,,! ,,confessions ,,( ,,jean ,,jacques  
,,r\sseau 7,9 #ab books7  ,privately    
,pr9t$ = ! ,memb]s ( ! ,aldus ,society  
,london1 #aijc    ,,book ,,ii4   ,!     
mom5t 9 :i* fe> _h in/igat$ my flight1  
did n seem m t]rible ?an t :]e9 ,i put  
my design 9 execution appe>$ delightful4
  ,to leave my relations1 my res\rces1  
:ile yet a *ild1 9 ! mid/ ( my          
appr5tice%ip1 be=e ,i _h le>n$ en\gh (  
my bus9ess to obta9 a subsi/5ce2 to run 
on inevitable mis]y & dang]3 to expose  
myself 9 t age ( weakness & innoc5ce to 
all ! temptations ( vice & despair2 to  
set out 9 se>* ( errors1 mis=tunes1     
sn>es1 slav]y1 & dea?2 to endure m      
intol]able evils ?an ^? ,i meant to %un1
 0 ! picture ,i %\ld h drawn1 ! natural 
consequ5ce ( my haz>d\s ent]prise4  ,h[ 
diff]5t 0 ! idea ,i ent]ta9$ ( x6--,!   
indep5d5ce ,i seem$ to possess 0 ! sole 
object ( my contemplation2 hav+ obta9$  
my lib]ty1 ,i ?\ght ev]y?+ atta9able3 ,i
 ent]$ ) confid5ce on ! va/ !atre ( !   
_w1 :i* my m]it 0 to captivate3 at e /ep

 ,i expect$ to f9d amusem5ts1 treasures1
 & adv5tures2 fri5ds ready to s]ve1 &   
mi/resses eag] to please me2 ,i _h b to 
%[ myself1 & ! :ole univ]se w\ld be     
int]e/$ 9 my conc]ns2 n b ,i c\ld h be5 
cont5t ) some?+ less2 a *>m+ society1 ) 
suffici5t means1 might h satisfi$ me4   
,my mod]ation 0 su*1 t ! sph]e 9 :i* ,i 
propos$ to %9e 0 r circumscrib$1 b !n x 
0 to possess ! v qu9tess5ce ( enjoym5t1 
& myself ! pr9cipal object4  ,a s+le    
ca/le1 = in/ance1 might h b\nd$ my      
ambition2 c\ld ,i h be5 ! favorite ( !  
"l & lady1 ! daught]'s lov]1 ! son's    
fri5d1 & protector ( ! neighbors1 ,i    
might h be5 tol]ably cont5t1 & s\ght no 
fur!r4  ,9 expectation ( ?is mode/      
=tune1 ,i pass$ a few days 9 ! environs 
( ! city1 ) "s c\ntry p ( my            
acqua9tance1 :o receiv$ me ) m k9dness  
?an ,i %\ld h met ) 9 t[n2 !y welcom$1  
lodg$1 & f$ me *e]fully2 ,i c\ld be said
 to live on *>ity1 ^! favors 7 n conf]r$
 ) a suffici5t appe>ance ( sup]iority to
 furni% out ! idea4  ,i rambl$ ab\t 9   

?is mann] till ,i got to ,confignon1 9  
,savoy1 at ab\t two leagues di/ance f   
,g5eva4  ,! vic> 0 call$ ,m4 de         
,pontv]re2 ?is "n1 s fam\s 9 ! hi/ory ( 
! ,republic1 caught my att5tion2 ,i 0   
curi\s to see :at appe>ance ! desc5dants
 ( ! g5tlem5 ( ! spoon exhibit$2 ,i w5t1
 !re=e1 to visit ?is ,m4 de ,pontv]re1 &
 0 receiv$ ) great civility4  ,he spoke 
( ! h]esy ( ,g5eva1 declaim$ on !       
au?ority ( holy "m *ur*1 & !n invit$ me 
to d9n]4  ,i _h little to object to     
argum5ts :i* _h s desirable a           
conclusion1 & 0 incl9$ to believe t     
prie/s1 :o gave su* excell5t d9n]s1     
might be z good z our m9i/]s4  ,not)/&+ 
,m4 de ,pontv]re's p$igree1 ,i c]ta9ly  
possess$ mo/ le>n+2 b ,i r s\ght to be a
 good companion ?an an exp]t !ologian2 &
 8 ,frangi w9e1 :i* ,i ?\ght delici\s1  
argu$ s p[]fully on 8 side1 t ,i %\ld h 
blu%$ at sil5c+ s k9d a ho/2 ,i1 !re=e1 
yield$ him ! victory1 or r decl9$ !     
conte/4  ,any "o :o _h obs]v$ my        
precaution1 w\ld c]ta9ly h pron\nc$ me a

 dissembl]1 ?\gh1 9 fact1 ,i 0 only     
c\rte\s4  ,flatt]y1 or r condesc5sion1  
is n always a vice 9 "y p2 'tis (t5] a  
virtue4  ,:5 treat$ ) k9dness1 x is     
natural to feel an atta*m5t = ! p]son :o
 conf]s ! obligation2 we d n acquiesce  
because we wi% to deceive1 b f dread (  
giv+ uneas9ess1 or because we wi% to    
avoid ! +ratitude ( r5d]+ evil = good4  
,:at int]e/ _h ,m4 de ,pontv]re 9       
ent]ta9+1 treat+ ) respect1 & endeavor+ 
to conv9ce me8  ,none b m9e2 my "y he>t 
told me ?is1 & ,i 0 p5etrat$ ) gratitude
 & respect = ! g5]\s prie/2 ,i 0 s5sible
 ( my sup]iority1 b scorn$ to repay 8   
hospitality by tak+ advantage ( x4  ,i  
_h no conception ( hypocrisy 9 ?is      
=be>ance1 or ?\ght ( *ang+ my religion1 
nay1 s f> 0 ! idea f be+ famili> to me1 
t ,i look$ on x ) a degree ( horror :i* 
seem$ to exclude ! possibility ( su* an 
ev5t2 ,i only wi%$ to avoid giv+ (f5ce  
to ^? ,i 0 s5sible c>ess$ me f t motive2
 ,i wi%$ to cultivate _! good op9ion1 & 
meantime leave !m ! hope ( success by   

seem+ less on my gu>d ?an ,i really 04  
,my conduct 9 ?is p>ticul> resembl$ !   
coquetry ( "s v hone/ wom51 :o1 to obta9
 _! wi%es1 )\t p]mitt+ or promis+ any?+1
 sometimes enc\rage hopes !y nev] mean  
to realize4  ,reason1 piety1 & love (   
ord]1 c]ta9ly dem&$ t in/ead ( be+      
enc\rag$ 9 my folly1 ,i %\ld h be5      
dissuad$ f ! ru9 ,i 0 c\rt+1 & s5t back 
to my family2 & ?is conduct any "o t 0  
actuat$ by g5u9e virtue w\ld h pursu$2 b
 x %\ld be obs]v$ t ?\gh ,m4 de         
,pontv]re 0 a religi\s man1 he 0 n a    
virtu\s "o1 b a bigot1 :o knew no virtue
 except wor%ipp+ images & tell+ 8 beads1
 9 a ^w1 a k9d ( mission>y1 :o ?\ght !  
height ( m]it consi/$ 9 writ+ libels    
aga9/ ! m9i/]s ( ,g5eva4  ,f> f wi%+ to 
s5d me back1 he endeavor$ to favor my   
escape1 & put x out ( my p[] to return  
ev5 _h ,i be5 s dispos$4 ,x 0 a ?\s& to 
"o b he 0 s5d+ me to p]i% ) hung]1 or   
become a villa92 b all ?is 0 =eign to 8 
purpose2 he saw a s\l snat*$ f h]esy1 & 
re/or$ to ! bosom ( ! *ur*3 :e!r ,i 0 an

 hone/ man or a knave 0 v immat]ial1    
provid$ ,i w5t to mass4  ,?is ridicul\s 
mode ( ?9k+ is n peculi> to ,ca?olics2 x
 is ! voice ( e dogmatical p]suasion :]e
 m]it consi/s 9 belief1 & n 9 virtue4   
,y are call$ by ! ,almighty1 said ,m4 de
 ,pontv]re2 g to ,annecy1 :]e y w f9d a 
good & *>itable lady1 :om ! b\nty ( ! k+
 enables to turn s\ls f ^? errors %e has
 happily r5\nc$4 ,he spoke ( a ,madam de
 ,w>r5s1 a new conv]t1 to :om ! prie/s  
contriv$ to s5d ^? wret*es :o 7 dispos$ 
to sell _! fai?1 & ) ^! %e 0 9 a mann]  
con/ra9$ to %>e a p5sion ( two ?\s&     
francs be/[$ on h] by ! ,k+ ( ,s>d9ia4  
,i felt myself extremely humiliat$ at   
be+ suppos$ to want ! assi/ance ( a good
 & *>itable lady4  ,i _h no objection to
 be accommodat$ ) ev]y?+ ,i /ood 9 ne$  
(1 b did n wi% to receive x on ! foot+ (
 *>ity & to owe ?is obligation to a     
devotee 0 /ill worse2 not)/&+ my        
scruples ! p]suasions ( ,m4 de          
,pontv]re1 ! dread ( p]i%+ ) hung]1 !   
pleasures ,i promis$ myself f ! j\rney1 

& hope ( obta9+ "s desirable situation1 
det]m9$ me2 & ,i set out ?\gh           
reluctantly1 = ,annecy4  ,i c\ld easily 
h rea*$ x 9 a day1 b be+ 9 no great ha/e
 to arrive !re1 x took me ?ree4  ,my    
head 0 fill$ ) ! ideas ( adv5tures1 & ,i
 approa*$ e c\ntry-seat ,i saw 9 my way1
 9 expectation ( hav+ !m realiz$4  ,i _h
 too mu* timidity to knock at ! doors1  
or ev5 ent] if ,i saw !m op51 b ,i did  
:at ,i d>$--:i* 0 to s+ "u ^? w9d[s t ,i
 ?\ght _h ! mo/ favorable appe>ance2 & 0
 v mu* disconc]t$ to f9d ,i wa/$ my     
brea? to no purpose1 & t nei!r old nor  
"y ladies 7 attract$ by ! melody ( my   
voice1 or ! wit ( my poetry1 ?\gh "s    
songs my companions _h taught me ,i     
?\ght excell5t & t ,i sung !m           
incomp>ably4  ,at l5g? ,i arriv$ at     
,annecy1 & saw ,madam de ,w>r5s4  ,z ?is
 p]iod ( my life1 9 a great measure1    
det]m9$ my "*1 ,i c\ld n resolve to pass
 x lightly ov]4  ,i 0 9 ! middle ( my   
sixte5? ye>1 & ?\gh ,i c\ld n be call$  
h&some1 0 well made = my height2 ,i _h a

 good foot1 a well turn$ leg1 & animat$ 
c\nt5ance2 a well proportion$ m\?1 black
 hair & eyebr[s1 & my eyes1 ?\gh small &
 r too f> 9 my head1 sp>kl+ ) vivacity1 
d>t$ t innate fire :i* inflam$ my blood2
 un=tunately = me1 ,i knew no?+ ( all   
?is1 nev] hav+ be/[$ a s+le ?\ght on my 
p]son till x 0 too late to be ( any     
s]vice to me4 ,! timidity common to my  
age 0 height5$ by a natural b5evol5ce1  
:i* made me dread ! idea ( giv+ pa94    
,?\gh my m9d _h receiv$ "s cultivation1 
hav+ se5 no?+ ( ! _w1 ,i 0 an absolute  
/rang] to polite address1 & my m5tal    
acquisitions1 s f> f supply+ ?is defect1
 only s]v$ to increase my emb>rassm5t1  
by mak+ me s5sible ( e defici5cy4       
,dep5d+ little1 !re=e1 on ext]nal       
appe>ances1 ,i _h rec\rse to o!r        
exp$i5ts3 ,i wrote a mo/ elaborate      
lett]1 :]e1 m+l+ all ! fl[]s ( rhetoric 
:i* ,i _h borr[$ f books ) ! phrases (  
an appr5tice1 ,i endeavor$ to /rike !   
att5tion1 & insure ! good w ( ,madam de 
,w>r5s4  ,i enclos$ ,m4 de ,pontv]re's  

lett] 9 my own & wait$ on ! lady ) a    
he>t palpitat+ ) fe> & expectation4  ,x 
0 ,palm ,sunday1 ( ! ye> #agbh2 ,i 0    
in=m$ %e 0 t mom5t gone to *ur*2 ,i ha/5
 aft] h]1 ov]take1 & speak to h]4--,!   
place is yet fre% 9 my memory--h[ c x be
 o!rwise8 (t5 h ,i moi/5$ x ) my te>s & 
cov]$ x ) kisses4--,:y _c ,i enclose )  
gold ! happy spot1 & r5d] x ! object (  
univ]sal v5]ation8  ,:oev] wi%es to     
honor monum5ts ( human salvation w\ld   
only approa* x on _! knees4  ,x 0 a     
passage at ! back ( ! h\se1 bord]$ on ! 
left h& by a little rivulet1 :i* sep>at$
 x f ! g>d51 &1 on ! "r1 by ! c\rt y>d  
wall2 at ! end 0 a private door :i* op5$
 into ! *ur* ( ! ,cordeli]s4  ,madam de 
,w>r5s 0 j pass+ ?is door2 b on he>+ my 
voice1 in/antly turn$ ab\t4  ,:at an    
effect did ! sight ( h] produce6  ,i    
expect$ to see a dev\t1 =bidd+ old      
woman2 ,m4 de ,pontv]re's pi\s & wor?y  
lady c\ld be no o!r 9 my conception2    
in/ead ( :i*1 ,i see a face beam+ )     
*>ms1 f9e blue eyes full ( sweetness1 a 

complexion ^: :it5ess dazzl$ ! sight1 ! 
=m ( an en*ant+ neck1 no?+ escap$ ! eag]
 eye ( ! "y proselyte2 = t in/ant ,i 0  
h]s6--a religion prea*$ by su*          
mission>ies mu/ lead to p>adise6  ,my   
lett] 0 pres5t$ ) a trembl+ h&2 %e took 
x ) a smile --op5$ x1 glanc$ an eye ov] 
,m4 de ,pontv]re's & aga9 return$ to    
m9e1 :i* %e read ?r\gh & w\ld h read    
aga91 _h n ! footman t in/ant in=m$ h] t
 s]vice 0 beg9n+--,*ild1 said %e1 9 a   
tone ( voice :i* made e n]ve vibrate1 y 
are w&]+ ab\t at an e>ly age--x is      
really a pity6--& )\t wait+ = an answ]1 
add$--,g to my h\se1 bid !m give y      
some?+ = breakfa/1 aft] mass1 ,i w speak
 to y4  ,l\isa--,eleanora de ,w>r5s 0 ( 
! noble & anci5t family ( ,la ,t\r de   
,pit1 ( ,vevay1 a city 9 ! c\ntry ( !   
,vaudois4  ,%e 0 m>ri$ v "y to a ,m4 de 
,w>r5s1 ( ! h\se ( ,loys1 elde/ son (   
,m4 de ,vill>d91 ( ,lausanne2 !re 7 no  
*ildr5 by ?is m>riage1 :i* 0 f> f be+ a 
happy "o4  ,"s dome/ic uneas9ess made   
,madam de ,w>r5s take ! resolution (    

