,,! ,,romance ,,( ,,! ,,s\l ,by ,lilian ,/aveley ,! ,au?or ( ,! ,gold5 ,f\nta9 ,london ,john ,m4 ,watk9s #ba ,cecil ,c\rt1 ,*>+ ,cross ,road1 ,w4,c4 #b #aibj ,:at am ,i8 ,9 my fle% ,i am b equal to ! bea/s ( ! field4 ,9 my he>t & m9d ,i am corrupt ,humanity4 ,9 my s\l ,i "k n :at ,i am or may be1 & !re9 lies my hope4 ,o wond]ful & my/]i\s s\l1 m fragile ?an gossam] & yet s /rong t %e may /& 9 ! ,pres5ce ( ,god & n p]i%6 ,?\gh ye h li5 among ! pots1 yet %all ye be z ! w+s ( a dove4--,psalm lxviii4 #ac4 ,by :at means %all ! ord9>y man & woman1 liv+ ! usual ev]yday life1 :e!r ( "w or ( leisure1 f9d ,god8 ,& ?is )\t )draw+ !mselves into a life ap>t--a religi\s life1 & )\t outw>d & conspicu\s piety always runn+ to public wor%ip 7?\gh (t5 v cross & impati5t at home72 )\t leav+ undone any ( ! duties necess>y to ! welf>e ( ^? dep5d5t on !m2 )\t mak+ !mselves 9 any way peculi>2--h[ %all ^! same p g up into ! secret places ( ,god1 h[ %all !y f9d ! m>vell\s peace ( ,god1 h[ satisfy ^? vague p]si/5t long+s = a happ9ess m complete ?an any !y h s f> kn[n1 yet a happ9ess :i* is :isp]$ ( betwe5 ! he>t & ! s\l z some?+ :i* is to be possess$ if we b knew h[ to get x8 ,h[ %all ord9>y mortals :il/ /ill 9 ! fle% re-ent] ,ed5 ev5 = an h\r8 = ,ed5 is n dead & gone1 b we are dead to ,ed5--,ed51 ! secret g>d5 ( en*antm5t :]e ! s\l & ! m9d & ! he>t live 9 ! pres5ce ( ,god & he> once m ! voice ( ,god walk+ 9 ! g>d5 9 ! cool ( ! day 7,g54 iii474 ,x is possible = ^! ?+s to come to u or we to !m1 & 9 q a few ye>s if we set our he>ts on !m4 ,fir/ we mu/ desire2 & aft] ! desire1 /eady & p]si/5t1 ,god w give4 ,& we say1 ,b ,i h desir$ & ,i d desire1 & ,god does n give4 ,:y is ?is8 ,!re are two reasons = x4 ,= "o--are ^! m>vell\s ?+s to be giv5 because ( "o cry2 = "o petulant dem&2 = a few te>s1 mo/ly ( self-pity1 %$ 9 an h\r :5 ! _w fails to satisfy u1 :5 a fri5d has disappo9t$ u1 :5 our plans are spoil$1 :5 we are sick or lonely8 ,^! are ! occasions on :i* we mo/ly f9d "t to ?9k ( :at we call a bett] _w1 & ( ! consolations ( ,god4 ,b let anyone h all t he c fancy1 be c>ri$ high ^u ! flood-tide ( prosp]ity1 ambition1 & success1 & h[ mu* "t w he or %e give to ,almighty ,god8--n two mom5ts dur+ ! day4 ,yet ! ,mak] ( all ?+s is to be/[ ,8 unspeakable ri*es ^u u 9 return = two mom5ts ( our ?\ght or love6 ,does a man acquire great worldly weal?1 or fame1 9 return = two mom5ts ( endeav\r8 ,ah1 "s ( u may cry1 b x is m ?an two mom5ts t ,i give ,him2 ,i give ,him h\rs1 & yet ,i _c f9d ,him4 ,if t is really s1 !n ! second reason is ! "o :i* w\ld expla9 :y ,he has n be5 f\nd4 ,a great wall divides u f ! consci\sness ( ! ,pres5ce ( ,god4 ,9 ?is wall !re is "o ,door1 & "o only1 ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,we h n f\nd ,god because we h n f\nd ,him fir/ z ,jesus ,*ri/ 9 our own he>t4 ,n[ :e!r we take our he>t to *ur*1 :e!r we take x to our daily "w1 or :e!r we take x to our amusem5ts1 we %all n f9d ,jesus 9 any "o place m ?an ano!r if ,he is n already 9 our he>ts to beg9 )4 ,h[ %all ,i comm5ce to love a ,be+ :om ,i h nev] se58 ,by ?9k+ ab\t ,him2 by ?9k+ ab\t ,him v p]si/5tly2 by comp>+ ! _w & its fri5d%ips & its loves & its deceits & its secret envi\snesses ) all t we "k ( ! lovely ways ( g5tle ,jesus4 ,if we d ?is consi/5tly1 x is impossible n to f9d ,him m lovable ?an any o!r p]son t we "k4 ,! m lovable we f9d ,him ! m we ?9k ab\t ,him1 by s mu* ! m we f9d ourselves beg9n+ to love ,him1 & once we h le>nt to hold ,him v w>mly & t5d]ly 9 our he>t1 !n we are well 9 ! way to f9d ! ,*ri/ & aft]w>ds t div9e g>d5 ( ! s\l 9 :i* ,god seems to slip ,8 h& "u our re/less anxi\s he>t & lift x high into a place ( safety & repose4 ,:5 = "s "t we h le>nt to g 9 & out ( ?is g>d51 ) ,god's t5d] help we make ourself a de> place--a ne/ "u ,god's w+1 & yet my/]i\sly ev5 ne>] ?an ?is1 x is s ne> to ,god4 ,to ?is place we le>n to fly to & fro 9 a second ( "t3 s t1 sitt+ we>y & h>ass$ 9 ! c\nt+-h\se1 9 an in/ant a man c be away 9 8 s\l's ne/2 & s v great is ! refre%m5t ( x & ! /r5g? ( x t he comes back to 8 "w a new man1 & s sil5tly & quickly done t no "o else 9 ! room w\ld ev] "k he _h be5 !re3 x is a secret betwe5 8 ,"l & himself4 ,b ! p]son :o le>ns to d ?is does n rema9 ! same raw uncivilis$ creature t once he or %e 03 b sl[ly mu/ become q *ang$2 all ta/es mu/ alt]1 7all capacities w increase 9 an extraord9>y mann]71 & all ?\ghts ( he>t & m9d mu/ become acceptable & pleasant to ,god4 ,! man :o has n yet begun to seek ,god--t is to say1 has n ev5 comm5c$ to try & le>n h[ to live spiritually1 b lives absorb$ entirely 9 ! ?+s ( ! fle%--is a spiritual savage4 ,to wat* su* a man & 8 ways & 8 ta/es is to ! spiritual man ! same ?+ z :5 a ,european wat*es an ,african 9 8 native haunts1 notes 8 beads1 8 frightful ta/es 9 decorations1 foods1 amusem5ts1 habits1 & habitations1 &1 comp>+ !m ) 8 own ways1 says in/antly t man is a savage4 ,?is pr\d ,european does n pause to consid] t he himself may be inw>dly :at ! savage is--q d>k2 t to ,god's eyes 8 own ways & ta/es are z frightful z ^? ( ! ,african are to himself4 ,:at raises a man above a savage is n ! size ( 8 d9+-room1 ! cut ( 8 coat1 ! luxuries ( 8 h\se1 ! le>n$ books t adorn 8 book%elves1 b t he %\ld h begun to le>n h[ to live spiritually3 ?is is ! only true civilis+ ( ! human animal4 ,until x is comm5c$1 8 mann]s & 8 ways are no?+ b a v5e] cov]+ ! raw in/9cts ( ! natural man--in/9cts satisfi$ m c>efully1 m hidd5ly1 ?an ^? ( ! ,african1 b always ! same4 ,!re is little v>iety 9 ! lu/s ( ! fle%2 !y are all aft] "o patt]n1 ea* ( its k9d1 foll[ "o ano!r 9 a circle1 & are v limit$4 ,x is n ! clay ( our bodies fa%ion$ by ,god :i* makes "s common & "s n4 ,x is ! indep5d5t & un-,godlike ?\ghts ( our he>ts & m9ds :i* c make ( u common1 & ev5 savage1 p]sons4 ,! *ang+ ( ^! ?\ghts1 ! h>monis+ ( !m1 &1 f9ally1 ! total alt]ation ( !m1 is ! "w 9 u ( ! ,holy ,_s4 ,by tak+ ,*ri/ into our he>ts & mak+ = ,him !re a liv+ ne/1 we set t mighty =ce 9 motion :i* %all ev5tually make = u a ne/ 9 ! ,liv+ ,god4 ,= ,jesus ,*ri/ is able 7b only ) our own entire will+ness7 to make u n only acceptable to ,god1 b delightful to ,him1 s mu* s t ev5 :ile we rema9 9 ! fle% ,he w\ld seem n to be will+ to endure hav+ u always away f ,him1 b visits u & dwells ) u aft] ,8 own m>vell\s fa%ion & cat*es u up to ,himself4 ,to beg9 )1 we mu/ h a set purpose & w t[>ds ,god4 ,9 ! :ole spiritual advance x is fir/ we :o mu/ make ! ef=t1 :i* ,god w !n /abilise1 & f9ally on our cont9u+ to ma9ta9 ?is ef=t ,he w br+ x to complete fruition4 ,?us /ep by /ep ! _s rises--fir/ ! ef=t1 !n ! gift4 ,fir/ ! w to d--& !n ! grace to d x )4 ,)\t ! will+ w ,god gives no grace3 )\t ,god's grace no w ( ,man c rea* atta9m5t4 ,god's w & ,man's w1 ,god's love & ,man's love--^! work+ & jo9+ h>moni\sly toge!r raise ,man up into ,et]nal ,life4 99 99 99 ,god is desir\s ( communicat+ ,himself to u 9 a ,p]sonal mann]4 ,9 ! ,scriptures we h ! f\ndation1 ! basis1 ! cause & reason ( our ,fai? laid out be=e u2 b ,he wills t we g beyond ?is basis1 ?is reason+ ( ,fai? into exp]i5ce ( ,himself4 ,= ?is end1 !n1 ,he fills u ) ! a*+ desire to f9d & "k ,him1 to be fill$ ) ,him1 to be com=t$ & consol$ by ,him1 to discov] ,8 joys4 ,he fills u ) ^! desires 9 ord] t ,he may gratify u4 ,by be+ will+ to receive & und]/& z only ?r\gh ! m$ium ( ! writt5 ^w we limit ,god 9 ,8 communications ) u4 ,= by ! ,holy ,gho/ ,he w communicate n by writt5 ^w b by p]sonal t\*+ ( love br\ght ab\t = u by ! tak+ & enclos+ ( ,jesus ,*ri/ )9 ! he>t n only z ! ,writt5 ,^w1 ! ,promise & ,hope ( ,scripture1 b z ! ,liv+ ,god4 ,= ?is end inw>d m$itation & pond]+ are a necessity4 99 99 99 ,h[ is x t we s (t5 f9d great virtue1 rem>kable *>ity & pati5ce among/ p]sons :o are yet n consci\s ( any direct contact ) ,god8 ,!y h nev] kn[n ! pa9s ( rep5tance1 nei!r h !y kn[n ! sublime joys ( ,god4 ,are ^! ! n9ety-&-n9e j p]sons ne$+ no rep5tance8 ,in/9ctively1 & almo/ unconsci\sly1 !y hold to1 & draw ^u1 ! ,univ]sal ,*ri/--or ,_s ( ,righte\sness2 b !y h n laid hold ( nor tak5 into !mselves t ,_s ( ! ,p]sonal ,*ri/1 :om ,*ri/ians receive & "k ?r\gh ,jesus4 ,he is ! ,door into ! unspeakable joys ( ,god4 ,:at are ^! joys ( ,god8 ,!y are v>y+ degrees ( ! manife/ation & exp]i5ce ( reciprocal ,div9e ,love4 ,:at is ! true aim ( spiritual endeav\r--an attempt at p]sonal & individual salvation8 ,yes1 to comm5ce )1 b beyond t1 & m fully1 x is ! attempt to comply ) ! exquisite ,w ( ,god2 & ! g5]al & univ]sal improv+ & rais+ ( ! consci\sness ( ! :ole _w4 ,yet ?is univ]sal improvem5t mu/ take place 9 ea* individual _s 9 an individual mann]4 ,!re are ^? :o w\ld d5y to individuality its rights1 claim+ t ! highe/ spirituality is ! total cessation ( all individuality2 yet ?is w\ld n appe> to be ,god's view ( ! matt]1 = 9 ! mo/ supreme contacts ( ! s\l ) ,himself ,he does n wipe out ! consci\sness ( ! s\l's individual joy1 b1 on ! contr>y1 to an unt5able ext5t ,he increases x4 ,& ,jesus tea*es u t life "h is bo? ! means & ! process ( ! gradual con=mation ( ! w ( ,man to ! w ( ,god1 & our true "w is ! individual le>n+ ( ?is process4 ,b ?is cultivation ( our individuality mu/ n be subv]t$ to ! purpose ( ! m]e ga9 ( p]sonal advantage1 b because ( ! he>tfelt wi% to con=m to ! glori\s w ( ,god4 ,! failure ( ! human w to run 9 conjunction ) ! ,div9e w is ! cause1 z we "k1 ( all s94 ,9 ! friction ( ^! oppos+ wills1 =ces baneful to ,man are g5]at$4 ,f its v e>lie/ comm5cem5t 9 *ildhood our sy/em ( education is bas$ ^u wrong ideas4 ,) little or no reg>d to ,god's plans ,man lays out 8 own puny laws & ambitions & tea*es !m to 8 "y4 ,we are n taught t :at we are "h = is above all & be=e all to arrive at a s5se ( p]sonal connection ) ,god1 to id5tify ourselves ) ! spiritual :ile /ill 9 ! fle%4 ,on ! contr>y1 we are taught to gr[ %y1 ev5 a%am$1 ( ! spiritual6 & to reg>d ! _w z a place pr9cipally or ev5 solely 9 :i* to enjoy ourselves or make a successful c>e]4 ,*ildr5 are taught to look eag]ly & ma9ly = holidays & p>ties2 gr[n m5 & wom5 ! same ^u a l>g] & m fooli% scale1 & always "u ! t]ribly mi/ak5 belief t 9 spiritual ?+s no great happ9ess is to be f\nd1 b only 9 mat]ialism3 yet v (t5 we f9d ! greate/ unhapp9ess among/ ! weal?ie/ p4 ,happ9ess6 happ9ess6 ,we see ! great pursuit ( x on e side1 & no tru] or m ne$ful in/9ct has be5 giv5 to ,man1 b he fails to use x 9 ! way int5d$4 ,?is _w is a ,t\*/one1 a ,f9d+-place = ,god4 ,:oev] w obey ! law ( f9d+ ,god f ?is _w in/ead ( wait+ to try & d x f ! next1 he1 & he only1 w ev] grasp & take into himself t fugitive my/]i\s unse5 ,some?+ :i*--n kn[+ :at x is1 yet feel+ t x exi/s--we h nam$ ,happ9ess4 ,b h[ comm5ce ?is =midable1 ?is seem+ly impossible task ( f9d+ ,god 9 a _w 9 :i* ,he is totally invisible8 ,to ! natural or animal ,man ,god is z totally hidd5 & inaccessible z ,he is to ! bea/s ( ! field2 yet encas$ )9 8 bosom lies ! s\l :i* c be ! means ( draw+ ,man & ,god toge!r 9 a glori\s union4 ,i h kn[n all ?is f my *ildhood1 we cry1 & ! k ( x has n help$ me "o /ep ^u my way4 ,!n try aga91 & rev]se y\r me?od1 = hi!rto y h be5 besee*+ gifts f ,god1 ask+ = gifts f ,jesus1 & h =gott5 to give4 ,give y\r love to ,jesus1 give ,him a home1 in/ead ( ask+ ,him to give y "o4 ,give y\r he>t to ,god1 set x ^u ,him4 ,:at is keep+ y back8 ,y are afraid ( :at x w entail2 y are afraid ( :at ,god w dem& ( y2 ^? words ,=sake all1 & foll[ ,me fill y ) some?+ l t]ror4 ,i _c leave my bus9ess1 my *ildr51 my home1 my luxuries1 my games1 my dresses1 my fri5ds6 ,nei!r ne$ y b1 kn[+ ?is initial agony ( m9d1 ,*ri/ said x is easi] = a camel to g ?r\gh ! eye ( a ne$le 7! "n ( an exce$+ly n>r[ gate into ,j]usalem7 ?an = a ri* man to ent] ! k+dom ( heav54 ,:at does x mean to set ! he>t ^u some?+8 ,we say1 ,i h set my he>t on go+ to see my son1 ,i h set my he>t on do+ s-&-s1 b ?is does n mean t 9 ord] to accompli% x we mu/ w&] homeless & lonely until ! day ( a*ievem5t4 ,no2 b we set our he>t & m9d ^u ev5tually accompli%+ ?is wi%1 we %ape all our plans t[>ds x1 we give x ! fir/ place4 ,?is is :at ,god asks u to d2 to give ,him ! fir/ place4 ,we ne$ n g to ,him 9 rags3 ,david & ,solomon 7 imm5sely weal?y1 ,job 0 a ri* man2 b we mu/ ev5tually ?9k m ( ,him ?an we d ( our dress1 m ( ,him ?an we d ( our bus9ess1 m ( ,him ?an we d ( lov]1 fri5d1 or *ild4 ,_m well-m9d$ p are "u ! impression t su* love = an ,invisible ,be+ is a total impossibility4 ,yet ! great comm&m5t /&s writt5 all across ! face ( ! heav5s--,?