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,,india ,*ri/mas1 #aiji4 ,ea* = himself1 we live our lives ap>t1 ,heirs ( an age t turns u all to /one2 ,yet ev] ,nature1 ?ru/ f out ! he>t1 ,comes back to claim h] own4 ,/ill we h some?+ left ( t fair se$ ,god gave = bir?right2 /ill ! s\nd ( te>s ,hurts u1 & *ildr5 9 _! helpless ne$ ,/ill call to li/5+ e>s4 ,,ow5 ,,seaman4 ,f ,9 a ,good ,cause4 ,,=eword ,,to ,,! ,,pres5t ,,edition ,,:5 fir/ ,?+s z !y are trod ! untrodd5 way1 x walk$ z a small *ild walks :5 = ! fir/ "t x v5tures =? ^u "y1 unc]ta9 feet4 ,x has to walk2 x does n "k :y3 x only kn[s !re is no *oice ab\t x4 ,b !re is an eag] look+ = an out/ret*$ h&1 & an in/ant gratefulness always1 = ev5 a f+]4 ,a :ole h& giv5 )\t res]ve is some?+ nev] =gott54 ,x 0 only a *ild aft] all1 & x _h n anticipat$ hav+ to f9d its way alone among /rang]s4 ,x _h ?\ght ( no?+ fur!r ?an a v %ort walk among famili> faces4 ,if x _h und]/ood be=eh& h[ f> x w\ld h to walk1 ,i d\bt if x w\ld h _h ! c\rage to />t2 = x 0 n naturally brave4 ,b once on its way x c\ld n turn back2 & ?anks to ^? k9dly out/ret*$ h&s1 x grew a little less afraid1 & x w5t on4 ,!n ano!r small wayf>] foll[$4 ,x also 0 v easily disc\rag$2 an unfri5dly pu% w\ld h knock$ x ov] at once4 ,b nobody seem$ to want to pu% s unpret5ti\s a ?+1 s x ga9$ c\rage & w5t on4 ,& n[ a m gr[n-up look+ travell] 7?\gh inde$ its looks belie x7 has />t$ on its way2 m diffid5t1 if ! tru? mu/ be told1 ?an ev5 its pr$ecessors4 ,= x ?\ght )9 itself--,p]haps !re w be no welcom+ h&s held out ?is "t2 h&s may gr[ tir$ ( su* k9d (fices4 ,b x has n be5 s4 ,& n[ ! s5se ( gratefulness _c long] be repress$4 ,all ( :i* means t ,i want to ?ank s9c]ely ^? k+s ( ! ,book ,_w--,review]s--& ^? dwell]s 9 t _w :o are my ,read]s1 = _! insight & ! sympa?y to :i* ,i owe s mu*4 ,once ,i read ( a soldi] :o wrote a lett] home f ! mid/ ( a battle1 on a crumpl$ piece ( pap] laid ^u a cannon ball4 ,8 home p he knew w\ld ov]look ! appe>ance ( ! pap] & ! lack ( v>i\s ?+s expect$ 9 a lett] writt5 9 a quiet room ^u a /udy table4 ,& he knew he c\ld tru/ !m n to br+ too f9e a criticism to be> ^u ! un/udi$ words hot f ! battle's he>t4 ,i h ?\ght sometimes t ^! books 7 n unlike t soldi]'s lett]2 & ^? 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,,lake ,,& ,,hills #bch ,,f ,,! ,,rock1 ,,dohnavur #cch ,,! ,,place ,,( ,,baptism #cdj ,,*apt] ,i ,lotus ,buds ,illu/ration3 ,,lotus ,,fl[]s4 ,f t same pool1 aft]w>ds ga!r$ by p]mission & giv5 to u4 ,,lotus ,,buds ,,*apt] ,i ,lotus ,buds ,,ne> an anci5t temple 9 ,s\!rn ,india is a l>ge calm1 beautiful pool1 enclos$ by /one walls1 brok5 "h & !re by wide spaces fitt$ ) /eps lead+ d[n to ! wat]'s edge2 & almo/ )9 rea* ( ! h& ( "o /&+ on ! l[e/ /ep are p9k ,lotus lilies float+ s]5ely on ! quiet wat] or /&+ up f x 9 a c]ta9 pr\d lovel9ess all _! own4 ,we 7 travell+ to ! neighb\r+ t[n :5 we came ^u ?is pool4 ,we c\ld n pass x ) only a glance1 s we /opp$ our bullock-c>ts & unpack$ ourselves--we 7 f\r or five to a c>t--& we climb$ d[n ! brok51 "t-worn /eps & gaz$ & gaz$ till ! beauty ent]$ into u4 ,:o c describe t h>mony ( col\r1 a ,lotus-pool 9 blossom 9 cle> %9+ aft] ra96 ,! grey old walls1 ! br[n wat]1 ! d>k gre5 ( ! ,lotus leaves1 ! delicate p9k ( ! fl[]s2 ov]head1 inf9ite cry/all9e blue2 & beyond ! old walls1 palms4 ,) u 0 a "y ,indian fri5d4 ,i w ga!r "s ( ! lilies = y1 he said1 ) ! quick ,indian desire to give pleasure2 b "s "o int]pos$3 ,!y mu/ n be ga!r$ by u4 ,! pool belongs to ! ,temple4 ,x 0 z if a /one _h be5 flung /raight at a mirror4 ,!re 0 a s5se ( cra% & ! %att]+ ( "s bright image4 ,! ,lotus-pool 0 a ,temple pool2 its fl[]s are ,temple fl[]s4 ,! little buds t float & op5 on ! wat]1 lift+ "y innoc5t faces up to ! light z x smiles d[n ^u !m & fills !m ?r\gh ) almo/ a tremor ( joy\sness1 ^! ,lotus buds are sacr$ ?+s--sacr$ to :om8 ,= a s+le mom5t t ?\ght _h its way1 b only = a mom5t4 ,x fla%$ & 0 gone1 = ! ?\ght 0 a false ?\ght3 x c\ld n /& aga9/ ?is--,all s\ls are ,m9e4 ,all s\ls are ,81 all fl[]s4 ,an ali5 p[] has possess$ !m1 c\nt$ !m 8 = s _m g5]ations1 t we h almo/ acquiesc$ 9 ! %ameful confiscation4 ,b nei!r s\ls nor fl[]s are 8 :o did n make !m4 ,!y 7 nev] truly 84 ,!y belong to ! ,"l ( all ! e>?1 ! ,creator1 ! ,r$eem]4 ,! little ,lotus buds are ,8--,8 & n ano!r's4 ,! *ildr5 ( ! temples ( ,s\? ,india are ,8--,8 & n ano!r's4 ,s n[ we g =? ) ! ,own] ,himself to claim ,8 own possession4 ,!re is hope 9 ! ?\ght1 & confid5ce & ! pure/ inspiration4 ,&1 /irr$ to ! v dep?s1 z we are & mu/ be _m a "t :5 we see ! t5d] ,lotus buds ga!r$ by a h& t has no "r to !m1 & cru%$ und]foot2 bewild]$ & sore tr\bl$1 z ! he>t _c help be+ sometimes1 :5 ! my/]y ( ! app>5t victory ( evil ov] good is ov]:elm+3 ev5 s !re w be always a hu%1 a re/1 a repose ( _s1 z we /& by ! ,lotus-pools ( life & seek 9 ,8 ,"n to ga!r ,8 fl[]s4 ,,*apt] ,,ii ,opposites ,,bala is ne>ly f\r4 ,!re are s _m mu* y\ng] ?+s 9 ! nurs]y1 t ,bala feels almo/ gr[n up3 f\r w be q gr[n up2 x w be nice to be f\r4 ,bala takes life s]i\sly1 %e has always done s2 %e ?9ks x w\ld be monoton\s to h too _m frivol\s babies4 ,b ,bala's eyes c sp>kle z no o!r eyes ev] d2 & h] mir? is some?+ by itself1 l a little hidd5 f\nta9 9 ! he>t ( a wood1 ) ! sweetness ( surprise 9 x & v pure delight4 ,:5 ,bala came to u fir/ %e 0 betwe5 "o & two1 an age :5 mo/ babies h a good deal to say4 ,bala said no?+4 ,%e 0 l a book ) all its leaves uncut2 & "s :o saw h]1 =gett+ t uncut books are sometimes int]e/+1 conclud$ %e 0 dull4 ,q a prosaic *ild1 !y said2 b ,bala did n c>e4 ,!re are "s babies1 l "s gr[n-up p1 :o %[ all !y h to %[ ^u fir/ acqua9tance & to all4 ,o!rs cov] ! dep?s )91 & op5 only to _! own4 ,bala is "o ( ^!2 & ev5 ) h] own %e has seasons ( res]ve4 ,h] fir/ rem>k1 h[ev]1 %[n r ?an said1 0 n romantic4 ,%e 0 too old = a bottle1 & %e seem$ to feel sore ov] ?is4 ,b %e not$ ! "t ! infants 7 f$1 & foll[$ ! nurses ab\t :ile !y 7 prep>+ ! meal2 & :5 !y sat d[n to give x1 ea* to h] respective baby1 ,bala w\ld *oose ! "o ( mo/ unc]ta9 appetite1 & sit d[n beside x & wait4 ,!re 0 an expression on h] face at su* times :i* sugge/$ a hymn1 set x humm+ 9 "o's head 9 fact1 9 spite ( all ef=ts to escape x4 ,m ?an once we h caught ourselves s++ x1 & pull$ up %>ply3 ,ev5 me6 ,ev5 me6 ,let "s dropp+s fall on me4 ,illu/ration3 ,god's ,fire4 ,tak5 on ! bank ( ! ,r$ ,lake1 ne> ,dohnavur4 ,mo/ ( our family rem9d u v e>ly t !y trace _! desc5t to ! "m ( u all4 ,bala1 on ! contr>y1 0 good3 s we almo/ =got %e 0 human1 & began to expect too mu* ( h]2 b %e got tir$ ( ?is aft] a :ile1 & "o day sudd5ly s9n$4 ,! surprise act$ l hypo1 & fix$ ! photograph4 ,! place 0 ! old nurs]y1 :i* has "o uncom=tably d>k corn] 9 x4 ,some?+ _h (f5d$ ,bala2 %e m>*$ /raight into t corn] & /amp$4 ,we c see h]--poor little girl--z %e rumpl$ h] curls ) bo? h] h&s1 & fla%$ on ! _w a )]+ glance4 ,scorn to be scorn$ by ^? ,i scorn 0 writt5 l>ge all ov] ! indignant little face4 ,aft] ?is %ock we 7 prep>$ = any?+1 b no?+ special happ5$2 only :5 ! dem&s made ^u h] are unreasonable1 !n ,bala retires into h]self & turns ^u all fooli% insi/5ce a face t is a blank4 ,if ?is po9t is pass$1 ! d>k eyes c fla%4 ,b su* reveal+s are r>e4 ,:5 ,bala 0 some?+ "u ?ree1 %e 0 v t5d]-he>t$4 ,"o ev5+1 aft] ! fir/ ra9s _h flood$ ! pools & reviv$ ! mosquitoes1 ! nurs]y wall 0 ! sc5e ( _m executions2 & ,bala c\ld n be> x4 ,sittie1 don't kill ! poor p*ies6 %e said pitifully2 & ,sittie1 mu* t\*$1 /opp$ to com=t & expla94 ,! o!r babies 7 delight+ 9 ! slaught]1 po9t+ out ) glee ea* dete/$ p*ie2 b ,bala is n l ! o!r babies4 ,lat]1 ! f]oci\s in/9ct common to mo/ "y animals ass]t$ itself 9 a reli% = ! horrible1 :i* r contradict$ ! mosquito incid5t4 ,bala visibly gloats ov] ! gory head ( ,golia?1 & int5sely admires ,david z he op]ates ^u x4 ,h] fav\rite "p ( ! /ory ab\t 8 enc\nt] ) ! lion is ! sugge/ive s5t5ce1 ,i caught him by ! be>d2 & ,bala loves to %[ y exactly h[ he did x4 ,b !n t is diff]5t f see+ x done2 & aft] all x is only a /ory1 & x happ5$ long ago4 ,i h told h[ ! ignorant once call$ ,bala prosaic4 ,bala kn[s no?+ ( poetry1 b is full ( ! little se$s ( t /range & wond]ful plant2 & ! "t to get to "k h] is :5 ! ev5+ sky is a gold5 blaze1 or gl[s ) t my/ic glory :i* wak5s some?+ )9 u & makes x /ir & speak4 ,god has n light$ ,8 fire to-night1 %e said wi/fully "o ev5+ :5 ! ,we/ 0 col\rless2 b :5 t fire is light$ %e /&s & gazes satisfi$4 ,:at does ,god d :5 ,8 fire goes out8 0 a "q on "o su* ev5+1 z ! m\nta9s d>k5$ 9 ! pass+ ( ! aft]-gl[2 & !n3 ,:y does ,he n light x e night8 ,amma6 ,i h look$ into ,heav56 %e said sudd5ly to me aft] a long sil5ce4 ,i h se5 q 91 & ,i "k :at x is l4 ,:at is x l8 ,c y tell me8 & ! *ild's voice answ]$ dreamily3 ,x 0 %9+1 v %9+4 ,!n ) animation1 9 brok5 b vivid ,tamil3 ,oh1 x 0 beautiful6 all a g>d5 l our g>d51 only bigg]1 & !re 7 fl[]s & fl[]s & fl[]s6--"h words fail$ to describe ! numb]1 & a compreh5sive sweep ( ! h& s]v$ in/ead4 ,& our dolls c walk !re4 ,!y nev] c d[n "h1 poor ?+s6 ,& ,jesus plays ) our babies !re 7! de> little si/]s :o h gone to ! nurs]y out ( sight1 b are un=gott5 by ! *ildr574 ,he plays ) ,indraneela--lovely games4 ,:at games1 ,bala8 ,i ask$1 wond]+ greatly :at %e w\ld say4 ,!re 0 a long1 ?\ghtful pause1 & ,bala look$ at me ) grave1 cont5t$ eyes3-- ,new games1 %e said simply4 ,bala's opposite is ,*ellalu4 ,we nev] made any mi/ake ab\t h]4 ,we nev] ?\ght h] good4 ,n t %e is impossibly bad4 ,%e 0 creat$ = play & = laught]1 & v happy babies are n (t5 v wick$2 b %e is s irrepressible1 s hopelessly giv5 up to fun1 t h] k9d]g>t5 tea*]1 ,rukma1 smiles a rueful smile at ! m5tion ( h] "n4 ,= to ,*ellalu ! mo/ unreasonable ?+ y c ask is implicit ob$i5ce1 :i* un=tunately is pref]r$ by u to any am\nt ( fun4 ,%e w le>n to obey1 we are n afraid ab\t t2 b m ?an any ( our *ildr51 h] attitude t[>ds ?is dem& has be5 "o ( prote/ & surprise4 ,%e ?9ks x unfair ( gr[n-up p to take advantage ( _! size 9 ! arbitr>y way !y d4 ,& :51 disgu/$ ) life's disp5sations1 %e condesc5ds to expo/ulate1 h] ,ba-a-a-a is a ?+ to affright4 ,b ?is is ! wrong side ( ,*ellalu1 & n = ev] 9 evid5ce4 ,! "r side is n s depress+4 ,x is a brilliant morn+ 9 late ,novemb]4 ,! _w1 all wa%$ & cool$ by ! ra9s1 has n _h "t to get hot & tir$1 & ! air has t cry/al quality :i* is ! *>m ( ?is season 9 ,s\? ,india4 ,e wr9kle on ! br[n trunks ( ! trees 9 ! comp\nd1 e twig & leaf1 /&s out ) a special di/9ctness ( its own1 & ! m\nta9s 9 ! di/ance gli/5 z if made ( preci\s /ones4 ,sudd5ly1 all unconsci\s ( aff9ity or contra/1 a little p]son 9 sc>let comes danc+ into ! picture1 :i* op5s to receive h]1 = %e belongs to x4 ,h] h&s are full ( ,gloriosa lilies1 fi]y r$1 t]ra-cotta1 yell[1 delicate old-rose & gre5--su* a m+l+ ( col\r1 b no?+ discordant--& ! *ild1 wav+ h] spoils above h] head1 s+s at ! top ( h] voice some?+ int5d$ to be ! *orus ( a k9d]g>t5 song3-- ,oh1 ! delight ( ! glori\s light6 ,! joy ( ! %9+ blue6 ,beautiful fl[]s6 wond]ful fl[]s6 ,oh1 ,i %\ld l to be y6 ,b1 ,*ellalu1 :]e did y get !m8 = ! lilies 9 ! g>d5 are suppos$ to be safe f attack4 ,*ellalu looks up ) frank1 br[n eyes4 ,= y6 %e says briefly 9 ,tamil2 b !re is a weal? ( =giv5ess 9 ! tone z %e (f]s h] armful ( fl[]s4 ,*ellalu wond]s at gr[n-up he>ts :i* c h>b\r unwor?y suspicions ab\t blameless little *ildr54 ,z if %e w\ld h pick$ !m6 ,b1 ,*ellalu1 :]e did y get !m8 & /ill look+ griev$ & surpris$ & =giv+1 ,*ellalu expla9s t ye/]day ev5+ ! eld] si/]s w5t = a walk 9 ! fields1 & br\ght home s _m lilies1 t aft] all j claims 7 met !re 7 /ill "s ov]--an expressive ge/ure %[s ! heap--s ,*ellalu ?\ght ( h] ,ammal 7"m7 & w5t & pick$ out ! be/ = h]4 ,!n by way ( emphasis ! /ory is attempt$ 9 ,engli%3 ,v good8 ,ye%4 ,naughty8 ,no4 ,k9d]g>t5 room want fl[]s8 ,no4 ,i 7patt+ h]self approv+ly7 v good2 ye%4 ,) ,*ellalu1 spee* is a m]e adjunct to conv]sation1 a sort ( footnote to a page ( illu/ration4 ,! illu/ration is ! ?+ t speaks4 ,s n[ bo? ,tamil & ,engli% are illum9at$ by vivid ge/ure ( h&s1 feet1 ! :ole body inde$2 curls & ev5 eyela%es play _! "p1 & ! f9al impression produc$ ^u h] que/ion] is "o ( complete contrition = ev] hav+ s misjudg$ a ?+ s virtu\s4 ,illu/ration3 ,,aiyo6 7,f+]s & toes curl$ 9 griev$ surprise47 ,did y ?9k ,i w\ld h done x8 ,b ,*ellalu wa/es no sympa?y ^u h]self4 ,%e is accu/om$ to be believ$2 & p]fectly happy 9 h] m9d1 ca/s a ke5 glance r\nd1 = :o kn[s :at new delights may be some:]e )9 rea*6 ,ah6--! deep-brea!d sigh ( cont5t--is always a dang] signal :]e ?is innoc5t *ild is conc]n$4 ,i turn 9 "t to av]t disa/]1 & ,*ellalu1 f9d+ life dull ) me1 dep>ts4 ,!n ! little sc>let figure ) its cr[n ( c>eless curls scamp]s across ! sunny space1 & dives into ! %ad[ ( a tree4 ,!re x /ays4 ,some?+ arre/+ has happ5$--"s skurry ( squirrel up ! trunk1 or d>t ( liz>d1 or hurri$ scramble ( insect1 "u cov] out ( rea* ( ^? t]rible eyes4 ,or bett] /ill1 some?+ is play+ dead1 & ! *ild1 fasc9at$1 is wait+ = x to resurrect4 ,& !n ! song ab\t ! lilies beg9s aga91 only x is all a jumble ?is "t2 = ,*ellalu s+s j z x comes1 untrammell$ by ?\ghts ab\t sequ5ce or s5se1 & :5 %e =gets ! words %e calmly makes !m up4 ,& ,i _c help ?9k+ t ,*ellalu is v l h] song2 "h is an intelligible bit1 a l9e or two 9 ord]1 !n a *e]ful tumble up1 & an irresponsible conclusion4 ,! tune too seems 9 "*--,spe$1 bonnie boat1 l a bird on ! w+2 ! sw++ old ,jacobite air _h fitt$ itself to a nurs]y song ab\t ! brave fire-lilies1 & some?+ 9 its ab&on to ! happy mood ( ! mom5t seems to express ! *ild4 ,x is n easy to express h]4 ,if y _h to describe ,*ellalu1 h[ w\ld y d x8 ,i ask$ my colleague ?is morn+1 hop+ = illum9ation4 ,i w\ld n attempt x6 ,:o w\ld8 %e answ]$ helpfully4 ,*ellalu6 ,oh1 y ne$ t5 pairs ( eyes & t5 pairs ( h&s1 & ev5 !n y c\ld nev] be sure y _h h]--?is 0 h] nurse's e>lie/ description4 ,%e 0 six mon?s old !n1 %e is ?ree & ?ree-qu>t]s n[2 b %e is :at %e 01 only m s4 ,be=e ,*ellalu _h a s+le too? %e _h develop$ "m-ways1 & w\ld com=t di/ress$ babies by ?ru/+ into _! op5 m\?s :atev] 0 mo/ conv5i5t4 ,at fir/ ?is 0 h] own small ?umb1 :i* %e _h once f\nd good h]self2 b %e soon discov]$ t infants c bite1 & aft] t %e (f]$ rattle-h&les4 ,lat]1 %e us$ to /agg] f "o hammock to ano!r & sw+ !m4 ,& (t51 be=e %e und]/ood ! p]fect art ( balance1 %e w\ld f9d h]self1 to h] surprise1 on ! floor1 z ! hammock 9 its reb\nd knock$ h] ov]4 ,%e felt ?is ungrateful ( ! baby inside2 b %e seem$ to reflect t x 0 "y & knew no bett]1 = %e nev] retaliat$1 b pick$ h]self up & began aga94 ,^! hammocks1 :i* are our ,s\? ,indian cradles1 are long /rips ( :ite cotton hung f ! ro(1 & !y make delightful sw+s4 ,*ellalu le>n$ ?is e>ly1 & h] nurse's life 0 a burd5 to h] because ( ! discov]y4 ,%e c\ld walk be=e %e c\ld /&--?is is ano!r nurs]y description1 & tru] ?an x s\nds4 ,c]ta9ly no "o ev] saw ,*ellalu le>n+ to walk4 ,%e 0 a baby "o day1 rapid 9 unexpect$ motion1 b only on all f\rs2 ! next day--or s x seems1 look+ back--%e 0 ev]y:]e on h] two feet4 ,n[ !re w be no place :]e %e won't be6 groan$ ! family1 ! fir/ "t %e 0 se5 walk+ ab\t ) an air ( hav+ done x all h] life4 ,& appall+ visions rose ( ,*ellalu /&+ on ! wall ( ! well look+ d[n1 or sitt+ 9 ! bucket left by "s c>eless wat]-draw] j on ! edge ( ! wall1 or try+ to desc5d by ! rope4 ,be=e ?is date su* div]sions z ! classic ,pattycake _h be5 mu* 9 fav\r4 ,*ellalu's ,attai 7! ^w "h & h]eaft] signifies ,mrs4 ,walk]1 ,"m's eld] si/]7 _h taught x to h]2 & :5ev] & :]ev] ,*ellalu saw h] ,attai1 %e imm$iately began to p]=m ,prick x & nick x ) great en?usiasm4 ,b aft] %e c\ld walk1 ,*ellalu w\ld h no?+ m to d ) su* *ildi% ?+s4 ,%[ u ,edw>d ,rajah6 ! old] *ildr5 w\ld say2 & in/ead ( /&+ up ) a regal dignity & cr[n+ h] curls ) ! appropriate ge/ure1 ,*ellalu w\ld m]ely look surpris$4 ,!y _h =gott54 ,%e 0 n a baby n[4 ,su* trifles are = babies4 ,,*apt] ,,iii ,! ,scamp ,,pat-,a-,,cake is a ?+ ( ! pa/1 b ! /age f ! highe/ po9t ( view is /ill di/9ctly attractive2 s decid$ ,*ellalu1 & resolv$ to devote h]self !nce=? to ?is new & engross+ pursuit4 ,%e *ose ! sc5e ( h] fir/ public p]=mance )\t consult+ u4 ,x 0 ! op5 floor ( ! *ur*1 on a ,sunday morn+1 9 ! mid/ ( a l>ge congregation4 ,?is 0 h[ x happ5$4 ,*ellalu's ,attai1 :o 9 ^? days 0 unaw>e ( all ! pa9ful surprises 9 /ore1 _h tak5 h] to morn+ s]vice1 & all[$ h] to sit beside h] on ! mat at ! back ( ! *ur*4 ,all ?r\gh ! fir/ "p ( ! s]vice ,*ellalu 0 good2 & z ! s]mon began1 %e 0 =gott54 ,9 our *ur* we sit on ! floor1 m5 on "o side1 wom5 & *ildr5 on ! o!r4 ,a broad aisle is left betwe51 & ! ,iy] 7,mr4 ,walk]71 refus+ to be box$ up 9 ! usual mann]1 walks up & d[n z he prea*es4 ,?is int]e/$ ,*ellalu4 ,t morn+ ! s]mon 0 to *ildr51 & ! subject 0 ,girdles4 ,! ,ea/ ( ?is anci5t ,india is ! ,ea/ to :i* ! prophet spoke by p>able & picture2 &1 foll[+ t "t-worn pa?1 ! prea*] pictur$ ! p>able ( ,j]emiah's l95 girdle3 ! att5tion ( ! p 0 rivet$ ^u him1 & no "o notic$ :at 0 happ5+ on ! mat at ! end ( ! *ur*4 ,only we1 up at ! front ) all ! o!r *ildr51 saw1 )\t be+ able to /op x1 ! dreadful pantomime4 ,= ,*ellalu1 :olly absorb$ & pleas$ ) ?is unexpect$ delight1 fir/ /ood on ! mat & act$ ! girdle picture2 !n1 gr[+ bold]1 advanc$ out into ! op5 aisle1 &1 foll[+ ! prea*]'s ge/ures1 reproduc$ !m all exactly4 ,x 0 a mom5t ( t5sion2 b if ev] a *ild _h a good angel 9 att5dance1 ,*ellalu has1 = some?+ always /ops h] be=e ! bitt] end4 ,i =get :at /opp$ h] !n2 some?+ invisible1 & s1 d\btless1 ! angel4 ,b we did n brea! freely till we _h h] safe at home4 ,illu/ration3 ,,*ellalu1 ,,wat*+ ,,! ,,picture-,,cat*] ,,) ,,"s ,,suspicion4 ,:atev] is he do+ ) t black box8 ,*ellalu's visible angel is ! g5tle ,esli1 a "y conv]t-help]1 ( a meek & l[ly disposition4 ,at fir/ sight no?+ seems m unsuitable1 = ,*ellalu ne$s a firm h&4 ,b firmness )\t wisdom w\ld h be5 disa/r\s2 s z we _h n ! p]fect comb9ation1 we *ose ! less dang]\s virtue1 & gave ! nurs]y scamp to ! g5tle/ ( u all4 ,sometimes1 to tell ! :ole unromantic tru?1 we h be5 afraid less ,esli 0 spill+ emotion 9 va9 ^u ?is graceless s\l2 & we h sugge/$ an ex*ange ( angels--b someh[ x has nev] come to pass4 ,once we almo/ did x4 ,= a noise pa/ all b\nds call$ u d[n to ! nurs]y1 & we f\nd ! cause ( x 9 a huddl$ heap 9 ! corn]4 ,*ellalu6 :at is ! matt]8 ,only ! s(te/ ( s(t sobs1 he>d 9 ! sil5ce t foll[$ our adv5t1 & "o r\nd %\ld] heav$1 & ! curly head w5t d[n on ! arm 9 an attitude ( woe4 ,n[ ?is is n ,*ellalu's way at all4 ,s(t sobb+ is n 9 h] l9e2 & ,i turn$ to ! tw5ty-n9e *ildr5 n[ pranc+ ab\t 9 unholy glee1 & !y %\t$ ! explanation3 ,oh1 %e is ,esli ,accal6 ,%e 0 v exce$+ly naughty4 ,%e w\ld n come :5 ,accal call$2 %e rac$ r\nd ! room s fa/ t ,accal c\ld n cat* h]1 & !n %e jump$ out ( h] cumasu 7! s+le small g>m5t worn71 & ran out into ! g>d56 ,& ,esli ,accal sat d[n 9 a corn] & cri$4 ,& ,*ellalu is ,esli ,accal6 ,b ! pet opportunity 9 ^? glad days 0 :5 "s freak ( mann] 9 fri5d or visitor sugge/$ a new game4 ,we us$ to wi%1 sometimes1 t ^! k9d p und]/ood h[ mu* pleasure !y 7 giv+ to ! artless babe :o 0 /udy+ !m ) su* int]e/1 :ile !y1 all unconsci\s ( _! real use1 imag9$ probably %e 0 ?9k+ ( no?+ m s]i\s ?an sweets4 ,aft] an h\r 9 ! bungal[1 ,*ellalu w\ld w&] (f1 app>5tly because %e 0 tir$ ( u1 b really because %e 0 full ( a new & orig9al idea1 & want$ an audi5ce4 ,once %e puzzl$ ! nurs]y community :o _h n be5 visit+ ! bungal[1 by m9c+ ab\t on po9t$ toes1 ) %\ld]s %rugg$ l a danc+ ma/] 9 c>icature4 ,! babies ?\ght ?is a v nice game1 & = weeks !y play$ x indu/ri\sly4 ,*ellalu talk$ late--%e has long ago made up = lo/ "t--b %e 0 nev] at a loss = an answ] to a "q :i* c\ld be answ]$ by action4 ,:o is 9 ! nurs]y n[8 we ask$ h] "o aft]noon :5 %e _h escap$ be=e ! tea-bell1 t trumpet ( jubilee to ! nurs]y1 _h rung4 ,%e smil$ & sat d[n sl[ly1 & !n sigh$4 ,ano!r sigh1 & %e proce$$ to p]=m h] toilet4 ,:5 ! small h&s w5t up to ! head ) an action ( decor\sly sw++ ! back hair up & coil+ x into a loose knot1 & :5 a spasmodic %ake sugge/$ x mu/ be done ov] aga91 !re 0 no d\bt z to :o 0 9 *>ge4 ,no "o b ! excell5t ,pakium1 "o ( our e>li] work]s1 ev] did ?+s q l ?is4 ,no "o else 0 s pond]\s4 ,no "o sigh$ 9 t middle-ag$ mann]1 no "o b ,pakium4 ,we nev] c\ld blame ,pakium = ,*ellalu's escape4 ,z well blame a mature cat = ! escapades ( h] kitt54 ,*ellalu1 wat*+ = a clue z to h] fate1 w\ld sigh aga9 pr(\ndly4 ,x 0 nev] easy to return h]4 ,illu/ration3 ,,oh1 ,,x',s ,a ,,joke6 ,we 7 n sorry :5 ?is phase pass$ into some?+ saf] = h]self1 ?\gh p]haps n s *>m+ to ! public4 ,*ellalu at two & ?ree-qu>t]s _h surgical ambitions4 ,m$ical "w %e consid]$ sl[4 ,%e lik$ op]ations4 ,h] fir/1 s f> z we "k1 0 p]=m$ ^u ! unwill+ eye ( a small] & weak] si/]4 ,lie d[n6 %e _h comm&$1 & ! pati5t _h la9 d[n4 ,op5 y\r eyes6 ,at ?is po9t ! victim realis$ :at %e 0 9 =1 & h] h[ls br\ght deliv]ance2 b n be=e ,*ellalu _h ! agitat$ baby's head 9 a firm grip betwe5 h] knees1 & hold+ ! screw$-up eye wide op5 ) "o h&1 0 proce$+ to drop 9 m$ic9e ) ! o!r4 ,m]cifully ! m$ic9e 0 wat]4 ,?w>t$ 9 ?is direction1 ,*ellalu appli$ h]self to b&ag+4 ,%e w\ld p]suade someone to l5d h] a f+] or a toe2 ! own] 0 assur$ x 0 sore--v sore4 ,%e w\ld !n proce$ to b&age x to ! be/ ( h] ability4 ,b all ?is 0 m]e play4 ,:at ,*ellalu's s\l ye>n$ = 0 a real knife1 or ev5 only a ne$le1 provid$ x w\ld prick & cause r$ blood to fl[4 ,oh to be all[$ to op]ate prop]ly1 z gr[n-up p d6 ,*ellalu _h se5 !m d x--_h se5 ?orns extract$ f little b>e feet1 & small sores dress$2 & x _h deeply int]e/$ h]4 ,! difficulty 01 no "o w\ld (f] a limb4 ,%e walk$ up & d[n ! nurs]y "o morn+ ) a bit ( an old milk t91 v jagg$ & %>p & invit+1 & secret$ 9 h] curls 0 a long1 bright d>n+ ne$le2 b ?\gh %e took s mu* tr\ble to prep>e1 no "o w\ld give h] a *ance to p]=m1 & ,*ellalu 0 disgu/$4 ,someone :o did n "k h] sugge/$ %e %\ld p]=m on h]self4 ,?is disgu/$ h] /ill m4 ,d doctors p]=m on !mselves6 ,*ellalu's late/ phase introduces ! k9d]g>t54 ,= an educational comrade1 p]ceiv+ our defects 9 ?is direction1 furni%$ a k9d]g>t5 = u1 & gave u a k9d pu%-(f into ^! pleasant wat]s2 s ! little boat sails gaily1 & ! *ildr5 at lea/ are cont5t4 ,*ellalu has nev] be5 s ke5 ab\t ?is in/itution z ! o!r babies are4 ,d y l ! k9d]g>t58 "s "o ask$ h] ! o!r day2 & %e answ]$ ) h] usual decision3 ,ye%4 ,no4 ,we ?\ght %e 0 talk+ at r&om1 & te/$ h] by que/ions ab\t ?+s :i* we knew %e lik$ or dislik$4 ,b %e 0 nev] caught4 ,well1 !n1 don't y l ! k9d]g>t58 ,ye%4 ,no4 ,x 0 evid5t %e knew :at %e meant1 & said x exactly4 ,bits ( x %e likes1 o!r bits %e ?9ks might be improv$4 ,! tr\ble is t %e has an objection to sitt+ 9 ! same place = m ?an a m9ute at longe/4 ,o!r babies1 /eady1 mature ?+s ( five1 are already evolv+ q ord]ly s5t5ces 9 ,engli%--! language 9 :i* ! k9d]g>t5 is p>tly taught--& we feel !y are gett+ on4 ,*ellalu nev] /ops long en\gh to evolve any?+1 & yet %e seems to be do+ a little4 ,f ! fir/ week %e has talk$ all %e knew 9 unaba%$ fa%ion4 ,good morn+ v mu* 0 an e>ly production2 & x 0 foll[$ by _m oddm5ts =gott5 n[1 b comical 9 effect at ! "t1 :i* p]haps may expla9 ! o!rwise inexplicable fact t %e sometimes le>ns some?+4 ,"o only ( ^? e>ly da%es into ! unexplor$ l& is rememb]$1 because x enri*$ u ) a new synonym4 ,x 0 at aft]noon tea t a sympa!tic ,sittie 7! ^w means ,"m's y\ng] si/]71 kn[+ t ,*ellalu _h receiv$ some?+ ?or\ghly well e>n$1 ask$ h] 9 ,engli%3 ,:at did ,ammal give y ?is morn+8 ,*ellalu caught at ! "o famili> ^w 9 ?is s5t5ce 7= ! babies le>n ! names ( ! fl[]s 9 ! g>d5 be=e !y are tr\bl$ ) less] matt]s71 & %e answ]$ brightly3 ,morn+-glory6 ,s ,morn+-glory has become to u an alias = smacks4 ,?is same ,morn+-glory is ! subject ( "o ( ! k9d]g>t5 songs4 ,= aft] se>*+ ?r\gh two or ?ree hundr$ pages ( nurs]y rhymes1 & int]view+ _m prop] k9d]g>t5 songs1 we f\nd few t belong$ to ! ,indian babies' _w2 & s we _h to make !m = ourselves4 ,^! songs are ab\t ! fl[]s & ! birds & o!r simple ?+s1 & are twitt]$ by ! t9ie/ ) at lea/ "s intellig5ce1 :i* at pres5t is z mu* z we c wi%4 ,all ! babies s+ to ! fl[]s1 b x is ,*ellalu :o gives !m surprises4 ,"o day we saw h] /&+ "u a bamboo ar*1 cov]$ ) h] fav\rite ,morn+-glory4 ,%e _h two small] babies ) h]1 "o on ei!r side4 ,amma6 ,look6 %e call$2 b italics are inadequate to express ! emphasis4 ,,look1 ,morn+--glory--kiss+--'*o!r1 & %e po9t$ ) eag]ness to ! ne/l+ little clu/]s ( lilac1 gr[+1 z _! pretty mann] is1 close to ea* o!r4 ,!n1 seiz+ ea* ( ! babies 9 a f]v5t & some:at emb>rass+ embrace1 %e hugg$ & kiss$ !m bo?2 & f9ally :eel+ r\nd on ! fl[]s1 address$ !m impressively3 ,=--all--lov+--little--,indian--*ildr5-- want-- to--be--l--y4 ,,*apt] ,,iv ,! ,photographs ,illu/ration3 ,,t ,,?+ ,,aga96 7,page #bh47 ,i ,,d n "k h[ !y w /rike ! critical public1 b ! photos are s mu* bett] ?an we d>$ to expect1 t we are grateful & almo/ satisfi$4 ,( c\rse1 !y are insipid z comp>$ ) ! lively orig9als2 b ! difficulty 0 to get !m ( any tru?ful sort :atsoev]1 = ! babies reg>d$ ! photograph]--! k9de/ & milde/ ( m5--) ! grave/ suspicion3 & ! mom5t he appe>$1 little faces1 all animation be=e1 w\ld /iff5 into %yness1 & ! light w\ld slip out ( !m1 & ! naturalness1 s t all ! cam]a saw1 & !re=e all x c\ld %[1 0 a succession ( blanks4 ,!n1 too1 :5 our arti/ fri5d 0 ) u we 7 9 ! grasp ( an epidemic ( *ol]a4 ,morn+ & ev5+1 & sometimes into ! night1 we 7 t5d+ ! sick & dy+ 9 ! village2 & 9 ! int]val betwe5 we _h little he>t = photographs4 ,b ! visit ( a real photograph] is a r>e ev5t 9 ,dohnavur1 & we =c$ ourselves to try to take advantage ( x4 ,rememb]+ our difficulties1 we wond] we got any?+ at all2 & we hope t /rang] eyes w be k9d4 ,illu/ration3 ,,py,,rie ,,& ,,v9ee?a4 ,d smile1 y little ,turk6 ,(t5 :5 we look$ at ! pretty little rev]s$ picture 9 ! cam]a1 ) its delicate col\r+ & ! grace ( movem5t1 we h wi%$ t we c\ld s5d x z we saw x1 all liv+ & true4 ,! photos 7 tak5 9 ! op5 air2 und]foot 0 s(t t]ra-cotta-col\r$ s&2 ov]head1 ! cl\dless blue4 ,9 su* a sett+ ! baby pictures look _! brighte/1 some?+ v diff]5t f ^! dull copies 9 sepia4 ,an ,ori5tal sc5e 9 pr9t always looks sorry = itself1 & q apologetic4 ,x kn[s x is almo/ a f>ce1 & v flat & poor4 ,!n !re 7 difficulties connect$ ) "*4 ,our photograph] 0 m accu/om$ to ! dignifi$ ways ( m\nta9s ?an to ! extremely re/less habit ( *ildr52 & he nev] c\ld und]/& :y !y w\ld n sit = him z ! m\nta9s sat1 & let him focus !m com=tably4 ,! babies look$ at ?+s f an opposite po9t ( view1 & /rongly object$ to delays & leisurel9ess ( e description4 ,sometimes :5 ! focuss+ process promis$ to be mu* prolong$1 we put a *ild we did n wi% to photograph 9 ! place ( "o ^u :om we _h designs1 & !n at ! la/ mom5t ex*ang$ h]4 ,b ! baby ?us beguil$ seem$ to div9e our purpose2 &1 res5t+ su* ensn>em5ts1 w\ld promptly wriggle out ( focus4 ,x 0 l try+ to obs]ve "s active animalcul "u a high p[]4 ,! microscope is p]fect1 ! creatures are entrapp$ 9 a drop ( wat] on ! slide2 b ! game is n won by any means4 ,sometimes1 aft] spoil+ m plates ?an 0 conv5i5t1 our arti/ almo/ gave up 9 despair2 b he nev] q gave up1 & we owe :at we h to 8 inf9ite pati5ce4 ,pyrie 0 ! mo/ tr\blesome ( ^! small sitt]s1 ?\gh %e 0 old en\gh to "k bett]4 ,my "m 0 ) u :5 %e came to u1 a t9y babe & v delicate4 ,%e _h lov$ h] & help$ to nurse h]1 & s we want$ a happy photograph = h] sake2 b no?+ 0 fur!r f ,pyrie's int5tions1 & in/ead ( smil+1 %e sc[l$4 ,our fir/ attempt 0 9 ! comp\nd1 :]e a bullock-b&y /ood4 ,pyrie & ,v9ee?a1 a little girl ( ab\t ! same age1 7 v pleas$ to climb ov] ! pole & untwi/ ! rope & play see-saw2 b :5 ! objectionable cam]a appe>$1 !y />$ at x ) av]sion1 & no am\nt ( coax+ w\ld p]suade ,pyrie to smile4 ,c't y d some?+ to improve h] expression8 inquir$ ! photograph]1 em]g+ f 8 black hood2 !n someone said 9 desp]ation3 ,d smile1 y little ,turk6 ,v9ee?a1 ab\t ^: expression we 7 n conc]n$1 ob$i5tly smil$2 b ,pyrie look$ ?und]cl\ds1 & turn$ h] head away4 ,%e 0 caught be=e %e turn$1 poor de>1 s t photograph 0 a failure4 ,once aga9 our k9d fri5d tri$4 ,?is "t he gave h] a doll4 ,pyrie is mo/ mo!rly4 ,%e is usually t5d] & lov+ ) dolls1 & we hop$ = a sweet expression4 ,b 9 ?is we 7 disappo9t$4 ,%e accept$ ! doll--a beautiful ?+1 ) a good con/itution & imp]turbable temp]2 & %e look$ x /raight 9 ! face--a rag face pa9t$--smil+ z we want$ h] to smile4 ,!n %e smote x1 & %e scold$ x1 & call$ = a /ick & :ack$ x1 & call$ = a bigg] /ick & repeat$ ! p]=mance4 ,f9ally %e /opp$1 laid ! doll ^u ! /ep1 sat d[n on x1 & smil$4 ,b %e 0 hopelessly out ( focus by ?is "t1 & x 0 we>y "w gett+ h] 94 ,%e smil$ dur+ ! process 9 a p]fectly exasp]at+ mann]1 b ! mom5t all 0 ready %e sudd5ly wriggl$ out2 & :5 invit$ to g 9 aga91 %e %ook h] head decid$ly1 & po9t+ to ! cam]a ) its gl>+ glass eye1 cov]$ at t mom5t ) its clo?1 %e rem>k$1 ,naughty6 ,naughty6 & we _h to give h] up4 ,illu/ration3 ,,disgu/+6 ,,%e ,,rem>k$ ,,9 ,,explicit ,,"y ,,tamil1 ,,& ,,look$ ,,disgu/$4 ,p]haps %e w\ld be happi] 9 someone's arms1 next sugge/$ ! long-suff]+ arti/2 & s "o morn+1 j aft] h] ba?1 %e 0 caught up1 sweet & smil+1 & play$ ) till ! peals ( m]ry laught] assur$ u ( an easy victory4 ,b ! cam]a 0 no soon] se5 /alk+ r\nd to ! nurs]y1 ?an suspicions fill$ ,pyrie's brea/4 ,t ?+ aga96 ,& ! photograph tak5 "u su* circum/ances is left to speak = itself4 ,:y did x foll[ h] ev]y:]e8 ,life1 haunt$ by a cam]a1 0 n wor? liv+--9 :i* s5tim5t "s ( u he>tily concur4 ,once an attempt 0 made :5 ,pyrie & two o!r little girls 7 busily play+ on ! door/ep4 ,pyrie soon p]ceiv$ & express$ h] op9ion ab\t ! fraud--= ! cam]a's /eal?y approa* c\ld n be kept f ! *ildr54 ,disgu/+6 %e rem>k$ 9 explicit "y ,tamil1 & look$ disgu/$4 ,! photograph :i* result$ 0 p]fect 9 detail ( little r\nd$ limb & curly head1 b x 0 lam5table z reg>ds expression2 s once m our p]sev]+ fri5d tri$ to cat* h] unaw>es4 ,he %[$ u ! result at breakfa/ 9 ! %ape ( a negative :i* we recognis$ z ,pyrie4 ,he seem$ v pleas$4 ,look at ! pose6 he said4 ,!re 0 pose c]ta9ly1 b :]e 0 ! smile8 ,pyrie's "o idea _h evid5tly be5 to w>d (f some?+ or someone2 & our arti/ expla9$ x by say+ t 9 despair ( gett+ h] quiet = "o second1 he _h direct$ 8 s]vant to climb an almo/ ov]hang+ tree1 & ! *ild app>5tly ?\ght he 0 go+ to tumble on ! top ( h]1 & object$4 ,i got ano!r ( h] smil+ beautifully1 b ! plate is crack$1 we 7 told1 aft] ! table _h admir$ ! pose4 ,t is a way plates h4 ,! "o y mo/ want cracks4 ,poor little ,pyrie2 we sometimes fe> le/ h] pose %\ld be too true ( h]4 ,%e takes life h>dly1 & (t5 prote/s4 ,i want a bir?day6--?is 0 only ye/]day1 :5 ev]yone 0 rejoic+ ov] a bir?day jubilation4 ,pyrie alone 0 sorr[ful4 ,%e /ood by h] poor little lonely self1 ) h] head ?r[n back & h] m\? wide op51 & h] te>s ran into h] op5 m\? z %e wail$3 ,aiyo6 ,aiyo6 7,alas6 ,alas67 ,i want a bir?day6 ,illu/ration3 ',,look ,,at ,,! ,,pose6' ,he said4 ,!re 0 pose1 c]ta9ly1 b :]e 0 ! smile8 7,page #bh47 ,b %e is su* a lov+ *ild1 s loyal to h] own & s unselfi% to all y\ng] ?+s1 t we hope = h] m ?an we fe>4 ,& yet und]nea? !re is a fe>2 & we ask ^? :o c und]/& to rememb] ?is little "o sometimes1 = ! _w is n always k9d to its poor little fooli% ,pyries4 ,i am writ+ 9 ! aft]noon1 & two little p are play+ on ! floor4 ,"o has a picture-book1 & ! o!r is look+ eag]ly z %e turns ! pages & que/ions3 ,:at is x8 ,:at is x8 ,i notice x is always ,pyrie :o asks ! "q1 & ,v9ee?a :o answ]s x3 ,x is a c[4 ,x is a cat4 ,:y don't y let ,v9ee?a ask y :at x is8 ,i sugge/2 b ,pyrie cont9ues z be=e3 ,:at is x8 ,:at is x8 v>i$ by ,:at col\r is x8 ,:at %ape is x8 ,:o made x8 & ! mis*ief 9 h] eyes 7w\ld t our arti/ c\ld h caught x67 expla9s ! game4 ,x is decid$ly bett] to be tea*] ?an s*ol>1 because suitable que/ions c cov] all ignorance4 ,pyrie has n be5 to ! k9d]g>t5 ( late1 & has reason to fe> ,v9ee?a is some:at ahead ( h]2 s %e ignores my proposals1 & cont9ues h] safe que/ions4 ,we sometimes ?9k we %all "o night be he>d talk+ 9 our sleep1 & ! burd5 ( our conv]sation w be always--,:at is x8 ,:at col\r is x8 ,:at %ape is x8 ,:o made x8 ,,*apt] ,v ,t>a & ,evu ,illu/ration3 ,,t>a4 ,,our nurs]ies are full ( contra/s1 b p]haps ! two :o are mo/ unlike are ! little ,t>a & ,evu1 ag$1 at ! h\r ( writ+1 ?ree ye>s & two & a half4 ,i am hamm]+ at my typewrit]1 :5 cle> ?r\gh its metallic monotony comes 9 di/9ct d\ble treble1 ,amma6 ,tala6 ,amma6 ,evu6 ,!y always ann\nce ea* o!r 9 ?is ord]1 & ) mu* emphasis4 ,if x is impossible to /op1 ,i give !m a few toys1 & !y sit d[n on ! mat exactly opposite my table & play cont5t$ly4 ,?is la/s = a %ort five m9utes2 !n a :imp] f ,t>a makes me look up1 & ,i see ,evu1 ) a face ( m mis*ief ?an malice1 hold+ all ! toys--,t>a's %>e & h] own--9 a tight armful1 :ile ,t>a po9ts at h] ) a griev$ expression :i* does n t\* ,evu 9 ! lea/4 ,a ^w1 h[ev]1 sets ?+s "r4 ,evu beams ^u ,t>a1 & p\rs ! :ole armful into h] lap4 ,t>a smiles =giv+ly1 & returns ,evu's %>e4 ,evu rep5tantly ?ru/s !m back4 ,t>a's he>t ov]fl[s1 & %e hugs ,evu4 ,evu wriggles out ( ?is embrace1 & !y play = ano!r five m9utes or s )\t fur!r misadv5ture4 ,only once ,i rememb] ,evu s9n$ beyond =giv5ess4 ,! occasion 0 ,pyrie's rag-doll ( smil+ c\nt5ance1 :i* _h be5 badly neglect$ by ! family4 ,b ,t>a felt = x & lov$ x4 ,%e 0 small at ! "t1 & ! doll 0 l>ge1 & ,t>a mu/ h got tir$ ( c>ry+ x2 b %e w\ld n tell x s1 & = "o :ole morn+ %e /agg]$ ab\t ) ! cumb]some beauty tilt$ ov] h] %\ld]1 :i* gave h] ! appe>ance ( an unbalanc$ b v affectionate p>5t4 ,?is 0 too mu* = ,evu1 to :om ! comic appeals mu* m ?an ! s5tim5tal4 ,%e wat*$ h] opportunity1 & p\nc$ ^u ! doll4 ,t>a gave *ase2 b ,evu's fat legs c c>ry h] fa/] ?an "o w\ld suppose1 & ,t>a's wails rose to a %riek :5 across half ! g>d5's wid? %e saw t ru?less s9n] sw+ h] treasure r\nd by "o arm & !n delib]ately jump on x4 ,x 0 h\rs be=e ,t>a recov]$4 ,su* a brea* ( ! peace is happily r>e2 = ! two are a pretty illu/ration ( ! mutual attraction ( opposites4 ,at ?is mom5t !y are play+ ball4 ,?is is ! mann] ( ! game3 ,t>a sits 9 a high *air & ?r[s ! ball z f> z %e c4 ,evu da%es aft] x l an excit$ kitt51 & kitt5-wise badly wants to tumble ov] & worry x2 = x is made ( bits ( wool1 :i*1 z e s5sible baby kn[s1 7 only put 9 to be pull$ out4 ,%e resi/s ! temptation1 h[ev]1 & pres5ts ! ball to ,t>a ) a some:at inconsequ5t ,tank\6 ,tank\6 returns ,t>a politely1 & tosses ! ball aga94 ,?is "t ,evu sits d[n ) h] back to ,t>a1 & proce$s to inve/igate ! ball4 ,x is p]fectly fasc9at+4 ,! ends are all loose & q easily pull$ out4 ,evu =gets all ab\t ,t>a 9 h] ke5 desire to see to ! f> end ( ?is delight4 ,evu6 comes f ! *air 9 acc5ts ( dignifi$ surprise4 ,tala6 exclaims ,evu aba%$1 & hurries up ) ! ball4 ,tank\6 %e says z be=e1 & ,t>a responds ,tank\6 ,?is is an integral "p ( ! game4 ,if ei!r =gets x1 ! o!r corrects h] by rem>k+ inquir+ly1 ,tank\8 :]eupon ! e*o replies 9 a tone ( apology1 ,tank\6 ,bo? ^! babies are dev\t1 z mo/ ?+s ,indian are4 ,b ,evu _c sit /ill long en\gh to be promot$ to g to *ur*2 & p]haps ?is is ! reason :y 9 religi\s matt]s ,t>a takes ! lead1 = %e does g to *ur*4 ,9 secul>ities x is always ,evu :o initiates1 & ,t>a admir+ly foll[s4 ,! ball game 0 exceptional only because ,evu pref]s ! rle ( kitt5 to t ( que54 ,?is little *>act]i/ic is %[n 9 common ways4 ,! two are sitt+ on y\r knee entirely com=table & cont5t4 ,! pray]-bell r+s4 ,d[n /ruggles ,t>a4 ,to pray]s ,i mu/ g6 %e says ) decision 9 ,tamil4 ,evu too1 urges ,evu1 also 9 ,tamil4 ,tum6 says ,t>a 9 sup]ior ,engli%1 & waits4 ,evu tums1 & !y ha/ily dep>t4 ,or x is ! "t = ev5+ hymns & good-night kisses4 ,we h sung ?r\gh ! *ief fav\rites1 end+ always )1 ,jesus1 t5d] ,%eph]d4 ,n[ s+1 ',oh1 luvvly lily g'o+ 9 our g>d56' ,?is f ,t>a4 ,e*o f ,evu3 ,yes2 ',oh1 luvvly lily g'o+ 9 our g>d56' ,y po9t out to ! g>d53 ,x is d>k1 !re are no lovely lilies to be se52 besides1 t is n exactly a hymn2 %all we h ',jesus1 t5d] ,%eph]d1' aga91 & say good-night8 ,b ?is is n at all satisfactory4 ,t>a looks a little hurt4 ,t5d] ,%epp]d1 no6 ,oh1 luvvly lily6 ,evu wond]s if we are mak+ excuses4 ,p]haps we h =gott5 ! tune1 & %e />ts x3-- ,oh1 lovely lily1 ,gr[+ 9 our g>d51 ,:o made a dress s fair ,= y to we>8 ,:o made y /raight & tall ,to give pleasure to u all8 ,oh1 lovely lily1 ,:o did x all8 ,oh1 little *ildr51 ,play+ 9 our g>d51 ,god made ?is dress s fair ,= u to we>4 ,god made u /raight & tall ,to give pleasure to y all4 ,oh1 little *ildr51 ,god did x all4 ,!n ,t>a smiles all r\nd1 & y are giv5 to und]/& y h e>n$ y\r good-night kisses4 ,evid5tly to ,t>a at lea/ !re is a s5se ( incomplet5ess some:]e if ! lovely lilies are exclud$ f ! family devotions4 ,to ,t>a & to ,evu1 z to mo/ babies1 ! g>d5 is a pleasant place4 ,b :5 !y gr[ up & make g>d5s1 !y w n fill !m ) =bidd5 joys z we d4 ,"o ( ! temptations ( life is furni%$ by inconsid]ate f]ns1 :i* hold _! curly infant fronds j )9 rea*4 ,!n !re are crotons1 ) bright leaves aggressively yell[ & delightful1 & !re are tunfl[]s2 & ! babies ?9k u gre$y 9 our attitude t[>ds all ^! ?+s4 ,! croton 0 especially allur+2 & "o day ,t>a 0 f\nd tiptoe on a l[ wall1 rea*+ up ) bo? h&s1 eag]ly pull+ bits ( leaf (f4 ,%e 0 br\ght to me to be judg$2 & ,i said3 ,poor leaves6 ,%all we try to put !m on aga98 ,& h& 9 h& we w5t to ! g>d51 & ,t>a tri$4 ,b ! pull$-(f bits w\ld n fit on aga92 & ,t>a's face 0 full ( s]i\s ?\ght1 ?\gh %e said no?