by ,! ,k5tuckiana ,digital ,libr>y7 ,illu/ration3 ,/eve ,p4 ,holcombe4 ,,/eve ,p4 ,,holcombe1 ,,! ,,conv]t$ ,,gambl]3 ,,8 ,,life ,,& ,,"w4 ,,by ,,rev4 ,,gross ,,alex&]4 ,,introduction ,,by ,,rev4 ,,sam ,p4 ,,jones4 ,,l\isville3 ,,press ,,( ,,! ,,c\ri]-,,j\rnal ,,job ,,pr9t+ ,,company4 #ahhh4 ,,copyright$1 #ahhh4 ,,to ,mrs4 ,s4 ,p4 ,holcombe1 ,,! ,,pati5t ,,wife1 ,,! ,,fai?ful ,,"m1 ,,! ,,fri5d ,,( ,,publicans ,,& ,,s9n]s1 ,,?is ,,acc\nt ,,( ,,! ,,life ,,& ,,"w ,,( ,,h] ,,husb& ,,is ,,d$icat$4 ,,table ,,( ,,cont5ts4 ,,introduction ,,by ,,sam4 ,p4 ,,jones ,,lett] ,,f ,,dr4 ,j4 ,a4 ,,broadus ,,life ,,& ,,"w ,,( ,,/eve ,p4 ,,holcombe-- ,,*apt] ,i ,,*apt] ,,ii ,,*apt] ,,iii ,,*apt] ,,iv ,,*apt] ,v ,,*apt] ,,vi ,,lett]s ,,te/imonials ,,( ,,conv]ts ,,s]mons ,,preface4 ,x has be5 ?\ght & sugge/$ by "s ( ^? hav+ k ( ,mr4 ,holcombe's hi/ory1 t an acc\nt ( 8 life & "w 9 book-=m w\ld multiply 8 usefulness & d good4 ,& s9ce ! n>ration ( 8 exp]i5ces by himself has be5 ( su* great b5efit to ^? :o h be5 privileg$ to he> him1 :y may n o!rs also be b5efit$ by read+ "s acc\nt ( 8 uncommon c>e]8 ,x is hop$ t x w be ( int]e/ to ! g5]al read] z a revelation & record ( ! work+s & /ruggles ( "s human he>ts & ! wret*$ness & bless$ness ( "s human lives4 ,x is a sort ( luxury to read ab\t & sympa?ize ) wret*$ness1 z x is a joy to see t wret*$ness turn$ to bless$ness4 ,x w %[ to ^? :o are unwill+ly ! slaves ( s9 :at ,god has done = su* z !y4 ,x w possibly int]e/ & enc\rage ^? :o are engag$ 9 ,*ri/ian "w4 ,x may furni% sugge/ions z to practical me?ods to be pursu$ 9 work+ among poor & ne$y classes1 :e!r 9 t[ns or cities4 ,ev5 m9i/]s ( ! ,gospel may f9d enc\ragem5t & in/ruction 9 ! exp]i5ce ( ,mr4 ,holcombe's life & ! me?ods & successes ( 8 "w4 ,:at few lett]s ( ,mr4 ,holcombe's c\ld be f\nd are put 9 z %[+ phases ( ?is int]e/+ "* t c\ld be %[n z well no o!r way1 & "s lett]s writt5 to him are select$ out ( sev]al hundr$ ( l "* to %[ h[ he t\*es all classes ( p4 ,! ,te/imonies are f m5 :o h be5 rescu$ "u ,mr4 ,holcombe's m9i/ry1 & w give "s idea ( ! "w t is be+ done4 ,^! are only a few ( ! m5 :o h be5 br\ght to a bett] & happi] life ?r\gh ,mr4 ,holcombe's ef=ts4 ,if any %\ld feel t !re is a sam5ess 9 ^! te/imonies1 :i* x is believ$ v few w d1 p]haps o!rs w feel ! cumulative effect ( l9e ^u l9e1 example ^u example4 ,! s]mons or addresses are ins]t$ because !y h be5 ! means ( awak5+ & guid+ _m to salvation1 & !y may be ( int]e/ & possibly ( b5efit to "s :o h n he>d ,mr4 ,holcombe4 ,!y conta9 mu* ( ! hi/ory ( 8 inn] life 9 /atem5ts ( exp]i5ce introduc$ by way ( illu/ration4 ,!y are giv5 9 outl9e only1 z w be se54 ,! book lays no claim to lit]>y excell5ce4 ,! position & "w ( ! man make 8 life wor? writ+ & read+ ap>t f ! /yle ( ! book4 ,! acc\nts "h giv5 ( ,mr4 ,holcombe's "* & "w are n writt5 = ! purpose ( glorify+ him4 ,_m ( ^! pages are pr(\ndly pa9ful & humiliat+ to him4 ,b !y are writt5 t ^? :o read !m may "k f :at dep?s he has be5 br\ght1 & to :at bless$ness he has be5 rais$1 ?r\gh ,jesus ,*ri/1 to ^: "n ! glory is giv5 & to ^: bless+ ! book is comm5d$4 ,,augu/1 #ahhh4 ,,introduction4 ,,by ,,rev4 ,,sam ,p4 ,,jones4 ,! au?or ( ?is volume1 ! ,rev4 ,gross ,alex&]1 ,pr(essor ( ,!ology 9 ,v&]bilt ,univ]sity1 0 surely ! man to give to ! _w ! ,life ( ,/eve ,holcombe4 ,! w>m he>t & cle> head ( ! au?or1 & ! consecrat$1 self-d5y+ life ( ! subject ( ! volume1 assure ! read] ample comp5sation = ! "t giv5 to ! book4 ,mr4 ,alex&] has kn[n ,bro!r ,holcombe f ! beg9n+ ( 8 ,*ri/ian life1 & tells ! /ory ( 8 fidelity to ,*ri/ & loyalty to duty z no o!r c\ld4 ,i fir/ met ,bro!r ,holcombe at ,l\isville1 9 ! ye> #ahhb1 :5 ,i 0 prea*+ 9 ! *ur* ( 8 pa/or1 ,rev4 ,j4 ,c4 ,morris4 ,x 0 f ,bro!r ,morris t ,i le>n$ ( ?is consecrat$ layman4 ,he (t5 told me ) joy ( _m incid5ts connect$ ) ! conv]sion & "w ( ,bro!r ,holcombe4 ,my acqua9tance ) him soon grew into a w>m fri5d%ip4 ,x has always be5 an inspiration to me to talk ) him1 & a s\rce ( gratitude to me to "k t ,i h 8 affection & pray]s4 ,! "w he is do+ n[ 9 ! city ( ,l\isville1 ,k5tucky1 is v mu* l ,j]ry ,macauley's "w 9 ,new ,york ,city ye>s ago4 ,no man has exp]i5c$ m vividly ! p[] ( ,*ri/ to save1 & no man has a /rong] fai? 9 ,*ri/'s ability to save4 ,bro!r ,holcombe's humility & fidelity h made him a p[] 9 ! "w ( rescu+ ! p]i%+ & sav+ ! fall54 ,i h be5 *>m$ by ! purity ( s\l manife/$ by him on all occasions1 & 8 cont9ual ef=ts to br+ back ^? :o h be5 ov]tak5 9 a fault4 ,hundr$s ( m5 :o h felt 8 sympa?iz+ arms ab\t !m & li/5$ to 8 bro!rly words h gr[n /rong1 because !y _h a fri5d & bro!r 9 ,/eve ,holcombe1 :o1 9 spite ( _! failures & faults1 has clung to !m ) a love l t :i* ,*ri/ ,himself manife/$ t[>d ^? :o 7 z bruis$ re$s & smok+ flax4 ,bro!r ,holcombe1 rescu$ himself by ! lov+ h& ( ,*ri/1 has ext5d$ ! h& f a he>t full ( love = ,*ri/ & m51 & has done 8 be/ to save all :o h come "u 8 influ5ce4 ,?is volume w be especially in/ructive to ^? :o are int]e/$ 9 ! salvation ( ! non-*ur*go]s ( ! great cities4 ,= surely ,bro!r ,holcombe's ,mission is a place :]e ! wor/ s9n]s he> ( ,*ri/'s p[] to save1 & :]e !y see1 9 ,bro!r ,holcombe himself1 ) 8 ri* exp]i5ce1 "o ( ! greate/ triumphs ( ! ,gospel4 ,i he>tily comm5d ?is volume to all ,*ri/ian p1 because x tells ( ! life ( a sav$ man4 ,x tells also :at a sav$ man c d = o!rs1 & x w inspire _m he>ts ) sympa?y = su* "w & prep>e _m h&s to help 9 x4 ,i he>tily comm5d ?is book because x is ! biography ( "o :om ,i love & :om all m5 w\ld love1 if !y knew him 9 8 devotion to ,god & duty4 ,bro!r ,holcombe has frequ5tly be5 ) me 9 my meet+s & 9 my private room2 ,i h frequ5tly be5 ) him 9 8 ,mission1 9 8 family circle1 on ! /reets ( ! great cities1 & he is "o man ( :om x may be said3 ,8 conv]sation is 9 heav54 ,i frequ5tly feel t my own life w\ld h be5 m successful ) su* a f]v5t consecration to my "w z ,bro!r ,/eve ,holcombe exemplifies4 ,! s]mons conta9$ 9 ?is volume w be read ) int]e/4 ,!y are 8 s]mons4 ,!y come f 8 he>t1 & !y h rea*$ ! he>ts ( hundr$s & ?\s&s :o h he>d him gladly4 ,i bespeak = ! book a circulation :i* w put x into ! libr>y ( all pa/ors & into ?\s&s ( homes4 ,,sam ,p4 ,,jones4 ,,c>t]sville1 ,,ga41 ,octob] #ah1 #ahhh4 ,,lett] ,,f ,,dr4 ,,john ,a4 ,,broadus4 ,i h read ) v great int]e/ ! ,life ( ,/eve ,holcombe1 & h c>efully look$ ?r\gh ! lett]s1 te/imonies & s]mons to be includ$ 9 ! propos$ volume1 & ,i rejoice t x is to be publi%$4 ,pr(essor ,alex&]1 :o 0 ,mr4 ,holcombe's fir/ pa/or1 has writt5 ! life ) ! be/ use ( 8 f9e lit]>y gifts1 & ) s\nd judgm5t & good ta/e4 ,x is a wond]ful /ory4 ,i h long felt int]e/ 9 ,mr4 ,holcombe & 8 "w1 = aft] beg9n+ 8 ,mission he att5d$ my sem9>y lessons 9 ! ,new ,te/am5t ?r\gh a session & m2 b ?is record ( 8 life w>ms my he>t /ill m t[>d him & 8 rem>kable labors ( love4 ,i ?9k ! book w be v widely read4 ,x w /ir ,*ri/ians to m hopeful ef=ts to save ! mo/ wick$4 ,x w enc\rage _m a desp]ate w&]] to seek ! grace ( ,god 9 ! ,gospel4 ,su* a book makes a real addition to ! evid5ces ( ,*ri/ianity4 ,no "o c read x )\t feel+ t ,*ri/ian piety is some?+ real & p[]ful & delightful4 ,mu* may be le>n$ f ,mr4 ,holcombe's record$ me?ods & disc\rses1 & f ! te/imonies ( 8 conv]ts1 z to ! be/ means ( c>ry+ on religi\s "w ( _m k9ds4 ,! book w1 d\btless1 lead to ! e/abli%m5t ( l ,missions 9 o!r cities1 & put new he>t & hope into ! pa/ors1 mission>ies & e class ( ,*ri/ian work]s4 ,x w %[ t zeal & love & fai? mu/ be support$ by ample common s5se & =ce ( "*1 z 9 ,mr4 ,holcombe's case1 if great results are to hop$ =4 ,_m p]sons c be induc$ to read 8 brief outl9e s]mons :o w\ld nev] look at m elaborate disc\rses4 ,z to two or ?ree slight t\*es ( doctr9al /atem5t1 "s ( u might n agree ) ! speak]1 b all mu/ see t 8 s]mons are v practical1 p]vad$ by good s5se & true feel+1 & adapt$ to d mu* good4 ,,john ,a4 ,,broadus4 ,,l\isville1 ,,ky41 ,septemb] #be1 #ahhh4 ,,life ,,& ,,"w4 ,,*apt] ,i4 ,/eve ,p4 ,holcombe1 kn[n 9 =m] ye>s z a gambl] & do] ( all evil1 no less kn[n 9 ^! latt] days z a prea*] ( ! ,gospel & do] ( all good1 0 born at ,%ipp+sport1 ,k5tucky1 9 #ahce4 ,! place1 z well z ! man1 has an int]e/+ hi/ory4 ,an odd1 /raggl+1 tir$1 little old t[n1 x looks z if x _h be5 left beh9d & _h long ago giv5 up all hope ( ev] cat*+ up4 ,x is 9 ?is & o!r respects 9 /rik+ contra/ ) its surr\nd+s4 ,! triangul> isl&1 ^u :i* x is situat$1 lies lazily betwe5 ! ,ohio riv]1 :i* fl[s l a torr5t ar\nd two sides ( x1 & ! ,l\isville canal1 :i* /ret*es /raight z an arr[ along ! ?ird4 ,on its nor!a/ side x comm&s a view ( ! mo/ picturesque "p ( ,la ,belle ,rivi]e4 ,?is "p embraces ! rapids1 or ,falls1 opposite ! city ( ,l\isville1 :i* gets its surname ( ,falls ,city f ?is circum/ance4 ,9 ! mid/ ( ! rapids a lone1 little isl& ( b>e rocks rises %e] out ( ! da%+ wat]s to ! height ( sev]al feet1 & across ! wide expanse1 on ! o!r side ( ! riv]1 loom up ! wood$ banks ( ! ,indiana side1 ind5t$ ) _m a romantic cove1 & sweep+ ar\nd ) a graceful curve1 :ile ! *imneys & t[]s & spires ( ,jeff]sonville & ,new ,albany rise 9 ! di/ance1 ) ! blue ,indiana ,knobs 9 ! deep backgr\nd beyond4 ,f ?is same po9t on ! isl&1 & =m+ "p ( ! same ext5sive view1 "o may see ! two maje/ic bridges1 ea* a mile 9 l5g?1 "o ( :i* spans ! riv] directly ov] ! ,falls & connects ! city ( ,l\isville ) ,jeff]sonville1 ,indiana1 :ile ! o!r jo9s ! we/]n portion ( ,l\isville ) ! ?riv+ city ( ,new ,albany4 ,across ! canal f ! isl&1 on ! s\?1 lies ! city ( ,l\isville ) its ne> #bjj1jjj population1 its broad av5ues1 its palatial build+s4 ,9 ! v mid/ ( all ?is pr(usion ( beauty & all ?is hum & buzz & ru% ( comm]cial & social life1 lies ! d+y1 sleepy old t[n ( ,%ipp+sport ) its ?ree hundr$ or f\r hundr$ p1 all unhe$$ & unhe$+1 unc>$ = & unc>+4 ,!re are five or six fairly good h\ses1 & all ! re/ are poor4 ,!re is a good brick s*ool-h\se1 built & kept up by ! city ( ,l\isville1 ( :i*1 s9ce #ahdb1 ,%ipp+sport is an incorporat$ "p4 ,!re is "o dilapidat$1 sad look+1 little old brick *ur*1 :i* seldom suff]s any sort ( di/urbance4 ,on ! nor!a/ %ore ( ! isl& directly ov] ! ru%+ wat]s /&s ! picturesque old mill built by ,t>ascon 9 ! e>ly "p ( ! c5tury4 ,x utilizes ! f9e wat]-p[] ( ! ,falls 9 mak+ ! fam\s ,l\isville cem5t4 ,"p ( ! inhabitants are employ$ z labor]s 9 ?is mill1 & "p ( !m d]ive _! support f fi%+ 9 ! riv]1 = :i* !re are exceptional opportunities all ! ye> ar\nd 9 ! %all[s1 :]e ! ru%+ wat]s da%1 ) eddy+ :irl1 aga9/ ! rocky %ores ( _! isl&4 ,!re are1 at ?is "t1 "s excell5t p 9 ,%ipp+sport1 :o fai?fully ma9ta9 spiritual life & good moral "* amid surr\nd+ apa?y & immorality4 ,= except ! ,"l _h left unto !m a v small remnant1 !y %\ld h be5 z ,sodom1 & !y %\ld h be5 l unto ,gomorrah4 ,& yet1 ,%ipp+sport 0 n always :at x is n[4 ,"t 0 :5 x boa/$ ! ari/ocracy ( ! ,falls4 ,! h\se is /ill /&+1 says a rec5t writ] 9 ,h>p]'s ,mon?ly ,magaz9e1 :]e 9 ! e>ly "p ( ! c5tury ! ,fr5*man1 ,t>ascon1 (f]$ bord] hospitality to _m di/+ui%$ gue/s1 among :om 7 ,a>on ,burr & ,bl5n]hasset1 & ,g5]al ,wilk9son1 !n 9 comm& ( ! armies ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates4 ,he might h add$ t ,%ipp+sport 0 once honor$ ) a visit f ,la,fayette1 & lat] also f ,presid5t ,jackson4 ,b 9 o!r respects also ,%ipp+sport 01 9 =m] ye>s1 f> diff]5t f :at x is to-day4 ,9 bus9ess importance x rival$ ! city ( ,l\isville itself4 ,9 t e>ly day1 be=e ! build+ ( ! canal1 /eamboats c\ld n1 on acc\nt ( ! ,falls1 pass up ! riv] except dur+ high wat]1 s t = ab\t n9e mon?s 9 ! ye> ,%ipp+sport 0 ! head ( navigation4 ,naturally1 x became a place ( consid]able comm]cial importance1 z ! %rewd ,fr5*man :o fir/ settl$ !re saw x 0 b\nd to be4 ,v soon x attract$ a population ( "s hundr$s1 & grew into a v busy little m>t4 ,e day1 says "o ( ! old citiz5s /ill liv+1 /eamboats 7 l&+ ) products & pass5g]s f ! ,s\?1 or leav+ ) products & pass5g]s f ,k5tucky & ! upp] c\ntry4 ,! freight :i* 0 l&$ at ,%ipp+sport 0 c>ri$ by wagons & drays to ,l\isville1 ,lex+ton & o!r places 9 ,k5tucky & ,indiana4 ,?is same old citiz51 ,mr4 ,alex4 ,folwell1 decl>es t he has se5 z _m z five hundr$ wagons 9 "o day 9 & ar\nd ! place4 ,!re 7 ?ree l>ge w>eh\ses & sev]al /ores1 & :at seems h>d to believe1 l& sold 9 "s in/ances = #ajj p] foot4 ,! canal 0 begun 9 #ahbd1 ! fir/ spadeful ( dirt be+ tak5 out by ,de,witt ,cl9ton1 ( ,new ,york4 ,dur+ ! next six ye>s f five hundr$ to a ?\s& m5 7 employ$ on x4 ,!y 71 z a g5]al ?+1 a r\gh set4 ,sometimes1 :ile /eamboats 7 ly+ at ! place1 ! unemploy$ h&s w\ld annoy ! workm5 on ! canal s t gradually !re grew up a feel+ ( enmity betwe5 ! two classes :i* broke out occasionally 9 regul> battles4 ,9 #ahcj1 :5 ! canal 0 f9i%$1 ! days ( ,%ipp+sport's prosp]ity 7 numb]$4 ,!nce=? /eamboats1 indep5d5t ( ob/ructions 9 ! riv]1 pass$ on up ?r\gh ! canal1 & ,%ipp+sport f\nd h] occupation 0 gone4 ,! bett] classes lo/ no "t 9 remov+ to o!r places1 & only ! poor] & r\gh] classes rema9$4 ,_m ( ! workm5 :o _h be5 engag$ 9 build+ ! canal settl$ d[n !re to live2 unemploy$ & brok5-d[n /eamboatm5 gravitat$ to ! place :]e !y always _h su* good times2 %iftless & ?riftless poor p f o!r places came flock+ 9 z to a poor man's p>adise4 ,)9 easy rea* ( ,l\isville1 ! place became a resort = ! immoral "y m51 ! gambl]s & all ! r\gh *>act]s ( t gr[+ city4 ,su* 0 ! place to :i* ,/eve ,holcombe's p>5ts remov$ f ,c5tral ,k5tucky 9 #ahce1 ! ye> ( 8 bir?2 &1 ?\gh com+ into ! mid/ ( surr\nd+s s full ( moral p]ils1 !y did n br+ t /r5g? ( moral "*1 t fix$ness ( moral habit & t /eadfa/ness ( moral purpose :i* 7 necess>y to gu>d aga9/ ! temptations ( e sort :i* 7 await+ !m4 ,! fa!r1 ?\gh an hone/ & well dispos$ sort ( man & v k9d to 8 family1 0 already a drunk>d4 ,8 son says ( him3 ,my poor fa!r _h gott5 to be a confirm$ drunk>d be=e ,i 0 born1 & aft] he _h settl$ at ,%ipp+sport1 my "m w\ld n let him /ay ab\t ! h\se1 s t mo/ ( 8 "t 0 sp5t 9 ly+ ar\nd b>-rooms or out on ! commons1 :]e he usually slept all times ( ! ye>4 ,x is n surpris+ t z a consequ5ce ( su* dissipation & su* exposure he di$ at ! e>ly age ( ?irty-?ree1 :5 8 son ,/eve 0 elev5 ye>s old4 ,dead1 he sleeps 9 an unm>k$ grave on ! commons :]e =m]ly he slept :5 drunk & %ut out by 8 wife f 8 home4 ,mrs4 ,holcombe1 ! "m ( ,/eve1 a woman five feet t5 in*es 9 height & "o hundr$ & n9ety p\nds 9 weight1 0 z /rong 9 passion z 9 physical p[]4 ,:5 ar\s$1 says h] son1 %e 0 z fi]ce z a tigress & fe>less ( ,god1 man or devil1 al?\gh %e 0 a woman ( quick sympa?y & impulsive k9dhe>t$ness t[>d ^? :o 7 9 di/ress1 & w\ld g fur!r to help su* ?an almo/ any "o ,i h ev] kn[n4 ,%e 0 a woman ( m ?an ord9>y m9d1 ?\gh entirely )\t education4 ,9 ! gov]nm5t ( h] *ildr5 %e 0 extremely sev]e4 ,?\gh my fa!r1 says ,mr4 ,holcombe1 nev] :ipp$ me b once 9 my life1 & t slightly1 my "m has :ipp$ me hundr$s ( times1 ,i suppose1 & ) z great sev]ity z frequ5cy4 ,%e has1 at times1 almo/ beat5 me to dea?4 ,%e w\ld use a swit*1 a cane1 a broom-/ick or a club1 :i*ev] happ5$ to be at h& :5 %e became provok$4 ,%e :ipp$ me (t5] = go+ swimm+ ?an = any?+ else1 ,i believe4 ,if ,i told h] a lie ab\t x %e w\ld :ip me1 & if ,i told h] ! tru?1 %e w\ld :ip me4 ,f neglect & o!r causes little ,/eve 0 v sickly & puny 9 8 babyhood1 s t he did n walk till he 0 f\r ye>s old2 b f ! beg9n+ 8 temp] 0 z viol5t z 8 body 0 weak1 & f 8 e>lie/ recollection1 he says1 he lov$ to fight4 ,at ! same "t he _h 8 "m's t5d]he>t$ness = ^? :o 7 9 di/ress4 ,once a /rang] /opp$ = a few days at ! tav]n 9 ,%ipp+sport1 & ! r\ghs ( ! place caught him out on "o occasion & beat him s sev]ely t he 0 left = dead2 b he crawl$ aft]w>d into an old %$ :]e little ,holcombe1 betwe5 five & six ye>s old1 f\nd him & took him food e day = ab\t two weeks4 ,! boys ) :om he associat$ 9 *ildhood 7 addict$ to petty /eal+1 & he le>n$ f !m to practice ! same4 ,:5 ab\t sev5 ye>s old 8 "m1 on acc\nt ( _! pov]ty1 provid$ him ) a supply ( cakes1 pies & fruits to p$dle out on ! /eam]s :ile !y 7 deta9$ 9 pass+ ! locks ( ! canal4 ,in/ead ( return+ ! money to 8 "m1 h[ev]1 he w\ld (t5 lose x 9 gambl+ ) ! bad boys ( ! place1 & sometimes ev5 ) 8 half-bro!rs1 s t he seldom got home ) 8 money1 b always got 8 beat+4 ,at eight ye>s ( age he play$ c>ds = money 9 b>-rooms ) gr[n m54 ,at t5 he began to explore ^? p>ts ( ! riv] ab\t ! falls1 9 a skiff alone look+ = articles ( v>i\s k9ds lo/ 9 wrecks1 t he might get means = gambl+4 ,?is1 toge!r ) ! fact t 8 hair 0 v light 9 color1 ga9$ = him ! di/9ction ( ! ,little ,:ite-head$ ,pirate4 ,9 #ahdb ,%ipp+sport 0 tak5 into ! city ( ,l\isville1 & a s*ool 0 e/abli%$1 :i* he att5d$ ab\t ?ree mon?s dur+ ?is p]iod ( 8 life1 & he nev] att5d$ s*ool aft]w>d4 ,! br[n-hair$1 black-ey$ little girl :o aft]w>d became 8 wife1 att5d$ ?is s*ool at ! same "t4 ,h] p>5ts _h lately remov$ to ,%ipp+sport f ,jeff]sonville1 ,indiana4 ,!y 7 p ( excell5t "* & 7 s c>eful ( _! *ildr5 t !y w\ld n all[ !m to associate ) ! *ildr5 ( ,%ipp+sport any f>!r ?an 0 necess>y & unavoidable4 ,b1 not)/&+ ^! re/rictions1 _! little ,m>y saw j en\gh ( ,/eve ,holcombe 9 s*ool to =m a /range lik+ = him1 z he did also = h]--an atta*m5t :i* has la/$ ?r\gh _m & v>y+ exp]i5ces up to ! pres5t4 ,at t "t he _h gr[n to be a heavy set little boy1 z ,mrs4 ,holcombe describes him1 & 0 v good look+1 inde$1 v h&some1 z %e goes on to say1 ) 8 deep blue eyes & 8 gold5 hair4 ,%e did n "k t %e 0 9 love ) a boy :o 0 to become "o ( ! wor/ ( m5 9 all =ms ( wick$ness1 & z little did %e "k t %e 0 9 love ) a boy :o 0 to become "o ( ! be/ ( m5 9 all =ms ( goodness & usefulness4 ,nor did he =esee t he 0 =m+ an atta*m5t !n & !re = "o :o 0 to love him devot$ly & s]ve him pati5tly ?r\gh all phases ( infidelity & wick$ness1 & ?r\gh ye>s ( almo/ unexampl$ trials & suff]+s1 :o 0 to cl+ to him amid numb]less p]ils & sc&als1 :o 0 to tra9 & re/ra9 8 *ildr5 s z to lead !m 9 ways ( purity & goodness 9 spite ( ! fa!r's bad example1 :o 0 to endure = 8 sake =ms ( ill treatm5t t h kill$ _m a woman1 & :o 0 9 long di/ant ye>s to be 8 mo/ pati5t enc\rag] & help] 9 a s+ul>ly bless$ & successful "w = ,god & ! mo/ ab&on$ & hopeless class ( s9ful m51 & to develop1 amid all & 9 spite ( all & by means ( all1 "o ( ! true/ & /ronge/ & mo/ devot$ ( female *>act]s4 ,a s+ul> ?+ x seems1 inde$1 t an atta*m5t begun s e>ly & te/$ s sev]ely %\ld h la/$ s late4 ,& yet x is p]haps at ?is mom5t /rong] ?an ev] x 0 be=e4 ,illu/ration3 ,,bir?place ,,( ,,mr4 ,,holcombe4 ,,%ipp+sport4 ,not)/&+ "y ,holcombe's lack ( religi\s in/ruction & 8 extraord9>y maturity 9 wick$ness1 he decl>es t at times he _h1 ev5 be=e 8 t5? ye>1 v s]i\s ?\ghts4 ,he says3 ,i always believ$ !re 0 a ,god & t ! ,bible 0 f ,god1 b = ! mo/ "p my belief 0 v vague & took hold ( no?+ def9ite4 ,h5ce1 ne>ly all my ?\ghts 7 evil1 only evil & evil cont9ually4 ,i am sure1 h[ev]1 t ,i believ$ !re 0 a hell4 ,:5 a *ild1 ,i us$ to dream1 x seems to me1 almo/ e night1 t ! devil _h me1 & sometimes my dreams 7 s real t ,i w\ld say to myself :ile dream+1 ',n[ ?is is no dream2 he has got me ?is "t1 sure en\gh4' ,i rememb] t "o text :i* ,i he>d a prea*] read tr\bl$ me m ?an any?+ else1 :5 ,i ?\ght ab\t dy+ & go+ to judgm5t4 ,x 0 ?is3 ',& !y hid !mselves 9 ! d5s & rocks ( ! m\nta9s1 & said to ! m\nta9s & rocks1 fall on u & hide u f ! face ( ,him t sitte? on ! ?rone4' ,i always _h a fe> ( dea? & a dread ( ! future4 ,! rattl+ ( clods on a c(f9 fill$ me ) awe & dread4 ,:5 ,i ?\ght ab\t my s\l1 ,i w\ld always say to myself1 ',i am go+ to get good be=e ,i g into ! pres5ce ( ,god2 b n[ ,i want to keep ^! ?\ghts out ( m9d s ,i c d z ,i please & n h to suff] & /ruggle & fight aga9/ s9--till ,i get consumption4 ,:5 ,i get consumption ,i w h pl5ty ( w>n+ z to dea?'s approa* & pl5ty ( "t to prep>e = x4' ,b ,i _h gott5 su* an admiration = gambl]s & su* a passion = gambl+ t ,i _h a consum+ ambition to become a regul> blackleg1 z gambl]s 7 call$ 9 ^? days4 ,i made up my m9d t ?is 0 to be my bus9ess1 & ,i began to look ab\t = "s way to get loose f ev]y?+ else1 s ,i c\ld d no?+ b gamble1 ) nobody to mole/ or make me afraid4 ,x is h>d en\gh = a boy to keep f do+ wrong & to d "r always1 ev5 :5 he has inh]it$ a good disposition1 enjoy$ good advantages & _h ! be/ ( tra9+4 ,b our little fri5d1 ,/eve ,holcombe1 poor fell[1 inh]it$ f 8 fa!r an appetite = dr9k & f 8 "m a savage temp]4 ,to balance ^!1 he _h none ( ! safegu>ds ( a c>eful1 moral or religi\s education1 & none ( ^? sweet & helpful home associations :i* foll[ a man ?r\gh life & hold him back f wrong do+4 ,?us unprep>$1 un%ield$1 ungu>d$1 at ! t5d] age ( elev5 ye>s he left home to "w 8 own way 9 ! _w4 ,no "m's pray]s _h hi!rto help$ him1 & no "m's pray]s f h5ce=? foll[$ him4 ,no hall[$ home influ5ces _h bless$ & sweet5$ 8 mis]able *ildhood & no t5d] recollections ( sanctifi$ home life 7 to foll[ him into ! great wick$ _w4 ,on ! contr>y1 he 0 flee+ f 8 home to f9d "s refuge1 he knew n :at1 he knew n :]e4 ,he 0 go+ out1 boy z he 01 load$ d[n ) ! vices & hungry ) ! passions ( a man4 ,he did n seek employm5t among p t 7 good or 9 circum/ances enc\rag+ to goodness1 b j :]e ( all places he w\ld f9d mo/ vice & le>n mo/ wick$ness--on a /eamboat4 ,"o kn[+ 8 antec$5ts & look+ out into 8 future c\ld easily h =ese5 8 c>e] 9 vice & crime1 b w\ld h>dly h pr$ict$ = him t life ( goodness & usefulness :i* n[ = elev5 wond]ful ye>s he has be5 lead+4 ,he 0 employ$ on a /eamboat :i* ran on ! ,t5nessee riv]1 & 8 fir/ trip 0 to ,flor5ce1 ,alabama4 ,8 "m did n "k :at _h become ( him4 ,he 0 employ$ 9 "s s]vice ab\t ! kit*54 ,he slept on deck ) ! h&s & ate ) ! s]vants4 ,hungry z he 0 = "s ^w or look ( sympa?y :i*1 giv5 him & foll[$ up1 might h made him a diff]5t "*1 nobody %[$ him any k9dness4 ,! /ew>d ( ! boat on ! contr>y %[$ him "s unk9dness1 & 0 9 ! act ( kick+ him on "o occasion = some?+1 :5 "y ,holcombe jump$ at him l an enrag$ animal & fright5$ him s badly t he 0 glad to drop ! matt] = ! pres5t & to respect ! boy = ! future4 ,on ?is trip he f\nd five doll>s 9 money on ! boat1 & 0 hone/ en\gh to take x to ! /ew>d = ! own]4 ,:5 he return$ home f ?is trip1 /range to say1 8 "m s f> f giv+ him a sev]] beat+ ?an usual1 z might h be5 expect$1 did n puni% him at all4 ,%e 0 probably too glad to get him back & too afraid ( driv+ him away aga94 ,b no?+ c\ld re/ra9 him n[ t he _h once se5 ! _w & made ! successful exp]im5t ( gett+ on 9 ! _w )\t anybody's help4 ,s t he soon w5t on ano!r trip & s cont9u$1 go+ on f\r or five long /eamboat runs be=e he 0 f\rte5 ye>s ( age1 & sp5d+ 8 unoccupi$ "t 9 gambl+ ) ei!r :ite m5 or negroes1 z he f\nd opportunity4 ,aft] he 0 f\rte5 ye>s old he w5t on ! upp] ,mississippi riv] & travel$ to & f ,/4 ,l\is4 ,on ! ,mississippi /eam]s ( ^? days gambl+ 0 common1 n only among ! s]vants & deck-h&s1 x 0 ! pa/ime or ! bus9ess ( "s ( ! fir/-class pass5g]s also4 ,sometimes :5 a ri* plant] _h lo/ all 8 ready money 9 gambl+1 he w\ld put up a slave1 male or female1 t he might happ5 to h ) him1 & aft] los+1 w\ld borr[ money to w9 or buy aga9 ! slave4 ,pr(essional gambl]s1 luxuri\sly dress$ & liv+ l pr9ces1 frequ5t$ ! /eam]s ( ^? days = ! purpose ( entrapp+ & fleec+ ! pass5g]s4 ,all ?is only increas$ ! fasc9ation ( gambl+ = "y ,holcombe1 & he /udi$ & practic$ x ) increas+ zeal4 ,ab\t ?is "t1 :5 he 0 9 ! neighborhood ( f\rte5 ye>s ( age1 8 "m1 awak+ all too late to 8 p]il & to h] duty1 got him a situation z (fice-boy 9 ! (fice ( ,dr4 ,m&eville ,?um1 ( ,l\isville1 hop+ to keep him at home & rescue him f ! p]il\s life he _h ent]$ ^u4 ,dr4 ,?um 0 mu* pleas$ ) him1 took great int]e/ 9 him1 & treat$ him ) unusual k9dness4 ,he ev5 began himself to tea* him algebra1 ) ! int5tion ( mak+ a civil eng9e] ( ! boy4 ,& he 0 mak+ enc\rag+ progress 9 8 /udies & w\ld1 d\btless1 h done well1 _h he cont9u$4 ,dur+ ! "t he sp5t 9 ! s]vice ( ,dr4 ,?um1 he att5d$ a revival meet+ held by ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,cr5%aw1 at ,%ipp+sport1 & 0 mu* impress$ by :at he he>d4 ,he became s awak5$ & int]e/$ t he respond$ to ! appeals t 7 made by ?is devot$ & zeal\s prea*] & s\ght int]views ) him4 ,he tri$ 8 level be/1 z he expresses x1 to "w himself up to a po9t :]e he c\ld feel t he 0 conv]t$1 a n r>e1 b v wrong1 view ( ?is solemn matt]4 ,b he c\ld n feel x4 ,:ile1 h[ev]1 he c\ld n get ! feel+1 he det]m9$ to be a ,*ri/ian1 anyh[1 a r>] & bett]1 b n altoge!r correct1 view ( ! subject ei!r4 ,= a week or t5 days he succe$$ 9 ov]com+ evil impulses1 & 9 liv+ "r1 b he 0 l$ away by evil companions4 ,soon aft] ?is he tri$ x aga91 & ?is "t he succe$$ = a long] "t ?an be=e 9 resi/+ temptations & foll[+ 8 s5se ( "r1 b 0 "o day p]suad$ to g on a ,sunday /eamboat-excursion to ,new ,albany1 ) "s "y folks f ,%ipp+sport1 :i* prov$ ! occasion ( 8 fall4 ,on return+ home he & two o!r boys w5t "p ( ! way on foot4 ,!y he>d a man1 n f> away1 cry+ = wat]1 & ,holcombe's quick impulse ( sympa?y l$ him to propose to g to ! relief ( ! suff]]4 ,:5 !y f\nd he 0 n s bad (f z !y ?\ght1 ! two o!r boys began to abuse & mi/reat ! /rang]4 ,he 0 an unequal mat* = ! two1 h[ev]1 & z he 0 ab\t to get ! be/ ( !m1 "y ,holcombe knock$ ! poor man d[n1 & !y all kick$ him s sev]ely ov] ! head & face t :5 !y left him he 0 ne>ly dead4 ,holcombe w5t back ! next day1 & half a mile away he f\nd ! coron] hold+ an inque/ ov] ! man4 ,he 0 prep>+ to flee to ,indiana :5 he he>d t ! v]dict ( ! jury 03 ,dea? f exposure to ! sun4 ,?is c[>dly & wick$ de$ wr\ght 9 him su* %ame1 su* self-loa?+ & su* disc\ragem5t t he ab&on$ all hope & purpose ( liv+ a bett] life4 ,) a sort ( feel+ ( desp]ation & ( rev5ge aga9/ 8 bett] nature = all[+ him to yield & /oop to su* meanness1 he left 8 position 9 ,l\isville & %ipp$ on a /eamboat aga9 = ,/4 ,l\is4 ,:ile ! boat 0 ly+ at ! :>f at ,/4 ,l\is he got into a difficulty ) "o ( ! deck-h&s :o appli$ to him a v disgraceful "n4 ,in/antly "y ,holcombe seiz$ a heavy meat-cleav] & w\ld h split ! man's head 9 two if ! cook _h n caught 8 arm z he swung x back = ! /roke4 ,f ,/4 ,l\is he w5t up ! ,miss\ri riv] to ,omaha1 engag+1 z usual1 9 gambl+ & o!r nameless vices4 ,on 8 second trip f ,omaha to ,/4 ,l\is he innoc5tly provok$ ! ang] ( ! /ew>d ( ! boat1 :o abus$ him 9 su* a way t ,holcombe ran at him ) an ice-pick1 :5 ! t]rifi$ man ru%$ into ! (fice & took refuge beh9d ! capta94 ,x 0 decid$ t ,holcombe %\ld be dis*>g$ & put a%ore4 ,:5 ! cl]k call$ him up to pay him (f1 he volunte]$ "s repro( & abuse ( ! sev5te5-ye>-old boy4 ,b1 ^u f9d+ he 0 deal+ ) "o :o1 :5 ar\s$1 knew nei!r fe> nor self-control1 he 0 glad to quiet d[n & pay him 8 dues1 z ,holcombe rem>k$3 ,y may dis*>ge me & put me a%ore1 b y %all n abuse me4 ,& !y put him a%ore at ,kansas ,city1 !n a small village4 ,:ile wait+ at ,kansas ,city = ! next boat to ,/4 ,l\is 7all travel+ be+ done 9 ^? days & regions by wat]71 he sp5t 8 "t ar\nd b>-rooms & gambl+-h\ses4 ,!re he saw a diff]5t & m ext5sive k9d ( gam+ ?an he _h ev] se5 be=e4 ,great quantities ( money 7 on ! tables be=e ! play]s1 great] ?an he _h ev] se51 & he saw x *ange h&s & pass f "o to ano!r4 ,su* a sight increas$ 8 desire to foll[ su* a life4 ,s he put up 8 money1 ! wages ( 8 labor on ! boat1 & lo/ x--all4 ,he sp5t ! rema9d] ( 8 /ay 9 ,kansas ,city w&]+ ar\nd1 de/itute1 hungry1 lonely1 ) v>i\s reflections on ! =tunes & mis=tunes ( a gambl]'s life1 till at la/ he got deck-passage on a boat to ,/4 ,l\is1 & paid 8 f>e by saw+ wood4 ,dur+ ?is trip 8 viol5t & rev5geful temp] l$ him to commit an act t ne>ly result$ 9 murd]4 ,"o ( ! deck-h&s ?rew d[n "s wood :i* he _h pil$ up1 & ,holcombe prote/$1 :]eupon ! deck-h& curs$ him & said3 ,y little rat1 ,i w ?r[ y ov]bo>d6 ,mr4 ,holcombe repli$3 ,i guess y won't1 & said no?+ m at ! "t4 ,aft] ! man _h la9 d[n & gone to sleep1 ,mr4 ,holcombe got a cord-/ick1 slipp$ ^u him1 & hit him on ! skull ) all 8 might1 completely /unn+ ! man4 ,n[1 says ,mr4 ,holcombe1 speak+ ( ?is incid5t1 ,i c n und]/& h[ a man c\ld d s cruel a ?+1 b !n ,i felt ,i mu/ h rev5ge "s way1 & ,i c\ld n keep f x4 ,at ,/4 ,l\is he got a position on a boat = ,new ,orleans1 & soon aft] arriv+ 9 t city he %ipp$ on bo>d a /eam%ip = ,galve/on1 ,texas1 b return$ imm$iately to ,new ,orleans4 ,"h1 h[ev]1 he soon lo/1 9 gambl+1 all ! money he _h made on ! trip1 & 0 s entirely )\t fri5ds or acqua9tances t he c\ld f9d no place to sleep1 & w&]$ ab\t on ! levee until "o or two o'clock 9 ! morn+4 ,to add to ! lonel9ess & dismalness ( 8 situation1 x 0 dur+ an epidemic ( yell[ fev] 9 ! city1 & p 7 dy+ s fa/ !y c\ld n bury !m1 b _h to pl[ tr5*es & ?r[ ! corpses 91 z !y bury soldi]s on a battle-field4 ,ab\t "o or two o'clock1 a color$ man1 on a /eamboat see+ him walk+ ar\nd alone1 call$ him1 & f9d+ out 8 condition1 took him on bo>d ! /eam] & gave him a b$4 ,b ,holcombe 0 s afraid ! negro _h "s design ^u him1 z !re 7 no o!rs on bo>d1 t he /ole away f ! boat & w&]$ ar\nd1 alone1 all ! re/ ( ! night4 ,on t awful night ! great deep ( 8 he>t 0 brok5 up & he felt a s5se ( lonel9ess t he _h nev] felt be=e 9 8 life4 ,he 0 9 a /range city among a /range p4 ,he _h no fri5ds1 he _h no means4 ,he _h n :]e to lay 8 head4 ,! d>kness ( ! night %ut (f ! sight ( ^? objects :i* 9 ! day w\ld h div]t$ 8 m9d & reliev$ 8 pa9ful reflections2 & ! awful /illness1 brok5 only by ! rattl+ ( :eels t bore away ! dead1 made x seem to him z if 8 ?\ghts 7 spok5 to him by "s audible voice4 ,8 pa/ life came up be=e him1 b !re 0 9 x no?+ pleasant = him to rememb]4 ,x _h be5 f 8 e>lie/ recollection "o con/ant exp]i5ce ( pa9 & s94 ,he 0 uneasy ab\t himself4 ,he 0 fright5$ at ! pa/1 & ! recollection ( 8 h>d1 b va91 /ruggle to get 8 evil nature *ang$ & bett]$1 ca/ a d>k cl\d ov] 8 future4 ,:at c\ld he d8 ,:]e c\ld he g8 ,:o 0 !re c\ld help him8 ,:o 0 !re t lov$ him8 ,at 8 own home1 if home x c\ld be call$1 !re 0 no?+ b /rife & cruelty & s94 ,fa!r1 he _h none4 ,he t 0 8 fa!r _h liv$ a drunk>d's life1 _h di$ a drunk>d's dea? & 0 buri$ 9 a drunk>d's grave4 ,& 8 "m--%e _h no p[] to help him or ev5 love him z mo/ mo!rs love _! *ildr51 & z on t lone dismal night he w\ld h giv5 ! _w to be lov$4 ,( ,god's m]cy & love he did n "k1 he ?\ght only ( 8 wra?1 nor _h he le>n$ h[ to approa* him 9 pray]4 ,alone1 alone1 he felt himself to be %ut up betwe5 a pa/ t 0 full ( s9 & crime & a future t promis$ no?+ bett]4 ,b he did ?9k ( "o :o _h lov$ him & :o _h said %e w\ld always love him & he felt !re 0 tru? 9 h] s\l & 9 h] words4 ,x 0 ! br[n-hair$1 sweet-fac$1 /rong-he>t$ little girl he _h left 9 ,%ipp+sport4 ,he w\ld g back to h]4 ,%e alone ( all p 9 ! _w seem$ able to help him & ?is seem$ 8 la/1 8 only hope4 ,if %e _h rema9$ true to him1 & if %e w\ld love him1 ! _w w\ld n seem s dre>y & ! future w\ld n seem s d>k1 & maybe %e c\ld help him to be a bett] man4 ,on ! next day1 says ,mr4 ,holcombe1 an acqua9tance ( m9e f ,l\isville ran across me z ,i 0 /roll+ ab\t ! /reets1 took me abo>d a /eam] & made me g home ) him4 ,illu/ration3 ,,! ,,old ,,mill ,,at ,,%ipp+sport4 ,,*apt] ,,ii4 ,z has already be5 said1 ,mr4 & ,mrs4 ,evans1 ! p>5ts ( ,mrs4 ,holcombe1 7 p ( excell5t moral "* & 7 s c>eful ( _! *ildr5 t z long z !y c\ld prev5t x1 !y did n all[ !m to associate freely ) ! ,%ipp+sport *ildr54 ,b ( ,/eve ,holcombe1 ! wor/ ( !m all1 !y _h a special dread4 ,mr4 ,evans c\ld n endure to see him or to he> 8 "n call$4 ,& yet1 ?is same ,/eve ,holcombe 0 9 love ) _! own preci\s *ild1 & _h n[ come home to ask h] to m>ry him4 ,( c\rse1 he did n visit h] at h] own home b he manag$ to see h] else:]e4 ,he f\nd t %e _h n wav]$ dur+ 8 abs5ce1 b t ! bond ( _! *ildhood _h gr[n ) h] womanhood4 ,& yet %e knew full well 8 pa/ c>e] & 8 pres5t "*4 ,%e w5t into x ) h] eyes op51 to quote h] own words4 ,aga9/ ! w ( h] p>5ts & aga9/ ! advice ( h] fri5ds %e adh]$ to h] purpose to m>ry ,/eve ,holcombe :5 ! "t %\ld come4 ,ev5 8 own "m1 mov$ ) pity at ! ?\ght ( ! suff]+s & wret*$ness :i* ?is m>riage w\ld br+ ! poor girl1 tri$ to dissuade h] f x & w>n$ h] t %e 0 go+ to m>ry ! v devil4 ,%e repli$ t %e knew all ab\t x1 & :5 ask$ :y %e !n did x1 h] simple answ] 0 because ,i love him4 ,he promis$ h] t he w\ld try to be a bett] man & %e1 z well z he1 believ$ x1 ?\gh n because %e expect$ he w\ld "s "t become a ,*ri/ian & n because %e _h ! ,*ri/ian's fai? & hope4 ,h] simple belief 0 t ! outcome ( h] love w\ld be 8 re=mation & return to a bett] life4 ,x 0 n ?us def9itely /at$ to h]self by h]self4 ,x 0 an unconsci\s process ( reason+ or r x 0 ! deep in/9ct ( h] /rong & deeply-root$ love4 ,mrs4 ,holcombe 0 rec5tly ask$ if1 dur+ all ! ye>s ( h] husb&'s recklessness & disgraceful dissipation1 8 s9s & crimes1 8 cruel neglect & he>tless mi/reatm5t ( h]self1 h] love ev] falt]$8 ,%e answ]$3 ,no2 nev]4 ,!re nev] 0 a "t1 ev5 :5 ,mr4 ,holcombe 0 at 8 wor/1 t ,i did n love him4 ,x pa9$ me1 ( c\rse1 t "s ?+s %\ld come ?r\gh him1 b ,i nev] lov$ him any less4 ,a r>e & wond]ful love x surely 04 ,:5 %e 0 ask$ if dur+ ^? d>k & bitt] ye>s %e ev] gave up h] belief t h] husb& w\ld *ange 8 life & become a good man1 %e answ]$1 ,no2 ,i nev] gave x up4 ,a woman ( deep ,insight1 ( l>ge read+ & wide obs]vation1 on he>+ ^! replies ( ,mrs4 ,holcombe1 said3 ,x is ! mo/ wond]ful case ( love & pati5ce & fai? ,i h ev] kn[n4 ,he _h come home !n to m>ry ,m>y ,evans4 ,he met h] at ! h\se ( a mutual fri5d & propos$ an elopem5t4 ,%e 0 fright5$ & refus$4 ,b he plead$ & bes\ght h]1 &1 w\nd$ & vex$ at :at seem$ a disreg>d ( 8 feel+s & rights1 he end$ by say+1 ,x mu/ be to-night or nev]4 ,:]eupon %e cons5t$1 ?\gh ) great reluctance1 & !y w5t toge!r to ! h\se ( 8 "m1 9 ! city ( ,l\isville4 ,b 8 own "m w\ld n cons5t to _! m>riage "u su* circum/ances until %e c\ld fir/ g & see if %e c\ld get ! cons5t ( ! girl's p>5ts4 ,accord+ly1 %e w5t at once to ,%ipp+sport1 night z x 01 & laid ! case be=e !m4 ,!y did n cons5t1 b saw x w\ld d no good to und]take to put a /op to x4 ,s t1 at ! h\se ( 8 "m 9 ,l\isville1 !y 7 m>ri$1 ,/eve ,holcombe & ,m>y ,evans1 ! h>d5$ gambl] & ! timid girl4 ,aft] 8 m>riage he quit runn+ on ! riv]1 settl$ d[n at ,%ipp+sport & w5t to fi%+ = a liv+4 ,& x did seem = a "t t 8 hope 0 to be realiz$ & t ?r\gh ! helpful influ5ces ( 8 "y wife he 0 to become a bett] man4 ,he grew /eadily t[>d bett] purposes & t[>d a high] /&>d ( "*1 & )9 two or ?ree mon?s aft] _! m>riage !y jo9$ ! *ur* toge!r4 ,mrs4 ,holcombe says1 h[ev]1 t %e does n n[ believe t %e 0 a ,*ri/ian at ! "t4 ,!y ?\ght 9 a g5]al way t x 0 "r to jo9 ! *ur*1 & t x w\ld d !m good & someh[ help !m to be good4 ,if !y _h _h "s "o1 wise & pati5t & fai?ful1 to tea* !m & advise !m & sympa?ize ) !m at ?is "t ( awak5+ & ( hone/ endeavor aft] a spiritual life1 !y w\ld probably h gone on happily & helpfully toge!r 9 x4 ,b alas6 z is true 9 s _m1 _m cases to-day1 nobody und]/ood or seem$ to und]/& !m1 nobody tri$ or c>$ to und]/& !m2 nobody c>$ = _! s\ls4 ,x 0 tak5 = grant$1 !n z n[1 t :5 p are gott5 into ! *ur*1 no?+ special is to be done = !m any fur!r1 ?\gh1 9 fact1 ! mo/ difficult & delicate "p ( tra9+ a s\l & develop+ ,*ri/ian "* comes aft] conv]sion & aft] jo9+ ! *ur*4 ,mr4 ,holcombe attributes 8 pres5t success 9 ! help+ & guidance ( inquir+ & /ruggl+ s\ls to 8 lack on ! "o h& ( c>eful & sympa!tic tra9+ 9 8 e>li] ef=ts to be a ,*ri/ian & on ! o!r h& to ! great b5efit ( su* tra9+ 9 8 lat] ef=ts4 ,9 su* a nature z 81 especially1 no m]e =m ( religion & no ext]nal bond ( union ) ! *ur* 0 suffici5t4 ,! /r5g? ( 8 w1 ! t5acity ( 8 old habits1 ! int5sity ( 8 nature & ! viol5ce ( 8 passions 7 su* t only an extraord9>y p[] w\ld suffice to br+ him "u control4 ,x 0 n long1 !re=e1 be=e he 0 ov]come by 8 evil nature1 & he soon gave ov] ! ineffectual /ruggle & fell back into 8 old ways4 ,8 poor wife soon f\nd to h] sorr[ t re=m+ a bad man 0 a great] und]tak+ ?an %e _h dream$ (1 & 0 (t5 rem9d$ ( h] "m-9-law's rem>k t %e _h m>ri$ ! v devil4 ,& ,mr4 ,holcombe f\nd out1 too1 t 8 wife1 good z %e 01 c\ld n make him good4 ,"s m5 !re are s hungry-he>t$ & s dep5d5t1 t !y c n endure life )\t ! supreme & fai?ful & submissive affection ( a wife1 b :o "k n h[ to appreciate or treat a wife & soon lose t consid]ation & love = h] :i* are h] due4 ,!n m>riage becomes tyranny on ! "o side & slav]y on ! o!r4 ,p]haps ! read] w conclude lat] t ?is description applies all too well to ! m>ri$ life ( ,/eve ,holcombe & 8 fai?ful & brave-he>t$ "y wife2 = x 0 n long be=e he return$1 9 spite ( all 8 solemn v[s & 8 e>ne/ resolutions1 to 8 old habit ( gambl+ & to all 8 evil ways4 ,on a c]ta9 occasion n long aft] he m>ri$1 9 company ) a fri5d1 :o is at ?is mom5t ly+ 9 ! jail 9 ,l\isville = ! violation ( ! law aga9/ gambl+1 he w5t on a fi%+ excursion to ,m\nd ,city1 ,ill9ois4 ,hav+ return$ to ! l&+ "o night ab\t midnight !y f\nd a fi]ce-look+ man sitt+ on ! :>f-boat :o said to !m on ent]+1 ,i und]/& !re are "s gambl]s "h & ,i h come to play !m1 & ,i c :ip any two m5 on ! ,ohio riv]1 at ! same "t expos+ a l>ge knife :i* he c>ri$ 9 8 boot4 ,he 0 evid5tly a bully :o ?\ght he c\ld intimidate ^! /rang]s & 9 "s und]h&$ way get f !m _! money4 ,mr4 ,holcombe did n reply b wait$ till ! next morn+ :5 he siz$ up ! man & det]m9$ to play aga9/ him4 ,aft] !y _h be5 play+ "s "t ,mr4 ,holcombe discov]$ t ! man 0 hold+ c>ds out ( ! pack on him4 ,he said no?+1 h[ev]1 till ! man _h gott5 out all ! c>ds he want$1 :5 ,mr4 ,holcombe made a bet4 ,! o!r man rais$ him1 t is1 (f]$ to increase ! am\nt4 ,mr4 ,holcombe rais$ him back & s on till ea* "o _h put up all ! money he _h4 ,!n ! man %[$ d[n 8 h& z ! say+ is1 & he _h ! f\r aces4 ,mr4 ,holcombe repli$ ,t is a good h&1 b "h is a bett] "o2 & ) t /ruck him a quick heavy bl[ t s5t ! man to ! floor1 ,mr4 ,holcombe took all ! money & ! o!r man began to cry l a *ild & beg = x4 ,mr4 ,holcombe 0 in/antly t\*$ ) pity & want$ to give him back 8 money b 8 p>tn] object$4 ,he did1 h[ev]1 give ! man en\gh = 8 imm$iate wants & left him "s ! wis] = 8 loss ( ! re/4 ,at ! same place ! own] ( ! /oreboat left a "y man 9 *>ge1 :o1 dur+ ! abs5ce ( 8 proprietor1 (f]$ to play aga9/ ,mr4 ,holcombe & lo/ all ! money he _h4 ,!n he insi/$ on ,mr4 ,holcombe's play+ = ! clo?+ :i* he _h 9 ! /ore & ,mr4 ,holcombe won all t f him1 leav+ him a sadd]1 b x is to be hop$ a wis]1 man4 ,hav+ ?us once aga9 felt ! fasc9ation ( gambl+ & ! intoxication ( success1 ,mr4 ,holcombe 0 impell$ by ^! & by 8 naturally re/less disposition to give up altoge!r 8 legitimate bus9ess & to return to ! old life4 ,s )\t return+ to visit 8 wife & *ild or ev5 in=m+ !m ( 8 :]eab\ts1 he %ipp$ on a /eam] = ,memphis & !nce to ,new ,orleans4 ,on 8 return trip f ,new ,orleans he play$ pok] & won sev]al hundr$ doll>s4 ,on l&+ 9 ,l\isville1 8 half-bro!r1 ,mr4 ,wm4 ,s[d]s1 ! l>ge/ fi% & oy/] deal] 9 ,l\isville1 gave him a p>tn]%ip 9 8 bus9ess1 b !y soon fell out & he quit ! firm4 ,he remov$ to ,na%ville1 ,t5nessee1 & op5$ a bus9ess ( ! same k9d !re 9 connection ) 8 bro!r's h\se 9 ,l\isville1 ,mr4 ,holcombe %ipp+ 8 vegetables & produce 9 return = fi% & oy/]s4 ,?is 0 e>ly 9 #ahfj4 ,x 0 a great trial = 8 "y wife to be tak5 f among h] relatives & fri5ds & put d[n among p :o 7 entire /rang]s1 especially t %e _h f\nd out 9 f\r or five ye>s ( m>ri$ life t h] husb& _h gr[n away f h]1 t 8 he>t & life 7 9 o!r p ?an 8 family1 9 o!r places ?an 8 home & 9 o!rs pleasures ?an 8 duty4 ,%e knew t %e c\ld n n[ c\nt on hav+ 8 companion%ip day or night1 9 sickness or 9 heal?1 9 pov]ty or 9 weal?4 ,& to make ! outlook all ! m gloomy = h]1 %e _h j pass$ ?r\gh "o ( ! sev]e/ trials t _h come into h] life4 ,:5 an int5se woman f9ds t %e is deceiv$ & disappo9t$ 9 h] husb&1 & ! hopes ( m>ri$ bliss are br\ght to naught1 %e f9ds "s comp5sation & relief 9 ! love ( h] *ildr54 ,s x 0 ) ,mrs4 ,holcombe4 ,b j be=e ! "t came = !m to remove to ,na%ville1 dea? came & took f h] arms h] second-born *ild4 ,?is made x all ! h>d] to leave h] home to g among /rang]s4 ,b already1 z a wife1 %e _h le>n$ t *>ity :i* suff]e? long & is k9d1 :i* seeke? n h] own & :i* endure? all ?+s4 ,mr4 ,holcombe's bus9ess 9 ,na%ville 0 v pr(itable & he made sometimes z mu* z fifty doll>s a day1 s t 9 a %ort "t he _h accumulat$ a consid]able am\nt ( money4 ,b 8 passion = gambl+ rema9$4 ,8 wife _h hop$ t ! suff]+s & dea? ( _! little *ild might s(t5 8 he>t & lead him to a bett] life4 ,b x seem$ to h no effect on him :atev]4 ,?\gh he did n foll[ gambl+ z a pr(ession1 he engag$ 9 x at night & 9 a private way ) bus9ess m54 ,:5 ! active ho/ilities ( ! w> came on1 8 communication ) ,l\isville 0 cut (f & s 8 bus9ess 0 at an end4 ,leav+ 8 wife & only rema9+ *ild alone 9 ,na%ville he w5t to ,cl>ksville & engag$ 9 ! ice bus9ess4 ,:ile he 0 !re1 ! ,k5tucky troops1 :o 7 encamp$ ne> t place1 mov$ up to ,b[l+ ,gre51 ,k5tucky4 ,! s\nd ( fife & drum & ! sight ( mov+ columns ( soldi]s /irr$ ei!r 8 patriotism or 8 en?usiasm s t he got rid ( 8 bus9ess & foll[$ !m on up to ,gre5 riv] 9 ,k5tucky1 & w5t into camp ) !m :]e he sp5t "s "t1 )\t1 h[ev]1 be+ sworn into s]vice4 ,b ?is %ort "t suffic$ = him & he became satisfi$ t lugg+ knap-sack1 box & gun 0 h>d] "w ?an gambl+4 ,he quit ! camp1 settl$ d[n at ,b[l+ ,gre51 & op5$ a groc]y & re/aurant1 do+ a v prosp]\s bus9ess4 ,:ile !re1 he _h a sev]e spell ( sickness & came ne> dy+1 b did n s5d = 8 wife & *ild1 :o 7 /ill alone 9 ,na%ville4 ,j be=e ! ,f$]al troops took possession ( ,b[l+ ,gre51 he sold 8 groc]y = a l>ge claim on ! ,conf$]ate ,gov]nm5t :i* a p>ty held = "s guns sold to ! ,conf$]acy4 ,he !n rode horseback f ,b[l+ ,gre5 to ,na%ville1 :]e he rejo9$ 8 wife & *ild4 ,aft] ano!r sev]e spell ( sickness ?r\gh :i* 8 wife nurs$ him1 he left 8 family aga9 9 ^? try+ & fe>ful times & w5t ,s\? to collect 8 claim on ! ,conf$]ate ,gov]nm5t4 ,hav+ succe$$ 9 gett+ x he return$ to ,na%ville ) a l>ge sum ( money4 ,z he _h no legitimate bus9ess to occupy 8 "t & 8 m9d1 he return$ to gambl+ & ?is is 8 own acc\nt ( x3 ,!n ,i began play+ pok] ) bus9ess m5 9 private rooms2 & "o ( ^? bus9ess m5 be+ famili> ) f>o banks1 rop$ u ar\nd to a f>o room to play pok]2 & :ile we 7 play+1 ! f>o deal]1 :o _h capp]s ar\nd1 op5$ up a brace game1 & ! game ( pok] broke up1 & ,i drift$ ov] to ! f>o table1 & did n look on long until ,i began to bet1 & soon lo/ two or ?ree hundr$ doll>s :i* ,i _h 9 my pockets1 & lo/ a little on cr$it1 :i* ,i paid ! next morn+4 ,i lo/ :at ,i _h ! next day1 & kept up t same racket until ,i 0 broke4 ,dur+ ?is "t ,i _h be5 v lib]al ) ! gambl]s1 treat$ !m to oy/] /ews & o!r good ?+s2 & :5 ,i got broke ,i got to sitt+ ar\nd ! gambl+-h\se1 & he>d !m say to ea* o!r1 ',we w h to make ,/eve "o ( ! boys1' & ?us x 0 ,i became famili> ) f>o4 ,,*apt] ,,iii4 ,! initiation ( ,mr4 ,holcombe into ! game ( f>o 0 an epo* 9 8 life4 ,he 0 s fasc9at$ ) x1 & saw s mu* money 9 x1 t he n[ f9ally & delib]ately gave up all attempts at any o!r bus9ess or occupation1 &1 remov+ aga9 to ,l\isville1 9 p>tn]%ip ) a gambl+ fri5d he op5$ up a game or e/abli%$ a h\se ( 8 own = play+ f>o 9 t city4 ,he s5t = 8 family ?9k+ he 0 settl$ = life4 ,alas6 h[ little he knew ( t he>t ( 8 t knew s little ( ,god4 ,he f\nd out lat] :at ,/4 ,augu/9e has s beautifully said = all humanity3 ,?\ ha/ made u = ,?yself & our he>ts f9d no repose till !y repose 9 ,!e4 ,x 0 n long be=e he _h lo/ all 8 money & 0 dead broke aga94 ,x 0 ab\t ?is "t & dur+ ?is resid5ce at ,l\isville1 t1 uncontroll$ by ! grace & p[] ( ,god1 & unt\*$ by ! love t c =give z x hopes to be =giv51 he committ$ ! greate/ crime ( 8 life4 ,a "y man 0 visit+ & c\rt+ a half-si/] ( 8 at ,%ipp+sport1 &1 "u promise ( m>riage1 _h deceiv$ h]4 ,:5 ,mr4 ,holcombe f\nd x out1 he felt enrag$1 & ?\ght x 8 duty to compel him to m>ry h]4 ,b kn[+ himself s well1 & be+ afraid to tru/ himself to speak to ! "y man ab\t x1 he ask$ 8 two old] half-bro!rs to see him & get ! affair settl$4 ,!y refus$ to d s4 ,mr4 ,holcombe !n got a pi/ol & look$ ! man up ) ! delib]ate int5tion ( hav+ ! affair settl$ accord+ to 8 notion ( :at 0 "r1 or kill+ him4 ,he met him at ,%ipp+sport1 ne> ! bank ( ! canal1 & told him :o he 0--= !y sc>cely knew ea* o!r4 ,!n he rem9d$ him ( :at _h occurr$1 & said t ! only ?+ to be done 0 to m>ry ! girl4 ,?is ! man decl9$ to d1 say+3 ,we are z good z m>ri$ n[4 ,he _h sc>cely utt]$ ! words :5 ,mr4 ,holcombe drew 8 d]r+] & %ot him4 ,:5 he fell1 ,mr4 ,holcombe put 8 h& "u ! poor man's neck1 rais$ him up & held him until a doctor c\ld be call$4 ,he 0 t\*$ ) a great feel+ ( pity = 8 victim1 & w\ld h done any?+ 9 8 p[] = him4 ,b all 8 pity & rep5tance c\ld n br+ back ! dy+ man4 ,he w5t into a neighbor+ h\se & wa%$ ! blood f 8 h&s1 b he c\ld n wa% ! blood f 8 consci5ce4 ,9 aft] ye>s ! cry ( ano!r murd]]1 ,deliv] me f blood-guilt9ess1 ,o1 ,god6 0 to bur/ f 8 lips1 & fai? 9 ! blood ( a murd]$ ,*ri/ 0 to br+ ! answ] ( peace to 8 long tr\bl$ s\l4 ,b alas6 alas6 he 0 to add crime to crime & multiply guilt manifold be=e t "t %\ld come4 ,he 0 soon arre/$ & tak5 to jail1 :]e1 aft] "s h\rs1 he 0 in=m$ t ! man 0 dead4 ,"s "t aft]w>d he 0 tri$ by a jury & acquitt$1 ?\gh ! ,commonweal?'s ,attorney1 assi/$ by paid c\nsel1 did all he c\ld to procure 8 conviction4 ,b no human s5t5ce or approval ( public op9ion c quiet a guilty human consci5ce :5 awak5$ by ! ,god ^: sole pr]ogative ( execut+ ju/ice is gu>d$ by ,8 own solemn & awful words1 ,v5geance is m9e2 ,i w repay1 sai? ! ,"l4 ,:5 ! consci5ce is press$ ) a great s5se ( guilt1 x seeks relief by ! way ( contrition & rep5tance1 or x seeks relief by a deep] plunge into s9 & guilt1 z if ! antidote to a poison 7 a l>g] dose ( poison4 ,!re is no middle gr\nd unless x be insanity4 ,nor did ,mr4 ,holcombe f9d any middle gr\nd1 ?\gh he decl>es t he nev] all[$ himself to ?9k ab\t ! kill+ ( ,m>t9 ,mohl]1 & c\ld n be> to he> 8 "n4 ,he _h to keep v busy 9 a c>e] ( s91 h[ev]1 to keep f ?9k+ ab\t x1 & t is exactly ! second alt]native ( ! two describ$ above4 ,aft] ?is1 says ,mr4 ,holcombe1 ,i cont9u$ gambl+1 travel+ ar\nd f place to place1 & at la/ ,i settl$ d[n at ,na%ville & dealt f>o !re4 ,i took my family ) me to ,na%ville4 ,i gambl$ !re = a:ile1 & !n came back to ,l\isville1 :]e ,i op5$ a game = work+ m54 ,b :5 ,i look$ at _! h>d h&s & ?\ght ( _! suff]+ families1 ,i c\ld n be> to take _! money4 ,!n ,i turn$ my /eps t[>d ! ,s\? & l&$ 9 ,augu/a1 ,georgia4 ,i w5t to ,augu/a 9 #ahfi 9 connection ) a man nam$ ,d5nis ,mc,carty4 ,we op5$ !re a big game ( f>o1 :]e ,i did "s ( ! bigge/ gambl+ ,i ev] did 9 my life4 ,on "o occasion ,i play$ sev5-up ) a man & beat him out ( five ?\s& doll>s1 :i* broke him up entirely4 ,let u n[ take a peep into 8 home-life3 ,mrs4 ,holcombe says t 9 ,augu/a he 0 9 ! habit ( /ay+ out = sev]al days & nights at a "t1 a ?+ :i* he _h nev] done be=e4 ,!y liv$ 9 ,augu/a some?+ ov] two ye>s1 & dur+ all t "t %e _h n "o day ( peace4 ,he 0 m reckless ?an he _h ev] be5 be=e4 ,%e suff]$ mo/ f 8 drunk5ness & 8 ungov]nable temp]4 ,sometimes he w\ld come into ! h\se 9 a bad humor & proce$ to v5t 8 wra? on h] & ! furniture2 = he 0 nev] h>% to 8 *ildr51 b on ! contr>y1 excessively indulg5t1 especially to 8 sons4 ,dur+ 8 outbur/s ( ang]1 ,mrs4 ,holcombe always sat p]fectly /ill1 n 9 fe>1 b 9 grief2 = %e knew z little ( fe> z he4 ,_m a "t he has come into ! h\se 9 a bad humor & proce$$ to upset ! d9+-table1 empty+ all ! food onto ! floor & break+ all ! di%es4 ,on "o occasion he came home angry & f\nd 8 wife sitt+ on a s(a 9 ! p>lor4 ,he began to compla9 ( h] & to f9d fault ) h]1 & z h] sil5ce seem$ to provoke him1 he began to curse h]2 & z %e sat & wept 9 sil5ce1 he grew worse & worse1 us+ ! mo/ dreadful oa?s %e ev] he>d4 ,:5 he _h fully v5t$ 8 passion1 he walk$ out & /ood a:ile at ! front gate z if 9 a /udy4 ,!n he walk$ back into ! h\se :]e %e sat1 /ill weep+1 & said1 9 a mild & g5tle tone3 ,well1 ,m>y1 ,i 0 pretty mad a:ile ago1 wasn't ,i8 ,!n he began to apologize & to tell h] h[ sorry he 0 = hav+ talk$ to h] s h>%ly1 & w\nd up by pett+ h]4 ,he 0 at times almo/ insanely jeal\s ( 8 wife1 & if he saw h] ev5 talk+ ) a man1 no matt] :om1 x put him 9 a rage :i* end$ only :5 he _h v5t$ x 9 ! mo/ abusive language to h]4 ,on ano!r occasion1 :ile !y 7 liv+ 9 ,augu/a1 an incid5t occurr$ :i* illu/rates at once h] unexampl$ devotion & 8 unexampl$ depravity4 ,on ! night 9 "q %e _h gone to b$1 b n to sleep4 ,ab\t midnight he came /agg]+ 9 & fell full l5g? on ! floor at ! foot ( ! /airway4 ,%e tri$ to help him up1 b he 0 s dead drunk %e c\ld n lift him4 ,%e left him ly+ at ! foot ( ! /airway & w5t back to b$4 ,b1 ?\gh %e 0 v tir$1 %e c\ld n endure ! ?\ght ( ly+ 9 a com=table b$ :ile h] husb& 0 on ! floor4 ,%e got up1 !re=e1 & w5t d[n /airs aga9 & sat on ! floor beside him 9 h] night-dress till morn+4 ,!n %e left him & w5t up /airs to dress1 t %e might be prep>$ = ! duties ( ! day4 ,:51 "s "t aft]w>d1 %e came back to :]e he 0 ly+1 he abus$ & curs$ h] = leav+ him alone1 &1 be=e 8 tirade 0 end$ he 0 sorry1 & tri$ to smoo? x ov] by say+3 ,i did n ?9k y w\ld leave me4 ,mrs4 ,holcombe says conc]n+ h] life at ?is p]iod3 ,i usually walk$ ! floor1 aft] ! *ildr5 7 9 b$1 till pa/ midnight wait+ = him to come home4 ,"o night 9 p>ticul>1 betwe5 elev5 & twelve o'clock1 ,i he>d a %ot fir$ & ,i he>d a man cry out n f> f ! h\se4 ,i ?\ght x 0 ,mr4 ,holcombe1 & my agony 0 almo/ m ?an ,i c\ld be> :ile wait+ = day to come1 = ,i 0 sure somebody _h %ot him4 ,b betwe5 ?ree & f\r o'clock ,9 ! morn+ he came 91 & 8 com+ br\ght me great relief4 ,!n ano!r "t1 %e goes on to say1 ,i 0 sitt+ by ! w9d[ :5 an express wagon drove up ) a c(f9 9 x4 ,! driv] said to me1 ',does ?is c(f9 belong "h8' ,i und]/ood him to say1 ',does ,mr4 ,holcombe live "h8' ,i ?\ght x 0 ,mr4 ,holcombe & t he _h be5 kill$ & s5t home to me 9 8 c(f94 ,! driv] repeat$ 8 "q twice1 b ,i 0 s p>alyz$ ,i c\ld n answ] him a ^w4 ,f ,augu/a ,mr4 ,holcombe remov$ ) 8 family to ,atlanta1 :]e he made a good deal ( money4 ,mrs4 ,holcombe says conc]n+ _! /ay 9 ,atlanta1 ,my life at ,atlanta 0 no bett] ?an x _h be5 at ,augu/a4 ,mu* ( my "t 0 sp5t 9 walk+ ! floor & griev+4 ,(t5 9 my lonel9ess & sorr[ my lips w\ld cry out1 ',h[ c ,i endure ?is life any long]8' ,i _h n !n become a ,*ri/ian & did n "k :at ,i d n[ ab\t tak+ tr\bles & burd5s to ,god4 ,& yet ,i believe t x 0 ,god :o com=t$ my he>t m ?an once :5 my sorr[ 0 m ?an ,i c\ld be>4 ,i cri$ to ,him )\t kn[+ ,him4 ,all ^! ye>s ,i tri$ to raise my *ildr5 "r1 & ,i taught !m to respect _! fa!r4 ,i hid 8 s9s f !m :5 ,i c\ld1 & :5 ,i c\ld n1 ,i always excus$ him to !m ! be/ ,i c\ld4 ,b ,mr4 ,holcombe in/ead ( aid+ 8 wife's ef=ts to br+ up _! *ildr5 9 ! "r pa?1 (t5 p]v]sely put ob/acles 9 h] way & increas$ h] difficulties1 ?\gh he did try to conceal 8 dr9k+ f !m1 & w\ld nev] all[ 8 boys to h or h&le c>ds4 ,s 9 _m ?+s he 0 a comb9ation ( contradictions4 ,he c\ld n endure1 h[ev]1 = 8 wife to puni% ! *ildr51 & especially ! boys4 ,on "o occasion he came home & ! y\ng] son 0 /ill cry+ f ! puni%m5t inflict$ by 8 "m = wad+ 9 a pond ( wat] ) 8 %oes on4 ,mr4 ,holcombe ask$ him :at 0 ! matt]1 & :5 he f\nd out1 he 0 s angry he made ! boy g & wade 9 ! pond aga9 ) 8 %oes on4 ,& yet ,mrs4 ,holcombe's love = h] husb& nev] wav]$1 & %e lov$ him :5 he 0 at 8 wor/4 ,:ile ,mr4 ,holcombe 0 liv+ 9 ,atlanta he att5d$ ! races 9 ,na%ville1 & :ile !re1 two m5 came along t _h a new ?+ on c>ds1 & !y beat him out ( five or six ?\s& doll>s--broke him1 9 fact4 ,aft] he 0 broke1 he w5t to "o ( ! m5 by ! "n ( ,bu*anan & said1 ,i see t y h got a new trick on c>ds1 & z ,i am well acqua9t$ ?r\gh ! ,s\?1 if y w give x away to me1 we c g toge!r & make money4 ,! man1 aft] "s hesitation1 agre$ to d s4 ,!y w5t 9 p>tn]%ip & travel$ ?r\gh ! ,s\? z f> z ,key ,we/1 ,florida1 /opp+ at ! pr9cipal cities & mak+ money ev]y:]e4 ,at ,key ,we/ he & 8 p>tn] _h a split & sep>at$4 ,f ,key ,we/ ,mr4 ,holcombe cross$ ov] to ,cuba1 & sp5t "s "t 9 ,havana4 ,9 seek+ adv5tures 9 t /range city he made "s v n>r[ escapes1 & 0 glad to get away4 ,on l&+ at ,new ,orleans1 ?\gh he _h a good deal ( money1 ! accumulations ( 8 w9n+s on 8 late t\r ?r\gh ! ,s\?1 he got to play+ aga9/ f>o bank & lo/ all he _h4 ,b he fell 9 ) a "y man ab\t tw5ty ye>s ( age1 f ,georgia1 on 8 way to ,texas1 & became v intimate ) him4 ,f9d+ t ?is "y man _h a draft = #a1jej1 by ! mo/ adroit piece ( maneuv]+ he got ano!r man1 a ?ird p>ty1 to w9 x f him = himself1 & gave ?is ?ird p>ty #ej = do+ x4 ,!n he took *>ge ( ! "y man 9 8 de/itution & di/ress1 paid 8 bill = a day or two at a hotel 9 ,new ,orleans1 & gave him en\gh to pay 8 way on to ,texas4 ,! "y man dep>t$ ?9k+ ,mr4 ,holcombe 0 "o ( ! k9de/ m5 he _h ev] met4 ,! g5tle read]1 if he be a "y man :o ?9ks himself wise en\gh to be intimate ) /rang]s1 might le>n a useful little lesson f ?is "y ,georgian's exp]i5ce z h]e9 detail$4 ,f ,new ,orleans1 ,mr4 ,holcombe w5t by riv] to ,%reveport1 ,l\isiana1 :]e he met aga9 ) 8 =m] p>tn]1 ,bu*anan4 ,!y made up _! diff]5ces & w5t into p>tn]%ip aga91 & 7 successful 9 w9n+ a good deal ( money toge!r4 ,b aft]w>d _! =tunes *ang$ & !y bo? lo/ all !y _h4 ,?is s\r$ ,bu*anan1 :o _h nev] cordially lik$ ,holcombe s9ce _! qu>rel & sep>ation at ,key ,we/4 ,mr4 ,holcombe himself %all n>rate :at took place aft]w>d3 ,dur+ ?is "t we _h be5 sleep+ 9 a room toge!r4 ,bu*anan knew t ,i _h two d]r+] pi/ols4 ,he got ,phil ,spangl] to borr[ "o1 & ,i feel satisfi$ he _h snak$ ! o!r4 ,a fri5d ( m9e1 ,john ,norton1 ask$ me to deal f>o bank1 & ,i got broke1 & ! night t ,i did1 ,i put ! box 9 ! draw] pretty r\ghly1 & made "s pretty r\gh rem>ks4 ,bu*anan 0 pres5t1 b took no exception to :at ,i said t night4 ,! next morn+1 h[ev]1 9 ! b>-room he began to abuse me1 & we abus$ ea* o!r backw>d & =w>d until ,i _h back$ cle> across ! /reet4 ,dur+ ?is "t ,i _h my d]r+] pi/ol out 9 my h&4 ,he _h a big /ick 9 8 h& & a knife 9 8 bosom4 ,:5 we got across ! /reet ,i made ?is rem>k1 ',mr4 ,bu*anan1 ,i d n want to kill y1' ,he 0 !n ab\t t5 feet f me1 & made a /ep t[>d me4 ,i took delib]ate aim at 8 he>t & pull$ ! trigg]1 b ! pi/ol snapp$4 ,he walk$ away f me !n4 ,i ran up to ! hotel :]e ,aleck ,doran 01 kn[+ t 8 six-%oot] 0 always 9 good condition4 ,i borr[$ x & />t$ to hunt ,bu*anan up1 & :5 ,i f\nd him1 he came up to me ) 8 h& out4 ,we made up & h be5 good fri5ds ev] s9ce4 ,aft] we left !re1 ^! p>ties ) :om we _h be5 play+1 got to qu>rel+ among !mselves ab\t ! diff]5t games1 & ! result 0 t ,john ,norton kill$ ,phil ,spangl] & ano!r "o ( ! m54 ,& su* is ! life ( ! gambl]4 ,& su* is too (t51 alas6 ! dea? ( ! gambl]4 ,f ,%reveport he w5t back to ,atlanta :]e 8 family1 consi/+ n[ ( 8 wife1 two sons & two daught]s1 _h rema9$4 ,b he c\ld n be cont5t$ at any "o place4 ,x seem$ impossible = him to be quiet1 no matt] h[ mu* money he 0 mak+4 ,inde$1 ! m he got ! m disquiet$ he seem$1 & yet x 0 8 passion to w9 money4 ,sometimes he w\ld g to 8 home ) 8 pockets full ( x & w\ld p\r x out on ! floor & tell ! *ildr5 to take :at !y want$4 ,he 0 s re/less :5 he _h won l>gely t he c\ld n sleep2 & 8 wife says %e has kn[n him to get up aft] hav+ retir$ late & walk back to ! city to 8 gambl+ h\se to f9d somebody to play )4 ,he seem$ to want to lose 8 money aga94 ,9 fact1 he seem$ happi] :5 he 0 entirely )\t money ?an :5 he _h a great deal4 ,n cont5t$1 !n1 at ,atlanta1 he w5t f !re to ,beau=t1 ,s\? ,c>ol9a1 to gamble ) ! (fic]s ( ! navy4 ,he got into a game ( pok] ) "s ( !m & won all ! money4 ,!n he 0 ready to quit & leave ! place1 b he got into a difficulty ) a man !re ^: diamond p9 he _h 9 pawn = money l5t him1 & ?\gh x be at ! risk ( tax+ ! read]'s pati5ce ) ^! details1 yet1 9 ord] to %[ vividly :at a gambl]'s life is1 we %all let ,mr4 ,holcombe give 8 own acc\nt ( ! affair3 ,?is man 0 ! bully ( ! place4 ,i _h 8 diamond p9 9 pawn = sev5ty-five doll>s1 & ano!r little fell[ ow$ me eighte5 doll>s1 or some?+ l t1 & ,i want$ him to pay me4 ,in/ead ( pay+ me1 h[ev]1 he began to curse & abuse me2 & ,i hit him on ! nose1 knock$ him ov] & bloodi$ x1 & he 0 ble$+ l ev]y?+4 ,he got ov] into ! cr[d2 & "u ! excitem5t ( ! mom5t1 ,i drew my pi/ol & />t$ t[>d him4 ,?is big bully caught me g5tly by ! ve/1 & ask$ me quietly to put up my pi/ol4 ,i did s4 ,!n he said1 ',y c't %oot anybody "h1' ,i said ',i d n want to %oot anybody4' ,i !n ask$ him to turn me loose4 ,he aga9 said ',y c't %oot anybody "h4' ,i !n said1 ',:at is ! matt] ) y8 ,are we n fri5ds8' ,& he said ',no1' & made ! rem>k1 ',i w take y\r pi/ol away f y & beat y\r bra9s out4' ,i /ruck him & knock$ him ov] on a l\nge1 b he rose up & came at me1 & we _h q a tussle ar\nd ! room4 ,! o!rs all ran & left ! h\se1 & ! b>keep] hid4 ,:5 we sep>at$1 ! big fell[ _h q a head on him2 0 all beat5 up4 ,he !n w5t into ! o!r room & sat d[n1 & ! b>keep] came 9 :]e ,i 04 ,i 0 will+ to d or say any?+ to reconcile ?is man1 & ,i said to ! b>keep] t ,i 0 sorry ( ! difficulty1 z ,i lik$ ! man1 :i* 0 a lie1 & a squ>e "o1 = ,i hat$ him f ! mom5t ,i saw him4 ,:5 he he>d :at ,i said1 he came saunt]+ into ! room1 & ,i said to him1 ',i am sorry ?is occurr$1 b y call$ me su* a "n t ,i 0 compell$ to d z ,i did4 ,y "k t y are a brave man2 & if any man _h call$ y su* a "n1 y w\ld h done j z ,i did4' ,he call$ me a li>1 & at x we w5t aga94 ,we sep>at$ ourselves e "t4 ,i got ! be/ ( ! r\nd4 ,aft] t he /epp$ up to ! sidebo>d & got a tumbl]2 b ,i look$ him 9 ! eye s closely t he c\ld n ?r[ x at me1 & he put x d[n4 ,aft] a little m conv]sation1 he />t$ to lift up a heavy spittoon ( iron4 ,i /epp$ back a foot or two1 drew my pi/ol1 & told him if he did n put t d[n1 ,i w\ld kill him4 ,he put x d[n4 ,i !n told ! b>keep] he mu/ come 9 !re & witness ?is ?+1 because ,i expect$ to h to kill him4 ,aft] ! b>keep] came 91 ! man w5t out1 say+1 ',y _h a gun on me to-night1 & ,i w h "o on y to-morr[4' ,feel+ satisfi$ if ,i rema9$1 "o ( u w\ld h to be kill$2 & feel+ t ,i did n want to kill him1 nei!r did ,i want to get kill$ on a cold coll>1 ,i conclud$ to walk out ( ! place4 ,i got ! b>keep] to promise to %ip my trunk to ,atlanta1 & walk$ ?r\gh ! swamps to a /ation f\rte5 miles away1 arriv+ !re "s "t next day4 ,o!r su* exp]i5ces ,mr4 ,holcombe _h en\gh to fill a volume p]haps1 b ^! are suffici5t to give an impression ( :at a gambl]'s life is & to %[ :at 0 ! life ( t same ,/eve ,holcombe :o n[ = elev5 ye>s has be5 a patt]n ( ,*ri/ian usefulness & zeal4 ,aft] sp5d+ a %ort "t at ,atlanta1 he w5t to ,hot ,spr+s1 ,arkansas1 & !n aga9 to ,l\isville1 :]e he op5$ a f>o bank & once m settl$ d[n = life1 z he ?\ght4 ,at any rate = ! fir/ "t 9 8 life he ?\ght ( sav+ a little money1 & he did s1 inve/+ x 9 "s h\ses 9 ! ,we/ ,end4 ,poor man6 he _h w&]$ ne>ly en\gh4 ,he _h almo/ f\nd t re/ c n be f\nd1 at lea/ 9 ! way he 0 seek+ x1 & ! "t 0 approa*+ :5 he w\ld be prep>$ to he> ( ano!r sort & s\rce ( re/4 ,until he %\ld be prep>$1 x w\ld be va9 to s5d him ! message4 ,to give ! tru? to "s p to-day w\ld be to ca/ pe>ls be=e sw9e1 to give x to !m to-morr[ may be re-clo?+ bani%$ pr9ces ) due tok5s ( welcome & ( royalty4 ,to h told ,/eve ,holcombe ( ,*ri/ yet a:ile w\ld probably h excit$ 8 wond] & disgu/2 to tell him a little lat] w be to welcome a long-lo/1 long-enslav$ & p]i%+ *ild to 8 ,fa!r's h\se & to all ! lib]ty ( ! sons ( ,god4 ,s he ?\ght ( sav+ a little money & ( inve/+ 9 "s cottages 9 ! we/ end ( ,l\isville4 ,& ,god 0 ?9k+1 too1 & ,he 0 ?9k+ ?\ghts ( k9dness & ( love = ! poor wick$ outca/4 ,he 0 m ?an ?9k+1 ,he 0 gett+ ?+s ready4 ,b ! "t 0 n yet4 ,a few m w&]+s & ! s9n+ "o1 foot-sore1 he>t-sore & we>y w be will+ to come to ! ,fa!r's h\se & re/4 ,tru? & ,god are always ready1 b man is n always ready4 ,i h _m ?+s to say to y1 b y c n be> !m n[4 ,8 income at ,l\isville at ?is "t 0 betwe5 five & sev5 ?\s& doll>s a ye>4 ,he _h a l>ge int]e/ 9 ! bank & "s nights he w\ld take 9 hundr$s ( doll>s4 ,b he c\ld n be cont5t$4 ,! rov+ passion seiz$ him aga91 & 9 company ) a "y man ( f9e family 9 ,l\isville1 :o _h j inh]it$ five ?\s& doll>s1 he set out on a circuit ( ! races4 ,b 9 ,lex+ton1 ! v fir/ place !y visit$1 !y lo/ all !y _h1 includ+ ! "y man's jewelry1 wat* & diamond p94 ,!y got m money & o!r p>tn]s & />t$ aga9 on ! circuit & !y made money4 ,at ,kalamazoo1 ,mi*igan1 ,mr4 ,holcombe )drew f ! p>ty1 j = ! sake ( *ange1 j because he 0 tir$ ( !m2 & 9 play+ aga9/ ! f>o banks at ,kalamazoo he lo/ all he _h aga94 ,!n he travel$ ar\nd to diff]5t places play+ aga9/ f>o banks & cat*+ on :5 he c\ld4 ,he visit$ ,=t ,wayne1 ,clevel&1 ,utica1 ,s>atoga & ,new ,york4 ,at ,new ,york he 0 broke & he _h become s disgu/$ ) travel+ ar\nd & s we>y ( ! _w t he det]m9$ he w\ld g back to ,l\isville & settle d[n = life4 ,he did return to ,l\isville & got an int]e/ 9 two gambl+ h\ses1 mak+ = him an income aga9 ( five ?\s& doll>s a ye>4 ,dur+ all ^! ye>s 8 fai?ful wife1 ?\gh n pr(ess+ to be a ,*ri/ian h]self1 endeavor$ 9 all possible ways to lead h] *ildr5 to become ,*ri/ians4 ,%e taught !m to pray ! be/ %e c\ld1 & s5t !m to ,sunday-s*ool4 ,aft] h] fir/ *ild 0 born %e gave up ^? worldly amusem5ts :i* be=e %e _h1 to please h] husb&1 p>ticipat$ 9 ) him--a good example = ,*ri/ian mo!rs4 ,%e 0 9 cont9ual dread le/ ! *ildr5 %\ld gr[ up to foll[ ! fa!r's example4 ,%e always tri$ to conceal f !m ! fact ( 8 be+ a gambl]4 ,! two daught]s1 ,mamie & ,ir5e1 did n1 :5 good-siz$ girls & go+ to s*ool1 "k _! fa!r's bus9ess4 ,!y 7 ask$ at s*ool :at 8 occupation 01 & c\ld n tell4 ,m ?an once !y ask$ _! "m1 b %e evad$ ! "q by say+1 ,he isn't engag$ 9 any "w j n[1 or 9 "s su* way4 ,mrs4 ,holcombe begg$ h] husb& aga9 & aga9 n to cont9ue gambl+4 ,%e says1 ,i told him ,i 0 will+ to live on bread & wat]1 if he w\ld quit x4 ,& %e w\ld n lay up any ( ! money he w\ld give h]1 nor use any m ( x ?an 0 necess>y = h]self & ! *ildr51 = %e felt t x 0 n rightly gott54 ,& because %e w\ld nei!r lay x up nor use x lavi%ly1 %e _h no?+ to d b let ! *ildr5 take x to play ) & to give away4 ,"u ! tra9+ ( su* a "m ) su* pati5ce1 love & fai?1 x is no great m>vel1 & yet p]haps x is a great m>vel1 t ,willie1 ! elde/ *ild1 not)/&+ ! fa!r's example1 grew up to disc]n good1 to desire good & to be good4 ,:ile he 0 /ill a *ild1 :5 8 fa!r came home drunk1 ! w\nd$ & wond]+ *ild w\ld beg him n to dr9k any m4 ,mrs4 ,holcombe says ( him fur!r1 ,:5 ,willie w\ld see 8 fa!r on ! /reet dr9k+1 ,i h se5 him1 :5 twelve ye>s old1 jump (f ! c>1 g to 8 fa!r & beg him ) te>s to g home ) him4 ,& ,i nev] saw ,mr4 ,holcombe refuse to g4 ,9 ?is way ! boy grew up ) a disgu/ & horror ( drunk5ness & dr9k+1 & :5 9 ! ye> #ahgg ! great temp]ance movem5t 0 roll+ ov] ! c\ntry & meet+s 7 held ev]y:]e1 & 9 ,l\isville also1 ?\gh ! boy _h nev] drunk any intoxicat+ liquor 9 8 life1 he sign$ ! pl$ge4 ,he took 8 c>d home ) 8 "n sign$ to x1 & :5 8 fa!r saw x1 he 0 v angry ab\t x4 ,& yet1 /range to say1 on t v ev5+ ! fa!r himself att5d$ ! meet+2 & on ! next ev5+ he w5t aga91 9 company ) 8 wife4 ,dur+ ! progress ( ! meet+ he turn$ to 8 wife & said1 ,m>y1 %all ,i g up & sign ! pl$ge8 ,conceal+ h] emotions z be/ %e c\ld1 le/ ! %[ ( x might disgu/ & repel him1 %e repli$1 ,yes1 ,/eve1 ,willie & ,i w\ld be v glad if y w\ld1 & he did s4 ,"s "t aft] t1 ,willie ask$ 8 fa!r & "m if !y w\ld accompany him to ! ,broadway ,bapti/ *ur* 9 ! city to see him baptiz$4 ,:ile witness+ ! baptism ( 8 son1 ,mr4 ,holcombe made up 8 m9d t he w\ld quit gambl+1 & z he w5t out ( ! *ur*1 he said to 8 wife1 ,i w nev] play ano!r c>d4 ,"s fri5d ( 8 :o ov]head ! rem>k said to him1 ,/eve1 y _h bett] /udy ab\t t4 ,he answ]$1 ,no1 ,i h made up my m9d4 ,i wi% y w\ld tell ! boys = me t !y may c\nt me out4 ,!y may /op my int]e/ 9 ! banks4 ,i am done4 ,8 wife1 :o 0 hang+ on 8 arm1 c\ld no long] n[ conceal h] emotions1 nor did %e try4 ,%e laugh$ & cri$ = joy4 ,god 0 say+ to h]1 ,m>y1 ?y toils & te>s1 ?y suff]+s & pati5ce h come up = a memorial be=e me1 & ,i w s5d a man :o w tell !e :at ?\ oughte/ to d1 & speak to !e words :]eby ?