,transcrib$ f ! #ahda ,l4 ,g4 ,seeley edition by ,david ,price1 email ccx#jgdpglaf4org ,,pr9t$ ,,by ,l4 ,,& ,g4 ,,seeley1 ,,?ames ,,ditton1 ,,surrey4 ,,! ,,pilot',s ,,daught]2 ,,an ,,acc\nt ,,( ,,elizabe? ,,cull+ham1 ,,:o ,,0 ,,born ,,& ,,di$ ,,9 ,,! ,,p>i% ,,( ,,l[e/(t4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,by ,,! ,,rev4 ,,francis ,,cunn+ham1 ,m4,a4 ,,vic> ,,( ,,l[e/(t4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,london3 ,l4 ,,& ,g4 ,,seeley1 #afi ,,fleet ,,/reet4 ,j4 ,,hat*>d ,,& ,,son1 ,,piccadilly4 ,j4 ,,nesbit1 ,,b]n]',s ,,/reet4 99 99 99 99 99 #ahda4 ,,! ,,pilot',s ,,daught]4 ,! subject ( ?is little memoir 0 s well kn[n to h] neighb\rs1 & to ! _m "y p]sons ) :om %e associat$1 t ,i h felt sure a %ort acc\nt ( h] w\ld n be unacceptable to !m4 ,!y knew h] quiet1 virtu\s1 consi/5t1 pi\s walk1 & !y w1 ,i am sure1 be> witness1 t ,i d n ov]-/ate ! blameless "* :i* %e ma9ta9$4 ,?is1 z x 0 an example to o!rs1 s x mu/ be a cause ( he>tfelt rejoic+ to h] fri5ds n[ t %e has f9i%$ h] c\rse1 & ent]$ into h] re/4 ,to o!rs1 ?is little hi/ory may h its use4 ,x is n ! acc\nt ( a p]son ( unusual p[]s ( m9d1 or ( atta9m5t2 nor ( "o plac$ 9 extraord9>y circum/ances1 al?\gh %e 0 bless$ ) pi\s p>5ts1 :o wat*fully in/ruct$ h] 9 ! tru?s ( ,religion1 z well z taught h] by _! example4 ,%e _h only ! advantages :i* _m "y p]sons 9 e village & t[n possess1 nor did %e atta9 to any situation 9 life1 :i* multitudes may n aspire to4 ,b %e ga9$ a deep & well-gr\nd$ feel+ ( ,religion4 ,%e le>n$ ! evil nature ( h] he>t4 ,%e discov]$ & ga9$ t treasure1 :i* is reveal$ 9 ! ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,%e laid hold by fai? on 8 m]its4 ,%e 0 taught ( ! ,holy ,_s2 & ! graces ( ! ,_s 7 9 an em95t degree manife/$ 9 h] life4 ,%e by ! same p[] acquir$ ! adorn+ ( ! hidd5 man ( ! he>t1 9 t :i* is n corruptible1 ev5 ! ornam5t ( a meek & quiet _s1 :i* is 9 ! sight ( ! ,"l ( great price4 ,%e foll[$ 9 ! simple tra9+ ( ! m9i/ry ( ! ,*ur*3 nei!r seek+ to w&] f its pa/ures1 nor ex]cis+ any want ( *>ity t[>ds ^? :o diff]$ f h]1 "o ( :om1 atta*$ to ano!r d5om9ation ( ,*ri/ians1 h] only surviv+ si/]1 & ne>e/ fri5d1 0 h] con/ant companion2 ) h] %e liv$ 9 p]fect unity ( ,_s4 ,h] circum/ances !n _h no?+ 9 !m out ( ! ord9>y c\rse ( human life4 ,%e _h temptations peculi> to h] own "* & disposition1 & %e met ) ! usual trials1 :i* belong to h] situation 9 life4 ,%e _h h] "t ( heal?1 & ( sickness4 ,%e 0 a daught] & a si/]4 ,%e 0 engag$ 9 a v>iety ( pursuits bo? to ga9 h] livelihood1 & to d good to o!rs2 b 9 e /ate1--)\t exhibit+ any quality to :i* h] fri5ds & neighb\rs might n aspire1--%e may be truly said to h walk$ aft] h] measure 9 h] ,ma/]'s foot/eps1 & to h adorn$ h] ,*ri/ian pr(ession4 ,! fa!r ( ?is "y woman 0 ,james ,cull+ham4 ,he _h = _m ye>s be5 a ,pilot4 ,he 0 a man ( some:at orig9al "*4 ,?r\gh\t 8 life he _h foll[$1 )\t v>iation1 ! usual l9e ( 8 call+1 & fai?fully dis*>g$ ! duties ( 8 occupation4 ,! bus9ess ( a ,pilot on ?is "p ( ! coa/1 is to take %ips com+ f ! ,nor? to ,london4 ,!n to return home aga91 to wait p]haps a few days till ! opportunity occurs ( ano!r voyage4 ,?is k9d ( life is "o ( a good deal ( temptation2 b x did n prove m ?an ?is to him1 = he pass$ ?r\gh x )\t reproa*1 al?\gh some:at unsuccessfully z to 8 own pr(it4 ,9 ! dep? ( ! w9t]1 :5 ! ,nor!rn ,ports 7 froz51 8 usual duties 7 susp5d$4 ,x 0 9 ^! int]vals we _h occasion to obs]ve 8 valuable "*4 ,8 season ( re/ 0 employ$ *iefly at home1 read+ v>i\s books2 9 8 latt] ye>s1 books ( devotion2 & he 0 r>ely abs5t f ! ,h\se ( ,god4 ,9 ! latt] "p ( 8 life1 he 0 9 ! habit1 :5 at home1 ( hav+ /at$ pray] ?ree times a day2 & he read ! ,scriptures 9 ! ord] ( ! ,cal5d> ( ! ,pray] ,book2 at ?is p]iod he also gave up all wat*+ = ! com+ 9 sight ( %ips on ! ,sabba? day2 always1 h[ev]1 be+ ready to g out to !m1 z 8 pr(ession call$ him to d1 if !re 0 any actual necessity4 ,on ! week days at ! pray]s1 z well z on ! ,sunday1 he con/antly att5d$ ! s]vices ( ! ,*ur*4 ,i %all long rememb]1 dur+ ! la/ ye>s ( 8 life1 7! only p]iod :5 ,i knew him17 8 respectable appe>ance1 8 att5tive demean\r & ! animation ) :i* he made ! responses out ( a l>ge pray] book1 :i* 0 8 con/ant companion1 altoge!r manife/+ ! fulness ( he>t1 ) :i* he ent]$ into ! s]vice ( ,god4 ,he 0 a f9e model ( a man1 ^: religion p>took ( ! "* ( a =m] age4 ,he 0 deeply s]i\s1 entirely practical1 /rict 9 8 atta*m5t to ! ,*ur*2 b 8 religi\s feel+1 al?\gh x l$ him sometimes to a fe>less reproa* ( s9 9 o!rs1 did n s mu* draw him to aim at ! conv]sion ( 8 neighb\rs4 ,he ow$ v mu* ( ! expansion ( 8 religi\s m9d to a social ,pray] ,meet+1 at :i* he 0 a con/ant att5dant4 ,"o ( 8 family rememb]s ! fir/ deviation f t rem>kable firmness :i* belong$ to 8 natural "*1 on :i* occasion he came home f "o ( ^! ,meet+s1 deeply affect$1 & witness$ by 8 te>s1 ! impression he _h receiv$4 ,he _h "o rem>kable deliv]ance f ,%ipwreck4 ,he _h be5 call$ to take *>ge ( a %ip 9 di/ress :i* 9 ! c\rse ( t5 m9utes mu/ h p]i%$1 _h x n pleas$ ,god to direct an in/antane\s *ange ( ! w9d4 ,9 ?is dang] he felt himself calm & prep>$ = 8 end4 ,he 01 9 aft] ye>s1 con/antly s5sible ( ?is deliv]ance1 & on two %eets ( pap]1 nail$ up 9 8 b$ room1 he wrote z a memorial 9 8 own l>ge h&3 8,! ,"l is my light & my salvation1 :om %all ,i fe>2 ! ,"l is ! /r5g? ( my life ( :om %all ,i be afraid80 ,& 8,! ,"l is my /r5g? & my %ield2 my he>t ha? tru/$ 9 him1 & ,i am help$3 !re=e my he>t dance? = joy1 & 9 my song w ,i praise him40 ,psalm xxviii4 #h4 ,he 0 a man ( undaunt$ c\rage1 consid]+1 t 9 8 /ation ( life1 x 0 8 duty to run any risks by :i* he might be fai?ful to 8 occupation1 & acquit himself ( ! responsibility entru/$ to him4 ,elizabe?'s ,"m 0 a p]son ( no common "*4 ,%e _h be5 left an orphan at sixte5 ye>s ( age4 ,%e _h sp5t _m ye>s 9 s]vice1 & at ! conclusion ( ?is "t1 _h m>ri$4 ,h] "* 0 "o ( great decision1 & w>m? ( feel+4 ,%e 0 a p]son ( s+ul> b5evol5ce1 & fill$ a valuable po/ among/ h] afflict$ neighb\rs1 & 9 our ,di/rict ,society4 ,h] great sympa?y ) o!rs1 & h] uncommon p[] ( body & ( m9d1 _h l$ h] to give up days & nights to nurs+ h] neighb\rs4 ,?is lab\r ev5tually und]m9$1 & p]man5tly injur$ h] vigor\s con/itution4 ,^? only1 :o saw h] 9 h] afflictions1 c be aw>e ( ! deep feel+ :i* dwelt 9 h] he>t4 ,%e 0 9 ! habit ( read+ a v>iety ( common books :i* fell 9 h] way4 ,i rememb] "s v curi\s que/ions1 :i* %e once put to me on ! family ( an individual1 :i* _h figur$ 9 ! ,hi/ory ( ,engl&4 ,h] piety 0 ard5t4 ,x 0 h] habit to retire e aft]noon to h] *amb] = pray]4 ,%e _h n1 p]haps1 z mu* ( adh]5ce to ! =ms ( ! ,*ur* z h] husb&1 al?\gh %e 0 zeal\sly atta*$ to x1 & a con/ant frequ5t] ( its s]vices4 ,%e 0 v peculi>ly obs]vant ( /atem5ts ( doctr9e1 made 9 ! ,public ,m9i/ry1 giv+ ! mo/ m>k$ pref]5ce to ^? :i* freely (f]$ ! grace ( ,god to all4 ,%e _h be5 l$ to v deep s]i\sness ( religi\s feel+ by ! ard5t piety & int]e/+ dea? ( h] second daught]1 :o exemplifi$1 dur+ elev5 weeks ( pa9ful sickness1 an atta9m5t 9 religion1 :i* af=d$ ! fulle/ assurance ( h] joyful entry into ! ev]la/+ k+dom ( h] ,"l & ,savi\r4 ,t daught] _h tak5 a some:at high] c\rse ( m5tal pursuit1 ?an any ( h] family4 ,%e 0 accu/om$ to express h] dev\t feel+ 9 v]se1 & a copy book has be5 put into my h&s1 conta9+ a v>iety ( little poems1 :i* at lea/ %ew h] sweetness ( m9d1 & h] k ( religion4 ,i _c =be> quot+ "o ( !m1 n p>ticul>ly = its excell5ce1 b because x s]ves to prove1 9 reply to ! *>ge (t5 made ( +ratitude aga9/ ! poor1 h[ frequ5tly a deep feel+ ( ?ankfulness may exi/1 :i* nev]!less ga9s no public expression4 ,^! l9es are on ! dea? ( a v5]able ,cl]gyman1 :om ,i myself knew to h be5 frequ5tly =emo/ 9 acts ( b5evol5ce1 & (t51 if necessity requir$ x1 will+ to /& almo/ alone 9 de$s ( enl>g$ *>ity4 ,,on ,,! ,,dea? ,,( ,,! ,,rev4 ,j4 ,g4 ,,spurgeon1 ,,rector ,,( ,,oulton4 ,h>k6 tis ! l\d knell :i* toll+ s dre>y1 ,ann\nces to all1 a frail mortal's decease2 ,t reliev$ f pa91 at re/ is ! we>y1 ,a ,*ri/ian has ent]$ ! mansions ( peace4 ,b x tells u a fri5d ( ! poor is dep>t$1 ,a b5evol5t fri5d has resign'd 8 la/ brea?1 ,& ! eye :]e ! s(t te> ( pity has />t$1 ,is n[ clos$1 & sleeps 9 ! sil5ce ( dea?4 ,yet :ile 9 deep sorr[1 8 loss we're deplor+1 ,8 _s is m\nt+ to ,heav5 above2 ,to ^? regions ( light he is rapidly so>+1 ,to reap ! rew>d ( 8 lab\rs ( love4 ,peace to ?9e a%es6 ?y w>f>e is end$1 ,?\ ha/ f\ght ! good fight1 & ha/ ent]$ ?y re/2 ,/ill a te> dims _! eye1 ?\ s k9dly befri5d$1 ,& ?y memory is sweet to ! poor & di/ress'd4 ,on h] dea? b$1 ,susan ,cull+ham spoke ( #8pass+ ! d>k valley1 b1' %e add$1 #8,x is light1' & %e bade h] fri5ds g to ! grave1 n to weep1 b to look = h] 9 heav54 ,i ?9k t ,i h r>ely kn[n 9 _! rank ( life1 a f9] specim51 ( :at ,i might wi% ! :ole population ( my p>i% to be1 ?an ! ,fa!r & ,"m ( ,elizabe? ,cull+ham4 ,!y liv$ mo/ happily toge!r1 & aft] dea? 7 n long sep>at$4 ,_! dea? ,i %all h occasion pres5tly to record4 ,elizabe?'s e>ly life 0 su* z might be expect$ 9 h] /ation4 ,%e _h exce$+ly good heal? & spirits at ?is p]iod4 ,%e 0 fully on p> ) all o!r girls 9 *ildi% pursuits4 ,h] disposition 01 h[ev]1 always c>eful4 ,%e 0 consid]ate 9 all ?+s1 n wa/eful ( any ?+1 a /ay] at home1 prud5t & dispos$ to s]i\sness4 ,at ! age ( sixte51 %e w5t to fill a subord9ate situation 9 a family 9 ,london1 9 :i* a female relative 0 ! h\sekeep]4 ,9 ?is situation %e 0 expos$ to no m temptation ?an belongs to a s]vant 9 g5]al4 ,%e 0 p]mitt$1 inde$1 to p>take ( ! usual amusem5ts :i* are all[$ to s]vants 9 ,london1 b %e 0 protect$ f ! evils :i* might h result$ f ^? amusem5ts1 by ! wat*ful att5tion ( ! relation "u ^: c>e %e 0 plac$1 & by ! prev5t+ grace ( ,god4 ,dur+ ! ?ree ye>s ( h] resid5ce 9 ,london no?