire ?an t (   
insur+ its duration4  ,?is atta*m5t     
r5d]$ all o!r dissipation sup]flu\s &   
insipid to me4  ,z ,i only w5t out = !  
purpose ( go+ to ! ap>tm5t ( ,!resa1 h] 
place ( resid5ce almo/ became my own4   
,my retirem5t 0 s favorable to ! "w ,i  
_h und]tak51 t1 9 less ?an ?ree mon?s1  
my op]a 0 entirely f9i%$1 bo? words &   
music1 except a few accompanim5ts1 &    
fill+s up :i* /ill rema9$ to be add$4   
,?is maneuv]+ bus9ess 0 v fatigu+ to me4
  ,i propos$ x to ,philidor1 (f]+ him at
 ! same "t a "p ( ! pr(its4  ,he came   
twice1 & did some?+ to ! middle p>ts 9 !
 act ( ,ovid2 b he c\ld n conf9e himself
 to an assidu\s application by !        
allurem5t ( advantages :i* 7 di/ant &   
unc]ta94  ,he did n come a ?ird "t1 & ,i
 f9i%$ ! "w myself4  ,my op]a complet$1 
! next ?+ 0 to make some?+ ( x3 ?is 0 by
 mu* ! m difficult task ( ! two4  ,a man
 liv+ 9 solitude 9 ,p>is w nev] succe$ 9
 any?+4  ,i 0 on ! po9t ( mak+ my way by

 means ( ,m4 de la ,popl9i]e1 to :om    
,gauffec\rt1 at my return to ,g5eva _h  
introduc$ me4  ,m4 de la ,popl9i]e 0 !  
,meca5as ( ,rameau2 ,madam de la        
,popl9i]e 8 v humble s*ol>4  ,rameau 0  
said to gov]n 9 t h\se4  ,judg+ t he    
w\ld ) pleasure protect ! "w ( "o ( 8   
disciples1 ,i wi%$ to %[ him :at ,i _h  
done4  ,he refus$ to exam9e x2 say+ he  
c\ld n read score1 x 0 too fatigu+ to   
him4  ,m4 de la ,popl9i]e1 to obviate   
?is difficulty1 said he might he> x2 &  
(f]$ me to s5d = musicians to execute   
c]ta9 deta*$ pieces4  ,i wi%$ = no?+    
bett]4  ,rameau cons5t$ ) an ill grace1 
incessantly repeat+ t ! composition ( a 
man n regul>ly br$ to ! sci5ce1 & :o _h 
le>n$ music )\t a ma/]1 mu/ c]ta9ly be v
 f9e6  ,i ha/5$ to copy into p>ts five  
or six select passages4  ,t5 symphonies 
7 procur$1 & ,alb]t1 ,b]>d1 &           
,mademoiselle ,b\rbonois und]took !     
vocal "p4  ,remeau1 ! mom5t he he>d !   
ov]ture1 0 purposely extravagant 9 8    
eulogium1 by :i* he int5d$ x %\ld be    

und]/ood x c\ld n be my composition4    
,he %[$ signs ( impati5ce at e passage3 
b aft] a c\nt] t5or song1 ! air ( :i* 0 
noble & h>moni\s1 ) a brilliant         
accompanim5t1 he c\ld no long] conta9   
himself2 he apo/rophis$ me ) a brutality
 at :i* ev]ybody 0 %ock$1 ma9ta9+ t a "p
 ( :at he _h he>d 0 by a man exp]i5c$ 9 
! art1 & ! re/ by "s ignorant p]son :o  
did n s mu* z und]/& music4  ,x is true 
my composition1 unequal & )\t rule1 0   
sometimes sublime1 & at o!rs insipid1 z 
t ( a p]son :o =ms himself 9 an art by !
 so>+s ( 8 own g5ius1 unsupport$ by     
sci5ce1 mu/ necess>ily be4  ,rameau     
pret5d$ to see no?+ 9 me b a            
contemptible pilf]]1 )\t tal5ts or ta/e4
  ,! re/ ( ! company1 among :om ,i mu/  
di/+ui% ! ma/] ( ! h\se1 7 ( a diff]5t  
op9ion4  ,m4 de ,ri*elieu1 :o at t "t   
frequ5tly visit$ ,m4 & ,madam de la     
,popl9i]e1 he>d !m speak ( my "w1 & wi%$
 to he> ! :ole ( x1 ) an int5tion1 if x 
pleas$ him1 to h x p]=m$ at c\rt4  ,!   
op]a 0 execut$ ) full *oruses1 & by a   

great or*e/ra1 at ! exp5se ( ! k+1 at   
,m4 de ,bonneval's int5dant ( ! ,m5us2  
,francoeur direct$ ! b&4  ,! effect 0   
surpris+3 ! duke nev] ceas$ to exclaim &
 applaud2 &1 at ! end ( "o ( ! *oruses1 
9 ! act ( ,tasso1 he arose & came to me1
 &1 press+ my h&1 said3 ,m4 ,r\sseau1   
?is is transport+ h>mony4 ,i nev] he>d  
any?+ f9]4  ,i w get ?is p]=m$ at       
,v]sailles4  ,madam de la ,pol9i]e1 :o 0
 pres5t1 said n a ^w4  ,rameau1 al?\gh  
invit$1 refus$ to come4  ,! next day1   
,madam de la ,popl9i]e receiv$ me at h] 
toilette v ungraci\sly1 affect$ to      
und]value my piece1 & told me1 t al?\gh 
a little false glitt] _h at fir/ dazzl$ 
,m4 de ,ri*elieu1 he _h recov]$ f 8     
error1 & %e advis$ me n to place ! lea/ 
dep5d5ce ^u my op]a4  ,! duke arriv$    
soon aft]1 & spoke to me 9 q a diff]5t  
language4  ,he said v flatt]+ ?+s ( my  
tal5ts1 & seem$ z mu* dispos$ z ev] to h
 my composition p]=m$ be=e ! k+4  ,!re  
is no?+1 said he1 b ! act ( ,tasso :i*  
_c pass at c\rt3 y mu/ write ano!r4  ,^u