\ %alt love ,me ) all ?y he>t & m9d & s\l & /r5g?4 ,are we !n to suppose t ,god asks ! impossible ( ,8 own creatures1 t ,he mocks u8 ,no2 = :5 we desire ,he s5ds ! capacity1 & day by day s5ds u ! p[] to rea* ?is love ?r\gh ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,!re is includ$ 9 ! words ,give u ?is day our daily bread1 ! bread ( ! s\l1 :i* is ,love4 ,div9e ,love comm5ces 9 u 9 a v small way1 z a v feeble flick]1 = we are v feeble & small creatures4 ,b ,god takes ! w = ! de$1 & ! day comes :5 sudd5ly we are fill$ ) true love1 z a gift4 ,?is is inde$ ! second baptism1 ! baptism ( fire1 ! baptism ( ! ,holy ,gho/2 !n at la/ ! great wall :i* has hi!rto divid$ our consci\sness f ,god goes d[n 9 its entirety1 nev] aga9 to rise up & divide u4 ,?is is ! mighty "w ( ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,?\gh ?is is n our "w1 /ill we h _h ! e>ne/ w1 ! long+ desire2 we h made cont9ually1 p]sev]+ly1 our t9y1 (t5 futile1 ef=ts to please & place ,him fir/1 & ?\gh p]haps almo/ all 7 failures1 ,he has c\nt$ e "o to u = righte\sness4 ,we may at all times be ask+ ourselves1 ,b h[ %all ,i "k ! w ( ,god1 h[ %all ,i please ,him1 h[ %all ,i "k :at ,*ri/ w\ld wi% me to d or to ?9k8 ,!re is "o te/ m sure ?an any o!r1 :i* is to ask oneself1 ,w\ld ,jesus h done j ?is8 & ! answ] w come f ! inw>d ( u in/antane\sly4 ,b be=e we c use ?is te/ we mu/ h made a c>eful /udy ( ,scripture & also h begun ! habit ( inw>d p]sonal intimacy ) ,jesus ,himself4 ,s imm5se is ! b\nty ( ,god to ! creature t truly & p]si/5tly wills & endeav\rs to please ,him1 s great are ! rew>ds ( t creature = its t9y "w t x is z ?\gh a *ild %\ld scrat* b>e gr\nd ) its little spade & reap a h>ve/ ( sweet fl[]s z magic gifts4 ,9 ?is way x is t we f9d actually fulfill$ 9 ourselves ! lovely words ( ! prophet1 ! des]t %all blossom l ! rose4 ,! great initial difficulty t surely mo/ ( u feel is h[ to come into p]sonal contact ) ?is ,jesus ,*ri/1 & to "k :i* are ! fir/ /eps t we %\ld take to br+ ab\t ?is contact4 ,!y are j ^? same /eps t we use to come to a ne>] und]/&+ ( & great] intimacy ) any p]sons we are desir\s ( mak+ fri5ds )4 ,we comm5ce by ?9k+ ab\t !m1 by arrang+ to sp5d "t 9 _! companion%ip2 & ! m we ?9k ab\t !m & ! m "t we sp5d ) !m if !y are v attractive p1 ! m we feel 9 sympa?y ) !m4 ,=m1 !n1 ! habit ( mak+ = brief in/ants a m5tal picture ( ! ,savi\r4 ,note ! exquisite t5d]ness ( ,8 h&s1 s in/antly ready to save & heal2 note ! calm /r5g? & ! great love 9 ,8 c\nt5ance1 walk beside ,him d[n ! /reet1 jo9 ,8 daily life1 le>n to become famili> ) ,him z ,jesus--:at w\ld ,he d1 h[ w\ld ,he look1 :at w\ld ,8 ?\ghts be8 ,to feel sympa!tically t[>ds a p]son is to take "o ( ! mo/ important /eps t[>ds fri5d%ip4 ,h[ _m ( u /op 9 ! ru% ( our daily amusem5ts1 int]e/s1 & "w to sympa?ise ) ,*ri/8 ,mo/ probably1 if we ?9k ( ,*ri/ at all1 x is to feel t ,he ought to sympa?ise ) u6 ,n[ ,*ri/ n only sympa?ises ) b ard5tly loves u1 & our failure to receive ! com=t & help ( ?is love is due to our failure 9 return+ to ,him ^! same feel+s ( sympa?y & love & fri5d%ip4 ,we are n reciprocal1 b p]petually ask & nev] give4 ,x is only by return+ love to ,*ri/ t we are able to receive ! b5efits ( ,8 love = u4 ,8 mighty p[] & help fl[s ar\nd b n ?r\gh u until we place ourselves 9 individual & direct contact ) ,him1 until we make t my/]i\s inw>d & spiritual connection ) ,him :i* c be a*iev$ only ?r\gh a p]sonal love = ,him4 ,aga9 & aga9 we may cry out1 ,b h[ love ! invisible8 ,*ri/ is invisible1 b = all t1 he is n unkn[n4 ,we all ( u "k ,him4 ,b we d n give ourselves "t or opportunity to "k ,him suffici5tly well4 ,:at h\rs1 mon?s1 ye>s1 we devote to mak+ & kn[+ our fri5ds2 yet a few mom5ts a day are m ?an en\gh = mo/ ( u to sp5d 9 becom+ m intimate ) ! only ,fri5d :om x is wor? our :ile to make4 ,b life is s busy ,i h no "t1 y say4 ,:at ( ^? h\rs sp5t 9 ! tra91 ^? mom5ts sp5t wait+ = an appo9tm5t1 t half-h\r tak5 = a re/1 b :i* is n a re/ because ( ! ru%+ inh>moni\s turmoil ( y\r ?\ghts8 ,no "o is s re/ful to ?9k ( z ,jesus4 ,e s+le quality t we mo/ admire1 tru/1 & love is to be f\nd 9 ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,! only reason ( our failure to love ,him m ard5tly ?an any human be+ we "k is t we d n ?9k en\gh ab\t ,him4 ,h[ mu* (f5d$ we %\ld be if anyone d>$ to say to u1 ,y are n a ,*ri/ian4 ,we all consid] ourselves ,*ri/ians z a matt] ( c\rse2 b :y ?is c]ta9ty1 :at reason c we give8 ,_m w\ld say1 ,i keep ! ,comm&m5ts1 & ,i am baptis$ 9 ,*ri/'s "n4 ,b ,*ri/ianity is n an act done by h&s1 x is a life1 & ! ,jews keep ! ,comm&m5ts ev5 m /rictly ?an we & are n ,*ri/ians4 ,! m]e fact ( believ+ t ,*ri/ once liv$ & 0 crucifi$ is n en\gh4 ,! ,jews & also ! ,mahomm$ans believe t ,he liv$ & 0 crucifi$4 ,:at is !n necess>y8 ,t we believe t ,he is inde$ ! ,son ( ,god1 ! ,messiah1 ! ,savi\r2 = if ,he 0 no m ?an a holy man1 by :at means has ,he p[] to save u m ?an ,moses has p[] to save u8 ,! true inw>d k t ,*ri/ is ,god comes n by nature to any man1 b by gift ( ,god--:i* gift mu/ be e>ne/ly s\ght1 /riv51 pray$ =1 & desir$3 ?is fai? is ! v com+ to ,god by :i* we are sav$4 ,if we are n yet 9 ?is fai? t ,jesus ,*ri/ is ! ,messiah1 !n we are nei!r ,jew1 ,mahomm$an1 nor ,*ri/ian1 b w&]]s )\t a fold1 & )\t a ,%eph]d2 long+1 & n yet com=t$4 ,h[ d we come by ?is joy ( ! p]sonal lov+ ( ,god1 ?is ,romance ( ! ,s\l br\ght to s5sible fruition :il/ /ill 9 ! fle%8 ,is x a gift8 ,yes4 ,is x a gift because ( "s m]it ( goodness on our "p beyond ! goodness ( o!r p]sons :o are )\t x1 ?\gh /riv+8 ,no4 ,is x because ( "s "w = ,god t we d 9 ?is _w1 *>itable or social8 ,no4 ,is x1 !n1 no?+ b an arbitr>y fav\ritism on ,8 "p8 ,no4 ,is x a sagacity or clev]ness1 a height ( le>n+1 a result ( close /udy8 ,no4 ,x is simply & solely a c]ta9 & p>ticul> ob$i5t attitude ( he>t & m9d t[>ds ,god ( ! nature ( a long+--giv+1 a grateful outgo+ ?9k+ t[>ds ,him1 cont9ually ma9ta9$1 & a he>t invitation to1 & a receiv+ ( ,jesus ,*ri/ into ourselves4 ,our "p is to ma9ta9 ?is ob$i5t t5d]-wait+1 giv+ & receiv+ attitude "u all ! circum/ances ( daily life1 & ,*ri/ ) ! ,holy ,gho/ w !n "w ! miracle 9 u4 ,b s difficult is ?is attitude to ma9ta9 t we are totally unable to d x )\t ano!r gift ^u ,8 "p--,grace4 ,! :ole process f fir/ to la/ is gift ^u gift1 & t because fir/ ( our belief & desire1 & !n ( our cont9ually rememb]+ t to receive ^! gifts we h a "p to play :i* ,god w n disp5se )4 ,= an illu/ration let u turn to ! arti/ & 8 sitt]4 ,! sitt] does n produce ! "w ( art1 b mu/ ma9ta9 8 attitude3 if he refuses to d ?is1 ! "w ( ! arti/ is m>r$ & ev5 altoge!r foil$4 ,s ) ,*ri/ & ,8 ,div9e ,art 9 br++ u to our ,fa!r--by n endeav\r+ to ma9ta9 our "r attitude we foil ,8 "w4 ,god w\ld seem to give u t :i* we seek & ask =1 & no m4 ,great ecclesia/ics1 !ologians1 philosoph]s :o s\ght & desir$ ,him ) ! intellig5ce1 seek+ = k1 = pre-em95ce ( spiritual wisdom1 7 n giv5 z an addition to _! le>n+ ?is exquisite fire & balm ( love4 ,^? :o desir$ ( ,*ri/ ! heal+ ( ! body receiv$ t1 & we are n told !y receiv$ any?+ fur!r4 ,s also ) ! woman at ! well3 ,if ?\ had/ ask$1 ,*ri/ said to h]1 ,i w\ld h giv5 !e ( ! wat] ( ,life4 ,)\t we ask = & receive ?is gift ( ,love we hang to ,god by ,fai? only4 ,:at is true religion1 :at is t religion by :i* we %all feel :olly satisfi$8 ,x is to h ,*ri/ recognis$1 kn[n1 ador$1 & liv+ 9 ! s\l4 ,?is is ! ,new ,life )9 u1 ?is is ! ,new ,bir?4 ,! fir/ pro(s ( ! p[] ( ?is ,new ,life 9 u is ! victory ov] all ! l[] passions1 victory ov] ! animal t once 0 ourself6 ,a victory s complete t n only d we cease to desire ^? =m] ?+s or be tr\bl$ by !m b we no long] respond to t :i* is base1 ev5 ?\gh we be br\ght into visual contact ) su* ?+s z w\ld =m]ly h inevitably excit$ at lea/ a pass+ response 9 u4 ,c any man free himself 9 su* a mann] f 8 own nature8 ,common s5se =bids u imag9e x4 ,x is !n a ,liv+ ,p[] )9 u1 sl[ly trans=m+ u to high] levels1 f ! fle%ly to ! spiritual1 & %ap+ u to meet ! purity ( ,god4 ,& su* is ! t5d] consid]ation ( ?is ,p[] = our weakness t :ile we are le>n+ to give up ^! bas] pleasures ,he tea*es u ! high] pleasures ( ! s\l--we are n left com=tless4 ,s 9 our e>li] /ages we may h _m v wond]ful ec/asies :i* lat] are altoge!r disp5s$ )1 & inde$ are ev5tually n desir$ by ! s\l1 or ev5 ! m gre$y he>t & m9d1 :i* all n[ ask & desire "o fav\r only--to be on e>? 9 cont9ual fell[%ip ) ,*ri/ ,jesus & ev] able to ent] into ! love ( ,god4 ,to be )\t ?is glori\s p[] ( ent]+ ,responsive ,love ( ,god1 to be cut (f f ?is1 is ! great & only fe> ( ! s\l4 ,?is fe> x is :i* holds ! s\l & ! creature t[>ds ,god bo? day & night le/ by ! lea/ =getfulness or wrongful attitude !y %\ld lose ,him or displease ,him4 ,all ^! *anges no man c br+ ab\t = himself--!y are accompli%$ = him by ! ,holy ,_s2 b ?is he c & mu/ d = himself1 invite ,sweet ,jesus into 8 he>t & en?rone ,him !re z ,rul]4 ,?is once accompli%$1 t my/]i\s monitor )9 u commonly kn[n z ,consci5ce gr[s until x atta9s an excessive s5sitiv5ess :i* p5etrates ! m9ute/ acts ( life & ! deepe/ recesses ( he>t & m9d4 ,x becomes inexorable1 x dem&s in/ant & complete ob$i5ce4 ,because ( x relations ) o!r p]sons und]go a dra/ic *ange4 ,complete1 in/ant1 entire =giv5ess = e (f5ce is dem&$1 & at la/ ev5 a mom5t>y annoyance mu/ be effac$2 no matt] h[ great ! cause ( annoyance1 x mu/ be effac$ 9 ! same in/ant z t 9 :i* x crosses ! m9d1 = a s+le adv]se ?\ght ev5tually proves z injuri\s to ! ,_s z a gra9 ( s& is to ! eyes4 ,! petty human aims1 ! smallness ( all our =m] /&>ds1 ! in/9ct = retaliation mu/ all be ov]come1 laid ^u "o side--a sl[ task ( mu* humiliation to ! creature1 reveal+ to x its own smallness & vanity & its own extraord9>y ineffectiv5ess ( self-control1 its puny p[]s ov] itself3 no?+ %ort ( an absolute self-conque/ is aim$ at & dem&$ by ?is inw>d monitor--! ,s\l4 ,) :at pr(\nd v5]ation = & recognition ( ! p[] ( ,god does ! reg5]at$ creature ?9k ( ^? alt]ations 9 its own nature :i*1 aft] long /riv+s1 are ev5tually giv5 x by ,god1 & ( ^? alt]ations n yet /abilis$ because n yet gifts1 b only on ! way to p]haps becom+ gifts--t is to say1 /ill only :]e ! p[] ( ! creature itself has be5 able to raise !m3 = ( ^! la/ x may inv>iably be said t to-day we may feel s]5e security & to-morr[ fall & fail--& ?is 9 ! v meane/ way6 ,we see on e side m5 & wom5 :o try to fill an empt9ess1 a want+ t !y feel )9 !mselves1 by e sort ( means except ! only "o :i* c ev] be a p]man5t success4 ,wom5 devote !mselves to lov]s1 husb&s1 *ildr51 dress1 society1 & dogs2 m5 to bus9ess1 ambition1 ! racec\rse1 folly1 dr9k1 games1 & arts4 ,are any ( ^! p]sons truly happy1 truly satisfi$ 9 all _! be+8 ,no1 & !y desc5d to old age surr\nd$ by ! du/ ( disillusionm5t4 ,lonely & soon =gott5 by ! hungry pleasure-seek+ cr[d1 su* p]sons pass f ?is _w1 & ! mo/ _! fri5ds h to say is t !y h gone to a bett] "o4 ,b h !y8 ,= ! m]e fact ( %$d+ ! fle% does n br+ u any ne>] to ,god4 ,on ! contr>y1 ! %$d+ ( ! fle% increases appall+ly ! difficulty ( ! s\l 9 f9d+ ,god4 ,?is _w is ! v place 9 :i* we c mo/ easily & quickly get into communication ) ,god4 ,to ?9k t ! m]e act ( dy+ improves our "* & takes u to heav5 is a delusion ( ! ,enemy--x is liv+ "h :i* c fit u & c>ry u to heav52 & we h no great di/ance to travel ei!r1 = heav5 is a /ate ( consci\sness1 & by ent]+ t /ate ( consci\sness we become unit$ & connect$ ) su* degrees ( heav5 z ! fle% is able to be>1 ?\gh ^! degrees fall inf9itely %ort ( ^? requir$ by ! s\l3 h5ce ! fe>ful hung]+ & long+ ( ! s\l to dep>t f ! fle%4 ,if we d n f9d ,*ri/ :il/ we are "h1 :5 we ca/ (f ! fle% we ent] a bewild]+ vortex ( a life ( t]rible int5sity & great solitude4 ,we are aw>e ( no?+ b ,self1 are torm5t$ by ,self ) its =ev] unsatisfi$ long+s1 & by ! impossibility ( a*iev+ any o!r ,self4 ,9 ?is int5sity ( self-torm5t+ lonel9ess ! s\l feels to gyrate1 & all t %e kn[s ( t :i* is outside ( ?is ,self is ! s\nd ( ! ru%+ ( invisible ?