\ & all ?y h\se %all be sav$4 ,mr4 ,holcombe 0 z good z 8 ^w4 ,he did give up gambl+ f t "t4 ,b he _h _h s little exp]i5ce 9 bus9ess t he 0 at a great loss :at to d4 ,f9ally1 h[ev]1 he decid$ to g into ! produce & commission bus9ess z he _h _h "s exp]i5ce 9 t l9e ye>s be=e 9 ,na%ville1 & z t requir$ no great outlay ( money = a beg9n+4 ,all ! money he _h 0 ti$ up 9 ! h\ses :i* he _h b\ght 9 ,portl&1 ! we/]n suburb ( ,l\isville4 ,he 0 liv+ 9 "o ( ^! himself1 b he n[ det]m9$ to r5t x out & to remove to ! city t he might be ne>] 8 bus9ess4 ,"o day 9 ,octob]1 #ahgg1 a /rang] ent]$ 8 place ( bus9ess1 on ,ma9 /reet1 &1 call+ = ,mr4 ,holcombe1 said3 ,i see y h a h\se = r5t 9 ,portl&4 ,yes1 said he1 ,i h4 ,well1 said ! /rang]1 ,i l y\r h\se2 b z my income is n l>ge1 ,i %\ld be glad to get x at z l[ a r5t z y c all[4 ,mr4 ,holcombe repli$3 ,i am r press$ = money n[ myself1 b maybe we c make a trade4 ,:at is y\r bus9ess8 ,i am a ,me?odi/ m9i/]1 & am j s5t to ! *ur* 9 ,portl&1 & y "k x c n pay v mu* ( a sal>y4 ,t settles x !n1 sir1 said ,mr4 ,holcombe1 ) t abruptness & positiv5ess :i* are s *>act]i/ic ( him1 ,i am a notori\s gambl]1 &1 ( c\rse1 y w\ld n want to live 9 a h\se ( m9e4 ,he expect$ t w\ld be ! end ( ! matt]1 & he look$ to see ! m9i/] %r9k f him & leave at once 8 pres5ce & 8 h\se4 ,on ! contr>y1 ! m9i/]1 ?\gh kn[+ no?+ ( ,mr4 ,holcombe's rec5t re=mation1 yet see+ 8 s5sitiv5ess1 admir+ 8 c&or & hop+ to be able to d him "s good1 laid 8 h& k9dly on 8 %\ld] & said3 ,oh no1 my bro!r2 ,i d n object to liv+ 9 y\r h\se2 & :o kn[s b t ?is int]view w result 9 good to u bo?1 9 m ways ?an "o8 ,mr4 ,holcombe's impression 0 t m9i/]s ( ! ,gospel 71 9 _! own e/imation1 & 9 fact1 too good = gambl]s to t\* ! hem ( _! g>m5ts1 & t m9i/]s _h1 = ?is reason1 z little use & z great contempt = gambl]s z ! av]age gambl] has1 on ! v same acc\nt1 = m9i/]s4 ,b he f\nd1 to 8 amazem5t1 t he 0 mi/ak51 & :5 ! m9i/] invit$ him to come to 8 *ur* he said1 n to ! m9i/]1 yet he said3 ,yes1 ,i w g1 ,i nev] _h a good man to call me 'bro!r' be=e4 ,& he kn[s :at ,i am1 = ,i told him4 ,i am s tir$2 ,i am s sp5t4 ,maybe he c tell me :at to d & h[ to g4 ,if ,sunday ev] comes1 ,i w g to t man's *ur*4 ,& :5 ,sunday came ! m9i/] & ! gambl] fac$ ea* o!r aga94 ,) a great s5se ( 8 responsibility & insuffici5cy ! prea*] decl>$ ! message ( 8 ,"l1 n z he wi%$1 b z he c\ld4 ,to ! usual invitation to jo9 ! *ur* nobody respond$4 ,aft] ! b5$iction1 h[ev]1 ,mr4 ,holcombe walk$ d[n ! aisle to ! pulpit & said to ! m9i/]3 ,h[ does a man jo9 ! *ur*8 ,he _h n att5d$ *ur* = tw5ty-?ree ye>s1 & _h be5 engag$ 9 su* a life t he _h =gott5 :at little he knew4 ,! m9i/] in=m$ him4 ,!n1 said he1 may ,i jo9 y\r *ur*8 ,y are welcome1 & m ?an welcome1 repli$ ! m9i/]1 & ! p wond]$4 ,f ! day ,i jo9$ 8 *ur*1 says ,mr4 ,holcombe1 t m9i/] seem$ to und]/& me bett] ?an ,i und]/ood myself4 ,he seem$ to "k & did tell me my own secrets4 ,he l$ me into an und]/&+ ( myself & my situation4 ,i saw n[ :at _h be5 ! cause ( my re/lessness1 my w&]+s1 my we>9ess & my woe4 ,i saw :at x 0 ,i ne$$1 & ,i pray$ z e>ne/ly z ,i knew h[ f t "t4 ,i att5d$ all ! s]vices--prea*+1 ,sunday-s*ool1 pray]-meet+1 class-meet+ 9 any & all k9ds ( wea!r1 walk+ frequ5tly all ! way f ,second /reet to ,portl&1 a di/ance ( ?ree miles1 because ,i 0 mak+ too little to all[ me to ride on ! /reet-c>s4 ,b ) all ?is1 ,i felt some?+ 0 yet want+4 ,i began to see t ,i c\ld n make any advance 9 goodness & happ9ess s long z ,i 0 burd5$ ) ! un=giv5 guilt ( =ty ye>s ( s9 & crime4 ,x grew worse & heavi] until ,i felt ,i mu/ h relief1 if relief c\ld be _h4 ,"o day ,i w5t 9 ! back (fice ( my bus9ess h\se1 aft] ! o!rs _h all gone home1 & %ut myself up & det]m9$ to /ay !re & pray until ,i %\ld f9d relief4 ,! room 0 d>k1 & ,i _h pray$1 ,i "k n h[ long1 :5 su* a great s5se ( relief & gladness & joy came to me t x seem$ to me z if a light _h flood$ ! room1 & ! only words ,i c\ld utt] or ?9k ( 7 ^! ?ree3 ',jesus ( ,naz>e?4' ,x seem$ to me !y 7 ! sweete/ words ,i _h ev] he>d4 ,nev]1 till !n1 did ! feel+ ( blood-guilt9ess leave me4 ,x 0 only ! blood ( ,*ri/ t c\ld wa% f my consci5ce ! blood ( my fell[man4 ,z 9 8 case1 s always1 9 proportion z a man is 9 e>ne/ ab\t =sak+ s91 w he desire ! assurance ( ! =giv5ess ( pa/ s9s1 & vice v]sa4 ,b ,mr4 ,holcombe did n f9d ?is an end ( difficulty & trial & conflict--f> f x4 ,inde$1 x 0 ! prep>ation = conflict1 & ! entrance ^u x4 ,hi!rto1 9 8 old life1 he _h made no resi/ance to 8 evil nature1 & !re 0 no conflict ) ! _w1 ! fle% & ! devil4 ,b su* a nature z 8 0 n to be conqu]$ & subject$ to entire & easy control 9 a day4 ,8 passions w\ld revive1 8 old habits w\ld re-ass]t !mselves1 pov]ty p9*$ him1 p misund]/ood him1 failure aft] failure 9 bus9ess disc\rag$ him4 ,h5ce1 he ne$$ con/ant & c>eful guidance & an unfail+ sympa?y4 ,& he ?us ref]s to ! help he receiv$ f 8 pa/or 9 ^? try+ days3 ,see+ ! great necessity ( giv+ me mu* att5tion & mak+ me feel at home 9 8 pres5ce & 9 ! pres5ce ( 8 wife1 he sp5t mu* "t 9 my company1 & ) lov+ pati5ce bore ) my ignorance1 dullness & sl[ness4 ,9 ?is way ,i became s mu* atta*$ to him t ,i _h no ne$ or desire = my old associations4 ,he l$ me along till ,i 0 entirely wean$ f all desire = my old s9ful life & habits4 ,i ?9k he gave me ?is close att5tion = ab\t two ye>s1 :5 he felt t x 0 be/ = me to lean m ^u ,god & less ^u him4 ,mr4 ,holcombe receiv$ cont9ual k9dness & enc\ragem5t f ! m9i/]'s wife also1 :o n only _h = him always a cordial greet+ & a k9dly ^w ( *e]1 b :o took great pleasure 9 ent]ta9+ him frequ5tly 9 _! home4 ,x 0 a p]petual b5$iction to him to "k h]1 to see ! daily beauty ( h] fai?ful life1 to feel ! influ5ce ( h] heav5ly _s4 ,) quick intuition %e recogniz$ ! s9c]ity & int5sity ( ,mr4 ,holcombe's desires & ef=ts to be a ,*ri/ian man2 ) ready insight %e compreh5d$ ! situation & saw 8 difficulties & ne$s1 & ) a v ,*ri/like self-=getfulness & joy %e m9i/]$ to ?is /ruggl+ s\l4 ,n only ,mr4 ,holcombe1 b all :o ev] knew h]1 :e!r 9 adv]sity or prosp]ity1 :e!r 9 sickness or 9 heal?1 admir$ ! beauty & felt ! quiet unconsci\s p[] ( h] "*4 ,z = ,mr4 ,holcombe himself1 8 m+l$ feel+ ( rev]5ce = h] sa9tl9ess & ( gratitude = h] si/]l9ess l$ him always to speak ( h] 9 t]ms t he did n apply to any o!r p]son :om he knew4 ,he c\ld nev] cease to m>vel t "o ( h] education1 position & t5d] womanl9ess %\ld take su* pa9s & h su* pleasure 9 help+1 ent]ta9+ & s]v+ su* z he4 ,a few ye>s only 0 he bless$ ) ! helpfulness ( h] fri5d%ip4 ,9 #ahhe1 :5 %e 0 j pa/ ! age ( ?irty-"o1 h] t5d] feet grew s tir$ t %e c\ld g no fur!r 9 ?is r\gh _w1 & ,*ri/ took h] away4 ,few 7 m deeply b]eav$ ?an ! poor conv]t$ gambl]1 & :5 he 0 ask$ if he w\ld s]ve z "o ( ! pallbe>]s on ! occasion ( h] fun]al1 he bur/ into te>s & repli$1 ,i am n wor?y1 ,i am n wor?y4 ,if ^? :o knew h]--little *ildr5 ( t5d] ye>s1 "y m5 & wom51 p]plex$ on life's ?re%old & desir+ to ent] 9 at ! /rait gate1 p ( rank & weal?1 p 9 pov]ty & ignorance1 worldly-m9d$ p :om %e _h unconsci\sly attract$1 exp]i5c$ ,*ri/ians :om %e unconsci\sly help$1 &1 mo/ ( all1 h] husb& & *ildr5 :o knew h] be/--if all ^! %\ld be ask$1 all ^! w\ld agree t ,/4 ,paul has writt5 h] fitt+ epitaph3 ,well report$ ( = good works2 ,if %e h br\ght up *ildr51 ,if %e h lodg$ /rang]s1 ,if %e h wa%$ ! sa9ts' feet1 ,if %e h reliev$ ! afflict$1 ,if %e h dilig5tly foll[$ e good "w4 ,x 0 n long aft] ,mr4 ,holcombe's conv]sion be=e 8 entire family became memb]s ( ! *ur*4 ,?\gh ?is 0 to him cause ( unspeakable joy & gratitude1 x did n m>k ! limit ( 8 love & zeal4 ,f ! "t ( 8 conv]sion he _h a deep & bro!rly sympa?y = all :o 7 )\t ! k & joy he _h come into ! possession (1 b he felt a special int]e/ 9 ! salvation ( ! wret*$ & ! outca/1 & ( ! m5 ( 8 own class & =m] occupation :o 7 z ignorant z he 0 ( ^! high] ?+s & z %ut out f opportunities ( kn[+ !m4 ,s t f ! v beg9n+ ( 8 ,*ri/ian life he und]took to help o!rs1 & :5 !y 7 9 ne$1 n /opp+ to ?9k ( any o!r way1 he took !m to 8 own h\se4 ,?is1 ) ! support ( 8 own family1 increas$ ! co/ ( 8 liv+ to su* an ext5t t he 0 soon surpris$ & pa9$ to f9d t he c\ld n c>ry on 8 bus9ess4 ,he _h tak5 to 8 home1 also1 ! fa!r ( 8 wife1 :om he c>$ = till 8 dea?4 ,& 9 a %ort "t he 0 s press$ = means t he _h to mortgage 8 prop]ty = money to g into ano!r k9d ( bus9ess4 ,:5 x 0 fir/ report$ t ,/eve ,holcombe1 "o ( ! mo/ successful1 d>+ & fam\s gambl]s 9 ! ,s\?1 _h be5 conv]t$ & _h jo9$ ! *ur*1 ! usual pr$ictions 7 made t 9 less ?an ?ree mon?s1 etc41 he w\ld see 8 mi/ake or yield to disc\ragem5ts & return to 8 old life ( self-indulg5ce & ease4 ,b :5 m5 pass$ & repass$ ! corn] :]e ?is man _h a little fruit /ore & 0 try+ to make an hone/ liv+ = 8 family1 _! ?\ghts became m s]i\s & _! que/ions deep5 ,/eve _h got some?+ or some?+ _h got him4 ,he 0 n ! man ( =m] times4 ,& mo/ ( 8 fri5ds1 ! gambl]s includ$1 :5 !y saw ?is1 7 glad1 & :ile !y wond]$ wi%$ him well4 ,b !re 0 "o man engag$ 9 bus9ess j across ! /reet f ! little fruit /ore1 :o ) a patroniz+ air b\ght little fruits f ,mr4 ,holcombe1 & !n sp5t 8 leisure 9 discussions & argum5ts to prove n only t he _h made a big blund] 9 becom+ a ,*ri/ian1 b t religion 0 all a %am1 ! ,bible a n v cunn+ly devis$ fable & t ,mr4 ,+]soll 0 ! greate/ man ( ! day1 because he _h %att]$ ^! delusions4 ,mr4 ,holcombe pati5tly he>d x all1 & p]haps did n frame z cog5t or logical an answ] to ?is man's sophi/ries z he c\ld d n[1 b he felt 9 8 own he>t & he saw 9 8 own life t he 0 a new man4 ,he felt a pr(\nd pity = 8 fri5d :o knew n nor c>$ = any ( ^! ?+s1 & he liv$ on 8 humble1 pati5t1 uncompla9+ ,*ri/ian life4 ,x may n be out ( place to add z ! sequel ( ?is little episode t ! te/imony ( ?is man across ! way1 :o 0 su* an unbeliev] & sc(f]1 is giv5 else:]e 9 ?is volume1 & d\btless w be recogniz$ by ! read]4 ,mr4 ,holcombe's life 0 too mu* = 8 logic4 ,:5 ,mr4 ,holcombe _h fail$ 9 e k9d ( bus9ess t he und]took1 8 prop]ty 0 =c$ on ! m>ket & no?+ 0 left him f ! sale ( x4 ,*ri/ian m5 ( means might h help$ him & ought to h help$ him1 b = reasons kn[n to !mselves !y did n4 ,p]haps !y 7 afraid to take hold ( s t\gh a case z ,/eve ,holcombe 0 kn[n to h be51 p]haps !y saw he 0 n an exp]i5c$ bus9ess man1 p]haps !y felt indispos$ to help a man :o 0 s incapable ( economy & s g5]\s 9 ent]ta9+ 8 fri5ds & help+ ! ne$y4 ,greatly press$1 he w5t at la/ to 8 half-bro!r ) :om 9 =m] ye>s he _h be5 associat$ z p>tn] 9 bus9ess1 & putt+ 8 case & condition be=e him ask$ = employm5t4 ,b 8 half-bro!r decl9$ on ! spot1 giv+ z 8 %ort & sole reason t he believ$ ,mr4 ,holcombe 0 a hypocrite & 0 mak+ believe t he 0 a ,*ri/ian = "s s9i/] purpose4 ,?is 0 ! mo/ unk9de/ cut ( all & = days ! poor w\nd$ man felt ! iron 9 8 s\l4 ,dur+ 8 =m] life he w\ld h c>$ no?+ = su* treatm5t4 ,a ru9$ "* is b5umb$ l a p>alyz$ limb1 b a reviv$ & rep5tant s\l is full ( s5sitive n]ves & feels ! slighte/ slight or ! smalle/ w\nd4 ,he f\nd out mon?s aft]w>d1 h[ev]1 t 8 half-bro!r 0 already los+ 8 m9d & 0 n responsible = ?is extraord9>y behavior4 ,he tri$ & 8 fri5ds tri$ ev]y:]e & e way to f9d employm5t = him1 b he c\ld get no?+ to d4 ,8 money 0 all gone1 8 prop]ty 0 all gone1 he sold 8 piano1 he sold 8 ,brussels c>pets1 he remov$ f place to place1 foll[+ *eap] r5t till at la/ he took 8 family to a g>ret4 ,x 0 n[ two ye>s s9ce 8 conv]sion4 ,dur+ ^! two ye>s he _h done no?+ to br+ reproa* on 8 pr(ession or to give gr\nd = a d\bt ( 8 s9c]ity4 ,he _h n only liv$ a consi/5t life himself1 he _h /riv5 e>ne/ly to help o!rs to d s4 ,he assi/$ 9 hold+ meet+s 9 ,%ipp+sport1 & ! p m>vel$ & magnifi$ ! grace ( ,god 9 him4 ,b he 0 ) 8 family on ! po9t ( />vation4 ,:5 at la/ ev]y?+ _h be5 tri$ & no relief 0 f\nd1 9 8 desp]ation he ?\ght ( ! improbable possibility ( f9d+ some?+1 at lea/ some?+ to d1 9 ! ,we/1 & he decid$ to g to ,colorado4 ,9 ,l\isville1 :]e he 0 suff]+ & :]e 8 family 0 suff]+1 he c\ld h return$ to gambl+ & h be5 indep5d5t 9 a mon?4 ,he c\ld h be5 liv+ 9 a com=table h\se2 he c\ld h _h1 z he 0 wont1 ! be/ ! m>ket af=d$ = 8 table1 he c\ld h deck$ himself ) jewelry & diamonds1 he c\ld soon h be5 once m 9 position to sp5d1 z he _h regul>ly done1 f two to t5 doll>s a day = ! m]e luxuries ( life4 ,he c\ld h done all ?is & he c\ld d all ?is ev5 yet2 = ev5 yet he is 9 ! prime ( life & p[]4 ,b he did n1 & he does n4 ,he did n turn ,*ri/ian because he _h play$ out z a gambl]4 ,he did n turn to ,*ri/ianity because =tune _h turn$ away f him4 ,b he turn$ away himself f =tune :5 he 0 =tune's pet1 9 ord] to turn to a bett] & wor?i] life4 ,:5 he _h decid$ to g to ,colorado1 he w5t to 8 pa/or & told him4 ,! pa/or 0 a/oni%$1 al>m$4 ,aft] two ye>s & m ( fai?ful & self-d5y+ s]vice 0 8 fri5d & bro!r ab\t to give away8 ,0 ?is a plan to get away into a f> c\ntry :]e he might turn aga9 to s98 ,he reason$ ) him1 he appeal$ to him1 he bes\ght him4 ,he tri$ to picture ! p]ils ( ! j\rney & ! p]ils ( ! place4 ,he rem9d$ ,mr4 ,holcombe ( ! condition1 z f> z he knew x1 ( 8 family4 ,b all to no purpose4 ,he committ$ 8 fri5d tru/fully to ,god & gave x up4 ,b1 said ! pa/or1 h[ are y go+ to get !re8 ,i am go+ to walk f place to place & "w my way out4 ,i c n /ay "h1 ,i c get no?+ to d & ,i mu/ try else:]e4 ,i am desp]ate4 ,!n1 said ! pa/or1 if y\r m9d is made up & y are go+1 ,i c let y h "s money4 ,i h ab\t sixty-"o doll>s 9 bank :i* ,i laid aside :5 a s+le man1 to use = ,*ri/1 & if t w pay y\r way out1 y c h x4 ,*ri/ has call$ = 8 own4 ,he accept$ x ) te>s1 left a few doll>s ( x ) 8 wife &1 ) ! re/1 />t$ = ,leadville4 ,:5 he fir/ l&$ at ,d5v]1 he met an old fri5d1 ,john ,*i%olm1 ) :om he _h gambl$ 9 ,atlanta4 ,?is man _h left ,atlanta on acc\nt ( hav+ kill$ somebody !re1 & _h made a consid]able am\nt ( money 9 ,cali=nia4 ,he _h n[ come to ,d5v] & op5$ a game ( f>o4 ,:5 he saw ,mr4 ,holcombe on ! /reet1 he said3 ,y are j ! man ,i want4 ,i h op5$ a game ( f>o "h1 & ,i am afraid ,i c n protect myself4 ,i w give y a good int]e/ if y w g 9 ) me4 ,mr4 ,holcombe repli$3 ,yes1 ,john2 b ,i am a ,*ri/ian n[1 & c n deal f>o4 ,i "k1 said ! man1 y 7 a ,*ri/ian 9 ,l\isville1 b y are a long ways f !re4 ,yes1 ,mr4 ,holcombe said1 b a true ,*ri/ian is a ,*ri/ian ev]y:]e4 ,not)/&+1 he insi/$ on ,mr4 ,holcombe's go+ to 8 room to see ano!r old ,atlanta fri5d4 ,he did s1 b felt s mu* out ( place !re t he did n rema9 t5 m9utes4 ,f ,d5v] he conclud$ to g to ,silv] ,cliff in/ead ( ,leadville4 ,:5 he arriv$ 9 t /range village1 8 money 0 all gone & he lack$ fifte5 c5ts ( hav+ en\gh to pay ! /age-driv]4 ,x 0 ab\t sund[n1 says he1 :5 ,i got !re4 ,i did n "k a liv+ s\l4 ,i _h n a c5t ( money4 ,my c\rage fail$ me4 ,i broke d[n & wept l a *ild4 ,hav+ a good trunk he knew he w\ld n be ask$ to pay 9 advance1 & he w5t to a hotel & sp5t ! night4 ,9 ! morn+ he walk$ out aft] breakfa/ to see :at sort ( a place he _h gott5 into4 ,z he /ood at ! po/-(fice1 he saw across ! /reet :at he recogniz$ z a gambl+-h\se1 ev]y?+ wide op51 no attempt at concealm5t or privacy4 ,he ask$ "s "o out ( curiosity :o 0 ! proprietor1 & f\nd t two ( 8 old acqua9tances 7 runn+ ! h\se4 ,he c\ld easily1 & at once1 h gott5 a situation ) !m1 & c\ld soon h _h money to relieve 8 own wants & ! wants ( 8 family4 ,b he _h already /ood sev]e te/s1 & _h n[ arriv$ at a po9t :]e he _h no incl9ation :atev] to gamble & felt no temptation to procure money 9 t way or f t s\rce4 ,he did n ev5 look = ! proprietors ( ! e/abli%m5t or let !m "k he 0 9 ! village4 ,b :ile he 0 /&+ !re1 ?9k+ ( 8 condition & wond]+ :at he %\ld d1 he ov]he>d a man say t a d9+-room wait] 0 want$ at ! ,c>bonate hotel1 ! "o at :i* he _h sp5t ! night4 ,he w5t at once to ! hotel1 made application = ! place1 & 0 accept$ at a sal>y ( tw5ty-five doll>s a mon? & bo>d4 ,he 0 fill$ ) ?ankfulness & joy1 & he has decl>$ s9ce1 t ?\gh1 on "o night dur+ 8 gambl+ life1 he _h won ?ree ?\s& doll>s 9 money1 ! satisfaction :i* he felt !n c\ld n be comp>$ ) t :i* he felt n[ :5 ! hotel-proprietor gave him ?is position ( d9+-room wait] at a sal>y ( tw5ty-five doll>s a mon?4 ,he ent]$ at once ^u 8 duties4 ,to 8 great surprise he f\nd sev]al ,l\isville g5tlem5 /opp+ at ! hotel1 "s ( :om _h kn[n him 9 o!r days & circum/ances1 & :om he _h bo>d$ ) at hotels :]e he paid five doll>s a day1 ) two to f\r doll>s a day1 extra1 = w9e & cig>s4 ,b1 not)/&+ t1 he 0 n a%am$ ( 8 pres5t position4 ,on ! contr>y1 he 0 v ?ankful = x & happy 9 x4 ,he did su* fai?ful s]vice !re t ! proprietor became int]e/$ 9 him & %[$ him mu* k9dness4 ,dur+ 8 /ay at ,silv] ,cliff he did n neglect any opportunity ( do+ good to o!rs4 ,"o day1 :5 he 0 /&+ 9 ! door ( ! po/-(fice1 a man1 ^: "n he aft]w>d f\nd to be ,james ,lewis1 came 91 got a lett] & sat d[n on ! /ep "r "u ,mr4 ,holcombe to read x4 ,z he read x1 he 0 mu* affect$ & te>s 7 runn+ d[n 8 h>d5$ face4 ,mr4 ,holcombe became s int]e/$ t he read ! man's lett] ov] 8 %\ld]4 ,x 0 f 8 wife1 :o1 ) h] ?ree *ildr51 _h left h] husb& on acc\nt ( 8 drunk5ness4 ,mr4 ,holcombe made up 8 m9d he w\ld see if he c\ld d some?+ = ! poor man to bett] 8 condition1 &1 if possible1 br+ ab\t ! reunion ( ! family4 ,he did n l to approa* him !n & !re4 ,he wat*$ him till he got up & mov$ away & />t$ d[n ?r\gh an alley4 ,z he em]g$ f ! alley1 at ! f>!r end1 ,mr4 ,holcombe1 :o _h gone ar\nd ano!r way1 met him4 ,little did ! man suspect t ! /rang] :o acco/$ him knew 8 tr\ble & 8 family secrets4 ,mr4 ,holcombe1 ) t tact :i* 8 k ( m5 _h giv5 him1 spoke to him k9dly1 b 9 a way t w\ld n ar\se 8 suspicions4 ,he told him1 aft] a little :ile1 8 own condition 9 t f>-(f l& away f 8 family & fri5ds4 ,he f\nd out f ! man :]e he /ay$4 ,he w5t to see him1 f\nd t he slept 9 a /able1 provid$ him ) "s ?+s he ne$$1 & !n got d[n on 8 knees !re 9 ! /able & pray$ = him4 ,f9ally1 :5 ! prop] "t _h come1 ,mr4 ,holcombe %[$ him a ,murphy pl$ge & ask$ him if he w\ld n sign x4 ,he told him :at he himself _h be5 be=e1 & :at he _h become1 s9ce sign+ t pl$ge4 ,! man gave ,mr4 ,holcombe 8 confid5ce1 unbosom$ himself to him & eag]ly s\ght c\nsel4 ,he sign$ ! pl$ge also & said he w\ld1 by ,god's help1 give up 8 s9s t _h sep>at$ him f a lov+ wife1 & w\ld try to live a bett] life4 ,mr4 ,holcombe wrote to ! man's wife in=m+ h] ( ! *ange 9 h] husb& & ! ef=t he 0 mak+ to d "r4 ,%e came at once to ,silv] ,cliff & ,mr4 ,holcombe _h ! pleasure ( see+ !m reunit$ & ate ) !m 9 _! humble cab94 ,:5 he _h be5 "s "t at ! ,c>bonate hotel1 he f\nd a position :]e he c\ld make m money & work$ !re till he _h sav$ en\gh to buy an outfit = prospect+ 9 ! m\nta9s4 ,?is outfit consi/$ ( a little donkey1 sev]al agricultural implem5ts = subv]t+ t]ra firma su* z spade1 pick1 etc41 & provisions = two or ?ree weeks4 ,hav+ procur$ ^! & pack$ 8 burro1 z ! donkey is call$ out ,we/1 he & 8 p>tn] />t$ = ! m\nta9s4 ,mr4 ,holcombe kept a sort ( di>y ( ?is "p ( 8 ,we/]n trip1 & we give x "h1 includ+ ! "t f 8 leav+ ,silv] ,cliff to 8 return to ,d5v]4 ,,di>y4 ,tuesday1 ,may #bg1 #ahgi4--;,i ent]$ into p>tn]%ip ) a man by ! "n ( ,j4 ,e4 ,:ite f ,wiscons9 = prospect+ 9 ! m\nta9s4 ,he _h "s blankets at ,oak ,creek1 a di/ance ( ?irty miles f ,silv] ,cliff4 ,we walk$ out !re "o day & return$ ! next4 ,! road 0 v full ( du/ & gravel4 ,my %oes w\ld get full ( x4 ,e little m\nta9 /ream we came to ,i w\ld /op & wa% my feet1 :i* 0 v refre%+4 ,?is made me ?9k ( ! bless$ ,son ( ,god & :y1 :5 he 0 a gue/ at diff]5t places1 !y br\ght him wat] = 8 feet1 ,^? bless$ feet ,:i*1 eighte5 hundr$ ye>s ago1 7 nail$ ,= our advantage on ! bitt] cross4 ,w$nesday1 ,may #bh4--;,aft] hav+ b\ght a burro & a two weeks' grub-/ake1 ,j4 ,e4 ,:ite & myself />t$ = ! ,sangre de ,*ri/o m\nta91 a wild1 high range ( ! ,rockies4 ,we paid = our burro tw5ty-"o doll>s1 & = our grub sev5 doll>s4 ,x consi/$ ( fl\r1 c(fee1 sug>1 bacon1 salt1 pepp]1 potatoes & bak+ p[d]4 ,we _h a c(fee-pot1 fry+-pan1 t9 cups4 ,we us$ our pocket-knives in/ead ( table-knives4 ,we _h a but*]-knife & "s teaspoons4 ,) ^! & "s o!r ?+s we pack$ our burro & />t$4 ,x 0 a funny sight4 ,x all look$ l a h\se on top ( ! poor little animal :i* 0 n mu* l>g] ?an a good siz$ ,newf\ndl& dog4 ,b x 0 /rong1 fai?ful & sure-foot$ & c\ld g any:]e 9 ! m\nta9s t a man c\ld4 ,we travel$ ?is fir/ day ab\t t5 miles & camp$ 9 a gul* at night4 ,_h a h>d /orm4 ,our only %elt] 0 a hut made ( b\ghs ( trees1 ,indian fa%ion4 ,?ursday1 ,may #bi4--,we mov$ up ! gul* z f> z we c\ld = ! sn[4 ,did "s little prospect+ ( :i* nei!r ( u knew v mu*1 &1 ( c\rse1 we f\nd no?+4 ,e once 9 a:ile1 ,:ite w\ld pick up a rock1 look at x wisely & say ,?is is good float4 ,i ?9k !re is a pay+ lode up on ?is m\nta9 some:]e4 ,up ! m\nta9 we g ab\t #i1jjj feet above ! sea level4 ,we turn$ ov] all ! /ones & dug up ! e>? e n[ & !n & t[>d night we w5t to "w to make our hut :i* we got ab\t half f9i%$4 ,dur+ ! night sn[ fell ab\t ?ree in*es4 ,we 7 on ! side ( ! m\nta94 ,c\ld h>dly keep ! fire f roll+ d[n ! side ( ! m\nta94 ,c\ld h>dly keep our victuals f upsett+4 ,?is & ! sn[ made me weak5 consid]ably1 & ,i did say 9 my he>t ,i wi%$ ,i 0 back home4 ,friday1 ,may #cj4--,we prospect$ ! second ridge1 s\? ( ,horn's ,peak1 go+ up ab\t #cjj feet above timb] l9e1 or ab\t #ab1jjj feet above ! sea-level4 ,!re 7 no indications ( m9]als4 ,ab\t five miles (f we c\ld see a beautiful lake4 ,i 0 v anxi\s to g to x1 b ,:ite object$4 ,said x w\ld be dang]\s1 might be caught 9 a sn[-/orm4 ,! sun 0 %9+ brightly4 ,wea!r 0 v pleasant4 ,i c\ld n conceive ( a sn[-/orm on ! #cj? ( ,may4 ,s ,i p]suad$ him to g4 ,aft] we _h gone "s di/ance1 all ( a sudd5 x began to bl[ up cold & 9 a little :ile to sn[4 ,we turn$ our faces t[>d camp4 ,j !n we saw "o ( ^? beautiful ,rocky m\nta9 spott$ gr\se4 ,we 7 s hungry = some?+ fre% to eat1 we took sev]al %ots at x ) ,:ite's pi/ol4 ,b ! bl9d+ sn[ made x impossible = u to hit x4 ,we _h no gr\se = supp]4 ,x grew cold v rapidly & 9 a v %ort "t x seem$ to me z cold z ,i ev] felt x 9 my life4 ,my m\/a*e froze /iff4 ,at la/ ! /orm got s heavy1 &1 ! ev5+ com+ on1 we c\ld h>dly see our way4 ,! side ( ! m\nta9 0 full ( dead timb]1 :i* 0 slick l glass &1 z ev]y?+ 0 cov]$ ) sn[1 we c\ld n always see :]e to put our feet d[n1 & to h slipp$ w\ld h be5 almo/ c]ta9 dea?4 ,once ,:ite did slip & b = hav+ ! pick & /ick+ x 9 a s(t place1 he w\ld h be5 kill$4 ,we got lo/ & w&]$ ab\t ov] ! m\nta9 side till late 9 ! ev5+ :5 we provid5tially /ruck on our camp4 ,we 7 hungry1 tir$ & wet4 ,our b$d+ 0 cov]$ ) sn[4 ,be=e go+ to b$ ,i read ! fir/ *apt] ( ,romans4 ,saturday1 ,may #ca4--;,cl\dy morn+4 ,f\r in*es ( sn[4 ,no w9d4 ,felt v well4 ,we mov$ our camp4 ,/opp$ at a des]t$ cab94 ,f\nd a gr9d/one & gr\nd our hat*et4 ,we pit*$ camp ab\t ?ree miles ,s\?-ea/4 ,built a hut ( b\ghs4 ,we got wet4 ,i _h b "o pair ( pants & "o pair ( socks4 ,my feet 7 soak+ wet4 ,at b$time ,i read ,romans1 second *apt]4 ,sunday1 ,june #a1 #ahgi4--,sn[$ ,saturday night4 ,:5 ,i awoke our blankets 7 wet4 ,i _h symptoms ( rheumatism 9 knees & wri/s4 ,i read ,romans1 ?ird *apt]1 & we _h pray] toge!r4 ,:ite sang ,tell ,me ! ,old1 ,old ,/ory & ,safe 9 ! ,arms ( ,jesus4 ,x made me ?9k ( my family s f> away1 ( my de> pa/or1 ,bro!r----1 & ! de> old ,portl& *ur*1 & ! te>s /ream$ d[n my face4 ,sp5t ! day 9 camp4 ,monday1 ,june #b4--,woke up v cold4 ,our hut ( p9e b\ghs 0 n suffici5t to keep u w>m4 ,s mu* sn[ on ! m\nta9s t we prospect$ ! foot-hills & f\nd :at we ?\ght 7 indications ( m9]al4 ,at night read ,romans1 f\r? *apt]4 ,mu* enc\rag$ by ,abraham's fai?4 ,s cold ,i _h to get my hat 9 ! night & put x on my head to keep w>m4 ,dream$ t ,i 0 at home ) my preci\s wife4 ,tri$ to wake h] up1 b %e 0 dead4 ,:at awful feel+s6 ,tuesday1 ,june #c4--;,a beautiful bright morn+4 ,read ,romans v4 ,p>tn] want$ to g de] hunt+ ) a pi/ol4 ,seem$ to me s fooli% ,i w\ld n g4 ,i /ay$ at camp & 0 v lonesome4 ,w$nesday1 ,june #d4--;,bright1 cle> morn+4 ,read ,romans vi4 ,_h our breakfa/1 bread1 bacon1 c(fee & potatoes1 e>ly1 s z to prospect on ?ird m\nta9 s\? ( ,horn's ,peak4 ,/>t$ = ! m\nta9s4 ,w5t up above timb] l9e4 ,ate lun* up !re4 ,too mu* sn[ to g any high]4 ,f\nd :at we ?\ght 7 indications ( m9]al4 ,saw a gray eagle sail+ ar\nd4 ,x look$ v gr& away up above t lonely m\nta94 ,suppose its ne/ 0 ne>4 ,9 ev5+ return$ to camp v tir$4 ,read ,romans vii41 & x did me a great deal ( good4 ,?ursday1 ,june #e4--;,cle> morn+4 ,prospect$ "s ar\nd ! foot-hills4 ,f\nd no?+4 ,began to get disgu/$ ) prospect+4 ,/ruck camp ab\t t5 or elev5 o'clock ,a4 ,m4 ,pack$ our burro & cross$ valley ab\t fifte5 miles4 ,v hot cross+4 ,pack slipp$ out ( place sev]al times4 ,v tr\blesome4 ,:ite got out ( humor4 ,0 incl9$ to qu>rel1 b ,i w\ld n qu>rel ) him4 ,aft] gett+ across ! valley we _h tr\ble f9d+ a place to camp conv5i5t to wat]1 b f\nd x at la/4 ,:ile we 7 unpack+ a big rabbit jump$ up4 ,:ite fir$ ?ree or f\r %ots at him ) 8 revolv]4 ,foll[$ him up ! side ( ! m\nta94 ,at la/ he kill$ him4 ,he came d[n ! m\nta9 sw++ old ,br] ,rabbit1 & ,i ?9k he 0 z happy look+ a man z ,i ev] saw4 ,no d\bt a smile ( satisfaction might h be5 se5 on y\r ,uncle ,remus' face1 too1 :5 ,i saw t rabbit4 ,t 0 ! fir/ ?+ 9 %ape ( fre% meat we _h _h = ab\t t5 days4 ,,supp]--,,bill ,,( ,,f>e4 ,fri$ ,rabbit1 ,fri$ ,bread1 ,potatoes1 ,c(fee4 ,aft] supp] we rais$ a few poles & ?rew our blankets ov] !m = %elt]4 ,read ,romans viii41 & w5t to sleep1 feel+ satisfi$ t if ,i di$ be=e morn+1 ,i w\ld wake up 9 heav54 ,friday1 ,june #f4--;,bright morn+4 ,f9e appetite4 ,good breakfa/4 ,read ,romans ix4 ,we mov$ f ! foot-hills & w5t up into ! m\nta94 ,:ite w5t prospect+ :ile ,i built u a hut = ! night4 ,:5 he came back he said he _h f\nd "s v good float4 ,v cold night4 ,our burro got loose 9 ! night & made consid]able noise mov+ ar\nd4 ,we 7 sure x 0 a m\nta9 lion1 b1 ( c\rse1 we 7 n afraid4 ,i _h my hat*et "u my head & he _h 8 pi/ols4 ,( c\rse1 we 7 n afraid4 ,saturday1 ,june #g4--,v cold morn+4 ,prospect$4 ,f\nd a lode ( black rock4 ,felt sure we _h /ruck x ri*4 ,dug a :ole 9 ! gr\nd & /ak$ a claim4 ,read ,romans x1 at night4 ,slept cold4 ,got to ?9k+4 ,?\ght x 0 easi] to f9d a ne$le 9 a hay/ack ?an a pay+ m9e 9 ! ,rocky m\nta9s4 ,sunday1 ,june #h4--,morn+ cle> & bright4 ,ow+ to ! disagreeable place 9 :i* we 7 camp$1 we ?\ght our heal? ju/ifi$ u 9 mov+ ev5 on ! ,"l's day4 ,f\nd an old cab94 ,x 0 worse ?an any horse /able1 b we clean$ x out4 ,made a b$ ( poles1 :i* we cut & c>ri$ "s di/ance4 ,?is 0 on ! ,pueblo & ,rosita road4 ,monday1 ,june #i4--;,bright1 cold morn+4 ,ice on ! spr+ bran*4 ,aft] breakfa/ we />t$ prospect+4 ,f\nd no?+1 except ano!r old des]t$ cab9 ( ! ,arkansaw ,travel]'s /yle4 ,return$ to camp 9 ! ev5+4 ,read ,romans xii4 & xiii4 & slept l a pr9ce4 ,tuesday1 ,june #aj--;,ano!r bright1 cle>1 cold morn+4 ,we prospect$ "s4 ,/ak$ (f a claim1 m 9 fun ?an any?+ else1 = we knew x 0 wor? no?+4 ,! locality is call$ ,h>dscrabble4 ,& x 0 ! "r "n4 ,our provisions _h ab\t giv5 out1 & x 0 a h>d scrabble = u to get along4 ,conclud$ to return to ,silv] ,cliff1 g to "w1 get ano!r grub /ake1 & take ano!r fre% />t4 ,9 ! aft]noon we re/$4 ,read ,romans xiv41 xv4 & xvi4 ,w$nesday1 ,june #aa4--;,ano!r beautiful ,colorado morn+4 ,read #a ,cor41 i4 ,/>t$ = ,silv] ,cliff ab\t #g3jj ,a4 ,m4 ,i c>ri$ ,:ite's pi/ol4 ,on ! way ,i kill$ two doves4 ,_h !m = d9n] ab\t #c3jj ,p4 ,m4 ,h[ sweet !y did ta/e6 ,arriv$ at ,silv] ,cliff ab\t d>k4 ,?ursday1 ,june #ab4--;,conclud$ ! be/ ?+ ,i c\ld d 0 to get home z soon z possible4 ,we sold our burro = #ae4jj1 & ) my "p 7#g4ej7 ,i />t$ ) a fri5d by ! "n ( ,hall = home4 ,we got a *eap ride 9 a freight wagon f ,silv] ,cliff to ,pueblo4 ,! c\ntry ?r\gh :i* we pass$ is ! wilde/ & gr&e/ ,i ev] saw any:]e 9 my life4 ,h>dscrabble canon is "o ( ! mo/ picturesque 9 ! _w1 & !n ! beautiful m\nta9 /ream all ! way1 w9d+ l a s]p5t d[n ! valley4 ,we cross$ & re-cross$ x sev]al times4 ,t night we slept 9 ! wagon4 ,i nev] neglect$ pray+ any day :ile ,i 0 on ! prospect+ t\r4 ,friday1 ,june #ac4--;,arriv$ at ,pueblo ab\t #b3jj ,p4 ,m4 ,_h a little money4 ,got a bite to eat4 ,at t "t !re 0 a railroad w>4 ,m5 7 kill+ ea* o!r = ?ree doll>s a day = corporations4 ,! excitem5t ab\t ?is1 & ! mov+ bodies ( m5 all anxi\s = news1 kept me f ?9k+ ( my condition till night4 ,at night ,i w5t out to ! commons1 on ! edge ( ! city1 &1 ) o!r tramps1 w5t to sleep on ! cold gr\nd4 ,saturday1 ,june #ad4--;,_h a little money4 ,"s o!rs ( ! tramps _h a little4 ,we pool$ x1 b\ght a little grub1 & at #ab3jj o'clock />t$ on a tramp to ,d5v]1 a di/ance ( ab\t "o hundr$ & tw5ty-five miles4 ,i felt fre% & /rong4 ,we walk$ ab\t six miles & slept on ! gr\nd at night4 ,sunday1 ,june #ae4--;,got up e>ly4 ,_h a little breakfa/4 ,/>t$ ab\t #f3jj ,a4 ,m4 ,walk$ ab\t ?ree miles :51 two ( our p>ty hav+ su* sore feet1 we /opp$4 ,i _h a voraci\s appetite4 ,w5t to cook+4 ,we _h "s cann$ tomatoes & cann$ syrup4 ,i cook$ "s tomatoes & ate !m4 ,!n ,i w5t to a ran*1 b\ght a nickel's wor? ( milk1 fri$ "s cakes1 ate !m ) ! syrup1 drank ! milk & 0--sick4 ,did n feel /rong aga9 all ! "t4 ,i _h _h no exp]i5ce 9 tramp+ & tri$ to c>ry too mu* luggage4 ,my feet got sore4 ,e day's tramp aft] t 0 a drag4 ,"o ( ! p>ty left u & w5t on ahead by himself4 ,we nev] saw him aga94 ,ano!r 0 s brok5 d[n we _h to leave him4 ,hall & ,i w5t on sick & tir$4 ,ab\t d>k we w5t up to ! h\se ( a ran*man1 & ,i told him my /ory4 ,he took u 94 ,i f\nd out he 0 a pr(ess+ ,*ri/ian4 ,i read ,romans vii41 & pray$ ) ! family4 ,8 "n is ,john ,irv9e1 ,el ,paso1 ,colorado4 ,monday1 ,june #af4--,left ,john ,irv9e's soon aft] breakfa/4 ,walk$ five miles to a wat]-tank :]e ! tra9 _h to /op = wat]4 ,we wait$ till ! tra9 came along1 & bo>d$ h]4 ,! conductor did n see u till we _h pass$ ,colorado ,spr+s "s di/ance4 ,:5 he did see u1 ,i made ! appeal ( my life on acc\nt ( myself & my fri5d1 ^: feet 7 s sore he c\ld1 ) difficulty1 hobble along4 ,i told ! conductor my own condition1 & ( my anxiety to get home to a suff]+ family4 ,:5 ,i saw he w\ld n believe :at ,i said1 ,i (f]$ him my pocket-knife1 a v f9e & co/ly "o1 to let u ride a %ort di/ance fur!r1 b he 0 l a /one4 ,at ! next /op he put u (f )\t a c5t ( money or a bite to eat4 ,we walk$ ab\t six miles1 lay d[n on ! gr\nd1 ) ! sky = a cov]+1 & slept l logs4 ,tuesday1 ,june #ag4--,we />t$ ab\t daybreak1 )\t any?+ to eat4 ,walk$ ab\t eight miles to a little place call$ ,s$alia4 ,saw a ,g]man bo>d+ h\se4 ,s5t ,hall 9 to see if we c\ld get any?+ to eat4 ,_h no money1 b told him to tell h] ,i w\ld give h] a but*]-knife & a silv] teaspoon1 :i* ,i _h br\ght f home1 = some?+ to eat4 ,%e said to him s ,i c\ld he> h]3 ,breakfa/ is ov]1 b ,i w give y :at ,i h4 ,t 0 en\gh = me4 ,9 ,i w5t4 ,sat d[n to a real ,g]man lun*1 & nev] did a breakfa/ ta/e sweet] to me ?an t4 ,god bless t good old ,g]man woman1 n only = h] good breakfa/1 b = h] k9d1 mo!rly words to two /rang]s 9 want4 ,x taught me a lesson :i* ,i h n =gott5 yet1 & ,i pray ,god ,i nev] may4 ,i left ,s$alia feel+ com=table4 ,walk$ ab\t f\r miles4 ,hall 0 ab\t done4 ,he c\ld g no fur!r4 ,:ile we 7 sitt+ !re1 a ,*ri/ian man by ! "n ( ,j5n+s came along1 took pity on u1 took u 9 8 wagon1 gave u some?+ to eat & br\ght u to ,d5v]4 ,we arriv$ !re ab\t #f3jj ,p4 ,m41 )\t "o c5t1 no?+ to eat1 no place to g4 ,slept t night 9 a /able-y>d "u ,j5n+s' wagon4 ,w$nesday1 ,june #ah4--;,got up next morn+ ab\t daybreak4 ,_h a little cold breakfa/ ) ,j5n+s4 ,knock$ ab\t t[n a little4 ,_h a bak]'s blackb]ry pie & a cup ( wat] = d9n]4 ,"h ! di>y ( ! prospect+ t\r & ! tramp to ,d5v] ends4 ,mr4 ,holcombe cont9u$ ! next day to knock ab\t t[n1 n kn[+ :at to d1 :5 8 old fri5d1 ,frank ,jones1 by nature "o ( ! k9de/-he>t$ m5 9 ! _w1 *anc$ to meet him & insi/$ on %>+ 8 room ) him4 ,z 8 fri5d ,jones1 h[ev]1 0 himself broke1 he c\ld r5d] ,mr4 ,holcombe no fur!r assi/ance & x 0 necess>y = ,mr4 ,holcombe to look ab\t = some?+ to d4 ,he sp5t a week 9 ?is occupation1 or want ( occupation1 & at ! end ( t "t f\nd employm5t 9 a bricky>d4 ,b ! "w 0 s h>d1 at ! end ( ?ree weeks1 he _h to give x up4 ,aft] "s "t :at little money he _h 0 exp5d$ & aga9 he 0 de/itute4 ,& at "o "t he 0 s press$ t he w5t into a groc]y /ore & (f]$ 8 f9e pocket-knife aga9 = some?+ to eat1 b x 0 refus$4 ,sev]al times he pass$ ! ,"y ,m5's ,*ri/ian ,association rooms4 ,ea* "t he /opp$1 look$ wi/fully 9 & debat$ ) himself :e!r !y w\ld probably believe him & help him if he v5tur$ to g 9 & make 8 condition kn[n4 ,b he _h nev] be5 us$ to ask+ favors1 & he did n "k h[ to approa* ,*ri/ian p1 & s 8 he>t fail$ him4 ,at t "t & 9 t condition he 0 assail$ by a sore temptation4 ,! devil1 he says1 sugge/$ ^! ?\ghts to him3 ,?is is a f9e condition = ,/eve ,holcombe to be 94 ,be=e y he>d ( ,god & ?is religion1 y c\ld /op at fir/-class hotels1 we> f9e clo!s1 live l a g5tleman1 h a good home & all t money c\ld buy = y\r family4 ,n[1 y say y are s]v+ ,god4 ,y say ,he is y\r fa!r & t ,he owns ev]y?+ 9 ! _w4 ,yet "h y are )\t food & clo?+ & y\r family is at home 9 want4 ,y h n en\gh to buy a meal = !m or = y\rself4 ,c y af=d to tru/ & s]ve su* a ma/] z t8 ,b he _h n be5 s]v+ ,god two ye>s & m = naught4 ,he _h le>n$ "s ?+s 9 t "t4 ,"o ( !m 0 t trials & privations are a "p ( ! ,*ri/ian's h]itage1 & t if any man w live godly 9 ?is pres5t _w1 he mu/ expect to suff]4 ,s 8 reply 0 ready & he met ! temptation ) decision4 ,yea1 & ?\gh ,he slay me1 yet w ,i tru/ 9 ,him4 ,& ! sequel w %[ :e!r he made a mi/ake 9 tru/+ ,him4 ,:5 he saw x 0 useless = him to rema9 long] away f home1 he in=m$ 8 fri5d1 ,mr4 ,jones1 ( 8 purpose to leave at once = ,l\isville4 ,mr4 ,jones got him money en\gh to buy a ticket to ,kansas ,city1 & !re ! great temp]ance lectur]1 ,francis ,murphy1 hav+ f\nd out 8 "* & condition1 gave him en\gh to get home4 ,:e!r ,god c or n1 at any rate ,he does n p\r wisdom into a man z we p\r wat] into a bottle4 ,he does n s favor ev5 ,8 own *ildr51 if favor x c\ld be call$4 ,b ,he gives a man opportunities ( self-discipl9e1 & if1 aid$ by ,8 div9e help & grace1 ! man is will+ to g ?r\gh ! process1 he comes out ) l>g] k & bett] equipm5t = life & s]vice & usefulness4 ,)\t ! exp]i5ces & lessons ( ?is ,colorado trip1 ,mr4 ,holcombe c\ld n h be5 ! effici5t man he is to-day4 ,t season ( lonel9ess & self-se>*+ & sev]e te/+ & humiliation 0 to him1 ?\gh a pa9ful1 yet a helpful1 & p]haps necess>y1 /age 9 8 ,*ri/ian life4 ,inde$1 all ! try+ exp]i5ces t _h come to him s9ce 8 conv]sion 7 helpful to him 9 "o way or ano!r4 ,he ne$$ to le>n pati5ce1 he ne$$ to le>n economy1 he ne$$ to le>n self-control4 ,! disposition to practice all ^! 0 giv5 him at ! "t ( 8 conv]sion1 he ne$$ n[ to be put to ! te/ & to le>n ob$i5ce1 practically1 by ! ?+s :i* he suff]$4 ,moreov]1 if he 0 to s]ve effici5tly ! poor & ! tempt$1 he ne$$ to become acqua9t$ ) _! condition1 _! sorr[s1 _! conflicts1 by pass+ ?r\gh !m himself4 ,! endurance ( ! evils :i* give occasion = ! ex]cise ( self-d5ial & = ! acquisition ( self-control is a f> less evil ?an ! want ( self-d5ial & ( self-control4 ,s ,mr4 ,holcombe 0 will+ to suff] all ^! ?+s r ?an to decl9e !m & be )\t ! bless+ :i* comes ?r\gh !m4 ,?is reflection ju/ifi$ 8 pa/ suff]+s & prep>$ him = any t might come 9 ! future4 ,he knew :at he _h be5 & he _h le>n$ t he 0 to be purifi$ by fire4 ,s he felt t if ,god w\ld be pati5t ) him1 he w\ld be pati5t ) ,god's deal+s4 ,:5 he arriv$ at home he f\nd 8 family 9 a v ne$y condition4 ,%ortly aft] 8 dep>ture = ,colorado1 8 wife _h to remove f ! h\se %e 0 occupy+1 because %e c\ld n pay ! r5t4 ,%e _h nev] tak5 c>e ( h]self be=e or done any sort ( "w1 = he always provid$ well = 8 family2 b n[ %e saw x 0 necess>y = h] to support ! family4 ,accord+ly1 %e took 9 sew+1 & 9 t way did support !m till ,mr4 ,holcombe's return4 ,= six weeks aft] 8 return he c\ld f9d no?+ to d1 & ,mrs4 ,holcombe1 brave1 noble woman1 cont9u$ to support ! family ) h] ne$le4 ,! "t ( h] full deliv]ance 0 com+1 b x 0 n yet4 ,nor did %e "k :5 x w\ld come1 or t x w\ld ev] come4 ,b all ! same %e wait$1 & :ile %e wait$1 %e s]v$1 & ) a glad he>t1 too1 = _h n h] husb& turn$ 8 face heav5w>d8 ,& pov]ty seem$ n[ a small ?+4 ,"s "t aft] ,mr4 ,holcombe's return1 8 fri5d1 ,major ,ed ,hughes1 0 elect$ ,*ief ( ! ,fire ,dep>tm5t 9 ,l\isville1 & he made application to him at once = a position4 ,major ,hughes gave x to him unhesitat+ly2 b1 z ,mr4 ,holcombe 0 entirely )\t exp]i5ce1 x _h to be a subord9ate "o1 9 :i* ! sal>y 0 n l>ge1 be+ only a doll> & a half p] day4 ,x 0 impossible = him to support 8 family on s little1 & ?\gh ,mrs4 ,holcombe und]took to help him out by keep+ bo>d]s & do+ all ! "w h]self1 !y got beh9d all ! "t he 0 9 ! fire dep>tm5t4 ,f9d+ t keep+ bo>d]s aft] ,mrs4 ,holcombe's lib]al fa%ion 0 entirely unpr(itable1 %e gave t up & comm5c$ tak+ 9 sew+ aga94 ,%e ev5 le>n$ to make coats = clo?+ /ores 9 ,l\isville1 & cont9u$ t = "s "t4 ,illu/ration3 ,,eng9e ,,h\se4 ,mean:ile1 he 0 hav+ a h>d "t 9 8 subord9ate position 9 ! fire dep>tm5t4 ,9 ! fir/ place he 0 requir$ to be at ! eng9e-h\se night & day & ,sundays1 ) ! b>e exception ( a half h\r or su* a matt] at meal "t4 ,= a man ( 8 nature & habits ?is conf9em5t 0 almo/ intol]able1 & w\ld h be5 q s1 if he _h n be5 radically *ang$4 ,9 ! second place he 0 subject to ! ord]s ( 8 sup]iors1 ?\gh he _h nev] be5 oblig$ to obey anybody1 & z a matt] ( fact nev] _h obey$ anybody s9ce he 0 a m]e infant4 ,9 ! ?ird place1 not)/&+ 8 exp]i5ce1 8 k ( ! _w & 8 capacity = high] "w1 he 0 requir$ to d "w :i* a well-tra9$ idiot might h done j z well4 ,"o ( 8 duties 0 to rub ! eng9e & keep x poli%$4 ,9 ord] to clean "s p>ts ( x1 he w\ld h to lie d[n on ! floor "u x flat on 8 back2 & 9 ord] to clean o!r m delicate p>ts ( ! ma*9]y1 he _h to "w 9 su* places t he 0 always bruis+ & sk9n+ 8 h&s4 ,if repeat$ failure 9 bus9ess 9 ,l\isville 0 h>d1 if />v+ 9 ,colorado 0 h>d]1 ! conf9em5t & drudg]y ( 8 position at ! eng9e-h\se 7 h>de/4 ,x w\ld require "s ef=t to ?9k ( a position m ?or\ghly disagreeable & try+ ?an ?is "o :i* ,mr4 ,holcombe fill$ to ! satisfaction ( 8 sup]iors = two mortal ye>s4 ,b he 0 le>n+ "s ?+s he ne$$ to "k4 ,he 0 pass+ ?r\gh a necess>y appr5tice%ip1 ?\gh he did n "k x1 = some?+ va/ly high]4 ,x p]haps %\ld be add$ t ,mr4 ,holcombe 0 practically isolat$ & alone at ! eng9e-h\se1 = none ( ! m5 !re employ$ 7 cong5ial companions4 ,h[ev]1 to _! cr$it1 be x said1 !y %[$ great respect = him & = 8 ,*ri/ian pr(ession2 !y quit gambl+1 !y refra9$ f us+ obsc5e or pr(ane language 9 8 pres5ce1 &1 9 g5]al1 7 v k9d to him4 ,no?+ c\ld less5 ,mr4 ,holcombe's sympa?y = ! outca/ & ! lo/1 & no?+ de/roy 8 zeal = _! salvation4 ,?\gh he 0 n all[$ to leave 8 po/ ev5 on ,sunday1 )\t hir+1 at 8 own exp5se1 a sub/itute1 yet he frequ5tly w5t to ,%ipp+sport & o!r places to hold s]vices among ! poor ) ! hope1 z he says1 ( help+ & bless+ !m4 ,he incurr$ ! exp5se ( a sub/itute t he might1 once 9 a:ile1 g out be>+ light & bless+ to o!rs1 & he ev5 took to 8 own home m5 :o 7 try+ to re=m & live bett] lives4 ,9 view ( ! condition ( 8 family1 ?is 0 d\btless m ?an he ought to h done1 & 9 aft] ye>s he saw x 0 a mi/ake1 b su* 0 8 insatiable long+ to help & bless o!rs1 he let 8 zeal1 p]haps1 g beyond 8 prud5ce 9 t s+le p>ticul>4 ,mo/ ( u err v f> on ! o!r side4 ,he did n hesitate to take to 8 home 9 "s in/ances m5 :o _h gone 9 _! dissipation to ! ext5t ( delirium trem5s4 ,"o su* case 0 t ( a f9e "y fell[ :o belong$ to an excell5t family 9 ,l\isville1 b :o ?r\gh dr9k _h gone d[n1 d[n1 d[n1 until he _h /ruck bottom4 ,dur+ 8 dr9k+ sprees he 0 ! mo/ =lorn & wret*$ look+ man 9 ,l\isville4 ,he 0 at ?is "t1 by ,mr4 ,holcombe's invitation1 /ay+ at 8 h\se4 ,he ate !re1 he slept !re2 x 0 8 home4 ,b on "o occasion1 "s "t aft] midnight1 he 0 attack$ ) a frightful spell ( delirium trem5s1 or1 z he said1 ! devils got aft] him4 ,!y told him1 he said1 t if he did n kill ,mr4 & ,mrs4 ,holcombe & _! baby1 !y w\ld kill him4 ,he he>d !m4 ,!y told him to g & get 8 razor1 & he did x4 ,!n !y advanc$ on him & he back$ f !m1 8 razor 9 h&4 ,z !y advanc$ he retreat$4 ,he op5$ ,mr4 ,holcombe's door 7= he _h hir$ a sub/itute & rema9$ at home on ! night 9 "q 9 ord] to help 8 man ?r\gh 8 spell74 ,he back$ to ! b$ 9 :i* ,mr4 & ,mrs4 ,holcombe 7 sleep+4 ,he /ruck ! b$ z he retreat$ f ! devils1 & ,mrs4 ,holcombe awoke to f9d a demoniz$ man /&+ ov] !m ) a drawn razor4 ,%e woke h] husb&4 ,he jump$ out ( b$1 caught ! man's arm & took ! razor f him4 ,aft] t ,mr4 ,holcombe sat up ) him ! rema9d] ( ! night1 & dur+ mo/ ( ! "t ! man 0 talk+ to imag9>y devils4 ,ab\t daylight he snat*$ up a brickbat out ( ! he>? & ru%$ t[>d ! door say+ !re 7 ?ree big m5 out !re :o _h come to kill him4 ,mr4 ,holcombe kept him ) himself all next day4 ,! next night :ile !y 7 walk+ toge!r 9 ! op5 air1 ! man imag9$ t a woman :om he knew to be dead 0 *ok+ him to dea?1 & he 0 on ! po9t ( dy+ ) suffocation :5 ,mr4 ,holcombe call$ a physician to 8 aid4 ,su* 0 ! k9d ( m5 ,mr4 ,holcombe1 ev5 9 ^? days ( pov]ty & disc\ragem5t1 0 try+ to help & rescue1 & su* 7 8 ef=ts & trials & p]ils 9 rescu+ !m4 ,:5 ,mr4 ,holcombe's pa/or saw ! grace ( ,god t ab\nd$ 9 him1 x 0 pla9 to him t he might1 9 future1 :5 a suitable op5+ %\ld come1 make a v useful help] 9 ! "w ( ! *ur*4 ,9 ord]1 !re=e1 t ,mr4 ,holcombe might be prep>$ = an enl>g$ sph]e1 if x %\ld ev] come1 ! pa/or propos$ to tea* him 9 c]ta9 l9es & did s1 visit+ him regul>ly at ! eng9e h\se = t purpose4 ,mr4 ,holcombe /udi$ v indu/ri\sly1 b x 0 ) extreme difficulty t he c\ld apply himself to books at t "t4 ,lat]1 h[ev]1 he ov]came to a great ext5t ?is difficulty & has gott5 n[ to be q a /ud5t4 ,he has att5d$ also1 = two ye>s1 ) great pr(it1 ! lectures ( ,dr4 ,broadus 9 ! ,bapti/ ,sem9>y 9 ,l\isville4 ,z has be5 said else:]e1 ,mr4 ,holcombe rema9$ 9 ! fire dep>tm5t = two ye>s1 endur+ ! conf9em5t1 p]=m+ ! drudg]y & try+1 z be/ he c\ld1 to help & bless o!rs4 ,f\r ye>s & m _h n[ elaps$ s9ce 8 conv]sion4 ,x 0 a long /ret* & at times a heavy /ra94 ,b he endur$ x1 & grew /rong4 ,,*apt] ,,iv4 ,! "t _h n[ come = su* an extraord9>y c>e] & su* an extraord9>y man to be recogniz$1 & he 04 ,he _h made an impression & 8 "w1 humble z x 01 _h made an impression4 ,moreov]1 ,mr4 ,holcombe himself 0 n[ gr[+ impati5t to get into a position m favorable to 8 usefulness4 ,x 0 n ! selfi% impati5ce t c\ld n long] endure ! humiliation & manifold disagreeabl5esses ( 8 position at ! eng9e h\se4 ,he _h ov]come all t4 ,x 0 ! noble impati5ce ( love & zeal4 ,oh1 h[ he did long to get into a place :]e he c\ld help somebody & s]ve somebody & love somebody4 ,he _h be5 v k9dly treat$ by 8 old fri5ds1 ! gambl]s1 dur+ all ?is "t2 & ?\gh he 0 loa? to all[ x & at fir/ decl9$ x1 yet fe>+ le/ 8 refusal might ali5ate !m1 he _h1 m ?an once1 accept$ sub/antial help f "o or two p>ticul> fri5ds among !m4 ,enc\rag$ by assurances f "s ( ^! & by ! promise ( all ! help 8 pa/or c\ld possibly give him1 f9ancially & o!rwise1 he _h made up 8 m9d to r5t a room 9 ! c5tral "p ( ! city & to op5 a meet+ = ! outca/ classes4 ,b on ! v day :5 he 0 engag$ 9 mak+ ^! arrangem5ts1 8 rem>kable conv]sion & "* & c>e] 7 ! subject ( discussion at ! ,me?odi/ ,m9i/]s' meet+4 ,! result 0 t be=e ! week _h pass$1 ! ,rev4 ,jas4 ,c4 ,morris1 pa/or ( ! ,walnut-/reet ,me?odi/ *ur*1 visit$ him at ! eng9e-h\se & in=m$ him t ! ,(ficial ,bo>d ( 8 *ur* _h au?oriz$ him to take measures = ! e/abli%m5t ( a mission 9 ! c5tral "p ( ! city & to employ ,mr4 ,holcombe to take *>ge ( x at an assur$ sal>y suffici5t to meet ! wants ( 8 family4 ,he at once accept$ x z a call f ,god & gave up 8 position 9 ! fire dep>tm5t1 ) no great degree ( reluctance4 ,a vacant /ore 9 ! ,tyl] ,block1 on ,jeff]son /reet betwe5 ,?ird & ,f\r?1 0 (f]$ free ( r5t4 ,regul> noon-day meet+s 7 held !re 9 *>ge ( ,rev4 ,mr4 ,morris & ,mr4 ,holcombe4 ,x 0 a ph5om5on4 ,)9 two blocks ( ! two f>o banks :i* ,/eve ,holcombe us$ to own & run1 he 0 n[ e day at high noon decl>+ ! ,gospel ( ! grace ( ,god4 ,! p came to see & he>4 ,!y f\nd x 0 no mu%room fanatic1 b a man :o = =ty ye>s 0 a lead] 9 wick$ness & = f\r ye>s _h be5 almo/ a patt]n ( righte\sness4 ,he spoke no hot words ( excitem5t1 b n>rat$ facts ) tru? & sob]ness4 ,_m ( 8 old "t fri5ds1 ! gambl]s1 _! timidity ov]come by _! curiosity1 jo9$ ! cr[d & he>d ! man4 ,poor drunk>ds1 too f> gone = timidity or curiosity1 dragg$ !mselves to ! place :]e ! fam\s gambl] 0 tell+ ab\t 8 conv]sion & 8 new life4 ,& ! p[] ( ,god 0 pres5t to heal1 & great grace 0 ^u !m all4 ,among ^? :o 7 sav$ at t "t & place 7 ,mr4 ,b5 ,h>ney1 son ( ! di/+ui%$ editor ( ! old ,l\isville ,democrat1 :o lives aga9 9 happ9ess & prosp]ity ) 8 belov$ family1 & ,mr4 ,d4 ,c4 ,*audo91 at "o "t a ,ma9-/reet m]*ant1 :o rema9$ fai?ful until dea?4 ,:5 ! support]s ( ! movem5t saw t x promis$ s mu*1 !y took /eps at once to make l>g] provision = x & to secure its p]man5ce4 ,!y s\ght a suitable h\se 9 a conv5i5t place1 & f9ally decid$ to take ! room at ,no4 #dcf ,jeff]son /reet1 betwe5 ,f\r? & ,fif? /reets1 :i* _h =m]ly be5 us$ z a gambl+-h\se4 ,mr4 ,holcombe took possession ( x1 & f\nd "s ( ! gambl+ implem5ts /ill !re4 ,a ,bo>d ( ,manag]s 0 elect$1 consi/+ ( ,john ,l4 ,:eat1 ,james ,g4 ,c>t]1 ,p4 ,h4 ,tapp1 ,c4 ,p4 ,atmore & ,george ,w4 ,wicks4 ,"s fri5ds f ! ,walnut-/reet *ur* & o!rs volunte]$ z s+]s2 ! room 0 suppli$ ) hymn-books1 an organ 0 secur$1 & ! meet+s comm5c$ "u ! mo/ promis+ circum/ances4 ,at fir/1 meet+s 7 held ?ree nights 9 ! week1 & ! att5dance 0 l>ge4 ,soon aft]1 meet+s 7 held e night & on ,sundays4 ,p ( all classes came4 ,! s]vices consi/$ ( s++1 pray]s1 read+ ( ,scripture1 a %ort1 e>ne/ address f ,mr4 ,holcombe1 & sometimes te/imonies f ! m5 :o _h be5 help$ & sav$--among :om 7 drunk>ds1 gambl]s1 pick-pockets1 ?ieves1 burgl>s1 tramps1 m5 :o _h fall5 f high positions 9 bus9ess & social circles1 & 9 %ort1 m5 ( all classes & k9ds4 ,_m ( ^! gave unque/ionable pro(s ( conv]sion1 ( :om ! great] "p rema9 unto ?is pres5t1 b "s are fall5 asleep1 fai?ful unto dea?4 ,among ^? :o 7 conv]t$ dur+ t p]iod 7 ,rob]t ,d5ny1 ,fr$ ,ropke1 ,capta9 ,b4 ,f4 ,davidson & ,*>les ,wilson1 ^: te/imonies w be f\nd else:]e 9 ?is book--besides o!rs1 "s ( :om are resid5ts ( ,l\isville & "s ( o!r places4 ,by reque/1 ! ,rev4 ,james ,c4 ,morris1 ,d4 ,d41 n[ ( ,kansas ,city1 ,mo41 has writt5 a brief acc\nt ( ,mr4 ,holcombe's "w f ! beg9n+ to ! po9t :i* we h n[ rea*$ 9 ?is n>rative4 ,&1 z no "p ( x c well be omitt$ or *ang$ = ! bett]1 x is "h introduc$ entire1 ) a "p ( ! g5ial lett] :i* accompani$ x3 ,,kansas ,,city1 ,,mo41 ,augu/ #ad1 #ahhh4 ,my ,de> ,bro!r3 ,i inclose ! notes = :i* y ask4 ,y see !y are 9 a crude /ate4 ,b d n judge f t t ,i h no int]e/ 9 ! "w y h 9 h&4 ,my ,fa!r 9 heav5 kn[s ,i keep x v ne> my he>t4 ,i felt x w\ld be suffici5t = me to furni% y ! matt] 9 a crude /ate1 & let y "w x into y\r plan r ?an give x any lit]>y %ape myself4 ,besides1 ,i am press$1 press$ to my utmo/1 & ,i !re=e s5d y ?is imp]fect sket* ) an apology4 ,i am glad y are do+ ! "w4 ,x w surely d good4 ,bro!r ,holcombe's "w ought to be kn[n4 ,i wi% 9 my he>t ( he>ts t e city & t[n _h su* a man 9 x to "w = ,god & s\ls4 ,pray+ ,god to bless y & y\r "w1 ,i am1 ,y\rs affectionately1 ,,james ,c4 ,,morris4 ,9 ! ye> #ahha1 :ile ,i 0 pa/or ( ! ,walnut-/reet ,me?odi/ *ur*1 9 ,l\isville1 ,ky41 ,i he>d ( ,/eve ,holcombe1 ! conv]t$ gambl]2 ( 8 rem>kable c>e]2 ( 8 rem>kable conv]sion1 & ( 8 unusual devotion & zeal 9 ! cause ( religion4 ,i he>d also ( 8 ef=ts 9 ! l9e ( ,*ri/ian "w & ( 8 desire = bett] opportunities4 ,i m5tion$ 8 case to ! ,(ficial ,bo>d ( ! ,walnut-/reet *ur*1 & sugge/$ t he might be usefully employ$ by our *ur*es 9 ! city 9 do+ mission>y "w4 ,! matt] 0 k9dly receiv$1 b ! sugge/ion took no practical %ape4 ,z ,i walk$ home f ! meet+ "o ( ! /ew>ds said to me3 ',:y c\ld n we1 ( ! ,walnut-/reet *ur*1 employ ,bro!r ,holcombe ourselves8' ,?is "q put me ^u a c\rse ( ?\ght ab\t ! "w we might be able to d1 & at ! next meet+ ( ! ,bo>d ,i made ! sugge/ion t we organize "s "w ( ! k9d & employ ,bro!r ,holcombe to take *>ge ( x4 ,!y unanim\sly accept$ ! sugge/ion & direct$ me to inve/igate ! case4 ,if any?+ c\ld be done1 !y 7 ready to ent] ^u ! "w & support x4 ,i lo/ no "t 9 see+ ,bro!r ,holcombe4 ,he 0 !n employ$ at ! eng9e-h\se1 on ,portl& av5ue4 ,i f\nd him rubb+ ! eng9e4 ,x took b a mom5t to introduce myself1 & 9 a %ort "t we 7 up-/airs1 alone1 talk+ ab\t religion & "w = ,*ri/4 ,he told me h[ 8 he>t 0 drawn out 9 solicitude = ! classes :o nev] att5d$ *ur*--! gambl]s1 drunk>ds & ! l4 ,x 0 easy to see t ! movem5t contemplat$ 0 ( ,god4 ,we talk$ & rejoic$ toge!r2 we knelt d[n & pray$ toge!r = ,god's guidance 9 all our plans & und]tak+s4 ,i !n told him h[ ,i came to call on him1 & laid be=e him our plan4 ,8 eyes fill$ ) te>s--te>s ( joy--at ! ?\ght ( hav+ an opportunity to d ! "w t 0 on 8 he>t4 ,at once ,i report$ to ! ,bo>d1 & recomm5d$ t ,bro!r ,holcombe be at once employ$ & ! "w set on foot )\t delay4 ,god brea!d on !m ! same _s t he _h brea!d on u toge!r at ! eng9e-h\se4 ,) unanimity & en?usiasm !y ent]$ into ! plan & pl$g$ _! support4 ,!y fix$ 8 sal>y at n9e hundr$ doll>s a ye> & au?oriz$ me to d all t 0 necess>y to c>ry ! plan into effect4 ,e>ly ! next morn+ ,bro!r ,holcombe gave up 8 place at ! eng9e-h\se1 & we w5t out to look = a h\se 9 :i* to domicile our "w4 ,i c nev] =get t day4 ,:at joy !re 0 9 t he>t t _h wait$ s long & pray$ s f]v5tly = an op5 door ( opportunity4 ,n[ ! door 0 op5$ wide1 & a song 0 put 9 8 he>t & 9 8 m\?4 ,we walk$ miles to f9d a suitable place1 :ile we talk$ mu* by ! way z our he>ts burn$ )9 u4 ,at l5g? we f\nd a vacant /or]oom on ,jeff]son /reet1 betwe5 ,?ird & ,f\r?1 & z we look$ 9 ! w9d[1 we said3 ',?is w\ld make a gr& place to beg9 94' ,we w5t to see ,mr4 ,isaac ,tyl]1 ! own]1 & he gave u a favorable answ] & ! key4 ,! next day we began a meet+ :i* cont9u$ ?r\gh ?ree mon?s4 ,& :o c write ! hi/ory ( t "w8 ,only ! ,all-see+ ,god2 & ,he has ! record ( x 9 ,8 book4 ,we _h a noon-day s]vice e day1 except ,sunday1 & a ,saturday ev5+ s]vice e week4 ,! s]vices 7 adv]tis$ & m5 /ation$ at ! door invit$ ! pass]-by to come 94 ,at ! meet+s all classes ( m5 7 repres5t$4 ,!re 7 /rong1 wise1 honorable bus9ess-m5 & !re 7 tramps & drunk>ds ) all ! classes t lie betwe5 ^! two4 ,no man 0 slight$4 ,_m a man 0 br\ght 9 :o 0 too drunk to sit alone 9 8 seat4 ,_m 7 !re :o _h n slept 9 a b$ = mon?s4 ,!re 7 gambl]s & drunk>ds & outca/ m5 f e qu>t] ( ! city4 ,! ga!r+ look$ m l t 9 ! police c\rts ( a great city on ,monday morn+ ?an l a religi\s meet+4 ,! work]s did lit]ally g out into ! highways & into ! l[ways & compel !m to come 94 ,& m>vel\s ?+s took place !re4 ,/eve ,holcombe 0 kn[n all ov] ! city1 & su* a "w done by su* a man :o _h lately be5 a not$ gambl] 9 ! community drew m5 :o1 = ye>s1 _h _h no ?\ght ( att5d+ *ur*4 ,! old companions ( 8 worldly life came1 ! wor/ elem5ts ( ! city came1 good m5 f all ! *ur*es came4 ,bro!r ,holcombe 0 9 8 elem5t4 ,8 s\l 0 z free to ! "w z t ( an ,apo/le4 ,daily he trod ! /reets invit+ p to come1 & daily1 z !y came1 he spoke words ( deep feel+ to !m1 urg+ !m to be sav$4 ,no man ev] _h a m respectful he>+ ?an he _h4 ,no man ev] devot$ himself m fully 9 ! _s ( ! ,ma/] to do+ m5 good ?an did he4 ,8 devotion to ! poor outca/ :o %[$ any will+ness to li/5 or any wi% to be sav$ 0 z m>vel\s z 8 own conv]sion4 ,i nev] saw su* 9 any o!r work] = ,*ri/4 ,9 ! progress ( ! "w we (t5 spoke ( keep+ a record ( ^? :o pr(ess$ conv]sion !re4 ,i am sorry x 0 n done4 ,h>dly a day pass$ )\t "s case ( exceptional int]e/4 ,m5 7 sav$ :o _h be5 = ye>s 9 ! v l[e/ /ages ( dissipation & vagrancy4 ,n a few ( ^? :o 7 ?us sav$ 7 m5 :o _h belong$ to ! v be/ social1 & bus9ess circles ( ! city4 ,_m ( !m are bright & bless$ lights 9 ,*ri/ian circles to-day4 ,_m homes 7 built up out ( wrecks :]e only a%es & te>s rema9$4 ,_m scatt]$ families 7 br\ght toge!r aft] long sep>ation4 ,god only kn[s ! results ( t ?ree mon?s' "w4 ,i rememb] "s conv]sions t 7 z m>vel\s z t ( ,saul ( ,t>sus4 ,i c\ld tell ( "s ( !m b p]haps ?is is n ! place4 ,?is meet+ 9 ! ,tyl] block 0 a feature ( a meet+ :i* 0 9 progress at ! ,walnut-/reet *ur* & to ?is x 0 tribut>y4 ,9 ! ev5+ ^? :o _h be5 rea*$ by ! s]vices at ! mission 7 invit$ to ! *ur*4 ,!y 7 l>gely ( a class n (t5 se5 9 ! *ur* b !y came1 & :5 !y came ! *ur* welcom$ !m4 ,!n !re 0 rejoic+ 9 ! pres5ce ( ! angels1 = _m s9n]s 7 rep5t+ & return+4 ,i saw ! ,gospel net dragg$ to ! %ore enclos+ fi% t no "o w\ld h be5 will+ to take out ( ! net except ,/eve ,holcombe4 ,b x is f> diff]5t ) !m to-day4 ,*ang$ by ! p[] ( ,god1 ^! repulsive creatures are honor$ memb]s ( ! v>i\s *ur*es1 heads ( happy families & respect$ & useful citiz5s ( ! community4 ,at ! end ( ?ree mon?s ! meet+s 9 ! /or]oom 7 discont9u$4 ,mr4 ,holcombe _h won ?\s&s ( fri5ds1 hundr$s _h be5 put 9 ! way ( a new life & ! :ole city 0 9 sympa?y ) ! "w4 ,we 7 n[ to select & secure a suitable place = ! p]man5t home ( ! mission4 ,ano!r se>* br\ght u to ! room on ! s\? side ( ,jeff]son betwe5 ,f\r? & ,fif? /reets1 ,no4 #dcf4 ,x _h be5 occupi$ z a gambl+ room1 & ! gambl+ app>atus 0 /ill !re :5 we took possession ( x4 ,9 a few days ! h\se 0 fitt$ up & ! ',gospel-,mission' 0 op5$4 ,! "w 0 n[ ?or\ghly organiz$4 ,!re 01 9 addition to ! regul> s]vices1 a ,sunday-s*ool = ! *ildr5 ^: p>5ts nev] w5t to *ur*4 ,colonel ,c4 ,p4 ,atmore 0 sup]9t5d5t4 ,! ',indu/rial ,s*ool' also 0 organiz$1 :]e ,*ri/ian wom5 taught ! girls to sew1 furni%+ !m ! mat]ials & giv+ !m ! f9i%$ g>m5ts4 ,x is especially wor?y ( rem>k t ! old associates ( ,mr4 ,holcombe1 ! gambl]s1 contribut$ m ?an #ejj t[>d ! exp5ses ( ?is "w4 ,?is h\se became an op5 home = any we>y1 foot-sore w&]] :o 0 will+ to come 91 & ?r\gh ! ye>s _m 7 ! he>ts made happy 9 a new life4 ,! ye> foll[+ ! organization ( ! "w1 ,rev4 ,sam ,p4 ,jones conduct$ a meet+ at ! ,walnut-/reet *ur*1 & 8 he>t 0 /rangely drawn to t mission4 ,he himself conduct$ _m s]vices !re & he 0 m impress$ ) ! "* ( ! "w & ( ! man :o 0 9 *>ge ( x ?an ) any ,*ri/ian "w he _h ev] se54 ,dur+ ?is meet+ ( ,mr4 ,jones a programme ( /reet-prea*+ 0 c>ri$ out by ,mr4 ,holcombe & 8 fell[-work]s4 ,mr4 ,holcombe himself prea*$ sev]al times on ! c\r?\se /eps1 &1 ev5 9 ! mid/ ( ! tumult1 s\ls 7 conv]t$ to ,god4 ,?is is ! end ( ,dr4 ,morris' acc\nt ( ! beg9n+s ( ,mr4 ,holcombe's "w1 ?\gh ! read] w probably wi% x 7 long]1 & ev5 m circum/antial4 ,mr4 ,holcombe's family liv$ 9 ! same build+1 ov] ! mission room1 & :5ev] m5 9 ne$ or di/ress appli$1 he gave !m bo>d & lodg+4 ,mrs4 ,holcombe says t = ?ree mon?s !y _h nev] less ?an tw5ty m5 eat+ two meals a day4 ,( c\rse1 among s _m !re 71 d\btless1 "s impo/]s1 b x took a pretty ke5 man to play impo/] )\t be+ spott$ by ! ke5 man :o 0 9 *>ge ( ! ent]prise4 ,mr4 ,holcombe _h mix$ ) m5 long en\gh to "k !m4 ,he _h sp5t mo/ ( 8 life among bad m54 ,he _h /udi$ _! ways & he knew _! tricks4 ,& x is n necess>y to say to ! read] :o has p]us$ ! =ego+ pages1 t ,mr4 ,holcombe 0 n afraid ( any man4 ,8 =m] exp]i5ce 9 s9 & 8 =m] association ) s9n]s ( e sort l$ him to see t x 0 necess>y = him rigidly to protect ! "w he 0 n[ engag$ 9 & he det]m9$ to d s4 ,m5 w\ld come into ! meet+s1 sometimes1 9 a /ate ( intoxication2 sometimes lewd fell[s ( ! bas] sort w\ld come 9 = ! purpose ( int]rupt+ ! s]vice & /ill o!rs = o!r purposes2 b :5 ,mr4 ,holcombe _h put a few ( !m out1 !y saw t ?is man 9 gett+ religion _h lo/ nei!r common s5se nor c\rage1 & t ,/eve ,holcombe1 ! conv]t$ gambl]1 0 n a man to be fool$ ) any m ?an ,/eve ,holcombe1 ! unconv]t$ gambl]2 s t all su* int]ruptions soon ceas$4 ,b nobody %\ld get ! impression t ,mr4 ,holcombe 0 h>% or unsympa!tic4 ,on ! contr>y1 he is "o ( ! mo/ t5d]he>t$ ( m51 & few m5 liv+ w\ld g f>!r1 d m or make great] sacrifices to save a drunk>d or a gambl] or an outca/ ( any sort1 ?an ,/eve ,holcombe4 ,= days he has gone )\t meat = himself & 8 family t he might h some?+ to help a poor drunk>d :o 0 try+ to re=m4 ,inde$1 8 pity+ love = wret*$ m5 & wom5 ( e class & degree1 manife/$ 9 8 ef=ts to look !m up & to d !m good 9 any possible way1 is ! *ief secret ( 8 wond]ful success 9 deal+ ) h>d5$ & app>5tly inaccessible cases4 ,! foll[+ acc\nt ( 8 la/ & p]haps mo/ desp]ate case is tak5 f "o ( ! ,l\isville daily pap]s & w illu/rate :at has be5 said3 ,illu/ration3 ,,james ,,williams ,,z ,,he ,,04 ,,drunk ,,tw5ty-,,?ree ,,ye>s4 ,,rem>kable ,,/ory ,,( ,,:isky ,,jim',s ,,wa/$ ,,life ,,& ,,f9al ,,conv]sion4 ,,h[ ,,! ,,"w ,,0 ,,effect$4 ,! "w t ,/eve ,holcombe is do+ is well kn[n1 9 a g5]al way1 b ! public und]/& b little ( ! wond]ful good t man is do+4 ,! re=mations he has br\ght ab\t may be numb]$ by ! hundr$1 & ! drunk>ds he has reclaim$ w\ld make a regim5t4 ,b ( all ! wond]ful & truly />tl+ examples ( :at ,mr4 ,holcombe is do+1 ! case ( ,james ,williams is ! climax4 ,williams has be5 kn[n = ye>s z ,:isky ,jim & ,old ,hoss1 & !re is n a m famili> "* 9 ! city4 ,until ! la/ two or ?ree weeks no man 9 ,l\isville ev] rememb]s to h se5 ,jim free f ! influ5ce ( liquor4 ,he 0 always drunk1 & 0 look$ ^u z an absolutely hopeless case1 t w\ld be able to /& ! t]rible life he 0 lead+ b a ye> or two long]4 ,! /ory ( 8 life & re=mation z relat$ to a ,times report] is v int]e/+4 ,he _h ask$ ,mr4 ,holcombe :5 8 protege c\ld be se51 & 0 told at n9e o'clock at ! mission4 ,williams 0 se5 com+ up ! /eps1 8 face clean %av51 8 eyes bright & 8 gait /eady4 ,mr4 ,holcombe said3 ,!re he is n[1 ,god bless him2 ,i c\ld j kiss him4 ,i knew he'd be "h4 ,"o ?+ ,i've le>n$ ab\t ,jim is1 t he is an hone/ man1 & ano!r is t he w n tell a lie4 ,i feel t ,i c tru/ him4 ,he has _h ! h>de/ /ruggle to ov]come ! dr9k+ habit ,i ev] saw1 & ,i feel sure t he has ga9$ ! victory4 ,i began on him quietly ab\t "o mon? ago & got him to att5d our meet+s4 ,b "h he is4 ,! report] 0 introduc$1 & ,mr4 ,williams readily cons5t$ to tell any?+ conc]n+ himself t w\ld be ( int]e/ to ! public & calculat$ to d good 9 ! cause ( temp]ance4 ,he said3 ,i 0 born 9 ,paducah1 ,ky41 & am =ty-eight ye>s old4 ,my fa!r's "n 0 ,rufus ,a4 ,williams4 ,:ile a boy ,i 0 s5t to s*ool1 & pick$ up a little education4 ,i 0 put at "w 9 a tobacco manufactory1 & am a tobacco-twi/] by trade4 ,my fa!r di$ :5 ,i 0 n9e ye>s old1 aft] :i* our family consi/$ ( my "m1 n[ sev5ty-five ye>s ( age1 my si/] & myself4 ,we n[ live on ! ea/ side ( ,floyd /reet1 ne> ,m>ket4 ,%ortly aft] ,i grew up ,i f\nd "w on ! riv] & h be5 employ$ on ne>ly e boat betwe5 ,l\isville & ,new ,orleans4 ,t is :at d[n$ me4 ,i began to dr9k little by little1 & ! appetite & habit began to gr[ on me until ,i gave up all idea ( resi/ance4 ,up to ye/]day a week ago1 ,i c tru?fully say t ,i h be5 drunk tw5ty-?ree ye>s1 day & night4 ,9 #ahfb ,i got a job on ! ',sci5ce1' ,numb] #b1 a little ,gov]nm5t boat runn+ ! ,ohio & ,cumb]l& riv]s4 ,com+ d[n ! ,cumb]l& on "o trip ,i 0 too sick to "w1 & ! boat put me a%ore ab\t tw5ty miles above ,cl>ksville4 ,! woods :]e ,i 0 dump$ out 7 full ( gu]rillas1 b ,i manag$ to secure a little canoe 9 :i* ,i paddl$ d[n to ,cl>ksville4 ,!re ,i sold x = ?ree doll>s & ) ! small sum ,i _h already ,i came to ?is city1 :]e we 7 !n liv+4 ,i !n drank up e c5t ,i c\ld rake & scrape4 ,i c\ld get all sorts ( "w1 b c\ld keep no job because ,i c\ldn't keep sob]4 ,i f9ally dep5d$ on gett+ odd jobs along ! riv] front1 su* z load+ & unload+ freight1 etc4 ,b ! "w 0 s h>d ,i c\ld sc>cely d x1 & f9ally ,i _h to give t up1 especially aft] fall+ & break+ my leg :ile at "w on ! old ',unit$ ,/ates' sev]al ye>s ago4 ,t accid5t laid me up 9 ! ,m>9e ,hospital = sev]al mon?s1 & j z ,i felt able to get out ,i broke ! same leg aga9 at ! same place4 ,aft] recov]+ ,i yield$ entirely to ! appetite = /rong dr9k & c>$ = no?+ else4 ,z ,i say1 = tw5ty-?ree ye>s ,i h n kn[n :at x is to be sob] until a few days ago4 ,= ! pa/ six ye>s ,i h e>n$ my dr9ks & "s free lun* by pick+ up old boxes & b>rel /aves :i* ,i w\ld dispose ( to ! saloon-keep]s along ! riv] front :o knew me4 ,i did n (t5 ask any "o = money ) :i* to buy :isky1 = ,i c\ld always e>n x 9 ?is mann]4 ,i usually slept at my "m's h\se4 ,z to eat+ ,i did n eat mu* & 0 gett+ s ,i c\ld sc>cely eat at all4 ,i am gett+ ov] t n[1 & h a good appetite1 z ,mr4 ,holcombe c te/ify4 ,well1 ab\t "o mon? ago ,mr4 ,holcombe came to me & gave me a little talk4 ,he did n say mu*1 b he set me to ?9k+ z f> z ,i 0 capable ( ?9k+4 ,he saw me ! second "t1 & !n sev]al times4 ,( c\rse1 ,i 0 always drunk b ,i und]/ood him4 ,f9ally he said to me ',jim1 if y're b\nd to h :isky1 come ar\nd to ! ,mission & let me give x to y4' ,i promis$ him ,i'd come ar\nd1 & ,i did s1 = ,i want$ "s o' ! liquor4 ,aft] ,i _h gone ar\nd sev]al times & he _h giv5 me a few dr9ks1 n to make me drunk1 ( c\rse1 b to help me get sob]1 if possible2 he invit$ me to g 9 & att5d ! religi\s s]vices4 ,i did s & he invit$ me to come aga91 :i* ,i did4 ,at la/ he insi/$ t ,i %\ld take my meals at ! mission1 & ,i h be5 do+ s = "s days4 ,f9ally ,i made up my m9d to quit dr9k+ altoge!r1 & ,i int5d to /ick to ! pl$ge ,i h tak54 ,i 0 full la/ ,sunday week = ! la/ "t4 ,i 0 try+ to tap] (f !n1 b a saloon-keep] on ,m>ket1 j bel[ ,jackson1 kn[+ my condition & kn[+ t ,i 0 try+ to quit1 gave me a bucket ( bock be]4 ,i knew he meant no good to me1 b ,i c\ldn't help dr9k+ x4 ,o!r saloon-keep]s h be5 try+ to get me to dr9k aga91 & ,i ?9k !y are try+ to get me to d a great wrong4 ,i w5t to *ur* ye/]day = ! fir/ "t s9ce ,i 0 a boy4 ,he>d ,dr4 ,eaton prea*4 ,my poor old "m is greatly rejoic$ at ! *ange 9 me1 = ,i h giv5 h] a great deal ( torm5t & mis]y4 ,z soon z ! ,murphy meet+s are ov] ,mr4 ,holcombe & ,i w sp5d a c\ple ( weeks at ,fr5* ,lick ,spr+s4 ,illu/ration3 ,,james ,,williams1 ,,z ,,he ,,is ,dur+ ?is p]iod1 :5 ! mission occupi$ rooms at ,no4 #dcf ,jeff]son /reet1 ! meet+s 7 n conf9$ to t s+le place1 b s]vices 7 held 9 o!r p>ts ( ! city1 on ! /reets & ev5 on ! c\r?\se /eps4 ,_m /rang]s1 z well z citiz5s ( ,l\isville1 att5d$ ^!1 & "s 7 s p[]fully impress$ t aft] go+ away to _! di/ant homes !y wrote back to ,mr4 ,holcombe ackn[l$g+ ! good !y _h receiv$1 & 9 "s in/ances giv+ an acc\nt ( _! conviction1 rep5tance & conv]sion4 ,! ,holcombe ,mission became "o ( ! sights ( ! city1 s t /rang]s visit+ ! city w\ld look x up & att5d s]vices !re4 ,9 #ahhd a new feature 0 add$ :i*1 9 turn1 add$ mu* to ! effici5cy & usefulness ( ! mission4 ,x 0 sugge/$ by ! sight ( ! poorly clad *ildr5 :o att5d$ ! mission ) _! p>5ts1 & :o seem$ will+ & anxi\s !mselves to d bett] & be bett]4 ,?is new feature 0 ! ,indu/rial ,s*ool1 an acc\nt ( ! orig91 hi/ory & me?ods ( :i* is furni%$ by ,mrs4 ,cl>k1 ! ,sup]9t5d5t4 ,a ,sunday-s*ool 0 organiz$ also1 ) ,c4 ,p4 ,atmore1 ,esq41 z ,sup]9t5d5t1 & "s ( ! mo/ e>ne/ ,*ri/ian p ( ! city z tea*]s & help]s4 ,a little lat] ! ,k9d]g>t5 0 also organiz$ & is n[ 9 successful op]ation4 ,illu/ration3 ,,! ,,indu/rial ,,s*ool4 #a4 ,,cutt+ ,,g>m5ts4 #b4 ,,boys ,,mak+ ,,c>pets4 #c4 ,,girls ,,sew+4 ,,! ,,indu/rial ,,s*ool ,,& ,,! ,,k9d]g>t54 ,9 ord] to enl>ge ! mission "w & bett] rea* ! homes ( ! ne$y1 bo? spiritually & temporally1 ! ,union ,gospel ,indu/rial ,s*ool 0 op5$ 9 ,april1 #ahhd1 ) six little girls & ?ree tea*]s 9 att5dance4 ,9 ,may foll[+ x 0 =mally organiz$ z ,! ,union ,gospel ,mission ,indu/rial ,s*ool ) ,mrs4 ,j4 ,r4 ,cl>k1 ,sup]9t5d5t2 ,mrs4 ,l4 ,g4 ,h]ndon1 ,assi/ant ,sup]9t5d5t2 ,miss ,ella ,d[n+1 ,secret>y2 ,miss ,ella ,h>d+1 ,treasur]4 ,9 ,june1 #ahhd1 x clos$ = ! summ] ) tw5ty-two pupils & five tea*]s4 ,9 ,septemb] foll[+ x op5$ = ! fall & w9t] t]m ) ! same tea*]s & a small increase 9 ! numb] ( pupils1 all f ! neglect$ classes4 ,! s*ool 0 organiz$ 9 ! old mission room1 at ,no4 #dcf ,jeff]son /reet1 betwe5 ,f\r? & ,fif?1 & cont9u$ !re = ?ree w9t]s4 ,! *ildr5 came1 h[ev]1 f all p>ts ( ! city1 "s ( !m f g>rets & cell>s4 ,_! ages rang$ f five to eighte5 ye>s4 ,9 ,may1 #ahhf1 ! s*ool 0 remov$ to its pres5t spaci\s rooms 9 ! ,union ,gospel ,mission build+ on ,jeff]son /reet1 above ,fir/4 ,! "w has /eadily increas$1 ea* ye> br++ 9 a l>g] numb] ( ! neglect$ *ildr54 ,^? :o come are s int]e/$ & b5efit$1 !y become mission>ies1 s to speak1 to o!r poor & neglect$ *ildr54 ,!re is "o class ( girls1 h[ev]1 :o are n *>ity-s*ol>s1 b come = ! purpose ( le>n+ to sew4 ,_! "w is done1 n = !mselves1 b = ! y\ng] *ildr5 ( ! poor] class :o are n yet old en\gh to sew4 ,= ?is reason1 ! class j m5tion$ is call$ ,! ,mission>y ,class1 & x is "o ( :i* ! s*ool is ju/ly pr\d4 ,!y n only d _! "w = o!rs1 !y d good 9 o!r ways & 9 g5]al ex]t a good influ5ce ov] ! o!r *ildr5 :o are less =tunate4 ,! *ildr5 are fir/ taught all ! diff]5t /it*es t are us$ 9 sew+4 ,!n "w is cut out = !m by a committee ( ladies :o att5d = t purpose1 & ! *ildr5 are taught to make all k9ds ( g>m5ts4 ,:5 ! g>m5t is complet$ & passes exam9ation1 x is giv5 to ! *ild :o made x4 ,!re is a class ( boys1 sixty 9 numb]1 rang+ f five to twelve ye>s ( age4 ,^! are fir/ taught to sew on buttons & to m5d r5ts 9 _! own clo!s & !n o!r ?