,,9 ,,bo? ,,worlds4 ,,by ,,wm4 ,h4 ,,holcombe1 ,m4 ,d41 ,,au?or ,,( 8,,our ,,*ildr5 ,,9 ,,heav520 8,,! ,,sexes3 ,,"h ,,& ,,h]eaft]10 ,,etc41 ,,etc4 ,,philadelphia ,j4 ,b4 ,,lipp9cott ,,co #ahgj4 ,ent]$ accord+ to ,act ( ,congress1 9 ! ye> #ahfi1 by ,j4 ,b4 ,,lipp9cott ,,co41 ,9 ! ,cl]k's ,(fice ( ! ,di/rict ,c\rt ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 = ! ,ea/]n ,di/rict ( ,p5nsylvania4 ,,lipp9cott',s ,,press1 ,,philadelphia4 ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,,cont5ts4 ,,page ,i4 ,,ca/ ,,out #ag ,,ii4 ,,cl\ds ,,ga!r+ #bi ,,iii4 ,,night ,,by ,,! ,,dead ,,sea #ci ,,iv4 ,,9 ,,! ,,wild]ness #ej ,v4 ,,! ,,banquet #fj ,,vi4 ,,! ,,*amb] ,,( ,,magic #ge ,,vii4 ,,sav$ #ic ,,viii4 ,,bread ,,on ,,! ,,wat]s #aje ,,ix4 ,,sacrifice #aai ,x4 ,,at ,,a!ns #acb ,,xi4 ,,hel5a #ada ,,xii4 ,,! ,,hall ,,( ,,apollo #adi ,,xiii4 ,,my ,,fir/ ,,dea? #aei ,,xiv4 ,,my ,,spiritual ,,body #aga ,,xv4 ,,! ,,_w ,,( ,,spirits #ahd ,,xvi4 ,,! ,,*ri/ ,,above ,,nature #aic ,,xvii4 ,,judgm5t ,,( ,,! ,,jews #bjc ,,xviii4 ,,imag9>y ,,heav5s #bad ,,xix4 ,,! ,,magicians ,,9 ,,hell #bbe ,,xx4 ,,fri5ds ,,9 ,,heav5 #bcf ,,xxi4 ,,! ,,spiritually ,,dead #bej ,,xxii4 ,,back ,,to ,,e>? #bfa ,,xxiii4 ,,imprison$ #bga ,,xxiv4 ,,buri$ ,,alive #bhj ,,xxv4 ,,:at ,,_h ,,happ5$ #bib ,,xxvi4 ,,! ,,city ,,( ,,colonnades #cje ,,xxvii4 ,,hel5a ,,aga9 #cbj ,,xxviii4 ,,to ,,! ,,lion #ccd ,,xxix4 ,,*ri/ian ,,c&les #cdd ,,xxx4 ,,! ,,great ,,combat #cee ,,xxxi4 ,,free #cfg ,,xxxii4 ,,:at ,,rema9s8 #cgh ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,a ,,/range ,,discov]y ,,9 ,,lieu ,,( ,a ,,preface4 ,illu/ration3 ,initial ,_m ye>s ago ,i 0 enjoy+ 9 ! h>bor ( ,new ,york ! *>m+ hospitalities ( ! (fic]s belong+ to "o ( ! f9e/ vessels 9 ! ,briti% ,navy4 ,! company 0 gay1 cultivat$ & brilliant4 ,/ud5t & recluse z ,i !n 01 ,i 0 p]haps m delight$ ?an any "o pres5t ) ! conv]sation ( ^? practical & poli%$ m5 ( ! _w4 ,aft] supp] ,i 0 attract$ to a small gr\p ( e>ne/ talk]s1 ( :om ! surgeon ( ! %ip seem$ to be ! c5tre & oracle4 ,he 0 speak+ ( exhumations a long "t aft] dea?1 ( mummies & petrifactions & o!r curi\s trans=mations ( ! human body4 ,he /at$ t he _h exam9$ "s ( ! skeletons :i* _h be5 dug out ( ! ru9s ( ,h]culaneum4 ,! bones 7 almo/ p]fect aft] ! lapse ( eighte5 hundr$ ye>s4 ,! complete exclusion ( air & wat] seem$ to be ! only ?+ necess>y to an indef9ite pres]vation4 ,! *apla9 ( ! vessel endeavor$ to give ! conv]sation an /hetic & semi-religi\s turn by analyz+ ! feel+s ( m+l$ awe1 melan*oly & curiosity ) :i* mo/ m5 survey ! rema9s ( a human =m--feel+s always height5$ by ! antiquity ( ! relic1 & by ! dignity ( ! p]son :o liv$ & lov$ & labor$ 9 x4 8,! fundam5tal idea10 said he1 8is a pr(\nd respect = ! human body itself z ! casket :i* has conta9$ ! spiritual jewel1 ! s\l40 8,yes10 rem>k$ ! surgeon2 8no?+ b ! lapse ( a p into cannibalism c oblit]ate t s5tim5t4 ,:5 ! ,egyptian embalm]s 7 ready = _! "w1 a c]ta9 p]son came =w>d & made ! necess>y incisions = tak+ out ! entrails4 ,he imm$iately fl$ away1 pursu$ by volleys ( /ones & curses f all ! o!rs4 ,h5ce also ! dissections ( ! dead by m$ical /ud5ts are conduct$ ) ! utmo/ secrecy & caution40 8,s*ill]10 said ,i1 8makes "o ( 8 h]oes rem>k t ! fir/ "t he plung$ 8 sword into a liv+ man1 he felt a %udd] creep ov] him z if he _h desecrat$ ! temple ( ,god40 8,besides ! feel+ ( rev]5ce10 cont9u$ ! cl]gyman1 8we h ! awe :i* dea? naturally inspires1 ! melan*oly excit$ by ! va9 & transitory nature ( e>?ly ?+s2 & la/ly1 a t5d] & curi\s int]e/ = ! bro!r-s\l :i* has ta/$ ! sweetness ( life & ! bitt]ness ( dea?1 & pass$ onw>d to ^? hidd5 b gr&] exp]i5ces :i* await u all40 8,^? %ock+ ,egyptian mummies10 said "o ( ! (fic]s1 8are s disgu/+ t a /range horror is m+l$ ) ! g5tl] emotions y describe40 8,i exp]i5c$ t feel+10 said ano!r1 8on read+ an acc\nt ( ! exhumation ( ! rema9s1 or r ! op5+ ( ! c(f91 ( ,k+ ,*>les ,i41 two hundr$ ye>s aft] he _h be5 behead$4 ,x 0 increas$1 d\btless1 by ! idea ( ! sep>at$ head & body1 & ! /range & lifelike />e ( ! k+'s eyes1 :i* collaps$ l soap-bubbles :5 !y 7 expos$ to ! air40 8,!re 0 some?+ ( ! picturesque 9 t f9d+ ( a dead body by "s little *ildr5 :o 7 play+ 9 a grotto 9 ,france4 ,x 0 seat$ on a /one b5* & p]fectly petrifi$1 reta9+1 h[ev]1 a sweet & placid expression ( c\nt5ance4 ,! man 0 an old h]mit1 :o frequ5tly retir$ into ! deepe/ *amb] ( ! grotto = religi\s contemplation40 8,imag9e y\rself10 said ,i1 89 ! sil5ce & %ad[s ( ,we/m9/] ,abbey1 pe]+ ?r\gh "s crevice 9 an old vault & gett+ a sight ( ! %runk5 du/ ( ,%akespe>e40 8,pass+ f imag9ation to fact10 said solemnly ! old surgeon1 8,i h se5 ! body ( a man ly+ ^u ! gr\nd :]e x _h la9 undi/urb$ = eighte5 hundr$ ye>s40 8,eighte5 hundr$ ye>s60 exclaim$ sev]al voices at once4 8,yes1 eighte5 hundr$ ye>s2 & ,i 0 ! fir/ p]son :o set eyes ^u him f ! day ( 8 dea? until ,i got into ! cav]n :]e he p]i%$40 8,a romance6 a romance60 cri$ ! m9i/]4 8,come1 doctor1 be communicative & tell u all ab\t x40 8,x is n a romance10 said ! doctor1 8b ! facts 7 c]ta9ly v curi\s4 8,:5 ,i 0 a "y assi/ant surgeon1 atta*$ to ! sloop-(-w> ,agamemnon1 we 7 skirt+ leisurely ! ea/]n %ores ( ! ,m$it]ranean1 & an*or$ "o morn+ 9 sight ( ! ru9s ( ! anci5t city ( ,sidon & opposite ! we/]nmo/ spurs ( ,lebanon1 ! ,mont ,blanc ( ,pale/9e4 8,!re is only "o picture gr&] ?an a view ( ,m\nt ,lebanon f ! sea1 & t is a view ( ! sea f ,m\nt ,lebanon4 ,i enjoy$ ! =m] s ke5ly t ,i det]m9$ to obta9 ! latt] also4 ,we got up a p>ty ( g5ial & /\t fell[s to asc5d "o ( ! highe/ peaks1 arm$ ) pick-axes1 to obta9 geological specim5s on our way4 8,we _h advanc$ b a %ort di/ance up "o ( ! cliffs1 :5 we />t$ f ! scanty und]gr[? "s little animal--a wolf or jackal or wild dog1 all ( :i* ab\nd on ,m\nt ,lebanon4 ,we all jo9$ noisily 9 ! *ase1 & soon ran ! fright5$ creature into "o ( ! deep crevices or fissures made 9 ! e>? by ! tempe/u\s ra9s ( t region4 ,our picks 7 imm$iately br\ght into play1 & 9 a %ort "t1 to our v great a/oni%m5t1 in/ead ( digg+ ! fugitive out ( a little hole 9 ! gr\nd1 we op5$ our way into :at 0 evid5tly ! re> or back "p ( a cave ( consid]able dim5sions4 8,our p>ty crawl$ 9 "o aft] ano!r1 myself lead+ ! way4 ,! cont5ts ( ! place arre/$ our att5tion s /rongly t we =got ! object ( our *ase1 :i* _h buri$ itself 9 "s holes or burr[s at ! side ( ! cav]n4 ,! floor 0 ( a yell[i%-:ite lime/one1 & all eyes 7 imm$iately direct$1 9 ! r dim light1 to ! figure ( a man out/ret*$ ^u x4 8,yes1 x 0 a man ^: entire body1 clo?+ & all1 _h dissolv$ into "o bl5d$ mass1 & s long ago t x look$ r l a great bas-relief ( ! human =m project+ f ! light]-color$ floor4 8,! %ape ( ! head & ( ! long hair & be>d 0 complete4 ,"o out/ret*$ arm lay along ! floor1 & ! f+]s c\ld be trac$ by little ridges sep>ate f ea* o!r4 ,! protub]ances ( all ! bony p>ts %[$ t ! skeleton /ill resi/$ ! dis9tegrat+ process ( decay4 8,:at an awful dea? he mu/ h exp]i5c$6 ,= !re 0 n a s+le o!r object 9 ! small space :i* rema9$ ( ! cav]n2 n a /one :i* might h s]v$ = a seat or a table2 n an e>!n vessel :i* might h conta9$ a draught ( wat]4 8,! fate ( ?is unhappy be+ 0 evid5t4 ,:e!r he _h liv$ 9 ! cav]n or :e!r he _h tak5 refuge 9 x f "s great /orm1 he _h cle>ly ru%$ to ! back "p ( x to escape "s enorm\s l&slide & cav+ 9 at ! front1 :i* _h op5$ t[>d ! sea4 ,he _h be5 buri$ alive6 ,hav+ exhau/$ ! little air t rema9$ to him1 /rick5 d[n by t]ror1 despair & suffocation1 he _h r5d]$ up 8 s\l to ! great ,giv] 9 sil5ce1 d>kness & solitude4 8,^! facts 7 s obvi\s t we all lift$ our hats be=e speak+ a ^w2 ?us pay+ ! tribute ( human sympa?y to a fell[-creature eighte5 hundr$ ye>s aft] he _h ceas$ to ne$ x40 8,h[ did y fix ^u ! date ( 8 dea?80 ask$ ! *apla94 8,y w see4 ,a l>ge cyl9drical case ( bronze 0 ly+ ^u ! brea/ ( ! dead man4 ,he mu/ h valu$ x highly1 = he _h clasp$ x to 8 bosom 9 ! agonies ( dea?4 ,x 0 h]metically seal$ ) su* +5uity t we f\nd consid]able difficulty 9 break+ x op54 ,x conta9$ a p>*m5t ( great l5g?1 & roll$ tightly ar\nd a little brass rod4 ,! p>*m5t 0 closely writt5 9 beautiful ,greek *>act]s4 ,x 0 p]fectly pres]v$4 ,two small gold co9s fell out ( ! :ite dry s& ) :i* ! case _h be5 fill$4 ,"o ( !m bore ! inscription ( ,tib]ius ,cs>1 & ! o!r 0 /amp$ 9 ! n9? ye> ( ! reign ( ! emp]or ,n]o4 ,?us 9 ! accid5tal grave ( its au?or _h 8 book be5 safely pres]v$ amid all ! mutations ( ! _w40 ,! old doctor /rok$ 8 gray be>d 9 sil5ce1 & ,i exclaim$3 8,:o d y suppose ?is un=tunate man to h be580 8,t 0 reveal$ 9 ! manuscript1 b un=tunately n "o ( our p>ty c\ld read ,greek4 ,i s5t ! case ) its cont5ts to an old uncle ( my "m1 :o _h a little curacy ne> ,b+hamton4 ,he 0 a great ,greek s*ol>1 & devot$ to 8 classical /udies ! little "t he c\ld sp>e f ! game ( :i/4 ,i _h a good deal ( curiosity on ! subject1 & wrote sev]al times to my uncle f diff]5t p>ts ( ! _w be=e he condesc5d$ to reply4 ,8 answ] 0 9 sub/ance ?is3 t ! manuscript purport$ to be ! autobiography ( ,eleazor or ,laz>us1 :om ,*ri/ rais$ f ! dead2 t x 0 probably ! "w ( "s h]etic monk or crazy philosoph] ( ! second or ?ird c5tury2 t1 int]wov5 ) romantic incid5ts 9 ?is _w & ! o!r1 x gave expression to _m absurd & false doctr9es2 9 f9e1 t x 0 n wor? my read+1 & t ,i _h bett] devote myself dutifully to kill+ 8 ,maje/y's enemies on ! high seas1 ?an to se>*+ old cav]ns = apocryphal docum5ts :i* impugn$ ! sacr$ v]ities ( ! ,apo/olic ,*ur*4 8,& s10 conclud$ ! old surgeon1 8,i h nev] ?\ght any m ab\t x40 8,y\r uncle 0 no d\bt "r 9 8 conjectures & wise 9 8 advice10 said ! "y *apla94 8,! numb] & ext5t ( ! apocryphal impositions ^u ! e>ly ,*ri/ian ,*ur* are almo/ incr$ible40 8,7 y satisfi$10 said ,i1 8) y\r good uncle's op9ion80 8,i h always believ$10 repli$ ! doctor1 evasively & ) a rogui% tw9kle ( 8 eye1 8t if ! manuscript _h conta9$ ! ,?irty-n9e ,articles by anticipation1 my uncle w\ld h pron\nc$ x div9ely inspir$40 8,:at became ( x80 ,i inquir$4 8,oh1 x 0 seal$ up aga9 & s5t to ! nurs]y z a play?+ = ! *ildr54 ,x is probably /ill 9 ! possession ( "o ( my c\s9s40 ,! /range /ory ( ! old surgeon made a pr(\nd impression ^u me2 = 9 spite ( ! incr$ulity ( all ! o!r li/5]s1 ,i believ$ f ! fir/ t ! du/ ( t cav]n 0 ! du/ ( ,laz>us1 ! bro!r ( ,m>?a & ,m>y1 & t ! manuscript conta9$ some?+ ( g5u9e value to ! ,*ur* & ! _w4 ,! op9ion ( ! old curate & ! e*o ( ! "y *apla9 did n weigh a fea!r 9 my e/imation4 ,"y z ,i 01 ,i _h acquir$ t r>e faculty ( ?9k+ = myself4 ,besides1 ,i _h _h le>n$ en\gh ( human nature to "k t legal re=ms are r>ely sugge/$ by lawy]s2 t doctors always make w> on a sy/em ( m$ic9e bett] ?an _! own2 & t prie/s in/9ctively repudiate any?+ :i* dem&s a re-exam9ation ( ! fundam5tal doctr9es ( _! !ological sy/ems4 ,i _h an inext+ui%able desire to possess t manuscript1 & set myself e>ne/ly ab\t x4 ,i cultivat$ ! acqua9tance ( ! g5ial old surgeon1 & contriv$ to r5d] myself useful to him on m ?an "o occasion4 ,:5 he sail$ = ,engl& ,i extort$ f him a promise t he w\ld s5d me ! manuscript ( ,laz>us :i* 8 or?odox uncle has s flippantly condemn$4 ,a good _m ye>s pass$ away1 & ,i he>d no?+ f him4 ,at l5g? came a package1 & a lett] f ,engl& c\*$ 9 v h&some t]ms1 a "p ( :i* ran ?us3 8,my belov$ fa!r on 8 dea?b$ made up ! p>cel :i* ,i n[ s5d y1 & reque/$ me to transmit x to y ) ! foll[+ message1 :i* he made me write d[n z ! words fell f 8 lips3 8#8,=give y\r old acqua9tance = neglect+ until dea? ! matt]s ( ! dead4 ,read :at ,laz>us says1 :ile ,i g 9 p]son to v]ify or invalidate 8 /ory4 ,i h liv$ passably well1 & ,i die comp>atively happy4 ,good-bye6'0 ,i drew a deep sigh to ! memory ( ! old surgeon1 & set imm$iately to "w /udy+ & translat+ ! manuscript4 ,i f\nd t a difficult task4 ,x 0 n writt5 9 v classical ,greek1 & besides1 0 full ( ,hebraisms1 :i* sometimes obscur$ ! s5se4 ,!re 7 n only _m obscure ?+s1 b _m ?+s irrelevant1 & _m :i* w\ld be reg>d$ z absurd & ev5 *ildi% 9 ! pres5t age4 ,x soon became cle> t a lit]al translation ( ! manuscript w\ld n be ( any great int]e/ to ! g5]al read]4 ,i det]m9$ to take ! a/\nd+ facts n>rat$1 z a skeleton or framework ar\nd :i* to build up a /ory ( my own4 ,?is book is !re=e a mod]n romance f\nd$ ^u anci5t facts4 ,! orig9al might be call$ a prose poem4 ,inde$1 mu* ( x is 9 ! poetical =m2 ! description ( ,hel5a1 = in/ance1 9 ! elev5? *apt]4 ,! key to ! :ole book is1 t "h are ! views & exp]i5ces ( a man :o1 by :at we may call a sup]natural accid5t1 0 l$ into /ates ( ?\ght two ?\s& ye>s 9 advance ( 8 contempor>ies4 ,i pres5t x to ! public 9 a dress ( ! n9ete5? c5tury1 hop+ x w rev]se ! decision ( ! old curate1 :o und]/ood ,greek & :i/ bett] ?an he did ! inappeasable hung] ( ! s\l aft] ! unkn[n1 & p]haps1 alas6 ! unkn[able4 ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,9 ,bo? ,worlds4 ,i4 ,,ca/ ,,out4 ,illu/ration3 ,initial ,a s]5e & happy old age may delight 9 recall+ ! glory & ! dream ( y\?1 ( :i* x is ! cr[n & ! fulfillm5t2 b ! wret*$ & desolate1 ne>+ ! grave1 rev]t seldom to ! pa/ ?+s ( a life !y are eag] to ex*ange = a bett]4 ,a solemn s5se ( duty to mank9d impels me to be my own biograph]4 ,my /ory is ! mo/ wond]ful 9 ! _w3 s wond]ful t ! m5 ( ! pres5t age _c compreh5d or believe me4 ,i am spiritually alone4 ,none be=e me h p5etrat$ consci\sly into ! invisible _w3 exam9$ its /ructure & its p3 & return$ to 8 fell[-m51 enri*$ & burd5$ ) its awful secrets4 ,?is h ,i done4 ,i am ,laz>us ( ,be?any1 :om ,*ri/ rais$ f ! dead4 ,i h liv$ & di$1 & live aga92 & ,i await a second "t ! bitt]ness ( dea?4 8,laz>us10 said !y1 8is asleep or dead4 ,t is all40 ,ah6 h[ little did !y "k6 ,:5 ,i return$ f ! spiritual _w1 ,i _h m wisdom ?an all ! anci5ts1 ?an all ! magi1 ?an all ! prophets4 ,i c\ld h enri*$ ! ,*ur* ( ,god ) spiritual treasures4 ,i c\ld h giv5 light to e m9d & joy to e he>t4 ,i c\ld h satisfi$ ! hidd5 hung] & ?ir/ ( ! human s\l4 ,i 0 n p]mitt$ to d x4 ,!y w\ld h reject$ my gold & my frank9c5se & my myrrh4 ,!y w\ld h turn$ f my (f]+s ( spiritual tru? z a wild bea/ turns f a man :5 he (f]s x bread4 ,i h liv$ _m ages too soon4 ,i w write :at ,i h se5 & he>d4 ,! _w ( m9d w gr[ ) ! com+ c5turies into ! capacity ( compreh5d+ :at ,i alone n[ compreh5d4 ,^! premature utt]ances w !n be und]/ood4 ,i 0 born 9 ! little village ( ,be?any1 :i* sits ^u ! ea/]n slope ( ,m\nt ,olivet1 emb[]$ all summ] 9 leaves & fruit4 ,!re 7 f\r *ildr5 9 ! family2 & our "m di$ 9 giv+ bir? to ,m>y1 ! y\nge/ & mo/ beautiful4 ,our fa!r 0 a man ( great weal? & high social position1 & we 7 re>$ 9 ! lap ( luxury4 ,my e>lie/ recollection is t ( play+ 9 a l>ge1 t]rac$ g>d5 ) my bro!r & two little si/]s4 ,! g>d5 0 full ( olive1 pomegranate1 orange & date trees1 & adorn$ ) a great _m %rubs & fl[]s4 ,x 0 cool1 fragrant & %ady1 & we sport$ ab\t ! tomb ( our "m1 :i* 0 cut 9 ! solid rock1 z m]ry & innoc5t z ! birds & butt]flies :i* %>$ ) u ! peace & beauty ( ! summ] day4 ,i 0 t5 ye>s ( age :5 ,samuel1 my y\ng] bro!r1 0 tak5 f u4 ,x 0 ! fir/ real grief ( my life4 ,al?\gh five ye>s old :5 my "m di$1 ,i 0 too "y to rememb] ! incid5ts4 ,! angels are s ne> u 9 our infancy1 t ! tr\bles ( ! _w1 :i* are aft]w>d engrav$ 9 m>ble1 are !n only writt5 9 wat]4 ,little ,samuel di$ call+ my "n4 ,oh t ,i c\ld h obey$ 8 call1 & foll[$ him into t bright & peaceful sph]e 9 :i* ,i saw him long aft]w>d1 & 9 :i* ,i %all soon see him aga96 ,e>ly on ! day ( 8 burial our fa!r w5t into ! *amb] :]e lay 8 little :ite body cov]$ all ov] ) :it] fl[]s4 ,he knelt beside x & wept bitt]ly4 ,he seem$ unconsci\s t 8 ?ree little ones _h foll[$ him1 & /ood pale & trembl+ at ! door4 ,:5 we he>d ! voice ( 8 weep+ we crept =w>d to ! feet ( our little bro!r & wept also4 ,our fa!r kiss$ u all t5d]ly1 & controll+ 8 emotions & /eady+ 8 voice1 he repeat$ f memory ! beautiful v]ses ( ,scripture :i* describe ! grief & resignation ( ,k+ ,david at ! loss ( 8 *ild4 ,! body ( our little bro!r 0 deposit$ 9 a ni*e 9 ! rock close to ! du/ ( 8 "m4 ,! g>d5 0 avoid$ z a playgr\nd = a long :ile4 ,i 0 busy ) my books1 ,m>?a ) h] dolls--bo? r5d]$ ?\ghtful beyond our ye>s4 ,"o day little ,m>y v5tur$ into ! g>d5 alone1 b pres5tly came runn+ back & buri$ h] gold5 head 9 h] si/]'s lap 9 a %[] ( te>s :i* ne$$ no explanation4 ,:o c read ! little *ild's he>t8 ,p]haps "s playmate bird _h call$ to h]3 8,rosebud6 rosebud6 :]e is y\r bro!r80 ,!n came ! ye>s ( s*ool & op5+ ?\ght & exp&+ faculties1 & ! fir/ appe>ance ( affections & passions1 no long] ! dewdrops ( ! spr+ morn+1 b ! beg9n+s ( deep & swift curr5ts 9 ! c\rse ( life4 ,my si/]s 7 rem>kable wom51 diff]+ 9 /yle & "*2 yet ea* a p]fect picture ( female lovel9ess6 ,m>?a grew tall & firm & /raight1 ) long black hair & black eyes1 a brunette complexion & a f9ely-cut oval face4 ,%e 0 ! imp]sonation ( a pure & intellig5t womanhood4 ,%e 0 active1 obs]vant & critical4 ,%e regulat$ h] life by l(ty pr9ciple z well z by noble impulse1 & !re 0 some?+ ab\t h] t always impress$ y ) ! idea t %e 0 brave & /rong z well z g5tle & pure4 ,m>y 0 fragile 9 =m1 will[y & graceful 9 motion1 s(t & w9n+ 9 mann]s4 ,h] eyes 7 blue & sp>kl+ ) ! t5d] dew ( s5tim5t4 ,! lily & ! rose cont5d$ = supremacy on h] face1 & sunbeams ne/l$ always 9 h] hair4 ,%e 0 ! imp]sonation ( a lov+ & love-awak5+ womanhood4 ,h] voice1 h] smile1 h] te>1 express$ 9 ! mo/ extraord9>y mann] ! s5sitive emotions ( h] s\l4 ,m>y 0 my lily2 ,m>?a my rose4 ,m>?a 0 my ruby2 ,m>y my pe>l4 ,m>?a 0 reason2 ,m>y 0 s5tim5t4 ,m>?a 0 wisdom2 ,m>y 0 love4 ,m>?a 0 fai? look+ fix$ly at ! />s2 ,m>y 0 *>ity look+ tru/fully beyond !m to ,god4 ,my fa!r took a deep int]e/ 9 ! education & g5]al tra9+ ( 8 *ildr54 ,he provid$ u ) ! be/ tea*]s 9 e bran*1 b let no?+ escape 8 own wat*ful sup]vision4 ,x 0 greatly due to 8 intellig5t c>e & ! inspir+ /imulus ( 8 affection1 t we atta9$ a degree ( m5tal & social developm5t r>ely witness$ 9 *ildr5 ( our age4 ,a d>k cl\d hung ov] ?is good & wise fa!r & 8 happy little h\sehold4 ,8 heal? _h be5 gradually fail+ = a long "t4 ,he grew languid1 lo/ appetite1 & became sl[ 9 8 gait & /iff 9 8 motions4 ,he ab&on$ 8 bus9ess 9 ! city1 & r>ely w5t out ( ! h\se4 ,he decl9$ receiv+ visitors1 until our home1 :i* _h be5 s gay & brilliant1 became q des]t$ & lonely4 ,b 8 m5tal condition und]w5t a *ange altoge!r incomm5surate ) 8 physical symptoms4 ,he became sil5t & melan*oly1 & s unlike 8 =m] pati5t & sweet self6 ,he repuls$ e attempt on our "p to inquire into ! nature or cause ( 8 tr\bles4 ,8 m5tal faculties 7 also greatly weak5$4 ,we c\ld n compreh5d ! mean+ ( all ?is4 ,we became v unhappy4 ,we knew he 0 weal?y1 honor$ & belov$--9 possession ( all t m5 covet = good or evil ends4 ,! c\ntry 0 9 a /ate ( pr(\nd repose4 ,x 0 incr$ible t ! m]e approa* ( sickness & dea?1 c\ld s *ange ! "* ( a good & brave man4 ,my fa!r 0 n[ frequ5tly closet$ ) ,caiaphas1 a "y prie/ ( /ately appe>ance & +ratiat+ mann]s4 ,i became v anxi\s to le>n ! subject ( ^! prolong$ int]views4 ,i once que/ion$ ,caiaphas at ! gate ab\t my fa!r's condition2 b he evad$ me adroitly4 ,at la/ my curiosity1 prompt$ by filial love1 triumph$ ov] my s5se ( propriety1 & ,i crept to my fa!r's door "o night1 :5 he & ,caiaphas 7 toge!r1 & appli$ my e> to ! keyhole4 ,= a long "t ! tones 7 too l[ = me to cat* any mean+2 b my fa!r sudd5ly rais$ 8 voice 9 an excit$ mann]-- 8,i assure y he is a ?ief & a robb]1 & addict$ to magic4 ,o ,caiaphas6 save my *ildr5 & _! prop]ty f ?is mon/]60 ,i 0 t]rifi$ at ^! words1 & slipp$ away 9 ! d>kness4 ,!re 0 ! secret ( my fa!r's grief4 ,he expect$ to die v soon1 & 0 anxi\s = ! fate ( 8 *ildr5 :5 he 0 tak5 f !m4 ,i wept on my b$ ne>ly all night at ! idea ( los+ my good p>5t4 ,b :o 0 ?is mon/] he s mu* dread$8 ,t set me to ?9k+4 ,:5 a man di$1 8 m9or *ildr5 & prop]ty pass$ "u ! gu>dian%ip ( 8 next ( k94 ,my fa!r _h no bro!rs 9 ,judea1 = 8 only bro!r _h w&]$ (f m ?an ?irty ye>s be=e4 ,he 0 an ecc5tric "* :o =sook 8 religion & *ang$ 8 "n4 ,beyond t we knew no?+ ( him4 ,nor did my fa!r ev5 "k :]e to f9d him4 ,8 only si/] 0 m>ri$ to ,magi/us1 a citiz5 ( ,be?any4 ,%e 0 a confirm$ invalid & nev] se54 ,9 ! ev5t ( my fa!r's dea? we w\ld fall to _! c>e4 ,magi/us !n 0 ?is t]rible mon/]1 a ?ief & a magician4 ,i 0 confirm$ 9 ?is conclusion by ! fact1 t my fa!r & ,magi/us _h long be5 on bad t]ms2 & my fa!r 0 n ! man to )draw 8 fri5d%ip f a wor?y p]son4 ,magi/us 0 a ?91 sall[1 ugly old man1 ) an imm5se hook$ nose l ! beak ( a bird ( prey4 ,8 black eyes 7 small1 fi]ce & sly4 ,he _h a long d+y be>d :i* he _h twi/$ l a screw4 ,not)/&+ ?is s9i/] appe>ance1 he _h ! reputation ( be+ a good & wise man4 ,p speak well ( a ri* man :o seems always to retire mode/ly f ! public eye4 ,magi/us moreov] 0 a great fri5d ( ! prie/hood & a favorite ) ! prie/s4 ,i c\ld n reveal to my si/]s ! approa*+ dea? ( our fa!r & ! fe>s he _h express$ ab\t our legal gu>dian4 ,i 0 a/oni%$ & some:at reliev$ :5 he pass$ ! w>me/ eulogy ^u ,caiaphas ! next morn+1 & told u to look to him = com=t & to rely on him = help 9 ! greate/ em]g5cies4 ,:at a/oni%$ me /ill m 01 t ?is reliable fri5d nev] visit$ my fa!r aga94 ,we 7 greatly di/ress$ t no m$ical aid 0 call$ 94 ,! sugge/ion 0 always repudiat$ ) a /range e>ne/ness4 ,:atev] ! disease 0 ) :i* our fa!r 0 afflict$1 he 0 pla9ly gr[+ worse & worse4 ,at la/ he refus$ to quit 8 *amb]1 or to admit any "o into x4 ,he comm&$ a little food & wat] to be plac$ ^u a table on ! gall]y und]nea? 8 w9d[2 & :at 0 s+ul>1 he only took x 9 dur+ ! night :5 no "o saw him4 ,^! ?+s ?rew u into ! sadde/ con/]nation4 ,we began to fe> t he 0 los+ 8 reason4 ,we 7 frantic ) excitem5t4 ,we det]m9$ to see him & nurse him4 ,we knock$ at 8 door & w9d[ & entreat$ him to %[ himself to 8 *ildr54 ,at la/ he call$ out 9 a voice :i* %[$ he _h be5 weep+3 8,calm y\rselves1 my *ildr56 & pray to ,god4 ,a great evil has come ^u u1 :i* c be conceal$ b a little long]4 ,my s\l is ov]:elm$ ) mis]y1 b my he>t beats = my *ildr5 ) ! t5d]e/ love4 ,ask me no?+ at pres5t2 x is m ?an ,i c be>4 ,if y love me & w\ld obey me1 keep away entirely f my *amb]4 ,let no "o come into ! h\se--& lea/ ( all1 y\r uncle ,magi/us40 ,we 7 reassur$ ( 8 love & 8 rationality by ^! words2 b !y fill$ u ) a vague t]ror & ov]:elm$ u ) sorr[4 ,we _h no "o to appeal to1 no "o to consult4 ,we 7 comm&$ to keep ev]ybody away4 ,?us sev]al weeks ( fe>ful susp5se roll$ by4 ,! neighbors began to inquire ab\t my fa!r4 ,8 seclusion became ! wond] & talk ( ! village4 ,! int]rogations1 always disagreeable1 became absolutely imp]t95t4 ,! my/]y _h excit$ suspicion4 ,worse ?an all1 ,magi/us became a regul> visitor to ! gate4 ,he que/ion$ ! port] 9 ! subtle/ mann]4 ,he obta9$ f him ! facts t my fa!r _h nev] receiv$ any m$ical att5tion1 t he _h conceal$ himself 9 8 *amb]1 & _h n be5 se5 = weeks1 ev5 by 8 *ildr54 ,he ev9c$ ! livelie/ satisfaction4 8,! apple w soon drop10 said he al\d to himself4 ,all ?is 0 fai?fully report$ to u4 ,?ree little sp>r[s 9 a ne/ among ! gre5 leaves1 c\ld n h be5 9 great] trepidation ) an ugly bird ( prey gaz+ at !m f a neighbor+ bran*4 ,! dn\em5t approa*$4 ,we 7 :isp]+ our sorr[s toge!r "o day1 seat$ by ! little f\nta9 9 ! inn] c\rty>d ( ! h\se1 ^u :i* ! door ( our fa!r's *amb] op5$4 ,sudd5ly voices & foot/eps 7 he>d approa*+4 ,a mom5t aft] ,magi/us appe>$1 foll[$ by a v5]able-look+ old prie/ & /ately ,roman c5turion4 ,my si/]s clung to me 9 t]ror4 ,)\t notic+ u1 ! p>ty rapp$ l\dly on my fa!r's door1 & comm&$ him to come =?4 8,9 ! "n ( ! ,mosaic law10 said ! prie/2 8& by ord] ( ! ,roman gov]nor10 add$ ! c5turion4 ,! words 7 repeat$ 9 a l\d] voice3 ! door sl[ly op5$ & my fa!r /epp$ out1 exclaim+1 8,unclean6 unclean60 ,all fell back sev]al paces4 8,! sc\rge ( ,god60 said ! prie/ ) deep solemnity4 8,damnable ,ea/]n plague60 mutt]$ ! ,roman soldi]4 8,incurable6 incurable60 exclaim$ ,magi/us4 ,x 0 ! leprosy6 ,t gh\l ( diseases1 :i* sl[ly dev\rs a liv+ victim1 _h made fe>ful ravages ^u my poor fa!r's frame4 ,8 eyebr[s & eyela%es 7 gone2 8 *9 & e>s 7 mu* swoll51 & a pe>l-:ite scaly ulc] de=m$ 8 =ehead2 8 h&s _h a sickly & )]$ appe>ance4 ,we n[ und]/ood ! mean+ ( 8 /range conduct4 ,! disease began fir/ ab\t ! jo9ts & ! cov]$ p>ts ( 8 body4 ,z soon z x broke out on ! sk91 ! poor man _h %ut himself up to conceal 8 affliction & to avoid contam9at+ 8 family4 ,kn[+ himself /rick5 ) a disgu/+ & incurable malady1 :i* w\ld exclude him f society & drive him away f 8 *ildr51 he bore ! burd5 ( 8 awful secret alone4 ,magi/us _h discov]$ 8 condition1 & anxi\s to rev5ge himself ^u virtues he c\ld n imitate1 & to get possession ( ! prop]ty1 he laid ! case be=e ! au?orities1 & insi/$ t ! law ( sep>ation %\ld be execut$ ^u 8 bro!r-9-law4 ,z ! unhappy man /ood 9 ! doorway1 he turn$ 8 eyes ^u ! pale faces ( 8 t]rifi$ *ildr51 &1 sil5tly wr++ 8 h&s1 look$ upw>d to heav54 ,he 0 turn+ away1 :5 all ?ree ( u sprang =w>d at once1 & ) cries :i* w\ld h mov$ ! colde/ he>t1 fell at 8 feet & clung ab\t 8 knees4 8,t\* me n6 my sweet *ildr560 he exclaim$1 9 a ho>se & feeble voice4 8,t\* me n4 ,x is all ov]6 ,caiaphas w befri5d my orphans40 ,he _h n f9i%$ ! words be=e sev]al /range dome/ics1 :o _h ru%$ 9 at a signal f ,magi/us1 proce$$ to drag u f ! spot4 8,away ) !m60 said ! hide\s old man1 fi]cely4 8,conf9e !m 9 ! f>!/ room4 ,we want no "y lep]s--no m sc\rges ( ,god40 8,if x 7 a sc\rge ( ,god10 cri$ ,i1 /ruggl+ to escape1 8x w\ld h be5 s5t ^u y & n ^u my noble fa!r40 ,we 7 c>ri$ weep+ out ( ! c\rty>d4 ,look+ back to ! door1 we saw ! unhappy man wav+ 8 la/ adieu to u ) 8 poor1 sickly1 )]$ h&s4 ,! ,mosaic law aga9/ ! un=tunate lep] 0 cruelly sev]e2 b ! ,roman p[] :i* occupi$ ! c\ntry & fe>$ ! ravages ( leprosy among ! soldi]y1 add$ greatly to its =ce & to ! /r+5cy ( its execution4 ,! lep] 0 s5t5c$ to a social & civil dea? f> m t]rible to a man ( s5sibility ?an ! m]e sep>ation ( s\l & body4 ,he 0 driv5 f ! face ( 8 fell[-m51 & dwelt 9 caves & holl[ trees & des]t$ ru9s4 ,no "o 0 p]mitt$ to t\* him1 to approa* him1 or ev5 to speak to him4 ,he 0 compell$ to cry out1 ,unclean6 unclean6 s z to w>n e "o ( 8 dang]\s proximity4 ,he became lit]ally ! wild man ( ! woods & ! m\nta9s & ! des]t--! companion & sometimes ! prey ( wild bea/s4 ,^? :o _h fri5ds & money _h little huts erect$ = !m 9 remote b safe places1 & 7 amply provid$ ) food & ev5 luxuries by s]vants :o deposit$ ! articles ^u ! gr\nd at a consid]able di/ance f _! habitations4 ,su* 0 ! fate ( our good & g5]\s fa!r--! idol ( our he>ts & ! model ( all social & h]oic virtues4 ,we sp5t ! night 9 te>s1 & ! next day 9 an agony ( grief4 ,i d n "k :o witness$ ! dreadful c]emonies ( ! law4 ,he 0 exam9$ by ! prop] inspectors1 & pron\nc$ unclean & incurable4 ,he 0 l$ into ! great highway4 ,! p /ood af> (f4 ,! prie/ 9 a l\d voice pron\nc$ ! curse ( ,god ^u him--! s]vice ( ! dead ov] ! liv+ body4 ,he cut him (f f ! congregation ( ,israel4 ,! gu>ds !n drove him be=e !m into "s un9habit$ place1 & he disappe>$ f ! sight ( m54 ,he 0 always visible1 h[ev]1 to ! he>ts ( 8 ?ree little orphans4 ,we foll[$ 8 /eps ) filial vigilance4 ,we saw him toil+ along 9 ! s& ( ! des]t1 & we %>$ 8 burd5 ( heat & hung] & ?ir/4 ,we saw him seat$ "u a palm tree1 or 9 ! %ad[ ( "s great rock1 & we felt ! sorr[s ( 8 ?\ghts z if !y 7 our own4 ,we saw him kneel+ by ! brook1 & we m+l$ our pray]s ) 84 ,we saw him sleep+ 9 8 lonely hut1 light$ only by ! moon1 & we 7 com=t$ by 8 dream ( angels & heav54 ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,,ii4 ,,cl\ds ,,ga!r+4 ,illu/ration3 ,initial ,we 7 n[ orphans1 & ( t k9d mo/ to be piti$1 :o h fall5 into ! h&s ( a cold & selfi% /ep-uncle4 ,he _h a fa!r's p[] ov] u1 )\t a fa!r's affection to regulate & sanctify x4 ,!re 0 no "o to sup]vise 8 conduct t[>d u2 no appeal f 8 bas5ess or cruelty1 unless 8 acts 7 s flagrant & unconceal$ z to call d[n ! v5geance ( ! laws4 ,?is uncle :om we s mu* dread$ & _h s mu* reason to dread1 wore at fir/ a smoo? & pleas+ mask4 ,he came e day to see u1 & endeavor$ by z mu* civility & k9dness z he c\ld c\nt]feit1 to s(t5 our feel+s & satisfy u ) our condition4 ,he pr(ess$ ! deepe/ sympa?y = our poor fa!r's calamity4 ,he regrett$ ! sev]ity ( ! ,jewi% & ,roman laws on ! subject ( leprosy1 b excus$ !m z a necess>y protection to society4 ,he assur$ u t our fa!r _h a com=table lodge on ! bord] ( ! wild]ness1 & t s]vants 7 despat*$ e o!r day ) fre% supplies ( food & w9e & wat]4 ,?is assurance br\ght te>s to our eyes & com=t to our he>ts4 ,:5 ! /orm ( our grief _h abat$ a little1 we reque/$ to see our aunt2 = we ye>n$ = ! pres5ce & sympa?y ( woman4 ,magi/us conduct$ u ov] to 8 resid5ce :i* adjo9$ our own1 b front$ ^u ano!r /reet4 ,a high brick wall sep>at$ 8 g>d5 f ours4 ,he _h a door cut 9 ?is wall s z to facilitate ! passage f "o h\se to ano!r4 ,8 mansion 0 completely conceal$ f ! public eye by a ?ick grove ( trees :i* surr\nd$ x4 ,9 ! mo/ retir$ *amb] ( ?is quiet & really beautiful place1 we f\nd ,ulema1 my fa!r's invalid si/]4 ,%e 0 a middle-ag$ woman ( extreme ?9ness & pallor4 ,h] face 0 wax5-color$ & gha/ly4 ,!re 0 a wild t]rifi$ expression ab\t h] black eyes1 :i* 0 absolutely pa9ful4 ,%e _h evid5tly be5 a great suff]] 9 m9d & body4 ,%e receiv$ u ) a fa9t1 sickly smile1 & !n h] features assum$ an expression ( pr(\nd pity4 ,we suppos$ ?is 0 on acc\nt ( ! loss ( our fa!r4 ,we did n "k ! reasons :i* ! poor woman _h = pity+ any "o :o came )9 ! %ad[ ( ,magi/us4 ,aft] ! int]*ange ( a few commonplaces1 our uncle cut %ort ! visit on ! plea ( ,ulema's feeble & n]v\s condition4 ,?is visit 0 repeat$ e ,sabba? aft] ! morn+ sacrifice4 ,magi/us always accompani$ u1 & drew u away z quickly z possible4 ,my aunt _h always ! same expressions ( t]ror & pity4 ,?us our repeat$ int]views add$ no?+ to our k ( h] "*4 ,9 va9 we petition$ ,magi/us to let u live ) our aunt1 or to let u visit h] (t5]1 or to let u /ay long]4 ,our own home 0 sadly *ang$4 ,! furniture1 ! pictures1 ! /atues1 ! f\nta91 ! fl[]s1 7 all ! same1 b !re 0 an air ( sil5ce & melan*oly ab\t ! :ole place1 z if ! inanimate objects _h felt & %>$ ! mis=tunes ( ! orphan *ildr54 ,!re 0 a diff]5t sph]e ar\nd u1 a diff]5t light ^u u4 ,! organiz+ & unitiz+ _s 0 gone2--! good & wise fa!r1 :o made all happy & *e]ful ab\t him1 & held 8 little h\sehold toge!r 9 ! sweet bonds ( p]fect ord] & peace4 ,x 0 a cruel act ( ,magi/us to sub/itute s]vants & creatures ( 8 own = ^? :o _h be5 ) u f our infancy4 ,we 7 soon surr\nd$ by /range faces1 s t our fa!r's h\se began to appe> to u1 :at x really 01 a prison4 ,! dome/ics ( an e/abli%m5t acquire 9 "t a color+ f ! k9d ( life )9 x1 z insects are color$ by ! leaves & b>k ( ! trees !y inhabit4 ,ours 7 respectful1 ob$i5t & *e]ful2 ^! 7 cunn+1 insol5t & di%one/4 ,! *ief butl] or head s]vant 01 h[ev]1 a good "*1 :o plays a rem>kable "p 9 my /ory4 ,he 0 an ,african ab\t ?irty ye>s ( age1 v black & homely4 ,he 0 a eunu*1 & dumb4 ,^! disadvantages1 :i* at fir/ excit$ a feel+ ( repulsion1 7 aton$ = by a s+ul> k9dness1 def]5ce & sympa?y1 :i* 7 display$ 9 8 features & mann]s4 ,! o!r s]vants held him 9 great awe2 = he _h be5 br\ght f ,egypt ab\t ?ree ye>s be=e by a magician1 & 0 suppos$ to be gift$ ) sup]natural p[]4 ,x 0 ?is advantage 9 comm&1 z well z a c]ta9 k9d ( tal5t1 indu/ry & reliability1 :i* induc$ ,magi/us to give him ! supreme *>ge ( bo? h\seholds4 ,he _h be5 ) u b a few days1 be=e he _h q won our he>ts by 8 fri5dly att5tions & evid5t sympa?y = our di/ress4 ,i1 :o _h be5 made suspici\s by my fa!r's op9ion ( our gu>dian1 detect$ 9 ! face ( ,e?opus 7= t 0 8 "n7 ! same expression ( pity :i* %one 9 ! features ( our sick aunt4 ,all ?is1 h[ev]1 he conceal$ f ,magi/us ) ! greate/ c>e2 = he 0 always cold & impassive t[>d u 9 ! pres5ce ( 8 ma/]4 ,un=tunately ,e?opus 0 dumb4 ,8 communications at ?is "t might h be5 ( incalculable s]vice to u4 ,i endeavor$ to le>n some?+ ( ! habits & "* ( my uncle f ! o!r s]vants1 b on t subject !y 7 z dumb z ,e?opus2 = :5ev] ,i approa*$ x1 !y manife/$ signs ( fe>1 & inv>iably put ! f+] on ! lip4 ,i became dissatisfi$ ) ?is secresy4 ,i resolv$ to tea* ,e?opus to read & write1 s t he might tell me 8 own /ory1 & initiate me into ! my/]ies & dang]s ( my position4 ,he compreh5d$ my idea at once1 & came to me secretly at h\rs :5 he knew ,magi/us 0 abs5t4 ,he _h made "s little progress1--?\gh ! difficulties ( ! fir/ /eps 7 v great1--:5 "o ev5+ ,magi/us walk$ slyly 9 & surpris$ u at our /udies4 ,we _h be5 betray$ by "o ( ! s]vants1 :o all act$ z spies on ea* o!r4 ,magi/us 0 9 a t[]+ passion4 ,he beat ,e?opus sev]ely1 not)/&+ my prote/ations t ,i alone 0 to blame--& drove him f ! room4 ,turn+ fi]cely ^u me1 he exclaim$3 8,d y n "k ! crime1 ! dang] ( tea*+ t man to write80 8,oh1 uncle60 said ,i1 8:at h>m is !re 9 be/[+ ! light ( k ^u a poor dumb slave80 8,he 0 made dumb to keep him f betray+ secrets40 8,horrible60 said ,i4 8,n my secrets10 he add$1 cauti\sly1 8b 8 =m] ma/]'s4 ,if ,simon ,magus ?\ght he c\ld write1 he w\ld come all ! way f ,egypt to cut 8 he>t out ( 8 body40 ,aft] t ev5t1 ! sph]e ( ,e?opus' duty 0 *ang$1 s t we r>ely saw him4 ,sev]al weeks pass$ away1 & we wond]$ :y ,caiaphas1 f :om our fa!r expect$ s mu*1 did n come to see u4 ,he 0 to aid & befri5d u1 &1 z ,i hop$1 to deliv] u f ! control ( ,magi/us4 ,he _h evid5tly promis$ all t to our de> fa!r4 ,! prie/ly au?orities1 if prop]ly appli$ to1 surely w\ld n p]mit ! *ildr5 ( a good & dev\t man to cont9ue "u ! influ5ce ( a ?ief & magician4 ,caiaphas at la/ came4 ,8 visit 0 %ort3 8 mann] con/ra9$ b polite4 ,he sympa?iz$ briefly ) our affliction2 expla9$ & def5d$ ! ,mosaic laws aga9/ leprosy2 eulogiz$ our fa!r 9 eloqu5t t]ms2 & congratulat$ u on hav+ su* a wor?y uncle1 :o w\ld tra9 u s c>efully 9 ! fai?1 & :o w\ld make our home s happy4 ,& ?is 0 ! result ( ! secret int]views ) my fa!r1 & ( 8 solemn w>n+s aga9/ ,magi/us z a ?ief & a magician6 ,i 0 puzzl$ & disappo9t$4 ,i c\ld n help say+3 8,did y "k1 ,o ,caiaphas6 t my fa!r ent]ta9$ a v diff]5t op9ion ( ?is good uncle80 8,rememb]1 my son10 said he1 some:at aba%$1 8t y\r fa!r 0 v sick1 & 8 m9d greatly impair$4 ,!re 0 no f\ndation :atev] = 8 unhappy suspicions4 ,obey y\r uncle l good *ildr51 & y w f9d him all ,i h repres5t$ him to be40 ,he !n retir$4 ,i 0 too "y & ignorant ( ! ways & wiles ( ! _w1 to suspect t ?is prie/ _h be5 all along 9 collusion ) ,magi/us1 & 0 to %>e ) him 9 ! plund] ( ! orphans ( 8 fri5d4 ,! words ( my fa!r rang 9 my e> & cont9ually haunt$ my m9d3 8,he is a ?ief & robb]1 & addict$ to magic40 ,i ask$ my uncle "o day1 9 a v quiet mann]1 8 op9ion ( magic4 ,he look$ at me sev]ely & answ]$3 8,:at are ! words ( ,moses on ! subject8 ,li/53 #8,a man or a woman t ha? a famili> _s1 or t is a wiz>d1 %all surely be put to dea?4 ,!y %all /one !m ) /ones4'0 ,?is did n conv9ce me t my fa!r 0 9 error4 ,mon?s pass$2 & a gradual & sadd5+ *ange 0 creep+ ov] our life & its surr\nd+s4 ,i _h detect$ no robb]y1 no magical practices2 b ,i _h no fai? 9 my uncle4 ,cauti\s & retic5t z he 01 he c\ld n conceal "s ( ! ugly po9ts ( 8 "*4 ,he 0 viol5t & cruel 9 8 deal+s ) 8 slaves4 ,he 0 addict$ to falsehood1 & 9 bo? op9ion & practice 0 de/itute ( *>ity4 ,8 /rict obs]vance ( ! c]emonial law & 8 int5se ritualism1 c\ld n conceal f me ! fact t 8 he>t 0 :olly unt\*$ by ! spiritualiz+ influ5ces ( true religion4 ,he ceas$ aft] a :ile to take u to see our aunt4 ,our tea*]s 9 v>i\s bran*es 7 n re-engag$1 or 7 dismiss$4 ,education came to a /&-/ill4 ,company 0 exclud$ f our h\se4 ,8 own 0 op5$ at night to suspici\s *>act]s4 ,by brib+ "o ( 8 s]vants "o d>k night1 ,i obta9$ admission to 8 c\rty>d1 & discov]$1 by muffl$ s\nds ( music & danc+1 t a bac*analian revelry 0 go+ on und]gr\nd4 ,he sometimes betray$ ! next day1 9 8 face & mann]1 ! effect ( ^! midnight orgies4 ,9 ! mean "t my beautiful si/]s p9$1 neglect$ & sorr[ful4 ,magi/us r>ely visit$ !m2 & :5 he did1 he 0 guilty ( co>se famili>ities :i* %ock$ & repell$ !m4 ,i summon$ c\rage1 boy z ,i 01 on "o ( ^! occasions to reproa* him bitt]ly = ^! ?+s2 = neglect+ our education1 our dress1 our mann]s1 our com=ts2 & = fall+ himself into habits :i* w\ld c]ta9ly lead to ! ru9 ( u all4 ,he />$ at me insol5tly1 & said t ,i _h bett] get my fa!r's fri5d ,caiaphas to revise 8 gu>dian%ip4 ,l a man :o sits helpless 9 a boat )\t o>s1 glid+ d[n a swift curr5t1 & he>s ! f>-(f b inevitable cat>act1 ,i contemplat$ ! d>k future t await$ u4 ,i griev$ = my si/]s m ?an = myself4 ,we _h j be5 m\rn+ toge!r "o day ov] our sad fate1 :5 ,magi/us came into ! room4 ,he _h held a long private int]view t morn+ ) a /range man ( gigantic size & v co>se mann]s1 ^: appe>ance1 z he ent]$ ! gue/-*amb]1 excit$ my grave/ suspicions4 8,y compla9 s bitt]ly10 said he1 look+ reproa*fully at me1 8( ! g5]al decay & ru9 into :i* ev]y?+ ab\t "h1 animate & inanimate1 is fall+1 t x is surpris+ y h n yet intimat$ y\r d\bts ab\t y\r fa!r gett+ 8 prop] supply ( provisions40 8,oh no1 uncle60 said ,m>y1 t5d]ly1 8y c\ld n =get s sacr$ a duty z t4 ,surely no "o ev] h9t$ su* a ?+4 ,! ?\ght ( x w\ld drive me mad40 8,i wi% y to satisfy y\rselves p]fectly ^u t po9t10 he cont9u$1 9 ! tone ( a man :o ?\ght himself aggriev$4 8,a tru/y s]vant is to convey to him a basket ( ?+s ! day aft] to-morr[4 ,let ,laz>us accompany him4 ,let 8 daught]s s5d "s little pres5ts4 ,8 son c see him & ev5 speak ) him at a di/ance4 ,he c see 8 lodg+ & satisfy himself t he is com=tably situat$40 8,)\t confess+1 uncle10 said ,i1 8t ?is visit is necess>y = my fai? 9 y\r att5tion to my fa!r1 ,i conc$e t x w give me v great pleasure40 8,h[ long w he be gone80 said ,m>?a4 8,is !re no dang]80 said ,m>y4 8,he w run no risk & w return ! same night10 said ,magi/us1 answ]+ bo? que/ions 9 a brea?4 ,?is visit occupi$ our ?\ghts cont9ually1 & we delight$ to imag9e :at joy x w\ld give our poor fa!r4 ,i 0 out ( b$ be=e daylight t morn+1 impati5t to />t4 ,i p>took he>tily ( an extempore breakfa/ :i* ,e?opus provid$ me4 ,t p]sonage to my surprise seem$ sad & ab/ract$4 ,i c\ld say no?+ to him1 h[ev]1 = ,magi/us 0 pres5t4 ,i kiss$ my si/]s good-bye at ! door ( _! room1 = !y too c\ld n sleep = excitem5t4 ,magi/us wav$ 8 adieu at ! front door4 ,i walk$ ?r\gh ! c\rty>d ) ,e?opus1 :o c>ri$ a cov]$ basket on 8 arm4 ,we 7 ne> ! gate1 :5 ,e?opus com+ close to me slipp$ some?+ into my h&4 ,x 0 a long1 ?91 bright dagg]4 ,i conceal$ x imm$iately 9 my bosom4 8,e?opus ?9ks !re w be dang]10 said ,i1 to myself4 ,i w\ld p]haps h said some?+1 b ,i obs]v$ ! port] admitt+ a p]son ?r\gh ! gate1 ^: entrance at t h\r 9 ! morn+ caus$ me ! greate/ surprise4 ,x 0 a woman2 & at ! age ( sixte5 a woman occupies a great deal ( ! field ( vision be=e ! mascul9e eye4 ,?is woman 0 v "y--n m ?an fifte51 al?\gh p]fectly mature4 ,%e 0 v beautiful--s beautiful t ev]ybody mu/ h turn$ to look aft] h]4 ,h] eyes 7 l>ge1 s(t & hazel2 h] hair br[n & wavy2 h] *eeks bl5d$ roses & pe>ls3 h] m\? small & curv$ l a b[2 h] voice & smile p]fectly bewit*+--all t ,i took 9 at a glance3 nor did x ne$ ! spl5did e>-r+s & brilliant necklace & sc>let robe %e wore1 to impress x v deeply on my m9d4 ,%e bade me good-morn+ ) ! sweete/ smile imag9able1 & ) ! affable1 self-possess$ mann] ( a woman mu* old] ?an h]self4 ,/>tl$ & aba%$1 ,i c\ld d no?+ b b[ pr(\ndly & hurry into ! /reet :]e ,e?opus _h giv5 ! basket to ! p]son :o 0 to be my guide4 ,i made signs to ,e?opus1 by a k9d ( pantomime we _h acquir$1 to keep a wat*ful eye on my si/]s4 ,he repli$ by an affirmative motion ( ! head & a deep sigh1 :i* 0 evid5tly on my own acc\nt4 ,?is woman 0 de/9$1 "u ! lead+s ( ,provid5ce1 to make a great] & m la/+ impression on my s\l ?an all o!rs4 ,& ?is 0 our fir/ meet+3 ,i a ba%ful boy2 %e a /range woman1 too gaudily dress$1 ent]+ my fa!r's h\se at a /range h\r4 ,s two %ips might pass ea* o!r on ! ,great ,sea1 m]ely ex*ang+ signals ( good-morn+--%ips de/9$ long aft]w>d to convoy ea* o!r beyond ! ,pill> ( ,h]cules into ! inf9ite unkn[n6 ,?is woman 0 ,m>y ,magdal54 ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,,iii4 ,,night ,,by ,,! ,,dead ,,sea4 ,illu/ration3 ,initial ,) my ?\ghts fluctuat+ betwe5 ! extreme beauty ( ,m>y ,magdal5 & ! dang] :i* ,e?opus seem$ to appreh5d1 ,i walk$ "s di/ance )\t reg>d+ my new companion4 ,:5 ,i did s1 ,i 0 surpris$ & puzzl$ at 8 appe>ance4 ,he 0 a "y man ( s+ul>ly h&some features1 ! only drawback be+ a nose :i* 0 a little too aquil9e4 ,8 black hair curl$ 9 %ort r+lets close to 8 head1 & 8 face 0 ?or\ghly bronz$ by sun & tempe/4 ,8 dress 0 r t ( "s =eign] atta*$ to an ,assyrian or ,egyptian c>avan1 ?an ! co>se & simple clo?+ ( a ,hebrew s]vant4 ,& !n !re 0 some?+ bold & free 9 8 be>+1 :i* preclud$ ! idea t he 0 a m5ial ei!r 9 "* or condition4 8,are y engag$ 9 my uncle's s]vice80 said ,i4 ,he %ift$ ! heavy basket f "o arm to ! o!r1 & made no reply4 ,i repeat$ my "q 9 a l\d] tone2 b he did n seem to he> me1 look+ /raight ahead at ! road be=e him4 8,?is h&some fell[ is bo? deaf & dumb10 said ,i to myself4 8,my uncle has a curi\s passion = sil5t p40 ,deb>r$ ! pleasure ( conv]sation1 ,i relaps$ into rev]ie4 ,i det]m9$ to make a use ( ?is visit :i* my uncle little anticipat$4 ,i resolv$ to approa* my fa!r boldly1 contagion or no contagion1 & h an int]view ) him4 ,i want$ to tell him ( ! neglect$ & unhappy condition ( 8 *ildr51 ( our increas+ repugnance to ,magi/us1 & ( ! indiff]5ce or trea*]y ( ,caiaphas4 ,i want$ 8 advice4 ,he c\ld surely direct me to fri5ds 9 ! city1 ^: assi/ance might arre/ our imp5d+ ru94 ,made happi] by t resolution1 z if x _h already accompli%$ some?+1 ,i let my m9d rev]t back to ! woman ,i saw at ! gate1 & a new cause ( uneas9ess arose z ,i reflect$ ^u t accid5tal meet+4 ,boyi% & inexp]i5c$ z ,i 01 ,i discov]$ some?+ 9 ! dress & mann] ( ! e>ly visitor1 :i* :isp]$ to me t %e 0 n a suitable companion = my si/]s4 ,%e c]ta9ly 0 n a dome/ic4 ,:o c\ld %e be8 ,:at c\ld %e want at our h\se j aft] daybreak8 ,p]haps %e came to see ,magi/us on bus9ess4 ,x 0 n ! h\r or ! place = t4 ,p]haps %e 0 "o ( ! midnight revel]s :om ,i he>d s++ & danc+ 9 ! basem5t /ory ( my uncle's seclud$ resid5ce4 ,t idea />tl$ me m ?an all4 ,i det]m9$ to get back home by rapid walk+ be=e nightfall1 & explore ?is disquiet+ my/]y4 ,we _h pass$ ov] hill & dale ?r\gh a highly-cultivat$ c\ntry1 full ( v9ey>ds & g>d5s & or*>ds1 full ( sweet little villages & beautiful rural villas4 ,?is did n la/ long1 & we turn$ 9 a s\?-ea/]ly direction4 ,! villages disappe>$2 ! h\ses became m sp>se & humble2 ! trees became m /unt$ & b>e2 ! rocks l>g] & ! road m difficult4 ,at ! po9t :]e ! highway leads d[n ! /eep hills t[>d ,j]i*o & ! pla9 ( ! ,jordan1 my guide turn$ sudd5ly due s\? into a r\gh1 b>r5 & wild c\ntry1 :]e !re 0 no road at all4 ,! s\nds ( life fad$ beh9d u4 ,vegetation almo/ :olly disappe>$4 ,no animals 7 to be se5 b a few goats f> away br[s+ among ! rocks4 ,! birds seem$ to refuse to accompany u fur!r4 ,! sil5ce ( ! des]t fell gradually ^u u4 ,?is 0 ! wild]ness ( ,judea4 ,we 7 w9d+ d[nw>d to ! ,salt ,sea1 t great wat]y wa/e1 9 ^: sil5t deeps ,sodom & ,gomorrah lie buri$2 on ^: %ores /& bleak & desolate m\nta9s full ( sulphur spr+s2 ! gloom )\t ! glory ( nature2 ! home ( wild bea/s & lep]s & robb]s & demons2 m\nta9s fe>ful 9 _! nak$ness & solitude2 evil g5ii gu>d+ 9 /]n sil5ce ! et]nal sleep ( ! lo/ cities ( ! pla94 ,i grew uneasy & melan*oly z we approa*$ ^! fam\s & dang]\s places4 ,! taciturnity ( my guide1 toge!r ) an increas+ %ad[ on 8 expressive face1 magnifi$ my appreh5sions almo/ into fe>s4 ,i felt my boyi% weakness & inexp]i5ce by ! side ( ?is /rong1 r\gh1 sil5t man ( ! wild]ness1 :o n[ seem$ to my excit$ imag9ation to h got into 8 native elem5t1 & to be a "p ( ! lonely & sup]natural region into :i* we _h ent]$4 ,our att5tion 0 sudd5ly drawn to a neighbor+ em95ce by s\nds ( s /range a "*1 t x 0 impossible to say :e!r !y 7 animal or human4 ,f\r lep]s appe>$ 9 sight1 almo/ nak$1 hold+ up _! long1 )]$ arms1 & scree*+ out f _! ho>se ?roats & swoll5 lips _! hide\s cry1 8,unclean6 unclean60 ,i trembl$ at ?is sad spectacle & gaz$ int5tly1 expect+ & afraid to recognize my poor fa!r 9 ! gr\p4 ,my guide sudd5ly laid 8 h& ^u my %\ld]1 & we bo? /ood /ill4 ,he !n set ! basket ^u ! gr\nd1 made signals to ! lep]s to approa*1 & drew me away f ! spot4 ,a horrible *orus ( guttural ?anks came up f ! lepr\s creatures1 :o await$ our dep>ture be=e p\nc+ ^u ! acceptable pres5t4 8,oh1 sir60 said ,i1 resi/+ my guide1 & =gett+ t he 0 deaf & dumb1 8y h giv5 my fa!r's food to ^? unhappy wret*es6 ,:]e is my fa!r8 ,oh1 take me to him60 ,he /opp$ & look$ me full 9 ! face4 8,oh yes60 ,i cont9u$1 9 a supplicat+ tone2 8t basket has food & w9e = my poor fa!r1 ! lep]1 & a b\quet & a lett] f ,m>?a1 & a pair ( s&als f little ,m>y--0 ,ov]come ) emotion ,i bur/ into te>s4 ,! guide drew a deep sigh2 & :5 ,i look$ up into 8 face x 0 radiant ) a sweet & b5evol5t expression4 ,he _h ei!r he>d me or he compreh5d$ intuitively ! nature ( my di/ress4 ,he %ook 8 head & made a deprecat+ ge/ure ) 8 h&4 ,he !n drew me (f /rongly1 b s g5tly t ,i 0 p>tially reassur$1 & walk$ meekly at 8 side1 ov]:elm$ ) surprise & sorr[4 ,aft] pass+ ov] sev]al r\gh ridges we turn$ into a deep rav9e4 ,! guide made me g 9 front4 ,! pa?way d[n ?is n>r[ gorge1 ?is cleft betwe5 two m\nta9s1 0 r\gh & dang]\s4 ,!re 7 deep holes or pits ^u "o side1 & frightfully ov]hang+ rocks ^u ! o!r4 ,x 0 s d>k & precipit\s 9 "s places t ,i c\ld sc>cely believe we 7 n desc5d+ into ! b[els ( ! e>?4 ,we sudd5ly em]g$ f ?is mon/r\s fissure on a little m\nd made by ! soil wa%$ d[n f above1 & f\nd ourselves on ! %ore ( ! ,dead ,sea4 ,i _h nev] se5 su* an expanse ( wat] be=e1 & 0 *>m$ ) ! sight4 ,away to ! left 0 ! pla9 ( ! ,jordan & ! sacr$ riv] ( t "n1 invisible at a di/ance among its re$s & ru%es4 ,opposite arose ! r$di%-br[n m\nta9 *a9 :i* bord]s ! sea on ! we/4 ,f> d[n to ! "r /ret*$ a range ( high hills ( a blui% gray color4 ,9 front1 & wid5+ away to ! s\?1 lay ! mighty surface ( ! sea1 %9+ l a burni%$ mirror 9 ! noon-day sun4 ,a f9e breeze 0 bl[+2 b !re 0 only a fa9t ripple on ! wat]1 = its heavy salt waves c sc>cely be /irr$ by ! w9d--l ! s\l ( a wick$ man1 :i* _c be mov$ by ! ,_s ( ,god4 ,i 0 recall$ f t delici\s rev]ie into :i* e "o is transport$ by a view ( ! sea2 = my guide po9t$ to a clump ( /unt$ trees or r l>ge bu%es ne> ! bea*4 ,half hidd5 by !m 0 a t5t ( alt]nate :ite & r$ canvas1 9 front ( :i* a l>ge boat 0 drawn up on ! s&4 ,two r\gh-look+ fell[s lay 9 ! boat asleep4 ,!re 0 no human habitation any:]e ab\t ?is lonely spot4 ,^! p belong$ on ! o!r side ( ! sea4 ,!y 7 ready = flight 9 a mom5t4 ,!y 7 wild1 rov+1 secretive1 fugitive4 ,!y 7 engag$ 9 "s unlawful bus9ess4 ,i _h fall5 into ! h&s ( robb]s4 ,^! disquiet+ ?\ghts pass$ ?r\gh my m9d z we approa*$ ! t5t4 ,he>+ our foot/eps on ! s&1 ! *ief came out ( x4 ,he 0 tall & s9ewy1 a man ( unusual weight & size4 ,he 0 clad 9 a ri*ly-embroid]$ crimson robe1 ) a spl5did scimit>1 jewel-hilt$1 at 8 side4 ,a long be>d1 /a9$ ( a gold5 yell[ by "s vegetable dye1 gave him a grotesque & nev]-to-be-=gott5 appe>ance4 ,all ?is b>b>ic ornam5t did n prev5t me f recogniz+ ! /range1 co>se man :o held ! long int]view ) ,magi/us two days be=e4 ,!n he 0 disguis$2 n[ 8 "* 0 app>5t4 ,we /ood be=e him4 ,my guide made a l[ obeisance & said 9 a cle> voice3 8,b>abbas6 ,i h obey$ y\r ord]s60 ,my a/oni%m5t on discov]+ t my robb]-guide 0 nei!r deaf nor dumb1 0 turn$ into ano!r *annel :5 ,b>abbas exclaim$3 8,well done6 ,b9d him tightly ) ! old ,p]sian4 ,if ,beltrezzor's ransom does n arrive by sunrise1 we w make way ) !m bo? toge!r40 ,my uncle _h betray$ me into ! h&s ( ! ,i%maelite to be murd]$4 ,!re c\ld be no d\bt t ! atroci\s assass9 _h tak5 e precaution to prev5t escape or failure4 ,resi/ance 0 impossible4 ,!re 7 f\r m5 9 sight1 ei!r "o ( :om c\ld h ov]p[]$ me 9 a mom5t4 ,my he>t sank 9 despair :5 my guide l$ me beh9d ! t5t1 & b\nd me securely to a little tree1 )\t ev9c+ ! lea/ remorse or c>e at 8 own "p 9 ?is %ameful & c[>dly transaction4 ,i n[ survey$ my fell[-prison]1 :o 0 ti$ to ano!r tree close to me4 ,8 gray hair & be>d %[$ t he _h pass$ consid]ably beyond ! m]idian ( life4 ,he _h a s]5e & r h&some face1 full ( ?\ght & b5evol5ce4 ,"y & inexp]i5c$ z ,i 01 ,i p]ceiv$ by a k9d ( intuition t my companion 9 di/ress 0 a cultivat$ & sup]ior man4 ,he wore a ri* ,ea/]n robe & a bright-color$ turban4 ,he 0 smok+ a long pipe curi\sly c>v$ & twi/$4 ,he survey$ me quietly & nodd$ k9dly to me1 evid5tly pity+ my *ildi% t]ror & despair4 8,we %all be murd]$ to-morr[60 ,i gasp$4 8,i le>n$ a prov]b 9 ,india10 said ! old man4 8,brahma writes ! de/9y ( e "o on 8 skull4 ,no man c read x0--& wat*+ 8 smoke fade into air1 he sl[ly cont9u$1 8& ev5 ! gods _c av]t x40 ,i 0 a/oni%$ at 8 coolness2 b 8 fatalism did n console me4 8,to die--to die6--to leave my poor si/]s unprotect$ & to see !m no m--,oh1 x is horrible60 8,n to be10 said ! ,p]sian1 9 a voice ( s+ul> dep? & sweetness1 8n to be is bett] ?an to be2 & n to h be5 is bett] ?an all40 ,9 spite ( myself & my fe>s1 ! calm & almo/ spiritual halo :i* seem$ to surr\nd ?is /range old man1 began to quiet my agitation & to div]t my ?\ghts f my imp5d+ fate4 8,are y a philosoph]80 said ,i4 8,i ?9k10 he repli$2 & draw+ a long :iff f 8 pipe1 he illu/rat$ 8 rem>k by laps+ into a pr(\nd rev]ie4 ,i contemplat$ ?is s]5e philosoph] a long "t 9 sil5ce1 & made up my m9d t he mu/ h a good _m beautiful ?+s to ?9k ab\t z he sat !re1 b\nd & "u s5t5ce ( dea?1 smok+ s placidly ^u ! arid %ore ( t dreadful sea4 ,:5 he indicat$1 by knock+ ! a%es f 8 pipe1 t he _h asc5d$ f ! ocean ( dreams into :i* he _h div$1 ,i ask$ him h[ he _h fall5 into ! p[] ( ^! miscreants4 8,speak evil ( no "o1 my son6 ,leave wick$ names to ! wick$4 ,^! g5tlem5 live ^u ! road & 9 ! wild]ness4 ,!y pay special att5tion to travel]s1 to c>avans1 & to small & remote villages4 ,!y cure "s p ( t *ronic disease we call life1 & !y p]mit o!rs to ransom !mselves by l>ge quantities ( t evil ?+ we call money4 ,!y h set me d[n 9 ! latt] class1 & ,i am await+ a remittance f a fri5d 9 ,j]usalem40 8,suppose y\r fri5d is dead1 or abs5t f ! city1 or _c raise ! sum requir$1 or refuses to d x80 ,he po9t$ to ! sea1 %rugg+ 8 %\ld]s1 & exclaim$3 8,:at is writt51 is writt540 ,:5 x 0 q d>k my guide ( ! morn+ br\ght u a little food4 ,! old ,p]sian ate he>tily1 b ,i c\ld b>ely ta/e x4 ,! guide :isp]$ 9 my e>1 8,be sil5t & wakeful10 & dep>t$4 8,n[ sleep1 my son10 said my philosophic companion2 8tru/ 9 ,god & sleep4 ,our angels & good g5ii befri5d u mo/ p[]fully :5 asleep4 ,:5 awake we sc>e !m away by our villa9\s ?\ghts4 ,sleep40 ,! :isp]$ words ( ! guide _h inspir$ me ) a vague hope1 & ,i pref]r$ tru/+ to 8 advice r ?an to ! invisible gu>dians ( our sleep4 ,i 0 !re=e sil5t & wakeful4 ,! moon w5t d[n long be=e midnight4 ,! h\rs pass$ away sl[ly1 sl[ly1 m>k$ only by ! com+ up ( ! :ite />s f beh9d ! ea/]n hills2 :ile ! long m9utes 7 told by ! dead pla% ( ! wat] aga9/ ! bea*4 ,!re 7 fea/+ & dr9k+ & s++ 9 ! t5t ( ,b>abbas4 ,?is 0 kept up until long aft] midnight4 ,!n !re 0 sil5ce1 & ! l\d snor+ z ( "s "o 9 a drunk5 sleep4 ,x became v d>k4 ,! voices ( man & nature 7 hu%$4 ,! h\rs pass$1 & all ?+s seem$ to sleep except ! />s :i* cont9u$ to climb ! heav5ly dome1 & ! sad1 gray sea :i* pu%$ feebly aga9/ ! des]t bea*1 & myself cruelly orphan$ & betray$1 ?9k+ alt]nately ( home & dea?4 8,dea? at sunrise60 ,i exclaim$1 ?9k+ al\d to myself4 8,! sun has n ris510 :isp]$ ! ,p]sian4 ,& ,hope1 ! undy+ consol] )9 u1 took c\rage at ! words ( ! old man & at ! sl[-foot$ pace ( ! night2 & ?\ght x 0 long1 long till ! morn+1 & t ! angel ( ,life might /ill come1 & relieve f 8 awful wat* ! angel ( ,dea?4 ,an h\r m ( sil5ce t c\ld be felt1 & ( unutt]able susp5se--& a h& 0 laid s(tly ^u my %\ld]4 ,! rope t b\nd me 0 dis5gag$1 & my deliv]] drew me /eal?ily along ! bea*1 & away f ! t5t :]e ,b>abbas lay dream+ ( plund]$ c>avans & cruel uncles :o enri*$ him = ! murd] ( _! nephews4 ,! guide did n speak until we /ood on ! m\nd at ! m\? ( ! great rav9e1 :]e ! ,dead ,sea fir/ broke ^u my sight4 8,y are free10 he said4 8,y are a *ild1 abus$ & betray$4 ,y %all n be murd]$4 ,robb] z ,i am1 !re is some?+ 9 my he>t :i* is t\*$ by y\r sorr[s4 ,g back to life1 if n to happ9ess4 ,god p]haps w deliv] y f ,magi/us1 z ,he has ?r\gh me deliv]$ y f ,b>abbas40 8,come ) me10 said ,i2 8leave ?is wret*$ & dang]\s life 9 ! wild]ness4 ,%>e our fate & =tune 9 ,be?any40 8,d n speak ( x10 he answ]$2 8x is impossible4 ,ha/5 on y\r j\rney1 or all may be lo/40 8,b10 said ,i1 cl++ to him1 8,b>abbas w kill y :5 he f9ds ,i h escap$40 8,no6 ,i h contriv$ aga9/ t4 ,i am cunn+ & ,i %all succe$40 8,! poor old ,p]sian w be murd]$60 8,no6 ,he w be ransom$ to-morr[4 ,away60 he cont9u$ excit$ly2 8a mom5t's delay may be fatal4 ,away60 8,/ay60 said ,i1 eag]ly2 8tell me ! "n ( my b5efactor1 t ,i may repeat x 9 my pray]s40 8,i h no "n1 no home4 ,i am ! ,son ( ! ,des]t40 ,he hurri$ s(tly away t[>d ! t5t1 & ,i crept up ! rav9e 9 ! d>kness4 ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,,iv4 ,,9 ,,! ,,wild]ness4 ,illu/ration3 ,initial ,afraid ( ! d>k & fe>ful gorge1 full ( rocks & pitfalls & unse5 dang]s2 afraid ( ! unpeopl$ des]t :i* await$ me above2 afraid ( wild bea/s1 s]p5ts1 lep]s & evil spirits2 afraid ( ! sil5ce & solitude ( night by ! ,salt ,sea2 afraid ( all ?+s beh9d me & all be=e2 ,i asc5d$ cauti\sly & pa9fully ! n>r[ pa?1 if pa? x might be call$1 pray+ to ! ,god ( ,abraham1 ,isaac & ,jacob1 = protection4 ,i1 :o _h nev] be5 out ( my fa!r's h\se at t h\r ( ! night 9 my life1 ?us f\nd myself amid a complication ( circum/ances :i* might h appall$ ! /\te/ he>t4 ,i _h asc5d$ two-?irds ( ! way1 :5 my ke5 e> caught ^u ! night-w9d ! subdu$ b r\gh voices ( sev]al p]sons :o 7 desc5d+ ! rav9e4 ,my he>t /ood /ill & ,i almo/ fa9t$ ) affright4 ,=tunately1 ,i rememb]$ t ,i _h j pass$1 a little l[] d[n1 a l>ge side-fissure or *9k 9 ! great rock wall ( ! rav9e4 ,i w5t back ) ! utmo/ spe$ & caution1 & got safely conceal$ 9 ! black crevice be=e ! objects ( my t]ror came along4 ,!y 7 no d\bt "s ( ! p>ty ( ,b>abbas1 :o 7 return+ ) or )\t ! ransom ( ! old ,p]sian4 ,!y 7 talk+ ( ransom ) oa?s & laught] z !y pass$4 ,i held my brea? 9 susp5se2 nor did my he>t recov] its natural beat until !y _h desc5d$ a good di/ance1 & _! voices float$ fa9tly upw>d l ! mutt]+s ( lo/ s\ls 9 "s horrible abyss4 ,i 0 n[ afraid to />t aga9 le/ ,i %\ld meet ano!r deta*m5t ( ! robb]s4 ,i wait$ a long "t1 li/5+ int5tly4 ,x sudd5ly occurr$ to me t :5 ! robb]s rea*$ ! t5t ( ,b>abbas1 my escape w\ld be discov]$1 & ! swifte/ runn]s despat*$ to ov]take me4 ,?is ?\ght br\ght ! cold drops to my =ehead2 & ,i hurri$ brea?less all ! way up ! rav9e1 actually ?9k+ t ,i he>d ! foot/eps ( m5 beh9d me1 & voices call+ my "n4 ,escap$ f ! robb]s1 ,i fell into ! arms ( ! des]t4 ,i c\ld h extricat$ myself f ! new dang] if ! sun _h be5 %9+4 ,b ! day rose d>k & cl\dy1 & ,i c\ld n tell :e!r ,i 0 go+ ea/ or we/1 nor? or s\?4 ,i fail$ to recognize any ( ! spots we _h pass$ ! day be=e4 ,i walk$ rapidly up & d[n ! b>e hills1 ov] ! r\gh gullies & ?r\gh ! s&y holl[s4 ,aft] "s h\rs ( ?is exhau/+ travel1 bo? m9d & body be+ on ! /ret*1 ,i 0 %ock$ on discov]+ t ,i _h be5 mov+ 9 a circle1 & 0 ne> ! m\? ( ! rav9e aga94 ,i w\ld h /ret*$ myself ^u "s rock 9 despair2 b my dang]\s proximity to ,b>abbas & 8 m51 reviv$ my fe>s & gave sup]natural /r5g? to my body4 ,i fl$ away z fa/ z ,i c\ld ov] new hills & gullies & s&y bottoms4 ,x mu/ h be5 two or ?ree h\rs aft] noon1 :5 ,i rea*$ a hill ov]look+ a deep1 n>r[ valley1 ! dry b$ ( "s nameless brook1 :i*1 9 ! ra9y season1 p\r$ along ov] ! s&s its little tribute to ! sea4 ,?or\ghly exhau/$ ) hung]1 ?ir/1 fatigue1 loss ( sleep1 fe> & despair1 ,i lay d[n ^u ! hillside4 ,lo/ 9 ! wild]ness1 ?9k+ ( ! /ill worse conditions ( my fa!r & si/]s1 my mis]y 0 too deep = te>s4 ,a /range torpor crept ov] my s5ses1 & ,i fell into t pr(\nd slumb] 9 :i* ! we>y are /r5g!n$ & ! sorr[ful com=t$4 ,:5 ,i awoke1 ! sett+ sun1 j fre$ f cl\ds1 0 %9+ 9 my face4 ,h[ life-giv+1 fai?-giv+1 hope-giv+ is a sight ( ! sun1 wrapp+ 8 mantle ( s(t5$ glory ab\t him1 & desc5d+ tru/fully to sleep 9 ! k+dom ( night1 assur$ t ,aurora w op5 duly h] palace ( pe>l1 & 8 gold5 *>iot ) its fi]y /e$s issue =? 9 ! morn+6 ,s does ! ,s\l s9k only to rise2 sleep only to wake2 die only to live3 ev] *ang+ 9 /ate1 ev] ! same 9 sub/ance4 ,i 0 ?us draw+ new vigor f ! rays ( ! sun1 :5 a voice ( heav5ly sweetness broke ^u my e>1 a voice *ant+ ?is beautiful ,scripture3 8,z ! h>t pante? aft] ! wat]-brooks1 ,s pante? my s\l aft] !e1 ,o ,god6 ,my s\l ?ir/e? = ,god1 = ! liv+ ,god3 ,:5 %all ,i come & appe> be=e ,god80 8,are !re angels z well z demons 9 ! des]t80 said ,i1 to myself4 ,a jutt+ br[ ( ! hill conceal$ f me ! s\rce :5ce ^! s\nds appe>$ to issue4 ,i arose & advanc$ to explore ! my/]y4 ,r\nd+ ! int]v5+ slope1 ,i saw a "y man seat$ ^u a /one at ! m\? ( a l>ge cav]n4 ,8 quick eye detect$ me 9 a mom5t1 & he advanc$ to meet me4 ,he wore a s+le g>m5t wr\ght ( ! f9e/ camel's hair1 :i* 0 secur$ ab\t 8 wai/ by a lea!rn girdle4 ,simple toilet6 ,b :5 y look$ at 8 f9e head ) its long black hair curl+ ab\t 8 b>e neck1 & 8 beautiful oval face s(t z a girl's1 full ( all sa9tly ?\ghts & heav5ly emotions1 y knew t y 7 9 ! pres5ce ( "o :o 0 clad int]iorly 9 f9e l95 & purple4 8,good sir10 said ,i1 8behold an unhappy y\?1 :o has j escap$ dea? by robb]s1 & is lo/ 9 ?is t]rible wild]ness60 8,"o mu/ h liv$ long 9 ! des]t to f9d 8 way out ( x su* a d>k day z ?is4 ,x w be cle> to-morr[1 & ,i w pilot y into ! great highway4 ,meantime y are welcome to my poor hospitalities--a cave = ro(1 a b$ ( sk9s1 wat] to dr9k1 wild honey & locu/s to eat2 t is all40 8,i gladly accept y\r (f]2 & 7 y\r pr(f]$ gifts /ill m humble1 !y w\ld be sanctifi$ by ! light ( bro!rly love y ?r[ ^u !m40 ,i seat$ myself on ! /one :ile he w5t into ! cave & br\ght =? 