,,my ,,autobiography ,illu/ration3 ,f4 ,max ,mll] ,ag$ #d4 ,,my ,,autobiography ,a ,,fragm5t ,,by ,,! ,,rt4 ,,hon4 ,,pr(essor ,f4 ,,max ,m,,ll]1 ,k4,m4 ,,) ,,portraits ,new ,york ,,*>les ,,scribn]',s ,,sons #aija ,,copyright1 #aija1 ,,by ,,*>les ,,scribn]',s ,,sons ,,tr[ ,,directory ,,pr9t+ ,,& ,,bookb9d+ ,,company ,,new ,,york ,,preface ,= "s ye>s pa/ my fa!r _h1 9 ! int]vals ( m s]i\s "w1 occupi$ 8 leisure mom5ts 9 jott+ d[n rem9isc5ces ( 8 e>ly life4 ,9 #ahih & #ahii he issu$ ! two volumes ( ,auld ,lang ,syne1 :i* conta9$ recollections ( 8 fri5ds1 b v little ab\t 8 own life & c>e]4 ,9 ! ,introductory ,*apt] to ! ,autobiography he expla9s fully ! reasons :i* l$ him1 at 8 advanc$ age1 to und]take ! task ( writ+ 8 own ,life1 & he began1 b alas6 too late1 to ga!r toge!r ! fragm5ts t he _h writt5 at diff]5t times4 ,b ev5 dur+ ! la/ two ye>s ( 8 life1 & aft] ! fir/ attack ( ! illness :i* f9ally prov$ fatal1 he w\ld n devote himself entirely to :at he consid]$ m]e recreation1 z c be se5 f su* a "w z 8 ,six ,sy/ems ( ,indian ,philosophy publi%$ 9 ,may1 #ahhi1 & f ! num]\s articles :i* cont9u$ to appe> up to ! v "t ( 8 dea?4 ,dur+ ! la/ weeks ( 8 life1 :5 we all knew t ! end c\ld n be f> (f1 ! ,autobiography 0 con/antly 9 8 ?\ghts1 & 8 great desire 0 to leave z mu* z possible ready = publication4 ,ev5 :5 he 0 ly+ 9 b$ f> too weak to sit up 9 a *air1 he cont9u$ to "w at ! manuscript ) me4 ,i w\ld read portions al\d to him1 & he w\ld sugge/ alt]ations & dictate additions4 ,i see t we 7 actually at "w on ?is up to ! #ai? ( ,octob]1 & on ! #bh? he 0 tak5 to 8 well-e>n$ re/4 ,"o ( ! la/ lett]s t ,i read to him 0 a lett] f ,messrs4 ,longmans1 8 lifelong publi%]s1 urg+ ! publication ( ! fragm5ts ( ! ,autobiography t he _h !n writt54 ,my fa!r's object 9 writ+ 8 ,autobiography 0 tw(old3 fir/ly1 to %[ :at he consid]$ to h be5 8 mission 9 life1 to lay b>e ! ?read t connect$ all 8 lab\rs2 & secondly1 to enc\rage "y /ruggl+ s*ol>s by lett+ !m see h[ x _h be5 possible = "o ( !mselves1 )\t =tune1 a /rang] 9 a /range l&1 to arrive at ! position to :i* he atta9$1 )\t ev] sacrific+ 8 indep5d5ce1 or ab&on+ ! unpr(itable & n v popul> subjects to :i* he _h det]m9$ to devote 8 life4 ,un=tunately ! la/ *apt] takes u b little beyond ! ?re%old ( 8 c>e]4 ,!re is en\gh1 h[ev]1 to enable u to see h[ f 8 e>lie/ /ud5t days 8 lean+s 7 philosophical & religi\s r ?an classical2 h[ ! /udy ( ,h]b>t's philosophy enc\rag$ him 9 ! "w 9 :i* he 0 engag$ z a m]e /ud5t1 ! ,sci5ce ( ,language & ,etymology2 h[ 8 desire to "k some?+ special1 t no o!r philosoph] w\ld "k1 l$ him to explore ! virg9 fields ( ,ori5tal lit]ature & religions4 ,) ?is motive he began ! /udy ( ,arabic1 ,p]sian1 & f9ally ,sanskrit1 devot+ himself m especially to ! latt] "u ,brockhaus & ,rck]t1 & subsequ5tly "u ,burn\f1 :o p]suad$ him to und]take ! colossal "w ( edit+ ! ,rig-v$a4 ,! ,autobiography breaks (f be=e ! end ( ! p]iod dur+ :i* he devot$ himself exclusively to ,sanskrit4 ,x is idle to speculate :at c\rse 8 life's "w might h tak51 _h he be5 elect$ to ! ,bod5 ,pr(essor%ip ( ,sanskrit2 b he liv$ long en\gh to realize t 8 rejection = t *air 9 #ahfj1 :i* 0 s h>d to be> at ! "t1 0 really a bless+ 9 disguise1 z x enabl$ him to turn 8 att5tion to m g5]al subjects1 & devote himself to ^? philological1 philosophical1 religi\s & my?ological /udies1 :i* f\nd _! expression 9 a s]ies ( works comm5c+ ) 8 ,lectures on ! ,sci5ce ( ,language1 #ahfa1 & t]m9at+ ) 8 ,contributions to ! ,sci5ce ( ,my?ology1 #ahig1--8! ?read t connects ! orig9 ( ?\ght & language ) ! orig9 ( my?ology & religion40 ,z to 8 advice to /ruggl+ s*ol>s1 ! self-depreciation1 :i*1 z ,pr(essor ,j[ett said1 is "o ( ! greate/ dang]s ( an autobiography1 makes my fa!r r conceal ! real causes ( 8 success 9 life4 ,he ev5 goes s f> z to say1 8ev]y?+ 9 my c>e] came ab\t mo/ naturally1 n by my own ef=t1 b ow+ to ^? circum/ances or to t environm5t1 ( :i* we h he>d s mu* ( late03 or aga91 8x 0 really my fri5ds :o did ev]y?+ = me & help$ me ov] _m a /ile & _m a dit*40 ,no d\bt 9 "o s5se ?is is true1 b n 9 ! s5se 9 :i* x w\ld h be5 true _h he1 :5 at ! ,univ]sity1 accept$ ! (f] :i* he tells u a weal?y c\s9 made him1 to adopt him & s5d him into ! ,au/rian diplomatic s]vice1 & ev5 to procure him a wife & a title into ! b>ga94 ,! fri5ds :o help$ him1 m5 su* z ,humboldt1 ,burn\f1 ,buns51 ,/anley1 ,k+sley1 ,liddell1 to m5tion only a few1 7 m5 ^: v fri5d%ip 0 ! sure/ pro( ( my fa!r's m]its4 ,! real secret ( 8 success lay n 9 8 fri5ds1 b 9 himself2--9 ! k t 8 success or failure 9 life dep5d$ entirely on 8 own ef=ts2 9 ! fixity ( purpose :i* made him refuse all (f]s t w\ld lead him f ! pa?way t he _h laid d[n = himself2 & 9 ! unflagg+ indu/ry ) :i* he /rove to rea* ! goal ( 8 ambition4 8,my v /ruggles10 he writes1 87 c]ta9ly a help to me40 ,:5 ,i came to exam9e ! manuscript ) a view to s5d+ x to press1 ,i f\nd t !re 0 a good deal ( "w necess>y be=e x c\ld be publi%$ 9 book =m4 ,! fragm5ts 7 9 _m cases incomplete2 !re 0 no division into *apt]s1 no connexion betwe5 ! v>i\s p]iods & episodes ( 8 life2 important incid5ts 7 omitt$2 :ile1 ow+ to ! int]mitt5t way 9 :i* he _h be5 writ+1 !re 7 frequ5t repetitions4 ,my fa!r 0 always mo/ critical ( 8 own /yle1 & w\ld (t51 :5 correct+ 8 pro(-%eets1 alt] a :ole page1 because a ^w or a phrase displeas$ him1 or because "s new idea1 "s happi] mode ( expression1 occurr$ to him2 b 9 ! case ( 8 ,autobiography1 ! only revision t he 0 able to give1 0 on 8 dea?b$1 :ile ,i read ! manuscript al\d to him4 ,my fa!r po9ts out h[ r>ely ! sons ( great musicians or great pa9t]s become di/+ui%$ 9 ! same l9e !mselves4 8,x seems10 he says1 8almo/ z if ! arti/ic tal5t 7 exhau/$ by "o g5]ation or "o individual02 & ,i fe> t1 9 my case at all ev5ts1 ! same rem>k applies to lit]>y tal5t4 ,i h done my be/ to /r+ ! fragm5ts toge!r into "o connect$ :ole1 only mak+ su* ins]tions1 elisions & alt]ations z appe>$ /rictly necess>y4 ,any defici5cy 9 lit]>y /yle t may be noticeable 9 portions ( ! book %\ld be ascrib$ to ! inexp]i5ce ( ! editor4 ,i h ?\ght x "r to ins]t ! la/ *apt]1 :i* ,i call 8,a ,confession10 ?\gh ,i am n sure t my fa!r int5d$ x to be includ$ 9 8 ,autobiography4 ,x w1 h[ev]1 expla9 ! attitude :i* he obs]v$ ?r\gh\t 8 life1 9 keep+ alo(1 z f> z possible1 f ! ar5a ( academic cont5tion at ,ox=d4 ,he 0 nev] *os5 a memb] ( ! ,hebdomadal ,c\ncil1 he r>ely att5d$ meet+s ( ,convocation or ,congregation2 he felt t o!r p1 ) m leisure at _! disposal1 c\ld be ( m use !re2 b he nev] refus$ to "w = 8 ,univ]sity1 :5 he felt t he 0 able to r5d] good s]vice1 & he act$ = ye>s z a ,curator ( ! ,bodleian ,libr>y & ( ! ,taylorian ,in/itute1 & z a ,delegate ( ! ,cl>5don ,press4 ,) ref]5ce to ! illu/rations1 x may be ( int]e/ to read]s to "k t ! portraits ( my gr&fa!r & gr&mo!r are tak5 f p5cil-draw+s by ,adolf ,h5sel1 ! husb& ( ,m5delssohn's si/] ,fanny1 h]self a great musician1 :o1 z my fa!r tells u 9 ,auld ,lang ,syne1 really compos$ sev]al ( ! airs t ,m5delssohn publi%$ z 8 ,songs )\t ,words4 ,! la/ portrait ( my fa!r is f a photograph tak5 soon aft] 8 arrival 9 ,ox=d by 8 great fri5d ,?omson1 aft]w>ds ,ar*bi%op ( ,york4 ,no?+ n[ rema9s = me b to ackn[l$ge ! debt t ,i owe p]sonally to ?is book4 8,"w10 my fa!r us$ (t5 to say to me1 8is ! be/ heal] ( sorr[4 ,9 grief or disappo9tm5t1 try h>d "w2 x w n fail y40 ,& c]ta9ly dur+ ^! ?ree sad mon?s1 ,i h prov$ ! tru? ( ?is say+4 ,he c\ld n h left me a sur] com=t or m welcome di/raction ?an ! duty ( prep>+ = press ^! pages1 ! la/ fruits ( t m9d :i* rema9$ active & f]tile to ! la/4 ,w4 ,g4 ,,max ,m,,ll]4 ,,ox=d1 ,janu>y1 #aija4 ,,cont5ts ,,*apt] ,,page ,i4 ,,introductory #a ,,ii4 ,,*ildhood ,,at ,,dessau #df ,,iii4 ,,s*ool-,,days ,,at ,,leipzig #ig ,,iv4 ,,univ]sity #aae ,v4 ,,p>is #afb ,,vi4 ,,arrival ,,9 ,,engl& #ahh ,,vii4 ,,e>ly ,,days ,,at ,,ox=d #bah ,,viii4 ,,e>ly ,,fri5ds ,,at ,,ox=d #bgb ,,ix4 ,a ,,confession #cjh ,,index #cai ,,li/ ,,( ,,portraits ,f4 ,,max ,m,,ll]1 ,,ag$ ,,f\r ,frontispiece ,,fac+ ,,page ,,my ,,fa!r #df ,,my ,,"m #eh ,f4 ,,max ,m,,ll]1 ,,ag$ ,,f\rte5 #ajf ,,ag$ ,,tw5ty #aef ,,ag$ ,,?irty #bfh ,,my ,,autobiography ,,*apt] ,i ,,introductory ,aft] ! publication ( ! second volume ( my ,auld ,lang ,syne1 #ahii1 ,i _h a good deal ( correspond5ce1 ( public criticism1 & ( private commun+s also ) myself1 :e!r ,i %\ld cont9ue my biographical records 9 ! =m hi!rto adopt$1 or give a m p]sonal "* to my recollections4 ,"s ( my fri5ds 7 evid5tly dissatisfi$4 8,! recollections ( y\r fri5ds & ! acc\nt ( ! influ5ce !y ex]cis$ on y10 !y said1 8are int]e/+1 no d\bt1 z f> z !y g1 b we want m4 ,we want to "k ! spr+s1 ! aspirations1 ! /ruggles1 ! failures1 & a*ievem5ts ( y\r life4 ,we want to "k h[ y y\rself look at y\rself & at y\r pa/ life & its v>i\s incid5ts40 ,:at !y really want$ 01 9 fact1 an autobiography4 8,no "o10 z a fri5d ( m9e1 n an ,iri%man1 said1 8c\ld d t s well z y\rself1 & y w nev] escape a biograph]40 ,i confess t did n fright5 me v mu*4 ,i did n ?9k ! dang] ( a biography v imm95t4 ,besides1 ,i _h already revis$ two biographies & sev]al biographical notices ev5 dur+ my lifetime4 ,no s5sible man ought to c>e ab\t po/hum\s praise or po/hum\s blame4 ,en\gh = ! day is ! evil !re(4 ,our contempor>ies are our "r judges1 our pe]s h to give _! votes 9 ! great academies & le>n$ societies1 & if !y on ! :ole are n dissatisfi$ ) ! little we h done1 (t5 "u f> great] difficulties ?an ! _w 0 aw>e (1 :y %\ld we c>e = ! di/ant future8 ,:o 0 a great] giant 9 philosophy ?an ,hegel8 ,:o t[]$ high] ?an ,d>w9 9 natural sci5ce8 ,yet 9 "o ( ! be/ ,g]man reviews#a ! foll[+ words ( a "y ,g]man biologi/#b are quot$1 & n )\t a c]ta9 approval3 8,d>w9ism belongs n[ to hi/ory1 l t o!r curiosum ( our c5tury1 ! ,hegelian philosophy4 ,bo? are v>iations on ! !me1 ,h[ c a g5]ation be l$ by ! nose8 & !y are n calculat$ to raise our dep>t+ c5tury 9 ! eyes ( lat] g5]ations40 #a ,deuts*e ,runds*au1 ,feb41 #aijj1 p4 #bdi4 #b ,dries*1 ,biologis*es ,c5tralblatt1 #ahif1 p4 #cce4 ,if ,i 0 afraid ( any?+1 x 0 n s mu* ! sev]ity ( future judges1 z ! extreme k9dness & l5i5cy :i* di/+ui% mo/ biographies 9 our days4 ,x is true1 x w\ld n be easy = ^? :o h h]eaft] to report on our lab\rs to discov] ! r$ ?read t runs ?r\gh all ( !m f our fir/ /amm]+s to our late/ murmur+s4 ,x might be said t 9 my own case ! ?read t connects all my lab\rs is v visible1 namely1 ! ?read t connects ! orig9 ( ?\ght & languages ) ! orig9 ( my?ology & religion4 ,ev]y?+ ,i h done 01 no d\bt1 subord9ate to ^! f\r great problems1 b to lay b>e ! connect+ l9ks betwe5 :at ,i h writt5 & :at ,i want$ to write & nev] f\nd "t to write1 is by no means easy1 n ev5 = ! au?or himself4 ,besides1 :at au?or has ev] said ! la/ ^w he want$ to say1 & :o has n _h to close 8 eyes be=e he c\ld write ,f9is to 8 "w8 ,!re are _m ?+s /ill :i* ,i %\ld l to say1 b ,i am gett+ tir$1 & o!rs w say !m mu* bett] ?an ,i c\ld1 & w no d\bt c>ry on ! "w :]e ,i _h to leave x unf9i%$4 ,we owe mu* to o!rs1 & we h to leave mu* to o!rs4 ,= ?r[+ light on su* po9ts an autobiography is1 no d\bt1 bett] adapt$ ?an any biography writt5 by a /rang]1 if only we c at ! same "t completely =get t ! man :o is describ$ is ! same z ! man :o describes4 8,fri5ds10 z ,pr(essor ,j[ett said1 8always ?9k x necess>y 7except ,boswell1 t great g5ius7 to tell lies ab\t _! deceas$ fri5d2 !y leave out all 8 faults le/ ! public %\ld exagg]ate !m4 ,b we want to "k 8 faults1--hat is probably ! mo/ int]e/+ "p ( him40 ,j[ett knew q well1 & he did n hesitate to say s1 t to d mu* good 9 ?is _w1 y mu/ be a v able & hone/ man1 ?9k+ ( no?+ else day & night2 & he adds1 8y mu/ also be a consid]able piece ( a rogue1 hav+ _m retic5ces & concealm5ts2 & ,i believe a good sort ( rogu]y is nev] to say a ^w aga9/ anybody1 h[ev] mu* !y may des]ve x40 ,n[ ,pr(essor ,j[ett has c]ta9ly done "s good "w at ,ox=d1 b if any "o 7 to say t he also 0 a consid]able piece ( a rogue1 :at an outcry !re w\ld be among ! sons ( ,balliol4 ,j[ett ?\ght t ! only *ance ( a good biography 0 = a man to write memoirs ( himself1 & :at a pity t he did n d s 9 8 own case4 ,8 fri5ds1 h[ev]1 :o _h to write 8 ,life 7 wise1 & he escap$ :at ( late has happ5$ to sev]al em95t m54 ,he escap$ ! te/imonials = ?is1 & te/imonials = ano!r life1 su* z !y are (t5 publi%$ 9 our days4 ,te/imonials are bad en\gh 9 ?is life1 :5 we h to select "o out ( _m c&idates z be/ fitt$ = an (fice1 & x is b natural t ! electors w h>dly ev] look at !m1 b w try to get _! in=mation ?r\gh "s o!r *annel4 ,b :at are call$ po/ obit te/imonials really g beyond ev]y?+ yet kn[n 9 fun]al panegyrics4 ,( c\rse1 z no "o is ask$ = su* te/imonials except ^? :o are kn[n to h be5 fri5ds ( ! dep>t$1 ^! te/imonials h>dly ev] conta9 "o ^w ( blame4 ,"o feels a%am$ to write su* te/imonials1 b if y are ask$1 :at c y d )\t giv+ (f5ce8 ,we are plac$ altoge!r 9 a false position4 ,let any "o try to speak ! tru? & no?+ b ! tru?1 & he w f9d t x is almo/ impossible to put d[n any?+ t 9 ! slighte/ way might seem to reflect on ! dep>t$4 ,! m5tion ( ! mo/ innoc5t fail+s 9 an obitu>y notice is sure to (f5d somebody1 ! wid[ or ! *ildr51 or "s de> fri5d4 ,i ?\ght t my ,recollections _h hi!rto conta9$ no?+ t c\ld possibly (f5d anybody1 no?+ t c\ld n h be5 publi%$ dur+ ! lifetime ( ! man to :om x ref]r$4 ,b no2 ,i _h ev] s _m compla9ts1 & ,i gladly left out1 9 lat] editions1 names :i* 9 _m cases 7 really ( no consequ5ce comp>$ ) :at !y said & did4 ,surely e man has 8 faults & 8 little & (t5 ridicul\s weaknesses1 & ^! weaknesses belong q z mu* to a man's "* z 8 /r5g?2 nay1 ) ! suppression ( ! =m] ! latt] w\ld (t5 become almo/ un9telligible4 ,i l ! biographies ( su* fri5ds ( m9e z ,dean ,/anley1 ,*>les ,k+sley1 & ,b>on ,buns54 ,b ev5 ^! are defici5t 9 ^? %ad[s :i* w\ld b help to br+ out all ! m cle>ly ! bright po9ts 9 _! "*4 ,we %\ld rememb] ! words ( ,dr4 ,w5dell ,holmes3 8,we all want to draw p]fect ideals1 & all ! co9 t comes f ,nature's m9t is m or less clipp$1 fil$1 #8sweat$1' or bruis$1 & b5t & worn1 ev5 if x 0 pure metal :5 /amp$1 :i* is m ?an we c claim1 ,i suppose1 = any?+ human40 ,true1 v true2 & :at w\ld ! dep>t$ himself say to su* biographies z are n[ b too common1--mo/ flatt]+ pictures no d\bt1 b pictures )\t "o spot or wr9kle8 ,9 ,g]many x 0 =m]ly n an uncommon ?+ = ! au?or ( a book to write a self-review 7,selb/-,kritik71 & ^! 7 g5]ally f> bett] ?an reviews writt5 by fri5ds or enemies4 ,= :o kn[s ! /rong & weak po9ts ( a book s well z ! au?or8 ,true2 b a :ole life is m difficult to review & to criticize ?an a s+le book4 ,nev]!less x mu/ be admitt$ t an autobiography has _m advantages1 & x might be well if e man ( note1 nay1 e man :o has some?+ to say = himself t he wi%es po/]ity to "k1 %\ld say x himself4 ,?is w\ld 9 "t =m a wond]ful ar*ive = psy*ological /udy4 ,some?+ ( ! k9d has be5 done already at ,b]l9 9 pres]v+ private correspond5ces4 ,( c\rse x is difficult to keep su* ar*ives )9 reasonable limits1 b "h aga9 ,i am n afraid ( self-laudation s mu* z ( self-depreciation4 ,pr(essor ,j[ett1 :o did n write 8 own biography1 0 q "r 9 say+ t !re is great dang] ( an autobiography be+ r self-depreciatory2 !re is c]ta9ly some?+ s nause\s 9 self-praise t mo/ p w\ld %r9k f> m f self-praise ?an f self-blame4 ,!re may be "s k9d ( subtle self-admiration ev5 9 ! fault-f9d+ ( an outspok5 autobiograph]2 b :o c dive into ^? deepe/ dep?s ( ! human s\l8 ,to me x seems t if an hone/ man takes himself by ! neck1 & %akes himself1 he c d x f> bett] ?an anybody else1 & ! ca/igation1 if well des]v$1 comes c]ta9ly ) a f> bett] grace f himself ?an if adm9i/]$ by o!rs4 ,few m51 ,i believe1 "k _! real goodness & greatness4 ,"s ( ! mo/ h&some wom51 s we are assur$1 pass ?r\gh life )\t ev] kn[+ f _! look+-glass t !y are h&some4 ,& x is c]ta9ly true t m51 f sad exp]i5ce1 "k _! weak po9ts f> bett] ?an _! good po9ts1 :i* !y look on z no m ?an natural4 ,! ,autos1 = in/ance1 describ$ by ,john ,/u>t ,mill1 has no cause to be grateful to ! ,autos t wrote 8 biography4 ,mill _h be5 ?reat5$ by sev]al future biograph]s1 & he !re=e wrote ! %ort biographical acc\nt ( himself almo/ 9 self-def5ce4 ,b besides ! truly miracul\s1 &1 if relat$ by anybody else1 h>dly cr$ible a*ievem5ts ( 8 e>ly boyhood & y\?1 8 great a*ievem5ts 9 lat] life1 ! influ5ce :i* he ex]cis$ bo? by 8 writ+s & /ill m by 8 p]sonal & public "*1 w\ld h f\nd a f> m eloqu5t & tru?ful int]pret] 9 a /rang] ?an 9 ,mill himself4 ,i rememb] ano!r case :]e a mo/ di/+ui%$ au?or tri$ to escape ! oil & ! bless+s1 p]haps ! opposite also1 f ! h&s ( 8 future biograph]s4 ,fr\de de/roy$ ! :ole ( 8 correspond5ce1 & he wi%$ p>ticul>ly t all lett]s writt5 to him 9 ! fulle/ confid5ce %\ld be burnt1--& !y 74 ,i ?9k x 0 a pity1 = ,i "k :at valuable lett]s 7 de/roy$ 9 t auto da f2 & yet :5 he _h done all ?is1 he seems to h be5 seiz$ ) fe>1 & j be=e he return$ to ,ox=d z ,regius ,pr(essor ( ,mod]n ,hi/ory he began to write a sket* ( 8 own life1 :i* 0 f\nd among 8 pap]s4 ,int]e/+ x c]ta9ly 01 b =tunately 8 be/ fri5ds prev5t$ its publication4 ,x w\ld h add$ no?+ to :at we "k ( him 9 8 writ+s1 & w\ld nev] h put 8 real m]its 9 _! prop] light4 ,besides1 x came to an end ) 8 y\? & told u little ( 8 real life4 ,i flatt]$ myself t ,i _h f\nd ! true way out ( all ^! difficulties1 by writ+ n exactly my own life1 b recollections ( my fri5ds & acqua9tances :o _h influ5c$ me mo/1 & guid$ me 9 my n always easy passage ?r\gh life4 ,z 9 describ+ ! c\rse ( a riv]1 we _c d bett] ?an to describe ! %ores :i* hem 9 & div]t ! riv] & are reflect$ on its waves1 ,i ?\ght t by describ+ my environm5t1 my fri5ds1 & fell[ work]s1 ,i c\ld be/ describe ! c\rse ( my own life4 ,i hop$ also t 9 ?is way ,i myself c\ld keep z mu* z possible 9 ! backgr\nd1 & yet 9 describ+ ! wood$ or rocky %ores ) _! h]ds1 _! cottages1 & *ur*es1 describe _! reflect$ image on ! pass+ riv]4 ,b n[ ,i am ask$ to give a mu* full] acc\nt ( myself1 n only ( :at ,i h se51 b also ( :at ,i h be51 :at 7 ! objects or ideals ( my life1 h[ f> ,i h succe$$ 9 c>ry+ !m out1 &1 z ,i said1 h[ (t5 ,i h fail$ to accompli% :at ,i _h sket*$ out z my task 9 life4 ,p wi%$ to "k h[ a boy1 born & educat$ 9 a small & almo/ unkn[n t[n 9 ! c5tre ( ,g]many1 %\ld h come to ,engl&1 %\ld h be5 *os5 !re to edit ! olde/ book ( ! _w1 ! ,v$a ( ! ,brahmans1 nev] publi%$ be=e1 :e!r 9 ,india or 9 ,europe1 %\ld h pass$ ! be/ "p ( 8 life z a pr(essor 9 ! mo/ fam\s &1 z x 0 ?\ght1 ! mo/ exclusive ,univ]sity 9 ,engl&1 & %\ld actually h end$ 8 days z a ,memb] ( ,h] ,maje/y's mo/ hon\rable ,privy ,c\ncil4 ,i confess myself x seems a v /range c>e]1 yet ev]y?+ came ab\t mo/ naturally1 n by my own ef=t1 b ow+ aga9 to ^? circum/ances or to t environm5t ( :i* we h he>d s mu* ( late4 ,"y1 /ruggl+ m5 also h writt5 to me1 & ask$ me h[ ,i manag$ to keep my head above wat] 9 t ke5 /ruggle = life t is always go+ on 9 ! :irlpool ( ! le>n$ _w ( ,engl&4 ,!y knew1 = ,i _h nev] made any secret ( x1 h[ poor ,i 0 9 worldly goods1 & h[1 z ,i said at ,glasg[1 ,i _h no?+ to dep5d on aft] ,i left ! ,univ]sity1 b ^? f+]s ) :i* ,i /ill hold my p5 & write s badly t ,i c h>dly read my manuscript myself4 ,:5 ,i arriv$ ,i _h no family connections 9 ,engl&1 nor any influ5tial fri5ds1 8& yet10 ,i 0 told1 89 a =eign c\ntry1 y manag$ to rea* ! top ( y\r pr(ession4 ,tell u h[ y did x2 & h[ y pres]v$ at ! same "t y\r indep5d5ce & nev] =sook ! n v popul> subjects1 su* z language1 my?ology1 religion1 & philosophy1 on :i* y cont9u$ to write to ! v end ( y\r life40 ,i g5]ally said t mo/ ( ^! que/ions c\ld be/ be answ]$ f my books1 b !y repli$ t few p _h "t to read all ,i _h writt51 & _m w\ld feel grateful = a ?read to lead !m ?r\gh ?is labyr9? ( books1 essays1 & pamphlets1 :i* h issu$ f my work%op dur+ ! la/ fifty ye>s4#c #c ,z giv+ a cle> & complete ab/ract ( my writ+s ,i may n[ recomm5d ,m4 ,montcalm's ,l'orig9e de la ,p5se et de la ,p>ole1 ,p>is1 #aijj4 ,all ,i c\ld say 0 t ea* man mu/ f9d 8 own way 9 life1 b if !re 0 any secret ab\t my success1 x 0 simply due to ! fact t ,i _h p]fect fai?1 & w5t on nev] d\bt+ ev5 :5 ev]y?+ look$ grey & black ab\t me4 ,i felt conv9c$ t :at ,i c>$ =1 & :at ,i ?\ght wor?y ( a :ole life ( h>d "w1 mu/ 9 ! end be recogniz$ by o!rs also z ( value1 & z wor?y ( a c]ta9 support f ! public4 ,_h n ,lay>d ga9$ a he>+ = ,assyrian bulls8 ,did n ,d>w9 induce ! _w to take an int]e/ 9 ,worms1 & 9 ! ,f]tilization ( ,or*ids8 ,& %\ld ! olde/ book & ! olde/ ?\ghts ( ! ,aryan _w rema9 despis$ & neglect$8 ,= _m ye>s ,i nev] ?\ght ( appo9tm5ts or ( gett+ on 9 ! _w 9 a pecuni>y s5se4 ,my fri5ds (t5 laugh$ at me1 & :5 ,i ?9k ( x n[1 ,i confess ,i mu/ h seem$ v ,quixotic to _m ( ^? :o tri$ = ?is & t1 got lucrative appo9tm5ts1 m>ri$ ri* wives1 became judges & bi%ops1 ambassadors & m9i/]s1 & c\ld h>dly und]/& :at ,i 0 driv+ at ) my ,sanskrit manuscripts1 my pro(-%eets & revises4 ,p]haps ,i did n "k myself4 ,/ill ,i 0 n q s fooli% z !y imag9$4 ,true1 ,i decl9$ sev]al (f]s made to me :i* seem$ v advantage\s 9 a worldly s5se1 b w\ld h sep>at$ me entirely f my fav\rite "w4 ,:5 at la/ a pr(essor%ip ( ,mod]n ,lit]ature 0 (f]$ me at ,ox=d1 ,i made up my m9d1 ?\gh x 0 n exactly :at ,i %\ld h lik$1 to give up half ( my "t to /udies requir$ by ?is pr(essor%ip1 keep+ half ( my "t = ! ,v$a & = ,sanskrit 9 g5]al4 ,?is 0 n s bad aft] all4 ,p (t5 laugh$ at me = be+ pr(essor ( ! mo/ mod]n languages1 & giv+ s mu* ( my "t & lab\r to ! mo/ anci5t language & lit]ature 9 ! _w4 ,p]haps x 0 n q "r my giv+ up s mu* ( my "t to mod]n languages1 a subject s remote f my "w 9 life1 b x 0 a concession :i* ,i c\ld make ) a good consci5ce1 hav+ always held t language 0 "o & indivisible1 & t !re nev] _h be5 a break betwe5 ,sanskrit1 ,lat91 & ,fr5*1 or ,sanskrit1 ,go?ic1 & ,g]man4 ,"o ( my fir/ lectures at ,ox=d 0 8,on ! antiquity ( mod]n languages10 s t ,i gave full notice to ! ,univ]sity z to h[ ,i meant to treat my subject1 & on ! :ole ! ,univ]sity seems to h be5 satisfi$ ) my pr(essorial "w1 s t :5 aft]w>ds = v good reasons1 :e!r f9ancial1 !ological1 or national1 ,i1 or r my fri5ds1 fail$ to secure a majority 9 ,convocation = a pr(essor%ip ( ,sanskrit1 ! ,univ]sity actually f\nd$ = me a ,pr(essor%ip ( ,comp>ative ,philology1 an hon\r ( :i* ,i _h nev] dreamt1 & to secure :i* ,i c]ta9ly _h nev] tak5 any /eps4 ,"h is all my secret4 ,at fir/1 z ,i said1 x requir$ fai?1 b x also requir$ = _m ye>s a p]fect indiff]5ce z to worldly success4 ,& "h aga9 9 my c>e] z a ,sanskrit s*ol>1 m]e circum/ances 7 ( great importance4 ,!y 7 circum/ances :i* ,i 0 glad to accept1 b :i* ,i c\ld nev] h creat$ myself4 ,x 0 surely a m]e accid5t t ! ,directors ( ! ,old ,ea/ ,india ,company vot$ a l>ge sum ( money = pr9t+ ! six l>ge qu>tos ( ! ,rig-v$a ( ab\t a ?\s& pages ea*4 ,x 0 at ! "t :5 ! fate ( ! ,company hung 9 ! balance1 & :5 ,buns51 ! ,prussian ,m9i/]1 made himself p]sona grata by deliv]+ a spee* at "o ( ! public d9n]s 9 ! ,city1 sett+ =? 9 eloqu5t words ! und5iable m]its ( ! ,old ,company & ! wond]ful "w !y _h a*iev$4 ,x 0 likewise a m]e accid5t t ,i %\ld h become kn[n to ,buns51 & t he %\ld h %[n me s mu* k9dness 9 my lit]>y "w4 ,he _h himself tri$ h>d to g to ,india to discov] ! ,rig-v$a1 nay1 to f9d out :e!r !re 0 /ill su* a ?+ z ! ,v$a 9 ,india4 ,! same ,buns51 ,8 ,excell5cy ,b>on ,buns51 ! ,prussian ,m9i/] 9 ,london1 on 8 own accord w5t aft]w>ds to see ! ,*airman & ! ,directors ( ! ,ea/ ,india ,company1 & expla9$ to !m :at ! ,rig-v$a 01 & t x w\ld be a real disgrace if su* a "w 7 publi%$ 9 ,g]many2 & !y agre$ to vote a sum ( money su* z !y _h nev] vot$ be=e = any lit]>y und]tak+4 ,?\gh aft] ! mut9y no?+ c\ld save !m1 ,i _h at lea/ ! satisfaction ( d$icat+ ! fir/ volume ( my edition ( ! ,rig-v$a to ! ,*airman & ! ,directors ( ! mu* abus$ ,ea/ ,india ,company1--mu* abus$ ?\gh spl5didly def5d$ also by no less a man ?an ,john ,/u>t ,mill4 ,?is is :at ,i mean by fri5ds & circum/ances1 & t is ! environm5t :i* ,i wi%$ to describe 9 my ,recollections in/ead ( always dwell+ on :at ,i meant to d myself & :at ,i did myself4 ,small & l>ge ?+s "w wond]fully toge!r4 ,x 0 ! *ange ?reat5+ ! gov]nm5t ( ,india1 & a mighty *ange x 01 t gave me ! *ance ( publi%+ ! ,v$a1 a v small matt] z x may seem 9 ! eyes ( mo/ p1 & yet int5d$ to br+ ab\t q z mighty a *ange 9 our views ( ! anci5t p ( ! _w1 p>ticul>ly ( _! languages & religions4 ,?is1 too--! developm5t ( language & religion--seems ( importance to "s p :o d n c>e two /raws = ! ,ea/ ,india ,company1 p>ticul>ly if x helps u to le>n :at we really are ourselves1 & h[ we came to be :at we are4 ,9 "o s5se biographies & autobiographies are c]ta9ly among ! mo/ valuable mat]ials = ! hi/orian4 ,biography1 z ,he9ri* ,simon1 n ,h5ri ,simon1 said1 is ! be/ k9d ( hi/ory1 & ! life ( "o man1 if laid op5 be=e u ) all he ?\ght & all he did1 gives u a bett] insight into ! hi/ory ( 8 "t ?an any g5]al acc\nt ( x c possibly d4 ,n[ x is q true t ! life ( a quiet s*ol> has little to d ) hi/ory1 except x may be ! hi/ory ( 8 own bran* ( /udy1 :i* "s p consid] q unimportant1 :ile to o!rs x seems all-important4 ,?is is z x ought to be1 till ! univ]sal hi/orian f9ds ! "r p]spective1 & assigns to ea* bran* ( /udy & activity its prop] place 9 ! panorama ( ! progress ( mank9d t[>ds its ideals4 ,ev5 a quiet s*ol>1 if he keeps 8 eyes op51 may n[ & !n see some?+ t is ( importance to ! hi/orian4 ,:ile ,i 0 liv+ 9 small rooms at ,leipzig1 or lodg+ au c9quime 9 ! ,rue ,royale at ,p>is1 or copy+ manuscripts 9 a d>k room ( ! old ,ea/ ,india ,h\se 9 ,lead5hall ,/reet1 ,i n[ & !n caught glimpses ( ! mighty /ream ( hi/ory z x 0 ru%+ by4 ,at ,leipzig ,i saw mu* ( ,rob]t ,blum :o 0 aft]w>ds fusill at ,vi5na by ,w9dis*grtz 9 defiance ( all int]national law1 = he 0 a memb] ( ! ,g]man ,diet1 !n sitt+ at ,frankfurt4 ,f my w9d[s at ,p>is ,i look$ ov] ! ,b\lev>d de la ,madele9e1 & d[n on ! "r to ! ,*ambre des ,dputs1 & ,i saw f my w9d[s ! ?rone ( ,l\is ,philippe c>ri$ along by its f\r legs by f\r wom5 on horseback1 ) ,phrygian caps & r$ sc>fs1 & ,i saw ! next morn+ f ! same w9d[s ! /ret*]s c>ry+ ! dead & w\nd$ f ! ,b\lev>ds to a hospital at ! back ( my /reet4 ,9 my small /udy at ! ,ea/ ,india ,h\se ,i saw sev]al ( ! ,directors1 ,colonel ,sykes & o!rs1 & he>d !m discuss+ ! fate ( ! ,ea/ ,india ,company & ( ! va/ empire ( ,india too1 & at ! same "t ! private int]e/s ( ^? :o hop$ to be ,memb]s ( ! new ,india ,c\ncil1 & ^? :o despair$ ( t di/9ction4 ,i 0 ! fir/ to br+ ! news ( ! ,fr5* ,revolution 9 ,febru>y to ,london1 & pres5t$ a bullet t _h sma%$ ! w9d[s ( my room at ,p>is1 to ,buns51 :o took x 9 ! ev5+ to ,"l ,palm]/on4 ,aft] ,i _h se5 ! ,revolution 9 ,p>is & ! flight ( ! ,k+ & ! ,du*esse d',orlans1 ,i 0 9 "t to see 9 ,london ! ,*>ti/ ,deputation to ,p>liam5t1 & ! assembl$ police 9 ,trafalg> ,squ>e1 :5 ,l\is ,napoleon s]v$ z a ,special ,con/able1 & ,i he>d ! ,duke ( ,well+ton expla9 to ,buns51 t ?\gh no soldi] 0 se5 9 ! /reets !re 0 artill]y hidd5 "u ! bridges1 & ready to act if want$4 ,i c\ld add m1 b ,i mu/ n anticipate1 & aft] all1 to me all ^! great ev5ts seem$ b small comp>$ ) a new manuscript ( ! ,v$a s5t f ,india1 or a bett] read+ ( an obscure passage4 ,div]sos div]sa iuvant1 & x is =tunate t x %\ld be s4 ,all ^! ?+s1 ,i ?\ght1 %\ld =m "p ( my ,recollections1 & my own little self %\ld disappe> z mu* z possible4 ,ev5 ! pron\n ,i %\ld meet ! read] b seldom1 ?\gh 9 ,recollections x 0 z impossible to leave x out altoge!r z x w\ld be to take away ! l5s f a photographic cam]a4 ,n[ ,i believe ,i h always be5 mo/ will+ to yield to my fri5ds1 & ,i %all 9 ?is matt] also yield to !m s f> t 9 ! ,recollections :i* foll[ !re w be m ( my inw>d & outw>d /ruggles2 b ,i mu/ on ! :ole adh]e to my old plan4 ,i c\ld n1 if ,i w\ld1 neglect ! environm5t ( my life1 & ! _m fri5ds t advis$ & help$ me1 & enabl$ me to a*ieve ! little t ,i may h a*iev$ 9 my own l9e ( /udy4 ,if my fri5ds _h be5 diff]5t f :at !y 71 %\ld ,i n h become a diff]5t man myself1 :e!r = good or = evil8 ,& ! same applies to our natural surr\nd+s also4 ,& "h ,i mu/ invoke ! pati5ce ( my read]s1 if ,i try to expla9 9 z few words z possible :at ,i ?9k ab\t environm5t1 & :at ab\t h]$ity or atavism4 ,i 0 a ?or\gh ,d>w9ian 9 ascrib+ ! %ap+ ( my c>e] to environm5t1 ?\gh ,i 0 always v av]se to atavism1 ( :i* we h he>d s mu* lately 9 mo/ biographies4 ,ev5 ) respect to environm5t1 h[ev]1 ,i c\ld n g q s f> z c]ta9 ( our ,d>w9ian fri5ds1 :o ma9ta9 t ev]y?+ is ! result ( environm5t1 or translat$ into biographical language1 t ev]ybody is a creature ( circum/ances4 ,no1 ,i c\ld n g s f> z t4 ,environm5t may %ape our c\rse & may %ape u1 b !re mu/ be some?+ t is %ap$1 & all[s itself to be %ap$4 ,i 0 once s]i\sly ask$ by "o :o consid]s himself a ,d>w9ian :e!r ,i did n "k t ! ,mammo? 0 driv5 by ! extreme cold ( ! ,pleioc5e ,p]iod to gr[ a ?ick fur 9 8 /ruggle = life4 ,t he grew !n a ?ick] fur1 ,i knew1 b t surely does n expla9 ! :ole ( ! ,mammo?1 ) & )\t a ?ick fur1 be=e & aft] ! fur4 ,x is really a pity to see = h[ _m ( ^! d[nright absurdities ,d>w9 is made responsible by ! ,d>w9ians4 ,he has cle>ly %[n h[ 9 _m cases ! individual may be modifi$ almo/ beyond recognition by environm5t1 b ! individual mu/ always h be5 !re fir/4 ,be=e we _h a spaniel & a ,newf\ndl& dog !re mu/ h be5 "s k9d ( dog1 nei!r s small z ! spaniel nor s l>ge z ! ,newf\ndl&1 & no "o w\ld n[ d\bt t ^! two belong$ to ! same species & presuppos$ "s k9d ( a less modifi$ can9e creature4 ,x is equally true t e individual man has be5 modifi$ by 8 surr\nd+s or environm5t1 if n to ! same ext5t z c]ta9 animals1 yet v consid]ably1 z 9 ! case ( ,kasp> ,haus]1 ! man ) ! iron mask1 or ! mut9e]s ( ! ,b\nty 9 ! ,pitcairn ,isl&s4 ,b !re mu/ h be5 ! man fir/1 be=e he c\ld be s modifi$4 ,n[ x 0 ?is v individual1 my own self 9 fact1 ! spiritual self ev5 m ?an ! physical1 t int]e/$ my critics1 :ile ,i ?\ght t ! circum/ances :i* m\ld$ t self w\ld be ( f> great] int]e/ ?an ! self itself4 ,( c\rse all ! modifications t m5 n[ und]go are no?+ if comp>$ to ! e>ly modifications :i* produc$ :at we speak ( z racial1 l+ui/ic1 or ev5 national peculi>ities4 ,t we are ,engli% or ,g]man1 t we are :ite or black1 nay1 if y l1 t we are human be+s at all1 all ?is has modifi$ our self1 or our g]m-plasm1 f> m p[]fully ?an any?+ t c happ5 to u z individuals n[4 ,:5 my fri5ds & read]s assur$ me t an acc\nt ( my e>ly /ruggles 9 ! battle ( life w\ld be useful to _m a "y1 /ruggl+ man1 all ,i c\ld say 0 t "h aga9 x 0 really my fri5ds :o did ev]y?+ = me1 & help$ me ov] _m a /ile1 & _m a dit*1 nay1 )\t :om ,i %\ld nev] h done :atev] ,i did = ! ,sci5ces ( ,language1 ( ,my?ology1 & ,religion1 9 fact = ,an?ropology 9 ! wide/ s5se ( t ^w4 ,my v /ruggles 7 c]ta9ly a help to me1 ev5 my oppon5ts 7 mo/ useful to me4 ,! subjects on :i* ,i wrote _h h>dly be5 t\*$ on 9 ,engl&1 at lea/ f ! hi/orical po9t ( view :i* ,i took1 & ,i _h n only to ov]come ! indiff]5ce ( ! public1 b to dis>m z mu* z possible ! prejudices (t5 felt1 & sometimes express$ also1 aga9/ any?+ made 9 ,g]many6 ,n[ ,i confess ,i c\ld nev] und]/& su* a prejudice among m5 ( sci5ce4 ,0 ,i m "r or m wrong because ,i 0 born 9 ,g]many8 ,is sci5tific tru? ! exclusive prop]ty ( "o nation1 ( ,g]many1 or ( ,engl&8 ,if ,i say two & two make f\r 9 ,g]man1 is t less true because x is said by a ,g]man8 & if ,i say1 no language )\t ?\ght1 no ?\ght )\t language1 has t any?+ to d ) my native c\ntry8 ,! prejudice aga9/ /rang]s & p>ticul>ly aga9/ ,g]mans is1 no d\bt1 mu* /rong] n[ ?an x 0 at ! "t :5 ,i fir/ came to ,engl&4 ,i _h sp5t ne>ly two ye>s 9 ,p>is1 & !re too !re exi/$ !n s little ( unfri5dly feel+ t[>ds ,g]many1 t "o ( ! be/ reviews to :i* ! ris+ s*ol>s & be/ writ]s ( ,p>is contribut$ 0 actually call$ ,revue ,g]manique4 ,:o w\ld n[ v5ture to publi% 9 ,p>is su* a review & "u su* a title8 ,if !re exi/$ su* an anti-,g]man feel+ any:]e 9 ,engl& :5 ,i arriv$ "h 9 ! ye> #ahdf1 "o w\ld suppose t x exi/$ mo/ /rongly at ,ox=d4 ,& s x did1 no d\bt1 p>ticul>ly among !ologians4 ,) !m ,g]man meant mu* ! same z unor?odox1 & unor?odox 0 en\gh at t "t to taboo a man at ,ox=d4 ,9 "o ( ! s]mons prea*$ 9 ^! e>ly days at ,/4 ,m>y's1 ,g]man !ologians su* z ,/rauss & ,ne&] 7sic7 7 spok5 ( z fit only to be dr[n$ 9 ! ,g]man ,ocean1 be=e !y rea*$ ! %ores ( ,engl&4 ,i d n add :at foll[$3 ! /ory is too well kn[n4 ,i 0 *iefly amus$ by ! juxtaposition ( ,/rauss & ,ne&]1 ^: mo/ or?odox lectures on ! hi/ory ( ! ,*ri/ian ,*ur* ,i _h att5d$ at ,b]l94 ,ne&] 0 c]ta9ly to u at ,b]l9 ! v patt]n ( or?odoxy1 & p wond]$ at my att5d+ 8 lectures4 ,b !y 7 good & hone/ lectures4 ,he 0 q a "*1 & ,i feel tempt$ to g a little out ( my way 9 speak+ ( him4 ,by bir? a ,jew1 he became "o ( ! mo/ le>n$ ,*ri/ian div9es4 ,ev] s _m /ories 7 told ( him1 "s true1 "s no d\bt inv5t$4 ,i saw him (t5 walk+ to & f ! ,univ]sity to give 8 lectures 9 a l>ge fur coat1 ) high black poli%$ boots b5ea?1 b %[+ occasionally z he walk$ along4 ,x 0 told t he once s5t = a doctor because he 0 lame4 ,! doctor on exam9+ 8 feet1 saw t "o boot 0 cov]$ ) mud1 :ile ! o!r 0 p]fectly clean4 ,! ,pr(essor _h walk$ ) "o foot on ! pavem5t1 ) ! o!r 9 ! gutt]1 & 0 f> too mu* absorb$ 9 8 ideas to discov] ! true cause ( 8 discom=t4 ,he liv$ ) 8 si/]1 :o took complete c>e ( him & saw to 8 w>drobe also4 ,%e knew t he wore "o pair ( tr\s]s1 & t on a c]ta9 day 9 ! ye> ! tailor br\ght him a new pair4 ,great 0 h] amazem5t :5 "o day1 aft] h] bro!r _h gone to ! ,univ]sity1 %e discov]$ 8 pair ( tr\s]s ly+ on a *air ne> 8 b$4 ,%e at once s5t a s]vant to ! ,pr(essor's lecture-room to inquire :e!r he _h 8 tr\s]s on4 ,! hil>ity ( 8 class may be imag9$4 ,! fact 0 x 0 ! v day on :i* ! tailor 0 9 ! habit ( br++ ! new pair ( tr\s]s1 :i* ! ,pr(essor _h put on1 leav+ 8 usual g>m5t beh9d4 ,_m m /ories ( 8 abs5t-m9d$ness 7 en vogue ab\t ,dr4 ,ne&]1 b t ?is man1 a pill> ( /r5g? to ! or?odox 9 ,g]many1 :o 0 look$ up to z an infallible ,pope1 %\ld h 8 "n c\pl$ ) t ( ,/rauss c]ta9ly gave "o a little %ock4 ,yet x 0 at ,ox=d t ,i pit*$ my t5t1 *iefly 9 ord] to sup]9t5d ! pr9t+ ( my ,rig-v$a at ! ,univ]sity ,press !re1 & nev] dream+ t a fell[%ip1 /ill less a pr(essor%ip 9 t anci5t ,tory ,univ]sity1 w\ld ev] be (f]$ to me4 ,= me to g to ,ox=d to get a fell[%ip or pr(essor%ip w\ld h seem$ ab\t z absurd z go+ to ,rome to become a ,c>d9al or a ,pope2 & yet 9 "t ,i 0 *os5 a ,fell[ ( ,all ,s\ls1 & ! fir/ m>ri$ ,fell[ ( ! ,college1 & ev5 a pr(essor%ip 0 (f]$ to me :5 ,i lea/ expect$ x4 ,! fact is1 ,i nev] ?\ght ( ei!r1 & no "o 0 m surpris$ ?an myself :5 ,i 0 ask$ to act z deputy1 & !n z full ,taylorian ,pr(essor2 no "o c\ld h mi/ru/$ 8 eyes m ?an ,i did1 :5 "o ( ! ,fell[s ( ,all ,s\l's in=m$ me by lett] t x 0 ! int5tion ( ! ,college to elect me "o ( its fell[s4 ,my ambition _h nev] so>$ s high4 ,i 0 ?9k+ ( return+ to ,leipzig z a ,privat-doc5t1 to rise aft]w>ds to an extraord9>y &1 if all w5t well1 to an ord9>y pr(essor%ip4 ,b aft] ^! two appo9tm5ts at ,ox=d _h secur$ to me :at ,i ?\ght a fair social & f9ancial position 9 ,engl&1 ,i did n feel ju/ifi$ 9 attempt+ to beg9 life aga9 9 ,g]many4 ,i _h n ask$ = a pr(essor%ip or fell[%ip4 ,!y 7 (f]$ me1 & my ambition nev] w5t beyond secur+ :at 0 necess>y = my indep5d5ce4 ,9 ,g]many ,i 0 suppos$ to h become q weal?y2 9 ,engl& p knew h[ small my income really 01 & wond]$ h[ ,i manag$ to live on x4 ,!y did n suppose t ,i _h *iefly to dep5d on my p5 9 ord] to live z a pr(essor is expect$ to live at ,ox=d4 ,i c\ld n see any?+ anomal\s 9 a ,g]man hold+ a pr(essor%ip 9 ,engl&4 ,!re 7 sev]al cases ( ! same k9d 9 ,g]many4 ,lass5 7#ahjj-ahgf71 our great ,sanskrit pr(essor at ,bonn1 0 a ,norwegian by bir?1 & no "o ev] ?\ght ( 8 nationality4 ,:at _h t to d ) 8 k ( ,sanskrit8 ,nor 0 ,i ev] treat$ z an ali5 or z intrud] at ,ox=d1 at lea/ n at t e>ly "t4 ,z to myself1 ,i _h n[ obta9$ :at seem$ to me a small b suffici5t income ) p]fect indep5d5ce4 ,! quiet life ( a quiet /ud5t _h be5 f my e>lie/ days my ideal 9 life4 ,ev5 at s*ool at ,dessau1 :5 we boys talk$ ( :at we hop$ to be1 ,i rememb] h[ my ideal 0 t ( a monk1 undi/urb$ 9 8 mona/]y1 surr\nd$ by books & by a few fri5ds4 ,! idea t ,i %\ld ev] rise to be a pr(essor 9 a univ]sity1 or t any c>e] l t ( my fa!r1 gr&fa!r1 & o!r memb]s ( my family w\ld ev] be op5 to me1 nev] ent]$ my m9d !n4 ,x seem$ to me almo/ disloyal to ?9k ( ev] tak+ _! places4 ,ev5 :5 ,i saw t !re 7 no long] any ,prote/ant monks1 no ,b5$ict9es1 ! place ( an assi/ant 9 a l>ge libr>y1 sitt+ 9 a quiet corn]1 0 my highe/ ambition4 ,i d n see :y x %\ld h be5 s1 = all my relations & fri5ds occupi$ high places 9 ! public s]vice1 b z ,i _h no fa!r to op5 my eyes1 & to /imulate my ambition--he hav+ di$ be=e ,i 0 f\r ye>s old--my ideas ( life & its possibilities 7 evid5tly tak5 f my "y wid[$ "m1 ^: "o desire 0 to be left alone1 mu* z ! _w tempt$ h]1 !n n yet ?irty ye>s old1 to give up h] m\rn+ & to return to society4 ,?us x soon became my own philosophy ( life1 to be left alone1 free to g my own way1 or l ,diog5es1 to live 9 my own tub4 ,"h we see :at ,i call ! influ5ce ( circum/ances1 ( surr\nd+s1 or z o!rs call x1 ( environm5t4 ,?is1 h[ev]1 is v diff]5t f atavism1 z we %all see pres5tly4 ,atavism also has be5 call$ a k9d ( environm5t1 attack+ u & influ5c+ u f ! pa/1 & z x 71 f beh9d1 f ! ,nor? 9 fact in/ead ( ! ,s\?1 ! ,ea/1 & ! ,we/1 & f all ! po9ts ( ! compass4 ,b atavism means really a v diff]5t ?+1 if inde$ x means any?+ at all4 ,i mu/ ease my consci5ce once = all on ?is po9t1 & say :at ,i feel ab\t atavism & environm5t4 ,environm5t 9 ! %ape ( fri5ds1 ( locality1 & o!r mat]ial circum/ances1 has c]ta9ly influ5c$ my life v mu*1 & ,i c\ld nev] see :y su* a hybrid ^w z environm5t %\ld be us$ in/ead ( surr\nd+s or circum/ances4 ,creatures ( circum/ances w\ld be f> bett] und]/ood ?an creatures ( environm5t2 b environm5t1 ,i suppose1 w\ld s\nd m sci5tific4 ,atavism also is a new ^w1 in/ead ( family lik5ess1 b unless c>efully def9$1 ! ^w is v apt to mislead u4 ,:5 x is said#d t *ildr5 (t5 resemble _! gr&fa!rs or gr&mo!rs m ?an _! imm$iate p>5ts1 & t ?is prop5sity is t]m$ atavism1 ?is does n seem q correct ev5 etymologically1 = atavus 9 ,lat9 did n mean fa!r or gr&fa!r1 b at fir/ great-great-great-gr&fa!r1 & !n only ance/ors2 & :at %\ld be made q cle> is t ?is my/]i\s atavism %\ld n be us$ by c>eful speak]s1 to express ! suppos$ influ5ce ( p>5ts or ev5 gr&p>5ts1 b t ( m di/ant ance/ors only1 & possibly ( a :ole family4 #d ,ox=d ,diction>y1 s4 v42 ,j4 ,r5nie1 ,sci5ce ( ,g>d5+1 p4 #aac4 ,_m biograph]s1 su* is ! fa%ion n[1 beg9 _! works ) a long acc\nt n only ( fa!r & "m1 b ( gr&p>5ts & ( ev] s _m ance/ors1 9 ord] to %[ h[ ^! det]m9$ ! outw>d & inw>d "* ( ! man ^: life has to be writt54 ,:o w\ld d5y t !re is "s tru?1 or at lea/ "s plausibility1 9 atavism1 ?\gh no "o has z yet succe$$ 9 giv+ an intelligible acc\nt ( x8 ,x is suppos$ to affect ! moral z well z ! physical peculi>ities ( ! (fspr+1 & t "h1 too1 physical & moral qualities (t5 g toge!r _c be d5i$4 ,a bl9d p]son1 = in/ance1 is g5]ally cauti\s1 b happy & q at 8 ease 9 l>ge societies4 ,a deaf p]son is (t5 suspici\s & unhappy 9 society4 ,9 inh]it+ bl9dness1 !re=e1 a man c\ld well be said to h inh]it$ cauti\sness2 9 inh]it+ deafness1 suspici\sness w\ld seem to h come to him by inh]itance4 ,b is bl9dness really inh]it$8 ,is ! son ( a fa!r :o has lo/ 8 eyesight bl9d1 & necess>ily bl9d8 ,we mu/ di/+ui% betwe5 atavi/ic & p>5tal influ5ces4 ,p>5tal influ5ces w\ld mean ! influ5ce ( qualities acquir$ by ! p>5ts1 & directly bequea!d to _! (fspr+2 atavi/ic influ5ces w\ld ref] to qualities inh]it$ & transmitt$1 x may be1 ?r\gh sev]al g5]ations1 & engra9$ 9 a :ole family4 ,9 keep+ ^! two classes sep>ate1 we %\ld only be foll[+ ,weismann's example1 :o d5ies altoge!r t acquir$ qualities are ev] h]itable4 ,8 examples are mo/ int]e/+ & mo/ important1 & _m ,d>w9ians h _h to accept 8 am5dm5t4 ,besides1 we %\ld always consid] :e!r c]ta9 peculi>ities are con/ant 9 a family or incon/ant4 ,if a fa!r is a drunk>d1 surely x does n foll[ t 8 sons mu/ be drunk>ds4 ,nei!r does x foll[ t all ! *ildr5 mu/ be sob] if ! p>5ts are sob]4 ,( c\rse1 9 ord9>y conv]sation bo? p>5tal & ance/ral influ5ces seem cle> en\gh4 ,b if a *ild is said to fav\r 8 "m1 because l h] he has blue eyes & fair hair1 :at becomes ( ! h]itage f ! fa!r :o may h br[n eyes & d>k hair8 ,:atev] may happ5 to ! *ildr51 !re is always an excuse1 only an excuse is n an explanation4 ,if ! daught] ( a beautiful woman gr[s up v pla91 ! ,fr5*man 0 no d\bt "r :5 he rem>k$1 ,c'tait alors le pre qui n'tait pas bi51 & if ! son ( a teetotall] %\ld lat] 9 life become a drunk>d1 ! conclusion w\ld be ev5 worse4 ,9 fact1 ?is k9d ( atavi/ic or p>5tal influ5ce is a v pleasant subject = gossips1 b f a sci5tific po9t ( view1 x is p]fectly futile4 ,if x is n ! fa!r1 x is ! "m2 if x is n ! gr&mo!r1 x is ! gr&fa!r2 9 fact1 family influ5ces c always be trac$ to "s s\rce or o!r1 if ! :ole p$igree may be dug up & ransack$4 ,b = t v reason !y are ( no sci5tific value :atev]4 ,!y c nei!r be acc\nt$ =1 nor c !y be us$ to acc\nt = any?+ !mselves4 ,ev5 ( tw9s1 ?\gh v l ea* o!r 9 _m respects1 "o may be phlegmatic1 ! o!r passionate4 ,"s sci5ti/s1 su* z ,weismann & o!rs1 h !re=e d5i$1 & ,i believe rightly1 t any acquir$ *>act]s1 :e!r physical or m5tal1 c ev] be inh]it$ by *ildr5 f _! p>5ts4 ,:atev] simil>ity !re is1 & !re is pl5ty1 is trac$ back by him to :at he calls ! g]m-plasm1 work+ on cont9u\sly 9 spite ( all individual *anges4 ,if t g]m-plasm is liable to c]ta9 peculi> modifications 9 ! fa!r or gr&fa!r1 x is liable to ! same or simil> modifications 9 ! (fspr+1 t is1 if ! fa!r c\ld become a drunk>d1 s c\ld ! son1 only we mu/ n ?9k t ! po/ hoc is "h ! same z ! propt] hoc4 ,if we comp>e ! g]m-plasm to ! molecules con/itut+ ! /em or bran*es ( a v9e1 its grapes & leaves 9 _! simil>ity & _! v>iety w\ld be comp>able to ! individuals belong+ to ! same family1 & spr++ f ! same family tree4 ,b !n ! grape we see w\ld n be :at ! grape ( la/ ye>1 or ! grape imm$iately prec$+ x on ! same bran*1 _h made x1 ?\gh !re c be no d\bt t ! antec$5t possibilities ( ! new grape 7 ! same z ^? ( ! la/4 ,if "o grape is blue1 ! next w be blue too1 b no "o w\ld say t x 0 blue because ! la/ grape 0 blue4 ,! real cause w\ld be t ! molecules ( ! protoplasm h be5 s affect$ by long cont9u$ g5]ation1 t "s ( ! peculi> qualities ( ! v9e h become con/ant4 ,! *ild ( a negro mu/ always be a negro2 8 peculi>ities are con/ant1 ?\gh x may be q true t ! negro & o!r races are n diff]5t species1 b only v>ieties r5d]$ con/ant by imm5se p]iods ( "t4 ,:at ! cause ( ^! con/ant & incon/ant peculi>ities may be1 n ev5 ,weismann has yet be5 able to expla9 satisfactorily4 ,! deafness ( my "m & ! preval5ce ( ! mis=tune 9 num]\s memb]s ( h] family act$ on me z a k9d ( ext]nal influ5ce1 z some?+ belong+ to ! environm5t ( my life2 x nev] fright5$ me z an atavi/ic evil4 ,x ju/ifi$ me 9 be+ cauti\s & 9 be+ prep>$ = ! wor/1 & s f> x may be said to h help$ 9 %ap+ or n>r[+ ! c\rse ( my life4 ,=tunately1 h[ev]1 ?is t5d5cy to deafness seems n[ to h exhau/$ itself4 ,9 my own g5]ation !re is "o case only1 & ! next two g5]ations1 *ildr5 & gr&*ildr5 ( m9e1 %[ no signs ( x4 ,if1 on ! o!r h&1 my son 0 congratulat$ :5 ent]+ ! diplomatic s]vice1 on be+ ! son ( 8 fa!r1 x is cle> t ! diff]5ce betwe5 inh]it$ & acquir$ qualities1 s /rongly insi/$ on by ,weismann1 _h n be5 fully appreciat$ by 8 fri5ds4 ,besides1 my own p[] ( speak+ =eign languages has always be5 v limit$1 & ,i h _m times decl9$ ! complim5t ( be+ a second ,mezz(anti4#e ,i work$ at languages z a musician /udies ! nature & capacities ( musical in/rum5ts1 ?\gh )\t attempt+ to p]=m on e "o ( !m4 ,!re 0 no "t left = acquir+ a practical famili>ity ) languages1 if ,i want$ to c>ry on my rese>*es into ! orig91 ! nature & hi/ory ( language4 ,my own /udy ( languages c\ld !re=e h be5 ( v little use to me1 nor did my son himself p]ceive su* an advantage 9 le>n+ to conv]se 9 ,fr5*1 ,spani%1 ,turki%1 c4 ,! facts 7 wrong1 & ! !ory ( atavism p]fectly unreasonable z appli$ to su* a case4 #e ,sci5ce ( ,language1 vol4 i4 p4 #bd 7#ahfa74 ,if ! !ory ( atavism 7 /ret*$ s f>1 x w\ld soon d away ) free w altoge!r4 ,t h]$ity has some?+ to d ) our moral "*1 no "o w\ld d5y :o kn[s ! influ5ce ( our national1 nay ev5 ( racial "*4 ,we are ,aryan by h]$ity2 we might be ,negroes or ,*9ese1 & %>e 9 _! t5d5cies4 ,animals also h _! in/9cts4 ,only :ile animals1 l s]p5ts = in/ance1 w\ld nev] hesitate to foll[ _! innate prop5sity1 man1 :5 he feels ! p[] ( :at we may call inh]it$ human in/9ct1 feels also t he c fight aga9/ x1 & pres]ve 8 fre$om1 ev5 :ile we>+ ! *a9s ( 8 slav]y4 ,?is may h remov$ "s ( ,dr4 ,w5dell ,holmes' scruples 9 writ+ 8 p[]ful /ory1 ,elsie ,v5n]1 & may likewise quiet ! fe>s ( 8 _m critics4 ,i believe t language also--our own inh]it$ language--ex]cises ! mo/ p[]ful influ5ce on our reason & our w1 f> m p[]ful ?an we are aw>e (4 ,a ,greek speak+ ,greek & a ,roman speak+ ,lat9 w\ld c]ta9ly h be5 v diff]5t be+s f ! ,romance & ,fr5* desc5dants ( a ,horace or a ,cic]o1 & ?is simply on acc\nt ( ! language :i* !y _h to speak1 :e!r ,greek1 ,lat91 ,fr5*1 or ,spani%4 ,we _c tell :e!r ! orig9al diff]5tiation ( language1 symboliz$ by ! /ory ( ! ,t[] ( ,babel1 took place be=e or aft] ! racial diff]5tiation ( m54 ,anyh[ x mu/ h tak5 place 9 q primordial times4 ,)\t speak+ positively on ?is po9t1 ,i c]ta9ly hold z /rongly z ev] t language makes ! man1 & t !re=e = classificatory purposes also language is f> m useful ?an col\r ( sk91 hair1 cranial or gna?ic peculi>ities4 ,:e!r x be true t ) e new language we speak we become new m51 c]ta9 x is t language prep>es = u *annels 9 :i* our ?\ghts h to run1 unless !y are s p[]ful z to break all dams & dykes1 & to dig = !mselves new b$s4 ,= a long "t p w\ld n see t languages c be classifi$2 & z languages always presuppose speak]s ( language1 ^! speak]s also c be classifi$ accord+ly4 ,x is q true t "s ( ^! ,aryan speak]s may 9 "s cases h ,negro blood & ,negro features1 z :5 a ,negro becomes an ,engli% bi%op4 ,conqu]$ tribes also may 9 "t h le>nt to speak ! language ( _! conqu]ors1 b ?is too is exceptional1 & if we call !m ,aryas1 we d n commit ourselves to any op9ion z to _! blood1 _! bones1 or _! hair4 ,^! w nev] submit to ! same classification z _! spee*1 & :y %\ld !y8 ,nor %\ld x be =gott5 t :]ev] a mixture ( language takes place1 mix$ m>riages also w\ld mo/ likely take place at ! same "t4 ,b :atev] confusion may h aris5 9 lat] times 9 language & 9 blood1 no language c\ld h aris5 )\t speak]s1 & we mean by ,aryas no m ?an speak]s ( ,aryan languages1 :atev] _! skulls or _! hair may h be54 ,an ,octoroon1 & ev5 a ,quadroon1 may h blonde wav+ hair1 b if he speaks ,engli% he w\ld be classifi$ z ,aryan1 if ,b]b] z a ,negro4 ,b :o is injur$ by su* a classification8 ,let blood & skulls & hair & jaws be classifi$ by all means1 b let u speak no long] ( ,aryan skulls or ,semitic blood4 ,we might z well speak ( a progna?ic language4 ,:ile fully admitt+1 !re=e1 ! influ5ce :i* family1 nationality1 race1 & language ex]cise on u1 x %\ld be cle>ly p]ceiv$ t habits acquir$ by our p>5ts are n h]itable1 t ! sons ( drunk>ds ne$ n be drunk>ds1 z little z ! sons ( sob] p mu/ be sob]4 ,b ?\gh biograph]s may agree to ?is 9 g5]al !y seem incl9$1 to hold out v /rongly = :at are call$ special tal5ts 9 c]ta9 families4 ,?is subject is decid$ly amus+1 b x admits ( no sci5tific treatm5t1 z f> z ,i c see4 ,! gr&fa!r ( ,felix ,m5delssohn ,b>?oldy = in/ance1 ?