+s foll[4 ,!y are at pres5t engag$ 9 mak+ a c>pet = ,mr4 ,holcombe's (fice4 ,! tea*]s 9 *>ge ( !m endeavor to tra9 !m to habits ( indu/ry1 self-reliance1 cleanl9ess1 tru?fulness1 etc4 ,"s ( ! boys are v bright & promis+ & "s ( !m seem hopelessly c[$ & brok54 ,_! hi/ories w\ld1 d\btless1 be full ( pa?os & ( pa91 if !y 7 kn[n4 ,! s*ool meets e ,saturday morn+ at #i3ae4 ,! op5+ s]vices consi/ (-- #a4 ,s++ 7,gospel ,hymns74 #b4 ,responsive recitation ( a ,psalm1 or ! ,beatitudes or ! ,t5 ,comm&m5ts4 #c4 ,pray]4 #d4 ,di/ribution ( "w-baskets4 ,! sew+ cont9ues = "o h\r & a half1 !n1 at ! tap ( ! bell1 ! "w is fold$ nicely1 replac$ 9 ! basket & tak5 to ano!r room4 ,! *ildr5 !n return to ! l>ge room & jo9 9 ! clos+ ex]cises1 :i* consi/ (-- #e4 ,s++4 #f4 ,repeat+ ( ,scripture texts1 ea* tea*] & *ild repeat+ a v]se2 or ?is is sometimes replac$ ) a *alk-talk1 sometimes ) a %ort address on ! ,sunday-s*ool lesson = ! foll[+ ,sunday1 sometimes ) a %ort e>ne/ appeal to ! *ildr5 by "s visitor :o is kn[n to be an effective speak] = su* occasions4 #g4 ,! ,"l's ,pray] is recit$ 9 conc]t4 #h4 ,dismissal4 ,! tea*]s1 besides in/ruct+ ! *ildr5 9 ! art ( sew+1 conv]se ) !m on pleasant & pr(itable topics & ^u ! subject ( religion 9 seasonable times & ways4 ,q a numb] ( families h be5 br\ght "u ,*ri/ian influ5ce ?r\gh ! pupils ( ! ,indu/rial ,s*ool4 ,sev]al p>5ts z well z *ildr5 h be5 conv]t$4 ,mr4 ,rob]t ,d5ny1 ! acc\nt ( ^: conv]sion is giv5 by himself 9 ano!r "p ( ?is volume1 0 induc$ to att5d ! meet+s ( ! ,holcombe ,mission by :at 8 *ildr5 told him ( ! ?+s !y le>n$ at ! ,indu/rial ,s*ool4 ,"o ( ! memb]s ( ! fir/ class ( six & h] "m are n[ acceptable memb]s ( ! ,fir/ ,presbyt]ian *ur*4 ,! daught] has become an arti/ & is employ$ 9 ret\*+ pictures 9 "o ( ! city photograph gall]ies4 ,?ree or f\r ( ! girls connect$ ) ! s*ool h di$4 ,two ( !m1 "o ag$ twelve & ! o!r f\rte51 gave e evid5ce ( be+ ,*ri/ians4 ,"o ( ^! :5 ask$ :5 %e le>n$ to love ,god & to pray1 answ]$1 ,at ! sew+ s*ool2 ,jesus is always !re4 ,_m :5 !y began to att5d did n ev5 "k ! little pray] beg9n+3 ,n[ ,i lay me d[n to sleep4 ,! ignorance ( ^! poor *ildr5 l$ ! sup]9t5d5t to op5 a ,mo!rs' ,meet+1 = ! mo!rs ( ^! *ildr5 & any o!rs :o might wi% to att5d4 ,! results h be5 wond]ful4 ,s _m homes h become *ang$1 & are n[ neat1 clean1 ord]ly & happy4 ,9 ! r\nds ( ! sup]9t5d5t's visits %e f\nd a v sick woman :o said to h]3 ,oh1 ,i'm s glad y h come1 ,mrs4 ,cl>k4 ,i want y to pray ) me4 ,mrs4 ,cl>k said1 ,c't y pray y\rself8 ,%e repli$1 ,i don't "k :at to say4 ,i did n "k ',n[ ,i lay me d[n to sleep1' till my little ,j5nie le>n$ x at ! sew+ s*ool1 & ,i le>n$ x f h]4 ,b c't y say ',our ,fa!r :o art 9 heav58' ask$ ,mrs4 ,cl>k4 ,no2 n all ( x1 ,i "k only a little ( x4 ,mrs4 ,cl>k 0 mu* mov$ at ! ignorance1 helplessness & ne$ ( ! poor woman1 & 0 pray+ ) h] :5 ! husb& came 94 ,%e talk$ ) him & he 0 deeply impress$1 & be=e %e left promis$ he w\ld try to live a bett] life4 ,a position z /reet c> driv] 0 gott5 = him1 & = a :ile he did well1 b aft] a "t he fell into 8 old ways & 0 dismiss$4 ,b1 ?r\gh ! int]v5tion ( ! fri5ds :o _h help$ him be=e1 he 0 re/or$ to 8 place1 & to-day he is a sob] indu/ri\s man & a memb] ( ! ,fir/ ,*ri/ian *ur* 9 ! city4 ,illu/ration3 ,,k9d]g>t51 ,,?anksgiv+ ,,day ,p]haps a score ( simil> in/ances c\ld be cit$4 ,! sew+ s*ool clos$ ,may #ab1 #ahhh1 ) ! annual picnic4 ,! foll[+ is ! report = ! ye> j pa/3 ,av]age weekly att5dance ( girls1 #afb2 av]age weekly att5dance ( boys1 #ba2 total av]age att5dance ( pupils1 #ahc2 av]age att5dance ( (fic]s & tea*]s1 #cb2 av]age att5dance ( visitors1 #d2 total av]age att5dance1 #bai2 total numb] ( g>m5ts made by1 & giv5 to1 ! *ildr51 #hdh4 ,! (fic]s = ! pa/ ye> 7 z foll[s3 ,mrs4 ,j4 ,r4 ,cl>k1 sup]9t5d5t2 ,miss ,m>y ,l4 ,graham1 assi/ant sup]9t5d5t2 ,mrs4 ,l4 ,g4 ,h]ndon1 sup]9t5d5t ( "w2 ,miss ,li?g[1 treasur]2 ,miss ,ella ,g>d9]1 secret>y4 ,,! ,,k9d]g>t54 ,9 ,janu>y1 #ahhe1 !re 7 s _m little boys & girls betwe5 ! ages ( ?ree & five ye>s t ! tea*]s did n "k :at to d ) !m4 ,! sup]9t5d5t1 :o _h "s k ( ! k9d]g>t5 sy/em1 believ$ t its introduction "h 0 :at 0 ne$$4 ,%e c\ld n see h] way cle>1 h[ev]1 to incur any m exp5se4 ,b 9 answ] to pray] ! way 0 op5$4 ,money 0 giv5 = ! appliances & ,miss ,graham1 an excell5t tea*]1 (f]$ h] s]vices freely4 ,! class at fir/ av]ag$ tw5ty-f\r pupils1 met ea* ,saturday morn+ 9 connection ) ! sew+ s*ool1 & 0 call$ ! ,k9d]g>t5 class4 ,! int]e/ increas$ till ,febru>y1 #ahhf1 :5 ! bo>d ( directors ( ! ,holcombe ,mission cons5t$ t ! sup]9t5d5t %\ld op5 a regul> k9d]g>t5 = e day 9 ! week except ,saturday4 ,m money 0 rais$ & a tra9$ k9d]g>t5 tea*] f ,c9c9nati 0 employ$4 ,9 ,june1 #ahhf1 ! s*ool clos$ ) sixty little *ildr5 9 att5dance & f\r "y ladies tra9+ = k9d]g>t5 tea*]s4 ,arrangem5ts 7 made = ! foll[+ ye> & sev]al hundr$ doll>s pl$g$4 ,9 ,septemb]1 #ahhg1 ! k9d]g>t5 0 re-op5$ ) ,miss ,bryan1 ( ,*icago1 z tea*] ( tra9+ class & sup]9t5d5t ( ! s*ool4 ,9 ! foll[+ ,octob] a l>ge & en?usia/ic meet+ 0 held 9 ! ,w>r5 ,memorial *ur* & ! ,free ,k9d]g>t5 ,association 0 =mally organiz$4 ,9 ,febru>y1 #ahhh1 a second free k9d]g>t5 0 op5$ 9 ano!r "p ( ! city4 ,! ye>'s "w clos$ 9 ,june1 #ahhh1 five "y ladies graduat+ z k9d]g>t5 tea*]s4 ,! numb] ( *ildr5 enroll$ = ! ye> 0 "o hundr$4 ,! k9d]g>t51 x w be notic$1 is ?us di/9ct f ! indu/rial s*ool4 ,9 #ahhe1 ano!r dep>tm5t /ill 0 add$ to meet a want :i* _h be5 develop$ 9 ! progress ( ! "w4 ,! great numb] ( brok5-d[n m5 & tramps t came to ,mr4 ,holcombe = food & help ( "o sort or ano!r made x impossible = him to give !m lodg+ 9 ! mission rooms or bo>d 9 8 own family4 ,& x enc\rag$ indol5ce 9 unwor?y m5 to fe$ & lodge !m z a m]e *>ity4 ,& yet1 if any?+ 0 to be done = _! s\ls1 !y _h = a "t to be c>$ =4 ,mr4 ,holcombe conceiv$ ! idea1 !re=e1 ( e/abli%+ "s sort ( a place 9 connection ) 8 "w1 :]e ^! m5 might e>n _! food & lodg+ by ! sweat ( _! br[s & at ! same "t be br\ght "u ! p[]ful religi\s influ5ces ( ! ,mission4 ,illu/ration3 ,,mrs4 ,j4 ,m4 ,,cl>k4 ,! result 0 ! e/abli%m5t ( ! ,wayf>]s' ,re/4 ,mayor ,re$ & ,*ief ( ,police ,:all5 gave ,mr4 ,holcombe a police /ation build+ free ( r5t & ,mr4 ,j4 ,t4 ,burgh>d gave ! money to furni% x ) bunks1 /ove1 cook+ ut5sils1 facilities = ba?+1 etc41 & x became at once an e/abli%$ feature1 & a v admirable "o1 ( ! ,union ,gospel ,mission4 ,:5 ,mayor ,jacob came into (fice he gladly cont9u$ ! use ( ! build+ free ( r5t1 & ! in/itution has cont9u$ 9 successful op]ation up to ! pres5t "t--a space ( ?ree ye>s4 ,! rooms are arrang$ = ! accommodation ( sixty m54 ,all :o come are requir$ to d "s sort ( "w = :atev] !y receive1 :e!r x be food or lodg+4 ,! m5 d v>i\s k9ds ( "w1 accord+ to _! sev]al ability1 b ! *ief employm5t is saw+ k9dl+ wood out ( mat]ial provid$ by ! sup]9t5d5t4 ,ea* man is requir$ to "w an h\r = "o night's lodg+ or = a meal4 ,! k9dl+ wood is sold all ov] ! city1 & "u ! excell5t managem5t ( ,mr4 ,w4 ,h4 ,black1 ! pres5t sup]9t5d5t1 ! ent]prise has become m ?an self-support+1 br++ 9 en\gh to pay ! sal>y ( ! sup]9t5d5t & ! book-keep]1 & leav+ a surplus4 ,x %\ld1 p]haps1 9 ju/ice be add$1 t donations ( food are made daily & h be5 f ! beg9n+1 by ! ,alex&] ,hotel ,company4 ,dur+ ! w9t] ( #ahhg ,mr4 ,black f$ & lodg$ an av]age ( fifty m5 a day4 ,he has nev] turn$ "o away4 ,! av]age income p] day f ! sale ( k9dl+ wood is1 9 w9t]1 t5 doll>s4 ,! rules = ! gov]nm5t ( ! inmates requir+ regi/ration1 cleanl9ess1 ba?+1 etc41 are wisely conceiv$ & /rictly c>ri$ out4 ,?is in/itution has prov$ 9 ,l\isville ! solution ( ! vex$ "q z to ! prop] treatm5t ( tramps & begg>s4 ,! citiz5s1 in/ead ( enc\rag+ indol5ce & paup]ism by fe$+ tramps at _! h\ses1 "s ( :om are burgl>s 9 disguise1 c n[ s5d !m to ! ,wayf>]s' ,re/1 :]e !y are always sure ( f9d+ food & lodg+1 &1 :at is bett]1 ! opportunity ( e>n+ :at !y get by hone/ "w4 ,& ,mr4 ,holcombe's exp]i5ce z a tramp 9 ,colorado leads him to take a bro!rly int]e/ 9 all ^! un=tunate m54 ,9 #ahhf1 ! "w _h exp&$ beyond its qu>t]s & beyond all expectations4 ,x 0 pr$ict$ t ,/eve ,holcombe w\ld hold out ?ree mon?s4 ,he _h n[ held out ?ree times ?ree ye>s1 & t ?r\gh unprec$5t$ trials & disc\ragem5ts4 ,dur+ ^! n9e ye>s he _h help$ _m & _m a man1 almo/ z bad z he1 into ! bless$ life t he 0 liv+4 ,he _h e/abli%$ a unique in/itution 9 ! city ( ,l\isville :i* _h be5 ! means ( help+ & uplift+ & bless+ m5 & wom5 & :ole families4 ,b ! end 0 n yet4 ,! man & 8 "w _h s won ! confid5ce ( ! p ( ! city t 9 #ahhf1 a =mal reque/ 0 made by ! ,evangelical *ur*es ( ! city t !y be all[$ to %>e ) ! ,walnut-/reet ,me?odi/ *ur* 9 ! exp5se & ! c>e & ! usefulness ( ! ,mission4 ,x 0 *ang$ !n into a ,union ,mission1 & repres5tatives f ! ,presbyt]ian1 ,bapti/1 ,episcopal1 ,*ri/ian & ,lu!ran *ur*es 7 add$ to ! bo>d ( directors4 ,9 ! same ye>1 :5 ,mr4 ,holcombe 0 feel+ ! ne$ ( m spaci\s qu>t]s = 8 exp&+ "w1 ! l>ge & elegant h\se on ,jeff]son /reet above ,fir/1 kn[n z ! ,smi? ,prop]ty1 0 adv]tis$ = sale4 ,mr4 ,holcombe saw x & lik$ x4 ,x 0 ! v sort ( a build+ he ne$$ = 8 "w & all its v>i\s dep>tm5ts4 ,he procur$ ! keys & w5t ?r\gh ! build+ alone1 f cell> to g>ret1 /opp+ 9 e room to pray t1 9 "s way1 ,god w\ld put x into 8 h&s1 ) a firm p]suasion1 moreov]1 t 8 pray] w\ld be answ]$4 ,an int]e/+ lett] writt5 by ,mr4 ,holcombe 9 ,febru>y1 #ahhf1 conta9s a ref]5ce to ! project ( pur*as+ ! new h\se4 ,x is address$ to "o ( ! conv]ts ( ! ,mission1 ,mr4 ,s4 ,p4 ,dalton1 ( ,clevel&1 ,ohio1 &1 z x %[s also ,mr4 ,holcombe's int]e/ 9 8 spiritual *ildr51 x is giv5 entire3 ,,l\isville1 ,,ky41 ,febru>y #c1 #ahhf4 ,de> ,bro!r ,dalton3 ,y\r welcome & enc\rag+ lett] is j receiv$4 ,i ackn[l$ge y\r claim1 s g5tly urg$1 to some?+ bett] ?an a ha/y po/al 9 reply4 ,:5 ,i write y briefly1 x is because my "w compels x4 ,my s\l delights to commune ) spirits l y\rs1 consecrat$ to ,god1 & ) bro!rs :o live 9 my memory z associates 9 our humble "w "h4 ,our mission is be+ abundantly bless$ ( ,god1 al?\gh meet+1 f "t to "t1 ) ^? drawbacks :i* rem9d u ( our dep5d5ce & ! ne$ ( con/ant pray]4 ,we are hav+ good meet+s & conv]sions are num]\s1 &1 z a rule1 ( su* a "* z to make u believe !y are g5u9e & p]man5t4 ,z ,i write1 our fri5ds are canvass+ ! city = ! collection ( means to pur*ase ! old ,smi? mansion on ,jeff]son /reet1 = our use1 & believ+ all our "w to be ( ,god ,i h no d\bt t x w be ours )9 a week4 ,!n %all we d a great "w = ,l\isville & = s\ls4 ,our sew+-s*ool & our ,sunday-s*ool1 hav+ outgr[n our pres5t qu>t]s1 w be greatly enl>g$1 & e dep>tm5t ( our "w also4 ,i am truly glad y are hav+ su* opportunities ( do+ good 9 ,clevel&4 ,may ,god bless y & y\r de> wife1 my de> bro!r1 & 9 ,8 own "t br+ y back to u & to ! "w :i* always ne$s su* help1 is ! pray] ( ,y\r bro!r1 ,s4 ,p4 ,,holcombe4 ,an incid5t t occurr$ 9 connection ) ! pur*ase ( ?is elegant prop]ty w %[ h[ ,mr4 ,holcombe & 8 "w 7 look$ ^u 9 ,l\isville ev5 by ^? :o 7 n ,*ri/ians4 ,illu/ration3 ,,! ,,wayf>]',s ,,re/4 #a4 ,,ext]ior4 #b4 ,,(fice4 #c4 ,,sleep+ ,,ap>tm5t4 #d4 ,,tak+ ,,meals4 #e4 ,,at ,,"w4 #f4 ,,on ,,! ,,levee4 ,a ,g]man s++ society 0 negotiat+ = ! build+ at ! same "t1 & _h (f]$ a high] price ?an ! fri5ds ( ! ,mission ?\ght !y c\ld give4 ,mr4 ,holcombe w5t to ! lead] ( ! society & told him he desir$ ! build+ = ! ,mission1 &1 ?\gh ! man 0 an unbeliev]1 he said3 ,mr4 ,holcombe1 ?\gh ,i am n a ,*ri/ian & d n believe 9 ,*ri/ianity1 ,i d believe 9 ! "w y are do+4 ,i w n be 9 ! way ( y\r gett+ t build+4 ,he )drew 8 bid at once1 & ! ,directors ( ! ,holcombe ,mission pur*as$ x = #ab1ejj4 ,mr4 ,holcombe at once took possession4 ,he fitt$ up ! rooms ( ! l[] floor = ! v>i\s dep>tm5ts ( ! mission "w4 ,! l>ge & elegant d\ble-p>lors 7 ?r[n into "o & arrang$ = ! audi5ce-room4 ,?is has a seat+ capacity ( two hundr$ or m4 ,! o!r rooms ( ! l[] floor are us$1 "o = ,mr4 ,holcombe's (fice1 two o!rs = ! ,k9d]g>t51 ano!r = a cloak-room1 & s on4 ,! second floor1 ) its sev5 l>ge1 bright1 airy rooms1 is occupi$ by ,mr4 ,holcombe's family1 &1 = ! fir/ "t s9ce 8 conv]sion1 !y are 9 com=table qu>t]s4 ,,*apt] ,v4 ,at la/ aft] ye>s ( love & fai? & fai?fulness ,mrs4 ,holcombe has h] full rew>d & joy4 ,! long tw5ty-five ye>s ( sorr[ & susp5se pass$ by & h] husb& is :at %e unconsci\sly believ$ h] love _h ! p[] ( wait+ = him to become--a good man4 ,& m ?an a good man4 ,he is consum$ ) ! desire & someh[ clo!d ) ! p[] ( mak+ o!r m5 good1 ( mak+ bad m5 good1 ( mak+ ! wor/ ( bad m5 good4 ,?is he has n[ be5 do+1 by ,god's grace1 = sev5 fai?ful ye>s & m--& cont9ues to d4 ,h] husb& is honor$ & belov$ = 8 "*1 8 "w & 8 usefulness--no man1 no m9i/] 9 ,l\isville m s4 ,all h] *ildr5 are memb]s ( ! *ur* ev5 d[n to little ,pe>l1 ! late/-born4 ,h] olde/ son1 h] ,willie1 is happily m>ri$1 occupies ! position ( book-keep] ) ! ,siev]s ,h>dw>e ,company on ,ma9 /reet1 & is an effici5t (fic] ( ! *ur* ( ,god4 ,h] second daught] is happily m>ri$ to a ,*ri/ian man1 "o ( ! be/ ( husb&s1 :o is book-keep] 9 ! old ,k5tucky ,wool5 ,mills1 ( ,l\isville4 ,h] olde/ daught] is a devot$ ,*ri/ian & s]ves ) equal effici5cy z organi/ ( ! ,mission & tea*] 9 ! ,k9d]g>t54 ,h] baby-boy n[ eighte5 ye>s old & ! rise ( six feet 9 height is a memb] ( ! *ur* & a good boy4 ,he also is 9 bus9ess ) ! ,siev]s ,h>dw>e ,company on ,ma9 /reet4 ,& ,pe>l1 ! blue-ey$1 gold5-hair$1 eight-ye>-old girl baby is1 nobody d>e "q1 ! fl[] ( ! flock4 ,h] dead *ildr5 are 9 heav5 all1 = !y di$ be=e !y knew s91 & h] liv+ *ildr5 are on ! way to heav51 all1 = !y tru/ 9 & s]ve ,him :o 0 manife/$ to take away s94 ,illu/ration3 ,,mrs4 ,s4 ,p4 ,,holcombe4 ,mrs4 ,holcombe helps h] husb& 9 8 noble "w & ! conv]ts look on h] z _! spiritual "m z !y reg>d him z _! spiritual fa!r4 ,%e might say ) ,simeon1 ! ,nunc dimittis1 ,n[ lette/ ?\ ?y s]vant dep>t 9 peace1 = m9e eyes h se5 ?y salvation2 b in/ead ( t %e says ) ,/4 ,paul1 ,nev]!less to abide 9 ! fle% is m ne$ful = my husb&1 my *ildr5 & ! "w ( ,*ri/4 ,mrs4 ,holcombe /ill has trials1 b !y are few & small1 :ile h] bless+s are _m & great4 ,%e /ill has faults1 p]haps1 z mo/ ( mortals h2 b !y are few & small1 :ile h] virtues are v _m & v great4 ,_m daught]s h done virtu\sly b few h excell$ ?is "o 9 ^? qualities :i* con/itute a noble womanly "*4 ,! foll[+ lett]1 writt5 to h] by h] husb& dur+ a %ort visit 9 ! c\ntry1 w %[ h[ t aft] s long a "t ( wait+1 ! hope ( h] e>lie/ love is realiz$ at la/4 ,,l\isville1 ,,ky41 ,may #bi1 #ahhh4 ,my ,de> ,wife3 ,y\r lett] to h&4 ,i am s happy to "k t y are hav+ a good "t4 ,isn't ,god good to u8 ,:5 we look back ov] our pa/ lives & see h[ good ,god has be5 to u1 h[ ?ankful we %\ld be4 ,v little sickness 9 our imm$iate family & no dea? 9 ?irty ye>s4 ,! two babes t we lo/ ?irty ye>s ago are safe 9 ! arms ( ,jesus1 & all ! liv+ ones are sweetly tru/+ 9 ,him4 ,let u f ?is h\r be m e>ne/ & untir+ 9 our ef=ts to save ! *ildr5 ( o!rs4 ,kiss ,mamie = me & !n look 9 ! glass & kiss y\rself a ?\s& times = him :o loves y ) a true1 deep love4 ,y\rs 9 life1 y\rs 9 dea?1 ,,/eve ,p4 ,,holcombe4 ,^? :o are famili> ) ,mr4 ,holcombe's c>e] z a ,*ri/ian work] w\ld reg>d any sket* ( 8 life incomplete :i* did n conta9 "s acc\nt ( ! assault made ^u him by ?ree /range m5 9 ! w9t] ( #ahhg4 ,a few mon?s aft] 8 removal to ! new qu>t]s t _h be5 pur*as$ by ! ,mission1 he 0 attack$ by ?ree m5 9 8 own h\se & sev]ely injur$4 ,on a ,sunday aft]noon 9 ,janu>y1 #ahhg1 he he>d "s "o walk+ 9 ! hall on ! second floor ( ! build+1 & w5t out to see :o x 04 ,he f\nd a man !re :om he _h nev] se5 be=e1 & ask$ him :o he 0 & :at he want$4 ,! man repli$ 9 an insol5t1 mann] t he _h come to visit a s]vant girl :o 0 at ! "t work+ 9 ,mr4 ,holcombe's family4 ,:5 ,mr4 ,holcombe ask$ him :y he came into 8 private family ap>tm5ts1 ! man became m impud5t & defiant1 & gave utt]ance to "s abusive language4 ,already provok$ at ! man's audacity & al>m$ at ! ?\ght ( :at su* a ruffian might h done to "s "o ( 8 family if he _h be5 abs5t1 ,mr4 ,holcombe's quick nature n[ became s exasp]at$ t he =got himself = a mom5t & ?ru/ ! man viol5tly d[n ! /airway & out ( ! h\se4 ,! man left ! place & ,mr4 ,holcombe ?\ght t 0 ! end ( x4 ,b an h\r or two lat] "s "o knock$ at 8 room door on ! same floor1 & z he op5$ x1 he saw himself confront$ by ?ree m51 "o ( :om he recogniz$ z ! man he _h put out ( ! h\se4 ,! two o!rs pr(ess$ to be policem5 :o _h come to arre/ ,mr4 ,holcombe1 b :5 he ask$ to see _! badges ( au?ority !y seiz$ him4 ,"o aga9/ ?ree1 he resi/$ !m ) all 8 might1 utt]+ no cry ( di/ress or call = help4 ,9 ! /ruggle ,mr4 ,holcombe's leg 0 brok51 bo? bones ( x1 & z he fell1 ) all 8 weight1 ! m5 ?\ght he 0 badly hurt & fl$1 leav+ him ly+ helpless on ! floor4 ,he 0 tak5 up by ^? :om he call$ & laid on 8 b$4 ,physicians 7 s5t =4 ,! news spread 9 a few m9utes all ov] ! neighborhood1 & be=e night1 all ov] ! city4 ,! ,*ief ( ,police1 ,colonel ,:all51 set 8 detectives to "w look+ = ! m51 & _m citiz5s1 self-con/itut$ detectives1 inquir$ conc]n+ ! appe>ance ( ! m5 & kept a %>p look\t = !m4 ,b !y succe$$ 9 escap+1 & x 01 p]haps1 well = !m !y did4 ,be=e night ,mr4 ,holcombe's room 0 cr[d$ ) fri5ds fill$ ) sympa?y & indignation4 ,drs4 ,kelly & ,alex&] set ! brok5 limb & gave ,mr4 ,holcombe ! unwelcome bit ( in=mation t he w\ld h to lie 9 8 b$ = "s five or six weeks1 a sore trial to 8 re/less _s2 b by ! help ( ,god he accept$ x & settl$ d[n to endure x1 n kn[+1 h[ev]1 :at good he 0 to get out ( x4 ,x 0 an opportunity = ! p ( ,l\isville to %[ _! e/imation & appreciation ( him1 & x is safe to say t no man 9 ,l\isville w\ld h receiv$ ! att5tions & favors :i* ?is poor conv]t$ gambl]1 ,/eve ,holcombe1 did receive4 ,x rem9ds "o ( a passage 9 ,dr4 ,prime's acc\nt ( ! fun]al ( ,j]ry ,mc,auley 9 ! ,broadway ,tab]nacle 9 ,new ,york4 ,dr4 ,prime himself 0 to conduct ! fun]al s]vice1 & ?is is :at he says3 ,we are go+ to-day to ! tab]nacle to talk ( :at ,j]ry ,mc,auley 0 & :at he has done1 to ! little congregation t w ga!r !re4 ,if x 7 ,dr4 ,taylor1 ! belov$ & honor$ pa/or1 ! h\se w\ld be cr[d$ & ! /reets full ( m\rn]s1 b poor ,j]ry1 he is dead & :o w be !re to weep ) u ov] 8 rema9s8 ,ah1 h[ little did ,i "k ! place poor ,j]ry held 9 ! he>ts ( ! p ( ?is va/ city6 ,i 0 to conduct ! fun]al & w5t e>ly to complete all arrangem5ts4 ,z ,i turn$ d[n f ,fif? av5ue ?r\gh ,?irty-f\r? /reet1 ,i saw a va/ multitude /&+ 9 ! sun%9e1 fill+ ! /reets & ! squ>e 9 front ( ! tab]nacle4 ,a/oni%$ at ! spectacle & wond]+ :y !y did n g & take seats 9 ! *ur*1 ,i soon f\nd t ! h\se 0 pack$ ) p s t x 0 impossible = me to get )9 ! door4 ,proclamation 0 made t ! cl]gy :o 7 to (ficiate 7 on ! outside1 & a passage 0 made = u to ent]4 ,:at c\ld be m impressive & :at m expressive ( ! e/imate set ^u ! man & 8 "w8 ,!re is no o!r ,*ri/ian work] 9 ! city :o w\ld h call$ out ^! unc\nt$ ?\s&s 9 a la/ tribute ( love & 9 honor ( 8 memory4 ,! tribute :i* ! p ( ,l\isville paid to ! "w & wor? ( ,/eve ,holcombe be=e 8 dea? 0 h>dly less4 ,on ,monday1 ! day foll[+ 8 mis=tune1 ,mr4 ,holcombe's room 01 ne>ly all ! day long1 full ( p ( e grade1 f ! mayor & ! ri*e/ & f9e/ p on ,broadway & ,f\r? av5ue1 d[n to ! poor drunk>d & outca/1 :o =got 8 %abby dress & press$ 9 among ^? f9e p 9 ord] to see ,bro!r ,holcombe1 & f9d out h[ he 04 ,! m9i/]s ( ! lead+ *ur*es ( e ,prote/ant d5om9ation came ) words ( sympa?y & pray]4 ,f9e ladies came 9 _! c>riages1 br++ baskets ( fruit & all sorts ( delicacies4 ,^? :o c\ld n g s5t lett]s & messages4 ,& ,mr4 ,holcombe lay 9 8 b$ & wept--n = pa91 b = gratitude & humble joy4 ,:y1 said he1 ,i w\ld be will+ to h half a doz5 legs brok5 to "k t ^! p ?9k s mu* ( me & ( my poor ef=ts to be useful4 ,?is1 !n1 0 ! fir/ comp5sation & bless+4 ,he le>n$ also t x w\ld be absolutely necess>y = him to wat* m closely 8 impulsive & fi]y temp]1 & get a bett] control ( x4 ,= he does n d5y t he 0 inexcusably ha/y & sev]e 9 8 treatm5t ( ! impud5t intrud]4 ,& !n he 0 tempor>ily reliev$ f ! incessant dem&s & ! con/ant /ra9 ( 8 daily activity & 8 nightly anxiety4 ,he _h "t & opportunity1 z f> z ! importunity & k9dness ( 8 fri5ds w\ld all[1 to get calm$1 to look d[n into 8 own he>t1 to analyze 8 motives1 to /udy 8 own nature1 to see 8 own faults1 to f9d out 8 own ne$s & to pray4 ,he _h be5 told by "o ( 8 fri5ds1 t :ile he did n "w too mu*1 he did n pray en\gh1 & t he 01 !re=e1 liable to be ov]tak5 by "s sudd5 temptation & be betray$ into s94 ,t same fri5d1 9 conduct+ s]vice 9 "o ( ! *ur*es ( ! city on t v ,sunday morn+1 _h (f]$ special public pray] = ,mr4 ,holcombe & 8 "w4 ,he pray$ specifically t if ,bro!r ,holcombe ne$$ a ?orn 9 ! fle%1 to keep him humble1 ,god w\ld s5d x4 ,x 0 ?\ght to be a special & spe$y answ]1 t be=e sund[n ( t v day1 ,mr4 ,holcombe did receive almo/ lit]ally a ?orn 9 ! fle%2 a mess5g] ( ,satan x 0 )al to buffet him4 ,& ,mr4 ,holcombe 0 ! fir/ to ackn[l$ge t he ne$$ ?is trial & ! ?reefold bless+ :i* came ) x4 ,! p]petrators ( ! c[>dly de$ 71 "s "t aft]w>d1 caught & imprison$--e "o ( !m4 ,"o ( !m has be5 p>don$ & releas$1 & ?r\gh ,mr4 ,holcombe's k9dly int]v5tion ! o!r two probably w be1 :ile ?r\gh 8 fri5dly c\nsels "o ( !m has be5 br\ght to realize 8 own s9fulness1 & has promis$ to live a bett] life4 ,x w\ld be out ( ! "q to reproduce "h all ! writt5 messages ( sympa?y :i* ,mr4 ,holcombe receiv$ dur+ 8 conf9em5t f ! injury he receiv$4 ,b "o ( !m is too t\*+ & beautiful to be left out4 ,x 0 writt5 by ,miss ,j5nie ,cass$ay1 a lady ( culture & ref9em5t1 :o has1 = eighte5 ye>s1 be5 conf9$ to h] sick b$4 ,%e is well kn[n z ! orig9ator ( ! ,fl[] ,missions1 :i*1 all ov] ?is c\ntry1 h be5 ! be>]s ( bless+ to _m unbless$ & unlov$ ones3 ,,sick ,,b$1 ,janu>y #ah1 #ahhg4 ,de> ,*ri/ian ,fri5d3 ,i s5d y "s l9es :i* h be5 a great bless+ to me3 ',i c n say1 ,b5ea? ! pressure ( life's c>es to-day1 ,i joy 9 ^!2 ,b ,i c say ,t ,i _h r walk ?is rugg$ way ,if ,him x please4 ',i c n feel ,t all is well1 :5 d>k5+ cl\ds conceal ,! %9+ sun2 ,b !n ,i "k ,god lives & loves1 & say1 s9ce t is s1 ,?y w be done4 ',i c n speak ,9 happy tones2 ! te>-drops on my *eek ,%[ ,i am sad2 ,b ,i c speak ,( grace to suff] ) submission meek1 ,until made glad4 ',i d n see ,:y ,god %\ld e'en p]mit "s ?+s to be2 ,:5 ,he is ,love2 ,b ,i c see1 ,?\gh (t5 dimly1 ?r\gh ! my/]y1 ,8 h& above4 ',i d n "k ,:]e falls ! se$ t ,i h tri$ to s[ ,) greate/ c>e2 ,b ,i %all "k ,! mean+ ( ea* wait+ h\r bel[ ,sometime1 some:]e4' ,select$ ) t5d] sympa?y4 ,y\r fri5d1 ,,j5nie ,,cass$ay4 ,,*apt] ,,vi4 ,9 conclusion x w n be out ( place to glance = a mom5t backw>d & to call att5tion def9itely to "s pla9 facts4 ,mr4 ,holcombe inh]it$ f 8 p>5ts a div]sely p]v]se & bad nature4 ,already 9 8 *ildhood he 0 cross1 irritable1 spiteful4 ,9 8 boyhood 8 temp] 0 savage & rev5gful4 ,9 8 manhood he took ! life ( a fell[man4 ,he inh]it$ ! love ( dr9k f 8 fa!r1 :o 0 a confirm$ drunk>d be=e ! *ild 0 born2 & ! *ild himself 0 drunk be=e he 0 twelve ye>s old4 ,he 0 giv5 to s5suality f 8 boyhood4 ,8 education 0 n good--z f> z ! educat+ p[] ( daily example goes1 x 0 bad1 positively bad1 cont9ually bad4 ,8 associations outside ( home 71 = ! mo/ "p1 ( ! wor/ sort4 ,8 boyi% companions 7 giv5 to gambl+1 pilf]+1 fight+1 & 9 all ^! ?+s !y call$ him *ief4 ,b ! companion%ip ( boys did n long satisfy him & already be=e he 0 fifte51 he drank & gambl$ ) gr[n m5 9 ! b>-rooms ( ! village4 ,he _h an impulsive sympa?y = helpless suff]+ :5 x 0 be=e 8 eyes4 ,he _h a vague1 fa9t fe> ( ! ,p[] t makes = righte\sness1 s t 9 8 y\? he made ?ree or f\r ineffectual ef=ts to get ! ma/]y ( 8 evil nature & to become bett]4 ,he provid$ well = 8 family 9 meat & dr9k & ! l4 ,he 0 g5]\s to 8 fri5ds4 ,:5 ?is is said1 ab\t all is said on t side4 ,ap>t f ^! ?+s he gave himself up = =ty ye>s to ! indulg5ce ( all 8 passions )\t let or h9d]ance f p>5tal au?ority1 dome/ic bonds1 fe> ( ,god or reg>d = man4 ,s t ! adv]se p[] ( evil habit1 /r5g!n$ by =ty ye>s ( indulg5ce1 0 sup]impos$ ^u ! moral helplessness ( an inh]it$ bad nature made worse by bad education & bad associations4 ,su* he 04 ,! prec$+ pages h describ$ 9 "p :at he is4 ,& only 9 "p4 ,! utt]mo/ details ( ! purity ( 8 life s9ce ,octob]1 #ahgg1 c\ld n be /at$ )\t violat+ delicacy any m ?an ! utt]mo/ details ( 8 s9ful life c\ld be uncurta9$ )\t injur+ ! innoc5t & (f5d+ ! public4 ,! c&id read] w bridge = himself ! pa/ & pres5t ( ,mr4 ,holcombe's life4 ,^! are ! facts4 ,& ^! facts are freely & fully recogniz$ by all classes ( ! community 9 :i* he lives 8 daily life4 ,?\s&s ( eyes h wat*$ him = ye>s & no "o has detect$ any immoral practice or act or f\nd any fault ( a s]i\s nature 9 him4 ,c&or requires u to say t he is sometimes ov]-s5sitive1 t he has 8 own views z to ! be/ me?ods ( conduct+ 8 "w & is sometimes a little dom9e]+ 9 c>ry+ !m out2 t he sometimes uses unnecess>y h>%ness 9 8 public addresses 9 deal+ ) ! s9s & %ortcom+s ( p1 especially ( ! conv]ts ( ! ,mission1 a ?+ :i* is probably due to 8 ov]-anxiety = !m2 t he has n yet le>n$ economy & ! be/ way ( conduct+ 8 f9ancial affairs1 & t ow+ to 8 own =m] wick$ life he w\ld be a trifle too sev]e 9 ! control ( 8 family b = ! good s5se & prud5t firmness ( 8 wife4 ,b ^! are m9or matt]s & :5 !y are said1 ab\t all is said on t side4 ,& ,mr4 ,holcombe has come to occupy a unique & comm&+ position 9 ! city ( ,l\isville4 ,all classes respect him1 all classes look up to him & p f all classes seek 8 c\nsel & aid 9 c]ta9 em]g5cies4 ,mo!rs 9 di/ress ov] ! s9s ( _! sons1 si/]s 9 sorr[ ov] ! dissipation ( _! bro!rs1 wives 9 despair ov] ! wick$ness ( _! husb&s1 all ^! g to ,/eve ,holcombe = advice1 com=t1 enc\ragem5t & help2 & :5 !y c n g1 !y write2 sometimes f di/ant places1 z f> away z ,canada4 ,! m9i/]s ( ,l\isville ref] to him ^? extreme cases :i* !y meet ) 9 _! m9i/ry1 & :i* !y feel 8 exp]i5ce & 8 k ( ! ways & temptations ( dissipat$ m5 enable him to h&le1 z a lett] f ,dr4 ,broadus & "o f ,dr4 ,willits1 else:]e reproduc$1 w %[4 ,& ! dissipat$ m5 !mselves1 ! drunk>ds1 ! gambl]s1 ! outca/1 ! lo/--all ^! feel t ,/eve ,holcombe is _! fri5d1 a fri5d :o has ! will+ness & ! p[] to help !m up1 & !y g to him :5 !y are 9 di/ress or :5 !y awake to a s5se ( _! wret*$ condition & desire to rise aga94 ,& ?r\gh 8 in/rum5tality _m a "o has ris5 aga91 & to _m a "m1 wife1 si/]1 family1 has come ?r\gh him a resurrection ( buri$ hope & joy4 ,& ^? gambl]s :o h nev] yet come to di/ress or to religion reg>d him ) admiration & affection4 ,! foll[+ lett] f ,mr4 ,a4 ,m4 ,waddill1 "o ( ! lead+ sport+ m5 ( ! ,s\?1 0 writt5 9 answ] to an inquiry z to h[ ,mr4 ,holcombe is look$ ^u by ! gambl]s3 ,,l\isville1 ,,ky41 ,augu/ #ac1 #ahhh4 ,rev4 ,gross ,alex&]3 ,,de> ,,sir3 ,9 writ+ ( my fri5d1 ,/eve ,p4 ,holcombe1 ,i w say t 8 adoption ( ! pulpit has n l[]$ him 9 ! e/eem ( 8 =m] associates--! gambl]s4 ,f> f x4 ,!y are 8 admir]s & 8 fri5ds1 &1 :5 !y h ! funds1 are z will+ support]s ( 8 "w z any4 ,!y c n %[ him too mu* respect & c n exhibit a m pr(\nd love ?an is %[n him e day by "s "o ( 8 old companions4 ,he has wield$ a wond]ful influ5ce ov] !m = good1 bo? "h & else:]e1 & has made _m conv]ts f _! ranks1 :o c\ld n h be5 influ5c$ probably by any o!r m9i/] ( ! ,gospel4 ,i myself h be51 ,i am happy to say1 wond]fully b5efit$ by ! influ5ce ( 8 b5evol5t "*4 ,v respectfully y\rs1 ,a4 ,m4 ,,waddill4 ,! e/eem 9 :i* he is held by ! lead+ bus9ess m5 ( ! city is %[n by ! fact t ! ,bo>d ( ,directors ( ! ,mission is compos$ ( su* m5 z ,john ,a4 ,c>t]1 ,j4 ,p4 ,torbitt1 ,l4 ,ri*>dson1 ,j4 ,b4 ,mc,ferran1 ,r4 ,j4 ,m5efee1 ,j4 ,t4 ,burgh>d1 ,h4 ,v4 ,lov+1 ,ar?ur ,pet]1 ,john ,t4 ,moore1 ,j4 ,k4 ,goodloe1 ,p4 ,megui>1 ,c4 ,mc,clarty1 ,w4 ,t4 ,rolph1 ,john ,f9z]1 ) ,p4 ,h4 ,tapp z ,treasur]4 ,he has ! confid5ce & e/eem ( ! (fic]s bo? ( ! city & ,/ate1 & he has a l>ge influ5ce ) !m4 ,! ,mayor1 ! ,*ief ( ,police1 & ! ,judges ( ! ,c\rts recognize 8 usefulness1 8 ability & 8 effici5cy by co-op]at+ ) him1 z f> z may be1 & by adopt+ 8 views & sugge/ions z to ! treatm5t ( crim9als *>g$ ) less] crimes & misdemeanors4 ,! ,gov]nor1 ,j4 ,proctor ,knott1 readily grant$ p>don to ! only man = :om ,mr4 ,holcombe ev] ask$ x1 & ! te/imony ( ?is n[ happy man is giv5 9 ?is volume4 ,n only is ,mr4 ,holcombe ?us 9 honor & dem& at home2 he is 9 dem& all ov] ! c\ntry4 ,until x came to be kn[n t he w\ld n leave 8 own "w 9 ,l\isville1 he 0 con/antly receiv+ reque/s to att5d or conduct meet+s ( "o sort or ano!r 9 all p>ts ( ,k5tucky & 9 sev]al o!r ,/ates4 ,ye> be=e la/1 9 ! summ] ( #ahhf1 he 01 by appo9tm5t ( ! ,gov]nor ( ! ,/ate1 a ,commission] f ,k5tucky 9 ! ,national ,conv5tion ( ,corrections & ,*>ities at ,wa%+ton4 ,9 ! fall ( #ahhg he att5d$1 by reque/1 ! ,conv5tion ( ,*ri/ian ,work]s ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates & ,canada1 9 ! ,broadway ,tab]nacle 9 ,new ,york ,city1 & made two addresses1 bo? ( :i* are pr9t$ among 8 s]mons 9 ?is book4 ,he 0 appo9t$ a memb] ( ! ,executive ,committee ( t body1 9 :i* capacity he n[ s]ves4 ,b n only 9 direct results has ! p[] ( ,god be5 manife/$ ?r\gh ?is in/rum5t4 ,mr4 ,holcombe's conv]sion & "w h _h ! effect ( quick5+ ! fai? & zeal ( all ! *ur*es ( ! city4 ,x has n only drawn !m ne>] toge!r 9 fo/]+ & fur!r+ a common ent]prise into :i* !y ent]$ ( _! own motion1 & )\t solicitation1 b x has reviv$ ! langui%+ fai? ( all classes4 ,n only has ! ,gospel sav$ ,/eve ,holcombe & o!rs1 he 7let x be said rev]5tly & und]/ood rightly7 has1 9 "o s5se1 sav$ ! ,gospel4 ,_m _h lo/ fai? 9 x4 ,!y ?\ght x 0 an old1 worn-out /ory4 ,x _h lo/ its novelty & vitality1 & x _h n ! p[] x claim$ to h4 ,its a*ievem5ts 7 n equal to its pret5sions4 ,"s ( ! m5 :o h be5 br\ght to a bett] life ?r\gh ,mr4 ,holcombe's in/rum5tality h said t1 ?\gh !y did n1 out ( respect = o!r p1 publi% ! fact1 !y _h lo/ all fai? & 71 at he>t1 utt] infidels4 ,"s ( !m cont9u$ to att5d *ur* & to give to ! *ur* ( _! means1 & to give respectful att5tion to ! prea*+1 b x 0 out ( def]5ce to relatives or respect = cu/om1 or = m]e ,sunday pa/ime4 ,b ! conv]sion ( ,/eve ,holcombe1 & ! life he 0 liv+1 arre/$ _! ?\ght1 awak5$ inquiry & reviv$ _! fai?1 & _m ( ^! h be5 sav$4 ,! conv]sion ( ^! has 9 turn result$ 9 ! conviction ( o!rs & s ! /ream has broad5$ & deep5$4 ,z ,mr4 ,holcombe says 9 "o ( 8 addresses1 ,!re is naturally 9 ! m9ds ( m5 a d\bt z to ! tru? & div9ity ( ! religion :i* fails to d :at x proposes to d1 & s 9 times ( religi\s deadness m5 lose fai? & unbelief gets /rong] & m /ubborn :ile !y see no examples ( ! p[] ( ! ,gospel to save bad m54 ,b :5 bad m5 h be5 rea*$ & quick5$ & made bett] ?r\gh ! ,gospel1 & ?is cont9ues ye> aft] ye>1 !n ! tide turns1 & fai? becomes natural & easy n to say contagi\s & inevitable4 ,^! effects h demon/rat$ ! reality ( conv]sion 9 opposition to ! view t x is an effect ( ! excitem5t ( ! imag9ation4 ,"o he>s1 x is said1 ! n>ration ( ! exp]i5ce ( o!rs :o claim to be conv]t$1 & he works at himself till he works himself up to ! p]suasion t he also has got x4 ,b1 z "o ( ! conv]ts 9 n>rat+ 8 exp]i5ce said1 ,imag9ation c\ld n take ! :isky habit out ( a man4 ,x nev] did take x out ( me4 ,b ! p[] ( ?is ,gospel :i* ,/eve ,holcombe prea*es has tak5 x out root & bran*4 ,ano!r ?+ is %[n also by ! hi/ory ( ?is "w4 ,a di/+ui%$ m9i/] said once1 ,we mu/ get ! top ( society conv]t$ & !n we may expect to rea* ! l[] classes4 ,mr4 ,holcombe1 on ! contr>y1 9 accordance ) ! example & words ( ,jesus & ( ,paul1 ( ,lu!r & ( ,wesley1 has giv5 8 "t & labor prim>ily & l>gely to ! l[] classes & ! lo/ classes1 & ?r\gh ^! he has rea*$ also ! high] classes1 exemplify+ aga9 :at 0 said by ! mo/ apo/olic man s9ce ! ,apo/les1 t ! ,gospel works n f ! top d[n b f ! bottom up4 ,if y %\ld ask :at is ! explanation ( ,mr4 ,holcombe's success1 x may be answ]$ t x is due to ?ree ?+s4 ,! extraord9>y *ange :i* has tak5 place 9 8 "* & 9 8 life arre/s att5tion & produces conviction4 ,9 ! second place is 8 int5se & pity+ love = ^? :o are n sav$1 & especially = ^? :o1 besides be+ mo/ utt]ly lo/1 are1 ei!r by _! own suspicions & fe>s or by ! cu/oms & coldhe>t$ness ( society1 or bo?1 %ut out f all sympa?y & opportunity4 ,he has a v "m's love = poor1 s9ful1 /ruggl+ s\ls1 & he %[s ?is n 9 words only or *iefly1 b 9 s]vice4 ,"s acc\nt has already be5 giv5 f "o ( ! ,l\isville pap]s conc]n+ 8 rescue ( a man :o _h be5 drunk cont9u\sly = tw5ty-?ree ye>s4 ,to h prea*$ temp]ance & morality & duty to ?is wild & degrad$ man w\ld h be5 useless1 to h told him ( ! love ( ,god w\ld1 p]haps1 h be5 no bett]4 ,b :5 ?is f> (f love ( ,god took concrete =m 9 ! p]son ( ,/eve ,holcombe & 0 br\ght nigh & made real 9 8 bro!rl9ess & g5tl5ess & pati5ce & s]vice1 x prov$ /rong] ?an a tw5ty-?ree ye>s' :isky habit & to-day ?is man1 :o lately dwelt ap>t f m5 l ! man among ! tombs & :o 0 possess$ by ! demon ( dr9k s t no man c\ld b9d him ) bonds ( morality or duty--?is man is to-day clo!d & 9 8 "r m9d4 ,& ?\gh he has n fully appreh5d$ ! way ( salvation1 he says1 yet a transfiguration has tak5 place 9 him :i* is little %ort ( miracul\s4 ,he says also t he has got "s light on ! "q ( p]sonal religion4 ,he is ?or\ghly hone/ & w n claim or pr(ess :at he has n4 ,he says a man :o has always gone sl[ 9 ev]y?+ else c't g fa/ 9 gett+ religion4#a #a ,?is man has1 s9ce ! above 0 writt51 be5 br\ght into a cle> exp]i5ce ( conv]sion1 & is n[ a clean & happy ,*ri/ian man4 ,9 ! ?ird place1 ,mr ,holcombe's success is due to ! "* ( 8 prea*+4 ,x is ! simple ,gospel1 :]e9 two po9ts are cont9ually made & emphasiz$1 ! reality & t5d]ness ( ,god's love = s9ful m51 ev5 ! wor/1 & ! absolute necessity ( reg5]ation & a holy life4 ,bo? ^! great tru?s he illu/rates ) fitness & =ce f 8 own life & t ( ! m5 :o h be5 conv]t$ "u 8 m9i/ry4 ,8 s]mons are s /rik+ 9 _! directness & simplicity1 & s helpful )al1 t "s ( !m h be5 reproduc$ 9 outl9e 9 ! pres5t volume1 & ! read] :o has nev] he>d him may get "s idea ( 8 prea*+ f ^!1 &1 x is hop$1 "s pr(it z well4 ,:atev] m5 may say1 ! fact rema9s t :5 ! ,gospel is prea*$ on apo/olic conditions1 x has /ill apo/olic success4 ,9 #ahhf1 :5 ,rev4 ,sam ,p4 ,jones 0 hold+ a meet+ 9 ,c9c9nati1 he said ( ,mr4 ,holcombe3 ,mr4 ,holcombe's "w is f9] ?an any?+ done s9ce ! dea? ( ,j]ry ,mc,auley4 ,he is fully consecrat$ to ! "w ( rescu+ ! p]i%+ & sav+ ! fall54 ,hundr$s ( m51 dug by him f ! deepe/ dep?s ( dissipation & degradation1 are to-day clo!d 9 _! "r m9ds4 ,"s ( ! mo/ effici5t ,*ri/ian m5 h pass$ ?r\gh 8 ,mission1 at ,no4 #dcf ,jeff]son /reet1 9 ,l\isville4 ,i feel t 9 help+ ,/eve ,holcombe1 ,i %all be able to say1 at lea/3 ',"l1 if ,i did n d mu* :5 ,i 0 on e>?1 ,i did :at ,i c\ld to help ,/eve ,holcombe1 ! conv]t$ gambl]1 9 8 mission "w among m5 :o nev] he> prea*+1 & to :om a help+ h& is nev] ext5d$4' ,!re are mighty few m5 l ,/eve ,holcombe to take hold ( poor fell[s & br+ !m back to a pur] & bett] life4 ,9 #ahhh1 dur+ a great temp]ance meet+ 9 ,l\isville1 ,mr4 ,francis ,murphy said ( ,mr4 ,holcombe3 ,( all ! noble m5 ,i "k1 he is "o ( ! noble/1 & ,l\isville may well be pr\d ( ! gr&1 big-he>t$ ,*ri/ian man1 :o1 9 8 quiet1 unassum+ mann] is do+ su* a _w ( good "h4 ,mr4 ,d4 ,l4 ,moody1 dur+ 8 great meet+ 9 ,l\isville1 9 ! mon?s ( ,janu>y & ,febru>y1 #ahhh1 said ( ,mr4 ,holcombe3 ,i h got v mu* int]e/$ 9 a "w 9 y\r city conduct$ by a man y call ,/eve ,holcombe4 ,i don't "k :5 ,i met a man :o s /ruck my he>t4 ,i w5t up & saw 8 headqu>t]s & h[ he works4 ,he is do+ ! noble/ "w ,i "k (4 ,i want y to help him ) money & words ( *e]4 ,rememb]1 "h 9 ,l\isville y make s _m drunk>ds t y mu/ h a place to take c>e ( ! wrecks4 ,/eve ,holcombe rescues !m4 ,let u help him all we c4 ,& ,mr4 ,holcombe's "w is n done4 ,he is 9 ! vigor ( life1 ) fifte5 or tw5ty ye>s ( life & s]vice1 ,god will+1 be=e him4 ,he is only beg9n+ to reap ! results ( ^! t5 ye>s ( /udy & ^! t5 ye>s ( ,*ri/ian liv+ & work+4 ,he kn[s ! ,gospel bett] ?an he ev] did be=e1 & he prea*es x bett]4 ,he kn[s himself & ,god bett] ?an he ev] did be=e1 & he lives ne>] ! ,s\rce ( ,p[]4 ,he kn[s m5 good & bad1 bett] ?an he ev] did be=e1 & he deals ) !m 9 all /ates & /ages m wisely & successfully4 ,he is ( t n]v\s & ,int5se temp]am5t :i* c n re/ )\t gett+ some?+ done1 & he is always do+ some?+ to advance 8 "w4 ,& ?\gh s int5sely 9 e>ne/1 he is s+ul>ly1 x is n at all too /rong to say1 entirely free f fanaticism4 ,he is 9 high e/eem1 ) l>ge influ5ce at home & abroad1 & ?is he does n pro/itute to selfi%ness1 b uses = usefulness4 ,&1 be/ ( all1 he has tok5s1 n a few1 9 ! =m ( discipl9e on ! "o h&1 & success on ! o!r1 t ,god is gu>d+ & guid+ 8 ,life & ,"w4 ,illu/ration3 ,,! ,,union ,,gospel ,,mission4 ,,lett]s4 ,,to ,,8 ,,fir/ ,,pa/or4 ,,l\isville1 ,,ky41 ,novemb] #f1 #ahhc4 ,my ,de> ,bro!r3 ,our meet+s cont9ue 9 int]e/4 ,la/ night ! ,holy ,gho/ 0 ) u 9 great p[]4 ,at ! close ( ! talk1 we invit$ backslid]s to come =w>d & kneel4 ,six respond$4 ,!n we invit$ all o!rs :o want$ to become ,*ri/ians to come =w>d & n9e o!rs respond$1 mo/ ( !m ! mo/ h>d5$ s9n]s 9 ! city4 ,i am sure no?+ b ! p[] ( ,god c\ld h lift$ !m f _! seats4 ,m5 :o h f\ght ea* o!r actually embrac$ la/ night4 ,cont9ue to pray = u4 ,y\rs1 ,s4 ,p4 ,,holcombe4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,to ,,! ,,same4 ,,l\isville1 ,,ky41 ,novemb] #ai1 #ahhc4 ,de> ,bro!r3 ,la/ night ab\t two hundr$ p]sons 7 pres5t1 mo/ ( !m non-*ur*go]s4 ,ab\t =ty /ood up = pray]s4 ,& oh1 su* good te/imonies1 no h>angues b liv+ te/imonies z to :at ,god c & w d = ^? :o w let him4 ,y\rs truly1 ,s4 ,p4 ,,holcombe4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,to ,,! ,,same4 ,,l\isville1 ,,ky41 ,novemb] #ba1 #ahhc4 ,de> ,bro!r3 ,h[ grateful ,i am to y = all y\r k9dness ,god alone kn[s4 ,i may & d lack education & ref9em5t1 b ,i w n all[ myself "u any circum/ances to lack gratitude4 ,! results ( our meet+s prove to me t x is ! "w ( ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,( c\rse1 ,i c\ld h>dly believe y w\ld come to ,l\isville ev5 = a little :ile & n come to see me1 "o :o has co/ y s mu* ( "t & c>e4 ,!re 0 a "t :5 ,i c\ld n h /ood x4 ,b ?anks to ,god ,i am n[ above lett+ small ?+s or great ?+s upset me4 ,give my love to y\r de> family4 ,y\rs truly1 ,s4 ,p4 ,,holcombe4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,to ,,! ,,same4 ,,l\isville1 ,,ky41 ,febru>y #c1 #ahhd4 ,de> ,bro!r3 ,h[ ,i d wi% y c\ld h be5 :]e y c\ld h look$ 9 on u la/ night4 ,! room 0 full4 ,!y _h to be turn$ away f ! door4 ,& !y 7 s anxi\s to he> ! glad tid+s4 ,no c>pet1 no?+ to dead5 ! s\nd & yet y c\ld h he>d a p9 drop4 ,all ! *ur*es are feel+ ! results ( our "w4 ,ye/]day ,g4 ,h4 jo9$ ! ,*ri/ian *ur*4 ,he seems to be a ?or\ghly conv]t$ man1 if ,i "k "o4 ,p4 ,d41 :om y "k1 came 9 "h ab\t a week ago "u ! influ5ce ( liquor4 ,said ,i am an infidel & a drunk>d4 ,pray = me4 ,we did pray = him4 ,he has be5 com+ ev] s9ce4 ,he is n[ p]fectly sob] & says he 0 nev] s mov$ be=e4 ,^! are two out ( _m cases4 ,y\rs truly1 ,s4 ,p4 ,,holcombe4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,to ,,! ,,same4 ,,l\isville1 ,,ky41 ,febru>y #g1 #ahhd4 ,de> ,bro!r3 ,y\r k9d favor receiv$4 ,p4 ,d4 comes e night & sometimes speaks4 ,he is n dr9k+4 ,he says he c n believe4 ,he does s pitifully & plead+ly ask = ! pray]s ( ,*ri/ian p4 ,he is 9 e>ne/4 ,pray = him4 ,c4 ,t4 te/ifi$ la/ night4 ,he 0 a s*oolmate ( y\rs4 ,he said3 ,= ! la/ five ye>s1 :5 ,i w\ld meet ,bro!r ,holcombe1 ,i w\ld say to myself3 ',i wi% he w\ld say good day1 & pass on4' ,b he w\ld n4 ,he g5]ally _h some?+ to say ab\t ! way ,i 0 liv+4 ,( late1 e "t he has met me he has invit$ me to ! ,mission4 ,i w\ld promise to g1 b w5t1 in/ead1 to "s b>-room1 until ,i w\nd up by los+ my position1 be+ s5t to ! "w-h\se1 & be+ left by a lov+ wife4 ,two weeks ago he met me aga91 & ?is "t ,i kept my promise4 ,i h be5 com+ e night s9ce1 & h n t\*$ liquor s9ce1 & by ,god's help ,i d n expect to d s any m4 ,i enjoy ! meet+s s mu*4 ,! two h\rs ,i sp5d "h seem s %ort4 ,g4 ,h4 nev] misses a night4 ,he is 9 ! room ) me n[ s++1 ,happy ,day1 ,:5 ,jesus ,wa%$ ,my ,s9s ,away4 ,& he is happy4 ,al?\gh 9 ! la/ f\r ye>s he has sp5t ?irty ?\s& doll>s 9 riot\s liv+1 & al?\gh 8 wife has left him1 he said to me3 ,bro!r ,holcombe1 ,i believe ,i am z happy z ,i ev] 0 9 my life4 ,i ask$ him1 :y8 ,he said3 ,because ,i h some?+ :i* ,i nev] _h :5 ,i _h wife1 *ild & money4 ,i h ! =giv5ess ( s9s & ! fri5d%ip ( ,god4 ,i said3 ,y w h to wat* ! devil or he w get y 9 8 p[] aga94 ,yes1 he repli$1 ! devil told me :5 ,i fir/ began to come to ?is ,mission t ,i 0 too mean1 & my he>t 0 too dead ev] to get religion2 b ,i f\ght him on my knees & ,i got ! victory4 ,i "k h[ h>d x 0 to get1 & by ! help ( ,god ,i am go+ to keep x1 :e!r ,i ev] h wife or *ild or money aga94 ,pray = me1 t ,i may make no mi/ake 9 my difficult "w4 ,y\rs1 z ev]1 ,s4 ,p4 ,,holcombe4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,to ,,! ,,same4 ,,l\isville1 ,,ky41 ,febru>y #ac1 #ahhd4 ,de> ,bro!r3 ,i did j :at y sugge/$2 ?\gh ,i 0 disappo9t$ ,i did n %[ x4 ,god is help+ me to give up my pref]5ces4 ,i am tru/+ 9 ! ,"l1 & sweetly s++ ,oh1 to be no?+1 no?+1 ,only z l$ by ,8 h&2 ,a mess5g] at ,8 gateway1 ,only wait+ = ,8 comm&4 ,i am will+ to prea* on ! /reets1 at ! ,mission1 at ,walnut-/reet *ur*1 or ,i am will+ to be door-keep]--any?+ = ,*ri/4 ,s y he>d t ,i am improv+ 9 prea*+4 ,well1 ,i d believe t ,i %all yet le>n h[ to prea*4 ,i _h a lett] reque/+ me to g to ,ni*olasville to prea*4 ,b ,i c n g4 ,i feel ,i h a little1 humble "w to d 9 ,l\isville1 & ,i am go+ to d x4 ,! mission m5 are all do+ well4 ,?\gh to y ,i may seem v weak1 ,i am to !m :at y are to me4 ,y\rs1 etc41 ,s4 ,p4 ,,holcombe4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,to ,,! ,,same4 ,,l\isville1 ,,ky41 ,may #a1 #ahhd4 ,de> ,bro!r3 ,y\rs to h&4 ,i d n ?9k y neglig5t4 ,i "k y love me1 & ,i "k y love ! cause ( ,*ri/ = :i* ,i am labor+1 & ,i "k y w d all y c to help me to help x4 ,i am surpris$1 n at :at y don't d1 b at :at y d d4 ,i suppose y saw 9 ! pap] :at a h&some ?+ !y did = u 9 ! way ( giv+ u a fifty-doll> p>lor set1 a f9e ,brussels c>pet1 a l>ge walnut book-case & _m o!r articles1 includ+ a f9e portrait ( de> ,bro!r ,morris4 ,ev5 = ?is donation & = all ! love %[n me by ^! good p ,i am indebt$ to y4 ,jesus mu/ ne$s g ?r\gh ,sam>ia to save ! woman at ! well4 ,y mu/ ne$s be s5t to ,portl& *ur* to save & in/ruct & guide ,/eve ,holcombe4 ,?is morn+ ,i pray$ ne>ly an h\r be=e breakfa/1 & x 0 lucky = me ,i did4 ,some?+ came up at noon t w\ld h completely upset me1 b ,i 0 =tifi$ & )/ood ! temptation successfully4 ,i am improv+ e way4 ,my heal? is bett]1 my memory is bett]4 ,i c read my ,bible m pr(itably ?an ev] & ,i c pray bett]4 ,god grant y may h good heal?1 l5g? ( days & all ( ?is _w's goods t may be good = y4 ,s4 ,p4 ,h4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,to ,,! ,,same4 ,,l\isville1 ,,ky41 ,may #bc1 #ahhd4 ,de> ,bro!r3 ,y\rs ( ! #af? to h&4 ,god is s good to me4 ,c]ta9 temptations h come to me lately & ,i c\ld n h borne !m b = ,8 help4 ,i talk$ at ! *ur* la/ ,sunday night 9 ! abs5ce ( ,dr4 ,messick4 ,i felt s humble1 x seem$ a privilege to be treat$ %amefully t ,i might h an opportunity ( %[+ t a ,*ri/ian c give up 8 own rights = ! good ( o!rs4 ,i h gr[n 9 grace s9ce y %[$ me ! necessity ( secret pray] & ( gett+ s well acqua9t$ ) ,god t he w\ld become m real to me ?an my own fa!r ev] 04 ,y h se5 9 ! pap]s poor ,d4 ,t4's attempt at suicide4 ,b ,god has sp>$ him yet ano!r season4 ,he w recov]4 ,pray = him4 ,may ,god bless y & /r5g!n y & keep y is ! pray] ( ,y\r fri5d & bro!r1 ,s4 ,p4 ,,holcombe4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,to ,,! ,,same4 ,,l\isville1 ,,ky41 ,july #bc1 #ahhd4 ,my ,de> ,bro!r3 ,y\rs receiv$ ?is ,a4 ,m4 ,i am s press$ = means ,i c n n[ buy ! book y speak (1 b w d s z soon z ,i c4 ,i am tak+ "t to /udy4 ,i am gett+ mu* bett] acqua9t$ ) ,god & ! bett] ,i "k him ! m ,i love him4 ,y\rs 9 love1 ,s4 ,p4 ,h4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,to ,,! ,,same4 ,,l\isville1 ,,ky41 ,july #be1 #ahhd4 ,de> ,bro!r3 ,! m5 are all do+ tol]ably well4 ,! att5dance at ! meet+s is increas+4 ,sunday-s*ool holds up well4 ,my great desire n[ is to be able to /udy ! ,bible bett]4 ,! m ,i ?9k ( :at y h be5 to me1 ! m grateful ,i feel4 ,i wi% ,i c\ld 9 "s sub/antial way %[ y h[ ,i appreciate y\r c>e4 ,b ,god w rew>d y4 ,y\rs1 etc41 ,s4 ,p4 ,h4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,to ,,! ,,same4 ,,l\isville1 ,,ky41 ,july #cj1 #ahhd4 ,de> ,bro!r3 ,! ,bible is becom+ v sweet to me4 ,i c /udy x all day long & n get tir$4 ,i am sure ! ,holy ,gho/ is help+ me4 ,i h read ! book y gave me4 ,x is v helpful4 ,bro!r ,davidson has gone to h\sekeep+4 ,he has 8 son & daught] ) him4 ,oh1 ! love & p[] ( ,god4 ,praise ,8 "n6 ,s4 ,p4 ,h4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,to ,,! ,,same4 ,,*icago1 ,,ill41 ,septemb] #e1 #ahhd4 ,de> ,bro!r3 ,y\rs ( ! #b;d to h&4 ,?9k ( y8 ,! sun may =get to %9e1 b poor ,/eve ,holcombe c nev] =get ! man :o has done s mu* = 8 s\l4 ,nev] has a day pass$ s9ce my conv]sion t ,i h n pray$ ,god's bless+ on y1 y\r family & y\r "w4 ,well1 ,*icago is a great city1 a gr& field = ,*ri/ian "w4 ,i f9d _m e>ne/ ,*ri/ian m5 & wom5 labor+ = ! ,ma/]4 ,i am n idle ei!r4 ,i talk$ f\r times la/ ,sunday--?ree times on ! /reet & once at a ,mission4 ,i am hav+ a royal "t1 sail+ on ! lake1 rid+ on /reet-c>s1 tak+ 9 ! t[n4 ,i wi% y 7 "h4 ,god bless y always4 ,,/eve4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,to ,,! ,,same4 ,,l\isville1 ,,ky41 ,july #a1 #ahhe4 ,de> ,bro!r3 ,y\rs ( ,june #be? receiv$4 ,i d hope y w get ,bro!r ,c4#b ^? books to sell4 ,^! m5 mu/ h employm5t4 ,!y c n live1 z "s ,*ri/ian p seem to ?9k1 on promises4 ,x is all "r to say1 ,oh1 let g & tru/ 9 ! ,"l1 to a man :o kn[s ! way1 b x is all n "r :5 x is said to a poor /ruggl+ gambl]1 :o1 9 fai?1 is z weak z a baby4 ,i "k ( ,bro!r ,l4's tr\bles4 ,my he>t goes out to him4 ,all well4 ,y\rs1 ,s4 ,p4 ,h4 #b ,a conv]t$ gambl]4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,to ,,! ,,same4 ,,l\isville1 ,,ky41 ,may #ae1 #ahhe4 ,de> ,bro!r3 ,s9ce writ+ my c>d ?is morn+ ,i h le>n$ t ,d4 ,mc,c41 ! boss ,na%ville gambl]1 & an old p>tn] ( m9e1 is att5d+ ,sam ,jones' meet+s4 ,i want y to g to see him4 ,don't be afraid to g "r up to him & introduce y\rself4 ,tell him y & ,i are old fri5ds1 & t ,i love him1 & reque/$ y to see him4 ,b y "k bett] h[ to approa* him ?an ,i c tell y4 ,b y mu/ see him4 ,take ,sam ,jones to see him4 ,visit him at 8 home1 ) ,sam ,jones4 ,he is wor?y ( conc5tration4 ,if y c get him conv]t$1 he w be a p[] = good4 ,mo/ ( y\r memb]s "k him1 ,i guess4 ,if y don't l to call on him1 alone1 get "s ( !m to g along & introduce y4 ,may ,god help u save poor ,d4 ,mc,c4 ,y\rs1 ,,/eve4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,to ,,! ,,same4 ,,l\isville1 ,,ky41 ,decemb] #bj1 #ahhg4 ,de> ,bro!r3 ,y\r favor to h&4 ,i h _h a t]rible battle ) self1 b by ! grace ( ,god ,i h come out conqu]]4 ,i praise ,god n[ t ,i _h ! /ruggle1 because x has enabl$ me to realize ! empt9ess ( all t is e>?ly4 ,x has conv9c$ me t to dep5d on m5 is l a foot out ( jo9t4 ,i make m miles t[>d my hav5 ( re/ dur+ a night ( /orm ?an 9 days ( calm wea!r4 ,wi%+ y a m]ry ,*ri/mas & a happy ,new ,ye>1 ,i am z ev]1 ,y\r fri5d & bro!r 9 ,*ri/1 ,,/eve ,p4 ,,holcombe4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,to ,,! ,,same4 ,,l\isville1 ,,ky41 ,decemb] #bi1 #ahhg4 ,de> ,bro!r3 ,y\rs 0 receiv$ a few days ago4 ,yes1 ,i ?ank ,god ,i am almo/ rid ( my love ( praise4 ,i am will+ to d ! dirty & disagreeable "w & let o!rs h ! picnics & ! praise4 ,:o am ,i t ,i %\ld be a lead] ( ! ,"l's p8 ,b ,i confess ,i did n get to ?is po9t )\t a /ruggle4 ,h[ ,i did h to wre/le ) ,god4 ,he %[$ me ! envy t 0 9 my he>t1 t is my jeal\sy ( any "o :o did m "w or _h m att5tion paid !m ?an ,i _h4 ,b glory to ,god ,i hope ,i am rid ( x at la/4 ,y\rs1 ,s4 ,p4 ,h4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,to ,,! ,,same4 ,,l\isville1 ,,ky41 ,janu>y #bf1 #ahhh4 ,de> ,bro!r3 ,y\rs j receiv$4 ,i h>dly ?9k x w\ld be wor? :ile to ask ,mr4 ,moody to visit our ,mission1 z 8 "t is s completely occupi$4 ,i ?9k our "w is z mu* ?\ght ( z ev]4 ,x is quiet b ,i ?9k deep4 ,i h kept x out ( ! pap]s1 because too mu* newspap] notoriety is calculat$ to cause a poor little-bra9$ fell[ to exagg]ate 8 own importance4 ,& !n !re is su* sweetness 9 ! "w :5 y are sure x is n = praise b = ,*ri/4 ,i am afraid t _m ( u on analyz+ our he>ts w f9d fir/1 self2 second1 self2 & almo/ all = self 9 "o way or ano!r4 ,may ,god deliv] me f self4 ,y\rs z ev]1 ,,/eve ,p4 ,,holcombe4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,to ,,! ,,same4 ,,l\isville1 ,,ky41 ,july #aj1 #ahhh4 ,de> ,bro!r3 ,y\r lett] to h&4 ,!re is no?+ s com=t+ z true fri5d%ip4 ,alas6 h[ little ( x !re is 9 ?is _w4 ,happy ! man :o c claim "o true fri5d4 ,i "k a man t has a true fri5d4 ,i am t man & y are t fri5d4 ,h[ d ,i "k x8 ,y are s fai?ful 9 tell+ me ! tru? ab\t myself & %[+ me my faults & mi/akes4 ,:o b a true fri5d t _h y\r be/ int]e/ at he>t w\ld h writt5 su* a lett] z ?is la/ "o f y8 ,i want y to "k t :ile ,i lov$ y mu* be=e1 ,i love y m n[4 ,i h be5 go+ ?r\gh ! fire lately1 b ,i ?9k ,i %all come out all "r4 ,doesn't ,god sift a fell[8 ,i believe ,i c say ,i rejoice 9 tribulation4 ,i f9d ,i c n expect to be und]/ood 9 ?is _w or always h sympa?y1 b ,i d expect1 if ,i meekly wait & murmur n1 to f9d x is all "r 9 my ,fa!r's h\se4 ,y\r fri5d & bro!r 9 ,*ri/1 ,,/eve ,p4 ,,holcombe4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,to ,s4 ,p4 ,,dalton 7"o ( ! conv]ts74 ,,l\isville1 ,,ky41 ,july #ag1 #ahhc4 ,my ,de> ,bro!r ,dalton3 ,y\r good lett] to h&4 ,x is1 z y say1 s sweet to be b\nd toge!r by ! ties ( ,*ri/ian love1 & !re is no tie :i* b9ds m5 m closely ?an ! religion ( ,*ri/4 ,x breaks d[n e b>ri]1 & all are alike to ! true ,*ri/ian man2 ri*1 poor1 halt1 lame1 bl9d1 !re is no diff]5ce4 ,& ! ,*ri/ian is happie/ :5 he is d5y+ himself to help o!rs4 ,9 ord] to conv9ce ! _w ( ! tru? & p[] ( our religion1 our own /&>d mu/ be v high4 ,we mu/ d5y ourselves ( ?+s :i* 9 !mselves w\ld be innoc5t1 b :i*1 if practic$ by u1 w\ld less5 our influ5ce = good4 ,& h[ com=t+ to ?9k t if we suff] ) ,him1 we %all also reign ) ,him4 ,! suff]+ comes fir/1 ! humiliation fir/1 ! toil & we>9ess fir/4 ,yes1 we may expect tr\bles & crosses "h1 b we leave x all beh9d :5 we ent] )9 ! gates into ! city4 ,i ?ank ,god t y\r he>t has be5 *ang$ & t y h ta/$ ( ! p[]s ( ! _w to come4 ,i am glad y f9d m pleasure 9 my poor company & lame words ?an 9 ! follies & fri5d%ips ( ! _w4 ,hop+ = y all good ?+s1 ,i am ) mu* love1 ,y\r bro!r 9 ,*ri/1 ,,/eve ,,holcombe4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,to ,,! ,,same4 ,,l\isville1 ,,ky41 ,july #bc1 #ahhe4 ,de> ,bro!r ,dalton3 ,y\r lett] f ! great ,falls is to h&4 ,x is v gratify+ to me to "k t 9 ! mid/ ( s mu* excitem5t y c\ld & did ?9k ( "o s humble & obscure z myself4 ,i h be5 at ! ,falls & h se5 _m wond]ful & gr& ?+s1 b ! mo/ beautiful ?+ ,i h ev] se5 is an old h>d5$ s9n] pick+ up 8 grip-sack & bidd+ ! devil f>ewell =ev]4 ,&1 praise ! ,"l1 t is my privilege almo/ daily 9 ! de> old mission4 ,?\gh ! wea!r is v hot1 we h glori\s meet+s2 new conv]ts te/ify+ almo/ nightly4 ,two pr(essional gambl]s h j be5 conv]t$4 ,"o ( !m 0 "o ( ! sweete/ conv]sions ,i ev] saw4 ,! old conv]ts are ne>ly all do+ well4 ,don't gr[1 cold1 b be 9 "s "w = ! ,ma/] e day1 & y w n miss ! "t or regret ! s]vice4 ,god bless y4 ,y\r fri5d & bro!r 9 ,*ri/1 ,s4 ,p4 ,,holcombe4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,to ,,! ,,same4 ,,l\isville1 ,,ky41 ,april #ag1 #ahhf4 ,de> ,bro!r ,dalton3 ,y\rs ( ! #f? to h&4 ,we h pur*as$ ! prop]ty = our new home1 & we %all move 9 9 ab\t a mon?4 ,our "w is mov+ l a ?+ ( life4 ,x 0 nev] s prosp]\s be=e4 ,i wi% y c\ld be "h to "w ) u4 ,si/] ,cl>k is 9 h] glory4 ,%e is "o ( ! gr&e/ ,*ri/ian wom5 ,i h ev] se54 ,ne>ly all ! conv]ts are do+ well4 ,y\rs1 ,s4 ,p4 ,,holcombe4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,to ,,! ,,same4 ,,l\isville1 ,,ky41 ,novemb] #ae1 #ahhf4 ,de> ,bro!r ,dalton3 ,i receive no lett]s t t\* my he>t m deeply ?an ^? ,i receive f y4 ,our "w is m quiet n[4 ,! pap]s d n notice x s mu*1 b we are do+ a good "w4 ,x is n[ m among ! un=tunate bus9ess m5 ( ! city "s ( :om1 7 fall5 v l[4 ,"s :o h rec5tly be5 reclaim$ are n[ fir/-class bus9ess m54 ,! old conv]ts are all "r & do+ well1 b !y don't /& by me 9 ! "w z ,i wi% !y w\ld4 ,oh1 = consecration & conc5tration4 ,t is my motto4 ,my m>ri$ daught] has got "o ( ! be/ ( husb&s & ,i ?9k !y are ! happie/ c\ple ,i "k4 ,! re/ are all well4 ,i hope y w be bl[n back ?is way by "s favor+ breeze1 s we c h y\r help 9 our "w4 ,y\rs1 ,s4 ,p4 ,,holcombe4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,to ,,! ,,same4 ,,l\isville1 ,,ky41 ,janu>y #f1 #ahhg4 ,de> ,bro!r ,dalton3 ,our "w is go+ on gr&ly aga94 ,y c see f ! pap]s ,i am kept z busy z a bee4 ,y mu/ "k f ! numb] t come t my "t is all tak5 up 9 nurs+ !m4 ,h5ce1 ,i c n write long lett]s1 h[ev] mu* ,i w\ld l to4 ,hope to see y soon4 ,y\rs1 ,s4 ,p4 ,,holcombe4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,to ,,! ,,same4 ,,l\isville1 ,,ky41 ,octob] #bh1 #ahhg4 ,s4,p4 ,dalton1 ,clevel&1 ,ohio3 ,,de> ,,bro!r ,,dalton3 ,y\rs ( ! #ag? is receiv$4 ,i am glad y are an active work] 9 ! *ur*1 & t !y h %[n _! appreciation ( y by mak+ y a /ew>d 9 ! *ur*4 ,i believe y w r5d] a good acc\nt ( y\r /ew>d%ip4 ,! ma9 ?+ = y to gu>d aga9/ is c>e4 ,rememb]1 always :5 y ?9k y are too busy to pray 9 secret1 read ! ,bible1 g to ! meet+s1 etc41 :at ,jesus said to ,m>?a3 ,?\ art c>eful & tr\bl$ ab\t _m ?+s4 ,i am try+ to be a fai?ful s]vant4 ,god is bless+ my humble ef=ts4 ,! conv]ts are /ick+ & ! "w is gr[+4 ,mo/ ( ! conv]ts are prosp]+ 9 bus9ess4 ,"s t 7 9 ! gutt] are n[ mak+ f fifty to two hundr$ doll>s a mon?4 ,y\r fri5d & bro!r 9 ,*ri/1 ,s4 ,p4 ,,holcombe4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,to ,,! ,,same4 ,,l\isville1 ,,ky41 ,may #aa1 #ahhh4 ,de> ,bro!r ,dalton3 ,y\rs ( ! #i? to h&4 ,glad to he> ( y\r cont9u$ success 9 bus9ess4 ,y are a great man1 b a man :o is s prosp]\s 9 bus9ess mu/ keep 8 eyes op54 ,rememb] to give to ! ,"l all t belongs to ,him ( e doll> y e>n4 ,john ,wesley's motto is h>d to improve on3 ,make all y c1 save all y c1 give all y c4 ,& oh6 :at sweetness !re is 9 giv+4 ,nev] get too busy to d "s ,*ri/ian "w4 ,we h j _h ,murphy at ,l\isville1 = a mon?4 ,good-bye1 ,,/eve ,p4 ,,holcombe4 99 99 99 99 99 #c,,lett]s ,,to ,,mr4 ,,holcombe4 #c ,a few ( ! lett]s to ,mr4 ,holcombe h be5 select$ out ( sev]al hundr$s4 ,mr4 ,holcombe3 ,i h he>d & read s mu* ( y\r influ5ce & pray]s = m5 lead+ dissolute lives1 t ,i am go+ to ask y if y won't f9d my husb& & /ay & pray ) him until he is sav$4 ,! o!r night1 :5 he 0 dr9k+ v h>d1 he appeal$ to me to s5d = y to pray = him4 ,he has mu* confid5ce 9 y\r pray]s1 & believes 9 y\r life2 ,i h (t5 he>d him say s4 ,he has a noble1 lov+ disposition1 & =giv+2 s y ne$ n be afraid ( (f5d+ him4 ,8 :ole he>t w\ld =ev] (f] ?anksgiv+s = 8 deliv]y f dr9k2 = x is t t he prays =4 ,i h ?\ght t1 p]haps1 ,god int5d$ salvation to come to him ?r\gh y2 & h[ e>ne/ly ,i pray t x may4 ,s mu* has be5 done1 & s _m pray]s (f]$ = him1 won't y please1 at y\r next opportunity1 f9d him & talk & pray ) him8 ,y w\ld make a mis]able1 lonely woman's life happy aga94 ,we h be5 s happy toge!r1 s cong5ial1 s well mat$2 & if ,god w answ] all our unit$ pray]s1 happ9ess w return to our he>ts t5fold4 ,oh1 ,mr4 ,holcombe1 pray ! pray] ( fai?1 & my he>t w ev] turn 9 grateful ackn[l$gm5t to ,god = mak+ y ! humble in/rum5t ( my mu*-lov$ husb&'s salvation4 ,won't y g n[ imm$iately & wre/le = & ) him 9 pray]8 ,believe me1 mo/ e>ne/ly1 y\r co-work] 9 pray] = 8 salvation4 ,,mrs4 ,h4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,birm+ham1 ,,ala41 ,may #ab1 #ahhh4 ,de> ,bro!r ,holcombe3 ,i hope y w n ?9k h>d ( me = ask+ y to write once m to my husb&4 ,i feel s confid5t x w /ir up a remembrance ( 8 conv]sion4 ,oh1 bro!r1 don't give up help+ me4 ,try to save my husb&4 ,x ne>ly kills me to see him come home full ( ! de/roy+ ?+ call$ :isky2 & x seems to h su* a /rong hold on him4 ,all ! implor+ ,i c d w n *ange him at all4 ,i h griev$ until my life is almo/ griev$ away4 ,b oh1 ,god w surely he> my cry aft] a :ile4 ,if ,i c\ld give my life to save my husb&'s s\l1 ,i w\ld will+ly1 yes1 gladly1 d x4 ,bro!r ,holcombe1 :at d y ?9k ab\t ?is plan8 ,if y c get "o ( ! conv]ts :om my husb& kn[s1 & "o :o has be5 a great drunk>d1 to write a fri5dly1 bro!rly lett] to him1 don't y ?9k t might d "s good8 ,oh1 ,i h ?\ght ( s _m plans & ways to try & get him back to ! ,"l4 ,i am sorry to say t ! city ( ,birm+ham is ! mo/ wick$ place ,i h ev] se52 s few ,*ri/ians1 & !y are n work+4 ,i d f]v5tly hope ,god w s5d "s "o "h :o is l y\rself1 n a%am$ to "w = ! lo/4 ,i hope y w write1 ,bro!r ,holcombe4 ,pray = me2 & oh1 d ask all ! fri5ds !re to pray = my husb&4 ,mrs4 ,p4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,l\isville1 ,,ky41 ,decemb] #c;d4 ,bro!r ,holcombe3 ,w y ask ! pray]s ( y\r p 9 behalf ( my skeptical son-9-law4 ,he is a tal5t$ man1 b he is us+ 8 influ5ce aga9/ 8 be/ fri5d4 ,my poor *ild is suff]+ ! p5alty = m>ry+ an infidel4 ,if ,i d>$ tell y h[ desp]ate ! case1 ,i am sure y\r he>t w\ld be tr\bl$ to its dep?s4 ,d pray t ?is man may be l$ into ! light ( ! ,gospel1 & become a bett] husb&1 fa!r & citiz54 ,a ,,suff]+ ,,"m4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,b[l+ ,,gre51 ,novemb] #aj1 #ahhd4 ,mr4 ,holcombe3 ,w y please g & see my son ,l41 & try to p]suade him to live a bett] life8 ,he has great fai? 9 :at y say4 ,:5 y wrote to him la/ spr+ he seem$ v mu* affect$1 & said to me4 ,t is "o ( ! be/ m5 9 ! _w4 ,oh1 = heav5's sake1 pray = him4 ,if y c g & talk to him1 advise him to leave ,k5tucky & g away (f & re=m 8 life4 ,if he comes back "h1 dang] awaits him4 ,i feel sure y c influ5ce him1 = he believes y are s9c]e4 ,he is n mean & s9ful at he>t1 b oh1 ! accurs$ demon ,dr9k causes him all 8 tr\ble4 ,if he c\ld get "s respectable "w & "s "o to enc\rage him & lift him above 8 d>k5$ life1 ,i believe he w\ld be all "r4 ,he has relatives !re1 b !y are ! la/ to apply to = assi/ance4 ,he is 9 jail 9 y\r city n[4 ,god only kn[s ! pang x causes me to say he is 9 jail4 ,he 0 su* a good ,sunday-s*ool boy & a good ,templ>4 ,is x possible t he is to be lo/8 ,i c't yet give up all hope4 ,:ile my ,fa!r 9 heav5 has s sorely afflict$ me1 ,i c't help believ+ t aft] a:ile ! *ange w come4 ,oh1 h[ ,i wi% ,bro!r ,morris c\ld g to him to-day4 ,he took m int]e/ 9 him ?an any "o else ev] did4 ,please d :at y c4 ,i "k ,god w he> y\r pray] & help y to save him4 ,y\rs ) a "m's a*+ he>t = h] boy1 ---- ---- 99 99 99 99 99 ,,*icago1 ,may #bd?4 ,rev4 ,/eve ,holcombe3 ,,my ,,de> ,,fri5d3 ,i h j receiv$ a lett] f my son1 :o has almo/ ru9$ himself & brok5 my he>t by 8 intemp]ance4 ,i h be5 always pray+ = 8 re=mation1 b felt almo/ hopeless1 z he w\ld n g to *ur* & seem$ h>d5$1 & ,i "k v well he c\ld n rely on 8 own /r5g? & w\ld n look to a /rong] arm = help4 ,d y "k :5 ,i receiv$ a lett] f him to-day mak+ a full confession ( all 8 pa/ c\rse1 & say+ he _h be5 to he> y & ask$ = y\r pray]s1 ,i c\ld n realize x8 ,h[ we are surpris$ :5 ,god he>s u4 ,i write ?is to ?ank y = any?+ y may h said to help him1 & to beg y to foll[ him ) y\r pray]s & advice4 ,oh1 won't y try to help him all y c8 ,x w be a h>d battle ) him1 poor fell[1 z he has be5 = "s "t indulg+ freely4 ,w y look aft] him z mu* z y c & if he %\ld fall1 help him up8 ,i am pray+ = y & y\r "w1 & h be5 do+ s = a long "t4 ,y\r fri5d1 ,,mrs4 ,p4 ,w4 ,m4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,w$nesday ,,night4 ,de> ,mr4 ,holcombe3 ,w y please come out to my home on ,?ird /reet 9 ! morn+ z e>ly z y c8 ,i dislike to tr\ble y 9 ?is way2 b ,i am 9 great tr\ble ) ,mr4 ,l4 ,he has be5 dr9k+1 & ,i feel t y c be ! means ( br++ him back to ,god4 ,i h pray$ ) him1 & done all ,i c\ld = him4 ,i feel cru%$ to ! e>? ) ?is deep sorr[ & mortification4 ,don't let him "k t ,i s5t = y4 ,he is q sick to-night4 ,pray t ,god may su/a9 u & lift u out ( ?is deep d>k sorr[1 & ca/ out ! demon t seems to possess my poor de> husb&4 ,god bless y1 our de> good fri5d1 & keep u all ?is night4 ,s9c]ely y\r fri5d1 ,,mrs4 ,l4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,l\isville1 ,,ky41 ,april #ab1 #ahhh4 ,rev4 ,s4 ,p4 ,holcombe3 ,,de> ,,bro!r3 ,x is ) grief 9 my he>t ,i mu/ write y aga94 ,mr4 ,l4 w5t on a bus9ess trip ?ree weeks s9ce1 b fell into bad company1 & has be5 on a protract$ spree4 ,he came home la/ night utt]ly disc\rag$--w n ev5 try to pray aga94 ,i am almo/ disc\rag$ myself2 c only wait & tru/4 ,i ?9k if y c\ld make x conv5i5t to call to see him to-day1 p]haps ,god w put words into y\r m\? t w help him4 ,i leave x ) y2 & w\ld n ask y to leave y\r duties1 except ,i "k y\r will+ness to "w = ! ,ma/]4 ,he w n "k t ,i h s5t = y4 ,oh1 help me to pray t ,god w help my husb&4 ,y\r fri5d1 ,,mrs4 ,l4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,octob] #bh,,?4 ,fri5d ,holcombe3 ,i am lock$ up1 & g to ! "w-h\se ?is morn+4 ,oh1 c any?+ be done to help me2 ,i want to become a diff]5t man4 ,try & save me4 ,truly1 ---- ---- 99 99 99 99 99 ,,city ,,"w-,,h\se1 ,novemb] #a1 #ahhb4 ,rev4 ,/eph5 ,p4 ,holcombe3 ,,de> ,,sir3 ,y k9dly reque/$ me to write y 9 ev5t ,i rea*$ ! conclusion t "u a *ange ( condition ,i might become a diff]5t man4 ,my k ( y\r own c>e] inspires me ) m confid5ce ?an any?+ t has ev] fall5 "u my notice4 ,c\pl$ ) ! impression made ^u me by ! s]mon on ,sunday aft]noon1 ,i firmly believe if y w come & see me1 & all[ me to /ate to y fully my convictions z to y\r ability to make a sob] man ( me1 y w d "o ( ! greate/ & noble/ acts ( y\r life2 &1 9 keep+ me f ! slav]y ( dr9k1 rescue "o :o has suff]$1 & :o has caus$1 & n[ is caus+1 mu* suff]+ to o!rs4 ,i /& ready to unite ) y 9 any mann] y may sugge/1 & pray ,god ,almighty to bless y4 ,truly1 ---- ----4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,city ,,"w-,,h\se1 ,novemb] #b1 #ahhb4 ,fri5d ,holcombe3 ,:5 ,i p5n$ ! few l9es to y ye/]day1 ,i _h to d x 9 s %ort a space ( "t1 t 9 all probability ,i omitt$ to /ate specifically :y ,i desir$ to see y4 ,h]et(ore1 ,i h nev] ent]ta9$ any settl$ plan ( op]ations to re/ra9 my appetite = liquor o!r ?an ! m]e w p[] ,i deem$ 9 my own possession & control1 &1 z a result1 w\ld inv>iably f9d myself 9 ! v mid/ ( violat+ e previ\sly conceiv$ resolution4 ,y\r k9dness 9 po9t+ out a c\rse ( discipl9e & conduct1 & ext5d+ to me a welcome among ^? :o h made1 & :o are mak+1 successful battle aga9/ ! great de/roy] ( happ9ess1 awak5$ )9 me an entirely diff]5t curr5t ( ?