,,! ,,confessions ,,( ,,jean ,,jacques  
,,r\sseau 7,9 #ab books7  ,privately    
,pr9t$ = ! ,memb]s ( ! ,aldus ,society  
,london1 #aijc    ,,book ,,iii4   ,leav+
 ! s]vice ( ,madam de ,v]cellis ne>ly z 
,i _h ent]$ x1 ,i return$ to my =m]     
ho/ess1 & rema9$ !re five or six weeks2 
dur+ :i* "t heal?1 y\?1 & laz9ess1      
frequ5tly r5d]$ my temp]am5t            
importunate4  ,i 0 re/less1 abs5t1 &    
?\ghtful3 ,i wept & sigh$ = a happ9ess  
,i _h no idea (1 ?\gh at ! same "t      
highly s5sible ( "s defici5cy4  ,?is    
situation is indescribable1 few m5 c ev5
 =m any conception ( x1 because1 9      
g5]al1 !y h prev5t$ t pl5itude ( life1  
at once torm5t+ & delici\s4 ,my ?\ghts 7
 incessantly occupi$ ) girls & wom51 b 9
 a mann] peculi> to myself3 ^! ideas    
kept my s5ses 9 a p]petual &            
disagreeable activity1 ?\gh1 =tunately1 
!y did n po9t out ! means ( deliv]ance4 
,i w\ld h giv5 my life to h met ) a     
,miss ,goton1 b ! "t 0 pa/ 9 :i* ! play 
( infancy pr$om9at$2 increase ( ye>s _h 

introduc$ %ame1 ! insep>able companion (
 a consci\s deviation f rectitude1 :i* s
 confirm$ my natural timidity z to r5d] 
x inv9cible2 & nev]1 ei!r at t "t or    
s9ce1 c\ld ,i prevail on myself to (f] a
 proposition favorable to my wi%es      
7unless 9 a mann] con/ra9$ to x by      
previ\s advances7 ev5 ) ^? ^: scruples  
,i _h no cause to dread4  ,my /ay at    
,madam de ,v]cellis's _h procur$ me "s  
acqua9tance1 :i* ,i ?\ght might be      
s]viceable to me1 & !re=e wi%$ to reta94
 ,among o!rs1 ,i sometimes visit$ a     
,savoy>d abbe1 ,m4 ,gaime1 :o 0 tutor to
 ! ,c\nt ( ,mel>$e's *ildr54  ,he 0 "y1 
& n mu* kn[n1 b possess$ an excell5t    
cultivat$ und]/&+1 ) great probity1 & 01
 altoge!r1 "o ( ! be/ m5 ,i ev] knew4   
,he 0 incapable ( do+ me ! s]vice ,i !n 
/ood mo/ 9 ne$ (1 n hav+ suffici5t      
int]e/ to procure me a situation1 b f   
him ,i reap$ advantages f> m preci\s1   
:i* h be5 useful to me ?r\gh life1      
lessons ( pure morality1 & maxims ( s\nd
 judgm5t4  ,9 ! successive ord] ( my    

incl9ations & ideas1 ,i _h ev] be5 too  
high or too l[4  ,a*illes or ,!rsites2  
sometimes a h]o1 at o!rs a villa94  ,m4 
,gaime took pa9s to make me prop]ly     
acqua9t$ ) myself1 )\t sp>+ or giv+ me  
too mu* disc\ragem5t4  ,he spoke 9      
advantage\s t]ms ( my disposition &     
tal5ts1 add+1 t he =esaw ob/acles :i*   
w\ld prev5t my pr(it+ by !m2 ?us1       
accord+ to him1 !y 7 to s]ve less z /eps
 by :i* ,i %\ld m\nt to =tune1 ?an z    
res\rces :i* might enable me to exi/ )\t
 "o4  ,he gave me a true picture ( human
 life1 ( :i*1 hi!rto1 ,i _h =m$ b a v   
errone\s idea1 tea*+ me1 t a man (      
und]/&+1 ?\gh de/9$ to exp]i5ce adv]se  
=tune1 might1 by skilful managem5t1     
arrive at happ9ess2 t !re 0 no true     
felicity )\t virtue1 :i* 0 practicable 9
 e situation4  ,he greatly dim9i%$ my   
admiration ( gr&eur1 by prov+ t ^? 9 a  
sup]ior situation are nei!r bett] nor   
happi] ?an ^? !y comm&4  ,"o ( 8 maxims 
has frequ5tly return$ to my memory3 x 01
 t if we c\ld truly read ! he>ts ( o!rs 

we %\ld feel m incl9ation to desc5d ?an 
rise3 ?is reflection1 ! tru? ( :i* is   
/rik+ )\t extravagance1 ,i h f\nd (     
great utility1 9 ! v>i\s exig5ces ( my  
life1 z x t5d$ to make me satisfi$ ) my 
condition4  ,he gave me ! fir/ j        
conception ( relative duties1 :i* my    
high-fl[n imag9ation _h ev] pictur$ 9   
extremes1 mak+ me s5sible t ! en?usiasm 
( sublime virtues is ( little use 9     
society2 t :ile endeavor+ to rise too   
high we are 9 dang] ( fall+2 & t a      
virtu\s & uni=m dis*>ge ( little duties 
requires z great a degree ( =titude z   
actions :i* are call$ h]oic1 & w\ld at !
 same "t procure m honor & happ9ess4  ,t
 x 0 inf9itely m desirable to possess ! 
la/+ e/eem ( ^? ab\t u1 ?an at int]vals 
to attract admiration4  ,9 prop]ly      
arrang+ ! v>i\s duties betwe5 man & man1
 x 0 necess>y to asc5d to pr9ciples2 !  
/ep ,i _h rec5tly tak51 & ( :i* my      
pres5t situation 0 ! consequ5ce1        
naturally l$ u to speak ( religion4  ,x 
w easily be conceiv$ t ! hone/ ,m4      

,gaime 01 9 a great measure1 ! orig9al (
 ! ,savoy>d ,vic>2 prud5ce only oblig+  
him to deliv] 8 s5tim5ts1 on c]ta9      
po9ts1 ) m caution & res]ve1 & expla9   
himself ) less fre$om2 b 8 s5tim5ts &   
c\ncils 7 ! same1 n ev5 except+ 8 advice
 to return to my c\ntry2 all 0 precisely
 z ,i h s9ce giv5 x to ! pubic4  ,dwell+
 no long]1 !re=e1 on conv]sations :i*   
ev]yone may see ! sub/ance (1 ,i %all   
only add1 t ^! wise in/ructions 7?\gh !y
 did n produce an imm$iate effect7 7 z s
 _m se$s ( virtue & religion 9 my he>t  
:i* 7 nev] root$ out1 & only requir$ !  
fo/]+ c>es ( fri5d%ip to br+ to         
maturity4  ,?\gh my conv]sation 0 n v   
s9c]e1 ,i 0 affect$ by 8 disc\rses1 & f>
 f be+ we>y1 0 pleas$ ) !m on acc\nt (  
_! cle>ness & simplicity1 b above all   
because 8 he>t seem$ int]e/$ 9 :at he   
said4  ,my disposition is naturally     
t5d]1 ,i h ev] be5 less atta*$ to p = ! 
good !y h really done me ?an = t !y     
design$ to d1 & my feel+s 9 ?is p>ticul>
 h seldom misl$ me3 ?us ,i truly e/eem$ 

,m4 ,gaime4  ,i 0 9 a mann] 8 second    
disciple1 :i* ev5 at t "t 0 ( ine/imable
 s]vice 9 turn+ me f a prop5sity to vice
 into :i* my idl5ess 0 lead+ me4  ,"o   
day1 :5 ,i lea/ expect$ x1 ,i 0 s5t = by
 ! ,c\nt de la ,roque4  ,hav+ frequ5tly 
call$ at 8 h\se1 )\t be+ able to speak )
 him1 ,i grew we>y1 & suppos+ he _h ei!r
 =got me or reta9$ "s unfavorable       
impression ( me1 return$ no m3 b ,i 0   
mi/ak5 9 bo? ^! conjectures4  ,he _h m  
?an once witness$ ! pleasure ,i took 9  
fulfill+ my duty to 8 aunt3 he _h ev5   
m5tion$ x to h]1 & aft]w>ds spoke ( x1  
:5 ,i no long] ?\ght ( x myself4  ,he   
receiv$ me graci\sly1 say+ t in/ead (   
amus+ me ) useless promises1 he _h s\ght
 to place me to advantage2 t he _h      
succe$$1 & w\ld put me 9 a way to bett] 
my situation1 b ! re/ mu/ dep5d on      
myself4  ,t ! family into :i* he %\ld   
introduce me be+ bo? p[]ful & e/eem$1 ,i
 %\ld ne$ no o!r patrons2 & ?\gh at fir/
 on ! foot+ ( a s]vant1 ,i might be     
assur$1 t if my conduct & s5tim5ts 7    

f\nd above t /ation1 ,i %\ld n long     
rema9 9 x4  ,! end ( ?is disc\rse       
cruelly disappo9t$ ! brilliant hopes !  
beg9n+ _h inspir$4  ,:at6 =ev] a        
footman8 said ,i to myself1 ) a         
bitt]ness :i* confid5ce pres5tly effac$1
 = ,i felt myself too sup]ior to t      
situation to fe> long rema9+ !re4  ,he  
took me to ! ,c\nt de ,gauvon1 ,ma/] ( !
 ,horse to ! ,que51 & ,*ief ( !         
illu/ri\s ,h\se ( ,sol>4  ,! air (      
dignity conspicu\s 9 ?is respectable old
 man1 r5d]$ ! affability ) :i* he       
receiv$ me yet m int]e/+4  ,he que/ion$ 
me ) evid5t int]e/1 & ,i repli$ )       
s9c]ity4  ,he !n told ! ,c\nt de la     
,roque1 t my features 7 agreeable1 &    
promis$ intellect1 :i* he believ$ ,i 0 n
 defici5t 92 b t 0 n en\gh1 & "t mu/ %[ 
! re/2 aft] :i*1 turn+ to me1 he said1  
,*ild1 almo/ all situations are att5d$ )
 difficulties 9 ! beg9n+2 y\rs1 h[ev]1  
%all n h too great a portion ( !m2 be   
prud5t1 & endeavor to please ev]yone1 t 
w be almo/ y\r only employm5t2 = ! re/  

fe> no?+1 y %all be tak5 c>e (4         
,imm$iately aft] he w5t to ! ,m>*ioness 
de ,breil1 8 daught]-9-law1 to :om he   
pres5t$ me1 & !n to ! ,abbe de ,gauvon1 
8 son4  ,i 0 elat$ ) ?is beg9n+1 z ,i   
knew en\gh ( ! _w already to conclude1 t
 s mu* c]emony is n g5]ally us$ at !    
reception ( a footman4  ,9 fact1 ,i 0 n 
treat$ l "o4  ,i d9$ at ! /ew>d's table2
 did n we> a liv]y2 & ! ,c\nt de ,favria
 7a giddy y\?7 hav+ comm&$ me to get    
beh9d 8 coa*1 8 gr&fa!r ord]$ t ,i %\ld 
get beh9d no coa*1 nor foll[ any "o out 
( ! h\se4 ,meantime1 ,i wait$ at table1 
& did1 )9 doors1 ! bus9ess ( a footman2 
b ,i did x1 z x 71 ( my own free w1 )\t 
be+ appo9t$ to any p>ticul> s]vice2 &   
except writ+ "s lett]s1 :i* 7 dictat$ to
 me1 & cutt+ out "s ornam5ts = ! ,c\nt  
de ,favria1 ,i 0 almo/ ! absolute ma/] (
 my "t4  ,?is trial ( my discretion1 :i*
 ,i did n !n p]ceive1 0 c]ta9ly v       
dang]\s1 & n v humane2 = 9 ?is /ate (   
idl5ess ,i might h contract$ vices :i*  
,i %\ld n o!rwise h giv5 into4          

,=tunately1 x did n produce t effect2 my
 memory reta9$ ! lessons ( ,m4 ,gaime1  
!y _h made an impression on my he>t1 &  
,i sometimes escap$ f ! h\se ( my patron
 to obta9 a repetition ( !m4  ,i believe
 ^? :o saw me go+ out1 app>5tly by      
/eal?1 _h no conception ( my bus9ess4   
,no?+ c\ld be m prud5t ?an ! advice he  
gave me respect+ my conduct4  ,my beg9n+
 0 admirable2 s mu* att5tion1 assiduity1
 & zeal1 _h *>m$ ev]yone4  ,! ,abby     
,gaime advis$ me to mod]ate ?is fir/    
ardor1 le/ ,i %\ld relax1 & t relaxation
 %\ld be consid]$ z neglect4  ,y\r sett+
 out1 said he1 is ! rule ( :at w be     
expect$ ( y2 endeavor gradually to      
increase y\r att5tions1 b be cauti\s h[ 
y dim9i% !m4  ,z !y paid b little       
att5tion to my trifl+ tal5ts1 & suppos$ 
,i possess$ no m ?an nature _h giv5 me1 
!re 0 no appe>ance 7not)/&+ ! promises (
 ,c\nt de ,gauvon7 ( my meet+ ) any     
p>ticul> consid]ation4  ,"s objects ( m 
consequ5ce _h int]v5$4  ,! ,m>quis de   
,breil1 son ( ! ,c\nt de ,gauvon1 0 !n  

ambassador at ,vi5na2 "s circum/ances _h
 occurr$ at t c\rt :i* = "s weeks kept !
 family 9 cont9ual agitation1 & left !m 
no "t to ?9k ( me4  ,meantime ,i _h     
relax$ b little 9 my att5tions1 ?\gh "o 
object 9 ! family did me bo? good & h>m1
 mak+ me m secure f ext]ior dissipation1
 b less att5tive to my duty4            
,mademoiselle de ,breil 0 ab\t my own   
age1 tol]ably h&some1 & v fair          
complexion$1 ) black hair1 :i* not)/&+1 
gave h] features t air ( s(tness s      
natural to ! flax51 & :i* my he>t c\ld  
nev] resi/4  ,! c\rt dress1 s favorable 
to y\?1 %[$ h] f9e neck & %ape to       
advantage1 & ! m\rn+1 :i* 0 !n worn1    
seem$ to add to h] beauty4  ,x w be     
said1 a dome/ic %\ld n take notice ( ^! 
?+s2 ,i 0 c]ta9ly to blame1 yet ,i      
p]ceiv$ all ?is1 nor 0 ,i ! only "o2 !  
maitre d' hotel & valet de *ambre spoke 
( h] sometimes at table ) a vulg>ity t  
pa9$ me extremely4  ,my head1 h[ev]1 0 n
 suffici5tly turn$ to all[ ( my be+     
entirely 9 love2 ,i did n =get myself1  

or my situation4 ,i lov$ to see         
,mademoiselle de ,breil2 to he> h] utt] 
any?+ t m>k$ wit1 s5se1 or good humor3  
my ambition1 conf9$ to a desire ( wait+ 
on h]1 nev] exce$$ its j rights4  ,at   
table ,i 0 ev] att5tive to make ! mo/ ( 
!m2 if h] footman quitt$ h] *air1 ,i    
in/antly suppli$ 8 place2 9 default (   
?is1 ,i /ood fac+ h]1 seek+ 9 h] eyes   
:at %e 0 ab\t to ask =1 & wat*+ ! mom5t 
to *ange h] plate4  ,:at w\ld ,i n h    
giv5 to he> h] comm&1 to h h] look at1  
or speak ! smalle/ ^w to me6 b no1 ,i _h
 ! mortification to be b5ea? h] reg>d2  
%e did n ev5 p]ceive ,i 0 !re4  ,h]     
bro!r1 :o frequ5tly spoke to me :ile at 
table1 hav+ "o day said some?+ :i* ,i   
did n consid] oblig+1 ,i made him s ar* 
& well-turn$ an answ]1 t x drew h]      
att5tion2 %e ca/ h] eyes ^u me1 & ?is   
glance 0 suffici5t to fill me )         
transport4  ,! next day1 a second       
occasion pres5t$ itself1 :i* ,i         
=tunately made use (4  ,a great d9n] 0  
giv52 & ,i saw1 ) a/oni%m5t1 = ! fir/   