\gh n a compos]1 0 evid5tly a man ( g5ius1 a philosoph] ( consid]able intellectual capacity & moral /r5g?4 ,! fa!r ( ! compos] 0 a ri* bank] at ,b]l91 & he us$ to say3 8,:5 ,i 0 "y ,i 0 ! son ( ! great ,m5delssohn1 n[ t ,i am old1 ,i am ! fa!r ( ! great ,m5delssohn2 !n :at am ,i80 ,ev5 a poor man to become a ri* bank] mu/ be a k9d ( g5ius1 & s f> ! son may be said to h come ( a good /ock4 ,b ! great musical tal5t t 0 develop$ 9 ! ?ird g5]ation bo? 9 ,felix & 8 si/]s1 fail$ entirely 9 8 bro!r1 :o1 to save 8 life1 c\ld nev] h sung 8,god save ! ,que540 ,9 ! little !atrical p]=mances ( ! :ole family = :i* ,felix compos$ ! music1 & 8 si/] ,fanny 7,h5sel7 "s ( ! songs1 ! unmusical bro!r--0 x n ,paul8--_h g5]ally to be provid$ ) "s su* "p z t ( a night wat*man1 & he manag$ to get ?r\gh 8 song ) z mu* cr$it z ! ,na*tw*t] 9 ! little t[n ( ,g]many1 :]e he sang or repeat$1 z ,i well rememb]1 9 8 crack$ voice3 8,hrt1 ihr ,h]r51 und las/ eu* sag51 ,die ,glock' hat zwlf ges*lag52 ,wahret das ,feu] und au* das ,li*t1 ,dass ,ke9em ke9 ,s*ade ges*i*t40 8,li/51 g5ts1 & let me tell1 ,! clock /ruck twelve by its la/ knell2 ,wat* o'er ! fire & o'er ! light ,t no "o suff] any plight40 ,i h kn[n 9 my life _m musicians & _! families1 b ,i rememb] v few in/ances inde$1 :]e ! son ( a di/+ui%$ musician 0 a great musician himself4 ,if ! *ildr5 take to music at all !y may become v fair musicians1 b nev] any?+ extraord9>y4 ,! ,ba* family may be quot$ aga9/ me1 b music1 be=e ,seba/ian ,ba*1 0 almo/ l a pr(ession1 & c\ld be le>n$ l any o!r h&icraft4 ,nor are ! cases ( pa9t]s be+ ! sons ( great pa9t]s1 or ( poets be+ ! sons ( great poets1 m num]\s4 ,x seems almo/ z if ! arti/ic tal5t 0 exhau/$ by "o g5]ation or "o individual1 s t we (t5 see ! sons ( great m5 by no means great1 & if !y d any?+ 9 ! same l9e z _! fa!rs1 we mu/ rememb] t !re 0 mu* to induce !m to foll[ 9 _! /eps )\t admitt+ any atavi/ic influ5ces4 ,= ! pres5t1 ,i c only repeat ! conclusion ,i arriv$ at aft] weigh+ all ! argum5ts ( my fri5ds & critics1 namely1 to cont9ue my ,recollections mu* z ,i began !m1 to try to expla9 :at made me :at ,i am1 to describe1 9 fact1 my environm5t2 ?\gh z my ye>s advance1 & my lab\rs & plans gr[ wid] & wid]1 ,i %all1 no d\bt1 h to say a great deal m ab\t myself ?an 9 ! volumes ( ,auld ,lang ,syne4 ,9 fact1 my ,recollections w become m & m ( an autobiography1 & ! ,i & ! ,autos w appe> m frequ5tly ?an ,i c\ld h wi%$4 ,9 an autobiography ! pa9t] is ( c\rse suppos$ to be ! same z ! sitt]1 b q ap>t f ! metaphysical difficulties ( su* a supposition1 !re is ! physical difficulty :5 ! writ] is an old man1 & ! model is a "y boy4 ,is ! old man likely to be a fair judge ( ! "y man1 :e!r x be himself or "s "o else8 ,z a rule1 old m5 are v indulg5t1 :ile "y m5 are apt to be /]n & /rict 9 _! judgm5ts4 ,! v fact t !y (t5 inv5t excuses = !mselves %[s t !y feel t !y want excuses4 ,! words ( ! ,prea*]1 vii4 #af3 8,be n righte\s ov] mu*2 nei!r make ?yself ov] wise3 :y %\lde/ ?\ de/roy ?yself8 ,be n ov] mu* wick$1 nei!r be ?\ fooli%3 :y %\lde/ ?\ die be=e ?y "t80 are evid5tly ! words ( an old man :5 judg+ ( himself or ( o!rs4 ,a "y man w\ld h spok5 diff]5tly4 ,he w\ld h made no all[ance2 = any?+ l compassion = an err+ fri5d is z yet unkn[n to him4 ,9 an autobiography writt5 by an old man !re is !re=e a d\ble dang]1 fir/ ! indulg5ce ( ! old man1 & secondly ! k9dly feel+ ( ! writ] t[>ds ! object ( 8 rem>ks4 ,all ^! difficulties /& be=e me l a m\nta9 wall4 ,& x seems bett] to confess at once t an old man writ+ 8 own life c nev] be q j1 h[ev] hone/ he tries to be4 ,he may be too indulg5t1 b he may also be too /rict & /]n4 ,to say1 = in/ance1 ( a man t he has n kept 8 promise1 w\ld be a v s]i\s *>ge if br\ght aga9/ anybody else4 ,yet my olde/ fri5d 9 ! _w kn[s h[ _m times he has made a promise to himself1 & has n only n kept x b has actually f\nd excuses :y he did n keep x4 ,! m s5sitive our consci5ce becomes1 ! m blamewor?y _m an act ( our life seems to be1 & :at to an ord9>y consci5ce is no fault at all1 becomes almo/ a s9 "u a fi]c] light4 ,?is *anges ! moral atmosph]e ( y\? :5 pa9t$ by an old man1 b ! physical atmosph]e also assumes necess>ily a diff]5t hue4 ,:e!r we l x or n1 di/ance w always l5d en*antm5t to ! view4 ,if ! azure hue is insep>able f di/ant m\nta9s & f ! di/ant sky1 we ne$ n wond] t x veils ! di/ant p>adise ( y\?4 ,a man :o keeps a di>y f 8 e>lie/ ye>s1 & :o z an old man simply copies f its yell[ pages1 may give u a v accurate black & :ite image ( :at he saw z a boy1 b z 9 old fad$ photographs1 ! life & light are gone out ( !m1 :ile unassi/$ memory may (t5 pres]ve t9ts ( _! =m] reality4 ,!re is life & light 9 su* recollections1 b ,i am will+ to admit t memory c be v trea*]\s also4 ,?us 9 my own case ,i c v\* t :atev] ,i relate is c>efully & accurately transcrib$ f ! tablets ( my memory1 z ,i see !m n[1 b ?\gh ,i c claim tru?fulness to myself & to my memory1 ,i _c pret5d to photographic accuracy4 ,i feel inde$ = ! hi/orian :o uses su* mat]ials unless he has le>nt to make all[ance = ! dim sight ( ev5 ! mo/ tru?ful n>rators4 ,i d\bt :e!r any hi/orian w\ld accept a /atem5t made ?irty ye>s aft] ! ev5t )\t indep5d5t confirmation4 ,i c\ld n give ! date ( ! battle ( ,sad[a1 ?\gh ,i well rememb] read+ ! full acc\nt ( x 9 ! ,times f day to day4 ,i c ( c\rse get at ! date f hi/orical books1 & f t k9d ( artificial memory :i* arises by itself )\t any memoria te*nica4 ,!re is a fav\rite ,g]man game ( c>ds call$ ,sixty-six1 & x 0 report$ t :5 ! ,fr5* 9 #ahgj %\t$ ,b]l91 ! !n ,cr[n-,pr9ce :o _h won ! battle ( ,sad[a1 or ,kniggrtz1 said3 8,ah1 !y want ano!r game ( ,sixty-six60 t is !y want a battle l t ( ,sad[a4 ,9 ?is way ,i %all always rememb] ! date ( t decisive battle4 ,b ,i c\ld n give ! date ( ! ,crimean battles nor a tru/wor?y acc\nt ( ! successive /ages ( t w>4 ,i d\bt :e!r ev5 my old fri5d1 ,sir ,william ,h4 ,russell1 c\ld d t n[ )\t ref]r+ to 8 lett]s 9 ! ,times4 ,aft] ?irty ye>s no "o1 ,i believe1 c\ld take an oa? to ! accuracy ( any /atem5t ( :at he saw or he>d s _m ye>s ago4 ,all !n t ,i c v\* = is t ,i read my memory z ,i %\ld ! leaves ( an old ,,ms4 f :i* _m lett]s1 nay1 :ole words & l9es h vani%$1 & :]e ,i am (t5 driv5 to deciph] & to guess1 z 9 a palimpse/1 :at ! orig9al uncial writ+ may h be54 ,i am ! fir/ to confess t !re may be flaws 9 my memory1 !re may be be=e my eyes t magic azure :i* surr\nds ! di/ant pa/2 b ,i c promise t !re %all be no inv5tion1 no ,di*tung in/ead ( ,wahrheit1 b always1 z f> z 9 me lies1 tru?4 ,i "k q well t ev5 a c]ta9 dislocation ( facts is n always to be avoid$ 9 an old memory4 ,i "k x f sad exp]i5ce4 ,z ! spires ( a city--( ,ox=d = in/ance--arrange !mselves diff]5tly z we pass ! old place on ! railway1 s t n[ "o & n[ ! o!r /&s 9 ! c5tre & seems to rise above ! heads ( ! re/1 s x is ) our fri5ds & acqua9tances4 ,"s :o seem$ giants at "o "t assume small] proportions z o!rs come into view t[]+ above !m4 ,! :ole sc5]y *anges f ye> to ye>4 ,:o does n rememb] ! trees 9 our g>d5 t seem$ l giants 9 our *ildhood1 b :5 we see !m aga9 9 our old age1 !y h %runk1 & n f old age only8 ,& mu/ ,i make "o m confession8 ,x is well kn[n t ,george ! ,f\r? describ$ ! battle ( ,wat]loo s (t5 t at la/ he p]suad$ himself t he _h be5 pres5t1 9 fact t he _h won t battle4 ,i also rememb] ,dr4 ,r\?1 ! v5]able presid5t ( ,magdal5 ,college1 :o di$ 9 8 hundr$? ye>1 & :o _h s (t5 repeat$ all ! circum/ances ( ! execution ( ,*>les ,i1 t :5 ,macaulay express$ a wi% to see him1 he decl9$ 8because t "y man has giv5 q a wrong acc\nt ( ! la/ mom5ts ( ! k+10 :i* he !n proce$$ to relate1 z if he _h be5 an eye-witness ?r\gh\t4 ,are we n liable to ! same halluc9ation1 ?\gh1 let u hope1 9 a m mitigat$ =m8 ,h we nev] told a /ory z if x 7 our own1 n f any wi% to deceive1 b simply because x seem$ %ort] & easi] to d s ?an to expla9 /ep by /ep h[ x rea*$ u8 ,& aft] do+ t once or twice1 is !re n great dang] ( our be+ surpris$ at somebody else claim+ ! /ory z 8 own1 or actually ma9ta9+ t x 0 he :o told x to u8 ,n v long ago ,i rememb] read+ 9 a j\rnal a /ory ( ! ,duke ( ,well+ton4 ,8 s]vant _h be5 s5t be=e to ord] d9n] = him at an out-(-!-way hotel1 & 9 ord] to impress ! l&lord ) ! dignity ( 8 com+ gue/1 he _h recit$ a numb] ( ! ,duke's titles1 :i* 7 v num]\s4 ,! l&lord1 ?9k+ t ! ,duke ( ,vittoria1 ! ,pr9ce ( ,wat]loo1 ! ,m>quis ( ,torres ,v$ras1 & all ! re/1 7 fri5ds invit$ to d9e ) ! ,duke ( ,well+ton1 ord]$ accord+ly a v sumptu\s banquet to ! great dismay ( ! real ,duke4 ,?is may or may n be a v old & a v true /ory2 all ,i "k is t mu* ! same ?+ 0 told at ,ox=d ( ,dr4 ,bull1 :o 0 ,canon ( ,*ri/ ,*ur*1 ,canon ( ,exet]1 ,preb5d>y ( ,york1 ,vic> ( ,/av]ton1 & la/ly1 ! ,rev4 ,dr4 ,bull himself4 ,d9n] 0 provid$ = ea* ( ^! p]sons1 & we are told t ! rev]5d plurali/ _h to eat all ! di%es on ! table & pay = !m4 ,?is also may h be5 no m ?an "o ( ! _m 8,common-room]s0 :i* ab\nd$ 9 ,ox=d :5 ,common ,rooms 7 m frequ5t$ ?an !y are n[4 ,b :at ,i happ5 to "k z a fact is t ,dean ,/anley receiv$ no less ?an f\r invitations to a hall at ,bl5heim1 address$ ,a4 ,p4 ,/anley1 ,esq41 ! ,rev4 ,a4 ,p4 ,/anley1 ,canon ,/anley1 ,pr(essor ,/anley1 all evid5tly copi$ f "s books ( ref]5ce4 ,i may p]haps claim "o advantage 9 try+ to describe :at happ5$ to myself 9 my passage ?r\gh life4 ,f ! e>lie/ days t ,i c recollect1 ,i felt myself z a tw(old be+--z a subject & an object1 z a spectator & z an actor4 ,i suppose we all talk to ourselves1 & say to our bett] & worse selves1 ,o ?\ fool6 or1 ,well done1 my boy6 ,well ?is inw>d conv]sation began ) me at a v e>ly "t1 & left ! impression t ,i 0 ! coa*man1 b at ! same "t ! horse too :i* he drove & sometimes :ipp$ v cruelly4 ,& ?is phase ( ?\ght1 or r ?is /ate ( feel+1 seems soon to h l$ me on to ano!r view :i* likewise dates f a v e>ly "t1 ?\gh x aft]w>ds vani%$4 ,z a little boy1 :5 ,i c\ld n h ! same toys :i* o!r boys possess$1 ,i c\ld fully enjoy :at !y enjoy$1 z if !y _h be5 my own4 ,!re is a ,g]man phrase1 8,i* freue mi* 9 de9] ,seele10 :i* exactly express$ :at ,i (t5 felt4 ,x 0 n ! result ( tea*+1 /ill less ( reason+--x 0 a s5tim5t giv5 me & :i* c]ta9ty did n leave me till mu* lat] 9 life1 :5 competition1 rivalry1 jeal\sy1 & envy seem$ to acc5tuate my own ,i z aga9/ all o!r ,i's or ,?\'s4 ,i suppose we all rememb] h[ ! sight ( a w\nd ( a fell[ creature1 nay ev5 ( a dog1 gives u a %>p twit* 9 ! same "p ( our own body4 ,t bodily sympa?y has nev] left me1 ,i suff] f x ev5 n[ z ,i did sev5ty ye>s ago4 ,& is !re anybody :o has n felt 8 eyes moi/5 at ! sudd5 happ9ess ( 8 fri5ds8 ,all ?is seems to me to acc\nt1 to a c]ta9 ext5t at lea/1 = t feel+ ( id5tity ) s-call$ /rang]s1 :i* came to me f my e>lie/ days1 & has return$ aga9 ) r5ew$ /r5g? 9 my old age4 ,! 8"k ?yself10 ascrib$ to ,*ilon & o!r sages ( anci5t ,greece1 ga9s a deep] mean+ ) e ye>1 till at la/ ! ,i :i* we look$ ^u z ! mo/ c]ta9 & und\bt$ fact1 vani%es f our grasp to become ! ,self1 free f ! v>i\s accid5ts & limitations :i* make up ! ,i1 & !re=e "o ) ! ,self t und]lies all individual & !re=e vani%+ ,i's4 ,:at t common ,self may be is a "q to be res]v$ = lat] times1 ?\gh ,i may say at once t ! only true answ] giv5 to x seems to me t ( ! ,upani%ads & ! ,v$anta philosophy4 ,only we mu/ take c>e n to mi/ake ! moral ,self1 t f9ds fault ) ! active ,self1 = ! ,highe/ ,self t kn[s no long] ( good or evil de$s4 ,long be=e ,i _h work$ & ?\ght out ?is problem z ! fundam5tal tru? ( all philosophy1 x pres5t$ itself to me z if by intuition1 long be=e ,i c\ld h fa?om$ x 9 its metaphysical mean+4 ,i _h j he>d ( ! dea? ( a de> little *ild1 & 0 /&+ 9 our g>d51 look+ at a rose-bu%1 cov]$ 9 summ] ) hundr$s ( rose-buds & rose-fl[]s4 ,:ile ,i 0 look+ ,i broke (f "o small )]$ bud f ! mid/ ( a l>ge clu/] ( roses1 & aft] ,i _h done s a "q came to me1 & ,i said to myself1 ,:at has happ5$8 ,is x only t "o small bud is dead & gone1 or h n all ! o!r roses be5 t\*$ by ! brea? ( dea? t fell on x8 ,h !y n all suff]$ f ! dea? ( _! si/]1 = !y all spr+ f ! same /em1 !y all h _! life f ! same s\rce8 ,& if "o rose suff]s1 mu/ n all ! o!rs suff] ) x8 ,!n all ! buds & fl[]s ( ! clu/] seem$ to me to become "o1 z x 7 a family ( roses1 & ea* s+le bud seem$ b ! repetition ( ! same ?+1 ! manife/ation ( ! same ?\ght1 namely ! ?\ght ( ! rose4 ,b my eyes 7 c>ri$ /ill fur!r1 & ! /em f :i* ! bun* ( roses sprang 0 lo/ ) o!r /ems 9 a bran*1 & x 0 t bran* on :i* all ! roses ( ! bran*lets & /ems dep5d$1 & )\t :i* !y c\ld n fl[] or exi/4 ,! s+le roses ?us became id5tifi$ ) ! bran* f :i* !y _h sprung1 & by :i* !y liv$4 ,i wond]$ m & m1 & aft] ano!r look all ! bran*es ) all _! bran*lets became absorb$ 9 ! /em1 & ! /em 0 ! tree1 & ! tree sprang f a se$1 or z x is n[ call$1 ! protoplasm2 b beyond t se$ !re 0 no?+ else t ! eye c\ld see or ! m9d c\ld grasp4 ,& :ile ?is vision float$ be=e my eyes ,i ?\ght ( my little fri5d1 & ! home f :i* %e _h be5 brok5 (f1 & ! same vision :i* _h *ang$ ! rose-bu% ) all its fl[]s1 & buds1 & bran*lets1 & bran*es1 into a /em & a tree1 & at la/ into "o invisible g]m & se$1 seem$ n[ to *ange my little fri5d & h] bro!rs & si/]s1 h] p>5ts too & all h] family1 into "o be+ :i*1 l an old oak tree1 />t$ f an invisible /em1 or an invisible se$1 or f an invisible ?\ght1 & t div9e ?\ght 0 man1 z ! o!r div9e ?\ght _h be5 rose4 ,p]haps ,i did n see x s fully !n z ,i see x n[1 & ,i c]ta9ly did n reason ab\t x4 ,i simply felt t 9 ! dea? ( my little fri5d1 some?+ ( myself _h gone1 ?\gh %e 0 no relation1 b only a /ray human fri5d4 ,we see _m ?+s z *ildr5 :i* we _c see z gr[n-up m5 & wom51 =1 z ,longfell[ said1 8! ?\ghts ( y\? are long long ?\ghts40 ,nay1 ,i feel conv9c$ t ,he :o spoke ! p>able ( ! v9e _h se5 ! same vision :5 ,he said3 8,i am ! v9e1 ye are ! bran*es4 ,abide 9 ,me1 & ,i 9 y4 ,z ! bran* _c be> fruit ( itself except x abide 9 ! v9e1 no m c ye1 except ye abide 9 ,me40 ,& x is on ?is vision1 or ?is p>able ( ! v9e1 t imm$iately aft]w>ds foll[s ! lesson1 8,love "o ano!r1 z ,i h lov$ y40 ,9 lov+ "o ano!r we are 9 tru? lov+ ! o!rs z ourselves1 z "o ) ourselves2 & :ile we are lov+ ,him :o is ! v9e1 we are lov+ ! bran*es1 ourselves--aye1 ev5 our own little selves4 ,su* vague visions or intuitions (t5 rema9 ) u = life1 b :ile !y seem to be ! same1 !y v>y z we v>y ourselves4 ,we imag9e we saw _! deepe/ mean+ f ! fir/1 b1 l a p>able1 !y ga9 9 mean+ e "t !y come back to u4 ,,*apt] ,,ii ,,*ildhood ,,at ,,dessau ,9 a small t[n su* z ,dessau 0 :5 ,i liv$ !re z a *ild & z a boy1 "o liv$ z 9 an en*ant$ isl&4 ,! horizon 0 v n>r[1 & no?+ happ5$ to di/urb ! peace ( ! little oasis4 ,! ,du*y 0 inde$ a little oasis 9 ! l>ge des]t ( ,c5tral ,g]many4 ,! l&scape 0 beautiful3 !re 7 riv]s small & l>ge--! ,mulde & ! ,elbe2 !re 7 magnific5t oak =e/s2 !re 7 regim5ts ( firs /&+ 9 regul> columns l s _m gr5adi]s2 !re 7 p>ks su* z "o sees 9 ,engl& only4 ,! t[n1 ! capital ( ! ,du*y ( ,anhalt-,dessau1 _h be5 c>$ = by successive rul]s--m5 mo/ly f> 9 advance ( _! "t--:o _h read & travell$1 & br\ght home ! be/ !y c\ld f9d abroad4 ,_! old ca/le1 c5turies old1 ov]-aw$ ! t[n2 x 0 by f> ! l>ge/ build+1 ?\gh !re 7 sev]al o!r small] places 9 ! t[n = memb]s ( ! ducal family4 ,all ! public build+s1 !atres1 libr>ies1 s*ools1 & b>racks1 _h be5 erect$ by ! ,dukes1 z well z sev]al private resid5ces int5d$ = "s ( ! high] (ficials4 ,! :ole t[n 01 9 fact1 ! creation ( ! ,dukes2 ! :ole gr\nd on :i* x /ood _h be5 orig9ally _! prop]ty1 b x 0 mo/ly held z freehold by ^? :o _h built _! own private h\ses on x4 ,no "o w\ld h built a h\se on leasehold l&1 & sev]al ( ! h\ses 7 ( s sub/antial a "* t "o saw !y _h be5 int5d$ to la/ = m ?an n9ety-n9e ye>s4 ,! same family (t5 rema9$ 9 _! h\se = g5]ations1 & ! diff]5t /ories 7 occupi$ by ?ree g5]ations at ! same "t--by gr&p>5ts1 p>5ts1 & *ildr54 ,9 ?is small t[n ,i 0 born on ,decemb] #f1 #ahbc4 ,my fa!r1 ,wilhelm ,mll]1 0 ,libr>ian ( ! ,ducal ,libr>y1 & "o ( ! mo/ popul> poets 9 ,g]many4 ,a national monum5t 0 erect$ to 8 memory at ,dessau 9 ! ye> #ahia1 ne>ly a hundr$ ye>s aft] 8 bir?4 ,illu/ration3 ,,my ,,fa!r ,:at a bless+ x w\ld be if su* a rule 7 foll[$ ) all great m51 :o seem s great at ! "t ( _! dea?1 & :o1 a hundr$ ye>s lat]1 are almo/ =gott51 or at all ev5ts appreciat$ by a small numb] ( admir]s only4 ,?is ,monum5t- & ,society-mania is inde$ becom+ v objectionable1 = if = "s "t !re has be5 no room = tombs & /atues 9 ,we/m9/] ,abbey1 !re w soon be no room = !m 9 ! /reets ( ,london4 ,! result is t _m ( ! p :o walk along ! ,?ames ,embankm5t1 p>ticul>ly =eign]s1 (t5 ask1 8,cur80 :5 look+ at ! human idols 9 bronze & m>ble put up !re2 :ile hi/orians1 rememb]+ ! really great m5 ( ,engl&1 w\ld ask q z (t51 8,cur non80 ,!re is a curi\s race ( p1 :o1 z soon z a man ( any note dies1 are ready to f\nd any?+ = him--a monum5t1 a picture1 a s*ool1 a prize1 a society--to keep alive 8 memory4 ,( c\rse ^! societies want presid5ts1 memb]s ( c\ncil1 committees1 secret>ies1 c41 & at la/1 subscriptions also4 ,?us x has happ5$ t ! "n ( f\nd] 7,grnd]7 has assum$1 p>ticul>ly 9 ,g]many1 a p]fume by no means sweet4 ,^? :o are ask$ to subscribe to su* te/imonials "k h[ disagreeable x is to decl9e to give at lea/ _! "n1 deeply z !y feel t 9 giv+ x !y are (f5d+ aga9/ all ! rules ( hi/orical p]spective4 ,i %\ld n say t my fa!r 0 "o ( ! great poets ( ,g]many1 ?\gh ,he9e1 no mean critic1 decl>$ t he plac$ 8 lyric poetry next to t ( ,goe!4 ,besides1 he 0 b>ely ?irty-?ree :5 he di$4 ,he _h be5 a fav\rite pupil ( ,f4 ,a4 ,wolf1 & _h prov$ 8 classical s*ol>%ip by 8 ,hom]is*e ,vors*ule1 & o!r publications4 ,8 poems became popul> 9 ! true s5se ( ! ^w1 & !re are "s :i* ! p 9 ! /reet s+ ev5 n[ )\t be+ aw>e ( ! "n ( _! au?or4 ,s*ub]t's compositions also h contribut$ mu* to ! wide popul>ity ( 8 ,s*ne ,mll]9 & 8 ,w9t]reise1 s t ?\gh x might truly be said ( him t he want$ no monum5t 9 bronze or /one1 x seem$ b natural t a small t[n l ,dessau %\ld wi% to hon\r itself by hon\r+ ! memory ( "o ( its sons4 ,9 ! company ( ,m5delssohn1 ! philosoph]1 & ( ,f4 ,s*neid]1 ! compos]1 a monum5t ( my fa!r 9 ! pr9cipal /reet ( 8 native t[n1 & be=e ! s*ool 9 :i* he _h be5 a pupil & a tea*]1 c\ld h>dly seem out ( place4 ,t ! ,greek ,p>liam5t vot$ ! ,p5telican m>ble = ! poet ( ! ,grie*5li$]1 z x _h done = ,"l ,byron1 0 ano!r inducem5t = 8 fell[ citiz5s to d hon\r to _! hon\r$ poet4 ,he di$ :5 ,i 0 h>dly f\r ye>s old1 s t my recollection ( him is v fa9t & vague1 made up1 ,i believe1 to a great ext5t1 ( pictures1 & ?+s t my "m told me4 ,i seem to rememb] him z a bright1 sunny1 & ?or\ghly joyful man1 delight$ ) our little naught9esses4 ,"o book ,i /ill possess :i* he b\ght = me & :i* 0 to be ! fir/ book ( my libr>y4 ,x 0 a small volume ( ,horace1 pr9t$ by ,pick]+ 9 #ahbj4 ,x has n[ almo/ vani%$ among ! #ab1jjj big volumes t =m my libr>y1 b ,i am delight$ t ,i am /ill able1 at sev5ty-six1 to read x )\t spectacles4 ,i ?9k ,i rememb] my fa!r tak+ my si/] & me on 8 knees1 & tell+ u ! mo/ delightful /ories1 t set u wond]+ & laugh+ & cry+ till we c\ld laugh & cry no long]4 ,he _h be5 a fell[ work] ) ! bro!rs ,grimm1 & ! /ories he told 7 mo/ly f _! collection1 ?\gh he knew h[ to embelli% !m ) any?+ t c\ld make a *ild cry & laugh4 ,p h little idea h[ great & h[ la/+ an influ5ce su* popul> /ories ab\t k+s & que5s1 & pr9cesses & knights1 ab\t ogres & wit*es1 ab\t m5 t h be5 *ang$ into animals1 & ab\t animals t talk & behave l human be+s1 ex]cise on ! imag9ation ( "y *ildr54 ,:ile we li/5$1 a new _w seem$ to op5 be=e u1 & any?+ l d\bt z to ! reality ( ^! be+s nev] exi/$4 ,:at 0 reality or unreality to "y *ildr5 ( f\r & five8 ,h[ few p "k :at real reality is1 ev5 aft] !y h rea*$ ! age ( fifty or sixty4 ,= *ildr51 su* names z reality & unreality d n exi/1 nor ! ideas :i* !y express4 ,!y li/5 to :at _! fa!r tells !m1 & !y _c see any diff]5ce betwe5 :at he tells !m ( ,fr$]ick ,b>b>ossa1 ( ,romulus & ,remus suckl$ by a wolf1 or ( ! dw>fs t gu>d$ ! c(f9 ( ,s*neewitt*54 ,"s p1 h[ev]1 h ?\ght t f an educational po9t ( view1 a belief 9 ?is imag9>y _w mu/ be mis*iev\s4 ,i d\bt x1 & x w\ld be easy to %[ t orig9ally ^! /ories & fables 7 really meant to inculcate "r & good pr9ciples4 ,lu!r decl>$ t he w\ld n lose ^! wond]ful /ories ( 8 t5d] *ildhood = any sum ( money1 & ,cam]>ius 7,fabulae ,aesopeae1 p4 #djf1 ,lipsiae1 #aegj7 speaks ( ^! ,g]man fables z fill+ ! m9ds ( ! p1 & p>ticul>ly ( *ildr51 ) t]ror1 hope1 & religion4 ,! olde/ collections 9 :i* "s ( ^! ,aesopean fables occur1 ! ,pants*atantra & ,hitopadesa 9 ,sanskrit1 7 di/9ctly int5d$ = ! education ( pr9ces1 & ?\gh !y may make ! "y li/5]s incl9$ to be sup]/iti\s1 su* sup]/iti\sness is n likely to la/ long4 ,*ildr5 delight 9 ,mr*5 z 9 a k9d ( pantomime1 & :5 ! curta9 has fall5 on t fairy _w !y (t5 ?9k ( x z ( a beautiful dream t has pass$ away4 ,! /ories are c]ta9ly m impressive ?an ! prov]bs & wise saws :i* _m ( !m 7 meant to illu/rate1 )\t always say+1 haec fabula docet4 ,ev5 if "s ( ^! /ories t\* sometimes on :at may n seem to u q correct1 x is done to make *ildr5 laugh r at ! sill9ess ?an cry at ! d[nright wick$ness ( "s ( ! h]oes4 ,x is by no means uncommon1 = in/ance1 t a good-=-no?+ fell[ succe$s1 :ile 8 virtu\s companions fail4 ,b !re is ei!r a reason = x1 or ! inju/ice provokes ! indignation ( *ildr51 long be=e !y h le>nt t 9 real life also virtue does n always receive its rew>d1 :ile falsehood (t5 prosp]s1 at lea/ = a "t4 ,!re is no h>m1 ,i ?9k1 9 a c]ta9 dream9ess 9 *ildr54 ,i rememb] t ,i h (t5 laugh$ ) all my he>t at ,rumpel/ilz*51 & %$ bitt] te>s at ,brd]*5 & ,s*we/]*54 ,i seem$ to see bro!r & si/] driv5 into ! wood1 ! bro!r be+ *ang$ into a de]1 & ! si/] sleep+ ) h] head on 8 w>m fur1 till at la/ ! de] 0 kill$ by a huntsman1 & ! little si/] _h to travel on q alone 9 ! =e/4 ,( c\rse 9 ! end %e became a pr9cess1 & ! bro!r a pr9ce :o m>ri$ a que51 & all end$ 9 great joy & jubilation 9 :i* we all jo9$4 ,h[ good = *ildr5 t !y %\ld = a "t at lea/ h liv$ 9 su* a dreaml&1 9 :i* tru?fulness 0 z a rule rew>d$1 & falsehood puni%$ 9 ! end4 ,x 0 l a recollection ( a ,p>adise1 & su* a recollection1 ev5 if x br\ght out ! contra/ betwe5 ! dream-_w & ! real _w1 w\ld (t5 set *ildr5 mus+ on :at ought & :at ought n to be4 ,!y did n long believe 9 ,dornrs*5 & ,s*neewitt*51 !y le>nt b too soon t ,dornrs*5 & ,s*neewitt*5 belong$ to ano!r _w4 ,!y may ev5 h come to le>n t ,dornrs*5 7?orn-rose7 & ,s*neewitt*5 7sn[-:ite7 7 meant orig9ally = ! sleep or dea? ( nature 9 h] sn[-:ite %r\d1 & ! return ( ! sun2 b woe to ! boy :o on fir/ le>n+ ^! /ories %\ld h decl>$ t !y 7 m]e bo%1 or1 z ,sir ,walt] ,scott says1 ! detritus ( nature-my?s4 ,my fa!r's fa!r1 :om ,i nev] knew1 seems n to h be5 di/+ui%$ 9 any way4 ,he 01 h[ev]1 a useful tradesman & a respect$ citiz5 ( ,dessau1 &1 z ,i see1 ! f\nd] ( ! fir/ l5d+ libr>y 9 t small t[n4 ,he m>ri$ a second "t1 a ri* wid[1 *iefly1 z ,i 0 told1 to enable him to give 8 son1 my fa!r1 a lib]al education4 ,%e grew to be v old1 & ,i well rememb] h]1 to me1 =bidd+ & t]rify+ appe>ance4 ,%e q belong$ to a pa/ g5]ation1 & :5 ,i saw h] aga9 aft] hav+ be5 9 ,engl&1 %e ask$ me :e!r ,i _h se5 ,napoleon :o _h be5 tak5 prison] & s5t to ,engl&1 b _h lately escap$ & resum$ 8 ?rone 9 ,p>is4 ,%e evid5tly mix$ up ! two ,napoleons1 & ,i did n contradict h]4 ,to me h] conv]sation 0 int]e/+ z %[+ h[ little ! traditions ( ! p c be reli$ on1 & h[ easily1 by ! side ( real hi/ory1 a popul> hi/ory c\ld gr[ up4 ,aft] all1 ! poems ( ,*>lemagne besieg+ ,j]usalem ow$ _! orig9 v likely to "s simil> confusion 9 ! m9ds ( old wom54 ,my si/] & ,i 7 always t]rifi$ :5 we 7 s5t to visit h]1 = ) h] di%evell$ grey hair1 h] ?9 :ite face1 & h] pi]c+ eyes1 %e 0 to u ! old gr&mo!r1 or ! wit* ( ,grimm's /ories2 & ! language %e us$ 0 su* t1 if we repeat$ x at home1 we 7 sev]ely reprim&$4 ,%e knew v little ab\t my fa!r1 b h] memory ab\t h] fir/ husb& & ab\t h] own y\? & *ildhood 0 v cle>1 ?\gh n always edify+4 ,h] /ories ab\t gho/s1 wit*es1 ogres1 nick]s1 & ! :ole ( t race 7 c]ta9ly en\gh to fright5 a *ild1 & "s ( !m clung to me = a v long "t4 ,on my "m's side my relations 7 m civiliz$1 & !y _h b little social int]c\rse ) my gr&mo!r & h] relatives4 ,my "m's fa!r 0 von ,bas$[1 ! ,presid5t1 t is ,prime ,m9i/] ( ! ,du*y ( ,anhalt-,dessau1 a position 9 :i* he 0 succe$$ by 8 elde/ son1 my uncle4 ,he 0 ! fir/ man 9 ! t[n2 ! ,duke & he really rul$ ! ,du*y exactly z !y pleas$4 ,!re 0 no *eck on !m ( any k9d1 & yet no "o1 z f> z ,i "k1 ev] compla9$ ( any tyranny4 ,my gr&fa!r's fa!r aga9 0 ! fam\s re=m] ( public education 9 ,g]many4 ,he 7#agbc-agij7 _h to brave ! cons]vative & cl]ical p>ties ?r\gh\t ! c\ntry4 ,8 home at ,hamburg 0 burnt 9 a riot1 & x 0 !n t he migrat$ to ,dessau1 to become ! f\nd] ( ! ,philan?rop9um1 & at ! same "t ! pa?-break] = m5 su* z ,pe/alozzi 7#agdf-ahbg7 & ,froebel 7#aghb-aheb74 ,consid]+ 8 lifelong /ruggles1 he des]v$ a bett] monum5t at ,dessau ?an he has f\nd !re4 ,no d\bt he 0 a passionate & viol5t man1 & 8 outbreaks are /ill rememb]$ at ,dessau1 :ile 8 b5eficial activity has almo/ be5 =gott54 ,i 0 (t5 told t ,i took aft] my "m's family1 :atev] t may mean1 & ?is 0 c]ta9ly ! case 9 outw>d appe>ance1 ?\gh ,i hope n 9 temp]4 ,my great gr&fa!r1 ! ,p$agogue z he 0 call$1 0 a fri5d ( ,goe!'s1 & is m5tion$ 9 8 poems4 ,my *ildhood at home 0 (t5 v sad4 ,my "m1 :o 0 left a wid[ at tw5ty-eight ) two *ildr51 my si/] & myself1 0 he>t-brok54 ,! few ye>s ( h] m>ri$ life _h be5 mo/ bright & brilliant4 ,my fa!r 0 a ris+ poet1 & su* 0 8 popul>ity t he 0 able to indulge 8 ta/es z he lik$1 :e!r 9 travell+ or 9 mak+ 8 h\se a pleasant c5tre ( social life4 ,contempor>ies & fri5ds ( my fa!r1 p>ticul>ly ,b>on ,simol91 a v intimate fri5d1 :o sp5t ! ,*ri/mas ( #ahbe 9 our h\se1 h writt5 ( ! bright gaiety1 ! :ole-he>t$ enjoym5t ( life t reign$ !re1 & h told h[1 ?\gh 8 income 0 to say ! lea/ ( x small1 ,wilhelm ,mll]'s home 0 ! rally+-po9t = all ! cultivat$1 sci5tific1 & arti/ic society ( ,dessau1 :o felt attract$ by ! simple & unaffect$ yet truly g5ial disposition ( ! ma/] ( ! h\se4 ,x w\ld be int]e/+ to "k h[ mu* an au?or c\ld make at t "t by 8 p54 ,publi%]s seem to h be5 f> m lib]al !n ?an !y are n[4 ,! circum/ances 7 diff]5t4 ,! numb] ( writ]s 0 ( c\rse mu* small]1 & ! sale ( really popul> books probably mu* l>g]4 ,anyh[1 my fa!r1 ^: sal>y 0 m9ute1 seems to h be5 able to enjoy ! few ye>s ( 8 m>ri$ life 9 great com=t4 ,! ?\ght ( sav+ money1 h[ev]1 seems nev] to h ent]$ 8 poetical m9d1 & aft] 8 unexpect$ dea?1 due to p>alysis ( ! he>t1 x 0 f\nd t h>dly any provision _h be5 made = 8 family4 ,ev5 ! life insurance1 :i* is obligatory on e civil s]vant1 & ! p5sion grant$ by ! ,duke1 gave my "m b a v small income1 fabul\sly small1 :5 "o consid]s t %e _h to br+ up two *ildr5 on x4 ,x has be5 a riddle to me ev] s9ce h[ %e 0 able to d x4 ,h[ev]1 x 0 done1 & c\ld only h be5 done 9 a small t[n l ,dessau1 :]e education 0 z good z x 0 *eap1 & :]e v little 0 expect$ by society4 ,we mu/ also take into acc\nt ! v l[ prices :i* !n rul$ at ,dessau ) reg>d to almo/ all ! necess>ies ( life4 ,i see f ! old newspap]s t beef sold at ab\t ?reep5ce a p\nd 7two gros*571 mutton at ab\t twop5ce4 ,w9e 0 sold at sev5 to eight gros*5 a bottle1 a bett] sort = twelve to f\rte5 gros*5--a gros*5 be+ ab\t a p5ny4 ,p drank mo/ly be]1 & ?is 0 sold "u ,gov]nm5t inspection at two to ?ree gros*5 p] qu>t4 ,fi% 0 equally *eap1 & su*1 at ! beg9n+ ( ! c5tury1 0 ! abundance ( salmon caught 9 ! ,elbe1 & ev5 9 ! ,mulde at ,dessau1 t x 0 /ipulat$ z 9 ,scotl&1 t s]vants %\ld n h salmon m ?an twice or ?rice 9 ! week4 ,! l[e/ price = salmon 0 !n twop5ce halfp5ny a p\nd4 ,z a boy ,i c rememb] see+ ! salmon 9 l>ge numb]s leap ov] a weir 9 ! v t[n ( ,dessau1 & ?\gh !y _h travell$ = s _m miles inl&1 ! fi% 0 v good1 ?\gh n s good z ,sev]n salmon4 ,game also 0 v *eap1 & sold = n mu* m ?an mutton1 nay1 at c]ta9 times x 0 giv5 away2 x c\ld n be export$4 ,corn 0 sold at ?ree %ill+s p] ,s*effel1 & by corn 0 *iefly meant rye4 ,no "o took :eat5 bread1 & ! bread 0 !re=e call$ br[n bread & black bread4 ,:ite bread 0 only tak5 ) c(fee1 & peasants 9 ! villages w\ld n h t\*$ x1 because x 0 n suppos$ to make su* /rong bones z rye-bread4 ,) su* prices we c und]/& t a sal>y ( #cjj 0 consid]$ suffici5t = ! highe/ (fic]s ( /ate4 ,my "m's relations1 :o 7 all high 9 ! public s]vice1 my gr&fa!r1 z ,i said1 be+ ! ,duke's *ief m9i/]1 made life m easy & pleasant = u2 b = _m ye>s my "m nev] w5t into society1 & our society consi/$ ( memb]s ( our own family only4 ,all ,i rememb] ( my "m at t "t 0 t %e took h] two *ildr5 day aft] day to ! beautiful ,gottesack] 7,god's ,acre71 :]e %e /ood = h\rs at our fa!r's grave1 & sobb$ & cri$4 ,x 0 a beautiful & re/ful place1 cov]$ ) old acacia trees4 ,! inscription ov] ! gateway 0 "o ( my e>lie/ puzzles4 ,tod i/ ni*t ,tod1 i/ nur ,v]$lung m5s*li*] ,natur 7,dea? is n dea?1 'tis b ! ennobl+ ( man's nature74 ,on ea* side !re /ood a figure1 repres5t+ ! g5ius ( sleep & ! g5ius ( dea?4 ,all ?is 0 ! "w ( ! old ,duke1 ,leopold ,fri$ri* ,franz1 :o tri$ to educate 8 p z he _h educat$ himself1 p>tly by travel1 p>tly by int]c\rse ) ! be/ m5 he c\ld attract to ,dessau4 ,illu/ration3 ,,my ,,"m ,at home ! atmosph]e 0 c]ta9ly depress+ to a boy4 ,i he>d & ?\ght m ab\t dea? ?an ab\t life1 ?\gh ,i knew little ( c\rse ( :at life or dea? meant4 ,i _h b few pleasures1 & my *ief happ9ess 0 to be ) my "m4 ,i %>$ h] grief )\t und]/&+ mu* ab\t x4 ,%e 0 passionately devot$ to h] *ildr51 & ,i 0 passionately fond ( h]4 ,:at !re 0 left ( life to h]1 %e gave to u1 %e liv$ = u only1 & tri$ v h>d n to deprive our *ildhood ( all brightness4 ,%e 0 c]ta9ly mo/ beautiful1 & q diff]5t f all o!r ladies at ,dessau1 n only 9 ! eyes ( h] son1 b z x seem$ to me1 ( ev]ybody4 ,!n %e _h a mo/ p]fect voice1 & :5 ,i fir/ began music %e help$ & enc\rag$ me 9 e possible way4 ,we play$ quatre ma9s1 & soon %e made me accompany h] :5 %e sang4 ,z f> z ,i c recollect1 ,i 0 nev] s happy z :5 ,i c\ld be ) h]4 ,%e read s mu* to u t ,i 0 q satisfi$1 & saw p]haps less ( my "y fri5ds ?an ,i ought4 ,:5 my "m said %e wi%$ to die1 & to be ) our fa!r1 ,i feel sure t my si/] & ,i 7 only anxi\s t %e %\ld take u ) h]1 = !re 7 few gold5 *a9s t b\nd u z yet to ?is life4 ,i see h] n[1 sitt+ on a w9t]'s ev5+ ne> ! w>m /ove1 a c&le on ! table1 & a book f :i* %e read to u 9 h] h&s1 :ile ! sp9n+-:eel work$ by ! s]vant-maid 9 ! corn] w5t on humm+ all ! "t4 ,%e read ,paul ,g]h>d's translation ( ,/4 ,b]n>d's3 8,salve caput cru5tatum1 ,totum sp9is coronatum1 ,conquassatum1 vuln]atum1 ,arund9e v]b]atum1 ,facies sputis illita40 8,o ,haupt voll ,blut und ,wund51 ,voll ,s*m]z und voll] ,hohn6 ,o ,haupt zu ,spott gebund5 ,mit e9] ,dorn5kron1 ,o ,haupt son/ s*n gezi]et ,mit h*/] ,ehr und ,zi]1 ,jetzt ab] ho* s*impfiret3 ,gegrsset sei/ du mir60 ,?\gh ! ,g]man translation does n come ne> ! p[]ful maje/y ( ! orig9al1 yet su* 0 ! effect produc$ on me t ,i saw ! ble$+ head be=e my eyes1 & cri$ & cri$ until my "m _h to com=t me by assur+ me t ! suff]] 0 n[ 9 ,heav5 & t x 0 only a song to be sung 9 *ur*4 ,h[ deeply su* sc5es seem engrav$ on ! memory2 h[ vividly !y return :5 ! rubbi% ( _m ye>s is swept away & all is aga9 z x 0 !n1 & ! caput cru5tatum looks d[n on u once m1 z x did !n1 ) ! human eyes full ( div9e love1 s truly human t "o c\ld say ) ,/4 ,b]n>d1 8,tuum caput huc incl9a1 9 meis pausa bra*iis40 ,b will+ly z ,i li/5$ to ^! read+s at home1 & full z my he>t 0 ( love to ,*ri/1 ,i suff]$ int5sely :5 ,i 0 tak5 to *ur* z a "y boy4 ,x 0 a v l>ge *ur*1 & 9 w9t] bitt]ly cold4 ,ev5 ?\gh ,i lik$ ! s++1 ! long s]mon 0 real torture to me4 ,i c\ld n und]/& a ^w ( x1 & be+ ?9ly clad my tee? w\ld h *att]$ if ,i _h n be5 told t x 0 wrong 8to make a noise 9 *ur*40 ,oh6 :at mis]y is inflict$ on *ildhood by ?is en=c$ att5dance at *ur*4 ,:5 a *ur* c be w>m$ ! suff]+ is less int5se1 b a huge :itewa%$ *ur* t feels l an ice-cell> is ab\t ! wor/ torture t human +5uity c\ld h inv5t$ to make *ildr5 hate ! v "n ( *ur*4 ,^! e>ly impressions (t5 rema9 = life1 & ! wor/ ( x is t ! idea rema9s 9 ! m9ds ( *ildr51 & ( gr[n-up p too1 t by go+ to *ur* & repeat+ ! same pray]s ov] & ov] aga91 & li/5+ to long & (t5 dre>y s]mons1 !y are actually do+ a s]vice to ,god 7,gottesdi5/74 ,:y does no new prophet arise & say 9 ! "n ( ,god1 z ,david did 9 ! "n ( ,jehovah1 8,s]mons & long pray]s #8?\ did/ n desire'08 ,_m ye>s lat] ,i _h to discuss ! same "q ) ,ke%ub ,*und] ,s51 ! ,indian ,re=m]4 ,he want$ to "k :at k9d ( s]vice %\ld be adopt$ by 8 new *ur*1 ! ,brahmo ,somaj2 8 fri5ds ?\ght ( s]mons1 s++1 & processions ) flags & fl[]s ?r\gh ! /reets4 8,no10 ,i said to him1 8s]vice ( ,god %\ld be s]vice ( m52 if y want div9e s]vice1 let x be a real s]vice1 su* z ,god w\ld approve (4 ,let o!r p g to *ur*1 to _! mosques or _! temples1 b take y y\r own fri5ds on c]ta9 days ( ! week to :atev] y l to call y\r meet+-place1 & aft] a %ort pray] or a few words ( advice s5d "s ( !m to ! poore/ /reets 9 ! city1 o!rs to ! prisons1 o!rs to ! hospitals4 ,let !m pray ) all :o wi% to pray1 b let !m speak words ( true love & com=t also1 & :5 !y c1 let !m help !m ) _! alms4 ,t w\ld be a real ,div9e ,s]vice & a div9e ,sunday = y1 & y w\ld all come home1 x may be sadd]1 b c]ta9ly wis] & bett] m540 ,i am afraid he did n agree ) me4 ,he did n ?9k t true religion 0 to visit ! poor & ! afflict$4 ,t might d = a practical p l ! ,engli%1 b ! ,h9du want$ some?+ else1 he want$ "s outw>d %[ & c]emony = ! p1 & at ! same "t "s sil5t communion ) ,god4 ,:o c tell :at diff]5t p und]/& by religion8 & :o c prescribe ! spiritual food t is be/ = !m8 8,only10 ,i said1 8d n call x practical to enc\rage millions ( p to wa/e h\rs & h\rs 9 m]e repetition1 & to sp5d millions & millions 9 supply+ ?is cold com=t1 :5 next door to ! magnific5t ca!dral !re are squalid /reets1 & squalid h\ses1 & squalid b$s to lie & die on40 ,! religi\s & devotional elem5t is v /rong 9 ,g]many1 b ! *ur*es are mo/ly empty4 ,a ,g]man keeps 8 religion = weekdays r ?an = ,sunday4 ,:5 ! ,g]man regim5ts m>*$1 & :5 !y made ready = battle1 !y did n s+ ribald songs1 !y sang ! songs ( ,lu!r & ,paul ,g]h>d1 :i* !y knew by he>t & :i* /r5g!n$ !m to face dea? z x ought to be fac$4 ,=tunately1 :ile en=c$ att5dance at *ur* 0 apt to produce ! /ronge/ av]sion 9 ! "y he>t aga9/ any?+ t 0 call$ religion1 religi\s in/ruction bo? at home & at s*ool too 0 excell5t1 & undid mu* ( ! mis*ief t _h be5 done dur+ cold w9t] days4 ,true religi\s s5tim5ts c be plant$ 9 ! s\l at home only1 by a "m bett] ev5 ?an by a fa!r4 ,! s5se ( a div9e pres5ce ev]y:]e1 1 once plant$ 9 ! he>t ( a *ild rema9s = life4 ,( c\rse ! *ild soon beg9s to argue1 & says to 8 "m t ,god _c be at ! same "t 9 two rooms4 ,b only let a "m %[ to ! *ild ! rays ( ! sun 9 ! sky1 9 ! /reets1 & 9 e corn] ( ! h\se1 & x w beg9 to und]/& t no?+ c be hid f ! eyes ( ,him :o is great] ?an ! sun4 ,& :5 a *ild d\bts :e!r ! voice ( consci5ce c be ! voice ( ,god1 & asks h[ he c\ld he> t voice )\t see+ ! speak]1 ask him only ^: voice x c be t tells him n to d :at he himself wi%es to d1 & n to say :at he c\ld say )\t any fe> ( m52 & 8 idea ( ,god w be rais$ f t ( a visible be+ l ! sun1 to ! concept ( a pres5ce t nev] vani%es1 t is n only )\t1 9 ! sky1 9 ! m\nta9s1 & 9 ! /orm1 b ne>] also )91 9 ! s5se ( fe>1 9 ! s5se ( %ame1 & 9 ! hope ( p>don & love4 ,at s*ool our religi\s tea*+ 0 *iefly hi/orical & moral4 ,!re 0 no difficulty 9 f9d+ prop] tea*]s = t1 & !re 7 no attempts on ! "p ( p>5ts to int]f]e ) religi\s in/ruction or to dem& sep>ate tea*+ = ea* sect4 ,x is true t religi\s sects are n s num]\s 9 ,g]many z !y are 9 ,engl&4 ,"s1 ?\gh by no means all1 *ildr5 ( ,roman ,ca?olic & ,jewi% p>5ts 7 all[$ to be abs5t f religi\s lessons4 ,b mo/ p>5ts knew t ! hi/ory ( ! ,jewi% religion w\ld be taught at s*ool 9 s imp>tial & truly hi/orical a _s z nev] to (f5d ,jewi% *ildr54 ,respect = hi/orical tru?1 & an implant$ s5se ( ! rev]5ce due to *ildr51 w\ld keep any tea*] f mak+ ! hi/ory ( ! ,*ri/ian ,*ur*1 :e!r be=e or aft] ! ,re=mation1 an excuse = (f5d+ "o ( ! little ones committ$ to 8 c>e4 ,if ,jews or ,roman ,ca?olics wi%$ = any special religi\s in/ruction x 0 giv5 by _! own prie/s or ,rabbis1 & 0 giv5 )\t any int]f]5ce on ! "p ( ! ,gov]nm5t4 ,b su* 0 at my "t ! /ate ( public feel+ t ,i h>dly knew at s*ool :o among my "y fri5ds 7 ,roman ,ca?olics1 or ,lu!rans1 or ,re=m$4 ,i mu/ admit1 h[ev]1 t ! v "n ( ,lu!r might h (f5d$ ,roman ,ca?olics4 ,he 0 repres5t$ to u z a p]fect sa9t1 almo/ z inspir$ & infallible4 ,8 hymns sung 9 *ur* seem$ to u little diff]5t f ! ,psalms ( ,david1 & ,i well rememb] :at a %ock x gave me :5 at ,ox=d1 mu* lat] 9 life1 ,i he>d ,lu!r spok5 ( l any o!r mortal1 nay1 z a h]etic1 & a mo/ dang]\s h]etic too4 ,:5 ,i 0 a boy ,i rememb] t 9 "s places ! same build+ _h to be us$ = ,prote/ant & ,roman ,ca?olic s]vices4 ,all t1 ,i am afraid1 is n[ *ang$1 & ! old lib]al & tol]ant feel+ !n prevail+ on all sides is n[ (t5 /igmatiz$ z indiff]5ce1 & by o!r ugly names4 ,x %\ld really be call$ ! gold5 age ( ,*ri/ianity1 & ?is s-call$ indiff]5ce %\ld be class$ among ! highe/ ,*ri/ian virtues1 & z ! fulle/ realization ( ! _s ( ,*ri/4 ,?us we grew up f our e>lie/ y\?1 be+ taught to look ^u ,*ri/ianity z an hi/orical fact1 on ,*ri/ & ,8 disciples z hi/orical *>act]s1 on ! ,old & ,new ,te/am5ts z real hi/orical books4 ,?\gh we did n und]/& z yet ! deep] mean+ ( ,*ri/ & ( ,8 words1 we _h at lea/ no?+ to unle>n 9 lat] times1 or to feel t our p>5ts _h ev] told u :at !y !mselves c\ld n h held to be true4 ,our simple fai? 0 n %ak5 by m]e que/ions ( criticism1 or by ! problem h[ any human be+ c\ld take ^u himself to decl>e any book to be reveal$1 unless he claim$ = himself a m ?an human insight4 ,! simple/ rules ( logic %\ld make su* a decl>ation impossible1 :atev] ! sacr$ book may be to :i* x is appli$4 ,grant$ t ! ,pope 0 infallible1 h[ c\ld ! ,c>d9als "k t he 01 unless !y claim$ = !mselves ! same or ev5 great] infallibility8 ,x is f> m easy to be inspir$ ?an to "k "s "o else is or 0 inspir$2 ! true inspiration is1 & always has be51 ! _s ( tru? )91 & ?is is b ano!r "n = ! _s ( ,god4 ,x is tru? t makes inspiration1 n inspiration t makes tru?4 ,:oev] kn[s :at tru? is1 kn[s also :at inspiration is3 n only !opneu/os1 bl[n into ! s\l by ,god1 b ! v voice ( ,god1 ! real pres5ce ( ,god1 ! only pres5ce 9 :i* we1 z human be+s1 c ev] p]ceive ,him4 ,h[ (t5 h ,i 9 lat] life tri$ to expla9 ?is to my fri5ds 9 ,france & 9 ,engl& :o endur$ m5tal agonies be=e !y c\ld arrive at ! simple conclusion t revelation c nev] be objective1 b mu/ always be subjective4 ,i may return to ?is "q at a lat] p]iod ( my life1 :5 ,i _h to discuss ) ,r5an1 at ,p>is1 ) ,fr\de1 ,k+sley1 & ,liddon1 9 ,engl&1 & tri$ to %[ h[ entirely self-made "s ( _! difficulties 74 ,at pres5t ,i h only to expla9 h[ x 0 t ,i _h nev] to extricate myself f a net 9 :i* s _m hone/ ?9k]s f9d !mselves entangl$ )\t any fault ( _! own2 z ,samson1 :5 he awoke1 f\nd himself b\nd ) sev5 gre5 )s & _h to break !m ) all 8 might be=e he c\ld hope to escape f ! ,phili/9es4 ,! ,phili/9es nev] b\nd me4 ,dur+ my e>ly s*ool-days ^! difficulties did n exi/1 b ,i h (t5 be5 grateful 9 aft] life t ! sev5 locks ( my head h nev] be5 wov5 ) ! web4 ,i rememb] a numb] ( small ev5ts 9 my s*ool-life at ,dessau1 b ?\gh !y 7 full ( int]e/ to me1 nay1 full ( mean+1 & n )\t an influ5ce on my lat] life1 !y w\ld h no mean+ & no int]e/ = o!rs1 & may rema9 z if !y _h nev] be54 ,! influ5ce :i* music ex]cis$ on my m9d1 &1 ,i believe1 on my he>t also1 ,i h relat$ 9 my ,musical ,recollections4 ,! image ( ^? pass+ ye>s1 ?\gh its g5]al tone 0 melan*oly1 *iefly ow+ to my "m's melan*oly1 seem$ to me at ! "t free f all unhapp9ess4 ,my "w at s*ool & at home 0 n too heavy2 ,i 0 fond ( x1 & v fond ( books4 ,books 7 sc>ce !n1 & :oev] possess$ a new & valuable book 0 expect$ to l5d x to 8 fri5ds 9 ! little t[n4 ,if a man 0 kn[n to possess1 say1 ,goe!'s works or ,jean ,paul's works1 ! consequ5ce 0 t "o w5t to him or to h] to ask = ! loan ( !m4 ,& n only books1 b pap] & p5s also 7 sc>ce4 ,! fir/ /eel p5s came 9 :5 ,i 0 /ill 9 ! l[] s*ool1 & bad z !y 7 !y 7 look$ ^u z real treasures by ! s*oolboys :o possess$ !m4 ,pap] 0 s de> t "o _h to be v sp>+ 9 its use4 ,e m>g9 & cov] 0 scribbl$ ov] be=e x 0 ?r[n away1 & ,i felt (t5 s hamp]$ by ! sc>city ( pap] t ,i gladly accept$ a set ( copybooks in/ead ( any o!r pres5t t ,i might h ask$ = on my bir?day or at ,*ri/mas4 ,i am sorry to say ,i h _h to suff] all my life f ! ineffici5cy ( our writ+ ma/]1 or maybe f ! fact t my ?\ghts 7 too quick = my p54 ,9 o!r subjects ,i did well1 b ?\gh ,i 0 among ! fir/ 9 ea* class1 ,i 0 by no means clev]] ?an o!r boys4 ,9 ! l[] s*ool "w 0 m l conv]sation or l he>+ news f our tea*]s4 ,! idea ( ef=t did n yet exi/4 ,! drudg]y began1 h[ev]1 :5 ,i ent]$ ! upp] s*ool1 ! gymnasium1 & le>nt ! elem5ts ( ,lat9 & ,greek4 ,?\gh our tea*]s 7 v consci5ti\s1 !y tri$ to make our "w no burd5 to u1 & ! con/ant *ange ( places 9 ea* class kept up a lively rivalry among ! boys1 ?\gh ,i am n sure t x did n make me r ambiti\s & at times conceit$4 ,/ill1 ,i _h few enemies1 & x seem$ ( mu* m consequ5ce :o c\ld knock d[n ano!r boy ?an :o c\ld ga9 a place above him4 ,i feel sure ,i c\ld h done a great deal m at s*ool ?an ,i did1 b x 0 p>tly my music & p>tly my incessant heada*es t int]f]$ ) my s*ool "w4 ,i rememb] z a boy t c]ta9 /reets 7 inhabit$ exclusively by ,jewi% families4 ,a l>ge numb] ( ,jews _h be5 receiv$ at ,dessau by a =m] ,duke2 b ?\gh he grant$ !m leave to settle at ,dessau :5 !y 7 p]secut$ 9 o!r p>ts ( ,g]many1 he /ipulat$ t !y %\ld only settle 9 c]ta9 /reets4 ,^! /reets 7 by no means ! wor/ /reets ( ! t[n2 on ! contr>y !y %[$ great] com=t & h>dly any ( ! squalor :i* disgrac$ ! ,jewi% qu>t]s 9 o!r t[ns 9 ,g]many4 ,z *ildr5 we 7 br\ght up )\t any prejudice aga9/ ! ,jews1 ?\gh we _h1 no d\bt1 a c]ta9 feel+ t !y 7 tol]at$ only1 & 7 n q on ! same level ) ourselves4 ,we also felt ! religi\s difficulty sometimes v /rongly4 ,7 n ! ,jews ! murd]]s ( ,*ri/8 & _h !y n said3 8! blood be on u & on our *ildr508 ,b z we 7 told t x 0 wrong to h>b\r feel+s ( rev5ge1 we boys soon =got & =gave1 & play$ toge!r z ! be/ fri5ds4 ,i rememb] pick+ up a numb] ( ,jewi% words :i* w\ld n h be5 und]/ood any:]e else4 ,i 0 h>dly aw>e t !y 7 ,jewi% & us$ !m l any o!r words4 ,b ,i once gave great (f5ce to my fri5d ,pr(essor ,b]nays1 :o 0 a ,jew4 ,he _h utt]$ "s q incr$ible /atem5t1 & ,i exclaim$1 8,s9d ,sie d5n ganz mas*ukke80--,hebrew = 8mad40 ,i meant no h>m1 b he 0 v mu* hurt4 ,i knew sev]al ,jewi% families1 & receiv$ mu* k9dness f !m z a boy4 ,_m ( ^! families 7 weal?y1 b !y nev] display$ _! weal?1 & 9 consequ5ce excit$ no envy4 ,all t is *ang$ n[4 ,! *ildr5 ( ! ,jews :o =m]ly liv$ 9 a v quiet /yle at ,dessau1 n[ occupy ! be/ h\ses1 indulge 9 mo/ exp5sive ta/es1 & try 9 e way to out%9e _! non-,jewi% neighb\rs4 ,!y buy !mselves titles1 &1 :5 !y c1 /ipulate = />s & ord]s z rew>ds = successful f9ancial op]ations1 c>ri$ out ) ! money ( pr9cely p]sonages4 ,h5ce ! revulsion ( feel+ all ov] ,g]many1 or :at is call$ ,anti-,semitism1 :i* has assum$ n only a social b a political significance4 ,i d\bt :e!r !re is any?+ religi\s 9 x1 z !re 0 :5 we 7 boys4 ,! ,anti-,semitic hatr$ is ! hatr$ ( money-mak+1 m p>ticul>ly ( t k9d ( money-mak+ :i* requires no h>d "w1 b only a l>ge capital to beg9 )1 & boldness & a/ut5ess 9 speculat+1 t is 9 buy+ & sell+ at ! "r mom5t4 ,! s9ews ( w> = t k9d ( f9ancial w>f>e 7 mo/ly suppli$ by ! fa!rs & gr&fa!rs ( ! pres5t g5]ation4 ,sometimes1 no d\bt1 ! capital 0 lo/1 & 9 ^? cases x mu/ be said t ! ,jewi% speculator disappe>s f ! /age )\t a sigh or a cry4 ,he beg9s aga91 & if he %\ld h to d :at 8 gr&fa!r did1 walk f h\se to h\se ) a bag on 8 back1 he does n :9e4 ,"o _c blame ! ,jews or any o!r speculators = us+ _! opportunities1 b !y mu/ n compla9 ei!r if !y excite envy1 & if t envy assumes 9 ! end a dang]\s "*4 ,! ,jews1 s f> f suff]+ f disabilities1 enjoy really c]ta9 privileges ov] _! ,*ri/ian competitors 9 ,g]many4 ,!y belong to a regnum1 b also to a regnum 9 regno4 ,!y h1 s to say1 our ,sunday & likewise _! ,sabba?4 ,jew w always help ,jew aga9/ a ,*ri/ian2 & aga9 :o c blame !m = t8 ,all "o c say is t !y %\ld n compla9 ( _! unpopul>ity1 b take into acc\nt ! risk !y are runn+4 ,no "o hat$ ! ,jews su* z !y 7 9 ,dessau fifty ye>s ago4 ,!y _h _! own s*ools & synagogues1 & no "o int]f]$ ) !m :5 !y built _! b[]s 9 ! /reets at ! "t ( _! ,fea/ ( ,tab]nacles1 & liv$1 fea/$1 & slept 9 !m to keep up ! memory ( _! soj\rn+ 9 ! des]t4 ,!y indulg$ 9 ev5 m (f5sive practices1 su* z1 = in/ance1 putt+ ?ree /ones 9 ! c(f9s to be ?r[n by ! dead at ! ,virg9 ,m>y1 h] husb&1 & _! ,son4 ,no "o suspect$ or accus$ !m ( kidnapp+ ,*ri/ian *ildr51 or (f]+ sacrifices ) _! blood4 ,!y 7 kn[n too well = t4 ,conv]sions ( ,jews 7 n infrequ5t1 & conv]t$ ,jews 7 n p]secut$ by _! =m] co-religioni/s z !y are n[4 ,ev5 m>riages betwe5 ,*ri/ians & ,jews 7 by no means uncommon1 p>ticul>ly :5 ! "y ,jewesses 7 beautiful or ri*1 /ill bett] if !y 7 bo?4 ,disgraceful z ! ,anti-,semitic riots h be5 9 ,g]many & ,russia1 !re c be no d\bt t 9 ?is z 9 mo/ cases bo? sides 7 to blame1 & !re is little prospect ( peace be+ re-e/abli%$ till _m m heads h be5 brok54 ,:at help$ v mu* to keep ! peace 9 ! small t[n ( ,dessau1 z x did all ov] ,g]many1 nay1 all ov] ! _w1 till ab\t ! ye> #ahdh1 0 ! small numb] ( newspap]s4 ,9 my *ildhood & y\? _! numb] 0 v small4 ,9 ,dessau ,i only knew ( "o1 :i* 0 !n call$ ! ,wo*5blatt1 aft]w>ds ! ,/aatsanzeig]4 ,at t "t newspap]s 7 really read = ! news :i* !y conta9$1 n = lead+ or mislead+ articles & all ! re/4 ,:at a happy "t x 0 :5 a newspap] consi/$ ( a %eet1 or half a %eet 9 qu>to1 ) %ort p>agraphs ab\t actual ev5ts1 :i* _h (t5 tak5 place weeks & mon?s be=e4 ,a battle might h be5 f\ght 9 ,spa9 or ,turkey1 9 ,india or ,*9a1 & no "o knew ( x till "s (ficial in=mation 0 v\*saf$ by ! respective ,gov]nm5ts or by ,jewi% bank]s4 ,w>-correspond5ts or regul> report]s did n exi/1 & ! old telegraphic dispat*es 7 s5t by wood5 telegraphs fix$ on high t[]s1 :i* f a di/ance look$ l gall[s on :i* a crim9al 0 hang+ & ge/iculat+ ) arms & feet4 ,anybody :o wat*$ ^! signals c\ld deciph] !m f> m easily ?an a hi]oglyphic inscription4 ,! peace ( ,europe1 nay1 ( ! :ole _w1 0 !n 9 ! keep+ ( sov]eigns & _! m9i/]s1 & ,pr9ce ,mett]ni* might c]ta9ly take "s cr$it = hav+ kept :at he call$ ! ,?irty ,ye>s' ,peace4 ,%all we ev]1 z long z !re are newspap]s1 h peace aga9--peace betwe5 ! great nations ( ! _w1 & peace at home betwe5 cont5d+ p>ties1 & peace 9 our morn+s at home :i* are n[ s ru?lessly brok5 9 ^u1 nay1 swall[$ up by ^? pap]-giants1 mo/ unwelcome yet irresi/ible call]s1 j :5 we want to settle d[n to a quiet day's "w8 ,x is no use prote/+ aga9/ ! inevitable1 nor c we q agree ) ^? :o ma9ta9 t no newspap] c>ries ! slighte/ weight or ex]cises ! smalle/ influ5ce on home or =eign politics4 ,a v influ5tial /atesman & wise ?9k] us$ to say t we %\ld nev] h _h ,*ri/ianity if newspap]s _h exi/$ at ! "t ( ,augu/us4 ,:5 unsuccessful littrateurs or bankrupt bank]s' cl]ks 7 ! *ief contributors to ! newspap]s1 _! influ5ce might h be5 small2 b :5 ,bism>cks turn$ j\rnali/s1 & ,gort*ak(fs prompt$1 newspap]s c\ld h>dly be call$ quantits ngligeables4 ,! horizon ( ,dessau 0 v n>r[1 b )9 its b\nds !re 0 a busy & happy life4 ,ev]ybody did 8 "w hone/ly & consci5ti\sly4 ,!re 71 ( c\rse1 two classes1 ! educat$ & ! un$ucat$4 ,! educat$ consi/$ ( ! memb]s ( ! ,gov]nm5t s]vice1 ! cl]gy1 ! s*oolma/]s1 doctors1 arti/s1 & (fic]s2 ! un$ucat$ 7 ! tradesm51 me*anics1 & lab\r]s4 ,! trade 0 mo/ly 9 ! h&s ( ,jews1 x _h become almo/ a ,jewi% monopoly4 ,:5 "o ( ^! tradesm5 w5t bankrupt1 !re 0 a commotion ov] ! :ole t[n1 & ,i rememb] be+ tak5 to see "o ( ^! bankrupt %ops1 expect+ to f9d ! :ole h\se brok5 up & demoli%$1 & be+ surpris$ to see ! tradesman /&+ :ole1 & s\nd1 & smil+1 9 8 accu/om$ place4 ,my etymological ta/es mu/ h develop$ v e>ly1 = ,i _h ask$ :y ?is poor ,jew 0 call$ a bankrupt1 & _h be5 duly in=m$ t x 0 because 8 bank _h be5 brok51 banca rotta1 :i* ( c\rse ,i took 9 a lit]al s5se1 & expect$ to see all ! furniture brok5 to pieces4 ,! comm]cial relations ( our ,dessau tradesm5 did n ext5d mu* beyond ,leipzig1 ,b]l91 possibly ,hamburg & ,cologne4 ,if a burgh] ( ,dessau travell$ to ^! or to m di/ant p>ts ! :ole t[n knew ( x & talk$ ab\t x1 :]eas a j\rney to ,p>is or ,london 0 an ev5t wor?y to be m5tion$ & discuss$ 9 ! newspap]s4 ,^! old newspap]s are full ( curi\s in=mation4 ,we f9d t if a p]son wi%$ to travel to ,cologne or fur!r1 he adv]tis$ = a companion1 & x 0 = ! ,burgoma/] to make ! necess>y arrangem5ts = him4 ,fr5* 0 /udi$ & spok51 p>ticul>ly at ,c\rt1 b ,engli% 0 a r>e acquirem5t1 /ill m ,italian or ,spani%4 ,!re 01 h[ev]1 a small inn] circle :]e ^! languages 7 /udi$1 *iefly 9 ord] to read ! ma/]-works ( mod]n lit]ature4 ,& ?is 0 all ! m cr$itable because !re 7 no good tea*]s to be f\nd at ,dessau1 & p _h to le>n :at !y wi%$ to le>n by !mselves1 ) ! help ( a gramm> & diction>y4 ,we le>nt ,fr5* at s*ool1 b ! result 0 deplorable4 ,z 9 all public s*ools1 ! ,fr5* ma/] :o _h to tea* ! language at ! ,ducal ,gymnasium c\ld n keep ord] among ! boys4 ,he ( c\rse spoke ,fr5*1 b t 0 all4 ,he did n "k h[ to tea*1 & c\ld n excite any int]e/ 9 ! boys1 :o insi/$ on pron\nc+ ,fr5* z if x 7 ,g]man4 ,! poor man's life 0 made a burd5 to him4 ,8 "n 0 ,noel1 & he _h all ! pleas+ mann]s ( a ,fr5*man1 b t s]v$ only to r\se ! antagonism ( ! "y b>b>ians4 ,! result 0 t we le>nt v little1 & ,i 0 s5t to an old ,jew to le>n ,fr5* & a little ,engli%4 ,t old ,jew1 call$ ,levy ,rub5s1 0 a p]fect g5tleman4 ,he probably _h be5 a comm]cial travell] 9 8 e>ly days1 ?