+s1 = %e is bl9d4 ,)\t ! light ( ?is _w & )\t ! light ( ,*ri/4 ,! joys ( space are n op5 to h]1 only ! d>k & lonely horrors ( x3 %e is 9 an incalculably great] /ate ( isolation f ,god ?an "h 9 ?is _w6 ,! rem$y = all ?is lies "h2 let no "o ?9k he c af=d to wait to f9d ?is rem$y until aft] he leaves ?is _w1 = !n 8 *ance is gone1 & :o is able to =etell :5 x w return8 ,:at c be m beautiful1 m happy1 ?an to f9d ?is rem$y1 to f9d ! only ,be+ :o loves u z mu* z we love ourselves6 ! g5tle1 t5d]1 graci\s1 all-suffic+ ,*ri/2 t all-mighty ev]-giv+ ,*ri/ :o ye>ns ov] & longs = u--:at madness is x t prev5ts u seek+ ,him8 ,all ( u w\ld seem to h two p]sonalities3 we are ! rep5tant & ! unrep5tant ,magdal5e & daily *ange f "o to ! o!r4 ,b true rep5tance _c come be=e love3 if we ?9k we rep5t be=e we love1 !n x is no m ?an a rep5tance ( ! m9d1 :i* says to itself1 ,i mu/ /& well ) ,god because ( my future well-be+4 ,:]e love comes fir/ we get ! rep5tance ( ! he>t1 :i* works ?is way 9 u--we love ,jesus a little1 we love ,him m & m1 & because ( ?is love increas+ to real w>m? we sudd5ly p]ceive ! frightful (f5ces we h committ$ aga9/ ?is sweet love1 & in/antly ! he>t melts & breaks & we are %ak5 to our dep?s t we h ev] griev$ our ,holy ,lov]4 ,?is is true rep5tance--no anxi\s fe>s = our own future1 b love griev+ & agonis$ = its (f5ces4 ,su* rep5tance z ?is pi]ces to ! deepe/ recesses ( ! he>t & m9d1 & leaves ^u !m a deep indelible m>k1 *ang+ all ! aims ( our life1 & is ! beg9n+ ( all joys 9 ,*ri/ ,jesus4 ,let u aim !re=e n fir/ at rep5tance1 b fir/ at love4 ,a little love to ,jesus giv5 _m times a day z we walk or wait or "w1 if only at fir/ said by ! lips ) desire = m w>m?1 aft] a :ile we %all f9d ourselves giv+ x f ! he>t2 !n ! ,div9e ,se$ has begun to gr[ because we h wat]$ x4 ,if ! natural man 7 ask$1 ,:at is life8 :at is x to live8 he w\ld reply1 ,x is to eat1 dr9k1 laugh1 love1 & h pleasure or pa93 to he>1 see1 t\*1 ta/e & smell1 & to be consci\s t ,i d all ^! ?+s4 ,yet ?is consci\sness is b a t9y speck ( consci\sness1 & "s my/]i\s voice )9 ! deeply-?9k+ man tells him t ?is is s4 ,b h[ uncov] a fur!r consci\sness8 ,?is is ! secret ( ! s\l4 ,to pass f "o =m ( consci\sness to ano!r--?is is to increase life fifty1 a hundr$1 a ?\s& times accord+ to ! degrees ( consci\sness we c atta94 ,^! degrees w\ld seem to be irrevocably limit$ because ( ! me*anical actions ( he>t & brea?+1 :i* automatic actions become susp5d$ or s]i\sly int]f]$ ) 9 v high /ates ( consci\sness4 ,:5 fir/ ^! v great expansions ( consci\sness take place1 ! creature is "u /rong conviction t ! s\l has left ! body--t x has gone ^u "s my/]i\s j\rney--?is because ( sev]al reasons4 ,! fir/ is because ( a c]ta9 p]si/5t s\nd ( ru%+2 ! second is because ( ! s5se ( liv+ at trem5d\s spe$1 9 a mann] previ\sly altoge!r unkn[n & totally undream$ (1 9 :i* ! s5ses ( ! body h no conc]n :atev] & are completely clos$ d[n2 ?irdly1 on return+ f ?is j\rney we are n imm$iately able to exact ob$i5ce f ! body1 :i* rema9s in]t & /iffly cold & suff]s di/ress ) too sl[ brea?+4 ,b reason dem&s1 ,h[ is x possible t ! s\l %\ld leave ! body & ! body n die8 & also we p]ceive ?is1 t1 ?\gh ! consci\sness is project$ to an inf9ite di/ance1 or includes t inf9ite di/ance )9 itself1 x yet rema9s aw>e ( ! exi/5ce ( ! body1 ?\gh v dimly4 ,! me?od employ$1 !n1 = adm9i/]+ ^! exp]i5ces to ! s\l & ! creature is n by means ( draw+ ! s\l out ( ! body1 b by a )drawal ( ! condition ( insulation f ,div9e ,life or great magnetic emanation1 9 :i* insulation all creatures h _! normal exi/5ce1 liv+ 9 a condition :i* may be t]m$ a /ate ( total ,unaw>5ess4 ,by ,w ( ,god ?is condition ( insulation is remov$1 ! s\l ent]s ,connection & becomes in/antly & vividly aw>e ( ,spiritual ,life & ( t :i* ,is1 at an inf9ite di/ance f h]self1 s t ! s\l is at "o & ! same "t 9 p>adise or heav51 & ^u ! e>?3 space is eat5 up4 ,)\t see+ or he>+1 ! s\l p>takes 9 a trem5d\s & unspeakable mann] ( ! joys ( ,god1 :i*1 all unfelt by u z natural man1 pass unceas+ly ?r\gh\t ! univ]se4 ,^! exp]i5ces give an imm5se & un%akable k to ! s\l & ! creature ( ! imm5se reality ( ! ,unse5 ,life1 & are d\btless s5t u to effect ?is k4 ,:y1 !n1 is n e man giv5 ?is k8 ,because ! creature mu/ qualify be=e be+ all[$ to receive x1 & too _m hold back f ! te/s4 ,by ^! exp]i5ces we le>n "s little portion ( ! my/]y :i* lies betwe5 ! pett9ess ( t :i* we n[ are & ! great glories t we %all come to2 & 9 ?is awful heav5ly my/]y 9 :i* are fires t h no flame1 & melody :i* has no s\nd1 ! s\l is drawn to ,ev]la/+ ,love4 ,b we _c endure ! bliss ( x1 & ! s\l prays to be cov]$ on acc\nt ( ! creature4 ,b because ( ! limitations ( ! fle% we are n to despise x b reg>d x n z an aim or end 7z t if we satisfy its lu/s t %all be our p>adise71 b reg>d x z a means4 ,*ri/ will$ ! fle% & ! _w to be a rapid means ( our return to ,god4 ,subdue ! fle% )\t despis+ x1 9 humility & ?ankfulness4 ,suff] its trials & p5alties n 9 dejection1 rebellion1 or hopelessness1 b z a means to an end4 ,= ev]yone %all be salt$ ) fire1 says ,scripture2 & c any?+ :atev] be well =g$ or made )\t x be fir/ melt$ & clean$8 ,s1 !n1 = ea* 8 ,ge?semane4 ,z = ,*ri/1 s = ,judas1 :o1 n be+ able to endure1 w5t out & hang$ himself4 ,let our c>e1 !n1 be to *oose t ,ge?semane :i* %all op5 to u ! gates ( heav5 & n hell4 ,9 our raw /ate we fe> ! ,w ( ,god1 ?9k+ x a pa? ( ?orns2 b z ,*ri/ m\lds & tea*es u we gr[ to "k ! ,w ( ,god z a great ,balm3 to long to con=m to x1 joyfully to jo9 x1 to s9k into x z into an imm5se security :]e we are safe f all ills2 & at la/1 no matt] :at tempor>y trials we endure1 s great does our love & confid5ce gr[ by ,grace ( ,god uphold+ our t9y ef=ts t1 l ,job1 we cry to ,him ) absolute s9c]ity & confid5ce1 ,?\gh ,?\ slay me1 yet w ,i tru/ ,!e2 hav+ le>nt x is n ,8 ,w to slay b to re/ore & purify & make glad4 ,incessant "w is ! lot ( ! awak5$ & return+ s\l1 & ju/ly s1 = because ( :at folly & +ratitude did %e ev] leave ,god8 ,a multiplicity ( *oices lie be=e h]1 & h] great conc]n is :i* among/ all ^! possible decisions w prove ! %orte/ pa? to ,god4 ,^! *oices & decisions mu/ be br\ght d[n to ! meane/ details ( ev]yday life4 ,at fir/ on awak5+ ! s\l w\ld l no?+ bett] ?an to =sake & ca/ away mat]ial ?+s altoge!r1 & is incl9$ to despise ! body4 ,b ,jesus tea*es h] t ?is is n pleas+3 x is ,8 ,w t %e %\ld cont9ually l5d assi/ance to ! creature 9 its weaknesses & unc]ta9ties1 n disda9+ x b help+ x4 ,x is ! s\l :i* ma9ta9s contact ) ! ,div9e ,guide1 & !n 9 turn %\ld guide ! creature4 ,z ! ,div9e ,guide condesc5ds to ! s\l1 nev] despis+ h]1 s mu/ ! s\l condesc5d to ! creature3 ackn[l$g+ & und]/&+ t no?+ is too small or humble = ! s\l to att5d to & lead ! creature to d 9 a beautiful & g5tle mann]4 ,by ^! means ! p]meation ( ! natural _w by ! ,div9e is c>ri$ out1 & no act or fact ( life c be consid]$ too insignificant = ! s\l to att5d to = ! developm5t ( ?is aim4 ,! m we become famili> ) spiritual life ! m we obs]ve ! regul>ity ( c]ta9 laws 9 x1 & ! m we f9d analogies betwe5 ^! new & unmapp$ laws & ! laws & =ces already kn[n to u 9 ! visible _w4 ,rightly exp\nd$ by "s sci5tific m9d1 ^! c\ld br+ ! _w ( human ?\ght & aspirations /raight into ! arms ( ,god4 ,sci5ce is ! fri5d & n ! enemy ( religion4 ,sci5ce w light up & illum9ate ! d>k gaps4 ,?is _w is a h\se fully wir$ = light+3 ! wir+ is p]fect1 ! bulbs alone are incomplete2 !y give no light3 x is ! task ( ! s\l to p]fect ^! human bulbs4 ,! life ( consci\s connection ) ,god is true liv+ z f> z we may "k x 9 ! fle%1 an enorm\s increase ov] ! petty normal life ( ! _w or1 m rightly1 ! petty & lack+ life ( ! _w4 ,= 9 ?is life ( ,god-consci\sness is an imm5se sanity & poise1 a balance betwe5 s\l & body & he>t & m9d nev] a*iev$ 9 ! normal or natural life4 ,!re=e ! ,god-consci\s life is n to be nam$ an abnormal b ! complete1 full1 & only truly normal life3 a life 9 :i* bo? s\l & creature h f\nd _! c5tre1 & ! :ole be+ 9 all its p>ts is br\ght to ev5ness1 to h>mony1 to peace & a greatly magnifi$ intellig5ce4 ,if all m5 & wom5 atta9$ ?is /ate1 ?is _w w\ld automatically become ,p>adise4 ,9 ?is true life liv+ & feel+ alt] _! *>act]i/ics & surpass any?+ t c be imag9$ by ! un9itiat$ m9d4 ,n[1 ?\gh to convey "s idea ( ?is condition ( consci\sness w\ld seem to be impossible1 /ill !re are "s types ( p]sons to :om a little some?+ ( ! comm5cem5t ( ! l>g] life ( ! awak5$ s\l might be convey$ be=e !y !mselves exp]i5ce x4 ,! lov]s ( nature1 ( music1 ( ! beautiful & romantic1 & ( poetry3 9 ! highe/ mom5ts rea*$ by su* !y are aw>e ( an indef9able ,some?+--an expansion1 a go+ out t[>ds1 a long+--ye>n+1 subtly compos$ ( bo? joy & pa91 :i* goes beyond ! e>?1 beyond ! music1 beyond ! poetry1 beyond ! beautiful into a ,nameless ,b\rne4 ,at ^! mom5ts !y live ) ! s\l3 ?is is ! comm5cem5t ( _s-life4 ,:5 ! ,nameless ,b\rne has become to ! s\l t :i* ,x really is--,god--& ,he s5ds ,8 responses to h]1 !n ! s\l kn[s ! fullness ( spiritual life z we may "k x 9 ! fle%4 ,b %e c nei!r "k ! ,nameless ,b\rne z ,god nor receive ,8 responses till ! he>t & ! m9d h come to rep5tance ( _! ways & h be5 *ang$ at lea/ 9 "p4 ,)\t ?is mode ( liv+ no "o c be said to live 9 a full or :ole mann]1 because no?+ is :ole :i* does n include ! consci\sness ( ,god1 & ?is 9 a lively & acute degree4 ,"o ( our great difficulties is t :51 z ! m]ely half-rep5tant creature1 we turn to ,god &1 beg9n+ to ask fav\rs ( ,him1 get no response1 !n all our w>m feel+s & long+s t[>ds ,him fall back1 we g into a /ate ei!r ( pr(\nd] unbelief 7:i* is fur!r sep>ation7 or into total apa?y4 ,apa?y is a deadly ?+4 ,! m ,god loves u ! m ,he w d ,8 "p to keep u f x4 ,all ! circum/ances ( life w be us$ to ?is end4 ,we may lose our ne>e/ & de>e/4 ,if x is mat]ial prosp]ity t causes a too complete cont5t to live )\t ,him1 !n "s or all ( t prosp]ity w be remov$4 ,9 :atev] spot we are mo/ t5d]--!re ,he w t\* u4 ,oh1 if x _h be5 anyone else or any?+ less t we _h lo/1 !n x w\ld n h be5 s h>d to be>1 we say4 ,exactly4 ,= no?+ less w\ld h be5 ( any use1 & alas6 ev5 ?is may be ( no use1 = ,*ri/ is ev] will+ & try+ to save u1 & we w n be sav$4 ,if we d n get out ( ?is apa?y1 we %all miss ! :ole reason ( our life "h4 ,by ^! liv+ ?ru/s ,he br+s u to our knees1 humbl$1 humiliat$1 angui%$1 9 ord] t1 hav+ awak5$ & purifi$ u1 ,he may lift u into ,8 ,div9e consolations4 ,we _c 9 "o /ep m\nt up out ( our fai?less indiff]5t wrongful condition into ! glories ( ! k ( ,god4 ,fir/ we mu/ le>n to "k ,jesus1 intimately1 devot$ly4 ,!n ,jesus ! ,*ri/3 !n ! ,fa!r4 ,f9ally ,god ! ,holy ,tr9ity1 once f\nd & kn[n by u1 becomes our ,all1 & by "s unspeakable condesc5sion ,he becomes to u all ?+s 9 all ways4 ,! s\l is fill$ ) romantic & div9e love1 & in/antly ,god is h] ,holy ,lov]3 %e is sad1 we>y1 or afraid1 & imm$iately %e turns to ,him ,he com=ts & mo!rs h]3 %e is fill$ ) ador+ filial love1 & at once ,he is h] ,fa!r4 ,oh1 ! wond]s ( ! fullness ( ! f9d+ & kn[+ ( ,god6 ,let ! man :o w\ld "k happ9ess "h /udy ! works ( ,god1 & n ?9k he w ga9 virtue by putt+ ev]y?+ t he sees "h ^u "o side1 say+ x is n real or x is n good4 ,x is v real ( its own k9d1 & good also if he le>ns h[ to use x1 & v m>vell\s4 ,let him /udy h[ ?+s are made--,god's ?+s1 n trivial man-made ?+s--let him obs]ve h[ all are made ) equal c>e1 ! humble/ & ! pr\de/1 ! t9y violet p]fect z ! oak4 ,let him le>n ! mann] ( ! ways ( light & ! col\rs ( all t he sees199 & !n /op to consid] h[1 hav+ made all ^! m>vels1 ,god !n fa%ion$ 8 own delicate eyes t he might see & "k & enjoy !m all4 ,to consid] all ^! ?+s1 accept+ !m f ,god ) love1 makes ! he>t & ! m9d & ! s\l dance & s+ toge!r n ) noise b l sun%9e ^u wat]4 99 ,sci5tific ,ideas ( ,to-day1 by ,c4 ,gibson4 ,:at is ,nature b ! demon/ration 9 visible objects ( an invisible ,w8 ,?is ,w we ne$ to trace to its ,s\rce2 hav+ done ?is1 we are able to praise & bless ,god = e s+le ?+ ( beauty ,he has fa%ion$ "h3 & ?is prais+ & bless+ ( ,god becomes no?