"t1 ! maitre d' hotel wait+ at table1 ) 
a sword by 8 side1 & hat on 8 head4  ,by
 *ance1 ! disc\rse turn$ on ! motto ( ! 
h\se ( ,sol>1 :i* 01 ) ! arms1 work$ 9 !
 tape/ry3 ',tel fi]t qui ne fue pas'4   
,z ! ,pi$montese are n 9 g5]al v p]fect 
9 ! ,fr5* language1 !y f\nd fault ) !   
or?ography1 say+1 t 9 ! ^w fi]t !re %\ld
 be no 't'4  ,! old ,c\nt de ,gauvon 0  
go+ to reply1 :5 happ5+ to ca/ 8 eyes on
 me1 he p]ceiv$ ,i smil$ )\t d>+ to say 
any?+2 he imm$iately ord]$ me to speak  
my op9ion4  ,i !n said1 ,i did n ?9k !  
't' sup]flu\s1 'fi]t' be+ an old ,fr5*  
^w1 n d]iv$ f ! n\n 'f]us'1 pr\d1       
?reat5+2 b f ! v]b 'f]it'1 he /rikes1 he
 w\nds2 ! motto1 !re=e1 did n appe> to  
mean1 "s ?reat1 b1 ',"s /rike :o d n    
kill'4  ,! :ole company fix$ _! eyes on 
me1 !n on ea* o!r1 )\t speak+ a ^w2 nev]
 0 a great] degree ( a/oni%m5t2 b :at   
mo/ flatt]$ me1 0 an air ( satisfaction 
:i* ,i p]ceiv$ on ! c\nt5ance (         
,mademoiselle de ,breil4  ,?is scornful 
lady deign$ to ca/ on me a second look  

at lea/ z valuable z ! =m]1 & turn+ to  
h] gr&fa!r1 appe>$ to wait ) impati5ce =
 ! praise t 0 due to me1 & :i* he fully 
be/[$1 ) su* app>5t satisfaction1 t x 0 
eag]ly *orus$ by ! :ole table4  ,?is    
int]val 0 %ort1 b delightful 9 _m       
respects2 x 0 "o ( ^? mom5ts s r>ely met
 )1 :i* place ?+s 9 _! natural ord]1 &  
rev5ge depress$ m]it = ! injuries (     
=tune4  ,"s m9utes aft] ,mademoiselle de
 ,breil aga9 rais$ h] eyes1 desir+ me ) 
a voice ( timid affability to give h] "s
 dr9k4  ,x w easily be suppos$ ,i did n 
let h] wait1 b advanc+ t[>ds h]1 ,i 0   
seiz$ ) su* a trembl+1 t hav+ fill$ !   
glass too full1 ,i spill$ "s ( ! wat] on
 h] plate1 & ev5 on h]self4  ,h] bro!r  
ask$ me1 giddily1 :y ,i trembl$ ?us8    
,?is "q increas$ my confusion1 :ile !   
face ( ,mademoiselle de ,breil 0 suffus$
 ) a crimson blu%4  ,"h end$ ! romance2 
:]e x may be rem>k$ 7z ) ,madam ,basile1
 & o!rs 9 ! cont9uation ( my life7 t ,i 
0 n =tunate 9 ! conclusion ( my am\rs4  
,9 va9 ,i plac$ myself 9 ! ante*amb] (  

,madam de ,breil1 ,i c\ld n obta9 "o m>k
 ( att5tion f h] daught]2 %e w5t 9 & out
 )\t look+ at me1 nor _h ,i ! confid5ce 
to raise my eyes to h]2 ,i 0 ev5 s      
fooli%ly /upid1 t "o day1 on dropp+ h]  
glove z %e pass$1 in/ead ( seiz+ & cov]+
 x ) kisses1 z ,i w\ld gladly h done1 ,i
 did n d>e to quit my place1 b suff]$ x 
to be tak5 up by a great booby ( a      
footman1 :om ,i c\ld will+ly h knock$   
d[n = 8 (fici\sness4 ,to complete my    
timidity1 ,i p]ceiv$ ,i _h n ! good     
=tune to please ,madam de ,breil2 %e n  
only nev] ord]$1 b ev5 reject$1 my      
s]vices2 & hav+ twice f\nd me 9 h]      
ante*amb]1 ask$ me1 dryly1 ,if ,i _h    
no?+ to d8  ,i 0 oblig$1 !re=e1 to      
r5\nce ?is de> ante*amb]2 at fir/ x     
caus$ me "s uneas9ess1 b o!r ?+s        
int]v5+1 ,i pres5tly ?\ght no m ( x4  ,!
 disda9 ( ,madam de ,breil 0 fully      
comp5sat$ by ! k9dness ( h] fa!r-9-law1 
:o at l5g? began to ?9k ( me4  ,! ev5+  
aft] ! ent]ta9m5t1 ,i h already m5tion$1
 he _h a conv]sation ) me t la/$ half an

 h\r1 :i* appe>$ to satisfy him1 &      
absolutely en*ant$ me4  ,?is good man _h
 less s5se ?an ,madam de ,v]cellis1 b   
possess$ m feel+2 ,i !re=e succe$$ mu*  
bett] ) him4  ,he bade me atta* myself  
to 8 son1 ! ,abbe ,gauvon1 :o _h an     
e/eem = me1 :i*1 if ,i took c>e to      
cultivate1 might be s]viceable 9 furni%+
 me ) :at 0 necess>y to complete _!     
views = my future e/abli%m5t4  ,! next  
morn+ ,i flew to ,m4 ! ,abbe1 :o did n  
receive me z a s]vant1 b made me sit by 
8 fireside1 & que/ion$ me ) great       
affability4  ,he soon f\nd t my         
education1 :i* _h attempt$ _m ?+s1 _h   
complet$ none2 b obs]v+ t ,i und]/ood   
some?+ ( ,lat91 he und]took to tea* me  
m1 & appo9t$ me to att5d him e morn+4   
,?us1 by "o ( ! :imsicalities :i* h m>k$
 ! :ole c\rse ( my life1 at once above &
 bel[ my natural situation1 ,i 0 pupil &
 footman 9 ! same h\se3 & ?\gh 9        
s]vitude1 _h a preceptor ^: bir? entitl$
 him to supply t place only to ! *ildr5 
( k+s4  ,! ,abbe de ,gauvon 0 a y\ng]   

son1 & design$ by 8 family = a bi%opric1
 = :i* reason 8 /udies _h be5 pursu$1   
fur!r ?an is usual ) p ( quality4  ,he  
_h be5 s5t to ! univ]sity ( ,si5na1 :]e 
he _h resid$ "s ye>s1 & f :5ce he _h    
br\ght a good portion ( cruscantism1    
design+ to be t at ,tur9 :i* ! ,abbe de 
,dangeau 0 =m]ly at ,p>is4  ,be+ disgu/$
 ) !ology1 he gave 9 to ! belle-lettres1
 :i* is v frequ5t 9 ,italy1 ) ^? :o h   
ent]$ ! c>e] ( prelacy4  ,he _h /udi$ ! 
poets1 & wrote tol]able ,lat9 & ,italian
 v]ses2 9 a ^w1 8 ta/e 0 calculat$ to =m
 m9e1 & give "s ord] to t *aos (        
insignificant tra% ) :i* my bra9 0      
encumb]$2 b :e!r my prat+ _h misl$ him1 
or t he c\ld n support ! tr\ble ( tea*+ 
! elem5t>y p>ts ( ,lat91 he put me at   
fir/ too high2 & ,i _h sc>cely translat$
 a few fables ( ,pho$rus be=e he put me 
into ,virgil1 :]e ,i c\ld h>dly und]/&  
any?+4  ,x w be se5 h]eaft] t ,i 0 de/9$
 frequ5tly to le>n ,lat91 b nev] to     
atta9 x4  ,i labor$ ) assiduity1 & !    
abbe be/[$ 8 att5tion ) a degree (      

k9dness1 ! remembrance ( :i*1 ev5 at ?is
 "t1 bo? int]e/s & s(t5s me4  ,i pass$ !
 great] "p ( ! morn+ ) him z mu* = my   
own in/ruction z 8 s]vice2 n t he ev]   
p]mitt$ me to p]=m any m5ial (fice1 b to
 copy1 or write f 8 dictat+2 & my       
employm5t ( secret>y 0 m useful ?an t ( 
s*ol>1 & by ?is means ,i n only le>n$ ! 
,italian 9 its utmo/ purity1 b also     
acquir$ a ta/e = lit]ature1 & "s        
disc]nm5t ( composition1 :i* c\ld n h   
be5 at ,la ,tribu's1 & :i* 0 useful to  
me :5 ,i aft]w>ds wrote alone4  ,at ?is 
p]iod ( my life1 )\t be+ romantic1 ,i   
might reasonably h indulg$ ! hope (     
pref]m5t4  ,! abbe1 ?or\ghly pleas$ )   
me1 express$ 8 satisfaction to ev]yone1 
:ile 8 fa!r _h su* a s+ul> affection =  
me1 t ,i 0 assur$ by ! ,c\nt de ,favria1
 t he _h spok5 ( me to ! k+2 ev5 ,madam 
de ,breil _h laid aside h] disda9ful    
looks2 9 %ort ,i 0 a g5]al favorite1 :i*
 gave great jeal\sy to ! o!r s]vants1 :o
 see+ me honor$ by ! in/ructions ( _!   
ma/]'s son1 7 p]suad$ ,i %\ld n rema9 _!

 equal4  ,z f> z ,i c\ld judge by "s    
words dropp$ at r&om1 & :i* ,i reflect$ 
on aft]w>ds1 x appe>$ to me1 t ! ,h\se (
 ,sol>1 wi%+ to run ! c>e] ( embassies1 
& hop+ p]haps 9 "t to arrive at !       
m9i/ry1 wi%$ to provide !mselves ) a    
p]son ( m]it & tal5ts1 :o dep5d+        
entirely on !m1 might obta9 _!          
confid5ce1 & be ( ess5tial s]vice4  ,?is
 project ( ! ,c\nt de ,gauvon 0         
judici\s1 magnanim\s1 & truly wor?y ( a 
p[]ful nobleman1 equally provid5t &     
g5]\s2 b besides my n see+1 at t "t1 its
 full ext5t1 x 0 f> too rational = my   
bra91 & requir$ too mu* conf9em5t4  ,my 
ridicul\s ambition s\ght = =tune 9 !    
mid/ ( brilliant adv5tures1 & n f9d+ "o 
woman 9 all ?is s*eme1 x appe>$ t$i\s1  
pa9ful & melan*oly2 ?\gh ,i %\ld r h    
?\ght x m honorable on ?is acc\nt1 z !  
species ( m]it g5]ally patroniz$ by wom5
 is c]ta9ly less wor?y t ,i 0 suppos$ to
 possess4  ,ev]y?+ succe$$ to my wi%3 ,i
 _h obta9$1 almo/ =c$1 ! e/eem ( all2 ! 
trial 0 ov]1 & ,i 0 univ]sally consid]$ 

z a "y man ) flatt]+ prospects1 :o 0 n  
at pres5t 9 8 prop] sph]e1 b 0 expect$  
soon to rea* x2 b my place 0 n assign$  
me by man1 & ,i 0 to rea* x by v        
difficult pa?s4  ,i n[ come to "o ( ^?  
*>act]i/ic traits1 :i* are s natural to 
me1 & :i*1 inde$1 ! read] might h obs]v$
 )\t ?is reflection4  ,!re 7 at ,tur9   
sev]al new conv]ts ( my own /amp1 :om ,i
 nei!r lik$ nor wi% to see2 b ,i _h met 
) "s ,g5evese :o 7 n ( ?is description1 
& among o!rs a ,m4 ,muss>d1 nicknam$    
,wryneck1 a m9iature pa9t]1 & a di/ant  
relation4  ,?is ,m4 ,muss>d1 hav+ le>n$ 
my situation at ! ,c\nt de ,gauvon's1   
came to see me1 ) ano!r ,g5evese1 nam$  
,bacle1 :o _h be5 my comrade dur+ my    
appr5tice%ip4  ,?is ,bacle 0 a v        
sprightly1 amus+ "y fell[1 full ( lively
 sallies1 :i* at 8 "t ( life appe>$     
extremely agreeable4  ,at once1 !n1     
behold me delight$ ) ,m4 ,bacle2 *>m$ to
 su* a degree t ,i f\nd x impossible to 
quit him4  ,he 0 %ortly to dep>t =      
,g5eva2 :at a loss _h ,i to su/a96  ,i  

felt ! :ole =ce ( x1 & resolv+ to make !
 be/ use ( ?is preci\s int]val1 ,i      
det]m9$ n to leave him1 or1 r1 he nev]  
quitt$ me1 = my head 0 n yet suffici5tly
 turn$ to ?9k ( quitt+ ! h\se )\t leave1
 b x 0 soon p]ceiv$ t he engross$ my    
:ole "t1 & he 0 accord+ly =bid ! h\se4  
,?is s inc5s$ me1 t =gett+ ev]y?+ b my  
fri5d ,bacle1 ,i w5t nei!r to ! abbe nor
 ! c\nt1 & 0 no long] to be f\nd at     
home4  ,i paid no att5tion to repeat$   
reprim&s1 & at l5g? 0 ?reat5$ )         
dismissal4  ,?is ?reat 0 my ru91 z x    
sugge/$ ! idea t x 0 n absolutely       
necess>y t ,bacle %\ld dep>t alone4  ,f 
t mom5t ,i c\ld ?9k ( no o!r pleasure1  
no o!r situation or happ9ess ?an tak+   
?is j\rney4 ,to r5d] ! felicity /ill m  
complete1 at ! end ( x 7?\gh at an      
imm5se di/ance7 ,i pictur$ to myself    
,madam de ,w>r5s2 = z to return+ to     
,g5eva1 x nev] ent]$ into my imag9ation4
  ,! hills1 fields1 brooks & villages1  
incessantly succe$$ ea* o!r ) new *>ms1 
& ?is delightful jaunt seem$ wor?y to   