cross+ ! ,lake1 & ?r[+ h]self at ! feet 
( ,victor ,amadeus1 :o 0 !n at ,evian2  
?us ab&on+ h] husb&1 family1 & c\ntry by
 a gidd9ess simil> to m9e1 :i*          
precipitation %e1 too1 has f\nd         
suffici5t "t & reason to lam5t4  ,! k+1 
:o 0 fond ( appe>+ a zeal\s promot] ( ! 
,ca?olic fai?1 took h] "u 8 protection1 
& complim5t$ h] ) a p5sion ( fifte5     
hundr$ livres ( ,pi$mont1 :i* 0 a       
consid]able appo9tm5t = a pr9ce :o nev] 
_h ! "* ( be+ g5]\s2 b f9d+ 8 lib]ality 
made "s conjecture he _h an affection = 
! lady1 he s5t h] to ,annecy escort$ by 
a deta*m5t ( 8 gu>ds1 :]e1 "u !         
direction ( ,mi*ael ,gabriel de ,b]nex1 
titul> bi%op ( ,g5eva1 %e abjur$ h] =m] 
religion at ! ,conv5t ( ! ,visitation4  
,i came to ,annecy j six ye>s aft] ?is  
ev5t2 ,madam de ,w>r5s 0 !n             
eight--&--tw5ty1 be+ born ) ! c5tury4   
,h] beauty1 consi/+ m 9 ! expressive    
animation ( ! c\nt5ance1 ?an a set (    
features1 0 9 its m]idian2 h] mann]     
soo?+ & t5d]2 an angelic smile play$    

ab\t h] m\?1 :i* 0 small & delicate2 %e 
wore h] hair 7:i* 0 ( an a% color1 &    
uncommonly beautiful7 ) an air (        
neglig5ce t made h] appe> /ill m        
int]e/+2 %e 0 %ort1 & r ?ick = h]       
height1 ?\gh by no means disagreeably s2
 b !re c\ld n be a m lovely face1 a f9] 
neck1 or h&s & arms m exquisitely =m$4  
,h] education _h be5 d]iv$ f su* a      
v>iety ( s\rces1 t x =m$ an extraord9>y 
assemblage4  ,l me1 %e _h lo/ h] "m at  
h] bir?1 & _h receiv$ in/ruction z x    
*anc$ to pres5t itself2 %e _h le>n$     
some?+ ( h] gov]ness1 some?+ ( h] fa!r1 
a little ( h] ma/]s1 b copi\sly f h]    
lov]s2 p>ticul>ly a ,m4 de ,tavel1 :o1  
possess+ bo? ta/e & in=mation1 endeavor$
 to adorn ) !m ! m9d ( h] he lov$4  ,^! 
v>i\s in/ructions1 n be+ prop]ly        
arrang$1 t5d$ to imp$e ea* o!r1 & %e did
 n acquire t degree ( improvem5t h]     
natural good s5se 0 capable ( receiv+2  
%e knew some?+ ( philosophy & physic1 b 
n en\gh to eradicate ! fondness %e _h   
imbib$ f h] fa!r = empiricism & al*emy2 

%e made elixirs1 t9ctures1 balsams1     
pret5d$ to secrets1 & prep>$ mage/ry2   
:ile quacks & pret5d]s1 pr(it+ by h]    
weakness1 de/roy$ h] prop]ty among      
furnaces1 drugs & m9]als1 dim9i%+ ^?    
*>ms & accompli%m5ts :i* might h be5 !  
delight ( ! mo/ elegant circles4  ,b    
?\gh ^! int]e/$ wret*es took advantage (
 h] ill-appli$ education to obscure h]  
natural good s5se1 h] excell5t he>t     
reta9$ its purity2 h] amiable mildness1 
s5sibility = ! un=tunate1 inexhau/ible  
b\nty1 & op51 *e]ful frankness1 knew no 
v>iation2 ev5 at ! approa* ( old age1 :5
 attack$ by v>i\s calamities1 r5d]$ m   
cutt+ by indig5ce1 ! s]5ity ( h]        
disposition pres]v$ to ! end ( h] life !
 pleas+ gayety ( h] happie/ days4  ,h]  
errors proce$$ f an inexhau/ible fund ( 
activity1 :i* dem&$ p]petual employm5t4 
,%e f\nd no satisfaction 9 ! cu/om>y    
intrigues ( h] sex1 b1 be+ =m$ = va/    
designs1 s\ght ! direction ( important  
ent]prises & discov]ies4  ,9 h] place   
,madam de ,longueville w\ld h be5 a m]e 

trifl]1 9 ,madam de ,longueville's      
situation %e w\ld h gov]n$ ! /ate4  ,h] 
tal5ts did n accord ) h] =tune2 :at w\ld
 h ga9$ h] di/9ction 9 a m elevat$      
sph]e1 became h] ru94  ,9 ent]prises :i*
 suit$ h] disposition1 %e arrang$ ! plan
 9 h] imag9ation1 :i* 0 ev] c>ri$ ( its 
utmo/ ext5t1 & ! means %e employ$ be+   
proportion$ r to h] ideas ?an abilities1
 %e fail$ by ! mismanagem5t ( ^? ^u :om 
%e dep5d$1 & 0 ru9$ :]e ano!r w\ld sc>ce
 h be5 a los]4  ,?is active disposition1
 :i* involv$ h] 9 s _m difficulties1 0  
at lea/ productive ( "o b5efit z x      
prev5t$ h] f pass+ ! rema9d] ( h] life 9
 ! mona/ic asylum %e _h *os51 :i* %e _h 
"s ?\ght (4  ,! simple & uni=m life ( a 
nun1 & ! little cabals & gossip+s ( _!  
p>lor1 7 n adapt$ to a m9d vigor\s &    
active1 :i*1 e day =m+ new sy/ems1 _h   
occasions = lib]ty to attempt _!        
completion4  ,! good bi%op ( ,b]nex1 )  
less wit ?an ,francis ( ,sales1 resembl$
 him 9 _m p>ticul>s1 & ,madam de ,w>r5s1
 :om he lov$ to call 8 daught]1 & :o 0 l

 ,madam de ,*antel 9 sev]al respects1   
might h increas$ ! resemblance by retir+
 l h] f ! _w1 _h %e n be5 disgu/$ ) !   
idle trifl+ ( a conv5t4  ,x 0 n want (  
zeal prev5t$ ?is amiable woman f giv+ ^?
 pro(s ( devotion :i* might h be5       
expect$ f a new conv]t1 "u ! imm$iate   
direction ( a prelate4  ,:atev] might h 
influ5c$ h] to *ange h] religion1 %e 0  
c]ta9ly s9c]e 9 t %e _h embrac$2 %e     
might f9d suffici5t occasion to rep5t   
hav+ abjur$ h] =m] fai?1 b no incl9ation
 to return to x4  ,%e n only di$ a good 
,ca?olic1 b truly liv$ "o2 nay1 ,i d>e  
affirm 7& ,i ?9k ,i h _h ! opportunity  
to read ! secrets ( h] he>t7 t x 0 only 
h] av]sion to s+ul>ity t prev5t$ h] act+
 ! devotee 9 public2 9 a ^w1 h] piety 0 
too s9c]e to give way to any affectation
 ( x4  ,b ?is is n ! place to enl>ge on 
h] pr9ciples3 ,i %all f9d o!r occasions 
to speak ( !m4  ,let ^? :o d5y ! exi/5ce
 ( a sympa?y ( s\ls1 expla91 if !y "k   
h[1 :y ! fir/ glance1 ! fir/ ^w ( ,madam
 de ,w>r5s inspir$ me1 n only ) a lively

 atta*m5t1 b ) ! mo/ unb\nd$ confid5ce1 
:i* has s9ce kn[n no abatem5t4  ,say ?is
 0 love 7:i* w at lea/ appe> d\btful to 
^? :o read ! sequel ( our atta*m5t7 h[  
c\ld ?is passion be att5d$ ) s5tim5ts   
:i* sc>ce ev] accompany its comm5cem5t1 
su* z peace1 s]5ity1 security1 &        
confid5ce4  ,h[1 :5 mak+ application to 
an amiable & poli%$ woman1 ^: situation 
9 life 0 s sup]ior to m9e1 s f> above   
any ,i _h yet approa*$1 on :om1 9 a     
great measure1 dep5d$ my future =tune by
 ! degree ( int]e/ %e might take 9 x2   
h[1 ,i say ) s _m reasons to depress me1
 did ,i feel myself z free1 z mu* at my 
ease1 z if ,i _h be5 p]fectly secure (  
pleas+ h]6  ,:y did ,i n exp]i5ce a     
mom5t ( emb>rassm5t1 timidity or        
re/ra9t8 ,naturally ba%ful1 easily      
confus$1 hav+ se5 no?+ ( ! _w1 c\ld ,i1 
! fir/ "t1 ! fir/ mom5t ,i beheld h]1   
adopt c>ess+ language1 & a famili> tone1
 z readily z aft] t5 ye>s' intimacy _h  
r5d]$ ^! fre$oms natural8  ,is x        
possible to possess love1 ,i w n say )\t

 desires1 = ,i c]ta9ly _h !m1 b )\t     
inquietude1 )\t jeal\sy8  ,c we avoid   
feel+ an anxi\s wi% at lea/ to "k :e!r  
our affection is return$8  ,yet su* a "q
 nev] ent]$ my imag9ation2 ,i %\ld z    
soon h inquir$1 d ,i love myself2 nor   
did %e ev] express a great] degree (    
curiosity2 !re 01 c]ta9ly1 some?+       
extraord9>y 9 my atta*m5t to ?is *>m+   
woman & x w be f\nd 9 ! sequel1 t "s    
extravagances1 :i* _c be =ese51 att5d$  
x4  ,:at c\ld be done = me1 0 ! pres5t  
"q1 & 9 ord] to discuss ! po9t ) great] 
fre$om1 %e made me d9e ) h]4  ,?is 0 !  
fir/ meal 9 my life :]e ,i _h exp]i5c$ a
 want ( appetite1 & h] woman1 :o wait$1 
obs]v$ x 0 ! fir/ "t %e _h se5 a        
travell] ( my age & appe>ance defici5t 9
 t p>ticul>3 ?is rem>k1 :i* did me no   
injury 9 ! op9ion ( h] mi/ress1 fell h>d
 on an ov]gr[n cl[n1 :o 0 my fell[ gue/1
 & dev\r$ suffici5t to h s]v$ at lea/   
six mod]ate fe$]s4  ,= me1 ,i 0 too mu* 
*>m$ to ?9k ( eat+2 my he>t began to    
imbibe a delici\s s5sation1 :i* engross$

 my :ole be+1 & left no room = o!r      
objects4  ,madam de ,w>r5s wi%$ to he> !
 p>ticul>s ( my little hi/ory--all !    
vivacity ,i _h lo/ dur+ my s]vitude     
return$ & assi/$ ! recital4  ,9         
proportion to ! int]e/ ?is excell5t     
woman took 9 my /ory1 did %e lam5t !    
fate to :i* ,i _h expos$ myself2        
compassion 0 pa9t$ on h] features1 &    
express$ by e action4  ,%e c\ld n exhort
 me to return to ,g5eva1 be+ too well   
aw>e t h] words & actions 7 /rictly     
scrut9iz$1 & t su* advice w\ld be ?\ght 
high treason aga9/ ,ca?olicism1 b %e    
spoke s feel+ly ( ! affliction ,i mu/   
give h]7my7 fa!r1 t x 0 easy to p]ceive 
%e w\ld h approv$ my return+ to console 
him4  ,alas6  %e little ?\ght h[        
p[]fully ?is plead$ aga9/ h]self2 ! m   
eloqu5tly p]suasive %e appe>$1 ! less   
c\ld ,i resolve to te> myself f h]4  ,i 
knew t return+ to ,g5eva w\ld be putt+  
an insup]able b>ri] betwe5 u1 unless ,i 
repeat$ ! exp$i5t :i* _h br\ght me "h1 &
 x 0 c]ta9ly bett] to pres]ve ?an expose

 myself to ! dang] ( a relapse2 besides 
all ?is1 my conduct 0 pr$et]m9$1 ,i 0   
resolv$ n to return4  ,madam de ,w>r5s1 
see+ h] endeavors w\ld be fruitless1    
became less explicit1 & only add$1 ) an 
air ( commis]ation1 ,poor *ild6  ?\ mu/ 
g :]e ,provid5ce directs !e1 b "o day ?\
 wilt ?9k ( me4--,i believe %e _h no    
conception at t "t h[ fatally h]        
pr$iction w\ld be v]ifi$4  ,! difficulty
 /ill rema9$ h[ ,i 0 to ga9 a subsi/5ce8
  ,i h already obs]v$ t ,i knew too     
little ( engrav+ = t to furni% my       
res\rce1 & _h ,i be5 m exp]t1 ,savoy 0  
too poor a c\ntry to give mu*           
enc\ragem5t to ! arts4  ,! above-m5tion$
 glutton1 :o eat = u z well z himself1  
be+ oblig$ to pause 9 ord] to ga9 "s    
relaxation f ! fatigue ( x1 imp>t$ a    
piece ( advice1 :i*1 accord+ to him1    
came express f ,heav52 ?\gh to judge by 
its effects x appe>$ to h be5 dictat$ f 
a direct contr>y qu>t]3 ?is 0 t ,i %\ld 
g to ,tur91 :]e1 9 a hospital in/itut$ =
 ! in/ruction ( cate*um5s1 ,i %\ld f9d  

food1 bo? spiritual & temporal1 be      
reconcil$ to ! bosom ( ! *ur*1 & meet ) 
"s *>itable ,*ri/ians1 :o w\ld make x a 
po9t to procure me a situation t w\ld   
turn to my advantage4  ,9 reg>d to !    
exp5ses ( ! j\rney1 cont9u$ our advisor1
 8 grace1 my "l bi%op1 w n be backw>d1  
:5 once madam has propos$ ?is holy "w1  
to (f] 8 *>itable donation1 & madam1 !  
b>oness1 ^: *>ity is s well kn[n1 once m
 address+ himself to ! cont9uation ( 8  
meal1 w c]ta9ly contribute4  ,i 0 by no 
means pleas$ ) all ^! *>ities2 ,i said  
no?+1 b my he>t 0 ready to bur/ )       
vexation4  ,madam de ,w>r5s1 :o did n   
seem to ?9k s highly ( ?is exp$i5t z !  
projector pret5d$ to d1 cont5t$ h]self  
by say+1 ev]yone %\ld endeavor to       
promote good actions1 & t %e w\ld m5tion
 x to 8 lord%ip2 b ! m$dl+ devil1 :o _h 
"s private int]e/ 9 ?is affair1 &       
que/ion$ :e!r %e w\ld urge x to 8       
satisfaction1 took c>e to acqua9t !     
almon]s ) my /ory1 & s f> influ5c$ ^?   
good prie/s1 t :5 ,madam de ,w>r5s1 :o  

dislik$ ! j\rney on my acc\nt1 m5tion$ x
 to ! bi%op1 %e f\nd x s f> conclud$ on1
 t he imm$iately put into h] h&s ! money
 design$ = my little viaticum4  ,%e d>$ 
n advance any?+ aga9/ x2 ,i 0 approa*+  
an age :5 a woman l h] c\ld n1 ) any    
propriety1 appe> anxi\s to reta9 me4    
,my dep>ture be+ ?us det]m9$ by ^? :o   
und]took ! managem5t ( my conc]ns1 ,i _h
 only to submit2 & ,i did x )\t mu*     
repugnance4  ,?\gh ,tur9 0 at a great]  
di/ance f ,madam de ,w>r5s ?an ,g5eva1  
yet be+ ! capital ( ! c\ntry ,i 0 n[ 91 
x seem$ to h m connection ) ,annecy ?an 
a city "u a diff]5t gov]nm5t & ( a      
contr>y religion2 besides1 z ,i und]took
 ?is j\rney 9 ob$i5ce to h]1 ,i consid]$
 myself z liv+ "u h] direction1 :i* 0 m 
flatt]+ ?an b>ely to cont9ue 9 !        
neighborhood2 to sum up all1 ! idea ( a 
long j\rney co9cid$ ) my insurm\ntable  
passion = rambl+1 :i* already began to  
demon/rate itself4  ,to pass ! m\nta9s1 
to my eye appe>$ delightful2 h[ *>m+ !  
reflection ( elevat+ myself above my    

companions by ! :ole height ( ! ,alps6  
,to see ! _w is an almo/ irresi/ible    
temptation to a ,g5evan1 accord+ly ,i   
gave my cons5t4  ,he :o sugge/$ ! j\rney
 0 to set (f 9 two days ) 8 wife4 ,i 0  
recomm5d$ to _! c>e2 !y 7 likewise made 
my purse --be>]s1 :i* _h be5 augm5t$ by 
,madam de ,w>r5s1 :o1 n cont5t$ ) ^!    
k9dnesses1 add$ secretly a pecuni>y     
re9=cem5t1 att5d$ ) ! mo/ ample         
in/ructions1 & we dep>t$ on ! ,w$nesday 
be=e ,ea/]4  ,! day foll[+1 my fa!r     
arriv$ at ,annecy1 accompani$ by 8      
fri5d1 a ,mr4 ,rival1 :o 0 likewise a   
wat*mak]2 he 0 a man ( s5se & lett]s1 :o
 wrote bett] v]ses ?an ,la ,motte1 &    
spoke almo/ z well2 :at is /ill m to 8  
praise1 he 0 a man ( ! /ricte/          
integrity1 b ^: ta/e = lit]ature only   
s]v$ to make "o ( 8 sons a com$ian4     
,hav+ trac$ me to ! h\se ( ,madam de    
,w>r5s1 !y cont5t$ !mselves ) lam5t+1 l 
h]1 my fate1 in/ead ( ov]tak+ me1 :i*1  
7z !y 7 on horseback & ,i on foot7 !y   
might h accompli%$ ) ! greate/ ease4    