8 simple food & dr9k1 ( :i* ,i p>took he>tily4 8,to :om am ,i indebt$ = ?is k9d reception80 ,i inquir$1 z ,i f9i%$ my meal4 8,i am ,john10 he answ]$1 8! son ( ,za*>ias2 & ,i dwell 9 ! des]t until ! "t ( my %[+ unto ,israel40 ,a deep human groan f ! int]ior ( ! cav]n n[ />tl$ me1 & ,i sprang f my seat4 8,:at is t80 ,i exclaim$4 8,my poor old pati5t has awak5$4 ,i mu/ g & exam9e him40 8,he takes 9 ! sick z well z ! w&]+10 said ,i to myself4 8,surely ! angels mu/ protect him 9 "s peculi> mann]40 ,john came =w>d aga9 ) an anxi\s c\nt5ance4 8,alas60 said he1 8! old man has rapidly *ang$4 ,he fell into a s(t slumb] an h\r ago1 b he is n[ pla9ly dy+4 ,i knew he 0 v ill1 = he has rav$ all day ab\t 8 *ildr5 & "s magicians :o wi% to de/roy !m40 ,at ^! words a fe>ful tremor seiz$ me4 ,i c\ld n speak4 ,i sprang pa/ ! "y man1 & 9 a mom5t 0 kneel+ at ! side ( my fa!r6 ,i seiz$ 8 )]$ h& & cov]$ x ) kisses4 8,my fa!r6 my fa!r6 ,d y n "k y\r son1 y\r only son80 ,! "y h]mit look$ on 9 te>s4 ,! old man sl[ly op5$ 8 eyes & ca/ a bewild]$ look1 fir/ at me1 & !n at ,john4 8,yes--y are angels10 he said1 8:o h come to welcome my _s into p>adise40 ,he brea!d heavily4 ,i sank d[n weep+4 ,john came =w>d ) a little bas9 ( wat]4 8,!re is no "t to be lo/10 said he 9 a l[ tone4 8,d y believe 9 ,god1 & 9 ,moses 8 lawgiv]1 & 9 ! prophets 8 s]vants80 8,i d6 ,i d60 said ! old man1 eag]ly4 8,d y rep5t ( y\r s9s1 & pray = ! ,holy ,_s to guide y80 8,i d6 & ,god be m]ciful to a mis]able s9n]60 8,!n ,i baptize y ) wat]1 ! emblem ( purification1--& 9 ! "n ( ! ,"l1 ! only ,god1 into 8 spiritual ,*ur* & into ! hope ( immortal life40 ,?us say+1 he spr9kl$ "s wat] on ! old man's =ehead4 ,8 own face %one ) a meek & holy radiance4 ,my fa!r clos$ 8 eyes & seem$ to sleep4 ,sudd5ly he />t$1 fr[n+1 z if "s great pa9 _h *ang$ ! curr5t ( 8 ?\ght4 8,tell my son to bew>e ( 8 uncle4 ,he is a magician40 8,"h is y\r son60 ,i exclaim$1 eag]ly2 8"h is y\r son6 ,oh1 speak to me1 my fa!r60 ,he did n notice my grief2 b1 po9t+ sl[ly to ,john ! ,bapti/1 he said1 solemnly3 8,behold ! prophet ( ,god60 ,he !n look$ fix$ly upw>d2 & z ,i foll[$ 8 glance to ! ro( ( ! cave1 8 _s pass$ away beyond ! blue dome1 beyond ! />s & ! sun1 beyond ! entire realm ( nature1 into ! p>adise ( ,moses & ! prophets4 ,i sp5t ! night 9 pray] & te>s by my fa!r's dead body4 ,occasionally ! "y prophet broke 9 ^u ! /illness ( ! air ) 8 silv]y voice1 *ant+ ! sweet v]ses ( ,scripture4 ,i 0 sorely tempt$ to rebel aga9/ ! provid5ce ( ,god1 :i* p]mitt$ su* a good man z my fa!r to be s cruelly dealt )4 ,! pres5ce1 h[ev]1 ( ! "y prophet1 0 9 itself a s]mon1 a bless+1 a help to resignation4 ,"o c\ld n be skeptical or ev5 critical 9 8 lum9\s atmosph]e ( peace & love4 ,i reflect$ t !re 7 _m great my/]ies :i* my y\?ful & inexp]i5c$ m9d c\ld n at pres5t compreh5d1 & return+ fai? assuag$ ! grief x c\ld n remove4 ,! next day ab\t noon ! "y prophet (f]$ a pray] ov] ! corpse1 & we consign$ x to a humble grave dug by our own h&s 9 a l>ge cav]n ne> by4 ,i obs]v$ t !re 7 f\r o!r graves 9 ! same spot4 8,yes10 said ,john1 meekly1 8?is is my little cemet]y4 ,"h ,i bury my dead 9 gr\nd consecrat$ to ! ,"l4 ,?is 0 a robb] :o 0 w\nd$ 9 a fray & left by 8 comrades4 ,he dragg$ 8 ble$+ limbs into ! des]t4 ,i f\nd him & bore him to my home4 ,i prea*$ to him ! new gospel ( rep5tance & fai?1 & he di$ 9 my arms weep+ l a *ild ov] ! s9s ( 8 y\?4 ,he :o occupies t grave 0 a madman1 :o broke 8 *a9s1 & drove e "o f him ) knives & /ones until he met me 9 ! wild]ness4 ,he foll[$ me to my cave1 & w\ld sit cont5t$ at my feet he>+ me s+ or read or pray4 ,"u t m\nd is a poor slave :o fl$1 mutilat$ & fr5zi$1 f a cruel ma/]4 ,i kiss$ ! w\nds ,i c\ld n heal2 & he di$ clasp+ my h&s smil+ly to 8 lips4 ,& t la/ "o is ! grave ( ano!r poor lep] l y\r fa!r1 =sak5 ev5 by 8 wret*$ companions--b n =sak5 by ! ,"l1 ^: ,^w ,i obey$ :5 ,i t5d$ him 9 8 long illness4 8,i call x consecrat$ gr\nd10 he cont9u$2 8= ^! poor p are ! *ildr5 ( ,god4 ,! lep] is cur$ ( 8 leprosy2 ! slave is free2 ! madman is sane2 ! robb] is =giv540 8,:at induces y10 said ,i1 8to lead ?is /range1 lonely life1 s full ( self-sacrifice1 s full ( t]rors & dang]s80 8,! ,_s ( ,god60 he said1 solemnly4 8,are y n afraid ( ! sil5ce1 ! solitude1 ! d>kness ( ! des]t80 ,he repli$ 9 ! words ( ,scripture3 8,! ,"l is my light & my salvation2 :om %all ,i fe>8 ,! ,"l is ! /r5g? ( my life3 ( :om %all ,i be afraid80 ,i felt aw$ 9 ! pres5ce ( ?is "y man1 :o 0 n m ?an t5 ye>s old] ?an myself4 ,i 0 bett] satisfi$ to leave my fa!r's a%es 9 8 keep+1 ?an if ,i _h built above !m ! mo/ spl5did monum5t ( ,p5telican m>ble or ,cor9?ian brass4 ,aft] a frugal meal we />t$ = ! public road4 ,x 0 t5 long miles to ! ne>e/ highway1 & x 0 t5 m f t to ,be?any4 ,we disc\rs$1 z we walk$ along1 ab\t spiritual ?+s2 & al?\gh ,i did n und]/& half he said1 he spoke ) su* eloqu5ce & s9c]ity t he conv9c$ me he _h "s great mission 9 ! _w4 ,we p>t$ a little be=e sunset ) mutual embraces & bless+s4 ,i dropp$ "s grateful & admir+ te>s z ,i gaz$ aft] ! heav5ly-m9d$ h]mit1 pick+ 8 way ) 8 long /aff ?r\gh ! r\gh places1 until he disappe>$ f sight ov] ! br[n1 b>e hill4 ,x 0 n until ! com=t+ & su/a9+ p[] ( 8 pres5ce 0 )drawn1 t ,i recogniz$ h[ exhau/$ & helpless & lonely ,i 04 ,fatigue1 fe>1 excitem5t1 sorr[1 loss ( sleep & inadequate n\ri%m5t1 _h consid]ably %att]$ my n]ves2 & n[ to appe> sudd5ly 9 ! pres5ce ( an uncle :o ?\ght he _h murd]$ me1 0 a difficult & p]haps a dang]\s task4 ,i w\ld gladly h turn$ 9 any o!r direction2 b my si/]s 7 9 ! p[] ( ! mon/] :o _h plott$ my assass9ation4 ,no?+ b a vague fe> t ^? lovely wom5 7 9 "s tr\ble or di/ress1 gave /r5g? to my tir$ limbs & c\rage to my a*+ he>t4 ,night came on1 & ,i _h to advance m sl[ly4 ,! full moon 0 %9+ halfway d[n ! we/]n sky1 b a d>k cl\d _h ris5 f ! a%es ( ! sunset1 & 0 advanc+ upw>d4 ,x 0 important t ,i %\ld make all ! ha/e ,i c\ld1 be=e ! light ( ! moon 0 obscur$ by t asc5d+ blackness4 ,to get out ( ! road might be to lose ! :ole night4 ,i mov$ s rapidly t ,i became exce$+ly tir$4 ,if ,i sat d[n to re/1 a my/]i\s fe> impell$ me to rise & press =w>d to ,be?any4 ,i h fai? 9 ^? secret attractions1 ^? sil5t monitors1 ^? inexplicable w>n+s4 ,a m9ute's repose ( muscle1 a m9ute's recup]ation ( brea?1 & ,i />t$ aga9 ) r5ew$ en]gy4 ,a w9d came up beh9d ! cl\d & drove x furi\sly onw>d4 ,x cov]$ ! moon & all 0 d>k4 ,i grop$ my way4 ,i /umbl$ ov] ob/acles4 ,i advanc$ sl[ly4 ,x 0 late1 late 9 ! night1 :5 ,i ent]$ ! village ( ,be?any4 ,no lights 7 visible2 no s\nds 7 he>d4 ,i trav]s$ ! /reets alone4 ,i pass$ my uncle's resid5ce1 brimful ( mal$ictions aga9/ its wick$ proprietor4 ,soon my fa!r's h\se loom$ up be=e me4 ,i saw ! long :ite wall 9 front ( x1 & ! p>apet ( ! h\se-top d>k5+ above4 ,sudd5ly a /rong bla/ ( w9d /irr$ all ! trees ( ! village4 ,x sigh$ along ! des]t$ /reets & up into ! sky4 ,x lift$ ! l[] edge ( ! cl\d f ! moon :i* %one out1 l[ d[n1 j above my fa!r's h\se1 z x 7 ) a sudd5 brilliancy4 ,x reveal$ to me two a/oni%+ ?+s4 ,"o 0 a l>ge1 /range1 gild$ vehicle drawn by two p[]ful horses /&+ be=e ! gate4 ,! o!r 0 ! figure ( a woman on ! h\se-top1 betwe5 me & ! moon--a woman ) fl[+ robes & di%evel$ hair1 rais+ h] arms wildly to heav51 :ile a man 0 approa*+ h] 9 ! attitude ( /rik+4 ,x 0 my si/] ,m>?a6 ,) a cry ( horror ,i sprang aga9/ ! gate1 :i* gave way be=e me4 ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,v4 ,,! ,,banquet4 ,illu/ration3 ,initial ,i am too deeply impress$ ) ! vanity ( our worldly affairs 9 comp>ison ) ! v]ities ( ! spiritual life1 to employ my own "t or engage a read]'s att5tion ) a biography1 h[ev] pleas+ or romantic1 unless !re 0 a subtle connect+ l9k1 :i* ,i expect to reveal1 betwe5 ! facts n>rat$ & ^? et]nal tru?s :i* ov]%ad[ all o!rs 9 importance4 ,i1 alone ( all mank9d1 h liv$ consci\sly 9 bo? worlds long en\gh to discov] _! relations to ea* o!r4 ,:at my fell[-m5 h se5 only on ! surface1 ,i h exam9$ int]iorly4 ,i h se5 ! secret spr+s ( human pride1 ambition1 passion & folly4 ,i h se5 ! s\ls ( m5 z !y appe> 9 ! sight ( angels4 ,& my in/ructions 9 t _w 7 all bas$ ^u my exp]i5ces 9 ?is4 ,x is n[ necess>y to drop = a :ile my p]sonal n>rative1 & to g back & relate1 f ! evid5ce ( o!rs1 :at happ5$ 9 ,be?any dur+ my abs5ce4 ,my si/]s _h be5 left ) our atroci\s uncle1 l two lambs "u ! gu>dian%ip ( a wolf4 ,"o capable ( assass9at+ 8 nephew1 a m]e y\?1 w\ld n hesitate at any wick$ness aga9/ 8 beautiful nieces4 ,?is man's "* 0 s cruel & wick$1 t "s explanation is ne$$ ( ! s+ul> maturity ( diabolism to :i* he _h atta9$4 ,magi/us _h nei!r religion nor honor4 ,honor b9ds u 9 duty to our neighbor1 z religion b9ds u bo? to ,god & ! neighbor4 ,x is a moon :i* %9es brilliantly 9 ! abs5ce ( ! sun4 ,! light ( honor is also b ! reflect$ light ( religion4 ,:5 bo? %9e toge!r1 honor is absorb$ & swall[$ up 9 ! m effulg5t blaze ( religion4 ,! s\l )\t religion or honor1 is l ! e>? )\t sun or moon--cold1 d>k1 desolate1 hide\s4 ,su* 0 ! s\l ( ,magi/us4 ,irreligion1 l drunk5ness1 is sometimes inh]it$4 ,! fa!r ( ,magi/us 0 a sc(f] & s5suali/4 ,fatal incubus ( moral de=mity desc5d+ f fa!r to son6 ,9 ?is he 0 typical ( ! age4 ,! h]$it>y pressure t[>d hell 0 s great1 t a few m c5turies ( transmission w\ld h br\ght ! _w into p]fect sympa?y ) ! l[] regions4 ,! adv5t ( ! ,"l arre/$ t = a :ile4 ,)\t religion or honor man is v close to hell4 ,! v]ie/ b>b>ian has "s fa9t idea ( natural religion1 & "s feeble impulse ( natural honor1 :i* di/+ui% him f ! bea/s & unite him to 8 k9d4 ,^! are b>ri]s aga9/ ! influx ( inf]nal life4 ,he is ignorant ( ! devils )9 him1 & ! devils )9 him are ignorant ( him4 ,wise & bless$ provision6 ,7 he br\ght into consci\s rapport ) 8 own att5dant evil spirits1 he w\ld soon be "o ) !m4 ,_! life 9 hell & 8 life on e>? w\ld be animat$ by ! same brea?4 ,?is _h happ5$ to ,magi/us4 ,n t he 0 a b>b>ian4 ,he 0 an educat$1 cultivat$ man1 accu/om$ to ! luxuries & full ( ! suavities ( civiliz$ life4 ,civilization & religion are n synonym\s4 ,hell itself has a /up5d\s civilization4 ,magi/us 0 a ,ph>isee by pr(ession3 a rituali/1 & a /rict obs]v] ( fea/-days & ord9ances & c]emonies4 ,t1 h[ev]1 0 n ! man1 b only 8 out] g>m5t--8 cloak4 ,suppos$ by ! _w to be virtu\s & hone/1 ?is weal?y & reputable ,ph>isee 0 spiritually a :it$ sepul*re1 full ( dead m5's bones & all uncleanness4 ,he 0 a spirituali/1 a sorc]]1 a necromanc]1 a magician4 ,he at fir/ s\ght & became famili> ) ^! p1 ) _! /udies & arts1 f natural curiosity4 ,x 0 v pleasant to call up 8 dead fa!r & v>i\s dead fri5ds1 & conv]se ) !m4 ,x 0 agreeable to "k t !y 7 all happy1 & advanc+ 9 v>i\s degrees t[>d ! inf9ite div9e p]fection4 ,!y %[$ him wond]ful ?+s4 ,!y p]=m$ miracles 9 8 sight great] ?an ^? :i* ! magicians ( ,egypt p]=m$ be=e ,ph>aoh4 ,!n !y told him t ! ,jewi% ,scriptures 7 n div9ely inspir$1 b a m$ley ( fables1 passable poetry & *ildi% philosophy4 ,he _h already suspect$ ?is2 & he congratulat$ ! spirits on possess+ a critical g5ius s simil> to 8 own4 ,he f9ally acquir$1 f ^! sup]natural in/ructors1 a gr& sy/em ( philosophy1 reveal+ ! div9ity ( nature & ! laws ( progress4 ,hav+ become conv9c$ t !re are great & subtile p[]s emanat+ f ! spiritual _w1 unkn[n to mo/ m51 he det]m9$ to avail himself ( ^? p[]s = 8 own private ends4 ,he became a secret pupil & disciple ( magicians & wiz>ds4 ,he communicat$ ) spirits & p]mitt$ !m to take possession ( him1 s\l & body1 s t !y spoke ?r\gh 8 m\? & wrote ?r\gh 8 h& & came at 8 call4 ,he le>n$ all ! tricks & spells ( leg]dema91 ! arts & =mulas & incantations ( magic1 & ! rites & c]emonies ( ! black art 9 its broade/ s5se4 ,he obta9$ means ( see+ objects at any di/ance1 ( produc+ halluc9ations or optical illusions1 ( p]sonat+ ! dead1 ( f9d+ hidd5 treasures1 ( read+ m5's ?\ghts1 ( s[+ enmity betwe5 fri5ds1 ( discov]+ secrets1 & a ?\s& o!r a/\nd+ & almo/ incr$ible ?+s4 ,! s\l is n de/roy$ 9 a mom5t3 x is ! "w ( ye>s4 ,! evil spirits & demons ) :om he 0 ?us br\ght into contact1 sl[ly poison$ ! f\nta9-head ( "*2 ext+ui%$ 8 rev]5ce1 8 mode/y1 8 respect = m>riage2 und]m9$ 8 consci5ce2 swept away all religi\s & ev5 social & civil scruples2 & fir$ & su/a9$ all 8 evil prop5sities2 s t1 ext]nally a fai?ful disciple ( ,moses1 he 0 int]iorly a devil1 gov]n$ only by ! love ( self & ! _w4 ,?is =midable hypocrite1 ! mo/ ( ^: weal? _h be5 obta9$ by secret frauds1 & 0 n un/a9$ ) blood1 _h 8 dwell+ 9 ! c5tre ( an imm5se area surr\nd$ by l(ty walls & conceal$ by a d5se grove ( trees4 ,he receiv$ no visitors b ^? :o came to him at night1 & = no good purpose4 ,he _h ! "* ( a recluse1 devot$ to sacrifice & pray]4 ,he ?us indulg$ 8 secret vices & c>ri$ on 8 diabolical incantations unsuspect$4 ,! d>k %ad[s ( 8 pr9cely mansion envelop$ a degree ( ,assyrian luxury sc>cely exce$$ by ! ,caprean c\rt ( ! emp]or ,tib]ius4 ,caiaphas1 ! prie/1 0 8 be/ fri5d1 :o %>$ 8 private pleasures & ma9ta9$ by con/ant applause 8 public reputation = sanctity & honor4 ,! influ5ce ( evil spirits :o possess u is at fir/ g5tle & subtile1 co9cid+ ) our own incl9ation4 ,?9k+ to lead1 we are l$4 ,:5 a man is *a9$ s t he c no long] resi/1 !y urge him headlong to a crisis4 ,!y fire 8 evil passions2 !y bl9d 8 p]v]t$ intellect2 !y inflate 8 pride & self-conceit2 !y make him scornful & reg>dless ( o!rs1 impati5t ( all b>ri]s to 8 self-gratification1 & assure him ( b\ndless immunity & protection4 ,9 ?is /ate ( horrible fantasy & inflam$ passion1 he is ready to trample ^u all laws human & div9e4 ,to ?is fe>ful po9t 9 8 spiritual life _h ,magi/us arriv$4 ,:5 my fa!r 0 driv5 into ! wild]ness1 ,caiaphas & my uncle plott$ toge!r h[ to get spe$y & sole possession ( 8 great weal?4 ,to get rid ( or de/roy 8 *ildr5 0 ! fir/1 &1 inde$1 ! only ?+ necess>y4 ,b !y resolv$ to all[ "s mon?s to elapse--to let our mis=tunes die out f ! public memory1 & ev5 ourselves be q =gott54 ,h5ce ! seclusion1 ! solitude1 ! sy/ematic neglect to :i* we 7 subject$4 ,! plan 0 f9ally matur$4 ,! boy 0 to be decoy$ into ! wild]ness & murd]$ by ,b>abbas4 ,x 0 to be giv5 out t he 0 a wild1 incorrigible lad1 :o _h run away f home & jo9$ a b& ( robb]s4 ,aft] a few mon?s a lett] 0 to be receiv$ f ,b>abbas1 ^: fame z an outlaw 0 widespread1 giv+ ! p>ticul>s ( 8 dea? 9 an attack ( ! p>ty ^u "s c>avan4 ,?is 0 to settle ! matt] = ev] 9 ! public m9d4 ,x 0 m difficult to dispose ( my si/]s ?an ( myself4 ,a hundr$ s*emes 7 sugge/$ by ! inv5tive villa9s1 b all reject$ or susp5d$4 ,x 0 f9ally agre$ to draw !m out & te/ _! *>act]s1 to make exp]im5ts ^u !m1 to see :at c\ld be done ) !m4 ,x 0 a delicate task2 b ,magi/us _h boldness & cruelty = any?+1 & ,caiaphas 0 to back him incessantly ) 8 private c\nsel & 8 public support4 ,he _h already begun 8 insidi\s "w1 by lam5t+ to sundry influ5tial p]sons1 ) sanctimoni\s regrets1 t ! daught]s ( 8 old & de> fri5d exhibit$ s e>ly a s+ul> p]v]s5ess ( "* & disreg>d ( _! social & religi\s obligations4 ,! result1 he add$1 ( t laxity ( discipl9e & passion = individual lib]ty1 :i* *>act]iz$ ! unhappy lep]4 ,! fir/ & be/ in/rum5t ( evil is always a woman4 ,m>y ,magdal51 left an orphan )\t relatives at a v e>ly age1 _h fall5 into ! h&s ( a /roll+ %[man1 :o taught h] to s+ & dance1 accompany+ h]self on ! timbrel4 ,h] extraord9>y beauty attract$ att5tion 9 ! /reets ( ,j]usalem1 & %e soon pass$ into ! possession ( "o ( ^? connoisseurs :o /udy ! anatomy z well z ! philosophy ( art4 ,%e quickly disappe>$ f sight2 & x 0 rumor$ t %e _h be5 s5t to ,a%kelon to s]ve 9 ! gorge\s temple ( ,a%tore?1 ! ,v5us ( ,assyria4 ,%e _h gone "o d>k night no fur!r ?an ,be?any1 & _h buri$ h] tal5ts & h] %ame 9 ! pr9cely mansion ( ,magi/us4 ,on ! morn+ ( my dep>ture ?is s]p5t 0 introduc$ into ! dove-cote4 ,magi/us repres5t$ h] z a di/ant relative :om he _h invit$ to sp5d sev]al weeks ) 8 nieces1 hop+ t h] gayety ( spirits w\ld light5 ! con/ant gloom ( 8 little *>ges4 ,! *ildr51 dazzl$ by h] great beauty & won by h] free & affectionate mann]1 7 delight$ ) _! new companion4 ,%e ent]ta9$ !m ) curi\s /ories ( :at %e _h se5 & he>d1 refra9+ f any allusion :i* might reveal h] true life & "*4 ,b ! plot ( ! two ar*-demons did n "w z !y _h calculat$4 ,inde$1 x work$ 9 a way q opposite to _! expectations4 ,!y _h c\nt$ on ! corrupt+ influ5ce ( a bold1 fasc9at+ woman on ! g5tle & unsophi/icat$ ?\ghts & feel+s ( innoc5t girls4 ,!y _h n c\nt$1 cunn+ & sagaci\s z !y 71 on ! possible influ5ce ( ! girls ^u ,m>y ,magdal54 ,t influ5ce 0 a/oni%+4 ,:5 %e felt ! pure & innoc5t sph]e :i* surr\nd$ ! lovely si/]s1 a *ange came ov] ! subtle emiss>y ( ,magi/us4 ,%e =got ! in/ructions ( h] ma/]s4 ,! memories ( h] old life seem$ to die out1 & ! unse5 angels ( h] bett] nature to wake into /range activity4 ,"y h]self1 m s9n$ aga9/ ?an s9n+1 h] pity 0 awak5$ = ^! "y creatures aga9/ :om su* wick$ ones 7 conspir+4 ,%e made !m tell h] all ab\t _! poor fa!r1 & wept ) !m at ! /ory4 ,%e took !m into ! g>d5 & play$ ov] ! gre5 knolls1 & ran 9 ! gravel$ walks1 & ga!r$ fl[]s1 & sang little *ildi% songs1 z if %e 7 a *ild aga94 ,%e ask$ a ?\s& que/ions ab\t our "m & little ,samuel1 & ab\t ! babyi% say+s & do+s ( my little si/]s & myself4 ,%e frequ5tly exclaim$ 8,oh1 ,i am s happy6 ,?is is ! happie/ day ( my life6 ,oh t ,i c\ld live = ev] s60 ,paus+ be=e ! tomb ( my "m1 & look+ at a little vase ( fre% fl[]s :i* /ood be=e x1 %e sudd5ly fell ^u h] knees1 exclaim+ wildly3 8,o ,god6 if ,i c\ld h (f]$ fl[]s1 also1 at ! tomb ( a "m1 x might h be5 diff]5t60 ,%e bur/ into a flood ( te>s2 & ! si/]s endeavor$ to console h]--n kn[+ ! true nature ( h] w\nd--by kiss+ h] *eeks & m+l+ _! te>s ) h]s4 ,!y 7 int]rupt$ 9 ^! sweet (fices ( mutual sympa?y1 by ! voice ( a s]vant ask+ ,m>y ,magdal5 if %e _h =gott5 t %e _h to prep>e h]self & h] companions = ! gr& supp] at ! h\se ( ,magi/us4 ,%e arose f ! gr\nd1 & sl[ly recov]+ h] composure1 l$ ! a/oni%$ *ildr5 ?r\gh ! gate 9 ! g>d5 wall t[>d ! h\se ( our uncle4 ,on ! way %e told !m t ,magi/us _h prep>$ a h&some ent]ta9m5t = h]self & !m1 & z a *>m+ surprise to _! bro!r1 :o 0 expect$ to return ) good news f ! fa!r j ab\t ! h\r ( ! fea/4 ,!y ne$ n be fright5$1 = ,caiaphas alone 0 to be pres5t4 ,we _h nev] ent]$ any portion ( our uncle's great mansion except ! small w+ :i* conta9$ ! reception-room & ! long passage :i* l$ to ! private *amb] ( our invalid aunt4 ,! ?ree wom5 n[ pass$ up a flight ( m>ble /eps into a portico lead+ into a va/ hall1 ornam5t$ ) /atues & ) vases fill$ ) fl[]s4 ,hurry+ ?r\gh ?is hall1 ,m>y lead !m up ano!r flight ( /airs :i* _h a gild$ balu/rade1 into two exquisite b$-*amb]s :i* op5$ into ea* o!r4 ,! b$/eads 7 ( c>v$ ivory1 exce$+ly beautiful2 ! canopies1 ( blue silk fr+$ ) gold2 ! cov]lets1 ( f9e l95 & purple1 curi\sly embroid]$4 ,! divans1 ! c\*es1 ! *airs1 ! tables1 7 all gems ( graceful art4 ,! floor 0 ( poli%$ c$>1 ) gild$ m\ld+ ar\nd ! wall4 ,! ceil+ 0 a spl5did /ucco-"w on :i* sc5es 7 pa9t$ 9 brilliant colors2 9 "o room1 ,acton peep+ f beh9d ! trees at ,diana & h] nymphs 9 _! cry/al ba?2 & 9 ! o!r1 ,v5us beat+ h] brea/ & te>+ h] hair at sight ( ! blood-/a9$ ?igh ( ,adonis4 ,! :ole atmosph]e 0 freight$ ) ! mo/ delici\s & exhil>at+ p]fumes4 ,!re 7 *e/s ( draw]s full ( ! ri*e/ female clo?+1 ! fruit ( ! r>e/ mat]ial & ! f9e/ ne$lework4 ,!re 7 caskets ly+ op5 & reveal+ e>-r+s & necklaces & bracelets ( ! mo/ dazzl+ beauty4 ,! si/]s 7 ov]:elm$ ) wond] & delight4 ,!y _h nev] se5 su* ?+s be=e2 = our fa!r1 ri* z he 01 0 pla91 frugal & uno/5tati\s 9 8 ta/es & habits4 8,^! are all ours10 said ,m>y ,magdal51 8! gifts ( our good uncle :o delights to make u happy4 ,come1 let u dress = ! supp]40 ,dome/ics came at h] call1 & ! ladies 7 attir$ 9 robes ( ! greate/ magnific5ce4 ,_! hair 0 dress$ 9 ! mo/ graceful mann]1 sp>kl+ ) alt]nate fl[]s & gems4 8,all ?is is = ,laz>us10 said ! si/]s to ea* o!r1 z !y foll[$ ,m>y ,magdal51 blu%+ at !mselves1 d[n into ! supp]-room 9 a deep basem5t almo/ "u gr\nd4 ,! supp]-room 0 z gorge\sly furni%$ z ! b$-*amb]s4 ,! table 0 plac$ on a rais$ plat=m at "o end ( ! room1 leav+ a great space = :i* our bewild]$ visitors c\ld n imag9e ! use4 ,! ceil+ _h a spl5did pa9t+ ( ,aurora driv+ ! *>iot ( ! sun1 att5d$ by ! ,muses & ! fly+ ,h\rs4 ,! walls 7 adorn$ ) solid upright mirrors ( poli%$ brass4 ,9 e ni*e & corn] 0 "s exquisite m>ble1 "s nude figure f ! ,grecian my?ology2 ! mo/ beautiful ( :i* 0 ,l$a c>ess+ ! swan1 conceal+ )9 its :ite =m ! passionate s\l ( ,jove4 ,caiaphas & ,magi/us recl9$ ^u silk5 c\*es at a table :i* 0 load$ ) savory vi&s & vessels ( gold & silv] conta9+ delici\s w9es1 & ornam5t$ ) brilliant vases ( fruits & fl[]s4 ,! sc5e 0 light$ by hundr$s ( wax c&les ( z _m colors z ! ra9b[4 ,z soon z ! wom5 7 h&$ to _! places at ! table1 ,m>?a exclaim$3 8,& :y c\ld n poor aunt ,ulema be br\ght d[n to enjoy ?is *>m+ fea/80 ,& ,m>y add$3 8,& ,laz>us1 :]e is he80 ,ulema & ,laz>us 7 ! la/ p]sons 9 ! _w :om ! ho/ w\ld h invit$ to 8 banquet4 ,he paid no att5tion to ,m>?a's "q4 ,to ,m>y's he repli$ by draw+ a p>*m5t f 8 bosom4 8,li/560 said he2 8a lett] f ,laz>us60 ,! faces ( ! "y girls grew anxi\s4 8,,de> ,,uncle3 8,excuse me = sp5d+ ! night ) my fa!r4 ,he is bett]1 happy & well provid$4 ,b ,i h _m ?+s to say to him1 & my visit has giv5 him s mu* pleasure4 ,i "k ,i mu/ submit on my return to ! law ( purification1 :i* w sep>ate me _m days f my sweet si/]s4 ,take !m to y\r own h\se & make !m happy4 ,i w return to-morr[4 8,y\r lov+ nephew1 8,,laz>us40 ,magi/us look$ up3 ! si/]s 7 weep+4 8,i 0 half angry at fir/10 he said1 8at ?is /range disob$i5ce4 ,on reflection1 ,i am satisfi$4 ,x conf]s imm5se happ9ess on bo? fa!r & son2 & _! consultations may be ( great s]vice to y all4 ,&1 besides1 x gives me su* a good opportunity to become bett] acqua9t$ ) my *>m+ nieces40 ,he pass$ ! manuscript to my si/]s1 :o inspect$ x closely4 ,x 0 my h&writ+ )\t d\bt4 ,! read] ne$ n be told t x 0 a base =g]y2 = at t v mom5t my poor fa!r 0 ill 9 ! cave ( ,john ! ,bapti/1 & ,i 0 b\nd 9 expectation ( dea? on ! %ore ( ! ,salt ,sea4 ,my si/]s appe>$ to resume _! composure & ! fea/ proce$$1 al?\gh !y p>took v lightly ( its delicacies4 ,musicians came 91 & ! h>p1 ! timbrel1 ! flute1 ! cymbals1 ! drum1 & ! silv] bugle enliv5$ ! ent]ta9m5t4 ,caiaphas & ,magi/us grew w>m & witty & convivial ov] _! w9e1 :i* !y press$ 9 va9 ^u ! timid girls4 ,ev5 ,m>y ,magdal5 m]ely sipp$ x 9 def]5ce to bo? p>ties4 ,:at a delicate !rmomet] is ! he>t ( a "y girl6 ,)\t ?9k+1 h[ innoc5t6 ,)\t reason+1 h[ wise6 ,a ?\ghtful %ad[ crept ov] ,m>?a's face4 ,m>y sank into a deep rev]ie1 f :i* ! playful sallies ( ! re/ c\ld n ar\se h]4 ,^! "y girls 7 ?9k+1 & _! ?\ghts ran 9 ! same *annel4 ,! sudd5 *ange ( ,magi/us f indiff]5ce to suavity2 ?is gorge\s & seclud$ fea/2 ,laz>us & 8 fa!r away (f 9 ! wild]ness2 _! poor aunt %ut up 9 h] sick *amb]2 ?is /range woman :o wept s bitt]ly 9 ! g>d53 ^! pagan pictures & /atues s revolt+ to _! *a/e religi\s in/9cts3 ! lights2 ! music2 ! noisy laught] ( ^! usually s$ate m52 all ^! ?+s ov]:elm$ !m ) sudd5 appreh5sions & vague t]ror4 ,ea* div9$ ! feel+s ( ! o!r by "s secret sympa?y2 & bur/+ into te>s at ! same mom5t1 !y bo? rose f _! seats4 8,/ay60 exclaim$ ,magi/us1 n\ri%+ 8 w9e-cup & madd5$ by its cont5ts--8,/ay6 y lose ! cream & ess5ce ( ! fea/4 ,i w %[ y n[ h[ ! danc+-girls ( ,babylon intoxicate ! k+ ( ,assyria40 ,at ^! words !y fl$ f ! room4 8,foll[ !m10 said ,caiaphas to ,m>y ,magdal51 8& quiet _! appreh5sions40 8,put y\r babies to b$10 ro>$ ,magi/us1 8& come back y\rself40 ,i w n describe ! new p>ties :o 7 introduc$ to ! fea/1 nor h[ x deg5]at$ into a revel1 & ! revel into an orgy4 ,m>y ,magdal5 did n return to ! supp]-room2 & long aft] midnight ! drunk5 ma/] ( ! h\se 0 borne (f to a sleep f :i* he ought nev] to h awak5$1 & to dreams ( conque/s :i* he nev] a*iev$4 ,! %ad[ ( o!r sph]es m p[]ful ?an 8 own1 0 already approa*+ to ?w>t 8 plans & *ange 8 de/9y6 ,an h\r aft] all 0 quiet1 a /range s\nd 0 made at ! back gate 9 ! wall ne>e/ ! lodg+-rooms ( ! dome/ics ( ! e/abli%m5t4 ,x 0 a d\ble s\nd2 ! fir/ "p ( x be+ a l\d & peculi> :i/le1 ! la/ "p a p[]ful & />tl+ hiss or rattle4 ,! fir/ s\nd seem$ to summon "s "o to appe>2 ! second1 to ?reat5 him if he did n obey4 ,! fir/ 0 a call2 ! second a m5ace4 ,!re 0 "o p]son on ! premises1 & only "o1 :o knew ! full mean+ ( t /range summons4 ,he trembl$ on 8 c\* :5 he he>d x4 ,great drops ( sweat came out on 8 =ehead z he li/5$4 ,he /rove to rise z if to obey x1 b fell back z if p>alyz$ ) fe>4 ,! call 0 twice repeat$ ) a weird f]ocity 9 its tone2 & ! black eunu*1 ,e?opus1 /agg]$ f 8 *amb] & grop$ 8 way into ! op5 air & to ! gate4 ,he op5$ x s(tly ) a private key1 & /epp$ into ! /reet4 ,d n m51 l mo?s1 fly sometimes /upidly into ! c&le ( dang]8 ,a rem>kable vehicle1 drawn by two great black horses & driv5 by a hide\s black s]vant1 /ood 9 ! /reet4 ,x 0 %[ily gild$1 & _h sev]al little doors & w9d[s 9 x4 ,x resembl$ ! *>iots on :i* m\ntebanks & juggl]s p]ambulat$ ! c\ntry1 b 0 ( l>g] size & m ta/efully con/ruct$4 ,e?opus paid no att5tion to ?is equipage4 ,"r be=e him /ood an object capable ( inspir+ him ) ! deepe/ horror4 ,x 0 a tall figure ) a huge yell[ s]p5t coil$ ab\t 8 neck & body1 & a leop>d /&+ quietly at 8 side4 ,! leop>d gr[l$ & ! s]p5t hiss$ z ! black man approa*$ _! ma/]4 8,be quiet1 ,molo*60 he said to ! leop>d4 8,hu%1 ,beelzebub10 he :isp]$ to ! snake4 8,?is is a fri5d & fell[-s]vant40 ,! poor black pro/rat$ himself 9 ! du/ be=e ?is my/]i\s night-visitor & 8 be/ial att5dants4 ,he signifi$ 8 total submission by rais+ ! man's foot & plac+ x on 8 head z he grovel$ on ! gr\nd4 ,:5 he releas$ x1 he kiss$ x ) ! mo/ abject s]vility4 ,8 abasem5t 0 extreme4 8,t is "r1 ,e?opus60 said 8 ma/]1 8t is "r4 ,i rejoice to f9d y 9 su* a becom+ frame ( m9d4 ,conduct me promptly to ! secret *amb] ( magic4 ,!n return to my s]vant & give him suitable accommodations4 ,in=m ,magi/us ( my arrival e>ly 9 ! morn+4 ,i h come on a gr& err& to ?is village ( ,be?any40 ,e?opus obey$ ^! ord]s )\t noise4 ,all 0 at l5g? sil5t4 ,p]haps all slept3 ! drunk5 proprietor1 ! wick$ prie/1 ! remorseful ,magdal51 ! fright5$ eunu*1 ! /range gue/1 & ,m>y & ,m>?a lock$ 9 ea* o!r's arms1 _! beautiful faces ba!d 9 te>s1 & _! sweet s\ls dream+ t _! angel-"m 0 wat*+ !m f heav54 ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,,vi4 ,,! ,,*amb] ,,( ,,magic4 ,illu/ration3 ,initial ,!re are few sights m t\*+ ?an t ( a man /ruck spee*less 9 ! c\rse ( disease1 yet reta9+ 8 m5tal faculties4 ,dea? p]haps approa*es2 weighty bus9ess presses on 8 m9d2 solemn secrets dem& revelation2 confessions ( s\l /ruggle = utt]ance4 ,he makes in>ticulate s\nds1 incompreh5sible ge/ures4 ,he wri!s2 he moans ) ! burd5 ( ?\ghts he _c express4 ,8 eyes speak & plead ) a mute eloqu5ce4 ,8 ideas play ^u 8 c\nt5ance l lamb5t lightn+1 b die away1 voiceless1 indef9ite1 unreveal$4 ,su* 0 ! /ate ( ,e?opus1 ! dumb eunu*1 ! day aft] ! trea*]\s banquet4 ,!re 0 a great solitude ab\t ! h\se2 = ,magi/us1 ,caiaphas1 & ,simon ,magus ! magician1 made an e>ly & prolong$ visit to ,j]usalem4 ,m>y ,magdal5 took ! si/]s ov] ! beautiful & ext5sive gr\nds1 & paid ano!r visit to ! tomb ( our "m1 c>ry+ "s exquisite fl[]s 9 h] own h& z a little (f]+ to ! mat]nal %ade4 ,e?opus flitt$ ab\t "h & !re 9 a /ate ( unacc\ntable excitem5t4 ,he foll[$ ! si/]s all day at a respectful di/ance2 & :5 8 duties call$ him (f imp]atively1 he w5t precipitately ab\t ev]y?+ until he c\ld assure himself aga9 t !y 7 free & out ( dang]4 8,e?opus has some?+ extraord9>y on 8 m9d10 said ,m>?a1 to h]self2 b %e did n communicate h] obs]vation to h] timor\s & s5sitive si/]4 ,! case 0 evid5tly ?is3 ,e?opus _h discov]$ ! plot ( ,magi/us aga9/ u all1 & he felt c]ta9 t ! arrival ( ! magician bod$ no good4 ,he 0 /ruggl+ betwe5 8 dis9t]e/$ affection = u & 8 int5se fe> ( 8 wick$ ma/]s4 ,he felt 8 own weakness1 increas$ by 8 inability to speak2 & he 0 labor+ to devise "s plan by :i* ! si/]s c\ld be br\ght to %>e 8 k1 & to conc]t measures ( escape f "s imp5d+ cata/rophe4 ,he seem$ to div9e t ,m>?a 0 m ?\ghtful1 c\rage\s & tru/wor?y ?an h] si/]4 ,x 0 late 9 ! aft]noon :5 he made h] a signal1 se5 by h]self alone1 to foll[ him4 ,%e und]/ood 8 mean+1 & contriv$ to )draw )\t excit+ ! suspicion ( h] companions4 ,e?opus conduct$ h] to ! *amb] ( ,ulema4 ,sc>cely giv+ h] "t to ex*ange kisses ) h] aunt1 he pu%$ h] into a little recess 9 ! wall :i* 0 conceal$ by a hang+ curta94 ,betwe5 ! folds ( ?is1 ,m>?a c\ld peep cauti\sly into ! room4 ,9 a few mom5ts ,magi/us ent]$4 ,he seem$ hurri$ & flu/]$1 & _h a d>k fr[n ^u 8 br[4 8,no message f ,b>abbas to-day4 ,some?+ has gone wrong4 ,put ?is woman to sleep imm$iately40 ,e?opus adju/$ a l>ge mirror ( poli%$ metal on a table4 ,ulema arose f h] c\* )\t speak+ a ^w1 & seat$ h]self 9 a *air ab\t f\r feet 9 front ( ! mirror & gaz$ /eadfa/ly into x4 ,magi/us /ood a little "o side1 & made rapid passes ) 8 h&s & arms f h] head to h] feet1 ne>ly t\*+ h] body4 ,8 black eyes 7 fix$ fi]cely ^u h] face1 & 8 heavy brea?+ c\ld be he>d by ,m>?a at e pass he made4 ,!re 0 sil5ce = sev]al m9utes1 dur+ :i* ,ulema gaz$ /eadfa/ly into ! mirror4 ,m>?a c\ld n help do+ ! same2 & %e gaz$ at ! mirror until a /range1 t+l+1 bewild]$ s5sation began to creep ov] h] frame1 & %e av]t$ h] eyes to escape its magical fasc9ation4 ,! victim ( ?is s+ul> exp]im5t n[ became rigid1 & made a convulsive s\nd z if 9 a sev]e spasm4 ,m>?a 0 t]ribly fright5$2 b h] aunt sudd5ly became relax$ ) a pr(\nd sigh4 ,magi/us took a long ne$le & pass$ x ?r\gh ! sk9 ( h] h&4 ,%e did n fl9*4 ,he !n put some?+ :i* seem$ to be a lock ( hair into h] palm1 & clos$ ! f+]s tightly ^u x4 8,foll[ ?is p]son10 said he1 8:]ev] he is1 & tell me :at y see40 ,! woman began1 aft] a long pause3 8,i am 9 a great wild]ness ( b>e hills full ( rocks & s&4 ,! s5se ( solitude is t]rible4 ,x is cl\dy b w9dy--& ! sun w soon %9e 9 ! we/40 8,b ! y\?8--! y\?80 cri$ ,magi/us1 impati5tly4 8,wait a mom5t4 ,! y\?8 ,i mu/ f9d him4 ,bless me6 h[ he has w&]$6 h[ _m circles6 ,ah6 !re he is6 ,i see him /ret*$ at full l5g? ^u ! gr\nd40 8,t is good60 said ,magi/us eag]ly2 8t is good4 ,he lies dead ^u ! gr\nd4 ,g on40 8,he is n dead10 said ! oracle sl[ly2 88 he>t /ill beats3 he sleeps40 8,n dead80 scree*$ ! old man1 8:at say y1 n dead8 ,is he n w\nd$8 ,is he n /abb$8 ,is he n ble$+80 he cont9u$ 9 ! highe/ excitem5t4 8,no60 said ! woman calmly2 8he is n dead1 he sleeps40 8,d y see no ga%es ^u 8 body80 8,no1 ,i see only a bright new dagg]40 8,furies60 exclaim$ ,magi/us2 8he has escap$ me4 ,i h be5 deceiv$40 ,turn+ sudd5ly ^u ! woman1 he seiz$ h] by ! ?roat3 8,d y tell me ! tru?80 8,i tell y :at ,i see4 ,i fabricate no?+4 ,i am n[ attract$ ar\nd ! hill4 ,ah6 ,i see a "y man ) ! face ( an angel com+ =? f a cave4 ,he s+s4 ,oh h[ sweetly he s+s60 8,angels & devils60 ro>$ ,magi/us2 8y h se5 or report$ falsely40 ,) t he seem$ ov]:elm$ by a p>oxysm ( rage1 & began beat+ ! poor woman viol5tly ab\t ! head & arms ) a black rod he took f ! table4 ,%e made no resi/ance1 & did n seem to feel ! bl[s4 ,e?opus rais$ 8 h&s deprecat+ly1 & ,m>?a 0 ab\t to cry out f h] place ( concealm5t1 :5 a l[1 fi]ce gr[l1 f und]nea? ! floor app>5tly1 />tl$ all ( !m b ,ulema1 :o he>d x n4 ,simon ,magus 0 fe$+ 8 leop>d4 8,! ,ma/] has return$10 said my uncle1 8,i w consult him imm$iately4 ,he may deliv] me f ?is difficulty40 ,he left ! room4 ,e?opus made rapid passes f h] knees upw>d1 & ,ulema awoke4 ,%e rubb$ h] h&s & eyes1 look$ wond]+ly ar\nd h] & exclaim$3 8,i h _h a long1 pa9ful sleep1 & ,i mu/ h se5 sad ?+s4 ,did ,i give him satisfaction80 ,e?opus %ook 8 head sadly4 8,alas60 said %e1 ) a di/ress$ & puzzl$ air1 8:5 w ?is cruel imprisonm5t cease1 & ?is /range life ( visions :i* ,i nev] rememb]80 ,m>?a n[ came =w>d & ?rew h]self weep+ ^u ! neck ( h] aunt4 ,= a long "t ^! sorr[ful wom5 ex*ang$ ^? kisses & te>s :i* are consolations4 ,!y !n unburd5$ _! he>ts to ea* o!r4 ,by que/ion+ ,e?opus & int]pret+ 8 pantomimic answ]s z well z !y c\ld1 !y le>n$ t "s secret dang]s surr\nd$ !m1 & t ,e?opus wi%$ ,m>?a to sp5d ! night 9 ! *amb] ( h] aunt4 ,m>?a ?\ght x be/ to rejo9 ,m>y imm$iately1 & expla9 to h] t ,ulema 0 q indispos$1 & get h] to sleep ) ,m>y ,magdal51 & p]mit ! old] si/] to com=t & nurse ! invalid4 ,all ( :i* 0 easily accompli%$4 ,ulema _h be5 conf9$ = ye>s 9 t little room by h] husb& z ! subject & victim ( 8 magical art4 ,%e 0 a clairvoyant ( extraord9>y p[]2 & :5 put asleep by ! %9+ mirror & ! wav+ h&s1 %e w\ld foll[ any clue giv5 h]1 & ! greate/ physical ob/acles seem$ only p5etrable %ad[s 9 ! pa? ( h] my/]i\s vision4 ,%e 0 ?us employ$ by h] husb& to advance ! s*emes ( 8 unscrupul\s _s4 ,%e 0 made to read ! ?\ghts ( o!rs1 s t ,magi/us became possess$ ( any man's or any woman's secret life :5ev] he *ose4 ,he obta9$ in=mation 9 ?is mann] :i* enabl$ him to make lucrative transactions 9 bus9ess1 to plot 9 ! d>k aga9/ :omsoev] he pleas$1 to de/roy ! peace ( families1 & to acquire a reputation = sup]ior & almo/ miracul\s wisdom4 ,%e _h long ceas$ to be any?+ b a m]e tool 9 h] husb&'s h&s4 ,%e 0 lock$ up & tak5 c>e ( z any o!r valuable in/rum5t w\ld h be54 ,%e 0 visit$ & inspect$ only :5 h] s]vices 7 requir$4 ,love1 sympa?y1 int]*ange ( s5tim5ts1 all ?is _h ceas$4 ,%e receiv$ no?+ f him b contempt & ?reats4 ,%e liv$ )9 he>+ ( 8 midnight revels4 ,%e bore ! ravages ( ^! ?+s 9 h] pale & te>ful face1 ) its sad & t]rifi$ expression4 ,e?opus came s(tly into ! room ab\t midnight1 & aft] _m ge/ures expressive ( ! supreme necessity ( caution & sil5ce1 he conduct$ ! two wom5 on tip-toe ?r\gh a n>r[ passage4 ,ne> ! end ( ?is he paus$1 & press+ on a secret spr+1 he discov]$ a slid+ panel 9 ! wall4 ,?is op5$ & admitt$ !m into a l>ge1 empty room4 ,?is room 0 only = ! v5tilation ( a m int]ior & seclud$ ap>tm5t4 ,a s]ies ( movable slats effect$ ! communication betwe5 ! two *amb]s4 ,! light /ream+ ?r\gh ! %utt]s %[$ t ! inn] room 0 occupi$4 ,look+ d[n ?r\gh ! ap]tures1 ) v little dang] ( be+ discov]$1 ! wom5 beheld1 six or eight feet be=e !m1 ! floor ( ! secret *amb] ( magic4 ,e?opus left !m z /eal?ily z a cat1 aft] plac+ !m 9 ! be/ position to see & he> :at 0 go+ on 9 ! d5 ( sorc]y4 ,he press$ ,m>?a's h& to 8 he>t be=e he dep>t$4 ,p]haps he wi%$ to %[ h[ deeply he felt = !m2 p]haps also to intimate h[ deeply he suff]$4 ,p]haps he ask$ = help z well z sympa?y4 ,! poor1 dumb ,african w\ld n only save !m1 if possible1 f _! subtle enemies1 b w\ld enli/ ! k & p[] ( a sup]ior race1 to effect 8 own deliv]ance f ! cru%+ ?raldom !y _h impos$ ^u him4 ,a ?\s& or two ?\s& ye>s h5ce1 magic z a sci5ce & an art w h ceas$ to exi/4 ,g5]ations unborn w enjoy ! leafage & fruit ( t sacr$ tree ( ,*ri/ianity1 ^: little se$ we h se5 plant$ 9 ! d>k gr\nd4 ,! hells n[ op5$ w be clos$2 ! sup]/itions n[ triumphant w be a my?2 ! languages n[ liv+ w be dead2 ! arts n[ fl\ri%+ w h p]i%$2 ! civilization n[ dom9ant w be a hi/oric %ad[4 ,^? :o f9d ?is manuscript & give x to ! _w1 w n be able to compreh5d ! mean+1 or to believe ! tru?1 ( ! /range ?+s ,i am go+ to relate--& yet !y are true4 ,magic1 :i* p]vades to a great] or less ext5t all nations1 & 9 "s %ape influ5ces all individuals1 _h its orig9 9 ! corruption & p]v]sion ( ! sacr$ tru?s ( religion4 ,x is ! life ( all false sy/ems1 ! voice ( _! oracles1 ! inspiration ( _! prophets1 ! p[] ( _! mighty m54 ,x 0 ! m$ium by :i* evil spirits took possession ( _! victims4 ,x is ! falsity :i* antagonizes tru?2 ! d>kness opposite to light2 ! hell array$ aga9/ heav54 ,to be "u magical influ5ce1 is to be assault$1 betray$1 possess$1 gov]n$1 by demons4 ,simon ,magus1 :o believ$ himself att5d$ by ,molo* & ,beelzebub1 two pr9ces ( hell1 "u ! respective =ms ( a leop>d & a s]p5t1 0 ! mo/ rem>kable sorc]] 9 ! "t ( ,*ri/4 ,he 0 a ,sam>itan by bir?1 b _h sp5t 8 y\? 9 ,egypt1 :]e he became addict$ to ! black art1 & ?or\ghly conv]sant ) all its my/]ies4 ,he 0 suppos$ by mo/ m5 to be an ,egyptian1 & he took no pa9s to correct ! mi/ake4 ,he 0 a man ( unque/ionable g5ius & b\ndless ambition4 ,he 0 ( maje/ic pres5ce1 b5d+ weak] spirits easily to 8 w4 ,he 0 brave to desp]ation1 & eloqu5t z if he _h be5 f$ 9 8 y\? by ! bees ( ,attica4 ,he 0 ! secret *ief & lead] ( ?\s&s ( p]sons addict$ to magic 9 diff]5t c\ntries4 ,8 ^w 0 reg>d$ z law2 8 p[] z irresi/ible2 8 wisdom z inscrutable4 ,magicians g5]ally resort$ to remote caves & des]t$ ru9s = _! rites & incantations4 ,_m ( ! mo/ spl5did temples1 h[ev]1 ( ! pagan religions1 _h private *amb]s devot$ to _! use4 ,s also did ! palaces ( _m k+s1 & ! pr9cely mansions ( weal?y & p[]ful m54 ,! magicians ( ,j]usalem & its neighborhood _h a secret c\ncil-room 9 ! quiet h\se ( ,magi/us1 9 :i* !y held _! inf]nal conclave at e visit ( ! ,ma/]4 ,! two wom5 peep$ cauti\sly into ?is *amb] ( my/]y4 ,! floor & ! ceil+ 7 bo? cov]$ ) black clo?1 ! latt] hav+ a great _m />s flam+ ^u x 9 imitation ( night4 ,?r\gh !m a va/ comet trail$ its fi]y =m4 ,! walls 7 pa9t$ ) figures ( ! mo/ disgu/+ objects :i* creep on ! e>?1 or fly 9 ! air1 or swim 9 ! sea4 ,"s ( ^! figures _h ! heads ( m5 & wom53 o!rs _h ! heads ( mon/]s atta*$ to nak$ bodies 9 ! human %ape4 ,on a rais$ plat=m ( black m>ble1 & 9 a great arm-*air cov]$ ) crimson silk1 sat ,simon ,magus1 we>+ a :ite robe ( dazzl+ lu/re1 a leop>d sk9 loosely ?r[n ov] 8 %\ld]s1 & a gilt cr[n surm\nt$ by an eagle ) outspread w+s4 ,he wore also a massive gold *a9 ar\nd 8 neck1 f :i* 0 susp5d$ a little sapphire image1 :i* 0 suppos$ to guide ! ,egyptian prie/ to ! tru?1 z ! brea/-plate ( preci\s /ones did ! ,jew4 ,! %ort black hair ( ,simon ,magus curl$ close to 8 head1 & he _h no be>d aft] ! fa%ion ( 8 adopt$ c\ntry4 ,8 =ehead 0 :ite z pe>l & bo? wide & l(ty4 ,8 eyes 7 l>ge & brilliant4 ,8 :ole face 0 illum9$ by ! gr& fires ( intellect & passion4 ,8 expression 0 too pr\d to be pleas+1 too fi]ce to be beautiful4 ,he 0 a man to /r5g!n ! he>t ( 8 fri5ds1 & to make 8 enemies tremble4 ,a l>ge black table 0 be=e him1 brilliantly pa9t$ ) ! signs ( ! zodiac4 ,9 ! c5tre ( x /ood an image or idol made ( black /one or ebony1 hav+ ! head ( a man1 ! brea/ & =e-feet ( a lion1 & ! h9d qu>t]s ( a goat4 ,! s]p5t 0 coil$ on ! plat=m at 8 "r h&2 ! leop>d cr\*$ at 8 left4 ,a spl5did globe ( cry/al hung f ! ceil+ con/itut+ a lamp1 burn+ p]fum$ oil & %$d+ a rose-color$ light ov] ! sc5e4 ,9 ?is my/ic & =midable pres5ce /ood twelve or fifte5 m5 ) b[$ heads1 d[n-hang+ h&s1 & attitudes ( ! deepe/ humility4 ,! wom5 recogniz$ only ! faces ( ,magi/us & ,caiaphas4 ,! =m] /ood ne>e/ to ! table4 ,simon 0 address+ !m 9 t]ms ( reproa*ful eloqu5ce3 8,y h made no progress 9 our sublime my/]ies dur+ ! pa/ ye>4 ,y h acquir$ no new p[]s ov] ! spiritual _w4 ,y h n ev5 giv5 me in=mation ( ! lea/ importance4 ,alas6 y are devoid ( g5u9e ambition1 )\t :i* :oev] deals ) spirits becomes a slave & n a ma/]40 ,8 voice became m sonor\s & 8 eye m scornful z he w>m$ ) 8 subject3 8,y\r ta/es1 y\r "*1 y\r life1 are l[ & vulg> & s5sual4 ,y employ ! p[]s ( magic = paltry & contemptible ends4 ,to obta9 reputation = cunn+ & =esight2 to get good b>ga9s out ( y\r neighbors2 to *eat "s wid[ out ( h] prop]ty2 to f9d /ol5 or buri$ treasure & appropriate x to y\rselves2 to pry into ! secrets ( m5's b$-rooms & /ore-rooms & kit*5s2 to s$uce silly maid5s2 to create tr\ble betwe5 husb&s & wives2 to inflict all k9ds ( petty & scurvy rev5ges ^u y\r enemies1--t is all y d ) our v5]able & awful art4 ,! gr&] de/9y :i* awaits u all by ! developm5t & c5tralization ( our p[]s1 y\r vulg> passions d n p]mit y to see or to appreciate4 8,my example has be5 almo/ 9 va94 ,my _s ( self-sacrifice 9 a*iev+ my l(ty ends1 is a my/]y to y\r sluggi% & ignoble s\ls4 ,i h endur$ hung] & ?ir/ & wakefulness & nak$ness & heat & cold & solitude & plagues & w\nds = ma/]y 9 ! great pa? ,i h *os54 ,i h trav]s$ ! _w f ! froz5 seas to ! *asms ( torrid heat4 ,i h cont5d$ ) wild bea/s & ) _! gu>dians1 ! great spirits1 by l& & wat]4 ,i h conqu]$ ! s]p5t & ! leop>d4 ,! vulture lights on my %\ld] l a sp>r[2 ! lion cr\*es at my feet l a dog4 ,ar*-demons come at my bidd+1 & hundr$s ( less] spirits sw>m at ! signal ( my curse40 ,he became viol5tly excit$2 8 eyeballs gl>$ ar\nd 9 fr5zy1 & he cont9u$ 9 a fi]ce :isp]3 8,x w\ld freeze y\r c[>dly s\ls only to he> ! spells1 ! incantations1 ! blasphemies ,i employ$2 ! wat*+s1 ! tortures1 ! combats1 ,i endur$1 be=e ,i br\ght ,molo* & ,beelzebub into subjection to my w4 ,see !re1 h[ ,i h burn$ _! names into my fle% ) p5cils ( iron heat$ to :it5ess60 ,he turn$ back ! sleeves ( 8 robe f 8 :ite arms1 & held !m out4 ,^u "o arm 9 great r$ lett]s 0 ! ^w ,molo*1 on ! o!r ! ^w ,beelzebub4 8,x 0 dreadful6 dreadful6--b h5ce=? !y are m9e40 ,! s]p5t wri!d & protrud$ 8 tongue4 ,! leop>d %[$ 8 :ite tee?1 b dropp$ 8 yell[ head betwe5 8 paws4 8,i h told y10 he cont9u$1 scornfully1 8:at con/itutes y\r ambition4 ,n[ ,i w tell y m9e4 ,to me belongs ! glory ( hav+ organiz$ magic & associat$ magicians4 ,i f\nd !m a horde ( w&]+ hunt]s2 ,i %all make !m an invisible phalanx ( soldi]s4 ,i h m ?an two ?\s& magicians1 9 sev5 diff]5t c\ntries1 :o obey me z "o man4 ,by conc]t$ action we h obta9$ ! secret hi/ory1 ! hidd5 life ( all ! gov]nors1 consuls1 w>riors1 k+s & great m5 ?r\gh\t t va/ region4 ,i am matur+ my plans to get !m all "u my sov]eign control4 ,o!r conqu]ors op]ate f )\t1 by sword & spe> & catapult4 ,i conqu] f )91 by hope & fe> & lu/ & passion & t]ror4 ,unse51 unsuspect$1 unkn[n1 ) legions ( invisible soldi]s1 ,i %all get possession ( all _! treasures1 all _! palaces1 all _! ?rones6 8,d y n see x80 he exclaim$1 wildly1 />t+ to 8 feet4 8,! lev] :i* truly moves ! _w lies always on ! spiritual side ( our life4 ,i advance f ! "r qu>t] to my designs4 ,i %all subdue ! s\ls & bodies ( m54 ,i %all possess myself ( all !y possess4 ,i %all become emp]or ( ,rome--yea1 mon>* ( ! _w4 ,fur!r /ill3--,i %all advance f realm to realm1 f sph]e to sph]e 9 ! spiritual univ]se1 m>%al+ ar\nd me my ho/s ( conqu]+ spirits4 ,i %all pron\nce ! ,unspeakable ,"n4 ,my own "n %all become ,unspeakable60 ,:ile ! magician's imag9ation so>$ away 9 ?is flight ( b\ndless ambition1 8 =m dilat$2 a fi]ce r$ flu% came ov] 8 face2 8 eye1 fir$ ) a baleful brilliancy2 & ! maniac /ood =? ! v imp]sonation ( t ,self-,love :i* is ! mov+ & controll+ g5ius ( hell4 ,8 he>]s trembl$ at 8 words & mann]4 ,he sunk back into 8 *air & lean$ 8 br[ ^u 8 h&4 ,no "o di/urb$ 8 rev]ie4 ,all 7 spellb\nd by ! speak]'s en?usiasm4 ,aft] sev]al m9utes he rais$ 8 head & cont9u$ 9 a subdu$ tone3 8,b1 alas6 my fri5ds6 ?is glori\s dream is f> f accompli%m5t4 ,if we _h only to conqu] ! race ( m51 ! difficulties w\ld n be insup]able4 ,b our fi]ce/ fight is on ! spiritual side4 ,all are cont5d+ = ! same prizes--p[] & glory4 ,:5 we h beat5 back ! %9+ ones :om !y call angels1 our combat beg9s ) ea* o!r2 = ea* dem&s all = himself4 8,yet ,i despair n0--he add$1 aft] ano!r pause & ) a c]ta9 sadness 9 8 mann]--8,i despair n ( realiz+ my inexpressible dream4 ,i h come into possession lately ( an anci5t & wond]-work+ =mula1 :]eby ,i hope to take _m /eps =w>d4 ,li/56 8,i discov]$ by secret means only to be acquir$ 9 ,egypt1 t 9 a c]ta9 wild spot ( ! ,lybian des]t "o ( ! olde/ & greate/ cities ( ! _w 0 buri$ 9 ! s&2 a city s old t x has no hi/orical record2 a p inconceivably wick$1 9 comp>ison ) :om ! p ( ,sodom & ,gomorrah 7 *ildr5 sport+ 9 ! gold5 dawn ( innoc5ce4 ,?is city & ^! p _h be5 ov]:elm$ by ! same ,p[] :i* buri$ ! cities ( ! pla9 9 ! ,salt ,sea4 8,i f\nd ?is spot4 ,by ! aid ( spiritual p[]s ,i burr[$ my way into _! buri$ palaces & temples4 ,i exhum$ _! rema9s4 ,i made food & dr9k ( _! a%es4 ,! spirits :o accompani$ me fl$ away1 & ,i 0 left alone4 ,i bl5d$ my be+ ) t ( ! lo/ p4 ,i became a skeleton among skeletons1 a %ade among %ades4 ,i conqu]$4 ,i drew voices out ( ! sil5ce1 =ms out ( ! d>kness1 life out ( dea?4 ,i summon$ ) difficulty & dang] ! rul+ spirits ( ! p]i%$ race4 ,i ma/]$ _! ma/]4 ,i made him my slave4 ,i compell$ him to disgorge ! secrets ( ! wild]ness & ! grave4 ,i h enri*$ myself ) treasures ( k & p[]1 ( :i* no man ev5 dreams40 ,int5se excitem5t p]vad$ 8 li/5]s--fe> ( ! man & /upefaction at 8 words4 8,i w %[ y10 he cont9u$--8by a /range art ,i h acquir$1 ,i w %[ y ?is new demon :o is also "o ( ! olde/4 ,i h summon$ ?is ant$iluvian mon/] to-night4 ,he /&s be=e me face to face1 l man to man4 ,y _c he> 8 voice nor see 8 %ape2 b y %all feel 8 pres5ce & m>k 8 %ad[ on ! wall40 ,he n[ let d[n a l>ge :ite curta9 aga9/ ! wall1 to ! top ( :i* x _h be5 roll$ l a great map4 ,he resum$ 8 seat & drew =? a curi\s cup f a draw] 9 ! table4 ,x _h words & figures engrav5 ^u x4 ,he gaz$ int5tly into ! cup1 & pron\nc$ "s words 9 an unkn[n tongue4 ,a mom5t ( awful sil5ce ensu$1 e "o gaz+ /eadfa/ly at ! curta9 & he>+ ! beat+ ( 8 own he>t4 ,sudd5ly a /range1 b5umb+1 p>alyz+ s5sation invad$ ! n]ves ( all pres5t4 ,x 0 ! approa*+ sph]e ( ! ant$iluvian _s4 8,see60 said ! magician ho>sely1 8,see6 ,he comes60 ,& sure en\gh6 ,l ! %ad[ ( a man :i* ! moon makes :5 x is go+ d[n1 !re crept a %ad[ up ov] ! curta92 dim1 wav]+1 mis%ap51 :i* sl[ly settl$ into di/9ct] =m1 & /ood ) b5d$ head & sweep+ be>d1 ) tott]+ knee & out/ret*$ arms1 l a v old man ( gigantic size begg+ alms4 ,all %udd]$ at ! pres5ce ( ?is t]rific _s1 m ?an ,saul at ! ris+ ( ,samuel 9 ! cave ( ! wit* ( ,endor4 8,f ?is mo/ anci5t ar*-demon ( our art10 cont9u$ ,simon1 po9t+ to ! %ad[1 8,i h extort$ a me?od ( incantation :i* promises m p[] & glory ?an all ! comb9$ rites & amulets 9 ! _w4 ,he w confirm :at ,i say40 ,! %ad[ sl[ly turn$ its old & hide\s face t[>d ! audi5ce & made an affirmative motion ) its head4 ,x !n pass$ away f ! curta9 l ! %ad[ ( a cl\d creep+ ov] a field ( gra94 ,all brea!d m freely4 8,?is =mula w procure me a liquid ( su* pot5t magnetic virtue1 t a s+le drop ( x put into a glass ( w9e w b9d ! woman :o dr9ks x1 entirely & = ev]1 s\l & body1 to ! man :o adm9i/]s x4 ,%e w surr5d] fri5ds1 home1 "n1 fame1 ev]y?+ to 8 wi%es4 8,mis]able s5suali/s t y are10 he exclaim$1 rais+ 8 voice & confront+ 8 c[]+ audi5ce1 8! use = :i* y w\ld *iefly value ?is ine/imable secret has no attractions = me4 ,my _s looks upw>d1 n d[nw>d4 ,i scorn pleasure4 ,i love glory & p[]4 ,?r\gh woman ,i %all conqu] man4 ,woman h]self %all be ! ag5t ( transf]r+ all t husb&s1 lov]s1 bro!rs1 sons1 fri5ds possess1 to ! great magician :o %all be a god 9 h] eyes40 8,glori\s ambition60 exclaim$ ,caiaphas4 8,:5 ,i h a*iev$ ! conque/ ( ! _w10 said ! e>ne/ madman1 8,i w resign ! wom5 to y1 z a conqu]or ?r[s ! treasures ( a sack$ city to ! soldi]s :o h won him a cr[n40 8,& ! liquid80 inquir$ ,magi/us--8h[ is x to be obta9$80 8,t br\ght me hi!r f my subt]ranean palace 9 ,egypt1 :]e ,i 0 initiat$ into ! sacr$ my/]ies by ,isis h]self40 ,all e>s paid him ! /ricte/ att5tion4 8,i mu/ obta9 ! body ( a "y girl & convey x to ! buri$ city ( ! s&s1 :]e ,ja-bol-he-mo?1 :om y saw j n[1 w assi/ me 9 ! magical rites4 ,we mu/ take h] alive4 ,i h made e prep>ation4 ,i h a vehicle specially con/ruct$ = concealm5t4 ,t w convey u to ,joppa :5ce ,i h j come4 ,f !re to ,alex&ria by a vessel :i* awaits me4 ,!nce to ! ,lybian des]t40 8,& ! "y woman80 ask$ ,caiaphas4 8,%e mu/ be pure z ! sn[ ne>e/ heav53 innoc5t z ! babe t5d$ by angels3 beautiful z ,aurora :5 %e treads ! gold5 pavem5t ) h] feet ( pe>l3 lov+ z ! he>t ( ,spr+ :5 %e gives h] life to ! e>?3 holy z ! _s ( pray] :i* brea!d f ! lyre ( ,k+ ,david40 8,& :at w\ld y d ) ?is pe]less maid580 said "s "o 9 ! gr\p4 8,are y acqua9t$ ) ! processes & p[]s ( magic1 & d y ask su* a "q8 ,d y "k ! virtues ( ! du/ ( a dove's he>t8 ( ! a%es ( a vip]'s tongue8 ( ! pulv]iz$ bones ( a babe's head8 ( ! blood ( a liv+ man8 ,c y n imag9e :at subtile =ces we may extract f ! ess5ces ( a virg9 body80 8,has y\r oracle direct$ y :]e to f9d ?is wond]ful woman80 ask$ ,magi/us4 8,my pres5ce "h is a w>rant t x has4 ,t woman is a ,jewess1 ( ! tribe ( ,b5jam91 ! y\nge/ *ild1 born at ! dea? ( h] "m40 ,^! 7 ! la/ words he>d by ei!r ,ulema or ,m>?a4 ,^! affright$ wom5 _h be5 ! sil5t witnesses & auditors ( ! extraord9>y sc5e ,i h describ$4 ,) increas+ amazem5t & t]ror !y f\nd !mselves unable to /&1 & !y sank s(tly ^u ! floor4 ,:5 ! object ( ,simon's visit to ,be?any began to reveal itself1 !y trembl$ ) int5se fe>4 ,:5 ! horrible idea took di/9ct %ape 9 h] m9d1 ,m>?a _h almo/ bur/ into a wild %riek ( agony4 ,! %riek 0 ) great difficulty suppress$4 ,! t]ror & agony 7 borne 9 ^u ! "y s\l1 & %e fell into a long & fe>ful swoon :i* seem$ dea? itself4 ,aft] a long1 long "t1 :5 all 0 /ill & d>k1 ,e?opus approa*$ z s(tly z he _h dep>t$4 ,he ar\s$ ,ulema f h] trance ( grief1 & ! two bore ! unreviv+ =m ( ,m>?a back to ! *amb]4 ,%e 0 laid ^u ! b$2 & z ,e?opus pass$ out ( ! door1 ,ulema saw him by ! dim light ( ! />s lift+ 8 face & h&s e>ne/ly to heav54 ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,,vii4 ,,sav$4 ,illu/ration3 ,initial ,aft] ,m>?a came out ( h] swoon1 ! night 0 sp5t 9 consultation betwe5 ! two wom5 z to ! sure/ me?od ( av]t+ ! cata/rophe :i* imp5d$4 ,x 0 det]m9$ t ! si/]s %\ld escape f ! h\se e>ly 9 ! morn+1 & appeal = help to "s wor?y & influ5tial resid5ts ( ,be?any1 fri5ds ( my fa!r4 ,!y 7 s sure ( obta9+ succor & deliv]ance1 t !y became q *e]ful z ! sunlight broke above ! hills4 ,magi/us sudd5ly ent]$ ! room1 & _! he>ts sank )9 !m z !y notic$ ! sil5t f]ocity ( 8 c\nt5ance4 ,)\t say+ a ^w he clasp$ iron r+s ^u _! ankles & wri/s1 & *a9$ !m securely to ! b$-po/s4 ,_! te>s1 cries1 inquiries1 supplications1 7 all 9 va94 ,he took no notice ( !m :atev]1 & lock$ & bolt$ ! door beh9d !m1 leav+ !m b\nd & 9 despair4 ,a diff]5t b equally pa9ful sc5e occurr$ 9 ! *amb] ( ,m>y ,magdal54 ,m>y1 my si/]1 _h j awak5$ ) a deep sigh1 & began n>rat+ an om9\s dream :i* _h di/urb$ h] night's re/1 :5 a l\d knock 0 he>d at ! door1 & a /range voice comm&$ !m to dress & come =? imm$iately4 ,!y sprang up 9 great trepidation & obey$ ! ord]4 ,on op5+ ! door !y turn$ back into ! room ) a l\d %riek4 ,simon ,magus /ood be=e !m ) 8 s]p5t & leop>d4 ,he _h ^! creatures ab\t him almo/ con/antly4 ,x 0 to keep !m 9 good tra9+1 = 8 p]sonal protection1 to excite wond]1 to inspire awe1 & to en=ce 8 au?ority4 ,!y 7 admirable adjuvants to 8 pret5sions & p[]4 ,e "o quail$ be=e !m4 ,he assur$ ! wom5 t 8 pets %\ld n hurt !m1 if !y foll[$ him 9 sil5ce1 turn+ nei!r to ! "r nor to ! left4 ,!re 0 no alt]native b to obey4 ,he conduct$ !m to our fa!r's resid5ce ?r\gh ! g>d5s & ! gate 9 ! g>d5 wall4 ,he _h giv5 e po9t a rec5t inspection4 ,he pass$ into ! inn] c\rty>d1 & l$ !m d[n a flight ( /eps to a room 9 ! cell> us$ by two ( ! dome/ics z a b$-*amb]4 ,"h he lock$ & bolt$ !m 9 & retir$4 ,?us 7 ! si/]s secur$ )\t ! possibility ( communication or escape4 ,! conspirators took e possible precaution4 ,no "o 0 p]mitt$ to leave ! gr\nds1 or to come 9 dur+ ! day4 ,magi/us or ,simon kept ! black eunu* cont9ually 9 sight4 ,:e!r 8 agitat$ & anxi\s mann] betray$ him1 or :e!r ! magician really read 8 ?\ghts1 8 ma/]s suspect$ t ,e?opus m$itat$ a revolt aga9/ ! sn>es :i* _h fasc9at$ ! leop>d & ! s]p5t4 ,he 0 closely wat*$4 ,! situation ( ?is poor fell[ 0 v t\*+4 ,8 d>k face 0 an index ( a d>k5$ s\l1 n by evil b by ! abs5ce ( light4 ,"u 8 homely ext]ior 0 a brave & g5]\s he>t4 ,he 0 born & re>$ 9 a b>b>ic l&1 full ( /range bea/s & birds & /rang] m51 :]e ,nature h]self is wild & savage4 ,he _h be5 ! victim ( incr$ible oppression & cruelty4 ,x is wond]ful t ! la/ sp>k ( human feel+ _h n be5 trodd5 out f 8 _s4 ,x spoke well = ! native ri*ness ( ! soil :5 good se$ sprang up s luxuriantly z soon z plant$4 ,f ! day he became acqua9t$ ) my si/]s & myself1 a new life _h dawn$ ^u him4 ,fri5dly voices1 g5tle words1 k9dly looks1 sympa?iz+ de$s1 7 food & dr9k to 8 amiable & *ild-l nature4 ,8 s\l grew & exp&$ "u !m z fl[]s "u dew & sunlight4 ,s9c]e atta*m5t to u & hatr$ ( our common enemies took possession ( ! :ole man4 ,he 0 ready = any labor1 any dang]1 any sacrifice 9 our behalf4 ,imag9e ! m5tal tortures ( ?is humble & voiceless fri5d1 :5 he saw ! t]rible fate :i* 0 imp5d+ ov] u1 & f\nd himself s helpless to av]t x or to assi/ u6 ,?us pass$ away ! long1 dre>y1 gloomy day--! day ( my fa!r's fun]al4 ,x 0 sp5t by my si/]s 9 pray] & te>s & unavail+ /ruggles to escape or to make !mselves he>d4 ,m>y ,magdal5 id5tifi$ h]self ?or\ghly ) ! g5tle & innoc5t *ild ) :om %e 0 imprison$4 ,%e tax$ h] +5uity to ! utmo/ to give h] consolation & hope2 & :5 inv5tion fail$1 %e resort$ to te>s4 8,d y ev] pray to ,god80 said little ,m>y4 8,to :i* ,god80 ask$ ,m>y ,magdal54 8,:i* ,god8 ,!re is b "o ,god60 8,magi/us has ! /atues ( a doz5 gods & goddesses 9 8 h\se2 & he says t all ( !m answ] pray] :5 !y are pres5t$ ) spl5did gifts40 8,jehovah1 ! only ,god10 said ! *ild ) sweet solemnity1 8he>e? ! pray] ( ! humble & contrite he>t4 ,he he>e? ! poor & ne$y1 & lifte? up all :o are ca/ d[n40 8,h[ beautiful60 exclaim$ ,m>y ,magdal5 ) a deep sigh2 & %e fell into a pr(\nd rev]ie ) d[nca/ eyes1 :ile a solit>y te>1 ! fir/ pe>l ( g5u9e rep5tance1 trickl$ d[n h] *eek4 ,ab\t nightfall ,simon ,magus unlock$ ! door & call$ ,m>y ,magdal5 out ( ! room4 ,he clos$ ! door beh9d h]1 s t ,m>y c\ld n he> :at he said4 ,he put into h] h&s two cups ( diff]5t patt]ns conta9+ milk4 8,?is "o10 said he1 8y w give to ! *ild2 ?is y w dr9k y\rself4 ,be c>eful & n =get4 ,y\r life dep5ds ^u x4 ,if y fail to obey me1 ,i w fe$ y\r body piecemeal to my leop>d40 ,t]ror-/rick5 z well by 8 mann] z 8 words1 %e took ! cups me*anically f 8 h&s & pass$ into ! room4 ,he c>efully lock$ ! door aga94 ,bewild]$ by ?is new bl[1 %e took h] seat 9 sil5ce1 a cup 9 ea* h&4 ,%e /rove to collect h] ?\ghts4 ,poison to ,m>y or dea? to h]self6 ,t 0 ! alt]native4 ,h] nature 0 impulsive & passionate4 ,%e rea*$ h] conclusions quickly1 & %e act$ ^u !m in/antane\sly4 8,:at is my wret*$ life wor? 9 comp>ison ) h]s80 0 ! sil5t language ( h] he>t1 8,:at attraction has life = me1 poor1 guilty1 =lorn1 =sak5 ?+80 ,%e drank f ! cup int5d$ = ,m>y4 8,:at is ! matt]10 said my si/]1 :o _h notic$ h] s+ul> ab/raction & agitation4 8,:at are y dr9k+80 8,only "s milk4 ,i 0 s fright5$ by t t]rible man t ,i =got :at ,i 0 do+4 ,excuse me = dr9k+ fir/4 ,"h is a cup = y40 ,! unsuspect+ *ild drank x eag]ly1 hav+ pass$ ! :ole day suff]+ f bo? hung] & ?ir/4 ,tak5 aft] fa/+1 poisons act quickly4 ,x 0 n long be=e ,m>y ,magdal5 began to h /range swimm+s 9 ! head & b5umb+ s5sations along ! c\rse ( all h] n]ves4 ,%e felt sure t h] dea? 0 approa*+4 8,m>y10 said ! brave girl1 8:5 y are deliv]$ f ^! dang]s & y\r bro!r comes home & ,i g away1 w y rememb] me sometimes80 8,y w n g away40 8,oh yes4 ,i %all g away1 f>1 f> away40 8,y %all live ) u always10 said ,m>y4 8,i _c6 ,i _c6 ,:5 ,i am gone1 & !y tell y evil & cruel ?+s ( me1 w y ?9k ( me k9dly & love me /ill80 8,i w n believe !m40 8,b if y %\ld believe !m1 w\ld y love me /ill8 ,i _c live )\t y\r love40 8,i w love y = ev]10 said ,m>y1 ?r[+ h] arms ar\nd h] neck4 8,:y d y speak s sadly8 ,y fright5 me4 ,:at is ! matt]80 8,i am sleepy1 s sleepy10 said ,m>y ,magdal51 /ret*+ h]self on ! c\*4 ,m>y knelt at h] side1 *af+ h] h&s1 ) "s vague =ebod+ ris+ on h] m9d4 8,oh d n g to sleep s e>ly4 ,d n leave me alone 9 ! d>k4 ,talk to me40 8,m>y10 said ! /upefi$ woman sl[ly & ) difficulty1 8does ,jehovah :o accepts ! (f]+ ( a contrite he>t1 ev] receive into 8 heav5 a v great s9n]80 8,c]ta9ly1 c]ta9ly60 said ! *ild4 8,!n pray = me40 ,no words1 no %ak+1 no supplications1 no frantic screams c\ld ar\se h] aga92 & ,m>y beat h] bosom & tore h] hair 9 ! extremity ( grief at ! side ( h] inanimate fri5d4 ,ab\t an h\r be=e midnight f\r m5 /ood 9 ! inn] c\rty>d ( my fa!r's h\se4 ,caiaphas & ,simon ,magus 7 engag$ 9 e>ne/ conv]sation4 ,magi/us turn$ to ! black mute :om he _h compell$ to accompany him ev]y:]e1 & said3 8,i %all g half a day's j\rney ) ,simon4 ,we w />t n[ 9 t5 m9utes4 ,ha/e to ! /ables :]e 8 *>iot & s]vant are 9 wait+4 ,drive quietly ar\nd to ! front gate ( ?is h\se4 ,"h is ! key to ,ulema's *amb]4 ,aft] we h gone1 n be=e1 give ^? wom5 "s food40 ,e?opus dep>t$4 ,he left ! gate 9 ! g>d5 wall op54 ,he hurri$ to ,ulema's room4 ,he releas$ ! a/oni%$ wom54 ,he drew !m out ^u ! gall]y4 ,he po9t$ eag]ly to ! g>d5 gate & ov] to my fa!r's h\se4 ,x 0 all he c\ld d4 ,he 0 wild ) excitem5t1 & ! ge/ures ( ! dumb man 7 ^? ( despair4 ,he !n ran t[>d ! /ables4 ,! wom5 />t$ on _! dang]\s j\rney1 n kn[+ :at 0 to be done4 ,!y hurri$ along ! fl[]y walks 9 ! greate/ trepidation4 ,on asc5d+ our t]rac$ g>d51 ,ulema1 weak1 sick & ov]:elm$ ) emotion1 fa9t$ & fell4 ,m>?a tri$ 9 va9 to revive h]4 ,"t 0 fly+4 ,fa9t screams n[ issu$ f ! h\se4 ,m>y 0 be+ abduct$6 ,%e />t$ up & )\t ?9k+1--= ?\ght w\ld h p>alyz$ h] ef=ts1--ru%$ to ! rescue alone4 ,! miscreants _h desc5d$ into ! cell>4 ,great 0 _! a/oni%m5t to f9d ,m>y ,magdal5 9 a pr(\nd /upor & ! little ,m>y weep+ at h] side4 8,?is delays u10 said ,simon1 ) great vexation4 8,t traitor\s woman has tak5 ! opiate h]self4 ,x w be necess>y to b9d & gag ! little "o4 ,no s\nds mu/ issue f ! *>iot1 no suspicions be excit$40 ,x 0 dur+ ?is t]rible process ( b9d+ & gagg+ t ! screams 7 made :i* ,m>?a he>d 9 ! g>d54 ,x 0 effect$2 & ! ?ree m5 7 be>+ ! sil5t & muffl$ body ?r\gh ! c\rty>d1 :5 ,m>?a ru%$ t[>d !m ) a l\d %riek ( supplication4 8,sil5ce60 ?und]$ ,simon1 8w\ld y betray u80 ,& uncoil+ 8 great s]p5t f 8 neck 7! leop>d 0 lock$ up 9 ! *>iot71 he ?rew x t[>d h]4 8,/rike h]60 he said1 9 a hiss+ tone4 ,! s]p5t1 z if act+ intellig5tly1 made an imm5se coil ( its body & rais$ its head ?reat5+ly t[>d ,m>?a4 ,%e fl$ 9 t]ror up ! /airway lead+ to ! flat top ( ! h\se4 8,pursue h]60 said ,simon to ,caiaphas--8pursue h] & keep h] sil5t ) y\r dagg] until we h escap$40 ,caiaphas b\nd$ aft] h]4 ,%e turn$ & fac$ him on ! h\se-top4 ,he ?reat5$ to plunge ! dagg] into h] he>t if %e made a s\nd4 ,%e back$ be=e him to ! p>apet4 ,x 0 at t mom5t :5 ! moon1 sudd5ly em]g+ f ! cl\d1 reveal$ to me1 z ,i 0 approa*+ my fa!r's h\se1 ! two figures2 my si/] rais+ h] arms wildly to heav51 & ! wick$ prie/ ?reat5+ to /rike4 ,at t mom5t ,i ent]$ ! c\rty>d & confront$ ,magi/us & ,simon1 :o 7 be>+ my si/] t[>d ! gate4 ,i drew ! dagg] ,e?opus _h giv5 me1 & plung$ x into ! side ( ,magi/us :o 0 ne>e/ to me4 ,he sank ^u ! gr\nd ) 8 burd51 utt]+ a deep groan4 ,simon ru%$ ^u me & 9 a mom5t we 7 engag$ 9 a deadly /ruggle4 ,he 0 a man ( a/oni%+ /r5g?4 ,he ?rew me at la/ ^u ! gr\nd & _h ne>ly wre/$ my dagg] f me1 :5 ,e?opus :o _h be5 conceal$ beh9d ! gate sprang to my assi/ance4 ,he dragg$ ! magician back by ! %\ld]s1 & at ! same in/ant !re 0 a l\d scream f ,m>?a on ! p>apet1 & ! s\nd ( voices & foot/eps at ! gate4 ,two p]sons ru%$ 9 to our aid2 & ,simon sudd5ly spr++ f u all1 escap$ into ! /reet1 & 9 a second ! :eels ( 8 *>iot rattl$ away ) ! utmo/ rapidity4 ,caiaphas1 see+ t 8 p>ty 0 vanqui%$1 fl$ away ?r\gh ! g>d5 to ! h\se ( ,magi/us4 ,m>?a hurri$ d[n & rejo9$ h] fri5ds bel[4 ,e?opus br\ght lights z quickly z possible1 al?