absorb my :ole exi/5ce4  ,memory        
recall$1 ) inexpressible pleasure1 h[   
*>m+ ! c\ntry _h appe>$ 9 com+ to ,tur92
 :at !n mu/ x be1 :51 to ! pleasure (   
indep5d5ce1 %\ld be add$ ! company ( a  
good-humor$ comrade ( my own age &      
disposition1 )\t any con/ra9t or        
obligation1 b free to g or /ay z we     
pleas$8  ,w\ld x n be madness to        
sacrifice ! prospect ( s mu* felicity to
 projects ( ambition1 sl[ & difficult 9 
_! execution1 & unc]ta9 9 _! ev5t8  ,b  
ev5 suppos+ !m realiz$1 & 9 _! utmo/    
spl5dor1 !y 7 n wor? "o qu>t] ( an h\r (
 ! sweet pleasure & lib]ty ( y\?4  ,full
 ( ^! wise conclusions1 ,i conduct$     
myself s improp]ly1 t 7n inde$ )\t "s   
tr\ble7 ,i got myself dismiss$2 = on my 
return "o night ! maitre de hotel gave  
me w>n+ on ! "p ( ! c\nt4  ,?is 0       
exactly :at ,i want$2 = feel+1 spite (  
myself1 ! extravagance ( my conduct1 ,i 
wi%$ to excuse x by ! addition (        
inju/ice & +ratitude1 by ?r[+ ! blame on
 o!rs1 & %elt]+ myself "u ! idea (      

necessity4  ,i 0 told ! ,c\nt de ,favria
 wi%$ to speak ) me ! next morn+ be=e my
 dep>ture2 b1 be+ s5sible t my head 0 s 
f> turn$ z to r5d] x possible = me to   
disobey ! injunction1 ! maitre de hotel 
decl9$ pay+ ! money design$ me1 & :i*   
c]ta9ly ,i _h v ill e>n$1 till aft] ?is 
visit2 = my k9d patrons be+ unwill+ to  
place me 9 ! situation ( a footman1 ,i  
_h n any fix$ wages4  ,! ,c\nt de       
,favria1 ?\gh "y & giddy1 talk$ to me on
 ?is occasion 9 ! mo/ s5sible & s]i\s   
mann]3 ,i might add1 if x w\ld n be     
?\ght va91 ) ! utmo/ t5d]ness4  ,he     
rem9d$ me1 9 ! mo/ flatt]+ t]ms1 ( !    
c>es ( 8 uncle1 & int5tions ( 8 gr&fa!r2
 aft] hav+ drawn 9 lively colors :at ,i 
0 sacrific+ to ru91 he (f]$ to make my  
peace1 )\t /ipulat+ any conditions1 b t 
,i %\ld no m see ! wor?less fell[ :o _h 
s$uc$ me4  ,x 0 s app>5t t he did n say 
all ?is ( himself1 t not)/&+ my bl9d    
/upidity1 ,i p[]fully felt ! k9dness (  
my good old ma/]1 b ! de> j\rney 0 too  
firmly pr9t$ on my imag9ation = any     

consid]ation to balance ! *>m4  ,b]eft (
 und]/&+1 firm to my purpose1 ,i h>d5$  
myself aga9/ conviction1 & arrogantly   
answ]$1 t z !y _h ?\ght fit to give me  
w>n+1 ,i _h resolv$ to take x1 &        
conceiv$ x 0 n[ too late to retract1    
s9ce1 :atev] might happ5 to me1 ,i 0    
fully resolv$ n to be driv5 a second "t 
f ! same h\se4  ,! c\nt1 ju/ly irritat$1
 be/[$ on me "s names :i* ,i des]v$1 &  
putt+ me out ( 8 ap>tm5t by ! %\ld]s1   
%ut ! door on me4  ,i dep>t$ triumphant1
 z if ,i _h ga9$ ! greate/ victory1 &   
fe>ful ( su/a9+ a second combat ev5 _h !
 +ratitude to leave ! h\se )\t ?ank+ !  
abbe = 8 k9dness4  ,to =m a j conception
 ( my delirium at t mom5t1 ! excess to  
:i* my he>t is subject to be heat$ by ! 
mo/ trifl+ incid5ts1 & ! ardor ) :i* my 
imag9ation seizes on ! mo/ attractive   
objects %\ld be conceiv$4  ,at ^! times1
 plans ! mo/ ridicul\s1 *ildi%1 & void (
 s5se1 flatt] my favorite idea1 &       
p]suade me t x is reasonable to         
sacrifice ev]y?+ to ! possession ( x4   

,w\ld x be believ$1 t :5 ne> n9ete51 any
 "o c\ld be s /upid z to build 8 hopes (
 future subsi/5ce on an empty phial8  ,=
 example3  ,! ,abbe de ,gauvon _h made  
me a pres5t1 "s weeks be=e1 ( a v pretty
 h]on f\nta91 ) :i* ,i 0 highly         
delight$4  ,play+ ) ?is toy1 & speak+ ( 
our dep>ture1 ! sage ,bacle & myself    
?\ght x might be ( inf9ite advantage1 & 
enable u to l5g!n our j\rney4  ,:at 9 ! 
_w 0 s curi\s z a h]on f\nta98  ,?is    
idea 0 ! f\ndation on :i* we built our  
future =tune3 we 7 to assemble ! c\ntry 
p 9 e village we might pass ?r\gh1 &    
delight !m ) ! sight ( x1 :5 fea/+ &    
good *e] w\ld be sure to p\r on u       
abundantly2 = we 7 bo? firmly p]suad$1 t
 provisions c\ld co/ no?+ to ^? :o grew 
& ga!r$ !m1 & if !y did n /uff          
travell]s1 x 0 d[nright ill-nature4  ,we
 pictur$ 9 all p>ts ent]ta9m5ts & w$d+s1
 reckon+ t )\t any exp5se b w9d f our   
lungs1 & ! wat] ( our f\nta91 we %\ld be
 ma9ta9$ ?r\gh ,pi$mont1 ,savoy1        
,france1 & inde$1 all ! _w ov]4  ,!re 0 

no end to our project$ travels1 & we    
imm$iately direct$ our c\rse nor?w>d1 r 
= ! pleasure ( cross+ ! ,alps1 ?an f a  
suppos$ necessity ( be+ oblig$ to /op at
 any place4  ,su* 0 ! plan on :i* ,i set
 out1 ab&on+ )\t regret1 my preceptors1 
/udies1 & hopes1 ) ! almo/ c]ta9        
atta9m5t ( a =tune1 to lead ! life ( a  
real vagabond4  ,f>ewell to ! capital2  
adieu to ! c\rt1 ambition1 love1 ! fair1
 & all ! great adv5tures into :i* hope  
_h l$ me dur+ ! prec$+ ye>6  ,i dep>t$ )
 my f\nta9 & my fri5d ,bacle1 a purse   
lightly furni%$1 b a he>t ov]-fl[+ )    
pleasure1 & only ?9k+ h[ to enjoy !     
ext5sive felicity :i* ,i suppos$ my     
project encircl$4  ,?is extravagant     
j\rney 0 p]=m$ almo/ z agreeably z ,i _h
 expect$1 ?\gh n exactly on ! same plan2
 n b our f\nta9 highly amus$ ! ho/ess & 
s]vants = "s m9utes at all ! ale-h\ses  
:]e we halt$1 yet we f\nd x equally     
necess>y to pay on our dep>ture2 b t    
gave u no conc]n1 z we nev] ?\ght (     
dep5d+ on x entirely until our money    

%\ld be exp5d$4  ,an accid5t sp>$ u t   
tr\ble1 our f\nta9 0 brok5 ne> ,bramant1
 & 9 good "t1 = we bo? felt 7?\gh )\t   
d>+ to own x to ea* o!r7 t we began to  
be we>y ( x4  ,?is mis=tune r5d]$ u gay]
 ?an ev]2 we laugh$ he>tily at our      
gidd9ess 9 hav+ =gott5 t our clo!s &    
%oes w\ld we> out1 or tru/+ to r5ew !m  
by ! play ( our f\nta94  ,we cont9u$ our
 j\rney z m]rily z we _h begun x1 only  
draw+ fa/] t[>ds t t]m9ation :]e our    
dra9$ purses made x necess>y = u to     
arrive4  ,at ,*amb]y ,i became p5sive2 n
 = ! folly ,i _h committ$1 = nev] did   
any "o ?9k less ( ! pa/1 b on acc\nt ( !
 reception ,i %\ld meet ) f ,madam de   
,w>r5s2 = ,i look$ on h] h\se z my      
pat]nal home4  ,i _h writt5 h] an acc\nt
 ( my reception at ! ,c\nt de ,gauvon's2
 %e knew my expectancies1 &1 9          
congratulat+ me on my good =tune1 _h    
add$ "s wise lessons on ! return ,i     
ought to make = ! k9dness ) :i* !y      
treat$ me4  ,%e look$ on my =tune z     
already made1 if n de/roy$ by my own    

neglig5ce2 :at !n w\ld %e say on my     
arrival8 = x nev] ent]$ my m9d t %e     
might %ut ! door aga9/ me1 b ,i dread$ !
 uneas9ess ,i might give h]2 ,i dread$  
h] reproa*es1 to me m w\nd+ ?an want2 ,i
 resolv$ to be> all 9 sil5ce1 &1 if     
possible to appease h]4  ,i n[ saw no?+ 
b ,madam de ,w>r5s 9 ! :ole univ]se1 &  
to live 9 disgrace ) h] 0 impossible4   
,i 0 mo/ conc]n$ ab\t my companion1 :om 
,i did n wi% to (f5d1 & fe>$ ,i %\ld n  
easily get rid (4  ,i prefac$ ?is       
sep>ation by an affect$ coldness dur+ ! 
la/ day's j\rney4  ,! drole und]/ood me 
p]fectly2 9 fact1 he 0 r giddy ?an      
defici5t 9 po9t ( s5se--,i expect$ he   
w\ld h be5 hurt at my incon/ancy1 b ,i 0
 q mi/ak52 no?+ affect$ my fri5d ,bacle1
 = h>dly _h we set foot 9 t[n1 on our   
arrival 9 ,annecy1 be=e he said1 ,y are 
n[ at home1--embrac$--bade me           
adieu--turn$ on 8 heel1 & disappe>$2 nor
 h ,i ev] he>d ( him s9ce4  ,h[ did my  
he>t beat z ,i approa*$ ! habitation (  
,madam de ,w>r5s6 my legs trembl$ "u me1

 my eyes 7 cl\d$ ) a mi/1 ,i nei!r saw1 
he>d1 nor recollect$ any "o1 & 0 oblig$ 
frequ5tly to /op t ,i might draw brea?1 
& recall my bewild]$ s5ses4  ,0 x fe> ( 
n obta9+ t succor ,i /ood 9 ne$ (1 :i*  
agitat$ me to ?is degree8  ,at ! age ,i 
!n 01 does ! fe> ( p]i%+ ) hung] give   
su* al>ms8  ,no3 ,i decl>e ) z mu* tru? 
z pride1 t x 0 n 9 ! p[] ( int]e/ or    
indig5ce1 at any p]iod ( my life1 to    
exp& or contract my he>t4  ,9 ! c\rse ( 
a pa9ful life1 memorable = its          
vicissitudes1 frequ5tly de/itute ( an   
asylum1 & )\t bread1 ,i h contemplat$1 )
 equal indiff]5ce1 bo? opul5ce & mis]y4 
,9 want ,i might h begg$ or /ol51 z o!rs
 h done1 b nev] c\ld feel di/ress at be+
 r$uc$ to su* necessities4  ,few m5 h   
griev$ m ?an myself1 few h %$ s _m te>s2
 yet nev] did pov]ty1 or ! fe> ( fall+  
into x1 make me heave a sigh or moi/5 my
 eyelids4  ,my s\l1 9 despite ( =tune1  
has only be5 s5sible ( real good & evil1
 :i* did n dep5d on h]2 & frequ5tly1 :5 
9 possession ( ev]y?+ t c\ld make life  

pleas+1 ,i h be5 ! mo/ mis]able (       
mortals4  ,! fir/ glance ( ,madam de    
,w>r5s bani%$ all my fe>s--my he>t leap$
 at ! s\nd ( h] voice2 ,i ?rew myself at
 h] feet1 & 9 transports ( ! mo/ lively 
joy1 press$ my lips ^u h] h&4 ,i am     
ignorant :e!r %e _h receiv$ any rec5t   
in=mation ( me4 ,i discov]$ b little    
surprise on h] c\nt5ance1 & no sorr[4   
,poor *ild6  said %e1 9 an affectionate 
tone1 art ?\ "h aga98 ,i knew y 7 too "y
 = ?is j\rney2 ,i am v glad1 h[ev]1 t x 
did n turn out s bad z ,i appreh5d$4    
,%e !n made me rec\nt my hi/ory2 x 0 n  
long1 & ,i did x fai?fully3 suppress+   
only "s trifl+ circum/ances1 b on ! :ole
 nei!r sp>+ nor excus+ myself4  ,! "q 01
 :]e ,i c\ld lodge3 %e consult$ h] maid 
on ?is po9t--,i h>dly d>$ to brea! dur+ 
! delib]ation2 b :5 ,i he>d ,i 0 to     
sleep 9 ! h\se1 ,i c\ld sc>ce conta9 my 
joy2 & saw ! little bundle ,i br\ght )  
me c>ri$ into my de/9$ ap>tm5t ) mu* !  
same s5sations z ,/4 ,preux saw 8 *aise 
put up at ,madam de ,wolm>'s4  ,to      

complete all1 ,i _h ! satisfaction to   
f9d t ?is favor 0 n to be transitory2 = 
at a mom5t :5 !y ?\ght me att5tive to   
some?+ else1 ,i he>d ,madam de ,w>r5s   
say1 ,!y may talk z !y please1 b s9ce   
,provid5ce has s5t him back1 ,i am      
det]m9$ n to ab&on him4  ,behold me1 !n1
 e/abli%$ at h] h\se2 n1 h[ev]1 t ,i    
date ! happie/ days ( my life f ?is     
p]iod1 b ?is s]v$ to prep>e me = !m4    
,?\gh t s5sibility ( he>t1 :i* enables u
 truly to enjoy our be+1 is ! "w (      
,nature1 & p]haps a m]e effect (        
organization1 yet x requires situations 
to unfold itself1 & )\t a c]ta9         
concurr5ce ( favorable circum/ances1 a  
man born ) ! mo/ acute s5sibility may g 
out ( ! _w )\t ev] hav+ be5 acqua9t$ ) 8
 own temp]am5t4  ,?is 0 my case till t  
"t1 & su* p]haps x might h rema9$ _h ,i 
nev] kn[n ,madam de ,w>r5s1 or ev5 hav+ 
kn[n h]1 _h ,i n rema9$ ) h] long en\gh 
to contract t pleas+ habit (            
affectionate s5tim5ts ) :i* %e inspir$  
me4  ,i d>e affirm1 t ^? :o only love1 d

 n feel ! mo/ *>m+ s5sations we are     
capable (3 ,i am acqua9t$ ) ano!r       
s5tim5t1 less impetu\s1 b a ?\s& times m
 delightful2 sometimes jo9$ ) love1 b   
frequ5tly sep>at$ f x4  ,?is feel+ is n 
simply fri5d%ip2 x is m en*ant+1 m t5d]2
 nor d ,i imag9e x c exi/ betwe5 p]sons 
( ! same sex2 at lea/ ,i h be5 truly a  
fri5d1 if ev] a man 01 & yet nev]       
exp]i5c$ x 9 t k9d4  ,?is di/9ction is n
 suffici5tly cle>1 b w become s h]eaft]3
 s5tim5ts are only di/+ui%able by _!    
effects4  ,madam de ,w>r5s inhabit$ an  
old h\se1 b l>ge en\gh to h a h&some    
sp>e ap>tm5t1 :i* %e made h] draw+-room4
  ,i n[ occupi$ ?is *amb]1 :i* 0 9 !    
passage ,i h be=e m5tion$ z ! place (   
our fir/ meet+4  ,beyond ! brook & g>d5s
 0 a prospect ( ! c\ntry1 :i* 0 by no   
means un9t]e/+ to ! "y inhabitant1 be+ !
 fir/ "t1 s9ce my resid5ce at ,bossey1 t
 ,i _h se5 any?+ be=e my w9d[s b walls1 
ro(s1 or ! dirty /reet4  ,h[ pleas+ !n 0
 ?is novelty6 x help$ to increase !     
t5d]ness ( my disposition1 = ,i look$ on