\ght2 & :5 ,i /at$ ,i w\ld unite ) y 9 any mann] y w\ld sugge/1 to effect ! object 9 view1 ,i meant x ) all my he>t & m9d2 & ,i appeal to an all-wise & m]ciful ,creator to atte/ ! s9c]ity ( my decl>ation 9 ?is matt]4 ,aga91 my resolve is to att5d /rictly to any sugge/ions y may make4 ,! accurs$ appetite has begg>$ me4 ,i d n ask *>ity f any mortal t[>d me4 ,i am n des]v+ ( ei!r sympa?y or pity2 & :ile ! embrac+ ( ! cause ( religion & temp]ance c n ( itself "w re=mation1 x places a man 9 a position :]e he c climb upw>d & g =w>d1 in/ead ( =ev] travel+ ! broad way t leads to de/ruction4 ,holcombe1 ,i want to r$eem myself4 ,i only crave ?is "o la/ opportunity1 & if ,god w help me no man %all ev] "k ( me us+ ei!r intoxicat+ dr9k or pr(ane language z long z brea? is 9 my body4 ,:5 releas$1 ,i d n want to be idle a day4 ,i h m\?s to fe$ ^: entry into ?is tr\bl$ life is *>geable solely to me4 ,i w "w = a doll> a day to d my duty t[>ds !m4 ,judge ,w4 ,l4 ,jackson1 ,judge ,h4 ,h4 ,bruee1 ,g>y ,b4 ,blackburn or ,major ,tom ,hays1 w\ld1 ,i am sure1 put 9 a good ^w = me2 & ,judge ,price himself1 ,i ?9k has "s hope = me4 ,i _h a viol5t *ill to-day1 & am 9 ! hospital dep>tm5t1 & my f+]s are some:at /iff f rese>*es 9 ! geological dep>tm5t4#d ,h5ce ?is cramp$ writ+4 ,come & see me1 & d n give me up z hopeless4 ,truly1 ---- ----4 #d ,he means ! rock-pile4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,b[l+ ,,gre51 ,,ky41 ,m>* #bg1 #ahhh4 ,rev4 ,/eve ,holcombe3 ,,de> ,,sir3 ,i am s mu* oblig$ to y = ! k9d lett] y 7 pleas$ to write me4 ,y no d\bt ?9k ere ?is t ! se$ has fall5 on /ony gr\nd1 &1 p]haps1 among ?orns2 b ,i c assure y t ,i made up my m9d :5 9 y\r city to lead a diff]5t life1 & to devote ! rema9d] ( my life to ! s]vice ( my ,god4 ,i h s (t5 ?\ght ( y1 & h wi%$ to see y4 ,pray = me1 & ,i d hope we may meet aga94 ,if ev] conv5i5t1 call & see me4 ,our doors w be op51 yes1 wide op51 to y4 ,?ank+ y aga9 = y\r remembrance ( me1 ,i am1 y\rs truly1 ----4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,sick ,,b$1 ,febru>y #e?4 ,de> ,*ri/ian ,bro!r3 ,i h a t5ant 9 a little h\se1 a groc]y1 on ,six? /reet1 "r next to ! ,fir/ ,presbyt]ian *ur*1 :o is a fe>fully wick$ man1 a common drunk>d1 & /eep$ 9 s92 & ,i come to y to-day to beg y to seek him out & try to rescue him4 ,he has f\r or five little mo!rless *ildr51 ^: lives are full ( ! bitt]e/ sorr[2 !y are s dirty & unkempt t ! public s*ool tea*] _h to s5d !m home4 ,!y are "u no control2 h no "o to tra9 !m = ,god1 & ought to be :]e "s "o w\ld save !m f !mselves & ru94 ,:5 ,i leas$ my h\se to him1 he 0 a v h&some1 well-to-d man2 "y1 app>5tly hone/1 paid 8 r5t regul>ly1 & _h a v nice little wife1 :o has s9ce di$--,i ?9k ) a brok5 he>t4 ,w y n look him up at once8 ,or1 if y are too full ( o!r cases1 w y n get "s "o ( y\r work]s to try to lead him back to good pa?s8 ,he is a v desp]ate case1 ,i "k1 & seems almo/ pa/ sav+ n[2 b y "k ,god's grace c rea* any he>t4 ,i w\ld lay ?is poor dissolute creature1 lo/ to all s5se ( honor1 %ame or manl9ess1 on y\r s\l1 my bro!r1 & besee* y1 = ,*ri/'s sake1 = ! sake ( ^! poor mo!rless *ildr51 ^: s\ls are wor? sav+ = ,*ri/1 d try to br+ y\r influ5ce & y\r pray]s = ,god's help1 to ?is mis]able man's case1 & see if y c help4 ,if he is pa/ ,god's m]cy--& ,i c n believe t--w y n see :at c be done = ! little ones8 ,! olde/ boy is a bright little fell[1 & may become a great light 9 our ,fa!r's "w4 ,i he> t ?is man has be5 to he> ,mr4 ,moody4 ,i d n "k if x help$ him4 ,w y n s5d aft] him1 & try to get him to g to-night8 ,i w meet y 9 pray] !re = him4 ,9 bonds ( ,*ri/ian fri5d%ip1 ,,j5nie ,,cass$ay4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,alex&]',s ,,hotel1 ,,l\isville1 ,,ky41 ,may #cj1 #ahhh4 ,my ,de> ,mr4 ,holcombe3 ,i am /ruggl+ z h>d z ev] a poor wret* did aga9/ my appetite = liquor4 ,i h ask$ ! good ,"l to help me ov]come ! habit1 b ,i feel t my pray]s am\nt to no?+4 ,may ,i ask y to ask ! ,great ,controll] ( u all to give me /r5g? to ov]come ?is habit8 ,save me1 or help save me1 ,i beg & implore y4 ,please give me y\r pray]s4 ---- ----4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,octob] #af1 #ahhg4 ,my ,de> ,/eve3 ,y\r k9d favor ( ! #g? in/ant rea*$ me 9 due "t4 ,i 01 ( c\rse1 delight$ to he> f y1 & inexpressibly glad to he> ( ! improv$ /ate ( y\r heal?4 ,i also note ) mu* pleasure :at y say 9 reg>d to ! pleasant & ext5sive trip t y h j f9i%$4 ,x gratifies & pleases me beyond expression to "k t ! p ( ,l\isville are at la/ awak5$ to y\r wor?1 & are will+ to manife/ "s sub/antial recognition ( ! same4 ,all ?+s "w well = ^? :o love ! ,"l4 ,i believe ! quotation is correct4 ,oh1 _h ,i cont9u$ 9 ! way y po9t$ out to me1 h[ diff]5t my situation & circum/ances w\ld be4 ,in/ead ( be+ brok5 9 heal? & bankrupt 9 purse1 sep>at$ f all t ,i love & hold mo/ de>1 ,i w\ld be1 ,i am sure1 :at ,i 0 :ile ,i 0 endeavor+ to lead a ,*ri/ian life--a happy husb& & fa!r & a respectable citiz54 ,oh1 ,/eve1 my de> fri5d1 ,i am wret*$1 mis]able1 brok5 he>t$4 ,:5 ,i reflect ^u :at ,i 0 & :at ,i might h be51 & consid] :at ,i am & h[ little ,i h to look =w>d to1 ,i simply get desp]ate4 ,b ,i w n we>y y ) my tr\bles4 ,z reg>ds myself & habits1 ,i may say1 )\t exagg]ation1 t ,i am 9 bett] heal? & my mode ( liv+ is pla9] & m regul> ?an x has ev] be54 ,i rise e morn+ betwe5 f\r & five o'clock1 & retire betwe5 eight & n9e4 ,my food is ( ! pla9e/ & co>se/ k9d4 ,my companions are1 ,i regret to say1 c[boys4 ,y "k1 ,i presume1 :at !y are1 s ,i w say no?+ ab\t !m4 ,i nei!r dr9k nor smoke2 ,i *ew tobacco v mod]ately1 & expect to quit t4 ,i suff] t]ribly at times = ! want ( cong5ial company4 ,y mu/ excuse ?is ef=t1 z ,i am surr\nd$ by a lot ( boys :o are mak+ a t]rible lot ( noise4 ,give my love to all ( y\r family4 ,god bless y1 my de> ,/eve4 ,pray = me & m9e4 ,y\r fri5d1 ---- ---- ----4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,novemb] #b1 #ahhg4 ,my ,de> ,/eve3 ,y\r lett] ( ! #bg? is be=e me4 ,x is j su* a lett] z ,i expect$--s full ( sympa?y1 love & good1 :olesome advice4 ,i wi% x 7 possible1 or1 r1 exp$i5t1 to li/5 to y\r advice & return home1 = ,i am he>tily sick & tir$ ( ! life ,i am n[ liv+4 ,don't y "k t my life out "h rem9ds me1 9 a measure1 ( y\r we/]n exp]i5ce8 ,( c\rse1 ,i am n subject$ to ! h>d%ips & deprivations t y 7 =c$ to und]go4 ,b1 z f> z bodily com=t & companion%ip are conc]n$1 ,i mu/ say t y\r exp]i5ce mu/ h be5 r t\gh1 if x 0 worse ?an m9e4 ,n[1 don't misund]/& me1 ,i h pl5ty to eat1 su* z x is1 ,i h a fairly good b$1 9 a fairly good room4 ,my companions are1 z y "k1 c[boys4 ,t !y are r\gh & all t1 goes )\t say+1 b let me tell y1 my de> fri5d1 ,i h receiv$ bett] treatm5t & m consid]ation f ^! wild1 half-civiliz$ c[boys1 ^u :om ,i h no e>?ly claim1 ?an ,i ev] receiv$ f "s f :om ,i _h a "r to expect1 if n fair treatm5t1 at lea/ "s consid]ation4 ,! p "o meets out "h are always will+ to give a fell[ a :ite man's *ance4 ,:5 y write1 tell me some?+ ab\t ! de> old ,mission & its work]s4 ,:at has become ( ,davidson1 ,peck1 ,book] & all ( ! boys8 ,i w\ld be extremely sorry to he> t any ( !m _h =sak5 ! n>r[ = ! broad way4 ,! de> old ,mission6 ,:at a tra9 ( happy memories is connect$ ) x4 ,i almo/ =got to inquire ab\t ,clay ,price4 ,tell me ab\t all ( !m4 ,i am ab\t to *ange my qu>t]s4 ,don't "k :]e ,i w g4 ,y _h bett] wait until y he> f me aga9 be=e answ]+4 ,) mu* love to y\rself & family1 ,i am1 z ev]1 ,y\r fri5d1 ---- ---- ----4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,decemb] #aj1 #ahhg4 ,my ,de> ,/eve3 ,y\r lett]1 or r note1 ( ,novemb] #bi?1 rea*$ me 9 due c\rse4 ,y advise me to keep up a brave he>t4 ,/eve1 old fell[1 my he>t is brok54 ,i "k y w smile & %ake y\r head2 b ,i hone/ly believe t if !re is su* a ?+ z a brok5 he>t1 m9e is brok54 ,hav5't ,i suff]$ en\gh8 ,well1 h[ is ! ,mission gett+ along8 ,i notic$ 9 ! ,c\ri]-,j\rnal ! o!r day t ,george ,k]r _h be5 reclaim$4 ,well1 well1 :o w\ld h ?\ght x8 ,i "k him well4 ,he is a fell[ ( "s p>ts4 ,if he c only keep sob]1 he is abundantly qualifi$ to d well4 ,write me some?+ ab\t ! boys4 ,i w\ld be mighty glad to he> good reports ( !m4 ,h y se5 ! ----s lately4 ,give !m my reg>ds :5 y see !m2 & rem9d !m = me1 t !y are 9 debt to me a lett]4 ,!y & y1 old fell[1 are ab\t all ! fri5ds ,i h left4 ,:at a sad comm5t>y ^u human nature is ! mutability ( s-call$ fri5d%ip6 ,:5 ,i 0 prosp]\s1 ,i _h all ! fri5ds ,i want$1 & m1 too4 ,n[1 ,i c c\nt !m ^u ! f+]s ( "o h&4 ,ah1 well1 ,i suppose x has be5 ! same "t out ( m9d2 ,i am n an exception4 ,n[1 ,/eve1 write me a long lett]1 & tell me all ! news4 ,v truly y\r fri5d1 ---- ----4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,f ,a ,,conv]t4 ,,kansas ,,city1 ,,mo41 ,may #cj1 #ahhh4 ,rev4 ,/eve ,p4 ,holcombe1 ,l\isville1 ,ky43 ,y\rs receiv$4 ,w\ld h writt5 soon] b ,i h be5 away & busy4 ,i h be5 at ,fulton1 ,mo41 s9ce ! t5? in/ant4 ,bro!r ,jones left ,monday morn+4 ,i tell y ,i j _h a glori\s "t4 ,/eve1 ,i love ! "w6 & ,god is bless+ me wond]fully2 ev]y?+ is prosp]\s2 bus9ess is gett+ bett]2 my heal? is gett+ bett]4 ,9 %ort1 ev]y?+ is j glori\s4 ,( c\rse1 ,i feel gloomy sometimes2 b1 bless$ be ,god1 he w n all[ u to be tempt$ above t we are able to be>2 &1 ) e temptation !re is a way ( escape4 ,i feel j t way4 ,e "t temptation comes to me1 ,i flee to ,god = help1 & ,i nev] yet fail$4 ,i h gone into ?is = life2 &1 ,god help+ me1 ,i w /ick4 ,i h n ta/$ dr9k ( any k9d s9ce ab\t ,janu>y #i?1 & ,i tell y ,i 0 a slave to x4 ,i nev] ?9k ( dr9k+ n[2 my ?\ght is all 9 a diff]5t *annel2 bless ,god = x4 ,our little mission is gradually gr[+1 & we hope = gr& ?+s f x4 ,pray = u4 ,bro!r ,morris wi%es to be rememb]$ to y\rself & family4 ,i am a memb] ( 8 *ur*1 & ,i love him4 ,he is a gr& man4 ,i am go+ to ,*illico!1 ,miss\ri1 ! #ab? ( ,june--,bro!r ,jones w be !re = t5 days4 ,give my reg>ds to all :o "k me2 & tell !m ,i am tru/+ ,jesus = ev]y?+4 ,may ,god bless y 9 y\r good "w4 ,i %all nev] =get y4 ,write z soon z conv5i5t4 ,y\r fri5d & bro!r1 ,,h>ry ,,*apman4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,f ,a ,,conv]t4 ,,*icago1 ,july #ba1 #ahhd4 ,my ,de> ,bro!r ,/eve3 ,y\r k9d po/al ( ! #ba/ to h& ?is ,p4 ,m4 ,i mu/ really beg y\r p>don = hav+ neglect$ y\r c>ds2 b ,i h no excuse to (f]4 ,x has be5 no?+ b c>elessness4 ,i 0 abs5t f ,*icago a week ) my fri5d ,d41 & _h a v pleasant "t4 ,x is probable t he w />t into bus9ess 9 ,*icago4 ,he w "k 9 ! next few weeks4 ,! ,"l has tak5 wond]fully good c>e ( me s9ce ,i h be5 "h1 al?\gh on "o or two occasions ,i h _h to d ) only "o meal a day4 ,he has bless$ me all ! "t4 ,he has kept me *e]ful ?r\gh all1 & ,i feel to-day t ,i am ne>] to ,him ?an ,i h ev] be54 ,i h put myself into ,8 h&s unres]v$ly1 & ,i feel t ,he is tak+ c>e ( me4 ,ye/]day ,i got a lett] f my bro!r4 ,he ask$ me to pray = him1 & ,i %all c]ta9ly cont9ue to d s z long z ,i live4 ,:5ev] y see him1 speak to him ab\t ! salvation ( 8 s\l4 ,i h writt5 to him ab\t x1 & he wants to try & become a ,*ri/ian4 ,pray = him4 ,sunday ,i saw ,dr4 ,s4 ,he is bett] dress$ ?an ,i ev] saw him4 ,i notice he we>s ! ,murphy ribbon 9 8 button-hole4 ,i am glad he is look+ s well4 ,?is 0 ! fir/ "t ,i _h se5 him = weeks4 ,/eve1 !re is only "o ?+ lack+ to make my happ9ess complete1 & t is to h my "m ?9k m favorably ( my re=mation4 ,i h writt5 to h] twice1 & %e has n ev5 deign$ to answ]4 ,i feel1 h[ev]1 t ! ,"l w br+ ?is ab\t all "r4 ,z to my gett+ into a situation1 x w be "s "t yet1 z bus9ess h>dly ev] />ts up "h until ab\t ,septemb]4 ,!n ! ,"l w put me into some?+ p]man5t1 ,i "k4 ,! capta9 is inde$ happy ) 8 family reunit$ ) him4 ,he ought to %\t ,god's praises f morn+ till night2 b he is n ! only "o t c %\t--my he>t is =ev] full4 ,nei!r h>d times1 nor any?+ else1 c keep me d[n z long z ,i h ,jesus ) me4 ,i mu/ close2 x is "t to g to conv]t's meet+4 ,my pray]s are = y & ! ,mission4 ,i humbly ask y1 z well z all ! good ,*ri/ians !re1 to pray = me4 ,may ,god bless y & y\rs4 ,y\r bro!r 9 ,*ri/1 ,,fr$ ,,ropke4 ,rememb] me to ,mrs4 ,holcombe & ! re/ ( ! family1 z well z to all inquir+ fri5ds4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,f ,,! ,,same4 ,,*icago1 ,augu/ #c1 #ahhd4 ,de> ,/eve3 ,y\r k9d lett] to h&4 ,i feel a%am$ ( myself = n answ]+ y\r lett]s m promptly4 ,x does my he>t good to ?9k t y at la/ h confid5ce 9 me1 & t my go+ to ,*icago mu/ n necess>ily r\nd up 9 my go+ to hell4 ,x seems to me1 al?\gh ,i h n be5 9 ! s]vice ( our glori\s ,ma/] z long z y h1 yet ,i h1 or r _h1 m fai? 9 ,8 p[] to keep me ?an y _h2 b y\r rem>k has (t5 be5 recall$ to my m9d4 ,d y rememb] say+ t if ,i w5t to ,*icago1 ,i 0 c]ta9ly b\nd = hell8 ,0 ?is *>ity or plac+ mu* fai? 9 ,god's ^w8 ,well1 let ! matt] drop4 ,i h j come home f a glori\s meet+4 ,oh1 h[ ,i ?ank ,god ?is morn+ = a lightness ( he>t & a buoyancy ( _s t lift me above surr\nd+ trials & tr\bles6 ,i am poor 9 purse2 b1 bless ,8 holy "n1 ,i am ri* 9 promises & fai?4 ,my temporal affairs are n 9 a v prosp]\s condition1 b not)/&+ all ?is1 ,i h ! confid5ce ,he w take c>e ( me4 ,he has done ?is 9 a wond]ful mann] to ?is "t1 & ,he c]ta9ly has n *ang$ s9ce ,i h become "o ( ,84 ,capta9 ,davidson keeps me pretty well po/$ z to y\r meet+s4 ,i am glad !y are well att5d$4 ,! ,"l will+1 ,i w be ) y on a visit ?is com+ w9t]1 & ,i w br+ a fri5d4 ,y w !n see 9 :at /yle !y conduct _! meet+s "h 9 ,*icago4 ,i h z yet receiv$ no answ] to my long lett] to ,h41 b ,i praise ,god t my humble words h set him to ?9k+4 ,my pray]s asc5d to heav5 daily t he may be sav$4 ,y\r fri5d1 ,frank ,jones1 is "h 9 ,*icago4 ,i saw him once on ,cl>k /reet1 b _h no *ance to talk to him4 ,?is has be5 "s two weeks ago4 ,rememb] me 9 ,*ri/ian love to ! ,mill]s1 ,capta9 ,d5ny1 ,dalton1 ,b5 ,h>ney1 ,tom ,watts--9 fact1 all2 b especially give my reg>ds to ,mrs4 ,holcombe4 ,don't =get ,mulligan1 & my pray]s are t ,god may bless y z abundantly z he is bless+ y\r bro!r 9 ,*ri/1 ,,fr$ ,,ropke4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,f ,a ,,conv]t4 ,,l\isville1 ,,ky41 ,septemb] #ab1 #ahhg4 ,rev1 ,s4 ,p4 ,holcombe1 ,new ,york ,city3 ,,my ,,de> ,,old ,,fri5d3 ,y d n "k ! pleasure y\r lett] gave me1 ,i h want$ to write y ev] s9ce my return1 b did n "k :]e a lett] w\ld rea* y1 nor d ,i "k :]e to direct ?is1 b suppose ,i c get y\r address f ,w4 ,i 0 at ! ,mission la/ night1 & miss$ y sadly4 ,we all miss$ y 9 _m ways4 ,y\r good1 h>d1 common horse s5se is sadly ne$$4 ,x is ! same old /ory2 we nev] appreciate a man until x is too late4 ,i us$ to ?9k ,i c\ld pick _m flaws 9 y\r managem5t ( ! mission "w1 b ,i h n[ come to ! conclusion t y c't be d[n$ 9 t l9e1 & h]eaft] ,i %all n ev5 ?9k a ?\ght aga9/ y\r managem5t4 ,la/ night we _h "s ignoramus to prea*1 & 8 gramm> & ways ( express+ himself 7 7to say ! lea/7 tiresome2 b we _h te/imonies aft]w>d1 & ,i said to myself1 ,well1 ,bro!r ,/eve is away1 & ,i h be5 on ! quiet lay = a long "t2 ,i ?9k1 = ! sake ( ,*ri/ & old ,/eve1 ,i w give a r$-hot te/imony "r f ! %\ld]1 & ,i did4 ,i 0 foll[$ by ,hock] 9 a l /ra91 & o!rs *im+ 91 we made ! welk9 r+ f turret to f\ndation-/one4 ,b ! bann]-be>] 0 n !re2 s ! good int5d$ to be done fell %ort4 ,only "o /ood up = pray]4 ,b nev] m9d1 we w h our old vet]an lead] ) u soon1 :5 we w unfurl our battle-flag anew & c>ry t]ror & dismay into old ,beelzebub's camp4 ,i ?9k if our w9t] campaign is well organiz$1 !re w be no ,indians on ! w>pa? next spr+4 ,i miss y & want to see y s bad1 t y may give me a hundr$ lectures & ,i won't %irk4 ,y\r true blues are all hold+ fa/4 ,y\r ,old ,gu>d is a true & tri$ "o4 ,i ?9k !y all c be dep5d$ on bo? on dress p>ade & "u fire4 ,y\r family are all well4 ,may our heav5ly ,fa!r bless y1 my de> fri5d1 bo? "h & h]eaft]4 ,y\r s9s h be5 great2 b oh1 :at w\ld ,i n give to "k t1 aft] life's fitful fev] is ov]1 ,i w\ld be p]mitt$ to occupy a seat 9 ! beautiful l& ( ! ble/ alongside ( y4 ,truly y\r fai? has made y :ole4 ,good-bye1 & once m1 ,god bless y4 ,y\r s9c]e fri5d1 ,p4 ,b4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,f ,a ,,conv]t4 ,,atlanta1 ,,ga41 ,febru>y #c1 #ahhe4 ,de> ,bro!r ,holcombe3 ,y\r lett] ( ,decemb] #ag? 0 receiv$ 9 due "t4 ,y\r po/al c>d 0 also receiv$ a few days ago4 ,i h no lawful excuse to (f] b pure procra/9ation1 f "t to "t1 = n answ]+4 ,y are n =gott5 by me or my wife & daught]4 ,we (t5 speak ( y1 & ! "q is (t5 ask$1 ,w he come & see u ?is ye> & hold ano!r mission meet+8 ,y did s mu* good 9 ,atlanta4 ,! meet+s 7 kept up until ! bad wea!r broke u up2 !y 7 well att5d$ ne>ly e night1 & ! good se$ y s[$ g]m9at$2 &1 by ,bro!r ,b>clay's good till+ & ! assi/ance & ! goodness ( ,god1 has br\ght =? mu* fruit ( rep5tance2 &1 ?ank ,god1 we all bless ! day ,he s5t y to u4 ,if y\r ,mission manag]s c\ld see ! great good y accompli%$ :ile ) u1 ,i d n ?9k !y w\ld say no to y\r mak+ ,atlanta ano!r visit2 & we look =w>d to ! day z n be+ f> di/ant :5 y w d s4 ,i am try+ my be/ to live "r4 ,i "k ,i am *ang$2 ,i feel v diff]5t f :at ,i did be=e y visit$ u4 ,y h kn[n me fifte5 ye>s2 & y "k h[ bad & s9ful ,i 01 & h[ dissipat$4 ,i h n ev5 want$ a dr9k ( any?+ s9ce y\r visit4 ,y "k ,i told y ,i _h put my foot on ! s]p5t & ,i int5d$ to keep x !re4 ,i d n g ) any ( my old associates :o dr9k or :o visit b> rooms4 ,i select good company2 ,i keep up ! family alt>1 & we are a happy little family n[4 ,c y appreciate t y sav$ "o ( y\r old lo/ fri5ds by y\r good "w8 ,:5 ,i met y & saw & he>d ( ! great bless+ ,god _h be/[$ ^u y & y\r de> family1 ,i set ab\t obta9+ ! l bless+ = myself2 & ,i feel 9 my he>t t ,i h receiv$ x4 ,god has be5 v m]ciful to me & blesses all my und]tak+s & ,i am s ?ankful = all ( ,8 k9d m]cies4 ,bro!r ,b>clay told me he wrote y a few days ago1 & ,i suppose he gave y all ! news4 ,i h n be5 to ! mission ,sunday-s*ool = "s "t on acc\nt ( ! bad wea!r1 & y "k ,i live a long way (f4 ,b1 ,god will+1 ,i %all g next ,sunday4 ,my wife & daught] jo9 9 mu* love to y & y\r family1 & wi% y a happy & successful ye> 9 ! ,ma/]'s cause4 ,y\rs truly1 ---- ----4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,f ,,an ,,(f5d$ ,,g5tleman4 ,,l\isville1 ,,ky41 ,janu>y #ac1 #ahhg4 ,my ,de> ,sir3 ,y\r lett] surprises me4 ,y came to me un9troduc$2 ,i 0 glad to see y1 &1 ,i hope1 treat$ y ) ! consid]ation :i* ,i ?9k y\r m]it dem&s4 ,y aga9 approa*$ me to-day4 ,tonight ,i receiv$ a lett] f y :i* is to me (f5sive & impolite4 ,i am n com+ to y\r place1 & ,i w ?ank y to abate y\r int]e/ 9 my behalf4 ,i believe 9 y\r "w1 & wi% y success2 b ,i hope y w let me alone4 ,my self-con/itut$ fri5ds h done me m injury ?an ev5 my own indiscretions4 ,v truly1 ,to ,rev4 ,/eve ,p4 ,holcombe4 ----- -----4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,f ,a ,,gambl]4 ,,febru>y #d1 #ahhd4 ,mr4 ,/eve ,holcombe1 ,esq41 ,lewisville1 ,ky43 ,,de> ,,fri5d3 ,i take my p5 9 h& to drop y a few l9es1 z ,i hav5't he>d ( y = a long "t1 ,i le>nt f a fri5d1 ( y\r :]eab\ts1 & t y _h =ev] ,retir$ f ,gambl+1 ,i want to accumulate a few hundr$ doll>s & ,retire f ! ,bus9ess 9 ! future1 & z we h long ,be5 fri5ds1 ,i hope y w n ,refuse giv+ me y\r sure sy/em ( w9n+ at ! ,game ( ,pok]4 ,f y\r fri5d1 ,,david ,w4 ,,mill]1 ,ridgeville1 ,r&olph ,co41 ,ind4 99 99 99 99 99 #hdi ,,sev5? ,,/41 ,,l\isville1 ,may #bh1 #ahhh4 ,rev4 ,/eve ,holcombe3 ,,de> ,,sir3 ,i h a l>ge family ,bible1 :i* has be5 9 my family a numb] ( ye>s4 ,y w d me a p]sonal favor by accept+ x z a s\v5ir ( my late son1 ,*>les ,a4 ,gill4 ,x 0 ?r\gh y\r ,*ri/ian in/rum5tality & k9dness t my de> son embrac$ 8 ,savi\r & di$ a ,*ri/ian4 ,hop+ t ,god w add _m />s to y\r cr[n1 ,i am y\r s9c]e fri5d1 ,,hannah ,,gill4 ,two m ,bibles w be giv5 y by ! same h& = di/ribution4 ,h4 ,g4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,f ,a ,,*ri/ian ,,bro!r4 ,,memphis1 ,,t5n41 ,may #f1 #ahhg4 ,my ,de> ,fri5d & ,bro!r ,holcombe3 ,y\r c>d well receiv$1 b ,i h be5 s busy t ,i h wait$ = a "t to write to y4 ,i am 9 good heal? & h a good situation1 ?ank ,god4 ,am always alone4 ,my *ildr5 9 ,switz]l& are well4 ,:5 ,i pass$ ?r\gh ,l\isville1 z ,i wrote y f ,new ,york1 ,i wi%$ ,i _h be5 able to /op = tw5ty-f\r h\rs1 b _h a ?r\gh sleep] to ,memphis1 & c\ld n /ay ov]4 ,i he>d ( y\r great trial lately4 ,hope ,god did su/a9 y1 & t good w come out ( x = y\r s\l4 ,! m ,i live1 ! m ,i am sep>at$ f ?is _w4 ,my body is 9 x1 b my m9d & _s are long+ = a bett] /ate1 :]e evil %all n be pres5t1 )9 or )\t4 ,! ,bible becomes cle>] to my s\l e day1 & ) ! grace ( ,god ,i hope to come to ! end a fai?ful & ob$i5t *ild ( ! ,almighty ,fa!r 9 heav54 ,i suff] v mu* m5tally2 x is a con/ant agony4 ,i am absolutely1 completely brok5 d[n 9 my own w2 h giv5 up entirely all worldly pleasures2 h no pleasure except 9 do+ ! w ( ,god ! be/ ,i c4 ,my old enemy1 myself1 ) my passions & self-indulg5ce1 ,i pay no m att5tion to4 ,may ,god use me accord+ to ,8 good w1 & make me s z to be wor?y ( ,8 s]vice4 ,ev]y?+ ( ?is _w has be5 tak5 away f me2 ,vanity ( vanities1 all is vanity is my daily bread4 ,i (t5 wi% to be 9 ,l\isville4 ,maybe ,i %all return !re lat]1 to h "s ,*ri/ian fri5ds ar\nd me4 ,i h "h #aej4jj a mon?1 & ! f9e/ situation t c be wi%$ 9 my l9e ( bus9ess4 ,:at are y do+8 ,i suppose always ! same--tak+ c>e ( ! lo/ & neglect$4 ,y\r rew>d %all be great1 z y come ne>] fulfill+ ! ,ma/]'s tea*+ ?an brilliant prea*]s :o d n t\* ! burd5s ( poor s9n]s4 ,h[ is y\r family1 especially y\r sweet little daught]8 ,i hope y are all well4 ,?is _w is no?+ b a trem5d\s deception to all :o are atta*$ to x2 ev]y?+ is corrupt1 & has ! /+ ( dea? & s94 ,x is a con/ant w>f>e ) evil & evil =ces ar\nd y4 ,x is only wor? liv+ = ! good we c d to o!rs4 ,i c n und]/& at all ! joy t "s f9d 9 x1 except 9 do+ entirely1 to ! be/ ( y\r ability1 ! w ( ,god4 ,!re is surely no o!r s\rce ( life 9 ! univ]se4 ,i am writ+ n[ to de> ,bro!r ,a4 ,a few mon?s ago he wrote to me4 ,he1 also1 has _h great sorr[s4 ,x is v /range t alone pa9 & suff]+ c make u wise & pure 9 he>t4 ,h[ antagoni/ic are ! ways ( ,god & ^? ( m58 ,absolutely oppos$ 9 all ?+s4 ,oh1 let u be true to ,god1 ev5 unto dea?1 cutt+ m]cilessly all t is worldly & c>nal1 s z to live = ! _s & n lose et]nal life4 ,my de> bro!r1 please d pray = y\r lonely bro!r1 t ,god may br+ ,8 pres5ce into my worri$ s\l & help me 9 ! battle4 ,! enemy is v p[]ful1 & %[s no m]cy4 ,8 mission is to de/roy & to lie1 & he kn[s h[ to d x4 ,may ,god bless y & keep y =ev]4 ,y\r true fri5d1 ---- ----4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,f ,,sam ,p4 ,,jones4 ,,*icago1 ,,ill41 ,m>* #af1 #ahhf4 ,rev4 ,/eve ,holcombe1 ,l\isville1 ,ky43 ,,de> ,,bro!r ,,holcombe3 ,y\rs ( ,m>* #aj? receiv$4 ,i ?\ght y 7 wise en\gh to "k1 :5 y want$ to plant y\rself 9 p]man5t qu>t]s1 t ! devil w\ld d 8 be/ to prev5t x4 ,! devil don't l y anyway2 b keep y\r equilibrium--,god is ) y2 & ,he is m ?an all t c be aga9/ y4 ,i h j pass$ ?r\gh ! mo/ t]rific /orm ( criticism almo/ ( my life2 & ?ank ,god ,i h witness$ 9 ,*icago1 )9 ! la/ tw5ty-f\r h\rs1 ! gr&e/ triumph ( ! ,gospel ,i ev] saw4 ,i wi% y c\ld be "h a few days & see ! p[] ( ,god1 & rejoice ) u 9 ! "w4 ,i enclose an article1 :i* y c take to ! ,c\ri]-,j\rnal if y l4 ,k9de/ reg>ds to y\r lov$ ones & all ! bre?r51 & may ,god's bless+ be ^u y\r "w4 ,frat]nally y\rs1 ,,sam ,p4 ,,jones4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,f ,,! ,,same4 ,,gibson ,,h\se1 ,,c9c9nati1 ,,ohio1 ,june #ac1 #ahhf4 ,my ,de> ,bro!r ,holcombe3 ,i receiv$ y\r message s5t by ,bro!r ,clevel&4 ,i w\ld l y to come ov] ab\t ! middle ( next week4 ,i ?9k we w h "s ( ! sla9 ( ! ,"l = y to look aft] by t "t4 ,our meet+ moves (f glori\sly4 ,i h nev] se5 a bett] />t any:]e4 ,?ank ,god = ! prospect ( a glori\s victory 9 ?is wick$ city4 ,! h\se is pack$ day & night1 & ! prea*]s & p /& %\ld] to %\ld] ) me4 ,love to y\r family4 ,affectionately1 ,,sam ,p4 ,,jones4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,f ,,rev4 ,,dr4 ,,willits 7,w>r5 ,memorial ,*ur*74 ,mr4 ,/eve ,holcombe3 ,,de> ,,sir3 ,! be>]1 ,*4 ,h41 is a /rang] to me2 b he w tell y 8 /ory4 ,x is ! old /ory ( fight ) appetite1 & y w be bett] able to advise him ?an myself4 ,truly y\rs1 ,a4 ,a4 ,,willits4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,f ,,dr4 ,,john ,a4 ,,broadus4 ,,m>* #bc1 #ahhe4 ,de> ,bro!r ,holcombe3 ,! be>] is ,mr4 ,b41 once a m]*ant 9 ,ri*mond1 ,va41 fall5 by dr9k+ habits1 sep>at$ f wife & *ildr51 lo/4 ,he spoke to me aft] s]mon ye/]day morn+1 & came to my h\se ?is morn+4 ,he does n ask imm$iate relief1 hav+ "s money2 b wants to f9d employm5t1 & ?9ks he c /op dr9k+4 ,he is evid5tly an intellig5t man1 & e>ne/ly desir\s ( rega9+ himself4 ,he us$ to be an ,episcopal communicant4 ,n[1 if y c 9 any way help ,mr4 ,b41 ,i %all be exce$+ly glad4 ,y\r fri5d & bro!r1 ,,john ,a4 ,,broadus4 99 99 99 99 99 ,! foll[+ lett] is f "o ( ! conv]ts ^: te/imony is giv5 else:]e1 b x is int]e/+ z an indep5d5t acc\nt giv5 soon aft] 8 conv]sion4 ,,l\isville1 ,,ky41 ,janu>y #bh1 #ahhd4 ,rev4 ,g4 ,alex&]3 ,,de> ,,sir ,,& ,,bro!r3 ,! few bro!rly words y spoke to me dur+ our %ort acqua9tance1 & y\r k9dness t[>d me1 a poor drunk5 outca/ at ! "t1 w ev] be rememb]$4 ,(t5 ,i make inquiries ( ,bro!r ,holcombe reg>d+ y & y\r heal?4 ,at 8 sugge/ion1 ,i write y & give a brief hi/ory ( my life1 9 hope x may enc\rage "s poor fell[ :om y are seek+ to save = a bett] life1 & give him r5ew$ c\rage to battle aga9/ s92 & = ! glory ( our ,savi\r ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,my fa!r1 z a weal?y man1 det]m9$ to give 8 *ildr5 ! b5efit ( a good education4 ,) ?is end 9 view1 he left my y\ng] bro!r & myself 9 ,g]many 9 #ahfd1 aft] a visit !re ) ! family4 ,we /ay$ until #ahfg1 :5 we return$ to ,l\isville1 ,i to ent] ! bank+ h\se ( ,!odore ,s*w>tz ,co4 ,) !m ,i /ay$ until #ahfi1 :5 my fa!r became bondsman = ! %]iff1 ,capta9 ,john ,a4 ,m>t94 ,out ( c\rtesy1 ,capta9 ,m>t9 made me1 al?\gh only n9ete5 ye>s ( age1 "o ( 8 deputies4 ,f t "t ,i date my d[nfall4 ,money fl[$ 9 freely2 &1 be+ "y & inexp]i5c$1 ,i sp5t x j z freely1 if n m s4 ,9 two ye>s1 at ! age ( tw5ty-"o1 ,i 0 consid]$ ab\t z reckless a "y man z !re 0 9 ! city4 ,my fa!r 0 always pr\d ( 8 olde/ son1 & indulg$ me 9 almo/ ev]y?+4 ,! habit ( intemp]ance 0 ga9+ a sure hold2 & :5 he di$1 9 #ahgb1 ,i 0 consid]$ by "s a confirm$ drunk>d4 ,gradually ,i sank l[] & l[]1 until ,i became :at ,i 0 :5 y fir/ saw me eight mon?s ago--a poor mis]able outca/ f society1 & a burd5 to myself & fri5ds4 ,i 0 =sak5 & despis$ by all4 ,i %udd] to ?9k t my life %\ld ev] fl[ 9 ! same *annel aga94 ,dur+ all ^! ye>s ( dissipation ,i w&]$ all ov] ?is c\ntry--f ,canada to ! ,gulf ( ,mexico1 & f ! ,atlantic almo/ to ! ,pacific4 ,i drift$ aimlessly ) no o!r object 9 view b to gratify a t]rible long+ = /rong dr9k4 ,i _h be5 9 ! city b a %ort :ile :5 ,i he>d ( ,bro!r ,holcombe's ef=ts to r$eem ! fall54 ,hav+ kn[n him be=e 8 conv]sion1 curiosity l$ me to li/5 to him4 ,dur+ all ?is "t ,i knew & felt t a day ( reckon+ w\ld come1 b :5ev] su* ?\ghts ent]$ my m9d1 ,i dismiss$ !m1 z !y made me tremble at ! v idea ( hav+ to give an acc\nt ( ! misde$s ( a wa/$ life4 ,on ! #be? ( la/ ,june ,i 0 pass+ up ,jeff]son /reet1 & he>d s++ 9 ! basem5t at ,no4 #dcf4 ,my fir/ impulse 0 to turn & g away1 z ,i 0 9 no suitable dress to g into a place ( wor%ip4 ,!n ! ?\ght came into my m9d1 ,?is is ,/eve ,holcombe's place2 ,i'll g 9 & see :at x looks l4 ,?ank ,god1 ,i did g 94 ,! songs ( ^? ,sunday-s*ool *ildr5 awak5$ *ords 9 my he>t :i* ,i ?\ght _h di$ long ago4 ,te>s came into my eyes1 & !n & !re ,i v[$1 if by ,god's help salvation 0 possible = me1 ,i c]ta9ly w\ld make ! trial4 ,glori\s h be5 ! results4 ,t ev5+ ,i he>d ,bro!r ,holcombe once m2 introduc$ myself to him & promis$ him ,i w\ld att5d ev5+ s]vice1 :i* ,i did4 ,f t day to ?is ,i h be5 gr[+ 9 grace4 ,! ,"l has bless$ me wond]fully4 ,my worldly affairs h prosp]$2 &1 :at is wor? m ?an all ! _w to me1 ,i am cont9ually happy4 ,no?+ di/urbs my peace1 & ,i all[ no?+ to int]f]e ) x4 ,my tru/ is 9 my ,savi\r2 ,he has promis$ to c>e = ^? :o tru/ ,him1 & ,i h implicit fai? 9 t promise4 ,my old appetite & desires are all tak5 away & ,i f9d pleasure & joy 9 ?+s t 9 =m] ye>s ,i consid]$ ridicul\s4 ,v truly y\rs1 ,,fr$ ,,ropke4 ,,te/imonials4 ,,capta9 ,,egb]t ,j4 ,,m>t94 ,i 0 born 9 ,l\isville 9 #ahdb2 0 educat$ 9 ,new ,york & ,virg9ia2 s]v$ 9 ,g5]al ,lee's army dur+ ! w> on ! /aff ( my uncle1 ,g5]al ,edw>d ,johnson4 ,! only commission ,i receiv$ 0 receiv$ on ! ?ird day ( ,july1 #ahfc1 at ! battle ( ,gettysburg4 ,my fir/ dr9k+ comm5c$ 9 ,georgia1 :]e ,i 0 plant+ rice ) ,g5]al ,gordon4 ,t 0 9 #ahfg4 ,i did n dr9k dur+ ! w> at all except t ,i might h tak5 a dr9k occasionally :5 ,i met ) fri5ds4 ,my uncle w\ld n p]mit liquor ab\t 8 headqu>t]s4 ,on leav+ ,georgia1 ,i w5t to ,new ,york1 & w5t into bus9ess4 ,i acquir$ q a reputation !re1 & _h a good income4 ,my p]iodical dr9k+ cont9u$1 h[ev]1 & ea* ye> became great] & great]4 ,no?+ 0 said ab\t x = sev5 ye>s & a half4 ,i w\ld n dr9k ar\nd my place ( bus9ess4 ,:5 ,i felt ! spell com+ on me1 ,i w\ld quit & g (f1 & be gone sev5 or eight days1 & be back to bus9ess aga9 :5 ,i _h /raight5$ up1 & no?+ 0 said ab\t x2 b ! ?+ w increase on a man1 &1 ( c\rse1 ) ea* succe$+ ye> ! habit became /rong]1 & ! int]vals %ort]4 ,i conceiv$ ! idea t a *ange ( climate w\ld d me good4 ,visits to ! m\nta9s seem$ to b5efit me1 & ,i ?\ght ,i w\ld g ,we/1 & ! *ange w\ld effect a cure4 ,i w5t to ,colorado1 made fri5ds !re1 w5t into bus9ess1 & 0 successful4 ,i 0 m>ri$ to my wife 9 ,d5v]1 ,colorado4 ,i believ$ z my wife did1 t my dr9k+ 0 a matt] "u my control4 ,i _h be5 lead+ an aimless life1 ) no family ties2 & aft] ,i 0 m>ri$1 ,i ?\ght a /rong ef=t on my "p w\ld /op x4 ,i want$ to get back to salt wat] aga91 & h ev]y?+ 9 my favor2 & ! next morn+ aft] we 7 m>ri$1 ,i />t$ = ,cali=nia4 ,i 0 v successful !re4 ,i 0 9 a %ort "t made special ag5t ( ! ,cali=nia ,electric ,light ,company1 at a sal>y ( ?ree ?\s& doll>s a ye>4 ,!y want$ to make a contract ) me = five ye>s1 giv+ me ?ree ?\s& doll>s a ye>1 if ,i w\ld b9d myself n to dr9k dur+ ! five ye>s4 ,i f\nd x 0 n su* an easy ?+ to quit dr9k+4 ,i consult$ physicians !re4 ,!re 0 a doctor 9 ,oakl& :o said he _h a specific = drunk5ness2 & he gave x to me4 ,! result 0 t :5 ,i want$ a dr9k1 ,i ?rew ! m$ic9e away & got ! dr9k4 ,:at ,i always want$1 & tri$ to get1 0 some?+ to take away ! appetite = dr9k4 ,!re 7 times :5 ,i _h no m desire = dr9k ?an y or any o!r man2 b :5 x seiz$ me1 x seiz$ me 9 an uncontrollable way1 & ,i w\ld dr9k = ! delib]ate purpose ( mak+ myself sick & gett+ ov] x z quick z possible4 ,i knew x _h to be gone ?r\gh )1 & ,i drank until ,i made myself sick4 ,i nev] att5d$ to bus9ess :5 ,i drank liquor4 ,i nev] mix$ up my bus9ess affairs ) my dr9k+4 ,ev]ybody ,i _h any?+ to d ) knew ,i 0 ?or\ghly reliable4 ,i nev] li$ ab\t be+ drunk4 ,i nev] said ,i 0 sick or _h ! *ol]a infantum or any?+ ( t sort4 ,ev]ybody :o employ$ me knew z mu* ab\t x z ,i did4 ,:5 my little boy 0 born1 ,i felt a sacr$ duty 0 impos$ ^u me2 & ,i tri$ to enc\rage my ideas ( morality4 ,i _h always be5 a moral man1 &1 al?\gh an infidel1 _h nev] s\ght to break d[n ! religi\s op9ions ( any "o1 because ,i _h no?+ to give !m in/ead4 ,my rationalism satisfi$ me4 ,x 0 a belief1 an op9ion1 ) :i* ,i 0 will+ to face my ,mak]1 because ,i believ$ ,i 0 "r4 ,i believ$ 9 ! exi/5ce ( a ,supreme ,be+1 b ,i did n believe t ! great ,rul] ( ! univ]se ?\ght en\gh ( u insignificant human be+s to int]e/ ,himself 9 our affairs4 ,i did n believe 9 ! ,*ri/ians' ,god4 ,!re 9 ,virg9ia ,i _h be5 surr\nd$ by memb]s ( ! *ur*4 ,ev]ybody 0 ei!r a ,bapti/1 a ,me?odi/1 or a memb] ( "s o!r d5om9ation2 drunk>ds & saloon-keep]s & all belong$ to ! *ur*4 ,!y c\ld d wrong & aft]w>d g /raight to *ur*4 ,t k9d ( religion disgu/$ me1 & t k9d ( religion confirm$ my skepticism4 ,i want$ to get away & ,i ev5 plann$ to g to ,au/ralia4 ,aft] my little boy 0 born1 ,i /ay$ sob] = six mon?s1 & !n ,i comm5c$ dr9k+ aga94 ,i did n conceal ! tru? f myself4 ,i said1 ,y are false to ev]y?+ t is manly2 y are a disgrace to y\rself4 ,i decid$ to g back to ,virg9ia 7my wife _h nev] be5 !re7 & settle up a lawsuit ,i _h p5d+ 9 ! c\rts4 ,b aft] a %ort /ay 9 ,virg9ia ,i _h an (f] to return to ,new ,york & g to "w1 & w5t to ,new ,york2 & aft] ,i _h be5 !re a mon?1 ,i receiv$ a dispat* /at+ t a compromise _h be5 agre$ ^u )\t consult+ me at all4 ,i w5t back to ,ri*mond & reject$ ! compromise4 ,a decision 0 made 9 my favor1 b ! case 0 tak5 to ! ,c\rt ( ,appeals4 ,i _h us$ up ev]y?+ ,i _h 9 litigation2 & :51 at la/1 ,i got a telegram t ! ,c\rt ( ,appeals _h rev]s$ ! case1 & we _h lo/ ev]y?+1 x j broke me d[n4 ,x took me m ?an a mon? to realize t x 0 a fact--,i c\ld n get x into my head2 & x broke me d[n completely4 ,i lov$ my wife & ,i lov$ my *ild1 & 0 tr\bl$ ab\t !m1 & = ! two ye>s ,i 0 fight+ ^! ,virg9ia g5tlem5 ,i 0 9 a /ate ( high excitem5t4 ,i _h no?+ to d except to worry1 & ,i drank m ?an ev] 9 my life4 ,i said1 ,my ,god6 x is awful4 ,i h lo/ ev]y?+4 ,i "k ,i am a drunk>d2 x is no use d5y+ x1 because ! appetite is on me all ! "t4 ,& _m a "t ,i ?rew myself d[n 9 ! woods & sobb$ al\d if ,fate w\ld h m]cy on me4 ,i _h giv5 up all hope4 ,i ?\ght ! good =tune :i* _h foll[$ me all my life w\ld nev] return4 ,i _h s5t my wife (f2 s ,i _h lo/ h]1 too4 ,%e w5t to h] si/]'s1 9 ,ohio2 & ,i arrang$ t my "m %\ld rema9 at ! old place4 ,i wrote to a c\s9 ( m9e :om ,i _h n met s9ce ! w>4 ,he us$1 frequ5tly1 to come to our home1 a delightful & heal?ful place1 ?irte5 miles f ,ri*mond4 ,i ?\ght ,i w\ld write him t ,i desir$ to get out ( ,virg9ia1 & _h n ! means1 & w\ld make ,l\isville my objective po9t4 ,s ,i wrote him1 b receiv$ no reply4 ,i wrote to ano!r man1 /at+ ! circum/ances--t ,i want$ to get out ( ,virg9ia & g to "w2 b ,i receiv$ no answ] f him2 & ,i came to ! conclusion if ,i want$ to get out ( ,virg9ia ,i w\ld h to walk4 ,i _h secur$ my wife & *ild1 & z = myself x little matt]$ :at befell me or h[ ,i f>$4 ,i 0 walk+ ?r\gh ! woods "o day & saw a man gett+ out railroad ties4 ,he told me ( a place ne> by1 call$ ! ,lo/ ,l&4 ,a ye> be=e t1 my uncle's executor gave me a de$ t 0 tak5 f ! old h\se at my olde/ uncle's dea?4 ,x 0 = a little slip ( l&--an av5ue--t my gr&fa!r _h b\ght 9 #ahae4 ,well1 ,i ?\ght no?+ ( x4 ,i told ! old negro woman t :5 ev]y?+ 0 settl$ up1 ,i 0 go+ to give h] t l&2 & ,i put ! de$ away ) o!r pap]s & =got all ab\t x4 ,:5 ,i 0 worry+ ab\t ! means1 & mak+ ef=ts to get ! means to get out ( ,virg9ia1 ?is man1 :o 0 hew+ 9 ! woods1 told me ab\t ! little piece ( woodl& t _h s mu* sill timb] on x1 & he spoke ( x z ! ,lo/ ,l&1 & 8 speak+ ( ! ,lo/ ,l& rem9d$ me ( ?is de$1 & ,i hurri$ home1 f\nd ! de$1 & saw t x locat$ ! l& at ab\t :]e he m5tion$4 ,i w5t to ! ,c\nty ,surveyor1 :o _h succe$$ 8 fa!r & gr&fa!r 9 ! (fice1 & we f\nd t ! prop]ty ( :i* ?is =m$ a "p _h be5 sold 9 l>ge lots1 & x 0 !re betwe5 ! l9es ( ! o!r prop]ty1 unclaim$ by any "o1 & = sev5ty-?ree ye>s _h escap$ taxation1 because ! de$ convey+ x _h nev] be5 record$ 9 ! c\nty books1 & x 0 suppos$ by ! c\nty (ficials t all ( ! orig9al tract _h be5 divid$ (f 9 ! l>g] subdivisions4 ,we f\nd x1 ran ! l9es ar\nd x1 & ,i sold t5 acres = "o hundr$ doll>s--en\gh to pay a groc]y bill1 buy me a suit ( clo!s & l& me 9 ,l\isville4 ,i _h lov$ ! old place--lov$ x all my life1 because ,i _h sp5t _m days !re :5 a happy1 c>eless boy4 ,my "m 0 born !re1 my gr&mo!r & my great-gr&fa!r lie buri$ !re4 ,x 0 b\ght 9 #aghb by my great-gr&fa!r1 :o 0 n only a g5tleman b a s*ol>4 ,he graduat$ at ! ,college ( ,physicians & ,surgeons at ,ed9burgh1 & aft]w>d sp5t sev5 ye>s 9 ,europe4 ,i 0 v mu* atta*$ to ! old place1 & on leav+ x ,i drank to dead5 ! pa94 ,i came "h to ,l\isville1 & ,i drank aft] ,i got "h to keep f ?9k+4 ,i tell y ?+s look$ blue1 & ,i tell y ! fact1 ! liquor ,i drank e day made me feel worse & worse1 & my bra9 0 affect$ f ! excitem5t ,i _h pass$ ?r\gh4 ,i f\nd myself 9 a second or ?ird-class hotel :i* /ood ne>ly on ! spot :]e ,i 0 born4 ,i lay 9 my room = ?ree days4 ,i came to ! conclusion !re 0 no use kick+2 ! end 0 at h&4 ,fate _h br\ght me back "h1 :]e ,i 0 born1 to die4 ,i ev5 said x to myself1 ,de/9y has br\ght y back "h1 to ! city :]e y 7 born1 to die2 & to die by y\r own h&s4 ,y h no respect = y\rself1 nor h o!rs respect = y4 ,y "k by liv+ y w br+ fur!r disgrace ^u ! wife & *ild y love s well4 ,if y w commit suicide p w say1 ',he 0 an un=tunate man1 b a brave "o2 8 only fault 0 8 dr9k+4' ,i tri$ to %ut out all ?\ghts ( my wife & *ild1 b ,i c\ld n4 ,i said to myself1 ,i 0 born "h2 ,i h n outrag$ ! law2 ,i h done no?+ di%onorable2 no?+ :y any man relat$ to me %\ld %un me4 ,b ,i h lo/ ev]y?+2 ,i am accurs$2 ,i am alone "h4 ,my wife's p "k ,i am "h1 b d n communicate ) me4 ,& !y tell me !re is a ,god4 ,a man came to my room 9 ! hotel & said !y want$ ! room4 ,y say y h no money & no fri5ds1 s we c n keep y "h any long]4 ,y mu/ give u ! room4 ,"u ^! circum/ances ,i 0 com+ ne>] & ne>] ! f9al det]m9ation to commit suicide :5 a man1 a /rang]1 came into my room :o 0 himself a drunk>d4 ,i told him my condition & my det]m9ation4 ,he said1 ,wait till ,i s5d t man ,holcombe d[n to see y4 ,maybe he c help y4 ,mr4 ,holcombe dropp$ ev]y?+ & came to me at once4 ,i did n "k :o he 04 ,he said1 ,my "n is ,holcombe3 ,i am f ! ,mission4 ,well1 sir1 if he _h comm5c$ at me z mo/ prea*]s w\ld h done1 & told me 9 a sort ( me*anical way t ,i _h br\ght x all on myself1 ,i w\ld h said1 ,i am mu* oblig$ to y = y\r polit5ess & y\r well-meant ef=ts1 b x does me no good1 & ,i am v mu* di/ress$ & w\ld mu* pref] to be alone4 ,he said1 ,!re is no use tru/+ 9 y\rself2 y c n save y\rself4 ,t /ruck me at once z a correct diagnosis ( my case1 & ,i said1 ,t is j ! conclusion ,i h come to myself4 ,!n he told me :at _h be5 done = him1 & he got d[n on 8 knees & pray$4 ,& :5 he pray$ = me & my wife & *ild1 t is :at rea*$ my he>t4 ,i said ,!re is some?+ 9 t man's religion at any rate4 ,i d n believe 9 ?is /uff ,i h se5 9 ! *ur*es2 b !re is some?+ 9 t sort ( religion4 ,x is ! la/ /raw ,i h to cat* at4 ,i w try x4 ,i got up out ( b$ :]e ,i _h be5 = ?ree wret*$ days1 & came up to ! ,mission4 ,!re ,i came 9 contact ) "s influ5ce ,i _h nev] felt be=e4 ,i came to ! conclusion t !re 0 tru? 9 ! ,*ri/ian religion1 & ,i said1 ,t is all "r1 b t is n :at ,i want4 ,i want t inw>d consci\sness t ,i am n go+ to dr9k4 ,i might get up & say1 ,i am ready to confess ,i am wrong2 ,i believe religion is "r2 ,i h se5 evid5ces ( x2 ,i believe y are "r & ,i am wrong4 ,b ,i _h no inw>d consci\sness ( any *ange 9 me1 & ,i did n feel secure or 9 any way protect$ aga9/ ! habit ( dr9k+4 ,i knew if !re 0 any?+ 9 religion1 !re mu/ be some?+ a man w\ld be consci\s (4 ,i said1 ,!re is some?+ 9 ?is religion1 b ,i h n got ! hang ( x4 ,x occurr$ to me t p]haps aft] all1 my *ief motive & desire 9 all ?is 0 ! welf>e ( my wife & *ild & ! recov]y ( our dome/ic happ9ess4 ,& ly+ on t b$ ,i said1 ,i am will+ to d any?+4 ,!re is no?+ t ,i am n will+ to d1 if ,i c only get rid ( ?is appetite4 ,i w get up & /ate t ,i 0 a drunk>d2 ,i w ackn[l$ge e tramp z my bro!r2 &1 al?\gh ,i h no desire to d x1 ,i w g out & prea*4 ,j let me "k t ,i am free f ?is ?+ & t ,i c g on 9 life2 & all at once--,i c\ld n connect ! ?\ght & result toge!r--!re came ^u me a p]fect s5se ( relief4 ,i 0 j z consci\s !n ( div9e int]position z ,i ev] 0 aft]w>d2 & ,i said to myself1 ,?is is :at !y call reg5]ation1 & turn$ ov] & w5t to sleep4 ,f t "t ,i comm5c$ a new sob] life2 & ,i nev] h want$ liquor2 ,i nev] h _h a desire = x s9ce1 & x is n[ go+ on two ye>s4 ,i ?9k _m m5 are call$1 b few are *os54 ,!re are a great _m m5 :o get f> en\gh 9 ! surr5d] to feel good & *ange _! op9ions2 b !y d n get d[n to ! b$-rock ( reg5]ation4 ,i d n believe 9 any *ange1 or 9 any doctr9e t says !re is reg5]ation ?r\gh any?+ except a complete surr5d]4 ,m5 are ready to believe t ,*ri/ 0 ! son ( ,god1 b g /raight home & cont9ue _! old way ( life4 ,!y mu/ say1 ,i w n only quit s]v+ ! devil1 b ,i w comm5ce s]v+ ,god4 ,?\ %all love ! ,"l ?y ,god ) all ?y he>t1 ) all ?y s\l & ) all ?y /r5g?4 ,i d n let !ological op9ions di/urb me n[4 ,my simple fai? & !ology is ?is3 ,t ,i h ! peace ( ,god & ,he keeps me4 ,i h k ( ,god's p[] & m]cy1 & feel t ,god keeps me4 ,my wife & *ild h come back & are n[ ) me1 & are z happy z !y c be2 & !re is n a man 9 ?is c\ntry ) less money & m happ9ess ?an ,i4 ,i am happi] ?an ,i ev] 0 9 my life4 ,,note4--,capta9 ,m>t9 is n[ engag$ 9 bus9ess 9 ! h\se ( ,bayless ,bros4 ,co41 ,l\isville4 ,r4 ,n4 ,,d5ny4 ,i 0 born 9 #ahdf 9 ! ,/ate ( ,ill9ois4 ,at t "t1 be=e !re 7 _m railroads1 x 0 a comp>atively backwoods c\ntry :]e ,i 0 rais$4 ,our ne>e/ m>ket 0 ,/4 ,l\is1 sixty miles f :]e we liv$4 ,my fa!r kept a c\ntry /ore !re1 & haul$ 8 produce to ,/4 ,l\is4 ,my fa!r 0 a pr(ess$ ,*ri/ian1 s also 0 my gr&fa!r1 yet ea* ( !m kept a demijohn ( :isky 9 ! h\se4 ,!y w\ld prep>e roots & :isky1 & h]bs & :isky1 :i* 0 us$ = all k9ds ( m$ical purposes & = all k9ds ( ills t fle% is heir to2 & ,i believe at t "t ,i got ! appetite = :isky1 if ,i did n inh]it x4 ,i h drunk :isky z f> back z ,i c rememb]4 ,i _h a great _m relatives :o 7 ,*ri/ians2 b ,i glori$ 9 my ob/9acy & w\ld h no?+ to d ) ,*ri/ianity4 ,9 my sev5te5? ye> ,i w5t into ! army4 ,( c\rse1 be+ among ! ,romans1 ,i _h to be a ,roman1 too2 & consequ5tly1 ! dr9k+ habit grew ^u me2 & ,i acquir$ also a passion = gambl+4 ,aft] ! w> ,i did n d mu* good4 ,i drift$ ab\t f place to place = some?+ ov] a ye>1 & !n jo9$ ! regul> army4 ,i belong$ to ! ,sev5? ,regul> ,cavalry1 ,cu/]'s comm&1 :i* 0 massacr$ on ! ,little ,big ,horn4 ,at t "t ,i did n belong to ! comm&1 z my "t _h expir$ "s "t be=e4 ,i came to ,l\isville 9 #ahga1 & comm5c$ work+ z a re/aurant & hotel cook4 ,i 0 v apt at ! bus9ess1 & 0 soon able to comm& ! be/ situations to be _h1 hav+ be5 *ef at ! ,galt ,h\se4 ,dur+ all ?is "t ,i _h be5 a drunk>d 9 diff]5t /ages4 ,i 0 :at is call$ a p]iodical drunk>d4 ,i (t5 brac$ up & w5t )\t a dr9k = six mon?s or a ye>--some?+ l t l5g? ( "t--& always _h "w :5 ,i 0 n dr9k+2 b ,i became s unreliable1 t ,i c\ld get no employm5t :5 ano!r man c\ld be _h4 ,x 0 said ( me ev]y:]e1 ,d5ny is a good man1 b he dr9ks4 ,ab\t #ahgc ,i got m>ri$1 & up to #ahhc ,i _h f\r *ildr54 ,( c\rse1 my dr9k+1 & ev]y?+ ( t k9d1 br\ght my family to want--9 fact1 to begg>y4 ,= a long "t ,i always took my wages home on pay-day1 & my wife1 9 h] good-he>t$ness1 always (f]$ me money2 w\ld (t5 ask me ( a morn+ if ,i did n feel bad1 & w\ld give me fifte5 c5ts or a qu>t]1 n kn[+ t %e 0 giv+ me money = my own damnation1 until ! ye> ( ! fir/ ,exposition "h--#ahhb4 ,i _h a position !re at twelve doll>s a week4 ,i /ay$ !re t5 weeks2 & ,i d n believe ,i got home ) five doll>s 9 ! :ole t5 weeks4 ,! man ) :om ,i work$ _h a b> atta*m5t to 8 re/aurant1 & ,i c\ld get :at cr$it ,i want$ !re2 & on ,saturday night :5 ,i f\nd my wages 7 %ort1 ,i w\ld get drunk1 & conclude to try & w9 some?+ at gambl+1 b ,i inv>iably lo/4 ,at ! close ( ! ,exposition1 x 0 on ! v]ge ( w9t]1 & times 7 v dull4 ,i 0 beh9d ) my r5t & 9 debt to ev]ybody ,i c\ld get 9 debt to1 my family 7 )\t dec5t clo?+1 _h no fire1 & ,i 0 almo/ nak$ myself1 ) no prospects ( a situation4 ,a %ort "t aft]w>d ,i got a position on a /eamboat1 :i* paid me fairly well1 & :i* ,i believe ,i kept two1 maybe ?ree1 weeks1 & got drunk z usual4 ,i fail$ to take my money home1 &1 ( c\rse1 told my wife "s lie4 ,i _h to say some?+4 ,sometimes my wife believ$ me1 & sometimes %e did n4 ,at t "t x 0 w9t]1 x mu/ h be5 9 ,decemb]1 & v cold4 ,my *ildr5 7 b>efoot$1 & ,i 0 j ab\t to be set out on ! /reet because ,i _h n paid my r5t4 ,i woke up "o v cold morn+ v e>ly1 & we _h n a morsel ( food 9 ! h\se or coal to make a fire )4 ,i walk$ d[n t[>d ! riv] & met ! same man ,i _h be5 work+ ) a few weeks be=e4 ,he /opp$ & ask$ me if ,i did n want to g back on ! boat4 ,i told him ,i w\ld be glad to g back4 ,he ask$ me h[ long be=e ,i w\ld get drunk2 & ,i said1 z ,i _h said a ?\s& times be=e1 ,i w nev] dr9k aga94 ,i made "o trip1 :i* 0 ?ree days1 & got drunk4 ,x 0 on ! second day ( ,janu>y1 #ahhc1 t ,i %ipp$1 & ,i came back on ! fif?1 :i* 0 ! colde/ day ,i ev] saw 9 ,l\isville4 ,! !rmomet] 0 tw5ty-six degrees bel[ z]o betwe5 ,new ,albany & ! m\? ( ,salt riv]4 ,!re 7 dur+ ^! d>k days a few *>itable p t us$ to give my family "s ( ! necess>ies ( life--& b = t ,i c n see h[ !y w\ld h kept f />vation4 ,i appreciat$ my situation ne>ly all ! "t1 knew h[ wrong ,i 0 do+1 w\ld admit x to myself b w\ld n admit x to anybody else4 ,if a man _h call$ me a drunk>d1 ,i w\ld h call$ him a li>4 ,9 ! provid5ce ( ,god ! ,fif? & ,walnut-/reet *ur* e/abli%$ ! ,holcombe ,mission ne> :]e ,i liv$1 & among o!r waifs pick$ up on ! /reet & tak5 to ! ,sunday-s*ool 7 my *ildr54 ,:ile ,i _h always be5 pretty bad myself1 ,i _h always tri$ to tea* my *ildr5 bett]4 ,i %udd]$ at ! ?\ght ( my boys go+ on 9 ! way t ,i 0 go+4 ,:5 !y w5t to ,sunday-s*ool & le>n$ ! songs !re & came home & sang !m1 x broke me all to pieces4 ,i _h no?+ left to d b to g & get drunk 9 self-def5se4 ,! ,sunday-s*ool tea*] 7,mrs4 ,j4 ,r4 ,cl>ke71 :o taught my *ildr51 _h be5 try+ to f9d me = a long "t4 ,%e mu/ h ?\ght f see+ my *ildr5 at ,sunday-s*ool t !re 0 "s good 9 me2 & aft] a:ile %e s5t me a ,bible ) a great _m passages m>k$ 9 x4 ,%e 0 look+ = me & _h s5t = me to come & see h]1 & ,i _h be5 try+ to keep out ( h] way = a long "t4 ,f9ally %e f\nd me at home "o day1 & w\ld take no excuse1 b insi/$ t ,i mu/ come to ,holcombe's ,mission2 &1 ( c\rse1 ,i promis$ to g1 because ,i c\ld n help myself4 ,i c\ld n get out ( x2 & if ,i _h a r$eem+ trait 9 ! _w1 x 0 t ,i w\ld n break a positive promise4 ,i promis$ h] to come1 & t day ,i did g4 ,!y 7 hold+ noon-day meet+s at ! "t4 ,i d n rememb] j n[ t ,i 0 v deeply impress$4 ,i 0 ( a skeptical turn ( m9d & v critical4 ,i well rememb] ,i criticis$ all ! te/imonies giv5 !re2 b ! ?+ 0 s /range to me1 s diff]5t f any?+ t ,i 0 us$ to1 t ,i 0 v consid]ably impress$ 9 a /range k9d ( way1 :i* is unacc\ntable to me ev5 n[4 ,i _h tak5 a seat ne> ! door1 s t ,i might get out v quick2 b ,bro!r ,holcombe head$ me (f1 & caught me be=e ,i got to ! door4 ,i did n "k him p]sonally at t "t1 b _h kn[n ( him = a long "t4 ,( c\rse1 ,i c\ld n get out ( ! ,mission )\t promis+ to come aga94 ,aft] hav+ come two or ?ree times1 ,i 0 ask$ to say some?+1 b did n feel l say+ any?+4 ,f9ally ,i /ood up "o day1 p]haps ! ?ird or f\r? day ,i 0 !re4 ,x 0 n a "t :5 !y 7 ask+ p if !y want$ an int]e/ 9 _! pray]s4 ,i got up & said ,i want$ an int]e/ 9 _! pray]s t ,i might be sav$ f myself4 ,i _h kn[n = a long "t t ,i 0 helpless1 s f> z deliv]+ myself f dr9k 0 conc]n$4 ,i knew no?+ ab\t ,*ri/ianity1 9 fact1 ,i did n c>e mu* ab\t x1 because ,i _h n /udi$ on ! subject1 & w\ld n /udy on ! subject4 ,= _m ye>s ,i _h n d>$ to /op & ?9k s]i\sly ab\t su* a subject1 b :5 ,i he>d t ! ,gospel ( ,*ri/ 0 able to deliv] su* a man z ,i1 ,i he>d x gladly1 because ,i _h f\nd !re 0 no e>?ly p[] t c\ld deliv] su* a man z ,i 04 ,9 ! meantime1 ,i _h be5 read+ my ,bible1 & _h committ$ "s ( x to memory2 & !re 0 a good deal ( my/]y atta*$ to ! :ole ?+--?+s t ,i c\ld n und]/&4 ,:5 !y ask$ me to speak1 ,i quot$ a passage f ! ,bible4 ,"o day ,i quot$ ! passage ab\t a man hav+ put 8 h& to ! pl[ & look+ back1 n be+ wor?y ( ! k+dom ( ,god4 ,bro!r ,messick1 pa/or ( ! *ur* :i* ,i aft]w>d jo9$1 pray$ directly aft]w>d1 & 9 8 pray] he quot$ ?is passage ( ,scripture1 & pray$ 9 su* an enc\rag+ & helpful way1 t ,i rose f my knees satisfi$ 9 my he>t t ,i 0 *ang$4 ,well1 f t "t until n[ ,i h nev] drunk any?+4 ,t 0 9 ,janu>y or ,febru>y1 #ahhc4 ,i h nev] _h a desire = liquor b once s9ce4 ,la/ summ] ,i w5t to ,crab ,or*>d4 ,i 0 *ef d[n !re1 & ,i _h to h&le v *oice w9es & liquors 9 my bus9ess1 & ,i h&l$ "o br& ( w9e t ,i 0 p>ticul>ly fond ( 9 old times4 ,i 0 tempt$ t "t to dr9k w9e4 ,x seem$ ! tempt] said to me3 ,y are way d[n "h :]e nobody kn[s any?+ ab\t y4 ,x is good1 & y "k x won't hurt y4 ,x don't co/ y any?+ & x is no?+ b w9e1 & y ne$ n take too mu*4 ,at t "t ,i c\ld get all ! liquor ,i want$4 ,if ,i want$ x1 ,i c\ld ord] a hog%ead ( x j by a scrat* ( ! p54 ,) t s+le exception1 ,i h nev] _h a temptation to dr9k4 ,i don't "k t ,i _h an appetite to dr9k !n4 ,x 0 a cle> cut temptation f )\t1 & n f )94 ,i h _h no tr\ble ab\t gett+ positions s9ce my conv]sion & deliv]ance f ! appetite = dr9k4 ,my family are well h\s$1 well clo!d & well f$1 & h ev]y?+ !y ne$1 & h _h s9ce ! "t ,i became a ,*ri/ian man4 ,!y !mselves are ! greate/ evid5ces 9 ! _w ( :at ,*ri/ianity c d = a man4 ,a %ort "t ago--six mon?s ago--,i e/abli%$ myself 9 bus9ess1 & h be5 do+ a ?riv+1 prosp]\s bus9ess f t "t until n[4 ,i might say some?+ ab\t my go+ to ! "w-h\se3 ,two ye>s ago1 or a little ov]1 ,i 0 ask$ to g to ! "w-h\se "o ,sunday ev5+4 ,i 0 v mu* impress$ ) ! necessity = work+ = ! poor m5 !re4 ,i 0 at t "t id5tifi$ ) ! ,mission "w1 & ! s]vices at ! "w-h\se 7 all "u ! auspices ( ! ,y4 ,m4 ,c4 ,a4 ,i cont9u$ go+ to ! "w-h\se = "s l5g? ( "t--?ree or f\r mon?s4 ,! ,y4 ,m4 ,c4 ,a4 v k9dly divid$ "t ) me & o!r ,mission work]s4 ,aft] hav+ gone to ! "w-h\se ?ree or f\r mon?s1 ,i /opp$ go+4 ,! ,*airman ( ! ,devotional ,committee ( ! ,y4 ,m4 ,c4 ,a4 s5t = me & gave me *>ge ( ! "w-h\se & jail1 :i*1 ( c\rse1 ,i accept$ 9 ! "n ( ! ,mission2 & f t "t until n[ bo? ( !m h be5 "u ,mission work]s4 ,i 0 v anxi\s to return to ! "w-h\se1 b our head decid$ t ,i %\ld take ! jail1 :]e ,i h cont9u$ to g = a ye> & a half--,i suppose ab\t t l5g? ( "t--e ,sunday :5 ,i 0 9 ! city1 ) possibly "o or two exceptions4 ,,note4--,mr4 ,d5ny is at pres5t ! jo9t-proprietor1 ) ,mr4 ,ropke1 ( a ?riv+ re/aurant on ,?ird /reet1 betwe5 ,jeff]son & ,gre51 ,l\isville4 ,illu/ration3 ,b4 ,f4 ,,davidson4 ,b4 ,f4 ,,davidson4 ,tw5ty ye>s ago ,i resid$ 9 ! city ( ,c9c9nati2 0 ,presid5t ( a ,boatman's ,insurance ,company1 proprietor ( a %ip *&l]y1 & int]e/$ l>gely 9 "s tw5ty odd /eamboats2 & also int]e/$ l>gely 9 o!r insurance companies1 & 0 rat$ z wor? half a million ( doll>s4 ,?r\gh depreciation 9 prop]ty1 bad debts1 & indors+ = o!r p>ties l>gely1 9 f\r ye>s ,i _h lo/ all my money4 ,to retrieve my =tune1 ,i !n />t$ ,we/1 n be+ will+1 ( c\rse1 to accept a position :]e ,i _h be5 a proprietor4 ,:ile !re1 associat+ ) ! m9]s & ,we/]n p g5]ally1 ,i contract$ ! habit ( dr9k+4 ,?is grew ^u me & 0 cont9u$1 ) %ort int]missions ( sob]ness1 up to f\r ye>s ago--ab\t la/ ,janu>y4 ,i 0 br\ght v l[ z a consequ5ce ( my dissipation1 & ,i h travel$ z a tramp f ! ,atlantic to ! ,pacific1 & f ! lakes to ! ,gulf1 sp5d+ my "t 9 alt]nately fight+ & yield+ to ! demon ( dr9k4 ,= five ye>s previ\s to my com+ to ,l\isville1 ,i _h giv5 up all hope ( ev] be+ able to make any?+ ( myself1 z ,i _h tri$1 9 va91 e kn[n rem$y to cure me ( ! appetite4 ,my pride 0 effectually humbl$1 & ,i 0 9 despair4 ,f ! "t t ,i w5t ,we/--:i* 0 9 #ahgb--until my arrival 9 #ahhd1 my *ildr51 a daught] & son1 knew n :e!r ,i 0 dead or alive--knew no?+ ( me :atev]4 ,aft] ,i took to dr9k1 ,i lo/ all int]e/ 9 !m & ev]y?+ else4 ,z soon z ,i got (f ! f]ry-boat 9 ,l\isville1 9 z sad a plight z any wret*$ man 0 ev] 91 ,i met an old fri5d1 :o _h kn[n me 9 ye>s previ\s1 & :o h&$ me two doll>s1 reque/+ me to call at 8 (fice ! next morn+1 :5 he w\ld give me su* assi/ance z ,i ne$$4 ,! two doll>s ,i sp5t t day = :isky4 ,t night ,i begg$ a qu>t] to pay = my lodg+4 ,! next day1 by begg+1 ,i fill$ up pretty well on :isky aga94 ,t[>d ev5+ ,i w5t into a ,ma9-/reet h\se & ask$ a g5tleman = a qu>t] to pay = a night's lodg+1 ,i _h lo/ all pride1 all self-respect1 & c\ld beg ) a braz5 face4 ,! g5tleman h&$ me a c>d ( ,holcombe's ,mission4 ,z ,i did n "k or c>e any?+ ab\t missions or *ur*es1 ,i m]ely /uck ! c>d 9 my pocket & w5t on my way4 ,aft] walk+ ar\nd = "s "t ,i he>d ! rem>k3 ,!re goes t old man n[4 ,^u look+ up ,i recogniz$ ! g5tleman :om ,i la/ ask$ = a qu>t] to pay = a night's lodg+1 & ano!r man1 engag$ 9 conv]sation4 ,! o!r g5tleman1 :o prov$ to be ! ,rev4 ,/eve ,holcombe1 ( ,holcombe's ,mission1 took me by ! h& & invit$ me up to ! ,mission rooms1 :]e ,i told him my /ory4 ,he ask$ me if ,i ev] _h ask$ ,god ?r\gh ,jesus ,*ri/ to assi/ me 9 my endeavors to become a sob] man4 ,i told him ,i _h n1 z ,i _h made up my m9d ye>s ago t ,god _h no use = me4 ,i felt z ?\gh ,i _h s9n$ beyond r$emption4 ,i _h left home v e>ly 9 life4 ,my "m 0 ! be/ ,*ri/ian woman ,i _h ev] se54 ,%e 0 a ,me?odi/1 b %e nev] c\ld prea* ,*ri/ianity to me--,i fell back on my own righte\sness4 ,i did n dr9k1 ,i did n smoke1 ,i did n *ew1 ,i did n swe>1 ,i did n run aft] wom51 ,i did n loaf ar\nd saloons l o!r "y m54 ,:5 my "m 0 aft] me to jo9 ! *ur*1 ,i told h] t w\ld n make me any bett]3 ,look at y\r *ur* memb]s2 is t man any bett] ?an ,i am8 ,my si/]1 along t[>d ! la/1 hav+ jo9$ ! ,episcopal *ur*1 ,i took two pews 9 t *ur*2 0 a lay memb]1 b ,i did n att5d x4 ,t 0 9 ,newport--,/4 ,paul's ,episcopal *ur*1 ,newport4 ,:5 ! m9i/] insi/$ on my go+ to *ur*1 ,i told him t :ile he w\ld be prea*+ s]mons ,i w\ld be build+ /eamboats1 s 8 s]mons w\ld n d me any good4 ,aft] ,i got to dr9k+1 my poor daught] did n see me4 ,i did n g to my *ildr5 at all4 ,i nev] got b "o lett] f !m dur+ t "t1 f #ahgb to #ahhd1 & t 0 a lett] t w5t to ,c9c9nati1 & !y held x !re1 ,i believe1 = two ye>s4 ,i 0 at ,c9c9nati a good _m times2 b !y c\ld nev] get me to /ay !re long en\gh to get my *ildr5 d[n to see me4 ,z soon z ,i _h an idea t !y 7 manoeuvr+ = any?+ ( t k9d1 ,i w\ld get out ( t[n at once1 & !y w\ld n "k :]e ,i _h gone4 ,dur+ my life z a tramp1 !re is no k9d ( "w t c be ?\ght ( t ,i did n "w at m or less1 & ! money ,i e>n$--sometimes ,i e>n$ z mu* z eight doll>s a day--ev5tually w5t to ! b>keep]s2 ,i c\ld n ev5 buy my clo!s4 ,aft] a long talk ) ,bro!r ,holcombe1 ,i told him t1 hav+ tri$ ev]y?+ else1 ,i 0 p]fectly will+ to try ,god4 ,t night ,i w5t to *ur*1 & w5t up to be pray$ =4 ,!re 0 no regul> meet+ at ! ,mission !n1 f ! fact t ! *ur* t 0 runn+ ! ,mission _h a revival4 ,s1 ) ,bro!r ,holcombe1 ,i w5t ar\nd to ! revival meet+ at ! ,fif? & ,walnut-/reet *ur*4 ,:5 ! invitation 0 giv5 = ^? :o want$ to be pray$ = to come =w>d1 ,i 0 among ! fir/ to accept x1 & w5t up clo!d 9 all my rags4 ,aft] pray] ,i felt mu* bett] ?an ,i _h = _m ye>s4 ,t night ,i w5t back & lay on ! floor 9 ! ,mission1 hav+ refus$ an invitation f ,bro!r ,holcombe to g to a bo>d+-h\se1 tell+ him if ,god1 9 ,8 m]cy1 w\ld take f me ! appetite = /rong dr9k1 ,i _h /ill /r5g? & w en\gh left to make my own liv+4 ,! next morn+ ,i ask$ ,bro!r ,holcombe to g ) me to ! pap]-mill ( ,bremak]-,moore ,company1 :]e !y 7 build+ a dam to prev5t an ov]fl[ f /opp+ ! eng9es 9 ! pap]-mill4 ,i secur$ a position !re1 at a doll> & a qu>t] a day1 to %ovel mud4 ,z soon z ! riv] comm5c$ to fall t occupation 0 gone2 b ! sup]9t5d5t ( ! mill1 becom+ 9 ! meantime some:at acqua9t$ ) my hi/ory1 (f]$ me a situation inside1 :i* ,i held = ?ree weeks1 :5 ,i 0 s5t = to see ! bus9ess manag] ( ! ,po/4 ,i accept$ a position on ! ,po/ z adv]tis+ solicitor at fifte5 doll>s a week1 :i* 0 aft]w>d increas$ to tw5ty-five4 ,i 0 !n made bus9ess manag]1 at ?irty doll>s1 :i* position ,i n[ hold4 ,i c say ?is3 ,t :ile ,i _h an abundance ( means to f9d happ9ess1 pleasure & cont5tm5t1 & _h s\ght x 9 e possible way t a man c\ld1 ,i fail$ to f9d x until ,i accept$ ,*ri/ z my ,savi\r1 & gave myself into ,8 h&s4 ,s9ce !n ,i h _h a happ9ess ,i nev] knew be=e4 ,my life has be5 "o ( con/ant peace & un9t]rupt$ prosp]ity4 ,my *ildr5 are bo? happily m>ri$1 & ,i h m>ri$ myself4 ,?\gh ,i 0 be=e s pr\d t ,i c\ld n accept my "m's tea*+1 ,i 0 at a po9t :]e ,i w\ld h accept$ any?+4 ,!y w\ld tell me t doctor s-&-s w\ld cure me2 :i* 0 no k9dness to me1 because x kept me f ask+ ,god's help4 ,b no?+ w\ld d me any good4 ,s ,i said1 ,god1 "h ,i am2 accept me4 ,if !re is any good 9 me1 br+ x out4 ,i am d[n1 d[n1 d[n2 ,i c n help myself4 ,bro!r ,holcombe _h told me :at ,god _h done = him4 ,i _h confid5ce 9 him f ! />t1 f ! fact ( 8 hav+ told me he 0 a gambl] s long2 & :5 he told me ,god _h r$eem$ him f ! desire = gambl+1 ,i ?\ght he might take away ! appetite = dr9k f me2 & ,he has done s1 ,i am v ?ankful to say4 ,i expect ,i 0 ! wor/-look+ sight y ev] saw1 b ,i d n take a back seat n[ = any "o--,i look z well z anybody4 ,z ,i told a man la/ week3 ,) ! ,"l on my side1 ,i d n fe> any?+6 ,i _h _h *>ge ( m51 & _h succe$$ 9 manag+ !m4 ,i did n accept religion because ,i 0 a weak-m9d$ man4 ,z evid5ce ( t1 ,i h prov$ x s9ce z ,i _h prov$ x be=e4 ,i prov$ t :5 ,i 0 try+ to be a good man 9 my own way4 ,i h prov$ s9ce t ,i 0 n a weak-m9d$ man f ! responsible positions ,i h held & d hold4 ,b1 z ,i 0 go+ to say1 ,i _h n %av$ = two ye>s1 & _h n _h my hair cut1 ,i am satisfi$1 = "o ye>4 ,my hair 0 hang+ d[n on my %\ld]s2 my face1 ( c\rse1 n v clean2 my clo!s 7 rags4 ,my %oes 7 simply tops1 & ! g5tleman :o gave me ^! two doll>s1 told me3 ,capta91 y are ! h>de/-look+ man ,i ev] saw 9 my life4 ,i d n "k h[ ,i recogniz$ y4 ,i said3 ,?is is ! condition ,i am 91 & dr9k+ has br\ght me to x4 ,i h be5 ask$ by sev]al prom95t m5 h[ x is ,i get up night aft] night & tell p h[ bad ,i h be54 ,i told !m x 0 l ?is2 if !y _h be5 sick nigh unto dea? & 7 go+ to die1 & a physician came & gave !m "s m$ic9e & made :ole m5 out ( !m1 w\ld !y n be go+ ar\nd ! /reets tell+ p ab\t t physician8 ,i said t is ! reason ,i get up e night & tell p ab\t x4 ,*ri/ 0 ! physician t heal$ me4 ,t is ! rem$y ,i h = all evil n[--! blood ( ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,x 0 utt]ly impossible = a man to exi/ & be 9 a worse condition ?an ,i 04 ,i 0 physically & m5tally a wreck2 & n[ by accept+ ,*ri/--becom+ a ,*ri/ian--,i am physically1 morally1 m5tally & spiritually re/or$ & well4 ,t is ! reason :y ,i d n hesitate to tell anybody--ev5 p com+ into my (fice4 ,an editor ( a pap] said to me3 ,is x possible y 7 a tramp8 ,i told him x 02 & he 0 talk+ some?+ ab\t attack+ me ?r\gh 8 pap]1 ab\t :at ,i _h be54 ,i said1 ,blaze away2 x won't hurt me4 ,i d n d5y hav+ be5 a tramp & a drunk>d--ev]y?+ t 0 mean4 ,b :at am ,i n[8 ,i d n c>e :at !y br+ back ( my pa/ record2 !y c n hurt me1 = ,i d n d5y x4 ,x is :at ,i am n[4 ,i ?9k n[ t ,i 0 z bad & mean z a man c\ld possibly be4 ,b ,i am no long] :at ,i 01 by ! grace ( ,him :o call$ me out ( ! =m] d>kness into ,8 light4 ,illu/ration3 ,h4 ,c4 ,,price4 ,h4 ,,clay ,,price4 ,i us$ to "k ,bro!r ,holcombe 9 ^? days2 knew him to be a gambl]4 ,he 0 consid]$ "o ( ! be/ ( gambl]s1 b ,i always look$ ^u him z be+ an honorable gambl]1 s f> z ,i h he>d4 ,i knew him ev5 be=e he 0 a gambl]4 ,well1 my fa!r & "m 7 v pi\s1 my "m especially4 ,%e 0 a pray+ woman1 & ev]ybody knew h] by ! "n ( ,aunt ,kittie1 & my fa!r z ,uncle ,billy4 ,my fa!r did n ?9k x 0 any h>m to play c>ds 9 ! p>lor e night4 ,:5 ,i 0 "y he lov$ to play :i/4 ,i _h a si/] old] ?an ,i1 sixte5 or sev5te5 ye>s old1 & %e us$ to invite "y m51 & fa!r us$ to invite !m1 to come !re & play c>ds2 & ! mom5t !y comm5c$ to fix ! table1 my fa!r beckon$ 8 head to me1 & ,i knew :at t meant--to get out4 ,we _h a "y negro t us$ to wait on ! ladies 9 ! p>lor1 & he told me "o "t1 ,y /eal a deck ( c>ds & ,i w %[ y h[ to play c>ds4 ,& ,i /ole a deck ( c>ds f ! h\se & we w5t back 9 ! /able2 & t is ! way ,i came to le>n h[ to play c>ds4 ,i 0 twelve or fifte5 ye>s old at t "t--n any old] ?an t--& ,i comm5c$ play+ c>ds = money1 & ,i kept on play+ c>ds = money ) ! boys2 = money or = any?+4 ,i 0 s5t (f to s*ool--to ,/4 ,m>y's ,college1 & we got to play+ c>ds !re = money1 & we 7 caught1 & ! olde/ "o 0 expell$ f s*ool1 & ,i promis$ nev] to d x any m1 & ! o!r boys promis$ n to d x any m1 & !y did n4 ,b ,i kept on & ,i 0 caught play+ c>ds1 & ,i 0 expell$ f s*ool4 ,aft] t my fa!r s5t me to ,/4 ,joseph's ,college 9 ,ohio4 ,i ran (f f t s*ool & came home1 & ,i 0 appo9t$ a ,deputy ,m>%al by my bro!r-9-law1 ,w4 ,s4 ,d4 ,mc,gowen2 & ,i got to gambl+ !n sure en\gh & runn+ aft] wom52 & ab\t t "t ! w> came on1 & ,i w5t (f ) my bro!r-9-law into ! army1 & ,i gambl$ all ?r\gh ! army--ev]y:]e ,i c\ld get five c5ts to play )4 ,all ,i _h ,i gambl$ away4 ,i came back home & ,i gambl$ "h2 play$ 9 ! f>o banks all ! "t4 ,& a proprietor ( a gambl+ h\se by ! "n ( ,jo4 ,croxton came to me & said1 ,y are too good a man to be gambl+ ar\nd4 ,i w give y an int]e/1 & y c take *>ge ( my h\se4 ,i did n "k mu* ab\t gambl+1 b ,i knew h[ to take c>e ( 8 h\se4 ,he gave me ! bank roll2 & ,i w5t on d[n & d[n4 ,i 0 m>ri$ !n & _h a fai?ful1 g5tle & devot$ wife1 b ,i ?\ght ,i 0 sm>t] ?an anybody ab\t gambl+1 & ,i ?\ght ,i c\ld make big money1 & s ,i w\ld leave my wife1 devot$ & dep5d5t z %e 01 & ,i kept travel+ on ar\nd ! c\ntry1 go+ to diff]5t t[ns4 ,i w5t to ,na%ville2 f !re ,i w5t to ,new ,orleans4 ,i came back to ,na%ville4 ,i left ,na%ville & w5t to ,huntsville1 ,ala42 came back "h & w5t to ,/4 ,l\is2 !n to ,*icago & ,lex+ton4 ,aft] t ,i w5t back to ,na%ville aga94 ,i made a good deal ( money if ,i c\ld h kept x2 b ! ,"l w\ld n let me h x4 ,i av]ag$ "h = ye>s & ye>s #ejj a mon?4 ,sometimes ,i made m--made z mu* z #a1gjj a mon?1 & once ,i w5t up z high z #b1ajj a mon?--made big w9n+s4 ,z fa/ z ,i got ?is money ,i c\ld n keep x--?rew x away on wom5 all ! "t & gambl+ aga9/ ! bank & pok]2 w\ld spit at a m>k = money4 ,i h lo/ hundr$s & hundr$s ( doll>s )\t gett+ (f ( my seat1 ) m5 ,i knew 7 robb+ me all ! "t4 ,x 0 a passion ,i _h to gamble & ,i'd n /op4 ,9 "o game ( pok] t ,i 0 9 ,i bet & lo/ #ijj on "o h&1 & ,i h nev] play$ at pok] s9ce t "t4 ,:5 ! gambl+-h\ses 7 brok5 up "h 9 ,l\isville1 ,i conclud$ ,i w\ld g (f to ,*icago4 ,i _h "s money & ,i w5t to ,*icago2 & z soon z ,i got !re1 ,i got broke1 lo/ all ! money ,i _h4 ,i 0 among /rang]s & ,i 0 dead broke4 ,f9ally ,i got ano!r situation1 & work$ !re = "s "t4 ,i !n got hold ( "s money aga91 & ,i came home & rema9$ "s "t4 ,my wife 0 begg+ me all ! "t n to g away--did n ?9k ,i ought to g away2 %e said t ,i c\ld /ay "h & get "s "w to d1 & make an hone/ liv+4 ,b ,i ?\ght ,i _h bett] g back to ,*icago & make "s money2 & ,i made "s money z soon z ,i got !re by play+ f>o bank2 & ,i did v well at t "t1 made a good deal ( money2 & y "k h[ a man feels :5 he has five hundr$ doll>s 9 8 pocket2 & yet all t "t ,i did n s5d my wife any?+4 ,i ?\ght ,i w\ld get ab\t "o ?\s& doll>s & op5 "s k9d ( a b>-room or cig> %op1 or some?+ ( ! k9d4 ,b ! day be=e ,*ri/mas ,i got to play+ aga9/ ! f>o bank1 & got broke2 & ,i 0 ! mo/ mis]able man 9 ! _w1 to ?9k t ,i _h lo/ ! la/ *ance ,i _h4 ,! day be=e ,*ri/mas my wife wrote me1 ,:y don't y come home8 ,i _h r see y home ?an !re aga9 mak+ money1 ,i said1 ,ye/]day ,i got broke--,i play$ to w94 ,i _h no?+ to eat all day4 ,b accid5tally ,i f\nd a tw5ty-five c5t piece 9 my pocket2 & ,i got up & w5t & b\ght a t5-c5t d9n]1 & paid fifte5 c5ts = a cig>4 ,i h done t _m times1 ,i suppose1 b\ght a qu>t] d9n] & giv5 ! o!r qu>t] = a cig>4 ,i j got to /udy+ ab\t x1 /udy+ ab\t :at ,i 0 to d4 ,i said1 ,if ,i come back to ,l\isville1 ,i w />ve4 ,i am n compet5t to keep a set ( books1 or cl]k any:]e2 b1 ,i said1 ,i w g back if ,i d />ve4 ,s ,i wrote to my pati5t wife3 ,i h lo/ e c5t ,i _h 9 ! _w1 ,i h got to "w "o week long] to make en\gh money to come home on1 & ,i am com+4 ,y may look = me ! fir/ ( next week4 ,z soon z !y paid me (f t ev5+ ,i jump$ on ! c>s & came home1 hav+ j ! money to pay my f>e4 ,be=e ?is ,bro!r ,holcombe _h met me "t & aga9 aft] he _h be5 conv]t$4 ,he us$ to come aft] me2 & e "t he w\ld see me1 may be ,i w\ld be look+ at some?+ 9 ! /reet--he w\ld hit me on ! %\ld] & say1 ,h[ d y d1 old boy8 & !n he w\ld talk to me ab\t my salvation1 & ab\t ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,i us$ to hide f him2 b x look$ l e "t he came ar\nd he w\ld nail me1 & talk to me ab\t ,jesus4 ,t 0 :5 ,i 0 gambl+ "h & prosp]\s4 ,he told me ab\t my "m & told me ,i ought to quit gambl+4 ,i said1 ,bro!r ,holcombe1 :at %all ,i d if ,i quit gambl+8 ,i h no way to make a liv+4 ,he said1 ,look to ,god1 & ,he w help y4 ,i w5t away ab\t t "t2 & z soon z ,i came back1 e "t he w\ld see me he w\ld nail me aga94 ,aft] a:ile ,i got int]e/$ 9 him4 ,i w\ld look = him & :5 ,i w\ld cat* him1 ,i w\ld say1 ,y c n get away f me n[4 ,t 0 aft] ,i came f ,*icago4 ,i _h n[h]e to g except to visit b>-rooms4 ,s ,i began to g d[n ar\nd ! old ,mission e night4 ,i he>d ! s++ & pray+ d[n !re4 ,"o night ,i said1 ,i am go+ to see ,bro!r ,holcombe4 ,! clock /ruck eight1 & ,i said ,i am n go+ 9 to-night1 x is too late4 ,i w g to-morr[2 & to-morr[ night came & ,i w5t d[n !re & w5t 9 v e>ly1 be=e !y comm5c$ s++2 & !y sang & pray$ & ,bro!r ,holcombe prea*$1 & ! next night ,i w5t1 & ! next night ,i w5t1 & ,i w5t e night4 ,& !n !y mov$ up "h on ,jeff]son /reet & aft] !y mov$ up "h1 ,i /ay$ away a week1 & !n ,i comm5c$ com+ aga92 & "h ,i am n[1 ?ank ,god4 ,i ?9k ,god has be5 my fri5d all ! way ?r\gh4 ,to ?9k ,he has let me g z f> z ,he c\ld1 & at la/ br\ght me home4 ,i tell y x is a great ?