\gh no "o knew exactly :]e he came f or h[ he _h le>nt languages4 ,he _h taught my fa!r & gr&fa!r & he 0 delight$ to tea* ! ?ird g5]ation4 ,he c]ta9ly spoke ,fr5* & ,engli% flu5tly1 b ) ! /ronge/ ,jewi% acc5t1 & ?is 0 inh]it$ by all 8 pupils at ,dessau4 ,i feel a%am$ :5 ,i ?9k ( ! tricks we play$ ! old man--putt+ mice into 8 pockets1 upsett+ ink/&s ov] 8 table1 & plac+ crack]s "u 8 *airs4 ,b he nev] lo/ 8 temp]2 he nev] w\ld h d>$ to puni% u z we des]v$2 b he w5t on ) 8 lesson z if no?+ _h happ5$4 ,he took 8 small pay1 & 0 satisfi$ :5 8 lessons 7 ov] & he c\ld settle d[n to 8 long pipe & 8 books4 ,he liv$ q alone & di$ q alone1 a h>dwork+1 hone/1 poor ,jew1 n exactly despis$ or p]secut$1 b n treat$ ) ! respect :i* he c]ta9ly des]v$1 & :i* he w\ld h receiv$ if he _h n be5 a ,jew4 ,our public s*ool 0 z good z any 9 ,g]many4 ,^! small du*ies g5]ally foll[$ ! example ( ,prussia1 & !y c>ri$ out ! in/ructions issu$ by ! ,m9i/ry ( ,education at ,b]l9 accord+ to ! v lett]4 ,besides1 sev]al ( ! reign+ dukes _h tak5 a v w>m & p]sonal int]e/ 9 popul> education1 & at ! beg9n+ ( ! c5tury ! eyes ( ! :ole ( ,g]many1 nay1 ( ,europe1 7 turn$ t[>ds ! educational exp]im5ts c>ri$ on by my great-gr&fa!r1 ,bas$[1#f at ! s-call$ ,philan?rop9um at ,dessau "u ! patronage ( ! ,duke & ( sev]al ( ! m enlight5$ sov]eigns ( ,europe1 su* z ! ,empress ,ca!r9e ( ,russia1 ! ,k+ ( ,d5m>k1 ! ,emp]or ,joseph ( ,au/ria1 ,pr9ce ,adam ,cz>toryski1 c4 ,ev5 aft] ,bas$['s dea? ! int]e/ 9 education 0 kept alive 9 ,dessau1 & all 0 done t c\ld be done 9 s small a t[n to keep ! diff]5t s*ools--elem5t>y1 middle-class1 & high s*ools--on ! highe/ possible level ( effici5cy4 #f ,johann ,b]nh>d ,bas$[1 von se9em ,ur5kel1 ,f4 ,m4 ,m4 7,essays1 ,b& ,,iv74 ,ba?+ 0 a v heal?ful recreation1 ?\gh ,i v ne>ly came to grief f tru/+ to my s5iors4 ,!y c\ld swim & ,i c\ld n yet4 ,b :ile ba?+ ) two ( my fri5ds 9 a "p ( ! riv] :i* 0 safe1 !y swam along & ask$ me to foll[ !m4 ,hav+ complete confid5ce 9 !m ,i jump$ 9 f ! %ore1 b v soon began to s9k4 ,my %\ts br\ght my fri5ds back1 & !y rescu$ me1 n )\t "s difficulty1 f dr[n+4 ,9 an ,engli% s*ool ! influ5ce ( ! ma/] is1 ( c\rse1 m con/ant1 because "o ( ! ma/]s is always )9 call1 :ile 9 ,g]many he is visible dur+ s*ool-h\rs only4 ,if a ma/] is fond ( 8 pupils1 & takes an int]e/ 9 !m individually1 he c d !m m good ?an p>5ts at home1 or ! tea*] at a day s*ool4 ,! boys at a ,g]man s*ool are1 no d\bt1 a v mix$ crew1 b t _c be help$4 ,?is mixture ( classes may be a drawback 9 "s respects1 b f an educational po9t ( view ! sons ( v ri* p>5ts are by no means m valuable ?an ! poor boys4 ,f> f x4 ,_m ( ! evils ( s*oolboy life come f ! sons ( ! ri*1 :ile ! sons ( poor p>5ts are g5]ally well behav$4 ,b = all t1 !re 0 a r\gh & rude tone among "s ( ! boys at s*ool1 aris+ f defects 9 ! education at home1 & ?is sometimes embitt]$ :at ought to be ! happie/ "t ( life1 p>ticul>ly 9 ! case ( delicate boys4 ,! son ( a ,m9i/] has (t5 to sit by ! side ( ! son ( a weal?y but*]1 & ! v fact t he is ! son ( a g5tleman (t5 exposes ! m ref9$ boy to ! bully+ ( 8 muscul> neighb\r4 ,i 0 =tunate at s*ool4 ,i c\ld hold my own ) ! boys1 & z to ! ma/]s1 sev]al ( !m _h kn[n my fa!r or _h be5 8 pupils1 & !y took a p]sonal int]e/ 9 me4 ,i rememb] m p>ticul>ly "o "y ma/] :o 0 v k9d to me1 & took me home = private lessons & = giv+ me "s good advice4 ,!re 0 some?+ sad & v attractive ab\t him1 & ,i f\nd out aft]w>ds t he knew t he 0 dy+ ( consumption1 & t besides t he 0 liable to be prosecut$ = political lib]alism1 :i* at t "t 0 almo/ l high treason4 ,i believe he 0 actually condemn$ & s5t to prison l _m o!rs1 & he di$ soon aft] ,i _h left ,dessau4 ,8 "n 0 ,dr4 ,hnicke1 & he 0 ! fir/ to try to impress on me t ,i ought to %[ myself wor?y ( my fa!r1 an idea :i* _h nev] ent]$ my m9d be=e1 nay1 :i* at fir/ ,i c\ld h>dly und]/&1 b :i*1 nev]!less1 slumb]$ on 9 my m9d till ye>s aft]w>ds x 0 call$ out & became a /rong influ5ce = ! :ole ( my life4 ,i /ill h "s l9es :i* he wrote = my album4 ,!y 7 ! well-kn[n l9es f ,horace1 :i*1 at ! "t1 ,i _h great difficulty 9 con/ru+1 b :i* h rema9$ grav5 9 my memory ev] s9ce3 8,=tes creantur =tibus et bonis1 ,e/ 9 iuv5cis e/ 9 equis patrum ,virtus nec imbellem f]oces ,prog5]ant aquilae columbam4 ,doctr9a s$ vim promovet insitam1 ,rectique cultus pectora roborant2 ,utcunque defec]e mores1 ,d$ecorant b5e nata culpae40 ,9 my *ildhood ,i _h to pass ?r\gh ! ord9>y illnesses1 b x 0 ! fai? 9 our doctor t always sav$ me4 ,! doctor 0 to my m9d ! man :o 0 call$ 9 to make me well aga91 & :ile my "m 0 agitat$ ab\t h] only son1 ,i nev] dreamt ( any dang]4 ,! v idea ( dea? nev] came ne> me till my gr&fa!r di$ 7#ahce71 b ev5 !n ,i 0 only ab\t twelve ye>s old1 & ?\gh ,i _h se5 mu* ( him1 p>ticul>ly dur+ ! ye>s t my "m liv$ aga9 9 8 h\se1 yet he 0 too old to take mu* %>e 9 8 gr&*ildr5's amusem5ts4 ,he left a gap1 no d\bt1 9 our life1 b t gap 0 fill$ aga9 ) new figures 9 ! life ( a boy ( twelve4 ,he 0 only sixty-"o ye>s old :5 he di$1 & yet my idea ( him 0 always t ( a v old man4 ,ev]y?+ 0 done = him1 8 s]vant dress$ him e morn+1 he 0 lift$ into 8 c>riage & out ( x1 & he c]ta9ly liv$ ! life ( an invalid1 su* z ,i %\ld n cons5t to own to at sev5ty-six4 ,he made no secret t he c>$ m = ! son ( 8 son :o 0 ! heir1 & 0 to p]petuate ! "n ( von ,bas$[1 ?an = ! son ( 8 daught]4 ,he 0 v fond ( driv+ & ( %oot+1 & he frequ5tly took my c\s9 out %oot+ ) him4 ,:5 my c\s9 came home ) a h>e he _h %ot1 ,i confess ,i 0 sometimes jeal\s1 b ,i 0 soon cur$ ( my wi% to g ) my gr&fa!r into ! =e/4 ,once :5 ,i 0 ) him 9 8 little c>riage1 my gr&fa!r1 n be+ able to see well1 _h ! mis=tune to kill a doe :i* _h come out ) h] two little ones4 ,! mis]y ( ! "m & aft]w>ds ( h] two "y ones1 0 he>t-r5d+1 & f t day on ,i made up my m9d nev] to g out %oot+1 & nev] to kill an animal4 ,& ,i h kept my ^w1 ?\gh ,i 0 mu* laugh$ at4 ,x may be t lat] 9 life & aft] my gr&fa!r's dea? ,i _h little opportunity ( %oot+1 b ! cry ( ! doe & ! :imp]+ ( ! "y ones :o tri$ to get suck f _! dead "m h rema9$ ) me = life4 ,my gr&fa!r1 ?\gh he ag$ e>ly1 rema9$ 9 h>ness z ,prime ,m9i/] to ! end ( 8 life1 & x 0 8 great desire to b5efit 8 c\ntry by new in/itutions4 ,x 0 he :o1 at ! "t :5 p h>dly knew yet :at railroads meant1 succe$$ 9 gett+ ! l9e f ,b]l9 to ,halle & ,leipzig to pass by ,dessau4 ,he (f]$ to build ! bridge across ! ,elbe & to give ! l& & ! wood = ! sleep]s gratis1 & :at seem$ at ! "t a f> too g5]\s (f] has prov$ a bless+ to ! du*y1 mak+ x z x 7 ! c5tre ( ! great railway connect+ ,b]l91 ,leipzig1 ,magdeburg1 ! ,elbe1 ,hanov]1 ,brem51 nay1 ,cologne also1 ! ,rh9e1 & ,we/]n ,europe4 ,he 0 9 8 way a good /atesman1 ?\gh we are too apt to measure a man's real greatness by ! circum/ances 9 :i* he moves4 ,z f> back z ,i c rememb] ,i 0 a m>tyr to heada*es4 ,no doctor c\ld help me1 no "o seem$ to "k ! cause4 ,x 0 a migra9e1 & ?\gh ,i wat*$ x c>efully ,i c\ld n trace x to any fault ( m9e4 ,! idea t x came f ov]work 0 c]ta9ly untrue4 ,x came & w5t1 & if x 0 "o day on ! "r side x 0 always ! next "t on ! left1 ev5 ?\gh ,i 0 free f x sometimes = a week or a =tnight1 or ev5 long]4 ,x 0 /range also t x seldom la/$ beyond "o day1 & t ,i always felt p>ticul>ly /rong & well ! day aft] ,i _h be5 pro/rate4 ,= pro/rate ,i 01 & g5]ally q unable to d any?+4 ,i _h to lie d[n & try to sleep4 ,aft] a good sleep ,i 0 well1 b :5 ! pa9 _h be5 v bad ,i f\nd t sometimes ! v sk9 ( my =ehead _h peel$ (f4 ,9 ?is way ,i (t5 lo/ two or ?ree days 9 a week1 & z my "w _h to be done someh[1 x 0 (t5 done anyh[1 & ,i 0 scold$ & puni%$1 really )\t any fault ( my own4 ,aft] all rem$ies _h fail$ :i* ! doctor & nurses prescrib$ 7& ,i well rememb] my gr&mo!r us+ massage on my neck1 :i* mu/ h be5 ab\t #ahcc to #ahce7 ,i 0 h&$ ov] to ,hahnemann1 ! f\nd] ( homeopa?y4 ,hahnemann 7born #agee7 _h be5 practis+ z doctor at ,dessau z e>ly z #aghj--t is some:at be=e my "t--b _h left x1 & :5 9 #ahbj he _h be5 prohibit$ by ! ,gov]nm5t f practis+ & lectur+ at ,leipzig1 he took refuge once m 9 ! neighb\r+ t[n ( ,coe!n4 ,f !re he paid visits to ,dessau z consult+ physician1 & aft] ,i _h expla9$ to him z well z ,i c\ld all ! symptoms ( my *ronic heada*e1 he assur$ my "m t he w\ld cure x at once4 ,he 0 an impos+ p]sonality--a p[]ful man ) a gigantic head & /rong eyes & a mo/ p]suasive voice4 ,i c q und]/& t 8 p]sonal influ5ce w\ld h gone f> to effect a cure ( _m diseases4 ,p =get too mu* h[ /rong a curative p[] resides 9 ! pati5t's fai? 9 8 doctor1 9 fact h[ mu* ! m9d c d 9 depress+ & 9 re9vigorat+ ! body4 ,i %all nev] =get 9 lat] ye>s consult+ ,sir ,&rew ,cl>ke1 & tell+ him ( ev] s _m1 to my m9d1 mo/ s]i\s symptoms4 ,i _h lo/ sleep & appetite1 & imag9$ myself 9 a v bad /ate inde$4 ,he exam9$ me & knock$ me ab\t = full ?ree qu>t]s ( an h\r1 & in/ead ( pron\nc+ my doom z ,i fully expect$1 he told me ) a bright look & mo/ conv9c+ voice t he _h exam9$ _m m5 :o _h work$ _! bra9s too mu*1 b _h nev] se5 a man at my "t ( life s p]fectly s\nd 9 e organ4 ,i felt "y & /rong at once1 & meet+ my old fri5d ,mori] on my way home1 we ate "s doz5s ( oy/]s toge!r & drank "s p9ts ( port] )\t ! slighte/ bad effect4 ,9 fact ,i 0 cur$ )\t a pill or a drop ( m$ic9e4 ,& :o does n "k h[1 if "o makes up "o's m9d at la/ to h a too? pull$ out1 ! pa9 seems to cease z soon z we pull ! bell at ! d5ti/'s8 ,h[ev]1 ,hahnemann did n succe$ ) me4 ,i swall[$ a numb] ( 8 silv] & gold globules1 b ! migra9e kept its regul> c\rse1 "r to left & left to "r1 & ?is w5t on till ab\t ! ye> #ahfj4 ,!n my doctor1 ! late ,mr4 ,symonds ( ,ox=d1 told me exactly :at ,hahnemann _h told me--t he w\ld cure me1 if ,i w\ld g on tak+ "s m$ic9e regul>ly = six mon?s or a ye>4 ,he told me t he & 8 bro!r _h made a special /udy ( heada*es1 & t !re 7 ev] s _m k9ds ( heada*e1 ea* requir+ its own peculi> treatm5t4 ,:5 ,i ask$ him to :at category ( heada*es m9e belong$1 ,i 0 n a little aba%$ on be+ told t my heada*e 0 :at !y call$ ! ,ald]man's heada*e4 8,surely10 ,i said1 8,i don't ov]eat1 or ov]dr9k40 ,i _h ?\ght t m9e 0 a my/]i\s n]v\s heada*e1 aris+ f ! bra94 ,b no1 x seem$ to be due to turtle s\p & port w9e4 ,h[ev]1 ! doctor1 see+ my surprise1 com=t$ me by tell+ me t x 0 ! n]ves ( ! head :i* affect$ ! /oma*1 & ?us produc$ indirectly ! same di/urbance 9 my dige/ion z an ald]manic diet4 ,:e!r ?is 0 true or 0 only meant z a solatium ,i d n "k4 ,b :at ,i d "k is1 t by tak+ ! m$ic9e regul>ly = ab\t half a ye>1 ! frequ5cy & viol5ce ( my heada*es 7 consid]ably r$uc$1 :ile aft] ab\t a ye> !y vani%$ completely4 ,i 0 a new be+1 & my work+ "t 0 d\bl$4 ,"o lesson may be le>nt f ?is1 namely1 t ! ,engli% sy/em ( doctor+ is v imp]fect4 ,9 ,engl& we wait till we are ill1 !n g to a doctor1 describe our symptoms z well z we c1 pay "o gu9ea1 or two1 get our prescription1 take dra/ic m$ic9e = a mon? & expect to be well4 ,my ,g]man doctor1 :5 he saw ! prescription ( my ,engli% doctor1 told me t he w\ld n give x to a horse4 ,if aft] a mon? we are n bett] we g aga92 he possibly *anges our m$ic9e1 & we take x m or less regul>ly = ano!r mon?4 ,! doctor _c wat* ! effect ( 8 m$ic9e1 he is n sure ev5 :e!r 8 prescriptions h be5 c>efully foll[$2 & he kn[s b too well t any?+ l a *ronic compla9t requires a *ronic treatm5t4 ,! important ?+1 h[ev]1 0 t my heada*es yield$ gradually to ! cont9u$ use ( m$ic9e2 x w\ld h>dly h produc$ ! desir$ effect if ,i _h tak5 x by fits & />ts4 ,all ?is seems to me q natural2 b ?\gh my ,engli% doctor cur$ me1 & my ,g]man doctors did n1 ,i /ill hold t ! ,g]man sy/em is bett]4 ,mo/ families h _! doctor 9 ,g]many1 :o calls f "t to "t to wat* ! heal? ( ! old & "y memb]s ( ! family1 p>ticul>ly :5 "u m$ical treatm5t1 & receives 8 /ipulat$ annual paym5t1 :i* secures him a safe income t c be rais$1 ( c\rse1 by att5dance on occasional pati5ts4 ,p]haps ! ,*9ese sy/em is ! be/2 !y pay _! doctor :ile !y are well1 & /op paym5t z long z !y are ill4 ,i "k ! unansw]able argum5t :i* is always ?r[n at my head :5ev] ,i sugge/ to my fri5ds t !re are "s ?+s :i* are possibly manag$ bett] 9 ,g]many ?an 9 ,engl&4 ,if my rem>ks ref] to ! /udy & practice ( m$ic9e ,i am ask$ :e!r m m5 are kill$ 9 ,engl& ?an 9 ,g]many2 if ,i ref] to ! /udy & practice ( law ,i am assur$ t q z _m murd]]s are hang$ 9 ,engl& z 9 ,g]many2 & if ,i v5ture to h9t t ! /udy ( !ology might on c]ta9 po9ts be improv$ at ,ox=d1 ,i am told t q z _m s\ls are sav$ 9 ,engl& z 9 ,g]many1 nay1 a good _m m4 ,z ,i _c asc]ta9 ! facts f tru/wor?y /ati/ics1 ,i h no?+ to reply2 all ,i feel is t mo/ nations1 l mo/ individuals1 are p]fect 9 _! own eyes1 b t ^? are mo/ p]fect :o are will+ to admit t !re is some?+ to be le>nt f _! neighb\rs4 ,b to return to ,hahnemann4 ,he 0 v k9d to me1 & ,i look$ up to him z a giant bo? 9 body & 9 m9d4 ,b he c\ld n deliv] me f my enemy1 ! ev] recurr5t migra9e4 ,! cures1 h[ev]1 bo? at ,dessau & at ,coe!n1 :]e he _h be5 made a ,h(ra? by ! reign+ ,duke1 7 v extraord9>y4 ,hahnemann rema9$ 9 ,coe!n till #ahce1 & 9 t ye>1 :5 he 0 eighty1 he m>ri$ a "y ,fr5* lady1 ,melanie d',h]villy1 & 0 c>ri$ (f by h] to ,p>is1 :]e he soon ga9$ a l>ge practice1 & di$ 9 #ahdc1 t is at ! age ( eighty-eight4 ,mu* ( 8 success1 ,i feel sure1 0 due to 8 pres5ce & to ! confid5ce :i* he inspir$4 ,h[ d ,i "k t ,sir ,&rew ,cl>ke1 see+ t ,i 0 9 l[ spirits ab\t my heal?1 did n ?9k x "r to enc\rage me1 & by enc\rag+ me did c]ta9ly make me feel confid5t ab\t myself1 & ?us rais$ my vitality1 my spirits1 or :atev] we l to call x8 8,?y fai? ha? made !e :ole0 is a lesson :i* doctors ought n to neglect4 ,h[ little we "k ! effect ( ! environm5t 9 :i* we gr[ up4 ,my old granny has drawn deep] furr[s ?r\gh my "y s\l ?an all my tea*]s & prea*]s put toge!r4 ,i am n go+ to add a *apt] to t mo/ unsatisfactory ( all /udies1 *ild-psy*ology4 ,x is an impossible subject4 ,! victim--! *ild--_c be int]rogat$ till x is too late4 ,! influ5ces t "w on ! *ild's s5ses & m9d _c be det]m9$2 !y are too _m1 & too intangible4 ,! obs]v]s ( babies1 mo/ly "y fa!rs pr\d ( _! fir/ (fspr+1 rem9d me always ( a v le>n$ fri5d ( m9e1 :o pres5t$ to ! ,royal ,society mo/ labori\s pages conta9+ 8 lifelong obs]vations on c]ta9 deviations ( ! magnetic ne$le1 & :o _h =gott5 t 9 mak+ ^! obs]vations he always _h a pair ( /eel spectacles on 8 nose4 ,h[ev]1 ,i h no?+ to say aga9/ ^! obs]vations1 nor aga9/ _! m or less successful int]pretations4 ,b ! real h>m beg9s :5 p imag9e t 9 /udy+ ! ways ( infants !y c discov] :at man 0 l 9 8 orig9al condition1 :e!r z a hairy or a hairless creature4 ,to imag9e t we c le>n f ! way 9 :i* *ildr5 beg9 to use our old words1 h[ ! primitive language ( mank9d 0 =m$1 seems to me l imag9+ t *ildr5 play+ ) c\nt]s w\ld tea* u h[ & = :at purpose ! fir/ money 0 co9$4 ,!re is no d\bt a gra9 ( tru? 9 ?is infantile psy*ology1 b x requires z _m caveats z t :i* is call$ e?nological psy*ology1 :i* makes u see 9 ! savages ( ! pres5t day ! repres5tation ( ! fir/ ance/ors ( our race1 & w\ld tea* u to discov] 9 _! sup]/itions ! antec$5ts ( ! my?ology & religion ( ! ,aryan or ,semitic races4 ,! same philosoph]s :o con/antly fall back on h]$ity & atavism 9 ord] to expla9 :at seems inexplicable 9 ! beliefs & cu/oms ( ! ,brahmans1 ,greeks1 or ,romans1 seem q unconsci\s ( ! _m c5turies t mu/ ne$s h pass$ ov] ! heads ( ! ,patagonians ( ! pres5t day z well z ( ! ,greeks at ! "t ( ,hom]4 ,!y look ^u ! ,patagonians z ! tabula rasa ( humanity1 & !y =get t ev5 if we admitt$ t ! ance/ors ( ! ,aryan race _h once be5 m savage ?an ! ,patagonians1 x w\ld n foll[ t _! savag]y 0 id5tical ) t ( ! p ( ,ti]ra del ,fuego4 ,:y %\ld n ! di/ance betwe5 ,patagonian & ,v$ic ,ri%is h be5 at lea/ z great z t betwe5 ,v$ic ,ri%is & ,hom]ic b>ds8 ,if !re are ev] s _m k9ds ( civiliz$ life1 0 !re only "o & ! same savag]y8 ,to take1 = in/ance1 ! feel+ ( fe>2 is x likely t we %all f9d out :e!r x is innate 9 human nature or acquir$ & int5sifi$ 9 ea* g5]ation1 by %ak+ our fi/s 9 ! face ( a little baby1 to see :e!r x w w9k or %r9k or %riek8 ,"s *ildr5 may be m fe>less ?an o!rs1 b :e!r t fe>lessness arises f ignorance or f /olidity is aga9 by no means easy to det]m9e4 ,a burnt *ild fe>s ! fire1 an unburnt *ild might boldly grasp a gl[+ coal1 b all ?is w\ld n help u to det]m9e :e!r fe> is an innate or an acquir$ t5d5cy or habit4 ,all ,i c say = myself is t my "y life & ev5 my lat] ye>s 7 (t5 r5d]$ mis]able by ! fooli% /ories ( "o ( my gr&mo!rs1 & t ,i _h to make a /rong ef=t ( w be=e ,i c\ld br+ myself to walk across a *ur*y>d 9 ! d>k4 ,?is %[s h[ mu* our "* is %ap$ by circum/ances1 ev5 :5 we are lea/ aw>e ( x4 ,i did n believe 9 gho/s & ,i 0 n a c[>d1 b ,i felt ?r\gh life a k9d ( %iv] 9 d>k passages & at ! s\nd ( my/]i\s noises1 & ! m]e fact t ,i _h to make an ef=t to ov]come ^! feel+s %[s t some?+ _h f\nd its way into my m5tal con/itution t ought nev] to h be5 !re1 & t caus$ me1 p>ticul>ly 9 my y\ng] days1 _m a mom5t ( discom=t4 ,all su* exp]i5ces con/itute :at may be call$ ! backgr\nd ( our life4 ,my fir/ ideas ( m5 & wom51 & ( ! _w at l>ge1 t is ( ! unkn[n _w1 7 =m$ )9 ! n>r[ walls ( ,dessau1 = ,dessau 0 /ill surr\nd$ by walls1 & ! gates ( ! city 7 clos$ e night1 ?\gh ! fe>s ( a =eign enemy 7 b small4 ,( c\rse ! views ( life prevail+ at ,dessau 7 v n>r[1 b !y 7 wide en\gh = our purposes4 ,?\gh we he>d ( l>ge t[ns l ,dresd5 or ,b]l91 & ( l>ge c\ntries l ,france & ,italy1 my real _w 0 ,dessau & its neighb\rhood4 ,we _h no int]e/s outside ! walls ( our t[n or ! fronti]s ( our du*y4 ,if we he>d ( ?+s t _h happ5$ at ,leipzig or ,b]l91 9 ,p>is or ,london1 !y _h no m reality = u ?an :at we _h read ab\t ,abraham1 or ,romulus & ,remus1 or ,alex&] ! ,great4 ,to u ! pulse ( ! _w seem$ to beat 9 ! ,haupt- und ,resid5z/adt ( ,dessau1 ?\gh we knew p]fectly well h[ small x 0 9 comp>ison ) o!r t[ns4 ,& ?is1 too1 has left its impression on my ?\ghts all ?r\gh life1 if only by mak+ ev]y?+ t ,i saw 9 lat] life 9 su* t[ns z ,leipzig1 ,b]l91 ,p>is1 & ,london1 appe> q ov]:elm+ly gr&4 ,boys br\ght up 9 any ( ^! l>ge t[ns />t ) a diff]5t view ( ! _w1 & ) a diff]5t measure = :at !y see 9 lat] life4 ,i d n "k t !y are to be envi$ = t1 = !re is pleasure 9 admiration1 pleasure ev5 9 be+ /unn$ by ! fir/ sight ( ! life 9 ! /reets ( ,p>is or ,london4 ,i c]ta9ly h be5 a great admir] all my life1 & ,i ascribe ?is disposition to ! small surr\nd+s ( my e>ly ye>s at ,dessau4 ,& s x 0 ) ev]y?+ else4 ,hav+ admir$ our ,cavali]-,/rasse1 ,i c\ld admire all ! m ! ,b\lev>ds 9 ,p>is1 & ,reg5t ,/reet 9 ,london4 ,hav+ enjoy$ our small !atre1 ,i /ood agha/ at ! ,gr& ,op]a1 & at ,drury ,lane4 ,?is p[] ( admiration & enjoym5t ext5d$ ev5 to d9n]s & o!r dome/ic amusem5ts4 ,hav+ be5 br\ght up on v simple f>e1 ,i fully enjoy$ ! d9n]s :i* ! ,old ,ea/ ,india ,company gave1 :5 we sat d[n ab\t #djj p1 &1 z ,i 0 told1 f\r p\nds 0 paid = ea* gue/4 ,i m5tion ?is because ,i feel t n only has ! ,sp>tan diet ( my e>ly ye>s giv5 me a reli% all ?r\gh life = convivial ent]ta9m5ts1 ev5 if n q at f\r p\nds a head1 b t ! g5]al self-d5ial :i* ,i _h to ex]cise 9 my y\? has made me feel a con/ant gratitude & s9c]e appreciation = ! small com=ts ( my lat] ye>s4 ,i rememb] ! "t :5 ,i woke ) my brea? froz5 on my b$clo!s into a ?9 %eet ( ice4 ,we 7 expect$ to wa% & dress 9 an attic :]e ! w9d[s 7 s ?ickly froz5 z to admit h>dly any light 9 ! morn+1 & :]e1 :5 we tri$ to break ! ice 9 ! jug1 !re 7 only a few drops ( wat] left at ! bottom ) :i* to wa%4 ,no wond] t ! ablutions 7 exp$iti\s4 ,aft] !y 7 p]=m$ we _h our spe$y breakfa/1 consi/+ ( a cup ( c(fee & a semmel or roll1 & !n we ru%$ to s*ool1 (t5 ?r\gh ! sn[ t _h n yet be5 swept away f ! pavem5t4 ,we sat 9 s*ool f eight to elev5 or twelve1 ru%$ home aga91 _h our v simple d9n]1 & !n back to s*ool1 f two to f\r4 ,h[ we liv$ ?r\gh x ,i sometimes wond]1 = we 7 ?9ly clad & (t5 wet ) ra9 or sn[2 & yet we enjoy$ our life z boys only c enjoy x1 & _h no "t to be ill4 ,"o bless+ ?is e>ly r\gh+ has left me = life--a p[] ( enjoy+ _m ?+s :i* to mo/ ( my fri5ds are matt]s ( c\rse or ( no consequ5ce4 ,! backgr\nd ( my life at ,dessau & at ,leipzig may seem d>k1 b x has only s]v$ to make ! lat] ye>s ( my life all ! bright] & w>m]4 ,! m ,i ?9k ab\t t di/ant1 n[ v di/ant pa/1 ! m ,i feel h[1 )\t be+ aw>e ( x1 my :ole "* 0 =m$ by x4 ,! unspoil$ primitiv5ess ( life at ,dessau z x 0 :5 ,i 0 at s*ool !re till ! age ( twelve1 w\ld be extremely difficult to describe 9 all its details4 ,ev]ybody seem$ to "k ev]ybody & ev]y?+ ab\t ev]ybody4 ,ev]ybody knew t he 0 wat*$1 & gossip1 9 ! be/ s5se ( ! ^w1 rul$ supreme 9 ! little t[n4 ,gossip 01 9 fact1 public op9ion ) all its good & all its bad features4 ,/ill ! result 0 t no "o c\ld af=d to lose ca/e1 & t ev]ybody behav$ z well z he c\ld4 ,i really believe t ! private life ( ! p ( ,dessau at ! beg9n+ ( ! c5tury 0 blameless4 ,! great evils ( society did n exi/1 & if n[ & !n !re 0 a black %eep1 8 or h] life became a burd5 to !m4 ,ev]ybody knew :at _h happ5$1 & society be+ on ! :ole s blameless1 0 all ! m m]ciless on ! s9n]s1 :e!r _! s9s 7 great or small4 ,s f ! v fir/ my idea 0 t !re 7 only two classes--"o class q p]fect & pure z angels1 ! o!r black %eep1 & altoge!r unspeakable4 ,!re 0 no transition1 no int]m$iate l9ks1 no %ad+ ( light & d>k4 ,a man 0 ei!r black or :ite1 & ?is rigid rule appli$ n only to moral "*1 b intellectual excell5ce also 0 measur$ by ! same /&>d4 ,a "w ( art 0 ei!r sup]latively beautiful1 or x 0 contemptible4 ,a man ( sci5ce 0 ei!r a giant or a humbug4 ,"s p spoke ( ,goe! z ! greate/ ( all poets & philosoph]s ! _w _h ev] kn[n2 o!rs call$ him a wick$ man & an ov]valu$ poet4#g #g ,t ?is 0 n only ! case at ,dessau1 may be se5 by a numb] ( contempor>y reviews ( ,goe!'s works republi%$ "s ye>s ago & ! exact title ( :i* ,i _c f9d4 ,x is dang]\s1 no d\bt1 to g ?r\gh life ) s imp]fect a measure1 & ,i h = a long "t suff]$ f x1 p>ticul>ly 9 cases :]e ,i ought to h be5 able to make all[ance = small fail+s4 ,b z ,i _h be5 br\ght up to approa* p ) a complete tru/ 9 _! rectitude1 & ) an unlimit$ admiration ( _! g5ius1 x took me _m ye>s be=e ,i le>nt to make all[ance = human weaknesses or tempor>y failures4 ,i h lo/ _m a *>m+ companion & excell5t fri5d 9 my j\rney ?r\gh life1 because ,i weigh$ !m ) my ru/y ,dessau balance4 ,i _h to le>n by long exp]i5ce t !re may be a spot1 nay1 sev]al spots on ! s(t sk9 ( a pea*1 & yet ! :ole fruit may be p]fect4 ,i act$ v mu* l ! m]*ant :o te/$ a :ole field ( rice by ! fir/ h&ful ( gra9s1 & :o1 if he f\nd "o or two bad gra9s1 w\ld h no?+ to d ) ! :ole field4 ,i _h to le>n :at 01 p]haps1 ! mo/ difficult lesson ( all1 t a tru/$ fri5d c\ld n always be tru/$1 & yet ne$ n !re=e be altoge!r a reprobate4 ,:at 0 mo/ difficult = me to dige/ 0 an untru?3 f9d+ out t "o :o pr(ess$ to be a fri5d _h said & done mo/ unfri5dly ?+s beh9d "o's back4 ,/ill1 9 a long life "o f9ds out t ev5 t may n be a deadly s91 & t if we are s lo? to =give x1 x is p>tly because ! falsehood affect$ our own int]e/s4 ,?us only c we expla9 h[ a man :om we "k to h be5 guilty ( falsehoods t[>ds ourselves may be look$ ^u z p]fectly hone/1 /raight=w>d1 & tru/wor?y1 by a l>ge numb] ( 8 own fri5ds4 ,we see ?is ov] & ov] aga9 ) m5 occupy+ em95t positions 9 ,*ur* & ,/ate4 ,we see h[ a prime m9i/] or an ar*bi%op is repres5t$ by m5 :o "k him z a li> & a hypocrite1 :ile by o!rs he is spok5 ( z a p>agon ( hon\r & hone/y1 & a true ,*ri/ian4 ,my n>r[ ,dessau views became a little wid5$ :5 ,i w5t to s*ool at ,leipzig2 /ill m :5 ,i sp5t two ye>s & a half at ! ,univ]sity ( ,leipzig1 & aft]w>ds at ,b]l94 ,/ill1 dur+ all ?is "t ,i saw b little ( :at is call$ society1 ,i only knew ( p :om ,i lov$ & ( p :om ,i dislik$4 ,!re 0 no room z yet = indiff]5t p1 :om "o tol]ates & is civil to )\t c>+ :e!r "o sees !m aga9 or n4 ,( ! simple/ duties ( society also ,i 0 completely ignorant4 ,no "o ev] told me :at to say & :at to d1 or :at n to say & :at n to d4 ,:at ,i felt ,i said1 :at ,i ?\ght "r ,i did4 ,!re 01 9 fact1 9 my small native t[n v little t c\ld be call$ society4 ,"o liv$ 9 "o's family & ) "o's intimate fri5ds )\t any c]emony4 ,x is a pity t *ildr5 are n taught a few rules ( life-wisdom by _! s5iors4 ,i "k t ! ,jews d n neglect t duty1 & ,i rememb] be+ surpris$ at my "y ,jewi% fri5ds at ,dessau com+ out ) "s v wise saws :i* evid5tly _h n be5 gr[n 9 _! own hot-h\ses1 b _h be5 plant$ out full gr[n by _! s5iors4 ,! only rules ( worldly wisdom :i* ,i rememb]1 came to me ?r\gh prov]bs & little v]ses :i* we _h ei!r to copy or to le>n by he>t1 su* z3 8,w] e9mal lgt1 dem glaubt man ni*t ,und w5n er au* die ,wahrheit spri*t40 8,morg5/unde hat ,gold im ,munde40 8,ke9 ,fad5 i/ s fe9 gesponn51 ,er kommt do* endli* an die ,sonn540 8,j$] i/ se9es ,glckes ,s*mi$40 ,"s l9es :i* hung ov] my b$ ,i h c>ri$ ) me all ?r\gh life1 & ,i /ill ?9k !y are v true & v t]se3 8,im ,glck ni*t jubeln und im ,/urm ni*t zag51 ,das ,unv]meidli*e mit ,wrde trag51 ,das ,re*te ?un1 am ,s*n5 si* erfreu51 ,das ,leb5 lieb5 und d5 ,tod ni*t s*eu51 ,und fe/ an ,gott und bess]e ,zukunft glaub51 ,heis/ leb51 heis/ dem ,tod se9 ,bitt]es raub540 ,/ill1 all ?is =m$ a v small viaticum = a j\rney ?r\gh life1 & ,i (t5 ?\ght t a few m h9ts might h pres]v$ me f ! pa9ful process ( :at 0 call$ rubb+ (f "o's horns4 ,aga9 & aga9 ,i _h to say to myself1 8,t w\ld h done v well at home1 b x 0 a mi/ake = all t40 ,my social rawness & simplicity /uck to me = _m ye>s1 j z ! ,dessau dialect rema9$ ) me = life2 at lea/ ,i 0 assur$ by my fri5ds t ?\gh ,i _h spok5 ,fr5* & ,engli% = s _m ye>s1 !y c\ld always detect 9 my ,g]man t ,i came f ,dessau or ,leipzig4 ,,*apt] ,,iii ,,s*ool-,,days ,,at ,,leipzig ,x 0 c]ta9ly a poor k9d ( arm\r 9 :i* ,i set out f ,dessau4 ,my "m1 devot$ z %e 0 to me1 _h judg$ rightly t x 0 be/ = me to be ) o!r boys & "u ! sup]vision ( a man4 ,i _h be5 some:at spoil$ by h] passionate love1 & also by h] passionate sev]ity 9 correct+ ! ord9>y naught9esses ( a boy4 ,s hav+ ris5 f =m to =m 9 ! s*ool at ,dessau1 ,i 0 s5t1 at ! age ( twelve1 to ,leipzig1 to live 9 ! h\se ( ,pr(essor ,c>us & att5d ! fam\s ,nicolai-,s*ule ) 8 son1 :o 0 ( ! same age z myself & :o likewise want$ a companion4 ,x 0 ?\ght t !re w\ld be a c]ta9 emulation betwe5 u1 & s1 no d\bt1 !re 01 ?\gh we always rema9$ ! be/ ( fri5ds4 ,! h\se 9 :i* we liv$ /ood 9 a g>d5 & 0 really an or?opa$ic in/itution = girls4 ,!re 7 ab\t tw5ty or ?irty ( ^! "y girls liv+ 9 ! h\se or sp5d+ ! day !re1 & _! joy\s company 0 v pleasant4 ,( c\rse ! names & faces ( my "y fri5ds h1 ) "o or two exceptions1 vani%$ f my memory1 b ,i 0 surpris$ :5 a few ye>s ago 7#ahie7 ,i 0 /ay+ ) ,madame ,salis-,s*wabe at h] delightful place on ! ,m5ai ,/raits1 & discov]$ t we _h kn[n ea* o!r m ?an fifty ye>s be=e 9 ! h\se ( ,pr(essor ,c>us at ,leipzig4 ,?\gh we _h met f "t to "t1 we nev] knew ( our e>ly meet+ at ,leipzig1 till 9 comp>+ notes we discov]$ h[ we _h sp5t a :ole ye> 9 ! same h\se & among ! same fri5ds4 ,h]s has be5 a life full ( "w & entirely devot$ to o!rs4 ,to ! v end ( h] days %e 0 sp5d+ h] l>ge income 9 f\nd+ s*ools on ! sy/em recomm5d$ by ,froebel1 n only 9 ,engl&1 b 9 ,italy4 ,%e di$ at ,naples 9 #ahif1 :ile visit+ a l>ge s*ool t _h be5 f\nd$ by h] ) ! assi/ance ( ! ,italian ,gov]nm5t4 ,h] own h\se 9 ,wales 0 full ( treasures ( art1 & full ( memorials ( h] _m fri5ds1 su* z ,buns51 ,r5an1 ,mole1 ,ary ,s*eff]1 & _m m4 ,h[ f> h] *>ity w5t may be judg$ by h] be+ will+ to "p ) "s ( ! mo/ preci\s ( ,ary ,s*eff]'s pictures1 9 ord] to keep h] s*ools well end[$1 & able to la/ aft] h] dea?1 :i* %e felt to be imm95t4 ,public s*ools are ne>ly all day s*ools 9 ,g]many4 ,! boys live at home1 mo/ly 9 _! own families1 b !y sp5d six h\rs e day at s*ool1 & x is a mi/ake to imag9e t !y are n atta*$ to x1 t !y h no games toge!r1 & t !y d n gr[ up manly or indep5d5t4 ,mo/ s*ools h playgr\nds1 & 9 summ] swimm+ is a fav\rite amusem5t = all ! boys4 ,!re 7 two good public s*ools at ,leipzig1 ! ,nicolai ,s*ool & ! ,?omas ,s*ool4 ,!re 0 pl5ty ( esprit de corps 9 !m1 & (t5 :5 ! boys met x %[$ itself n only 9 words b 9 bl[s1 & ! discussions ov] ! m]its ( _! s*ools 7 (t5 cont9u$ 9 lat] life4 ,i 0 v =tunate 9 be+ s5t to ! ,nicolai ,s*ool1 "u ,dr4 ,nobbe z head ma/]4 ,he 0 at ! same "t ,pr(essor at ! ,univ]sity ( ,leipzig1 & is well kn[n 9 ,engl& also z ! editor ( ,cic]o4 ,he 0 v pr\d t 8 s*ool c\nt$ ,leibniz#h among its =m] pupils4 ,he 0 a classical s*ol> ( ! old s*ool4 ,dur+ ! la/ ?ree ye>s ( our s*ool life we _h to write pl5ty ( ,lat9 & ,greek v]se1 & 7 taught to speak ,lat94 ,! speak+ ( ,lat9 came readily en\gh1 b ! v]ses nev] atta9$ a v high level4 ,besides ,nobbe we _h ,=big]1 well kn[n by 8 books on anci5t geography1 & ,palm1 editor ( ! same ,greek ,diction>y :i*1 9 ! h&s ( ,dr4 ,liddell1 has rea*$ its highe/ p]fection4 ,!n !re 0 ,funkhnel1 kn[n beyond ,g]many by 8 edition ( ! ,orations ( ,demo/h5es1 & 8 /udies on ,greek orators4 ,we 7 inde$ well (f = ma/]s1 & mo/ ( !m seem$ to enjoy _! "w & to be fond ( ! boys4 ,our head ma/] 0 v popul>4 ,he 0 a man ( ! old ,g]man type1 p[]fully built1 ) a l>ge squ>e head1 v mu* l ,lu!r1 &1 /range to say1 :5 9 #ahci a great ,lu!r fe/ival 0 celebrat$ all ov] ,g]many1 he publi%$ a book 9 :i* he prov$ t he 0 a direct desc5dant ( ,lu!r4 #h ,8 own spell+ ( 8 "n4 ,! s*ool 0 c>ri$ on v mu* on ! old plan ( tea*+ *iefly classics1 b tea*+ !m ?or\ghly4 ,mod]n languages1 ma!matics1 & physical sci5ce _h a poor *ance1 ?\gh !y clam\r$ = recognition4 ,lat9 & ,greek v]se 7 consid]$ f> m important4 ,9 ! two highe/ =ms we _h to speak ,lat91 & su* z x 0 x seem$ to u mu* easi] ?an to speak ,fr5*4 ,hebrew 0 also taught z an optional subject dur+ ! la/ f\r ye>s1 & ! little ,i "k ( ,hebrew dates *iefly f my s*ool-days4 ,s*oolboys soon f9d out :at _! ma/]s ?9k ( ! value ( ! diff]5t subjects taught at s*ool1 & !y are apt to treat n only ! subjects !mselves b ! tea*]s also accord+ to t /&>d4 ,h5ce our mod]n language & our physical sci5ce ma/]s _h a h>d "t ( x4 ,!y c\ld n keep _! classes 9 ord]1 & x 0 by no means unusual = _m ( ! boys simply to /ay away f _! lessons4 ,! old ma!matical ma/]1 be=e beg9n+ 8 lesson1 us$ to rub 8 spectacles1 & aft] look+ r\nd ! half empty classroom1 mutt] 9 a pla9tive voice3 8,i see aga9 _m boys :o are n "h to-day40 ,:5 ! same old ma/] began to lecture on physical sci5ce1 he told ! boys to br+ a frog to be plac$ "u a glass f :i* ! air _h be5 extract$ by an air-pump4 ,( c\rse e "o ( ! tw5ty or ?irty boys br\ght two or ?ree frogs1 & :5 ! exp]im5t 0 to be made all ^! frogs 7 hopp+ ab\t ! lecture-room1 & ! :ole army ( boys 7 hopp+ aft] !m ov] *airs & tables to cat* !m4 ,no wond] t dur+ ?is tumult ! ma/] did n succe$ ) 8 exp]im5t1 & :5 at la/ ! glass b[l 0 lift$ up & we 7 ask$ to see ! frog1 great 0 ! joy ( all ! boys :5 ! frog hopp$ out & escap$ f ! h&s ( its execution]4 ,su* 0 ! wra? excit$ by ^! new-fangl$ lectures among ! boys t !y actually committ$ ! v&alism ( us+ "o ( ! =ms z a batt]+-ram aga9/ ! enclosure 9 :i* ! physical sci5ce app>atus 0 kept1 & de/roy$ "s ( ! preci\s in/rum5ts suppli$ by ,gov]nm5t4 ,sev]e puni%m5ts foll[$1 b !y did n s]ve to make physical sci5ce m popul>4 ,we c]ta9ly did v well 9 ,greek & ,lat91 & read a numb] ( classical texts1 n only critically at s*ool1 b also cursorily at home1 hav+ to give a weekly acc\nt ( :at we _h ?us read by ourselves4 ,i lik$ my classics1 & yet ,i c\ld n help feel+ t !re 0 a c]ta9 exagg]ation 9 ! way 9 :i* e "o ( !m 0 spok5 ( by our tea*]s1 nay1 t z comp>$ to ,g]man poets & prose writ]s !y 7 some:at ov]prais$4 ,/ill1 x w\ld h be5 v conceit$ n to admire :at our ma/]s admir$1 & z 9 duty b\nd we w5t into ! usual raptures ab\t ,hom] & ,sophocles1 ab\t ,horace & ,cic]o4 ,_m ?+s :i* 9 lat] life we le>n to admire 9 ! classics c\ld h>dly appeal to ! ta/e ( boys4 ,! directness1 ! simplicity & orig9ality ( ! anci5t1 z comp>$ ) mod]n writ]s1 _c be appreciat$ by !m1 & ,i well rememb] be+ /ruck ) :at we disrespectful boys call$ ! *eek9ess ( ,horace expect+ immortality 7non omnis mori>7 = little poems :i* we 7 told 7 *iefly writt5 aft] ,greek patt]ns4 ,we _h to admit t !re 7 few] false quantities 9 8 ,lat9 v]ses ?an 9 our own1 b 9 o!r respects we c\ld n see t 8 odes 7 s inf9itely sup]ior to ours4 ,8 hope ( immortality has c]ta9ly be5 fulfill$ beyond :at c\ld h be5 8 own expectations4 ,) s little ( anci5t hi/ory kn[n to him1 8 idea ( ! immortality ( poetry mu/ h be5 f> m mode/ 9 8 "t ?an 9 our own4 ,he may h kn[n ! pa/ glories ( ! ,p]sian ,empire1 b z to anci5t lit]ature1 !re 0 no?+ = him to "k1 :e!r 9 ,p]sia1 9 ,babylonia1 9 ,assyria1 or ev5 9 ,egypt1 lea/ ( all 9 ,india4 ,lit]>y fame exi/$ = him 9 ,greece only1 & 9 ! ,roman ,empire1 & 8 own ambition c\ld !re=e h>dly h ext5d$ beyond ^! limits4 ,! exagg]ation 9 ! panegyrics pass$ on ev]y?+ ,greek or ,lat9 dates f ! classical s*ol>s ( ! ,middle ,ages1 :o knew no?+ t c\ld be comp>$ to ! classics1 & :o 7 l\d 9 prais+ :at !y possess$ ! monopoly ( sell+4 ,successive g5]ations ( s*ol>s foll[$ suit1 s t ev5 9 our "t x seem$ high treason to comp>e ,goe! ) ,horace1 or ,s*ill] ) ,sophocles4 ,( late1 h[ev]1 ! dang] is r t ! reaction %\ld g too f> & lead to a promiscu\s depreciation ev5 ( su* real giants z ,lucretius or ,plato4 ,! fact is t we h le>nt f !m & imitat$ !m1 till 9 "s cases ! imitations h equall$ or ev5 excell$ ! orig9als1 :ile n[ ! ta/e = classical correctness has be5 wellnigh supplant$ by an appetite = :at is call$ reali/ic1 orig9al1 & extravagant4 ,) all t has be5 said or writt5 aga9/ mak+ classical /udies ! mo/ important elem5t 9 a lib]al education1 or r aga9/ reta9+ !m 9 _! "t-hon\r$ position1 no?+ has z yet be5 sugge/$ to take _! place4 ,= aft] all1 x is n simply 9 ord] to le>n two languages t we devote s l>ge a %>e ( our "t to ! /udy ( ,greek & ,lat92 x is 9 ord] to le>n to und]/& ! old _w on :i* our mod]n _w is f\nd$2 x is 9 ord] to ?9k ! old ?\ghts1 :i* are ! fe$]s ( our own intellectual life1 t we become 9 our y\? ! pupils ( ,greeks & ,romans4 ,9 ord] to "k :at we are1 we h to le>n h[ we h come to be :at we are4 ,our v languages =m an unbrok5 *a9 betwe5 u & ,cic]o & ,ari/otle1 & 9 ord] to use _m ( our words intellig5tly1 we mu/ "k ! soil f :i* !y sprang1 & ! atmosph]e 9 :i* !y grew up & develop$4 ,i enjoy$ my "w at s*ool v mu*1 & ,i seem to h pass$ rapidly f class to class4 ,i frequ5tly receiv$ prizes bo? 9 money & 9 books1 b ,i see a w>n+ atta*$ to "s ( !m t ,i ought n to be conceit$1 :i* probably meant no m ?an t ,i %\ld n %[ :5 ,i 0 pleas$ ) my successes4 ,at lea/ ,i d n "k :at ,i c\ld h be5 conceit$ ab\t4 ,:at ,i feel ab\t my le>n+ at s*ool is t x 0 entirely passive4 ,i acquir$ k su* z x 0 pres5t$ to me4 ,i did n d\bt :atev] my tea*]s taught me1 ,i did n1 z f> z ,i c recollect1 "w up any subject by myself4 ,i f9d only "o pap] ( m9e ( t e>ly "t1 &1 curi\sly en\gh1 x 0 on my?ology2 b x conta9s no inkl+ ( comp>ative my?ology1 b simply a *ronological arrangem5t ( ! s\rces f :i* we draw our k ( ,greek my?ology4 ,i see also f "s old pap]s1 t ,i began to write poetry1 & t twice or ?rice ,i 0 *os5 at great fe/ivities to recite poems writt5 by myself4 ,9 ! ye> #ahci ?ree hundr$ ye>s _h pass$ s9ce ,lu!r prea*$ at ,leipzig 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,/4 ,nicolai1 & ! t]c5t5>y ( ?is ev5t 0 celebrat$ all ov] ,g]many4 ,my poem 0 select$ = recitation at a l>ge meet+ ( ! fri5ds ( our s*ool & ! notables ( ! t[n1 & ,i _h to recite x1 n )\t fe> & trembl+4 ,i 0 !n b sixte5 ye>s ( age4 ,9 ! next ye>1 #ahdj1 ,leipzig celebrat$ ! inv5tion ( pr9t+ 9 #addj4 ,x 0 on ?is occasion t ,m5delssohn wrote 8 fam\s ,hymn ( ,praise4 ,i =m$ "p ( ! *orus1 & ,i well rememb] ! magnific5t effect :i* ! music produc$ 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,/4 ,?omas4 ,aga9 a poem ( m9e 0 select$1 & ,i _h to recite x at a l>ge ga!r+ 9 ! ,nicolai-,s*ule on ,july #ah1 #ahdj4 ,on ,decemb] #bc ano!r celebration took place at our s*ool1 at :i* ,i _h to recite a ,lat9 poem ( m9e1 ,9 ,s*ill]um4 ,la/ly1 !re 0 my val$ictory poem :5 ,i left ! s*ool 9 #ahda1 & a ,lat9 poem 8,ad ,nobbium10 our head ma/]4 ,i h f\nd among my "m's treasures ! f> too (t5 flatt]+ te/imonial address$ to h] by ,pr(essor ,nobbe on t occasion1 :i* ends ?us3 8,i rejoice at see+ him leave ?is s*ool ) te/imonials ( moral excell5ce n (t5 f\nd 9 "o ( 8 ye>s--& possess$ ( k 9 m ?an "o po9t1 fir/-rate1 & ( intellectual capacities excell5t ?r\gh\t4 ,may 8 "y m9d develop m & m1 may ! fruits ( 8 lab\rs h]eaft] be a com=t to 8 "m = ! sorr[s & c>es ( ! pa/40 ,x 0 r h>d on me t ,i _h to pass my exam9ation = admission to ! ,univ]sity 7,abituri5t5-,exam57 n at my own s*ool1 b at ,z]b/ 9 ,anhalt4 ,?is 0 necess>y 9 ord] to enable me to obta9 a s*ol>%ip f ! ,anhalt ,gov]nm5t4 ,! s*ools 9 ,anhalt 7 modell$ aft] ! ,prussian s*ools1 & laid f> m /ress on ma!matics1 physical sci5ce1 & mod]n languages ?an ! s*ools 9 ,saxony4 ,i _h !re=e to get up 9 a v %ort "t sev]al q new subjects1 & did n d s well 9 !m z 9 ,greek & ,lat94 ,h[ev]1 ,i pass$ ) a fir/ class1 & obta9$ my s*ol>%ip1 small z x 04 ,x 0 only ! o!r day t ,i receiv$ a lett] f a g5tleman :o 0 at s*ool at ,z]b/ :5 ,i came !re = my exam9ation4 ,he rem9ds me t among my exam9]s !re 7 su* m5 z ,dr4 ,ritt]1 ! two ,s5t5is1 & ,pr(essor ,w]n]1 & he says t he wat*$ me :5 ,i came up/airs & ent]$ ! lock$ room to d my pap] "w4 ,my fri5d's c>e] 9 life _h be5 t ( ,director ( a ,life ,insurance ,company1 probably a m lucrative c>e] ?an :at m9e has be54 ,illu/ration3 ,f4 ,max ,mll] ,ag$ #ad4 ,dur+ my /ay at ,leipzig1 fir/ 9 ! h\se ( ,pr(essor ,c>us1 & aft]w>ds z a /ud5t at ! ,univ]sity1 my *ief enjoym5t 0 c]ta9ly music4 ,i _h pl5ty ( x1 p]haps too mu*1 b ,i pity ! man :o has n kn[n ! *>m ( x4 ,at t "t ,leipzig 0 really ! c5tre ( music 9 ,g]many4 ,felix ,m5delssohn 0 !re1 & mo/ ( ! di/+ui%$ arti/s & compos]s ( ! day came !re to sp5d "s "t ) him & to assi/ at ! fam\s ,gew&haus ,conc]ts4 ,i f9d among my lett]s a few descriptions ( conc]ts & o!r musical ent]ta9m5ts1 :i* ev5 at pres5t may be ( "s int]e/4 ,i 0 ask$ to be pres5t at "s conc]ts :]e qu>tettes & o!r pieces 7 p]=m$ by ,m5delssohn1 ,hill]1 ,kaliwoda1 ,david1 & ,eck>t4 ,liszt also made 8 triumphant entry into ,g]many at ,leipzig1 & ev]ybody 0 full ( expectation & excitem5t4 ,8 conc]t _h be5 adv]tis$ long be=e 8 arrival4 ,x 0 to consi/ ( an ,ov]ture ( ,web]'s2 a ,cavat9a f ,rob]t le ,diable1 sung by ,madame ,s*legel2 a ,conc]to ( ,web]'s1 to be play$ by ,liszt1 ! same :i* ,i _h %ortly be=e he>d play$ by ,madame ,pleyel2 ,bee?ov5's ,ov]ture to ,prome!us2 ,fantasia on ,la ,juive2 ,s*ub]t's ,ave ,m>ia & ,s]5ade1 z arrang$ by ,liszt4 ,i 0 ! m delight$ because ,i _h myself play$ "s ( ^! pieces4 ,b sudd5ly !re appe>$ a plac>d /at+ t ,liszt1 on he>+ t tickets 7 sold at "o ?al] 7?ree %ill+s71 _h decl>$ he w\ld play a few pieces only & )\t an or*e/ra4 ,9 spite ( t disappo9tm5t1 ! :ole h\se 0 full1 ! /aircase cr[d$ f top to bottom1 & :5 we _h pu%$ our way ?r\gh1 we f\nd t ab\t #cjj places _h be5 reta9$ = "o & a half ?al]s 7f\r %ill+s & sixp5ce71 :ile tickets at ! box-(fice 7 sold = two ?al]s 7six %ill+s74 ,nev]!less1 ,i manag$ to get a v good place1 by simply n see+ a numb] ( ladies :o 7 pu%+ beh9d me4 ,:5 ,liszt appe>$ !re 0 a t]rible hiss+--he look$ z if petrifi$1 glanc$ l a demon at ! public1 b nev]!less began to play ! ,s*]zo & ,f9ale ( ! ,pa/oral ,symphony4 ,!n !re bur/ out a p]fect ?und] ( applause1 & all seem$ pacifi$1 :ile ,madame ,s*midt sang a song accompani$ by a c]ta9 ,mr4 ,k]mann4 ,z soon z t 0 ov]1 a new /orm ( hisses arose1 :i* 0 meant = ?is ,mr4 ,k]mann1 :o 0 a pupil1 b at ! same "t ! man ( bus9ess ( ,liszt4 ,he & ?ree o!r m5 _h made all arrangem5ts1 & ,liszt knew no?+ ab\t !m1 z he c>$ v little = ! money1 :i* w5t *iefly to 8 manag]s4 ,a ,fantasia by ,liszt foll[$1 & la/ly a ,galop ,*romatique--b ! public w\ld n g away1 & at l5g? ,liszt 0 induc$ to play ,une gr&e ,valse4 ,x 0 no d\bt a new exp]i5ce2 b ,i c\ld n g into ec/asies l o!rs1 = aft] all x 0 m]ely me*anical1 ?\gh no d\bt 9 ! highe/ p]fection4 ,! day aft] ,liszt adv]tis$ t 8 orig9al ,programme w\ld be play$1 b at six o'clock ,pr(essor ,c>us1 ) :om ,i liv$1 0 call$ to see ,liszt1 :o 0 said to be ill2 ! fact be+ he _h only sold fifty tickets at ! rais$ prices4 ,_m /rang]s :o _h come to ,leipzig to he> him w5t away1 any?+ b pleas$ ) ! new musical g5ius4 ,at "o conc]t1 :]e he appe>$ 9 ,magy> co/ume1 ! ladies (f]$ him a gold5 laurel wrea? & sword4 ,he _h j publi%$ 8 arrangem5t ( ,adelaida1 :i* he promis$ to play 9 "o ( ! conc]ts4 ,ano!r v musical family at ,leipzig 0 t ( ,pr(essor ,frge4 ,he 0 a ri* man1 & _h m>ri$ a fam\s s+]1 ,frule9 ,s*legel4 ,"o ev5+ ! ,sonnambula 0 p]=m$ 9 _! h\se1 :i* _h be5 *ang$ into a !atre4 ,%e act$ ! ,sonnambula1 & h] s++ z well z h] act+ 0 mo/ f9i%$ & delightful4 ,m5delssohn 0 mu* 9 _! h\se1 & made h] s+ 8 songs z soon z !y 7 writt5 & be=e !y 7 publi%$4 ,!y 7 great fri5ds1 ! bond ( _! fri5d%ip be+ music4 ,he actually di$ :5 play+ :ile %e 0 s++4 ,p talk$ z !y always w talk ab\t :at !y _c und]/&1 b !y evid5tly did n "k ei!r ,m5delssohn or ,madame ,frge4 ,! h\se ( ,pr(essor ,c>us 0 always op5 to musical g5iuses1 & _m an ev5+ m5 l ,hill]1 ,m5delssohn1 ,david1 ,eck>t1 c41 came !re to play1 :ile ,madame ,c>us sang1 & sang mo/ *>m+ly4 ,i too 0 ask$ sometimes to play at ^! ev5+ p>ties4 ,i see t ,ern/ gave a conc]t at ,leipzig1 & no d\bt 8 execution 0 admirable4 ,/ill1 ,i c\ld n und]/& :at ,david meant :5 he decl>$ t aft] he>+ ,ern/ he w\ld ?r[ 8 own in/rum5t into ! fire4 ,m5delssohn1 :o 0 delight$ ) ,liszt--& no "o c\ld judge him bett] ?an he--gave a soire 9 hon\r ( him4 ,ab\t #djj p 7 invit$--,i among ! re/1 be+ "o ( ! t5ors :o sang 9 ! ,oratorio t ,hill] 0 !n rehe>s+ = ! fir/ p]=mance4 ,i ?9k x 0 ! ,de/ruction ( ,babylon4 ,!re 0 a complete or*e/ra at ,m5delssohn's p>ty1 & we he>d a symphony ( ,s*ub]t 7po/hum\s71 ,m5delssohn's psalm 8,z ! h>t pants10 & 8 ov]ture ,me]es/ille und glckli*e ,fahrt4 ,aft] t !re 0 supp] = all ! gue/s1 & !n foll[$ a *orus f 8 ,/4 ,paul1 & a triple conc]to ( ,ba*1 play$ on ?ree pian(ortes by ,m5delssohn1 ,liszt1 & ,hill]4 ,x 0 a difficult piece--difficult to play & difficult to foll[4 ,la/ly1 ,liszt play$ 8 new fantasia on ,lucia di ,lamm]moor1 & 8 arrangem5t ( ! ,erlknig4 ,all 0 really p]fect2 & he>+ s mu* music1 ,i became m & m absorb$ 9 x4 ,i ev5 gave "s conc]ts ) ,grabau1 a great violoncelli/1 at ,m]seburg1 & at a ,c\nt ,arnim's1 a v ri* nobleman ne> ,m]seburg1 :o _h invit$ ,liszt = "o ev5+ & paid him #ajj ducats4 ,?is seem$ at t "t a v l>ge sum1 almo/ s5seless4 ,z a ducat 0 ab\t n9e %ill+s1 x 0 aft] all only #de1 :i* w\ld n seem excessive at pres5t = an arti/ su* z ,liszt4 ,i also he>d ,?alb]g at ,leipzig4 ,!y all came to see ,m5delssohn1 & ,i believe did _! be/ to please him4 ,at t "t my idea ( devot+ myself altoge!r to ! /udy ( music became v /rong2 & z ,pr(essor ,c>us m>ri$ aga91 ,i propos$ to leave ,leipzig1 & to ent] ! musical s*ool ( ,s*neid] at ,dessau4 ,b no?+ came ( t1 & ,i ?9k on ! :ole x 0 z well4 ,:ile at s*ool at ,leipzig ,i _h b little opportunity ( travell+1 = my "m 0 always anxi\s to h me home dur+ ! holidays1 & ,i 0 equally anxi\s to be ) h] & to see my relations at ,dessau4 ,g5]ally ,i w5t 9 a wret*$ c>riage f ,leipzig to ,dessau4 ,x 0 only sev5 ,g]man miles 7ab\t ?irty-five ,engli% miles71 b x took a :ole day to get !re2 & dur+ "p ( ! j\rney1 :5 we _h to cross ! deep & des]t-l s&s1 walk+ on foot 0 mu* m exp$iti\s ?an sitt+ inside ! c>riage4 ,b !n we paid only "o ?al] = ! :ole j\rney1 & sometimes1 9 ord] to save t1 ,i walk$ on foot ! :ole way4 ,t also took me a :ole day2 b :5 ,i tri$ x ! fir/ "t1 be+ !n q "y & r delicate 9 heal?1 ,i _h to give 9 ab\t an h\r be=e ,i came to ,dessau1 my legs refus+ to g fur!r1 & my muscles be+ cramp$ & /iff f ex]tion1 ,i _h to sit d[n by ! road4 ,dur+ "o vacation ,i rememb] explor+ ! valley ( ! ,mulde ) "s o!r boys4 ,we travell$ = ab\t a =tnight f village to village1 & liv$ 9 ! simple/ way4 ,a m ambiti\s j\rney ,i took 9 #ahda ) a fri5d ( m9e1 ,b>on von ,hag$orn4 ,he 0 a curi\s & some:at my/]i\s "*4 ,he _h be5 br\ght up by a great-aunt ( m9e1 to :om he 0 entru/$ z a baby4 ,no "o knew 8 p>5ts1 b !y mu/ h be5 ri*1 = he possess$ a l>ge =tune4 ,he _h a c\ntry place ne> ,muni*1 & he sp5t ! great] "p ( ! ye> 9 travell+ ab\t1 & amus+ himself4 ,he _h be5 br\ght up ) my "m & o!r memb]s ( our family1 & he took a v k9d int]e/ 9 me4 ,i see f my lett]s t 9 #ahda he took me f ,dessau to ,coe!n1 ,brunswick1 & ,magdeburg4 ,at ,brunswick we saw ! picture gall]y1 ! *ur*es1 & ! tomb ( ,s*ill1 "o ( ! ,g]man volunte]s 9 ! ,w> ( ,indep5d5ce aga9/ ,france4 ,we also explor$ ,hilde%eim1 saw ! rose-tree plant$1 z we 7 told1 by ,*>lemagne2 !n proce$$ to ,gtt+51 & saw its fam\s libr>y4 ,we pass$ ?r\gh ,m9d51 :]e ! ,fulda & ,w]ra jo91 & arriv$ late at ,cassel4 ,f ,cassel we explor$ ,wilhelm%he1 ! beautiful p>k :]e ?irty ye>s lat] ,napoleon ,,iii 0 kept z a prison]4 ,hag$orn1 ) all 8 love ( my/]y & occasional exagg]ation1 0 c]ta9ly a good fri5d to me4 ,he (t5 gave me good advice1 & 0 m ( a fa!r to me ?an a m]e fri5d4 ,he 0 a man ( ! _w2 & he =got t ,i nev] meant to be a man ( ! _w1 & !re=e 8 advice 0 n always :at ,i want$4 ,he 0 also a great fri5d ( my c\s9 :o 0 m>ri$ to a ,pr9ce ( ,dessau1 & !y _h agre$ among !mselves t ,i %\ld g to ! ,ori5tal ,academy at ,vi5na1 le>n ,ori5tal languages1 & !n ent] ! diplomatic s]vice4 ,z !re 7 no *ildr5 f ! ,pr9ce's m>riage1 ,i 0 to be adopt$ by him1 &1 z if ! pr9cely =tune 0 n en\gh to tempt me1 ,i 0 told t ev5 a wife _h be5 *os5 = me1 & t ,i %\ld h a new "n & title1 aft] be+ adopt$ by ! ,pr9ce4 ,to o!r "y m5 ?is might h seem$ irresi/ible4 ,i at once said no4 ,x seem$ to int]f]e ) my fre$om1 ) my /udies1 ) my ideal ( a c>e] 9 life2 9 fact1 ?\gh ev]y?+ 0 pres5t$ to me by my c\s9 z on a silv] tray1 ,i %ook my head & rema9$ true to my fir/ love1 ,sanskrit & all ! re/4 ,hag$orn c\ld n und]/& ?is2 he ?\ght a brilliant life pref]able to ! quiet life ( a pr(essor4 ,n s ,i4 ,he little knew :]e true happ9ess 0 to be f\nd1 & he 0 (t5 9 a v melan*oly mood4 ,he did n live long1 b ,i %all nev] =get h[ mu* ,i ow$ him4 ,:5 ,i w5t to ,p>is1 he all[$ me to live 9 8 rooms4 ,!y 71 x is true1 au c9quime1 b !y 7 9 ! be/ qu>t] ( ,p>is1 9 ! ,rue ,royale ,/4 ,honor1 opposite ! ,madele9e1 & v prettily furni%$4 ,?is kept me f liv+ 9 du/y lodg+s 9 ! ,qu>ti] ,lat91 & ! five flights ( /airs may h /r5g!n$ my lungs4 ,i well rememb] :at x 0 :5 at ! foot ( ! /aircase ,i saw t ,i _h =gott5 my h&k]*ief & _h to toil up aga94 ,b 9 ^? days "o did n "k :at x meant to be tir$4 ,:e!r my fri5ds grumbl$1 ,i _c tell1 b ,i myself piti$ "s ( !m :o 7 old & g\ty :5 !y arriv$ at my door out ( brea?4 ,,*apt] ,,iv ,,univ]sity ,9 ord] to enable me to g to ! ,univ]sity1 my "m & si/] mov$ to ,leipzig & kept h\se = me dur+ all ! "t ,i 0 !re--t is1 = two ye>s & a half4 ,9 spite ( ! res angu/a domi1 ,i enjoy$ my /ud5t-life ?or\ghly1 :ile my home 0 made v agreeable by my "m & si/]4 ,my "m 0 full ( res\rce1 & %e 0 wise en\gh n to int]f]e ) my fre$om4 ,my si/]1 :o 0 ab\t two ye>s old] ?an myself1 0 mo/ k9d-he>t$ & devot$ bo? to me & to our "m4 ,!re 0 no?