 ?is *>m+ l&scape z ! gift ( my de>     
patroness1 :o ,i c\ld almo/ fancy _h    
plac$ x !re on purpose = me4  ,peaceably
 seat$1 my eyes pursu$ h] amid/ ! fl[]s 
& ! v]dure2 h] *>ms seem$ to me conf\nd$
 ) ^? ( ! spr+2 my he>t1 till n[        
contract$1 "h f\nd means to exp& itself1
 & my sighs exhal$ freely 9 ?is *>m+    
retreat4  ,! magnific5ce ,i _h be5      
accu/om$ to at ,tur9 0 n to be f\nd at  
,madam de ,w>r5s1 b 9 lieu ( x !re 0    
neatness1 regul>ity1 & a patri>*al      
abundance1 :i* is seldom atta*$ to      
pomp\s o/5tation4 ,%e _h v little plate1
 no *9a1 no game 9 h] kit*51 or =eign   
w9es 9 h] cell>1 b bo? 7 well furni%$1 &
 at e "o's s]vice2 & h] c(fee1 ?\gh s]v$
 9 e>!nw>e cups1 0 excell5t4  ,:oev]    
came to h] h\se 0 invit$ to d9e !re1 &  
nev] did labor]1 mess5g]1 or travell]1  
dep>t )\t refre%m5t4 ,h] family consi/$ 
( a pretty *amb]maid f ,frib\rg1 nam$   
,m]c]et2 a valet f h] own c\ntry call$  
,claude ,anet 7( :om ,i %all speak      
h]eaft]71 a cook1 & two hir$ *airm5 :5  

%e visit$1 :i* seldom happ5$4  ,?is 0 a 
great deal to be done out ( two ?\s&    
livres a ye>2 yet1 ) good managem5t1 x  
might h be5 suffici5t 9 a c\ntry :]e l& 
is extremely good1 & money v sc>ce4     
,un=tunately1 economy 0 nev] h] favorite
 virtue2 %e contract$ debts--paid       
!m--?us h] money pass$ f h& to h& l a   
weav]'s %uttle1 & quickly disappe>$4  ,!
 arrangem5t ( h] h\sekeep+ 0 exactly :at
 ,i %\ld h *os51 & ,i %>$ x )           
satisfaction4  ,i 0 lea/ pleas$ ) !     
necessity ( rema9+ too long at table4   
,madam de ,w>r5s 0 s mu* incommod$ ) !  
fir/ smell ( s\p or meat1 z almo/ to    
occasion fa9t+2 f ?is %e sl[ly recov]$1 
talk+ meantime1 & nev] attempt+ to eat =
 ! fir/ half h\r4  ,i c\ld h d9$ ?rice 9
 ! "t1 & _h ev] f9i%$ my meal long be=e 
%e began2 ,i !n ate aga9 = company2 &   
?\gh by ?is means ,i usually d9$ twice1 
felt no inconv5i5ce f x4  ,9 %ort1 ,i 0 
p]fectly at my ease1 & ! happi] z my    
situation requir$ no c>e4  ,n be+ at ?is
 "t in/ruct$ 9 ! /ate ( h] f9ances1 ,i  

suppos$ h] means 7 adequate to h]       
exp5se2 & ?\gh ,i aft]w>ds f\nd ! same  
abundance1 yet :5 in/ruct$ 9 h] real    
situation1 f9d+ h] p5sion ev]           
anticipat$1 prev5t$ me f enjoy+ ! same  
tranquility4 ,=esight ) me has always   
embitt]$ enjoym5t2 9 va9 ,i saw !       
approa* ( mis=tunes1 ,i 0 nev] ! m      
likely to avoid !m4  ,f ! fir/ mom5t (  
our meet+1 ! s(te/ famili>ity 0 e/abli%$
 betwe5 u3 & 9 ! same degree x cont9u$  
dur+ ! re/ ( h] life4  ,*ild 0 my "n1   
,mamma 0 h]s1 & *ild & mamma we h ev]   
cont9u$1 ev5 aft] a numb] ( ye>s _h     
almo/ effac$ ! app>5t diff]5ce ( age    
betwe5 u4  ,i ?9k ^? names convey an    
exact idea ( our behavior1 ! simplicity 
( our mann]s1 & above all1 ! simil>ity (
 our dispositions4  ,to me %e 0 ! t5d]e/
 ( mo!rs1 ev] pref]r+ my welf>e to h]   
own pleasure2 & if my own satisfaction  
f\nd "s int]e/ 9 my atta*m5t to h]1 x 0 
n to *ange its nature1 b only to r5d] x 
m exquisite1 & infatuate me ) ! *>m (   
hav+ a "m "y & h&some1 :om ,i 0 delight$

 to c>ess3 ,i say lit]ally1 to c>ess1 = 
nev] did x ent] into h] imag9ation to   
d5y me ! t5d]e/ mat]nal kisses &        
ende>m5ts1 or into my he>t to abuse !m4 
,x w be said1 at l5g? our connection 0 (
 a diff]5t k9d3 ,i confess x2 b h       
pati5ce1 t w come 9 its turn4  ,! sudd5 
sight ( h]1 on our fir/ int]view1 0 !   
only truly passionate mom5t %e ev]      
inspir$ me )2 & ev5 t 0 pr9cipally ! "w 
( surprise4  ,) h] ,i _h nei!r          
transports nor desires1 b rema9$ 9 a    
ravi%+ calm1 s5sible ( a happ9ess ,i    
c\ld n def9e1 & ?us c\ld ,i h pass$ my  
:ole life1 or ev5 et]nity1 )\t feel+ an 
in/ant ( uneas9ess4  ,%e 0 ! only p]son 
) :om ,i nev] exp]i5c$ t want (         
conv]sation1 :i* to me is s pa9ful to   
endure4  ,our tete-a-tetes 7 r an       
inexhau/ible *at ?an conv]sation1 :i*   
c\ld only conclude f int]ruption4  ,s f>
 f f9d+ disc\rse difficult1 ,i r ?\ght x
 a h>d%ip to be sil5t2 unless1 :5       
contemplat+ h] projects1 %e sunk into a 
rev]ie2 :5 ,i sil5tly let h] m$itate1 & 

gaz+ on h]1 0 ! happie/ ( m54  ,i _h    
ano!r s+ul> fancy1 :i* 0 t )\t pret5d+  
to ! favor ( a tete-a-tete1 ,i 0        
p]petually seek+ occasion to =m !m1     
enjoy+ su* opportunities ) rapture2 & :5
 importunate visitors broke 9 ^u u1 no  
matt] :e!r x 0 man or woman1 ,i w5t out 
murmur+1 n be+ able to rema9 a second>y 
object 9 h] company2 !n1 c\nt+ ! m9utes 
9 h] ante*amb]1 ,i us$ to curse ^!      
et]nal visitors1 ?9k+ x inconceivable h[
 !y c\ld f9d s mu* to say1 because ,i _h
 /ill m4  ,if ev] ,i felt ! full =ce (  
my atta*m5t1 x 0 :5 ,i did n see h]4    
,:5 9 h] pres5ce1 ,i 0 only cont5t2 :5  
abs5t1 my uneas9ess rea*$ almo/ to      
melan*oly1 & a wi% to live ) h] gave me 
emotions ( t5d]ness ev5 to te>s4  ,nev] 
%all ,i =get "o great holiday1 :ile %e 0
 at vesp]s1 :5 ,i took a walk out ( !   
city1 my he>t full ( h] image1 & ! ard5t
 wi% to pass my life ) h]4 ,i c\ld      
easily en\gh see t at pres5t ?is 0      
impossible2 t ! happ9ess ,i enjoy$ w\ld 
be ( %ort duration1 & ?is idea gave to  

my contemplations a t9cture ( melan*oly1
 :i*1 h[ev]1 0 n gloomy1 b temp]$ ) a   
flatt]+ hope4  ,! r++ ( bells1 :i* ev]  
p>ticul>ly affects me1 ! s++ ( birds1 ! 
f95ess ( ! day1 ! beauty ( ! l&scape1 ! 
scatt]$ c\ntry h\ses1 among :i* 9 idea  
,i plac$ our future dwell+1 altoge!r    
/ruck me ) an impression s lively1 t5d]1
 melan*oly1 & p[]ful1 t ,i saw myself 9 
ec/asy transport$ into t happy "t &     
abode1 :]e my he>t1 possess+ all !      
felicity x c\ld desire1 might ta/e x )  
raptures inexpressible4  ,i nev]        
recollect to h enjoy$ ! future ) su* =ce
 ( illusions z at t "t2 & :at has       
p>ticul>ly /ruck me 9 ! recollection (  
?is rev]ie1 is t :5 realiz$1 ,i f\nd my 
situation exactly z ,i _h imag9$ x4  ,if
 ev] wak+ dream _h an appe>ance ( a     
prophetic vision1 x 0 assur$ly ?is2 ,i 0
 only deceiv$ 9 its imag9>y duration1 = 
days1 ye>s1 & life itself1 pass$ ideally
 9 p]fect tranquility1 :ile ! reality   
la/$ b a mom5t4  ,alas6  my mo/ durable 
happ9ess 0 b z a dream1 :i* ,i _h no    

soon] _h a glimpse (1 ?an ,i in/antly   
awoke4  ,i "k n :5 ,i %\ld h done1 if ,i
 0 to ent] into a detail ( all ! follies
 t affection = my de> ,madam de ,w>r5s  
made me commit4  ,:5 abs5t f h]1 h[ (t5 
h ,i kiss$ ! b$ on a supposition t %e _h
 slept !re2 ! curta9s & all ! furniture 
( my *amb]1 on recollect+ !y 7 h]s1 & t 
h] *>m+ h&s _h t\*$ !m2 nay1 ! floor    
itself1 :5 ,i consid]$ %e _h walk$ !re4 
,sometimes ev5 9 h] pres5ce1            
extravagancies escap$ me1 :i* only ! mo/
 viol5t passions seem$ capable (        
inspir+2 9 a ^w1 !re 0 b "o ess5tial    
diff]5ce to di/+ui% me f an absolute    
lov]1 & t p>ticul> r5d]s my situation   
almo/ inconceivable4  ,i _h return$ f   
,italy1 n absolutely z ,i w5t !re1 b z  
no "o ( my age1 p]haps1 ev] did be=e1   
be+ equally unacqua9t$ ) wom54  ,my     
ard5t con/itution _h f\nd res\rces 9 ^? 
means by :i* y\? ( my disposition       
sometimes pres]ve _! purity at ! exp5se 
( heal?1 vigor1 & frequ5tly ( life      
itself4  ,my local situation %\ld       

likewise be consid]$--liv+ ) a pretty   
woman1 *]i%+ h] image 9 ! bottom ( my   
he>t1 see+ h] dur+ ! :ole day1 at night 
surr\nd$ ) objects t recall$ h]         
incessantly to my remembrance1 & sleep+ 
9 ! b$ :]e ,i knew %e _h slept4 ,:at a  
situation6  ,:o c read ?is )\t suppos+  
me on ! br9k ( ! grave8  ,b q ! contr>y2
 t :i* might h ru9$ me1 act$ z a        
pres]vative1 at lea/ = a "t4            
,intoxicat$ ) ! *>m ( liv+ ) h]1 ) !    
ard5t desire ( pass+ my life !re1 abs5t 
or pres5t ,i saw 9 h] a t5d] "m1 an     
amiable si/]1 a respect$ fri5d1 b no?+  
m2 meantime1 h] image fill$ my he>t1 &  
left room f> no o!r object4  ,! extreme 
t5d]ness ) :i* %e inspir$ me exclud$ e  
o!r woman f my consid]ation1 & pres]v$  
me f ! :ole sex3 9 a ^w1 ,i 0 virtu\s1  
because ,i lov$ h]4  ,let ^! p>ticul>s1 
:i* ,i rec\nt b indiff]5tly1 be         
consid]$1 & !n let any "o judge :at k9d 
( atta*m5t ,i _h = h]3 = my "p1 all ,i c
 say1 is1 t if x hi!rto appe>s          
extraord9>y1 x w appe> mu* m s 9 !      

sequel4  ,my "t pass$ 9 ! mo/ agreeable 
mann]1 ?\gh occupi$ 9 a way :i* 0 by no 
means calculat$ to please me2 su* z hav+
 projects to dige/1 bills to write fair1
 receipts to transcribe1 h]bs to pick1  
drugs to p\nd1 or di/illations to att5d2
 & 9 ! mid/ ( all ?is1 came cr[ds (     
travell]s1 begg>s1 & visitors ( all     
d5om9ations4  ,"s times x 0 necess>y to 
conv]se at ! same "t ) a soldi]1 an     
apo!c>y1 a preb5d>y1 a f9e lady1 & a lay
 bro!r4  ,i grumbl$1 swore1 & wi%$ all  
?is tr\blesome m$ley at ! devil1 :ile %e
 seem$ to enjoy x1 laugh+ at my *agr9   
till ! te>s ran d[n h] *eeks4  ,:at     
excit$ h] mir? /ill m1 0 to see t my    
ang] 0 increas$ by n be+ able myself to 
refra9 f laught]4  ,^! little int]vals1 
9 :i* ,i enjoy$ ! pleasure ( grumbl+1 7 
*>m+2 & if1 dur+ ! dispute1 ano!r       
importunate visitor arriv$1 %e w\ld add 
to h] amusem5t by malici\sly prolong+ ! 
visit1 meantime ca/+ glances at me = :i*
 ,i c\ld almo/ h beat h]2 nor c\ld %e   
)\t difficulty refra9 f laught] on see+ 

my con/ra9$ polit5ess1 ?\gh e mom5t     
glanc+ at h] ! look ( a fury1 :ile1 ev5 
9 spite ( myself1 ,i ?\ght ! sc5e truly 
div]t+4  ,all ?is1 )\t be+ pleas+ 9     
itself1 contribut$ to amuse1 because x  
made up a "p ( a life :i* ,i ?\ght      
delightful4  ,no?+ t 0 p]=m$ ar\nd me1  
no?+ t ,i 0 oblig$ to d1 suit$ my ta/e1 
b ev]y?+ suit$ my he>t2 & ,i believe1 at
 l5g?1 ,i %\ld h lik$ ! /udy ( m$ic9e1  
_h n my natural di/a/e to x p]petually  
engag$ u 9 :imsical sc5es1 t prev5t$ my 
?9k+ ( x 9 a s]i\s light4  ,x 01 p]haps1
 ! fir/ "t t ?is art produc$ mir?4  ,i  
pret5d$ to di/+ui% a physical book by   
its smell1 & :at 0 m div]t+1 0 seldom   
mi/ak54  ,madam de ,w>r5s made me ta/e !
 mo/ nause\s drugs2 9 va9 ,i ran1 or    
endeavor$ to def5d myself2 spite (      
resi/ance or wry faces1 spite ( my      
/ruggles1 or ev5 ( my tee?1 :5 ,i saw h]
 *>m+ f+]s approa* my lips1 ,i 0 oblig$ 
to give up ! conte/4  ,:5 %ut up 9 an   
ap>tm5t ) all h] m$ical app>atus1 any "o
 :o _h he>d u runn+ & %\t+ amid/ peals (