+ = a man t has be5 liv+ ! life ,i h1 to get up & say t he is n[ a *ild ( ,god4 ,x came gradually1 a little bit ( x at a "t1 b :5 ,i 0 d[n 9 ! ,mission t night1 ,god came to me 9 full p[]1 ,i felt t ,i did n c>e :at happ5$ to me4 ,i 0 will+ to g if ,god call$ on me4 ,:atev] ,he said ,i 0 will+ to d4 ,aft] my conv]sion ,i got a place :]e ,i 0 mak+ a doll> a day1 at ,rob9son's1 on ,n9?1 betwe5 ,broadway & ,york /reets1 & ,i work$ !re until ,i w5t up on a new railroad4 ,!y promis$ to give me =ty-five doll>s a mon?4 ,i ?\ght at ! "t1 & s did ,bro!r ,holcombe1 ,i w\ld get =ty-five doll>s a mon?4 ,he said1 ,y w get =ty-five doll>s a mon?1 & x is s mu* easi] ?an ! "w y are do+4 ,i ?\ght !y w\ld pay all my exp5ses & ,i work$ up !re at =ty-five doll>s & ,i _h to pay all my own exp5ses2 & all ,i receiv$ 0 n a c5t m or less ?an ?irte5 doll>s a mon?4 ,b ,i 0 happi] a ?\s& times--,i w say a hundr$ ?\s& times--?an ,i 0 ) six or sev5 hundr$ doll>s a mon?4 ,y may ?9k gambl]s are happy1 & x looks l x2 b !y are n--!y are mis]able4 ,j to look back 9 our lives & ?9k :at we h done ) all ! money6 ,x is no?+ to be comp>$ ) ! life ( a ,*ri/ian4 ,if ,i c\ld g back to-morr[ & make a million doll>s gambl+1 ,i w\ld n d x4 ,i w\ld say1 ,take y\r million ( doll>s4 ,i w /ay :]e ,i am4 ,my wife is ! be/ woman 9 ! _w4 ,i leave h] at home & %e is read+ ! ,bible4 ,y c n g 9 !re any "t1 :5 %e is n at "w1 t %e is n ei!r s++ or read+ ! ,bible4 ,%e 0 rais$ a ,ca?olic4 ,%e is n[ try+ to help me along4 ,%e has jo9$ ! ,me?odi/ *ur*2 %e is ) me4 ,i d n ?9k %e 0 a ,*ri/ian be=e we came 9 contact ) ,bro!r ,holcombe4 ,x 0 j h] int]e/ 9 me1 & h] pati5t1 long-suff]+ love4 ,%e nev] w5t to *ur* nor pray$ nor knelt d[n4 ,%e pray$ aft] %e w5t to b$ l ,i did1 = ,i said pray]s e day ev5 !n4 ,i always said1 ,if ,i =get1 ,god w =get me4 ,e day ( my life ,i pray$2 & if ,i =got x1 ,i ask$ ! ,"l to =give me2 b ,i nev] w\ld kneel d[n4 ,i pray$ aft] ,i w5t to b$2 b n[ ,i get d[n on my knees & pray4 ,d y "k h[ we d at night8 ,we get d[n on our knees & say ! ,"l's pray]2 & aft] we get ?r\gh1 ,i pray2 & aft] ,i get ?r\gh1 ! old lady prays4 ,y see ! old lady 0 rais+ our little girl up to be a ,ca?olic2 & ,i said to h]1 aft] we 7 conv]t$--maybe a mon? aft]w>d--,i don't "k :e!r ,i am "r or wrong--,i want y to say--d y n ?9k x is "r to tea* ,kittie to d ! way we d 9 our pray]s8 ,i ?9k x w\ld be a s9 to try to tea* h] any o!r way4 ,n[1 let u set h] an example1 & %e w come ov] gradually & gradually until %e w be "o ( u4 ,%e has ask$ h] "m ab\t ,jesus4 ,%e said to h] "m "o day1 ,i c't pray l y all c4 ,! old lady said to h]1 ,y w le>n aft] a:ile4 ,la/ night ,i 0 out late1 & :5 ,i came home %e said1 ,we w all kneel d[n & pray4 ,we />t$ (f1 ,our ,fa!r1 :o art 9 heav51 & ,kittie w5t along ) u1 repeat+ x4 ,%e kn[s all t1 y "k4 ,aft] we 7 done say+ t1 ,i pray$2 & aft] ,i got ?r\gh ! old lady pray$2 & aft] we _h pray$ ,i said1 ,kittie1 y mu/ say y\r pray]4 ,%e said1 ,i c n pray l y d4 ,b %e did ! be/ %e c\ld4 ,if y ask me h[ ,i came to *ange my life1 x 0 ?is way3 ,i knew t ,bro!r ,holcombe 0 a good man1 & knew t he 0 re=m$ & ,i _h s mu* fai? 9 him1 & ,i /udi$ ab\t t s mu* t ,i j ?\ght if he c\ld be su* a good man1 :y c\ld n ,i be a good man2 & t is ! way x came4 ,i tell y1 backw>dness is a fault ) a good _m prea*]s4 ,if ,i 0 a prea*] & ,i saw a man on ! /reet t ,i saw 0 go+ wrong1 ,i w\ld g "r up to him & t\* him on ! %\ld]4 ,i d x n[--,i nev] let him get away2 ,i nev] let a fri5d ( m9e get away1 ,i d n c>e :o he is4 ,i g to him & tell him :at ,god has done = me4 ,i say1 ,:y don't y come up to ! ,mission8 ,don't y "k ,bro!r ,holcombe8 ,if he says ,no2 ,i don't live "h1 ,i say1 ,if y come up !re1 we w be pleas$ to see y4 ,y don't "k :at good x might d y\r s\l4 ,i d wi% ,i _h an education4 ,i reckon !re has be5 m money sp5t on me ?an on all ! re/ ( my family4 ,i w5t to ?ree colleges2 0 expell$ f "o & ran away f ! o!r two4 ,i 0 ! wor/ boy on e>?2 !re is no use talk+4 ,i w\ld r fight t eat2 b no m fight+ = me2 ,i am done4 ,y "k t ,i h be5 try+ to get "w to d1 & at la/ ,i h f\nd a place4 ,i am e>ne/ly pray+ e day m & m--,i c pray n[4 ,a man ask$ me ! o!r day--,i don't "k :e!r ,i answ]$ him "r or n--he ask$ me1 ,d y ev] expect to g back to gambl+8 ,i said1 ,i w\ld />ve to dea? be=e ,i w\ld gamble any m4 ,he said1 ,:at ab\t y\r wife--if y knew y\r wife 0 go+ to />ve1 w\ld y gamble8 ,i said1 ,be=e ,i w\ld let my wife & *ild />ve1 ,i w\ld gamble--,i w\ld gamble to get !m some?+ to eat2 b1 ,i said1 !re is no dang] ( _! />v+4 ,b y put t "q to me s /rong4 ,i said1 ,i "k t ,god w\ld n c5sure me = t1 b !re is no dang] ( x4 ,i wi% ,i c\ld say m4 ,i "k ,i mean :at ,i h said1 ,god kn[s ,i d1 & x is all true z ne> z ,i c rememb]4 ,,note4--,mr4 ,price is a bro!r ( ! late ,hon4 ,j4 ,hop ,price1 = _m ye>s a well-kn[n lawy] & judge 9 ,l\isville4 ,he is n[ engag$ z night wat*man on ,ma9 /reet4 ,,miles ,,turp94 ,i _h ! example ( ,*ri/ian p>5ts1 &1 ( c\rse1 ,i _h ! b5efit ( a ,*ri/ian education2 b1 l all "y m51 ,i 0 r incl9$ to be wild2 & aft] ,i _h s]v$ f\r ye>s 9 ! ,conf$]ate army1 my habits 7 =m$ r = ! worse4 ,aft] ,i _h return$ home1 be+ )\t avocation1 ,i naturally resort$ to :at all idle m5 d2 t 0 ! beg9n+4 ,i contract$ ! habit ( frolic+1 gambl+ & dr9k+1 9 t e>ly p]iod ( my life1 :i* has foll[$ me ?r\gh all ^! ye>s1 up to ,m>* #ad1 #ahhf1 :51 aft] consid]able j\rney+ ?r\gh ,nor? ,am]ica & portions ( ,mexico1 ,i happ5$ 9 ,c9c9nati1 & he>d a great _m times ab\t ,/eve ,holcombe's conv]sion4 ,hav+ kn[n ,/eve 9 8 gambl+ days1 x occurr$ to me1 l all p]sons 9 pursuit ( happ9ess1 go+ f place to place & n f9d+ x1 t if !re 0 su* a *ange & improvem5t 9 ,/eve z ! newspap]s describ$1 ,i w\ld come to ,l\isville & see = myself conclud+ t if religion _h done s mu* = him1 x might d some?+ = me4 ,i 0 a dissipat$ man--dissipat$ 9 ! extreme4 ,i _h contract$ ?is habit ( dr9k+1 & 0 r>ely ev] sob]4 ,i h "s capacity1 z a bus9ess man1 & ,i h _h a great _m positions1 b ,i _h to give !m up f ?is habit ( dr9k+4 ,:ile a man w\ld express 8 deep fri5d%ip = me1 he w\ld say 8 bus9ess w\ld n tol]ate my dr9k+2 consequ5tly1 ,i h be5 frequ5tly b politely dismiss$4 ,i _h liv$ 9 ,i don't "k h[ _m places 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 ,i _h liv$ 9 ,new ,orleans1 ,savannah1 ,ga41 ,*>le/on1 ,s4 ,c41 ,birm+ham1 ,montgom]y1 ,selma1 ,vidalia1 ,la41 ,c9c9nati1 ,l\isville1 ,ky41 ,macon1 ,ga41 ,p5sacola1 ,fla41 ,f]n&9a1 ,fla41 ?r\gh\t ! l5g? & bread? ( ,we/]n ,mexico1 ,l[] ,cali=nia & ! ,pacific coa/1 & ?r\gh ! ,/ate ( ,texas1 end to end4 ,9 all ^! tortu\s w9d+s ,i 0 se>*+ = happ9ess2 b a man :o is m or less full ( :isky & )\t ! religion ( ,jesus ,*ri/ is ( necessity unhappy1 9 himself1 &1 9 consequ5ce1 %unn$ by 8 fell[m54 ,no man c w&] ar\nd ! _w 9 t condition )\t feel+ a void :i* human wisdom c n fill2 & ,i 0 =c$ to ?is conclusion by a c>eful survey ( my pa/ c>e]4 ,! desp]ation ( ! case 0 su*1 t ,i resolv$ if ,i c\ld n f9d employm5t1 & if ,i c\ld n f9d happ9ess1 :i* ,i !n knew no?+ ab\t1 ,i w\ld de/roy myself4 ,i h contemplat$ suicide _m times ) ! utmo/ s]i\sness2 & ,i c]ta9ly 9 my s9ful life 0 n afraid ( dea?4 ,b !n x 0 because ,i 0 9 despair4 ,i 0 9 ,c9c9nati2 _h previ\sly held a political position !re1 :i* paid me q a h&some sum2 b 9 ! *ange ( politics my pecuni>y condition *ang$1 & ,i f\nd myself alone1 poor & full ( rum & corruption2 z vile a s9n] z ev] liv$4 ,x 0 at t "t t ,i he>d ( ,/eve4 ,i 0 9 a deplorable condition2 ,i knew n :]e to turn = com=t1 & x occurr$ to me t if ,i c\ld g to ,l\isville & h ^! ass]tions v]ifi$ ab\t ,/eve's reg5]ation & if ,i c\ld see & satisfy myself4 ,i w\ld d s1 z vile z ,i 01 & ask ,god to h m]cy ^u me4 ,( c\rse1 ,i 0 an infidel 7at lea/1 ,i imag9$ myself an infidel71 an a!i/1 if y please1 & my *ief delight 0 d]id+ all ,*ri/ian "w1 & ridicul+ ! ,bible2 & to m ?or\ghly uphold my a!i/ical notions ,i w5t s f> z to defame ! ,savi\r ( mank9d1 n 9 vulg> language or pr(ane1 b by a mode ( expression t 0 pla9 & unmi/akable4 ,n[1 ,i d n see h[ a man c be an infidel4 ,:5 a man says he is an a!i/1 ,i believe he is a li>4 ,a man mu/ be insane :o does n recognize a ,supreme ,p[] & ! ,ma/]-h& t made ! _w1 & :o does n rely ^u & give ob$i5ce to t ,high] ,p[]4 ,i d n believe t any a!i/ is hone/ 9 ! ann\ncem5t t he does n believe 9 ,god or a ,creator4 ,i believe n[1 s9ce my conv]sion1 t no man is 9 8 "r m9d unless he has ! habit ( pray]4 ,all nature po9ts to ! exi/5ce ( a ,creator--e action ( life1 e hair ( ! head %[s an unse5 h&4 ,if x is a mi/ake1 x is a mi/ake man c nev] fa?om2 b if n & if1 z we are told by ! ^w ( fai?1 y believe1 y %all be sav$4 ,if y ca/ y\r burd5 ^u ,him1 & !re is a possibility ( a h]eaft]1 y lose no?+ 9 ?is _w4 ,a man is wis]1 pur]1 m companionable1 m affectionate & m *>itable4 ,!re mu/ be immortality ( ! s\l2 !re mu/ be a future rew>d4 ,reflection ^u ^! great facts induc$ me to become a ,*ri/ian man4 ,z ,i _h s]v$ ! devil s long z "o ( 8 allies1 & _h be5 treat$ s badly by him4 ,i des]t$ him & put my fai? 9 ,god1 :]e ,i int5d to rema9 ! rema9d] ( my life4 ,i got to ,l\isville a little ov] a ye> ago1 ! #ae? ( ,m>*1 & w5t imm$iately to f9d ,mr4 ,holcombe4 ,he 0 sitt+ by ! fire4 ,he knew me at once4 ,i %ook h&s ) him & sat d[n by ! fire1 & _h a conv]sation ) him4 ,he imm$iately ent]$ ^u ! subject ( religion1 & ,i told him my condition4 ,i told him :at ,i want$ to d--,i want$ to see = myself if x 0 possible = a man l him to become reg5]at$--if x 0 possible = su* a great sc\ndrel z ,i knew him to be to become a ,*ri/ian man4 ,i want$ to see = myself if x 7 possible to make1 out ( s vile a creature1 su* a good man z he 0 said to be4 ,z ,i said la/ night1 ,i came1 l ! conqu]or ( old1 & saw1 b1 unlike ! conqu]or ( old1 ,i 0 conqu]$4 ,i made up my m9d t ,i 0 done ) ! old life4 ,/eve's appe>ance conv9c$ me t he 0 cur$1 & ,i confess$ !n & !re t ,i 0 conv9c$4 ,t 0 ! />t+ po9t4 ,!re 0 only "o ?+ ,i h nev] be5 ?or\ghly satisfi$ ab\t2 ,i f9d t ! ,*ri/ian influ5ce gr[s gradually on me1 & becomes /rong] & /rong] ! long] ,i live4 ,i confess myself1 :5 ,i fir/ became a ,*ri/ian man1 ) ! exception ( dr9k+ :isky1 ,i 0 l ,i 0 be=e2 b1 enc\rag$ by my exp]i5ces 9 ! beg9n+1 ,i gradually began to see t x 0 a bett] life4 ,a man 0 pur]1 & !re 0 "s hope a man c\ld be *ang$ ?r\gh & ?r\gh1 & take 8 place among m52 & f t "t =w>d ,i 0 cont9ually gr[+ 9 grace4 ,f ! v mom5t ,i resolv$ to quit1 ,i did n dr9k any m4 ,aft] ,i saw ,/eve1 ,i did n take a drop1 ?\gh ,i _h tri$ be=e to quit x _m a "t4 ,i _h (t5times jo9$ temp]ance societies1 & made resolutions1 :i* 7 ( no avail4 ,a man 9 t case 0 b\nd by no tie except 8 ass]tion--by 8 ^w3 & might break x j z a man all[s a note to be prote/$ 9 bank4 ,! mom5t ,i det]m9$ to *ange my life1 ?is appetite = :isky left me4 ,x 0 because my ideas 7 *ang$4 ,i us$ to ?9k t no drunk5 man c\ld become a ,*ri/ian2 b n[ ,i hope1 by ! grace ( ,god1 ,i am a ,*ri/ian1 ,i c\ld n expla9 x2 ,i d n believe any man c expla9 x4 ,he may attempt x1 b he c n d x4 ,a man :o lives a ,*ri/ian life c h>dly calculate ! advantages2 x is a matt] ( impossibility4 ,9 ! fir/ place1 8 associates put an entirely diff]5t e/imate on him4 ,8 ambitions are entirely *ang$1 & c]ta9ly 8 hope is4 ,x makes him a m *>itable man1 a m =be>+ man ) ! faults ( 8 neighbors1 makes him a m tol]ant man1 makes him a bett] citiz52 & if he 7 a politician--?\gh x is sc>cely )9 ! b\nds ( possibility--x w\ld make him an hone/ politician4 ,i h _h no tr\ble to get along 9 bus9ess s9ce my conv]sion4 ,j z soon z ,i tri$ to get bus9ess1 :5 ,i 0 once really 9 e>ne/ ab\t x1 ,i _h a numb] ( (f]s4 ,i h /ill a numb] ( (f]s4 ,:5 ,i became a ,*ri/ian man ,i det]m9$1 9 my own m9d1 ,i w\ld live up to ,*ri/ianity s f> z ,i c\ld 9 e p>ticul>1 humbly & consci5ti\sly4 ,! op9ions ( man h no weight ) me n[4 ,all ,i am ,i hold by ! grace ( ,god1 ?r\gh ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,,fr$ ,,ropke4 ,i ?9k x 0 on ! #be? ( ,june1 #ahhc1 ,i 0 /opp+ at ,fif? & ,jeff]son4 ,previ\s to t "t ,i _h be5 tramp+ ! c\ntry = ab\t eight ye>s1 f #ahgd until ! middle ( #ahhc4 ,my fa!r 0 a ,l\isville man4 ,he gave me all ! advantages t weal? c\ld comm&4 ,he s5t me to ,g]many 9 #ahfd1 :]e ,i rema9$ ?ree ye>s at s*ool4 ,9 #ahfi or #ahgj1 ,i w5t into ! %]iff's (fice "h 9 ,l\isville4 ,previ\s to t "t ,i _h be5 ) ,!odore ,s*w>tz ,co4 ,i w5t f ,!odore ,s*w>tz ,co4 into ! %]iff's (fice4 ,i got t position f c\rtesy ( ! %]iff to my fa!r1 :o 0 8 bondsman4 ,i contract$ ! habit ( dr9k+ "r !re1 ?r\gh ! associations4 ,&1 be+ a%am$ to rema9 among my fri5ds z a drunk>d1 ,i w5t !n f pill> to po/ all ov] ! c\ntry4 ,i left home j aft] my fa!r's dea?1 9 #ahgb1 n kn[+ :i!r ,i 0 go+4 ,i dragg$ ar\nd ! c\ntry f t "t until ! summ] ( #ahhc--;elev5 ye>s2 & if !re ev] 0 a man sick & tir$1 x 0 ,i4 ,i beat my way ?r\gh ,texas1 ,l\isiana1 ,mississippi1 ,t5nessee1 ,arkansas1 ,kansas1 ,colorado1 ,i[a1 ,mi*igan1 ,wiscons91 ,ill9ois1 ,indiana1 ,ohio1 ,p5nsylvania & ,new ,york4 ,! box c> 0 my home ! great] "p ( ! "t4 ,( c\rse1 dur+ ^? ye>s1 ,i came home (f & on2 b no?+ c\ld /op me 9 my d[nw>d c\rse4 ,z soon z ,i lo/ self-control ,i p]suad$ myself !re 0 no h]eaft]1 no ,god & no devil4 ,i took to t idea to console myself = :at ,i 0 do+ m ?an = any?+ else2 & ,i _h a p]fect indiff]5ce z to :at became ( me1 except at times :5 ,i 0 alone & sob] & ?\ghtful4 ,b ,i nev] _h any aim2 no ambition at all2 9 fact1 ,i _h giv5 up all hope4 ,i d n "k :at ,i w&]$ =4 ,i w\ld come home & /ay = a mon? or s1 & ,i w\ld get drunk & get a%am$ ( myself & g away4 ,i w\ld walk all night to get out ( ,l\isville4 ,i _h be5 br\ght up by religi\s p>5ts4 ,my fa!r 0 a v religi\s man4 ,he 0 consid]$ by p z a fanatic because he 0 mak+ money 9 ! :isky bus9ess1 & sold out r ?an cont9ue x4 ,he lo/ money by sell+ out dur+ ! w>4 ,he saw :at x 0 drift+ to1 & sold out4 ,aft] t !re 0 n a drop ( :isky h&l$ 9 8 h\se on ,ma9 /reet until aft] 8 dea?4 ,my "m also 0 a v religi\s woman1 s t ,i _h a c>eful religi\s tra9+4 ,b ,i _h read a good deal ( ,+]soll & ,tom ,pa9e4 ,i he>d ,+]soll lecture on "o or two occasions2 ,i want$ to get all ! pro( ,i c\ld to su/a9 me4 ,i want$ "s consolation2 ,i knew :]e ,i 0 drift+2 !re 0 a consci\sness all ?is "t t ,i 0 wrong2 & ,i trembl$ at ! ?\ght ( "o day giv+ an acc\nt = ! misde$s ( a wa/$ life2 b ,i c\ld n possibly help myself4 ,f ! m5tal anxiety ,i w5t ?r\gh x is a wond] my hair is n gray to-day4 ,x 0 t]rible4 ,i _h two attacks ( delirium trem5s4 ,:at br\ght me to realize my condition m ?an any?+ else1 took place j be=e ! "t ,i fir/ met ,bro!r ,holcombe4 ,i 0 out on ,second /reet m5d+ umbrellas2 = t 0 ! way ,i made my liv+4 ,i _h become ?or\ghly h>d5$4 ,i w\ld h cut my ?roat1 only c[>dice kept me f x4 ,well1 ,i 0 m5d+ umbrellas out on ,second /reet1 & ,mrs4 ,w]ne he>d me z ,i 0 call+ out1 & kn[+ t ,h5ry1 h] husb&1 & ,i _h be5 to s*ool toge!r--_h be5 boys toge!r1 %e call$ me & said1 ,fr$1 ,i want y to come 94 ,%e insi/$ on my com+ to _! h\se to d9n] ! next day4 ,fix up1 %e said1 & come to d9n] ) u2 b ,i d n believe ,i _h a /it* ( clo!s except :at 0 on my back4 ,%e insi/$ h[ev]1 on my com+2 "s ( my fri5ds w\ld be !re4 ,t br\ght me to realize to :at dep?s ,i _h fall54 ,! next week ,i w5t to ,new ,albany2 & ,i 0 told to leave ! t[n1 & ,i left ! t[n "u ! escort ( two policem54 ,to su* abject wret*$ness 0 ,i r$uc$1 ,i c\ld n endure to /ay among fri5ds1 & ,i 0 9 su* a plight /rang]s c\ld n endure me among !m4 ,b once ,i 0 com+ d[n ! /reet1 & he>d ! s++ 9 ! ,holcombe ,mission2 & ,i 0 consid]ably t\*$ to ?9k t ,i _h come ?r\gh ! religi\s tra9+ ( a ,*ri/ian home & ( *ur* & ,sunday-s*ool2 & t is all x am\nt$ to4 ,i w5t t ev5+ to ! c\r?\se /eps1 & he>d ,mr4 ,holcombe prea* !re2 & f t day to ?is ,i h n drank a s+le drop2 & x is only ?r\gh ,god's grace t ,i realize t ,i am able to resi/ temptation4 ,i felt t ,i 0 n wor? any?+2 ,i felt t !re 0 no p[] 9 myself4 ,my skepticism all melt$ away4 ,! view ,i took ( x 0 t if ,god c\ld help ,holcombe1 he c\ld & w\ld help su* a "o z ,i4 ,i knew ,mr4 ,holcombe v well4 ,:5 ,i 0 deputy %]iff1 ,i _h a w>rant = 8 arre/ "o "t f ,frankl9 c\nty1 & w5t !re arm$1 kn[+ 8 dang]\s reputation4 ,i ?\ght if ,holcombe c\ld be sav$1 !re c]ta9ly 0 "s hope = me1 & "u ! inspiration ( t hope ,i turn$ to ,god4 ,x 0 my la/ & only hope4 ,b x 0 n disappo9t$1 = ,he has sav$ me4 ,i rememb] ! fir/ "t ,i w5t up to be pray$ =2 ,i felt t ,i w\ld f t "t h /r5g?--,i _h no d\bt t ,i w\ld h x f t "t on4 ,x 0 9 ! back room ( ! old mission4 ,i felt--,i don't "k :y x 0--,i felt !n & !re t1 by ,god's help1 ,i w\ld make a man ( myself2 & ,i w5t out ) t feel+1 al?\gh ,i _h be5 "u ! influ5ce ( liquor = mon?s be=e4 ,i c n say t ,i _h no appetite = x1 b ,i _h /r5g? to resi/ x4 ,t 0 ! #be? ( ,june1 #ahhc4 ,i w\ld d any?+ = :isky :5 ,i w&]$ ar\nd4 ,i did n gamble1 b ,i 0 lic5ti\s4 ,i liv$ = no?+ else2 ,i _h no o!r aim 9 life b to gratify my passions1 & ,i w\ld adopt any extreme to d x1 & did d x4 ,i left no?+ unt\*$--,i w\ld sell my coat to gratify my passions4 ,if ,i want$ a dr9k ( :isky & my hat w\ld pay = x1 ,i w\ld let x g4 ,once1 on com+ back f ,new ,orleans1 my "m gave me a suit ( clo!s2 & ,i did n keep t suit ( clo!s ?ree days4 ,all ( ! "t ,i 0 tramp+ ar\nd1 my "m 0 liv+ 9 ,l\isville1 wor? sev5ty-five ?\s& doll>s4 ,%e 0 will+ to d any?+ = me1 & suff]$ mu* because ( my wick$ ways4 ,i rememb] on "o occasion1 :5 ,i left h] to g to ,d5v]1 ,colorado1 %e begg$ me to /ay at home1 & rem9d$ me h[ %e w\ld suff] f anxiety ab\t me1 day & night1 till ,i %\ld return4 ,b ,i _h j be5 releas$ f jail = drunk5ness & ,i did n want to /ay 9 ,l\isville4 ,s ,i left my "m 9 sorr[ & despair4 ,"o ?+ ,i am ?ankful = to-day2 t aft] my conv]sion ,i did n get into any?+ "r away2 t ,i made a b>e liv+ ) my umbrellas2 & t cont9u$ two ye>s be=e ,i got into a p]man5t situation4 ,i believe ^? 7 ! two happie/ ye>s ( my life4 ,i _h a t\gh "t to get some?+ to eat sometimes1 b t 0 good = me4 ,i pegg$ away at an old umbrella = tw5ty-five or ?irty c5ts d[n 9 ! old mission2 & ,i 0 ?ankful to get !m to fix4 ,x seem$ to me x 0 sweet]2 ,i enjoy$ x m4 ,!re is no comp>ison betwe5 ! new life & ! old4 ,i ?\ght at "o "t t ,i 0 enjoy+ myself2 b ,i h _h to suff] 9 my new life = all ! enjoym5t t ,i _h 9 ! old--,i h to suff] physically--ev5 yet4 ,i am an old man be=e my "t4 ,ev5 to-day on my com+ 9 contact ) x ! influ5ce ( ! old association w crop out4 ,sometimes my passions worry me consid]ably4 ,! only relief ,i f9d is by keep+ close to ,god4 ,i realize t f day to day if ,i d n d t--pay /rict att5tion to my religi\s duties--,i w fall4 ,i "k t if ,i neglect !m = "o week1 ,i get away (f4 ,i am happy 9 be+ plac$ :]e ,i am4 ,my place is a k9d ( r5dezv\s = religi\s p2 & _! society & conv]sation help to /r5g!n me4 ,s9ce my conv]sion1 ,i 0 (f]$ a position 9 a liquor h\se1 b ,i w\ld n take x1 because ,i 0 afraid ( x1 & ! v next day ,i obta9$ a situation ) ! ,f9z] ,bro!rs4 ,i w5t to a m9i/] & made x ! subject ( pray] z to :e!r ,i %\ld accept ! situation2 & f9ally decid$ to decl9e x1 & ! next day ,i got a situation t ,i _h fill$ 9 ye>s gone by1 ) ,f9z] ,bro!rs 9 ?is city4 ,x is n[ ! height ( my ambition to h ! opportunity to conv9ce ! p :o 7 & are my fri5ds 9 ,l\isville t !re is some?+ 9 me1 & by ! grace ( ,god ,i am no long] ! failure ,i 04 ,illu/ration3 ,j4 ,t4 ,,hock]4 ,,james ,,?ompson ,,hock]4 ,i 0 born 9 ,%elby c\nty1 ,k5tucky1 9 #ahcg1 & no man _h bett] advantages = be+ a ,*ri/ian or becom+ "o ?an ,i _h4 ,i _h a pi\s "m & fa!r1 & all ! influ5ces ( my home 7 ( t "*4 ,my fa!r & "m 7 bo? memb]s ( ! ,bapti/ *ur*1 & ,i recollect t !y us$ to h me g to ,sunday-s*ool1 b ,i ?9k n[ ,i w5t !re because !y ask$ me to g4 ,?9k+ ov] my condition1 ,i did n h any o!r inc5tive at t "t ?an to obey my "m's reque/4 ,at ab\t ! age ( fifte5 ,i left my home1 & x seems to me n[ :5 ,i did d s ,i left beh9d me all good impulses & all good feel+1 & any religi\s incl9ation ,i might h _h seem$ to leave me :5 ,i /epp$ ov] ! ?re%old2 & ,i ?9k ! devil jo9$ me !n & told me he w\ld keep me company all ! re/ ( my life1 & he did d x pretty closely = ?irty ye>s4 ,i d n suppose t he _h a bett] s]vant1 or "o :o did 8 behe/s m fai?fully ?an ,i4 ,:e!r ,i inh]it$ ! appetite = dr9k has be5 a "q ) me4 ,on bo? sides ( my h\se--! ,old ,virg9ia /ock--,i _h sev]al relatives :o drank to excess2 & x seems to me t ! appetite mu/ h pass$ ?r\gh our family to me4 ,i rememb] ! fir/ dr9k ,i ev] took 9 my life2 x 0 :isky1 & ,i lik$ x4 ,mo/ p don't l ! fir/ dr9k4 ,:5 ,i came to ?is city ,i w5t into bus9ess z a cl]k4 ,! devil & ,i dropp$ into company z hail fell[s well met4 ,he p]suad$ me to ?9k x 0 prop] = "y m5 to take a dr9k be=e call+ on _! lady fri5ds4 ,he prompt$ me to g 9 ) ! boys4 ,?is is ! "r way = y to d1 he w\ld say1 ,i am y\r fri5d4 ,i _h ! usual compunctions ( consci5ce t ! "y man feels :5 he goes into b>-rooms4 ,i took w9e at fir/1 b ! devil said3 ,t is n ! ?+2 :isky is bett]4 ,i obey$ him2 ,i took :isky1 until :isky pretty ne>ly took me =ev]4 ,along 9 #ahga--,m>*1 #ahga--;,i 0 work+ at a clo?+ h\se1 & ,i m>ri$ a lady :o 0 ?or\ghly conv]sant ) all my habits2 :o knew t ! habit = dr9k _h fa/5$ itself on me2 b :o1 ) a woman's fai?ful1 tru/+ he>t1 m>ri$ me1 hop+1 z !y g5]ally d1 t h] influ5ce might re=m me4 ,p]haps = a ye> or s ! devil & ,i r sep>at$1 b he _h me 9 sight all ! :ile4 ,?is cont9u$ = six or sev5 mon?s1 until1 on "o occasion1 ,i w5t out to a fi%+ p>ty4 ,we c>ri$ two or ?ree gallons ( :isky1 & two or ?ree p\nds ( solid food4 ,i w5t fi%+ ) two or ?ree p]sonal acqua9tances1 :o prevail$ on me to indulge ) !m 9 dr9k+1 & f ?is "t =w>d1 until ab\t "o ye> ago1 ,i 0 z fully devot$ to my old ways z ev]4 ,! appetite = dr9k 0 on me1 & dragg$ me d[n day by day1 deep] & deep] into ! mire2 & /ill1 ?r\gh all ?is1 my wife's loyal he>t nev] falt]$1 unwav]+ z %e 0 9 h] tru/ 9 me1 t ,i w\ld yet re=m4 ,%e /ill1 :5 o!rs fail$ me1 rema9$ my fai?ful fri5d4 ,my wife 0 =c$1 h[ev]1 by my conduct1 to return to h] "m's home1 because1 in/ead ( support+ h]1 ,i 0 sp5d+ all my e>n+s = :isky & 9 debau*]y ( o!r k9ds4 ,i %all h to g back a little 9 my /ory4 ,ab\t eight ye>s ago ,i 0 work+ 9 a clo?+ h\se at ! corn] ( ,?ird & ,m>ket /reets4 ,i notic$ across ! /reet1 "o morn+1 a man :om ,i knew sett+ out on ! sidewalk a lot ( vegetables1 apples1 etc4 ,i look$ at him1 & recogniz$ him z ,/eve ,holcombe1 a man :o _h rec5tly re=m$ 8 way ( liv+1 & ab&on$ 8 old life4 ,9 ! meantime1 ,i _h become an infidel1 ,i _h begun to d\bt ! div9ity ( ,*ri/1 & ev5 d\bt$ t !re 0 a ,god4 ,i read all ( ,+]soll's books1 & w5t back & read ,pa9e's essay on ,reason & ,common ,s5se4 ,i 0 ?or\ghly =tifi$ ) all ! infidel batt]ies t ,i c\ld br+ to be> on ,*ri/ian p4 ,z soon z ,i laid eyes on ,bro!r ,holcombe ,i />t$ across ! /reet & op5$ on him2 & ,i kept ?is up = mon?s4 ,i =tifi$ myself ) a c\ple ( dr9ks1 s z to be v brave1 & w5t ov] & tackl$ him regul>ly e morn+4 ,at la/1 ,i /ood & wat*$ him "o morn+4 ,i reason$ ?is way3 ,!re is a man ,i h kn[n = tw5ty-five ye>s4 ,i "k ( no man :o 0 m ?or\ghly /eep$ 9 wick$ness1 :o 0 a m p]si/5t s9n]1 & ,i h tri$ to batt] him d[n ) my infidel batt]ies = mon?s1 & he is z solid z a /one wall2 & all ?is l$ me to ?9k t !re 0 some?+ 9 ! religion ( ,jesus ,*ri/2 &1 ?9k+ ?is way1 ,i r refra9$ f my attacks ^u him & 8 position2 b ,i (t5 ?\ght ( him aft]w>d1 & ! ?\ght occurr$ to me1 !re mu/ be some?+ 9 ?is ?+1 = no p[] liv+1 or any?+ t ,i "k (1 c\ld su/a9 t man 9 8 position4 ,x mu/ be some?+ beyond human4 ,! #bj? day ( la/ ,april ,i 0 on a protract$ debau*2 _h be5 = ?ree weeks4 ,my bra9 0 ?or\ghly /unn$ ) ! effects ( ! liquor ,i _h drunk4 ,i 0 sitt+ 9 a b>-room at sev5 o'clock 9 ! ev5+1 z f> z my memory n[ s]ves me1 & ,i appe>$ to see ! face ( my wife & *ild2 & !n "o ( my boon companions said1 ,jo9 u 9 a dr9k4 ,j !n ,i c\ld no m h tak5 t dr9k ?an ,i c\ld h trans=m$ myself into an angel ( light4 ,at t mom5t ,i ?\ght "s imp5d+ calamity t nei!r ,i nor any human p[] c\ld av]t 0 ab\t to cru% me4 ,! next ?+ t came into my m9d 0 t ,i mu/ see ,mr4 ,holcombe2 & ,i w5t out ( t saloon into ! night1 sc>cely kn[+ :at ,i did1 feel+ t "s t]rible accid5t 0 go+ to happ52 b /ill ?is impulse mov$ me to g to ! man ,i _h f\ght s long & s p]si/5tly4 ,i happ5$ to f9d him be=e ! old ,mission1 on ,jeff]son /reet1 ne> ,fif?4 ,he seem$ to ?9k t ,i _h n[ "s o!r object 9 view ?an to attack him z =m]ly1 because1 ! fir/ "t 9 all my c>e]1 he 0 ! only man :o did rea* out 8 h& & said1 ,god bless y1 my bro!r4 ,i said3 ,i want to talk to y2 ,i want y to pray = me4 ,he said1 ,god bless y1 ,i am ! happie/ man to meet y t ,i "k (4 ,he ask$ me to walk d[n to ! ,mission4 ,! s]vices 7 ab\t to comm5ce4 ,i /ay$ ) him t ev5+4 ,9 ! morn+ he made a special pray] = me2 & dur+ all my w&]+s1 ,i _h felt t1 p]haps1 ! pray]s ( my "m & fa!r w\ld1 9 ! end1 rea* ! ?rone ( grace2 & ,i _h nev] lo/ my fai? 9 ! efficacy ( pray]4 ,:5 he pray$ = me1 ,i felt my "m's h& on my head & he>d h] say+1 ,god bless & keep my boy4 ,:5 ,i left him he said1 ,won't y g to y\r room to-night & pray8 ,i _h no room4 ,he loan$ me ! money to get a room4 ,i w5t to ! hotel & procur$ lodg+4 ,he said to me1 ,say any pray] y ?9k (4 ,! only pray] ,i c\ld recall 0 "o ,i _h he>d 9 my *ildhood1 ,"l1 h m]cy ^u me1 a s9n]6 ,:5 ,i made t pray] be=e ! ,*ri/ian's ,god1 ,i did x ) fe> & trembl+1 = x seem$ pr(anity = a wret* l me1 :o _h defi$ ,god's laws1 to pro/rate himself at ,8 feet & ask ! ,*ri/ian's ,god to h m]cy on him2 b ,i kept up t pray] 9 my weak1 brok5 way4 ,& to-day1 hav+ tri$ ?is life "o ye>1 y don't "k ( a man happi] ?an ,i am4 ,my wife1 no long] brok5-he>t$ z 9 ^? ye>s ( d>kness & sorr[1 n[ daily bids me welcome to our happy home4 ,& we recognize toge!r t no?+ b ?is religion ( ,jesus ,*ri/ c\ld h br\ght ?is ab\t4 ,i "k1 f ! exp]i5ces ,i h _h1 t ,god has =giv5 me1 ! s9n]4 ,i _h f a *ild be5 ! mo/ invet]ate swe>]4 ,s9ce my conv]sion ,i h n sworn an oa?2 ,i nev] h tak5 a drop ( be] or any?+ t might intoxicate me1 & ,i h nev] _h a return ( ! appetite4 ,& ,i hope1 by ,god's m]cy1 t :5 ! la/ call %all come ,i %all be f\nd fight+ = ,god2 & ,i feel ,i want to fall ) my back to ! field & my feet to ! foe4 ,imm$iately aft] my conv]sion ,i atta*$ myself to ! ,fif? & ,walnut-/reet *ur*2 & if y inquire ( ^? :o "k me1 !y w tell y t1 s9ce ,i /epp$ out ( ! old life into ?is1 ,i h walk$ consi/5tly4 ,i h told y a true /ory4 ,i c ?9k ( no m to say4 ,i may add1 h[ev]1 t s9ce ,i h come into ?is new life1 "u ,god's m]cy1 ,i h be5 ! humble in/rum5t ( br++ into ! light ?ree ( my acqua9tances1 ( ^: conv]sion ,i "k p]sonally4 ,i 0 ! only w&]+1 wayw>d1 prodigal son 9 my fa!r's family2 & !re is probably n n[ a happi] h\sehold 9 ! ,/ate4 ,,note4--,mr4 ,hock] is at pres5t engag$ 9 bus9ess 9 "o ( ! l>ge clo?+ h\ses ( ,l\isville4 ,illu/ration3 ,s4 ,p4 ,,dalton4 ,,samuel ,p4 ,,dalton4 ,i 0 born 9 ,%elbyville1 ,t5n41 ,janu>y #bj1 #ahdi1 & am1 !re=e1 ?irty-n9e ye>s ( age4 ,my fa!r & "m 7 bo? memb]s ( ! *ur*2 & !y tri$ to br+ me up z a ,*ri/ian4 ,i w5t to ,sunday-s*ool & *ur* almo/ all my life4 ,my fa!r has be5 dead tw5ty odd ye>s4 ,my "m is /ill liv+4 ,z ,i say1 ,i 0 br\ght up a ,*ri/ian1 & ,i 0 conv]t$ :5 ,i 0 ab\t sev5te5 ye>s ( age1 :ile a boy cl]k+ 9 a bricky>d alone4 ,i 0 lic5s$ soon aft]w>d to exhort 9 ! ,me?odi/ *ur*4 ,aft] t ,i m>ri$2 ,i remov$ to ,paducah1 ,ky41 & ,i 0 a memb] ( ! *ur* !re = sev]al ye>s4 ,aft] t ,i lo/ my wife1 broke up h\sekeep+ & w5t to travel+4 ,i travel$ a:ile1 & !n mov$ to ,l\isville4 ,i liv$ "h sev5 ye>s4 ,9 ! meantime1 ,i became indiff]5t to ,*ri/ianity & =m$ ! habit ( mod]ate dr9k+2 ,i 0 a mod]ate dr9k] = a c\ple ( ye>s1 & gradually ,i drift$ f>!r & f>!r away till at la/ ,i came to believe 9 ,+]soll's tea*+s4 ,i =m$ ?is idea1 t ! _w 0 made to enjoy1 & t we _h a "r to enjoy x 9 any way we wi%$4 ,i nev] w\ld g to *ur* & ,i w\ld avoid meet+ any ( my *ur* fri5ds z mu* z possible4 ,i became v unhappy & mis]able 9 my irreligi\s life1 & f\nd t s]v+ ! devil 0 h>d4 ,"o day :ile 9 ?is unhappy condition my att5tion 0 call$ to a cr[d ( p on ,jeff]son /reet1 ne> ! c\r?\se4 ,go+ ov] to satisfy my curiosity1 ,i f\nd !y 7 a ,*ri/ian b& f ! ,holcombe ,mission prea*+ ! ,gospel4 ,( c\rse1 ,i w\ld n g to *ur*1 & :5 ,i w5t ov] !re to see :at !y 7 do+1 ,i look$ ^u !m z s _m cranks2 b !re 0 "o pray] t t\*$ my he>t4 ,x 0 ?is3 ,oh ,"l1 if !re are any p]sons 9 ?is audi5ce :o are mis]able or unhappy on acc\nt ( _! s9s1 ,i pray ,!e to give !m no peace until !y give _! he>ts to ,god4 ,& ,god answ]$ ! pray] 9 my case4 ,i _h no peace until ,i gave my he>t to ,god & r5ew$ my v[s to ! *ur*4 ,aft] he>+ ?is pray] ,i w5t home v mis]able & unhappy1 & f\ght ! feel+ = six mon?s aft]w>d--tri$ to drive x away by dr9k+2 b c\ld n d s4 ,f9ally "o night ab\t midnight1 9 my room1 ,i gave my he>t to ,god & made new v[s4 ,i 0 aga9 br\ght back to ,god on ! #ae? ( ,octob]1 #ahhb4 ,!n ,i w5t to see ,bro!r ,morris1 pa/or ( ! ,fif? & ,walnut-/reet ,me?odi/ *ur*1 & told him :at ,i _h done4 ,( c\rse1 he met me ) op5 arms1 & invit$ me to ! *ur*1 & on ! foll[+ ,sunday ,i jo9$ ! ,me?odi/ *ur*4 ,directly aft]w>d ,mr4 ,morris introduc$ me to ,bro!r ,holcombe4 ,he said3 ,bro!r ,dalton1 "h is a man y ought to "k & be )4 ,8 ,mission is ! place = y to d ,*ri/ian "w4 ,he saw1 ,i suppose1 t ,i ought to be do+ "s good1 & he want$ me "r !re4 ,i w5t1 !n1 to ,bro!r ,holcombe's ,mission1 & rema9$ ) him = ab\t two ye>s1 work+ !re almo/ e night = ^! two ye>s1 keep+ door1 & do+1 to ! be/ ( my ability1 all ! good ,i c\ld4 ,i c say t my connection ) ! ,mission1 ,i h no d\bt1 has _h all to d ) /r5g!n+ me 9 ! ,*ri/ian life & lead+ me into usefulness1 giv+ me /r5g? & en]gy to engage 9 sav+ o!rs1 & confirm+ myself 9 ,*ri/ian "*4 ,i h witness$ "s ( ! mo/ rem>kable conv]sions at ,holcombe's ,mission t ,i ?9k ev] 7 kn[n any:]e1 & ,i reg>d ,holcombe z "o ( ! mo/ rem>kable m5 on e>? = mission "w4 ,x seems t he c use m means to put m5 to ?9k+ ?an any o!r man t ,i "k (4 ,i 0 always fond ( go+ to ! !at]4 ,aft] ,i _h become a ,*ri/ian1 ,i _h an idea t ,i c\ld /ill cont9ue go+ to !at]s1 & s /at$ to ,bro!r ,holcombe & ,bro!r ,alex&]4 ,!y simply said ?is3 ,bro!r ,dalton1 if y get ! love ( ,god 9 y\r he>t y w f9d a great deal m pleasure 9 ,god's s]vice ?an y w 9 att5d+ !at]s2 & f my own exp]i5ce ,i h f\nd x true4 ,i h no desire to g to !at]s2 my own pleasure is 9 ,*ri/ian "w2 & ,i d n ?9k a man c make a practice ( att5d+ !at]s regul>ly & ex]t ! same influ5ce = ! salvation ( o!rs z if he did n att5d4 ,i believe z firmly z ,i d any?+1 t :5 ,i 0 a boy1 ,god call$ me to "s k9d ( ,*ri/ian "w2 & ,i 0 ! mo/ mis]able man 9 ! _w :5 ,i lo/ my religion4 ,aft] meet+ ) ,bro!r ,holcombe1 he seem$ to be a great wall ( protection to me--& he does yet4 ,he has infus$ into my life m ,*ri/ian zeal ?an ,i ev] _h be=e4 ,i am ( a temp]am5t t is easily l$ (f--easily influ5c$2 & ,i feel t ,god1 9 ,8 wisdom1 leads me into ,*ri/ian "w 9 ord] to save my own s\l z well z o!rs4 ,s9ce ,i h be5 away f ,l\isville1 9 ,clevel&1 ,ohio1 9 bus9ess1 ,i ?9k !re has n be5 a day or night b :at ,i h ?\ght ( ,bro!r ,holcombe & ! ,mission4 ,x seems to h su* an ev]la/+ effect on me1 t at all times ,i feel a re/ra9+ influ5ce :i* comes out f t ,mission4 ,if at any "t ,i am tempt$ to become disc\rag$1 ! remembrance ( him & ! mission "w t he is engag$ 91 seems to be a protection1 some?+ t upholds me 9 my ,*ri/ian fai?2 & ,i h le>n$ to love ,bro!r ,holcombe z ,i nev] lov$ any man on e>? :o 0 no k9 to me4 ,he is a man :om ,i h wat*$ v closely1 & und]/& ?or\ghly2 & believe he is "o ( ! mo/ hone/1 e>ne/ & upright ,*ri/ian m5 t ,i ev] met 9 all my life1 & "o :o w d m1 & endure m1 to lead a man to ,*ri/ ?an any "o ,i ev] knew4 ,! result ( t ,*ri/ian exp]i5ce :i* ,i _h :ile associat$ ) ,bro!r ,holcombe has be5 ! means ( my seek+ an opportunity = ,*ri/ian "w 9 ! city ( ,clevel&1 ,ohio1 :]e ,i am n[ resid+4 ,i jo9$ ! ,frankl9-av5ue ,me?odi/ *ur*1 ( ,clevel&1 a gr& body ( ,*ri/ians1 too1 ab\t #fej memb]s2 & x seem$ t ! ,"l _h op5$ ! way into ?is *ur* to h>ness me into ,*ri/ian "w !re4 ,be+ a man f ! ,s\?1 ,i h>dly expect$ !m to receive me z cordially z !y did2 b x seem$ t1 aft] wat*+ me1 & kn[+ me1 :5 ,i 0 n expect+ x1 ,i 0 elect$ "o ( ! /ew>ds ( t *ur* a v %ort "t aft] jo9+ x2 & ,i h be5 put on diff]5t committees1 & h be5 treat$ z well z a ,*ri/ian g5tleman c\ld possibly desire to be treat$1 & ,i h le>n$ to love !m4 ,my aim & object 9 life n[ is to d all ! good ,i possibly c 9 ?is new field ( labor4 ,! ,"l has be5 v good to me s9ce ,i re5t]$ ,8 s]vice1 & ,i h f\nd complete happ9ess & cont5tm5t 9 ?is ,*ri/ian life1 & no man on e>? is happi] ?an ,i :5 ,i am do+ ,*ri/ian "w1 & ,i am q unhappy :5 ,i am n1 be+ fully conv9c$ t ! ,"l has a ,*ri/ian "w ( "s k9d = me to engage 91 & always be+ ble/ 9 ! lea/ ef=t ,i make = ! salvation ( o!rs4 ,god has prosp]$ me 9 bus9ess1 too4 ,i h be5 v successful 9 my bus9ess life1 n gett+ ri*1 b mak+ a good1 hone/ liv+1 hav+ ! confid5ce & respect ( my employ]s1 & ! full confid5ce ( ^? :o "w = me4 ,i h endeavor$1 to ! be/ ( my ability1 to use e means )9 my p[] to ex]t z good an influ5ce ov] ! m5 9 my employ z ,i possibly c "u ! circum/ances4 ,i correspond ) ,bro!r ,holcombe regul>ly1 & h = ! la/ ?ree ye>s1 & ,i v (t5 use 8 lett]s 9 endeavor+ to br+ o!rs to ,*ri/2 & frequ5tly 9 my talks & ,*ri/ian "w ,i take a great pride 9 ref]r+ to ! ,mission 9 ,l\isville1 & believe !re has be5 "s good done 9 simply tell+ ( ^! rem>kable conv]sions t ,i h witness$ !re1 conv9c+ me t ! ,mission is n only ex]t+ a good influ5ce 9 ! city ( ,l\isville1 b is be+ felt all ov] ?is c\ntry4 ,aft] be+ away a little ov] ?ree ye>s1 ,i return$ to ,k5tucky on a visit to my "m & family 9 ,paducah1 & also to ,bro!r ,holcombe & my fri5ds 9 ,l\isville1 & /opp$ ) ,bro!r ,holcombe4 ,( c\rse1 he receiv$ me ) op5 arms & a he>ty welcome1 & ,i _h ! pleasure ( meet+ _m ( ^? m5 :om ,i _h kn[n :5 !y 7 9 _! s9ful lives1 b\nd by ! p[] ( /rong dr9k1 & x did my he>t good to look into _! happy1 %9+ faces1 sob] z !y are1 & active 9 bus9ess1 & engag$ 9 ,*ri/ian "w1 !reby receiv+ new /r5g? & /rong] fai? 9 ! ,bless$ ,gospel ( ,*ri/4 ,i am fully p]suad$ !re is no o!r p[] "u heav5 t w\ld save m5 f ^! t]rible habits except ! religion ( ! ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,com+ into ! pres5ce ( ,bro!r ,holcombe seem$ to h a peculi> effect ^u me4 ,x seem$ t ,i receiv$ a new baptism ( ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,i d n "k :at x is2 ,i "k t ,god's bless+ is j z ri* & preci\s 9 ,clevel& z x is 9 ,l\isville1 b hav+ be5 associat$ ) ,bro!r ,holcombe 9 ?is ,*ri/ian "w1 & witness+ su* wond]ful conv]sions1 & ,god's bless+s hav+ be5 be/[$ ^u u s ri*ly1 x seems t ! place is preci\s to my s\l1 & ! remembrance ( ^? ?+s s *e]s my he>t t x gives me new /r5g? & new zeal1 & ,i nev] c\ld1 "u any circum/ances1 9 my future life1 d\bt ! reality ( ! ,*ri/ian religion4 ,,colonel ,,moses ,,gibson4 ,my bir?place 0 ,b[l+ ,gre51 ,rappahannock c\nty1 ,virg9ia4 ,i 0 born ,may #g1 #ahcg4 ,my ance/ors 7 ,quak]s1 & my gr&fa!r a ,hicksite ,quak]4 ,he m>ri$ a ,me?odi/1 & 01 consequ5tly1 turn$ out ( ! *ur*4 ,! family orig9ally came f ! nor? ( ,irel&1 opposite ,glasg[2 non-con=mi/s4 ,!y came to ?is c\ntry ab\t ! "t ,p5n did1 & got ov] into ,l\don c\nty1 ,virg9ia4 ,on my "m's side ,i am desc5d$ f ,na?aniel ,p5dleton1 :o is a bro!r ( ,edmund ,p5dleton1 & aid-de-camp ( ,g5]al ,gre5 dur+ ! ,revolution>y w>4 ,on bo? sides a consid]able numb] ( ! m5 7 9 bo? legal & lit]>y pursuits4 ,my "m 0 rais$ 9 ! ,presbyt]ian *ur*--jo9$ ! ,presbyt]ian *ur*4 ,i 0 baptiz$ by ! ,rev4 ,dr4 ,foot1 "o ( ! corn]-/ones ( ! old s*ool *ur*4 ,my fa!r 0 nev] a memb] ( any *ur* until v late 9 life4 ,my "m _h me baptiz$ by ! ,rev4 ,dr4 ,foot :5 ,i 0 six ye>s old4 ,i 0 always1 z a boy1 religi\sly incl9$2 & nev] c>$ = ^? enjoym5ts & pleasures t boys indulge 9 s mu*1 l play+ ball1 hunt+ & fi%+1 toboggan+1 coa/+ & all su* k9d ( sport4 ,i 0 m ( a h\se boy4 ,i lik$ to /ay at home & read1 & 0 v affectionate 9 my disposition4 ,v e>ly 9 life ,i />t$ out 9 ! _w1 & :5 ,i 0 f\rte5 ye>s old ,i 0 a /ore boy2 & ev5 ) all t1 my e>ly tra9+1 to a c]ta9 ext5t1 kept me out ( bad company1 al?\gh ,i slept 9 ! /ore1 & 0 really "u no re/ra9t f ! "t ,i 0 ab\t f\rte54 ,i g5]ally1 :5 ,i f\nd ,i 0 too f> gone1 pull$ up /akes & w5t some:]e else2 & 9 t way ,i grew up4 ,i v r>ely fail$ to g to *ur* twice e ,sunday2 & ,i look$ ^u religion m z a pleasure & a matt] ( pride = ! respectability ( x4 ,i lik$ ! *ur*1 ev5 aft] ,i grew up to be a man4 ,b dur+ ! latt] "p ( ! w>1 ,i became impress$4 ,i believe x 0 9 ,octob]1 #ahfd1 ,i pr(ess$ religion 9 a little *ur* 9 ,new ,m>ket1 ,virg9ia2 & aft] ! w>1 ,i w5t to ,baltimore1 & unit$ myself !re ) ! ,episcopal *ur*4 ,i nev] 0 confirm$1 h[ev]1 until "s "t 9 #ahfh1 "h 9 ,calv>y *ur* 9 ,l\isville4 ,b ,i always consid]$ myself a memb] ( ! *ur*1 w5t to ,sunday-s*ool1 & att5d$ to my duties v p>ticul>ly4 ,i nev] drank any?+1 & nev] kept bad company4 ,my association 0 always ! mo/ ref9$1 pr9cipally t ( ladies4 ,i 0 fond ( society1 p>ties1 !at]s & ?+s ( t k9d1 :i* our *ur* nev] object$ to v p>ticul>ly1 b ,i kept myself 9 b\nds4 ,x 0 only ab\t #ahgd or #ahge t ,i became associat$ ) "s g5tlem5 "h :o 7 v le>n$1 & :o 7 v e>ne/ m52 & we got into ! /udy ( ! ,bible 9 se>* ( tru?4 ,we got all ! books ( mod]n ?\ght on ! subject t we c\ld4 ,we conv]s$ toge!r & talk$ toge!r a great deal4 ,we got all ! mod]n au?ors1 & /udi$ !m v ?or\ghly2 & /udi$ s mu*1 t we f9ally /udi$ ourselves into infidelity4 ,we /udi$ ,drap]1 ,max ,mull]1 ,l$y>d1 ,bi%op ,col5zo & ,judge ,/range4 ,judge ,/range's 0 ! mo/ p[]ful book1 to me1 ( any4 ,x 0 a ref]5ce to ! ,old ,te/am5t leg5ds & ! miracles ( ! ,new4 ,i gradually by ! association1 & by read+ ^! mod]n treatises on !ology1 etc41 drift$ into t ?\ghtful infidelity1 :i* is ! wor/ sort 9 ! _w1 because ,i _h a great respect = religion1 b did n believe x4 ,i believ$ 9 a ,god1 b c\ld n consi/5tly believe t he 0 ! ,god ( ! ,bible1 or t ! ,bible itself c\ld be an inspir$ book1 because s mu* ( x 0 inconsi/5t ) dem&s ( human reason4 ,foll[+ ^! convictions1 ,i gradually drift$ into ! mo/ complete infidelity t a man ev] did on e>?4 ,i did n believe any?+1 /ill ,i did n attempt 9 any way to h my associates & fri5ds believe t ,i 0 an infidel4 ,i nev] boa/$ ( x1 ,i nev] made light ( religion4 ,i cont9u$ to g to *ur*1 cont9u$ to keep 9 ! *ur*2 & :5 ,+]soll 0 "h ,i w\ld n g to he> him4 ,i 0 satisfi$ t ,+]soll's tea*+s 71 to a great ext5t1 :at ,i believ$2 b ,i did n l to he> a man get up & ridicule my "m's ,god2 & my answ] to ^? :o want$ me to g 0 t ,i w\ld n li/5 to any man :o tri$ to ridicule ! religion ( my "m4 ,ab\t #ahgh ,i comm5c$ dr9k+4 ,i 0 !n ab\t =ty-"o ye>s old4 ,i got to tak+ a dr9k "h & !re1 b d n suppose ,i took ov] a hundr$ dr9ks dur+ ! ye>4 ,9 #ahgi ,i got to dr9k+ a little m4 ,9 #ahhj ,i got to dr9k+ pretty h>d4 ,dur+ ! ye> #ahgi ,i took r>ely less ?an ?ree1 & v (t5 six to eight dr9ks1 a day1 & 9 #ahha ,i 0 a confirm$1 g5teel tippl]4 ,i r>ely took less ?an ?ree or m ?an ,i c\ld /&1 b 9 a g5teel way & 9 a g5teel saloon4 ,i sold out my bus9ess & travel$ sev5 or eight mon?s = pleasure1 & kept up ! same ?+ ev]y:]e4 ,i seldom gambl$4 ,i play$ pok] = tw5ty-five c5ts ante1 & bet on horse races4 ,i nev] 0 a pr(ane man except :5 ,i 0 intoxicat$2 !n ,i w\ld be a little pr(ane4 ,i always rememb]$ m ?an any?+ else ! e>ly tea*+s ( my "m2 !y clung to me4 ,i _h respect n only = ! *ur* b respect = ! m9i/ry & respect = ,*ri/ian p4 ,aft] ,i comm5c$ dr9k+ ,i w\ld h giv5 any?+ 9 ! _w if ,i c\ld h /opp$4 ,i w\ld get up 9 ! morn+ & ,i w\ld feel a lassitude--feel debilitat$4 ,i w\ld n c>e to eat any?+--a biscuit & a cup ( c(fee--& by elev5 o'clock t 0 all empti$1 & my /oma* w\ld crave some?+4 ,probably if ,i _h sat d[n at a re/aurant & made a good d9n] x w\ld h help$ me2 b x 0 s mu* easi] to get a toddy1 & t toddy did away ) ! crav+1 & probably 9 an h\r & a half ,i w\ld want ! same ?+1 &1 in/ead ( go+ to d9n]1 ,i w\ld take ano!r dr9k1 & ab\t ?ree o'clock ,i w\ld want ?is ton+ ( ! /oma* aga94 ,9 ! fall ( #ahhc ,i ?\ght ,i w\ld call a halt4 ,i quit dr9k+ 9 ,octob]1 #ahhc1 ( my own w1 & ,i did n dr9k a drop ( any?+ until ,july1 #ahhd2 & !n ,i got at x 9 ! same old way4 ,i got to tak+ a toddy a day1 & !n ,i got to tak+ two1 & = two mon?s ,i 0 tak+ a toddy be=e e meal2 & !n my /oma* got s ,i did n c>e to eat--,i took ! toddy )\t ! d9n]2 & 9 ! c\rse ( ! ye>--probably by ! fir/ ( ,octob]--,i _h got to dr9k+ all ! way f six dr9ks a day to ab\t a doz54 ,i kept t up until ,i got to be+ g5teelly intoxicat$--always g5teel1 b always go+ to b$ be+ pretty well intoxicat$4 ,:5 ,i got to b$1 ,i w\ld lie d[n & sleep2 & :5 ,i got up 9 ! morn+ ,i w\ld h a toddy4 ,ab\t ,octob] we sold out our bus9ess "h4 ,! w9t] 0 beg9n+1 & ,i _h no money4 ,i began to be a little reckless2 & ,i comm5c$ dr9k+ ! fir/ ( ,octob]1 & ,i 0 full until ! fir/ ( ,janu>y4 ,i d n ?9k f ! fir/ ( ,octob]1 #ahhd1 until ! fir/ ( ,janu>y1 #ahhg1 !re 0 a day t ,i did n take six dr9ks1 & g5]ally t5 or twelve--pretty /iff dr9ks1 too4 ,i g5]ally drank ab\t two ounces ( :isky4 ,x nev] affect$ my heal? at all4 ,x /imulat$ my m9d2 x made me bright--exce$+ly s--s mu* s t if !re 0 anybody ab\t ! b>-room ,i 0 ! c5t] ( attraction4 ,i c\ld disc\rse ^u any subject2 b ,i 0 v bright & vivaci\s4 ,i nev] 0 afraid ( any?+ on ! face ( ! e>?2 ,i guess !re nev] 0 a man m fe>less ?an ,i 0 :5 "u ! influ5ce ( :isky2 o!rwise1 ,i 0 v timid4 ,i kept t ?+ up1 & on ! fir/ ( ,janu>y ,i 0 walk+ d[n ! /reet4 ,i _h gone to b$ pretty sob] on ! night be=e2 & ,i got up on ! morn+ ( ! fir/ ( ,janu>y & dress$ myself up nicely1 int5d+ to g to *ur*4 ,i met a fri5d ( m9e1 :o said he 0 go+ ar\nd to ! (fice1 & ask$ me to g ) him4 ,i said ,i w\ld4 ,on ! way ar\nd !re he sugge/$ we %\ld h a p9t ( :isky4 ,i said1 ,i believe ,i w quit2 ,i am gett+ tir$ ( :isky4 ,well1 he said1 let u h a bottle anyway2 x is ! fir/ ( ,janu>y4 ,yes1 ,i said1 z x is ! fir/ ( ,janu>y4 ,we sat !re & drank t1 & s5t out & got ano!r p9t & drank t4 ,aft] t1 ,i w5t d[n to ,l\is ,rod]]'s & sat !re1 & "s g5tlem5 came 9 & !y got to ?r[+ dice = ! dr9ks1 & ,i 0 invit$ to jo9 !m1 & ,i did2 & ,i took six dr9ks !re ) !m4 ,! wea!r 0 cold2 ! pavem5t cov]$ ) ice4 ,z long z ,i /ay$ 9 ! h\se1 ! liquor did n affect me1 b z soon z ,i got out ( ! door1 ! cold com+ "r into contact ) x1 seem$ to ?r[ all ! undige/$ alcohol into my bra94 ,i w5t back to ?is fri5d ( m9e4 ,he 0 n !re4 ,i walk$ up ,m>ket /reet1 & w5t to my room & w5t to b$4 ,x 0 !re1 ,i suppose1 ,i ma%$ my nose & cut my face badly4 ,! s]vant girl came up /airs & f\nd me ly+ on ! floor4 ,%e w5t d[n & got help1 & !y ba!d my face1 & !y bo? toge!r put me to b$4 ,i _h be5 unconsci\s f ! mom5t ,i left ! b>-room & 0 s up to five o'clock ! next morn+4 ,!y put me to b$1 & ,i 0 totally unconsci\s until ,i woke up ! next morn+ at five o'clock4 ,x occurr$ to me t some?+ 0 ! matt]2 ,i felt ! w\nd on my face4 ,i got up & light$ ! c&le & look$ into ! glass1 & saw t my face 0 all bruis$ & bloody4 ,i said1 ,i suppose ,i ran aga9/ some?+ & ma%$ my face la/ night4 ,! next morn+ ,i he>d ?is s]vant girl 9 ! next room4 ,i he>d h] say+1 ,poor man1 poor man4 ,pretty soon %e came 9 & said1 ,:at 9 ! _w is ! matt] ) y8 ,h[ did y hurt y\r face8 ,%e !n told me ! condition !y _h f\nd me 92 & if !y _h n f\nd me ,i w\ld h froz5 to dea?4 ,i said1 ,if ?is ?+ is go+ to "w t way on me1 ,i mu/ call a halt4 ,i c\ld n eat any?+ b "s milk4 ,i lay 9 b$ all day4 ,i c\ld n pray4 ,i _h got into t frame ( m9d ,i c\ld n pray4 ,i did n believe 9 ! efficacy ( pray]4 ,i _h lo/ sight ( ,*ri/ z ,god1 b ,i _h great respect = ,*ri/ z a tea*]4 ,i lay !re all t day1 ,monday4 ,i 0 !n ?or\ghly sob]2 & ,i said1 ,i w j see if !re is any efficacy 9 religion1 anyh[4 ,i believe ,i w try x4 ,i _h gott5 up & dress$ myself4 ,i _h n eat5 any breakfa/4 ,i drank "s c(fee4 ,n hav+ tak5 any?+ to eat1 ,i felt pretty weak1 & ,i said1 ,i believe ,i w take a dr9k4 ,i w5t ar\nd to a fri5d ( m9e on ,fir/ /reet1 & he 0 n !re4 ,!n ,i walk$ ar\nd to a saloon on ,?ird /reet4 ,sev]al g5tlem5 7 !re t ,i us$ to dr9k )4 ,i /ood ar\nd !re = a:ile1 hop+ t "s "o w\ld ask me to take a dr9k1 b nobody ask$ me4 ,f9ally ,i came up "h to ,mr4 ,holcombe's & f\nd him "h1 & we got to talk+ ! matt] ov]4 ,i told him t ,i 0 tir$ ( ?is k9d ( life4 ,i want$ to take a pl$ge4 ,i d n give pl$ges to anybody to /op dr9k+4 ,he said !re 0 b "o rem$y--reliance ^u ,*ri/2 t ,*ri/ 0 all--,*ri/ & ! love ( ,god4 ,if ,i det]m9$ to live up to ! tea*+s ( ! ,bible1 if ,i 0 will+ ab\t x1 t he believ$ ,i w\ld be cur$4 ,well1 ,i told him t ,i ?\ght t my m9d 0 suffici5tly prep>$2 t ,i _h made up my m9d to quit if ,i possibly c\ld2 t if ! ,"l want$ to take me ! way ,i 01 ,i _h made up my m9d to believe2 t ,i _h n believ$ any?+ = a long "t1 & t if ,i did believe ,i w\ld h to take x by fai?1 & n by reason4 ,f9ally1 aft] talk+ x ov]1 ,mr4 ,holcombe pray$1 & aft] pray] ,i said ,i _h bett] g d[n to my bo>d+-h\se4 ,no1 he said1 y /ay ) me a:ile4 ,i said ,i c\ld n d t2 ,i _h to g d[n to my bo>d+-h\se4 ,he said1 ,no6 he ?\ght ,i _h bett] /ay a:ile2 t ,i c\ld /ay ) him j ! same1 z ,i 0 ar\nd !re2 t ,i might get out & get to dr9k+2 t ,i 0 n /rong en\gh4 ,i conclud$ ,i w\ld /ay ) him1 & ,i /ay$ ) him = ?ree weeks4 ,i w5t d[n /airs to ! ,mission meet+ t night1 & /ood up = pray]4 ,aft] ! pray]1 ,i felt a great deal bett]--9 fact1 ,i felt z mu* conv]t$ z ,i am n[4 ,s9ce !n1 ,i h _h no tr\ble4 ,i nev] _h made a pray] 9 public 9 my life2 ,i nev] _h talk$ religion 9 my life1 & ,i got up a week aft]w>d & prea*$ a s]mon an h\r long4 ,! second or ?ird night ,i made a pray]4 ,be=e t night ,i _h nev] pray$ 9 public4 ,! only pray] ,i w\ld say 01 ,our ,fa!r ,:o ,art ,9 ,heav54 ,i h nev] tak5 a dr9k s9ce !n1 & ,i d n n[ *ew tobacco4 ,i _h ei!r a cig> or a *ew ( tobacco 9 my m\? all ! "t dur+ ! la/ ye>4 ,f ! "t ,i 0 fifte5 ye>s old1 ,i us$ to smoke f ?ree to a doz5 cig>s a day4 ,my g5]al av]age ( cig>s 0 six a day4 ,i h n *ew$ tobacco1 ,i h n smok$ a cig>1 ,i h n tak5 a dr9k ( liquor s9ce ,janu>y4 ,a man talk+ to me ! o!r day said3 ,y h ! /ronge/ w p[] on e>?4 ,if ,i _h ! w p[] y h1 ,i c\ld d any?+ ,i want$4 ,i said1 ,i d n ?9k s4 ,i d n believe ,i ev] w\ld h /opp$ smok+ & *ew+ )\t ! *ange :i* has be5 produc$ 9 me ?r\gh fai? & pray]4 ,i w tell y :at broke me ( *ew+ tobacco4 ,x 0 ,monday t ,i came "h to ! ,mission1 ! #c;d ( ,janu>y1 & on ,tuesday night ,i pr(ess$ conv]sion4 ,w$nesday morn+ ,i w5t out to see ,mr4 ,m9neg]ode1 & _h my "n aga9 plac$ on ! *ur* record z a memb] ( ,calv>y *ur*4 ,! fir/ ,sunday 9 ! mon? 0 our communion1 & ,i 0 v anxi\s t ,i %\ld p]=m all ! obligations necess>y to fill out ! measure ( my conv]sion1 & to d x z soon z possible2 & ,i happ5$ to be d[n 9 ,cyrus ,"y's (fice1 & he told me t !y 7 go+ to h communion4 ,!y _h qu>t]ly meet+ at ! ,broadway ,me?odi/ *ur*4 ,dr4 ,brew] prea*$1 & !re ,i took my fir/ communion4 ,f !re ,i w5t ov] to ! h\se ( a fri5d ( m9e1 :o has s9ce di$1 nam$ ,lewis4 ,i took d9n] ) him1 & /ay$ !re until half-pa/ ?ree o'clock4 ,well1 ,i took a *ew ( tobacco go+ d[n ! /reet1 & :5 ,i _h j comm5c$ *ew+ x1 ,i said3 ,y are a pretty k9d ( a ,*ri/ian4 ,y h got y\r m\? full ( t /uff t a hog w\ld n eat1 & imm$iately aft] tak+ ! bread & w9e commemorative ( ! dea? ( ,*ri/4 ,x is n "r = a ,*ri/ian to take t aft] hav+ p>tak5 ( ^! emblems4 ,& ,i spit x out ( my m\?4 ,= two or ?ree days x bo!r$ me a great deal--mu* m ?an dr9k+4 ,i nev] _h a desire to take a dr9k s9ce t ,monday1 al?\gh ,i h be5 ask$ repeat$ly4 ,i 0 d[n at a hotel ) two or ?ree g5tlem5 ! o!r day1 & somebody got up & sugge/$ tak+ a dr9k4 ,i said1 ,no2 ,i h jo9$ ! *ur*2 ,i am a ,*ri/ian1 & ,i d n believe 9 ,*ri/ians or *ur* memb]s dr9k+4 ,%ortly aft] t !y (f]$ me a cig>1 :i* ,i refus$4 ,i h n[ *>ge ( a *apel1 & h prea*$ two s]mons up !re ?is week1 "o ,sunday night & "o ,?ursday night4 ,i prea*$ on ! ,prodigal ,son ! o!r night4 ,i h held sev5 or eight s]vices up !re4 ,i hold =? "h at ! ,mission "o night 9 ! week--t is ,tuesday night4 ,i nev] kill$ anybody2 h nev] won a ?\s& doll>s at c>ds2 & ,i nev] 0 9 ! gutt]4 ,i 0 a ref9$ tippl]4 ,i 0 a lead] ( society all ^! ye>s1 z ev]ybody :o kn[s me is aw>e4 ,i 0 prom95t 9 social life & prom95t 9 *ur* life be=e ,i 0 an infidel1 previ\s to #ahgd1 & a memb] ( ! ve/ry ( ,adv5t *ur* "h4 ,i kept up my acqua9tances4 ,all ! dr9k+ ,i did 0 ) ! tony m51 at ! high-typ$1 tony saloons4 ,i am n[ a communicant ( ,calv>y *ur*4 ,i am a lay read]1 &1 = ! pres5t1 h *>ge ( ,campbell-/reet *apel4 ,i g up !re two nights a week4 ,i 0 go+ up to ,campbell /reet1 ! o!r ev5+1 to hold s]vice & ,i met ,bi%op ,dudley1 :o 0 go+ up to ,tr9ity to confirm a class1 & he ask$ me :]e ,i 0 go+4 ,i told him ,i 0 go+ ov] to ,campbell /reet to hold s]vice4 ,he ask$ me :o did my s++4 ,i said ,i did all ! prea*+ & s++ myself4 ,! sum ( x is1 ,i felt t m9e 0 a bad case2 ,i _h be5 /ruggl+ = two ye>s & a half to rid myself ( ?is appetite1 by mak+ to myself all k9ds ( promises day aft] day1 b 0 unable to d x2 ,i said to myself1 ,m9e is a bad case--an aggravat$ case--& x ne$s h]oic treatm5t4 ,i c say ,i w quit dr9k+4 ,i c g & kneel d[n & feel v well ab\t x2 b ! "q is1 :e!r ,i w\ld n g back to ! same old way ( liv+2 & ,i reflect$ t ,i might be r5ew$ or reg5]at$--if ! ,"l creat$ me1 ,he c\ld re-create me--to ! man ,he _h made & creat$ 9 ,8 own image1 if he believ$1 ,he c\ld give back 8 manhood2 w\ld re-create him & give him a new bir?4 ,i felt t1 & felt t ,i mu/ make a public confession4 ,m9e 0 a bad case1 & !re 0 only "o way to cure me--a public confession be=e ,god & ! _w1 & a pray] = /r5g? to make me live up to t pr(ession--& :5 ,i made t pr(ession1 ,i felt reliev$4 ,i h _h m /r5g? s9ce !n4 ,i h n _h ! lea/ desire = liquor4 ,la/ night 0 ! fir/ "t ,i ev] dream$ ab\t dr9k+ s9ce2 & !n ,i dream$ t ,i want$ a lemonade v badly & w5t to ! saloon to get x2 & my consci5ce prick$ me ev5 9 my sleep = ! desire = a lemonade & go+ into a saloon to get x4 ,be=e1 ,i us$ to dream ab\t go+ into dr9k+ saloons4 ,in/ead ( hav+ a desire = a dr9k ( :isky1 ,i give y my ^w & honor1 x 0 nauseat+ to me4 ,t 0 n a qualm ( consci5ce1 b a physical s5sation4 ,x came :5 ,i pick$ up a glass t _h _h :isky 9 x4 ,i smell$ x1 & set x d[n4 ,&1 by ! grace ( ,god1 ,i am det]m9$ t ,i h drunk my la/ drop ( intoxicat+ liquor4 ,illu/ration3 ,,capta9 ,n4 ,b4 ,,peck4 ,,capta9 ,,b5 ,,peck4 ,i h _h r an ev5tful life2 b ,i don't "k t x w\ld be int]e/+ to ! public4 ,i c]ta9ly _h less reason to be a bad boy1 & worse man1 ?an almo/ anybody ev] _h4 ,i 0 surr\nd$ by ! v be/ ,*ri/ian influ5ces4 ,my fa!r 0 a prom95t m9i/] ( ! ,bapti/ d5om9ation 9 ?is ,/ate4 ,he di$1 ?\gh1 :5 ,i 0 q "y4 ,my "m's p _h be5 ,*ri/ian p v f> back4 ,! male memb]s on my fa!r's side 7 ,bapti/ m9i/]s z f> z ,i c\ld trace x4 ,i lo/ my fa!r :5 ,i 0 ab\t eight ye>s old4 ,my "m tri$ to raise me "r--taught me "r2 b we 7 liv+ out "h 9 a little t[n--,hodg5sville--& ,i 0 wild f ! />t4 ,i 0 n worse ?an any o!r boys1 b ,i 0 9 all sorts ( mis*ief4 ,i 0 look$ ^u z a bad boy1 & reg>d$ z no exception to ! g5]al rule1 t prea*]'s boys are worse ?an o!r boys4 ,:5 ab\t twelve ye>s old1 ,i jo9$ ! *ur* at a revival4 ,i believe ,i 0 truly conv]t$1 & = a %ort :ile ,i liv$ up to ! duties ( my *ur*2 b ,i soon neglect$ go+ to *ur*--fir/ ,i neglect$ go+ to pray]-meet+--& ,i got back s f> t ,i w\ld n be pick$ out z a ,*ri/ian by any means4 ,! w> came up :5 ,i 0 f\rte5 ye>s old1 & ,i w5t into x2 & ! fir/ night out ,i got to dr9k+ & play+ c>ds2 & ,i suppose ,i 0 kn[n z ! lead] 9 all ! mis*ief got up 9 ! brigade4 ,i 0 notori\s ?r\gh\t ! comm& z a reckless1 bad boy f ! beg9n+4 ,my "m _h be5 oppos$ to my go+ into ! army at all2 b1 if ,i 0 go+1 %e w\ld h pref]r$ my s]v+ on ! o!r side4 ,i nev] %all =get "o ?+ %e said to me at />t+4 ,:5 ! "t came to g1 ,i w\ld n h hesitat$ to back out if %e _h giv5 me any enc\ragem5t at all4 ,%e said1 ,my son1 y h det]m9$2 y h ca/ y\r lot ) ! ,s\?4 ,i _h r y w\ld d y\r duty & be a brave soldi]4 ,b %e cont9u$ to pray = me4 ,aft] ! w> ,i came back home1 & f\nd t our prop]ty 0 all gone4 ,my "m _h s5t me to ,georget[n college be=e ! w>1 & my idea 0 to educate myself = a lawy]4 ,:5 ,i came home ! prop]ty 0 dissipat$1 & ,i did n h en\gh to f9i% my education2 & ! "q 01 :at w\ld be ! be/ = me to d4 ,i came "h to ,l\isville & w5t to drumm+2 met ) ph5om5al success f ! />t2 w5t up & up2 0 hail fell[1 well met1 ) ev]ybody2 situations (f]$ me on e side4 ,b ,i cont9u$ to dr9k & play c>ds z ,i did 9 ! army1 & gambl$ all ! "t1 al?\gh n a pr(essional gambl]4 ,i play$ aga9/ ,holcombe's bank _m a "t4 ,i w5t f bad to worse4 ,i cont9u$ to dissipate & gamble2 & elev5 ye>s ago my heal? 0 v mu* %att]$ f my excesses1 & ,i became s\r$ ) myself & ev]ybody4 ,i 0 z mis]able z a man c\ld be1 9 t condition1 z a matt] ( c\rse2 & a g5tleman :o _h be5 a comrade 9 ! army ) me1 & _h tak5 a great deal ( int]e/ 9 me1 ,capta9 ,cross1 9 a conv]sation ) me1 insi/$ t ,i %\ld g ) him to ,texas1 :]e he 0 do+ a fl\ri%+ bus9ess4 ,i _h tri$1 "t & aga91 to re=m1 always 9 my own /r5g?1 & got fur!r away f ,god all ! "t4 ,i tri$ to believe t ,*ri/ 0 n ! ,son ( ,god2 t he 0 n inspir$2 ,i d5i$ ! div9ity ( ,*ri/1 al?\gh ,i nev] d5i$ t !re 0 a ,supreme ,rul]4 ,capta9 ,cross want$ me to g to ,texas1 ?9k+ t if ,i got away f ! surr\nd+s "h1 x w\ld help me4 ,accord+ly1 ,i w5t to ,texas ) him1 :]e ,i made pl5ty ( money4 ,b ,i soon fell into ! old ways1 & f\nd gambl+ h\ses z num]\s !re z !y are "h2 ,i f\nd dance-h\ses m accessible ?an ! *ur*es4 ,i l$ a reckless life2 & frequ5tly did n he> f my family & fri5ds = mon?s at a "t4 ,f9ally ,i drank until ,i drank myself into delirium trem5s2 tri$ to kill myself2 w5t & b\ght morph9e4 ,b =tunately = me1 !y 7 wat*+ me4 ,t 0 9 ,p>is1 ,texas4 ,i 0 9 b$ = two or ?ree weeks2 & :5 ,i got up f t1 ,i felt l ,i did n want to /ay 9 ,texas any long]4 ,i w5t to ,/4 ,l\is & w5t into bus9ess !re2 _h success z a salesman2 _h a big trade2 & ,i w5t !re ) a det]m9ation n to dr9k any m :isky2 b ,i 0 !re only a few days be=e ,i 0 dr9k+ & play+ c>ds--my old life1 9 fact4 ,f9ally ,i got into a difficulty ) a man1 %ot him & got %ot myself4 ,i got into a great deal ( tr\ble on acc\nt ( x4 ,x co/ me a great deal ( money & my "m a great deal ( sorr[4 ,"o "t ,i w5t to ,mexico to get out ( ! way1 :]e ,i l$ a reckless life2 w5t into ! army2 play$ c>ds & drank :isky4 ,i neglect$ bus9ess = :isky a great deal ( ! "t4 ,!n ,i came "h to ,l\isville1 & kept up ! same practice2 w5t to ,c9c9nati & did ! same ?+ !re4 ,i let up = a little :ile :5 ,i w5t to new places4 ,:5 ,i got back f ,/4 ,l\is1 ,i met ,/eve ,holcombe & %ook h&s ) him4 ,! fir/ ?+ he said to me 01 ,i h *ang$ my life4 ,i _h n he>d any?+ ( x4 ,i ask$ him :at he 0 do+4 ,he said he 0 s]v+ ! ,"l in/ead ( ! devil2 t he _h a little mission some:]e4 ,i did n pay any att5tion to x4 ,b "o ,sunday ,i 0 pass+ d[n ,jeff]son /reet1 & !re 0 a cr[d on ! c\r?\se /eps1 & ,i saw ,/eve talk+ to !m4 ,i li/5$ to him1 & aft] ! cr[d w5t away ,i ask$ him h[ he 0 gett+ along & he told me4 ,i kept on dr9k+1 h[ev]4 ,sometimes ,i _h a situation & sometimes ,i did n4 ,p did n want me2 !y did n "k :5 ,i w\ld be sob]4 ,if ,i got a situation1 x 0 9 ! busy season4 ,aft] ! busy season 0 ov]1 !y w\ld r$uce my sal>y & give me to und]/& !y want$ me to get a new place4 ,"o "t ,i 0 drunk = a week or t5 days1 & z ,i pass$ ,i he>d !m s++ 9 ! ,mission d[n /airs & w5t 94 ,i ?\ght t w\ld be a good place to re/4 ,i w5t back a night or two2 & "o night ,mr4 ,holcombe deliv]$ a p[]ful te/imony & m5tion$ "s circum/ances t _h occurr$ 9 8 life1 at "s ( :i* ,i _h be5 pres5t--,i don't "k t he _h p>ticul> ref]5ce to me4 ,i w5t back ! next night & w5t up = pray]4 ,i w5t aga9 sob]2 b ,i did n see my way cle>4 ,i w5t back & took a nip1 z he said4 ,i sank l[] & l[]2 b ,i /ill w5t to t ,mission4 ,some?+ impell$ me1 ,i "k n[ :at x 04 ,i got a situation1 & 0 travel+2 b :5ev] ,i got (f a trip ! _s ( ! ,"l impell$ me to g to t ,mission4 ,i talk$ ) ,/eve frequ5tly1 & promis$ him t ,i 0 go+ to try & re=m2 b ,i did n1 & t[>d ! la/1 9 fact1 ,i _h almo/ quit go+ to ! ,mission4 ,i said1 ,x is n = me1 x is = ^! o!r m54 ,i h gone too f>4 ,i w5t 9 !re 9 ,novemb]4 ,i 0 go+ away on a trip1 & ! next day ,i />t$4 ,i met a fri5d on ! /reet1 & he ask$ me = a qu>t]4 ,he want$ to get a dr9k & lun*4 ,i told him x 0 ab\t my "t to get a dr9k1 too1 & we w\ld g & get "o toge!r be=e ,i left4 ,i 0 tell+ him ab\t go+ to ! ,mission1 & he hoot$ at ! idea ( a man ( my s5se go+ to ! ,mission4 ,ab\t two o'clock 9 ! aft]noon ,i 0 go+ d[n ! /reet to take ! boat1 & ,i met ano!r fri5d1 & he c]ta9ly 0 ! wor/ look+ case ,i ev] saw4 ,i did n ?9k he w\ld live two weeks4 ,he 0 a physical wreck1 & almo/ a total m5tal wreck4 ,aft] talk+ to him = a few m9utes he ask$ me :]e ,i 0 go+4 ,i told him4 ,& ,i told him1 too1 ,i did n c>e :e!r ,i ev] got back or n4 ,i told him x w\ld be a relief to me if ,i nev] got back (f ( t trip4 ,i _h a family1 saw !m occasionally1 & s5t !m money :5 ,i c\ld2 b ,i nev] liv$ ) !m4 ,aft] talk+ ) him a little :ile1 ,i said my "t 0 up1 & ask$ him if he w\ld n g & take a p>t+ dr9k ) me4 ,we w5t into ! ,op]a ,h\se d[n !re & took a dr9k4 ,i nev] expect$ to see my fri5d alive aga91 ev5 if ,i got back f t trip myself4 ,t 0 ! #cj? day ( ,novemb]4 ,i got back "h ! #ah? day ( ,decemb]4 ,! mo/ ( ! night ( ! #ah? ,i sp5t d[n "h at ! ,gr& ,c5tral--made a night ( x4 ,! next morn+1 :5 ,i got up1 ! v fir/ man ,i saw ask$ me if ,i _h se5 a c]ta9 fri5d ( m9e4 ,i told him1 ,no4 ,he said3 ,y w\ld n "k him4 ,i said3 ,:at is ! matt] ) him8 ,he said3 ,he is re=m$2 he is a ,*ri/ian1 & he looks tw5ty ye>s y\ng] ?an y ev] saw him4 ,i said3 ,y are a li>4 ,he said3 ,i am n a li>4 ,y won't "k him4 ,he looks l a g5tleman4 ,i said3 ,x is pretty funny if he c look l a g5tleman 9 ?is %ort "t4 ,i _h n gone ano!r squ>e be=e "s "o ask$ me if ,i _h se5 ano!r fri5d ( m9e4 ,i said3 ,no4 ,well1 he said1 y ought to see him4 ,he has quit dr9k+1 & looks l he us$ to look4 ,i said ,:at is ! matt] ) him8 ,he said3 ,he has jo9$ ! *ur*4 ,i took a dr9k1 & ?\ght ab\t ?is ?+2 w5t d[n to ! /ore1 & knock$ ar\nd !re all day long1 ?9k+ ab\t ^? two m54 ,b "h ,i 01 drunk & wret*$ & try+ to get sob]1 b c\ld n4 ,somebody met me ab\t f\r o'clock 9 ! ev5+1 & ask$3 ,:]e are y go+8 ,i said3 ,i am go+ ar\nd "h to get a dr9k4 ,he said3 ,h[ are y go+ to dr9k :5 y\r p>tn]s h quit dr9k+8 ,i ask$ him :]e !y c\ld be f\nd2 t ,i want$ to take a look at !m4 ,he told me t ,i c\ld f9d !m at ! ,mission4 ,i conclud$ ,i w\ld come up to ! ,mission1 & did s1 pretty full2 &1 hone/ly1 ,i w\ld n h kn[n ei!r ( ^! m5 on ! /reet4 ,i nev] saw su* a trans=mation z 9 !m4 ,aft] ! s]vices 7 ov] !y came up & %ook h&s ) me1 & treat$ me z k9dly z !y us$ to d :5 we 7 dr9k+ toge!r4 ,& ,i made up my m9d if ,*ri/ c\ld save !m1 ,i want$ "s ( x = myself4 ,i came to ! ,mission1 & /ood up = pray]s all ! "t1 b came half drunk = f\r or five nights1 b /ill ) ! det]m9ation to h salvation if x 0 to be f\nd2 b ! m ,i came ! d>k] ! way grew4 ,i ?9k 7on ! #bi? ( ,decemb]7 ,mrs4 ,cl>k came & talk$ to me1 & ,mr4 ,atmore came & talk$ to me1 ,i 0 sob]--comp>atively s4 ,i told !m t ,i _h giv5 up all hope2 t ,i _h s9n$ away my day ( grace1 & !re 0 no hope = me4 ,!y *e]$ me1 & ,i promis$ !m ,i w\ld pray t night4 ,i w5t out ( ! ,mission & got bl9d1 /av+ drunk2 0 h>dly able to get up /airs to my b$ at elev5 o'clock1 at night4 ,i did x out ( despair4 ,! doctors _h told me be=e t unless ,i quit dr9k+ :isky ,i w\ld g dead4 ,i 0 tir$ ( life1 b afraid to commit suicide4 ,i conclud$ t ! soon] ,i di$1 ! bett]4 ,i got up at ?ree o'clock 9 ! morn+ to come d[n /airs & get a dr9k4 ,! b>keep] 0 abs5t f 8 b>1 & ,i conclud$ t ,i w\ld wa% myself be=e ,i took a dr9k4 ,i said to myself :ile ,i 0 wa%+3 ,y promis$ y\rself y w\ld n dr9k1 & ! v fir/ night y get drunk1 & get up 9 ! morn+ to take ano!r dr9k1 & if y take x y w be drunk be=e night4 ,i conclud$ ,i w\ld /op4 ,i took a seat by ! /ove1 & v soon ! b>keep] came back4 ,he look$ at me & said3 ,are y broke ?is morn+1 or too /+y to dr9k1 or :at is ! matt]8 ,he add$3 ,come on4 ,if y are too /+y to take a dr9k y\rself1 take "o ) me4 ,i 0 j dy+ = a dr9k4 ,i 0 %ak+--suff]+ physically & m5tally4 ,i got up two or ?ree times to g to t b> to take a dr9k1 b ,i argu$ to myself3 ,if y c n keep f tak+ a dr9k1 y _h bett] g up /airs & kill y\rself4 ,aft] a:ile ! boys comm5c$ dropp+ 91 &1 z 0 ! cu/om1 said3 ,come on1 ,peck1 & take a dr9k4 ,i told !m1 ,no2 ,i h quit4 ,i w5t ar\nd to ! ,mission t night1 & w5t up to ! front4 ,i _h a talk ) "s ,*ri/ian p !re ab\t ! matt]1 & talk$ ) "o ( my conv]t$ fri5ds4 ,he said !re 0 only "o way to d--to give myself to ,god4 ,i w5t to b$ imm$iately aft] ,i left4 ,i c\ld n sleep4 ,i cont9u$ to pray until some:]e along ab\t ?ree o'clock 9 ! morn+ ( ! #b;d ( ,janu>y2 & ! way 0 made cle> = me4 ,i don't "k t !re 0 any p>ticul> vision4 ,i made up my m9d t ,i w\ld g & make my arrangem5ts to jo9 ! *ur*1 & ask ,god's direction f t "t on1 & to lead ano!r life--lead a ,*ri/ian life z mu* z x is possible = a s9ful mortal l me to d4 ,i came up to ! ,mission t night1 & told ,si/] ,cl>k & ,bro!r ,holcombe t ,i 0 z happy z ,i c\ld be2 ,i _h f\nd :at ,i 0 seek+ =1 & ,i felt t ,i c\ld tru/ ,god4 ,! next ,w$nesday night ,i w5t d[n to ! ,f\r? & ,walnut-/reet ,bapti/ *ur*1 & put myself "u ! c>e ( ! *ur*4 ,s9ce t "t ,i h be5 lead+ a diff]5t life4 ,i am 9 p]fect peace & re/4 ,ev]y?+1 ( c\rse1 has n gone to suit me exactly2 b ,i always h be5 able to say3 ,i "k x is = ! be/4 ,my fai? gr[s /rong] & my future bright] day by day4 ,i ?9k ^! p :o h be5 moral & religi\s all ( _! lives c n enjoy religion l a h>d cu/om]1 z ,i 0--if !y d1 !y d n %[ x4 ,fri5ds & relatives :o _h =sak5 & avoid$ me came to me at once & upheld & enc\rag$ me4 ,bus9ess came to me )\t seek+ x4 ,i 0 enc\rag$ on e h&4 ,p t ,i ?\ght despis$ me1 ,i f\nd did n4 ,i _h e enc\ragem5t1 s f> z ?is life is conc]n$1 & ,i am1 to-day1 9 a bett] fix1 a long ways1 ?an ,i h be5 = ye>s4 ,my appetite = :isky has tr\bl$ me ?ree or f\r times s9ce ,i came to ,*ri/1 b all ,i h to d is to get d[n on my knees1 & ask = /r5g? to resi/ x4 ,& be=e ,i get ?r\gh pray+ ,i =get ab\t x4 ,i h confid5ce t ,god w keep me to ! end1 & my confid5ce gr[s /rong] e day4 ,?+s t 7 a great trial to me at fir/ are no long] s4 ,a v rem>kable ?+ 9 my case is1 t ! ?+ t ,i expect$ to give me ! mo/ tr\ble has giv5 me ! lea/4 ,i 0 c]ta9ly "o ( ! mo/ pr(ane m5 t ev] liv$1 & ,i 0 always afraid t ! s9 t ,i w\ld h to gu>d aga9/ mo/ w\ld be pr(anity4 ,b1 if ,i h ev] sworn an oa?1 x has be5 unconsci\sly1 & ,i d n h to ?9k ab\t x--,i d n h to gu>d aga9/ x2 x horrifies me to he> a man swe> n[4 ,i ?\ght ,i c\ld fight :isky easi] ?an ,i c\ld t4 ,/range to say1 x has n bo!r$ me 9 ! lea/1 b :isky has1 on ?ree or f\r occasions4 ,a crav+ came on me ye/]day4 ,x 0 a t]rible1 mis]able1 bleak1 ra9y day4 ,i 0 sitt+ 9 my room1 writ+1 & all at once ,i conclud$ t ,i mu/ h a /imulant4 ,i h n recov]$1 & w n = mon?s1 f ! effects ( :isky4 ,i said3 ,x is a cold1 damp1 mis]able day4 ,g up !re to ! drug-/ore & get "s port w9e z a m$ic9e4 ,d n g into a b>-room4 ,!re w be no h>m 9 go+ !re to get a little port w9e4 ,br+ x into y\r room4 ,x w be ! be/ ?+ y c d4 ,i got up & put on my ov]coat & my ov]%oes1 & x /ruck me t x w\ld n be ! be/ ?