+4 ,next day %e 0 f\nd on ! same l[ wall1 rea*+ up tiptoe 9 ! same s9ful way to ! %9+ yell[ leaves ov]head4 ,q sudd5ly %e /opp$1 put h] h&s beh9d h] back1 & nev] aga9 0 %e kn[n to pick croton leaves to pieces4 ,! same plan prevail$ ) ! f]ns4 ,! poor little crumples ( silv] & gre5 mov$ h] to pity1 & %e left !m to uncurl 9 peace :5 once %e _h tri$ & sadly fail$ to help !m4 ,b ! sunfl[]s' feel+s did n affect h] 9 q ! same way4 ,! k9d we h 9 abundance is t little dw>f v>iety ) a ?9 /alk1 & a *e]ful face :i* smiles up at y ev5 aft] y behead x1 & does n seem to m9d4 ,t>a 0 conv9c$ su* treatm5t did n hurt !m4 ,!y w\ld /op smil+ if x did4 ,b "o day %e sudd5ly seem$ to feel a pang ( compunction1 = %e look$ at ! little useless heads & sigh$4 ,i _h sugge/$ _! be+ fitt$ on aga91 z ) ! croton leaves & f]ns4 ,b ?is idea _h fail$2 & :at work$ ! *ange ,i "k n1 = ,t>a nev] told4 ,b tunfl[]s n[ are left 9 peace s f> z %e is conc]n$2 & %e is le>n+ to pick ! free grasses & wild-fl[]s1 :i* happily gr[ = ev]ybody1 & to make sure _! /alks are long en\gh to g into wat]1 :i* is ! la/ ?+ untutor$ babies seem to ?9k important4 ,!re is mu* to be done = all our *ildr51 b p]haps = ,t>a especially1 if %e is to gr[ up /rong 9 s\l to fight ! battles ( life4 ,we felt ?is m ?an ev] on ! day ( our la/ return f ! hills1 aft] ne>ly sev5 weeks' abs5ce4 ,on ! ev5+ :5 we left !m1 we _h gone r\nd ! nurs]ies aft] ! little ones _h fall5 asleep1 & said goodbye to ea* ( !m )\t _! kn[+ x2 b :5 we came to ,t>a's mat1 & kiss$ ! little sleep+ face1 %e /irr$ & said1 ,amma6 9 h] sleep2 & we /ole away fe>+ %e %\ld wake & und]/&4 ,n[ 9 ! e>ly morn+ we 7 home aga91 & all ! *ildr5 :o 7 up 7 on ! v]&ah to welcome u1 ea* 9 h] own way4 ,x 0 ,t>a's way :i* tr\bl$ u4 ,at fir/ mo/ ( ! babies 7 %y1 = six weeks are l six ye>s to ! v "y2 b soon !re 0 a g5]al ru% & a ?or\ghly *e]ful *att]4 ,t>a did n jo9 9 x4 ,%e /ood outside ! little danc+ dazzle ( delight--! confusion ( little animat$ col\r$ dots is r l ! %ake ( a kaleidoscope--& %e j look$ & look$4 ,!n1 z we drew h] close1 ! little h&s felt & /rok$ "o's face z if ! evid5ce ( eye & e> 7 n en\gh to make h] sure beyond a d\bt t h] own _h come back to h]2 & !n1 z ! assurance broke1 %e clung ) a little cry ( joy1 & sudd5ly bur/ into te>s4 ,if only we c\ld hold h] safe & %elt]$ 9 our arms = ev]6 ,h[ ! long+ swept ?r\gh "o at t mom5t3 = ! w9ds ( ! _w are cold4 ,b x _c be1 x %\ld n be1 = su* love w\ld be weak inde$4 ,r d we long to brace ! g5tle nature s t its v s5sitiv5ess may *ange to a t5d] p[]1 & ! f\nta9 ( sweet wat]s refre% _m a des]t place4 ,b :o is suffici5t = ev5 ?is8 ,h&le ! little s\l c>elessly1 h>d5 r ?an brace1 mis9t]pret ! brok5 expression1 misund]/& ! signs--& ! sweet wat]s turn to bitt]ness4 ,god save u f su* mi/ake6 ,we covet pray] = our *ildr54 ,we want to "k t ar\nd !m all is ?r[n t my/]i\s veil ( protection :i* is wov5 out ( pray]4 ,we ne$ pray]1 too1 = ourselves1 t our love may be brave & wise4 ,evu's disposition is diff]5t4 ,x w\ld n be easy to imag9e ,evu ov]come by h] feel+s z ,t>a 0 at t h\r ( our return4 ,"o _c imag9e a kitt5 %$d+ te>s ( joy2 & ,evu is a kitt51 a de> little ,p]sian kitt51 ) no?+ worse ?an mis*ief at pres5t to acc\nt =4 ,( t !re is no lack4 ,oh1 x is ,evu6 we say1 & ev]yone kn[s :at to expect :5 x is ,evu4 ,evu's *ief s5tim5t t morn+1 s f> z %e express$ x1 0 r "o ( wond] at our ignorant audacity4 ,y vani%$ 9 ! night :5 we 7 all asleep1 & n[ y sudd5ly drop f ! skies be=e we are prop]ly awake1 & expect u all to beg9 aga9 exactly :]e we left (f4 ,h[ little y "k ( babies6 ,d\btless ?is s5t5ce 0 some:at beyond h] 9 language2 b ,evu is n dep5d5t on language1 & %e convey$ ! s5se ( x to u4 ,%e back$ out ( rea* ( kisses1 & /ood ) a small f+] uprais$2 mu* z a kitt5 might raise its paw 9 mock prote/ to its "m4 ,%e soon made fri5ds1 h[ev]1 & prov$ h]self an affectionate kitt51 ?\gh :olly unemotional4 ,:5 ,t>a is naughty1 z %e is at times1 l mo/ p ( only ?ree1 a reproa*ful look br+s h] spirits d[n to ! l[e/ dep?s ( di/ress4 ,evu is m incl9$ to hold up t funny little w>n+ fir/ f+]1 & %ake x /raight 9 y\r face4 ,?is1 at two & a half1 is t]rible presumption2 b ! br[n eyes are s innoc5t1 y _c be too %ock$4 ,sometimes1 h[ev]1 ! case is worse1 & ,evu tries to sulk4 ,%e sits d[n solemnly on ! gr\nd1 & ?r[s h] f\r fat limbs ab\t 9 a dreadful recklessness1 suppos$ to /rike ! gr[n-up (f5d] dumb ) awe & p5it5ce4 ,sometimes %e ev5 tries to put out h] l[] lip1 b x 0 n made a suitable %ape1 = x smiles 9 spite ( itself2 & !n !re is a sudd5 spr+2 & two little arms are r\nd y\r neck1 & y are be+ told1 if y "k h[ to li/51 :at a v tiresome ?+ x is to feel oblig$ to s94 ,!n1 ) ! com=t+ s5se ( irresponsible kitt5hood fully re/or$1 ,evu discov]s "s new div]sion1 & y f9d y\rself weakly wi%+ kitt5s ne$ n gr[ into cats4 ,,*apt] ,,vi ,pr9cipalities1 ,p[]s1 ,rul]s ,,x may seem a quick transition f nurs]y to battle-field2 b rightly to und]/& ?is /ory1 x mu/ be rememb]$ t our nurs]y is set 9 ! mid/ ( ! battle-field4 ,x is a little %elt]$ place1 :]e no s\nd ( w> di/urbs ! babies at _! play1 & ! fl[]s bloom l ! babies 9 happy unconsci\sness ( battles1 & make a g>d5 = u & fill x full ( peace2 b und]ly+ ! babies' c>esses & ! sweetness ( ! fl[]s !re is always a s5se ( conflict j ov]1 or soon com+ on4 ,we let ! ela/ic g 9 ! nurs]y4 ,we are happy1 light-he>t$ *ildr5 ) our *ildr52 sometimes we ev5 wond] at ourselves2 & !n rememb] t ! happ9ess ( ! mom5t is a pure1 bright gift1 n meant to be exam9$1 b j enjoy$1 & we enjoy x z if !re 7 no battles 9 ! _w or any sadness any m4 ,& yet ?is book comes hot f ! fight4 ,x is n a retrospect writt5 9 ! calm aft]-ye>s1 :5 ! outl9e ( ?+s has gr[n indi/9ct & ! %>pness ( life is blurr$4 ,!re is no?+ mell[$ ab\t a battle-field4 ,ev5 z ,i write ^! words1 ! po/ comes 9 & br+s two lett]s4 ,"o tells ( a *ild ( twelve 9 :om ! fir/ fa9t desires h awak5$ to lead a diff]5t life4 ,%e is a ,temple girl4 ,pray t %e may h grace to hold on2 & t if %e does1 we may be guid$ ?r\gh ! difficult legal complications4 ,poor little girl6 ,x makes "o sick to ?9k ( h] spoil$ "y life6 ,! o!r is a ,tamil lett]1 ab\t ano!r *ild :o is 9 e>ne/1 s f> z ! writ] c asc]ta91 to escape f ! life plann$ out = h]4 ,%e le>n$ ab\t ,jesus at s*ool1 & respond$ 9 h] simple way2 b 0 sudd5ly tak5 f s*ool1 & %ut up 9 ! back "p ( ! h\se & n all[$ to le>n any m4 ,l a little dove flutt]+ 9 a cage1 s %e seem$ to me4 ,b %e is a timid dove1 & ! h\se is full ( wick$ness4 ,h[ w %e hold out aga9/ x8 ,by ,god's grace ,i 0 all[$ to see h] = "o mom5t alone4 ,i gave h] a little ,gospel4 ,%e kiss$ x ) h] eyes 7t\*$ h] eyes ) x71 & hid x 9 h] dress4 ,only a little :ile ago we trac$ a bright "y ,brahman girl to a c]ta9 ,temple h\se1 & by means ( "o ( our work]s we made fri5ds ) h]4 ,! *ild1 a little wid[1 0 ill1 & 0 s5t to ! municipal hospital = m$ic9e4 ,x 0 !re our work] met h]1 & ! *ild :isp]$ h] /ory 9 a few hurri$ words4 ,%e _h be5 kidnapp$ 7%e _h n "t to tell h[71 & %ut up 9 ! ,temple h\se1 & told %e mu/ obey ! rules ( ! h\se & x 0 useless to prote/4 ,if we c\ld help y1 %e 0 ask$1 w\ld y l to come to u8 ,! *ild hesitat$--! v "n ,*ri/ian 0 abhorr5t to h]--b aft] a mom5t's d\bt %e nodd$1 & !n slipp$ away4 ,our work] nev] saw h] aga94 ,! conv]sation mu/ h be5 notic$ by ! *ild's escort1 & report$4 ,%e 0 s5t (f to ano!r t[n1 & all attempts to trace h] fail$4 ,& ! god to :om ^! "y *ild-lives are d$icat$8 ,9 ,s\? ,india all ! great] symbols ( deity are seclud$ 9 ! inn]mo/ %r9e1 ! he>t ( ! ,temple4 ,9 our "p ( ! c\ntry ! approa* to ! %r9e is always frequ5t$ by ,brahman prie/s1 :o w\ld nev] all[ ! =eign] ne>1 ev5 if he wi%$ to g ne>4 ,f>1 f>6 remove ?yself f>6 w\ld be ! imm$iate comm&1 did any pollut+ pres5ce presume to draw ne> ! %r9e4 ,!re are idols by ! roadside1 & ^! are op5 to all2 b !y are less] creations4 ,! ,great1 z ! p call t :i* ! ,temple conta9s1 is some?+ ap>t4 ,x is to ^!--,! ,great--t little *ildr5 are d$icat$2 ! :ole ,temple sy/em is work$ 9 _! "n4 ,h y ev] se5 ! god to :om y\r little ones w\ld h be5 giv58 is a "q we are (t5 ask$2 & until a few days ago we always answ]$1 ,nev]4 ,b n[ we h se5 x1 se5 x unexpect$ly & un9t5tionally1 z we wait$ = an opportunity to talk to ! cr[ds ( p :o _h assembl$ to see x be+ c]emonially ba!d4 ,we _c acc\nt = our be+ all[$ to see x1 except by ! fact t ! ,brahmans _h )drawn = ! mom5t1 & we be+1 z our cu/om is1 9 ,indian dress1 7 n notic$ 9 ! cr[d4 ,ne> ! place :]e ! idol 0 be+ ba!d1 ) mu* pomp by ! prie/s1 0 a little re/-h\se1 :]e we _h wait$ till "s *ild told u all 0 ov]4 ,!n we came out & m+l$ ) ! ?rong1 n fe>+ !y w\ld misund]/& our motive4 ,:ile we talk$ ) !m1 ! ,brahmans1 :o _h be5 ba?+ 9 ! riv] aft] ! wat] _h be5 sanctifi$ by ! god1 began to /ream up ! /eps & pass ?r\gh ! cr[d1 :i* op5$ respectfully & made a wide av5ue )9 itself3 = well ! smalle/ *ild 9 t cr[d und]/ood t no t\* might defile ^? ,brahmans z !y walk$1 wr++ out _! dripp+ g>m5ts & _! long black hair4 ,h[ we se>*$ ! faces z !y pass$6--s5sual1 cynical1 cold faces1 faces ( utt] c>elessness1 faces full ( pride & alo(ness4 ,b !re 7 "s s diff]5t--e>ne/ faces1 ke5 faces1 faces s5sitive & spiritual4 ,oh1 ! pa?os ( x all6 ,h[ our he>ts w5t out to ^!1 ^: eag] wi/fulness m>k$ !m out z truly religi\s & s9c]e6 ,h[ we long$ t !y %\ld he> ! ^w1 ,come unto ,me1 & ,i w give y re/6 ,!y pass$1 m5 "y & old1 wom5 & *ildr51 & v _m wid[s2 & !n sudd5ly two palanqu9s :i* _h be5 /&+ ne> 7 c>ri$ d[n to ! awn+ :]e ! idol _h be5 ba!d2 & be=e we realis$ :at 0 happ5+1 !y pass$ u4 ,9 ! fir/ 0 ! disk1 ! symbol ( ! god2 9 ! second1 ! god itself4 ,we wre/le n aga9/ fle% & blood2 b aga9/ pr9cipalities1 aga9/ p[]s1 aga9/ ! rul]s ( ! d>kness ( ?is _w1 aga9/ spiritual wick$ness 9 high places--?is 0 ! ^w t fla%$ ?r\gh u !n4 ,t small1 insignificant1 pa9t$1 & bejewell$ image1 9 its gaudy little palanqu91 0 n only t4 ,x 0 ! visible repres5tative ( ,p[]s4 ,we ?\ght ( a m]ry *ild 9 our nurs]y :o 0 d$icat$ at bir? to ?is p>ticul> ,p[]4 ,by "s glad *ance t little girl 0 ! fir/ to run up to u 9 welcome ^u our return home 9 ! ev5+4 ,we ?\ght ( h] ) ?ankfulness :i* _c be express$2 b ! sorr[ ( o!r *ildr5 b\nd to ?is same god swept ov] u z we /ood gaz+ aft] ! palanqu9s1 till !y became a col\r$ blur 9 ! %imm]+ sun%9e4 ,!re 0 "o su*1 a bright little *ild ( eight1 :o 0 9 att5dance ^u an old bl9d woman belong+ to t ,temple4 ,yes1 %e _h answ]$ to our di/ress$ que/ions1 %e is my adopt$ daught]4 ,%\ld ,i n h a daught] to wait ^u me & succe$ me8 ,h[ c ,i s]ve ! god1 be+ bl9d8 ,we ?\ght ( ano!r1 only six1 :o 0 to be giv5 to ! s]vice :5 %e 0 a suitable age4 ,h] p>5ts 7 half-pr\d & half-a%am$ ( _! int5tion2 & :5 !y knew we 7 aw>e ( x1 !y d5i$ x1 & we f\nd x impossible to d any?+4 ,we turn$ to ! p ab\t u4 ,!y 7 laugh+ & *att+1 & ! wom5 7 %[+ ea* o!r ! pretty glass bangles & necklets !y _h b\ght at ! fair4 ,glori\s sun%9e fill$ ! _w1 ! :ole bright sc5e sp>kl$ ) life & col\r1 & all ab\t u 0 a lucid p>adise ( air4 ,b only z s\ls we saw ! folk !reund]1 & our _s 0 /irr$ )9 u4 ,!re is some?+ v solemn 9 su* a sc5e--some?+ t mu/ be exp]i5c$ to be und]/ood4 ,! pitiful triviality1 ! s5se ( trem5d\s =ces at "w among ^! trivialities2 ! p1 ^! cr[ds ( p1 absorb$ 9 ! int]e/s ( ! mom5t--& ,et]nity s ne>2 all ?is & mu* m presses h>d ^u ! _s till "o und]/&s ! old ,hebrew ^w3 ,! burd5 :i* ! prophet did see4 ,does ?is s\nd intol]ant & n>r[1 z if no good exi/$ outside our own little pale8 ,surely x is n s4 ,we are n ignorant ( ! l(ty & ! noble conta9$ 9 ! anci5t ,h9du books2 we are n ( ^? :o _c recognise any tru? or any beauty unless x is labell$ ) our label4 ,we "k ,god has n left ,himself )\t witnesses any:]e4 ,b we "k--= ! ,_s ( ,tru? ,himself has inspir$ ! description--h[ desolate is ! condition ( ^? :o are )\t ,*ri/4 ,we d>e n wat] d[n ! =ce ( su* a description till ! words mean practically no?+4 ,we =m no h>d1 presumptu\s cre$ z to h[ ! ,god ( all ! e>? w deal ) ^! masses ( mank9d :o h miss$ ! k ( ,him "h2 we "k ,he w d "r4 ,b we "k1 ) a k :i* is burnt into u1 h[ v _m ( ! units live :o compose ^! masses4 ,we "k :at !y are miss+ to-day1 ?r\gh n kn[+ our bless$ ,savi\r z a p]sonal1 liv+ ,fri5d2 & we "k :at x means to ! ?\ghtful m9d to face an unkn[n to-morr[4 ,a ,h9du 9 a t[n 9 ! nor!rn "p ( our di/rict lay dy+4 ,he knew t dea? 0 ne>1 & he 0 9 great di/ress4 ,8 fri5ds tri$ to com=t him by rem9d+ him ( ! gods1 & by quot+ /anzas f ! sacr$ books2 b all 9 va94 ,no?+ br\ght him any com=t1 & he cri$ al\d 9 8 angui% ( s\l4 ,!n to "o ( ! wat*]s came ! remembrance ( h[1 z a little lad1 he _h se5 a ,*ri/ian die4 ,9 8 desp]ation at ! failure ( all attempts to com=t ! dy+ man1 he ?\ght ( ?is "o little1 f>-back memory2 & ?\gh he c\ld h>dly d>e to hope !re w\ld be mu* help 9 x1 he told x to 8 fri5d4 ,! ,*ri/ian 0 ,ragl&1 ! mission>y4 ,he 0 liv+ 9 a little h\se outside ! t[n1 :5 a sudd5 hmorrhage surpris$ him1 & he _h no "t to prep>e = dea?4 ,he j ?rew himself ^u 8 b$1 & look+ up1 exclaim$1 ,jesus6 & pass$ 9 p]fect peace4 ,outside ! w9d[ 0 a little ,h9du boy1 unobs]v$ by any 9 ! h\se4 ,he _h climb$ up to ! w9d[1 &1 lean+ 91 wat*$ all t happ5$1 he>d ! "o ^w ,jesus1 saw ! quick & peaceful pass+2 & !n slipp$ away unnotic$4 ,! dy+ ,h9du li/5$ z 8 fri5d describ$ x to him4 ,& ?is little fa9t ray 0 ! only ray ( com=t t light5$ ! d>k way = him4 ,comp>e t exp]i5ce ) ?is3-- ,! mission>y to :om ?is tale 0 told by ! ,h9du :o _h tri$ to console 8 dy+ fri5d1 0 himself smitt5 ) dang]\s illness1 & lay 9 ! dim bord]l&1 unable to ?9k or frame a pray]4 ,!n l ! melody ( long famili> music1 )\t ef=t1 )\t /ra91 came ! calm+ words ( ! old pray]3 ,light5 our d>kness1 we besee* ,!e1 ,o ,"l2 & by ,?y great m]cy def5d u f all p]ils & dang]s ( ?is night2 = ! love ( ,?9e only ,son1 our ,savi\r1 ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,c\ld any two sc5es pres5t a m mov+ contra/8 ,c\ld any contra/ conta9 a m p]suasive call8 ,z we w5t 9 & out among ! cr[d1 !re 7 _m :o turn$ away un9t]e/$2 b "s li/5$1 & "s sat d[n by ! wayside to read al\d1 9 ! s+-song *ant ( ! ,ea/1 ! little booklets or ,gospels we gave !m4 ,we1 :o are con/antly among ^! p1 feel our ne$ ( a fre% t\*1 z we speak ) !m & see !m day by day4 ,we ne$ r5ew$ compassions1 r5ew$ e>ne/ness4 ,x is easy to gr[ accu/om$ to ?+s1 easy to get cool4 ,we pray n only = ^? at home1 :o z yet are n awake to feel ! eloqu5ce & ! pite\sness ( ! great voiceless sil5ce ( ^! l&s1 b we pray = ourselves ) ev] deep5+ int5sity3-- ,oh = a love1 = a burn+ love1 l ! f]v5t flame ( fire6 ,oh = a love1 = a ye>n+ love1 t w nev]1 nev] tire6 ,"l1 9 my ne$ ,i appeal unto ,!e2 ,oh1 give me my he>t's desire6 ,,*apt] ,,vii ,h[ ! ,*ildr5 ,come ,,!y come 9 _m ways ?r\gh ! help ( _m fri5ds4 ,we h told be=e,a h[ our fir/ two babies came to u ?r\gh two pa/ors1 "o 9 ! nor?1 ! o!r 9 ! s\? ( our di/rict4 ,s9ce !n _m ,indian pa/ors & work]s1 & sev]al w>m-he>t$ ,*ri/ian apo!c>ies & nurses 9 ,gov]nm5t s]vice1 h become int]e/$2 ) ! result t little *ildr5 :o mu/ o!rwise h p]i%$ h be5 sav$4 ,"o little babe1 :o has s9ce become "o ( our v de>e/1 0 r$eem$ f ,temple life by ! wife ( a lead+ pa/or1 :o 0 wond]fully br\ght to ! v place :]e ! little *ild 0 wait+ = ! arrival ( ! ,temple p4 ,we h seldom kn[n a m def9ite lead+4 ,i be+ 9 ! way1 ! ,"l l$ me1 0 surely true ( t fri5d t day1 & ( o!r ,indian si/]s :o help$ h]4 ,lat]1 :5 %e came to /ay ) u1 %e told u ab\t x4 ,:5 fir/ ,i he>d ( ?is new "w1 ,i 0 n 9 sympa?y ) x4 ,i ev5 talk$ aga9/ x to o!rs4 ,b :5 ,i saw t little babe1 s innoc5t & helpless1 & s beautiful too1 !n all my he>t w5t out to x4 ,& n[---- ,te>s fill$ h] eyes4 ,%e c\ld n f9i% h] s5t5ce4 ,nor 0 !re any ne$2 ! lov+ ,indian he>t _h be5 won4 ,my "m 0 ) u :5 ?is baby came2 & %e adopt$ h] z h] own f ! fir/1 & always _h ! little basket 9 :i* ! baby slept put by h] b$side4 ,:5 ! mosquitoes began to be tr\blesome1 ! basket 0 slipp$ "u h] own mosquito net1 le/ ! little p9k blossom %\ld be di/urb$4 ,b ! baby did n ?rive at fir/2 & ! p9k1 in/ead ( pass+ into buff1 began to fade into some?+ too ne> ivory = our peace ( m9d4 ,x 0 !n ! fri5d :o _h sav$ ! little "o came to /ay ) u2 & %e propos$ tak+ h] & h] nurse out to h] c\ntry village1 9 hopes ( gett+ a fo/]-"m = h] !re4 ,s my "m1 ! pa/or's wife1 ! baby1 & h] nurse1 w5t out to ! ,good ,news ,village1 & /ay$ 9 ! pa/or's hospitable home4 ,! hope :i* _h drawn !m !re 0 n fulfill$2 b ! memory ( t visit is fre% & fragrant4 ,we read ( ali5ation betwe5 ,indian ,*ri/ians & mission>ies4 ,we are told !re _c be mu* mutual affection & contact4 ,we (t5 wond] :y x %\ld be s1 & are glad we "k by exp]i5ce s little ( ! difficulty1 t we _c und]/& x4 ,we h f\nd ,india fri5dly1 & h] ,*ri/ians are our fri5ds4 ,9 ^! matt]s ea* c only speak f p]sonal exp]i5ce4 ,ours has be5 happy4 ,!re may be unk9dness & misund]/&+ 9 ,india1 z 9 ,engl&2 b n[h]e c\ld !re be w>m] love1 m t5d] affection4 ,all sorts ( p help u 9 ?is "w ( sav+ ! *ildr54 ,once x 0 a conv]t-s*oolboy :o saw a wid[ ) a baby 9 h] arms4 ,notic+ ! bright l>ge eyes1 & :at he describ$ z ! blossom+ c\nt5ance ( ! *ild1 he got into conv]sation ) ! "m1 & le>n$ t %e _h be5 greatly tempt$ by ,temple wom5 9 ! t[n1 :o _h admir$ ! baby & want$ to get x4 ,if ,i give h] to !m1 %e w nev] be a wid[1 0 ! allurem5t !re4 ,! bitt]ness ( wid[hood _h ent]$ into h] s\l1 & poison$ ! v "m-love )9 h]2 & yet !re 0 some?+ ( x left1 = %e did n want h] babe to be a wid[4 ,! boy1 ) ! leisurel9ess ( ! ,ea/1 dropp$ ! matt] !re2 & only 9 a casual fa%ion1 a week or s lat]1 m5tion$ 9 a lett] t he _h se5 ?is pretty *ild1 & t probably1 ! "m w\ld end 9 yield+ to ! temptation to give h] to ! ,temple--b x may be by ! grace ( ,god t y w be able to save h]4 ,we s5t at once to try to f9d ! "m2 b %e _h w&]$ (f1 & no "o knew h] home4 ,h[ev]1 ! boy 0 /irr$ to pray]1 & we pray$ "h2 & a se>* ?r\gh t[ns & villages result$ at la/ 9 ! "m be+ trac$ & ! *ild be+ sav$4 ,*ri/ian wom5 h help$ u4 ,"o su*1 sitt+ on h] v]&ah aft] h] morn+'s "w1 he>d two wom5 9 ! adjo9+ v]&ah discuss ! case ( a wid[ :o _h come f ,travancore ) a bright little baby-girl1 :om %e _h v[$ %e w\ld give to "o ( our l>ge/ temples4 ,! ,*ri/ian woman _h he>d ( ! ,dohnavur nurs]ies1 & at once %e long$ to save ?is little *ild1 b h>dly knew h[ to d x4 ,%e fe>$ to tell ! two wom5 %e _h ov]he>d _! conv]sation1 s 9 ! simplicity ( h] he>t %e pray$ t ! wid[ might be deta9$ & kept f (f]+ h] gift till our work]1 old ,dvai1 c\ld come2 & %e wrote to old ,dvai4 ,happily ,dvai 0 at home :5 ! lett] rea*$ h]2 o!rwise days w\ld h be5 lo/1 = h] w&]+s are _m4 ,%e w5t at once1 & f\nd ! "m mo/ reasonable4 ,h] idea _h be5 to acquire m]it = h]self1 & an assur$ future = h] *ild1 by giv+ x to ! gods2 b :5 ! matt] 0 op5$ to h]1 %e 0 will+ to give x to u in/ead4 ,9 h] case1 z 9 ! o!r1 our natural in/9ct w\ld h be5 to try to make "s provision by :i* ! mo!rs c\ld keep _! babies2 b x w\ld n h be5 possible4 ,! cruel law ( wid[hood _h begun to d its "w 9 !m4 ,! ,temple p's inducem5ts w\ld h prov$ too mu* = !m4 ,! *ildr5 w\ld n h be5 safe4 ,once x 0 a man-s]vant :o sav$ a lovely *ild4 ,he he>d an aside 9 ! m>ket :i* put him on ! track4 ,! case 0 v usual4 ,! p>5ts 7 dead1 & ! gr&mo!r 0 9 difficulties4 ,= ! p>5ts' sake %e want$ to keep ! de> little babe2 b %e 0 old1 & _h no relatives to ^: c>e %e c\ld commit x4 ,m]cifully we 7 ! fir/ to he> ab\t ?is little "o2 = ev5 z a baby %e 0 s w9n+ t ,temple p w\ld h done mu* to get h]1 & ! old gr&mo!r w\ld almo/ c]ta9ly h be5 beguil$ into giv+ h] to !m4 ,h[ (t5 x has be5 s6 ,%e w be br\ght up c>efully accord+ to h] ca/e4 ,all t is beautiful w be h]s1 jewels & silk raim5t4 ,! hook conceal$ )9 ! %9+ bait is =gott54 ,! old gr&mo!r feels %e is do+ h] be/ = ! *ild1 & ! little life passes out ( h] _w4 ,x is a de> little ?+1 & ! man 7its gr&fa!r7 seem$ really fond ( x4 ,he said he w\ld n "p ) x2 b its p>5ts are bo? dead1 & he did n "k :at might happ5 to x if he di$4 ,?is f ! lett] ( a fell[-mission>y1 :o sav$ ! little "o & s5t h] out to u1 is descriptive ( _m4 ,n ! measure ( a rape-se$ ( sleep does %e give me4 ,i h done my be/ = h] s9ce h] "m di$1 b h] noise is mo/ vexati\s4 ,?is 0 a fa!r's acc\nt ( ! matt] only a week or two ago4 ,h y no wom5 relations8 we ask$ him4 ,num]\s are my wom5folk1 b !y are all cumb]$ ) *ildr53 h[ c !y help me8 ,giv5 ^! circum/ances ( difficulty1 & ! /rong "u-pull ( ,temple influ5ce--is x wond]ful t _m an orphan$ babe f9ds h] way to ! ,temple h\se8 ,= 9 ! ,s\? ! *ild ( ! k9d we are seek+ to save is nev] (f]$ to u because !re is no o!r place :]e %e is want$4 ,ev]y:]e !re are ^? :o are se>*+ = su* *ildr52 & ea* little "o sav$ repres5ts a c\nt]-se>*1 & some:]e1 e>ne/ pray]4 ,! my/]y ( our "w1 z we h said be=e1 is ! (t5times app>5t victory ( wrong ov] "r4 ,we are sil5t be=e x4 ,god reigns2 ,god kn[s4 ,b sometimes ! int]positions are su* t our he>ts are *e]$1 & we g on 9 fre% c\rage & hope4 ,among our e>lie/ fri5ds 7 "s ( ! ,london ,mission>y ,society work]s ( ,s\? ,travancore4 ,"o ( ^! fri5ds int]e/$ h] ,biblewom52 & :51 "o morn+1 "o ( ^! ,biblewom5 pass$ a woman ) a *ild 9 h] arms on ! road lead+ to a well-kn[n ,temple1 %e 0 ready to und]/& ! lead+1 & made fri5ds ) ! "m4 ,%e f\nd t ev5 !n %e 0 on h] way to a ,temple h\se4 ,a few m9utes lat] & %e w\ld n h pass$ h] on ! road4 ,!re 0 some?+ to acc\nt = ?is directness ( lead+4 ,at t "t we _h our bran* nurs]y at ,neyoor1 9 ,s\? ,travancore1 t5 miles f ! place :]e ! ,biblewoman met ! "m4 ,on t same morn+1 ,ponnamal1 :o 0 9 *>ge !re1 felt impell$ to g to ! upp] room to pray = a little *ild 9 dang]4 ,%e rema9$ 9 pray] till ! assurance ( ! answ] 0 giv51 & !n return$ to h] "w4 ,t ev5+ a b&y drove up to ! nurs]y1 & %e saw ! explanation ( ! pressure & ! answ] to ! pray]4 ,a little *ild 0 lift$ out ( ! b&y1 & laid 9 h] arms4 ,%e /ood ) h] nurses ab\t h]1 & toge!r !y wor%ipp$ ,god4 ,?is pray]-pressure has be5 (t5 our exp]i5ce :5 special help is ne$$ to effect ! salvation ( "s little unkn[n *ild4 ,x 0 our ,pray]-day1 ,july #f1 #aijg4 ,?ree ( u 7 burd5$ ) a burd5 t c\ld n be light5$ till we met & pray$ = a *ild 9 p]il4 ,we _h no k ( any special *ild1 ?\gh1 ( c\rse1 we knew ( _m 9 dang]4 ,:5 we pray$ = ! _m1 ! impression came ! m /rongly t we 7 meant to conc5trate ^u "o4 ,:o1 or :]e1 we did n "k4 ,five days lat]1 a lett] rea*$ u f a fri5d 9 ! ,wesleyan ,mission1 work+ 9 a city five hundr$ miles di/ant4 ,! lett] 0 writt5 on ! #h?3-- ,on ! morn+ ( ! #f?1 a woman :o kn[s our ,biblewom5 well1 told !m ( a little ,brahman baby 9 great dang]2 s ,j4 & two o!rs w5t at once & sp5t ! great] "p ( ! morn+ try+ to save ! *ild4 ,x 0 9 ! h\se ( a s-call$ ,temple woman1 :o _h adopt$ x1 & %e _h tak5 e c>e ( x4 ,= "s reason %e want$ to g away1 & c\ld n take x ) h]4 ,two or ?ree wom5 ( h] own k9d 7 !re & want$ x4 ,"o _h money 9 h] h& = x4 ,b ,j4 _h already got ! baby into h] arms1 & reason$ & p]suad$ until ! woman at la/ cons5t$4 ,!y at once br\ght x "h4 ,_h ! fri5dly woman n told ,j41 ! baby w\ld n[ be 9 ! h&s ( ! second ,temple woman4 ,i visit$ ! woman aft]w>ds4 ,%e _h two gr[n girls 9 ! room ) h]1 ! eld] su* a sweet girl4 ,%e told me op5ly x 0 all accord+ to cu/om1 & t ,god _h arrang$ _! lives on ^? l9es1 & !y c\ld n d o!rwise4 ,x is t]ribly sad1 & su* h\ses ab\nd4 ,happ5+s ( ?is sort--if ! ^w happ5 is n irrev]5t 9 su* a connection--h a curi\sly quiet+ effect ^u u4 ,we are v happy2 b !re is a feel+ ( awe :i* f9ds expression 9 words :i*1 at fir/ read+1 may n s\nd appropriate2 b we write = ^? :o w und]/&3-- ,oh1 fix ,?y *air ( grace1 t all my p[]s ,may also fix _! rev]5ce 4 4 4 ,scatt]1 or b9d1 or b5d !m all to ,!e6 ,?\gh elem5ts *ange & ,heav5 move1 ,let n ,?y high] c\rt remove1 ,b keep a /&+ ,maje/y 9 me4 ,,footnote3 ,a ,ov]weights ( ,joy4 ,,*apt] ,,viii ,o!rs ,illu/ration3 ,,/urdy ,,& ,,/olid1 ,,& ,,little ,,ve]a --^: /ory1 h[ev]1 is diff]5t4 ,,we h "s *ildr5 :o 7 n 9 ,temple dang]1 b :o c\ld n h gr[n up good if we _h n tak5 !m4 ,if p]il to ! s\l is ( importance1 wrote ! pa/or :o s5t u two little girls1 !n x is important y %\ld take !m3 s we took !m4 ,^! little ones 7 9 p]il to ! s\l1 because _! nom9al ,*ri/ian "m _h1 aft] h] husb&'s dea?1 m>ri$ a ,h9du1 aga9/ ! rules ( h] religion & 84 ,! *ildr5 7 "u ! wor/ influ5ce2 & bo? 7 w9n+ little ?+s1 :o might h drift$ any:]e4 ,we h f\nd x impossible to refuse su* little ones1 ev5 ?\gh dang] ( ! ,temple k9d may n be probable4 ,su* a *ild1 = example1 is ! little girl ! ,moslem is ready to adopt & conv]t to ! fai?4 ,our fir/ r$eem$ f ?is captivity 7lit]ally slav]y "u ! "n ( adoption7 0 a *e]ful little p]son ( six1 ) ! /urdy air ! cam]a caught1 & a mann] all h] own4 ,an ,am]ican mission>y 9 an adjo9+ di/rict he>d ( h] & h] little si/]1 & wrote to "k if we w\ld take !m if he c\ld save !m4 ,we c\ld n say ,no2 s he tri$1 & succe$$ 9 gett+ ! eld] *ild2 ! little "o _h be5 already adopt$1 & he c\ld n get h]4 ,! :ole affair 0 ! mo/ a/oni%+ ?+ ,i h ev] se5 9 ,india1 he wrote :5 he s5t ! little girl4 ,! *ild ^u arrival made fri5ds ) ano!r1 & confid$ to h] 9 a bur/ ( confid5ce3 ,ah1 %e 0 a jewel1 my own little si/]--n l me1 n d>k ( sk91 b 'fair' & t5d]2 & ! great man 9 ! turban saw h] & desir$ h]1 & he took h] away2 & %e cri$ & cri$ & cri$1 because %e 0 only su* a v little girl4 ,! bus9ess 0 be+ discuss$ out 9 ! op5 /reet--! writ] 0 ano!r mission>y--! pa/or he>d ( x f a ,*ri/ian :o 0 pass+1 & saw ! clu/] ( ,muhammadans r\nd ! "m & h] *ildr54 ,x 0 t\*-&-g ) ! *ild4 ,^! two1 ,/urdy & ,/olid1 side by side 9 ! photograph1 are 9 all ways q unlike ! typical ,temple *ild2 b ! dang] f :i* !y 7 deliv]$ is z real1 & p]haps 9 its way z grave4 ,"o ( ! sweete/ ( our little girls1 a *ild ) a spiritual expression :i* /rikes all :o see h]1 came to u ?r\gh a "y cate*i/ :o he>d ( h] & p]suad$ h] p to let h] come to ,dohnavur4 ,%e is an orphan2 & be+ fair & v g5tle1 ne$$ a "m's c>e4 ,h] ne>e/ relatives _h families ( _! own1 & 7 n anxi\s = ?is addition to _! already num]\s daught]s2 & ! little girl1 feel+ h]self unwant$1 0 frett+ sadly4 ,!n an (f] came to ! relations--n made expressly 9 words1 b impli$--by :i* !y w\ld be reliev$ ( ! responsibility ( ! little niece's future4 ,all w\ld n h be5 /raight = ! *ild1 h[ev]1 & !y hesitat$4 ,! temptation 0 great2 & 9 ! end x is probable !y w\ld h yield$1 _h n ! cate*i/ he>d ( x1 & influ5c$ !m to turn f temptation4 ,x 0 ! ev5+ ( our ,pray]-day :5 ! little ,pe>l came2 & :5 we saw ! sweet little face1 ) ! wi/ful1 que/ion+ eyes l ! eyes ( a little fright5$ dog tak5 away alone among /rang]s1 & :5 we he>d ! /ory1 & knew :at ! *ild's fate might h be51 !n we welcom$ h] z ano!r ,pray]-day gift4 ,we d n look = gratitude 9 ?is "w2 :o does8 ,b sometimes x comes ( itself2 & ! grateful love ( a *ild1 l ! grateful love ( a little affectionate animal lift$ out ( its t]ror & com=t$1 is some?+ sweet & t5d] & v good to "k4 ,! ,pe>l says little2 b h] s(t br[n eyes look up into ours ) a tru/ful expression ( peaceful happ9ess2 & z %e slips h] little h& into ours & gives x a tight squeeze1 we "k :at h] he>t is say+1 & we are cont5t4 ,two m ( ^! o!rs are ! two 9 ! photograph :o are play+ a pebble game4 ,_! p>5ts di$ leav+ !m 9 ! c>e ( an aunt1 a p]fectly he>tless woman ^: record 0 n ( ! be/4 ,%e />v$ ! *ildr51 ?\gh %e 0 n poor2 & !n puni%$ !m sev]ely :51 fa9t ) hung]1 !y took food f a k9dly woman ( ano!r ca/e4 ,f9ally %e gave !m to a neighb\r1 tell+ h] to dispose ( !m z %e lik$4 ,ab\t ?is "t our head work]1 ,ponnamal1 0 travell+ 9 se>* ( a *ild ( :om we _h he>d 9 a t[n ne> ,palamcottah4 ,%e c\ld n f9d ! *ild1 &1 tir$ & disc\rag$1 turn$ into ! l>ge ,*ur* ,mission>y ,society hall1 :]e a meet+ 0 be+ held to welcome our new ,bi%op4 ,z ,ponnamal 0 late1 %e sat at ! back1 & c\ld n he> :at 0 go+ on2 s %e gave h]self up to pray] = ! little *ild :om %e _h n f\nd1 & ask$ t h] ?ree days' j\rney might n be all 9 va94 ,illu/ration3 ,,pebbles4 ,z %e pray$ 9 sil5ce ?us1 ano!r woman came 9 & sat d[n at ! back ne> ,ponnamal4 ,:5 ,ponnamal look$ up1 %e saw x 0 a fri5d %e _h n met = ye>s4 ,%e began to tell h] ab\t h] se>* = ! *ild2 & ?is l$ on to tell+ ab\t ! *ildr5 9 g5]al1 & ! "w we 7 try+ to d4 ,! o!r _h kn[n no?+ ( x all be=e2 b z %e li/5$1 a light broke on h] face1 & %e eag]ly told ,ponnamal h[ t same morn+ %e _h come across a ,h9du woman 9 *>ge ( two little girls4 ,! ,tamils :5 !y meet1 h[ev] casually1 h a useful habit ( ex*ang+ confid5ces4 ,! woman _h told ,ponnamal's fri5d :at h] err& 04 ,ponnamal's talk ab\t *ildr5 9 dang] recall$ ! conv]sation ( ! morn+4 ,9 a few h\rs m ,ponnamal 0 ^u ! track ( ! ,h9du woman & h] two little *>ges4 ,x end$ 9 ! two little girls be+ sav$4 ,,*apt] ,,ix ,old ,dvai ,,%e has be5 call$ ,old ,dvai ev] s9ce we knew h]1 twelve ye>s ago2 & %e is /ill active 9 m9d & body4 ,z ,i 0 !n1 ev5 s is my /r5g? n[ = w>1 bo? to g out & to come 91 %e w\ld tell y ) a c\rage\s toss ( ! old grey head4 ,h] _s at lea/ is untir$4 ,we knew h] fir/ z a woman ( "*4 ,"o ,sunday1 9 our ,tamil *ur*1 a s]mon 0 prea*$ ^u ! love ( ! ,fa!r z comp>$ ) ! love ( ! _w4 ,t ,sunday ,dvai w5t home & act$ ^u ! tea*+ 9 su* fa%ion t %e _h to suff] f ! sc\rge ( ! tongue 9 h] own p>ticul> _w4 ,b %e w5t on h] way1 unmov$ by adv]se criticism4 ,"s ye>s lat]1 :5 we 7 9 p]plexity z to h[ to set ab\t our se>* = *ildr5 9 dang] ( be+ giv5 to temples1 old ,dvai (f]$ to help4 ,%e 0 peculi>ly suitable1 bo? 9 age & 9 position1 = ?is mo/ delicate "w2 & we accept$ h] (f] ) ?anksgiv+4 ,s9ce !n %e has travell$ f>1 & foll[$ _m a clue discov]$ 9 /range ways & 9 /range company4 ,p]haps no "o 9 ,s\? ,india kn[s z mu* z ,dvai kn[s ab\t ! secret sy/em by :i* ! ,temple alt>s are suppli$ ) little liv+ victims2 b %e has no idea ( h[ to put h] k into %ape & express x 9 p>agraph =m4 ,we le>n mo/ f h] :5 %e lea/ kn[s %e is say+ any?+ int]e/+4 ,:5 fir/ we began ! "w1 our great difficulty 01 z x is /ill1 to get ^u ! track ( ! *ildr5 be=e ! ,temple wom5 he>d ( !m4 ,once !y 7 kn[n to be available1 ,temple sc\ts appe>$ my/]i\sly al]t2 & x is d\bly difficult to get a little *ild aft] negotiations h be5 op5$ ) ! subtle ,temple sc\t4 ,h[ (t5 old ,dvai has come to u sick at he>t aft] a long1 fruitless se>* & ef=t to save "s little *ild :o1 p]haps1 only an h\r be=e h] arrival 0 c>ri$ (f 9 triumph by ! ,temple p6 ,i pursu$ aft] ! b&y1 & ,i saw x 9 ! di/ance2 b swiftly w5t _! bullocks1 & ,i c\ld n ov]take x4 ,at la/ !y /opp$ to re/1 & ,i came to :]e !y 74 ,b !y smil$ at me & said3 ',did y ev] he> ( su* a ?+ z y ask 9 fooli%ness8 ,is x ! cu/om to give up a *ild1 once x is ours8' ,sometimes a new /ory is inv5t$ on ! spot4 ,did y n "k x 0 my si/]'s *ild2 & ,i1 h] only si/]1 hav+ no *ild ( my own1 h adopt$ ?is "o z my own8 ,w\ld y ask me to give up my own *ild1 ! apple ( my eye8 ,(t5]1 h[ev]1 ! clue fails1 & all ,dvai kn[s is t ! little "o is n[h]e to be f\nd4 ,once %e trac$ x /raight to a ,temple h\se1 won h] way 91 & plead$ ) te>s1 (f]+ all comp5sation = exp5ses incurr$ 7travell+ & o!r7 if only ! ,temple woman w\ld let h] take ! *ild4 ,b no3 ,if x dies1 t matt]s little2 b disgrace is n to be contemplat$4 ,:5 all else fails1 we e>ne/ly ask t ! little "o 9 dang] may be tak5 quickly out ( t pollut$ atmosph]e up into pur] air2 & x is />tl+ to note h[ solemnly ! answ] to t pray] has come 9 v _m in/ances4 ,! clue = :i* we are always on ! wat* is (t5 l a f9e silk ?read lead+ d[n into d>k places :]e we _c see x1 c h>dly feel x2 x is s ?9 a ?read4 ,sometimes1 :5 we ?\ght we held x securely1 we h lo/ x 9 ! d>k4 ,sometimes x seems z if ! ,evil ,"o1 ^: int]e/ 9 ^! little ones may be great] ?an we "k1 lays a false clue across our pa?1 & bewild]s u by caus+ u to sp5d "t & /r5g? 9 :at appe>s to be a :olly useless fa%ion4 ,once old ,dvai 0 lur$ f> out ( our own di/rict 9 se>* ( two *ildr5 :o did n ev5 exi/4 ,%e _h tak5 all precautions to v]ify ! in=mation giv51 b a false address _h baffl$ h]2 & we c only conclude t1 = "s reason unkn[n to u1 b well kn[n to ^? :om we oppose1 !y 7 p]mitt$ on t occasion to ga9 an advantage ov] u4 ,we made x a rule1 aft] t w-(-!-wisp exp]i5ce1 t any address out ( our own di/rict mu/ be v]ifi$2 & t ! ne>e/ mission>y !reto1 or responsible ,indian ,*ri/ian1 mu/ be approa*$1 be=e fur!r /eps are tak54 ,?is rule has sav$ _m a fruitless j\rney2 b also we _c help kn[+ x has sometimes occasion$ delays :i* h _h sad results4 ,= di/ances are great 9 ,india4 ,dvai h]self lives two days' j\rney f u1 & h] address is unc]ta91 z %e sets (f at a mom5t's notice = any place :]e %e has reason to ?9k a *ild 9 dang] may be sav$4 ,!n1 too1 mission>ies & responsible ,indian ,*ri/ians are n ev]y:]e4 ,s t sometimes x is a case ( *oos+ ! less] ( two evils1 & *oos+ imm$iately4 ,illu/ration3 ,,la?a 7,,firefly7 ,,bl[+ ,,bubbles4 ,once 9 ! night a knock came to ,dvai's door4 ,a man /ood outside1 a ,h9du kn[n to h]4 ,a little girl has j be5 tak5 to ! ,temple ( ,a41 :]e ! great fe/ival is be+ held4 ,if y g at once y may p]haps get h]4 ,! place nam$ 0 out ( our jurisdiction2 b 9 su* cases ,dvai kn[s rules are only made to be brok54 ,(f %e w5t on foot1 got a b&y en r\te1 rea*$ ! t[n be=e ! fe/ival 0 ov]1 f\nd ! h\se to :i* %e _h be5 direct$--a little %ut-up h\se1 doors & w9d[s all clos$--manag$1 h[ we nev] knew1 to get 91 f\nd a "y woman1 a ,temple woman f ,travancore1 ) a little *ild asleep on ! mat beside h]1 p]suad$ h] to slip out ( ! h\se ) ! *ild )\t wak5+ anyone1 crept out ( ! t[n & fl$ away into ! night1 ?ankful = ! bless$ cov]+ d>kness4 ,! *ild 0 be+ kept 9 t h\se till ! ,temple woman to :om %e 0 to be giv5 produc$ ! /ipulat$ ,joy-gift1 aft] :i* %e w\ld become ,temple prop]ty4 ,"s delay 9 its be+ giv5 _h caus$ t night's ret5tion 9 ! little %ut-up h\se4 ,! *ild1 a mo/ lovable little girl1 _h be5 kidnapp$ & disguis$2 & ! matt] 0 s skilfully manag$1 t we h nev] be5 able to discov] ev5 ! "n ( h] own t[n4 ,we only "k %e mu/ h be5 well br\ght up1 = %e 0 f ! fir/ a ref9$ little ?+ ) v da9ty ways4 ,%e & h] little special fri5d are sitt+ on ! /eps look+ at ,la?a 7,firefly71 :o is bl[+ bubbles4 ,! o!r little "o has a simil> b diff]5t hi/ory4 ,h] fa!r br\ght h] to u himself1 fe>+ le/ %e %\ld be kidnapp$ by "o relat$ to h] :o mu* want$ to h h]4 ,i1 be+ a man1 _c be always ) ! *ild1 he said1 & ,i fe> = h]4 ,on ano!r occasion ! clue 0 f\nd ?r\gh ,dvai's happ5+ to ov]he> ! conv]sation ( two m5 9 a wood 9 ! e>ly morn+4 ,"o said to ! o!r some?+ ab\t someone hav+ tak5 ,x some:]e2 & ,dvai1 ^: sc5t is ke5 :]e little ,its are conc]n$1 made fri5ds ) ! m51 & got ! in=mation %e want$ f !m4 ,c>eful "w result$ 9 a little *ild's salvation2 b ,dvai h>dly d>$ believe x safe until %e rea*$ ,dohnavur4 ,:5 t occurr$ we 7 all at *ur*2 = special s]vices 7 be+ held 9 week-day ev5+s1 & old ,dvai _h to possess h] s\l 9 pati5ce till we came out ( *ur*4 ,!n !re 0 a ru% r\nd to ! nurs]y1 & an eag] %[+ ( ! ,x4 ,i %all nev] =get ! pang ( disappo9tm5t & appreh5sion4 ,sev]al little ones _h be5 s5t to u :o c\ld n possibly live2 & ! nurses _h got ov]borne1 & we dread$ ano!r /ra9 = !m4 ,x 0 a t9y ?+1 ?ree p\nds & ?ree-qu>t]s ( pale br[n sk9 & bone4 ,its face 0 a criss-cross ( wr9kles1 & x look$ any age4 ,b ,man looke? ^u ! outw>d appe>ance w\ld h be5 assur$ly quot$ to u1 reg>dless ( context1 _h we v5tur$ ^u a rem>k to old ,dvai1 :o p\r$ =? ! /ory ( its salvation 9 vivid s5t5ces4 ,next ev5+ ! old grannie ( ! comp\nd told u ! baby c\ld n live till morn+4 ,%e laid x on a mat & reg>d$ x critically1 felt its pulses 7bo? wri/s71 exam9$ m9utely its eyes & ! bridge ( its nose3 ,no1 n till morn+4 ,bett] h ! grave prep>$1 = e>ly morn+ w be an inconv5i5t h\r = digg+4 ,o!rs confirm$ h] diagnosis1 & sorr[fully ! ord] 0 giv5 & ! grave 0 dug4 ,b ! baby liv$ till morn+2 & ?\gh = two ye>s x ne$$ a nurse to itself1 & ov] & ov] aga9 all b left u1 ?is baby has gr[n "o ( our heal?ie/2 & n[ :5 old ,dvai comes to see u %e looks at x1 & !n to ,heav51 & sighs ) gratitude4 ,,*apt] ,x ,failures8 ,,b sometimes old ,dvai br+s u little ones :o d n come to /ay4 ,failures1 ! _w w\ld call !m4 ,twice lately ?is has happ5$1 & ea* "t unexpect$ly2 = ! babies _h /ories :i* seem$ to imply a promise ( future usefulness4 ,surely su* a deliv]ance mu/ h be5 wr\ght = some?+ special1 we say to ourselves1 & refuse to fe>4 ,"o de> little fat fair baby 0 br\ght to u z a surprise1 = we _h n he>d ( h]4 ,x _h seem$ s improbable t ,dvai c\ld get h]1 t %e _h n writt5 to u to ask u to pray h] ?r\gh ! battle1 z %e usually does4 ,! s\nd ( ! bullock-bells' j+le "o moonlight night woke u to welcome ! baby4 ,%e _h travell$ fifty miles 9 ! %aky bullock-c>t1 & %e 0 only a few days old2 b %e seem$ heal?y1 & we _h no fe>s4 ,ah1 ! ,"l our ,god gave h] to me1 or nev] c\ld ,i h got h]6 ,h] "m _h det]m9$ to give h] to ! ,temple2 & :5 ,i w5t to p]suade h]1 %e hid ! baby 9 an e>!n vessel le/ my eyes %\ld see h]4 ,b e>!n pots _c hide f ! eyes ( ! ,"l4 ,& "h %e is6 ,! details1 fi%$ out ( ,dvai by d9t ( _m que/ions1 made x cle> t 9 v tru? ! ,"l1 to :om all s\ls belong1 _h work$ on behalf ( ?is little "o2 mov+ ev5 ,h9du he>ts1 z ,8 brave old s]vant plead$1 mak+ x possible to break ?r\gh ca/e & cu/om1 ^? prison walls ( mo/ cruel conv5tion1 till ev5 ! ,h9dus said3 ,let ! ,*ri/ian h ! babe6 ,we d n "k :y %e 0 tak54 ,%e nev] seem$ to sick51 b j left u2 p]haps %e 0 ne$$ some:]e else1 & ,dohnavur 0 ! way !re4 ,! o!r meant ev5 m to u1 = %e 0 our fir/ f ,b5>es1 ! he>t ( ?is great ,h9duism2 & h] v pres5ce seem$ su* a spl5did pl$ge ( ultimate victory4 ,?is little "o 0 sav$ ?r\gh a fri5d1 a ,wesleyan mission>y1 :o _h int]e/$ h] ,indian work]s 9 ! *ildr54 ,! baby's "m 0 a pilgrim f ,b5>es1 & h] baby _h be5 born 9 ! ,s\?4 ,a ,temple woman _h se5 x & 0 eag] to get x1 = x 0 a *ild ( promise4 ,our fri5d's work] he>d ( ?is1 & int]pos$4 ,! "m cons5t$ to give h] baby to u4 ,x 0 n a case 9 :i* we d>e h p]suad$ h] to keep x2 = su* babies are greatly covet$1 & ! "m 0 already pr$ispos$ to give h] *ild to ! gods4 ,:5 we he>d ( ?is little "o1 old ,dvai 0 ) u4 ,%e _h only j arriv$ aft] a j\rney ( two days ) a little girl1 b %e knew ! p]ils ( delay too well to risk !m n[4 ,let me g6 ,i w h "s c(fee1 & imm$iately />t6 ,s (f %e w5t = five m days ( we>isome bullock-c>t & tra94 ,b h] face beam$ :5 %e return$ & laid a six-weeks-old baby 9 our arms--a baby fair to look ^u4 ,we ga!r$ r\nd h] at once1 & %e lay & smil$ at u all4 ,h>dly ev] h we _h s sweet a babe4 ,b ! smil+ little m\? 