 laught] w\ld r h imag9$ we _h be5 act+ 
a f>ce ?an prep>+ opiates or elixirs4   
,my "t1 h[ev]1 0 n entirely pass$ 9 ^!  
fool]ies2 9 ! ap>tm5t :i* ,i occupi$ ,i 
f\nd a few books3 !re 0 ! ,spectator1   
,puff5dorf1 ,/4 ,ev]emond1 & ! ,h5riade4
  ,?\gh ,i _h n my old passion = books1 
yet ,i amus$ myself ) read+ a "p ( !m4  
,! ,spectator 0 p>ticul>ly pleas+ &     
s]viceable to me4  ,! ,abbe de ,gauvon  
_h taught me to read less eag]ly1 & ) a 
great] degree ( att5tion1 :i* r5d]$ my  
/udies m s]viceable4  ,i accu/om$ myself
 to reflect on elocution & ! elegance ( 
composition2 ex]cis+ myself 9 disc]n+   
pure ,fr5* f my prov9cial idiom4 ,=     
example1 ,i correct$ an or?ographical   
fault 7:i* ,i _h 9 common ) all         
,g5evese7 by ^! two l9es ( ! ,h5riade3  
,soit qu' un anci5t respect p\r le sang 
de leurs maitres1      ,p>lat encore p\r
 lui dans le coeur de ces traitres  ,i 0
 /ruck ) ! ^w 'p>lat'1 & f\nd a 't' 0   
necess>y to =m ! ?ird p]son ( !         
subjunctive1 :]eas ,i _h always writt5 &

 pron\nc$ x p>la1 z 9 ! pres5t ( !      
indicative4  ,sometimes my /udies 7 !   
subject ( conv]sation ) ,madam de       
,w>r5s2 sometimes ,i read to h]1 9 :i*  
,i f\nd great satisfaction2 & z ,i      
endeavor$ to read well1 x 0 extremely   
s]viceable to me4 ,i h already obs]v$ t 
h] m9d 0 cultivat$2 h] und]/&+ 0 at ?is 
"t 9 its m]idian4  ,sev]al p ( le>n+    
hav+ be5 assidu\s to +ratiate !mselves1 
_h taught h] to di/+ui% works ( m]it2 b 
h] ta/e 7if ,i may s express myself7 0 r
 ,prote/ant2 ev] speak+ w>mly ( ,bayle1 
& highly e/eem+ ,/4 ,evremond1 ?\gh long
 s9ce almo/ =gott5 9 ,france3 b ?is did 
n prev5t h] hav+ a ta/e = lit]ature1 or 
express+ h] ?\ghts ) elegance4  ,%e _h  
be5 br\ght up ) polite company1 & com+  
"y to ,savoy1 by associat+ ) p ( ! be/  
fa%ion1 _h lo/ ! affect$ mann]s ( h] own
 c\ntry1 :]e ! ladies mi/ake wit = s5se1
 & only speak 9 epigram4  ,?\gh %e _h   
se5 ! c\rt b sup]ficially1 t glance 0   
suffici5t to give h] a compet5t idea (  
x2 & not)/&+ secret jeal\sies & !       

murmurs excit$ by h] conduct & runn+ 9  
debt1 %e ev] pres]v$ fri5ds !re1 & nev] 
lo/ h] p5sion4  ,%e knew ! _w1 & 0      
useful4  ,?is 0 h] favorite !me 9 our   
conv]sations1 & 0 directly opposite to  
my *im]ical ideas1 ?\gh ! k9d (         
in/ruction ,i p>ticul>ly _h occasion =4 
,we read ,bruy]e toge!r2 he pleas$ h] m 
?an ,ro*ef\cault1 :o is a dull1         
melan*oly au?or1 p>ticul>ly to y\?1 :o  
are n fond ( contemplat+ man z he really
 is4  ,9 moraliz+ %e sometimes bewild]$ 
h]self by ! l5g? ( h] disc\rse2 b by    
kiss+ h] lips or h& f "t to "t ,i 0     
easily consol$1 & nev] f\nd !m we>isome4
  ,?is life 0 too delightful to be la/+2
 ,i felt ?is1 & ! uneas9ess t ?\ght gave
 me 0 ! only ?+ t di/urb$ my enjoym5t4  
,ev5 9 playfulness %e /udi$ my          
disposition1 obs]v$ & int]rogat$ me1 =m+
 projects = my future =tune1 :i* ,i c\ld
 readily h disp5s$ )4  ,happily x 0 n   
suffici5t to "k my disposition1         
incl9ations & tal5ts2 x 0 likewise      
necess>y to f9d a situation 9 :i* !y    

w\ld be useful1 & ?is 0 n ! "w ( a day4 
,ev5 ! prejudices ?is good woman _h     
conceiv$ 9 favor ( my m]it put (f ! "t (
 call+ x into action1 by r5d]+ h] m     
difficult 9 ! *oice ( means2 ?us 7?anks 
to ! good op9ion %e ent]ta9$ ( me71     
ev]y?+ answ]$ to my wi%2 b a *ange soon 
happ5$ :i* put a p]iod to my            
tranquility4  ,a relation ( ,madam de   
,w>r5s1 nam$ ,m4 d',aubonne1 came to see
 h]2 a man ( great und]/&+ & intrigue1  
be+1 l h]1 fond ( projects1 ?\gh c>eful 
n to ru9 himself by !m4  ,he _h (f]$    
,c>d9al ,fleury a v compact plan = a    
lott]y1 :i*1 h[ev]1 _h n be5 approv$ (1 
& he 0 n[ go+ to propose x to ! c\rt (  
,tur91 :]e x 0 accept$ & put into       
execution4  ,he rema9$ "s "t at ,annecy1
 :]e he fell 9 love ) ! ,int5dant's     
lady1 :o 0 v amiable1 mu* to my ta/e & !
 only p]son ,i saw ) pleasure at ! h\se 
( ,madam de ,w>r5s4  ,m4 d',aubonne saw 
me1 ,i 0 /rongly recomm5d$ by 8         
relation2 he promis$1 !re=e1 to "q & see
 :at ,i 0 fit =1 &1 if he f\nd me       

capable to seek me a situation4 ,madam  
de ,w>r5s s5t me to him two or ?ree     
morn+s1 "u pret5se ( messages1 )\t      
acqua9t+ me ) h] real int5tion4  ,he    
spoke to me gayly1 on v>i\s subjects1   
)\t any appe>ance ( obs]vation2 8       
famili>ity pres5tly set me talk+1 :i* by
 8 *e]ful & je/+ mann] he enc\rag$ )\t  
re/ra9t--,i 0 absolutely *>m$ ) him4  ,!
 result ( 8 obs]vations 01 t not)/&+ !  
animation ( my c\nt5ance1 & promis+     
ext]ior1 if n absolutely silly1 ,i 0 a  
lad ( v little s5se1 & )\t ideas (      
le>n+2 9 f9e1 v ignorant 9 all respects1
 & if ,i c\ld arrive at be+ curate ( "s 
village1 x 0 ! utmo/ honor ,i ought ev] 
to aspire to4  ,su* 0 ! acc\nt he gave (
 me to ,madam de ,w>r5s4  ,?is 0 n !    
fir/ "t su* an op9ion _h be5 =m$ ( me1  
nei!r 0 x ! la/2 ! judgm5t ( ,m4        
,mass]on hav+ be5 repeat$ly confirm$4   
,! cause ( ^! op9ions is too mu*        
connect$ ) my "* n to ne$ a p>ticul>    
explanation2 = x w n be suppos$ t ,i c 9
 consci5ce subscribe to !m2 & ) all     

possible imp>tiality1 :atev] ,m4        
,mass]on1 ,m4 d',aubonne & _m o!rs may h
 said1 ,i _c help ?9k+ !m mi/ak54  ,two 
?+s v opposite1 unite 9 me1 & 9 a mann] 
:i* ,i _c myself conceive4  ,my         
disposition is extremely ard5t1 my      
passions lively & impetu\s1 yet my ideas
 are produc$ sl[ly1 ) great emb>rassm5t 
& aft] mu* aft]?\ght4  ,x might be said 
my he>t & und]/&+ d n belong to ! same  
individual4  ,a s5tim5t takes possession
 ( my s\l ) ! rapidity ( lightn+1 b     
in/ead ( illum9at+1 x dazzles & conf\nds
 me2 ,i feel all1 b see no?+2 ,i am w>m1
 b /upid2 to ?9k ,i mu/ be cool4  ,:at  
is a/oni%+1 my conception is cle> &     
p5etrat+1 if n hurri$3 ,i c make        
excell5t impromptus at leisure1 b on !  
in/ant1 c\ld nev] say or d any?+ wor?   
notice4 ,i c\ld hold a tol]able         
conv]sation by ! po/1 z !y say !        
,spani>ds play at *ess1 & :5 ,i read t  
anecdote ( a duke ( ,savoy1 :o turn$    
himself r\nd1 :ile on a j\rney1 to cry  
out 'a votre gorge1 m>*& de ,p>is6'  ,i 

said1 ,"h is a trait ( my "*6  ,?is     
sl[ness ( ?\ght1 jo9$ to vivacity (     
feel+1 ,i am n only s5sible ( 9         
conv]sation1 b ev5 alone4  ,:5 ,i write1
 my ideas are arrang$ ) ! utmo/         
difficulty4  ,!y glance on my imag9ation
 & f]m5t till !y discompose1 heat1 & br+
 on a palpitation2 dur+ ?is /ate (      
agitation1 ,i see no?+ prop]ly1 _c write
 a s+le ^w1 & mu/ wait till x is ov]4   
,ins5sibly ! agitation subsides1 ! *aos 
acquires =m1 & ea* circum/ance takes its
 prop] place4 ,h y nev] se5 an op]a 9   
,italy8 :]e dur+ ! *ange ( sc5e ev]y?+  
is 9 confusion1 ! decorations are       
int]m+l$1 & any "o w\ld suppose t all   
w\ld be ov]?r[n2 yet by little & little1
 ev]y?+ is arrang$1 no?+ appe>s want+1 &
 we feel surpris$ to see ! tumult       
succe$$ by ! mo/ delightful spectacle4  
,?is is a resemblance ( :at passes 9 my 
bra9 :5 ,i attempt to write2 _h ,i      
always wait$ till t confusion 0 pa/1 &  
!n pa9t$1 9 _! natural beauties1 !      
objects t _h pres5t$ !mselves1 few      

au?ors w\ld h surpass$ me4  ,!nce arises
 ! extreme difficulty ,i f9d 9 writ+2 my
 manuscripts1 blott$1 scrat*$1 & sc>cely
 legible1 atte/ ! tr\ble !y co/ me2 nor 
is !re "o ( !m b ,i h be5 oblig$ to     
transcribe f\r or five times be=e x w5t 
to press4  ,nev] c\ld ,i d any?+ :5     
plac$ at a table1 p5 9 h&2 x mu/ be     
walk+ among ! rocks1 or 9 ! woods2 x is 
at night 9 my b$1 dur+ my wakeful h\rs1 
t ,i compose2 x may be judg$ h[ sl[ly1  
p>ticul>ly = a man :o has n ! advantage 
( v]bal memory1 & nev] 9 8 life c\ld    
reta9 by he>t six v]ses4  ,"s ( my      
p]iods ,i h turn$ & return$ 9 my head   
five or six nights be=e !y 7 fit to be  
put to pap]3 ?us x is t ,i succe$ bett] 
9 works t require labori\s att5tion1 ?an
 ^? t appe> m trivial1 su* z lett]s1 9  
:i* ,i c\ld nev] succe$1 & be+ oblig$ to
 write "o is to me a s]i\s puni%m5t2 nor
 c ,i express my ?\ghts on ! mo/ trivial
 subjects )\t x co/+ me h\rs ( fatigue4 
,if ,i write imm$iately :at /rikes me1  
my lett] is a long1 confus$1 unconnect$ 

/r+ ( expressions1 :i*1 :5 read1 c h>dly
 be und]/ood4  ,x is n only pa9ful to me
 to give language to my ideas b ev5 to  
receive !m4  ,i h /udi$ mank9d1 & ?9k   
myself a tol]able obs]v]1 yet ,i "k no?+
 f :at ,i see1 b all f :at ,i rememb]1  
nor h ,i und]/&+ except 9 my            
recollections4  ,f all t is said1 f all 
t passes 9 my pres5ce1 ,i feel no?+1    
conceive no?+1 ! ext]ior sign be+ all t 
/rikes me2 aft]w>ds x returns to my     
remembrance2 ,i recollect ! place1 ! "t1
 ! mann]1 ! look1 & ge/ure1 n a         
circum/ance escapes me2 x is !n1 f :at  
has be5 done or said1 t ,i imag9e :at   
has be5 ?\ght1 & ,i h r>ely f\nd myself 
mi/ak54  ,s little ma/] ( my und]/&+ :5 
alone1 let any "o judge :at ,i mu/ be 9 
conv]sation1 :]e to speak ) any degree (
 ease y mu/ ?9k ( a ?\s& ?+s at ! same  
"t3 ! b>e idea t ,i %\ld =get some?+    
mat]ial w\ld be suffici5t to intimidate 
me4  ,nor c ,i compreh5d h[ p c h !     
confid5ce to conv]se 9 l>ge companies1  
:]e ea* ^w mu/ pass 9 review be=e s _m1 

& :]e x w\ld be requisite to "k _!      
sev]al *>act]s & hi/ories to avoid say+ 
:at might give (f5ce4  ,9 ?is p>ticul>1 
^? :o frequ5t ! _w w\ld h a great       
advantage1 z !y "k bett] :]e to be      
sil5t1 & c speak ) great] confid5ce2 yet
 ev5 !y sometimes let fall absurdities2 
9 :at pr$icam5t !n mu/ he be :o drops z 
x 7 f ! cl\ds8 x is almo/ impossible he 
%\ld speak t5 m9utes ) impunity4  ,9 a  
tete-a-tete !re is a /ill worse         
inconv5i5ce2 t is2 ! necessity ( talk+  
p]petually1 at lea/1 ! necessity (      
answ]+ :5 spok5 to1 & keep+ up !        
conv]sation :5 ! o!r is sil5t4 ,?is     
insupportable con/ra9t is alone         
suffici5t to disgu/ me ) v>iety1 = ,i _c
 =m an idea ( a great] torm5t ?an be+   
oblig$ to speak cont9ually )\t "t =     
recollection4  ,i "k n :e!r x proce$s f 
my mortal hatr$ ( all con/ra9t2 b if ,i 
am oblig$ to speak1 ,i infallibly talk  
nons5se4  ,:at is /ill worse1 in/ead (  
le>n+ h[ to be sil5t :5 ,i h absolutely 
no?+ to say1 x is g5]ally at su* times t