,my uncle ,b]n>d did ! same ?+1 he      
arriv$ at ,consignon1 receiv$ in=mation 
t ,i 0 gone to ,annecy1 & imm$iately    
return$ back to ,g5eva2 ?us my ne>e/    
relations seem$ to h conspir$ ) my      
adv]se />s to consign me to mis]y & ru94
  ,by a simil> neglig5ce1 my bro!r 0 s  
entirely lo/1 t x 0 nev] kn[n :at 0     
become ( him4  ,my fa!r 0 n only a man (
 honor b ( ! /ricte/ probity1 & endur$ )
 t magnanimity :i* frequ5tly produces ! 
mo/ %9+ virtues3 ,i may add1 he 0 a good
 fa!r1 p>ticul>ly to me :om he t5d]ly   
lov$2 b he likewise lov$ 8 pleasures1 & 
s9ce we _h be5 sep>at$ o!r connections  
_h weak5$ 8 pat]nal affections4 ,he _h  
m>ri$ aga9 at ,nion1 & ?\gh 8 second    
wife 0 too old to expect *ildr51 %e _h  
relations2 my fa!r 0 unit$ to ano!r     
family1 surr\nd$ by o!r objects1 & a    
v>iety ( c>es prev5t$ my return+ to 8   
remembrance4  ,he 0 9 ! decl9e ( life & 
_h no?+ to support ! inconv5i5ces ( old 
age2 my "m's prop]ty devolv$ to me & my 
bro!r1 b1 dur+ our abs5ce1 ! int]e/ ( x 

0 enjoy$ by my fa!r3 ,i d n mean to inf]
 t ?is consid]ation _h an imm$iate      
effect on 8 conduct1 b x _h an          
imp]ceptible "o1 & prev5t$ him mak+ use 
( t ex]tion to rega9 me :i* he w\ld     
o!rwise h employ$2 & ?is1 ,i ?9k1 0 !   
reason t hav+ trac$ me z f> z ,annecy1  
he /opp$ %ort1 )\t proce$+ to ,*amb]y1  
:]e he 0 almo/ c]ta9 ,i %\ld be f\nd2 & 
likewise acc\nts :y1 on visit+ him      
sev]al times s9ce my flight1 he always  
receiv$ me ) great k9dness1 b nev] made 
any ef=ts to reta9 me4  ,?is conduct 9 a
 fa!r1 ^: affection & virtue ,i 0 s well
 conv9c$ (1 has giv5 bir? to reflections
 on ! regulation ( my own conduct :i* h 
greatly contribut$ to pres]ve !         
integrity ( my he>t4  ,x has taught me  
?is great lesson ( morality1 p]haps !   
only "o t c h any conspicu\s influ5ce on
 our actions1 t we %\ld ev] c>efully    
avoid putt+ our int]e/s 9 competition ) 
our duty1 or promise ourselves felicity 
f ! mis=tunes ( o!rs2 c]ta9 t 9 su*     
circum/ances1 h[ev] s9c]e our love (    

virtue may be1 soon] or lat] x w give   
way & we %all imp]ceptibly become unju/ 
& wick$1 9 fact1 h[ev] upright 9 our    
int5tions4  ,?is maxim1 /rongly impr9t$ 
on my m9d1 & r$uc$1 ?\gh r too late1 to 
practice1 has giv5 my conduct an        
appe>ance ( folly & :imsicality1 n only 
9 public1 b /ill m among my             
acqua9tances3 x has be5 said1 ,i affect$
 orig9ality1 & s\ght to act diff]5t f   
o!r p2 ! tru? is1 ,i nei!r endeavor to  
con=m or be s+ul>1 ,i desire only to act
 virtu\sly & avoid situations1 :i*1 by  
sett+ my int]e/ 9 opposition to t (     
ano!r p]son's1 might inspire me ) a     
secret1 ?\gh involunt>y wi% to 8        
disadvantage4  ,two ye>s ago1 ,my ,"l   
,m>%al w\ld h put my "n 9 8 w1 :i* ,i   
took e me?od to prev5t1 assur+ him ,i   
w\ld n = ! _w "k myself 9 ! w ( any "o1 
mu* less 9 82 he gave up ! idea2 b      
insi/$ 9 return1 t ,i %\ld accept an    
annuity on 8 life2 ?is ,i cons5t$ to4   
,x w be said1 ,i f9d my acc\nt 9 !      
alt]ation2 p]haps ,i may2 b oh1 my      

b5efactor6  my fa!r1 ,i am n[ s5sible t1
 %\ld ,i h ! mis=tune to survive !e1 ,i 
%\ld h ev]y?+ to lose1 no?+ to ga94     
,?is1 9 my idea1 9 true philosophy1 !   
sure/ bulw>k ( human rectitude2 e day d 
,i receive fre% conviction ( its pr(\nd 
solidity4  ,i h endeavor$ to recomm5d x 
9 all my latt] writ+s1 b ! multitude    
read too sup]ficially to h made ! rem>k4
  ,if ,i survive my pres5t und]tak+1 &  
am able to beg9 ano!r1 ,i mean1 9 a     
cont9uation ( ,emilius1 to give su* a   
lively & m>k+ example ( ?is maxim z _c  
fail to /rike att5tion4  ,b ,i h made   
reflections en\gh = a travell]1 x is "t 
to cont9ue my j\rney4  ,x turn$ out m   
agreeable ?an ,i expect$3 my cl[ni%     
conductor 0 n s morose z he appe>$ to   
be4  ,he 0 a middle-ag$ man1 wore 8     
black1 grizzly hair1 9 a queue1 _h a    
m>tial air1 a /rong voice1 0 tol]ably   
*e]ful1 & to make up = n hav+ be5 taught
 any trade1 c\ld turn 8 h& to e "o4     
,hav+ propos$ to e/abli% "s k9d (       
manufactory at ,annecy1 he _h consult$  

,madam de ,w>r5s1 :o imm$iately gave    
into ! project1 & he 0 n[ go+ to ,tur9  
to lay ! plan be=e ! m9i/] & get 8      
approbation1 = :i* j\rney he took c>e to
 be well rew>d$4  ,?is drole _h ! art ( 
+ratiat+ himself ) ! prie/s1 :om he ev] 
appe>$ eag] to s]ve2 he adopt$ a c]ta9  
j>gon :i* he _h le>n$ by frequ5t+ _!    
company1 & ?\ght himself a notable      
prea*]2 he c\ld ev5 repeat "o passage f 
! ,bible 9 ,lat91 & x answ]$ 8 purpose z
 well z if he _h kn[n a ?\s&1 = he      
repeat$ x a ?\s& times a day4  ,he 0    
seldom at a loss = money :5 he knew :at 
purse conta9$ x2 yet1 0 r artful ?an    
knavi%1 & :5 deal+ out 9 an affect$ tone
 8 unmean+ disc\rses1 resembl$ ,pet] !  
,h]mit1 prea*+ up ! crusade ) a sabre at
 8 side4  ,madam ,sabran1 8 wife1 0 a   
tol]able1 good sort ( woman2 m peaceable
 by day ?an by night2 z ,i slept 9 !    
same *amb] ,i 0 frequ5tly di/urb$ by h] 
wakefulness1 & %\ld h be5 m s _h ,i     
compreh5d$ ! cause ( x2 b ,i 0 9 ! *apt]
 ( dullness1 :i* left to nature ! :ole  

c>e ( my own in/ruction4  ,i w5t on     
gayly ) my pi\s guide & 8 hopeful       
companion1 no s9i/] accid5t imp$+ our   
j\rney4  ,i 0 9 ! happie/ circum/ances  
bo? ( m9d & body t ,i ev] recollect hav+
 exp]i5c$2 "y1 full ( heal? & security1 
plac+ unb\nd$ confid5ce 9 myself & o!rs2
 9 t %ort b *>m+ mom5t ( human life1 ^: 
expansive en]gy c>ries1 if ,i may s     
express myself1 our be+ to ! utmo/ ext5t
 ( our s5sations1 embelli%+ all nature )
 an inexpressible *>m1 fl[+ f ! consci\s
 & ris+ enjoym5t ( our exi/5ce4  ,my    
pleas+ inquietudes became less w&]+3 ,i 
_h n[ an object on :i* imag9ation c\ld  
fix4  ,i look$ on myself z ! "w1 !      
pupil1 ! fri5d1 almo/ ! lov] ( ,madam de
 ,w>r5s2 ! oblig+ ?+s %e _h said1 !     
c>esses %e _h be/[$ on me2 ! t5d] int]e/
 %e seem$ to take 9 ev]y?+ t conc]n$ me2
 ^? *>m+ looks1 :i* seem$ replete )     
love1 because !y s p[]fully inspir$ x1 e
 consid]ation flatt]$ my ideas dur+ ?is 
j\rney1 & furni%$ ! mo/ delici\s        
rev]ies1 :i*1 no d\bt1 no fe> ( my      

future condition arose to embitt]4  ,9  
s5d+ me to ,tur91 ,i ?\ght !y engag$ to 
f9d me an agreeable subsi/5ce !re2 ?us  
eas$ ( e c>e ,i pass$ lightly on1 :ile  
"y desires1 en*ant+ hopes1 & brilliant  
prospects employ$ my m9d2 ea* object t  
pres5t$ itself seem$ to insure my       
approa*+ felicity4  ,i imag9$ t e h\se 0
 fill$ ) joy\s fe/ivity1 ! mead[s       
res\nd$ ) sports & revelry1 ! riv]s (f]$
 refre%+ ba?s1 delici\s fi% wanton$ 9 ^!
 /reams1 & h[ delightful 0 x to ramble  
along ! fl[]y banks6  ,! trees 7 load$ )
 ! *oice/ fruits1 :ile _! %ade af=d$ !  
mo/ *>m+ & voluptu\s retreats to happy  
lov]s2 ! m\nta9s ab\nd$ ) milk & cream2 
peace & leisure1 simplicity & joy1 m+l$ 
) ! *>m ( go+ ,i knew n :i!r1 & ev]y?+  
,i saw c>ri$ to my he>t "s new cause =  
rapture4  ,! gr&eur1 v>iety1 & real     
beauty ( ! sc5e1 9 "s measure r5d]$ !   
*>m reasonable1 9 :i* vanity came 9 =   
its %>e2 to g s "y to ,italy1 view su*  
an ext5t ( c\ntry1 & pursue ! r\te (    
,hannibal ov] ! ,alps1 appe>$ a glory   

beyond my age2 add to all ?is our       
frequ5t & agreeable halts1 ) a good     
appetite & pl5ty to satisfy x2 = 9 tru? 
x 0 n wor? :ile to be sp>+2 at ,mr4     
,sabran's table :at ,i eat c\ld sc>ce be
 miss$4  ,9 ! :ole c\rse ( my life ,i _c
 recollect an int]val m p]fectly exempt 
f c>e1 ?an ! sev5 or eight days ,i 0    
pass+ f ,annecy to ,tur94  ,z we 7      
oblig$ to walk ,madam ,sabran's pace1 x 
r appe>$ an agreeable jaunt ?an a       
fatigu+ j\rney2 !re /ill rema9s ! mo/   
pleas+ impressions ( x on my m9d1 & !   
idea ( a p$e/rian excursion1 p>ticul>ly 
among ! m\nta9s1 has f ?is "t seem$     
delightful4  ,x 0 only 9 my happie/ days
 t ,i travell$ on foot1 & ev] ) ! mo/   
unb\nd$ satisfaction2 aft]w>ds1 occupi$ 
) bus9ess & encumb]$ ) baggage1 ,i 0 =c$
 to act ! g5tleman & employ a c>riage1  
:]e c>e1 emb>rassm5t1 & re/ra9t1 7 sure 
to be my companions1 & in/ead ( be+     
delight$ ) ! j\rney1 ,i only wi%$ to    
arrive at ! place ( de/9ation4  ,i 0 a  
long "t at ,p>is1 wi%+ to meet ) two    

companions ( simil> dispositions1 :o    
w\ld ea* agree to appropriate fifty     
gu9eas ( 8 prop]ty & a ye> ( 8 "t to    
mak+ ! t\r ( ,italy on foot1 ) no o!r   
att5dance ?an a "y fell[ to c>ry our    
necess>ies2 ,i h met ) _m :o seem$      
en*ant$ ) ! project1 b consid]$ x only z
 a vision>y s*eme1 :i* s]v$ well en\gh  
to talk (1 )\t any design ( putt+ x 9   
execution4  ,"o day1 speak+ ) en?usiasm 
( ?is project to ,did]ot & ,grimm1 !y   
gave into ! proposal ) su* w>m? t ,i    
?\ght ! matt] conclud$ on2 b x only     
turn$ out a j\rney on pap]1 9 :i* ,grimm
 ?\ght no?+ s pleas+ z mak+ ,did]ot     
commit a numb] ( impieties1 & %utt+ me  
up 9 ! ,inquisition = !m1 in/ead ( him4 
,my regret at arriv+ s soon at ,tur9 0  
comp5sat$ by ! pleasure ( view+ a l>ge  
city1 & ! hope ( figur+ !re 9 a         
conspicu\s "*1 = my bra9 already began  
to be intoxicat$ ) ! fumes ( ambition2  
my pres5t situation appe>$ inf9itely    
above t ( an appr5tice1 & ,i 0 f> f     
=esee+ h[ soon ,i %\ld be mu* bel[ x4   