+ less ?an a cont9ual ec/asy = bo? s\l & creature1 &1 inde$1 because ( ?is & by means ( ?is burn+ appreciation ( ,god's works1 bo? s\l & creature f9d _! sweete/ consolations z !y wait to be tak5 to a holi] _w4 ,:5 !y bo? bless ,god ) ! fire ( _! love = e t5d] ?+ t ,he has made1 !n _! days become to !m "o long delight4 ,?is bless+ ( ,god & ,8 works is n j a bless+ ) lips1 b feels ?is way4 ,! words be+ said by ! he>t1 a burn+ sp>k ( en?usiasm is imm$iately k9dl$ !re1 :i* sp>k sets light to a sp>k 9 ! s\l2 & ?is invisible fire jo9+ ano!r ,invisible ,fire1 in/antly 9 imm5se exaltation we ent] ! joys ( ,god4 ,b because ( our fle% we _c /ay b only ent] & come back4 ,we are made to love & adore ,god1 b ! mode ( entry into ?is is n by besee*+ ,god to come d[n & love u1 b by con/ant endeav\r to ent] up into ,8 e/ate1 to (f] ,him love3 ?is en?usiasm = ,god br+s ab\t a my/]i\s accompli%m5t ( all ne$s1 desires1 joys4 ,we are made to love & adore ,god1 & because ( ?is )\t ,him we are an ,empt9ess1 a ,great ,want4 ,su* is ! lovely & p]fect reciprocity ( love t z ?is ,great ,want we are ! pleasure & ! joy ( ! ,all-,giv+ ,god4 ,& ,he is ! ,all-,giv+ t ,he may rejoice & fill our extremity ( ,want4 ,s we are ea* to ea* t :i* ea* mo/ desires4 ,?is is ,div9e ,love4 ,d n let u imag9e t by mak+ v mu* ( e>?ly loves we %all by t obta9 ! heav5ly3 on ! contr>y1 love ( creatures1 & too mu* turn+ to & ?9k+ ( & dep5d+ ^u creatures1 is a sure mann] ( h9d]+ u till we h le>nt to unite ) ,div9e ,love4 ,?is love = creatures is (t5 = ! he>t & s\l :at treacle is to ! w+s ( a fly6 ,d n be cont5t ) creatures1 b seek beyond ! creaturely = ! heav5ly4 ,?is is n to say t we are n to love our fell[-creatures1 att5d to !m1 wait ^u !m1 be> ) !m1 & "w = !m2 b :il/ do+ all ^! we are n to make !m ! object ( our life3 we are n to ?9k t by m]ely runn+ ab\t among/ creatures fr5zi$ ) plans = _! social improvem5t & com=t ! ne>] we are necess>ily gett+ to ,god1 or ev5 truly pleas+ ,him4 ,all ^! multiplicities ( fr5zi$ int]e/s are be/ c5tr$ ^u ! f9d+ & kn[+ & lov+ ( ,jesus ,*ri/ )9 our own he>ts4 ,:5 ?is f9d+1 kn[+1 lov+ & believ+ has be5 accompli%$1 !n we %all h accompli%$ ! only "w ,god asks u to accompli%1 & all o!r works w automatically1 peacefully1 & smoo?ly come to _! prop] fruition 9 u ?r\gh ,him4 ,nei!r imag9e we %all d ?is f9d+ ( ,jesus 91 or because (1 ano!r p]son4 ,we %all n f9d ,him 9 ano!r p]son or any:]e till we h fir/ f\nd ,him 9 ourselves3 & ?is by inw>d pond]+1 delicate t5d] ?9k+s1 lov+ comp>isons1 sweet en?usiasms1 p]si/5t endeav\rs to imitate ,8 g5tle ways & mann]s z be+ "s pro( ( our desire to love & f9d ,him4 ,! ne$ :i* is ! mo/ press+ ( all our ne$s is to f9d t ,light :i* w light u :5 we h to g out f ! light ( ?is _w into ! awful solitudes ( t :i* we (t5 s lightly & confid5tly speak ( z ! o!r _w4 ,)\t ,*ri/ we g out into a fe>ful lonel9ess3 ) ,*ri/ we walk ! ra9b[ pa?s ( ,p>adise4 99 99 99 ,hav+ ta/$ ! blissful wond]s ( ,god1 no?+ less ?an ,god ,himself c satisfy1 com=t1 or fill ei!r ! s\l1 he>t1 or m9d2 & yet we are /ill 9 a too small & imp]fect condition to endure ! p[] & /r5g? ( ,god's bliss = m ?an brief spells1 s t aft] com+ to ^! high ?+s our portion "h is to le>n to be a useful will+ s]vant1 c>ry+ ) z *e]ful a face z we are able ! burd5 ( life 9 ! fle%1 & endure ?is wait+ to be ) ,*ri/ free ( ! fle%4 ,:at are ^! blisses ( ,god8 ,!y are contact ) an immeasurable ,ard\r1 !y are our ard\r meet+ ! ,f\nta9 ( all ,ard\rs3 & ,god is communicat$ to u by a magnetism :i* 9 its high] degrees becomes lum9\s & unbe>able4 ,are ^! div9e joys & com=ts ( ,god t[>ds u because we are m lov$ by ,god1 because our salvation is m sure ?an t ( ^? :o are )\t ^! com=ts8 ,mo/ emphatically no4 ,x is because we obey a p>ticul> & subtle law ( giv+ to ,god1 & d n 7z is m natural to u7 cont5t ourselves ) m]ely believ+1 expect+1 & hop+ to receive f ,god4 ,let u pray m frequ5tly ?an we d3 ,my ,"l1 increase my fai?1 increase my love1 & increase my und]/&+ ( h[ to use ?is fai? & ?is love :5 !y h be5 begott5 9 me4 99 99 99 ,on e side we he> compla9ts aga9/ ! ,*ur*4 ,x is sugge/$ t we are fall+ away f ,god because ( "s lack 9 ! ,*ur*4 ,b ?is fault ( ! ,*ur* is exactly ! same fault :i* is to be f\nd 9 ! memb]s ( ! congregation :i* compose x--a tepid love = a dimly kn[n ,"l4 ,:5 ! prie/ & e memb] ( ! congregation 9 8 own he>t wor%ips ! belov$ ,*ri/1 !n ! ,*ur* w be f\nd to h ga9$ j t :i* is n[ lack+1 & :i* we attribute to "s prie/ly failure & n our own also4 ,( ,*ur* c]emonials x is h>d to speak1 = ! lov] ( ,god c h no eyes = !m3 he is all he>t1 b sees x ?is way--t set rules1 regulations1 & c]emonials 9 pray]s & wor%ip are mo/ "r & prop] = ! creature publicly wor%ipp+ its ,creator4 ,t ! assembl+ toge!r 9 *ur* is ! outw>d & visible ackn[l$gm5t ( ! creature's wor%ip ( ,god & also a look+ = ! fulfill+ ( ! promise :]e two or ?ree are ga!r$ toge!r 9 ,my "n4 ,! r$eem$ creature wor%ips v ard5tly ) all its little he>t & m9d & all its t9y /r5g?1 le>n+ 9 its own self ! words ( ,david3 ,i 0 glad :5 !y said unto me1 ,we w g into ! h\se ( ! ,"l4 ,b ! s\l _c wor%ip 9 set words1 nei!r c %e h ne$ or use = ! c]emonials inv5t$ by & = ! creature1 b wor%ips ,god 9 ano!r mann] altoge!r1 z %e is taught by ! ,holy ,_s1 & 9 ! greatness ( h] wor%ip m\nts to ,god1 & closes ) ,god4 ,= holy love _c long be divid$4 ,(t5 :5 ! creature is alone1 & eat+1 its ,"l w visit x1 caus+ ! s\l & ! m9d & ! he>t ( x to cry out3 ,b ( :at use to me is ?is meat & dr9k :i* is be=e me8 ,i h no ne$ ( x1 ,i c d no?+ o!r ?an sip ( ! holy beauty ( my ,"l4 ,& imm$iately we are s press$ ! e>?ly cup mu/ be set d[n1 & 9 v great ec/asy we sup 9 _s ) ! ,"l4 ,! unnameable ,elixir ( ,god is ! ,w9e1 & ,love is ! ,bread4 ,:5 holy love gr[s great 9 u we wond] t we ev] ?\ght t human love 0 love at all1 = no matt] h[ great x may once h seem$ x n[ seems s small x is no great] ?an ! humm+ ( a bee ar\nd a fl[] 9 summ] "t4 ,b holy love--:o c comm5ce to describe x8 ,x rides ^u great w+s1 x burns l a dev\r+ fire1 x makes no?+ ( ,space & comes be=e ,him l ! lightn+s1 say+1 ,"h am ,i1 &1 ga!r+ all ?+s1 all loves into itself1 p\rs !m out at ! feet ( ,god4 ,by baptism we are nam$ & call$ = election by ! ,*ur*4 ,?r\gh p]sonal & individual rep5tance & connection by fai? & love ) ,*ri/ we ent] election by baptism ( ! ,holy ,_s4 ,by ! m]e foll[+ ( rituals1 doctr9es1 dogmas1 c]emonies1 we are 9 great dang] ( introduc+ ! m9d ( ! ,ph>isee ) 8 reliance z means ( salvation ^u ! wa%+ ( h&s & cups1 & except we exce$ ?is righte\sness we d n ent] ! ,k+dom4 ,or ! m9d ( ! lawy]1 :i* type ( m9d seeks ob/9ately1 =cefully1 to m\ld ! secrets ( ! s\l's communion ) ,god & fix !m ^u cold docum5ts :]e !y quickly cease to h life4 99 99 99 ,above ! fretful & cont5ti\s human reason is ! intellig5ce ( ! s\l1 & ?is s\l has 9 itself a high] "p = we become acutely aw>e ( x--t "p ( x ) :i* we come 9 contact ) ,god1 ) :i* we respond to ,god1 receive ,8 manife/ations1 are laid b>e to ,8 blisses4 ,sep>at$ f worldly ?+s by an impalpable veil1 x re/s above all su* ?+s 9 s]5e calm1 &1 /range/ ( all1 has no compreh5sion :atev] ( s93 :5 we ent] ?is "p ( ! s\l & live ) x s9 & evil become n only non-exi/5t b un?9kable1 unimag9able3 we are totally remov$ f any su* ord] ( exi/5ce4 ,x communicates its k to ! l[] "p ( ! s\l1 ! s\l to ! ,reason1 ! ,reason to ! re/ ( ! creature4 ,we say we are fe>fully & wond]fully made1 & 9 say+ ?is we ?9k ( ! body1 b f> m wond]ful is ! mak+ ( ! spiritual ( u4 ,o man1 climb out ( ! gross mat]ialism ( ?y fle%ly self1 = ?\ can/ d x6 ,z out ( ! heavy e>? come ! delicate fl[]s ( spr+1 s out ( ! heavy body1 because ( t div9e :i* is )9 x1 come ! m>vell\s fl[]s ( ! s\l4 ,to ?9k t we c come to ,god & "k ,him by means ( our intellig5ce or reason is z unwise z to suppose we c eat our d9n] ) our feet2 x is z necess>y to use our tee? to eat our food z x is to use our he>t to f9d ,god1 & x is no?+ b ! natural vanity ( ! human m9d :i* bl9ds u to ?is fact4 ,! human reason is too small to /& ! greatness ( ,god1 & c\ld x ev] rea* to ,him w\ld be )]$ 9 ! awfulness ( ,8 magnetic light4 ,ev5 ! s\l 9 h] contacts ) ,god :il/ /ill 9 ! fle% is ( necessity totally bl9d1 & yet1 bl9d z %e is1 is pi]c$ by ?is t]rible int5sity ( light & en]gy4 ,h[ !n %all ! reason /& nak$ be=e ,god )\t madness or fr5zy8 ,to reason out ^u pap] :]e ,god is1 :y ,he is1 :at ,he is1 & h[ precisely ,he is to be discov]$1 w take u no fur!r up into ! my/]ies ( ! actual kn[+ ( ! wond]s ( ,8 love ?an ! ink & pap] we employ might d4 ,to "k ?is love 9 our own he>t is ! necessity1 = ! s\l & ! he>t live h& 9 h& z x 7 & toge!r c f9d & "k ,god4 ,god once f\nd by ! he>t1 we c dwell ^u ,him ) our reason1 & fe$ our reason ) ! k we h acquir$ ( ,him ?r\gh ! he>t & s\l4 ,! ,holy ,gho/ aids u 9 ?is deep se>*1 quick5s u1 gives u impulses4 ,at fir/ 9 our natural /ate we are able only 9 a v dim way to p]ceive ^! impulses1 b we c become s s5sitive to ,god t ,he pi]ces u1 br+s u to ! gr\nd ) a brea?1 & we b5d & yield be=e ,8 lighte/ wi% z a re$ b5ds & quiv]s to ! w9d4 ,:5 ! he>t & s\l are greatly set ^u ,god & we h become true lov]s ( ,god1 !re comes a dang] ( fall+ into s deep a p9+ = ,god t ! heal? 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( ! m9d & ( ! body is weak5$ by x4 ,we %\ld aim at *e]ful & will+ wait+3 any?+ else is a fall+ %ort2 if we exam9e into x1 we %all see t p9+ sav\rs ( unwill+ness & discont5t--!re is 9 x some?+ ( ! _s ( ! s]vant :o designs to give notice ( leav+4 ,! lov] ( ,god is ! mo/ ble/ ( all creatures & %\ld %[ himself s]5ely glad1 wait+ ) pati5ce1 kn[+ z he does f 8 own exp]i5ces t :o has ,god = a ,lov] has no ne$ ( any o!r4 ,( h[ to receive f ,god1 & ( ! ,bless$ ,sacram5t ,no?+ is ( a deep] my/]y or difficulty or disappo9tm5t to ! s\l & ! he>t well advanc$ 9 ! exp]i5ce & 9 ! love ( ,god ?an to f9d t 9 ! c]emony ( ! ,bless$ ,sacram5t x is possible = !m to be less s5sible ( receiv+ f ,god ?an at any "t4 ,h[ & :y c ?is be8 is x ! ,c]emonial caus+ ! m9d to be too mu* al]t to guide ! body n[ to rise1 n[ to kneel1 n[ to move 9 "s direction8 ,is x ?is di/raction :i* prev5ts p]ception--= 9 all communion ) ,god ! m9d is clos$ d[n1 ! he>t & s\l only be+ 9 op]ation8 ,on ! o!r h&1 x is easily possible to be 9 close/ communion ) ,god 9 all ! noises & di/ractions ( a great railway /ation among/ a cr[d ( %ift+ p]sons4 ,no1 x is "s imp]fection 9 ! attitude adopt$ by ! he>t & m9d 9 approa*+ ?is ,sacram5t4 ,9 :at way h we p]haps be5 approa*+ x8 ,9 an attitude ( awe accompani$ by a humble expectancy or hope ( receiv+4 ,we hope & believe we %all receive ,god's grace4 ,n[1 ! exp]i5c$ s\l & he>t "k s well :at x is & h[ x feels to receive ,god's grace t !y are all ! m disappo9t$ at n receiv+ x ^u ?is holy occasion4 ,:at 7 our ,"l's words8 ,he said1 ,d ?is 9 remembrance ( ,me1 or m correctly translat$1 ,d or (f] ?is z a memorial ( ,me be=e ,god4 ,?is implies an act ( giv+ ^u our "p1 :]eas we h come to reg>d ?is c]emony z an act ( receiv+4 ,n[ ?\gh ! attitude ( humble expectancy to receive is ( itself a wor?y "o x does n fulfil ! exact comm&1 :i* is to commemorate1 (f]1 & hold up be=e ,god ! ,p]fect ,love & ,sacrifice ( our ,savi\r1 z a liv+ memorial ( ,him be=e ,god4 ,x %\ld be accompani$ by an (f]+ ( great love & ?anks ^u our "p )\t reg>d to any?+ we may receive4 ,b because fir/ we give we !n receive4 ,ab\t no?+ are we 9 su* a /ate ( ignorance z ab\t ! laws :i* gov]n ! give & take betwe5 ,god & ,man4 ,on ! "o h& is ,god ! ,all-,giv+1 long+ to be/[1 & ^u ! o!r is ,man ! all-ne$+1 a*+ to receive1 & betwe5 !m an impasse4 ,failure to fulfil ,god's laws is ! cause ( ?is impasse4 ,!re is bo? a law ( l to l1 & a law ( l to opposite4 ,we _c "k ,god )\t 9 "s small degree fir/ be+ l ,god1 & to be l ,god we mu/ n only be pure 9 he>t b also con=m to ! ,god-l condition ( giv+4 ,fir/ we obey ?is law t ! second may come into effect--t ( l to opposite1 or positive to negative1 ! ,all-,giv+ imm$iately meet+ & fill+ ! all-ne$+4 ,we h no?+ to give to ,god b our love1 ?anks1 & ob$i5ce2 b ( ^! x is possible to give endlessly1 & ! m we give ! m ,god-l d we become1 & ! m ,god-l ! high] & fur!r d we ent] into ! great ri*es & blisses ( ,god4 ,!re=e ! m we give to ,god ! m we receive4 ,on go+ to p>take ( ! ,bless$ ,sacram5t we d well to bani% f ! he>t & m9d all ?