 ,i h a viol5t incl9ation3 & endeavor+  
to pay my debt ( conv]sation z spe$ily z
 possible1 ,i ha/ily gabble a numb] (   
words )\t ideas1 happy :5 !y only *ance 
to mean no?+2 ?us endeavor+ to conqu] or
 hide my incapacity1 ,i r>ely fail to %[
 x4  ,i ?9k ,i h said en\gh to %[ t1    
?\gh n a fool1 ,i h frequ5tly pass$ =   
"o1 ev5 among p capable ( judg+2 ?is 0 !
 m vexati\s1 z my physiognomy & eyes    
promis$ o!rwise1 & expectation be+      
fru/rat$1 my /upidity appe>$ ! m %ock+4 
,?is detail1 :i* a p>ticul> occasion    
gave bir? to1 w n be useless 9 ! sequel1
 be+ a key to _m ( my actions :i* might 
o!rwise appe> unacc\ntable2 & h be5     
attribut$ to a savage humor ,i d n      
possess4  ,i love society z mu* z any   
man1 0 ,i n c]ta9 to exhibit myself 9 x1
 n only disadvantage\sly1 b totally     
diff]5t f :at ,i really am4  ,! plan ,i 
h adopt$ ( writ+ & retirem5t1 is :at    
exactly suits me4  ,_h ,i be5 pres5t1 my
 wor? w\ld nev] h be5 kn[n1 no "o w\ld  
ev5 h suspect$ x2 ?us x 0 ) ,madam      

,dup91 a woman ( s5se1 9 ^: h\se ,i liv$
 = sev]al ye>s2 inde$1 %e has (t5 s9ce  
own$ x to me3 ?\gh on ! :ole ?is rule   
may be subject to "s exceptions4  ,i    
%all n[ return to my hi/ory4  ,! e/imate
 ( my tal5ts ?us fix$1 ! situation ,i 0 
capable ( promis$1 ! "q only rema9$ h[  
to r5d] h] capable ( fulfill+ my de/9$  
vocation4  ,! pr9ciple difficulty 01 ,i 
did n "k ,lat9 en\gh = a prie/4  ,madam 
de ,w>r5s det]m9$ to h me taught = "s "t
 at ! sem9>y1 & accord+ly spoke ( x to !
 ,sup]ior1 :o 0 a ,laz>i/1 call$ ,m4    
,gras1 a good-natur$ little fell[1 half 
bl9d1 meagre1 gray-hair$1 ins5sible1 & !
 lea/ p$antic ( any ,laz>i/ ,i ev] knew2
 :i*1 9 fact1 is say+ no great matt]4   
,he frequ5tly visit$ ,madam de ,w>r5s1  
:o ent]ta9$1 c>ess$1 & made mu* ( him1  
lett+ him sometimes lace h] /ays1 an    
(fice he 0 will+ en\gh to p]=m4  ,:ile  
?us employ$1 %e w\ld run ab\t ! room1   
?is way or t1 z occasion happ5$ to call 
h]4  ,drawn by ! lace1 ,monsieur !      
,sup]ior foll[$1 grumbl+1 repeat+ at e  

mom5t1 ,pray1 madam1 d /& /ill2 ! :ole  
=m+ a sc5e truly div]t+4  ,m4 ,gras     
will+ly ass5t$ to ! project ( ,madam de 
,w>r5s1 &1 = a v mod]ate p5sion1 *>g$   
himself ) ! c>e ( in/ruct+ me4 ,! cons5t
 ( ! bi%op 0 all t rema9$ necess>y1 :o n
 only grant$ x1 b (f]$ to pay ! p5sion1 
p]mitt+ me to reta9 ! secul> habit till 
!y c\ld judge by a trial :at success !y 
might h 9 my improvem5t4  ,:at a *ange6 
b ,i 0 oblig$ to submit2 ?\gh ,i w5t to 
! sem9>y ) ab\t ! same spirits z if !y  
_h be5 tak+ me to execution4 ,:at a     
melan*oly abode6 especially = "o :o left
 ! h\se ( a pretty woman4  ,i c>ri$ "o  
book ) me1 t ,i _h borr[$ ( ,madam de   
,w>r5s1 & f\nd x a capital res\rce6 x w 
n be easily conjectur$ :at k9d ( book   
?is 0--x 0 a music book4  ,among !      
tal5ts %e _h cultivat$1 music 0 n       
=gott52 %e _h a tol]able good voice1    
sang agreeably1 & play$ on ! h>psi*ord4 
,%e _h tak5 ! pa9s to give me "s lessons
 9 s++1 ?\gh be=e ,i 0 v un9=m$ 9 t     
respect1 h>dly kn[+ ! music ( our       

psalms4 ,eight or t5 int]rupt$ lessons1 
f> f putt+ me 9 a condition to improve  
myself1 did n tea* me half ! notes2     
not)/&+1 ,i _h su* a passion = ! art1 t 
,i det]m9$ to ex]cise myself alone4 ,!  
book ,i took 0 n ( ! mo/ easy k9d2 x 0 !
 cantatas ( ,cl]ambault4  ,x may be     
conceiv$ ) :at att5tion & p]sev]ance ,i 
/udi$1 :5 ,i in=m my read]1 t )\t kn[+  
any?+ ( transposition or quantity1 ,i   
contriv$ to s+ ) tol]able correctness1 !
 fir/ recitative & air 9 ! cantata (    
,alpheus & ,are?usa2 x is true ?is air  
is1 s ju/ly set1 t x is only necess>y to
 recite ! v]ses 9 _! j measure to cat* !
 music4  ,!re 0 at ! sem9>y a cur/      
,laz>i/1 :o by und]tak+ to tea* me ,lat9
 made me dete/ x4  ,8 hair 0 co>se1     
black & greasy1 8 face l ^? =m$ 9       
g+]bread1 he _h ! voice ( a buffalo1 !  
c\nt5ance ( an owl1 & ! bri/les ( a bo> 
9 lieu ( a be>d2 8 smile 0 s>donic1 & 8 
limbs play$ l ^? ( a puppet mov$ by     
wires4  ,i h =gott5 8 odi\s "n1 b !     
remembrance ( 8 frightful precise       

c\nt5ance rema9s ) me1 ?\gh h>dly c ,i  
recollect x )\t trembl+2 especially :5  
,i call to m9d our meet+ 9 ! gall]y1 :5 
he graci\sly advanc$ 8 fil?y squ>e cap z
 a sign = me to ent] 8 ap>tm5t1 :i*     
appe>$ m dismal 9 my appreh5sion ?an a  
dungeon4  ,let any "o judge ! contra/   
betwe5 my pres5t ma/] & ! elegant ,abbe 
de ,gauvon4  ,_h ,i rema9$ two mon?s at 
! m]cy ( ?is mon/]1 ,i am c]ta9 my head 
c\ld n h su/a9$ x2 b ! good ,m4 ,gras1  
p]ceiv+ ,i 0 melan*oly1 grew ?91 & did n
 eat my victuals1 guess$ ! cause ( my   
uneas9ess 7:i* inde$ 0 n v difficult7 & 
tak+ me f ! claws ( ?is bea/1 by ano!r  
yet m /rik+ contra/1 plac$ me ) ! g5tle/
 ( m51 a "y ,faucign]an abbe1 nam$ ,m4  
,gati]1 :o /udi$ at ! sem9>y1 & out (   
complaisance = ,m4 ,gras1 & humanity to 
myself1 sp>$ "s "t f ! prosecution ( 8  
own /udies 9 ord] to direct m9e4  ,nev] 
did ,i see a m pleas+ c\nt5ance ?an t ( 
,m4 ,gati]4  ,he 0 fair complexion$1 8  
be>d r incl9$ to r$2 8 behavior l t ( ! 
g5]ality ( 8 c\ntrym5 7:o "u a co>s5ess 

( c\nt5ance conceal mu* und]/&+71 m>k$ 9
 him a truly s5sible & affectionate s\l4
 ,9 8 l>ge blue eyes !re 0 a mixture (  
s(tness1 t5d]ness1 & melan*oly1 :i* made
 x impossible to see him )\t feel+ "o's 
self int]e/$4  ,f ! looks & mann] ( ?is 
"y abbe he might h be5 suppos$ to h     
=ese5 8 de/9y1 & t he 0 born to be      
unhappy4  ,8 disposition did n belie 8  
physiognomy3 full ( pati5ce &           
complaisance1 he r appe>$ to /udy ) ?an 
to in/ruct me4 ,s mu* 0 n necess>y to   
make me love him1 8 pr$ecessor hav+     
r5d]$ t v easy2 yet1 not)/&+ all ! "t he
 be/[$ on me1 not)/&+ our mutual good   
incl9ations1 & t 8 plan ( tea*+ 0       
excell5t1 ) mu* labor1 ,i made little   
progress4  ,x is v s+ul>1 t ) a cle>    
conception ,i c\ld nev] le>n mu* f ma/]s
 except my fa!r & ,m4 ,lamb]ci]2 !      
little ,i "k besides ,i h le>n$ alone1 z
 w be se5 h]eaft]4  ,my _s1 impati5t ( e
 species ( con/ra9t1 _c submit to ! law 
( ! mom5t2 ev5 ! fe> ( n le>n+ prev5ts  
my be+ att5tive1 & a dread ( we>y+ ^? :o

 tea*1 makes me feign to und]/& !m2 ?us 
!y proce$ fa/] ?an ,i c compreh5d1 & !  
conclusion is ,i le>n no?+4  ,my und]/&+
 mu/ take its own "t & _c submit to t ( 
ano!r4  ,! "t ( ord9ation be+ arriv$1   
,m4 ,gati] return$ to 8 prov9ce z       
deacon1 leav+ me ) gratitude1 atta*m5t1 
& sorr[ = 8 loss4  ,! v[s ,i made = him 
7 no m answ]$ ?an ^? ,i (f]$ = myself4  
,"s ye>s aft]1 ,i le>n$1 t be+ vic> ( a 
p>i%1 a "y girl 0 ) *ild by him1 be+ !  
only "o 7?\gh he possess$ a v t5d] he>t7
 ) :om he 0 ev] 9 love4  ,?is 0 a       
dreadful sc&al 9 a diocese sev]ely      
gov]n$1 :]e ! prie/s 7be+ "u good       
regulation7 ought nev] to h             
*ildr5--except by m>ri$ wom54  ,hav+    
infr+$ ?is politic law1 he 0 put 9      
prison1 defam$1 & driv5 f 8 b5efice4  ,i
 "k n :e!r x 0 ev] aft] 9 8 p[] to      
ree/abli% 8 affairs2 b ! remembrance ( 8
 mis=tunes1 :i* 7 deeply engrav5 on my  
he>t1 /ruck me :5 ,i wrote ,emilius1 &  
unit+ ,m4 ,gati] ) ,m4 ,gaime1 ,i =m$ f 
^! two wor?y prie/s ! "* ( ! ,savoy>d   

,vic>1 & flatt] myself ! imitation has n
 di%onor$ ! orig9als4  ,:ile ,i 0 at !  
sem9>y1 ,m4 d',aubonne 0 oblig$ to quit 
,annecy1 ,m\lt\ be+ displeas$ t he made 
love to 8 wife1 :i* 0 act+ l a dog 9 !  
mang]1 = ?\gh ,madam ,m\lt\ 0 extremely 
amiable1 he liv$ v ill ) h]1 treat+ h] )
 su* brutality t a sep>ation 0 talk$ (4 
,m\lt\1 by repeat$ oppressions1 at l5g? 
procur$ a dismissal f 8 employm5t3 he 0 
a disagreeable man2 a mole c\ld n be    
black]1 nor an owl m knavi%4  ,x is said
 ! prov9cials rev5ge !mselves on _!     
enemies by songs2 ,m4 d',aubonne rev5g$ 
himself on 8 by a com$y1 :i* he s5t to  
,madam de ,w>r5s1 :o %[$ x to me4  ,i 0 
pleas$ ) x1 & imm$iately conceiv$ ! idea
 ( writ+ "o1 to try :e!r ,i 0 s silly z 
! au?or _h pron\nc$ me4  ,?is project 0 
n execut$ till ,i w5t to ,*amb]y1 :]e ,i
 wrote ',! ,lov] ( ,himself'4  ,?us :5  
,i said 9 ! preface to t piece1 x 0     
writt5 at eighte51 ,i cut (f a few ye>s4
  ,ne>ly ab\t ?is "t an ev5t happ5$1 n v
 important 9 itself1 b ^: consequ5ce    

affect$ me1 & made a noise 9 ! _w :5 ,i 
_h =gott5 x4  ,once a week ,i 0 p]mitt$ 
to g out2 x is n necess>y to say :at use
 ,i made ( ?is lib]ty4  ,be+ "o ,sunday 
at ,madam de ,w>r5s1 a build+ belong+ to
 ! ,cordeli]s1 :i* jo9$ h] h\se1 took   
fire2 ?is build+ :i* conta9$ _! ov51 be+
 full ( dry fagots1 blaz$ viol5tly &    
greatly endang]$ ! h\se2 = ! w9d happ5+ 
to drive ! flames t way1 x 0 cov]$ ) !m4
  ,! furniture1 !re=e1 0 ha/ily got out 
& c>ri$ into ! g>d5 :i* front$ ! w9d[s1 
on ! o!r side ! be=e-m5tion$ brook4  ,i 
0 s al>m$ t ,i ?rew indiscrim9ately     
ev]y?+ t came to h& out ( ! w9d[1 ev5 to
 a l>ge /one mort>1 :i* at ano!r "t ,i  
%\ld h f\nd x difficult to remove1 &    
%\ld h ?r[n a h&some look+-glass aft] x 
_h n "s "o prev5t$ me4 ,! good bi%op1 :o
 t day 0 visit+ ,madam de ,w>r5s1 did n 
rema9 idle2 he took h] into ! g>d51 :]e 
!y w5t to pray]s ) ! re/ t 7 assembl$   
!re1 & :]e sometime aft]w>ds1 ,i f\nd !m
 on _! knees1 & pres5tly jo9$ !m4  ,:ile
 ! good man 0 at 8 devotions1 ! w9d     

*ang$1 s sudd5ly & critically1 t !      
flames :i* _h cov]$ ! h\se & began to   
ent] ! w9d[s1 7 c>ri$ to ! o!r side ( ! 
c\rt1 & ! h\se receiv$ no damage4  ,two 
ye>s aft]1 ,monsieur de ,b]n] be+ dead1 
! ,anto9es1 8 =m] bre?r51 began to      
collect anecdotes :i* might s]ve z      
argum5ts ( 8 beatification2 at ! desire 
( ,fa!r ,baudet1 ,i jo9$ to ^! an       
atte/ation ( :at ,i h j relat$1 9 do+   
:i*1 ?\gh ,i atte/$ no m ?an ! tru?1 ,i 
c]ta9ly act$ ill1 z x t5d$ to make an   
indiff]5t occurr5ce pass = a miracle4   
,i _h se5 ! bi%op 9 pray]1 & _h likewise
 se5 ! w9d *ange dur+ ! pray]1 & ev5 mu*
 to ! purpose1 all ?is ,i c\ld c]tify   
truly2 b t "o ( ^! facts 0 ! cause ( !  
o!r1 ,i ought n to h atte/$1 because x  
is :at ,i c\ld n possibly be assur$ (4  
,?us mu* ,i may say1 t z f> z ,i c      
recollect :at my ideas 7 at t "t1 ,i 0  
s9c]ely1 & 9 good e>ne/ a ,ca?olic4     
,love ( ! m>vell\s is natural to ! human
 he>t2 my v5]ation = ! virtu\s prelate1 
& secret pride 9 hav+1 p]haps1          

contribut$ to ! ev5t 9 "q1 all help$ to 
s$uce me2 & c]ta9ly1 if ?is miracle 0 ! 
effect ( ard5t pray]1 ,i _h a "r to     
claim a %>e ( ! m]its4  ,m ?an ?irty    
ye>s aft]1 :5 ,i publi%$ ! ',lettres de 
la ,montagne'1 ,m4 ,f]on 7,i "k n by :at
 means7 discov]$ ?is atte/ation1 & made 
use ( x 9 8 pap]4  ,i mu/ confess !     
discov]y 0 v critically tim$1 & appe>$ v
 div]t+1 ev5 to me4  ,i 0 de/9$ to be ! 
outca/ ( e condition2 = not)/&+ ,m4     
,gati] gave ! mo/ favorable acc\nt he   
possibly c\ld ( my /udies1 !y pla9ly saw
 ! improvem5t ,i receiv$ bore no        
proportion to ! pa9s tak5 to in/ruct me1
 :i* 0 no enc\ragem5t to cont9ue !m3 !  
bi%op & sup]ior1 !re=e1 7 di%e>t5$1 & ,i
 0 s5t back to ,madam de ,w>r5s1 z a    
subject n ev5 fit to make a prie/ (2 b z
 !y all[$1 at ! same "t1 t ,i 0 a       
tol]ably good lad1 & f> f be+ vici\s1   
?is acc\nt c\nt]balanc$ ! =m]1 & det]m9$
 h] n to ab&on me4  ,i c>ri$ back 9     
triumph ! de> music book1 :i* _h be5 s  
useful to me1 ! air ( ,alpheus &        