 ?is s+le ^w ,i %ut myself up 9 my      
ap>tm5t2 & 9 ?ree weeks produc$1 9 !    
place ( ,tasso1 ano!r act1 ! subject (  
:i* 0 ,hesiod inspir$ by ! muses4  ,9   
?is ,i f\nd ! secret ( introduc+ a "p ( 
! hi/ory ( my tal5ts1 & ( ! jeal\sy )   
:i* ,rameau _h be5 pleas$ to honor me4  
,!re 0 9 ! new act an elevation less    
gigantic & bett] support$ ?an 9 ! act ( 
,tasso4 ,! music 0 z noble & !          
composition bett]2 & _h ! o!r two acts  
be5 equal to ?is1 ! :ole piece w\ld h   
support$ a repres5tation to advantage4  
,b :il/ ,i 0 endeavor+ to give x ! la/  
f9i%+1 ano!r und]tak+ susp5d$ !         
completion ( t ,i _h 9 my h&4  ,9 ! w9t]
 :i* succe$$ ! battle ( ,font5oi1 !re 7 
_m galas at ,v]sailles1 & sev]al op]as  
p]=m$ at ! !at] ( ! little /ables4      
,among ! numb] ( ! latt] 0 ! dramatic   
piece ( ,voltaire1 entitl$ ',la         
,pr9cesse de ,nav>re'1 ! music by       
,rameau1 ! "n ( :i* has j be5 *ang$ to t
 ( ',fetes de ,ramire'4  ,?is new       
subject requir$ sev]al *anges to be made

 9 ! div]tissem5ts1 z well 9 ! poetry z 
9 ! music4  ,a p]son capable ( bo? 0 n[ 
s\ght aft]4  ,voltaire 0 9 ,lorra9e1 &  
,rameau also2 bo? ( :om 7 employ$ on !  
op]a ( ! ,temple ( ,glory1 & c\ld n give
 _! att5tion to ?is4  ,m4 de ,ri*elieu  
?\ght ( me1 & s5t to desire ,i w\ld     
und]take ! alt]ations2 &1 t ,i might !  
bett] exam9e :at !re 0 to d1 he gave me 
sep>ately ! poem & ! music4 ,9 ! fir/   
place1 ,i w\ld n t\* ! words )\t !      
cons5t ( ! au?or1 to :om ,i wrote ^u !  
subject a v polite & respectful lett]1  
su* a "o z 0 prop]2 & receiv$ f him !   
foll[+ answ]3  ,,sir3 ,9 y two tal5ts1  
:i* hi!rto h always be5 sep>at$1 are    
unit$4 ,^! are two good reasons = me to 
e/eem & to endeavor to love y4 ,i am    
sorry1 on y\r acc\nt1 y %\ld employ ^!  
tal5ts 9 a "w :i* is s little wor?y (   
!m4  ,a few mon?s ago ! ,duke de        
,ri*elieu comm&$ me to make1 absolutely 
9 ! tw9kl+ ( an eye1 a little & bad     
sket* ( a few insipid & imp]fect sc5es  
to be adapt$ to div]tissem5ts :i* are n 

( a nature to be jo9$ ) !m4  ,i obey$ ) 
! greate/ exactness4  ,i wrote v fa/1 & 
v ill4  ,i s5t ?is wret*$ production to 
,m4 de ,ri*elieu1 imag9+ he w\ld make no
 use ( x1 or t ,i %\ld h x aga9 to make 
! necess>y corrections4  ,happily x is 9
 y\r h&s1 & y are at full lib]ty to d ) 
x :atev] y please3 ,i h entirely lo/    
sight ( ! ?+4  ,i d\bt n b y w h        
correct$ all ! faults :i* _c b ab\nd 9 s
 ha/y a composition ( su* a v simple    
sket*1 & am p]suad$ y w h suppli$ :atev]
 0 want+4  ,i rememb] t1 among o!r /upid
 inatt5tions1 no acc\nt is giv5 9 !     
sc5es :i* connect ! div]tissem5ts ( !   
mann] 9 :i* ! ,gr5adian pr9ce imm$iately
 passes f a prison to a g>d5 or palace4 
,z x is n a magician b a ,spani%        
nobleman :o gives h] ! gala1 ,i am (    
op9ion no?+ %\ld be effect$ by          
en*antm5t4  ,i beg1 sir1 y w exam9e ?is 
"p1 ( :i* ,i h b a confus$ idea4  ,y w  
likewise consid]1 :e!r or n x be        
necess>y ! prison %\ld be op5$1 & !     
pr9cess convey$ f x to a f9e palace1    

gilt & v>ni%$1 & prep>$ = h]4  ,i "k all
 ?is is wret*$1 & t x is b5ea? a ?9k+   
be+ to make a s]i\s affair ( su*        
trifles2 b1 s9ce we mu/ displease z     
little z possible1 x is necess>y we %\ld
 con=m to reason1 ev5 9 a bad           
div]tissem5t ( an op]a4  ,i dep5d :olly 
^u y & ,m4 ,ballot1 & soon expect to h !
 honor ( return+ y my ?anks1 & assur+ y 
h[ mu* ,i am1 etc4  ,!re is no?+        
surpris+ 9 ! great polit5ess ( ?is      
lett]1 comp>$ ) ! almo/ crude ones :i*  
he has s9ce writt5 to me4 ,he ?\ght ,i 0
 9 great favor ) ,madam ,ri*elieu2 & !  
c\rtly suppl5ess1 :i* ev]yone kn[s to be
 ! "* ( ?is au?or1 oblig$ him to be     
extremely polite to a new com]1 until he
 become bett] acqua9t$ ) ! measure ( !  
favor & patronage he enjoy$4  ,au?oriz$ 
by ,m4 de ,voltaire1 & n "u ! necessity 
( giv+ myself ! lea/ conc]n ab\t ,m4    
,rameau1 :o endeavor$ to injure me1 ,i  
set to "w1 & 9 two mon?s my und]tak+ 0  
f9i%$4  ,) respect to ! poetry1 x 0     
conf9$ to a m]e trifle2 ,i aim$ at no?+ 

m ?an to prev5t ! diff]5ce ( /yle f be+ 
p]ceiv$1 & _h ! vanity to ?9k ,i _h     
succe$$4  ,! musical "p 0 long] & m     
labori\s4  ,besides my hav+ to compose  
sev]al prep>atory pieces1 &1 among/     
o!rs1 ! ov]ture1 all ! recitative1 ) :i*
 ,i 0 *>g$1 0 extremely difficult on    
acc\nt ( ! necessity !re 0 ( connect+1 9
 a few v]ses1 & by v rapid modulations1 
symphonies & *oruses1 9 keys v diff]5t f
 ea* o!r2 = ,i 0 det]m9$ nei!r to *ange 
nor transpose any ( ! airs1 t ,rameau   
might n accuse me ( hav+ disfigur$ !m4  
,i succe$$ 9 ! recitative2 x 0 well     
acc5t$1 full ( en]gy & excell5t         
modulation4 ,! idea ( two m5 ( sup]ior  
tal5ts1 ) :om ,i 0 associat$1 _h elevat$
 my g5ius1 & ,i c ass]t1 t 9 ?is b>r5 & 
+lori\s task1 ( :i* ! public c\ld h no  
k1 ,i 0 = ! mo/ "p equal to my models4  
,! piece1 9 ! /ate to :i* ,i _h br\ght  
x1 0 rehe>s$ 9 ! great !atre ( ! op]a4  
,( ! ?ree au?ors :o _h contribut$ to !  
production1 ,i 0 ! only "o pres5t4      
,voltaire 0 n 9 ,p>is1 & ,rameau ei!r   