+ occurr$ to m>k h] c\rse4 ,%e fulfill$ h] duties1 & ga9$ ! "* ( a good s]vant4 ,%e return$ to ,l[e/(t ab\t ! mon? ( ,may1 #ahca1 9 heal? & spirits4 ,h] return 0 ! wi% ( h] c>eful "m1 :o fe>$ to leave h] daught] at a di/ance1 )\t ! protection ( ! k9d relative1 :o _h n[ retir$ f s]vice4 ,on h] return1 ,elizabe? resid$ 9 h] own family1 & foll[$ ! bus9ess %e _h be5 taught2 b h] resid5ce at home 0 "u some:at new circum/ances4 ,at ?is p]iod c]ta9 means ( in/ruction 7 (f]$ to ! "y p ( ! p>i%1 :i*1 "u ,div9e help1 7 peculi>ly calculat$ to meet h] op5+ m9d4 ,^! means 7 #a/1 a ,bible ,class1 & #bnd1 a meet+ ( wom51 belong+ to ! ,*ur*1 = ! m especial object ( ,social ,pray]4 ,bo? ( ^! %e frequ5tly ackn[l$g$ to h be5 ( great advantage to h]4 ,9 ! ,bible ,class1 ! ,scriptures 7 read1 & g5]ally expla9$1 :il/ ! object con/antly kept 9 view 0 to fix ! ^w on ! consci5ce ( ! "y p4 ,ea* "o ( ^! 7 invit$ to repeat "s portion ( ,scripture or a hymn1 select$ by !mselves4 ,! meet+ ( wom5 0 "u ! imm$iate4 direction ( ! m9i/]1 b presid$ ov] by ,mrs4 ,cunn+ham3 9 x ! ^w ( ,god 0 read1 & a review tak5 ( ! s]mons ( ! prec$+ ,sunday4 ,two or ?ree ( ! memb]s 7 !n at lib]ty to engage 9 pray]4 ,9 ! latt] ye>s ( h] life1 ,elizabe? occasionally (f]$ up pray]4 ,^! meet+s 7 g5]ally seasons ( edification to h]1 & v mu* t5d$ to e/abli% h] religi\s m9d3 !y _h also ! effect ( unit+ h] ) ^? ( our ,*ur* :o 7 likem9d$4 ,_! g5]al result ,i h f\nd to be greatly b5eficial to ! ,*ur* itself4 ,x 0 obs]v$ by h] relations t f ! "t ( ,elizabe?'s fir/ att5dance on ^! occasions1 %e devot$ h]self m entirely to ! s]vice ( ,god4 ,h] conduct 0 alt]$3 %e became m s]i\s1 & %e _h m love = ! ,scriptures1 & z ! necess>y consequ5ce1 o!r books 7 laid aside3 h] natural fretfulness 0 also br\ght "u1 & h] "* assum$ t sweetness & quietness :i* x reta9$ till ! end4 ,= two or ?ree ye>s %e w5t on 9 ?is c\rse4 ,%e 0 labori\s 9 ga9+ h] livelihood1 & z h] heal? 0 nev] /rong1 aft] h] return home %e occupi$ h]self at ne$le-"w1 at :i*1 h[ev]1 ?r\gh ! indulg5ce ( h] p>5t1 %e 0 n requir$ to lab\r m ?an suit$ h] heal?4 ,%e 0 habitually1 & by pr9ciple1 indu/ri\s1 feel+ t x 0 equally a ,*ri/ian duty to be dilig5t 9 bus9ess1 z to be f]v5t 9 _s1 s]v+ ! ,"l4 ,i d n rememb] any circum/ances relat+ to h] hi/ory at ?is p]iod :i* 7 ( importance4 ,= two or ?ree ye>s %e pursu$ ! ev5 t5or ( h] way4 ,%e 0 dutiful to h] p>5ts1 k9d to all ar\nd h]1 s]viceable to ! ,*ur*1 & 9 e way an ornam5t to h] ,*ri/ian pr(ession4 ,! "w ( conv]sion 0 obvi\sly go+ on 9 h] s\l4 ,! fulfilm5t ( e duty1 private & public1 gave full pro( ( x4 ,x 0 ab\t ! ye> #ahcc t %e _h ! (f] made ( a situation 9 a g5tleman's family1 ( :i* ! religi\s habits 7 p>ticul>ly suit$ to h]4 ,into ?is family %e ent]$1 & 0 abs5t = ab\t ?ree ye>s 9 a di/ant "p ( ! k+dom4 ,dur+ ?is "t %e _h a sev]e attack ( illness1 :i* result$ 9 h] return home4 ,b z ?is new /ate ( s]vitude 0 some:at ( a trial to h]1 & x _h its peculi> burd5 9 h] weak /ate ( heal?1 & ) h] naturally anxi\s habit ( m9d1 s x 0 calculat$ to exhibit ! /r5g? ( pr9ciple :i* %e _h atta9$4 ,i am glad to be able to br+ =w>d a witness ( h] conduct z a s]vant dur+ ?is p]iod4 ,:5 %e 0 dead ,i wrote to h] late ma/]1 to ask ab\t h]1 & ,i subjo9 a "p ( 8 reply 9 8 own words4 ,brighton1 ,july #bh4 8,,my ,,de> ,,fri5d1 8,?\gh we _c b lam5t ! removal ( su* manife/ly bright sa9ts z ,e4 ,c4 f ?is our l[] e>?1 yet e su* removal is l a door op5$ 9 heav52 & "o seems to he> h] peaceful _s say+ to u1 8,be foll[]s ( me1 & ( !m :o h inh]it$ ! promises40 ,bless$ are su* dead :o die 9 ! ,"l4 ,z long z ,e4 ,c4 0 9 my s]vice1 ,i always consid]$ h] z "o ( ! mo/ p]fect *>act]s ,i _h ev] se54 ,%e 0 ) u1 ,i %\ld ?9k1 ab\t ?ree ye>s4 8,%e always seem$ to me a model ( ,*ri/ian deportm5t z a s]vant1 = ,i nev] saw "o ruffle or ripple 9 ! ev5 /ream ( h] temp]2 ,i nev] saw h] upset or put out by any ha/y ord] or ^w :i* ,i might h spok54 ,%e 0 evid5tly always at re/ 9 ,jesus--enjoy+ v unusually peace & joy 9 believ+--& ?is 0 no d\bt grant$ to a m simple & consi/5t ob$i5ce ?an is g5]ally se5 9 pr(essors ( our days4 ,! *>act]i/ic graces ( h] /ate appe>$ to me humility & quiet cont5tm5t 9 h] situation ( life4 ,%e _h no high s\nd+ pr(ession1 b all 0 a meek1 yet v firm1 te/imony to t bless$ ,ma/]'s grace :o _h 8wr\ght all h] works 9 h]40 8,:5 s]vants are really ?us ,*ri/ian1 !y d especially adorn ! ,gospel ( ,god _! ,savi\r4 8,exhort s]vants to be ob$i5t unto _! own ma/]s1 & to please !m well 9 all ?+s1 n answ]+ aga91 n purlo9+1 b %ew+ all good fidelity1 t !y may adorn ! doctr9es ( ,god our ,savi\r 9 all ?+s40 ,titus ii4 #i4 8,%e did ?is mo/ em95tly4 ,( c\rse ,i c say little m3 ! incid5ts 9 a s]vant's life are g5]ally s few4 ,h]s 0 a bless$ con/ancy1 an ev5 fl[ ( calm & e/abli%$ piety40 99 99 99 99 99 99 99 99 99 ,! te/imony ( ?is lett] to ! "* ( ,elizabe?1 z a s]vant1 is rem>kable4 #8,n "o ruffle or ripple 9 ! ev5 /ream ( h] temp]1' ( ?is naturally anxi\s1 & ev5 fretful1 girl4 #8,nev] upset or put out by any ha/y ord] or ^w3' #8consi/5t ob$i5ce3' #8humility & quiet cont5tm5t 9 h] situation 9 life1' m>k+ all h] c\rse4 ,h[ truly may we feel ) h] ma/] t all ?is 0 a /rong te/imony to ! grace ( t bless$ ,savi\r1 :o _h 8wr\ght all h] works 9 h]40 ,yet :at enc\ragem5t does ?is case af=d to _m o!rs :o are engag$ 9 dome/ic s]vice4 ,%e fulfill$ h] duty z unto ! ,"l1 & ( h] ,ma/] 9 heav5 %e w d\btless receive h] rew>d4 ,elizabe? n[ hav+ return$ home1 took h] place 9 ! p>i%4 ,%e s\ght to be s]viceable to o!rs z well z to ga9 h] livelihood3 %e 0 a con/ant help] to ! m9i/ry1 & a great com=t to h] p>5ts1 ) :om %e dwelt4 ,h] religi\s m9d appe>$ to be cont9ually progress+4 ,at ! close ( ! ye> #ahcf1 %e began a private j\rnal1 :i* has be5 l5t to me4 ,x conta9s *iefly notes ( s]mons :i* %e he>d1 & ( ! impression :i* !y produc$ on h] m9d4 ,h[ happy x is :5 ! s\l is br\ght s to hung] & ?ir/ aft] righte\sness1 t x fe$s ^u all ! food :i* is pres5t$ to x2 :5 ! means ( grace are us$ n )\t pr(it1 :5 s]mons are li/5$ to1 & appli$ to ! he>t1 :5 ! ^w ( ,god is read1 & m>k$1 & inw>dly dige/$1 s t ! hope ( ev]la/+ life is embrac$1 & held fa/4 ,x 0 s ) ,elizabe? ,c4 ,no ^w seem$ to be receiv$ )\t att5tion & application4 ,i wi% t h] example may be foll[$ 9 ?is matt]1 & ) ! same bless+4 ,i w n[ make "s extracts f h] j\rnal2 !y w s]ve to %ew ! v inside ( h] m9d4 ,x beg9s ,dec4 #ah1 #ahcf4 #8,mr4 ,c4 prea*$ f ,isaiah xl4 #c1 #e4 ,i felt my m9d mu* impress$ ) ! s]mon4 ,o t ! ,"l may remove e m\nta9 t imp$es my way to ,him4' ,saturday be+ ! la/ day ( ! ye> %e writes--#8,:5 ,i look back on ! pa/ ye>1 h[ _m %ort com+s & backslid+s1 h[ mu* coldness & lukew>mness h ,i to m\rn ov]3 ,o bless$ ,"l1 enable me to d$icate myself afre% to ?y s]vice1 9 ent]+ ^u ano!r ye>1 & d ?\ p>don all t is pass$4' ,janu>y #a4 #8,! fir/ text :i* caught my eye ?is morn+ 0 ,isaiah i4 #be4 8,o bless$ ,"l1 purge away all my s9s1 & make me to walk humbly be=e !e40 ,mr4 ,c4 prea*$ f ,rom4 xii4 #a1 #b4 ,h[ 0 my m9d impress$ :5 he po9t$ out ! necessity ( giv+ ! :ole he>t to ,god4 ,i 0 l$ to pray e>ne/ly t ! ,"l w\ld enable me to d s = ,jesus sake4 ,janu>y #b4 ,att5d$ a ,pray] ,meet+ at ! ,vic>age1 to implore ! outp\r+ ( ! ,_s4 ,o ,"l1 he> ! pray]s :i* h ?is day be5 (f]$ up4 ,janu>y #ae4 ,mr4 ,c4 prea*$ f #a ,cor4 ii4 #i4 ,! s]mon 0 truly int]e/+ & affect+1 z he spoke to u ( ! dea? ( two individuals1 ,mrs4 ,r41 & ,mrs4 ,c41 well kn[n to u1 :o di$ "u v affect+ circum/ances4 ,mr4 ,c4 po9t$ out :at x 0 to love ! ,"l1 & :at 0 prep>$ = !m t love him4 ,we h no d\bt b our de> fri5ds are n[ enjoy+ ^? ?+s :i* are prep>$ = ! righte\s4 ,o bless$ ,"l1 prep>e me = e *ange & condition ( life2 b above all prep>e me = dea?1 t ,i may be ready to meet !e ) joy4' ,i may be p]mitt$ to digress f my subject = a few mom5ts1 to relate ! hi/ory ( ! two individuals allud$ to4 ,! eld] ( ! two di$ full ( ye>s1 _m ( :i* _h be5 sp5t 9 ! ,s]vice ( ,god4 ,%e 0 #ia ye>s ( age1 & ! ,p>5t1 9 ! f\r? g5]ation1 ( a l>ge numb] ( our ,congregation4 ,al?\gh surr\nd$ by _m witnesses at h] dea?1 %e dep>t$ s quietly1 t none c\ld "k :5 %e took h] flight4 ,( h] x might be truly said1 %e _h 8fall5 asleep 9 ,*ri/40 ,! o!r individual 0 ,m>y ,rackham4 ,%e 0 ! ,"m ( a l>ge family2 %e act$ a prom95t "p 9 h] husb&'s mu* frequ5t$ ,but*]'s %op1 & ?is br\ght h] into ! obs]vation ( ! :ole ,p>i%4 ,%e 0 well kn[n by h] con/ant att5tion to bus9ess1 be+ inf]ior to none 9 ! active pursuit ( h] daily duties4 ,%e 0 confess$ly ! woman 9 ! p>i%1 :o appe>$ to me to h ! l>ge/ %>e ( v>i$ occupation4 ,%e 0 h[ev] 9 ! mid/ ( all h] duties1 di/+ui%$ = h] oblig+ mann]s to all ab\t h]4 ,9 h] family1 ! utmo/ good ord] & consi/5cy 7 obs]v$4 ,%e _h lo/ "o *ild1 :om %e tru/$ %e _h tra9$ = ,god1 & n[ h] long+ anxiety 01 t all ! re/ ( h] family %\ld foll[ 9 ! same c\rse4 ,h[ entirely h] he>t 0 set ^u ?is ,i c\ld well judge1 :o 0 (t5 l$ into conv]sation ) h] on t subject4 ,b h] lab\rs & conflicts1 & h] victory 9 h] own s\l 7 /ill m conspicu\s4 ,%e 0 naturally ( an eag] & sangu9e temp]am5t1 b t ?is _h an entirely new & spiritual direction 0 manife/ to all4 ,h] disposition 0 n to ent]ta9 high notions ( h]self2 yet 0 %e confid5t 9 h] ,savi\r1 & %e nev] te/ifi$ any d\bt z to h] portion 9 ,him4 ,h] zeal = ! ,s]vice ( ,god 0 v great1 & h] att5dance at 8 h\se1 consid]+ h] circum/ances1 0 rem>kable4 ,on ,?ursday ,ev5+1 z on ,sunday1 %e 0 always to be f\nd 9 h] place4 ,%e 0 an att5dant at ! late/ ,sacram5t1 & twice at ! s]vices on ! la/ ,sunday ( h] life4 ,b h] seasons ( private devotion 7 z regul>ly ma9ta9$4 ,%e 0 wat*ful to secure h] morn+ & ev5+ retirem5t2--& 9 ord] to keep up ! ,_s ( devotion1 :i* %e fe>$ might flag ?r\gh ! hurry ( bus9ess2 %e con/antly retir$ 9 ! middle ( ! day1 :5 h] bus9ess _h a pause1 = ! purposes ( read+ & devotional ex]cises4 ,%e 0 a memb]1 & a con/ant att5dant1 :5 %e 0 able1 on ! ,society = ,social pray]4 ,%e di$ aft] h] conf9em5t2 & we _h ! opportunity ( witness+ only an awful1 b a calm & *e]ful delirium :i* fill$ up h] late/ h\rs4 ,b a m beautiful & in/ructive example ( holy devot$ness to e duty1 p]=m$ 9 ! fai? ( ,*ri/1 we c\ld sc>cely h _h ! opportunity ( witness+1 ?an t :i* %e exhibit$ 9 h] daily walk & conv]sation4 ,%e di$ at ! age ( #ce ye>s1 leav+ five *ildr5 beh9d h]4 ,! ,j\rnal ( ,e4 ,c4 goes on4 #8,?ursday ,ev5+1 ,m>* #e4 ,mr4 ,hog>? prea*$ f #b ,cor4 v4 ,he describ$ ! body z a t5t1 :i* mu/ soon be dissolv$1 & ! mis]ies ( ! wick$1 :o h no hope beyond ?is life4 ,none said ,mr4 ,h41 b ! foll[]s ( ,*ri/ c take up ! language ( ! text4 ,enable me1 ,o ,"l1 ?9e unwor?y s]vant1 exp]im5tally to feel t ,i1 ev5 ,i1 h a build+ ( ,god1 an h\se n made ) h&s1 et]nal 9 ! heav5s4 ,m>* #h4 ,mr4 ,c4 spoke ( a de> ,*ri/ian fri5d1 ,s4 ,j4 :o 0 call$ to put (f h] e>?ly tab]nacle la/ ,sabba?4 ,we feel assur$ %e _h a build+ ( ,god1 an h\se prep>$ = h] disembodi$ ,_s--to h]1 said ,mr4 ,c4 may ! text be appli$4 8,well done1 good & fai?ful s]vant1 ent] ?