0 too pale a p9k1 & ! beautiful eyes 7 too bright4 ,%e _h only be5 ) u a mon? :5 we 7 />tl$ by ! o!r-_w look on ! baby's face4 ,we _h se5 x be=e2 we recognis$ x1 & our he>ts sank )9 u4 ,t ev5+1 z %e lay 9 h] :ite cradle1 ! waxy h&s fold$ 9 an un*ildlike calm1 %e look$ z if ! angel ( ,dea? _h pass$ h] z %e slept1 & t\*$ h] z he pass$4 ,%e /ay$ ) u = ano!r mon?1 & 0 nurs$ day & night till m & m %e became ende>$ to u2 & !n once m we he>d ! ^w t _c be refus$1 & we let h] g4 ,we laid passion-fl[]s ab\t h] z %e lay asleep4 ,! smile t _h left h] little face _h come back n[4 ,%e came ) a smile1 & %e w5t ) a smile1 said "o :o lov$ h] de>ly2 & ! fl[]s ( my/]y & glory spoke to u1 z we /ood & look$4 ,:o = ! joy t 0 set be=e ,him 4 4 4 endur$4 ,! sc5t ( ! violet passion-fl[] w always c>ry its message to u4 ,let u be wor?y ( ! grief ,god s5ds4 ,& oh t su* exp]i5ces may make u m e>ne/1 m self-less 9 our s]vice = ^! little ones6 ,someone has express$ ?is ?\ght v t5d]ly & simply3-- ,because ( "o small l[-laid head1 all cr[n$ ,) gold5 hair1 ,= ev]more all fair "y br[s to me ,a halo we>4 ,i kiss !m rev]5tly4 ,alas1 ,i "k ,! pa9 ,i be>6 ,because ( de> b close-%ut holy eyes ,( heav5's own blue1 ,all little eyes d fill my own ) te>s1 ,:ate'er _! hue4 ,&1 mo!rly1 ,i gaze _! innoc5t1 ,cle> dep?s into4 ,because ( little pallid lips1 :i* once ,my "n did call1 ,no *ildi% voice 9 va9 appeal ^u ,my e>s do? fall4 ,i c\nt x all my joy _! joys to %>e1 ,& sorr[s small4 ,because ( little dimpl$ h&s ,:i* fold$ lie1 ,all little h&s h5ce=? to me d h ,a plead+ cry4 ,i clasp !m1 z !y 7 small w&]+ birds1 ,lur$ home to fly4 ,because ( little dea?-cold feet1 = e>?'s ,r\gh roads unmeet1 ,i'd j\rney leagues to save f s9 & h>m ,su* little feet4 ,& c\nt ! l[lie/ s]vice done = !m ,s sacr$--sweet4 ,b grief is almo/ too poignant a ^w = :at is s /+less z ?is4 ,& yet ,god ! ,fa!r1 :o gives ! love1 und]/&s & kn[s h[ mu* may lie beh9d two words & two dates4 ,giv5 4 4 4 ,tak5 4 4 4 ,only inde$ we d bless ,him :5 ! cup holds no bitt]ness ( fe> or ( regret4 ,!re is no?+ ev] to fe> = ! little fold$ lambs4 ,if only ! veil ( bl9d+ s5se might drop f our eyes :5 ! door op5s to our *]i%$ little *ildr51 %\ld we h ! he>t to toil s h>d to keep t bright door %ut8 ,w\ld x n seem almo/ selfi% to try8 ,b ! case is diff]5t :5 ! *ild is n lift$ lov+ly to fair l&s out ( sight1 b snat*$ back1 dragg$ back d[n into ! d>kness f :i* we _h hop$ x _h escap$4 ,?is "w = ! *ildr51 :i* seems s /rangely full ( trial ( its own 7z x is surely /ill m full ( its own p>ticul> joy71 has held ?is bitt]ness = u1 & yet ! bitt] has *ang$ to sweet2 & ev5 n[ 9 our twilight ( %ort k we c und]/& a little1 & :]e we _c we are cont5t to wait4 ,f\r ye>s ago1 aft] mu* correspond5ce & ef=t1 a little girl 0 sav$ f ,temple s]vice 9 connection ) a fam\s ,temple ( ! ,s\? f :i* few h ev] be5 sav$4 ,%e _h be5 d$icat$ by h] fa!r1 & h] "m _h cons5t$4 ,dvai got a pap] sign$ by !m giv+ h] up to u in/ead4 ,b %ortly aft] %e left ! t[n1 ! fa!r regrett$ ! /ep he _h tak51 & foll[$ ,dvai1 unkn[n to h]4 ,alas1 ! *ild _h n be5 ) u an h\r be=e %e 0 c>ri$ (f4 ,= two ye>s we he>d no?+ ( h]4 ,old ,dvai1 :o 0 brok5-he>t$ ab\t ! matt]1 tri$ to f9d :at _h be5 done ) h]1 b x 0 kept secret4 ,%e almo/ gave up 9 despair4 ,at la/ in=mation rea*$ h] t ! *ild 0 9 ! same t[n2 & t h] fa!r hav+ di$ ( *ol]a1 ! "m & ano!r little daught] 7 9 a c]ta9 h\se well kn[n to h]4 ,%e w5t imm$iately & f\nd ! old] *ild _h n be5 giv5 to ! gods4 ,some?+ ( h] plead+s _h l+]$ 9 ! fa!r's memory1 & he _h refus$ to give h] up4 ,b ! "m 0 o!rwise m9d$1 & int5d$ to give bo? *ildr5 to ! ,temple4 ,dvai _h be5 guid$ to g at ! critical "t ( decision4 ,! "m 0 p]suad$1 & ,dvai return$ ) two %eaves in/ead ( "o--& ev5 t "o %e _h h>dly d>$ to expect4 ,once m we 7 call$ to hold our gifts ) light h&s4 ,! y\ng] ( ! welcome little two 0 "o ( t5 :o di$ dur+ an epidemic at ,neyoor4 ,! eld] "o is ) u /ill--a bright1 intellig5t *ild4 ,! only o!r "o :om we h be5 compell$ to give up 9 ?is mo/ hurt+ way 0 sav$ ?r\gh fri5ds on ! hills1 :o1 be=e !y s5t ! little *ild to u1 believ$ all safe z to claims ^u h] aft]w>ds4 ,%e 0 a pretty *ild ( five1 & we grew to love h] v mu*2 = h] ways 7 sweet & g5tle & v affectionate4 ,lala1 ,lola1 & ,leela 7 a de> little trio1 all ab\t ! same age1 & all r specially int]e/+ *ildr54 ,b ! fa!r gave tr\ble4 ,he 0 n a good man1 & we knew x 0 n love = 8 little daught] :i* prompt$ 8 action4 ,he dem&$ h] back1 & our fri5ds _h to telegraph to u to s5d h] home4 ,x 0 n an easy ?+ to d2 & we pack$ h] little belong+s feel+ z if we 7 mov+ bl9dly 9 a griev\s dream1 out ( :i* we mu/ surely awak54 ,!re 0 "s delay ab\t a b&y1 b at la/ x 0 ready & /&+ at ! door4 ,we lift$ ! little girl into x1 put a doll & a packet ( sweets 9 h] h&s1 & gave our la/ *>ges to ^? :o 7 tak+ h] up to ! hills1 work]s ^u :om we c\ld dep5d to d any?+ t c\ld yet be done to w9 h] back aga94 ,!n ! b&y drove away4 ,b we w5t back to our room & ask$ = a great & good ?+ to be done4 ,we ?\ght ( little ,lala1 ) h] g5tle nature :i* _h s soon respond$ to lov+ influ5ce1 & we knew h] v g5tl5ess w\ld be h] dang] n[2 = h[ c\ld su* a little *ild1 naturally s yield+ 9 disposition1 )/& ! call t w\ld come1 & ! pressure t _h brok5 f> /rong] wills8 ,s we ask$ t %e might ei!r be return$ to u soon or tak5 away f ! evil to come4 ,a week pass$ & our work]s return$ )\t h]2 !y evid5tly felt ! case q hopeless4 ,b ! next lett] we _h f our fri5ds told u ! *ild 0 safe4 ,%e _h left u 9 p]fect heal?1 b pneumonia set 9 ^u h] return to ! cold] air ( ! hills4 ,%e _h be5 only a few days ill1 & di$ v sudd5ly--di$ )\t anyone ne> h] to com=t h] ) soo?+ words ab\t ! ,"o to :om %e 0 go+4 ,ev5 9 ! gladness t %e 0 safe n[1 !re 0 ! pitiful ?\ght ( h] lonel9ess ?r\gh ! d>k valley2 & we seem$ to see ! little wi/ful face1 & felt %e w\ld be s fright5$ & %y & bewild]$2 & we long$ to "k some?+ ab\t ^? la/ h\rs4 ,b "o ( ! hea!n wom5 :o _h be5 ab\t h] at ! la/ told :at %e knew1 & our fri5ds wrote :at !y he>d4 ,%e said %e 0 ,jesus' *ild1 & did n seem afraid4 ,& %e said t %e saw ?ree ,%9+ ,ones come into ! room :]e %e 0 ly+1 & %e 0 com=t$4 ,oh1 ne$ we ev] fe>8 ,little ,lala _h be5 ) u = s %ort a "t t we _h n be5 able to tea* h] mu*2 & s f> z any ( u "k1 %e _h he>d no?+ ( ! m9i/ry ( angels4 ,we _h h>dly d>$ to hope %e und]/ood en\gh ab\t our ,"l ,himself to re/ h] little he>t ^u ,him4 ,b we d n "k ev]y?+4 ,little innoc5t *ild t %e 01 %e 0 c>ri$ by ! angels f ! evil to come4 ,old ,dvai keeps a brave he>t4 ,:5 %e comes to see u1 %e *e]s h]self by nurs+ ! *e]ful little p %e br\ght to u1 small & wail+ & n v hopeful4 ,%e is full ( rem9isc5ces on ^! occasions4 ,ah1 %e w say1 address+ an a/oni%$ two-ye>-old1 ! devil & all 8 imps f\ght = y1 my *ild6 ,?is is unfamili> language to ! baby2 b ,dvai kn[s no?+ ( our mod]n ideas ( education1 & consid]s crude fact advisable at any age4 ,yes1 he f\ght = y1 my *ild4 ,i 0 sitt+ on ! v]&ah ( ! h\se :]e9 y lay1 & ,i 0 prea*+ ! ,gospel ( ! grace ( ,god to ! wom51 :5 five devils appe>$4 ,yea1 five 7 !y1 "o old] & f\r y\ng]4 ,m5 7 !y 9 outw>d %ape1 b )9 !m 7 ! devils4 ,i _h ne>ly p]suad$ ! wom5 to let me h y1 my *ild2 & till !y fully cons5t$1 ,i 0 fill+ up ! int]val ) spee*1 = no man %all %ut my m\?4 ,& ! wom5 li/5$ well1 & my he>t burn$ )9 me--= x 0 life to me to see !m li/5+--:5 lo6 ^? devils came--yea1 five1 "o old] & f\r y\ng]--s5t by _! ma/] to conf\nd me4 ,& !y rose up aga9/ me & turn$ me out1 & told ! wom5 folk n to li/52 & y--,i %\ld nev] get y1 said !y2 & s x appe>$1 = ) su* is might1 & _! ma/] waxes furi\s :5 he kn[s 8 "t is %ort4 ,b ! ,"l on high is mighti] ?an a million million devils1 & :at are five to ,him8 ,he rose up = me aga9/ !m & discomfit$ !m--,dvai does n g into secul> p>ticul>s--& s y 7 deliv]$ f ! m\? ( ! lion1 my *ild6 ,we are n anxi\s t our babies %\ld "k too mu* anci5t hi/ory4 ,en\gh = !m t !y are 9 ! fold-- ,i am ,jesus' little lamb1 ,happy all day long ,i am2 ,he w keep me safe f h>m1 ,= ,i'm ,8 lamb-- is en\gh !ology = two-ye>-olds2 b ,dvai's visits are n s frequ5t z to make a deep impression1 & ! baby ?us address$1 aft] a long & unsympa!tic />e1 usually scrambles (f h] knee & returns unsca!d to h] own _w4 ,,*apt] ,,xi ,god ,he>d3 ,god ,answ]$ ,,old ,dvai1 ) h] vivid conv]sation ab\t ! "o old devil & f\r y\ng]1 does n sugge/ a conciliatory attitude t[>ds ! p ( h] l&4 ,& x may be possible s to mis9t]pret ! _s ( ?is book z to see 9 x only some?+ unappreciative & !re=e unk9d4 ,s x %all n[ be writt5 d[n 9 s9c]ity & e>ne/ness t no?+ ( ! sort is int5d$4 ,! ?+ we fight is n ,india or ,indian1 9 ess5ce or developm5t4 ,x is some?+ ali5 to ! old life ( ! p4 ,x is n all[$ 9 ! ,vdas 7anci5t sacr$ books74 ,x is l a p>asite :i* has settl$ ^u ! b\gh ( "s noble =e/-tree--on x1 b n ( x4 ,! p>asite has gripp$ ! b\gh ) /rong & int]lac+ roots2 b x is n ! b\gh4 ,we ?9k ( ! real ,india z we see x 9 ! ?9k]--! seek] aft] ! unkn[n ,god1 ) 8 wi/ful eyes4 ,! ,"l behold+ him lov$ him1 & we _c help lov+ z we look4 ,& !re is ! ,indian woman hidd5 away f ! noise ( cr[ds1 pati5t 9 h] mo!rhood1 loyal to ! light %e has4 ,we see ! _s ( ! old l& !re2 & x w9s u & holds u1 & makes x a joy to be "h to live = ,india4 ,! true ,india is s5sitive & v g5tle4 ,!re is a wisdom 9 its ways1 none ! less wise because x is n ! wisdom ( ! ,we/4 ,?is _s :i* traffics 9 *ildr5 is call\s & fi]ce z a rav5+ bea/2 & its wisdom desc5de? n f above1 b is e>?ly1 s5sual1 devili%4 4 4 4 ,& ?is _s1 ali5 to ! l&1 has settl$ ^u x1 & made itself at home 9 x1 & s become a "p ( x t no?+ b ! t\* ( ,god w ev] get x out4 ,we want t t\* ( ,god3 ,t\* ! m\nta9s1 & !y %all smoke4 ,t is :y we write4 ,= we write = ^? :o believe 9 pray]--n 9 ! emasculat$ mod]n s5se1 b 9 ! old ,hebrew s5se1 deep z ! o!r is %all[4 ,we believe !re is "s connection betwe5 kn[+ & c>+ & pray+1 & :at happ5s aft]w>ds4 ,o!rwise we %\ld leave ! d>kness to cov] ! ?+s t belong to ! d>k4 ,we %\ld be = ev] dumb ab\t !m1 if x 7 n t we "k an evil cov]$ up is n an evil conqu]$4 ,s we d ! ?+ f :i* we %r9k ) /rong recoil2 we /& on ! edge ( ! pit1 & look d[n & tell :at we h se51 urg$ by ! long+ )9 u t ! ,*ri/ians ( ,engl& %\ld pray4 ,only pray8 does someone ask8 ,pray] ( ! sort we mean nev] /ops ) pray+4 ,:atsoev] ,he sai? unto y1 d x1 is ! pray]'s solemn aft]word2 b ! pray] we ask is no trifle4 ,l9es f an ,am]ican poet ^u :at x co/s to make true poetry1 come ) sugge/ion "h3-- ,deem n ! fram+ ( a dea?less lay ,! pa/ime ( a dr[sy summ] day4 ,b ga!r all ?y p[]s1 & wreck !m on ! v]se ,t ?\ do/ weave4 4 4 4 ,! secret w\ld/ ?\ "k ,to t\* ! he>t or fire ! blood at w8 ,let ?9e eyes ov]fl[1 ,let ?y lips quiv] ) ! passionate ?rill4 ,arise1 cry out 9 ! night2 9 ! beg9n+ ( ! night wat*es p\r out ?9e he>t l wat] be=e ! ,"l2 lift up ?9e h&s t[>ds ,him = ! life ( ?y "y *ildr56 ,! /ory ( ! *ildr5 is ! /ory ( answ]$ pray]4 ,if any ( u 7 tempt$ to d\bt :e!r1 aft] all1 pray] is a g5u9e transaction1 & answ]s to pray] no figm5t ( ! imag9ation--b some?+ z real z ! tangible ?+s ab\t u--we h only to look at "s ( our *ildr54 ,x w\ld require m fai? to believe t :at we call ! ,answ] came by *ance or by ! action ( "s un9telligible comb9ation ( controll+ influ5ces1 ?an to accept ! /atem5t 9 its simplicity--,god he>d3 ,god answ]$4 ,9 ,octob]1 #aijh1 we 7 told ( two *ildr5 ^: "m _h rec5tly di$4 ,!y 7 ) _! fa!r 9 a t[n "s di/ance f ,dohnavur2 b ! s\rce f :i* our in=mation came 0 s unreliable t we h>dly knew :e!r to believe x1 & we pray$ r a t5tative pray]3 ,if ! *ildr5 exi/1 save !m4 ,= ?ree mon?s we he>d no?+2 !n a rum\r drift$ across to u t ! eld] ( ! two _h di$ 9 a ,temple h\se4 ,! y\ng]1 six mon?s old1 0 /ill ) h] fa!r4 ,on ,*ri/mas ,eve our in=mant arriv$ 9 ! comp\nd ) 8 usual unexpect$ness4 ,! fa!r 0 ne>1 b w\ld n come ne>] because ! foll[+ day be+ ,friday 7a day ( ill-om571 he did n wi% to discuss matt]s conc]n+ ! *ild2 he w\ld come on ,saturday4 ,on ,saturday he came1 c>ry+ a de> little babe ) brilliant eyes4 ,%e almo/ sprang f him into our arms1 & we saw %e 0 mad ) ?ir/4 ,%e 0 f$ & put to sleep1 & h>dly d>+ yet to rejoice 7= ! matt] 0 n settl$ ) ! fa!r71 we took him aside & discuss$ ! case ) him4 ,!re 7 difficulties4 ,a ,temple woman _h (f]$ a l>ge sum = ! *ild1 & _h also promis$ to bequea? h] prop]ty to h]4 ,he _h he>d1 h[ev]1 t we _h little *ildr5 :o _h all b be5 giv5 to ,temples1 & he _h come to reconnoitre r ?an to decide4 ,! position 0 expla9$ to him4 ,b ! ,temple meant to him ev]y?+ t 0 wor%ipful4 ,h[ c\ld any?+ t 0 wrong be sanction$ by ! gods8 ,! *ild's "m _h be5 a dev\t ,h9du2 & z we w5t deep] & deep] into ?+s ) him1 x 0 evid5t he became m & m reluctant to leave ! little "o ) u4 ,h] "m w\ld h felt x %ame & et]nal di%on\r4 ,we 7 9 ! little pray]-room1 a fl[]y little summ]-h\se 9 ! g>d51 :5 ?is talk took place4 ,on ei!r side are ! nurs]ies1 & play+ on ! wide v]&ahs 7 happy1 heal?y babes2 _! m]ry %\ts fill$ ! spaces 9 ! conv]sation4 ,sometimes a little toddl+ ?+ w\ld f9d h] way across to ! pray]-room1 & break 9 ^u ! talk ) affectionate c>esses4 ,to our eyes ev]y?+ look$ s happy1 s incomp>ably bett] ?an any?+ ! ,temple h\se c\ld (f]1 t x 0 difficult to adju/ "o's m5tal vision s z to und]/& t ( ! ,h9du beside u1 to ^: ?\ght all ! happ9ess 0 z no?+1 because ^! babes w\ld be br\ght up )\t ca/e4 ,9 ! ,temple h\se ca/e is kept mo/ c>efully4 ,if a ,temple woman breaks ! rules ( h] community %e is out-ca/$1 excommunicat$4 ,y d n keep ca/e6 y d n keep ca/e6 ! fa!r repeat$ ov] & ov] aga9 9 utt] dismay4 ,x 0 no?+ to him t ! babes 7 well & /rong1 & z happy z ! day 0 long2 no?+ to him t cleanl9ess reign$1 s f> z con/ant sup]vision c\ld ensure x1 ?r\gh e corn] ( ! comp\nd4 ,we did n pr(ess to keep ca/e2 we welcom$ e little *ild 9 dang] ( be+ giv5 to ,temples1 irrespective altoge!r ( h] ca/e4 ,all ca/es 7 welcome to u1 = all 7 de> to our ,"l4 ,?is 0 beyond him2 & he decl>$ he w\ld nev] h br\ght 8 *ild to u1 _h he und]/ood x be=e4 ,let h] die r6 ,!re is no disgrace 9 dea?4 ,z he talk$ & exp\nd$ 8 views1 he argu$ himself fur!r & fur!r away f u 9 _s1 until he became disgu/$ ) himself = ev] hav+ consid]$ giv+ ! baby to u4 ,all ?is "t ! baby lay asleep2 & z we look$ at ! little face & not$ ! "m-want1 ! appeal+ expression ( pitiful we>9ess ev5 9 sleep1 x 0 all we c\ld d to turn away & face ! almo/ inevitable result ( ! conv]sation4 ,once ! fa!r1 a spl5did look+ man1 tall & dignifi$1 rose & /ood erect 9 sudd5 indignation4 ,:]e is ! babe8 ,i w take h] away & d z ,i w ) h]4 ,%e is my *ild6 ,we p]suad$ him to wait a:ile z %e 0 asleep1 & we w5t away to pray4 ,toge!r we wait$ ^u ,god1 ^: t\* turns h>d rocks into /&+ wat]1 & fl9t-/one into a spr++ well1 besee*+ ,him to deal ) t fa!r's he>t1 & make x melt & yield4 ,& z we wait$ x seem$ z if an answ] ( peace 7 di/9ctly giv5 to u1 & we rose f our knees at re/4 ,b j at t mom5t ! fa!r w5t to :]e 8 baby slept 9 h] cradle1 & he took h] up & walk$ away 9 a :ite heat ( wra?4 ,! little "o 0 9 an exhau/$ condition1 = %e _h n _h suitable food = at lea/ ?ree days4 ,x 0 ! "t ( our l&-w9ds1 :i* are raw & cold to ,s\? ,indian p2 & x seem$ t ! answ] ( peace mu/ mean peace aft] dea? ( cold & />vation4 ,x w\ld soon be ov]1 we knew2 tw5ty-f\r h\rs1 m or less1 & ^? great wi/ful eyes w\ld close1 & ! la/ cry w\ld be cri$4 ,b ev5 tw5ty-f\r h\rs seem$ long to ?9k ( a *ild 9 di/ress1 & h] be+ s little did n make x easi] to ?9k ( h] dy+ l t4 ,s on ,sunday morn+ ,i %ut myself up 9 my room ask+ = quick relief = h]1 or--b ?is seem$ almo/ ask+ too mu*--t %e might be giv5 back to u4 ,& z ,i pray$1 a knock came at ! door1 & a voice call$ joy\sly1 ,oh1 ,amma6 ,amma6 ,come6 ,! fa!r /&s outside ! *ur*2 he has br\ght ! baby back6 ,b ! *ild 0 almo/ 9 collapse4 ,)\t a ^w he dropp$ ! cold1 limp little body into our arms1 & pro/rat$ himself till 8 =ehead t\*$ ! du/4 ,we _h n "t to ?9k ( him1 we h>dly not$ 8 extraord9>y submission1 = all our ?\ght 0 = ! babe4 ,!re 0 no pulse to be felt1 only ^? f> too brilliant eyes look$ alive4 ,we work$ ) re/oratives = h\rs1 & at la/ ! little limbs w>m$ & ! pulse came back4 ,b x 0 a b\nd+1 unnatural pulse1 & ! re/lessness :i* sup]v5$ confirm$ ! tale ( ! brilliant eyes--! little babe _h be5 drugg$4 ,f t day on till our ,pray]-day1 ,janu>y #f?1 x 0 "o long1 unremitt+ fight ) dea?4 ,we wrote to our m$ical comrade 9 ,neyoor1 & describ$ ! symptoms1 :i* 7 all bad4 ,he c\ld give u little hope4 ,gradually ! brilliance pass$ f ! eyes1 & !y became :at ! ,tamils call dead4 ,! film =m$ aft] :i* none ( u _h ev] se5 recov]y4 ,!n we ga!r$ r\nd ! little cot 9 ! room we call ,tranquillity1 & we gave ! babe h] ,*ri/ian "n ,vimala1 ! ,spotless ,"o2 = we ?\ght t v soon %e w\ld be )\t spot & blameless1 ano!r little innoc5t 9 t happy b& ( innoc5ts :o see ,8 ,face4 ,on ! ev5+ ( ! #e?1 fri5ds ( our own ,mission :o 7 ) u seem$ to lay hold = ! life ( ! *ild ) su* fre% e>ne/ness & fai?1 t we ourselves 7 /r5g!n$4 ,next morn+ we believ$ we saw a *ange 9 ! little dea?like face1 & t ev5+ we 7 sure ! *ild's life 0 com+ back to h]4 ,x 0 n till !n we ?\ght ( ! fa!r1 :o1 aft] sign+ a pap] made out = him by our pa/or1 :o is always ready to help u1 _h return$ to 8 own t[n4 ,:5 we he>d all t _h occurr$ we saw h[ our ,god _h work$ = u4 ,x 0 n fe> ( 8 baby's dea? t _h mov$ ! man to return to u4 ,:at is ! dea? ( a babe8 ,let h] die across my %\ld]s6 ,he 0 n afraid ( ! law4 ,aft] all p]suasions _h fail$1 we _h tri$ ?reats3 ! ?+ he purpos$ to d 0 illegal4 ,! ,collector 7*ief magi/rate7 w\ld d ju/ice4 ,:at c>e ,i = y\r ,collector8 ,h[ c he f9d me if ,i *oose to lose myself8 ,h[ c y prove any?+ aga9/ me8 ,& 9 t he spoke ! tru?4 ,!re are ways by :i* ! int5tion ( ! law conc]n+ little *ildr5 c be mo/ easily & successfully circumv5t$4 ,our plead+s _h n t\*$ him4 ,is %e n my *ild8 ,0 h] "m n my wife8 ,:o has ! "r to come betwe5 ?is *ild ( m9e & me h] fa!r8 ,& s say+ he _h dep>t$ )\t ! slighte/ int5tion ( com+ back aga94 ,b a ,p[] ) :i* he did n reckon _h him 9 sight2 & a ,h& 0 laid ^u him1 & x b5t him l a re$4 ,we hope "s ray ( a pur] light ?an he _h ev] exp]i5c$ f\nd its way into 8 d>k5$ s\l1 & reveal$ to him ! s9 ( 8 int5tion4 ,b we only "k t he left 8 *ild & w5t back to 8 own t[n4 ,god _h he>d3 ,god _h answ]$4 ,,*apt] ,,xii ,to :at ,purpose8 ,,among ! close/ ( our little *ildr5's fri5ds is "o ^: "n ,i may n give1 le/ h] "w %\ld be h9d]$2 = 9 ?is "w ( sav+ ! little ones1 ?\gh we h ! sympa?y ( _m1 we naturally h to meet ! cov]t opposition ( v _m m1 & x is n well to give too explicit in=mation z to ! c5tres ( supply4 ,?is de> fri5d's help has be5 invaluable4 ,f ! fir/ %e has /ood by u1 int]e/+ h] fri5ds1 ,indian & ,engli%1 9 ! *ildr51 & /irr+ !m into practical co-op]ation4 ,!n1 :5 ! babies h be5 sav$ & _h to be c>$ = & s5t (f1 %e made no?+ ( ! tr\ble1 & above all %e has nev] be5 disc\rag$4 ,sometimes ?+s h be5 difficult4 ,"s h d\bt$1 & _m h criticis$1 & ev5 ! k9de/ h lo/ he>t4 ,?is fri5d has nev] lo/ he>t4 ,= n all ! *apt]s ( ! ,temple *ildr5's /ory c be writt5 d[n & pr9t$ = ev]yone to read4 ,we ?9k ( ! unwritt5 *apt]s1 & rememb] h[ (t5 :5 ! pressure 0 greate/ ! ?\ght ( t undisc\rag$ comrade has be5 /r5g? & inspiration4 ,no "o except ^? :o1 9 weakness & inexp]i5ce1 h tri$ to d some?+ n attempt$ be=e c und]/& h[ ! he>t prizes sympa?y j at ! difficult times1 & h[ su* brave & /eadfa/ comrade%ip is a ?+ t c nev] be =gott54 ,among ! babies sav$ ?r\gh ?is fri5d's influ5ce 0 "o ) a %ort b typical /ory4 ,! little mite 0 se5 fir/ 9 h] "m's arms1 & ! "m 0 /&+ by ! wayside1 z if wait+4 ,some?+ 9 h] attitude & appe>ance drew ! att5tion ( an ,indian ,*ri/ian1 :om our fri5d _h int]e/$ 9 ! "w1 & %e got into conv]sation ) ! "m1 :o told h] t h] husb& _h di$ a =tnight be=e ! baby's bir?1 & %e1 be+ poor ?\gh ( good ca/e1 0 mu* ex]cis$ ab\t ! little "o's future4 ,h[ c\ld %e m>ry h] prop]ly8 ,%e _h come to ! conclusion t h] be/ plan w\ld be to give h] to ! ,temple4 ,s %e 0 ev5 !n wait+ till someone f a ,temple h\se w\ld come & take h] little girl4 ,! news t su* a *ild is to be _h soon becomes kn[n to ^? :o are on ! wat*1 & x is improbable t ! "m w\ld h _h long to wait4 ,! ,*ri/ian p]suad$ h] to give up ! idea1 & ! little babe 0 sav$ & s5t to u4 ,on ! j\rney to ,dohnavur a ,temple woman *anc$ to get into ! c>riage :]e ! little baby slept 9 its basket4 ,!re 0 no?+ to tell :o %e 02 & l ! o!r wom5 9 ! c>riage1 %e 0 greatly int]e/$ 9 its /ory4 ,b pres5tly x became evid5t t h] int]e/ 0 m ?an sup]ficial4 ,%e look$ well at ! baby & 0 quiet = a "t2 !n %e said to ! ,*ri/ian :o 0 br++ x to u3 ,i see x is go+ to be an intellig5t *ild4 ,let me h x2 ,i w pay y4 ,! ,*ri/ian ( c\rse refus$1 & ask$ h] h[ %e knew x 0 go+ to be intellig5t4 ,look at its nose1 said ! ,temple woman4 ,see1 "h is money6 & %e (f]$ x4 ,let me h ! baby6 ,y c tell y\r ,missie ,ammal x di$ 9 ! tra96 ,sometimes our babies h to run great] risks ?an ?is 9 _! j\rneys s\? to u4 ,! di/ances :i* h to be cov]$ by tra9 & bullock-c>t are great1 & ! travell+ t$i\s4 ,& !re are _m delays & opportunities = difficulties to arise2 s t :5 we "k a baby is on its way to u we feel we want to wrap x r\nd 9 pray]1 s t1 ?us invisibly envelop$1 x w be protect$ & c>ri$ safely all ! way4 ,once a little *ild1 travell+ to u f a place z di/ant1 c\nt+ by "t1 z ,rome is f ,london1 0 obs]v$ by "s ,brahman m51 :o happ5$ to be at ! f> end ( ! long ?ird-class c>riage4 ,our work]1 :o 0 alone ) ! *ild1 notic$ ! :isp]+ & glances t[>d h] little *>ge1 & wrapp$ x clos] 9 its %awl1 &1 z %e said1 look$ out ( ! w9d[ z if %e 7 n at all afraid1 & pray$ mu* 9 h] he>t4 ,pres5tly a /ation 0 rea*$4 ,! language spok5 !re 0 n h] v]nacul>1 b %e und]/ood en\gh to "k some?+ 0 be+ said ab\t ! baby4 ,!n an (ficial appe>$1 & !re 0 a cry q und]/&able to h]3 ,a ,brahman baby6 ,t ,*ri/ian !re is kidnapp+ a ,brahman baby6 ,! (ficial /opp$ at ! c>riage door4 ,%e 0 pu%$ t[>ds him amid/ a confus$ *att]1 a cr[d ga!r$ at ! door 9 a mom5t1 & someone %\t$ 9 ,tamil1 above ! excit$ clam\r on ! plat=m3 ,pull h] out6 ,a ,*ri/ian ) a ,brahman baby6 ,!n did my he>t tremble6 ,i held ! baby tight 9 my arms4 ,! man 9 clo!s said1 ',%[ x to me6' ,& he look$ at its h&s & he look$ at its feet1 & he said3 ',?is is no *ild ( y\rs6' ,b z ,i began to expla9 to him1 ! tra9 mov$1 & he bang$ ! door2 & ,i prais$ ,god6 ,india is a l& :]e /range ?+s c be accompli%$ ) ! greate/ ease4 ,z all w5t well x is idle to imag9e :at might h be52 b we knew en\gh to be ?ankful4 ,among ! unwritt5 *apt]s is "o :i* t\*es a problem4 ,!re are "s little *ildr5--(t5 ! mo/ valuable to ! ,temple wom5--:o _c live ) u1 b c live ) !m1 because ! baby 9 ! ,temple h\se is nurs$ by a fo/]-"m = ! sake ( m]it1 & ?us x is giv5 its be/ *ance ( life2 :]eas ) u x is impossible to get fo/]-mo!rs4 ,indian *ildr5 ( ! ca/es approv$ = ! s]vice are n1 z a class1 z robu/ z o!rs2 ! seclud$ lives ( _! mo!rs1 & ! rigid rules p]ta9+ to wid[s 7girl-*ildr5 born aft] ! "m becomes a wid[ are1 z has be5 se51 9 special dang]71 p>tly acc\nt = ?is2 & 9 o!r cases !re are o!r reasons4 ,:atev] ! cause1 h[ev]1 ! effect is manife/4 ,! baby is seldom ! little bundle ( cont5t ( our ,engli% nurs]ies4 ,x may become s lat] on1 if all goes well4 ,(t5 x lives ^u its bir?-/r5g? = f\r mon?s1 or less1 & !n slips away4 ,we h (t5 hesitat$ ab\t tak+ su* babies2 & !n we h f\nd t by refus+ "o :o is likely to die we h disc\rag$ ^? :o 7 will+ to help u1 & ! next baby 9 dang] has be5 tak5 /raight to ! h\se :]e its welcome 0 assur$4 ,s we h h>dly ev] d>$ to refuse1 & we h tak5 little fragile ?+s ^: days we knew 7 numb]$ unless a fo/]-"m c\ld be f\nd1 = x seem$ to u t dea? ) u 0 bett] ?an life ) ! ,temple p2 & also we h n d>$ to risk los+ ! next1 :o might be heal?y4 ,"o dies1 "o lives1 say ! ,temple wom5 9 _! wisdom1 & take all :o are suitable 9 ca/e & 9 appe>ance4 ,%e w be 'fair1' or1 ,%e w be intellig5t1 settles ! matt] = !m4 ,!y give ! baby a *ance3 %\ld we d less8 ,"o night ,i woke sudd5ly ) ! feel+ ( someone ne>1 & saw1 /&+ beside my b$ out on ! v]&ah1 ! fri5d :o has s5t u s _m little ones4 ,%e _h some?+ wrapp$ 9 a %awl 9 h] arms1 & z %e mov$ ! %awl a ?9 cry smote me ) a fe>1 = a baby :o has come to /ay does n cry l t4 ,x 0 a de> little baby1 "o ( ! type ! ,temple wom5 prize1 & w take s mu* tr\ble to re>4 ,! little head 0 f9ely =m$1 & ! t9y face1 9 its m9ute p]fection ( feature1 look$ z if "s fairy _h %ap$ x out ( a cream rose-petal4 ,alas1 !re 0 t look we "k s well & fe> s mu*--t look ( n belong+ to u1 ! else:]e1 o!r-_w look4 ,b we c\ld n d ?is "w at all1 we w\ld n h ! he>t to d x1 if we did n hope4 ,s we g on hop+4 ,! baby fill$ ! next half-h\r1 = a ?+ s small c be hungry & say s2 & toge!r we heat$ ! wat] & made ! food1 till1 satisfi$ at l5g? t h] little *>ge 0 com=table1 our fri5d lay d[n to re/4 ,jesus !re=e be+ we>y ) ,8 j\rney1 sat ?us on ! well4 ,!re is some?+ 9 ! utt] we>9ess aft] a long1 hot j\rney1 end+ ) sev5 h\rs 9 a bullock-c>t ov] r\gh tracks by night1 :i* always recalls t ^w ( human tir$ness4 ,h[ ,i wi%$ t ! morn+ 7 n s ne> z ,i saw my fri5d asleep at la/6 ,a few h\rs lat] %e 0 on h] homew>d way1 & we 7 left ) our hopes & our fe>s1 & ! baby4 ,= ?ree weeks we hop$ aga9/ fe>1 till !re 0 no room left = any m hope1 or = any?+ b pray] t ! *ild might cease to suff]4 ,& aft] a mon? ( /ruggle = life1 ! t9y1 toss+ ?+ lay /ill4 ,to :at purpose is ?is wa/e8 ,0 x /range t ! "q came aga9 to ourselves1 & to o!rs too8 ,our de> fri5d's toilsome travell+--a j\rney equal 9 exp5diture ( "t to "o f ,london to ,vi5na & back aga91 & v mu* m exhau/+1 ! fai?ful nurse's pati5ce1 ! little baby's pa96 ,& all ! love t _h gr[n ?r\gh ! weeks1 & all ! ef=ts t _h fail$1 ! v tra9 ticket & b&y f>e--0 x all z wat] spilt on ! gr\nd8 ,0 x wa/e8 ,we knew 9 our he>ts x 0 n4 ,! de> little babe 0 safe2 & x might be t our hav+ tak5 h]1 ?\gh %e 0 s v delicate1 w\ld result 9 ano!r1 a heal?y *ild1 be+ sav$1 :o1 if %e _h be5 refus$1 w\ld nev] h be5 br\ght4 ,?is hope com=t$ u2 & we pray$ def9itely = its fulfilm5t1 & x 0 fulfill$4 ,= %ortly aft] t little se$ _h be5 s[n 9 dea?1 in=mation came f ! same s\rce ?r\gh :i* %e _h be5 sav$1 t ano!r *ild 0 9 dang] ( be+ adopt$ by ,temple wom52 & ?is in=mation w\ld n h be5 giv5 to our fri5d _h ! fir/ *ild be5 refus$4 ,nund9ie we call$ ?is little gift3 ! "n means ,happ9ess4 ,sometimes 9 mom5ts ( depression & disappo9tm5t we g = *ange ( air & sc5e to ! ,prmalia nurs]y2 & ! baby ,nund9ie1 o!rwise ,dimples1 ( :om m aft]w>ds1 comes runn+ up to u ) h] welcom+ smile & out/ret*$ arms2 :ile o!rs1 ) /ories z full ( com=t1 tumble ab\t u1 & cuddle1 & ne/le1 & pat u into %ape4 ,!n we take c\rage aga91 & ask =giv5ess = our fe>s4 ,x is true our problems are n always solv$1 & p]haps m difficult days are be=e2 b we w n be afraid4 ,sometimes a sudd5 light falls on ! way1 & we look up & /ill x %9es3 & :at c we d b foll[ ! ,gleam8 ,,*apt] ,,xiii ,a ,/ory ( ,com=t ,illu/ration3 ,,seela ,,is ,,! ,,baby ,,9 ,,! ,,middle4 ,%e slipp$ into ! picture at ! la/ mom5t1 & s 0 caught unaw>es4 ,mala is to ! "r2 ,null9ie to ! left4 7,?is little "o's left h& & foot are p>tially p>alyz$ ?r\gh drugg+ 9 infancy47 ,,among ! /ories ( com=t is "o t belongs to our m]ry little ,seela4 ,%e is bigg] n[ ?an :5 ! despair+ photograph] broke ?irte5 plates 9 ! va9 attempt to cat* h]2 b %e is /ill mo/ elusive & allur+1 a v]itable baby1 ?\gh ov] two ye>s old4 ,"s mon?s ago1 ! ,iy] measur$ h]1 & told h] %e 0 ?irty-two in*es ( mis*ief4 ,= weeks aft]w>ds1 :5 ask$ h] "n1 %e always repli$ ) gravity1 ,t]ty-two inses ( mi/ef4 ,all :o h to d ) babies "k h[ diff]5t !y c be 9 disposition & habits4 ,!re is ! %op-w9d[ baby1 :o %[s all h] innoc5t w>es at once to ev]yone k9d en\gh to look4 ,%e is a *>m+ baby4 ,& !re is ! little wild bird ( ! wood1 :o w answ] y\r :i/le politely1 if y "k h[ to :i/le h] note2 b %e w n tru/ h]self ne> y till %e is sure ( y4 ,seela is t sort ( baby4 ,we h wat*$ h] :5 %e has be5 approa*$ by "s unfamili> pres5ce1 & se5 h] summon all h] baby dignity to keep h] f break+ into te>s ( ov]:elm+ %yness4 ,give h] "t to obs]ve y f "u long1 droop+ la%es2 give h] "t to make sure--!n ! mis*ief w sp>kle out1 & some?+ ( ! real *ild4 ,b only some?+1 nev] all1 till y become a relation2 ) ^? :o are only acqua9tances ,seela1 l ,bala1 has _m res]ves4 ,seela's joy is to be consid]$ old & all[$ to g to ! k9d]g>t54 ,%e takes h] place ) ! bigg] babies1 & tries to d all %e sees !m d4 ,sometimes a visitor looks 91 & !n ,seela1 naturally1 w d no?+2 b if ! visitor is wise & takes no notice1 %e w pres5tly be rew>d$ by see+ ! eag] little face light up aga91 & ! fat h&s busily at "w4 ,seela is n suppos$ to be le>n+ v s]i\sly2 b %e seems to "k ne>ly z mu* z "s ( ! old] *ildr51 & h] qua9t attempts at ,engli% are mu* appreciat$4 ,seela has h] faults4 ,%e likes to h h] own way1 & once 0 obs]v$ to slap sev]ely an (f5d] almo/ twice h] own size2 b on ! :ole %e is a peaceful little p]son1 belov$ by all ! o!r babies1 bo? s5ior & junior4 ,h] great ambition is to foll[ ,*ellalu into all possible places ( mis*ief4 ,any?+ ,*ellalu c d ,seela w attempt2 & z %e is m brave ?an /eady on h] little feet1 %e has _m a n>r[ escape4 ,h] late/ escapade 0 to foll[ h] reckless lead] 9 an attempt to walk r\nd ! top ( ! back ( a l>ge arm*air1 ! cane rim ( :i* is a slipp]y slant1 two in*es wide4 ,on ! morn+ ( h] arrival1 n lik+ to leave h] ev5 = a few m9utes1 ,i c>ri$ h] to ! e>ly tea-table1 :5 %e saw ! ,iy] & smil$ h] fir/ smile to him4 ,f t day on %e has be5 8 loyal little fri5d4 ,at fir/ 8 v>i\s abs5ces f home p]plex$ h]4 ,%e w\ld toddle (f to 8 room & hunt ev]y:]e = him1 ev5 "u 8 desk & beh9d 8 wa/e-pap] basket1 & !n %e return$ to ! d9+-room ) a puzzl$ little face4 ,iy] is n6 ,:]e is he1 ,seela8 ,gone to ,heav56 0 h] inv>iable reply4 ,:5 he return$ f t di/ant sph]e %e nev] display$ ! lea/ surprise4 ,t is n our babies' way4 ,%e calmly accept$ him z a return$ possession2 /ood by 8 *air wait+ = ! invitation1 ,climb up2 climb$ up z if he _h nev] be5 away--& settl$ d[n to bliss4 ,"p ( ?is bliss consi/s 9 be+ suppli$ ) morsels ( toa/ & biscuit & occasional sips ( tea4 ,sometimes !re is t delici\s luxury1 a spoonful ( ! unmelt$ sug> at ! bottom ( ! cup4 ,= ,seela is a baby aft] all1 & does n pr(ess to be l gr[n-up p :o d n appreciate nice ?+s to eat1 be+1 ( c\rse1 entirely sup]ior to food2 b1 excitable little damsel z %e is 9 all o!r matt]s1 h] table mann]s are mo/ correct1 & %e %[s h] appreciation ( k9d att5tions 9 *>act]i/ic fa%ion4 ,a smile1 s quick "u ! black la%es t only "o on ! look-out = x w\ld see x1 a sudd5 confid+ little ne/le clos] to ! giv]--^! are h] only signs ( pleasure2 & if no notice is tak5 ( h]1 %e sits 9 sil5t pati5ce4 ,sometimes1 if polit5ess be mi/ak5 = indiff]5ce1 a %ad[ creeps into h] eyes1 a sort ( pa9$ surprise at ! obtus5ess ( ! great2 b %e r>ely makes any rem>k1 & nev] po9ts or asks1 z ! irrepressible ,*ellalu does 9 spite ( all our admonitions4 ,if1 h[ev]1 ,seela is be+ att5d$ to & f$ at judici\s int]vals1 & %e kn[s ! int5tion is to fe$ h] com=tably1 !n h] attitude is diff]5t4 ,%e feels a rem9d] w be acceptable2 & z soon z %e has dispos$ ( a piece ( biscuit1 %e quietly holds up an empty little h&1 & glances fe>lessly up to ! face t looks d[n ) a smile ^u h]4 ,?is little sil5t1 empty h&1 held up s quietly1 has (t5 spok5 to u ( ?+s unkn[n to our little girl2 & z if to en=ce ! lesson1 ! o!r babies1 to our amusem5t1 app>5tly notic+ ! gratify+ result ( ,seela's upturn$ h&1 began to hold up _! little h&s ) ! same sil5t expectancy1 till all r\nd ! table small h&s 7 rais$ 9 p]fect sil5ce1 by hopeful infants ( obs]vant habits & /rong fai?4 ,illu/ration3 ,,! ,,cottage ,,nurs]y4 ,mala1 ! r /olid-look+ little girl to ! "r ( ! photograph1 is ,seela's eld] si/]4 ,%e is n s squ>e-fac$ z ! photograph %[s h]1 & %e is mu* m int]e/+4 ,?is little "o seems to u to h 9 "s special s5se ! grace ( ,god ^u h]2 = h] nurs]y life is s happy & blameless & unselfi%1 t we r>ely h to wi% h] diff]5t 9 any?+4 ,h] com+1 ) little ,seela's1 is "o ( ! v gladde/ ( our ,ov]weights ( ,joy4 ,we he>d ( ! little si/]s ?r\gh a mission s*oolma/]1 :o--kn[+ t !y _h be5 left mo!rless1 & t a ,h9du ( good position _h obta9$ some?+ equival5t to p[]s ( gu>dian%ip1 & ?us emp[]$ _h plac$ !m ) a ,temple woman--0 mo/ anxi\s to save !m1 & wrote to u2 &1 z he express$ x1 also e>ne/ly & importunately pray$ ! b5ign ,briti% ,gov]nm5t to int]v5e4 ,! ,collector to :om ! petition 0 s5t 0 a fri5d ( ours4 ,he knew ab\t ! nurs]y "w1 & 0 ready to d all he c\ld2 b he did n want a di/urbance ) ! ,ca/e & ,temple p1 & s advis$ u to try to get ! *ildr5 privately4 ,we s5t our wise/ woman-work]1 ,ponnamal1 to ! t[n1 & %e saw ! pr9cipal p conc]n$2 b !y entirely refus$ to give up ! *ildr54 ,! man :o _h adopt$ !m _h got 8 au?ority f ! local ,indian sub-magi/rate2 & cont5d$ t z ! ,gov]nm5t _h giv5 !m to him1 no "o _h any "r to take !m f him2 & ev5 if ! ,gov]nm5t itself ord]$ me to give !m up1 ,i nev] w4 ,i w nev] let !m g4 ,?is 9 ,tamil is ev5 m explicit3 ,! hold by :i* ,i hold !m ,i w nev] let g4 ,ponnamal return$1 we>y 9 m9d & 9 body1 aft] ?ree days ( travell+ & ef=t2 %e _h caught a glimpse ( ! baby1 & ! little face haunt$ h]4 ,! eld] *ild 0 report$ v mis]able1 & %e _h se5 no?+ ( h]4 ,! gu>dian1 ( c\rse1 _h n dealt ) h] direct2 b %e he>d he _h tak5 legal advice1 & 0 sure ( 8 position4 ,!re 0 no?+ hopeful to report4 ,once aga9 we tri$1 b 9 va94 ,by ?is "t a new bond _h be5 =m$1 = ! gu>dian _h become atta*$ to little ,seela1 & sp5t 8 "t1 s we he>d1 9 play+ ) h]4 ,he let x be kn[n t no?+ w\ld ev] make him give h] up4 ,%e is 9 my h&1 & my h& w nev] let g4 ,!n sudd5ly news came t he 0 dead4 ,! baby _h sick5$ ) *ol]a4 ,he _h nurs$ h] & contract$ ! disease4 ,9 two days he _h di$4 ,he _h be5 compell$ to let g4 ,!n ! feel+ ( all conc]n$ *ang$ completely4 ,x h>dly ne$$ ! ,collector's ord]1 giv5 ) ! utmo/ promptitude1 to cause ! ,temple woman to give ! *ildr5 up4 ,to ! ,indian m9d1 quick to see ! f+] ( ,god 9 su* an ev5t1 ! ?+ 0 self-evid5t4 ,an unse5 ,p[] 0 at "w "h4 ,:o 7 !y t !y %\ld )/& x8 ,a telegram told u ! *ildr5 7 safe1 & next day we _h !m "h4 ,! baby 0 happy at once2 b ! eld] little "o1 !n a *ild ( ab\t ?ree & a half1 0 v sorr[ful4 ,%e 0 s pitifully fright5$1 too1 t at fir/ we c\ld d no?+ ) h]2 & !re 0 a look 9 h] eyes t al>m$ u1 x 0 s di/raught & un*ildlike4 ,my "m did h] be/ = !m1 wrote ! k9d s*oolma/] to ^: h\se ! *ildr5 _h be5 tak5 :5 ! ,temple woman gave !m up2 b ! eld] "o has fev]4 ,%e is always mutt]+ to h]self1 & c nei!r /& nor sit4 ,%e c\ld /& & sit n[1 only !re 0 ! mutt]+1 & ! t]rible look ( bewild]m5t worse ?an pa94 ,= days x 0 a "q ) u z to :e!r %e w\ld ev] recov] p]fectly4 ,t fir/ night we _h to give h] bromide1 & %e woke v mis]able4 ,next day %e /ood by ! door wait+ = h] "m1 z x seem$2 = "u h] brea? %e 0 con/antly :isp]+1 ,amma6 ,amma6 7,"m6 ,"m67 ,%e nev] cri$ al\d1 only sobb$ quietly e n[ & !n4 ,%e w\ld n let u t\* h]1 b %rank away t]rifi$ if we tri$ to pet h]4 ,all ?r\gh ! ?ird day %e sat by ! door4 ,?is 0 bett] ?an ! we>y /&+1 b pitiful en\gh4 ,on ! morn+ ( ! f\r? day %e sat d[n aga9 = a long wat*2 b once :5 h] little h& w5t up to bru% away a te>1 we saw !re 0 a toy 9 x1 & t gave u hope4 ,t night %e w5t to b$ ) a doll1 an empty t91 & a ball 9 h] arms2 & ! next day %e let u play ) h] 9 a quiet1 res]v$ fa%ion4 ,next morn+ %e woke happy4 ,! babies tea* u mu*1 & sometimes _! unconsci\s lessons illum9ate ! deep] exp]i5ces ( life4 ,"o su* illum9ation is connect$ 9 my m9d ) ! little trellis$ v]&ah1 %[n 9 ! photograph1 ( ! cottage us$ z a nurs]y :5 ,mala & ,seela came to u4 ,x 0 ! h\r betwe5 lights1 & five babies "u two ye>s old 7 wait+ = _! supp]--,seela1 ,t>a1 & ,evu 7always a hungry baby71 ,ruh9ie1 usually irrepressible1 b n[ 9 v l[ spirits1 & a t9y ?+ ) a face l a pansy--all five ?9k+ long+ly ( supp]4 ,^! five _h to wait till ! fre% milk came 91 z _! food 0 special2 t ev5+ ! c[s _h w&]$ home ) m ?an _! usual leisurel9ess f _! pa/ure out 9 ! jungle1 & s ! milk 0 late4 ,! babies1 :o d n und]/& ! we>y ways ( c[s1 disapprov$ ( hav+ to wait1 & 7 fracti\s4 ,to add to _! depression1 ! boy ^: duty x 0 to light ! lamps & lant]ns _h be5 deta9$1 & ! trellis$ v]&ah 0 d>k4 ,s ! five fretful babies made rem>ks to ea* o!r1 & ?rew _! toys ab\t 9 t exasp]at$ fa%ion :i* tells y ! limits ( pati5ce h be5 pass$2 & ! mo/ di/ress$ began to :imp]4 ,at ?is po9t a lant]n 0 br\ght & set beh9d me1 s t its light fell ^u ! disc>d$ toys1 miscellane\s b belov$--a *9a head long p>t$ f its body1 "o :ole new doll1 a t9 ) little /ones 9 x1 a mat*box1 & o!r sundries4 ,if any?+ w com=t !m1 _! toys w1 ,i ?\ght1 z ,i direct$ _! att5tion to ! t9 ) its pleasant rattl+ pebbles1 & ! o!r scatt]$ treasures on ! mat4 ,b ! babies look$ disgu/$4 ,toys 7 a mock]y at t mom5t4 ,evu seiz$ ! *9a head & flung x z f> z ev] %e c\ld4 ,t>a sat /olid1 ) two f+]s 9 h] m\?4 ,seela turn$ away1 evid5tly deeply hurt 9 h] feel+s1 & ! o!r two cri$4 ,n "o ( !m w\ld f9d consolation 9 toys4 ,!n ! pansy-fac$ baby1 ,prsie1 po9t$ out to ! bu%es1 :]e some?