did n come1 or conceal$ himself4  ,!    
words ( ! fir/ monologue 7 v m\rnful2 !y
 began )3            ,o ,mort6 vi5s     
t]m9] les malheurs de ma vie4       ,o  
,dea?6 ha/5 to t]m9ate ! mis=tunes ( my 
life4  ,to ^!1 suitable music 0         
necess>y4  ,x 01 h[ev]1 ^u ?is t ,madam 
de la ,popl9i]e f\nd$ h] c5sure2 accus+ 
me1 ) mu* bitt]ness1 ( hav+ compos$ a   
fun]al an!m4  ,m4 de ,ri*elieu v        
judici\sly began by in=m+ himself :o 0 !
 au?or ( ! poetry ( ?is monologue2 ,i   
pres5t$ him ! manuscript he _h s5t me1  
:i* prov$ x 0 by ,voltaire4  ,9 t case1 
said ! duke1 ,voltaire alone is to      
blame4  ,dur+ ! rehe>sal1 ev]y?+ ,i _h  
done 0 disapprov$ by ,madam de la       
,popl9i]e1 & approv$ ( by ,m4 de        
,ri*elieu2 b ,i _h aft]w>ds to d ) too  
p[]ful an adv]s>y4 ,x 0 signifi$ to me t
 sev]al p>ts ( my composition want$     
revis+1 & t on ?is x 0 necess>y ,i %\ld 
consult ,m4 ,rameau2 my he>t 0 w\nd$ by 
su* a conclusion1 in/ead ( ! eulogium ,i
 expect$1 & :i* c]ta9ly ,i m]it$1 & ,i  

return$ to my ap>tm5t ov]:elm$ ) grief1 
exhau/$ ) fatigue1 & consum$ by *agr94  
,i 0 imm$iately tak5 ill1 & conf9$ to my
 *amb] = upw>ds ( six weeks4  ,rameau1  
:o 0 *>g$ ) ! alt]ations indicat$ by    
,madam de la ,popl9i]e1 s5t to ask me = 
! ov]ture ( my great op]a1 to sub/itute 
x to t ,i _h j compos$4  ,happily ,i    
p]ceiv$ ! trick he int5d$ to play me1 & 
refus$ him ! ov]ture4  ,z ! p]=mance 0  
to be 9 five or six days1 he _h n "t to 
make "o1 & 0 oblig$ to leave t ,i _h    
prep>$4  ,x 0 9 ! ,italian ta/e1 & 9 a  
/yle at t "t q new 9 ,france4  ,x gave  
satisfaction1 & ,i le>n$ f ,m4 de       
,valmalette1 maitre d'hotel to ! k+1 &  
son-9-law to ,m4 ,muss>d1 my relation & 
fri5d1 t ! connoisseurs 7 highly        
satisfi$ ) my "w1 & t ! public _h n     
di/+ui%$ x f t ( ,rameau4  ,h[ev]1 he & 
,madam de la ,popl9i]e took measures to 
prev5t any p]son f kn[+ ,i _h any conc]n
 9 ! matt]4  ,9 ! books di/ribut$ to !  
audi5ce1 & 9 :i* ! au?ors are always    
nam$1 ,voltaire 0 ! only p]son m5tion$1 

& ,rameau pref]r$ ! suppression ( 8 own 
"n to see+ x associat$ ) m9e4  ,z soon z
 ,i 0 9 a situation to leave my room1 ,i
 wi%$ to wait ^u ,m4 de ,ri*elieu1 b x 0
 too late2 he _h j set (f = ,dunkirk1   
:]e he 0 to comm& ! exp$ition de/9$ to  
,scotl&4  ,at 8 return1 said ,i to      
myself1 to au?orize my idl5ess1 x w be  
too late = my purpose1 n hav+ se5 him   
s9ce t "t4  ,i lo/ ! honor ( mywork & ! 
emolum5ts x %\ld h produc$ me1 besides  
consid]+ my "t1 tr\ble1 grief1 &        
vexation1 my illness1 & ! money ?is co/ 
me1 )\t ev] receiv+ ! lea/ b5efit1 or r1
 recomp5se4 ,h[ev]1 ,i always ?\ght ,m4 
de ,ri*elieu 0 dispos$ to s]ve me1 & t  
he _h a favorable op9ion ( my tal5ts2 b 
my mis=tune1 & ,madam de la ,popl9i]e1  
prev5t$ ! effect ( 8 good wi%es4  ,i    
c\ld n div9e ! reason ( ! av]sion ?is   
lady _h to me4  ,i _h always endeavor$  
to make myself agreeable to h]1 &       
regul>ly paid h] my c\rt4  ,gauffec\rt  
expla9$ to me ! causes ( h] dislike3 ,! 
fir/1 said he1 is h] fri5d%ip = ,rameau1

 ( :om %e is ! decl>$ panegyri/1 & :o w 
n suff] a competitor2 ! next is an      
orig9al s91 :i* ru9s y 9 h] e/imation1 &
 :i* %e w nev] =give2 y are a ,g5evese4 
,^u ?is he told me ! ,abbe ,hub]t1 :o 0 
f ! same city1 & ! s9c]e fri5d ( ,m4 de 
la ,popl9i]e1 _h us$ all 8 ef=ts to     
prev5t him f m>ry+ ?is lady1 ) ^: "* &  
temp] he 0 v well acqua9t$2 & t aft] !  
m>riage %e _h v[$ him an implacable     
hatr$1 z well z all ! ,g5evese4  ,al?\gh
 ,la ,popl9i]e has a fri5d%ip = y1 d n1 
said he1 dep5d ^u 8 protection3 he is   
/ill 9 love ) 8 wife3 %e hates y1 & is  
v9dictive & artful2 y w nev] d any?+ 9 t
 h\se4  ,all ?is ,i took = grant$4  ,!  
same ,gauffec\rt r5d]$ me mu* ab\t ?is  
"t1 a s]vice ( :i* ,i /ood 9 ! greate/  
ne$4  ,i _h j lo/ my virtu\s fa!r1 :o 0 
ab\t sixty ye>s ( age4  ,i felt ?is loss
 less sev]ely ?an ,i %\ld h done at any 
o!r "t1 :5 ! emb>rassm5ts ( my situation
 _h less engag$ my att5tion4  ,dur+ 8   
life-"t ,i _h nev] claim$ :at rema9$ ( !
 prop]ty ( my "m1 & ( :i* he receiv$ !  