,be=e ,i proce$1 ,i ought to (f] an     
excuse1 or ju/ification to ! read] = !  
great numb] ( un5t]ta9+ p>ticul>s ,i am 
necessitat$ to repeat4  ,9 pursuance ( !
 resolution ,i h =m$ to ent] on ?is     
public exhibition ( myself1 x is        
necess>y t no?+ %\ld be> ! appe>ance (  
obscurity or concealm5t4  ,i %\ld be    
cont9ually "u ! eye ( ! read]1 he %\ld  
be enabl$ to foll[ me ,9 all ! w&]+s (  
my he>t1 ?r\gh e intricacy ( my         
adv5tures2 he mu/ f9d no void or *asm 9 
my relation1 nor lose sight ( me an     
in/ant1 le/ he %\ld f9d occasion to say1
 :at 0 he do+ at ?is "t2 & suspect me ( 
n hav+ d>$ to reveal ! :ole4  ,i give   
suffici5t scope to malignity 9 :at ,i   
say2 x is unnecess>y ,i %\ld furni% /ill
 m by my sci5ce4  ,my money 0 all gone1 
ev5 t ,i _h secretly receiv$ f ,madam de
 ,w>r5s3 ,i _h be5 s indiscreet z to    
divulge ?is secret1 & my conductors _h  
tak5 c>e to pr(it by x4  ,madam ,sabran 
f\nd means to deprive me ( ev]y?+ ,i _h1
 ev5 to a ribbon embroid]$ ) silv]1 )   

:i* ,madam de ,w>r5s _h adorn$ ! hilt ( 
my sword2 ?is ,i regrett$ m ?an all !   
re/2 inde$ ! sword itself w\ld h gone ! 
same way1 _h ,i be5 less ob/9ately b5t  
on reta9+ x4  ,!y _h1 x is true1        
support$ me dur+ ! j\rney1 b left me    
no?+ at ! end ( x1 & ,i arriv$ at ,tur91
 )\t money1 clo!s1 or l951 be+ precisely
 9 ! situation to owe to my m]it alone !
 :ole honor ( t =tune ,i 0 ab\t to      
acquire4  ,i took c>e 9 ! fir/ place to 
deliv] ! lett]s ,i 0 *>g$ )1 & 0        
pres5tly conduct$ to ! hospital ( !     
cate*um5s1 to be in/ruct$ 9 t religion1 
= :i*1 9 return1 ,i 0 to receive        
subsi/5ce4  ,on ent]+1 ,i pass$ an      
iron-b>r$ gate1 :i* 0 imm$iately        
d\ble-lock$ on me2 ?is beg9n+ 0 by no   
means calculat$ to give me a favorable  
op9ion ( my situation4  ,i 0 !n conduct$
 to a l>ge ap>tm5t1 ^: furniture consi/$
 ( a wood5 alt> at ! f>!r end1 on :i* 0 
a l>ge crucifix1 & r\nd x sev]al        
indiff]5t *airs1 ( ! same mat]ials4  ,9 
?is hall ( audi5ce 7 assembl$ f\r or    

five ill-look+ b&itti1 my comrades 9    
in/ruction1 :o w\ld r h be5 tak5 = tru/y
 s]vants ( ! devil ?an c&idates = !     
k+dom ( heav54  ,two ( ^! fell[s 7      
,sclavonians1 b gave out !y 7 ,african  
,jews1 & 7z !y assur$ me7 _h run ?r\gh  
,spa9 & ,italy1 embrac+ ! ,*ri/ian fai?1
 & be+ baptis$ :]ev] !y ?\ght x wor? _! 
labor4  ,soon aft] !y op5$ ano!r iron   
gate1 :i* divid$ a l>ge balcony t       
ov]look$ a c\rt y>d1 & by ?is av5ue     
ent]$ our si/] cate*um5s1 :o1 l me1 7   
go+ to be reg5]at$1 n by baptism b a    
solemn abjuration4  ,a vil] set ( idle1 
dirty1 ab&on$ h>lots1 nev] disgrac$ any 
p]suasion2 "o among !m1 h[ev]1 appe>$   
pretty & int]e/+2 %e might be ab\t my   
own age1 p]haps a ye> or two old]1 & _h 
a pair ( rogui% eyes1 :i* frequ5tly     
enc\nt]$ m9e2 ?is 0 en\gh to inspire me 
) ! desire ( becom+ acqua9t$ ) h]1 b %e 
_h be5 s /rongly recomm5d$ to ! c>e ( ! 
old gov]ness ( ?is respectable si/]hood1
 & 0 s n>r[ly wat*$ by ! pi\s mission>y1
 :o labor$ = h] conv]sion ) m zeal ?an  

dilig5ce1 t dur+ ! two mon?s we rema9$  
toge!r 9 ?is h\se 7:]e %e _h already be5
 ?ree7 ,i f\nd x absolutely impossible  
to ex*ange a ^w ) h]4  ,%e mu/ h be5    
extremely /upid1 ?\gh %e _h n !         
appe>ance ( x1 = nev] 0 a long] c\rse ( 
in/ruction2 ! holy man c\ld nev] br+ h] 
to a /ate ( m9d fit = abjuration2       
meantime %e became we>y ( h] cloi/]1    
decl>+ t1 ,*ri/ian or n1 %e w\ld /ay !re
 no long]2 & !y 7 oblig$ to take h] at  
h] ^w1 le/ %e %\ld gr[ refractory1 &    
insi/ on dep>t+ z great a s9n] z %e     
came4  ,?is hopeful community 7 assembl$
 9 honor ( ! new-com]2 :5 our guides    
made u a %ort exhortation3 ,i 0 conjur$ 
to be ob$i5t to ! grace t ,heav5 _h     
be/[$ on me2 ! re/ 7 admoni%$ to assi/  
me ) _! pray]s1 & give me edification by
 _! good example4 ,our virg9s !n retir$ 
to ano!r ap>tm5t1 & ,i 0 left to        
contemplate1 at leisure1 t :]e9 ,i f\nd 
myself4  ,! next morn+ we 7 aga9        
assembl$ = in/ruction3 ,i n[ began to   
reflect1 = ! fir/ "t1 on ! /ep ,i 0 ab\t

 to take1 & ! circum/ances :i* _h l$ me 
to x4  ,i repeat1 & %all p]haps repeat  
aga91 an ass]tion ,i h already advanc$1 
& ( ^: tru? ,i e day receive fre%       
conviction1 :i* is1 t if ev] *ild       
receiv$ a reasonable & virtu\s          
education1 x 0 myself4  ,born 9 a family
 ( unexceptionable morals1 e lesson ,i  
receiv$ 0 replete ) maxims ( prud5ce &  
virtue4  ,my fa!r 7?\gh fond (          
gallantry7 n only possess$ di/+ui%$     
probity1 b mu* religion2 9 ! _w he      
appe>$ a man ( pleasure1 9 8 family he 0
 a ,*ri/ian1 & implant$ e>ly 9 my m9d ^?
 s5tim5ts he felt ! =ce (4  ,my ?ree    
aunts 7 wom5 ( virtue & piety2 ! two    
elde/ 7 pr(ess$ devotees1 & ! ?ird1 :o  
unit$ all ! graces ( wit & good s5se1 01
 p]haps1 m truly religi\s ?an ei!r1 ?\gh
 ) less o/5tation4  ,f ! bosom ( ?is    
amiable family ,i 0 transplant$ to ,m4  
,lamb]ci]'s1 a man d$icat$ to ! m9i/ry1 
:o believ$ ! doctr9e he taught1 & act$  
up to its precepts4  ,he & 8 si/] matur$
 by _! in/ructions ^? pr9ciples (       

judici\s piety ,i _h already imbib$1 & !
 means employ$ by ^! wor?y p 7 s well   
adapt$ to ! effect !y meant to produce1 
t s f> f be+ fatigu$1 ,i sc>ce ev] li/5$
 to _! admonitions )\t f9d+ myself      
s5sibly affect$1 & =m+ resolutions to   
live virtu\sly1 f :i*1 except 9 mom5ts (
 =getfulness1 ,i seldom sw]v$4  ,at my  
uncle's1 religion 0 f> m tiresome1      
because !y made x an employm5t2 ) my    
ma/] ,i ?\ght no m ( x1 ?\gh my s5tim5ts
 cont9u$ ! same3 ,i _h no companions to 
vitiate my morals3 ,i became idle1      
c>eless1 & ob/9ate1 b my pr9ciples 7 n  
impair$4  ,i possess$ z mu* religion1   
!re=e1 z a *ild c\ld be suppos$ capable 
( acquir+4  ,:y %\ld ,i n[ disguise my  
?\ghts8  ,i am p]suad$ ,i _h m4  ,9 my  
*ildhood1 ,i 0 n a *ild2 ,i felt1 ,i    
?\ght z a man3 z ,i advanc$ 9 ye>s1 ,i  
m+l$ ) ! ord9>y class2 9 my infancy ,i 0
 di/+ui%$ f x4  ,i %all d\btless incur  
ridicule by ?us mode/ly hold+ myself up 
= a prodigy--,i am cont5t4  ,let ^? :o  
f9d !mselves dispos$ to x1 laugh _!     

fill2 aft]w>d1 let !m f9d a *ild t at   
six ye>s old is delight$1 int]e/$1      
affect$ ) romances1 ev5 to ! %$d+ floods
 ( te>s2 ,i %all !n feel my ridicul\s   
vanity1 & ackn[l$ge myself 9 an error4  
,?us :5 ,i said we %\ld n conv]se )     
*ildr5 on religion1 if we wi%$ !m ev] to
 possess any2 :5 ,i ass]t$ !y 7         
incapable ( communion ) ! ,supreme ,be+1
 ev5 9 our conf9$ degree1 ,i drew my    
conclusions f g5]al obs]vation2 ,i knew 
!y 7 n applicable to p>ticul> in/ances3 
f9d ,j4 ,j4 ,r\sseau ( six ye>s old1    
conv]se ) !m on religi\s subjects at    
sev51 & ,i w be answ]able t ! exp]im5t w
 be att5d$ ) no dang]4  ,x is und]/ood1 
,i believe1 t a *ild1 or ev5 a man1 is  
likely to be mo/ s9c]e :ile p]sev]+ 9 t 
religion 9 ^: belief he 0 born &        
educat$2 we frequ5tly detract f1 seldom 
make any additions to x3 dogmatical fai?
 is ! effect ( education4  ,9 addition  
to ?is g5]al pr9ciple :i* atta*$ me to !
 religion ( my =efa!rs1 ,i _h t p>ticul>
 av]sion our city ent]ta9s =            

,ca?olicism1 :i* is repres5t$ !re z !   
mo/ mon/r\s idolatry1 & ^: cl]gy are    
pa9t$ 9 ! blacke/ colors4  ,?is s5tim5t 
0 s firmly impr9t$ on my m9d1 t ,i nev] 
d>$ to look into _! *ur*es--,i c\ld n   
be> to meet a prie/ 9 8 surplice1 & nev]
 did ,i he> ! bells ( a procession s\nd 
)\t %udd]+ ) horror2 ^! s5sations soon  
wore (f 9 great cities1 b frequ5tly     
return$ 9 c\ntry p>i%es1 :i* bore m     
simil>ity to ! spot :]e ,i fir/ exp]i5c$
 !m2 meantime ?is dislike 0 s+ul>ly     
contra/$ by ! remembrance ( ^? c>esses  
:i* prie/s 9 ! neighborhood ( ,g5eva are
 fond ( be/[+ on ! *ildr5 ( t city4  ,if
 ! bells ( ! viaticum al>m$ me1 ! *im+ =
 mass or vesp]s call$ me to a breakfa/1 
a collation1 to ! pleasure ( regal+ on  
fre% butt]1 fruits1 or milk2 ! good *e] 
( ,m4 de ,pontv]re _h produc$ a         
consid]able effect on me2 my =m]        
abhorr5ce began to dim9i%1 & look+ on   
pop]y ?r\gh ! m$ium ( amusem5t & good   
liv+1 ,i easily reconcil$ myself to !   
idea ( endur+1 ?\gh ,i nev] ent]ta9$ b a

 v transi5t & di/ant idea ( mak+ a      
solemn pr(ession ( x4  ,at ?is mom5t su*
 a transaction appe>$ 9 all its horrors2
 ,i %udd]$ at ! engagem5t ,i _h ent]$   
into1 & its inevitable consequ5ces4  ,! 
future neophytes ) :i* ,i 0 surr\nd$ 7 n
 calculat$ to su/a9 my c\rage by _!     
example1 & ,i c\ld n help consid]+ !    
holy "w ,i 0 ab\t to p]=m z ! action ( a
 villa94  ,?\gh "y1 ,i 0 suffici5tly    
conv9c$1 t :atev] religion might be !   
true "o1 ,i 0 ab\t to sell m9e2 & ev5   
%\ld ,i *ance to *ose ! be/1 ,i li$ to !
 ,holy ,gho/1 & m]it$ ! disda9 ( e good 
man4  ,! m ,i consid]$1 ! m ,i despis$  
myself1 & trembl$ at ! fate :i* _h l$ me
 into su* a pr$icam5t1 z if my pres5t   
situation _h n be5 ( my own seek+4 ,!re 
7 mom5ts :5 ^! compunctions 7 s /rong t 
_h ,i f\nd ! door op5 b = an in/ant1 ,i 
%\ld c]ta9ly h made my escape2 b ?is 0  
impossible1 nor 0 ! resolution ( any    
long duration1 be+ combat$ by too _m    
secret motives to /& any *ance ( ga9+ ! 
victory4  ,my fix$ det]m9ation n to     

return to ,g5eva1 ! %ame t w\ld att5d x1
 ! difficulty ( repass+ ! m\nta9s1 at a 
di/ance f my c\ntry1 )\t fri5ds1 & )\t  
res\rces1 ev]y?+ concurr$ to make me    
consid] my remorse ( consci5ce1 z a too 
late rep5tance4 ,i affect$ to reproa*   
myself = :at ,i _h done1 to seek excuses
 = t ,i int5d$ to d1 & by aggravat+ !   
errors ( ! pa/1 look$ on ! future z an  
inevitable consequ5ce4  ,i did n say1   
no?+ is yet done1 & y may be innoc5t if 
y please2 b ,i said1 tremble at ! crime 
?\ ha/ committ$1 :i* ha? r$uc$ !e to !  
necessity ( fill+ up ! measure ( ?9e    
iniquities4  ,x requir$ m resolution ?an
 0 natural to my age to revoke ^?       
expectations :i* ,i _h giv5 !m reason to
 ent]ta91 break ^? *a9s ) :i* ,i 0      
en?rall$1 & resolutely decl>e ,i w\ld   
cont9ue 9 ! religion ( my =efa!rs1      
:atev] might be ! consequ5ce4  ,! affair
 0 already too f> advanc$1 & spite ( all
 my ef=ts !y w\ld h made a po9t ( br++ x
 to a conclusion4  ,! sophism :i* ru9$  
me has _h a simil> affect on ! great] "p