+ selfi% 9 h]1 & we ?ree liv$ toge!r 9 p]fect love1 peace1 & h>mony4 ,my si/] enjoy$ :at little !re 0 ( society1 :]eas ,i kept /]nly alo( f x4 ,%e 0 mu* admir$1 & soon became engag$ to a "y doctor1 ,dr4 ,a4 ,krug1 ! son ( ! fam\s pr(essor ( philosophy at ,leipzig1 ^: works1 p>ticul>ly 8 ,diction>y ( ,philosophy1 hold a di/+ui%$ place 9 ! hi/ory ( ,g]man philosophy4 ,he 0 a ?or\gh patriot1 & s public spirit$ t he ?\ght x "r to leave a consid]able sum ( money to ! ,univ]sity1 )\t mak+ suffici5t provision = 8 *ildr54 ,h[ev]1 ! "y m>ri$ c\ple liv$ happily at ,*emnitz1 & my si/] 0 pr\d 9 ! possession ( h] *ildr54 ,x 0 ! sudd5 dea? ( sev]al ( ^! *ildr5 t broke h] he>t & ru9$ h] heal?2 %e di$ v "y4 ,/&+ by ! grave ( h] *ildr51 %e said to me %ortly be=e h] dea?1 8,half ( me is dead already1 & lies buri$ !re2 ! o!r half w soon foll[40 ,( society1 9 ! ord9>y s5se ( ! ^w1 ,i saw h>dly any?+4 ,i am afraid ,i 0 r a be>1 & decl9$ ev5 to inve/ 9 ev5+ dress4 ,i jo9$ a /ud5t club :i* =m$ "p ( ! ,burs*5s*aft1 b :i* 9 ord] to escape prosecution adopt$ ! title ( ,geme9s*aft4 ,i w5t !re 9 ! ev5+ to dr9k be] & smoke1 & ,i made "s delightful acqua9tances & fri5d%ips4 ,:at f9e *>act]s 7 !re1 (t5 beh9d a v r\gh ext]ior6 ,my de>e/ fri5d 0 ,pr[e1 ( ,?orn 9 ,ea/ ,prussia--s hone/1 s true1 s /raight=w>d1 s ov]-consci5ti\s 9 ! smalle/ ?+s4 ,he 0 a classical s*ol>1 & lat] on ent]$ ! ,prussian educational s]vice4 ,z a ma/] at ! pr9cipal s*ool at ,?orn 8 "t 0 fully occupi$1 & ( c\rse he 0 cut (f !re f ! enliv5+ influ5ces ( lit]>y society4 ,/ill he kept up 8 int]e/ 9 high] que/ions1 & publi%$ "s extremely valuable books on ,cop]nicus1 a native ( ,?orn1 = :i* he receiv$ ! ?anks ( a/ronom]s & hi/orians1 & flatt]+ te/imonials f le>n$ societies4 ,we met b seldom lat] 9 life1 & my own life 9 ,engl& 0 s busy & full t ev5 our correspond5ce 0 n regul>4 ,b ,i met him once m at ,ems ) a *>m+ wife1 & decid$ly happy 9 8 own sph]e ( activity4 ,^! e>ly fri5d%ips =m ! di/ant l&scape ( life on :i* we l to dwell :5 ! pres5t ceases to absorb all our ?\ghts4 ,our memory dwells on !m z a gold5 horizon1 & !re rema9s a con/ant ye>n+ :i* makes u feel ! incomplet5ess ( ?is life4 ,aft] all1 ! numb] ( our true fri5ds is small2 & yet h[ few ev5 ( t small numb] rema9 ) u = life4 ,!re are o!r faces & o!r names t rise f beyond ! cl\ds :i* m & m divide u f our e>ly ye>s4 ,!re 7 "s wild spirits among u :o frett$ at ! n>r[-m9d$ policy :i* w5t by ! "n ( ! ,mett]ni* sy/em4 ,repression 0 ! panacea :i* ,mett]ni* recomm5d$ to all ! gov]nm5ts ( ,g]many1 l>ge & small4 ,no d\bt ! sy/em ( keep+ ?+s quiet secur$ to ,g]many & to ,europe at l>ge a ?irty ye>s' peace1 b x c\ld n prev5t ! accumulation ( inflammable mat]ial :i*1 aft] sev]al ?reat5+s1 bur/ =? at la/ 9 ! conflagration ( #ahdh4 ,among my fri5ds ,i rememb] sev]al :o 7 ready = ! wilde/ s*emes 9 ord] to h ,g]many unit$1 respect$ abroad1 & "u con/itutional gov]nm5t at home4 ,spl5did fell[s !y 71 b !y ei!r end$ _! days )9 ! walls ( a prison1 or _h to ?r[ up ev]y?+ & migrate to ,am]ica4 ,:at has become ( !m8 ,"s h ris5 to ! surface 9 ,am]ica1 o!rs h yield$ to ! inevitable & become peaceful citiz5s at home2 nay1 ,i am griev$ to say1 h ev5 accept$ s]vice "u ,gov]nm5t to spy on _! =m] fri5ds & fell[-dream]s4 ,b n a few saw ! :ole ( _! life wreck$ ei!r 9 prison or 9 pov]ty1 ?\gh !y _h done no wrong1 & 9 _m cases 7 ! f9e/ *>act]s x has be5 my good =tune to "k4 ,!y 7 be=e _! "t1 ! fruit 0 n ripe z x 0 9 #ahga1 b ,g]many c]ta9ly lo/ "s ( h] be/ sons 9 ^? mis]able ye>s2 & if my fa!r escap$ ?is political p]secution1 x 0 probably due to ! influ5ce ( ! reign+ ,duke & ! ,du*ess1 a ,pr9cess ( ,prussia1 :o knew t he 0 n a dang]\s man1 & n likely to bl[ up ! ,g]man ,diet4 ,i myself got a ta/e ( prison life = ! (f5ce ( we>+ ! ribbon ( a club :i* ! police reg>d$ ) disfav\r4 ,i _c say t ei!r ! disgrace or ! discom=t ( my two days' durance vile weigh$ mu* ) me1 z my fri5ds 7 all[$ free access to me1 & came & drank be] & smok$ cig>s 9 my cell--( c\rse at my exp5se--b :at ,i dread$ 0 ! loss ( my /ip5dium or s*ol>%ip1 :i* alone enabl$ me to cont9ue my /udies at ,leipzig1 & :i*1 z a rule1 0 =feit$ = political (f5ces4 ,on my release f prison ,i w5t to ! ,rector ( ! ,univ]sity & expla9$ to him ! circum/ances ( ! case--h[ ,i _h be5 arre/$ simply = memb]%ip ( a suspect$ club4 ,i assur$ him t ,i 0 innoc5t ( any political propag&a1 & t ! loss ( my /ip5dium w\ld entail my leav+ ! ,univ]sity4 ,mu* to my relief1 ! old g5tleman repli$3 8,i h he>d no?+ ab\t ?is2 & if ,i d1 h[ am ,i to "k t x ref]s to y1 !re are _m ,mll]s 9 ! ,univ]sity80 ,=tunately ! di/9ctive prefix ,max _h n yet be5 add$ to my "n4 ,i mu/ confess t ,i & my boon companions 7 sometimes guilty ( practices :i* 9 m mod]n days1 & c]ta9ly at ,ox=d or ,cambridge1 w\ld be f> m likely to br+ ! culprits into collision ) ! au?orities ?an m]e memb]%ip ( societies 9 :i* comp>atively h>mless political talk 0 indulg$ 94 ,duell+ 0 !n1 z x is n[1 a fav\rite pa/ime among ! /ud5ts2 & ?\gh n by nature a brawl]1 ,i f9d t 9 my /ud5t days at ,leipzig ,i f\ght ?ree duels1 ( two ( :i* ,i c>ry ! m>ks to ! pres5t day4 ,i rememb] t on "o occasion be=e ! introduction ( cabs we hir$ all ! s$an-*airs 9 ,leipzig1 ) _! yell[-coat$ port]s1 & w5t 9 procession ?r\gh ! /reets1 mu* to ! a/oni%m5t ( ! good citiz5s1 & annoyance also1 z !y 7 unable to hire any means ( conveyance till a p]emptory /op 0 put to our fun4 ,n cont5t ) ?is exploit1 :5 ! fir/ cabs 7 introduc$ into ,leipzig1 ?irty or =ty be+ put on ! /reet at fir/1 ,i & my fri5ds secur$ ! use ( all ( !m = ! day1 & proce$$ out into ! c\ntry4 ,! inhabitants :o 7 eag]ly look+ =w>d to a drive 9 "o ( ! new conveyances 7 naturally annoy$ at f9d+ !mselves =e/all$1 & ! result 0 t a /op 0 put to su* freaks 9 future by ! issue ( a police regulation t nobody 0 all[$ to hire m ?an two cabs at a "t4 ,v innoc5t amusem5ts1 if p]haps fooli%1 b v happy days all ! same2 & x mu/ be rememb]$ t we _h j em]g$ f ! /rict discipl9e ( a ,g]man s*ool into ! unre/rict$ lib]ty ( ,g]man univ]sity life4 ,x is 9 e respect a great jump f a ,g]man s*ool to a ,g]man univ]sity4 ,at s*ool a boy ev5 9 ! highe/ =m1 has little *oice4 ,all 8 lessons are laid d[n = him2 he has to le>n :at he is told1 :e!r he likes x or n4 ,few only v5ture on books outside ! prescrib$ curriculum4 ,!re is an exam9ation at ! end ( e half-ye>1 & a boy mu/ pass x well 9 ord] to get into a high] =m4 ,boys at a public s*ool 7gymnasium71 if !y _c pass _! exam9ation at ! prop] "t1 are advis$ to g to ano!r s*ool1 & to prep>e = a c>e] 9 :i* classical languages are ( less importance4 ,i mu/ say at once t :5 ,i matriculat$ at ,leipzig1 9 ! summ] ( #ahda1 ,i 0 /ill v "y & v immature4 ,i _h det]m9$ to /udy philology1 *iefly ,greek & ,lat91 b ! f>e spread out by ! pr(essors 0 mu* too tempt+4 ,i read ,greek & ,lat9 )\t difficulty2 ,i (t5 read classical au?ors )\t ev] attempt+ to translate !m2 ,i also wrote & spoke ,lat9 easily4 ,"s ( ! pr(essors lectur$ 9 ,lat91 & at our academic societies ,lat9 0 always spok54 ,i soon became a memb] ( ! classical sem9>y "u ,gottfri$ ,h]mann1 & ( ! ,lat9 ,society "u ,pr(essor ,haupt4 ,admission to ^! sem9>ies & societies 0 obta9$ by submitt+ essays1 & x 0 no d\bt a di/9ction to belong to !m4 ,x 0 also useful1 = n only _h we to write essays & discuss !m ) ! o!r memb]s1 g5]ally tea*]s1 & ) ! pr(essor1 b we c\ld also get "s useful advice f ! pr(essor = our private /udies4 ,9 t respect ! ,g]man univ]sities d v little = ! /ud5ts1 unless "o has ! good =tune to belong to "o ( ^! societies4 ,! "y m5 are let loose1 & !y c *oose :atev] lectures !y want4 ,i /ill h my ,collegi5-,bu*1 9 :i* e pr(essor has to atte/ :at lectures "o has att5d$4 ,! numb] ( lectures on v>i\s subjects :i* ,i att5d$ is q amaz+1 & ,i %\ld h att5d$ /ill m if ! honor>ium _h n fright5$ me away4 ,e pr(essor lectur$ publice & privatim1 & = ! m important c\rses1 f\r lectures a week1 he *>g$ t5 %ill+s1 = m special c\rses less or no?+4 ,?is seems little1 b x 0 (t5 too mu* = me2 & if "o add$ ^! honor>ia to ! sal>y ( a popul> pr(essor1 8 income 0 consid]able1 & 0 m ?an ! income ( mo/ public s]vants4 ,i h kn[n pr(essors :o _h f\r or five hundr$ auditors4 ,?is gave !m #bej twice a ye>1 & t1 add$ to _! sal>y1 0 consid]$ a good income at t "t4 ,all ?is has be5 mu* *ang$4 ,sal>ies h be5 rais$1 & likewise ! honor>ia1 s t ,i well rememb] ! case ( ,pr(essor von ,savigny1 :o1 :5 he 0 *os5 ,m9i/] ( ,ju/ice at ,b]l91 decl>$ t he w\ld gladly accept if only 8 sal>y 0 rais$ to :at 8 income _h be5 z ,pr(essor ( ,law4 ,( c\rse1 pr(essors ( ,arabic or ,sanskrit 7 badly (f1 & ,privatdoc5t5 7tutors7 f>$ /ill worse1 b ! pr(essores ord9>ii1 p>ticul>ly if !y lectur$ on an obligatory subject & 7 likewise exam9]s1 7 v well (f4 ,9 fact1 x /ruck me sometimes z v unwor?y ( !m to keep a famulus1 a /ud5t :o _h to tell e "o :o wi%$ to he> a di/+ui%$ pr(essor once or twice1 t he w\ld n all[ him to come a ?ird "t4 ,"o great drawback ( ! pr(essorial sy/em is c]ta9ly ! small measure ( p]sonal advice t a /ud5t may get f ! pr(essors4 ,unless he is kn[n to !m p]sonally1 or has ga9$ admission to _! societies or sem9>ies1 ! "y /ud5t or fre%man is q bewild]$ by ! ri* f>e 9 ! %ape ( lectures t is plac$ be=e him4 ,"s /ud5ts1 no d\bt1 p>ticul>ly 9 _! e>ly t]ms1 solve ?is difficulty by att5d+ none at all1 & !re is no =ce to make !m d s1 except ! exam9ations loom+ 9 ! di/ance4 ,b !re are _m "y m5 mo/ anxi\s to le>n1 only !y d n "k :]e to beg94 ,i op5 my old ,collegi5-,bu* & ,i f9d t 9 ! fir/ t]m or ,seme/] ,i att5d$ ! foll[+ lectures1 & ,i may say ,i att5d$ !m regul>ly1 took c>eful notes1 & read su* books z 7 recomm5d$ by ! pr(essors4 ,i f9d #a4 ,! fir/ book ( ,?ucydides ,gottfri$ ,h]mann4 #b4 ,on ,sc5ic ,antiquities ,! same4 #c4 ,on ,prop]tius ,p4 ,m4 ,haupt4 #d4 ,hi/ory ( ,g]man ,lit]ature ,! same4 #e4 ,! ,ranae ( ,ari/ophanes ,/allbaum4 #f4 ,disputatorium 79 ,lat97 ,nobbe4 #g4 ,ae/hetics ,weisse4 #h4 ,an?ropology ,lotze4 #i4 ,sy/ems ( ,h>monic ,composition ,f9k4 #aj4 ,hebrew ,gramm> ,fr/4 #aa4 ,demo/h5es ,we/]mann4 #ab4 ,psy*ology ,he9ro?4 ,?is 0 en\gh = ! summ] half-ye>4 ,except ,greek & ,lat91 ! o!r subjects 7 entirely new to me1 & :at ,i want$ 0 to get an idea ( :at ,i %\ld l to /udy4 ,x may be int]e/+ to add ! o!r ,seme/]s z f> z ,i h !m 9 my ,collegi5-,bu*4 #ac4 ,aes*yli ,p]sae ,h]mann4 #ad4 ,on ,criticism ,! same4 #ae4 ,g]man ,gramm> ,haupt4 #af4 ,wal!r von d] ,vogelweide ,! same4 #ag4 ,tacitus1 ,agricola1 & ,de ,oratoribus ,! same4 #ah4 ,on ,hegel ,weisse4 #ai4 ,disputatorium 7,lat97 ,nobbe4 #bj4 ,mod]n ,hi/ory ,wa*smu?4 #ba4 ,sanskrit ,gramm> ,brockhaus4 #bb4 ,lat9 ,society ,haupt4 ,!n foll[s ! summ] t]m ( #ahdb4 #bc4 ,p9d> ,h]mann4 #bd4 ,nibelung5 ,haupt4 #be4 ,nala ,brockhaus4 #bf4 ,hi/ory ( ,ori5tal ,lit]ature ,! same4 #bg4 ,arabic ,gramm> ,fleis*]4 #bh4 ,lat9 ,society ,haupt4 #bi4 ,plauti ,tr9umus ,beck]4 ,w9t] t]m1 #ahdb4 #cj4 ,prabodha ,*&rodaya ,brockhaus4 #ca4 ,hi/ory ( ,indian ,lit]ature ,! same4 #cb4 ,ari/ophanes' ,vespae ,h]mann4 #cc4 ,plauti ,rud5s ,! same4 #cd4 ,greek ,syntax ,! same4 #ce4 ,juv5al ,beck]4 #cf4 ,metaphysics & ,logic ,weisse4 #cg4 ,philosophy ( ,hi/ory ,! same4 #ch4 ,greek & ,lat9 ,sem9>y ,h]mann ,klotze4 #ci4 ,lat9 ,society ,haupt4 #dj4 ,philosophical ,society ,weisse4 #da4 ,philosophical ,society ,drobis*4 ,summ] t]m1 #ahdc4 #db4 ,greek & ,lat9 ,sem9>y ,h]mann ,klotze4 #dc4 ,philosophical ,society ,drobis*4 #dd4 ,philosophical ,society ,weisse4 #de4 ,soma-deva ,brockhaus4 #df4 ,hitopadesa ,! same4 #dg4 ,hi/ory ( ,greeks & ,romans ,wa*smu?4 #dh4 ,hi/ory ( ,civilization ,! same4 #di4 ,hi/ory aft] ! ,fifte5? ,c5tury ,fla!4 #ej4 ,hi/ory ( ,anci5t ,philosophy ,ni$n]4 ,w9t] t]m1 #ahdc-d4 #ea4 ,rig-v$a ,brockhaus4 #eb4 ,elem5ta ,p]sica ,fleis*]4 #ec4 ,greek & ,lat9 ,sem9>y ,h]mann ,klotze4 ,"h my ,collegi5-,bu* breaks (f1 ! fact be+ t ,i 0 prep>+ to g to ,b]l9 to he> ! lectures ( ,bopp & ,s*ell+4 ,x w be cle> f ! above li/ t ,i c]ta9ly attempt$ too mu*4 ,i ought ei!r to h devot$ all my "t to classical /udies exclusively1 or c>ri$ on my philosophical /udies m sy/ematically4 ,i confess t1 delight$ z ,i 0 ) ,gottfri$ ,h]mann & ,haupt z my guides & tea*]s 9 classics1 ,i f\nd little t c\ld r\se my en?usiasm = ,greek & ,lat9 lit]ature1 & ,i always requir$ a dose ( t to make me "w h>d4 ,ev]y?+ seem$ to me to h be5 done1 & !re 0 no virg9 soil left to ! pl\gh1 no ru9s on :i* to try "o's own spade4 ,h]mann & ,haupt gave me "w to d1 b x 0 all 9 ! critical l9e--! g5ealogical relation ( v>i\s ,,mss41 or1 aga91 ! peculi>ities ( c]ta9 poets1 long be=e ,i _h fully grasp$ _! g5]al "*4 ,:at ,lat9 v[els c\ld or c\ld n =m elision 9 ,horace1 ,prop]tius1 or ,ovid1 0 a subject t co/ me mu* lab\r1 & yet left v small results z f> z ,i 0 p]sonally conc]n$4 ,"o clev] conjecture1 or "o indication to %[ t "o ,,ms4 0 dep5d5t on ! o!r1 0 rew>d$ ) a ,doctissime or ,excell5tissime1 b a pap] on ,aes*ylus & 8 view ( a div9e gov]nm5t ( ! _w receiv$ b a nodd+ approval4 ,!y c]ta9ly taught _! pupils :at accuracy meant2 !y gave u ! new idea t ,,mss4 are n ev]y?+1 unless _! real value has be5 discov]$ fir/ by f9d+ ! place :i* !y occupy 9 ! p$igree ( ! ,,mss4 ( e au?or4 ,!y also taught u t !re are mi/akes 9 ,,mss4 :i* are inevitable1 & may safely be left to conjectural em5dation2 t ,,mss4 ( mod]n date may be & (t5 are m valuable ?an m anci5t ,,mss41 = ! simple reason t !y 7 copi$ f a /ill m anci5t ,,ms41 & t (t5 a badly writt5 & h>dly legible ,,ms4 proves m helpful ?an o!rs writt5 by a calligraphi/1 because x is ! "w ( a s*ol> :o copi$ = himself & n = ! m>ket4 ,all ^! ?+s we le>nt & le>nt by practical exp]i5ce "u ,h]mann & ,haupt1 b :at we fail$ to acquire 0 a l>ge k ( ,greek & ,lat9 lit]ature1 ( ! "* ( ea* au?or & ( ! _s :i* p]vad$ _! works4 ,i ought to h read 9 ,lat91 ,cic]o1 ,tacitus1 & ,lucretius2 9 ,greek1 ,h]odotus1 ,?ucydides1 ,plato1 & ,ari/otle2 b z ,i read only portions ( !m1 my k ( ! m5 !mselves & _! objects 9 life rema9$ v fragm5t>y4 ,= in/ance1 my real acqua9tance ) ,plato & ,ari/otle 0 conf9$ to a few dialogues ( ! =m] & "s ( ! logical works ( ! latt]4 ,! re/ ,i le>nt f su* works z ,ritt] & ,prell]'s ,hi/oria ,philosophiae ,graecae et ,romanae ex fontium locis contexta1 & f ! v useful lectures ( ,ni$n] on ! hi/ory ( anci5t philosophy4 ,h[ev]1 ,i ?\ght ,i _h to d :at my pr(essors told me1 & %ap$ my read+ s t !y %\ld approve ( my "w4 ,?is mu/ n be und]/ood z 9 any way disp>ag+ my tea*]s4 ,su* an idea nev] ent]$ my head at ! "t4 ,p h no idea 9 ,engl& :at k9d ( wor%ip is paid by ,g]man /ud5ts to _! pr(essors4 ,to f9d fault ) !m or to d\bt _! ipse dixit nev] ent]$ our m9ds4 ,:at !y said ( o!r classical s*ol>s f :om !y diff]$1 z ,h]mann did f ,otfri$ ,mll]1 or ,haupt f ,orelli1 0 gospel1 & rema9$ engrav$ on our memory = a long "t4 ,once :5 att5d+ ,h]mann's lectures1 ano!r /ud5t :o 0 sitt+ at ! same table ) me made disrespectful rem>ks ab\t old ,h]mann4 ,i ask$ him to be quiet1 & :5 he w5t on ) 8 fooli% rem>ks1 ,i c\ld only /op him by call+ him out4 ,z soon z ! *all5ge 0 accept$ he _h ( c\rse to be quiet1 & a few days aft] we f\ght our duel )\t mu* damage to ei!r ( u4 ,i only m5tion ?is because x %[s :at respect & admiration we felt = our pr(essor1 also because x exemplifies ! usefulness ( duell+ 9 a ,g]man univ]sity1 :]e aft] a *all5ge n ano!r ^w c be said or viol5ce be ?reat5$ ev5 by ! rude/ und]graduate4 ,a duel = a ,greek conjecture may seem v absurd1 b 9 duels ( ?is k9d all t is want$ is really a c]ta9 k ( f5c+1 c>e be+ tak5 t no?+ s]i\s %all happ54 ,& yet1 ?\gh t is s1 ! feel+ ( a possible dang] is !re1 & keeps up a c]ta9 etiquette & a c]ta9 prop] behavi\r among m5 tak5 f all /rata ( society4 ,nor c ,i q d5y t :5 ,i w5t 9 ! morn+ to a beautiful wood 9 ! neighb\rhood ( ,leipzig1 c]ta9 misgiv+s 7 difficult to suppress4 ,i saw myself sev]ely w\nd$1 possibly kill$1 by my antagoni/1 & c>ri$ to a h\se :]e my "m & si/] 7 look+ = me4 ,?is w5t (f :5 ,i met ! l>ge assembly ( /ud5ts1 beautifully attir$ 9 _! club uni=ms1 ! be] b>rels pu%$ up on "o side1 ! surgeon & 8 in/rum5ts wait+ on ! o!r4 ,!re 7 ev] s _m1 ?irty or =ty c\ples ,i ?9k1 wait+ to fight _! duels t morn+4 ,"s f5c$ extremely well1 & x 0 a pleasure to look on2 & :5 "o's own turn came1 all "o ?\ght ( 0 h[ to /& "o's gr\nd boldly1 & h[ to f5ce well4 ,"s ( ! combatants came on horseback or 9 c>riages1 & !re 0 a small riv] close by to enable u to escape if ! police %\ld h he>d ( our meet+4 ,= popul> z ^! duels are1 !y are =bidd5 & puni%$1 & ! sev]e/ puni%m5t seem$ always to be ! loss ( our uni=ms1 our arms1 our flags1 & our b>rels ( be]4 ,h[ev]1 we escap$ all int]f]5ce ?is "t1 & enjoy$ our breakfa/ 9 ! =e/ ?or\ghly1 no?+ happ5+ to di/urb ! hil>ity ( ! morn+4 ,n be+ satisfi$ ) :at seem$ to me a m]e *ew+ ( ! cud 9 ,greek & ,lat91 ,i betook myself to sy/ematic philosophy1 & ev5 dur+ ! fir/ t]ms read m ( t ?an ( ,plato & ,ari/otle4 ,i belong$ to ! philosophical societies ( ,weisse1 ( ,drobis*1 & ( ,lotze1 a memb]%ip 9 ea* ( :i* societies entail$ a consid]able am\nt ( read+ & writ+4 ,at ,leipzig1 ,pr(essor ,drobis* repres5t$ ! s*ool ( ,h]b>t1 :i* prid$ itself on its cle>ness & logical accuracy1 b 0 naturally less attractive to ! "y spirits at ! ,univ]sity :o _h he>d ( ,hegel's ,idea & look$ to ! dialectic process z ! solution ( all difficulties4 ,i wi%$ to "k :at x all meant1 = ,i 0 n satisfi$ ) m]e words4 ,!re is h>dly a ^w t has s _m mean+s z ,idea1 & ,i d\bt :e!r any ( ! raw recruits1 j escap$ f s*ool1 & unacqua9t$ ) ! hi/ory ( philosophy1 c\ld h _h any idea ( :at ,hegel's ,idea 0 meant =4 ,yet !y talk$ ab\t x v eloqu5tly & v positively ov] _! glasses ( be]2 & anybody :o came f ,b]l9 & c\ld speak my/]i\sly or raptur\sly ab\t ! ,idea & its evolution by ! dialectic process1 0 li/5$ to ) sil5t wond] by ! "y ,saxons1 :o _h be5 br\ght up on ,kant & ,krug4 ,! ,hegelian fev] 0 /ill v high at t "t4 ,x is true ,hegel himself 0 dead 7#ahca71 & ?\gh he 0 suppos$ to h decl>$ on 8 dea?b$ t he left only "o true disciple1 & t t disciple _h misund]/ood him1 to be a ,hegelian 0 consid]$ a s9e qua non1 n only among philosoph]s1 b q z mu* among !ologians1 m5 ( sci5ce1 lawy]s1 arti/s1 9 fact1 9 e bran* ( human k1 at lea/ 9 ,prussia4 ,if ,*ri/ianity 9 its ,prote/ant =m 0 ! /ate-religion ( ! k+dom1 ,hegelianism 0 its /ate-philosophy4 ,beg9n+ ) ! ,m9i/] ( ,in/ruction d[n to ! village s*oolma/]1 ev]ybody claim$ to be a ,hegelian1 & ?is 0 suppos$ to be ! be/ road to advancem5t4 ,?\gh ,alt5/e91 :o 0 !n at ! head ( ! ,m9i/ry ( ,in/ruction1 began to wav] 9 8 allegiance to ,hegel1 ev5 he c\ld n resi/ ! ru% ( public & ( (ficial op9ion4 ,x 0 he :o1 :5 a new pr(essor ( philosophy 0 recomm5d$ to him ei!r by ,hegel himself or by "s ( 8 foll[]s1 is report$ to h said3 8,g5tlem51 ,i h read "s ( ! "y man's books1 & ,i _c und]/& a ^w ( !m4 ,h[ev]1 y are ! be/ judges1 only all[ me to say t y rem9d me a little ( ! ,fr5* (fic] :o told 8 tailor to make 8 bree*es z tight z possible1 & dismiss$ him ) ! words3 #8,enf91 si je peux y entr]1 je ne les pr5drai pas4' ,?is seems to me v mu* :at y say ( y\r "y philosoph]4 ,if ,i c und]/& 8 books1 ,i am n to take him40 ,?is ,hegelian fev] 0 v mu* l :at we h pass$ ?r\gh ourselves at ! "t ( ! ,d>w9ian fev]2 ,d>w9's natural evolution 0 look$ ^u v mu* l ,hegel's dialectic process1 z ! g5]al solv5t ( all difficulties4 ,! mo/ egregi\s nons5se 0 pass$ "u t "n1 z x 0 "u ! "n ( evolution4 ,hegel knew v well :at he meant1 s did ,d>w94 ,b ! empty en?usiasm ( 8 foll[]s became s wild t ,d>w9 himself1 ! mo/ humble ( all m51 became q a%am$ ( x4 ,! ma/]1 ( c\rse1 0 n responsible = ! folly ( 8 s-call$ disciples1 b ! result 0 inevitable4 ,aft] ! b[ _h be5 /ret*$ to ! utmo/1 a reaction foll[$1 & 9 ! case ( ,hegelianism1 a complete collapse4 ,ev5 at ,b]l9 ! popul>ity ( ,hegelianism came sudd5ly to an end1 & aft] a "t no truly sci5tific man lik$ to be call$ a ,hegelian4 ,^! sudd5 collapses 9 ,g]many are v in/ructive4 ,z long z a ,g]man pr(essor is at ! head ( affairs & c d some?+ = 8 pupils1 8 pupils are v l\d 9 _! encomiums1 bo? 9 public & 9 private4 ,!y n only exalt him1 b help to belittle all :o diff] f him4 ,s x 0 ) ,hegel1 s x 0 at a lat] "t ) ,bopp1 & ,curtius1 & o!r pr(essors1 p>ticul>ly if !y _h ! e> ( ! ,m9i/] ( ,education4 ,b soon aft] ! dea? ( ^! m51 p>ticul>ly if ano!r influ5tial /> 0 ris+1 ! *ange ( tone 0 mo/ sudd5 & mo/ surpris+2 ev5 ! sale ( _! books dw9dl$ d[n1 & !y 7 ref]r$ to only z l&m>ks1 %[+ ! rapid advance made by liv+ celebrities4 ,p]haps all ?is _c be help$1 z long z human nature is :at x is1 b x is nev]!less pa9ful to obs]ve4 ,i _h ! good =tune ( becom+ acqua9t$ ) ,hegelianism ?r\gh ,pr(essor ,*ri/ian ,weisse at ,leipzig1 :o1 ?\gh he 0 consid]$ a ,hegelian1 0 a v sob] ,hegelian1 a critic q z mu* z an admir] ( ,hegel4 ,he _h a v small audi5ce1 because 8 mann] ( lectur+ 0 c]ta9ly mo/ try+ & tantaliz+4 ,b by be+ br\ght into p]sonal contact ) him "o 0 able to get help f him :]ev] he c\ld give x4 ,?\gh ,weisse 0 conv9c$ ( ! tru? ( ,hegel's ,dialectic ,me?od1 he (t5 diff]$ f him 9 its application4 ,?is ,dialectic ,me?od consi/$ 9 %[+ h[ ?\ght is con/antly & irresi/ibly driv5 f an affirmative to a negative position1 !n reconciles ! two opposites1 & f t po9t />ts afre%1 repeat+ once m ! same process4 ,pure be+1 = in/ance1 f :i* ,hegel's ideal evolution />ts1 0 %[n to be ! same z empty be+1 t is to say1 no?+1 & bo? 7 pres5t$ z id5tical1 & 9 _! id5tity giv+ u ! new concept ( ,becom+ 7,w]d571 :i* is be+ & n-be+ at ! same "t4 ,all ?is may appe> to ! lay read] r obscure1 b c\ld n well be pass$ ov]4 ,s f> ,weisse foll[$ ! great ?9k]1 & ,i possess /ill1 9 8 own writ+1 ! picture ( a ladd] on :i* ! intellect is repres5t$ z climb+ high] & high] f ! l[e/ concept to ! highe/--a k9d ( ,jacob's ladd] on :i* ! categories1 l angels ( ,god1 asc5d & desc5d f heav5 to e>?4 ,we mu/ rememb] t ! true ,hegelian reg>d$ ! ,ideas z ! ?\ghts ( ,god4 ,hegel look$ ^u ?is evolution ( ?\ght z at ! same "t ! evolution ( ,be+1 ! ,idea be+ ! only ?+ t c\ld be said to be truly real4 ,9 ord] to und]/& ?is1 we mu/ rememb] t ! hi/orical key to ,hegel's ,idea 0 really ! ,neo-,platonic or ,alex&rian ,logos4 ,b ( ?is ,logos we ignorant und]graduates1 sitt+ at ! feet ( ,pr(4 ,weisse1 knew absolutely no?+1 & ev5 if ! ,idea 0 sometimes plac$ be=e u z ! ,absolute1 ! ,inf9ite1 or ! ,div9e1 x 0 to u1 at lea/ to mo/ ( u1 myself includ$1 vox et praet]ea nihil4 ,we wat*$ ! wond]ful evolutions & convolutions ( ! ,idea 9 its ,dialectic developm5t1 b ( ! ,idea itself or himself we _h no idea :atev]4 ,x 0 all d>kness1 a va/ abyss1 & we sat pati5tly & wrote d[n :at we c\ld cat* & compreh5d ( ! ,pr(essor's explanations1 b ! ,idea itself we nev] c\ld lay hold (4 ,x w\ld n h be5 s difficult if ! ,pr(essor _h spok5 out m boldly4 ,b :5ev] he came to ! relation ( ! ,idea to :at we mean by ,god1 !re 0 always ev5 ) him1 :o 0 a v hone/ man1 a c]ta9 !ological hesitation4 ,hegel himself seems to %r9k occasionally f ! consequ5ce t ! ,idea really /&s 9 ! place ( ,god1 & t x is 9 ! self-consci\s _s ( humanity t ! ideal ,god becomes fir/ consci\s ( himself4 ,/ill1 t is ! la/ ^w ( ,hegel's philosophy1 ?\gh o!rs ma9ta9 t ! ,idea ) ,hegel 0 ! ?\ght ( ,god1 & t human ?\ght 0 b a repetition ( t div9e ?\ght4 ,) ,hegel !re is fir/ ! evolution ( ! ,idea 9 ! pure e!r ( logic f ! simple/ to ! highe/ category4 ,!n foll[s ,hegel's ,philosophy ( ,nature1 t is1 ! evolution ( ! ,idea 9 nature1 ! ,idea hav+ by ! usual dialectic process negativ$ itself & ent]$ into its opposite 7,&]sse971 pass+ ?r\gh a new process ( space & "t1 & end+ 9 ! self-consci\s human s\l4 ,?us nature & _s 7 repres5t$ z dom9at$ by ! ,idea 9 its logical developm5t4 ,nature 0 "o manife/ation ( ! ,idea1 ,hi/ory ! o!r1 & x became ! task ( ! philosoph] to discov] its traces bo? 9 ! progress ( nature & 9 ! hi/orical progress ( ?\ght4 ,& "h x 0 :]e ! /ronge/ prote/s began to be he>d4 ,physical ,sci5ce revolt$1 & ,hi/orical ,rese>* soon jo9$ ! rebellion4 ,pr(essor ,weisse also1 9 spite ( 8 great admiration = ,hegel1 prote/$ 9 8 ,lectures aga9/ ?is idealization ( hi/ory1 & %[$ h[ (t5 ,hegel1 if he c\ld n f9d ! traces he 0 look+ = 9 ! hi/orical developm5t ( ! ,idea1 0 misl$ by 8 imp]fect k ( facts1 & discov]$ :at 0 n !re1 b :at he felt conv9c$ ought to h be5 !re4 ,n[h]e has ?is become s evid5t z 9 ,hegel's ,philosophy ( ,religion4 ,! conception 0 gr& ( see+ 9 ! hi/orical developm5t ( religion a repetition ( ! ,dialectic ,progress ( ! ,idea4 ,b facts are /ubborn ?+s1 & d n yield ev5 to ! supreme comm& ( ! ,idea4 ,besides1 if ! hi/orical facts ( religion 7 really su* z ! ,dialectic ,process ( ! ,idea requir$1 ^! facts are no long] :at !y 7 be=e #ahca1 & :at w\ld become !n ( ! ,idea :i*1 z he wrote 9 8 preface to 8 ,metaphysics1 c\ld n possibly be *ang$ to please ! new facts8 ,x 0 ?is "p ( ,weisse's lectures1 x 0 ! prote/ ( ! hi/orical consci5ce aga9/ ! dem&s ( ! ,idea1 t int]e/$ me mo/4 ,i see z cle>ly ! =mal tru? z ! mat]ial untru? ( ,hegel's philosophy4 ,! ?or\gh excell5ce ( its me?od & ! desp]ate baldness ( its results1 /rike me ) equal =ce4 ,?\gh ,i did n yet "k :at k9d ( ?+ or p]son ! ,idea 0 really meant =1 ,i knew myself en\gh ( anci5t ,greek philosophy & ( ,ori5tal religions to v5ture to criticize ,hegel's repres5tation & disposition ( ! facts !mselves4 ,i c\ld n accept ! answ] ( my m det]m9$ ,hegelian fri5ds1 ,tant pis p\r les faits1 b felt m & m ! old antagonism betwe5 :at ought to be & :at is1 betwe5 ! reasonabl5ess ( ! ,idea1 & ! unreasonabl5ess ( facts4 ,i f\nd a /rong support] 9 a "y ,privat-,doc5t :o at t "t began 8 brilliant c>e] at ,leipzig1 ,dr4 ,lotze4 ,he _h made a special /udy ( ma!matics & physical sci5ce1 & felt ! same disagreem5t betwe5 facts & !ories 9 ,hegel's ,philosophy ( ,nature :i* _h /ruck me s mu* 9 read+ 8 ,philosophy ( ,religion4 ,i jo9$ 8 philosophical society1 & ,i lately f\nd among my old pap]s sev]al essays :i* ,i _h writt5 = our meet+s4 ,!y amus$ me v mu*1 b ,i %\ld be sorry to see !m publi%$ n[4 ,x is curi\s t aft] _m ye>s ,i1 z a ,delegate ( ! ,univ]sity ,press at ,ox=d1 0 in/rum5tal 9 gett+ ! fir/ ,engli% translation ( ,lotze's ,metaphysics publi%$ 9 ,engl&2 & x is /ill m curi\s t ,m>k ,pattison1 ! late ,rector ( ,l9coln1 %\ld h oppos$ x ) might & ma9 z a useless book :i* w\ld nev] pay its exp5ses4 ,i /ood up = my old tea*]1 & ,i am glad to say to ! hon\r ( ,engli% philosoph]s1 t ! translation pass$ ?r\gh sev]al editions1 & help$ n a little to e/abli% ,lotze's position 9 ,engl& & ,am]ica4 ,he di$ 9 #ahha4 ,x is extraord9>y h[ ! "y m9ds 9 ,g]man univ]sities survive ! /orms & fogs ?r\gh :i* !y h to pass 9 _! academic c>e]4 ,i confess ,i myself felt q bewild]$ = a "t1 & began to despair altoge!r ( my reason+ p[]s4 ,:y %\ld ,i n be able to und]/&1 ,i ask$ myself1 :at o!r p seem$ to und]/& )\t any ef=t8 ,we speak ! same language1 :y %\ld we n be able to ?9k ! same ?\ght8 ,i took refuge = a "t 9 hi/ory--! hi/ory ( language1 ( religion1 & ( philosophy4 ,!re 0 a v le>n$ pr(essor at ,leipzig1 ,dr4 ,ni$n]1 :o lectur$ on ! ,hi/ory ( ,greek ,philosophy1 & ^: ,manual = ! ,hi/ory ( ,philosophy has be5 ( use to me ?r\gh ! :ole ( my life4 ,socrates said ( ,h]aclitus3 8,:at ,i h und]/ood ( 8 book is excell5t1 & ,i suppose !re=e t ev5 :at ,i h n und]/ood is s too2 b "o mu/ be a ,delian swimm] n to be dr[n$ 9 x40 ,i tri$ = a long "t to foll[ ?is advice ) reg>d to ,hegel & ,weisse1 & ?\gh di%e>t5$ did n despair4 ,i und]/ood "s ( x1 :y %\ld n ! re/ foll[ 9 "t8 ,?us1 ,i nev] gave up ! /udy ( philosophy at ,leipzig & aft]w>ds at ,b]l91 & my fir/ contributions to philosophical j\rnals date f t e>ly "t1 :5 ,i 0 a /ud5t 9 ! ,univ]sity ( ,leipzig4 ,my v e>lie/1 ?\gh v unsuccessful1 /ruggles to f9d an entrance into ! my/]ies ( philosophy date ev5 f my s*ool-days4 ,i rememb] "s ye>s be=e1 :5 ,i 0 q "y1 p]haps no m ?an fifte5 ye>s ( age1 li/5+ ) bat$ brea? to "s pr(essors at ,leipzig :o 7 talk+ v excit$ly ab\t philosophy 9 my pres5ce4 ,i _h no idea :at 0 meant by philosophy1 /ill less c\ld ,i foll[ :5 !y began to discuss ,kant's ,kritik d] re95 ,v]nunft4 ,"o ( my fri5ds1 :om ,i look$ up to z a great au?ority1 confess$ t he _h read ! book aga9 & aga91 b c\ld n und]/& ! :ole ( x4 ,my curiosity 0 mu* excit$1 & once1 :ile he 0 tak+ a walk ) me1 ,i ask$ him v timidly :at ,kant's book 0 ab\t1 & h[ a man c\ld write a book t o!r m5 c\ld n und]/&4 ,he tri$ to expla9 :at ,kant's book 0 ab\t1 b x 0 all p]fect d>kness be=e my eyes2 ,i 0 try+ to lay hold ( a ^w "h & !re1 b x all float$ be=e my m9d l mi/1 )\t a s+le ray ( light1 )\t any way out ( all t maze ( words4 ,b :5 at la/ he said he w\ld l5d me ! book1 ,i fell on x & por$ ov] x h\r aft] h\r4 ,! result 0 ! same4 ,my little bra9 c\ld n take 9 ! simple/ ideas ( ! fir/ *apt]s--t space & "t 7 no?+ by !mselves2 t we ourselves gave ! =m ( space & "t to :at 0 giv5 u by ! s5ses4 ,b ?\gh defeat$ ,i w\ld n give 92 ,i tri$ aga9 & aga91 b ( c\rse x 0 all 9 va94 ,! words 7 "h & ,i c\ld con/rue !m1 b !re 0 no?+ 9 my m9d :i* ! words c\ld h laid hold on4 ,x 0 l ra9 on h>d soil1 x all ran (f1 or rema9$ /&+ 9 puddles & muddles on my poor bra94 ,at la/ ,i gave x up 9 despair1 b ,i _h fully made up my m9d t z soon z ,i w5t to ! ,univ]sity ,i w\ld f9d out :at philosophy really 01 & :at ,kant meant by say+ t space & "t 7 =ms ( our s5su\s intuition4 ,i see t1 accord+ly1 9 ! summ] ( #ahda1 ,i att5d$ lectures on ,ae/hetics by ,pr(essor ,weisse1 on ,an?ropology by ,lotze1 & on ,psy*ology by ,pr(essor ,he9ro?1 & ,i sl[ly le>nt to di/+ui% betwe5 :at 0 go+ on )9 me1 & :at ,i _h be5 l$ to imag9e exi/$ outside me1 or at lea/ q indep5d5t ( me4 ,b be=e ,i _h got a firm grasp ( ,kant1 ( 8 =ms ( intuition1 & ! categories ( ! und]/&+1 ,i 0 ?r[n into ,hegelianism4 ,?is1 too1 0 at fir/ entire d>kness1 b ,i 0 n di%e>t5$4 ,i att5d$ ,pr(essor ,weisse's lectures on ,hegel 9 ! w9t] ( #ahda-b1 & aga9 9 ! w9t] ( #ahdb-c ,i att5d$ 8 lectures on ,logic & ,metaphysics1 & on ! ,philosophy ( ,hi/ory4 ,he took an int]e/ 9 me1 & ,i felt mo/ /rongly attract$ by him4 ,soon aft] ,i jo9$ 8 ,philosophical ,society1 & likewise t ( ,pr(essor ,drobis*4 ,9 ^! societies e memb]1 :5 8 turn came1 _h to write an essay & def5d x aga9/ ! pr(essor & ! o!r memb]s ( ! society4 ,all ?is 0 v helpful1 b x 0 n till ,i _h he>d a c\rse ( lectures on ! ,hi/ory ( ,philosophy1 by ,pr(essor ,ni$n]1 t my int]e/ 9 ,philosophy became /rong & heal?y4 ,:ile ,weisse 0 a lead+ ,hegelian philosoph]1 & ,drobis* repres5t$ ! opposite philosophy ( ,h]b>t1 ,ni$n] 0 purely hi/orical1 & ?is appeal$ mo/ to my ta/e4 ,/ill1 my philosophical /udies rema9$ v disjo9t$4 ,at la/ ,i 0 admitt$ to ,lotze's ,philosophical ,society also1 & "h we *iefly read & discuss$ ,kant's ,kritik4 ,lotze 0 !n q a "y man1 undecid$ z yet himself betwe5 physical sci5ce & pure philosophy4 ,weisse 0 c]ta9ly ! mo/ /irr+ lectur]1 b 8 deliv]y 0 fe>ful4 ,he did n read 8 lectures1 z _m pr(essors did1 b w\ld deliv] !m extempore4 ,he _h no comm& ( language1 & !re 0 a pause aft] almo/ e s5t5ce4 ,he 0 really ?9k+ out ! problem :ile he 0 lectur+2 he 0 con/antly repeat+ 8 s5t5ces1 & any new ?\ght t cross$ 8 m9d w\ld c>ry him miles away f 8 subject4 ,x happ5$ sometimes 9 ^! rhapsodies t he contradict$ himself1 b :5 ,i walk$ home ) him aft] 8 lecture to a village ne> ,leipzig :]e he liv$1 he w\ld readily expla9 h[ x happ5$1 h[ he meant some?+ q diff]5t f :at he _h said1 or :at ,i _h und]/ood4 ,9 fact he w\ld give ! :ole lecture ov] aga91 only mu* m freely & m intelligibly4 ,i 0 fully conv9c$ at t "t t ,hegel's philosophy 0 ! f9al solution ( all problems2 ,i only hesitat$ ab\t 8 philosophy ( hi/ory z appli$ to ! hi/ory ( religion4 ,i c\ld n br+ myself to admit t ! hi/ory ( religion1 nor ev5 ! hi/ory ( philosophy z we "k x f ,?ales to ,kant1 0 really runn+ side by side ) 8 ,logic1 %[+ h[ ! lead+ concepts ( ! human m9d1 z elaborat$ 9 ! ,logic1 _h f\nd successive expression 9 ! hi/ory & developm5t ( ! s*ools ( philosophy z kn[n to u4 ,weisse 0 /rong bo? 9 8 analysis ( concepts & 9 8 k ( hi/ory1 & ?\gh he taught ,hegel z a fai?ful int]pret]1 he always w>n$ u aga9/ tru/+ too mu* 9 ! p>allelism betwe5 ,logic & ,hi/ory4 ,/udy ! writ+s ( ! good philosoph]s1 he w\ld say1 & !n see :e!r !y w or w n fit into ! ,procru/ean b$ ( ,hegel's ,logic4 ,& ?is 0 ! be/ lesson he c\ld h giv5 to "y m54 ,h[ well f\nd$ & necess>y ! w>n+ 0 ,i f\nd out myself1 ! m ,i /udi$ ! religion & philosophies ( ! ,ea/1 & !n comp>$ :at ,i saw 9 ! orig9al docum5ts ) ! acc\nt giv5 by ,hegel 9 8 ,philosophy ( ,religion4 ,x is q true t ,hegel at ! "t :5 he wrote1 c\ld n h ga9$ a direct or accurate k ( ! pr9cipal religions ( ! ,ea/4 ,b :at ,i c\ld n help see+ 0 t :at ,hegel repres5t$ z ! necessity 9 ! gr[? ( religi\s ?\ght1 0 f> away f ! real gr[?1 z ,i _h wat*$ x 9 "s ( ! sacr$ books ( ^! religions4 ,?is %ook my belief 9 ! correctness ( ,hegel's fundam5tal pr9ciples m ?an any?+ else4 ,at t "t ,h]b>t's philosophy1 z taught by ,drobis* at ,leipzig1 came to me z a mo/ useful antidote4 ,! *ief object ( t philosophy is1 z is well kn[n1 ! analys+ & cle>+1 s to speak1 ( our concepts4 ,?is 0 exactly :at ,i want$1 only t occupi$ z ,i 0 ) ! problems ( language1 ,i at once translat$ ! object ( 8 philosophy into a def9ition ( words4 ,h5ce=? ! object ( my own philosophical occupations 0 ! accurate def9ition ( e ^w4 ,all words1 su* z reason1 pure reason1 m9d1 ?\ght1 7 c>efully tak5 to pieces & trac$ back1 if possible1 to _! fir/ bir?1 & !n ?r\gh _! fur!r developm5ts4 ,my int]e/ 9 ?is analytical process soon took an hi/orical1 t is etymological1 "* 9 s f> z ,i tri$ to f9d out :y any words %\ld n[ mean exactly :at1 accord+ to our def9ition1 !y ought to mean4 ,= in/ance1 9 exam9+ su* words z ,v]nunft or ,v]/&1 a little hi/orical retrospect %[$ t _! di/9ction z reason & und]/&+ 0 q mod]n1 & *iefly due to a sci5tific def9ition giv5 & ma9ta9$ by ! ,kantian s*ool ( philosophy4 ,( c\rse e g5]ation has a "r to def9e its philosophical t]ms1 b f an hi/orical po9t ( view ,kant might h us$ ) equal "r ,v]nunft = ,v]/&1 & ,v]/& = ,v]nunft4 ,etymologically or hi/orically bo? words h mu* ! same mean+4 ,v]nunft1 f ,v]nehm51 meant orig9ally no m ?an p]ception1 :ile ,v]/& meant likewise p]ception1 b soon came to imply a k9d ( und]/&+1 ev5 a k9d ( te*nical k1 ?\gh f a purely etymological /&po9t x _h no?+ t fitt$ x m = c>ry+ ! mean+1 :i* is n[ assign$ to x 9 ,g]man 9 di/9ction to ,v]nunft1 ?an und]/&+ _h z di/+ui%$ f reason4 ,x requires1 ( c\rse1 a v m9ute hi/orical rese>* to trace ! /eps by :i* su* words z reason & und]/&+ div]ge 9 diff]5t directions1 9 ! language ( ! p & 9 philosophical p>lance4 ,?is tea*es u a v important di/9ction1 namely t betwe5 ! popul> developm5t ( ! mean+ ( a ^w1 & its mean+ z def9$ & ass]t$ by a philosoph] or by a poet 9 ! pl5itude ( 8 p[]4 ,etymological def9ition is v useful = ! fir/ /ages 9 ! hi/ory ( a ^w4 ,x is useful to "k1 = in/ance1 t deus1 ,god1 meant orig9ally bright1 bright :e!r appli$ to sky1 sun1 moon1 />s1 dawn1 morn+1 dayspr+1 spr+ ( ! ye>1 & _m o!r bright objects 9 nature1 t x ?us assum$ a mean+ common to !m all1 spl5did1 or heav5ly1 b5efic5t1 p[]ful1 s t :5 9 ! ,v$a already we f9d a numb] ( heav5ly bodies1 or ( t]re/rial bodies1 or ev5 ( p]iods ( "t call$ ,devas1 ?is ^w has assum$ a m g5]al1 m compreh5sive1 & m exalt$ mean+4 ,x did n yet mean :at ! ,greeks call$ or gods1 b x meant some?+ common to all ^! 1 & ?us c\ld naturally rise to express :at ! ,greeks want$ to express by t ^w4 ,!re 0 z yet no necessity = def9+ deva or 1 :5 appli$ to :at 0 meant by gods1 b ( c\rse ! mo/ opposite mean+s _h clu/]$ r\nd x4 ,:ile a philosophical ,greek w\ld ma9ta9 t meant :at 0 "o & nev] _m1 a poetical ,greek or an ord9>y ,greek w\ld hold t x meant :at 0 by nature _m4 ,b :ile 9 su* a case philosophical analysis & hi/orical g5ealogy w\ld support ea* o!r1 !re are ev] s _m cases :]e etymological analysis is z hopeless z logical analysis4 ,:o is to def9e romantic1 9 su* expressions z romantic lit]ature4 ,etymologically we "k t romantic goes back f9ally to ,rome1 b ! mass ( incongru\s mean+s t h be5 ?r[n at r&om into ! caldron ( t ^w1 is s great t no def9ition c\ld be contriv$ to compreh5d !m all4 ,& h[ %\ld we def9e ,go?ic or ,romanic ar*itecture1 rememb]+ t z no ,go?s _h any?+ to d ) po9t$ ar*es1 nei!r 7 any ,romans responsible = ! flat ro(s ( ! ,g]man *ur*es ( ! ,saxon emp]ors4 ,en\gh to %[ :at ,i meant :5 ,i said t ,pr(essor ,drobis*1 9 8 ,lectures on ,h]b>t1 gave "o great enc\ragem5t 9 ! special "w 9 :i* ,i 0 already engag$ z a m]e /ud5t1 ! ,sci5ce ( ,language & ,etymology4 ,if ,h]b>t decl>$ philosophy to consi/ 9 a ?or\gh exam9ation 7,be>beitung7 ( concepts1 or conceptual k1 my answ] 01 ,only let x be hi/orical1 nay1 9 ! beg9n+1 etymological2 ,i 0 n s fooli% z to imag9e t a ^w z us$ at pres5t1 meant :at x meant etymologically4 ,deus no long] meant brilliant1 b x %\ld be ! object ( ! true hi/orian ( language to prove h[ ,deus1 hav+ meant orig9ally brilliant1 came to mean :at x means n[4 ,= a "t ,i ?\ght ( becom+ a philosoph]1 & t s\nd$ s gr& t ! idea ( prep>+ = a m]e s*oolma/]1 tea*+ ,greek & ,lat91 seem$ to me m & m too n>r[ a sph]e4 ,soon1 h[ev]1 :ile dream+ ( a *air ( philosophy at a ,g]man ,univ]sity1 ,i began to feel t ,i mu/ "k some?+ special1 some?+ t no o!r philosoph] knew1 & t induc$ me to le>n ,sanskrit1 ,arabic1 & ,p]sian4 ,i _h only he>d :at we call 9 ,g]man ! *im+1 n ! /rik+ ( ! bells ( ,indian philosophy2 ,i _h read ,fr$]ick ,s*legel's explanatory book b] die ,spra*e und ,wei%eit d] ,indi] 7#ahjh71 & look$ into ,w9dis*mann's ,die ,philosophie im ,=tgange d] ,weltges*i*te 7#ahbg-ahcd74 ,^! books are h>dly op5$ n[--!y are antiquat$1 & m ?an antiquat$2 !y are full ( mi/akes z to facts1 & mi/akes z to ! conclusions drawn f !m4 ,b !y _h u%]$ new ideas into ! _w ( ?\ght1 & !y left on _m1 z !y did on me1 t feel+ :i* ! digg] :o prospects = m9]als is said to h1 t !re mu/ be gold b5ea? ! surface1 if p w\ld only dig4 ,t feel+ 0 v vague z yet1 & might h be5 entirely deceptive1 nor did ,i see my way to g beyond ! po9t rea*$ by ^! two dream]s or explor]s4 ,! ?\ght rema9$ 9 ! rubbi%-*amb] ( my m9d1 & ?\gh =gott5 at ! "t1 broke =? aga9 :5 !re 0 an opportunity4 ,x 0 a =tunate co9cid5ce t at t v "t1 9 ! w9t] ( #ahda1 a new pr(essor%ip 0 f\nd$ at ,leipzig & giv5 to ,pr(essor ,brockhaus4 ,unc]ta9 z ,i 0 ab\t ! c\rse ,i _h to foll[ 9 my /udies1 ,i det]m9$ to see :at !re 0 to be le>nt 9 ,sanskrit4 ,!re 0 a *>m 9 ! unkn[n1 &1 ,i mu/ confess1 a *>m also 9 /udy+ some?+ :i* my fri5ds & fell[ /ud5ts did n "k4 ,i call$ on ,pr(essor ,brockhaus1 & f\nd t !re 7 only two o!r /ud5ts to att5d 8 lectures1 "o ,spiegel1 :o already knew ! elem5ts ( ,sanskrit1 & :o is /ill alive 9 ,erlang51#i z a fam\s pr(essor ( ,sanskrit & ,z5d1 ?\gh no long] lectur+1 & ano!r1 ,kl5gel2 bo? sev]al ye>s my s5iors1 b bo? extremely amiable to _! y\ng] fell[ /ud5t4 ,kl5gel 0 a s*ol>1 a philosoph]1 & a musician1 & ?\gh aft] a t]m or two he _h to give up 8 /udy ( ,sanskrit1 he 0 v useful to me by 8 good advice4 ,he enc\rag$ me & prais$ me = my progress 9 ,sanskrit1 :i* 0 no d\bt m rapid ?an 8 own1 & he confirm$ me 9 my conviction t some?+ might be made ( ,sanskrit by ! philologi/ & by ! philosoph]4 ,x %\ld n be =gott5 t at t "t !re 0 a /rong prejudice aga9/ ,sanskrit among classical s*ol>s4 ,! numb] ( m5 :o /ood up = x1 ?\gh x includ$ names su* z ,w4 von ,humboldt1 ,f4 & ,a4 ,w4 von ,s*legel1 0 /ill v small4 ,ev5 ,h]d]'s & ,goe!'s prophetic words produc$ little effect4 ,x is said t :5 ! ,gov]nm5t _h be5 p]suad$1 *iefly by ! two ,humboldts1 to f\nd a *air ( ,sanskrit at ! ,univ]sity ( ,wrzburg1 & _h nom9at$ ,bopp z its fir/ occupant1 ! philological faculty ( ! ,univ]sity prote/$ aga9/ su* a desecration1 & ! appo9tm5t fell ?r\gh4 ,x is true1 no d\bt1 t 9 _! fir/ en?usiasm ! /ud5ts ( ,sanskrit _h utt]$ _m exagg]at$ op9ions4 ,sanskrit 0 repres5t$ z ! "m ( all languages1 in/ead ( be+ ! eld] si/] ( ! ,aryan family4 ,! beg9n+ ( all language1 ( all ?\ght1 ( all religion 0 trac$ back to ,india1 & :5 ,greek s*ol>s 7 told t ,zeus exi/$ 9 ! ,v$a "u ! "n ( ,dyaus1 !re 0 a great flutt] 9 ! dovecots ( classical s*ol>%ip4 ,_m ( ^! en?usia/ic utt]ances _h aft]w>ds to be ton$ d[n4 ,h[ we did enjoy ^? en?usia/ic days1 :i* ev5 9 _! exagg]at$ hopes 7 n )\t "s use4 ,problems su* z ! beg9n+ ( language1 ( ?\ght1 ( my?ology & religion1 7 />t$ ) y\?ful hope t ! ,v$a w\ld solve !m all1 z if ! ,v$ic ,ri%is _h be5 pres5t at ! fir/ outbur/ ( roots1 ( concepts1 nay1 t l ,pelops & o!r desc5dants ( ,zeus1 ^? ,v$ic poets _h enjoy$ daily int]c\rse ) ! gods1 & _h be5 pres5t at ! mutilation ( ,ouranos1 or at ! ov]-eat+ ( ,kronos4 ,we may be a%am$ to-day ( "s ( ! dreams ( ! e>ly spr+ ( man's soj\rn on e>?1 b !y 7 en*ant+ dreams1 & all our ?\ghts ( man's nature & de/9y on e>? 7 t+$ ) ! col\rs ( a morn+ t ?rew light ov] ! grey d>kness :i* prec$$ x4 ,x 0 delightful to see t ,dyaus meant orig9ally ! bright sky1 some?+ actually se51 b some?+ t _h to become some?+ unse54 ,all k1 :e!r individual or possess$ by mank9d at l>ge1 mu/ h begun ) :at ! s5ses c p]ceive1 be=e x c\ld rise to signify some?+ unp]ceiv$ by ! s5ses4 ,only aft] ! blue ae!r _h be5 p]ceiv$ & nam$1 0 x possible to conceive & speak ( ! sky z active1 z an ag5t1 z a god4 ,dyaus or ,zeus might ?us be call$ ! mo/ sublime1 he :o resides 9 ! ae!r1 1 ! heav5ly "o1 or & 1 ! highe/1 & at la/ ,iupit] ,optimus ,maximus1 a "n appli$ ev5 to ! true ,god4 ,:5 ,zeus _h once become l ! sky1 all see+ or omnisci5t 771 w\ld he n naturally be suppos$ to see1 n only ! good1 b ! evil de$s ( m5 also1 nay1 _! v ?\ghts1 :e!r pure or crim9al8 ,& if s1 w\ld he n be ! av5g] ( evil1 ! wat*] ( oa?s 771 ! protector ( ! helpless 778 ,yet1 if conceiv$1 z = a long "t all ! gods 7 conceiv$ & c\ld only be conceiv$1 namely1 z human 9 _! %ape1 %\ld we n necess>ily get t /range amalgamation ( a human be+ do+ sup]human "w--hurl+ ! ?und]bolt1 %\t+ 9 ?und]1 hidd5 by d>k cl\ds1 & smil+ 9 ! s]5e blue ( ! sky ) its brilliant sc9tillations8 ,all ?is & mu* m became p]fectly intelligible1 ! /ep f ! visible to ! invisible1 f ! p]ceiv$ to ! conceiv$1 f nature to nature's gods1 & f nature's god to a m sublime unse5 & spiritual p[]4 ,all ?is seem$ to pass be=e our v eyes 9 ! ,v$a1 & !n to be reflect$ 9 ,hom] & ,p9d>4 #i ,h]r ,geheimra? von ,spiegel n[ lives at ,muni*4 ,"s details ( ?is re/or$ picture ( ! _w ( gods & m5 9 e>ly times1 nay1 9 ! v spr+ ( "t1 may h to be alt]$1 b ! picture1 ! eidyllion rema9$1 & no?+ c\ld curb ! adv5tur\s _s & keep x f pu%+ =w>d & try+ to d :at seem$ to o!rs almo/ impossible1 namely1 to wat* ! gr[? ( ! human m9d z reflect$ 9 ! petrifactions ( language4 ,language itself spoke to u ) a diff]5t voice1 & a =m]ly unsuspect$ mean+4 ,we knew1 = in/ance1 t ewig meant et]nal1 b :5ce et]nal4 ,no?+ et]nal 0 ev] se51 & x seem$ to ! philosoph] t et]nal c\ld be express$ by a negation only1 by a negation ( :at 0 tempor>y4 ,b we n[ le>nt t ewig 0 d]iv$ 9 ^w & !re=e 9 ?\ght f ! ,go?ic aiw>1 "t4 ,ewigkeit 0 !re=e orig9ally "t1 & 8= all "t0 came naturally to mean 8= all et]nity40 ,et]nity also came f aet]nus1 t is aevit]nus1 = "t1 i4 e4 = all "t1 & ?us = et]nity1 :ile aevum meant life1 lifetime1 age4 ,b n[ came ! "q1 if aevum %[s ! gr[? ( ?is ^w1 & its orig91 & h[ x arrives 9 ! end at ! v opposite pole1 life & "t com+ to mean et]nity1 c\ld we n by ! same process discov] ! orig9 & gr[? ( su* %ort ,greek words z & ae8 ,x seems almo/ impossible1 yet rememb]+ t aevum meant orig9ally life1 we f9d 9 ,v$ic ,sanskrit eva1 c\rse1 way1 life1 ! same z aevum1 :ile ! ,sanskrit yu%1 likewise d]iv$ f i1 to g1 =ms its locative yu%i4 yu%i1 or orig9ally yasi1 w\ld mean 89 life1 9 "t10 & turn$ into ,greek w\ld regul>ly become !n ae1 lifelong1 or ev]4 ,x 0 n difficult to f9d fault ) ?is & o!r etymologies1 & to ask = an explanation ( & 1 z d]iv$ f ! same ^w yus4 ,x is curi\s t p w n see t etymologies1 & p>ticul>ly ! gradual developm5t 9 ! =m & mean+ ( words1 c h>dly ev] be a matt] ( ma!matical c]ta9ty4 ,hi/orical1 nay1 ev5 individual1 influ5ces come 9 :i* prev5t ! sci5ce ( language f becom+ purely me*anical4 ,pott1 & ,curtius1 & o!rs /ood up aga9/ ,bopp & ,grimm1 ma9ta9+ t !re c\ld be no?+ irregul> 9 language1 p>ticul>ly 9 phonetic *anges4 ,if ?is means no m ?an t "u ! same circum/ances ! same *anges w always take place1 x w\ld be ( c\rse a m]e truism4 ,! "q is only :e!r we c ev] "k all ! circum/ances1 & :e!r !re are n "s ( ^! circum/ances :i* cause :at we are apt to call irregul>ities4 ,:5 ,bopp said t ,sanskrit d corresponds to a ,greek 1 b (t5 also to a ,greek 1 ,i d\bt :e!r ?is is (t5 ! case4 ,all ,i say is1 if deva corresponds to 1 we mu/ try to f9d ! reason or ! circum/ances :i* caus$ s unusual a correspond5ce4 ,if no m is meant ?an t !re mu/ be a reason = all t seems irregul>1 no "o w\ld ga9say t1 nei!r ,bopp nor ,grimm1 & no "o ev] d\bt$ t z a pr9ciple4 ,b to e/abli% ^! reasons is ! v difficulty ) :i* ! ,sci5ce ( ,language has to deal4 ,!re is no ^w t has n an etymology1 only if we consid] ! di/ance ( "t t sep>ates u f ! hi/orical facts we are try+ to acc\nt =1 we %\ld sometimes be satisfi$ ) probabilities & n always /ipulate = absolute c]ta9ty4 ,_m ( ,bopp's1 ,grimm's1 & ,pott's etymologies h _h to be surr5d]$1 & yet our suz]a9ty ov] t di/ant c\ntry :i* !y conqu]$1 ov] ! ,aryan home1 rema9s4 ,if !re is an etymology conta9+ some?+ irregul>1 & = :i* no reason has z yet be5 f\nd1 we mu/ wait till "s bett] etymology c be sugge/$1 or a reason be f\nd = t app>5t irregul>ity4 ,if ! etymological mean+ ( duhit>1 daught]1 z milkmaid1 is d\bt$1 let u h a bett] explanation1 n a worse2 b ! g5]al picture ( ! e>ly family among ! ,aryans 8some:]e 9 ,asia0 is n !reby de/roy$4 ,! fa!r1 ,sk4 pit>1 rema9s ! protector or n\ri%]1 ?\gh ! i = a 9 pat] & is irregul>4 ,! "m1 mt>1 rema9s ! be>] ( *ildr51 ?\gh m is no long] us$ 9 t s5se 9 any ( ! ,aryan languages4 ,pati is ! "l1 ! /rong "o--!re=e ! husb&2 vadh1 ! yoke-fell[1 or ! wife z br\ght home1 possibly z c>ri$ (f by =ce4 ,vis or vesa is ! home1 or vicus1 :at 0 ent]$ = %elt]4 ,svasura1 1 ,soc]1 ! fa!r-9-law1 is ! old man ( ! svas1 ! famuli1 or ! family1 or ! cli5ts1 ?\gh ! fir/ s is irregul>1 & c be def5d$ only on ! gr\nd ( mi/ak5 analogy4 ,bhrt>1 frat]1 bro!r1 0 ! support]2 sva/>1 soror1 si/]1 ! com=t]1 c4 ,:at d a few objections signify8 ,! :ole picture rema9s1 z if we c\ld look into ! vesa1 ! ! veih1 ! home1 ! village ( ! anci5t ,aryans1 & wat* !m1 ! svas1 ! p1 9 _! mutual relations4 ,ev5 comp\nd words1 su* z vis-pati1 "l ( a family or a village1 h be5 pres]v$ to ! pres5t day 9 ! ,li?uanian ,veszpats1 "l1 :e!r ,k+ or ,god4 ,x is en\gh = u to see t ! relation%ip betwe5 husb& & wife1 betwe5 p>5ts & *ildr51 betwe5 bro!rs & si/]s1 nay1 ev5 betwe5 *ildr5-9-law & p>5ts-9-law1 _h be5 recogniz$ & sanctifi$ by names4 ,t !re are1 & always w be1 d\bts & slight diff]5ces ( op9ion on ^! prehi/oric ?\ghts & words1 is easily und]/ood4 ,we 7 pleas$ = a long "t to see 9 vidua1 wid[1 ! ,sanskrit vidua1 i4 e4 )\t a man or a husb&4 ,we n[ d]ive vi-dhav1 wid[1 f vidh1 to be sep>at$1 to be )\t 7cf4 vido 9 divido1 & ,sk4 vidh71 b ! picture ( ! ,aryan family rema9s mu* ! same4 ,:5 ^! & simil> antiquities 7 = ! fir/ "t br\ght to light by ,bopp1 ,grimm1 & ,pott1 :at wond] t we "y m5 %\ld h jump$ at !m1 & %\t$ ) delight1 m ev5 ?an ! digg]s :o dug up ,babylonian palaces or ,egyptian temples6 ,no "o did m = ^! antiqu>ian f9ds & re/orations ?an ,a4 ,kuhn1 a simple s*oolma/]1 b aft]w>ds a mo/ di/+ui%$ memb] ( ! ,b]l9 ,academy4 ,h[ (t5 did ,i sit ) him 9 8 /udy z he work$1 surr\nd$ by 8 ,greek1 ,lat91 & ,sanskrit books4 ,9 lat] times also1 :5 ,i _h made "s discov]ies myself z to ! my?ological names or be+s id5tical 9 ,v$ic & ,greek writ+s1 h[ pleasant 0 x to see him rub 8 h&s or %ake 8 head4 ,long be=e ,i _h publi%$ my id5tifications !y 7 submitt$ to him1 & he communicat$ to me 8 own guesses z ,i communicat$ m9e to him4 ,kuhn w\ld nev] appropriate :at belong$ to anybody else1 & ev5 9 cases :]e we agre$1 he w\ld always make x cle> t we _h bo? arriv$ indep5d5tly at ! same result4 ,x is 9 ! nature ( ?