little int]e/4  ,8 dea? remov$ all my   
scruples ^u ?is subject4  ,b ! want ( a 
legal pro( ( ! dea? ( my bro!r creat$ a 
difficulty :i* ,gauffec\rt und]took to  
remove1 & ?is he effect$ by means ( !   
good (fices ( ! advocate ,de ,lolme4  ,z
 ,i /ood 9 ne$ ( ! little res\rce1 & !  
ev5t be+ d\btful1 ,i wait$ = a def9itive
 acc\nt ) ! greate/ anxiety4  ,"o ev5+  
on ent]+ my ap>tm5t ,i f\nd a lett]1 :i*
 ,i knew to conta9 ! in=mation ,i want$1
 & ,i took x up ) an impati5t trembl+1 (
 :i* ,i 0 inw>dly a%am$4  ,:at8  said ,i
 to myself1 ) disda91 %all ,jean        
,jacques ?us suff] himself to be subdu$ 
by int]e/ & curiosity8  ,i imm$iately   
laid ! lett] aga9 ^u ! *imney-piece4  ,i
 undress$ myself1 w5t to b$ ) great     
composure1 slept bett] ?an ord9>y1 &    
rose 9 ! morn+ at a late h\r1 )\t ?9k+ m
 ( my lett]4  ,z ,i dress$ myself1 x    
caught my eye2 ,i broke ! seal v        
leisurely1 & f\nd "u ! envelope a bill (
 ex*ange4  ,i felt a v>iety ( pleas+    
s5sations at ! same "t3 b ,i c ass]t1 ^u

 my honor1 t ! mo/ lively ( !m all 0 t  
proce$+ f hav+ kn[n h[ to be ma/] (     
myself4  ,i c\ld m5tion tw5ty su*       
circum/ances 9 my life1 b ,i am too mu* 
press$ = "t to say ev]y?+4  ,i s5t a    
small "p ( ?is money to my poor mamma2  
regrett+1 ) my eyes suffus$ ) te>s1 !   
happy "t :5 ,i %\ld h laid x all at h]  
feet4  ,all h] lett]s conta9$ evid5t    
m>ks ( h] di/ress4  ,%e s5t me piles (  
recipes1 & num]\s secrets1 ) :i* %e     
pret5d$ ,i might make my =tune & h] own4
  ,! idea ( h] wret*$ness already       
affect$ h] he>t & contract$ h] m9d4  ,! 
little ,i s5t h] fell a prey to ! knaves
 by :om %e 0 surr\nd$2 %e receiv$ n !   
lea/ advantage f any?+4  ,! idea (      
divid+ :at 0 necess>y to my own         
subsi/5ce ) ^! wret*es disgu/$ me1      
especially aft] ! va9 attempt ,i _h made
 to deliv] h] f !m1 & ( :i* ,i %all h   
occasion to speak4  ,"t slipp$ away1 & )
 x ! little money ,i _h2 we 7 two1 or   
inde$1 f\r p]sons2 or1 to speak /ill m  
correctly1 sev5 or eight4  ,al?\gh      

,!resa 0 dis9t]e/$ to a degree ( :i* !re
 are b few examples1 h] "m 0 n s4  ,%e 0
 no soon] a little reliev$ f h]         
necessities by my c>es1 ?an %e s5t = h] 
:ole family to p>take ( ! fruits ( !m4  
,h] si/]s1 sons1 daught]s1 all except h]
 elde/ daught]1 m>ri$ to ! director ( ! 
coa*es ( ,aug]s1 came to ,p>is4  ,ev]y?+
 ,i did = ,!resa1 h] "m div]t$ f its    
orig9al de/9ation 9 favor ( ^! p :o 7   
/>v+4 ,i _h n to d ) an av>ici\s p]son2 
&1 n be+ "u ! influ5ce ( an unruly      
passion1 ,i 0 n guilty ( follies4       
,satisfi$ ) g5teelly support+ ,!resa )\t
 luxury1 & unexpos$ to press+ wants1 ,i 
readily cons5t$ to let all ! e>n+s ( h] 
indu/ry g to ! pr(it ( h] "m2 & to ?is  
ev5 ,i did n conf9e myself2 b1 by a     
fatality by :i* ,i 0 pursu$1 :il/ mamma 
0 a prey to ! rascals ab\t h] ,!resa 0 !
 same to h] family2 & ,i c\ld n d any?+ 
on ei!r side = ! b5efit ( h] to :om !   
succor ,i gave 0 de/9$4  ,x 0 odd en\gh 
! y\nge/ *ild ( ,m4 de la ,vasseur1 !   
only "o :o _h n receiv$ a m>riage       

portion f h] p>5ts1 %\ld provide = _!   
subsi/5ce2 & t1 aft] hav+ along "t be5  
beat5 by h] bro!rs1 si/]s1 & ev5 h]     
nieces1 ! poor girl %\ld be plund]$ by  
!m all1 )\t be+ m able to def5d h]self f
 _! !fts ?an f _! bl[s4  ,"o ( h]       
nieces1 nam$ ,gorton le ,duc1 0 ( a mild
 & amiable "*2 al?\gh spoil$ by !       
lessons & examples ( ! o!rs4  ,z ,i     
frequ5tly saw !m toge!r1 ,i gave !m     
names1 :i* !y aft]w>ds gave to ea* o!r2 
,i call$ ! niece my niece1 & ! aunt my  
aunt2 !y bo? call$ me uncle4  ,h5ce ! "n
 ( aunt1 by :i* ,i cont9u$ to call      
,!resa1 & :i* my fri5ds sometimes       
jocosely repeat$4  ,x w be judg$ t 9 su*
 a situation ,i _h n a mom5t to lose1   
be=e ,i attempt$ to extricate myself4   
,imag9+ ,m4 de ,ri*elieu _h =gott5 me1 &
 hav+ no m hopes f ! c\rt1 ,i made "s   
attempts to get my op]a br\ght out at   
,p>is2 b ,i met ) difficulties :i* c\ld 
n imm$iately be remov$1 & my situation  
became daily m pa9ful4  ,i pres5t$ my   
little com$y ( ,n>cisse to ! ,italians2 

x 0 receiv$1 & ,i _h ! fre$om ( ! !atre1
 :i* gave mu* pleasure4  ,b ?is 0 all2  
,i c\ld nev] get my piece p]=m$1 &1 tir$
 ( pay+ my c\rt to play]s1 ,i gave      
myself no m tr\ble ab\t !m4  ,at l5g? ,i
 _h rec\rse to ! la/ exp$i5t :i* rema9$ 
to me1 & ! only "o ( :i* ,i ought to h  
made use4 ,:ile frequ5t+ ! h\se ( ,m4 de
 la ,popl9i]e1 ,i _h neglect$ ! family (
 ,dup94  ,! two ladies1 al?\gh relat$1 7
 n on good t]ms1 & nev] saw ea* o!r4    
,!re 0 n ! lea/ int]c\rse betwe5 ! two  
families1 & ,?i]iot 0 ! only p]son :o   
visit$ bo?4  ,he 0 desir$ to endeavor to
 br+ me aga9 to ,m4 ,dup9's4  ,m4 de    
,francueil 0 !n /udy+ natural hi/ory &  
*emi/ry1 & collect+ a cab9et4  ,i       
believe he aspir$ to become a memb] ( ! 
,academy ( ,sci5ces2 to ?is effect he   
int5d$ to write a book1 & judg$ ,i might
 be ( use to him 9 ! und]tak+4  ,madam  
de ,dup91 :o1 on h] "p1 _h ano!r "w 9   
contemplation1 _h mu* ! same views 9    
respect to me4  ,!y wi%$ to h me 9      
common z a k9d ( secret>y1 & ?is 0 !    