\gh ,i _h already recogniz$ 9 ! new-com]s ! good old ,p]sian :om ,b>abbas held prison]1 & my late deliv]] :o _h /yl$ himself ! ,son ( ! ,des]t4 ,m>y 0 releas$ f h] wrappages & ?rew h]self alt]nately into ! arms ( bro!r & si/]4 ,e?opus enjoy$ ?is sc5e ) ge/ures ( frantic delight4 ,! happy p>ty 0 sudd5ly />tl$ by ! groans ( ! w\nd$ man1 :o _h dragg$ himself away & 0 lean+ aga9/ ! wall ( ! h\se1 ble$+ pr(usely4 ,we laid him on ! floor ( ! reception-room1 & ! ,son ( ! ,des]t1 :o 0 an adept 9 su* matt]s1 /an*$ ! blood & b&ag$ 8 hurt1 pron\nc+ x sev]e b n mortal4 ,:5 ,magi/us op5$ 8 eyes & saw ! old ,p]sian b5d+ ov] him1 he />$ at him ) amazem5t1 & /amm]$ =?3 8,surely ?is is my r5egade bro!r-9-law1 :o has r5\nc$ ! "n & religion ( 8 fa!rs & calls himself ,beltrezzor40 ,he 0 "r4 ,beltrezzor 0 our uncle1 our fa!r's only bro!r1 our next ( k91 our legal gu>dian6 ,?is recognition gave u all ! greate/ delight4 ,aft] mutual congratulations we ha/5$ to recov] poor ,ulema f h] trance1 & to convey h] & h] w\nd$ husb& to _! own home4 ,m>y ,magdal5 0 br\ght up into an airy1 upp] room1 & e ef=t 0 made to r\se h] f h] comatose /ate2 b 9 va94 ,a good nurse 0 plac$ at h] b$side *>g$ to r5d] h] e att5tion4 ,! ,son ( ! ,des]t sp5t ! night "u our ro(1 & proce$$ ! next morn+ to ,j]usalem ) ,beltrezzor4 ,he refus$ to appe> at ! table ) ! wom5 & decl9$ all ! rew>ds & pres5ts :i* our gratitude induc$ u to (f]4 ,x seems t ,beltrezzor's fri5d _h s5t "o-half ( ! ransom by ! robb]s :o pass$ me go+ d[n ! rav9e1 promis+ ! o!r half 9 two days aft]1 on ! deliv]y ( ,beltrezzor himself at ,j]usalem4 ,b>abbas _h entru/$ ! ,son ( ! ,des]t ) t mission4 ,! old man _h be5 sl[ 9 8 movem5ts1 & night ) its black cl\d _h ov]tak5 !m be=e rea*+ ! highway4 ,reflect+ t ! trumpets ( ! ,roman soldi]y _h s\nd$ ! ev5+ tattoo1 ,beltrezzor _h luckily sugge/$ t !y %\ld turn aside into ,be?any1 :]e he _h a bro!r :om he _h n se5 = ?irty ye>s4 ,!y came close beh9d my own we>y foot/eps1 & ,i h told ! result4 ,! second day aft] ^! surpris+ ev5ts1 ,m>y ,magdal5 disappe>$ sudd5ly to our great regret1 leav+ no clue by :i* %e c\ld be trac$4 ,%e awoke f h] artificial sleep ab\t daylight1 & ! nurse suppli$ h] ) food1 & told h] ! wond]ful ?+s :i* _h happ5$4 ,%e w5t away1 not)/&+ ! remon/rances ( ! nurse4 8,tell !m10 said %e1 8t ,i rejoice at _! good =tune1 & t ,i love !m s mu* t ,i lift ! %ad[ ( my pres5ce f ! sun%9e ( _! peace40 ,poor ,magdal56 ,my new & real uncle1 ,beltrezzor1 _h a b>ga9 to make ) ,magi/us & 8 "y fri5d1 ! hypocrite ,caiaphas4 ,x 0 easily affect$4 ,we 7 9 possession ( facts :i* w\ld h expos$ !m bo? to public infamy1 & h cut %ort ! ambiti\s c>e] ( ! tal5t$ prie/4 ,sil5ce on our "p 0 pur*as$ at ! foll[+ price3 ,beltrezzor 0 a pagan1 & objections might be rais$ 9 ! ,jewi% ,sanh$rim to 8 tak+ possession ( a ,jewi% e/ate & ! *>ge ( ,jewi% orphans4 ,magi/us & ,caiaphas 7 to obviate ^! objections1 & to secure him ! legal gu>dian%ip4 ,e?opus 0 to be decl>$ a fre$man4 ,beltrezzor1 my si/]s & myself 7 to be p]mitt$ to visit ,ulema e ,sabba? s long z %e liv$4 ,9 addition to 8 lib]ty1 ,beltrezzor pres5t$ ,e?opus ) a preci\s /one ( consid]able value1 ^u :i* 0 engrav$ a my/ic "n4 ,?is gem _h great reputation 9 ! magical frat]nity = releas+ its possessor f ! spell ( ! mo/ p[]ful en*antm5t4 ,:e!r "s *ange really came ov] 8 _s1 or :e!r 8 imag9ation did ! "w1 ,e?opus act$ z if "s great burd5 _h be5 lift$ f 8 s\l4 ,he ent]$ at once into our s]vice1 & 8 gratitude seem$ only equal$ by 8 humility4 ,beltrezzor took possession ( my fa!r's e/ate1 & to our great joy det]m9$ to reside at ,be?any dur+ our m9ority4 ,"u 8 judici\s & lib]al managem5t ev]y?+ soon blossom$ l ! rose4 ,he adorn$ our resid5ce ) all ! *a/e & beautiful treasures ( ar*itecture & art4 ,he surr\nd$ my *>m+ si/]s ) e luxury t ! mo/ cultivat$ fancy c\ld sugge/4 ,he devot$ himself especially to our education1 & our h\se became ! favorite resort ( all t 0 mo/ le>n$ & brilliant 9 ,jewi% society4 ,?us sev]al ye>s pass$ happily away1 ov]%ad[$ by no cl\d4 ,if a te> ev] came into our eyes1 x 0 consecrat$ to ! memory ( our de> fa!r1 & to ! reflection t he _h p]i%$ s sadly 9 ! wild]ness1 )\t kn[+ ! good =tune :i* 0 9 /ore = 8 *ildr54 ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,,viii4 ,,bread ,,on ,,! ,,wat]s4 ,illu/ration3 ,initial ,! impression made ^u our m9ds by ^! extraord9>y ev5ts 0 ineffaceable4 ,aft] ?ree days & nights ( p]il\s adv5ture & suff]+1 f a y\? ,i became a man4 ,f little girls1 my si/]s became wom54 ,!re 0 ev] aft]w>d ab\t u a p5siv5ess1 a gravity ( mann]1 a too e>ly maturity ( ?\ght1 :i* excit$ ! pity ( ^? :o _h kn[n u dur+ our fa!r's life1 :5 a happy *ildhood broke =? into smiles & pleasures1 l a g5ial spr+ blossom+ out into p]fumes & fl[]s4 ,our six mon?s ( dome/ic life "u ! managem5t ( ,magi/us1 ) its gloom1 its neglect1 its suspicions1 its want ( love & lib]ty1 /ood 9 pa9ful contra/ ) ! m]ry sports1 ! delightful peace & ! religi\s sun%9e ( our fa!r's h\sehold4 ,x 0 night comp>$ ) day4 ,b ! unmask+ ( ! *>act]s ( ,caiaphas & ,magi/us 0 a rude %ock to our t5d] spirits4 ,we _h reveal$ to u at "o view ! utmo/ dep?s ( human depravity4 ,we _h /ood consci\sly amid ! hide\s & revolt+ sph]es ( hypocrisy1 s5suality1 robb]y & murd]4 ,!re 0 a leprosy ( ! s\l z well z ( ! body2 !re 7 wild bea/s ( ! _s2 !re 0 a wild]ness ( ! m9d2 !re 0 a dea? masqu]ad+ 9 ! g>m5ts ( life2 & we _h se5 !m all4 ,we _h look$ into hell4 ,?is e>ly & deep insight into ! fe>ful connection betwe5 evil spirits & wick$ m51 & _! comb9$ influ5ce ov] ! _w1 0 9 "o s5se salut>y4 ,! recoil f ! bottomless abyss into :i* we _h peep$1 produc$ a rapid & unusual developm5t ( ! moral nature4 ,9 my si/]s x took a religi\s1 9 myself a philosophical turn4 ,^? "y girls1 con/itutionally pi\s & full ( gratitude to ,god1 s\ght r5ew$ /r5g? & com=t 9 ! ex]cises ( fai? & religi\s duty4 ,!y devot$ !mselves to pray] & ! /udy ( ! ,scriptures4 ,) ! womanly nature ( ! v9e1 :i* mu/ cl+ to some?+ ( firm] texture & /rong] gr[?1 !y atta*$ !mselves tru/+ly to ! prie/s & scribes & doctors ( ! law1 ) a natural & p>donable feel+4 ,b !y avoid$ ,caiaphas4 ,i d n rememb] t ,i ev] felt any decid$ respect or love = ! religi\s in/itutions ( my c\ntry4 ,i 0 born1 ,i suppose1 ) ! elem5t ( v5]ation = ! pa/ left out ( my m5tal organization4 ,i nev] c\ld und]/& :y m5 look back to ! infancy & *ildhood ( ! race = ! oracles ( wisdom4 ,x is r ! bus9ess ( ea* c5tury to scrut9ize rigidly ! inh]itance x has receiv$ f ! prec$+ c5tury1 & to reject ev]y?+ :i* is wor?less1 unphilosophical & immature4 ,i 0 l>gely indebt$ to my fa!r = my progressive temp]am5t4 ,he despis$ pret5sion & c]emony4 ,he con=m$ 8 life r to ! _s ?an to ! lett] ( ! law4 ,8 und]/&+ /urdily revolt$ aga9/ ! my/]i\s & improbable4 ,we 7 n tra9$ aft] ! /rict mann] ( ! ,ph>isees1 b ) t fre$om ( action :i* does n cru% ! individuality ( ! *ild4 ,! re=m]1 ! innovator1 ! man ( new ideas & life1 is seldom born ( ! n>r[-m9d$ lit]ali/ & bigot ( an old sy/em4 ,! fa!r is g5]ally an int]m$iate l9k betwe5 ! old & ! new2 adh]+ loosely to ! old himself1 & prophesy+1 in>ticulately p]haps1 ! emancipation ( 8 son f ! ?raldom ( ! pa/4 ,:5 we get rid ( ! conv5tionalisms ( an old & p]i%+ sy/em1 we become peculi>ly op5 & s5sitive to ! gr& intuitions ( natural religion4 ,! gorge\s c]emonies ( ! temple made little impression ev5 on my boyi% fancy3 !y 7 tiresome & disgu/+ to my rip] ye>s4 ,b ,i melt$ into t5d] admiration at ! ?\ght ( ,john ! ,bapti/1 pray+ & toil+ 9 ! wild]ness1 unse5 ( m51 tru/+ 9 ,god1 & receiv+ to 8 lov+ bosom & c>e1 ! lep]1 ! robb] & ! lo/ ones ( ! _w4 ,"o ( ! tea*]s provid$ me by my excell5t uncle ,beltrezzor1 0 a ,greek2 & ! /udy ( t wond]ful language & lit]ature l$ me /ill f>!r away f ! influ5ce ( ,judaism1 corrupt$ & fail+ z x 04 ,i 0 n sl[ to ass]t t ! poetry ( s*ylus & ,hom] *>m$ me m ?an t ( ,david & ,isaiah2 & t ! philosophy ( ,plato exce$$ 9 value all ! le>n+ ( ! ,scribes4 ,my h]etical op9ions1 c&idly av[$ on prop] occasions1 b nev] obtrud$1 _h a gradual effect 9 break+ ! spell ( en?usiasm :i* b\nd my si/]s to ! prie/hood & ! ritual4 ,b ! examples & conv]sations ( ,beltrezzor _h a /ill great] influ5ce 9 lift+ _! m9ds out ( t n>r[ & exclusive circle ( ?\ght1 9 :i* ! typical ,jew is born1 lives & dies4 ,beltrezzor 0 a man ( mo/ beautiful & lovely "*4 ,simple 9 8 own ta/es & dress1 frugal 9 8 own habits1 b g5]\s & ev5 lavi% to o!rs2 *e]ful & polite2 active & indu/ri\s2 tru?ful & unselfi%2 full ( lib]al op9ions & t5d] sympa?ies2 he *>m$ all :o knew him by ! purity & nobl5ess ( 8 m9d & ! suavity ( 8 mann]s4 ,"o ( ! mo/ opul5t & honor$ m5 9 8 adopt$ c\ntry1 & an invet]ate travel] by habit1 he _h quietly settl$ d[n 9 ! little village ( ,be?any to consecrate sev]al ye>s ( 8 life to our education & happ9ess4 ,yet ! model man1 ! l ( :om we _h nev] se5 9 ,prie/ or ,scribe1 0 9 our eyes a r5egade & a pagan4 ,he _h ab&on$ ! doctr9es & precepts ( ,moses = ^? ( ,zoroa/]4 ,8 religion1 :i* appe>$ s sweetly 9 8 life1 0 a puzzle to u1 = we expect$ to discov] its quality 9 its outw>d obs]vances4 ,! foll[+ manife/ations ( ! religi\s _s 7 all we ev] detect$3 ,he sometimes look$ f 8 w9d[ at ! ris+ sun1 & mutt]$ some?+ l a pray] ) b[$ head4 ,he always spoke ( ,fire ) a /range rev]5ce1 & said x 0 synonym\s ) ,p[] & ,beauty4 ,he kiss$ 8 h& to ! fir/ /> he saw 9 ! ev5+4 ,on ! la/ day ( e ye>1 he _h fruits1 fl[]s1 w9e & rice br\ght into 8 *amb]1 z (f]+s to ! spirits ( 8 dep>t$ fri5ds1 :o1 he believ$1 visit$ him on t occasion4 ,behold ! simple c]emonial ^u :i* 0 bas$ s mu* goodness ( he>t & s mu* wisdom ( ?\ght6 8,:o 0 ,zoroa/]80 ask$ ,m>?a "o day ( h] uncle4 8,zoroa/]1 my *ild1 0 ! fri5d & companion ( ,abraham4 ,!y liv$ toge!r 9 ,h>an until ! ,great ,be+1 ,ormuzd1 ! ,k+ ( ,light1 call$ ,jehovah by ! ,jews1 summon$ !m bo? to leave _! c\ntry & fill a sacr$ mission4 ,zoroa/] w5t to ! ea/ & ,abraham to ! we/4 ,zoroa/] l ,moses receiv$ ! book ( ,god on ! top ( a burn+ m\nta91 & gave laws to ! p40 8,:at k9d ( laws1 uncle80 8,! ess5tial moral tea*+s are z mu* l ^? ( ,moses z tw9 si/]s are l ea* o!r40 8,!n y d n wor%ip idols80 8,no--we dete/ !m40 8,y d n wor%ip any ( ! gods ( ! pagan nations80 8,no1 my *ild6 ,!re is b "o ,god1 ,ormuzd1 ,k+ ( ,light4 ,all religions come f him4 ,"s are pur] & m p]fect ?an o!rs4 ,all true prophets & prie/s are 8 s]vants4 ,false prie/s & magicians are 9 league ) evil spirits4 ,!y are *ildr5 ( ,ahrimanes40 8,if !re is su* fundam5tal id5tity1 :y !n1 uncle1 d y pref] ! religion ( ,zoroa/] to t ( ,moses80 8,because its ritual is m simple1 beautiful & sublime2 because its doctr9es are m rational & philosophical2 because ! p :o believe x & live x1 are m lib]al & lov+ & enlight5$ ?an ! ,jews2 because x br+s ! s\l ne>] to ! ,p[] & ,beauty ( ! sun40 8,uncle10 said ,m>y1 affectionately kiss+ 8 h&1 8are all ! wor%ip]s ( ,ormuzd z good & pure & sweet-temp]$ z y are80 ,! old man blu%$3 8,! tea*+s ( ,zoroa/] t5d to make m5 f> pur] & bett] ?an ,i40 ,! si/]s sank into a deep rev]ie4 ,!y _h a glimpse ( t great _w ( moral light & beauty1 :i* lay entirely outside ( ! limits ( ! ,jewi% fai?4 ,!y gaz$ on x ) wond]4 8,b1 uncle10 said ,m>?a1 89 ! great day ( judgm5t w n ! unbeliev]s be s5t5c$ to et]nal puni%m5t80 8,9 ! la/ day1 my *ild1 all ! metals 9 ! _w w melt ) heat1 & all human s\ls1 liv+ & dead1 w pass 9 judgm5t ?r\gh ! fi]y elem5t4 ,to ! good x w feel l a fragrant ba? ( w>m milk2 to ! evil x w be a torr5t ( burn+ lava4 ,x w consume1 h[ev]1 no?+ b ! wick$ lu/s ( ! he>t4 ,evil w ?us be de/roy$2 & all m51 freely =giv5 by ,ormuzd1 w unite 9 a univ]sal *orus ( love & praise40 ,! sph]e ( our uncle's life & "* taught u *>ity = ev5 r5egades & pagans2 & ! beauty & rationality ( 8 s+ul> doctr9es made me suspect t tru? _h temples else:]e ?an 9 ,judea4 ,i became fairly emancipat$ f ! ,jewi% ,*ur*1 & look$ = ! reg5]ation ( mank9d to ! ennobl+ & purify+ influ5ce ( k1 :i*1 ,i believ$1 w\ld f9ally illum9e ! _w ) its waves ( rosy light4 ,beautiful & illusive dream6 ,my si/]s1 disgu/$ z !y soon became1 ) ! fanatics1 hypocrites & impo/ors :o ?rong$ ! temple1 7 n ready to cut loose f ! fai? ( ,moses or ! c]emonies ( ! law4 ,!y deplor$ ! corruptions & deadness ( ! ,*ur*4 ,!y %rank f ! rituali/s :o _h no religion1 & f ! devotees :o _h no love 9 _! he>ts4 ,!y s\ght consolation by look+ eag]ly = ! ,messiah1 :o 0 to re/ore ! sceptre to ,israel & rek9dle ! emb]s ( fai? & piety 9 ! *ur*4 ,m>?a & ,m>y pond]$ ^u all !y _h ev] he>d or read on ?is wond]ful subject4 ,born ( a virg91 8! ,pr9ce ( ,peace1 ! ,mighty ,c\nselor1 ! ,ev]la/+ ,fa!r10 0 com+ 9 ! fle%8 ,!y delight$ to se>* ! ,scriptures = traces & pr$ictions ( 8 bir?1 8 appe>ance & 8 mission4 ,!y lov$ to walk 9 ! grove ( olives :i* cr[n$ ! m\nt 9 re> ( our h\se1 :5ce !y c\ld see ! m>ble colonnades ( ! temple & its va/ ro( all frett$ ) gold5 spikes1 :ile !y conv]s$ arm 9 arm on _! favorite !me4 ,?us 7 we be+ secretly prep>$ by ! exp]i5ces & circum/ances ( our life1 = ! reception ( ! new & /range religion ( ,*ri/4 ,! ?\ghtful analysis ( ! pa/ hi/ory ( any human life1 w reveal "h & !re ! mov+s ( ! f+] ( ,god4 ,we d n see ! div9e provid5ce z an ev5t approa*es1 b only aft] x has transpir$4 ,jehovah %[$ 8 back1 n 8 face to ,moses4 ,"s may be surpris$ at ! idea t c]ta9 m9ds 7 prep>$ = ! reception ( ! ,*ri/ian religion by processes direct$ by div9e provid5ce4 ,!y suppose t e "o :o saw ! miracles & he>d ! words ( ,*ri/1 c\ld h believ$ 9 him & foll[$ him if he _h *os54 ,x is a mi/ake4 ,!re 7 _m noble & pi\s ,jews1 to ^: m9ds ! words & miracles ( ,*ri/ _h no weight :atev]2 :o reject$ him unhesitat+ly z a dream] or an impo/or4 ,!y 7 n prep>$ to receive him4 ,!re h be5 sev]al revelations or disp5sations ( ,div9e ,tru?2 & !re w unque/ionably be m4 ,! new revelation is seldom or nev] receiv$ by ! adh]5ts ( ! old4 ,! =ce ( ! decay+ sy/em is fir/ brok5 by s*ism4 ,aft] s*ism comes a _s ( free inquiry1 & skepticism is develop$4 ,! old f\ndations are brok5 up2 new ideas1 new influ5ces1 new life />t =?4 ,!n comes ! possibility ( a r5ew$ developm5t1 a reconsid]ation ( pr9ciples1 ! evolution ( high] & m spiritual tru?4 ,?is fact 0 illu/rat$ 9 ! e>ly days ( ,*ri/ianity4 ,! fir/ disciples 7 n ! lead+ spirits & great lights ( ! old disp5sation1 :o reg>d$ !mselves z ! special gu>dians ( religi\s tru?4 ,t class misund]/ood ,*ri/ & reject$ him4 ,! m5 & wom5 :o =sook all & foll[$ him _h no special rev]5ce = ! ,jewi% law & its c]emonies4 ,s+ul>ly en\gh1 !y 7 n p]sons ( /rong religi\s convictions1 h[ev] holy _! life became aft] receiv+ ! inspiration ( ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,!y _h outliv$ or spiritually outgr[n ! ,jewi% disp5sation4 ,!y c>$ little or no?+ = ! op9ions ( prie/ or scribe4 ,!y /ood alo( f ! ,jewi% c]emonial ) skeptical indiff]5ce1 wait+ = ,provid5ce to give !m some?+ radically new4 ,!y knew ,*ri/ by intuition2 _! spirits _h be5 organically prep>$ = 8 reception4 ,*ri/ reject$ ! ,jewi% ,*ur* long be=e x reject$ him4 ,he neglect$ its c]emonies2 he violat$ its laws2 he disreg>d$ its sup]/itions2 he ignor$ its magnates2 he *ose 8 associates f ! publicans & s9n]s ( civil life1 & 8 disciples f ! publicans & s9n]s ( ! moral _w4 ,if he ev] comes aga91 ! same ph5om5a w recur2 = ! ,div9e laws repeat !mselves1 l ! return ( comets & ! revolutions ( ! sun4 ,i 0 acqua9t$ ) mo/ ( ! p]sons :o organiz$ ! infant ,*ur* ( ,*ri/4 ,!re 7 )9 my k b two exceptions to ! g5]al law1 t ^? :o ackn[l$g$ ! ,messiah fir/ & mo/ cordially1 7 outside ( ! or?odox pale4 ,?omas ,didymus 0 a rigid ,ph>isee & rituali/4 ,he believ$ no?+ :i* he c\ld n see ) 8 own eyes & t\* ) 8 own h&s4 ,he 0 ! lea/ spiritual ( all ! disciples4 ,paul1 ! apo/le to ! ,g5tiles1 0 a man ( ard5t imag9ation1 int5se fai? & great g5ius4 ,8 m9d1 h[ev]1 0 ca/ 9 ! antiquat$ m\ld2 & he 0 a /ickl] = or?odox obs]vances4 ,no logic or rhetoric1 h[ev] eloqu5t & conv9c+1 c\ld ev] h %ak5 him f 8 ,ph>isaic atta*m5ts4 ,! miracul\s int]position ( heav5 0 necess>y to turn him f ! s]vice ( ! ,jewi% ,sanh$rim4 ,n )\t influ5ce also 9 prep>+ u = ! new era1 0 ! "* ( ,john ! ,h]mit1 aft]w>d kn[n z ,john ! ,bapti/4 ,= sev]al ye>s we paid two annual visits to ! tomb ( our fa!r1 & to ! cave ( ! extraord9>y "y man :o _h befri5d$ him 9 8 la/ illness4 ,"o ( ^! visits 0 made :5 ! angel ( spr+ _h t\*$ ! sn[-wrea?s ( w9t] ) h] silv] w& & turn$ !m into fl[]s4 ,! o!r 0 made :5 ! =e/s ( autumn clo!d !mselves 9 _! fe/al robes ( crimson & gold1 to celebrate ! approa* ( dea? ) its prophecy ( resurrection4 ,we *ose "o beautiful & cl\dless morn+1 & mak+ an e>ly />t1 m\nt$ ^u sure-foot$ mules1 & well provid$ aga9/ ^? demons ( ! des]t--hung] & ?ir/--we crept sl[ly along ov] ! br[n hills & ?r\gh ! desolate holl[s4 ,e?opus & two or ?ree m /\t dome/ics always att5d$ u z a bodygu>d4 ,we made a picturesque p>ty1 encamp+ 9 ! m\? ( ! sacr$ cav]n1 />tl+ ! sil5ce ( ! wild]ness ) happy voices1 & break+ its wild solitudes ) ! en*ant+ pres5ce ( beauty & love4 ,john always receiv$ u ) a graceful suavity1 :i* seem$ /range 9 "o s unaccu/om$ to society4 ,we fir/ paid our visit to our fa!r's grave1 & (f]$ our tribute ( te>s to ! a%es & memory ( ! belov$4 ,! prophet w\ld improve ! occasion to our spiritual advantage1 by repeat+ ) simple eloqu5ce _m appropriate v]ses ( ,scripture4 ,we !n return$ to ! cav]n & conv]s$ ) ! heav5ly-m9d$ recluse1 />tl+ ! e*oes ( 8 lonely h]mitage ) incid5ts ( life & travel & society1 & ) scraps ( hi/ory1 biography1 poetry & philosophy1 br\ght f ! gay & busy circle 9 :i* we mov$4 ,! prophet bore a quiet %>e 9 our animat$ talk1 & p>took sp>+ly ( our ample repa/4 ,he 0 full ( *ildlike e>ne/ness & cr$ulity1 easily excit$ to smiles1 easily mov$ to te>s4 ,! sph]e ( 8 ?\ghts & feel+s 0 z diff]5t f t ( ! prie/s & scribes1 z ?\gh he _h be5 an angel desc5d$ f heav51--full ( love & wisdom1 )\t cre$1 )\t doctr9e1 )\t =ms1 )\t c]emonies1--to mock ) 8 sublime p]fection ! puny rituali/ :o imag9$ no religion possible )\t !m all4 ,! "y prophet seem$ to enjoy ^! semi-annual di/urbances ( 8 ?\ghtful solitude4 ,he always accompani$ u on our return z f> z ! great highway4 ,he 0 s fully conv9c$ t he 0 driv5 into ! wild]ness by ! ,_s ( ,god1 t we did n /rive to allure him back to ! haunts ( m54 ,i reg>d$ him z a g5tle & amiable fanatic4 ,m>?a pron\nc$ him to be a "y man ( great promise1 de/9$ no d\bt to be a prophet or lead] 9 ! ,*ur*4 ,m>y's criticism 0 limit$ to not+ ! extraord9>y sweetness ( 8 voice & ! s(tness ( 8 hazel eyes4 ,once also a te> trickl$ d[n h] *eeks1 :5 we spoke ( 8 lonely days & nights 9 8 self-inflict$ solitude4 ,x 0 9 ! ?ird ye> aft] ,beltrezzor's return1 t1 on approa*+ ! cave ( ! h]mit we saw a poor1 emaciat$ creature1 ! skeleton1 ! %ad[1 ( a man1 seat$ on ! /one at its m\?4 ,x 0 long be=e we c\ld recognize 9 ?is pitiable object1 my g5]\s deliv]]1 ! ,son ( ! ,des]t4 ,on feel+ ! premonitory symptoms ( a dang]\s fev]1 he _h left 8 b&1 :i* 0 !n pr[l+ ab\t ! ,jordan1 & _h come to ! cave ( ! "y h]mit4 8,y nurs$ my w\nd$ fri5d4 ,take c>e also ( me4 ,i am sick 9 s\l & body4 ,y are ! only good man 9 ! _w4 ,y alone make me believe 9 ,god40 ,^! 7 ! words ) :i* he ?rew himself d[n ^u ! pallet ( sk9s4 ,long weeks ( illness _h pass$ away--& he 0 re/or$1 /&+ n[ on ! bord] ( life l a phantom flitt+ f ! tomb4 ,8 great1 sad1 e>ne/ eyes seem$ to say t he nei!r c>$ to live nor 0 afraid to die4 ,we took a deep int]e/ 9 ?is =lorn robb]1 :o seem$ to act1 ?9k & feel s little l a robb]4 ,?is pr\d1 h&some man1 )\t "n1 )\t fri5ds1 0 an enigma to u4 ,he _h /]nly decl9$ all rew>d = 8 em95t s]vices to u1 & we felt "u pa9ful obligations to him4 ,:5 we bade him adieu ) ard5t wi%es = 8 spe$y re/oration1 ,m>?a1 ) great dignity & self-possession1 took a r+ f h] f+] & delib]ately plac$ x ^u 84 8,d n =get u10 said %e4 8,our fates may "p u1 b ! invisible b9ds4 ,on ?is r+ is engrav5 ! "n ( an angel4 ,i give y my gu>dian-_s z y\r own4 ,may he lead y into peace40 ,he b[$ 8 head l[ ^u h] h&2 & :5 he rais$ x1 !re 7 te>s 9 8 eyes4 ,i notic$ aft] a :ile t ^! visits to ! des]t _h a s+ul> effect ^u ,m>y4 ,= "s "t prec$+ !m1 !re 0 an exhil>ation ( spirits1 a flu% ( expectation1 a vivacity ( mann]1 :i* add$ a new lu/re to h] *>ms1 a new gl[ to h] beauty4 ,dur+ ! visit1 h[ev]1 %e 0 timid1 retic5t & ab/ract$3 & aft]w>d = weeks !re 0 an unusual quietness ( demeanor1 z well z a te>fulness ( ! eye & a pallor ( ! *eek4 8,laz>us10 said ,m>?a to me "o day1 8_h we n bett] br+ our fa!r's rema9s to ,be?any & bury !m ) our "m's8 ,x w\ld sp>e u ^! long trips to ! des]t40 ,ke5-sight$1 mo!rly si/]6 ,b ,i--:o _h n !n met ) ,hel5a & knew no?+ ( love--,i answ]$3 8,oh no6 ^! visits to ,john are ! mo/ delightful ev5ts ( ! ye>40 ,on ! f\r? spr+ ( ^! visits ,m>y took d[n a little fl[]-pot ) a rose 9 x = ,john4 8,i br+ y a gem10 said %e1 8( nature's light--a lamp1 a />1 to illum9e ! d>kness ( ! des]t40 ,t ev5+ :5 return+1 ,m>y & ,john fell beh9d ! re/ ( u1 & :5 ,i turn$ to look aft] !m1 he 0 po9t+ out to h] "s r>e beauty ( ! cl\ds ab\t ! sett+ sun2 & h] face1 turn$ full ^u him1 0 all agl[ ) a radiance n reflect$ f t]re/rial skies4 ,! fall visit 0 look$ =w>d to ) unusual pleasure4 ,x 0 a glori\s day4 ,:y 0 x t ! des]t seem$ m solit>y ?an usual8 ,z we approa*$ ! cav]n1 ! sil5ce 0 appall+4 ,!re 7 no rec5t footpr9ts on ! s&s4 ,! spid]s _h spun _! webs across ! m\? ( ! cave4 ,x 0 utt]ly des]t$4 ,john _h gone4 ,he _h tak5 away 8 pallet ( sk9s1 8 e>!n vessels = food & dr9k1 8 s&als1 8 long /aff4 ,! fl[]-pot lay ^u ! gr\nd ) ! little rose-bu% 9 x1 long )]$ & dead4 ,! si/]s bur/ into te>s2 & ,m>?a kiss$ ! little "o mo/ t5d]ly on ! *eek4 ,! ,_s ( ,god1 :i* impels m5 to ! great missions ( ! _w1 drives !m away f ! bloom ( nature & f ! g>d5s ( ! s\l1--away into ! wild]ness1 :]e1 tempt$ ( devils & su/a9$ by angels1 !y ga!r /r5g? = ! doom & glory :i* await !m6 ,our fa!r's rema9s 7 br\ght to ,be?any4 ,m>y's *eek grew pal]4 ,! dew ( t5d]ness trembl$ always 9 h] eye4 ,%e se>*$ ! ,scriptures all day long = ! com+ ,messiah4 ,at night %e dream$-- ,ah6 :at8 ,( ! )]$ rose-leaves 9 ! des]t$ cav]n4 ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,,ix4 ,,sacrifice4 ,illu/ration3 ,initial ,my uncle summon$ me "o day into 8 pres5ce1 & told me t he wi%$ me to enl>ge my education by travel4 8,y mu/ visit ,egypt1 ,greece & ,italy10 said he1 8! typical c5tres ( ! _w1 & conv]se ) ! ma/]-spirits 9 art1 sci5ce & philosophy4 ,i h made arrangem5ts to keep y amply suppli$ ) money at ,alex&ria1 ,a!ns & ,rome1 & ) lett]s to agreeable & influ5tial p4 8,?is w consume ?ree ye>s ( y\r life2 & if y are wise & prud5t1 !y w be pleasantly & pr(itably sp5t4 ,:5 y return ,i w surr5d] y\r fa!r's e/ate into y\r h&s1 & make a h&some settlem5t ^u y\r si/]s f my own means4 ,i am gr[+ old & %all ne$ b little = ! re/ ( my pilgrimage40 8,!n10 he cont9u$ to my surprise & sorr[1 8!n ,i %all g back to ! great ,ea/--ne>] to ! sun--to die40 8,g back to ! ,ea/80 ,i exclaim$ ) trepidation4 8,:y s8 ,y\r old age requires ! pres5ce ( lov+ fri5ds & relatives4 ,:at c we--made y\r *ildr5 by y\r k9dness--:at c we d )\t y80 8,ah6 my *ild1 ! grass soon gr[s 9 ! footpr9ts ( man4 ,we are easily =gott54 ,i %all be lov$ l "o dead4 ,i am we>y ( ?is ,judean air2 ( ?is corrupt & discordant society2 ( ^! ,roman trumpets & bann]s4 ,i want peace & repose4 ,i long to see once m ! sacr$ fire burn+ ^u ! alt>s4 ,aft] tw5ty ye>s ( life 9 ,p]sia1 "o _c be satisfi$ ) ! ,mosaic sacrifices & ! olive groves ( ,be?any40 ,kn[+ my uncle's firmness ( resolution1 & h[ long he _h re/ra9$ 8 natural re/lessness = our b5efit1 ,i hung my head 9 m\rnful sil5ce4 8,well1 well60 said he 9 a *e]ful voice1 8we h "t en\gh to talk ab\t ! :ole matt]4 ,get ready n[ = ! sc5es :i* fill ! he>t ( a ?9k+ man ) supreme delight40 ,?is plan ( p]fect+ my education by travel1 by com+ 9 contact ) idolatr\s p & /udy+ hea!n philosophies1 excit$ ! fe>s ( my good si/]s1 s contr>y 0 x to ! cu/om ( ! ,jews4 ,!y reg>d$ x1 inde$1 z almo/ a crime4 ,my uncle1 h[ev]1 0 gr&ly cosmopolitan 9 all 8 s5tim5ts1 & he _h imbu$ my own m9d ) 8 enlight5$ *>ity4 ,e?opus accompani$ me z my body-s]vant4 ,we _h taught ! dumb ,african to read & write aft] he 0 releas$ f ! bondage ( ,magi/us & ,simon4 ,he acquir$ ^! accompli%m5ts 9 a mod]ate degree ) great cel]ity1 s t our anticipations ( rapid m5tal progress 7 sadly disappo9t$ by ! result4 ,:5 he rea*$ ! intellectual developm5t ( a :ite *ild at twelve ye>s1 8 onw>d m>* 0 arre/$4 ,no /udy1 no assiduity c\ld advance him a /ep f>!r4 ,he 0 organically a *ild4 ,8 ?\ghts1 8 feel+s1 8 op9ions1 8 mann]s 7 all *ild-l2 & s !y rema9$4 ,su* is ! g5]al result ( my obs]vation & /udy ( ! ,african species4 ,susceptible z !y are ( a beautiful & indef9ite moral culture1 ! developm5t ( _! intellectual faculties is limit$ by ! ?ick scull1 ! small bra91 ! black sk9 :i* !y h inh]it$ z a national curse4 ,may x be diff]5t 9 ! future6 ,i h receiv$ no?+ b k9dness at _! h&s1 & ,i feel no?+ b k9dness = !m 9 my he>t4 ,we le>n$ f ,e?opus1 ?r\gh ! m$ium ( writ+1 t he _h be5 /ol5 by a p>ty ( m>aud+ soldi]s f 8 quiet & happy home 9 ,abyss9ia1 :]e 8 fa!r 0 a petty pr9ce4 ,he _h be5 sold to "s magicians 9 ,egypt1 :o made him a slave1 a football1 a victim ( cruel & unnatural exp]im5ts4 ,he _h be5 f$ ^u toads & s]p5ts & creep+ ?+s4 ,! blood ( v>i\s animals _h be5 inject$ into 8 ve9s4 ,! op]ation ( poisons 0 /udi$ ^u 8 body4 ,degradation & t]ror 7 impr9t$ ^u 8 s\l4 ,he _h be5 depriv$ ( 8 manhood & 8 spee*1 to br+ him into total subjection to 8 diabolical tyrants4 ,:5 ,i told him t ,i %\ld g fir/ into ,egypt1 he trembl$2 = ! memory ( ,simon & 8 own e>ly life tr\bl$ 8 m9d4 ,i c\ld sc>cely h induc$ him to accompany me at all1 _h x n be5 = ! beautiful gem :i* my uncle ,beltrezzor _h giv5 him4 ,9 its prophylactic p[]s aga9/ magic & magicians he enjoy$ implicit fai?4 ,he _h hi!rto c>ri$ x always 9 8 pocket4 ,he n[ b\nd x ov] 8 he>t1 c>efully secur$ 9 a lea!rn bag4 ,he !n decl>$ himself ready = ! j\rney4 ,less =tunate ?an he1 ,i _h no?+ :]e) to =tify myself aga9/ evil spirits & ! dang]s ( l& & sea1 b ! consolations ( ,zoroa/]'s religion & scraps ( ! ,platonic philosophy4 ,i _h only "o misgiv+ on leav+ my si/]s 9 ! c>e ( su* an old man z our excell5t uncle4 ,! wick$ ,magi/us 0 /ill liv+ 9 ! same h\se1 sep>at$ f u only by a /one wall4 ,he gu>d$ my aunt 9 ! same cruel seclusion1 & no d\bt kept himself in=m$ by h] clairvoyant p[]s ( ev]y?+ go+ on 9 our h\se z well z 9 o!rs4 ,he _h nev] made any advances t[>d u1 & !re 0 no communication betwe5 u4 ,i knew1 h[ev]1 t a fi]ce desire = rev5ge rankl$ 9 8 he>t2 & 8 p[] 0 n[ great] ?an ev]1 s9ce he _h become a prom95t memb] ( ! ,sanh$rim1 & 8 fri5d ,caiaphas _h be5 appo9t$ high-prie/ ( ! temple4 ,i sp5t ab\t a ye> 9 explor+ ! wond]s ( ,egypt1 & _h rea*$ ,alex&ria = a reluctant dep>ture f t l& ( fasc9ations1 :5 a lett] 0 deliv]$ at my door by "s "o :o disappe>$ z soon z he gave x to ! s]vant4 ,?is occasion$ me "s surprise1 & ,i op5$ x imm$iately4 ,on a little piece ( p>*m5t :i* fell out z ,i did s1 ,i f\nd ^! words3 8,! orig9al be>] ( ?is lett] 0 kill$ 9 a skirmi% ) our troop4 ,i f9d x conta9s some?+ :i* y w be int]e/$ to "k4 ,i !re=e transmit x to y at "s risk4 ,d n =get ! un=gett+ 8,,son ,,( ,,! ,,des]t40 ,! epi/le 0 f my si/] ,m>?a4 ,x ran z foll[s3 8,a wond]ful ?+ has occurr$1 my de> bro!r1 s9ce ,i la/ wrote4 ,john1 ! "y h]mit ( ! des]t1 :om we h m\rn$ z lo/ or dead1 has appe>$ on ! banks ( ! ,jordan1 baptiz+ ! multitudes & prea*+ rep5tance & ! remission ( s9s4 ,he claims to be ! =]unn] ( ! ,messiah1 ann\nc+ ! spe$y approa* ( ! ,k+ ( k+s4 ,cr[ds are flock+ to him f all ,judea & ,galilee1 & ev5 f di/ant regions4 ,8 eloqu5ce is s a/oni%+ t _m :o g out ( curiosity or sport1 are /rick5 to ! he>t & receive 8 baptism4 8,m>y & ,i h li/5$ to ! prea*+ ( ?is inspir$ fri5d1 & are conv9c$ ( its tru? & p[]4 ,we h be5 baptiz$ also1 confess+ our s9s1 & v[+ a life ( rep5tance & good works4 ,i assure y1 my de> bro!r6 :5 ! prophet laid 8 h& on our heads1 bless+ u 9 ! "n ( ! ,messiah1 our m9ds 7 fill$ ) a heav5ly ec/asy1 & we c\ld sc>cely refra9 f %\t+ al\d = joy4 8,:5 ,i came up out ( ! wat]1 ! fir/ face ,i saw 0 t ( our /range fri5d :o calls himself ! ,son ( ! ,des]t4 ,he 0 /&+ ) _m o!rs on ! bank ne> ! prophet1 & gaz+ e>ne/ly at 8 s]aphic c\nt5ance4 ,:5 8 eyes met m9e1 he look$ d[n z s(tly z a "y girl1 & quickly )drew f ! cr[d4 8,my he>t w>ms t[>d ?is poor1 outca/ /rang]1 :o befri5d$ y s nobly1 & :o leads1 ,i fe>1 su* an evil life4 ,is x n /range t ! noble in/9cts1 :i* he c]ta9ly possesses1 d n cause him to revolt aga9/ 8 base surr\nd+s8 ,8 "n is cont9ually 9 my pray]s4 ,oh t he also w\ld be baptiz$ ( ,john1 =sake ! tr\bl\s ways ( ! _w1 & receive ! sweet delici\s peace ( ! new life6 8,m>y is s happy aga96 ,a new rose has come to h] *eek1 a new buoyancy to h] /ep1 a new beauty to h] smile4 8,our good uncle accompani$ u to ! ,jordan1 al?\gh he despises cr[ds & excitem5ts4 ,8 criticism on ! prea*+ & baptism ( ,john %[s h[ ?or\ghly pagan are all 8 conceptions4 ,he said he 0 a "y man ( spl5did en?usiasm1 :o w\ld h be5 a disciple ( ,zoroa/] if he _h /udi$ ! philosophy ( fire in/ead ( t ( wat]4 8,p]haps ! %9+ ( ?is new /> w guide y soon] home to our eyes & he>ts4 ,y l+] 9 t old1 frightful1 s&-beleagur$ magic-/rick5 ,egypt1 :5 ?is h]ald ( ! ,messiah1 ,aurora prophesy+ ! sun1 is fill+ ,judea ) ,div9e light6 ,ha/5 ) love1 soon1 v soon1 to y\r lov+ si/]s40 ,i 0 /ill m$itat+ on ?is lett] :5 ,e?opus ru%$ into my *amb] ) a face full ( al>m4 ,i soon le>n$ f 8 expressive pantomime t he _h se5 ,simon ,magus 9 "o ( ! public squ>es1 exhibit+ "s magical tricks to a great cr[d4 8,did he recognize y80 said ,i1 anxi\sly4 ,! ,african %ook 8 head hopefully4 8,!n we w take %ip = ,a!ns to-morr[4 ,get ev]y?+ ready = ! voyage40 ,e?opus seem$ delight$ at ^! words1 & proce$$ ) ! greate/ alacrity to execute my ord]s2 n1 h[ev]1 until he _h s disguis$ himself t ,i positively did n "k him :5 he appe>$ be=e me4 ,he 0 !n s long abs5t on my err&s t ,i became appreh5sive = 8 safety4 ,he sudd5ly ent]$ ! room ) an expression ( c\nt5ance :i* puzzl$ my practic$ wit to deciph]4 ,x 0 ! wilde/ joy /rangely m+l$ ) sadness4 ,he f\nd x impossible to convey 8 ideas by pantomime4 ,! sc5e 0 ludicr\s z well z pa!tic4 ,aft] sev]al frantic & fruitless ef=ts1 he seiz$ a burnt coal f ! he>? & scribbl$ on ! :ite wall 9 great sprawl+ *>act]s3 8,i ,,h ,,f\nd ,,my ,,bro!r60 & mak+ signs = me to foll[ him1 he d>t$ f ! room4 ,we pass$ rapidly ?r\gh ! /reets1 ,e?opus look+ suspici\sly ab\t him all ! :ile1 until we rea*$ a gr& baza>1 :]e ?\s&s ( articles 7 expos$ = sale4 ,we =c$ our way ?r\gh cr[ds ( m]*ants1 ea* cry+ 8 w>es2 ?r\gh buy]s & sell]s & idl]s ( e description1 *att]+ & *aff]+ 9 all ! languages ( ! _w4 ,we came pres5tly to "s little rooms or /alls :]e a great _m slaves on sale 7 expos$1 almo/ nak$4 ,e?opus po9t$ triumphantly to a tall "y ,african ( h&some & ev5 noble features1 & fall+ ^u 8 neck1 !y wept toge!r4 8,!y are bro!rs10 said ! trad]4 8,_! meet+ 0 bo? amus+ & affect+4 ,?is dumb fell[ recogniz$ ! o!r fir/1 & fell ^u 8 face1 %\ld]s & h&s ) frantic kisses4 ,! y\ng] "o1 n compreh5d+ su* a useless outbur/ ( affection1 res5t$ x z an intrusion1 & w\ld h belabor$ 8 bro!r s\ndly1 _h he n be5 s heavily iron$4 ,! old] "o 0 9 despair1 b sudd5ly be?\ght himself ( tak+ (f a lot ( false hair & be>d1 & b>+ 8 neck & bosom = inspection4 ,! recognition 0 !n soon effect$1 & !y laugh$ & wept alt]nately 9 ea* o!r's arms40 8,he is a slave80 said ,i4 8,yes--& a mo/ unruly "o4 ,he 0 captur$ 9 ! late w> ) ! ,abyss9ians1 & al?\gh v "y1 !y say he 0 a sup]b soldi]4 ,i c well believe x4 ,he has already pass$ ?r\gh sev]al h&s1 & 0 quickly got rid ( by !m all1 on acc\nt ( 8 fi]ce & dang]\s "*40 ,i /udi$ ! "y man's physiognomy c>efully1 b c\ld discov] no trace ( f]ocity ab\t ! features4 ,he seem$ to be ab\t tw5ty ye>s ( age1 & _h a manly & dignifi$ be>+ z he /ood !re manacl$ & expos$ to ! public gaze4 ,i read 8 secret at once4 ,he 0 a brave & high-spirit$ y\?1 accu/om$ to fre$om1 w>1 & p]haps to ! ex]cise ( p[]2 & he did n submit to 8 *a9s z quietly z 8 own]s desir$4 ,! slave-deal] mu/ h div9$ ! admiration ) :i* ,i reg>d$ him1 = he add$ ) a quiet sne]3 8,8 brav]ies are at an end n[1 = he has be5 b\ght = ,drusus ,hort5sius40 8,& :o is ,hort5sius80 8,h y liv$ 9 ! des]t1 t y nev] he>d ( ,hort5sius8 ,hort5sius is ! ri*e/ man 9 ! _w at pres5t1 & ! greate/ epicure 9 ,rome4 ,he imitates ,lucullus1 at lea/ 9 pride & luxury4 ,he makes supp]s = 8 fri5ds1 ( incalculable magnific5ce4 ,8 dem& = night+ales' tongues has sil5c$ half ! bird-music 9 ! _w40 8,is ,hort5sius 9 ! city80 8,9 ! city8 ,no6 ,he lives 9 ,rome1 :i*1 he compla9s1 is altoge!r too small = him4 ,he has an ag5t 9 ,alex&ria1 :o has a /&+ ord] to s5d him ab\t fifty refractory & incorrigible slaves e ye>40 8,:at does he want !m =80 8,want !m =80 laugh$ ! deal]4 8,well1 y mu/ "k t ,hort5sius has ! greate/ & r>e/ fi%-ponds 9 ! _w4 ,!y are miracles ( beauty4 ,hort5sius is fond ( fi% z well z ( night+ales' tongues4 ,b common fi% d n tempt 8 augu/ appetite4 ,lucullus discov]$1 9 ! c\rse ( 8 epicurean /udies1 t fi% f$ ^u human fle% h a rem>kably f9e flavor2 & moreov] t ^! aquatic cannibals h a special reli% = ! ,african species ( ! g5us homo40 8,wret*60 ,i mutt]$4 8,!re=e10 cont9u$ ! trad]1 )\t notic+ my indignation1 8,hort5sius1 imitat+ ,lucullus1 has a negro slave cut into small pieces & ?r[n into 8 fi%-ponds e week4 ,8 *ildr5 are tak5 out by _! nurses to witness ?is *oice me?od ( ref9+ ! pleasures ( ! table40 ,an?ony1 = s !y _h re-nam$ ! bro!r ( ,e?opus1 _h pick$ up a good deal ( ,lat91 9 :i* language ! deal] 0 speak+4 ,he _h li/5$ int5tly & _h caught ! horrible mean+ ( 8 words4 ,! disda9ful & defiant look ( ! "y soldi]1 contemplat+ ! fate :i* await$ him1 0 a /udy = an arti/4 8,h[ c ,i save him f ?is cruel bondage1 f ?is hide\s dea?80 8,he 0 pur*as$ ye/]day & w be call$ = to-day1 z ! %ip sails ?is ev5+40 8,w y cancel t b>ga9 & sell him to me80 said ,i eag]ly4 8,yes--= a gr& consid]ation40 ,i reflect$ t ,i _h drawn my la/ funds f my uncle's ,egyptian ag5t4 ,/ill1 ,i might possibly borr[ l>gely f him & wait a remittance4 ,i nam$ :at ,i consid]$ a lib]al price4 ,! trad] coldly %ook 8 head4 ,i add$ a ?ird m to x1 det]m9$ to sacrifice a ye>'s travel 9 ord] to save ,an?ony f ! fi%-ponds ( ! luxuri\s ,roman4 ,! trad] decl9$ )\t hesitation4 ,i c\ld make no great] (f] )\t consultation ) my uncle1 & t 0 impossible4 ,my c\nt5ance fell 9 despair4 ,! bro!rs _h wat*$ our conv]sation ) int5se int]e/2 & al?\gh !y did n compreh5d its full mean+1 !y saw t ,i _h made a great ef=t to r$eem ,an?ony & _h fail$4 ,! face ( ,e?opus 0 full ( grief1 t ( ,an?ony ( sad resignation4 ,e?opus sudd5ly sprang up smil+1 z if "s great idea _h illum9$ 8 m9d4 ,he tore op5 8 robe1 & produc+ a little bag f 8 bosom1 he took out ! preci\s /one :i* my uncle ,beltrezzor _h giv5 him4 ,he ext5d$ ! brilliant gem to ! trad] ) "o h& & po9t$ to ,an?ony ) ! o!r4 8,oh d n take t10 ,i exclaim$4 8,?is poor fell[ values t /one m ?an life itself4 ,no?+ b ! mo/ int5se affection c\ld prompt him to su* a sacrifice4 ,he believes t /one has deliv]$ him f ! bondage ( a t]rible magician1 & we>s x ov] 8 he>t z a protect+ g5ius4 ,accept my (f] in/ead1 :i* is ( great] money value ?an 8 gem40 ,?is spee* _h a s+ul> effect4 ,! slave-deal] _h no g5]osity1 b b\ndless sup]/ition4 ,he ei!r _h an int5se fe> ( magic himself1 or he 0 9 collusion ) magicians4 ,he imm$iately acc$$ to ,e?opus' (f]1 /ruck ! *a9s f ,an?ony's arms & feet1 & put ! price ( 8 slave smil+ly into 8 pocket4 8,i w replace him ) t old fell[ !re1 :o w\ld smoke 8 pipe z he is n[ do+ if we 7 bury+ him alive4 ,! ag5t ( ,hort5sius c\nts heads & nev] looks into faces40 ,an?ony compreh5d$ t an exorbitant price _h be5 paid = 8 lib]ty1 involv+ "s great sacrifice on ! "p ( ,e?opus & he insi/$ on resum+ 8 fett]s1 until ,i assur$ !m bo? t ! /one ) su* magical prop]ties %\ld be replac$ by "o simil>1 z soon z ,i c\ld communicate ) ,beltrezzor4 ,e?opus 0 n[ 9 a /ate ( fev]i% anxiety to get abo>d ! ,a!nian vessel4 ,! addition ( ,an?ony to our company seem$ to increase 8 fe>s & 8 s5se ( responsibility4 ,i convey$ my baggage & my two s]vants to ! %ip1 & put !m 9 *>ge ( ! capta91 :ile ,i return$ into ! city to f9i% my bus9ess & to make a few pur*ases4 ,:5 ,i rea*$ ! vessel aga91 ,e?opus _h disappe>$6 ,an?ony 0 9 great di/ress1 & ! capta9 & sailors 7 highly excit$4 ,! /ory !y told 0 a curi\s "o4 ,a tall1 wild-look+ man1 fanta/ically dress$1 came & sat d[n on ! %ore ne> ! planks ( ! %ip4 ,busily engag$ 9 c>ry+ on ! small freight :i* cr[ds 9 j be=e a vessel leaves1 ! sailors paid no att5tion to him4 ,?is man 0 he>d to make "s v curi\s s\nds1 a k9d ( d\ble :i/le1 a signal :i* he repeat$ at int]vals ) increas+ vehem5ce & impati5ce4 ,e?opus !n came sl[ly out ( ! vessel1 reel+ & grop+ l "o bl9d or drunk4 ,he advanc$ sl[ly t[>d ! /rang] & knelt at 8 feet4 ,! poor fell[ sudd5ly />t$ up ) a great %riek & endeavor$ to escape4 ,sev]al ( ! sailors ru%$ =w>d to rescue him f ! man :o _h seiz$ him & 0 dragg+ him (f4 ,! magician1 = su* he 01 drew a huge yell[ s]p5t f 8 robe1 & fl\ri%$ x l a :ip at 8 assailants4 ,"s ( ! sailors decl>$ also t a jet ( blue flame d>t$ f 8 bosom4 ,c]ta9 x is t by "s magical trick he s t]rifi$ !m t !y fell back 9 awe1 & he escap$ ) 8 victim ?r\gh ! cr[d :i* 0 ga!r+4 ,poor ,an?ony1 :o _h nev] se5 a %ip be=e1 0 walk+ ab\t ! vessel 9 *ildlike wond] :ile ?is t]rible abduction 0 tak+ place4 ,i 0 9 ! deepe/ di/ress4 ,i took ,an?ony & ! baggage back to my qu>t]s4 ,i rema9$ a =tnight 9 ,alex&ria in/itut+ ! mo/ ?or\gh se>* aft] our lo/ fri5d4 ,x 0 all 9 va94 ,i sail$ at la/ = ,a!ns ) a heavy1 heavy he>t1 & a new s]vant1 leav+ ! poor dumb eunu* 9 ! clut*es ( ,simon ,magus4 ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,x4 ,,at ,,a!ns4 ,illu/ration3 ,initial ,i liv$ at ,a!ns a ye>1 /udy+ ! philosophy & poetry ( ! ,greeks4 ,i long$ to see my beautiful si/]s & my good old uncle2 b ,i _c disguise ! fact t ,i 0 greatly fasc9at$ ) ,grecian life & mann]s4 ,i frequ5tly wi%$ t ,i _h be5 born a ,greek & n a ,jew1 & t ,i c\ld sp5d my days 9 sight ( ! m>ble-cr[n$ ,acropolis & ! blue gean ,sea4 ,i taught ,an?ony to read & write1 hop+ t he w\ld prove to be ( sup]ior m5tal calibre to 8 bro!r4 ,b ! result 0 ! same4 ,he surpris$ me at fir/ by 8 brightness & aft]w>d by 8 /upidity4 ,he 0 m impetu\s ?an ,e?opus1 & brav]2 b !n 8 _s _h n be5 brok5 & subdu$ by contact ) ! magicians ( ,egypt1 ^? subt]ranean devils :o defi$ ! assaults ( reason aga9/ _! pret5sions & ! vigilance ( gov]nm5t aga9/ _! crimes4 ,ceas+ to be a good soldi] & incapable ( becom+ a philosoph]1 he prov$ an invaluable s]vant4 ,! lett]s f my si/]s1 :o wrote alt]nately1 7 full ( t5d]ness & piety4 ,!y cont9u$ to give gl[+ acc\nts ( ! p[] & progress ( ! tea*+ ( ,john ! ,bapti/4 ,m>?a quot$ all ! passages 9 ! prophets allud+ to ! =]unn] ( ! ,messiah1 & ,m>y dwelt ^u ! influ5ce ( 8 doctr9es & baptism ^u ! he>ts & lives ( ! p4 ,m>y p]ceiv$ intuitively t ! only valuable ?+ 9 a religion is ! life :i* x induces "o to lead4 ,"o day ,i receiv$ a lett] f ?is en?usia/ic "y girl1 :i* indicat$ t "s great spiritual f]m5t 0 work+ 9 ! l& ( ,judea3 8,,de>e/ ,,laz>us3 8,! hung] & ?ir/ ( our s\ls w soon be satisfi$4 ,i h se5 him ) my own eyes--him1 ! ,son ( ,god1 ! ,messiah4 ,oh :at grace6 :at wisdom6 :at goodness6 :at p[]6 8,d n ?9k ,i am dream+6 ,"s "t ago ,john baptiz$ a "y man1 :om he pron\nc$ by heav5ly vision to be ! ,messiah1 or z he /yl$ him1 ! ,lamb ( ,god4 ,?is my/]i\s p]son disappe>$ f sight4 ,x 0 rumor$ t he _h retir$ into ! wild]ness1 to und]go "s t]rible combat ) ! p[]s ( hell1 prep>atory to 8 great mission ^u e>?4 ,our he>ts h be5 wat*+ eag]ly = 8 reappe>ance4 8,aft] a :ile we he>d t a great prophet _h aris5 9 ,galilee1 :o _h a/oni%$ all m5 by ! wond]ful spirituality ( 8 prea*+4 ,he _h also exhibit$ miracul\s p[] by turn+ wat] into w9e at a m>riage-fea/ 9 ,cana4 ,p]haps ?is ,jesus ( ,naz>e? 0 ! promis$ deliv]]6 ,b h[ c\ld ! ignoble names ( ,naz>e? & ,galilee be connect$ ) ! ,pr9ce ( ! h\se ( ,david8 8,n long aft]w>d a /range incid5t occurr$ 9 ! temple4 ,! miracle-work] ( ,cana appe>$1 & assum+ extraord9>y au?ority1 z if ! temple 7 8 own h\se1 he drove out all ! trad]s & money-*ang]s & idl]s :o h s long desecrat$ ! holy place by ! connivance ( ! corrupt & wick$ prie/s4 ,!y w\ld no d\bt h de/roy$ him 9 _! ang]2 b ! p1 & inde$ ! bett] class ( ,ph>isees also1 applaud$ ! c\rage\s act ( ! man1 :o d>$1 s+le-h&$1 to v9dicate ! hol9ess ( ! ,"l's h\se1 & to sc\rge ! pr(an]s out ( ! sacr$ prec9cts4 8,i 0 pond]+ ov] ?is incid5t1 :5 our good & k9d fri5d ,nicodemus came 91 & told u he _h witness$ ! sc5e himself1 & t ?is ,jesus ( ,naz>e? 0 ! same p]son :om he saw baptiz$ by ,john 9 ,jordan1 at ! "t :5 ,john b>e witness t he saw ! ,_s ( ,god desc5d+ ^u him 9 ! %ape ( a dove4 8,0 n ?is cleans+ ( ! temple prophetic ( 8 spiritual cleans+ ( ! ,*ur*1 z well z ( ! purification ( ^? little temples & *ur*es1 our own he>ts8 8,! good ,nicodemus1 :o inquires into ev]y?+ quickly1 b into no?+ ?or\ghly1 paid ,jesus a visit at night & drew him into conv]sation4 ,he 0 a/oni%$ & puzzl$ at ! new ideas ( ?is spiritual tea*]4 ,n[1 my de> bro!r1 d n laugh at me :5 ,i assure y1 t :at seem$ s un9telligible to a le>n$ rul] 9 ,israel1 0 a sun-bur/ ( tru? & beauty to ! he>t ( y\r poor little si/] ,m>y4 8,h[ /range x is t ,i c see cle>ly :at seems hidd5 f ! eyes ( ^? s mu* m capable ?an myself6 8,jesus said to ,nicodemus3 8#8,except a man be born aga91 he _c see ! k+dom ( ,god4' 8,h[ /upid x 0 9 ! good old doctor to /umble at ?is sublime s5t5ce1 & to ask3 8#8,h[ c a man be born aga9 :5 he is old8' 8,& ! reply ( ,jesus1 h[ beautiful6-- 8#8,v]ily ,i say unto y1 ,except a man be born ( wat] & ( ! ,_s1 he _c ent] into ! k+dom ( ,god4 8#8,t :i* is born ( ! fle% is fle%2 & t :i* is born ( ! ,_s is _s4' 8,i und]/& x1 ,laz>us2 ,i see1 feel1 "k1 compreh5d ! :ole my/]y4 ,x may be ! fl[] compreh5ds ! sun bett] ?an ! philosoph]4 8,we 7 born ( wat] ?r\gh ! baptism ( ,john4 ,by ! rep5tance & ob$i5ce taught by him1 we are wa%$ ( ! uncleanness & s5suality ( our old life & ent] ^u ! sweetness & purity ( ! new4 ,jesus w baptize u ) ! ,_s ( div9e love1 z ,john did ) ! _s ( div9e tru?2 & we %all be new creatures1 born aga9 z x 71 into a spiritual k+dom ( light & peace4 8,! ,sabba? aft] my int]view ) ,nicodemus1 ,i />t$ ) ,m>?a to ! temple1 hop+ to see ,jesus ) my own eyes4 ,& ,i saw him1 ,laz>us1 n only ) my eyes1 b ) my he>t & s\l4 ,we _h rea*$ ! pool ( ,be!sda by ! %eep-m>ket1 & 7 look+ at ! cr[d ( feeble & p>alytic p1 :o 7 wait+ = ! p]iodical mov+ ( ! wat]1 :5 a murmur arose3 #8,! prophet1 ! prophet ( ,naz>e?6' ,i look$ & saw ,jesus /&+ 9 "o ( ! por*es on ! fir/ /ep t leads d[n into ! wat]4 8,! mom5t ,i saw 8 face ,i believ$4 ,my he>t beat audibly )9 me4 ,a div9e ardor burn$ 9 my s\l4 ,a fai?1 /rong z ! m\nta9s or ! ocean1 took possession ( my :ole be+4 ,my impulse 0 to ru% =w>d1 fall at 8 feet & proclaim him ! ,messiah to ! assembl$ multitude4 ,m>?a held me back & said3 #8,li/56 he speaks6' 8,yes--he spoke2 & ,i he>d t voice ,i _h s (t5 he>d 9 my dreams1 dream+ ( ! re/oration ( ,israel6 8,he spoke to ! olde/1 ! feeble/1 ! mo/ =lorn-look+ p]son 9 ! cr[d3 8#8,wilt ?\ be made :ole8' he said1 9 a voice ( inf9ite t5d]ness & beauty4 8,/rangely en\gh1 be=e ! sick man answ]$1 ! same "q ent]$ into my own s\l4 ,i felt a deadly1 p>alytic s5sation ?r\gh\t my spiritual frame1 & ,i knew t ,i ne$$ to be made :ole ev5 m ?an ! poor creature on ! /eps4 ,! ,div9e "q 0 put to ! sick man1 to me1 to ! ,*ur*1 to ! :ole _w4 ,x 0 inf9ite4 ,:ile ,i 0 ejaculat+ int]nally1 #8,yes1 ,"l6 yes6 entirely :ole1' ! p>alytic repli$3 8#8,i h no "o1 sir1 :5 ! wat] is tr\bl$ to put me into ! pool1 b :ile ,i am com+1 ano!r /eppe? d[n be=e me4' 8,poor1 old1 helpless1 fri5dless creature6 ,o!rs _h relatives or fri5ds :o assi/$ !m to desc5d into ! re/orative wat]s2 & day aft] day ! selfi% ones _h pu%$ aside ! weak1 sl[1 pallid wret*4 ,b ! great ,fri5d _h come6 8,jesus1 /ret*+ =? 8 h& ov] ! pro/rate =m1 ) a maje/y indescribable1 exclaim$3 8#8,rise1 take up ?y b$ & walk4' 8,& ! p>alytic arose amid ! exclamations & plaudits ( ! cr[d1 :i* press$ ab\t !m until he & ,jesus 7 conceal$ f our sight4 8,i h se5 ! ,messiah sev]al times s9ce t miracle4 ,he 0 walk+ ! /reets ) sev]al fi%]m5 ( ,galilee1 :om !y say he has *os5 to be 8 apo/les4 ,! greate/ takes up ! lea/ to connect all ! int]m$iates ) himself4 ,! gr\p is always foll[$ at a di/ance by a woman clad 9 deep m\rn+1 & we>+ a ?ick black veil4 ,%e nev] approa*es ne> en\gh to speak or be spok5 to4 ,no man kn[s :]e %e lodges or h[ %e lives2 b ! fir/ dawn ( light always reveals h] d>k figure opposite ! h\se 9 :i* ,jesus has slept4 8,:o c %e be8 says e "o to himself & to o!rs4 ,:oev] %e is1 h] humility & devotion are v t\*+2 & ! ,p[] :i* c "w miracles no d\bt reads h] he>t & is lead+ h] to himself4 8,m>?a is pr(\ndly impress$ & greatly bewild]$ by ! miracles & "* ( ,jesus2 b %e _c yet believe t he is ! v]itable ,messiah pr$ict$ by ! prophets4 ,%e ?9ks ! ,messiah mu/ be a great ,pr9ce1 :o w re/ore ! p[] ( ,david & ! glory ( ,solomon to ! ,jewi% nation1 & make our temple ! temple ( ! :ole _w4 ,our he>ts1 ,i ?9k1 our purifi$ he>ts1 are ! temples 9 :i* he is to reign6 8,our de>1 good1 pagan uncle smiles quietly at my en?usia/ic fai?1 & enc\rages ,m>?a's d\bts by tell+ u ( great & good magi 9 ,p]sia1 :o p]=m$ great] miracles ?an ^? ( ,moses4 8,ah1 ,laz>us6 ,h[ c y l+] away (f 9 ^? beautiful & wick$ cities ( ,greece1 buri$ 9 spiritual d>kness1 & /udy+ _! fooli% or insane philosophies1 :5 ! ,s\rce ( all light has ris51 & ! ,f\nta9 ( all tru? has be5 op5$ 9 y\r own c\ntry6 ,oh ha/5 to y\r home 9 our he>ts & see ^! great ?+s = y\rself4 ,if y _c %>e my fai?1 y w at lea/ receive & reciprocate my love4 8,ev] y\r ,,m>y40 ,if ^! /range ?+s _h occurr$ soon aft] my fa!r's dea?1 :5 ! _s ( religi\s inquiry 0 /rong1 & :5 ,i lov$ to se>* ! ,scriptures ) my si/]s1 ,i w\ld h be5 deeply1 int5sely int]e/$ 9 !m4 ,b ! h>de/ ?+ 9 ! _w is to make a devotee out ( a man :o ?9ks himself a philosoph]4 ,my uncle _h n conv]t$ me to ! doctr9es ( ,zoroa/]1 b he _h conv9c$ me t ,zoroa/]1 ,moses1 & all ! great lead]s ( religi\s ?\ght d]iv$ _! inspiration f ! same s\rce4 ,i came tacitly to believe t no special ,messiah 0 com+ to ! ,jews1 any m ?an to ! ,p]sians or ,egyptians or ,romans1 all ( :om ne$$ deliv]ance f m\nta9s ( s9 & wild]nesses ( error1 q z mu* z ! ,hebrew nation :i* con/itut$ s small a fraction ( ! human race4 ,moreov] ! influ5ce ( travel1 & especially my free & happy life at ,a!ns1 _h q d5ationaliz$ me4 ,i 0 no long] a ,jew4 ,i _h brea!d ! my/ic & magical air ( ,egypt1 & _h peep$ into "o ( ! v cradles ( ! human race2 :]e ,i f\nd ev]y?+ s /range & s unlike :at ,i _h be5 taught by our *ildi% ,hebrew traditions4 ,i _h trodd5 all ! glori\s & beautiful gr\nds hall[$ 9 ! immortal hi/ory & songs ( ,greece4 ,i no long] wond]$ at ! ho/ ( gods & goddesses :i* 7 conjur$ f ! mi/y deeps ( antiquity1 to gu>d a nature s prolific & fair1 & a p s p]fect 9 =m & s gift$ 9 _s4 ,! traditions ( ,greece1 ! poetry1 ! eloqu5ce1 ! music1 ! philosophy1 ! art1 & ! div9e ar*itecture1 :i* seem$ a comb9ation ( !m all1 _h s impress$ & trans=m$ my m9d1 t ,i look$ back to my n>r[ circle ( life & ?\ght 9 ,judea1 z a man looks back ^u ! s*ool-room & play-gr\nd ( 8 *ildhood4 ,aft] ^! ?+s1 x 0 impossible = me to believe t ! ,jews 7 ! favor$ p ( ,god1 & t ! desc5dants ( ! patri>*s 7 to gov]n ! _w4 ,x 0 z easy to believe t ! sun rose 9 ,j]i*o & set 9 ,joppa4 ,!re=e ,i smil$ at my si/]'s pi\s en?usiasm1 & said to myself3 ,?is ,jesus ( ,naz>e? is "s e/imable ,jew1 full ( philan?ropy & zeal1 possess$ p]haps ( extraord9>y heal+ p[]s4 ,) ^! he w s a/oni% ! poor ignorant ,hebrews1 t !y w call him a prophet ( ,god1 or ev5 inve/ him ) div9e honors4 ,9 ,a!ns he w\ld be simply a philosoph] or a physician1 m or less pr(\nd & brilliant4 ,8 pret5sions w\ld be scrut9iz$ by a ?9k+ public1 & he w\ld receive applause 9 proportion to 8 m]it & capacity4 ,!re 01 ,i mu/ confess1 ano!r reason :y ,i did n turn my face t[>d ,judea2 :y ! prophecies & _! fulfillm5t _h ceas$ to int]e/ me2 & :y ev5 my *>m+ si/]s 7 occasionally =gott54 ,:ile /udy+ ! !ologies ( ! nations & por+ ov] ! e!real pan!ism ( ,greece1 ,i met t wond]ful div9ity :o flies ev] ) 8 gold5 %afts betwe5 ! e>? & ! sun1 & ,i became ! devotee ( a new religion4 ,i _h se5 ! mo/ beautiful1 ! mo/ wond]ful woman 9 ! _w1 &-- ,& :at8 ,i lov$6 ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,,xi4 ,,hel5a4 ,illu/ration3 ,initial ,9 ! s*ool ( philosophy :]e ! doctr9es ( ,socrates & ,plato 7 taught ) an eloqu5ce equal to _! own1 ,i met a "y ,greek resid5t ( ! city by ! "n ( ,demetrius4 ,he 0 ! son ( ,cali/h5es1 a v weal?y m]*ant1 :o1 contr>y to ! usual cu/om1 attempt$ to rival 9 8 private resid5ce ! magnific5t art :i* 0 be/[$ only on ! public works4 ,he 0 ambiti\s t 8 only son %\ld enjoy m ?an m]cantile honors1 & arrive at great] di/9ction ?an t :i* weal? alone c\ld be/[4 ,z usual 9 su* cases1 8 pat]nal aspirations 7 doom$ to disappo9tm5t4 ,n9e-t5?s ( ! g5ius ( ! _w comes f t great middle class :i* kn[s nei!r ri*es nor pov]ty4 ,! possession ( great weal? is g5]ally a h9d]ance to intellectual or spiritual advancem5t4 ,demetrius 0 a h&some1 amiable fell[1 ( m$iocre tal5t1 slo?ful by nature & indulg5ce1 & m ambiti\s ( social success ?an ( a front place 9 ! class ( philosophy4 ,i "k n h[ x happ5$1 b he _h atta*$ himself m /rongly to me ?an ,i to him4 ,i atta9$ ! entre ( 8 fa!r's h\se by a lucky accid5t4 ,:ile we 7 r[+ 9 ! h>bor "o day1 our little vessel 0 capsiz$1 & x 0 only by my desp]ate ex]tions 9 8 behalf t ,demetrius 0 sav$ f dr[n+4 ,gratitude did m = ! deliv]] ?an fri5d%ip _h done = ! fell[-/ud5t3 x op5$ ! doors ( ! pr9cely mansion1 & %[$ me ! h\sehold gods4 ,i 0 rejoic$ at ?is1 = ,i _h he>d "o ( my companions say3 8,hel5a1 ! si/] ( ,demetrius1 is ! mo/ wond]ful creature 9 ! _w40 ,i v]ifi$ ! tru? ( 8 rem>k4 ,x 0 inde$ ! e*o ( ! popul> lip4 ,hel5a 0 an in/itution ( ,a!ns1 s\ght1 se5 & admir$ l its o!r wond]s & beauties4 ,no language c convey any adequate description ( ?is cunn+ ma/]piece ( nature4 ,!re 0 no /atue 9 all ! ri* collections ( ,grecian art1 :i* excell$ ! mat*less symmetry ( h] =m or ! p]fect beauty ( h] features4 ,%e 0 ! poet's dream ( p]fection1 embodi$ 9 ! delicate tissues ( a spl5did womanhood4 ,a neck & bu/ ( immaculate beauty 7 surm\nt$ by a head1 e attitude ( :i* 0 a /udy = arti/s & lov]s4 ,h] hair 0 a cl\d ( d>k1 br[n waves fa9tly da%$ ) gold4 ,h] broad imp]ial br[ 0 pure z ! silv] surface ( "s cl\dless dawn4 ,h] s(t1 hazel eyes 7 radiant c5tres ( inexpressible light & p[]4 ,h] *eeks1 nose1 m\? & *9 7 miracles ( %ape1 w>m? & color4 ,h] %ell-t9t$ e>s 7 hung ) pe>ls less beautiful ?an !mselves2 & a necklace ( gold5 beads made conspicu\s a ?roat :i* x c\ld n beautify4 ,h] h&s & f+]s 7 s lucid1 delicate & expressive1 t !y might be call$ features also1 reveal+ 9 "p ! movem5ts ( h] m9d4 ,poor arti/ t ,i am1 ,i ?r[ my p5cil d[n 9 disgu/4 ,i _c reproduce ,hel5a to y\r eyes z %e appe>$ to me4 ,to see ?is woman1 = a "y en?usia/ic _s1 ) 8 cele/ial dream press+ d[nw>d = realization1 0 to love h]4 ,! %aft ( love flies f "o eye to ano!r2 f ! eye to ! he>t2 f ! he>t to ! bra92 f ! bra9 to ! s\l4 ,i look$1 ,i lov$4 ,i 0 smitt5 to ! s\l by t malady :i* has no cure b ! cause :i* inflicts x4 ,hel5a _h n only an irresi/ible sweetness ( voice & grace ( mann]1 b %e _h a s+ul> directness ( attack1 conc5trat+ all h] *>ms ^u y at once2 s t few m5 ev] left h] pres5ce )\t feel+ t %e _h absorb$ & tak5 f !m "s portion ( _! life1 :i* !y c\ld only recov] by return+ into ! en*ant$ atmosph]e :i* surr\nd$ h] beautiful p]son4 ,?us bewild]$ by h] beauty & bewit*$ by h] fasc9ations1 ,i lo/ my life :5 away f h]1 & f\nd x aga91 enhanc$ & glorifi$1 :5 ,i approa*$ h] foot/ool4 ,i 0 attract$ to h] cont9ually2 & if ,i tore myself away1 & climb$ ! m\nta9-top1 or walk$ by ! sea-%ore1 %e became ! inspir+ g5ius ( my solit>y rambles2 & ! beauties ( nature 7 only beautiful1 because 9 "s inexplicable mann] !y seem$ ak9 to1 or associat$ ) h]4 ,?us1 day aft] day1 week aft] week pass$ by1 & philosophy became z dry z du/1 & my companions silly & unpr(itable2 & ,egypt became a my? & ,judea a dream2 :ile ! pa/ 0 =gott5 & ! future unc>$ =1 except 9 connection ) h]4 ,solitude became sweet1 & rev]ie ec/atic1 & ! language ( poetry ! voice ( common life4 ,i creat$ = myself an ideal _w1 romantic1 e!real1 felicit\s2 = ! greate/ magician t ev] liv$ is ,love4 ,i 0 sometimes1 h[ev]1 sunk into ! fa?omless abyss ( despair4 ,i met 9 ! spl5did halls ( ,cali/h5es s _m di/+ui%$ & weal?y & p[]ful m52 s _m soldi]s & /atesm52 s _m philosoph]s1 arti/s & poets2 all _m degrees sup]ior to myself1 & all pay+ ! same homage to ! idol ,i wor%ip$1 t my envy & jeal\sy 7 be+ cont9ually excit$2 & ,i frequ5tly %rank )9 myself1 taciturn & melan*oly1 contemplat+ ! awful di/ance :i* int]v5$ betwe5 my feeble pret5sions & ! transc5d5t object ( my admiration4 ,!n ,hel5a1 obs]v+ my sil5ce & grief1 w\ld s+le me out f ! cr[d ) a peculi> sweetness2 w\ld be/[ a smile :i* seem$ meant only = me2 w\ld drop a s5t5ce ( pe>l :i* ,i felt t ,i alone compreh5d$2 w\ld solicit my e>ly return 9 a mann] s special & impressive1 t ,i 0 fir$ ) new hope & end[$ ) new life2 spurn$ ! dull e>? b5ea? me1 & 0 ready1 l ! d>+ boy ( ,apollo1 to drive ! *>iot ( ! sun4 8,let no "o ev] despair10 ,i w\ld ?us fondly say to myself1 8( conqu]+ a woman by love4 ,conc5trate ! passion ( y\r s\l ^u h]1 l ! rays ( a burn+ glass1 & soon] or lat]1 y w melt h] he>t4 ,! be/ philt] to excite love is love itself4 ,if y w\ld ignite1 y mu/ burn40 ,) all ?is magnific5t ext]ior1 ) ! bl5d$ adornm5ts ( nature & art1 ?is ,hel5a 0 altoge!r unwor?y ( ! pure & simple love ,i lavi%$ ^u h]4 ,%e /udi$ m5 z ! angl] /udies ! "*1 habits & locality ( fi%2 solely to allure & capture !m4 ,%e _h ! ?\ghtful br[ & ! words ( wisdom = "o class2 ! smile ( ! cupid & ! laugh ( ! bac*ante = ano!r4 ,%e _h an armory full ( weapons2 ! te> ( sympa?y1 ! corruscations ( wit1 ! meekness ( mode/y1 ! humility ( religion1 ! spl5dor ( dress1 ! ornam5t & ev5 ! exposure ( p]son4 ,ev]y?+ ab\t h] 0 ! highe/ art 9 a g>b ( ! sweete/ nature4 ,%e hesitat$ at no?+ :i* w\ld secure h] a conque/4 ,%e 0 unhappy unless _m 7 kneel+ at h] %r9e4 ,%e liv$ ^u ! brea? ( adulation1 ! music ( h] own praises1 ! inc5se ( deliri\s love4 ,%e wi%$ to absorb ev]y?+2 %e gave no?+ 9 return4 ,%e dem&$ = h]self affection1 ?\ght1 wor%ip1 life4 ,%e return$ only smiles1 hopes1 dreams1 %ad[s4 ,%e 0 a beautiful demon ( selfi%ness4 ,!re 7 fasc9ation1 magic1 spiritual dea? 9 h] sph]e2 b ! s\l di$ li/5+ to invisible music & dream+ ( heav54 ,?is adoration ( m5 & envy ( wom5 0 m to be piti$ ?an admir$4 ,%e _h a "m ^: influ5ce 0 a d>k %ad[ ca/ ^u h] life4 ,nei!r beautiful nor gift$ h]self1 %e _h det]m9$ t ! gifts & beauty ( h] *ild %\ld be turn$ to ! utmo/ acc\nt4 ,%e _h plant$ a wild ambition 9 h] girli% _s1 z "o plants a rose 9 a g>d54 ,%e _h n\ri%$ x & wat]$ x c>efully1 until %e br\ght x to baneful p]fection4 ,h] own evil nature 0 transfus$ into ! *ild4 ,%e taught h] t p[]1 weal?1 fa%ion1 glory1 7 ! true objects ( rational pursuit4 ,%e cultivat$ h] vanity1 h] petulance1 h] imp]i\sness4 ,%e bask$ 9 ! sun%9e ( h] beauty & p[]4 ,fatal p>asite6 %e drew f ! virg9 tree ^u :i* %e fa/5$1 ! su/5ance %e c\ld n h]self extract f ! e>? & air4 ,! too pliant pupil accept$ & improv$ all ! lessons ( ! tea*]2 & behold ! result6 ,( ! true "* ( ,hel5a ,i knew no?+ at ! "t4 ,t discov]y 0 ! result ( subsequ5t in=mation & exp]i5ce4 ,no?+ occurr$ 9 ^? blissful days to break ! spell ( ! en*antress4 ,i did1 inde$1 once or twice notice ! contra/ betwe5 ?is ,a!nian goddess & my pure & sweet si/]s4 ,i did once or twice wond] t ,sappho & ,horace %\ld be h] favorite poets1 & ,aspasia h] model ( female "*4 ,b ^! %ad[y d\bts1 l ! fa9t ?reat ( cl\ds :i* sometimes appe> 9 ! cle>e/ heav51 soon pass$ away4 ,hel5a1 pett$ & spoil$1 set all ! regulations ( fa%ion & propriety at defiance4 ,%e did z %e pleas$1 & e "o 0 pleas$ ) :at %e did4 ,n e "o2 = %e 0 ! t]ror ( rigid mo!rs & ! sc&al ( prudi% maid5s4 ,%e walk$ unveil$ 9 ! /reets4 ,%e made h]self conspicu\s at ! !atre & ! rac+-gr\nds4 ,%e visit$ arti/s 9 _! /udios & poets 9 _! *amb]s4 ,%e receiv$ v que/ionable visitors at v unseasonable h\rs4 ,h] dress+-room ev5 op5$ its doors to favorite lov]s1 or to ^? ( :om %e wi%$ to make a conv5i5ce4 ,all ?is 0 done s boldly1 s gracefully1 s navely1 t no "o d>$ to express a h9t aga9/ h] virtue4 ,%e admitt$ me to h] pres5ce on a v famili> foot+4 ,"o ev5+ ,i call$ to see h]1 :5 %e 0 dress+ = a gr& supp]1 & ! s]vant u%]$ me into h] b\doir4 ,%e 0 "o bright blaze ( jewels & beauty4 ,! dress+-maid 0 giv+ ! la/ c>ess+ t\*es to h] hair4 ,%e 0 scrut9iz+ ! "w 9 a metallic mirror ) an ivory h&le1 :i* %e held l a fan4 8,come6 my ,judean60 %e said1 ca/+ ^u me "o ( h] mo/ bewit*+ glances--8come & put ?is r+ into my e>40 ,?is captivat+ s]vice ,i r5d]$ ) trembl+ h&s & palpitat+ he>t4 ,! dress+-maid smil$ at my awkw>dness & trepidation4 ,hel5a nev] look$ m respl5d5t4 ,i felt helplessly b\nd to ! *>iot-:eels ( h] de/9y4 ,! wait+-girl left ! room1 & fall+ at ! feet ( ! unimpassion$ beauty1 ,i /amm]$ =? my passion4 8,hel5a6 d y "k t ,i love y80 ,%e 0 contemplat+ h] *9 9 ! mirror1 & repli$ )\t look+ at me3 8,( c\rse y d4 ,ev]ybody does40 8,b1 ,hel5a6 ,i _c live )\t lov+ y40 8,t is *>m+4 ,love me !n & live40 8,hel5a60 said ,i1 /]nly1 8y mock me4 ,y allure me z if ,i 7 a man2 & !n y treat me z if ,i 7 a boy4 ,y invite me2 y evade me2 y tantalize me4 ,c y n love me80 8,let me see10 said %e1 look+ up at ! ,judgm5t ( ,p>is beautifully fresco$ on ! ceil+2 8let me see3 ,i love wisdom1 ri*es1 p[] & glory4 ,:5 y are wise z ,socrates1 ri* z ,crsus1 eloqu5t z ,cic]o1 & p[]ful z ,cs>1 ,i w love y & give myself to y40 8,y\r comb9ation is impossible10 said ,i1 pr\dly1 bit+ my lip ) fail+ he>t & unconceal$ vexation4 ,h] face sudd5ly became radiant ) a yield+1 t5d] & beautiful expression1 & ,i add$3-- 8,b if x exi/$1 ,hel5a1 y w\ld be wor?y ( x40 8,to love su* z y\rs10 %e said1 sweetly1 press+ my h&s1 8all ?+s are possible4 ,we h be5 dream+ 9 ! b\doir2 let u conv]se 9 ! p>lor40 ,%e l$ ! way & ov]:elm$ me ) su* civilities t ,i =got ! pa/ :i* _h w\nd$ me1 & _h gold5 glimpses ( t magical future :i* 0 to console & bless me4 ,su* is ! dream-l& ( love6 ,my si/]s cont9u$ to write ! mo/ gl[+ lett]s1 full ( piety & t5d] affection4 ,_! rehe>sal ( miracles & p>ables1 & ( voices f heav51 _! en?usiasm1 _! fai?1 _! zeal1 all fell z dull & cold ^u my e> z ! monoton\s songs ( an old nurse4 ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,,xii4 ,,! ,,hall ,,( ,,apollo4 ,illu/ration3 ,initial ,i 0 awak5$ f my delici\s dream by ,demetrius1 :o importun$ me to accompany him to ,rome1 :i!r he _h be5 despat*$ by 8 fa!r on bus9ess ( extreme importance4 ,?is rem9d$ me t a visit to ,rome 0 an ess5tial "p ( my uncle's educational programme4 ,i _h ab&on$ philosophy = love1 & love c>es no?