+ = me2 & ,i got d[n on my knees & pray$ to ,god1 & be=e ,i got ?r\gh pray+ ,i =got all ab\t x4 ,! devil _h tempt$ me previ\sly1 b he put x t day 9 ! %ape ( ! port w9e4 ,j ab\t t5 days aft] ,i jo9$ ! *ur*1 ,i 0 9 ! ,pho5ix hotel4 ,a fri5d ( m9e1 a man t ,i _h gambl$ & drunk ) all my life1 or at lea/1 = a numb] ( ye>s1 said to me1 ,y are n dr9k+ mu* f ! way y look4 ,i said1 ,no1 ,i am n4 ,he said he ?\ght he w\ld beckon me out1 because he did n l to make t /atem5t be=e ! cr[d1 & _h ,i be5 dr9k+ z ,i did ! la/ "t he saw me1 he w\ld n h ask$ me4 ,he want$ me to come 9 & take a dr9k ) him4 ,i said :isky _h once got ! upp] h& ( me1 & he mu/ excuse me4 ,he said he knew ,i 0 a man1 & c\ld take a dr9k )\t gett+ drunk1 & he want$ me to take x socially4 ,i told him t might all be true4 ,i might take ! dr9k )\t gett+ drunk1 & ,i might take x )\t its be+ a s9 9 8 sight1 or 9 ! sight ( o!r p2 b t ,i _h promis$ ,god t ,i w\ld foll[ ,him all my life1 & walk 9 ! way ,he want$ me to g2 t ,i _h jo9$ ! *ur*1 & our *ur* rules =bade dr9k+4 ,he !n begg$ my p>don1 ) te>s 9 8 eyes1 = hav+ ask$ me1 & bade me ,god spe$4 ,illu/ration3 ,j4 ,c4 ,,wilson4 ,,james ,c4 ,,wilson4 ,i />t$ out 9 gambl+ dur+ ! w>--ab\t #ahfb4 ,t 0 9 ,new ,york ,/ate4 ,i 0 born & rais$ !re4 ,i w be =ty-five ye>s ( age ! next eigh? ( ,july4 ,i />t$ out 9 ,new ,york 9 #ahfb4 ,my fa!r kept a %oe /ore !re !n4 ,he 0 pretty well to d4 ,hav+ money1 ,i c>$ no?+ ab\t gett+ any k9d ( bus9ess4 ,i got 9 ) a man by ! "n ( ,capta9 ,br[n1 :o 0 "o ( ! pr9cipal gambl]s !re2 & ,i began to be exp]t 9 %ort c>ds at fir/4 ,f !re ,i w5t into ! army dur+ ! w>1 & /ay$ !re until #ahfe1 & !n w5t to ,texas4 ,at ,au/91 ,texas1 ,i got into tr\ble 9 #ahff1 on acc\nt ( my gambl+4 ,i believe x 0 ab\t ! #bj? ( ,janu>y4 ,myself & a man by ! "n ( ,ryan _h be5 play+ toge!r1 & ,i _h beat5 him1 :i* made him mad4 ,he call$ me v insult+ names4 ,he slapp$ me & hit me1 & ,i drew my pi/ol on him4 ,i fir/ /ruck him once & !n %ot him1 & kill$ him in/antly4 ,i 0 put 9 jail4 ,i _h n be5 !re long & 0 a /rang]4 ,! ?+ occurr$ d[n ne> ! ,colorado riv]4 ,a mob assembl$1 & came d[n ) ropes to hang me4 ,b ! %]iff & 8 posse1 9 ord] to save me1 c>ri$ me out ( ! city1 & ran me up to ,san ,antonio4 ,i /ay$ 9 jail six mon?s & 0 tri$2 b !re 0 no?+ done ) me--! witnesses te/ifi$ t ,i 0 ju/ifi$ 9 do+ :at ,i did4 ,aft] t ,i w5t to ,ro*e/]1 ,new ,york1 & f !re to ,toronto1 ,canada4 ,i made my liv+ by gambl+2 &1 ( c\rse1 gambl$ 9 all ^! places4 ,i got broke v (t51 b always manag$ to get hold ( a /ake4 ,i w5t f ,canada back to ,new ,york ,city2 & us$ to play on ! falls /eam]s--,fisk's boats4 ,i /ay$ !re until ,i came to ,l\isville 9 #ahgj1 :5 ,i w5t into ! army aga94 ,i 0 "h 9 ! ,taylor b>racks ) ,g5]al ,cu/]4 ,i w5t out ,we/ ) him1 & 0 !re dis*>g$ f ! army1 & w5t to gambl+ at ,bism>ck1 ,dakota4 ,:5 ,i _h got out ( ! army1 ,i _h made ab\t six ?\s& doll>s1 & w5t to ,/4 ,paul1 & f !re to ,*icago4 ,i gambl$ !re = a:ile1 & 0 unsuccessful2 & f !re ,i came to ,l\isville aga94 ,i h be5 "h s9ce #ahgc1 ,i believe4 ,%ortly aft] ,i comm5c$ gambl+ "h1 ! gambl+ h\ses 7 clos$1 b 7 re-op5$ 9 #ahgd aga91 & ,i comm5c$ gambl+ aga91 op5+ at ! ,ri*mond1 ! h\se on ! ,s\?-we/ corn] ( ,fif? & ,m>ket /reets4 ,bro!r ,holcombe be=e t1 ,i ?9k1 0 int]e/$ 9 ! ,ri*mond4 ,t 0 ! la/ h\se ,i dealt 91 or work$ 91 until ,i op5$ = myself1 :i* 0 at #hd ,fif? /reet1 betwe5 ,ma9 & ,m>ket4 ,i 0 v unsuccessful !re2 _h m5 work+ = me :o did n att5d to _! bus9ess4 ,dur+ all ?is "t ,i _h a wife & family1 :om ,i really lov$ b :om ,i neglect$ & all[$ to suff] greatly ?r\gh my passion = gambl+1 ! unc]ta9ty ( mak+ a liv+ & my w&]+s f place to place4 ,ab\t ?is "t ,i us$ to ?9k ( ,holcombe2 & we gambl]s us$ to rem>k among ourselves h[ x 0 t he _h become religi\s4 ,i us$ to get to /udy+ to myself h[ he got along1 & ask myself h[ a man c\ld be a ,*ri/ian :o _h be5 a gambl] s long z he _h4 ,ab\t ?is "t ,i met ,dr4 ,jno4 ,b4 ,ri*>dson & ,mr4 ,samuel ,b4 ,ri*>dson4 ,!y talk$ ) me 9 reg>d to swe>+ & gambl+ & ! life ,i 0 lead+4 ,!y influ5c$ me z be/ !y c\ld & advis$ me to see ,bro!r ,holcombe1 & toge!r ) ,bro!r ,holcombe !y wat*$ ov] my spiritual condition = a c\ple ( ye>s4 ,i _h become disgu/$ ) ! life ,i 0 lead+2 & came to ,bro!r ,holcombe = advice4 ,i _h quit #hd & 0 broke4 ,i _h "s money :5 ,i quit1 & b\ght ! h\se :i* ,i am liv+ 9 yet4 ,i said to ,bro!r ,holcombe3 ,i am gett+ tir$ ( ?is inf]nal gambl+4 ,h[ c ,i quit x8 ,%[ me some?+ to d4 ,h[ c ,i get out ( ?is life8 ,he said1 ,bro!r ,wilson1 come up /airs4 ,he talk$ ) me & pray$ ) me4 ,he said1 ,d n be disc\rag$4 ,take my advice4 ,! fir/ ?+ y d1 commit y\rself2 take a /& & aft] t e night1 & dur+ ! day1 ask ,god = /r5g? & help1 & come to ?is mission &1 he said1 ,i w help y to get some?+ to d 9 e way ,i c4 ,i nev] w =get ! fir/ night ,i got d[n on my knees & pray$4 ,i laugh$ at myself1 :i* %[$ h[ ! devil 0 aft] me to lead me back to my old life4 ,i actually laugh$ to ?9k ,i 0 try+ to pray 9 e>ne/4 ,i came to ! mission & told ,/eve4 ,bro!r ,holcombe said1 ,keep on 9 t way1 anyh[4 ,pray to ,god & ask = /r5g? all ! "t4 ,keep away f gambl]s & bad company1 & d n mix ) !m1 & ,i did s--,i took 8 advice1 & ,i began to get /r5g? f ,almighty ,god2 ,he 0 help+ me2 ,he op5$ a way = me1 ?\gh ev]y?+ 0 new to me = a:ile4 ,:5 ,i lea/ expect$ x1 ,i got a situation ) ! ,l\isville ,city ,railway ,company1 :i* ,i /ill hold4 ,i am happy & my family are happy1 & all my surr\nd+s are good2 & ,i "k1 ) ! help ( ,god1 ,i w nev] t\* a c>d aga94 ,if we tru/ 9 ,god1 ,i "k we are kept f all temptation4 ,:5 any temptation comes to me1 ,i always look to ,god = help2 & ! help comes z naturally z my pay does :5 pay-day comes4 ,i feel t ! numb] ( fri5ds ,i h made1 & ev]y?+ ,i h1 ,i owe to our ,savi\r1 ! ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/1 & ,bro!r ,holcombe2 & ,i tru/ ,i may be kept & cont9ue 9 ! life ,i am lead+4 ,i am happy & cont5t$ & all my surr\nd+s are happy2 & ,i hope all good p w pray = me t ,i may cont9ue ! life ,i am n[ lead+4 ,i belong to ! ,fir/ ,presbyt]ian ,*ur*1 ,dr4 ,)]spoon's *ur*1 & ,i am sorry ,i c n att5d m regul>ly4 ,my bus9ess occupies me s con/antly t ,i c n get away4 ,i get only a doll> & a half a day4 ,:5 ,i 0 a gambl]1 "s mon?s ,i w\ld make ?ree or f\r ?\s& doll>s1 & sometimes five ?\s& doll>s2 & "s mon?s ,i believe ,i h made m ?an t1 s f> z t is conc]n$2 b a gambl]1 y "k1 has 8 ups & d[ns1 ,i h be5 s h>d up t ,i h be5 tempt$ to commit murd] = money4 ,9 ,texas ,i look$ = a man to kill him = 8 money1 b :5 ,i f\nd him ,i did n h ! he>t to d x4 ,x seem$ z if ,i c\ld n use my h&s4 ,x w\ld take me f n[ until to-morr[ morn+ to tell all ( my exp]i5ces4 ,i h be5 9 ,europe1 ,cali=nia1 ,old & ,new ,mexico1 & ,i believe t ,god 0 ) me ev5 :5 ,i 0 wick$4 ,i h a bad temp] to ?is day1 b1 by ,god's grace1 ,i c control x4 ,my p>5ts 7 *ur* memb]s--,presbyt]ians1 & ,i 0 rais$ 9 ! *ur*4 ,my fa!r di$ :5 ,i 0 fifte5 ye>s old1 & my "m di$ :5 ,i 0 eight ye>s old4 ,if ,i _h be5 put to h>d "w1 & _h _h some?+ to d1 x might h be5 diff]5t ) me2 b my fa!r 0 well-to-d1 & ,i _h too mu* money to sp5d4 ,my p>5ts tri$ to give me a good education1 & ,i w5t to s*ool2 b :5 ,i got to gambl+ ,i c\ld n get any?+ 9 my head b c>ds4 ,i did n c>e = any?+ else4 ,b1 ?ank ,god1 x is n[ j ! rev]se2 x j gives me ! *ills to ?9k ( play+ c>ds4 ,?ree ye>s ago1 if a man _h told me t ,i w\ld quit gambl+1 ,i w\ld h told him t he 0 crazy4 ,i ?ank ,god & ,bro!r ,holcombe = :at has be5 done = me4 ,i am truly ?ankful !re 0 su* a man4 ,i "k if x _h n be5 = him ,i w\ld h be5 "r 9 hell to-day4 ,if ,i _h n be5 help$ & lift$ up1 j l a little *ild 9 ! new life1 ,i ?9k ,i w\ld to-day be 9 hell4 ,i nev] w =get ,bro!r ,holcombe4 ,i drank liquor1 b 0 n a regul> drunk>d1 because x made me too sick4 ,i us$ to dr9k & get drunk1 b ,i w\ld get s sick ,i c\ld n /& x4 ,! habit 0 !re1 b ! con/itution c\ld n endure x4 ,i h no tr\ble n[2 ,i am p]fectly happy2 ,i d n "k :at tr\ble is any m4 ,( c\rse1 we all h ups & d[ns2 we c n h ev]y?+ our own way2 b ,i praise ,god & ,bro!r ,holcombe t ,i am able to be> !m4 ,y mu/ %[ t y are will+ = ! ,"l to help y be=e ,he w d s4 ,x is l a man tea*+ 8 *ildr52 if ! *ild keeps %ov+ him (f1 ! p>5t c n help ! *ild1 & s x is ) ,god4 ,b :5 a man has se5 & felt ! effects ( s91 & 8 pride is brok5 d[n s t he is will+1 !n ,god w help him & save him1 no matt] h[ f> he has gone 9 wick$ness4 ,,note4--,mr4 ,wilson is employ$ by ! ,l\isville ,city ,railway ,company1 at ! corn] ( ,eighte5? & ,*e/nut /reets1 :]e1 day aft] day1 = ye>s1 he has fai?fully dis*>g$ 8 duties1 & he has ! respect & e/eem ( 8 employ]s & ( all :o "k him4 ,illu/ration3 ,,wm4 ,,bi]ly4 ,,william ,,bi]ly4 ,i am ?irty-two ye>s ( age4 ,i 0 born at ,l\isville 9 #ahef4 ,my fa!r 0 a ,ca?olic !n1 b he is n n[4 ,my "m di$ :5 ,i 0 s small t ,i don't "k :at %e 04 ,i w tell y h[ x 03 ,my "m di$ :5 ,i 0 q "y1 my fa!r w5t into ! w>1 & ,i 0 kick$ & cuff$ ab\t f "o place to ano!r1 "h & !re1 till ,i _h no respect = myself1 & felt t ,i 0 nobody4 ,i 0 ) my fa!r 9 ! soldi]s' hospital = a long "t4 ,he 0 nurse 9 ! soldi]s' hospital4 ,at ?is "t ,i w\ld dr9k :isky :5ev] ,i c\ld get x1 :i* appetite did n leave me until ,i 0 ab\t eighte5 ye>s old4 ,:5 ,i 0 ab\t elev5 ye>s old ,i got to be+ bad--got to /eal+4 ,my fa!r 0 a /rictly hone/ man himself1 & my pilf]+ 0 abhorr5t to him2 s he _h me put 9 ! h\se ( refuge :5 ,i 0 elev5 ye>s old4 ,i 0 to rema9 9 ! h\se ( refuge until ,i 0 tw5ty-"o ye>s old1 b ,i got out be=e ,i 0 tw5ty-"o4 ,:5 ,i 0 n9ete5 ,i got to be a gu>d !re4 ,b ,i got to misbehav+1 & got dis*>g$ f !re be=e ,i 0 tw5ty-"o4 ,:5 ,i came out ( ! h\se ( refuge ,i bo>d$ ar\nd at diff]5t places1 fir/ at "o place & !n ano!r2 & sometimes ,i _h no place to bo>d at all1 & sometimes ,i c\ld almo/ lie d[n on ! gr\nd & eat grass4 ,i did n g to my fa!r's1 b knock$ ab\t f "o place to ano!r4 ,i got to /eal+ aga91 & ,i kept t up all ! "t4 ,i nev] _h a desire to d any?+ else wrong1 b ,i always _h ! desire to /eal2 & :ile a boy ,i w\ld /eal any?+ ,i came across4 ,i w\ld g d[n to ! riv] & /eal a bag ( peanuts1 or bur/ 9 ! head ( a b>rel ( apples & take apples out--_m a "t h ,i done t4 ,i work$ 9 a tobacco %op = a:ile1 & w\ld /eal tobacco--,i w\ld /eal any?+4 ,i nev] 0 arre/$ :5 ,i 0 a boy4 ,! fir/ "t ,i ev] 0 arre/$ ,i 0 s5t to ! "w-h\se1 & ,mr4 ,/eve ,holcombe got me out4 ,aft] ,i got out ( ! "w-h\se ,i att5d$ ! ,mission1 & !re 0 a good religi\s impression made on me4 ,t 0 ! fir/ "t ,i ev] _h any religi\s impression4 ,i liv$ pretty /raight = a:ile1 & aft] a:ile my old desire to /eal came back on me4 ,?ank ! ,"l x does n bo!r me any m n[1 ,i 0 wat*+ at ! ,l\isville ,exposition dur+ ! fir/ ye> ( ! exposition1 #ahhc1 & ,i 0 bo>d+ :]e !re 7 "s /reet c> driv]s bo>d+1 & !y _h all _! money boxes !re at ! bo>d+ h\se4 ,i 0 tempt$ to take a few ( _! boxes1 & ,i did take two ( !m4 ,i 0 arre/$ = x1 tri$1 convict$ & s5t5c$ to six ye>s 9 ! p5it5ti>y4 ,:ile ,i 0 9 ! p5it5ti>y x seem$ t ev]y?+ turn$ ar\nd ! o!r way ) me2 x seem$ l ,i _h got en\gh ( x4 ,i saw s _m bad m5 !re1 ,i got disgu/$4 ,x seem$ to me if ev] ,i got out & got my lib]ty any m1 ,i w\ld try to d "r if x took my head (f4 ,dur+ ! "t--two ye>s--t ,i 0 9 ! p5it5ti>y1 ,i kept up a correspond5ce all ! "t ) ,mr4 ,holcombe2 & ,mr4 ,holcombe's ,*ri/ian lett]s t\*$ my he>t1 & ,i made up my m9d by ! grace ( ,god ,i w\ld lead a ,*ri/ian life 9 ! future4 ,at ! expiration ( ab\t two ye>s1 ,mr4 ,holcombe1 to my great surprise & delight1 br\ght me a p>don f ,gov]nor ,knott4 ,s9ce ,i h be5 out ( ! p5it5ti>y ,i h be5 lead+ a ,*ri/ian life1 & h _h no incl9ation to /eal4 ,i h be5 at "w = ,hegan ,bro!rs1 z eng9e] & fireman1 = "s "t1 h got m>ri$ to a sweet girl1 & am n[ liv+ happily 9 ! ,"l2 & ,i %all nev] cease to be grateful to ,god & ,mr4 ,holcombe4 ,i nev] g to sleep at night )\t ?ank+ ! ,"l--& my wife jo9s me 9 x4 ,illu/ration3 ,,mac4 ,,pittman4 ,,capta9 ,,mac ,,pittman4 ,i 0 born 9 ,baltimore 9 #ahcd4 ,my ance/ors 7 driv5 away f ,arcadia by ! ,engli%1 on acc\nt ( _! ,roman ,ca?olic proclivities4 ,i 0 educat$ at two ,ca?olic colleges1 ,/4 ,m>y's1 at ,baltimore2 & ,/4 ,m>y's at ,wilm+ton1 ,delaw>e4 ,at eighte5 ye>s ( age1 on acc\nt ( ! tyranny ( my fa!r1 ,i ran away f home1 & %ipp$ 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates ,navy z a common sailor4 ,i w5t ar\nd to ,san ,francisco1 & !re jo9$ ! gray-ey$ man ( de/9y1 ,g5]al ,walk]4 ,i jo9$ 8 exp$ition 9 ,septemb]1 #ahhe1 & arriv$ 9 ,nic>agua 9 ,octob]1 ! foll[+ mon?--! ?ird day ( ,octob]4 ,!re 0 a civil w> !n 9 progress 9 ,nic>agua2 & ! pret5se ( ?is exp$ition 0 t we 7 hir$ by "o ( ! p>ties to take "p 9 x4 ,walk] 0 to furni% ?ree hundr$ ,am]icans1 :o 7 to get "o hundr$ doll>s a mon? & five hundr$ acres ( l&1 & _! clo!s & rations1 ( c\rse4 ,:5 ,i fir/ arriv$ !re1 we 7 to escort specie tra9s across ! i/hmus--!re are b twelve miles ( l& f wat] to wat]--f ,san ,juan del ,sur to ,virg9 ,bay4 ,i 0 "o ( ! gu>d ov] ! celebrat$ ,/ate prison]s1 ,g5]al ,coral & ! ,secret>y ( ,w>1 ^: "n ,i =get1 :o 7 bo? execut$4 ,i 0 inside ( ! sev5tie? man :o jo9$ ?is exp$ition2 :5 ,i jo9$ him1 ,walk] _h b sixty m54 ,! re-en=cem5ts t came ov] made j "o hundr$ m54 ,he _h sixty m51 ,i ?9k1 & we numb]$ =ty4 ,) ?is "o hundr$ m5 we took ! city ( ,gr5ada1 :i* _h a population ( twelve ?\s&1 on ! morn+ ( ,octob] #ac1 #ahee4 ,a small division ( m5 0 s5t to ! t[n ( ,leon on ! ,pacific coa/4 ,! natives ( t section ( ! c\ntry 7 all 9 favor ( ,walk]2 t "p--! we/]n "p--is ! ,democratic "p ( ! c\ntry4 ,on our return to ,gr5ada1 on ! #aa? day ( ,april1 #ahef1 we w5t into ! ,battle ( ,rivas1 aft] m>*+ sixty-five miles4 ,we f\ght f eight o'clock 9 ! morn+ until two ! next morn+1 by ! fla% ( guns4 ,i lo/ my arm t morn+2 & 0 promot$ f ! rank ( s]geant to t ( fir/ lieut5ant = tak+ a cannon 9 advance ( ! army4 ,i return$ to ,gr5ada1 & lay !re = sev]al mon?s1 & !n return$ to ,am]ica4 ,i w5t back ) ! re-en=cem5ts f ,new ,york 9 ! foll[+ ,augu/4 ,9 ,octob]1 #ahef1 ,i resign$1 & came back to ,am]ica4 ,at ! break+ out ( ! civil w>1 on ! fir/ call = troops1 ,i refus$ a commission 9 ! ,f$]al army1 & jo9$ ! ,conf$]ate =ces4 ,9 #ahfa we =m$ ! ,fir/ ,m>yl& regim5t4 ,! la/ six mon?s ( ! w> ,i sp5t z a prison] 9 ,=t ,delaw>e1 *>g$ ) ! murd] ( ! elev5 m5 :o 7 kill$ 9 ,baltimore dur+ ! riot1 on ! #ai? ( ,april1 #ahfa4 ,i 0 c\rt-m>tial$ 9 ,wa%+ton ,city1 9 ! latt] "p ( #ahfd1 & 0 s5t 9 irons to ,=t ,delaw>e1 & rema9$ !re until ,may1 #ahfe1 :5 ,i 0 releas$4 ,f ,=t ,delaw>e ,i w5t to ,new ,york1 & f !re w5t to ,virg9ia1 :]e ,i m>ri$ ! great gr&daught] ( ! illu/ri\s patriot1 ,patrick ,h5ry1 at ,danville4 ,9 ,janu>y1 #ahff1 ,i migrat$ to ,texas1 :]e ,i sp5t ! little patrimony my gr&fa!r _h giv5 me4 ,:5 ,i left !re1 ,i took ! position ( comm]cial & m>9e editor ( ! ,savannah ,news4 ,i nev] _h giv5 a ?\ght to religion or my h]eaft] be=e ?is "t4 ,to illu/rate ?is3 ,:5 !y amputat$ my arm1 !y ask$ me di/9ctly if ,i _h any religion4 ,!y told me aft]w>d !y expect$ me to die4 ,i said3 ,yes1 ,i h be5 rais$ a ,ca?olic4 ,!y want$ to s5d = a prie/4 ,i said3 ,no1 ,i d n want y to s5d = a prie/4 ,!y ask$ me :y8 ,well1 ,i said1 z ,i h liv$1 ?us w ,i die2 ,i don't h mu* fai? 9 ! h]eaft] bus9ess4 ,i did n h mu* fai? 9 hell1 ,i meant4 ,i 0 int]e/$1 directly & indirectly1 9 sev]al gambl+ e/abli%m5ts1 & my proclivities 7 9 t direction4 ,! passion ( gambl+ controll$ me to su* an ext5t t ,i 0 capable ( all s9s & crimes to indulge 9 x4 ,x 0 "o day up1 "o day d[n2 "o day ) pl5ty1 ano!r day )\t a c5t4 ,i cont9u$ 9 ?is wild1 reckless c>e]1 until fate turn$ my foot/eps t[>d ! city ( ,l\isville4 ,= x 0 fate1 sure en\gh1 or ,i don't "k :at x 04 ,i 0 sitt+ "o ,sunday 9 front ( ! old ,will>d ,hotel1 ,/eve ,holcombe 0 prea*+ t ,sunday on ! c\r?\se /eps4 ,8 rem>ks 7 su* z to elicit my close/ att5tion2 s impressive 7 !y t he seem$ to picture be=e me a panorama ( my :ole life1 9 ref]r+ to 8 own c>e]4 ,:5 he got ?r\gh ) 8 s]mon1 ,i walk$ up to him1 & said3 ,mr4 ,holcombe1 y are ! fir/ man t ,i ev] he>d 9 my life :o impress$ me ) ! importance ( prep>+ = dea? & meet+ ,god4 ,i !n comm5c$ att5d+ ! ,mission1 on ,jeff]son /reet1 ne> ,fif?1 daily4 ,i 0 !re ne>ly e day4 ,i !n w5t ,s\?1 to ,new ,orleans1 & fell f grace aga9--comm5c$ go+ ?r\gh ! same old r\t9e--gambl+1 dr9k+1 spree+4 ,9 fact1 ,i 0 a fe>ful p]iodical spre]2 if ,i took "o dr9k1 ,i _h to keep dr9k+ = a mon?4 ,z long z ,i kept away f x ,i 0 all "r4 ,i 0 v abusive :5 ,i 0 dr9k+2 ,i w\ld knock a man d[n ) a club4 ,i h be5 arre/$1 ,i guess1 fifty times = fight+ & drunk5 brawls4 ,f ,new ,orleans ,i aga9 came back to ,l\isville1 ! #f? ( ,augu/ a ye> ago1 /ill go+ on 9 ! same reckless mann]1 gett+ drunk1 & be+ drunk1 z usual1 a week at a "t--sometimes a mon?2 9 fact1 ,i liv$ 9 b>-rooms "h4 ,"o night1 :ile ,mr4 ,murphy 0 "h--,i d n recollect ! night1 b at "o ( ,mr4 ,murphy's meet+s--he appeal$ to u all to try & re=m & be sob] m54 ,i met ,mr4 ,w]ne & ,miles ,turp9 !re1 & :ile !re1 ,mr4 ,w]ne ask$ me if ,i did n int5d to re=m1 or some?+ l t--t 0 ! sub/ance ( ! conv]sation ( himself & 8 wife ) me--& he told me t ,miles ,turp9 _h re=m$4 ,i said3 ,if ,miles ,turp9 has re=m$1 ,i c1 too4 ,f ?is day h5ce=? ,i w be a sob] man4 ,& ,i sign$ ! ,murphy pl$ge a %ort "t aft]w>d1 & ,i h n tak5 any?+ intoxicat+ f t day to ?is4 ,mr4 ,w]ne !n ask$ me to come up to ! ,mission1 & ,i h n miss$ att5d+ ?is ,mission b ?ree nights s9ce1 & ! b5efits t ,i h d]iv$--! satisfaction1 ! happ9ess ( m9d1 ! cont5tm5t ( _s--,i w\ld n ex*ange = my old life = any?+ 9 ! _w4 ,i mean ,i w\ld n ex*ange my pres5t life = ! old "o = any e>?ly consid]ation4 ,i attribute ?is re=mation to ! /rong p]sonal int]e/ t ,mr4 ,holcombe has tak5 9 my welf>e1 & if he does n save b "o s\l1 z he says1 x w\ld pay him = all ! tr\ble he has gone ?r\gh )9 ! la/ t5 ye>s or m4 ,! two foll[+ lett]s1 ?\gh 9 ! nature ( te/imonies1 are f m5 ( high /&+ 9 ! community1 :o pref]r$1 on acc\nt ( o!rs1 n to give _! te/imonies 9 ! =m 9 :i* ! =ego+ are giv53 ,,l\isville1 ,,ky41 ,july #bd1 #ahhh4 ,rev4 ,gross ,alex&]3 ,,my ,,de> ,,bro!r--,y\rs ( #ba/ is j receiv$4 ,i c n see h[ a sket* ( my life c d ,! ,life ( ,bro!r ,holcombe any good4 ,z ,i und]/& x1 y are writ+ ! life & conv]sion ( ,/eve ,holcombe & n ( o!rs4 ,my pa/ hi/ory is suffici5tly sad & regretful )\t hav+ x p>ad$ be=e ! public 9 book =m4 ,i am f> f be+ pr\d ( x4 ,i am exce$+ly anxi\s x %\ld s9k into ! %ades ( =getfulness4 ,hav+ m>k$ out a new & bright] life1 ,i am only too glad to let ! dead pa/ bury its dead4 ,mo/ s9c]ely1 ---- ----4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,l\isville1 ,,ky41 ,augu/ #b1 #ahhh4 ,de> ,bro!r ,alex&]3 ,y\r k9d lett] 0 receiv$ sev]al days ago1 b ,i h delay$ answ]+1 9 ! expectation ( see+ y "h 9 p]son4 ,i am n[ anxi\s = ! successful issue ( ! book1 on acc\nt ( ! great moral influ5ce x w h ^u all classes ( ! community4 ,b ,i c n cons5t to :at y propose4 ,i am endeavor+ e day to blot out & =get ! d>k & cl\dy pa/ ( my life1 keep+ always a bright future 9 view4 ,!re are d>k & pa9ful episodes 9 ! life ( e man & ?\gh he may be will+ to expose !m to ! eyes ( ! public1 !re are ^? :o are b\nd to him by ! ties ( blood & relation%ip1 :o w\ld blu% at ! recital4 ,?is is ! position ,i occupy4 ,i hope to see y "h soon4 ,y\rs truly1 ---- ----4 ,illu/ration3 ,a ,,night ,,meet+--,,mr4 ,,holcombe ,,prea*+4 ,,s]mons4 ,,m>k #a3 #ae4 ,! k+dom ( ,god is at h&4 ,rep5t & believe ! ,gospel4 ,v]se #ad says1 ! ,"l ,jesus came into ,galilee prea*+2 & ?is 0 ! ann\ncem5t :i* ,he made1 namely1 t ! k+dom ( ,god 0 at h& & !y 7 to ent] x by rep5tance & fai?4 ,! k+dom 0 br\ght to !m2 !y did n h to g & se>* = x4 ,x 0 br\ght to !m1 op5$ = !m & !y 7 urg$ to g 9 & become memb]s ( x4 ,& s x is n[4 ,god's mess5g]s are s5t ev]y:]e to f9d s9n]s1 & :5 !y are f\nd1 to say to !m3 ,ho6 ev]yone t ?ir/e?1 come ye to ! wat]s & dr9k1 come buy & eat )\t money & )\t price 7,isaiah #ee71 & to cry1 ,all ?+s are n[ ready2 come ye1 !re=e1 to ! fea/4 ,& s x is to-day1 ,god s5ds ! same message ( good news1 ( glad tid+s to y--ev5 to y4 ,! k+dom ( ,god is "h--"h to-day & n[2 & if y w1 y may ent] x & be sav$4 ,b :at are m5 told to d 9 ord] t !y may ent]8 ,h[ are !y to ent]8 #a4 ,!y are to rep5t4 ,& :at is x to rep5t8 ,"s ?9k t great sorr[ ( he>t is a necess>y "p ( rep5tance2 & t te>s & groans ( agony mu/ be a "p ( e rep5tance t is g5u9e1 & !y ?9k t unless we feel deeply & ke5ly ! bas5ess ( our +ratitude to ,god we are n truly p5it5t4 ,n[1 x is true t "s p h all ^! m>ks ( rep5tance1 & x is v well to h !m1 b "s m5 c n h !m & nev] c get !m4 ,s t if all m5 are comm&$ to rep5t & c rep5t1 ^! ?+s are n an ess5tial "p ( true rep5tance4 ,to rep5t1 !n1 is to turn unto ,god ) ! feel+ t s9 is wrong1 & t1 if we d n get rid ( x1 x w ru9 u2 & ) ! resolution & hope1 by ! help ( ,god1 to keep f s9 & to live = ,him dur+ ! re/ ( our lives4 ,& if our rep5tance is g5u9e1 we w leave (f s9 & practice righte\sness4 ,x w %[ itself by its fruits4 ,pret5d+ or pr(ess+ to rep5t )\t turn+ away f our s9s & ab&on+ !m is1 z "s "o has said1 l try+ to pump ! wat] out ( a boat )\t /opp+ ! leaks4 ,if y h sorr[ & regrets & te>s1 !y are all "r2 b ! ma9 ?+ is to h su* a feel+ conc]n+ s9 z to turn =ev] away f x to ,god & to a life ( righte\sness4 ,& if y\r rep5tance is g5u9e1 y w n wait until y are conv]t$ be=e y beg9 to leave (f all s9 & to d all ! good ( e k9d 9 y\r p[]4 ,no2 y w beg9 at once & keep x up1 & ! long] y keep at x ! m y w feel t y mu/ g on ) x4 #b4 ,b !re is ano!r ?+ to be done4 ,! ,"l says3 ,rep5t & believe ! ,gospel4 ,s y are to believe4 ,y are to believe t ,god does accept y n[ ?r\gh ,jesus ,*ri/ j because ,he says ,he accepts & saves ^? :o believe 9 ,8 ,son4 ,y may n receive ! evid5ce ( acceptance at once & s y are to hold on by fai? till ,he does give y ! evid5ce ( y\r acceptance1 ev5 ! witness ( ,8 _s t y\r s9s are =giv5 & y made a *ild ( ,god4 ,y mu/ n let ! difficulty ( believ+ )\t feel+ keep y back f believ+ & y mu/ n let ! remembrance ( y\r great s9s keep y f believ+4 ,poor1 unhappy m51 y :o are bruis$ & sore on acc\nt ( y\r s9s1 ,i beg y cease f y\r evil ways4 ,:y w y die8 ,:at fe>ful ?+ is !re 9 ,heav5 :i* makes y flee f t _w8 ,:at fasc9at+ object 9 hell1 t excites su* fr5zi$ ex]tion to break e b&1 & ov]leap e b\nd1 & =ce y\r way d[nw>d to ! *amb]s ( dea?8 ,/op1 ,i besee* y1 & rep5t1 & ,jesus ,*ri/ %all blot out y\r s9s1 & rememb] y\r transgressions no m4 ,/op1 & ! ho/ :o foll[ y\r /eps %all turn1 & take hold on ! pa? ( life4 ,/op1 & ! wide wa/e ( s9 %all cease1 & ! song ( ! angels %all be he>d aga91 glory to ,god 9 ! highe/2 on e>?1 peace1 good w to m54 ,/op1 & in/ead ( wail+ ) ! lo/1 y %all jo9 ! multitude :i* no man c numb]1 9 ! ascription ( bless+ & honor1 & glory1 & p[]1 to ,him t sitte? on ! ?rone1 & to ! ,lamb =ev] & =ev]4 ,! k+dom ( ,god is "h to-night4 ,w y come 98 ,come humble s9n] 9 ^: brea/1 etc4 ,come1 angels invite y1 we invite y1 &1 be/ ( all1 ,*ri/ invites y4 ,o1 d n1 by y\r own actions1 b> ?is door =ev] aga9/ y\r immortal s\l4 ,:at a fe>ful ?+ x w be to wake up 9 et]nity to f9d ?is door1 :i* to-day hangs wide op51 b>r$ aga9/ y & hung ) crape4 ,o1 h[ fe>ful w be ^? words1 too late6 too late6 ,all is lo/4 ,j z ,i am1 )\t "o plea1 ,b t ,?y blood 0 %$ = me1 ,& t ,?\ bid'/ me come to ,!e1 ,o6 ,lamb ( ,god ,i come4 ,j z ,i am1 ?o' toss$ ab\t1 ,) _m a conflict1 _m a d\bt1 ,fight+s & fe>s )91 )\t1 ,o6 ,lamb ( ,god ,i come4 ,,john ,,iii3 #af ,= ,god s lov$ ! _w t ,he gave ,8 only begott5 ,son t :osoev] believe? 9 ,him %\ld n p]i%1 b h ev]la/+ life4 ,_m ( ! glori\s tru?s ( ! ,gospel are bo? above ! conception ( man & altoge!r contr>y to :at 8 unr5ew$ nature w\ld desire to publi%4 ,hea!n writ]s c\ld tell ( ! cruelty & v5geful wra? ( _! imag9>y gods4 ,!y c\ld tell ( de$s ( d>+1 ! exploits ( ,h]cules1 ,hector1 ,a,eneas & o!rs2 b x 0 =eign to _! nature to write3 ,god s lov$ ! _w z to give ,8 only begott5 ,son1 t :osoev] believe? 9 ,him %\ld n p]i%1 b h ev]la/+ life4 #a4 ,! ,gospel is glad tid+s4 ,x is ! news t ,god is reconcil$ & wants to be at peace ) man4 ,is ?is n good news8 ,h y nev] he>d good news t made y\r he>t leap = joy8 ,well1 ?is is bett] news ?an any y h ev] he>d4 ,god1 n angry ) y1 b lov+ y1 s z1 at a great sacrifice1 to make a way = ! salvation ( ! _w4 #b4 ,:at 0 t sacrifice8 ,x 0 ! gift ( ,8 own ,son4 ,?9k ( x1 oh s9n]6 ,god cons5te? to give up ,8 ,son1 to leave ,8 glory & come z a /rang] into ! _w1 & to be born 9 great pov]ty1 & ) all ! conditions ( u poor mortals4 ,?9k ( ,god look+ d[n on ,jesus1 ,8 ,son1 liv+ ?is poor e>?ly life1 "h among /rang]s :o did n recognize ,8 div9ity--nay1 :o became jeal\s ( ,him1 & p]secut$ ,him try+ to kill him2 & at la/1 aft] unhe>d-( tortures inflict$ ^u ,him1 did kill ,him4 ,n[1 ?9k ( ,god giv+ up ,8 ,son to endure all ?is1 & wat*+ all ?is lonely & misund]/ood & p]secut$ life ( ,8 only begott5 ,son1 wat*+ x & endur+ x = ?irty-?ree ye>s1 & !n ask y\rself h[ mu* ,god sacrific$ to %[ ,8 love = u s9n]s4 ,h y a son8 ,if y h1 don't y "k h[ x /+s y deep] = a man to mi/reat or /rike him ?an y\rself8 ,if a man %\ld beat my little ,pe>l x w\ld be h>d] = me to be> ?an any?+1 & yet ?is is :at ,god endur$ = long ye>s to %[ ,8 love = y & me4 ,?9k ( ! arre/ ( ,jesus1 ,8 be+ ti$1 h&cuff$1 beat5 m ?an once ) fe>ful la%es1 knock$ 9 ! face1 spit on1 & !n nail$ ) spikes to a cross ) ?ieves1 & ?9k ( ,god look+ at all ?is :ile x 0 go+ on1 & y h "s idea ( :at x means :5 x says ,god gave ,8 only begott5 ,son4 #c4 ,& ! way to get ?is fri5d%ip ( ,god & pr(it by ?is love is m]ely to believe ) all y\r he>t on ,jesus4 ,x is h>d to believe t ,god loves1 really loves1 su* s9n]s z y are1 & yet ,i am a liv+ witness t ,he does2 = ,i 0 z bad z any ( y1 & if ,god did n love me & take hold ( me & save me1 !n ,i don't "k :at has happ5$ to me1 c]ta94 ,s y mu/ believe x1 ev5 if x is h>d to believe x4 #d4 ,b ?is glad tid+s is = y & y & y--= e "o ( y4 ,x is = :osoev]1 & t means ev]ybody--ev]ybody4 ,a c]ta9 believ+ man 9 ,engl& said1 ,i r x w\ld be :osoev] ?an to h my "n !re4 ,= if my "n 0 !re1 ,i c\ld say !re might be ano!r man ( my "n 9 ! _w1 b :5 x says :osoev]1 ,i "k x includes me4 #e4 ,x is to save u f p]i%+4 ,oh1 :at an awful ^w is t1 & :at an awful ?+ x mu/ be to p]i%4 ,y h a ta/e ( x n[ 9 y\r s9s1 & _! sadd5+1 d>k5+1 h>d5+ effect on y4 ,y once _h t5d] consci5ces4 ,y once lov$ ?+s & p t 7 pure & good & true1 & y lov$ a ,*ri/ian "m1 wife1 fa!r or si/]2 b s9 has s h>d5$ y1 t y c>e = none ( ^! ?+s n[4 ,is x n s8 ,well1 ?is is a little ta/e ( :at x is to f9ally & =ev] p]i%4 ,b ,*ri/ 0 giv5 t y might n p]i%4 ,:at1 c ,*ri/ save me f my h>dness ( he>t1 f my black s9s1 f my uncleanness & debau*]y1 & f my awful d>kness ( m9d & consci5ce8 ,yes2 ,he c1 glory to ,8 "n4 ,i am a liv+ witness4 ,he has sav$ me4 ,he c save o!rs l me f all ^! awful effects ( s91 ev5 aft] !y h liv$ 9 x = scores ( ye>s1 z ,i did4 ,yes1 & ,he saves f t awful p]i%+ :i* comes aft] ?is little1 %ort life is ov]1 :atev] x is4 ,yes2 ,jesus c %ut & b> ! door ( hell1 & no s\l c ent] !re :o believes 9 ,him & lives = ,him4 #f4 ,b ,he n only saves f p]i%+1 ,he gives !m et]nal life1 ,:at does t mean8 ,oh1 ,i "k n--only ,i "k x means life =ev] )\t dea? or decay or sickness or pa9 or sorr[ or weakness or tir$ness or p>t+ or fe> or anxiety4 ,b :at else x means ,i "k n4 ,?is et]nal life1 ?is life =ev] 9 heav51 ,i expect--,i fully expect--to get1 ?\gh ,i 0 a poor gambl] & swe>] & adult]]1 & all t ,i c\ld be t 0 s9ful1 = =ty ye>s4 ,yes2 ,i expect to get x4 ,i "k ,i am on my way ?i!r1 ?\gh ,i am n p]fect4 ,won't y come & g ) u8 ,oh1 won't y come8 ,,titus ,,ii3 #ad4 ,:o gave ,himself = u t ,he might r$eem u f all iniquity1 & purify unto ,himself a peculi> p1 zeal\s ( good works4 ,?is v]se conta9s a compreh5sive /atem5t ( ! ,gospel 9 few words4 ,let u ask ,god t ,8 ,holy ,_s may give u wisdom & insight to und]/& & pr(it by :at we are "h told4 ,9 ! fir/ place1 we are told t ! gr\nd ( our salvation is ?r\gh ! self-surr5d] ( ,himself by ,jesus1 ! ,son ( ,god4 ,we saw1 9 a passage ( ,scripture a week or two ago1 h[ great ! condesc5sion ( ,jesus ,*ri/ 04 ,?\gh ,he 0 equal ) ,god1 yet ,he took ^u himself ! =m ( a s]vant2 & be+ f\nd 9 fa%ion z a man1 ,he humbl$ ,himself & became ob$i5t unto dea?--! dea? ( ! ,cross4 ,our text n[ tea*es u :at ?is 0 =4 ,he gave ,himself = u4 ,n[1 ,i w ask y1 c\ld ,god %[ ,8 conc]n = u 9 a m /rik+ & conv9c+ way ?an 9 ! giv+ ( ,8 ,son to ignom9y & dea?8 ,c\ld ,jesus1 ! ,son ( ,god1 %[ ,8 love = m5 9 any m conv9c+ way ?an 9 giv+ ,himself = _! recov]y & salvation8 ,!n1 surely we ought to lay aside our habitual way ( ?9k+ ( ,god z our enemy1 & ?9k ( ,him z our be/ fri5d4 ,= no human fri5d ev] did = u :at ,god has done = u4 ,& if we judge ( "o's love = u by ! sacrifices he makes = u1 !n mu/ we give ! cr[n to ,jesus1 :o 0 ,god manife/ 9 ! fle%4 ,he bore our s9s2 ,he w\ld be> our burd5s1 if we w\ld ?r[ !m on ,him2 ,he w\ld fill u ) ,8 _s1 & ) p[]1 if we w\ld tru/ ,him & believe ,8 promise4 ,b did ,he give ,himself = u t we might rema9 9 s91 & yet n be puni%$8 ,?is is :at ! ,univ]sali/s say4 ,b no6 ,he gave ,himself = u t ,he might r$eem u f iniquity1 & f all iniquity at t4 ,he 0 manife/$ to deliv] u f ! guilt ( our pa/ s9s2 &1 second1 to deliv] u f ! dom9ion & p[] ( s91 t be+ free f s91 we might live unto ,god4 ,& t man :o ?9ks he has be5 p>don$ = pa/ s9s is mi/ak51 unless he also has be5 sav$ f ! p[] ( s91 s z no long] to be l$ captive by ! devil4 ,let n :at ,i say disc\rage anybody4 ,if y h n be5 sav$ f ! p[] ( evil & ( evil habits1 y may be sav$1 & t "h & n[4 ,! fact is1 _m ( u are s selfi%1 we j want to be deliv]$ f ! dang]1 b n f ! practice1 ( s94 ,"s ( u enjoy s94 ,if "s :o are "h c\ld h all desire = liquor utt]ly tak5 away by rais+ a h&1 !y w\ld1 p]haps1 n raise a h&1 because !y love liquor too well4 ,if "s c\ld be utt]ly & =ev] fre$ f lu/ by b[+ _! heads1 !y w\ld n be will+ to b[ _! heads1 because !y f9d s mu* pleasure 9 lu/ & 9 lewd ?\ghts1 feel+s & acts1 t !y d n desire to be fre$ f t :i* gives !m ?is l[1 animal pleasure4 ,& yet ^! same m5 w pr(ess to h great desires to be cleans$ f _! s9s4 ,b1 if y are will+1 ,*ri/ is ready & able to deliv] y f all ^! base & bea/ly passions & habits4 ,:at d y say8 ,d y want to be r$eem$ f all iniquity to-night8 ,& :5 ?us deliv]$ f all iniquity1 y\r s\l be+ pure w desire no?+ b to d good1 & to br+ o!r poor soil$ & enslav$ s\ls into ! same lib]ty & purity4 ,s9ce my conv]sion ,i h _h no o!r desire & no o!r c>e b to d good & save o!rs4 ,& t is :at ! text says3 ,zeal\s ( good works4 ,n[1 y :o h be5 sav$ "h1 ,i want to ask y3 ,:at are y do+ = o!rs8 ,if y d n ab\nd 9 good works1 & d n try to save o!rs1 x w be difficult or impossible to keep y\rself sav$4 ,jesus said3 ,e bran* t be>e? n fruit ,he take? away4--,john ,,xv3 #a4 ,& y w f9d y\r supply ( grace runn+ %ort & y\r fai? gr[+ weak & tott]+1 if y d n make x a po9t & bus9ess to d good to o!rs--to _! bodies & _! s\ls4 ,:at d y say8 ,has anybody else he>d f y\r lips ( y\r great bless+ & salvation8 ,d y tell y\r family & y\r fri5ds ab\t x8 ,d y tell o!rs ( _! s9s & _! dang]8 ,d y pray = o!rs8 ,d y give y\r "t 7"p ( x at lea/7 & y\r money 9 do+ good to o!rs8 ,if y d1 y w f9d y\r own cup gets full]1 y\r own fai? /rong]1 y\r own he>t m joyful4 ,x is ,god's law & ,god's plan t y %\ld give out to o!rs4 ,9 s do+ ,he w increase y\r own supply4 ,d y feel y\r weakness8 ,x is "r y %\ld d s4 ,b d ! "w1 speak ! ^w1 & leave x to ,god :o give? ! increase1 & x %all ab\nd to ! salvation ( o!rs1 ! joy ( y\r he>t1 & ! glory ( ,8 bless$ "n4 ,,isaiah ,,lv3 #f-g4 ,seek ye ! ,"l :ile ,he may be f\nd1 call ye ^u ,him :ile ,he is ne>4 ,let ! wick$ man =sake 8 way & let him return unto ! ,"l & ,he w abundantly p>don4 ,if a fa!r 7 to write a lett] to a dissipat$ & rebelli\s son1 f> away f home1 to p]suade him to return1 & to assure him ( a cordial welcome1 he c\ld h>dly fill x full] ( expressions ( t5d]ness & love1 expressions to inspire confid5ce1 ?an ! ,bible is ( su* expressions f ! great ,god4 ,?is *apt] conta9s an invitation to seek ,god1 & a preci\s promise ( =giv5ess to any :o w d s4 #a4 ,seek ye ! ,"l4 ,n[1 y "k :at x means :5 x says seek4 ,y "k :at x means :5 a man says he is seek+ employm5t4 ,he goes f place to place1 f man to man1 & he does ?is f day to day1 & f week to week if he does n succe$2 & ! reason is1 !re is a necessity ^u him4 ,he mu/ h employm5t1 or himself & family are )\t bread1 )\t clo?+1 )\t %elt]4 ,s :5 we talk ab\t a man seek+ ! ,"l1 we mean t he se>*es dilig5tly = ,him1 & f day to day1 & f week to week1 because !re is some?+ worse ?an />vation to suff] if he does n f9d ,god4 ,i tell y :5 a man has s\l-hung]1 x is worse ?an body-hung] if he does n f9d ,god4 ,:5 a man is sick ( s9 & feels 8 lonel9ess & orphanage1 & t he is )\t ,god & )\t hope 9 ! _w1 & t he d>e n g into et]nity 9 8 condition ( guilt & uncleanness1 x is m fe>ful ?an hung] ( ! body1 & x w make him seek = ,god ) all 8 s\l4 ,h[ am ,i to seek ,god8 y say4 ,well1 seek ,him by pray]4 ,call ^u ,him1 z ! text says4 ,ask & x %all be giv5 y4 ,g (f to y\rself4 ,%ut out ev]ybody4 ,be entirely alone4 ,!n get d[n ^u y\r knees & call ^u ,god4 ,plead ,8 promises4 ,tell ,him y h he>d t ,he receives & saves s9n]s1 & t y are a s9n]1 & t y d n mean to let ,him g until ,he blesses y4 ,seek ,him by read+ good1 religi\s books & pap]s1 & especially ! ,bible2 & don't read any o!r sort ( read+ unless x is necess>y till y f9d ,him4 ,keep y\r m9d on ,god all ! "t4 ,seek ,him by go+ ) good1 ,*ri/ian p1 pi\s1 godly m5 & wom5 :o walk ) ,god1 no matt] :at _! "n or d5om9ation may be4 ,if y say y don't "k :]e to f9d su*1 come to our ,mission rooms1 to ! ,walnut-/reet *ur*1 to all our meet+s1 prea*+1 pray]-meet+1 ,sunday-s*ool1 class-meet+s1 ask u que/ions1 use u 9 any way we c help y to f9d ,god4 ,seek+ ,him by putt+ out ( ! way ^? ?+s :i* are h9drances4 ,! text ref]s to ?is4 ,x says1 ,let ! wick$ =sake 8 ways & ! unrighte\s man 8 ?\ghts & ?us let him return unto ,god4 ,! =sak+ ( s9 is ! ma9 feature ( :at we call rep5tance4 ,y c n come to ,god unless y come giv+ up y\r s9s entirely or cry+ to ,god = help to give !m up4 ,y c1 by ,god's grace1 give up all y\r s9s & all y\r s9ful & slavi% habits4 ,a pro( ( ?is is my own deliv]ance f evil habits1 z :isky1 tobacco & evil passions1 z lewdness1 lic5ti\sness4 #a4 ,y mu/ give up s94 ,y c n expect to reta9 x & please ,god or s]ve ,god4 ,d n "q ?is4 ,y mu/ give up s94 ,!re is no escape4 ,turn away f x ) all y\r he>t & s\l4 #b4 ,y mu/ give up all s91 y\r besett+ s91 ! s9 t has ! mo/ p[] ov] y4 #c4 ,give up all s9 n[4 ,d n wait4 ,god w help y4 ,y "k n t y w be liv+ to-morr[ or next ,sunday2 & if y are1 x w n be any easi] !n ?an x is to-day4 ,n[ is ! day ( salvation4 #d4 ,give up all s91 give x up n[1 & give x up =ev]4 ,y c n give x up = a:ile & !n turn to x aga94 ,t w d y no good4 ,y might z well n give x up at all z to turn back to x aga94 ,& look to ,god = help1 = pres5t help1 = all-suffici5t /r5g?4 ,tell ,him by ,8 help y mean to be ,81 no matt] :at x co/s2 & believe on ,jesus ,*ri/1 ,8 ,son1 z ! be>] ( y\r pa/ s9s & ! giv] ( ! ,holy ,_s1 & v soon y w be happi] ?an ! m5 :o own ^! hotels & bus9ess h\ses & ,broadway palaces & hundr$s ( ?\s&s ( doll>s4 ,yes2 y w4 ,i "k f my exp]i5ce & t ( o!rs4 ,my text says1 ,god w h m]cy on y & w abundantly p>don y4 ,,! ,,p>able ,,( ,,! ,,s[]4 ,,luke ,,viii3 #e-ae4 ,jesus may h se5 a f>m] s[+ se$1 &1 direct+ ! att5tion ( ! p to him1 utt]$ ?is p>able4 ,he took ! commone/ & mo/ famili> facts & occurr5ces & made !m ! means ( express+ ! great tru?s ( ,8 k+dom4 ,s ,8 m9i/]s %\ld try to d n[--tea* ! tru? ( ,god 9 language easily und]/ood by ! m5 address$4 ,he divides ! he>]s ( ! ^w into f\r classes3 be ready !n to decide 9 :i* class y are1 = y are c]ta9ly 9 "o4 #a4 ,! se$ :i* fell on ! h>d beat5 pa? is ! ^w prea*$ to m5 :o d n receive any impression at all f he>+ x4 ,!y h =gott5 x by ! "t ! s\nd ( ! prea*]'s voice has di$ away4 ,x does n ent] _! m9ds & produce any ?\ght2 nor _! he>ts1 & produce any feel+4 ,are !re n ?\s&s ( p :o g to *ur*1 :o he> prea*+ con/antly1 & yet x produces no effect8 ,!y are no bett]1 & !y d n try to be4 ,b 9 ! twelf? v]se we f9d :o is ! cause ( ?is a/oni%+ indiff]5ce & h>dness--x is ! devil :o causes !m at once & =ev] to =get all t is said le/ !y %\ld believe & be sav$4 ,!re is an unse5 adv]s>y1 !n1 :o keeps u f ?9k+ ab\t religion all he c4 ,if y d n ?9k ab\t x mu*1 t is a pro( t y are "u 8 influ5ce4 #b4 ,! next class consi/s ( ^? :o f impulse become religi\s )\t c\nt+ ! co/4 ,!y d n /op to reflect t to be godly requires self-d5ial1 humility1 pati5ce1 crucify+ ! fle% ) all its lu/s4 ,& s1 :5 temptation comes or trial1 !y give up 9 disgu/4 ,!y are l ,pliable 9 ,bunyan's ,pilgrims' ,progress--easily p]suad$ to />t on ! way to heav51 b j z easily disc\rag$ & disgu/$4 ,!re are lots ( su* p n[4 ,!y lack /ability4 #c4 ,! next class are ^? :o he>1 believe1 receive & practice ! ^w ( ,god--:o run well = a season1 maybe = a long season1 b are little by little1 & 9 an unp]ceiv$ way1 drawn away f _! fir/ love1 & !n on to p]dition4 ,?ree ?+s are "h m5tion$ z draw+ !m gradually away f _! devotion to ,*ri/3 7a7 ,c>es4 ,!y h s mu* to att5d to1 !y d n h "t or take "t = _! religi\s duties1 z pray]1 go+ to meet+s1 etc41 & miss+ ^!1 !y soon gr[ cold1 & !y are s occupi$ & worri$ ) ! multitude ( ?+s to be att5d$ to1 !y h no disposition = religion4 ,all ?is c>e may be ab\t ?+s t are lawful1 z mak+ a liv+1 = example4 7b7 ,ri*es4 ,oh1 h[ deceitful ri*es are4 ,we ?9k we don't love !m1 b let u be ask$ to "p ) !m1 z ,*ri/ ask$ ! "y man1 & we see4 ,john ,wesley said1 ,z weal? increases1 religion decreases1 & he 0 "r4 7c47 ,pleasure4 ,! pleasure ( f9e1 ri* liv+1 fa%ionable life1 f9e dress1 !at]-go+1 balls1 p>ties1 flirtations1 ! admiration & praise ( o!rs etc41 etc4 #d4 ,! la/ class are ^? :o c\nt ! co/1 g 9 ) _! eyes op51 :o won't let c>es1 ri*es or pleasures draw !m (f1 b :o "w1 & s]ve1 & pray ) pati5ce ev5 unto ! end4 ,,ii4 ,,cor9?ians1 ,,ii3 #aa4 ,le/ ,satan %\ld get an advantage ( u2 = we are n ignorant ( 8 devices4 ,! ,new ,te/am5t ev]y:]e tea*es t !re is a p]sonal evil _s ( wond]ful cunn+ & deep malignity t[>d ,god & ! human race4 ,h5ce1 our conflict is n ) fle% & blood2 n aga9/ our own incl9ations to evil1 nor aga9/ s9 9 ! ab/ract1 b x is aga9/ ! god ( ?is _w1 ! _s t n[ worke? 9 ! *ildr5 ( disob$i5ce4 ,!re=e1 yield+ to s9 is no small matt]1 = x is yield+ to an enemy ( unfa?omable hatr$ t[>d u1 & ( ! deepe/ cunn+1 :o1 9 ev]y?+1 has = 8 purpose our ru9 & ,god's disappo9tm5t1 & :o1 h[ev] lightly he may let 8 *a9s lie ^u u :ile we are l$ captive by him1 at 8 w1 always draws !m s tight1 :5 we attempt to escape f him1 t only ,almighty ,god c break !m (f & set u free4 ,x makes a va/ diff]5ce :e!r s9 is only ! indulg5ce ( a passion :i* c h no intellig5t design to damage & to ru9 u1 & :i* passes away :5 x is gratifi$1 to tr\ble u no m1 or :e!r x is ! means adopt$ by an invisible b awfully real & helli% foe to lure u to an un=ese5 ru94 ,yes1 s9 is n a m]e pleasure ^: effects are end$ :5 ! enjoym5t is ov]1 b x is ! bait t hides ! cruel hook ?r[n out = u by ! artful fi%]man ( hell4 ,& he is all ! m dang]\s because we c n see him & realize always 8 ultimate purpose4 ,! skillful fi%]man keeps himself out ( sight & lets ! fi% see only ! tempt+ bait1 & s ! poor1 deceiv$ creature is lur$ by a h>mless look+ pleasure on to agony & dea?4 ,& ,satan n only controls ! _w1 b he cont9ually tempts ,*ri/ians2 ^? :o h j rec5tly escap$ out ( 8 sn>es & are on _! way to heav54 ,& n[1 :at are "s ( 8 devices8 #a4 ,he makes a gr& ef=t to p]suade "y ,*ri/ians t !y h nev] be5 conv]t$4 ,he almo/ inv>iably attacks !m ) ?is temptation4 ,he sometimes pursues !m = ye>s ) ?is fe>1 t !y h nev] really exp]i5c$ a *ange ( he>t4 ,&1 if he succe$s 9 p]suad+ !m ( ?is1 he has ga9$ a gr& po9t t[>d _! fall4 ,= to f9d t "o is mi/ak5 9 ! belief t he has pass$ f dea? unto life1 is ! mo/ disc\rag+1 di%e>t5+ ?+ he c\ld exp]i5ce4 ,i h kn[n old m9i/]s ( ! ,gospel say t ! fir/ ?+ ,satan ev] tempt$ !m ) 0 ?is sugge/ion1 t !y 7 mi/ak5 9 believ+ t !y _h pass$ ?r\gh t wond]ful *ange :i* makes a s9n] an heir ( ,god1 & fits him = heav54 ,s1 my bro!r1 y are 9 ! l9e ( ,god's true s]vants if ! enemy has tr\bl$ y ) ?is temptation4 ,don't1 !re=e1 let x disc\rage y4 ,& d n1 by any means1 give up to x4 ,say to y\r tempt] t y\r ,"l says he is a li> f ! beg9n+1 & t y c n believe him1 b y pref] to believe ,god4 ,& ! v fact t y are /rongly tempt$ to believe y are n conv]t$ is "o pro( t y are4 ,= if y 7 really n conv]t$1 b /ill 9 ! fle%1 ! devil w\ld tempt y to believe y 7 conv]t$1 9 ord] to make y re/ satisfi$ & deceiv$ ) y\r unsav$ condition4 ,z he does tempt _m worldly-m9d$ *ur* memb]s to believe !y are *ang$ en\gh to be safe1 & s !y re/ satisfi$ 9 _! unsav$ condition1 & p]i%4 ,s1 !re are _m *ur* memb]s :o become irreconcilably (f5d$ if y d>e to sugge/ to !m t y don't believe !y are really *ildr5 ( ,god4 ,_! temptation !n is to believe ! falsehood1 t !y are really conv]t$ & 9 a safe condition4 ,& if a man's temptation is to believe he is n conv]t$1 x is "o pro( t he is conv]t$4 ,besides1 if ! devil tempts y to believe y are n conv]t$1 y c cut ! matt] %ort by say+3 ,well1 !n1 ,i c be 9 a mom5t4 ,= :osoev] believe? on ! ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/ ha? ev]la/+ life1 & ,i d "h & n[ believe on ,him1 & w hold on to ,him by fai? 9 spite ( e>? & hell4 ,old ,bro!r ,bottomly1 a prea*] 9 ! ,l\isville ,conf]5ce1 0 tempt$ to d\bt 8 conv]sion ! night aft] x occurr$1 z he 0 ly+ on 8 b$4 ,he recogniz$ ,satan at once z ! au?or ( 8 temptation1 & he said3 ,well1 ,satan1 if ,i h n be5 conv]t$1 z y say1 ,i w be4 ,& he got out ( 8 b$1 & d[n on 8 knees1 & he gave himself to ,god1 & he believ$ on ,jesus1 & pray$1 & soon he 0 rejoic+ 9 full assurance1 & ! devil fl$ away out ( he>+ ) 8 h>ass+ temptation4 #b4 ,he tries to make !m believe & feel1 aft] ! gl[ ( ! fir/ love has subsid$ a little1 t ! s]vice ( ,god is h>d & try+1 & t x has no?+ 9 x to satisfy ! he>t & to comp5sate = ! pleasure ( s91 :i* !y h giv5 up4 ,& if y beg9 to yield & to slack5 y\r e>ne/ness or zeal1 he gets a great advantage & y lose ! joy ( religion by lett+ y\rself lag away at a d\bt+ di/ance f ,*ri/1 & !n x does seem l ! devil is tell+ ! tru?1 because y don't keep close en\gh to ,*ri/ & put s\l & w en\gh into ,8 s]vice to get ! joy ( x4 ,*ri/ says3 ,my yoke is easy & my burd5 is light4 ,& if y\r he>t or y\r enemy says ! contr>y1 tell !m t !y are false4 ,b don't all[ y\rself to be tempt$ to try if y c n f9d an easy way to heav54 ,x w get sweet & easy by a pati5t & :ole-s\l$ p]sev]ance 9 x1 b n by slack5+ y\r c>efulness & exp]im5t+ ) worldly pleasure to see h[ f> y c g !re94 #c4 ,b 8 gr& s*eme = ru9+ "y ,*ri/ians1 & ! "o he g5]ally succe$s )1 is ! sugge/ion t !re is no ne$ ( be+ s p>ticul> & s regul> 9 ev]y?+ & s rigid 9 ! p]=mance ( duty & 9 ! avoid+ ( all appe>ances ( evil4 ,9 o!r words1 a sort ( reaction comes1 & a dang]\s ?+ x (t5 proves to be4 ,n[1 ! temptation is to give up ! regul> & rigid p]=mance ( duty because y don't feel z mu* l do+ x z y did at fir/1 or because "s ( y\r well-mean+1 b unr5ew$1 fri5ds say !y c't see ! ne$ ( be+ s p>ticul> & /rict4 ,!re's no use ( go+ to pray]-meet+ e "t1 no use go+ to *ur* twice e ,sunday1 no use hav+ pray] at home e day1 etc4 ,b if y miss any duty once x w be mu* easi] to miss x ! second "t & y w be mu* m likely to neglect x aga94 ,& y c't af=d to take su* a dang]\s risk 9 s important a matt]4 ,& !n we beg9 to ?9k t !re is no use be+ s p>ticul> ab\t ab/a9+ f ! v beg9n+s ( evil1 or else we p]suade ourselves t we h gr[n s /rong & h be5 s *ang$ we c be m5 n[ & enjoy ?+s 9 mod]ation :i* =m]ly we c\ld n use )\t go+ to excess4 ,ah1 bro!r1 y are walk+ "r into "o ( ,satan's unse5 traps4 ,o1 bew>e6 ,= y\r happ9ess' sake1 bew>e6 = y\r family's sake1 bew>e6 ,satan says1 ,x's no h>m to take a dram if y don't get drunk2 no h>m to g to ! race track if y don't bet2 no h>m to g to ! ball-room if y don't dance1 etc4 ,b we "k t ev5 9 case ( a y\? :o has nev] be5 9 ! habit ( indulg+ 9 s9s1 !y h a gr[+ *>m & p[] ov] him if he yields once or twice2 h[ mu* great] ! dang] = "o :o has be5 ! slave ( ^! s9s & has only rec5tly brok5 (f f !m6 ,i he>d a rec5tly conv]t$ man say to a fri5d :o 0 />t+ away on a trip1 ,dunc1 don't let ! devil say to y ',n[1 j take "o dr9k & !n /op4' ,= ,i tell y1 if y take "o dr9k y are gone4 ,n[1 ?is man und]/ood ! case & ! dang]4 ,!re is no possibility ( compromise4 ,no possible middle gr\nd 9 ^! ?+s1 especially = u :o 7 once ! slaves ( our evil passions4 ,i h he>d ( a man :o = ye>s _h ab/a9$ f dr9k+ & 8 fa!r1 ?9k+ he 0 safe1 invit$ him to dr9k toddies ) him4 ,! son did s1 & he w5t back to 8 old habit ( drunk5ness1 _h delirium trem5s1 =c$ 8 wife to get a divorce & br\ght di/ress & disgrace & angui% on 8 family z well z himself4 ,t 0 a ,mr4 ,d41 :o has sev]al times be5 to our ,mission4 ,s1 my bro!r1 ?\gh y may ?9k y w\ld be safe to trifle ) s91 & try to practice mod]ation1 x is su* an awful1 awful risk y _h bett] n make ! exp]im5t4 ,rememb]1 x is only ! bait ( ,satan to lure y to c]ta9 ru94 ,= y\r sake1 = y\r fa!r's sake1 = y\r "m's sake1 = y\r wife's sake1 = y\r *ildr5's sake1 = ,*ri/'s sake1 don't d x4 ,,comp>ison ,,( ,,! ,,righte\s ,,& ,,wick$4 ,,psalm ,i3 #a-b4 ,all ,scripture is giv5 by inspiration ( ,god1 & h5ce x is pr(itable = in/ruction & assi/ance to ^? :o w att5tively consid] x4 ,?is ,psalm is a "p ( ! ,scripture1 & we may expect to f9d x in/ructive & helpful4 ,x conta9s a description ( ! righte\s man4 #a4 ,x tells :at he does n d4 ,he does n walk 9 ! c\nsel ( ! ungodly4 ,?is is ! beg9n+ ( an evil life--to g among ^? :o are ungodly & to li/5 to _! op9ions & views & c\nsels4 ,!re is no s91 our evil he>ts sugge/ to u1 9 m]ely go+ ) worldly p1 if we d n patt]n aft] _! ways & d z !y d4 ,we c g ) !m & yet n d z !y d4 ,b ! hi/ory1 ! sad hi/ory1 ( _m a /ruggl+ s\l1 %[s t ?is is a great mi/ake4 ,we c't g ) bad associates & n be h>m$ by !m4 ,! v fact t we want to g ) wick$ p %[s t !re is 9 u an incl9ation t[>d s9 :i* is dang]\s1 & :i* ought to be sev]ely wat*$ & kept d[n r ?an enc\rag$4 ,m m5 h be5 ru9$ by _! associations ?an by any o!r "o cause4 ,& let me say by way ( w>n+ t if any ( y1 my fri5ds1 are purpos+ & try+ to lead a new life1 y w h to give up ! associations ( y\r old life & *oose new ones1 z ,i _h to d1 & did d4 ,b did y obs]ve ! ^w walk "h 9 ?is v]se8 ,t ^w is int5d$ to %[ t 9 ! fir/ "p ( a s9ful life !re is re/lessness & uneas9ess4 ,! man :o is j beg9n+ to s9 aga9/ light & consci5ce & ,god is uneasy ab\t x4 ,he c n be /ill4 ,x is some?+ new & /range1 & 8 consci5ce rises up aga9/ 8 conduct2 & till he goes on to ! dead5+ ( 8 consci5ce1 x gives him di/ress & anxiety4 ,b x says1 ! good man does n /& 9 ! way ( s9n]s4 ,?is is ! second /age4 ,:5 a man passes ?r\gh ! fir/ /age & gets to ?is second "o1 !n he n only li/5s to ! conv]sation & c\nsel ( ^? :o are ungodly--t is1 :o make no pr(essions ( religion--b he goes n[ ) op5 s9n]s1 9 ! way ) evil do]s1 violators ( law1 crim9als aga9/ ,god & man4 ,& n[ obs]ve he takes a /&4 ,x is no long] walk1 = ! re/lessness & uneas9ess h ab\t pass$ away1 & he takes a delib]ate /& among wick$ m51 :o d n fe> to commit any sort ( crime4 ,&1 my "y fri5d1 ?is is always ! way ) s94 ,x gr[s ^u a man2 & be=e he is aw>e ( x1 he has gr[n fond ( x1 sees no evil or dang] 9 x1 & delib]ately *ooses x z 8 c\rse ( life4 ,bew>e1 !n1 ( beg9n+ 9 ! way ( evil4 ,b x says1 9 ! ?ird place1 t he does n sit 9 ! seat ( ! scornful4 ,ah1 "h we h ! ?ird /age ( ! d[nw>d c\rse ( s94 ,fir/1 !re 0 a re/lessness 9 ev5 associat+ ) ungodly p2 second1 a delib]ate /& among s9n]s1 evil do]s1 z "o ( _! numb]2 & n[ x is sitt+ d[n 9 ! seat ( ! scornful4 ,:5 m5 h sil5c$ ! voice ( consci5ce1 & sp5t ye>s 9 ! practice ( evil1 !y come at la/ to lose fai? 9 ev]y?+--9 ,god1 9 man1 9 virtue1 9 goodness2 & !y become cold & sne]+ scorn]s ( ev]y?+ t is call$ good4 ,h y n kn[n m5 :o h gone ?r\gh ?is d[nw>d road8 ,nay1 d y n "k n[ "s :o are travel+ ?is ru9\s pa?way8 ,i h kn[n "y m5 to g among gambl]s j to look on4 ,!y w\ld h fe>$ to t\* ! implem5ts ( s91 b !y became famili>iz$ ) ! sight1 & !n took "p2 & f bad to worse1 h gone on & on1 till x makes me %udd] to "k :at !y are to-day4 ,i tell y1 my fri5ds1 ! c\rse ( s9 is d[n1 d[n1 d[n4 ,y may z soon expect to get 9 a boat on ! curr5t ( ,niag>a above ! falls & /& /ill1 z to expect t y c laun* y\rself on ! curr5t ( s9 & n g d[n t[>d swift & c]ta9 ru94 ,bew>e !n6 ,he> ! voice ( w>n+ be=e y h gone too f> ev] to return4 #b4 ,9 ! next place1 ?is ,psalm tells :at a good man does4 ,8 delight is 9 ! law ( ! ,"l4 ,he is satisfi$ t 9 s9 !re is only ru92 & turn+ ) fe> & dread away f s91 he ye>ns to f9d ,god1 :o alone c deliv] him f s9 & keep him f x & furni% him a satisfy+ portion in/ead ( x4 ,b :]e c we f9d ,god1 & h[8 ,n 9 nature2 = !re is no?+ cle> en\gh 9 nature to tea* any?+ ab\t ,god or h[ to come to ,8 pres5ce4 ,b he c expect to f9d ,god 9 t revelation :i* ,god has made ( ,himself 9 ,8 ^w4 ,s he goes to t1 & he f9ds !re enc\ragem5t & in/ruction & t5d] invitations & promises ( m]cy & help2 & ! m he seeks ! m he f9ds to draw him on1 to satisfy 8 ye>n+ he>t & to *>m 8 poor s\l away f ! love ( s94 ,z he practices :at he f9ds 9 ,god's ^w1 he realizes ! bless$ness ( x4 ,x br+s peace1 purity1 deliv]ance f d>kness1 unc]ta9ty & fe>2 & s he longs to "k m & m ( x & he /udies into x4 ,d y "k t to "o ^: he>t is *ang$ ! ^w ( ,god is l a :ole ,cali=nia ( gold m9es8 ,he is always f9d+ treasures !re4 ,e "t he reads x !re is some?+ new & ri* & bless$4 ,! deepe/ & mo/ dev\t /ud5ts ( ,god's ^w say t !re is no end to its weal? ( in/ruction & consolation4 ,if y want to "k ,god & ,8 salvation1 y ought to set ap>t a c]ta9 "t e day to pray]fully read & /udy into ,8 ^w1 always ask+ ,8 guidance & help4 ,& x w soon come to pass t1 z ! text says1 y w delight 9 ! law ( ,god4 ,d y ev] delib]ately1 c>efully1 /udi\sly1 humbly & pray]fully read ! ,bible8 ,y say1 ,no4 ,!n h[ c y expect to "k any?+ ( ,god8 ,h[ c a physician "k any?+ ( ! nature ( ! human body unless he /udies into x8 ,& h[ c y "k any?+ ( ,god & ,8 wond]ful m]cy unless y g & se>* :]e ,god has reveal$ ?is = man8 ,!re are "s m5 :o w n read ! ,bible because !y c't und]/& x4 ,( c\rse !y c't und]/& x all1 b1 if !y c und]/& "o v]se 9 a *apt]1 let !m take t & /udy on x & believe x1 & keep read+1 & soon m & m w op5 out to _! und]/&+1 & x w be a con/ant surprise & delight to f9d ! undream$-( beauties & com=ts ( ! ^w ( ,god4 ,promise ,god n[ t y w pati5tly read "s e day4 ,y w !n f9d y\r desire = s9 & s9ful associations leav+ y4 ,,psalm ,i3 #c-f4 ,we propose to-day a cont9uance ( ! /udy ( ! fir/ ,psalm1 :i* we begun ,sunday la/4 ,!n we saw ! d[nw>d c\rse ( s9 & ( ! s9n]1 & ( ! great trans=mation ( ! nature ( m5 :5 !y are conv]t$ or become righte\s4 ,& n[ ! inspir$ writ] goes on to speak ( ! fruitfulness ( su* m54 ,he %all be l a tree plant$ by ! riv]s ( wat] t br+e? =? its fruit 9 its season4 ,y "k a tree plant$ by a riv] draws moi/ure f bel[1 & does n dep5d on ! unc]ta9 ra9s t may or may n come4 ,& s 9 "t ( dr\ght x %all be> its fruit at its prop] season4 ,s ! man :o is born ( ,god1 ^: nature is trans=m$ & made holy1 is fruitful 9 good de$s1 9 b5evol5t works4 ,hav+ himself be5 translat$ f ! k+dom ( d>kness into ! light1 he has a desire1 a /rong desire1 an unqu5*able desire1 t all o!rs %\ld "k ! same happ9ess1 & he works by all means to p]suade !m1 to get _! good w & _! confid5ce4 ,he w fe$ & clo! !m1 take !m up out ( fil? & rags & reclo! !m & befri5d !m 7z we are try+ to d at ! ,mission7 9 ord] to get _! good w & direct !m to ,*ri/4 ,n only s1 b :5 a man has truly ! ,_s ( ,god1 he has an inexpressible pity = 8 poor bro!r mortals1 & a t5d] sympa?y = _! suff]+s & sorr[s4 ,8 he>t is a f\nta9 ( compassion = ^? :o are 9 di/ress2 & ?is leads him to labor t he may 9 "s way1 & 9 all possible ways1 br+ !m relief & com=t4 ,&1 z ! tree on ! riv] is suppli$ ) moi/ure f an unse5 s\rce1 & )\t ! %[]s1 s ! man ^: he>t is 9 communion ) ,god nev] suff]s a dr\ght4 ,:5 ! b5evol5ce ( worldly m5 fails1 8 goes on & nev] fails4 ,m5 wond] t he does n get tir$ or gr[ we>y or disappo9t$ & disc\rag$4 ,b no6 he nev] does4 ,8 zeal n dep5d+ on *ang+ influ5ces f )\t1 b suppli$ f an unse5 & nev]-fail+ s\rce--t is1 ,god--nev] gives out4 ,s he is always be>+ fruit4 ,o!r m5 may be cold & selfi%1 & panics & fam9es may %ut up _! feel+s ( sympa?y1 b ! man ( ,god goes on work+ & be>+ fruit 9 panics & fam9es1 9 cold & hot1 9 wet & dry1 9 pl5ty or 9 pov]ty1 always & ev]4 ,! ungodly are n s4 ,no2 ! ungodly gre$ily dev\r all !y c get1 & crave all !y c't get4 ,!y want selfi% pleasure no matt] :at sacrifice or pa9 x may co/ o!rs4 ,!y want ! prop]ty ( o!r p1 ?\gh x leave a wid[ 9 pov]ty & orphans 9 want4 ,!y want honor & promotion & fame1 if x be built on ! d[nfall ( _! neighbors & fell[s4 ,!y want ! pass+ animal pleasure ( lic5ti\sness1 if x blight ! life & ru9 ! s\l ( an innoc5t be+ & turn a happy home into a v hell ( angui%4 ,self6 ,self6 ,self6 always & ev]6 & if !re be "s semblance ( b5evol5ce1 x is = ! high] selfi%ness ( gett+ ! honor t m5 be/[ on *>ity1 or to appease an angry & torm5t+ consci5ce1 t la%es !m ) fury = _! misde$s done 9 secret4 ,! ungodly are l ! *aff4 ,!y h no /ability1 no /eadfa/ness1 no fix$ purpose or plan 9 life--no?+ to tie to2 & s !y are ! victims ( circum/ances & *anges & moods & temp]s1 & are driv5 hi!r & ?i!r by e pass+ breeze4 ,h[ ,i d pity ! poor man :o does n "k or c>e :at he is liv+ =1 & j pursues e day :at happ5s to take 8 m9d = t day4 ,& because ! ungodly are n /eadfa/ & fix$ 9 _! devotion to ,god1 nei!r %all !y be able to /& 9 ! judgm5t4 ,!n1 !re is a judgm5t com+1 is !re8 ,oh1 yes6 ,all ^! ?+s t m5 are do+ are n done & !n put away =ev] & =gott54 ,no6 no6 no6 !y are all to be br\ght into review aga9 & expos$ be=e ,god & all m5 assembl$ 9 judgm5t4 ,all ! midnight meanness y h done w !n be br\ght to light4 ,:]e 7 y la/ night8 ,:at 7 y do+8 ,h[ w\ld y l = me to tell "r "h be=e all ?is cr[d all ! mean & fil?y ?+s y h done 9 ! la/ week & kept !m hidd5 f fa!r1 "m1 wife1 *ildr5 & e o!r mortal except ! accomplices ( y\r guilt & %ame8 ,ah6 y c\ld n /&2 no1 y c\ld n /&4 ,!n1 h[ d y expect to /& :5 ,god is recit+ to y all ! misdo+s ( all ! midnights ( y\r :ole lives be=e y\r fa!r1 "m1 si/]s1 wife1 neighbors & all ! _w8 ,,god',s ,,love ,,= ,,s9n]s4 ,,romans ,v3 #h4 ,b ,god comm5de? ,8 love = u 9 t :ile we 7 yet s9n]s1 ,*ri/ di$ = u4 ,!re are _m ( u :o feel t we are s9n]s1 :o "k x1 & :o d n want any pro( ( x2 b we c't be p]suad$ to believe t ,god has any love = u or int]e/ 9 u4 ,we h gott5 to be su* wick$ s9n]s t maybe our fri5ds h =sak5 u1 & we c n believe t ,god has any feel+ ( t5d]ness = u4 ,we are will+ to admit t ,god loves good p1 ^? :o are ob$i5t1 & t if we 7 good1 ,he w\ld !n love u2 b z x is1 ,he c n love u1 & !re is no reason :y ,he %\ld love u4 ,& !n we g back & try to call up all our s9s2 all ! times :5 we reject$ ,*ri/ & ! tru?1 & we f9d pl5ty ( argum5ts to prove t ,god does n love u4 ,b /op6 ,y are judg+ ! great ,god by y\rself4 ,y "k y w\ld n love "o :o w\ld h treat$ y z y h treat$ ,god1 & s y conclude ,he does n love y4 ,y f9d x exce$+ly h>d to believe 9 ! love ( ,god4 ,?is is "o ( ! sad effects ( s94 ,x d>k5s our he>ts & sep>ates u f>1 f> f ,god1 s t :5 we come to feel our ne$ ( ,him we h no confid5ce t ,he w accept u or help u4 ,besides1 by y\r long s]vice ( s91 y h put y\rself 9 ! p[] ( an enemy :o makes x z difficult z possible = y to believe 9 ,god's love = y4 ,b ,i come to y to-day ) a decl>ation & assurance f ,god's own ^w1 t ?\gh y h be5 a s9n] all y\r life1 & /ill feel t y are ! greate/ ( s9n]s1 ! great ,god loves y ) a true1 deep1 w>m & ye>n+ love4 ,! great pro( ( x is ! life & dea? ( ,jesus ,*ri/1 ,8 ,son4 ,h y read ab\t x 9 ! ,gospel8 ,ah1 if y _h1 & _h se5 ,him delight+ to be ) ! poor & ! outca/1 eat+ ) !m1 *oos+ !m = ,8 fri5ds1 speak+ words ( heav5ly *e] to !m1 pron\nc+ _! s9s =giv5 & promis+ !m heav51 !n y w\ld be mov$ & attract$ & conv9c$4 ,& !n if y _h read ! pa!tic /ory ( ,8 awful suff]+s & dea?1 & _h reflect$ t ,he 0 w\nd$ = our transgressions2 ,he 0 bruis$ = our iniquities2 all we l %eep h gone a/ray1 & ! ,"l ha? laid on ,him ! iniquity ( u all1 !n hope w\ld beg9 to dawn 9 y\r brea/1 & fai? 9 ,8 love w\ld n be s difficult4 ,b y h neglect$ to read & reflect ab\t x1 & s ,i am come to br+ ! glad tid+s to y :]e y are1 & to beg y to believe x = y\r own sake4 ,& n[1 "h are "s ( ! ways ,god has tak5 to tell y ( ,8 love3 ,psalm ciii41 #ac2 ,isaiah xlix41 #ae2 ,luke xi41 #ac2 ,luke xviii41 #ac1 #ad2 ,luke xv41 #g1 #aj2 ,prodigal ,son2 ,luke vii41 #cf to end4 ,i came n to call ! righte\s b s9n]s to rep5tance4 ,:y does ,god1 9 s _m ways1 express ,8 love = s9n]s8 ,because ,he wants to t\* _! he>ts & melt !m by t5d]ness4 ,a fa!r ^: son _h gone away to ,cali=nia1 & 0 a gambl] 9 ,san ,francisco1 s5t him ^w by a fri5d3 ,y\r fa!r loves y /ill4 ,& x made him a%am$2 x broke 8 he>t2 he rep5t$1 return$ home & 0 sav$4 ,s ,god s5ds me to-day to say to y3 ,y\r ,fa!r loves y /ill4 ,w y n believe x & come to ,him = safety8 ,he w n abuse y = y\r s9s2 ,he w save y f y\r s9s1 & make y z happy z y 7 :5 y 7 little *ildr5 at y\r "m's knee4 ,y "k x is true t p>5ts are m tr\bl$ ab\t a w&]+ boy1 & take m pa9s ) him ?an ) ! good boys1 & ?9k m ab\t him & pray m = him1 because he is 9 dang] & mu/ be rescu$ or p]i%4 ,s x is ) ,god4 ,because y are lo/1 away f ,him1 on ! road to ru91 ,he s5ds aft] y & ,he begs y to be reconcil$4 ,,godl9ess ,,pr(itable ,,= ,,?is ,,life4 ,i4 ,,timo?y ,,iv3 #h4 ,b godl9ess is pr(itable unto all ?+s hav+ ! promise ( ! life t n[ is & ( t :i* is to come4 ,!re are n _m :o ?9k ?is4 ,ne>ly ev]ybody admits t religion is a good ?+ to h :5 he is ab\t to die & to ent] ^u ! future life2 & all m51 h[ev] h>d5$ 9 vice1 wick$ness & crime1 h a sure expectation & firm int5tion ( mak+ "s prep>ation = dea? & :at may foll[ dea?4 ,!y fully int5d to make am5ds to consci5ce = ! violations ( x1 ( :i* !y h be5 guilty4 ,!re are m5 "h to-day :o "k t ?is is true ( !mselves1 :o feel t ! c(f9 & ! grave & ! unkn[n future beyond are ! mo/ fe>ful ( realities1 & :o are firmly p]suad$ t a day ( reckon+ is com+1 maybe sl[ly1 b surely1 & !y d mean to make peace 9 "s way ) consci5ce be=e t "t draws ne>4 ,& s ,i say all m5 agree t religion is good = dea? & :at is to foll[2 b h[ x c be an advantage to "o 9 ?is life1 !y c n see4 #a4 ,b godl9ess is a help to a man 9 mak+ a liv+4 ,if a man is hone/1 indu/ri\s1 fai?ful & consci5ti\s1 he w be 9 dem&4 ,su* m5 are always 9 dem&2 &1 :5 !y are kn[n1 c get employm5t & c keep employm5t2 b a man :o is a true ,*ri/ian1 is hone/1 indu/ri\s1 c>eful1 temp]ate1 tru/wor?y & consci5ti\s1 because he works & lives n to please m5 b ,god4 ,h5ce1 su* a "o is always want$4 ,employ]s1 r ?an give up su* m51 w increase _! sal>ies & (f] !m extra inducem5ts4 ,a ,ma9-/reet m]*ant f\nd he c\ld n d )\t ,willie ,holcombe conv5i5tly1 s he rais$ 8 sal>y tw5ty doll>s a mon? r ?an lose him4 ,&1 ev5 if !y are among /rang]s1 & n kn[n1 yet ,god w turn ! he>ts ( /rang]s t[>d !m1 z he turn$ ! he>t ( ! prison-keep] 9 ,egypt t[>d ,joseph4 ,& :5 !y h a *ance to try & to %[ _! value1 _! employ]s w n give !m up4 ,b !n if a man is 9 bus9ess = himself1 he w get a l>ge cu/om if p f9d out t he does bus9ess z a ,*ri/ian--t is1 he does n *>ge an unju/ & exorbitant price1 8 goods are only :at he says !y are1 he gives full & hone/ measure1 8 ^w c be tru/$1 he w correct mi/akes & take back an article if x is f\nd n to be good4 ,%[ p su* a man & !y w all want to patronize him4 ,william ,k5drick 0 su* a man "h 9 ,l\isville4 ,! ,*ri/ian man has ! promise ( ,god t he %all be provid$ =--,mat!w vi43 #cb1 #cc--:ile ! godless man has no su* assurances at all4 #b4 ,b religion keeps a man f ^? vices :i* de/roy ! heal?--z dissipation1 debau*]y1 intemp]ance1 etc4--& heal? is "o ( ! *ief elem5ts 9 human happ9ess4 #c4 ,religion keeps m5 also f ^? crimes :i* br+ m5 into ru9 & disgrace & bitt] remorse4 ,_m a man has come to ! jail or p5it5ti>y or gall[s :o w\ld h escap$ x all if he _h _h religion to protect & %ield & re/ra9 & assi/ him4 ,& _m a good & happy man !re is :o might h be5 a guilty crim9al & a wret*$ convict b = ! grace ( ,god & ! lessons & bless+s ( true religion4 ,he might gradually h be5 l$ (f & on & on till he w\ld h become capable ( committ+ any crime4 ,i might h be5 a drunk>d or a murd]] /ill1 if ,god _h n *ang$ my he>t & help$ me mightily & con/antly by ,8 grace4 #d4 ,b religion takes away ! fe> ( dea? & ! dread ( ! future & gives inw>d & con/ant peace--a he>t happ9ess :i* pov]ty & disappo9tm5t & trials c n de/roy4 ,& no?+ else c d ?is b true religion4 #e4 ,religion c release a man f ! p[] ( ^? evil habits :i* make a man's life mis]able--f acquir$ appetites1 z dr9k+1 opium eat+1 debau*]y1 lic5ti\sness1 swe>+1 gambl+ & ev5 f tobacco4 #f4 ,religion makes a good fa!r1 a good "m1 a good husb&1 a good wife1 good *ildr51 x makes ! family happy1 & ! home bright1 *e]ful1 joy\s4 #g4 ,x makes a man a good citiz54 ,s he c get along 9 peace ) 8 neighbors & ev5 become a peace-mak] among !m :5 !y qu>rel4 ,?us h ,i tri$ to %[ y t1 reg>dless ( ! future1 godl9ess is pr(itable = ?is life4 ,b if ?is 7 n s1 if ! life ( a ,*ri/ian 7 an un9t]rupt$ exp]i5ce ( pa9s & disappo9tm5ts & sorr[s1 yet1 9 view ( ! int]e/s ( ! s\l1 & ! possibilities ( ! future1 & ! l5g? ( et]nity1 x w\ld be ! highe/ wisdom to *e]fully accept all ^! & endure !m to ! bitt] end1 9 ord] to dep>t out ( ?is _w ) a peaceful & unaccus+ consci5ce & a sure prep>ation = heav54 ,o man1 :at w y d ) et]nity1 et]nity1 if y g ?i!r unprep>$8 ,did y ev] try to ?9k ( et]nity8 ,z ,john ,wesley says1 ,if a bird 7 to come once 9 a million ( ye>s & take away "o gra9 ( ! e>?1 :5 x _h tak5 ! :ole e>? away1 t w\ld n be et]nity1 nor ! beg9n+ ( et]nity4 ,& x is c]ta9 t et]nity is ! p]iod ( ! desolation & confusion & remorse & suff]+ ( ! lo/4 #h4 ,b ev5 if we _h to live 9 mis]y all ?is life1 x w\ld be bett] to d x & h religion2 = x alone fits u = happ9ess 9 ! life to come4 ,take away prop]ty1 com=ts1 fri5ds1 family1 reputation1 heal?1 b give me religion1 & ,i %all h a passport into ! k+dom ( heav5 & an et]nity ( re/ & bless$ness4 ,o !n1 come to ,jesus ,*ri/ & h all ^! ?+s & heav5 beside4 ,,prov]bs ,,xii3 #ae4 ,! way ( transgressors is h>d4 ,our fri5d's c>e] af=ds a /rik+ example ( ! tru? ( ! text4 ,mo/ p d n ?9k ! text is true4 ,b ! ,bible rev]ses ne>ly all ( our notions ab\t ?+s1 & :51 9 ! light ( exp]i5ce & hone/ ?\ght1 we come to exam9e ! ,bible1 we f9d x conta9s ! tru? on all subjects4 ,! natural effects ( a life ( s9 are injuri\s & de/ructive 9 e p>ticul>4 #a4 ,9 ! fir/ place1 vice de/roys heal?4 ,if a man indulges 9 gluttony1 he br+s on dyspepsia ) its accompany+ pa9s & di/ress & torture4 ,all ?is is increas$ by a life ( idl5ess1 laz9ess & inactivity4 ,if he indulges 9 intemp]ance1 he soon becomes a wret*$ slave1 & is consum$ by inw>d fires till delirium trem5s ends ! mis]able c>e]4 ,if he indulges 9 s5suality1 he is likely to contract loa?some & pa9ful diseases--diseases :i* make life a burd5 t c h>dly be borne2 diseases :i* poison ! blood & c n1 by any art or rem$y1 be expell$ f ! sy/em1 b :i* are transmitt$ to ! innoc5t (fspr+1 if !re be any4 #b4 ,x br+s disgrace & drives away fri5ds :o w\ld o!rwise rally ar\nd & help4 ,?is poor man sp5t two t]ms 9 ! p5it5ti>y1 lo/ all 8 fri5ds1 & _h to g to a hospital to die6 #c4 ,9 de/roy+ "o's good "n & ali5at+ "o's fri5ds1 x becomes ! cause ( pov]ty & want4 #d4 ,x de/roys ! happ9ess ( families1 & 9 ?is way adds to ! wret*$ness ( ! "o :o does all ?is mis*ief & damage4 #e4 ,x (t5 produces insanity4 #f4 ,x produces remorse1 uneas9ess ( m9d1 %ame1 hatr$ ( self4 #g4 ,x is :at makes m5 %udd] & %iv] l convicts "u ! gall[s1 :5 !y ?9k ( dea? & come ne> dea?4 ,my own fe> ( dea? 0 some?