\ght ( :at x may please ,god to /ill fur!r give u & to make an (f]+ to ,god4 ,! only way we c make an (f]+ to ,god is ^u ! w+s ( love1 & ^u ?is love we hold up be=e ,him ! bread & w9e z ! ,body & ,blood ( our ,r$eem]1 repeat+ & repeat+ 9 our he>t1 ,i eat & dr9k ,?is z a memorial be=e ,!e ( ! ,p]fect ,love & ,sacrifice ( ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,:5 we s d ) great love 9 our he>t we f9d t we are able s5sibly to receive great grace4 ,( ,pray] ,( ! _m k9ds & degrees ( pray] fir/ p]haps we le>n ! pray] ( ! lips1 !n t ( ! m9d1 !n ! pray] ( ! he>t1 & f9ally ! pray] ( ! s\l--pray] ( a totally diff]5t mode & ord]1 pray] ( a /range incalculably great magnetic p[]1 pray] :i* enables u to c\nt on help f ,god z ^u an absolute & imm$iate c]ta9ty4 ,we f9d ?is ab\t p]fect pray] t x is n done z f a creature besee*+ a ,creator at an imm5se di/ance1 b is done z a love-fla% :i*1 eat+ up all di/ance1 is imm$iately be=e & ) ! ,creator & is accompani$ by vivid c]ta9ty at ! he>t2 ?is latt] is active fai?2 we h too mu* p]haps ( t k9d ( fai? :i* may be nam$ wait+ or passive fai?4 ,?is comb9ation ( love ) active fai? in/antly op5s to u ,god's help4 ,we may or may n receive ?is 9 ! =m anticipat$ by ! creature1 b lat] p]ceive t we h receiv$ x 9 exactly t =m :i* w\ld mo/ la/+ly b5efit u4 ,aft] a :ile we cease almo/ altoge!r f petition+ any?+ = ourselves1 hav+ ?is "o desire only3 t by op5+ ourselves to ,god by means ( (f]+ ,him great love1 we receive ,himself4 ,( ,contemplation ,to ent] ! contemplation ( ,god is n abs5ce ( w1 nor laz9ess ( w1 b great en]gy ( w because (1 & =1 love3 9 :i* love-condition ! en]gy ( ! s\l w be laid b>e to ! en]gy ( ,god1 ! two en]gies = ! "t be+ becom+ closely unit$ or on$1 9 :i* /ate ! s\l-w or en]gy is :olly lift$ into ! glori\s ,god-,en]gy1 & a /ate ( unspeakable bliss & an imm5sity ( liv+ is imm$iately ent]$ & %>$ by ! s\l4 ,bliss1 ec/asy1 rapture1 all are en]gy1 & accord+ z ! s\l is expos$ to less] or great] degrees ( ?is en]gy1 s %e ent]s less] or great] degrees ( raptures4 ,x is mislead+ 9 ^! /ates ( ec/asy to say t ! s\l has vision1 if by vision is to be und]/ood any?+ t has to d ) concrete =ms or any k9d ( sight2 = ! s\l is totally bl9d4 ,b %e makes no acc\nt ( ?is bl9dness & has h] fill ( all bliss & ( ! k ( ano!r mann] ( liv+ )\t any ne$ :atev] ( sight4 ,has ! w9d eyes or feet8 yet x possesses ! e>? & is n prev5t$4 ,s ! s\l1 )\t eyes & )\t h&s1 possesses ,god4 ,contact ) ,god is !n ( ! nature ( ! ,infusion ( ,en]gy4 ,! infusions ( ?is en]gy may take ! =m ( caus+ u to h an acute int5se p]ception & consci\sness 7b n su* =m ( p]ception z w\ld p]mit u to say ,i saw1 b a magnetic inw>d cognisance1 a fire ( k :i* sc9tillates ab\t ! s\l & pi]ces h]7 ( ,8 p]fections2 ( ,8 t5d]ness1 ,8 sweetness1 ,8 hol9ess1 ,8 beauty4 ,:5 ei!r ( ^! la/ two are made kn[n to h]1 ! s\l passes into :at c only be nam$ z an agony ( bliss1 insupportable ev5 to ! s\l = m ?an a v brief "t1 & because ( ! fe>ful /ress ( x ! s\l draws away & prays to be cov]$ f ! unbe>able happ9ess ( x1 ?is be+ grant$ h] :e!r automatically 7t is to say1 because ( spiritual law7 or :e!r by direct & m]ciful w ( ,god--:o is able to tell8 ,su* exp]i5ces are n = ! timid1 b require /eady c\rage & p]fect lov+ tru/ 9 ,god4 ,contemplation ev5 9 its highe/ =ms is n to be confus$ ) spiritual exp]i5ces1 :i* are totally ap>t f any?+ else t we may "k 9 life--!y are entirely outside ( our volition1 !y are n to be pray$ =1 !y are n to be ev5 secretly desir$1 b to be accept$ h[ & :5 & if ,god s *ooses4 ,9 contemplation ! w is us$1 & we are n able to come to x )\t ! w is p5etrat+ly us$ t[>ds ! jo9+ & meet+ ) ! w & love ( ,god4 ,9 ! purely spiritual exp]i5ce f fir/ to la/ !re is no w b an abs5ce ( w1 a total submission & yield+ to ,god1 )\t que/ion+1 )\t fe>1 )\t curiosity1 & ! only w us$ is to keep ourselves 9 will+ness to submit to :atev] ,he %all *oose to expose u to4 ,god does n op5 to u su* exp]i5ces 9 ord] to gratify curiosity--b expect+ t we %all le>n & pr(it by !m4 ,fir/ we f9d !m an imm5se & un=gettable assurance ( ano!r =m ( liv+1 ( great int5sity1 at :ite heat1 natural to a "p ( u ) :i* we h hi!rto be5 unfamili> 7! s\l7 b inimical to ! body1 :i* suff]s griev\sly :il/ ! s\l gl[s ) m>vell\s vitality & joy4 ,?is assurance ( ano!r mann] ( liv+1 ?\gh we see no?+ ) ! eyes1 is ! op5+ ( ano!r _w to u4 ,! invisible becomes real1 fai? becomes trans=m$ 9 k4 ,if ! hundr$ wise/ m5 ( ! _w %\ld all prove ^u pap] t ! spiritual life z a sep>ate & o!r life f ! physical life does n exi/1 x w\ld cause no?+ b a smile ( compassion to ! creature t _h exp]i5ce4 ,god tea*es u by ^! means to become balanc$1 pois$1 & a complete human be+1 comb9+ 9 "o p]sonality or consci\sness ! ,spiritual & ! ,mat]ial4 ,b we are n giv5 & %[n ^! my/]ies )\t pay+ a price3 we mu/ le>n to live 9 extraord9>y l[l9ess & lonel9ess ( _s4 ,! int]e/s1 enjoym5ts1 pa/imes ( ord9>y life dry up & )] away4 ,x becomes 9 va9 t we seek to satisfy ourselves 9 any occupation1 9 any?+1 9 any p]sons1 = ,god wills to h ! :ole ( u4 ,:5 ,he wills to be s5sibly ) u1 all ,space itself feels sc>cely able to conta9 our ri*es & our happ9ess4 ,:5 ,he wills to disconnect u f ?is ne>ness1 !re is no?+ 9 all ! univ]se s poor1 s de/itute1 s sad1 s lonely z ourself4 ,& !re is no e>?ly ?+ c beguile or console u1 because1 hav+ ta/$ ( ,god1 x is impossible to be satisfi$ or consol$ save inw>dly by ,god ,himself4 ,b ,he op5s up ,nature to u 9 a m>vell\s way1 unbelievable until exp]i5c$4 ,he (f]s u ,nature z a sop to /ay our te>s4 ,by means ( ,nature ,he ev5 9 abs5ce c>esses ! s\l & ! creature1 speaks to !m fondly1 enc\rages & draws !m aft] ,him1 s5d+ acute & wond]ful p]ceptions to !m1 s t1 q consol$1 !y cry al\d to ,him ) happ9ess4 ,& (t5 :5 ! creature is alone & secure f be+ obs]v$ by anyone ,he w op5 ,8 glam\r to ! s\l & %e passes into union ) p>adise & ev5 m--high heav5 itself4 ,^! are angels' delights :i* ,he lavi%es ^u ! prodigal4 ,ano!r heavy price to be paid is f\nd by ! s\l & he>t & m9d 9 ! return f ! blissful & p]fect calm :i* surr\nds ev5 ! l[e/ degree ( ! contemplation ( ,god to ! turmoil ( ! _w4 ,= to h be5 lift$ into ?is new condition ( liv+1 ?is glam\r1 ?is cry/al joy1 to "k su* heights1 su* imm5sities1 & to desc5d f ,god's blisses to live ! ev]yday life ( ?is _w & accept its pett9ess is a great pa91 9 :i* pa9 we are ( necessity n und]/ood by fell[-creatures2 !re=e ! m & ! m we become press$ into t great lonel9ess :i* is ! inevitable portion ( ! true lov]1 & exp]i5ce ! pa9 ( ^? prolong$ spiritual conflicts 9 :i* ! s\l le>ns to b5d & submit to ! petty sordidness ( life 9 a _w :i* has =gott5 ,god4 ,x is ! lack ( c\rage & endurance to p]petually wea!r ^! dreadful /orms :i* causes u to turn to seclusion--! cloi/]4 ,to refra9 f do+ ?is & to rema9 9 ! _w ?\gh n ( x is ! sacrifice ( ! lov+ s\l--%e has b ! "o to make--to leave ! delights ( ,god1 & = ! sake ( be+ a useful s]vant to ,jesus to pick up ! daily life 9 ! _w2 :i* sacrifice is 9 direct contr>iety to ! sacrifice ( ! creature1 :i* c\nts its sacrifices z a giv+ up ( ! ?+s ( ! _w4 ,s by opposites !y may come to "o simil>ity--p]fection4 ,h[ to conduct itself 9 all ^! difficult ways s =eign to its own e>?ly nature is a h>d problem = ! creature1 belong+ s intimately to ?is _w :i* x c t\* & see3 & yet :i* x is ask$ by ,god bravely to climb out ( into ! unkn[n & ! unse54 ,bewild]$ by ! enorm\s dem&s ( ! s\l :i* c nev] re/ 9 any happ9ess )\t %e is contemplat+ ,god1 ador+ ,him1 conv]s+ ) ,him1 bless+ & wor%ipp+ ,him1 ! poor creature is (t5 bewild]$ to "k h[ to conduct ! ord9>y affairs & duties ( life "u su* pressures4 ,( its emotions1 ( ! te>s t x %$s1 ( ! falls t x takes1 a libr>y ( books might be writt54 ,9 ! spl5d\r1 ! gr&eur1 ! great magnitudes & expanses ( _s life z made kn[n to x by ! s\l1 ! creature feels l "s poor begg> *ild1 ill-mann]$1 ill-clo!d1 :i* by /range =tune f9ds itself invit$ to ! h\se ( a mighty k+1 &1 dumb ) humility & admiration1 is at a loss to und]/& ! condesc5sion ( ?is mighty "l4 ,9 ?is s5se ( v great unwor?9ess lies a pr(\nd pa91 an agony4 ,to cure ?is pa9 we mu/ turn ! he>t to give love1 to ?9k love1 & imm$iately we ?9k ( ?is great condesc5sion z be+ = love's sake--z love seek+ = love--we are consol$4 ,!n all is well1 all is joyful1 all is div9e4 ,! m simple1 *ildlike1 & unpret5ti\s we c be1 ! m easily we %all w9 our way ?r\gh4 ,pret5ti\sness or arrogance 9 ,man c nev] be any?+ b ridicul\s1 & a s5se ( hum\r %\ld alone be suffici5t to save u f su* error4 ,= ! same reason x is impossible to reg>d human c]emonies ) any respect or s]i\sness1 = !y are n *ildlike b *ildi%4 ,h[ (t5 ! he>t & m9d cry out to ,him1 ,o mighty ,god1 ,i am mean & fooli%--mean 9 t :i* ,i h creat$ by my va9 imag9+s1 my pride1 my covet\sness2 b 9 t :i* ,?\ ha/ made me ,i am wond]ful & lovely--a ?+ t c fly to & fro day or night to ,?y h&6 ,! difficulties ( ! creature %\ld n be rais$ on "s self-glorify+ p9nacle m]ely because ! fickle v>iable he>t at la/s le>ns ! ex]cise ( ,fidelity4 ,d we n see a v ord9>y dog practis+ ?is same fidelity z he waits1 s eag] t he trembles1 outside 8 ma/]'s door1 hav+ put on "o side e desire save 8 desire to 8 ma/] :om1 n see+1 he cont9ues to await2 & ?is out ( ! g5]osity ( 8 he>t6 ,& we8 ,only by great difficulty1 long endeav\r1 bitt] s*ool+1 & hav+ at la/ accompli%$ x we "n ea* o!r sa9ts or sa9tly4 ,let u ?9k sob]ly ab\t ^! ?+s2 are we !n s mu* less ?an a dog t we also _c accompli% ?is fidelity--s t ?\gh h&s & feet g ab\t daily duties ! he>t & m9d are fix$ on ! ,ma/]8 ,!n ! ,ma/] becomes ! ,belov$4 ,( ,bless+ ,god ,at fir/ :5 ! creature is be+ taught to bless ,god x %r9ks back 9 a fright1 cry+1 ,:at am ,i t ,i %\ld d>e to bless ,almighty ,god1 ,i am afraid to d x2 ,i am too unwor?y2 let me wait till ,i am m righte\s1 till ,i h done m works4 ,!n ! div9e s\l c\nsels x s3 ,?9k no m ab\t ?yself1 moan+ & groan+ ov] ?9e unwor?9ess & tru/+ to progress 9 works4 ,cease ?9k+ ( ?yself1 & rise up & ?9k only ( ,god4 ,?\ wilt nev] be wor?y1 & all ?y works are no?+ & ?y le>n+ ( no c\nt :atev]2 & z to ?y righte\sness1 is x n writt5 t x is z fil?y rags8 ,all t ,god w give !e is n = any m]its or works ( ?9e1 b = ,love's sake4 ,he desires bo? to give !e love & to receive ?y love1 !re=e rise & wor%ip ,him1 give ,him all ! love t ?\ ha/2 keep none back ei!r = ?yself1 or any?+ or any creature1 b give all t ?\ ha/ to ,him ) te>s & songs & gladness4 ,timidly ! creature obeys1 & ) all its p[]s & /r5g? x blesses ,god1 & in/antante\sly ,god blesses ! creature1 s5d+ ,8 sweetness & ,8 glam\r ab\t x3 & ! m ! s\l & ! creature bless ,god ! m does ,he bless !m1 & !y bless ,him f ! b$ ( sickness & pa9 z fully z !y bless ,him 9 heal?4 ,!y bless ,him 9 ! night-"t & 9 ! noonday1 !y bless ,him z !y walk1 !y bless ,him z !y "w1 & because ( ?is little bit ( bless+ & love t ! two ( !m (f] to ,god ,he (f]s !m all heav5 9 ,himself4 ,x is ! duty ( ! s\l to con/antly l5d c\nsel1 c\rage1 help1 advice1 & /r5g? to ! creature1 & we are consci\s ( ! voice ( ! s\l1 :i* )\t any s\nd yet makes itself inw>dly he>d1 call+ to ! selfi%ness1 ! egoism ( ! creature1 urg+ ! high] "p ( x to come high] & ! animal 9 x to become pure & to subdue itself1 say+ to x1 ,lie d[n & be quiet1 or ?\ wilt br+ disa/] to u bo?4 ,i _c be quiet1 = ,i c\ld groan ) my re/less di/ress4 ,cease to ?9k ( ?yself ) ?y ro>+s & groan+s4 ,lay hold ( love :i* ?9ks no?+ ( itself b always ( t :i* x may give to ! ,belov$4 ,i _c d ?is2 ,i am no angel nor ev5 a sa9t1 b a mo/ ord9>y creature1 =sak5 ( ,god & mis]able4 ,?\ art nev] =sak51 b ?y door is clos$3 x op5s f ?y side1 & ?\ art ?yself /&+ across x & block+ ! op5+ ( x--,i w %[ !e h[ to op5 x1 cry & moan no m = fav\rs & gifts1 b d ?\ ?yself d ! giv+4 ,s9ce ?\ do/ n "k at all h[ to beg9--d x ) ^! set words3 ',i love & praise ,!e1 ,i love & bless & ?ank ,!e1 ,i love & bless & wor%ip ,!e'2 & see ?\ d x ) all ?y he>t & m9d & /r5g? & ) no ?\ght ( ?yself & future b5efits1 b entirely t ?