\ into ! ,joy ( ?y ,"l40 ,give me grace1 ,o ,"l1 to improve ! tal5t committ$ to me1 t :5 ?\ calle/ me to give up my acc\nt1 ,i may be ready z ?y s]vant 04' ,susan ,jones1 ! p]son "h allud$ to1 0 an individual ( great int]e/4 ,%e illu/rat$ a valuable little tract1 entitl$ ! 8,s+le tal5t well employ$40 ,%e 0 "o ( ?ree si/]s1 :o liv$ toge!r 9 ,l[e/(t4 ,%e _h resid$ ) a family 9 ,scotl&1 ^: te/imony to h] wor?1 z well z t ( ! heads ( ! family 9 :i* %e di$1 ,i %all v5ture to ins]t4 ,%e 0 "o ( ! brighte/ ornam5ts ( our little ,*ri/ian ,society1 & mu* belov$ by all :o knew h]4 ,i w copy ! acc\nt ( h] inscrib$ 9 ! memor&a ( a fri5d4 #8,?is morn+'s po/ br\ght me ! tid+s ( de> ,susan ,jones' dea?1 or r ( h] be+ on ! po9t ( dea?1 & a reque/ t ,i w\ld in=m h] si/]s ( x4 ,ano!r valu$ memb] ( our ,society1 a true si/] 9 ! ,"l--"o mu* belov$ by u & by _m "h is n[ dep>t$6 ,! lett] 0 f ,mr4 ,s4 a ,cl]gyman1 ) :om %e _h be5 /ay+ at ,woodbridge ab\t ?ree mon?s1 9 ord] to nurse ,mrs4 ,s4 9 h] conf9em5t4' ,! foll[+ is an extract ( 8 lett]4 #8,poor de> ,susan 0 app>5tly well ?is morn+1 & engag$ z usual1 till ab\t #aa o'clock2 :5 ^u h] /oop+ d[n1 %e felt an acute pa92 b z %e 0 subject to ?is1 we 7 n al>m$4--,f9d+1 h[ev]1 t ! pa9 cont9u$1 we s5t = our m$ical att5dant4 ,! suff]+ = a %ort "t became acute1 & ! symptoms s al>m+1 t x 0 soon evid5t !re 0 no hope ( h] life4 ,x is consid]$ t a vessel ne> ! he>t _h giv5 way1 & t %e is s9k+ f int]nal ble$+4 ,%e is inde$ z "o fall5 asleep4 ,h] m9d is calm1 & h] he>t is fix$2--h] gratitude to ,god1 h] pati5ce1 love1 humility1 comb9$ ) simple tru/1 are all s conspicu\s1 t ,i _c p]ceive :i* is ! greate/4 ,%e appe>s n to h a ?\ght 9 ! _w1 & has n said "o ^w reg>d+ x4 ,h] ?\ghts are all t[>ds ,god1 & ! voice ( praise & pray] to him1 = spiritual bless+s are h] only !me4 8,?y w be done10 seems ! fir/ & upp]mo/ feel+ ( h] he>t4 ,y may feel assur$ :5 y receive ?is1 t h] ,_s is 9 ,heav51 ) h] belov$ ,savi\r4 ,all h] words are n[ ei!r to1 or ( h] ,god & ,savi\r1 & %e appe>s to h clos$ h] s5ses to ?is try+ sc5e4 ,h] bodily suff]+s n[ are small4 ,i feel z ?\gh 9 p>t+ f h]1 ,i 0 los+ "o ( my be/ fri5ds1 & ,i only pray t ! ,almighty1 9 8 m]cy1 may s help me1 t ,i may see de> ,susan 9 ano!r & bett] _w4 ,) e good wi% & pray]1' ,believe me1 ,y\rs fai?fully1 ,j4 ,p4 ,s4' ,febru>y #bg?4 #8,receiv$ ?is morn+ ! acc\nt ( de> ,susan ,jones's dea?4 ,! foll[+ is an extract f ,mr4 ,s's4 second lett]4' #8,poor de> ,susan 0 call$ away a few h\rs soon] ?an we expect$4 ,%e brea!d h] la/ a qu>t] be=e "o o'clock ?is morn+1 :5 %e ex*ang$ a ,sabba? day on e>?1 = an et]nal ,sabba? 9 heav54 ,i feel z /rong a confid5ce t %e is n[ 9 glory1 z ,i c feel ( any p]son ,i ev] knew4 ,! v]se = ! day 9 ! ,*ri/ian ,almanack1 #bf? ,febru>y1 is1 8,!re rema9e?1 !re=e1 a re/ = ! p ( ,god10 z x 7 greet+ me on my com+ d[n /airs ?is morn+1 ) a mo/ welcome & appropriate assurance1 & z x 7 9 confirmation ( my feel+s4 ,all ,i c say ( h] 9 h] life1 & 9 h] dea?1 w\ld come %ort ( ! reality1 & ,i c only hope & pray t ,i may be kept f abus+ ! privilege ,i h _h 9 h] fri5d%ip2 & t h] image & example may1 by ,god's bless+1 be ! means ( assi/+ my weakness1 & help+ me on to an entrance into glory = ev] & ev] ) h]6' ,may we seek to foll[ h] humble & ,*ri/ian c\rse1 blameless & h>mless z %e 01 lov$ by all1 & lov+ all4 ,%e 0 n quick to discov]1 or speak ( ! faults ( o!rs1 be+ too humbly alive to h] own4 ,i nev] rememb] to h left h] aft] ! fulle/ communications ) h]1 di/ress$ or p]plex$ by hi/ories ( o!rs1 & _! faults & fail+s2 ov] ^! %e drew ! curta91 & fix$ h] eye only ^u h] own4 ,%e introduc$ ! subject ( o!r p only to speak k9dly & affectionately ( !m3 %e appe>$ 8)\t p>tiality10 nor _h %e t selfi%ness :i* soon takes affront3 ,i nev] knew h] vex$ ) any "o = suppos$ unk9dness or neglect3 %e seem$ always to ?9k %e receiv$ m ?an %e des]v$4 ,o may we all h grace to foll[ h] 9 ?is1 & 9 _m o!r ( h] ,*ri/ian virtues4 ,:5 ?us sudd5ly seiz$1 & ) no?+ b dea? be=e h]1 h] s\l 0 f\nd p]fectly /aid4 ,no di/ress+ fe>s or conflicts ov]:elm$ h]2 b %e met ! summons ) p]fect =titude & resignation4 ,:5 ,mr4 ,s4 said to h]1 #8,de> ,susan1 d y n feel afraid8' #8,o no1 sir1 ,i h no fe>2 ,i am lean+ on ! arm ( ,jesus1 ,he is my support--,he is hold+ me beh9d & be=e4 ,god has laid 8 h& ^u me3 ,8 w be done2 ,he w keep me1 ,he w support me4' ,! /+ ( dea? seem$ entirely )drawn1 & ! glori\s hope ( be+ = ev] ) ! ,"l1 swall[$ up all pa9 9 quitt+ ?is valley ( te>s4 ,o ! bless$ness ( liv+ ?us 9 prep>ation = dea?6 ,may ! in/ructive lesson s9k deeply into all our he>ts1 lead+ u to a wat*ful circumspect devotion to our ,god & ,savi\r2 t1 :5 he %all please to call u1 we may say ) h]1 #8ready1 ,"l1 ready4' ,z x 0 my pa9ful (fice to in=m h] de> si/]s ( ! affect+ ev5t ( ,susan's seizure & probable dep>ture at t mom5t1 ,i w5t 9 aft] ! s]vice on ,sunday morn+4 ,at ! mom5t ( my entry1 ,hannah 0 read+ a pap] %e held 9 h] h&4 ,i ask$ !m if !y _h he>d any ?+ ( ,susan4 #8,n v lately2 b we h j be5 read+ a pap] ( h]'s we f\nd 9 h] ,bible4' ,^! 7 ! words3--#8,o my de> si/]s1 we h n[ began ano!r ye>1 ,o may we live x fit to die1 %\ld we be call$ away be=e x is pa/4 ,?is day ,i h be5 to he> ,mr4 ,salmon1 & we _h a mo/ excell5t s]mon f ,ze*>iah i4 #e4 8,y\r fa!rs1 :]e are !y80 ,god bless y bo?4--,susan ,jones4' ,?is seem$ a m]ciful prep>ation = break+ to !m ! sorr[ful tid+s1 :i* ,i did1 z c>efully z possible1 endeav\r+ to arm !m ) ,*ri/ian feel+ ( dep5dance ^u ,god1 & ) s5se ( ,8 pres5ce & love 9 ?is ev5t4 ,!y 7 n at fir/ s ov]:elm$ z ,i expect$3 !y 7 deeply atta*$ to ea* o!r1 & no?+ c\ld exce$ ! c>eful & affectionate mann] 9 :i* ,susan _h nurs$ ,elizabe? 9 a long & pa9ful illness4 ,h] wat*ful affection _h b\nd !m /ill m closely toge!r4 ,elizabe? ,jones has s9ce di$1 & has left ample te/imony to h] fai? 9 ! ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/1 & h] meetness to appe> 9 ! pres5ce ( ,god1 ?r\gh ! m]it ( h] ,savi\r4 ,we _h mo/ int]e/+ & satisfactory te/imonies ( ,susan ,jones's "* f o!rs4 ,lady ,h4 ?us writes ( h] 9 a lett] to ,elizabe?4 #8,y _c d\bt h[ great 7 my feel+s ( sorr[1 :5 ,i he>d ( ! decease ( my fai?ful fri5d1 y\r de> si/] ,susan2 inde$ ,i h>dly ?9k any su* ev5t1 out ( my own family1 c\ld h griev$ u all s deeply4 ,almo/ ! la/ words ,i ev] he>d f h] 71 #8if ,i am gone :5 y return to ,engl&1 nev] sorr[ = y\r poor old s]vant4' ,b ,i d sorr[ = h] v deeply1 & %all always ?9k t ,i h lo/ a fai?ful fri5d1 "o :o did me & my *ildr5 good1 & n evil1 dur+ all ^? days ( h] life :i* %e sp5t ) me1 & ,i am v sure %e has cont9u$ to d u good by ! he>ty pray]s %e address$ = u1 to ,him ^: eyes are 9 e place4 ,h] unwe>i$ k9dness to my *ildr51 ,i nev] did1 & nev] c\ld1 repay2 ,i allude *iefly to ! good pr9ciples %e taught !m1 ( love to ,god1 love to _! p>5ts1 to "o ano!r1 & to all _! bre?r5 ( mank9d4 ,o happy "m %all ,i be1 if my (fspr+ dep>t n f ! ways :i* _! old nurse taught !m4 #8,:5 ,i 0 at ! ,"l's table la/ ,sunday1 ,i ?\ght ( ,susan1 :o _h s (t5 be5 !re ) h] ma/] & me4 ,i 0 prep>$ to rememb] h] :5 we are direct$ to bless ! ,"l #8= all 8 s]vants dep>t$ ?is life 9 ,8 fai? & fe>1' ^: good example1 :atev] _! /ation 9 ?is _w may h be51 we pray = grace to foll[4' ,b ,i w return to "s portions ( ,e4 ,c's4 j\rnal4 #8,m>* #ab4 ,att5d$ ! ,pray] ,meet+ z usual 9 ! morn+4' ,?is meet+ 0 held on ! ,sabba? morn+ at #i o'clock1 & is compos$ ( a few p]sons :o meet toge!r to ask a bless+ on ! com+ means ( grace4 #8,i felt my m9d1' %e says1 #8mu* drawn out 9 pray]4 ,! meet+ 0 lively1 & ,i tru/ ! ,"l 0 ) u1 ?\gh "s ( ! weake/ ( 8 creatures4 ,9 ! morn+1 ,mr4 ,c4 prea*$ f ,hebrews ix4 #ac1 #ad1 ! fir/ "p consid]+ :at x 0 to purge ! consci5ce f dead works4 ,he spoke n only ( ! dead works ( ! unconv]t$1 b also ( ! dead works ( ! ,*ri/ian4 ,h[ (t5 is he f\nd h>d-he>t$1 & cold1 & lukew>m1 & too (t5 br++ =? fruit to ! di%on\r ( ,god4 ,:at !n b ! blood ( ,*ri/ c cleanse him f 8 dead works4 ,"l1 give me grace & fai? to apply to t blood cont9ually4' ,s did %e speak ( h] own defici5cies4 ,next %e speaks ( h] own lab\rs on ! same day4 #8,att5d$ ! s*ool 9 ! aft]noon4 ,o ,"l1 bless & own my poor lab\rs4 ,enable me to tea* = ,!e1 t ?y "n may be glorifi$4' ,pass+ ov] a portion ( h] j\rnal1 %e comes to #8,april #af4 ,mr4 ,ho>e prea*$ f ,hebrews ix4 #ad-af4 ,he beautifully describ$ h[ ,*ri/ 0 ! ,high ,prie/ ( 8 p2 h[ ,he aton$ = _! s9s by %$d+ 8 own blood2 & h[ he ent]$ into ! ,holie/ ( ,holies1 :]e he ev] live? to make int]cession = !m4 ,he also spoke ( ! t5d]ness ( ,*ri/2 :]eby he sympa?iz$1 & ( 8 p[]1 :]eby ,he 0 able to save to ! utt]mo/ all t come to ,god by ,him4 ,he mo/ e>ne/ly entreat$ ! trembl+ believ] to come boldly to ,"o :o 0 bo? able & will+ to save him4' ,h] own reflections on ?is s]mon may be ga!r$ f ! expressions %e has appli$ to x4 #8,mr4 ,swanison f ,j]4 xxxi4 #ah-bj4 ,9 ! conduct ( ,ephraim tea*+ u ! nature ( true rep5tance4 ,! pray] ( ,ephraim %ews ! *ange 9 8 m9d4 ,he entreats ,god to turn him1 feel+ t he _c turn himself4 ,he feels & owns he has be5 a rebel1 b he relies on ! ,"l to turn him & to p>don all 8 s9s4 ,"h we see ! m]cy & ! love ( ,god display$4 ,he does n receive ! rep5tant s9n] z a s]vant1 b he calls him 8 de> son4 ,oh :at enc\ragem5t to ! poor return+ s9n]1 to "k t ,god1 :om he feels t he has (f5d$1 e>ne/ly rememb]s him /ill4' ,i am glad to make extracts f ! s]mons ( _m ( my de> fell[ help]s 9 ! gospel1 :o h be5 work+ ) me 9 ?is field ( lab\r1 & :o h ea*1--"o plant+1 & ano!r wat]+1 b ,god giv+ ! increase2--be5 s hon\r$ z to give suitable culture to a plant ( ! ,"l1 :om !y w "o day meet 9 glory1 9 ! heav5ly p>adise4 ,i also make ^! extracts1 t we may be enabl$ to trace ! means by :i* ! m9d ( our dep>t$ fri5d1 0 furni%$ ) food conv5i5t = its gr[? 