+ = ?\ght1 except z "o mode ( express+ ! s5tim5ts4 ,my education1 !re=e1 0 at a /&-/ill4 ,i hesitat$ & %udd]$ at ! idea ( leav+ ! *>m$ circle 9 :i* ,i /ood entranc$4 ,i w\ld1 p]haps1 h nei!r gratifi$ my fri5d nor obey$ my uncle1 _h n ,hel5a c>elessly dropp$ ! rem>k1 t no /ud5t c\ld truly reg>d 8 c\rse ( in/ruction complet$ until he _h visit$ ,rome4 ,to acquire ?is title to p]fection 9 ! eyes ( ,hel5a1 ,i endur$ ! pangs ( p>t+ & ! mis]ies ( abs5ce2 became a compliant fri5d & an ob$i5t nephew4 ,i w5t to ,rome4 ,rome did n impress me s favorably z ,a!ns4 ,i 0 fond ( art1 b c>$ little = glory4 ,! ef=ts ( man to reproduce ! beauties ( ,nature excit$ my admiration2 8 labors to immortalize himself & 8 de$s excit$ my contempt4 ,! art ( ,rome 0 import$2 h] glory 0 self-acquir$4 ,i _h soon se5 all t ,i c>$ to see ( ! imp]ial city1 :i* ,augu/us _h f\nd ( brick & left ( m>ble4 ,demetrius _h lett]s to "s ( ! mo/ p[]ful & influ5tial m5 9 ,rome1 s t we 7 soon introduc$ into ! be/ society !re4 ,x 0 n long be=e we receiv$ an invitation to "o ( ! spl5did supp]s ( ,hort5sius1 ! ri*e/ man & ! greate/ epicure 9 ! _w4 ,i rememb]$ ! conv]sation ( ! slave-deal] at ,alex&ria4 ,i m5tally resolv$1 z we drove ?r\gh ! magnific5t ar* ( 8 palace gate1 t1 al?\gh ,i might ta/e ( ! night+ales ( ,hort5sius1 ,i c]ta9ly w\ld take none ( 8 fi%4 8,bew>e ( ! fi%-ponds10 said ,i1 laugh+ly1 to ,an?ony1 :o accompani$ u z footman4 ,?is palace ( ,hort5sius 0 an affair ( ,babylonian magnific5ce4 ,ev]y?+ ab\t x 0 ( colossal proportions4 ,x 0 said to h z _m *amb]s z !re 7 days 9 ! ye>4 ,hort5sius _h twelve b$-rooms = himself1 ea* nam$ aft] "o ( ! mon?s1 & gorge\sly furni%$ 9 a mann] to repres5t ! mon? aft] :i* x 0 nam$4 ,!re 7 sev5 banquet+-halls nam$ aft] gods & goddesses--! dreams r ?an ! creations ( art4 ,?is gr& /ructure 0 burn$ dur+ ! fire 9 ! reign ( ,n]o1 & its spl5dors1 no long] to be f\nd any:]e on e>?1 are already reg>d$ z fabul\s4 ,we supp$ 9 ! ,hall ( ,apollo4 ,! company 0 altoge!r male1 :i* ,i did n regret2 = ,i did n wi% to see or speak to a woman 9 ! _w b ,hel5a or my si/]s4 ,x 0 compos$ ( ! magnates1 ! great />s ( ,roman society--soldi]s1 /atesm51 s5ators1 gov]nors1 etc4--! lea/ ( !m immeasurably above ! two "y plebeian /ud5ts1 :o1 dumbf\nd$ at all !y saw1 c\ld n b exp]i5ce a pa9ful s5se ( _! own insignificance4 ,on my "r h&1 h[ev]1 at ! table1 0 a noble & s$ate ,roman1 ,pontius ,pilate1 ! gov]nor ( ,judea4 ,he _h visit$ ,rome to consult ! emp]or & ! s5ate ab\t ! affairs ( 8 prov9ce1 & 0 on ! eve ( return+4 ,he seem$ pleas$ :5 he le>n$ t my home 0 9 ! neighborhood ( ,j]usalem2 & ) great tact & urbanity drew me out ( my ab/ract$ mood1 dissipat$ my ba%fulness1 & engag$ me 9 an animat$ conv]sation4 ,! ,hall ( ,apollo 0 a miracle ( beauty4 ,its area 0 imm5se2 its %ape1 circul>4 ,support$ by tw5ty-f\r gold5 columns1 ! ceil+ rose to a va/ height1 z a blue dome pa9t$ to repres5t ! visible heav5s4 ,! sun blaz+ up ?r\gh masses ( d5se & crimson cl\ds2 ! int5sely cle> c]ulean e!r above2 ! horizon all ar\nd pi]c$ by m\nta9 peaks1 ov]hung by roll+ vapors ( purple & gold1 produc$ an illusion ( a/oni%+ p[] & magnific5ce4 ,e object 9 ! room1 ! pictures1 ! /atu>y1 ! bass-reliefs ^u ! columns1 ! c>v+s ^u ! c\*es & ! gorge\s table1 & ev5 ! engrav+s & emboss+s ^u ! spl5did vases & vessels :i* adorn$ x1 7 all descriptive or symbolical ( ,apollo1 8 attributes & a*ievem5ts4 ,! wond] ( ! hall1 h[ev]1 0 a gold5 *&eli] ( incr$ible size1 conta9+ a ?\s& rose-color$ tap]s1 :i* light$ ! sc5e ) a brilliancy rival+ ! day4 ,i w n attempt to describe ! fea/1 hav+ no p>ticul> fondness = epicurism4 ,! bill ( f>e exce$$ any?+ ,i _h ev] imag9$4 ,!re 0 s]vice aft] s]vice1 dess]t aft] dess]t1 w9e aft] w9e1 seem+ly )\t end4 ,! meat-c\rses1 la/+ ab\t ?ree h\rs1 7 pres5t$ by h&some boys ( e nationality1 clad 9 beautiful liv]y4 ,! aft]-c\rses1 ( sweets & luxuries1 7 br\ght on by female s]vants1 lovely 9 p]son & graceful 9 mann]1 reveal+ by _! dress or o!rwise e *>m ( ! human body4 ,:5 ! company 0 well fill$ & duly flu%$ by ! delici\s w9es1 ! :ole we/]n wall ( ! ap>tm5t1 by "s hidd5 & admirable me*anism1 sudd5ly op5$ or *ang$ l a dissolv+ view1 & reveal$ an int]ior ap>tm5t a little above ! level ( ours1 :i* look$ l a beautiful g>d5 adorn$ & light$ 9 a /yle ( ,ori5tal magnific5ce4 ,! %rubb]y & fl[]s ( ?is g>d5 7 ! conc5trat$ beauties ( ! floral _w 9 all regions1 cultivat$ "h by art1 & (f]+ an inc5se ( p]fume to ^! ,roman rul]s1 :o aspir$ to conqu] n only man b nature4 ,ivory /atues ( gods & goddesses1 ( nymphs & fawns & satyrs1 add$ greatly to ! beauty ( ! sc5e4 ,b :5 a doz5 danc+-girls alight$ z x 7 f heav5 ^u ?is miracul\s /age1 & :irl$ among ^! /atues & fl[]s1 less p]fect & beautiful ?an !mselves1 ! fasc9ation1 to ^? :o reg>d$ su* en*antm5ts1 0 complete4 8,m music6 m w9e60 cri$ ,hort5sius f 8 purple c\* a little elevat$ above ! re/--8! fea/ ( ?\ght ends always 9 ! fea/ ( love40 ,! banquet progress$ ) cont9u$ v>iations ( /imulus & ent]ta9m5t4 ,! gue/s 7 regal$ by invisible music1 repeat$ly *ang$1 & repres5t+ ! airs & /yles ( e nation :i* _h b[$ its head to ! ,roman conqu]or4 ,! w9e fell fa/ into gold5 goblets f vases compos$ ( preci\s gems4 ,! day dawn$4 ,! noise & excitem5t increas$3 ! conv]sation deg5]at$ into a babble1 & ! fea/ into a debau*2 :5 a mo/ extraord9>y incid5t occurr$1 *ang+ my uncle's programme & p]haps my :ole fate 9 ! tw9kl+ ( an eye4 ,a great clamor 0 he>d outside ( ! door ne>e/ ,hort5sius4 ,l\d & angry voices1 ! rapid tread ( _m feet1 curses1 groans1 %rieks1 indicat$ ! approa* ( "s dreadful /orm4 ,x 0 a ?und]bolt 9 a cle> sky4 ,all sprang to _! feet & advanc$ t[>d ! s\nds1 :5 ! door 0 bur/ op5 ) viol5ce1 & my s]vant ,an?ony ru%$ 91 foam+ at ! m\?1 ble$+ pr(usely f sev]al w\nds & fl\ri%+ an imm5se knife ov] 8 head4 8,i w kill him if ,i die = x60 he %\t$1 gl>+ fi]cely on ! brilliant cr[d be=e him1 & endeavor+ to s+le out ! object ( 8 hate4 8,:at does all ?is mean1 ,an?ony80 ,i exclaim$1 leap+ =w>d & seiz+ him by ! ?roat4 8,i h sav$ him f ! fi%-pond10 he answ]$ /]nly1 po9t+ to ! nak$ =m ( a poor negro1 :om ! dome/ics _h at la/ succe$$ 9 hurl+ to ! floor1 & :o _h foll[$ ,an?ony1 def5d+ him f 8 pursu]s4 8,& :y did y n fly8 madman60 ,i exclaim$1 8:y did y come "h80 8,oh6 dea? 0 inevitable10 he answ]$1 9 a tone ( desp]ation1 8& ,i det]m9$ fir/ to kill ! vile despot1 ! au?or ( ^! cruelties40 8,slave6 b>b>ian60 e*o$ f all p>ts ( ! hall4 8,slave ,i am3 b>b>ian ,i may be60 %\t$ ,an?ony defiantly2 8b 9 my c\ntry !y d n fe$ fi%es ) m540 ,! cr[d _h /ood back a little :ile we 7 speak+3 b n[ !re 0 a sudd5 ru% ^u u 9 front & re>4 ,i 0 pu%$ =cibly aside1 & ,an?ony 0 borne d[n1 dis>m$ & b\nd ) 8 fell[-prison]1 ^: rescue _h caus$ ?is great excitem5t4 8,?r[ ! old "o to ! fi%es imm$iately10 cri$ ,hort5sius 9 a l\d & cruel tone4 8,b9d ?is "y villa9 by ! pond & gu>d him till ,i come4 ,i w cut him up1 /rip by /rip1 ) my own h&s40 ,a murmur ( approbation ran ?r\gh ! assembly4 ,?ru/+ ! by/&]s away1 ,i confront$ ,hort5sius face to face4 8,o mo/ noble ,roman10 ,i exclaim$1 8p>don some?+ 9 ?is poor man to ! _s ( lib]ty4 ,he 0 born free1 a pr9ce 9 8 little realm2 & l y1 he has be5 a brave soldi]4 ,mis=tune 9 w>1 n crime1 has enslav$ him4 ,he is hone/1 fai?ful & noble4 ,x 0 a fi]ce & glori\s love ( 8 own race :i* has fir$ him to ?is ra% de$4 ,8 sublime self-sacrifice1 8 desp]ate c\rage surely des]ve a bett] fate at ! h&s ( a ,roman & a soldi]4 ,sp>e him & =give him60 ,x w\ld be difficult to describe ! fi]ce & haughty />e :i* ,hort5sius & 8 noble gue/s fix$ ^u me dur+ ?is little spee*4 ,!y wond]$ at my folly1 my /upidity1 my audacity4 ,to plead = a black slave :o _h drawn 8 knife aga9/ a ,roman s5ator6 ,to accord ! _s ( lib]ty to su* v]m9 ( ! e>?6 ,to speak ( !m z brave1 fai?ful1 noble1 glori\s1 sublime6 ,!y 7 /upefi$ at ! novelty & h]esy ( su* ideas4 ,i 0 c]ta9ly ei!r a fool or a madman4 ,hort5sius1 l[]+ 8 voice & infus+ into x a little suavity1--= he sudd5ly rememb]$ t ,i 0 8 gue/1--exclaim$3 8,! prop] discipl9e ( my palace1 "y man1 dem&s ! imm$iate dea? ( ?is w\ld-be assass94 ,i w replace y\r s]vant ) a bett]40 8,t is beyond y\r p[]10 ,i repli$ impetu\sly2 8y\r :ole h\sehold w\ld n replace him4 ,i am indebt$ to 8 bro!r = my si/]'s life & honor4 ,i am b\nd to ?is man's fle% & blood z if !y 7 my own4 ,i _c1 ,i w n des]t him 9 8 extremity40 ,!re 7 l\d exclamations ( surprise1 contempt & disapproval4 ,_m1 h[ev]1 7 sil5t1 t\*$ p]haps by a lat5t magnanimity4 8,:at w y d80 exclaim$ a haughty old ,roman 9 a mo/ provok+ tone4 8,d80 said ,i ra%ly1 /rik+ my h& ^u ! hilt ( my dagg]1 8d8--,i w def5d him3 ,i w die ) him40 ,?is caus$ a great upro> 9 ! assembly4 ,l\d cries ( 8,away ) him6 out ) him60 8,insult a ,roman s5ator60 8,abettor ( slaves & assass9s60 8,insurrectioni/6 ,madman6 ,idiot60 8,d[n ) ! base ,judean60 res\nd$ ?r\gh ! spl5did ,hall ( ,apollo4 ,my fri5d ,demetrius1 :o _h hi!rto /ood ne> me1 n[ slipp$ into ! cr[d & disappe>$4 ,hav+ defi$ ! supreme p[] ( ! place1 ,i w\ld probably h %>$ ! fate ( ! wret*$ ,e?iopian1 _h n assi/ance come to me f an unexpect$ qu>t]4 ,pontius ,pilate /epp$ betwe5 ,hort5sius & myself1 & wav+ 8 h& ) great dignity & grace1 reque/$ sil5ce4 8,p>don1 de> fri5ds & mo/ noble s5ators6 p>don ! w9e :i* has made ?is ra% y\? =get bo? reason & duty4 ,he is a subject ( m9e1 be+ a native & resid5t ( my prov9ce4 ,i claim jurisdiction ov] him1 & w puni% him z he des]ves4 ,he is f ?is mom5t a prison] 9 *>ge ( my ret9ue4 ,he %all be c>ri$ back to 8 native village1 dis>m$1 b\nd & disgrac$1 s t all ,judean y\?s may "k :at folly x is to insult a ,roman s5ator40 ,!re 0 a /rong murmur ( approbation ?r\gh\t ! assembly1 & ,hort5sius nodd$ approval4 ,pilate cont9u$3 8,i w\ld n say a ^w to save ?is ,african f ! dea? he s ri*ly m]its1 7 x n = "o d>k suspicion :i* crosses my m9d & :i* w n p]mit me to be sil5t4 ,i suspect ?is infuriate wret* to be a madman2 & ! insane1 y "k1 are "u ! protection ( ! gods &1 sacr$ f ! fangs ( ! law4 ,p]mit me to convey ?is slave also 9 irons to ,judea4 ,i w h 8 case c>efully /udi$ by my own physician4 ,if ! gods h smitt5 him 9 _! wisdom1 let him g free z our laws direct4 ,if he exhibits en\gh reason to be held responsible1 ,i w h him driv5 into ! dreadful des]t beyond ! ,salt ,sea1 & s5t5ce him to a p]petual exile 9 its awful solitudes4 ,if he is ev] discov]$ we/ ( ! riv] ,jordan1 8 puni%m5t %all be dea?1 )\t "q or delay40 ,:e!r ?is proposition /ruck ! he>]s z rem>kable1 or :at 0 m likely1 ! social & civil weight ( ,pontius ,pilate bore d[n _! opposition & sil5c$ _! scruples1 ,hort5sius acc$$ to x & all seem$ satisfi$4 ,aft] dr9k+ aga9 to ! heal? ( ,hort5sius1 ! company disp]s$4 ,i soon f\nd myself a prison] b\nd = ,judea1 des]t$ by ,demetrius1 exil$ f ,hel5a1 full ( sadness & d>k =ebod+s1 ) ! educational t\r project$ by my good uncle br\ght to a sudd5 & ignom9i\s conclusion4 ,! only com=t ,i exp]i5c$ dur+ ! long & melan*oly voyage 0 ! ?\ght t ,i _h sav$ ! life ( my high-spirit$ ,an?ony1 :om ,i 0 n p]mitt$ to see1 & ^: d>+ conduct ,i m admir$ ! m ,i ?\ght ( x4 ,i 0 /ruck also ) ! wond]ful tact1 c\rtesy & k9dness ( ,pontius ,pilate4 ,i w\ld gladly h ?ank$ him = 8 s]vices2 b ,i 0 kept 9 /rict conf9em5t1 & he>d & saw no?+ ( ! s$ate gov]nor4 ,on our arrival at ,j]usalem1 ,i 0 unb\nd & tak5 privately be=e him4 8,y are n[ free10 he said4 8,i admire y too mu* to inflict any fur!r puni%m5t ^u y = y\r incr$ible ra%ness4 ,y _c help be+ brave1 b y c compel y\rself to be prud5t4 ,g1 sir6 ,:5 y get into tr\ble aga91 let me he> f y & ,i w befri5d y1 if possible40 8,& my s]vant80 said ,i1 hop+ to int]c$e = ,an?ony4 8,he has be5 driv5 into ! des]t40 ,an h\r aft]w>d ,i 0 trudg+ up ! ,m\nt ( ,olives1 ?9k+ ( :at a joy\s surprise ,i 0 ab\t to give to "s de> little s\ls 9 ,be?any4 ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,,xiii4 ,,my ,,fir/ ,,dea?4 ,illu/ration3 ,initial ,h[ beautiful 0 my old home1 emb[]$ 9 trees & p]fum$ ) fl[]s6 ,h[ *>m+ 7 my lovely si/]s1 tw9-/>s ( ! social heav51 dropp+ sweet influ5ce on all :o receiv$ _! t5d] light6 ,h[ peaceful & pure 0 ! self-sacrific+ old age ( ,beltrezzor1 ov] ^: pagan he>t1 s full ( simple love & wisdom1 ! mo/ or?odox angels kept k9dly wat*6 ,a great sadness re/$ ^u our little h\sehold1 on acc\nt ( ! rec5t murd] ( ,john ! ,bapti/ by ! cruel ,h]od1 at ! in/igation ( a /ill m cruel woman4 ,t pure & good man _h be5 ca/ into prison ab\t ! "t t ,*ri/ began 8 m9i/ry1 & ! morn+ /> pal$ on ! approa* ( ! blaz+ ,sun4 ,he _h ev] be5 rememb]$ ) peculi> t5d]ness & gratitude2 & heav5 became de>] to u by receiv+ into its fold ! g5tle h]mit ( ! wild]ness4 ,my si/]s _h gr[n loveli]4 ,on ,m>?a's cle> br[ ! sweet maturity ( ?\ght 0 impr9t$4 ,m+l$ ) ! light ( love on ,m>y's face 0 a t\*+ sadness1 ( :i* none b ,m>?a & ,i suspect$ ! mean+4 ,^! wom51 s pure1 s cultivat$1 s beautiful1 7 ab/ract$ f ! entire _w4 ,s\ght by _m lov]s1 !y _h disc>d$ ! v ?\ght ( love4 ,!y 7 w$d$ 9 he>t to ! heav5ly bridegroom4 ,!y _h he>d b once f our old fri5d1 ! ,son ( ! ,des]t4 ,a /range s]vant1 no d\bt a disguis$ robb]1 br\ght back ! r+ ) a note f ! w&]]1 say+ t he 0 unwor?y to we> x2 t x afflict$ him ) sorr[ful dreams & burn$ into 8 s\l l iron4 ,m>?a h]self =tunately met him at ! gate1 & w\ld n p]mit him to dep>t )\t an answ]1 z he 0 in/ruct$ to d4 ,%e s5t back ! r+ ) h] love & ,m>y's to ! savior ( _! bro!r1 ) ! solemn assurance t ! r+ _h a great bless+ = him conceal$ )9 its curse4 ,i soon discov]$ t my si/]s _h b "o idea1 "o /udy1 "o passion4 ,_! individuality 0 lo/ 9 _! p]petual conc5tration ( s\l ^u "o object4 ,t object 0 ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,!y no long] spoke ( him z ! prophet ( ,naz>e?4 ,m>?a _h at la/ discov]$ ) h] eyes :at ,m>y _h se5 ) h] he>t4 ,he 0 ! ,son ( ,god3 ,he 0 ! ,messiah4 ,) subdu$ voices & rev]5t ge/ures !y call$ him ! ,"l4 ,all ?is 0 v /range to me1 fre% f beautiful & romantic ,greece1 :]e alt>s 7 erect$ to a ?\s& gods3 fre% f ! s*ools ( philosophy1 :]e ! only deity taught 0 a spiritual ess5ce1 inf9ite1 inconceivable1 unfa?omable4 ,i li/5$1 h[ev]1 ) int]e/ to ! recital ( miracles :i* 7 c]ta9ly a/\nd+2 to p>ables :i* 7 replete ) spiritual wisdom2 & to disc\rses--= my si/]s treasur$ all 8 words by he>t & repeat$ !m to me--:i* 7 radiant ) a c]ta9 div9e light & beauty4 ,i 0 ready to conc$e t ?is man mu/ be ! greate/ philosoph] ( ! age4 ,?is 0 ! op9ion ( our good uncle1 :o1 h[ev]1 took no tr\ble to see or he> ! work] ( su* great miracles4 ,he said !re 0 no?+ new "u ! sun2 t all ?+s repeat$ !mselves ov] & ov] aga92 t all wisdom _h be5 spok5 & e miracle p]=m$ ages & ages ago4 ,! ,son ( ,god 0 9 8 m9d synonym\s ) a disciple ( ! ,sun4 ,beltrezzor 0 sorry t ,i did n rema9 a ye> at ,rome1 = he said ! practical atmosph]e ( t city w\ld h mod]at$ & utiliz$ ! ideality ,i _h drawn f ,a!ns4 ,he 0 greatly pleas$1 h[ev]1 ) my conduct at ! supp] ( ,hort5sius4 8,! man :o sees any reason10 he w\ld say1 8:y ,hort5sius %\ld be m weal?y1 m p[]ful1 m respect$1 m glori\s ?an ,an?ony1 has n incorporat$ into 8 s\l ! fir/ ray ( ! div9e pr9ciple ( fire1 & is altoge!r ignorant ( ! p[] & beauty ( ! sun40 ,a few weeks aft] my return1 ,beltrezzor transf]r$ ! :ole ( my fa!r's e/ate1 improv$ & augm5t$1 into my h&s4 ,no reason+s1 no entreaties c\ld induce him to ab&on or ev5 to def] 8 long-contemplat$ j\rney to ! extreme ,ea/4 ,a /range1 sad home-sickness _h app>5tly seiz$ him2 & he wait$ ) a *ildi% impati5ce = ! arrival ( ! c>avan f ,egypt :i* 0 to escort him to ,assyria4 ,x came at l5g?2 & our adieus 7 long & bitt]4 ,we 7 b\nd to him n only by a pi\s gratitude = 8 ri* gifts & 8 unv>y+ k9dness1 b by a g5u9e love ( 8 sweet1 s9c]e & noble nature4 ,we wept at ! ?\ght ( ! de> old man go+ away into t f>-(f1 m>vel\s ,ori5t1 )\t a wife or *ild to com=t 8 decl9+ ye>s4 ,my si/]s also seem$ ov]:elm$ ) grief1 t "o s good & s belov$ _h reject$ to ! la/1 ) a quiet1 polite incr$ulity1 all ! evid5ces ( ! div9e mission ( ,jesus4 ,! old man's p>t+ words to me1 z he lean$ f 8 camel1 :isp]+ 9 my e>1 7 ^!3 8,bew>e1 my son1 ( ! _s ( fanaticism :i* has fall5 ^u y\r good si/]s4 ,i bequea? y ?is v]se f "o ( ! sacr$ books 9 ,p]sia4 ,x is my la/ & be/ gift to y4 ,d n =get x3-- 8#8,x is m truly pi\s to s[ ! gr\nd ) dilig5ce1 ?an to say t5 ?\s& pray]s 9 idl5ess4' 8,adieu60 ,a few days aft] my uncle's dep>ture1 we 7 invit$ to d9e at ! h\se ( a wor?y ,ph>isee1 ,simon by "n1 :o 0 t\*$ at he>t ) a secret admiration ( ,jesus4 ,preoccupi$ z ,i 0 ) ?\ghts ( ,hel5a1 & c>+ no?+ ab\t spiritual ?+s1 ,i w\ld n h accompani$ my si/]s b at _! e>ne/ solicitation4 ,!y _h be5 assur$ t ,jesus w\ld be pres5t1 & !y 7 anxi\s = me to behold ! object ( _! love & wor%ip4 ,he came1 & salut$ u all ) a *>m+ grace & sweetness ( mann]4 ,8 face 0 h&some1 ?\ghtful & b5evol5t1 b did n /rike y z maje/ic or sublime4 ,!re 0 a w9n+ sociality 9 8 conv]sation1 :i* y did n expect f 8 s]5e & r p5sive c\nt5ance4 ,he 0 quiet & mode/ 9 8 demeanor2 & in/ead ( lead+ ! ?\ghts ( ! company1 he spoke less ?an any "o pres5t4 ,reflect+1 by ! light ( lat] & gr&] exp]i5ces1 ^u ! fir/ impressions made on me by ?is my/]i\s man1 ,i am conv9c$ t n only 8 face1 8 expressions1 8 words1 b 8 :ole life 0 comp>atively a seal$ book to ! p :o saw him 9 ! fle%4 ,!y saw only ! outside1 ! husk1 ! fle%ly1 n ! heav5ly "p ( him4 ,!y 7 ignorant ( ! sublimities1 ! inf9ities conceal$ )94 ,:oev] sees only ! physical & n at ! same "t ! spiritual side ( any?+1 sees little4 ,! fl[]s1 ! gems1 ! cl\ds1 all beautiful objects1 on ! spiritual side are full ( sacr$ my/]ies4 ,ignorant ( ^! little ?+s1 h[ c\ld ! m5 ( t day compreh5d ! ,*ri/8 ,:at a diff]5t banquet f t ( ,hort5sius6 ,a pla9 room1 op5+ directly on ! /reet2 a pla9 table2 a pla9 company4 ,at ,rome we _h a wild ambition1 aspir+ to univ]sal empire1 & imitat+ ev5 9 its luxuries all ! spl5dors ( heav5 & e>?4 ,"h 7 simple ta/es1 frugal habits1 civic indu/ry1 neighborly love4 ,!re ! presid+ g5ius 0 ! demon ( pride2 "h x 0 ! ,div9e ,man4 ,! fea/ 0 ne>ly ov]1 :5 a woman1 closely conceal+ h] face 9 a black veil1 glid$ s(tly into ! room & /ood beh9d ,jesus4 ,?is w\ld n h attract$ special att5tion1 = p 7 com+ 9 & go+ out all ! "t2 b ,i rememb]$ ,m>y's acc\nt ( ! my/]i\s woman :o always foll[$ ,jesus & 8 disciples at a di/ance4 ,i !re=e wat*$ ! movem5ts ( ?is p]son ) consid]able int]e/4 ,%e b5t l[ ov] ! feet ( ,jesus z he recl9$ on 8 c\*1 & ,i obs]v$ t %e 0 weep+4 ,%e seem$ deeply agitat$4 ,sudd5ly %e let d[n ! great mass ( d>k br[n hair f h] head1 & began wip+ ! feet ( ! ,"l4 ,wa%+ 8 feet ) h] te>s & wip+ !m ) ! hair ( h] head6 ,:at t\*+ humility6 ,:at contrition6 ,!n %e ano9t$ 8 feet ) a preci\s o9tm5t :i* %e drew f h] bosom4 ,my ?\ghts 7 conc5trat$ on t kneel+ figure4 ,i ent]$ s deeply into :at ,i imag9$ to be h] feel+s & sorr[s1 ,i 0 s attract$ by :at mu/ h be5 a secret spiritual aff9ity ) h] own s\l1 t ,i he>d almo/ no?+ ( ! conv]sation :i* ensu$ betwe5 ,jesus & ,simon1 & :i* is record$ by ! apo/le ,luke :o 0 himself pres5t4 ,:5 ! div9e voice pron\nc$ ! v]dict1 8,?y s9s are =giv520 a /range & bewild]+ s5se ( delight came ov] me1 z if ,i myself _h be5 ! s9n] :o s\ght & f\nd ! p>don ( s94 ,i 0 contemplat+ 9 amazem5t ?is rev]b]ation1 z x 71 ( ! woman's s5tim5ts 9 my own _s1 :5 ,jesus said1 8,?y fai? ha? sav$ !e3 g 9 peace20 & ! woman turn$ sl[ly ar\nd & walk$ sobb+ out ( ! door4 ,sc>cely kn[+ :at ,i did1 ,i quietly )drew f my place at ! table & foll[$ h]4 ,sudd5ly1 9 "s ec/asy ( religi\s feel+1 %e ?rew h] arms wildly t[>d ! sky1 ! veil 0 lift$ = a mom5t1 & ,i recogniz$ ! beautiful1 sorr[+ & purifi$ features ( ,m>y ,magdal56 ,! spell :i* ov]p[]$ me 0 in/antly )drawn1 & ,i return$ to my seat4 ,no psy*ology ,i _h ev] be5 taught1 ?rew any light on ?is s+ul> ph5om5on2 & x rema9$ a my/]y until solv$ by t special light ( ! spiritual _w :i* ,i alone ( all m5 h enjoy$4 ,aft] t ! my/]i\s prea*] & miracle-work] 0 a frequ5t visitor at our h\se 9 ,be?any4 ,i came no ne>] to him ?an at fir/3 ,i und]/ood him no bett]4 ,he 0 a good1 wise1 wond]ful man2 beyond t ,i c\ld n p5etrate4 ,i became intimate ) all 8 disciples2 & ,i lov$ to dispute ) !m on !ological subjects1 & to puzzle _! uncultivat$ bra9s ) my philosophical d\bts & quibbles4 ,b 9 ! pres5ce ( _! ma/] ,i _h no?+ to say4 ,i /ood aba%$ & sil5c$ by "s secret p[] :i* ,i c\ld n expla94 ,i nev] ?\ght1 h[ev]1 ( ackn[l$g+ him z ! ,messiah1 or ! ,son ( ,god4 ,! reason 01 t my he>t & m9d 7 too closely rivet$ to nature & ! ?+s ( s5se1 to rise to ! conception & love ( spiritual ?+s4 ,:ile ! faces ( my si/]s 7 gr[+ m & m radiant & s]5e f ! spiritual life :i* 0 deep5+ 9 _! s\ls1 m9e became pale & hagg>d f ! burd5 ( conceal$ long+s & ! vigils ( a burn+ b unf$ hope4 ,i _h writt5 & rewritt5 to ,hel5a1 b receiv$ no answ]4 ,i w\ld h return$ to ,a!ns2 b ! fe> ( leav+ my t5d] & helpless si/]s s ne> to su* a subtle enemy z ,magi/us1 & ,beltrezzor away (f 9 ,p]sia1 deta9$ me unwill+ly at ,be?any4 ,abs5ce ext+ui%es a feeble love2 b int5sifies a great "o4 ,i brood$ 9 solitude4 ,i took int]e/ 9 no?+4 ,conv]sation 0 irksome4 ,religion & philosophy 7 alike neglect$4 ,i exp]i5c$ t apa?y :i* a great desolation ( he>t produces1 & :i* m5 attribute to moros5ess or /upidity4 ,i 0 fe$+ ) ! int5se hung] ( love ^u my treasur$ memories ( ,hel5a2 dev\r+ e ^w %e _h spok51 e look1 e tone1 e *ang+ =m1 e %ift+ light ( h] miracul\s beauty4 ,my love = ,hel5a1 = reasons :i* ,i did n !n compreh5d1 0 n ( a soo?+1 ennobl+1 purify+ type4 ,x 0 a disquiet+1 p>alyz+1 corrod+ passion4 ,! sph]e ( ?is woman1 :olly incapable ( ! heav5ly duties ( wife & "m1 did n lead me1 enc\rag$ & /r5g!n$1 into ! sweet & useful activities ( life4 ,l an evil _s r1 x drove me into ! wild]ness2 tempt$ me ) /ones :i* 7 n bread2 & haunt$ me ) wild dreams & insane ambitions4 ,?us _m weeks pass$ away1 & ! fev] ( my s\l _h s worn & wa/$ me t my si/]s became s]i\sly al>m$ at my condition1 n kn[+ ! cause2 = ,i _h nev] divulg$ my pagan goddess to ^! pi\s little ones4 ,"o day ,i 0 sudd5ly lift$ out ( ! cav]n ( despair into ! s]5e/ sunlight ( hope4 ,i receiv$ a message f ,hel5a t %e 0 travel+ ) h] fa!r to ! mo/ not$ places 9 ,asia1 & w\ld sp5d a few days 9 ,j]usalem2 t %e 0 ! gue/ ( ,ala/or1 a weal?y ,greek m]*ant ( ! city1 & t h] visit w\ld be devoid ( g5u9e pleasure unless %e c\ld see once m h] e/eem$ fri5d1 :o _h sav$ ! life ( h] bro!r4 ,n[ occurr$ a mo/ curi\s m5tal ph5om5on4 ,! sudd5 reaction ( joy 9 ! feeble & excit$ /ate ( my n]v\s sy/em1 ov]p[]$ my bra94 ,i became ! victim ( an absurd1 grotesque illusion4 ,i leap$ at once f ! abyss ( self-abasem5t to ! madde/ height ( presumption4 ,i transf]r$ my entire exp]i5ces ( he>t & m9d to ,hel5a4 ,%e1 ,i imag9$1 0 p9+ ) unconqu]able passion = me4 ,%e 0 wa/$ & worn by unreveal$1 unrequit$ love4 ,%e _h suff]$ & fad$ 9 sil5ce until long] concealm5t 0 dea?4 ,h] fa!r _h br\ght h] "u cov] ( travel really to meet me aga91 to draw me once m to h] feet1 to obta9 my confessions1 & to receive new hope & life f my words4 ,i 0 fill$ ) an unspeakable t5d]ness1 ) a g5]\s compassion4 ,i w\ld fly to h]2 ,i w\ld console h]2 ,i w\ld make h] life & happ9ess secure by giv+ h] my own4 ,busi$ ) ^! mad fancies1 & mutt]+ !m to myself z ,i w5t along1 ,i hurri$ to ! h\se ( ,ala/or4 ,u%]$ into ! pres5ce ( ,hel5a1 ,i 0 surpris$ & aba%$ by ! s]5e & smil+ expression ( h] c\nt5ance1 & h] spl5did physique1 ^u :i* nei!r "t nor love _h yet writt5 ! fa9te/ trace ( ravage4 ,%e receiv$ me )\t ! lea/ emb>rassm5t 9 ! gay & sp>kl+ mann] ( a cold & poli%$ que5 ( society4 ,i saw 9 a mom5t t ,i 0 n lov$1 t %e _h nev] ?\ght ( me1 t my hopes 7 dreams1 my passion a madness4 ,i read my doom 9 ! *>m+ suavity ( my reception4 ,disappo9t$1 *ill$1 bewild]$1 he>tsick1 mis]able1 ,i ma9ta9$ a brok5 conv]sation = a little :ile1 until ,hel5a1 p]ceiv+ ) h] woman's wit1 some?+1 & p]haps all ( my secret1 broke (f ! int]view4 8,y are sick10 said %e t5d]ly1 8y are fev]i%1 y are 9 pa94 ,y %\ld n h come until to-morr[40 8,g home n[10 %e cont9u$1 tak+ my h& k9dly 9 h]s1 8g home & be c>$ =4 ,:5 y get bett] y mu/ come aga91 & we w talk ( ,a!ns & art1 ( poetry & love2 & ( all ! beautiful ?+s t ravi% ! he>ts ( m5 & wom540 ,i d n rememb] :at ,i said1 or h[ ,i p>t$ f h]4 ,on ! portico ,i met a man go+ 91 ^: pres5ce s5t a /range %udd] ?r\gh my frame4 ,my diseas$ n]ves 7 v s5sitive4 ,he 0 a p]son ( h&some face1 impos+ appe>ance & graci\s address4 ,he began speak+ to me1 b sudd5ly /opp$ & fix$ 8 great1 black1 lu/r\s eyes fi]cely on me4 ,my fir/ impulse 0 to res5t ?is conduct z an insult2 b ,i quickly p]ceiv$ t my m9d 0 becom+ confus$1 bewild]$1 fasc9at$ by 8 gaze1 & ,i av]t$ my face ) a great ef=t & hurri$ d[n ! /eps4 ,i did n d>e to look back4 ,at ! foot ( ! /airs ,i ran he$lessly aga9/ our old relative & enemy1 ,magi/us1 :om ,i _h n se5 s9ce my return f ,rome4 ,seiz+ him by ! %\ld]s ,i gasp$1 8,:o is ?is man on ! portico80 8,simon ,magus10 said he1 ) a co>se laugh1--8,simon ,magus1 ! pr9ce ( ,egyptian magic1 & he has evid5tly ca/ ! evil eye ^u y4 ,woe to y60 ,i fl$ precipitately ?r\gh ! /reets4 ,:5 ,i rea*$ home ,i 0 9 a burn+ fev]4 ,at night ,i 0 9 a rag+ delirium4 ,x 0 a bra9 fev] ( malignant type4 ,my mad & grotesque illusion ab\t ,hel5a 0 really ! beg9n+ ( my illness4 ,days & nights ( alt]nate excitem5t & /upor pass$ away2 days & nights ( physical torture & m5tal suff]+4 ,my sweet si/]s wat*$ & wept & pray$ by my side4 ,horrible fantasies besieg$ my fev]$ imag9ation4 ,i ?\ght t ,m>y 0 "u ! magician's knife1 & t he w\ld accept no sub/itute = h] ble$+ he>t b t ( ,hel5a4 ,i op5$ my eyes & />t$ ) horror2 = ,m>y 0 seat$ by my side1 ) ! he>t1 z ,i suppos$1 torn out ( h] bosom4 ,!n aga91 ,hort5sius 0 cutt+ up ! beautiful body ( ,hel5a = 8 fi%-ponds1 :ile ! ,egyptian held me fasc9at$ by 8 t]rible eye1 s t ,i c\ld n /ir = h] help4 ,i grew worse & ! end approa*$4 ,i _h n realiz$ my condition3 ,i _h nei!r fe> nor hope3 ,i _h no ?\ght ( dea? or ( ,jesus4 ,at la/1 h[ev]1 :5 ,i 0 dy+1 ,i he>d my si/]s call+ frantically on 8 "n4 ,! "n mu/ h t\*$ "s silv] *ord ( memory4 ,! sweet1 b5evol5t face appe>$ be=e me1 ,m>y ,magdal5 9 h] d>k robe kneel+ beh9d4 ,! t5d] words1 8,?y s9s are =giv510 e*o$ 9 my e>s4 ,m>y & ,m>?a seem$ to me l two %9+ angels float+ up into heav54 ,a sudd5 halo blaz$ ar\nd ! head ( ,jesus4 ,i rea*$ out my arms to him ) wond] & delight1 fell back & expir$ ) a smile ^u my lips4 ,yes6 ,i 0 dead3 &1 wond] ( wond]s6 ,i live aga91 to describe my s5sations1 & to in=m my fell[-m5 :at ,i saw & he>d beh9d ! veil :i* sep>ates ! two worlds--t veil :i* is s ?9 & yet seems s imp5etrable4 ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,,xiv4 ,,my ,,spiritual ,,body4 ,illu/ration3 ,initial ,our sleep is an awak5+3 our dea? is a bir?2 our burial a resurrection4 ,! slumb] ( a babe ^u its "m's brea/1 draw+ f h] bodily w>m? ! secret magnetism ( life1 is a picture ( ! true /ate ( e human s\l1 lean+ unconsci\sly ^u ! bosom ( ,god at ! mom5t :5 b]eav$ fri5ds are exclaim+1 8,he is dead6 he is dead60 ,!y call$ me dead4 ,my si/]s & _! companions r5t _! g>m5ts & cov]$ _! heads ) a%es4 ,unconsci\s ( _! grief1 ,i pass$ beyond ! %ad[s ( ?is _w1 beyond ^! voices & sorr[s1 into ! pure light ( a spiritual realm4 ,dead1 inde$6 ,i liv$ mo/ :5 ,i seem$ to live lea/4 ,dea? is no?+ b a "n = a *ange ( condition4 ,! fir/ ?+ ,i rememb] on return+ to consci\sness1 0 a s(t /ra9 ( di/ant & ravi%+ music4 ,i c\ld n op5 my eyes1 nor did ,i c>e to d s4 ,x 0 p]fect bliss to lie !re 9 sweet repose1 & li/5 to ^? heav5ly s\nds :i* came ne>] & ne>]4 ,i h be5 ask$ if !re 0 music 9 heav54 ,:y1 ! lea/ motion ( ! air !re is musical4 ,music is to ! e> :at light is to ! eye2 & ! s\nds ( heav5 are z sweet z its colors are beautiful4 ,i next became aw>e ( pres5ces ab\t me4 ,h[ c ,i describe ! new s5se :i* in=m$ me ( _! ne>ness6 ,i did n see or feel or he> !m4 ,i p]ceiv$ !m1 intuitively z x 71 by a holy atmosph]e ( love & purity & beauty :i* came ) !m4 ,s ! fl[]s1 )\t s5ses l our own1 :5 ! d>k & *illy night is ov]1 mu/ feel ! tremul\s waves ( light gladd5+ ar\nd !m4 ,^! invisible1 inaudible att5dants 7 engag$ 9 "s (fice ( love ab\t me4 ,:at x 0 ,i did n und]/&2 b ,i felt z if my body 0 be+ drawn out ( some?+1 z a h& is )drawn f a glove1--al?\gh no "o seem$ to t\* me4 ,i ent]$ into a /ate ( exalt$ & blissful s5sations1 totally new to me1 & q incompreh5sible to m5 /ill l+]+ 9 ! fle%4 ,my affections seem$ to be conc5trat$ or deta9$ ^u pure1 t5d]1 lovely & holy ?+s1 s t no?+ pa9ful or d\btful or sorr[ful %\ld /a9 ! %9+ mirror ( ! s\l4 ,i d n "k h[ long ?is exquisite /ate ( happ9ess la/$4 ,x mu/ h be5 r\nd$ (f ) a delici\s sleep2 = x seem$ itself l a sweet & my/]i\s dream1 :5 ,i discov]$ t ,i 0 wid] awake ?an be=e1 & surr\nd$ by a diff]5t ?\gh /ill delightful & purify+ sph]e ( impressions4 ,f ! pres5ces ab\t me ,i seem$ to absorb ! p[] ( ?9k+ & rememb]+ di/9ctly4 ,i c\ld n op5 my eyes1 b ,i seem$ to be contemplat+ a lum9\s atmosph]e1 an inf9ite v>iety ( spl5did & dazzl+ colors1 a :ole univ]se ( light4 ,! ec/asy ( ,joy ) :i*1 bewild]$ & fasc9at$1 ,i /udi$ ?is inexpressible *aos ( light1 is beyond my p[] ( description4 ,9 ! mid/ ( x ,i felt t two p]sons 7 ne> me1 "o at my head & "o at my feet4 ,"o ( !m seem$ to b5d ov] me1 & to be read+ my face z "o reads a book4 ,he !n said to ! o!r 9 a g5tle voice3 8,x is good4 ,8 la/ ?\ghts 7 ab\t ! ,"l40 ,i pond]$ ^! words & ask$ myself :e!r ,i 0 dead or dream+ or 9 a trance4 ,my invisible fri5d !n pass$ 8 h&s sev]al times g5tly ov] my face4 ,he next drew a f9e film f my eyelids & brea!d ^u my =ehead4 ,i in/antly recov]$ my sight & look$ ar\nd me4 ,!re 7 two m5 be=e me ) beautiful & noble faces1 & clad 9 robes ( %9+ l954 ,i c\ld n remove my eyes f !m1 !re 0 some?+ s inexpressibly t5d] & bro!rly 9 _! looks & motions4 8,y are 9 ! _w ( spirits1 my bro!r10 said "o ( !m ) ineffable sweetness4 8,be n afraid1 b rejoice6 ,! _w ( spirits is ! va/ realm betwixt e>? & heav5 into :i* all m5 come :5 !y are fir/ rais$ f ! dead40 8,rais$ f ! dead80 said ,i1 9 extreme bewild]m5t4 8,yes--y h be5 rais$ f ! dead4 ,y h left ! e>? ^u :i* y 7 born2 y h left y\r natural body1 :i* y\r fri5ds w bury 9 ! gr\nd2 y are n[ 9 a spiritual body & a spiritual /ate ( exi/5ce40 ,i look$ at myself & look$ ar\nd me4 8,i _c und]/& x10 said ,i1 sorely puzzl$4 8,y are c]ta9ly /rang]s to me1 & y look s unlike any ( ! m5 ,i h ev] se51 t ,i c readily believe y are angels4 ,nor d ,i see my belov$ si/]s1 ,m>?a & ,m>y1 :o1 ,i "k1 w\ld n leave my b$side = a mom5t4 ,b ?is body is ! same body ,i h always _h2 ?is is ! room 9 :i* ,i h be5 sick s long2 & look+ out ( t w9d[1 ,i see ! ,m\nt ( ,olives & ! famili> sky ( ,judea4 ,expla9 h[ ?is c be40 ,!y look$ at ea* o!r smil+1 & "o ( !m repli$3 8,! la/ impressions made ^u ! m9d l+] a :ile aft] dea?2 s t ! transition f natural to spiritual life may n be too sudd51 & ! s5sation ( p]sonal id5tity may be fully pres]v$4 ,?is w *ange to y pres5tly4 ,we d n see ! room t y see1 nor ! ,m\nt ( ,olives1 nor ! ,judean sky4 ,^! w all vani% f y\r sight aft] a little1 & y w f9d y\rself diff]5tly clad & mov+ ab\t among novel & beautiful sc5es40 8,b10--said ,i1 incr$ul\sly1--8b ?is body ( fle% & blood1 9 :i* ,i live1 move & ?9k1 h[ came x "h80 8,t body ( fle% & blood y h left beh9d y4 ,! s\l is a spiritual sub/ance organiz$ 9 ! %ape ( its natural body4 ,! natural body resembles ! spiritual z a glove resembles ! h& conta9$ )9 x4 ,y h dropp$ ! glove4 ,y see ! nak$ h&40 8,our mission10 he cont9u$1 8is n[ end$1 & ano!r takes our place4 ,we assi/ 9 ! resurrection40 ,!y made a motion ( dep>ture1 b ,i seiz$ "o ( !m by ! h&4 8,oh /ay60 said ,i1 8d n g4 ,y\r words int]e/ me beyond measure4 ,i w\ld le>n m ( ! heav5ly life4 ,p>don my incr$ulity1 pity my ignorance40 8,"o approa*es10 said he1 8:o is mu* ne>] & de>] to y ?an we4 ,relatives delight to r5d] to relatives ^! *>m+ (fices ( com=t & in/ruction4 ,he comes60 8,:o80 ,i exclaim$1 eag]ly4 8,y\r fa!r60 ,i look$ 9 ! direction indicat$ by ! angel's face4 ,out ( ! d>kness--:i* appe>$ to me & n to ! angels1 = x proce$$ f my own m9d & n f !irs--out ( ! d>kness sl[ly loom$ up a human figure4 ,x bright5$ z x advanc$4 ,!n !re /ood be=e me a "y man ( radiant beauty1 clad 9 a tissue ( %9+ purple4 ,8 face 0 full ( eag] expectation1 sp>kl+ ) love & joy4 ,:ile ,i 0 gaz+ at ?is =m1 :i* seem$ to me a beautiful app>ition1 ! o!r angels disappe>$4 8,my son6 my son60 exclaim$ ! %9+ visitor 9 a voice ( t\*+ sweetness1 & :i* seem$ 9 "s way remotely famili>4 8,d y n "k me80 ,i 0 sil5t & tr\bl$1 = !re 0 n ! fa9te/ resemblance betwe5 ! spl5did be+ :o /ood be=e me & ! poor fa!r ,i _h buri$ 9 ! wild]ness4 8,i am p]mitt$ = y\r sake10 said he1 8to return back into ! m5tal /ates ( my e>?-life & to resume its =ms4 ,?is is "o ( ! wond]s ( ! spiritual _w1 b "o :i* y w frequ5tly see & soon und]/&4 ,look /eadfa/ly at ! *anges ,i %all und]go1 & y w believe40 ,! light ab\t him began to fade4 ,! purple tissue d>k5$2 8 face grew pale2 ! lu/re pass$ f 8 hair4 ,8 features gradually *ang$1 becom+ less & less beautiful1 less & less y\?ful4 ,wr9kles appe>$2 8 *eeks became hagg>d2 8 eyes sunk5 & sad2 8 head b[$ & b>e2 8 be>d gray4 ,unsightly sc>s came ^u 8 =ehead2 & :5 he held up 8 )]$ h&s1 f :i* two or ?ree f+]s _h dropp$1 ,i knew ! poor old lep] :om ! cruel law _h driv5 into ! wild]ness4 8,my fa!r6 my fa!r60 ,i exclaim$1 weep+ at ! sight :i* recall$ s vividly ! sorr[s long buri$ 9 ! s\l1 8,i am satisfi$4 ,return aga9 into ! beauty & glory ( y\r heav5ly y\?4 ,let u =get ! pa/4 ,let me see y z y are60 ,8 figure !n und]w5t exactly ! rev]se s]ies ( *anges2 & :5 8 angelic =m 0 re/or$1 ,i fell ^u 8 neck & wept te>s ( joy4 ,i inquir$ into ! philosophy ( ! a/\nd+ metamorphoses ,i _h witness$4 ,i 0 taught t spiritual ?+s--/ates ( our affections & ?\ghts--are n s p]i%able z natural ?+s2 t !y are /or$ away & pres]v$2 & t !y c be recall$ & reproduc$ ) a fac-simile ( all ! surr\nd+ concomitants & ph5om5a4 ,a _s c be made to return into any /ate ( 8 pa/ life1 :5 he w repeat 8 conduct to ! lea/ ^w & motion & incid5t4 ,?us no?+ c be conceal$2 ! entire pa/ c be re-enact$2 tru? discov]$ & judgm5t giv54 ,x 0 9 accordance ) ?is great spiritual law ( *ang+ =ms correspond+ ) ! *ang+ /ates ( ! s\l1 t ! disciples beheld ,jesus f su* diff]5t /&-po9ts4 ,if ,?omas ,didymus c\ld h ent]$ into ! spiritual /ate ( ! ?ree disciples on ! m\nt1 he w\ld n h se5 ! ,*ri/ %[+ ! w\nd 9 8 side & ! pr9t ( ! nails1 b he w\ld h beheld him radiant--9 8 transfigur$ glory4 ,x 0 ! v>y+ /&-po9ts or m5tal /ates ( ! disciples1 :i* give u su* diff]5t manife/ations ( ! ,un*angeable4 ,i 0 n1 h[ev]1 ?9k+ ( ^! ?+s at t mom5t4 ,i 0 contemplat+ ! y\? & beauty ( my fa!r's spiritual body4 8,i 0 told10 said ,i1 8t ! spiritual body 0 a fac-simile ( ! natural body4 ,h[ comes x t y\rs is s totally diff]5t80 8,:5 ,i fir/ rose f ! dead10 he repli$1 8,i seem$ to myself to be 9 ! same lepr\s body t ,i _h 9 ! wild]ness2 & l all m5 ,i f\nd "s difficulty 9 realiz+ ! fact t ,i 0 liv+ 9 a diff]5t _w4 ,! spiritual body or ext]nal =m ( ! s\l1 *anges rapidly accord+ to ! *anges ( its int]nal =m1 :i* is compos$ ( affections & ?\ghts4 ,9 proportion z ^! are purifi$ f ! evil & false ?+s imbib$ dur+ ! natural life1 ! body is fre$ f its imp]fections1 its feebl5ess & its want ( symmetry40 8,& :y d y look s "y80 ,i inquir$4 8,"t10 said he1 8does n belong to ! spiritual _w4 ,we h no computations "h by mon?s & ye>s2 no revolution ( suns & planets1 :i* produce day & night & ! *ang+ seasons ( ! _w4 ,our ext]nal surr\nd+s1 :at y w\ld call our visible nature1 are ! imm$iate outgr[? ( our own spiritual /ates4 ,! ext]ior *anges cont9ually ) ! int]ior4 ,all 9 heav5 are !re=e "y & beautiful1 because _! s\l-life is good & pure1 & is fitly repres5t$ by y\? & beauty40 ,my fa!r !n que/ion$ me ab\t ! de> ones ,i _h left beh9d4 ,he manife/$ ! deepe/ & t5d]e/ sympa?y 9 all t _h happ5$ to u s9ce 8 dep>ture f ! _w4 ,he _h he>d ( u frequ5tly f new-com]s into ! _w ( spirits4 ,we d n cease to love our e>?ly fri5ds aft] dea?4 ,b 9 ! heav5ly life !re is su* a ?or\gh1 s\l-satisfy+ tru/ 9 ! wise & m]ciful guidance ( ,div9e ,provid5ce1 t fe>s1 d\bts & anxieties ab\t our abs5t lov$ ones1 are utt]ly impossible4 8,& my "m80 ,i inquir$ 9 turn1--8my "m & my little bro!r ,samuel1 :]e are !y80 8,9 heav510 said he1 8:]e y %all see !m1 b n n[4 ,y w und]go sundry prep>ations ( /ate1 inexplicable to y at pres5t1 by :i* y w be fitt$ = ! asc5t into _! respl5d5t abodes40 ,! angel :o assi/$ 9 my resurrection 0 "r4 ,! objects :i* surr\nd$ me at my dea?1 & :i* l+]$ a :ile on my m5tal vision1 _h fad$ away4 ,i f\nd myself 9 a /range b beautiful _w1 ! =ms ( :i* 7 simil> to ours1 b ! laws :i* gov]n$ _! appe>ance & disappe>ance v diff]5t4 ,i mu/ confess t ,i 0 supremely a/oni%$ to f9d myself liv+1 feel+1 ?9k+1 precisely z ,i did be=e my dea?4 ,my m9d inde$ seem$ m active1 m p5etrat+ ?an ev]4 ,my body _h a buoyancy1 a /r5g?1 a heal?fulness p]vad+ x1 :i* 7 accompani$ by a s5se ( int5se pleasure4 ,b x /ill seem$ ! same body 9 :i* ,i _h previ\sly liv$2 & ,i c\ld sc>cely compreh5d my fa!r :5 he told me t my si/]s & fri5ds 7 mak+ prep>ations to bury my e>?ly =m4 8,oh t ,i c\ld look d[n ^u !m10 said ,i1 8c\ld speak to !m1 c\ld %[ !m my true self1 & lift _! s\ls out ( ! fe>ful %ad[ ( ! tomb6 ,:y is x n grant$ u to *e] ! he>ts & illum9e ! m9ds ( ^? :o are sorr[+ s va9ly ov] our cold du/80 8,!y w\ld n believe y1 my son1 if x 7 p]mitt$4 ,!y w\ld call y\r manife/ation to !m a vision1 a halluc9ation1 a dream4 ,!y are 9 su* bondage to s5su\s appe>ances1 & to reason+s bas$ ^u !m1 t no?+ b dea? w break _! *a9s4 ,x w take g5]ations1 ages1 c5turies1 cycles ( natural "t to r5d] high] ?\ght on t subject possible4 ,new civilizations1 new *ur*es1 new revelations mu/ arise be=e mank9d c be deliv]$ f ?is t]rible d>kness40 8,& t natural body10 said ,i1 8laid 9 ! grave1 & food = worms1 is n to rise aga980 8,:y %\ld x80 said my fa!r4 8,:o wants x8 ,:at use c\ld x subs]ve8 ,are we n 9 spiritual bodies clo!d ) all beauty & p]fection8 ,are we n 9 a spiritual _w va/ly m beautiful & happy ?an ! natural8 ,:y %\ld we return into nature8 into a natural body8 into an envelope ( fle% & blood1 h[ev] purifi$ & e!realiz$80 ,^! ideas /ruck me z extremely rational & beautiful4 ,hav+ pass$ ! l[e/ r\nd ( ! ladd] ( be+1 :y %\ld we rev]se ! laws ( developm5t & desc5d back to x aga98 ,impossible6 ,! natural body 0 only a vehicle ( natural life ) its ?\ghts & emotions4 ,spiritual ?\ghts & emotions dem& a spiritual body1 a spiritual _w4 ,let ^? :o *oose1 w$ !mselves to ! grave & ! worm & ! du/ & ! d>kness1 & speak ( _! fri5ds z sleep+ 9 ! cold gr\nd1 & satisfy _! hungry s\ls ) ! hope ( a mat]ial resurrection4 ,b _! ideas are f>1 v f> f ! tru?2 & ! m9ds ( m5 w "s day be emancipat$ f su* gross naturalism4 8,imag9e10 said my fa!r1 8! con/]nation ( ! good spirits1 :o are happy 9 heav51 at ! ?\ght t !y mu/ leave x1 dive/ !mselves ( _! beautiful spiritual bodies1 & return to ! natural _w ) all its pa9ful limitations ( "t & space1 resum+ _! old ca/-(f mat]ial bodies1 :i* _h be5 long s9ce resolv$ into du/ & =gott560 ,! ?\ght is mon/r\s6 mon/r\s6 ,& yet ! poor bl9d$ p 9 ! natural _w dwell ^u x z if !re 7 "s special consolation1 "s glori\s promise 9 x4 ,incompreh5sible freaks ( ! human _s6 ,he :o prea*es a mat]ial resurrection1 has made b "o feeble /ep beyond ! infidel :o prea*es none at all4 8,m5 /ill 9 ! fle%10 said my fa!r1 8d n "k t our spiritual _w inhabit$ by spiritual bodies fulfills all ! imp]ative dem&s ( ! s\l = a p]fect & f9al re/+-place4 ,we h "h life & =m1 organization & objects1 weight & sub/ance1 s\nds & colors all m beautiful & wond]ful ?an ^? 9 ! natural _w4 ,all ^! ?+s1 invisible1 intangible1 inaudible to m51 are z real & solid to our s5ses z ! e>? 0 to y :5 y 7 a man ^u x4 8,yet ?is ext]nal _w surr\nd+ u is n mat]ial & fix$ l y\rs4 ,x is :at we call sub/antial or spiritual4 ,x is pla/ic to spiritual =ces4 ,x *anges1 n accord+ to y\r natural laws1 b accord+ to ! *anges 9 our own spirits4 ,?is is ! key to ! great diff]5ce :i* exi/s betwe5 ! _w y h left & ?is glori\s "o 9 :i* y are to live = ev]4 8,our light "h *anges4 ,x is day or night ) u accord+ to our own spiritual relations to ! great ,f\nta9 ( life4 ,9 "o /ate ( m9d we are 9 ! city1 9 ano!r 9 ! c\ntry4 ,c]ta9 emotions c>ry u to ! m\nta9-tops2 o!rs place u among ! s&s & %ells ( ! sea-%ore4 ,9 "o /ate ( ?\ght we are walk+ 9 fl[]-g>d5s ( e!real beauty2 9 ano!r we are sitt+ by rivulets :i* e*o ! music ( our own he>ts4 ,?us m\nta9s1 fields1 riv]s1 cities1 h\ses1 animate & inanimate objects come & g1 appe> & disappe>1 accord+ z !y repres5t or symbolize ! int]ior *anges ( our spirits40 8,all ?is10 said ,i1 8is s beautiful t x seems impossible4 ,lib]at$ n[ f ! ?raldom ( "t & space1 ,i und]/& y2 b ,i d\bt :e!r ! mo/ gift$ philosoph] 9 ,a!ns c conceive ( a _w )\t "t or space2 ( a _w s phantasmagoric 9 appe>ance1 yet said to be s g5u9e & et]nal 9 reality40 8,our spaces are det]m9$10 said my fa!r1 8by spiritual aff9ities4 ,simil>ity ( ?\ght & feel+ det]m9es pres5ce2 dissimil>ity makes di/ance or abs5ce4 ,:5 y "h direct y\r ?\ght to any p]son on ! same plane ( life1 z we call x1 ) y\rself1 hav+ at ! same "t a desire to see him1 t p]son becomes aw>e ( ! fact1 &1 respond+ to y\r desire1 is face to face ) y at once4 8,let u bo?10 he cont9u$1 8fix our ?\ghts int5tly ^u our noble & lovely fri5d1 ,john1 call$ ! ,bapti/1 :o 0 behead$ 9 prison1 & is p]=m+ "h a simil> (fice to t :i* he s well execut$ on ! banks ( ! ,jordan40 ,we did s2 & 9 a mom5t !re 0 a beautiful fla% ( azure light1 l a great %eet ( wat] reflect+ ! sun & sky4 8,t10 said my fa!r1 8is ! sph]e or symbolic appe>ance :i* always prec$es & ann\nces ! com+ ( ! g5tle h]ald ( ! ,"l40 ,!n /ood be=e u ! "y prophet ( ! wild]ness1 beautifi$1 e!realiz$1 glorifi$ beyond conception4 ,he salut$ me ) bro!rly w>m?1 & we ent]$ into a long conv]sation :i* ,i %all n repeat2 b f :i* ,i le>n$ a ?\s& int]e/+ & wond]ful ?+s ab\t ! spiritual _w--?+s incr$ible to m5 9 ! fle%1 mo/ ( :om1 l birds ( night1 are satisfi$ ) ! d>kness ( nature4 ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,,xv4 ,,! ,,_w ,,( ,,spirits4 ,illu/ration3 ,initial ,i 0 greatly a/oni%$ at ! nature & importance ( t int]m$iate /ate ( life :i* ,i h call$ ! _w ( spirits4 ,al?\gh ! doctr9e ( a place ( dep>t$ spirits1 call$ ,%eol or ,hades1 is di/9ctly taught 9 ,scripture & by tradition1 x seems to h made a v feeble impression on ! m9ds ev5 ( ! mo/ dev\t4 ,mo/ m5 ?9k !y w g imm$iately to heav5 or to hell :5 !y die4 ,!y are mi/ak54 ,! _w ( spirits receives into its va/ bosom ! mighty congregation ( ! dead f all nations & climes4 ,x is ! fir/ gr& receptacle ( ! :ole human race aft] dea?4 ,x is ! place ( judgm5t1 special & g5]al4 ,x may be comp>$ to ! /oma*1 into :i* all articles ( food & dr9k are collect$2 :]e !y are all comm9ut$1 concuss$1 express$1 decompos$ & dige/$2 & :at is f\nd good & nutritive is tak5 up into ! blood & makes a "p ( ! liv+ man2 :ile ! h>d1 un:olesome & innutriti\s portions1 :i* _c be dissolv$ or appropriat$1 are ca/ out ( ! sy/em z useless or injuri\s4 ,let n ! read] smile at ?is anatomical metaphor4 ,:5 he gets an int]ior view ( ! human body su* z ,i h enjoy$1 he w see t x is an epitome ( ! univ]se2 t ! my/]ies ( nature1 ! wond]s ( philosophy & ! secrets ( heav5 are all writt5 ^u its organs & tissues4 ,9 ! pres5t /ate we are /rangely comp\nd$ ( good & evil1 bo? h]$it>y & acquir$4 ,he :o ?9ks t all good p on e>? are ready1 at dea?1 to pass at once into heav5 )\t fur!r prep>ation & in/ruction1 has =m$ a mi/ak5 idea ( heav54 ,our life 9 ! _w ( spirits is a judgm5t ^u ourselves1 an unfold+ or unroll+ ( our true *>act]s1 a revelation ( our evils "u ! be/ possible circum/ances2 :]e by ! assi/ance & in/ruction ( angelic fri5ds1 our imp]fections1 if our rul+ love be good1 c be f9ally remov$1 & our s\ls fitt$ = t p]fect social organization bas$ ^u supreme love to ,god & ! neighbor1 :i* m5 9 ! fle% _c und]/& or ev5 imag9e4 8,b10 says "s "o1 8all t is done = u in/antane\sly at dea? by ! miracul\s p[] ( ,god40 ,god works always by organic & et]nal laws4 ,! _s1 l ! body1 gr[s1 develops1 progresses by def9ite means4 ,se$s d n exp& in/antane\sly into trees4 ,a diseas$ tree is n *ang$ 9 a mom5t into a heal?y "o4 ,! s\l :i* atta9s heav5 does s by regul> & progressive /eps1 _m ( :i* 7if !re has be5 a comm5cem5t on e>?7 are tak5 9 ! _w ( spirits4 ,! idea t miracul\s p[] *anges a bad man into a good "o1 an impure s\l into a pure "o1 9 a mom5t ( "t1 9 answ] to pray] & fai?1 is a *ildi% fallacy disa/r\s to ! life ( true religion4 ,! population ( ?is _w ( spirits is imm5se4 ,n only ! dead f our _w are !re1 b angelic spirits f heav5 & evil spirits f hell all meet on ?is gr& ar5a ( spiritual combat & in/ruction4 ,9 ! "t ( ,*ri/ _m g5]ations & c5turies ( human life 7 accumulat$ !re2 = evil _h become s pr$om9ant1 & ! spiritual elem5t 9 man s ne>ly ext+ui%$1 t few or none c\ld be prep>$ = heav54 ,unless1 inde$1 ,god _h desc5d$ 9 ! human =m & execut$ a great judgm5t 9 t _w1 ca/+ ! evil into hell & reveal+ a high] disp5sation ( tru?1 mank9d w\ld h p]i%$ & heav5 itself h be5 ?reat5$ ) *aos4 ,b all ?is is my? & my/]y to ^? :o h busi$ !mselves only ) ! hi/orical movem5ts ( ! natural _w1 n ev5 kn[+ t ! _w ( spirits above & ar\nd !m _h f> gr&] hi/orical movem5ts1--! key & cause ( all o!rs4 ,e human be+ liv+ 9 ! natural _w1 is att5d$ by two good & two evil spirits :o are liv+ 9 ! int]m$iate /ate4 ,i saw ! spirits :o _h accompani$ me dur+ my life2 &1 :at is s+ul>1 al?\gh ,i _h nev] se5 !m be=e1 !y appe>$ l old acqua9tances & fri5ds :om ,i _h kn[n f my y\?4 ,let no man suppose t he w rise f ! dead into ! _w ( spirits1 & f9d himself a /rang] !re1 fri5dless & alone4 ,x seem$ v wond]ful to me t ?is mighty realm ( spirits %\ld be s ne> to m51 secretly connect$ ) !m by affections & ?\ghts1 fl[+ d[n into !m1 giv+ !m life & p[]1 & in/igat+ !m to good or evil1 & /ill t ! human race %\ld rema9 ignorant ( ! /up5d\s fact--b5ight$ by all k9ds ( false philosophies & false religions4 8,:y10 said ,i to my fa!r1 8are n our e>?ly fri5ds p]mitt$ to see u 9 ?is bett] & bright] sph]e1 to conv]se ) u1 & e/abli% social relations ) u80 8,!y are 9 natural bodies10 said he1 8& !y _c see our spiritual =ms ) _! natural eyes4 ,_! own spiritual eyes w\ld h to be op5$ be=e !y c\ld see u4 ,! op5+ ( _! spiritual s5ses w\ld br+ !m into consci\s communication ) ! _w ( spirits40 8,well10 said ,i1 8s mu* ! bett]4 ,!y w\ld !n see all ^! wond]ful ?+s = !mselves1 & _! d\bts w\ld be :olly dissipat$40 8,ah6 y "k little z yet ( ! _w ( spirits4 ,x is full ( evil & wick$ ones1 :o %>e ! bad passions & prompt ! s9ful de$s ( m5 on e>?4 ,if m5 came1 by ! op5+ ( _! spiritual s5ses1 into visible & audible communication ) _! own att5dant evil spirits1 ! p[] ( hell on ! e>? w\ld be immeasurably increas$4 ,! p[] ( a wick$ companion 9 ! fle% is great2 b ! p[] ( an evil _s en?ron$ 9 y\r bosom1 possess$ ( y\r entire memory1 & gov]n+ f 8 m int]ior /&-po9t e movem5t ( y\r bra91 w\ld be fe>ful inde$60 8,no10 he cont9u$2 8x is ! m]cy ( ! ,"l :i* 9 ! pres5t evil /ate ( ! _w keeps ^! two realms ( be+ f a consci\s int]m+l+4 ,! (fices & uses ( ! two worlds are diff]5t2 "o beg9s :]e ! o!r ends4 ,to ?r[ !m toge!r w\ld be to produce inextricable confusion1 to de/roy free-ag5cy1 to conf\nd good & evil1 to ?w>t reg5]ation1 to arre/ ! judgm5t1 to close heav5 & to op5 hell4 8,all ?is c only be made cle> to y by a ?or\gh sy/em ( religi\s philosophy1 embrac+ a true psy*ology & ! organic relations ( ,god to ! univ]se1 & ( ! diff]5t p>ts ( x to ea* o!r4 ,all ^! w be ! subjects ( y\r delightful /udy1 & may possibly be reveal$ to mank9d 9 "s f>-(f futurity1 :5 m5 become capable ( receiv+ & utiliz+ su* sublime my/]ies4 8,to seek to p5etrate ! veil :i* sep>ates ! spiritual f ! natural realm1 to invite an op5 int]c\rse ) spirits1 to consult !m ab\t e>?ly affairs1 is "o ( ! t]rible crimes d5\nc$ & =bidd5 9 ,scripture4 ,x is ! secret s\rce ( ! p[] & my/]ies ( magic4 ,to seek su* int]c\rse is p]il\s to ! s\l's be/ welf>e4 ,!re=e x is t consult+ ) #8famili> spirits' is =bidd5 9 ! ,^w4 ,x is =bidd5 = man's own good40 8,^! are new ideas to me10 ,i said1 8& ,i _c fully compreh5d !m4 ,h[ %\ld ,i1 fill$ z ,i am ) fallacies :i* ne$ exposure & removal6 ,b ,i am appall$1 my de> fa!r1 at ! ?\ght t ! _w ( spirits is s full ( evil1 & t we ent] on a /ate ( fe>ful explorations1 combats1 temptations & judgm5ts on leav+ ! natural _w40 8,yes1 my son4 ,9 heav5 only !re is re/4 ,!re only are p]fect peace & ord] & love4 ,! road to heav5 lies ?r\gh ! _w ( spirits1 ?r\gh its in/ructions1 its purifications1 its judgm5ts4 ,! pa?way is pleasant & beautiful to ! good man2 = at e /ep he lets fall "s hateful ?+ t clung to him 9 ! pa/1 & he rises into new light1 new glory1 new joy40 8,y spoke10 said ,i1 8( g5]al judgm5ts occurr+ 9 ! _w ( spirits1 z well z ! p>ticul> judgm5t ( ea* individual4 ,:at d y mean by t80 8,at ! end ( e *ur*1 e disp5sation1 e old ord] ( ?+s1 & at ! beg9n+ ( a new *ur*1 a new revelation1 a new era1 !re is a great judgm5t execut$ 9 ! _w ( spirits4 ,?is judgm5t is effect$ by ! light ( div9e tru? /ream+ d[n ?r\gh ! op5 heav5s1 se>*+ p to ! core1 reveal+ _! true *>act]s1 sep>at+ ! evil f ! good1 ca/+ ! =m] into hell1 elevat+ ! latt] into heav54 ,x is a de/ruction & recon/ruction ( ! _w ( spirits4 ,?is /up5d\s ev5t is describ$ 9 ,scripture z ! great & notable day ( ! ,"l1 ! day ( wra?1 ! judgm5t day1 ! end ( ! _w4 8,y h come into ! _w ( spirits at a p]iod :5 y c witness ! mighty ev5ts =etold by ,isaiah & ,ezekiel4 ,!re is a judgm5t n[ go+ on ^u ! la/ rema9s ( ! ,jewi% ,*ur*1 & on all ! pagan nations 9 ! _w ( spirits2 & prep>ations are be+ made = ! in/itution ( a new & m spiritual *ur* on e>?4 ,! ,messiah has come & judgm5t foll[s40 8,y a/oni% me10 ,i exclaim$4 8,! p on e>? "k no?+ ( ^! ?+s4 ,!y are expect+ a fulfillm5t ( ! prophecies 9 ! mat]ial _w4 ,!y expect ! ,messiah to come 9 spl5dor & p[]1 to inve/ ! ,jewi% p ) supreme dom9ion1 & to wreak 8 v5geance on all ! disob$i5t & idolatr\s40 8,poor bl9d ones1 l$ by ! bl9d6 ,!y int]pret lit]ally :at 0 writt5 9 ! language ( symbols & giv5 to !m = spiritual uses40 8,:y ! necessity ( ?is judgm5t80 ,i ask$4 8,because ! *ur* is corrupt & dead2 ! prie/s are drunk ) ! w9e ( false doctr9e2 ! p bl9d & )\t a %eph]d4 ,!re=e iniquity ab\nds4 ,! flood-gates ( hell are op5$4 ,! _w ( spirits is cr[d$ ) evil ones1 :o prev5t ! good f asc5d+ to heav51 & infuse ! mo/ direful evils & falsities into m5 on e>?4 ,! prophets are dumb4 ,! magician & ! sorc]] are 9 ! asc5dant4 8,let me tell y some?+10 he add$ 9 a solemn & subdu$ tone1 8:i*1 if y compreh5d its full mean+1 w\ld make y tremble ) fe>4 ,! ord] ( ! univ]se has be5 s f> brok5 t demons h issu$ f hell2 & !re is a g5]al insurrection ( ! evil sph]es aga9/ heav5 itself4 ,unless ^! hells are subdu$ & ^! evil ones ca/ out f ! _w ( spirits1 ! p on e>? w be obsess$1 s\l & body1 by wick$ spirits1 human society w be de/roy$1 & univ]sal *aos reign40 8,y appall me by y\r pr$iction4 ,b my wond] is1 h[ su* dang]s c be imp5d+1 & ! human race "k no?+ ab\t x40 8,because !y "k no?+ ( spiritual ?+s--no?+ ( ?is _w ( spirits 9 :i* are ! cause & orig9 ( all ?+s4 ,because !y look d[nw>d1 & n upw>d4 ,because !y h eyes & see n2 e>s & he> n4 ,because !y h p]v]t$ & nullifi$ ! ,^w ( ,god by a s5su\s int]pretation ( its mean+40 8,alas6 !n10 said ,i1 8h[ c ! lo/ ord] be re/or$ & ! _w sav$80 8,by "o arm alone2 t ( ! ,creator1 ! ,supreme ,be+1 ! ,"l40 8,oh10 said ,i1 8?is ,be+ ( supreme p[] creat$ man 9 8 supreme wisdom1 gave him angelic att5dants1 a writt5 ,law1 an e/abli%$ ,*ur*--& behold ! result6 ,:at new influ5ces c ,he br+ to be> ^u 8 fall5 & doom$ creatures80 8,li/54 ,he has clo!d ,himself ) cl\ds & come d[n to u--to m5 on ! e>?4 ,z ! sun clo!s 8 consum+ rays ) an atmosph]e ( vapor1 :i* mod]ates !m & accommodates !m to ! /ates ( man & bea/1 s has ,god clo!d himself 9 a f9ite human =m & ?us come d[n to 8 creatures4 ,he is n[ engag$ 9 spiritual combats ) all ^! evil sph]es4 ,he is ca/+ ^! lions ( wick$ness into _! d5s & %utt+ _! m\?s4 ,he w purge & purify ! _w ( spirits1 deliv] heav5 f ! assaults ( ! wick$1 lift ! great %ad[ ( *aos f ! _w1 re/ore man to 8 free ag5cy & make him h]eaft] capable ( a high] & m spiritual life4 ,god is1 h5ce=?1 9 ! eyes ( 8 *ildr51 n an invisible ,_s1 b a ,div9e ,man40 8,^! are my/]ies & dreams to my und]/&+4 ,i _c compreh5d h[ ! ,supreme ,be+1 inf9ite1 omnipot5t1 omnipres5t1 c assume a human body & live l "o ( u40 8,x %all be made cle>] to y4 ,y %all see ,him4 ,inde$ y h se5 ,him1 b y did n "k ,him4 ,y %all see ,him aga9--& "k ,him40 8,i %all see ! liv+ ,god80 said ,i1 9 a /ate ( solemn trepidation4 8,yes0--said ,john ! ,bapti/1 :o accompani$ u--8y %all see ,him4 ,i h surr\nd$ y1 by div9e p]mission1 ) an atmosph]e :i* w enable y )\t pa9 to endure 8 com+40 ,i _c convey to mortals an adequate idea ( ! s5se ( awe :i* crept ov] me at ^! words4 ,my knees smote toge!r2 my h&s dropp$2 my he>t trembl$2 my bra9 reel$ at ! ?\ght ( /&+ face to face ) ! liv+ ,god6 ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,,xvi4 ,,! ,,*ri/ ,,above ,,nature4 ,illu/ration3 ,initial ,i n[ approa* a subject s sublime & awe-inspir+1 t x is necess>y = u1 l ,moses be=e ! burn+ bu%1 to take (f our %oes f our feet2 = ! place is holy gr\nd4 ,let n ! sc(f] or unbeliev] suppose t a /rong] m9d1 a firm] reason1 a cle>] light1 are ! cause ( 8 incr$ulity4 ,he w disbelieve & repudiate :at ,i am ab\t to n>rate1 only because1 9 ! progress ( developm5t1 8 own _s has n yet rea*$ t /age :5 he c compreh5d & receive ! mo/ beautiful & holy tru?s4 ,we _h be5 walk+ 9 an ea/]ly direction dur+ ! latt] "p ( our conv]sation4 ,sudd5ly !re appe>$ be=e u a va/ gold5-color$ %eet or blaze ( light 9 ! ea/4 ,x 0 exce$+ly brilliant1 b at ! same "t inexpressibly s(t & beautiful4 ,9 ! c5tre ( ?is great lum9\s field !re 0 a sn[y dove ) outspread w+s1 be>+ an olive bran* 9 h] m\?4 8,! sph]e ( ! ,"l 9 ! _w ( spirits60 exclaim$ my companions 9 a brea?2 & !y knelt ) b[$ heads & rev]5t faces at ! approa* ( ! respl5d5t symbol4 8,?is 0 ! sph]e :i* ,i saw10 said ,john1 8at ! baptism ( ,jesus4 ,my spiritual s5ses 7 p>tly op5$1 & ?is gold5 light :i* surr\nds ! ,"l1 appe>$ to encompass 8 natural body2 & ! dove1 :i* repres5ts ! ,holy ,_s ( love & peace1 re/$ ^u ,him2 :ile a revelation 0 made to me1 t ?is man :om ,i _h baptiz$1 0 truly ! ,son ( ,god40 ,i sc>cely he>d ^! words1 nor did ,i und]/& !m2 = my m9d 0 9 a /ate ( great agitation4 ,i _h nev] be5 pi\s3 ,i 0 sc>cely ev5 religi\s 9 an ext]nal s5se4 ,i knew little or no?+ ( conviction ( s91 p5it5ce or rep5tance4 ,i 01 !re=e1 amaz$ at ! new s5sations ,i exp]i5c$4 ,!re 0 a pa9ful s5se ( my own unreg5]ate condition2 a t]rible self-reproa*1 self-loa?+1 self-abasem5t2 & ) te>s ( contrition & humility ,i pro/rat$ myself on my face4 ,x 0 ! sph]e ( ! ,"l1 ! light ( heav51 ! ,_s ( ,god p5etrat+ my s\l & reveal+ me to myself4 ,my fa!r n[ rais$ me f ! gr\nd1 & fell ^u my neck weep+4 8,be n a/oni%$10 he said4 8,^! are te>s ( joy6 ,y h be5 te/$ by ! div9e light4 ,!re are rema9s ( goodness & tru? 9 y\r s\l4 ,y w be sav$4 ,heav5 is y\rs40 ,?is 0 m incompreh5sible to me ?an any?+ yet1 b ,i said no?+2 = a sweet calm ov]spread my s5ses1 & ,i became aw>e ( ! proximity ( holy & augu/ pres5ces4 ,i look$ ar\nd me4 ,i saw a great multitude ( good spirits be=e u4 ,all faces 7 direct$ to a gr\p ( figures :i* occupi$ a little knoll 9 _! mid/4 ,9 ! c5tre ( t gr\p1 ,i recogniz$ ,jesus ( ,naz>e?6 ,8 face %one z ! sun1 & 8 raim5t 0 :ite z ! light4 ,dazzl+ z 8 =m appe>$1 8 features 7 p]fectly famili>1 b e!realiz$ & glorifi$1 ,moses & ,elijah /ood by him1 "o on 8 "r h& & ! o!r on 8 left4 ,i recogniz$ !m at once2 = e ,jew has se5 ! /atues & pictures ( ^? national wor?ies4 ,not)/&+ all t ,john ! ,bapti/ & my fa!r _h said1 my obtuse und]/&+ _h n yet grasp$ ! idea1 t ,jesus ,*ri/ 0 ! ,messiah--! ,supreme ,be+4 8,has ,jesus ( ,naz>e? di$ also10 ,i inquir$1 8& be5 rais$ l myself f ! natural into ! spiritual _w80 8,oh no60 said ,john1 smil+ sweetly at my bewild]m5t4 8,he exi/s 9 bo? worlds1 9 all worlds1 at ! same "t40 8,y speak enigmas10 said ,i2 8int]pret !m40 8,:om d y suppose ?is ,jesus to be80 inquir$ ,john1 e>ne/ly4 8,"s great prophet ( ,god s5t to p]=m miracles 9 ,judea1 & to prea* a new gospel ( peace & love40 8,jesus1 ! ano9t$ ,"o1 is ,god himself10 said ,john1 ) deep solemnity4 ,i answ]$ no?+1 = my m9d 0 blank ) a/oni%m5t4 ,i gaz$ at ! %9+ =m ) solemn awe4 ,i n[ obs]v$ t ,jesus 0 speak+ or prea*+ to ! multitude ar\nd him4 ,i did n1 h[ev]1 he> a ^w he said4 8,^! are good spirits10 said ,john1 9 explanation1 8:om ! ,"l has lib]at$ f ! bondage ( ! evil spirits :o infe/ ?is int]m$iate /ate4 ,he is tea*+ !m ! spiritual tru?s adapt$ to _! new condition1 :i* correspond to ! tru?s he is simultane\sly tea*+ 8 disciples on e>?4 8,y are n p]mitt$ to he> :at he says1 because ! fallacies ( y\r natural life h n be5 suffici5tly remov$2 & y\r m9d w\ld p]v]t 8 div9e tru?s1 or *ange !m into ! opposite falsities4 ,y w be in/ruct$ 9 due season1 & all ?+s necess>y to y\r life & happ9ess w be giv5 y4 8,9 ! mean "t10 he cont9u$1 8let u be seat$ "u ?is beautiful tree1 ^: b\ghs make my/]i\s music1 :ile ,i endeavor to br+ x cle>ly to y\r m9d t ,jesus is ,god2 = )\t an ackn[l$gm5t ( 8 supreme div9ity1 no g5u9e spiritual tru? c be receiv$4 ,! idea ( ,god is a fundam5tal idea2 & e "o's /ate dep5ds ^u x or is det]m9$ by x4 ,if t be false all is false2 ! m9d is a d>k *amb] full ( motes & cobwebs4 8,did n ! ,jews /one ,jesus = affirm+ 8 equality & id5tity ) ,god8 ,did n ,jesus decl>e 8 pre-exi/5ce 9 say+ t be=e ,abraham liv$1 he liv$8 ,did he n tea* 8 omnipot5ce1 8 inf9ity1 :5 he claim$ to be "o ) ! ,fa!r1 & told 8 disciples t :oev] _h se5 him1 _h se5 ! ,fa!r8 ,is n 8 "n ,immanuel--#8,god ) u8'0 8,yes40 8,did n ! prophets affirm t ! ,messiah :o 0 to be born ( a virg91 & to r$eem ,israel 9 ! =m ( a man1 0 really ! mighty ,c\nselor1 ! ,pr9ce ( ,peace1 ! ev]la/+ ,fa!r1 ,jehovah8 ,did !y n repeat$ly m5tion ! ,holy ,"o ( ,israel1 ! ,messiah t 0 to come1 "u su* titles z #8! ,"l ( ho/s1' #8! ,god ( ! :ole e>?1' & o!r names applicable only to ! ,supreme ,be+80 8,true40 8,:y !n %\ld y be a/oni%$ t ,god is pres5t 9 bo? worlds at ! same "t8 ,is ,he n omnipres5t8 ubiquit\s8 ,unlimit$ by "t or space1 does ,he n manife/ ,himself to 8 creatures 9 all times & 9 all places8 ,c ,he n1 if ,he w1 appe> simultane\sly to all creat$ intellig5ces 9 all ! natural & spiritual sph]es ,he has creat$8 8,?is ,jesus1 ! ,messiah1 is ev]y:]e4 ,if y asc5d into ! heav5 next above u1 on fitt+ occasions y w\ld see ,him !re 9 a m glorifi$ =m4 ,if y m\nt /ill high]1 y w only be com+ ne>] to ,him1 & behold ,him 9 /ill m transc5d5t glory4 ,sometimes ,he appe>s to ! angels z a ,div9e ,man /&+ 9 ! sun ( ! spiritual _w4 ,x 0 ?is tru?1 transmitt$ by tradition to ! anci5t p ( ,asia1 :i* gave rise 7z !y fell into naturalism7 to ! wor%ip ( ! natural sun & ! adoration ( fire40 ,at ^! words ,i seem$ to see my good & g5]\s uncle ,beltrezzor b[+ 8 head rev]5tly to ! great lum9>y1 f :i* ! cele/ial face ( ,jesus look$ d[n1 smil+ b5$iction ^u ! *ildlike old man4 8,:at y tell me10 said ,i1 8( ,*ri/1 is s /range t at fir/ sight x appe>s incompreh5sible4 ,i p]ceive1 inde$1 t if ,jesus be ! supreme ,god ( ! univ]se1 ,he may be se5 simultane\sly f e /&-po9t 9 ! spiritual _w1 9 e sph]e1 9 e society1 & by e individual s\l1 & ev]y:]e take on a =m accommodat$ to ! spiritual /ates ( ^? :o behold ,him4 ,! difficulty 9 my m9d lies 9 id5tify+ ! man ,jesus :om ,i knew 9 ,be?any1 ) ?is sublime resemblance ( ,him t ,i see 9 ! _w ( spirits2 & 9 compreh5d+ t !y are "o p]son lead+ a simultane\s life 9 two sph]es2 &1 f9ally1 t ?is "o p]son is ! ,supreme ,god4 8,my difficulty is increas$ :5 ,i rememb] t ,jesus 9 8 e>?