 ( mank9d1 :o lam5t ! want ( resolution 
:5 ! opportunity = ex]cis+ x is ov]4  ,!
 practice ( virtue is only difficult f  
our own neglig5ce2 71 we always         
discreet1 we %\ld seldom h occasion =   
any pa9ful ex]tion ( x2 we are captivat$
 by desires we might readily surm\nt1   
give into temptations t might easily be 
resi/$1 & ins5sibly get into emb>rass+1 
p]il\s situations1 f :i* we _c extricate
 ourselves b ) ! utmo/ difficulty2      
intimidat$ by ! ef=t1 we fall into !    
abyss1 say+ to ! ,almighty1 :y ha/ ?\   
made u su* weak creatures8  ,b1 not)/&+ 
our va9 pretexts1 ,he replies1 by our   
consci5ces1 ,i =m$ ye too weak to get   
out ( ! gulf1 because ,i gave ye        
suffici5t /r5g? n to h fall5 into x4  ,i
 0 n absolutely resolv$ to become a     
,ca?olic1 b1 z x 0 n necess>y to decl>e 
my int5tions imm$iately1 ,i gradually   
accu/om$ myself to ! idea2 hop+1        
meantime1 t "s un=ese5 ev5t w\ld        
extricate me f my emb>rassm5t4  ,9 ord] 
to ga9 "t1 ,i resolv$ to make ! be/     

def5ce ,i possibly c\ld 9 favor ( my own
 op9ion2 b my vanity soon r5d]$ ?is     
resolution unnecess>y1 = on f9d+ ,i     
frequ5tly emb>rass$ ^? :o _h ! c>e ( my 
in/ruction1 ,i wi%$ to height5 my       
triumph by giv+ !m a complete ov]?r[4   
,i zeal\sly pursu$ my plan1 n )\t !     
ridicul\s hope ( be+ able to conv]t my  
conv]tors2 = ,i 0 simple en\gh to       
believe1 t c\ld ,i conv9ce !m ( _!      
errors1 !y w\ld become ,prote/ants2 !y  
did n f9d1 !re=e1 t facility 9 ! "w :i* 
!y _h expect$1 z ,i diff]$ bo? 9 reg>d  
to w & k f ! op9ion !y _h ent]ta9$ ( me4
  ,prote/ants1 9 g5]al1 are bett]       
in/ruct$ 9 ! pr9ciples ( _! religion ?an
 ,ca?olics2 ! reason is obvi\s2 !       
doctr9e ( ! =m] requires discussion1 ( !
 latt] a bl9d submission2 ! ,ca?olic mu/
 cont5t himself ) ! decisions ( o!rs1 ! 
,prote/ant mu/ le>n to decide = himself2
 !y 7 n ignorant ( ?is1 b nei!r my age  
nor appe>ance promis$ mu* difficulty to 
m5 s accu/om$ to disputation4  ,!y knew1
 likewise1 t ,i _h n receiv$ my fir/    

communion1 nor ! in/ructions :i*        
accompany x2 b1 on ! o!r h&1 !y _h no   
idea ( ! in=mation ,i receiv$ at ,m4    
,lamb]ci]'s1 or t ,i _h le>n$ ! hi/ory (
 ! *ur* & empire almo/ by he>t at my    
fa!r's2 & ?\gh 7s9ce t "t1 ne>ly =got1  
:5 w>m$ by ! dispute1 v un=tunately = ^!
 g5tlem571 x aga9 return$ to my memory4 
,a little old prie/1 b tol]ably v5]able1
 held ! fir/ conf]5ce2 at :i* we 7 all  
conv5$4  ,on ! "p ( my comrades1 x 0 r a
 cate*ism ?an a controv]sy1 & he f\nd m 
pa9s 9 giv+ !m in/ruction ?an answ]+ _! 
objections2 b :5 x came to my turn1 x 0 
a diff]5t matt]2 ,i /opp$ him at e      
article1 & did n sp>e a s+le rem>k t ,i 
?\ght w\ld create a difficulty3 ?is     
r5d]$ ! conf]5ce long & extremely       
tiresome to ! assi/ants4 ,my old prie/  
talk$ a great deal1 0 v w>m1 frequ5tly  
rambl$ f ! subject1 & extricat$ himself 
f difficulties by say+ he 0 n           
suffici5tly v]s$ 9 ! ,fr5* language4  ,!
 next day1 le/ my indiscreet objections 
%\ld injure ! m9ds ( ^? :o 7 bett]      

dispos$1 ,i 0 l$ into a sep>ate *amb] & 
put "u ! c>e ( a y\ng] prie/1 a f9e     
speak]2 t is1 "o :o 0 fond ( long       
p]plex$ s5t5ces1 & pr\d ( 8 own         
abilities1 if ev] doctor 04  ,i did n1  
h[ev]1 suff] myself to be intimidat$ by 
8 ov]be>+ looks3 & be+ s5sible t ,i c\ld
 ma9ta9 my gr\nd1 ,i combat$ 8          
ass]tions1 expos$ 8 mi/akes1 & laid ab\t
 me 9 ! be/ mann] ,i 0 able4  ,he ?\ght 
to sil5ce me at once ) ,/4 ,augu/9e1 ,/4
 ,gregory1 & ! re/ ( ! fa!rs1 b f\nd1 to
 8 ineffable surprise1 t ,i c\ld h&le ^!
 almo/ z dext]\sly z himself2 n t ,i _h 
ev] read !m1 or he ei!r1 p]haps1 b ,i   
reta9$ a numb] ( passages tak5 f my ,le 
,sueur1 & :5 he bore h>d on me ) "o     
citation1 )\t /&+ to dispute1 ,i p>ri$ x
 ) ano!r1 :i* me?od emb>rass$ him       
extremely4  ,at l5g?1 h[ev]1 he got !   
bett] ( me = two v pot5t reasons2 9 !   
fir/ place1 he 0 ( ! /ronge/ side2 "y z 
,i 01 ,i ?\ght x might be dang]\s to    
drive him to extremities1 = ,i pla9ly   
saw ! old prie/ 0 nei!r satisfi$ ) me   

nor my erudition4  ,9 ! next place1 he  
_h /udi$1 ,i _h n2 ?is gave a degree (  
me?od to 8 argum5ts :i* ,i c\ld n foll[2
 & :5ev] he f\nd himself press$ by an   
un=ese5 objection he put x (f to ! next 
conf]5ce1 pret5d+ ,i rambl$ f ! "q 9    
dispute4  ,sometimes he ev5 reject$ all 
my quotations1 ma9ta9+ !y 7 false1 &1   
(f]+ to fet* ! book1 defi$ me to f9d !m4
  ,he knew he ran v little risk1 & t1 ) 
all my borr[$ le>n+1 ,i 0 n suffici5tly 
accu/om$ to books1 & too poor a ,lat9i/ 
to f9d a passage 9 a l>ge volume1 _h ,i 
be5 ev] s well assur$ x 0 !re4  ,i ev5  
suspect$ him ( hav+ be5 guilty ( a      
p]fidy ) :i* he accus$ our m9i/]s1 & t  
he fabricat$ passages sometimes 9 ord]  
to evade an objection t incommod$ him4  
,mean:ile ! hospital became e day m     
disagreeable to me1 & see+ b "o way to  
get out ( x1 ,i endeavor$ to ha/5 my    
abjuration ) z mu* eag]ness z ,i _h     
hi!rto s\ght to ret>d x4  ,! two        
,africans _h be5 baptis$ ) great        
c]emony1 !y 7 habit$ 9 :ite f head to   

foot to signify ! purity ( _! reg5]at$  
s\ls4  ,my turn came a mon? aft]2 = all 
?is "t 0 ?\ght necess>y by my directors1
 t !y might h ! honor ( a difficult     
conv]sion1 & e dogma ( _! fai? 0        
recapitulat$1 9 ord] to triumph ! m     
completely ov] my new docility4  ,at    
l5g?1 suffici5tly in/ruct$ & dispos$ to 
! w ( my ma/]s1 ,i 0 l$ 9 procession to 
! metropolitan *ur* ( ,/4 ,john1 to make
 a solemn abjuration1 & und]go a c]emony
 made use ( on ^! occasions1 :i*1 ?\gh n
 baptism1 is v simil>1 & s]ves to       
p]suade ! p t ,prote/ants are n         
,*ri/ians4  ,i 0 clo!d 9 a k9d ( gray   
robe1 decorat$ ) :ite ,br&5burgs4  ,two 
m51 "o beh9d1 ! o!r be=e me1 c>ri$ copp]
 bas9s :i* !y kept /rik+ ) a key1 & 9   
:i* ^? :o 7 *>itably dispos$ put _!     
alms1 accord+ z !y f\nd !mselves        
influ5c$ by religion or good w = ! new  
conv]t2 9 a ^w1 no?+ ( ,ca?olic         
pageantry 0 omitt$ t c\ld r5d] !        
solemnity edify+ to ! populace1 or      
humiliat+ to me4  ,! :ite dress might h 

be5 s]viceable1 b z ,i _h n ! honor to  
be ei!r ,moor or ,jew1 !y did n ?9k fit 
to complim5t me ) x4  ,! affair did n   
end "h1 ,i mu/ n[ g to ! ,inquisition to
 be absolv$ f ! dreadful s9 ( h]esy1 &  
return to ! bosom ( ! *ur* ) ! same     
c]emony to :i* ,h5ry ! ,f\r? 0 subject$ 
by 8 ambassador4  ,! air & mann] ( ! "r 
rev]5d ,fa!r ,inquisitor 0 by no means  
calculat$ to dissipate ! secret horror t
 seiz$ my spirits on ent]+ ?is holy     
mansion4  ,aft] sev]al que/ions relative
 to my fai?1 situation1 & family1 he    
ask$ me bluntly if my "m 0 damn$8       
,t]ror repress$ ! fir/ gu/ (            
indignation2 ?is gave me "t to recollect
 myself1 & ,i answ]$1 ,i hope n1 = ,god 
might h enlight5$ h] la/ mom5ts4  ,!    
monk made no reply1 b 8 sil5ce 0 att5d$ 
) a look by no means expressive (       
approbation4  ,all ^! c]emonies end$1 ! 
v mom5t ,i flatt]$ myself ,i %\ld be    
pl5tifully provid$ =1 !y exhort$ me to  
cont9ue a good ,*ri/ian1 & live 9       
ob$i5ce to ! grace ,i _h receiv$2 !n    

wi%+ me good =tune1 ) r m ?an tw5ty     
francs ( small money 9 my pocket1 !     
produce ( ! above--m5tion$ collection1  
turn$ me out1 %ut ! door on me1 & ,i saw
 no m ( !m6  ,?us1 9 a mom5t1 all my    
flatt]+ expectations 7 at an end2 & no?+
 rema9$ f my int]e/$ conv]sion b !      
remembrance ( hav+ be5 made bo? a dupe &
 an apo/ate4  ,x is easy to imag9e :at a
 sudd5 revolution 0 produc$ 9 my ideas1 
:5 e brilliant expectation ( mak+ a     
=tune t]m9at$ by see+ myself plung$ 9 ! 
complete/ mis]y4  ,9 ! morn+ ,i 0       
delib]at+ :at palace ,i %\ld inhabit1   
be=e night ,i 0 r$uc$ to seek my lodg+ 9
 ! /reet4  ,x may be suppos$ t ,i gave  
myself up to ! mo/ viol5t transports (  
despair1 r5d]$ m bitt] by a consci\sness
 t my own folly _h r$uc$ me to ^!       
extremities2 b ! tru? is1 ,i exp]i5c$   
none ( ^! disagreeable s5sations4  ,i _h
 pass$ two mon?s 9 absolute conf9em5t2  
?is 0 new to me2 ,i 0 n[ emancipat$1 & !
 s5tim5t ,i felt mo/ =cibly1 0 joy at my
 recov]$ lib]ty4  ,aft] a slav]y :i* _h 

appe>$ t$i\s1 ,i 0 aga9 ma/] ( my "t &  
actions1 9 a great city1 abundant 9     
res\rces1 cr[d$ ) p ( =tune1 to :om my  
m]it & tal5ts c\ld n fail to recomm5d   
me4  ,i _h suffici5t "t be=e me to      
expect ?is good =tune1 = my tw5ty livres
 seem$ an inexhau/ible treasure1 :i* ,i 
might dispose ( )\t r5d]+ an acc\nt ( to
 anyone4  ,x 0 ! fir/ "t ,i _h f\nd     
myself s ri*1 & f> f giv+ way to        
melan*oly reflections1 ,i only adopt$   
o!r hopes1 9 :i* self-love 0 by no means
 a los]4  ,nev] did ,i feel s great a   
degree ( confid5ce & security2 ,i look$ 
on my =tune z already made & 0 pleas$ to
 ?9k ,i %\ld h no "o b myself to ?ank = 
! acquisition ( x4  ,! fir/ ?+ ,i did 0 
to satisfy my curiosity by rambl+ all   
ov] ! city1 & ,i seem$ to consid] x z a 
confirmation ( my lib]ty2 ,i w5t to see 
! soldi]s m\nt gu>d1 & 0 delight$ ) _!  
milit>y acc\t]m5t2 ,i foll[$            
processions1 & 0 pleas$ ) ! solemn music
 ( ! prie/s2 ,i next w5t to see ! k+'s  
palace1 :i* ,i approa*$ ) awe1 b see+   

o!rs ent]1 ,i foll[$ _! example1 & no "o
 prev5t$ me2 p]haps ,i ow$ ?is favor to 
! small p>cel ,i c>ri$ "u my arm2 be t z
 x may1 ,i conceiv$ a high op9ion ( my  
consequ5ce f ?is circum/ance1 & already 
?\ght myself an inhabitant !re4  ,!     
wea!r 0 hot2 ,i _h walk$ ab\t till ,i 0 
bo? fatigu$ & hungry2 wi%+ = "s         
refre%m5t1 ,i w5t into a milk-h\se2 !y  
br\ght me "s cream-*eese curds & :ey1 & 
two slices ( t excell5t ,pi$mont bread1 
:i* ,i pref] to any o!r2 & = five or six
 s\s ,i _h "o ( ! mo/ delici\s meals ,i 
ev] recollect to h made4  ,x 0 "t to    
seek a lodg+3 z ,i already knew en\gh ( 
! ,pi$montese language to make myself   
und]/ood1 ?is 0 a "w ( no great         
difficulty2 & ,i _h s mu* prud5ce1 t ,i 
wi%$ to adapt x r to ! /ate ( my purse  
?an ! b5t ( my incl9ations4  ,9 ! c\rse 
( my inquiries1 ,i 0 in=m$ t a soldi]'s 
wife1 9 ,po-/reet1 furni%$ lodg+s to    
s]vants out ( place at only "o s\ a     
night1 & f9d+ "o ( h] poor b$s dis5gag$1
 ,i took possession ( x4  ,%e 0 "y &    

newly m>ri$1 ?\gh %e already _h five or 
six *ildr54  ,"m1 *ildr5 & lodg]s1 all  
slept 9 ! same *amb]1 & x cont9u$ ?us   
:ile ,i rema9$ !re4  ,%e 0 good-natur$1 
swore l a c>man1 & wore nei!r cap nor   
h&k]*ief2 b %e _h a g5tle he>t1 0       
(fici\s2 & to me bo? k9d & s]viceable4  
,= sev]al days ,i gave myself up to !   
pleasures ( indep5d5ce & curiosity2 ,i  
cont9u$ w&]+ ab\t ! city & its environs1
 exam9+ e object t seem$ curi\s or new2 
&1 inde$1 mo/ ?+s _h t appe>ance to a "y
 novice4  ,i nev] omitt$ visit+ ! c\rt1 
& assi/$ regul>ly e morn+ at ! k+'s     
mass4 ,i ?\ght x a great honor to be 9 !
 same *apel ) ?is pr9ce & 8 ret9ue2 b my
 passion = music1 :i* n[ began to make  
its appe>ance1 0 a great] inc5tive ?an !
 spl5dor ( ! c\rt1 :i*1 soon se5 &      
always ! same1 pres5tly lo/ its         
attraction4 ,! ,k+ ( ,s>d9ia _h at t "t 
! be/ music 9 ,europe2 ,somis1          
,desj>d9s1 & ! ,bezuzzi %one !re        
alt]nately2 all ^! 7 n necess>y to      
fasc9ate a y\? :om ! s\nd ( ! mo/ simple

 in/rum5t1 provid$ x 0 j1 transport$ )  
joy4  ,magnific5ce only produc$ a /upid 
admiration1 )\t any viol5t desire to    
p>take ( x1 my ?\ghts 7 pr9cipally      
employ$ 9 obs]v+ :e!r any "y pr9cess 0  
pres5t t m]it$ my homage1 & :om ,i c\ld 
make ! h]o9e ( a romance4  ,meantime1 ,i
 0 on ! po9t ( beg9n+ "o2 9 a less      
elevat$ sph]e1 x is true1 b :]e c\ld ,i 
h br\ght x to a conclusion1 ,i %\ld h   
f\nd pleasures a ?\s& times m delici\s4 
,?\gh ,i liv$ ) ! /ricte/ economy1 my   
purse ins5sibly grew light]4  ,?is      
economy 01 h[ev]1 less ! effect (       
prud5ce ?an t love ( simplicity1 :i*1   
ev5 to ?is day1 ! use ( ! mo/ exp5sive  
tables has n be5 able to vitiate4  ,no?+
 9 my idea1 ei!r at t "t or s9ce1 c\ld  
exce$ a ru/ic repa/2 give me milk1      
vegetables1 eggs1 & br[n bread1 )       
tol]able w9e & ,i %all always ?9k myself
 sumptu\sly regal$2 a good appetite w   
furni% out ! re/1 if ! maitre d' hotel1 
) a numb] ( unnecess>y footm51 d n      
satiate me ) _! important att5tions4    