+ t]rible4 ,! /+ ( dea? is s94 #h4 ,b ?is fe> ( dea?1 ?is awful la%+ ( consci5ce on ! v]ge ( ! grave1 is b ! intimation & ! beg9n+ ( ^? awful exp]i5ces 9 ! future _w :i* ! ,bible describes 9 words ( su* d>k & fe>ful import4 ,b !re is a rem$y = s91 !re is a f\nta9 op5$ 9 ! h\se ( ,k+ ,david = s9 & uncleanness4 ,yes ,!re is a f\nta9 fill$ ) blood ,drawn f ,immanuel's ve9s1 ,& s9n]s plung$ b5ea? t flood ,lose all _! guilty /a9s4 ,! dy+ ?ief rejoic$ to see ,t f\nta9 9 8 day1 ,& !re may y1 ?\gh vile z he1 ,wa% all y\r s9s away4 ,& beside t1 :5 ,he gives salvation f ! guilt ( s91 ,he s5ds1 also1 ! p[] to keep y f s9 9 ! future4 ,x is a full salvation & a free salvation4 ,h[ mu* bett] to accept ,*ri/ :ile y are 9 heal? & let y\r life ( hol9ess & purity & devotion prove t ! "w is a g5u9e "w & t y really h be5 sav$4 ,i h almo/ no fai? 9 dea?-b$ rep5tances & conv]sions4 ,h>dly "o 9 a hundr$ is g5u9e4 ,& !n !re is no way ( te/+ ! g5u95ess ( x2 b if y turn to ,*ri/ n[ y c h "t & opportunity to exemplify & manife/ ! fruits ( reg5]ation 9 y\r life4 ,*ri/ has p[] to =give s9s1 to give peace & to keep f s9 & s9ful habits4 ,an exp]i5ce ( five ye>s on my "p enables me to speak boldly & confid5tly on ?is po9t4 ,god grant "s ( y may turn to ,him to-day4 ,,note4--,?is 0 deliv]$ at ! fun]al ( "s man :o di$ unsav$ 9 a hospital4 ,mr4 ,holcombe is frequ5tly call$ on to (ficiate at ! fun]al ( su* m51 & ( gambl]s1 & ( /rang]s & unkn[n p]sons4--,,ed4 ,,romans ,,xiv3 #ag4 ,! k+dom ( heav5 is n meat & dr9k1 b righte\sness & peace & joy 9 ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,we he>d "s "t ago ( ! com+ ( ! k+dom ( heav54 ,*ri/1 at ,8 com+1 br\ght x ne> & proclaim$ x to ! p4 ,at ! "t :5 our text 0 writt51 ! k+dom _h be5 set up1 e/abli%$ among m51 & _m1 v _m1 _h ent]$ into x4 ,& n[1 ,/4 ,paul1 f9d+ t "s ( ^! _h fall5 into wrong notions z to :at con/itut$ citiz5%ip 9 t k+dom1 corrects ^! wrong notions1 & sets be=e !m ! "r & prop] notions ab\t ! matt]4 #a4 ,9 ! fir/ place1 he tells !m t religion does n consi/ 9 c]ta9 ?+s4 ,!y _h gott5 into ! notion t !y mu/1 z a matt] ( great importance1 att5d to c]ta9 outw>d ?+s4 ,b x is n s4 ,!y ?\ght1 z ! ,jews1 f ^: nation ,jesus1 ! f\nd] ( ! k+dom1 arose1 obs]v$ c]ta9 cu/oms z to eat+ & dr9k+ & keep+ c]ta9 seasons & days1 !y also _h to d ! same2 & gradually !y all[$ ^! outw>d ?+s to become m important to !m ?an ! inw>d spiritual life4 ,s n[ we 7or "s ( u7 h fall5 into ! notion t religion consi/s 9 c]ta9 outw>d ?+s4 ,!re are ^? :o believe t x consi/s 9 connect+ "o's self ) "s c]ta9 *ur*1 & t ! sanctity & virtue ( t *ur* w be imp>t$ to !m z memb]s1 & !y w be sav$4 ,b ?is is n true4 ,aga91 !re are "s :o believe t "s outw>d c]emony1 & especially t ( baptism by ! prop] au?orities & 9 ! prop] mode1 w procure salvation1 & t x con/itutes a man a memb] ( ! k+dom ( heav54 ,aga91 "s ?9k _! own morality & ef=t to d & live ju/ly w give !m a place among ^? :o are 9 ! pale ( ! k+dom1 =gett+ t ,god1 ,himself1 says t ! righte\sness ( u mis]able s9n]s is b z fil?y rags 9 ,8 sight4 ,& !re are _m1 v _m1 :o ?9k t if !y are dec5t 9 _! outw>d lives & att5d ! s]vices ( ! h\se ( ,god & contribute to ! support ( ,8 *ur*1 !y d all any man c require ( !m1 & t1 !re=e1 !y may claim t !y are also fell[-citiz5s ( ! sa9ts & ( ! h\sehold ( fai?4 ,b no1 none ( ^! outw>d ?+s c make a man a new creature4 ,he may comply ) any "o or all ( ^!1 & yet be really a bad man at he>t1 a rebel aga9/ ,god & ,8 gov]nm5t4 ,& ! fact t !re are _m su* 9 ! *ur* call+ !mselves ,*ri/ians & p]=m+ ! outw>d duties ( religion1 :ile ^? :o see !m e day & "k _! private walk see t !y are n really bett] ?an _m outsid]s1 is a great /umbl+-block to s]i\s & hone/ inquir]s outside ( ! *ur*4 ,we admit x1 & we are sorry = x1 ?\gh1 ( c\rse1 x is no valid excuse = !m1 & w n /& 9 ! try+ h\r ( dea? or ! ordeal ( ! judgm5t4 ,b ,i want to say to y to-day1 no matt] :o x is1 if !y h no m ?an a p]=mance ( outw>d duties1 c]emonies & s]vices1 !y are n memb]s ( ! k+dom ( ,god4 #b4 ,b1 9 ! second place1 ! ,apo/le does tell u :at true religion consi/s 91 9 ! latt] "p ( ! text4 ,x is righte\sness & joy & peace 9 ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,&1 fir/1 x is righte\sness4 ,9 ano!r place x is said t1 ,! wisdom t come? f above is fir/ pure4 ,! object & aim ( ! ,*ri/ian religion is to make m5 holy4 ,t is fir/4 ,! righte\sness m5tion$ 9 ! text is put fir/--be=e ! joy & peace4 ,& ?is is :at ! _w dem&s ( p :o pr(ess to be ,*ri/ians1 no less ?an ,god's law dem&s x4 ,! _w has no use or respect = ,*ri/ians :o are n righte\s or = a ,*ri/ianity t does n make m5 righte\s4 ,:5 ,god comes into a human he>t1 ,he comes ) p[]1 ) ! p[] ( ,god1 & t is great] ?an all o!r p[]1 & be=e x all oppos+ =ces fall4 ,! s9s ( m51 su* z av>ice1 or love ( money2 ! lu/ ( ! fle%1 su* z gluttony1 lic5ti\sness1 ! hatr$ ( fell[m5 & ! hatr$ ( ,god1 all ^! are brok5 & driv5 out :5 ! _s & p[] ( ,god come 94 ,!re is n only ?is dem& ( ,god1 !n1 = righte\sness1 b also ample supply ( /r5g? to meet x1 & to meet x fully4 ,come1 !n1 to ,god1 y :o are 9 bondage to evil habits1 & :o h /riv5 9 va9 to deliv] y\rselves4 ,y c n reta9 y\r evil practices & be a *ild ( ,god4 ,8 fir/ dem&1 ,8 imp]ative dem&1 is righte\sness1 & if y h ! w ,he gives ! grace to atta9 x4 ,b ?is is n all4 ,:5 y believe ) y\r he>t 9 ,*ri/1 ! ,holy ,gho/ is giv5 y1 & ,he br+s1 ) ! righte\sness & hol9ess :i* ,god requires1 also joy & peace4 ,yes1 :5 y surr5d] to ,*ri/1 ,he makes y happy4 ,,mat!w ,,xi3 #bh4 ,come unto me all ye t labor & are heavy lad5 & ,i w give y re/4 #a4 ,! cry ( all he>ts is = re/1 = cont5tm5t4 ,n only does ! he>t ( humanity cry out = re/1 re/1 re/2 _! busy & tir$ h&s & feet toil = x day & night1 ye> 9 & ye> out4 ,x is = ?is t m5 labor ?r\gh ! days & weeks ( summ]'s heat & expose !mselves to ! sev]ities ( w9t]'s cold4 ,x is = ?is t !y pl[ & s[ & reap & ga!r into b>ns4 ,x is = ?is t !y bl[ ! bell[s & sw+ ! heavy hamm]s f morn until night4 ,x is = ?is !y buy & sell & buy aga9 to sell aga94 ,x is = ?is t m5 w sp5d ye>s ( toil 9 s*ools & colleges1 burn+ ! midnight lamp till ! eye is heavy & ! bra9 is tir$4 ,x is = ?is t !y w leave wife & *ildr5 to try _! =tunes 9 "s di/ant ,cali=nia or ,au/ralia4 ,x is = ?is !y w ab&on _! homes 9 "t ( w> to brave ! dang]s ( ! battle-field4 ,x is = ?is t !y w worry away ! h\rs ( night 9 games to get ea* o!r's money4 ,x is = ?is !y w devise s*emes & lay plans to entrap _! fell[s1 "s times go+ to ! l5g? ( committ+ murd]4 ,x is = ?is t wom5 w toil ) ! ne$le & b5d ov] ! sew+ ma*9e4 ,x is = ?is !y w /& = we>y h\rs beh9d c\nt]s measur+ (f goods or wait+ = cu/om]s to buy4 ,x is = ?is t !y "w ov] ! hot /ove or we> out _! h&s 9 ! wa%-tub4 ,yes1 x is = ?is t "s ( !m1 we>y ( "w-life1 w v5ture on ! slipp]y pa?s ( pleasure1 turn _! ?\ghts t[>d ! gild$ *amb]s ( lic5ti\sness1 sell virtue & ab&on home & family to g 9 ! ways t 9 ! end take hold on dea? & hell4 ,we are a race ( toil]s4 ,all ov] ! _w x is ! same4 ,we see x "h 9 ,l\isville1 ,x is "w1 "w1 "w1 g1 g1 g4 ,& are we happy8 ,h we re/8 ,b n only are we toil+1 "s 9 "o way1 "s 9 ano!r2 "s by innoc5t means1 "s by wick$ means2 "s by :at does no h>m to ourselves or our neighbor1 & "s by :at does h>m to bo?1 9 ord] to obta9 re/ & happ9ess2 x is also true t mo/ ( u are heavy lad51 oppress$ & sadd5$ b5ea? burd5s t we c n %ake (f1 c n get rid (4 ,"s ( u are b[$ d[n "u our pov]ty4 ,no good h\se to live 91 no com=table home to turn into aft] ! battles & toils ( outside life1 no com=table %elt] = our families4 ,no assurance z to :]e we are to get to-morr['s bread4 ,no com=table & respectable clo!s to we>1 &1 ( c\rse1 no fri5ds4 ,= :5 a poor fell[ gets poor & %abby1 8 fri5ds drop (f & pass by on ! o!r side4 ,no fri5ds1 none ( t sympa?y & communion ( fri5d%ip :i* all human he>ts s crave & :i* !y f9d to be ! be/ "p ( :at ?is life c give4 ,yes2 "s ( u h ?is burd5 to be>4 ,& !n "s ( u are b[$ d[n b5ea? "s great sorr[1 :i* may be "o ?+ 9 "o case & ano!r 9 ano!r4 ,9 "s cases x is dome/ic tr\ble1 cont9ual j>s & broils 9 ! family1 no peace1 no quiet1 no love4 ,ah1 if we c\ld see into all ! homes 9 ?is city1 ,i fe> we %\ld f9d 9 _m ( !m family tr\ble ( "s sort4 ,or x may be "s de> "o ( y\rs is giv5 to dr9k or to gambl+ & is we>+ out 8 life z fa/ z vice c eat x away1 ) no hope beyond ! grave4 ,ah1 yes2 no d\bt "s ( y are y\rselves ! slaves ( evil habits :i* y hate & w\ld d any?+ to break (f4 ,y h tri$ by resolv+ & promis+ & all to no purpose2 y h felt a%am$ & degrad$ because y _h no p[] to d :at y felt y ought to d & :at y knew w\ld be inf9itely bett] = y4 ,d y n "k m5 :o w\ld will+ly give a "r arm = deliv]ance f "s degrad+ & ru9\s habit8 ,b giv+ a "r arm avails no?+1 nor any human ef=t or means4 ,!n1 aga91 "s ( y are b[$ d[n by ! recollection ( y\r pa/ life & its dissipation & crimes4 ,y may h mi/reat$ fa!r1 "m1 si/]1 & may h brok5 he>ts by y\r cruelty t w\ld gladly h bl$ = y4 ,y may h cru%$ a lov+ & fai?ful wife by y\r selfi%ness & y\r brutality & he>tlessness4 ,y may h driv5 y\r *ildr5 to desp]ation & crime by y\r coldness & h>dness to !m4 ,& may be "s life1 innoc5t until y came ^u x ) y\r helli% art1 has be5 corrupt$ & embitt]$ & d>k5$ by y\r base passions & lu/s4 ,may be y\r h&s h gone to t la/ extreme ( human crime & h depriv$ a fell[man ( life4 ,&1 oh1 if any ( ^! ?+s be true1 :at mu/ be ! burd5 ( remorse1 remorse1 remorse1 t weighs ^u y\r he>t4 ,b y are ! v ones :om ,jesus addresses & invites 9 ?is t5d] appeal4 ,d y believe x8 #b4 ,9 ! second place1 consid] :o x is t (f]s y re/4 ,x is "o :o kn[s y & :o kn[s :at y ne$ & "o :o has all p[] 9 heav5 & 9 e>? to give :at y ne$4 #c4 ,la/ly1 consid] :at ?is re/ means :i* ,jesus (f]s to y burd5$ & toil+ ones4 #a4 ,x is re/ f s91 bo? its guilt & p[]4 #b4 ,x is re/ f all c>e4 ,= ,he has said1 we %\ld ca/ all our c>e ^u ,him because ,he c>es = u4 ,,mat!w ,v3 #c4 ,bless$ are ! poor 9 _s1 = !irs is ! k+dom ( heav54 ,^! words1 z y "k1 are ! beg9n+ ( ! ,s]mon on ! ,m\nt z x is call$4 ,?is ,s]mon on ! ,m\nt is ! full exposition ( ! "* ( ^? :o are memb]s ( ,*ri/'s k+dom4 ,x is "o ( ! mo/ important p>ts ( ! ,bible4 ,at ! "t ( ,*ri/ !re 7 9 ! _w _m tea*]s & _m s*ools ( philosophy all try+ to f9d :at 0 be/ = m52 or1 ?9k+ !y _h f\nd x1 7 tea*+ _! views to o!rs4 ,b1 ( c\rse1 none ( !m knew ! tru? & ne>ly e "o taught a diff]5t ?+ f ! o!rs4 ,!re 0 no c]ta9ty4 ,x all seem$ l guess-"w1 & :ile ! philosoph]s 7 guess+ at :at 0 be/ = m5 or try+ to prove ! views ( ea* o!r to be false1 ! poor p 7 p]i%+ 9 unc]ta9ty & ignorance4 ,b into ?is age ( unc]ta9ty & d>kness & hung]1 !re came a ,tea*] f ,god ,himself1 :o knew all ?+s & :o c\ld )\t argu+ or guess+ tell ) au?ority ! simple & c]ta9 tru?4 ,:at !n does ! ,tea*] say8 ,he does n say t bless$ness consi/s 9 any c]ta9 k9d or degree ( k b 9 ! disposition ( ! m9d & he>t4 ,li/5 !n & he> & be prep>$ to believe & accept ) all y\r he>t :at ?is ,in/ructor f ,god says4 ,rememb] ,he makes no mi/akes4 ,he kn[s ! end f ! beg9n+4 ,he kn[s et]nity z well z "t4 ,he kn[s ! future z well z ! pa/ & pres5t4 ,he kn[s ,god z well z ,he kn[s man4 ,he has be5 all ?r\gh et]nity & kn[s ! nature & purposes ( ,god4 ,he !n is compet5t to say :at is good = man1 :at is be/ = man4 ,w y he> x8 ,&1 hav+ he>d x1 w y believe x8 ,bless$--ah1 :at a sweet ^w to beg9 )6 ,bless$4 ,b :o are bless$8 ,x may be bless$ are ! great or ! p[]ful or ! good & "s ( u are sadly consci\s t we are n great or good4 ,b no1 tr\bl$ he>t1 poor fe>+ he>t1 x is = y4 ,bless$ are ! poor 9 _s4 ,t is :at ! ,div9e ,tea*] says4 ,he br+s x "r d[n & home to y\r poor he>t & leaves bless$ness at y\r v door4 ,& :at is x to be poor 9 _s8 ,no d\bt "s ( y poor s9n]s are ready to say ,i "k :at x is1 = ,i am s wret*$ly poor t ,i feel unwor?y to set my pollut$ foot d[n any:]e 9 ,god's univ]se4 ,yes1 t is x--y are dissatisfi$ ) y\rself1 disgu/$ ) y\rself1 we>y ( y\rself2 & y "k y c n make y\r condition any bett]1 = y h tri$ x & fail$ till y are he>t-sick & hopeless4 ,y are satisfi$ t nei!r y\r education1 nor y\r wisdom1 nor y\r %rewdness1 nor y\r money1 if y h any1 nor y\r family1 nor y\r fri5ds1 nor y\r /r5g?1 nor y\r w1 nor all ^! put toge!r & multipli$ a ?\s& times c deliv] y f s\l-bondage & s\l-d>kness & satisfy y\r a*+ & break+ he>t4 ,is t y\r feel+1 my bro!r8 ,!n y are ! "o ,i am talk+ to2 nay1 y are ! "o my ,div9e ,ma/] is talk+ to4 ,b ,god said ! same ?+ 9 o!r words away back yond] "o ?\s& ye>s be=e ,jesus came to e>?4 ,read x 9 ,psalm xxxiv3 #ah3 ,! ,"l is nigh unto !m t are ( a brok5 he>t & save? su* z be ( a contrite _s4 ,h y\r s9s brok5 y\r he>t8 ,does ! recollection ( !m ca/ d[n y\r _s8 ,y are n f> f ! k+dom ( ,god !n4 ,only believe on ,jesus ,*ri/ :o 0 n only ,div9e ,tea*] b also s9-be>]1 & see ,god's will+ness to save s9n]s1 9 ! sc5e enact$ on ,calv>y's trembl+ summit4 ,:at did ,jesus suff] = if n = y & y\r s9s8 ,say1 :at =1 if n = y & all s9n]s8 ,answ] t "q4 ,d n turn x away or put x (f b answ] x4 ,did ,i say y 7 n f> f ! k+dom ( heav58 ,my text says1 if y h ! _s ,i h describ$ t y\rs is1 is n[1 ! k+dom ( heav54 ,read x aga94 ,w y believe x8 ,oh1 are y afraid to v5ture8 ,is x too good to be true8 ,well1 ,i tell y ,i v5tur$ & t ) =ty-two ye>s ( s9 & crime on my he>t to press me d[n & keep me back4 ,yes2 ,i v5tur$ & ,i f\nd su* a welcome t ,i 0 con/ra9$ 9 ! joy ( my he>t to give up all o!r employm5t & sp5d my :ole "t & en]gy 9 tell+ ( x to o!rs :o are 9 ! condition ,i 0 94 ,b if !re are any "h :o are satisfi$ ) !mselves1 :o d n feel _! ne$ ( help & cleans+ & deliv]ance1 !n ?is message ( com=t is n = y4 ,if y ?9k y "k en\gh ab\t et]nity to risk go+ into x z y are1 if y ?9k y "k en\gh ab\t ,god to meet him z y are1 !n we h no message ( consolation = y4 ,x is n because we d n want y to h a message ( consolation & salvation1 b because y d n want x4 ,x is said 9 "o place t ! ,^w ( ,god is a disc]n] ( ! ?\ghts & int5ts ( ! he>t4 ,& n[ ,i am sure ?is text ( ours has to-night f\nd y out & %[n y to y\rself4 ,:]e d y /&8 ,& ev5 if y are p]suad$1 ! sugge/ion to put x (f till to-morr[ or next week w knock x all 9 ! head4 ,,mat!w ,v3 #d-e4 #d4 ,bless$ are !y t m\rn2 = !y %all be com=t$4 #e4 ,bless$ are ! meek2 = !y %all inh]it ! e>?4 ,our talk to-night foll[s "r along 9 ! l9e ( ! "o prec$+4 ,we %all cont9ue to speak ( t wond]ful address ( ,jesus :i* is call$ ! ,s]mon on ! ,m\nt & :i* we began to speak ( be=e4 ,we 7 speak+ ( ^? :o are poor 9 _s & tri$ to describe su*4 ,n[ we g on & we f9d ! next words ( ,jesus1 ! ,div9e ,tea*]1 j suit$ to ^? :o are poor 9 _s1 :o are dissatisfi$ ) !mselves & _! condition1 & :o are wret*$ because !y h n ! grace & favor ( ,god1 & :o1 z ! ,psalm says1 h a brok5 he>t & a contrite _s4 7,psalm xxxiv41 #ah47 ,& :at are ^! com=t+ words ( ,jesus8 ,bless$ are !y t m\rn1 = !y %all be com=t$4 ,( c\rse1 ^? :o are poor 9 _s & brok5 9 he>t w m\rn4 ,!y are com=tless & !y w m\rn = com=t4 ,!y are 9 d>kness & !y w m\rn = light4 ,!y are 9 s9 & "u condemnation & !y w m\rn till ! p[] ( s9 is de/roy$ & !y are set free & until ! voice ( =giv+ love assures !m t !re is h5ce=? no?+ aga9/ !m4 ,ah1 yes1 :5 a man is "u conviction = s9 he is1 above all m51 a m\rn]4 ,!re is h>dly any sorr[ t /rikes deep] or any susp5se t is m int5se or awful4 ,b is !re no "o "h :o kn[s all ab\t ?is1 n because !y h he>d me describe x1 b because !y h felt x & groan$ "u x or1 may be1 are do+ s n[8 ,well1 let me assure y1 on ! au?ority ( ,jesus1 !re is com=t = y z surely z ,jesus w n lie4 ,does ,he say ,curs$ are !y :o m\rn8 ,or ,to be piti$ are !y t m\rn8 ,no1 ,he says1 ,bless$ are !y4 ,!re1 n[1 y are already com=t$ a little bit1 are y n8 ,b :at is ! re/ ( ?is s5t5ce ( ,jesus8 ,= !y %all be com=t$4 ,&1 inde$1 ! fact t y m\rn = a bett] condition & a bett] life & = ,god1 is itself a gr\nd = y to surely expect com=t4 ,= only ,god's _s c\ld make y dissatisfi$ ) y\rself1 tir$ ( y\r s9s & eag] to f9d ,god4 ,& if ,he began ! "w ,he w c>ry x on to completion1 assur$ly1 if y d n h9d] him by y\r turn+ back to s9 or go+ ) ! vici\s or refus+ to h fai? 9 ,jesus z ,savi\r4 ,& ! next v]se comes "r along to fill out ! "o we are consid]+4 ,bless$ are ! meek4 ,if a man is truly poor 9 _s1 m\rn+ because ( 8 s9s & 8 ignorance ( ,god & 8 insecurity 9 view ( dea?1 !n he w n be egoti/ic & ambiti\s & gre$y ( praise & pomp\s & self-suffici5t & dispos$ to /& on 8 honor & 8 rights4 ,b he w h ! opposite feel+s exactly4 ,he feels 8 unwor?9ess s deeply & ke5ly t he is will+ to give up 8 own rights & to pref] o!rs be=e himself4 ,& ,jesus adds1 ! meek %all inh]it ! e>?4 ,a man :o has ?is _s ( humility1 deep consci\sness ( 8 unwor?9ess & a disposition to be> all ?+s r ?an be cont5ti\s1 w w9 ev]ybody & !y w want to give up to him4 ,y h p]haps read ( ! man :o w5t to 8 neighbor to claim a piece ( gr\nd 9 8 possession1 &1 contr>y to 8 expectation1 t neighbor said1 ,well1 !n1 if x is y\rs1 ,i w n h a /rife ab\t x4 ,i w move 9 my f5ce & let y h x4 ,?is g5tle answ] & ?is meek _s made ! o!r man s a%am$ & s completely melt$ & won him t he said he w\ld n take ! l&1 & he w5t back home leav+ x z x 04 ,& s if y h ?is meek & yield+ _s1 & ?is pati5t & =giv+ _s1 y w make ev5 y\r enemies to be at peace ) y4 ,b ?is meekness ( _s includes1 also1 *e]ful submission to all ! h>d & disappo9t+ & try+ exp]i5ces ( life1 & p]fect cont5tm5t ) "o's lot4 ,a man :o is always s\r & bitt] because ?+s don't g to suit him is ! opposite ( a meek man4 ,& "o ( ! lovelie/ & mo/ attractive & w9n+ qualities ( human "* is ?is unfail+ resignation1 ?is *e]ful acceptance ( all t comes ^u u4 ,if ! *ur* 7 full ( p ( ?is description1 !y w\ld soon w9 ! _w1 &1 z ,jesus said1 !y w\ld inh]it ! e>?4 ,n[1 let me ask1 h we all :o pr(ess to be ,*ri/ians ?is meek _s & "*8 ,are we g5tle & *e]ful at home & abroad1 :5 we are disappo9t$ z well z :5 we are gratifi$1 :5 we are treat$ ) +ratitude & injury z well z :5 we are treat$ ) k9dness1 consid]ation & honor8 ,or are we crabb$ & cross & discont5t$ & compla9+ aga9/ ^? :o cross our wills & aga9/ ! lot t ,god has giv5 to u 9 life8 ,if we are ( ?is la/ sort we %all n draw _m to ,jesus & to ! acceptance ( our religion4 ,y c't cat* flies ) v9eg>4 ,h[ dispos$ are we to lay our crossness & r\ghness to ! *>ge ( our heal?1 our dyspepsia or neuralgia or n]v\sness4 ,b x w\ld be all ! m conv9c+ to m5 if1 9 ! mid/ ( bad heal? & n]v\sness1 we %\ld h a meek1 quiet1 pati5t1 bright & *e]ful _s4 ,& if y hav5't x1 ! way to get x is to be fill$ ) ,god's _s1 & ! way to d t is to pray1 to commune ) ,god 9 secret1 to pati5tly wait = ,him1 z ,david did 7,psalms xl1 #a71 & to be ) ,him s mu* t ,he %all become m real to y ?an ! objects ( sight & s\nd & feel+ t surr\nd y4 ,,mat!w ,v3 #ac4 ,ye are ! salt ( ! e>?1 b if ! salt ha? lo/ its savor :]e) %all x be salt$8 ,x is !nce=? good = no?+ b to be ca/ out & to be trodd5 "u foot ( m54 ,jesus takes ! mo/ famili> facts & objects to convey ! tru?s & doctr9es :i* ,he wi%$ to communicate4 ,"h he uses = illu/ration an object1 ) ! prop]ties & uses ( :i* ev]ybody is famili>--namely1 salt4 ,x is good to prev5t corruption & to pres]ve life4 ,)\t x life c\ld n cont9ue4 ,i h he>d ( a p>ty ( travel]s ^: supply ( salt almo/ gave out2 & n hav+ en\gh = !mselves & _! horses1 ! horses grew weak1 w\ld /agg]1 & f9ally fall & die1 ?\gh !y _h food = !m4 ,yet ! lack ( salt c\ld n be suppli$ by any am\nt ( food4 ,s x is ) ,*ri/ianity4 ,x prev5ts corruption1 moral corruption1 9 ! individual1 & s prev5ts social corruption1 political corruption1 national corruption1 & is ! means ( purification 9 all ^! respects4 ,b x n only prev5ts corruption1 x imp>ts spiritual life & vigor & s5ds its possessors on _! way fill$ ) an en]gy t goes out aft] o!rs4 ,*ri/ianity is suit$ to be ! salt ( ! e>?4 ,x dem&s a p]fect morality1 a p]fect righte\sness1 & (f]s ! highe/ motives to m5 to atta9 ?is4 ,x tea*es1 ) assurance1 t !re is a righte\s ,god :o dem&s hol9ess on our "p1 &1 at ! same "t1 x enc\rages m5 & inspires !m ) hope because x decl>es t ?is ,god loves m51 z s9n]s1 & s x gets hold ( m5 by ! he>t4 ,if man w only comp>e ^? nations t are ,*ri/ian ) ^? t are n1 he w f9d out :at a diff]5ce !re is4 ,b ! text ref]s to ! holy lives ( ,*ri/ians z be+ ! salt ( ! e>?4 ,! savor ( ,*ri/ians is an unction f ! _s ( ,god t produces purity1 humility1 pati5ce1 long-suff]+1 self-d5ial1 t5d]ness1 sympa?y & unselfi% love4 ,& :5 m5 see a p]son ^: daily life pres5ts all ^! beauties1 !y are =c$ to pause & reg>d x4 ,x is su* an unnatural & su* an une>?ly ?+ t !y c n help x4 ,& x is f> m conv9c+ & eloqu5t ?an all logic & rhetoric put toge!r4 ,!re is no way ( gett+ ar\nd x4 ,m5 "k t a gift$ orator c dress ?+s up s z to make any cause seem a fair & plausible "o1 b m5 "k also t nei!r a gift$ orator nor any "o less ?an ,god c make m5 humble1 pure1 pati5t1 g5tle1 long-suff]+1 unselfi% & glad to sp5d & be sp5t = o!rs ?an !mselves4 ,:5 m5 see su* a life1 !y seek to "k h[ x is realiz$1 & f9d+ t ,*ri/ianity has done x1 t fai? 9 ,jesus has done x1 !y are con/ra9$ to say3 ,we "k t ,*ri/ianity is f ,god4 ,= no?+ c\ld d su* wond]ful miracles except ,god be 9 x1 z ,nicodemus said to ,jesus4 ,!re are s _m m5 :o are anxi\sly inquir+ ab\t spiritual ?+s & ab\t ,god & a future life4 ,& !y say3 ,%[ u some?+ t ,*ri/ianity c d4 ,& if we are liv+ su* lives1 !y f9d :at !y are seek+ = & are satisfi$4 ,b !re are _m m5 :o won't se>* ! ,bible to f9d out if x is true--& _m :o don't d s = want ( "t & ( opportunity--& "s :o c't d s because !y c't read or reason1 & we =ce ,*ri/ianity ^u _! att5tion by ! beauty & une>?l9ess ( holy ,*ri/ian lives4 ,in/ead ( wait+ = !m to come inquire & into ,*ri/ianity1 :i* !y might nev] d1 we c>ry x be=e _! eyes 9 its lovelie/ & mo/ attractive & p[]ful =m :5 we live holy lives be=e !m4 ,& :5 m5 see _m p liv+ ?us1 x turns ! tide ( _! feel+s1 rev]ses ! curr5t ( _! ?\ghts1 & makes x easy in/ead ( difficult to believe4 ,oh1 t we _h m ( ^! entirely consecrat$ lives6 ,!y w\ld d f> m good ?an ! prea*+4 ,:5 p see ^! consecrat$ wom5 do+ ! "w !y d = ! poor neglect$ *ildr51 !y say3 ,ah1 n[1 t looks l some?+1 sure en\gh1 & we believe 9 t sort ( religion4 ,john ,wesley said3 ,give me "o hundr$ m5 :o love no?+ b ,god1 & :o fe> no?+ b s91 & we w soon lay ,engl& at ,jesus' feet4 ,h[ c we get & keep ?is sav\r1 ?is div9e unction :i* produces su* a life8 ,only by mu* communion ) ,god4 ,david knew no fe> :5 he w5t to meet ,golia? because he _h commun$ s mu* ) ,god 9 ! %eep pa/ures t ,god 0 m ( a reality to him ?an ,golia? 04 ,s x mu/ be ) u1 my de> bro!rs1 or we lose ?is sav\r4 ,& t is :at ! text says4 ,let u read x aga94 ,y may reta9 outw>d =ms ( religion & p]=m outw>d duties1 b ! unction & zeal & p[] w be gone & m5 w f9d x out & see x & say t y are no bett] ?an !y are4 ,s ! text says1 ,good = no?+ b to be ca/ out & trodd5 "u foot ( m54 ,& sad x is t m h>m is done to ! cause ( ,*ri/ianity by hypocritical or wick$ or inconsi/5t pr(essors ( x ?an by all ! ,+]solls 9 ! _w4 ,m5 look at ! *ur* to see :at ,*ri/ianity c d2 & see+ x does no?+ extraord9>y 9 ! way ( mak+ m5 bett]1 !y say x mu/ be false4 ,s x is ! wick$ & worldly pr(essors ( religion t make m infidels ?an any?+ else4 ,oh1 let u be sure t we are n ! d>kness ( ! _w4 ,= if we are n its light1 we become d>kness4 ,! light 9 ! ligh?\se may be burn+1 b if ! lights along ! %ore are n burn+1 too1 ! poor sailors may be lo/4 ,brightly beams our ,fa!r's m]cy ,f ,8 ligh?\se ev]more1 ,b to u ,he gives ! keep+ ,( ! lights along ! %ore4 ,,! ,,prodigal ,,son1 ,,8 ,,s91 ,,8 ,,wret*$ness ,,& ,,8 ,,recov]y4 ,,luke ,,xv3 #aa-bd4 #a4 ,?is y\ng] son ?\ght he 0 wis] ?an 8 fa!r & want$ to manage 8 own affairs4 ,s x is ) m5 :o ?9k !y c manage _! own affairs )\t ,god4 ,& z ?is "y man want$ to get z f> f 8 fa!r's pres5ce z possible 7see v]se #ac1 into a f> c\ntry7 s ! s9n]1 :5 he det]m9es to give himself up to pleasure & s91 wants to get z f> f ,god z possible4 ,he does n want to he> ab\t ,him or ev5 ?9k ab\t ,him4 ,0 n ?is s ) y8 #b4 ,! fa!r did n compel ! son to /ay at home4 ,he all[$ him to *oose :at he pref]r$4 ,s x is ) ,god4 ,he does n compel u to ob$i5ce4 ,= my "p ,i wi% ,he did4 ,b he lets u g & pursue s9 ) all our he>ts1 if we *oose t above ! innoc5ce & joy ( dwell+ ) ,him4 #c4 ,he wa/$ 8 sub/ance ) riot\s liv+1 v]se #ac1 & s x is ) ! s9n]--9 ! s]vice ( s9 & ,satan he wa/es & de/roys 8 prop]ty1 8 heal?1 8 reputation1 8 intellect1 8 consci5ce--all4 ,& he began to be 9 want4 ,t is :at s9 br+s a man to--want1 want1 want & wret*$ness1 wret*$ness1 wret*$ness4 ,has n s9 done ?is = y8 #d4 ,& x 0 ?is v wret*$ness :i* br\ght him to 8 s5ses--he came to himself 7v]se #ag74 ,& :5 he does come to himself he c ?9k ( only "o place :]e he c hope to f9d relief & he bravely det]m9es to g /raight to ! v fa!r he _h s %amefully ab&on$ & to make a full confession ( 8 s9 & ?r[ himself on t fa!r's m]cy ) ! hope ( be+ tak5 back z a hir$ s]vant4 ,he is will+ to take ! humble/ & meane/ place1 if he c only get back to t home he 01 a %ort "t be=e1 s eag] to leave4 ,nor does he (f] any excuse1 he calls 8 s9 by ! "r "n & confesses x )\t try+ to excuse x or ju/ify x4 #e4 ,& h[ did 8 fa!r receive him8 ,:y1 he did n wait till 8 poor1 ragg$1 worn & wa/$ boy got 9 & made 8 confession b he saw him a great way (f 7v]se #bj7 & he knew :at _h pass$ 9 ! poor boy's he>t & life1 &1 mov$ ) compassion t[>d him1 he ran & fell on 8 neck & kiss$ him a glad welcome back to 8 he>t & 8 home4 ,b ! son goes on to make 8 confession & 8 (f] to be a hir$ s]vant anyh[1 & yet ! fa!r says1 ,no6 no6 br+ =? ! be/ robe & put x on him4 ,s1 ?\gh we may g to ,god expect+ to "w z s]vants = ,him & = ,8 favor1 ,he gives u f> m ?an we ask & ,he makes u ,8 own sons4 ,&1 poor wret*$ s9n]s1 ,i come n[ ) ?is message = y1 bruis$ & sore & despair+ & wret*$ z y are on acc\nt ( y\r s9s4 ,may ,god help y believe x4 ,,ii4 ,,pet] ,i3 #e-f4 #e4 ,& besides ?is1 giv+ all dilig5ce1 add to y\r fai? virtue2 & to virtue1 k2 #f4 ,& to k1 temp]ance2 & to temp]ance1 pati5ce2 & to pati5ce1 godl9ess4 ,i want to say some?+ to y to-night ab\t h[ to gr[ 9 ! ,*ri/ian life1 & h[ to secure y\rself f fall+4 ,& n[1 let me beg9 by say+ :at y1 no d\bt1 h he>d be=e1 t !re is no su* ?+ z /&+ /ill 9 ! ,*ri/ian life4 ,if y are n go+ =w>d1 y are los+ gr\nd4 ,see ! ,apo/le "h speaks ( giv+ all dilig5ce1 to be add+ some?+ all ! "t4 ,& :y n ex]cise dilig5ce 9 mak+ sure ( ! salvation ( y\r s\ls8 ,m5 use a/oni%+ dilig5ce 9 ! affairs & pursuits ( ?is life4 ,! m5 ( all pr(essions & occupations use dilig5ce & indu/ry & toil & self-d5ial 9 ord] to make a little money or to ga9 a little honor4 ,:y1 y "k !re are ?\s&s ( m5 9 ?is city :o get up e>ly 9 wet wea!r or dry1 9 summ]'s heat or w9t]'s cold1 & g hurry+ up & d[n ^! /reets to be at _! places at ! prescrib$ h\r = beg9n+ _! day's toil2 & !y "w1 "w1 "w1 sometimes ) tir$ h&s & feet & we>y he>ts1 till ! sun goes d[n1 because !y "k !y mu/ d x 9 ord] to get bread & meat & clo?+ = !mselves & _! families4 ,!y d n /op to ?9k h[ !y feel4 ,no1 no2 feel+s & pref]5ces & all mu/ be ov]look$ & =gott52 = !y "k t "w mu/ be done t bread may be won4 ,& we d n he> _m compla9+ ( ?is4 ,!y accept x z a matt] ( c\rse4 ,:y1 ,i "k h[ ! gambl]s w sit up late & d )\t sleep1 & rack _! bra9s1 9 ord] to devise "s means ( f9d+ a poor victim & gett+ 8 money4 ,!n :y %\ld n ,*ri/ians1 :o are /riv+ to avoid ! dang] & sorr[ ( s9 & to ga9 et]nal re/ & rew>d--:y %\ld n !y ex]cise dilig5ce & self-d5ial & wat*fulness also8 ,& we are told 9 ! text h[ to succe$ 9 ?is4 ,we are to make up our m9ds by ,god's grace to live a life ( consecration & activity4 ,y h begun ) fai?1 h y n8 ,if any man "h has be5 truly conv]t$1 he kn[s :at fai? is4 ,he came to ,*ri/ z a hell-des]v+ s9n]1 & believ$ 9 ,*ri/'s m]cy = =giv5ess & salvation4 ,s fai? is ! fir/ /ep2 fai? is ! f\ndation4 ,& let me /op to say to any "o "h :o is n yet sav$1 t1 if he wants to be1 he mu/ ?r[ himself z a s9n] on ! m]cy ( ,god 9 ,*ri/2 & ,god w save him at once1 if he w d s4 ,b1 hav+ ex]cis$ fai? & receiv$ =giv5ess & /r5g?1 y mu/ add virtue1 :i* means c\rage or boldness4 ,x is sometimes v h>d = a man :o has liv$ a s9n] & tak5 pride 9 x1 to come out be=e ! _w1 & especially be=e 8 old companions1 & let !m "k t h5ce=? & =ev] he is a humble foll[] ( ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,b x is necess>y4 ,no middle gr\nd is safe at all4 ,if y try to meet ! _w z a re=m$ man1 conceal+ ! fact t y are a ,*ri/ian1 y w weak51 & give ! devil a great advantage1 & probably fall4 ,i told gambl]s 9 ,d5v] ,i 0 a ,*ri/ian1 & !y let me alone4 ,b1 n only t1 y mu/ be bold en\gh to try to p]suade o!rs to become ,*ri/ians4 ,!re are "s poor c[>ds :o are n a%am$ to let _! fri5ds & ! _w "k t !y h re=m$2 b !y are too *ick5-he>t$ to say t !y h humbl$ !mselves1 surr5d]$ _! pride & become ,*ri/ians4 ,i "k m ?an "o ( t sort4 ,&1 aga91 !re are "s m5 :o are cont5t to be sav$ !mselves1 b are afraid ( be+ call$ fanatics if !y are bold en\gh to g to talk+ & try+ to p]suade o!rs to be s4 ,boldness 9 go+ out aft] o!rs /r5g!n$ me & kept me f _m a temptation4 ,b1 hav+ ?is godly boldness1 y mu/ g on /riv+ to get k--k ( y\r own deceitful he>t1 k ( human nature1 k ( ! fullness ( ! gospel way ( salvation4 ,:5 a man is fir/ conv]t$1 he is almo/ l a baby4 ,ev]y?+ is new1 & he h>dly kn[s any?+4 ,s x 0 ) me1 b ,i tru/ ,i h gr[n 9 k ( myself & o!rs & ( ! ^w ( ,god & ( ! plan ( salvation4 ,y\r k w increase ( itself if y are 9 e>ne/ & if y w use all ! means ( gr[+ bett] & /rong]4 ,conv]sation ) old] ,*ri/ians1 :5 y get into a tight place1 w help y4 ,e>ne/ pray] to ,god w result 9 increase ( k4 ,read+ ,8 preci\s ^w1 & /udy+ %ort portions ( x at a "t1 ) pray] = guidance1 w wond]fully enlight5 y & increase y\r k4 ,y w ga9 k also by read+ good books--! lives ( v pi\s p1 & ! s]mons ( su* m5 z ,wesley1 ,spurgeon1 etc4 ,:y n h "s good books to read8 ,c\ld y inve/ y\r money to bett] advantage8 ,9 ?is way1 hav+ y\r m9d always occupi$ ) ! subject ( religion1 y w h nei!r "t nor temptation = s9 or ?\ghts ( s94 ,!re are "s selfi% m5 :o1 :5 !y f9d !mselves deliv]$ f _! evil appetites & rais$ up aga9 to respectability & _! "r m9d1 beg9 to ?9k ( read+ all sorts ( worldly & pr(ane lit]ature1 & want to cultivate _! lit]>y ta/e & prep>e to %9e 9 society4 ,su* m5 =get ! pit f :i* !y 7 tak51 & 9 _! selfi%ness & worldl9ess & pride become bl9d to ! awful p]il to :i* !y expose !mselves 9 neglect+ to keep _! m9ds occupi$ ) religi\s ?\ghts & subjects z f> z is practicable4 ,"s ( our conv]ts h fall5 9 ?is way4 ,b :at is ! next ?+1 to be add$8 ,x is temp]ance4 ,?is means entire self-control 9 ?+s t are1 9 !mselves1 innoc5t & lawful4 ,( c\rse1 m5 und]/& t 9 ?+s t are wrong & dang]\s no?+ is "r or safe b an utt] ab/95ce f !m & abhorr5ce ( !m1 7,read ,romans xii41 #i1 second clause3 ,abhor t :i* is evil47 ,temp]ance means "h :at we spoke ab\t :5 we consid]$ ,paul's say+ t he kept 8 body "u1 & br\ght x into subjection1 le/ he %\ld be a ca/away 7#a ,cor9?ians1 ix3 #bg74 ,& z y gr[ 9 exp]i5ce & 9 k ( y\rself y w f9d x absolutely necess>y to keep d[n y\r body by d5y+ x1 & by ass]t+ y\r entire ma/]y ( x1 ?r\gh ,god's grace4 ,oh1 be c>eful & be pray]ful1 & be self-d5y+1 or "s day1 :5 y ?9k all is secure1 "s sudd5 temptation w come & f9d y self-indulg5t & c>eless1 &1 l ,david1 y w fall be=e y are aw>e ( x1 & !n1 maybe1 h n ! he>t & hope to ev] try to be a ,*ri/ian aga94 ,m5 :o h be5 addict$ to bad habits be=e are especially 9 dang] if !y d n practice ! /ricte/ self-control 9 all ?+s4 ,b1 ) all ?is1 y w (t5 be provok$1 & f9d y\r temp] v tr\blesome4 ,x tr\bl$ me long aft] conv]sion & tr\bles me n[ m ?an any?+ else4 ,s x is necess>y to be> all ?+s1 h[ev] unreasonable & provok+ !y may be2 & ?is is exactly ! next ?+ ! ,apo/le puts d[n--namely1 pati5ce4 ,oh1 h[ ,i tremble = "s ( ^! m5 :o are conv]t$ "h4 ,!y d n "k h[ necess>y x is to keep "r d[n 9 ! du/1 & n only to give dilig5ce1 b to make x _! *ief bus9ess = "s "t to wat* & gu>d _! ?\ghts & ways1 & to pray always1 & by all ! means we h spok5 ( try to keep away--f>1 f> away f temptation4 ,i beg y to make up y\r m9ds to be> any?+ & ev]y?+4 ,always be ready = a disappo9tm5t1 & det]m9e n to let y\r cont5tm5t & happ9ess dep5d ^u any?+ or anybody 9 ?is _w4 ,!n x won't make any diff]5ce :at happ5s to y2 x w come l wat] on a duck's back1 & won't hurt y4 ,rememb] h[ humble y _h to get be=e y c\ld get =giv5ess & /r5g? to resi/ y\r appetites4 ,& did x kill y or did x damage y 9 any way8 ,no6 ,x kill$ y\r wret*$ s9s1 b n y4 ,x robb$ y ( y\r bondage & d>kness & despair & wret*$ness4 ,b x did n rob y ( any good1 did x8 ,!n x won't hurt y to keep humble & 9 t same /ate ( m9d till y die4 ,& y c af=d to d s4 ,h[ w\ld y l to get back into bondage & d>kness :]e y 78 ,y say3 ,n = ! _w6 ,b1 if y knew y c\ld1 by dilig5ce & wat*fulness1 ga9 ! _w1 y w\ld be dilig5t & wat*ful4 ,& yet1 by ?is dilig5ce1 y n only keep y\rself secure f fall+ back1 y make y\r family happy1 y bless _m o!rs--&1 be/ ( all1 y make sure ( ev]la/+ life1 & escape ! hell :i* we all fe> m ?an all ?+s else comb9$4 ,s9ce ,i mu/ fight if ,i w\ld reign1 ,increase my c\rage1 ,"l2 ,i'll be> ! toil1 endure ! pa91 ,support$ by ,?y ^w4 ,,ecclesia/es ,,xii3 #ac4 ,let u be> ! conclusion ( ! :ole matt]3 ,fe> ,god & keep ,8 comm&m5ts2 = ?is is ! :ole duty ( man4 ,! book ( ,ecclesia/es conta9s ! exp]i5ce ( a man :o _h tri$ e phase ( life1 :o _h ta/$ e k9d ( pleasure1 & :o1 also1 _h exp]i5ce 9 ! s]vice ( ,god1 ) its consolations & its sacrifices2 & he _h also made a /udy ( ! great que/ions t come up 9 consid]+ ! affairs ( ! _w ab\t him4 ,& aft] 8 long & ?or\gh exp]i5ce1 & 8 deep & life-long /udy ( ! facts ( human life & hi/ory1 he at la/ rea*es a conclusion conc]n+ x all1 & ?is conclusion he has record$ 9 ! text ,i h read1 ,fe> ,god & keep ,8 comm&m5ts1 etc4 #a4 ,fe> ,god4 ,! fe> ( ,god is natural to man until1 by false tea*+ & evil association1 x is de/roy$4 ,! sev]e ?+s we see 9 nature ab\t u lead u to h a dread ( ,him :o is ! au?or ( all ^! ?+s4 ,&1 !n1 dea? is an awful & a fe>-inspir+ ?+1 & ! ?\ght ( :at is to come aft] dea?1 9 t unkn[n c\ntry f :i* no travel] has ev] return$ to tell u ( x1 fills u ) awe & sob]s u :5ev] x comes to u4 ,& mo/ m5 ev5 t are 9 _! lives wick$1 & seem+ly h no ?\ght ( ,god or fe> ( ,him1 are (t5 tr\bl$ ) ! fe> ( dea? & :at is to come aft] dea?4 ,?is 0 my own exp]i5ce4 #b4 ,b m]ely to h ?is fe> ( ,god is n suffici5t1 & w d no good if x does n lead a man to obey ,god & keep ,8 comm&m5ts1 z ! text says4 ,= example1 ,i knew a fireman 9 an eng9e-h\se "h :o _h ?is fe> ( ,god2 b he liv$ a swe>+1 dr9k+ man1 &1 ( c\rse1 he 0 n at all b5efit$ by 8 fe> ( ,god4 ,no d\bt ?is fe> ( ,god 0 creat$ 9 ! human m9d 9 ord] to lead m5 to keep ,god's comm&m5ts4 ,b h[ are we to "k ,8 comm&m5ts8 ,:y1 my bro!rs1 !y are giv5 ) great pla9ness 9 ,8 ,holy ,^w--s pla9 t ! wayf>+ man1 ?\gh he be a fool1 ne$ n miss !m if only he is will+ to "k !m & to d !m4 ,&1 z ,/4 ,john says1 ,8 comm&m5ts are n griev\s4 ,!y only require ( u :at is mo/ j & reasonably due to ,him :o is ! giv]1 ! free & b\ntiful giv]1 ( all ! good ?+s ( ?is life1 & ! graci\s promis] ( p]fect bless$ness 9 ! life to come4 ,&1 on ! human side1 ,8 comm&m5ts require ( u only t we keep f do+ to o!rs :at !y ought n d to u1 & t we d = o!rs t :i* !y ought to d = u4 ,9 o!r words1 ! comm&m5ts ( ,god are all embrac$ 9 two s5t5ces1 ,love ,god ) all y\r he>t1 because ,he fir/ lov$ y1 & ,love y\r fell[m51 because !y are comm&$ to love y1 & :5 y submit to ,god's ,_s1 & become r5ew$ 9 m9d & he>t1 born aga91 made a new creature1 y w see ! reasonabl5ess ( keep+ ,god's comm&m5ts1 & ! desirabl5ess ( x1 9 su* a light t y w g on 9 ,8 ways ) delight1 desir+ to "k m & m ( ,him4 #c4 ,& we are told t to d ?is is ! :ole purpose ( man's exi/5ce1 & :5 he does ?is he has fully answ]$ ! end ( 8 exi/5ce1 met all t is requir$ ( him & is secure amid ! problems ( life & ! possibilities ( ! unkn[n future4 ,?is1 also1 br+s re/ to ! human he>t1 a re/ to be f\nd n[h]e else4 ,i am 9 a position to speak ) "s confid5ce & positiv5ess on ?is po9t2 =1 l ! man :o utt]$ ! text1 ,i h tri$ life 9 all its phases4 ,i h _h all ! k9ds ( pleasure1 & ,i h te/$ !m to ! bottom4 ,i h f\nd out all !re is 9 !m4 ,= =ty ye>s ,i gave myself to seek+ & enjoy+ worldly pleasure1 & ,i ought to "k :at x c d = a human s\l4 ,b ,i h ano!r advantage1 too2 ,i h tri$ ! doctr9e ( my text4 ,i h surr5d]$ myself1 my life1 my prospects1 my all1 to ,god1 & live only to keep ,8 comm&m5ts & to please ,him4 ,my m9d has be5 r5ew$1 trans=m$1 my life entirely turn$ ar\nd4 ,i h pass$ ?r\gh ! /ruggle & ! sacrifice t 7 involv$ 9 becom+ a ,*ri/ian1 & ,i h be5 pass+ ?r\gh ^? t belong to ! life ( a ,*ri/ian4 ,b y may say ,i speak ?us because x is a novelty to me4 ,no1 sir2 x is no long] a novelty4 ,i h be5 try+ x n[ = t5 ye>s--surely a long en\gh "t to "k pretty well h[ x comp>es ) ! old life2 & my te/imony1 f =ty ye>s' exp]i5ce ( ! old life & t5 ye>s ( ! new life1 is t ( ! writ] ( my text1 ,fe> ,god & keep ,8 comm&m5ts3 = ?is is ! :ole duty ( man4 ,,hebrews ,,xii3 #a1 #b4 #a4 ,:]e=e1 see+ we also are compass$ ab\t ) s great a cl\d ( witnesses1 let u lay aside e weight1 & ! s9 :i* do? s easily beset u1 & let u run ) pati5ce ! race t is set be=e u4 #b4 ,look+ unto ,jesus1 ! ,au?or & ,f9i%] ( our fai?2 :o = ! joy t 0 set be=e ,him endur$ ! cross1 despis+ ! %ame1 & is set d[n at ! "r h& ( ! ?rone ( ,god4 ,! ,apo/le "h speaks ( a great numb] ( witnesses1 :o1 hav+ tri$ ,god & ,8 ways1 are compet5t to te/ify z to :at ,god c d = ^? :o tru/ ,him & s]ve ,him4 ,9 ! *apt] j prec$+ he has spok5 ( ,abraham & ,joseph & ,moses1 & _m o!rs1 & !y1 hav+ liv$ ! life ( fai?1 7 prep>$ to say :e!r x 0 a disappo9tm5t or n to tru/ ,god & to walk 9 ,8 ways4 ,& !y 7 n disappo9t$4 ,!y obta9$ a good report1 held fa/ to _! fai? 9 ,god1 & 7 cont5t to endure all sorts ( trials & suff]+s = ! com=t & comp5sation ( _! religion4 ,& s n[ !re are witnesses1 n a few1 :o h te/$ ?is matt]1 & te/$ x "u circum/ances ! mo/ adv]se & try+1 & !y give no unc]ta9 te/imony z to ! desirabl5ess ( religion4 ,!re are p :o h none ( ! good ?+s ( ?is _w2 none ( its honors2 none ( its pleasures2 none ( its weal?1 & n _m ( its com=ts1 & yet !y are cont5t$1 & ev5 happy4 ,yes1 f> happi] ?an _m :o h ! be/ t ?is _w c give4 ,i am "o ( ?is class myself4 ,!n ! ,apo/le goes on to exhort !m to hold fa/1 & to g on1 because o!rs hav+ tri$ x 7 conqu]ors4 ,he exhorts to ?ree ?+s3 #a4 ,to lay aside e weight1 & especially e besett+ s9 t might h especial attraction & special p[]4 ,& x is impossible to s]ve ,god & h peace ( consci5ce & to ov]come s9 :ile ! m9d is divid$ & undecid$4 ,a man c n expect to w9 a race if he ties heavy weights ^u 8 p]son2 be mu/ be un5cumb]$ & free4 ,s1 9 runn+ ! ,*ri/ian race1 we mu/ free ourselves f ev]y?+ we f9d to be a h9drance1 no matt] h[ desirable or h[ de> x may be to ! fle%4 ,s ,jesus ,himself says3 ,if any?+ s de> z a "r arm or a "r eye becomes a h9drance to to u1 x mu/ be giv5 up4 ,!re are m5 :o say !y want to s]ve ,god1 & expect to d s1 b !n !y enjoy c]ta9 ?+s !y "k to be wrong & hurtful1 & !y w indulge 9 !m j a little1 n en\gh to cause !m to get cle> away f ,god4 ,i "k & y "k m5 :o ?9k !y c enjoy s9 j a little1 or once 9 a:ile4 ,9 ! fir/ place1 ?is is ungrateful & mean4 ,x is ! same z to say3 ,i want to be j religi\s en\gh to escape hell1 & yet ,i want to enjoy all ! pleasure ,i c f s91 too4 ,su* a feel+ di%onors ,god4 ,&1 9 ! second place1 x is exce$+ly dang]\s4 ,x %[s t ! he>t is n "r4 ,:ile y are trifl+ ?us ) s91 y may become s fasc9at$ by x & l$ away z to be enslav$ be=e y "k x1 & lose all y\r ta/e = heav5ly ?+s4 ,besides1 ,god w n long be> ) a man :o has no bett] he>t & no m self-sacrific+ _s ?an t4 ,= myself1 ,i %\ld tremble & %udd] if ,i 7 s f> gone z to feel t ,i c\ld g & delib]ately indulge 9 "s pleasant s9 = a:ile & !n come back to resume ! s]vice ( ,god :5 ,i _h satiat$ my evil desires4 ,be assur$1 y c n s]ve ,god & s94 ,!y are z opposite z light & d>kness2 y mu/ give up "o or ! o!r4 ,b1 y say1 h[ c ,i give up s98 ,if y are will+ to d s1 ,god w see t y h ! p[] to d x4 ,give x up if x gives y pa9--yes1 if x breaks y\r he>t6 ,god ,himself w p\r 9 ! oil ( com=t & joy1 & heal all y\r w\nds4 #b4 ,! ,apo/le exhorts to run ) pati5ce ! race set be=e u4 ,x is easy to d well = a:ile2 to ab/a9 f s9 :ile ! excitem5t ( novelty 9 ! religi\s life is ^u u2 & h[ _m !re are :o began well & did well = a:ile1 b :5 ! novelty wore away1 & ! excitem5t ( ! *ange 0 gone1 !y grew we>y & s\ght ! old pleasures ( s9 aga94 ,"s h ?us done 9 connection ) our "w "h 9 ?is mission4 ,make up y\r m9d be=e h& t :5 ! "t ( temptation & lonel9ess comes1 y w endure x & g ?r\gh ) x pati5tly1 wait+ = ! removal ( ! temptation & ! return ( joy4 ,& :5 temptation does come1 pray1 oh pray4 ,g alone & ask ,god to re/ore to y ! joy ( ,8 salvation & tru/ ,him until he does x4 ,g "w = o!rs2 g m+le ) ,*ri/ian p1 :e!r y feel l x or n1 & y w soon f9d h[ to meet ! enemy1 & h[ to defeat 8 plans & purposes4 #c4 ,b 8 la/ exhortation is to look to ,jesus4 ,he bore our s9s on ! cross1 & !re=e we are releas$ f !m1 if we tru/ ,him & accept ,him z our s9-be>]4 ,he is alive =ev]more2 & :5 e>ne/ly ask$1 ,he gives spiritual life & joy & /r5g? by s5d+ ! ,holy ,_s into our he>ts4 ,!n aga91 ,8 life is ! patt]n ( pati5ce 9 lonel9ess & trials1 :i* y & ,i are to foll[2 & c we desire or aspire to be or to d any bett] ?an did ,he8 ,w\ld y lose y\r load ( s98 ,fix y\r eyes ^u ,jesus4 ,w\ld y h ,god's peace )98 ,fix y\r eyes ^u ,jesus4 ,,acts ,,ii3 #ch4 ,!n ,pet] said unto !m1 ,rep5t & be baptiz$ e "o ( y 9 ! "n ( ,jesus ,*ri/ = ! remission ( s9s1 & ye %all receive ! gift ( ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,we may n be able to und]/& h[ x is1 b ^! inspir$ ,scriptures repres5t ! "w ( salvation z appli$ to human he>ts by ! ,holy ,_s4 ,we d n he> en\gh ( ! ,holy ,_s4 ,we d n "k ,him & speak ( ,him & pray = ,8 help & guidance & p[]1 z ! ,scriptures tea* u to d4 ,^! ,scriptures are our guide2 :at !y say we d n "q1 nor c we subtract f !m or add to !m4 ,let u see1 !n1 :at !y tea* u z to ! ,holy ,_s4 ,9 ! #ad?1 #ae? & #af? *apt]s ( ,/4 ,john's ,gospel ,jesus di/9ctly promises ,8 disciples t ^u ,8 dep>ture ,he w\ld s5d to !m & to ! _w a div9e ag5t :om ,he calls ! ,_s ( ,tru?1 ! ,com=t]1 etc41 & ,he tells !m :at t div9e ag5t w\ld d4 ,let u1 !n1 fix our m9ds n[ int5tly on :at ,he says1 & be prep>$ to believe x4 ,he said t ?is ,_s ( ,tru? %\ld conv9ce m5 ( s94 ,well1 ! fact is1 we d see m5 conv9c$ ( s9 z s91 & n m]ely because x is damag+ & ru9\s4 ,b we see ?is only 9 connection ) ! ,*ri/ian religion4 ,s x mu/ be by means ( "s p[] t belongs to ! ,*ri/ian religion4 ,& if any ( y "h to-night see y\r s9s & feel !m to be1 n only damag+ & de/ructive1 b mean & hateful & crimes aga9/ ! good ,fa!r :o has borne ) y & bless$ y ?r\gh all ^! ye>s ( s91 !n y may "k t x is ,god's ,holy ,_s t has produc$ t feel+ 9 y2 & especially s if y feel t y\r +ratitude to ,god1 :o has provid$ = y a way ( salvation at su* great co/1 & y\r cold & he>tless neglect ( ,jesus ,*ri/ ?r\gh all ^! ye>s ( s9 are ! mo/ aggravat$ "p ( y\r guilt4 ,& y may be sure if ,god is will+ to beg9 a good "w 9 y ,he is will+ to c>ry x on to completion1 & w d s if y d n h9d] ,him4 ,"w out y\r salvation ) fe> & trembl+1 = x is ,god t worke? 9 y4 ,& s9ce x is ,he :o has begun ?is "w1 bew>e t y d n h9d] x or /op x by y\r coldness1 c>elessness or s94 ,b1 9 ! second place1 ,jesus says ! ,holy ,_s %\ld reveal ,him to s9n]s z _! s9-be>] & life-giv]4 ,s ! promise is to y4 ,hold on 9 pray] & pati5t expectation4 ,y c n be disappo9t$1 = ,god c n lie4 ,i 0 ignorant ( ,*ri/ to an a/oni%+ & %ameful degree2 b ,i 0 told to pray & ,i did s4 ,i %ut myself up 9 my back room "o ev5+ & told ,god ,i 0 go+ to /ay !re until ,he bless$ me1 & ,i 0 bless$1 & ! only ?ree words ,i utt]$ 7 ,jesus ( ,naz>e?4 ,by "s p[] ,i 0 s illum9at$ & *ang$ t ,i saw ,jesus z ! de>e/ & lovelie/ be+ ,i ev] ?\ght (4 ,0 n ?is a fulfillm5t to me ( ! promise made 9 ,john xvi43 #ad8 ,& hav+ receiv$ grace f my ,god1 ,i cont9ue to ?is day witness+ to small & to great ! ?+s ,i h exp]i5c$ s9ce becom+ a ,*ri/ian4 ,n[1 let u inquire :at else ?is graci\s div9e ag5t work+ 9 man is to d4 ,he x is :o produces t *ange 9 m5 :i* we call conv]sion or reg5]ation or new bir?4 ,y rememb] 9 ,john 7#c;d *apt]7 ! expression1 ,born ( ! ,_s1 & aga9 9 ,titus iii43 #e1 x is said we are sav$ by ! r5ew+ ( ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,:5 we "k1 !n1 t ^! *anges are ! imm$iate effect ( ! inwork+ ( ?is div9e ag5t1 we ne$ n be surpris$ t !y are s sudd5 & s ?or\gh z we see !m to be 9 "s cases t we "k (4 ,let me say to ^? :o h n yet exp]i5c$ ?is wond]ful deliv]ance f ! p[] & love ( s9 & ?is inn] revolution1 t _m ( u h te/$ ?is matt] :o 7 9 ! deepe/ dep?s ( s9 & d>kness1 & ,god w d to dep5d on4 ,g ahead1 g ahead2 keep on pray+ & keep on hop+ & tru/ y\rself to ,jesus1 & y %all receive ! gift ( ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,b1 aft] we h exp]i5c$ ?is *ange :i* we call conv]sion1 ,god's _s abides ) u & keeps on do+ great ?+s = u :5 we are conv]t$4 ,we are n made angels or gods1 b are /ill human1 &1 ?\gh deliv]$ f ! guilt & p[] ( s91 we are hamp]$ by ignorance & depress$ by sorr[ & encompass$ ) temptations4 ,b j anticipat+ ^! ne$s ( ours1 ! ,holy ,_s is to be our tea*] & to guide u into ! tru?4 ,s we ne$ n fe> if we are only humble & hone/ & tea*able2 we %all n g dang]\sly a/ray1 = ,god ,himself w ?us op5 to our m9ds ! wond]ful ?+s ( ,scripture1 & cause u to und]/& z mu* ( x z we ne$4 ,b ,he1 ! ,holy ,_s1 is to be ! com=t] ( ,god's p 9 _! lonel9ess & trials & conflicts 9 ?is _w ( exile4 ,i h be5 su/a9$ by unse5 p[] 9 my trials z a ,*ri/ian4 ,b ,he enables !m to ov]come1 & be m ?an conqu]ors1 :5 !y are assail$ by temptation to s94 ,he /r5g!ns ) might 9 ! inn] man 7,ephesians iii43 #af71 & gives joy & peace2 s t ! s\l1 be+ cont5t ) ^!1 does n ne$ or desire ! poor pleasures ( s94 ,?is has be5 my exp]i5ce4 ,he sanctifies ,god's p2 ,he makes !m holi] & holi]2 ,he produces ! fruit ( love1 joy1 peace1 long-suff]+1 g5tl5ess1 goodness1 meekness1 temp]ance1 fai?2 & ,he gives p[] to rea*1 by our poor words1 ! he>ts & consci5ces ( o!rs1 ?\gh !y be dead 9 s94 ,jesus says1 ,ye %all receive p[] aft] ! ,holy ,gho/ is come ^u y4 7,acts #a43 #h47 ,!re are "s m5 :o h ?is p[] to rea* & awak5 & int]e/ s9n]s 9 ! salvation ( _! s\ls4 ,& !y d h p[] to br+ s9n]s into ?is new life ( peace & purity & joy4 ,& y & ,i might h ?is p[]1 & f> m ( x ?an we d1 if1 l ! ,apo/le1 we w\ld wait be=e ,god 9 pati5t1 believ+ pray] till ! ,holy ,_s %\ld come 9 fullness & p[]4 ,p5teco/ 0 a display ( ?is p[]1 & we may h ano!r ,p5teco/ :5 we are will+ to wait = x & pray = x z did ! little company 9 ! upp] room at ,j]usalem4 ,,luke ,v3 #cb4 ,i came n to call ! righte\s1 b s9n]s1 to rep5tance4 ,^! words ( ,jesus 7 spok5 to ! ,scribes & ,ph>isees1 & comb9e 9 !mselves a def5se ( ,8 own c\rse 9 m+l+ ) s9n]s1 & a ke5 rebuke ( ! _s ( ^? :o br\ght aga9/ him an accusation ( associat+ ) s9n]s1 z well z ! decl>ation ( ! object ( ,8 mission into ?is poor d>k5$ _w4 ,& does x n seem /range t a man %\ld be requir$ to def5d himself = go+ to sp5d & be sp5t = ! good ( ^? :o are mo/ sorely 9 ne$ ( help & relief8 ,b x has always be5 s4 ,m5 are s selfi%1 s utt]ly )\t conc]n = ! int]e/s ( o!rs t !y want to monopolize & swall[ up ev]y?+ t is good4 ,s :5 ,jesus ( ,naz>e? 0 reveal$ to ! ,jewi% p1 & made ,himself conspicu\s & fam\s by ! daily p]=mance ( a/oni%+ miracles1 ! ,scribes & ,ph>isees1 :o ?\ght t ev]y?+ ought to be subs]vi5t to _! own p]sonal int]e/s & aggr&izem5t1 fell out ) ,jesus because ,he did n fall 9 ) notions ( :at ,he ought to be & d4 ,!y did n c>e a baubee = ! p1 ! rabble1 ! mob1 ! human cattle4 ,inde$ !y utt]ly despis$ !m1 & w\ld h no?+ to d ) !m4 ,!y might p]i% & rot s f> z ! ,scribes & ,ph>isees 7 conc]n$1 provid$ ^! latt] c\ld hold ! places ( honor & ga94 ,& s utt]ly possess$ 7 !y by ?is feel+ ( all-consum+ selfi%ness1 t :5 !y saw ?is ,jesus ( ,naz>e? go+ ) s9n]s1 talk+ ) s9n]s & eat+ ) s9n]s1 !y set x d[n z a conclusion !y w\ld nev] give up t ,he 0 n1 & c\ld n be1 & %\ld n be1 _! ,messiah4 ,s t ,jesus 0 ?us =c$ to reason ) !m1 & to make ,8 def5se be=e ^! self-con/itut$ judges ( ,81 & tell !m :y x 0 t ,he pursu$ ! c\rse ,he did4 ,s x 0 9 ! "t ( ,john ,wesley 9 ,engl&4 ,he w5t among s9n]s1 talk$ ) !m1 taught !m1 & drew !m by ! magic =ce ( 8 great love to foll[ him :]ev] he w5t to prea*2 & !y s cr[d$ ! *ur*es to he> ! words ( grace & t5d]ness t fell f 8 lips1 t ! doors 7 %ut ^u him1 & he _h to g out on ! commons & into ! fields b5ea? ! sky ( t ,god & ,fa!r ^: words he 0 prea*+1 & ^: lo/ *ildr5 he 0 try+ to save4 ,?is has be5 ! exp]i5ce ( o!r zeal\s & e>ne/ m9i/]s ( ,*ri/4 ,& !y1 too1 h _h to def5d !mselves = su* a c\rse4 ,our de> ,bro!r ,morris felt himself press$ to say :y he w5t to ! c\r?\se /eps to try to lift up ! fall5 & save ! wret*$ & ! lo/4 ,b ! words ( ,jesus conta9 also a sca?+ rebuke ( ! self-righte\s _s ( ^? h>d-head$1 h>d-he>t$ ,scribes & ,ph>isees4 ,x 0 ! same z say+1 y claim t y are ! righte\s ( ! _w4 ,y are n will+ to be class$ ) s9n]s1 or to be call$ s9n]s1 or to believe y\rselves s9n]s4 ,!re=e y h no ne$ ( me1 & ,i h no?+ = y2 = ,i came n to call ! righte\s1 b s9n]s1 to rep5tance4 ,let u bew>e !n1 my de> fri5ds & bre?r51 ( ?9k+ or feel+ t we are bett] ?an o!rs1 or t we are n s9n]s4 ,n[1 ne$ ,i /op "h to prove t any ( y are s9n]s8 ,does any "o "h ne$ to h argum5ts work$ out & laid be=e him to prove to him t he is a poor1 mis]able1 bl9d s9n]8 ,if !re is any "o "h :o ?9ks & feels t he is n1 !n he has no bus9ess "h1 he has no bus9ess ) ,*ri/1 & we h no?+ to tell him or give him "h4 ,we bid him f>ewell1 & turn away f him1 to "w = & to talk to o!rs4 ,if ,i 7 to g to see a sick man conc]n$ ab\t 8 s\l1 & he 7 to beg9 to tell ab\t 8 good de$s & 8 fre$om f s9s & vices1 ,i w\ld get my hat & tell him good-bye2 t ,i knew no?+ ab\t salvation = anybody b s9n]s4 ,b = s9n]s ,i h & hold up a ,savi\r1 a div9e ,savi\r1 :o1 bless$ be ,god1 is able to save to ! utt]mo/ all :o come to him1 & to save !m "h & n[4 ,if y want to see a specim5 ( ,*ri/'s int]e/ 9 s9n]s & feel+ = s9n]s1 look at ,8 life4 ,9 ! beg9n+ ( ,8 m9i/ry ,he *ooses ,mat!w1 "o ( ! despis$ class ( publicans1 to be "o ( ,8 disciples--nay1 "o ( ,8 ,apo/les4 ,!n ,he w5t to ,mat!w's h\se to d9n]4 ,x 0 z if "s lead+ m9i/] ( ! ,gospel "h to-day w\ld be se5 walk+ d[n ! /reet ) "s lead+ gambl]1 on 8 way to take d9n] & sp5d ! aft]noon ) him4 ,x 0 z if ,mr4 ,moody %\ld come to ,l\isville to conduct "o ( 8 great meet+s1 &1 in/ead ( /opp+ ) ,mr4 ,c>ley or ,mr4 ,c>t] or ,judge ,bullock1 %\ld /op ) ,john ,"y or ,h>ry ,johnson1 & be 8 will+ gue/4 ,s ,jesus w5t to ! h\se ( ano!r big gambl]1 s to speak1 9 8 day4 ,x 0 ! publican ,zac*eus 7,luke xix41 #a-aj71 & ,jesus n only w5t !re to d9n]1 b took salvation ) ,him to ,zac*eus' h\se4 ,s by ,8 t5d]ness & grace1 ,jesus drew to ,him ! poor outca/ wom5 ( ,8 day4 ,"o wret*$ s9n] ( ?is class 0 s won by ,8 conc]n = s9n]s1 t %e press$ h] way into a ri* man's h\se :]e ,jesus 0 d9+1 & go+ to ,him wa%$ ,8 feet ) h] te>s1 & ano9t$ !m ) co/ly p]fume1 ,jesus n only n =bidd+ h]1 b def5d+ h] = x 7,luke #g74 ,& ,jesus spoke ! p>ables ( ! ,lo/ ,%eep1 ! ,lo/ ,piece ( ,silv]1 ! ,lo/ ,prodigal ,son1 & said--oh1 he> x--,!re is joy 9 heav5 ov] "o s9n] t rep5te?4 ,,james ,i3 #be1 #bf4 #be4 ,b :oso looke? into ! p]fect law ( lib]ty1 & cont9ue? !re91 he be+ n a =getful he>]1 b a do] ( ! "w1 ?is man %all be bless$ 9 8 de$4 #bf4 ,if any man among y seem to be religi\s1 & bridle? n 8 tongue1 b deceive? 8 own he>t1 ?is man's religion is va94 ,james1 ! writ] ( ?is language1 is t inspir$ s]vant ( ,god1 :o gets impati5t ) m]e pr(essions ( piety1 & :o wants to see action1 action6 n m]e words1 n dead fai?1 b also action4 ,he speaks1 9 ! text1 ( =getful he>]s ( ! ,^w4 ,n[1 d y n "k all ab\t :at t means8 ,h y n1 _m a "t1 read ! ,bible1 or he>d a s]mon f x t1 l a mirror1 held up to y\r he>t1 %[$ y y\rself ev5 bett] ?an y knew y\rself8 ,& h y n said3 ,well1 ,i w *ange2 t picture is true1 & x is too d>k to be endur$ any long]8 ,b1 in/ead ( c>ry+ out y\r purpose & do+ :at y say1 y w5t away & =got all ab\t x1 & soon y 7 z dead z ev]4 ,&1 in/ead ( cont9u+ to read ! ,bible & see y\rself !re2 & in/ead ( cont9u+ to g :]e fai?ful m9i/]s w\ld uncov] y\r poor1 wick$ he>t & life to y\r eyes1 y w5t on y\r accu/om$ ways ( bus9ess or pleasure1 & became a =getful he>] ( ! ,^w1 & x did y no good4 ,h[1 !n1 9 ! "n ( ,god1 c a man keep himself f =gett+ ! ?+s he reads or he>s f ! ,bible8 ,:y1 x is v simple--to g to do+ at once1 )\t wait+ ev5 till to-morr[4 ,d :at8 y say4 ,:y1 g to pray+4 ,cut y\rself (f f retreat by com+ out on ! side ( ,*ri/ & tak+ y\r place among ^? :o are seek+ ,8 m]cy & salvation1 till y c take y\r place among ^? :o h t salvation4 ,b ,i want to say a v solemn ^w to ^? :o pr(ess to h already obta9$ salvation4 ,are y do+1 z well z he>+ ! ,^w ( ,god8 ,does y\r life exemplify hol9ess to ! ,"l1 & does x ab\nd 9 good works & good words8 ,d y ab/a9 f evil & keep y\rself f evil associations8 ,d y turn away f dang]\s & suspici\s places & p8 ,d y obey readily & he>tily :at y f9d to be comm&$ 9 ,god's ,^w8 ,if y d n d ! ?+s y he>1 !n y1 too1 w soon become =getful he>]s1 & little by little ! _w w re-ass]t its p[] ov] y1 & ! fle% w get ! upp] h&1 & at ! la/ y may w9d up z our poor fri5d ,ei*el] did4 ,do+ is z important a "p ( ! ,gospel z he>+4 ,read ! la/ "p ( ! ,s]mon on ! ,m\nt 7,mat!w vii41 #bd-bg74 ,notice t ,jesus says ! man :o does ,8 say+s is l "o :o builde? on a solid & endur+ f\ndation t c /& /orms & temptations4 ,n[1 d y n f9d t if y d :at y f9d 9 ! ,bible1 !n ! ,bible becomes sweet] & sweet] to y8 ,y d n %ut x up !n & %ove x aside = fe> ( f9d+ y\rself condemn$1 = :5 y d its bidd+s x w n condemn y1 b comm5d y1 & t makes y love x & keeps y f =gett+ x4 ,& ?us y gr[ /rong] & /rong]1 & s9 w gr[ weak] & weak]1 & y w surely f9d t y h built on a /rong f\ndation4 ,b1 9 ! la/ "p ( ! text is a subject ,i want to talk ab\t4 ,read v]se #bf4 ,x is ! tongue4 ,if any man seems to be religi\s1 & fails to control 8 tongue1 !n he is mi/ak54 ,oh1 h y n f\nd y\r tongue to be "o ( ! mo/ tr\blesome ?+s y h to cont5d )8 ,if y want to see ,james' idea ( ! tongue1 read *apt] iii41 #a-aj4 ,d y wat* y\r conv]sation8 ,d y gu>d ! door ( y\r lips8 ,d y8 ,i am 9 e>ne/4 ,d y ev] indulge 9 ! lea/ obsc5ity8 ,"s s-call$ ,*ri/ians d1 & x is sick5+ & disgu/+ to o!rs2 & :ile x %[s :at _! ?\ghts dwell on1 x does !mselves great h>m1 = x keeps temptation be=e _! m9ds1 & makes x a great deal m difficult to resi/ temptations :5 !y come 9 _! lives4 ,d y mean x only z innoc5t fun8 ,x is n innoc5t4 ,= if y are s h>d5$ z to unclean ?\ghts1 t !y don't hurt y1 !y1 w hurt o!rs4 ,:at ab\t swe>+8 ,if ! devil c get y to swe> a few times1 !n he w say3 ,oh1 y might z well confess t y are no ,*ri/ian1 & give up ?is hypocritical bus9ess4 ,!re is "o ( ! ,t5 ,comm&m5ts =bidd+ to take ,god's "n 9 va92 ! ,s]mon on ! ,m\nt =bids x /ill m /rongly1 & ,james1 9 *apt] v41 #ab1 condemns x 9 ! /ronge/ language4 ,& yet !re are "s *ur* memb]s :o practice x1 especially :5 !y get mad4 ,t man's he>t is n "r1 & he is tread+ on v dang]\s gr\nd :o is n *ang$ en\gh to avoid swe>+4 ,& if a man1 by ,god's grace1 w turn away f x & f ! ?\ght ( x1 he w soon become s t x w make him %udd] to he> o!rs swe>4 ,i "k ?is f my own exp]i5ce4 ,if y d n wat* y\rself 9 conv]sation1 y w tell ?+s t are n true2 & s1 9 try+ to be polite1 y w h to wat* or y\r tongue w tell a falsehood1 & y w recollect x ) %ame & lose /r5g? ( fai? 9 ,god4 ,& !n t tongue (t5 indulges 9 gossip ab\t y\r acqua9tances t does !m great h>m4 ,& h y n1 9 mom5ts ( temp] & passion1 said cruel &1 p]haps1 false ?+s to y\r de> ones2 to ^? :o h work$ = y1 & maybe w\ld die = y8 ,x cut !m to ! he>t1 & y h n made ackn[l$gm5t ( y\r s9 to !m4 ,,james ,i3 #h4 ,a d\ble-m9d$ man is un/able 9 all 8 ways4 ,"o ( ! commone/ & greate/ faults & weaknesses ( m5 is ?is t ,i am go+ to speak ab\t to y to-night1 & t is indecision4 ,x is n only a weakness & a fault & a great h9drance 9 reg>d to religion1 b 9 any & all ! affairs ( life4 ,d y n "k m5 ( compet5t ability & ( good advantages & education :o am\nt to v little 9 ! _w8 ,& :5 y ask y\rself :y x is1 is x n because !y h n en\gh decision ( "* to keep at any "o ?+ long en\gh to ma/] ! difficulties ) :i* x is beset & to w9 success 9 spite ( ob/acles8 ,"s ( !m are confus$ by ! great numb] ( ways t seem to op5 be=e !m & are n decid$ z to :i* "o !y w pursue4 ,& aft] emb>k+ 9 "o pursuit & cont9u+ 9 x = a:ile1 !y conclude !y c\ld d bett] at some?+ else2 & be=e !y h /udi$ & labor$ long en\gh to obta9 success 9 ?is second ent]prise1 !y conclude !y c\ld d bett] by *ang+ = a ?ird or go+ back to ! fir/4 ,& s1 because /udy & "t & labor are necess>y to success 9 any occupation or pr(ession & !y d n be/[ ^!1 !y d n succe$1 &1 9 ! nature ( ! case1 c n succe$4 ,or1 if !y are n emb>rass$ by ! numb] ( op5+s be=e !m1 !y are divid$ 9 _! m9ds betwe5 a life ( ease1 indulg5ce & pleasure & a life ( labor & self-d5ial1 &1 ?\gh !y w\ld be some?+ & are n )\t ambition1 yet a life ( indol5ce & re/ (f]s s _m inducem5ts t !y pref] x to a life ( h>d "w & ( disc\ragem5ts & battles & anxieties1 or1 at lea/1 if !y d n positively pref] su* a life1 yet !y hank] aft] x2 & 9 _! ef=t to h ease & pleasure &1 at ! same "t1 to pursue "s honorable & pr(itable call+1 !y miss bo?1 & h no satisfaction1 b only a consci\sness ( _! own weakness & uselessness & a contempt = !mselves4 ,b maybe ,i ne$ n ask y if y "k p]sons ( ?is sort4 ,y :o li/5 to me to-night may be ( j t k9d4 ,possibly--nay1 probably--!re are m5 "h to-night ^: lives h be5 failures j because ( ! mis]able weakness ,i h be5 try+ to describe4 ,b if ?is weakness ( "* is ! cause ( _m failures & ! utt] disappo9tm5t t _m lives h end$ 91 9 worldly matt]s1 h[ mu* m s is x 9 religi\s conc]ns & int]e/s4 ,if conc5tration ( ?\ght & fix$ness ( purpose & firmness ( w are necess>y to ov]come ob/acles & to ma/] success 9 bus9ess or 9 ! le>n$ pr(essions1 !y are m s 9 ! matt] ( religion4 ,if indecision & divid$ness ( m9d & wav]+ ( purpose cause m5 to fail 9 worldly matt]s1 mu* m s w !y cause m5 to fail 9 religion4 ,"s m5 are =ev] wav]+ betwe5 accept+ & reject+ ,*ri/ianity4 ,to-day !y are satisfi$ t ,*ri/ianity is true1 & to-morr[ !y say !y h f\nd pro( t ,*ri/ianity is false4 ,!n1 aga91 !y get into tr\ble & f9d t no?+ c help !m b ,*ri/ianity1 & !y believe x until "s man comes along & argues aga9/ x1 & away !y g (f aft] him4 ,s !y nev] believe 9 ,*ri/ianity long en\gh at any "t to get any good f x1 & !y w n utt]ly & f9ally reject x s z to be no long] tr\bl$ by x4 ,b ! tr\ble ) mo/ ( ! p :o are 9 ?is wret*$ /ate ( indecision is t !y believe 9 ,*ri/ianity1 & are p]suad$ t x is f> bett] to be a ,*ri/ian & saf]1 b !y love ! _w & ! ways ( ! _w & ! honors ( ! _w & ! pleasures ( ! _w2 & x is impossible to love ! _w & p>take ( ! pleasures ( ! _w & at ! same "t to s]ve ,god ) y\r :ole he>t4 ,ye c n s]ve two ma/]s1 & yet y see p :o are try+ to d x4 ,s !y d n make good ,*ri/ians1 = _! he>ts are 9 ! _w1 & _! lives & influ5ce are n = ,*ri/ianity1 b = ! _w4 ,nor d !y get ! good & pleasure ( a worldly life1 = !y are re/ra9$ & h>ass$ by _! fe> ( consci5ce1 ,god & hell4 ,& ,jesus1 9 ! ,s]mon on ! ,m\nt1 says1 ,ye c n s]ve two ma/]s4 ,_m h tri$ x4 ,"s ^: hi/ories are giv5 9 ! ,bible tri$ x4 ,saul1 ! fir/ k+ ( ,israel1 tri$ x4 ,:5 ,god s5t him to de/roy ! ,amalekites1 he obey$ ! comm& 9 "p1 b n altoge!r4 7,i4 ,samuel xv41 #ac-be47 ,b ,god is n mock$1 & because ,saul trifl$ ) ,him ,he reject$ ,saul1 & ,saul w5t f bad to worse1 until at la/1 9 8 ab&onm5t to ! p[] ( evil1 he committ$ murd] aft] murd] & f9ally di$ a suicide4 ,! ri* "y man 9 ! ,new ,te/am5t 0 ano!r case ( divid$ m9d4 ,he saw ! desirabl5ess ( be+ good1 & ! safety ( be+ at peace ) ,god1 & %[$ a zeal 9 try+ to be good2 b :5 ,jesus told him to sell all he _h & give x to ! poor1 he refus$4 ,he want$ to d bo?1 obey ,god & inh]it ! k+dom ( heav5 & h a =tune = selfi% enjoym5t or = mis]able gre$ at ! same "t4 ,b he c\ld n d bo?4 ,k+ ,agrippa said he 0 almo/ p]suad$ to be a ,*ri/ian4 ,8 m9d 0 divid$2 he c\ld n d bo?4 ,he *ose to keep 8 worldly possessions1 &1 ( c\rse1 c\ld n be a ,*ri/ian 7,acts xxvi41 #bh74 ,b1 on ! o!r h&1 ^? m5 :o 7 decid$ & positive 9 _! rejection ( ! pleasures ( ! _w f\nd no great tr\ble 9 s]v+ ,god4 ,moses 0 a man ( ?is sort 7,hebrews xi41 #be-bg74 ,he delib]ately *ose to suff] afflictions ) ! p ( ,god r ?an to enjoy ! pleasures ( s9 = a season4 ,paul 0 ano!r man ( ?is positive "*4 ,:5 ,jesus reveal$ ,himself to ,paul 8 surr5d] 0 imm$iate & complete4 ,he said1 ,:at wilt ?\ h me d8 ,& to ! end ( a long & labori\s life1 amid p]secutions & suff]+s & disgraces & lonel9ess & bonds1 he cont9ually cri$1 ,none ( ^! ?+s move me4 ,& 8 ,*ri/ian life 0 victori\s & glori\s4 ,,ii4 ,,timo?y ,,iii3 #e4 ,hav+ a =m ( godl9ess1 b d5y+ ! p[] !re(2 f su* turn away4 ,?is text is a description ( c]ta9 false tea*]s :o _h aris5 9 ! mid/ ( ! *ur*1 or :o w\ld arise & assume ! "n ( disciples ( ,*ri/1 z well z au?ority to tea*4 ,!y w\ld assume ! outw>d =m ( ,*ri/ianity & adopt its expressions & con=m to its usage 9 outw>d respects1 b w\ld d5y t !re 0 any sup]natural p[] or div9e unction 9 x4 ,& !re are su* m5 to-day4 ,b if ,*ri/ianity be n att5d$ by any sup]natural ag5cy & en]gy pres5t 9 x & ) x1 !n x is no bett] ?an any o!r ( ! s-call$ religions ( ! _w4 ,if x has only =m & body1 )\t a liv+ & life-giv+ s\l & div9ity 9 x1 x is on a level ) ! hea!n religions1 = !y all h ^!4 ,&1 inde$1 all m5 h a =m ( religion1 & _m ( !m are s devot$ to x t !y w suff] & "s ( !m die be=e !y w give x up4 ,! anci5t ,jews held to ! =ms ( _! religion1 & f\ght = x 9 bloody & bitt] w>s4 ,& ! ,ph>isees at ! "t ( ,*ri/ 7 ! mo/ c>eful & scrupul\s obs]v]s ( all ! =ms ( _! religion1 & yet ,jesus d5\nc$ !m z ! wick$e/ s9n]s ( ,8 "t4 ,!re are m5 ( ?is k9d 9 ! ,*ri/ian *ur*es ( to-day1 m5 :o g ?r\gh ! =ms ( religion1 :o p]=m ! outw>d duties ( religion1 & :o w\ld n give ^! up = any consid]ation2 & yet !y n only d n exp]i5ce any?+ ( ! p[] ( inw>d religion1 b !y g s f> z to d5y t !re is any su* inw>d p[]1 & call ^? :o claim to h x fanatical4 ,b read ! foll[+ passages1 & see if we h n ,scripture w>rant = ?is p[] ( religion3 ,i4 ,cor9?ians ii41 #d2 ,i4 ,!ssalonians i41 #e2 ,,ii4 ,timo?y i41 #g2 ,ephesians iii41 #af2 & our text1 ,,ii4 ,timo?y iii41 #e4 #a4 ,! p[] ( ,*ri/ianity is %[n 9 ! conviction = s94 ,x is impossible to get m5 to see & realize ! s9fulness & hatefulness ( s94 ,x is impossible = any p[] ( m5's eloqu5ce to pi]ce ?r\gh ! deep native depravity ( ! he>t--?r\gh ! selfi% motives1 desires1 ambitions & int]e/s1 & get m5 to see & feel ! nature & dang] ( s94 ,oh1 ! impossibility ( mak+ m5 feel guilt & dang] by any human means :ile !y are dead 9 s96 ,b "u ! p[] ( ?is =ce1 or1 r1 ?is ag5t1 :o works 9 & ?r\gh ,*ri/ianity1 ! poor s9n] sees & feels all ?is4 ,he sees t1 ( all bitt] & p]il\s ?+s1 s9 is ! mo/ bitt] & p]il\s & dreadful4 ,he feels smitt5 ) remorse4 ,he feels t !re is no beauty 9 ! _w1 or 9 any?+1 because ( ! blackness & ugl9ess & f\lness ( 8 own evil he>t & life4 ,& he feels t1 above all ?+s1 he mu/ get rid ( s91 & at :atev] co/1 & spe$ily at t1 = ! agony is un5durable4 ,ev]y?+ seems z no?