+ dang]\s1 %e 0 q sure1 0 mov+2 & %e wail$ a wail ( su* infecti\s mis]y t all ! babies h[l$4 ,& "o roll$ ov] ne> ! lant]n :i* 0 on ! floor beh9d me1 & = safety's sake ,i mov$ x1 & its light fell on my face4 ,9 a mom5t all five babies 7 tumbl+ ov] me ) little exclamations ( delight1 & !y ne/l$ on my lap1 c>ess+ & cont5t4 ,are !re n ev5+s :5 our toys h no p[] to please or soo!8 ,!re is n any re/ 9 !m or any com=t4 ,!n ! ,"o :om we love bett] ?an all ,8 de>e/ gifts comes & moves ! lant]n = u1 s t our toys are 9 ! %ad[ b ,8 face is 9 ! light4 ,& ,he makes ,8 face to %9e ^u u & gives u peace4 ,= ,?\1 ,o ,"l my ,god1 art above all ?+s be/2 4 4 4 ,?\ alone mo/ suffici5t & mo/ full2 ,?\ alone mo/ sweet & mo/ com=table4 ,?\ alone mo/ fair & mo/ lov+2 ,?\ alone mo/ noble & mo/ glori\s above all ?+s2 9 :om all ?+s are at once & p]fectly good1 & ev] h be5 & %all be4 ,& !re=e :atev] ,?\ be/[e/ ^u me beside ,?yself1 or :atev] ,?\ reveale/ or promise/ conc]n+ ,?yself1 s long z ,i d n see or fully enjoy ,!e1 is too little1 & fails to satisfy me4 ,because1 inde$1 my he>t _c truly re/ nor be entirely cont5t$ unless x re/ 9 ,!e1 & rise above all ,?y gifts & all ?+s creat$4 ,:5 %all ,i fully recollect myself 9 ,!e1 t ?r\gh ! love ( ,!e ,i may n feel myself b ,!e alone1 above all feel+ & measure 9 a mann] n kn[n to all8 ,,*apt] ,,xiv ,pickles & ,puck ,illu/ration3 ,,pickles ,,& ,,h] ,,fri5ds4 ,pickles sits ) h] ?umb 9 h] m\?1 di/ru/ful ( photograph]s4 ,,amma6 ,amma6 !n 9 baby ,tamil1 ,salala has come6 ,& "o ( ! mo/ entic+ ( ! little int]ruptions to a /eady h\r's "w scrambles ov] ! rais$ door/ep1 tripp+ & tumbl+ 9 h] eag]ness to get 94 ,n[ %e is /agg]+ happily ab\t ! room on fat1 unc]ta9 feet4 ,upsets are no?+ to ,s>ala4 ,%e %akes h]self1 rubs a bump$ head1 smiles if y smile d[n at h]1 & picks h]self up ) a /urdy indep5d5ce t promises some?+ = h] future4 ,%e has travell$ to-day1 /opp+ only to visit h] ,prma ,sittie1 a long way across ! field all by h]self4 ,%e has brav$ tumbles & captures1 = h] nurse may any m9ute discov] h] flight2 & ev5 n[1 safe 9 port1 %e keeps a w>y eye on ! door :i* op5s on ! nurs]y side ( ! comp\nd4 ,if %e ?9ks ,i am ab\t to sugge/ h] dep>ture1 %e imm$iately engages me 9 "s int]e/ ( h] own4 ,%e has ways & wiles unkn[n to any baby b h]self2 & if all seems likely to fail1 %e sits d[n on ! floor1 & fir/ puts out h] l[] lip z f> z x w g1 & !n spr+s up1 climbs ov] y1 cl+s ) all f\r limbs at once1 & buries h] curly tangle deep into y\r neck4 ,b if ! case is hopeless1 %e sits d[n on ! floor aga9 & digs h] small fi/s into h] eyes1 9 sil5t indignation & despair4 ,!n comes a h[l impossible to smo!r1 & at la/ su* bitt] bur/s ( woe z no?+ %ort ( dire necessity c =ce y to provoke4 ,?is is ,s>ala1 "o ( ! mo/ affectionate1 mo/ wilful1 mo/ w9some ( all ! babies4 ,%e is tru?ful4 ,%e has j ?is mom5t pull$ a draw+-p9 out ( its place1 :i* happ5$ to be )9 rea*1 & h] solemn ,aiyo6 7,alas67 ,look1 ,amma6 %[s %e feels %e has s9n$1 b wants to confess4 ,life w h _m a battle = ?is baby2 b surely if %e is tru?ful & lov+1 & we are lov+ & wise1 ! ,"l :o has r$eem$ h] w c>ry h] ?r\gh4 ,h] fir/ great battle royal 0 ) ! new ,sittie1,b :o imm$iately ^u arrival lov$ ! babies4 ,! battle 0 ab\t ,s>ala's ev5+ meal1 :i* %e refus$ to take f ! new ,sittie because %e _h (f5d$ h] small maje/y a few m9utes be=e by all[+ ano!r baby to %>e ! lap ( :i* ,s>ala wi%$ to h complete possession2 & ! baby _h crawl$ (f disgu/$ ) ! ways ( su* a ,sittie4 ,z a rule we avoid collisions at b$time4 ,! day %\ld end peacefully = babies2 b ! conte/ once begun _h to be c>ri$ ?r\gh1 = ,s>ala is n a baby to :om x is wise to give 9 :]e a conflict ( wills is conc]n$4 ,next morn+ x 0 evid5t %e rememb]$ all ab\t x4 ,:5 ! new ,sittie 7n[ call$ ,prma ,sittie by ! *ildr57,c came to ! nurs]y1 ,s>ala hurri$ (f & w\ld h no?+ to d ) h]4 ,f ! di/ance ( ! g>d5 %e w\ld cat* sight ( h] advanc+ =m1 & retreat r\nd a corn]4 ,sometimes if ,prma ,sittie sat d[n on ! floor & fondl$ ano!r baby1 ,s>ala w\ld crawl up f beh9d1 put h] arms r\nd h] neck1 & ev5 beg9 to sit d[n on h] knee2 b if h] ,sittie made ! fir/ advance1 %e 0 in/antly repell$4 ,?is cont9u$ = a =tnight2 & z ,s>ala 0 only a ye> & eight mon?s old at ! "t1 a =tnight's memory r a/oni%$ u4 ,9 ! end %e =got1 & n[ !re are no m devot$ fri5ds ?an ,prma ,sittie & ,s>ala4 ,b x 0 ! o!r ,sittie1 ,piria ,sittie by "n1,d :o fir/ made ,s>ala's acqua9tance4 ,%e & ,i w5t to ,neyoor toge!r :5 ! bran* nurs]y 0 !re2 & z ! new nurs]y 0 almo/ ready = ! babies1 we light5$ ! imm5se und]tak+ ( removal by c>t+ (f :atev] we c\ld ( furniture & infants4 ,s>ala has eyes :i* c smile bewit*+ly1 & a voice :i* c coo ) delici\s affection2 b ^? sweet eyes c look /ormy1 & coo+ is a s\nd remote f ,s>ala's p[]s 9 opposite directions2 s we wond]$1 z we pack$ h] into ! b&y1 :at w\ld happ5 t night4 ,if we _h kn[n ,s>ala bett] we %\ld n h wond]$4 ,all ?is *ild wants to make h] good is someone to hold on to4 ,%e woke frequ5tly dur+ ! night1 = we 7 n entirely com=table1 w$g$ sideways & close z h]r+s 9 a b>rel4 ,b all %e did :5 %e awoke 0 to pu% a s(t little arm r\nd ei!r "o or o!r ( u1 & cuddle z close z %e possibly c\ld2 ! lea/ movem5t on our "p1 h[ev]1 %e deeply res5t$ & fe>$4 ,a limpet on a rock is no?+ to ?is baby4 ,h] v toes c cl+4 ,s>ala's private "n is ,pickles4 ,h] tw9 9 mis*ief is ,puck1 & %e1 too1 is fond ( pay+ visits to ! bungal[4 ,b %e always comes z a surprise2 %e nev] ann\nces h]self4 ,y are busy ) y\r back to ! door :5 t curi\s feel+1 a s5se ( n be+ q alone1 comes ov] y1 & y turn & see an elfi% ?+1 v /ill & small & %y1 b ) eyes s comical t ,puck is ! only possible "n by :i* %e c\ld be call$4 ,se5 unexpect$ly1 play+ among ! fl[]s 9 a fragm5t ( gre5 g>m5t wa%$ to ! s(tness ( a tulip leaf1 y feel %e only ne$s a pair ( small w+s & a w& to be entirely 9 "*4 ,puck has none ( ,pickles' faults1 & a good _m ( h] virtues4 ,%e is a mo/ good-temp]$ little p]son1 lov+ to be lov$1 b equally delight$ t o!rs %\ld %>e ! pett+4 ,%e gives up to ev]ybody1 & smiles h] way ?r\gh life2 su* a comical little m\? x is1 to mat* ! comical eyes4 ,all %e ev] asks ) insi/5ce is some:]e to play4 ,b]eft ( room to play1 ,puck might become disagreeable1 ?\gh a disagreeable ,puck is some?+ unimag9able4 ,ye/]day x 0 ne$ful to keep h] 9 ! %ade2 & z a special policeman-nurse c\ld n be told (f to keep wat* ov] h]1 %e 0 ti$ by a long /r+ to ! nurs]y door4 ,at fir/ %e 0 sorely di/ress$2 b pres5tly ! comic side /ruck h]1 & %e sat d[n & began to tie h]self up m securely4 ,if !y d su* ?+s at all !y %\ld d !m bett]1 %e seem$ to ?9k4 ,& ?is is ,puck all ?r\gh4 ,%e w f9d ! laugh hidd5 9 ?+s1 if %e c4 ,sometimes 9 h] eag]ness to make ev]ybody z happy z %e is h]self %e gets into s]i\s tr\ble4 ,%e 0 h>dly able to walk :5 %e 0 discov]$ com=t+ a cry+ infant by tak+ a bottle ( milk f an old] babe 7:o1 accord+ to h] ?9k+1 _h _h en\gh7 & giv+ x to ! y\ng] "o :o seem$ to ne$ x m4 ,:at ! old] baby said is n record$4 ,puck 9 tr\ble is a pitiful sight4 ,%e tries n to give 9 to feel+s ( depression4 ,%e screws h] smil+ lips tight1 twi/s h] face into a puck]1 & %uts h] eyes till y only see two slits m>k$ by ! curly eyela%es4 ,b if h] emotions are too mu* = h] %e gives h]self up to !m ?or\ghly4 ,!re is no :9+ or :imp]+ or sulk+2 %e wails ) a wail t rivals ,pickles' h[l4 ,:at an awful *ild6 rem>k$ a visitor "o morn+1 9 a v %ock$ tone1 z %e w5t ! r\nd ( ! nurs]ies & came ^u ,puck on ! floor ab&on$ to grief4 ,we wond]$ if our fri5d knew h[ mu* m awful mo/ babies are1 & we wi%$ ! usually *>m+ ,puck _h *os5 "s o!r mom5t to disgrace h]self & u4 ,b no1 !re %e sat1 h] two small fi/s cru%$ ov] h] m\?--= we insi/ t :5 ! babes feel oblig$ to cry1 !y %all smo!r ! s\nd !re( z mu* z may be--& ! visitor retir$1 feel+1 d\btless1 ?ankful ! awful *ild 0 n h]s4 ,b ,puck's griefs are ( %ort duration4 ,t5 m9utes lat] %e 0 climb+ ! *a9 f :i* ! sw+ hangs1 try+ to fit h] little toes into ! l9ks1 & laugh+1 ) ! te>s /ill wet on h] *eeks1 because ! *a9 %ook s t %e c\ld n climb x prop]ly1 ?\gh %e tri$ x valiantly1 h& ov] head1 l a danc+ be> on a pole4 ,puck's ,gu>dian ,angel1 l ,*ellalu's1 mu/ be ev] 9 att5dance4 ,,footnotes3 ,b ,miss ,lucy ,ross4 ,c ,prma means ,belov$4 ,d ,miss ,mabel ,wade1 :o jo9$ u ,novemb] #ae1 #aijg4 ,piria1 l ,prma1 means ,belov$4 ,,*apt] ,,xv ,! ,h[l] ,,pickles & ,puck at _! wor/ & bo? toge!r are no?+ to ! ,h[l] 9 h] sep>ate capacity4 ,we call$ h] ! ,h[l] because %e h[l$4 ,we he>d ( h] fir/ ?r\gh our good ,pakium1 :o1 dur+ a pilgrimage r\nd ! di/rict1 paid a visit to ! family ( :i* %e 0 ! y\nge/ memb]4 ,%e lay 9 h] cradle asleep--,pakium k9dl$ ov] x--l an innoc5t little fl[]1 & %e once op5$ h] eyes--su* eyes6--& smil$ up 9 my face4 ,oh1 l a fl[] is ! babe6 ,& mu* spee* foll[$1 till we pictur$ a t5d]1 fl[]-l baby1 all sweetness & smiles4 ,h] /ory 0 su* z to sugge/ fe>s1 ?\gh on ! surface ?+s look$ safe4 ,h] gr&fa!r1 a f9e old man1 head ( ! h\se1 0 %elt]+ ! baby & h] "m & ?ree o!r *ildr52 = ! son-9-law _h gone to ,colombo1 :i* 9 ?is case meant he desir$ to be free f ! responsibilities ( wife & family4 ,he _h left no address1 & _h n writt5 aft] 8 dep>ture4 ,s ! old man _h ! five on 8 h&s4 ,a ,temple woman belong+ to a fam\s ,s\?-c\ntry ,temple1 kn[+ ! circum/ances1 _h made a flatt]+ (f] = ! baby1 !n j ?ree mon?s old4 ,! gr&fa!r _h refus$2 b ! gr&mo!r 0 religi\s1 & %e felt ! p9* ( ! extra five1 & secretly influ5c$ h] daught]1 s t x 0 probable ! ,temple woman w\ld w9 if %e wait$ long en\gh4 ,& ,temple wom5 "k h[ to wait4 ,illu/ration3 ,,! ,,dohnavur ,,c\ntry ,,9 ,,flood4 ,a ye> pass$ quietly4 ,we _h fri5ds on ! wat*1 & !y kept u in=m$ ( :at 0 go+ on4 ,! idea ( d$ication 0 becom+ gradually famili> to ! gr&fa!r1 & he 0 ill & times 7 h>d4 ,b /ill we c\ld d no?+1 = to himself & 8 :ole clan adoption by ,*ri/ians 0 a f> m unpleasant alt]native ?an ,temple-d$ication4 ,aft] all1 ! ,temple p nev] break ca/e4 ,once a message rea*$ u3 ,s5d at once1 = ! ,temple wom5 are ab\t to get ! baby2 & we s5t1 b 9 va94 ,a few weeks lat] a simil> message rea*$ u2 & aga9 ! long j\rney 0 made1 & aga9 !re 0 ! disappo9t+ return empty-h&$4 ,x seem$ useless to try any m4 ,ab\t t "t a comrade 9 ,nor? ,africa1 ,miss ,lilias ,trott]1 s5t u h] new little booklet1 ,! ,glory ( ! ,impossible4 ,z we read ! fir/ few p>agraphs & r\ghly translat$ !m = our ,tamil fell[-work]s1 su* a hope 0 creat$ )9 u t we laid hold ) fre% fai? & a sort ( quiet1 confid5t joy4 ,& yet1 :5 we wrote to our fri5ds :o 7 wat*+1 _! answ] 0 mo/ disc\rag+4 ,! only bright ^w 9 ! lett] 0 ! ^w ,impossible4 ,f> up 9 ! ,alp9e holl[s1 ye> by ye>1 ,god works "o ( ,8 m>vels4 ,! sn[-pat*es lie !re1 froz5 into ice at _! edges f ! /rife ( sunny days & fro/y nights2 & ?r\gh t ice-cru/ come1 unsca!d1 fl[]s 9 full bloom4 ,back 9 ! days ( ! bygone summ] ! little soldanella plant spread its leaves wide & flat on ! gr\nd to dr9k 9 ! sun-rays2 & x kept !m /or$ 9 ! root ?r\gh ! w9t]4 ,!n spr+ came & /irr$ its pulses ev5 bel[ ! sn[-%r\d4 ,& z x spr\t$1 w>m? 0 giv5 out 9 su* /range measure t x ?aw$ a little dome ( ! sn[ above its head4 ,high] & high] x grew1 & always above x rose ! bell ( air till ! fl[]-bud =m$ safely )9 x2 & at la/ ! icy cov]+ ( ! air-bell gave way & let ! blossom ?r\gh into ! sun%9e1 ! cry/all9e texture ( its mauve petals sp>kl+ l ! sn[ itself1 z if x bore ! traces ( ! fight ?r\gh :i* x _h come4 ,& ! fragile ?+s r+ an e*o 9 our he>ts t none ( ! jewel-l fl[]s ne/l$ 9 ! w>m turf on ! slopes bel[ c\ld wak54 ,we love to see ! impossible done1 & s does ,god4 ,^! 7 ! s5t5ces :i* we read toge!r4 ,to ! ,s\? ,indian imag9ation ,alp9e sn[ is some?+ q inconceivable2 b ! picture on ! cov] & sn[-sc5e photographs help$1 & ! ,indian m9d is ev] quick to appreh5d ! spiritual1 s ! booklet did its "w4 ,we h two seasons "h1 ! wet & ! dry4 ,! dry is subdivid$ into hot1 hott]1 & hotte/2 b ! wet /&s alone4 ,x is a "t :5 ! c\ntry r\nd ,dohnavur is swamp or lake accord+ to ! level ( ! gr\nd2 & we d n expect visitors--! heavy bullock-c>ts s9k 9 ! mud & make ! way too difficult4 ,if a lett] _h come j !n ask+ u to s5d = ! baby1 we %\ld c]ta9ly h tri$ to g2 b no lett] came1 & x 0 !n1 :5 ev]y?+ said1 ,impossible1 t sudd5ly all resi/ance gave way & ! gr&fa!r said3 ,let h] g to ! ,*ri/ians4 ,illu/ration3 ,,pakium ,,& ,,nave5a4 ,we 7 sitt+ r\nd ! d9n]-table "o wet ev5+1 ?9k+ ( no?+ m excit+ ?an ! fly+ & creep+ creatures :i* insi/$ ^u dr[n+ !mselves 9 our s\p1 :5 ! j+le ( bullock-bells made u look at ea* o!r incr$ul\sly2 & !n1 )\t wait+ to wond] :o x 01 we all ran out & met ,rukma runn+ 9 f ! wet d>kness4 ,x's x6 x's x6 %e cri$1 & danc$ into ! d9+-room1 decorum ?r[n to ! pools 9 ! comp\nd4 ,look at x6 & we saw a bundle 9 h] arms4 ,& x h[l$4 ,f t day on = ne>ly a week x cont9u$ consi/5tly to h[l4 ,we call$ ! little ?+ ,nave5a1 = ! "n means new2 & x 0 our ne>e/ approa* to ,soldanella1 :i* we %\ld h call$ h] if we did n keep to ,indian names = our babies4 ,new & fre% z t little fl[] ( joy1 s 0 our new little gift to u1 a new tok5 = good4 ,b fl[]s & h[l]s--! words draw _! little skirts aside & refuse to t\* ea* o!r4 ,f c]ta9 po9ts ( view1 9 ?is case z s (t51 ! sublime & ! ridicul\s 7 mu* too close toge!r4 ,! v cr[s made rem>ks ab\t ! baby :5 %e wak5$ ! morn+ ) h] h[ls4 ,m]cifully = ! family's n]ves %e fell asleep at noon2 b z soon z %e woke %e began aga91 & w5t on till bo? %e & we 7 exhau/$4 ,!re 7 no te>s1 ! big d>k eyes 7 only entirely defiant2 & ! baby /ood /raight up ) h] h&s beh9d h] back & h] m\? op5--t 0 all4 ,b we knew x meant pure mis]y1 ?\gh express$ s v aggressively2 & we coax$ & pett$ :5 %e w\ld all[ u1 & won h] confid5ce at la/1 & !n %e /opp$4 ,x took mon?s to tame ! little ?+4 ,%e _h be5 all[$ to d exactly z %e lik$2 = %e 0 h] gr&fa!r's pet1 & no "o might cross h] w4 ,we _h to g v g5tly2 b ev5tually %e und]/ood & became a de> little girl1 res]v$ b v affectionate1 & scampi% to su* a degree t ,*ellalu1 disc]n+ a cong5ial _s1 decid$ to adopt h] z h] fri5d4 ,?is fact 0 ann\nc$ to u at ! babies' ,bible-class1 :5 ! ^w fri5d1 :i* 0 new to ! babies1 0 be+ expla9$4 ,x has f\r syllables 9 ,tamil1 & ! babies love f\r-syllabl$ words4 ,!y 7 roll+ ?is juicy morsel "u _! tongues ) s\nds ( appreciation1 :5 ,*ellalu po9t$ across to ,nave5a1 & ) an air ( possession rem>k$1 ,%e is my fri5d4 ,! o!r babies nodd$ _! heads1 ,yes1 ,nave5a is ,*ellalu's fri5d6 ,nave5a look$ flatt]$ & v pleas$4 ,^! fri5ds 9 a k9d]g>t5 class are r t]rible4 ,!y are always sep>at$--z ! ,tamil w\ld say1 if "o sits nor? ! o!r sits s\?--b ev5 s !re are means ( communication4 ,?is morn+1 pass+ ! door ( ! k9d]g>t5 room1 ,i look$ 9 & saw some?+ n includ$ 9 ! "t-table4 ,we h a little yell[ bellfl[] "h :i* gr[s 9 great pr(usion2 & "s v&al taught ! babies to bl[ x up l a little balloon1 & !n snap x on ! =ehead4 ,! crack x makes is delightful4 ,we d n l ?is game1 & try to tea* ! babies to respect ! pretty fl[]s2 b !re are s _m s9s 9 ! _w1 t we d n make ano!r by actually =bidd+ x2 we tru/ to "t & s5se & good feel+ to help u4 ,s x comes to pass t ! wor/ scamps indulge 9 ?is game )\t feel+ too guilty2 & n[ ,i saw ,*ellalu ) a h&ful ( ! fl[]s1 crack+ !m at int]vals1 to ! di/raction ( ! tea*] & ! delight ( all ! class4 ,"o o!r 0 crack+ fl[]s too4 ,x 0 ,nave5a1 & !re 0 a me?od 9 h] cracks4 ,:5 ,rukma turn$ to ,*ellalu1 ,nave5a crack$ h] fl[]4 ,:5 %e turn$ to ,nave5a1 !n ,*ellalu crack$ h]s4 ,h[ !y _h elud$ ! se>* :i* prec$es admission to ! k9d]g>t5 nobody knew2 b !re !y 71 ea* ) a goodly h&ful ( bells4 ,at a ^w f ,rukma1 h[ev]1 !y h&$ !m ov] to h] ) an indulg5t smile1 & ev5 (f]$ to se>* ! o!r babies 9 case !y _h secret$ any2 & z ,i left ! room ! lesson cont9u$ z be=e1 b ! fri5ds' int5tion 0 evid5t3 !y _h hop$ to be turn$ out toge!r4 ,,*apt] ,,xvi ,! ,neyoor ,nurs]y ,! roads are rugg$1 ! precipices /eep2 !re may be feel+s ( dizz9ess on ! heights1 gu/s ( w9d1 peals ( ?und]1 nights ( awful gloom4 ,fe> !m n6 ,!re are also ! joys ( sunlight1 fl[]s su* z are n 9 ! pla91 ! pure/ ( air1 re/ful nooks1 & ! />s smile !nce l ! eyes ( ,god4--,p,,re ,,didon 7translat$ by ,rev4 ,ar?ur ,g4 ,na%74 ,illu/ration3 ,,on ,,! ,,road ,,to ,,neyoor4 ,,& n[ = a *apt] ( hi/ory4 ,we _h n be5 long at ! new "w be=e we discov]$ difficulties unimag9$ be=e1 & impossible to describe 9 detail4 ,"s ( ^! conc]n$ ! heal? ( ! y\ng] *ildr52 & ev5tually x seem$ be/ to move ! infants' nurs]y to )9 rea* ( m$ical help1 & keep ! bigg] babies & eld] *ildr51 ^: protection 0 ano!r grave anxiety1 ) u at ,dohnavur4 ,%ortly be=e t "t we _h be5 br\ght into t\* ) ! m$ical mission>ies at ,neyoor1 9 ,s\? ,travancore4 ,! s5ior mission>y1 ,dr4 ,fells1 0 ab\t to retire2 b 8 successor1 ,dr4 ,b5tall1 cordially agre$ to let u r5t a little h\se 9 ! village & fill x ) babies1 ?\gh he knew su* a h\seful might mat]ially add to ! fulness ( 8 already ov]fl[+ day4 ,he1 & aft]w>ds ,dr4 ,davidson 7n[ ! only survivor at ,neyoor ( t k9d trio ( doctors71 seem$ to ?9k no?+ a tr\ble if only x help$ a fri5d4 ,s ! little h\se 0 tak5 & ! babies in/all$4 ,illu/ration3 ,,on ,,! ,,outskirts ,,( ,,nag]coil1 ,,:]e ,,we ,,/opp$ ,,to ,,re/4 ,! fir/ day1 ,septemb] #be1 #aije1 is a day to be rememb]$4 ,i _h gone on be=e to prep>e ! h\se1 & = a day & a half wait$ 9 unc]ta9ty z to :at _h happ5$ to ! little p>ty :i* 0 to h foll[$ close beh9d4 ,i _h left "o baby ill4 ,%e 0 ! fir/ *ild s5t to u f ! ,can>ese c\ntry2 & ,i ?\ght ( ! fri5ds :o _h s5t h]1 newly int]e/$ & /irr$ to seek ^! little ones1 & ( :at x w\ld mean ( disc\ragem5t to !m if %e 7 tak51 & my he>t held on = h]4 ,at la/ ! c>ts appe>$ 9 sight4 ,x 0 ! w9dy season1 & six c>ts _h be5 ov]turn$ on ! road1 s !y _h travell$ sl[ly4 ,!n a :eel came (f "o ( _! c>ts & an accid5t 0 n>r[ly av]t$4 ,?is _h caus$ ! delay4 ,! baby ab\t :om ,i _h fe>$ _h recov]$ 9 "t to be s5t on4 ,%e 0 soon q well1 & has cont9u$ well f t day to ?is4 ,h[ famili> ! road betwe5 ,dohnavur & ,neyoor became to u1 z ! mon?s pass$ & frequ5t j\rneys 7 made ) little new babies6 ,sometimes ^? j\rneys 7 v we>isome4 ,!re 0 great heat1 or a du/-lad5 w9d fill$ ! b&y to suffocation & blew out ! _s-lamp :5 we /opp$ to prep>e ! babies' food4 ,h[ glad we us$ to be :51 9 ! e>ly ev5+1 ! :ite gleam ( ! /ret* ( wat] outside ,nag]coil appe>$ 9 sight6 ,we us$ to /op & ba! ! babies1 & fe$ !m "u "s conv5i5t trees1 & !n g on to our fri5ds ) :om we 7 to sp5d ! night1 tru/+ t ! soo?+ effect ( ! ba! & food w\ld n pass (f until aft] our arrival4 ,^? fri5ds1 our comrades ( ! ,l4,m4,s41 l ! ,m$icals at ,neyoor1 seem$ made ( k9dness4 ,h[ (t5 _! welcome has re/$ u aft] ! long day6 ,next morn+ we tri$ to />t e>ly1 s z to arrive at ,neyoor be=e ! sun %one 9 fev]-?reat5+ /r5g? /raight 9 ?r\gh ! op5 end ( ! c>t4 ,?is plan1 h[ev]1 prov$ too difficult1 s we f\nd x bett] to travel sl[ly /raight on f ,dohnavur to ,neyoor4 ,9 ?is way we miss$ ! blaz+ sun2 b we also miss$ ! refre%m5t ( our fri5ds at ,nag]coil1 & arriv$ m or less tir$ out1 aft] a j\rney :i*1 because ( sl[ progress & frequ5t /ops1 0 equal 9 "t to "o f ,london to ,m>seilles4 ,b ! welcome at ! nurs]y made up = ev]y?+4 ,h[ vividly ! photograph recalls x6 ,! h\se op5$ ^u ! ma9 /reet ( ! village1 & !re 0 ne>ly always a wat*] on ! look-out = u4 ,sometimes x 0 ,isaac1 our good man-(-all-"w1 :o nev] fail$ ,ponnamal ?r\gh ! two ye>s he 0 ) u4 ,!n we w\ld he> a call1 & ,ponnamal 7we us$ to call h] ! ,pr9cess1 b dignity gives place to some?+ m human at su* mom5ts7 w\ld come fly+ d[n ! pa? ) a face :i* made words sup]flu\s4 ,!n !re 0 ! scramble out ( ! b&y1 & ! h&+ d[n ( babies & exclamations ab\t !m2 & all ! nurses seem$ to be kiss+ u at once & mak+ _! amaz$ babies kiss u1 & ev]y?+ 0 = "o happy mom5t bewild]+ly delightful4 ,!n !re 0 ! run r\nd ! cradles 9 :i* small] babies 7 sleep+1 & an eag] comp>+ ( notes z to ! improvem5t ( ea*4 ,& if !re 7 no improvem5t1 h[ well "o rememb]s ! smo!r$ s5se ( disappo9tm5t--smo!r$ 9 public at lea/1 le/ ! nurses %\ld be disc\rag$4 ,!n came a cup ( tea on ! mat 9 ! little front room1 :]e f\r :ite hammock-cradles hung1 "o 9 ea* corn]2 :ile ,ponnamal sat beside me ) ?ree babies on h] knee & two or ?ree m some:]e ne> h]4 ,! babies us$ to /udy me 9 _! wise & s]i\s fa%ion1 & !n make c>eful advances4 ,& s we w\ld make fri5ds4 ,ponnamal _h always mu* to tell ab\t ! exhau/less k9dness ( ! doctors & _! wives & ! lady sup]9t5d5t ( ! hospital4 ,& ! *ief ,tamil m$ical ,evangeli/ _h be5 true to 8 "n1 :i* means ,bless$ness4 ,once1 9 mu* di/ress ( m9d1 we s5t a little babe to ! nurs]y1 h>dly d>+ to hope = h]4 ,:5 %e arriv$1 ! doctors 7 bo? away on t\r1 & ! m$ical ,evangeli/ 0 9 *>ge4 ,he att5d$ to h] at once1 & by ,god's grace ^u 8 "w 0 able to relieve ! little *ild1 :o has prosp]$ ev] s9ce4 ,b ,i mu/ leave unrecord$ _m acts ( helpfulness4 ,9 ^? e>ly days ( d\bt & difficulty1 almo/ =gott5 by u n[1 we beckon$ to our p>tn]s :i* 7 9 ! o!r %ip1 & _! ,ma/] & ours w n =get h[ !y held out will+ h&s & help$ u4 ,x 0 n always pla9 sail+1 ev5 at ,neyoor4 ,y are fight+ ,satan at a po9t ^u :i* he is v s5sitive2 he w n leave y long 9 peace1 wrote an exp]i5c$ fri5d4 ,on ,palm ,sunday1 #aijg1 our fir/ little b& ( "y girls1 fruit ( ?is special "w1 confess$ ,*ri/ 9 baptism1 & we /ood by ! %9+ rea* ( wat]1 & ta/$ ( a joy s pure & ?rill+ t no?+ ( e>? may be lik5$ to x4 ,a =tnight lat] we 7 ord]$ to ! hills1 & !n ! tr\ble came4 ,! imm$iate cause 0 ov]cr[d+4 ,:y did we ov]cr[d8 ,fri5ds at home to :om ! facts ab\t ,temple s]vice 7 new1 7 /irr$ to e>ne/ pray]4 ,out "h fell[-mission>ies help$ u to save ! *ildr54 ,god he>d ! pray] & bless$ ! "w1 & *ildr5 began to come4 ,soon our "o little room became too full4 ,we _h babies 9 ! bungal[ & on our v]&ah1 babies ev]y:]e4 ,!n money came to build two m rooms1 b !y 7 soon too full4 ,at ,neyoor ! pressure 0 worse1 = we c\ld only r5t two small h\ses2 & ?\gh we put up mat %elt]s1 & ! *ildr5 liv$ z mu* z possible 9 ! op5 air1 x 0 difficult to manage4 ,b h[ c\ld we refuse ! little *ildr58 ,! ,temple wom5 7 ready to take !m if we _h refus$4 ,_! h\ses are nev] too full4 ,!re 0 no o!r nurs]y to :i* !y c\ld be s5t4 ,little *ildr5 :o _h pass$ ! tr\blesome infant /age c\ld sometimes f9d a home else:]e2 b only ! ,temple h\ses 7 op5 at all times to babies4 ,c\ld we h writt5 to ! fri5d :o _h sav$ a little *ild3 ,h& h] back to ! ,temple4 ,x is ! w ( our ,fa!r t ?is little "o %\ld p]i%8 ,%\ld we h done x8 ,we d>e n d x4 ,we pray$ t help w\ld be s5t to build new nurs]ies1 & we w5t on & did our be/2 b x 0 difficult4 ,we _h j rea*$ ! hills 9 e>ly ,april1 & 7 =bidd5 to return1 :5 news rea*$ u ( a fatal epidemic ( dys5t]y :i* _h brok5 out 9 ! ,neyoor nurs]y4 ,unseasonable ra9s _h fall5 & driv5 ! babies indoors2 ?is increas$ ! ov]cr[d+4 ,! doctors 7 away4 ,lett]s tell+ u ab\t ! disa/] _h be5 lo/--h[1 we nev] knew--s t ! second :i* rea*$ u1 tak+ x = grant$ we _h ! fir/1 gave no details1 only ! names ( ! smitt5 babes--n9ete5 ( !m1 & five dead4 ,!n tr\ble foll[$ tr\ble4 ,:ile he 0 yet speak+1 !re came also ano!r4 ,"s evil m5 :o _h s\ght to injure u be=e1 caus$ u inf9ite anxiety4 ,& = a "t t _c be c\nt$ 9 days or 9 weeks x 0 l liv+ ?r\gh a nightm>e1 :5 ev]y?+ happ5s 9 pa9ful confusion & ! s5se ( oppression is complete4 ,illu/ration3 ,,! ,,neyoor ,,nurs]y4 ,out ( ! mael/rom came a lett] f ,ponnamal4 ,we are be+ com=t$1 %e wrote4 ,y w be long+ to come to u1 b oh1 d n come6 ,if y 7 "h all y\r /r5g? w\ld be giv5 to fight+ ?is battle ) dea?1 & y w\ld h no /r5g? left = pray]4 ,god want$ to h "o ( u free to pray2 & s ,he has tak5 y up to ! m\nta91 z ,he took ,moses :5 ! p 7 fight+ d[n 9 ! pla94 ,?is 0 ! true inw>d mean+ ( x all1 & ,i knew x4 ,b ,ponnamal is f> f /rong1 & ,i fe>$ = h]2 & to /ay away ) ! babies ill--x 0 ! v h>de/ ?+ ,i _h ev] be5 ask$ to d4 ,:5 ! tr\ble pass$ !re 7 t5 9 heav54 ,"o1 a little *ild ( two1 _h be5 sav$ s wond]fully f ,temple d$ication t we _h look$ =w>d to a future ( special bless+ = h]2 & ano!r 0 a v lovely babe1 de> to ! mission>y :o1 aft] mu* toil & _m disappo9tm5ts1 _h be5 com=t$ by sav+ h]4 ,ea* ( ! t5 _h co/ someone mu*4 ,b ?is is an e>?ly po9t ( view4 ,!y _h co/ ,him mo/ :o _h tak5 !m1 & he is only an own] 9 "n :o has no "r to d z he w ) 8 own4 ,! o!r side1 ! purely human side1 press$ heavily j !n4 ,! doctors _h mo/ k9dly at once ord]$ a mission room1 vacat$ at t season1 to be l5t to ! nurs]y1 & ano!r little h\se 0 tak5 = ! mon?4 ,h[ ,ponnamal kept all f\r h\ses go+ 9 an ord]ly fa%ion1 h[ %e kept h] nurses toge!r ?r\gh t "t ( almo/ panic1 & h[ %e h]self1 frail & delicate z %e is1 kept up till all 0 ov]1 we _c und]/& f any po9t ( view b ! ,div9e4 ,%e only broke d[n once4 ,x 0 :5 h] de>e/ *ild1 our m]ry1 beautiful little ,he>t's ,joy1 :o1 hav+ m /r5g? ?an mo/1 _h battl$ long] & almo/ recov]$1 sudd5ly sank4 ,! visible cause 0 t a special nutri5t1 :i*1 be+ co/ly1 we /ock$ 9 small quantities1 ran %ort1 & ! fre% supply rea*$ ! nurs]y j too late4 ,if only x _h come ye/]day6 moan$ ,ponnamal1 & we ) h] :5 we he>d ( ! s]ies ( contretemps :i* _h delay$ its arrival4 ,! torture ( second causes is z ! blackness ( d>kness1 b ! ,"l gave deliv]ance f x2 = j z %e _h to "p ) all t 0 left h] ( our little ,he>t's ,joy1 a lett] came f ,dr4 ,davidson :i* 0 ,god's own bless$ com=t to a he>t almo/ brok54 ,%e nev] ref]s to t lett] )\t ! quick te>s />t+4 ,i c\ld let my little treasure g aft] ,i read t lett]4 ,x /r5g!n$ me4 ,:ile all ?is 0 go+ on 9 ,neyoor1 ,*ellalu1 !n j two ye>s old1 0 v ill 9 ,dohnavur4 ,mr4 & ,mrs4 ,walk] 7 /ill !re1 & !y nurs$ h] night & day2 b at la/ a lett] came1 evid5tly meant to prep>e me = fre% sorr[4 ,e little lamb belongs to ! ,good ,%eph]d1 n to u1 ! lett] said1 & told ( a temp]ature #ajf & ris+4 ,! *ild1 all _s & frolic1 _h little res]ve /r5g?1 & !re 0 n mu* cause = hope4 ,b we 7 sp>$ ?is p>t+4 ,*ellalu is ) u /ill4 ,! sky 0 cle>+ aga9 & we 7 beg9n+ to brea! freely1 :5 ! wor/ t _h ev] t\*$ u 9 all our ye>s ( "w came sudd5ly ^u u4 ,h[ small ?+s t affect ! body appe> :5 ! po9t ( attack :eels r\nd to ! s\l6 ,! dea? ( all ! babies seem$ z no?+ comp>$ ) ! fall+ away ( "o s\l4 ,b ,god is ! ,god ( ! waves & ! bill[s1 & !y are /ill ,8 :5 !y come ov] u2 & aga9 & aga9 we h prov$ t ! ov]:elm+ ?+ does n ov]:elm4 ,once m by ,8 int]position deliv]ance came4 ,we 7 ca/ d[n1 b n de/roy$4 ,a "t ( calm succe$$ ?is /orm4 ,money came to build nurs]ies at ,dohnavur1 & buy m ( ! special nutri5ts we s mu* requir$4 ,! ,neyoor remnant pick$ up1 & ! nurses took he>t aga94 ,i w5t out to !m z soon z ,i c\ld aft] our return f ! hills1 & f\nd ^? :o 7 left well & /rong4 ,!y %all see ,8 face _h be5 ! text 9 ,daily ,light1 ! ev5+ ! news rea*$ me ( ! little procession heav5w>ds4 ,i look$ at ! t5 names writt5 9 ! m>g9 ( my book2 &1 recall+ ! /ory ( ea*1 c\ld be glad !y h se5 ! face ( ! ,"o :o loves !m be/4 ,l[] d[n on ! page come ! words1 ,we %all be satisfi$4 ,we ?\ght ( our babies satisfi$ s soon2 & !n we knelt toge!r & said1 ,ev5 s1 ,fa!r3 = s x seeme? good 9 ,?y sight4 ,pretty pictures all 9 col\rs & bright sun%9e tempt "o to l+] ov] t visit4 ,i c see ! :ite hammocks slung f ! trees 9 ! nurs]y comp\nd1 & happy baby-faces look+ out ( !m4 ,& ano!r %[s me "o :o _h be5 l a si/] to ,ponnamal1 light5+ h] load :5ev] %e c\ld2 sitt+ ) two de> babies 9 h] arms1 & ano!r cl++ r\nd h] neck4 ,%e comes & helps u (t5 9 ! morn+s :5 we are v busy1 said ,ponnamal ab\t ! doctor's wife1 z ,i notic$ ! babies' affection = h] & h] sweet1 k9d ways ) !m4 ,sometimes :5 ,i am feel+ d[n & home-sick1 %e comes 9 l ?is & plays ) ! babies1 & *e]s u all up4 ,! ,indian woman is v home-lov+4 ,only devotion to ! *ildr5 c\ld h kept ! nurses & ,ponnamal s long 9 exile = _! sake2 & !re 7 times :5 ev5 ,ponnamal's brave he>t sank4 ,!n ^! love-t\*es help$4 ,:5 ! "t came = ! nurs]y p>ty to leave ,neyoor & return to ,dohnavur1 aft] two & a half ye>s 9 t hospitable mission1 we 7 sorry to "p4 ,days l ! days we _h pass$ ?r\gh te/ ! /uff ( :i* s\ls are made1 & !y prove :at we call fri5d%ip4 ,aft] ! fire has sp5t itself1 ! f9e gold %9es out purifi$1 & !re is some?+ solemn 9 its light4 ,we _h gr[n close to our fri5ds 9 ,neyoor2 b ! cl\d _h mov$1 s f> z we c\ld read ! sign1 & x seem$ "r to return4 ,! mission>ies 7 away :5 ! day came1 b ! ,*ri/ians surr\nd$ ,ponnamal ) tok5s ( goodwill4 ,! nurs]y has be5 l a little light 9 our mid/1 !y said2 & ?is ^w *e]$ h] m ?an all o!r words4 ,& s f>ewell$1 !y arriv$ home1 all glad & w>m ) ! gl[ t comes :5 he>ts meet ea* o!r & ea* f9ds ! o!r k9d4 ,,*apt] ,,xvii ,9 ! ,comp\nd & ,ne> x ,illu/ration3 ,,! ,,old ,,nurs]y4 ,,! ,,room ,,( ,,joy4 ,,n[ ,i "k :y ,god put y 9 ,dohnavur :5 ,he want$ ?is "w done4 ,he hid y f ! eyes ( ! _w = ! little *ildr5's sake4 ,he knew ?is "w c\ld nev] h be5 done by ! road-side1 s ,he hid y4 ,! speak] 0 a ,*ri/ian fri5d f ,palamcottah1 an ,indian lawy] :o1 = ! fir/ "t1 _h come out to see u4 ,he _h f\nd our approa*es appall+1 & _h wond]$ at fir/ :y we liv$ 9 su* an out-(-!-way place1 ?ree or f\r miles f ! ne>e/ road1 & tw5ty-f\r f civilisation4 ,:5 he saw ! *ildr5 he und]/ood4 ,lat]1 he help$ u 9 an attempt to save two little ones 9 dang]1 & insi/$ n only ^u pay+ 8 own & our work]'s exp5ses1 b 9 s5d+ u a gift = ! nurs]ies4 ,) ! gift came a lett] full ( lov+1 ,indian sympa?y2 & aga9 he add$ z be=e3 ,! ,"l hid y 9 t quiet place = ! little *ildr5's sake4 ,sometimes :5 ! inconv5i5ces ( jungle life press ^u u1 we rememb] our fri5d's words3 ,?is "w c\ld nev] h be5 done by ! road-side1 s ,he hid y4 ,we h *ildr5 ) u :o w\ld n h be5 safe = a day _h we liv$ ne> a l>ge t[n or ne> a railway4 ,! /ret* ( op5 c\ntry betwe5 u & ,palamcottah 7! ,*ur* ,mission>y ,society c5tre ( ! ,t9nevelly di/rict71 to cov] :i*1 by bullock-c>t1 takes z long z to travel f ,london to ,brussels1 is n consid]$ v safe = solit>y ,indian travell]s1 z ! robb] clan frequ5t x1 & ?is is an add$ protection = ! *ildr54 ,sev]al times1 to our k1 unwelcome visitors h be5 det]r$ f mak+ a raid ^u u1 by ! rum\r ( ! robb]s on ! road4 ,we are also mo/ m]cifully q out ( ! beat ( ! ord9>y exploit] ( missions2 few except ! really ke5 c>e = su* a j\rney2 s t we get on ) our "w un9t]rupt$ by any?+ b ! occasional arrival ( welcome fri5ds & comrades4 ,^!1 :5 !y visit u = ! fir/ "t1 are usually mu* a/oni%$ to f9d some?+ almo/ civilis$ out 9 ! wilds1 & !y walk r\nd ) an air ( surprise1 & q inspir+ appreciation1 be+ k9dly pleas$ ) little1 because !y _h look$ = less4 ,illu/ration3 ,,! ,,c\rty>d4 ,! comp\nd 9 :i* ! nurs]ies are built is a field1 b\nd$ on ?ree sides by fields1 & on ! f\r? by ! bungal[ comp\nd4 ,! ,we/]n ,ghauts ) _! foo?ills make x a beautiful place4 ,! build+s are n beautiful4 ,) u1 z else:]e1 d\btless1 ev5 ! break ( a gable 9 ! /raight1 b>n-l ro( makes a diff]5ce 9 ! e/imate1 & we h nev] _h a m>g9 = luxuries4 ,b ! walls are col\r$ a s(t t]ra-cotta1 ! ro(s are a dull r$2 :ile ! por*es 7hidd5 by ! palm trunks 9 ! photograph7 are a mass ( gre5]y & bloom2 & ! g>d5 at ! mom5t ( writ+ is rejoic+ 9 ov] a hundr$ lilies1 brilliant yell[ & flame col\r1 ea* head ) its _m fl[]s ris+ sep>ate & radiant 9 ! sun%9e4 ,!n we h ole&]s1 crimson & p9k & :ite1 & little "y hibiscus trees1 crimson & rose & cream4 ,! ar*es 9 ! new nurs]y g>d5 are cov]$ ) ! lilac ( morn+-glory2 & ! ,pray]-room 9 ! middle ( ! g>d5 is a mass ( violet passion-fl[]1 ! pretty p9k antigone1 & />ry jessam9e4 ,! v h$ges at ?is season are out 9 yell[ fl[]1 & a trellis r\nd ! nurs]y kit*5 is a delight ( col\r2 s ?\gh our build+s are simple1 we ?9k ! l9es h fall5 unto u 9 pleasant places4 ,! fir/ picture %[s ! old nurs]y1 us$ n[ = ! k9d]g>t54 ,x op5s (f ! c\rty>d %[n 9 ! second photo4 ,?is c\rty>d s]ves z an op5-air room1 a bright little place :i* is fill$ ) m]ri] *ildr5 ?an ! sob] photograph %[s4 ,tamils old & "y move :5 !y laugh or ev5 smile2 9 fact !y wriggle4 ,be+ /ill1 ) !m1 meant be+ s]i\sly subdu$2 & s1 :]e "t-exposures 7 requir$1 we _h to *oose betwe5 solemn photos1 or no photos at all4 ,op5+ (f ! c\rty>d on ! opposite side to ! k9d]g>t5 is a room us$ z a /ore-room & ,bible-class room comb9$4 ,x 0 s v uncom=table t la/ ,*ri/mas1 z a surprise = ! *ildr51 we divid$ ! room into two halves ) a curta9 betwe54 ,_! half is made pretty ) pictures & texts1 pa9t$ 9 blue on pale br[n wood4 ,! *ildr5 call ?is "p ( ! room ! ,tab]nacle4 ,! "p beyond ! curta9 is ! c\rt ( ! ,g5tiles4 ,! ,com+-,day ,fea/s are a feature ( ,dohnavur life4 ,n[ t !re are s _m fea/s to celebrate1 we f9d x m conv5i5t to comb9e2 & ! photograph ov]leaf %[s z mu* z x c ( "o su* happy fea/4 ,! *ildr5 :o are be+ ft$ are di/+ui%$ f ! o!rs by hav+ fl[]s 9 _! hair4 ,no ,indian fea/ is complete )\t fl[]s4 ,jessam9e is ! fav\rite1 b ! prettie/ wrea?s are made ( p9k ole&]2 & sometimes a girl w surprise u ) a new & lovely comb9ation1 z ( br[n fl[]+ grasses & yell[ ,tecoma bells4 ,illu/ration3 ,a ,,com+-,,day ,,fea/4 ,opposite ! k9d]g>t5 room is ! fir/ ( ! two new nurs]ies--! lively ,p>rot-h\se4 ,?is nurs]y1 really ! ,t>aha 7,/>1 call$ aft] its ,engli% giv]1 ^: "n means />7 is ! abode ( ! middle-ag$ babies1 ag$ betwe5 two ye>s & f\r4 ,mo/ ( ^! att5d ! k9d]g>t51 & are v pr\d ( ! fact4 ,! ,prmalia nurs]y 7,abode ( ,love71 giv5 by two fri5ds 9 memory ( a "m translat$1 lies beyond ! ,t>aha4 ,"h ! t9y infants live1 & we call x ! ,m5ag]ie4 ,?is nurs]y1 l ! o!r1 looks out on ! glori\s m\nta9s4 ,if beautiful ?+s c make babies good1 ours %\ld be v good4 ,on ! ea/]n side ( ! field we h lately built two small sick-rooms1 us$ (t5] z ov]fl[ nurs]ies4 ,^! little rooms h names mean+ peace & tranquillity2 & ^? ( u :o h liv$ 9 !m ) our babies1 sick or well1 f9d ! names appropriate4 ,9 ! =egr\nd !re is a g>d51 9 ! backgr\nd ! m\nta92 & to give purpose to x all1 ! =egr\nd is full ( life4 ,a new nurs]y n[ be+ built is a welcome gift f ,au/ralia2 & a new field ) a noble tree1 9 ^: %ade a hundr$ *ildr5 c\ld play1 is ! gift ( a fri5d :o /ay$ ) u = "o bright week la/ ye>4 ,all ?is is a lat] developm5t1 un?\ght ( :5 our arti/ fri5d 0 ) u4 ,we h (t5 wi%$ = him s9ce ! nurs]ies fill$4 ,:5 he 0 ) u our *oice ( subject 0 v limit$3 n[1 :]ev] we look we see pictures1 :i* to be prop]ly caught ask = col\r photography4 ,! /ory ( ^! build+s is ! /ory ( ! ,rav5s1 s old & yet s new4 ,:5 fir/ ! "w began1 we _h only "o mud-floor$ room = nurs]y1 kit*51 b$room1 & ev]y?+ else t 0 ne$$4 ,we h>dly knew ourselves :]eunto ?+s w\ld gr[1 & fe>$ to run be=e ! ,"l by ev5 a pray] = build+s4 ,& yet we c\ld n g on z we 74 ,! birds 7 soon too _m = ! ne/1 & we ne$$ m ne/s4 ,no "o knew ( our ne$2 = visitors at t "t 7 few at ,dohnavur1 & we told no "o4 ,b money began to come4 ,we v5tur$ on a s+le room )\t a v]&ah or ev5 f\ndations--built ( sun-dri$ bricks z inexp5sively z possible4 ,b x 0 a palace to u4 ,:ile we 7 build+ x1 m little *ildr5 came4 ,we felt we %\ld ne$ m room1 b _h n m money2 s we told ! build]s to wait = a day :ile we gave ourselves to pray] ab\t ! matt]4 ,0 ! "w go+ to gr[ mu* m8 ,we 7 fe>ful ( mak+ mi/akes4 ,7 we "r to incur fre% responsibility8--= build+s ne$ to be kept 9 condition1 & ! *eap] !y are ! m c>e !y ne$4 ,no "o at home 0 responsible = u4 ,no "o _h au?oris$ ?is new "w4 ,x w\ld n be fair to saddle ^? on :om ! burd5 might ev5tually fall ) responsibilities = :i* !y 7 n responsible4 ,& yet surely ! "w ( sav+ ^! little *ildr5 _h be5 giv5 to u to d8 ,someone 0 responsible4 ,surely1 unless we 7 utt]ly wrong & _h mi/ak5 ! ,%eph]d's ,voice1 surely ,he 0 responsible6 ,he c\ld n mean u to se>* = ! lambs = :om only ! wolves _h be5 se>*+1 & !n leave !m out 9 ! op51 f\nd b unfold$1 or pack$ s close 9 ! little fold t !y c\ld n gr[ z little lambs %\ld8 ,we roll$ ! burd5 (f t day z to ! ultimate responsibility1 & we ask$ def9itely = all t 0 ne$$ to build ano!r room4 ,?ree days lat] a regi/]$ lett] came f a bank 9 ,madras4 ,x conta9$ an anonym\s gift ( "o hundr$ rupees1 & 0 m>k$1 ,= a new nurs]y4 ,! date %[$ t x _h be5 po/$ 9 ,madras on ! day ( our wait+ ^u ,god = guidance z to ,8 wi%es4 ,a few days lat]1 ! same am\nt1 ) ! same direction z to its use1 0 s5t to u f ! same bank4 ,! giv]1 z we knew long aft]w>ds1 0 a fell[-mission>y 9 ,t9nevelly1 ^: ord] to s5d ^! sums to u 0 giv5 be=e ev5 we ourselves _h fully und]/ood ! mean+ ( ! lead+4 ,! second room 0 built on to ! fir/1 & ! *ildr5 call$ x ! ,room ( ,joy4 ,illu/ration3 ,,! ,,r$ ,,lake4 ,wat] ,palms1 ) ,m\nta9s 9 ! backgr\nd4 ,!re are no secrets 9 ,india4 ,! ,h9du masons 7 amaz$ at :at !y at once recognis$ z ! h& ( ! ,"l ^u ! "w1 & !y spread ! /ory ev]y:]e4 ,lat]1 :5 !y built ! nurs]y :]e poor little ,mala /ood & m\rn$1 !y und]/ood :y !y _h to /op be=e ! v]&ah 0 built4 ,only en\gh 0 9 h& to build ! b>e room2 b to _! eyes1 z to ours1 a v]&ah 0 mu* ne$$1 & !y 7 cont5t to wait till :at 0 requir$ = "o came4 ,9 ?is l& ( blaz+ sun%9e & dr5*+ monsoon a h\se )\t a v]&ah is h>dly habitable1 & a small squ>e room )\t "o has a ,manx-cat appe>ance4 ,! /ory ( ! rooms has be5 repeat$ 9 ! /ory ( ! "w ev] s9ce4 ,d n ?ank u4 ,x is only a belat$ t5?1 wrote a fell[-mission>y n long ago1 z %e s5t a gift = ! nurs]ies4 ,belat$ t5?s h rea*$ u sometimes :5 !y h be5 l visible rav5s fly+ /raight f ! blue above4 ,all ! long j\rneys 9 se>* ( ! *ildr51 all ! exp5ses connect$ ) _! salvation1 all t has be5 requir$ to provide nurses & food 7includ+ ! special n\ri%m5t )\t :i* ! m delicate c\ld n live at all71 all t is n[ be+ ne$$ = _! education--all has come & is com+ z ! rav5s came to ,elijah4 ,! "w has be5 a revelation ( h[ _m he>ts are s5sitive & ob$i5t to ! t\* ( ! ,_s2 = sometimes help has rea*$ u 9 su* a way & 9 su* =m t we c\ld n b /& & wor%ip1 awe/ruck by ! tok5 ( ! ne>ness ( our ,god4 ,!re is _m a spot m>k$ 9 g>d5 or 9 field or 9 ! busy nurs]y or our own quiet room1 :]e1 ) ! op5 lett] 9 our h&--! lett] ( relief f a pressure unkn[n ev5 to ! ne>e/ fell[-work]--we h knelt 9 _s ) ,jacob & said3 ,surely ! ,"l is 9 ?is place6 & almo/ add$1 s d5se are we 9 unillum9at$ mom5ts1 & ,i knew x n4 ,fram$ betwe5 r$ ro(s & foliage1 !re are f> blue glimpses ( m\nta9s %[n 9 ?is lakeside photograph4 ,we d n see ! wat] f ! comp\nd4 ,x lies on ! o!r side ( ! b\nd>y fields & h$ges2 b we see ! m\nta9s ) p]fect di/9ctness ( outl9e1 sc>p$ ) b>e crags1 :i* 9 ! e>ly morn+ are sometimes p9k1 & 9 ! ev5+1 purple4 ,b ! "t to see ! m\nta9s 9 _! glory is :5 ! s\?