9 grace & hol9ess4 #8,may #ba4 ,att5d$ ! morn+ ,pray] ,meet+4 ,felt r dead 9 pray]4 ,may ! ,"l quick5 my affections & w>m my cold he>t4' #8,mr4 ,c4 f ,amos viii4 #h1 #i4 ,s]mon on ! ,jews4 ,he spoke mu* on ! fulfilm5t ( prophecy2 ! ,"l1 9 v>i\s places1 ?reat5+ to disp]se & de/roy ?is p1 b n make a full end1 c4 c4 ,o ,bless$ ,"l1 give me to live1 t ,i neglect n ?is message1 = if ?\ sp>$ n ! natural bran*es1 nei!r wilt ?\ sp>e me if ,i neglect ?y ^w4 ,"l1 give me ?y ,_s1 & guide me 9 all my ways1 = ?y de> ,son's sake4' ,pass+ ov] o!r subjects1 we may take ! effect produc$ on h] m9d1 by "o ( ! social meet+s be=e allud$ to4 #8,monday ,ev5+1 ,sept4 #a4 ,att5d$ ,mrs4 ,c4's meet+4 ,mrs4 ,c4 spoke mu* ( ! ,omnipres5ce ( ,god4 ,i felt ! subject v mu*1 & ,i 0 enabl$ to p\r out my s\l 9 pray]4 ,surely ! ,"l's pres5ce 0 ) u at t "t4 ,o bless$ ,"l1 keep me humble2 empty me entirely ( self1 t my unwor?y s]vices may be acceptable 9 ?y sight4' ,x is pla9 by ?is passage1 t %e _h felt ! approa* ( temptation1 b %e met x 9 ! _s ( wat*fulness & pray]4 ,on ano!r occasion1 %e says1 #8,i att5d$ ! meet+4 ,i tru/ ! ,"l 0 ) our little p>ty1 & t he w he> & answ] pray]4 ,i feel my own weakness1 & utt] unwor?9ess 9 approa*+ !e1 ,o ,"l1 b look ?\ 9 m]cy ^u me2 p>don my s9s1 =give my iniquities1 & let n ! imp]fections ( my pray]s r5d] !m odi\s 9 ?y sight4 ,?\ ,"l1 kn[e/ my weakness2 ,o /r5g!n me t ,i may be enabl$ to confess !e ) m boldness2 b ,o keep me humble4' #8,oct4 #ae4 ,?is ,morn+1 ! ,rev4 ,d4 ,hog>? prea*$ f ,mala*i ii4 #b1 #c4 ,o ,bless$ ,jesus1 d ?\ purify & cleanse my s\l f ! dross ( s91 :i* ,i feel /ill h9d]s me f enjoy+ ! light ( ?y c\nt5ance4 ,o remove ! veil f m9e eyes1 & s9 f my he>t1 t ,i may see & und]/& :at ?y w is2 d ?\ enlight5 & guide me 9 ?y way4' ,an ev5t n[ occurr$ 9 ! family ( ,elizabe? ,cull+ham1 ( ! deepe/ int]e/ & importance4 ,?is 0 ! dea? ( h] ,fa!r4 ,on ,monday1 ,jan4 #h1 #ahch1 ab\t two o'clock 9 ! aft]noon1 a =eign %ip came 9 sight1 & hoi/$ a flag = a ,pilot4 ,%e 0 ab\t t5 miles f ! %ore1 b al?\gh ! wea!r 0 ?reat5+1 & ! ev5+ approa*+1 x seem$ practicable to rea* ! %ip2 & z x 0 suspect$1 t o!rs might be 9 ! (f+1 :i* w\ld likewise require assi/ance1 two ,pilots put (f1 ) ?irte5 m5 9 "o yawl1 & "o ,pilot ) tw5ty-"o 9 ano!r4 ,! dang]s :i* might h t]rifi$ ord9>y m51 did n prev5t ^! brave seam5 f enc\nt]+ ! p]ils :i* ?reat5$ !m 9 ! way ( duty4 ,x 0 a maxim ( ,james ,cull+ham1 t he ought1 9 8 duty z a ,pilot1 to fe> no dang]1 & t :5ev] o!rs w\ld take him1 he %\ld g4 ,! yawls c>ri$ _! ma9sails at fir/1 & expect$ to rea* _! object4 ,b ! vessel1 in/ead ( keep+ its fir/ c\rse t[>ds ! boats1 :5 !y 7 five or six miles f ! %ore1 /ood out to sea4 ,! yawls !re=e1 9 _! ef=t to rea* ! %ip1 7 c>ri$ f> f l&1--& daylight drew to a close be=e ! m5 7 aw>e ( _! situation4 ,! w9d meantime arose1 & ! sn[ drift$ heavily4 ,! greate/ anxiety 0 soon felt by all on %ore4 ,! sc5e :i* pres5ts itself on ^! occasions1 may be conceiv$1 b n describ$4 ,fa!rs1 ,mo!rs1 ,wives1 ,si/]s1 ,bro!rs1 & ,*ildr51 are se5 int5tly wat*+ e *ange 9 ! sky & waves1 eag]ly gaz+ ^u ! di/ance to cat* a glimpse ( ! abs5t objects ( _! love3 grasp+ e phantom ( hope :i* may pres5t itself2 b at l5g?--conv9c$ by "s und\bt$ sign1 t !y mu/ hope no m4--,_m are ! v[s :i* are !n made2 _m are ! pray]s :i* are !n (f]$4 ,! wat*+ & susp5se1 h[ev]1 7 9 ?is case1 soon at an end4 ,at sev5 o'clock "o ( ! yawls ?r\gh great dang]1 rea*$ ! %ore1 & ?is left no d\bt z to ! loss ( ! o!r1 9 :i* 0 ,james ,cull+ham1 & ano!r ,pilot4 ,x is suppos$ ?is yawl1 ! #8,peace1' 9 endeav\r+ to get into ! gat-way1 _h miss$ ! light1 x be+ ?ick ) sn[1 t %e got into brok5 wat]1 & _h gone d[n4 ,b none 7 left to tell ! tale ( woe4 ,! boat itself1 sometime aft]w>ds1 0 wa%$ on %ore1 a complete wreck4 ,v few ( ! bodies 7 recov]$3 b among/ ! numb]1 t ( ,james ,cull+ham 0 f\nd1 v rem>kably1 eight mon?s aft]w>ds4 ,twelve wid[s & ?irty two *ildr51 7 9 consequ5ce ( ?is disa/]1 left de/itute4 ,?is 01 inde$1 a night ( agony1 to numb]s on %ore4 ,/ill ! possibility ( escape pres5t$ itself to _! m9ds1 b x 0 hop+ aga9/ hope4 ,yet 0 e "o afraid ( ackn[l$g+ to ! *ief m\rn]s1 :at 9 _! own m9ds 0 _! fix$ op9ion1 t no *ance rema9$4 ,none w\ld1 at all ev5ts1 be ! fir/ to decl>e ! awful tru? to ^? brok5 he>t$ suff]]s4 ,b !re mu/ h be5 a sc5e ev5 m affect+ ?an ! "o n[ record$4 ,9 ! boat 7 fifte5 m51 :o 7 9 ! v jaws ( de/ruction4 ,"o o!r heave ( ! impetu\s sea1 & _! /ate 0 fix$1 fix$ = ev]4 ,"s ( !m1 p]haps1 _h be5 drunk>ds1 or ,sabba? break]s1 or neglect]s ( ,religion2 b n[ !y 7 call$ at once to give acc\nt ( :at !y _h done1 & :at !y _h left undone1 & no?+ c\ld be left1 to :i* !y might look =w>d1 b ! puni%m5t :i* awaits ! s9n]4 ,x is impossible to conceive a sc5e m really appall+1 al?\gh outw>dly its awfulness might be conceal$ by ! anxiety & ef=ts :i* x caus$4 ,b to ?9k ( ! nev]-dy+ s\l1 hi!rto unc>$ =1 unprep>$ ) all its s9s ^u x1 hurri$ 9 "o mom5t into judgm5t1 & to ! wages ( its transgressions1 is awful inde$6 ,:at may h be5 ! case ( ^! m51 ! day ( ,judgm5t w disclose4 8,bless$ are ! dead :i* die 9 ! ,"l40 ,t x 0 ! portion ( ,james ,cull+ham s to die1 we c h no d\bt4 ,8 fai?1 8 conv]t$ he>t1 evid5c$ by 8 life1 af=d a w>rant ( good hope z to 8 condition4 ,he liv$ to ,*ri/1 & dea? 0 d\btless ga9 to him4 ,:e!r at sea1 or on 8 b$1 he might s9k 9 peace1 = a joyful inh]itance w\ld await him4 ,b :at 0 ! lot ( ! m\rn]s 9 8 own b]eav$ family on t sad night8 ,james ,cull+ham _h left 8 h\se 9 ! morn+1 & t he 0 gone1 0 probably n m notic$ ?an at o!r times4 ,x 0 expect$ t ! yawl :i* took him out1 w\ld 9 due c\rse return4 ,soon h[ev]1 al>m arose on ! bea*1 & rapidly spread itself 9 ! t[n4 ,9 ! ev5+1 x 0 naturally expect$ t "s news w\ld come f ! ,pilots1 = ! boat :i* convey$ !m to ! vessels mu/ ( necessity return4 ,b no news arriv$4 ,elizabe? _h be5 s5t to b$ by h] ,"m1 :o ) h] o!r daught] sat alone 9 ! h\se 9 ! deepe/ anxiety4 ,! w9d became v tempe/u\s4 ,! sn[ drift$4 ,a solemn awe 0 spread ov] ! cottage4 ,b !re 0 no?+ to be done1 b to wait1 & pray1 & to support ! m9d 9 sil5ce2 /ill hop+ t e mom5t w\ld br+ !m tid+s4 ,! elde/ daught] at l5g? w5t up /airs1 leav+ h] ,"m alone4 ,! ?ree bro!rs _h be5 on ! bea*2 & soon appreh5d+ ! real /ate ( ! case2 !y _h scatt]$ !mselves on ! coa/1 sev]al miles to ! s\?w>d1 hop+ t ! boat might be driv5 on %ore 9 t direction4 ,mean:ile a univ]sal appreh5sion 0 spread abroad1 & e "o :o knew h[ deeply ! news w\ld affect ! family ( ,james ,cull+ham =bore to come to ! h\se1 le/ !y might be ! involunt>y means ( convey+ ! sad intellig5ce4 ,! ,"m sat alone till ! morn+1 at ?is "t a /rang] unwitt+ly reveal$ ! ext5t ( ! calamity4 ,%e 0 he>d pass+ ! road1 :5 ! anxi\s wife w5t to ! door to ask :e!r %e _h he>d any ?+ ( ! yawl4 ,%e repli$1 unconsci\s to :om %e 0 speak+4 8,no?+4 ,x w nev] come back aga960 ,! awful fact n[ broke 9 ^u ! m9d ( ,mrs4 ,cull+ham4 ,at once %e und]/ood t all 0 lo/2 %e receiv$ ! news h[ev]1 )\t any outcry or lam5tation4 ,b x sunk deeply )94 ,h] expression to h] daught] 01 #8y\r ,fa!r is gone1 he is safely arriv$1 ,i %all jo9 him 9 ,heav54' ,%e nev] once 0 he>d to murmur4 ,b ! bl[ 0 int5sely sev]e1 & ! weight ( sorr[ seem$ to be borne alike1 by ! daught]s & ! ,"m4 ,x may be said to h be5 ! dea? signal at a m remote p]iod ( ,elizabe?1 z well z ( h] ,"m4 ,nei!r ( !m ev] recov]$ _! heal?4 ,to ! ,wid[ ! loss 0 9 all respects v great4 ,x might truly be said ( h] & h] husb&1 8!y 7 pleasant 9 _! lives1 & 9 _! dea? !y 7 n divid$40 ,9 a v few mon?s1 %e 0 call$ to foll[ him4 ,a l>ge subscription :i* 0 rais$1 *iefly at a di/ance f home1 toge!r ) ! prop]ty ( h] husb&1 & ! assi/ance ( h] ,*ildr51 left ! ,"m ( ,elizabe? 9 no want z to h] worldly circum/ances4 ,b ! sudd5ness1 & ! mann] ( h] husb&'s dea?1 & ! haunt+ reflection t 8 body 0 yet unburi$1 left a sort ( wret*$ness 9 h] m9d1 :i* no?