+s t e new g5]ation ( s*ol>s %\ld p]fect _! tools1 & ) ^! discov] flaws 9 ! "w left by _! pr$ecessors4 ,/ill1 :at is ! ref9$ *isell+ ( lat] s*ol>s comp>$ ) ! r\gh-hewn /ones ( m5 l ,bopp or ,grimm8 ,if ! ,cyclopean /ones ( ! ,pelasgians are n l ! f9i%$ works ( art by ,phidias1 :at w\ld ! ,p>!non be )\t ! walls ascrib$ to ! ,cyclops8 ,x is ! same 9 all sci5ces1 & we mu/ try to be j1 bo? to ! g5ius ( ^? :o creat$1 & to ! dilig5ce ( ^? :o poli%$ & ref9$4 ,= all ?is1 h[ev]1 ,i met ) b small sympa?y & enc\ragem5t at ,leipzig2 nay1 ,i _h to be v c>eful 9 utt]+ :at 7 suppos$ to be h]etical or uns*ol>like op9ions 9 ! sem9>y ( ,gottfri$ ,h]mann1 or 9 ! ,lat9 society ( ,haupt4 ,! latt] p>ticul>ly1 ?\gh he knew v well h[ mu* light _h be5 spread on ! gr[? ( language by ! rese>*es ( ,bopp1 ,grimm1 & ,pott1 & ?\gh ,grimm 0 8 intimate fri5d ( :om he always spoke ) real v5]ation1 c\ld n be> 8 own pupils dabbl+ 9 ?is subject4 ,& ( c\rse at t "t my k ( comp>ative philology 0 a m]e dabbl+4 ,if he c\ld discov] a false quantity 9 any etymology1 great 0 8 delight1 & 8 s>casm truly )]+1 p>ticul>ly z x 0 p\r$ out 9 v classical ,lat94 ,gottfri$ ,h]mann 0 a diff]5t "*4 ,he saw !re 0 a new light & he w\ld n turn 8 back to x4 ,he knew h[ lightly 8 antagoni/1 ,otfri$ ,mll]1 valu$ ,sanskrit 9 8 my?ological essays1 & he set to "w1 & 9 "o ( 8 la/ academical programs actually gave ! p>adigms ( ,sanskrit v]bs z comp>$ ) ^? ( ,greek4 ,he saw t ! co9cid5ces betwe5 ! two c\ld n be casual1 & if !y 7 s ov]:elm+ 9 ! m]e t]m9ation ( v]bs1 :at might we n expect 9 words & names1 ev5 9 my?ological names8 ,he by no means disc\rag$ me1 nay1 he 0 sorry to lose me1 :5 9 my ?ird ye> ,i w5t to ,b]l94 ,he %[$ me great k9dness on sev]al occasions1 & :5 ! "t came to take my degree ( ,m4,a4 & ,ph4,d41 he1 z ,dean ( ! ,faculty1 invit$ me to return to ,leipzig1 (f]+ me an exhibition to cov] ! exp5ses ( ! ,degree4 ,illu/ration3 ,f4 ,,max ,m,,ll] ,ag$ ,tw5ty ,my wi% to g to ,b]l9 arose p>tly f a desire to he> ,bopp1 b yet m f a desire to make ! acqua9tance ( ,s*ell+4 ,my incl9ation t[>ds philosophy _h become /rong] & /rong]2 ,i _h my own ideas ab\t ! my?ological z a necess>y =m ( anci5t philosophy1 & :5 ,i saw t ! old philosoph] _h adv]tis$ 8 lectures or lecture on my?ology1 ,i c\ld n resi/1 & w5t to ,b]l9 9 #ahdd4 ,i mu/ say at once t ,pr(essor ,bopp1 ?\gh he 0 extremely k9d to me1 0 at t "t1 if n old--he 0 only fifty-?ree--v infirm4 ,9 8 lectures he simply read 8 ,comp>ative ,gramm> ) a magnify+ glass1 & add$ v little t 0 new4 ,he l5t me "s manuscripts :i* he _h copi$ 9 ,lat9 9 8 y\ng] days1 b ,i c\ld n get mu* help f him :5 ,i came to really difficult passages4 ,?is1 ,i confess1 puzzl$ me at ! "t1 = ,i look$ on e pr(essor z omnisci5t4 ,! "t comes1 h[ev]1 :5 we le>n t ev5 at fifty-?ree a man may h =gott5 c]ta9 ?+s1 nay1 may h let _m books & new discov]ies ev5 9 8 own subject pass by1 because he has pl5ty to d ) 8 own p>ticul> /udies4 ,we rememb] ! old /ory ( ! pr(essor :o1 :5 *>g$ by a "y & r imp]t95t /ud5t ) n kn[+ ?is or t1 repli$3 8,sir1 ,i h =gott5 m ?an y ev] knew40 ,& s x is inde$4 ,human nature & human memory are v /rong dur+ y\? & manhood1 b ev5 at fifty !re is ) _m p a c]ta9 decl9e ( m5tal vig\r t tells *iefly on ! memory4 ,?+s are n exactly =gott51 b !y d n turn up at ! "r "t4 ,!y j leave a c]ta9 k ( :]e ! miss+ in=mation c be f\nd2 !y leave also a k9d ( feel+ t ! gr\nd is n q safe & t we mu/ no long] tru/ entirely to our memory4 ,9 "o respect ?is feel+ is v useful1 = in/ead ( writ+ d[n any?+1 tru/+ to our memory z we us$ to d1 we feel x necess>y to v]ify _m ?+s :i* =m]ly 7 p]fectly cle> & c]ta9 9 our memory )\t su* ref]5ce to books4 ,i rememb] be+ /ruck ) ! same ?+ 9 ! case ( ,pr(essor ,wilson1 ! well-kn[n ,ox=d ,pr(essor ( ,sanskrit4 ,he 0 k9d en\gh to read ) me1 & ,i c]ta9ly 0 (t5 puzzl$1 n only by :at he knew1 b also by :at he _h =gott54 ,i feel n[ t ,i misjudg$ him1 & t 8 op5 decl>ation1 8,i don't "k1 let u look x up10 really did him great hon\r4 ,i /ill h 9 my possession a portion ( ,pn9i's ,v$ic gramm> translat$ by him4 ,i put by ! side ( x my own translation1 & he op5ly ackn[l$g$ t m9e1 ) ! passages tak5 f ! ,v$a1 0 "r4 ,!re 0 no humbug ab\t ,wilson4 ,he nev] pos$ z a s*ol>2 nay1 ,i rememb] 8 say+ to me m ?an once1 8,y see1 ,i am n a s*ol>1 ,i am a g5tleman :o likes ,sanskrit1 & t is all40 ,he c]ta9ly did l ,sanskrit1 & he knew x bett] ?an _m a pr(essor1 b 9 8 own way4 ,he _h enjoy$ ! assi/ance ( really le>n$ ,p&its1 & he nev] =got to record _! s]vices4 ,b he _h himself cle>$ ! gr\nd--he _h really done orig9al "w4 ,9 fact1 he _h done no?+ b orig9al "w1 & !n he 0 abus$ = n hav+ always f\nd at ! fir/ trial :at o!rs discov]$ :5 /&+ on 8 %\ld]s4 ,aga91 he 0 f\nd fault ) = n hav+ _h a classical education4 ,8 education 01 ,i believe1 m$ical1 b :5 once 9 ! ,indian ,civil ,s]vice1 he made himself useful 9 _m ways1 educational & o!rwise4 ,:5 he left ,india he 0 ,ma/] ( ! ,m9t4 ,su* a man might n "k ,greek & ,lat9 l ,f4 ,a4 von ,s*legel1 or any o!r pr(essor1 b he knew 8 own subject1 & x is simply absurd if classical s*ol>s imag9e t anybody c c>ry on 8 ,greek & ,lat9 & at ! same "t make himself a p]fect s*ol> 9 ,sanskrit4 ,su* a feel+ is natural among small s*oolma/]s1 b x is dy+ out at la/ among real s*ol>s4 ,i h kn[n v good ,sanskrit s*ol>s :o knew no ,greek at all1 & v little ,lat94 ,& ,i h also kn[n ,greek s*ol>s :o knew no ,sanskrit & yet attempt$ comp>isons betwe5 ! two4 ,:5 ,lepsius 0 made a ,memb] ( ! ,b]l9 ,academy1 ,la*mann1 :o ought to h kn[n bett]1 us$ to say ( him3 8,he kn[s _m ?+s :i* nobody kn[s1 b he also is ignorant ( _m ?+s :i* ev]ybody kn[s40 ,su* rem>ks nev] speak well = ! man :o makes !m4 ,ano!r disadvantage f :i* ! ag$ s*ol> suff]s is t he is blam$ = n hav+ kn[n 9 8 y\? :at has be5 discov]$ 9 8 old age1 & is /ill viol5tly assail$ = op9ions he may h utt]$ fifty ye>s ago4 ,:5 q a "y man ,i wrote1 at ,b>on ,buns5's reque/1 a long lett] on ! ,turanian ,languages4 ,x 0 publi%$ 9 #ahed1 b x /ill cont9ues to be criticiz$ z if x _h be5 publi%$ la/ ye>4 ,( c\rse1 consid]+ ! rapid advance ( l+ui/ic /udies1 a great "p ( t lett] became antiquat$ long ago2 b at ! "t ( its fir/ appe>ance x conta9$ ne>ly all t c\ld !n be kn[n on ^! allophylian1 t is1 non-,aryan & non-,semitic languages2 & ,i may1 p]haps1 quote ! op9ion ( ,pr(essor ,pott1 no mean au?ority at t "t1 :o1 aft] sev]ely criticiz+ my lett]1 decl>$ t x belong$ to ! mo/ important publications t _h appe>$ on l+ui/ic subjects = _m ye>s4 ,& yet1 ?\gh ,i h aga9 & aga9 prote/$ t ,i c\ld n possibly h kn[n 9 #ahed :at has be5 discov]$ s9ce z to a numb] ( ^! ,turanian languages1 ev]ybody :o writes on any ( !m seems to be mo/ anxi\s to %[ t 9 #ahid he kn[s m ?an ,i did 9 #ahed4 ,no a/ronom] is blam$ = n hav+ kn[n ! planet ,neptune be=e its discov]y 9 #ahdf1 or = hav+ be5 wrong 9 acc\nt+ = ! irregul>ities ( ,saturn4 ,b let t pass2 ,i only %>e ! fate ( o!rs :o h liv$ too long4 ,aft] all1 all our k1 :atev] %[ we may make ( x1 is v imp]fect1 & ! m we "k ! bett] we le>n h[ little x is t we d "k1 & h[ mu* ( unexplor$ c\ntry !re is beyond ! c\ntry :i* we h explor$4 ,we mu/ judge a man by :at he has done--by 8 own orig9al "w4 ,!re are _m s*ol>s1 & v useful !y are 9 _! own way1 b if _! books are exam9$1 "o easily f9ds ! /ores f :i* !y borr[$ _! mat]ials4 ,!y may add "s notes ( _! own & ev5 "s corrections1 p>ticul>ly corrections ( ! au?ors f :om !y h borr[$ mo/2 b at ! end :]e is ! fre% ore t !y h rais$2 :]e is ! gold !y h extract$ & co9$8 ,!re are cases :]e ! orig9al work] is q =gott51 :]eas ! retail]s fl\ri%4 ,well1 facts are facts1 :e!r kn[n or n kn[n1 & ! triumphal *>iot ( tru? has to be dragg$ along by _m h&s & _m %\ld]s4 ,,*apt] ,v ,,p>is ,my /ay 9 ,p>is f ,m>*1 #ahde1 to ,june1 #ahdf1 0 a v useful int]mezzo4 ,x op5$ my m9d & %[$ me a new _w2 %[$ me1 9 fact1 t !re 0 a _w besides ,g]many1 ?\gh ev5 ( ,g]many & ,g]man society ,i _h se5 z yet v little4 ,i _h be5 work+ away at s*ool & univ]sity1 b ) ! exception ( my %ort /ay 9 ,b]l91 ,i _h little exp]i5ce ( m5 & mann]s outside ! small sph]e ( ,dessau & ,leipzig4 ,i _h be5 at ,b]l9 "s n9e mon?s :51 9 ,decemb]1 #ahdd1 my old fri5d ,b>on ,hag$orn came to see me1 & invit$ me to sp5d "s "t ) him 9 ,p>is4 ,he _h 8 own ap>tm5ts !re1 & promis$ to look aft] me4 ,at ! same "t my c\s91 ,b>oness ,/olz5b]g1 :om ,i h m5tion$ be=e z wi%+ me to ent] ! ,au/rian diplomatic s]vice1 (f]$ to s5d me to ,engl& at h] exp5se z a tea*]4 ,i hesitat$ = "s days betwe5 ^! two (f]s4 ,i knew t my own patrimony _h be5 ne>ly sp5t at ,leipzig & ,b]l91 & ! "t _h come = me to beg9 to support myself2 & h[ 0 ,i to d t 9 ,p>is8 ,on ! o!r h&1 ,i _h long felt t = cont9u+ my ,sanskrit /udies a /ay 9 ,p>is1 & lat] p]haps 9 ,london also1 0 indisp5sable4 ,i _h also to consid] ! feel+s ( my "m1 ^: :ole he>t 0 absorb$ 9 h] only son4 ,h[ev]1 ,sanskrit1 & my love ( an indep5d5t life won ! day1 & ,i decid$ to accept ,hag$orn's proposal4 ,my m9d once made up1 ,i want$ to be (f at once1 b ,hag$orn c\ld n fix ! exact "t :5 he w\ld be free to leave1 & told me to keep myself 9 read9ess to />t :5ev] he f\nd himself free to g4 ,i accord+ly w5t to /ay ) my "m & my m>ri$ si/] at ,*emnitz1 & indulg$ 9 idl5ess & ! unwont$ dissipations ( p>ties1 dances1 & long skat+ exp$itions4 ,at la/1 feel+ ,i c\ld n af=d to wait any long]1 ,i w5t (f to ,dessau to see ,hag$orn1 & f\nd to my great disappo9tm5t t he 0 deta9$ by important legal bus9ess 9 connection ) 8 prop]ty ne> ,muni*1 & c\ld n yet fix a date = 8 dep>ture4 ,s x 0 settl$ t ,i 0 to g on to ,p>is )\t him1 & in/al myself 9 8 ap>tm5t1 #be1 ,rue ,royale ,/4 ,honor4 ,i got my passport :]e9 ,i 0 c>efully describ$ ) all my p>ticul> m>ks1 & />t$ (f on my =eign travels4 ,at fir/ all w5t well4 ,i /opp$ a few days at ,bonn1 & aga9 at ,brussels1 :]e ,i _h my fir/ exp]i5ce ( he>+ a =eign language spok5 r\nd me1 & f\nd t my ,fr5* 0 sadly defici5t4 ,b f ,brussels on1 my exp]i5ces 7 any?+ b agreeable4 ,! j\rney to ,p>is took tw5ty-f\r h\rs1 & we travell$ day & night )\t any /op = meals4 ,mo/ ( ! pass5g]s 7 well provid$ ) food & w9e1 b _h x n be5 = ! k9dness ( "s old ladies1 my fell[-travell]s1 ,i %\ld really h />v$4 ,:5 we cross$ ! fronti] ! luggage ( all pass5g]s 0 c>efully exam9$4 ,b ! d\ani]1 9 try+ to op5 my portmanteau1 broke ! lock1 & !n began a fe>ful curs+ & swe>+4 ,i 0 p]fectly helpless4 ,i c\ld h>dly und]/& :at ! ,fr5* d\ani]s said1 /ill less make !m und]/& :at ,i _h to say4 ,!y _h done ! damage1 b w\ld d no?+ to rem$y x4 ,! tra9 w\ld n wait1 & ,i %\ld c]ta9ly h be5 left beh9d if ! o!r travell]s _h n tak5 my "p1 & ,i 0 all[$ to g on to ,p>is4 ,i look$ a m]e boy1 v h>mless1 n at all ! clev] smuggl] ! (ficials took me to be4 ,if !y _h =c$ ! portmanteau op5 !y w\ld h f\nd no?+ b ! mo/ ess5tial we>+ app>el & a few books & pap]s all 9 ,sanskrit4 ,b my mis]ies 7 n yet ov]1 on ! contr>y1 !y became mu* worse4 ,on my arrival 9 ,p>is ,i got a fiacre & told ! man to drive to #be1 ,rue ,/4 ,honor2 ,royale ,i consid]$ ( no importance2 b1 alas6 at ! "r numb] ( ! ,rue ,/4 ,honor1 ! conci]ge />$ at me1 tell+ me t no ,b>on ,hag$orn liv$ !re4 ,try ,faub\rg ,/4 ,honor1 !y said1 b "h ! same ?+ happ5$4 ,& all ?is 0 on a ra9y aft]noon1 ,i be+ tir$ out ) travell+ & fa/+1 & p]fectly ov]:elm$ by ! imm5sity ( ,p>is4 ,i knew nobody at ,p>is1 hav+ tru/$ = all su* ?+s to ,b>on ,hag$orn1 9 fact ,i 0 au dsespoir4 ,!n z ,i 0 driv+ along ! ,b\lev>d des ,itali5s1 look+ out ( w9d[1 ,i saw a famili> figure--a little hun*back :om ,i _h kn[n at ,dessau1 :]e he /udi$ music "u ,s*neid]4 ,x 0 ,m4 ,ga?y1 a man well kn[n by 8 musical writ+s1 p>ticul>ly 8 ,diction>y ( ,music4 ,i %riek$ ,ga?y6 ,ga?y6 & he 0 z mu* surpris$ :5 he recogniz$ ! little boy f ,dessau1 z ,i 0 :5 9 ?is va/ ,p>is ,i discov]$ at la/ a face :i* ,i knew4 ,i jump$ out ( my c>riage1 told ,ga?y all t _h happ5$ to me1 be+ all ! "t betwe5 complete despair & p]fect delight4 ,he knew ,hag$orn & 8 rooms v well4 ,x 0 ! ,rue ,royale ,/4 ,honor4 ,! conci]ge 0 q prep>$ = my arrival1 & took u bo? to ! rooms :i* 7 au c9quime1 b l>ge & extremely well furni%$4 ,i 0 s tir$ t ,i lay d[n on ! s(a1 & call$ out 9 my be/ ,fr5*1 ,donnez-moi quelque *ose mang] et boire4 ,?is 0 n s easily done z said1 b at la/1 aft] toil+ up & d[n five flights ( /airs1 he br\ght me :at ,i want$2 ,i re/or$ myself 9 ! true s5se ( ! ^w1 & !n began to discuss ! mo/ necess>y matt]s ) ,m4 ,ga?y4 ,he 0 ! mo/ *>m+ ( m51 half ,g]man1 half ,fr5*1 full ( esprit1 &1 :at 0 m important to me1 full ( real k9dness & love4 ,z soon z ,i saw him ,i felt ,i 0 safe1 & s ,i 01 ?\gh ,i _h /ill "s battles to fight4 ,fir/ ( all1 ,i _h tak5 b little money ) me1 look+ ^u ,hag$orn z my bank]4 ,=tunately ,i rememb]$ ! "n ( "o ( 8 fri5ds1 ab\t :om ,hag$orn _h (t5 spok5 to me & :o 0 9 ,ro?s*ild's ,bank4 ,i w5t !re to f9d t he 0 away1 b ano!r g5tleman !re told me t ,i c\ld h z mu* z ,i lik$ till ,hag$orn or 8 fri5d came back4 ,s ,i 0 lucky1 unlucky z ,i _h be5 be=e4 ,! next /ep ,i _h to consid] 0 :at ,i %\ld d = my breakfa/1 lun*eon1 & d9n]4 ,breakfa/ ,i c\ld h at home1 b = ! o!r meals ,i _h to g out & get :at ,i want$ :]ev] ,i c\ld4 ,x 0 n always :at ,i want$1 = x _h to be *eap1 & ev5 a d9n] deux francs 9 ! ,palais ,royal seem$ to me extravagant4 ,i became m kn[+ by-&-by1 & discov]$ small] & simpl] re/aurants1 :]e ,fr5*m5 d9$ & _h arrang$ = a less %[y b m :olesome diet4 ,! impression t my fir/ exp]i5ce ( life 9 "o ( ! great capitals ( ! _w made on me is /ill fre% 9 my memory4 ,my pr9cipal amusem5t at fir/ 0 to g on voyages ( discov]y ?r\gh ! t[n4 ,! beauty ( ! city itself1 & ! ru% & cr[d 9 ! /reets delight$ me1 & ,i rememb] specially a few days aft] my arrival1 :5 ,i w5t to wat* 8le t\t ,p>is0 go+ out to ! races at ,long*amps1 t ,i 0 s /ruck by ! diff]5ce betwe5 ^! /reets full ( equipages ( all sorts1 ladies 9 respl5d5t dresses1 & well-groom$ g5tlem51 & ! quiet /reets t ,i _h be5 accu/om$ to 9 ,dessau & ,leipzig1 t ,i c\ld h>dly keep myself f laugh+ out l\d4 ,h[ev]1 :5 ! novelty wore (f !re 0 ano!r contra/ t /ruck me1 & made me m incl9$ to cry ?is "t ?an to laugh1 & t 01 t :ile at home ,i knew almo/ e face ,i pass$1 "h 9 ^! cr[ds ,i 0 a /rang] & knew no "o1 & ,i suff]$ cruelly f ! solitude at fir/4 ,i began my "w1 h[ev]1 at once1 & on ! ?ird day aft] my arrival ,i 0 at ! ,biblio?que ,royale arm$ ) a lett] ( introduction f ,humboldt1 & ! v next day 0 already at "w collat+ ! ,,mss4 ( ! ,ka?aka ,upani%ad4 ,i _h also to devote "s h\rs daily to ! /udy ( ,fr5*2 =1 mu* z ,i grudg$ ^! h\rs1 ,i fully realiz$ t 9 ord] to get full advantage f my /ay 9 ,p>is1 ,i mu/ fir/ ma/] ,fr5*4 ,next came ! great "q1 h[ to make ! acqua9tance ( ,burn\f4 ,i did n "k ! _w4 ,i did n "k :e!r ,i %\ld write to him fir/1 9 :at language1 & to :at address4 ,i knew ,burn\f f 8 books1 & ,i felt a desp]ate respect = him4 ,aft] a "t ,ga?y discov]$ 8 address = me1 & ,i summon$ up c\rage to call on him4 ,my ,fr5* 0 v poor z yet1 b ,i walk$ 9 & f\nd a de> old g5tleman 9 8 robe de *ambre1 surr\nd$ by 8 books & 8 *ildr5--f\r little daught]s :o 7 evid5tly help+ him 9 collect+ & alphabetically arrang+ a numb] ( slips on :i* he _h jott$ d[n :atev] _h /ruck him z important 9 8 read+ dur+ ! day4 ,he receiv$ me ) great civility1 su* z ,i _h n be5 accu/om$ to be=e4 ,he spoke ( "s little book :i* ,i _h publi%$1 & inquir$ w>mly aft] my tea*]s 9 ,g]many1 su* z ,brockhaus1 ,bopp1 & ,lass54 ,he told me ,i might att5d 8 lectures 9 ! ,collge de ,france1 & he w\ld always be mo/ happy to give me advice & help4 ,i at once felt p]fect tru/ 9 ! man1 & 0 really aux cieux to h f\nd su* an advis]4 ,he 01 inde$1 a f9e specim5 ( ! real ,fr5* savant4 ,he 0 small1 & 8 face 0 decid$ly ,g]man1 ) ! tte c>re :i* "o sees s (t5 9 ,g]many1 only light$ up by a con/ant sp>kle1 :i* is di/9ctively ,fr5*4 ,i mu/ h seem$ v /upid to him :5 ,i tri$ to expla9 to him :at ,i really want$ to d 9 ,p>is4 ,he told me himself aft]w>ds t he c\ld n make me out at fir/4 ,i want$ to /udy ! ,v$a1 b ,i _h told him at ! same "t t ,i ?\ght ! ,v$ic hymns v /upid1 & t ,i c>$ *iefly = _! philosophy1 t is1 ! ,upani%ads4 ,?is 0 really n true1 b x came up fir/ 9 conv]sation1 & ,i ?\ght x w\ld %[ ,burn\f t my int]e/ 9 ! ,v$a 0 n simply philological1 b philosophical also4 ,no d\bt at fir/ ,i *iefly copi$ ! ,upani%ads & _! comm5t>ies1 b ,burn\f 0 n pleas$4 8,we "k :at is 9 ! ,upani%ads10 he us$ to say1 8b we want ! hymns & _! native comm5ts40 ,i soon came to und]/& :at he meant2 ,i c>efully att5d$ 8 lectures1 :i* 7 on ! hymns ( ! ,rig-v$a & op5$ an entirely new _w to my m9d4 ,we _h ! fir/ book ( ! ,rig-v$a z publi%$ by ,ros51 & ,burn\f's explanations 7 c]ta9ly delightful4 ,he spoke freely & conv]sationally 9 8 lectures1 & "o c\ld almo/ assi/ at ! elaboration ( 8 ?\ghts4 ,8 audi5ce 0 c]ta9ly small2 !re 0 no?+ l ,r5an's eloqu5ce & wit4 ,b ,burn\f _h ev] s _m new facts to communicate to u4 ,he expla9$ to u 8 own rese>*es1 he %[$ u new ,,mss4 :i* he _h receiv$ f ,india1 9 fact he did all he c\ld to make u fell[ work]s4 ,(t5 did he tell u to look up "s passage 9 ! ,v$a1 to comp>e & copy ! comm5t>ies1 & to let him h ! result ( our rese>*es at ! next lecture4 ,all ?is 0 v inspirit+1 p>ticul>ly z ,burn\f1 ^u exam9+ our "w1 0 v g5]\s 9 8 approval1 & q ready1 if we _h fail$1 to po9t out to u new s\rces t %\ld be exam9$4 ,he nev] ass]t$ 8 own au?ority1 & if ev] we _h f\nd out some?+ :i* he _h n kn[n be=e1 he 0 delight$ to let u h ! full cr$it = x4 ,aft] all1 x 0 a new & unkn[n c\ntry1 t _h to be explor$ & mapp$ out1 & ev5 a novice might sometimes f9d a gra9 ( gold4 ,8 select class conta9$ "s good m54 ,!re 7 ,b>?lemy ,/4 ,hilaire1 ! fam\s translator ( ,ari/otle1 & = a "t ,m9i/] ( ,=eign ,affairs 9 ,france1 ! ,abb ,b>delli1 ,r4 ,ro?1 ,?4 ,gold/ck]1 & a few m4 ,b>?lemy ,/4 ,hilaire 0 a p]sonal fri5d ( ,burn\f1 & came to ! ,collge de ,france n s mu* to le>n ,sanskrit z to he> ,burn\f's lucid exposition ( anci5t ,indian religion & philosophy4 ,b>delli 0 a regul> ,italian ,abb1 /udy+ ,sanskrit at ,p>is1 b *iefly int]e/$ 9 ,coptic4 ,he 01 l ,/4 ,hilaire1 mu* my s5ior1 b we became great fri5ds1 & he once confid$ to me :at _h c]ta9ly puzzl$ me--8 reasons = becom+ an ecclesia/ic4 ,he _h be5 deeply 9 love ) a "y lady2 8 love 0 return$1 b he 0 too poor to m>ry1 & %e 0 p]suad$ & almo/ =c$ to m>ry a ri* man4 ,de> old ,abb1 always tak+ snuff :ile he told me 8 agonies1 & !n f9i%+ up by say+ t he became a prie/ s z to put an end = ev] to 8 passion4 ,:o w\ld h suspect$ su* a backgr\nd to 8 jovial face8 ,i don't "k h[ x 0 t p1 mu* my s5iors1 s (t5 confid$ to me _! secret suff]+s4 ,i may h to m5tion "s o!r cases1 & ,i feel t aft] my fri5ds are gone1 & s _m ye>s h pass$ ov] _! graves1 !re is no indiscretion 9 speak+ ( _! confid5ces4 ,x may possibly tea* u to rememb] h[ mu* (t5 lies buri$ "u a grave bright ) fl[]s4 ,i saw ,b>delli's own grave _m ye>s lat] 9 ! fam\s cemet]y at ,pisa4 ,r4 ,ro? & ,?4 ,gold/ck] 7 bo? /r5u\s ,sanskrit s*ol>s4 ,bo? ow$ mu* to ,burn\f1 ,ro? ev5 m ?an ,gold/ck]1 ?\gh ! latt] has p]haps m frequ5tly spok5 ( :at he ow$ to ,burn\f4 ,ro? 0 my s5ior by sev]al ye>s1 & engag$ 9 mu* ! same "w z myself4 ,b we nev] got on well toge!r4 ,x is curi\s f :at small ?+s & slight impressions our likes & dislikes are (t5 =m$4 ,i h he>d m5 give z a reason = dislik+ "s "o1 t he _h =gott5 to pay half a cab-f>e4 ,s 9 ,ro?'s case1 ,i nev] got ov] a mo/ ord9>y exp]i5ce4 ,he & two o!r "y /ud5ts & myself1 hav+ to celebrate "s fe/al occasion1 _h ord]$ a good lun*eon at a re/aurant4 ,to me ) my limit$ means ?is 0 a great extravagance1 b ,i c\ld n refuse to jo94 ,ro?1 to my great surprise &1 ,i may add1 be+ v fond ( oy/]s1 annoyance1 took a v unfair %>e ( t delicacy1 & :5ev] ,i met him 9 aft] life1 :e!r 9 p]son or 9 writ+1 ?is incid5t w\ld always crop up 9 my m9d2 & :5 lat] on he (f]$ to jo9 me 9 edit+ ! ,rig-v$a1 ,i decl9$1 p]haps influ5c$ by t e>ly impression :i* ,i c\ld n get rid (4 ,i blame myself = s fooli% a prejudice1 b x %[s :at creatures ( circum/ance we are4 ,) ,gold/ck] ,i 0 f> m intimate4 ,he 0 "s ye>s old] ?an myself & q indep5d5t z f> z money w5t4 ,he knew h[ small my means 71 & w\ld gladly h l5t me money4 ,b ?r\gh ! :ole ( my life ,i nev] borr[$ f my fri5ds1 or 9 fact f anybody1 ?\gh ,i 0 =c$ sometimes :5 v h>d up = ready money1 & :5 ,i knew t money 0 due to me b _h n arriv$ :5 ,i expect$ x1 to apply to "s fri5d = a tempor>y advance4 ,i w try & recall ! l9es 9 :i* ,i once appli$ to ,ga?y = su* a loan4 ,v]su*' i*'s wohl1 me9 h]zgeliebt] ,ga?y1 ,mit s*mei*elndem ,sonnet ,sie anzupump58 ,i* bitte ni*t um s*w]e ,goldesklump51 ,i* bitte nur um etli*e ,ducati4 ,au* zahl' i* wi$] ultimo ,monati4 ,auf ,wi$]sehn bei ,morel und ,frascati ,und ,na*si*t fr d5 ,brief1 d5 allzu plump56 ,zw> rei*e ,nabobs s9d die brav5 ,ind]1 ,do* arme ,teufel die ,indiani/56 ,rei* s9d hi5i$5 s*on die ,heid5-,k9d]1 ,do* selig w]d5 nur die arm5 ,*ri/56 ,reimsu*] b9 i*1 do* ke9 ,reimef9d]1 ,und sans critique s9d all die ,sanscriti/54 ,?is k9d ( negotiat+ a loan ,i h to confess to1 b ! idea ( borr[+ money1 )\t kn[+ :5 ,i c\ld repay x1 nev] ent]$ my m9d4 ,relations :o c\ld h help$ me ,i _h none1 & no?+ rema9$ to me b to "w = o!rs4 ,inde$ my want ( money soon began to cause me v s]i\s anxiety 9 ,p>is4 ,little z ,i sp5t1 my funds became l[] & l[]4 ,i did n1 l _m o!r s*ol>s1 receive help f my ,gov]nm5t4 ,i _h mapp$ out my c\rse = myself1 & in/ead ( tak+ to tea*+ on leav+ ! ,univ]sity1 _h settl$ to come to ,p>is & cont9ue my ,sanskrit /udies1 & x 0 9 my own h&s :e!r ,i %\ld swim or s9k4 ,x 01 inde$1 a h>d /ruggle1 f> h>d] ?an ^? :o h kn[n me 9 lat] life w\ld believe4 ,all ,i c\ld d to e>n a little money 0 to copy & collate ,,mss4 = o!r p4 ,i might inde$ h giv5 private lessons1 b ,i h always _h a /rong objection to t =m ( drudg]y1 & w\ld r sit up a :ole night copy+ ?an give an h\r to my pupils4 ,my plan 0 z foll[s3 to sit up ! :ole ( "o night1 to take ab\t ?ree h\rs' re/ ! next night1 b )\t undress+1 & !n to take a good night's re/ ! ?ird night1 & />t ov] aga94 ,x 0 a h>d fight1 & _c h be5 v good = me physically1 b ,i d n regret x n[4 ,(t5 did ,i g )\t my d9n]1 be+ q satisfi$ ) boil$ eggs & bread & butt]1 :i* ,i c\ld h at home )\t toil+ d[n & toil+ up five flights ( /airs t l$ to my room4 ,sometimes ,i w5t ) "s ( my "y fri5ds hors de la b>rire1 t is1 outside ,p>is1 outside ! b>ri] :]e ! octroi has to be paid on meat1 w9e1 c4 ,"h ! food 0 c]ta9ly bett] = ! price ,i c\ld af=d to pay1 b ! society 0 sometimes peculi>4 ,i rememb] once see+ a /range lady sitt+ n v f> f me1 :o 0 ! well-kn[n ,l\ve ( ,eugne ,sue's ,my/res de ,p>is4 ,"o ( my companions on ^! exp$itions 0 ,k>l de ,s*loez]1 :o 0 !n /udy+ ,arabic 9 ,p>is4 ,he 0 always *e]ful & amus+1 & a delightful companion4 ,he knew mu* m ( ! _w ?an ,i did1 & (t5 surpris$ me by 8 diplomatic wisdom4 8,let u /& up = ea* o!r10 he said "o day2 8y say all ! good y c ( me1 ,i say+ all ! good ,i c ( y40 ,i became v fi]ce at ! "t1 *>g+ him ) hypocrisy & ,i d n "k :at4 ,he1 h[ev]1 took x all 9 good "p1 & we rema9$ fri5ds all ! "t he 0 at ,p>is1 & inde$ to ! day ( 8 dea?4 ,he 0 v fond ( music1 b ,i 01 p]haps1 ! bett] p]=m] on ! pian(orte4 ,he _h invit$ me1 a viol91 & violoncello1 to play "s ( ,moz>t's & ,bee?ov5's ,sonatas4 ,alas6 :5 we f\nd t he murd]$ 8 "p1 ,i sat d[n & play$ ! :ole ev5+1 leav+ him to li/51 n1 ,i fe>1 9 ! be/ ( moods4 ,he took 8 rev5ge1 h[ev]2 & ! next "t he ask$ me & ! two o!r musicians to 8 room1 we f\nd inde$ ev]y?+ ready = u to play1 b our ho/ 0 n[h]e to be f\nd4 ,he ma9ta9$ t he _h be5 call$ away2 ,i am c]ta91 h[ev]1 t ! little trick 0 play$ on purpose4 ,he aft]w>ds ent]$ ! ,prussian diplomatic s]vice & 0 ! protg ( ! ,pr9cess ( ,prussia1 aft]w>ds ! ,empress ( ,g]many4 ,t 0 en\gh to make ,bism>ck dislike him1 & :5 ,s*loez] s]v$ z ,secret>y ( ,legation "u ,bism>ck z ,ambassador at ,/4 ,pet]sburg1 he committ$ ! outrage ( *all5g+ 8 *ief to a duel4 ,bism>ck decl9$1 nor w\ld x1 accord+ to diplomatic etiquette1 h be5 possible = him n to decl9e4 ,lat] on1 h[ev]1 ,s*loez] 0 plac$ en disponibilit1 t is to say1 he 0 politely dismiss$4 ,he _h to pay a k9d ( f>ewell visit to ,bism>ck1 :o 0 !n omnipot5t4 ,be+ ask$ by ,bism>ck :at he int5d$ to d1 & :e!r he c\ld be ( any s]vice to him1 ,s*loez] said v quietly1 8,yes1 y\r ,excell5cy1 ,i %all take to writ+ my ,memoirs1 & y "k t ,i h se5 mu* 9 my "t :i* _m p w be int]e/$ to le>n40 ,bism>ck 0 quiet = a "t1 look+ at "s pap]s1 & !n rem>k$ q unconc]n$ly1 8,y w\ld n c>e to g to ! ,unit$ ,/ates z ,m9i/]80 8,i am ready to g to-morr[10 repli$ ,s*loez]1 & hav+ c>ri$ 8 po9t1 hav+ 9 fact outwitt$ ,bism>ck1 he />t$ at once = ,wa%+ton4 ,bism>ck knew t ,s*loez] c\ld wield a %>p p51 & !re 0 a "t :5 he 0 s5sitive to su* p5-pricks4 ,!y did n see mu* ( ea* o!r aft]w>ds1 b1 ow+ to ! protection ( ! ,empress1 ,s*loez] 0 lat] accr$it$ z ,prussian envoy to ! ,pope1 & di$ too soon = 8 fri5ds 9 beautiful ,italy4 ,"o ( my olde/ fri5ds at ,p>is 0 a ,b>on d',eck/e91 a k9d ( diplomatic ag5t :o knew ev]ybody 9 ,p>is1 & wrote = ! newspap]s1 ,fr5* & ,g]man4 ,he _h1 ,i believe1 a p5sion f ! ,fr5* ,gov]nm5t1 & 01 z a ,roman ,ca?olic1 /rongly alli$ ) ! ,cl]ical ,p>ty4 ,?is did n conc]n me4 ,:at conc]n$ me 0 8 love ( ,sanskrit & ! anci5t religion ( ,india4 ,he w\ld sit ) me = h\rs1 or take me to d9e ) him at a re/aurant1 discuss+ all ! "t ! ,v$as & ! ,upani%ad & ! ,v$anta philosophy4 ,!re are sev]al articles ( 8 writt5 at ?is "t 9 ! ,j\rnal ,asiatique1 & ,i 0 especially grateful to him1 = he gave me pl5ty ( "w to d1 p>ticul>ly 9 ! way ( copy+ ,sanskrit ,,mss4 = him1 & he paid me well & s help$ me to keep afloat 9 ,p>is4 ,kn[+ z he did ev]ybody1 he 0 v anxi\s to introduce me to 8 fri5ds1 su* z ,george ,s&1 ,lam5nais1 ! ,comtesse d',ag\lt 7,daniel ,/]n71 ,lam>t9e1 ,victor ,hugo1 & o!rs2 b ,i mu* pref]r$ half an h\r ) him or ) ,burn\f to pay+ =mal visits4 ,i he>d aft]w>ds _m unk9d ?+s ab\t ,b>on d',eck/e9's political & cl]ical op9ions1 b ?\gh 9 becom+ a conv]t to ,roman ,ca?olicism he may h %[n weakness1 & z a political writ] may h be5 influ5c$ by 8 ne> fri5ds & patrons1 ,i nev] f\nd him o!rwise ?an k9d1 tol]ant1 & tru/wor?y4 ,8 life 0 to h be5 writt5 by ,pr(essor ,w9dis*mann1 b he too di$2 & :o kn[s :at may h become ( ! curi\s memoirs :i* he left8 ,at ! "t ( ! ,febru>y revolution 9 #ahdh1 he 0 9 ! v mid/ ( x4 ,he knew ,lam>t9e1 :o 0 ! h]o ( ! day1 ?\gh ( a few days only4 ,he att5d$ meet+s ) ,lam>t9e1 ,odilon1 ,b>rot1 & o!rs1 & he assur$ me t !re w\ld be no revolution1 because nobody 0 prep>$ = x4 ,lam>t9e :o _h be5 ask$ by 8 fri5ds1 all ( !m royali/s & fri5ds ( ord]1 :e!r he w\ld1 9 case ( necessity1 und]take to =m a m9i/ry "u ! ,du*esse d',orlans z reg5t1 sc\t$ su* an idea at fir/1 b at la/ promis$ to be ready if he 7 want$4 ,! "t came soon] ?an he expect$1 & ! ,du*esse d',orlans c\nt$ on him :5 %e w5t to ! ,*amb] & h] ,reg5cy 0 proclaim$4 ,lam>t9e 0 !n s popul> t he might h sav$ ! situation4 ,b ! mob broke into ! ,*amb]1 %ots 7 fir$1 & !re 0 no ,lam>t9e4 ,! ,du*esse d',orlans _h to fly1 & =tunately escap$ "u ! protection ( ! ,duc de ,nem\rs1 ! only son ( ,l\is ,philippe !n 9 ,p>is1 & ! dyna/y ( ! ,orlans 0 lo/--nev] to return4 ,b>on d',eck/e9 lo/ _m ( 8 influ5tial fri5ds at t "t1 possibly 8 p5sion also1 b he _h en\gh to live ^u1 & he di$ at la/ z a v old man 9 a ,roman ,ca?olic mona/]y1 a mo/ int]e/+ & *>m+ man1 ^: memoirs w\ld c]ta9ly h be5 v valuable4 ,b to return to ,burn\f1 ,i nev] c adequately express my debt ( gratitude to him4 ,he 0 ( ! greate/ assi/ance to me 9 cle>+ my ?\ghts & direct+ !m into "o *annel4 8,ei!r "o ?+ or ! o!r10 he said4 8,ei!r /udy ,indian philosophy & beg9 ) ! ,upani%ads & ,sank>a's comm5t>y1 or /udy ,indian religion & keep to ! ,rig-v$a1 & copy ! hymns & ,syana's comm5t>y1 & !n y w be our great b5efactor40 ,a great b5efactor6 t 0 too mu* = me1 a m]e dw>f 9 ! pres5ce ( giants4 ,b ,burn\f's words confirm$ me m & m 9 my desire to give myself up to ! ,v$a4 ,burn\f told me n only :at ,v$ic ,,mss4 !re 7 at ! ,biblio?que ,royale1 he also br\ght me 8 own ,,mss4 & l5t !m to me to copy1 ) ! condition1 h[ev]1 t ,i %\ld n smoke :ile work+ at !m4 ,he himself did n smoke1 & c\ld n be> ! smell ( smoke1 & he %[$ me sev]al ( 8 ,,mss4 :i* _h become q useless to him1 because !y smelt ( /ale tobacco smoke4 ,i did all ,i c\ld to gu>d ^! sacr$ treasures aga9/ su* pr(anation4 ,ano!r & ev5 m useful w>n+ came to me f ,burn\f4 8,don't publi% extracts f ! comm5t>y only10 he said2 8if y d1 y w publi% :at is easy to read1 & leave out :at is difficult40 ,i c]ta9ly ?\ght t extracts w\ld be suffici5t1 b ,i soon f\nd out t "h also ,burn\f 0 "r1 ?\gh !re 0 always ! fe> t ,i %\ld nev] f9d a publi%] = s imm5se a "w4 ,?is fe> ,i confid$ to ,burn\f1 b he always ma9ta9$ 8 hopeful view4 8,! comm5t>y mu/ be publi%$1 dep5d ^u x1 & x w be10 he said4 ,s ,i /uck to x & w5t on copy+ & collat+ my ,sanskrit ,,mss41 always tru/+ t a publi%] w\ld turn up at ! prop] "t4 ,i _h1 ( c\rse1 to d all ! drudg]y = myself1 & ,i soon f\nd out t x 0 n 9 human nature1 at lea/ n 9 my nature1 to copy ,sanskrit f a ,,ms4 ev5 = ?ree or f\r h\rs )\t mi/akes4 ,to my great disappo9tm5t ,i f\nd mi/akes :5ev] ,i collat$ my copy ) ! orig9al4 ,i f\nd t l ! copyi/s ( classical ,,mss4 my eye _h w&]$ f "o l9e to ano!r :]e ! same ^w occurr$1 t ,i _h left out a ^w :5 ! next ^w end$ ) ! same t]m9ation1 nay t ,i _h ev5 left out :ole l9es4 ,h5ce ,i _h ei!r to collate my own copy1 :i* 0 v t$i\s1 or inv5t "s new process4 ,?is new process ,i discov]$ by us+ transp>5t pap]1 & ?us trac+ e lett]4 ,i _h "s excell5t papi] vgtal made = me1 &1 in/ead ( copy+1 trac$ ! :ole ,sanskrit ,,ms4 ,?is _h ! great advantage t no?+ c\ld be left out1 & t :5 ! orig9al 0 smudg$ & d\btful ,i c\ld c>efully trace :atev] 0 cle> & visible ?r\gh ! transp>5t pap]4 ,at fir/ ,i confess my "w 0 sl[1 b soon x w5t z rapidly z copy+1 & x 0 ev5 less fatigu+ to ! eyes ?an ! con/ant look+ f ! ,,ms4 to ! copy1 & f ! copy to ! ,,ms4 ,b ! mo/ important advantage 01 t ,i c\ld ?us feel q c]ta9 t no?+ 0 left out1 s t ev5 n[1 aft] m ?an fifty ye>s1 ^! trac+s are z useful to me z ! ,,ms4 itself4 ,!re 0 room left betwe5 ! l9es or on ! m>g9 to note ! v>i\s read+s ( o!r ,,mss42 9 fact1 my mat]ials grew bo? 9 ext5t & 9 value4 ,/ill !re rema9$ ! "q ( a publi%]4 ,to pr9t ! ,rig-v$a 9 six volumes qu>to ( ab\t a ?\s& pages ea*1 & to provide ! editor ) a liv+ wage dur+ ! _m ye>s he w\ld h to devote to 8 task1 requir$ a l>ge capital4 ,i d n "k exactly h[ mu*1 b :at ,i d "k is t1 :5 a second edition ( ! text ( ! ,v$a 9 f\r volumes 0 pr9t$ at ! exp5se ( ! ,mah>ajah ( ,vizianagram1 x co/ t g5]\s & patriotic pr9ce f\r ?\s& p\nds1 ?\gh ,i !n gave my "w gratuit\sly4 ,:ile ,i 0 work+ at ! ,biblio?que ,royale1 ,humboldt _h us$ 8 p[]ful influ5ce ) ! k+ ( ,prussia1 ,fr$]ick ,william ,,iv1 to help me 9 publi%+ my edition ( ! ,rig-v$a 9 ,g]many4 ,no?+1 h[ev]1 came ( t plan2 x prov$ too co/ly = any private publi%]1 ev5 ) royal assi/ance4 ,!n came a vague (f] f ,/4 ,pet]sburg4 ,boehtl+k1 ! great ,sanskrit s*ol>1 z a memb] ( ! ,imp]ial ,russian ,academy1 invit$ me to come to ,/4 ,pet]sburg & pr9t ! ,v$a !re1 9 collaboration ) himself1 & at ! exp5se ( ! ,academy4 ,burn\f & ,gold/ck] bo? w>n$ me aga9/ accept+ ?is (f]1 b1 hopeless z ,i 0 ( gett+ my ,v$a publi%$ else:]e1 ,i express$ my will+ness to g on condition t "s provision %\ld be made = me be=e ,i decid$ to migrate to ,russia1 z ,i possess$ absolutely no?+ b :at ,i 0 able to e>n myself4 ,boehtl+k1 ,i believe1 sugge/$ to ! ,academy t ,i %\ld be appo9t$ ,assi/ant ,keep] ( ! ,ori5tal ,museum at ,/4 ,pet]sburg1 b 8 colleagues did n app>5tly consid] s "y a man1 & a m]e ,g]man s*ol>1 a fit c&idate = s responsible a po/4 ,boehtl+k wi%$ me to s5d him all my mat]ials1 & he w\ld get ! ,,mss4 ( ! ,rig-v$a & ( ,syana's comm5t>y f ! ,libr>y ( ! ,ea/ ,india ,company1 & ,p>is4 ,no def9ite proposition1 h[ev]1 came f ! ,imp]ial ,academy1 b an ann\ncem5t ( ,boehtl+k's appe>$ 9 ! pap]s 9 ,janu>y1 #ahdf1 to ! effect t he 0 prep>+1 9 collaboration ) ,monsieur ,max ,mll] ( ,p>is1 a complete edition ( ! ,rig-v$a4 ,all ?is1 ,i confess1 began to fright5 me4 ,= me1 a poor s*ol>1 to g to ,/4 ,pet]sburg )\t any (ficial invitation1 )\t any appo9tm5t1 seem$ reckless1 & ?\gh ,i h no d\bt t ,boehtl+k w\ld h done 8 be/ = me1 yet ev5 he c\ld only sugge/ private lessons1 & t 0 no *e]ful outlook4 ,! ,academy w\ld d no?+ = me unless ,i jo9$ ,boehtl+k1 b at la/ (f]$ to buy my mat]ials1 on :i* ,i _h sp5t s mu* lab\r & ! small fund at my disposal4 ,if ! ,academy c\ld h got ! necess>y ,,mss4 f ,p>is & ,london1 ,i %\ld h be5 p]fectly helpless4 ,boehtl+k c\ld h done ! :ole "w himself1 9 "s respects bett] ?an ,i1 because he 0 my s5ior1 & besides1 he knew ,pn9i1 ! old ,indian gramm>ian :o is con/antly ref]r$ to 9 ,syana's ,comm5t>y1 bett] ?an ,i did4 ,) all ^! ?reat5+ cl\ds ar\nd me1 my decision 0 by no means easy4 ,x 0 ,burn\f's advice t det]m9$ me to rema9 quietly 9 ,p>is4 ,he w>n$ me repeat$ly aga9/ tru/+ to ,boehtl+k1 & promis$1 if ,i w\ld only /ay 9 ,p>is1 to give me 8 support ) ,guizot1 :o 0 !n ,m9i/] = ,=eign ,affairs1 & v mu* int]e/$ 9 ,ori5tal /udies4 ,boehtl+k seems nev] to h =giv5 me1 & he & sev]al ( 8 fri5ds 7 highly displeas$ at my ultimate success 9 secur+ a publi%] = ! ,rig-v$a 9 ,engl&4 ,_! language 0 mo/ unbecom+1 & !y tri$1 & actually urg$ o!r ,sanskrit s*ol>s1 to criticize my edition1 ?\gh ,i mu/ say to _! cr$it t !y aft]w>ds confess$ t x 0 all t c\ld be desir$4 ,_m ye>s lat]1 ,boehtl+k publi%$ a viol5t attack on me1 entitl$ ,f4 ,max ,mll] als ,my!ndi*t]1 b ,i ?\ght x unnecess>y to take up ! dispute1 & pref]r$ to leave my fri5ds to judge = !mselves betwe5 me & ?is prop\nd] ( accusations1 ! legitimacy ( :i* he 0 utt]ly unable to e/abli%4 ,h[ev]1 z ,i discov]$ lat] t he accus$ me ( hav+ act$ disc\rte\sly t[>ds ! ,imp]ial ,academy ( ,/4 ,pet]sburg1 ) :om ,i _h nev] _h any direct deal+s1 & /at$ t he _h prev5t$ t illu/ri\s body f ev] mak+ me a correspond+ memb]1 ,i ?\ght x "r to (f] an explanation to ! ,secret>y1 & ,i h 9 my possession 8 reply1 9 :i* he wrote t !re 0 no f\ndation :atev] = ,pr(essor ,boehtl+k's /atem5ts4 ,h[ev]1 ! outcome ( x 0 t ,i did n g to ,/4 ,pet]sburg1 b w5t on ) my "w at ! ,libr>y 9 ,p>is1 till "o day ,i f\nd x necess>y to run ov] to ,london1 to copy & collate c]ta9 ,,mss41 & !re ,i f\nd ! long-s\ght-= b5efactors1 :o 7 to enable me to c>ry out ! "w ( my life4 ,( c\rse1 dur+ my /ay 9 ,p>is !re 0 no idea ( my go+ into society1 or ( buy+ tickets = !atres or conc]ts4 ,i w5t out to d9n] at "s small re/aurant1 b o!rwise ,i rema9$ at home1 & view$ ,p>is life f my high w9d[s1 look+ out on ! ,*ambre des ,dputs on "o side1 ! ,madele9e close to me on ! left1 & ! ,porte ,/4 ,m>t9 f> away at ! end ( ! ,b\lev>ds4 ,b>on d',eck/e91 z ,i h said1 0 will+ to introduce me into society1 b ,i refus$ 8 k9d (f]s4 ,9 fact1 ,i 0 m or less ( a be>1 & ,i n[ regret hav+ miss$ meet+ _m int]e/+ *>act]s1 & hav+ kept alo( f o!rs1 because my int]e/s 7 absorb$ else:]e4 ,burn\f ask$ me sometimes to 8 h\se2 s did a ,monsieur ,troy]1 :o _h be5 9 ,india & publi%$ "s ,sanskrit texts1 & ^: daught]1 ! ,du*esse de ,wagram1 made mu* ( me1 z %e 0 v fond ( music4 ,!re 7 "s ,g]man families also1 "s ri*1 "s poor1 :o %[$ me great k9dness4 ,i 0 too mu* oppress$ ) c>es & anxieties ab\t my life & my lit]>y plans to ?9k mu* ( society & enjoym5t4 ,ev5 ( ! /ud5ts & /ud5t life ,i saw b little1 ?\gh ,i 0 actually att5d+ lectures ) !m4 ,i mu/ say1 h[ev]1 t ! little ,i did see ( /ud5t life 9 ,p>is gave me a v diff]5t idea f :at is g5]ally ?\ght ( _! vag>ies & extravagances4 ,a ,fr5*man1 if he once beg9s to "w1 c "w & does "w v h>d4 ,i rememb] see+ sev]al in/ances ( ?is1 b x is possible t ,i may h se5 ! pick ( ! ,qu>ti] ,lat9 only4 ,"o :o 0 !n a "y man1 prep>+ = ! ,*ur*1 b already ) an eye to high] flights1 0 ,r5an4 ,at fir/ he /ill look$ ^u all "y ,g]mans ) suspicion1 b ?is feel+ soon disappe>$4 ,i rememb] him *iefly at ! ,biblio?que ,royale1 :]e he _h a v small place 9 ! ,ori5tal ,dep>tm5t4 ,hase1 ! ,greek s*ol>1 ,re9aud1 ! ,arabi/1 & ,/anislas ,juli51 ! ,s9ologue1 7 libr>ians !n4 ,hase1 a ,g]man by bir?1 0 mo/ oblig+1 b he 0 greatly afraid ( speak+ ,g]man1 & insi/$ on our always speak+ ,fr5* to him4 ,(t5 did he call ,r5an to fet* ,,mss4 = me3 8,r5an10 he w\ld call out v l\dly1 8allez *]*]1 p\r ,monsieur ,max ,mll]1 le manuscrit sanscrit1 numro 44410 & !n foll[$ a pause1 till he _h translat$ 8#afcg0 into ,fr5*4 ,9 lat] ye>s ,r5an & ,i became great fri5ds1 b we ,g]man s*ol>s 7 (t5 puzzl$ at 8 great popul>ity1 :i* c]ta9ly 0 ow+ to 8 /yle m ev5 ?an to 8 s*ol>%ip4 ,"s "t lat]1 :5 ,i 0 already e/abli%$ 9 ,engl&1 we _h a little controv]sy1 & ,i pr9t$ a r fi]ce attack on 8 ,grammaire ,smitique4 ,b we 7 intimate en\gh = me to %[ him my pamphlet1 & :5 he wrote to me1 8,p>donnez-moi1 je n'ai pas compris ce que v\s v\liez dire10 ,i suppress$ ! pamphlet1 ?\gh x 0 pr9t$1 & we rema9$ fri5ds = life4 ,he translat$ my fir/ article on ,comp>ative ,my?ology1 & ,i _h a numb] ( mo/ int]e/+ lett]s f him4 ,x 0 8 wife :o did ! translation1 :ile he revis$ x4 ,t ,fr5* pamphlet is v sc>ce n[2 my own pamphlet 0 entirely suppress$2 ev5 ,i myself c f9d no copy ( x among ! rubbi% ( my e>ly writ+s1 & :at ,i regret mo/1 ,i ?rew away 8 lett]s1 n ?9k+ h[ int]e/+ !y w\ld become 9 "t4 ,) all my "w1 h[ev]1 ,i f\nd "t to att5d "s lectures at ! ,collge de ,france1 & to make ! acqua9tance ( "s di/+ui%$ ,fr5* savants ( ! ,in/itut4 ,i w5t !re ) ,burn\f1 or ,/anislas ,juli51 or ,re9aud1 little dream+ t ,i %\ld "s day belong to ! same augu/ body4 ,_m ( my "y ,fr5* fri5ds1 :o aft]w>ds became ,membres de l',in/itut1 rose to t dignity mu* lat]4 ,i 0 made n only a correspond+1 b a real memb] ( ! ,acadmie des ,inscriptions et ,belles ,lettres 9 #ahfi1 be=e my fri5ds1 su* z ,g4 ,p]rot #ahgd1 ,mi*el ,bral #ahge1 ,ga/on ,p>is #ahgf1 & ,jules ,opp]t #ahha1 occupi$ _! well-m]it$ academical fauteuils4 ,! /ruggle :5 ,i 0 elect$ 9 #ahfi 0 a s]i\s "o2 x 0 betwe5 ,momms5 & myself1 betwe5 classical & ,ori5tal s*ol>%ip1 & = once ,ori5tal s*ol>%ip c>ri$ ! day4 ,momms51 h[ev]1 0 elect$ 9 #ahie1 & !re c be little d\bt t 8 /rong & outspok5 political antipa?ies _h some?+ to d ) ! late date ( 8 election4 ,i am sorry to say t "o result ( my see+ s little ( ,fr5* life 0 t my ,fr5* did n make su* progress z ,i expect$4 ,?\gh ,i 0 able to express myself tant bi5 que mal1 ,i h always felt hamp]$ 9 a long conv]sation4 ,( c\rse1 ! ,fr5* !mselves h always be5 polite en\gh to say t !y c\ld n h detect$ t ,i 0 a ,g]man1 b ,i knew bett] ?an t1 & nev] h ,i1 ev5 9 lat] ye>s1 ga9$ a p]fect conv]sational comm& ( t difficult language4 ,,*apt] ,,vi ,,arrival ,,9 ,,engl& ,:ile work+ 9 ,p>is ,i con/antly felt ! want ( "s ess5tial ,,mss4 :i* 7 at ! ,libr>y ( ! ,ea/ ,india ,company 9 ,london1 & my desire to visit ,engl& consequ5tly grew /rong] & /rong]2 b ,i _h n ! :]e)al to pay = ! j\rney1 mu* less = a /ay ( ev5 a =tnight 9 ,london4 ,at la/ 7,june1 #ahdf7 ,i ?\ght t ,i _h scrap$ toge!r en\gh to w>rant my />t+4 ,at t "t ,i _h nev] se5 ! sea1 & ,i 0 v desir\s ( do+ s4 ,i well rememb] my unb\nd$ rapture at my fir/ sight ( ! silv] /ream1 & l ,x5ophon's ,greeks ,i c\ld h %\t$1 1 4 ,once on bo>d my rapture soon collaps$ & 0 succe$$ by t well-kn[n feel+ ( mis]y :i* ,i h s frequ5tly exp]i5c$ s9ce !n1 & ,i huddl$ myself up 9 a corn] ( ! deck4 ,!re a "y fell[-travell] saw ! poor bundle ( mis]y1 & tri$ to com=t me1 & br\ght me :at he ?\ght 0 good = me1 n1 h[ev]1 )\t a c]ta9 m]ry tw9kle 9 8 eye & a few k9dly jokes at my exp5se4 ,we l&$ at ! docks 9 ,london1 a real drizzly day1 ra9 & mi/1 & su* a cr[d ru%+ on %ore t ,i miss$ my *e]ful fri5d & felt q lo/4 ,9 addition to all ?is a port] _h run away ) my portmanteau1 :i* conta9$ my books & ,,mss41 9 fact all my worldly goods4 ,at t mom5t my "y fri5d reappe>$1 & see+ ! plight ,i 0 91 came to my assi/ance4 8,y /ay "h10 he said1 8& ,i w arrange ev]y?+ = y20 & s he did4 ,he fet*$ a f\r-:eel]1 put my luggage on ! top1 bundl$ me inside1 & drove ) me ?r\gh a maze ( ,london /reets to 8 rooms 9 ! ,temple4 ,!n1 /ill kn[+ no?+ ab\t me1 he ask$ me to sp5d ! night 9 8 rooms1 gave me a b$ & ev]y?+ else ,i want$ = ! night4 ,! next morn+ he took me out to look = lodg+s1 :i* we f\nd 9 ,essex ,/reet1 a small /reet lead+ out ( ! ,/r&4 ,! room :i* ,i took 0 almo/ entirely fill$ by an imm5se f\r-po/ b$4 ,i _h nev] se5 su* a /ructure be=e1 & dur+ ! fir/ night t ,i slept 9 x1 ,i 0 9 con/ant fe> t ! top ( ! b$ w\ld fall & smo!r me z 9 ! ,g]man ,mr*54 ,:5 ! l&lady came 9 to see me 9 ! morn+1 aft] ask+ h[ ,i _h slept1 ! fir/ ?+ %e said 01 8,b1 sir1 don't y want ano!r #8pill>'80 ,i look$ bewild]$1 & said3 8,:y1 :at %all ,i d ) ano!r pill>8 & :]e w y put x80 ,%e !n t\*$ ! pill[s "u my head & said1 8,well1 sir1 y %all h ano!r #8pill>' to-morr[40 8,h[ %all ,i ev] le>n ,engli%10 ,i said to myself1 8if a #8pill>' means really a s(t pill[80 ,b to return to my unkn[n fri5d1 he came e day to %[ me ?+s :i* ,i ought to see 9 ,london1 & br\ght me tickets = !atres & conc]ts1 :i* he said 7 s5t to him4 ,8 "n 0 ,william ,h[>d ,russell1 ende>$ to s _m1 high & l[1 "u ! "n ( 8,billy0 ,russell1 ! fir/ & mo/ brilliant w>-correspond5t ( ,! ,times dur+ ! ,crimean ,w>4 ,he rema9$ my w>m & true fri5d ?r\gh life1 & ev5 n[ :5 we are bo? cripples1 we delight 9 meet+ & talk+ ov] v di/ant days4 ,i _h come ov] to ,london expect+ to /ay ab\t a =tnight1 b ,i _h be5 !re work+ at ! ,libr>y 9 ,lead5hall ,/reet = ne>ly a mon?1 & my "w 0 f> f done1 :5 ,i ?\ght t ,i ought to call & pay my respects to ! ,prussian ,m9i/]1 ,b>on ,buns54 ,i little ?\ght at ! "t :5 ,i 0 u%]$ into 8 pres5ce t ?is acqua9tance 0 to become ! turn+-po9t ( my life4 ,if ,i ow$ mu* to ,burn\f1 h[ c ,i tell :at ,i ow$ to ,buns58 ,i 0 amaz$ at ! k9dness ) :i* f ! v fir/ he receiv$ me4 ,i _h no claim :atev] on him1 & ,i _h z yet done v little z a s*ol>4 ,x is true t he _h kn[n my fa!r 9 ,italy1 & t ,humboldt1 ) 8 usual k9dness1 _h writt5 him a /rong lett] ( recomm5dation on my behalf1 b t 0 h>dly suffici5t reason to acc\nt = ! real fri5d%ip ) :i* he at once hon\r$ me4 ,b>oness ,buns51 9 ! life ( h] husb&1 writes3 8,! k9dr$ m9d1 _! sympa?y ( he>t1 ! unity 9 highe/ aspirations1 a cong5iality 9 pr9ciples1 a fell[%ip 9 ! pursuit ( fav\rite objects1 :i* attract$ & b\nd ,buns5 to 8 "y fri5d 7i4 e4 myself71 r5d]$ ?is connexion "o ( ! happie/ ( 8 life40 ,i am pr\d to ?9k x 0 s4 ,at fir/ ! *ief bond betwe5 u 0 t ,i 0 engag$ on a "w :i* z a "y man he _h propos$ to himself z ! "w ( 8 life1 namely1 ! editio pr9ceps ( ! ,rig-v$a4 ,(t5 has he told me h[1 at ! "t :5 he 0 prosecut+ 8 /udies at ,gtt+51 ! v exi/5ce ( su* a book 0 unkn[n z yet 9 ,g]many4 ,! "n ( ,v$a _h no d\bt be5 kn[n1 & !re 0 a halo ( my/]y ab\t x1 z ! olde/ book ( ! _w4 ,b :at x 0 & :]e x 0 to be f\nd no "o c\ld tell4 ,mr4 ,a/or1 a pupil ( ,buns5's at ,gtt+51 _h arrang$ to take ,buns5 to ,india to c>ry on 8 rese>*es !re4 ,b ,buns5 wait$ & wait$ 9 ,italy1 till at la/1 aft] ma9ta9+ himself by giv+ private lessons1 he w5t to ,rome1 0 tak5 up by ,br&es & ,niebuhr1 ! ,prussian ,ambassador !re1 became ! fri5d ( ! future ,fr$]ick ,william ,,iv1 & ?us gradually drift$ into diplomacy1 giv+ up all hopes ( discov]+ or rescu+ ! ,rig-v$a4 ,p h h>dly any idea n[1 h[1 9 spite ( ! ,ea/ ,india ,company conqu]+ & gov]n+ ,india1 ,india itself rema9$ a t]ra incognita1 unapproa*able by ! /ud5ts ( ,engl& & ( ,europe4 ,t !re 7 lit]>y treasures to be discov]$ 9 ,india1 t ! ,brahmans 7 ! deposit>ies ( anci5t wisdom1 0 kn[n ?r\gh ! lab\rs ( "s ( ! mo/ em95t s]vants ( ! ,ea/ ,india ,company4 ,x _h be5 kn[n ev5 be=e1 ?r\gh ! int]e/+ communications ( ,roman ,ca?olic mission>ies 9 ,india1 t ! manuscripts !mselves1 at lea/ ^? ( ! ,v$a1 7 n =?com+4 ,ev5 z late z ! times ( ,sir ,w4 ,jones1 ,colebrooke1 & ,pr(essor ,wilson1 ! ,brahmans 7 mo/ unwill+ to "p ) ,,mss4 ( ! ,v$a1 except ! ,upani%ads4 ,pr(essor ,wilson told me t once1 :5 exam9+ ! libr>y ( a native ,rjah1 he came across "s ,,mss4 ( ! ,rig-v$a1 & began turn+ !m ov]2 b 8,i obs]v$10 he said1 8! om9\s & ?reat5+ looks ( "s ( ! ,brahmans pres5t1 & ?\ght x wis] to beat a retreat40 ,dr4 ,mill _h kn[n ( a g5tleman :o _h a v sacr$ hymn ( ! ,v$a1 ! ,gayatri1 pr9t$ at ,calcutta4 ,! ,brahmans 7 furi\s at ?is pr(anation1 & :5 ! g5tleman di$ soon aft]1 !y look$ ^u 8 premature dea? z ! v5geance ( ! (f5d$ gods4 ,colebrooke1 h[ev]1 0 all[$ to possess himself ( sev]al mo/ valuable ,v$ic ,,mss41 & he f\nd ,brahmans q ready to read ) him1 n only ! classical texts1 b also portions ( ! ,v$a4 8,!y d n ev510 he writes1 8conceal f u ! mo/ sacr$ texts ( ! ,v$a40 ,8 own essays on ! ,v$a appe>$ 9 ! ,asiatic ,rese>*es z e>ly z #ahja4 ,b p w5t on dream+ ab\t ! ,v$a1 in/ead ( read+ ,colebrooke's essays4 ,x 0 curi\s1 h[ev]1 t at ! "t :5 ,i prep>$ my edition ( ! ,rig-v$a1 ,v$ic s*ol>%ip 0 at a v l[ ebb 9 ,b5gal itself1 & !re 7 few ,brahmans !re :o knew ! :ole ( ! ,rig-v$a by he>t1 z !y /ill did 9 ! ,s\? ( ,india4 ,manuscripts 7 nev] consid]$ 9 ,india z ( v high au?ority2 !y 7 always ov]-rul$ by ! oral traditions ( c]ta9 s*ools4 ,h[ev]1 su* manuscripts1 good & bad1 b mo/ly bad1 exi/$1 & aft] a "t "s ( !m rea*$ ,engl&1 ,france1 & ev5 ,g]many4 ,portions ( ^? 9 ,b]l9 & ,p>is ,i _h copi$ & collat$1 s t ,i c\ld %[ ,buns5 ! v book :i* he _h be5 9 se>* ( 9 8 y\?4 ,?is op5$ 8 he>t to me z well z ! doors ( 8 h\se4 8,i am glad10 he said1 8to h liv$ to see ! ,v$a4 ,:atev] y want1 let me "k2 ,i look ^u y z myself gr[n "y aga940 ,& he did help me1 z only a fa!r c help 8 son4 ,p]haps he expect$ too mu* f ! ,v$a1 z _m o!r p did at t "t1 & be=e ! v]ba ipsissima 7 pr9t$4 ,z ! olde/ book t ev] 0 compos$1 ! ,v$a 0 suppos$ to give u a picture ( :at man 0 9 8 mo/ primitive /ate1 ) 8 mo/ primitive ideas1 & 8 mo/ primitive language4 ,ev]ybody int]e/$ 9 ! orig9 & ! fir/ developm5t ( language1 ?\ght1 religion1 & social in/itutions1 look$ =w>d to ! ,v$a z a new revelation4 ,all su* dreams1 natural en\gh be=e ! ,v$a 0 kn[n1 7 disp]s$ by my lay+ sacrilegi\s h&s on ! ,v$a itself1 & actually publi%+ x1 mak+ x public prop]ty1 to ! dismay ( ! ,brahmans 9 ,india1 & to ! delight ( all ,sanskrit s*ol>s 9 ,europe4 ,! le>n$ essays ( ,colebrooke 9 ,india1 & ! extracts publi%$ by ,ros51 ! ,ori5tal libr>ian ( ! ,briti% ,museum1 might inde$ h taught p t ! ,v$a 0 n a book )\t any antec$5ts1 t x w\ld n tell u ! secrets ( ,adam & ,eve1 or ( ,deukalion & ,pyrrha4 ,i myself _h bo? said & writt5 t ! ,v$a1 l an old oak tree1 %[s hundr$s & ?\s&s ( circles )9 circles2 & yet ,i 0 aft]w>ds held responsible = hav+ excit$ ! wilde/ hopes among ar*aeologi/s1 :5 ,i _h done my be/1 if n to de/roy !m1 at all ev5ts to r$uce !m to _! prop] level4 ,s*ell+ seem$ q disappo9t$ :5 ,i %[$ him "s ( ! translations ( ! hymns ( ! ,rig-v$a2 & ,buns51 :o 0 /ill "u ,s*ell+'s influ5ce1 _h evid5tly expect$ a great _m m ( su* philosophical hymns z ! fam\s "o beg9n+3 8,!re 0 n n\ght nor 0 !re aught at t "t40 ,to ! s*ol>1 no d\bt1 ! ,v$a rema9$ & always w rema9 ! olde/ ( real books1 t has be5 pres]v$ to u 9 an almo/ miracul\s way4 ,by book1 h[ev]1 z ,i (t5 expla9$1 ,i mean a book divid$ into *apt]s & v]ses1 hav+ a beg9n+ & an end1 & h&$ d[n to u 9 an alphabetic =m ( writ+4 ,*9a may h possess$ old] books 9 a half phonetic1 half symbolic writ+2 ,egypt c]ta9ly possess$ old] hi]oglyphic inscriptions & papyri2 ,babylon _h its cunei=m monum5ts2 & c]ta9 portions ( ! ,old ,te/am5t may h exi/$ 9 a writt5 =m at ! "t ( ,josiah1 :5 ,hilkiah1 ! high prie/1 f\nd ! law book 9 ! sanctu>y 7#b ,k+s xxii4 #h74 ,b ! ,v$a1 ) its t5 books or ,m&alas1 its #ajag hymns or ,suktas1 ) e consonant & v[el & acc5t pla9ly writt51 0 a diff]5t ?+4 ,x may safely be call$ a book4 ,no d\bt x exi/$ = a long "t1 z x does ev5 at pres5t1 9 oral tradition1 b z x 0 9 tradition1 s x 0 :5 r$uc$ to writ+1 & 9 ei!r =m ,i d\bt :e!r any o!r real book c rival x 9 antiquity4 ,m important1 h[ev]1 ?an ! purely *ronological antiquity ( ! book1 is ! antiquity or primitiv5ess ( ! ?