,are?usa be+ almo/ all ,i _h le>n$ at ! 
sem9>y4  ,my pr$ilection = ?is art />t$ 
! idea ( mak+ a musician (1 me4  ,a     
conv5i5t opportunity (f]$2 once a week1 
at lea/1 %e _h a conc]t at h] h\se1 & ! 
music-ma/] f ! ca!dral1 :o direct$ ?is  
little b&1 came frequ5tly to see h]4    
,?is 0 a ,p>isian1 nam$ ,m4 le ,maitre1 
a good compos]1 v lively1 gay1 "y1 well 
made1 ( little und]/&+1 b1 ^u ! :ole1 a 
good sort ( man4  ,madam de ,w>r5s made 
u acqua9t$2 ,i atta*$ myself to him1 &  
he seem$ n displeas$ ) me4  ,a p5sion 0 
talk$ (1 & agre$ on2 9 %ort1 ,i w5t home
 ) him1 & pass$ ! w9t] ! m agreeably at 
8 *amb]s1 z !y 7 n above tw5ty paces    
di/ant f ,madam de ,w>r5s'1 :]e we      
frequ5tly supp$ toge!r4 ,x may easily be
 suppos$ t ?is situation1 ev] gay1 & s++
 ) ! musicians & *ildr5 ( ! *oir1 0 m   
pleas+ to me ?an ! sem9>y & fa!rs ( ,/4 
,laz>us4  ,?is life1 ?\gh free1 0       
regul>2 "h ,i le>n$ to prize indep5d5ce1
 b nev] to abuse x4 ,= six :ole mon?s ,i
 nev] once w5t out except to see ,madam 

de ,w>r5s1 or to *ur*1 nor _h ,i any    
incl9ation to x4  ,?is int]val is "o (  
^? 9 :i* ,i enjoy$ ! greate/            
satisfaction1 & :i* ,i h ev] recollect$ 
) pleasure4  ,among ! v>i\s situations  
,i h be5 plac$ 91 "s 7 m>k$ ) su* an    
idea ( virtu\s satisfaction1 t ! b>e    
remembrance affects me z if !y 7 yet    
pres5t4  ,i vividly recollect ! "t1 !   
place1 ! p]sons1 & ev5 ! temp]ature ( ! 
air1 :ile ! lively idea ( a c]ta9 local 
impression peculi> to ^? times1         
transports me back aga9 to ! v spot2 =  
example1 all t 0 repeat$ at our meet+s1 
all t 0 sung 9 ! *oir1 ev]y?+ t pass$   
!re2 ! beautiful & noble habits ( !     
canons1 ! *asubles ( ! prie/s1 ! mitres 
( ! s+]s1 ! p]sons ( ! musicians2 an old
 lame c>p5t] :o play$ ! c\nt]-bass1 a   
little fair abbe :o p]=m$ on ! viol91 ! 
ragg$ cassock :i* ,m4 le ,maitre1 aft]  
tak+ (f 8 sword1 us$ to put ov] 8 secul>
 habit1 & ! f9e surplice ) :i* he cov]$ 
! rags ( ! =m]1 :5 he w5t to ! *oir2 !  
pride ) :i* ,i held my little flute to  

my lips1 & seat$ myself 9 ! or*e/ra1 to 
assi/ 9 a recitative :i* ,m4 le ,maitre 
_h compos$ on purpose = me2 ! good d9n] 
t aft]w>ds await$ u1 & ! good appetites 
we c>ri$ to x4  ,?is conc\rse ( objects1
 /rongly retrac$ 9 my memory1 has *>m$  
me a hundr$ "t z mu*1 or p]haps m1 ?an  
ev] ! reality _h done4  ,i h always     
pres]v$ an affection = a c]ta9 air ( !  
',conditor alme ,syd]um'1 because "o    
,sunday 9 ,adv5t ,i he>d t hymn sung on 
! /eps ( ! ca!dral1 7accord+ to ! cu/om 
( t place7 z ,i lay 9 b$ be=e daybreak4 
,mademoiselle ,m]c]et1 ,madam de ,w>r5s'
 *amb]maid1 knew some?+ ( music2 ,i %all
 nev] =get a little piece t ,m4 le      
,maitre made me s+ ) h]1 & :i* h]       
mi/ress li/5$ to ) great satisfaction4  
,9 a ^w1 e p>ticul>1 ev5 d[n to ! s]vant
 ,p]r9e1 :om ! boys ( ! *oir took su*   
delight 9 teas+4  ,! remembrance ( ^!   
times ( happ9ess & innoc5ce frequ5tly   
return+ to my m9d1 bo? ravi% & affect   
me4  ,i liv$ at ,annecy dur+ a ye> )\t !
 lea/ reproa*1 giv+ univ]sal            

satisfaction4  ,s9ce my dep>ture f ,tur9
 ,i _h be5 guilty ( no folly1 committ$  
none :ile "u ! eye ( ,madam de ,w>r5s4  
,%e 0 my conductor1 & ev] l$ me "r2 my  
atta*m5t = h] became my only passion1 & 
:at proves x 0 n a giddy "o1 my he>t &  
und]/&+ 7 9 unison4  ,x is true t a s+le
 s5tim5t1 absorb+ all my faculties1 put 
me out ( a capacity ( le>n+ ev5 music3 b
 ?is 0 n my fault1 s9ce to ! /ronge/    
incl9ation1 ,i add$ ! utmo/ assiduity4  
,i 0 att5tive & ?\ghtful2 :at c\ld ,i d8
  ,no?+ 0 want+ t[>ds my progress t     
dep5d$ on me2 meantime1 x only requir$ a
 subject t might inspire me to occasion 
! commission ( new follies3 t subject   
pres5t$ itself1 *ance arrang$ x1 & 7z w 
be se5 h]eaft]7 my inconsid]ate head    
gave 9 to x4  ,"o ev5+1 9 ! mon? (      
,febru>y1 :5 x 0 v cold1 be+ all sat    
r\nd ! fire1 we he>d "s "o knock at !   
/reet door4  ,p]r9e took a light1 w5t   
d[n & op5$ x3 a "y man ent]+1 came      
up/airs1 pres5t$ himself ) an easy air1 
& mak+ ,m4 ,maitre a %ort1 b well-turn$ 

complim5t1 ann\nc$ himself z a ,fr5*    
musician1 con/ra9$ by ! /ate ( 8 f9ances
 to take ?is lib]ty4 ,! h>t ( ! good ,le
 ,maitre leap$ at ! "n ( a ,fr5*        
musician1 = he passionately lov$ bo? 8  
c\ntry & pr(ession2 he !re=e (f]$ ! "y  
travell] 8 s]vice--& use ( 8 ap>tm5t1   
:i* he appe>$ to /& mu* 9 ne$ (1 & :i*  
he accept$ )\t mu* c]emony4  ,i obs]v$  
him :ile he 0 *att+ & w>m+ himself be=e 
supp]2 he 0 %ort & ?ick1 hav+ "s fault 9
 8 %ape1 ?\gh )\t any p>ticul> de=mity2 
he _h 7if ,i may s express myself7 an   
appe>ance ( be+ hun*back$1 ) flat       
%\ld]s1 & ,i ?9k he limp$4  ,he wore a  
black coat1 r worn ?an old1 :i* hung 9  
tatt]s1 a v f9e b dirty %irt1 fray$     
ruffles2 a pair ( splatt]da%es s l>ge t 
he c\ld h put bo? legs into ei!r ( !m1  
&1 to secure himself f ! sn[1 a little  
hat1 only fit to be c>ri$ "u 8 arm4  ,) 
?is :imsical equipage1 he _h1 h[ev]1    
some?+ elegant 9 8 mann]s & conv]sation2
 8 c\nt5ance 0 expressive & agreeable1 &
 he spoke ) facility if n ) mode/y2 9   

%ort1 ev]y?+ ab\t him bore ! m>k ( a "y 
debau*ee1 :o did n crave assi/ance l a  
begg>1 b z a ?\ghtless madcap4 ,he told 
u 8 "n 0 ,v5ture de ,vill5euve1 t he    
came f ,p>is1 _h lo/ 8 way1 & seem+ to  
=get t he _h ann\nc$ himself = a        
musician1 add$ t he 0 go+ to ,gr5oble to
 see a relation t 0 a memb] ( ,p>liam5t4
  ,dur+ supp] we talk$ ( music1 on :i*  
subject he spoke well3 he knew all !    
great virtuosi1 all ! celebrat$ works1  
all ! actors1 actresses1 pretty wom51 & 
p[]ful lords2 9 %ort no?+ 0 m5tion$ b   
:at he seem$ ?or\ghly acqua9t$ )4  ,?\gh
 no soon] 0 any topic />t$1 ?an by "s   
droll]y1 :i* set e "o a-laugh+1 he made 
!m =get :at _h be5 said4  ,?is 0 on a   
,saturday2 ! next day !re 0 to be music 
at ! ca!dral3 ,m4 le ,maitre ask$ if he 
w\ld s+ !re--,v will+ly4--,:at "p w\ld  
he *ose8--,! c\nt]-t5or3 & imm$iately   
began speak+ ( o!r ?+s4  ,be=e he w5t to
 *ur* !y (f]$ him 8 "p to p]use1 b he   
did n ev5 look at x4  ,?is ,gasconade   
surpris$ ,le ,maitre --,y'll see1 said  

he1 :isp]+ to me1 t he does n "k a s+le 
note4--,i repli$3 ,i am v mu* afraid (  
him4  ,i foll[$ !m into ! *ur*2 b 0     
extremely uneasy1 & :5 !y began1 my he>t
 beat viol5tly1 s mu* 0 ,i int]e/$ 9 8  
behalf4  ,i 0 pres5tly out ( pa93 he    
sung 8 two recitatives ) all imag9able  
ta/e & judgm5t2 & :at 0 yet m1 ) a v    
agreeable voice4  ,i nev] enjoy$ a m    
pleas+ surprise4  ,aft] mass1 ,m4       
,v5ture receiv$ ! highe/ complim5ts f ! 
canons & musicians1 :i* he answ]$       
jok+ly1 ?\gh ) great grace4  ,m4 le     
,maitre embrac$ him he>tily2 ,i did !   
same2 he saw ,i 0 rejoic$ at 8 success1 
& appe>$ pleas$ at my satisfaction4  ,x 
w easily be surmis$1 t aft] hav+ be5    
delight$ ) ,m4 ,bacle1 :o _h little to  
attract my admiration1 ,i %\ld be       
infatuat$ ) ,m4 ,v5ture1 :o _h          
education1 wit1 tal5ts1 & a k ( ! _w1 & 
might be call$ an agreeable rake4  ,?is 
0 exactly :at happ5$1 & w\ld1 ,i        
believe1 h happ5$ to any o!r "y man 9 my
 place2 especially suppos+ him possess$ 

( bett] judgm5t to di/+ui% m]it1 & m    
prop5sity to be engag$ by x2 = ,v5ture  
d\btless possess$ a consid]able %>e1 &  
"o 9 p>ticul>1 v r>e at 8 age1 namely1 t
 ( nev] be+ 9 ha/e to display 8 tal5ts4 
,x is true1 he boa/$ ( _m ?+s he did n  
und]/&1 b ( ^? he knew 7:i* 7 v num]\s7 
he said no?+1 pati5tly wait+ "s occasion
 to display !m1 :i* he !n did ) ease1   
?\gh )\t =w>dness1 & ?us gave !m m      
effect4 ,z !re 0 ev] "s int]mission     
betwe5 ! pro(s ( 8 v>i\s abilities1 x 0 
impossible to conjecture :e!r he _h ev] 
discov]$ all 8 tal5ts4  ,playful1 giddy1
 inexhau/ible1 s$uc+ 9 conv]sation1 ev] 
smil+1 b nev] laugh+1 & repeat+ ! rude/ 
?+s 9 ! mo/ elegant mann]--ev5 ! mo/    
mode/ wom5 7 a/oni%$ at :at !y endur$ f 
him3 x 0 9 va9 = !m to det]m9e to be    
angry2 !y c\ld n assume ! appe>ance ( x4
 ,x 0 extraord9>y t ) s _m agreeable    
tal5ts1 9 a c\ntry :]e !y are s well    
und]/ood1 & s mu* admir$1 he s long     
rema9$ only a musician4  ,my atta*m5t to
 ,m4 ,v5ture1 m reasonable 9 its cause1 

0 also less extravagant 9 its effects1  
?\gh m lively & durable ?an t ,i _h     
conceiv$ = ,m4 ,bacle4  ,i lov$ to see  
him1 to he> him1 all 8 actions appe>$   
*>m+1 ev]y?+ he said 0 an oracle to me1 
b ! en*antm5t did n ext5d f> en\gh to   
disable me f quitt+ him4  ,i spoke ( him
 ) transport to ,madam de ,w>r5s1 ,le   
,maitre likewise spoke 9 8 praise1 & %e 
cons5t$ we %\ld br+ him to h] h\se4     
,?is int]view did n succe$2 he ?\ght h] 
affect$1 %e f\nd him a lib]t9e1 &1 al>m$
 t ,i _h =m$ su* an ill acqua9tance1 n  
only =bade me br++ him !re aga91 b      
likewise pa9t$ s /rongly ! dang] ,i ran 
) ?is "y man1 t ,i became a little m    
circumspect 9 giv+ 9 to ! atta*m5t2 & v 
happily1 bo? = my mann]s & wits1 we 7   
soon sep>at$4  ,m4 le ,maitre1 l mo/ ( 8
 pr(ession1 lov$ good w9e2 at table he 0
 mod]ate1 b :5 busy 9 8 closet he mu/   
dr9k4  ,8 maid 0 s well acqua9t$ ) ?is  
humor t no soon] _h he prep>$ 8 pap] to 
compose1 & tak5 8 violoncello1 ?an !    
bottle & glass arriv$1 & 0 repl5i%$ f "t

 to "t3 ?us1 )\t be+ ev] absolutely     
intoxicat$1 he 0 usually 9 a /ate (     
elevation4  ,?is 0 really un=tunate1 =  
he _h a good he>t1 & 0 s playful t      
,madam de ,w>r5s us$ to call him !      
kitt54  ,unhappily1 he lov$ 8 pr(ession1
 labor$ mu* & drank proportionately1 :i*
 injur$ 8 heal?1 & at l5g? s\r$ 8 temp]4
  ,sometimes he 0 gloomy & easily (f5d$1
 ?\gh incapable ( rud5ess1 or giv+ (f5ce
 to any "o1 = nev] did he utt] a h>% ^w1
 ev5 to ! boys ( ! *oir3 on ! o!r h&1 he
 w\ld n suff] ano!r to (f5d him1 :i* 0 b
 j3 ! mis=tune 01 hav+ little und]/&+1  
he did n prop]ly discrim9ate1 & 0 (t5   
angry )\t cause4  ,! ,*apt] ( ,g5eva1   
:]e s _m pr9ces & bi%ops =m]ly ?\ght x  
an honor to be seat$1 ?\gh 9 exile x lo/
 its anci5t spl5dor1 reta9$ 7)\t any    
dim9ution7 its pride4  ,to be admitt$1 y
 mu/ ei!r be a g5tleman or ,doctor (    
,sorbonne4  ,if !re is a p>donable      
pride1 aft] t d]iv$ f p]sonal m]it1 x is
 d\btless t aris+ f bir?1 ?\gh1 9 g5]al1
 prie/s hav+ laym5 9 _! s]vice treat !m 