reason ( ! invitations ( ,?i]iot4  ,i   
requir$ t ,m4 de ,francueil %\ld        
previ\sly employ 8 int]e/ ) t ( ,jelyote
 to get my "w rehe>s$ at ! op]ah\se2 to 
?is he cons5t$4  ,! ,muses ,galantes 7  
sev]al times rehe>s$1 fir/ at !         
,magaz9e1 & aft]w>ds 9 ! great !atre4   
,! audi5ce 0 v num]\s at ! great        
rehe>sal1 & sev]al p>ts ( ! composition 
7 highly applaud$4  ,h[ev]1 dur+ ?is    
rehe>sal1 v ill-conduct$ by ,rebel1 ,i  
felt ! piece w\ld n be receiv$2 & t1    
be=e x c\ld appe>1 great alt]ations 7   
necess>y4  ,i !re=e )drew x )\t say+ a  
^w1 or expos+ myself to a refusal2 b ,i 
pla9ly p]ceiv$1 by sev]al indications1 t
 ! "w1 _h x be5 p]fect1 c\ld n h        
succe$$4  ,m4 de ,francueil _h promis$  
me to get x rehe>s$1 b n t x %\ld be    
receiv$4  ,he exactly kept 8 ^w4  ,i    
?\ght ,i p]ceiv$ on ?is occasion1 z well
 z _m o!rs1 t nei!r ,madam ,dup9 nor    
himself 7 will+ ,i %\ld acquire a c]ta9 
reputation 9 ! _w1 le/1 aft] !          
publication ( _! books1 x %\ld be       

suppos$ !y _h graft$ _! tal5ts ^u m9e4  
,yet z ,madam ,dup9 always suppos$ ^? ,i
 _h to be v mod]ate1 & nev] employ$ me  
except x 0 to write :at %e dictat$1 or 9
 rese>*es ( pure erudition1 ! reproa*1 )
 respect to h]1 w\ld h be5 unju/4  ,?is 
la/ failure ( success complet$ my       
disc\ragem5t4  ,i ab&on$ e prospect (   
fame & advancem5t2 &1 )\t fur!r tr\bl+  
my head ab\t real or imag9>y tal5ts1 )  
:i* ,i _h s little success1 ,i d$icat$  
my :ole "t & c>es to procure myself &   
,!resa a subsi/5ce 9 ! mann] mo/ pleas+ 
to ^? to :om x %\ld be agreeable to     
provide = x4  ,i !re=e entirely atta*$  
myself to ,madam ,dup9 & ,m4 de         
,francueil4  ,?is did n place me 9 a v  
opul5t situation2 = ) eight or n9e      
hundr$ livres1 :i* ,i _h ! fir/ two     
ye>s1 ,i _h sc>cely en\gh to provide =  
my prim>y wants2 be+ oblig$ to live 9 _!
 neighborhood1 a de> "p ( ! t[n1 9 a    
furni%$ lodg+1 & hav+ to pay = ano!r    
lodg+ at ! extremity ( ,p>is1 at ! v top
 ( ! ,rue ,sa9t ,jacques1 to :i*1 let ! 

wea!r be z x w\ld1 ,i w5t almo/ e ev5+  
to supp]4  ,i soon got into ! track ( my
 new occupations1 & conceiv$ a ta/e =   
!m4 ,i atta*$ myself to ! /udy (        
*emi/ry1 & att5d$ sev]al c\rses ( x )   
,m4 de ,francueil at ,m4 ,r\elle's1 & we
 began to scribble ov] pap] ^u t sci5ce1
 ( :i* we sc>cely possess$ ! elem5ts4 ,9
 #agag1 we w5t to pass ! autumn 9       
,t\rra9e1 at ! ca/le ( ,*5onceaux1 a    
royal mansion ^u ! ,*]1 built by ,h5ry !
 ,,ii1 = ,diana ( ,poiti]s1 ( :om !     
ciph]s are /ill se51 & :i* is n[ 9 !    
possession ( ,m4 ,dup91 a f>m] g5]al4   
,we amus$ ourselves v agreeably 9 ?is   
beautiful place1 & liv$ v well3 ,i      
became z fat !re z a monk4  ,music 0 a  
favorite relaxation4  ,i compos$ sev]al 
trios full ( h>mony1 & ( :i* ,i may     
p]haps speak 9 my supplem5t if ev] ,i   
%\ld write "o4  ,!atrical p]=mances 7   
ano!r res\rce4  ,i wrote a com$y 9      
fifte5 days1 entitl$ 'l',engagem5t      
,tem]aire'1--,! ,ra% ,engagem5t--:i* w  
be f\nd among/ my pap]s2 x has no o!r   

m]it ?an t ( be+ lively4 ,i compos$     
sev]al o!r little ?+s3 among/ o!rs a    
poem entitl$1 'l',aliee de ,sylvie'1 f !
 "n ( an alley 9 ! p>k ^u ! bank ( !    
,*]2 & ?is )\t discont9u+ my *emical    
/udies1 or int]rupt+ :at ,i _h to d =   
,madam ,dup94  ,:il/ ,i 0 increas+ my   
corpul5cy at ,*5onceaux1 t ( my poor    
,!resa 0 augm5t$ at ,p>is 9 ano!r mann]1
 & at my return ,i f\nd ! "w ,i _h put  
^u ! frame 9 great] =w>dness ?an ,i _h  
expect$4  ,?is1 on acc\nt ( my          
situation1 w\ld h ?r[n me into ! greate/
 emb>rassm5t1 _h n "o ( my messmates    
furni%$ me ) ! only res\rce :i* c\ld    
relieve me f x4  ,?is is "o ( ^?        
ess5tial n>ratives :i* ,i _c give ) too 
mu* simplicity2 because1 9 mak+ an      
improp] use ( _! names1 ,i %\ld ei!r    
excuse or inculpate myself1 bo? ( :i* 9 
?is place are entirely out ( ! "q4      
,dur+ ! resid5ce ( ,altuna at ,p>is1    
in/ead ( go+ to eat at a ',traiteurs'1  
he & ,i commonly eat 9 ! neighborhood1  
almo/ opposite ! cul de sac ( ! op]a1 at