-life is accu/om$ to call himself ! ,son ( ,god4 ,al?\gh he said pla9ly t he & ! ,fa!r 7 "o1 yet he sometimes speaks ( ! ,fa!r z great] ?an himself3 ( pray+ to ! ,fa!r = 8 disciples2 & ( asc5d+ to ! ,fa!r on ! consummation ( 8 "w40 8,he has c]ta9ly left ! impression ^u 8 he>]s t !re are two p]sons 9 ! ,godhead2 "o high]1 sup]ior1 int]ior2 ! o!r1 a man among m52 & t betwe5 ^! two !re is "s my/ical union incompreh5sible to ! human m9d40 8,mo/ ( 8 disciples accept ?is idea bl9dly1 z a holy my/]y4 ,p]sons ( philosophic culture1 :o h /udi$ ,jesus z a ph5om5on1 reg>d him z a ,son ( ,god1 or r an emanation f ,god1 9 ! same s5se t ,brahma1 ,osiris1 ,zoroa/]1 ,moses1 & ,plato1 are sons ( ,god1 or manife/ations ( div9e tru?4 ,! my/ical union betwe5 ,fa!r & ,son is suppos$ to be an incorporation ( ! s\l ( man1 by a life ( ob$i5ce & goodness1 ) ! ess5tial ,div9e nature f :i* z a p>5t x 0 d]iv$4 8,9 e/imat+ ! diff]5ce10 said ,john1 8betwe5 ,jesus & o!r tea*]s ( div9e tru?1 ! fact ( deepe/ significance is1 t he 0 born ( a virg94 ,! s\l ( man is d]iv$ f 8 fa!r4 ,jesus ,*ri/ _h no e>?ly fa!r2 !re=e1 z to 8 inmo/ he 0 diff]5t f all o!r m54 ,he 0 n "s angelic =m return+ into ! fle%1 or let d[n f heav5 into x2 = t is impossible4 ,& if x 7 s1 8 claims to omnipot5ce1 inf9ity1 et]nity1 ! ,godhead1 w\ld be prepo/]\s4 ,no3 ! s\l ( ,jesus ,*ri/ 0 n introduc$ into 8 e>?ly body ?r\gh ! ag5cy or int]m$iation ( any creat$ intellig5ce4 ,8 s\l is ! ,div9e ,life1 ! ,supreme ,_s4 8,se5 f ?is e>?ly side1 ,jesus has no fa!r4 ,se5 f ! spiritual side1 he is ! ,fa!r4 ,spirits & angels "k ,him only z ! ,fa!r4 ,!y h nev] he>d ! t]m ,son1 9 ! e>?ly s5se1 appli$ to ,him4 ,!re is no ,fa!r beyond him or above him4 ,"h he nev] prays to ! ,fa!r4 ,"h he is himself recogniz$ z ! ,fa!r1 ,jehovah1 ! ,i ,,am4 8,! t]m ,son ( ,god is us$ 9 accommodation to ! s5su\s /ates ( ! natural m9d4 ,x is peculi> to ! e>?-life1 & _c rise above ! plane :i* sep>ates ! spiritual f ! natural4 ,x is only ! human natural m9d1 divorc+ ! spiritual f ! natural1 t sees ,god 9 a d\ble =m1 call+ ,him :5 invisible1 ! ,fa!r1 & :5 visible1 ! ,son40 8,^! ?+s are wond]ful10 said ,i2 8b h[ to expla9 !m to m51 :o _c ?9k spiritually1 h[ev] mu* !y may ?9k ab\t spiritual ?+s80 8,!re is ano!r & pr(\nd] reason10 cont9u$ my in/ructor1 8:y ,jesus speaks ( himself on e>? z ! ,son ( ,god1 & s frequ5tly prays to an invisible ,fa!r4 ,by subject+ himself 9 a f9ite =m to ! limitations ( "t & space1 he subjects 8 own spiritual consci\sness1 s f> z x is unit$1 to obscuration4 ,9 8 human body he ?9ks & feels z a f9ite be+1 ! ,son2 :ile at ! same mom5t 9 8 spiritual =m "h ,he ?9ks & feels z ! ,div9e ,wisdom itself4 8,! gr& purpose ( ! inc>nation 01 to assume a human =m 9 :i* he c\ld be tempt$ z we are1 9 :i* he c\ld be assault$ by evil spirits & devils2 9 :i* he c\ld conqu] dea?1 hell & ! grave1 & become ! ,m$iator1 ! ,way1 ! ,life & ! ,resurrection4 ,! infe/ations ( evil ones obscure 8 m5tal vision & take away f him at times 8 p]ception ( id5tity ) ! ,fa!r4 ,?us he has two e>?ly /ates ( life1 "o ( glorification or spiritual insight1 :5 he feels consci\s ( 8 ,fa!rhood2 & "o ( humiliation1 :5 he is sorely tempt$ & tri$1 & :5 he lifts 8 he>t 9 pray] to t ,f\nta9 ( love & light :i* is ! c5tre ( 8 own inf9ite bosom40 8,^! ?+s amaze me10 said ,i1 8beyond expression4 ,nor d ,i believe t any human be+ has any true conception ( ! "* ( ,jesus1 ( ! mission he is fill+1 or ( 8 plan ( r$emption4 ,c]ta9ly none ( ! ?\ghts y h communicat$ to me h ev] dawn$ on ! m9ds ( 8 disciples40 8,nor is x probable10 said ,john1 8t mank9d w be prep>$1 = _m c5turies1 to und]/& :at c only be compreh5d$ f a spiritual /&-po9t4 ,! lea/ portion ( ! "w ( ,jesus is app>5t to m5 9 ! _w4 ,! sublime & f> m difficult portion is :olly invisible to !m1 z x occurs "h 9 ! _w ( spirits :i* is n op5 to _! p]ception40 ,my angelic fri5d 0 ab\t giv+ me fur!r light on ?is l(ty !me1 :5 ,jesus & ! happy multitude t surr\nd$ him seem$ to approa* ne>] to u4 ,my read]--if ?is manuscript ev] f9ds a read]--may wond] :y ,i did n approa* ! ,div9e ,man & speak to him1 aft] ,i _h discov]$ t my e>?ly fri5d 0 ! ,supreme ,be+ manife/$ 9 ! human =m4 ,ah6 !y "k no?+ ( ! sph]e ( ! ,"l6 ,i c\ld n ev5 lift up my eyes to 8 feet4 ,i 0 ov]:elm$ ) wond] & awe4 ,_h n s _m o!r spirits be5 pres5t to engage my att5tion1 to div]t my ?\ghts & to imp>t c\rage & life to me1 ,i %\ld h swoon$ & fall54 ,oppress$ by ! heav5ly sph]e1 ^: ne>] approa* ,i 0 n prep>$ =1 ,i seiz$ my fa!r by ! h& & he l$ me away4 ,! sc5e fad$ beh9d u2 & we w5t d[n into a little gre5 valley fill$ ) small :ite fl[]s & wat]$ by a little brook4 ,!re ,i 0 fre$ f ! t]rible s5se ( oppression1 & recov]$ my composure4 ,we sat d[n 9 ?is valley ( humiliation1 :]e ! small :ite fl[]s 7 ! innoc5t ?\ghts ( ! new life1 & ! musical voice ( ! brook 0 a hymn ( contrition4 8,o my fa!r60 said ,i1 8is x always ?us 9 ! spiritual _w1 t ! div9e sph]e ( ,jesus agitates ! m9d & pa9s ! he>t1 s z to almo/ suffocate ! life )9 u80 8,:5 ! sph]e ( heav5 approa*es ^? :o are 9 evil & falsity10 answ]$ my fa!r1 8x occasions int5se pa9 9 _! int]iors1 & !y cry out2 #8,:y art ?\ come hi!r1 ,o ,*ri/6 to torm5t u8' ,su* is ! judgm5t3 & ! wick$ call ^u ! m\nta9s & ! rocks to hide !m f ! wra? ( ,god40 ,! wra? ( ,god6 mon/r\s conception6 ,x is ! g5tle brea? ( ! ,div9e ,love :i* is conv]t$ into a burn+ fire :5 x ent]s ! p]v]t$ & corrupt =ms ( _! own s\ls6 8,! same sph]e ( div9e light approa*+ ^? :o h "s remnants ( good & tru?1 & :o c be sav$1 produces a pr(\nd self-abasem5t1 a trembl+ contrition1 a suffocation ( ! old life ) all its wick$ desires1 & an inexpressible long+ = a new life ( purity1 peace & love40 ,i n[ und]/ood x all4 ,i felt ! self-abasem5t1 ! contrition1 ! inexpressible long+4 ,! sun _h already disappe>$4 ,! sun ( ! spiritual _w does n rise & set l ours2 b x bright5s or pales 9 appe>ance ) ! *ang+ /ates ( ! _s4 ,!n %one out innum]able />s 9 a blue dome1 l ! fri5dly faces ( *]ubim & s]aphim smil+ on u4 ,at l5g? ! we>i$ new-com] into ! spiritual _w pass$ into t my/]i\s realm ( pr(\nde/ sleep1 :i* is common to all worlds1 & 9 :i* ! unconsci\s s\l is alone ) ,god4 ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,,xvii4 ,,judgm5t ,,( ,,! ,,jews4 ,illu/ration3 ,initial ,:5 ,i awoke1 ! sun 0 %9+ ?r\gh a gold5 mi/3 ! dew glitt]$ l a ra9b[ fall5 ^u ! grass & fl[]s3 ! air 0 full ( sweet odors & ! voices ( birds3 a /range w>m? & vigor p]vad$ my body1 & a delightful activity reign$ 9 my s\l4 8,come10 said my fa!r1 8! fir/ awak5+ ?\ght %\ld be always a pray]40 ,he !n repeat$ ^? beautiful words by :i* ,jesus taught 8 disciples to pray4 ,i w n describe ! spiritual ph5om5a :i* att5d$ ?is pray]4 ,! multitude ( ideas & influxes & p]ceptions :i* 7 cr[d$ into e s5t5ce1 w\ld be incompreh5sible to m54 ,x seem$ to be an epitome ( ! univ]se1 & to br+ ! s\l into lov+ contact ) all ! sph]es ( ! div9e creation4 8,has ,jesus taught t pray] 9 ! _w ( spirits also80 ,i inquir$4 8,yes4 ,?is pray] is ! univ]sal pray] :i* b9ds ! heav5s & all ! angels toge!r4 ,x is ! holie/ ?+ ( religion4 ,x desc5ds f ,god to angels & m52 & bless$ is he :o receives x into 8 he>t6 8,we are n[ ready10 cont9u$ my fa!r1 8by ! div9e p]mission & "u ! div9e protection1 to explore "s ( ! evil sph]es :i* h congregat$ 9 ! _w ( spirits1 & :i* infuse _! deadly poisons into m5 9 ! _w4 ,y w !n und]/& a "p ( ! great "w :i* ,*ri/ is p]=m+ 9 ?is int]m$iate /ate40 ,!reupon he exam9$ my face1 head & h&s ) ! utmo/ m9ut5ess4 ,a man's :ole life is writt5 ^u ^!2 & angels1 hav+ a p]fect k ( correspond5ces1 ! key ( symbolism1 c read f !m y\r :ole hi/ory z f a book4 8,i p]ceiv$10 said he1 8t 9 y\r e>?-life y h be5 br\ght into contact ) ! corrupt sph]e ( ! ,jewi% ,*ur*1 ) ! s5su\sness ( ,grecian art & philosophy1 ) ! spl5dors ( ,roman ambition1 & ) ! anci5t & subtle p[] ( ,egyptian magic4 ,y h se5 ^! ?+s on ! natural or e>?ly side4 ,i w %[ !m to y on ! spiritual & int]ior side1 s t y may compreh5d ! dreadful condition ( ! human race1 & see ! necessity ( ! ,div9e inc>nation40 ,! geography1 if we may use ! expression1 ( ! _w ( spirits is ev] *ang+4 ,! ,*ur* ( ! ,"l1 mean+ ^? :o come f ! _w & possess a div9e revelation1 always occupies ! c5tre2 o!r nations ) diff]5t religions are arrang$ 9 successive zones ar\nd x2 ! f>!/ (f 9 ! circumf]5ce be+ ^? pagans :o h receiv$ ! lea/ portion ( ! div9e light & life4 8,behold ! mutations ( ! _w10 said my fa!r4 8,^? remote/ p1 away (f 9 ! d>kness & cold ( ! circumf]5ce1 7 once ! *os5 p ( ,god1 8 *ur*1 occupy+ ! c5tre1 imm$iately "u ! d[n-fall+ rays ( ! ,div9e ,sun4 ,!y prov$ fai?less to _! tru/4 ,!y became s evil t a t]rible spiritual cata/rophe ov]:elm$ !m1 describ$ z a flood1--= !y 7 engulf$ 9 a flood ( falsities4 ,!y 7 ! ant$iluvians1 ( cele/ial g5ius1 ! mo/ ri*ly end[$1 ! mo/ beautiful ( all2 & n[ _! desc5dants1 ! mo/ hide\s & debas$1 are ! black & bronz$ b>b>ians & savages ( ! _w40 8,we are accu/om$ to ?9k10 said ,i1 8t ^? l[] types ( mank9d are ! la/ creat$1 & !re=e ! lea/ p]fect40 8,no6 !y are ! desc5dants ( ! fir/ creat$ & mo/ p]fect4 ,!y are n imp]fect b degrad$ types4 ,imp]fect types w\ld progress upw>d & onw>d by natural law4 ,^! b>b>ians ( ,africa w nev] make ! lea/ advance until new causes :i* d n n[ exi/1 are put 9 op]ation4 ,?is great my/]y ( ! ,div9e ,provid5ce w n be solv$ = _m1 _m ages to come4 8,aft] ! de/ruction ( t ant$iluvian *ur*1 ano!r succe$$1 possess+ a writt5 ,^w1 a spl5did c]emonial & b\ndless treasures ( spiritual wisdom4 ,!y also =feit$ _! bir?-"r & betray$ _! tru/4 ,_! judgm5t occurr$ 9 ?is _w ( spirits :5 ,sodom & ,gomorrah 7 de/roy$ by fire4 ,abraham & 8 family 7 ! remnant sav$ f t *ur* = ! beg9n+ ( a new1 z ,noah & 8 family _h be5 ! remnant sav$ f ! prec$+4 8,! desc5dants ( ?is lo/ *ur* compose *iefly ! nationalities ( ,asia4 ,!y h rema9$ = ages & w rema9 = ages to come 9 a /ation>y1 semi-petrifi$ condition1 possess+ no g5u9e tru?1 no vital religion1 no elem5t ( progress2 b liv+ ^u fables & my?s :i* are ! fragm5ts ( spiritual tru?1 ^: int]ior light has long be5 lo/ to _! und]/&+s4 8,= _m c5turies n[ ( natural "t1 ! ,jewi% ,*ur* has held ! c5tre ( ! _w ( spirits4 ,x also has become ?or\ghly corrupt1 & is ab\t to be remov$ to ! circumf]5ce4 ,its great judgm5t is imp5d+2 its de/ruction approa*es2 b ( ?is1 t *ur* itself is pr(\ndly ignorant40 ,dur+ ?is conv]sation we _h asc5d$ by ins5sible degrees to ! summit ( a high m\nta94 ,i 0 a/oni%$ at ! spl5did panorama spread out b5ea? u4 ,x 0 ! :ole l& ( ,canaan1 f ! ,jordan on ! ea/ to ! bord]s ( ,phili/ia on ! we/2 f ,damascus & ,antio* gleam+ away to ! nor?1 d[n to ! great des]t t fr[n$ along ! s\!rn b\nd>y4 ,imm$iately b5ea? u 0 a city ( ,j]usalem1 t5 times z l>ge z our e>?ly capital2 & a holy temple ( correspond+ proportions1 all transc5d+ 9 glory & gr&eur any?+ ev] se5 on e>?4 8,behold10 said my fa!r1 8! creation ( spiritual fantasy1 ! imag9>y heav5 ( ! ,jews1 :i* w pass away l a scroll at ! brea? ( ! ,"l :5 ,he comes 9 judgm5t ^u !m4 8,y seem a/oni%$10 he cont9u$1 8t spirits %\ld reproduce ar\nd !mselves ^! spiritual semblances ( ! cities & c\ntries !y h left beh9d4 ,no?+ is m simple & rational4 ,^! p are gross & s5sual 9 _! nature1 ) little or no?+ ( ! cele/ial or spiritual ab\t !m4 ,!y lov$ mat]ial ?+s exclusively2 _! ?\ghts nev] rose above outw>d1 civil1 & political affairs4 ,"h _! int]ior life is reproduc$ 9 ext]iors4 ,!re=e !y create ar\nd !mselves _! old homes1 cities1 & c\ntries2 & re-enact1 z f> z possible1 _! e>?ly life1 because all _! affections & ?\ghts are e>?ly40 8,?is m\nta910 said ,i1 8^u :i* we are /&+ puzzles me2 = !re is no simil> elevation 9 ! neighborhood ( ,j]usalem40 8,?is m\nta910 answ]$ my fa!r1 8is symbolical ( ! l(ty /ate ( spiritual pride & presumption 9 :i* ! ,jewi% ,*ur* n[ is--a /ate ( self-glorification :i* prec$es its judgm5t & f9al de/ruction4 ,x is only f ?is height1 correspond+ to _! own spiritual /ate1 t y c see ! holy city & temple z !y appe> to !m4 8,is x /range t a p1 s gross1 s unspiritual1 s ne> _! ext9ction z a *ur*1 %\ld be s inflat$ ) spiritual & !ological conceit8 ,!y appe> 9 _! own eyes to h ! mo/ glori\s city1 ! mo/ holy *ur*1 & ! mo/ augu/ c]emonials t ev] exi/$2 acc\nt+ all o!rs unfit = heav5 & unwor?y ( ! ,div9e favor4 8,x 0 on ! p9nacle ( t colossal temple :i* y n[ see1 t ! evil _s plac$ ,jesus1 & attempt$ to infuse into 8 he>t ! arrogant self-glorification ( ! corrupt prie/hood1 :i* imag9es itself ! special c>e ( all ! angels ( heav540 8,we _h always suppos$ t t temptation occurr$ on ! temple 9 ,j]usalem40 8,oh1 no60 said my fa!r1 8! temptations ( ! ,"l always occur 9 ! _w ( spirits4 ,evil spirits d n move ar\nd ^u ! temples & m\nta9-tops ( ! natural _w4 ,! ,"l's spiritual s5ses 7 op5$ into ?is _w1 :i* is ! sc5e ( 8 trials1 8 temptations1 8 combats ) hell2 & w be ! sc5e ( 8 f9al glorification & asc5sion40 8,^! ideas are all new to me10 ,i said1 8b v rational40 8,y w n[ see10 my fa!r cont9u$1 8h[ ?is imag9>y heav5 ( ! ,jews1 ) its pr\d & worldly magnates1 appe>s 9 ! g5u9e light ( heav54 ,an invisible angel accompanies u1 :o is commission$ to let 9 ! heav5ly light ^u ^! sc5es1 to %[ y ! int]nal & real "* ( ?is *ur*40 ,!reupon a ray ( :ite light seem$ to %oot d[n f ! z5i?4 ,a black cl\d imm$iately arose f ! ,salt ,sea1 & spread itself l a canopy ov] ! :ole l&4 ,fe>ful ?und]+s & r$ lightn+s issu$ f ! bosom ( ?is t]rible cl\d4 ,! :ole c\ntry ar\nd became a desolation--a dre>y wa/e full ( /one-heaps & pitfalls4 ,! holy city sank into ! e>?2 & 9 its place !re rose a great lake1 black z a m\nta9 t>n unruffl$ by ! w9d4 ,float+ 9 ! mid/ ( x 0 ! gorge\s temple conv]t$ into a huge wood5 h\se or ,noah's ark1 f ! innum]able w9d[s ( :i* look$ out ! hide\s faces ( wild bea/s & ! heads ( enorm\s s]p5ts4 ,i 0 at fir/ t]rifi$ at ^! sights2 b my fa!r obs]v$3 8,?is is a repres5tation1 a pictorial prophecy ( a reality yet to come1 be=e ,*ri/ has f9i%$ 8 conqu]+ "w 9 ! _w ( spirits4 ,^! p d n see ! ?+s we see4 ,?is heav5ly light has come into our m9ds t we may discov] :at _! int]ior life really is1--devoid ( all spiritual vitality2 desolate1 d>k1 lurid2 full ( evil bea/s & unclean birds & creep+ ?+s40 ,?is sph]e ( ecclesia/ical pride & presumption is n peculi> to ! ,jewi% ,*ur* or nation4 ,x is pr$om9ant 9 all religions1 *ur*es & individuals1 :5 ! religi\s in/9cts are satisfi$ & delight$ ) gr&eur1 p[]1 numb]s1 fa%ion1 weal? & glory4 8,:at w be ! effect10 ,i inquir$1 8( ?is disa/r\s judgm5t 9 ! _w ( spirits1 ^u ! ,jewi% nation 9 ! natural _w80 8,!re w be fe>ful diss5sions & conflicts2 w>s )9 & )\t2 ! city & ! temple w be de/roy$2 ! c\ntry made desolate2 ! p scatt]$ z exiles & vagabonds among all nations4 ,_! desc5dants1 com+ into ! _w ( spirits1 w rec$e t[>d ! circumf]5ce among ! pagans4 ,a new *ur* spr++ up among o!r nations1 w take ! c5tral place1 & give rise ^u e>?1 aft] great /ruggles1 to a pur] religion & a nobl] civilization4 8,y w n[ see1 9 symbolic repres5tation1 ! ?ree great classes into :i* ! ,*ur* w be dissolv$ at its judgm5t40 ,!n !re appe>$ be=e u a great _m dome/ic animals2 ox51 horses1 asses1 camels1 %eep1 f[ls1 etc42 all m+l$ toge!r 9 confusion1 & all look+ poor1 jad$1 fil?y & wret*$4 8,^! are ! bea/s ( burd510 said my fa!r2 8! ignorant & innoc5t masses1 presid$ ov] by a corrupt & cruel !ocracy1 :i* desecrates ! "n ( ,god by impos+ ^u 8 *ildr5 a spiritual despotism4 8,advance ne>] to ^! creatures1 & y w behold a wond]ful sight1 su* z c nev] appe> 9 ! natural _w1 b is common en\gh 9 ! _w ( spirits40 ,we came ne>]1 & lo6 all ! animals 7 f\nd to be m5 & wom54 ,"s ( _! =ms & faces seem$ tak5 f my memory2 = ,i ?\ght ,i recogniz$ ! cr[ds :i* foll[$ ,jesus 9 ! _w4 8,f ^! p10 said my fa!r1 8! remnant w be tak5--! remnant ab\t :i* ! prophets speak s (t54 ,?is remnant ( ,israel1 />t+ ) ! apo/les *os5 by ,*ri/1 w be ! se$ & />t+-po9t ( a new ,*ur*4 8,su* are ! =ms ( ^? :o are int]iorly good4 ,obs]ve n[ ! =ms ( ^? :o are int]iorly wick$40 ,! =m] sc5e pass$ away & ?ree wild bea/s appe>$ /&+ at ! m\? ( an imm5se black cav]n1 9 front ( :i* _m human bones 7 scatt]$4 ,! animals 7 a wild bo>1 a wolf & a tig]1 all ( gigantic size & t]rible f]ocity4 ,we advanc$ ne>] to ^! also1 & !y *ang$ into m52 ! wild bo> into ,caiaphas1 ! high prie/2 ! wolf into ! cunn+ & cruel ,magi/us2 & ! tig] into ! robb] ,b>abbas4 ,! mean+ ( ?is tableaux ,i p]ceiv$ intuitively )\t explanation4 8,betwe5 ^! two extremes10 cont9u$ my fa!r1 8is a great class :o are 9 mix$ /ates ( good & evil4 ,_! suff]+s w be sev]e be=e !y c put (f ei!r k9d ( life s z to live entirely 9 ! o!r2 = a sep>ation ( good & evil mu/ be effect$1--if n ^u e>?1 at lea/ 9 ! _w ( spirits40 ,a s&y wild]ness !n arose to view1 9 :i* ,i saw b two figures2 a zebra1 wild1 beautiful1 intractable1 snuff+ pr\dly ! air ( ! des]t2 & a :ite dove :i* 0 /ruggl+ frantically to escape f ! jaws ( a mon/r\s s]p5t4 ,^! ,i approa*$ m eag]ly2 = ,i 0 impell$ by an e>ne/ desire to c>ess ! beautiful zebra1 & to rescue ! dove f ! fangs ( ! s]p5t4 ,!y *ang$ also 9 ! tw9kl+ ( an eye4 ,! zebra 0 our fri5d ! ,son ( ! ,des]t1 & ! dove 0 ,m>y ,magdal54 ,z ! latt] /epp$ =w>d1 a %9+ & beautiful woman1 ! s]p5t %rivel$ & fell beh9d h] l a black g>m5t ca/ ^u ! gr\nd4 ,z ! la/ picture fad$ away1 my fa!r resum$ 8 in/ructions4 8,! sc5es y h witness$ are phantasmagoric1 b symbolical & full ( spiritual tru?4 ,!y illu/rate ! law ( appe>ances :i* gov]ns 9 ! spiritual _w4 ,! ph5om5al _w ar\nd u1 animal1 vegetable & m9]al1 is all repres5tative ( ! life )9 u2 n by accid5t or ) confusion1 b accord+ to fix$ & et]nal laws4 8,! sph]e ( life radiates f a _s l heat f ! sun1 or l p]fume f a fl[]4 ,x fl[s =? & falls into successive zones or belts ( spiritual sub/ance1 9 ea* ( :i* x produces "s spiritual =m repres5tative ( itself4 ,outside ( 8 human sph]e1 ! life ( a _s takes =m 9 ! fir/ zone z an animal1 9 ! second z a planet or fl[]1 9 ! ?ird z a m9]al1 a /one1 a drop ( wat]1 a cl\d1 a />4 8,! life :i* animates a wick$ _s becomes a correspond+ wild bea/ 9 ! fir/ zone2 a loa?some fungus 9 ! second2 a poison\s m9]al 9 ! ?ird4 ,! sweet spiritual life ( a good he>t becomes ! innoc5t lamb 9 "o zone2 ! beautiful rose 9 ! next2 ! brilliant gem 9 ! la/4 8,obs]ve1 h[ev]1 t ea* _s always appe>s to himself 9 ! human =m2 & always s to o!rs :5 !y are ne> him4 ,he only takes on ^! typical or correspond5tial =ms 9 ! eyes ( o!rs1 :5 he rec$es to or approa*es f a di/ance40 8,:at a deep philosophy y are unfold+60 ,i exclaim$4 8,i see already 9 :at y h told me ! g]ms ( a ?\s& brilliant ideas4 ,oh t ,i c\ld tea* ^! beautiful ?+s 9 ! porticoes ( ,a!ns6 ,h[ !y w\ld ravi% ! ,grecian he>t60 8,y are mi/ak510 said my fa!r4 8,"s simple s\l f :om y lea/ expect$ x1 w\ld accept y\r doctr9es1 weep+ = joy4 ,! great1 ! ri*1 ! le>n$1 ! p[]ful1 w\ld scornfully reject !m z fables or dreams40 8,t is /range & sad40 8,yes--b x is true4 ,! m9d :i* is w$d$ to falsities 9 religion or philosophy1 is pr\d1 self-reliant1 self-satisfi$1 bigot$ & intol]ant4 ,! g5u9e tru? :i* makes ! s\l free1 makes x also lib]al & lov+40 8,w ! ,jews on e>? reject ! ,messiah1 prov+ 8 mission z he does by /up5d\s miracles80 8,yes3 miracles avail no?+ ) ! unbeliev+4 ,tru? is n se5 m]ely because x is tru?4 ,no tru? is receiv$ or se5 b t :i* corresponds to "s love 9 ! he>t4 ,! hatr$ :i* ^! ,jewi% spirits feel = holy ?+s1 w desc5d by influx into ! prie/s & scribes at ,j]usalem3 & ! t5d] se$ ( ! ,new ,disp5sation w be s[n 9 d>kness & wat]$ ) te>s & blood4 8,d n suppose10 add$ my fa!r1 8t spirits & angels h any special p[] to =esee ! future4 ,oh no6 ,we only live ne>] to ! ,f\nta9 ( causes1 & reason m acutely f cause to effect40 ,i treasur$ ^! /range ?+s 9 my m9d1 hav+ only a fa9t p]ception ( ei!r _! tru? or value4 ,i 0 especially surpris$ at ! fact1 t a *ur* c\ld actually come to an end1 a disp5sation be spiritually clos$ & a new "o inaugurat$1 :ile ! adh]5ts ( ! old 7 9 ! full flu% ( p[] & numb]s1 & reg>d$ !mselves z ! favor$ repositories & fai?ful int]pret]s ( div9e tru?6 ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,,xviii4 ,,imag9>y ,,heav5s4 ,illu/ration3 ,initial ,aft] ^! ?+s we 7 tak5 up ano!r high m\nta91 :5ce we _h a view ( all ! k+doms 9 ! _w ( spirits at once4 ,hi!r x 0 t ,jesus 0 c>ri$ by ! evil _s :o (f]$ him all ?is p[] & glory1 if he w\ld fall d[n & wor%ip him4 ,!re is no m\nta9 9 ! natural _w f :i* su* an outlook 7 possible4 8,?is great height10 said my fa!r1 8repres5ts ! inf]nal sph]e ( self-aggr&izem5t1 :i* aspires to univ]sal dom9ion4 ,x is t ambition :i* corrodes ! he>t ) envi\s passion s long z any?+ rema9s unconqu]$4 ,?is _s is common to nations & individuals1 to ! greate/ & ! lea/4 ,?is m\nta9 re>s its awful summit 9 e human brea/4 ,?is is ! spiritual m\nta9 :i* is to be ca/ into ! sea by fai?40 ,look+ d[n1 ,i n[ beheld a city ( ,rome z be=e ,i _h se5 a city ( ,j]usalem4 ,beautiful1 %ad[y pictures ( cities1 homes ( spirits1 va/ly magnifi$ & made glori\s ) e!real colors6 ,man _c imag9e ! spl5did creations :i* spirits c in/antane\sly produce f ! pla/ic sub/ance ( ! spiritual _w4 ,^! cities & c\ntries1 h[ev]1 are peculi> to ! int]m$iate /ate4 ,!y d n exi/ 9 heav54 ,! ,romans ris5 f ! dead _h recon/ruct$ _! imp]ial city ( preci\s /ones1 s t x always %one f af> z if "s gr& illum9ation 7 go+ on1 ^: spl5dors 7 aga9 reflect$ f ! cl\ds :i* float$ above x4 ,we look$ into ?is m>vel\s city1 its capital & palaces1 its temples & amphi!atres4 ,! great av5ues 7 cr[d$ ) a va/ & gorge\s procession4 ,_m k+s & que5s & nobles 7 walk+ 9 *a9s1 br\ght z prison]s f s _m conqu]$ c\ntries4 ,! treasures ( ^! plund]$ captives 7 borne by ?\s&s ( slaves ( all colors & nationalities1 9 massive & curi\sly-c>v$ vessels ( gold & silv]4 ,specim5s ( wild animals f all regions ( ! ,roman _w1 drawn 9 gild$ cages1 & ( ! m wond]ful plants & fl[]s c>ri$ ^u ! %\ld]s ( m51 & scre5$ f ! sun by flam+ canopies ( silk1 add$ to ! picturesqu5ess & gr&eur ( ! sc5e4 ,! ,roman s5ators1 g5]als & magnates 7 se5 head+ ! diff]5t divisions ( ?is va/ multitude1 rid+ 9 blaz+ *>iots drawn by sup]b horses ri*ly cap>ison$4 ,on bo? sides ( ! captives m>*$ ! victori\s armies ( ,rome2 s t ! v air above !m 0 gold5 ) ! fla% ( helmets1 spe>s & %ields1 & ! gleam ( ,roman eagles4 ,^! 7 ! spirits ( t va9-glori\s & indomitable race :o _h *ang$ ! geography ( ! natural _w1 & 7 n[ celebrat+ _! victories ) transc5d5t magnific5ce 9 ! int]m$iate /ate4 ,! sph]e ( _! int]ior "* 0 waft$ to my spiritual p]ceptions1 & ,i felt z ,i did 9 ! ,hall ( ,apollo :5 ,hort5sius & 8 gue/s fix$ _! haughty & contemptu\s gaze ^u ,an?ony & myself4 8,h[ unutt]ably base1 cruel & s5sual10 exclaim$ my fa!r1 8is ! _s ( man :5 he loves himself supremely1 & ov]rea*es & ov]rides 8 fell[-creatures4 ,behold ! spiritual side to ?is magnific5t ext]ior60 ,!reupon ! light f a high] sph]e /ream$ d[n1 & ! pomp1 ! glory1 ! beauty ( ! :ole sc5e disappe>$4 ,we beheld a va/ cr[d ( begg>s 9 fil?y rags1 & a confus$ heap ( l[ build+s made ( mud & /raw4 ,! pr\d & fi]ce ,romans 7 all slaves !mselves1 we>+ long *a9s & driv5 by inf]nal spirits 9 ! %ape ( gr9n+ apes4 ,:]e ! ,capitol _h /ood1 appe>$ a pool ( blood-color$ wat]1 9 :i* a dragon ( hide\s dim5sions lay1 sp\t+ f 8 m\? a /ream ( fire4 ,a lurid twilight hung ov] all1 progno/icat+ a wild & tempe/u\s night4 8,su*10 said my fa!r1 8w be ! fate ( ambition :5 ! ,"l comes 9 judgm5t4 ,let u n[ desc5d to a l[] region1 & see a p great] ?an ^!1 b :o h sunk into d>k] dep?s2 a p n[ de/itute ( spiritual pride or civil ambition2 a deg5]ate1 effem9ate1 corrupt race1 dead to all g5u9e & ennobl+ aspirations1 & imm]s$ l bea/s 9 ! life ( ! s5ses40 ,we seem$ to g d[n to ! sea-coa/--= ! blue ocean girdles also ! _w ( spirits4 ,soon we came into ! sph]e ( ! ,grecian s\ls :o _h ris5 f ! dead1 & :o _h recon/ruct$ ab\t !m1 accord+ to spiritual laws1 _! own *>m+ & e!real c\ntry4 ,! sc5e 0 n f> f ,a!ns1 ^: m>ble-cr[n$ ,acropolis gleam$ 9 ! di/ance1 ) cl\ds m beautiful ?an itself float+ above x4 ,! poetic faculty1 full ( ! inspiration ( ,grecian art1 c alone appreciate :at ,i next witness$4 ,! ,hall ( ,apollo 9 ! palace ( ,hort5sius 0 a begg>ly *amb] 9 comp>ison ) ?is great hall ( nature 9 :i* ,pan presid$1 & 9 :i* e>?1 sky & ocean _h ea* its "p4 ,! gue/s also ( ! luxuri\s ,roman 7 m]e s*oolboys 9 comp>ison ) ! augu/ assembly be=e u1 :i* 0 ga!r$ to a fea/ 9 ! imag9>y heav5 ( ! ,greeks4 ,we seem$ to be /&+ on a hill t slop$ & fell by beautiful gre5 t]races d[n to ! silv] bea* ( a placid sea4 ,! summit ( t hill 0 long1 broad & level1 & cr[n$ ) a grove ( extraord9>y beauty4 ,! trees 7 f> ap>t1 & rose l em]ald columns to a great height be=e !y bran*$4 ,_! foliage 0 prun$ & l$ by ?reads ( invisible wire to int]tw9e ov]head1 =m+ a delicate ar* = a ro(4 ,! gr\nd 0 c>pet$ ) an inwr\ght tissue ( liv+ fl[]s1 :i* yield$ ela/ically to ! tread1 s5d+ up cont9ually a delici\s p]fume4 ,9 ?is imm5se grove 7 spread a ?\s& tables seem+ly ( solid preci\s /ones1 & cr[n$ ) great vases ( w9e & cups ( cry/al1 & adorn$ ) e!real fruits & fl[]s4 ,at ^! tables 7 seat$ or recl9+ ?\s&s & ?\s&s ( ! anci5t h]oes & h]o9es ( ,greece1 s]v$ by ?\s&s ( beautiful nymphs1 ,dryads & ,naiads1 :o _h left ! woods & ! wat]s to be/[ _! *>ms on ^! happy s\ls4 ,! gods & goddesses 7 also 9 att5dance2 = heav5 & e>? 7 ?r[n toge!r 9 su* admirable confusion t ea* p>took ! qualities ( ! o!r4 ,! sky & ! air 7 lit]ally full ( div9ities4 ,on a rose-&-purple cl\d cond5s$ into a ?rone1 & l[]$ half-way betwe5 ! ceil+ & ! floor1 sat ,v5us1 cr[n$ ) myrtles & presid+ at ! fea/4 ,! ,graces 7 kneel+ at h] feet1 :ile h] swans & doves 7 gr\p$ ab\t h]4 ,ne> by /ood ,cupid twang+ 8 b[1 & laugh+ at ! sight ( 8 empty quiv]2 = e he>t 9 ! cr[d _h be5 pi]c$ by "o ( 8 gold5 arr[s4 ,look+ out to ! sea1 we saw ,neptune1 ( colossal proportions1 rid+ 9 8 *>iot con/ruct$ ( %ells1 & drawn by horses ) braz5 ho(s & gild$ manes4 ,myriads ( sea-nymphs & sea-mon/]s sport$ & gambol$ ab\t him1 sometimes 9 ! air1 sometimes on ! %9+ surface ( ! deep4 ,9 mid-sky ,apollo 9 p]son drove ! *>iot ( ! sun1 att5d$ by ! ,muses & ! fly+ ,h\rs4 ,9 ! we/1 ,iris ! mess5g] ( ,juno1 plant$ h] ra9b[ on a pass+ cl\d1 & smil$ 9 colors to ! _w4 ,af> (f1 9 ! ea/1 ! ,seasons _h op5$ ! massive ,gates ( ,cl\d1 & we _h a glimpse ( ! old ,olympian gods 9 conclave augu/1 fea/+ ^u ambrosial food4 ,?\s&s ( ^! beautiful figures 7 nude2 & ,i saw ! spiritual models :i* _h inspir$ & immortaliz$ ,grecian art4 ,?\s&s also 7 drap$1 & ) su* inf9ite v>iety & beauty1 t x seem$ no "w ( human +5uity1 b z if ,nature h]self _h inve/$ !m ) h] =ms & colors4 8,oh1 my fa!r60 said ,i excit$ly1 8surely ?is is real2 ?is is heav54 ,^! ?+s w n vani% also1 or *ange into some?+ hide\s & t]rible40 ,a %ade ( sadness came ov] my fa!r's face2 = he saw t ! subtile & p[]ful sph]e ( ?is ,grecian nature-wor%ip _h awak5$ ! activities ( my own s5su\s life4 8,yes1 my son2 ^! are phantasms4 ,^! are wick$ ,grecian spirits :o are p]sonat+ _! gods & goddesses1 _! h]oes & h]o9es4 ,y see be=e y :at wond]s spirits c a*ieve by magic & fantasy4 ,?is is ! sph]e :i* fl[s into & gov]ns ! pres5t population ( ,greece4 ,^! spirits w\ld1 if !y c\ld1 obsess & control ! human race4 ,! int]ior /ate ( ^! s\ls is t]rible40 8,o1 d n %[ x to me yet10 ,i exclaim$4 8,let me contemplate a little long] ?is m>vel\s sc5e40 8,:5 all ^! spirits are judg$10 cont9u$ my fa!r1 8& ca/ out ( ! _w ( spirits1 ! ,greece & ,rome ( ! natural _w w become feeble & dea?-/rick54 ,_! oracles w become sil5t2 _! arts w fail2 _! glory p]i%2 _! civilization decay4 ,_! v languages w die4 ,_! exact modes ( ?\ght w no m be possible to m54 ,ages ( bondage & d>kness w ensue1 aft] ! light !y h p]v]t$ & ! lib]ty !y h pr(an$40 ,i sc>cely he>d ^! la/ words2 = ! va/ assembly ( gods & m51 :i* _h be5 9 comp>ative repose1 became sudd5ly animat$ by a wild excitem5t4 ,!re issu$ f ! cool & leafy =e/s on all sides a cr[d ( beautiful nymphs head$ by ,diana1 respl5d5t z a /atue ( pe>l1 clad 9 an apron ( gre5 leaves & fl[]s1 & ) a con/ellation ( fire-flies 9 h] hair4 ,h] m]ry troop ( nymphs1 array$ l h]self1 7 fly+ 9 affect$ fe> f ! jolly god ,bac*us1 :o appe>$ 9 pursuit1 cr[n$ ) v9e leaves & b]ries & drawn by 8 ,indian tig]s /rip$ ) ebony & gold4 ,he 0 foll[$ by a rabble r\t ( ,fauns & ,satyrs & bac*analian revel]s1 male & female4 ,?is beautiful *aos ?rew itself pell-mell1 reel+ & :irl+ & danc+1 %\t+ & s++1 into ! mid/ ( ! brilliant assembly4 ,a sc5e ( ! wilde/ c>nival foll[$4 ,! h]oes & h]o9es caught ! contagi\s fr5zy1 & soon all 7 entangl$ 9 ! embraces ( ! madde/ dance t ev] 0 witness$4 ,neptune & 8 wat]-nymphs sprang high into ! air to view ! sc5e2 & all ! deities 9 ,olympus cr[d$ d[n to ! ,gates ( ,cl\d1 :i* !y illum9$ af> (f by ! sun-l radiance ( _! pres5ce4 ,i 0 gaz+ on ?is sc5e ) ! utmo/ a/oni%m5t1 :5 my eyes fell sudd5ly ^u ,hel5a1 ! beautiful daught] ( ,cali/h5es4 8,my fa!r10 said ,i1 ) pr(\nd emotion1 8d y n see t sup]b figure ( a woman m beautiful ?an all ^! goddesses1 lean+ aga9/ yond] tree & clapp+ h] h&s ) delight at ! drunk5 ,bac*us mak+ love to ,v5us8 ,t is ,hel5a ( ,a!ns6 ! dream ( my life1 ! idol ( my s\l40 8,n s10 said my fa!r1 8x is a phantasm--a _s resembl+ y\r e>?ly ,hel5a2 p]haps "s cunn+ ,syr5 :o has assum$ h] =m to allure y to h]self40 8,oh no60 said ,i1 8impossible60 fea/+ my eyes & he>t on ! lovely app>ition4 8,e "o10 cont9u$ my monitor1 8fre% f ! natural _w1 :o ent]s ?is magical & fanta/ic sph]e1 sees1 or ?9ks he sees1 "s wondr\s woman1 :om he decl>es to be ! idol & dream ( 8 s\l4 ,bew>e1 my son1 ( ^! s$uctive emotions4 ,! light ( heav5 w dispel = u all ^! illusions40 8,oh no60 said ,i1 wildly1 8x _c2 x mu/ n4 ,?is1 ?is1 is heav51 & all else is illusion40 ,my he>t beat ) passionate f]vor1 & ,i sprang =w>d to meet my belov$4 ,my fa!r sudd5ly disappe>$ f my sight6 ,9 ! spiritual _w1 :5 two p]sons ent] into totally diff]5t /ates ( ?\ght & feel+1 !y mutually vani% f ea* o!r's sight4 ,heav5 & hell are ?us sep>at$1 & ! exi/5ce ( ea* is ev5 unkn[n to ! o!r4 ,i notic$ ! fact t my fa!r _h vani%$2 b ,i c>$ no?+ ab\t x1 = my infatuat$ s\l ?\ght only ( ,hel5a4 ,i advanc$ t[>d h]4 ,%e turn$ ^u me a look ( beautiful recognition2 & /ret*+ out h] ivory arms1 exclaim$ ) a sun-bur/ ( h] old bewit*+ smiles3 8,my boy-lov] ( ,be?any6 welcome6 ,i ?\ght ,i _h kill$ y ) love60 8,!n love me back into life60 ,i exclaim$4 ,:5 an appall+ *ange came sudd5ly ov] all ?+s4 ,! light ( heav5 /ream$ d[n ^u me1 & ^? o!r lights 7 turn$ into %ad[s1 ! beauty into ugl9ess1 ! joy into horror1 life into dea?4 ,! deities became phantom skeletons gr9n+ z !y fl$ away into ! d>kness4 ,! m5 assum$ ! =ms ( fil?y sw9e or goats1 & ! wom5 ^? ( wri?+ vip]s4 ,! *>m+ creature into ^: delicate arms ,i 0 ab\t ?r[+ myself1 became a scaly s]p5t ( frightful size4 ,i fell swoon+ to ! gr\nd1 ) ! t]rible s5sations ( "o :o is fall+ headlong f a precipice into ! sea4 ,i return$ sl[ly & pa9fully to consci\sness1 l "o :o has _h a long sleep & h>ass+ dreams1 & f9ds x difficult to pick up ! fall5 ?read ( 8 ye/]day's life4 ,i f\nd myself pill[$ on a s(t gre5 bank 9 a delici\s atmosph]e ( repose4 ,)\t op5+ my eyes ,i rev]t$ to all t _h happ5$1 & a feel+ ( desolation came ov] me1 & a s5se ( deep %ame & contrition4 ,:at a revelation ( ! s5sual aff9ities ( my own int]ior nature6 ,:at bl9dness6 ,:at madness6 ,alas6 h[ l[ _h ,i fall56 ,i 0 afraid to meet my fa!r & ! good ,john4 ,i 0 wret*$4 ,my m$itations 7 int]rupt$ by ! voice ( "s "o ne> me1 s++ 9 l[ sweet tones1 p]vad$ by a c]ta9 div9e sadness1 ! beautiful words ( ,scripture3 8,rejoice n aga9/ me1 ,o m9e enemy3 ,:5 ,i fall ,i %all arise3 ,:5 ,i sit 9 d>kness ,! ,"l %all be a light unto me40 ,!n ano!r voice ov]head1 cle>]1 m ?\ghtful1 m musical ?an ! fir/1 sang sweetly3 8,jehovah upholde? all t fall1 ,& raise? up all :o are b[$ d[n40 ,!reupon ! fir/ voice ne> me proce$$ 9 ! same l[ sweet tones full ( sadness3 8,b z = me1 my feet 7 almo/ gone1 ,my /eps _h well nigh slipp$40 ,! high]1 nobl] voice cont9u$ ! heav5ly consolations ( ,scripture3 8,nev]!less ,i am ev] ) !e60 ,! voices1 ! music1 ! refra91 ! holy words ( ! ,psalmi/1 /irr$ 9 ! t5d]e/ mann] ! v dep?s ( my s\l4 ,i wept4 ,a new fai?1 a new hope1 a new div9e resolution 7 born )9 me4 ,l a s+] :o has be5 ov]come ) emotion1 b dries h] te>s & resumes h] s++1--! sadness ov]%ad[$ by a mode/ c\rage1--! fir/ voice 0 he>d aga93 8,?\ ha/ held me by my "r h&1 ,?\ %alt guide me by ?y c\nsel1 ,& aft]w>d %alt receive me into glory40 ,!n !re 0 a bur/ ( div9e music z f a hidd5 *oir ( angels1 9 :i* ! two voices jo9$2 & ?is 0 ! hymn3 8,! ,"l is my ,%eph]d2 ,i %all n want3 ,he make? me to lie d[n 9 gre5 pa/ures2 ,he leade? me beside ! /ill wat]s2 ,he re/ore? my s\l60 ,! /ra9s di$ s(tly away1 l+]+ long on my *>m$ e> & leav+ my he>t 9 a sacr$ calm4 ,i pray$ ) int5se e>ne/ness3 8,f self-love & ! love ( ! _w2 f self-righte\sness1 presumption & hypocrisy2 f pride1 ambition & s5suality2 all ( :i* ,i h se5 s fe>fully unmask$3 8,good ,"l6 deliv] me40 ,i op5$ my eyes1 & my fa!r & ! s]aph-fac$ =]unn] ( ,jesus /ood be=e me4 ,! latt] took my h& t5d]ly 9 8 own1 & said3 8,all ! exp]i5ces ( life1 bo? 9 ! _w ( m5 & 9 ! _w ( spirits1 are giv5 to tea* u ! diff]5ce betwe5 good & evil1 betwe5 ! true & ! false2 to %[ u ! de=mity ( s9 & ! beauty ( hol9ess2 to deliv] our s\ls f ! bondage ( hell1 & lift !m into ! peace ( heav540 ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,,xix4 ,,! ,,magicians ,,9 ,,hell4 ,illu/ration3 ,initial ,we _h !n a long conv]sation ab\t ! my/]ies ( reg5]ation or ! new bir?1 sc>cely any ( :i* are kn[n to mank9d1 or w\ld be believ$ if !y 7 reveal$4 ,?is k is s peculi>ly spiritual & angelic t x seems useless = me to say any?+ ab\t x4 ,if a *ur* on e>? ev] compreh5ds ^! div9e arcana1 x w only be :5 ! ,"l sees fit to op5 8 heav5s anew1 & to unfold ! spiritual mean+ ( 8 ,^w4 8,y h n[ se510 said my fa!r1 8! ?ree great sph]es :i* repres5t ! ?ree degrees ( ! human m9d4 ,t ,jesus ,*ri/ met & resi/$ ! p[]s ( hell 9 all ^! sph]es1 is %[n 9 8 temptations 9 ! wild]ness4 ,by conqu]+ ^! evil sph]es 9 8 human =m & ?r\gh 8 div9e p[]1 ,he is enabl$ h5ce=? to deliv] all m5 f simil> infe/ations4 ,?is 0 ! great purpose ( 8 inc>nation4 ,8 temptation w appe> to m5 z an hi/orical ev5t enact$ at a c]ta9 "t & space4 ,to angels x seems a cond5s$ /atem5t ( 8 :ole spiritual life1 ( 8 entire r$emptive "w1 f ! assumption ( humanity to 8 f9al & p]fect glorification40 8,:o is ! devil10 said ,i1 8t 0 capable ( tempt+ ! ,holy ,"o s sev]ely80 8,! devil is no s+le individual1 b ! :ole comb9$ evil _w1 speak+ & act+ ?r\gh "o m$ium4 ,y seem surpris$2 b no?+ is m common 9 ! spiritual _w ?an = a :ole society ( spirits1 ev5 millions 9 numb]1 to ?9k1 feel1 & express !mselves simultane\sly ?r\gh "o ( _! numb]4 8,d y n rememb] t :5 ,jesus ask$ a c]ta9 maniac 8 "n1 ! devil )9 him repli$3 8#8,my "n is ,legion3 = we are _m4'0 ,?is l$ to ! /range subject ( demoniac possession4 ,i told my fa!r t ! ,greek philosoph]s & physicians1 :o 7 consid]$ ! pr(\nde/ ?9k]s 9 ! _w1 sc\t$ ! idea ( evil spirits tak+ possession ( m54 ,!y attribut$ all su* cases to ! effect ( physical disease4 8,!y "k no?+ :atev]10 said my guide1 8( ! relation betwe5 _s & matt]4 ,_! philosophy ( man1 hi/ory1 & nature is sup]ficial & false4 ,_! boa/$ light is d>kness to our spiritual p]ceptions1 & _! sci5tific v]biage ! m]e/ babble4 8,x is true1 my son1 t devils are cont9ually aspir+ to break ?r\gh f hell into ! _w ( spirits2 & by means ( evil spirits 9 ?is _w1 especially ^? fre% f ! e>?1 to possess & gov]n m5 9 ! natural _w4 ,if ! div9e h& 7 n put =? to arre/ ?is influx ( hell into ! _w ( nature1 ?ree c5turies w\ld n elapse be=e all mank9d w\ld be imbecile or insane1 & w\ld de/roy ea* o!r l wild bea/s40 8,mank9d10 said ,i1 8are totally ignorant ( ! fe>ful dang]s :i* hang ov] !m40 8,( c\rse !y are4 ,^! dang]s come f ! unse5 spiritual side4 ,!y "k no?+ & believe no?+ ( ! unse540 8,c y tell me any?+ ( ! spiritual philosophy ( magic80 8,a sph]e inconceivably subtle & wick$6 ,x obta9$ its fir/ foo?old 9 ,egypt ages be=e ! hi/oric p]iod1 & has p5etrat$ !nce1 "u diff]5t =ms & names1 into all ! c\ntries ( ! _w40 8,we _h "s pa9ful exp]i5ces ) x soon aft] y\r dep>ture f ! natural _w2 b my philosophic /udies at ,a!ns l$ me to suppose t magic 0 an impo/ure bas$ ^u absurd sup]/itions40 8,magic1 my son1 is at pres5t a fe>ful reality4 ,x is ! means by :i* ! wick$ c summon ar\nd !m ! wor/ spirits1 & obta9 control ov] man & nature4 ,by its means !y c ov]come physical ob/acles2 c see & he> at incr$ible di/ances2 c produce dreams & illusions2 c make "o ?+ appe> ano!r2 effect trans=mations :i* seem miracul\s2 call up ! spirits ( ! dead2 take absolute possession ( ! fancy & ! w2 & control _! victim 9 all 8 ?\ghts & actions4 ,!y c give wise answ]s & frequ5tly =etell future ev5ts4 ,!y c imitate good & heav5ly ?+s ) su* m>vel\s accuracy1 z to impose !mselves z illum9$ tea*]s & prophets ^u mank9d40 8,h[ c\ld su* a fe>ful ?+ h orig9at$8 ,:5ce is its p[]80 8,f ! p]v]sion & pr(anation ( holy ?+s2 f ! abuse ( ! k ( correspond5ce1 :i* is ! secret bond betwe5 _s & matt]1 & = t reason is n[ conceal$ f mank9d4 ,:5 ! sons ( ,a>on put /range fire ^u ! alt> ( ! ,"l1 !y 7 consum$4 ,:5 ! sons ( ! prophet %r$ ! wild v9e into ! pot1 !re 0 dea? 9 ! pottage4 ,t /range fire1 t wild v9e is magic4 ,magic is ! p]v]sion ( tru?--! sci5ce & ! religion ( hell40 8,c y =esee ! future ( ?is t]rible p[]80 8,yes--s f> z we c inf] t c]ta9 mat]ial effects mu/ fl[ 9 "t f c]ta9 spiritual causes4 ,! great judgm5t :i* ,*ri/ is n[ execut+ 9 ?is _w ( spirits1 w ca/ all ^! magical p[]s into hell & %ut !m up = ev]4 ,?is is a "p ( ! sav+ "w ( ! ,r$eem]4 ,he deliv]s m51 n f ! puni%m5t b f ! bondage ( s94 ,magic w !n cease ^u e>?4 ,! fragm5ts & %ad[s ( x may annoy mank9d = ages2 b its c5tral p[] w h be5 bruis$ & brok51 & x w become su* b>efac$ sup]/ition1 trick]y1 & sleight-(-h&1 t future g5]ations w f9d x difficult to believe t x ev] 0 any?+ else4 8,come60 he add$2 8,i am p]mitt$ to %[ y "o ( ! old ,egyptians at 8 "w40 ,we n[ desc5d$ into a d>k cav]n :i* appe>$ on our left1 b :i* ,i _h n notic$ be=e4 ,x slop$ d[nw>d1 ) ragg$ black rocks protrud+ f its walls4 ,! atmosph]e 0 at fir/ s /ifl+ t ,i c\ld h>dly proce$4 ,we em]g$ aft] a :ile into a level c\ntry "u a sky ( a d>k gray color4 ,a blood-r$ sun1 nev] sett+1 /ood l[ 9 ! we/1 ca/+ a lurid light ov] all ?+s4 ,our pa? 0 along ! bank ( a l>ge riv]1 mov+ sluggi%ly & d>kly betwe5 gigantic re$s & ru%es4 ,huge crocodiles & mon/r\s bea/s ,i _h nev] se5 be=e1 lay "h & !re1 half 9 ! mud & half 9 ! wat]4 ,away 9 ! di/ance rose _m colossal =ms1 pyramids1 sphynxes1 obelisks1 palaces1 temples--va/ %ad[s z x 7 aga9/ ! sky4 ,n[ & !n we pass$ a /atue ( /one or bronze1 high] ?an ! talle/ trees1 & s sad1 /]n & lifelike1 x 0 difficult n to believe t x 0 ! lo/ s\l ( "s old ,egyptian k+1 doom$ to p]petual mis]y 9 ! outw>d =m ( et]nal repose4 8,y mu/ "k10 said my fa!r1 8t to enable u to ent] ^! awful gateways ( hell1 an invisible gu>d ( ?\s&s ( angels is necess>y40 ,i 0 reliev$ by ?is ?\ght2 = a s5sation ( fe> _h already begun to oppress me4 ,i _h le>n$ en\gh ( ! spiritual _w to "k t all ?is wild & grotesque sc5]y 0 ! outbir? ( ! life & memories ( evil spirits1 & c\ld be dissipat$ 9 a mom5t1 or *ang$ into some?+ horrible by ! reveal+ light ( heav54 ,we n[ came to a great palace :i* seem$ built ( ebony1 ) f\ndations1 doors1 & cornices ( bronze4 ,! gates lead+ to its c\rty>d 7 ( imm5se size1 & con/ruct$ ( d+y brass4 ,a /range inscription ran across ! ar*1 :i* ,i ask$ my fa!r to int]pret4 8,t10 said he1 8is ! ,t5 ,comm&m5ts rev]s$1 repres5t+ ! laws :i* gov]n 9 ?is evil sph]e4 ,mu* ( x is too dim = "o to read2 b see6 8,?\ %alt kill4 8,?\ %alt /eal4 8,?\ %alt commit adult]y40 8,hold60 said ,i1 8:at pr(anation6 :at blasphemy40 8,yes1 my son6 ,hell is ! opposite ( heav540 ,! c\rty>d 0 laid out 9 curi\s geometric figures1 & adorn$ ) _m extraord9>y plants & fl[]s1 b ma9ly ( yell[ & purple hues4 8,fl[]s at ! doorway ( hell6 ,i ?\ght t fl[]s 7 ! *ildr5 ( heav51 ! fragm5ts ( div9e wisdom %[]$ ^u m5 9 ! disguise ( beautiful =ms1 fragrances & colors40 8,s !y are10 said my fa!r2 8& ! floral k+dom "h is antipodal to ! floral k+dom 9 heav52 ! conc5tration ( all t is malignant & baleful 9 ! ?\ghts & feel+s ( ! inhabitants ( t doleful place40 ,i %udd]$ z ,i pass$ ^! inf]nal fl[]s2 & we m\nt$ ! iron /eps ( ! palace1 walk+ betwe5 ! /atues ( two great braz5 bulls z we ent]$ ! hall4 ,a s]vant came =w>d to receive u1 ( su* hide\s =m t ,i />t$ back 9 t]ror4 ,he 0 ne>ly nak$1 & ?\s&s ( hi]oglyphic figures _h be5 burn$ into 8 body 9 black & r$ colors4 ,8 face 0 ! face ( an embalm$ p]son1 long dead1 %rivel$ & gha/ly4 ,:ile we 7 speak+ to ?is frightful p]sonage1 a ho>se1 sepul*ral voice issu$ f a half-op5 door3 8,br+ !m 94 ,i h felt _! com+40 ,we pass$ into a *amb] ( imm5se size1--= ev]y?+ 9 ! %ad[y _w seem$ to me colossal4 ,i in/antly p]ceiv$ t x 0 ! c\nt]p>t ( ! *amb] ( magic 9 ! h\se ( ,magi/us1 s m9utely describ$ to me by my si/] ,m>?a4 8,behold ! s\rce ( inspiration to ,simon ,magus60 said ,i to myself4 ,i recogniz$ all ! objects m5tion$ by ! eyewitnesses ( t rem>kable sc5e betwe5 ,simon & ! magicians2 ! m>ble plat=m2 ! black table ) ! zodiac ^u x2 ! images on ! wall4 ,ev5 ! leop>d & s]p5t 7 !re4 ,! magician 0 an old man1 /]n-featur$1 cruel-ey$1 worn & wa/$1 ) "s p]sonal resemblance to ,simon ,magus4 8,i h _h viol5t pa9s ab\t my he>t & difficult brea?+10 said ! evil _s sl[ly1 8ev] s9ce y ent]$ my k+dom4 ,i "k :o y are & :o protects y4 ,y\r pres5ce tortures me2 s be brief ) y\r mission4 ,i w answ] y tru?fully1 = ! exp]i5ce ( ages has taught me t x is useless to resi/ t sph]e4 ,be quick & release me40 8,?is10 said my fa!r1 8is "o ( ! magicians ( ,egypt1 :o imitat$ ! miracles ( ,moses & ,a>on4 ,he is ! mo/ cunn+ & p[]ful ( ! species40 ,address+ ! magician1 he cont9u$3 8,i am in/ruct+ ?is novitiate _s :o accompanies me1 9 ! relation betwe5 ! spiritual & ! natural worlds4 ,i h told him t all false & evil ?+s are brea!d into m5 by wick$ spirits3 t magic is ! sci5ce ( evil spr++ f ! p]v]sion ( good1 & a means by :i* y attempt to gov]n m540 8,y speak truly10 said ! evil _s1 rubb+ 8 h&s ) glee2 8y speak truly4 ,our p[] is imm5se3 our wisdom is incr$ible4 ,we h va/ly m influ5ce ov] m5 ?an ! angels4 ,y h he>d ( ! wit* ( ,endor :o br\ght ,samuel f ! dead4 ,we c rev]se t wond]ful art4 ,we c br+ ^? liv+ ^u e>? into our pres5ce4 ,i w %[ y "o ( my favorite slaves1 a fell[ ( great capacity & b\ndless ambition2 a g5ius wor?y ( ! gr& inspiration ) :i* ,i animate 8 s\l40 ,!reupon 8 s]vant unroll$ a great :ite curta9 aga9/ ! wall4 ,! _s w5t ?r\gh sundry un9telligible incantations3 & sl[ly ! p]fect portrait ( ,simon ,magus appe>$ be=e our eyes4 8,he seems to be 9 a p>oxysm ( rage10 said ,i4 8,yes10 answ]$ ! _s4 8,he d]iv$ x f me a few mom5ts ago4 ,i 0 foam+ ) passion j be=e y ent]$ my palace3 & n[ ! fury is exp5d+ itself on him40 8,! evil passions ( m510 said my fa!r1 8h previ\sly pass$ ?r\gh ! d>k & fil?y s\ls ( evil spirits40 8,ha6 ha6 ha60 laugh$ ! magician4 8,my victim ?9ks x is orig9al ) himself4 ,inde$1 ! delud$ fell[ believes he controls me & a va/ numb] ( o!r spirits4 ,! m]e/ tool 9 our h&s1 ! dull1 sl[ ma*9e ?r\gh :i* we "w our fi]y wills1 our /up5d\s plans2 he conceives himself to be possess$ ( miracul\s p[]6 ,m5 :o ?9k !y control spirits1 are always controll$ by !m4 ,ha6 ha6 ha60 8,bew>e10 said my fa!r2 8are y\r own inspirations orig9al8 ,h y ev] he>d ( ,ja-bol-he-mo?80 8,yes--& se5 him10 he answ]$ trembl+4 8,alas6 alas60 he add$ sl[ly & pa9fully4 8,we gov]n m5 f our /&-po9t3 b !re are deep] & m direful hells t gov]n u4 ,we are slaves also4 8,oh6 if ,ja-bol-he-mo?10 he sudd5ly exclaim$ ) a fi]ce e>ne/ness1 8if ,ja-bol-he-mo? & o!r great ant$iluvian giants c\ld only escape f _! imprisonm5t1 we w\ld soon trans=m ! :ole e>? to our lik+40 8,unhappy _s60 said ,i1 8d y f9d pleasure 9 ! contemplation ( su* a ?\ght80 8,! only pleasure t is left me10 he repli$2 & pass$ into a frigid /ate ) a deadly1 /ony />e1 m l a /atue ?an a man4 8,come10 said my fa!r1 8our sph]e has p>alyz$ him4 ,i h "o m /range ?+ to %[ y be=e we return to ! _w ( spirits40 ,we left ! ebony palace2 & turn+ f ! d>k riv] ) its colossal re$s & ru%es1 we pass$ into a wild]ness ( s&1 ov] :i* hung a gloomi] twilight ?an any we _h be=e witness$4 ,pres5tly !re appe>$ be=e u a great black dome ( iron1 rea*+ across ! horizon f ea/ to we/1 & slop+ upw>d f ! s& ev5 to ! sky4 ,! blackness1 ! imm5sity1 ! gloom ( ?is /range object ca/ a fe>ful %ad[ on my s\l4 8,?is10 said my fa!r ) deep solemnity1 8is ! tomb ( ! ant$iluvian _w1 :i* none c op5 or %ut b ,*ri/4 ,9 ! t]rible abysses und]nea? are imprison$ ! evil spirits ^: judgm5t is describ$ 9 ! ,scriptures z a flood4 ,unless ! ,messiah _h come 9 ! fle%1 ?is ant$iluvian sph]e w\ld h brok5 =? & delug$ ! _w ( spirits & ! _w ( m540 8,:at w\ld be ! consequ5ce80 said ,i4 8,! total suffocation ( ! spiritual life1 z ! natural life is suffocat$ by dr[n+2 a complete torpor ( ! moral s5se1 a p>alysis ( ! intellectual faculties4 ,mank9d w\ld relapse into b>b>ism4 ,! physical sy/em w\ld deg5]ate4 ,! sk9 w\ld become black & fetid2 ! hair woolly1 ! nose flat1 ! =ehead l[ & debas$4 ,"o /ep m1 & f b>b>ians m5 w\ld become bea/s4 8,?is process ( deg5]ation _h already made sad havoc ) a l>ge portion ( ! human race1 :5 ! closure ( ! ant$iluvian hells & ! in/itution ( a new ord] ( ?+s arre/$ its m>*4 ,s ! ,african n[ /&s torpid1 unprogressive1 s5sual1 b>b>ic1 be>+ on 8 v body ! typical %ad[s ( hell40 8,is !re no hope = him80 said ,i1 sadly1--= my m9d rev]t$ to my tru/y fri5ds1 ,e?opus & ,an?ony4 8,oh yes10 said my fa!r1 8,jehovah is good to all1 & 8 t5d] m]cies are ov] all 8 works4 8,! ,"l 9 ! =m ( a ,div9e ,man w close ^! anci5t hells & beat back ! waves ( evil4 ,great organic *anges w g 9 ! spiritual & natural worlds4 ,9 ! f>-(f ages !re w be a la/ judgm5t 9 ! _w ( spirits & a new *ur* ^u e>?4 ,new causes w be set 9 op]ation2 & ^! ,africans at la/ w be deliv]$ f _! h]$it>y curse1 & re/or$ to ! =m ( beauty & wisdom :i* _! ance/ors enjoy$ 9 ! beg9n+ ( ! _w40 ,i rejoic$ at ?is glori\s prophecy4 ,& :ile ?9k+ ( ! t5d] & noble emotions :i* seem$ to gov]n ! only ,africans ,i _h ev] kn[n1 we asc5d$ into ! _w ( spirits1 ^: beautiful & peace-giv+ light ,i hail$ ) unspeakable pleasure4 8,h[ little ! inhabitants ( e>? "k10 said ,i1 to myself1 8( ! spiritual philosophy ( hi/ory60 ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,,xx4 ,,fri5ds ,,9 ,,heav54 ,illu/ration3 ,initial ,heav5 is above ! _w ( spirits1 z ! latt] is above ! e>?4 ,! way to heav5 is ?r\gh ! _w ( spirits2 b x is n rea*$ by a process ( dea?1 b by a process ( prep>ation4 ,we are prep>$ = heav5 by putt+ (f ! evils & falsities & imp]fections t we c>ry ) u f ! natural _w4 ,we are !n taught to feel1 ?9k & act 9 unison & love ) ?\s&s & millions ( o!r be+s4 ,x takes a long "t & a great deal ( in/ruction 9 ! _w ( spirits to br+ "s p to ?is degree ( social developm5t4 ,! h>mony ( s\ls 9 heav5 is l t ( an imm5se *oir ( music4 ,ea* has a di/9ct "p1 & ea* mu/ be p]fect 9 8 "p4 ,imag9e ?\s&s ( good & pure spirits liv+ 9 *oirs ( ?\ght1 *oirs ( feel+1 *oirs ( act+2 & y w beg9 to h a fa9t idea ( ! ord]1 peace1 beauty & felicity ( ! social life 9 heav54 ,new-com]s into ! _w ( spirits are always anxi\s to be admitt$ into heav54 ,!re is a process by :i* !y c be elevat$ into heav5ly societies1 & %[n ! wond]s & glories ( ! cele/ial life4 ,?is favor is ext5d$ to all1 & _! legitimate curiosity is gratifi$4 ,!y !n return into ! _w ( spirits = judgm5t & prep>ation1 & to und]go ^? organic *anges :i* are necess>y to a p]man5t resid5ce 9 ! high] sph]es4 ,i 0 delight$ to he> my fa!r say t ,i _h be5 unconsci\sly prep>$ = ?is wond]ful j\rney4 ,walk+ along ) a glad he>t1 engag$ 9 pleasant conv]sation ab\t ! diff]5ce betwe5 ! _w ( spirits & heav51 ,i sudd5ly p]ceiv$ a beautiful road asc5d+ a m\nta9 deeply %ad$ ) ov]hang+ trees & bord]$ ) brilliant fl[]s4 8,?is is our way10 said my fa!r4 8,! roads :i* lead out ( ! _w ( spirits1 ei!r up into heav5 or d[n into hell1 are invisible to all b ^? :o h be5 prep>$ to foll[ !m4 ,!re is no dang] ( any "o go+ a/ray4 ,no mi/akes are made "h2 no revelations b to ! prop] p>ties4 ,all ! art & cunn+ ( ,simon ,magus or 8 ma/] demons c\ld n enable !m to discov] ?is little road lead+ up into ! heav5 :]e our lov$ ones reside40 ,h[ easy1 h[ buoyant1 h[ *>m+ 0 t asc5t6 ,no fatigue1 no hurry1 no impati5ce1 no t]re/rial s5sations4 ,our bodies seem$ to gr[ light] & /rong]1 & our m9ds cle>] & happi] z we asc5d$4 ,! air grew fre%] & sweet]2 ! trees & fl[]s m beautiful2 ! sky s(t] & m brilliant4 ,z we ne>$ ! summit we saw ! mo/ exquisite gre5 lawns & t]races1 :i* seem$ to h be5 dipp$ 9 a gold5 e!r4 ,"h & !re 0 a flock ( %eep4 ,n[ a sw>m ( pe>l & crimson butt]flies w\ld sport ar\nd u2 & !n a flock ( birds l little fly+ ra9b[s w\ld illum9e ! air4 8,^! ?+s10 said my fa!r1 8are typical ( ! ?\ghts & affections ( ! bless$ p ^: homes we are approa*+40 ,! vi/a f ! summit exce$$ 9 magnific5ce & beauty ev]y?+ ,i _h ev] imag9$4 ,!re 7 two int]m9able s]ies ( gre5 knolls1 "o on ! "r h& & ! o!r on ! left1 sep>at$ by a *>m+ little valley ) ! s(te/1 brighte/ v]dure ,i _h ev] se54 ,on e knoll 0 a respl5d5t palace built ( preci\s /ones4 ,! gr& ra9b[-l illum9ation produc$ by ^! m9]al spl5dors fla%+ 9 ! sun1 is altoge!r indescribable4 ,away 9 ! ea/ :]e ! palaces seem$ to approa* ea* o!r1 ! view 0 t]m9at$ by a great temple resembl+ ! temple at ,j]usalem1 & %9+ l a gem 9 ! di/ance4 ,! valley betwe5 ^! palaces 0 laid out 9 lawns1 p>ks & g>d5s1 adorn$ ) fl[]s1 /atues1 f\nta9s1 lakes1 & picturesque walks & arbors4 ,^! ?+s are common en\gh on e>?2 b "h ea* ( !m exce$$ ! correspond+ e>?ly =m 9 all ! elem5ts ( arti/ic beauty1 z mu* z ! mo/ preci\s diamond 9 ! _w exce$s ! commone/ pebble on ! sea-%ore4 ,?is 0 ! heav5 ( a society ( angels1 all belong+ to ! tribe ( ,b5jam91 & all int]iorly unit$ by simil> ?\ghts & affections4 ,n[ = ! fir/ "t ,i le>n$ t all angels 7 once m5 ^u our e>? or "s o!r2 t ! physical univ]se is ! inde/ructible basis ( ! spiritual2 & t all ?+s fir/ receive root & =m & sub/ance 9 ! =m]1 to rise & exp& indef9itely1 9 ! latt]4 ,! e>? is ! foot/ool ( ! ,"l1 & is e/abli%$ = ev]4 ,i n[ notic$ t ,i _h on diff]5t g>m5ts f ^? ,i _h worn 9 ! _w ( spirits1 & mu* m beautiful4 8,^! g>m5ts are giv5 y10 said my fa!r1 8to adapt y to ! sph]e :i* y h ent]$4 ,we are clo!d "h imp]ceptibly to ourselves1 z ! trees & fl[]s 9 ! natural _w are clo!d ) =ms & colors by a g5]\s nature4 ,all our ext]nal ?+s arise spontane\sly ar\nd u1 )\t our ?\ght or c>e or labor1 be+ p]fect correspond5ces & mirrors ( ! ?+s )9 u40 8,"h is ! home ( y\r bro!r10 said he2 & we /ood be=e a palace ( m>vel\s spl5dor4 ,twelve /eps ( lu/r\s pe>l l$ up to a gr& piazza cov]$ ) a dazzl+ ar* & support$ by twelve columns ( gold4 ,we ent]$ ! spaci\s hall1 & be=e ,i _h "t to obs]ve its beauties1 a y\?ful _s advanc$1 /rongly resembl+ my fa!r2 & ) a face full ( light & love1 & a voice ov]fl[+ ) k9dness1 welcom$ me to t little spot1 z he call$ x1 ( ! ,"l's spiritual k+dom4 8,y %all see me z ,i us$ to be10 he said 8& !n y w "k me bett]40 ,!reupon he und]w5t ! same s]ies ( spiritual *anges by :i* my fa!r reveal$ himself to me z ! poor old lep] ( ! wild]ness4 ,he return$ into ! /ates & =ms ( 8 boyhood1 z a full-bl[n rose might %ut1 leaf aft] leaf1 contract+ itself sl[ly into a beautiful bud aga94 ,he 0 ! same little ,samuel :o sport$ ) my si/]s & myself 9 our g>d5 9 ,be?any1 & ^: )drawal f u _h left s d>k a cl\d on ! sunny places ( our *ildhood4 ,reassum+ 8 angelic =m :ile ,i gaz$ at him ) admiration & joy1 he po9t$ to a *amb]1 ! half-op5 door ( :i* 0 "o sup]b cry/al4 ,f x !re issu$ a beautiful female =m1 clad 9 a silk robe ( lu/r\s :ite4 ,h] face 0 radiant ) smiles & beauty1 & a s+le rose 0 9 h] hair4 ,! extreme g5tl5ess & gracefulness ( h] movem5ts1 h] mann]s1 h] tones1 reveal$ ! pure s\l ( ?is bright angel4 8,behold my wife60 said my bro!r4 ,bewild]$ & delight$1 ,i press$ timidly a bro!rly kiss ^u h] *eek1 & said3 8,?is is to me ! greate/ wond] ( all 9 ?is realm ( wond]s4 ,m>ri$ 9 heav56 ,husb&s & wives liv+ toge!r 9 w$d$ bliss6 ,enlight5 my d>kness2 tell me some?+ ( ?is great & beautiful my/]y40 8,i p]ceive10 said my bro!r1 s]i\sly1 8by ! glance ( y\r eye & ! tone ( y\r voice1 t y _c yet be initiat$ into ! sublime & heav5ly secrets ( ! spiritual m>riage4 ,y h n be5 suffici5tly dive/$ ( y\r e>?ly & s5su\s /ate ( ?\ght to p5etrate ^? tru?s :i* are only visible 9 ! light ( heav54 ,be satisfi$ = ! pres5t to "k t sex & m>riage are univ]sal & et]nal2 t love is inext+ui%able1 & becomes pur] & holi] ! high] x rises2 & t conjugal pairs live toge!r 9 heav5 9 et]nal y\? & et]nal bliss40 8,a mo/ delightful & ennobl+ ?\ght10 said ,i2 8& ,i am will+ to believe :at y say1 & to wait my own spiritual developm5t be=e be+ able to compreh5d its mean+40 ,i 0 !n seiz$ ) an int5se desire to see my "m4 ,& lo6 be=e ,i c\ld give x utt]ance 9 words1 %e appe>$ be=e u1 an angel z "y & beautiful z my si/]-9-law1 b gr[n ! female c\nt]p>t ( my fa!r by long & lov+ contemplation ( 8 virtues4 8,i 0 attract$ hi!r10 %e exclaim$1 9 *>m+ trepidation1 8by /range gu%es ( mat]nal feel+4 ,:o is x t calls me80 ,"m & *ild pass$ simultane\sly into ! old =ms ( ! e>?-life1 & into ! long dormant /ates ( ! natural memory4 ,%e 0 a ,jewi% matron 9 ,be?any1 & ,i a little boy ( five ye>s old4 ,h[ frantically %e kiss$ my face & h&s6 ,h[ madly %e press$ me to h] he>t6 ,h[ we wept toge!r6 ,:5 we came back to our la/ =m & /ate1 %e exclaim$1 /ill weep+ = joy3 8,oh t ,i c\ld see y cont9ually 9 t *>m+ little %ape6 ,i %all make y resume x ov] & ov] aga91 until ,i satisfy my hungry he>t ) ! graces ( y\r boyi% =m4 ,ah6 no?+ is lo/4 ,all is giv5 back to u40 ,we disc\rs$ on a ?\s& topics1 & floods ( spiritual light 7 p\r$ ^u my b5ight$1 undevelop$ m9d4 ,walk+ ) ^! angelic fri5ds on ! gr& piazza ( ! palace1 & gaz+ at ! ar*itectural gr&eur :i* surr\nd$ u1 ,i 0 fill$ ) an exhil>ation ( spirits too great = e>?ly utt]ance1 nev] to be compreh5d$ by any "o until he meets 8 fri5ds1 :om he calls dead1 9 ! div9e light ( ! heav5ly _w4 ,:5 ,i new recall ^! ?+s1 poor1 old1 desolate1 he>tbrok5 man t ,i am1 be>+ my e>?ly burd5s aga9 & doom$ to ano!r dea?1 !y all seem to me l a delightful dream6 ,t ,i walk$ & talk$ ) fri5ds 9 heav56 survey$ _! h\ses6 discuss$ _! laws1 _! gov]nm5t1 _! wor%ip1 _! occupations1 face to face z man ) man6 ,impossible6 ,incr$ible6 ,:at did ,i say8 ,x 0 no dream4 ,x 0 no halluc9ation4 ,x is possible4 ,x is cr$ible4 ,x 0 a fact4 ,my memory does n betray me4 ,my imag9ation does n mislead me4 ,x 0 all true2 & ,i %all see !m1 he> !m1 live ) !m aga91 nev] to return to e>?1 s soon z ,i once m give up ?is mortal brea? & r5d] ?is feeble body back to ! du/ :5ce x came4 ,h[ long1 ,o ,"l6 h[ long8 ,i le>n$ f my bro!r t ! societies 9 heav51 :i* are innum]able1 are arrang$ accord+ to ! uses !y p]=m1 :i* dep5d ^u ! b5t ( ! incl9ations & ! expansion ( ! intellectual faculties ( ^? :o compose !m4 ,m5 on e>? receive _! vitaliz+ impulses1 _! attractions to all t is good & true1 f ^! societies ?r\gh ! m$ium ( good spirits 9 ! int]m$iate _w4 ,"s ( ^! societies inspire ! love ( nature & art2 "s ! g5ius & p[] = civil gov]nm5t2 "s ! ta/e = sci5ce & practical life4 ,"s animate especially ! devotional nature2 "s ! social2 "s ! poetic2 & o!rs1 aga91 act z int]m$iate p[]s1 balanc+ & h>moniz+ ! diff]5t activities ( ! s\l4 ,! society to :i* my bro!r belong$ 0 "o :i* presid$ ov] & secretly vivifi$ ! ar*itectural ta/es & g5ius ( man4 ,ne> by1 ^u m\nta9s ^: purple summits ,i saw 9 ! di/ance1 0 a l>ge society :i* presid$ ov] music4 ,great societies :i* 7 ! secret life & s\l ( poetry1 hi/ory1 oratory1 /atu>y1 pa9t+ & o!r f9e arts1 7 gr\p$ ar\nd1 m or less remote1 all hold+ ! mo/ delightful communications & int]*anges ) ea* o!r4 ,i 0 a/oni%$ to le>n t ! peace & joy & highe/ happ9ess ( ! angels spr+ f ! ex]cise ( _! faculties 9 ! p]=mance ( useful s]vice to ea* o!r4 ,!y are nev] idle1 b cont9ually engag$ 9 do+ some?+ useful f ! love ( use4 ,i le>n$ t 9 ?is ! angels f9d _! *ief delight2 & t1 al?\gh !y occasionally meet = =mal & social wor%ip1 & unite 9 pray] & songs ( praise z p d on e>?1 !y nev]!less reg>d ! lov+ & fai?ful p]=mance ( ! duties ( _! respective vocations z ! highe/ k9d ( wor%ip4 ,?is !y call real wor%ip2 & ! =mal k9d 9 :i* !y sometimes engage1 is m]ely to fit !m = ! high] & m real k9d4 8,d y ev] see y\r e>?ly fri5ds10 ,i ask$1 8/ruggl+ & toil+ 9 ! d>k abyss ( nature1 be=e !y ca/ (f _! e>?ly cov]+ & rise into ! light & beauty ( ^! high] worlds80 8,n directly60 repli$ my bro!r1 8= !re is no cont9uity betwe5 _s & matt]4 ,to speak philosophically1 !re is cont9uity & correspond5ce2 b _s & matt] are n degrees ( ! same sub/ance1 diff]+ only 9 t5uity1 z is commonly suppos$4 ,x is impossible = u to see or he> any?+ 9 ! natural _w1 except ?r\gh ! m$ium ( "s liv+ man ^: int]iors h also be5 op5$4 8,wond]ful z x may seem to y1 ! spirits ( m5 /ill liv+ 9 ! fle% are really 9 ! spiritual _w1 all ! "t connect$ secretly ) spiritual societies4 ,!y are invisible to u1 h[ev]1 because _! ?