+ b h] fai? & hope c\ld subdue4 ,h] mode ( life 0 n[ "s :at alt]$4 ,%e _h m "t to read ! ,scriptures1 :i* %e did e aft]noon1 z well z morn+ & ev5+4 ,b 9 ! mon? ( ,m>*1 %e 0 attack$ ) a p>alytic /roke4 ,?is 0 n viol5t1 & x affect$ h] body m ?an h] m9d4 ,x 0 a "t ( deep he>t se>*+ to h]1 & ( prep>ation = h] end4 ,h] m9d might be said to dwell 9 heav5ly hope4 ,%e 0 deeply e>ne/ 9 h] devotions4 ,i h ent]$ h] room1 & f9d+ h] int5t 9 pray]1 h retir$ unobs]v$4 ,h] m9d 0 n easily di/ract$ :5 employ$ 9 commun+ ) ,god4 ,b h] /ate 0 n happy2 %e 0 oppress$ ) ! s5sation ( h] disord]1 & %e cont9u$ to feel int5sely ! circum/ances ( h] husb&'s dea?1 & to m\rn ov] 8 undiscov]$ & unburi$ body4 ,at l5g? h[ev]1 x pleas$ ,god to relieve h] f "o ( ^! causes ( grief1 by a rem>kable int]position ( 8 favor4 ,by a v s+ul> accid5t1 h] husb&'s body 0 wa%$ on %ore 9 ! mon? ( ,octob]1 _m miles f ! place :]e he 0 lo/4 ,x _h be5 ly+ ne>ly n9e mon?s 9 ! sea1 &1 on rea*+ ! %ore1 _h be5 f\nd1 & buri$4 ,in=mation hav+ be5 giv5 t a body _h be5 s f\nd1 x 0 dis9t]r$1 & id5tifi$ by 8 *ildr54 ,x 0 !n br\ght home to ,l[e/(t1 :]e x n[ lies 9 our *ur*y>d1 among ! rema9s ( diff]5t memb]s ( 8 family4 ,?is 0 an occasion :i* peculi>ly call$ out ! gratitude ( 8 wid[4 ,aft] ?is ev5t1 %e recov]$ ! full p[]s ( h] m9d4 ,dur+ ! rema9+ few weeks ( h] life1 %e seem$ to h ga9$ cle>] assurance ( h] own safety1 & a m joyful hope & anticipation ( future bless$ness4 ,h] /ate ( conflict 0 n[ *ang$ to "o ( full assurance ( hope4 ,"o rem>kable sc5e ( h] la/ days1 ( :i* ,i 0 a witness1 ,i w relate 9 ,elizabe?'s words1 copi$ f h] j\rnal4 ,on ! day ( h] "m's dea? %e writes1 #8,! ,"l has be5 pleas$ to take my de> "m out ( ?is /ate ( trial & suff]+4 ,h[ calm1 h[ pati5t %e 0 ?r\gh h] long & pa9ful illness4 ,no murmur+1 no rep9+ ev] escap$ h] lips4 ,h] end 0 peace4 ,mr4 ,c4 call$ to see h] on ! ,sunday ev5+3 %e 0 !n able to speak only at int]vals4 ,he spoke to h] ( ! joys ( heav54 ,%e appe>$ to take no notice = "s mom5ts1 :5 sudd5ly rea*+ =? h] h& to heav51 %e exclaim$1 ,*ri/ !re6 ,!n br++ x back1 & lay+ x on h] he>t1 %e said1 ,*ri/ "h6' ,h[ expressive 7 ^! simple words ( h] /ate ( m9d1 & ( h] hope 9 h] ,r$eem]4 ,on ?is day %e spoke to me ( #8go+ home1' :i* 0 ! view %e ent]ta9$ ( h] dep>ture4 ,on ! la/ morn+ ( h] life %e made sign to h] daught] to read to h]3 %e read "p ( ,john xiv4 ,! "m !n clasp$ h] h&s 9 pray]4 ,?is 0 ne>ly ! la/ act ( h] life4 ,%e seem$ n[ to be peculi>ly alive to ! reality ( ! pres5ce ( h] ,"l & ,savi\r z ! ,way1 ! ,tru?1 & ! ,life1 & t by ,him a heav5ly mansion _h be5 prep>$ = h]4 ,h] room _h be5 a k9d ( %elt] f ! bu/le & confusion ( ! _w ar\nd1 & h] daught]s1 :o 9 turn rema9$ at home on ! ,sabba? day1 & read ! s]vice ( ! ,*ur* to h]1 te/ifi$ ( ! com=t :i* ^? seasons ( retirem5t m9i/]$ to !m4 ,^! 71 inde$1 times ( refre%m5t f ! ,"l4 ,a fri5d ( h]'s ?us describes an int]view :i* %e _h ) h] a %ort "t be=e h] dea?4 #8,i _h delightful communication ) h] j be=e ,i left home3 ,i sat by h] b$-side1 & we talk$ mu* on ! et]nal /ate4 ,%e 0 entirely s5sible1 c\ld look at ! approa*+ dissolution ( h] body ) p]fect peace4 ,we spoke ( ! heav5ly ,j]usalem1 & ( ! joyful prospect be=e h] ( ent]+ into re/3 h] fai? 0 /rong & cle>4 ,%e r5\nc$ e ?+ 9 h]self1 & ?r\gh ! unm]it$ m]cy ( h] de> ,r$eem]1 %e felt assur$ t h] s9s 7 p>don$1 & t an abundant entrance w\ld be m9i/]$ to h] into ! ev]la/+ k+dom ( h] ,god & ,savi\r4 ,h] life ( fai?1 & ( active duty1 & h] dea?1 s *e]$ by confid5ce 9 ! ,good ,%eph]d1 af=d$ ! fulle/ w>rant ( ?is bless$ end ( all h] lab\rs & h] trials4' ,i mu/ n[ c>ry back ?is memoir to ! beg9n+ ( ! ye>4 ,a fun]al s]mon 0 prea*$ on ! occasion ( ! dea? ( ,james ,cull+ham4 ,he 0 a communicant1 & 8 "* call$ = ?is public notice4 ,advantage 0 tak5 ( ! same occasion to speak ( ! dea? ( ano!r individual1 a fri5d ( ,elizabe? & h] "m1 & ,i believe ( mo/ ( ! s]vants ( ,god1 :o came )9 h] rea* 9 our little flock4 ,?is 0 ,m>y ,smi?4 ,h] husb&'s %op 9 :i* %e s]v$1 made h] well kn[n 9 ! p>i%1 & enabl$ h] to d mu* = o!rs1 & ?us br\ght into view mo/ ( ! infirmities :i* belong$ to h] nature4 ,%e 0 a woman ( v m>k$ & zeal\s "*1 well kn[n to ^? ab\t h]1 bo? 9 h] natural & h] r5ew$ /ate4 ,9 bo? %e 0 indu/ri\s & k9d-he>t$1 a good wife1 "m1 & neighb\r2 b 9 h] =m] /ate v cle>ly )\t t feel+ ( religion :i* m>k$ h] latt] ye>s4 ,inde$ x may be said t %e _h gone s f> z to #8p]secute t way :i* %e aft]w>ds foll[$4' ,%e 0 a v m>k$ in/ance ( an entire *ange ( he>t1 by ! p[] ( ! ,holy ,_s4 ,! natural ard\r ( h] m9d 0 sanctifi$ 9 h] conv]t$ /ate2 x work$ ) ! same p[]1 b 9 ano!r direction1 & "u ano!r influ5ce3 %e trac$ ! *ange 9 h] m9d to a s]mon :i* %e he>d on ,phil4 ii4 #ab4 ,%e !n set consci5ti\sly ab\t work+ out h] salvation1 & %e f\nd h] heav5ly ,fa!r1 ev] ready to "w 9 h]1 bo? to w & to d ( 8 good pleasure4 ,h] s5se ( ?is m>k$ int]f]5ce ( ! div9e p[] on h] behalf 0 nev] lo/ sight (2 = ! anniv]s>y ( ! day :5 %e fir/ gave he$ to ! message ( salvation1 %e rememb]$ ) mu* feel+4 ,( h] dome/ic "*1 ^? :o h liv$ ) h] h spok5 to me1 & h borne high te/imony to h] z a wife & a "m1 & dur+ h] employm5t 9 ! bus9ess ( h] %op4 ,h] w became rem>kably subject$ to ! w ( ,god 9 all ?+s4 ,x may be truly said1 t %e did h] duties z 8to ! ,"l40 ,%e _h a v praisewor?y habit ( pray+ ) h] *ildr51 :5ev] %e f\nd !m 9 fault4 ,h] religi\s "* 0 m>k$ by a /rict con=mity to ! doctr9es ( ! ,*ur*1 ( :i* %e 0 a consi/5t1 fai?ful1 zeal\s memb]4 ,9 att5dance on its s]vices %e _h be5 br\ght to ! k ( salvation1 & %e cont9u$ to walk 9 ! true/ submission1 & ! mo/ lively atta*m5t to its m9i/ry4 ,9 ano!r po9t %e has left u an example4 ,%e 0 ev] p>ticul>ly alive to wat* = ! s\ls ( o!rs1 to lead !m =w>d1 & to draw !m to seek ,god4 ,!re are _m n[ liv+ :o c\ld be> witness to ! e>ne/ness1 ) :i* %e s\ght to w>n ! unconv]t$1 to reclaim ! w&]]1 to recov] ! backslid]4 ,h] k9dness to h] poor neighb\rs 0 rem>kable4 ,h] m$ical man in=m$ me1 t he sc>cely ev] w5t into h] h\se1 )\t h] fir/ ask+ him ab\t "s "o :o want$ relief1 :i* relief %e 0 always eag] to give accord+ to h] means1 & _m 7 ! portions :i* h] provision-%op suppli$4 ,few m9i/]s h _h a m valuable #8help]1' 9 all respects4 ,i mu/ add a %ort acc\nt ( h]1 giv5 to me 9 writ+ by "o 9 h] own h\se1 :o1 at ! "t :5 %e1 ,mrs4 ,s4 0 oppos$ to spiritual religion1 _h *os5 ano!r fold ?an ! ,*ur* ( ,engl& 9 :i* to seek ! way ( salvation4 ,?is te/imony is !re=e n giv5 9 ignorance ( h] real "*1 or 9 undue p>tiality to h] pr9ciples4 ,aft] speak+ ( ! /rik+ circum/ances ( h] conv]sion1 ! pap] goes on to say1 #8,! words ( ! ,apo/le 7 fulfill$ 9 h]4 8,if any man be 9 ,*ri/ he is a new creature4 ,old ?+s are pass$ away1 behold1 all ?+s are become new40 ,yes1 ,i "k ! tru? ( ?is1 = ,i h se5 x 9 h] :o is dep>t$4 ,inde$ %e has prov$ to all ar\nd h]1 t %e 0 a fai?ful foll[] ( ! ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/2 n "o :o said1 8,"l1 ,"l10 b 9 works d5i$ him4 #8,%e %[$ h] love to ,god by keep+ ,8 comm&m5ts4 ,i h kn[n h]1 _m & _m a "t1 sacrifice h] own com=ts to relieve h] poor neighb\rs4 ,i h kn[n h] take h] clo!s f h] back1 & h] %oes f h] feet4 ,x 0 h] delight to d h] heav5ly ,fa!r's w 9 all ?+s4 ,%e 0 det]m9$1 z f> z %e 0 able1 to d good to all1 especially to ^? ( ! h\sehold ( fai?4 ,%e 0 "o :o visit$ ! sick & afflict$1 ! fa!rless & wid[1 & /rove to keep h]self unspott$ f ! _w4 ,h] views ( h]self 7 truly humble3 %e took ! ^w ( ,god = h] guide4 ,%e did n %un to reprove s91 b kn[+ ! t]ror ( ! ,"l1 %e s\ght to p]suade h] fell[-s9n]s to be reconcil$ to ,god4 ,%e s\ght aft] backslid]s ) great c>e & p]sev]ance1 & aim$ to enc\rage ^? t /ood fa/ 9 ! ,"l4 ,h] love ( ! means ( grace1 bo? public & private1 0 v great1 & witness$ by h] regul> att5dance on !m4 ,h] pati5ce 9 h] affliction1 & resignation to ! w ( ,god1 0 inde$ /rik+4 ,h] suff]+s & trials _h be5 _m 9 life1 8b n too _m10 z %e said on h] dy+ b$4 ,! cup _h be5 wisely mix$ by h] heav5ly ,fa!r4' ,janu>y #b4 ,%e began to compla9 ( h] head1 & ! next day %e 0 :olly conf9$ to h] b$4 ,two days aft]1 %e became s weak z to be unable to help h]self4 ,on ,sunday ! #g? %e took b little notice4 ,%e 0 !n ask$1 :e!r %e 0 happy4 ,%e repli$1 #8,oh1 yes1 v happy1 v happy3 ,*ri/ v preci\s to me4' ,at ano!r "t %e 0 ask$1 :e!r %e c\ld say1 ) ! ,apo/le1 t %e 0 8ready to be (f]$ up80 #8,oh yes1' %e said4 ,on ,monday1 speak+ ( dea? z ! gate ( life1 %e said1 #8,o bless$ gate--x is ! gate ( heav5 to me3' & at ano!r "t1 #8,*ri/ is all 9 all to me4' ,on ! foll[+ morn+ %e _h ! p[] ( att5tion1 & answ]$ to ! pray] ( o!rs 9 a f]v5t ,am54 ,s %e dep>t$ 9 peace & bless$ness4 99 99 99 99 99 ,i mu/ n[ return to ! hi/ory ( ,elizabe? ,cull+ham4 ,deep & con/ant 0 h] grief at h] fa!r's dea?4 ,%e sympa?iz$ ) h] family2 b %e _h !n ! pleas+ task ( wait+ on h] "m ?r\gh h] long affliction1 & nev] 0 nurs+ m t5d]ly m9i/]$1 or m k9dly receiv$ ?an by ^! two si/]s1 & _! s9k+ p>5t4 ,if !re 0 "s v>iety 9 _! =m ( wor%ip1 _! feel+s 7 ! same4 ,to gratify _! "m's wi%es 0 next to ! love ( ,god1 ! ma9 object ) h] daught]s4 ,) h] #8,t con/ant fl[ ( love1 t knew no fall1 ,ne'er r\gh5$ by ^? cat>acts & breaks1 ,t hum\r int]pos$ too (t5 makes4' ,:il/ !y #8,! t5d] (fice n[ engage1 ,to rock ! cradle ( repos+ age1 ,) l5i5t arts ext5d a "m's brea?1 ,make languor smile1 & smoo? ! b$ ( dea?2 ,explore ! ?\ght1 expla9 ! ask+ eye1 ,& keep a:ile "o p>5t f ! sky6 ,b ,i mu/ suff] ,elizabe? aga9 to speak = h]self4 ,:at foll[s 0 writt5 at ! close ( ! ye> ( sorr[1 ?r\gh :i* %e _h j pa/4 #8,?\1 ,o ,"l1 ha/ se5 fit to take bo? my p>5ts f me1 b ?y ^w ( promise is1 8,:5 fa!r & "m =sake !e1 ! ,"l w take !e up40 ,enable me1 ,o ,"l1 to foll[ my de> p>5ts1 z !y foll[$ ,*ri/2 t :5 "t ) me %all be no m1 ,i may h a joyful entrance into ?y k+dom1 :]e p>t+ %all be no m kn[n1 & e te> %all be wip$ f my n[ weep+ eyes4 ,i w\ld desire1 bless$ ,"l1 to submit to ?y w 9 ^! mo/ affect+ b]eavem5ts4 ,o com=t me ) ! consolations ( ?y ,_s1 & br+ me & my de> bro!rs & si/]s ne> to ?yself4 ,amid/ our _m trials may we rememb] our _m m]cies4 ,may we be enabl$ to ?ank ,!e = all4 ,:at a com=t n to sorr[ z ^? )\t hope3 b to be assur$ t ?r\gh ! m]its ( ,*ri/ our de> p>5ts are translat$ f a body ( s9 & corruption1 to a glori\s immortality4' ,s ,elizabe? w\nd up ! hi/ory ( ! pa/ ev5tful ye>4 ,h] pati5ce1 meekness1 & resignation1 h] ?ankfulness = ! m]cies %e receiv$1 & h] joy\s hope are alike an in/ructive lesson to u all4 ,i f9d ano!r int]e/+ record at ! beg9n+ ( ! ye> #ahci4 #8,i h n[ ent]$ ^u ano!r ye>4 ,oh h[ diff]5t d all ?+s n[ appe>1 to :at !y did at ! comm5cem5t ( ! la/4 ,i 0 !n bless$ ) my de> p>5ts1 & ,i look$ =w>d = "s ye>s ( com=t & ( guidance f !m2 b ?y ways1 ,o ,"l1 are n my ways1 nei!r are ,?y ?\ghts my ?\ghts2 ,?\ ha/ tak5 !m f me t ,i may look to !e alone = help & com=t4 ,o give me grace to seek all ,i want f ,!e4 ,wean me1 bless$ ,"l1 f ! _w1 & all its treatm5ts1 & enable me to live entirely to ,!e4 ,?\ kn[e/1 ,"l1 my weakness & pron5ess to />t aside f my be/ ,fri5d1 b p>don all ,?