+ comp>$ ) salvation f s94 ,he w g & sell all he has to buy x1 z ,jesus says4 ,?is s5se ( s9 & dang] produces an e>?quake 9 ! spiritual nature t upheaves ! hidd5 dep?s ( ! s\l4 ,l ! pilgrim 9 ,bunyan's ,pilgrims ,progress1 he puts 8 f+]s 9 8 e>s & flees f ! ,city ( ,de/ruction4 ,l ! murd]]s ( ,jesus :5 convict$ by ?is p[]1 he cries out1 ,:at mu/ ,i d to be sav$8 #b4 ,x is %[n 9 :at we call conv]sion4 ,b ?is p[] :i* belongs to ,*ri/ianity1 n only produces ?is awful s5se ( ! guilt & dang] ( s91 x also deliv]s f ! guilt & p[] ( s91 & makes ! man a new creature4 ,! awful s5se ( condemnation & ! fe> ( a j & endless retribution are tak5 away4 ,he may n "k h[ or j :y1 b he kn[s x is s1 & he rejoices ) joy unspeakable & full ( glory4 ,b1 n only s1 he f9ds to 8 amazem5t & joy t 8 :ole inn] nature is rev]s$1 re-creat$1 & he no long] is a slave ( s9ful habits & passions1 b he is deliv]$ f ^!1 & n[ loves hol9ess & holy p & holy ?+s & holy ?\ghts4 ,! :ole curr5t ( 8 nature is *ang$4 ,old ?+s are pass$ away1 & behold all ?+s are become new1 &1 in/ead ( ! old defilem5t & d>kness & devili%ness1 !re fl[s out & on a life ( purity1 consecration1 self-=getfulness & hol9ess4 ,n[1 d y n call t a p[] :i* c br+ to pass su* effects z ?is8 ,d y "k ( any o!r p[] t c d any?+ l x8 ,& n[1 my bro!r1 y :o pr(ess to be a foll[] ( ,jesus1 h y exp]i5c$ ?is p[]1 or h y only ! =m ( godl9ess )\t ! p[]8 ,t is :at is ! matt] ) mo/ ( ! *ur* memb]s ( ?is day4 ,!y h a =m ( godl9ess1 b 9 too _m cases only a =m4 ,!y d n "k any?+ ( ! p[] ( :i* ,i h be5 speak+4 ,b let no "o be disc\rag$ :o has n exp]i5c$ ?is bless$ deliv]ance f ! p[] ( ! enemy1 provid$ y are seek+ = x4 ,y %all n seek long 9 va91 if y seek x 9 e>ne/4 ,may ,god reveal ,himself to u all n[ & "h4 ,i4 ,,cor9?ians ,,ix3 #bf1 #bg4 ,i !re=e s run n z unc]ta9ly2 s fight ,i1 n z "o t beate? ! air3 ,b ,i keep "u my body1 & br+ x into subjection3 le/ t by any means1 :5 ,i h prea*$ to o!rs1 ,i myself %\ld be a ca/away4 ,?is ,is ! language ( ,/4 ,paul1 ! ,apo/le4 ,z we h already rem>k$ ( ,jesus1 t ,he took ! mo/ famili> facts & exp]i5ces ( e-day life by :i* to tea* ,8 doctr9es1 s we may say ( ,8 great ,apo/le1 ,paul4 ,! ,grecian games1 consi/+ ( runn+ mat*es & box+ mat*es1 7 well kn[n among ! p ( ,/4 ,paul's day1 & especially s at ,cor9?1 & ^! furni%$ him ! illu/rations :i* he frequ5tly us$ 9 8 lett]s4 ,9 ano!r place he speaks ( lay+ aside all weights & runn+ ) pati5ce ! race set be=e u4 ,9 ?is place he speaks bo? ( runn+ & box+4 ,8 object is to %[ t1 z 9 ^! games ! utmo/ att5tion & en]gy & self-d5ial 7 necess>y to success1 & t ^! w\ld insure success1 s x is 9 ! ,*ri/ian race & ! ,*ri/ian fight4 ,he says3 ,i1 = my "p1 run n z unc]ta9ly1 t is1 ,i run no risk1 ,i indulge 9 no?+ t w\ld make x 9 ! lea/ degree unc]ta9 z to my ga9+ ! desir$ object2 ,i "k :at is requir$ ( me1 & ,i "k t if ,i d n fully obs]ve all t is comm&$ me & requir$ ( me1 ,i1 to t ext5t1 r5d] my success unc]ta91 & ?is ,i am det]m9$1 by ! grace ( ,god1 n to d4 ,!n he says3 ,i fight n z "o t beate? ! air4 ,! box]s w\ld frequ5tly take ex]cise by /rik+ into ! air1 z we see m5 practic+ gymna/ics n[2 b ,paul meant to say t he 0 n tak+ ex]cise--he 0 fac+ an e>ne/ & dang]\s foe1 & x 0 a life & dea? matt] to him to "k j :at t foe 01 & to "k j h[ to attack x s z to conqu] x4 ,& :at 0 t foe8 ,he> x1 y :o ?9k y are safe & c j g smoo?ly to heav5 z if y 7 slid+ d[n hill4 ,he> :at ,paul's greate/ foe 03 ,x 0 8 body--yes1 8 body1 ) its appetites & passions1 its con/ant crav+ = gratification & pleasure4 ,:at6 d y mean to say t ,paul1 ! great ,apo/le1 0 9 dang] ( be+ l$ away by ! appetites ( ! body8 ,well1 t is :at he himself says4 ,he 0 n 9 dang] ( fall+ because ( d\bt1 = he _h _h su* a wond]ful conv]sion1 & su* an actual vision ( ,*ri/1 t he c\ld nev]1 nev] d\bt t1 nor does he any :]e1 9 any ( 8 epi/les1 %[ ! slighte/ wav]+ 9 ?is respect1 b he does %[ t he knew & felt !re 0 dang] ( be+1 9 "s ungu>d$ mom5t1 misl$ & br\ght into s9 by ! appetites ( an unma/]$ body4 ,s1 he says 9 ! next v]se3 ,i keep "u my body & br+ x into subjection1 le/ t :5 ,i h prea*$ to o!rs1 ,i myself %\ld be lo/4 ,he /ill keeps up ! figure ( ! box+ mat*es 9 ! games1 & says3 ,! foe ,i h to cont5d ) is my body1 & z ! w9n] 9 ! fi/ fight ( ! games beats 8 foe black1 till he cries en\gh6 s d ,i d5y my body till x ceases to h any desire or disposition t[>d ! objects ( unholy passions1 till x meekly gives up1 & ,i feel t ,i am p]fect ma/]1 & x is "u my feet z x 74 ,:5 ! body is f$ & gratifi$ & pamp]$1 its animal appetites & passions are nurs$ & become /rong4 ,s m5 :o live high & eat to gluttony & dr9k w9es & liquors are usually 9 a p]fect /rut ( s5sual passion4 ,i guess t is :y ! ,"l keeps me s poor1 & :y ,i h s little to live on & s little to fe$ on4 ,x is t1 by ?is necess>y self-d5ial1 ,i may keep my poor body d[n1 out ( dang] ( betray+ me into s94 ,david 0 z great a man 9 "s respects z ,paul1 he commun$ ) ,god 9 ! solitudes ( ,be?lehem's %eep pa/ures1 till he became /rong en\gh to ov]come a giant & to put a :ole army to flight4 ,he compos$ mo/ ( ! ,psalms1 ! mo/ spiritual songs 9 ! _w4 ,he )/ood all ! temptations ( honor1 & endur$1 ) mat*less meekness1 ! hatr$ & p]secution ( ,saul1 ! k+ 7,i4 ,samuel xxiv74 ,b 8 poor body1 ) its s5sual passions1 got ! bett] ( him1 & he committ$ ! awful s9 ( adult]y4 ,d\btless1 :5 he _h become k+1 he =got ! self-d5ial :i* he practic$ :5 he 0 a %eph]d1 & :5 he 0 a p]secut$ & hunt$ fugitive1 & in/ead ( t he liv$ high1 f$ high1 drank high1 & s he fell1 & fell v l[4 ,solomon 0 a wise man4 ,he knew all ! secrets ( ! human he>t4 ,he wrote ,prov]bs & ,ecclesia/es1 books full ( pr(\nd k1 z well z ( deepe/ piety4 ,yet ,solomon 0 l$ away f ,god by indulg+ 9 s5suality4 ,& if ,david & ,solomon1 ) all _! fai? & wisdom & p[] & piety1 f\nd t _! bodies1 because n kept d[n1 l$ !m into s91 we ne$ n wond] t ,paul saw & %unn$ ?is dang]4 ,b h[ is a man to keep 8 body "u8 ,by totally ab/a9+ f ev]y?+ t heats ! blood & inflames passion1 z dr9k+1 etc41 & high liv+2 by flee+ f evil conv]sation1 evil books1 evil ?\ghts2 by fa/+ & ab/95ce1 frequ5tly practic$4 ,moses fa/$2 ,elijah1 ,david1 ,nehemiah1 ,j]emiah1 ,daniel1 ,jesus1 ,paul1 ! e>ly *ur* & ,wesley & ! e>ly ,me?odi/s--all ^! em95t s]vants ( ,god fa/$1 & !re mu/ be some?+ good & pr(itable 9 x4 ,i am satisfi$ x is "o ( ! ways ( keep+ ! body "u1 & br++ x into subjection4 ,& may ,god help u to use all ! means 9 our p[] = secur+ ourselves f our greate/ enemy4 ,,acts ,,xx3 #ba4 ,te/ify+ bo? to ! ,jews1 & also ! ,greeks1 rep5tance t[>d ,god1 & fai? t[>d our ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,?is v]se is a "p ( ,/4 ,paul's acc\nt ( 8 own m9i/ry at ! city ( ,ephesus 9 ,asia4 ,he revisits !m aft] hav+ sp5t ?ree ye>s ( labor among !m1 & 9 8 address to !m he rem9ds !m ( 8 mann] ( life among !m1 & rec\nts ! sub/ance ( 8 prea*+ among !m2 & ! burd5 ( 8 prea*+ 0 z is /at$ 9 ! text3 ,rep5tance t[>d ,god1 & fai? t[>d our ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,& ! fir/ po9t to be notic$ is t ,/4 ,paul made no diff]5ce among m52 he 0 no respect] ( p]sons or classes4 ,y all "k ! ,jews 7 ! *ur* p ( t day4 ,!y n only claim$ to be ! pi\s ( t day1 b !y claim$ to be ! only pi\s p1 & ! only ones qualifi$ to tea* o!rs4 ,b ,paul1 f9d+ _! religion 0 altoge!r outw>d & =mal1 z is ! religion ( _m ( ! *ur* p to-day1 prea*$ to !m j z he did to ! vile/ ( ! hea!ns ar\nd !m1 ! necessity ( rep5tance1 ( turn+ f _! s9s & passions to ,god1 ) self-abhorr5ce & hope ( m]cy & p>don4 ,& 9 ?is he has only foll[$ ! example ( 8 ,div9e ,ma/]2 = ,*ri/ said to ,nicodemus1 a rul] ( ! ,jews1 a sort ( rev]5d doctor ( div9ity1 ,except ye be born aga91 ye c n ent] into ! k+dom ( ,god4 7,john iii41 #c47 ,& s n[ x makes no diff]5ce if y belong to ! ,ca?olic *ur* or ! ,episcopal *ur* or ! ,me?odi/ *ur*1 or any or all o!rs1 x w d y absolutely no good at all if y h n rep5t$ ( y\r s9s & evil do+s & turn$ to ,god 9 pray] & hope = grace to enable y to live above ! p[] ( s94 ,b1 9 ! next place1 ,paul said he prea*$ rep5tance t[>d ,god4 ,x is ,god1 !n1 :om y h (f5d$ by y\r s9s4 ,z ,david says 9 ! fifty-fir/ ,psalm1 ,aga9/ ,!e1 ,!e only1 h ,i s9n$1 & done ?is evil 9 ,?y sight4 ,& because y h s9n$ aga9/ ,god1 y mu/ rep5t t[>d ,god1 & z 9 ! sight ( ,him :o sees & kn[s all1 ev5 ! secret ?\ghts & passions & purposes ( ! he>t4 ,god is judge1 & ,god is a consum+ fire4 ,b :at is x to rep5t8 ,ord9>ily1 :5 we he> p]sons speak ( rep5tance1 we ?9k at once ab\t be+ sorry & ( feel+ a deep grief because we h done wrong2 & "s ( u ?9k x means to weep & moan & to be afflict$ ) an awful bitt]ness ( s\l because ( our s9s1 :5 we he> any "o speak ( rep5tance 9 a religi\s s5se4 ,&1 inde$1 ?is may be ! k9d ( rep5tance :i* _m p h1 & d\btless d h4 ,b !re may be true rep5tance )\t ?is extreme sorr[ = s91 provid$ !re is en\gh sorr[ = s9 & hatr$ ( s9 & dread ( s9 to turn away f x1 & to at once & =ev] =sake x4 ,nor mu/ y wait = ?is extreme sorr[1 :i* y may h he>d o!rs speak (1 b if y are conv9c$ ( ! evil ( s9 & ! bas5ess ( s9 & ! ru9\sness ( s91 !n cease to foll[ x1 cease to practice x1 & cease at once1 h[ev] mu* x may co/ y to d s4 ,! old prophet1 speak+ to ! ,jews :o came ) sighs & groans & te>s to ,god's alt>1 b )\t m5d+ _! ways1 says1 ,cease to d evil1 le>n to d "r1 put away ! evil f y4 ,& ,john ! ,bapti/ says1 ,br+ =? fruits wor?y ( rep5tance1 t is1 su* fruit z w %[ t y h inde$ & 9 he>t turn$ away f evil & f s94 ,mean:ile1 ask ,god to help y rep5t1 tell ,him y are no?+ b s9 & t y look to ,him = grace to rep5t "r & to turn away f all s94 ,& z long z y cleave to "o s91 y ne$ n expect to get any relief4 ,_m give up "o ?+ & ano!r1 b ?9k !y c hold on to "o s9--"o d>l+ s91 "o idoliz$ s9--& t ,god w excuse ?is "o1 if !y give up all o!rs4 ,b be n deceiv$2 ,god is n mock$1 nor c y trifle ) ,him4 ,hav+ ?us let g y\r hold ( s91 ( y\r secret d>l+ s9s1 & turn$ away f !m ) hope ( m]cy f ,god1 y c tru/ 9 ,jesus ,*ri/1 ,8 ,son crucifi$ = y\r s9s1 & 9 y\r /ead1 & y w surely h peace1 & t quickly4 ,obs]ve1 ,paul says he prea*$ fai?1 n 9 ,god ! ,fa!r1 b fai? 9 ! ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,x is 9 ,jesus t ,god reconciles ! _w unto ,himself1 ,& if y d n accept ,jesus & tru/ 9 ,god's m]cy1 z %[n 9 ,jesus1 y w get no relief & no peace4 ,god has promis$ no?+ outside ( ,jesus4 ,b ,he has promis$ ev]y?+ to him :o accepts ,jesus ,*ri/'s suff]+ & sacrifice z ! suffici5t & satisfactory p5alty due to 8 own s9s1 & believes t ,jesus bore 8 s9s 9 ,8 body on ! cross4 ,if ,jesus satisfi$ ,paul1 ,he ought to satisfy y1 & be wor?y ( y\r confid5ce & tru/ & wor%ip4 ,turn f s91 !n1 ) humility & %ame t y h s long griev$ ,god1 & tru/ 9 ,jesus1 & ,jesus alone1 & keep do+ s = days if necess>y1 & y c n1 & %all n1 fail to obta9 salvation4 ,,on ,,self-,,d5ial4 ,,luke ,,ix3 #bc4 ,& ,he said unto !m all1 if any man w come aft] ,me1 let him d5y himself & take up 8 cross daily & foll[ ,me4 ,religion dep5ds on ?is m ?an on any o!r "o ?+4 ,if we are will+ to give up all our own pref]5ces & to d5y all our desires & incl9ations1 we %all n h mu* tr\ble at any o!r po9t4 ,! greate/ h9drance to gett+ religion or keep+ religion is our own desire = ease1 com=t & self-gratification1 & our av]sion to endur+ any h>d%ip or privation or suff]+4 ,! reason :y self-d5ial is necess>y is t our v nature is corrupt$ & diseas$ & we are bl9d$ by s94 ,once ! w ( man 0 ! same z ! w ( ,god2 b1 s9ce ! fall1 ! w ( man & t ( ,god are directly oppos$2 & if we live accord+ to ,god's w1 we mu/ g directly aga9/ our own4 ,self-d5ial is necess>y 9 avoid+ s9 to :i* we are incl9$ & :i* we f9d give u pleasure4 ,b x is necess>y also1 :5 no s9 or temptation is pres5t1 to pres]ve t frame ( m9d :i* keeps u 9 read9ess = temptation & enables u to resi/ x :5 x does come4 ,a con/ant habit ( self-d5ial is necess>y to make u pro( aga9/ ! gradual & unp]ceiv$ approa* ( s9 ei!r 9 ! =m ( coldness & di/a/e = religion1 or slo?1 or a desire to gratify ! fle%4 ,s ,paul 7,i4 ,cor4 ix41 #bg7 said he kept 8 body "u & br\ght x into subjection1 le/ ev5 he1 ?r\gh ! deceitfulness ( s91 %\ld become a ca/away4 ,x foll[s t self-d5ial is absolutely necess>y to gr[+ 9 grace4 ,we are mi/ak5 if we imag9e we are gr[+ 9 grace1 :5 we are practic+ no self-d5ial4 ,jesus said 7,luke ix41 #bc73 ,if any man w come aft] ,me let him d5y himself & take up 8 cross daily4 ,n[ :at does t ^w daily mean 9 ?is connection8 ,inde$ gr[? 9 piety is a gr[+ out ( self s t self is crucifi$1 z ,paul says he 04 ,self-d5ial mu/ be practic$ !n4 #a4 ,9 ab/a9+ f s9s ( all k9ds4 #b4 ,9 p]=m+ all our duties ( religion1 h[ev] h>d & unpleasant !y may be1 z att5d+ all *ur* s]vices1 ord9ances1 etc41 & giv+ accord+ to y\r ability4 #c4 ,9 practic+ private pray] h[ev] h>d & di/a/eful x may be at fir/4 ,"s m5 h pray$ ?ree h\rs a day 9 secret1 z1 = example1 ,lu!r4 #d4 ,9 ab/95ce f food1 i4e41 fa/+2 & sometimes f sleep :5 x is necess>y to h "t to pray1 etc4 ,get ! upp] h& ( y\r animal nature & keep x by daily self-d5ial & y w m\nt up ) w+s z eagles1 y w run & n be we>y1 y w walk & n fa9t4 ,i4 ,,john ,,iii3 #e4 ,& ye "k t ,he 0 manife/$ to take away our s9s2 & 9 ,him is no s94 ,^! are ,*ri/mas days4 ,?is is ! p]iod ( ! ye> t is celebrat$ z ! anniv]s>y ( ! bir? ( ,jesus4 ,i fe> t if "s /rang] f a =eign l&1 :o knew no?+ ( ! "* ( ,jesus & ,8 hi/ory & no?+ ( ,*ri/ianity1 7 to happ5 9 our mid/ dur+ ?is ,*ri/mas "t1 he w\ld ?9k1 f ! "* ( our fe/ivities & ! k9d ( our demon/rations1 t we 7 ei!r1 by our bonfires & guns & rockets & fireworks1 celebrat+ "s w>like h]o :o1 9 ! mid/ ( bel*+ cannon & blaz+ musketry1 _h deliv]$ 8 c\ntry f p]il1 or else t we 71 by our revelry & dissipation & debau*]y & riot1 celebrat+ "s hea!n god ( pleasure l ,bac*us1 ! ,roman god ( ! w9e cup4 ,& x is /range--unacc\ntably /range--t m5 %\ld s p]v]t ! sacr$ ,*ri/mas "t into a season ( unusual & disgraceful indulg5ce 9 s94 ,:at does our text say8 ,he 0 manife/$ to take away our s9s4 ,he 0 manife/$2 :at does t mean8 ,oh1 x means m ?an y & ,i w give ourselves "t to fully take 94 ,x is said t ! angels desire to look into ! wond]ful fact ( ! condesc5sion ( ,jesus ,*ri/1 ! pr9ce ( pr9ces1 9 becom+ man 9 ord] to save s9n]s4 ,b ?\gh angels ?us desire1 v few ( u1 = :om ?is wond]ful humiliation 0 suff]$1 give en\gh "t or att5tion to x to ei!r und]/& x or c>e mu* ab\t x4 ,we are too mu* occupi$ ) ^! l[] ?+s to take any special int]e/ 9 ?+s inf9itely high]4 ,paul1 9 ! second *apt] ( ! ,philippians1 tells u h[ ,jesus humbl$ himself4 ,let u see v]se #e3 ,:o be+ 9 ! =m ( ,god1 ?\ght x n robb]y to be equal ) ,god1 b made ,himself ( no reputation & took on ,him ! =m ( a s]vant1 & humbl$ ,himself & became ob$i5t unto dea?1 yea ev5 unto ! dea? ( ! cross4 ,*ri/1 !n1 0 ! equal ( ,god1 ! ,fa!r1 wor%ipp$ by angels2 & yet ,he cons5t$ to become man1 & s be made a little l[] ?an ! angels4 ,b ,he n only became man1 ,he became a s]vant among m54 ,s ,8 life 0 "o ( l[ly s]vice & unremitt+ toil = o!rs4 ,he once gird$ ,himself ) a t[el & wa%$ ! feet ( ,8 disciples4 ,b ,he n only became man & s]vant to man1 ,he w5t to a deep] dep? ( humiliation ?an any o!r ev] desc5d$ to3 ,he suff]$ z an evil-do]1 ?\gh 9 fact ,he 0 ! only good & pure man t ev] liv$4 ,he 0 numb]$ among ! transgressors1 ?\gh ,he 0 guilty ( no transgression1 & ,he desc5d$ d[n to ! bottom floor ( disgrace--,he 0 nail$ on a cross & left !re to die z y hang ! wor/ crim9als by ! neck till !y are dead4 ,yes1 ,he 0 born poor2 ,he liv$ 9 toil & sorr[ & di$ 9 %ame3 ! ,pr9ce ( ,glory did all ?is4 ,b1 /op & ask1 ,:y did ,he endure all ?is :5 ,he might & c\ld h avoid$ x8 ,let ,god answ]3 ,surely ,he ha? borne our griefs & c>ri$ our sorr[s4 ,he 0 w\nd$ = our transgressions4 ,he 0 bruis$ = our iniquities2 all we l %eep _h gone a/ray1 & ! ,"l laid on ,him ! iniquity ( u all4 7,isaiah lviii41 #d1 #f47 ,yes1 ,he 0 manife/$ to take away our transgressions 9 ! s5se t ,he suff]$ 9 our /ead = ^? transgressions t are pa/4 ,b :at good w\ld x d to =give s9n]s if !y 7 n *ang$ & r5ew$1 s t !y c\ld h ! p[] 9 ! future to ab/a9 f s98 ,:at good w\ld x d = ,god to say to a drunk>d1 ,y\r s9s are =giv5 if ,he did n at ! same "t s *ange t drunk>d z to make him able to keep f dr9k+ 9 ! future8 ,:at good to =give ! pa/ s9s ( a debau*ee or a li> or a gambl] or a ?ief or a murd]] if1 at ! same "t1 _! he>ts 7 n s *ang$ t !y w\ld & c\ld keep f s9n+ aga98 ,x w\ld d no good1 = !y w\ld g /raight into ! s9s !y _h be5 practic+4 ,well1 does ,jesus make provision = ?is8 ,yes1 ,he does4 ,he 0 manife/$ n only to take away ! guilt ( our transgressions1 b also _! p[] ov] u4 ,d we n read 9 ! ,scripture t if ! ,son %all make u free we %all be free inde$8 ,jesus promis$ a mighty ag5t :i* %\ld "w 9 ! he>ts ( m5 & r5ew _! natures4 ,i1 myself1 am z diff]5t a man z if ,i _h be5 blott$ out ( exi/5ce & born aga9 a new creature4 ,& ^! are ! v expressions ! ,scripture uses = describ+ ! wond]ful *ange4 ,?is1 !n1 is :at ,jesus 0 born 9 pov]ty1 liv$ 9 sorr[ & di$ 9 %ame =1 & at ?is "t ( remembrance & rejoic+ ,he makes appeal to y3 ,i gave my life = !e1 my preci\s blood ,i %$ ,t ?\ mighte/ ransom$ be1 & quick5$ f ! dead4 ,my ,fa!r's h\se ( light1 my glory-circl$ ?rone1 ,i left1 = e>?ly night1 f> w&]+s1 sad & lone4 ,i've borne x all = !e2 :at ha/ ?\ borne = me8 ,,new ,,ye>',s ,,s]mon4 ,,deut]onomy ,,viii3 #b-aa4 ,! p ( ,israel _h j\rney$ long & we>ily s9ce leav+ ,egypt4 ,= =ty ye>s !y _h w&]$ & n[ at la/ _h come to ! bord]s ( ! ,promis$ ,l&4 ,only ! n>r[ ,jordan 0 betwe5 !m & ! ,canaan ( _! hopes4 ,!y 7 encamp$ ^u ! ea/]n bank ( ?is riv] & 7 only await+ ord]s to pass ov] & possess ! goodly l& :i* lay be=e !m4 ,& ,moses1 :o 0 n to cross ov] ) !m1 b to be buri$ 9 ! l& ( ,moab1 gives ?is p>t+ address to !m4 ,!y 7 j pass+ f "o /age ( _! j\rney to ano!r & !y ne$ to be rem9d$ ( ! pa/ & in/ruct$ & w>n$ z to ! future4 ,s he says3 ,?\ %alt rememb] all ! way :i* ! ,"l ha? l$ !e ^! =ty ye>s4 #a4 ,!y 7 to rememb] ! trials & temptations !y _h4 ,! object ( ^!1 he says 7v]se #b71 0 to humble !m & to prove !m t !y might "k :at 0 9 _! he>ts4 ,& s1 my bro!r1 if dur+ ! pa/ ye>1 or dur+ y\r pa/ life1 y h _h trials & temptations1 x 0 t y might le>n y\r own weakness1 a h>d lesson = pr\d mortals to le>n1 & s be humbl$ to di/ru/ y\rself & seek help f ,god4 ,& if y h _h sorr[ or b]eavem5t x 0 = ! same purpose1 t y might le>n to give up seek+ p]fect happ9ess 9 any?+ or any creature on e>? & seek x 9 ,god4 ,& h n "s ( y le>n$ ?is lesson or are y n beg9n+ to le>n x at la/8 ,h n ! s9s & ! sorr[s ( y\r pa/ life humbl$ y & at la/ br\ght y to feel y\r ne$ ( ,god8 ,b ano!r object ( ^! pa/ exp]i5ces ( trial 0 to prove :at 0 9 y\r he>t4 ,a man does n "k :at !re is 9 8 he>t till temptation br+s x out4 ,he does n "k h[ bad x is4 ,i ?\ght ,i 0 pati5t2 b :5 temptation came1 ,i f\nd my he>t _h mu* impati5ce 9 x4 ,i ?\ght ,i 0 humble & did n ?9k highly ( myself till p began to praise me & ,i f\nd ,i enjoy$ x & lov$ x & ,i 0 n humble4 #b4 ,b !y 7 to rememb] ,god's goodness to !m also 7see v]ses #c & #d74 ,he _h f$ !m ,himself ) manna & kept _! clo!s f we>+ out & _! feet f swell+4 ,& s y are to rememb] ! goodness ( ,god to y dur+ ! pa/ ye> & dur+ y\r pa/ life4 ,rememb] h[ ,he has sp>$ y 9 ! mid/ ( y\r wick$ness z ,he sp>$ me 9 my neglect ( ,him = =ty ye>s1 & h[ ,he has furni%$ y _m bless+s & w\ld h giv5 y m1 b y w\ld n4 ,& if ,he has all[$ y\r wick$ness to br+ y into tr\ble & di/ress1 x is to cause y to /op & reflect ^u y\r ways & turn f !m unto ,him = deliv]ance & true happ9ess4 ,?us y are to recall1 f ! pa/ ye> & f y\r pa/ life1 y\r s9s & sorr[s1 & ,god's manifold m]cies to y4 ,,ii4 ,b1 j ent]+ ^u ?is new ye>1 y are to look ahead also1 ev5 z ! ,israelites 7 to look ahead to ! goodly l& into :i* ! ,"l 0 go+ to br+ !m 7see v]ses #g1 #h & #i74 #a4 ,god promises y mu*1 my bro!r1 on condition t y foll[ ,him & obey ,him4 ,he promises to bless y temporally & spiritually1 & to give y happ9ess--a goodly possession--if y1 = y\r "p1 give y\rself up1 unres]v$ly to ,8 directions4 ,he has done mu* = me1 s9ce ,i began to foll[ & obey ,him ye>s ago4 #b4 ,moses ends 8 disc\rse ) a solemn w>n+ 7v]se #aa74 ,bew>e t y =get n ! ,"l y\r ,god1 & g at any "t to tru/+ to y\rself or any e>?ly help4 ,,on ,,affliction ,,& ,,suff]+4 ,,lam5tations1 ,,iii3 #cb-cc4 #cb4 ,b ?\gh ,he cause grief1 yet w ,he h compassion accord+ to ! multitude ( ,8 m]cies4 #cc4 ,= ,he do? n afflict will+ly1 nor grieve ! *ildr5 ( m54 ,!re is a va/ deal ( suff]+ & ( sorr[ 9 ! _w1 & ! mo/ ( x1 if n all1 is due directly or indirectly to s9 z ! cause4 ,s9 is foll[$ by suff]+1 z = example1 intemp]ance ru9s ! heal? & br+s on a slav]y worse 9 "s cases ?an dea?2 & s5suality is (t5 foll[$ by loa?some & pa9ful diseases4 ,?us ,god decl>es ,8 feel+ t[>ds s9 9 ^! suff]+s t result f x4 ,he has set up a b>ri] to keep m5 f ! practice ( x4 ,b we w consid] h[ afflictions & suff]+s may all be ov]rul$ to ! good ( ! suff]] & 8 deliv]ance f ! evil ( s94 #a4 ,suff]+s :i* are ! direct effect ( s9 h a t5d5cy to make u turn away f s94 ,= example1 ! pov]ty & di/ress ( ! ,prodigal son 7 ! cause ( 8 return+ to 8 ,fa!r4 ,s x 0 ) ,jack ,h>r+ton & o!rs :om we "k4 #b4 ,b suff]+s & mis=tunes :i* are n ! direct effect ( s9 /ir up ! memory to a recollection ( pa/ s9s1 & excite a remorse = !m4 ,= example1 a lady :o is ! wife ( a :isky deal] told h] husb& %e believ$ t _! losses & mis=tunes 7 judgm5ts s5t on !m = be+ 9 t bus9ess4 #c4 ,sometimes x takes ! greate/ & mo/ prolong$ suff]+ to conqu] man's /ubbornness & indep5d5ce ( ,god4 ,b suff]+ humbles him1 &1 8 pride be+ out ( ! way1 he has no m tr\ble4 #d4 ,sorr[ t is too great = any e>?ly consolation leads ! sorr[+ "o to seek com=t 9 ,god4 ,"o ( ! greate/ & be/ prea*]s ( ,g]many 0 ?us l$ to ,god by ! loss ( 8 "y wife4 ,s p>5ts are br\ght to ,god by ! dea? ( *ildr5 & *ildr5 by ! dea? ( p>5ts4 #e4 ,sometimes suff]+ is necess>y to wean u f "s idol :i* we w\ld n o!rwise be will+ to give up4 #f4 ,sometimes :5 we =get ,god & become absorb$ 9 ! _w1 no?+ b "s affliction w make u come to ourselves & turn aga9 to ,god ) rep5tance & consecration4 ,read ,psalm cxix41 #fg-ge4 ,! case ( ,si/] ,p----1 at ,portl&1 0 "o ( ?is k9d4 ,%e 0 a backslid] & put (f h] return to ,god & kept putt+ x (f4 ,b %e _h a great sorr[4 ,h] son left home "u a cl\d1 h] son's wife lo/ h] m9d & !n di$1 & h] son 0 put 9 prison4 ,to ?is 0 add$ h] own bad heal?4 ,^! ?+s broke ! spell ( ! _w1 woke h] up f h] apa?y & made h] seek ,god ) all h] he>t & %e f\nd ,him aga91 & di$ 9 great peace & triumph4 #g4 ,!n suff]+ purifies u & develops u & prep>es u = "w we c\ld n o!rwise d4 ,tribulation worke? pati5ce4 ,:at excell5t tra9+ ,i got :5 ,i rubb$ ! eng9e = a doll> & a half a day4 ,x br\ght pati5ce & resignation & a bett] prep>ation = ! "w ,i am do+ ?an any o!r sort ( exp]i5ce1 p]haps1 c\ld h giv5 me4 ,,revelations ,,xxi3 #c4 ,& ,i he>d a great voice out ( heav5 say+1 ,behold1 ! tab]nacle ( ,god is ) m51 & ,he w dwell ) !m1 & !y %all be ,8 p1 & ,god ,himself %all be ) !m1 & be _! ,god4 ,! subject sugge/$ by ! text is1 ! future & f9al conque/ ( ! _w by ! ,*ur* ( ,*ri/1 & ! re/ & rew>d ( t *ur* 9 ,heav54 ,& ! ,scriptures d tea* t1 9 "t1 all nations %all le>n righte\sness4 ,! "t is com+ :5 neighbor %all n say to neighbor1 ,"k ye ! ,"l1 b :5 all %all "k ,him1 f ! lea/ to ! greate/2 & ! k ( ,god %all cov] ! e>?1 z ! wat]s cov] ! deep4 ,:5 ?is bless$ "t is to be1 & :at are to be ! signs ( its approa*1 are n que/ions = u to attempt to discuss "h to-day1 ?\gh we may be all[$ to say t ! ,gospel is be+ prea*$ to m p to-day t at any =m] p]iod 9 ! hi/ory ( ! *ur*4 ,!re is a mission>y zeal 9 ! *ur* to-day t has n be5 p>allel$ 9 all h] hi/ory4 ,!re is n only a read9ess among hea!n p to he> ! ,gospel1 b !re seems to be a positive hung] = x1 & )9 ! la/ few ye>s ! ,gospel has p5etrat$ to ! int]ior ( nations & cont95ts t 7 previ\sly inaccessible4 ,c]ta9ly ! *ur* is m aggressive & bold 9 h] plans & op]ations to-day ?an ev] be=e4 ,& if x be a prophecy ( ! n di/ant conque/ ( ! _w to ! reign ( ,*ri/1 we take c\rage1 & say3 ,god spe$ ! day6 ,x is well = u to pause n[1 & to reflect ^u ! rew>d promis$ to u 9 ! end ( our c\rse4 ,we d n give en\gh att5tion to ?is4 ,to /udy ab\t x2 to le>n :at we d n "k conc]n+ x2 to realize ! unspeakable bless$ness ( t /ate w\ld make u m pati5t 9 wait+1 m *e]ful 9 suff]+1 m e>ne/ & active & untir+ 9 our ef=ts to help o!rs to ! atta9m5t & enjoym5t ( x4 ,heav51 !n1 is repres5t$ 9 ! ,bible z a place ( p]fect beauty1 p]fect security1 p]fect re/ & p]fect joy4 ,x is s repres5t$ z to appeal to ! desires & long+s ( all classes ( p4 ,to ! inhabitant ( ! city1 :at c\ld be m pleas+ ?an ! fre$om & fre%ness & beauty ( ! c\ntry8 ,s heav5 is describ$ z hav+ its l&scapes1 ) its fruit-be>+ trees1 its cry/al riv]s & gurgl+ f\nta9s4 ,b = ! ru/ic peasant1 x is said to be a respl5d5t city1 ) walls ( sapphire & gates ( pe>l & /reets ( gold4 ,b 9 "s respects we are all alike4 ,we want to be free f s9 & dang]4 ,to a ,*ri/ian he>t1 s9 is ! mo/ abhorr$ & dreadful ( all ?+s4 ,x gives m pa9 & causes m d>kness ?an any o!r cause2 & ! fe> ( x causes m susp5se ?an ! fe> ( all bodily suff]+4 ,b 9 heav5 we %all be free f s91 & free f all fe> ( s9 & all liability to s94 ,= no?+ t defile? or make? a lie c ev] ent] !re2 & !y :o are s happy z to ga9 heav5 %all g out no m =ev]4 ,we all dread sorr[ & grief & pa94 ,& truly we all h our %>e ( x 9 ?is life4 ,man is born to tr\ble z ! sp>ks fly upw>d4 ,man is ( few days & full ( tr\ble1 b we leave x all beh9d :5 we g 9 at ! gate ( ! ,city ( ,god4 ,& !re %all be no m sorr[ nor cry+1 nei!r %all !re be any m pa91 = ! =m] ?+s are pass$ away4 ,*ri/ians 9 ?is _w feel t !y are pilgrims & /rang]s 9 a =eign l&1 away f _! home & _! ,fa!r's h\se4 ,_! he>ts h be5 s *ang$1 & !y h ta/$ ( ! p[]s ( ! _w to come1 & h come into communion ) ,god1 s t nei!r ! pleasures ( ! _w nor ! fri5d%ips ( e>? c cont5t !m--_! he>ts are n "h1 b away 9 heav54 ,i he>d a ,*ri/ian man say1 n long ago 7?\gh he has a sweet family & _m fri5ds71 t he felt t day an unutt]able lonel9ess1 z if he 7 an exile4 ,8 he>t _h su* a long+ = 8 ,fa!r & 8 k9dr$ & 8 home beyond ! skies4 ,oh1 ! sympa?y & love & t5d]ness we "k we %all get at home6 ,x makes u all feel a ?rill t responds to ! poet's immortal l9es3 ,be x ev] s humble1 !re's no place l home4 ,& all ! sympa?y & t5d]ness ( fa!r1 "m1 bro!r & si/] are transc5d$ by ! sympa?y & t5d]ness ( ,god1 = m>vel\s to tell x is said t ,god ,himself %all wipe away all te>s f our eyes4 ,& h[ we ?ir/ = k "h4 ,we "k no?+ n[4 ,we are surr\nd$ on all sides by ?+s we d n und]/&4 ,if we und]take to inve/igate1 we soon rea* ! limit ( our capacity & h to /op be=e we h le>n$ any?+4 ,b !n we %all "k z also we are kn[n4 ,:at x means1 :5 x says we %all sit d[n at ! m>riage supp] ( ! ,lamb we "k n1 nor :at x implies :5 x says we are to ent] into ! joy ( our ,"l2 nor d we und]/& t wond]ful say+1 ,?\ ha/ be5 fai?ful ov] a few ?+s1 ,i w make !e rul] ov] _m ?+s4 ,no1 no2 n[ we see ?r\gh a glass d>kly1 b !n face to face1 & x do? n yet appe> :at we %all be4 ,b we "k t if we suff] ) ,him1 we %all reign ) ,him4 ,! suff]+ comes fir/1 ! humiliation fir/1 ! toil & we>9ess1 ! cross fir/1 & !n ! cr[n4 ,pet] ! ,great1 ( ,russia1 dur+ "o ( 8 w>s1 0 sep>at$ f 8 army & lo/1 &1 to escape detection1 took (f 8 royal app>el & dress$ 9 common g>b4 ,9 8 w&]+s he came to a humble cottage1 & 0 k9dly receiv$ & m9i/]$ unto by ! peasant woman1 :o knew n :o he 04 ,%e gave him a home until dang] 0 pass$1 & !n help$ him to get back to 8 capital4 ,:5 ! w> 0 end$1 ,pet] s5t = ?is poor peasant woman1 br\ght h] to 8 spl5did c\rt1 &1 m>ry+ h]1 made h] ! p>tn] ( 8 ?rone & 8 empire4 ,%e :o _h m9i/]$ to him 9 8 suff]+s n[ reign$ ) him z ,que5 ,ca!r9e1 ( ,russia4 ,s1 my bre?r51 see t y s]ve ,*ri/1 suff] = ,him2 sp5d & be sp5t = ,8 cause1 & !n1 oh1 !n1 h[ sweet to re/ & reign =ev]more4 ,,ecclesia/es ,,xii3 #ac4 ,let u he> ! conclusion ( ! :ole matt]2 ,fe> ,god1 & keep ,8 comm&m5ts3 = ?is is ! :ole duty ( man4 ,n[1 boys1 "h is a piece ( advice giv5 by ! wise/ ( m54 ,c any ( y tell me :o 0 ! wise/ man8 7,solomon47 ,well ?is ,solomon 0 ! son ( a k+4 ,c any ( y tell me ^: son ,solomon 08 7,david's47 ,&1 ( c\rse1 ,solomon _h all t money c\ld buy f 8 *ildhood up2 & :5 8 fa!r di$1 he became k+ 9 8 place4 ,he liv$ to be an old man & he _h a wide exp]i5ce ( life4 ,9 o!r words he tri$ ev]y?+ t he ?\ght he c\ld get happ9ess f & 8 exp]i5ce is giv5 9 ! book ( ,ecclesia/es4 ,he tri$ all sorts ( pleasures & he tri$ !m fully1 because !re 0 no?+ to h9d] or to *eck him4 ,he d5i$ himself no?+ t 8 he>t desir$4 ,he knew fully ! effects ( all sorts ( enjoym5t & :5 he _h pass$ ?r\gh x all he wrote x d[n z ! lesson ( 8 exp]i5ce = all boys & "y m5 to read4 ,& :at 0 x8 ,does he say ,"y man1 y h a long life be=e y4 ,n[ y mu/ enjoy ! pleasures ( life :ile y are "y8 ,does he say y mu/ run (f f y\r fa!r's h\se & pres5ce l ! ,prodigal son did1 s y c h a good "t 9 ! enjoym5t ( ! pleasures ( ! _w & !n 9 y\r aft] life1 :5 y get m settl$1 y c ?9k ab\t y\r ,creator & dea? & heav5 & hell & et]nity8 ,0 t ! lesson :i* 8 long & ext5d$ exp]i5ce taught him8 ,ah1 no4 ,x 0 a f> diff]5t "o4 ,he w\ld say ?is3 ,"y m51 boys1 ,i h be5 all ov] ! road y are travel+ n[4 ,i h _h y\r feel+s1 y\r hopes1 y\r ambitions1 y\r passions1 y\r temptations4 ,& 9 "o "p ( my life ,i conclud$ ,i w\ld give myself up to ! enjoym5t ( pleasure ( e k9d & ,i did s4 ,& ,i "k all ab\t x & ?is is :at ,i w\ld say to y all j />t+ out4 ,rememb] n[ y\r ,creator 9 ! days ( y\r y\? & give y\r he>ts & lives to ,him1 if y want to be happy4 #a4 ,9 ! fir/ place by s do+ y w avoid wret*$ pov]ty4 ,= a man ^: he>t & life are giv5 to ,god c n be a sp5d?rift4 ,b j look at "s "y m5 h[ !y sp5d _! money or t ( _! fa!rs4 ,h[ev] l>ge a =tune !y may h1 !y soon come to pov]ty4 ,& a man ^: life is giv5 to ,god is indu/ri\s & loves to "w4 ,he c n be> to be idle1 = he kn[s & feels x to be a great s94 ,besides all ?is ,god promises to see t ^? :o live = ,him %all n want :at is be/ = !m4 ,jesus 9 ! ,s]mon on ! ,m\nt decl>es t if ,god provides = sp>r[s & clo!s lilies1 ,he w be sure to see to ! ne$s ( ,8 own *ildr54 ,s ! way to get ! be/ assurance t y w be bless$ ) ?+s ne$ful 9 ?is life is to give y\rself up to ,god to be ,81 ?r\gh ?ick & ?94 #b4 ,if y give y\r he>t to ,god n[1 y w be kept f ! s9s :i* br+ m5 into disgrace4 ,a good "n is r to be *os5 ?an ri*es4 ,ah6 y "k n into :at awful s9s y\r passions w plunge y1 if y d n get ! control ( y\rself1 :i* only religion c give4 ,y may be l$ along little by little1 almo/ )\t kn[+ x1 till y may wake up to f9d t y c n1 c n1 break (f f y\r s9s--y\r hat$ & ru9\s s9s4 ,b if y give ,god y\r he>t to be *ang$1 r5ew$1 purifi$ n[1 y w avoid all ^! awful dang]s4 #c4 ,b ?is v]se says ! ye>s w draw nigh 9 :i* ?\ %alt take no pleasure 9 ^! ?+s t relate to ,god4 ,my de> "y fri5d1 t is t]ribly true4 ,! long] y live away f ,god ! less & less w be y\r c>e = ,him & = y\r s\l4 ,h[ few old m5 ev] turn to ,god6 ,yes1 v few1 =ty ye>s ( age & ov]1 ev] d s4 ,i he>d ,dr4 ,munhall ask once1 9 a l>ge congregation1 t all :o 7 conv]t$ aft] sev5ty ye>s ( age w\ld /& up4 ,n "o /ood up4 ,!n he ask$ t all :o _h be5 conv]t$ aft] !y 7 sixty ye>s ( age w\ld /& up4 ,n "o /ood up4 ,!n he ask$ all :o 7 conv]t$ aft] fifty ye>s to /& up4 ,only "o1 ,i believe1 did s4 ,:5 he ask$ all :o 7 conv]t$ aft] =ty ye>s to /& up1 only ?ree or f\r did s4 ,:5 he ask$ all conv]t$ aft] ?irty ye>s to /& up1 p]haps eight or t5 did s4 ,a few m _h be5 conv]t$ aft] tw5ty ye>s ( age2 b :5 he ask$ all :o 7 conv]t$ "u tw5ty ye>s to /&1 mo/ ( ! congregation arose4 ,true1 ,i 0 conv]t$ aft] ,i 0 =ty ye>s ( age1 b x 0 a b>e *ance4 ,& oh1 h[ h>d x 0 = me4 ,& if ,i _h n _h ! mo/ pati5t ( fri5ds to sympa?ize ) me1 enc\rage me & guide me1 ,i %\ld nev] h gott5 along4 ,i beg y d n foll[ my example 9 putt+ (f y\r return to ,god4 ,look at ! m5 :om y "k4 ,h[ little int]e/ !y take 9 religion & _! int]e/ gr[s less & less all ! "t4 ,! ye>s h already come :5 !y h no pleasure 9 ! ?+s ( ,god4 ,!y h enc\rag$ all _! feel+s1 desires & ambitions b ?is1 & ?is has almo/ di$ out4 ,!y h devot$ all _! ?\ght & affections to mak+ money & enjoy+ x1 to seek+ pleasure & enjoy+ x1 to acquir+ fame & enjoy+ x1 & s _! he>ts are completely h>d5$ & ins5sible to ! religion :i* !y ca/ aside t51 tw5ty or ?irty ye>s ago4 ,& !y w probably nev] feel ! all-absorb+ int]e/ 9 religion :i* is necess>y to obta9 x4 ,h5ce1 !y w g on bl9d] & bl9d]1 cold] & cold]1 m & m h>d5$ d[n to old age & to ! grave & to a hopeless et]nity4 ,i beg y1 my "y fri5ds1 all :o he> me to put (f y\r return to ,god n "o day long]4 ,,note4--,! address1 ( :i* ?is is ! outl9e1 0 deliv]$ on a ,sunday-s*ool occasion & is a specim5 ( ,mr4 ,holcombe's talks to "y p4--,,ed4 ,,m>k ,,ii3 #ae4 ,& x came to pass1 t1 z ,jesus sat at meat 9 8 h\se1 _m publicans & s9n]s sat also toge!r ) ,jesus & ,8 disciples2 = !re 7 _m1 & !y foll[$ ,him4 #a4 ,?is class ( p]sons feel t !y are outca/1 & n recogniz$ by ^? :o are e/eem$ ! good4 ,h5ce1 !y feel backw>d1 & w n make advances t[>d ! good = fe> ( be+ slight$4 #b4 ,if ^? :o are look$ ^u & honor$ z good & pi\s & pure1 w %[ t !y want to be fri5dly & sociable1 x w take ^! p]sons by surprise1 & w w9 _! feel+s--& ?is is ne>ly half ! battle4 #c4 ,besides1 if ! good1 in/ead ( wait+ = ^! s9n]s to make advances1 :i* !y w n d1 w take pa9s to %[ _! int]e/ 9 ! welf>e ( ^!1 _! un=tunate bro!rs1 x w make !m believe t ! pi\s are s9c]e1 & n hypocritical1 & t religion is a reality & n a m]e pr(ession4 ,?is is a great /ep t[>d ga9+ !m4 ,mo/ ( ?is class believe 9 ! ,gospel 9 "s vague s5se1 b x is too vague to am\nt to any?+4 ,b :5 !y see ! gr& pr9ciple ( ! ,gospel--,love--embodi$ 9 ! ,*ri/ian1 & com+ aft] !m 9 _! lo/ condition1 x makes an impression1 & x moves !m to action4 ,y c n drive m51 nor c y conv9ce !m by abus+ !m & by %utt+ !m out z too vile to be y\r associates4 ,?is only drives !m fur!r away4 ,b all m5 h a *ord 9 _! natures t c be t\*$ by love & k9dness4 ,x 0 ?is g5tl5ess & sympa?y t drew ! ?\s&s ar\nd ,john ,wesley4 ,x 0 ?is wond]ful t5d]ness t made ! publicans & s9n]s & h>lots1 ! outca/ & ! l[ & ! vile seek ! company ( ! lov+ ,jesus & press into ,8 pres5ce1 ev5 :5 ,he 0 ! gue/ ( ! great & noble ( ,8 day4 ,!y knew ,jesus w\ld nev] repulse !m--!y knew ,he w\ld love !m1 help !m1 save !m4 ,d[n 9 ! human he>t ,cru%$ by ! ,tempt]1 ,feel+s lie buri$ t grace c re/ore2 ,t\*$ by a lov+ h&1 wak5$ by k9dness1 ,*ords t 7 brok5 w vibrate once m4 #d4 ,!re has to be su* an int]e/ felt = ^? ( ?is class z w make y cease to c>e = :at p w say ab\t y\r go+ among !m & work+ ) !m4 ,?is 0 ! sort ( int]e/ ,jesus _h = !m4 #e4 ,imag9e y\r own de> son to be "o ( ?is numb]1 & see :at feel+s y w\ld h1 :at e>ne/ness & :at plann+4 ,^! are "s ( ! ways & means ( gett+ at ?is class ( p]sons4 ,= we h to use means & reason 9 all ?+s4 #f4 ,b ! ag5t1 ! only "o :o c accompli% any?+ is ,god's ,holy ,_s1 & ! ,holy ,_s comes only 9 answ] to pray] & tru/4 ,pray] is to be fir/ & second & ?ird & ev]y:]e & always1 & !n we may hope t our plans w succe$4 ,,prep>ation ,,= ,,w9n+ ,,s\ls4 ,i am sure1 my de> bre?r51 t 9 ! discussion ( ?is topic we are to be all[$ "s lib]ty & "s latitude2 &1 if ,i %all speak 9 a g5]al way1 ,i tru/ ,i %all n be c\nt$ out ( ord]4 ,&1 n to deta9 y ) prelim9>ies1 ,i say t1 to be a w9n] ( s\ls1 a man mu/ h ! ano9t+ ( ! ,holy ,"o1 reproduc+ ! m9d t 0 9 ,*ri/1 :o ?\gh he 0 ri*1 yet = our sakes became poor1 t we ?r\gh ,8 pov]ty might become ri*1 & :o be+ 9 ! =m ( ,god1 ?\ght x n a usurpation to be equal ) ,god1 b ,he empti$ ,himself & took ^u ,him ! =m ( a s]vant2 & be+ f\nd 9 fa%ion z a man1 ,he humbl$ ,himself & became ob$i5t z f> z unto dea?1 ev5 dea? on a cross4 ,a sympa?y t arises f any o!r motive1 or comes f any o!r s\rce1 ?an ,8 div9e & sup]natural ano9t+1 w fall %ort ( ! m>k1 & w be f\nd too %all[ & weak to be> ) ! h>dhe>t$ness1 ! p]v]sity & ! +ratitude ( s9ful m54 ,?is ano9t+1 on ! o!r h&1 br+s ) x a ye>n+ love & a pr(\nd sympa?y = ^? :o are 9 ! bl9dness & bondage ( s91 :i* impels "o to seek out ! lo/1 to be at pati5t pa9s to save !m1 & to be> ) all _! dullness1 slo?fulness1 selfi%ness1 p]v]s5ess & ?anklessness1 :ile !y are "u tra9+1 s to speak4 ,x makes a man z ready & anxi\s to save ! s\l ( a solit>y s9n]1 h[ev] humble & degrad$ he may be1 z to prea* ) p[] to ! great congregations4 ,x 0 ?is t made ,john ,wesley z will+ & c>eful & pati5t 9 talk+ to a negro s]vant girl z to a multitude4 ,& x 0 ?is :i* lead a great] ?an ,john ,wesley to lead ) pati5t love along1 ! poor ,sam>itan adult]ess :om ,he met at ! well ( ,jacob4 ,b :at is m important & imp]ative = ! imm$iate "w ( gett+ a dead s\l to a liv+ ,savi\r1 ?is div9e ano9t+ imp>ts t peculi> & en]getic pung5cy :i* pi]ces to ! he>t & consci5ce ( a s9n]1 r\ses 8 fe>s1 & prep>es him = ! reception ( ,*ri/4 ,n only s1 ?is unction f ! ,holy ,"o is accompani$ ) a practical wisdom & insight :i* disc]ns1 if n all ?+s1 yet1 at lea/1 _m practical ?+s4 ,x enables a man to see t ! fir/ ?+ to be done 9 ! way ( sav+ a s9n] is to convict him ( s94 ,to get him to admit !oretically t he is a s9n]1 is equal to z]o1 am\nts to no?+4 ,b1 9 a way n to repel him1 he mu/ be made to feel t he is s9ful1 & s1 wret*$4 ,x is wond]ful :at tact "s m5 h 9 ?is respect4 ,"h lies1 und\bt$ly1 ! secret ( ,sam ,jones' p[]4 ,he turns all classes ( m51 ,ph>isees 9 ! *ur* & s9n]s out ( x1 inside out1 & makes !m see1 9 spite ( all spiritual apa?y & all self-deception1 :at !y are4 ,he %[s !m secrets :i* !y ?\ght nobody knew b !mselves4 ,b a great] ?an he did ! same ?+--,jesus t\*$ ! sore spot 9 ! consci5ce ( ! ,sam>itan woman & compell$ h] to say3 ,he told me all ?+s t ,i h done4 ,?is reveal+ ! secrets ( ! he>t is a ?+ t fasc9ates & attracts & w9s a s9n]2 & he feels1 if y "k s well )\t be+ told1 all ! p>ticul>s ( 8 inn] life & all ! desp]ate tr\ble ( 8 case1 y surely c n make a mi/ake 9 po9t+ out ! way ( escape4 ,j z a pati5t yields imm$iate & unque/ion+ confid5ce to ! physician :o c tell him all 8 symptoms & describe 8 feel+s bett] ?an he himself c d x4 ,if prea*+ ! love ( ,*ri/ )\t convict+ ( s9 w\ld h sav$ p1 !n mo/ p 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates w\ld h be5 sav$ long ago1 = ! love ( ,*ri/ has be5 told & retold & prea*$ & re-prea*$1 & x does n br+ s9n]s to rep5tance4 ,to be sure !re are "s s9n]s :o h f\nd1 by bitt] exp]i5ce1 ! ripe fruits ( s91 & ^! may be already prep>$ to accept a deliv]] & a deliv]ance z soon z (f]$ to !m4 ,! possession ( ?is unction presupposes t a man is correct1 upright1 holy 9 8 life2 = ,god w\ld n give x to "o :o 0 n s4 ,i believe ,mr4 ,moody 0 "r :5 he said3 ,if a man's life is n above reproa*1 ! less he says ! bett]4 ,a fri5d ( m9e says he kn[s a m9i/] :o1 ?\gh no d\bt a good man & a f9e talk]1 w lie n[ & !n4 ,( c\rse1 he w\ld n call x ly+1 nor w\ld 8 admir]s call x ly+1 b ly+ x is2 & s he has no p[]4 ,8 prea*+ is l a s\nd+ brass & a t9kl+ cymbal4 ,!re are "s m5 :o h "s little success 9 s\l-sav+1 b :o w\ld h mu* m success1 if _! lives 7 ?or\ghly holy1 & ,*ri/like4 ,& inde$ "s m5 w\ld n h ! success !y d h1 if ! public knew _! secret life4 ,= example1 !re are "s m5 :o indulge evil ?\ghts 7if !y d n g fur!r7 & :o are n *a/e 9 _! associations ) wom52 & !re are o!rs :o are ill-temp]$1 cross1 fault-f9d+1 s\r & bitt] 9 _! home life4 ,if ^! ?+s 7 publicly & g5]ally kn[n1 !y w\ld lose :at p[] !y h ) ! p4 ,bre?r51 we c h>dly be too c>eful ( ^! ?+s4 ,b a full & con/ant ano9t+ ( ! ,holy ,"o w\ld correct all ^! evils at ! s\rce1 namely1 9 ! he>t4 ,x makes a sob] ,*ri/ian man tremble to "k h[ little "s ( ! prea*]s & evangeli/s ( ! day pray4 ,x w\ld be no wond] if "u /ress ( "s sudd5 & /rong temptation1 !y %\ld fall into sc&al\s s9 & disgrace !mselves & ! cause !y repres5t4 ,!re is an old & true say+ t :5 a man's life is lightn+1 8 words w be ?und]bolts4 ,we are advis$ to make ourselves famili> ) ! ,scriptures1 to equip ourselves ) weapons f ! armory ( ,god's ^w2 & excell5t advice x is4 ,no man c ma9ta9 a spiritual life :o does n habitually & dilig5tly /udy ,god's holy ^w4 ,no man is prep>$ to und]/& ! wants ( s\ls or to deal ) !m :o is n famili> ) ! ,scriptures4 ,x is a m>k$ *>act]i/ic ( our honor$ bro!r1 ,d4 ,l4 ,moody1 t he c1 n only disc]n ! deep]1 inn] spiritual s5se ( all ! ,scriptures1 bo? ( ! ,old ,te/am5t & ! ,new1 b he c h&le & apply !m ) a skill1 effectiv5ess & p[] t are truly wond]ful4 ,&1 :at is m1 he is peculi>ly apt 9 select+ j ! "r passages = any p>ticul> case or occasion4 ,he is truly a ma/]ly h&l] ( ! sword ( ! _s1 & 8 success is l>gely due to ?is fact4 ,b !re is a class ( work]s :o seem to ?9k t x is suffici5t to "k by he>t "s ,scriptures1 or to h a c]ta9 facility 9 ref]r+ to diff]5t passages1 & !y rely ^u ?is1 congratulat+ !mselves t !y are do+ well4 ,b x is all p]functory & lifeless & dead4 ,!re is no *>m1 no w>m?1 no p[] 9 x4 ,a man mu/ be m ?an a me*anical text-p$dl] 9 ord] to impress1 ar\se1 com=t & save ! s\ls ( m54 ,y may pit* cold lead at a man all day long & nev] break 8 sk92 b let a full *>ge ( ignit$ gunp[d] drive x out ( a well-aim$ rifle1 & ! effect is t]rific4 ,s ^! text-mong]s may ?r[ ,scripture at p all day long1 & !y laugh at x4 ,b let ! same missile be hurl$ =? ) ! en]gy ( a s\l on fire ( ! ,holy ,gho/1 & ! sla9 ( ! ,"l w be _m4 ,s1 my bro!r1 !re is absolutely no sub/itute = ?is unction ( ! ,holy ,_s4 ,& ?is unction is giv5 9 answ] to self-d5y+ & daily pray]4 ,if we w\ld "k ! secret ( p[] ) m51 we mu/ sp5d mu* "t 9 secret communion ) ,god4 ,,note4--,?is address is "o ( two deliv]$ by ,mr4 ,holcombe be=e ! conv5tion ( ,*ri/ian work]s ( ,unit$ ,/ates & ,canada 9 ! ,broadway ,tab]nacle1 ,new ,york1 ,septemb] #ba-bh1 #ahhg4--;,,ed4 ,,! ,,mission--,,pa/1 ,,pres5t ,,& ,,future4 ,i4 ,,! ,,pa/4 ,two ye>s ago ,i 0 work+ 9 ! ,fire ,dep>tm5t ( ! city1 because ,i c\ld get no?+ else to d4 ,! close & slavi% conf9em5t1 ! necessity ( be+ always at my place1 bo? ( nights & ,sundays1 & ! consequ5t lack ( opportunity to d any?+ = ! cause ( my ,ma/]1 made x almo/ intol]able = me1 & sev]al times ,i made up my m9d ,i w\ld give up ! place1 ev5 ?\gh ,i _h no?+ else to fall back on = a liv+ = myself & family4 ,b ?r\gh ! advice ( fri5ds & ! help ( ,god1 ,i 0 kept f t ra% /ep4 ,h[ev]1 ,i det]m9$ ,i mu/ d some?+ = my ,"l & = ! m5 ( my acqua9tance & =m] occupation :o w\ld n1 ,i knew1 g inside ( a *ur*4 ,s1 ?\gh ,i 0 gett+ "u sixty doll>s a mon?1 & _h a l>ge family to support1 ,i det]m9$ to r5t a room at my own exp5se 9 ! c5tral "p ( ! city = hold+ ,gospel meet+s1 & to hire a sub/itute to take my place 9 ! ,fire ,dep>tm5t :5 ,i 0 abs5t & engag$ 9 ! "w ( my ,"l4 ,i made kn[n my plans to my =m] pa/or1 & he became int]e/$ & promis$ to help me4 ,he 0 liv+ 9 ! c\ntry1 & h>dly ev] att5d$ ! prea*]s' meet+ "h on ,mondays2 b x happ5$ on ! next ,monday aft] ,i told him ( my purpose t he 0 at ! prea*]s' meet+1 &1 on my "n be+ m5tion$ by "s "o pres5t1 he took occasion to speak at l5g? ( my conv]sion1 trials1 pov]ty2 my int5se ye>n+ to engage entirely 9 ! "w ( ,god1 & my imm$iate purpose to comm5ce ,gospel meet+s 9 entire dep5d5ce on ,god alone = help4 ,he w5t s f> z to ask ! prea*]s pres5t to speak ( ! matt] to _! memb]s & make an ef=t to get assi/ance f !m = ! exp5ses ( my propos$ "w4 ,b "o ( ! prea*]s pres5t1 ?\gh say+ v little at ! "t1 0 mov$ to lay be=e 8 (ficial bo>d a proposition n to assi/ 9 pay+ ! exp5ses ( su* a plan ( "w1 b to take me f ! ,fire ,dep>tm5t & pay me a regul> sal>y & defray all ! o!r necess>y exp5ses ( su* a ,mission "w z my he>t 0 set on do+4 ,& 8 (ficial memb]s 7 also mov$ to agree to 8 proposition1 & :5 he came to me & told me ( :at _h tak5 place1 ,i 0 con/ra9$ to say3 ,?is is ,god's do+1 & x is m>vel\s 9 my eyes4 ,s ! v ?+ ,i desir$ above all o!r ?+s2 ! v ?+ ,i %\ld h *os5 if ,i c\ld h _h my wi%1 0 br\ght to pass4 ,& ,i saw t by wait+ ,god's "t1 ,he rew>d$ me 9 grant+ me ! desire ( my he>t1 & mean:ile ,i _h le>n$ lessons ( pati5ce & prep>ation t ,i c\ld n h le>n$ s well any:]e else4 7,mr4 ,holcombe w5t on to speak ( ! beg9n+ ( 8 "w 9 ! ,tyl] ,block1 ) ! assi/ance & co-op]ation ( ,rev4 ,mr4 ,morris2 ( ! results accompli%$ dur+ t fir/ p]iod2 ( ! removal ( ! ,mission to ,jeff]son /reet1 betwe5 ,f\r? & ,fif? /reets1 & ! results accompli%$ !re1 &1 la/ly1 ( ! removal to ! pres5t build+1 etc4 ,see 8 life47 ,,ii4 ,,! ,,pres5t4 ,at pres5t we h ! h\se on ,jeff]son /reet4 ,we h a ,sunday-s*ool ( s*ol>s :o d n att5d any o!r s*ool1 & w\ld n4 ,x is suppli$ ) able & devot$ tea*]s1 su* z ,bro!r ,atmore & o!rs4 ,! devotion ( ,bro!r ,atmore is %[n by 8 refus+ to leave 8 class "o ,sunday to g to ! ,masonic ,temple dur+ ,sam ,jones' meet+s4 ,! *ildr5 %[ a wond]ful improvem5t s9ce !y h be5 com+ to ! ,sunday-s*ool4 ,bro!r ,atmore's boys 7 almo/ unmanageable at fir/1 b !y are n[ s *ang$ t x is v noticeable4 ,?is ,sunday-s*ool feature ( ! "w is "o ( ! mo/ important & promis+ p>ts ( x1 & we believe ! results to be accompli%$ by x alone w amply repay all ! outlay ( labor1 "t & means t has be5 made 9 ! ent]prise4 ,we h also a read+-room 9 connection ) ! ,mission-room1 :]e we h pap]s1 magaz9es1 books1 etc4 ,! words ( invitation & welcome pa9t$ on ! door h drawn 9 "s :o1 b = ! reception1 sympa?y & help :i* !y f\nd !re1 might h gone on 9 _! wret*$ness to suicide4 ,:ile we furni% lodg+1 food1 etc41 to ^? :o are de/itute1 yet x is ) a view to _! spiritual welf>e & ultimate salvation4 ,& s soon z we f9d a man is avail+ himself ( our *>ity ) no int5tion or ef=t to become a ,*ri/ian1 we let him g4 ,,iii4 ,,! ,,future4 ,9 look+ at ! pa/1 we f9d !re are sev]al pla9 & /rik+ results ( ! "w4 ,! mo/ app>5t is ! radical & a/oni%+ *ange = ! bett] t has tak5 place 9 ! cases ( _m unhappy m5 & _! families4 ,two ye>s ago ^! m5 sat 9 d>kness & 9 ! %ad[ ( dea?1 be+ b\nd 9 affliction & iron1 because !y rebell$ aga9/ ! laws ( ,god4 ,!re=e ,he br\ght d[n _! he>ts4 ,!y fell d[n & !re 0 none to help4 ,& none b !mselves & ,god knew ! bitt]ness ( _! bondage & ! dep? ( _! d>k & unreliev$ despair4 ,b !y 7 br\ght into contact ) a new =ce & a new ag5cy by means ( ! ef=ts & sympa?y & in/ructions ( ^? engag$ 9 ?is "w1 & to-day _! old life ) its bitt]ness & bondage & d>kness is left beh9d f "o to two ye>s 9 a pa? t1 x is hop$1 is n to be retrac$ =ev]1 & n[ ^! m5 are happy aga91 & "s ( !m prosp]\s 9 bus9ess4 ,& :at %all be said ( _! families--_! wives & *ildr51 innoc5t suff]]s f ! vices ( husb&s & fa!rs8 ,husb& is husb& aga91 fa!r is fa!r aga91 & ! long d>k night ( hopeless sorr[ & bitt] te>s has end$--end$ at la/1 & end$1 let u hope & pray1 =ev]4 ,b if x be also true1 z ,he said1 :o spake z nev] man spake1 t x pr(its no?+ to ga9 ! :ole _w & lose "o's own s\l2 if !re is = ! unsav$ an undy+ worm & an unqu5*able fire1 & = ! sav$ an inh]itance ( joy t is incorruptible & a glory t fade? nev] m away1 !n :]e or h[ %all we beg9 to compute ! result ( ?is mission "w8 ,x is record$ 9 et]nity1 & only ! unfold+ ( et]nity c unfold ! good t has ?us f> be5 done4 ,b aside f ^! direct results1 !re is ano!r "o :i* c n be e/imat$1 namely ! demon/ration ( ! p[] ( ! ,gospel to d = helpless1 enslav$1 lo/ m5 :at no?+ else 9 ! univ]se c d4 ,!re is naturally 9 ! he>ts ( m5 a d\bt z to ! div9ity ( t religion :i* fails to d :at x proposes to d1 & s 9 times ( religi\s deadness1 m5 lose fai?1 & unbelief gr[s /rong] & m /ubborn 9 proportion z !y see no actual in/ances ( ! p[] ( ! ,gospel to save bad m54 ,b :5 bad m5 h be5 rea*$ & quick5$ & convict$ & made holy by ! ,gospel1 !n ! tide turns & fai? becomes natural & easy & contagi\s1 n to say necess>y4 ,_m ( my old companions 7 br\ght to believe 9 ! ,gospel :5 ,i 0 *ang$ by x2 & n[ :5 scores ( ! wor/ cases 9 ,l\isville h be5 rea*$ & sav$1 & h /ay$ sav$ s long1 m5 are br\ght back f unbelief to fai?1 & naturally turn to ! ,gospel ) increas+ hope4 ,b ?is return ( fai? has n only be5 noticeable 9 ! case ( ! unsav$ classes1 ! *ur*es h se5 ?is "w1 & h _h _! fai? 9 ! div9e p[] ( ! ,gospel to save all m5 increas$1 & a correspond+ activity is witness$ among _m ( ! *ur*es 9 ! city4 ,!y h le>n$ also t to save lo/ m5 we mu/1 l ,jesus1 n wait = !m to come to u1 b we mu/ g to !m & aft] !m1 j z has be5 done 9 ?is "w4 ,!re is a passage 9 ,mala*i :i* says1 ,br+ all ! ti!s into my /oreh\se & prove me h]e) if ,i w n op5 ! w9d[s ( heav5 & p\r y out su* a bless+ !re %all n be room en\gh to receive x4 ,?is ,walnut-/reet *ur*1 l$ by its devot$ pa/or1 0 will+ to accept ,god's *all5ge1 & !y br\ght ! ti!s1 !y laid d[n _! money1 !y made ! v5ture1 & ,god has giv5 !m a great bless+4 ,b ?is is only ! pl$ge ( f> great] bless+s yet to be giv5 !m1 if !y w cont9ue to honor ,god1 by ! fai? t lays ^u ,8 alt>1 sacrifices t co/ some?+ & am\nt to some?+4 ,let u n /op to congratulate ourselves ^u :at has be5 done & re/ satisfi$ ) t1 b accept x only z an indication ( :at ,he w d = u if we h fai? to claim a deep wide-spread & cont9u\s revival4 ,,note4--,! =ego+ is ! sub/ance ( an address deliv]$ by reque/ ( ! ,directors ( ! ,mission on ! occasion ( a reunion ( ! conv]ts & mass-meet+ ( ! ,*ri/ian p ( ,l\isville1 9 ! ,walnut-/reet ,me?odi/ ,*ur*1 9 ,april1 #ahhf4--;,,ed4 ,,*ri/ian ,,work]s4 ,f ,septemb] #ba/ to #bh?1 ! second conv5tion ( ,*ri/ian ,work]s 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates & ,canada 0 held 9 ,broadway ,tab]nacle1 ,new ,york ,city4 ,f ! publi%$ report ( ! proce$+s1 ?is spee* ( ! ,rev4 ,s4 ,p4 ,holcombe is tak53 ,x w\ld be presumptu\s 9 me to /& up "h & say h[ y %\ld conduct a ,gospel ,meet+4 ,i d n propose to d t2 b w simply tell y h[1 = six ye>s1 ,i h conduct$ "o at ,l\isville1 ,k5tucky1 & ) "s success4 ,i say "s success1 = we h succe$$ 9 ga9+ ! confid5ce & respect ( all classes--prea*]s1 ,*ri/ians1 gambl]s1 drunk>ds & infidels4 ,n only h we succe$$ 9 rea*+ ! he>ts ( ! p1 b also _! pocket-books4 ,beg9n+ 9 a basem5t room1 at a r5t ( tw5ty doll>s p] mon?1 we n[ own a build+ ( ?irty rooms4 ,z an in/ance ( ! respect all classes h = our "w1 :ile we 7 negotiat+ = ?is prop]ty a ,g]man ,s++ ,society also want$ x4 ,?is kept ! price up above our figures4 ,i call$ on ! ,presid5t ( ! ,club1 :o is an infidel1 told him ,i want$ t prop]ty = my ,mission "w4 ,said he3 ,mr4 ,holcombe1 ,i am n a ,*ri/ian1 nei!r d ,i believe 9 ! *ur*es1 b ,i d believe 9 ! k9d ( "w t y are do+4 ,i %all )draw until ! ,holcombe ,mission is done4 ,we soon _h ! prop]ty4 ,s9ce my conv]sion ,i h tri$ to be a man1 j z mu* z be=e4 ,z ,dr4 ,p5teco/ said ! o!r day3 ,:5 ,i put (f ! old man1 ,i did n put on ! old woman1 & by ?is ,i mean no disrespect to ! de> old wom51 = _m ( !m h m manhood 9 !m ?an "s ( u m51 & my wife is "o ( !m4 ,:at ,i mean is1 t s9ce ,i h become a ,*ri/ian ,i h n lo/ any ( my manhood4 ,:5 ,i 0 a gambl]1 ,i _h gambl+ h\ses all ov] ! c\ntry4 ,! object 0 to get o!r p's money )\t giv+ !m any equival5t1 9 ord] to gratify my base passion4 ,i c\ld n1 ( c\rse1 call on ! police = protection1 z my bus9ess 0 n legitimate4 ,h5ce1 ,i _h to protect myself1 :i* ,i did at all haz>ds4 ,s1 :5 ,i op5$ a h\se = ! ,"l1 to w9 s\ls = ,him1 ,i det]m9$ ,i w\ld take c>e ( x at any co/4 ,i ?9k "s :o are engag$ 9 ,*ri/ian "w are too /ilt$1 o!rs are too lax4 ,i h tri$ to be bo? /iff & limb]2 :5 x 0 a matt] ( no consequ5ce1 to b5d l ! will[2 :5 x 0 some?+ vital to my ,ma/]'s cause1 to be z /iff z /eel4 ,9 o!r words ,i h tri$ to be all ?+s to all m5 t ,i might w9 "s4 ,i ?9k all ,missions ought to h a lead]4 ,ours has "o4 ,i am ! lead] ( ! meet+s4 ,n t ,i d all ! talk+1 b ,i look out = ! details4 ,i h a "t = op5+ & a "t = clos+ ! meet+1 & ,i always close at ! "t4 ,if my op5+ "t is #g3cj1 ,i beg9 ! meet+ if !re is no "o !re b myself1 :i*1 h[ev]1 has nev] occurr$2 & if my clos+ h\r is at #i o'clock1 ,i close at #i--n #i3cj or #aj4 ,we h 9 ,l\isville a class ( poor p :o att5d ! ,mission & :o "w e day4 ,!y mu/ be at _! places ( labor at an e>ly h\r 9 ! morn+4 ,!y love to be at ! meet+1 & :5 !y "k t !y w be dismiss$ promptly1 !y w come4 ,i feel t if ,i 7 to keep ^! m5 & wom5 up till #aj1 #aa or #ab o'clock1 & let !m get up at #e & g to a h>d day's "w1 :ile ,i lie 9 b$ until #h or #i1 t ,i w\ld be a robb]4 ,n[1 ,i d n say t ,i g home at #i o'clock2 = if !re is a s+le "o anxi\s en\gh ab\t 8 s\l's et]nal salvation to /ay till ! dawn+ ( ! morn+1 ,i w rema9 ) him4 ,i simply say t ,i h a "t = op5+ & a "t = clos+1 & ,i keep promptly to x4 ,i h no set way ( conduct+ ! meet+s4 ,i try to take advantage ( ! situation & d ! be/ ,i c "u ! circum/ances4 ,we always h a ,scripture lesson read & a few rem>ks by ! lead]4 ,if ,i ask him to speak tw5ty m9utes1 ,i mean tw5ty m9utes2 &1 if he is a bi%op1 ,i w /op him :5 8 "t is up4 ,i don't ask y to agree t ?is is "r--,i am only tell+ y h[ ,i conduct a ,gospel meet+4 ,aft] ?is we h ,*ri/ians to give _! exp]i5ce1 nev] all[+ m ?an ?ree m9utes1 & ,i make x my bus9ess to "k :at k9d ( lives ^? :o te/ify are liv+4 ,if "o gets up & beg9s to talk ab\t ! love ( ,jesus1 :o ,i "k has t day be5 dr9k+1 or 9 a h\se ( pro/itution1 ,i /op him "r !re4 ,i d n all[ him to talk1 & injure ! cause1 & !n tell him aft]w>d4 ,i say1 ,bro!r1 we don't want to he> f y to-night1 & s ,i /op him at once4 ,i am v c>eful z to :o te/ifies 9 my meet+s & :at !y say4 ,if a man :o is n a ,*ri/ian und]takes to exhort o!rs to become ,*ri/ians1 ,i /op him1 because he is try+ to talk ab\t some?+ ( :i* he kn[s no?+1 & ?is is "o ( ! h>de/ ?+s 9 ! _w to d4 ,:]e ev]ybody is invit$ to take "p 9 a meet+1 we are apt to h cranks to deal )4 ,!y mu/ be *eck$ & kept d[n r ?an enc\rag$4 ,by cranks ,i mean ^? :o h ecc5tric & uns\nd views1 & ?9k t nobody else c "k z well ab\t ^! ?+s z !mselves4 ,i 0 hold+ a s]ies ( ,gospel meet+s 9 ,atlanta1 ,ga41 on "o occasion1 & _h be5 talk+ f ,acts ii41 #ch1 ,& ye %all receive ! gift ( ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,9 ! address ,i und]took1 z be/ ,i c\ld1 to %[ t ,he1 ! ,holy ,gho/1 conv9ces m5 ( s91 & t ,he reveals ,jesus to poor s9n]s z _! s9 be>] & life giv]1 & t x is ,he t produces t *ange 9 m5 :i* we call conv]sion or reg5]ation or ! new bir?2 & t ,he1 ! ,holy ,gho/1 is ! com=t] ( ,god's p1 9 _! lonel9ess & trials & conflicts "h 9 ?is _w ( exile1 z well z our tea*] to guide u into ! tru?4 ,:5 ,i _h gott5 ?r\gh1 ,i said1 ,n[ we w h %ort talks f o!rs1 & no "o w talk m ?an ?ree m9utes4 ,up jump$ a /reet prea*]1 :o began say+ t ,i _h be5 talk+ ab\t ! ,holy ,gho/1 b ,i did n "k :at ,i 0 talk+ ab\t4 ,he knew all ab\t ,him1 & w\ld tell !m ab\t ,him4 7,?is 0 pretty try+1 b ,i kept mum1 h[ev]47 ,he !n began a h>angue4 ,:5 8 "t 0 up1 ,i /opp$ him4 ,y are go+ to limit ! ,holy ,gho/1 are y8 ,y are go+ to take ! responsibility ( /opp+ ,him1 are y8 ,no1 b ,i am go+ to /op y1 & t at once4 ,& at once he /opp$4 ,i nev] all[ ^? :o te/ify to abuse o!rs4 ,"s w beg9 to talk ab\t ! gambl+ hells4 ,i /op !m & say3 ,no man w g f>!r to /op ^! ?+s ?an ,i1 b ?is is n ! place = t k9d ( talk4 ,o!rs1 z soon z !y are conv]t$1 beg9 to f9d fault ) ! *ur*es1 & abuse ! m9i/]s4 ,i d n approve ( ?is1 & ,i disc\rage x4 ,i am sorry to "k t _m :o are conduct+ ,gospel meet+s are incl9$ to f9d fault ) ,*ri/ians1 magnify+ !mselves & _! "w & und]rat+ ! *ur*es & ! "w ( _! fai?ful pa/ors4 ,"s ( ^! ,mission work]s h sp5t ! be/ "p ( _! lives 9 s91 nev] look+ into ! ,bible--h be5 conv]t$ only a %ort "t2 h _h a little success2 got ! big-head1 & ?9k !y "k bett] h[ to d ,god's "w ?an ^? de> m5 :o h be5 good all _! lives & made a /udy ( ,god's ,^w4 ,my de> bre?r51 9 ! ,mission "w1 we mu/ rememb] t all :o h ev] done any mighty "w = ,god h be5 tra9$ = x1 & tra9$ sl[ly4 ,moses1 y rememb]1 :5 he 0 go+ to 8 "w d[n 9 ,egypt1 comm5c$ kill+ p4 ,he 0 ! great *iefta91 & 0 go+ to deliv] 8 bre?r5 by kill+ 8 enemies4 ,?is 0 n ! way ,god want$ x done4 ,god saw t !re 0 good mat]ial 9 ,moses1 & t ,he c\ld use him1 b he mu/ be tra9$4 ,s ,he s5t him away to ! solitudes ( ,horeb & ,s9ai1 & kept him !re =ty ye>s4 ,!n :5 ,god call$ him to g d[n & br+ ,8 p out1 he _h le>n$ ! lesson ,god want$ him to le>n1 _h gott5 d[n 9 ! du/1 0 humbl$1 & he said3 ,:o am ,i1 ,"l8 ,moses _h gott5 m ( ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,! m we get ( ! ,holy ,gho/ ! clos] we get to ,god4 ,! m we see ( ,him1 & ! m we see ( ,god1 ! less we ?9k ( ourselves2 ! m insignificant we become 9 our own eyes4 ,! ,twelve _h a gr& "w to d1 b !y 7 sl[ly tra9$ = x4 ,s1 !n1 let u "y conv]ts1 ^: "w ,god has honor$ & bless$1 be v c>eful h[ we magnify ourselves1 & und]rate ! regul> m9i/ry4 ,^! m5 are do+ a noble "w 9 _! respective fields1 & !y are j z ready & will+ to take hold ( ! poor outca/ z we ,mission work]s are4 ,!re are prea*]s :o are occupy+ pulpits1 :]e !y are gett+ tw5ty-five hundr$ or ?ree ?\s& doll>s a ye>1 & !y are do+ j z mu* to save poor drunk>ds z we ignorant1 humble ,mission work]s are4 ,y :o 7 at ! ,*icago ,conv5tion la/ ye> rememb] :at ,dr4 ,lawr5ce told u ab\t tak+ "o ( ^! poor1 wret*$ drunk>ds to 8 beautiful home2 h[1 not)/&+ he 0 full ( v]m91 he _h him take a ba?1 burn$ 8 clo!s1 put clean ones on him1 gave him a b$ & took c>e ( him z a bro!r4 ,i tell y1 my fri5ds1 ,i 0 t\*$ by t /ory z well z taught a valuable lesson4 ,i "k ( _m in/ances ( ! same k9d t ,i might tell4 ,y rememb] ,dr4 ,john ,a4 ,broadus1 a well-kn[n ,bapti/ m9i/] 9 ,l\isville4 ,i "k him well4 ,he has be5 "o ( my be/ fri5ds4 ,n v long be=e ,i left home1 a drunk>d came to ! ,mission & %[$ me a note f ,dr4 ,broadus1 say+3 ,?is man has call$ on me = help4 ,i d n l to give him any money1 z he is "u ! influ5ce ( liquor4 ,give him :atev] y ?9k be/1 & ,i w settle ! bill4 ,i ask$ ! man1 z ,i knew him well3 ,h[ did y happ5 to g to ,dr4 ,broadus8 ,because ,i _h he>d s _m say t he _h help$ !m4 ,i gave him no?+4 ,my fri5ds1 we mu/ n und]rate ! will+ness ( ! prea*]s to help ! poor outca/1 = !y are mu* int]e/$ 9 _! v welf>e4 ,i love ! ,missions & ! ,mission "w4 ,j at ?is pres5t "t1 ! ,missions h got a boom ov] ! c\ntry1 b if we are n v c>eful h[ we talk & act1 ! ,missions w suff]4 ,& ! only reason "s ( !m h n quit already is because ^? :o support !m1 = want ( "t to hunt up real results1 h _h to take pr9t$ reports4 ,x is easy = u to f9d fault ) ,*ri/ians1 ri* ,*ri/ians1 & say !y are cold & indiff]5t ab\t ! s\ls ( m51 b ! hi/ory ( ! *ur* proves t ?is is a great mi/ake4 ,^! ,missions h to be support$ by ri* ,*ri/ians1 & :5 y f9d a man t has got mu* money1 y w f9d t he is n a fool4 ,he is g5]ally a man ) a long head & f>sight$ness4 ,he wants to see :]e 8 money is go+1 & :at is be+ done ) x4 ,if y use x prop]ly1 he w give x lib]ally4 ,if he f9ds t y are "o ( ^? fell[s t want to give 8 money to e begg> t comes along1 he w /op 8 subscription at once4 ,^! are simple facts4 ,if we want ?is ,mission "w to succe$ we h got to be v c>eful4 ,i nev] all[ any begg+ 9 my ,mission1 ,i don't c>e h[ pitiable ! object may be4 ,:5 tramps want food1 ,i s5d !m to ! wood y>d to "w = x4 ,if m5 w n "w1 nei!r %all !y eat ( ! money intru/$ to me = spiritual "w4 ,i h no indiscrim9ate pray+4 ,:5 ,i want a pray]1 ,i want to "k some?+ ab\t ! man or woman :o is to make x4 ,i ask "s "o :o1 ,i h good reason to believe1 is a true ,*ri/ian1 t is1 :o walks & talks ) ,god4 ,i d n c>e ab\t _! "n or d5om9ation4 ,i feel t !re is a great responsibility 9 go+ to ,god = ^! poor s9n]s1 & ,i want ! be/ man or woman t ,i c get to talk to ,god = !m4 ,i say3 ,i am go+ to call on "s "o to pray4 ,i don't want y to pray = ,africans1 ,*9ese or any o!r ( ! hea!n nations "h4 ,:5 y g home1 y c pray = !m all night if y want to1 b n[ we want y to pray = ?is special "w4 ,i believe 9 good s++1 & try to h x4 ,i w\ld l to h a hundr$ 9 ! *oir4 ,i seldom h ov] two p]sons4 ,i suppose ! reason is t ,i w n all[ any "o to sit on my plat=m & s+ ^! sweet hymns unless ,i h good reason to believe !y are liv+ pure1 holy1 consi/5t ,*ri/ian lives4 ,i ?9k ! man or woman :o sits 9 ! *oir ought to be z good z he :o /&s 9 ! pulpit4 ,"s w come to me & say3 ,s-&-s is a f9e s+]2 has su* a f9e voice4 ,:at *ur* does he or %e belong to8 ,oh1 !y are n memb]s4 ,well1 !n1 excuse me1 if y please4 ,b t might save !m6 ,i %all n try ! exp]im5t4 ,i h polite u%]s to welcome ! p1 & to %ake h&s ) !m z !y come 9 & also z !y g out1 & invite !m back4 ,!y are also suppli$ ) tracts = di/ribution1 tracts t h pass$ "u my obs]vation1 z ,i all[ nobody to di/ribute tracts unless ,i "k :at !y are4 ,i try to keep ! run ( ! conv]ts2 9 fact1 ,i try to "k all ab\t !m4 ,i try to get !m into "s *ur* ( _! *oice1 t "o :i* !y w feel ! mo/ at home 9 & :]e !y w get ! "r sort ( c>e4 ,x is a v easy ?+ to get "o ( ^! poor drunk>ds1 :o hasn't got any place to sleep or any?+ to eat1 to say1 ,i am go+ to try & be a bett] man & foll[ ,*ri/6 ,x is a v easy ?+1 ,i say1 & ! poor fell[s mean x4 ,b1 oh6 my fri5ds1 h[ h>d x is to get !m up to ! /ick+ po9t4 ,!y want to be wat*$ ov] & giv5 ! v be/ nurs+4 ,if ,i _h n _h ! v be/ c>e & nurs+ ( "o ( ! mo/ godly ( m9i/]s1 ,i d n ?9k ,i %\ld be /&+ be=e y to-day a ,*ri/ian man4 ,i try to foll[ !m up & help ! pa/ors to nurse !m4 ,9 ord] to keep track ( !m we use a book1 some?+ l a bank *eck-book4 ,:5 !y want to unite ) "s *ur*1 we give !m a c]tificate ( introduction4 ,9 x ,i ask ! pa/or to let me "k :5 x is pres5t$4 ,on ! /ub ,i take ! man's "n1 age1 resid5ce1 :]e f1 to :om introduc$1 ) space = rem>ks z to future c>e]1 etc4 ,if he has a home1 we visit him at 8 home1 & if he has n1 ,i invite him to visit me at my home at any "t1 day or night1 :i* is 9 ! same build+ ov] ! ,mission1 & we talk toge!r & pray toge!r4 ,,"q4 ,w y please /ate :e!r y ev] recomm5d fa/+ z a means ( keep+ ! body "u8 ,,answ]4 ,i ?9k x is a good idea4 ,i ?9k fa/+ a good ?+ to keep ! body "u4 ,ow+ to my pov]ty1 s9ce ,i h become a ,*ri/ian1 ,i h _h little to fe$ on4 ,?is necess>y self-d5ial has enabl$ me to keep my poor body d[n1 & f betray+ me into s94 ,no man 0 ev] a great] slave to 8 passions ?an ,i4 ,my passion = gambl+ 0 s great ,i w\ld h committ$ murd] to gratify x4 ,i 0 v lic5ti\s4 ,i j gave loose re9s to my passions2 b to-day1 ,i ?ank ,god1 ,i c /& up be=e y & say t ,i am complete ma/] ( myself4 ,i "k x is a help to live a pla9 life4 ,q4 ,h[ _m meet+s a week d y hold8 ,a4 ,we h !m e night4 ,q4 ,d ! m5 g to ! *ur*es :5 y s5d !m8 ,d y prep>e !m8 ,a4 ,i d n hurry !m into ! *ur*es4 ,& yet ,i don't say !y mu/ be conv]t$ be=e !y g 94 ,:5 a man is sick ( s91 will+ to give x up1 ,i ?9k he is ab\t z ready = ! *ur* z we c get him4 ,q4 ,d y h mu* or little ,bible read+ 9 ! s]vices8 ,a4 ,we d n h mu* ,bible read+4 ,i "k t x is ! p[] ( ,god unto salvation2 b ! class ( m5 :o att5d ,missions1 z a rule1 are 9 no condition to be pr(it$ by a long ,bible read+4 ,! mission ( ! ,missions is to /op ^! m5 9 _! d[nw>d c\rse1 put !m to ?9k+1 get !m into *ur*es2 !n h ! ,bible read & expla9$ to !m by ^? :o are m compet5t ?an ,i am4 ,q4 ,h[ long d y hold s]vice8 ,a4 ,exactly "o h\r & a half2 nev] m1 sometimes a little less4 ,! fir/ half h\r is tak5 up 9 pray] & s++1 ! o!r h\r 9 exhortation & te/imonies & pray]s = ! inquir]s4 ,aft] dismiss+1 we rema9 ) any anxi\s ones4 ,q4 ,:5 d y h y\r conv]ts' meet+8 ,a4 ,e ,sunday morn+1 beg9n+ at #i3cj o'clock & clos+ at #aj3cj1 9 "t = !m to get to *ur*4 ,q4 ,d ! *ur*es take good c>e ( ! conv]ts8 ,a4 ,z a rule1 yes4 ,"s bett] ?an o!rs4 ,q4 ,d ! conv]ts come to y\r ,mission aft] !y h jo9$ ! *ur*8 ,a4 ,oh1 yes1 sir4 ,!y feel m at home 9 ! ,mission ?an !y d 9 *ur*1 because x 0 !re !y ent]$ ^u ! ,*ri/ian life4 ,_m ( our ,*ri/ian work]s make a great mi/ake4 ,!y f9d fault ) ! *ur*es because !y don't receive ^! tramps--,i mu/ call !m tramps--9 _! fil?y condition & give !m ! be/ seats1 etc4 ,i want to say "r "h t a clean *ur*1 :]e clean p g1 is no place = a body ( tramps4 ,we mu/ rememb]1 my fri5ds1 t p :o are clean1 :o h good clo!s & clean homes1 also h "s rights to be consid]$4 ,i say x is n "r to take ^! p into a f9e *ur*1 & put !m side by side ) ! clean ones until !y !mselves are ?or\ghly clean4 ,i took fifty or sixty ( !m into a *ur* once1 b aft]w>d ,i 0 aw>e t ,i _h made a great mi/ake4 ,! ,mission is ! place to clean !m up1 & !n s5d !m to a clean *ur*1 & !y w feel bett] !mselves1 & be w>mly welcom$ by ! memb]s4 ,i don't l dirt any bett] ?an o!r folks1 b "s "o has to d ?is "w1 & ,i am p]fectly will+ to d x4