 ! h\se ( a ,madam la ,selle1 ! wife ( a
 tailor1 :o gave b v ord9>y d9n]s1 b ^: 
table 0 mu* frequ5t$ on acc\nt ( ! safe 
company :i* g5]ally resort$ to x2 no    
p]son 0 receiv$ )\t be+ introduc$ by "o 
( ^? :o us$ ! h\se4  ,! comm&]1 ,de     
,graville1 an old debau*ee1 ) mu* wit & 
polit5ess1 b obsc5e 9 conv]sation1 lodg$
 at ! h\se1 & br\ght to x a set ( riot\s
 & extravagant "y m52 (fic]s 9 ! gu>ds &
 m\squetaires4  ,! ,comm&] de ,nonant1  
*evali] to all ! girls ( ! op]a1 0 !    
daily oracle1 :o convey$ to u ! news (  
?is motley crew4  ,m4 du ,plessis1 a    
lieut5ant-colonel1 retir$ f ! s]vice1 an
 old man ( great goodness & wisdom2 &   
,m4 ,ancelet1       ,x 0 to ?is ,m4     
,ancelet ,i gave a little com$y1 aft] my
 own      mann] entitl$ 'les ,pris\ni]s 
de ,gu]re'1 :i* ,i wrote aft] !         
disa/]s ( ! ,fr5* 9 ,bav>ia & ,bohemia3 
,i d>$ n ei!r      av[ ?is com$y or %[  
x1 & ?is = ! s+ul> reason t      nei!r !
 ,k+ ( ,france nor ! ,fr5* 7 ev] bett]  
spok5 (      nor prais$ ) m s9c]ity (   

he>t ?an 9 my piece ?\gh      writt5 by 
a pr(ess$ republican1 ,i d>$ n decl>e   
myself !      panegyri/ ( a nation1 ^:  
maxims 7 exactly ! rev]se ( my      own4
  ,m griev$ at ! mis=tunes ( ,france ?an
 ! ,fr5*      !mselves ,i 0 afraid !    
public w\ld con/rue into flatt]y &      
mean complaisance ! m>ks ( a s9c]e      
atta*m5t1 ( :i* 9 my      fir/ "p ,i h  
m5tion$ ! date & ! cause1 & :i* ,i 0    
a%am$ to %[4  an (fic] 9 ! m\squetaires 
kept ! "y p 9 a c]ta9 k9d ( ord]4  ,?is 
table 0 also frequ5t$ by comm]cial p1   
f9anci]s & contractors1 b extremely     
polite1 & su* z 7 di/+ui%$ among/ ^? ( !
 same pr(ession4  ,m4 de ,besse1 ,m4 de 
,=cade1 & o!rs ^: names ,i h =gott51 9  
%ort1 well-dress$ p ( e description 7   
se5 !re2 except abbes & m5 ( ! long     
robe1 n "o ( :om ,i ev] met 9 ! h\se1 & 
x 0 agre$ n to introduce m5 ( ei!r ( ^! 
pr(essions4  ,?is table1 suffici5tly    
resort$ to1 0 v *e]ful )\t be+ noisy1 & 
_m ( ! gue/s 7 waggi%1 )\t desc5d+ to   
vulg>ity4  ,! old comm&] ) all 8 smutty 

/ories1 ) respect to ! sub/ance1 nev]   
lo/ sight ( ! polit5ess ( ! old c\rt2   
nor did any indec5t expression1 :i* ev5 
wom5 w\ld n h p>don$ him1 escape 8 lips4
  ,8 mann] s]v$ z a rule to e p]son at  
table2 all ! "y m5 relat$ _! adv5tures (
 gallantry ) equal grace & fre$om1 & ^! 
n>ratives 7 ! m complete1 z ! s]aglio 0 
at ! door2 ! entry :i* l$ to x 0 ! same2
 = !re 0 a communication betwe5 ?is & ! 
%op ( ,le ,du*apt1 a celebrat$ mill9]1  
:o at t "t _h sev]al v pretty girls1 )  
:om our "y p w5t to *at be=e or aft]    
d9n]4  ,i %\ld ?us h amus$ myself z well
 z ! re/1 _h ,i be5 less mode/3 ,i _h   
only to g 9 z !y did1 b ?is ,i nev] _h  
c\rage en\gh to d4  ,) respect to ,madam
 de ,selle1 ,i (t5 w5t to eat at h] h\se
 aft] ! dep>ture ( ,altuna4  ,i le>n$ a 
great numb] ( amus+ anecdotes1 & by     
degrees ,i adopt$1 ?ank ,god1 n !       
morals1 b ! maxims ,i f\nd to be        
e/abli%$ !re4  ,hone/ m5 injur$1 husb&s 
deceiv$1 wom5 s$uc$1 7 ! mo/ ord9>y     
topics1 & he :o _h be/ fill$ ! f\ndl+   

hospital 0 always ! mo/ applaud$4  ,i   
caught ! mann]s ,i daily _h be=e my     
eyes3 ,i =m$ my mann] ( ?9k+ ^u t ,i    
obs]v$ to be ! reign+ "o among/ amiable3
 & ^u ! :ole1 v hone/ p4  ,i said to    
myself1 s9ce x is ! cu/om ( ! c\ntry1 !y
 :o live "h may adopt x2 ?is is !       
exp$i5t = :i* ,i s\ght4  ,i *e]fully    
det]m9$ ^u x )\t ! lea/ scruple1 & !    
only "o ,i _h to ov]come 0 t ( ,!resa1  
:om1 ) ! greate/ imag9able difficulty1  
,i p]suad$ to adopt ?is only means (    
sav+ h] honor4  ,h] "m1 :o 0 moreov]    
appreh5sive ( a new emb>rassm5t by an   
increase ( family1 came to my aid1 & %e 
at l5g? suff]$ h]self to be prevail$ ^u4
  ,we made *oice ( a midwife1 a safe &  
prud5t woman1 ,mademoiselle ,g\91 :o    
liv$ at ! ,po9t ,sa9t ,eu/a*e1 & :5 ! "t
 came1 ,!resa 0 conduct$ to h] h\se by  
h] "m4  ,i w5t ?i!r sev]al times to see 
h]1 & gave h] a ciph] :i* ,i _h made    
d\ble ^u two c>ds2 "o ( !m 0 put into ! 
l95 ( ! *ild1 & by ! midwife deposit$ ) 
! infant 9 ! (fice ( ! f\ndl+ hospital  