\ghts1 affections & s5ses all op5 d[nw>d & outw>d into nature4 ,!y become dimly visible1 b d n communicate1 :5 !y are 9 /ates ( pr(\nd ab/raction or great spiritual elevation4 8,we see !m occasionally also by correspond5ces1 :i* w\ld appe> to y l visions or dreams4 ,9 e society ^! manife/ations are diff]5t1 dep5d+ on ! nature & functions ( ! society4 ,9 ours1 = in/ance1 ! m5tal /ates ( our e>?ly fri5ds are sometimes reveal$ to u ar*itecturally4 ,t is1 we see !m z 9 a dream build+ h\ses3 & )\t kn[+ _! names or e>?ly :]eab\ts1 we judge ( _! *>act]s by ! mat]ials1 ! progress1 ! execution1 ev5 to ! m9ute/ details ( ! "w !y seem to be do+40 8,wond]ful & beautiful60 ,i exclaim$4 8,i c %[ y ?is wond]ful ?+ m easily ?an ,i c expla9 x4 ,we h "h ! p[]1 incompreh5sible to y at pres5t1 ( recall+ ^! symbolic images & mak+ !m appe> be=e u aga91 z if !y 7 ext]nal & real ?+s4 8,look10 he said1 & ! horizon t[>d ! nor? seem$ ov]ca/4 ,a ?9 veil ( mi/ arose be=e u1 & ?r\gh x we discov]$ a dim range ( hills1 ^u ea* ( :i* a h\se 0 9 process ( erection4 8,e man 9 ! fle%10 said my bro!r1 8is always engag$1 unconsci\sly to himself1 9 build+ 8 future h\se 9 ! spiritual _w2 = ! entire spiritual life ( a man is repres5t$ symbolically by 8 resid5ce "h & its appo9tm5ts4 ,all ! activities ( y\r h&s1 he>t & bra9 9 ! good & true ?+s ( ! e>?ly /ate1 are s _m contributions to ! mat]ials1 /yle1 =m1 color & f9i% ( y\r et]nal home4 8,obs]ve10 he cont9u$1 8t "s ( ^? h\ses are ne>ly f9i%$1 o!rs are b>ely begun4 ,"s ( !m are 9 /yles ( great gr&eur1 o!rs are v pla94 ,! mat]ials1 too1 & ! execution diff] imm5sely4 ,obs]ve also t a man alone is at "w on "s2 a man & a woman on o!rs40 8,:y is t80 8,:5 a man & woman are truly m>ri$1 !y assi/ ea* o!r 9 build+ ! same h\se2 = !y w live toge!r z husb& & wife = ev] 9 heav54 ,sometimes p]sons n m>ri$ 9 ! _w1 are se5 work+ toge!r "h4 ,su* p]sons h /rong int]ior aff9ities1 unkn[n x may be to ea* o!r on e>?1 & w be unit$ 9 heav540 8,/range & beautiful60 said ,i4 8,& true60 he exclaim$1 e>ne/ly4 8,! true is always /range & beautiful4 8,if y w look closely10 he cont9u$1 8y w see _m fa9t & %ad[y =ms t are e>ne/ly assi/+ ^! m5 & wom5 9 c>ry+ ! heavy mat]ials & putt+ ev]y?+ into its prop] place4 ,^! are att5dant good spirits invisible to ! work]s !mselves4 ,:5 a h\se is f9i%$1 we "k t ! ar*itect has be5 releas$ f ! bondage ( ! e>?-life1 & w soon occupy ! same h\se va/ly beautifi$ & glorifi$ 9 "s heav5ly society40 ,?us are spiritual h\ses--h\ses n made ) h&s1 et]nal 9 ! heav5s--build$ by our pray]s1 our fai?1 our hopes1 our lov+ ?\ghts1 our useful & unselfi% de$s4 8,i see "s h\ses10 ,i rem>k$1 8^u :i* no "o is work+4 ,!y seem to be fall+ to decay40 8,! build]s h be5 l$ away into temptation by evil spirits4 ,! "w ( reg5]ation appe>s to be arre/$ or retroc$+4 ,! ,"l w lead !m by ways !y "k n1 & !y w r5ew _! labors40 ,:ile gaz+ at ?is /range sc5e & scrut9iz+ ^! %ad[y ar*itects ( future homes1 ,i sudd5ly recogniz$ my own figure toil+ along "u a great beam :i* 0 to con/itute "o ( ! door-po/s on ! gr\nd-floor4 ,my h\se 0 sc>cely begun4 8,see1 bro!r10 said ,i1 8,i h pass$ into ! spiritual _w & my h\se is n f9i%$40 8,i nev] saw x s be=e10 he said4 8,i w\ld say confid5tly f ?is1 t y\r e>?ly mission is n end$40 ,:ile he 0 speak+1 my att5tion 0 arre/$ by a woman 9 a black robe on ! side ( ! hill opposite to :]e my own figure 04 ,?is woman 0 b5t almo/ to ! e>? "u a great block ( /one1 :i* %e 0 be>+ to put into ! walls4 ,sev]al %ad[y =ms 7 busy ar\nd h] assi/+ 9 ! difficult task4 8,& t woman80 said ,i4 8,is probably y\r future wife40 ,an insatiable desire imm$iately seiz$ me to behold h] face4 ,=gett+ my pa9ful exp]i5ce 9 ! imag9>y heav5 ( ! ,greeks1 ,i ?\ght only ( ,hel5a4 8,x is %e10 said ,i1 to myself4 8,%e is a pagan4 ,%e is surr\nd$ by evil sph]es4 ,%e is unreg5]ate4 ,h] reg5]ation w be pa9ful & difficult4 ,! good angels are assi/+ h]4 ,! f\ndations ( our h\se are laid2 ! /ructure w rise2 ! jo9t "w ( our secretly unit$ s\ls4 ,i always knew x & felt x4 ,x _c be o!rwise60 ,9 ?is ec/asy ( ?\ght ,i wat*$ ! b[$ figure 9 ! black robe4 8,oh t ,hel5a c\ld see & "k t ,i am ) h] & %e ) me1 lay+ ! invisible f\ndations ( our et]nal home6 ,:at felicity t w\ld be6 ,let me speak to h]6 ,let me see h] face60 ,! int5se desire ( a /rong w is at once grant$ 9 ! spiritual _w4 ,! woman 9 ! black robe sl[ly rais$ h] eyes to heav5 & turn$ h] face t[>d me4 ,x 0 ! pale1 sorr[+ face ( ,m>y ,magdal56 ,m>y ,magdal56 ,! blood all seem$ to ru% back ^u my he>t1 & ,i /ood ) a *ill+1 suffocat+ s5se ( disappo9tm5t h>d to describe4 ,b ! loss ( ,hel5a1 griev\s z x 01 0 n ! only +r$i5t 9 my cup4 ,!re 0 vexation z well z disappo9tm5t4 ,a deep s5se ( mortification ov]p[]$ me at ! sub/itution ( ,m>y ,magdal51 a woman )\t "* or fri5ds1 rec5tly possess$ ( sev5 devils--a creature mis]able1 outca/1 =lorn4 ,secret feel+s ( social sup]iority1 self-righte\sness1 & (f5d$ dignity1 embodi$ !mselves 9 my exclamation ( contempt3 8,m>y ,magdal560 ,i br\ght ^u myself imm$iately ! op]ation ( "o ( ^? spiritual laws :i* excite s mu* a/oni%m5t 9 ! new-com]4 ,my angelic fri5ds 7 total /rang]s to e>?ly passions1 to ! fr5zy ( love1 ! rage ( disappo9tm5t1 ! s5tim5t ( sup]iority1 ! feel+ ( contempt4 ,lov+ all alike ) inf9ite t5d]ness & pity1 ! angels ( ,god d n see any diff]5ce betwe5 ! self-righte\s sa9t & ! audaci\s s9n]4 ,my outbur/ ( unreg5]ate passion sep>at$ me at once f my heav5ly companions4 ,x appe>$ to !m t ! gr\nd op5$ & swall[$ me up4 ,!y no d\bt exclaim$ to ea* o!r3 8,poor fell[6 ,he is n yet prep>$ to ent] ^u ! heav5ly life4 ,we w wait on ! ,"l1 :o br+e? all ?+s to pass40 ,my s5sations 7 diff]5t4 ,! ar*itectural heav5s ( ! tribe ( ,b5jam9 vani%$ f my sight2 all 0 d>k = a mom5t2 &1 remitt$ into my =m] /ate1 ,i f\nd myself 9 ! _w ( spirits j :]e ,i _h be5 rais$ f ! dead4 ,my fai?ful fri5d ,john ! ,bapti/ 0 ne> me1 & ext5d$ 8 g5]\s h&4 8,h ,i visit$ heav510 said ,i1 8or h ,i be5 dream+80 ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,,xxi4 ,,! ,,spiritually ,,dead4 ,illu/ration3 ,initial 8,y n[ und]/&10 said my fa!r1 :o _h rejo9$ u1 8! spiritual law :i* sep>ates heav5 f hell4 ,simil>ity ( m5tal /ates produces pres5ce2 dissimil>ity sep>ates4 ,societies are held toge!r by ! cohesive p[] ( spiritual aff9ity4 ,9 heav5 !y are all 9 p]fect light & p]fect peace1 because !y all obey ! spiritual attractions ( ! ,sun ( heav51 :i* is ! ,"l40 8,heav51 !n10 said ,i1 8is op5 to all1 b none c live !re save ^? :o are z good & wise z its inhabitants80 8,precisely s4 ,:5ev] a false or s5sual idea arises 9 ! m9d ( ! new-com]1 or "s unrighte\s feel+ is ar\s$ 9 8 he>t1 he disappe>s f 8 heav5ly associates & !y f him40 8,h[ !n c "o be prep>$ = heav580 ask$ ,i1 sadly2 8= x seems t ,i am v1 v f> f t /ate ( p]fection40 8,"o is prep>$ = heav5 by 8 life on e>?4 ,! life ( a man is ! aggregate ( 8 loves4 ,! /ate ( ! he>t det]m9es ! h]eaft]4 ,x is ! intellect only :i* is anxi\s ab\t _m ?+s--_m dogmas1 _m cre$s1 _m que/ions4 ,to ! he>t !re is b "o ?+ ne$ful1 "o c>e1 "o duty--to ca/ out ! love ( self1 or duly subord9ate x to ! love ( ! ,"l & ! neighbor4 8,k9dly feel+ t[>d ! neighbor1 acts ( civility & *>ity unconnect$ ) ! hope ( rew>d1 de$s ( self-sacrifice1 g5]\s emotions1 pure affections1 ! _s ( =giv5ess1 rev]5ce = ,god1 ob$i5ce to law1 humility1 pati5ce2 ^! are ! angels ( ! he>t & ! p[]s :i* build up ! heav5ly "* 9 ! s\l1 & ! future heav5ly _w 9 :i* x resides40 8,my life ^u e>? is !n a poor w>rant ( a life 9 heav510 ,i answ]$ p5sively4 8,i d n "k t ,i h any fai? at all4 ,i h no purifi$ motives1 no fix$ pr9ciples4 ,i h no love = spiritual ?+s4 ,i h a c]ta9 ta/e = ! true & beautiful1 a c]ta9 admiration = ! pure & good4 ,i am k9d & affectionate by h]$it>y organization2 b ,i h nev] ?\ght ( devot+ myself to ! good ( o!rs4 ,no aspirations beyond ! s5su\s life h be5 k9dl$ 9 my s\l40 8,d n despair1 my son4 ,y h1 )\t d\bt1 ! basis on :i* ! heav5ly sup]/ructure c be re>$4 ,y\r h\se 9 ! heav5s 0 n f9i%$1 b x 0 begun4 ,y w pass ?r\gh v>i\s /ages ( in/ruction1 & ev5 ?r\gh trials & suff]+s 9 ! _w ( spirits40 8,& 9 ! _w ( nature also1 :]e 8 p]iod ( probation w be ext5d$ = _m ye>s to come10 add$ ,john ! ,bapti/4 ,z we bo? look$ to him anxi\sly = an explanation ( ^! s+ul> words1 he cont9u$3 8,z ! h]ald ( ! ,"l1 =]unn+ ,8 "w 9 ! _w ( spirits z ,i did 9 ! natural _w1 ,i h become acqua9t$ ) an extraord9>y fact1 :i* x is my bus9ess "h to ann\nce4 ,y are to leave u & return into y\r natural body4 ,y disappe>$ f y\r e>?ly fri5ds & became visible to u2 y w n[ disappe> f u & become visible to !m4 ,*ri/ w recall y f ! dead aft] y\r body has la9 f\r days 9 ! grave4 ,y w be ! subject ( a great miracle ( ! ,"l2 & y\r /ory w animate ! fai? & hope & love ( ! ,*ur* 9 all ages ( ! _w40 ,i 0 bewild]$ at ^! words4 8,h[ c ,i return into nature80 said ,i4 8,h[ c ,i get back into ! natural body8 ,h[ c ,i die "h :5 !re is no dea?80 8,! difficulties :i* seem to y impossibilities10 said ,john1 8are easily met4 ,! process is p]fectly intelligible f ! spiritual /&-po9t4 ,att5d to my elucidation ( x2 = x involves ! true nature ( miracles & ( ! r$emptive "w ( ! ,"l4 8,y und]/& t ,*ri/ exi/s consci\sly & actively 9 bo? worlds at ! same "t2 9 8 spiritual body "h1 9 8 natural body ^u e>?4 ,y "k ?is1 = y h seem ,him 9 bo? sph]es4 8,he is p]=m+ a s]ies ( div9e works 9 bo? worlds at once2 & a wond]ful p>allelism exi/s betwe5 8 works "h & 8 works !re4 ,:at he does 9 ?is sph]e is repeat$ 9 t 9 a diff]5t b correspond+ =m4 8,?is is ! _w ( causes1 t is ! _w ( effects4 ,!re is no effect )\t a cause4 ,x seems to m5 9 ! fle% t ! miracles ( ,jesus are p]=m$ by 8 ^w alone--by ! brea? ( 8 m\?4 ,t is a mi/ake4 ,!y are ! natural effects ( spiritual causes4 ,jesus is engag$ 9 ?is _w ( spirits 9 in/itut+ a s]ies ( causes :i* are to produce c]ta9 natural effects2 among !m1 8 b5evol5t works call$ miracles4 8,miracles are n violations ( natural law4 ,!y are only pro(s t spiritual or div9e =ces gov]n 9 all ! trans=mations ( matt]4 ,!y tea* m5 ! true s\rce & orig9 ( causes1 & ! true relation betwe5 ! spiritual & natural worlds4 ,all ?+s are miracles4 ,!y are only wond]ful :5 ! ev5ts are new1 extraord9>y1 n und]/ood1 or mis9t]pret$4 8,*ri/ c\ld n re/ore natural sight to a bl9d man1 unless he excit$ into activity ^? spiritual causes :i* produce bo? spiritual & natural sight4 ,imp>t+ spiritual light or wisdom to ! spiritually bl9d 9 ?is _w1 he orig9ates a =ce :i*1 pass+ ?r\gh 8 own natural body1 re/ores vision to ! correspond+ly bl9d man on ! e>? ^u :om he lays 8 h&s4 8,he "h infuses moral vigor into s\ls :o _h lo/ ! p[] ( p]=m+ _! spiritual duties4 ,?is becomes a cause produc+ a correspond+ effect ^u e>?2 namely1 t ! t\* ev5 ( ! hem ( 8 g>m5t w re/ore muscul> /r5g? & w to ! p>alytic4 8,:5 ! ,div9e ,man resi/s & subdues ! evil spirits :o w\ld de/roy him1 ! natural effect is1 t ,he /ills ! tempe/ & treads ^u ! waves1--t ev5 ! w9ds & ! seas obey him4 8,:5 he prea*es spiritual tru? to ^? :o h nev] ris5 above ! p]ception ( natural ?+s1 & _! m9ds are lift$ f ! natural to ! spiritual degree ( ?\ght1 ! natural effect is1 t he turns wat] into w9e4 8,s ( all 8 miracles1 ev5 t ( rais+ ! dead4 ,:5 he imp>ts spiritual life "h to ^? :o are spiritually dead1 he sets 9 op]ation a spiritual cause :i* imp>ts life aga9 to ^? :o are dead 9 ! natural s5se4 8,su* is ! spiritual philosophy ( miracles1 :i* m5 9 _! ignorance suppose to be contrav5tions ( natural law1 design$ to prove ! possession ( div9e p[]4 ,god violates no law ei!r spiritual or natural4 ,he is ,law itself4 ,x w\ld be a contrav5tion ( ! et]nal organic law if miracles did n ensue1 aft] ! in/itution ( _! specific causes 9 ! _w ( spirits40 8,y draw inde$10 said ,i1 8a wond]ful & beautiful p>allel betwe5 ! spiritual & ! natural works ( ,*ri/4 ,x is cle> t ! biography ( ! ,div9e ,man c only be writt5 f ! spiritual side4 ,i und]/& also1 9 "s measure1 y\r philosophy ( miracles2 /ill ,i d n p]ceive h[ ,i am to get back into ! natural _w40 8,i w make x pla9 to y pres5tly4 ,:5 y come )9 ! p[] ( an evil sph]e1 x endeavors to absorb y\r individuality1 & to assimilate y entirely to itself4 ,if y approa* ! sph]e ( spiritual pride & self-righte\sness1 unless y are "u div9e protection1 y w become pr\d & self-righte\s4 ,approa* ! sph]e ( ambition1 & y become fir$ ) ! insatiable lu/ ( dom9ion4 ,approa* ! sph]e ( s5suality1 & y\r he>t1 blood1 bra91 are all set on fire ) hell4 8,su* is ! contagion ( evil4 ,contagion1 :e!r moral or physical1 is simply ! influ5ce ( sph]es--! imposition ( "o's /ate ^u ano!r--! transf]5ce ( conditions4 8,n[ if "u c]ta9 circum/ances y ent] ! evil sph]es ( ?is _w1 y w be r$uc$ to ! /ate ( ! spiritually bl9d1 deaf1 dumb1 p>alytic or dead z ! case may be4 ,y w !n be connect$ int]iorly & by correspond5ce ) ! bl9d1 deaf1 dumb1 p>alytic or dead1 9 ! natural _w4 ,d y n see80 8,g on10 said ,i1 foll[+ ) deep int]e/ ! *a9 ( 8 reason+4 8,well1 y w desc5d among ^! p :om we call ! spiritually dead4 ,y w ent] into _! spiritual /ate4 ,y\r spiritual body w be !n reconnect$ by correspond5ce ) y\r natural body n[ ly+ 9 ! sepul*re2 all )\t y\r co-op]ation1 )\t y\r consci\sness40 8,well--& !n :at80 8,:5 ,*ri/ 9 8 judgm5t approa*es ! sph]e ( ^? :o are spiritually dead1 he w ca/ out ! evil spirits :o possess !m4 ,spiritual life w beg9 to dawn on _! s\ls4 ,bo? spiritual & natural life w spr+ up = y simultane\sly40 8,:y = me alone8 ,:y w n _! dead bodies also arise80 8,because _! connection ) nature has be5 long & totally sund]$4 ,on ! contr>y1 y h /ill a natural body n yet disorganiz$2 inde$1 pres]v$ by special provid5ce = y\r resumption at ! prop] mom5t--?us manife/+ ! p[] & glory ( ,god4 8,y\r spiritual companions w be deliv]$ f _! bondage to hell1 & w em]ge into ! activities ( spiritual life4 ,y w be correspond5tly deliv]$ f ! bondage ( hell & ! grave2 & w be rais$ f ! dead & re/or$ to y\r fri5ds 9 ,judea40 ,i contemplat$ ) awe ! extraord9>y fate t await$ me4 ,i felt "s reluctance at leav+ a sph]e s bright & beautiful1 :]e ,i _h be5 initiat$ by su* *>m+ fri5ds into high & holy tru?s4 ,i felt deeply conv9c$1 h[ev]1 t ,i 0 unprep>$ = heav51 & 0 grateful = a m ext5d$ probation on e>?4 ,an enc\ragem5t also to resignation 0 ! ?\ght t ,i 0 go+ back to com=t & protect my lov+ & lovely si/]s1 ,m>?a & ,m>y4 8,b ^! p :o are spiritually dead10 said ,i4 8,are _! corpses "h1 also1 & sepul*res & monum5tal inscriptions80 8,oh no60 said my fa!r1 :o took up ! conv]sation2 8y are n[ ?9k+ f y\r natural /&-po9t4 ,! spiritually bl9d are ^? :o are bl9d to spiritual ?+s4 ,! spiritually dead are ^? :o are dead to spiritual ?+s4 ,!y comprise an innum]able multitude ( s\ls :o h liv$ a m]ely s5sual life1 & :o h no k or love ( any?+ high] or bett] or pur] ?an ! wret*$ exi/5ce !y l$ 9 ! life ( nature40 ,dur+ ?is conv]sation we _h be5 advanc+ t[>d ! nor?4 ,we came n[ to ! br[ ( a great hill1 :5ce ! c\ntry slop$ sudd5ly d[nw>d & spread into a va/ pla94 ,x _h a *e]less & w9try aspect2 = ! cities & villages & fields 7 all cov]$ ) sn[4 ,af> (f along ! l9e ( ! horizon 0 a dim blue ocean1 full ( iceb]gs ( enorm\s size4 ,a gray twilight hung ov] ?is cold region1 ! d>kness ( :i* 0 occasionally illum9$ by electric fla%es 9 ! sky4 8,!re are spiritual z well z natural zones10 said my fa!r--8zones ( ?\ght & affection1 9 :i* ! heat & light v>y 9 int5sity accord+ to ! int]ior /ates ( ! dwell]s4 ,cold & d>kness arise always 9 ?is _w f ! want ( spiritual heat & light1 :i* are love & wisdom4 8,"h we take our adieu10 he cont9u$1 9 a tone :i* reveal$ a t\* ( sadness4 8,t great light j ris+ 9 ! ea/ & s\? indicates ! approa* ( ! ,"l ) all 8 ho/s ( m9i/]+ angels & spirits4 ,8 pres5ce w disp]se ! demons ( d>kness1 :o h s long sat l gh\ls ^u ! he>ts ( myriads ( feeble & helpless be+s4 8,ah6 h[ ! love & fai? ( ! ,*ur* 9 heav5 h wat*$ ov] ^! dead s\ls6 & h wept & pray$ = !m1 l two lovely si/]s weep+ & pray+ ov] ! body ( a dead bro!r6 ,h[ h !y long$ = ?is day ( ! ,"l1 & h[ h !y wond]$1 sorr[+1 t ,he has s long delay$ 8 com+6 8,he comes6 ,he :o is ! resurrection & ! life6 & ^! dry bones %all live2 ^! dead s\ls f all pagan l&s %all come out ( _! graves2 & ! p[] ( dea? & hell %all be ov]?r[n6 8,desc5d1 my son1 into ! grave t leads y back into life40 ,my _s-fri5ds n[ bade me a t5d] adieu1 pron\nc+ b5$ictions ^u me & speak+ words ( enc\ragem5t4 ,bewild]$ & amaz$1 wond]+ & fe>+ :at w\ld happ5 next1 ,i w5t d[n ! /eep slope t[>d ! cold & sil5t pla94 ,z ,i mov$ along1 a great *ange came ov] my _s4 ,!re 0 a p]ceptible closure ( "s w9d[ f above1 ?r\gh :i* ! vital curr5ts desc5d into ! s\l4 ,?is 0 foll[$ by a loss ( memory1 a vani%+ ( ?\ght1 a s5se ( fa9t+ or dea?4 ,! la/ ?+ ,i rememb] 0 ! music ( a sweet hymn waft$ s(tly f ! br[ ( ! hill4 ,! words 7 ^!3 8,yea1 ?\gh ,i walk ?r\gh ! valley ( ! %ad[ ( dea?1 ,i w fe> no evil40 ,x 0 my fa!r & ,john ! ,bapti/ com=t+ to ! la/ ! =lorn _s t 0 s9k+ 9 ! wat]s ( ,le!4 ,( :at occurr$ aft] ,i rea*$ ! pla91 ,i h n ! slighte/ recollection1 if inde$ ,i ev] knew4 ,:at k9d ( p ,i saw1 :at !y 7 do+1 :at ,*ri/ & 8 angels did1 :at *anges foll[$--all is a p]fect blank to me4 ,i _c acc\nt = ?is fact4 ,x w all be made pla9 to me :5 ,i asc5d aga9 into ! spiritual _w4 ,c]ta9 x is1 t a sublime sc5e ( judgm5t & deliv]ance took place1 b t x did n come )9 ! range ( my consci\sness4 ,! fir/ ?+ ,i became aw>e (1 0 a s5se ( inf9ite pity4 ,i did n "k :e!r ,i 0 9 ! spiritual or 9 ! natural _w4 ,i 0 flood$ ) a va/1 deep1 b\ndless _s ( compassion4 ,i wept--,i did n "k :y4 ,?is 0 ! communication to my s\l ( ! life fl[+ f ! ,div9e ,man4 8,jesus wept40 ,he 0 n only weep+ = me1 z ! ,jews suppos$ :o witness$ ! ext]nal side alone ( ?is wond]ful sc5e4 ,! lov+ he>t ( ! ,div9e ,be+ 0 t\*$ ) inf9ite1 cele/ial pity = ! innum]able multitude ( ! spiritually dead4 ,x 0 a drop ( t inf9ite pity :i* /irr$ my s\l f ! sleep ( dea?4 ,x 0 a drop ( t inf9ite pity :i* trickl$ d[n ! face ( ,jesus1 z he wept 9 ! g>d5 = ! bro!r ( ,m>?a & ,m>y4 ,t communication ( ! div9e grief to me mu/ h come f ! spiritual side ( my p]ceptions4 ,i pass$ aga9 into a dreamy1 almo/ unconsci\s /ate1 f :i* ,i 0 ar\s$ by a cle> sweet voice1 say+1 8,laz>us6 come =?60 ,i />t$ to my feet4 ,bl9d1 b\nd1 bewild]$1 ,i /agg]$ t[>d ! voice4 ,! fre% air /ruck sweetly on me1 & ,i reviv$4 ,! voice cont9u$3 8,loose him & let him g60 ,oh h[ _m myriads ( invisible b happy spirits he>d at ! same mom5t simil> words ( deliv]ance & com=t1 f ! omnipres5t ,god speak+ 9 ! _w ( spirits z ,he _h spok5 on e>?6 ,i 0 fre$ f ! %ackles ( ! grave & look$ ar\nd me4 ,i 0 9 ! sweet g>d5 ( ,be?any1 /&+ by ! /one :i* _h be5 roll$ away f ! sepul*re1 b5ea? a bright & beautiful sky4 ,a cr[d ( fri5ds1 ) faces full ( wond] & joy1 7 gr\p$ ar\nd4 ,my si/]s _h swoon$ at ! feet ( ,jesus1 :o 0 smil+ b5ignantly ^u me4 ,i took 9 ! :ole situation at a glance4 ,rememb]+ ev]y?+2 rememb]+ my =m] unbelief & indiff]5ce2 rememb]+ ! wond]ful sc5es ,i _h witness$2 rememb]+ ,jesus 9 8 spiritual body1 se5 also by ! ?ree disciples on ! m\nt2 rememb]+ 8 div9e "*1 8 w>f>e ) hell1 8 judgm5ts1 8 m]cies2 & n[ und]/&+ 9 "p ! div9e my/]y ( ! inc>nation2 ,i knelt at 8 feet 9 ! deepe/ humility & ! mo/ und\bt+ fai?1 exclaim+1 8,my ,"l & my ,god60 ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,,xxii4 ,,back ,,to ,,e>?4 ,illu/ration3 ,initial ,i 0 borne to my b$-*amb] by my fri5ds2 = ,i 0 n able to walk4 ,! curi\s cr[d foll[$ u to ! gate1 b v few p]sons 7 admitt$ into ! h\se4 ,!y judici\sly =ebore attempt+ to conv]se ) me1 & ,i fell imm$iately into a refre%+ sleep4 ,:5 ,i awoke my si/]s 7 ready ) /imulants & n\ri%m5t4 ,look+ up into _! sweet1 eag]1 happy faces1 ,i f\nd /imulus & n\ri%m5t ( a high] k9d4 8,back 9 ! _w aga960 ,i exclaim$1 z soon z ,i c\ld brea! = ! kisses !y 7 %[]+ ^u me4 8,yes--rais$ f ! dead60 said ,m>?a2 8,praise be to ! ,son ( ,god60 8,rais$ f ! dead60 e*o$ ,m>y ) deep solemnity1 h] voice falt]+ ) emotion4 ,try+ to recall :at _h happ5$1 ,i 0 /ruck ) a curi\s impression :i* _h be5 left on my m9d4 ,x 0 ! impression t a v long "t--mon?s1 ye>s1 _m ye>s1 _h elaps$ s9ce ,i di$4 ,i _h pass$ ?r\gh s _m wond]ful /ates1 _h se5 s _m a/\nd+ ?+s1 & be5 initiat$ into s _m spiritual my/]ies1 t :5 ,i came to ?9k ( !m f my e>?ly /&-po9t1 x seem$ impossible t s mu* exp]i5ce c\ld h be5 cr[d$ into a few days4 8,if ?is be really ,laz>us10 said ,i al\d1 8he ought to be a gray-head$ old man1 & 8 si/]s wr9kl$ old wom52 = surely _m ye>s h pass$ s9ce he fell sick 9 ,be?any40 ,! words disquiet$ my si/]s1 :o 7 afraid ( return+ delirium4 ,!y enjo9$ ^u me absolute sil5ce on ! plea ( my great weakness4 ,s ,i lay ^u my c\*1 look+ alt]nately out ( ! two w9d[s ( my room4 ,"o ( !m op5$ ^u ! inn] c\rty>d ) its little f\nta9 ( wat]1 z beautiful to my eyes z if x _h be5 a great column ( cry/al4 ,f ! o!r ,i saw ! summit ( ! ,m\nt ( ,olives1 beyond :i* lay ! ,holy ,city1 conceal$ z heav5 is conceal$ f u by ! int]v5+ heights ( our e>?ly passions4 ,m>y sat ne> me engag$ on "s f9e ne$lework2 ,m>?a at a little table close by1 por+ ov] a beautiful gold5-clasp$ p>*m5t ( ! ,psalms ( ,david4 ,!y occasionally lift$ _! eyes ) wat*ful int]e/ to my face4 ,x 0 a soo?+ pleasure to contemplate ^! lovely wom54 ,!re 0 a s(t1 pure1 heav5ly atmosph]e ab\t !m1 :i* rem9d$ me ( ! heav5 ,i _h left2 & ,i und]/ood ! words ( ! ,psalmi/1 t man 0 creat$ only a little l[] ?an ! angels4 8,:]e is ,jesus1 our b5efactor80 ,i inquir$1 break+ ?r\gh _! injunction to keep sil5ce4 8,gone into ,j]usalem10 0 ! reply4 8,if our good fa!r 0 "h10 said ,i1 8he w\ld tell u :at great *ange 9 ! _w ( spirits 0 com+ next2 = e movem5t ( ,jesus on e>? is significative ( wond]ful ?+s go+ on 9 ! sph]e above u4 ,b alas6 f ?is e>?ly po9t ( view1 all is d>kness60 ,! />tl$ expression ( my si/]s' faces %[$ t !y ?\ght my m9d 0 w&]+4 ,!y only repli$ by putt+ _! f+]s w>n+ly ^u _! lips4 ,s ,i %ut my eyes & address$ myself to sleep aga92 b pictures f t museum ( ,art :i* memory builds = u all1 came float+ be=e me4 ,m>y /&+ sil5t & d[nca/ at ! m\? ( ! des]t$ cave2 ! ,son ( ! ,des]t1 ! zebra ( my vision1 we>+ 9 8 wild life ! r+ :i* ,m>?a _h giv5 him2 ,e?opus p>t+ ) 8 treasure to rescue 8 bro!r2 ! haughty />e ( ! gue/s ( ,hort5sius 9 ! ,hall ( ,apollo2 ,hel5a1 ! beautiful1 lean+ aga9/ ! em]ald tree & clapp+ h] h&s at ! drunk5 ,bac*us2 ,m>y ,magdal5 toil+ up ! hill "u ! t]rible load1 & com=t$ by invisible spirits2 ! great sn[-fields & ice-m\nta9s ( ! spiritually dead1 :om ,i felt b did n see2 all ^! ?+s & _m m pass$ & repass$ be=e my m9d's eye1 until1 lull$ z if by ! ceaseless patt] ( ra91 ,i fell a second "t into a deep slumb]4 ,i 0 ?or\ghly re/or$ :5 ,i awoke ! next morn+4 ,i imm$iately repeat$ ! ,"l's ,pray] aft] my fa!r's example2 & ent]$1 ^u ! fir/ page ( ! book ( my new life1 a firm resolution to prep>e my s\l by fai? & ob$i5ce = an et]nal home 9 ! heav5 ,i _h visit$1 b = :i* ,i 0 yet unfit4 ,z my /r5g? increas$ ,i gave audi5ce to my fri5ds--to v few at fir/2 b recov]+ day by day1 ,i soon _h ! h\se ?r[n op5 to all :o wi%$ to exam9e = !mselves ! facts 9 evid5ce ( ! great miracle4 ,! /ory _h gone f> & wide4 ,! dea?1 ! burial1 ! f\r days 9 ! grave1 & ! resurrection1 7 all susceptible ( positive pro(4 ,!re 7 scores ( intellig5t & tru?ful witnesses on e po9t4 ,cr[ds ( p came to see ! h\se1 to inspect ! grave1 & to conv]se ) me4 ,i 0 exam9$ & cross-exam9$ by ,scribes & ,ph>isees1 by ,jews & ,greeks1 by ,romans & ,egyptians1 by infidels & disciples4 ,i soon discov]$ t1 al?\gh ev]ybody 0 int5sely int]e/$ 9 ! /ory ( my s5sations :5 dy+ & :5 com+ to life aga91 v few appe>$ to be long ent]ta9$ by my wond]ful exp]i5ces 9 ! _w ( spirits4 ,!y seem$ in/9ctively to ref] all my /atem5ts on t po9t to ! class ( dreams & visions4 ,at fir/ ,i 0 a/oni%$ & ev5 annoy$ at ?is indiff]5ce & unbelief4 ,b ,i soon le>n$ t man at pres5t is s imm]s$ 9 ! life ( ! s5ses1 t fai? 9 a spiritual _w is m nom9al ?an real2 a fai? s vague1 %ad[y & fanciful1 t he w n accept z true any positive /atem5ts ab\t ! spiritual _w4 ,m5 ye>n = ! great veil to be lift$2 to communicate ) dep>t$ fri5ds2 to see ! patri>*s & prophets2 to le>n ! my/]ies ( ! heav5ly k+dom4 ,oh t "s "o1 say !y1 c\ld return f ! unse5 _w & tell u all ab\t ^! ?+s6 ,) :at solemnity w\ld we li/5 to 8 words6 ) :at joy6 ) :at fai?6 ,!y are ! victims ( delusion4 ,if _! de>e/ fri5ds 7 rais$ f ! dead aft] a ye>'s burial1 !y w\ld f9d !mselves disappo9t$4 ,!y w\ld reg>d !m at fir/ ) wond] & awe4 ,!y w\ld believe until !y began speak+4 ,b :5 !y describ$ ! resurrection :i* happ5s to all z x did to me2 :5 !y taught ! doctr9e ( a spiritual body2 ! reality & sub/antiality ( ! spiritual _w2 ! civil1 social & religi\s life ( heav52 d\bt aft] d\bt w\ld cr[d ^u _! m9ds1 until !y w\ld reject ! :ole /ory z a dream or a fabrication4 ,*ri/ himself decl>$ t ! appe>ance ( "o f ! dead w\ld conv9ce no man4 ,x is a /range decl>ation1 b my own case is evid5ce ( its tru?4 ,! gr\nds ^u :i* ! incr$ulity ( my visitors 0 bas$1 7 ( ! mo/ contradictory & sometimes ( ! mo/ irrational nature4 ,"o disbeliev$ because ,i _h n se5 ,abraham1 ,isaac & ,jacob2 & because ,i decl>$ t no e>?ly names exi/ 9 heav51 & t respect is !re ent]ta9$1 n = p]sons1 b = "* or quality4 ,ano!r d\bt$ my report because ,i said t ,david 0 n k+ ( all ! ,jews 9 ! spiritual _w4 ,"o man1 a great patriot1 0 indignant because ,i affirm$ t all ! ,romans did n g to hell4 ,ano!r1 equally zeal\s = ,judea1 0 p]sonally abusive because ,i decl>$ t m p 7 sav$ f ! pagan or g5tile nations ?an f ! ,jewi% ,*ur*4 ,ano!r 0 %ock$ because ,i said ! angels 7 n always engag$ 9 s++ & prais+ ,god4 ,ano!r1 an ideologi/1 sc\t$ ! idea t !re 0 any =m1 %ape or sub/ance to ! s\l1 or ev5 9 ! spiritual _w4 ,! mo/ ignorant & conceit$ ( ! ,scribes & ,ph>isees d5\nc$ me bitt]ly z tea*+ doctr9es utt]ly at v>iance ) ,scripture & subv]sive ( ! int]e/s ( vital religion4 ,on ! o!r extreme1 our wor?y old ,greek g>d5] laugh$ at my n>rative z a tissue ( halluc9ations1 because ,i _h n be5 r[$ ov] ! riv] ,/yx by ,*>on ! f]ryman1 b hone/ly decl>$ t ,i _h se5 nei!r ,*>on nor ! ,/ygian riv]4 ,! majority insi/$ t ,i _h n be5 dead at all2 t my condition 0 only a trance1 :i* _h (t5 occurr$ be=e1 & _h be5 prolong$ to ev5 a great] p]iod4 ,to ?is ! ,ph>isees add$1 t x 0 no d\bt a trick ( magic 9 :i* ,i 0 guilty ( collusion1 & :i* 0 design$ to ext5d ! fame & influ5ce ( ,jesus ( ,naz>e?4 ,"s believ$ 9 ! fact ( my resurrection2 & ! m en?usia/ic w5t s f> z to affirm t my body _h be5 decompos$ 9 ! grave4 ,^! 7 actually angry ) me :5 ,i decl>$ t1 al?\gh ,i 0 s f> dead z to be liv+ consci\sly 9 ano!r _w1 yet my sep>ation f nature 0 n organic & f9al1 my natural body be+ pres]v$ 9 a peculi> mann] = a reunion ) its spiritual =m4 ,i soon became we>i$ & disgu/$ ) unpr(itable discussions1 & ) cr$ulities & incr$ulities equally absurd4 ,fail+ to conv9ce my he>]s1 or to elevate _! m9ds into ! heav5ly light :i* ,i myself enjoy$1 ,i became m & m res]v$2 & at la/ ,i w\ld n speak on ! subject to any "o b ,m>y & ,m>?a4 ,^! de> wom5 li/5$ ) unfail+ delight to all ,i _h to say4 ,! div9e intuitions ( woman recognize always a new tru? be=e ! calculat+ reason ( man endorses x4 ,m>?a inde$ d\bt$ occasionally & criticis$ %>ply1 b 0 always satisfi$ aft] consult+ ! ,scriptures & comp>+ :at ,i relat$ ) _! sacr$ tea*+s4 ,m>y1 full ( love & tru/1 believ$ unque/ion+ly e ^w ,i said4 ,:5 ! cr[d 0 greate/ & ! excitem5t highe/1 our old enemy ,magi/us1 assum+ ! g>b ( fri5d%ip1 came to see me4 ,he _h he>d ( my dea? ) great pleasure1 = he expect$ to rega9 possession ( ! prop]ty & ( my si/]s4 ,he 0 at he>t greatly inc5s$ at my return to life1 & v[$ to wreak 8 v5geance on ! ,div9e ,man :o rais$ me f ! dead4 ,he ent]$ ) affect$ fri5dl9ess ( mann]1 & congratulat$ me on my happy escape f ! _w ( %ad[s4 ,he hop$1 ) sanctimoni\s e>ne/ness1 t aft] ?is solemn w>n+1 ,i w\ld disc>d all my pagan ideas & proclivities1 & consecrate my :ole s\l to ! s]vice ( ! only true & liv+ ,god4 ,i told him t ,i 0 r to be piti$ ?an congratulat$ on return+ to a _w s va/ly inf]ior 9 beauty1 peace1 & joy to ! "o ,i _h visit$4 ,i told him also t ,i _h be5 in/ruct$ 9 ! true doctr9e ( ,god 9 ! _w ( spirits1 & t ,i _h se5 ! t]rible dang]s :i* 7 imp5d+ ov] ! ,jewi% p & *ur* on acc\nt ( ! bl9dness & wick$ness ( _! he>ts4 8,y w be delight$ to he>10 ,i cont9u$1 8t my guide & in/ructor 0 my belov$ fa!r1 :o pass$ f ! wild]ness into heav51 ex*ang+ a poor lepr\s body = ! radiant =m ( an angel40 ,:e!r my looks & tones displeas$ him1 or my /atem5ts ar\s$ 8 ang]2 or :e!r ! sph]e ( tru?1 l ! reveal+ light ( heav51 compell$ him to %[ himself 9 8 true colors2 ,magi/us dropp$ ! mask1 sc[l$ ^u me ) a face full ( hateful passion1 & retir$1 turn+ at ! door to exclaim3 8,bew>e1 "y man6 le/ ?is pret5d$ resurrection prove ! cause ( y\r real dea?40 ,i _h h>dly felt myself 9 full & heal?ful possession ( my natural body aga91 :5 ,i made inquiries aft] t beautiful & fasc9at+ woman1 ! love ( :om1 unrequit$ & consum+1 _h be5 ! pr9cipal cause ( my dea?4 ,"o might suppose t aft] my /range exp]i5ce ) ,hel5a or h] att5dant demon--an exp]i5ce seem+ly design$ to apprise me ( h] true "*--%e w\ld h be5 ! la/ p]son on e>? ,i desir$ to see4 ,alas6 x 0 n s4 ,! en*antm5ts ( ! s5ses /rike deep into ! s\l4 ,! dream ( love fir/ eng5d]$ 9 ! f]vid bra9 ( y\? is n easily =gott54 ,h] beautiful face & bewit*+ figure 7 con/antly be=e me4 ,& x 0 ) ! deepe/ angui% t ,i he>d %e _h fl$ f h] fa!r & fri5ds1 & _h gone d[n into ,egypt ) ,simon ,magus4 ,i f\nd x impossible to turn my ?\ghts f ?is ,greek sir5 ^: own evil passions _h ?us borne h] out ( my rea*1 & to conc5trate !m ^u t o!r woman :om ,provid5ce _h decre$ to be my et]nal p>tn]1 & :o 0 sil5tly1 pa9fully1 unconsci\sly1 co-op]at+ ) me 9 build+ t palace 9 ! ar*itectural heav5 ( my tribe4 ,m>y ,magdal5 foll[$ ,jesus z usual1 & came occasionally ) ! cr[d into ! front c\rty>d ( our h\se4 ,! love ( ,hel5a s preoccupi$ my ?\ghts & desires1 t ,i c\ld n make up my m9d to speak to h] =lorn rival1 or to invite h] into ! gue/-*amb] ) ! o!r disciples4 ,s ! future wife ( my s\l /ood )\t among ! unwelcom$ cr[d1 outca/1 solit>y1 unfri5d$1 pati5tly be>+ ! burd5 ( life = bo? h]self & me4 ,jesus sp5t 8 ev5+s at our h\se1 until ! viol5t _s ( ! *ief ,prie/s & ,scribes1 on acc\nt ( my resurrection1 became s app>5t1 t he )drew = a season to ,ephraim1 :]e he _h sev]al devot$ foll[]s4 ,he pass$ ! "t 9 pleasant conv]sation ) 8 disciples1 or 9 read+ & exp\nd+ to u ! ,scriptures4 ,) :at eyes & ?\ghts1 diff]5t f ! o!rs1 did ,i n[ reg>d ?is ,div9e ,be+1 seat$ z a man among m5--among ! creatures ( 8 own brea?6 ,my spiritual exp]i5ces ) reg>d to ,him _h ca/ a spell ( sil5ce & awe ^u my s\l4 ,i c\ld n speak to ,jesus z be=e4 ,9 8 pres5ce ,i c\ld sc>cely speak at all4 ,sometimes ,i f\nd x impossible to lift my eyes to 8 face4 ,:ile ! o!rs ate & *att$ respectfully b famili>ly ) ?is ,div9e ,man1 kn[+ ,him only z a man1 ,i sat sil5t & rev]5tial1 my he>t humbl$ 9 ! du/ be=e ,him1 ?9k+ ( ! great gold5 light :i* prec$$ ,him 9 ! _w ( spirits1 & ( 8 div9e face %9+ l a sun ^u ! angels ( ! cele/ial heav54 ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,,xxiii4 ,,imprison$4 ,illu/ration3 ,initial ,jesus at l5g? came up f ,ephraim & prep>$ = t triumphal entry into ,j]usalem :i* ar\s$ ! animosity ( ! ,sanh$rim to ! highe/ pit*1 & gave color to ! *>ge :i* !y br\ght aga9/ him1 t he m$itat$ a political conspiracy & s\ght ! temporal au?ority & k+dom ( ,judea4 ,_m1 inde$1 ( 8 ignorant foll[]s expect$ him to seize ! re9s ( civil gov]nm5t1 & to ma9ta9 8 position by miracul\s p[]4 ,!n !y suppos$ he w\ld raise ,j]usalem & ! ,jewi% p to ! p9nacle ( e>?ly glory4 ,^! boa/$ op5ly ( _! expectations2 & ! *ief prie/s & rul]s no d\bt congratulat$ !mselves1 9 _! subsequ5t proce$+s1 t !y 7 ext+ui%+ a false religion & a civil w> by ! same en]getic bl[4 ,on ! eve be=e ?is entry into ,j]usalem my si/]s gave a supp] to ,jesus & 8 disciples4 ,x 0 a brilliant & beautiful sc5e1 cr[n$1 h[ev]1 ) a c]ta9 solemnity & sadness2 = ! great ev5ts ab\t to transpire ca/ %ad[s be=e !m :i* fell ^u e he>t4 ,x 0 !re t my si/] ,m>y drew =?1 f a gold5 box :i* _h be5 giv5 h] by our good uncle ,beltrezzor1 a co/ly ,p]sian o9tm5t & ano9t$ ! feet ( ,jesus4 ,judas ,isc>iot reprov$ h] conduct z extravagant2 & ,jesus respond$ t %e 0 ano9t+ him = 8 burial4 ,?is pr$iction ( dea? on ! eve ( app>5t triumph & glory1 bewild]$ ! m9ds & sadd5$ ! he>ts ( 8 he>]s4 ,if ,i _h kn[n at t mom5t1 ^u :at a frightful precipice ,i 0 /&+1 & :at lifelong tribulation await$ me1 ,i w\ld h be5 ! sadde/ ( !m all4 ,b ! skeleton /&s invisible at our fea/s1 & ! s]p5t coils undiscov]$ among ! fl[]s4 ,jesus1 ) 8 favorite disciples1 ,pet]1 ,james & ,john1 lodg$ at our dwell+2 b mo/ ( ! gue/s return$ to ,j]usalem at a late h\r4 ,i accompani$ !m ?r\gh ! grove :i* cr[n$ ! ,m\nt ( ,olives1 & d[n ! we/]n slope1 ov] ! spot :]e ,jesus 0 aft]w>d betray$1 & f :i* also he asc5d$ to heav54 ,i p>t$ ) my fri5ds at ! long ar*$ bridge :i* crosses ! valley & l&s y ne> ! gate ( ! temple call$ ,beautiful4 ,z ! la/ foot/eps di$ away on ! bridge1 ,i turn$ to g back1 :5 ,i 0 />tl$ by ! d>k figure ( a man advanc+ f beh9d a tree4 ,! moon _h j gone d[n & ! w9d sigh$ m\rnfully ?r\gh ! olive leaves4 ,?is man 0 ,judas ,isc>iot4 8,i h some?+10 he said 9 a l[ tone1 8( ! deepe/ importance to reveal to y4 ,i "k y\r atta*m5t to our ,ma/]4 ,i "k y\r discretion & y\r c\rage4 ,i h discov]$ a plot aga9/ ! life ( ,jesus4 ,two hirel+s 9 ! pay ( ! ,sanh$rim1 consci5ce-/rick51 or m probably afraid ( ! miracul\s p[] ( ,jesus1 h betray$ a "p ( ! plan4 ,!y are n[ und]nea? "o ( ! ar*es ( t bridge1 wait+ = me4 ,i wi% y to accompany me into ! valley1 to "q ^! m51 to satisfy y\rself ( ! nature & ext5t ( ! dang]1 & to aid me ) y\r c\nsel & if necess>y ) y\r arm40 ,i 0 deeply agitat$ at ^! words4 ,i knew ! animosity ( ! *ief prie/s to ,jesus1 & ,i believ$ !y w\ld n hesitate to employ ! knife ( ! assass91 if !y c\ld n arre/ 8 c>e] by a public process4 ,i _h no cause to d\bt ! report ( ,judas2 b = "s inexplicable reason ,i _h a great av]sion to ! man4 ,he mu/ h read d\bt or suspicion 9 my mann]2 = he imm$iately exclaim$ 9 a tone ( surprise3 8,:y d y hesitate8 ,is my ^w n suffici5t8 ,i h *os5 y to %>e 9 ?is mission ( honor & dang]1 because y are indebt$ to ,jesus = y\r own life1 & because he is at ?is mom5t a gue/ 9 y\r h\se4 ,_h ,i communicat$ ?is to ! brave ,pet] or ! resolute ,james--0 8,en\gh60 said ,i1 int]rupt+ him & tak+ 8 arm2 & we grop$ our way along ! n>r[ pa? t w\nd d[n ! /eep hill into ! valley4 ,rea*+ ! level gr\nd1 ,judas gave a l[ :i/le & f\r m5 />t$ up f beh9d ! pill>s ( ! bridge4 ,"o ( !m l$ a mule by ! bridle4 ,we approa*$ !m4 8,"h is y\r man10 said ,judas1 sudd5ly /epp+ beh9d me & seiz+ me ) great /r5g? by ! %\ld]s4 ,! m5 ru%$ ^u me1 & not)/&+ my desp]ate /ruggle !y b\nd me h& & foot 9 a few seconds4 8,vile traitor60 0 ! only exclamation t pass$ my lips be=e !y 7 tightly clos$ by a /rong lea!rn muzzle :i* 0 /rapp$ securely ov] my head & beh9d my neck4 ,i 0 !n bl9dfold$ & put ^u ! mule4 ,we mov$ ar\nd to "o ( ! city gates4 ,! passwords 7 giv51 = ! p>ty 7 emiss>ies ( ! ,sanh$rim4 ,we trav]s$ ! /reets a good di/ance1 :5 we halt$ & ,i 0 conduct$ into a h\se4 ,:5 releas$ f my bonds ,i f\nd myself 9 a l>ge /one *amb] ) a small iron door & two l(ty1 iron-grat$ w9d[s4 8,9 prison80 ,i exclaim$4 ,judas1 :o /ood 9 ! doorway1 rubb$ 8 h&s ) insult+ glee & said3 8,y\r uncle ,magi/us pays me h&somely = ?is40 8,if ,jesus is ev] murd]$10 said ,i1 ) indignant scorn1 8y w be ! murd]]40 ,he sne]$ & w5t out4 ,i saw him no m4 ,alas6 ,i nev] saw ! natural =m ( ,jesus aga94 ,he :o betray$ ! disciple1 0 already b>ga9+ = ! ?irty pieces ( silv] at :i* he e/imat$ ! life ( 8 ,"l4 ,! cause ( my imprisonm5t 0 n d\btful4 ,i _h become obnoxi\s to ! ,sanh$rim f ! m]e fact ( my resurrection4 ,! att5tion x attract$1 ! pre/ige x conf]r$ on ,jesus1 ! increas+ cr[d t foll[$ him1 all annoy$ & vex$ !m4 ,i 0 a liv+ pro( ( ! p[] & glory ( ! new religion1 a /&+ prote/ & m5ace aga9/ ! old4 ,x 0 necess>y t ,i %\ld be put out ( ! way4 ,i 0 %ut out f ! _w2 a pallet ( /raw = my b$2 a r\gh table & a /ool my only furniture4 ,a fi]ce1 sil5t gu>d br\ght me a daily supply ( wat] & co>se food4 ,i saw & he>d no?+ ( ! great sea ( human life :i* 0 surg+ outside ( my /one walls4 ,sev]al days & nights pass$ 9 ?is mann]4 ,:at _h become ( my si/]s8 ,:at _h become ( ,jesus8 ,if ,i _h be5 made ! fir/ victim1 surely ^! o!rs w\ld fall %ortly b5ea? ! malice & cruelty ( su* unscrupul\s enemies4 ,^! ?\ghts1 att5d$ ) gloomy =ebod+s1 press$ ) pa9ful reit]ation ^u my m9d4 ,i c\ld n eat4 ,i c\ld n sleep4 ,i 0 all eye1 all e>4 ,i 0 />tl$ "o night by a /range upro> 9 ! /reet4 ,i 0 s wat*ful1 s quick ( he>+1 t ,i detect$ x a great way (f4 ,x gradually came ne>] & ne>]4 ,x 0 a riot or /reet-fight or battle creep+ 9 ! direction ( my prison4 ,!re 7 at la/ pla9ly he>d %\ts1 groans1 curses1 ! hurry+ ( feet1 ! cla% ( arms1 & all ! excit+ accompanim5ts ( a bloody conte/ betwe5 two enrag$ factions4 ,f ! triumphant cries & ! great fl>e ( tor*es :i* came 9 at my w9d[1 ,i p]ceiv$ t "o p>ty _h driv5 ! o!r be=e x1 & n[ occupi$ ! gr\nd 9 front ( ! build+ 9 :i* ,i 0 imprison$4 ,i put ! table aga9/ ! wall & ! /ool on ! table4 ,m\nt+ ?us to "o ( ! w9d[s1 ,i c\ld see p>tially :at 0 go+ on 9 ! /reet4 ,:at a cr[d ( ruffians ( all nations & colors1 fanta/ically dress$ & v>i\sly arm$6 ,:ile ,i 0 gaz+ on ?is hide\s rabble1 a man ( huge proportions rode up on a horse f9ely cap>ison$1 :i* _h evid5tly be5 ! late prop]ty ( "s da%+ ,roman (fic]4 ,?is man _h a horribly bruis$ & swoll5 face1 & an imm5se1 d+y1 yell[ be>d4 ,i recogniz$ ,b>abbas ! robb]4 8,break op5 ! doors & release ! prison]s60 he cri$ 9 a t]rible voice4 ,beams us$ l batt]+-rams 7 soon br\ght to be> ^u ! iron-b>r$ & bolt$ doors1 until ! :ole build+ res\nd$ ) ! trem5d\s /rokes4 ,h[ my he>t leap$ at ! ?\ght ( a spe$y deliv]ance6 ,i det]m9$ 9 ! confusion to elude bo? p>ties & escape to ,be?any4 ,at ?is mom5t a great outcry arose3 8,! ,romans6 ,! ,romans60 & ! swift clatt] ( horses' feet & ! r5ewal ( all ! s\nds ( a fi]ce fight1 assur$ me t ! riot]s _h be5 attack$ by a squadron ( ,roman cavalry4 ,sudd5ly ,i he>d a l\d1 cle>1 sweet voice %\t+ ) wild en?usiasm3 8,dea? to ! ,romans60 8,fre$om to ,judea60 ,i recogniz$ ! famili> tones be=e ,i discov]$ ! tall figure ( ! ,son ( ! ,des]t4 ,he 0 b>e-head$1 & 8 f9e bronz$ face1 8 scimit> & 8 crimson sc>f gleam$ 9 ! tor*light z he ru%$ bravely =w>d4 ,an?ony1 my old s]vant1 0 at 8 side1 wat*+ 8 movem5ts ) admiration & e*o+ 8 words4 ,! ,son ( ! ,des]t 0 br++ up a l>ge p>ty ( /alw>t fell[s1 arm$ ) pikes & scimit>s1 to meet ! advanc+ column ( horse4 ,i call$ to him l\dly1 wav+ my arms eag]ly betwe5 ! b>s4 ,at t mom5t a /rong pressure backw>d f ! front1 held ! p>ty /ation>y = a second4 ,my old fri5d look$ up at my w9d[ surpris$1 & smil$ 8 recognition4 ,he kiss$ 8 h& to me & po9t$ to ! r+ on 8 f+] :i* ,m>?a _h giv5 him4 ,an?ony also recogniz$ me1 & salut$ me ) frantic ge/ures & e demon/ration ( *ildi% joy4 ,! p>ty sudd5ly surg$ =w>d1 & ! ,son ( ! ,des]t rais$ 8 battle-cry3 8,dea? to ! ,romans60 8,fre$om to ,judea60 ,j !n my gu>d1 :o _h ent]$ ! room1 comm&$ me to come d[n f ! w9d[1 ?reat5+ to transfix me ) 8 javel9 if ,i did n obey4 ,i desc5d$ & seat$ myself quietly on ! /ool1 li/5+ 9 sil5ce to ! progress ( ! fight4 ,kn[+ ! irresi/ible p[] ( ! ,roman arms1 & wond]+ :y ! ,son ( ! ,des]t _h be5 l$ into su* a hopeless ent]prise1 ,i 0 griev$1 al?\gh n disappo9t$1 :5 ,i di/+ui%$ by ! v>y+ s\nds ( ! conflict1 t ! discipl9$ cavalry ( ,pilate's legion 7 ma/]s ( ! field4 ,! tor*light fad$ away2 ! tumult ceas$4 ,no?+ 0 he>d b a solit>y horseman patroll+ ! des]t$ /reets4 ,! ent]prise1 :atev] x 01 _h fail$4 ,i 0 n to be rescu$4 ,i 0 n to rejo9 my si/]s4 ,i 0 to "k no?+ t 0 go+ on 9 ! busy _w ar\nd me4 ,i sank ^u my /raw1 dispirit$1 despair+4 ,t[>d daylight ,i slept2 & ,i dream$ ( t t]rible night by ! ,dead ,sea & ( ! words ( my uncle ,beltrezzor4 ,x seems t ! riot made my jail]s suspect t my prison 0 insecure4 ,a few nights aft] ?is gr& excitem5t1 ,i 0 />tl$ by sev]al m5 9 masks ent]+ my room4 ,i 0 b\nd1 muzzl$ & bl9dfold$ aga94 ,i 0 plac$ 9 "s k9d ( a vehicle4 ,we trav]s$ ! city2 we pass$ ! gate2 we desc5d$ a slope4 ,! fre% air ( ! c\ntry broke sweetly & soo?+ly ^u me4 ,we asc5d$ a long hill1 z ,i knew by ! motion to :i* ,i 0 subject$4 ,no "o spoke4 ,at la/ ! vehicle /opp$4 ,i 0 l$ betwe5 two m5 into a h\se4 ,we walk$ ?r\gh a v n>r[ passage :]e only two c\ld pass at a "t4 ,sudd5ly ,i 0 /opp$1 seiz$ by ! arms1 & let d[n into a k9d ( vault4 ,previ\s to ?is ,i 0 /ripp$ ( my b&ages2 b x 0 s d>k t ,i c\ld di/+ui% no?+4 ,x 0 n deliv]ance4 ,x 0 n dea?1 t happie/ deliv]ance ( all6 ,x 0 a *ange ( prisons--f d>k to d>k]4 ,my he>t sank )9 me4 ,i trembl$4 ,/range s\nds above me at ! po9t ( my entrance n[ attract$ my att5tion6 ,i li/5$ ) ! utmo/ t5sion ( e>1 endeavor+ to conjecture :at my jail]s 7 do+4 ,at la/ ,i compreh5d$ x6 ,!y 7 br++ brick & mort>1 & all 9 ! d>k6 ,!y 7 wall+ up ! space by :i* ,i _h be5 l[]$ into ! vault4 ,horrible idea6 ,my =m] prison 0 a dungeon2 ?is 0 a grave6 ,i 0 to be buri$ alive6 ,! ?\ght ov]p[]$ me & ,i swoon$4 ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,,xxiv4 ,,buri$ ,,alive4 ,illu/ration3 ,initial ,:5 ,i recov]$ my s5ses ,i exam9$ z well z ,i c\ld ! /range place into :i* ,i _h be5 plung$4 ,x mu/ h be5 broad daylight out ( doors1 = !re 0 a k9d ( twilight ab\t me t reveal$ pla9ly ! cont\r ( my dungeon4 ,:5 ev5+ came on ,i 0 %r\d$ 9 imp5etrable d>kness4 ,su* 0 ! only diff]5ce betwe5 my day & my night4 ,! *amb] 0 ab\t t5 feet squ>e1 & its walls rose to a consid]able height4 ,x 0 evid5tly an old secret dungeon p>tly und]gr\nd1 damp & m\ldy1 ! sc5e p]haps ( _m suff]+s & _m crimes4 ,!re 0 an op5+ into ?is vault1 s t ,i 0 n lit]ally buri$ alive4 ,! workm5 :o _h seal$ up ! space by :i* ,i _h ent]$1 _h left a little squ>e hole l a w9d[ ab\t t5 feet above ! floor+4 ,i c\ld see a brick wall beyond x1 s t !re 0 evid5tly a n>r[ passage by :i* "s rays ( light came to me4 ,:5 a door1 op5+ into ?is passage1 0 left op51 ! light 0 consid]able4 ,if ,i c\ld h rea*$ t w9d[ ,i c\ld h escap$2 = x 0 l>ge en\gh to admit ! head & %\ld]s ( a man1 z ,i soon _h occasion to "k4 ,i made _m frantic ef=ts to d s1 b c\ld b>ely t\* ! edge ( x ) ! tips ( my f+]s4 ,!re 0 n an object 9 ! room to assi/ me 9 rea*+ x4 ,my *amb] 0 p]fectly b>e--n a /ool1 n a pallet ( /raw4 ,:ile ,i 0 contemplat+ sadly ! frightful fate :i* 0 9 /ore = me1 a little lid or trap-door 9 ! ceil+ ab\t a foot squ>e 0 op5$1 & a basket 0 l[]$ by a cord4 ,?is basket conta9$ a loaf ( bread & a bottle ( wat]4 ,i took out ! bread & wat]2 ! basket rose aga9 by ! cord1 & ! lid 0 clos$4 ,?is 0 ! r\t9e1 day aft] day1 )\t v>iation4 ,n ev5 an arm or a h& c\ld be detect$ :5 ! lid 0 rais$4 ,no?+ c\ld be se5 or he>d4 ,!re 0 "o ?+ t v>i$ ! monotony1 & only "o4 ,e day1 ab\t noon1 ! door 9 ! passage 0 op5$1 ! light admitt$1 & ! ugly face & head ( ,magi/us 7 protrud$ ?r\gh ! little w9d[4 ,!re he /ood gaz+ at me = "s m9utes1 sometimes = half an h\r1 on sev]al occasions = "o or two h\rs4 ,he did n speak4 ,he gl>$ at me ) a /ony malignity :i* is indescribable4 ,:5 he _h satiat$ 8 cruel appetite ) a sight ( my suff]+s1 he retir$4 ,?us pass$ away week aft] week1 mon? aft] mon?4 ,my suff]+s 7 horrible4 ,i wa/$ & weak5$ day by day bo? 9 m9d & body4 ,! air ( ! dungeon _h become f\l & sick5+4 ,! bread & wat] _h become ta/eless & repulsive4 ,! sil5ce1 ! solitude1 ! d>kness1 7 fe>ful4 ,magi/us came e day to enjoy ) secret satisfaction ! cruel dea? he 0 inflict+ on me4 ,i reg>d$ him ) su* repugnance & scorn1 t ,i did n speak to him or ev5 look at him4 ,?is no d\bt inflam$ 8 hatr$4 ,i walk$ ab\t my n>r[ prison1 :i/l+ or talk+ to myself until he w5t away4 ,my insult+ indiff]5ce did n seem to di/urb him 9 ! lea/4 ,he did no?+ to attract my att5tion4 ,he only look$4 ,& n[ a /range & almo/ incr$ible ?+ occurr$4 ,i d n believe any "o c compreh5d :at ,i h to say1 unless he has be5 %ut up alone 9 ! d>k = weeks & mon?s2 ) ! m9d prey+ morbidly on itself = want ( ext]nal objects to give x heal?ful activity2 wa/$ by l[ diet & a mephitic atmosph]e1 by sil5ce ^: t]ror is indescribable1 & by solitude :i* ( itself c drive to madness4 ,i did n look at ! /ony1 cruel face ( ,magi/us2 b ! idea t he 0 look+ at me began to take a s+ul> & pa9ful possession ( my m9d4 ,i c\ld n get rid ( x4 ,i walk$1 :i/l$1 talk$1 sang to myself1 all 9 va94 ,! idea t a hide\s face 0 9 ! w9d[2 t ! black1 fi]ce eyes 7 fix$ ^u me2 t ,i c\ld n prev5t x2 hung ov] my m9d l ! vultures gnaw+ at ! he>t ( ! *a9$ ,prome!us4 ,x became a positive torture4 ,an irresi/ible desire to look him full 9 ! face seiz$ me4 ,:e!r x 0 a secret magnetic attraction compell+ me to d s1 or :e!r ,i ?\ght x might mitigate my pa9ful & absurd t5sion ( ?\ght on ! subject1 ,i yield$ at la/4 ,f t mom5t 8 triumph 0 complete4 ,x 0 v]itably ! fasc9ation ( ! bird by ! s]p5t4 ,i c\ld n help gaz+ at him4 ,he seem$ to absorb my :ole n]v\s life1 to suck out ! v _s ( my blood1 s t ,i 0 left brea?less1 dizzy1 bewild]$1 helpless1 aft] ea* ( 8 t]rible visitations4 ,?us ,i liv$ a daily dea? = _m weeks2 ignorant ( all ?+s )\t2 nev] he>+ ! s\nd ( a human voice2 buri$ alive2 until hope di$ 9 my bosom1 & despair became my b$fell[1 & fe> my famili>1 & ev5 memory ceas$ to weave h] beautiful airy tissues1 consol+ me = ! loss ( a future by h] glorification ( ! pa/4 ,at fir/ ,i us$ to love to review all ! incid5ts ( my life1 bo? on e>? & 9 ! _w ( spirits4 ,i sp5t my long & lonesome leisure 9 organiz+ my k1 analyz+ my exp]i5ces1 & build+ up f !m a gr& philosophy ( m9d & matt]4 ,i saw pla9ly t su* a philosophy 0 ne$$ to give intellectual /r5g? & /ability to ! "y *ur* ( ,*ri/4 ,i knew t no height ( piety1 no f]vor ( fai?1 no fr5zy ( love c secure a *ur* f ! cold & critical assaults ( ! human und]/&+4 ,devotion may be ! s\l ( a *ur*1 b ,tru? is its body3 & no religion )\t an impregnable basis ( philosophy1 c be any?+ b a transi5t f]vor4 ,x mu/ inevitably p]i% by a gradual dis9tegration4 ,= ?is mode ( ?9k+ ,i 0 indebt$ to ! ,a!nian philosoph]s4 ,! disciples ( ,*ri/ _h no su* f\ndation ^u :i* to erect ! great !ological tru?s !y 7 go+ to tea*4 ,i saw pla9ly t su* a philosophy _c be discov]$ by ! human intellect3 & moreov] t x c only be reveal$ to mank9d ?r\gh "s "o :o has liv$ consci\sly = a :ile 9 bo? worlds4 ,by div9e p]mission & protection ,i _h s liv$4 ,i _h be5 put into possession ( tru?s ( ! utmo/ importance to ! infant *ur* & ! _w4 ,surely ,i c\ld n ?us p]i% 9 a dungeon6 ,surely ! ,"l :o _h rais$ me f ! dead1 w\ld deliv] me also f ?is great sn>e2 s t ,i c\ld delight & in/ruct mank9d ) :at ,i _h se5 & he>d 9 ! spiritual _w4 ,i !re=e arrang$ all my ideas into philosophical =m1 & contemplat$ ) int5se pleasure ! p]fect sy/em ( spiritual & natural tru? :i* ,i _h elim9at$ f my accumulat$ mat]ials4 ,x is a/oni%+ h[ "o spiritual tru? leads to ano!r2 h[ all ?+s are connect$ toge!r2 s t ! greate/ ?+s are repeat$ 9 ! lea/1 & ! smalle/ fragm5t is an image ( ! :ole4 ,) increas+ debility & despair ,i ceas$ to ?9k /eadily ( ^! gr& & beautiful subjects4 ,i sp5t mu* ( ! "t 9 pray+ = deliv]ance1 & mu* 9 brood+ ov] ! possible fate & sorr[s ( my poor si/]s4 ,aft] a :ile ,i discov]$ t my ideas 7 /rangely confus$1 especially aft] ^? t]rible visits ( ,magi/us1 :i* ,i began to reg>d ) absolute horror4 ,i c\ld n di/+ui% betwe5 :at _h happ5$ 9 "o _w & :at 9 ! o!r2 betwe5 dreams & realities2 betwe5 my hopes & my fe>s4 ,! awful suspicion broke ^u me t ,i 0 los+ my reason1 t ,i 0 on ! v]ge ( madness4 ,!n x 0 t my c\rage fail$ & my pride humbl$ itself2 = :5 ,magi/us next appe>$1 ,i rais$ my h&s supplicat+ly to him & exclaim$3 8,oh1 my uncle6 :y d y ?us p]secute an innoc5t & helpless creature8 ,may ,god h m]cy on y\r s\l z y %all h m]cy on me60 ,he made no reply1 b />$ fix$ly at me4 ,n a muscle ( 8 face mov$4 ,no ray ( emotion 0 visible on 8 features4 ,he seem$ to be z deaf & dumb z a /atue4 ,i might z well h appeal$ to a tig] or a crocodile = pity4 ,i 0 ab\t to repeat my supplication1 b 8 look appall$ me2 & ,i sank1 pale1 rigid & /upefi$ "u ! old spell ( fasc9ation4 ,!re 0 no hope4 ,let no "o suppose t ?is in/ance ( cruelty is incr$ible4 ,its h]$it>y g]m is conceal$ 9 our he>ts4 ,x beg9s develop+ 9 ! *ild :5 he tortures ! dumb creatures 9 8 p[]4 ,to delight 9 witness+ pa9 is ! base/ & mo/ inf]nal ( all our passions2 b x is common en\gh4 ,e c\rt1 e camp1 e gov]nm5t1 & alas6 almo/ e religion 9 ! _w1 has its secret records :i* c\ld unfold tales ( horror worse ev5 ?an ?is4 ,man inve/$ ) irresponsible p[]1 is naturally a tyrant2 & ! diff]5ce betwe5 a tyrant & a devil consi/s only 9 _! diff]5t degrees ( developm5t4 ,i le>n$1 moreov]1 9 ! spiritual _w ! s+ul> fact1 t m5 or wom5 addict$ to s5sual pleasures unregulat$ by religi\s ideas1 h[ev] k9d & g5tle !y may seem1 h 9 _! he>ts a t5d5cy to ! mo/ direful cruelties :i* r>ely come to ! surface 9 ?is _w1 b :i* rage 9 hell ) unabat+ fury4 ,"o morn+ a wond]ful ?+ occurr$4 ,h[ small a ?+ may seem wond]ful to ^? :o are %ut out f ! sweet pres5ces ( man & nature6 ,on tak+ ! bread & wat] out ( ! basket1 ,i f\nd a delicate little rose-bud at ! bottom ( x4 ,let ^? :o see e day a ?\s& fl[]s 9 ! gold5 palaces ( ! spr+1 pity & excuse ! frantic pleasure :i* ?is t9y "o gave to a poor prison]1 :o _h be5 %ut up = mon?s 9 d>kness1 surr\nd$ by /one walls & demons4 ,i seiz$ ! sweet mess5g] ( love1 = su* ,i con/ru$ x to be2 /ra9$ my eyes 9 ! twilight to discov] ! gre5 & crimson ( its liv]y2 & imag9$ t its delicate p]fume 0 a little voice :isp]+ to me ( pity & ( succor4 ,i wept ov] x4 ,i kiss$ x4 ,i inve/$ x ) life4 ,i call$ x ,m]cury1 ,iris1 ,hebe1 ,cupid1 ,apollo--z a *ild end[s h] doll ) vitality1 speaks to x1 c>esses x1 nurses x4 ,p]haps all nature w\ld be alive to u if our he>ts 7 only *ildlike4 ,?is fl[] 0 a l9k t reconnect$ me ) ! great _w above1 s long lo/ to me4 ,x 0 a delicate ?read t l$ me up into ! op5 air "u ! blue sky1 & out into ! gre5 fields & into ! g>d5s :]e ! w9ds wre/l$ playfully ) ! trees1 & all ! fl[]s duck$ _! little heads at ! great r\gh sport ( ! l>g] creatures4 ,! beautiful =ms & colors ( a luxuriant nature ru%$ ^u me ) a ravi%+ sweetness4 ,my memory & imag9ation 7 /imulat$ into rosy life4 ,i wept = joy4 ,! secret ( all ?is happ9ess 01 t ! rose-bud reconnect$ me ) my fell[-m54 ,"s "o _h got hold ( ! basket :o knew my sad /ory1 piti$ my fate1 & _h s5t me a message ( com=t4 ,i 0 confirm$ 9 ?is idea :5 ,i broke op5 my loaf ( bread2 = ,i f\nd a slice ( meat conceal$ )9 x1 juicy & delici\s4 ,?is 0 ! fir/ v>iation f my diet ( sl[ />vation4 ,x 0 cle>ly ! secret1 cauti\s "w ( a fri5d4 ,help 0 com+2 my he>t danc$ ) hope4 ,?is little ev5t %$ /ill great] light & bless+ ^u me4 ,my m9d became cle>2 my memory acute2 ! fe> ( madness left me4 ,my pa/ suff]+s seem$ l a dream4 ,) hope ,i receiv$ new life1 new c\rage4 ,:5 ,magi/us came1 ,i f\nd t ,i 0 fre$ f ! spell ( 8 fasc9ation4 ,i did n look at him4 ,i sat d[n imm$iately und]nea? 8 w9d[4 ,i repeat$ com=t+ v]ses ( ,scripture to myself until he w5t away4 ,t day 0 sp5t 9 ! mo/ delici\s ca/le-build+4 ,at night ,i slept1 b 0 visit$ by a disagreeable dream4 ,i ?\ght ,magi/us _h tak5 my rose-bud f me1 & buri$ x 9 ! gr\nd2 & ,i awoke ) a great cry1 = ,i sudd5ly rememb]$ t :at we _h call$ ! rose-bud 0 my si/] ,m>y4 ,h[ eag]ly ,i wat*$ ! next desc5t ( ! basket1 = m com=t1 m tok5s ( love1 m hope6 ,x came2 b !re 0 9 x only bread & wat]4 ,my he>t sank )9 me4 ,i w\ld h call$ out l\dly to my unse5 fri5d1 to "k :y ,i 0 des]t$2 b ,i fe>$ my unse5 enemy2 = ,i felt c]ta9 t ,magi/us always wat*$ ! p]son :o let d[n ! basket4 ,magi/us came z usual2 & ,i sat1 n notic+ him1 und]nea? ! w9d[4 ,he seem$ annoy$ at my indiff]5ce4 ,he %ift$ 8 position (t5 & /ay$ a great :ile4 ,he miss$ ! pleasure ( contemplat+ 8 "w 9 my gha/ly & pallid face4 ,! same ?+s occurr$ ! next day & ! next4 ,no m fl[]s2 no m meat2 no messages2 no hopes2 only bread1 wat] & ,magi/us4 ,0 x all a halluc9ation8 ,aga9 ,i began to sick5 & despair4 ,"o morn+ ! basket came d[n ) only bread 9 x4 ,no wat]6 ,i knew x 0 a s5t5ce ( dea?4 ,magi/us 0 rev5g+ my escape f ! fasc9ation ( 8 evil eye4 ,be=e night ,i began to feel ! horrors ( ?ir/4 ,awful s5sation6 ,i dream$ ( wat]2 ( ! f\nta9 9 my fa!r's c\rty>d2 ( ! blue gean ne> ,a!ns1 s s(t1 s beautiful2 ( ! ,salt ,sea & ! t5t ( ,b>abbas2 ( ! sn[-fields & iceb]gs ( ! froz5 zone 9 ! _w ( spirits4 ,all1 all dep5d$ on ! next desc5t ( ! little basket4 ,i wat*$ its com+ z a prison] li/5s to ! voice ( ! judge1 = life or dea?4 ,alas6 bread alone2 no wat]4 ,torture1 madness1 dea?1 7 n[ inevitable4 ,i took out ! loaf1 :i* someh[ or o!r seem$ heavi] ?an usual4 ,to my amazem5t1 ! basket did n rise1 b 0 j]k$ impati5tly up & d[n by ! p]son hold+ ! cord4 8,:at c ?is mean80 said ,i to myself4 ,i broke ! loaf4 ,x 0 scoop$ out & conta9$1 9 ! cavity ?us =m$1 a piece ( p>*m5t & a v small ink-horn ) a p54 ,i ha/ily exam9$ ! p>*m5t & f\nd on "o side ( x 9 great sprawl+ lett]s1 l a *ild's writ+1 ^! words3 8,:at %all ,i d80 ,a light came into my m9d z brilliant z ! sun4 ,i 0 calm & self-possess$2 my good angel recall$ to me ! fri5dly words ( ,pilate at our p>t+3 8,s5d = me if y get into tr\ble40 ,i wrote z cle>ly & z rapidly z possible 9 ! dim twilight3 8,tell all to ,pontius ,pilate4 ,be quick or ,i die60 ,i put ! p>*m5t into ! loaf & press$ its cru/ closely toge!r aga94 ,i n[ he>d ! /]n voice ( ,magi/us exclaim to "s "o3 8,:at are y dally+ ab\t80 ,! basket asc5d$4 ,i trembl$4 ,i almo/ fa9t$4 ,my entire hope1 my life1 hung ^u a ?read--^u a hair6 ,h[ =tunate x 0 t ,i did n s5d up ! p>*m5t alone6 ,my good angel guid$ me4 ,magi/us look$ into ! basket1 & see+ x asc5d ) ! loaf 9 x1 exclaim$1 8,he is too weak to take out 8 bread4 ,i w give him a little w9e40 ,he seem$ to walk away & my he>t comm5c$ beat+ aga94 ,at t mom5t ano!r little fl[]1 ano!r sunbeam1 fell f ! ceil+ to my feet3 & ! lid 0 clos$4 ,high hope 9 my s\l oblit]at$ = a "t ev5 ! torture ( ?ir/4 ,i 0 calm4 ,i 0 happy4 ,my invisible fri5d _h receiv$ my message4 ,if he deliv]$ x1 ,i 0 safe3 = ,pilate w\ld c]ta9ly release me4 ,:at if ,pilate 0 abs5t or dead or displac$8 ,su* ?\ghts 7 torture4 ,/ill1 ! new gov]nor1 :oev] he 01 w\ld befri5d me4 ,i det]m9$ n to give way until night4 ,magi/us came e>li] ?an usual1 & ?rew me d[n a goat-sk9 bottle ( w9e & wat]4 ,i ?ank$ him ) ! utmo/ delib]ation4 ,he did n speak 9 reply4 ,he only wi%$ to fan ! emb]s ( life1 to prolong my suff]+s4 ,human nature revolts at ! contemplation ( su* a demon4 ,su* m5 are inde$ r>e1 b su* evil spirits are common4 ,!y are pres5t to our s\ls2 cunn+1 cruel1 malignant2 infus+ _! poison into our ?\ghts & affections2 endeavor+ to make u su* z ,magi/us4 ,! wor/ evils "h are mod]at$ & repress$ by ! c\nt]act+ pressure ( good sph]es4 ,to see evil 9 its true light1 y mu/ see x 9 ! _w ( spirits & 9 hell--evil utt]ly divorc$ f good1 project+ itself outw>dly 9 its own brutal =ms1 & work+ out its frightful de/9y4 ,i wait$ = my deliv]ance ) a sublime hope1 a calm & fix$ fai?4 ,i knew x 0 com+4 ,x came4 ,magi/us _h at l5g? rea*$1 z all wick$ m5 d ei!r 9 ?is _w or ! next1 ! limit ( 8 p[]1 ! fatal l9e2 aft] :i* comes ! reb\nd1 ! reaction1 ! puni%m5t1 ! disgrace1 ! sure recoil ^u "o's self ( all ! evil he m$itates aga9/ o!rs4 ,e>ly 9 ! aft]noon ,i became aw>e t a great commotion 0 go+ on 9 ! h\se4 ,! door into ! n>r[ passage 0 brok5 op5 by axes2 = ,magi/us always c>ri$ ! key1 & he c\ld n be f\nd4 ,a ,roman c5turion soon appe>$ at ! w9d[ :]e ,magi/us _h s (t5 /ood4 ,oh :at a picture 0 8 brave1 h&some1 indignant face6 ,soldi]s came 94 ,! brick & mort> 7 soon torn away4 ,i 0 lift$ out & c>ri$ into ! op5 air4 ,i 0 s ov]come ) joy t ,i fa9t$4 ,! m5 :o beheld my gha/ly features & emaciat$ =m 7 l\d 9 _! curses ( ,magi/us4 ,i 0 laid on a b$ 9 ! h\se1 & nurses 7 assign$ me4 ,! k9dly c5turion did n leave me until ,i 0 com=tably fix$ & _h recov]$ f my swoon4 8,pontius ,pilate10 said he1 8desir$ me to pres5t y 8 congratulations1 & to say t he w visit y to-morr[ :5 y h be5 refre%$ & /r5g!n$ by food & a night's re/2 & w !n he> y\r /ory f y\r own lips40 ,i ?ank$ him w>mly4 8,& my deliv]]80 said ,i1 8my unse51 fai?ful fri5d & deliv]]6 ,:]e is he8 ,:o is he80 ,no "o pres5t knew any?+ ab\t my deliv]]4 ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,,xxv4 ,,:at ,,_h ,,happ5$4 ,illu/ration3 ,initial ,pontius ,pilate fulfill$ 8 promise2 & ,i told him my :ole /ory f ! "t ( my resurrection until my happy release by 8 good c5turion4 ,:5 ,i 0 speak+ ab\t ! invisible fri5d1 ! fl[] let d[n 9 ! basket1 & ! p>*m5t ) its rude lett]s1 8 face grew sad4 ,:5 ,i f9i%$ by ask+ him to in=m me h[ & f :om he le>n$ my condition1 s t ,i c\ld discov]1 rew>d & love my deliv]] z he des]v$1 he drew a deep sigh & said3 8,i fe> ,i h done a v ha/y & cruel ?+6 8,! man :o in=m$ me ( y\r condition 0 ! ,african :o accompani$ y to ,rome1 & :o endeavor$ to rescue ! slave f ! fi%-pond ( ,hort5sius40 8,my brave & good ,an?ony60 ,i exclaim$ eag]ly4 8,he elud$ my gu>ds2 & al?\gh w\nd$ by "o ( !m = 8 tem]ity1 he ru%$ into my pres5ce z ,i 0 f9i%+ my morn+ meal4 ,! words he spoke 7 sub/antially ^!3 8#8,laz>us1 :om y br\ght f ,rome1 is conf9$ 9 a dungeon und]nea? ! h\se ( ,magi/us1 9 ,be?any4 ,!y h />v$ him ne>ly to dea?1 & he has be5 )\t wat] = a day & a night4 ,s5d help to him spe$ily1 or x w be too late4'0 8,noble1 c\rage\s ,an?ony60 ,i exclaim$4 8,he %all h half ( my possessions60 b ,i 0 disquiet$ by ! d>k5+ br[ ( ,pilate4 8,i ask$ him10 cont9u$ ! ,roman gov]nor1 8if he _h be5 9 y\r employ s9ce our return f ,rome4 8#8,no6' he repli$1 #8,i h se5 him b once1 & t 0 9 prison4'0 8,he spoke ! tru?10 said ,i2 8he always spoke ! tru?60 8,i ?