-we/ monsoon is fl++ its masses ( cl\d across to u4 ,!n ! m\nta9s1 wak+ f ! lazy sleep ( ! long1 hot mon?s1 cat* ! cl\ds on _! po9t$ fangs1 toss !m back & h>ry !m1 wrap !mselves up 9 robes ( !m1 & g to sleep aga94 ,! road t skirts ! ,r$ ,lake leads ?r\gh two anci5t ,h9du t[ns1 f bo? ( :i* we h *ildr5 sav$1 9 ea* case z by a miracle4 ,9 ! fir/ ( ^! old t[ns !re is a ,temple surr\nd$ by a mighty wall4 ,!re are two l>ge gates & "o small side door 9 ! wall2 &1 pass+ 9 ?r\gh ! small side door1 "o sees ano!r wall almo/ z /rong z ! fir/1 & realises some?+ ( ! p[] t built x4 ,! ,temple is 9 ! c5tre ( ! l>ge enclosure4 ,x is a s+le t[] op5+ (f ! inn] c\rt4 ,9 ! out] c\rt a pill>$ hall is us$ z /able = ! ,temple elephant1 & two camels l\nge 9 ! r\ghly kept g>d5 9 front4 ,?is ,temple1 ) its d\ble walls1 its massive1 spl5didly-c>v$ doors & exp5sive animal life1 is some:at ( a surprise to ! visitor1 :o h>dly expects to see s mu* 9 a little old c\ntry t[n on ! bord]s ( ! wilds4 ,b ,h9duism has n lo/ hold ( ?is old remote ,india yet4 ,!re are "s :o ?9k t ! c\ntry t[n is ! place to see x 9 /r5g?4 ,illu/ration3 ,,at ,,! ,,door ,,( ,,! ,,temple4 ,x 0 e>ly 9 ,augu/1 ?ree ye>s ago1 t we he>d ( a baby girl 9 t t[n1 devot$ f bir? to ! god4 ,we set :eels 9 motion1 & wait$4 ,a mon? pass$ & no?+ 0 done4 ,we c\ld n g ourselves & attempt to p]suade ! "m to *ange ! v[ %e _h made1 z any movem5t on our "p w\ld only h rivet$ ! l9ks t fett]$ ! *ild to ! god4 ,we _h to be quiet & wait4 ,at la/1 "o ev5+ 9 ,septemb]1 a ,h9du arriv$ 9 ! t[n ) :om our fri5ds :o 7 on ! wat* _h intimate connection4 ,he1 too1 knew ab\t ! *ild2 & he knew a way unkn[n to our fri5ds by :i* ! "m might be influ5c$1 & he cons5t$ to try4 ,8 arrival j at t juncture appe>$ to u1 :o 7 wait+ 9 daily expectation ( an answ] ( deliv]ance1 z ! evid5t beg9n+ ( t answ]2 ?us our fai? 0 quick5$ & we wait$ 9 ke5 hope4 ,two days lat]1 aft] d>k1 !re 0 a ru% f ! nurs]y to ! bungal[4 ,! baby has come6 ,ano!r mom5t1 & we 7 9 ! nurs]y4 ,a woman--"o ( our fri5ds--0 /&+ ) :at look$ l a p>cel wrapp$ 9 a clo? hidd5 "u h] arm4 ,ev5 !n1 ?\gh all 0 safe1 %e 0 trembl+2 & outside1 two m51 h] relations1 /ood on gu>d4 ,%e op5$ ! :ite clo?1 & inside 0 ! baby4 ,! m5 assur$ u t all 0 "r4 ,! "m _h be5 conv9c$ ( ! wrongness ( d$icat+ ! little babe1 & w\ld give u no tr\ble4 ,b a day or two lat]1 %e came & dem&$ x back4 ,%e c\ld n /& ! d]ision ( h] fri5ds1 :o told h] %e _h s9n$ f> m 9 giv+ h] *ild to ^? :o w\ld break its ca/e ?an %e ev] c\ld h done _h %e giv5 x to ! ,temple4 ,we pacifi$ h] ) difficulty1 & 7 ?ankful :5 ! little ?+ 0 safe 9 ! ,neyoor nurs]y4 ,= 9 ^? days1 be=e we le>n$ h[ be/ to protect our *ildr51 we 7 (t5 glad to h "s place ev5 m out ( rea* ?an ,dohnavur4 ,! second ( ^! old t[ns is fam\s = its rock1 & its ,temple built into ! rock4 ,look+ d[n f above "o c see inside ! c\rty>d z into an op5 well4 ,connect$ ) ?is ,temple1 "s ye>s ago1 !re 0 a beautiful "y ,temple woman1 :o _h be5 giv5 z a *ild--z all ,temple wom5 mu/ be--to ! s]vice ( ! gods4 ,%e _h no *oice z reg>d$ h]self--probably ! idea ( *oice nev] ent]$ h] m9d--b = h] babe %e det]m9$ to *oose2 & yet %e knew ( no way ( deliv]ance4 ,b !re 0 a way ( deliv]ance1 & if x _h only be5 = ?is "o *ild's sake1 & = ! sake ( ! relief x mu/ h be5 to t fe>-haunt$ "m1 we are glad ) a gladness too deep = words t ! nurs]y 0 "h4 ,= ! "m he>d ( x4 ,!re 7 lions 9 ! pa?4 ,%e quietly avoid$ !m1 & ?r\gh o!rs :o 7 will+ to help %e s5t h] *ild to u4 ,%e h]self w\ld n come4 ,%e wait$ a mile or s f ! bungal[ till ! matt] 0 conclud$1 !n return$ to h] home alone4 ,a week lat] %e appe>$ sudd5ly at ! bungal[4 ,x 0 only to make sure ! little "o 0 safe & well1 & 9 ord] to sign a pap] say+ %e 0 :olly giv5 to u4 ,?is done %e disappe>$ aga91 refus+ spee* ) anyone1 & = mon?s we he>d no?+ ( h]4 ,!n *ol]a swept our c\ntryside1 & we he>d %e _h tak5 x & di$4 ,we leave h] to ,god h] ,creator1 :o alone kn[s all ! /ory ( h] life3 we only "k en\gh to make u v sil5t4 ,& ?r\gh ! quiet we he> z x 7 a voice t *ants a fragm5t f an old hymn3 ,we believe t ,,?\ %alt come to be our ,judge4 ,,*apt] ,,xviii ,f ! ,temple ( ! ,rock ,,ano!r little girl :o came f t same ,temple ( ! ,rock has a /ory v diff]5t f ! o!r1 & f> m typical4 ,x 0 on a blaz+ day 9 ,june1 :5 ! v air1 tir$ ( be+ hot1 lean$ heavily ^u u1 & we felt unequal to conte/1 t a c\gh outside my op5 door ann\nc$ a visitor4 ,come 96 ,ano!r c\gh1 & ,i look$ out & saw a %uffl+ =m disappe> r\nd ! corn] ( ! h\se4 ,i call$ aga91 & ! figure turn$4 ,x 0 a man :o _h help$ u be=e1 b ab\t ^: bon-fides we _h d\bts2 s we ask$ )\t mu* hopefulness :at he _h to tell u4 ,he said he _h reason to believe a c]ta9 ,temple woman kn[n to him _h a *ild %e meant to d$icate to ! god ( a ,temple a day's j\rney di/ant4 ,!n he paus$4 ,d y "k :]e %e is n[8 ,%e is on h] way to ! ,temple4 ,x w\ld be well if %e came "h in/ead4 ,if t is ! ,animal's desire x may be possible to br+ h]4 ,has %e gone f>8 ,c\ld y ov]take h]8 ,%e is wait+ outside y\r gate4 ,at su* a mom5t x is wise to %[ no surprise & no anxiety4 ,all ! burn+ eag]ness mu/ be cov]$ up ) coolness4 ,b 9 ! h\r t int]v5$ be=e ! woman at ! gate c\ld be p]suad$ to come fur!r1 we quiet$ ourselves 9 ! ,"l our ,god & held on = ! little *ild4 ,at la/ ! %uffl+ /ep & ! s\nd ( voices told u !y _h come--two wom51 ! man1 & a *ild4 ,! *ild 0 a baby ( some?+ "u two1 a sad-look+ little ?+1 ) great1 d>k1 pa!tic eyes look+ out f "u limp br[n curls4 ,%e 0 v pale & fragile2 & :5 ! woman :o c>ri$ h] set h] d[n ^u ! floor & propp$ h] aga9/ ! wall1 %e lean$ aga9/ x li/lessly1 ) h] little *9 9 h] t9y h&1 9 a sorr[ful1 gr[n-up fa%ion4 ,i long$ to take h] & ne/le h] com=tably2 b1 ( c\rse1 took no notice ( h]4 ,any sign ( pity or sympa?y w\ld h be5 misund]/ood by ! wom54 ,all ?r\gh ! int]m9able talk ^u :i* h] fate dep5d$1 t *ild sat we>ily pati5t1 mak+ no dem&s ^u anyone2 only ! little head droop$1 & ! m\? grew pitiful 9 its complete despond5cy4 ,! ways ( ! ,ea/ are devi\s4 ,! fact t ! *ild _h be5 br\ght to u did n indicate a decision to give h] to u in/ead ( to ! ,temple4 ,! woman & ! man :o _h p]suad$ !m to come _h mu* to say to "o ano!r1 & !re 0 mu* we _h to expla94 ,a *ild giv5 to ,temple s]vice is n 9 all cases entirely cut (f f h] p4 ,if ! ,temple woman's hold on h] is sure1 h] relations are sometimes all[$ to visit h]2 s f> z fri5dly int]c\rse goes %e is n lo/ to !m4 ,b ) u ?+s are diff]5t4 ,= ! *ild's own sake we h to refuse all int]c\rse :atev]4 ,once giv5 to u1 %e is lo/ to !m z if !y _h nev] _h h]4 ,we adopt ! little "o altoge!r or n at all4 ,x is a delicate ?+ to expla9 all ?is s cle>ly t !re c be no misund]/&+ ab\t x1 )\t s infuriat+ ! relations t !y w h no?+ m to d ) u4 ,naturally _! view-po9t is entirely diff]5t f ours1 & !y _c appreciate our reasons4 ,at su* a "t we lean ^u ! ,invisible1 & c\nt ^u t sup]natural help :i* alone is suffici5t = u2 we c\nt also ^u ! pray]s ( ^? :o "k :at x is to pray ?r\gh all oppos+ =ces1 till ! battle is won by fai? :i* is ! victory4 ,x 0 /range to wat* ! wom5 z ! talk w5t on4 ,! woman )9 !m _h di$1 !re 0 no?+ ( x left to :i* we c\ld appeal2 ev]y?+ ab\t !m 0 p]v]t$1 unnatural4 ,i look$ at ! ins5sitive faces & !n at ! s5sitive face ( ! *ild1 & ent]$ deep] ?an ev] into ! m]cifulness ( ,god's d5unciations ( s94 ,once t[>ds ! close ( :at _h be5 a "t ( "s t5sion1 ! lead] ( ! two wom5 sudd5ly sprang up1 snat*$ at ! tir$ baby1 & flung out ( ! room ) h]4 ,%e _h be5 gradually h>d5+2 & ,i _h felt r ?an se5 ! %utt+ d[n ( ! prison-h\se gates ^u t little s\l1 & _h1 z a la/ res\rce1 appeal$ to ! s5se1 n :olly atrophi$1 ! s5se t recognises ! sup]natural4 ,god is1 ,i told !m briefly2 ,god takes cognisance ( :at we are & d3 ,god w repay3 "s "t1 some:]e1 ,god w puni% s94 ,! arr[ /ruck ?r\gh to ! m>k4 ,/>tl$1 indignant1 ov]:elm$ by ! sweep ( an awful conviction1 ) a passionate cry %e ru%$ away2 & we liv$ ?r\gh "o brea?less mom5t1 b ! next saw ! *ild dropp$ into our arms1 safe at la/4 ,facts ab\t any matt] ( importance are usually o!r ?an at fir/ /at$2 b we h reason to believe t 9 ?is in/ance our %uffl+ fri5d spoke ! tru?4 ,! wom5 7 really on _! way to ! ,temple :5 he waylaid !m4 ,! wond] 0 t !y all[$ !mselves to be p]suad$ by him to come to u4 ,b if no?+ happ5$ except :at we might naturally expect w\ld happ5 9 ?is "w1 we might z well give x up at once4 ,if we did n expect our ,j]i*o walls to fall d[n flat1 x w\ld be fooli% inde$ to cont9ue m>*+ r\nd !m4 ,x 0 a relief :5 ! wom5 left ! comp\nd1 aft] sign+ a pap] committ+ ! *ild to u4 ,!re is defilem5t 9 ! m]e ?\ght ( evil1 b su* close contact ) x is a ?+ by itself4 ,! s5se ( contam9ation la/$ = days2 & yet w\ld t we c\ld g ?r\gh x e day if ! result might be ! same6 ,= ! *ild woke up to a new life1 & became :at a *ild %\ld be4 ,at fir/ x 0 v pitiful4 ,%e w\ld sit h\r aft] h\r z %e _h sat ?r\gh t fir/ h\r1 ) h] *9 9 h&1 h] eyes ca/ d[n1 & ! little m\? pa!tic4 ,we f\nd t1 9 accordance ) a cu/om prevail+ 9 ! cot]ie ( ,temple wom5 belong+ to ! ,temple ( ! ,rock1 %e _h be5 l5t by h] "m to ano!r woman :5 %e 0 an infant1 ! o!r l5d+ h] baby 9 ex*ange4 ,?is ex*ange _h work$ sadly2 = ! little "o _h ask$ = some?+ :i* _h n be5 giv5 h]1 & h] two ye>s _h left h] />v$ ( love & exp]i5c$ 9 lonel9ess4 ,b :5 %e came to u ev]y?+ *ang$2 = love & happ9ess took h] h&s & l$ h] back to baby ways1 & taught h] h[ to laugh & play3 & n[ !re is no?+ left to rem9d u ( ^? two fir/ ye>s b a c]ta9 droop ( ! little m\? :5 %e feels = ! mom5t desolate1 or wants "s extra pett+4 ,,*apt] ,,xix ,yospu ,illu/ration3 ,,! ,,wat] ,,c>ri]s4 ,,no description ( ! comp\nd w\ld be complete )\t m5tion ( ,yospu1 fri5d ( ! babies4 ,?is photograph %[s ! ,indian equival5t ( pumps & wat]-pipes4 ,we h nei!r2 s all ! wat] requir$ = a family ( ab\t a hundr$ has to be drawn f ! well & c>ri$ to ! kit*5s & nurs]ies4 ,! eld] girls1 :o w\ld o!rwise help ) ! "w1 accord+ to ,s\? ,indian cu/om1 are already fully employ$ ) ! babies4 ,s at pres5t ! m5 d x all4 ,!y also buy ! gra9 & o!r food-/uffs1 look aft] ! c[s & vegetable g>d5--a necessity = ^? :o dwell f> f m>kets--& 9 all o!r possible mascul9e ways are ( s]vice to ! family4 ,*ief ( ^! m5 is ,yospu1 ^: seam$ & wr9kl$ & mo/ expressive face ,i wi% we _h photograph$1 in/ead ( ?is n v int]e/+ /r+ ( solemnities4 ,yospu is n l a man1 he is m l a de> dog4 ,he has ! ways ( our dog-fri5ds1 _! pati5ce & fidelity1 _! gratefulness = pats4 ,he came to u 9 a wreck$ condition1 ?9 & weak & r que]4 ,he _h be5 beat5 by 8 ,h9du bro!r = becom+ a ,*ri/ian1 & x _h be5 too mu* = him4 ,! fir/ "t we saw him1 a few m9utes aft] 8 arrival1 he 0 /&+ lean+ aga9/ a po/ ) fold$ h&s & upturn$ eyes & a g5]al expression ( resignation :i* w5t to our he>ts4 ,we f\nd aft]w>ds he 0 n feel+ resign$ s mu* z hungry1 & he 0 bett] aft] food4 ,= a week he slept1 ate1 & m$itat$4 ,sometimes he w\ld hov] r\nd u1 if su* a v]b is admissible = 8 s]i\sness ( gait4 ,he w\ld wait till we notic$ him1 !n sigh & ext5d 8 h&4 ,he want$ u to feel 8 pulse--bo? pulses4 ,?is c]emony always refre%$ him1 & he w\ld return to 8 corn] ( ! v]&ah & m$itate till 8 next meal came4 ,sometimes1 h[ev]1 m att5tion 0 requir$4 ,he w\ld l+] aft] 8 pulses 7 felt1 & we knew he 0 n satisfi$4 ,"o day a happy ?\ght /ruck u4 ,! ,tamil loves sc5t4 ,! v babies sniff our h&s if we happ5 to be us+ sc5t$ soap1 & tell ea* o!r raptur\sly :at !y ?9k ab\t t *ope4 ,sc5t is ! "o ?+ !y _c resi/4 ,a t9 ( sweets on our table may be unt\*$ = days1 few babies be+ wick$ en\gh to v5ture ^u x 9 our abs5ce2 b a bottle ( sc5t is irresi/ible1 & sc5t$ *ope on our wa%+-/&s has a way ( gr[+ ?94 ,! baby w em]ge f our ba?rooms rubb+ suspici\sly clean h&s1 & 9 h] innoc5ce w invite u to smell !m4 ,!n we "k :y our *ope disappe>s4 ,s n[ t ,yospu ne$$ some?+ to lift him ov] ! trials ( life1 we rememb]$ ! gift ( a good ,scotti% fri5d1 & tri$ ! effect ( eau-de-,cologne4 ,x work$ mo/ wond]fully4 ,yospu held out 8 two h&s jo9$ close le/ a s+le drop %\ld spill1 & !n he /ood & sniff$4 ,x w\ld h made a p]fect adv]tisem5t--! big br[n man ) 8 h&s fold$ ov] 8 nose1 & an expression ( absolute bliss ^u e visible feature4 ,n[1 :5 ,yospu is d[n-he>t$1 we always try eau-de-,cologne4 ,8 fir/ move t[>ds be+ ( use 0 :5 "s ( our *ildr5 _h small-pox & 7 put up 9 a half-f9i%$ room :i* 0 be+ built4 ,x has walls & x has a ro(1 !re=e x is suitable1 0 ,yospu's op9ion2 & he (f]$ to nurse ! *ildr54 ,"o ev5+ we he>d a t]rible noise2 x 0 l ?ree crack$ viol9s gone mad1 all play+ diff]5t tunes at ! same "t4 ,x 0 only ,yospu s++ hymns to ! *ildr54 ,= spiritual in/ruction is a ?+ to be desir$1 & !re is no?+ s edify+ z music4 ,aft] ?is he ann\nc$ 8 int5tion ( becom+ a wat]-c>ri]4 ,wat] is a pure ?+ & a necessity4 ,! "y *ildr5 dem& mu* wat] if _! bodies are to be--"h foll[$ ,scriptural quotations meant 9 deepe/ rev]5ce4 ,i w be responsible = ! ba?s ( all ! babes4 ,& f t "t ,yospu has be5 responsible4 ,solemnly f dawn to dusk1 ) brea?+ spaces = meals & m$itation1 he /alks across f nurs]ies to well & f well to nurs]ies4 ,he is a man ( few smiles2 b he is ! cause ( _m1 & we all feel grateful to ,yospu = 8 goodness to u4 ,(t5 on melan*oly days he comes & com=ts u4 ,x 0 s "o anxi\s day be=e we w5t to ! hills1 :5 we 7 try+ to plan = ! safety ( our family4 ,we c only take a limit$ numb] ( conv]ts ) u1 & no babies2 ! difficulty is !n :i* to take1 :i* to hide1 & :i* to leave 9 ! nurs]ies4 ,we 7 9 ! mid/ ( ?is p]plexity :5 ,yospu arriv$4 ,he /ood 9 sil5ce1 & !n sigh$1 z 8 *e]ful cu/om is4 ,we made ! usual inquiries z to 8 heal?1 physical & spiritual4 ,bo? s\l & body 78 inv>iable ord]1 nev] body & s\l7 7 well1 he said2 8 pulse did n ne$ to be felt to-day3 no1 !re 0 some?+ weighti] ^u 8 m9d4 ,!re are times :5 x is l extract+ a too? to get a /raight answ] f ,yospu1 = he res5ts directness 9 spee*2 he ?9ks x b>b>\s4 ,at la/ x came4 ,aiyo6 ,aiyo6 7,alas6 ,alas67 ,my sun has set2 b :o am ,i1 t ,i %\ld compla9 or assault ! decrees ( ,provid5ce8 ,b ,amma6 rememb] ! ^w ( tru?3 ',!n %all ye br+ d[n my grey hairs ) sorr[ to ! grave4' ,& he sl[ly unw\nd 8 wisp ( a turban1 held x 9 8 fold$ h&s1 & %ook d[n 8 lanky1 jet-black locks ) a pa?os t 0 almo/ sublime4 ,illu/ration3 ,,! ,,belov$ ,,t+alu4 ,x took "t to pi]ce to ! mean+ ( x3 ! *ildr5 7 be+ scatt]$--! reason mu/ be t we felt ! ba?-wat] c>ry+ too mu* = 8 p[]s ?r\gh ! hot weeks4 ,x 0 n s6 ,he 0 /rong to draw & to be>4 ,! babies %\ld nev] be depriv$ ( _! ba?s6 ,b to-day z he w5t to ! well he _h he>d :at broke 8 he>t2 & he laid 8 h& ^u ! injur$ organ1 & sigh$ ) a sigh t assur$ u 8 lungs at lea/ 7 s\nd4 ,t+alu is to g away6 ,! apple ( my eye6 t gold5 *ild :o smiles ^u me1 & says1 ',oh1 eld] bro!r1 good morn+6' ,y are n go+ to leave h] ) me6 ,!re=e spake ,i ! ^w ( tru? conc]n+ my grey hairs4 ,!n quot+ ! text aga91 he turn$ & walk$ away4 ,once ! belov$ ,t+alu 0 slightly indispos$4 ,%e has n (t5 ! privilege ( be+ ill1 & s1 :5 ! opportunity (f]s1 %e does ! invalid ?or\ghly2 x w\ld be a pity1 ,t+alu ?9ks1 to be any?+ b correct4 ,b ,yospu 0 mu* conc]n$4 ,he appe>$ 9 ! e>ly morn+ ) 8 usual c\gh & sigh4 ,amma6 ,t+alu is ill6 ,%e w soon be bett]1 ,yospu2 %e is hav+ m$ic9e4 ,:at sort ( m$ic9e1 ,amma8 & ,yospu m5tion$ ! k9d he ?\ght suitable4 ,t is exactly :at %e has _h2 y w see h] play+ ab\t to-morr[4 ,b no smile is on h] face to-day2 ,i fe> = ! babe4 7,t+alu nev] smiles :5 ill4 ,invalids %\ld n smile47 ,yospu sugge/$ ano!r m$ic9e to supplem5t ! fir/1 & dep>t$4 ,next morn+ he came aga91 anxi\s & ca/ d[n 9 c\nt5ance4 ,i _h to keep him wait+2 & :5 ,i came out1 he 0 /&+ beside my v]&ah /eps1 head on "o side1 eyes %ut1 h&s fold$ z if 9 pray]4 ,well1 ,yospu1 :at is x8 ,amma6 ! light ( y\r eyes revives me6 ,well1 tell me ! tr\ble4 ,all ye/]day ,i saw y n2 x 0 a />less night to me6 ,?is is m]ely ! preface4 ,b1 ,yospu1 :at is wrong8 ,t+alu1 t gold5 *ild ) a voice l a bird1 %e lies on h] mat4 ,i am conc]n$ ab\t ! babe1 7,t+alu1 turn$ f\r1 is z h>dy z a gipsy71 ,i fe> = h] delicate int]ior4 ,^? ignorant *ildr5 7! conv]t nurses w\ld h be5 pleas$ if !y _h he>d him7 "k no?+ at all4 ,x may be !y w fe$ h] ) curry & rice ?is morn+4 ,t w\ld be dang]\s4 ,amma6 ,let h] h bread & milk1 & ,i w pay = x6 ,yospu came a few days ago ) a reque/ = a doll4 ,:o =8 ,= myself4 ,b are y go+ to play ) x8 ,yospu ackn[l$g$ he 01 & he wi%$ x to h g5u9e hair1 a p9k silk frock1 & eyes t w\ld op5 & %ut4 ,we _h n any?+ s elaborate to give him1 & he _h to be cont5t$ ) a black *9a head & pa9t$ eyes2 b he 0 pleas$1 & took x away c>efully roll$ up 9 8 turban1 :i* s]ves conv5i5tly = head-ge>1 t[el1 sc>f1 & du/]4 ,:5 & :]e he plays ) ! doll no "o kn[s1 b he assures u he does2 & we h m5tally res]v$ ! fir/ p9k silk1 ) eyes t w op5 & %ut1 t a b5evol5t public s5ds to u1 = ,yospu4 4 4 4 ,! words 7 h>dly writt5 :5 a %ad[ fell across ! pap]1 & ! unconsci\s subject ( ?is *apt] rem>k$ z ,i look$ up3 #a ,cor9?ians vii4 #ca4 ,d y want any?+1 ,yospu8 ,amma6 #a ,cor9?ians vii4 #ca4 ,well1 ,yospu8 ,z x is writt5 9 t *apt]1 & t v]se3 ',! fa%ion ( ?is _w passe? away4' ,amma1 if )9 ! next two mon?s a visitor comes to ,dohnavur c>ry+ a picture-cat*+ box1 ,i desire t y arrange = ! cat*+ ( my picture4 ,?is1 ,amma1 is my desire4 ,! ,we/]n m9d is v d5se2 & = a mom5t ,i c\ld n see ! connection betwe5 ! text & ! photograph4 ,yospu is nev] impati5t4 ,he squatt$ d[n beside me1 dropp$ 8 turban r\nd 8 neck1 held 8 left foot ) 8 left h&1 & emphasis$ 8 explanation ) 8 "r4 ,amma1 ! wise "k t life is unc]ta94 ,i am a frail mortal4 ,y1 :o are z "m & z fa!r to ?is unwor?y worm1 w\ld feel an empt9ess )9 y if ,i 7 to dep>t4 ,b1 ,yospu1 ,i hope y are n go+ to dep>t4 ,?is 0 exactly :at ,yospu _h anticipat$4 ,he smil$1 !n he sigh$4 ,amma6 did ,i n say x be=e8 #a ,cor9?ians vii4 #ca3 ',! fa%ion ( ?is _w passe? away4' ,!re=e ,i said1 ,let me h my picture caught1 s t :5 ,i dep>t y may hang x on y\r wall & /ill rememb] me4 ,yospu's late/ freak has be5 to take a holiday4 ,my int]nal arrangem5ts are di/urb$2 composure ( m9d w only be obta9$ by a mon?'s respite f secul>ities4 ,yospu _h once ann\nc$ 8 int5tion ( (f]+ himself to ! ,national ,mission>y ,society1 & we ?\ght he n[ ref]r$ to becom+ an ascetic = a mon? & w&]+ r\nd ! c\ntry1 begg+-b[l 9 h&2 = he solemnly decl>$ z he /rok$ 8 bony frame3 ,! ,"l w provide4 ,b 8 int5tion 0 a real holiday4 ,he w\ld g & see ! bro!r :o _h beat5 him1 & =give him4 ,we sugge/$ ! bro!r might beat him aga94 ,he smil$ at our want ( fai?1 & w5t = 8 holiday4 ,a mon? 0 ! "t agre$ ^u1 b )9 ?ree days he 0 back4 ,he c\ld n /ay away1 he expla9$1 ) a %ame-fac$ air ( affection4 ,)9 me pull$ ! /r+s ( love2 pull$1 yea1 pull$ till ,i return$4 ,fai?ful1 qua9t1 & :olly orig9al ,yospu6 ,he calls himself our s]vant1 b we ?9k ( him z our fri5d4 ,,*apt] ,,xx ,! ,m5ag]ie ,fate :i* =esaw ,h[ frivol\s a baby man w\ld be-- ,illu/ration3 ,,two ,,views ,,( ,,life4 ,,! ev5t ( ! week1 f a ,tamil po9t ( view1 is ! midday ,sunday s]vice2 s we take c>e ( ! nurs]ies dur+ t h\r1 & s5d all gr[n-up life to *ur*4 ,9 ! ,prmalia nurs]y ! babies range f a few days old to eighte5 mon?s1 & sometimes two ye>s4 ,!re is a baby = e mood1 z "o belov$ ( ! babies says2 & ! babies seem to "k x4 ,we h a lively "t !re on ,sundays2 = by noon ! morn+ sleep is ov]1 & n9ete5 or tw5ty babies are wak+ up "o aft] ! o!r or all toge!r4 ,& mo/ ( !m want some?+1 & want x at once4 ,^! babies are ( v>i\s dispositions & col\r--nut-br[n1 biscuit1 & buff2 & !re are two :o1 tak5 toge!r1 sugge/ *ocolate-cream4 ,*ocolate is a de> *ild1 v good-temp]$ & easy to manage4 ,cream is a scamp4 ,we see 9 h] ano!r ,*ellalu1 & wat* ) m+l$ feel+s h] vigor\s developm5t4 ,*ocolate has ano!r "n4 ,x is ,beetle4 ,?is does n s\nd appreciative1 b ,beetle is belov$4 ,! "n 0 discov]$ by h] affectionate ,piria ,sittie1 :o came ^u h] "o morn+ ly+ on h] back 9 ! sw++ cot1 kick+ h] f\r limbs 9 ! air 9 ! agitat$ mann] ( t insect unexpect$ly upset4 ,b no beetle ev] smil$ z ours does4 ,cream1 ^: real "n is ,nund9ie1 (t5] call$ ,dimples1 because %e dimples s :5 %e laughs1 is a baby ( "*4 ,%e e>ly discov]$ h] way to ! bungal[1 & scorn+ assi/ance or sup]9t5d5ce f\nd h] way ov] z soon z %e c\ld walk4 ,aft]noon tea is nev] a sombre meal1 = ! middle-ag$ babies att5d x 9 relays ( f\r or five2 & ,dimples & h] special *um1 ,lulla1 l to arrive 9 good "t = ! full enjoym5t ( ! function4 ,dimples sits d[n prop]ly 9 a high *air close beside h] ,attai1 :o1 accord+ to h] view ( matt]s1 0 creat$ to help h] to sug>4 ,lulla1 s z to be ev5 ne>] t exhau/less delight1 insi/s ^u h] ,attai's knee2 & tapp+ h] face ) h] v small f+]s1 imm$iately po9ts to ! sug> b[l4 ,^! prelim9>ies ov]1 ,dimples sets h]self to pay = h] seat4 ,%e smiles ^u h] ,attai fir/1 !n ^u all ! company4 ,if ! ,iy] is pres5t1 %e notices him k9dly3 !re is no?+ 9 all nature s patronis+ z a baby4 ,if 9 ! mood1 %e w imitate h] fri5ds l h] pr$ecessor ,scamp ,no4 #a2 or fold+ h] fat arms w reg>d u all ) a quizzical expression m comical ?an play4 ,h] late/ inv5tion is drill4 ,%e /&s /raight up 9 h] *air1 & goes ?r\gh c]ta9 actions int5d$ to repres5t z mu* z %e kn[s ( t int]e/+ ex]cise4 ,we are kept anxi\s le/ %e %\ld ov]balance2 b %e is a w>y babe1 & always sudd5ly sits d[n :5 %e gets to ! edge ( a tumble4 ,sometimes1 h[ev]1 :5 ^! div]sions are 9 progress1 we h wi%$ t ! family c\ld see h[ v mu* m ent]ta9+ %e is 9 h] own nurs]y4 ,!re1 f ! beg9n+ ( ! day till ! sad mom5t :5 x ends1 %e seems to be engag$ 9 ent]ta9+ somebody4 ,sometimes x is "o ( ! ,accals1 ^? good eld] si/]s to :om ! babies owe s mu*4 ,dimples ?9ks %e looks tir$4 ,tir$ p mu/ be *e]$1 s ,dimples devotes h]self to h]4 ,sometimes x is ano!r baby :o is dull4 ,dull babies are anomalies4 ,dimples feels responsible till ! dull baby revives4 ,or x is j h] own happy little self :o is be+ ent]ta9$4 ,if ev] a baby enjoy$ a game = its own sweet sake1 x is ,dimples4 ,b "o ?+ %e does n enjoy1 & t is be+ put to b$ at night4 ,our babies are ano9t$ ) oil1 accord+ to ! cu/om ( ! ,ea/1 be=e be+ put to sleep2 b ! mom5t ,dimples sees ! oil-bottle 9 h] nurse's h&1 %e kn[s h] fate is seal$ & prote/s ) all h] might4 ,once %e contriv$ to seize ! bottle1 pull out ! cork1 & spill ! oil be=e %e 0 discov]$4 ,%e seem$ to argue t z %e 0 inv>iably oil$ be=e be+ put to b$1 ! be/ way to avoid ev] be+ put to b$ w\ld be to get rid ( ! oil4 ,ano!r ev5+ %e succe$$ 9 div]t+ h] nurse into a long se>* = ! cork1 !reby delay+ ! fatal la/ mom5t2 x 0 f9ally f\nd 9 h] m\?4 ,:51 9 spite ( all ef=ts to wriggle out ( rea*1 %e is captur$1 ano9t$1 & put 9 h] hammock1 ,dimples kn[s %e mu/ n get out2 b h] wails are s lam5table t x is difficult to re/ra9 ourselves f ?r[+ discipl9e to ! w9ds1 & if by any *ance we d1 h] smiles are simply ravi%+4 ,b we he> ab\t x aft]w>ds4 ,if ,dimples is asleep :5 we take *>ge ( ! nurs]y1 we f9d ?+s fairly quiet & almo/ flat4 ,b %e usually wak5s e>ly1 & always 9 a good temp]4 ,x is in/ructive to see ! way %e scrambles out ( h] hammock be=e %e is q awake1 & h] sleepy /agg] across ! room is (t5 int]rupt$ by a tumble4 ,dimples does n m9d tumbles4 ,if h] curly head has be5 r badly knock$1 %e looks reproa*fully at ! floor1 rubs h] head1 & gets up aga94 ,by ! "t %e rea*es u %e is wide awake & mo/ engag+4 ,9 ,c4 ,f4 ,hold]'s ,life ( ,agassiz we are told t ! great sci5ti/ c\ld n be> ) sup]ficial /udy3 a man %\ld give 8 :ole life to ! object he _h und]tak5 to inve/igate4 ,he felt t desultory1 isolat$1 spasmodic work+ avails no?+1 b curses ) n>r[ness & m$iocrity4 ,?is is exactly ! view ( "o ( our babies1 already introduc$1 ! little wise ,lulla1 :o always kn[s h] own m9d & /icks to h] int5tions1 unbeguil$ by any bl&i%m5ts4 ,?is baby is a t9y ?+1 ) a r\nd1 small head1 cov]$ ) s(t1 small curls2 & ?is head is v full ( ?\ghts4 ,h] face1 :i* %e r>ely %[s to a /rang]1 is l a doll 9 its delicate da9t9ess2 b ! m\? is v resolute1 & ! eyes v grave4 ,h] h&s & feet are sea-%ell ?+s ( a pretty p9ky br[n1 & h] ways are ! ways ( a sea-anemone 9 a pool among ! rocks4 ,lulla1 because ( h] anemone ways1 is sometimes unk9dly call$ ,huffs4 ,%e does n und]/& t !re are days :5 ^? :o love h] mo/ h little "t to give to h]4 ,lulla naturally argues t :]e !re is a w !re is a way1 & desultory1 isolat$1 spasmodic affection is wor? little2 s next "t h] fri5d appe>s1 %e expla9s all ?is to h] by means ( a s+le ge/ure3 %e draws h] t5tacles 94 ,b x is :5 ,lulla has und]tak5 to inve/igate a t9 ( sweets t %e mo/ sugge/s ,agassiz4 ,! t9 has a lid :i* fits tightly1 & ,lulla's f+]s are v small & n v /rong4 ,! t91 moreov]1 is on ! w9d[-sill j out ( rea*1 ?\gh %e /&s on tip-toe & /ret*es a little eag] h& z f> z x w g4 ,!n x is y see p]si/5ce4 ,lulla f9ds ano!r baby1 leads h] to ! w9d[ & po9ts up to ! t94 ,! o!r baby tries4 ,!y bo? try toge!r2 if ?is fails1 ,lulla f9ds a tall] "o1 & at la/ successful1 sits d[n ) ! t9 held tightly 9 bo? h&s1 & turns x ov] & %akes x4 ,?is process seems to inspire fre% hope & en]gy2 = %e sets to "w r\nd ! lid1 :i* is "o ( ! fitt+-9 sort1 & c>efully presses & pulls4 ,naturally ?is does no?+1 & %e %akes ! t9 aga94 ,! joyful s\nd ( rattl+ sweets /imulates to fre% attempts ^u ! lid4 ,%e tugs & pulls1 & ?umps ! refractory ?+ on ! floor4 ,by ?is "t ! o!r babies1 attract$ by ! hopeful rattle1 h ga!r$ r\nd & are wat*+ op]ations2 "s (f] to help1 b all su* (f]s are decl9$4 ,?is oy/] is ,lulla's4 ,%e has und]tak5 to =ce x4 ,agassiz & 8 fi%es are on h] side4 ,%e w n give x up4 ,b %e is n gett+ on2 & %e sits /ill = a mom5t1 knitt+ h] br[1 & fr[n+ a little puzzl$ fr[n at ! refractory t94 ,sudd5ly h] =ehead smoo?s1 ! anxi\s br[n eyes smile1 ,lulla has ?\ght a new good ?\ght4 ,! babies /ruggle up & (f] to help ,lulla up1 b %e %akes h] head4 ,%e seems to feel if %e h]self unaid$1 ( h] own free w1 h&s h] problem ov] to h] ,ammal or h] ,sittie1 only s %e may a*ieve h] purpose )\t loss ( self-respect4 ,lulla's belov$ nurse is a mo!rly woman1 old] ?an mo/ ( our work]s4 ,h] "n is ,annamai4 ,:5 ! nurses return f *ur*1 ea* makes /raight = h] baby2 & ! babies always respond ) a cordial & pretty affection4 ,b ,lulla welcom+ ,annamai is some?+ m ?an pretty4 ,! big :ite-rob$ figure no soon] appe>s 9 ! g>d5 ?an ! t9y ,lulla is all a-quiv] ) excitem5t4 ,b x is a quiet excitem5t2 & if y take any notice1 ! t5tacles sudd5ly draw 91 & ! little face is z wax4 ,if no "o seems to notice1 !n ,lulla lets h]self g4 ,%e all b dances 9 h] eag]ness1 :ile ,annamai is sl[ly sail+ up ! walk2 & :5 %e rea*es ! v]&ah1 ,lulla c wait no long]2 "o spr+ & %e is 9 h] arms1 ne/l+1 cuddl+1 bury+ h] curls 9 h] neck2 !n look+ up confid5tially1 little ,lulla beg9s to talk2 ev]y?+ we h done & said is be+ :isp]$ into ,annamai's e>4 ,x does n matt] t ,lulla _c yet speak any language kn[n to m52 %e c make ,annamai und]/&1 & t is all %e c>es4 ,once we rememb] wat*+ h]1 z %e took ! remnant ( a sweet we _h giv5 h]1 out ( h] m\? & pok$ x into ,annamai's4 ,c\ld love d m8 ,dimples & ,lulla are q insep>able4 ,lulla is to ,dimples :at ,t>a is to ,evu4 ,%e imm5sely admires h] vigor\s little junior1 & tries to copy h] :5ev] possible4 ,"o delici\s game seems to h be5 sugge/$ by ! ar*es 9 ! g>d54 ,dimples & ,lulla /& on all f\rs close toge!r4 ,!n !y lean ov] till _! heads t\* ! gr\nd1 & look ?r\gh ! ar*4 ,if y are on ! babies' level 7t is on ! floor71 y w enjoy ?is game4 ,ano!r ,sunday morn+ ent]ta9m5t is kiss+4 ,dimples advances ^u ,lulla4 ,lulla falls ^u ,dimples4 ,!n ,dimples hugs ,lulla1 ne>ly *okes h]1 almo/ c]ta9ly ov]turns h]4 ,! two roll ov] & ov] l kitt5s4 ,dimples seizes ,lulla by h] curls & vehem5tly kisses face1 neck1 & any?+ else %e c get at2 & !n backs (f1 propell+ h]self on two feet & "o h&1 9 :i* position %e looks l a puppy on ?ree paws4 ,lulla smoo?s h] ruffl$ curls & p]son g5]ally1 reg>ds ,dimples ) gravity1 &1 if 9 an affectionate hum\r h]self1 leads ! attack ^u ,dimples1 & ! programme is repeat$4 ,b ! joy ( ! h\r is to sp9 9 ! hammocks4 ,^! contrivances be+ hung f ! ro( sw+ freely1 & ! special excitem5t is to hold on ) bo? h&s1 & run r\nd s t ! hammock twi/s into a knot & sp9s :5 releas$1 ) ! baby inside x1 9 a giddy waltz till ! coil untwi/s itself4 ,?is looks dang]\s1 & :5 ! game 0 fir/ inv5t$ we r demurr$4 ,b we are wis] n[1 & we let !m sp94 ,lulla especially enjoys ?is madness4 ,x is />tl+ to see ! t9y ?+ :irl l a reckless "y teetotum4 ,b if y weakly int]f]e1 ,lulla ?9ks y want to le>n ! art1 & goes at x ) ev5 madd] ze/1 till h] v curls are dizzy4 ,dimples & ,lulla 9 disgrace are a pite\s spectacle4 ,dimples op5s h] m\? till x is almo/ squ>e1 & ! mo/ pla9tive wail proce$s f x = ab\t a m9ute & a half4 ,!n %e /ops1 looks sadly on ! _w1 surpris$ & hurt at its unk9dness to h]1 & !n sudd5ly %e discov]s some?+ int]e/+ to d2 & ha/ily rubb+ h] knuckles into h] eyes to cle> !m z quickly z maybe ( te>s1 %e scrambles on to h] feet1 & =gets h] injuries4 ,once %e _h be5 v naughty1 & _h to be smack$4 ,x is nev] easy to smack ,dimples1 & =tunately %e seldom requires x2 b h>d ?+s h to be done1 s t morn+ ! fat little h&s1 to _! surprise1 knew ! feel ( *a/5+ pats4 ,%e d>5't laugh1 & %e w\ldn't cry2 ?is description1 h] ,piria ,sittie's1 is ! be/ ,i c (f] ( t baby's attitude4 ,! ?+ c\ld n possibly be a joke1 b if meant o!rwise1 x 0 an indignity f> pa/ te>s4 ,lulla is q diff]5t4 ,%e drops on ! floor1 if admoni%$1 z if h] limbs _h sudd5ly become p>alys$1 & takes absolutely no notice ( ! (f5d+ discipl9>ian4 ,%e simply ignores h]1 & gazes mutely beyond h]4 ,! (f5ce is n "o = explanation1 & if invit$ to rep5t1 h] alo(ness ( demean\r is p]fectly )]+4 ,b take h] up 9 y\r arms1 & %e buries h] curls 9 y\r neck1 & coos h] apologies 7or is x =giv5ess87 9 y\r e>1 & loves y all ! bett] = ! mom5t>y brea*4 ,our babies are (t5 p>ables4 ,lulla /&s = ! ,s+le ,eye4 ,h[ (t5 we h wat*$ h] & le>n$ ! lesson f h]6 ,%e sees someone to :om %e wants to g at :at mu/ seem to h] an imm5se di/ance4 ,& ! di/ance is fill$ ) ob/acles1 "s ( !m q enorm\s4 ,b ,lulla nev] /ops to consid] possibilities4 ,difficulties are simply ?+s to be climb$ ov]4 ,%e looks at ! goal & makes /raight = x4 ,h] only c>e is to rea* x4 ,sometimes at aft]noon tea1 :5 %e is sitt+ on someone's lap1 fac+ an empty1 un9t]e/+ plate1 %e sees ano!r plate ?ree *airs di/ant1 & ^u t plate !re is a biscuit or "s o!r sweet attraction4 ,^u su* occasions ,lulla all b plunges into space betwe5 ! *airs1 9 h] s+l5ess ( purpose4 ,hav+ rea*$ ! lap ne>e/ t plate1 %e turns & smiles at h] late ent]ta9] j to make sure %e is n (f5d$4 ,b ev5 if %e knew %e w\ld be1 ,lulla w\ld n hesitate4 ,curly head =emo/1 eyes on ! goal3 t is ,lulla4 ,we h a cu/om at ,dohnavur :i* p]plexes ! sob]-m9d$4 ,we call mo/ ( our possessions by names o!r ?an _! own4 ,^! names are entirely private4 ,we h to keep to ?is rule ( privacy1 o!rwise we get %ocks4 ,o ,"l1 look ^u our belov$ ,puppy1 & make h] too? come ?r\gh2 & bless ,alice 79 ,wond]l&71 ^: inside has gone wrong1 0 ! petition (f]$ 9 all s]i\sness1 :i* f9ally mov$ u to prud5ce4 ,we d n feel responsible = ^! names1 = !y come ( !mselves1 & we see !m :5 !y come4 ,t is all we h to d ) !m4 ,besides ! ,beetle & ! ,sea-anemone we h a de> ,cockatoo1 :o screws h] nose & h] :ole face up into a delightful puck] :5 %e ei!r laughs or cries1 & !n sudd5ly unscrews x 9 ! middle ( ei!r emotion & looks entirely demure4 ,?is is ! little ,vimala1 :o1 "u ,god1 owes h] life to h] ,piria ,sittie's spl5did nurs+4 ,?is baby has always got a private little secret ( joy hidd5 away some:]e inside4 ,we surprise h] sometimes1 sitt+ alone on ! floor talk+ to h]self ab\t x2 & !n %e tells u bits ( x--z mu* z %e ?9ks we c und]/&4 ,b mo/ ( x is /ill hidd5 away1 h] own private little secret4 ,& !re is an ,owlet1 a ,coney1 a ,froglet1 & a ,*e%ire ,cat1 a ,t$dy-be>1 a ,spid]1 a ,ratlet1 & a ,rosebud4 ,we are aw>e t ?is li/ is r mix$2 b to be too critical w\ld end 9 be+ no?+1 s we are a ,m5ag]ie4 ,! ,rosebud is l h] "n1 small & sweet4 ,:5 %e wants to kiss h] fri5ds1 :i* is :5ev] %e sees !m1 h] m\? is l ! p9k po9t ( a moss-rose bud j com+ ?r\gh ! moss4 ,george ,macdonald1 p]fect int]pret] ( babies1 mu/ h _h our ,pree?ie's d\ble 9 8 m9d :5 he wrote3-- ,:5ce t ?ree-corn]$ smile ( bliss8 ,?ree angels gave me at once a kiss4 ,h[ did y come to u1 y de>8 ,god ?\ght ( y1 & s ,i am "h4 ,! ,owlet is tw9 to t qua9t little bird1 s its "n flew to h] & /ay$4 ,?is babe has r\nd eyes ) long curl+ la%es4 ,:5 %e is good1 ^! r\nd eyes beam1 & e "o =gets t any?+ s fasc9at+ c ev] be o!r ?an good4 ,:5 %e is naughty ! case is exactly rev]s$4 ,?is baby's prop] "n is ,lulli?a1 :i* means ,playfulness1 & illu/rates a side ( h] "* undiscov]$ by ! visitor :o only sees ! ,owlet sitt+ on h] p]* ) s]i\s1 wat*ful1 unbl9k+ eyes1 reg>d+ ! intrud]4 ,b mo/ babies are complex *>act]s1 & are n kn[n 9 an h\r4 ,! ,t$dy-be> is a f9e *ild ) p]fect lungs1 a b5evol5t smile1 & an appetite4 ,h] rul+ passion at pres5t is devotion to h] food4 ,%e feels unju/ly treat$ because we d n see our way to fe$ h] lavi%ly at h] own five meal-times & also at ! meal-times ( all ! o!r babies 9 ! nurs]y4 ,on ,sunday morn+1 :5 we are 9 *>ge1 we he> h] views ^u ?is subject express$ 9 a mann] :olly h] own4 ,%e has j dra9$ h] own bottle1 & is indignantly expla9+ t x is n ne>ly en\gh1 :5 ano!r bottle arrives = ano!r baby1 & ?is is too mu* = ,t$dy's equanimity4 ,we all "k h[ h>d x is to keep up "u ! %ock ( adv]sity4 ,t$dy does n attempt to keep up2 %e inv>iably topples ov]4 ,b ! way %e does ?is is in/ructive4 ,%e sits /iff & /raight = "o brief mom5t1 h] milky m\? wide op51 h] h&s out/ret*$ 9 despair+ appeal2 !n %e clasps h] head ) h] h&s 9 a tragic fa%ion1 absurd 9 a v fat infant1 sways backw>ds & =w>ds two or ?ree times till ! desp]ate rock ends sudd5ly1 z ! poor ,t$dy-be> ov]balances & bur/s ) a mighty bur/4 ,b ! /orm is too furi\s to la/1 & %e soon subsides ) a gu/y sob & a %ort snort4 ,poor little injur$ ,t$dy-be>6 ,if x 7 n = h] spl5did heal? we might believe h] (t-repeat$ tale ( private />vation4 ,!y only fe$ me :5 y are "h to see6 ,o!r times !y give me no?+ at all6 ,%e tells u ?is frequ5tly 9 h] own p>ticul> language1 b ! /urdy limbs belie x4 ,?is babe 9 matt]s ( affection & mis*ief is z /r5u\s & orig9al z %e is ab\t ! "o supreme affair p]ta9+ to h] ela/ic receptacle--to quote a ,tamil fri5d's polite ref]5ce to ! cavity )9 u--& _m m edify+ sc5es might h be5 %[n f h] ev5tful life4 ,b und\bt$ly ! pr$om9at+ note at ! pres5t h\r is h] insatiable hung]1 & :5 h] "n is m5tion$ 9 ! nurs]y !re is a smile & a new tale ab\t h] amaz+ appetite4 ,,*apt] ,,xxi ,m ,animals ,illu/ration3 ,,m ,,animals3 ,,depress$4 ,nurses3 ,k>una to left 7! ,duckl+ ( ,?+s z ,!y ,are72 & ,annamai1 to "r1 ,lulla's belov$4 ,,9 full contra/ to ,t$dy-be> is t floppy *ild1 ! ,coney4 ,9 ,h>t's ,animals ( ! ,bible1 !re is a picture ( ?is baby1 only ! =e-paws %\ld be rais$ 9 pite\s appeal to be tak5 up4 ,! ,coney is really a pretty *ild ) pa!tic eyes & a grateful smile2 b %e 0 long 9 le>n+ to walk1 & felt aggriev$ :5 we remon/rat$4 ,h] feet1 %e consid]$1 7 creat$ to be ornam5tal r ?an useful1 & no am\nt ( coax+ back$ up ) massage c\ld p]suade h] o!rwise4 ,s %e 0 left beh9d 9 ! m>*2 & :5 h] contempor>ies dep>t$ = ! middle-ag$ babies' nurs]y1 %e /ay$ beh9d ) ! infants4 ,& ! infants _h no pity4 ,!y reg>d$ h] z a sort ( hassock1 l>ge & s(t & good to jump on4 ,m ?an once we h come into ! nurs]y & f\nd ! big1 meek *ild ( ?ree kneel+ resign$ly "u a w9d[ ^u :i* an adv5tur\s eighte5-mon?s wi%$ to climb2 & (t5 we h f\nd h] pro/rate & pati5t "u ! danc+ feet ( ,dimples4 ,h[ev]1 ! ,coney c walk n[4 ,?is triumph 0 effect$ ) ! help ( an ,indianis$ g-c>t1 :i* did :at all our p]suasions _h entirely fail$ to d4 ,b ! process 0 n pleasant4 ,! poor ,coney w\ld /& m\rnfully hold+ ! h&le ( h] in/rum5t ( torture1 long+ ) a ye>n+ unspeakable to sit d[n & give x up = ev]4 ,someone w\ld pass1 & hope w\ld rise 9 h] he>t4 ,%e w\ld be c>ri$ n[1 c>ri$ out ( sight ( t dete/$ g-c>t4 ,b no1 ! call\s-he>t$ only urg$ h] to proce$4 ,%e w\ld h[l !n ) a h[l t told ( bitt] disappo9tm5t4 ,sometimes %e w\ld sit d[n flat & reg>d ! ?+ ) a blight+ glance1 ! hatr$ ( a g5tle nature r\s$ to unwont$ vehem5ce4 ,always h] wails accompani$ ! rumbl+ ( its :eels4 ,! ,conies are b a feeble folk1 yet !y make _! h\ses 9 ! rocks4 ,"o day 9 deep depression ( spirits ! ,coney arriv$ at ! k9d]g>t54 ,%e sat d[n be=e ! ?re%old1 :i* is ?ree in*es high1 & climb$ c>efully ov] x4 ,%e f\nd h]self 9 a new _w1 :]e babies 7 do+ wond]ful ?+s & enjoy+ all !y did4 ,! ,coney decid$ to jo9 a class1 & 0 (f]$ beads to ?read4 ,life ) beautiful beads to ?read became wor? liv+1 & x may be 9 ! c\rse ( "t t ! tortoise w ov]take ! h>e4 ,9 any case we f9d mu* *e] 9 ! conclusion ( ! v]se1 = if our ,coney builds 9 ! ,rock h] be+ r feeble w n matt] v mu*4 ,^? :o possess t fri5d ( our y\?1 ,alice1 z illu/rat$ by ,sir ,john ,t5niel1 may f9d ! photograph twice reproduc$ ( our fat ,*e%ire ,cat4 ,?is baby is rem>kable = two ?+s3 %e smiles & %e vani%es4 ,! "t to see ! vani%+ conduct$ ) m cel]ity ?an ,alice ev] saw x1 is :5 ! babies' w>n+ call is s\nd$ across ! v]&ah & a visitor appe>s 9 ! too ne> horizon4 ,?is baby !n vani%es r\nd ! ne>e/ corn]4 ,!re is no?