\ghts :i* x conta9s4 ,if ! p ( ! ,v$a did n turn out to be q su* savages z 0 hop$ & expect$1 !y nev]!less disclos$ to u a lay] ( ?\ght :i* c be explor$ n[h]e else4 ,! ,v$ic poets 7 n a%am$ ( expos+ _! fe> t ! sun might tumble d[n f ! sky1 & !re are no o!r poets1 z f> z ,i "k1 :o /ill trembl$ at ! same n q unnatural ?\ght4 ,nor d ,i f9d ev5 savages :o /ill wond] & express _! surprise t black c[s %\ld produce :ite milk4 ,is n t *ildi% en\gh = any anci5t or mod]n savage8 ,m]e *ronology is "h ( z little avail z ) mod]n savages1 ^: cu/oms & beliefs1 ?\gh kn[n z b ( ye/]day1 are repres5t$ to u z old] ?an ! ,v$a1 old] ?an ,babylonian cyl9d]s1 old] ?an any?+ writt54 ,:5 c]ta9 mod]n savages recognize ! relation%ip ( pat]nity1 mat]nity1 & consangu9ity1 ?is is call$ v anci5t4 ,if !y admit traditional re/rictions z to m>riage1 food1 ! treatm5t ( ! dead1 nay1 ev5 a life to come1 ?is too1 no d\bt1 may be v old2 b x may be ( ye/]day also4 ,!re are ev5 q new gods1 ^: g5esis has be5 wat*$ by liv+ mission>ies4 ,! great difficulty 9 all su* rese>*es is to di/+ui% betwe5 :at is common to human nature1 & :at is really inh]it$ or traditional4 ,all su* que/ions h only z yet be5 t\*$ ^u1 & !y mu/ wait = _! answ] till real s*ol>s w take up ! /udy ( ! language ( liv+ savages1 9 ! same s*ol>like _s 9 :i* !y h tak5 up ! /udy ( ,v$ic & ,babylonian savages4 ,b we mu/ h pati5ce & le>n to wait4 ,x has be5 a fav\rite idea among an?ropologi/s t ! savage races inhabit+ p>ts ( ,india give u a correct idea ( :at ! ,aryans ( ,india 7 be=e !y 7 civiliz$4 ,x may safely be said ( ?is z ( o!r m]e ideas1 t x may be true1 b t !re is no evid5ce to %[ t x is true4 ,at all ev5ts x takes mu* = grant$1 & neglects1 z x w\ld seem1 ! v lessons :i* ! !ory ( evolution has taught u4 ,x is ! nature ( evolution to be cont9u\s1 & n to proce$ p] saltum4 ,!re9 lies ! beauty ( g5ealogical evolution t we c recognize ! fibres :i* connect ! upp] /rata ) ! l[]1 till we /rike ! l[e/1 or at lea/ t :i* conta9s :at seem to be ! se$s & g]ms ( e>ly ?\ghts1 words1 & acts4 ,we c trace ! mo/ mod]n =ms ( language back to ,sanskrit1 or r to t po/ulat$ l+ui/ic /ratum ( :i* ,sanskrit =m$ ! mo/ prom95t repres5tative1 j z we c trace ! ,fr5* ,dieu back to ,lat9 ,deus & ,sanskrit ,devas1 ! brilliant be+s beh9d ! ph5om5a ( nature2 & aga9 beh9d !m1 ,dyaus1 ! brilliant sky1 ! ,greek ,zeus1 ! ,roman ,iovis & ,iuppit]1 ! mo/ natural ( all ! ,aryan gods ( nature4 ,?is is real evolution1 a real causal nexus betwe5 ! pres5t & ! pa/4 ,x us$ to be call$ hi/ory or pragmatic hi/ory1 :e!r we take hi/ory 9 ! s5se ( ! description ( evolution1 or 9 t ( evolution itself4 ,hi/ory has g5]ally to beg9 ) ! pres5t1 to g back to ! pa/1 & to po9t out ! palpable /eps by :i* ! pa/ became aga9 & aga9 ! pres5t4 ,evolution1 on ! contr>y1 pref]s to beg9 ) ! di/ant pa/1 to po/ulate =mations1 ev5 if !y h left no traces1 & to speak ( ^? almo/ imp]ceptible *anges by :i* ! po/ulat$ pa/ became ! p]ceptible pres5t1 z n only necess>y1 b z real4 ,p]haps ! diff]5ce is ( no importance1 b ! hi/orical me?od seems c]ta9ly ! m accurate1 & ! m satisfactory f a purely sci5tific po9t ( view4 ,9 all su* evolution>y rese>*es language has always be5 ! mo/ useful in/rum5t1 & ! /udy ( ! sci5ce ( language may truly be said to h be5 ! fir/ sci5ce :i* 0 treat$ accord+ to evolution>y or hi/orical pr9ciples4 ,"h1 too1 no d\bt1 int]m$iate l9ks :i* mu/ h exi/$1 are sometimes lo/ beyond recov]y1 & :5 we arrive at ! v roots ( language1 we feel t !re may h be5 :ole aeons be=e t radical p]iod4 ,"h sci5ce mu/ recognize h] inevitable horizons1 b "h aga9 no surviv+ lit]>y monum5t c\ld c>ry u s f> z ! ,v$a4 ,h5ce its supreme importance = ,aryan philology--= ! philology ( ! mo/ important languages ( hi/orical mank9d4 ,o!r languages1 :e!r ,babylonian or ,accadian1 :e!r ,hott5tot or ,maori1 may be1 = all we "k1 mu* m anci5t or mu* m primitive2 b1 z sci5tific explor]s1 we c only speak ( :at we "k1 & we mu/ r5\nce all conjectures t g beyond facts4 ,9 all ^! rese>*es no "o took a liveli] int]e/ & enc\rag$ me m ?an ,buns54 ,:5 "s ( my translations ( ! ,v$ic hymns seem$ fairly satisfactory1 ,i us$ to take !m to him1 & he 0 always delight$ at see+ a little m ( t anci5t ,aryan torso1 ?\gh at ! "t he 0 m specially int]e/$ 9 ,egyptian *ronology & ar*aeology4 ,(t5 :5 ,i 0 alone ) him did we discuss ! *ronological & psy*ological dates ( ,egyptian & ,aryan antiquity4 ,k9d-he>t$ z he 01 ,buns5 c\ld get v excit$1 nay1 q viol5t 9 argu+1 & ?\gh ^! fits soon pass$ (f1 yet x made discussions betwe5 ,8 ,excell5cy ! ,prussian ,m9i/] & a "y ,g]man s*ol> some:at difficult4 ,at t "t mu* less 0 kn[n ( ! e>lie/ ,egyptian *ronology ?an is n[4 ,b ,i 0 nev] mu* impress$ by m]e dates4 ,if a k+ 0 suppos$ to h liv$ #e1jjj ye>s be=e our era1 8,:at is t to u80 ,i us$ to say1 8,he sits on 8 ?rone 9 vacuo1 & !re is no?+ to fix him by1 no?+ contempor>y :i* alone gives int]e/ to hi/ory4 ,9 ,india we h no dates2 b :atev] dates & names ( k+s & acc\nts ( battles ! ,egyptian inscriptions may give u1 z a book !re is no?+ s old 9 ,egypt z ! ,v$a 9 ,india4 ,besides1 we h 9 ! ,v$a ?\ghts2 & 9 ! *ronology ( ?\ght ! ,v$a seems to me old] ?an ev5 ! ,book ( ! ,dead40 ,z to ! actual date ( ! ,v$a1 ,i readily grant$ t *ronologically x 0 n s old z ! pyramids1 b suppos+ x _h be51 w\ld t 9 any way h increas$ its value = our /udies8 ,if we 7 to place x at #ejjj ,b4 ,c41 ,i d\bt :e!r anybody c\ld refute su* a date1 :ile if we g back beyond ! ,v$a1 & come to measure ! "t requir$ = ! =mation ( ,sanskrit & ( ! ,proto-,aryan language ,i d\bt v mu* :e!r ev5 #e1jjj ye>s w\ld suffice = t4 ,!re is an unfa?omable dep? 9 language1 lay] foll[+ aft] lay]1 long be=e we arrive at roots1 & :at a "t & :at an ef=t mu/ h be5 requir$ = _! elaboration1 & = ! elaboration ( ! ideas express$ 9 !m4 ,our battles wax$ sometimes v fi]ce1 b we g5]ally end$ by arriv+ at an und]/&+4 ,z a "y man1 ,buns5 _h cle>ly p]ceiv$ ! importance ( ! ,v$a = an hi/orical /udy ( mank9d & ! gr[? ( ! human m9d1 b he 0 n disc\rag$ :5 he saw t x gave u less ?an _h be5 expect$4 8,x is a =tress10 he us$ to say1 8t mu/ be besieg$ & tak51 x _c be left 9 our re>40 ,b he little knew h[ mu* "t x w\ld take to approa* x1 to surr\nd x1 & at la/ to take x4 ,x has n be5 surr5d]$ ev5 n[1 & w n be 9 my "t4 ,x is true !re are sev]al translations ( ! :ole ( ! ,rig-v$a1 & _! au?ors des]ve ! highe/ cr$it = :at !y h done4 ,p h wond]$ :y ,i h n giv5 "o ( !m 9 my ,sacr$ ,books ( ! ,ea/4 ,i ?\ght x 0 m hone/ to give1 9 co-op]ation ) ,old5burg1 specim5s only 9 vols4 xxxii & xlvi ( t s]ies1 & let x be se5 9 ! notes h[ mu* unc]ta9ty !re /ill is1 & h[ mu* m ( h>d "w is requir$1 be=e we c call ourselves ma/]s ( ! old ,v$ic =tress4 ,buns5's int]e/ 9 my "w1 h[ev]1 took a m practical turn ?an m]e enc\ragem5t4 ,x 0 no good enc\rag+ me to copy & collate ,sanskrit ,,mss4 if !y 7 n to be publi%$4 ,he saw t ! ,ea/ ,india ,company 7 ! prop] body to und]take t "w4 ,buns5's "n 0 a p[] 9 ,engl&1 & 8 patronage 0 ! v be/ introduction t ,i c\ld h _h4 ,x 0 no easy task to p]suade ! ,bo>d ( ,directors--all /rictly practical & comm]cial m5--to au?orize s consid]able an exp5diture1 m]ely to edit & pr9t an old book t none ( !m c\ld und]/&1 & _m ( !m _h p]haps nev] ev5 he>d (4 ,buns5 po9t$ out :at a disgrace x w\ld be to !m1 if "s o!r c\ntry ?an ,engl& publi%$ ?is edition ( ! ,sacr$ ,books ( ! ,brahmans4 ,pr(essor ,wilson1 ,libr>ian ( ! ,company1 also gave my project 8 support1 & at la/1 n q a ye> aft] my arrival 9 ,engl&1 aft] a long /ruggle & _m fe>s ( failure1 x 0 settl$ t ! ,ea/ ,india ,company 7 to be> ! co/ ( pr9t+ ! ,v$a1 & 7 mean:ile to enable me to /ay 9 ,london1 & prep>e my "w = press4 ,i _h already be5 work+ five ye>s copy+ & collat+1 & my fir/ volume ( ! ,rig-v$a 0 progress+1 b x 0 only :5 all 0 settl$ t ,i realiz$ h[ mu* !re 0 /ill to d1 & t ,i %\ld h v h>d "w inde$ be=e ! pr9t+ c\ld beg94 ,i mu/ ent] into "s details to %[ ! real difficulties ,i _h to face4 ,i felt conv9c$ t ! fir/ ?+ to d 0 to publi% a correct text ( ! ,rig-v$a4 ,t 0 n s difficult1 ?\gh x br\ght me ! greate/ kudos4 ,! ,,mss4 7 v correct1 & ! text c\ld easily be re/or$ by comp>+ ! ,pada & ,sanhit texts1 i4 e4 ! text 9 :i* e ^w 0 sep>at$1 & ! text 9 :i* ! words 7 unit$ accord+ to ! rules ( ,s&hi4 ,anybody might h done t1 yet ?is1 z ,i said1 0 ! "p ( my "w = :i* ,i h receiv$ ! greate/ praise4 ,:5 my edition ( ! ,rig-v$a conta9+ text & comm5t>y 0 ne>ly f9i%$1 ano!r s*ol>1 :o _h assi/$ me 9 my "w1 & :o _h always _h ! use ( my ,,mss41 my ,indices1 9 fact ( ! :ole ( my app>atus criticus1 publi%$ a transcript ( ! text 9 ,lat9 lett]s1 & ?us anticipat$ "p ( ! la/ volume ( my edition4 ,8 fri5ds1 :o 7 p]haps n m9e1 seem$ delight$ to call him ! fir/ editor ( ! ,rig-v$a1 ?\gh !y ceas$ to d s :5 !y discov]$ mispr9ts or mi/akes ( my own edition repeat$ 9 84 ,he himself 0 f> above su* tactics4 ,he knew1 & !y knew p]fectly well t1 :atev] ! vulgus pr(anum may ?9k1 my real "w 0 ! critical edition ( ,syana's comm5t>y on ! ,rig-v$a4 ,i _h det]m9$ t ?is also %\ld be edit$ accord+ to ! /ricte/ rules ( criticism4 ,i knew :at an am\nt ( lab\r t w\ld involve1 b ,i refus$ to yield to ! pressure ( my colleagues to proce$ m quickly b less critically4 ,syana quotes a numb] ( ,sanskrit works :i*1 at ! "t :5 ,i began my edition1 _h n yet be5 edit$4 ,su* 7 ! ,nirukta1 ! gloss>y ( ! ,rig-v$a2 ! ,ait>eya-brhmana1 a v old explanation ( ! ,v$ic sacrifice2 ! svalyana ,stras1 on ! c]emonial2 & sundry works ( ! same "*4 ,syana g5]ally alludes v briefly only to ^! works & presupposes t !y are kn[n to u1 s t a %ort ref]5ce w\ld suffice = 8 purposes4 ,to f9d su* ref]5ces & to und]/& !m requir$1 h[ev]1 n only t ,i %\ld copy ^! works1 :i* ,i did1 b t ,i %\ld make indices & ?us be able to f9d ! place ( ! passages to :i* he allud$4 ,?is ,i did also1 b ov] & ov] aga9 0 ,i /opp$ by "s %ort enigmatical ref]5ce to ,pn9i's gramm> or ,yaska's gloss>y1 :i* ,i c\ld n id5tify4 ,all ^! ref]5ces are n[ add$ to my edition1 & ^? :o w look !m up 9 ! orig9als1 w see :at k9d ( "w x 0 :i* ,i _h to d be=e a s+le l9e ( my edition c\ld be pr9t$4 ,h[ (t5 0 ,i 9 p]fect despair1 because !re 0 "s allusion 9 ,syana :i* ,i c\ld n make out1 & :i* no o!r ,sanskrit s*ol>1 n ev5 ,burn\f or ,wilson1 c\ld help me to cle> up4 ,x (t5 took me :ole days1 nay1 weeks1 be=e ,i saw light4 ,a good deal ( ! comm5t>y 0 easy en\gh4 ,x 0 l m>*+ on ! high road1 :5 sudd5ly !re rises a =tress t has to be tak5 be=e any fur!r advance is to be ?\ght (4 ,9 ! purely me*anical "p o!r m5 c\ld & did help me4 ,b :5ev] any real difficulty arose1 ,i _h to face x by myself1 ?\gh aft] a "t ,i gladly ackn[l$g$ t "h1 too1 _! advice 0 (t5 valuable to me4 ,9 fact ,i f\nd1 & all my assi/ants seem$ to h f\nd out ! same1 t if !y 7 useful to me1 ! "w !y did = me 0 useful to !m1 & ,i am pr\d to say t ne>ly all ( !m h aft]w>ds ris5 to great prom95ce 9 ,sanskrit s*ol>%ip4 ,f "t to "t ,i also work$ at int]pret+ & translat+ "s ( ! ,v$ic hymns1 ?\gh ,i _h always hop$ t ?is "p ( ! "w w\ld be tak5 up by o!r s*ol>s4 ,buns5 0 also my social sponsor 9 ,london1 & my fir/ peeps into ,engli% society 7 at ! ,prussian ,legation4 ,he (t5 invit$ me to 8 breakfa/ & d9n] p>ties1 & :5 ,i saw = ! fir/ "t ! magnific5t rooms cr[d$ ) m9i/]s1 & dukes1 & bi%ops1 & ) ladies 9 _! gr&e/ dresses1 ,i 0 z 9 a dream1 & felt z if ,i _h be5 lift$ into ano!r _w4 ,m5 7 po9t$ out to me su* z ,sir ,rob]t ,peel1 ! ,duke ( ,well+ton1 ,van d] ,wey]1 ! ,belgian ,m9i/]1 ,?irlwall1 ,bi%op ( ,/4 ,david's & au?or ( ! ,hi/ory ( ,greece1 ,ar*deacon ,h>e1 ,fr$]ick ,maurice1 & _m m :om ,i did n "k !n1 ?\gh ,i came to "k sev]al ( !m aft]w>ds4 ,anybody :o _h any?+ ( 8 own to produce 0 welcome 9 ,buns5's h\se1 & among ! m5 :om ,i rememb] meet+ at 8 breakfa/ p>ties1 7 ,rawl9son1 ,lay>d1 ,hodgson1 ,bir*1 & _m m4 ,^? breakfa/ p>ties 7 !n q a new in/itution to me1 & x is curi\s h[ entirely !y h gone out ( fa%ion1 ?\gh ,sir ,h>ry ,+lis1 ,memb] = ,ox=d1 ,glad/one1 ,memb] = ,ox=d1 ,monckton ,milnes 7aft]w>ds ,"l ,h\ghton71 kept !m up to ! la/1 :ile 9 ,ox=d !y surviv$ p]haps long] ?an any:]e else4 ,!y _h "o great advantage1 p came to !m q fre% 9 ! morn+2 b !y broke too mu* into ! day1 p>ticul>ly :51 z at ,ox=d1 !y end$ ) be]1 *ampagne1 & cig>s1 z 0 sometimes ! case 9 und]graduates' rooms4 ,h[ ,i 0 able to swim 9 t new /ream1 ,i c h>dly und]/& ev5 n[4 ,i _h be5 q unaccu/om$ to ?is k9d ( society1 & 0 ignorant ( its simple/ rules4 ,buns51 h[ev]1 0 nev] put out by my gau*]ies1 b gave me fri5dly h9ts 9 feel+ my way ?r\gh :at seem$ to me a p]fect labyr9?4 ,he told me t ,i _h (f5d$ p by n return+ _! calls1 or n leav+ a c>d aft] hav+ d9$ ) !m1 pay+ ! s-call$ dige/ion-visit to !m4 ,h[ %\ld ,i "k8 ,nobody _h ev] told me1 & ,i ?\ght x obtrusive to call4 ,nor did ,i "k t 9 ,engl& to t\* fi% ) a knife1 or to help y\rself to potatoes ) a =k1 0 z fatal z to drop or put 9 an h4 ,nor did ,i ev] und]/& :y to cut crisp pa/ry on y\r plate ) a knife 0 worse mann]s ?an to divide x ) a =k1 (t5 scatt]+ x ov] y\r plate & possibly ov] ! table-clo?4 ,i mu/ confess also t fi%-knives always seem$ to me m civiliz$ ?an =ks 9 divid+ fi%1 b fi%-knives did n exi/ :5 ,i fir/ came to ,engl&4 ,! really int]e/+ side ( all ?is is to wat* h[ cu/oms *ange--come 9 & g out--& by :at a sl[ & imp]ceptible process !y are disc>d$4 ,let u hope x is by ! survival ( ! fitte/4 ,:5 ,i fir/ w5t to ,ox=d ev]ybody took w9e ) 8 neighb\rs1 n[ x is only at su* cons]vative colleges z my own--,all ,s\ls--t ! old cu/om /ill survives4 ,b !n we h n ev5 giv5 up wax c&les yet1 & we look ^u gas z a mo/ objectionable innovation4 ,ano!r great difficulty ,i _h 0 9 writ+ lett]s & address+ my fri5ds prop]ly z ,sir1 or ,mr4 ,smi?1 or ,smi?4 ,i 0 told t ! rule 0 v simple & t y address$ ev]ybody exactly z !y address$ y4 ,:at 0 ! consequ5ce8 ,:5 ,i receiv$ an invitation to d9e ) ! ,bi%op ( ,ox=d :o address$ me z 8,my de> ,sir10 ,i wrote back 8,my de> ,sir10 & said t ,i %\ld be v happy4 ,h[ ,samuel ,wilb]=ce mu/ h *uckl$ :5 he read my epi/le4 ,b h[ is any /rang] to "k all ! intricacies ( social lit]ature1 p>ticul>ly if he is wrongly in=m$ by ! highe/ au?orities4 ,i mu/ confess t ev5 lat] 9 life ,i h (t5 be5 puzzl$ z to ! "r way ( address+ my fri5ds4 ,!re is no difficulty ab\t intimate fri5ds1 b z "o gr[s old] "o kn[s s _m p m or less intimately1 & accord+ to _! diff]5t *>act]s & /ations 9 life1 "o (t5 does n "k :e!r "o (f5ds by too great or too little famili>ity4 ,i 0 once writ+ to a v em95t man 9 ,london :o _h be5 exce$+ly fri5dly to me at ,ox=d1 & ,i address$ him z 8,my de> ,pr(essor ,h40 ,at ! end ( 8 answ] he wrote1 8,don't call me ,pr(essor40 ,all dep5ds on ! tone 9 :i* su* words are said4 ,i imag9$ t liv+ 9 fa%ionable society 9 ,london1 he did n l ! some:at s*ola/ic title ( ,pr(essor :i*1 9 ,london p>ticul>ly1 has always a by-ta/e ( dilut$ omnisci5ce & conceit4 ,i accord+ly address$ him 9 my next lett] z 8,my de> ,sir10 & ?is1 ,i am sorry to say1 produc$ q a coldness & /iffness1 z my fri5d evid5tly imag9$ t ,i decl9$ to be on m intimate t]ms ) him1 ! fact be+ t ?r\gh life ,i h always be5 "o ( 8 mo/ devot$ admir]s4 ,i did my be/ to con=m to all ! ,briti% in/itutions1 z well z ,i c\ld1 ?\gh 9 ! beg9n+ ,i mu/ no d\bt h made fe>ful blund]s1 & possibly giv5 (f5ce to ! truly insul> ,briton4 ,buns5 seem$ to delight 9 ask+ me :5ev] he _h ,pr9ces or o!r gr&ees to lun* or d9e ) him4 ,"o day he took me ) him to /ay at ,hur/monceux ) ,ar*deacon ,h>e1 & a delightful "t x 04 ,!re 7 books 9 e room1 on ! /aircase1 & 9 e corn] ( ! h\se1 & ! ,ar*deacon knew e "o ( !m1 & z soon z a book 0 m5tion$1 he w5t & fet*$ x4 ,he g5]ally knew ! v place at :i* ! passage t 0 be+ discuss$1 occurr$1 & excell$ ev5 ! fam\s dog1 :i* at "o ( ^! lit]>y breakfa/ p>ties--,i believe 9 ,hallam's h\se--0 ord]$ on ! spur ( ! mom5t to fet* ! fif? volume ( ,gibbon's ,hi/ory1 & at once climb$ up ! ladd] & br\ght d[n f ! %elf ! v volume 9 :i* ! disput$ passage occurr$4 ,he _h be5 taught ?is "o trick ( fet*+ a c]ta9 volume f ! %elves ( ! libr>y1 & ! conv]sation 0 turn$ & turn$ till x 0 br\ght r\nd to a passage 9 t v volume4 ,! gue/s 71 no d\bt1 amaz$1 b z x 0 be=e ! days ( ,d>w9 & ,lubbock1 x l$ to no m ?an a good laugh4 ,i 0 surpris$ & delight$ at ! hone/y ) :i* ! ,ar*deacon admitt$ ! weak po9ts ( ! ,anglican sy/em1 & ! dang]s :i* ?reat5$ n only ! ,*ur*1 b ! religion ( ,engl&4 ,! real dang]1 he evid5tly ?\ght1 came f ! cl]gy1 & _! hank]+ aft] ,rome4 8,!y h =gott5 _! hi/ory10 he said1 8& ! suff]+s :i* ! sway ( a ,roman prie/hood has inflict$ = c5turies on _! c\ntry40 ,i ?9k x 0 he :o told me ! /ory ( a "y ,romaniz+ curate1 :o decl>$ t he c\ld nev] see :at 0 ! use ( ! laity4 ,"o day :5 ,i call$ on ,buns5 ) my books1 & ,i frequ5tly call$ :5 ,i _h some?+ new to %[ him1 he said3 8,y mu/ come ) me to ,ox=d to ! meet+ ( ! ,briti% ,association40 ,?is 0 9 #ahdg4 ,( c\rse ,i did n "k :at sort ( ?+ ?is ,briti% ,association 01 b ,buns5 said he w\ld expla9 x all to me1 only ,i mu/ at once sit d[n & write a pap]4 ,he1 ,buns51 0 to read a pap] on ! 8,results ( ! rec5t ,egyptian ,rese>*es 9 ref]5ce to ,asiatic & ,african ,e?nology & ! ,classification ( ,languages10 & he want$ ,dr4 ,k>l ,mey] & myself to support him1 ! =m] ) a pap] on ,celtic ,philology1 & myself ) a pap] on ! ,aryan & ,aborig9al ,languages ( ,india4 ,i assur$ him t ?is 0 q beyond me4 ,i _h h>dly be5 a ye> 9 ,engl&1 & ev5 if ,i c\ld write1 ,i knew b too well t ,i c\ld n read a pap] be=e a l>ge audi5ce4 ,h[ev]1 ,buns5 w\ld take no refusal4 8,we mu/ %[ !m :at we h done 9 ,g]many = ! hi/ory & philosophy ( language10 he said1 8& ,i reckon on y\r help40 ,!re 0 no escape1 & to ,ox=d ,i _h to g4 ,i 0 fe>fully n]v\s1 =1 z ,pr9ce ,alb]t 0 to be pres5t1 ev] s _m di/+ui%$ p _h flock$ to ! meet+1 & likewise "s n v fri5dly e?nologi/s1 su* z ,dr4 ,la?am1 & ,mr4 ,craw=d1 kn[n by ! "n ( ! ,objector ,g5]al4 ,our section 0 presid$ ov] by ! fam\s ,dr4 ,pri*>d1 ! au?or ( t classical "w1 ,rese>*es into ! ,physical ,hi/ory ( ,mank9d1 9 five volumes1 & x 0 he :o protect$ me mo/ *ivalr\sly aga9/ ! some:at frivol\s objections ( c]ta9 memb]s1 :o 7 n ov] fri5dly t[>ds ,pr9ce ,alb]t1 ,*evali] ,buns51 & all t 0 call$ ,g]man 9 s*ol>%ip4 ,all1 h[ev]1 w5t (f well4 ,buns5's spee* 0 mo/ successful1 & x is a pity t x %\ld be buri$ 9 ! ,transactions ( ! ,briti% ,association = #ahdg4 ,at t "t x 0 consid]$ a great hon\r t 8 spee* %\ld appe> !re 9 ext5so4 ,:5 ,buns5 decl>$ t he w\ld n give x1 unless ,dr4 ,mey]'s pap] & my own 7 publi%$ 9 ! ,transactions at ! same "t1 !re 0 r5ew$ opposition4 ,i 0 s little pr\d ( my own essay1 t ,i %\ld mu* r h kept x back = fur!r improvem5t1 b pr9t$ x 0 9 ! ,transactions1 & mu* canvass$ at ! "t 9 diff]5t j\rnals4 ,i h always be5 d\btful ab\t ! advantages ( ^! public meet+s1 s f> z any sci5tific results are conc]n$4 ,ev]ybody :o pays a gu9ea may become a memb] & make himself he>d1 :e!r he kn[s any?+ on ! subject or n4 ,! mo/ ignorant m5 (t5 occupy ! l>ge/ am\nt ( "t4 ,"s p look ^u ^! congresses simply z a means ( adv]tis+ !mselves1 & ,i h actually se5 quot$ among a man's titles to fame ! fact t he _h be5 a memb] ( c]ta9 congresses4 ,ano!r drawback is t no "o1 n ev5 ! be/ ( s*ol>s1 is q himself be=e a mix$ audi5ce4 ,:]eas 9 a private conv]sation a man is glad to receive any new in=mation1 no "o likes to be told 9 public t he ought to h kn[n ?is or t1 or t e s*oolboy kn[s x4 ,!n foll[s g5]ally a squabble1 & ! be/ plead] is sure to h ! laught] on 8 side1 h[ev] ignorant he may be ( ! subject t is be+ discuss$4 ,b ,dr4 ,pri*>d 0 an excell5t presid5t & mod]ator1 & ?\gh he _h unruly spirits to deal )1 he succe$$ 9 keep+ up a c]ta9 decorum among !m4 ,dr4 ,pri*>d's au?ority /ood v high1 & ju/ly s1 & 8 ,rese>*es into ! ,physical ,hi/ory ( ,mank9d /ill rema9 unp>allel$ 9 e?nology4 ,8 c>eful weigh+ ( facts & difficulties w5t out ( fa%ion :5 ! !ory ( evolution became popul>1 & e *ange f a flea to an elephant 0 expla9$ by imp]ceptible degrees4 ,he dealt *iefly ) :at 0 p]ceptible1 ) well-obs]v$ facts1 & _m ( ! facts :i* he m>%all$ s well1 require ev5 n[1 9 ^! po/-,d>w9ian days ,i %\ld v5ture to say1 r5ew$ consid]ation4 ,l all great m51 he 0 wond]fully humble1 & all[$ me to contradict him1 :o ought to h be5 pr\d to li/5 & to le>n f him4 ,b ?\gh ,i _c say t ! result ( ^! meet+s & wrangl+s 0 v great or valuable1 ,i sp5t a few mo/ delightful days at ,ox=d1 & ,i c\ld n imag9e a m p]fect /ate ( exi/5ce ?an to be an und]graduate1 a fell[1 or a pr(essor !re4 ,a k9d ( sil5t love sprang up 9 my he>t1 ?\gh ,i h>dly confess$ x to myself1 mu* less to ! object ( my affections4 ,i knew ,i _h to g back to be a ,univ]sity tutor or ev5 a ma/] 9 a public s*ool 9 ,g]many1 & t 0 a h>d life comp>$ ) ! fre$om ( ,ox=d4 ,to be indep5d5t & free to "w z ,i lik$1 t 0 ev]y?+ to me1 b h[ ,i ev] succe$$ 9 realiz+ my ideal1 ,i h>dly "k4 ,at t "t ,i saw no?+ b a life ( drudg]y & sev]e /ruggle be=e me1 b ,i did n all[ myself to dwell on x2 ,i simply work$ on1 )\t look+ ei!r "r or left1 beh9d or be=e4 ,:ile at ,ox=d on ?is my fir/ fly+ visit1 ,i _h a room 9 ,univ]sity ,college1 ! v college 9 :i* my son 0 h]eaft] to be an und]graduate4 ,my ho/ 0 ,dr4 ,plumptre1 ! ,ma/] ( ! ,college1 a tall1 /iff1 & to my m9d1 v impos+ p]son4 ,he 0 !n ,vice-,*ancellor1 & ,i believe ,i nev] saw him except 9 8 cap & g[n & ) two b$els walk+ be=e him1 ! "o ) a gold1 ! o!r ) a silv] pok] 9 8 h&s4 ,we h no ,esquire b$els any long]6 ,all ! pr(essors1 too1 & ev5 ! und]graduates1 dress$ 9 _! m$iaeval academic co/ume1 look$ to me v gr&1 & s diff]5t f ! ,g]man /ud5ts at ,leipzig or /ill m at ,j5a1 walk+ ab\t ! /reets 9 p9k cotton tr\s]s & dress+-g[ns4 ,x seem$ to me q a diff]5t _w1 & ,i made new discov]ies e day4 ,be+ ) ,buns5 ,i 0 invit$ to all ! (ficial d9n]s dur+ ! meet+ ( ! ,briti% ,association1 & "h1 too1 ! ,vice-,*ancellor act$ 8 "p ) becom+ dignity4 ,he nev] unb5t2 he nev] indulg$ 9 a joke or jo9$ 9 ! laught] ( 8 neighb\rs4 ,:5 ,i rem>k$ on 8 immovable features1 ,i 0 told t he slept 9 />*$ %eets--& ,i believ$ x4 ,at "o ( ^! d9n]s1 ,pr9ce ,l\is ,luci5 ,bonap>te caus$ a titt] dur+ a spee* ab\t ! fre$om :i* p enjoy$ 9 ,engl&4 8,9 ,france10 he said1 8) all ! declamations ab\t ,lib]t1 galit1 ,frat]nit1 !re is v little fre$om1 &1 ) all ! trees ( lib]t :i* are be+ plant$ along ! b\lev>ds1 !re is v little ( real lib]ty to be f\nd !re60 8,b y 9 ,engl&10 he f9i%$1 8y h y\r old tree ( lib]ty1 :i* is always fl[]+ & %[]+ peas on ! :ole _w40 ,he want$ to say peace4 ,we tri$ to look solemn b fail$1 & a suppress$ laugh w5t r\nd till x rea*$ ! ,vice-,*ancellor4 ,!re x /opp$4 ,he 0 f> too well br$ to all[ a s+le muscle ( 8 face to move4 8,he ?r[s a cold blanket on ev]y?+10 my neighb\r said2 & my k ( ,engli% 0 /ill s imp]fect t ,i accept$ _m ( ^! metaphorical rem>ks 9 _! lit]al s5se1 & became m & m puzzl$ ab\t my ho/4 ,x 0 evid5tly a pleasure to my fri5ds to see h[ easily ,i 0 tak5 94 ,on ! walls ( ! h\ses at ,ox=d ,i saw ! lett]s ,f4 ,p4 ab\t t5 feet f ! gr\nd4 ,( c\rse x 0 meant = ,fire ,plug1 b ,i 0 told t x m>k$ ! height ( ! ,vice-,*ancellor1 ^: "n 0 ,fr$]ick ,plumptre4 ,my visit to ,ox=d 0 ov] all too soon1 & ,i return$ to ,london to toil away at my ,sanskrit ,,mss4 9 ! little room t _h be5 assign$ to me 9 ! ,old ,ea/ ,india ,h\se 9 ,lead5hall ,/reet4 ,t build+1 too1 9 :i* ! re9s ( ! mighty ,empire ( ,india 7 held1 mo/ly by ! h&s ( m]*ants1 has vani%$1 & ! place ( x kn[e? x no m4 ,h[ev]1 ,i ?\ght little ( ,india1 ,i only ?\ght ( ! libr>y at ! ,ea/ ,india ,h\se1 a real ,eldorado = an eag] ,sanskrit /ud5t1 :o _h nev] se5 su* treasures be=e4 ,i saw little else !re1 ,i only rememb] see+ ,tippoo ,sahib's tig] :i* held an ,engli% soldi] 9 8 claws1 & 0 regul>ly w\nd up = ! b5efit ( visitors1 & !n utt]$ a l\d squeak1 en\gh to di/urb ev5 ! mo/ absorb$ ( /ud5ts4 ,i felt q daz$ by all ! books & manuscripts plac$ at my disposal1 & revell$ 9 !m e day till x became d>k1 & ,i _h to walk home ?r\gh ,ludgate ,hill1 ,*eapside1 & ! ,/r&1 g5]ally c>ry+ ev] s _m books & pap]s "u my arms4 ,i knew nobody 9 ! city1 & no "o knew me2 & :at did ,i c>e = ! _w1 z long z ,i _h my belov$ manuscripts8 ,9 ,m>*1 #ahdh1 ,i _h to g ov] to ,p>is to f9i% up "s "w !re1 & j came 9 = ! revolution4 ,f my w9d[s ,i _h a f9e view ( all t 0 go+ on4 ,i well rememb] ! p&emonium 9 ! /reets1 ! aspect ( ! savage mob1 ! wanton fir+ ( %ots at quiet spectators1 ! hoi/+ ( ,l\is ,philippe's nanke5 tr\s]s on ! flag-/aff ( ! ,tuil]ies4 ,:5 bullets began to come ?r\gh my w9d[s1 ,i ?\ght x "t to be (f :ile x 0 /ill possible4 ,!n came ! "q h[ to get my box full ( preci\s manuscripts1 c41 belong+ to ! ,ea/ ,india ,company1 to ! tra94 ,! only railway op5 0 ! l9e to ,havre1 :i* _h be5 brok5 up close to ! /ation1 b fur!r on 0 intact1 & 9 ord] to get !re we _h to climb ?ree b>ricades4 ,i (f]$ my conci]ge five francs to c>ry my box1 b 8 wife w\ld n he> ( 8 risk+ 8 life 9 ! /reets2 t5 francs--! same result2 b at ! sight ( a l\is d'or %e *ang$ h] m9d1 & ) an 8,allez1 mon ami1 allez t\j\rs10 dispat*$ h] husb& on 8 p]il\s exp$ition4 ,arriv$ 9 ,london ,i w5t /raight to ! ,prussian ,legation1 & 0 ! fir/ to give ,buns5 ! news ( ,l\is ,philippe's flight f ,p>is4 ,buns5 took me (f to see ,"l ,palm]/on1 & ,i 0 able to %[ him a bullet t ,i _h pick$ up 9 my room z evid5ce ( ! bloody sc5es t _h be5 enact$ 9 ,p>is4 ,s ev5 a poor s*ol> _h to play 8 small "p 9 ! ev5ts t g to make up hi/ory4 ,,*apt] ,,vii ,,e>ly ,,days ,,at ,,ox=d ,x _h be5 settl$ t my edition ( ! ,rig-v$a %\ld be pr9t$ at ! ,ox=d ,univ]sity ,press1 & ,i f\nd t ,i _h (t5 to g !re to sup]9t5d ! pr9t+4 ,n t ! pr9t]s requir$ mu* sup]vision1 z ,i mu/ say t ! pr9t+ at ! ,univ]sity ,press 01 & is1 excell5t--f> bett] ?an any?+ ,i _h kn[n 9 ,g]many4 ,9 provid+ copy = a "w ( six volumes1 ea* ( ab\t #ajjj pages1 x 0 b natural t lapsus calami %\ld occur f "t to "t4 ,:at surpris$ me 0 t sev]al ( ^! 7 correct$ 9 ! pro(-%eets s5t to me4 ,at la/ ,i ask$ :e!r !re 0 any ,sanskrit s*ol> at ,ox=d :o revis$ my pro(-%eets be=e !y 7 return$4 ,i 0 told !re 0 n1 b t ! qu]ies 7 made by ! pr9t] himself4 ,t pr9t] 0 an extraord9>y man4 ,8 "r arm 0 slightly p>alys$1 & he _h !re=e be5 put on difficult sl[ "w1 su* z ,sanskrit4 ,!re are m ?an #cjj types :i* a pr9t] mu/ "k 9 compos+ ,sanskrit4 ,_m ( ! lett]s 9 ,sanskrit are incompatible1 i4 e4 !y _c foll[ ea* o!r1 or if !y d1 !y h to be modifi$4 ,e d1 = in/ance1 if foll[$ by a t1 is *ang$ to t2 e dh loses its aspiration1 becomes likewise t1 or *anges ! next t into dh4 ,?us f budh ta1 we h ,buddha1 i4 e4 awak5$4 ,9 writ+ ,i _h sometimes neglect$ ^! modifications1 b 9 ! pro(-%eets ^! cases 7 always ei!r qu]i$ or correct$4 ,:5 ,i ask$ ! pr9t]1 :o did n ( c\rse "k a ^w ( ,sanskrit1 h[ he came to make ^! corrections1 he said3 8,well1 sir1 my arm gets into a regul> sw+ f "o comp>tm5t ( types to ano!r1 & !re are c]ta9 movem5ts t nev] occur4 ,s if ,i sudd5ly h to take up types :i* entail a new movem5t1 ,i feel x1 & ,i put a qu]y40 ,an ,engli% pr9t] might possibly be />tl$ 9 ! same way if 9 ,engli% he _h to take up an s imm$iately foll[+ an h4 ,b x 0 c]ta9ly extraord9>y t an unusual movem5t ( ! muscles ( ! p>alys$ arm %\ld h l$ to ! discov]y ( a mi/ake 9 writ+ ,sanskrit4 ,9 spite ( ! extreme accuracy ( my pr9t]1 h[ev]1 ,i saw1 t aft] all x w\ld be bett] = myself1 & = ! ,v$a1 if ,i 7 on ! spot1 & ,i decid$ to migrate f ,london to ,ox=d4 ,my fir/ visit _h fill$ me ) en?usiasm = ! beautiful old t[n1 :i* ,i reg>d$ z an ideal home = a /ud5t4 ,besides1 ,i f\nd t ,i 0 gett+ too gay 9 ,london1 & 9 ord] to be able to devote my ev5+s to society1 ,i _h to get up & beg9 "w soon aft] five4 ,may1 !re=e1 saw me e/abli%$ = ! fir/ "t 9 ,ox=d1 9 a small room 9 ,walton ,/reet4 ,! mov+ ( my books & pap]s f ,london did n take long4 ,at t "t my libr>y c\ld /ill be accommodat$ 9 my portmanteau1 x _h n yet ris5 to #ab1jjj volumes1 ?reat5+ to drive me out ( my h\se4 ,a happy "t x 0 :5 ,i possess$ no books :i* ,i _h n read1 & no "o s5t books to me :i* ,i did n want1 & yet _h to f9d a place = 9 my rooms1 & to ?ank ! au?or = 8 k9dness4 ,i at once f\nd t my "w w5t on m rapidly at ,ox=d ?an 9 ,london1 ?\gh if ,i _h expect$ to escape f all hospitality ,i c]ta9ly 0 n all[$ to d t4 ,accu/om$ z ,i 0 to ! ,sp>tan diet ( a ,g]man convictorium1 or a d9n] at ! ,palais ,royal deux francs1 ! d9n]s to :i* ,i 0 invit$ by "s ( ! ,fell[s 9 ,hall1 or 9 ,common ,room1 surpris$ me n a little4 ,! old plate1 ! old furniture1 & ! :ole /yle ( liv+1 impress$ me deeply1 p>ticul>ly ! aft]-d9n] railway1 an +5i\s inv5tion = light5+ ! tr\ble ( ! gue/s :o took w9e 9 ,common ,room4 ,!re 0 a small railway fix$ be=e ! fireplace1 & on x a wagon conta9+ ! bottles w5t backw>ds & =w>ds1 halt+ be=e e gue/ till he _h help$ himself4 ,t railway1 ,i am afraid1 is gone n[2 & :at is m s]i\s1 ! pleasant1 *atty ev5+s sp5t 9 ,common ,room are likewise a ?+ ( ! pa/4 ,m>ri$ ,fell[s1 if !y d9e 9 ,hall1 return home aft] d9n]1 & junior ,fell[s g to _! books or pupils4 ,9 my e>ly ,ox=d days1 a m>ri$ ,fell[ w\ld h s\nd$ l a solecism4 ,! /ory goes t m>ri$ ,fell[s 7 n entirely unkn[n1 & t y c\ld hold ev5 a fell[%ip1 if y c\ld hold y\r tongue4 ,"y p1 h[ev]1 :o did n possess t gift ( sil5ce1 _h (t5 to wait till !y 7 fifty1 be=e a college liv+ fell vacant1 & ! qu9quag5>ian ,fell[ became a "y husb& & a "y vic>4 ,:at impress$ me1 h[ev]1 ev5 m ?an ! great hospitality ( ,ox=d1 0 ! real fri5dl9ess %[n to an unkn[n ,g]man s*ol>4 ,aft] all1 ,i _h done v little z yet1 b ! k9d words :i* ,buns5 & ,dr4 ,pri*>d _h spok5 ab\t me at ! meet+ ( ! ,briti% ,association1 _h evid5tly produc$ an impression 9 my fav\r f> beyond :at ,i des]v$4 ,i mu/ h seem$ a v /range bird1 su* z _h nev] be=e built 8 ne/ at ,ox=d4 ,i 0 v "y1 b ,i look$ ev5 y\ng] ?an ,i 01 & my k ( ! mann]s ( society1 p>ticul>ly ( ,engli% society1 0 really nil4 ,few p knew :at ,i 0 work+ at4 ,"s _h a k9d ( vague impression t ,i _h discov]$ a v old religion1 old] ?an ! ,jewi% & ! ,*ri/ian1 :i* conta9$ ! key to _m ( ! my/]ies t _h puzzl$ ! anci5t1 nay1 ev5 ! mod]n _w4 ,frequ5tly1 :5 ,i 0 walk+ ?r\gh ! /reets ( ,ox=d1 ,i obs]v$ h[ p />$ at me1 & seem$ to :isp] "s in=mation ab\t me4 ,tradespeople did n always tru/ me1 ?\gh ,i nev] ow$ a p5ny to anybody2 :5 ,i want$ money ,i c\ld always make x by go+ on fa/] ) pr9t+ ! ,rig-v$a1 = :i* ,i receiv$ f\r p\nds a %eet4 ,?is seem$ to me !n a l>ge sum1 ?\gh _m a %eet took me at fir/ m ?an a week to get ready1 copy1 collate1 und]/&1 & f9ally pr9t4 ,if ,i 0 int]e/$ 9 any o!r subject1 my ex*equ] suff]$ accord+ly--b ,i c\ld always retrieve my losses by sitt+ up late at night4 ,poor z ,i 01 ,i nev] _h any c>es ab\t money1 & :5 ,i once began to write 9 ,engli% = ,engli% j\rnals1 ,i _h really m ?an ,i want$4 ,my fir/ article 9 ! ,ed9burgh ,review appe>$ 9 ,octob]1 #ahea4 ,at t "t ! idea ( settl+ at ,ox=d1 ( rema9+ 9 ?is academic p>adise1 nev] ent]$ my head4 ,i 0 "h to pr9t my ,rig-v$a & "w at ! ,bodleian2 t ,i %\ld 9 a few ye>s be an ,m4,a4 ( ,*ri/ ,*ur*1 a ,fell[ ( ! mo/ exclusive ( colleges1 nay1 a m>ri$ ,fell[--a be+ n ev5 inv5t$ !n--& a pr(essor ( ! ,univ]sity1 nev] ent]$ into my wilde/ dreams4 ,i c\ld only admire1 & admire ) all my he>t4 ,ev]y?+ seem$ p]fect1 ! g>d5s1 ! walks 9 ! neighb\rhood1 ! colleges1 & mo/ ( all ! inhabitants ( ! colleges1 bo? ,fell[s & und]graduates4 ,my ideas 7 /ill s purely cont95tal t ,i c\ld n und]/& h[ ! ,univ]sity c\ld d su* a ?+ z incorporate a =eign s*ol>--c\ld1 9 fact1 gov]n itself )\t a ,m9i/] ( ,education to appo9t pr(essors1 )\t a ,royal ,commission] to look aft] ! und]graduates & _! moral & political s5tim5ts4 ,& "h at ,ox=d ,i 0 told t ! ,gov]nm5t did n "k ,ox=d1 nor ,ox=d ! ,gov]nm5t1 t ! only rul+ p[] consi/$ 9 ! ,/atutes ( ! ,univ]sity1 t pr(essors & tutors 7 p]fectly free s long z !y con=m$ to ^! /atutes1 & t c]ta9ly no m9i/] c\ld ev] appo9t or dismiss a pr(essor1 except ! ,regius pr(essors4 8,if we want a ?+ done10 my fri5ds us$ to expla9 to me1 8we d x ourselves1 z long z x does n run c\nt] to ! /atutes40 ,b ,ox=d *anges ) e g5]ation4 ,x is always gr[+ old1 b x is always gr[+ "y aga94 ,!re 0 an old ,ox=d f\r hundr$ ye>s ago1 & !re 0 an old ,ox=d fifty ye>s ago4 ,to a man :o is tak+ 8 ,m4,a4 degree1 ,ox=d1 z x 0 :5 he 0 a fre%man1 seems q a ?+ ( ! pa/4 ,by ! public at l>ge no place is suppos$ to be s cons]vative1 s un*ang+1 nay1 s /ubborn 9 resi/+ new ideas1 z ,ox=d2 & yet p :o knew x =ty or fifty ye>s ago1 l myself1 f9d x n[ s *ang$ t1 :5 !y look back !y c h>dly believe x is ! same place4 ,ev5 ar*itecturally ! /reets ( ! ,univ]sity h *ang$1 & "h n always = ! bett]4 ,ar*itects un=tunately object to m]e imitation ( ! old ,ox=d /yle ( build+2 !y want to produce some?+ entirely _! own1 :i* may be v good by itself1 b is n always 9 h>mony ) ! g5]al tone ( ! college build+s4 ,i /ill rememb] ! outcry aga9/ ! ,taylor ,in/itution1 ! only ,palladian build+ at ,ox=d1 & yet ev]ybody has n[ gr[n reconcil$ to x1 & ev5 ,rusk9 lectur$ 9 x1 :i* he w\ld n h done1 if he _h disapprov$ ( its ar*itecture4 ,he w\ld nev] lecture 9 ! ,indian ,in/itute1 & wrote me a lett] sadly reprov+ me = caus+ ,broad ,/reet to be defac$ by su* a build+1 :5 ,i _h _h absolutely no?+ to d ) x4 ,he 0 v l\d 9 8 condemnation ( o!r new build+s4 ,he abus$ ev5 ! ,new ,museum1 ?\gh he _h a great deal to d ) x himself4 ,he _h hop$ t x w\ld be ! ar*itecture ( ! future1 b he confess$ aft] a "t t he 0 n satisfi$ ) ! result4 ,9 8 days we /ill _h ! old ,magdal5 ,bridge1 ! ,bodleian unre/or$1 & no trams4 ,rusk9 0 s (f5d$ by ! new bridge1 by ! re/or$ ,bodleian1 & by ! tram-c>s1 t he w\ld g ev] s f> r\nd to avoid ^! eyesores1 :5 he _h to deliv] 8 lectures2 & t 0 by no means an easy pilgrimage4 ,!re 01 ( c\rse1 no use 9 argu+ ) him4 ,mo/ p l ! new ,magdal5 ,bridge because x agrees bett] ) ! wid? ( ,high ,/reet2 !y consid] ! ,bodleian well re/or$1 p>ticul>ly n[ t ! new /one is gradually ton+ d[n to ! col\r ( ! old walls1 & z to tram-c>s1 objectionable z !y are 9 _m respects1 !y c]ta9ly (f5d ! eye less ?an ! old dirty & rickety omnibuses4 ,! new build+s ( ,m]ton1 9 ! /yle ( a ,london police-/ation1 (f5d$ him deeply1 & ) m ju/ice1 p>ticul>ly z he _h to live next door to !m :5 he _h rooms at ,corpus4 ,^! new build+s c\ld n be help$ at ,ox=d4 ,! /one1 ) :i* mo/ ( ! old colleges 7 built1 0 tak5 f a qu>ry close to ,ox=d1 & began to peel (f & to crumble 9 a v curi\s mann]4 ,arti/s l ^! *equ]$ walls1 & by moonlight !y are c]ta9ly picturesque1 b ! colleges _h to ?9k ( :at 0 safe4 ,my own college1 ,all ,s\ls1 has ev] s _m p9nacles1 & we kept an ar*itect on purpose to wat* :i* ( !m 7 unsafe & _h to be re/or$ or replac$ by new ones4 ,e "o ( ^! p9nacles co/ u ab\t fifty p\nds1 & at e "o ( our meet+s we 7 told t s _m p9nacles _h be5 te/$1 & want$ repair+ or replac+4 ,_m ye>s ago1 :5 ,i 0 sp5d+ ! :ole ,long ,vacation at ,ox=d1 ,i c\ld wat* f my w9d[s a man :o 0 suppos$ to be te/+ ! /r5g? ( ^! p9nacles4 ,he 0 arm$ ) a l>ge cr[b>1 :i* he ran ) all 8 might aga9/ ! un=tunate p9nacle4 ,i d\bt :e!r ! walls ( any ,roman ca/ellum c\ld h resi/$ su* a ram4 ,i spoke to "s ( ! ,fell[s1 & :5 ! build] made 8 next report to u1 we r object$ to ! l>ge numb] ( invalids4 ,he 0 n to be sil5c$1 h[ev]1 s easily1 b told u ) a v grave c\nt5ance t he c\ld n take ! responsibility1 z a p9nacle might fall any day on our ,w>d5 :5 he w5t to *apel4 ,?is1 he ?\ght1 w\ld settle ! matt]4 ,b no1 x made no impression :atev] on ! junior ,fell[s1 & ! numb] ( annual cripples 0 c]ta9ly v mu* r$uc$ 9 consequ5ce4 ,x is true t ,ox=d has always lov$ :at is old bett] ?an :at is new1 & has resi/$ mo/ innovations to ! v la/4 ,a well-kn[n lib]al /atesman us$ to say t :5 any measure ( re=m 0 be=e ,p>liam5t1 he always rejoic$ to see an ,ox=d petition aga9/ x1 = t measure 0 sure to be c>ri$ v soon4 ,x %\ld n be =gott51 h[ev]1 t !re always has be5 a lib]al m9ority at ,ox=d4 ,x is /ill m5tion$ z some?+ q ant$iluvian1 t ,ox=d1 t is ! ,hebdomadal ,c\ncil1 petition$ aga9/ ! ,great ,we/]n ,railway invad+ its sacr$ prec9cts2 b x is equally true t n _m ye>s lat] x petition$ = a bran* l9e to keep ! ,univ]sity 9 t\* ) ! re/ ( ! _w4 ,_m ?+s1 ( c\rse1 h be5 *ang$1 & are *ang+ e ye> be=e our v eyes2 b :at c nev] be *ang$1 9 spite ( "s rec5t atrocities 9 brick & mort>1 is ! natural beauty ( its g>d5s1 & ! hi/orical "* ( its ar*itecture4 ,:e!r ,fri> ,bacon1 z f> back z ! ?irte5? c5tury1 admir$ ! colleges1 *apels1 & g>d5s ( ,ox=d1 we d n "k2 & ev5 if we did1 few ( !m c\ld h be5 ! same z ^? :i* we admire to-day4 ,we mu/ n =get t ,gre5e's ,hon\rable ,hi/ory ( ,fri> ,bacon does n give u a picture ( :at ,ox=d 0 :5 se5 by t fam\s philosoph]1 :o is sometimes claim$ z a ,fell[ ( ,bras5ose ,college1 probably long be=e t ,college exi/$2 b :at is said 9 t play 9 praise ( ! ,univ]sity1 may at lea/ be tak5 z a recollection ( :at ,gre5e saw himself1 :5 he took 8 degree z ,ba*elor ( ,arts 9 #aegh4 ,9 8 play ( ! ,hi/ory ( ,fri> ,bacon1 ,gre5e introduces ! ,emp]or ( ,g]many1 ,h5ry ,,ii1 #abab-ej1 z pay+ a visit to ,h5ry ,,iii ( ,engl&1 #abaf-gc1 & he puts into 8 m\? ! foll[+ l9es1 :i*1 ?\gh !y _c comp>e ) ,%elley's or ,mat ,arnold's1 are at all ev5ts ! e>lie/ te/imony to ! natural attractions ( ,ox=d4 ,anyh[1 ,%elley's & ,mat ,arnold's l9es are well kn[n & are always quot$1 s t ,i v5ture to quote ,gre5e's l9es1 n = ! sake ( _! beauty1 b simply because !y are probably kn[n to v few ( my read]s3 8,tru/ me1 ,plantag5et1 ^! ,ox=d s*ools ,are ri*ly seat$ ne> ! riv]-side3 ,! m\nta9s full ( fat & fall[ de]1 ,! battl+#aj pa/ures lade ) k9e & flocks1 ,! t[n gorge\s ) high built colleges1 ,& s*ol>s seemly 9 _! grave attire40 #aj ,w x be believ$ t ! battels 7bills7 9 ,college are connect$ ) ?is ^w8 ,! m\nta9s r\nd ,ox=d we mu/ accept z a bold poetical lic5ce1 :e!r !y 7 meant = ,head+ton ,hill or ,wy?am ,woods4 ,! ,g]man travell]1 ,h5tzn]1 :o describ$ ,ox=d 9 #aeih1 is m true to nature :5 he speaks ( ! wood$ hills t encompass ! pla9 9 :i* ,ox=d lies4 ,b :ile ! natural beauty ( ,ox=d has always be5 admir$ & prais$ by /rang]s1 ! doctors & pr(essors ( ! old ,univ]sity h n always f>$ s well at ! h&s ( ,engli% & =eign critics4 ,i %all n quote f ,giordano ,bruno1 :o visit$ ,engl& 9 #aehc-e1 & calls ,ox=d 8! wid[ ( true sci5ce#aa10 b ,milton surely _c be suspect$ ( any prejudice aga9/ ,ox=d4 ,yet he writes 9 #afef 9 a lett] to ,ri*>d ,jones3 8,!re is inde$ pl5ty ( am5ity & salubrity 9 ! place :5 y are !re4 ,!re are books en\gh = ! ne$s ( a ,univ]sity3 if only ! am5ity ( ! spot contribut$ s mu* to ! g5ius ( ! inhabitants z x does to pleasant liv+1 no?+ w\ld seem want+ to ! happ9ess ( ! place40 #aa ,op]e1 ed4 ,wagn]1 i4 p4 #agi4 ,^! ill-natur$ rem>ks ab\t ! ,ox=d ,dons seem to g on to ! v beg9n+ ( our c5tury4 ,! build+s & g>d5s are prais$1 b by way ( contra/1 x w\ld seem1 or f "s k9d ( jeal\sy1 _! inhabitants are always treat$ ) ridicule4 ,n long ago a book 0 publi%$1 ,memoirs ( a ,highl& ,lady4 ,?\gh publi%$ 9 #ahih1 x %\ld be rememb]$ t ! memoirs g back z f> z #ahji4 ,nor %\ld x be =gott5 t at t "t ! au?oress 0 h>dly m ?an ?irte5 ye>s ( age1 & c]ta9ly ( a v girli%1 n to say frivol\s1 disposition4 ,%e /ay$ "s "t ) ! !n ,ma/] ( ,univ]sity1 ,dr4 ,griffi?1 & = him1 x mu/ be said1 %e always %[s a c]ta9 respect4 ,b no "o else at ,ox=d is sp>$4 ,%e arriv$ !re at ! "t ( ,"l ,gr5ville's in/allation z ,*ancellor ( ! ,univ]sity4 ,?\gh s "y1 %e 0 tak5 to ! ,!atre1 & ?is is h] description ( :at %e saw & he>d3--8,x 0 a %ock to me2 ,i _h expect$ to be *>m$ ) a play1 in/ead ( be+ ne>ly set to sleep by disc\rses 9 ,lat9 f a pulpit4 ,!re 7 "s purple1 & "s gold1 "s robes & "s wigs1 a great cr[d1 & "s /ir at times1 :ile a deal ( humdrum speak+ & dumb %[ 0 foll[$ by ! noisy demon/rations ( ! /ud5ts1 z !y applaud$ or condemn$ ! hon\rs be/[$2 b 9 ! ma9 ,i tir$ ( ! heat & ! mob1 & ! worry ( ^! morn+s1 & s1 dep5d ^u x1 did poor ,"l ,gr5ville1 :o sat up 9 ! *air ( /ate among ! dignit>ies1 l ! ,gr& ,lama 9 8 temple gu>d$ by 8 prie/s40 ,"o ?+ only %e 0 delight$ )1 t 0 ! s++ ( ,catalani at "o ( ! conc]ts4 ,yet ev5 "h %e _c repress h] rem>k t %e sang 8,gott safe ! ,k+40 ,%e evid5tly 0 a flippant "y lady or *ild1 & ) h] si/]1 :o aft]w>ds jo9$ h] at ,ox=d1 seems to h f\nd h]self q a fi% out ( wat] 9 ! grave society ( ! ,univ]sity4 ,! room 9 ! ,ma/]'s ,lodge :i* appall$ h] mo/ & seems to h be5 us$ z a k9d ( s*oolroom1 0 ! ,libr>y1 full ( ,div9ity books1 b )\t curta9s1 c>pet1 or fireplace4 ,"h !y _h lessons 9 music1 draw+1 ari?metic1 hi/ory1 geography1 & ,fr5*4 8,& ! ,ma/]10 %e adds1 8op5$ to u :at _h be5 till !n a seal$ book1 ! ,new ,te/am5t1 s t ?is visit to ,ox=d prov$ really "o ( ! =tunate *ances ( my life40 ,?is speaks well = ! "y lady1 :o 9 lat] life seems to h occupi$ a mo/ hon\r$ & influ5tial position 9 ,scot* society4 ,b ,ox=d society evid5tly f\nd no fav\r 9 h] eyes4 ,h] uncle & aunt1 z %e tells u1 7 frequ5tly out at d9n] ) o!r ,heads ( ,h\ses1 = !re 01 ( c\rse1 no o!r society4 ,^! d9n]s seem to h be5 v sumptu\s1 ?\gh _! own dome/ic life 0 c]ta9ly v simple4 ,= breakfa/ !y _h tea1 & butt] on _! bread1 & at d9n] a small glass ( ale1 college home-brew$ ale4 8,h[ fat we got60 %e exclaims4 ,! ,ma/] seems to h be5 a man ( ref9$ ta/e1 fond ( draw+1 & :at 0 call$ pok]-pa9t+2 he 0 giv5 also to c>icatur+1 & writ+ ( squibs4 ,! two "y ladies 7 evid5tly fond ( 8 society1 b ( ! o!r ,ox=d society %e only m5tions ! ultra-,tory politics1 & ! /upidity & frivolity ( ! ,heads ( ,h\ses4 8,! v>i\s ,heads10 %e writes1 8) _! respective wives1 7 extremely inf]ior to my uncle & aunt4 ,m ?an half ( ! ,doctors ( ,div9ity 7 ( humble orig91 ! sons ( small g5try or c\ntry cl]gy1 or ev5 ( a l[] grade4 ,_m ( ^!1 con/ant to ! loves ( _! y\?1 br\ght ladies ( inf]ior mann]s to grace :at appe>$ to !m s dignifi$ a /ation4 ,x 0 n a good /yle2 !re 0 little tal5t1 & less poli%1 & no sort ( k ( ! _w4 ,& yet ! ignorance ( ?is class 0 less (f5sive ?an ! assumption ( ano!r1 :5 a lady ( high degree _h fall5 9 love ) h] bro!r's tutor1 & got him h&somely provid$ = 9 ! ,*ur*1 t %e might excuse h]self = m>ry+ him4 ,( ! less] cl]gy1 !re 7 "y witty ones--odi\s2 "y le>n$ ones--bores2 & eld]ly ones--pomp\s2 all1 h[ev]1 ( all grades1 k9d & hospitable4 ,b ! ,*ri/ian pa/or1 humble1 g5tle1 consid]ate1 & self-sacrific+1 _h no repres5tative1 z f> z ,i c\ld see1 among ^! deal]s 9 old w9es1 ri* d9n]s1 f9e *9a1 & massive plate40 8,! religion ( ,ox=d appe>$ 9 ^? days to consi/ 9 hon\r+ ! ,k+ & 8 ,m9i/]s1 & 9 p]petually popp+ 9 & out ( *apel4 ,*apel 0 ann\nc$ by ! /rokes ( a big hamm]1 beat5 on e /aircase half an h\r be=e by a sc\t4 ,! education 0 suit$ to ,div9ity4 ,a sort ( sup]vision 0 said to be kept ov] ! "y1 riot\s community1 & to a c]ta9 ext5t ! ,proctors ( ! ,univ]sity & ! ,deans ( ! diff]5t colleges did see t no v op5 sc&al 0 committ$4 ,!re 7 rules t _h 9 a g5]al way to be obey$1 & lectures t _h to be att5d$1 b z = c>e to give high aims1 provide ref9+ amusem5ts1 give a wor?y tone to ! "* ( responsible be+s1 !re 0 none ev] ev5 ?\ght (4 ,! v mean+ ( ! ^w #8education' did n appe> to be und]/ood4 ,! college 0 a fit sequel to ! s*ool4 ,! "y m5 h]d$ toge!r2 !y liv$ 9 _! rooms1 & !y liv$ out ( !m1 9 ! neighb\r+ villages1 :]e _m _h com=table e/abli%m5ts4444 ,all sorts ( contrivances 7 resort$ to to enable ! dissipat$ to rema9 out all night1 to %ield a culprit1 to deceive ! dignit>ies40 ,?is 0 9 #ahji1 & ev5 lat]4 ,& yet ) all ?is1 & :ile we are told t ^? :o att5d$ lectures 7 laugh$ at1 x seems /range t ! be/ div9es1 & lawy]s1 & politicians ( ! fir/ half ( our c5tury1 "s ( :om we may h kn[n ourselves1 mu/ h be5 =m$ "u t sy/em4 ,we c h>dly believe t x 0 z bad z "h describ$1 & we mu/ rememb] t mu* ( ! ,memoirs ( ?is ,scot* lady c h be5 writt5 f memory only1 & long aft] ! "t :5 %e & h] si/] liv$ at ,univ]sity ,college4 ,life !re1 no d\bt1 may h be5 v dull1 z !re 7 no o!r "y ladies at ,ox=d1 & x _c h be5 v amus+ = ^! "y girls to d9e ) sixte5 ,heads ( ,h\ses1 all 9 wide silk cassocks1 sc>ves & b&s1 "o or two 9 p[d]$ wigs1 s t1 z we are told1 !y (t5 w5t home cry+4 ,all int]c\rse ) ! "y m5 0 /rictly =bidd51 ?\gh x seems to h be5 n altoge!r impossible to communicate1 f ! g>d5 ( ! ,ma/]'s ,lodge1 ) ! "y m5 b5d+ out ( ! college w9d[s1 or climb+ d[n to ! g>d5s4 ,"o ( ^! "y m51 :o 0 at ,univ]sity ,college at ! same "t1 might c]ta9ly n h be5 consid]$ a v desirable companion = ^! two ,scot* girls4 ,x 0 no o!r ?an ,%elley4 ,:at !y say ( him does n tell u mu* t is new1 yet x des]ves to be repeat$4 8,mr4 ,%elley10 we read1 8aft]w>ds s celebrat$1 0 half crazy4 ,he began 8 c>e] ) e k9d ( wild prank at ,eton4 ,at ,univ]sity he 0 v insubord9ate1 always infr++ "s rule1 ! break+ ( :i* he knew c\ld n be ov]look$4 ,he 0 slov5ly 9 8 dress1 & :5 spok5 to ab\t ^! & o!r irregul>ities1 he 0 9 ! habit ( mak+ su* extraord9>y ge/ures1 expressive ( 8 humility "u repro(1 z to ov]set fir/ ! gravity & !n ! temp] ( ! lectur+ tutor4 ,:5 he proce$$ s f> z to pa/e up a!i/ical squibs on ! *apel doors1 x 0 consid]$ necess>y to expel him privately1 out ( reg>d to ,sir ,timo?y ,%elley1 ! fa!r1 :o came up at once4 ,he & 8 son left ,ox=d toge!r40 ,no "o w\ld recognize 9 ?is picture ! ,univ]sity ( ,ox=d1 z x is at pres5t4 ,n\s avons *ang t\t cela might be said ) great tru? by ! ,heads ( ,h\ses1 ! ,pr(essors1 & ,fell[s ( ! pres5t day4 ,& yet :at ! ,highl& lady1 or r ! ,highl& girl1 describes1 ref]s to times n s long ago b t "s ( ! m5 we h kn[n might h liv$ ?r\gh x4 ,h[ ?is *ange came ab\t ,i _c tell1 ?\gh ,i c be> te/imony to a few survivals ( ! old /ate ( ?+s4 ,! ,ox=d ( #ahdh 0 /ill ! ,ox=d ( ! ,heads ( ,h\ses & ( ! ,hebdomadal ,bo>d4 ,t bo>d consi/$ almo/ entirely ( ,heads ( ,h\ses1 & a mo/ important bo>d x 01 consid]+ t ! :ole adm9i/ration ( ! ,univ]sity 0 really 9 its h&s4 ,! colleges1 on ! o!r h&1 7 v jeal\s ( _! indep5d5ce2 & ev5 ! au?ority ( ! ,proctors1 :o repres5t$ ! ,univ]sity z su*1 0 (t5 conte/$ )9 ! gates ( a college4 ,x is wond]ful t ?is old sy/em ( gov]n+ ! ,univ]sity ?r\gh ! ,heads ( ,h\ses %\ld h gone on s long & s smoo?ly4 ,hav+ be5 tru/$ by ! ,fell[s ( 8 own society ) consid]able p[] 9 ! adm9i/ration ( 8 own college1 x 0 suppos$ t ! ,head w\ld prove equally useful 9 ! adm9i/ration ( ! ,univ]sity4 ,a ,head ( a ,h\se became at once a memb] ( ! ,c\ncil4 ,&1 on ! :ole1 !y manag$ to drive ! coa* & horses v well4 ,b (t5 :5 ,i _h to take =eign]s to he> ! ,univ]sity ,s]mon1 & !y saw a mo/ extraord9>y set ( old g5tlem5 walk+ into ,/4 ,m>y's 9 procession1 ) a mo/ />tl+ comb9ation ( col\rs1 black & r$1 sc>let & p9k1 on _! heavy g[ns & sleeves1 ,i f\nd x difficult to expla9 :o !y 74 8,are !y y\r pr(essors80 ,i 0 ask$4 8,oh1 no10 ,i said1 8! pr(essors don't we> r$ g[ns1 only ,doctors ( ,div9ity & ( ,civil ,law1 & z e ,head ( a ,h\se mu/ h some?+ to we> 9 public1 he is inv>iably made a ,doctor40 ,i rememb] "o exception only1 & at a mu* lat] "t1 namely1 ! ,ma/] ( ,balliol1 :o1 l ,cann+ at ! ,congress ( ,vi5na1 consid]$ x among 8 mo/ valu$ di/9ctions nev] to h worn ! g[n ( a ,d4,c4,l4 or ,d4,d4 ,x is well kn[n t :5 ,m>%al ,bl*] 0 made a ,doctor at ,ox=d he ask$1 9 ! innoc5ce ( 8 he>t1 t ,g5]al ,gneis5au1 8 "r-h& man1 might at lea/ be made a *emi/4 ,he c]ta9ly _h mix$ a mo/ effective p[d] = ! ,fr5* army "u ,napolon4 8,b10 my fri5d w\ld ask1 8h y no ,s5atus ,academicus1 h y no faculties ( pr(essors su* z !re are 9 all o!r ,*ri/ian univ]sities80 8,yes & no10 ,i said4 8,we h pr(essors1 b !y are n divid$ into faculties1 & !y c]ta9ly d n =m ! ,s5atus ,academicus1 or ! highe/ au?ority 9 ! ,univ]sity40 ,x seems v /range1 b x is nev]!less a fact1 t z soon z a good tutor is made a pr(essor1 he is consid]$ ( no good = ! real tea*+ "w ( ! colleges4 ,8 lectures are g5]ally des]t$2 & ,i c\ld quote ! names ( c]ta9 pr(essors :o aft]w>ds rose to great em95ce1 b :o at ,ox=d 7 simply ignor$ & _! lecture-rooms des]t$4 ,! real tea*+ or coa*+ or cramm+ = exam9ation is left to ! tutors & ,fell[s ( ea* college1 & ! exam9ations also are *iefly 9 _! h&s4 ,_m und]graduates nev] see a pr(essor1 &1 z f> z ! tea*+ "w ( ! ,univ]sity is conc]n$1 ! pr(essor%ips might safely be aboli%$4 ,& yet1 z ,i c\ld hone/ly assure my =eign fri5ds1 ! be/ m5 :o take hon\r degrees at ,ox=d are q ! equals ( ! be/ m5 at ,p>is or ,b]l94 ,! pr(essors may n be s di/+ui%$1 b t is due to a c]ta9 ext5t to ! small sal>ies atta*$ to "s ( ! *airs4 ,engl& has produc$ great names bo? 9 sci5ce & philosophy & s*ol>%ip1 b ^! h g5]ally drift$ to "s m attractive or lucrative c5tres4 ,:5 ,i fir/ came to ,ox=d "o pr(essor receiv$ #dj a ye>1 ano!r #a1ejj1 & no "o compla9$ ab\t ^! inequalities4 ,a c]ta9 am\nt ( l& _h be5 left by a k+ or bi%op = end[+ a c]ta9 *air1 & e hold] ( ! *air receiv$ :atev] ! end[m5t yield$4 ,! mode ( appo9t+ pr(essors 0 v curi\s at t "t4 ,(t5 ! elections resembl$ p>liam5t>y elections1 f> m reg>d be+ paid to political or !ological p>tisan%ip ?an to sci5tific qualifications4 ,e ,m4,a4 _h a vote1 & ^! vot]s 7 scatt]$ all ov] ! c\ntry4 ,canvass+ 0 c>ri$ on q op5ly4 ,travell+ exp5ses 7 freely paid1 & li/s 7 kept 9 ea* college ( ! m5 :o c\ld be dep5d$ on to vote = ! lib]al or ! cons]vative c&idate4 ,imag9e a pr(essor ( m$ic9e or ( ,greek be+ elect$ because he 0 a lib]al6 ,"s appo9tm5ts re/$ ) ! ,prime ,m9i/]1 or1 z x 0 call$1 ! ,cr[n2 & x 0 quot$ to ! hon\r ( ! ,duke ( ,well+ton1 t he1 :5 ,*ancellor ( ! ,univ]sity1 once insi/$ t ! electors %\ld elect ! be/ man1 & !y _h to yield1 ?