,five or six s\s w\ld !n procure me a m 
agreeable meal ?an z _m livres w\ld h   
done s9ce2 ,i 0 ab/emi\s1 !re=e1 = want 
( a temptation to be o!rwise3 ?\gh ,i d 
n "k b ,i am wrong to call ?is ab/95ce1 
= ) my pe>s1 new *eese1 bread & "s      
glasses ( ,montf]rat w9e1 :i* y might h 
cut ) a knife1 ,i 0 ! greate/ (         
epicures4 ,not)/&+ my exp5ses 7 v       
mod]ate1 x 0 possible to see ! end (    
tw5ty livres2 ,i 0 e day m conv9c$ (    
?is1 &1 spite ( ! gidd9ess ( y\?1 my    
appreh5sions = ! future am\nt$ almo/ to 
t]ror4  ,all my ca/les 9 ! air 7 vani%$1
 & ,i became s5sible ( ! necessity (    
seek+ "s occupation t w\ld procure me a 
subsi/5ce4  ,ev5 ?is 0 a "w (           
difficulty2 ,i ?\ght ( my engrav+1 b    
knew too little ( x to be employ$ z a   
j\rneyman1 nor d ma/]s ab\nd 9 ,tur92 ,i
 resolv$1 !re=e1 till some?+ bett]      
pres5t$ itself1 to g f %op to %op1 (f]+ 
to engrave ciph]s1 or coats ( arms1 on  
pieces ( plate1 etc41 & hop$ to get     
employm5t by work+ at a l[ price2 or    

tak+ :at !y *ose to give me4  ,ev5 ?is  
exp$i5t did n answ] my expectations2    
almo/ all my applications 7 ineffectual1
 ! little ,i procur$ be+ h>dly suffici5t
 to produce a few scanty meals4  ,walk+ 
"o morn+ pretty e>ly 9 ! ',contra nova'1
 ,i saw a "y tradeswoman beh9d a c\nt]1 
^: looks 7 s *>m+ly attractive1 t1      
not)/&+ my timidity ) ! ladies1 ,i ent]$
 ! %op )\t hesitation1 (f]$ my s]vices z
 usual3 & _h ! happ9ess to h x accept$4 
,%e made me sit d[n & recite my little  
hi/ory1 piti$ my =lorn situation2 bade  
me be *e]ful1 & endeavor$ to make me s  
by an assurance t e good ,*ri/ian w\ld  
give me assi/ance2 !n 7:ile %e _h       
occasion =7 %e w5t up /airs & fet*$ me  
some?+ = breakfa/4  ,?is seem$ a promis+
 beg9n+1 nor 0 :at foll[$ less flatt]+3 
%e 0 satisfi$ ) my "w1 &1 :5 ,i _h a    
little recov]$ myself1 /ill m ) my      
disc\rse4  ,%e 0 r elegantly dress$ &   
not)/&+ h] g5tle looks ?is appe>ance (  
gayety _h disconc]t$ me2 b h]           
good-nature1 ! compassionate tone ( h]  

voice1 ) h] g5tle & c>ess+ mann]1 soon  
set me at ease ) myself2 ,i saw my      
endeavors to please 7 cr[n$ ) success1 &
 ?is assurance made me succe$ ! m4      
,?\gh an ,italian1 & too pretty to be   
entirely devoid ( coquetry1 %e _h s mu* 
mode/y1 & ,i s great a %>e ( timidity1 t
 our adv5ture 0 n likely to be br\ght to
 a v spe$y conclusion1 nor did !y give u
 "t to make any good ( x4  ,i _c recall 
! few %ort mom5ts ,i pass$ ) ?is lovely 
woman )\t be+ s5sible ( an inexpressible
 *>m1 & c yet say1 x 0 !re ,i ta/$ 9 _! 
utmo/ p]fection ! mo/ delightful1 z well
 z ! pure/ pleasures ( love4  ,%e 0 a   
lively pleas+ brunette1 & ! good nature 
t 0 pa9t$ on h] lovely face r5d]$ h]    
vivacity m int]e/+4  ,%e 0 call$ ,madam 
,basile3 h] husb&1 :o 0 consid]ably old]
 ?an h]self1 consign$ h]1 dur+ 8 abs5ce1
 to ! c>e ( a cl]k1 too disagreeable to 
be ?\ght dang]\s2 b :o1 not)/&+1 _h     
pret5sions t he seldom %[$ any signs (1 
except ( ill--humors1 a good %>e ( :i*  
he be/[$ on me2 ?\gh ,i 0 pleas$ to he> 

him play ! flute1 on :i* he 0 a tol]able
 musician4  ,?is second ,egi/us 0 sure  
to grumble :5ev] he saw me g into 8     
mi/ress' ap>tm5t1 treat+ me ) a degree (
 disda9 :i* %e took c>e to repay him )  
int]e/2 seem+ pleas$ to c>ess me 9 8    
pres5ce1 on purpose to torm5t him4  ,?is
 k9d ( rev5ge1 ?\gh p]fectly to my ta/e1
 w\ld h be5 /ill m *>m+ 9 a 'tete a     
tete'1 b %e did n proce$ s f>2 at lea/1 
!re 0 a diff]5ce 9 ! expression ( h]    
k9dness4  ,:e!r %e ?\ght me too "y1 t x 
0 my place to make advances1 or t %e 0  
s]i\sly resolv$ to be virtu\s1 %e _h at 
su* times a k9d ( res]ve1 :i*1 ?\gh n   
absolutely disc\rag+1 kept my passion )9
 b\nds4  ,i did n feel ! same real &    
t5d] respect = h] z ,i did = ,madam de  
,w>r5s3 ,i 0 emb>rass$1 agitat$1 fe>$ to
 look1 & h>dly d>$ to brea! 9 h]        
pres5ce1 yet to h left h] w\ld h be5    
worse ?an dea?3 ,h[ fondly did my eyes  
dev\r :atev] !y c\ld gaze on )\t be+    
p]ceiv$6 ! fl[]s on h] g[n1 ! po9t ( h] 
pretty foot1 ! int]val ( a r\nd :ite arm

 t appe>$ betwe5 h] glove & ruffle1 !   
lea/ "p ( h] neck1 ea* object increas$ !
 =ce ( all ! re/1 & add$ to !           
infatuation4  ,gaz+ ?us on :at 0 to be  
se51 & ev5 m ?an 0 to be se51 my sight  
became confus$1 my *e/ seem$ contract$1 
respiration 0 e mom5t m pa9ful4  ,i _h !
 utmo/ difficulty to hide my agitation1 
to prev5t my sighs f be+ he>d1 & ?is    
difficulty 0 increas$ by ! sil5ce 9 :i* 
we 7 frequ5tly plung$4  ,happily1 ,madam
 ,basile1 busy at h] "w1 saw no?+ ( all 
?is1 or seem$ n to see x3 yet ,i        
sometimes obs]v$ a k9d ( sympa?y1       
especially at ! frequ5t ris+ ( h]       
h&k]*ief1 & ?is dang]\s sight almo/     
ma/]$ e ef=t1 b :5 on ! po9t ( giv+ way 
to my transports1 %e spoke a few words  
to me ) an air ( tranquility1 & 9 an    
in/ant ! agitation subsid$4  ,i saw h]  
sev]al times 9 ?is mann] )\t a ^w1 a    
ge/ure1 or ev5 a look1 too expressive1  
mak+ ! lea/ intellig5ce betwe5 u4  ,!   
situation 0 bo? my torm5t & delight1 =  
h>dly 9 ! simplicity ( my he>t1 c\ld ,i 

imag9e ! cause ( my uneas9ess4  ,i %\ld 
suppose ^! 'tete a tete' c\ld n be      
displeas+ to h]1 at lea/1 %e s\ght      
frequ5t occasions to r5ew !m2 ?is 0 a v 
dis9t]e/$ labor1 c]ta9ly1 z appe>$ by ! 
use %e made1 or ev] suff]$ me to make ( 
!m4  ,be+1 "o day1 we>i$ ) ! cl]k's     
disc\rse1 %e _h retir$ to h] *amb]2 ,i  
made ha/e to f9i% :at ,i _h to d 9 !    
back %op1 & foll[$ h]2 ! door 0 half    
op51 & ,i ent]$ )\t be+ p]ceiv$4  ,%e 0 
embroid]+ ne> a w9d[ on ! opposite side 
( ! room2 %e c\ld n see me2 & ! c>ts 9 !
 /reets made too mu* noise = me to be   
he>d4  ,%e 0 always well dress$1 b ?is  
day h] attire bord]$ on coquetry4  ,h]  
attitude 0 graceful1 h] head lean+ g5tly
 =w>d1 discov]$ a small circle ( h]     
neck2 h] hair1 elegantly dress$ 0       
ornam5t$ ) fl[]s2 h] figure 0 univ]sally
 *>m+1 & ,i _h an un9t]rupt$ opportunity
 to admire x4  ,i 0 absolutely 9 a /ate 
( ec/asy1 &1 involunt>y1 s9k+ on my     
knees1 ,i passionately ext5d$ my arms   
t[>ds h]1 c]ta9 %e c\ld n he>1 & hav+ no

 conception t %e c\ld see me2 b !re 0 a 
*imney glass at ! end ( ! room t betray$
 all my proce$+s4  ,i am ignorant :at   
effect ?is transport produc$ on h]2 %e  
did n speak2 %e did n look on me2 b1    
p>tly turn+ h] head1 ) ! movem5t ( h]   
f+] only1 %e po9t$ to ! mat t 0 at h]   
feet--,to />t up1 ) an articulate cry ( 
joy1 & occupy ! place %e _h indicat$1 0 
! "w ( a mom5t2 b x w h>dly be believ$  
,i d>$ attempt no m1 n ev5 to speak1    
raise my eyes to h]s1 or re/ an in/ant  
on h] knees1 ?\gh 9 an attitude :i*     
seem$ to r5d] su* a support necess>y4   
,i 0 dumb1 immovable1 b f> en\gh f a    
/ate ( tranquility2 agitation1 joy1     
gratitude1 ard5t indef9ite wi%es1       
re/ra9$ by ! fe> ( giv+ displeasure1 :i*
 my unpractis$ he>t too mu* dread$1 7   
suffici5tly disc]nible4  ,%e nei!r      
appe>$ m tranquil1 nor less intimidat$  
?an myself--uneasy at my pres5t         
situation2 conf\nd$ at hav+ br\ght me   
!re1 beg9n+ to tremble = ! effects ( a  
sign :i* %e _h made )\t reflect+ on !   

consequ5ces1 nei!r giv+ enc\ragem5t1 nor
 express+ disapprobation1 ) h] eyes fix$
 on h] "w1 %e endeavor$ to appe>        
unconsci\s ( ev]y?+ t pass$2 b all my   
/upidity c\ld n h9d] me f conclud+ t %e 
p>took ( my emb>rassm5t1 p]haps1 my     
transports1 & 0 only h9d]$ by a         
ba%fulness l m9e1 )\t ev5 t supposition 
giv+ me p[] to surm\nt x4  ,five or six 
ye>s old] ?an myself1 e advance1 accord+
 to my idea1 %\ld h be5 made by h]1 &1  
s9ce %e did no?+ to enc\rage m9e1 ,i    
conclud$ !y w\ld (f5d h]4  ,ev5 at ?is  
"t1 ,i am incl9$ to believe ,i ?\ght "r2
 %e c]ta9ly _h wit en\gh to p]ceive t a 
novice l me _h occasion1 n only =       
enc\ragem5t b in/ruction4  ,i am        
ignorant h[ ?is animat$1 ?\gh dumb sc5e 
w\ld h end$1 or h[ long ,i %\ld h       
cont9u$ immovable 9 ?is ridicul\s1 ?\gh 
delici\s1 situation1 _h we n be5        
int]rupt$--9 ! height ( my agitation1 ,i
 he>d ! kit*5 door op51 :i* jo9$ ,madam 
,basile's *amb]2 :o1 be+ al>m$1 said1 ) 
a quick voice & action1 ,get up6  ,"h's 

,ros9a6  ,ris+ ha/ily ,i seiz$ "o ( h]  
h&s1 :i* %e held out to me1 & gave x two
 eag] kisses2 at ! second ,i felt ?is   
*>m+ h& press g5tly on my lips4  ,nev] 9
 my life did ,i enjoy s sweet a mom5t2 b
 ! occasion ,i _h lo/ return$ no m1 ?is 
be+ ! conclusion ( our am\rs4  ,?is may 
be ! reason :y h] image yet rema9s      
impr9t$ on my he>t 9 su* *>m+ colors1   
:i* h ev5 acquir$ fre% lu/re s9ce ,i    
became acqua9t$ ) ! _w & wom54  ,_h %e  
be5 mi/ress ( ! lea/ degree ( exp]i5ce1 
%e w\ld h tak5 o!r measures to animate s
 y\?ful a lov]2 b if h] he>t 0 weak1 x 0
 virtu\s2 & only suff]$ itself to be    
borne away by a p[]ful ?\gh involunt>y  
incl9ation4  ,?is 01 app>5tly1 h] fir/  
infidelity1 & ,i %\ld1 p]haps1 h f\nd m 
difficulty 9 vanqui%+ h] scruples ?an my
 own2 b1 )\t proce$+ s f>1 ,i exp]i5c$ 9
 h] company ! mo/ inexpressible         
delights4  ,nev] did ,i ta/e ) any o!r  
woman pleasures equal to ^? two m9utes  
:i* ,i pass$ at ! feet ( ,madam ,basile 
)\t ev5 d>+ to t\* h] g[n4  ,i am       

conv9c$ no satisfaction c be comp>$ to t
 we feel ) a virtu\s woman we e/eem2 all
 is transport6--,a sign ) ! f+]1 a h&   
lightly press$ aga9/ my lips1 7 ! only  
favors ,i ev] receiv$ f ,madam ,basile1 
yet ! b>e remembrance ( ^! trifl+       
condesc5sions cont9ues to transport me4 
,x 0 9 va9 ,i wat*$ ! two foll[+ days = 
ano!r tete a tete2 x 0 impossible to f9d
 an opportunity2 nor c\ld ,i p]ceive on 
h] "p any desire to =w>d x2 h] behavior 
0 n cold]1 b m di/ant ?an usual1 & ,i   
believe %e avoid$ my looks = fe> ( n be+
 able suffici5tly to gov]n h] own4  ,!  
curs$ cl]k 0 m vexati\s ?an ev]2 he ev5 
became a wit1 tell+ me1 ) a satirical   
sne]1 t ,i %\ld unque/ionably make my   
way among ! ladies4  ,i trembl$ le/ ,i  
%\ld h be5 guilty ( "s indiscretion1 &  
look+ at myself z already engag$ 9 an   
intrigue1 endeavor$ to cov] ) an air (  
my/]y an incl9ation :i* hi!rto c]ta9ly  
_h no great ne$ ( x2 ?is made me m      
circumspect 9 my *oice ( opportunities1 
& by resolv+ only to seize su* z %\ld be