+ left ( h]1 n ev5 a smile4 ,9 fact1 ! *ief contra/ betwe5 h] & ! cat among ! foliage is t ) our ,cat ! smile goes fir/4 ,sunday morn+1 to return to ! beg9n+1 is full ( possible misadv5ture4 ,sometimes ! babies seem to agree among !mselves t x w\ld be well to be good4 ,!n _! admir+ ,sittie & ,ammal h no?+ to d b enjoy !m4 ,b sometimes x is o!rwise4 ,fir/ "o baby pulls h] si/]'s hair1 & ! o!r retaliates1 till ! two get entangl$ 9 ea* o!r's curls4 ,piria ,sittie flies to ! rescue1 dis5tangles ! combatants & p]suades !m to make fri5ds4 ,mean:ile ?ree re/less spirits 9 bodies to mat* h crept out ?r\gh ! op5 door 7x is too hot if we %ut ! doors71 & we f9d !m com=tably ensconc$ 9 =bidd5 places4 ,! ,beetle is a quiet *ild4 ,%e retires to a corn] & looks dev\t4 ,pres5tly a s\nd z ( scrap+ draws our att5tion to h]4 ,beetle6 ,op5 y\r m\?6 ,beetle op5s h] m\?4 ,x is pack$ ) :itewa% (f ! wall4 ,!n a sc>$ cry r+s ?r\gh ! nurs]y1 & all ! babies1 imag9+ awful ?+s imm95t1 tumble "o on top ( ! o!r 9 a wild ru% into refuge4 ,x is only a l>ge gras%opp] :i* has />tl$ ! ,*e%ire ,cat1 ^: great eyes are always on ! look-out = possible causes ( panic4 ,! gras%opp] is bani%$ to ! g>d5 & ! ,*e%ire ,cat smiles all ov] h] face4 ,peace re/or$1 ,dimples & ! ,owlet rememb] a dead liz>d !y f\nd 9 a corn] ( ! v]&ah1 & set (f to recov] x4 ,^! two walk exactly l me*anical toys2 & z !y /rut along h& 9 h&1 or "o aft] ! o!r1 !y look l some?+ w\nd up & go+1 9 a ,*ri/mas %op w9d[4 ,pres5tly !y return ) ! liz>d4 ,its tail is loose1 & !y sit d[n to pull x (f4 ,?is is n a nice game1 & some?+ else is sugge/$4 ,dimple's m\? gr[s sudd5ly squ>e2 %e wants t liz>d's tail4 ,!n a de> little *ild call$ ,muff 7because %e ought to be call$ ,huff if ! "n _h n be5 already appropriat$71 :o has be5 solemnly mun*+ a wat*1 decides x is "t to dem& m individual att5tion4 ,%e objects to ! pres5ce ( ano!r baby on h] ,sittie's lap4 ,:y %\ld two babies %>e "o lap8 ,! ?+ is self-evid5tly wrong4 ,"o lap1 "o baby1 %\ld be ! rule 9 all prop]ly conduct$ nurs]ies4 ,muff broods ov] ?is 9 sil5ce1 !n slides (f ! cr[d$ lap & sits d[n disconsolate1 alone4 ,te>s come1 big sad te>s1 z ,muff m$itates2 & x takes "t to expla9 matt]s & com=t1 )\t giv+ 9 to ! "o-lap-"o-baby !ory4 ,illu/ration3 ,,tubb+4 ,we h sev]al helpful babies4 ,dimples has be5 discov]$ pay+ requir$ att5tions to ?+s small] ?an h]self2 & ! ,wax ,doll pats ! ,rosebud if %e ?9ks x w reassure h]1 :5 7z r>ely happ5s7 t pet ( ! family is left /r&$ on a mat4 ,b ,puck is ! mo/ inv5tive4 ,x 0 "o happy ,sunday morn+ t we came ^u h] fe$+ ! ,ratlet on h] own acc\nt4 ,! ,ratlet 0 mak+ ungrateful rem>ks2 & we hurri$ across to h] & saw t ,puck1 "u ! impression d\btless t any hole w\ld d1 0 p\r+ ! milk 9 a /eady /ream d[n ! poor infant's nose4 ,puck smil$ up peacefully4 ,%e 0 sure we w\ld be pleas$ ) h]4 ,b ! ,ratlet cont9u$ eloqu5t = v _m m9utes4 ,sometimes 7b ?is is an old /ory n[7 our difficulties 7 increas$ by ! ,spid]'s habit ( :imp]+1 :i* _h a depress+ effect ^u ! family4 ,?is poor baby 0 a weak little bag ( bones :5 fir/ %e came to u4 ,! bag 0 made ( %rivell$ sk9 ( a du/y br[n col\r4 ,h] hair 0 ! col\r ( h] sk91 & hung ab\t h] head l tatt]$ %r$s ( a spid]'s web4 ,%e sat 9 a bun* & nev] smil$4 ,some?+ ab\t h] sugge/$ a spid]4 ,h] ,tamil "n is ,*rysan!mum1 :i* by ! *ange ( "o lett] becomes ,spid]4 ,s we call$ h] ,spid]4 ,at fir/ we 7 n anxi\s ab\t h]2 = su* little *ildr5 pick up quickly if !y are heal?y to beg9 )1 z we believ$ %e 04 ,b %e did n respond to ! good food & c>e1 & only grew ?9n] & m mis]able z ! weeks pass$1 till %e look$ l ! fir/ picture 9 a s]ies ( adv]tisem5ts ( "s m>vell\s pat5t food1 & we wond]$ if %e w\ld ev] gr[ l ! fat & fl\ri%+ la/ baby ( ! s]ies4 ,= two mon?s ?is /ate ( ?+s cont9u$2 %e grew m wiz5$ e day2 & ! uncanny spid]-limbs & attitude gave h] ! air ( n be+ a human baby at all1 b a t]rible little specim5 :i* ought n to be on view b %\ld be hidd5 safely away 9 "s private m$ical place--on a %elf 9 a bottle ( spirits ( w9e4 ,we are ask$ sometimes if su* t9y ?+s c suff] o!r ?an physically4 ,we h reason to ?9k !y c4 ,z all else fail$1 we took a little girl f s*ool = :om ! ,spid] _h an affection1 & let h] love h] all day long2 & almo/ at once !re 0 a *ange 9 ! sad little face ( ! ,spid]4 ,%e _h be5 c>$ = by an old gr&fa!r aft] h] "m's dea?1 & x seem$ z if %e _h frett$ = him & ne$$ someone all to h]self to make up = :at %e 0 miss+4 ,?is little girl1 ! ,cod-fi% by "n1 0 devot$ to ! ,spid]4 ,%e ne/l$ h] & play$ ) h]--or attempt$ to1 ,i %\ld say1 = at fir/ ! ,spid] almo/ res5t$ any attempts to play4 ,%e doesn't "k h[ to smile6 said ! ,cod-fi% disconsolately aft] a week's pett+ & lov+ _h result$ only 9 few] :imp]s1 b n z yet 9 smiles4 ,a few days lat] %e came to u1 & ann\nc$ ) mu* emotion3 ,%e has smil$ ?ree times6 ,next day ! record rose to sev52 aft] t we left (f c\nt+4 ,! ,spid] is fat & bonnie n[4 ,h] sk9 is a cle> & creamy br[n1 & h] hair has lo/ its du/9ess2 b %e /ill likes to sit crumpl$ up1 & a small alcove 9 ! kit*5 is h] fav\rite hav5 :5 tir$ ( ! _w4 ,se5 unexpect$ly 9 !re1 bun*$ 9 a tight knot1 h] d>k1 ke5 little eyes pe]+ out ( ! light-col\r$ little face1 %e /ill sugge/s a spid]4 ,b x is a *e]ful ,spid]1 :i* makes all ! diff]5ce4 ,,*apt] ,,xxii ,! ,p>rot ,h\se ,illu/ration3 ,,r$ ,,lake ,,& ,,hill4 ,z se5 7)\t ! wat]7 f ! ,t>aha ,nurs]y4 ,,! "t to see ! ,t>aha nurs]y at its be/ is betwe5 late ev5+ & e>ly morn+1 & aga9 ab\t noon4 ,x is p]fectly peaceful !n4 ,?irty mats are spread ^u ! floor4 ,?irty babies are /rewn ^u ! mats4 ,all ! ?irty are asleep4 ,a sleep+ baby is good4 ,?irty babies all good at once is some?+ we _c promise at any o!r h\r4 ,%ad+ y\r lant]n1 & walk+ c>efully s z n to tread on m scatt]$ limbs ?an may be1 y w&] r\nd ! nurs]y & m$itate ^u ! beautiful ways ( *ildhood4 ,!re is some?+ s t\*+ 9 sleep+ innoc5ce1 & y are t\*$4 ,"h two *ubby babies are ly+ lock$ 9 ea* o!r's arms4 ,y h to look twice be=e y see :i* limbs belong to :i*4 ,!re ano!r is hugg+ a doll m9us its head4 ,next to h] a baby sleeps pill[$ on ano!r1 & ! o!r does n m9d4 ,9 ! middle ( ! floor1 f> f h] mat1 a /urdy ?ree-ye>-old sprawls cont5t4 ,y pick h] up g5tly & lay h] on h] mat4 ,) an expression ( det]m9$ resolution ! baby rolls (f aga92 & if y attempt ano!r remove1 an om9\s puck] ( ! =ehead w>ns y to desi/4 ,y wond] if ! babies are q z good z !y seem4 ,"o ( ! de>1 fat1 devot$ little pair y notic$ at fir/1 /irs1 dis5tangles h]self f h] neighb\r1 & gives h] a slight kick4 ,!re is a smo!r$1 sleepy h[l1 & ! kick is return$4 ,wat]6 wails ! fir/ fat baby4 ,wat]6 wails ! second4 ,y get wat]1 give x1 pat bo? fat babies till !y g to sleep1 & !n cauti\sly retire4 ,x w\ld be a pity if all ! babies 7 to wak5 ?ir/y & kick ea* o!r4 ,at ! door y turn & look back4 ,graceful babies1 clumsy babies1 babies :o lie ext5d$ l "y pok]s1 babies curl$ l kitt5s4 ,all sorts ( babies1 good1 bad1 & middl+1 b all bless$ly asleep4 ,sleep1 baby1 sleep6 ,?y fa!r gu>ds 8 %eep1 ,?y "m %akes ! dreaml&-tree ,d[n fall ! little dreams = !e1 ,sleep1 baby1 sleep6 ,sleep1 baby1 sleep6 ,our ,savi\r loves ,8 %eep4 ,he is ! ,lamb ( ,god on high1 ,:o = our sakes came d[n to die4 ,sleep1 baby1 sleep6 ,! pretty ,g]man lullaby rises unbidd51 & is pu%$ away by ! quick1 sad ?\ghts t w n li/5 to x4 ,= "u all ! laught] & nurs]y frolic & happ9ess1 we _c b rememb] :y ^! little ones are "h4 ,r\nd ab\t ! comp\nd 9 a great triangle !re are ?ree ,temple t[]s4 ,!y are out ( sight ?\gh ne> u1 b we _c =get !y are !re4 ,!y /& = t :i* deprives ^! *ildr5 ( _! bir?right4 ,oh = ! day :5 ^? ,temple t[]s w fall & ! reign ( righte\sness beg96 ,!re 0 a "t :5 x seem$ impossible to desire t ! fire %\ld be all[$ to t\* ! /ately & beautiful ?+s ( ! _w4 ,n[ !re is some?+ t satisfies z no?+ else c\ld 9 ! vision ( t purify+ fire2 & ! promise t /&s out l a light 9 ! d>kness is t :i* tells t ! ,son ( ,man %all s5d =? ,8 angels1 & !y %all ga!r out ( ,8 k+dom1 all ?+s t (f5d4 ,9 ! t9y babies' nurs]y _m a croon+ ,indian lullaby is sung to ! babies 9 _! sw++ :ite cradles2 b 9 ! ,t>aha nurs]y we s+ sweet old hymns1 9 ,tamil & ,engli%1 & !n all s5sible p are suppos$ to g to sleep4 ,b "o ev5+ aft] ! s++1 two little tots settl$ d[n = a talk4 ,said "o ly+ com=tably on h] back ) h] two h&s clasp$ beh9d h] head3 ,:o takes c>e ( u at night :5 we all g to sleep8 ,said ! o!r 9 a mixture ( ,tamil & ,engli%3 ,jesus-t5d]-,%eph]d takes c>e ( u--,jesus-loves-me-?is-,i-"k4 ,! fir/ baby roll$ ov] ^u h] small si/] ) a cr[ ( d]ision4 ,x is n6 ,x is ,accal6 ,i woke "o night & saw h]6 ,! o!r baby insi/$ %e 0 mak+ a mi/ake4 ,accal sleeps1 all p sleep2 !y lie d[n l u & g to sleep4 ,only ,jesus /ays awake1 & nev]1 nev] goes to sleep4 ,nev]1 nev]8 que/ion$ ! fir/1 & 0 quiet = a m9ute consid]+ ! matt]2 !n ) a sceptical little laugh1 ,did y ev] wake up & see ,him8 ,if ! babies 7 always 9 a /ate ( calm repose1 ! ,t>aha's pet "n1 ,p>rot-h\se1 w\ld be inappropriate3 b = ne>ly t5 h\rs ( ! day !y are awake & talkative4 ,talk1 h[ev]1 is a mild ^w by :i* to describe _! p[]s ( conv]sation4 ,sometimes we wond] if !y nev] tire ( *att]+1 & !n we rememb] !y h only lately le>n$ to talk4 ,!y h n _h "t to tire4 ,illu/ration3 ,,*ildr5 ,,wad+ ,once we li/5$1 hop+ t ! trail+ cl\ds ( glory s rec5tly dep>t$ _h left "s trace ( illum9ation 9 ?is _! fir/ expression 9 e>?'s language ( _! feel+s & emotions4 ,b we f\nd !m v mundane4 ,mo/ ( ! conv]sation conc]n$ _! saman1 a compreh5sive ,indian ^w us$ by p ) limit$ vocabul>ies to express all mann] ( ?+s to play )4 ,_! saman 0 v>i\s4 ,dolls1 ( c\rse1 & ! remnants ( dolls2 t9s & ! lids !re(2 bits ( ev]y?+ :i* c\ld break2 corks1 /ones1 se$s1 half cocoa-nut %ells2 rags ( _m ages & col\rs2 scrap$ d[n morsels ( brick2 )]$ fl[]s & leaves2 /icks ( all sorts & sizes2 ,engli% ,*ri/mas c>ds1 sometimes ) mu* dome/ic in=mation on ! back2 unau?oris$ sundries f ! k9d]g>t5--deliv]$ up ) a smile int5d$ to assure y t !y 7 only be+ kept = ,sittie2 & p*ies4 ,p*ies are insects4 ,we h "o baby :o collects p*ies4 ,look6 %e said1 "o morn+ be=e pray]s1 ,deah little five p*ies6 & %e op5$ h] h& & five r$ & black beetles crawl$ sl[ly out1 to ! delight ( ! dev\t1 :o scrambl$ up f _! ord]ly r[s ) %rieks ( appreciation4 ,b if ! babies' conv]sation 0 un5light5+1 _! *os5 avocations are n un9t]e/+4 ,!y are always busy ab\t some?+1 &1 f _! po9t ( view1 some?+ important4 ,!re are1 ( c\rse1 "s among ! ?irty :o are unimag9ative & un5t]pris+4 ,^! sit 9 ! s& & play4 ,o!rs h m to d4 ,life to !m is full ( ! unkn[n4 ,! unkn[n is full ( possibilities4 ,! great ?+ is to exp]im5t4 ,no?+ is too insignificant to explore1 & all five s5ses are useful to ! ?or\ghly compet5t baby4 ,!y knew1 ( c\rse1 all ! fl[]s1 & ! discov]y ( any?+ fre% 0 always foll[$ by a sc5e :i* sugge/$ a colony ( small & active ants haul+ "s l>ge object to _! ne/2 = ! ne>e/ gr[n-up p]son 0 inv>iably hail$1 & pull$1 & pu%$1 & hurri$ along till ! new fl[] 0 rea*$4 ,!n1 if ! object 0 incauti\s en\gh to /oop d[n to exam9e x1 ! ants1 ant-wise1 w\ld envelope x1 climb+1 sw>m+ all ov] x1 till !re 0 no?+ to be se5 b ants4 ,illu/ration3 ,,*ildr5 ,,wad+4 ,!y knew ! habits ( cat]pill>s1 & especially !y _h k ab\t ! wond]ful silv] *rysalis :i* p9s itself to ! po9t$ leaves ( ! ole&]4 ,!y knew :at 0 pack$ up inside1 & "s ) wide-op5 eyes _h wat*$ ! miracle sl[ly evolv+ z ! butt]fly unpack$ itself1 & sunn$ its crumpl$ velvet w+s1 till ! crumples smoo!d1 & ! w+s dri$1 & ! butt]fly flutt]$ away4 ,!y knew1 too1 ! less approa*able ways ( ! wild bees1 & :]e !y hive1 & :at happ5s if !y are di/urb$2 & !y knew ! private feel+s ( calves1 & :i* likes to be treat$ z a bro!r & :i* res5ts su* lib]ties4 ,cr[s !y knew intimately1 & squirrels a little2 = infants fall5 f _! ne/s h (t5 be5 tak5 c>e (1 mu* aga9/ _! fooli% wills1 until old en\gh to look aft] !mselves4 ,_! namesakes1 ! p>rots1 !y knew v well2 & ! da9ty little sunbirds t fla% f fl[] to fl[] l little liv+ jewels 9 ! sunlight2 & ! clev] tailor-bird1 :i* sews its own ne/1 knott+ its ?read l a gr[n-up human be+2 & ! wise leaf-insect t c h>dly be f\nd till x moves2 & ! great1 gre51 frisky gras%opp] t seems to invite a *ase4 ,we f\nd !y knew1 alas1 too mu* ab\t ! misuse ( ev]y?+ gr[+ 9 ! field6 ,! tam>9d fruit makes condim5t1 b eat5 raw x gives fev]2 & ! babies ?9k we are wrong "h1 & !y are fond ( =gett+ our rules4 ,_m k9ds ( grasses are v good to eat2 & "h aga9 we are mi/ak51 = we "k n ! flav\r ( grasses4 ,se$s may be useful to plant2 b ^? :o ?9k _! use ends !re1 are %ort-sight$ & ignorant p4 ,^u ^! & o!r matt]s ! babies feel we h mu* to le>n4 ,illu/ration3 ,,esli ,,& ,,little ,,kohila4 ,tak5 a ye> e>li]4 ,"o weird joy has be5 !irs1 & !y nev] w =get x4 ,= "o :ole blissful aft]noon !y foll[$ ! snake-*>m] ab\t at a respectful di/ance2 & !y _c und]/& :y we are n anxi\s !y %\ld dance z he danc$1 & pipe z he pip$1 r\nd ! hopeful holes !y discov] 9 ! r$ mud walls4 ,o!r ?+s !y _h le>n$ to d1 n :olly innoc5t4 ,!y mu/ h made fri5ds ) ! masons :o built _! new nurs]y1 & p]suad$ !m to d _! "w 9 a sympa!tic _s2 = !y knew ! weak po9ts hidd5 f our eyes1 & h[ pleasant x is to scoop mort> out ( cracks betwe5 ! bricks ( ! floor4 ,!y _h le>n$ h[ mo/ ( _! toys 7 made1 & h[ a doll c\ld be mo/ easily dissect$1 & ! p>ticul> ta/e ( its inside4 ,!y knew1 too1 ! lusci\sness ( div]s sorts ( s&--?is la/1 h[ev]1 be+ a mixture ( crime & disease1 & treat$ z su*1 is n a popul> s94 ,f9ally1 to our la/+ disgrace1 !y _h le>n$1 aft] a s]ies ( ?\ghtful exp]im5ts1 h[ be/ to obey a comm& & yet elude its int5tion2 ?us on a wet day1 :5 !y 7 comm&$ n to g out1 _! ,sittie f\nd !m ly+ full l5g? 9 a long r[ on ! edge ( ! v]&ah1 _! heads protrud+ s z to cat* ! lovely drip f ! ro(4 ,& all ^! ?+s !y _h c>efully le>n$ 9 spite ( a c]ta9 am\nt ( sup]vision2 &1 be+ entirely unsuspici\s1 !y w take y into _! confid5ce & let y %>e ! =bidd5 fruit1 if y are s incl9$4 ,b1 aft] all1 p]fection ( goodness w\ld make u m anxi\s ?an ev5 ^! enormities2 we %\ld fe> our babies 7 gr[+ too good--a fe> n press+ at pres5t4 ,! ,p>rot-h\se only ov]:elms :5 ! birds beg9 to s+4 ,!n inde$ all :o c1 flee f> away1 = ! babies once />t$ are difficult to /op4 ,!y are sure y l x z mu* z !y d1 & are anxi\s to oblige y :5 y visit _! _w4 ,s !y s+ ) ! greate/ e>ne/ness1 & z !y inv>iably hang on to e available "p ( y1 & punctuate _! melodies ) kisses & embraces1 escape is n always practicable4 ,! ,t>aha nurs]y 0 our fir/ sub/antial build+4 ,x is built ^u f\ndations rais$ well (f ! gr\nd1 & has a wide v]&ah4 ,:5 fir/ x 0 op5$ & ! *ildr5 7 invit$ to take possession1 !y did s mo/ completely4 ,"o qua9t little p]son ( b>ely ?ree1 call$ ,kohila1 ^: small1 repress$ face 9 ! photograph gives no h9t ( "*1 us$ to /alk up & d[n ! v]&ah ) an air ( proprietor%ip :i* left no d\bt 9 any m9d z to h] op9ion on ! subject4 ,ano!r 7%>+ ! sw++ cot ) ,kohila 9 ! photo7 sat on ! top /ep & smil$ enc\rag+ly to visitors4 ,x 0 nice to be smil$ at1 b !re 0 some?+ v condesc5d+ 9 ! smile4 ,ano!r /ood gu>d ov] ! plants1 :i* grew 9 pots mu* bigg] ?an h]self all ! way d[n ! v]&ah4 ,if any presum$ to t\* !m1 %e w\ld d>t out ^u !m ) an indignant *irrup4 ,= days aft] ! great ev5t--! op5+ ( ! ,t>aha--small p>ties wait$ on visitors1 =m$ 9 procession be=e & beh9d1 & escort$ !m r\nd1 expla9+ all my/]ies1 & insi/+ ^u due admiration4 ,ev]y?+ _h to be int]view$1 f teaspoons to pots ( f]n4 ,?is conclud$1 ! gue/s 7 politely dismiss$1 & dep>t$1 let u hope1 prop]ly p5etrat$ ) a s5se ( ! k9dness ( ! babies4 ,!re h always be5 "s :o object to visitors4 ,"o ( ^! %[$ h] objection1 n by cry+ & runn+ away1 z undignifi$ babies d1 b by sitt+ exactly :]e %e 0 :5 %e fir/ caught sight ( ! intrud]1 & />+ /raight into space ) a v /ony />e4 ,a s5sitive visitor c\ld h>dly h _h ! tem]ity to pass h]1 b normal visitors are n s5sitive4 ,sometimes !y attempt$ to make fri5ds4 ,?is 0 too mu*4 ,"o fat arm w\ld be sl[ly rais$ till x cov]$ ! baby's eyes1 & 9 ?is position %e w\ld sit l a small petrifaction1 till ! horror _h )drawn4 ,illu/ration3 ,,pree?a ,,aw>e ,,( ,a ,,foe4 ,t>a on ! left3 ! ,coney on ! "r4 ,?is baby1 ,pree?a by "n1 has 9 mo/ matt]s a way ( h] own4 ,"o ( h] little peculi>ities is a /rong pref]5ce = solo music z comp>$ ) conc]t4 ,%e li/5s att5tively to o!rs' p]=mances1 !n disappe>s4 ,if foll[$1 %e w be f\nd alone 9 a corn]1 ) h] face to ! wall & h] back to ! _w2 & if %e ?9ks h]self unobs]v$1 y w be regal$ ) a solo4 ,?is exp]i5ce is int]e/+ to ! musical4 ,x is nev] twice alike4 ,sometimes x is a succession ( s\nds1 l a tune t has lo/ its way2 sometimes1 a recognisable v]sion ( ! *orus lately le>n$4 ,at o!r times %e deliv]s h] s\l 9 a s]ies ( %ort groans & grunts1 beat+ "t ) h] podgy h&s4 ,if %e p]ceives ?r\gh ! back ( h] head t someone is look+ or li/5+1 %e /ops at once2 & no p]suasions c ev] produce t special rehe>sal aga94 ,( late ?is baby1 be+ n[ ne>ly ?ree1 has awak5$ to a s5se ( life's responsibilities1 & %e evid5tly wi%es to prep>e to meet !m suitably4 ,ye/]day ev5+ %e came to me ) an exce$+ly s]i\s face1 po9t$ 9 ! direction ( ! k9d]g>t5 room1 & !n tapp+ h]self1 rem>k$3 ,amma6 ,i k9d]g>t54 ,no m 0 said2 b we "k we %all soon see h] solemnly waddl+ into ! s*oolroom1 & we wond] :at w happ54 ,w %e cont9ue to insi/ ^u a corn] to h]self8 ,,*apt] ,,xxiii ,! ,be> ,g>d5 ,illu/ration3 ,,jullanie ,,among ,,! ,,grasses4 ,,! fruit ( ! lotus--a capsule--rip5s bel[ ! surface ( ! wat]4 ,:5 ! se$s are ripe & leave ! b]ry1 a small bubble ( air atta*$ to !m br+s !m to ! surface1 & ! se$s are c>ri$ :]ev] ! w9d & waves take !m until ! bubble bur/s2 :5 ! se$1 be+ heavi] ?an wat]1 s9ks to ! bottom1 & !n beg9s to gr[ to =m a new plant1 :i* may be at "s di/ance f ! p>5t "o4 ,9 ?is simple way ! lotus plant is enabl$ to spread4 ,s says our botany book2 & ! ?\ght ( ! lotus se$ 9 its little air-boat float+ away ov] ! wat] to be s[n1 p]haps1 f> f ! p>5t plant1 is full ( sugge/ion1 & leads u /raight to ! ,be>-g>d54 ,a lotus-pool1 a be>-g>d5--! connection is n obvi\s4 ,alice 9 h] w&]+s nev] w&]$ into bewild]m5t m pr(\nd ?an su* a mixture ( ideas4 ,b ?is is ! way we get to x3 ,we h call$ ^! little *ildr5 ,lotus-buds--= su* !y are 9 _! y\ngness & innoc5ce2 & ! und]ly+ ?\ght runs deep]1 z ^? :o h read ! fir/ *apt] "k--b ! ,lotus-buds mu/ gr[ into fl[]s & mu/ be s[n z liv+ se$s1 p]haps f> away f ! happy place !y knew :5 !y 7 buds4 ,! little air-boat w come = !m4 ,! brea? ( ! ,_s t bl[e? :]e x li/e? w c>ry !m :]e x w1 & we want !m to be ready to be s[n :]ev] ! pools ( ! _w are b>r5 ( lotus fl[]s4 ,& ?is br+s u /raight to ! newe/ ( our beg9n+s 9 ,dohnavur--! ,k9d]g>t54 ,an ideal k9d]g>t5 is a place :]e ! tea*]s tra9 ! s*ol>s1 & we hope to h t 9 "t2 at pres5t ! case is opposite1 & t is :y x has its "n1 ! "n t conflicts ) ! lotus-pool--! ,be>-g>d54 ,9 ?is peaceful room ,classes ,b1 ,c1 & ,d h tak5 _! "y tea*]s 9 h&--,rukma1 ,pre5a1 & ,s&a4 ,( ^! ,rukma 7,radiance7 has ! cle>e/ ideas ab\t discipl9e2 ,pre5a 7! ,elf7 kn[s be/ h[ to coax2 & ,s&a1 excell5t ,m\se t %e is1 has ! gift ( pati5ce4 ,^! ?ree 7:o aft] all are only s*ool-girls1 cont9u+ _! own education ) _! ,prma ,sittie7 are attempt+ to in/ruct ! babies on ! l9es ( organis$ play2 b ! babies feel !y h mu* to tea* _! tea*]s1 & ?is is h[ !y d x3-- ,prma ,sittie goes into ! room :5 ! k9d]g>t5 is 9 progress1 & f ?ree classes at once babies come spr++ t[>ds h] ) squeals ( joy1 & !y clasp h] knees & look up ) eyes full ( affection & confid5ce 9 _! welcome4 ,g back to y\r place6 %e says1 & tries to look sev]e2 ) a *uckle ! *ildr5 obey1 & %e looks r\nd & takes notes4 ,*ellalu is ly+ full-l5g? on ! b5*1 ) a look ( supreme cont5t on h] face1 & h] two feet aga9/ ! wall4 ,pyrie has turn$ h] back to ! picture t is be+ %[n1 & is ty+ a h&k]*ief r\nd h] head4 ,ruh9ie1 an ,india-rubb]-ball sort ( baby1 has sudd5ly b\nc$ up f h] seat1 & is />t+ a *orus1 ( :i* %e is fond1 at ! top ( h] n v g5tle voice2 & ,komala1 a p]fect sprite1 is tickl+ ! *ild :o sits next to h]4 ,sittie6 exclaims ! di/ract$ tea*]1 !y won't le>n any?+6 ,or if %e happ5s to be ! ,m\se1 %e is calmly engag$ ) ! "o good *ild 9 h] class4 ,! next gr\p is /r++ beads on pieces ( wire4 ,look1 look6 & an eag] babe holds out h] wire = admiration1 & probably spills h] beads 9 h] ef=t to secure att5tion4 ,if %e does1 !re is a g5]al scramble1 beads roll+ loose on ! floor be+ q irresi/ible4 ,"o wick$ baby sits by h]self & /r+s h] beads on h] curls4 ,a few m9utes lat] x is mat-plait+2 & ! agile little f+]s are dilig5tly weav+ pieces ( blue & yell[ mat]ial1 bits ov] f _! eld] si/]s' g>m5ts1 beautifully unconsci\s t !y are suppos$ to be work+ ! col\rs alt]nately4 ,sometimes 9 ! gaye/ way !y exclaim3 ,sittie6 ,x's wrong6 x's wrong6 ,occasionally !re is a h[l f a *ild :o has be5 p9*$ by ano!r1 or ^: neighb\r has help$ h]self to h] beads4 ,sittie crosses ! room hurri$ly4 ,:at's ! matt]8 ,) te>s roll+ d[n h] *eeks ! victim po9ts to h] oppressor4 ,may y d t8 is ! inv>iable ,engli% "q4 ,x is answ]$ by a %ake ( ! head1 ! t9ie/ baby und]/&+ t p>ticul> rem>k4 ,! injur$ baby smiles4 ,a repro(1 or at wor/ a pat on ! fat arm next to h]s1 satisfies h] s5se ( ju/ice1 & %e is cont5t4 ,:5 an ,engli% lesson beg9s1 ^? afflict$ ) delicate n]ves are happi] else:]e4 ,"o class has a toy f>my>d1 ano!r a set ( tea-?+s1 ! ?ird a doll :i* e memb] ( ! class is a*+ to embrace4 ,! tea*]s & *ildr5 alike are incl9$ to talk ) emphasis2 & if y /& betwe5 ! ?ree classes y he> que] answ]s to que]] que/ions1 & wond] if ! babies at ,babel 7 any?+ l s bewild]+4 ,b ?is vision ( ! k9d]g>t5 is h>dly a =tnight old2 = ,classes ,b1 ,c1 & ,d are ( rec5t developm5t1 & are made up ( "s he$less *>act]s1 z ,*ellalu & ,pyrie1 :o c\ld n keep up ) class ,a1 & a few m "y ?+s f ! nurs]y :o 7 wild] ?an wild rabbits f ! wood :5 we began4 ,also x %\ld be /at$ t f ! babies' po9t ( view :ite p are only play?+s4 ,!y 7 v good be=e y came6 is ! unflatt]+ rem>k frequ5tly address$ to u2 & z we discreetly retire1 ! babies d seem to become sudd5ly beautifully docile4 ,b ev5 s !y might be bett]1 z an unconsci\s com$y ov]-se5 ?is morn+ proves4 ,i 0 9 ! por* outside ! door1 :5 ,rukma1 po9t+ to a blackbo>d on :i* 7 writt5 sundry words1 told ,*ellalu to %[ h] cat1 & ,i look$ 9 int]e/$ to "k if ,*ellalu really knew any?+ ( read+4 ,*ellalu br&i%$ ! po9t]1 !n turn$ to ,rukma ) a confid5tial smile1 ,cat8 ,:]e is x1 ,accal8 ,is x at ! top or at ! bottom8 ,rukma1 :o has a ke5 s5se ( ! comic1 seem$ to f9d x difficult to look z %e felt %e ought4 ,*ellalu caught ! tw9kle 9 h] eye1 & ?r[+ h]self he>tily into ! _s ( ! game1 :i* 0 evid5tly int5d$ to be a k9d]g>t5 v]sion ( ,hunt ! ,m\se ?r\gh ! ,wood1 %e se>*$ ! blackbo>d = cat4 ,!n to ,rukma3 ,accal6 de> ,accal6 ,tell me1 & ,i'll tell y6 ,!re is no?+ t helps u s mu* to be good z to be believ$ 9 & ?\ght bett] ?an we are2 & ! conv]se is true1 s we d n want to be always suspect+ ,*ellalu ( s92 b ?is la/ 0 entirely too artless1 & ?is 0 app>5tly ,rukma's view1 = %e s5t ,*ellalu back to h] seat & call$ up ano!r baby1 :o1 fairly radiat+ virtue1 imm$iately f\nd ! cat4 ,! next room--:i* ,class ,a 7! fir/ to be =m$7 has to itself--is a hav5 ( peace aft] ! ,be>-g>d54 ,x is a pleasant room l ! o!r1 pretty ) pictures & ) fl[]s4 ,& ! little bright faces make x a happy place1 = ?is class1 ?\gh s]i\s-m9d$1 is exce$+ly *e]ful4 ,!re is ! demure little ,t+alu1 ! good *ild ( ! k9d]g>t51 its hope & /ay 9 tr\bl\s h\rs1 & ! qua9t little trio1 ,jeya1 ,jullanie1 & ,sella--?is la/ is call$ ,cock-rob9 by ! family1 = %e has eyes & mann]s :i* rem9d u ( ! bird1 & %e h>dly ev] walks1 %e hops4 ,mala & ,bala are 9 ! class1 & a lively scamp call$ ,puvai4 ,! k9d]g>t5 is work$ 9 ,engli%1 help$ out ) ,tamil :5 occasion requires4 ,?is plan1 adopt$ = reasons p]ta9+ to ! future ( ! *ildr51 is result+ 9 some?+ s comical t we %all be sorry :5 ! fir/ six mon?s are ov] & ! babies gr[ correct4 ,at pres5t !y talk ) delightful ab&on impossible to reproduce1 b v ent]ta9+ to ^? :o "k bo? languages4 ,!y tack ,tamil t]m9ations to ,engli% v]bs1 & ,engli% n\ns make subjects = ,tamil pr$icates4 ,!y turn _! s5t5ces upside d[n & inside out1 & any way 9 fact :i* occurs to !m at ! mom5t1 only insi/+ ^u "o ?+3 y mu/ be made to und]/&4 ,!y apply ev]y?+ !y le>n z imm$iately z possible1 & woe to ! unw>y fl\nd]] 9 ! realm ( natural sci5ce :o (f]s an explanation ( any ph5om5a ( nature o!r ?an t taught 9 ! k9d]g>t54 ,! le>n$ baby reg>ds y ) a t5d] sort ( pity4 ,poor ?+1 y are v ignorant2 b y w "k bett] 9 "t--if only y w come to ! k9d]g>t51 ! s\rce ( ! f\nta9 ( k4 ,! ease & ! quickness ) :i* a new ^w is appropriat$ con/antly surprises u4 ,z = example3 "o morn+ two babies w&]$ r\nd ! ,pray]-room1 &1 discov]+ passion-fl[]s )9 rea*1 eag]ly begg$ = !m 9 ,tamil4 ,"o ( ! two pu%$ ! o!r aside & want$ all ! fl[]s4 ,gre$y6 gre$y6 ,i said reprov+ly1 9 ,engli%4 ,gre$y m9e6 0 ! imm$iate rejo9d]1 & ! little h& 0 held out ) m c]ta9ty ?an ev] n[ t ! "n ( ! fl[] 0 kn[n4 ,gre$y my fl[]6 ,m9e6 ,b "s ( ! qua9te/ exp]i5ces are :5 ! eloqu5t baby1 det]m9$ to express h]self 9 ,engli%1 falls back ^u scraps ( k9d]g>t5 rhyme & deliv]s x 9 all s]i\sness4 ,on ! ev5+ be=e my bir?day ,i 0 bani%$ f my room1 & ! *ildr5 decorat$ x exactly z !y pleas$4 ,:5 ,i return$ ,i 0 implor$ n to look at any?+1 z x 0 n int5d$ to be se5 till next morn+4 ,next morn+ ! babies came 9 procession ) _! eld]s1 & :ile ,i 0 occupi$ ) !m out on ! v]&ah1 ,*ellalu & h] fri5d ,nave5a1 discov]+ some?+ unusual 9 my room1 escap$ f ! ranks & w5t (f to exam9e ! my/]y4 ,i f\nd !m a mom5t lat] gaz+ 9 a/oni%$ joy at ! glories !re reveal$4 ,:o did x all8 gasp$ ,*ellalu1 ^: int5tion1 let u hope1 0 p]fectly rev]5t4 ,god did x all6 ,! "o k9d]g>t5 class taught entirely 9 ,tamil is ! ,scripture lesson1 illu/rat$ :5ev] possible by pictures2 & be+ always taught ab\t sacr$ ?+s 9 ,tamil1 ! babies h no d\bt ab\t ! language 9 use 9 ,bible days4 ,b sometimes a little m9d is puzzl$1 z an in/ructive aside reveal$ a day or two ago4 ,= _! tea*] _h told !m 9 ,engli%1 n z a ,scripture lesson1 b j z a /ory1 ab\t ,pet] & ,john & ! lame man4 ,! picture 0 be=e !m1 & !y und]/ood & foll[$ ke5ly2 b "o little girl :isp]$ to ano!r1 :o happ5$ to be ! well-in=m$ ,cock-rob93 ,did ,pet] & ,john talk ,engli% or ,tamil8 ,tamil1 ( c\rse6 return$ ,cock-rob91 )\t a mom5t's hesitation4 ,! ,scripture lessons are usually giv5 by ,arulai1 ^: delight is ,bible tea*+4 ,s t z mu* z lie? 9 y y w apply y\rself :olly to ?is "o ?+1 & draw all y\r c>es & /udies ?is way1 is a ^w t always comes to m9d :5 "o ?9ks ( ,arulai & h] ,bible4 ,%e mu* enjoys tak+ ! babies1 believ+ t ! impressions creat$ ^u ! m9d ( a little *ild are practically indelible4 ,sometimes ^! impressions are express$ 9 vigor\s fa%ion4 ,once ! subject ( ! class 0 ! ,good ,sam>itan4 ,! babies 7 greatly ex]cis$ ov] ! sc&al\s behavi\r ( ! prie/ & ! ,levite4 ,puni% !m6 ,let !m h :ipp+s6 !y dem&$4 ,arulai expla9$ fur!r4 ,b "o baby got up f h] seat & walk$ solemnly to ! picture4 ,take c>e :at y are do+6 %e rem>k$ impressively 9 ,tamil1 %ak+ h] f+] at ! two retreat+ backs4 ,naughty6 naughty6--?is 0 9 ,engli%--take c>e6 ,"o ( ! fav\rite pictures %[s ,abraham & ,isaac on ! way to ! m\nt ( sacrifice4 ,?is /ory 0 told "o morn+ ) mu* rev]5ce & feel+1 & ! babies 7 impress$4 ,!re 7 te>s 9 ,bala's eyes z %e gaz$ at ! picture1 b %e bru%$ !m away hurri$ly & hop$ no "o _h notic$4 ,only ,*ellalu appe>$ p]fectly unconc]n$4 ,%e _h bus9ess ( h] own on h&1 & ! /ory1 x seem$1 _h n t\*$ h]4 ,! babies are se>*$ be=e !y come to s*ool1 & all toys1 bits ( /r+1 old t9s1 & sundries are remov$ f _! p]sons4 ,b !re are ways ( evad+ inquisitors4 ,*ellalu kn[s ^! ways4 ,%e n[ produc$ a long wisp ( r$ tape f some:]e--%e did n tell u :]e--& proce$$ to tie h] feet toge!r4 ,?is accompli%$1 %e curl$ h]self up on ! b5* l a cat]pill> on a leaf1 & to all appe>ances w5t to sleep4 ,:y 0 %e n awak5$ & compell$ to behave prop]ly8 asks ! read]1 duly %ock$4 ,p]haps because on t r special morn+ ! tea*] pref]r$ h] asleep4 ,illu/ration3 ,,arulai ,,& ,,rukma1 ,,) ,,nave5a4 ,! /ory f9i%$1 ! *ildr5 7 que/ion$1 & !y answ]$ ) unwont$ gravity4 ,:at did ,isaac say to 8 fa!r z !y walk$ alone toge!r8 ,an aw$ little voice _h begun ! requir$ answ]1 :5 ,*ellalu sudd5ly uncurl$1 sat up1 & said 9 cle>1 decid$ ,tamil3 ,he said1 ',fa!r6 d n kill me6' ,ye%6 t 0 :at he said4 ,:5 fir/ ! babies he>d ab\t ,heav51 !y all want$ to g at once1 & ) difficulty 7 re/ra9$ f pray+ to be tak5 !re imm$iately4 ,!re 0 "o naughty *ild :o1 :5 %e 0 giv5 m$ic9e1 inv>iably ann\nc$1 ,i w n /ay 9 ?is village3 ,i am go+ to ,heav56 ,i am go+ n[6 ,b !y soon grew wis]4 ,x 0 our excitable1 m]ry little ,jullanie :o summ$ up all desires ) mo/ simplicity3 ,"l ,jesus1 please take me !re or any:]e anytime2 only :]ev] ,i am1 please /ay !re too6 ,"s ( ! babies are c>nal3 ,:5 ,i g to t village 7,heav571 ,i %all g = a ride on ! *]ubim's w+s4 ,i w make !m take me to all sorts ( places1 j :]ev] ,i want to g4 ,! late/ pron\ncem5t1 h[ev]1 0 = ! mom5t ! mo/ p]plex+4 ,come-&a-look-ata-well6 said ,*ellalu ye/]day ev5+1 ! s5t5ce 9 a s+le long ^w4 ,! well is be+ dug 9 ! ,m5ag]ie g>d5 & is surr\nd$ by a trellis1 beyond :i* ! babies may n pass1 unless tak5 by "o ( ourselves4 ,z we drew ne> to ! well1 ,*ellalu po9t$ to x & said3 ,amma6 ,t is ! way to ,heav56 ,?is spee*1 :i* 0 9 ,tamil1 consid]ably surpris$ me1 z naturally we ?9k ( ,heav5 above ! bright blue sky4 ,! yawn+ gulf ( ! unf9i%$ well sugge/$ some?+ diff]5t4 ,b ,*ellalu 0 positive4 ,x is ! way to ,heav54 ,i may n g !re1 b y may6 ,ye%6 y may g to ,heav51 ,amma1 b ,i may n6 ,%e _h no?+ m to say2 & we wond]$ h[ %e c\ld possibly h arriv$ at s extraord9>y a conclusion1 till we rememb]$ t x _h be5 expla9$ to ! babies t any baby fall+ 9 w\ld probably be dr[n$ & die1 & s until x 0 f9i%$ & made safe no baby mu/ g ne> x4 ,*ellalu _h evid5tly argu$ t z to die meant go+ to ,heav51 ! well mu/ be ! way to ,heav52 & z only gr[n-up p might g ne> x1 !y1 & !y alone app>5tly1 7 all[$ to g to ,heav54 ,^! babies are no?+ if n practical4 ,arulai _h be5 tea*+ ! /ory ( ! ,unm]ciful ,s]vant2 & to br+ x d[n to nurs]y life1 suppos$ ! case ( a baby :o snat*$ at o!r babies' toys1 & 0 unfair & selfi%4 ,su* a baby1 if n re=m$1 w\ld gr[ up & be l ! ,unm]ciful ,s]vant4 ,! babies look$ ^u ! back ( ! (f5d] z %[n 9 ! picture4 ,bad man6 ,na/y man6 !y said to ea* o!r1 po9t+ to him ) av]sion4 ,& ,arulai clos$ ! class ) a %ort pray] t none ( ! babies might ev] be l ! ,unm]ciful ,s]vant4 ,! pray] ov]1 ! babies ru%$ to ! table :]e _! toys 7 put dur+ ! ,scripture lesson4 ,pyrie got !re fir/1 &1 ga!r+ all %e c\ld rea*1 %e swept !m into h] lap & 0 d>t+ (f ) !m1 :5 a ^w f ,arulai recall$ h]4 ,= a mom5t !re 0 a /ruggle4 ,!n %e ran up to ,t+alu1 ! *ild %e _h *iefly defraud$1 p\r$ all h] treasures into h] lap1 & !n sprang into ,arulai's arms ) ! eag] "q3 ,acca6 ,acca6 ,am ,i n a ,m]ciful ,s]vant8 ,,*apt] ,,xxiv ,! ,accals ,?is sacr$ "w dem&s n lukew>m1 selfi%1 slack s\ls1 b he>ts m f9ely temp]$ ?an /eel1 wills pur] & h>d] ?an ! diamond4--,p,,re ,,didon4 ,illu/ration3 ,,ponnamal1 ,,) ,,pree?a ,,on ,,h] ,,knee1 ,,& ,,t>a ,,beside ,,h]4 ,,! ,accals1 )\t :om ?is "w 9 all its v>i\s bran*es c\ld n be und]tak51 are a b& ( ,indian si/]s 7! ^w ,accal means old] si/]7 :o live = ! s]vice ( ! *ildr54 ,fir/ among ! ,accals is ,ponnamal 7,gold574 ,) ! quick affection ( ! ,ea/ ! *ildr5 f9d ano!r ^w = ,gold & call h] d\bly ,gold5 ,si/]4 ,sometimes we are ask$ if we ev] f9d an ,indian fell[-work] :om we c ?or\ghly tru/4 ,! ung5]\s "q w\ld make u z indignant z x w\ld if x 7 ask$ ab\t our own relations1 7 x n t we "k x is ask$ 9 ignorance by ^? :o h nev] _h ! opportunity ( exp]i5c+1 or h miss$ ! happ9ess ( enjoy+1 true fri5d%ip ) ! p ( ?is l&4 ,^? :o h kn[n t happ9ess1 "k ! limitless loyalty & ! t5d]1 wond]ful love t is lavi%$ on ! "o :o feels s unwor?y ( x all4 ,if !re is di/ance & want ( sympa?y betwe5 ^? :o are call$ to be work]s toge!r ) ! great ,ma/]1 is n some?+ wrong8 ,simple1 ef=tless intimacy1 t clos5ess ( t\* :i* is fri5d%ip inde$1 is surely possible4 ,b r we w\ld put x o!rwise1 & say t )\t x s]vice toge!r1 ( ! only sort we w\ld c>e to "k1 is p]fectly impossible4 ,illu/ration3 ,,sellamuttu ,,& ,,suseela4 ,9 our "w all along we h _h ?is joy to ! full4 ,god 9 ,8 goodness gave u f ! fir/ ^? :o respond$ at once to ! confid5ce we (f]$ !m4 ,9 ,india ! ideal ( a consecrat$ life is a life ) no res]ves--:i* seeks = no?+1 und]/&s no?+1 c>es = no?+ b to be p\r$ =? ^u ! sacrifice & s]vice4 ,pi]ce ?r\gh ! v>i\s incru/ations :i* h ov]-laid ?is pure ideal1 give no he$ to ! effect ( ,we/]n influ5ce & example1 & y come ^u ?is feel+1 h[ev] express$ or unexpress$1 at ! v back ( all--! in/9ct t recognises & responds to ! call to sacrifice1 & does n und]/& its abs5ce 9 ! lives ( ^? :o pr(ess to foll[ ! ,crucifi$4 ,:o1 to :om ?is ideal is inde$ ,! ,gleam1 t draws & ev] draws ! s\l to passionate allegiance1 c fail to f9d 9 ! ,indian nature at its true/ & f9e/ t k9%ip ( _s :i* knits he>ts toge!r8 ,& x came to pass :5 he _h made an end ( speak+1 t ! s\l ( ,jona?an 0 knit ) ! s\l ( ,david1 & ,jona?an lov$ him z 8 own s\l3 ?is tells x all4 ,! spr+ ( he>t to he>t t we call aff9ity1 ! knitt+ no h& c ev] aft]w>d unravel--^! exp]i5ces h be5 grant$ to u all ?r\gh our "w toge!r1 & we ?ank ,god = x4 ,ponnamal's "w lies *iefly among ! conv]t-nurses & ! babies4 ,%e has *>ge ( ! nurs]ies & ( ! food arrangem5ts1 s intricate & difficult to ! m]e lay m9d2 %e tra9s h] work]s to ?or\ghness & e>ne/ness1 & by =ce ( example seems to create an atmosph]e ( *e]ful unselfi%ness t is v inspir+4 ,h[ (t5 we h s5t a "y conv]t1 tempt$ to self-c5tr$ness & depression1 to ,ponnamal1 & se5 h] return to h] ord9>y "w brac$ & bright & s5sible4 ,we are all faulty & weak at times1 & e nurs]y1 l e life1 has its occasional lapses2 b on ! :ole x is n too mu* to say t ! nurs]ies are happy places1 & ,ponnamal's influ5ce goes ?r\gh !m all l a fre% w9d4 ,& ?is 9 spite ( v poor heal?4 ,= ,ponnamal1 :o 0 ! lead] ( our it9]at+ b&1 broke d[n hopelessly1 & ?\ght h] use 9 life _h pass$--till ! babies came & br\ght h] back to activity aga94 ,& ! joy ( ! ,"l1 we h (t5 prov$1 is /r5g? = body z well z s\l4 ,sellamuttu1 :o comes next to ,ponnamal1 is ! ,pe>l ( previ\s records1 & %e has be5 a pe>l to u ?r\gh all our ye>s toge!r4 ,%e is special ,accal to ! h\sehold ( *ildr5 above ! baby-age--a heal?y1 high-spirit$ cr[ ( mo/ div]se dispositions2 & %e is lov$ by "o & all ) a love :i* is temp]$ ) great respect1 = %e is all pure ju/ice1 z a little girl rem>k$ feel+ly n long ago1 aft] be+ r %>ply reprov$ = exce$+ naught9ess3 )9 my he>t wra? burn$ l a fire2 b my m\? c\ld n op5 to reply1 = inside me a voice said1 ',x is true1 entirely true2 ,accal is p]fectly j4' ,?is ,accal1 h[ev]1 is mo/ t5d] 9 h] affections1 & among ! babies %e has "s p>ticul> specials4 ,"o ( ^! is ! solemn-fac$ morsel ( ! photograph1 to save :om %e travell$1 c\nt+ by "t1 z f> z f ,london to ,mosc[ & back2 & ! baby arriv$ z happy & well z :5 ! fri5ds at ,mosc[ s5t h] (f ) pray]s & bless+s & k9dness4 ,b ! photograph 0 a %ock4 ,aiyo6 %e said1 q upset to see h] delight s misrepres5t$1 t is n ,suseela6 ,!re is no smile1 no pleasure 9 h] face6 ,we com=t$ h] by ! assurance t any "o :o und]/ood babies & _! ways w\ld consid] ! cam]a responsible = ! expression4 ,& at lea/ ! baby 0 ob$i5t4 ,_h %e n told h] to make a salaam1 & _h n ! little h& gone up 9 s]i\s salute8 ,a p]fectly ob$i5t baby is ,sellamuttu's ideal1 & %e 0 satisfi$4 ,illu/ration3 ,,to ,,! ,,"r1 ,,suh9ie1 ,,& ,,h] ,,baby ,,sununda ,bo? ^! si/]s came to u at "s loss to !mselves1 = bo? c\ld h liv$ at home at ease if !y _h be5 s incl9$4 ,ponnamal lo/ all h] little =tune by jo9+ u4 ,%e c\ld1 p]haps1 h recov]$ x by go+ to law1 b %e did n feel x "r to d s1 & %e suff]$ h]self to be defraud$4 ,h[ c\ld ,i tea* o!rs to be unworldly if ,i myself did :at to !m w\ld appe> worldly-m9d$8 ,t 0 all %e ev] said by way ( explanation4 ,next to ,ponnamal & ,sellamuttu come ! mo!rly-he>t$ ,gnanamal & ,annamai4 ,!y came to u :5 we 7 9 circum/ances ( peculi> difficulty4 ,! "w 0 j beg9n+1 & we _h n en\gh tru/wor?y help]s2 s1 we>i$ ) di/urb$ nights1 we 7 almo/ at ! end ( our /r5g?4 ,s5d u help6 we pray$1 & w5t on ea* try+ to d ! "w ( ?ree4 ,x 0 "o hot1 tir+ aft]noon1 :5 we long$ to =get ev]y?+ & re/ = half an h\r1 b c\ld n1 because !re 0 s mu* to d1 t a bright1 capable face appe>$ at ! door ( our room1 & ,annamai1 ,lulla's belov$1 came 9 & said3 ,god s5t me1 & my relative 7nam+ a mission cate*i/7 br\ght me4 ,& s ,i h come6 ,& ,gnanamal--we 7 9 dire /raits1 = a de> little babe _h suff]$ at ! h&s ( "o :o ?\ght fir/ ( h]self & second ( h] *>ge1 & ! mo/ c>eful t5d+ 0 ne$$ if ! baby 0 to survive--x 0 !n ,gnanamal came & took *>ge ( ! delicate *ild1 & became ! com=t & help %e has ev] cont9u$ to be4 ,:5 !re is s]i\s illness1 & night-nurs+ is requir$1 ,gnanamal is always ready to volunte]2 ?\gh to h]1 z to mo/ ( u 9 ,india1 night "w is n :at ! fle% w\ld *oose4 ,!n 9 ! morn+1 :5 we g to relieve h]1 we f9d h] bright z ev]1 z if %e _h slept com=tably all ! "t4 ,we ?9k ?is sort ( help wor? gratitude4 ,! conv]t-work]s1 de> z de> *ildr51 b1 ?ank ,god1 dep5dable z comrades1 come next 9 age to ! head ,accals4 ,arulai ,t>a 7kn[n to "s z ,/>7 is :at h] "n sugge/s1 some?+ /eadfa/1 some?+ %9+1 some?