\ maye/ give ,him pleasure4 ,!n ! creature tries1 b fails lam5tably1 = mo/ ( its he>t & m9d is on itself & a fraction only on ,god4 ,n[ try aga9 & aga9 & aga91 cries ! s\l1 ,o ?\ mis]able halfhe>t$ %all[ worldl+6 ,& ! creature tries aga91 &1 do+ bett]1 gets a v slight w>m? ab\t ! he>t2 &1 do+ x aga91 gets a little com=t1 & s1 gradually progress+ 9 ! way ( true love :i* is all giv+1 at la/ "o day ! creature does x p]fectly because x has altoge!r =gott5 itself 9 ! fire ( its love & is completely set ^u ,god4 ,!n automatically ! door op5s1 & imm$iately 9 ?r\gh x !re ru%es ! brea? & ! blisses ( ,god4 ,& ! creature1 weep+ ) excess ( happ9ess1 cries1 ,i nev] ask$ = su* delights1 ,i did n "k su* happ9ess 0 to be _h2 & if ,i did n ask1 h[ is x t ,i h receiv$8 ,!n ! s\l answ]s1 ,because ?\ ha/ le>nt to give to ,god1 & t is ! key :i* unlocks ! g>d5 ( ,8 joys4 ,?\ ha/ j ?ree ?+s :i* ,he desires to h--?y love & ?9e ob$i5ce1 & ?y wait+ fidelity4 ,:5 ?\ do/ con=m to ,8 desire ) all ?y t9y unadult]at$ /r5g?1 imm$iately heav5 becomes op5 to !e & ?\ do/ receive m ?an ?\ did/ ev] dream or ?9k to ask =4 ,?is is ,8 lovely ,w t[>ds !e4 ,b fir/ always d ?y "p1 & until ?\ doe/ ?y "p ,i _c beg9 m9e1 = ?\ c\ld/ receive nei!r bless+s nor blisses did ,i n receive !m fir/ f ,him & h& !m on to !e2 s ea* are dep5d5t ! "o on ! o!r1 & only toge!r c we ent] p>adise4 ,?9k n ,i d n suff] z mu* z ?yself & f> m4 ,i "k ?\ do/ suff] ) ?y body & ) ! losses ( ?9e e>?ly loves1 b ,i suff] f> m ) ! loss ( my ,heav5ly ,love4 ,at fir/ ,i c\ld n und]/& :at _h come to me1 buri$ & *ok$ 9 ?y /range h\se ( fle%4 ,i despis$ !e1 ,i hat$ !e1 ?y /upid ways1 ?y dreadful gre$s1 ?9e unspeakable ob/9acy & unwill+ness2 ?\ did/ give me horrible sicknesses ) ?9e unsav\ry wants1 ?9e undignifi$ requirem5ts4 ,i ?\ght !e fooli% & n[ "k myself to be m fooli% ?an !e1 = ?\ h>dly kn[e/ ! heav5ly love :]eas ,i knew & left ,him1 seek+ o!r loves4 ,! ,fall 0 n ?y fault1 poor human ?+1 b m9e4 ,i am ! ,prodigal1 & ?\ ! means ( my return1 = if ,i c b raise !e to true adoration ( our ,god1 !n ,i %all pay my debt ( infidelity to ,him & toge!r z "o glori\s radiant _s we %all ent] heav5 aga94 ,only li/5 & ,i c guide !e1 = ! ,ma/] speaks to me & tells me :at to d4 ,i am p>tly t :i* ?\ do/ please to call ?y consci5ce1 & ?\ do/ treat me %ock+ly1 buffet+ & w\nd+ me :5 ,i try to :isp] to !e3 if ?\ art n c>eful1 ?\ wilt s disable me t all our *ance ( happ9ess w be spoil$4 ,d ?\ li/5 v t5d]ly = my voice1 = ,i am ( gossam] & ?\ ( /rangely heavy clay4 ,( ,evil & ,temptation & ( ,grace ,! he>t & s\l are subject to f\r pr9cipal glam\rs3 ! glam\r ( y\?1 ! glam\r ( romance1 ! glam\r ( evil1 & ! glam\r ( ,god4 ,:5 once ! ,_s ( ,love1 :i* is ,god1 desc5ds into our s\l !n a new light becomes creat$ 9 u by :i* we see ! glam\r ( evil 9 its true =m & complexion4 ,we see x z disease1 mis]y1 imprisonm5t1 & dea?2 & :o f9ds x difficult to turn away f su*8 ,! natural man sees evil z an int5se attraction1 ! spiritual man z a horror ( ugl9ess4 ,see !n h[ ! ,_s ( ,love is at once & easily our ,salvation4 ,among/ all my/]ies none seems great] to u ?an ! my/]y ( ,evil4 ,god--,goodness--,love3 ^! we und]/&4 ,b evil--:5ce & :y1 s9ce ,god is ,love1 ,omnipot5ce1 & ,hol9ess8 ,we _c b obs]ve t all ?+s h _! opposites3 summ] & w9t]1 heat & cold1 light & d>k1 sil5ce & s\nd1 pleasure & pa91 life & dea?1 action & repose1 joy & sadness1 illness & heal?2 & h[ %all we "k or h true pleasure 9 ! "o )\t we h also k ( ! opposite8 ,! man :o has nev] kn[n sickness has nei!r true gratitude1 und]/&+1 nor pleasure 9 8 he>t ov] 8 good heal?3 he does n "k t :i* he possesses4 ,nei!r c we "k ! great glory t is ,hol9ess till we h kn[n evil & c contra/ ! two4 ,b :at a price to pay = k2 :at fe>ful risk & dang] to ,8 creatures = ,god s to tea* !m6 we may cry1 =gett+ t ) ,god all ?+s are possible1 ,:o is able & /rong to save4 ,& does ,he d>e set ,himself no difficult ?+ t ,he may ov]come x8 ,! /rong man's k ( 8 own c\rage =bids u ?9k x4 ,god wills to save u4 ,we h b to jo9 our w ) ,81 & we are sav$4 ,h[ %all we m\nt to ,god o!r ?an by m\nt+ ^u t :i* (f]s a f\ndation ( tangible resi/ance1 ov]com+ & m\nt+ ^u evil4 ,evil !n becomes our /airway--! s]vant ( ,good4 ,by us+ ! evil t we meet ) day by day1 we m\nt daily ! ne>] to ,god by t exact degree ( evil :i* we h ov]come by good--t is to say1 by practice ( =giv5ess1 compassion1 pati5ce1 humility1 endurance1 held out ov] aga9/ ! invitation ( evil to d ! exact opposite4 ,a neglig5t1 ?iev+1 ly+ s]vant t we h to deal ) calls =? =giv5ess1 & humility also1 = are we a p]fect s]vant to our ,"l8 ,! evil ( a drunk5 husb& may be us$ by ! wife z a sure ladd] to ,god1 = because ( ?is evil %e may le>n to practise all ! virtues ( ! sa9ts4 ,truly if we h ! w to use x1 ,evil is fri5dly4 ,if we misuse ,evil--t is to say1 if we d n use x by m\nt+ on x b1 intoxicat$ ) its glam\r1 cons5t to x1--?is is ,s91 & imm$iately ! /airway is n t ( asc5t b ( desc5t & dea?4 ,! ,ma/] says ,resi/ n evil4 ,h[ are we to und]/& ?is b by assum+ t if we try our /r5g? aga9/ ,evil1 ,evil is likely to ov]come u8 b on be+ confront$ ) ,evil we %\ld in/antly hold on to & jo9 ) ! =ces ( ,good & s h /r5g? quietly to cont9ue side by side ) ,evil )\t be+ s$uc$ by x4 ,:5 ,evil _c s$uce--t is to say1 make u cons5t to x1--!n = u x is conqu]$4 ,:5 we give 9 or con=m to ?is s$uction we g5]ate ,s94 ,let u say t we are 9 temptation1 t ,evil ( "s sort confronts & invites u2 if we battle ) ?is pres5tm5t1 ?is picture1 ?is ins9uat+ invitation held out be=e u by ,evil1 ! act ( cont5d+ ) ! invitation w fix x all ! m firmly 9 our m9ds4 ,we ne$ to sub/itute ano!r picture1 ano!r invitation1 ano!r pres5tm5t1 ( t :i* p]ta9s to ! good & ! beautiful4 ,he :o has le>nt s to sub/itute & pres5t be=e 8 own he>t & m9d ,jesus & ! pure & beautiful invitations ( ?is ,div9e ,jesus c solve ! difficulty4 ,?is is n cont5d+1 ?is is sub/itut+2 ?is is transf]r+ allegiance f ! glam\r ( ,evil :i* is pres5t ) u1 to ! glam\r ( ,god1 :i*1 because we are 9 temptation1 is n pres5t1 b is yet hop$ & wait$ =4 ,to return aga9 to ! ly+1 di%one/1 & neglig5t s]vant4 ,if we argue1 cont5d1 & battle morally ) ?is evil s]vant we d n alt] him1 b by ?is cont5tion g5]ate antagonism4 ,!n :at is our own position8 ,bad temp]1 a di/urb$ he>t1 an inh>moni\s angry m9d2 b if )\t cont5d+ we be> ) & act g5tly ) ?is evil1 mak+ c>eful comp>isons ) our own s]vice to our own ,"l1 we le>n pati5ce1 =giv5ess1 & humility also1 = h we nev] li$1 h we nev] be5 di%one/1 h we nev] be5 neglig5t to ?is sweet ,"l8 ,!n imm$iately ,8 pati5ce1 ,8 =giv5ess1 ,8 love are br\ght m intimately to our consci\sness1 & our he>t ne>] to ,8 & ,8 to ours4 ,is ?is loss or ga98 ,is ,evil !n an enemy8 ,no1 a h&maid4 ,s is ,satan made a s]vant to 8 ,ov]lord1 & 8 p[] cross$4 ,( all false ?+s no?+ is m false ?an ! glam\r ( ,evil1 = :5 on be+ drawn into x we s91 in/ead ( ! hop$-= delight we soon f9d satiety2 in/ead ( exhil>ation1 fatigue2 in/ead ( cont5tm5t1 disillusion2 in/ead ( satisfaction1 du/2 in/ead ( romance1 ! gre$y claws ( ! h>py2 & ! fur!r we g 9 response to ?is glam\r ! m pitiable our outlook2 = ! sweets & possibilities ( ,evil are extraord9>ily limit$4 ,c any man devise a new s98 ,no1 b ev] pursues ! same old r\nd1 ! same pitiful circle4 ,if we pursue ! glam\r ( ,god1 we f9d ! exact opposite ( all ^! ?+s4 ,spiritual delights "k no satiety because ( inf9ite v>iety3 !y "k no disease1 no disillusionm5t1 & :o c set a b\nd>y or limit to ! beautiful1 to love1 & light1 & ,god8 ,x is *>act]i/ic ( temptation t :ile we are expos$ to x ,*ri/ is abs5t f p]ception2 = to p]ceive ,*ri/ w\ld in/antly free u f all temptation 7& (t5 x is by temptation fai?fully borne t we m\nt74 ,:5 we are 9 a condition ( contact ) ,*ri/ :i* is ,8 grace1 we are rais$ above ! /em ( fai? into ! fl[]s ( k2 b = ! true /r5g!n+ ( ! w x is necess>y t we live also on ! h>d] & m difficult meat ( fai?4 ,s we return aga9 & aga9 to t insulation f ?+s heav5ly 9 :i* we liv$ be=e we _h be5 made ,aw>e4 ,:5 we em]ge f ^! d>k p]iods we f9d ourselves to h advanc$4 ,) reg>d to ,grace we c nei!r truly receive nor b5efit by x )\t our he>t1 m9d1 & s\l are previ\sly adju/$ to ,response to x4 ,! reg5]at$ creature is n exempt f fur!r temptations1 b contr>iwise ! poignancy ( ^! temptations is greatly increas$ 7?\gh ( a q diff]5t ord] ( temptation to t kn[n to u 9 an unreg5]at$ /ate72 x is increas$ 9 proportion to ! degrees ( ,grace v\*saf$ to u4 ,t is to say1 temptation keeps level ) our utmo/ capacity ( resi/ance yet nev] is all[$ to exce$ ! b\nds1 = :5 x w\ld exce$ !m a way out is f\nd by ! return ( ,grace2 & we are fre$4 ,! cause is ! great root call$ ,self1 a hydra-head$ gr[? ( selfi%ness1 bo? mat]ial & spiritual1 spr\t+ 9 all directions4 ,we w\ld seem to be "h = ev] enclos$ z 9 a glass bottle ) ?is mo/ horrid gr[?4 ,?r\gh ! glass we see all life1 b always & ev] 9 company ) ?is voraci\s ,self4 ,no soon] d we lop (f "o %oot ( x ?an ano!r gr[s--nev] 0 su* /r5u\s g>d5+ z is requir$ to keep ?is gr[? 9 *eck1 & e "t we lop a %oot we le>n ano!r pa94 ,?is is ! long road to p]fection1 = ! ,cross is ,i ) a /roke ?r\gh x4 ,:o c describe ! m>vels1 ! v>iations1 ! my/]y ( ,grace8 ,x is a dew & an elixir1 a balm & a fire1 a de/roy] ( all fe> & sorr[1 a delight & an angui%1 = we are m>tyr$1 pi]c$ ) long arr[s by ! long+ ( ! love t x calls =?4 ,x is a sweetness & a might1 a glory & a p[] 9 :i* we are s5sibly aw>e we c\ld walk ?r\gh a furnace unsca!d if ,he bade u to d x4 ,& by x we are lift$ 9 a cry/al vase & enclos$ 9 ! ,pres5ce ( ,god4 99 99 99 ,z a man's desire is s is he4 ,if our desire is entirely t[>ds fle%ly ?+s & joys & com=ts1 we are s5suali/s4 ,if our desire is all t[>ds sport & horses1 we are n above horses b r bel[ !m1 = ! human animal is full ( guile & ! horse ( ob$i5ce & g5]osity4 ,nev]!less he is no goal = ! human to aim at4 ,if we desire ! beautiful1 we become beautifi$ & ref9$4 ,if we desire ,god1 we become godly4 99 99 99 ,x is *>act]i/ic ( spiritual progress t ea* /ep is ga9$ ?r\gh suff]+1 ?r\gh p5etrat+ fai?ful endeav\rs1 ?r\gh griev\s incompreh5sible turmoils & discords ( ! _s1 work$ frequ5tly by means ( ! ev]yday commonplace happ5+s & responsibilities ( our daily life2 & f9ally z ea* new /ep is ga9$ we are by ,grace c>ri$ to x 9 a flood ( div9e happ9ess to cr[n our woes4 ,grace is ,god's magnetic p[] act+ directly & imm$iately ^u u & is altoge!r indep5d5t ( place1 "t1 s]vices1 sacram5ts1 or c]emonies4 ,we limit ,god's communication ) u 9 ?is way--t ,he is communicable to u only 9 s f> z we ourselves respond & are able1 apt1 & will+ to receive ,him4 ,is ! condition ( bless$ ne>ness to ,god p]man5t8 ,no1 n z a condition b z a capacity only4 ,we h ne$ to p]petually r5ew ?is condition by a positive active en?usiasm t[>d ,god4 ,we c 9 laz9ess no m reta9 & use ?is condition z a p]man5cy ?an we c sleep "o night & eat "o meal & h ^! suffice = our lifetime4 ,b sl[ly1 ) "w & ) pa91 we le>n p]petually to rega9 ?is condition by t =m ( pray] :i* is ! spiritual brea?+-9 ( ! ,_s ( ,*ri/4 ,all ,god's help1 all ,god's com=t+s are to be _h by u by ,grace4 ,?is ,grace w con/antly be )drawn s t we may le>n t we arrive at no?+ by our own p[] b by gift ( ,god1 :o is ev] will+ to give to u provid$ we :ole-he>t$ly respond4 ,?is ,response to ,god is surely among/ ! mo/ difficult ( our a*ievem5ts2 unaid$ by ,grace x is an impossibility1 b we "k t e man born into ! _w is invit$ by ,*ri/ to ask = & to receive ?is ,grace4 ,! effect ( ,response to ,god is a unity ( our t9y =ce to ! ,might-,pres5ce & company ( ,god z mu* z we are able to be> x1 produc+ 9 u :ile ) u su* weal? ( liv+2 & su* happ9ess z passes all description4 ,z we h capacity to respond to ,god s we %all "k t ( ,god :i* is n kn[n by ^? z yet unle>n$ 9 response4 ,= ,god1 we "k1 is nei!r ,?is nor ,t1 b s inf9itely m ?an any p>ticul>isation t we are able to "k ,him only & solely accord+ to our own capacity to receive ,him4 ,to "o ,he is a ,p]sonal ,p[] t ravi%es ) might1 ^: awful magnetism draws ! v he>t & s\l 9 long+ angui% f ! body4 ,to ano!r ,he is ! dimly kn[n sil5t ,manipulator ( ! ,univ]se1 ! secret ,rul] to ^: mighty ,w creation b[s--because ne$s mu/4 ,to ano!r ,he is yet ev5 m remote1 be+ ! unresponsive1 imp]sonal1 incompreh5sible1 immovable ,in/igator ( all law4 ,:at is x 9 our religion t we ne$ = a full happ9ess8 ,n ! ,god ( our m]e fai?1 nor ! ,god ( ! !ologian veil$ beh9d great my/]ies ( book-le>n+4 ,x is ! ,responsive ,god t we long =1 & h[ %all we rea* ,him8 ,!re is "o way only--?r\gh ! tak+ ( ,jesus ,*ri/ firmly & fai?fully into our own he>t & life4 ,x is n :at we n[ are1 or :]e we n[ /& t matt]s1 b :at ,he has ! p[] to br+ u to4 ,h[ is ,god-consci\sness to be a*iev$--%all we d x by /udy1 by read+8 ,no--= ! /udy or read+ ( x w d no m ?an :et ! appetite = spiritual ?