\ ha/ se5 amiss 9 me1 ?r\gh ! pa/ ye>1 & enable me n[ to live m devot$ly to ,?y s]vice4' ,! me?od :i* %e *ose ( quietly tak+ a review ( ! pa/1 & =eca/+ ! circum/ances ( ! new ye>1 appe>$ to be peculi>ly pr(itable1 & may af=d a direction z to ! mode ( sp5d+ ?is int]e/+ season4 ,elizabe? & h] si/] 7 n[ ?r[n on _! own res\rces4 ,_! fa!r's h\se 0 sold = ! b5efit ( 8 family4 ,aft] _! removal1 !y kept a s*ool4 ,?is fl\ri%$1 & x 0 a great b5efit1 z f> z x w5t1 9 ! p>i%1 be+ conduct$ ) s mu* good ord] & ,*ri/ian feel+4 ,b aft] a "t1 ! noise ( ! *ildr5 became unbe>able to ,elizabe?1 & oblig$ h] si/] to give x up1 & to turn to o!r means ( support4 ,elizabe?'s m9d1 z appe>s f h] ,j\rnal1 0 all ?is "t gradually gr[+ 9 grace4 ,! habits ( _! little family 7 v regul>4 ,! two si/]s read ?ree or f\r v]ses1 & pray$ toge!r e morn+1 9 addition to ! usual family pray] ) _! bro!r1 :o liv$ ) !m4 ,elizabe?'s *ief infirmity 0 a pron5ess to be hurt by unk9dness or neglect2 ?is %e tri$ to conqu]1 & ?r\gh ,div9e ,grace1 succe$$ to a great degree4 ,%e _h always be5 c>eful ( h] money1 feel+ h[ ne$ful x might be to h] 9 h] weakly /ate ( heal?4 ,at ! "t ( h] dea? %e _h a small sum 9 ! sav+s bank2 b %e 0 alive to ! sn>e ( covet\sness4 ,%e us$ to say1 :at %all we give8 ,%e subscrib$ to ! ,mission>y & ! ,jewi% ,society1 & orig9at$ a little ,bible ,society collection3 b %e also felt ! duty ( d5y+ h]self1 t %e might save some?+ m = ^! works ( *>ity4 ,%e 0 con/antly dilig5t1 & dur+ ! la/ w9t] ( h] life %e read ! ,scriptures a great deal1 & grew proportionally 9 grace4 ,%e 0 regul> 9 h] att5dance at ! diff]5t meet+s1 be+ g5]ally accompani$ by a fri5d 9 some:at simil> circum/ances ( life1 :o 0 atta*$ to our communion4 ,b no?+ m m>k$ h] "* ?an a holy1 humble1 simple1 unpret5d+ walk1 c>ry+ ab\t ) h]1 ,i may truly say1 ! ornam5t ( a meek & quiet _s4 ,%e repeat$ly wrote 9 h] ,j\rnal dur+ ! la/ ye> ( h] life4 ,h] obs]vations 7 *iefly f\nd$ on s]mons :i* %e _h he>d1 & :i* %e appli$ to h]self4 ,!re 0 n "o obs]vation 9 !m ( a c>p+ critical "*4 ,b :at %e receiv$ %e s\ght to turn to ! be/ pr(it1 & to obta9 f x gr[? 9 grace4 ,speak+ ( ! s]mon ( a "y ,m9i/] among u1 %e 0 /ruck ) 8 appeal = decision 9 religion1 on ! gr\nd ( ! unc]ta9ty ( life4 #8,o1' %e adds1 #8h[ he w>n$ & exhort$ ! "y to decide = ,god1 t !y might obta9 p>don & peace "h1 & happ9ess 9 ! _w to come4' ,%e concludes h] acc\nt ( ano!r s]mon4 #8,help me1 ,o ,"l1 to wat* always1 t ,i s9 n aga9/ ,!e1 & help me s to pray1 t ! enemy may flee be=e me3' & aga91 #8,help me1 bless$ ,"l1 to be daily gr[+ 9 hol9ess1 humility1 & love1 t ,i may feel 9 e trial1 & temptation1 ?\ art my ,rock & ,def5ce4' ,z ! summ>y ( "o week1 %e says1 #8,i h felt my s\l decay 9 ! la/ week4 ,! enemy has be5 p]mitt$ to buffet & assault me v mu*1 tempt+ me to unbelief4 ,b ,o ?\ compassionate ,savi\r1 :o pray$ = ?y disciple ( old1 t 8 fai? might n fail1 look ^u me1 & deliv] me f my /rong foe4 ,o /r5g!n my fai?1 = x is weak4 ,%[ me :]e9 ,i h s9n$2 lift up ! light ( ?y c\nt5ance ^u me4' ,aga91 aft] a s]mon ( ,mr4 ,all5's4 #8,:at enc\ragem5t to ! believ] to "k t ,jesus1 8 ,savi\r & ,r$eem]1 has be=e trodd5 e pa9ful pa?1 & endur$ e conflict1 & has promis$ t z he ov]came1 s %all we1 ?r\gh 8 m]it4' ,%e he>d a ,s]mon f a m9i/] be=e allud$ to1 on gr[? 9 religion1 9 :i* t subject 0 illu/rat$ by a tree 9 ! gr[? ( its roots1 9 its bran*es1 & 9 its fruitfulness4 ,! subject appe>s v mu* to h /ruck h]4 ,%e concludes x by say+1 #8,help me1 bless$ ,"l1 to be daily gr[+ 9 hol9ess1 humility & love2 & may ,i feel 9 e trial & temptation1 t ?\ art my ,rock1 & my ,def5ce4' #8,nov4 #bd4 ,i h felt mu* depress$ to day by fretfulness & coldness3 ,o ,"l1 quick5 me4' #8,he>d ,mr4 ,r4 ?is ev5+1 f ,luke v4 #ca1 #cb4 ,felt my m9d mu* impress$ by ! ,s]mon4 ,bless$ ,"l1 impress x on my he>t1 by ?y ,_s4 ,/rip me ( all self-righte\sness1 make me feel m & m1 my ne$ ( !e4' ,! above extracts f h] ,j\rnal1 w %ew ! quiet work+ ( ! ,_s ( ,god 9 h] he>t1 *iefly by means ( ! ^w ( ,god4 ,o!r means are n s commonly & p>ticul>ly allud$ to by h]1 b %e always 9 life express$ h] pr(it 9 all2 9 ! ,"l's ,supp]1 9 ! social pray] meet+s on ,monday ,ev5+1 & ,sunday ,morn+1 & ! bible class1 all ( :i* %e cont9u$ con/antly to att5d4 ,i add two te/imonials conc]n+ h]4 ,"o ( !m 0 communicat$ to a fri5d at a di/ance1 :o _h be5 /ay+ "s "t 9 ,l[e/(t1 & :o _h be5 made acqua9t$ ) ,elizabe?4 ,x is writt5 by a p]son :o 0 9 ! con/ant habit ( see+ h]1 & :o knew h] well4 ,! o!r is writt5 by a v intimate fri5d4 ,l[e/(t1 ,july #f4 #ahdj4 ,,my ,,de> ,,fri5d1 #8,i mu/ indulge myself by writ+ a few l9es to y1 = my he>t is full to-night4 ,we h lo/ our sweet "y fri5d ,elizabe? ,cull+ham1 9 :om y 7 s mu* int]e/$4 ,d n y rememb] h] spiritual & int]e/+ pray]1 ! fir/ morn+ ,i w5t ) y to ! ,sunday pray] meet+8 ,i recollect introduc+ h] to y4 ,%e 0 inde$ a true *ri/ian4 ,i nev] recollect to h he>d any "o f9d ! slighte/ fault ) h]1 nor _h ,i myself ev] occasion to d s 9 all ! int]c\rse ,i h _h ) h]1 dur+ ! la/ n9e ye>s4 ,h]'s 0 inde$ a *a/e conv]sation1 c\pl$ ) fe>4 ,x 0 n ! outw>d adorn+ ( we>+ ( gold1 or ( putt+ on ( app>el1 b ! ornam5t ( a meek & quiet ,_s1 :i* %one mo/ conspicu\sly 9 h]4 ,*a/ity1 meekness1 & mode/y 7 h] /rik+ *>act]i/ics4 ,i am glad ,i introduc$ y s p>ticul>ly to h]1 & ,i ?9k y w n =get ! sweet impression ( ^? visits4 ,h] lovely subdu$ c\nt5ance1 h] neat appe>ance1 ! p]fect consi/5cy ( h] dress1 = %e 0 always beautifully neat4 ,i ?9k--,i may say ,i nev] knew h] exp5d money on ribbon or o!r unnecess>y article 9 dress4 ,i m5tion ?is z x is a r>e quality1 ev5 among/ ! sob] & s]i\s "y p4 ,! love ( dress+ beyond _! means & situation 9 life is s common a habit1 & s great a temptation to "y p 9 g5]al1 t h] correct conduct 9 ?is respect1 0 "o lovely fruit ( hav+ h] affections set on ?+s above4 ,o t our de> "y p might see & feel ! beauty ( ?is l9e ( conduct4 ,by h] circumspect & c>eful conduct1 %e sil5c$ e tongue t c\ld rise up aga9/ h]4 ,! w&]+ & unsettl$ desire aft] pleasure1 0 q subdu$ 9 h]4 ,%e 0 cont5t to lead a quiet1 sob]1 religi\s life4 ,%e f\nd x bett] to avoid ! g5]al society ( "y p]sons1 & 0 sweetly cont5t 9 ! situation 9 :i* ,god _h plac$ h]2 sett+ an example to o!r "y wom5 ( ! beauty ( a retir$ & mode/ demean\r1 avoid+ f ta/e1 z well z pr9ciple1 all society t 0 n religi\s4 ,%e felt t light & trifl+ int]c\rse ) ^? ^: he>ts foll[$ aft] vanity & pleasure1 0 unpr(itable & hurtful4 ,o h[ bless$ x is to see "y p]sons turn away f foll[+ vanity6 ,to see z a fruit ( religion1 a sep>ation f ! _w1 f ! mann]s1 ! appe>ance1 & ! _s ( x4 ,i saw all ?is 9 ,elizabe?4 ,%e _h = _m ye>s be5 a memb] ( our wom5's meet+1 & ?\gh "o ( ! y\nge/1 h] ard5t love ( ! m9i/ry "u :i* %e liv$1 h] ,*ri/ian exp]i5ce1 & occasionally h] pray]s1 7 a help & com=t to our society1 & %e 0 mo/ p]sev]+1 ?\gh (t5 v ill4 #8,i mu/ also notice h] example 9 ! h\se ( ,god4 ,!re 0 no lightness1 or c>elessness 9 h] demean\r1 b h] m9d seem$ to be fill$ ) ! s5se ( ! div9e pres5ce1 & to be ?ir/+ aft] ! k ( 8 tru?2 %e gave ! deepe/ att5tion to ! prea*]'s ^w4 ,no religi\s m9d c %ew lightness 9 ! h\se ( ,god4 ,h[ (t5 h ,i enjoy$ sweet sympa?y ) h]1 :5 sitt+ ne> h] 9 h] usual seat at ,/4 ,pet]'s ,*apel4 ,h we n endeav\r$ to 8pray ) ! ,_s1 & to s+ ) ! und]/&+ also80 ,i c\ld weep f my he>t to f9d h] seat empty4 ,%e met pati5tly h] _m trials1 & meekly b[$ h] head to ! w ( ,god4 ,! awful dea? ( h] fa!r 9 ! yawl1 _h deeply afflict$ h]2 inde$ %e nev] recov]$ ! %ock3 b ,i may say1 "u e trial & bodily suff]+1 ( :i* %e _h mu*1 ,i nev] he>d h] compla91 b ) calm s]5ity %e yield$ h]self unto ! ,"l4 #8,i _h ! privilege ( visit+ h] ! day be=e h] dea?1 & f\nd h] sweetly s]5e & happy1 full ( confid5ce 9 h] ,savi\r2 delight+ 9 pray]1 & evid5tly f9d+ x 8sweet to lie passive 9 h] ,savi\r's h&s10 & to "k no w b 84 ,& ! next day1 a few h\rs be=e h] end1 c ,i ev] =get ! solemn impressive sc5e ( our p>tak+ ( ! body & blood ( ,*ri/ toge!r 9 ! ,holy ,sacram5t2 h] deep att5tion--h] response to ! words ( ! s]vice--h] f]v5t mann] 9 tak+ ! bread1 z a sign or seal ( h] liv+ ^u ,*ri/1 :o 0 to h] s\l ! bread ( life1 & h] dr9k+ ! w9e z an emblem ( t blood1 t %e _h felt to be s preci\s8' #8,aft] ?is solemn communion toge!r1 we unit$ 9 e>ne/ pray] & ?anksgiv+ on h] acc\nt1 t ! works 9 h] might be f9i%$ 9 righte\sness1 & t %e might soon f9d h]self 9 ! glori\s mansions prep>$ = h]1 by ! belov$ ( h] s\l4 ,%e appe>$ p]fectly s5sible1 & able to ta/e ?is spiritual & int]e/+ communication ) u4 ,i !n arose & took my leave ( h]4' ,! te/imony ( h] fri5d is z foll[s3 #8,dur+ ! t5 ye>s ( my int]c\rse ) h]1 ,i h f\nd h] conv]sation z become? ! gospel ( ,*ri/4 ,%e has treat$ me at all times ) a si/]ly affection & respect2 ,i h prov$ h] a tri$ fri5d1 "o t w\ld n =sake 9 "t ( tr\ble4 ,?\gh sep>at$ = ?ree ye>s1 ,i always f\nd h] ! same de> fri5d z ev]4 ,i h (t5 be5 *e]$ ) h] k9d exhortation to me1 to seek ) e>ne/ness ! ,"l1 & att5d at all times ! means ( grace1 tell+ me !y 7 inde$ *annels1 ?r\gh :i* ! ,"l be/[$ 8 bless+s to 8 fai?ful foll[]s4 ,?\gh we 7 sep>at$ 9 body1 we 7 n sep>at$ 9 our union ) ,*ri/4 ,:5 ,i h ne$$ repro(1 %e has giv5 x to me1 b 9 ! meeke/ mann] possible4 ,%e 0 also v t5d] ov] ! faults ( o!rs4 ,i nev] he>d h] speak unk9dly ( any "o--8consid]+ h]self1 le/ %e also %\ld be tempt$40 ,%e 0 mo/ e>ne/ = a revival 9 religion1 bo? 9 our own ,*ur*1 & = ! spread ( ! gospel 9 di/ant l&s4 ,?is 0 evid5t1 bo? 9 h] pray]s & h] zeal 9 subscrib+ to diff]5t societies4 ,h[ sorry are we to lose h] "n f ! numb] ( ^? "y p :o are int]e/$ 9 ! ,jews1 = we always f\nd h] mo/ will+ to aid 9 ?is delightful cause1 & :at %e gave1 seem$ to be 9 ! _s ( pray]4 ,h[ (t5 ,i h he>d h] p\r =? h] he>t 9 pray]1 t ! ,jews might be br\ght into ! fold ( ,*ri/2 & truly we may say1 conc]n+ our ,bible ,association1 :i* 0 =m$ among/ a few ( u1 t inde$ our head is gone4 ,%e 0 s deeply int]e/$ 9 x1 & did s long = ! ,anniv]s>y ,meet+1 t our subscription might be c>ri$ 91 n to ga9 ! praise ( m51 b ) a desire to d some?