+ burn+ ) a pure devotion :i* k9dles o!r fires4 ,we _c imag9e our *ildr5 )\t _! belov$ ,arulai4 ,!n !re is ,sundo%ie 7,joy71 to ! left next ,suh9ie 9 ! photo1 a "y wife = :om poison 0 prep>$ ?ree times1 & ^: escape f dea? at ! h& ( husb& & "m-9-law 0 "o ( ^? quiet miracles :i* ,god is ev] work+ 9 ?is l& ( cruelty 9 d>k places4 ,& ,suh9ie 7,gladness71 ^: /ory ( deliv]ance has be5 told be=e2,e & ,esli1 ! gift ( a fell[-mission>y1 a mo/ fai?ful girl2 & o!rs y\ng]1 b develop+ 9 "* & tru/wor?9ess4 ,all ^! "y conv]ts ne$ mu* c>e1 b ! c>e ( g5u9e conv]ts is v fruitful "w2 & "o int]e/+ "p ( x is ! fitt+ ( ea* to h] ni*e1 or ( fitt+ ! ni*e to h]4 ,disc]nm5t ( _s is ne$$ = ?is1 = misfits means wa/e en]gy & great discom=t2 & en]gy is too good a ?+ to wa/e1 & com=t too pleasant a ?+ to spoil4 ,s ^? :o are responsible = ?is "p ( ! "w w\ld be grateful = ! remembrance ( any :o "k h[ mu* dep5ds ^u x4 ,among ! recognis$ fits 9 our family is ! ,accal :o loves ! unlovable babies4 ,?is is ,suh9ie4 ,we tri$ h] once ) ! ,t>aha *ildr52 b ! t]rible activity ( ^! "y p 0 altoge!r too mu* = ! sl[ly mov+ ma*9]y ( poor ,suh9ie's bra91 & %e 0 p]fectly ov]:elm$ & v mis]able4 ,= ,suh9ie hates hurry & sudd5 %ocks ( any sort1 & ! babies ( matur] ye>s discov]$ ?is imm$iately2 & ,suh9ie1 waddl+ =lornly aft] ! babies1 look$ l a highly respectable duck 9 *>ge ( a flock ( imp]t95t rob9s4 ,illu/ration3 ,,?ree ,,conv]t ,,work]s4 ,x 0 q a misfit1 & ,suh9ie's wor/ came to ! top1 & we spe$ily mov$ h] back aga9 to ! ,prmalia nurs]y4 ,= !re y see ,suh9ie 9 h] true sph]e4 ,give h] a poor1 puny babe1 :o w nev]1 if %e c help x1 let h] ,accal h an undi/urb$ h\r2 give h] ! mo/ impossible1 mo/ tr\blesome baby 9 ! nurs]y1 & !n y w see ,suh9ie's be/4 ,we discov]$ ?is :5 ,ponnamal 0 9 *>ge ( ! ,neyoor nurs]y4 ,ponnamal _h "o small infant s cross t nobody want$ h]4 ,%e w\ld cry half ! night1 a sn>ly1 snappy cry1 t w\ld n /op unless %e 0 rock$1 & began aga9 z soon z ! rock+ 0 /opp$4 ,ponnamal gave h] to ,suh9ie4 ,night aft] night till two 9 ! morn+ %e w\ld s+ to t fracti\s *ild--?is 0 ,ponnamal's /ory to me :5 next ,i w5t to ,neyoor4 ,%e nev] seem$ to tire2 hymn aft] hymn %e w\ld s+1 on & on & on4 ,i nev] saw h] impati5t ) x2 %e j lov$ x f ! fir/4 ,& a curi\s ?+ began to happ53 ! baby grew l h] ,accal4 ,?is lik5ess 0 n caught 9 ! photograph1 b is nev]!less s obs]vable t visitors h (t5 ask$ if ! little "o 7 h] own *ild4 ,?is baby1 ,sununda by "n1 is greatly atta*$ to ,suh9ie4 ,z %e is ov] two ye>s old n[1 %e has be5 promot$ to ! ,t>aha1 & be+ an extremely wilful little p]son1 %e sometimes gets into tr\ble4 ,"o day ,i 0 call$ to remon/rate1 & a little morn+ glory 0 requir$1 & ,i put h] 9 a corn] to ?9k ab\t x4 ,ano!r s9n] _h to be dealt )1 & :5 ,i return$ ,sununda 0 n[h]e to be f\nd4 ,i se>*$ all ov] ! ,t>aha & 9 ! g>d51 & f9ally f\nd h] 9 ! ,prmalia cuddl$ close to ,suh9ie4 ,%e has told me all ab\t x1 said ,suh9ie1 :o 0 nurs+ ano!r edition ( difficult infancy2 & %e look$ d[n on ! curly head ) eyes ( brood+ affection1 l a t5d] turtle-dove ^u h] ne/l+4 ,!n ! rogui% br[n eyes smil$ up at me ) an expression ( p]fect confid5ce t ,i w\ld und]/& & sympa?ise ) ! desire to %>e ! tr\bles ( ?is /range1 sad life ) s belov$ an ,accal4 ,! "q ( discipl9e is sometimes r difficult ) s _m dispositions1 ea* requir+ diff]5t deal+4 ,we try1 ( c\rse1 to fit ! p5alty to ! crime1 s t ! *ild's s5se ( ju/ice w "w on our side2 & 9 ?is we always f9d !re is a wond]ful unconsci\s co-op]ation on ! "p ( ! m]e/ baby4 ,b ! old] *ildr5 us$ to be r a problem4 ,"s _h come to u aft] _! wills _h become develop$ & _! *>act]s p>tly =m$4 ,mo/ ( !m 7 ) u ( _! own free w1 & c\ld h walk$ (f any day1 = !y knew :]e !y w\ld be welcome4 ,discipl9e "u ^! circum/ances is n entirely easy4 ,b ?ree ye>s ago some?+ ( ,revival ,p[] swept ?r\gh all our family4 ,x 0 n ! ,great ,revival = :i* we wait1 b x 0 some?+ mo/ bless$ 9 effect & abid+ 9 result2 & ev] s9ce !n ! tone has be5 high] & ! life deep]1 s t !re is some?+ to :i* we c appeal confid5t ( a quick response4 ,b *ildr5 w be scampi%2 & once _! e>ne/ness ( desire to be good 0 put to unexpect$ & some:at dra/ic pro(4 ,at t "t ! mild ,esli _h *>ge ( ! sew+-class1 & ! class _h got into bad ways2 c>elessness & *att]+ prevail$1 s ,esli came 9 despair to me1 & ,i talk$ to ! err+ *ildr54 ,!y 7 sorry1 made no excuses1 & promis$ to be diff]5t 9 future4 ,i left !m rep5tant & ?or\ghly a%am$ ( !mselves1 & w5t to o!r duties4 ,illu/ration3 ,,sew+-,,class ,,9 ,,! ,,c\rty>d4 ,%ortly aft]w>ds ,arulai f\nd !m 9 a /ate ( great depression4 ,!y told h] !y _h promis$ to be good at ! sew+-class1 b 7 afraid !y w\ld =get4 ,arulai's ideas are usually mo/ orig9al1 & %e sympa?is$ ) ! *ildr51 b told !m !re 0 no ne$ = !m ev] to =get4 ,!y ask$ eag]ly :at c\ld be done to help !m to rememb]4 ,!y _h pray$1 b ev5 s _h d\bts4 ,0 !re any?+ to be done besides pray+8 ,arulai said !re 01 & %e exp\nd$ c]ta9 v]ses f ! ,book ( ,prov]bs4 ,sometimes ! be/ way to make a m>k ^u ! m9d is to make a m>k ^u ! body1 %e sugge/$1 & ask$ ! *ildr5 if !y w\ld l ?is done4 ,! *ildr5 hesitat$4 ,!y 7 aw>e t ,arulai's m>ks 7 likely to be emphatic1 = ,arulai nev] does ?+s by halves4 ,b _! devotion to h] & belief 9 h] ov]came all fe>s2 & be+ g5u9ely anxi\s to re=m1 !y "o & all cons5t$4 ,s %e s5t a small girl (f to look = a cane2 & pres5tly "o 0 produc$1 ?9 & nice & suitable1 z ,i 0 aft]w>ds in=m$4 ,! y\ng] *ildr5 7 invit$ to take ! cane & look at x1 & consid] well h[ x w\ld feel4 ,?is !y did ob$i5tly1 b /ill /uck undaunt$ly to _! det]m9ation1 9 fact1 7 ke5 to g ?r\gh ) x4 ,!n ,arulai expla9$ t :5 ! ,k+ said1 ,*a/5 ?y son :ile !re is hope1 & let n ?y s\l sp>e = 8 cry+1 he mu/ h be5 ?9k+ ( a v little boy :o _h n ! s5se to "k :at 0 good = him4 ,!y _h s5se4 ,! m>k on ! body w\ld be wa/e puni%m5t if x 7 n receiv$ will+ly & gratefully2 s if any *ild cri$ or pull$ h] h& away1 %e w\ld /op4 ,!n ! *ildr5 all /ood up & held out _! h&s--:at a mom5t = a photograph6 ,arulai's m>k ^u ! body 0 a g5u9e affair1 b ! class receiv$ x ) =titude & gratitude4 ,:5 ,i he>d ?is hi/ory1 an h\r or s aft] its occurr5ce1 ,i r demurr$4 ,! *ildr5 _h appe>$ to be s9c]ely sorry :5 ,i spoke to !m1 & if s1 :y proce$ to extremities8 ,b ,arulai answ]$ ) wisdom & mu* assurance3 ,!y h be5 talk$ to be=e & h be5 sorry1 b !y =got & did x aga94 ,?is "t !y w n =get4 ,& nei!r did !y4 ,z long z t class cont9u$1 its behavi\r 0 exempl>y2 & ! m>k ^u ! m9d1 to judge by _! demean\r1 rema9$ z fre% z x mu/ h be5 on t memorable day :5 ! m>k ^u ! body effect$ its creation4 ,! /ory ought to end "h2 b mo/ /ories h a sequel1 & ?is has two4 ,! fir/ occurr$ a few weeks lat]4 ,a little girl1 "o ( ! sew+-class1 _h slipp$ into ! habit ( c>eless disob$i5ce1 foll[$ too (t5 by sulks4 ,if we happ5$ to come across h] j :5 ! ?und]-cl\ds 7 ga!r+1 we c\ld usually div]t h] att5tion & av]t ! ?reat5$ tr\ble2 b if we did n happ5 to meet h] j at ! "r mom5t1 %e w\ld plunge /raight into ! mo/ outrage\s naught9ess ) a sort ( purposeful directness t 0 difficult to deal )4 ,kn[+ ! *ild well1 we (t5 let h] *oose h] own puni%m5ts2 & %e did ?is s consci5ti\sly t at la/1 z %e h]self m\rnfully rem>k$1 !y 7 all us$ up1 & !re 0 no?+ left b ! mo/ anci5t--& p]haps 9 "s cases mo/ efficaci\s1 :i*1 ! circum/ances be+ :at !y 71 ,i 0 naturally reluctant to try4 ,b ! *ild1 tra9$ to be p]fectly hone/ ) h]self1 app>5tly ?\ght ! ?+ ov]1 & calmly made up h] m9d to accept ! inevitable2 = :51 anxi\s %e %\ld n misund]/&1 ,i began to expla9 matt]s to h]1 ,i 0 met by ?is some:at a/oni%+ response3 ,yes1 ,amma1 ,i "k4 ,i "k y h tri$ ev]y?+ else 7%e said ?is almo/ sympa!tically1 z if appreciat+ my dilemma71 & s y h to d x4 ,i d n l x at all1 b ,arulai ,accal says x is no use unless ,i take x will+ly1 s ,amma1 please give me a good can+4 7,! idiom is ! same 9 ,tamil z 9 ,engli%1 b !re is a /rong] ^w :i* %e n[ proce$$ to use ) great delib]ation47 ,yes1 ,amma1 a hot can+--) my full m9d ,i am will+4 ,& ,i w n cry4 ,or if ,i d cry 7?is 0 add$ 9 a s]i\s1 reflect+ sort ( way71 let n y\r s\l sp>e = my cry+6 ,! second is less abnormal4 ,esli1 ^: placid s\l _h be5 sadly /irr$ at ! "t ( ! infliction ( ! m>k1 0 s impress$ by its salut>y effect t %e conceiv$ a new respect = ! me?ods ( ,k+ ,solomon4 ,! application ( morn+ glory is a privilege res]v$1 z a rule1 = ourselves2 b "o day1 be+ d\btless h>d press$1 ,esli produc$ a /ick--a v feeble "o--& call+ up ! lead] ( all rebels1 address$ h]self to h]4 ,*ellalu1 z might h be5 expect$1 0 tak5 by surprise2 & = "o %ort mom5t ,esli 0 p]mitt$ to foll[ ! ways ( ! ,k+4 ,b only = a mom5t3 =1 sudd5ly appreh5d+ ! gravity ( ! situation1 & realis+ t su* prec$5t %\ld n pass un*all5g$1 ,*ellalu1 ) a quick wriggle1 /ood =? free1 seiz$ ! /ick ) a joy\s %\t1 snapp$ x 9 two1 & fl\ri%$ r\nd ! room3 !n /opp+ be=e h] afflict$ ,accal1 %e solemnly h&$ h] "o ( ! pieces1 & ) a b\nd & a scamp] l a triumphant puppy1 0 (f to ! v end ( h] _w ) ! o!r half ( t /ick4 ,:5 ! ,elf came to u on ,m>* #f1 #aija1 & we began to "k "s ( ! secrets ( ! ,temple1 we tri$ to save sev]al little *ildr51 b we fail$4 ,! ?\ght ( ^? fir/ *ildr5 ) :om we came into t\*1 b = :om all our ef=ts 7 unavail+1 is un=gettable4 ,we see !m /ill1 little *ildr5--lo/4 ,b we p>tly und]/& :y we _h to wait s long2 we _h n ! work]s !n to help u to take c>e ( !m4 ,we _h only "s ( ! old] ,accals1 :o c\ld n h done x alone4 ,^! conv]t-girls1 :o n[ help u s mu*1 7 9 ,h9du homes2 "s ( !m _h n ev5 he>d ( ,*ri/1 ^: love alone makes ?is "w possible4 ,= ,india is n ,engl& 9 its view ( su* "w4 ,!re is absolutely no?+ attractive ab\t x4 ,x is n hon\rable "w1 l prea*+ & tea*+4 ,no money w\ld h drawn ^! work]s to u4 ,"w :i* has no cle> end+1 b drifts on into ! night if babies are "y or tr\blesome--su* "w makes dem&s ^u devotion & practical unselfi%ness :i* appeal to none b ^? :o are prep>$ to love ) ! tireless love ( ! "m4 ,i d n want p :o come to me "u c]ta9 res]vations4 ,9 battle y ne$ soldi]s :o fe> no?+4 ,s wrote ! h]oic ,pre ,didon2 &1 ?\gh x may s\nd presumptu\s to d s1 we say ! same4 ,we want z comrades ^? :o come to u )\t res]vations4 ,b su* work]s h to be prep>$1 & su* prep>ation takes "t4 ,t>ry ye ! ,"l's leisure1 is a ^w t unfolds z we g on4 ,yet we f9d t ! "w1 ?\gh s dem&+1 is full ( comp5sations4 ,! conv]t 9 h] lonel9ess is welcom$ into a family :]e little *ildr5 ne$ h] & w soon love h] de>ly4 ,! uncom=t$ places 9 h] he>t become heal$1 = ! t\* ( a little *ild is v heal+4 ,if %e is will+ to =get h]self & live = t little *ild1 some?+ new spr+s up )9 h]2 %e does n und]/& x1 b ^? :o wat* h] "k t all is well4 ,sometimes long aft]w>ds %e reads h] own he>t's /ory & op5s x to u4 ,i 0 torn ) long+ = my home4 ,i dream$ night aft] night ab\t x1 & ,i us$ to wak5 j wild to run back4 ,& yet ,i knew if ,i _h1 x w\ld h be5 de/ruction to my s\l4 ,& !n ! baby came1 & y put h] into my arms1 & %e grew into my he>t1 & %e took away all t feel+1 till ,i =got ,i ev] _h x4 ,?is 0 ! /ory ( "o1 a "y wife1 = :om ! natural joys ( home c nev] be4 ,b if !re is selfi%ness or slackness or a weak desire to drift along 9 eas9ess1 tak+ all & giv+ no?+1 ?+s are o!rwise4 ,= su* ! nurs]ies hold no?+ b noise & int]ruptions4 ,we ask to be sp>$ f su* z ^!4 ,or if !y come1 may !y be inspir$ by ! con/ra9+ love ( ,*ri/ & ,! ,glory ( ! ,usual4 ,,footnote3 ,e ,ov]weights ( ,joy1 *4 xxiii4 ,suh9ie left ! nurs]y = a few h\rs' re/ at noon on ,febru>y #b1 #aiaj4 ,%e fell asleep1 to awak5 9 heav54 ,,*apt] ,,xxv ,! ,little ,accals ,b ,?\ did/ reckon1 :5 at fir/ ,?y ^w our he>ts & h&s did crave1 ,:at x w\ld come to at ! wor/ ,to save4 ,p]petual knock+s at ,?y door1 ,te>s sully+ ,?y transp>5t rooms4 ,illu/ration3 ,,?ree ,,little ,,accals4 ,,^! l9es come ) insi/5ce z ,i look at ! little ,accals1 :o foll[ 9 ord] aft] ! ,accals1 conv]t *ildr51 mo/ ( !m1 n[ gr[+ up to helpfulness4 ,if "p ( ! /ory ( "o su* "y girl is told1 x may help ^? to :om su* tales are unfamili> to und]/& & to c>e4 ,decemb] #af1 #aijc1 0 sp5t by ?ree ( u 9 a re/-h\se on ! outskirts ( a ,h9du t[n4 ,we 7 on our way to ,dohnavur f ,madras1 :]e we _h se5 ,mr4 & ,mrs4 ,walk] (f = ,engl&4 ,! two days' j\rney _h left u some:at we>y2 & yet we 7 /rong 9 hope t day1 = we knew !re 0 special ?\ght = u on bo>d %ip & at home1 & some?+ special 0 be+ ask$ z a bir?day gift ( joy4 ,arulai 7,/>7 & ,pre5a 7! ,elf71 ! two :o 7 ) me1 7 full ( expectation4 ,! day _h (t5 be5 m>k$ by t joy ( joys1 a lo/ %eep f\nd2 & z we look$ out at ! hea!n t[n ) its _m p s unconsci\s ( our ?\ghts ab\t !m1 we wond]$ :]e we %\ld f9d ! "o our ?\ghts _h s+l$ f among ! cr[d1 & we w5t out to look = h]4 ,illu/ration3 ,,pre5a ,,& ,,preeya 7,to left & "r7 gett+ ready = a ,com+-,day ,fea/4 ,up & d[n ! long :ite /reets we look$ = h]2 on ! little n>r[ v]&ahs1 9 ! c\rty>ds ( ! h\ses1 9 _! d>k inn] rooms :5 we 7 invit$ )91 out aga9 into ! sun%9e--b we c\ld n f9d h]4 ,t ev5+ ,i rememb]1 ?\gh we did n say s to ea* o!r1 we felt a little disappo9t$4 ,we _h n met "o :o ev5 remotely c>$ = ! ?+s we _h come to br+4 ,no "o _h respond$4 ,!re 0 n1 s f> z we knew x1 ev5 a little blade to po9t to1 mu* less a %eaf to lay at ,8 feet4 ,aft] nightfall a woman came to see u4 ,b %e 0 a ,*ri/ian1 & beyond try+ to *e] h] to m e>ne/ s]vice among ! hea!n1 !re 0 no?+ to be done = h]4 ,%e left u1 %e told u aft]w>ds1 w>m$ to hope2 & %e talk$ to a *ild next morn+1 a little relative ( h] own1 ^: he>t ! ,"l op5$4 ,= ?ree mon?s we he>d no?+2 !n unexpect$ly a lett] came4 ,! *ild is mu* 9 e>ne/1 & %e has made up h] m9d to jo9 y\r ,/>ry ,clu/] 7a "n giv5 by ! p to our b&1 :i* at t "t 0 it9]at+ 9 ! di/rict71 s ,i purpose s5d+ h] at once4 ,! p>5ts1 = reasons ( _! own1 agre$ to ! arrangem5t1 & ! little girl came to ,dohnavur4 ,x 0 wond]ful to wat* h] le>n+4 ,%e is n intellectually brilliant1 b ! s\l awak5$ at once1 & !re 0 t t5d]ness ( response :i* refre%es ! he>t ( ! tea*]4 ,%e seem$ to come /raight to our ,"l ,jesus & "k ,him z h] ,savi\r1 *ild ?\gh %e 02 & soon ! long+ to w9 o!rs possess$ h]1 & a y\ng] *ild1 :o 0 h] special *>ge among ! nurs]y *ildr51 0 influ5c$ s g5tly & s will+ly1 t we d n "k ! "t :51 l$ by h] little ,accal1 %e too came to ! ,lov] ( *ildr54 ,b "o day1 sudd5ly1 tr\ble came4 ,! p>5ts appe>$ 9 ! ,dohnavur comp\nd & claim$ _! daught]2 & we _h no legal "r to refuse h]1 = %e 0 "u age4 ,we %all nev] =get ! h\r !y came4 ,!y _h haunt$ ! neighb\rhood1 z we aft]w>ds he>d1 & pr[l$ ab\t outside ! comp\nd1 wat*+ = an opportunity to c>ry ! *ild (f )\t our k4 ,b %e 0 always ) ! o!r *ildr51 s t plan fail$4 ,:5 fir/ %e he>d !y _h come1 %e fl$ to ! bungal[4 ,my p>5ts h come6 ,my fa!r is /rong6 ,oh1 hide me6 hide me6 %e bes\ght u4 ,i _c resi/ him6 ,i _c6 & %e cri$ & clung to u4 ,b :5 we w5t out to meet !m1 %e 0 p]fectly quiet2 & no "o w\ld h kn[n f h] mann] z %e /ood be=e !m1 & answ]$ _! que/ions1 )\t a tremble 9 h] voice1 h[ fright5$ %e _h be5 be=e4 ,:at is ?is talk ab\t be+ a ,*ri/ian8 ! fa!r dem&$ /ormily4 ,:at c an infant "k ab\t su* matt]s8 ,are y wis] ?an y\r fa!rs1 t _! religion is n good en\gh = y8 ,& sca?+ mock]y foll[$1 h>d] to be> ?an abuse4 ,come6 ,say salaam to ! ,missie ,ammal1 & br+ y\r jewels 7%e _h tak5 !m (f71 & let u g home toge!r4 ,! *ild /ood absolutely /ill1 look+ up ) brave eyes2 & to our a/oni%m5t said1 z ?\gh x 7 ! only ?+ to be said3 ,b ,i am a ,*ri/ian4 ,i _c g home4 ,we _h n ?\ght ( h] say+ ?is4 ,we _h1 inde$1 enc\rag$ h] z we _h enc\rag$ ourselves1 to re/ 9 our ,god1 :o is unto u a ,god ( deliv]ances2 b we _h n sugge/$ any l9e ( resi/ance1 & 7 n prep>$ = ! calm refusal :i* s quietly took x = grant$ t %e _h no p[] to refuse4 ,! fa!r 0 evid5tly nonpluss$4 ,he knew 8 little daught]1 a timid *ild1 ^: translat$ "n1 ,fawn1 seems to express h] exactly1 & he gaz$ d[n ^u h] 9 sil5ce = "o surpris$ mom5t1 !n bur/ out 9 wra? & indignant revil+s4 ,snake6 nurtur$ 9 ! bosom only to turn & /+6 ,vile1 fil?y1 disgu/+ insect1 born to disgrace h] ca/e6 ,& !y curs$ h] z %e /ood4 ,!n _! mood *ang$1 & !y tri$ plead+s1 mu* m difficult to resi/4 ,! fa!r rem9d$ h] ( 8 pilgrimage to a fam\s ,temple at h] bir?3 ,he _h nam$ h] be=e ! gods4 ,h] "m t\*$ on t5d]] memories1 till we c\ld feel ! quiv] ( s\l1 & fe>$ = ! little ,fawn4 ,!n !y promis$ h] lib]ty at home4 ,%e %\ld read h] ,bible1 pray to ! true ,god1 = all gods are "o4 ,i saw ,fawn %ut h] eyes = a mom5t4 ,:at %e saw 9 t mom5t %e told me aft]w>ds3 a fire light$ on ! floor1 a ,bible toss$ into x1 two s*oolboy bro!rs 7^: lean+s t[>ds ,*ri/ianity _h be5 discov]$7 pu%$ into an inn] room1 ! s\nd ( bl[s & cries4 ,& aft] t my bro!rs did n want to be ,*ri/ians any m4 ,poor little timid ,fawn6 ,we h>dly wond] z we look at h] t %e %rank & %ut h] eyes4 ,i h se5 a *ild ( twelve held d[n by a p[]ful arm & beat5 across ! b>e %\ld]s ) a cocoa-nut %ell fa/5$ to ! end ( a /ick2 ,i h se5 h] wri/s twi/$ almo/ to dislocation--se5 x1 & be5 unable to help4 ,i ?9k ( ! *ild1 n[ our happy ,gladness1 lov] ( ! unlovable babies2 & ,i = "o _c wond] at ! little ,fawn's fe>4 ,b al\d %e only said3 ,=give me1 ,i _c g home4 ,! fa!r grew impati5t4 ,get y\r jewels & let u be gone6 ,fawn ran into ! h\se1 br\ght h] jewels1 & h&$ !m to h] fa!r4 ,he c\nt$ !m ov]--pretty little *a9s & bangles1 & !n he ey$ h] curi\sly4 ,a *ild to give up h] jewels l ?is--he f\nd x unacc\ntable4 ,& !n he began to argue1 b ,fawn answ]$ him ) cle>ness & simplicity1 & he c\ld n p]plex h]4 ,%e knew ,:om %e believ$4 ,at la/ !y rose to g1 curs+ ! day %e 0 born ) a curse t s\nd$ horrible4 ,b _! y\ng] daught]1 :om !y _h br\ght ) !m1 ?rew h]self ^u ! gr\nd1 te>+ h] hair1 beat+ h] brea/1 %riek+ & roll+ & fl++ ! du/ ab\t l a mad ?+4 ,i w n g )\t my si/]6 ,i w n g6 ,i w n g6 ,& %e clung to ,fawn1 & wept & bewail$ till we h>dly d>$ to hope ! *ild w\ld be able to )/& h]4 ,= a mom5t ! p>5ts /ood & wait$4 ,we1 too1 /ood 9 t5sion ( _s4 ,!y h told h] to d x1 :isp]$ ,fawn1 & /ood firm4 ,!n ! fa!r /oop$1 snat*$ up ! y\ng] *ild1 & dep>t$1 foll[$ by ! "m4 ,all ?is "t two ( our numb] _h be5 wait+ ^u ,god 9 a quiet place out ( sight4 ,"o ( ! two w5t aft] ! p>5ts1 hop+ = a *ance to expla9 matt]s to ! "m4 ,z %e drew ne> %e he>d ! wife say 9 an und]tone to h] husb&3 ,leave !m = to-day4 ,wait till to-night4 ,y h c>ri$ (f ! y\ng] 9 y\r arms aga9/ h] w4 ,:at h9d]s y do+ ! same to ! eld]8 ,& t night we pray$ t ! ,wall ( ,fire might be r\nd u1 & slept 9 peace4 ,z a dream :5 "o awake?1 s 0 ! memory ( t aft]noon :5 we awoke next morn+4 ,& z a dream s ! p>5ts pass$ out ( sight1 = !y left be=e ! dawn4 ,b weeks aft]w>ds we he>d :at _h happ5$ t night4 ,!y _h lodg$ 9 ! ,h9du village outside our gate4 ,!re has nev] be5 a ,*ri/ian !re1 & ! p h nev] respond$ 9 any way4 ,x is a little %ut-9 place ( d>kness on ! bord]s ( ! light4 ,b :5 ! p>5ts propos$ a raid ^u ! bungal[ t night !y w\ld n rise to x4 ,no1 we h no feud ) ! bungal[4 ,we w n d x4 ,! ne>e/ :ite face 0 a day's j\rney di/ant1 & a woman alone1 :ite or br[n1 does n c\nt = mu* 9 ,h9du eyes4 ,b ! ,wall ( ,fire 0 ar\nd u1 & s we 7 safe4 ,if ! /ory c\ld /op "h1 h[ easy life w\ld be6 ,"o fight1 "o fl+ to ! lions1 & !n ! palm & cr[n4 ,b x is n s4 ,! p]ils ( reaction are great] = ! conv]t ?an ! fir/ great /ra9 ( fac+ ! alt]native1 ,diana or ,*ri/4 ,home-sickness comes1 wave ^u wave1 & all b sweeps ! s\l away2 feel+s & long+s asleep 9 ! *ild awake 9 ! girl1 & draw h] & woo h]1 & bl9d h] too (t5 to all t yield+ means4 ,%e =gets ! "u-side ( ! life %e has =sak52 %e rememb]s only ! allur+2 & all t is natural pleads )9 h]1 & w n let h] re/4 ,across ! w ( ,nature leads on ! pa? ( ,god1 is /]nly true = ! conv]t 9 a ,h9du or ,moslem l&4 ,& s we write ?is unf9i%$ /ory 9 fai? t "s "o read+ x w rememb] ! "y girl-conv]ts z well z ! little *ildr54 ,fawn has be5 kept /eadfa/1 b %e /ill ne$s pray]4 ,^! la/ five ye>s h held anxi\s h\rs = ^? :o love h]1 & to u1 z to all :o h to d ) conv]ts4 ,p]petual knock+s at ,?y door1 te>s sully+ ,?y transp>5t rooms1 are words t g deep & t\* ! he>t ( ?+s4 ,,*apt] ,,xxvi ,! ,glory ( ! ,usual ,illu/ration3 ,,aft] ,,h] ,,bottle4 ,,& all ?+s 7 done 9 su* excell5t me?ods1 & ,i _c tell h[1 b ?+s 9 ! do+ ( !m seem$ to ca/ a smile--is a beautiful s5t5ce f ,bunyan's ,holy ,w>1 :i* has be5 ) u ev] s9ce we began ! ,nurs]y "w4 ,lately we f\nd its complem5t 9 a mod]n book ( s]mons1 ,! ,unlight$ ,lu/re1 by ,g4 ,h4 ,morrison4 ,no matt] h[ /irr+ y\r life be1 x w be a failure if y h nev] be5 wak5$ to ! glory ( ! usual4 ,!re is no happ9ess l ! old & common happ9ess1 sun%9e & love & duty & ! laught] ( *ildr54 4 4 4 ,!re are no duties t s enri* z dull duties4 ,! anci5t voice & ! new voice s+ to ! same sweet tune2 & we 9 our little measure are le>n+ to s+ x too4 ,z we h said1 ,india is a l& :]e ! secul> does n appeal4 ,:5 we 7 an ,it9]at+ ,b&1 we _h _m (f]s f ,*ri/ian girls & wom5 to jo9 u1 z _m 9 "o mon? z we n[ h 9 five ye>s4 ,sometimes x has seem$ to u t we 7 set to le>n & to tea* a new & difficult lesson1 ! sacr$ness ( ! commonplace4 ,day by day we le>n to rub out a little m ( ! cle> *alk$ l9e t someone has rul$ on life's black-bo>d2 ! ,secul> & ! ,spiritual may n be divid$ n[4 ,! enlight5+ ( a d>k s\l or ! light+ ( a kit*5 fire1 x matt]s n :i* x is1 if only we are ob$i5t to ! heav5ly vision1 & "w ) a pure int5tion to ! glory ( our ,god4 ,illu/ration3 ,,nor? ,,lake ,,& ,,hills4 ,! nurs]y kit*5 is a pleasant little place4 ,we h>dly ev] ent] x )\t rememb]+ & appreciat+ ,john ,bunyan's pretty ?\ght1 = !re ?+s 9 ! do+ ( !m seem to ca/ a smile4 ,ponnamal1 :o1 z we said1 sup]9t5ds ! m delicate food-mak+ "w1 has tra9$ two ( h] help]s to c>efulness2 & ^! two--"o a mo!rly old] woman ) a mo/ com=table face1 ! o!r ! conv]t1 ,joy--look up ) su* a welcome t y feel x good to be !re4 ,scrubb+ away at endless pots & pans & milk vessels is a y\ng] conv5t-girl1 :o1 :5 %e fir/ came to u1 disapprov$ ( su* ex]tion4 ,%e lik$ to sit on ! floor ) h] ,bible on h] lap & a f>-away look ( cont5t on h] face until ! d9n]-bell rang4 ,n[ %e scrubs ) a s5se ( responsibility4 ,all ! y\ng] conv]ts h regul> tea*+1 = !y h mu* to le>n1 & all1 old] & y\ng]1 h daily classes & meet+s2 above all1 x is plann$ t ea* has h] quiet "t undi/urb$4 ,b x is e>ly und]/ood t to be happy ea* mu/ contribute h] %>e to ! happ9ess ( ! family2 & "o ( ! fir/ lessons ! "y conv]t has to le>n is to hon\r ! ,grey ,angel1 ,drudg]y1 & n to call h] bad names4 ,! kit*5 has an outlook de> to ! ,tamil he>t4 ,a trellis cov]$ ) p9k antigone surr\nds x1 b a w9d[ is cut 9 ! trellis s t ! kit*5 may comm& ! bungal[4 ,:ile ,i /irr$ ! milk ,i saw ev]y?+ y did on y\r v]&ah1 rem>k$ "o ( ! work]s lately1 9 tones ( appreciation4 ,! opposite outlook is ! m\nta9 %[n 9 ! photograph2 only in/ead ( wat] we h ! kit*5-g>d5 ) its tropical-look+ planta9s & creep+ m>r[s4 ,& ! w>m melon lay l a little sun on ! tawny s&1 is a l9e = an ,ea/]n g>d5 :5 ! great m>r[s rip5 sudd5ly4 ,! kit*5 ?us fav\r$ )\t1 is adorn$ )91 accord+ to ! ta/e ( its own]s1 ) ^? v int]e/+ pictures publi%$ by ! mak]s ( infant foods4 ,h[ d y *oose !m8 we ask$ "o day4 ,! true/ & ! prettie/1 0 ! satisfactory answ]4 ,our ,dohnavur text1 :i* hangs 9 e nurs]y1 looks d[n ^u ! work]s1 &1 z !y put x1 keeps !m sweet 9 he>t3 ,love nev] faile?4 ,:5 fir/ we began to cultivate babies we 7 v ignorant1 & we ask$ advice ( all :o seem$ compet5t to give x4 ,! advice 0 mo/ p]plex+4 ,ea* "m 0 sure ! food t _h suit$ h] baby 0 ! be/ ( all foods1 & reg>d$ all o!rs z d\btful1 if n bad4 ,"o :om we greatly respect$ told u ,indian babies w\ld be sure to get on anyh[1 z x 0 _! own l&4 ,& "o s]i\sly sugge/$ rice-wat] z a suitable n\ri%m5t4 ,naturally we began ) ! "t-hon\r$ milk & b>ley-wat]1 & "s ?rove ^u x4 ,b we f\nd ea* baby _h to be /udi$ sep>ately4 ,!re 0 no univ]sal 7artificial7 food4 ,we c\ld write a tractlet on foods1 & if we did we w\ld call x ,don't1 = ! fir/ s5t5ce 9 x w\ld be1 ,don't *ange ! food if y c help x4 ,?is tractlet w\ld c]ta9ly close ) a ^w ( ?anks to ^? k9d p1 ! milk-food manufactur]s1 :o h help$ u to build up heal?y *ildr52 = feel+s ( p]sonal gratitude come :5 help ( ?is k9d is giv54 ,! nurs]y kit*5 is a room full ( rem9d]s ( help4 ,i h comm&$ ! rav5s1 is a ^w ( /r5g? to u4 ,once we 7 v l[4 ,a little *ild _h di$ "u try+ circum/ances4 ,"o ( ! milk-sell]s1 in/ead ( us+ ! vessel s5t him1 p\r$ 8 milk into an unclean copp] vessel1 & x 0 poison$4 ,he rememb]$ t x w\ld n be tak5 unless br\ght 9 ! prop] vessel1 s at ! la/ mom5t he correct$ 8 mi/ake1 b ! correction 0 fatal1 = !re 0 no w>n+4 ,! milk 0 /]iliz$ z usual & giv5 to ! *ild4 ,%e 0 a heal?y baby1 & h] nurse rememb]s h[ %e smil$ & welcom$ h] bottle1 tak+ x 9 h] little h&s 9 h] happy eag]ness4 ,a few h\rs lat] %e 0 dead4 ,at su* times ! he>t seems fooli%ly weak1 & ?+s :i* w\ld n tr\ble x o!rwise h p[] to make x sore4 ,we 7 f\r days' j\rney f ! nurs]y at ! "t1 & _h ! add$ anxiety ab\t ! o!r babies1 to :om we fe>$ ! poison$ milk might h be5 giv51 & we dread$ :at ! next po/ might br+4 ,j at t mom5t x 0 sugge/$1 ) k9de/ int5tions1 t p]haps we 7 on ! wrong track1 ! "w seem$ s difficult & wa/eful4 ,x 0 mail-day4 ,! mail z usual br\ght a pile ( lett]s1 & ! top envelope conta9$ a bill = foods ord]$ f ,engl& "s weeks be=e4 ,x came to m ?an ,i _h expect$1 9 spite ( ! k9dness ( sev]al firms 9 giv+ a lib]al disc\nt2 & = a mom5t ! rice-wat] talk 7to give x a "n :i* cov]s all t type ( talk7 came back to me ) hurt 9 x3 ,to :at purpose is ?is wa/e8 ,b ) x came ano!r ^w3 ,take ?is *ild away 7away f ! t]rible ,temple7 & nurse x = ,me4 ,& ) ! pile ( lett]s be=e me1 & ! bill = food 9 my h&1 ,i ask$ t en\gh might be f\nd 9 ^? lett]s to pay x4 ,x did n occur to me at ! mom5t t ! pray] 0 r illogical4 ,i only knew x w\ld be com=t+1 & l a little ^w ( peace1 if su* an assurance might ev5 !n come t we 7 n (f ! l9es4 ,lett] aft] lett] 0 empty4 ,n empty ( k9dness1 b q empty ( *eques4 ,! la/ envelope look$ ?9 & n at all hopeful4 ,*eques are usually inside reliable-look+ cov]s4 ,i op5$ x4 ,!re 0 no?+ b a piece ( unkn[n writ+4 ,b ! writ+ 0 to ask if we happ5$ to h a ne$ :i* a sum nam$ 9 ! lett] w\ld meet4 ,?is sum exactly cov]$ ! bill = ! foods4 ,:5 ! *eque ev5tually rea*$ me x 0 = m ?an ! lett] _h m5tion$1 & cov]$ all c>riage & duty exp5ses1 :i* 7 unkn[n to me at ! "t ! fir/ lett] came1 & to :i* ( c\rse ,i _h n ref]r$ 9 my reply4 ,?us almo/ visibly & audibly has ! ,"l1 f ^: h&s we receiv$ ?is *>ge to keep1 confirm$ ,8 ^w to u1 /r5g!n+ u :5 we 7 weak1 & com=t+ u :5 we 7 sad ) t inn]mo/ s5se ( ,8 t5d]ness :i* braces :ile x soo!s4 ,surely we :o "k ,him ?us %\ld love ! ,"l because ,he ha? he>d our voice & our supplication4 ,e adv]tisem5t on ! walls ( ! little nurs]y kit*5 is l an illum9at$ text ) a /ory hidd5 away 9 x3-- ,:5 ,?\ do/ fav\r any action1 ,x runs1 x flies2 ,all ?+s concur to give x a p]fection4 ,! nurs]y kit*51 we 7 amus$ to discov]1 has a sph]e ( influ5ce all its own4 ,our discov]y 0 on ?is wise3-- ,"o wet ev5+ we 7 caught 9 a d[np\r z we 7 cross+ f ! ,t>aha nurs]y to ! bungal[1 & we took %elt] 9 ! k9d]g>t5 room1 :i* rev]ts to ! ,lola-&-,leela tribe :5 ! k9d]g>t5 babies dep>t4 ,! tribe d n (t5 possess _! ,sittie & _! ,ammal bo? toge!r & all to !mselves1 n[ t ! juniors are s num]\s1 & !y welcom$ u ) acclamations4 ,f9i% spread+ y\r mats1 we said to !m1 z !y seem$ incl9$ to let our adv5t int]rupt ! ord] ( ! ev5+2 & we wat*$ !m unroll _! mats1 :i* hung r\nd ! wall 9 neat rolls swung by cords f ! ro(1 & spread !m 9 r[s along ! wall4 ,beside ea* mat 0 :at look$ l a mummy1 & beside ea* mummy 0 a mat*box & a small bundle ( rags4 ,pres5tly ! mummies 7 unswa!d1 & prov$ to be dolls 9 m or less good condition4 ,ea* 0 c>efully laid ^u a morsel ( %eet1 & cov]$ ) ano!r %eet fold$ ov] 9 ! neate/ fa%ion4 ,if we tea* !m to be p>ticul> :5 !y are "y1 !y w be tidy :5 !y are old1 we 7 in=m$4 ,x 0 pleasant to he> our own rem>ks s accurately repeat$4 ,! mat*boxes 7 next unpack$2 ea* conta9$ a bit ( mat*1 a small po9t$ %ell1 a pebble 7pref]ably black71 & a c\ple ( m9ute cockles4 ,i suppose y don't "k :at all ^! are8 said ,lola1 affably4 ,t1 po9t+ to ! mat*1 is a spoon2 & ?is1 tak+ ! po9t$ %ell up c>efully1 is a bottle4 ,?is is ! 'rubb]1' ( c\rse1 & ! black pebble 0 indicat$2 & ^! 7sett+ ! cockle-%ells on a piece ( :ite pap] on ! floor7 are b[ls ( wat]1 "o = ! bottle & ! o!r = ! rubb]4 ,we sugge/$ "o b[l ( wat] w\ld hold bo? bottle & rubb]2 b ,lola's entirely mis*iev\s eyes look$ q %ock$ & reprov+4 ,two b[ls are bett]1 0 ! s]i\s reply2 x is v important to be clean4 ,:at does y\r *ild h8 we inquir$ respectfully4 ,b>ley-wat] & milk1 two-&-a-half ounces e two h\rs--t's five tablespoonfuls1 y "k4 ,& ,leela's8 ,oh1 ,leela's *ild is delicate4 ,%e has to h ,b5g]4 ,two ounces e two h\rs2 & x has to be a long "t dige/$4 ,d all y\r *ildr5 h _! food e two h\rs8 ,lola look$ surpris$1 & ,leela giggl$3 h[ v ignorant we seem$ to be6 ,no1 only ! t9y ones2 our babies are v "y4 ,aft] !y get old] !y h m at a "t & n s (t54 ,t *ild !re1 po9t+ to ano!r mat1 has ,cond5s$1 z we hav5't en\gh c['s milk = !m all4 ,x suits h] v well4 ,%e has six ounces at a "t2 once be=e %e goes to sleep1 & !n none till %e wak5s 9 ! morn+4 ,%e's a v heal?y *ild4 ,h[ d y "k ! "t8 we ask$1 prep>$ = any?+ n[4 ,oh1 we h wat*es4 ,?is is m9e1 & a toy f a ,*ri/mas crack] 0 produc$2 ,leela's wat* is diff]5t 7x 0 inde$ diff]5t--a m]e figm5t ( ! imag9ation71 b %e c look at m9e :5 %e wants to4 ,:y does y\r *ild sleep ) ,leela's8 7,all ! o!r infants _h sep>ate sleep+ arrangem5ts47 ,lola look$ %y1 & ,leela look$ %y]4 ,^! little matt]s ( affection 7 n int5d$ = public discussion4 ,by ?is "t ! ra9 _h cle>$1 s we prep>$ to dep>t1 & ! fur!r ent]ta9m5ts provid$ = u by ! *e]ful tribe t ev5+ d n belong to ?is /ory4 ,we escap$ f9ally1 damp ) mu* laught] 9 a humid atmosph]e4 ,come e ev5+6 %\t$ ! tribe1 z at la/ we disappe>$1 & we felt mu* incl9$ to accept ! invitation4 ,! kit*5 is a busy place 9 ! morn+1 & aga9 9 ! ev5+1 :5 ! fre% milk is c>ri$ to x 9 %9+ alum9ium vessels to be /]iliz$ or o!rwise dealt )4 ,b ev5 9 ! busie/ h\rs !re is almo/ sure to be a baby set 9 an upturn$ /ool1 9 :i* %e sits hold+ on to ! front legs 9 pr\d consci\sness ( be+ able to sit up4 ,or an old] "o w be cl++ to ! g>m5ts ( ! busy work]s1 or p]*$ beside !m on a /ool4 ,once we f\nd ,t>a & ,evu seat$ on ! w9d[-sill4 ,ponnamal 0 mak+ foods at ! table "u ! w9d[1 & ! little b>e feet 7 tuck$ 9 betwe5 b[ls & jugs ( milk4 ,b1 inde$1 !y are q clean1 expla9$ ,ponnamal1 )\t wait+ = rem>k f u1 = %e knew :at we 7 ?9k+ ( h] table decorations4 ,we du/$ ! s& (f _! little feet be=e we lift$ !m up4 ,! babies said no?+1 b look$ d\btfully up at u1 z if n v sure ( our int5tions4 ,b ,ponnamal's eyes 7 s appeal+1 & ! little buff ?+s 9 blue ) a trellis ( p9k fl[]s = backgr\nd made su* a pretty picture1 t we _h n ! he>t to spoil x4 ,!n ! little faces smil$ gratefully ^u u1 & ev]ybody smil$4 ,! kit*5 is a happy place ( innoc5t surprises4 ,,*apt] ,,xxvii ,! ,secret ,traffic ,sir1 to leave ?+s out ( a book because !y w n be believ$1 is meanness4--,,dr4 ,,johnson4 ,,:5 fir/1 ^u ,m>* #g1 #aija1 we he>d f ! lips ( a little *ild ! /ory ( h] life 9 a ,temple h\se1 we 7 />tl$ & di/ress$1 & p5etrat$ ) ! conviction t su* a /ory ought to be impossible 9 a l& rul$ by a ,*ri/ian ,p[]4 ,! subject 0 new to u2 we knew no?+ ( ! magnitude ( :at may be call$ ,! ,secret ,traffic ( ,india--a traffic 9 little *ildr51 m]e infants (t5times1 = wrong purposes2 & we did n appreciate1 z we d n[1 ! delicacy & difficulty ( ! position f a ,gov]nm5t po9t ( view1 or ! quiet might ( ! =ces ^u ! o!r side4 ,& ?\gh ) add$ k comes an add$ s5se ( responsibility1 & a fe> ( all c>eless appeal to ^? ^: burd5 is already s heavy1 yet ) e fre% discov]y ! conviction deep5s t some?+ %\ld be done--& done1 if possible1 soon--to save at lea/ ?is g5]ation ( *ildr51 or "s ( !m1 f de/ruction4 ,x is useless to move )\t a body ( evid5ce at y\r back1 said a fri5d 9 ! ,civil ,s]vice to u at ! close ( a long conv]sation4 ,if y c get ! *ildr51 ( c\rse !y !mselves w furni% ! be/ evid5ce2 b1 anyh[1 collect facts4 ,& ?is 0 ! beg9n+ ( a ,note-book1 into :i* we ent]$ :atev] we c\ld le>n ab\t ! ,temple *ildr51 & 9 :i* we kept lett]s relat+ to !m4 ,by ,temple *ildr5 ?r\gh\t ?is book we mean *ildr5 d$icat$ to gods1 or 9 dang] ( be+ s d$icat$4 ,d$ication to gods implies a =m ( m>riage :i* makes ord9>y m>riage impossible4 ,! *ild is reg>d$ z belong+ to ! gods4 ,9 ,s\!rn ,india1 :]e religi\s feel+ runs /rong1 & ! great ,temples are ! c5tres ( ,h9du influ5ce1 ?is t ,i h call$ ,! ,traffic is work$ ^u religi\s l9es2 & s 9 try+ to save ! *ildr5 we h to cont5d ) ! p]v]t$ religi\s s5se4 ,some?+ ( ! same k9d exi/s 9 o!r p>ts ( ,india1 & ! traffic "u ano!r "n is common 9 prov9ces :]e ,temple s]vice z we h x 9 ! ,s\? is unkn[n4 ,aga91 9 areas :]e1 ow+ to ! action ( ! native ,gov]nm5t1 ,temple s]vice1 z su*1 is n recognis$1 s t *ildr5 9 dang] ( wrong _c1 /rictly speak+1 be call$ ,temple *ildr51 !re is yet ne$ ( legislation :i* %all t\* all h\ses :]e little *ildr5 are be+ br\ght up = ! same purpose2 s t ! subject is imm5se & involv$1 & ! ?\ght ( x sugge/s a net ?r[n ov] millions ( squ>e miles ( t]ritory1 s f9ely wov5 z to be almo/ invisible1 b s /rong 9 its me% t 9 no place yet has x ev] giv5 way4 ,& ! net is alive3 x c feel & x c hold4 ,b all ?r\gh ?is book we h kept to ! ,s\?--to ! area :]e ! evil is di/9ctly & recognisably religi\s4 ,o!rs else:]e h told _! own /ory2 ours1 ?\gh 9 t\* ) !irs 79 t its :ole motive is to save ! little *ildr571 is yet diff]5t 9 mann]1 9 t x is av[$ly ,*ri/ian4 ,india is a l& :]e g5]alisations are deceptive4 ,s we h kept to ! ,s\?4 ,we ourselves became only v gradually aw>e ( :at 0 happ5+ ab\t u4 ,z fact aft] fact came to light1 we 7 =c$ to c]ta9 conclusions :i* we c\ld n d\bt 7 correct4 ,b at fir/ we 7 almo/ alone 9 ^! conclusions1 because x 0 impossible to take o!rs ) u 9 our t$i\s und]gr\nd hunt aft] facts4 ,s ! "q 0 (t5 ask$3 ,b d ! *ildr5 really exi/8 ,i h said we 7 almo/ alone1 n q4 ,memb]s ( ! ,indian ,civil ,s]vice1 :o are mu* among ! p1 knew some?+ ( ! cu/om ( *ild-d$ication1 b f\nd !mselves unable to t\* x4 ,h9du ,re=m]s1 ( c\rse1 knew2 & two or ?ree vet]an mission>ies _h come into contact ) x & _h griev$ ov] _! helplessness to d any?+4 ,"o ( ^! _h writt5 a pamphlet on ! subject tw5ty ye>s be=e our ,nurs]y "w began4 ,he s5t x to me ) a sorr[ful ^w writt5 across x1 ,result8 ,nil4 ,b we d n (t5 meet our civilian fri5ds1 = !y are busy1 & s are we2 & ! few mission>ies ^: inspir+ sympa?y help$ u ?r\gh ^? e>li] ye>s 7 9 places f> f u1 & s 7 all ! ,re=m]s4 ,s p]haps x 0 n wond]ful t1 beset by d\bt+ lett]s f home & a c]ta9 am\nt ( n unnatural incr$ulity 9 ,india1 we sometimes almo/ wond]$ if we ourselves 7 dream+4 ,well1 if !y d exi/1 ,i hope y w be able to f9d !m6--v>i$ by1 ,well1 if y d f9d !m1 !y w be a pro( ( _! own exi/5ce6--7 two ( ! mo/ enc\rag+ rem>ks ( ^? e>ly days4 ,f ! beg9n+ ( ?is "w1 z /at$ be=e1 we h tri$ to collect facts ab\t ! traffic & ! cu/oms connect$ ) x4 ,notes 7 kept ( conv]sations ) ,h9dus & o!rs1 & ^! notes 7 comp>$ ) :at evid5ce we 7 able to ga!r f tru/wor?y s\rces4 ,^! brief notes ( v>i\s k9ds we (f] 9 _! simplicity4 ,we h made no attempt to tabulate or put into %ape ! in=mation ?us acquir$1 believ+ t ! notes ( conv]sations tak5 d[n at ! "t1 & ! quotations f lett]s copi$ z !y /&1 w d _! "w m directly ?an any?+ m elaborate w\ld4 ,:]e !re is a diff]5ce ( detail x is because ! cu/oms diff] slightly 9 diff]5t places4 ,no names are giv51 = obvi\s reasons2 b ! lett]s 7 writt5 by m5 ( /&+1 liv+ 9 widely scatt]$ di/ricts 9 ! ,s\?4 ,! evid5ce conta9$ 9 !m 0 c>efully sift$1 & 9 _m cases corroborat$ by p]sonal inve/igation1 be=e be+ consid]$ evid5ce3 s t we believe ^! *apt]s may be accept$ z fact4 ,dat$ quotations f ! ,madras ,mail are suffici5t to prove t we are n writ+ anci5t hi/ory3-- ,janu>y #b1 #aiji4--,! foll[+ resolution 0 put f ! *air & c>ri$ unanim\sly3 ',! ,conf]5ce 7consi/+ ( ,h9du ,social ,re=m]s7 cordially supports ! movem5t />t$ to bett] ! condition ( unprotect$ *ildr5 9 g5]al1 & appreciates p>ticul>ly ! agitation />t$ to protect girls & "y wom5 f be+ d$icat$ to ,temples4' ,may #h1 #aiji4--,once m we h an illu/ration f ,mysore ( ! fact t ! ,gov]nm5t ( a ,native ,/ate are able to tread boldly on gr\nd :i* ! ,briti% ,gov]nm5t 9 ,india are unable to approa*4 ,at v>i\s times1 9 ^! columns & else:]e1 has ! cry rais$ aga9/ ! employm5t ( s]vants ( ! gods 9 ,h9du ,temples be5 utt]$2 b1 z f> z ! ,gov]nm5t are conc]n$1 x has fall51 if n on deaf e>s1 on e>s /opp$ to appeals ( ?is k9d1 :i* dem& action t c be int]pret$ z a brea* ( t religi\s neutrality :i* is "o ( ! c>d9al pr9ciples ( ,briti% rule 9 ,india4 ,! agitation aga9/ x is n ! agitation ( ! ,european ^: susceptibility is (f5d$ at a /ate ( ?