+s--?is is its "w1--b c d no m 9 giv+ u ! actual possession ( ?is joy ?an ! /udy ( a m5u c satisfy hung]4 ,individual1 p]sonal & inw>d possession is 9 all ?+s our necessity4 ,if our fri5d has slept well x is no re/ to u if we h slept ill4 ,up to a giv5 po9t 9 all ?+s ea* = himself4 ,x is ! law4 ,( :]e ?is law ends or is sup]s$$ by ! law ( all = all only ! ,holy ,_s c in/ruct u1 & t inw>dly & aga9 ea* to himself4 ,?is /ate ( ,god-consci\sness is a gift1 & our "w is to qualify = ?is gift by p]si/5t ard5t desire t[>ds ,god cont9u$ ?r\gh e adv]sity1 ?r\gh e lack ( s5sible response on ,8 "p--a nak$ w & he>t insi/+ ^u ,god4 ,?is /ate ( ,god-consci\sness once receiv$ & 9 full vig\r ( life1 !re is )\t d\bt ab\t ?is condition a pr9ciple ( active contagion1 v noticeable1 v rem>kable4 ,t some?+ :i* w\ld appe> frequ5tly to be ne$$ by p]sons anxi\s to come to ,god & unable to discov] ! mann] ( a*iev+ x1 w\ld seem to be suppli$ by ?is contagion1 z ?\gh a human sp>k 7 (t5 want$ to ignite ! sp>k 9 ano!r1 :i* done1 ! ,div9e ,fire spr+s up & rapidly gr[s )\t fur!r human assi/ance4 ,we see ?is contagion z us$ 9 its full p]fection by ,jesus1 = ) all ,8 select$ foll[]s ,he _h b to come 9 mom5t>y contact ) !m1 us+ a ^w or a look1 &1 in/antly =sak+ ev]y?+1 !y foll[$ ,him4 ,0 ?is selection ( ,8 fav\ritism8 ,no1 !y 7 prep>$ to receive ?is contagion1 & n "o ( !m b _h be5 secretly seek+ = ,god2 & ?is p]haps = long ye>s4 ,to f9d ?is new life we ne$ !n n ! read+ ( pr(\nd books ( le>n+1 n ! wisdom ( ! s*ol>1 b an inw>d p]si/5ce ( ! he>t & w ,god-w>ds4 ,?is "t ( insi/5t wait+ is to be endur$ ) all ! m c\rage 9 t we d n "k at :at bless$ mom5t we may pi]ce ! veil & ! gift come 9 all its glori\s imm5sity4 ,t5 ye>s1 tw5ty1 ?irty--:at are su* 9 comp>ison ) ! blisses t %all aft]w>ds be ours = all et]nity8 ,to look up by day or night into ! va/ness ( ! sky ) its endless dep?s1 & z we d x burn ) ! consci\sness ( ,god1 ?is is to truly live4 ,no di/ance is too great1 no space too wide4 ,all is our home4 ,)\t ?is burn+ consci\sness ( ,god1 ,space is a ?+ ( fe> & ,et]nity n to be ?\ght (4 ,( ! _m exp]i5ces & conditions ( ! s\l return+ to ,god !re is a condition all too easily ent]$--t ( an en]vat+1 pulseless1 s$uctive in]tia4 ,9 ?is condition ( in]t b m>vell\s cont5tm5t ! s\l w\ld love to /ay4 ,?is is spiritual s5suality1 a spiritual back-wat]4 ,! true life & en]gy ( ! s\l are lull$ to idl5ess3 bask+ 9 happ9ess1 ! s\l ceases to give & becomes m]ely receptive4 ,?is condition is ent]$ f _m levels3 we c rise to x 7= x is v high7 f ord9>y levels1 bran* sideways to x f high contemplation2 drop to x f ! greate/ contacts ) ,god4 ,?is condition seems /rangely famili> to ! s\l4 ,s mu* s t %e que/ions h]self4 ,0 x f ?is ,i />t$ on my w&]+s f ,god8 ,! true heal? ( ! s\l :5 9 ! blisses ( ,god is to be 9 a /ate ( int5se liv+ or activity4 ,%e is !n 9 p]fect connection ) ! ,div9e ,en]gy4 ,%e is !n 9 a /ate ( an imm5se & b\ndless radiantly joyful ,life4 ,to f9d ,god is to h ! scope ( all our s5ses increas$1 b x is easily to be und]/ood t our p[] ( suff]+ increases also1 because we are1 z x 71 flay$ & laid b>e to ev]y?+ alike4 ,b x increases our joys to s great a degree t = ! fir/ "t 9 life joy is great] ?an pa91 happ9ess is great] ?an sorr[1 k is great] ?an fe>1 & ,good sudd5ly becomes to u s mu* great] ?an ,evil t ,evil becomes negligible4 ,?is increase1 ?is wond]ful addition to our =m] condition1 might be p>tly convey$ by comp>ison to a man :o f bir? has nev] be5 able to appreciate music3 = him x has be5 mean+less1 a noise )\t sugge/ion1 )\t delight1 )\t w+s1 & sudd5ly by no p[]s ( 8 own ! imm5se *>ms & pleasures & capacities ( x are laid op5 to him6 ,^! increases ( e s5se & faculty ,god w give to ,8 lov]s1 s t )\t ef=t & by :at has n[ become to u our own nature we are cont9ually able to ent] ! ,sublime4 ,( ! ,two ,wills ,we h 9 u two wills4 ,! ,w to live1 & ! ,w to love ,god & to f9d ,him4 ,! fir/ w we see be+ us$ cont9ually & )\t ceas+1 n only by e man1 woman1 & *ild1 b by e bea/ ( ! field & ! :ole ( creation4 ,! ,w to live is ! w by :i* all alike seek ! be/ = !mselves1 "h ga9+ = !mselves all t !y c ( com=t & well-be+ out ( ! circum/ances & opportunities ( life4 ,?is is our natural ,w4 ,b x is n ! w :i* ga9s = u ,et]nal ,life1 nor does x ev5 ga9 = u peace & happ9ess dur+ ?is life4 ,x is ?is ,w to live :i* 9 ,*ri/'s ,process we are taught to break & bruise till x f9ally dies1 & ! ,w to love1 & gladly & joy\sly to please ,god is ! only ,w by :i* we live4 ,our great difficulty is t we try at "o & ! same "t to hang to ,god ) ! s\l & to ! _w ) our he>t4 ,:at is requir$ is n t we g & live 9 rags 9 a des]t place1 b t 9 ! exact circum/ances ( life 9 :i* we f9d ourselves we le>n 9 ev]y?+ to place ,god fir/4 ,he requires ( u a c]ta9 subtle & inw>d fidelity--a fidelity ( ! he>t1 ! w1 ! m9d4 ,! natural /ate ( he>t & m9d 9 :i* we all normally f9d ourselves is to h tempor>y vague long+s = some?+ :i*1 ?\gh indef9able1 we yet "k to be bett] & m satisfy+ ?an any?+ we c f9d 9 ! _w4 ,?is is ! s\l1 try+ to ov]rule ! frivolity ( ! he>t & m9d & to re-f9d ,god4 ,our difficulties are n made ( great ?+s1 b ( ! inf9itely small our own caprices4 ,?\gh we c (t5 d great ?+s1 acts ( surpris+ h]oism1 we are held 9 *a9s--at once ela/ic & iron--( small caprici\s vanities1 s t 9 "o & ! same h\r we may h wond]ful1 f>-rea*+ aspirations t[>ds ! ,sublime1 & ,god2 & yet !re comes a pretty frock1 a pleasant companion1 & behold ,god is =gott56 ,! mighty & m>vell\s ,mak] ( ! ,univ]se1 ,"l ( ev]y?+1 is plac$ ^u "o side = a piece ( *iffon1 a flatt]+ ^w f a pass+ lov]4 ,s be x4 ,he uses no =ce4 ,we are /ill 9 ! ,g>d5 ( ,free-,w4 ,& :5 ! ,g>d5 closes d[n = u1 :at !n8 ,w *iffon help u8 ,w ! smiles ( a long-s9ce fai?less lov] be our /r5g?8 ,n[ is ! "t to decide2 b our decision is made 9 ! _w1 & by means ( ! _w & n ap>t f x1 & 9 ! exact circum/ances 9 :i* we f9d ourselves4 ,ano!r difficulty we h1 & :i* =ms an insup]able b>ri] to f9d+ ,god1 is ! ev]-recurr+--we may almo/ say ! cont9ual--secret und]curr5t ( criticism & h>dness t[>ds ,god ov] :at we imag9e to be ,8 ,w4 ,we ne$ to seek ,god ) t :i* is mo/ l ,him1 ) a w :i* mo/ ne>ly resembles ,8 own4 ,to be 9 a /ate ( h>dness or criticism1 n only = ,god b = any creature1 9 ev5 ! smalle/ degree is to be giv+ allegiance to1 & unify+ ourselves )1 t ,w :i* is opposite to1 fur!/ away f1 & oppos$ to ,god4 ,he ,himself is ,ineffable ,t5d]ness4 ,hav+ once re-f\nd ,god1 ! s\l frequ5tly cries to ,him 9 an angui% ( pa9$ wond]1 ,h[ c\ld ,i ev] h left ,!e8 ,h[ c\ld ,i ev] h be5 fai?less to ,?9e ,unutt]able ,p]fections8 ,?is to ! s\l rema9s ! my/]y ( my/]ies4 ,0 x because ( "s imp]fection left 9 h] ( design by ,god 9 ord] t ,he might enjoy ,8 p[] to br+ h] back to ,him8 ,if ?is 7 s1 !n e s+le s\l mu/ be r$eem$--& n = love's sake1 b = ,8 ,hon\r1 ,8 own ,holy ,"n1 ,8 ,p]fection4 ,if ! s\l left ,him because ( a delib]ate *oice1 a pref]5ce = imp]fection1 a poison\s curiosity ( =eign loves1 !n love alone is ! cause & necessity ( our r$emption1 & s x feels to be1 = 9 exp]i5ce we f9d t love is ! beg9n+ & ! middle & ! end ( all ,8 deal+s ) u4 99 99 99 ,:at is our "p & :at is our righte\sness 9 all ?is ,process ( ! ,savi\r8 ,?is--t we obey1 & t we r5\nce our own w1 accept+ & abid+ by ! ,w ( ,god3 & ?is self-l5d+1 self-surr5d]1 ?is sacrifice ( self-w is c\nt$ to u = suffici5t righte\sness to m]it heav5ly life4 ,b f fir/ to la/ we rema9 consci\s t we h no righte\sness ( our own1 t we are v small & full ( weaknesses1 & rema9 unable to ?9k or say1 ,?is is my righte\sness1 ,i am righte\s1 any m ?an a man /&+ ba!d 91 or receiv+ ! sunlight c say or ?9k1 ,i am ! sun4 ,is all ?is1 !n1 z mu* z to say t we c sit d[n & d no?+2 b1 leav+ all to ,*ri/1 we m]ely believe1 & because ( ?is believ+ our r$emption is accompli%$8 ,no1 = we h an active "p to play1 a "p t ,god nev] disp5ses )--! active keep+ ( ! w 9 an active /ate ( practical ob$i5ce1 submission1 humble uncompla9+ endurance ?r\gh e k9d ( te/4 ,:at w ^! p]haps too mu* dread$ te/s be t ,he w put u ?r\gh8 ,he w make use ( ! difficulties1 opportunities1 temptations1 & ev5ts ( ev]yday life 9 ! _w 7:i* difficulties we %\ld h to pass ?r\gh :e!r we become reg5]at$ or n7 d[n to ! smalle/ act1 ! mo/ secret ?\ght1 ! mo/ hidd5 int5tion & desire4 ,b ?r\gh x all x is ! ,great ,physician ,himself :o cures1 & we are no m able to p]=m ^! *anges ( reg5]ation 9 he>t & m9d ?an we are able to p]=m a critical op]ation on our own body4 ,s ,he takes our vanities &1 "o by "o1 /rews !m among ! w9ds1 & we raise no prote/2 takes our prides & breaks !m 9 pieces1 & we submit2 takes our self-gratifications & r$uces !m to du/1 & we /& /ripp$ b pati5t2 takes ! natural lu/s ( ! creature & transfigures !m to ,holy ,love4 ,& 9 all ?is pa9 ( transition1 :at is ! ,div9e ,anae/hetic t ,he gives u8 ,8 ,grace4 ,hav+ submitt$ to all t ,*ri/ e/eems necess>y = our reg5]ation1 :at does ,he set u to8 ,s]vice4 ,glad1 happy s]vice to all :o may ne$ x4 ,he has wond]ful ways ( mak+ u acqua9t$ ) ,8 especial fri5ds1 & x pleases ,him to make u ! means ( answ]+ ! pray]s ( ,8 poor = help1 to _! great wond] & joy & to ! increase ( _! fai? 9 ,him4 ,also ,he uses u z a human sp>k1 to ignite ! fires ( ano!r man's he>t3 :5 ,he uses u 9 ?is way1 x w seem to "o l ! op5+ ( a w9d[--to ano!r a magnetism4 ,"o w see x z a light fla%$ on d>k places1 ano!r receives x z ! f9d+ ( a track :]e be=e 0 no track4 ,b h[ev] _m times we may be us$ 9 ?is way1 ! work+ rema9s a my/]y to u4 ,:at is our rew>d :il/ /ill 9 ?is _w = our pati5t ob$i5ces & r5unciations8 ,?is--t all becomes well ) u ! mom5t ! process is br\ght to ! /age :]e ! aim ( our life ceases to be ! enjoym5t ( worldly life & becomes fix$ ^u ! ,invisible & ^u ,god3 & all ?is by & because ( love1 = x is love alone :i* c make u g5u9ely glad to give up our own w & :i* c keep u f s9n+4 ,we comm5ce by qualify+ ?r\gh our human love1 meagre & fluctuat+ z x is1 = ,god's gift ( holy love--( div9e reciprocity1 & ) ! pres5tation ( ?is div9e gift imm$iately we f9d ourselves 9 possession ( a new set ( desires1 :i* = ! fir/ "t 9 our exp]i5ce ( liv+ prove !mselves completely satisfy+ 9 fruition4 ,god does n leave u 9 an arid wa/e1 because ,he w\ld h u to be holy1 & n[h]e are !re su* ard5t desires z 9 heav52 b ,he transposes & transfigures ! c>nal desires into ! spiritual by means ( ?is gift ( div9e reciprocity :i* is at once access to & union ) ,himself4 ,n[1 & only n[ d we f9d ! /+ pull$ out ( e adv]se happ5+ & e woe ( life1 & out ( dea? also4 ,& ! :ole process is to be gone ?r\gh j :]e & h[ & z we f9d ourselves--9 our own home or 9 ! home ( ano!r1 m>ri$ or s+le1 ri* or poor1--) ^! ?ree wat*words1 ,ob$i5ce1 ,pati5ce & ,simplicity4 ,b x is n suffici5t to h once a*iev$ ?is union ) ,god3 to re/ 9 happ9ess ! s\l mu/ cont9ually a*ieve x4 ,x foll[s !n t our ne$ is n an isolat$ ev5t b a life1 a life liv$ ) ,god1 & 9 exp]i5ce we f9d t ?is alone c satisfy u4 ,a life 9 :i* we receive h\rly ! brea? ( ,8 t5d]ness & pity1 ,8 inf9ite solace to a p>don$ s\l4 ,( ! ,int]*ange ( ,?\ght )\t ,s\nd ,_m p]sons "k :at x is to h ! exp]i5ce ) ano!r p]son ( a simultane\s exactitude ( ?\ght--speak+ al\d ! same words 9 ! same in/ant4 ,o!rs exp]i5ce 9 !mselves ! p[] to ex*ange ?\ght & to "k ! m9d ( ano!r )\t ! m$ium ( s\nd1 ?\gh n )\t ! m$ium ( ^w-=ms1 ?is la/ be+ a capacity possess$ only by ! s\l 9 communion ) ! ,div9e4 ,we "n ^! exp]i5ces ?\ght-waves1 m9d-read+1 m5tal telepa?y1 & und]/& v little ab\t !m2 b beyond ?is m9d-telepa?y !re is a telepa?y ( ! s\l ab\t :i* we und]/& no?