+ = ! glory ( ,god4 ,b %e is gone1 & h] works d foll[ h]4 ,may ,i always rememb] h] *ri/ian walk & conv]sation1 = 9 h] ,i saw ! fruits ( ! ,_s %9e =?1 = %e 0 n desir\s ( va9 glory1 b 9 all po9ts1 %e e/eem$ o!rs bett] ?an h]self4 ,humbly d ,i hope1 t ! grace :i* made h] to diff]1 may con/ra9 me to walk 9 h] /eps4' ,! comm5cem5t ( ! ye> #ahdj1 ! la/ ye> ( ,elizabe?'s life1 is notic$ by h] 9 h] ,j\rnal1 ) h] usual s]i\sness4 #8,?r\gh ! m]cy ( ,god1 ,i h be5 p]mitt$ to ent] ^u ano!r ye>2 & ,o h[ mu* h ,i to ?ank him = ! m]cies ( ! ye> t is pass$4 ,i h _h _m little illnesses1 b ! ,"l has 9 m]cy sp>$ me1 :ile _m t ,i "k1 h be5 summon$ to give up _! acc\nt4 ,o ,"l :at am ,i1 t ?\ ha/ sp>$ me a wor?less worm ( ! e>?8 ,o fill my he>t ) love & gratitude = all ?y m]cies to me1 & if my life be sp>$1 may x be entirely devot$ to ?y s]vice4 ,great ,god1 enable me to live to !e4 ,o let me enjoy all t ,i h1 z com+ f !e1 & :atev] ?\ art pleas$ to take f me1 take n away ?y ,holy ,_s4 ,o bless$ ,_s1 :o art ,"o ) ! ,fa!r1 & ! ,son1 ent] into my poor s9ful he>t1 & root out all my s9ful & corrupt affections & reveal ,jesus to me z all 9 all4' ,z h] "t drew to a close1 h] conflicts d n seem to h be5 less5$4 ,on ,m>* #bd4 ,%e says1 #8,be+ (f my gu>d ?is morn+1 ! enemy ga9$ an advantage ov] me 9 my temp]4 ,imm$iately ,i felt my s91 & 0 l$ to cry out1 8,aga9/ !e1 !e only h ,i s9n$40 ,i 0 almo/ driv5 to despair1 b ^! preci\s promises 7 appli$1 8,if any man s91 we h an ,advocate ) ! ,fa!r1 ,jesus ,*ri/ ! righte\sness10 & 8! blood ( ,*ri/ cleanse? f all s940 ,o my ,god :om ,i h (f5d$1 let ?is be a w>n+ to me to wat* & pray1 t ,i ent] n into temptation4' ,on h] bir?-day %e says1 #8,i h pass$ ano!r ye> ( my life2 b ,o my ,god1 h[ little to ?y glory4 ,i h be5 v mu* tri$ 9 my s\l ( late4 ,! enemy has be5 p]mitt$ to tempt me v mu* ) unbelief4 ,sometimes ,i "q :e!r ,i am a ,*ri/ian at all1 yet my desire is to love & s]ve my ,god4 ,! conflict is %>p1 yet d ,i believe ,jesus w deliv] me4 ,i d feel will+ to "p ) any ?+1 if ,jesus smile ^u me4' #8,on ,sunday1 he>d a s]mon f ,mr4 ,r4 on ^! words1 8,!re %all n a hair ( y\r head p]i%40 ,! s]mon 0 delightfully enc\rag+4 ,i h felt ! com=t ( x dur+ ! la/ week1 hav+ _h "s little p]plex+ ?+s to meet4 ,o h[ sweet to feel 9 ! "t ( trial & temptation1 t no?+ is unnotic$ by our ,heav5ly ,fa!r4 #8,sunday1 ,april #ab4 ,i feel my heal? v poorly4 ,i "k n :at ! ,"l is ab\t to d ) me4 ,:e!r life or dea?1 ,"l make me ?9e4 ,i desire to glorify ?y "n ^u e>?1 & f9d my way to heav54' ,h] usual indu/ry & c>e 9 record+ ! s]mons %e he>d1 appe>s ?is ye> z x did ! la/4 ,b ,i pass ov] all ^! records1 & n[ ,i come to ! la/ entry ( h] ,j\rnal4 ,x is dat$ ,april #ag4 ,good ,friday4 #8,i 0 in=m$ div9e s]vice began half an h\r lat] ?an x did4 ,i 0 !re=e v late at ,*apel1 :i* vex$ me v mu*4 ,i c\ld n enjoy ! s]vice4 ,my head is 9 a v bad /ate4 ,! enemy takes advantage ( my bodily infirmities & sorely di/resses me4 ,i 0 l$ ?is aft]noon1 e>ne/ly to entreat ! ,"l to direct my m9d to "s portion ( 8 ^w = com=t4 ,i pray$ ) ! ,bible be=e me1 & op5$ on #b ,cor4 xii4 #i4 ,satan !n seem$ to say1 ?is is n = y2 b my ,god tells me1 8,8 grace is suffici5t = me40 ,"l1 enable me to tru/ 9 !e4' ,x 0 a /rong act ( fai?1 p]=m$ ) suitable solemnity1 :i* made ?is "y woman believe t %e %\ld f9d 9 ! ,bible an answ] to h] pray]4 ,b %e did s 9 a rem>kable mann]1 & hav+ receiv$ ! direction to dep5d on ! grace ( ,god z suffici5t = h]1 h[ /rik+ly h] fai? l$ h] to hold x fa/1 s t angel1 pr9cipality1 or p[] c\ld n sep>ate h] f x4 ,b h[ in/ructive is h] example 9 deal+ ) temptation4 ,%e felt its dang]2 %e s\ght1 z ! weapon ( def5ce1 8! sword ( ! ,_s1 :i* is ! ^w ( ,god40 ,! ,"l 0 pleas$ to direct h] to a suitable text4 ,%e receiv$ x 9 fai? & obta9$ ! victory4 ,mo/ gladly1 !re=e1 might %e ) ! ,apo/le1 8glory 9 h] infirmities1 t ! p[] ( ,*ri/ might re/ ^u h]10 & say ) him1 8,:5 ,i am weak !n am ,i /rong40' ,! la/ mon?s ( ,elizabe?'s life af=d$ h] ! means ( quietly pursu+ h] c\rse 9 prep>ation = h] end4 ,%e 0 unable to d m ?an "w at h] ne$le4 ,?is h[ev] af=d$ h] ! opportunity ( calm & cont9ual m$itation4 ,h] circum/ances 7 entirely fav\rable = h] /ate ( m9d4 ,h] k9d bro!r :o resid$ ) h] & h] si/] made e ef=t to af=d h] relief4 ,9 ! la/ t5 days ( h] life h] symptoms became m decid$3 %e laid aside h] "w1 & ceas$ to ?9k ( ! ?+s ( ! _w4 ,%e h]self 0 n at t "t able to read1 b %e c\ld /ill li/5 to o!rs4 ,on ! ,sunday ev5+ ! subject ( heav5 & reunion ) ^? already !re1 *iefly occupi$ h] att5tion4 ,h] /ate 0 calm & suff]+1 b nei!r %e1 nor any "o1 ?\ght h] end 0 s ne>2 b ,i w give ! acc\nt ( ?is f h] si/] & con/ant companion4 #8,! heal? ( my de> si/] _h be5 "s "t decl9+2 h] la/ illness 0 %ort & sev]e3 %e suff]$ mu* pa91 b bore x ) ,*ri/ian pati5ce & resignation4 ,h] weakness 0 extreme2 %e c\ld speak b little1 b :5 able to conv]se1 %e w\ld freely tell me ! /ate ( h] m9d4 ,%e 0 inde$ build+ on ! ,rock ( ,ages1 on ! sure f\ndation2 b %e _h humbl+ views ( h]self1 al?\gh sweet & exalt$ views ( ! ,savi\r4 ,we did n ?9k dea? s ne>2 b ! la/ morn+ ( h] life a sudd5 *ange took place1 :i* 0 bett] p]ceiv$ by ^? ar\nd h]1 ?an felt by h]self4 ,z usual1 9 ! morn+ we read & pray$ toge!r4 ,%e jo9$ ) peculi> e>ne/ness3 b :5 ,i _h ris5 f my knees ,i c\ld n refra9 f weep+4 ,i saw h] h&s d>k5$ 9 col\r1 :i* m>k$ ! alt]ation 9 h] bodily /ate4 ,%e ask$ me :y ,i cri$4 ,i said1 ,i am sorry to see y s ill4 ,%e answ]$1 #8,i ?\ght ,i 0 bett] ?is morn+4' ,) great anxiety ,i wait$ ! arrival ( h] m$ical att5dant1 & soon f\nd my fe>s respect+ ! ne> approa* ( dea? 7 n gr\ndless4 ,^u my aga9 ent]+ ! room1 %e anxi\sly enquir$ ! op9ion ( ! doctor4 ,i told h] z g5tly z ! excit$ /ate ( my feel+s w\ld p]mit4 ,i ask$ if %e c\ld re/ h] s\l on ,*ri/4 ,%e said1 8,yes1 ,i feel peace2 b ,o = a full] assurance40 ,i told h] we _h s5t = ,mr4 ,c4 & h] bro!rs1 at :i* %e express$ great satisfaction1 & said1 8,i feel dr[sy1 b d n let me sleep2 ,i h no "t = sleep+2 ,i want to speak :ile ,i c40' ,:5 ,i arriv$ 9 h] *amb]1 %e said at once1 #8,i ?9k t ,i am dy+4' ,i did n contradict h]4 ,%e !n express$ h]self z n feel+ all t joy 9 h] dep>ture :i* %e _h hop$ might h be5 h] portion4 ,b ! fact 01 t a pr(\nd humility gave a tone to all h] feel+s ( h]self4 ,%e put me 9 m9d ( ! expression ( ,mr4 ,simeon on 8 dy+ b$4 #8,i ?9k t if y %\ld see me die1 y w n see me die triumphantly4 ,no6 triumph w n suit me till ,i get to heav54 ,if ,i am admitt$1 z ,i hope to be !re1 !n1 if !re be "o t w s+ l\d] ?an ! re/1 ,i ?9k ,i %all be t "o2 b :ile "h1 ,i am a s9n]1 a r$eem$ s9n]1 & z su* ,i w\ld lie "h to ! la/1 at ! foot ( ! cross1 look+ unto ,jesus1 & g z su* into ! pres5ce ( ,god4' ,elizabe?'s ,j\rnal %ews ?is to h be5 h] feel+4 ,%e !n1 h[ev]1 decl>$ h] s5se ( ! possession ( a true peace1 f\nd$ on ! atonem5t ( h] ,savi\r4 ,%e express$ a v e>ne/ desire = ! spiritual welf>e ( all ab\t h]1 especially ( ! "y ) :om %e met 9 ! ,bible ,class4 ,%e 0 dy+4 ,%e ask$ to receive ! ,sacram5t4 ,i engag$ to come 9 ! aft]noon1 & adm9i/] x4 ,9 all ?is !re 0 no?+ ( hurry1 or fe>fulness1 or mi/ru/1 b ! image ( a s\l fe>+ no evil1 & walk+ ?\gh ! ,valley ( ! ,%ad[ ( ,dea?1 ) ! com=t ( h] ,savi\r's rod & /aff4 ,x left no d\bt 9 my m9d z to h] /ate ( bless$ness4 ,b ,i w n[ return to h] si/]'s n>rative4 #8,on ,mr4 ,c4's arrival1 he conv]s$ & pray$ ) h]2 %e !n reque/$ to receive ! ,sacram5t3 he took 8 leave1 promis+ soon to return4 ,%e n[ took an affectionate leave ( h] bro!rs & o!r relatives1 speak+ to ea* ) great k9dness1 respect+ ! salvation ( _! nev] dy+ s\ls4 ,aft] settl+ "s little affairs 7?is 0 ! di/ribution ( h] little prop]ty1 & ! gift ( "s money to ! societies to :i* %e _h subscrib$7 %e look$ at me1 & said1 ,i ?9k t is all4 #8,h[ long w ,mr4 ,c4 be1 ,i wi% him to come n[4' ,i said1 #8,de>1 ,i w s5d = & ha/5 him4' ,%e said1 #8,d s1 ,i wi% once m to commemorate ! dy+ love ( ! ,savi\r on e>?1 !n ,i w lay me d[n & die 9 ,jesus4'' ,jesus c make a dy+ b$1 ,feel s(t z d[ny pill[s are4 ,! sc5e ( ?is celebration ( ! ,"l's ,supp] ,i %all n readily =get4 ,h]self1 h] si/]s1 ! valu$ fri5ds ( h] life1 7 be=e me4 ,h] own c\nt5ance 0 s beautifully calm & heav5ly4 ,%e sat up1 b %e 0 s9k+ v fa/1 & ,i fe>$ t %e might die dur+ ! s]vice2 b all ! :ile %e made ! greate/ ef=t to give all h] /r5g? to ?is holy ord9ance4 ,%e foll[$ me 9 ! responses1 & at ! conclusion ,i read ov] to h] ! bless+ ( ! #8,visitation ( ! ,sick1' #8,unto ,god's graci\s m]cy & protection we commit !e4 ,! ,"l bless !e1 & keep !e2 ! ,"l make 8 face to %9e ^u !e1 & be graci\s unto !e4 ,! ,"l lift up ! light ( 8 c\nt5ance on !e1 & give !e peace bo? n[ & ev]more4' ,i d n expect aga9 to see a face ^u :i* ! radiant light ( ,god's c\nt5ance may %9e m brightly & happily ?an ^u ?is dy+ sa9t4 ,! sc5e 0 mo/ t\*+ 9 e way4 ,aft] ,i _h done1 a de> fri5d1 "o :om ,i h m5tion$ be=e1 comm5d$ h] s\l to ,god1 9 a solemn /ra9 ( spiritual bless+4 ,aft] a pause1 at h] own reque/1 ,i read h] a hymn4 ,i !n took my leave1 desir+ to give up h] dy+ mom5ts to h] own disposal1 & feel+ t !re 7 o!rs 9 ! h\se to :om %e might wi% to speak "s la/ words ( admonition or ( com=t4 #8,aft] p>tak+ ( ! ,sacram5t1' h] si/] cont9ues1 #8%e appe>$ sweetly compos$1 :ile ,mr4 ,c4 comm5d$ h] p>t+ s\l to ,god4 ,%e !n look$ r\nd1 z if look+ = "s "o1 & z ,i approa*$ ! b$1 %e fix$ h] dy+ eyes ^u me1 & said1 8,happy translation40 ,i said1 8,de>1 d y feel v happy n[80 ,%e answ]$1 8,o yes1 happy40 #fb ,soon aft] ?is1 h] m$ical man1 ,mr4 ,b41 came 91 & %e conv]s$ ) him on h] approa*+ end4 ,%e said %e 0 sure he _h done all he c\ld 9 a m$ical po9t ( view4 ,%e ?ank$ him = 8 att5tion dur+ h] illness1 & !n add$1 8,n[1 sir1 pray ) me40 ,aft] pray]1 %e repeat$ ! foll[+ l9es3-- #8,:at is !re "h to c\rt my /ay1 ,or hold me back f home2 ,:ile angels beckon me away1 ,& ,jesus bids me come4' ,"s "t aft]1 %e said1 #8n[ ,i mu/ pray = pati5ce to wait ! ,"l's "t4 ,come ,"l ,jesus6' ,soon aft] %e said1 #8,i w\ld n come back aga91 n[ ,i h got a glimpse ( ! heav5ly k+dom4' ,%e made use ( simil> expressions1 till %e gradually sunk 9 dea?1 & h] ,_s took its flight to ! p>adise ( ,god4 ,! fun]al ( ,elizabe? ,cull+ham took place 9 ! usual c\rse4 ,x 0 att5d$1 z well by h] own family1 z by _m ( h] *ri/ian fri5ds4 ,!re 0 no?