accord+ to ! cu/om>y =m4  ,! ye> foll[+1
 a simil> inconv5i5ce 0 rem$i$ by ! same
 exp$i5t1 except+ ! ciph]1 :i* 0 =gott53
 no m reflection on my "p1 nor          
approbation on t ( ! "m2 %e obey$ )     
trembl+4  ,all ! vicissitudes :i* ?is   
fatal conduct has produc$ 9 my mann] (  
?9k+1 z well z 9 my de/9y1 w be         
successively se54  ,= ! pres5t1 we w    
conf9e ourselves to ?is fir/ p]iod2 its 
cruel & un=ese5 consequ5ces w b too     
frequ5tly oblige me to ref] to x4  ,i "h
 m>k t ( my fir/ acqua9tance ) ,madam   
,d',ep9ay1 ^: "n w frequ5tly appe> 9 ^! 
memoirs4  ,%e 0 a ,mademoiselle ,d'     
,esclavelles1 & _h lately be5 m>ri$ to  
,m4 ,d',ep9ay1 son ( ,m4 de ,lalive de  
,belleg>de1 a f>m] g5]al4  ,%e und]/ood 
music1 & a passion = ! art produc$      
betwe5 ^! ?ree p]sons ! greate/         
intimacy4  ,madam ,prancueil introduc$  
me to ,madam ,d',ep9ay1 & we sometimes  
supp$ toge!r at h] h\se4  ,%e 0 amiable1
 _h wit & tal5t1 & 0 c]ta9ly a desirable
 acqua9tance2 b %e _h a female fri5d1 a 

,mademoiselle d',ette1 :o 0 said to h   
mu* malignancy 9 h] disposition2 %e liv$
 ) ! ,*evali] de ,valory1 ^: temp] 0 f> 
f be+ "o ( ! be/4  ,i am ( op9ion1 an   
acqua9tance ) ^! two p]sons 0           
prejudicial to ,madam ,d',ep9ay1 to :om1
 ) a disposition :i* requir$ ! greate/  
att5tion f ^? ab\t h]1 nature _h giv5 v 
excell5t qualities to regulate or       
c\nt]balance h] extravagant pret5sions4 
,m4 de ,francueil inspir$ h] ) a "p ( ! 
fri5d%ip he _h conceiv$ = me1 & told me 
( ! connection betwe5 !m1 ( :i*1 = t    
reason1 ,i w\ld n n[ speak1 7 x n become
 s public z n to be conceal$ f ,m4      
,d',ep9ay himself4  ,m4 de ,francueil   
confid$ to me secrets ( a v s+ul> nature
 relative to ?is lady1 ( :i* %e h]self  
nev] spoke to me1 nor s mu* z suspect$  
my hav+ a k2 = ,i nev] op5$ my lips to  
h] ^u ! subject1 nor w ,i ev] d x to any
 p]son4  ,! confid5ce all p>ties _h 9 my
 prud5ce r5d]$ my situation v emb>rass+1
 especially ) ,madam de ,francueil1 ^: k
 ( me 0 suffici5t to remove f h] all    

suspicion on my acc\nt1 al?\gh ,i 0     
connect$ ) h] rival4  ,i did ev]y?+ ,i  
c\ld to console ?is poor woman1 ^: husb&
 c]ta9ly did n return ! affection %e _h 
= him4 ,i li/5$ to ^! ?ree p]sons       
sep>ately2 ,i kept all _! secrets s     
fai?fully t n "o ( ! ?ree ev] drew f me 
^? ( ! two o!rs1 & ?is1 )\t conceal+ f  
ei!r ( ! wom5 my atta*m5t to ea* ( !m4  
,madam de ,francueil1 :o frequ5tly wi%$ 
to make me an ag5t1 receiv$ refusals 9  
=m1 & ,madam ,d',ep9ay1 once desir+ me  
to *>ge myself ) a lett] to ,m4 de      
,francueil receiv$ ! same mortification1
 accompani$ by a v express decl>ation1 t
 if ev] %e wi%$ to drive me =ev] f !    
h\se1 %e _h only a second "t to make me 
a l proposition4  ,9 ju/ice to ,madam   
,d',ep9ay1 ,i mu/ say1 t f> f be+ (f5d$ 
) me %e spoke ( my conduct to ,m4 de    
,francueil 9 t]ms ( ! highe/            
approbation1 & cont9u$ to receive me z  
well1 & z politely z ev]4  ,x 0 ?us1    
amid/ ! he>t-burn+s ( ?ree p]sons to :om
 ,i 0 oblig$ to behave ) ! greate/      

circumspection1 on :om ,i 9 "s measure  
dep5d$1 & = :om ,i _h conceiv$ an       
atta*m5t1 t by conduct+ myself )        
mildness & complaisance1 al?\gh         
accompani$ ) ! greate/ firmness1 ,i     
pres]v$ unto ! la/ n only _! fri5d%ip1 b
 _! e/eem & confid5ce4  ,not)/&+ my     
absurdities & awkw>dness1 ,madam        
,d',ep9ay w\ld h me make "o ( ! p>ty to 
! ,*evrette1 a c\ntry-h\se1 ne> ,sa9t   
,d5is1 belong+ to ,m4 de ,belleg>de4    
,!re 0 a !atre1 9 :i* p]=mances 7 n     
unfrequ5t4  ,i _h a "p giv5 me1 :i* ,i  
/udi$ = six mon?s )\t int]mission1 & 9  
:i*1 on ! ev5+ ( ! repres5tation1 ,i 0  
oblig$ to be prompt$ f ! beg9n+ to !    
end4  ,aft] ?is exp]im5t no second      
proposal ( ! k9d 0 ev] made to me4  ,my 
acqua9tance ) ,m4 ,d',ep9ay procur$ me t
 ( h] si/]-9-law1 ,mademoiselle de      
,belleg>de1 :o soon aft]w>ds became     
,c\ntess ( ,h\detot4  ,! fir/ "t ,i saw 
h] %e 0 ^u ! po9t ( m>riage2 :5 %e      
conv]s$ ) me a long "t1 ) t *>m+        
famili>ity :i* 0 natural to h]4  ,i     