 absolutely free f ! dang] ( a surprise1
 ,i met none4  ,ano!r romantic folly1   
:i* ,i c\ld nev] ov]come1 & :i*1 jo9$ to
 my natural timidity1 t5d$ directly to  
contradict ! cl]k's pr$ictions1 is1 ,i  
always lov$ too s9c]ely1 too p]fectly1  
,i may say1 to f9d happ9ess easily      
atta9able4  ,nev] 7 passions at ! same  
"t m lively & pure ?an m9e2 nev] 0 love 
m t5d]1 m true1 or m dis9t]e/$2 freely  
w\ld ,i h sacrific$ my own happ9ess to t
 ( ! object ( my affection2 h]          
reputation 0 de>] ?an my life1 & ,i c\ld
 promise myself no happ9ess = :i* ,i    
w\ld h expos$ h] peace ( m9d = a mom5t4 
,?is disposition has ev] made me employ 
s mu* c>e1 use s _m precautions1 su*    
secrecy 9 my adv5tures1 t all ( !m h    
fail$2 9 a ^w1 my want ( success ) !    
wom5 has ev] proce$$ f hav+ lov$ !m too 
well4  ,to return to our ,egi/us1 !     
flut]2 x 0 rem>kable t 9 becom+ m       
insupportable1 ! traitor put on !       
appe>ance ( complaisance4 ,f ! fir/ day 
,madam ,basile _h tak5 me "u h]         

protection1 %e _h endeavor$ to make me  
s]viceable 9 ! w>eh\se2 & f9d+ ,i       
und]/ood ari?metic tol]ably well1 %e    
propos$ 8 tea*+ me to keep ! books2 a   
proposition t 0 b indiff]5tly receiv$ by
 ?is humori/1 :o might1 p]haps1 be      
fe>ful ( be+ supplant$4  ,z ?is fail$1  
my :ole employ1 besides :at engrav+ ,i  
_h to d1 0 to transcribe "s bills &     
acc\nts1 to write sev]al books ov] fair1
 & translate comm]cial lett]s f ,italian
 into ,fr5*4  ,all at once he ?\ght fit 
to accept ! be=e reject$ proposal1 say+1
 he w\ld tea* me bookkeep+1 by          
d\ble--entry1 & put me 9 a situation to 
(f] my s]vices to ,m4 ,basile on 8      
return2 b !re 0 some?+ s false1         
malici\s1 & ironical1 9 8 air & mann]1 t
 x 0 by no means calculat$ to inspire me
 ) confid5ce4  ,madam ,basile1 repli$   
ar*ly1 t ,i 0 mu* oblig$ to him = 8 k9d 
(f]1 b %e hop$ =tune w\ld be m favorable
 to my m]its1 = x w\ld be a great       
mis=tune1 ) s mu* s5se1 t ,i %\ld only  
be a pitiful cl]k4  ,%e (t5 said1 %e    

w\ld procure me "s acqua9tance t might  
be useful2 %e d\btless felt ! necessity 
( p>t+ ) me1 & _h prud5tly resolv$ on x4
  ,our mute decl>ation _h be5 made on   
,?ursday1 ! ,sunday foll[+ %e gave a    
d9n]4  ,a ,jacob9 ( good appe>ance 0    
among ! gue/s1 to :om %e did me ! honor 
to pres5t me4  ,! monk treat$ me v      
affectionately1 congratulat$ me on my   
late conv]sion1 m5tion$ sev]al p>ticul>s
 ( my /ory1 :i* pla9ly %[$ he _h be5    
made acqua9t$ ) x1 !n1 tapp+ me         
famili>ly on ! *eek1 bade me be good1 to
 keep up my spirits1 & come to see him  
at 8 conv5t1 :]e he %\ld h m opportunity
 to talk ) me4 ,i judg$ him to be a     
p]son ( "s consequ5ce by ! def]5ce t 0  
paid him2 & by ! pat]nal tone he assum$ 
) ,madam ,basile1 to be h] confessor4   
,i likewise rememb] t 8 dec5t famili>ity
 0 att5d$ ) an appe>ance ( e/eem1 & ev5 
respect = 8 fair p5it5t1 :i* !n made    
less impression on me ?an at pres5t4    
,_h ,i possess$ m exp]i5ce h[ %\ld ,i h 
congratulat$ myself on hav+ t\*$ ! he>t 

( a "y woman respect$ by h] confessor6  
,! table n be+ l>ge en\gh to accommodate
 all ! company1 a small "o 0 prep>$1 :]e
 ,i _h ! satisfaction ( d9+ ) our       
agreeable cl]k2 b ,i lo/ no?+ ) reg>d to
 att5tion & good *e]1 = sev]al plates 7 
s5t to ! side-table :i* 7 c]ta9ly n     
int5d$ = him4  ,?us f> all w5t well2 !  
ladies 7 9 good spirits1 & ! g5tlem5 v  
gallant1 :ile ,madam ,basile did !      
honors ( ! table ) peculi> grace4  ,9 ! 
mid/ ( ! d9n] we he>d a *aise /op at !  
door1 & pres5tly "s "o com+ up /airs--x 
0 ,m4 ,basile4 ,me?9ks ,i n[ see him    
ent]+1 9 8 sc>let coat ) gold buttons   
--f t day ,i h held ! color 9 abhorr5ce4
  ,m4 ,basile 0 a tall h&some man1 (    
good address3 he ent]$ ) a consequ5tial 
look & an air ( tak+ 8 family unaw>es1  
?\gh none b fri5ds 7 pres5t4  ,8 wife   
ran to meet him1 ?rew h] arms ab\t 8    
neck1 & gave him a ?\s& c>esses1 :i* he 
receiv$ ) ! utmo/ indiff]5ce2 & )\t mak+
 any return salut$ ! company & took 8   
place at table4  ,!y 7 j beg9n+ to speak

 ( 8 j\rney1 :5 ca/+ 8 eye on ! small   
table he ask$ 9 a %>p tone1 :at lad t 08
  ,madam ,basile answ]$ +5u\sly4  ,he !n
 inquir$ :e!r ,i lodg$ 9 ! h\se2 & 0    
answ]$ 9 ! negative4  ,:y n8  repli$ he1
 rudely1 s9ce he /ays "h all day1 he    
might z well rema9 all night too4  ,!   
monk n[ int]f]$1 ) a s]i\s & true       
eulogium on ,madam ,basile3 9 a few     
words he made m9e also1 add+1 t s f> f  
blam+1 he ought to fur!r ! pi\s *>ity ( 
8 wife1 s9ce x 0 evid5t %e _h n pass$ ! 
b\nds ( discretion4  ,! husb& answ]$ )  
an air ( petulance1 :i* 7re/ra9$ by !   
pres5ce ( ! monk7 he endeavor$ to /ifle2
 x 01 h[ev]1 suffici5t to let me und]/& 
he _h already receiv$ in=mation ( me1 & 
t our wor?y cl]k _h r5d]$ me an ill     
(fice4  ,we _h h>dly ris5 f table1 :5 ! 
latt] came 9 triumph f 8 employ]1 to    
in=m me1 ,i mu/ leave ! h\se t in/ant1 &
 nev] m dur+ my life d>e to set foot    
!re4  ,he took c>e to aggravate ?is     
commission by ev]y?+ t c\ld r5d] x cruel
 & insult+4 ,i dep>t$ )\t a ^w1 my he>t 

ov]:elm$ ) sorr[1 less = be+ oblig$ to  
quit ?is amiable woman1 ?an at ! ?\ght (
 leav+ h] to ! brutality ( su* a husb&4 
,he 0 c]ta9ly "r to wi% h] fai?ful2 b   
?\gh prud5t & wellborn1 %e 0 an         
,italian1 t is to say1 t5d] & v9dictive2
 :i* made me ?9k1 he 0 extremely        
imprud5t 9 us+ means ! mo/ likely 9 ! _w
 to draw on himself ! v evil he s mu*   
dread$4  ,su* 0 ! success ( my fir/     
adv5ture4  ,i walk$ sev]al times up &   
d[n ! /reet1 wi%+ to get a sight ( :at  
my he>t incessantly regrett$2 b ,i c\ld 
only discov] h] husb&1 or ! vigilant    
cl]k1 :o1 p]ceiv+ me1 made a sign ) !   
ell !y us$ 9 ! %op1 :i* 0 m expressive  
?an allur+3 f9d+1 !re=e1 t ,i 0 s       
completely wat*$1 my c\rage fail$1 & ,i 
w5t no m4  ,i wi%$1 at lea/1 to f9d out 
! patron %e _h provid$ me1 b1           
un=tunately1 ,i did n "k 8 "n4  ,i rang$
 sev]al times r\nd ! conv5t1 endeavor+ 9
 va9 to meet ) him4  ,at l5g?1 o!r ev5ts
 bani%$ ! delightful remembrance (      
,madam ,basile2 & 9 a %ort "t ,i s f>   

=got h]1 t ,i rema9$ z simple1 z mu* a  
novice z ev]1 nor did my p5*ant = pretty
 wom5 ev5 receive any s5sible           
augm5tation4  ,h] lib]ality _h1 h[ev]1  
increas$ my little w>drobe1 ?\gh %e _h  
done ?is ) precaution & prud5ce1 reg>d+ 
neatness m ?an decoration1 & to make me 
com=table r ?an brilliant4  ,! coat ,i  
_h br\ght f ,g5eva 0 yet we>able1 %e    
only add$ a hat & "s l954  ,i _h no     
ruffles1 nor w\ld %e give me any1 n b ,i
 felt a great incl9ation = !m4  ,%e 0   
satisfi$ ) hav+ put x 9 my p[] to keep  
myself clean1 ?\gh a *>ge to d ?is 0    
unnecess>y :ile ,i 0 to appe> be=e h]4  
,a few days aft] ?is cata/rophe2 my     
ho/ess1 :o1 z ,i h already obs]v$1 0 v  
fri5dly1 ) great satisfaction in=m$ me  
%e _h he>d ( a situation1 & t a lady (  
rank desir$ to see me4  ,i imm$iately   
?\ght myself 9 ! road to great          
adv5tures2 t be+ ! po9t to :i* all my   
ideas t5d$3 ?is1 h[ev]1 did n prove s   
brilliant z ,i _h conceiv$ x4  ,i wait$ 
on ! lady ) ! s]vant2 :o _h m5tion$ me3 

%e ask$ a numb] ( que/ions1 & my answ]s 
n displeas+ h]1 ,i imm$iately ent]$ into
 h] s]vice n1 inde$1 9 ! quality (      
favorite1 b z a footman4  ,i 0 clo!d l !
 re/ ( h] p1 ! only diff]5ce be+1 !y    
wore a %\ld]--knot1 :i* ,i _h n1 &1 z   
!re 0 no lace on h] liv]y1 x appe>$     
m]ely a tradesman's suit4  ,?is 0 !     
un=ese5 conclusion ( all my great       
expectancies6  ,! ,c\ntess ( ,v]cellis1 
) :om ,i n[ liv$1 0 a wid[ )\t *ildr52  
h] husb& 0 a ,pi$montese1 b ,i always   
believ$ h] to be a ,savoy>d1 z ,i c\ld h
 no conception t a native ( ,pi$mont    
c\ld speak su* good ,fr5*1 & ) s pure an
 acc5t4  ,%e 0 a middle-ag$ woman1 ( a  
noble appe>ance & cultivat$ und]/&+1 be+
 fond ( ,fr5* lit]ature1 9 :i* %e 0 well
 v]s$4  ,h] lett]s _h ! expression1 &   
almo/ ! elegance ( ,madam de ,savigne's2
 "s ( !m might h be5 tak5 = h]s4  ,my   
pr9cipal employ1 :i* 0 by no means      
displeas+ to me1 0 to write f h]        
dictat+2 a canc] 9 ! brea/1 f :i* %e    
suff]$ extremely1 n p]mitt+ h] to write 

h]self4  ,madam de ,v]cellis n only     
possess$ a good und]/&+1 b a /rong &    
elevat$ s\l4  ,i 0 ) h] dur+ h] la/     
illness1 & saw h] suff] & die1 )\t %[+  
an in/ant ( weakness1 or ! lea/ ef=t (  
con/ra9t2 /ill reta9+ h] fem99e mann]s1 
)\t ent]ta9+ an idea t su* =titude gave 
h] any claim to philosophy2 a ^w :i* 0 n
 yet 9 fa%ion1 nor compreh5d$ by h] 9 ! 
s5se x is held at pres5t4  ,?is /r5g? ( 
disposition sometimes ext5d$ almo/ to   
apa?y1 ev] appe>+ to feel z little =    
o!rs z h]self2 & :5 %e reliev$ !        
un=tunate1 x 0 r = ! sake ( act+ "r1 ?an
 f a pr9ciple ( real commis]ation4  ,i h
 frequ5tly exp]i5c$ ?is ins5sibility1 9 
"s measure1 dur+ ! ?ree mon?s ,i rema9$ 
) h]4  ,x w\ld h be5 natural to h _h an 
e/eem = a "y man ( "s abilities1 :o 0   
incessantly "u h] obs]vation1 & t %e    
%\ld ?9k1 z %e felt h] dissolution      
approa*+1 t aft] h] dea? he w\ld h      
occasion = assi/ance & support3 b :e!r  
%e judg$ me unwor?y ( p>ticul> att5tion1
 or t ^? :o n>r[ly wat*$ all h] motions1

 gave h] no opportunity to ?9k ( any b  
!mselves1 %e did no?+ = me4  ,i v well  
recollect t %e %[$ "s curiosity to "k my
 /ory1 frequ5tly que/ion+ me1 & appe>+  
pleas$ :5 ,i %[$ h] ! lett]s ,i wrote to
 ,madam de ,w>r5s1 or expla9$ my        
s5tim5ts2 b z %e nev] discov]$ h] own1  
%e c]ta9ly did n take ! "r means to come
 at !m4  ,my he>t1 naturally            
communicative1 lov$ to display its      
feel+s1 :5ev] ,i enc\nt]$ a simil>      
disposition2 b dry1 cold int]rogatories1
 )\t any sign ( blame or approbation on 
my answ]s1 gave me no confid5ce4  ,n be+
 able to det]m9e :e!r my disc\rse 0     
agreeable or displeas+1 ,i 0 ev] 9 fe>1 
& ?\ght less ( express+ my ideas1 ?an ( 
be+ c>eful n to say any?+ t might seem  
to my disadvantage4  ,i h s9ce rem>k$ t 
?is dry me?od ( que/ion+ !mselves into  
p's *>act]s is a common trick among wom5
 :o pride !mselves on sup]ior und]/&+4  
,^! imag9e1 t by conceal+ _! own        
s5tim5ts1 !y %all ! m easily p5etrate   
into ^? ( o!rs2 be+ ignorant t ?is me?od

 de/roys ! confid5ce s necess>y to make 
u reveal !m4  ,a man1 on be+ que/ion$1  
is imm$iately on 8 gu>d3 & if once he   
supposes t1 )\t any int]e/ 9 8 conc]ns1 
y only wi% to set him a-talk+1 ei!r he  
ent]ta9s y ) lies1 is sil5t1 or1 exam9+ 
e ^w be=e he utt]s x1 r *ooses to pass =
 a fool1 ?an to be ! dupe ( y\r         
curiosity4  ,9 %ort1 x is ev] a bad     
me?od to attempt to read ! he>ts ( o!rs 
by endeavor+ to conceal our own4  ,madam
 de ,v]cellis nev] address$ a ^w to me  
:i* seem$ to express affection1 pity1 or
 b5evol5ce4  ,%e int]rogat$ me coldly1 &
 my answ]s 7 utt]$ ) s mu* timidity1 t  
%e d\btless ent]ta9$ b a mean op9ion (  
my intellects1 = latt]ly %e nev] ask$ me
 any que/ions1 nor said any?+ b :at 0   
absolutely necess>y = h] s]vice4  ,%e   
drew h] judgm5t less f :at ,i really 01 
?an f :at %e _h made me1 & by consid]+  
me z a footman prev5t$ my appe>+        
o!rwise4  ,i am incl9$ to ?9k ,i suff]$ 
at t "t by ! same int]e/$ game (        
conceal$ manoeuvre1 :i* has c\nt]act$ me