) suffici5t haught9ess1 & ?us ! canons  
behav$ to poor ,le ,maitre4  ,! *ant]1 9
 p>ticul>1 :o 0 call$ ! ,abbe de        
,vidonne1 9 o!r respects a well-behav$  
man1 b too full ( 8 nobility1 did n     
always %[ him ! att5tion 8 tal5ts m]it$4
  ,m4 le ,maitre c\ld n be> ^!          
indignities pati5tly2 & ?is ye>1 dur+   
passion week1 !y _h a m s]i\s dispute   
?an ord9>y4  ,at an in/itution d9n] t ! 
bi%op gave ! canons1 & to :i* ,m4       
,maitre 0 always invit$1 ! abbe fail$ 9 
"s =mality1 add+1 at ! same "t1 "s h>%  
words1 :i* ! o!r c\ld n dige/2 he       
in/antly =m$ ! resolution to quit !m !  
foll[+ night2 nor c\ld any consid]ation 
make him give up 8 design1 ?\gh ,madam  
de ,w>r5s 7:om he w5t to take leave (7  
sp>$ no pa9s to appease him4  ,he c\ld n
 rel9qui% ! pleasure ( leav+ 8 tyrants  
emb>rass$ = ! ,ea/] fea/1 at :i* "t he  
knew !y /ood 9 greate/ ne$ ( him4  ,he 0
 mo/ conc]n$ ab\t 8 music1 :i* he wi%$  
to take ) him2 b ?is c\ld n easily be   
accompli%$1 z x fill$ a l>ge case1 & 0 v

 heavy1 & c\ld n be c>ri$ "u ! arm4     
,madam de ,w>r5s did :at ,i %\ld h done 
9 h] situation2 & inde$1 :at ,i %\ld yet
 d3 aft] _m useless ef=ts to reta9 him1 
see+ he 0 resolv$ to dep>t1 :atev] might
 be ! ev5t1 %e =m$ ! resolution to give 
him e possible assi/ance4  ,i mu/       
confess ,le ,maitre des]v$ x ( h]1 = he 
0 7if ,i may use ! expression7 d$icat$  
to h] s]vice1 9 :atev] app]ta9$ to ei!r 
8 art or k1 & ! read9ess ) :i* he oblig$
 gave a d\ble value to 8 complaisance3  
?us %e only paid back1 on an ess5tial   
occasion1 ! _m favors he _h be5 long    
conf]r+ on h]2 ?\gh ,i %\ld obs]ve1 %e  
possess$ a s\l t1 to fulfill su* duties1
 _h no occasion to be rem9d$ ( previ\s  
obligations4  ,accord+ly %e ord]$ me to 
foll[ ,le ,maitre to ,lyons1 & to       
cont9ue ) him z long z he might h       
occasion = my s]vices4  ,%e has s9ce    
av[$1 t a desire ( deta*+ me f ,v5ture  
_h a great h& 9 ?is arrangem5t4  ,%e    
consult$ ,claude ,anet ab\t ! conveyance
 ( ! above-m5tion$ case4 ,he advis$1 t  

in/ead ( hir+ a bea/ at ,annecy1 :i*    
w\ld infallibly discov] u1 x w\ld be    
bett]1 at night1 to take x to "s        
neighbor+ village1 & !re hire an ass to 
c>ry x to ,seyssel1 :i* be+ 9 ! ,fr5*   
dom9ions1 we %\ld h no?+ to fe>4  ,?is  
plan 0 adopt$2 we dep>t$ ! same night at
 sev51 & ,madam de ,w>r5s1 "u pret5se ( 
pay+ my exp5ses1 increas$ ! purse ( poor
 ,le ,maitre by an addition t 0 v       
acceptable4  ,claude ,anet1 ! g>d9]1 &  
myself1 c>ri$ ! case to ! fir/ village1 
!n hir$ an ass1 & ! same night rea*$    
,seyssel4  ,i ?9k ,i h already rem>k$ t 
!re are times 9 :i* ,i am s unlike      
myself t ,i might be tak5 = a man ( a   
direct opposite disposition2 ,i %all n[ 
give an example ( ?is4  ,m4 ,reydelet1  
curate ( ,seyssel1 0 canon ( ,/4        
,pet]'s1 consequ5tly kn[n to ,m4 le     
,maitre1 & "o ( ! p f :om he %\ld h tak5
 mo/ pa9s to conceal himself2 my advice1
 on ! contr>y1 0 to pres5t ourselves to 
him1 &1 "u "s pretext1 entreat          
ent]ta9m5t z if we visit$ him by cons5t 

( ! *apt]4  ,le ,maitre adopt$ ! idea1  
:i* seem$ to give 8 rev5ge ! appe>ance (
 satire & wagg]y2 9 %ort1 we w5t boldly 
to ,reydelet1 :o receiv$ u v k9dly4  ,le
 ,maitre told him he 0 go+ to ,bellay by
 desire ( ! bi%op1 t he might sup]9t5d !
 music dur+ ! ,ea/] holidays1 & t he    
propos$ return+ t way 9 a few days4  ,to
 support ?is tale1 ,i told a hundr$     
o!rs1 s naturally t ,m4 ,reydelet ?\ght 
me a v agreeable y\?1 & treat$ me )     
great fri5d%ip & civility4  ,we 7 well  
regal$ & well lodg$3 ,m4 ,reydelet      
sc>cely knew h[ to make en\gh ( u2 & we 
p>t$ ! be/ fri5ds 9 ! _w1 ) a promise to
 /op long] on our return4  ,we f\nd x   
difficult to refra9 f laught]1 or wait  
till we 7 alone to give free v5t to our 
mir?3 inde$1 ev5 n[1 ! b>e recollection 
( x =ces a smile1 = nev] 0 wagg]y bett] 
or m =tunately ma9ta9$4  ,?is w\ld h    
made u m]ry dur+ ! rema9d] ( our j\rney1
 if ,m4 le ,maitre 7:o did n cease      
dr9k+7 _h n be5 two or ?ree times       
attack$ ) a compla9t t he aft]w>ds      

became v subject to1 & :i* resembl$ an  
epilepsy4 ,^! fits ?rew me into ! mo/   
fe>ful emb>rassm5ts1 f :i* ,i resolv$ to
 extricate myself ) ! fir/ opportunity4 
,accord+ to ! in=mation giv5 to ,m4     
,reydelet1 we pass$ our ,ea/] holidays  
at ,bellay1 & ?\gh n expect$ !re1 7     
receiv$ by ! music--ma/]1 & welcom$ by e
 "o ) great pleasure4  ,m4 le ,maitre 0 
( consid]able note 9 8 pr(ession1 &1    
inde$1 m]it$ t di/9ction4  ,! music-ma/]
 ( ,bellay 7:o 0 fond ( 8 own works7    
endeavor$ to obta9 ! approbation ( s    
good a judge2 = besides be+ a           
connoisseur1 ,m4 le ,maitre 0 equitable1
 nei!r a jeal\s1 ill-natur$ critic1 nor 
a s]vile flatt]]4  ,he 0 s sup]ior to ! 
g5]ality ( c\ntry music-ma/]s & !y 7 s  
s5sible ( x1 t !y treat$ him r z _! *ief
 ?an a bro!r musician4  ,hav+ pass$ f\r 
or five days v agreeably at ,bellay1 we 
dep>t$1 & cont9u+ our j\rney )\t meet+ )
 any accid5ts1 except ^? ,i h j spok5 (1
 arriv$ at ,lyons1 & 7 lodg$ at ,notre  
,dame de ,pitie4  ,:ile we wait$ = !    

arrival ( ! be=e-m5tion$ case 7:i* by ! 
assi/ance ( ano!r lie1 & ! c>e ( our    
good patron1 ,m4 ,reydelet1 we _h emb>k$
 on ! ,rhone7 ,m4 le ,maitre w5t to     
visit 8 acqua9tance1 & among o!rs ,fa!r 
,cato1 a ,cordeli]1 :o w be spok5 (     
h]eaft]1 & ! ,abbe ,dortan1 ,c\nt (     
,lyons1 bo? ( :om receiv$ him well1 b   
aft]w>ds betray$ him1 z w be se5        
pres5tly2 inde$1 8 good =tune t]m9at$ ) 
,m4 ,reydelet4  ,two days aft] our      
arrival at ,lyons1 z we pass$ a little  
/reet n f> f our inn1 ,le ,maitre 0     
attack$ by "o ( 8 fits2 b x 0 n[ s      
viol5t z to give me ! utmo/ al>m4  ,i   
scream$ ) t]ror1 call$ = help1 & nam+   
our inn1 entreat$ "s "o to be> him to x1
 !n 7:ile ! p 7 assembl$1 & busy r\nd a 
man t _h fall5 s5seless 9 ! /reet7 he 0 
ab&on$ by ! only fri5d on :om he c\ld h 
any reasonable dep5d5ce2 ,i seiz$ !     
in/ant :5 no "o he$$ me1 turn$ ! corn] (
 ! /reet & disappe>$4 ,?anks to ,heav51 
,i h made my ?ird pa9ful confession2 if 
_m su* rema9$1 ,i %\ld c]ta9ly ab&on !  

"w ,i h und]tak54  ,( all ! incid5ts ,i 
h yet relat$1 a few traces are rema9+ 9 
! places :]e ,i h liv$2 b :at ,i h to   
relate 9 ! foll[+ book is almo/ entirely
 unkn[n2 ^! are ! greate/ extravagancies
 ( my life1 & x is happy !y _h n worse  
conclusions4  ,my head1 7if ,i may use !
 simile7 screw$ up to ! pit* ( an       
in/rum5t x did n naturally accord )1 _h 
lo/ its diapason2 9 "t x return$ to x   
aga91 :5 ,i discont9u$ my follies1 or at
 lea/ gave 9 to ^? m consonant to my    
disposition4  ,?is epo* ( my y\? ,i am  
lea/ able to recollect1 no?+ hav+ pass$ 
suffici5tly int]e/+ to influ5ce my he>t1
 to make me cle>ly retrace !            
remembrance4  ,9 s _m successive *anges1
 x is difficult n to make "s            
transpositions ( "t or place4  ,i write 
absolutely f memory1 )\t notes or       
mat]ials to help my recollection4  ,"s  
ev5ts are z fre% 9 my idea z if !y _h   
rec5tly happ5$1 b !re are c]ta9 *asms   
:i* ,i _c fill up b by ! aid ( recital1 
z confus$ z ! rema9+ traces ( ^? to :i* 

!y ref]4  ,x is possible1 !re=e1 t ,i   
may h err$ 9 trifles1 & p]haps %all     
aga91 b 9 e matt] ( importance ,i c     
answ] t ! acc\nt is fai?fully exact1 & )
 ! same v]acity ! read] may dep5d ,i    
%all be c>eful to cont9ue x4  ,my       
resolution 0 soon tak5 aft] quitt+ ,le  
,maitre2 ,i set out imm$iately =        
,annecy4  ,! cause & my/]y ( our        
dep>ture _h int]e/$ me = ! security (   
our retreat3 ?is int]e/1 :i* entirely   
employ$ my ?\ghts = "s days1 _h bani%$ e
 o!r idea2 b no soon] 0 ,i secure & 9   
tranquility1 ?an my pr$om9ant s5tim5t   
rega9$ its place4  ,no?+ flatt]$1 no?+  
tempt$ me1 ,i _h no wi% b to return to  
,madam de ,w>r5s2 ! t5d]ness & tru? ( my
 atta*m5t to h] _h root$ f my he>t e    
imag9able project1 & all ! follies (    
ambition1 ,i conceiv$ no happ9ess b liv+
 ne> h]1 nor c\ld ,i take a /ep )\t     
feel+ t ! di/ance betwe5 u 0 increas$4  
,i return$1 !re=e1 z soon z possible1 ) 
su* spe$1 & ) my spirits 9 su* a /ate ( 
agitation1 t ?\gh ,i recall ) pleasure  

all my o!r travels1 ,i h n ! lea/       
recollection ( ?is1 only rememb]+ my    
leav+ ,lyons & rea*+ ,annecy4  ,let     
anyone judge :e!r ?is la/ ev5t c h      
slipp$ my memory1 :5 in=m$ t on my      
arrival ,i f\nd ,madam de ,w>r5s 0 n    
!re1 hav+ set out = ,p>is4  ,i 0 nev]   
well in=m$ ( ! motives ( ?is j\rney4  ,i
 am c]ta9 %e w\ld h told me _h ,i ask$  
h]1 b nev] 0 man less curi\s to le>n !  
secrets ( 8 fri5d4  ,my he>t is ev] s   
entirely fill$ ) ! pres5t1 or ) pa/     
pleasures1 :i* become a pr9cipal "p ( my
 enjoym5t1 t !re is n a *9k or corn] =  
curiosity to ent]4  ,all t ,i conceive f
 :at ,i he>d ( x1 is1 t 9 ! revolution  
caus$ at ,tur9 by ! abdication ( ! ,k+ (
 ,s>d9ia1 %e fe>$ be+ =gott51 & 0 will+ 
by favor ( ! intrigues ( ,m4 d' ,aubonne
 to seek ! same advantage 9 ! c\rt (    
,france1 :]e %e has (t5 told me %e %\ld1
 h pref]r$ x1 z ! multiplicity ( bus9ess
 !re prev5ts y\r conduct f be+ s closely
 inspect$4 ,if ?is 0 h] bus9ess1 x is   
a/oni%+ t on h] return %e 0 n ill       

receiv$2 be t z x w1 %e cont9u$ to enjoy
 h] all[ance )\t any int]ruption4  ,_m p
 imag9$ %e 0 *>g$ ) "s secret           
commission1 ei!r by ! bi%op1 :o !n _h   
bus9ess at ! c\rt ( ,france1 :]e he     
himself 0 soon aft] oblig$ to g1 or "s  
"o yet m p[]ful1 :o knew h[ to insure h]
 a graci\s reception at h] return4  ,if 
?is 0 ! case1 x is c]ta9 ! ambassadress 
0 n ill *os51 s9ce be+ "y & h&some1 %e  
_h all ! necess>y qualifications to     
succe$ 9 a negotiation4