+ 9 x to call = att5tion4 ,x 0 consi/5t ) h] own simple uno/5tati\s life4 ,a l>ge p>ty ( ! att5dants met at a neighb\r+ cottage1 :]e ! voice ( ?anksgiv+ 0 rais$ = ! m]cies :i* _h be5 grant$ to our dep>t$ fri5d1 & pray] 0 (f]$ up = all :o _h be5 connect$ ) h]4 ,on ! ensu+ ,sunday ,ev5+1 a fun]al ,s]mon 0 prea*$ on h] acc\nt4 ,! text 0 tak5 f ,rev4 iii4 #ab4 8,him t ov]come? w ,i make a pill> 9 ! temple ( my ,god1 & he %all g no m out3 & ,i w write ^u him ! "n ( my ,god1 :i* is new ,j]usalem1 :i* come? d[n out ( heav5 f my ,god3 & ,i w write ^u him my new "n40 ,! subjects dwelt ^u 9 ! ,s]mon 7--,! c\rse ( a *ri/ian's life2 & ! et]nal rew>d :i* foll[s 8 dea?4 ,! victory ov] ! _w1 ! fle%1 & ! devil 0 ?r\gh div9e grace1 obta9$ by our dep>t$ fri5d1 & n[ %e has h] rew>d4 ,%e is become a pill> 9 ! temple ( h] ,god1 to %ew =? 8 praises ?r\gh et]nity amid/ ! r$eem$ 9 heav52 :]e 8!y hung] no m1 nei!r ?ir/ any m3 nei!r %all ! sun light on !m nor any heat4 ,= ! lamb :i* is 9 ! mid/ ( ! ?rone %all fe$ !m1 & %all lead !m unto liv+ f\nta9s ( wat]s3 & ,god %all wipe away all te>s f _! eyes40 ,h] tomb /one 9 ! *ur* y>d1 be>s a memorial to ! tru? ( :i* all :o att5d$ ^u h] 9 h] la/ h\rs c be> witness4 ,!y are l9es some:at transpos$ f a beautiful little poem ( ,mr4 ,dale's4 #8,triumphant 9 ?y clos+ eye1 ,! hope ( glory %one2 ,joy brea?'d 9 ?y expir+ sigh1 ,to ?9k ! fight 0 won4 #8,& ?us %all fai?'s consol+ p[]1 ,! te>s ( love re/ra91 ,o6 :o t saw ?y p>t+ h\r1 ,c\ld wi% !e back aga98' ,,%e ,,0 ,,ag$ #bh ,,ye>s4 ,9 draw+ ?is memorial to a conclusion1 ,i wi% to add a few words 9 ! way ( enc\ragem5t to any "y p]sons1 :o may read ! acc\nt :i* has be5 giv54 ,9 ! fir/ place ,i wi% to repeat1 :at ,i h be=e /at$1 t ! subject ( ?is hi/ory _h no?+ 9 h] natural "* or h] situation 9 life1 :i* di/+ui%$ h] case f t ( ?\s&s4 ,%e 0 n p>ticul>ly clev]1 or naturally v amiable1 or v mu* in/ruct$1 or a p]son ( great leisure1 or br\ght up "u v extraord9>y circum/ances4 ,%e _h a mod]ate portion ( tal5ts committ$ to h]--b %e us$ :at %e _h well4 ,i "k h[ prone we all are1 to ?9k t o!rs ar\nd u h advantages :i* we h n1 & to take ?is = an excuse = n giv+ ourselves to ,god z o!rs d4 ,i wi% to make ! same rem>k ab\t all ! p]sons ^: hi/ory has be5 introduc$ into ?is memoir4 ,!y 7 occupi$ 9 bus9ess1 or engag$ 9 ! common duties ( life2 !y _h no great] advantages ?an belong to _m ( _! neighb\rs1 !y 7 p]sons ( l passions ) o!rs4 ,!re is no?+ !re=e 9 _! case to make an excuse = ^? :o h n foll[$ 9 _! /eps4 ,x mu/ h[ev] be admitt$ t "s individuals are (t5 situat$ 9 a m fav\rable position ?an o!rs = ! cultivation ( religi\s duties1 & ,i am will+ to all[ t ,elizabe? ,cull+ham _h e advantage ( ?is k9d4 ,at ! same "t ,i say )\t hesitation1 t ,i believe ! great mass ( our "y p possess ! means1 by :i* %e ga9$ h] highe/ advantages4 ,! prea*$ ^w seems to h be5 h] *ief outw>d help1 & ! ord9>y in/ruction 9 ! scriptures1 & ! little meet+s = pray]1 7 ! means ( grace :i* %e foll[$4 ,)9 h] own m9d1 h[ev]1 %e at ! same "t lab\r$ dilig5tly1 %e wat*$ & pray$1 %e came out f worldly temptation1 & %e s\ght to set h] affections on ?+s above4 ,b ^! ef=ts are )9 ! rea* ( all :o w ent] ^u !m4 ,su* is ! lib]ty giv5 to "y p]sons 9 ?is pres5t day1 t x seems to me1 t 9 almo/ any case1 ! excuse ( n hav+ ! fulle/ opportunity ( obta9+ religi\s in/ruction is gr\ndless4 ,!re may inde$ be cases :]e "y p]sons are depriv$ ( a lib]ty :i* !y %\ld always h ( att5d+ at ! ,h\se ( ,god at /at$ times4 ,b ^! in/ances are v few4 ,no6 ! fault is n ) ! husb&man4 #8,:at c\ld ,i h done m1' ! div9e ma/] says1 #8t ,i h n done4' ,x is ) ourselves4 ,our heav5ly ,fa!r w\ld ga!r u to himself1 b we w n4 ,b1 ,i w %ortly po9t out ! *ief rules ( *ri/ian doctr9e1 by :i* ,i ?9k t ,elizabe? advanc$ to t /ate1 9 :i* %e became s meet = h] heav5ly re/4 ,a *ief fail+ :i* is con/antly dwelt ^u 9 h] writ+s is t ( h] own s9fulness4 ,i w n ref] to any m passages ( h] ,j\rnal1 b we may ga!r ?is f ^? already cit$4 ,?is s5se ( s9fulness1 di/9ct f a m]e regret at ! inconv5i5ce & disgrace ( s91 mu/ =m ! f\ndation ( a s\nd religi\s /ate2 #8aga9/ !e1 !e only h ,i s9n$1' 0 ,david's feel+4 ,?us x 0 ) ,elizabe? ,cull+ham also4 ,not)/&+ h] meek & holy walk1 & ! consci5ti\s feel+ :i* %e _h ( ! uprightness ( h] motives1 %e felt ! deceitfulness ( h] he>t1 & ! s9fulness ( h] /ate 9 ! sight ( ,god2 & t %e _h )9 h] a root ( bitt]ness1 :i* cont9ually br\ght condemnation1 & :i* requir$ ! con/ant r5ewal ( ! ,holy ,gho/ to ov]come4 ,b 9 ?is1 #8h] f]v5t _s lab\r$4 ,"h %e f\ght1 & "h obta9$ fre% triumphs o'er h]self4' ,/ill ! s9fulness ( h] nature 0 a subject cont9ually pres5t 9 h] m9d4 ,%e m\rn$ ov] x2 %e /rove aga9/ x2 & x 0 a con/ant burd51 :i* only ! cross ( ,*ri/ c\ld enable h] to be>4 ,b a second feel+ :i* dwelt 9 h] m9d1 & :i* produc$ ! mo/ important practical consequ5ces 01 t ,god is reconcil$ to s9n]s ?r\gh ! ,atonem5t ( ,jesus ,*ri/1 & receiv$ 9 ! he>t by ,fai?4 ,! doctr9e convey$ by ?is view ( religion 0 ! f\ndation /one on :i* h] peace1 & lib]ty 9 pray]1 & hol9ess re/$4 8,ye10 says ! ,apo/le1 8:o 7 f> (f1 are made nigh by ! blood ( ,*ri/1 = he is our peace10 & 8be+ ju/ifi$ by fai?1 we h peace ) ,god ?r\gh our ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/40 ,al?\gh con/antly ca/ d[n by ! s5se ( h] s9fulness1 ,elizabe? 0 enabl$1 z con/antly to look by fai? to ! ,atonem5t2 & if h] s5se ( s91 by reason ( ! assaults ( ,satan1 became great] z %e advanc$ 9 ye>s1 yet ) x1 h] hope ( p>don increas$1 s t 9 ! end1 %e felt an assurance t an #8entrance w\ld be m9i/]$ unto h] abundantly1 into ! ev]la/+ k+dom ( h] ,"l & ,savi\r4' ,on ! doctr9e ( ! ,atonem5t moreov] 0 f\nd$ h] com=t 9 pray]1 = x 0 only z %e felt t ,god 0 will+ to accept h] z a return+ *ild1 t %e 0 enabl$ to ask ) confid5ce4 ,b 9 ?is belief1 %e 0 enabl$ to g to ,god1 ) ! simplicity ( a *ild4 ,%e felt t he1 :o z a ,fa!r _h r$eem$ h]1 0 n[ will+ freely to give h] all ?+s4 ,moreov]1 ?is doctr9e 0 ! f\ndation ( h] hol9ess1 z %e believ$ t %e 0 n p>don$ by any "w ( h] own1 s %e 0 n tempt$ to measure h] goodness t[>ds ,god by a rule1 or /&>d :i* %e judg$ might con/itute 8 requirem5ts2 b h] aim 0 r to s]ve ,him 9 ! measure 9 :i* %e lov$ ,him1 ) all h] he>t1 & m9d1 & s\l1 & /r5g?4 ,if %e _h felt t %e _h be5 ju/ifi$ by works1 %e w\ld h s\ght only to h done ^? works :i* might h secur$ h] p>don2 b n[1 be+ ju/ifi$ by fai?1 its con/ant att5dant1 con/ra9+ love1 0 begott5 9 ! m9d1 & %e felt t !re 0 no?+ %e did n long to devote to ! s]vice ( h] ,god & ,savi\r4 ,"o o!r doctr9e 0 a s\rce ( ! greate/ com=t & b5efit to h]1 x 0 a belief 9 ! conv]t+1 consol+ p[] ( ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,h] dep5d5ce = gr[? 9 ,*ri/ian graces1 0 alone on ! p[] ( ! ,holy ,_s2 ! love ( ! ,_s seem$ to dwell 9 h] he>t1 & %e 0 mo/ anxi\s n to lose ?is holy influ5ce by s91 or by d\bts1 or unwill+ness to receive 8 ,holy influ5ces4 ,h] :ole cre$ & c\rse ( conduct1 may be said to h be5 v simple4 ,x 0 t direct$ by ! ,*ur*1 to :i* %e 0 greatly atta*$1 & :i* %e foll[$ ) a holy1 humble1 ob$i5t m9d4 ,h] aim 0 con/antly to lead a s]i\s1 practical1 quiet life1 %e m$dl$ v little ) ! _w1 %e aim$ to live above x4 ,h] *ief desire 0 to be a foll[] ( ,*ri/1 accord+ to ! /ation 9 :i* %e _h be5 plac$4 ,b ,i n[ wi% to add a ^w on ! *oice :i* %e s delib]ately made ( a life d$icat$ to religion1 & ! advantages :i* result$ to h] f x4 ,h[ _m refuse to take ! c\rse ( religi\s duty1 ?9k+ its pursuits irksome1 its rew>d 9 no wise t5d+ to pres5t1 :atev] !y may d to future1 com=t4 ,b ,i may v5ture to ass]t1 f ! con/ant demean\r ( our dep>t$ fri5d1 t al?\gh h] c\rse 0 "o ( conflict & ( trial1 x 0 /ill "o ( sub/antial peace & com=t2 & if %e _h n ! joys :i* ! _w e/eems1 %e _h o!rs :i* nev] left h]1 till %e ex*ang$ !m = high] & pur] delights4 ,%e e>ly le>n$ t "y p1 :o fancy t sub/antial enjoym5t is only to be f\nd 9 ! ord9>y pleasures ( life1 make a great mi/ake4 ,!re may be mu* ( indulg5ce or ( excitem5t 9 worldly gratifications1 & ^? :o seek !m may reap a pres5t pleasure f !m1 b sub/antial happ9ess is alone to be f\nd 9 religion4 ,= ?is is a happ9ess :i* does n dep5d on ext]nal circum/ances1 x is ! same 9 all /ates ( life1 & usually x rises high] :5 ! h\r ( trial & ( sickness comes on1 :i* dead5s ! pres5t enjoym5ts ( life1 & ov]:elms ! s5ses4 ,x makes ! cup run ov] ev5 9 ! deepe/ desolations :i* ! ,*ri/ian is call$ to pass ?r\gh4 ,b ,o h[ incomp>ably m bless$ is h] /ate n[1 & w be 9 all et]nity1 ?an if %e _h foll[$ ano!r c\rse 9 life6 ,%e n[ regrets no?+ %e suff]$1 by :i* ! "w ( ,god 9 h] own s\l 0 c>ri$ on2 %e rejoices to h borne ! cross1 inasmu* z x ha? work$ = h] a f> m exce$+ & et]nal weight ( glory4 ,all ! se$ ( good :i* = ye>s %e 0 p]mitt$ to s[1 %e n[ reaps1 & ! fruit ( x %all all be ga!r$ into ! g>n] ( ,god4 ,if !n %e f\nd ! way ( religion to be a way ( pleasantness1 & a pa? ( peace1 & if n[ %e is reap+ a good rew>d = ! confession ( ,*ri/1 we h ! same way op5$ by :i* to return to ! ,fa!r1 & ! ,holy ,_s is at h& to tea* u1 to enlight51 to /r5g!n1 to com=t1 to direct u 9 pray]4 ,let no "o refuse ! (f] :i* ! ,gospel makes ( its bless+s4 ,let all1 )\t delay1 ha/5 to give !mselves up to ! s]vice ( ,*ri/1 n d\bt+ b #8if !y are /$fa/1 unmoveable1 always ab\nd+ 9 ! "w ( ! ,"l1 _! lab\r w n be 9 va9 9 ! ,"l4' 99 99 99 99 99 ,,! ,,end4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,pr9t$ ,,by ,l4 ,,& ,g4 ,,seeley1 ,,?ames ,,ditton1 ,,surrey4 ,footnotes #fb ,i h subsequ5tly to ?is ev5t1 f\nd ! same signal ( fai? 9 a dy+ p]son record$ 9 "o ( ,mr4 ,ri*mond's tracts4--,vide ,*ur*man's ,mon?ly ,review4 ,april #ahda4