 ?r\gh\t my life1 & giv5 me a v natural 
av]sion = ev]y?+ t has ! lea/ appe>ance 
( x4  ,madam de ,v]cellis hav+ no       
*ildr51 h] nephew1 ! ,c\nt de la ,roque1
 0 h] heir1 & paid 8 c\rt assidu\sly1 z 
did h] pr9cipal dome/ics1 :o1 see+ h]   
end approa*+1 endeavor$ to take c>e (   
!mselves2 9 %ort1 s _m 7 busy ab\t h]1 t
 %e c\ld h>dly h f\nd "t to ?9k ( me4   
,at ! head ( h] h\sehold 0 a ,m4        
,lor5zy1 an artful g5ius1 ) a /ill m    
artful wife2 :o _h s f> ins9uat$ h]self 
into ! good graces ( h] mi/ress1 t %e 0 
r on ! foot+ ( a fri5d ?an a s]vant4    
,%e _h introduc$ a niece ( h]s z lady's 
maid3 h] "n 0 ,mademoiselle ,pontal2 a  
cunn+ gypsy1 t gave h]self all ! airs ( 
a wait+-woman1 & assi/$ h] aunt s well 9
 besett+ ! c\ntess1 t %e only saw ) _!  
eyes1 & act$ ?r\gh _! h&s4  ,i _h n !   
happ9ess to please ?is wor?y            
triumvirate2 ,i obey$1 b did n wait on  
!m1 n conceiv+ t my duty to our g5]al   
mi/ress requir$ me to be a s]vant to h] 
s]vants4 ,besides ?is1 ,i 0 a p]son t   

gave !m "s inquietude2 !y saw ,i 0 n 9  
my prop] situation1 & fe>$ ! c\ntess    
w\ld discov] x likewise1 & by plac+ me 9
 x1 decrease _! portions2 = su* sort (  
p1 too gre$y to be j1 look on e legacy  
giv5 to o!rs z a dim9ution ( _! own     
weal?2 !y endeavor$1 !re=e1 to keep me z
 mu* out ( h] sight z possible4  ,%e    
lov$ to write lett]s1 9 h] situation1 b 
!y contriv$ to give h] a di/a/e to x2   
p]suad+ h]1 by ! aid ( ! doctor1 t x 0  
too fatigu+2 &1 "u pret5ce t ,i did n   
und]/& h[ to wait on h]1 !y employ$ two 
great lubb]ly *airm5 = t purpose2 9 a   
^w1 !y manag$ ! affair s well1 t = eight
 days be=e %e made h] w1 ,i _h n be5    
p]mitt$ to ent] ! *amb]4  ,aft]w>ds ,i  
w5t 9 z usual1 & 0 ev5 m assidu\s ?an   
any "o1 be+ afflict$ at ! suff]+s ( !   
unhappy lady1 :om ,i truly respect$ &   
belov$ = ! calmness & =titude ) :i* %e  
bore h] illness1 & (t5 did ,i %$ te>s ( 
real sorr[ )\t be+ p]ceiv$ by any "o4   
,at l5g? we lo/ h]--,i saw h] expire4   
,%e _h liv$ l a woman ( s5se & virtue1  

h] dea? 0 t ( a philosoph]4  ,i c truly 
say1 %e r5d]$ ! ,ca?olic religion       
amiable to me by ! s]5ity ) :i* %e      
fulfill$ its dictates1 )\t any mixture (
 neglig5ce or affectation4  ,%e 0       
naturally s]i\s1 b t[>ds ! end ( h]     
illness %e possess$ a k9d ( gayety1 too 
regul> to be assum$1 :i* s]v$ z a       
c\nt]poise to ! melan*oly ( h]          
situation4  ,%e only kept h] b$ two     
days1 cont9u+ to disc\rse *e]fully ) ^? 
ab\t h] to ! v la/4  ,%e _h bequea!d a  
ye>'s wages to all ! "u s]vants1 b1 n   
be+ on ! h\sehold li/1 ,i _h no?+3 !    
,c\nt de la ,roque1 h[ev]1 ord]$ me     
?irty livres1 & ! new coat ,i _h on1 :i*
 ,m4 ,lor5zy w\ld c]ta9ly h tak5 f me4  
,he ev5 promis$ to procure me a place2  
giv+ me p]mission to wait on him z (t5 z
 ,i pleas$4 ,accord+ly1 ,i w5t two or   
?ree times1 )\t be+ able to speak to    
him1 & z ,i 0 easily repuls$1 return$ no
 m2 :e!r ,i did wrong w be se5 h]eaft]4 
,w\ld ,i _h f9i%$ :at ,i h to say ( my  
liv+ at ,madam de ,v]cellis's4  ,?\gh my

 situation app>5tly rema9$ ! same1 ,i   
did n leave h] h\se z ,i _h ent]$ x3 ,i 
c>ri$ ) me ! long & pa9ful remembrance (
 a crime2 an insupportable weight (     
remorse :i* yet hangs on my consci5ce1 &
 ^: bitt] recollection1 f> f weak5+1    
dur+ a p]iod ( =ty ye>s1 seems to ga!r  
/r5g? z ,i gr[ old4  ,:o w\ld believe1 t
 a *ildi% fault %\ld be productive ( su*
 melan*oly consequ5ces8  ,b x is = ! m  
?an probable effects t my he>t _c be    
consol$4  ,i h1 p]haps1 caus$ an        
amiable1 hone/1 e/imable girl1 :o surely
 m]it$ a bett] fate ?an myself1 to p]i% 
) %ame & mis]y4  ,?\gh x is v difficult 
to break up h\sekeep+ )\t confusion1 & !
 loss ( "s prop]ty2 yet su* 0 ! fidelity
 ( ! dome/ics1 & ! vigilance ( ,m4 &    
,madam ,lor5zy1 t no article ( !        
inv5tory 0 f\nd want+2 9 %ort1 no?+ 0   
miss+ b a p9k & silv] ribbon1 :i* _h be5
 worn1 & belong$ to ,mademoiselle       
,pontal4  ,?\gh sev]al ?+s ( m value 7 9
 my rea*1 ?is ribbon alone tempt$ me1 & 
accord+ly ,i /ole x4  ,z ,i took no     

great pa9s to conceal ! bauble1 x 0 soon
 discov]$2 !y imm$iately insi/$ on kn[+ 
f :5ce ,i _h tak5 x2 ?is p]plex$ me--,i 
hesitat$1 & at l5g? said1 ) confusion1 t
 ,m>ion gave x me4  ,m>ion 0 a "y       
,mauri5nese1 & _h be5 cook to ,madam de 
,v]cellis ev] s9ce %e left (f giv+      
ent]ta9m5ts1 = be+ s5sible %e _h m ne$ (
 good bro?s ?an f9e rag\ts1 %e _h       
dis*>g$ h] =m] "o4  ,m>ion 0 n only     
pretty1 b _h t fre%ness ( color only to 
be f\nd among ! m\nta9s1 &1 above all1  
an air ( mode/y & sweetness1 :i* made x 
impossible to see h] )\t affection2 %e 0
 besides a good girl1 virtu\s1 & ( su*  
/rict fidelity1 t ev]yone 0 surpris$ at 
he>+ h] nam$4  ,!y _h n less confid5ce 9
 me1 & judg$ x necess>y to c]tify :i* ( 
u 0 ! ?ief4  ,m>ion 0 s5t =2 a great    
numb] ( p 7 pres5t1 among :om 0 ! ,c\nt 
de la ,roque3 %e arrives2 !y %[ h] !    
ribbon2 ,i accuse h] boldly3 %e rema9s  
confus$ & spee*less1 ca/+ a look on me t
 w\ld h dis>m$ a demon1 b :i* my b>b>\s 
he>t resi/$4  ,at l5g?1 %e d5i$ x )     

firmness1 b )\t ang]1 exhort+ me to     
return to myself1 & n injure an innoc5t 
girl :o _h nev] wrong$ me4  ,) inf]nal  
impud5ce1 ,i confirm$ my accusation1 &  
to h] face ma9ta9$ %e _h giv5 me !      
ribbon3 on :i*1 ! poor girl1 bur/+ into 
te>s1 said ^! words--,ah1 ,r\sseau6  ,i 
?\ght y a good disposition--y r5d] me v 
unhappy1 b ,i w\ld n be 9 y\r situation4
  ,%e cont9u$ to def5d h]self ) z mu*   
innoc5ce z firmness1 b )\t utt]+ ! lea/ 
invective aga9/ me4  ,h] mod]ation1     
comp>$ to my positive tone1 did h] an   
injury2 z x did n appe> natural to      
suppose1 on "o side su* diabolical      
assurance2 on ! o!r1 su* angelic        
mildness4  ,! affair c\ld n be          
absolutely decid$1 b ! presumption 0 9  
my favor2 & ! ,c\nt de la ,roque1 9 s5d+
 u bo? away1 cont5t$ himself ) say+1 ,! 
consci5ce ( ! guilty w\ld rev5ge !      
innoc5t4  ,8 pr$iction 0 true1 & is be+ 
daily v]ifi$4  ,i am ignorant :at became
 ( ! victim ( my calumny1 b !re is      
little probability ( h] hav+ be5 able to

 place h]self agreeably aft] ?is1 z %e  
labor$ "u an imputation cruel to h] "* 9
 e respect4  ,! !ft 0 a trifle1 yet x 0 
a !ft1 &1 :at 0 worse1 employ$ to s$uce 
a boy2 :ile ! lie & ob/9acy left no?+ to
 hope f a p]son 9 :om s _m vices 7      
unit$4  ,i d n ev5 look on ! mis]y &    
disgrace 9 :i* ,i plung$ h] z ! greate/ 
evil3 :o kn[s1 at h] age1 :i!r contempt 
& disreg>d$ innoc5ce might h l$         
h]8--,alas6 if remorse = hav+ made h]   
unhappy is insupportable1 :at mu/ ,i h  
suff]$ at ! ?\ght ( r5d]+ h] ev5 worse  
?an myself4  ,! cruel remembrance ( ?is 
transaction1 sometimes s tr\bles &      
disord]s me1 t1 9 my di/urb$ slumb]s1 ,i
 imag9e ,i see ?is poor girl ent] &     
reproa* me ) my crime1 z ?\gh ,i _h     
committ$ x b ye/]day4  ,:ile 9 easy     
tranquil circum/ances1 ,i 0 less        
mis]able on ?is acc\nt1 b1 dur+ a tr\bl$
 agitat$ life1 x has robb$ me ( ! sweet 
consolation ( p]secut$ innoc5ce1 & made 
me w(ully exp]i5ce1 :at1 ,i ?9k1 ,i h   
rem>k$ 9 "s ( my works1 t remorse sleeps

 9 ! calm sun%9e ( prosp]ity1 b wakes   
amid ! /orms ( adv]sity4  ,i c\ld nev]  
take on me to dis*>ge my he>t ( ?is     
weight 9 ! bosom ( a fri5d2 nor c\ld !  
close/ intimacy ev] enc\rage me to x1   
ev5 ) ,madam de ,w>r5s3 all ,i c\ld d1 0
 to own ,i _h to accuse myself ( an     
atroci\s crime1 b nev] said 9 :at x     
consi/$4  ,! weight1 !re=e1 has rema9$  
heavy on my consci5ce to ?is day2 & ,i c
 truly own ! desire ( reliev+ myself1 9 
"s measure1 f x1 contribut$ greatly to !
 resolution ( writ+ my ,confessions4  ,i
 h proce$$ truly 9 t ,i h j made1 & x w 
c]ta9ly be ?\ght ,i h n s\ght to        
palliate ! turpitude ( my (f5ce2 b ,i   
%\ld n fulfill ! purpose ( ?is und]tak+1
 did ,i n1 at ! same "t1 divulge my     
int]ior disposition1 & excuse myself z  
f> z is con=mable ) tru?4  ,nev] 0      
wick$ness fur!r f my ?\ghts1 ?an 9 t    
cruel mom5t2 & :5 ,i accus$ ! unhappy   
girl1 x is /range1 b /rictly true1 t my 
fri5d%ip = h] 0 ! imm$iate cause ( x4   
,%e 0 pres5t to my ?\ghts2 ,i =m$ my    

excuse f ! fir/ object t pres5t$ itself3
 ,i accus$ h] ) do+ :at ,i meant to h   
done1 & z ,i design$ to h giv5 h] !     
ribbon1 ass]t$ %e _h giv5 x to me4  ,:5 
%e appe>$1 my he>t 0 agoniz$1 b !       
pres5ce ( s _m p 0 m p[]ful ?an my      
compunction4  ,i did n fe> puni%m5t1 b  
,i dread$ %ame3 ,i dread$ x m ?an dea?1 
m ?an ! crime1 m ?an all ! _w4  ,i w\ld 
h buri$1 hid myself 9 ! c5tre ( ! e>?3  
inv9cible %ame bore d[n e o!r s5tim5t2  
%ame alone caus$ all my impud5ce1 & 9   
proportion z ,i became crim9al1 ! fe> ( 
discov]y r5d]$ me intrepid4  ,i felt no 
dread b t ( be+ detect$1 ( be+ publicly1
 & to my face1 decl>$ a ?ief1 li>1 &    
calumniator2 an unconqu]able fe> ( ?is  
ov]came e o!r s5sation4  ,_h ,i be5 left
 to myself1 ,i %\ld infallibly h decl>$ 
! tru?4  ,or if ,m4 de la ,rogue _h tak5
 me aside1 & said--,d n injure ?is poor 
girl2 if y are guilty own x1--,i am     
conv9c$ ,i %\ld in/antly h ?r[n myself  
at 8 feet2 b !y intimidat$1 in/ead (    
enc\rag+ me4  ,i 0 h>dly out ( my       

*ildhood1 or r1 0 yet 9 x4  ,x is also j
 to make "s all[ance = my age4  ,9 y\?1 
d>k1 prem$itat$ villa9y is m crim9al ?an
 9 a rip] age1 b weaknesses are mu* less
 s2 my fault 0 truly no?+ m2 & ,i am    
less afflict$ at ! de$ itself ?an = its 
consequ5ces4  ,x _h "o good effect1     
h[ev]1 9 pres]v+ me ?r\gh ! re/ ( my    
life f any crim9al action1 f ! t]rible  
impression t has rema9$ f ! only "o ,i  
ev] committ$2 & ,i ?9k my av]sion = ly+ 
proce$s 9 a great measure f regret at   
hav+ be5 guilty ( s black a "o4  ,if x  
is a crime t c be expiat$1 z ,i d>e     
believe1 =ty ye>s ( uprightness & honor 
on v>i\s difficult occasions1 ) ! _m    
mis=tunes t h ov]:elm$ my latt] ye>s1   
may h complet$ x4  ,poor ,m>ion has f\nd
 s _m av5g]s 9 ?is _w1 t h[ev] great my 
(f5ce t[>ds h]1 ,i d n fe> to be> !     
guilt ) me4  ,?us h ,i disclos$ :at ,i  
_h to say on ?is pa9ful subject2 may ,i 
be p]mitt$ nev] to m5tion x aga94