\ght he 0 a mess5g] s5t by "s fri5d ( y\rs4 ,i rememb]$ him imm$iately1 & ,i rememb]$ also my promise to ,hort5sius4 ,i saw 9 him only an audaci\s crim9al1 return+ )\t leave f an exile :i* _h be5 decre$ p]petual40 8,& y ?rew him into prison80 8,if ,i _h kn[n ( 8 beautiful & h]oic devotion to y1 8 fate w\ld h be5 diff]5t40 ,! evid5t remorse ( ,pilate />tl$ me4 8,& 8 fate8 ,:at 0 8 fate8 ,he is n dead10 said ,i1 elevat+ my voice4 8,he 0 behead$ imm$iately40 8,o cruel1 cruel1 cruel fate60 ,i exclaim$2 & reg>dless ( c]emony1 ,i m\rn$ = my dead fri5d ) bitt] te>s & bitt] words 9 ! pres5ce ( 8 augu/ murd]]4 8,i feel10 said ,pilate1 :5 he bade me a fri5dly adieu--8,i feel t ,i h dis*>g$ a sev]e duty 9 ?is matt]2 b ! g5]\s conduct ( ?is ,african1--= he c]ta9ly mu/ h kn[n t he endang]$ 8 own life by appe>+ be=e me1--w\ld h entitl$ him to a full p>don1 :i* ,i w\ld h giv5 ) pleasure = 8 own m]its z well z = y\r sake40 ,z soon z my ,*ri/ian fri5ds he>d ( my reappe>ance1 !y cr[d$ to see me4 ,f !m ,i le>n$ ! sorr[s & trials my si/]s _h und]gone1 z well z ! /range ev5ts :i* prec$$1 accompani$ & foll[$ ! crucifixion ( ,jesus4 ,magi/us & ,caiaphas _h set afloat ! /ory t ,i 0 engag$ 9 ! raid ^u ! city ( ,j]usalem1 made = ! d\ble purpose ( robb]y & murd]1 by ,b>abbas & 8 p>ty2 _m ( :om 7 delud$ into ! ent]prise "u ! idea t x 0 a patriotic rebellion aga9/ ! ,roman yoke4 ,!y also suborn$ witnesses to prove t ,i 0 kill$ 9 ! night attack1 & 0 buri$ by !m ) a cr[d ( o!r riot]s :o fell by ! ,roman arms4 ,?is l$ to ! confiscation ( our e/ates2 & z ,m>y & ,m>?a 7 helpless & beautiful "y wom5 )\t relatives to protect !m1 !y 7 assign$ to ! special gu>dian%ip ( ,magi/us4 ,caiaphas approv$ 9 /rong t]ms ?is decree ( ! ,sanh$rim1 eulogiz$ ,magi/us = 8 g5]\s "* & patri>*al virtues1 & congratulat$ ! si/]s ( a vile robb]1 !mselves ! disciples ( a base impo/or1 on _! extraord9>y good =tune 9 be+ plac$ "u ! enviable protection ( "o ( ! %9+ lights ( ,israel4 ,! wick$ness & duplicity ( ?is high prie/ w be almo/ incr$ible to future times4 ,b ! age 0 evil2 ! *ur* 0 corrupt2 & public & private morality r$uc$ to ! l[e/ ebb4 ,! prie/hood 0 a matt] ( b>ga9 & sale4 ,! (fice ( high prie/1 ! holie/ & highe/ 9 ! ,jewi% !ocracy1 0 obta9$ by brib]y & fraud & 9 m ?an "o in/ance by murd]4 ,caiaphas 0 "o ( ! mo/ consummate hypocrites t ev] ent]$ ! holy ( holies4 ,he might h *ang$ places ) ,b>abbas1 & ju/ice & religion w\ld n h f>$ ! worse = x4 ,my si/]s1 t]rifi$ at ! ?\ght ( fall+ into ! p[] ( ,magi/us1 _! remembrance ( :om 0 any?+ b pleasant1 fl$ f our h\se & conceal$ !mselves ) "s ( ! disciples ( ,jesus4 ,! two *ief miscreants ( ! ,sanh$rim seem$ det]m9$ to get possession ( ^! unhappy & =lorn wom52 & !y in/itut$ ! mo/ rigor\s se>* ?r\gh ! h\ses ( all p]sons :o 7 suspect$ ( h>bor+ !m4 ,_! evil passions seem$ only half gratifi$ by my de/ruction & ! seizure ( our prop]ty4 ,fe>ful w\ld h be5 ! fate ( ^! angelic fri5ds ( ,jesus1 _h !y fall5 at t "t into ! h&s ( 8 fi]ce/ enemies4 ,spies & detectives fully au?oriz$ to se>*1 arre/1 bribe1 intimidate & ev5 kill1 7 set ^u _! track 9 e direction4 ,! c\ntry became s unsafe = !m1 t !y 7 convey$ by /eal?y night m>*es to ! hut ( "s fri5dly fi%]m5 away d[n on ! sea ( ,galilee4 ,ev5 !re !y 7 pursu$2 & ,pet] ! apo/le r[$ !m across ! sea on a d>k & /ormy night1 & conceal$ !m 9 ! v tombs :5ce issu$ ! maniac out ( :om ,jesus ca/ a legion ( devils4 ,aft] _m suff]+s & hair-bread? escapes1 !y 7 convey$ out ( ! c\ntry1 & at t mom5t 7 liv+ conceal$ 9 ! city ( ,antio*1 at ! h\se ( a poor b wor?y man--himself a ,*ri/ian1 = ,*ri/ _h cur$ him & n9e o!rs ( ! leprosy2 & he alone ( ! t5 _h turn$ back to give ?anks4 ,i wept :5 ,i ?\ght ( ! unhapp9ess ( my poor si/]s2 & ,i felt an urg5t desire to rega9 my %att]$ /r5g? & rejo9 !m4 ,! /ory ( ! crucifixion ( ! ,"l /ruck me ) wond] & awe4 ,i 0 n surpris$ t ,judas ,isc>iot _h betray$ him4 ,b ! pa!tic incid5ts ( 8 la/ supp]1 8 betrayal1 8 trial1 8 crucifixion1 8 resurrection1 8 appe>ance to 8 disciples1 & 8 asc5sion1 affect$ me to te>s1 & fill$ me ) a _s ( humility1 love & pray]4 8,^? are pictures10 said ,i1 to my fri5ds1 8:i* w be pa9t$ on ! he>t ( ! ,*ri/ian ,*ur* 9 ! colors ( heav51 & :i* ! p[]s ( dea? & hell c nev] efface4 8,if su*10 ?\ght ,i to myself--8if su* is ! effect ( ?is div9e hi/ory z x appe>s 9 ! lit]al =m to man1 :at mu/ be ! p[] & glory ( ! spiritual signification ( ^! great & holy ?+s1 :5 !y are /udi$ by angels 9 ! light ( heav560 ,b>abbas & 8 brave/ lieut5ants1 includ+ ! ,son ( ! ,des]t1 _h fall5 into ! h&s ( ! rul]s4 ,b>abbas convey$ to ,magi/us a ?reat1 t if he 7 n releas$ he w\ld expose to ! ,sanh$rim 8 attempt to murd] 8 nephew4 ,:e!r ,magi/us & ,caiaphas1 :o act$ always 9 conc]t1 fe>$ an exposure ( ?is k9d1 :i* is n probable1 consid]+ ! s\rce :5ce ! *>ge w\ld come1 or :e!r !y foll[$ spontane\sly ! wick$ in/9cts ( _! own s\ls1 !y procur$ ! release ( ,b>abbas & ! crucifixion ( ,*ri/4 ,! m]cy ext5d$ to ,b>abbas 0 n giv5 to 8 foll[]s2 & two ( !m 7 select$ to be crucifi$ ) ,jesus1 to increase ! ignom9y ( 8 execution4 ,& s ,*ri/ 0 crucifi$ betwe5 two ?ieves--or m5 s reput$4 ,"o ( ^! 0 ! ,son ( ! ,des]t4 ,?is brave1 wild man1 /rangely comp\nd$ ( good & evil1 0 heavily iron$ & ca/ into ! deepe/ dungeon4 ,magi/us _h a habit1 consi/5t ) 8 cruel disposition1 ( visit+ prison]s condemn$ to dea?1 & enjoy+ ! t]rors ) :i* !y contemplat$ _! approa*+ fate4 ,! ,son ( ! ,des]t did n gratify 8 passion = witness+ ! suff]+s ( abject mis]y4 ,he 0 s+ul>ly *e]ful & buoyant4 ,he decl>$ himself n only will+ b anxi\s to die4 ,he _h no?+ to contemplate ) pleasure :5 he look$ back2 & z to ! future1 if ! s\l 7 really immortal & a second life 7 giv5 him1 he 0 det]m9$ to />t ^u x ) new pr9ciples & motives4 ,magi/us 0 a/oni%$ at ! calm1 philosophic _s ( ?is poor wret*1 :o _h nev] he>d ( philosophy4 ,:5 ,magi/us 0 leav+1 ! ,son ( ! ,des]t took a r+ f 8 f+] & said3 8,y are n too pr\d to d "o little favor = a condemn$ crim9al4 ,give ?is r+ to ,m>?a1 ! si/] ( ,laz>us4 ,tell h] x has accompli%$ ! mission ^u :i* %e s5t x4 ,%e c t\* x )\t %ame4 ,x has be5 an angel ( light to me4 ,s9ce ,i h worn x1 ,i h seiz$ no man's goods1 ,i h tak5 no man's life except 9 lawful battle4 ,if ,i h adh]$ to my b&1 x 0 to mod]ate _! passions1 to /ay ! h& ( viol5ce1 to plead = m]cy1 to assi/ ! captive1 & :]e possible to make re/itution4 ,x f\nd me a slave1 x has made me a freeman4 ,x f\nd me a robb]1 x has made me a patriot40 ,he 0 ab\t to say m1 b sudd5ly *eck+ "s ris+ emotion1 he cl5*$ "o h& ^u 8 he>t1 & wav+ ! o!r1 exclaim$3 8,adieu6 adieu60 ,nei!r ! message nor ! r+ 0 deliv]$ to ,m>?a4 ,! /ory 0 told to memb]s ( ! ,sanh$rim1 9 :om x awak5$ no g5]\s s5tim5t1 b only excit$ _! amusem5t or mock]y4 ,! r+ 0 tak5 to ,ulema1 my poor aunt1 :o /ill reta9$ h] wond]ful clairvoyant p[]1 :i* inde$ seem$ to increase z h] g5]al heal? decl9$4 ,magi/us expect$ by ! r+ to obta9 k ( all ! movem5ts & actions ( ! =midable b& ( ,b>abbas2 = ! clairvoyant c see ! pa/ z well z ! pres5t1 & ) ! prop] clue1 c g f> back1 on ! /ream ( "t1 to ! v orig9 ( ?+s4 ,rumor says t ! r+ made /range & unexpect$ revelations1 n only ab\t ! b& ( ,b>abbas1 b ab\t ! e>ly hi/ory ( ! ,son ( ! ,des]t4 ,ulema f\nd 9 ! la/ possessor ( ! r+ h] own only & lo/ *ild1 :o _h be5 /ol5 f ! c\rt-y>d by "o ( a pr[l+ p>ty ( ,egyptians1 :5 he 0 a v little boy4 ,no discov]y 0 ev] made ( 8 :]eab\ts1 & h] grief at ! ev5t 0 "o cause ( h] aft] seclusion & ill heal?4 ,magi/us 0 a/\nd$1 & p]haps pa9$1 on f9d+ t 8 own *ild _h be5 crucifi$ ) ,jesus4 ,x 0 too late to d aught b bury ! :ole matt] ) ! o!r pa9ful ?+s 9 8 memory4 ,he said no?+ to ,ulema on ! subject1 :o 0 ( c\rse unconsci\s ( x all 9 h] wak+ /ate4 ,a /range ?+1 h[ev]1 n[ took place4 ,! mom5t %e pass$ into h] trance /ate1 %e began to weep & wail ov] h] lo/ *ild4 ,h] clairvoyance put h] 9 full possession ( all ! facts ( 8 life & dea?4 ,! "m's he>t broke "u ! imm5se sorr[4 ,%e p9$ rapidly1 & h] :ite h&s 7 soon fold$ 9 t sweet sleep :i* prec$es ! cele/ial wak+4 ,we h a life )9 our life1 l a :eel )9 a :eel6 ,) no k ( 8 p>5tage1 no fri5d 9 :om to confide1 no he>t to receive & give a la/ adieu1 ! ,son ( ! ,des]t bore 8 own cross up ,calv>y1 & 0 nail$ ^u x by ! ,roman soldi]s4 ,he _h nev] se5 ,jesus be=e4 ,he _h he>d ( him only ?r\gh enemies4 ,he suppos$ him to be "s fanatic or impo/or1 or p]haps "s political maniac :o aspir$ to ! cr[n ( ,judea4 ,at fir/ he jo9$ 8 fell[-suff]] on ! o!r side ( ,*ri/ 9 rail+ aga9/ ! k+ & miracle-work]1 ^: sceptre & miracul\s p[]s seem$ s useless to himself & o!rs 9 8 la/ extremity4 ,b ! conduct & words ( ,jesus smote him to ! he>t4 ,?r\gh t secret affiliation & sympa?y by :i* "o brave & good man recognizes ano!r 9 ! h\r ( /]ne/ trial1 ! ,son ( ! ,des]t1 educat$ only 9 he>t1 p]ceiv$ ) ! he>t t ! k+dom ( ,*ri/ 0 a spiritual k+dom4 ,div9+ intuitively ! mission ( inf9ite love 9 :i* ! ,"l 0 engag$1 he confesses 8 own s91 rebukes & sil5ces 8 fell[-s9n]1 & pleads = remembrance 9 ! h\r ( triumph :i* he sees is approa*+ = ! ,k+ ( k+s4 ,brave1 rep5tant s\l6 ,jesus is ev]y:]e2 9 heav52 9 e>?2 9 hell4 ,& %ortly ?\ wa/ ) ,him & ,he ) !e1 9 t p>adise or g>d5 ( ! s\l1 9 :i* ! new life1 =getful ( ! old1 beg9s to bud & blossom6 ,! great trag$y 0 enact$4 ,! disciples at fir/ /ood af> (f4 ,b z ! dea?-sc5es drew ne>]1 & ! curiosity ( ! cr[d increas$1 milit>y discipl9e 0 some:at relax$1 & ! p 7 p]mitt$ to press clos]1 & ^? :o _h special claims 7 all[$ to come up & /& v ne> ! dy+ suff]]s4 ,x 0 ?us t ! ,apo/le ,john1 & ,m>y ! "m ( ! ,"l1 7 9 speak+ di/ance 9 8 la/ mom5ts4 ,x 0 !n t ,he gave ea* ( !m s t5d]ly to ! o!r4 ,aside f ?is awful c5tral sc5e1 :i* w %9e 9 all hi/ory z ! pivotal ev5t ( ! _w1 a pa!tic side-sc5e 0 enact$1 ( :i* !re is no hi/orian b myself2 & ev5 ,i 0 n pres5t1 b relate x at second-h&4 ,my au?ority1 h[ev]1 0 a man ( tru?1 ,john ! ,apo/le1 ! exile ( ,patmos4 ,f> (f 9 ! cr[d 0 a solit>y be+ ^: eyes 7 fix$ cont9ually on ! ,son ( ! ,des]t4 ,he /ood ) 8 brawny arms fold$ spasmodically across 8 *e/4 ,great te>s ran sl[ly d[n 8 *eeks4 ,t man 0 poor & ignorant & ragg$ & black1 b he _h a noble s\l4 ,x 0 ,an?ony1 ! ,e?iopian1 :o1 exil$ by ,pilate into ! des]t1 _h !re met ,b>abbas & 8 b&4 ,he soon atta*$ himself by a c]ta9 in/9ct to ! only noble _s 9 ! p>ty4 ,he foll[$ ! =tunes ( ?is man2 &1 true to 8 ,african g5ius1 he imitat$ 8 "*4 ,! ,son ( ! ,des]t 0 n a%am$ ( 8 humble disciple4 ,an?ony escap$ dea? & capture on ! t]rible night ( ! riot4 ,b 8 ma/] 0 tak52 & ! fai?ful s]vant pr[l$ ab\t ! suburbs & ! prisons1 risk+ detection & arre/ 9 ord] to cat* a glimpse1 if possible1 ( him :om 8 s\l lov$4 ,x 0 all 9 va94 ,he foll[$ ! va/ cr[d :i* w5t out to ! crucifixion1 pu%$ aside by ! spe>s ( ! soldi]s1 & f\nd himself on ,calv>y a witness ( ! la/ act 9 ! great drama--an act :i* disclos$ ! mighty p[] ( ,love1 & =e%ad[$ & meant ! r$emption ( ! _w4 ,:5 ! p 7 p]mitt$ to approa* ne>] to ! crosses1 ,an?ony came v close to t :]eon 8 ma/]1 ! ,zebra ( ! ,des]t1 hung 9 agony4 ,no "o notic$ ! ragg$ black man4 ,he at la/ caught ! eye ( ! poor suff]]1 :o smil$ a sweet recognition4 ,he 0 *e]$4 ,he felt happy to h "o foll[]1 "o s\l t lov$ & piti$ him4 ,poor ,an?ony wept z if 8 he>t w\ld break4 ,he procur$ a l>ge goat-sk9 bottle full ( wat]1 & /ood at ! cross ba?+ 8 ma/]'s w\nd$ feet ) ! cool+ /ream4 ,! gu>ds we>i$1 sick5$ ) ! prolong$ suff]+s ( ! victims1 did n prev5t him4 ,he li/5$ to ! conv]sation betwe5 ,*ri/ & ! rep5tant s9n]2 & = ! fir/ "t he seem$ aw>e t !re 0 ano!r great trag$y go+ on besides ! "o 9 :i* he 0 especially int]e/$4 ,he sat or squatt$ ^u ! gr\nd 9 front ( ^! dy+ m51 look+ fir/ at "o & !n at ! o!r2 /udy+ also ! faces ( ! gr\p ( holy wom51 :o ) ! good ,john /ood ne> ! c5tral cross4 ,a great idea 0 dawn+ on ! b5ight$ s\l ( ! ,e?iopian1 a great light1 a great glory4 ,:y is x t ! beams ( cele/ial light pass by ! palace & illum9e ! hut8--pass by ! cultivat$ & le>n$ & gladd5 ! he>ts ( ! simple & *ild-l8 ,:5 ! ,div9e ,man1 pray+ = 8 enemies1 gave up ! gho/2 :5 ! great %ad[s came ov] ! sun2 :5 ! b]eav$ wom5 rais$ _! wail ( sorr[2 :5 ! c5turion exclaim$1 8,truly ?is 0 ! ,son ( ,god20 ano!r conv]t--humbl]1 l[li] ?an !y all--0 kneel+ at ! foot ( ! cross1 pray+ to ,him :o hung ^u x3 8,"l1 rememb] me also :5 ?\ come/ into ?y k+dom40 ,an?ony assi/$ ! disciples 9 tak+ d[n ! body ( ,jesus f ! cross4 ,t night1 aid$ by ,john & two o!r disciples :o _h witness$ 8 t5d] devotion to ! ,son ( ! ,des]t1 he took d[n ! body ( 8 ma/]1 wrapp$ x 9 a new w9d+-%eet1 & buri$ x 9 a corn] ( ! ,pott]'s ,field4 ,:5 wa%+ ! body = ?is l[ly burial1 !y discov]$ "s beautiful r$ lett]s prick$ or burn$ into ! sk9 imm$iately ov] ! he>t4 ,!y 7 ^!3 8,m>?a1 si/] ( ,laz>us40 ,an?ony foll[$ ,john to 8 home & became 8 s]vant4 ,he soon le>n$ ! anxieties & conjectures :i* prevail$ ab\t my sudd5 disappe>ance4 ,rememb]+ my face at ! prison w9d[1 he became conv9c$ t ,i 0 /ill a prison]4 ,he det]m9$1 ) ,john's approval1 to devote himself to f9d+ & deliv]+ me4 ,he _h no advis]1 = ,john 0 busy 9 sav+ my si/]s f ! cruel ,magi/us1 & 0 at ,ephesus :5 ,i 0 deliv]$ f ! dungeon4 ,h[ well he execut$ 8 tru/1 ! read] already kn[s4 ,b h[ he did x2 h[ he discov]$ my :]eab\ts2 h[ he got into ,magi/us' employ2 h[ he obta9$ ! po/ :5ce he c\ld aid me2 8 difficulties1 8 hopes1 8 fe>s1 8 emotions--all 7 buri$ ) him--alas6 ,he w tell ! :ole /ory to me :5 ,i meet him 9 heav51 z ,i mo/ assur$ly %all4 ,poor ,an?ony6 brave to impetuosity1 extravagantly g5]\s1 meek to ! deepe/ humility1 fai?ful to ! la/ degree6 ,9 8 %ort1 obscure life is conc5trat$ a glory sup]ior to all ,greek or ,roman fame4 ,"o m piece ( news occasion$ me z mu* surprise z any?+ already n>rat$4 ,?is1 h[ev]1 unlike ! re/1 0 joyful4 ,ab\t a week be=e my deliv]ance1 my good uncle ,beltrezzor _h arriv$ 9 ,j]usalem f ,p]sia4 ,he _h he>d1 ?r\gh 8 correspond5t 9 ! ,holy ,city1 ( my suppos$ dea?1 ( ! crucifixion ( ,jesus1 & ! my/]i\s disappe>ance ( my si/]s4 ,he at once suspect$ "s evil1 & det]m9$ to ha/5 to _! assi/ance4 ,he f\nd consid]able difficulty 9 conv]t+ all 8 prop]ty into jewels & preci\s /ones2 & /ill m 9 br++ ev]y?+ safely ?r\gh c\ntries :i* 7 at w> & infe/$ by pr[l+ b&s ( des]t]s & ?ieves4 ,he _h />t$ = ,antio* only ! day be=e1 hav+ he>d t ,john _h conduct$ my si/]s safely to t city4 ,pilate 0 n sl[ 9 br++ ,magi/us to ju/ice4 ,f9d+ t an exposure ( 8 infam\sly cruel "* 0 already made1 & t ! ,roman gov]nor himself _h tak5 "p aga9/ him1 hundr$s ( p :om he _h injur$ 9 p]son or prop]ty came =w>d to assi/ 9 ! prosecution4 ,he 0 convict$ ( _m crimes1 8 e/ates confiscat$2 he 0 exil$ ! c\ntry & =bidd5 to return "u p5alty ( dea?4 ,x 0 t5 days be=e ,i 0 able to travel4 ,i *id ! t>dy h\rs t kept me f my belov$ si/]s & my de> old uncle1 ! disciple ( ,zoroa/]4 ,at la/ ! ^w came3 8,to ,antio*60 ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,,xxvi4 ,,! ,,city ,,( ,,colonnades4 ,illu/ration3 ,initial ,/range ?+s 7 go+ on at ,antio*4 ,antio*1 ! seat ( ! ,roman gov]nm5t 9 ,syria1 0 a c5tre 9 :i* met all ! peculi>ities & ecc5tricities ( ! civiliz$ _w4 ,x 0 situat$ on ! riv] ,orontes1 sev]al miles above its conflu5ce ) ! sea4 ,by an ext5sive sy/em ( artificial works ! riv] 0 made navigable = ! l>ge/ vessels1 s t ,antio* 0 9 rapport ) ! m>itime _w4 ,x 0 ! city ( amalgamations2 ! po9t ( contact betwe5 ! ,ea/ & ! ,we/2 ! receptacle ( all races & nations4 ,not)/&+ its weal?1 beauty & spl5dor1 ! society ( ,antio* 0 inconceivably corrupt & degrad$4 ,all k9ds ( /range doctr9es & unheal?y sup]/itions 7 rampant !re4 ,magicians1 sorc]]s1 miracle-work]s1 impo/ors1 buffoons & c\rtesans 7 9 high favor ) all classes4 ,life & dea? 7 equally disreg>d$4 ,races1 games1 ftes1 debau*es1 combats1 processions1 seem$ to occupy ! :ole "t ( ! excitable & lic5ti\s populace4 ,simon ,magus1 aft] sp5d+ ?ree or f\r mon?s 9 ,egypt ) ,hel5a1 came to ,antio* & began an extraord9>y c\rse ( public tea*+s4 ,x 0 a ri* field = 8 peculi> g5ius4 ,he comb9$ philosophy ) sorc]y1 !ology ) magic4 ,( 8 cruel de$s1 8 inf]nal plots1 8 insane ambition ! _w 0 ignorant4 ,he 0 greatly *ang$4 ,! inspiration ( evil _h tak5 demoniac possession ( him4 ,he _h gr[n lean] & d>k]4 ,8 eye1 always eloqu5t & p[]ful1 0 fi]ce & re/less4 ,he _h a s+ul> habit ( grasp+ at 8 brea/1 ) an expression ( suff]+ on 8 face1 z if a viol5t pa9 %ot ?r\gh 8 he>t4 ,he _h lo/ mu* ( t calm1 self-possess$1 impos+ ext]ior :i* comm&$ respect by its app>5t /r5g? & dignity4 ,he 0 l\d] 9 8 spee*1 m rapid 9 8 ge/ures1 pr\d] & m defiant 9 8 attitude4 ,?is ga9$ him a l>g] b m vulg> audi5ce4 ,! magician 0 on ! eve ( madness1 if n actually mad4 ,x 0 ! age ( insanity4 ,x 0 ! age ( impo/ure & false miracles1 ( convulsion & p]secution1 ( moral & physical turpitude1 ( direful cruelty & blood%$1 ( ! wilde/ fanaticism1 ( ! mo/ revolt+ excesses1 ( actual possession by devils4 ,no?+ l x 0 ev] se5 be=e or ev] w be aga91 because all ^! ?+s 7 ! effects & collat]al issues ( ! spiritual combat betwe5 good & evil1 betwe5 ,*ri/ & hell2 ! ?roes ( ! great demons ( pa/ ages be=e _! f9al expulsion f _! ?rones & ! inauguration ( a new spiritual p[] 9 ! _w4 ,su* 0 ! /ate ( society at ,antio* :5 ,simon ,magus appe>$ 9 t city & claim$ to be an inc>nation ( ! ,deity1 ex]cis+ miracul\s p[]4 ,he seem$ to be possess$ ( b\ndless weal?4 ,! spl5dor ( 8 palace1 ! r>e & gorge\s beauty ( 8 equipage1 8 s+ul> & dazzl+ dress1 ! wild gr&eur ( 8 mann]1 ! wond]ful eloqu5ce ( 8 spee*1 & ! a/\nd+ feats ( magic :i* he c]ta9ly did p]=m1 all creat$ a bewild]+ impression on ! excitable & un?9k+ p ( ! ,city ( ,colonnades1 z ,antio* 0 call$ on acc\nt ( its ar*itectural beauty4 ,on 8 fir/ arrival he _h direct$ 8 subtle en]gies to obta9 ! e> & ! fai? ( ! rul] ( ! prov9ce1 ! ,roman gov]nor1 ^: "n 0 ,lelius4 ,! appliances :i* he br\ght to be> ^u ! he>t1 ! bra91 ! s5ses ( ?is weak & va9 man1 7 f9ally successful4 ,9 a few weeks ,lelius 0 n only ! dupe1 b ! m]e creature ( ,simon ,magus4 ,hel5a %>$ ) h] pret5d$ husb& ! glory & ! %ame ( ?is royal conque/4 ,su* 0 ! /ate ( ?+s :5 ! apo/le ,john arriv$ at ,antio* ) ! two unhappy fugitives--my si/]s4 ,!y 7 att5d$ by ,m>y ,magdal5 9 ! humble capacity ( s]vant4 ,?is zeal\s disciple ( ,*ri/ _h kept mode/ly alo( f !m 9 _! prosp]ity2 b :5 ?r[n toge!r by common sorr[s & p]secutions1 %e t5d]$ h] s]vices & prov$ ?r\gh life a mo/ fai?ful & effici5t fri5d4 ,john obta9$ lodg+s = ! p>ty ) ,salo!l1 ! re/or$ lep]4 ,hop+ /ill fur!r to %ield !m by draw+ ! pursuit aft] himself1 he travel$ on we/w>d z f> z ,ephesus1 :]e he _h fri5ds1 & :]e he began prea*+ ! new gospel ( ,*ri/4 ,! si/]s rema9$ conceal$ = a long "t1 until _! fe>s 7 quiet$ & !y began to be int5sely anxi\s to he> f ,judea4 ,!y _h always d\bt$ ! /ory ( my dea?1 & 7 cont9ually hop+ to get news ( me4 ,embold5$ by _! long repose1 ,m>y & ,m>?a closely veil$ took a walk "o aft]noon ) ,salo!l ?r\gh ! gr& /reet ( colonnades1 & sat d[n to re/ 9 "o ( ! beautiful public squ>es4 ,a triumphant procession 9 honor ( ! ,roman arms 0 pass+ by2 & x 0 precisely 9 a great cr[d1 pass+ & repass+1 t our recluses ?\ght !re 0 lea/ dang] ( be+ specially obs]v$4 ,sudd5ly two m5 /opp$ ne> !m1 & "o gaz$ e>ne/ly at ! si/]s4 ,t man 0 ,simon ,magus1 ?or\ghly-disguis$4 ,he _h receiv$ lett]s f 8 old disciple ,magi/us1 tell+ him h[ 8 nieces _h elud$ 8 vigilant pursuit1 & reque/+ him to keep a look\t = !m4 ,simon also _h n =gott5 ! defeat ( 8 great s*eme at ,be?any1 & he desir$ above all ?+s to get possession ( ,m>y = 8 own private ends4 ,x is ne$less to say t :5 a man ( ,simon's g5ius & p[] gets ^u ! fre% trail ( a poor helpless woman1 x is b a %ort "t be=e he secures 8 prey4 ,m>y1 innoc5t1 unsuspect+1 lov+ creature z %e 01 ! v next day 0 decoy$ f ! h\se ( ,salo!l by a v old gray-hair$1 heav5ly-fac$ man1 a dev\t ,*ri/ian1 :o manag$ to see h] alone1 & :o wi%$ to conduct h] )\t a mom5t's delay to h] suff]+ bro!r ,laz>us4 ,( c\rse ! dev\t old ,*ri/ian 0 a disguis$ emiss>y ( ,simon2 & ,m>y f\nd h]self immur$ 9 a secret *amb] ( 8 palace4 ,:at to d ) h]8 0 n[ ! "q4 ,simon ,magus _h su* int5se fai? 9 ! incantations ( ,ja-bol-he-mo?1 ! old demon ( ! ,lybian des]t1 t he 0 ready to ab&on 8 great !ological mission & convey ,m>y to ! ru9s ( ! anci5t city :i* 0 buri$ 9 ! s&4 ,if he _h p]mitt$ ,hel5a to rema9 9 possession ( 8 palace "u ! protection ( ,lelius1 t beautiful p]son w\ld h approv$ 8 ent]prise1 & w\ld h giv5 him h] bless+ ) h] f>ewell4 ,b ,simon 0 ob/9ately resolv$ t %e %\ld accompany him1 & %>e ! dang]s & ! glory ( ! exp$ition4 ,hel5a positively refus$ to return to ,egypt2 & z %e 0 z fi]ce & implacable z %e 0 beautiful1 ,simon 0 at la/ oblig$ to submit to a compromise4 ,m>y 0 n to be convey$ into ,africa2 b %e 0 to be murd]$1 h] he>t extract$1 burn$ into a c9d] & pulv]iz$1 to con/itute a magical p[d] ( extraord9>y virtues4 ,?us ,simon 0 to be gratifi$ by an addition to 8 necromantic treasures1 & ,hel5a 0 to enjoy ! dissipation ( ,antio*4 8,& h[ x w delight our fri5d ,magi/us60 said ,hel5a4 ,simon felt too insecure 9 8 new surr\nd+s to v5ture ^u ! secret murd] ( ! "y girl4 ,x might be difficult to dispose ( ! body aft] ! he>t 0 ab/ract$4 ,! untri$ creatures & slaves ar\nd him might discov] ! de$ & betray him4 ,8 new claim to div9ity w\ld be sadly compromis$ by 8 sudd5 exposure z an assass94 ,simon & ,hel5a devis$ a cunn+ plan by :i* !y c\ld atta9 _! ends )\t ! lea/ dang] to !mselves4 ,simon repres5t$ to ,lelius t a /range & dang]\s conspiracy aga9/ gov]nm5t & religion 0 tak+ root 9 ,antio*4 ,he describ$ ,jesus z a subtle impo/or1 :o1 "u ! cloak ( extraord9>y sanctity1 m$itat$ ! gr&e/ political revolutions4 ,he pa9t$ ! disciples 9 ! blacke/ colors z ! secret enemies ( peace & ord]4 8,! lead]10 said he1 8( ^! turbul5t spirits 0 crucifi$ by ,pontius ,pilate1 ^: probity & l5i5cy are kn[n to ! :ole _w4 ,8 foll[]s1 driv5 f ,j]usalem1 h spread z firebr&s 9 diff]5t c\ntries2 & secretly associat$ toge!r1 !y are n[ plott+ aga9/ ! /ability ( all exi/+ civil & religi\s in/itutions40 ,he claim$ to h discov]$ _! plots by magical p[]2 & he solemnly assur$ 8 cr$ul\s li/5] t he _h n exagg]at$ _! importance or dang]4 ,he pr$ict$ t 9 a few ye>s a decree ( ext]m9ation w\ld be issu$ by all civiliz$ p[]s aga9/ ^! p1 & he begg$ ,lelius to initiate ^? measures ( de/ruction :i* w\ld entitle him to ! gratitude ( mank9d4 8,i "k10 he cont9u$1 8t "o ( ! mo/ cunn+ ( all ^! emiss>ies is n[ 9 ! city3 a woman1 beautiful1 accompli%$1 design+2 conceal+ "u ! g>b ( mode/y & humility1 ! _s ( univ]sal an>*y4 ,%e ano9t$ ?is ,jesus z k+ 9 ! pres5ce ( 8 *os5 (fic]s & lieut5ants on ! night be=e 8 gr& entry into ,j]usalem1 :5 ! mad populace %\t$ 8 claims to ! ?rone ( ,judea4 ,to satisfy y\r m9d ( ! true nature ( ?is =midable doctr9e gr[+ up ar\nd u1 let me br+ ?is woman be=e y & "q h] 9 y\r pres5ce40 ,lelius ass5t$ to ?is proposition1 & ,m>y 0 l$ or r dragg$ into ! augu/ pres5ce ( ! ,roman gov]nor4 ,simon ,magus proce$$ to "q h] 9 ! mo/ adroit mann]1 draw+ f h] exactly su* answ]s z 7 be/ calculat$ to %ock & disgu/ ! ignorant & arrogant pagan :o held 9 8 s+le h& ! p[] ( life & dea?4 ,m>y1 t]rifi$ & unsuspect+1 answ]$ all 8 qu]ies 9 a simple & tru?ful mann]4 ,%e 0 ?us made to say1 t %e _h kn[n & lov$ ,jesus ( ,naz>e?2 t %e _h ano9t$ him on ! eve ( 8 royal entry into ,j]usalem2 t %e believ$ 8 tea*+s2 t he _h ris5 f ! dead & asc5d$ into heav52 t %e pray$ to him z ,god2 t he 0 com+ aga9 to re/ore ,israel & to judge ! _w4 ,?is seem$ l ! wilde/ folly & fanaticism to ! pr\d ,roman2 & he smil$ at ! ?\ght t !re 7 p ) ! semblance ( rationality :o c\ld cr$it su* absurdities4 ,b ,simon's "w 0 only half done4 ,que/ion+ & cross-que/ion+ 8 artless victim1 he drew f h] facts ( a f> m s]i\s & practical be>+4 ,m>y believ$1 & c&idly ackn[l$g$ x1 t all ! religions sanction$ by ! laws ( ! ,roman empire1 7 false religions2 t _! gods 7 no gods at all1 or demons2 t _! boa/$ oracles 7 evil spirits2 t ! t5d5cy ( ^! religions 0 only evil1 & t _! devotees 7 liv+ 9 s9 & doom$ to hell4 ,moreov]1 t ! religion ( ,*ri/ 0 to sup]s$e !m all2 t no compromise c\ld be p]mitt$2 t x 0 a life-&-dea? /ruggle betwe5 ! old religion & ! new gospel4 ,9 addition %e 0 made to say--nev] dream+ to :at conclusions h] admissions 7 lead+ h] pagan judge--t ,jesus _h set ap>t a great _m p]sons1 twelve at "o "t & sev5ty at ano!r1 to g =? into ! _w & prea* ?is gospel2 t he _h giv5 !m miracul\s p[] :]e) to a*ieve _! ends2 t angels deliv]$ !m f prisons2 t !y c\ld /rike _! enemies bl9d or dumb or p[]less2 t !y c\ld raise ! dead2 t !y _h a secret organization ) signs & symbols2 t !y _h />t$ or 7 go+ to />t on _! gr& mission :i* 0 to ov]turn ! p[]s ( pagan d>kness & prep>e ! m9ds ( m5 = ! univ]sal reign ( ,*ri/ at 8 second com+4 ,:5 ,m>y 0 remov$ by ! gu>ds1 ,simon _h no difficulty 9 conv9c+ ,lelius t 8 own allegations _h be5 well f\nd$4 ,tortur+ ! mean+ ( ,m>y's words & giv+ !m a purely lit]al con/ruction1 he inflam$ ! indignation & zeal ( ,lelius to su* a pit*1 t he despat*$ private lett]s to ! gov]nors ( ! neighbor+ prov9ces1 in=m+ !m ( ! exi/5ce1 motives & plans ( ?is new & desp]ate conspiracy aga9/ all t 0 /able1 glori\s & v5]able 9 ! civilizations ( ,greece & ,rome4 ,! next ?+ 0 to det]m9e :at %\ld be done to ext+ui% a h]esy :i* meant revolution1 9 8 own prov9ce4 ,to ?is conf]5ce ,hel5a 0 admitt$2 = ,aspasia _h less influ5ce ov] ,p]icles ?an ,hel5a ov] ,lelius4 ,! ,roman gov]nor 0 weak-m9d$1 easily l$1 & )\t moral s5sibility4 ,he 0 passionately fond ( new s5sations1 extraord9>y excitem5ts1 & ! bloody sports ( ! amphi!atre4 ,he 0 soon induc$ to sanction a magnific5t s*eme concoct$ by t subtle bra9 :i* receiv$ its inspiration f ! old magician ( ,ph>aoh4 ,our good uncle ,beltrezzor arriv$ at ,antio* ! day aft] ,m>y's disappe>ance4 ,he f\nd ! h\sehold ( ,salo!l 9 ! pr(\nde/ con/]nation & di/ress4 ,he 0 welcom$ ) frantic joy1 & jo9$ !m 9 ! mo/ pa9ful & labori\s se>* = 8 lo/ niece4 ,day aft] day ^! sad1 anxi\s s\ls trav]s$ ! city1 walk+1 look+1 inquir+ ev]y:]e4 ,among half a million or m ( p ! lo/ are n easily f\nd1 especially if cunn+ & unscrupul\s p[] gets !m 9 its clut*es & conceals !m f view4 ,9 ! c\rse ( 8 inquiries1 ,beltrezzor discov]$ t ,simon ,magus liv$ 9 ! city 9 great gr&eur & au?ority4 ,a fe>ful suspicion ent]$ 8 m9d2 = he rememb]$ ! night-sc5e 9 ,be?any1 & ! foil$ abduction4 ,he did n communicate 8 fe>s to ,m>?a or ! re/1 b insi/$ ^u _! rema9+ 9 ! utmo/ seclusion1 :ile he conduct$ ! se>* alone4 ,he said he _h discov]$ some?+ important1 b :i* dem&$ great caution & secresy2 & he endeavor$ to inspire a hope :i* he did n feel4 ,! next day1 pass+ a cr[d 9 "o ( ! squ>es1 he obs]v$ ! h]ald ( ,lelius read+ a proclamation to ! p1 :i* excit$ ! greate/ en?usiasm4 ,he came ne> & li/5$ to its second read+4 ,x ann\nc$ (ficially1 ) great pomp ( words1 t ! gov]nm5t1 det]m9$ to protect ! safety & morals ( ! p1 _h tak5 measures to extirpate a c]ta9 secret association ( conspirators1 :i* _h be5 f\nd$ 9 ,judea by "o ,jesus ,*ri/1 :om ,pontius ,pilate _h crucifi$ z an impo/or & revolutioni/4 ,t ! fir/ /ep 9 ?is righte\s und]tak+1 w\ld be ! public execution ( a "y woman1 :o 0 an ag5t & emiss>y ( ^! outlaws1 & :o _h ano9t$ ! said ,jesus k+ ( ! ,jews1 accord+ to ! old ,jewi% cu/om ( in/all+ into ! royal (fice4 ,t 9 ord] to /rike t]ror into ^! evil-do]s1 & to w>n !m ( ! fate :i* await$ !m if !y attempt$ to tea* ! doctr9es ( ,jesus1 ! "y woman1 ,m>y ( ,be?any1 high-prie/ess ( ?is new & dang]\s religion1 w\ld be ?r[n to an imm5se ,nmean lion j arriv$ f ,africa1 9 ! gr& amphi!atre on ! aft]noon ( a c]ta9 day :i* w\ld be ! second ,sabba? foll[+1 accord+ to ! ,jewi% cal5d>4 ,t1 to illu/rate ! clem5cy ( ! gov]nm5t1 a full p>don w\ld be giv5 to ! said ,m>y if %e publicly recant$ h] h]esies & reveal$ ! names ( ! o!r conspirators4 ,beltrezzor /ood agha/ at ?is t]rible docum5t1 full ( false affirmations4 ,! old man's he>t 0 pi]c$ ) grief & t]ror 9 contemplat+ ! frightful toils into :i* 8 innoc5t & beautiful niece _h fall54 ,to conceal ! awful fact f ,m>?a 0 8 fir/ ?\ght--& !n he 0 prep>$ = any labor1 = any sacrifice to rescue ,m>y4 ,! :ole city 0 9 a blaze ( excitem5t ov] ?is new s5sation4 ,x 0 ! great topic ( conv]sation ev]y:]e4 ,& h] crime8 ,oh6 said ! p1 x is t]rible6 ,a female a!i/6 d5y+ all ! gods1 & wor%ip+ a ,jew :o 0 crucifi$ betwe5 two ?ieves6 ,all agre$ t %e des]v$ h] fate2 & t x w\ld be ! mo/ ent]ta9+ sight ( ! season1 & a dea?-bl[ to ! conspiracy4 8,& see60 said !y1 8! noble m]cy ( ,lelius6 ,if %e recants at any "t be=e ! op5+ ( ! amphi!atre1 %e w be releas$40 ,!n !y all agre$ t x w\ld be v c[>dly & disgu/+ 9 h] to recant4 ,!y admir$ an unb5d+ & n a rep5tant s9n]4 ,beltrezzor 0 a pla91 *ildlike man1 hav+ no +5uity = indirect attacks1 or = unravel+ difficult que/ions4 ,?or\ghly tru?ful & hone/1 he always w5t to "w 9 an op51 /raight=w>d way4 ,he felt t1 9 ! great "w be=e him1 he _h b "o hope1 "o res\rce--8 imm5se weal?4 ,if he _h lov$ money m ?an he did1 8 hope w\ld h be5 great]2 = he w\ld h believ$ t all m5 c\ld be b\ght ) a bribe4 ,unpur*asable himself1 he d\bt$ ! p[] ( money4 ,/ill he 0 compell$ to te/ its efficacy1 = x 0 pla9ly 8 only res\rce4 ,he /udi$ ! situation ?or\ghly1 delib]ately4 ,he became conv9c$ t ! :ole ?+ 0 ! conjo9t "w ( ,simon ,magus & ! ,roman gov]nor4 ,he 0 sure t ,simon ,magus1 a fanatic almo/ to lunacy1 c\ld n be det]r$ or )held f a favorite project by pecuni>y consid]ations4 ,! gov]nm5t c\ld n )draw its proclamation )\t a sacrifice ( dignity2 & if ,lelius 7 approa*$ on ! subject1 he w\ld probably ref] x to ,simon1 by :om all proposals w\ld be reject$4 ,he ?\ght x be/ to keep away f ^! high dignit>ies altoge!r1 & to s\nd ! subord9ates4 ,he 0 afraid1 moreov]1 t if ,simon le>n$ ( a weal?y elem5t work+ 9 ,m>y's behalf1 he w\ld increase 8 vigilance & d\ble 8 gu>ds1 s t brib]y & escape w\ld be alike impossible4 ,x 0 be/ to let him believe t ,m>y 0 alone1 helpless & fri5dless4 ,he visit$ ! amphi!atre & s\ght out ! keep] ( ! prison connect$ ) t imm5se e/abli%m5t4 ,! keep] _h already be5 que/ion$ out ( 8 pati5ce by cr[ds ( p to :om he gave surly & unsatisfactory answ]s4 ,he 0 a ,gaul by bir?1 a ,roman soldi] by captivity & necessity1 ,euphorbus by "n4 ,he 0 taciturn & app>5tly ill-natur$4 ,beltrezzor w5t /raight to ! po9t4 ,he ask$ him no que/ions4 ,he said s(tly3 8,a ^w to y 9 a private room may be valuable40 ,euphorbus look$ fix$ly at him a mom5t1 & l$ ! way to a small (fice )94 ,beltrezzor produc$ a sp>kl+ gem ( consid]able value4 8,i wi% to speak ) ! "y woman :o is conf9$ 9 ! amphi!atre40 8,impossible60 said ! keep]1 gruffly4 8,i am h] uncle40 8,no admittance to anyone on pa9 ( dea?10 said ! ,gaul1 ca/+ a wi/ful eye on ! jewel4 ,beltrezzor drew =? a preci\s /one ( rem>kable size & imm5se value4 8,^! are y\rs1 my fri5d1 = a s+le brief int]view ) my niece40 8,h>k y60 said ,euphorbus1 tak+ ! jewels into 8 h&4 8,i am will+ to gratify & befri5d y2 b !re are f\r ,roman soldi]s at ! door ( h] cell1 :o p]mit no "o b myself to g 9 or out40 8,are !y n "u y\r comm&80 8,no4 ,!y belong to ,simon ,magus1 & obey only 8 ^w40 8,lead me to !m40 ,! old man made a t\*+ appeal to ^! r\gh m5 = p]mission to see 8 niece4 ,"s l>ge gold co9s t he (f]$ !m _h m influ5ce ?an 8 eloqu5ce4 ,! assurance ( ! keep] t he w\ld %ield !m z f> z possible1 decid$ ! matt]2 & ,beltrezzor 0 admitt$ into ,m>y's dungeon4 ,! meet+ betwe5 uncle & niece 0 affect+ 9 ! extreme4 ,m>y _h greatly *ang$ s9ce h] imprisonm5t4 ,a deadly pallor p]vad$ h] beautiful c\nt5ance1 & %e _h ! air ( "o ^: delicate n]ves _h almo/ giv5 way "u prolong$ t]rors4 ,! old man clasp$ h] 9 8 arms1 & ! bitt] te>s fell f 8 face ^u h] gold5 hair4 8,oh uncle60 said %e1 8is x n horrible to contemplate8 ,a "y girl /ripp$ & ?r[n to a lion be=e ?\s&s ( p6 ,are !y n devils 9 human =m :o c witness su* ?+s80 ,%e trembl$2 h] eyeballs />t$ ) horror2 ! cold drops /ood on h] =ehead2 %e clung frantically to h] uncle4 8,oh6 ,i h ?\ght ( x10 %e said1 8until ,i %all g mad6 ,& !n to he> ! lion ro>+ at night6 ,x is fe>ful4 ,he is kept v1 v ne> me4 ,is n t cruel1 cruel8 ,i he> e s\nd he makes4 ,i he> him gr[l+ & crun*+ :5 !y fe$ him4 ,i he> him yawn+ & :9+ z he impati5tly paces 8 cage4 ,!n at night he ro>s z if he ?\ght he 0 9 ! pa?less =e/4 ,oh x freezes me6 ,i _c eat4 ,i _c sleep4 ,i %all die60 ,! head ( ! "y woman fell ^u ! old man's brea/4 8,h y nev] ?\ght1 my *ild10 he said1 tremul\sly1 8( sav+ y\r life by r5\nc+ y\r religion80 8,no1 uncle6 nev]6 nev]60 8,t's a brave girl60 said he1 t5d]ly kiss+ h] =ehead2 8& y %all be sav$ )\t x40 8,i am n afraid ( dea?1 uncle1 b ( ! lion4 ,b ,i d\bt n--oh6 ,i d\bt n t ,jesus w support me ev5 9 t la/ extremity4 ,i _c1 h[ev]1 control my fe>s40 ,! old man *e]$ h] ) _m t5d] words & promises ( help & assurances ( spe$y rescue4 ,promis+ to visit h] twice e day1 he dep>t$ to mature "s plan = h] deliv]ance4 ,t ev5+ he 0 plung$ 9 a deep & pa9ful rev]ie4 ,nei!r ,m>?a nor ,m>y ,magdal5 c\ld engage him 9 conv]sation4 ,he sat ) head betwe5 8 h&s4 ,he retir$ e>ly4 ,dur+ ! night ,m>?a he>d groans issu+ f 8 *amb]4 ,%e lit h] lamp & ent]$ s(tly4 ,beltrezzor1 pale & hagg>d1 lay ^u 8 back ) 8 face upturn$ to heav54 ,he _h be5 weep+ 9 8 sleep4 ,8 lips 7 mov+ z if 9 pray]4 ,fai?ful1 lov+ old man6 ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,,xxvii4 ,,hel5a ,,aga94 ,illu/ration3 ,initial ,:5 my uncle came out to 8 morn+ meal1 a /range trans=mation _h tak5 place4 ,he 0 buoyant & *e]ful2 8 face 0 radiant ) a pleas+ vivacity4 ,inde$ he 0 absolutely mir?ful4 ,m>?a reg>d$ him ) pr(\nd a/oni%m5t1 :i* gave way to fe> t ! de> old man _h lo/ 8 reason1 :5 he bur/ out into ! foll[+ spee*3 8,rejoice1 my fri5ds6 rejoice1 my *ildr56 ,i h got x fix$4 ,i see our way cle>ly out ( all our tr\bles4 ,get ready1 z quickly b z quietly z y c1 to leave ?is horrible place4 ,be sil5t z ! grave4 ,a %ip w be ready = u on ,sunday aft]noon2 & :ile ^! mad p are yell+ 9 _! vile amphi!atre1 %e w weigh an*or1 slip h] cable1 & ) ,m>y on bo>d & angels smil+ on ! voyage1 h] pr[ w po9t /eadily = ! l& ( ,gaul40 ,dur+ ?is spee* he 0 rubb+ 8 h&s ) glee2 & at ! conclusion ( x he wav$ !m ov] 8 head 9 an excit$ mann]4 ,8 li/5]s %[$ by _! sil5ce & ! te>s 9 _! eyes :at !y ?\ght ( ?is s+ul> conduct4 8,come1 come60 said ! old man1 resum+ 8 usual gravity1 8,i am 9 e>ne/4 ,god has reveal$ :at ,i mu/ d1 9 a dream4 ,i "k exactly :]e ,m>y is4 ,%e is well & w soon be happy4 ,y mu/ obey me4 ,ask me no que/ions4 ,tru/ 9 me implicitly4 ,all w be "r40 ,see+ ,beltrezzor s ?or\ghly 9 e>ne/1 ! little gr\p became hopeful & *e]ful1 & proce$$ ) alacrity to make prep>ations = ! sudd5 & /range j\rney4 ,beltrezzor w5t out into ! city1 & 0 incessantly occupi$ 9 arrang+ & work+ = 8 rem>kable ent]prise4 ,he b>ely came home to sleep at night1 s mu* _h he to d 9 s little "t4 ,he cont9u$ z vivaci\s z ev]4 ,8 spirits1 8 hope1 8 assurance1 seem$ to rise e h\r4 ,at la/1 ! ev5+ be=e ! ,sabba?1 ! little p>ty ) _! baggage 7 quietly transf]r$ aft] nightfall f ! h\se ( ,salo!l to a beautiful new %ip an*or$ away up at ! v end ( ! long pi] :i* adorns ! riv] front ( ,antio*4 ,:5 !y 7 all safe on bo>d ! vessel1 ,beltrezzor took ,m>?a into ! cab91 & op5+ a closet1 he %[$ h] sev]al boxes ( rosewood b\nd ) brass b&s4 8,?is10 he said1 8is full ( gold5 co9s ( v>i\s sizes & value4 ,?is conta9s jewels ( incalculable spl5dor wr\ght by ! greate/ artific]s 9 ! ,ea/4 ,?is conceals preci\s /ones ( great beauty & high price4 ,& ?is la/ conta9s "s g5u9e diamonds1 br\ght f ! remote/ ,india1 & :i* w\ld excite ! envy ( k+s & que5s4 8,"h are ! keys to !m all4 ,take !m40 8,& all ?is imm5se weal?10 said ,m>?a 9 amazem5t4 8,"o half ( x is = y & ,m>y40 8,& ! o!r half80 8,is = ! man :o br+s ,m>y to ?is vessel to-morr[ & conducts x to ,gaul40 8,oh1 g5]\s uncle2 & = y\rself80 8,some?+ f> m valuable ?an all t40 ,my uncle return$ to ! h\se ( ,salo!l to sleep1 fe>+ le/ its sudd5 evacuation %\ld excite ! suspicion ( ! neighbors4 ,sev]al s]vants also1 brib$ to pr(\nd secrecy1 7 to rema9 until aft] ! ,sabba?4 ,beltrezzor 0 oblig$ to move ) great caution4 ,a s+le false /ep might ru9 ev]y?+4 ,if ! p>ties :o 7 plott+ ! de/ruction ( ,m>y obta9$ ! lea/ clue to 8 movem5ts1 8 :ole s*eme might be ?w>t$4 ,m>y w\ld be giv5 to ! lion1 ! re/ seiz$ & p]haps murd]$1 & 8 spl5did e/ate confiscat$4 ,he c\ld n sleep a mom5t "u ! weight ( su* trem5d\s responsibilities4 ,x 0 ! next morn+1 ! day ( ! ,jewi% ,sabba?1 :5 ! gr& exhibition 0 to take place at ! amphi!atre1 t ,i arriv$ at ,antio*4 ,j z my uncle 0 leav+ ! h\se = ev]1 he met me at ! door4 ,i ?\ght he w\ld h />t$ f me z f a gho/4 ,b he 0 "o ( ^? quiet m5 :om no?+ ev] surpris$4 ,he gave me a s$ate b cordial welcome1 j z if he _h be5 expect+ me4 ,he _h difficulty 9 calm+ my excitem5t & fury :5 ,i le>n$ :at a %ock+ fate 0 imp5d+ ov] my y\nge/ & mo/ beautiful si/]4 ,he w\ld n tell me any?+ ab\t ! means he _h adopt$ = ,m>y's deliv]ance4 ,i 0 v re/ive "u ?is burd5 ( secrecy & my/]y4 8,be quiet1 my son10 he said1 8or y w m> all4 ,y h come into ! fight too late to und]/& ! exact /ate ( ! p>ties & to take comm&4 ,be pati5t4 ,d ! "p ,i give y4 ,d x well1 & tru/ to me = ! re/4 ,we mu/ n be se5 toge!r1 = y may be wat*$1 & t might betray me4 ,y mu/ n g to ! %ip until ! h\r ( />t+1 = y might be foll[$ !re1 & t might ru9 u bo?4 8,/ay 9 ! h\se until ne>ly f\r o'clock4 ,at f\r o'clock precisely be at ! nor?-ea/ angle ( ! amphi!atre on ! opposite side ( ! /reet4 ,y w see a *>iot /&+ !re ) ! lett] ,g 9 gilt ^u its side4 ,a s]vant w be hold+ a gray horse a few paces (f4 ,at f\r1 precisely1 two p]sons w come out ( "o ( ! re> doors ( ! amphi!atre4 ,!y w ent] ! *>iot & drive away rapidly4 ,m\nt ! horse & foll[ !m4 ,t5 m9utes aft]w>d y w be 9 ! arms ( y\r si/]s60 ,i 0 v mu* dissatisfi$ ) ?is arrangem5t4 ,i felt t ! /ake 0 too imm5se & sacr$ = ! :ole "w to be left to ! k1 ! discretion & ! en]gy ( "o man4 ,b my uncle 0 resolute 9 keep+ 8 plan = ,m>y's deliv]ance entirely to himself4 ,he bade me adieu4 ,!re 0 a s+ul> t5d]ness 9 8 words3 8,good-bye1 ,laz>us4 ,i ne$ n conceal f y ! fact t !re is dang] 9 ?is ent]prise4 ,y may nev] see me aga94 ,y w take c>e ( y\r si/]s 9 my place4 ,be hone/1 be fai?ful1 be good4 ,if my plan succe$s1 ?is w be ! greate/1 happie/ day ( my life4 ,c\rage6 ,adieu40 ,! old sweet smile irradiat$ 8 face1 & he w5t (f z gayly z if he 7 go+ to a fea/ in/ead ( ent]+ ^u a dang]\s ent]prise4 ,i w5t up /airs 9 ! n[ des]t$ h\se ( ,salo!l1 & sat d[n at an op5 w9d[1 look+ out on a beautiful public squ>e4 ,at any o!r "t ,i w\ld h be5 delight$ ) ! sc5e4 ,my he>t w\ld h be5 *e]$ by ! t5d] gre5 ( ! s(t grass1 by ! ru/l+ ( ! leaves 9 ! w9d1 & ! twitt]+ ( ! birds among ! bran*es4 ,i w\ld h admir$ ! spl5did domes & spires ( ,antio* ris+ all ar\nd above ! tree-tops1 & ! brilliant t9ts ( an ea/]n sky fleck$ ) fanta/ic & fleecy cl\ds4 ,b ! glories ( nature & art 7 alike p[]less on a _s sunk into ! deepe/ abyss ( sorr[ & fe>4 ,my he>t 0 full ( ! dire/ =ebod+s4 ,! morn+ h\rs pass$ gloomily away4 ,my re/lessness became insupportable4 ,x mu/ h be5 ab\t noon1 :51 look+ d[n into ! public squ>e1 ,i saw a "y man seat$ ^u "o ( ! iron b5*es1 ^: face imm$iately rivet$ my att5tion4 ,x 0 my old fri5d & fell[-/ud5t1 ,demetrius1 ! bro!r ( ,hel5a4 ,a p[]ful temptation imm$iately assail$ me4 ,x 0 to d some?+ = my poor si/] indep5d5tly ( ,beltrezzor's s*emes1 s t if "o fail$ ! o!r might succe$4 ,"o res\rce only seem$ s little to dep5d ^u4 ,i 0 ne>ly frantic wait+ ?us 9 idl5ess = ! fruition ( an unkn[n plan :i* might fail at ! v mom5t :5 its success 0 expect$4 ,i said to myself3 8,i w speak to ,demetrius4 ,he has a good he>t & a cle> bra94 ,he may sugge/ some?+ :i* may lead to good4 ,he may enli/ ,hel5a 9 our behalf1 if ,hel5a is "h4 ,i _c see :at h>m c come ( x40 ,i w5t d[n into ! squ>e4 ,demetrius 0 ov]joy$ to see me4 ,he did n1 h[ev]1 seem surpris$ to f9d me 9 ,antio*4 ,we sat d[n toge!r & ,i told him all our tr\bles4 ,i unbosom$ my :ole grief to him l a bro!r4 ,i _h ! discretion to say no?+ ( ,beltrezzor1 resolv+ to let ! old man "w out 8 own plan alone4 ,if h>m came to any "o1 x c\ld only be to myself4 ,demetrius knew t ! condemn$ woman 0 my si/]1 & pr(ess$ ! deepe/ int]e/ & sympa?y 9 h] case4 ,i plead$ ! y\?1 & ! innoc5t & sweet "* ( ,m>y1 aga9/ ! *>ge ( f\l & dang]\s h]esy4 ,he seem$ to ?9k ! h]esy 0 bad en\gh1 = he indulg$ 9 ! mo/ contemptu\s expressions aga9/ ,jesus & 8 disciples4 8,b10 said he1 8x is all ! "w ( ,lelius4 ,no "o c aid y s effici5tly z ,simon ,magus4 ,great magician & sorc]] z he has be5 & is /ill1 he is a noble & g5]\s man4 ,i am confid5t he w assi/ y 9 deliv]+ y\r si/] f h] fe>ful p]il4 ,he is n[ lectur+ to a select audi5ce on ! great po9ts ( 8 new philosophy4 ,come ) me to 8 palace & he> him4 ,:5 he has f9i%$1 we w consult toge!r z to :at is to be done40 ,i foll[$ him2 & asc5d+ ! m>ble /eps ( a pr9cely mansion1 & pass+ ?r\gh a great hall adorn$ ) /atues & imm5se vases ( fl[]s1 we 7 u%]$ into a room ( mod]ate size1 b sup]bly furni%$4 ,! audi5ce ne>ly fill$ ! place1 = !re 7 b two or ?ree *airs ne> ! door4 ,simon ,magus1 on a rais$ plat=m1 0 9 ! v heat & height ( an eloqu5t disc\rse4 ,8 subject 0 ! nature ( ! s\l & its trans=mations4 ,8 voice 0 w9n+1 8 ge/ures expressive1 8 eye a blaze ( intellectual fire4 ,8 language 0 full ( ,ori5talisms & ,egyptian my/icisms4 ,taught 9 ! sev]] s*ool ( ,grecian philosophy1 & bless$ ) ! f> great] analytic light ( spiritual k1 ,i p]ceiv$ at once t ! influx ( ideas into 8 m9d came f cunn+1 subtle1 evil spirits1 & t ! t5d5cy ( 8 words 0 to bewild]1 dazzle & betray4 8,y saw me10 said he1 8turn wat] into w9e j n[4 ,y saw me turn silv] into gold4 ,y saw me resolve a rose into no?+2 y saw me re/ore x z x 0 be=e4 ,^! ?+s1 ,i told y1 7 symbolic ( spiritual trans=mations4 8,:5 ! _s by pray]1 by fai?1 by wat*+1 by /udy1 by ab/95ce1 by suff]+--is purifi$ & e!realiz$1 x und]goes simil> trans=mations1 & f wat] becomes w9e2 f silv] becomes gold2 f human becomes div9e4 ,?us x is t ,i h become ! p[] ( ,god--! ,son ( ,god--! ,^w ( ,god2 & t ,i h /ill a holi] "n1 incommunicable to y4 8,9 ?is /ate ,i h supreme control ov] matt]4 ,y saw me a little :ile ago take up a deadly s]p5t4 ,x bit a dog be=e y\r eyes & ! creature di$ 9 a m9ute4 ,x fa/5$ itself ^u my h&s & my *eeks2 ,i 0 unhurt4 ,y saw me swall[ balls ( fire4 ,i am unh>m$4 ,s ,i c float 9 ! air l a bird2 ,i c live "u wat] l a fi%4 ,i c po9t my f+] at a tree1 & x w )]4 ,i c call to a cl\d1 & x comes to me4 ,i c curse a city1 & x w s9k into ! sea40 ,!re 0 an excit$ & admir+ murmur among 8 cr$ul\s he>]s4 ,! fanatical impo/or cont9u$3 8,^! p[]s are awful & incompreh5sible to y :o d n possess !m4 ,!y are only giv5 to ! wise :o use !m wisely4 ,b ,i h atta9$ to a height ( glory1 9 comp>ison ) :i* ^! fir/ labors & results are insignificant4 ,hav+ become ! emanation ( ,god1 ,i c create s\ls out ( no?+4 ,i c re/ore s\ls to life :i* _h be5 giv5 to annihilation4 ,i w %[ y a s\l ,i h creat$40 ,!re 0 a great murmur ( a/oni%m5t & applause4 ,! curta9s 7 n[ drawn & ! room d>k5$4 ,! wall beh9d ,simon appe>$ to op51 & ! mo/ beautiful sight 0 pres5t$ to view t ,i h ev] witness$4 ,! *amb] beyond 0 "o respl5d5t glory ( gold5 light4 ,x did n seem to be light$1 b to be fill$ ) light z a gold5 vapor4 ,9 ! mid/ ( ! room1 half-way betwe5 ! floor & ceil+1 bo? ( :i* seem$ to be mirrors ( %9+ brass1 hung or float$ a rosy cl\d1 %ap$ l a ?rone1 ov] :i* 0 a canopy ( cele/ial azure4 ,on t ?rone 0 seat$ ,hel5a1 my fir/ & only love4 ,i turn$ to look ,demetrius 9 ! face at ?is spl5did creation 787 ( 8 gift$ bro!r-9-law4 ,demetrius _h left ! room unobs]v$4 8,simon10 said ,i to myself1 8has lo/ 8 old sublime fai? 9 8 diabolical art1 & has resort$ to magical impo/ures40 ,i turn$ my att5tion to ,hel5a4 ,n[ ,i solemnly av[ t ! woman1 h] *air & all1 :atev] !y may h be51 7 t5 feet 9 ! air1 entirely unsupport$ by any?+ visible to mortal eye4 ,:e!r ?is 0 "s magical trick1 really explicable by natural law1 or effect$ by ! assi/ance ( evil spirits1 ,i d n "k4 ,( ?is1 h[ev]1 ,i am c]ta91 f exp]i5ce & k acquir$ 9 ! spiritual _w1 t evil spirits c1 "u c]ta9 conditions1 lift ! heavie/ articles high 9 ! air & keep !m !re = a consid]able "t4 8,?is10 said ,simon ,magus1 enjoy+ ! ineffable amazem5t ( 8 he>]s--8?is is ! s\l ( ,hel5 ( ,sp>ta1 :o caus$ ! ,trojan w>4 ,%e 0 annihilat$ = h] extreme wick$ness4 ,i h recall$ h] to life2 &1 wond]ful to relate1 ,i h purifi$ & spiritualiz$ h] :ole nature by ! sanctify+ influ5ce ( my pres5ce40 ,i gaz$ ^u ?is /range sc5e ) int5se int]e/1 & 0 soon en*ant$ ) ! face ( ,hel5a4 ,nev] 9 ?is _w h ,i se5 features ( su* exquisite beauty2 & nei!r 9 ?is _w nor 9 ! o!r h ,i se5 a face expressive ( su* womanly love1 t5d]ness1 sweetness & purity4 ,! :ite peace ( heav5 0 en?ron$ ^u h] br[1 & ! s(tness ( inf9ite pity beam$ 9 h] eyes4 ,if %e 0 a picture1 x 0 a subject = b\ndless en?usiasm4 ,if %e 0 liv+1 %e 0 an object = pr(\nd adoration4 ,s ?\ght e "o :o look$ on4 ,x is /range t ,i did n rememb] :at ,i _h be5 taught 9 ! _w ( spirits1 t syr5s & wick$ wom5 !re c c\nt]feit angelic =ms s cunn+ly z to deceive ! angels !mselves = a :ile4 8,!re10 said ,i1 to myself1 8is a g5tl5ess1 a hol9ess1 a purity1 a m]cy :i* ,i "k w save my si/] f ! lion40 ,! curta9 or wall or :atev] x 01 0 clos$1 & ,simon w5t on ) 8 lecture4 ,i did n he> a ^w ( x1 s rapt 0 ,i 9 ! contemplation ( ,hel5a's s]aphic face4 8,oh1 if ,i c\ld speak to t vision ( sup]lative beauty1 ,i am sure %e w\ld befri5d my poor si/]40 ,sudd5ly ,demetrius t\*$ me on ! %\ld] & :isp]$3 8,my si/] wi%es to see y40 ,i foll[$ him1 ask+ no que/ions1 bewild]$1 un?9k+1 b :isp]+ to myself1 8,hel5a wi%es to see me60 ,we pass$ ?r\gh ! sup]b hall1 & op5+ a door ne> ! end ( x1 ,demetrius u%]$ me into ! room )\t ent]+ himself4 ,hel5a advanc$ to meet me4 ,i 0 delight$ ) ! extraord9>y w>m? ( h] reception4 ,if we _h be5 passionate lov]s long sep>at$1 %e c\ld n h manife/$ m pleasure at see+ me6 ,sup]bly beautiful z %e 01 t heav5ly radiance & purity :i* ,i _h se5 ^u h] c\nt5ance a few mom5ts be=e1 _h vani%$4 ,!re 0 no?+ spiritual 9 h] expression4 ,%e 0 pla9ly no _s & no s\l j creat$1 b a p]fectly =m$1 gl[+1 en*ant+ woman ( fle% & blood4 ,i 0 ab\t que/ion+ h] on ! subject ( h] extraord9>y deception1 :5 %e spoke3 8,i knew y want$ to see me4 ,i s5t ,demetrius out to look = y4 ,y are 9 tr\ble1 & ,i long to assi/ y4 ,sit d[n ) me on ^! cu%ions & tell me all y\r /ory40 ,%e t\*$ a little bell1 & a tall1 /ately s]vant appe>$ at ! door4 8,w9e & refre%m5ts10 said ,hel5a4 ,we sat d[n toge!r1 & ,i told h] all ab\t poor ,m>y1 /ill wisely omitt+ ! "p ( ,beltrezzor4 ,! te>s gli/5$ 9 h] brilliant eyes1 & %e exclaim$3 8,z soon z ,simon f9i%es 8 lecture1 ,i w p]suade him to grant y\r reque/4 ,i h great p[] ov] him40 ,a pang %ot ?r\gh my he>t z ,i ?\ght ( ,simon--! husb& ( ?is respl5d5t object ( my y\?ful adoration4 ,alas6 :at 0 ,hel5a to me8 ,:y did ,i n rememb] ! fatal effect ( h] love ^u me8 ,:y did ,i n rememb] ! lessons ( ! spiritual _w8 ,are !re n passions :i* we c nev] conqu]1 /ruggle z we may8 ,are !re n ,canaanites ( ! s\l t c nev] be expell$8 ,! w9e & refre%m5ts 7 br\ght1 & ,hel5a :isp]$ some?+ to ! s]vant4 ,i he>d only ! la/ words1 8,tell him to make ha/e40 ,i ?\ght x 0 a message to ,simon1 & t my de> b5efactress 0 impati5t to int]c$e = my si/]4 8,come10 %e said1 8pl$ge our future joys 9 ?is delicate w9e1 & !n tell me all ab\t t wond]ful voyage !y say y made into ! _w ( spirits40 ,fool t ,i 06 excit$ by ! p[]ful liquor1 & /ill m intoxicat$ by ! pres5ce & smiles ( t bewit*+ woman :o repeat$ly took my h& 9 h]s1 ,i pr(an$ sacr$ ?+s by l[]+ !m to ! level ( h] vulg> & s5sual m9d4 ,%e seem$ va/ly ent]ta9$ by my /ory2 & :5 ,i describ$ ! great fea/ ( ,grecian spirits1 & h] own spl5did appe>ance 9 ! sc5e1 & h] t]rible metamorphosis1 %e laugh$ upro>i\sly1 & said x 0 "o ( ! mo/ *>m+ /ories %e _h ev] he>d 9 h] life4 ,!re 0 a s\nd ( foot/eps 9 ! adjo9+ room4 8,come10 %e said1 fill+ my glass1 8dr9k to ! morr[ :i* %all be happi] ?an to-day40 ,!re 0 a rap or signal ^u ! wall4 8,simon's lecture is ov]10 %e said1 ris+4 8,?is is 8 audi5ce-*amb] 9 :i* he receives a few pupils :o "q him on ! deep] po9ts ( 8 subject4 ,_! conv]sation w\ld be v dull to u 9 our mood4 ,let u retire into my *amb]1 until !y disp]se1 :5 we c speak to ,simon alone40 ,i foll[$ h] to ! door ( ! room f :i* ! signal _h come4 ,i hesitat$1 aba%$1 at ! ?\ght ( ent]+ h] *amb]4 8,oh come along10 %e said1 grasp+ my arm4 8,d n be afraid ( my *amb]4 ,x has c>pets :i* r5d] y\r feet inaudible4 ,x has pictures & /atues :i* ravi% y\r s5ses40 ,) t %e drew me into ! room4 ,i 0 imm$iately seiz$ f beh9d by sev]al p[]ful m51 & ?r[n to ! floor4 ,) a peal ( devili% laught]1 my betray] fl$ back into ! audi5ce-*amb]4 ,i look$ up1 & ,magi/us 0 reg>d+ me ) a diabolical smile4 ,a man 0 /&+ by him :o rivet$ my att5tion4 ,he 0 black1 b 8 face 0 full ( hide\s :ite spots4 ,"o eye 0 gone1 lids & all1 s z to leave a frightful deep hole 9 its place4 ,he wore a r$ turban4 ,?is /range1 repulsive creature /oop$ to fa/5 a k9d ( iron bracelet on my feet4 ,i wat*$ him 9 sil5ce4 ,he s(tly kiss$ ! top ( my foot unse5 by ! o!rs4 ,i knew him4 ,x 0 ,e?opus4 ,poor ,e?opus6 ,hel5a pe]$ 9 at ! door ) h] beautiful1 laugh+ face4 8,h[ does my boy-lov] l my b$-*amb]80 8,h[ c\ld y betray me 9 ?is atroci\s mann]80 said ,i1 indignantly4 8,magi/us (f]$ me a beautiful diamond r+ to get y into 8 p[]4 ,y "k we wom5 c\ld nev] resi/ ! fasc9ation ( diamond r+s60 8,& my poor si/]60 ,i exclaim$1 9 despair4 8,true1 ,i _h =gott5 ab\t h]4 ,x is "t to dress = ! amphi!atre4 ,! gladiators int]e/ me v little1 b ,i w\ld n miss see+ a woman eat5 up by ! lion1 ev5 = a diamond r+4 ,good-bye40 ,! demon dep>t$4 ,! vision ( ! woman-s]p5t 9 ! _w ( spirits 0 a prophecy4 ,i _h fall5 aga9--?is "t h[ l[6 into :at an abyss6 ,! amphi!atre 0 op56 & great ,heav5s6 ,i 0 b\nd h& & foot & ca/ into a dungeon4 ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,,xxviii4 ,,to ,,! ,,lion4 ,illu/ration3 ,initial ,! day prec$+ ^! surpris+ ev5ts1 ,beltrezzor _h tak5 ! keep] ( ! prison abo>d ! new %ip :i* lay at ! pi]4 ,he _h %[n him ! imm5se treasures 9 8 rosewood boxes--! accumulation ( a long life & successful trade 9 ! f> ,ea/]n c\ntries :i* ab\nd 9 diamonds & preci\s /ones4 ,euphorbus op5$ 8 eyes 9 great a/oni%m5t4 ,he _h nev] se5 s mu* weal? be=e4 ,to 8 feeble ari?metic x 0 absolutely incalculable4 8,euphorbus10 said my uncle1 look+ t[>d ! blue l9e ( ! sea :i* 0 visible 9 ! di/ance1 8if ?is vessel sails f ?is po9t to-morr[ ev5+ at f\r o'clock1 d y ?9k %e c\ld get out ( ! riv] & to sea be=e night came on1 to escape any vessel />t$ 9 pursuit ( h] half an h\r aft] %e weigh$ an*or80 8,yes1 %e c\ld n be ov]tak5 by any sail n[ 9 ! riv]80 8,i make lib]al calculations4 ,i say half an h\r1 b %e w h an h\r or two h\rs ! />t40 8,!n %e is p]fectly safe10 said ! o!r4 8,euphorbus60 cont9u$ my uncle1 look+ him 9 ! face1 8y are a ,gaul4 ,away ov] !re lies y\r beautiful c\ntry1 ) its glori\s m\nta9s1 its swift riv]s1 its ri* fields1 its v9ey>ds1 its brave w>riors4 ,d y n wi% to see x aga980 8,yes10 said ! soldi] ) a sigh4 8,"h y are a /rang]1 an exile1 a prison] y\rself4 ,:at are ^! ,romans to y1 h]$it>y enemies1 t y %\ld obey !m8 robb]s & murd]]s ( y\r fri5ds & c\ntrym51 t y %\ld love !m80 8,i despise !m10 said ,euphorbus1 gruffly4 8,9 ,gaul y c\ld be happy4 ,y c\ld return to y\r old home p]haps40 8,! ,romans h burnt x40 8,y c\ld rebuild x4 ,y c\ld take c>e ( y\r "m 9 h] old age4 ,y c\ld h a wife at y\r side & *ildr5 ab\t y\r knees40 8,d n talk ab\t ^! ?+s60 said ! ,gaul4 8,!y sadd5 me40 8,talk ab\t !m8 ,y %all h !m2 !y are y\rs4 ,?is vessel is y\rs2 "o-half ( t imm5se treasure is y\rs40 8,m9e8 m9e80 8,yes1 y\rs1 on "o condition40 8,:at condition80 8,t y br+ my little ,m>y out ( ! amphi!atre to-morr[--0 & ! old man1 ov]p[]$ by ! /ra9 ^u 8 feel+s1 bur/ into te>s4 ,euphorbus 0 deeply mov$4 8,y ask an impossibility6 ,oh t ,i c\ld--0 8,w y if y c80 exclaim$ ! old man1 e>ne/ly seiz+ him by ! h&4 8,c]ta9ly ,i w--0 8,x is all ,i ask60 said ,beltrezzor4 8,leave x to me4 ,let me into y\r private room at ?ree o'clock & ,i w expla9 ev]y?+ to y4 ,if y are n satisfi$ y c !n refuse40 8,y speak my/]ies10 said ! ,gaul2 8b y y\rself are a my/]y4 ,come1 z y promise4 ,my life is n mu*1 & ,i am will+ to risk x = y & y\r little ,m>y z y call h]40 ,my uncle _h be5 twice e day to visit 8 niece4 ,! m he saw ( h] helplessness1 h] purity1 h] suff]+ & h] t]ror1 ! m %e entw9$ h]self ab\t 8 he>t1 & ! m resolutely did he labor to a*ieve h] deliv]ance4 ,%e clung to him s t5d]ly1 & z ! fatal h\r approa*$ h] fe> ( ! lion became s he>tr5d+1 t ! old man c\ld h>dly te> himself f h] embraces4 ,! ,roman gu>d1 accu/om$ to him1 receiv$ 8 co9s smil+ly & sc>cely notic$ 8 com+ out4 ,= ?ree days be=e ! ,sabba? he _h worn a gre5 %ade ov] 8 eyes4 8,i got du/ 9 !m10 said he to ! soldi]s1 8& an old man's eyes are weak40 ,?ree o'clock1 ,sabba?1 arriv$4 ,beltrezzor 0 admitt$ into ! private room ( ! keep]4 ,! amphi!atre 0 cr[d$1 & cr[ds 7 /ill press+ on ! outside = admission4 ,! games & combats 7 go+ on1 to ! great delight ( ! imm5se audi5ce1 = !y occasionally %ook ! build+ ) %\ts ( laught] & ?und]s ( applause4 ,! huge lion1 irritat$ by ^! noises & rag+ ) hung]1 s5t up ro> aft] ro>1 :i* appall$ ! /\te/ he>ts among ! spectators4 ,euphorbus1 /]n & pale1 came into 8 (fice4 8,n[ = y\r plan10 said he to ,beltrezzor4 8,x is n[ or nev]40 ,my uncle drew f ! ample folds ( 8 robe a package1 :i* he laid on a table4 8,n[10 said he1 8att5tion6 ,m>y & ,i are to *ange places4 ,%e is to come out ) y1 disguis$ z h] uncle4 ,i am to rema9 9 ! dungeon1 disguis$ z ,m>y40 ,euphorbus /agg]$ back ) protrud$ eyes4 8,& to be ?r[n to ! lion y\rself80 8,x is ! only way10 said ! old man1 sl[ly & meekly4 ,euphorbus fell ^u 8 neck & kiss$ 8 *eek3 8,i h he>d t h]oes 7 sometimes elevat$ into gods2 b y are ! only man ( :om ,i c\ld believe x40 8,y see10 cont9u$ ,beltrezzor1 8"h is a mask ( ! f9e/ p>*m5t1 pa9t$ 9 imitation ( ,m>y's face1 ) long beautiful gold5 hair atta*$ to ! headpiece40 8,x is inde$ an a/oni%+ lik5ess4 ,! face is p]fect4 ,& :]e is ! mask 9 imitation ( y\rs80 ,he unti$ a /r+ beh9d 8 neck1 & drew (f 8 hair & be>d at once4 ,he 0 a be>dless bald old man4 ,he wore 8 mask4 8,any "o we>+ ?is w\ld be mi/ak5 = me4 ,!re 0 "o difficulty ab\t ! eyes4 ,we got ov] t by we>+ ! gre5 %ade4 ,!re 0 ano!r ab\t ! nose & m\?4 ,%e mu/ hold h] h&k]*ief to h] face1 z is natural 9 grief4 ,! illusion w be complete4 8,"h are two flat pieces ( cork10 he cont9u$1 8to be put into my s&als1 :i* are peculi>ly con/ruct$ s z to conceal !m4 ,t w add an in* to ,m>y's height4 ,!n y see my turban is s arrang$ t a little traction "h elevates x an in* m4 ,t w make x "r1 = %e is ne>ly z tall z ,i am4 ,! robes y "k we c simply ex*ange40 ,! old man dwelt ^u ^! details until he conv9c$ ,euphorbus t ! s+ul> ex*ange 0 p]fectly feasible4 ,! voice ( ,simon ,magus 0 n[ he>d 9 ! c\rty>d4 ,he _h j look$ into ,m>y's w9d[ to see t 8 victim _h n escap$4 ,he ?rew ! gu>d "s money4 ,he !n spoke to ?ree m5 :o /ood be=e him ) long poles 9 _! h&s1 ea* pole hav+ an iron hook at ! end ( x4 ,he spoke s l\d t ,m>y & e "o he>d him3 8,y w /& inside ! iron rail+ & wat* ! lion's attack4 ,s long z he eats ! neck & %\ld]s or ! l[] half ( ! body1 let him alone4 ,:5 he beg9s ^u ! *e/1 drag ! body away f him ) y\r hooks4 ,rememb]6 ,i want ! woman's he>t un9jur$4 ,if y _c d x1 ,i w give ! signal = ! keep]s to ?r[ 9 ! murd]] ,trebonius4 ,t w save my prize & satisfy ! p40 ,aft] ?is horrible spee* he ent]$ ! amphi!atre by a private way & resum$ 8 seat ne> ! gorge\s *air ( ,lelius4 8,! coa/ is cle>10 said ,euphorbus4 8,n[ is our "t40 ,!y ent]$ ! c\rty>d4 ,euphorbus gave ! gu>ds d\ble money4 8,our poor old fri5d10 said he1 8is ov]:elm$ ) grief to-day4 ,he _c speak4 ,x is 8 la/ visit40 ,!y pass$ into ! dungeon4 ,m>y 0 cr\*+ 9 "o corn]1 :ite z a corpse4 ,%e sprang to h] uncle's arms4 ,%e c\ld n speak2 %e c\ld n weep4 ,t]ror _h p>alyz$ ! f\nta9s ( ?\ght & sorr[4 8,i h come to save y1 my *ild10 said ! old man1 8,c\rage6 & y w be free 9 t5 m9utes4 ,laz>us is 9 ! /reet wait+ = y4 ,m>?a is on a beautiful %ip wait+ = y4 ,9 "o h\r y w be on ! blue sea sail+ away f ?is awful city40 ,m>y />$ at him 9 wild surprise4 8,free8 ,laz>us wait+6 & ,m>?a80 ,! transition f total despair to hope 0 too mu* = h] weak n]ves4 ,%e swoon$4 ,! old man knelt by h] side1 kiss+ h] h&s & *af+ h] temples :ile ! great te>s roll$ d[n 8 *eeks4 8,too bad6 too bad60 said ,euphorbus1 8:5 "t is s preci\s0--& he busi$ himself 9 =c+ a /imulus into h] m\?4 ,%e reviv$ pres5tly & sat up4 8,y say ,i may be sav$1 uncle4 ,n[ tell me h[4 ,i am calm & c compreh5d y p]fectly40 ,beltrezzor proce$$ to expla9 ev]y?+ z he _h done to ,euphorbus4 ,%e he>d him pati5tly1 & !n said 9 a quiet tone3 8,&1 poor good man6 d y ?9k ,i w p]mit y to be eat5 by ! lion 9 my place8 ,oh no1 t is impossible4 ,?9k ( "s o!r plan40 8,!re is no o!r way4 ,i %all n be eat5 by ! lion40 8,:y n80 8,because ,i am n a ,*ri/ian4 ,y are condemn$ = h]esy4 ,i am a ,g5tile40 8,b !y w kill y = contriv+ my escape1 & ?is good keep] also40 8,oh no6 ,t (f5ce is n puni%able ) dea?4 ,!y w f9e me heavily1 b ,i am ri* & c pay4 ,! keep] w escape ) y & protect y40 ,aft] mu* p]suasion & argum5t on "o side & _m d\bts & que/ion+s on ! o!r1 ,m>y's scruples 7 at la/ ov]come1 & ! trans=mation 9 bo? p>ties effect$ s adroitly t detection seem$ impossible4 ,m>y sudd5ly turn$ h] e>ne/ eyes on ,beltrezzor's face4 8,uncle1 if y deceive me 9 ?is matt]1 x w kill me40 8,c\rage6 my sweet girl10 said ! old man1 smil+--8come :at may4 ,i %all re/ bett] to-night ?an ,i did la/ night2 & ! sun w %9e = me m beautifully to-morr[ ?an x has to-day40 8,come1 come10 said ,euphorbus1 8we mu/ be go+40 ,oh ! angui% ( t p>t+6 ,m>y put ! gre5 %ade ov] h] eyes & ! h&k]*ief to h] m\? & walk$ sl[ly b bravely out ) ! keep]4 ,! gu>d let !m pass4 ,"o fell[ look$ closely aft] !m1 & !n /epp$ to ! w9d[ & look$ 94 ,m>y ) h] gold5 tresses fall+ ov] h] %\ld]s 0 kneel+ 9 pray]6 ,:o c imag9e ! ?\ghts ( t brave old man1 z he knelt 9 ! woman's dress1 ) ! lion's gr[l 9 8 e>6 ,h[ eag]ly he li/5$6 ,h[ freely he brea!d :5 he he>d no int]ruption 9 ! c\rty>d2 no outcry2 no al>m4 ,!y are safe6 ,h[ he lift$ 8 he>t to heav56 ,did he sp5d t la/ h\r 9 pray]8 ,to :at ,god did he pray8 ,:at fai? did he (f] up z 8 claim to salvation8 ,:at matt]s x8 ,_h he n kept ! comm&m5ts ( ,god8 ,0 n 8 s\l free f irrev]5ce & pr(anity & !ft & murd] & adult]y & p]jury & un*>itabl5ess8 ,did he n love 8 neighbor m ?an himself8 ,?is disciple ( ,zoroa/]1 0 he n a *ild ( ,god8 ,! h\r pass$4 ,!re 0 a solemn hu% 9 ! gr& amphi!atre4 ,! dead gladiators 7 dragg$ f ! ar5a4 ,slid+ panels 7 )drawn & ! great ,nmean lion 0 se5 beh9d 8 iron b>s furi\sly la%+ 8 sides ) 8 tail4 ,! h]ald ( ,lelius cri$ ) a l\d voice3 8,br+ =? ! woman60 ,!re 0 a great ru/l+ & /ir 9 ! va/ audi5ce4 ,e "o held 8 brea?4 ,a sudd5 outcry 0 rais$ f ! prison3 8,%e has escap$60 ,x 0 e*o$ by a ?\s& ho>se :isp]s 9 ! cr[d--8,%e has escap$60 ,!re 0 a trem5d\s excitem5t4 ,all /ood ^u _! feet4 ,h[8 :]e8 :58 by :om8 e*o$ f all sides4 ,simon ,magus1 a picture ( flam+ wra?1 leap$ into ! ar5a & ran ?r\gh ! walk enclos$ by iron rail+s t l$ into ! prison4 ,he return$ 9 a mom5t dragg+ ! poor1 old1 bald-head$ & be>dless man by ! arms1 & hold+ up ! female mask 9 ! air1 he exclaim$3 8,! woman & ! keep] h fl$2 b "h is ! miscreant2 "h is ! crim9al6 ,cle> ! ar5a & give him to ! lion40 8,give him to ! lion60 e*o$ ?