\gh !re 7 electors :o w\ld decl>e _! own c&idate ! be/ man1 :atev] ! op9ion ( really qualifi$ judges might be4 ,all ?is election ma*9]y is mu* improv$ n[1 ?\gh an infallible sy/em ( elect+ ! be/ m5 has n yet be5 discov]$4 ,"o s+le elector1 :o is n tr\bl$ by too t5d] a consci5ce1 may ev5 n[ vitiate a :ole election2 to say no?+ ( ! pa9ful position 9 :i* an elector is plac$1 if he has to vote aga9/ a p]sonal fri5d or a memb] ( 8 own college1 p>ticul>ly :5 ! feel+ t x is di%on\rable to disclose ! vote ( ea* elector is no long] /rong en\gh to protect ! be/ int]e/s ( ! ,univ]sity4 ,x took me "s "t be=e ,i c\ld ga9 an insight into all ?is4 ,! old sy/em pass$ away be=e my v eyes1 n )\t evid5t friction betwe5 my diff]5t fri5ds1 & !n came ! difficulty ( le>n+ to und]/& ! work+ ( ! new ma*9]y :i* _h be5 devis$ & sanction$ by ,p>liam5t4 ,re=m]s arose ev5 among ! ,heads ( ,h\ses1 z1 = in/ance1 ,dr4 ,jeune1 ! ,ma/] ( ,pembroke ,college1 :o 0 cr$it$ ) hav+ rajeuni l'anci5ne univ]sit4 ,b he 0 by no means ! only1 or ev5 ! *ief actor 9 ,univ]sity re=m4 ,_m ( my p]sonal fri5ds1 su* z ,dr4 ,tait1 aft]w>ds ,ar*bi%op ( ,cant]bury1 ! ,rev4 ,h4 ,g4 ,liddell1 aft]w>ds ,dean ( ,*ri/ ,*ur*1 ,pr(essor ,bad5-,p[ell1 & ! ,rev4 ,g4 ,h4 ,s4 ,johnson1 aft]w>ds ,dean ( ,wells1 ) ,/anley & ,goldw9 ,smi? z ,secret>ies1 did hone/ s]vice 9 ! v>i\s ,royal & ,p>liam5t>y ,commissions1 & sp5t mu* ( _! valuable "t 9 s]v+ ! ,univ]sity & ! c\ntry4 ,i c\ld d no m ?an answ] ! que/ions address$ to me by ! ,commission]s & by my fri5ds1 & ?is is really all ! %>e ,i _h at t "t 9 ! re=m ( ! ,univ]sity1 or :at 0 call$ ,g]maniz+ ! ,engli% ,univ]sities4 ,at "o "t su* 0 ! unpopul>ity ( ^! re=m]s 9 ! ,univ]sity itself t "o ( !m ask$ "o ( ! junior pr(essors to invite him to d9n]1 because ! ,heads ( ,h\ses w\ld no long] admit him to _! hospitable bo>ds4 ,c]ta9ly to h be5 a memb] ( ! mu* abus$ ,hebdomadal ,bo>d1 & a ,head ( a ,college 9 ^? pre-re=m days mu/ h be5 a delightful life4 ,be=e ! days ( agricultural di/ress ! income ( ! colleges 0 abundant2 ! au?ority ( ! ,heads 0 unque/ion$ 9 _! own colleges2 n only und]graduates1 b ,fell[s also _h to be submissive4 ,no junior ,fell[ w\ld !n h d>$ to oppose 8 ,head at college meet+s4 ,if !re 0 by *ance an ob/rep]\s junior1 he 0 easily sil5c$ or reque/$ to retire4 ,! days _h n yet come :5 a ,ma/] ( ,tr9ity v5tur$ to rem>k t ev5 a junior ,fell[ might possibly be mi/ak54 ,colleges seem$ to be ! prop]ty ( ! ,heads1 & 9 "s ( !m ! ,fell[s 7 really *os5 by !m1 & ! re/ ( ! ,fell[s aft] "s k9d ( exam9ation4 ,! managem5t ( ,univ]sity affairs 0 likewise entirely 9 ! h&s ( ! ,heads ( ,colleges1 & x 0 on r>e occasions only t a !ological "q /irr$ ! int]e/ ( non-resid5t ,m4,a4s1 & br\ght !m to ,ox=d to record _! vote = or aga9/ ! con/itut$ au?orities4 ,m5 l ! ,dean ( ,*ri/ ,*ur*1 ,dr4 ,gais=d1 ! ,w>d5 ( ,wadham1 ,dr4 ,p>sons1 & ! ,provo/ ( ,oriel1 ,dr4 ,hawk9s1 7 9 _! dom9ions supreme1 till ! rebelli\s _s began to %[ itself 9 su* m5 z ,dr4 ,jeune1 ,pr(essor ,bad5-,p[ell1 ,a4 ,p4 ,/anley1 ,goldw9 ,smi? & o!rs4 ,nor 7 !re _m v flagrant abuses "u ! old rgime4 ,x 0 r ! want ( life t 0 compla9$ (4 ,x began to be felt t ,ox=d %\ld take its place z an equal by ! side ( =eign ,univ]sities1 n only z a high s*ool1 b z a home ( :at !n 0 call$ = ! fir/ "t 8orig9al rese>*40 ,!re c be no "q t z a tea*+ body1 z a high s*ool at ! head ( all ! public s*ools 9 ,engl&1 ,ox=d did its duty nobly4 ,a man :o at t "t c\ld take a ,d\ble ,fir/ 0 inde$ a /rong man1 well fitt$ = any "w 9 aft] life4 ,he w\ld n necess>ily turn out an orig9al ?9k]1 a s*ol>1 or a discov]] 9 physical sci5ce1 b he w\ld "k :at x 0 to "k any?+ ?or\ghly4 ,to take hon\rs at ! same "t 9 classics & ma!matics requir$ /r5g? & grasp1 & ! ef=t 0 c]ta9ly consid]able1 z ,i f\nd out :5 occasionally ,i read a ,greek or ,lat9 au?or ) a "y und]graduate fri5d4 ,:at /ruck me mo/ 0 ! accurate k a c&idate acquir$ ( special au?ors & special books1 b also ! want ( t famili>ity ) ! language1 ,greek or ,lat91 :i* w\ld enable him to read any new au?or ) comp>ative ease4 ,! "y m5 :om ,i knew at ! "t !y w5t 9 = _! f9al exam9ation1 7 c]ta9ly well gr\nd$ 9 classics1 & :at !y knew !y knew ?or\ghly4 ,! p]sonal relations exi/+ betwe5 und]graduates & _! tutors 7 v intimate4 ,a tutor took a pride 9 8 pupils1 & (t5 became _! fri5d = life4 ,! tea*+ 0 almo/ private tea*+1 & ! idea ( read+ a writt5 lecture to a class 9 college did n exi/ z yet4 ,x 0 real tea*+ ) que/ions & answ]s2 :ile lectures1 writt5 & read out1 7 look$ d[n ^u z good en\gh = pr(essors1 b entirely useless = ! s*ools4 ,! social tone ( ! ,univ]sity 0 excell5t4 ,_m ( ! tutors & ( ! und]graduates came ( good families1 & ! /ruggle = life1 or = a college liv+1 or college (fice1 0 n1 z yet1 s fi]ce z x became aft]w>ds4 ,college tutors toil$ on = life1 & c]ta9ly did _! "w to ! la/ mo/ consci5ti\sly4 ,!re 0 p]haps little ambition1 little s*em+ or pu%+1 b ! "w ( ! ,univ]sity1 su* z ! c\ntry w\ld h x1 0 well done4 ,if ! ,hon\r-,li/s 7 small1 ! numb] ( utt] failures also 0 n v l>ge4 ,= a "y s*ol>1 l myself1 :o came to live at ,ox=d 9 ^? di/ant days1 ! peace & s]5ity ( life 7 mo/ cong5ial1 ?\gh sev]al ( my fri5ds 7 among ! fir/ :o began to fret1 & wi%$ = m "w to be done & = bett] use to be made ( ! weal? & ! opportunities ( ! ,univ]sity4 ,my impression at t "t 0 ! same z x has be5 ev] s9ce1 t a re=m ( ! ,univ]sities 0 impossible till ! public s*ools _h be5 ?or\ghly re=m$4 ,! ,univ]sities mu/ take :at ! s*ools s5d !m4 ,!re is e ye> a limit$ numb] ( boys f ! be/ s*ools :o w\ld d cr$it to any ,univ]sity4 ,b a l>ge numb] ( ! "y m5 :o are s5t up to matriculate at ,ox=d are n up to an academic /&>d4 ,unless ! colleges agree to /& empty = a ye> or two1 !y _c help !mselves1 b h to keep ! /&>d ( ! matriculation exam9ation l[1 & 9 fact d1 to a great ext5t1 ! "w t ought to h be5 done at s*ool4 ,?9k ( boys be+ s5t up to ,ox=d1 :o1 aft] hav+ sp5t on an av]age six ye>s at a public s*ool1 are yet unable to read a l9e ( ,greek or ,lat9 :i* !y h n se5 be=e4 ,yet s x 01 & s x is1 unless ,i am v mu* mis9=m$4 ,x is easy = "s colleges :o keep up a high /&>d ( matriculation to turn out fir/-class m52 ! real burd5 falls on ! colleges & tutors :o h to "w h>d to br+ _! pupils up to ! /&>d ( a pass degree1 & few p h any idea h[ little a pass degree may mean4 ,^? tutors h inde$ h>d "w to d & get little cr$it = x1 ?\gh _! devotion to _! college & _! pupils is highly cr$itable4 ,fifty ye>s ago ev5 a pass degree 0 m difficult ?an x is n[1 because c&idates 7 n all[$ to pass 9 diff]5t subjects at diff]5t times1 b ! :ole exam9ation _h to be done all at once1 or n at all4 ,i _h naturally made x a rule at ,ox=d to /& alo( f ! conflict ( p>ties1 :e!r academical1 !ological1 or political4 ,i _h my own "w to d1 & x did n seem to me good ta/e to obtrude my op9ions1 :i* naturally 7 diff]5t f ^? preval5t at ,ox=d4 ,mo/ p l to wa% _! dirty l95 among !mselves2 & ?\gh ,i gladly talk$ ov] su* matt]s ) my fri5ds :o (t5 consult$ me1 ,i did n feel call$ ^u to jo9 9 ! fray4 ,i liv$ ?r\gh sev]al sev]e crises at ,ox=d1 & ?\gh ,i _h "s intimate fri5ds on ei!r side1 ,i rema9$ ?r\gh\t a look] on4 ,seldom has a ,univ]sity pass$ ?r\gh su* a complete *ange z ,ox=d has s9ce ! ye> #ahed4 ,& yet ! *ange 0 nev] viol5t1 & ! ,univ]sity has pass$ ?r\gh its ordeal really rejuv5at$ & re9vigorat$4 ,x has be5 said t our con/itution has n[ become too democratic1 & t a ,univ]sity %\ld be rul$ by a ,s5atus r ?an by a ,juv5tus4 ,?is is true to a c]ta9 ext5t4 ,!re has be5 too mu* unre/1 too con/ant *anges1 & a lack ( cont9uity 9 ! /udies & 9 ! gov]nm5t ( ! ,univ]sity4 ,e ?ree ye>s a new wave ( "y ma/]s came 91 c>ri$ a re=m 9 ! sy/em ( tea*+ & exam9+1 & !n left to make room = a new wave :i* br\ght new ideas1 be=e ! old ones _h a fair trial4 ,s5ior memb]s ( ! ,univ]sity1 heads ( h\ses & pr(essors1 h no m vot+ p[] ?an ! "y m5 :o h j tak5 _! degrees1 nay1 h 9 reality less influ5ce ?an ^! "y ,ma/]s1 :o always meet toge!r & =m a k9d ( compact phalanx :5 votes are to be tak54 ,!re 0 ev5 a ,non-placet club1 ready to ?r[ out any measure t seem$ to emanate f ! re=m+ p>ty1 or ?reat5$ to *ange any e/abli%$ cu/oms1 :e!r b5eficial or o!rwise to ! ,univ]sity4 ,! ,univ]sity1 z su*1 0 f> less consid]$ ?an ! colleges1 & money drawn f ! colleges = ,univ]sity purposes 0 look$ ^u z robb]y1 ?\gh ( c\rse ! colleges pr(it$ by ! improvem5t ( ! ,univ]sity1 & ! int]e/s ( ! two ought nev] to h be5 divid$1 z little z ! int]e/s ( an army c be divid$ f ! int]e/s ( ea* regim5t4 ,:5 ,i came to ,ox=d !re 0 /ill practically no society except t ( ! ,heads ( ,h\ses1 & !re 7 no "y ladies to grace _! d9n]s4 ,ea* head took 8 turn 9 succession1 & _h twice or ?ree times dur+ t]m to fe$ 8 colleagues4 ,^! d9n]s 7 sumptu\s repa/s1 ?\gh !y (t5 took place z e>ly z five4 ,to be invit$ to !m 0 consid]$ a great di/9ction1 &1 ?\gh a v "y man1 ,i 0 all[$ n[ & !n to be pres5t1 & ,i highly appreciat$ ! hon\r4 ,! company consi/$ almo/ entirely ( ,heads ( ,h\ses1 ,canons1 & ,pr(essors2 sometimes !re 0 a spr9kl+ ( di/+ui%$ p]sons f ,london1 & ev5 ( ladies ( v>i\s ages & degrees4 ,i confess ,i (t5 sat among !m1 z we say 9 ,g]man1 v]ra!n und v]kauft4 ,aft] d9n] ,i saw a numb] ( "y m5 /ream+ 91 & ?\ght ! ev5+ w\ld n[ become m lively4 ,b f> f x4 ,^! "y m5 ) :ite ties & 9 ev5+ dress /ood 9 _! scanty g[ns huddl$ toge!r on "o side ( ! room4 ,!y receiv$ a cup ( tea1 b no "o notic$ !m or spoke to !m1 & !y h>dly d>$ to speak among !mselves4 ,?is1 z ,i 0 told1 0 call$ 8do+ ! p]p5dicul>10 & !y mu/ h felt mu* reliev$ :5 t[>ds t5 o'clock !y 7 all[$ to dep>t1 & ex*ange ! p]p5dicul> = a m com=table position1 indulg+ 9 songs & pleasant talk1 :i* ,i sometimes 0 invit$ to jo94 ,at t "t ,i rememb] only v few h\ses outside ! circle ( ,heads ( ,h\ses1 :]e !re 0 a lady & a c]ta9 am\nt ( social life--! h\ses ( ,dr4 ,acl&1 ,dr4 ,gre5hill1 ,pr(essor ,bad5-,p[ell1 ,pr(essor ,donk91 & ,mr4 ,greswell4 ,9 _! h\ses !re 0 less ( ! /rict academical etiquette1 & z !y 7 fond ( music1 p>ticul>ly ! ,donk9s1 ,i sp5t "s really delightful ev5+s ) !m4 ,nay1 z ,i play$ on ! pian(orte1 ev5 ! ,heads ( ,h\ses began to patronize music at _! ev5+ p>ties1 ?\gh no g5tleman at t "t w\ld h play$ at ,ox=d4 ,i be+ a ,g]man1 & ,pr(essor ,donk9 be+ a confirm$ invalid1 we 7 all[$ to play1 & we c]ta9ly _h an appreciative1 ?\gh n always a sil5t1 audi5ce4 ,9 "o respect1 ! old sy/em ( ,ox=d ,fell[%ips 0 /ill v p]ceptible 9 ! society ( ! ,univ]sity4 ,no ,fell[s 7 all[$ to m>ry1 & ! natural consequ5ce 0 t mo/ ( !m wait$ = a college liv+1 a pr(essor%ip or libr>ian%ip1 :i* g5]ally came to !m :5 !y 7 no long] "y m54 ,head%ips ( colleges also _h s long to be wait$ = t mo/ ( !m 7 g5]ally fill$ by v s5ior & mo/ly unm>ri$ m54 ,besides1 head%ips 7 b seldom giv5 = excell5ce 9 s*ol>%ip1 sci5ce1 or ev5 div9ity1 b = ! sake ( p]sonal popul>ity1 & = bus9ess habits4 ,"s ( ! ,fell[s gave pleasant &1 z ,i ?\ght1 v ,lucullic d9n]s 9 college2 & ,i /ill rememb] my surprise :5 ,i 0 ask$ to ! fir/ d9n] 9 ,common ,room at ,jesus ,college4 ,my ho/ 0 ,mr4 ,ff\lkes1 :o aft]w>ds became a ,roman ,ca?olic1 & !n an ,anglican cl]gyman aga94 ,! c>pets1 ! curta9s1 ! :ole furniture & ! plate q conf\nd$ me1 & ,i became /ill m conf\nd$ :5 ,i 0 sudd5ly call$ ^u to make a spee* at a "t :5 ,i c\ld h>dly put two words toge!r 9 ,engli%4 ,! ,city society 0 completely sep>at$ f ! ,univ]sity society1 s t ev5 ri* bank]s & o!r g5tlem5 w\ld nev] h v5tur$ to ask memb]s ( ! ,univ]sity to d9e4 ,consid]+ ! position !n held by ! ,heads ( ,h\ses1 ,i feel ,i ought to devote "s pages to describ+ "s ( ! mo/ prom95t ( !m4 ,at my age ,i may well hold to ! maxim s5iores priores1 & w !re=e beg9 ) ,dr4 ,r\?1 ! c5t5>ian ,presid5t ( ,magdal51 z1 ?\gh1 ! head%ip ( a h\se seems to be an excell5t prescription = longevity1 !re 0 no "o to dispute ! v5]able doctor's claim to prec$5ce 9 ?is respect4 ,he 0 !n ne>ly a hundr$ ye>s old1 & he di$ 9 8 hundr$? ye>1 & obta9$ 8 wi% to h ! ,c1 anno c5tesimo1 on 8 grave/one1 =1 ?\gh tir$ ( life1 he (t5 decl>$1 s ,i 0 told1 t he w\ld n be outdone 9 ?is respect by ano!r v old man1 :o 0 a diss5t]2 he nev] lik$ to see ! ,*ur* beat54 ,i might h made 8 p]sonal acqua9tance1 "s fri5ds ( ! old ,presid5t (f]+ to pres5t me to him4 ,b ,i did n avail myself ( _! (f]1 because ,i knew ! old man did n l to be %[n z a curiosity4 ,:5 ,i saw him sitt+ at 8 w9d[ he always wore a wig1 & few _h se5 him )\t 8 wig & )\t 8 academic g[n4 ,he 0 c]ta9ly an exceptional man1 & ,i believe he /ood alone 9 ! :ole hi/ory ( lit]ature1 z hav+ publi%$ books at an int]val ( sev5ty ye>s4 ,8 edition ( ! ,en?ymemes & ,gorgias ( ,plato 0 publi%$ 9 #aghd1 8 pap]s on ! ,ignatian ,epi/les 9 #ahed4 ,8 ,reliquia ,sacra fir/ appe>$ 9 #ahad1 & !y are a "w :i* at t "t w\ld h made ! reputation ( any s*ol> & div9e4 ,8 editions ( hi/orical works1 su* z ,burnet's ,hi/ory ( 8 own ,"t & ! ,hi/ory ( ! reign ( ,k+ ,james1 %[ 8 consid]able acqua9tance ) ,engli% hi/ory4 ,i h already m5tion$ h[ he us$ to speak ( ev5ts long be=e 8 "t1 su* z ! execution ( ,*>les ,i1 z if he _h be5 pres5t2 nor did he hesitate to decl>e t ev5 ,bi%op ,burnet 0 a great li>4 ,he c]ta9ly _h se5 _m ?+s :i* connect$ him ) ! pa/4 ,he _h se5 ,samuel ,johnson m\nt+ ! /eps ( ! ,cl>5don build+ 9 ,broad ,/reet1 & ?\gh he _h n himself se5 ,*>les ,i :5 he held 8 ,p>liam5t at ,ox=d1 he _h kn[n a lady ^: "m _h se5 ! k+ walk+ r\nd ! ,p>ks at ,ox=d4 ,h[ev]1 we mu/ n =get t _m /ories ab\t ! old ,presid5t 7 m or less my?ical1 z inde$ _m ,ox=d /ories are4 ,i 0 told t he actually slept 9 wig1 cap & g[n1 s t once :5 an al>m ( fire 0 rais$ 9 ! quadrangle ( 8 ,college1 he put 8 head out ( w9d[ 9 an incr$ibly %ort "t1 fully equipp$ z above4 ,_m ( ^! /ories or 8,common-,room]s0 z !y 7 call$1 /ill liv$ 9 ! ,common ,rooms 9 my "t1 :5 ! ,fell[s ( ea* ,college assembl$ regul>ly aft] d9n]1 to take w9e & dess]t1 & to talk on any?+ b :at 0 call$ ,%op1 i4 e4 ,greek & ,lat94 ,no "o inquir$ ab\t ! tru? ( ^! /ories1 z long z !y 7 well told4 ,9 a place l ,ox=d !re exi/s a regul> desc5t1 by inh]itance1 ( good /ories4 ,i rememb] /ories told ( ,dr4 ,j5k9s1 z ,ma/] ( ,balliol1 & aft]w>ds transf]r$ to 8 successor1 ,mr4 ,j[ett4 ,bodleian /ories desc5d$ 9 l mann] f ,dr4 ,b&9ell to ,mr4 ,coxe1 & w probably be told ( successive libr>ians till !y become q incongru\s4 ,i am old en\gh to h wat*$ ! desc5t ( /ories at ,ox=d1 j z "o recognizes ! same furniture 9 college rooms occupi$ by successive g5]ations ( und]graduates4 ,to me !y sometimes seem ?readb>e l ! old ,turki% c>pets 9 ! college rooms1 b ,i nev] spoil !m by betray+ _! age1 &1 if well told1 ,i c enjoy !m z mu* z if ,i _h nev] he>d !m be=e4 ,dr4 ,hawk9s1 ,provo/ ( ,oriel1 0 q a repres5tative ( ,old ,ox=d1 & a well-kn[n "* 9 ! ,univ]sity4 ,i _h be5 introduc$ to him by ,b>on ,buns51 & he %[$ me mu* hospitality4 ,i 0 w>n$ t ,i %\ld f9d him v /iff & =bidd+4 ,8 own ,fell[s call$ him ! ,ea/-w9d4 ,b ?\gh he c]ta9ly 0 condesc5d+1 he treat$ me ) great urbanity4 ,he _h a v peculi> habit2 :5 he _h to %ake h&s ) p :om he consid]$ 8 inf]iors1 he /ret*$ out two f+]s1 & if "s ( !m :o knew ?is peculi>ity ( 81 t5d]$ him two f+]s 9 return1 ! %ak+ ( h&s became r awkw>d4 ,"o ( ! ,fell[s ( 8 college told me t1 z long z he 0 only a ,fell[1 he nev] receiv$ m ?an two f+]s2 :51 h[ev]1 he became ,head ,ma/] ( a s*ool1 he 0 rew>d$ ) ?ree f+]s1 or ev5 ) ! :ole h&1 b1 z soon z he gave up ?is place1 & return$ to live 9 college1 he 0 at once r$uc$ to ! /atutable two f+]s4 ,i don't recollect exactly h[ _m f+]s ,i 0 treat$ to1 & ,i may h %ak5 !m ) my :ole h&4 ,anyh[1 ,i am q consci\s n[ ( h[ _m times ,i mu/ h (f5d$ aga9/ academic etiquette4 ,h[1 = in/ance1 is a man to "k t p :o live at ,ox=d dur+ t]m-"t nev] %ake h&s except once dur+ t]m8 ,i d\bt1 9 fact1 :e!r t etiquette exi/$ :5 ,i fir/ came to ,ox=d1 b x c]ta9ly _h exi/$ = "s "t be=e ,i discov]$ x4 ,dr4 ,j5k9s1 ,ma/] ( ,balliol1 0 also ! h]o ( _m anecdotes4 ,x 0 ( him t x 0 fir/ told h[ he once f\nd fault ) an und]graduate because1 :5ev] he look$ out ( w9d[1 he inv>iably saw ! "y man loit]+ ab\t 9 ! quad2 to :i* ! und]graduate repli$3 8,h[ v curi\s1 = :5ev] ,i cross ! quad1 ,i always see y1 ,sir1 look+ out ( w9d[40 ,he _h a quiet hum\r ( 8 own1 & delight$ 9 say+ ?+s :i* made o!rs laugh1 b nev] di/urb$ a muscle ( 8 own face4 ,"o ( 8 und]graduates 0 call$ ,wyndham1 & he _h to say a few %>p words to him at 8h&%ak+10 t is1 at ! end ( t]m4 ,aft] say+ all he want$1 he f9i%$ 9 ,lat93 8,et nunc valeas ,wyndhamme10--! la/ two syllables be+ pron\nc$ ) great emphasis4 ,! ,ma/]'s reg>d = 8 own dignity 0 v great4 ,once1 :5 return+ f a solit>y walk1 he slipp$ & fell4 ,two und]graduates see+ ! accid5t ran to assi/ him1 & 7 j lay+ h&s on him to lift him up1 :5 he descri$ a ,ma/] ( ,arts com+4 8,/op10 he cri$1 8/op1 ,i see a ,ma/] ( ,arts com+ d[n ! /reet40 ,& he dismiss$ ! und]graduates ) _m ?anks1 & 0 help$ on to 8 legs by ! ,m4,a4 ,accid5ts1 or slips ( ! tongue1 w happ5 to ev]ybody1 ev5 to a ,head ( a ,h\se4 ,"o ( ^! old g5tlem51 ,dr4 ,symons1 ( ,wadham1 :5 presid+ at a mission>y meet+1 _h to introduce ,sir ,p]egr9e ,maitl&1 a mo/ di/+ui%$ (fic]1 & a ?or\ghly good man4 ,:5 dilat+ on ! ,*ri/ian "w :i* ,sir ,p]egr9e _h done 9 ,india1 he call$ him aga9 & aga9 ,sir ,p]egr9e ,pickle4 ,! effect 0 mo/ ludicr\s1 = ev]ybody 0 evid5tly well acqua9t$ ) ,rod]ick ,r&om1 & ,sir ,p]egr9e _h great difficulty 9 rema9+ s]i\s :5 ! ,*airman call$ on ,sir ,p]egr9e ,pickle once m to address 8 some:at p]plex$ audi5ce4 ,b :atev] may be said ab\t ! old ,heads ( ,h\ses1 mo/ ( !m 7 c]ta9ly g5tlem5 bo? by bir? & by nature4 ,!y are =gott5 n[1 b !y did good 9 _! "t1 & mu* ( _! good "w rema9s4 ,if ,i consid] :o 7 ! ,dean & ,canons & ,/ud5ts ,i met at ,*ri/ ,*ur* :5 ,i fir/ became a memb] ( ! ,h\se1 ,i %\ld h to give a v diff]5t acc\nt f t giv5 by ! ,highl& lady 9 h] ,memoirs4 ,! ,dean ( ,*ri/ ,*ur*1 :o receiv$ me1 :o propos$ me = ! degree ( ,m4,a41 & aft]w>ds all[$ me to become a memb] ( ! ,h\se1 0 ,dr4 ,gais=d1 a real s*ol>1 ?\gh x may be ( ! old s*ool4 ,he 0 consid]$ v r\gh & rude1 b ,i c only say he %[$ me m ( real c\rtesy 9 ^? days ?an anybody else at ,ox=d4 ,he 01 ,i believe1 a little %y1 & easily put out :5 he suspect$ anybody1 p>ticul>ly ! "y m51 ( want ( consid]ation4 ,i c q believe t :5 an und]graduate1 9 address+ him1 /epp$ on ! he>?rug on :i* he 0 /&+1 he may h said3 8,get d[n f my he>?rug10 mean+1 8keep at y\r prop] di/ance40 ,i c only say t ,i nev] f\nd him any?+ b k9d & c\rte\s4 ,x s happ5$ t he _h be5 made a ,memb] ( ! ,bav>ian ,academy1 & ,i1 ?\gh v "y1 _h receiv$ ! same di/9ction z a rew>d = my ,sanskrit "w1 & ! ,dean 0 r pleas$ :5 he he>d x4 ,:5 ,i ask$ him :e!r he w\ld put my "n on ! books ( ! ,h\se1 he c]ta9ly hesitat$ a little1 & ask$ me at la/ to come aga9 next day & d9e ) him4 ,i w5t1 b ,i confess ,i 0 r afraid t ! ,dean w\ld raise difficulties4 ,h[ev]1 he spoke to me v nicely1 8,i h look$ ?r\gh ! books10 he said1 8& ,i f9d two prec$5ts ( ,g]mans be+ memb]s ( ! ,h\se1 "o ( ! "n ( ,w]n]us1 & ano!r ( ! "n ( ,nitzs*ius10 or "s su* "n4 8,b10 he cont9u$1 smil+1 8ev5 if ,i _h n f\nd ^! names1 ,i %\ld n h m9d$ mak+ a prec$5t ( y\r case40 ,p 7 amaz$ at ,ox=d :5 !y he>d ( ! ,dean's c\rtesy1 b ,i c only repeat t ,i nev] f\nd him any?+ b c\rte\s4 ,mo/ ( ! ,heads ( ,h\ses ask$ me to d9e ) !m by s5d+ me an invitation4 ,! ,dean alone fir/ came & call$ on me4 ,i 0 !n liv+ 9 a small room 9 ,walton ,/reet 9 :i* ,i work$1 & d9$1 & smok$4 ,my b$room 0 close by1 & ,i g5]ally got up e>ly1 & %av$ & f9i%$ my toilet at ab\t #aa o'clock4 ,i _h j gone into my b$room to %ave1 my face 0 half cov]$ ) la!r1 :5 my l&lady ru%$ 9 & told me ! ,dean _h call$1 & my dogs 7 pull+ him ab\t4 ,! fact 0 ,i _h a ,scot* t]ri] ) a litt] ( puppies 9 a basket1 & :5 ! ,dean ent]$ 9 full academical dress1 ! dogs flew at him1 pull+ ! sleeves ( 8 g[n & b>k+ furi\sly4 ,cov]$ ) la!r z ,i 01 ,i _h to ru% 9 to quiet ! dogs1 & 9 ?is /ate ,i _h to receive ! ,v ,rev4 ! ,dean1 & expla9 to him ! nature ( ! "w t br\ght me to ,ox=d4 ,x 0 c]ta9ly awkw>d1 b 9 spite ( ! disord] ( my room1 9 spite also ( ! tobacco smoke ( :i* ! ,dean did n approve1 all w5t (f well1 ?\gh1 ,i confess1 ,i felt some:at a%am$4 ,9 ! same int]view ! ,dean ask$ me ab\t an ,icel&ic ,diction>y :i* _h be5 (f]$ to ! press by ,cleasby & ,das5t4 8,surely x is a small b>b>\s isl&10 he said1 8& h[ c !y h any lit]ature80 ,i tri$1 z well z ,i c\ld1 to expla9 to ! ,dean ! ext5t & ! value ( ,icel&ic lit]ature1 & soon aft] ! press1 :i* 0 !n ! ,dean1 accept$ ! ,diction>y :i* 0 br\ght out lat] by ,dr4 ,vigfusson1 9 a mo/ c>eful & s*ol>like mann]4 ,x might inde$ safely be call$ 8 ,diction>y1 consid]+ h[ _m diction>ies are call$1 n aft] ! "n ( ! compil] or compil]s1 b aft] t ( _! editor4 ,?is ,dr4 ,vigfusson 0 q a "*4 ,he 0 p]fectly pale & bloodless1 & _h b "o wi%1 t ( be+ left alone4 ,he came to ,ox=d fir/ to assi/ ,dr4 ,das5t1 to :om ,cleasby1 :5 he di$1 _h h&$ ov] 8 collections2 b aft]w>ds he /ay$1 tak+ x = grant$ t ! ,univ]sity w\ld give him ! little he want$4 ,b ev5 t little 0 difficult to provide1 z !re 7 no funds t c\ld be us$ = t purpose1 h[ev] uselessly o!r funds might seem to be squ&]$4 ,t l$ to con/ant grumbl+ on 8 "p4 ,ev] s _m exp$i5ts 7 tri$ to satisfy him1 b none q succe$$4 ,at la/ he fell ill & di$1 & :5 he 0 a pati5t at ! ,acl& ,home1 :]e ! nurses did all !y c\ld = him1 he sev]al times said to me :5 ,i sat ) him1 t he _h nev] be5 s happy 9 8 life z 9 t ,home4 ,i sometimes blame myself = n hav+ se5 m ( him at ,ox=d4 ,b he always seem$ to me full ( suspicions & v easily (f5d$1 & t made any free int]c\rse ) him difficult & f> f pleasant4 ,p]haps x 0 my fault also4 ,he may h felt t he might h claim$ a pr(essor%ip ( ,icel&ic q z well z ,i1 & he may h grudg$ my settl$ position 9 ,ox=d1 my indep5d5ce & my fre$om4 ,:5ev] we did "w toge!r1 ,i always f\nd him pleasant at fir/1 b v soon he w\ld become wayw>d & s5sitive1 d :at ,i w\ld1 & ,i _h to let him g 8 own way1 z ,i w5t m9e4 ,i rememb] d9+ ) ! fam\s ,dr4 ,bull1 ,canon ( ,*ri/ ,*ur*1 :o c]ta9ly manag$ to produce a d9n] t w\ld h done cr$it to any ,fr5* *ef4 ,he 0 "o ( ! la/ plurali/s1 & _m /ories 7 told ab\t him4 ,"o /ory1 :i* h[ev] 0 p]fectly true1 %[$ at all ev5ts 8 great sagacity4 ,a well-kn[n bank] _h be5 = ye>s ! bank] ( ,*ri/ ,*ur*4 ,dr4 ,bull :o 0 ! ,college ,burs> _h to transact all ! f9ancial bus9ess ) him4 ,no "o suspect$ ! bank+ h\se :i* he repres5t$4 ,dr4 ,bull1 h[ev]1 ! la/ "t he invit$ him to d9n]1 0 /ruck by 8 v pi\s & or?odox rem>ks1 & by ! *ange ( tone 9 8 conv]sation1 su* z might suit a ,canon ( ,*ri/ ,*ur*1 b n a luxuri\s bank] f ,london4 ,)\t say+ a ^w1 ,dr4 ,bull w5t to ,london next day1 drew out all ! money ( ! college1 took all 8 pap]s f ! bank1 & ! day aft]1 to ! dismay ( ,london1 ! bank fail$1 ! depositors lo/ _! money1 b ,*ri/ ,*ur* 0 unhurt4 ,ano!r ( ! ,canons ( ,*ri/ ,*ur* at t "t _h sp5t half a c5tury 9 ! place1 & read ! lessons !re twice e day4 ,( c\rse he knew ! pray]-book by he>t1 & z long z he c\ld see to read !re 0 no h>m 9 8 read+4 ,b :5 8 eyesight fail$ him & he _h to tru/ entirely to 8 memory1 he w\ld (t5 g f "s ^w 9 ! ev5+ pray] to ! same ^w 9 ! m>riage s]vice1 & f !re to ! burial s]vice1 ) an occasional slip into baptism4 ,! result ( x 0 t he 0 no long] all[$ to read ! s]vice 9 ,*apel except dur+ ,long ,vacation :5 ! "y m5 7 away4 ,i frequ5tly /ay$ at ,ox=d dur+ vacation1 & ?\ght ( c\rse t ! ev5+ s]vice w\ld nev] end1 till at la/ ,i 0 ask$ to "n ! *ild1 & !n ,i w5t home4 ,"o ,sunday ,i rememb] go+ to *apel1 & aft] pray]s _h begun ! foll[+ conv]sation took place1 l\d en\gh to be he>d all ?r\gh ! *apel4 ,ent] old ,canon prec$$ by a beadle4 ,he goes /raight to 8 /all1 & f9d+ x occupi$ by a well-kn[n ,d4,d4 f ,london1 :o is deeply engag$ 9 pray]1 he /&s & looks at ! int]lop]1 & :5 t produces no effect1 he says to ! beadle3 8,tell t man ?is is my /all2 tell him to get out40 ,beadle3 8,dr4 ,a4's complim5ts1 & :e!r y w\ld k9dly occupy ano!r /all40 ,d4,d43 8,v sorry2 ,i %all *ange imm$iately40 ,old ,canon settles 9 8 /all1 pray]s cont9ue1 & aft] ab\t t5 m9utes ! ,canon %\ts3 8,beadle1 tell t man to d9e ) me at five40 ,beadle3 8,dr4 ,a4's complim5ts1 & :e!r y w\ld give him ! pleasure ( y\r company at d9n] at five40 ,d4,d43 8,v sorry1 ,i am engag$40 ,beadle3 8,d4,d4 regrets he is engag$40 ,old ,canon3 8,oh1 he won't d9e60 ,! ca!dral 0 v empty1 & =tunately ?is conv]sation 0 li/5$ to by a small congregation only4 ,i c1 h[ev]1 v\* = x1 z ,i 0 sitt+ close by & he>d x myself4 ,bodley's ,libr>y1 too1 0 full ( good /ories1 ?\gh _m ( !m d n be> repeat+4 ,:5 ,i fir/ began to "w !re1 ,dr4 ,b&9ell 0 ,bodleian ,libr>ian4 ,work+ 9 ! ,bodleian 0 !n l work+ 9 "o's private libr>y4 ,"o c\ld h z _m books & ,,mss4 z "o desir$1 & ! six h\rs dur+ :i* ! ,libr>y 0 op5 7 a v fair all[ance = su* tir+ "w z copy+ & collat+ ,sanskrit ,,mss4 ,i well rememb] my delight :5 ,i fir/ sat d[n at my table ne> "o ( ! w9d[s look+ into ! g>d5 ( ,exet]4 ,x seem$ a p]fect p>adise = a /ud5t4 ,i mu/ confess t ,i slightly alt]$ my op9ion :5 ,i _h to sit !re e day dur+ a sev]e w9t] )\t any fire1 %iv]+ & %ak+1 & almo/ unable to hold my p51 till k9d ,mr4 ,coxe1 ! sub-libr>ian1 took compassion on me & br\ght me a spl5did fur t _h be5 s5t him z a pres5t by a ,russian s*ol>1 :o _h witness$ ! mis]y ( ! ,libr>ian 9 ?is ,sib]ian ,libr>y4 ,n[ all ?is is *ang$4 ,! ,libr>y is s full ( /ud5ts1 bo? male & female1 t "o has difficulty 9 f9d+ a place1 c]ta9ly 9 f9d+ a quiet place2 & all sorts ( regulations h be5 introduc$ :i* h no d\bt become necess>y on acc\nt ( ! l>ge numb] ( read]s1 b :i* h completely *ang$1 or z "s w\ld say1 improv$ ! "* ( ! place4 ,z to "o improvem5t1 h[ev]1 !re c be no two op9ions4 ,! ,libr>y & ! read+-room1 ! s-call$ ,cam]a1 are n[ com=tably w>m$1 & /ud5ts may 9 ! latt] place read = twelve h\rs un9t]rupt$ly1 & n be turn$ out z we 7 by a w>n+ bell at f\r o'clock4 ,& woe to y if y fail$ to obey ! w>n+4 ,"o day an un=tunate read] 0 s absorb$ 9 8 book t he did n he> ! bell1 & 0 lock$ 94 ,he tri$ 9 va9 to attract att5tion f ! w9d[s1 = x 0 no pleasant prospect to pass a night among s _m gho/s4 ,at la/ he saw a solit>y woman1 & %\t$ to h] t he 0 lock$ 94 8,no10 %e said1 8y are n4 ,! ,libr>y is clos$ at f\r40 ,:e!r he sp5t ! night among ! books is n kn[n4 ,let u hope t he met ) a less logical p]son to release him f 8 cold prison4 ,dr4 ,b&9ell rul$ supreme 9 8 libr>y1 & ev5 ! ,curators trembl$ be=e him :5 he told !m :at _h be5 ! inv>iable cu/om ( ! ,libr>y = ye>s1 & c\ld n be alt]$4 ,&1 curi\sly en\gh1 he _h always funds at 8 disposal1 :i* is n ! case n[1 & :5ev] !re 0 a collection ( valuable ,,mss4 9 ! m>ket he (t5 prid$ himself on hav+ secur$ x long be=e any o!r libr>y _h ! money ready4 ,n[ & !n1 x is true1 he all[$ himself to be p]suad$ by a plausible sell] ( r>e books or ,,mss41 b g5]ally he 0 v w>y4 ,he 0 n always v c\rte\s to visitors1 & /ill less s to 8 "u-libr>ians4 ,! ,ori5tal "u-libr>ian ,pr(essor ,reay1 9 p>ticul>1 :o 0 old & some:at infirm1 _h mu* to suff] f him1 & ! language 9 :i* he 0 ord]$ ab\t 0 su* z w\ld n n[ be address$ to any m5ial4 ,& yet ,pr(essor ,reay belong$ to a v good family1 ?\gh ,dr4 ,b&9ell w\ld insi/ on call+ him ,ray1 & decl>$ t he _h no "r to ! e 9 8 "n4 ,9 rev5ge "s p w\ld give him an additional i & call him ,dr4 ,b&9elli1 :i* made him v angry1 because1 z he w\ld say to me1 8he _h nev] be5 "o ( ^? dirty =eign]s40 ,sil5ce 0 enjo9$ 9 ! libr>y1 b ! libr>ian's voice broke ?r\gh all rules ( sil5ce4 ,i rememb] once1 :5 ,pr(essor ,reay _h be5 look+ = ev] s long to f9d 8 spectacles )\t :i* he c\ld n read ! ,arabic ,,mss41 & _h ask$ ev]ybody :e!r !y _h se5 !m1 a voice came at la/ ?und]+ ?r\gh ! libr>y3 8,y left y\r spectacles on my *air1 y old ----1 & ,i sat on !m60 ,!re 0 an end ( spectacles & ,arabic ,,mss4 aft] t4 ,!re 7 two m5 only ( :om ,dr4 ,b&9ell & ,h4 ,o4 ,coxe also 7 afraid1 ,dr4 ,pusey1 :o 0 "o ( ! ,curators1 & lat] on1 ,j[ett1 ! ,ma/] ( ,balliol4 ,!re 0 a vacancy 9 ! ,ori5tal sub-libr>ian%ip1 & a v di/+ui%$ "y ,hebrew s*ol>1 ,william ,wright1 aft]w>ds ,pr(essor at ,cambridge1 0 c]ta9ly by f> ! be/ c&idate4 ,b z ill-luck--,i mean ill-luck = ! ,libr>y--w\ld h x1 he _h giv5 (f5ce by a lecture at ,dubl91 9 :i* he decl>$ t ! p ( ,canaan 7 ,semitic1 & n1 z /at$ 9 ,g5esis1 ! *ildr5 ( ,ham4 ,no "o d\bts ?is n[1 & e new inscription has confirm$ x4 ,/ill a /rong ef=t 0 made to repres5t ,dr4 ,wright z a mo/ dang]\s "y man1 & ?us to prev5t 8 appo9tm5t at ,ox=d4 ,! appo9tm5t 0 really 9 ! h&s ( ,dr4 ,b&9ell2 & aft] ,i _h frankly expla9$ to him ! motives ( ?is mis*iev\s agitation aga9/ ,dr4 ,wright1 & assur$ him t he 0 a s*ol> & by no means giv5 to :at 0 !n call$ 8free-h&l+ ( ! ,old ,te/am5t10 he promis$ me t he w\ld appo9t him & no "o else4 ,h[ev]1 poor man1 he 0 urg$ & ?reat5$ & fright5$1 & to my great surprise ! appo9tm5t 0 giv5 to "s "o else1 :o at t "t _h giv5 h>dly any pro(s ( indep5d5t "w z a ,semitic s*ol>1 ?\gh he aft]w>ds r5d]$ v good & hone/ s]vice4 ,i did n disguise my op9ion ( :at _h happ5$2 & = m ?an a ye> ,dr4 ,b&9ell nev] spoke to me nor ,i to him1 ?\gh we met almo/ daily at ! libr>y4 ,at la/ ! old man1 evid5tly feel+ t he _h be5 wrong1 came to tell me t he 0 sorry = :at _h happ5$1 b t x 0 n 8 fault3 aft] ?is1 ( c\rse1 all 0 =gott54 ,dr4 ,wright _h a mu* m brilliant c>e] op5$ to him1 fir/ at ! ,briti% ,museum1 & !n z pr(essor at ,cambridge1 ?an he c\ld possibly h _h z sub-libr>ian at ,ox=d4 ,he always rema9$ a s*ol>1 & nev] dabbl$ 9 !ology4 ,"s v heat$ correspond5ce pass$ at ! "t1 & ,i rememb] keep+ ! lett]s = a long :ile4 ,!y 7 curi\s z %[+ ! !n /ate ( !ological op9ion at ,ox=d2 b ,i h evid5tly put ! correspond5ce away s c>efully t n[h]e c ,i f9d x n[4 ,let x be =gott5 & =giv54 ,_m1 if n all1 ( ! /ories t ,i h writt5 d[n 9 ?is *apt] may be leg5d>y1 & !y naturally lose or ga9 z told by diff]5t p4 ,:o has n he>d diff]5t v]sions ( ! /ory ( a well-kn[n ,canon ( ,*ri/ ,*ur* 9 my e>ly days1 :o1 :5 r[+ on ! riv]1 saw a dr[n+ man lay+ hold ( 8 boat & ne>ly upsett+ x4 8,provid5tially10 he expla9$1 8,i _h br\ght my umbrella1 & ,i _h pres5ce ( m9d en\gh to hit him ov] ! knuckles4 ,he let g1 sank1 & nev] rose aga940 ,nobody1 ,i imag9e1 w\ld h v\*$ = ! tru? ( ?is /ory1 b x 0 s (t5 repeat$ t x provid$ ! old g5tleman ) a nickname1 t /uck to him always4 ,i c\ld add m ,ox=d /ories1 b x seems almo/ ill-natur$ to d s1 & ,i c\ld only say 9 mo/ cases relata ref]o4 ,:5 ,i fir/ came "h ,ox=d & ,ox=d society 7 to me s /range t ,i probably accept$ _m simil> /ories z gospel tru?4 ,my "y fri5ds h>dly treat$ me q fairly 9 ?is respect4 ,i _h _m que/ions to ask1 & my fri5ds evid5tly ?\ght x great fun to *aff me & to tell me /ories :i* ,i naturally believ$1 = !re 7 _m ?+s :i* seem$ to me v /range1 & yet !y 7 true & ,i _h to believe !m4 ,! exi/5ce ( ,fell[s :o receiv$ f #cjj to #hjj a ye>1 z a m]e s9ecure = life1 provid$ !y did n m>ry1 seem$ to me at fir/ p]fectly incr$ible4 ,9 ,g]many education at ,public ,s*ools & ,univ]sities 0 s *eap t ev5 ! poore/ c\ld manage to get :at 0 want$ = ! highe/ employm5ts1 p>ticul>ly if !y c\ld ga9 an exhibition or s*ol>%ip4 ,b aft] a man _h pass$ 8 exam9ations1 ! c\ntry or ! gov]nm5t _h no?+ m to d ) him4 8,swim or dr[n0 0 ! maxim foll[$ ev]y:]e2 & x 0 b natural t ! fir/ ye>s ( pr(essional life1 :e!r z lawy]s1 m$ical m51 or cl]gym51 7 ye>s ( great self-d5ial4 ,b !y 7 also ye>s ( int5se /ruggle1 & ! ye>s ( hung] are said to h acc\nt$ = a great deal ( excell5t "w 9 ord] to =ce ! doors to bett] employm5t4 ,to imag9e t aft] ! c\ntry _h done its duty by provid+ s*ools & univ]sities1 x w\ld provide crut*es = m5 :o ought to le>n to walk by !mselves1 0 beyond my compreh5sion1 p>ticul>ly :5 ,i 0 told h[ l>ge a sum 0 ye>ly sp5t by ! colleges 9 pay+ ^! fell[%ips )\t requir+ any quid pro quo4 ,hav+ once come to believe t1 & sev]al o!r to me un9telligible ?+s at ,ox=d1 ,i 0 ready to believe almo/ any?+ my fri5ds told me4 ,!re are "s fam\s /one images1 = in/ance1 r\nd ! ,!atre & ! ,a%molean ,museum4 ,!y are hide\s1 = ! s&/one ( :i* !y are made has crumbl$ away aga9 & aga91 b ev5 :5 !y 7 re/or$1 ! same brittle /one 0 us$4 ,!y are 9 ! =m ( ,h]mae1 & 7 plann$ by no less an ar*itect ?an ,sir ,*ri/oph] ,wr54 ,:5 ,i ask$ :at !y 7 meant =1 ,i 0 assur$ q s]i\sly t !y 7 images ( =m] ,heads ( ,h\ses4 ,i believ$ x1 ?\gh ,i express$ my surprise t ! /one-mason :o made new heads1 :5 ! old %[$ h>dly m ?an two eyes & a nose1 & a v wide m\?1 %\ld c>efully copy ! crumbl+ faces1 because1 z ,i 0 in=m$1 he _h be5 told to copy ! =m] g5tlem54 ,x 0 c]ta9ly a v common amusem5t ( my "y und]graduate fri5ds to make fun ( ! ,heads ( ,h\ses4 ,!y did n seem to feel t %iv] ( unspeakable awe = !m ( :i* ,bi%op ,?orold speaks2 nay1 !y 7 any?+ b respectful 9 speak+ ( ! ,doctors ( ,div9ity 9 _! r$ g[ns ) black velvet sleeves4 ,if x is difficult = old m5 always to und]/& "y m51 x is c]ta9ly ev5 m difficult = "y m5 to und]/& old m54 ,!re is a v old say+1 8,"y m5 ?9k t old m5 are fools1 b old m5 "k t "y m5 are40 ,?\gh v "y myself1 ,i came to "k sev]al ( ! old ,heads ( ,h\ses1 & ?\gh !y c]ta9ly _h _! peculi>ities1 !y did by no means all belong to ! age ( ! ,dodo4 ,!y 7 enjoy+ _! otium cum dignitate1 z befits g5tlem51 s*ol>s1 & div9es1 & !y c]ta9ly des]v$ great] respect f ! und]graduates ?an !y receiv$4 ,at ! annual ,enca5ia1 a great deal ( lic5ce 0 all[$ to ! "y m52 & ,i "k ( sev]al /rang]s1 especially =eign]s1 :o h be5 sc&aliz$ at ! riot\s behavi\r ( ! und]graduates 9 ! ,!atre1 ! ,ox=d ,aula1 :5 ! ,vice-,*ancellor /ood up to address ! assembl$ audi5ce4 ,my fir/ exp]i5ce ( ?is 0 ) ,dr4 ,plumptre1 :o1 z ,i h said1 0 v tall & /ately2 :5 8 fir/ words 7 n q di/9ct1 ! und]graduates %\t$1 8,speak up1 old /ick40 ,:5 ! ,w>d5 ( ,wadham1 ! ,rev4 ,dr4 ,symons1 0 %[+ "s pretty "y ladies to _! seats 9 ! ,!atre1 he 0 ?reat5$ by ! "y m51 :o yell$ at ! top ( _! voices1 8,i'll tell ,lydia1 y wick$ old man40 ,n[ ,lydia 0 8 mo/ excell5t sp\se4 ,at fir/ ! rem>ks ( ! und]graduates at ! ,enca5ia1 or r ,saturnalia1 7 mo/ly good-natur$ & at lea/ witty2 b !y at la/ became s rude t di/+ui%$ m51 :om ! ,univ]sity wi%$ to hon\r by conf]r+ on !m honor>y degrees1 felt deeply (f5d$4 ,sir ,ar?ur ,helps decl>$ t he came to receive an hon\r1 & receiv$ an insult4 ,well d ,i rememb] ! ,rev4 ,dr4 ,salmon1 :o 0 ask$ :]e he _h left 8 lob/] sauce2 ,dr4 ,w5dell ,holmes 0 %\t$ at1 :e!r he _h come across ! ,atlantic 9 8 8,"o ,hoss ,%ay02 ! ,"r ,hon4 ,w4 ,h4 ,smi?1 ,fir/ ,"l ( ! ,admiralty1 0 pres5t$ ) a ,p9a=e1 & ,"l ,wolseley ) a ,black ,wat*4 ,!re 0 a c]ta9 am\nt ( wit 9 ^! allusions1 & ! be/ way to take ! academic r[ & riot 0 ,t5nyson's1 :o told me on com+ out t 8he felt all ! "t z if /&+ on ! %+le ( ! sea %ore1 ! /orm h[l+1 & ! spray cov]+ him "r & left40 ,aft] a "t1 h[ev]1 ^! ,saturnalia _h to be /opp$1 & !y 7 /opp$ 9 a curi\s way1 by giv+ ladies seats among ! und]graduates4 ,x speaks well = !m t _! reg>d = ! ladies re/ra9$ !m1 & made !m behave l g5tlem54 ,! reign ( ! ,heads ( ,h\ses1 :i* 0 9 full =ce :5 ,i fir/ settl$ 9 ,ox=d1 began to wane :5 x 0 lea/ expect$4 ,!re _h1 h[ev]1 be5 grumbl+s among ! ,fell[s & ,tutors at ,ox=d1 :o felt !mselves aggriev$ by ! self-will$ int]f]5ce ( ! ,heads ( ,colleges 9 _! tutorial "w1 &1 x may be1 res5t$ ! airs assum$ by m5 :o1 aft] all1 7 _! equals1 & 9 no s5se _! bett]s1 9 ! ,univ]sity4 ,society di/9ctly pr(it$ :5 ,fell[s & ,tutors 7 all[$ to m>ry1 & :5 sev]al ( ! newly-elect$ ( ! ,heads ( ,h\ses1 hav+ wives & daught]s1 op5$ _! h\ses1 & _h int]e/+ p to d9e ) !m f ! neighb\rhood & f ,london4 ,! ,dean]y ( ,*ri/ ,*ur* 0 n only made ar*itecturally into a new h\se1 b "u ,dr4 ,liddell1 ) 8 *>m+ wife & daught]s1 became a social c5tre n easily rivall$ any:]e else4 ,!re "o met n only royalty1 ! "y ,pr9ce ( ,wales1 b _m em95t writ]s1 arti/s1 & political m5 f ,london1 ,glad/one1 ,disraeli1 ,ri*mond1 ,rusk91 & _m o!rs4 ,ano!r bright h\se ( ! new era 0 t ( ! ,pr9cipal ( ,bras5ose1 ,dr4 ,cradock1 & 8 *e]ful & mo/ amus+ wife4 ,!re "o (t5 met su* m5 z ,"l ,russell1 ,sir ,george ,c4 ,lewis1 "y ,h>c\rt1 & _m m4 ,%e 0 ! true ,dresd5 *9a m>quise1 ) h] amus+ sallies1 :i* no d\bt (t5 gave (f5ce to grave ,heads ( ,h\ses & s$ate ,pr(essors4 ,no "o knew h] age1 %e 0 s "y2 & yet %e _h be5 maid ( hon\r to "s ,que51 z ,i told h] once1 to ,que5 ,anne4 ,hav+ be5 maid ( hon\r1 %e nev] conceal$ h] own peculi> feel+s ab\t p :o _h n be5 pres5t$4 ,:5 %e want$ to be left alone1 %e w\ld look out ( w9d[1 & tell visitors :o came to call1 8,v sorry1 b ,i am n at home to-day40 ,que5's ,college also1 "u ,dr4 ,?omson1 ! future ,ar*bi%op ( ,york1 0 a mo/ hospitable h\se4 ,mrs4 ,?omson presid$ ov] x ) h] peculi> grace & g5u9e k9dness1 & _m a pleasant ev5+ ,i sp5t !re ) musical p]=mances4 ,b "h1 too1 ! old leav5 ( ,ox=d bur/ =? sometimes4 ,( c\rse1 we g5]ally p]=m$ ! music ( ,h&el & o!r classical au?ors2 ,m5delssohn's compositions 7 /ill consid]$ z m]e twaddle by "s ( ! old s*ool4 ,at "o ( ^! ev5+s1 ! old organi/ ( ,new ,college1 ) 8 wood5 leg1 aft] sitt+ ?r\gh a rehe>sal ( ,m5delssohn's ,hymn ( ,praise1 :i* ,i 0 conduct+ at ! pian(orte1 walk$ up to me1 z ,i ?\ght1 to ?ank me2 b no1 he bur/ out 9 a torr5t ( real & some:at co>se abuse ( me1 = v5tur+ to introduce su* flimsy music at ,ox=d4 ,i did n feel v guilty1 & =tunately ,i rema9$ sil5t1 :e!r f actual bewild]m5t or f a bett] cause1 ,i c h>dly tell4 ,illu/ration3 ,f4 ,max ,mll] ,ag$ #cj4 ,long be=e ,commissions came d[n on ,ox=d a new life seem$ to be spr++ up !re1 & :at 0 =m]ly ! exception became m & m ! rule among ! "y ,fell[s & ,tutors4 ,!y saw :at a spl5did opportunity 0 !irs1 hav+ ! v fl[] ( ,engl& to educate1 hav+ ! future ( ,engli% society to =m4 ,!y c]ta9ly made ! be/ ( x1 help$1 ,i believe1 by ! s-call$ ,ox=d ,movem5t1 :i*1 :atev] came ( x aft]w>ds1 0 c]ta9ly 9 ! beg9n+ ?or\ghly g5u9e & consci5ti\s4 ,! ,tutors saw a good deal ( ! "y m5 confid$ to _! c>e1 & ! result 0 t ev5 :at 0 call$ ! 8fa/ set0 ?\ght x a f9e ?+ to take a good class4 ,i c\ld m5tion a numb] ( "y noblem5 & weal?y und]graduates :o1 9 my e>ly ye>s1 read = a fir/ class & took x2 & my exp]i5ce has c]ta9ly be5 t ^? :o took a fir/ class came out 9 lat] life z em95t & useful memb]s ( society4 ,n t em95ce 9 political1 cl]ical1 lit]>y1 & sci5tific life 0 re/rict$ to fir/ classes1 f> f x4 ,b fir/-class m5 r>ely fail$ to appe> aga9 on ! surface 9 lat] life4 ,x may be true t a fir/ class did n always mean a fir/-class man1 b x always seem$ to mean a man :o _h le>n$ h[ to "w hone/ly1 :e!r he became ,prime ,m9i/] or ,ar*bi%op1 or sp5t 8 days 9 "o ( ! public (fices1 or ev5 9 a c\nt+-h\se or newspap] (fice4 ,i felt x 0 an excell5t mixture if a "y man1 aft] tak+ a good degree at ,ox=d1 sp5t a ye> or two at a ,g]man ,univ]sity4 ,he g5]ally came back ) fre% ideas1 knew :at k9d ( "w /ill _h to be done 9 ! diff]5t bran*es ( /udy1 & did x ) a p]sev]ance t soon produc$ mo/ excell5t results4 ,( c\rse !re 0 always ! difficulty t "y m5 wi%$ to make _! way 9 life1 t is to make a liv+4 ,! ,*ur*1 ! b>1 & ! hospital1 absorb$ _m ( ^? :o 9 ,g]many w\ld h look$ =w>d to a ,univ]sity c>e]4 ,9 my own subject m p>ticul>ly1 my v be/ pupils did n see _! way to ga9+ ev5 an indep5d5ce1 unless !y gave _! "t to fir/ secur+ a curacy1 or a ma/]%ip at s*ool2 & !y usually f\nd t1 9 ord] to d _! "w consci5ti\sly1 !y _h to give up _! fav\rite /udies 9 :i* !y w\ld c]ta9ly h done excell5t "w1 if !re _h be5 no dira necessitas4 ,i (t5 tri$ to p]suade my fri5ds at ,ox=d to make ! fell[%ips really useful by conc5trat+ !m & giv+ /udi\s m5 a *ance ( devot+ !mselves at ! ,univ]sity to non-lucrative /udies4 ,b ! feel+ ( ! majority 0 always aga9/ :at 0 call$ d]isively ,orig9al ,rese>*1 & ! fell[%ip-funds cont9u$ to be fritt]$ away1 paym5t by results be+ consid]$ a totally mi/ak5 pr9ciple1 s t (t51 z 9 ! case ( ! new sept5nial fell[%ips1 !re rema9$ ! paym5t only1 b no results4 ,/ill all ?is became cle> to me at a mu* lat] "t only4 ,my fir/ ye>s at ,ox=d 7 sp5t 9 a p]fect bewild]m5t ( joy & admiration4 ,no "o c see t ,univ]sity = ! fir/ "t1 p>ticul>ly 9 spr+ or autumn1 )\t be+ en*ant$ ) x4 ,to me x seem$ a p]fect p>adise1 & ,i c\ld h wi%$ = myself no bett] lot ?an t :i* ! k9dness ( my fri5ds lat] secur$ = me !re4 ,,*apt] ,,viii ,,e>ly ,,fri5ds ,,at ,,ox=d ,i 0 /ill v "y :5 ,i came to settle at ,ox=d1 only tw5ty-f\r 9 fact2 &1 ?\gh occasionally hon\r$ by invitations f ,heads ( ,h\ses & ,pr(essors1 ,i naturally liv$ *iefly ) und]graduates & junior ,fell[s1 su* z ,grant1 ,sell>1 ,palgrave1 ,mori]1 & o!rs4 ,grant1 aft]w>ds ,sir ,alex&] ,grant & ,pr9cipal ( ! ,univ]sity ( ,ed9burgh1 0 a delightful companion4 ,he _h always some?+ new 9 8 m9d1 & discuss$ ) _m fla%es ( wit & satire4 ,he possess$ an ari/ocratic contempt = any?+ commonplace1 or self-evid5t1 s t "o _h to be c>eful 9 conv]s+ ) him4 ,b he 0 g5]\s1 & 8 laugh reconcil$ "o to "s ( 8 %>p sallies4 ,h[ little "o anticipates ! future greatness ( "o's fri5ds4 ,!y all seem to u no bett] ?an ourselves1 :5 sudd5ly !y em]ge4 ,grant _h %[n :at he c\ld d by 8 edition ( ,ari/otle's ,e?ics4 ,he became "o ( ! ,pr(essors at ! new ,univ]sity at ,bombay & contribut$ mu* to ! fir/ />t+ ( t ,univ]sity1 s w>mly patroniz$ by ,sir ,*>les ,trevelyan4 ,on return+ to ?is c\ntry he 0 *os5 to fill ! di/+ui%$ place ( ,pr9cipal ( ! ,ed9burgh ,univ]sity4 ,m 0 expect$ ( him :5 he enjoy$ ?is otium cum dignitate1 b 8 heal? seem$ to h suff]$ 9 ! en]vat+ climate ( ,india1 &1 ?\gh he enjoy$ 8 return to 8 fri5ds mo/ fully & sp5d+ 8 life z a fri5d among fri5ds1 he di$ comp>atively "y1 & p]haps )\t fulfill+ all ! hopes t 7 ent]ta9$ ( him4 ,b he 0 a ?or\ghly g5ial man1 & 8 h&%ake & ! tw9kle ( 8 eye :5 meet+ an old fri5d w n easily be =gott54 ,sell> 0 ano!r ,scot*man :om ,i knew z an und]graduate at ,balliol4 ,:5 ,i fir/ came to "k him he 0 full ( anxieties ab\t 8 heal?1 & greatly occupi$ ) ! usual d\bts ab\t religion1 p>ticul>ly ! pres5ce ( evil or ( any?+ imp]fect 9 ?is _w4 ,he 0 an hone/ fell[1 w>mly atta*$ to 8 fri5ds2 & no "o c\ld wi% to h a bett] fri5d to /& up = him on all occasions & aga9/ all odds4 ,he aft]w>ds became happily m>ri$ & a useful ,pr(essor ( ,lat9 at ,ed9burgh4 ,i /ay$ ) him lat] 9 life 9 ,scotl& & f\nd him always ! same1 really enjoy+ 8 fri5ds' society & a talk ov] old days4 ,he _h begun to ail :5 ,i saw him la/1 b ! old boy 0 always !re1 ev5 :5 he 0 mis]able ab\t 8 *iefly imag9>y mis]ies4 ,soon aft] ,i _h left him ,i receiv$ 8 la/ message & f>ewell f 8 dea?b$4 ,we are told t all ?is is v natural & :at we mu/ be prep>$ =--b :at cold gaps x leaves4 ,my ?\ghts (t5 return to him1 z if he 7 /ill among ! liv+1 & !n "o feels "o's own lonel9ess & fri5dlessness aga9 & aga94 ,palgrave r\s$ great expectations among und]graduates at ,ox=d1 b he kept u wait+ = "s "t4 ,he took e>ly to (fice life 9 ! ,educational ,dep>tm5t1 & ?is seems to h gr\nd him d[n & unfitt$ him = o!r "w4 ,he _h a wond]ful gift ( admir+1 8 great h]o be+ ,t5nyson1 & he 0 m ?an disappo9t$ if o!rs did n jo9 9 8 unqualifi$ panegyrics ( ! great poet4 ,at la/1 some:at late 9 life1 he 0 elect$ ,pr(essor ( ,poetry at ,ox=d1 & gave "s mo/ le>n$ & in/ructive lectures4 ,8 k ( ,engli% ,lit]ature1 p>ticul>ly poetry1 0 q a/\nd+4 ,i c]ta9ly nev] w5t to him to ask him a "q t he did n answ] at once & ) exhau/ive fullness4 ,"s ( 8 fri5ds compla9$ ( 8 great comm& ( language1 & ev5 ,t5nyson1 ,i am told1 f\nd x sometimes too mu*4 ,all ,i c say is t to me x 0 a pleasure to li/5 to him4 ,i owe him p>ticul> ?anks = hav+1 9 ! k9de/ mann]1 revis$ my fir/ ,engli% compositions4 ,he 0 always ready & indefatigable1 & ,i c]ta9ly ow$ a good deal to 8 corrections & 8 un/9t$ advice4 ,8 ,gold5 ,treasury has become a national possession1 & c]ta9ly speaks well bo? = 8 ext5sive k & = 8 good ta/e4 ,la/ly !re 0 ,mori]1 ( :om c]ta9ly no "o expect$ :5 he 0 at ,balliol t he w\ld rise to be ,briti% ,ambassador at ,/4 ,pet]sburg4 ,8 e>ly education _h be5 some:at neglect$1 b :5 he came to ,balliol he work$ h>d to pass a cr$itable exam9ation4 ,he 0 a giant 9 size1 v good-look+1 & 8 mann]s1 :5 he lik$1 mo/ *>m+ & attractive4 ,be+ ! son ( a diplomati/ !re 0 some?+ bo? ,engli% & =eign 9 8 mann]1 & he c]ta9ly 0 a g5]al fav\rite at ,ox=d4 ,8 great desire 0 to ent] ! diplomatic s]vice1 b :5 t 0 impossible1 he f\nd employm5t = a "t 9 ! ,education ,(fice4 ,b society 9 ,london 0 too mu* = him1 he 0 made = society1 & society 0 delight$ to receive him4 ,b x 0 difficult = him at ! same "t to fulfil 8 duties at ! ,education ,(fice1 & ! result 0 t he _h to give up 8 place4 ,?+s began to look s]i\s1 :5 =tunately ,"l ,ab]de51 a great fri5d ( 8 fa!r1 f\nd him "s diplomatic employm5t2 & t once f\nd1 ,mori] 0 9 8 elem5t4 ,he 0 (t5 almo/ reckless2 b :ile sev]al ( 8 fri5ds came altoge!r to grief1 he manag$ always to fall on 8 feet & keep afloat :ile o!rs w5t d[n4 ,z an und]graduate he came to me to read ,greek ) me1 & ,i confess t ) su* mi/akes 9 8 ,greek pap]s z in/ead ( 1 ,i trembl$ = 8 exam9ations4 ,h[ev]1 he did well 9 ! s*ools1 kn[+ h[ to hide 8 weak po9ts & h[ to make ! be/ ( 8 /rong ones4 ,i travell$ ) him 9 ,g]many1 & :5 ! ,s*leswig-,hol/e9 "q arose1 he wrote a pamphlet :i* c]ta9ly might h co/ him 8 diplomatic c>e]4 ,he ask$ me to all[ x to be und]/ood t ! pamphlet1 :i* did full ju/ice to ! claims ( ,hol/e9 & ( ,g]many1 _h be5 writt5 by me4 ,i receiv$ _m complim5ts1 :i* ,i tri$ to p>ry z well z ,i c\ld4 ,=tunately ,"l ,john ,russell /ood by ,mori]1 & 8 prophecies did c]ta9ly turn out true4 8,don't let ! ,g]mans awake f _! slumb]s & f9d a "w ready made = !m on :i* !y all agree40 ,b ! signatories ( ! treaty ( ,london did ! v ?+ aga9/ :i* ,mori] _h rais$ 8 w>n+ voice1 z ! fri5d ( ,g]many z x 01 ?\gh p]haps n ( ! ,g]many t 0 to be4 ,s*leswig-,hol/e9 me]-ums*lung5 became ! mat*1 7! ,s*wefel-hlz*571 t 0 to light ! fire ( ,g]man unity1 a unity :i* = a "t may n h be5 exactly :at ,engl& c\ld h wi%$ =1 b :i* 9 ! future w become1 we hope1 ! safety ( ,europe & ! support ( ,engl&4 ,mori]'s lat] advance 9 8 diplomatic c>e] 0 c]ta9ly mo/ successful4 ,he possess$ ! v important art ( ga9+ ! confid5ce ( ! cr[n$ heads & m9i/]s he _h to deal )4 ,bism>ck1 x is true1 c\ld n be> him1 & tri$ sev]al times to trip him up4 ,ev5 :ile ,mori] 0 at ,b]l91 z a ,secret>y ( ,legation1 ,bism>ck ask$ = 8 removal1 b ,"l ,granville simply decl9$ to remove a "y diplomati/ :o gave him in=mation on all p>ties 9 ,g]many1 & to d s _h to mix ) p :om ,bism>ck did n approve (4 ,besides1 ,mori] 0 always a p]sona grata ) ! ,cr[n ,pr9ce & ! ,cr[n ,pr9cess1 & t 0 en\gh to make ,bism>ck dislike him4 ,lat] 9 life ,bism>ck accus$ him ( hav+ convey$ private in=mation ( ! milit>y position ( ! ,g]mans to ! ,fr5* ,gu>ds1 su* in=mation be+ d]iv$ f ! ,engli% ,c\rt4 ,! *>ge 0 ridicul\s4 ,mori] 0 ?r\gh\t ! w> a sympa?iz] ) ,g]many z aga9/ ,france4 ,! ,engli% ,c\rt _h no milit>y in=mation to convey or to communicate to ,mori]1 & ,mori] 0 too mu* ( a diplomati/ & a g5tleman1 if by accid5t he _h possess$ any su* in=mation1 to betray su* a secret to an enemy 9 ! field4 ,bism>ck 0 completely r\t$1 ?