?\ght h] v amiable1 b ,i 0 f> f p]ceiv+ 
t ?is "y p]son w\ld lead me1 al?\gh     
innoc5tly1 into ! abyss 9 :i* ,i /ill   
rema94  ,al?\gh ,i h n spok5 ( ,did]ot  
s9ce my return f ,v5ice1 no m ?an ( my  
fri5d ,m4 ,rogu91 ,i did n neglect ei!r 
( !m1 especially ! =m]1 ) :om ,i daily  
became m intimate4  ,he _h a ,nannette1 
z well z ,i a ,!resa2 ?is 0 betwe5 u    
ano!r con=mity ( circum/ances4  ,b my   
,!resa1 z f9e a woman z 8 ,nannette1 0 (
 a mild & amiable "*1 :i* might ga9 &   
fix ! affections ( a wor?y man2 :]eas   
,nannette 0 a vix51 a tr\blesome prat]1 
& _h no qualities 9 ! eyes ( o!rs :i* 9 
any measure comp5sat$ = h] want (       
education4  ,h[ev] he m>ri$ h]1 :i* 0   
well done ( him1 if he _h giv5 a promise
 to t effect4  ,i1 = my "p1 n hav+ ent]$
 into any su* engagem5t1 0 n 9 ! lea/   
ha/e to imitate him4  ,i 0 also connect$
 ) ! ,abbe de ,condillac1 :o _h acquir$ 
no m lit]>y fame ?an myself1 b 9 :om !re
 0 e appe>ance ( 8 becom+ :at he n[ is4 
,i 0 p]haps ! fir/ :o discov]$ ! ext5t (

 8 abilities1 & e/eem$ !m z !y des]v$4  
,he on 8 "p seem$ satisfi$ ) me1 &1 :il/
 %ut up 9 my *amb] 9 ! ,rue ,jean ,sa9t 
,d5is1 ne> ! op]a-h\se1 ,i compos$ my   
act ( ,hesiod1 he sometimes came to d9e 
) me tete-a-tete4  ,we s5t = our d9n]1 &
 paid %>e & %>e alike4  ,he 0 at t "t   
employ$ on 8 ,essay on ! ,orig9 ( ,human
 ,k1 :i* 0 8 fir/ "w4  ,:5 ?is 0 f9i%$1 
! difficulty 0 to f9d a booksell] :o    
w\ld take x4  ,! booksell]s ( ,p>is are 
%y ( e au?or at 8 beg9n+1 & metaphysics1
 n mu* !n 9 vogue1 7 no v invit+        
subject4 ,i spoke to ,did]ot (          
,condillac & 8 "w1 & ,i aft]w>ds br\ght 
!m acqua9t$ ) ea* o!r4  ,!y 7 wor?y (   
ea* o!r's e/eem1 & 7 pres5tly on ! mo/  
fri5dly t]ms4  ,did]ot p]suad$ !        
booksell]1 ,dur&1 to take ! manuscript f
 ! abbe1 & ?is great metaphysician      
receiv$ = 8 fir/ "w1 & almo/ z a favor1 
a hundr$ cr[ns1 :i* p]haps he w\ld n h  
obta9$ )\t my assi/ance4  ,z we liv$ 9 a
 qu>t] ( ! t[n v di/ant f ea* o!r1 we   
all assembl$ once a week at ! ,palais   

,royal1 & w5t to d9e at ! ,hotel du     
,pani] ,fleuri4  ,^! little weekly d9n]s
 mu/ h be5 extremely pleas+ to ,did]ot2 
= he :o fail$ 9 almo/ all 8 appo9tm5ts  
nev] miss$ "o ( ^!4  ,at our little     
meet+ ,i =m$ ! plan ( a p]iodical pap]1 
entitl$ 'le ,p]sifleur'--,! ,je]] --:i* 
,did]ot & ,i 7 alt]nately to write4  ,i 
sket*$ out ! fir/ %eet1 & ?is br\ght me 
acqua9t$ ) ,d',alemb]t1 to :om ,did]ot  
_h m5tion$ x4  ,un=ese5 ev5ts fru/rat$  
our int5tion1 & ! project 0 c>ri$ no    
fur!r4  ,^! two au?ors _h j und]tak5 !  
',dictionnaire ,encyclop$ique'1 :i* at  
fir/ 0 int5d$ to be no?+ m ?an a k9d (  
translation ( ,*amb]s1 some?+ l t ( !   
,m$ical ,diction>y ( ,james1 :i* ,did]ot
 _h j f9i%$4  ,did]ot 0 desir\s ,i %\ld 
d some?+ 9 ?is second und]tak+1 &       
propos$ to me ! musical "p1 :i* ,i      
accept$4  ,?is ,i execut$ 9 great ha/e1 
& consequ5tly v ill1 9 ! ?ree mon?s he  
_h giv5 me1 z well z all ! au?ors :o 7  
engag$ 9 ! "w4  ,b ,i 0 ! only p]son 9  
read9ess at ! "t prescrib$4  ,i gave him

 my manuscript1 :i* ,i _h copi$ by a    
laquais1 belong+ to ,m4 de ,francueil ( 
! "n ( ,dupont1 :o wrote v well4  ,i    
paid him t5 cr[ns out ( my own pocket1 &
 ^! h nev] be5 reimburs$ me4  ,did]ot _h
 promis$ me a retribution on ! "p ( !   
booksell]s1 ( :i* he has nev] s9ce spok5
 to me nor ,i to him4  ,?is und]tak+ ( !
 ',encyclop$ie' 0 int]rupt$ by 8        
imprisonm5t4  ,! ',p5sees               
,philosophiquie/' drew ^u him "s        
tempor>y inconv5i5ce :i* _h no          
disagreeable consequ5ces4  ,he did n    
come (f s easily on acc\nt ( ! ',lettre 
sur les ,aveugles'1 --,lett] conc]n+    
bl9d p]sons4--9 :i* !re 0 no?+          
repreh5sible1 b "s p]sonal attacks ) :i*
 ,madam du ,pre ,/4 ,maur1 & ,m4 de     
,raumur 7 displeas$3 = ?is he 0 conf9$ 9
 ! dungeon ( ,v9c5nes4  ,no?+ c describe
 ! angui% ,i felt on acc\nt ( !         
mis=tunes ( my fri5d4  ,my wret*$       
imag9ation1 :i* always sees ev]y?+ 9 !  
wor/ light1 0 t]rifi$4  ,i imag9$ him to
 be conf9$ = ! rema9d] ( 8 life4  ,i 0  

almo/ di/ract$ ) ! ?\ght4  ,i wrote to  
,madam de ,pompad\r1 besee*+ h] to      
release him or obta9 an ord] to %ut me  
up 9 ! same dungeon4  ,i receiv$ no     
answ] to my lett]3 ?is 0 too reasonable 
to be efficaci\s1 & ,i d n flatt] myself
 t x contribut$ to ! alleviation :i*1 "s
 "t aft]w>ds1 0 grant$ to ! sev]ities ( 
! conf9em5t ( poor ,did]ot4  ,_h ?is    
cont9u$ = any l5g? ( "t ) ! same rigor1 
,i v]ily believe ,i %\ld h di$ 9 despair
 at ! foot ( ! hat$ dungeon4  ,h[ev]1 if
 my lett] produc$ b little effect1 ,i   
did n on acc\nt ( x attribute to myself 
mu* m]it1 = ,i m5tion$ x b to v few p1 &
 nev] to ,did]ot himself4