\s&s ( voices1 foll[$ by ?und]s ( applause4 ,a tall1 /]n-look+ man1 9 ! front r[ ( seats1 sprang to 8 feet & look+ ov] to ,lelius1 exclaim$3 8,ju/ice6 ju/ice6 ,?is man is no ,*ri/ian2 ?is man is no h]etic40 8,to ! lion--to ! lion60 int]rupt$ ! multitude ) fi]c] yells ?an be=e4 ,simon ,magus motion$ significantly to ! gov]nor4 8,to ! lion10 said ,lelius1 wav+ 8 h&4 8,i defy y10 said ! speak]1 9 a l\d & /]n voice--8,i defy y to ?r[ him to ! lion4 8,9 ! "n ( ! ,s5ate & p ( ,rome ,i w>n y t ?is man1 ,beltrezzor ( ,p]sia1 is a ,roman citiz540 ,sil5ce 0 p>tly re/or$2 all eyes gl>+ ^u ! speak] z he cont9u$4 8,n by bir? nor by pur*ase1 b by special decree ( ! ,s5ate = comm]cial s]vices r5d]$ ! ,roman empire by ?is man1 "o ( ! weal?ie/ & noble/ m5 ( ! ,ea/4 ,i am 8 ag5t & correspond5t = ,antio*4 ,i h se5 him be=e4 ,i "k him1 & ,i c prove :at ,i say40 8,release ! ,roman citiz510 said ,lelius 9 a pr\d & haughty tone1 ris+ f 8 seat4 ,:il/ he 0 speak+ ,beltrezzor sank g5tly to ! gr\nd4 ,he _h be5 releas$ by an au?ority high] ?an t ( ,rome4 8,he is dead60 exclaim$ a ?\s& voices at once4 8,he di$ ( fe>10 said ,simon ,magus4 8,he di$ ( joy10 said ! voice f ! b5*es2 8= t face is ! face ( an angel40 ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,,xxix4 ,,*ri/ian ,,c&les4 ,illu/ration3 ,initial ,( all ^! ?+s ,i 0 ignorant4 ,i 0 b\nd & 9 prison1 helpless1 unfri5d$1 unable to communicate ) my fri5ds4 ,i bitt]ly rep5t$ hav+ disobey$ my uncle's ord]s4 ,i curs$ ,demetrius & ,simon ,magus & ,hel5a & ,magi/us4 ,i curs$ myself4 ,m>y p]haps 0 dev\r$ by ! lion6 ,or if sav$1 %e & ,m>?a & ,beltrezzor 7 out on ! blue sea1 & ,i left to p]i% 9 my folly4 ,a day or two aft]w>d ,i obs]v$ t our prison w>d _h receiv$ a consid]able accession ( captives4 ,i 0 !n told by ! keep] t a female h]etic condemn$ to ! lion _h escap$1 & t ,lelius _h ord]$ ! arre/ ( all ! ,*ri/ians 9 ! city1 hop+ to f]ret out ! p>ties :o _h assi/$ h]4 ,h[ my he>t leap$ = joy6 ,my si/] 0 sav$6 ,my own captivity became a little m endurable4 ,i delight$ to ?9k ( my fri5ds sail+ away ov] ! :ite-cre/$ waves = ! happy l& ( ,gaul4 ,i seem$ to feel ! fre% sea w9d 9 my own hair & to he> ! cool wat] da%+ aga9/ ! sides ( _! vessel4 ,alas6 my own fate1 h[ diff]5t6 ,i expect$ e h\r to see ! ugly & cunn+ face ( ,magi/us pe]+ 9 at my door4 ,sev]al days & nights pass$1 & he did n come4 ,i knew he _h n =gott5 me4 ,i knew he 0 only prep>+ himself = "s extraord9>y villa9y & cruelty aga9/ me4 ,i 0 "r4 ,late "o ev5+ my door sudd5ly op5$1 & ,magi/us ent]$ ! dungeon1 foll[$ by ,e?opus4 ,! latt] bore an imm5se roll ( "s k9d ( clo? "u 8 arm4 ,magi/us /ood contemplat+ me = sev]al m9utes ) fold$ arms & ! old diabolical sne] on 8 face4 ,e?opus /epp$ beh9d him ) d[nca/ eyes4 8,n[10 he said1 sl[ly1 8= ! greate/1 sweete/ rev5ge :i* any man 9 ?is _w has ev] enjoy$4 8,y h be5 ! bane1 ! curse1 ! evil g5ius ( my life4 ,i h always hat$ y2 ,i "k n :y1 b t x s pleas$ me4 ,if y _h p]i%$ 9 ! des]t z ,i design$1 all w\ld h be5 well4 ,simon w\ld h procur$ ! body ( ,m>y1 & we %\ld h be5 gods 9 p[] & glory & pleasure4 ,if y _h n escap$ my dungeon 9 ,be?any1 ,i w\ld n be at ?is mom5t an exile & an outca/4 ,y h elud$ me twice4 ,y are cunn+4 ,y h elud$ ! grave itself2 b n[1 my amiable nephew1 y\r "t has really come4 8,i respect my family too mu*1 ,i respect y\r own di/+ui%$ m]its too mu*1 to doom y to any common ignoble dea?4 ,y\r fri5d ,hel5a & ,i h put our bra9s toge!r to devise some?+ = y\r especial honor4 ,we h a*iev$ x4 ,x is /rik+1 orig9al1 *>m+4 ,li/54 8,our plan c\ld n be c>ri$ out )\t absolute p[]4 ,i h x4 ,d y see ?is diamond r+ ) ?is great seal ^u x8 ,t is ! r+ ( ! ,roman gov]nor4 ,he :o pres5ts x to any (fic]1 soldi]1 jail]1 s]vant ( ! gov]nm5t1 is to pass unt\*$1 unque/ion$4 ,8 ^w is law4 ,:5 he speaks1 x is ob$i5ce or dea?4 ,?is absolute p[] is giv5 me = ?is :ole ev5+ by virtue ( ! r+4 8,hel5a obta9$ ?is favor f ,lelius4 ,:o b %e c\ld h done x8 ,:o c say h[ %e did x8 ,ah6 %e is deep2 %e is cunn+2 %e is irresi/ible4 8,n[ see :at we int5d to d4 ,?is clo? is a /iff heavy wooll51 ?or\ghly saturat$ ) bitum9\s sub/ances4 ,we int5d to b9d y\r arms d[n to y\r side & roll y\r body tightly up 9 ?is clo?1 m]ely leav+ out y\r head4 ,?is1 :5 ignit$1 w burn sl[ly b brightly1 & make a beautiful c&le ( y4 8,b y w fall ov]1 y say4 ,oh no3 a /rong iron rod run deep into ! gr\nd w pass ?r\gh ! out] lay] ( ! clo? & keep y /eady by p5etrat+ 9 a long1 %>p1 ne$le-l po9t "u y\r *9 & ?r\gh y\r m\?4 ,c\ld !re be any?+ m +5i\s ?an t8 8,y w be tak5 out 9 a c>t to ! great public squ>e opposite ! palace ( ,simon4 ,!re are twelve ( y4 ,*ri/ian c&les ,i h nam$ y4 ,y w be /ation$ imm$iately opposite our gr& portico4 ,hel5a & ,i1 arm 9 arm1 w witness y\r combu/ion f t po9t4 ,x is pleasant 9 a great cr[d to "k :]e "o's true love is /&+4 8,x is "t = ! fireworks to beg94 ,! squ>e is already cr[d$4 ,we h roll$ up ! o!rs snugly4 ,!y w call = y 9 a few m9utes4 ,all ! ord]s h be5 giv5 & !y w be obey$4 8,come10 he cont9u$1 turn+ to ,e?opus4 8,come1 my old jolly1 spott$ dog ( ,egypt6 get to "w4 ,simon says 8 la/ tra9+ made a p]fect ma*9e ( y4 ,be quick & b9d ?is old fri5d & ma/] ( y\rs40 ,my feel+s ( horror & ( t]ror dur+ ?is diabolical monologue1 c be bett] imag9$ ?an describ$4 ,i 0 dumbf\nd$4 ,i said no?+4 ,i reg>d$ a spe$y dea? z n[ inevitable4 ,i look$ anxi\sly at ,e?opus1 :o /oically unroll$ ! clo?4 ,he took out a /rong lea!r b& or girdle4 ,he advanc$ t[>d me4 ,he seem$ impassive z a /one4 ,i gave myself up 9 despair4 ,a mom5t ( awful susp5se--& all 0 *ang$4 ,quick z ?\ght ,e?opus turn$ & da%$ ,magi/us aga9/ ! wall1 ?r[+ ! b& ov] 8 head at ! same "t4 ,he pull$ x d[n ov] 8 *e/ & buckl$ x tightly1 secur+ 8 arms at 8 side4 ,he drew ! signet-r+ ( ,lelius f 8 f+] & ?rew x to me4 ,curses & /ruggles 7 9 va92 = ,e?opus seem$ /rong z a lion & animat$ ) a t]rible fury4 ,9 ano!r mom5t ,e?opus hurl$ him ^u 8 back1 & seat+ himself ^u 8 body1 took a knife f 8 pocket & cut (f half 8 tongue4 ,he !n delib]ately pass$ a /\t p9 ?r\gh ! /ump & ti$ a /rong ?read beh9d ! p94 ,he ?us /opp$ ! blood :i* 0 p\r+ out ( ! wret*'s m\? & gurgl+ 9 8 ?roat4 ,he 0 n[ dumb l ,e?opus4 ,he c\ld n betray him4 ,he c\ld n escape him4 ,?is 0 "o ( ! mo/ horrible sc5es ,i ev] witness$4 ,x _h evid5tly be5 delib]ately plann$4 ,i 0 *a9$ aga9/ ! wall & c\ld n /ir4 ,i call$ out to ,e?opus to /op1 n to cut out 8 tongue1 n to roll him up 9 ! clo?1 b to leave him b\nd & gagg$ until we escap$4 ,he paid no m att5tion to my entreaties1 to my excitem5t1 ?an if ,i 0 n pres5t4 ,he seem$ deaf1 dumb1 bl9d1 ins5sible to ev]y?+ except to ! "o ma/] resolution ( 8 s\l4 ,he w\nd ! body c>efully up 9 ! bitum9\s clo? & secur$ x ) lea!r ?ongs4 ,x 0 a %ock+ sight4 ,he !n remov$ my bolts & *a9s & set me free4 ,he l$ me /]nly & =cibly to ! door1 & we pass$ out1 leav+ ,magi/us to 8 t]rible fate4 ,he _h fall5 into ! v pit t he _h dug = me4 ,!re 0 no "o 9 ! hall z we came out4 ,e?opus took ! opposite way f t by :i* he & ,magi/us came4 ,we soon met (fic]s & gu>ds4 ,i %[$ ! signet-r+2 no que/ions 7 ask$2 & we %ortly f\nd ourselves 9 ! /reet & free4 ,:at a release6 ,i did n "k :i* way to g4 ,e?opus drew me t[>d ! public squ>e4 ,x 0 cr[d$ ) p4 ,sw++ lamps ( all colors 7 susp5d$ f ! trees4 ,!re 7 b&s ( music & fireworks1 & danc+-girls & fl[]-girls1 & m5 ) tra9$ monkeys1 & all ! /range sights & s\nds :i* make a great city 9 high c>nival s brilliant & attractive4 ,h]alds _h ann\nc$ 9 ! aft]noon t twelve favorite disciples ( ! ,jewi% impo/or w\ld be burn$1 9 ! %ape ( c&les1 t night4 ,! int]e/ 0 int5se4 ,we came v ne> to ,simon's palace4 ,x 0 brilliantly illum9at$4 ,i recogniz$ ! figures ( ,hel5a & ,lelius & ,simon & ,demetrius prom5ad+ ) o!rs on ! gr& portico4 ,! c>ts or wagons came along ) ! unhappy victims4 ,!re 0 a great bu/le 9 ! cr[d4 ,! figures 7 set up on a gre5 knoll :i* elevat$ !m above ! heads ( ! p4 ,"o ( ! ,*ri/ians sang1 ) a cle>1 sweet voice3 8,glory to ,god 9 ! highe/6 ,peace on e>? & good-w t[>d m560 ,! mob hoot$ & yell$ & applaud$1 ea* 9 an upro>i\s mann]4 8,ready10 cri$ an (fic]4 ,! tor*es 7 appli$2 & twelve bright pill>s ( flame rose 9 ! air4 ,!re 0 wild *e]+ f ! cr[d2 b ,i he>d a wild] cry f ! spectators on ! portico ( ,simon4 ,! cry 03 8,magi/us6 ,magi/us60 ,8 own fri5ds recogniz$ 8 face & witness$ 8 dea?-/ruggles6 ,su* 0 ! orig9 ( ! ,*ri/ian c&les1 a mode ( fatal torture aft]w>d adopt$ on a gr& scale by ! emp]or ,n]o 9 8 p]secution ( ! disciples at ,rome4 ,poor *ildr5 ( ,*ri/6 ,!y fac$ dea? 9 e %ape4 ,!y 7 crucifi$2 !y 7 flay$ alive2 !y 7 ?r[n to wild bea/s2 !y 7 ca/ into pits full ( s]p5ts2 !y 7 /on$2 !y 7 />v$2 !y 7 froz52 !y 7 burn$2 b !re 0 no =m ( dea? :i* excell$ 9 atrocity ?is inv5tion ( ,magi/us & ,hel5a4 ,hel5a6 ,beautiful1 en*ant+1 dete/able woman6 ,f ?is po9t our curr5ts ( life div]g$ nev] aga9 to meet4 ,:5 ,i look back1 ,i c sc>cely compreh5d ! causes ( ! wond]ful control %e ex]cis$ ov] my _s4 ,i 0 "y1 en?usia/ic1 & impressible2 & ! s5ses1 educat$ fir/1 prolong$ _! sway ov] ! rational faculties4 ,i h be5 s long deliv]$ f ! bondage ( ! s5su\s life1 t ,i am a/oni%$ t ,i ev] f\nd any beauty unalli$ to goodness1 or any fasc9ation 9 aught b a pure & virtu\s love4 ,wom5 :o are giv5 to luxury & pleasure2 :o aspire to captivate m5 by ! *>ms ( ! s5ses2 :o live ^u ! flatt]+ inc5se ( lov]s & admir]s2 :o are cunn+1 pr\d1 va91 ambiti\s & contemptu\s t[>d o!rs1 are ,hel5as at he>t4 ,circum/ances beyond _! control may curb _! wills & prev5t ! outw>d developm5t ( _! *>act]s4 ,b ! reveal+ light ( ! spiritual _w w %[ !m to be selfi%1 s5sual & cruel to a dreadful degree2 & !y become ! syr5s ( hell4 ,^! *>act]s are s fe>fully wick$1 t "s may ?9k !m gross exagg]ations4 ,exceptional !y may be1 ev5 9 ^! evil times2 b !y are ! g5u9e (fspr+ ( our natural lu/s unsubdu$ & uncontroll$ by ! sacr$ laws & life ( heav54 ,!y are ! common1 e-day *>act]s ( ! sph]es ( ! unhappy 9 ! spiritual _w1 & !y exi/ 9 pot5cy1 if n 9 act1 9 e human be+ ^: he>t is ali5at$ f ,god1 or ^: rul+ love is ! love ( self4 ,i _h no "t to philosophize 9 ?is mann]1 :5 ,i knew t ! fri5ds ( ,magi/us _h recogniz$ 8 face be=e x 0 conceal$ by ! fatal flames4 ,a ke5 & rapid pursuit w\ld imm$iately foll[ 9 e direction4 ,to get out ( ! city 0 our fir/ ?\ght1 our only safety4 ,if we took ! roads to ! int]ior ( ! c\ntry1 we c\ld c]ta9ly be ov]tak54 ,if we /ruck out ea/w>dly = ! sea-bea*1 we might pick up "s fi%]man's boat & escape to sea4 ,we took ! latt] c\rse4 ,we walk$ rapidly1 & 7 _m miles up ! coa/ be=e midnight4 ,i 0 fre% & "u high excitem5t1 & ,e?opus seem$ capable ( all endurance4 ,i occupi$ ! "t 9 tell+ him ! :ole hi/ory ( 8 bro!r ,an?ony1 & 9 ?ank+ him ov] & ov] aga9 = my extraord9>y deliv]ance4 ,! poor1 dumb man c\ld only manife/ 8 delight by %ak+ my h& & patt+ me on ! %\ld]1 :i* he repeat$ly did4 ,sev]al h\rs m & ,i 0 ?or\ghly fatigu$4 ,j be=e dawn we lay d[n "u a great tree on ! banks ( a little /ream :i* 0 p]petually tripp+ f ! m\nta9s t[>d ! sea1 be>+ its cry/al tok5s f ! _s ( lib]ty 9 ! "o to ! k9dr$ s\l 9 ! o!r4 ,:5 ,i awoke1 ! sun 0 high 9 ! heav5s4 ,e?opus 0 ba?+ 8 feet 9 ! little riv]4 ,he c\ld n be> to di/urb me1 z ,i appe>$ s exhau/$ & s s\nd asleep4 ,he po9t$ smil+ly to a little boat1 :i* we _h n discov]$ 9 ! d>kness ( ! night4 ,!re 0 "o ark ( hope & safety4 ,i felt reassur$4 ,we _h no?+ to eat b "s apples1 :i* we _h pluck$ by ! way4 ,we made ?is frugal meal1 & if we _h put to sea imm$iately1 ! :ole /ory ( my life1 f ?is po9t1 might h be5 diff]5t4 ,! morn+ 0 bright & balmy4 ,a little silv] mi/ rose s(tly f ! woods1 ! leaves ( :i* 7 tw9kl+ ) dew4 ,! sea's surf1 :i* at times is s :ite & boi/]\s1 rippl$ g5tly aga9/ ! yell[ bea*4 ,! s++ ( birds 0 he>d "h & !re 9 ! bran*es1 & n[ & !n a great %9+ fi% flapp$ up out ( ! wat]4 ,! air 0 sweet & s]5e1 ! sky s(t & pure4 8,?is heav5ly peace & repose ( nature10 said ,i to myself1 8is nei!r sil5ce nor solitude60 ,"o ( ! mo/ beautiful ?+s 9 ! _w to me is a little /ream ( cle> wat]1 af> (f 9 ! c\ntry among ! gre5 hills1 break+ into s\nds & colors ov] ! /ones & pebbles 9 its pa?4 ,i c\ld sit by ! h\r on ! banks ( su* a lovely rivulet1 look+ into its face & li/5+ to its music4 ,x is !re1 if ev]1 t ! brea?+s ( ! _s _w ^u ! he>t endeavor to break =? f ! lips 9 poesy & song4 ,t\*$ t morn+ ) ?is delightful & *ild-l love ( nature1 ,i c\ld n re/ satisfi$ until ,i _h ba!d my we>y limbs & body 9 ! cool+ /ream4 ,i dalli$ a long "t among ! ripples & 9 ! %ad[ ( ! ov]hang+ trees1 =getful ( ! pa9ful pa/ & ! unc]ta9 future4 ,a %>p cry f ,e?opus1 :o 0 gett+ ! boat ready1 sudd5ly ar\s$ me f my dream4 ,he po9t$ d[n ! bea*4 ,be=e ,i _h put on my robe1 ,i he>d ! tramp ( horses1 & 9 a few mom5ts we 7 surr\nd$ by a troop ( cavalry & tak5 prison]s4 ,b\nd tightly & m\nt$ beh9d two ( ! soldi]s1 we 7 hurri$ back to ,antio* & ca/ into sep>ate dungeons4 ,i lay !re = sev]al weeks neglect$ & alone4 ,i _h at lea/ no fe> ( a visit f ,magi/us4 ,a visitor1 h[ev]1 at la/ appe>$4 ,x 0 ,demetrius4 8,laz>us10 said he1 8,i reproa* myself = ! "p ,i took 9 decoy+ y into ! h\se ( ,simon & betray+ y into ! h&s ( ,magi/us4 ,x 0 n well done t[>d a fell[-/ud5t ( ! ,platonic philosophy4 ,i h labor$ to make y am5ds4 ,i h sav$ y\r life1 b x 0 a h>d /ruggle4 ,e?opus 0 ?r[n to ! lion4 ,hel5a p\t$ & fum$ because y did n %>e 8 fate4 ,lelius 0 = a long "t inflexible4 ,i h ga9$ some?+ = y1 al?\gh n mu*4 ,y are condemn$ = life to ! *a9-gang ( crim9als :o are compell$ to labor on ! public works4 ,x is a sad fate1 b y are "y4 ,"t1 ! revolutioni/1 sometimes releases ! b\nd40 8,life is sweet10 said ,i1 8& ,i ?ank y4 ,i =give y\r wrong to me4 ,i =give ,hel5a & ,simon4 ,i w pray = !m & y4 ,&1 oh1 ,demetrius1 let a man1 h5ce=? dead to ! _w y live 91 besee* y to extricate y\rself f ?is t]rible network ( evil t surr\nds y4 ,aspire to be free1 j1 true & good1 & y w be happy40 8,:]e did y get ?is religi\s philosophy80 8,f a great] ?an ,plato--f ,*ri/40 ,he turn$ away4 ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,,xxx4 ,,! ,,great ,,combat4 ,illu/ration3 ,initial ,behold me !n at ! age ( tw5ty-five1 innoc5t ( crime1 s5t5c$ to ! life & labors ( a convict6 ,my associates 7 ! l[e/ ruffians imag9able4 ,my f>e 0 co>se & sometimes revolt+4 ,i 0 lock$ up alone at night 9 a d>k cell4 ,i slept on a pallet ( /raw4 ,f sunrise to sunset ,i 0 compell$ to labor on ! public works1 *a9$ by ! leg to ano!r creature z mis]able z myself4 ,"y z ,i 01 ,i _h already met ) /range adv5tures & made hairbread? escapes4 ,i 0 long buoyant & hopeful1 & 0 con/antly expect+ "s lucky turn ( ! :eel ( =tune4 ,!re 01 inde$1 v little rational gr\nd ( hope4 ,my uncle ,beltrezzor 0 dead4 ,my si/]s _h escap$ to ! o!r end ( ! _w1 & 7 n likely to return4 ,n "o ( ! few ,*ri/ians ( ! city knew any?+ ab\t my be+ !re1 = ,i _h se5 no "o b ,beltrezzor4 ,demetrius alone knew my :]eab\ts1 & by comm& ( ,simon he _h ent]$ a false "n = me on ! books ( ! prison4 ,s ,i 0 lo/ & buri$ f ! social _w 9 :i* ,i _h mov$4 ,i did n believe t my imprisonm5t w\ld be ( long duration4 ,"y1 educat$1 weal?y1 ,i ?\ght ,i 0 ne$$ by ! infant ,*ur*4 ,! subject ( ! greate/ miracle ( ,*ri/1 my v pres5ce 0 an argum5t 9 favor ( ,*ri/ianity4 ,!n my exp]i5ces 9 ! spiritual _w _h giv5 me k sup]ior to t ( all ! disciples2 k necess>y to ! organization ( ! fai? ^u truly rational pr9ciples4 ,to suspect ev5 t "o s valuable to ! holy cause c\ld be imprison$ = life1 )\t a future1 )\t a mission1 0 to d\bt ! wisdom ( ,provid5ce & ! v]ity ( my dea? & resurrection4 ,x 0 ?us t ! secret pride ( my selfhood buoy$ me up 9 ! dire/ adv]sity1 & t my own self-righte\sness became ! f\nta9 ( hope6 ,not)/&+ all ?is1 ,i rema9$ a captive at h>d labor = =ty ye>s ( my manhood6 ,z long z ! *ildr5 ( ,israel 7 9 ! wild]ness1 s long 0 ,i 9 ! convict prison ( ,antio*6 ,t]rible ?\ght6 ,:5 ,i em]g$ f my prison-grave into ! _w & ! ,*ur* aga91 ,i 0 old & feeble & bronz$ & brok51 =gott5 by all m51 a ciph] 9 ! sph]e ( ?\ght & life 9 :i* ,i _h expect$ to occupy s comm&+ a position4 ,! wick$ & dete/able emp]ors1 ^? mon/]s ( nature1 ,tib]ius1 ,caligula1 ,claudius & ,n]o1 _h successively gov]n$ & curs$ ! ,roman /ate4 ,! ,*ri/ian religion _h spread into all c\ntries2 into ,syria & ,p>?ia & ,arabia1 into ,egypt & ,abyss9ia1 into ,spa9 & ,gaul & ,brita91 by ! zeal\s labors & fi]y devotion ( ,paul & ,pet] & ,b>nabas & ,philip & ,james & hundr$s ( less] lights ( ! new fai?4 ,all ?is & ?\s&s ( o!r /range ev5ts _h occurr$ )\t my k1 )\t my p>ticipation4 ,! great _w mov$ on )\t me4 ,i knew z little ( x 9 my prison z a *ild kn[s ( ! sea1 :o ba!s 8 little feet 9 ! surf t breaks ^u ! bea* at 8 fa!r's door4 ,?is great lapse ( "t1 an entire manhood1 s devoid ( incid5t1 s un9t]e/+ to ! g5]al read]1 0 my real life4 ,all t _h happ5$ previ\sly 0 my *ildhood4 ,x 0 9 ?is fe>ful s*ool ( captivity & sorr[ & labor & solitude & d>kness1 t ,i became a man & a ,*ri/ian4 ,look+ backw>d1 ,i am fill$ ) gratitude = ! wisdom & goodness ( ,god1 :i* infus$ su* heal? & bless+ into ! cup ( bitt]ness :i* ,i 0 compell$ to dr9k4 ,i pass$ ?r\gh ?ree great spiritual eras dur+ my captivity4 ,life does n consi/ 9 ext]nal ev5ts1 b 9 ! revelation ( spiritual /ates4 ,?is alone is ! true biography4 ,! fir/ era 0 "o ( int5se resi/ance to my fate4 ,my disagreeable surr\nd+s annoy$ & irritat$ me4 ,! unaccu/om$ labor 9 ! burn+ sun 0 almo/ too great = my /r5g?4 ,i loa!d my companions & my keep]s4 ,i loa!d my tasks4 ,/ill great] suff]+ 0 occasion$ by my losses2 ! loss ( fri5ds & relatives2 ( books & /udy2 ( ! delightful society ( woman2 ( all ! ?\s& little ?+s :i* con/itute ! com=t & *>m ( civiliz$ life4 ,hope l+]$ long1 & di$ a sl[ b pa9ful dea? 9 my he>t4 ,i made _m ef=ts to escape--all ( :i* fail$1 & br\ght ^u me t]rible puni%m5ts4 ,i 0 />v$ & sc\rg$ repeat$ly1 & f9ally br&$ = an attack made ^u "o ( my keep]s1 9 :i* ,i ne>ly succe$$ 9 kill+ him4 ,^! ?+s call$ out & develop$ all ! evil qualities ( my nature4 ,let ! smoo!/-fac$1 sweete/-tongu$ & gaye/-he>t$ man 9 ! _w und]go :at ,i h und]gone1 & he w discov] h[ _m unrecogniz$ devils h be5 dormant 9 ! s]5e & undi/urb$ dep?s ( 8 be+4 ,w\nd$ & ble$+ 9 my self-love & self-respect1 my suff]+s1 physical & m5tal1 seem$ to h a de/ructive effect ^u my spiritual nature4 ,de/ruction ( ! old prec$es a new ord] ( ?+s4 ,along ) hope1 fai? also sick5$ & di$4 ,= a long "t ,i consol$ myself by recall+ my wond]ful exp]i5ces 9 ! spiritual _w4 ,i pray$1 & recit$ to myself ! sweet promises ( ,scripture to ^? 9 affliction4 ,b z mon?s & ye>s roll$ away1 despair ov]p[]$ me4 ,i began to d\bt ! tru? ( religion1 ! reliability ( my own memory1 & ev5 ! v exi/5ce ( ,god4 ,s little dep? ( e>? _h ! good se$ f\nd 9 my he>t6 ,i1 :o ?\ght ,i lov$ & believ$ 9 ,*ri/2 :o _h se5 him 9 bo? worlds2 :o conceiv$ myself ready & able to prea* 8 true doctr9e to mank9d2 ?us tri$ 9 ! fi]y furnace ( temptation1 f\nd myself all dross1 ?or\ghly skeptical & wick$1 worse ?an ! ignorant convicts & keep]s ar\nd me4 ,:at mortal c compreh5d ! mean+ ( ^? my/]i\s words ( ! ,div9e ,man on ! cross3 8,my ,god6 my ,god6 :y ha/ ?\ =sak5 me80 ,i felt also t ,god _h =sak5 me4 ,:5 ! little religi\s light ,i _h1 fad$ away 9 my s\l1 ,i 0 tak5 possession ( by demons1 male & female4 ,i v]ily believe t ,i 01 = a :ile1 :at ! _w calls insane4 ,i became pr\d1 & sup]cili\s1 & sc(f+4 ,i 0 ambiti\s z ,simon1 cruel z ,magi/us1 s5sual & ab&on$ z ,hel5a4 ,escap$ f ^? wret*es 9 ! body1 my _s became ! sport & prey ( inf]nal spirits simil> to !m4 ,i envi$ ! p[]1 ! glory1 ! magic ( ,simon4 ,at night ,i dream$ only ( bac*analian orgies 9 a ,grecian heav51 & awoke p>*$ & fev]i% & excit$ & madd5$1 z if "s syr5-l ,hel5a _h kiss$ me 9 my sleep4 ,?is wret*$ /ate la/$ ab\t t5 ye>s4 ,x culm9at$ 9 a great illness2 = relief or dea? _h become ! alt]native4 ,! illness ( a convict 9 prison6 ,ca/ ^u my pallet ( /raw1 )\t fri5ds1 )\t nurses1 )\t prop] diet or m$ic9e1 frequ5tly )\t wat]2 :at days & nights ( suff]+ & angui% did ,i exp]i5ce6 ,x 0 a long1 long sickness4 ,! /age ( excitem5t 0 accompani$ ) wild delirium1 & my imag9ation 0 haunt$ by fi]y figures ( inf]nal spirits4 ,!n exhau/ion came1 & =getfulness4 ,nature sl[ly ralli$2 aft] t1 ?\ght return$1 /r5g? & feel+ came back4 ,my si/]s & ,beltrezzor & ,jesus loom$ up away (f1 z pleasant pictures or beautiful dreams4 ,_m sweet little sc5es ( my happy *ildhood revisit$ me 9 *>m+ memories4 ,i lay = h\rs 9 peaceful trances4 ,i _h consol+ visions4 ,! poor convict's cell 0 illum9$ ) a glory n its own4 ,"o night ,i saw ! h\se t 0 build+ = me 9 ! heav5s4 ,x 0 ris+ 9 /ately gr&eur4 ,oh x 0 beautiful6 b /ill unf9i%$4 ,m>y ,magdal5 0 toil+ away ) e>ne/ br[ & face m angelic ?an ev]4 ,_m %9+ spirits 7 ab\t h]4 ,i 0 ly+ "s di/ance (f1 asleep 9 ! %ad[ ( a great rock4 ,%e said to h] companions ) a sweet smile3 8,he w awake pres5tly & help me build40 ,"o day ,i he>d ! voice ( my fa!r say+ to ,john ! ,bapti/1 8,! crisis is ov]2 he w be sav$2 we mu/ tea* him ! p[] ( ! ,"l's ,pray]40 ,i "k n :e!r ?is 0 a dream or a g5u9e vision4 ,b ,i repeat$ ! ,"l's ,pray] feebly & ) fold$ h&s4 ,! effect 0 wond]ful4 ,a great light %one ar\nd me4 ,! air 0 full ( little *]ub =ms4 ,heav5ly music 0 he>d 9 ! di/ance4 ,! deepe/ *ords ( my be+ 7 t\*$4 ,! flood-gates ( contrition 7 reop5$4 ,fai? return$4 ,i wept4 ,i 0 happy--oh1 s happy6 ,?is also may h be5 a dream1 b x 0 a pot5t m$ic9e2 = aft] t1 my recov]y 0 amaz+ly rapid4 ,i !n ent]$ into a second & v diff]5t phase ( my spiritual life4 ,! devil1 aft] ca/+ me repeat$ly into ! wat] & ! fire1 & r5d+ me sorely1 _h dep>t$4 ,b ,i knew full well t he only dep>ts = a season--t 8 return is z sure z ! ris+ ( ! tides4 ,i knew t ! only way to keep him out1 0 to refurni% my h\se on ! heav5ly model4 ,n[ my k ( spiritual ?+s came to be ( imm5se advantage4 ,n an ab/ract1 !oretical k ( !m1 b a k d]iv$ f sight & he>+4 ,i _h se51 felt & /udi$ ! angelic sph]e ( life4 ,i knew :at x 04 ,i _h discov]$ ?ree great elem5ts 9 t sph]e1 & det]m9$ to put !m all into action 9 my own life1 s z to br+ my _s into int]ior communion ) angels & ! ,"l4 ,! fir/ elem5t 0 pr(\nd humility & rev]5ce4 ,god only ent]s ! s\l :i* is ?or\ghly empti$ ( self4 ,a pr\d ,*ri/ian is a devil 9 disguise4 ,! angels are s ?or\ghly dive/$ ( ! selfhood1 t !y live & labor only = o!rs' good2 & t is liv+ & labor+ = ,god4 ,pray] is ! means by :i* humility & rev]5ce are cultivat$4 ,x does n *ange ! ,un*angeable2 x only br+s ! s\l into t /ate 9 :i* x is receptive ( ! div9e love & wisdom4 ,i det]m9$1 !re=e1 to pray--= ,i _h long neglect$ pray]--& to pray regul>ly1 sy/ematically1 e>ne/ly1 & especially 9 ! =m or aft] ! mann] t ! ,"l himself _h appo9t$4 ,! second elem5t ( angelic life 0 *e]fulness4 ,! *e]fulness ( angels fl[s f ! peace & joy 9 :i* !y live4 ,!y _c be pres5t 9 a sph]e ( gloom & d>kness4 ,! sil5t1 te>ful1 m\rn+1 au/]e1 ascetic ,*ri/ian1 cuts himself (f f angelic consolations1 & r5d]s 8 reg5]ation d\bly pa9ful & difficult4 ,te>s & fa/+s & sc\rg+s & solitude & fanta/ic self-d5ials d n lead to heav54 ,!y block up ! way ?i!r ) ne$less difficulties4 ,i det]m9$1 !re=e1 to be *e]ful2 to accept my lot ) graceful resignation2 to h a g5ial ^w & pleasant smile = e "o2 to avoid rev]ies & brood+s :i* kept ! pa/ cont9ually 9 pa9ful contra/ ) ! pres5t2 to make a f9al surr5d] ( all my gr& ambitions & glori\s expectations2 & to take a he>tfelt pleasure 9 ! trifles ( life1 su* z may be f\nd ev5 )9 ! walls ( a prison4 ,! ?ird elem5t ( ! angelic life 0 useful activity4 ,an idle angel is an impossibility4 ,!y are all busy z bees2 & l ^? little prea*]s to mank9d1 ea* labors int5tly1 n = 8 own special b5efit1 b = ! good ( all ! re/4 ,_! *e]fulness & usefulness run 9 equal & p>allel /reams1 & !y are bo? proportion$ to _! rev]5ce & humility4 ,i det]m9$ !re=e to "w will+ly2 to accept my h>d tasks z ^? appo9t$ ( ,god2 to be no long] an eye-s]vant b an e>ne/1 fai?ful1 intellig5t co-op]ator 9 build+1 repair+ & improv+ ! magnific5t temples1 ba?s1 aqu$ucts1 walls1 quays & =tifications ( ,antio*2 to treat my fell[-labor]s z bre?r51 n by desc5d+ to _! gross level1 b by /riv+ to lift !m z well z myself up to ! height ( a noble & unselfi% manhood4 ,all ?is 0 facile & beautiful 9 !ory1 difficult & pa9ful 9 practice4 ,! /ruggle 0 int5se2 & _m1 _m d>k & mis]able days alt]nat$ ) my bright ones4 ,x 0 ! great w>f>e ( my life1 less impos+ ?an my /ruggles ) ,magi/us & ,hel5a1 b f> m productive ( results4 ,x 0 a process by :i* good 0 sub/itut$ = evil2 b z fa/ only z ! evil 0 ?or\ghly rep5t$ ( & put away4 ,x 0 a process ( gr[? by :i* ! g]m ( ! heav5ly life1 p5etrat+ ?r\gh ! dead %ell ( ! old nature1 pass$ upw>d into a s]5] light & l>g] lib]ty4 ,x 0 a dea? & a resurrection4 ,h[ small an affair 0 my fir/ resurrection 9 comp>ison ) ?is6 ,tw5ty ye>s or m 7 sp5t 9 ! great combat betwe5 my old natural man & ! new spiritual man :i* 0 be+ conceiv$1 born1 n\ri%$1 in/ruct$ & vitaliz$ )9 me4 ,i am /ill engag$ 9 ! same conflict4 ,b aft] tw5ty ye>s1 ,i felt t ! good _h atta9$ a p]man5t asc5d5cy--t duty _h become pleasure--t self 0 s f> subdu$ t ,i expect$ no?+1 desir$ no?+ = myself alone1 & exp]i5c$ a s]5e delight 9 promot+ ! happ9ess ( o!rs4 ,! read] ne$ n ?9k t a convict's prison af=d$ no opportunities = ! great "w ( reg5]ation1 & = ! developm5t ( ,*ri/ian "*4 ,! ra9b[ t %9es 9 ! cl\d1 & glitt]s 9 ! dew-drop1 is ! same4 ,! div9e influx is id5tical 9 ! greate/ ?+s & 9 ! lea/4 ,! pati5ce1 ! meekness1 ! k9dness to o!rs1 ! ob$i5ce to law1 ! tru?fulness1 ! indu/ry1 ! hone/y :i* c be exhibit$ 9 ! l[lie/ sph]e ( human life1 h no sweet] odor1 no great] wor? 9 ! sight ( heav5 :5 !y are display$ on ! ?rone ( ! ,cs>s4 ,i work$ fai?fully at all my tasks until my ov]se]s respect$ me s mu* t !y did n wat* me at all4 ,i 0 always ready to assi/ e "o ) ^w & de$1 until my p[] ov] my fell[-prison]s 0 su* t my voice ( int]cession c\ld susp5d a qu>rel or ev5 suppress a riot4 ,i delight$ to in/ruct ^! poor degrad$ fell[s 9 ! tru?s ( religion2 & :5 !y turn$ a deaf e> to ^!1 ,i c\ld /ill please !m ) scraps ( poetry or hi/ory or sci5ce4 ,x 0 a special pleasure to nurse ! sick2 & 9 ! c\rse ( tw5ty or ?irty ye>s1 hundr$s & ev5 ?\s&s felt ! b5efit & ! bless+ ( my pres5ce4 ,?is /eady gr[? ( a good & useful "* 9 spite ( ! sne]s & rebuffs ( ! ill-dispos$1 & 9 ! face ( mighty difficulties1 br\ght sub/antial com=ts to myself also4 ,i 0 releas$ f /rict conf9em5t2 ,i 0 made ov]se] ( a consid]able p>ty2 ,i 0 all[$ lib]ties ,i _h n kn[n be=e2 & ,i 0 f$ ) abundance f ! (fic]s' table4 ,?us1 ) advanc+ ye>s1 ,i became cont5t$ & happy1 & my means ( be+ useful to o!rs 7 greatly increas$4 ,i 0 p]mitt$ to plant fl[]s & v9es 9 ! int]ior c\rty>d ( our prison4 ,aft] long & pati5t labor ,i adorn$ & beautifi$ ! spot s greatly t x attract$ ! att5tion ( e visitor4 ,! mission ( fl[]s is l t ( poetry1 to en*ant1 to elevate1 & to purify4 ,!re=e ! ,spr+ comes annually to %[] h] myriads ( fragrant little lyrics ^u ! _w6 ,x seem$ a %ame to con/ra9 ^! sweet & free *ildr5 ( ! air & sunlight to illum9e ! int]ior ( a dungeon & to live ) crim9als2 b ,i rememb]$ t ! angels :om !y repres5t1 delight to visit ! humble/ spot & to assi/ ! mo/ =lorn & helpless creatures ( ,god4 ,i _h be5 9 prison ab\t fifte5 ye>s )\t see+ a book1 :5 a s+ul> old ,greek "* 0 conf9$ ) u = "s nameless crime4 ,he 0 taciturn & /ately1 & evid5tly a man ( education4 ,he _h a copy ( ! ,trag$ies ( ,es*ylus :i* ! gu>d _h n tak5 f him1 al?\gh p>*m5ts s well execut$ z t1 7 ( consid]able value4 ,he seem$ to "k ,es*ylus by he>t1 & he loan$ ! book to me4 ,) :at delight ,i dev\r$ x6 ,x 0 to me a :ole fl[]-g>d5 ( sweets & beauties4 ,! sad fate ( ,ore/es1 haunt$ by ! ,furies1 /ruck ! t5d]e/ *ords 9 my he>t2 & ,i contemplat$ ) ! joy ( k9%ip & sympa?y ! gr&eur ( ,prome!us *a9$ to ! rock1 = hold+ 9 8 possession secret k :i* no tortures c\ld compel him to reveal4 ,i1 too1 0 to le>n ! sanctity ( sil5ce6 ,"o day ! old ,greek1 :5 work+ on a pi]1 sudd5ly plung$ tw5ty feet into ! rapid ,orontes4 ,he /ruck out boldly d[n ! riv] = ! sea1 & ! boat s5t aft] him did n ov]take ! desp]ate swimm]4 ,he left ,es*ylus beh9d him4 ,i _h be5 9 prison ab\t tw5ty-five ye>s1 :5 ,i came into possession ( ano!r & f> great] book4 ,a "y ,jew 0 condemn$ to h>d labor = /rik+ a ,roman (fic] :o _h insult$ 8 si/]4 ,he fell sick almo/ imm$iately1 & 0 c>ri$ (f by grief & a rapid consumption4 ,i nurs$ him closely1 & he seem$ mu* atta*$ to me until he discov]$ t ,i 0 a ,*ri/ian4 ,he became at once /]n & cold & uncommunicative1 & end$ by reque/+ ! keep] to provide him ) ano!r nurse or none at all4 ,he di$ n long aft]1 & ,i 0 surpris$ at receiv+ a message f 8 dea?b$4 ,he ?ank$ me = my k9dness to him1 & begg$ me to accept f him a beautiful little copy ( ! ,psalms ( ,david4 ,:at a treasure ,i f\nd x6 ,x 0 a mirror ( my own /ruggles2 ( my hopes & fe>s2 ( my deep humiliations & my ec/atic triumphs4 ,x let me into ! pres5ce ( angels4 ,x 0 l ! voice ( ,god call+ to little ,samuel 9 ! dead ( night4 ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,,xxxi4 ,,free4 ,illu/ration3 ,initial ,"o day ,i 0 summon$ f my labors into a k9d ( reception-room to meet a visitor4 ,a visitor6 ,i _h be5 imprison$ ?irty ye>s & no "o _h ev] call$ to see me4 ,i _h =gott5 ! out] _w & suppos$ x _h =gott5 me4 ,x 0 ) surprise & "s trepidation t ,i advanc$ to pres5t myself to ! /rang]4 ,he 0 ( small size1 ugly1 /oop-%\ld]$ & bald4 ,8 face 0 sall[1 8 nose aquil9e1 8 br[s heavy & jo9$ betwe5 8 eyes4 ,8 air 0 emb>rass$ & timid & 8 spee* sl[4 ,) ?is unprepossess+ appe>ance1 8 mann] 0 cordial & engag+1 8 tones agreeable1 & :5 w>m$ up 9 conv]sation1 8 features 7 radiant ) ?\ght & g5ius4 ,?is rem>kable man 0 ,paul1 ! apo/le to ! ,g5tiles4 ,aft] satisfy+ himself t ,i _h be5 ?irty ye>s 9 prison & t ,i 0 really ,laz>us :om ,*ri/ rais$ f ! dead1 he became v animat$ & communicative4 8,y w be int]e/$10 said he1 8to "k h[ ,i f\nd y out4 ,i 0 call$1 a few days be=e ,i left ,rome on ?is t\r to ! ,ea/]n *ur*es1 to see a dy+ man4 ,he 0 "o ( ! mo/ mis]able wrecks ,i h ev] witness$1 be>+ ! m>k ( ! bea/ & ! seal ( s94 ,he 0 a ,greek & 8 "n 0 ,demetrius4 ,he wi%$ to be baptiz$ into ! ,*ri/ian fai?1 & to confess 8 s9s be=e he di$4 ,he told me t y _h be5 s5t5c$ = life "u a false "n to h>d labor on ! public works ( ,antio*4 ,he begg$1 z a favor to a dy+ s9n]1 t ,i w\ld visit y if possible1 & beg y\r p>don = ! crimes he _h committ$ aga9/ y40 ,x seem$ t all my fri5ds suppos$ ,i _h be5 burn$ z "o ( ! ,*ri/ian c&les1 on ! ev5tful night ( ! dea? ( ,magi/us4 ,my si/]s & ! disciples _h m\rn$ = me z "o ( ! fir/ m>tyrs ( ! new fai?4 ,m>y & ,m>?a _h arriv$ safely 9 ,gaul1 & _h f\nd$ a beautiful *ur* ) a conv5t & ,*ri/ian s*ools at ,m>seilles4 ,_! weal? _h contribut$ imm5sely to ! spread ( ,*ri/ianity4 ,!y 7 devot$ & holy wom51 & ,paul 0 eloqu5t 9 praise ( _! zeal & piety4 8,& ,m>y ,magdal580 said ,i1 ) a slight tremor at pron\nc+ ! "n ( a woman :o _h ( late tak5 ard5t possession ( my ?\ghts4 8,! humble/1 sweete/1 g5tle/ creature 9 ! _w6 ,%e always we>s h] black veil & devotes h]self to ! mo/ m5ial (fices4 ,%e is ! gr&e/ type ,i h yet se5 ( ! purify+ & sanctify+ influ5ce ( ! religion ( ,*ri/40 ,i felt a sweet gl[ ( satisfaction at ?is ann\ncem5t2 & old man z ,i 01 some?+ l a blu% m\nt$ to my *eeks4 ,i le>n$ f ! great apo/le ! hi/ory ( ! ,*ur* f its infancy to ! pres5t "t4 ,he 0 mode/ & ev5 depreciat+ 9 n>rat+ 8 own %>e 9 ! /up5d\s labors ( ! e>ly disciples4 ,i 0 n sl[ 9 detect+1 f :at he said1 ! imm5se *anges 9 ?\ght & _s :i* _h tak5 place 9 ! ,*ri/ian commonweal? s9ce ,i _h be5 )drawn f its sph]e4 ,jesus ,*ri/ _h left !m a religion2 ,paul _h made x a !ology4 ,paul drew f me a n>ration ( my exp]i5ces 9 ! spiritual _w4 ,i 0 v explicit & en?usia/ic1 = ,i deem$ my revelations ( ! utmo/ importance to ! ,*ur* & ! _w4 ,he li/5$ ) int]e/1 b ) evid5t incr$ulity4 ,we ex*ang$ ideas at "s l5g? on all ! lead+ que/ions ( !ology4 ,i became m & m anxi\s to impress him ) ! tru? ( :at ,i 0 say+4 8,rememb]10 said ,i1 8t ! g]ms :i* y n[ plant 9 ! ,*ur*1 w exp& 9 ! =m & direction y give !m = hundr$s & may be ?\s&s ( ye>s4 ,! slighte/ deviations n[ f ! g5u9e tru?1 w gr[ into gigantic errors4 8,if y tea* ! de/ructibility ( ?is physical globe & ! resurrection ( our dead bodies f ! du/1 ! ,*ur* w n h a true conception ( ! spiritual _w1 nor ( ! relation ( t _w to ?is4 8,if y tea* ! sep>ate & di/9ct p]sonality ( ! ,fa!r1 ,son & ,holy ,gho/1 ! prop] or supreme div9ity ( ,jesus ,*ri/ w n be und]/ood1 & ! g]m ( poly!ism w take root 9 y\r cre$4 8,if y ignore ! great judgm5t execut$ by ,*ri/ 9 ! _w ( spirits1 y w fail to compreh5d ! true object ( 8 inc>nation2 & y w commit ! sad mi/ake ( suppos+ t ! next & la/ judgm5t pr$ict$1 w take place 9 ! _w ( nature4 8,if y speak1 z y did j n[1 ( ! blood ( ,*ri/ cleans+ f s91 y\r he>]s may fall into ! error ( suppos+ t ! mat]ial blood %$ ^u ! cross is :at cleanses & saves f s92 :]eas ! tru? is1 t ! blood %$ = ! remission ( s9s1 is ! w9e ( ! ,new ,te/am5t--! spiritual tru? & spiritual life :i* fl[ =? f ! ,div9e ,man = ! heal+ ( ! nations40 ,s ,i w5t on1 reit]at+ all ! gr& po9ts ( doctr9e :i* di/+ui%$ ! tea*+s ( ! angels ,i _h conv]s$ )1 f ! tea*+s ( ,paul4 ,he became m & m re/ive "u my impetu\s torr5t ( argum5t1 & at la/ rose to dep>t4 ,he excus$ himself on ! plea ( urg5t bus9ess & %ort "t4 ,he said he w\ld call aga9 if possible1 & w\ld int]e/ ! ,*ur* 9 ,antio* to labor = my release4 ,he left me ) a pleasant smile4 ,he pass$ into a gall]y :]e he met ! gov]nor ( ! prison4 ,!y 7 conv]s+ z !y walk$ sl[ly along b5ea? a w9d[ at :i* ,i _h /opp$4 ,i he>d ,paul say1 8,he is evid5tly insane40 8,i wi% ! _w 0 full ( su* madm510 0 ! bluff answ] ( ! gov]nor4 ,& t 0 ! result ( my int]view ) ! great ?9k]1 ! lead+ _s ( ! ,*ri/ian _w6 ,insane6 ,?is visit ( ,paul 0 ( imm5se s]vice to me4 ,x help$ me to subdue "o ( ! /ronge/ po9ts ( my selfhood4 ,i /ill *]i%$ ! dream t my spiritual k _h be5 entru/$ to me = ! special b5efit ( ! ,*ri/ian ,*ur*4 ,my only reason = wi%+ to get out ( prison1 0 t ,i might communicate ! ,doctr9e ( ,*ri/1 z x appe>s to ! angels1 to my fell[-m54 ,aft] mature reflection ^u my conv]sation ) ,paul & its results1 ,i came to ! conclusion t ,i _h labor$ "u a great mi/ake & _h *]i%$ an impossible hope4 ,!re are c]ta9 successive /eps 9 ! gr& evolution ( ! g5]al human m9d1 :i* make "o revelation ( tru? necess>y & prop] at "o "t & ano!r at ano!r4 ,! _w & ! ,*ur* 7 n ready = ! kn[l$ges :i* _h be5 giv5 to me4 ,! transition f ,jewi% d>kness to angelic light 0 too great1 too sudd54 ,a long p]iod ( twilight mu/ int]v5e--a p]iod ( lit]al int]pretations1 ( jangl+s & wrangl+s & s*isms4 ,9 ! fullness ( "t1 p]haps1 & aft] ano!r judgm5t 9 ! _w ( spirits1 ano!r *ur* may be in/itut$ capable ( receiv+ )\t adult]ation ! sublime v]ities ( ! spiritual _w4 ,s ,i ab&on$ my mission4 ,god knew bett] ?an ,i did1 & ,i 0 satisfi$4 ,x is /range :at a new1 sweet1 beautiful life sprung up 9 my s\l aft] ,i discov]$ t ,i _h no mission 9 ?is _w to fulfill1 b to spread cem5t betwe5 /ones1 to plant fl[]s1 to read ! ,psalms & to nurse my sick fell[-prison]s4 ,i 0 a new creature4 ,i !n ent]$ ^u :at ,i h designat$ z ! ?ird /ate or era ( my spiritual life4 ,& ?is /ate 0 s m>vel\s1 s exceptional to all ! exp]i5ces ( my fell[-m51 t ,i %all n dwell long ^u x4 ,x may be a ?\s& or two ?\s& ye>s be=e ,provid5ce repeats ! ph5om5on & produces ano!r case l m9e2 & al?\gh 9 ! f>-(f p]fection ( ! _w !y w be common en\gh1 ! /ory ( x w = c5turies fall ^u ! e>s ( m5 z an idle dream4 ,! fir/ intimation ,i _h ( a fur!r *ange ( /ate1 0 receiv$ :ile ,i 0 read+ ! ,scriptures4 ,! good ,*ri/ians ( ,antio*1 x seems1 fail$ 9 procur+ my release2 b !y contriv$ to s5d me a copy ( ! anci5t ,scriptures & ! ,gospel ( ,mat!w4 ,^! 7 priceless jewels to an old man & a prison] dead to all ?+s except ! life ( religion4 ,"o day :5 read+ 9 ! ,psalms & apply+ ! ?\ghts to my own individual exp]i5ce1 ,i became sudd5ly aw>e1 by a k9d ( int]ior illum9ation1 t ! secret s\l-life ( ! ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/ 9 8 combats ) ! p[]s ( hell1 0 embodi$ & conceal$ 9 ! sacr$ pages4 ,!y conta9 m wond]ful ?+s ?an all ! heights & dep?s ( ?is ext]nal nature :i* we s mu* admire4 ,!y conta9 ! my/]ies ( life & dea?4 ,e day br\ght new revelations to my m9d ( ! int]ior mean+ ( ! sacr$ writ+s4 ,i f\nd t ! spiritual hi/ory ( ! inc>nation ( ,*ri/ 0 conceal$ 9 ! n>rative ( ! lives ( ,abraham1 ,isaac & ,jacob4 ,! fir/ *apt]s ( ,g5esis1 "u ! figure ( ! creation ( ! _w1 reveal$ ! successive /eps by :i* ! human s\l is built up f its orig9al *aos into ! image ( ,god4 ,! w&]+s ( ! ,israelites f ,egypt to ,canaan1 0 ! spiritual hi/ory ( e man's reg5]ation4 ,& ! prophets--oh1 ! prophets6 ) _! d>k say+s & gr& imag]y1 conceal$ ) a my/ic veil ! mo/ beautiful & holy tru?s ( ! spiritual univ]se4 ,^! ?+s 7 n inv5t$ by my imag9ation4 ,!y 7 n discov]$ by my +5uity4 ,!y pre-exi/$ 9 ! ,scriptures1 b are invisible to ! m9d :i* re/s 9 ! m]e s5se ( ! lett]4 ,_! exi/5ce 0 reveal$ to me by an int]ior light1 ! op]ation ( :i* ,i did n compreh5d4 ,i le>n$ also t ?is wond]ful spiritual s5se ( ! ,div9e ,^w 0 cle>ly und]/ood 9 heav51 & 0 ! m5tal food ( angels4 ,! ,gospel ( ,mat!w conta9s simil> spiritual my/]ies enfold$ 9 ! lit]al /ory ( our ,"l4 ,! ,epi/les ( ,paul1 h[ev]1--gl[+1 eloqu5t1 dev\t1 impressive z !y are--conta9 no int]ior or spiritual signification4 ,i saw at once t !y _h no organic connection ) ! heav5s2 9 o!r words1 t !y 7 n div9ely inspir$4 ,!y 7 simply ! e>ne/1 sa9tly utt]ances ( a great & good man to 8 bre?r54 8,& yet10 said ,i to myself1 8s pot5t has ?is zeal\s & eloqu5t apo/le be5 9 organiz+ ! ,*ur*1 & s d5se is ! d>kness ( ! natural m9d1 t x w\ld n surprise me1 if 9 ! f> future ! words ( ,paul are reckon$ ( equal value ) ! hi/ory ( ,jesus1 or ) ! ,law & ! ,prophets40 ,! peace & joy inspir$ by ! spiritual p]ception ( ! ,^w1 7 ineffable4 ,my m9d 0 9 a /ate ( cont9ual felicity4 ,i began also to h ! mo/ exquisite & beautiful dreams4 ,i 0 frequ5tly awak5$ by /ra9s ( ! mo/ heav5ly music1 & ! d>kness ( my little cell 0 illum9$ by fla%es ( light1 auroral & ra9b[ colors d>t+ & tw9kl+ "h & !re 9 ! mo/ surpris+ mann]4 ,i felt t "s organic *ange 9 my spiritual con/itution 0 imp5d+4 ,"o ,sabba? morn+ :5 ,i 0 read+ 9 ! ,prophets1 ,i became sudd5ly aw>e ( a pres5ce 9 my room2 & lift+ my eyes ,i beheld my fa!r /&+ be=e me4 ,he 0 z y\?ful & beautiful z ev]4 ,he 0 clad 9 %9+ g>m5t1 & said ) a beam+ smile3 8,d y und]/& :at y read80 8,bett] ?an ,i ev] did be=e4 ,b1 ,o fa!r6 h[ is x t y h desc5d$ into ! natural _w80 8,h y s soon =gott5 y\r in/ructions 9 ! _w ( spirits8 ,i h n desc5d$ into ! _w ( nature4 ,i see no?+ mat]ial :i* surr\nds y4 ,i am invisible to all eyes b y\rs4 ,! *ange is 9 y\rself4 ,y\r spiritual sight has be5 p>tially op5$ into ! _w ( spirits :]e ,i am--en\gh to see my =m1 b n my surr\nd+s4 ,y seem to come to me1 :ile ,i seem to come to y4 ,y see me ) y\r spiritual eyes & y\r mat]ial surr\nd+s ) y\r natural eyes40 ,x is ne$less to expla9 ! philosophy1 z x is impossible to describe ! joy1 ( ?is happy reunion4 ,suffice x to say t my fa!r came frequ5tly to see me1 or ,i w5t to see him1 h[ev] ! case may be int]pret$4 ,he assi/$ me 9 my /udies ( ! ,^w1 & we _h _m long disc\rses on ! my/]ies ( reg5]ation4 ,_m ( ^! ?+s are incommunicable 9 human language1 = :5 my spiritual sight 0 op51 ,i spoke unconsci\sly ! language ( spirits & n ! language ( m52 & ,i f9d x impossible to embody 9 mat]ial expressions :at 0 p]fectly intelligible 9 my spiritual /ate4 8,y\r case10 said my fa!r1 8s /range & exceptional at pres5t1 is a pro( ( ! possibilities ( ! human _s4 ,z long z ! p[]s ( hell reign on e>?1 x w be fe>fully dang]\s = man to h communication ) spirits2 & ! ,"l 9 8 m]cy w1 z f> z may be possible1 keep ea* _w a secret f ! o!r4 ,:5 ,he comes aga9 ) an op5 ,^w & 8 angelic ho/s 9 ! f>-(f ages ( t]re/rial "t1 su* cases z y\rs may occur n unfrequ5tly1 & w ann\nce ! approa*+ conjunction ( heav5 & e>?40 ,?is d\ble life1 ?is :eel )9 a :eel1 is no "p ( my e>?ly autobiography4 ,i mu/ draw ! veil ov] its my/]ies4 ,i am p]mitt$1 h[ev]1 to tell my read]s t my uncle ,beltrezzor 0 reveal$ to my eyes4 ,he appe>$ z a "y man ( unspeakable beauty1 clad 9 a purple robe ( dazzl+ spl5dor4 ,he _h become a memb] ( a heav5ly society situat$ ne>e/ to ! ,sun ( ! spiritual _w4 ,! atmosph]e 9 :i* !y live is a tissue ( gold5 light1 & ! emblem ( _! spiritual love is a flame ( sacr$ fire4 ,w\ld y call t a convict's cell or ! gate ( p>adise1 :i* 0 bright5$ by ! halo ( su* pres5ces8 ,! old man :o ?us liv$ 9 bo? worlds1 at once escap+ ! common limitations ( "t & space1 0 n )drawn f ! practical dis*>ge ( 8 homely & difficult duties4 ,nev] 9 8 life 0 he m fai?ful1 m zeal\s1 m c>eful 9 ! little e-day affairs :i* really make ! happ9ess or ! mis]y ( life4 ,"o day ,i 0 work+ on ! walls ( a new palace4 ,! *ief ar*itect1 a man ( noble "* & great influ5ce1 happ5$ to approa* v ne> me 9 "o ( 8 r\nds ( inspection4 ,he said 9 a pleasant tone3 8,y spread y\r cem5t ) v great c>e40 8,s x ought to be10 said ,i1 8= ! cem5t is ! bro!rly love :i* b9ds ! he>ts ( ! bre?r5 toge!r40 ,he lift$ 8 h& & made a c]ta9 signal4 ,i respond$ to x ) ano!r4 8,i discov]10 he said1 8t y are a memb] ( t v5]able & secret ord] in/itut$ by k+ ,solomon & ,hiram ,abiff1 ! wid['s son40 8,yes--= m ?an =ty ye>s40 8,& has x be5 ( s]vice to y80 8,oh yes6 ,i h discov]$ 9 x a m9e ( spiritual treasures4 ,its symbols & c]emonies embody a sy/em ( univ]sal philosophy unkn[n ev5 to its memb]s4 ,x is an epitome ( ! spiritual my/]ies ( ! univ]se40 8,h[ comes x10 said he1 8t a disciple ( ! squ>e & compass1 :o has /ood ^u ! tesselat$ pavem5t1 is conf9$ at h>d labor z a crim9al80 8,ah sir6 ,i 0 q a y\? :5 ,i came "h4 ,i 0 innoc5t1 b ,i _h none to def5d me40 8,is x possible60 said he1 & walk$ t[>d ! gov]nor ( ! prison1 ) :om he ent]$ into conv]sation4 ,! next day ,i receiv$ a full dis*>ge f my s5t5ce1 & a h&some pres5t ( money f ! *ief ar*itect4 ,i 0 free6 ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,illu/ration3 ,ornam5t ,,xxxii4 ,,:at ,,rema9s8 ,illu/ration3 ,initial ,i pur*as$ "s new clo!s1 & w&]$ all day ab\t ! /reets ( ,antio*1 a/oni%$ at my lib]ty4 ,i d9$ at an eat+-h\se :]e sev]al languages 7 spok5 by ! diff]5t gue/s1 & :]e e "o />$ at ! long-be>d$1 long-hair$ old man1 ) ! new robes & ! r\gh1 br[n h&s4 ,t[>d d>k ,i began to feel v lonely & mis]able1 & at la/ return$ to ! prison l a dog to 8 k5nel1 & begg$ ! favor ( a night's lodg+ 9 my old cell4 ,free6 ,free l a plant ^: roots are dead1 & :i*1 ) no atta*m5t to ! e>?1 trembles at ! m]cy ( ! w9d6 ,i met next day ) "s ( ! ,*ri/ians ( ,antio*4 ,!y seem$ glad t ,i _h be5 releas$ & spoke k9dly to me1 b rememb]$ ! visit ( ,paul & 8 belief t ,i 0 insane4 ,if my op9ions _h be5 or?odox1 :at a cordial reception !y w\ld h giv5 to ! man :om ,*ri/ rais$ f ! dead6 ,z ,i _h le>n$ ! div9e philosophy ( sil5ce1 ,i said no?+ to !m on spiritual subjects4 ,i 0 sixty-five ye>s old & ev]y?+ 0 new & /range4 ,! pages ( hi/ory dur+ my long inc>c]ation _h be5 writt5 9 blood & te>s4 ,vespasian occupi$ ! ?rone ( ! ,roman empire1 assi/$ by 8 son ,titus1 :o _h besieg$ & tak5 ,j]usalem4 ,! holy temple 0 r$uc$ to a%es & ! city ( ,david 0 a pile ( ru9s4 ,! judgm5t 9 ! _w ( spirits _h desc5d$ ^u ! e>?4 ,i 0 %ock$ by ! horrible details ( ! p]secution :i* ! ,*ri/ian _w _h suff]$ f ! dete/able ,n]o2 & ( ! crucifixion ( ,pet]1 ! murd] ( ,paul & ! m>tyrdom ( _m prom95t disciples4 ,:at ,lelius _h begun at ! private in/igation ( a sorc]] on ! little /age ( ,antio*1 too insignificant = hi/orical notice1 _h be5 repeat$ by ! but*] ( ,rome on ! !atre ( ! _w4 ,dur+ ?is t]rible p]secution my si/]s _h be5 driv5 f ,m>seilles4 ,fly+ = _! lives1 !y rea*$ ! bleak & di/ant %ores ( ,brita94 ,!re !y plant$ ! gospel bann] & prea*$ ,*ri/ to ! pagan natives4 ,!re !y 7 /ill liv+ at ! la/ acc\nts1 lights 9 ! d>kness1 w>m? 9 ! coldness ar\nd !m4 ,m>y ,magdal5 _h refus$ to fly f ! ,roman tyrants4 ,r\s$ to a wild pit* ( religi\s en?usiasm by ! atrocities p]petrat$ ^u h] fell[-,*ri/ians1 %e ru%$ defiantly into ! pres5ce ( ! hea!n (fic]s & dem&$ ! pleasure & ! glory ( dy+ = ! "n ( ,*ri/4 ,seek+ m>tyrdom1 %e escap$ x4 ,a/\nd$ at ?is eloqu5t & brave woman ) di%evel$ hair & face fla%+ a wild spiritual light1 ! p]secutors pron\nc$ h] mad1 & refus$ to put h] to dea?4 ,%e retir$ to a m\nta9 9 ,spa9 & occupi$ a cave ov]look+ ! sea4 ,!re %e liv$ 9 solitude & pray]1 we>+ out s\l & body 9 contrition = ! s9s ( h] e>ly y\?4 ,h] sanctity & p[] ( heal+ 7 s great1 t _m pilgrims came f remote places to receive h] b5$iction or be heal$ by h] t\*4 ,hel5a1 ! beautiful syr5 f :om my s\l _h s n>r[ly escap$1 des]t$ ,simon = ,lelius1 & ,lelius = "s ,roman g5]al1 & ?is la/ = a l[ favorite ( ,caligula4 ,%e 0 f9ally swall[$ up 9 t hide\s :irlpool ( ,roman life1 :i* 0 kept 9 motion by ! unbridl$ passions ( male & female mon/]s1 su* z ! _w has r>ely se54 ,simon ,magus _h be5 driv5 f ,antio* at ! in/igation ( ,hel5a1 :o _h unb\nd$ control ov] ! ,roman legate4 ,he retir$ into ,sam>ia1 :]e he acquir$ great p[] & fame by 8 magic & sorc]ies4 ,?\s&s ( p 9 t rude c\ntry admitt$ 8 claim to div9e p[]4 ,x 0 !re t he came into contact ) ! disciples ( ,*ri/4 ,simon _h discov]$ by 8 acute g5ius t a great *ange _h tak5 place 9 ! relations betwe5 ! spiritual & natural worlds s9ce ! dea? & asc5sion ( ,jesus4 ,! old demons :o _h gov]n$ ! _w ( spirits _h be5 ca/ into hell4 ,no spells ( incantation c\ld recall ,ja-bol-he-mo? or any ( ! great spirits to 8 consultations4 ,! magical =mulas _h lo/ _! p[]4 ,! pagan oracles 7 becom+ sil5t4 ,! influ5ce =m]ly ex]cis$ by magicians ov] m5 & ,nature 0 evid5tly wan+4 ,simon became sad1 suspici\s1 fe>ful4 ,! gr\nd 0 s9k+ "u him4 ,he did n attribute ^! s+ul> *anges to ! "r cause4 ,he believ$ t ,jesus 0 only a magician m p[]ful ?an any or all o!rs--"o :o1 by "s my/]i\s me?od _h monopoliz$ ! subtle =ces ( _s ov] matt]4 ,he !re=e came to ! disciples ( ,jesus1 & 0 baptiz$ into ! ,*ur*4 ,:5 he ?\ght he _h suffici5tly +ratiat$ himself ) ! apo/les1 he (f]$ !m a l>ge sum ( money = ! magical secret by :i* !y heal$ ! sick & rais$ ! dead4 ,pet] answ]$ him indignantly3 8,?y money p]i% ) !e1 because ?\ ha/ ?\ght t ! gift ( ,god may be pur*as$ ) money60 ,aft] t exposure he w5t to ,rome1 :]e 8 magical p[]s seem$ to revive 9 ! inf]nal atmosph]e ( t wick$ city4 ,8 conduct became m & m ecc5tric1 insol5t & presumptu\s4 ,he 0 cle>ly obsess$ by devils4 ,he manife/$ great av]sion to ! "n ( ,*ri/1 & pr(ess$ to repeat all ( 8 miracles ) ! greate/ ease4 ,he ann\nc$ 9 ! height ( 8 madness1 t he w\ld asc5d to heav5 ) a *>iot & horses on a c]ta9 day4 ,! amphi!atre 0 cr[d$ to suffocation4 ,x 0 said t he rose ab\t =ty feet 9 ! air1 :5 8 *>iot & horses fell back into ! ar5a & cru%$ him to dea?4 ,?us p]i%$ a man ^: "* & actions w seem impossible to future g5]ations1 b :o 0 "o ( ! typical products ( a corrupt & doom$ civilization4 ,i _h nev] kn[n ! e>?ly heav5 ( home & wife & *ild4 ,i _h no c\ntry2 no re/+ place2 = little ,be?any also 0 laid 9 a%es4 ,my old fri5ds & my old enemies 7 dead4 ,! little *ur* to :i* ,i belong$ 9 he>t1 0 ! feeble/ ( all religi\s p[]s2 & ev5 t w\ld h repudiat$ & expell$ me on a full decl>ation ( my fai?4 ,! mo/ advanc$ man 9 ! _w1 ,i 0 ! mo/ desolate4 ,my face1 my ?\ghts1 my he>t turn$ fondly to ,brita94 ,! la/ "t ,i beheld my si/]s 0 on t ev5tful night 9 ,be?any1 :5 !y gave ! supp] to ,jesus1 & :5 ,m>y unwitt+ly ano9t$ him = 8 burial4 ,i mu/ see !m aga96 ,x 0 a long1 dang]\s1 desolate j\rney = a poor old man to make alone4 ,b my si/]s call$ to me at ev5+ f ! gold5 %ad[s ( ! we/1 & beckon$ to me 9 ! night ?r\gh ! tw9kl+ ( ! nor!rn />s4 ,i sail$ f ,antio* to ,rome4 ,n a ,*ri/ian c>$ en\gh = ! old man ) h]etical op9ions1 to pay a fri5dly visit or give a k9dly f>ewell to him :om ,*ri/ _h rais$ f ! dead4 ,z ! %ip pass$ close to "o ( ! great pi]s1 "s old convicts :o 7 work+ ^u x recogniz$ me & wav$ me a he>ty good-bye4 ,) te>s 9 my eyes ,i kiss$ my h& to my only fri5ds 9 ! _w4 ,on rea*+ ,rome ,i 0 delight$ to f9d ! apo/le ,john :o _h extricat$ ,m>y & ,m>?a f ! toils ( ,magi/us1 & :o gave me a mo/ cordial reception4 ,?is unexpect$ w>m? ( fri5d%ip & sympa?y infus$ new life into me & almo/ made me happy aga94 ,to my great surprise & pleasure1 ?is disciple :om ,jesus lov$1 & to ^: c>e he committ$ 8 "m1 agre$ ) almo/ ev]y?+ ,i _h to say4 ,he broke ! seal ,i _h impos$ ^u my lips2 = he _h a sacr$ ?ir/ = spiritual k :i* ,i felt con/ra9$ to gratify4 ,he receiv$ my doctr9es ( ! resurrection ( ! spiritual in/ead ( ! natural body1 ( judgm5ts 9 ! spiritual & n 9 ! natural _w1 & ! gr& c5tral tru? ( all tru?s--! supreme div9ity & absolute fa!rhood ( ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,john regrett$ deeply ! diss5sions :i* _h already di/ress$ ! little ,*ur*1 & =esaw ! errors :i* w\ld probably arise f c]ta9 dubi\s phrases & unw>rant$ doctr9es :i* _h crept into its !ology4 ,my :ole /ory1 he said1 0 s beautiful t x ought to be true2 & if true1 x c]ta9ly ought to be beautiful4 ,?us ,john endors$ ! v tea*+s = :i* ,paul ?\ght me insane6 ,j z ,i 0 />t+ = ,brita91 news 0 br\ght f t cold region :i* r5d]$ my j\rney unnecess>y4 ,my si/]s 7 dead6 ,m>?a1 :5 trav]s+ "o d>k night a desolate moor to relieve a p]son 9 deep di/ress1 0 lo/ & p]i%$ 9 ! sn[4 ,:5 ! corpse 0 discov]$ & laid out 9 ! little *apel ( _! conv5t1 & ,m>y approa*$ x1 ?is new sorr[1 add$ to ! multipli$ c>es & labors ( h] life1 0 too mu* = ! ov]burd5$ he>t4 ,! silv] cord 0 g5tly brok51 & %e /ret*$ h] own body1 l a fun]al pall1 ^u t ( h] si/]4 ,conjo9$ 9 _! lives6 unit$ 9 _! dea?6 ,beautiful spirits1 clad always 9 virg9 :ite6 ,brides ( ,*ri/6 ,tw9-/>s ( heav56 ,f>ewell6--until ?is old body also %all drop into ! du/1 & ! /rong bond ( spiritual aff9ity %all draw u toge!r aga91 & b9d u1 to ea* o!r = ev]6 ,john1 ! belov$ disciple1 0 only visit+ ,rome4 ,he liv$ at ,ephesus4 ,he n[ entreat$ me to accompany him home & sp5d ! remnant ( my days 9 ! peaceful %ade ( 8 humble cottage4 ,i ?ank$ him w>mly1 b decl9$ 8 invitation4 ,!re 0 "o m p]son ^u e>? :om ,i felt a /rong desire to see4 ,t p]son 0 ,m>y ,magdal51 ! la/ l9k :i* connect$ me ) ! pa/4 ,! hung] ( an old man's he>t = home & fri5ds1 = sympa?y & love1 0 r$uc$ to ?is4 ,x 0 all t 0 left me4 ,my feel+s t[>d ,m>y ,magdal5 _h become cle>ly def9$ 9 ! la/ t5 ye>s ( my captivity4 ,! sad ?+s ( ! pa/ 7 buri$ & =gott54 ,i _h outliv$1 outgr[n ! self-righte\s conceit t ,i 0 bett] ?an %e4 ,yea1 ,i _h discov]$ t %e 0 f> bett] ?an ,i4 ,i 0 ?or\ghly a%am$ ( ! neglect1 almo/ am\nt+ to scorn1 ) :i* ,i _h treat$ h] 9 my y\?4 ,h] gr& devotion to ! cause ( ,*ri/1 h] fi]y zeal1 h] contrition1 h] p5ances1 h] humility1 h] self-sacrifice1 h] solitude1 haunt$ my imag9ation4 ,! m>tyrdom ( h] life 0 cont9ually be=e me4 ,i resolv$ to make a pilgrimage to h] %r9e2 = ,i n[ reg>d$ h] z ! sa9t & myself z ! rep5tant s9n]4 ,i w\ld n m5tion love to a he>t s sorely /rick5 ) ! w\nds ( consci5ce & ! sorr[s ( life4 ,i w\ld tell h] no?+4 ,i w\ld leave all t to ! reveal+ light ( ! spiritual _w1 :i* 0 n[ s ne> u bo?4 ,i w\ld m]ely see h] & weep ) h] ov] ! old1 sweet memories ( ,jesus & ,m>?a & ,m>y4 ,i w\ld live ne> h]4 ,i w\ld "w = h]1 )\t h] k4 ,i w\ld make h] com=table )\t h] see+ :5ce x came4 ,i w\ld visit h] 9 sickness4 ,i w\ld close h] eyes 9 dea?4 ,all ! re/ %\ld be buri$ deep1 deep 9 ! recesses ( a he>t :i* _h n gr[n old4 ,i rea*$ ,m>seilles & survey$ ) sil5t grief ! a%es ( ! conv5t my si/]s _h built4 ,i employ$ a snug little boat & coa/$ along1 we/ & s\?-we/1 until we rea*$ ! %ores ( ,spa91 :]e ! spurs ( ! ,pyr5ees jut out into ! ,great ,sea4 ,l&+ at a little village1 ,i 0 direct$ to a consid]able m\nta9 ne> by4 ,i made ! asc5t be=e ! heat ( ! day4 ,! pa? made a sudd5 turn f a crag :i* /ood a ?\s& feet above ! wat]2 & ,i f\nd myself at ! d>k m\? ( a cave4 ,ne> ! entrance1 on ! "r1 0 a wood5 cross plant$ 9 a little b$ ( violets1 wildly ov]gr[n4 ,! sky 0 cle> & beautiful4 ,a p]fect sil5ce reign$ ar\nd4 ,my he>t ?robb$ z ,i approa*$ ! la/ e>?ly home ( ! fri5d ( my si/]s4 ,i look$ into ! cave & />t$ back4 ,a fe>ful s5se ( awe came ov] my s\l4 ,my pilgrimage 0 9 va94 ,i /ood 9 ! pres5ce ( ! dead6 ,9 t dim & damp & empty cav]n1 lay a human body1 /ret*$ ^u a c\* ( /one4 ,x 0 clad 9 ru/y black1 ) a black veil ?r[n ov] ! face4 ,%e _h be5 long1 long dead2 = ! feet :i* protrud$ f h] robe 7 bones & n feet4 ,a sc\rge ( lea!r ?ongs _h fall5 f h] h&s4 ,engrav5 deeply 9 ! moi/ rock ( ! wall1 j above h] pro/rate figure1 0 ! s+le ^w1 ,,magdal54 ,i advanc$ no ne>]4 ,i knelt 9 pray]4 ,i did n weep4 ,he :o has liv$ 9 bo? worlds1 _c be greatly /irr$ by ! mutations ( ?is4 ,i turn$ away1 ?9k+ ( our beautiful h\se 9 ! heav5s1 & sigh+ to myself1 8,x is well6 ,x is well60 ,my he>t n[ turn$ to ,john4 ,i sail$ f ,m>seilles1 b\nd = ,alex&ria1 :]e ,i expect$ to take %ip = ,ephesus4 ,we nev] rea*$ ,alex&ria4 ,aft] we pass$ ! isl& ( ,sicily a s]ies ( t]rible /orms comm5c$1 & our little vessel 0 driv5 ab\t l a fea!r on ! sea4 ,our h>d%ips 7 great1 & our labor 9 va94 ,aft] _m days our vessel sprang a leak1 & we 7 compell$ to ab&on h]1 or g to ! bottom ) h]4 ,our boat /ood bravely = ! %ore1 :]e "s l(ty m\nta9s loom$ up ?r\gh ! night air4 ,we 7 capsiz$1 & ,i lo/ consci\sness4 ,:5 ,i recov]$ my s5ses x 0 daylight4 ,! little boat 0 bea*$ q ne> me4 ,my companions 7 all dr[n$4 ,i 0 utt]ly alone4 ,i 0 wreck$ at ! foot ( ! we/]n range ( ,m\nt ,lebanon1 on ! coa/ ( ,ph5icia4 ,i f\nd a l>ge & dry cave half-way up ! fir/ great spur t ov]looks ! sea4 ,i h made ?is my home4 ,i turn$ fi%]man = a liv+--= ,i _h lo/ all ) ! %ip--& ! little boat 0 s]viceable = t4 ,i ex*ang$ my fi% ) ! p a little way f ! coa/1 = o!r articles m ne$$4 ,?us ,i h liv$ = sev]al ye>s4 ,"h ,i h writt5 ?is manuscript4 ,i h *os5 ! ,greek language = its composition1 because ,i am famili> ) x1 & because ,i believe ! words ( ,es*ylus & ,hom] w be m durable ?an ! m>bles ( ,a!ns4 ,"o m page & x w be f9i%$4 ,its inspiration )drawn f me1 my life w be m desolate ?an ev]4 ,i %all seal x up c>efully1 & conceal x 9 "s safe place = ! eyes & e>s ( a future g5]ation wis] & bett] ?an ?is4 ,i %all !n turn to ,dea? & say1 8,i salute !e40 ,i %all n wait long4 ,aft] ,i left my prison 9 ,antio* & m+l$ ) ! turbul5t tide ( human life1 my spiritual visions left me1 my spiritual s5ses 7 clos$4 ,!y are op5+ aga94 ,i h ! old1 beautiful dreams4 ,i he> ! same heav5ly music4 ,i see ! same auroral & ra9b[ fla%es ( light4 ,^! n[ are prophecies ( dea?--nay1 r ( life1 ( heav54 ,! gates /& aj>4 ,my eyes1 my hopes1 my he>t are /eadily fix$ on t ,l& ( ,beauty1 :]e ! ,son ( ! ,des]t w be unit$ to ,m>?a2 & ,john ! ,bapti/ to ,m>y2 & ,laz>us to ,magdal52 & all--all to ,*ri/6 ,,by ,,! ,,au?or ,,( ,,?is ,,volume4 ,,our ,,*ildr5 ,,9 ,,heav54 ,a ,,book ,,= ,,! ,,b]eav$4 ,x dive/s !ology ( its gloom3 ,x robs dea? ( its t]ror3 ,x br+s g5u9e light & com=t3 ,x is an antidote to spiritualism3 ,x v9dicates ! ,div9e ,provid5ce4 ,,cont5ts4 ,i4 ,is !re no light8 ,,ii4 ,h[ are !y rais$8 ,,iii4 ,:at bodies h !y8 ,,iv4 ,:]e d !y g8 ,v4 ,:o takes c>e ( !m8 ,,vi4 ,:at are !y do+8 ,,vii4 ,c we communicate8 ,,viii4 ,:y did n ! ,"l prev5t8 ,,ix4 ,:y did !y die8 ,x4 ,:at good c come ( x8 ,,op9ions4 8,eloqu5t & intelligible2 cle> & graceful40--,bo/on ,ev5+ ,transcript4 8,new1 refre%+1 & elevat$ ?\ghts40--,r\nd ,table4 8,its sweet pa?os & com=t+ sympa?y at once w>m & int]e/ u40--,albany ,j\rnal4 8,rational1 beautiful1 soo?+1 & uplift$ too40--,n4 ,y4 ,lib]al ,*ri/ian4 8,a beautiful & t\*+ book40--,philadelphia ,presbyt]ian4 8,a high-ton$ religi\s book1 well writt51 & :i* w be ( real s]vice to sorr[-vex$ he>ts40--,/4 ,l\is ,democrat4 8,a "w ( g5ius sanctifi$ by sorr[40--,new ,orleans ,cresc5t4 8,dr4 ,holcombe is a f9e writ]3 a ma/] ( /yle1 ) a m>vel\s comm& ( *oice phrases4 ,he appe>s 9 ?is book to great advantage4 ,/rik+ at times ! deep] & f9] *ords ( ! human he>t1 he causes !m to vibrate 9 unison ) all t is pure & holy 9 heav5 & e>?40--,s\!rn ,qu>t]ly ,review4 ,,! ,,sexes3 ,,"h ,,& ,,h]eaft]4 ,?is book is philosophic1 poetic1 religi\s1 )\t a ^w ab\t m$ic9e or physiology4 ,x is = "y & old lov]s1 = s+le & m>ri$1 = husb&s & wives ^u e>? :o w\ld be husb&s & wives h]eaft]4 ,,op9ions4 8,x brea!s a pure & elevat$ _s1 & has _m ?\ghts :i* w comm5d !mselves sympa!tically to ! foll[]s ( all ,*ri/ian fai?s40--,new ,york ,indep5d5t4 8,! mo/ m>k$ lit]>y production ( ! season40--,san ,francisco ,bullet94 8,a beautifully writt5 volume40--,*icago ,tribune4 8,"h is ?\ght on a noble !me1 cry/alliz$ 9 beautiful1 bright1 & la/+ gems4 ,x adorns1 exalts1 & e!realizes d\ble-sex$ humanity1 & endues m>riage ) sup]nal purity40--,new ,orleans ,bullet94 8,a "w ( su/a9$ elegance ( /yle4 ,:atev] may be said ( its op9ions1 ,dr4 ,holcombe's essay mu/ be cr$it$ ) unexceptionable purity & ref9em5t4 ,its tone is religi\s & its !ology or?odox1 accept+ fully ! supremacy ( scriptural au?ority40--,lipp9cott's ,magaz9e4 8,r>ely1 if ev]1 has ! m>riage /ate be5 lift$ into s l(ty & elevat+1 s spiritualiz$1 yet s sweetly human1 an ideal40--,new ,orleans ,picayune4 8,x is treat$ morally1 religi\sly1 & philosophically1 & ! result is a good & valuable book among ! piles ( tra% n[ be+ utt]$ & writt5 on ! subject ( woman40--,/4 ,l\is ,republican4 ,,transcrib]',s ,,note ,! foll[+ *anges h be5 made to ! text3 page #e1 miss+ 8,i40 add$ page #aj1 8melanan*oly0 *ang$ to 8melan*oly0 page #ga1 p]iod add$ aft] 8closely0 page #hb1 8?orr\ghly0 *ang$ to 8?or\ghly0 page #hi1 8p>aliz+0 *ang$ to 8p>alyz+0 page #ii1 p]iod add$ aft] 8gall]y0 page #aef1 8,dem]itus0 *ang$ to 8,demetrius0 page #agb1 8impresssions0 *ang$ to 8impressions0 page #agf1 8beaaty0 *ang$ to 8beauty0 page #bai1 p]iod add$ aft] 8race0 page #bbb1 8maddess0 *ang$ to 8madness0 page #bbf1 8indvidual0 *ang$ to 8individual0 page #bcf1 miss+ 8,,xx40 add$ page #beb1 8impossibilties0 *ang$ to 8impossibilities0 page #cjb1 d\ble 8:50 remov$ page #cae1 exclamation m>k add$ aft] 8t]rible0 page #caf1 8ampi!atre0 *ang$ to 8amphi!atre0 page #cbj1 p]iod add$ aft] 8,,aga90 page #cci1 8,euphonbus0 *ang$ to 8,euphorbus0 page #cfg1 8emb>ras$0 *ang$ to 8emb>rass$0 ,additionally1 quote m>ks h be5 normaliz$ 9 _m places4 ,v>iations 9 hyph5ation 7e4g4 8*ildlike01 8*ild-l02 8rosebud01 8rose-bud07 & spell+ 7e4g4 8s*ylus01 8,es*ylus02 8syr501 8sir502 8secrecy01 8secresy07 h n be5 *ang$4