\gh 8 son seem$ incl9$ to fa/5 a duel on ! ,engli% diplomati/4 ,mori] rose high] & high]1 & at la/ became ,ambassador at ,/4 ,pet]sburg4 ,:5 ,i laugh$ & congratulat$ him he said1 8,he mu/ be a great fool :o does n rea* ! top ( ! diplomatic tree40 ,t 0 too mu* mode/y1 & yet mode/y 0 n exactly 8 fault2 b he agre$ ) me z to quam p>va sapi5tia regitur mundus4 ,no?+ c\ld seem m prosp]\s ?an my fri5d ,mori]'s c>e]2 b few p knew h[ utt]ly mis]able he really 04 ,he _h "o son1 9 _m respects ! v image ( 8 fa!r1 a giant 9 /ature1 v h&some1 & mo/ attractive4 ,9 spite ( all we said to him he w\ld n s5d 8 son to a public s*ool 9 ,engl&1 b kept him ) him at ! diff]5t embassies1 :]e 8 only companions 7 ! "y atta*s & secret>ies4 ,he _h a private tutor1 & :5 t tutor decl>$ t "y ,mori] 0 fit = ! ,univ]sity1 8 fa!r manag$ to get him into ,balliol1 recomm5d+ him to ! special c>e ( ! ,ma/]4 ,he actually liv$ 9 ! ,ma/]'s h\se = a "t1 b enjoy$ ! greate/ lib]ty t an und]graduate at ,ox=d may enjoy4 ,8 fa!r 0 wrapp$ up 9 8 boy1 b at ! same "t tri$ to fright5 him into h>d "w1 or at lea/ into gett+ ?r\gh ! exam9ations4 ,all 0 9 va92 "y ,mori] 0 s n]v\s t he c\ld nev] pass an exam9ation4 ,:at might be expect$ foll[$1 & ! fa!r _h at la/ to remove him to beg9 "w z an honor>y atta* at 8 own embassy4 ,i lik$ ! "y man v mu*1 b my own impression is t 8 n]v\sness q unfitt$ him = s]i\s "w4 ,! end 0 beyond description sad4 ,he w5t to ,s\? ,africa 9 ! police =ce1 di/+ui%$ himself v mu*1 came back to ,engl&1 & !n on 8 second voyage to ! ,cape di$ sudd5ly on bo>d ! /eam]4 ,i h seldom se5 su* utt] mis]y z 8 fa!r's4 ,he lov$ 8 son & ! son lov$ 8 fa!r passionately1 b ! fa!r expect$ m ?an x 0 physically & m5tally possible = ! son to d4 ,h5ce arose misund]/&+s1 & yet b5ea? ! surface !re 0 ?is passionate love1 l ! love ( lov]s4 ,:5 ,i saw my old fri5d la/1 he cri$ & sobb$ l a *ild3 8 he>t 0 really brok54 ,he w5t on = a few ye>s m1 suff]+ mu* f ill heal?1 b really kill$ at la/ by 8 utt] mis]y4 ,i knew him 9 ! bright morn+ ( 8 life1 at ! m]idian ( 8 great success1 & la/ 9 ! d>k night :5 light & life seems gone1 :5 ! moon & all ! />s are ext+ui%$1 & no?+ rema9s b pati5t suff]+ & ! hope ( a bright] morn to come4 ,h[ little "o dreamt ( all ?is :5 we 7 "y1 & :5 an ambassador1 nay1 ev5 a pr(essor1 seem$ to u f> beyond ! rea* ( our ambition4 ,i c\ld g on m5tion+ _m m names ( m5 ) :om ,i liv$ at ,ox=d 9 ! mo/ delightful intimacy1 & :o aft]w>ds turn$ up z bi%ops1 ar*bi%ops1 judges1 m9i/]s1 & all ! re/4 ,true1 x is q natural t x %\ld be s ) a man :o1 z ,i did1 began 8 ,engli% life almo/ z an und]graduate among und]graduates4 ,ne>ly all ,engli%m5 :o receive a lib]al education mu/ pass ei!r ?r\gh ,ox=d or ?r\gh ,cambridge1 & ,i 0 no d\bt lucky 9 mak+ ?us e>ly ! acqua9tance ( a numb] ( m5 :o lat] 9 life became des]v$ly em95t4 ,! only drawback 0 t1 kn[+ my fri5ds v intimately1 ,i did n p]haps lat] pres]ve on all occasions t def]5ce :i* ! dignity ( an ambassador or ( an ar*bi%op has a "r to dem&4 ,?omson 0 a de> fri5d ( m9e :5 he 0 /ill a fell[ ( ,que5's ,college4 ,we work$ toge!r1 z may be se5 by my contributions to 8 ,laws ( ,?\ght1 & ! translation ( a ,v$ic hymn :i* he help$ me to make4 ,i ?9k he _h a k9d ( anticipation ( :at 0 9 /ore = him4 ,?\gh = a "t he _h to be satisfi$1 ev5 :5 he 0 m>ri$1 ) a v small ,london liv+1 he soon rose 9 ! ,*ur*1 at a "t :5 cl]gym5 ( a lib]al way ( ?9k+ _h n mu* *ance ( ,cr[n pref]m5t4 ,b hav+ gone at ! head ( a deputation to ,"l ,palm]/on1 to in=m him t ,glad/one's next election z memb] = ,ox=d 0 becom+ d\btful1 ow+ to all ! bi%oprics be+ giv5 to ! ,l[ ,*ur* p>ty--! p>ty ( ,"l ,%aftesbury--,palm]/on rememb]$ 8 /ately & c\rte\s be>+1 & :5 ! see ( ,gl\ce/] fell vacant1 gave him t bi%opric to sil5ce ,glad/one's support]s4 ,?is 0 a v unexpect$ pref]m5t at ,ox=d1 b ,?omson made su* good use ( 8 opportunity t1 :5 ! ,ar*bi%opric ( ,york became vacant1 & ,palm]/on f\nd x difficult to make 8 own or ,"l ,%aftesbury's nom9ee acceptable to ! ,que51 he sugge/$ t any "o ( ! lately elect$ bi%ops approv$ ( by ! ,cr[n might g to ,york1 & "s "o else fill ! see ?us vacat$4 ,x s happ5$ t ,?omson's "n 0 ! fir/ to be m5tion$1 & he 0 made ,ar*bi%op1 probably "o ( ! y\nge/ ,ar*bi%ops ,engl& has ev] kn[n4 ,he c]ta9ly fulfill$ all expectations & prov$ himself ! p's ,ar*bi%op1 = he 0 himself ! son ( a small tradesman1 a fact ( :i* he 0 nev] a%am$1 ?\gh 8 enemies did n fail to ca/ x 9 8 tee?4 ,i confess ,i felt at fir/ a little awkw>d ) my old fri5d :o =m]ly _h discuss$ e possible religi\s & philosophical problem q freely ) me1 & 0 n[ ,8 ,grace ! ,"l ,ar*bi%op1 ) a palace to inhabit & an income ( ab\t #aj1jjj a ye>4 ,h[ev]1 ?\gh z a ,g]man & z a fri5d ( ,buns5 ,i 0 look$ ^u z a k9d ( h]etic1 ,i nev] made ! ,ar*bi%op blu% = 8 old fri5d1 & ,i always f\nd him ! same to ! end ( 8 life1 k9d1 c\rte\s1 & ready to help1 ?\gh x is b fair to rememb] t an ,ar*bi%op ( ,york is "o ( ! fir/ subjects ( ! ,que51 & _c d or say ev]y?+ t he might l to d or to say4 ,:5 ,i _h to ask him to d some?+ = a fri5d ( m9e1 :o z a cl]gyman _h giv5 great (f5ce by 8 v lib]al op9ions1 he did all he c\ld d1 ?\gh he might h incurr$ great obloquy by s do+4 ,b :5 ,i ?9k ( ^! m51 fri5ds & acqua9tances ( m9e1 :om ,i rememb] z "y m51 v able & h>d work+ no d\bt1 yet n s entirely diff]5t f o!rs :o ?r\gh life rema9$ unkn[n1 x is z if ,i _h slept ?r\gh a numb] ( ye>s & dreamt1 & _h !n sudd5ly awoke to a new life4 ,"s ( my fri5ds1 ,i am glad to say1 ,i always f\nd ! same1 :e!r 9 erm9e or 9 lawn sleeves2 o!rs1 h[ev]1 ,i am sorry to say1 _h become some?+1 ! old boy 9 !m _h vani%$1 & no?+ 0 to be se5 except ! bi%op1 ! judge1 or ! m9i/]4 ,x 0 n = me to rem9d !m ( _! =m] self1 & to make !m d\bt _! own id5tity1 b ,i (t5 felt ! tru? ( ,mat!w ,arnold's spee*es1 :o1 9 social position1 nev] rose beyond t ( inspector ( s*ools1 & :o (t5 laugh$ :5 at great d9n]s he f\nd himself surr\nd$ by _! ,graces1 _! ,excell5cies1 & my ,lords1 recogniz+ faces t sat bel[ him at s*ool & ^: names 9 ! class li/s did n occupy s high a place z 8 own4 ,n t ,mat!w ,arnold 0 dissatisfi$2 he knew 8 wor?1 b1 z he himself ask$ = no?+1 x is /range t 8 fri5ds %\ld nev] h ask$ = some?+ = him1 :i* w\ld h %[n to ! _w at l>ge t he _h n be5 left beh9d 9 ! race4 ,x /rikes "o t :ile he 0 at ,ox=d1 few p only detect$ 9 ,arnold ! poet or ! man ( rem>kable g5ius4 ,i _h _m lett]s f him1 b ,i nev] kept !m1 & ,i (t5 blame myself n[ t 9 81 z 9 o!r cases1 ,i %\ld h ?r[n away lett]s z ( no importance4 ,!n sudd5ly came ! "t :5 he return$ to ,ox=d z ! poet1 z ! ,pr(essor ( poetry1 nay1 aft]w>ds z ! philosoph] also1 plac$ high by public op9ion among ! liv+ wor?ies ( ,engl&4 ,:at 0 sometimes aga9/ him 0 8 want ( s]i\sness4 ,a laugh f 8 he>]s or read]s seem$ to be m valu$ by him ?an _! s]i\s opposition1 or _! conv9c$ ass5t4 ,he tru/$1 l o!rs1 to p]siflage1 & ! result 0 t :5 he tri$ to be s]i\s1 p c\ld n =get t he might at any "t turn r\nd & smile1 & decl9e to be tak5 au gr& srieux4 ,p d n "k :at a dang]\s game ?is ,fr5* p]siflage is1 p>ticul>ly 9 ,engl&1 & h[ difficult x becomes to ex*ange x aft]w>ds = real s]i\sness4 ,^? e>ly ,ox=d days 7 bright days = me1 & n[1 :5 ^? "y & old faces1 :e!r und]graduates or ar*bi%ops1 rise up aga9 be=e me1 ,i be+ almo/ ! only "o left ( t happy company1 ,i ask aga91 8,did !y also belong to a m]e dreaml&1 !y :o gave life to my life1 & made ,engl& my real home80 ,:5 ,i fir/ saw !m at ,ox=d1 ,i 0 really an und]graduate1 ?\gh ,i _h tak5 my ,doctor's degree at ,leipzig4 ,i liv$1 9 fact1 my happy univ]sity life ov] aga91 & x w\ld be difficult to say :i* academical ye>s ,i enjoy$ m1 ^? at ,leipzig & ,b]l91 or ^? at ,ox=d4 ,!re 7 int]m$iate ye>s 9 ,p>is1 b dur+ my /ay !re ,i saw b little ( /ud5ts & /ud5t life4 ,i 0 too mu* oppress$ ) c>es & anxieties ab\t my pres5t & future to ?9k mu* ( society & enjoym5t4 ,at ,ox=d1 ^! c>es _h become f> less1 & ,i c\ld by h>d "w e>n z mu* money z ,i want$1 & c>$ to sp5d4 ,9 ,p>is1 ,i 0 already some?+ ( a s*ol> & writ]2 at ,ox=d ,i became once m ! und]graduate4 ,?is "y society into :i* ,i 0 receiv$ 0 c]ta9ly mo/ attractive1 ?\gh t x conta9$ ! g]ms ( future greatness nev] /ruck me at ! "t4 ,:at /ruck me 0 ! g5]al tone ( ! conv]sation4 ,( c\rse1 z ,"l ,palm]/on said ( himself :5 he 0 no long] v "y1 8boys w be boys10 b !re nev] 0 any?+ rude or vulg> 9 _! conv]sation1 & ,i h>dly ev] he>d an (f5sive rem>k among !m4 ,mo/ ( my fri5ds came f ,balliol1 & 7 s]i\s-m9d$ m51 _m ( !m occupi$ & tr\bl$ by religi\s1 philosophical1 & social problems4 ,:at puzzl$ me mo/ 0 ! entire abs5ce ( duels4 ,occasionally !re 7 squabbles & high words1 :i* among ,g]man /ud5ts c\ld h _h "o result only--a duel4 ,b at ,ox=d1 ei!r a man apologiz$ at once or ! next morn+1 & ! matt] 0 =gott51 or1 if a man prov$ himself a cad or a snob1 he 0 simply dropp$4 ,i d n mean to condemn ! /ud5ts' duels 9 ,g]many altoge!r4 ,consid]+ h[ mix$ ! society ( ,g]man univ]sities is1 & ! p]fect equality t reigns among !m--!y all call$ ea* o!r 8?\0 9 my "t--! son ( a g5tleman requir$ "s k9d ( protection aga9/ ! son ( a but*] or ( a day-lab\r]4 ,box+ & fi/icuffs 7 entirely =bidd5 among /ud5ts1 s t !re rema9$ no?+ to a "y /ud5t :o want$ to escape f ! insults ( a "y ruffian1 b to call him out4 ,z soon z a *all5ge 0 giv51 all abuse ceas$ at once1 & su* 0 ! p[] ( public op9ion at ! univ]sities t n ano!r ^w ( insult w\ld be utt]$4 ,9 ?is way mu* mis*ief is prev5t$4 ,besides1 e precaution is tak5 to gu>d aga9/ fatal accid5t1 & ,i believe !re are few] s]i\s accid5ts on ! m5sura ?an 9 ! hunt+-field 9 ,engl&4 ,:5 ,i 0 at ,leipzig1 :]e we _h at lea/ f\r hundr$ duels dur+ ! ye>1 only two fatal accid5ts happ5$1 & !y 71 inde$1 accid5ts1 su* z w happ5 ev5 at football4 ,( c\rse duels c nev] be def5d$1 b = keep+ up good mann]s1 also = br++ out a man's "*1 ^! academic duels seem useful4 ,h[ev] small ! dang] is1 x fright5s ! c[>d & re/ra9s ! poltroon4 ,= all t1 :at has tak5 place 9 ,engl& may 9 "t take place 9 ,g]many also1 & m5 w cease to ?9k t x is impossible to def5d _! hon\r )\t a piece ( /eel or a pi/ol4 ,! la/ ?+ t a ,g]man /ud5t desires to d 9 a duel is to kill 8 adv]s>y4 ,h5ce pi/ol duels1 :i* are g5]ally pref]r$ by !ological /ud5ts1 because !y _c easily get a liv+ if _! face is sc>r$ all ov]1 are g5]ally ! mo/ h>mless1 except p]haps = ! seconds4 ,be=e clos+ ?is *apt]1 ,i %\ld l to say a few words on ! impressions :i* ! !ological atmosph]e ( ,ox=d 9 #ahdh produc$ on me1 & :i* ev5 n[ fills me ) wond] & amazem5t4 ,:5 ,i came to ,ox=d1 ,i 0 /rongly recomm5d$ to ,/anley on "o side1 & to ,manuel ,johnson on ! o!r1--a curi\s mixture4 ,johnson1 ! ,obs]v]1 0 extremely k9d & hospitable to me4 ,he 0 a g5ial man1 full ( love1 possibly a little weak1 b ?or\ghly hone/1 nay1 transp>5tly s4 ,i met at 8 h\se ne>ly all ! lead]s ( ! ,high ,*ur* movem5t1 ?\gh ,i nev] met ,newman himself1 :o _h !n already gone to reside at 8 retreat at ,littlemore4 ,on ! o!r h&1 ,/anley receiv$ me ) op5 arms z a fri5d ( ,buns51 ,fr$]ick ,maurice1 & ,julius ,h>e1 & z ,i came /raight f ! ,febru>y revolution 9 #ahdh1 he 0 full ( int]e/ & curiosity to "k f me :at ,i _h se5 9 ,p>is4 ,at fir/ ,i knew no?+1 & und]/ood no?+ ( ! movem5t1 call x ecclesia/ical or !ological1 t 0 go+ on at ,ox=d at t "t4 ,i d9$ almo/ e ,sunday at ,johnson's h\se1 & at 8 d9n]s & ,sunday aft]noon g>d5 p>ties ,i met m5 su* z ,*ur*1 ,mozley1 ,buckle1 ,palgrave1 ,poll51 ,rigaud1 ,burgon1 & ,*rtian1 :o inspir$ me ) great respect1 bo? = _! le>n+ & = :at ,i c\ld cat* ( _! "*4 ,/anley1 on ! o!r h&1 ,fr\de1 & ,j[ett1 prov$ !mselves true fri5ds to me 9 mak+ me feel at home1 & initiat+ me into ! secrets ( ! place4 ,!re 01 h[ev]1 a curi\s retic5ce on bo? sides1 & x 0 by sudd5 glimpses only t ,i came to und]/& t ^! two sets 7 q divid$1 nay1 oppos$1 & _h v diff]5t ideals be=e !m4 ,i _h be5 at a ,g]man univ]sity1 & ! hi/orical /udy ( ,*ri/ianity 0 to me z famili> z ! /udy ( ,roman hi/ory4 ,pr(essors :om ,i _h look$ up to z great au?orities1 implicitly to be tru/$1 su* z ,lotze & ,weisse at ,leipzig1 ,s*ell+ & ,mi*elet at ,b]l91 _h1 aft] caus+ 9 me a c]ta9 surprise at fir/1 left me ) ! firm conviction t ! ,old & ,new ,te/am5t 7 hi/orical books1 & to be treat$ accord+ to ! same critical pr9ciples z any o!r anci5t book1 p>ticul>ly ! sacr$ books ( ! ,ea/ ( :i* s little 0 !n kn[n1 & ( :i* ,i too knew v little z yet2 en\gh1 h[ev]1 to see t !y conta9$ no?+ b :at "u ! circum/ances !y c\ld conta91 traditions ( extreme antiquity collect$ by m5 :o ga!r$ all !y ?\ght w\ld be useful = ! education ( ! p4 ,any?+ l revelation 9 ! old s5se ( ! ^w1 a belief t ^! books _h be5 v]bally communicat$ by ! ,deity1 or t :at seem$ miracul\s 9 !m 0 to be accept$ z hi/orically real1 simply because x 0 record$ 9 ^! sacr$ books1 0 to me a /&po9t long left beh9d4 ,to me ! que/ions t occupi$ my ?\ghts 7 to :at date ^! books1 su* z we h !m1 c\ld be assign$1 :at portions ( !m 7 ( importance to u1 :at 7 ! simple tru?s !y conta9$1 & :at _h be5 add$ to !m by lat] collectors4 ,well d ,i rememb] :51 be=e go+ to ,ox=d1 ,i spoke to ,buns5 ( ! preface to my ,rig-v$a1 & us$ ! expression1 8! great revelations ( ! _w10 he1 p]fectly und]/&+ :at ,i meant1 w>n$ me 9 8 l\d & w>m voice1 8,don't say t at ,ox=d40 ,i c\ld see no h>m1 nor ,buns5 ei!r1 nor 8 son :o 0 an ,ox=d man & a cl]gyman ( ! ,*ur* ( ,engl&2 b ,i 0 told t ,i %\ld be misund]/ood4 ,i knew f> too little to imag9e t ,i _h a "r to speak ( :at 0 f]m5t+ & gr[+ )9 me4 ,dur+ my /ay at ,leipzig & ,b]l91 & aft]w>ds 9 my int]c\rse ) ,r5an & ,burn\f1 ! pr9ciples ( ! hi/orical s*ool _h become q famili> to me1 b ! application ( ^! pr9ciples to ! e>ly hi/ory ( religion 0 a diff]5t matt]4 ,h[ f> ! ,old & ! ,new ,te/am5t w\ld /& ! critical te/s enunciat$ by ,niebuhr 0 a frequ5t subject ( controv]sy1 dur+ ! "t ,i sp5t at ,p>is1 betwe5 "y ,r5an & myself4 ,?\gh ,i did n g ) him 9 8 recon/ruction ( ! hi/ory ( ! ,jews & ! ,jewi% religion1 & ( ! e>ly ,*ri/ians & ! ,*ri/ian religion1 ,i agre$ ) him 9 pr9ciple1 object+ only to 8 too free & too idyllic recon/ruction ( ^! great religi\s movem5ts4 ,besides1 be=e all ?+s1 ,i 0 at t "t giv5 to philosophical /udies1 *iefly to an inquiry into ! limits ( our k 9 ! ,kantian s5se ( ! ^w1 ! orig9 ( ?\ght & language1 ! fir/ falt]+ & half-my?ological /eps ( language 9 ! se>* = causes or div9e ag5ts4 ,all ?is occupi$ me f> m ?an ! age ( ! ,f\r? ,gospel & its position by ! side ( ! ,synoptic ,gospels4 ,i _h talk$ ) ,s*ell+ & ,s*op5hau]1 & little z ,i appreciat$ or und]/ood all _! tea*+s1 !re 7 c]ta9 aspirations left 9 my m9d :i* l$ me f> away beyond ! hi/orical f\ndations ( ,*ri/ianity4 ,:at c we "k8 0 ! "q :i* ,i (t5 oppos$ to ,r5an at ! v beg9n+ ( our conv]sations & controv]sies4 ,t !re 7 great tru?s 9 ! tea*+ & prea*+ ( ,*ri/1 ,r5an 0 always ready to admit1 b :ile x int]e/$ me h[ ! tru?s proclaim$ by ,*ri/ c\ld h sprung up 9 ,8 m9d & at t "t 9 ! hi/ory ( ! human race1 ,r5an's eyes 7 always direct$ to ! evid5ce1 & to :at we c\ld /ill "k ( ! e>ly hi/ory ( ,*ri/ianity & its ,f\nd]4 ,i c\ld n d5y t1 hi/orically speak+1 we knew v little ( ! life1 ! "w1 & ! tea*+s ( ,*ri/2 b = t v reason ,i d\bt$ our be+ ju/ifi$ 9 giv+ our int]pretation & recon/ruction to ! fragm5ts left to u ( ! real hi/ory ( ! life & tea*+ ( ,*ri/4 ,to ?is op9ion ,i rema9$ true ?r\gh life4 ,i claim$ = ea* man ! lib]ty ( believ+ 9 8 own ,*ri/1 b ,i object$ to ,r5an's idyllic ,*ri/ z ,i object$ to ,niebuhr's fill+ ! canvas ( anci5t ,roman hi/ory ) ! figures ( 8 own imag9ation4 ,naturally1 :5 ,i came to ,ox=d1 ,i ?\ght ^! ?+s 7 famili> to all1 h[ev] mu* !y might admit ( c>eful correction4 ,nor h ,i any d\bt t to "s ( my fri5ds :o 7 great !ologians1 !y 7 bett] kn[n ?an to a "y ,ori5tal s*ol> l myself4 ,b unless engag$ 9 conv]sation on ^! subjects1 & ?is 0 *iefly ! case ) my fri5ds ( ! ,/anley p>ty1 ,i did n feel call$ ^u to prea* :at1 z ,i ?\ght1 e s]i\s /ud5t knew q z well & probably mu* bett] ?an myself1 ?\gh he might = "s reason or o!r pref] to keep sil5ce !reon4 ,:at 0 my surprise :5 ,i f\nd t mo/ ( ^! excell5t & really le>n$ m5 7 mu* m deeply int]e/$ 9 purely ecclesia/ical que/ions1 9 ! validity ( ,anglican ord]s1 9 ! we>+ ( ei!r g[ns or surplices 9 ! pulpit1 9 ! "q ( c&le/icks & g5uflections4 8,:at has all ?is to d ) true religion80 ,i once said to de> ,johnson4 ,he laugh$ ) 8 g5ial laugh1 & bl[+ ! smoke ( 8 cig> away1 said1 8,oh1 y don't und]/&60 ,b ,i did und]/&1 & a great deal m ?an he expect$4 ,truly religi\s m51 ,i ?\ght1 might please !mselves ) inc5se & c&le/icks1 provid$ !y gave no (f5ce to _! neighb\rs4 ,x seem$ to me q natural also t m5 l ,johnson1 ) a ta/e = art1 %\ld pref] ! ,roman ritual to ! simple & sometimes r b>e s]vice ( ! ,anglican ,*ur*1 b t ?+s su* z inc5se & c5s]s1 surplice & g[n1 %\ld be tak5 z !y are1 z p>aph]nalia1 ! "w ( human be+s1 ! outcome ( p]sonal & local influ5ces1 z *ur*-s]vice1 no d\bt1 b n z s]vice ( ,god4 ,god has to be s]v$ by v diff]5t ?+s1 & !re is ! dang] ( ! =mal prevail+ ov] ! ess5tial1 ! dang] ( idolatry ( symbols z realities1 :5ev] too mu* importance is attribut$ to ! ext]nal =ms ( wor%ip & div9e s]vice4 ,! validity ( ,anglican ord]s 0 (t5 discuss$ at ! ,obs]vatory1 & ,i no d\bt gave great (f5ce by op5ly decl>+ 9 my imp]fect ,engli% t ,i consid]$ ,lu!r a bett] *annel = ! transmission ( ! ,holy ,gho/ ?an a ,caes> ,borgia or ev5 a ,wolsey4 ,anyh[ ,i c\ld n br+ myself to see ! importance ( su* que/ions1 if only ! he>t 0 "r & if ! :ole ( our life 0 9 fact a real & con/ant life ) ,god & 9 ,god4 ,t is :at ,i call$ a truly religi\s & truly ,*ri/ian life4 ,:at /ruck me p>ticul>ly1 bo? on ! ,newman side1 & among ^? :om ,i met at ,j[ett's & ,fr\de's1 0 a curi\s want ( op5ness & manl9ess 9 discuss+ ^! simple que/ions1 simple1 if n complicat$ by ecclesia/ical !ories4 ,:5 ,newman at ,iffley 0 spok5 (1 x 0 9 hu%$ tones1 & :5 rum\rs ( 8 go+ ov] to ,rome rea*$ 8 fri5ds at ,ox=d1 _! con/]nation seem$ to be l t ( p wat*+ ! dea?b$ ( a fri5d4 ,i am sorry ,i saw no?+ ( ,newman at t "t2 :5 ,i sat ) him aft]w>ds 9 8 /udy at ,birm+ham1 he 0 evid5tly tir$ ( controv]sy1 & unwill+ to reop5 que/ions :i* to him 7 settl$ once = all1 or if n settl$1 at all ev5ts clos$ & rel9qui%$4 ,i c\ld nev] =m a cle> idea ( ! man1 mu* z ,i admir$ 8 s]mons2 8 bro!r & 8 own fri5ds gave su* diff]5t acc\nts ( him4 ,t ev5 at ,littlemore he 0 /ill fai?ful to 8 own national ,*ur*1 anxi\s only to br+ x ne>] to its anci5t possibly ,roman type1 c h>dly be d\bt$4 ,:5 he wrote f ,littlemore to 8 fri5d ,de ,lisle1 he _h no reason to economize ! tru?4 ,de ,lisle hop$ t ,newman w\ld soon op5ly jo9 ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 b ,newman answ]$3 8,y mu/ all[ me to be hone/ ) y 9 add+ "o ?+4 ,a di/ress+ feel+ arises 9 my m9d t su* m>ks ( k9dness z ^! on y\r "p are caus$ by a belief t ,i am ev] likely to jo9 y\r communion 444 ,i mu/ assure y !n ) great s9c]ity t ,i h n ! %ad[ ( an int]nal movem5t kn[n to myself t[>ds su* a /ep4 ,:ile ,god is ) me :]e ,i am1 ,i w n seek ,him else:]e4 ,i might almo/ say 9 ! words ( ,scripture1 #8,we h f\nd ! ,messias6'4440 ,h[ true ?is is1 & yet ! same ,newman w5t ov] to ! unre=m$ ,*ur*1 because ! ,ar*bi%op ( ,cant]bury _h sanction$ ,buns5's proposal ( an ,anglo-,g]man bi%opric ( ,j]usalem1 q =getful ( ! fact t ,synesius also _h be5 bi%op ( ,ptolemais4 ,aga9 ,i say1 ,:at h su* matt]s to d ) true religion1 su* z we read ( 9 ! ,new ,te/am5t1 z an ideal to be realiz$ 9 our life on e>?8 ,& x s happ5$ t at ! same "t ,i knew ( families r5d]$ mis]able ?r\gh ,newman's influ5ce1 ( "y girls1 daught]s ( n>r[-m9d$ ,anglicans1 hurri$ ov] to ,rome1 ( "y m5 at ,ox=d ) _! tr\bl$ consci5ces :i* "u ,newman's direct or indirect guidance c\ld end only 9 ,rome4 ,newman's influ5ce mu/ h be5 extraord9>y2 ! tone 9 :i* p :o wi%$ to free !mselves f him1 :o _h actually left him1 spoke ( him1 seem$ tremul\s ) awe4 ,i w\ld give any?+ to h kn[n him at t "t1 :5 ,i knew him ?r\gh 8 disciples only4 ,!y 7 caught 9 v>i\s ways4 ,i "k ( "o1 a brilliant writ]1 :o _h be5 entru/$ by ,newman ) writ+ "s ( ! ,lives ( ! ,sa9ts4 ,he did x ) great indu/ry1 b 9 ! c\rse ( 8 rese>*es he arriv$ at ! conviction t !re 0 h>dly any?+ truly hi/orical ab\t 8 ,sa9ts & t ! miracles ascrib$ to !m 7 insipid1 & might be ! inv5tions ( _! fri5ds2 su* leg5ds1 he felt1 w\ld take no root on ,engli% soil1 at all ev5ts n 9 ! pres5t g5]ation4 ,9 consequ5ce he in=m$ ,newman t he c\ld n keep 8 promise1 or t1 if he did s1 he mu/ speak ! tru?1 tell p :at !y might believe ab\t ^! ,sa9ts1 & :at 0 purely fanciful 9 ! acc\nts ( _! lives4 ,& :at 0 ,newman's answ]8 ,he did n respect ! "y man's scruples1 b enc\rag$ him to g on1 because1 z he said1 p w\ld nev] believe m ?an half ( ^! ,lives1 & t !re=e "s ( ^! unsupport$ leg5ds also might prove useful1 if only z a k9d ( balla/4 8,i rejoice to he> ( y\r success10 he writes1 ,augu/ #ba1 #ahdc4 8,z to ,/4 ,grimball1 ( c\rse we mu/ expect su* defici5cies2 :]e matt] is f\nd1 x is all ga91 & !re are pl5ty ( ,lives to put toge!r1 z y w see1 :5 y see ! :ole li/4 8,i am r = ins]t+ 7( c\rse discreetly & 9 way ( selection7 ! miracles = :i* y h n good evid5ce4 7#a7 ,!y are beautiful1 y say1 & w tell 9 ! n>rative4 7#b7 ,next y c say t ! evid5ce is weak1 & ?is w be br++ cr$it = ! o!rs :]e y say ! evid5ce is /rong4 ,p w nev] g s f> z y\r n>rative4 ,cut x d[n to :at is true1 & !y w disbelieve a "p ( x2 put 9 ^! leg5ds & !y w comp\nd = ! true at ! sacrifice ( :at may be true1 b is n well atte/$40 ,i confess ,i _c q foll[4 ,if a man l ,newman believ$ 9 ^! sa9ts & _! miracles1 8 plead+ w\ld become intelligible1 b x seems f ?is v lett] t he did n1 & yet he tri$ to p]suade 8 "y fri5d to g on & n to ga!r ! t>es1 8le/ haply he might root up ! :eat ) !m4 ,let bo? gr[ toge!r until ! h>ve/40 ,i d n l to judge1 b ,i d\bt :e!r ?is k9d ( tea*+ c\ld h /r5g!n$ ! heal?y moral fibre ( a man's consci5ce & h l$ him to dep5d entirely on 8 s5se ( tru?4 ,& yet ?is 0 ! man :o at "o "t 0 suppos$ to draw ! be/ spirits ( ,ox=d ) him to ,rome4 ,?is 0 ! man to :om "s ( ! be/ spirits at ,ox=d confess$ all !y _h to confess1 & t c\ld h be5 v little1 & ( :om !y spoke ) a subdu$ :isp] z ! apo/le :o w\ld re/ore all fai?1 & br+ back ! ,anglican %eep to ! ,roman fold4 ,i saw & he>d all t 0 go+ on1 ! hopes def]r$1 ! secret visits to ,littlemore1 ! rum\rs & m ?an rum\rs ( ,newman's defection4 ,su* 0 ! devotion ( "s ( ^! disciples t !y expect$ day by day a great cata/rophe or a great victory1 = aft] ! publication ( s _m lett]s writt5 at ! "t by ,wiseman1 ,mann+1 ,de ,lisle1 & o!rs1 !re c be little d\bt t a great conv]sion or p]v]sion ( ,engl& to ! ,romi% ,*ur* 0 fully expect$4 ,de ,lisle writes3 8,engl& is n[ 9 full c>e] ( a great ,religi\s ,revolution1 ?is "t back to ,ca?olicism & to ! ,roman ,see z its true c5tre 444 ! be/ fri5ds ( ,rome 9 ! ,anglican ,*ur* are oblig$ /ill to be gu>d$40 ,su* words admit ( "o mean+ only1 & if ,newman _h be5 foll[$ by a l>ge numb] ( 8 ,ox=d fri5ds1 ! results = ,engl& might really h be5 mo/ t]rible4 ,b "h1 no d\bt1 ! ,engli% national feel+ came 94 ,:at ,engl& _h suff]$ "u ,roman ecclesia/ical rule _h n yet be5 entirely =gott51 & ! idea t a =eign pot5tate & a =eign prie/hood %\ld int]f]e ) ! highe/ int]e/s ( ! nation1 0 =tunately z di/a/eful z ev]1 n only to a l>ge p>ty ( ! cl]gy1 b to a /ill l>g] p>ty ( ! laity also4 ,x seem$ to me v curi\s t s _m ( ,newman's foll[]s did n see ! unpatriotic "* ( _! agitation4 ,ei!r subjection to ,rome or civil w> at home 0 ! inevitable outcome ( :at !y discuss$ v innoc5tly at ! ,obs]vatory1 & little z ,i und]/ood _! s*emes = ! future1 ,i (t5 felt surpris$ at :at s\nd$ to me l v unpatriotic utt]ances4 ,ano!r ?+ t /ruck me z utt]ly un-,engli% & has (t5 be5 dwelt on by ! hi/orians ( ?is movem5t1 0 ! curi\sly secret "* ( ! agitation4 ,:at has an ,engli%man to fe> :5 he op5ly prote/s aga9/ :at he disapproves ( 9 ,*ur* or ,/ate8 ,b ,newman's fri5ds at ,ox=d behav$ really1 z has be5 (t5 said1 l s _m naughty s*oolboys1 or l conspirators1 yet !y 7 nei!r4 ,a v simil> *>ge1 h[ev]1 0 br\ght aga9/ ! lib]al p>ty4 ,!y also seem$ to ?9k t !y 7 out ( b\nds1 & 7 do+ 9 secret :at !y did n d>e to d op5ly4 ,x is well kn[n t "o fri5d ( ,newman's1 :o aft]w>ds became a ,roman ,ca?olic1 _h a small *apel set up 9 8 b$room 9 college1 ) pictures & c&les & in/rum5ts ( flagellation4 ,no "o 0 all[$ to see ?is room1 till "o ev5+ :5 ! flagellant _h retir$ aft] d9n] & fall5 asleep1 ! s]vants f\nd him ly+ be=e ! alt>4 ,no?+ rema9$ to him !n b to ex*ange 8 com=table college rooms = ! less com=table cell ( a ,roman mona/]y1 & little 0 done by 8 new fri5ds to make ! ev5+ ( 8 life s]5e & free f anxiety4 ,^! ?+s 7 kn[n & talk$ ab\t 9 ,ox=d1 & g5]ally ) any?+ b ! s]i\sness t ! subject seem$ to me to require4 ,aga9 at ! ,obs]vatory a po9t 0 made ( hav+ games 9 ! g>d5 su* z boccia on a ,sunday aft]noon1 ?us evad+ ! /rict obs]vance ( ! ,sabba?1 )\t op5ly try+ to re/ore to x ! "* :i* x _h 9 ,roman ,ca?olic c\ntries4 ,g]man !ology 0 talk$ ab\t z a k9d ( =bidd5 fruit1 z if x 0 n "r = !m to look at x1 to ta/e x1 or to exam9e x4 ,ev5 ye>s lat] p 7 afraid to meet ,pr(essor ,ewald1 ,bi%op ,col5so1 & o!r s-call$ h]etics at my h\se4 ,!y ev5 fell on poor ,ewald at an ev5+ p>ty4 ,ewald 0 /ay+ ) me & work+ h>d at "s ,hebrew ,,mss4 at ! ,bodleian4 ,he 0 !n already an old man1 b 9 8 appe>ance a p[]ful & v5]able *ampion4 ,he is ! only man ,i rememb] :o1 aft] copy+ ,hebrew ,,mss4 = twelve h\rs at ! ,bodleian ) no?+ b a s&wi* to su/a9 him1 compla9$ ( ! %ort "t all[$ !re = "w4 ,he came home = d9n] v tir$1 & :5 ! conv]sation or r ! disputation began betwe5 him & "s ( our "y lib]al !ologians1 he spoke 9 %ort pi?y s5t5ces only4 ,he consid]$ himself p]fectly or?odox1 nay1 "o ( ! pill>s ( religion 9 ,g]many1 & laid d[n ! law ) unhesitat+ conviction4 ,z f> z ,i c rememb]1 he 0 answ]+ a numb] ( que/ions ab\t ,/4 ,paul1 & :at he ?\ght ( ,*ri/1 ( ! ,k+dom ( ,*ri/1 & ! ,life to come1 & be+ pe/]$ & driv5 into a corn] by 8 v>i\s que/ion]s1 & ask$ at la/ h[ he knew ,/4 ,paul's secret ?\ghts1 he n kn[+ h[ to express himself 9 flu5t ,engli%1 exclaim$ 9 a l\d voice1 8,i "k x by ! ,holy ,gho/40 ,"h ! conv]sation naturally /opp$1 & poor ,ewald 0 all[$ to f9i% 8 d9n] 9 peace4 ,he _h be5 ,pr(essor at ,bonn1 :5 ,pusey came !re z a "y man to /udy ,hebrew aft] he _h be5 appo9t$ ,canon ( ,*ri/ ,*ur* & ,pr(essor ( ,hebrew1 & he express$ to me a wi% to see ,dr4 ,pusey4 ,i told him x w\ld n be easy to arrange a meet+1 consid]+ h[ /rongly oppos$ ,dr4 ,pusey 0 to ,ewald's op9ions4 ,p]sonally ,i always f\nd ,pusey tol]ant1 & 8 k9dness to me 0 a surprise to all my "y fri5ds4 ,b ! fact 01 we mov$ on diff]5t planes1 & ?\gh he knew my religi\s op9ions well1 !y only excit$ a smile1 & he (t5 said ) a sigh1 8,i "k y are a ,g]man40 ,8 own idea 0 t he 0 plac$ at ,ox=d 9 ord] to save ! y\ng] g5]ation f see+ ! abyss into :i* he himself _h look$ ) t]ror4 ,he _h read m h]esy1 he us$ to say1 ?an anybody1 & he wi%$ no "o to pass ?r\gh ! trials & agonies ?r\gh :i* he _h pass$1 *iefly1 ,i %\ld ?9k1 dur+ 8 /ay at a ,g]man univ]sity4 ,! hi/orical elem5t 0 want+ 9 him1 nay1 l ,hegel1 he sometimes seem$ to lay /ress on ! unhi/orical "* ( ,*ri/ianity4 ,my idea1 on ! contr>y1 0 t ,*ri/ianity 0 a true hi/orical ev5t1 prep>$ by _m ev5ts t _h gone be=e & alone made x possible & real4 ,ev5 ! abyss1 if !re 7 su* an abyss1 01 z x seem$ to me1 meant to be !re on our passage ?r\gh life1 & 0 to be fac$ ) a brave he>t4 ,b to return to my fir/ exp]i5ces ( ! !ological atmosph]e ( ,ox=d1 ,i confess ,i felt puzzl$ to see m51 ^: le>n+ & "* ,i s9c]ely admir$1 absorb$ 9 subjects :i* to my m9d seem$ simply *ildi%4 ,i expect$ ,i %\ld he> f !m "s new views on ! date ( ! gospels1 ! mean+ ( revelation1 ! hi/orical value ( revelation1 or ! e>ly hi/ory ( ! ,*ur*4 ,no1 ( all ?is n a ^w4 ,no?+ b discussions on ve/m5ts1 on private confession1 on c&les on ! alt>1 :e!r !y 7 want$ or n1 on ! alt> be+ made ( /one or ( wood1 ( consecrat$ w9e be+ mix$ ) wat]1 ( ! prie/ turn+ 8 back on ! congregation1 c4 ,i c\ld n und]/& h[ ^! m51 s high above ! ord9>y level ( m5 9 all o!r respects1 c\ld put aside ! fundam5tal que/ions ( ,*ri/ianity & give _! :ole m9d to :at seem$ to me rightly call$ 9 ! newspap]s 8m]e mill9]y40 ,i s\ght in=mation f ,/anley1 b he %rugg$ 8 %\ld]s & advis$ me to keep alo( & say no?+4 ,?is ,i 0 mo/ will+ to d2 ,i c>$ = none ( ^! ?+s4 ,my m9d 0 occupi$ ) f> m s]i\s problems1 su* z ,i _h he>d expla9$ by m5 ( pr(\nd le>n+ & hone/ purpose 9 ! great univ]sities ( ,g]many2 ^! tr\bles arose f que/ions :i* seem$ to me to h no connexion ) true religion at all4 ,ev5 ! diff]5ces betwe5 ! re=m$ & unre=m$ *ur*es 7 to me m]e que/ions ( hi/ory1 m]e que/ions ( human exp$i5cy4 ,i did n consid] ,roman ,ca?olics z h]etics--,i _h kn[n too _m ( !m ( unblemi%$ "* 9 ,g]many4 ,i might h regrett$ ! abuses :i* call$ = re=m1 ! excresc5ces :i* _h disfigur$ ,*ri/ianity l _m o!r religions1 b :i* might be tol]at$ z long z !y did n lead to tol]ation = intol]ance4 ,lu!r might no long] appe> to me 9 ! light ( a p]fect sa9t1 b t he 0 "r 9 suppress+ ! "t-hon\r$ abuses ( ! ,roman ,*ur* admitt$ ) me ( no d\bt :atsoev]4 ,l>ge numb]s always _h t effect on me1 & :5 ,i saw h[ _m good & excell5t m5 7 satisfi$ ) ! unre=m$ tea*+ ( ! ,roman ,*ur*1 ,i felt conv9c$ t !y mu/ atta* a diff]5t mean+ to c]ta9 doctr9es & ecclesia/ical practices f :at we did4 ,i _h le>n$ to discov] :at 0 good & true 9 all religions1 & ,i c\ld fully agree ) ,macaulay :5 he said1 8,if p _h liv$ 9 a c\ntry :]e v s5sible p wor%ipp$ ! c[1 !y w\ld n fall out ) p :o wor%ip sa9ts40 ,i "k t _m ( my fri5ds on bo? sides look$ ^u me z a latitud9>ian1 b my conviction has always be5 t we c\ld n be broad en\gh4 ,!y look$ ^u me z wi%+ to keep on good t]ms ) high & l[ & broad1 & ,i made no secret ( x1 t ,i ?\ght ,i c\ld und]/& ,pusey z well z ,/anley1 & assign to ea* 8 prop] place4 ,/anley 0 ( c\rse m aft] my own he>t ?an ,pusey1 b ,pusey too 0 a man :o int]e/$ me v mu*4 ,i saw t he might become a great p[] :e!r = good or = evil 9 ,engl&4 ,he 01 9 fact1 a hi/orical "*1 & ^! 7 always ! m5 :o int]e/$ me4 ,he 0 fully aw>e ( 8 importance 9 ,engl&1 & ! great influ5ce :i* 8 "n ex]cis$4 ,t influ5ce 0 n always ex]cis$ 9 ! "r way1 s at lea/ x seem$ to me1 p>ticul>ly :5 x 0 direct$ aga9/ su* fri5ds ( m9e z ,k+sley1 ,fr\de1 or ,j[ett4 ,once1 ,i rememb]1 :5 he _h come to my h\se1 ,i v5tur$ to tell him t he c\ld n h meant :at he _h said 9 decl>+ t ! ,god wor%ipp$ by ,fr$]ic ,maurice 0 n ! same z 8 ,god4 ,curi\s to say1 he rel5t$1 & admitt$ t he _h us$ too /rong language4 ,to me ev]y?+ t 0 said ( ,god seem$ imp]fect1 & nev] to apply to ,god ,himself b only to ! idea :i* ! human m9d _h =m$ ( ,him4 ,to me ev5 ! ,h9du1 if he spoke ( ,brahman or ,kri%na1 seem$ to h aim$ at ! true ,god1 9 spite ( ! idolatr\s epi!ts :i* he us$2 !n h[ c\ld a man l ,fr$]ic ,maurice be said to h wor%ipp$ a diff]5t ,god1 consid]+ t we all c b feel aft] ,him 9 ! d>k1 n be+ able to d m ?an exclude all t seems to u unwor?y ( ,deity8 ,a v important elem5t 9 ! ecclesia/ical views ( "s ( my fri5ds 01 no d\bt1 ! arti/ic4 ,if ,johnson leant t[>ds ,rome1 x 0 ! m ornate & beautiful s]vice t t\*$ & attract$ him4 ,i sat ne> to him 9 ,/4 ,giles' ,*ur*2 he told me :at to d & :at n to d dur+ s]vice4 ,9 spite ( ! ,pray]-book1 x is by no means s easy z p imag9e to d exactly ! "r ?+ 9 *ur*1 & ,i _h ( c\rse to le>n a numb] ( pray]s & responses by he>t4 ,to me ! s]vice1 z x 0 9 my p>i% *ur*1 seem$ already too ornate1 accu/om$ z ,i _h be5 to ! some:at b>e & cold s]vice 9 ! ,lu!ran ,*ur* at ,dessau4 ,b ,johnson con/antly compla9$ ab\t ! monoton\s & me*anical p]=mances ( ! cl]gy4 ,he _h a /rong feel+ = all t 0 beautiful & impressive 9 art1 & he want$ to see ! s]vice ( ,god 9 *ur* full bo? ( rev]5ce & beauty4 ,johnson's private collection ( arti/ic treasures 0 v consid]able1 & ,i le>nt mu* f ! ,italian engrav+s & ,dut* et*+s :i* he possess$ & delight$ 9 %[+4 ,i (t5 sp5t happy h\rs ) him exam9+ 8 portfolios1 & wond]$ h[ he c\ld af=d to buy su* treasures4 ,b he knew :5 & :]e to buy1 & ,i believe :5 8 collection 0 sold aft] 8 dea?1 x br\ght a good deal m ?an x _h co/ him4 ,ano!r collection ( art 0 t ( ,dr4 ,wellesley1 ! ,pr9cipal ( ,new ,inn ,hall1 :o 0 a fri5d ( ,johnson's & _h collect$ mo/ valuable antiquities dur+ 8 long /ay 9 ,italy4 ,he 0 ! son ( ! ,m>quis ( ,wellesley1 a h&some man1 ) all ! ref9em5t & c\rtesy ( ! old ,engli% g5tleman4 ,?\gh n p]haps v useful 9 ! "w ( ! ,univ]sity1 he 0 mo/ pleasant to live )1 & full ( in=mation 9 8 own l9e ( /udy1 ! hi/ory ( art1 *iefly ( ,italian art4 ,! beautiful s]vices ( ! ,roman ,*ur* abroad1 & p>ticul>ly at ,rome1 c]ta9ly ex]cis$ a k9d ( magic attraction on _m ( ! fri5ds ( ,wiseman & ,newman1 ?\gh "o wond]s t ! sunny gr&eur ( ,/4 ,pet]'s at ,rome %\ld ev] h seem$ m impressive ?an ! sombre sublimity & s]5e magnific5ce ( ,we/m9/] ,abbey4 ,un=tunately1 ! introduction ( a m ornate s]vice1 ev5 ( h>mless c&le/icks & ! (t5 v useful inc5se1 _h always a secret mean+4 ,!y 7 us$ z symbols ( some?+ ( :i* ! p _h no conception1 :]eas 9 ! e>ly ,*ur* !y _h be5 really natural & useful4 ,9 ! mid/ ( all ?is commotion1 & *iefly secret commotion1 ,i felt a p]fect /rang]2 ,i saw ! bright & d>k sides1 b ,i confess ,i saw little ( :at ,i call$ religion4 ,?\gh my own religi\s /ruggles lay beh9d me1 /ill !re 7 _m que/ions :i* press$ = a solution1 b = :i* my fri5ds at ,ox=d seem$ ei!r indiff]5t or unprep>$4 ,my practical religion 0 :at ,i _h le>nt f my "m2 t rema9$ un%ak5 9 all /orms1 & 9 its extreme simplicity & *ildi%ness answ]$ all ! purposes = :i* religion is meant4 ,!n foll[$1 9 ! ,univ]sities ( ,leipzig & ,b]l91 ! purely hi/orical & sci5tific treatm5t ( religion1 :i*1 :ile x expla9$ _m ?+s & de/roy$ _m ?+s1 nev] int]f]$ ) my e>ly ideas ( "r & wrong1 nev] di/urb$ my life ) ,god & 9 ,god1 & seem$ to satisfy all my religi\s wants4 ,i nev] 0 fright5$ or %ak5 by ! critical writ+s ( ,/rauss or ,ewald1 ( ,r5an or ,col5so4 ,if :at !y said _h an hone/ r+1 ,i 0 delight$1 = ,i felt q c]ta9 t !y c\ld nev] deprive me ( ! little ,i really want$4 ,t little c\ld nev] be little en\gh2 x 0 l a /ronghold ) no =tifications1 no tr5*es1 & no walls ar\nd x4 ,suppose x 0 prov$ to me t1 on geological evid5ce1 ! e>? or ! _w c\ld n h be5 creat$ 9 six days1 :at 0 t to me8 ,suppose x 0 prov$ to me t ,*ri/ c\ld nev] h giv5 leave to ! unclean spirits to ent] into ! sw9e1 :at 0 t to me8 ,let ,col5so & ,bi%op ,wilb]=ce1 let ,huxley & ,glad/one fight ab\t su* matt]s2 _! turbul5t waves c\ld nev] di/urb me1 c\ld nev] ev5 rea* me 9 my safe h>b\r4 ,i _h little to c>ry1 no le>n$ imp$im5ta to safegu>d my fai?4 ,if a man possesses ?is "o pe>l ( great price1 he may save himself & 8 treasure1 b nei!r ! t9sell$ ve/m5ts ( a ,c>d9al1 nor ! triple ti>a t cr[ns ! ,head ( ! ,*ur*1 w s]ve z life-belts 9 ! gales ( d\bt & controv]sy4 ,my fri5ds at ,ox=d did n "k t1 ?\gh ) my "o jewel ,i seem$ outw>dly poor1 ,i 0 really ri*] & saf] ?an _m a ,c>d9al & _m a ,doctor ( ,div9ity4 ,a confession ( fai?1 l a pray]1 may be v long1 b ! pray] ( ! ,publican may h be5 m effici5t ?an t ( ! ,ph>isee4 ,aft] a "t ,i made an ev5 m pa9ful discov]y3 ,i f\nd m51 :o 7 consid]$ q or?odox1 b :o really 7 )\t any belief4 ,!y spoke to me v freely1 because !y imag9$ t z a ,g]man ,i w\ld ?9k z !y did1 & t ,i %\ld n be surpris$ if !y look$ on me z n q s9c]e4 ,x 0 n only hone/ d\bt t di/urb$ !m4 ,!y _h done ) hone/ d\bt1 & !y 7 satisfi$ ) a k9d ( ,voltairian philosophy1 :i* at la/ end$ 9 pure agno/icism4 ,b ev5 t1 ev5 pr(ess$ agno/icism1 ,i c\ld und]/&1 because x (t5 meant no m ?an a confession ( ignorance ) reg>d to ,god1 :i* we all confess1 & ne$ n necess>ily am\nt to ! d5ial ( ! exi/5ce ( ,deity4 ,b t ,voltairian levity :i* sc(fs at ev]y?+ connect$ ) religion 0 c]ta9ly some?+ ,i did n expect to meet ) at ,ox=d1 & :i* ev5 n[ p]plexes me4 ,( c\rse1 ,i %\ld nev] ?9k ( m5tion+ names1 b x seem$ to me necess>y to m5tion ! fact1 to complete ! curi\s mosaic ( !ological & religi\s ?\ght t exi/$ at ,ox=d at ! "t ( my arrival4 ,,*apt] ,,ix ,a ,,confession ,"o confession ,i h to make1 & "o = :i* ,i c h>dly hope = absolution1 :e!r f my fri5ds or f my enemies4 ,i h nev] done any?+2 ,i h nev] be5 a do]1 a canvass]1 a wirepull]1 a manag]1 9 ! ord9>y s5se ( ^! words4 ,i h also %runk f agitation1 f clubs & f cliques1 ev5 f mo/ respectable associations & societies4 ,_m p w\ld call me an idle1 useless1 & indol5t man1 & ?\gh ,i h n wa/$ _m h\rs ( my life1 ,i _c d5y ! *>ge t ,i h nei!r f\ght battles1 nor help$ to conqu] new c\ntries1 nor jo9$ any syndicate to roll up a =tune4 ,i h be5 a s*ol>1 a ,/ub5gelehrt]1 & voil t\t6 ,mu* z ,i admir$ ,rusk9 :5 ,i saw him ) 8 spade & :eelb>r[1 enc\rag+ & help+ 8 und]graduate fri5ds to make a new road f "o village to ano!r1 ,i nev] myself took to digg+1 & %ovell+1 & c>t+4 ,nor c\ld ,i q agree ) him1 happy z ,i always felt 9 li/5+ to him1 :5 he said3 8,:at we ?9k1 or :at we "k1 or :at we believe1 is 9 ! end ( little consequ5ce4 ,! only ?+ ( consequ5ce is :at we d40 ,my view ( life has always be5 ! v opposite6 ,:at we d1 or :at we build up1 has always seem$ to me ( little consequ5ce4 ,ev5 ,n9eveh is n[ a m]e des]t ( s&1 & ,rusk9's new road also has long s9ce be5 worn away4 ,! only ?+ ( consequ5ce1 to my m9d1 is :at we ?9k1 :at we "k1 :at we believe6 ,to ,rusk9's e>s su* a s5tim5t 0 d[nright h]esy1 & ,i "k q well t x w\ld be condemn$ z extremely dang]\s1 if n d[nright wick$1 by mo/ p1 p>ticul>ly 9 ,engl&4 ,my fri5d1 ,*>les ,k+sley1 prea*$ muscul> ,*ri/ianity1 t is1 he 0 always up & do+4 ,ano!r old fri5d ( m9e1 ,c>lyle1 prea*$ all 8 life t 8x 0 no use talk+1 if "o w\ld n d40 ,!re is an old prov]b 9 ,g]man1 too1 8,die ni*t mit ?at51 ,die ni*t mit ra!n02 actually d5y+ ! "r ( giv+ advice to ^? :o _h n tak5 a "p 9 ! fight4 ,h[ev]1 ?\gh ,i h n be5 a do]1 a faiseur1 z ! ,fr5* w\ld say1 ,i d n wi% to repres5t myself z a m]e idle drone dur+ ! long ye>s ( my quiet life4 ,nor did ,i /& q alone 9 look+ on a s*ol>'s life--ev5 :5 ,i 0 liv+ 9 a g>ret au c9quime--z a p>adise on e>?4 ,did n ,em]son write1 8,! s*ol> is ! man ( ! age08 ,did n ev5 ,mazz9i1 :o c]ta9ly 0 con/antly up & try+ to d1 did n ev5 he confess t m5 mu/ die1 b t ! am\nt ( tru? !y h discov]$ does n die ) !m8 ,& ,c>lyle8 ,did he ev] try to get into ,p>liam5t8 ,did he ev] accept directorates8 ,did he jo9 ei!r ! ,*>ti/s or ! ,special ,con/ables 9 ,trafalg> ,squ>e8 ,z 9 a conc]t y want li/5]s z well z p]=m]s1 s 9 public life1 ^? :o look on are q z ess5tial z ^? :o %\t & deal heavy bl[s4 ,nature has n end[$ ev]ybody ) ! requisite muscle to be a muscul> ,*ri/ian4 ,b x may be said1 t ev5 if ,c>lyle & ,rusk9 7 absolv$ f do+ muscul> "w 9 ,trafalg> ,squ>e1 :at excuse c\ld !y plead = n walk+ 9 procession to ,hyde ,p>k1 climb+ up "o ( ! plat=ms & h>angu+ ! m5 & wom5 & *ildr58 ,i suppose !y _h ! feel+ :i* ! razor has :5 x is us$ = cutt+ /ones3 !y w\ld feel t x 0 n exactly _! mti]4 ,argu+ :5 reason meets reason is mo/ delightful1 :e!r we w9 or lose2 b argu+ aga9/ unreason1 aga9/ any?+ t is by nature ?ick1 d5se1 imp5etrable1 irrational1 has always seem$ to me ! mo/ di%e>t5+ occupation4 ,majorities1 m]e num]ical majorities1 by :i* ! _w is gov]n$ n[1 /rike me z m]e brute =ce1 ?\gh to argue aga9/ !m is no d\bt z fooli% z argu+ aga9/ a railway tra9 t is go+ to cru% y4 ,glad/one c\ld h>angue multitudes2 s c\ld ,disraeli2 all hon\r to !m = x4 ,b ?9k ( ,c>lyle or ,rusk9 do+ s6 ,/rok+ ! %ell ( a tortoise1 or ! cupola ( ,/4 ,paul's1 w\ld h be5 no m attractive to !m ?an address+ ! discont5t$1 :5 9 _! hundr$s & _! ?\s&s !y desc5d$ into ! /reets4 ,all ,i claim is t !re mu/ be a division ( lab\r1 & z little z ,wayl& ,smi? 0 useless 9 8 smi?y1 :5 he h>d5$ ! iron 9 ! fire = mak+ swords or horse-%oes1 0 ,c>lyle a man t c\ld be sp>$1 :ile he sat 9 8 /udy prep>+ ?\ghts t w\ld n b5d or break4 ,b ,i _c ev5 claim to h be5 a man ( action 9 ! s5se 9 :i* ,c>lyle 0 9 ,engl&1 or ,em]son 9 ,am]ica4 ,!y 7 m5 :o 9 _! books 7 con/antly tea*+ & prea*+4 8,d ?is60 !y said2 8,d n d t60 ,! ,jewi% prophets did mu* ! same1 & !y are n consid]$ to h be5 useless m51 ?\gh !y did n make bricks1 or fight battles l ,jehu4 ,b ! poor ,/ub5gelehrte has n ev5 t com=t4 ,only n[ & !n he gets "s unexpect$ recognition1 z :5 ,"l ,d]by1 !n ,secret>y ( ,/ate = ,india1 decl>$ t ! s*ol>s :o _h discov]$ & prov$ ! close relation%ip betwe5 ,sanskrit & ,engli%1 _h r5d]$ m valuable s]vice to ! ,gov]nm5t ( ,india ?an _m a regim5t4 ,?is may be call$ a m]e ass]tion1 & x is true t x _c be prov$ ma!matically1 b :at c\ld h induc$ a man l ,"l ,d]by to make su* a /atem5t1 except ! s5se ( its tru? produc$ on 8 m9d by long exp]i5ce8 ,h[ev]1 ,i c only speak = myself1 & ( my idea ( "w4 ,i felt satisfi$ :5 my "w l$ me to a new discov]y1 :e!r x 0 ! discov]y ( a new cont95t ( ?\ght1 or ( ! smalle/ des]t isl& 9 ! va/ ocean ( tru?4 ,i w\ld gladly g s f> z to try to conv9ce my fri5ds by a simple /atem5t ( facts4 ,let !m foll[ ! same c\rse & see :e!r ,i 0 "r or wrong4 ,b to make propag&a1 to attempt to p]suade by br++ pressure to be>1 to canvass & to organize1 to f\nd societies1 to />t new j\rnals1 to call meet+s & h !m report$ 9 ! pap]s1 has always be5 to me v mu* aga9/ ! gra94 ,if we "k "s tru?1 :at does x matt] :e!r a few millions1 m or less1 see ! tru? z we see x8 ,tru? is tru?1 :e!r x is accept$ n[ or 9 millions ( ye>s4 ,tru? is 9 no hurry1 at lea/ x always seem$ to me s4 ,:5 face to face ) a man1 or a body ( m51 :o w\ld n be conv9c$1 ,i nev] felt incl9$ to run my head aga9/ a /one wall1 or to become an advocate & use ! tricks ( a lawy]4 ,i h (t5 be5 blam$ = x1 ,i h sometimes ev5 regrett$ my indol5ce or my quiet happ9ess1 :5 ,i felt t tru? 0 on my side & by my side4 ,i suppose !re is no h>m 9 p]sonal canvass+1 b z mu* z ,i dislik$ be+ canvass$1 did ,i feel x degrad+ to canvass o!rs4 ,i "k q well h[ (t5 x happ5$ at a meet+ :5 ei!r a measure or a c&idate 0 to be c>ri$1 t ! vot]s _h evid5tly be5 spok5 to privately be=eh&1 _h 9 ! consci5ce ( _! he>t promis$ _! votes4 ,! facts & argum5ts at ! meet+ itself might all be on "o side1 b ! majority 0 9 fav\r ( ! o!r4 ,m5 ^: "t 0 ( little value _h be5 r\nd f h\se to h\se1 a majority _h be5 compact$ into an in]t unreason+ mass2 & :o w\ld feel incl9$ to use 8 spade ( reason aga9/ s mu* unreason8 ,"s p1 m hone/ ?an ! re/1 aft] ! mis*ief 0 done1 w\ld say1 8,:y did y n call8 :y did y n write lett]s80 ,i may be q wrong1 b ,i c only say t x seem$ to me l tak+ an unfair advantage1 unfair to our oppon5ts1 & almo/ insult+ to our fri5ds4 ,/ill1 f a worldly po9t ( view1 ,i 0 no d\bt wrong1 & x is c]ta9ly true t ,i 0 (t5 left 9 a m9ority4 ,my fri5ds h told me aga9 & aga9 t if a good measure or a good man is to be c>ri$1 good m5 mu/ d "s dirty "w4 ,if !y _c d t1 !y are ( no use1 & ,i d\bt n t ,i h (t5 be5 consid]$ a v useless man by my political & academic fri5ds1 because ,i tru/$ to reason :]e !re 0 no reason to tru/ to4 ,i 0 ask$ to write lett]s1 to address & po/ lett]s1 to promise travell+ exp5ses or ev5 convivial ent]ta9m5ts at ,ox=d1 to get lead]s & lead]ettes ins]t$ 9 newspap]s4 ,i simply loa!d x1 & at la/ decl9$ to d x4 ,if a measure is c>ri$ by promise1 n by argum5t1 if an election is c>ri$ by p]sonal influ5ce1 n by reason1 :at happ5s is v (t5 ! same z :at happ5s :5 fruit is pull$ (f a tree be=e x is ripe4 ,x is expect$ to rip5 by itself1 b x nev] becomes sweet1 & (t5 x rots4 ,a premature measure may be c>ri$ ?r\gh ! ,h\se by a m9i/] ) a p[]ful majority1 b x does n acquire vitality & maturity by be+ c>ri$2 x (t5 rema9s on ! ,/atute-book a dead lett]1 till 9 ! end x has to be aboli%$ ) o!r rubbi%4 ,h[ev]1 ,i h le>nt to admire ! indefatigable assiduity ( m5 :o h sl[ly & p>tially secur$ _! conv]ts & _! recruits1 & ?us h c>ri$ 9 ! end :at !y ?\ght "r & reasonable4 ,i h se5 x p>ticul>ly at ,ox=d1 :]e und]graduates 7 indoctr9at$ by _! tutors1 till !y _h tak5 _! degree & c\ld vote ) _! bett]s4 ,i take all ! blame & %ame ^u myself z a useless memb] ( ,congregation & ,convocation1 & ( society at l>ge4 ,i 0 wrong 9 suppos+ t ! walls ( ,j]i*o w\ld fall be=e ! bla/ ( reason1 & wrong 9 ab/a9+ f jo9+ 9 ! bray+ ( rams' horns & ! %\ts ( ! p4 ,i 0 =tunate1 h[ev]1 9 c\nt+ among my mo/ intimate fri5ds "s ( ! mo/ active & influ5tial re=m]s 9 ,univ]sity1 ,*ur*1 & ,/ate1 & x is q possible t ,i may (t5 h influ5c$ !m 9 ! h\rs ( sweet conv]se2 nay1 t /&+ 9 ! second rank1 ,i may h help$ to load ! guns :i* !y fir$ (f ) mu* effect aft]w>ds4 ,i felt t my op5 p>tn]%ip might ev5 injure !m m ?an x c\ld help !m2 = 0 x n always op5 to my oppon5ts to say t ,i 0 a ,g]man1 & !re=e c\ld n possibly und]/& purely ,engli% que/ions8 ,besides1 !re is ano!r peculi>ity :i* ,i h (t5 obs]v$ 9 ,engl&4 ,p l to d :at has to be done by !mselves4 ,x seem$ to me sometimes z if ,i _h (f5d$ my fri5ds if ,i did any?+ by myself1 & )\t consult+ !m4 ,besides1 my position1 ev5 aft] ,i _h be5 9 ,engl& = s _m ye>s1 0 always peculi>2 = ?\gh ,i _h sp5t ne>ly a :ole life 9 ! s]vice ( my adopt$ c\ntry1 ?\gh my political allegiance 0 due & 0 gladly giv5 to ,engl&1 /ill ,i 01 & h always rema9$1 a ,g]man4 ,& next to ,g]many1 :i* 0 "y & full ( ideals :5 ,i 0 "y1 !re came ,india1 & ,indian ?\ght :i* ex]cis$ _! quiet+ influ5ce on me4 ,f a v e>ly "t ,i became consci\s ( ! n>r[ horizon ( ?is life on e>?1 & ! purely ph5om5al "* ( ! _w 9 :i* = a few ye>s we h to live & move & h our be+4 ,z /ud5ts ( classical & o!r ,ori5tal hi/ory we come to admire ! great empires ) _! palaces & pyramids & temples & capitols4 ,:at c\ld h seem$ m real1 m gr&1 m likely to impress ! "y m9d ?an ,babylon & ,n9eveh1 ,!bes & ,alex&ria1 ,j]usalem1 ,a!ns1 & ,rome8 ,& n[ :]e are !y8 ,! v names ( _! great rul]s & h]oes are kn[n to few p only & h to be le>nt by he>t1 )\t tell+ u mu* ( ^? :o wore !m4 ,_m ?+s = :i* ?\s&s ( human be+s 7 will+ to lay d[n _! lives1 & actually did lay !m d[n1 are to u m]e words & dreams1 my?s1 fables1 & leg5ds4 ,if ev] !re 0 a do]1 x 0 ,h]cules1 & n[ we are told t he 0 a m]e my?6 ,if "o reads ! description ( ,babylonian & ,egyptian campaigns1 z record$ on cunei=m cyl9d]s & on ! walls ( anci5t ,egyptian temples1 ! numb] ( p slaught]$ seems imm5se1 ! issues ov]:elm+2 & yet :at has become ( x all8 ,! inroads ( ! ,huns1 ! exp$itions ( ,g5ghis ,khan & ,timur1 s fully describ$ by hi/orians1 %ook ! :ole _w to its f\ndations1 & n[ ! s& ( ! des]t di/urb$ by _! armies lies z smoo? z ev]4 ,:at ,india tea*es u is t 9 a /ate advanc+ t[>ds civilization1 !re mu/ be always two ca/es or two classes ( m51 a ca/e ( ,brahmans or ( ?9k]s1 & a ca/e ( ,k%atriyas1 :o are to fight2 possibly o!r ca/es also ( ^? :o are to "w & ( ^? :o are to s]ve4 ,great w>s w5t on 9 ,india1 b !y 7 left to be f\ght by ! w>riors by pr(ession4 ,! peasants 9 _! villages rema9$ quiet1 accept+ ! consequ5ces1 :atev] !y might be1 & ! ,brahmans liv$ on1 ?9k+ & dream+ 9 _! =e/s1 satisfi$ to rule aft] ! battle 0 ov]4 ,& :at applies to milit>y /ruggles seems to me to apply to all /ruggles--political1 religi\s1 social1 comm]cial1 & ev5 lit]>y4 ,let ^? :o love to fight1 fight2 b let o!rs :o are fond ( quiet "w g on undi/urb$ 9 _! own special call+s4 ,t 01 z f> z we c see1 ! old ,indian idea1 or at all ev5ts ! ideal :i* ! ,brahmans wi%$ to see realiz$4 ,i d n /& up = utt] idl5ess or slo?1 n ev5 = drones1 ?\gh nature does n seem to condemn ev5 hoc g5us altoge!r4 ,all ,i plead =1 z a s*ol> & a ?9k]1 is fre$om f canvass+1 f lett]-read+ & lett]-writ+1 f committees1 deputations1 meet+s1 public d9n]s1 & all ! re/4 ,t w s\nd v selfi% to ! e>s ( practical m51 & ,i und]/& :y !y %\ld look ^u m5 l myself z h>dly wor? _! salt4 ,b :at w\ld !y say to "o ( ! greate/ fight]s 9 ! hi/ory ( ! _w8 ,:at w\ld !y say to ,julius ,caes>1 :5 he decl>es t ! triumphs & ! laurel wrea?s ( ,cic]o are z f> nobl] ?an ^? 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