+ :atev]4 ,?is is ! div9e telepa?y1 ) words or )\t ^w-=ms1 by :i* ,*ri/ in/ructs ,8 foll[]s4 ,! telepa?y ( ! m9d is ! indicator to ! exi/5ce ( a telepa?y ( ! s\l2 = ! m9d indicates to u t :i* %\ld be s\ght & kn[n by ! s\l1 & )\t we come to div9e ?+s fir/ 9 a creaturely way 7be+ creatures7 we %all nev] come to !m at all4 ,! m9d desires & indicates1 ! s\l a*ieves4 ,?is telepa?y ) ,*ri/ is ! means by :i* ! s\l le>ns 9 a direct mann] ! w & ! tea*+ & ! m9d ( ,*ri/1 & x is by ?is means %e ga9s su* wisdom z x is ,god's w %e %all h4 ,! s\l seeks ?is telepa?y dur+ ! second /age1 vaguely1 n kn[+ or und]/&+ ! mode ( x1 receiv+ x r>ely & ) great difficulty4 ,9 ! ?ird /age %e obta9s x 9 abundance1 at times briefly1 at o!rs at great l5g?4 99 99 99 ,t ,god has 8 dwell+-place at an incalculably great di/ance f ourselves is a true k ( ! s\l3 b a fur!r k reveals to u t ?is calamity is mitigat$1 & = %ort p]iods ev5 annull$1 by provision ( ,8 )9 ! s\l to annihilate ?is di/ance1 & be ! means ( br++ ! s\l into su* imm$iate contact ) ,himself z %e is able to endure4 ,b ! ,joy-,en]gy ( ,god be+ insupportable to ! v nature ( fle%1 9 ,8 t5d] love & pity ,he provides u1 ?r\gh ! ,p]son ( ,8 ,son1 ) degrees ( union ( su* sweet g5tl5ess t we may cont9ually enjoy !m ?r\gh e h\r ( life2 & ?r\gh ,8 ,son ,he comes out to meet ! prodigal :ile yet af> (f4 ,?is is /rongly obs]vable1 t z ! process ( ,*ri/ proce$s & gr[s 9 u1 ?\gh our joys 9 ,god are individual1 yet !y become also clo!d 9 a g>m5t ( ! univ]sal1 s t ! s\l1 :5 %e ent]s ! fires ( wor%ip & ( bless+ & ( conv]s+ ) ,god--)\t any =e?\ght1 b by a cause or ne$ n[ become a "p ( h]self1--ent]s ^! /ates & gives to ,him no long] z ,i1 b z ,we--:i* is to say1 z ,all ,s\ls4 99 99 99 ,_m ( u look to dea? to "w a miracle = u1 ?9k+ ! m]e cessation ( physical liv+ w give entry to p>adise or ev5 heav51 s long z we are baptis$ & call ourselves ,*ri/ians4 ,?is is a great delusion4 ,9 "*1 p]sonality1 cleanl9ess1 goodwill we are1 aft] dea?1 exactly z f> advanc$ z we 7 be=e dea?1 & no fur!r4 ,:at !n is ne$$1 s9ce dea? w n help u8 ,! ,se$ ( ,div9e love & life plant$ & consci\sly gr[+ 9 u :il/ we are /ill 9 ?is _w4 ,& :at is ?is ,se$8--! ,r$eem]4 99 99 99 ,:at is p>adise1 :at is heav58 ,! progressive gradations ( conditions ( a p]fect reciprocity ( love1 & ! great] ! p]fection ( ?is reciprocity ! great] ! altitudes atta9$ ( heav54 ,?us we see 9 ,scripture t ! angels :o /& ne>e/ to ,god or highe/ 9 heav5 are ! *]ubim--t is to say1 !y are ^? :o h atta9$ a great] reciprocity ?an all o!r angels4 ,n[ ?is ,div9e love is incompreh5sible to u until we are initiat$ into its my/]y z a gift1 & _c be und]/ood nor guess$ at by comp>isons ) any human loves h[ev] great1 noble1 or pure2 b ?is burn+ fi]y ess5ce ( joy1 ?is radiant glory ( delight1 ?is holy & ineffable fulfilm5t ( ! utt]mo/ ne$s1 long+s1 & requirem5ts ( ! s\l mu/ be p]sonally exp]i5c$ by u to be compreh5d$4 ,:at madness 9 u is x t c c\nt z an add$ cross or burd5 any means by :i* we rea* su* p]fection ( bliss = ev]8 ,! ,cross is = u ! mis]y ( our own bl9d+ s9s & selfi%nesses4 ,! burd5 is ! weight ( our own di/ance f ,god4 ,take up ?y cross 7:i* is our daily life ( ignorance & s971 take up ?y cross1 & foll[ ,me1 says ! voice ( ! ,savi\r2 & z we d x & foll[ ,him ! di/ance betwe5 ,god & ourselves dim9i%es1 & f9ally ! burd5 & ! cross disappe>1 & behold ,god6 await+ u ) ,8 consolations4 ,x is ! /opp+ half-way t causes w\ld-be foll[]s ( ,*ri/ su* di/ress4 ,x is necess>y t we foll[ ,him all ! way & n m]ely a "p ( x--t ,he may complete ,8 process 9 u4 ,:5 we are liv+ altoge!r 9 a creaturely1 natural1 or unreg5]at$ way1 absorb$ 9 ! ambitions & int]e/s ( a worldly life1 we are p]haps cont5t4 ,:5 we live reg5]at$ & 9 ! _s1 we are 9 great joy2 b :5 we try to live betwe5 ! two & w\ld s]ve ,god & worldly int]e/s at ! same "t we are 9 gloomy wret*$ness1 vacillation1 depression4 ,! ,ma/] said1 ,! k+dom ( heav5 is )9 y1 :i* signifi$ t )9 u 0 ! pot5tiality to h entrance to1 & to "k1 ! my/]y ( ! ,div9e ,secret1 & to p>ticipate :il/ /ill liv+ "h1 9 ! e>ly degrees or manife/ations ( ,div9e ,love--t ,p[] :i* glorifies ! angels1 & is ,heav54 ,( ! ?ree ,/ages ( ,god-,consci\sness 7,:i* m prop]ly express$ is ! gift ( imm$iate access ( ! s\l ( ,god7 ,!re are ?ree pr9cipal /ages on ! way ( progress--?ree sep>ate degrees ( ,god-,consci\sness4 ,! fir/ is ! ,consci\sness ( ! ,pres5ce ( ,jesus1 ! ,p]fect ,man4 ,we take ,him into ! he>t1 accept & "k ,him1 love & obey ,him4 ,9 ! second /age we receive ,jesus z ! ,*ri/ & recognise ,him z ! ,messiah 7( :i* ! m9d 0 n sure 9 ! fir/ /age74 ,we rejoice 9 ,him1 giv+ ,him a m p]fect ob$i5ce4 ,9 ! ?ird ! s\l is giv5 ! ,consci\sness ( ! ,fa!r1 &1 be+ fill$ ) a v great love & joy1 wor%ips ,him z ! ,kn[n ,god4 ,n[ life imm$iately becomes totally *ang$1 fe> & s9 are swept away1 & love rules ! ,univ]se4 ,x is n[ t ,god makes u "k ,8 glam\r2 t ,he ca/s ov] ! s\l ,8 gold5 net ( spiritual delights1 & by !m seems to *all5ge h]1 say+ to ! s\l1 ,n[ t ,i reveal ,myself to !e1 can/ ?\ ev] return to ! joys ( ! _w1 can/ ?\ f9d its pleasures sweet1 can/ ?\ be satisfi$ ) any human love2 can/ ?\ by any means resi/ ,me n[ t ,i %[ ,myself8 ,& ! s\l answ]s ,him1 ,nay ,"l1 9 tru? ,i _c4 ,! remembrance ( ^! p[]s & ^! spells ( ,god make = ! s\l a sure f\ndation ( repose & c]ta9ty 9 ! days ( ! te/+ ( fidelity t /ill lie be=e h]3 !y also fur!r reveal to h] ,8 consummate c>e ( h] exact requirem5ts1 = %e _c pass beyond a c]ta9 /age )\t a direct p]sonal assurance is giv5 h]4 ,fir/ ,he dem&s ( u t we h1 & actively ma9ta91 a clean w to turn & cleave to ,him1 )\t any assurance beyond writt5 assurance 7,scripture72 & hav+ giv5 ,him a ?or\gh pro( ( fidelity1 ,he !n grants u ! p]sonal assurance4 ,hav+ be5 giv5 ^! raptur\s concessions1 :at w\ld p]fection dem& ( u--a total )drawal f ! _w--a hid+ away 9 secret ) our s\l's treasure ( delights8 ,maybe = "s2 b a high] p]fection calls u back to s]vice 9 ! wret*$ turmoil ( ! _w1 to "w & to /& 9 ! ,h\se ( ,rimmon & nev] b[ ! knee1 to c>ry ) u ev]y:]e ! ,div9e ,consci\sness & pres]ve its light undimm$ 9 e sordid petty circum/ance ( daily life1 to endure ) p]fect pati5ce ! follies & ! prides ( ! un5light5$4 ,:oev] c a*ieve ^? ?+s may f9d himself at la/ a sa9t4 ,v e>ly 9 ?is ?ird /age a miracle is p]=m$ 9 u3 )\t kn[+ h[ x came ab\t or :at day x 0 done1 we sudd5ly "k t ! he>t & ! m9d h become virg9--& ?is )\t any v>iation4 ,e k9d ( lu/1 :e!r ( eye1 body1 he>t1 or m9d1 has be5 remov$ f u1 & nev] aga9 has any p[] ov] u1 = ! w has become sup]ior to lu/1 & !re is a f9i% to all su* cont5d+3 ?is moral heal+ is m impressive ?an any physical heal+4 ,be=e ?is miracle is p]=m$ = u1 we h suff]$ _m ?+s1 z mu* z we c be>3 subtle & a/oni%+ temptations ( m9d & body & _s call to remembrance ! =m] days 9 :i* aft] ye 7 illum9at$ ye endur$ a great fight ( afflictions 7,heb4 x4 #cb74 ,?is p]son t writes =m]ly suppos$ t no creature 0 admitt$ to ! bless$ness ( be+ 9 any way ) ,god 9 ,_s )\t !y 7 already become a sa9t2 b ?is is n s1 & ,he accepts ! s9n] long be=e he is a sa9t 7if ev] we become "o 9 ?is _w1 :i* is d\btful71 provid$ ! w is always held good t[>ds ,god4 ,?is is ! mighty ,process ( ,*ri/ :i* he desires to p]=m = all4 ,( ! te>s we %$ ov] x ! less m5tion ! bett]2 !y are preci\s te>s1 necess>y te>s1 cleans+ te>s1 & if we w n l5d ourselves to ?is ,process ( ,*ri/ we may h z _m te>s = our portion & no b5efit f !m 9 ! way ( advancem5t4 ,let u weep ! te>s t ,god ,himself w wipe away4 ,s !n 9 ! fir/ /age ! ,s\l ta/es ( ! sweet companion%ip ( ,jesus4 ,9 ! second1 ( ! might & graci\sness ( ,*ri/2 9 ! ?ird1 ( ! fullness ( ,god & ,8 unspeakable delights4 ,?\ %alt give !m to dr9k ( ,?y pleasures1 z out ( ! riv] 7,psalm xxxvi474 ,9 ! ?ird /age ( ,god-,consci\sness a great *ange takes place 9 our relation%ip to ,god4 ,besides ! magnitude ( ! alt]ations ( ! inn] life--! sweep+ spiritual *anges--! body also %>es 9 a *ange1 =1 :il/ we =m]ly pray$ to ,god ) a b[$ head & a hidd5 face1 we n[ become unable to pray or approa* ,him except ) a rais$ head & an uncov]$ face4 ,?is *ange is n f any ?\ght or int5tion ( our own1 b we are =c$ to x by a sweet necessity4 ,9 a company ( p]sons pray+1 all ^? 9 ! ?ird /age c\ld be imm$iately kn[n by ?is necessity ( ! rais$ & b>$ face if we 7 n taught by ! ,holy ,_s nev] to reveal to o!rs t we are 9 ! ?ird /age except 9 special in/ances4 ,= ?is reason x is n possible to ent] true communion ) ,god 9 a public place ( wor%ip unless we c conceal ourselves f o!rs4 ,= ! face und]goes a *ange 9 communion ) ,god1 & x is n pleas+ to ,him t ?is %\ld be se5 by any eye b ,8 own4 ,if anyone f9ds great difficulty 7& ! mo/ ( u d7 9 com+ to ! fir/ /age--t ( tak+ ,jesus into ! he>t--he mu/ pray e day 9 a few %ort words f ! he>t t ,god w give him to ,jesus1 & 9 due "t he w be he>d4 ,9 ! ?ird /age ( progress we h ! home-com+ ( ! s\l z f> z we are able to "k x 9 ! fle%3 ,we ta/e ( ! p[]s ( ,god 7,hebrews74 ,b ! fullness ( home-com+ is res]v$ = t day 9 :i* ! greate/ ( all ! my/]ies w be reveal$ to u--! my/]y ( ! ,relation ( ! ,s\l to ,god4 ,9 t great day we %all "k ,god by ,8 ,own ,"n4 99 99 99 ,we d n f9d ,god by d5y+ ! exi/5ce ( ?+s n pleas+ to ,him4 ,we d n f9d ! ,et]nal ,goodness by say+ t ,evil does n exi/4 ,we d n f9d true heal? ( _s because we d5y all sickness1 pa91 & disease4 ,su* a mode ( ,*ri/ianity may give a s5se ( com=t1 l5d a false security to ! he>t & m9d at once we>y ( ,god-se>*+1 & dis5*ant$ ) ! _w2 b x is n ! ,*ri/ianity :i* reg5]ates4 ,x is a n>cotic1 n a ,r$emption4 ,x is ! way ( a m9d unwill+ to face tru?s because !y pa94 ,if !re 0 any?+ made pla9 by ,*ri/ x is t ! way ( ,r$emption lies ?r\gh h]oism & n c[>dice4 ,let ^? ( u :o too mu* fe> a pass+ pa9 ( sacrifice ( w rememb] t ! deepe/ ( all pa9s1 ! la/ ^w 9 ! trag$y ( life1 is to come to old age & desc5d to ! grave )\t hav+ f\nd ! ,savi\r4 ,= our calamity is t we are lo/ s\ls4 ,our opportunity is t 9 ?is _w we f9d ! track ( ,*ri/ :i* leads u home4 99 99 99 ,god does n create a new _w on purpose = ,8 lov]s imm$iately to live 91 yet ?\gh we rema9 our full "t 9 ?is same _w x is n ! same _w4 ,we see a p]son 9 a sev]e illness & aga9 9 full heal?4 ,x is ! same p]son1 & n ! same p]son4 ,we see a g>d5 fill$ ) fl[]s 9 ! ra9 "u grey cl\ds1 & aga9 ! same g>d5 fill$ ) mell[ sunlight "u blue skies2 x is ! same g>d51 & n ! same g>d54 ,^! *anges c\ld nev] be describ$ or convey$ to ! man bl9d f bir?2 nei!r c spiritual *anges be describ$ or convey$ till we ourselves ga9 simil>ity ( exp]i5ce4 ,god transposes our pleasures1 tak+ ! glam\r f ! guilty & transf]r+ x to ! blameless2 by ?is trans=m+ our lives4 ,he increases ! pleasure ( unworldly enjoym5ts s we are indep5d5t ( ! worldly ones4 ,b we _c rema9 9 ?is trans=m$ _w ( ,8 unless we are at peace bo? ) ourself & all p]sons ar\nd u4 ,?\gh f e>lie/ *ildhood we may h f\nd 9 ! beauties ( ,nature a great delight1 :5 we become ! lov] ( ,god ,he passes ,8 f+]s ov] our he>ts & our eyes & op5s !m to m>vell\s new p[]s = joy4 ,oh1 ! ec/asy t may be kn[n 9 "o %ort walk alone ) ,god6 ,! ov]fl[+ he>t cries out to ,him1 ,:at o!r lov] is !re c give su* bliss z ?is1 & :at is all ,nature b a lovely language betwe5 ,!e & me6 ,!n ! s\l spreads w+s into ! blue & s+s to ,him l so>+ l>k4 ,b d n let u seek ,him only because ( ,8 ,delights1 = s we might miss ,him altoge!r4 ,b let x be because x is ,8 wi%3 because ,p]fection calls1 & my/]y calls to my/]y1 & love to love1 & ,light calls to ! d>kness & ! ,dawn is born4 ,! glam\r ( ,god is come d[n ab\t my s\l1 ,& ,he :o made all lovel9ess has deck$ my he>t 9 spr+1 ,& g>l&$ me r\nd ab\t ) t5d] buds ,( fl[]s & sc5t$ ?+s1 & love & light4 ,i see no ra91 no sad grey skies1 ,= ! glam\r ( ,god has come d[n ab\t m9e eyes1 ,& ! ,voice ( ! ,mak] ( all lovel9ess ,call+ to my s\l1 leads me en*ant$ ,up ! glitt]+ my/]ies ( ,inf9ity4 ------ ,transcrib]'s notes3 ,! "n ( ! au?or1 ,lilian ,/aveley1 is n m5tion$ on ! title page ( ?is text1 b ,i h add$ x "h4 ,also ,i h made two spell+ *anges3 subsitute ano!r picture to sub/itute ano!r picture accepts ! s9n] long long be=e he is a sa9t to accepts ! s9n] long be=e he is a sa9t4