+s t he f9ds h>d to reconcile ) ! rev]5ce & purity ( ,div9e wor%ip2 b x is ! outcry ( ! rev]5t ,h9du aga9/ "o ( ! corrupt & degrad+ practices t1 9 ! c\rse ( c5turies1 h crept into 8 religion4 ,9 ?is p>ticul> in/ance ! ,mysore ,gov]nm5t _c be accus$ ( act+ ha/ily4 ,z long ago z ,febru>y1 #ahib1 !y issu$ a circul> ord] describ+ ! legitimate s]vices to be p]=m$ 9 ,temples by ,temple wom54 ,9 #ahii1 ! ,muzrai ,sup]9t5d5t1 ,rai ,bahadur ,a4 ,sre5ivasa ,*>lu1 direct$ t ! ,temple wom5 borne on ! ,nanjangud ,temple e/abli%m5t %\ld n be all[$ to p]=m tafe 7or danc+7 s]vice 9 ! ,temple2 b t ! all[ances payable to !m %\ld be cont9u$ = _! lifetime1 & t at _! dea? ! vacancies %\ld n be fill$ up4 ,aga9/ ?is ord] ! ,temple wom5 conc]n$ memorialis$ ,h4,h4 ! ,mah>ajah z long ago z #aije1 & ! ord] dispos+ ( x has only j be5 issu$4 ,9 ! c\rse ( ! latt] ! ,gov]nm5t say3-- ',f ! ,%a/raic au?orities quot$ by ! two ,agamiks employ$ 9 ! ,muzrai ,secret>iat1 x is obs]v$ t ! s]vices to be p]=m$ by ,temple wom5 =m "p & p>cel ( ! wor%ip ( ! god 9 ,h9du ,temples1 & t s++ & danc+ 9 ! pres5ce ( ! deity are also prescrib$4 ,x is1 h[ev]1 obs]v$ t 9 ! case ( ,temple wom5 p]sonal purity & rectitude ( conduct & a v[ ( celibacy 7 consid]$ ess5tial4 ,b ! high ideals ent]ta9$ 9 anci5t days h n[ deg5]at$4 4 4 4 ,! ,gov]nm5t n[ obs]ve t :atev] may h be5 ! orig9al object ( ! in/itution ( ,temple wom5 9 ,temples1 ! /ate 9 :i* ^! ,temple s]vants are n[ f\nd fully ju/ifies ! action tak5 by !m 9 exclud+ ! ,temple wom5 f e k9d ( s]vice 9 sacr$ in/itutions l ,temples4 ,fur!r1 ! abs5ce ( ! s]vices ( ^! wom5 9 c]ta9 important ,temples 9 ! ,/ate has become e/abli%$ = ne>ly fifte5 ye>s pa/1 & ! public h become accu/om$ to ! idea ( do+ )\t su* s]vices4' ,! exclusion ( ,temple wom5 f ,temple s]vices obta9s 9 ,mysore 9 ! case ( a few l>ge ,temples ^: ,tasdik ,pattis h be5 revis$4 ,b ! "t has come1 ! ,gov]nm5t ?9k1 = its g5]al application1 & !y !re=e direct t ! policy enunciat$ 9 ! ab/ract giv5 above %\ld be ext5d$ to all ,muzrai ,temples 9 ! ,/ate4 ,x is to be hop$ t ! good example ?us set w be> fruit else:]e1 :]e ! ,temple wom5 evil is m notori\s ?an x 0 9 ,temples ( ,mysore4 ,a copy ( ! ,gov]nm5t docum5t to :i* ?is cutt+ relates lies be=e me4 ,x is bravely & cle>ly word$1 & its int5tion is evid5t4 ,! high-m9d$ ,h9du--& !re are su*1 let x n be =gott5--revolts f ! degradation & pollution ( ?is trave/y ( religion1 & w aboli% x :]e he c4 ,b let x be rememb]$ t1 good z ?is law is1 x does n & x _c t\* ! great ,secret ,traffic itself4 ,t w g on beh9d ! law1 & beh9d ! next t is made1 & ! next1 unless measures are devis$ to ensure its be+ ?or\ghly en=c$4 ,cutt+s f newspap]s1 quotations1 evid5ce--x is n int]e/+ read+1 & yet we look to our fri5ds to g ?r\gh to ! end ) u4 ,let u pause = a mom5t "h & rememb] ! purpose ( x all2 & may ! ?\ght ( "s little1 lov$ *ild make an atmosph]e = ^! *apt]s6 ,,*apt] ,,xxviii ,blue ,book ,evid5ce ,! precipit\s sides ( difficult que/ions4--,e4 ,b4 ,b4 ,,our fir/ evid5ce consi/s ( abridg$ extracts f ! ,c5sus ,report = #aija4 ,aft] expla9+ ! diff]5t names by :i* ,temple wom5 are kn[n 9 diff]5t p>ts ( ! ,madras ,presid5cy1 ! ,report cont9ues3 ,! s]vants ( ! gods1 :o subsi/ by danc+ & music & ! practice ( '! olde/ pr(ession 9 ! _w1' are p>tly recruit$ by admissions & ev5 pur*ases f o!r classes4 4 4 4 ,! rise ( ! ,ca/e & its euphemi/ic "n seem to date f ! n9? & t5? c5turies1 dur+ :i* mu* activity prevail$ 9 ,s\? ,india 9 ! matt] ( build+ ,temples & elaborat+ ! s]vices held 9 !m4 4 4 4 ,! duties !n1 z n[1 7 to fan ! idol ) ,tibetan ox-tails1 to c>ry ! sacr$ light1 & to s+ & dance be=e ! god :5 he is c>ri$ 9 procession4 ,inscriptions %[ t 9 ,a4,d4 #ajjd ! great ,temple ( ! ,*ola k+ at ,tanjore _h atta*$ to x f\r hundr$ wom5 ( ! ,temple1 :o liv$ 9 free qu>t]s 9 ! f\r /reets r\nd x1 & 7 all[$ tax-free l& out ( its end[m5ts4 ,o!r ,temples _h simil> arrangem5ts4 4 4 4 ,at ! pres5t day !y =m a regul> ,ca/e1 hav+ its own laws ( inh]itance1 its own cu/oms & rules ( etiquette1 & its own c\ncils to see t all ^! are foll[$1 & !y hold a position :i* is p]haps )\t a p>allel 9 any o!r c\ntry4 4 4 4 ,! daught]s ( ! ,ca/e :o are br\ght up to foll[ ! ,ca/e pr(ession are c>efully taught danc+ & s++1 ! art ( dress+ well1 4 4 4 & _! success 9 keep+ up _! cli5tele is l>gely due to ! contra/ :i* !y ?us pres5t to ! ord9>y ,h9du h\sewife1 ^: ideas are b\nd$ by ! day's d9n]s & babies4 ,closely alli$ to ?is ,ca/e is t =m$ by ! ,temple musicians1 :o ) ! ,temple woman are n[ practically ! sole repository ( ,indian music1 ! sy/em ( :i* is probably "o ( ! olde/ 9 ! _w4 ,9 c]ta9 di/ricts ! ,report /ates t a cu/om obta9s among c]ta9 ca/es1 "u :i* a family :i* has no sons mu/ d$icate "o ( its daught]s to ,temple s]vice4 ,! daught] select$ is tak5 to a ,temple & m>ri$ !re to a god1 ! m>riage symbol be+ put on h] z 9 a real m>riage4 ,h5ce=? %e belongs to ! god4 ,writ+ 9 #aijd1 a memb] ( ! ,indian ,civil ,s]vice says3 ,i he>d ( a case ( d$ication 7?ree girls7 at ,a4 at ! beg9n+ ( ?is ye>1 b ,i c\ld n get any evid5ce4 ,! cases v r>ely inde$ come up (ficially1 z ne>ly e ,h9du is int]e/$ 9 keep+ !m d>k4 ,we1 too1 h _h ! same difficulty1 & ! evid5ce we n[ submit is d\bly valuable because ( its s\rce4 ,x is v r>ely t we h f\nd x possible to get beh9d ! sc5es suffici5tly to obta9 reliable in=mation f ^? mo/ conc]n$ 9 ?is traffic4 ,! head prie/ ( "o ( our ,temples admitt$ to a fri5d :o 0 wat*+ = opportunities to get in=mation = u t ! m>riage to ! god is effect$ privately by ! ,temple prie/ at ! ,temple woman's h\se1 ) ! usual m>riage-symbol c]emony4 ,to avoid ! ,p5al ,code 7:i* =bids ! m>riage ( *ildr5 to gods7 a nom9al bridegroom is sometimes br\ght = ! w$d+ day to become ! nom9al husb&4 ,?is ,ca/e is recruit$ by secret adoption4 ,a ,temple woman's son1 n[ liv+ ! ord9>y life ap>t f 8 clan1 expla9s ! v e>ly m>riage ?us3 ,if n m>ri$1 !y w n be consid]$ wor?y ( hon\r4 ,be=e ! *ildr5 rea* ! age ( t5 !y mu/ be m>ri$4 4 4 4 ,!y become ! prop]ty ( ! ,temple prie/s & wor%ipp]s :o g to ! ,temple to *ant ! sacr$ songs4 ,a ,temple woman h]self told a fri5d ( ours3 ,! *ild is dress$ l a bride1 & tak5 ) ano!r girl ( ! same community1 dress$ l a boy 9 ! g>b ( a bridegroom4 ,!y bo? g to ! ,temple & wor%ip ! idol4 ,?is c]emony is common1 & p]=m$ op5ly 9 ! /reets4 ,9 a lat] lett] f ! same fri5d fur!r details are giv53 ,! *ild1 :o %\ld be ab\t eight or n9e ye>s old1 goes z if to wor%ip ! idol 9 ! ,temple4 ,!re ! m>riage symbol is hidd5 9 a g>l&1 & ! g>l& is put ov] ! idol1 aft] :i* x is tak5 to ! *ild's home & put r\nd h] neck4 ,aft] ?is %e is consid]$ m>ri$ to ! god4 ,a "y ,temple woman 9 a t[n ne> ,dohnavur told u %e _h be5 giv5 to ! ,temple :5 %e 0 five ye>s old4 ,h] home 0 9 ! nor? c\ntry1 b %e did n rememb] x4 ,%e _h1 ( c\rse1 und]/ood no?+ ( ! mean+ ( ! c]emony ( m>riage4 ,%e only rememb]$ ! pretty fl[]s & g5]al rejoic+ & pleasure4 ,aft]w>ds1 :5 %e began to und]/&1 %e 0 n happy1 b %e gradually got accu/om$ to x4 ,h] adopt$ relations 7 all ! fri5ds %e _h4 ,%e 0 fond ( !m & !y ( h]4 ,h] husb& 0 "o ( ! ,temple prie/s4 ,a ,h9du woman kn[n to u left home ) h] little daught] & w&]$ ab\t z an ascetic4 ,%e w5t to a fam\s ,temple1 :]e x is ! cu/om = su* z desire to become ascetics to ent] ! life by con=m+ to c]ta9 c]emonies orda9$ by ! prie/s4 ,%e %av$ h] head1 took (f h] jewels1 wore a ,saivite necklet ( b]ries1 & 0 kn[n z a devotee4 ,%e _h little k ( ! life be=e %e ent]$ x1 & only gradually became aw>e ( ! "* borne by mo/ ( h] fell[-devotees4 ,:5 %e knew1 %e fl$ f !m & return$ to h] own village & ! secul> life1 f9d+ x bett] ?an ! religi\s4 ,9 tell+ u ab\t x %e said3 ,i expect$ :it5ess1 ,i f\nd blackness4 ,%e told u t %e con/antly came into contact ) ,temple wom51 none ( :om _h *os5 ! life z %e & h] fell[-ascetics _h *os5 !irs4 ,always ! "o :o is to dance be=e ! gods is giv5 to ! life :5 %e is v "y4 ,o!rwise %e c\ld n be prop]ly tra9$4 ,_m babies are br\ght by _! p>5ts & giv5 to ,temple wom5 = ! sake ( m]it4 ,x is v m]itori\s to give a *ild to ! gods4 ,(t5 ! p>5ts are poor b ( good ,ca/e4 ,always suitable comp5sation & a 'joy gift' is giv5 by ! ,temple wom5 to ! p>5ts4 ,x is an und]/ood cu/om1 & ensures t ! *ild is a gift1 n a loan4 ,! am\nt dep5ds ^u ! age & beauty ( ! *ild4 ,if ! *ild is old en\gh to miss h] "m1 %e is v c>efully wat*$ until %e has =gott5 h]4 ,sometimes %e is %ut up 9 ! back "p ( ! h\se1 & puni%$ if %e runs out into ! /reet4 ,! puni%m5t is sev]e en\gh to fright5 ! *ild4 ,sometimes x is br&+ ) a hot iron ^u a place :i* does n %[1 z "u ! arm2 sometimes nipp+ ) ! nail till ! sk9 breaks2 sometimes a :ipp+4 ,aft] ! *ild is reconcil$ to h] new life1 occasionally h] p are all[$ to come if !y wi%2 & 9 special circum/ances %e pays a visit to h] old home4 ,b ?is is r>e4 ,if %e has be5 adopt$ z an infant1 %e kn[s no?+ ( h] own relations1 b ?9ks ( h] adopt$ "m z h] own "m4 ,z soon z %e c und]/& %e is taught all evil & tra9$ to ?9k x is good4 ,z to h] education1 ! movem5ts ( ! dance are taught v e>ly1 & ! flexible little limbs are r5d]$ m flexible by a sy/em ( massage4 ,9 all ways ! natural grace ( ! *ild is cultivat$ & develop$1 b always along l9es :i* lead f> away f ! fre$om & innoc5ce ( *ildhood4 ,z x is important %e %\ld le>n a great deal ( poetry1 %e is taught to read 7& ) ?is object 9 view %e is sometimes s5t to ! mission s*ool1 if !re is "o ne> h] home74 ,! poetry is almo/ entirely ( a debas$ "*2 & s mo/ insidi\sly1 by /ory & allusion1 ! *ild's m9d is famili>is$ ) s92 & be=e %e kn[s h[ to refuse ! evil & *oose ! good1 ! in/9ct :i* w\ld h be5 h] guide is tamp]$ ) & p]v]t$1 till ! poor little m9d1 ?us bewild]$ & deceiv$1 is incapable ( *oice4 ,,*apt] ,,xxix ,v ,common 9 ^? ,p>ts ,! d>k enigma ( p]mitt$ wrong4--,f4 ,r4 ,h4 ,,! mixture ( secrecy & op5ness describ$ by ! ,temple woman is confirm$ by ,h9dus well acqua9t$ ) ,temple affairs4 ,all ! ,temple wom5 are m>ri$ to ! gods4 ,9 =m] times ! m>riages 7 conduct$ ^u a gr& scale1 b n[ !y are cl&e/9ely p]=m$ 9 ! ,temple1 ) ! connivance ( ! prie/1 & ) fre$om to d5y x if que/ion$4 ,"s c]emonies are p]=m$ 9 ! ,temple1 ! re/ at home4 ,sometimes ! m>riage symbol is bless$ by ! prie/1 & tak5 home to ! *ild to be worn by h]4 ,9 all ^! cases ! prie/ himself has to tie x r\nd h] neck4 ,! previ\s arrangem5ts = ! m>riage are made by ! prie/s ) ! gu>dians ( ! *ild :o is to be initiat$ into ! ord] ( ,temple wom54 ,! c]emony ( ty+ on ! m>riage symbol is nev] 9 our di/rict p]=m$ 9 public4 ,none b intimate fri5ds "k ab\t x4 ,!re is a secret und]/&+ betwe5 ! prie/s & ! ,temple wom5 conc]n$4 ,:5 ! "t arrives = ! m>riage symbol to be ti$ on1 aft] ! usual c]emonies ! prie/ h&s ov] ! symbol hidd5 9 a g>l& ( fl[]s4 ,( c\rse1 !re is music on ! occasion4 ,:5 outsid]s ask :at all ! noise is ab\t1 ! p :o "k d n say ! real ?+4 ,!y say x is a bir?day or o!r fe/ival day4 ,! symbol is ti$ on :5 ! *ild is betwe5 five & elev51 aft] :i* x is consid]$ unholy to p]=m ! m>riage c]emony4 ,! symbol is at fir/ hidd5 f ! gaze ( ! public4 ,lat] x is %[n publicly1 b n :ile ! girl is /ill "y4 ,?is tallies exactly ) our own exp]i5ce4 ,m ?an once an eag] *ild 9 h] simplicity has %[n me ! m>riage symbol1 a small gold ornam5t ti$ r\nd h] neck1 or hang+ on a f9e gold *a92 b ! ,temple woman 9 ^: *>ge %e 0 has always reprov$ h] %>ply1 & made h] cov] x up "u h] o!r jewels1 or "u ! folds ( h] dress4 ,! reason = ?is secrecy1 :i*1 h[ev]1 is n univ]sal1 is1 z is inf]r$ 9 ! evid5ce ( ! head prie/1 because x is kn[n to ! ,temple au?orities t :at !y are do+ is illegal2 ?\gh1 z a matt] ( fact1 z w be se5 lat]1 prosecutions are r>e1 & convictions r>] /ill4 ,! ,ca/e is recruit$1 z ! ,blue ,book /ates1 by admissions & ev5 pur*ases f o!r classes4 ,on ?is po9t a ,brahman says3 ,:5 ! ,temple woman has no *ild1 %e adopts a girl or girls1 & ! *ildr5 become s]vants ( ! gods4 ,sometimes *ildr5 are f\nd :o1 on acc\nt ( a v[ made by _! p>5ts1 become devotees ( ! gods4 ,ano!r ,brahman1 an or?odox ,h9du1 writes3 ,9 "s di/ricts p v[ t !y w d$icate "o ( _! *ildr5 to ! ,temple if !y are bless$ ) a family4 ,temple wom5 (t5 adopt orphans1 to :om !y bequea? _! possessions4 ,9 mo/ cases ! orphans are b\ght4 ,! position ( ! ,temple woman has be5 a p]plexity to _m4 ,! ,c5sus ,report t\*es ! "q3 ,x is "o ( ! _m inconsi/5cies ( ! ,h9du religion1 t ?\gh _! pr(ession is repeat$ly vehem5tly condemn$ 9 ! ,%a/ras 7sacr$ books71 x has always receiv$ ! c\nt5ance ( ! ,*ur*4 ,_! duties are all religi\s4 ,a well-in=m$ ,h9du correspond5t ?us enum]ates !m3 ,fir/ !y are to be "o ( ! tw5ty-"o p]sons :o are 9 *>ge ( ! key ( ! out] door ( ! ,temple2 second1 to op5 ! out] door daily2 ?ird1 to burn camphor1 & g r\nd ! idol :5 wor%ip is be+ p]=m$2 f\r?1 to hon\r public meet+s ) _! pres5ce2 fif?1 to m\nt ! c> & /& ne> ! god dur+ c>-fe/ivals4 ,! or?odox ,h9du quot$ be=e rem>ks on ! high hon\r1 z ! ,temple *ild is taught to consid] x1 ! m>riage to ! god conf]s ^u h]4 ,we h purposely conf9$ ourselves almo/ entirely to (ficial & ,h9du evid5ce s f>1 b _c =be> to add to ?is la/ ^w ! confirmatory exp]i5ce ( our own ,temple *ildr5 work]3 ,:5 ,i try to p]suade ! ,h9dus to let u h _! little ones in/ead ( giv+ !m to ! ,temples !y say3 ',b to give !m to ,temples is hon\r & glory & m]it to u = ev]2 to give !m to y is di%on\r & %ame & dem]it4 ,s :y %\ld we give !m to y8' ,we h said t convictions are r>e4 ,?is is because ( ! great difficulty 9 obta9+ su* evid5ce z is requir$ by ! law z x /&s at pres5t4 ,"o case may be quot$ z typical4 ,a few ye>s ago1 9 "o ( our c\ntry t[ns1 a fa!r gave 8 *ild 9 m>riage to ! idol ) "s pomp1 z ! report be=e u says4 ,he 0 prosecut$1 b ! prosecution fail$1 = ! prie/ & ! p>5ts unit$ 9 d5y+ ! fact ( ! m>riage2 & ! evid5ce = ! def5ce 0 s skilfully cook$ t x 0 f\nd impossible to prove an (f5ce aga9/ ! ,p5al ,code4 ,once1 deeply /irr$ ov] ! case ( a little girl ( six :o 0 ab\t to be m>ri$ to a god z h] eld] si/]s _h be5 a few mon?s previ\sly1 we wrote to a magi/rate ( wide exp]i5ce & prov$ sympa?y ) ! "w4 ,8 lett] speaks = itself3-- ,i h be5 wait+ "s little "t be=e answ]+ y\r lett]1 because ,i want$ "t to ?9k ov] y\r problem4 ,z f> z ,i c make out1 !re is no way 9 ! _w ( prev5t+ a woman m>ry+ h] own daught] to ! gods at any age2 b y c prosecute h] if %e does4 ,if y c\ld get h] into prison = m>ry+ ! eld] girls1 ! y\ng] might be safe2 b ,i don't ?9k y c d any?+ directly = h]4 ,%e is n be+ 'unlawfully deta9$'2 & ev5 if %e 71 all y c\ld d w\ld be to get h] return$ to h] p>5ts & gu>dians1 :i* w\ld be worse ?an useless4 ,! "q is :e!r y c hope to get a conviction 9 ! o!r case4 ,i don't see h[ y c4 ,y c say 9 c\rt t y saw ! little girls ) _! m>riage symbol on1 & t !y said !y _h be5 m>ri$ to ! god4 ,! little girls w d5y x all1 & say !y nev] set eyes on y be=e4 ,moreov]1 ,i don't ?9k ! ord9>y ,c\rt w\ld be satisfi$ )\t "s o!r evid5ce ( ! fact ( d$ication2 & consid]+ h[ ev]yone w\ld "w aga9/ y1 ,i ?9k y w\ld f9d x extraord9>ily h>d4 ,! local police w\ld be worse ?an useless4 ,to e man 8 "w3 x appe>s to u t exp]t k is requir$1 & ample means & leisure1 if ! exp5diture involv$ is to result 9 any?+ wor? :ile2 & a c>eful /udy ( all available in=mation reg>d+ prosecutions1 convictions1 &1 ,i may add1 s5t5ces1 has conv9c$ u1 at lea/1 ( ! futility ( su* attempts f a mission>y po9t ( view3 = ev5 if convictions 7 c]ta91 z long z ! law h&s ! *ild back to its gu>dians aft] _! unfitness to gu>d x f ! wor/ t c befall x has be5 prov$1 s long d we feel unable to rejoice exce$+ly ov] ev5 ! six mon?s' rigor\s imprisonm5t1 :i* 9 m ?an "o case has be5 ! legal int]pretation ( ! phrase up to a t]m ( t5 ye>s1 :i* is ! p5alty atta*$ to ?is (f5ce 9 ! ,indian ,p5al ,code4 ,9 ?is connection x may be well to quote a p>agraph f ! ,indian ,social ,re=m]3-- ,! ,public ,prosecutor at ,madras appli$ = admission ( a revision petition aga9/ ! ord] ( ! ,sessions ,judge1 made 9 ! foll[+ circum/ances3-- ,"o1 ,s41 a prie/1 0 convict$ by ! fir/-class subdivisional magi/rate ( hav+ p]=m$ ! c]emony ( d$icat+ a "y girl 9 ! ,temple ( ,n41 & !reby committ+ an (f5ce puni%able "u ,section #cgb ( ! ,p5al ,code4 ,he accord+ly s5t5c$ him to six mon?s' rigor\s imprisonm5t4 ,on appeal1 ! ,sessions ,judge r$uc$ ! s5t5ce to two mon?s1 on ! gr\nd t ! rite compla9$ aga9/ 0 a v common "o 9 ^? p>ts4 ,! ,public ,prosecutor bas$ 8 petition on ! gr\nd t x _h be5 held 9 a previ\s case 't su* a d$ication 0 an (f5ce1 & t x 0 highly desirable t ! int]e/s ( m9ors %\ld be prop]ly protect$4' ,?is protection1 x 0 submitt$1 c\ld only be v\*saf$ by mak+ (f5d+ p und]/& t !y w\ld r5d] !mselves liable to heavy puni%m5t4 ,! pres5t s5t5ce w\ld n h a det]r5t effect1 & he accord+ly appli$ = an enhancem5t ( ! same4 ,8 lord%ip admitt$ ! petition1 & direct$ notice to ! accus$4 ,x is some?+ to "k ! six mon?s' s5t5ce 0 confirm$4 ,b is n ! fact t a ,sessions ,judge %\ld commute su* a s5t5ce1 on ! gr\nd t ! (f5ce 0 v common1 en\gh to sugge/ a d\bt z to ! det]r5t effect ( ev5 ?is puni%m5t8 ,,note ,dur+ ! la/ few mon?s ! ,secret>y ( ,/ate = ,india has address$ (ficial inquiries to ! ,gov]nm5t ( ,india reg>d+ ! d$ication ( *ildr5 to ,h9du gods1 & ! measures necess>y = ! protection ( su* *ildr54 ,if ! anticipat$ *ange 9 ! law is to result 9 m ?an a ,bill on pap]--a bl9d1 beh9d :i* ?+s w g on z be=e only m out ( sight--x is1 we believe1 ne$ful to ensure3 #a/4 ,protection = all *ildr5 f\nd to be 9 moral dang]1 :e!r or n !y are or may be d$icat$ to gods4 #bnd4 ,t1 irrespective ( nationality or religion1 :oev] has work$ = & won ! deliv]ance ( ! *ild %\ld be all[$ to act z gu>dian to x4 #crd4 ,t su* a ,bill %all be mo/ ?or\ghly en=c$4 ,febru>y1 #aiab4 ,to face p4 #bfh4 ,,*apt] ,,xxx ,on ! ,side ( ! ,oppressors !re 0 ,p[] ,i ,,h be5 look+ ov] my note-book1 9 :i* !re are "s hundr$s ( lett]s1 clipp+s f newspap]s1 & records ( conv]sations be>+ ^u ! ,temple *ildr54 ,x is difficult to "k :i* to *oose to complete ! picture already outl9$ 9 ! prec$+ *apt]s4 ,a m]e case record w\ld be we>isome2 & inde$ ! v ^w case s\nds curi\sly inappropriate :5 "o ?9ks ( ! nurs]ies & _! little inhabitants2 or looks up to see mis*iev\s eyes wat*+ a *ance to /op ! un9t]e/+ writ+2 or feels1 sudd5ly1 s(t arms r\nd "o's neck1 z a baby1 /ray$ f h] own doma91 climbs unexpect$ly up f beh9d & makes da%es at ! typewrit] keybo>d4 ,su* little liv+ int]ruptions are too frequ5t to all[ ( ^! *apt]s be+ any?+ b human4 ,! newspap] clipp+s are usually conc]n$ ) public movem5ts1 resolutions1 petitions1 & ! l4 ,!re is "o />tl+ little p>agraph f a ,london pap]1 dat$ ,july #g1 #aijf2 ! ignorance ( ! subject s flippantly dealt ) is its only apology4 ,no "o c\ld h writt5 s _h he und]/ood4 ,! occasion 0 ! memorial address$ to ! ,gov]nor 9 ,c\ncil by work]s = ! *ildr5 9 ! ,bombay ,presid5cy3-- ,society mu/ be v select 9 ,poona4 ,!re has be5 a cu/om !re = "y ladies to be m>ri$ to select$ gods4 ,y w\ld h ?\ght t to be ! bride ( a god 0 a good en\gh m>riage = anyone4 ,b x is n good en\gh = ,poona4 ,x is "t t su* writ+ became impossible = any ,engli%man4 ,9 ,india ! feel+ ( ! be/ m51 :e!r ,h9du or ,*ri/ian1 is /rongly aga9/ ! d$ication ( little *ildr5 to ,temples1 & "s ( ! newspap]s ( ! l& speak out & say s 9 unmi/akable language4 ,! ,indian ,times speaks ( ! little ones be+ /eep$ deep f _! *ildhood 9 all t is mo/ wrong4 ,a ,h9du1 writ+ 9 ! ,epiphany1 puts ! matt] cle>ly :5 he says3 ,f9ally1 "o c h>dly conceive ( any?+ m debas+ ?an to d$icate innoc5t little girls to gods 9 ! "n ( religion1 & !n leave !m ) ! ,temple prie/s2 & ano!r writ] 9 ! same pap] asks a "q :i* ^? :o say t ,h9duism is good en\gh = ,india might d well to pond]3 ,if ?is is n a ,h9du practice1 h[ c x take place 9 a ,temple & no prie/ /op x1 ?\gh all "k8 4 4 4 ,9 ,london religion makes wick$ness g away2 b 9 ,bombay religion br+s wick$ness1 & ,gov]nm5t has to try to make x g away4 ,?is imm5se contra/ ( fact & ( ideal conta9s our answ] to all :o w\ld put s9 9 ,india on a level ) s9 9 ,engl&4 ,*ri/ian writ]s naturally1 :e!r 9 ! ,*ri/ian ,patriot ( ! ,s\? or ! ,bombay ,gu>dian ( ! ,we/1 h no d\bt ab\t ! exi/5ce ( ! evil or ! ne$ = its removal4 ,!y1 too1 connect x di/9ctly ) religion1 & recognise its trem5d\s influ5ce4 ,b we turn f ! pr9t$ page1 & g /raight to ! h\ses :]e ! little *ildr5 live4 ,! witnesses n[ are mission>ies or tru/$ ,indian work]s4 ,!re 7 ?irte5 little *ildr5 9 ! h\ses connect$ ) ! ,temple la/ "t ,i visit$ !m4 ,i saw ! little baby--su* a de>1 fat1 laugh+ little ?+4 ,x 0 impossible to get x1 & ,i see no hope ( gett+ any ( ! o!r *ildr54 ,:5 ,i 0 visit+ 9 ,s4 a woman came to talk to me ) h] ?ree little *ildr54 ,two ( !m 7 girls1 v pretty1 'fair' little *ildr54 ',:at "w does y\r husb& d8' ,i ask$2 & %e answ]$1 ',i am m>ri$ to ! god4' ,!n ,i knew :o %e 01 & t h] *ildr5 7 9 dang]4 ,i h tri$ s9ce to get !m1 b 9 va94 ,ev]yone says t ,temple wom5 nev] give up _! little girls4 ,^! two 7 d$icat$ at _! bir?4 ,?is is only "o in/ance4 ,we h _m ,temple wom5 read+ ) u1 & _m ( ! little *ildr5 att5d our s*ools4 ,!re are n scores b hundr$s ( ^! *ildr5 9 ! villages ( ?is di/rict4 ,"h c]ta9 families1 liv+ ord9>y lives 9 _! own villages1 d$icate "o ( _! *ildr5 z a matt] ( c\rse to ! gods4 ,!y always *oose ! prettie/4 ,x is a recognis$ cu/om1 & no "o ?9ks any?+ ( x4 ,! *ild s d$icat$ lives ) h] p>5ts aft]w>ds z if no?+ _h happ5$1 only %e may n be m>ri$ 9 ! real way4 ,%e belongs to ! god & 8 prie/s & wor%ipp]s4 ,! h\se 0 v ord]ly & nice4 ,i sat on ! v]&ah & talk$ to ! wom51 :o 7 all well educat$ & s attractive ) _! pretty dress & jewels4 ,!y seem$ bright1 b1 ( c\rse1 w\ld n %[ me _! real feel+s1 & ,i c\ld only hold surface conv]sation ) !m4 ,we are (t5 ask$ if ! ,temple h\ses are inside ! walls :i* surr\nd all ! great ,temples 9 ?is "p ( ! c\ntry4 ,!y are usually 9 ! /reets outside4 ,mo/ ( ! ,brahman ,temples are surr\nd$ by a squ>e ( /reets1 & ! h\ses are 9 ! squ>e or ne> x4 ,!re is no?+ to di/+ui% !m f o!r h\ses 9 ! /reet4 ,x is only :5 y g inside t y feel ! diff]5ce4 ,an h\r on ! %ady v]&ah ( "o ( ^! h\ses is v reveal+4 ,y see ! *ildr5 run up to welcome a tall1 f9e-look+ man1 :o pats _! heads 9 ! k9de/ way1 & z he passes y recognise him4 ,next "t y see him 9 ! glory ( 8 (fice1 y wi% y c\ld =get :]e y saw him la/4 ,sometimes we are ask$ :o ! *ildr5 are4 ,h[ d ! ,temple wom5 get !m 9 ! fir/ in/ance8 ,we h already answ]$ ?is "q by quotations f ! ,c5sus ,report1 & by /atem5ts ( ,h9dus well acqua9t$ ) ! subject4 ,x %\ld be add$ t (t5 ! ,temple woman hav+ daught]s ( h] own d$icates !m1 & z a rule x is only :5 %e has none t %e adopts o!r little ones4 ,a few extracts f lett]s & notes f conv]sations are subjo9$1 z !y %[ h[ ! sy/em ( adoption works3-- ,we are 9 tr\ble ov] a little girl1 ! daught] ( weal?y p>5ts1 :o h d$icat$ h] to ! gods & refuse to *ange _! m9d4 ,! *ild 0 ill "s "t ago1 & !y v[$ !n t if %e recov]$ !y w\ld d$icate h]4 ,! poor woman's husb& 0 v ill1 & ! "m v[$ h] little girl z an (f]+ if he recov]$4 ,he did recov]1 & s ! *ild has be5 giv54 ,x is ! cu/om ( ! ,ca/e to d$icate ! elde/ girl ( a c]ta9 *os5 family1 & no?+ w turn !m f x4 ,"o *ild mu/ be giv5 9 ea* g5]ation4 ,%e is ( good ca/e1 b v poor4 ,h] husb& di$ two mon?s be=e ! baby 0 born1 & z x 0 a girl %e 0 mu* tr\bl$ z to its future1 = %e knew %e w\ld nev] h en\gh money to m>ry x suitably4 ,a ,temple woman he>d ( ! baby1 & at once (f]$ to adopt x4 ,%e p]suad$ ! "m by say+3 ',y see1 if x is m>ri$ to ! gods1 x w nev] be a wid[ l y4 ,x w always be well c>$ = & h hon\r1 & be a sign ( good =tune to our p--unlike y6' 7,x is consid]$ a sign ( good om5 to see a ,temple woman ! fir/ ?+ 9 ! morn+2 b ! sight ( a wid[ at any "t is a ?+ to be avoid$47 ,! poor "m c\ld n resi/ ?is1 & %e has be5 p]suad$4 ,! "m is a poor1 delicate wid[1 ) sev]al boys z well z ?is baby girl4 ,%e _c support !m all prop]ly1 & h] relatives d n seem incl9$ to help h]4 ,! ,temple wom5 h he>d ( h]1 & !y s5t a woman to negotiate4 ,! "m knew t we w\ld take ! little "o r ?an t %e %\ld be =c$ to give x up to ,temple wom52 b %e said :5 we talk$ ) h]3 ',x _c be wrong to give x to ! holy gods6 ,?is is our religion2 & x may be wrong to y1 b x is n wrong to u4' ,s %e refus$ to give u ! baby1 & seems incl9$ to g away ) x4 ,x is l t con/antly4 ,! ?+ _c be wrong because x is religi\s6 ,i he>d ( two little orphan girls ^: gu>dian1 an uncle1 _h m>ri$ aga91 & did n want to h ! m>riage exp5ses ( 8 two little nieces to see to4 ,s at ! la/ great fe/ival he br\ght ! *ildr5 & d$icat$ !m to ! ,saivite ,temple1 & ! ,temple wom5 he>d ab\t x be=e ,i did1 & at once secur$ !m4 ,i w5t z soon z ,i c\ld to see if we c\ld n get !m1 b %e w\ld n li/5 to u4 ,%e said !y 7 h] si/]'s *ildr51 & t %e _h adopt$ !m out ( love = h] dead si/]4 ,a lawy] 0 consult$ z to ?is case1 b x 0 impossible to trace ! uncle or to prove t ! *ildr5 7 n relat$ to ! ,temple woman4 ,above all1 x 0 impossible to prove t %e meant to d any?+ illegal4 ,s no?+ c\ld be done4 ,z a rule ! ,temple woman receives little beyond b>e su/5ance f ! ,temple itself4 ,9 "s ,temples :5 ! little *ild is =mally d$icat$1 %e 7or h] gu>dian7 receives two p\nds1 & h] fun]al exp5ses are promis$4 ,b ?\gh !re is little /at$ remun]ation1 ! ,temple woman is n poor4 ,pov]ty may come4 ,if %e breaks ! law ( h] ca/e1 or (f5ds aga9/ ! etiquette ( t ca/e1 %e is imm$iately excommunicat$1 & !n %e may become v poor4 ,or if %e has sp5t h] money freely1 or n inve/$ x wisely1 h] old age may be *e]less en\gh4 ,b we h n f\nd any lack ( money among ! ,si/]hood4 ,no (f] ( comp5sation = all exp5ses connect$ ) a *ild has ev] drawn !m to "p ) h]4 ,!y (f] l>ge sums = little ones :o w be useful to !m4 ,we h sev]al times kn[n z mu* z an (f] ( "o hundr$ rupees made & accept$ 9 cases :]e ! little *ild 79 ea* case a m]e infant7 0 "o ( special promise4 ,a lett]1 :i* incid5tally m5tions ! easy circum/ances 9 :i* _m are1 may be ( int]e/3-- ,k4 is a little girl 9 our mission s*ool4 ,h] "m is a fav\rite ,temple woman high up 9 ! pr(ession4 ,%e dances :ile ! o!r wom5 s+1 & sometimes %e gets z mu* z ?ree or f\r hundr$ rupees = h] danc+4 ,%e is well educat$1 c recite ! ',ramayana' 7,indian epic71 & kn[s a little ,engli%4 ,%e sp5ds "s "t 9 h] own h\se1 b is (t5 away visit+ o!r ,temples4 ,j n[ %e is away1 & little ,k4 is ) h]4 4 4 4 ,humanly speak+1 %e w nev] let h] g4 ,! education ( ! mission s*ool is appreciat$ because x makes ! bright little *ild /ill bright]2 & we1 :o "k ! home life ( ^! *ildr51 are glad :5 !y are giv5 "o brief opportunity to le>n :at may help !m 9 ! difficult days to come4 ,we h kn[n ( "s little ones :o1 influ5c$ by outside tea*+1 tri$ to escape ! life !y began to feel 0 wrong1 b 9 ea* case !y 7 ov]borne1 = on ! side ( ! oppressors !re 0 p[]4 ,i 0 9 a ,temple h\se lately1 & notic$ ! doors--! massive iron-boss$ doors are a feature ( all well-built ,h9du h\ses ( ! ,s\?4 ,h[ c\ld a little *ild %ut up 9 su* a room1 ) its door %ut1 if ne$ be1 to ! outside inquisitive _w--h[ c\ld %e resi/ ! /r5g? t w\ld =ce ! g>l& r\nd h] neck8 ,%e might te> x (f if %e d>$1 b ! little gold5 symbol _h be5 hidd5 "u ! fl[]s1 & ! prie/ _h bless$ x2 ! de$ 0 done--%e 0 m>ri$ to ! god4 ,& only ^? :o h se5 ! effect ( a few weeks ( su* a life ^u a *ild1 :o has /ruggl$ 9 va9 aga9/ x1 c und]/& h[ c[$ %e may become1 h[ completely e p>ticle ( c\rage & indep5d5ce ( _s may be caus$ to disappe>2 & h[ :at we _h kn[n z a bright1 sp>kl+ *ild1 full ( ! fe>less1 confid+ ways ( a *ild1 may become di/ru/ful & con/ra9$1 q incapable ( tak+ a /& on h] own acc\nt1 or ( respond+ to any ef=t we might be able to make f outside4 ,x is z if ! *ild's _s 7 brok51 & ^? :o "k :at %e has gone ?r\gh _c wond] if x is4 ,& !n comes some?+ we dread m3 ! life beg9s to attract4 ,! s5se ( revolt passes z ! w weak5s2 ! p]si/5t1 /eady pressure tells4 ,& :5 we see h] next1 p]haps only ?ree mon?s lat]1 ! *ild has pass$ ! b\nd>y1 & belongs to u no m4 ,,*apt] ,,xxxi ,& !re 0 ,none to ,save ,?\ can/ conceive our highe/ & our l[e/ ,pulses ( nobl5ess & a*es ( %ame4 ,,fr$]ic ,w4 ,h4 ,,my]s4 ,,9 speak+ ( ^! matt]s ,i h tri$ to keep f> f t :i* is only s5tim5t1 & h resolutely bani%$ all imag9ation4 ,i w\ld t ! writ+ c\ld be z cold 9 tone z ! criticism ( ^? :o consid] ev]y?+ o!r ?an poli%$ ice almo/ amus+--to judge by ! way !y h&le x1 dismiss+ x ) an airy grace & a hurt+ adjective4 ,w\ld !y be q s cool1 we wond]1 if ! little wrong$ girl 7 _! own8 ,b we d n write = su* z ^!4 ,! ?\ght ( ! cold eyes w\ld freeze ! ?\ghts be=e !y =m$4 ,we write = ! e>ne/-he>t$1 :o are n a%am$ to confess !y c>e4 ,& yet we write ) res]ve ev5 ?\gh we write = !m1 because no?+ else is possible4 ,& ?is cru%+ back ( ! full tide makes its fulness almo/ oppressive4 ,x is z ?\gh a flame leap$ f ! page & scor*$ ! bra9 t se>*$ = words q commonplace & quiet4 ,! f9i%$ product ( ! ,temple sy/em ( education is some?+ s di/ort$ t x _c be describ$4 ,b x %\ld nev] be =gott5 t ! ?+ f :i* we recoil did n *oose to be fa%ion$ s4 ,x 0 z wax--a little1 t5d]1 innoc5t *ild--9 ! h&s ( a wick$ p[] :5 ! fa%ion+ process began4 ,let u deal g5tly ) ^? :o lea/ des]ve our blame1 & res]ve our condemnation = ^? responsible = ! creation ( ! ,temple woman4 ,is x fair t a helpless *ild1 :o has nev] once be5 giv5 ! *oice ( any o!r life1 %\ld be held responsible aft]w>ds = liv+ ! life to :i* alone %e has be5 tra9$8 ,is x fair to call h] by a "n :i* belongs by "r to "o :o is diff]5t1 9 t h] life is self-*os58 ,no ^w c cut too ke5ly at ! root ( ?is iniquity2 b let u deal g5tly ) ! mi%&l$ fl[]4 ,let h>d words be re/ra9$ :]e ! woman is conc]n$4 ,let x be rememb]$ %e is n responsible = be+ :at %e is4 ,9 a ,canadian book ( songs !re is a p[]ful little poem ab\t an arti/ :o pa9t$ "o :o 0 beautiful b n good4 ,he hid all trace ( :at 02 he pa9t$ a babe at h] brea/4 ,i pa9t$ h] z %e might h be5 ,if ! ,wor/ _h be5 ! ,be/4 ,& a connoisseur came & look$ at ! picture4 ,to him x spoke ( holie/ ?+s2 he ?\ght x a ,madonna3-- ,s ,i pa9t$ a halo r\nd h] hair1 ,& ,i sold h] & took my fee2 ,& %e hangs 9 ! *ur* ( ,/4 ,hilaire1 ,:]e y & all may see4 ,sometimes z we h look$ at ! face ( "o ^: tra9+ 0 n complete we h se5 z ! arti/ saw3 we h se5 h] z %e might h be5 if ! wor/ _h be5 ! be/4 ,!re 0 no halo r\nd h] hair1 only its trave/y--some?+ t told ( cr[n$ & glorifi$ s92 & yet we c\ld cat* m ?an a glimpse ( ! p]fect might h be54 ,s we say1 let blame fall lightly on ! "o :o lea/ des]ves x4 ,p]haps if our e>s 7 n s full ( ! s\nds ( ! _w1 we %\ld he> a t5d]] judgm5t pron\nc$ ?an man's is likely to be3 ,unto ! damsel ?\ %alt d no?+4 4 4 4 ,= !re 0 none to save h]4 ,our "w at ,dohnavur is entirely among ! little *ildr5 :o are innoc5t ( wrong4 ,we r>ely t\* ^! lives :i* h be5 /a9$ & spoil$2 b we c\ld n =be> to write a ^w ( cle> explanation ab\t !m1 le/ any %\ld mi/ake ! matt] & confuse ?+s t diff]4 99 99 99 99 99 ,we leave ! subject ) relief4 ,few :o h foll[$ u s f> "k h[ mu* x has co/ to lead ! way into ^! pollut$ places4 ,n t we w\ld make mu* ( any p]sonal co/2 b t we w\ld h x kn[n t no?+ save a pressure :i* c\ld n be resi/$ c\ld =ce u to t\* pit*4 ,& yet :y %\ld we %r9k f x :5 ! purpose :i* compels is ! sav+ ( ! *ildr58 ,brave words writt5 by a brave woman come & help u to d x3-- ,?is ,i say emphatically1 t ! evil :i* we h grappl$ ) to save "o ( our own de> ones does n sully4 ,x is ! evil t we read ab\t 9 novels & newspap]s = our own amusem5t2 x is ! evil we weakly give way to 9 our lives2 above all1 x is ! de/roy+ evil t we h refus$ s mu* z to "k ab\t 9 our absorb+ c>e = our own alaba/] sk92 x is t evil :i* defiles a woman4 ,b ! evil t we h grappl$ ) 9 a life & dea? /ruggle to save a s\l = :om ,*ri/ di$ does n sully2 x clo!s f head to foot ) ! :ite robe1 x cr[ns ) ! gold5 cr[n4 99 99 99 99 99 ,!re rema9s only "o ?+ m to %[4 ,x 0 ev5+ 9 an ,indian t[n at a "t ( fe/ival4 ,! great pill>$ c\rts ( ! ,temple 7 fill$ ) wor%ipp]s & pilgrims f all ov] ! ,tamil c\ntry & f z f> nor? z ,b5>es4 ,m5 :o eag]ly grasp$ at any?+ pr9t$ 9 ,sanscrit & knew no?+ ( our v]nacul> 7 scatt]$ 9 little gr\ps among ! cr[d1 & we _h fre$om to g to !m & give !m :at we c\ld1 & talk to ! _m o!rs :o w\ld li/54 ,outside ! moonlight 0 %9+ on ! d>k pile ( ! ,temple t[]1 & ^u ! palms plant$ along ! wall1 :i* rises 9 its solid /r5g? #cj feet high & encloses ! :ole ,temple prec9cts4 ,!re 7 v few p out 9 ! moonlight4 ,x 0 too quiet !re = !m1 too pure 9 its silv]y :it5ess4 ,inside ! hall1 ) its great-door$ rooms & recesses1 !re 7 e>?-lights 9 abundance1 fl>+ tor*es1 smok+ lamps & lant]ns4 ,& !re 0 noise--! noise ( words & ( wail+ ,indian music4 ,= up ne> ! clos$ doors :i* op5 on ! %r9e )9 :i* ! idol sat surr\nd$ by a ?\s& lights1 !re 0 a b& ( musicians play+ ^u /r+$ in/rum5ts2 sometimes !y broke out excit$ly & bang$ _! drums & made _! con*-%ells bl>e4 ,sudd5ly !re 0 a tumultu\s ru% ( e produceable s\nd2 tom-tom1 con*-%ell1 cymbal1 flute1 /r+$ in/rum5ts & bells bur/ into *orus toge!r4 ,! idol 0 go+ to be c>ri$ out f 8 inn]mo/ %r9e beh9d ! lights2 & z ! great doors mov$ sl[ly1 ! excitem5t became int5se1 ! ?rill ( x quiv]$ ?r\gh all ! hall & s5t a tremor ?r\gh ! cr[d out to ! /reet4 ,b we pass$ out & away1 & turn$ into a quiet c\rty>d kn[n to u & talk$ to ! wom5 !re4 ,!re 7 ?ree1 "o ! gr&mo!r ( ! h\se1 "o h] daught]1 & ano!r a fri5d4 ,! gr&mo!r & h] daught] 7 ,temple wom51 ! elde/ gr&*ild _h be5 d$icat$ only a few mon?s be=e4 ,!re 7 ?ree m *ildr51 "o ,mungie1 a lovable *ild ( six1 "o a pretty ?ree-ye>-old ) a mop ( beautiful curls1 ! y\nge/ a baby j !n asleep 9 its hammock2 a little foot dangl$ out ( ! hammock1 :i* 0 hung f a raft] 9 ! v]&ah ro(4 ,we _h come to talk to ! gr&mo!r & "m ab\t ! de> little six-ye>-old *ild1 & hop$ to f9d _! he>t4 ,b we seem$ to talk to /one1 h>d z ! /one ( ! ,temple t[] t rose above ! ro(s1 black aga9/ ! purity ( ! moonlit sky4 ,x 0 a bitt] half-h\r4 ,"s h\rs are l /abs to rememb]1 or l ! pitiless press+ d[n ( an iron on liv+ fle%4 ,at la/ we c\ld be> x no long]1 & rose to g4 ,z we left we he>d ! gr&mo!r turn to h] daught]'s fri5d & say3 ,?\gh %e heap gold on ! floor z high z ,mungie's neck1 ,i w\ld nev] let h] g to ^? degrad$ ,*ri/ians6 ,once aga9 x 0 fe/ival 9 ! :ite light ( ! full moon1 & once aga9 we w5t to ! same old ,h9du t[n2 = moonlight nights are times ( opportunity1 & ! cool ( ev5+ br+s /r5g? = m ?an c be attempt$ 9 ! heat ( ! day4 ,& ?is "t an adopt$ "m spoke words t ate l acid into /eel z we li/5$4 ,h] adopt$ *ild is a slip ( a girl1 slim & light1 ) ! ways ( a %y ?+ ( ! woods4 ,%e made me ?9k ( a h>ebell gr[+ all by itself 9 a rocky place1 ) /ubbly grass ab\t & a wide sky ov]head4 ,%e 0 small & v sweet1 & %e slid on to my knee & :isp]$ h] lessons 9 my e> 9 ! s(te/ ( little voices4 ,%e _h gone to s*ool = ne>ly a ye>1 & lik$ to tell me all %e knew4 ,d y g to s*ool n[8 ,i ask$ h]4 ,%e hung h] head & did n answ]4 ,don't y g8 ,i repeat$4 ,%e j brea!d ,no1 & ! little head dropp$ l[]4 ,:y n8 ,i :isp]$ z s(tly4 ,! *ild hesitat$4 ,"s dim appreh5sion t ! reason w\ld n seem good to me tr\bl$ h]1 p]haps1 = %e w\ld n answ]4 ,tell ! ,ammal1 silly *ild6 said h] fo/]-"m1 :o 0 /&+ ne>4 ,tell h] y are le>n+ to dance & s+ & get ready = ! gods6 ,i am le>n+ to dance & s+ & get ready = ! gods1 repeat$ ! *ild ob$i5tly1 lift+ l>ge1 cle> eyes to my face = a mom5t z if to read :at 0 writt5 !re4 ,a gr\p ( m5 /ood ne> u4 ,i turn$ to !m4 ,is x "r to give ?is little *ild to a life l t8 ,i ask$ !m !n4 ,!y smil$ a tol]ant1 k9dly smile4 ,c]ta9ly no "o w\ld call x "r1 b x is our cu/om1 & !y pass$ on4 ,!re 0 no s5se ( ! pity ( x3-- ,poor little life t toddles half an h\r1 ,cr[n$ ) a fl[] or two1 & !n an end6 ,we _h come to ! t[n an h\r or two e>li]1 & _h se51 walk+ ?r\gh ! ?rong r\nd ! ,temple1 two bright "y girls 9 :ite4 ,no girls ( _! age1 except ,temple girls1 w\ld h be5 out at t h\r ( ! ev5+1 & we foll[$ !m home4 ,!y /opp$ :5 !y rea*$ ! h\se :]e little ,mungie liv$1 & !n1 turn+1 saw u & salaam$4 ,"o ( ! two 0 ,mungie's eld] si/]4 ,little ,mungie ran out to meet h] si/]1 &1 see+ u1 eag]ly ask$ = a book4 ,s we /ood 9 ! op5 moonlight1 & ! little "o tri$ to spell out ! words ( a text to %[ u %e _h n =gott5 all %e _h le>n$1 ev5 ?\gh %e1 too1 _h be5 tak5 f s*ool1 & _h to le>n pages ( poetry & ! ,temple dances & songs4 ,! girls 7 jewell$ & cr[n$ ) fl[]s1 & !y look$ l fl[]s !mselves2 fl[]s 9 moonlight h a my/]y ab\t !m n p]ceiv$ 9 common day1 b ! my/]y "h 0 some?+ :olly sorr[ful4 ,ev]y?+ ab\t ! *ildr5--!y 7 h>dly m ?an *ildr5--%[$ c>e & ref9em5t ( ta/e4 ,!re 0 no viol5t cla% ( col\r2 ! only vivid col\r note 0 ! ri* r$ ( a silk und]skirt t %[$ :]e ! cl++ folds ( ! :ite gold-embroid]$ s>i 7 drap$ a little at ! side4 ,! effect 0 v da9ty1 & ! girls' mann]s 7 mode/ & g5tle4 ,no "o :o did n "k :at ! pretty dress meant t night w\ld h dream$ x 0 b ! me% ( a net made ( :ite & gold4 ,b ) all _! pleasant mann]s x 0 evid5t ! two girls look$ ^u u ) a di/9ct alo(ness4 ,!y glanc$ at u mu* z a brilliant bird ( ! air might be suppos$ to reg>d p\ltry1 f[ls ( ! coop$-up y>d4 ,!n !y melt$ into ! %ad[ ( an ar*way beh9d ! moonlit space1 & we w5t on to ano!r /reet & came ^u little ,sellamal1 ! h>ebell *ild2 &1 sitt+ d[n on ! v]&ah :i* op5s (f ! /reet1 we he>d h] lessons z we h told1 & got into conv]sation ) h] adopt$ "m4 ,we f\nd h] int]e/$ 9 li/5+ to :at we _h to say ab\t d$icat+ *ildr5 to ! s]vice ( ! gods4 ,%e 0 extremely intellig5t1 & spoke ,tamil su* z "o reads 9 books set = exam9ation4 ,x 0 easy to talk ) h]1 = %e saw ! po9t ( ev]y?+ at once1 & did n ne$ to h tru? brok5 up small & crumbl$ d[n & illu/rat$ 9 half a doz5 diff]5t ways be=e x c\ld be und]/ood4 ,b ! half-amus$ smile on ! clev] face told u h[ %e reg>d$ all we 7 say+4 ,:at 0 life & dea? e>ne/ness to u 0 a game ( words to h]2 a play ! m to be enjoy$ because1 drawn by ! sight ( two ,missie ,ammals sitt+ toge!r on ! v]&ah1 q a little cr[d _h ga!r$1 & 7 li/5+ appreciatively4 ,t is y\r way ( look+ at x2 n[ li/5 to my way4 ,ea* l& 9 all ! _w has its own cu/oms & religion4 ,ea* has t :i* is be/ = x4 ,*ange1 & y invite confusion & mu* unpleasantness4 ,also by *ang+ y express y\r ignorance & pride4 ,:y %\ld ! *ild presume to great] wisdom ?an its fa!r8 ,& n[ li/5 to me6 ,i w %[ y ! matt] f our side6 7,yes1 v5]able "m1 cont9ue6 int]pos$ ! cr[d enc\rag+ly47 ,y seem to feel x a sad ?+ t little ,sellamal %\ld be tra9$ z we are tra9+ h]4 ,y seem to feel x wrong1 & almo/1 p]haps1 disgrace4 ,b if y c\ld see my elde/ daught] ! c5tre ( a ?\s& ,brahmans & high-ca/e ,h9dus6 ,if y c\ld see e eye 9 t r+ fix$ ^u h]1 ^u h] alone6 ,if y c\ld see ! absorption--h>dly d !y d>e to brea! le/ !y %\ld miss a po9t ( h] beauty6 ,ah1 y w\ld "k1 c\ld y see x all1 ^u ^: side ! glory lies & ^u ^: ! %ame6 ,comp>e t mom5t ( exaltation ) ! grovell+ life ( y\r ,*ri/ians6 ,l[-m9d$1 fle%-dev\r+1 ,*ri/ians1 disc]n+ n ! diff]5ce betwe5 clean & unclean6 ,bah6 ,& y w\ld h my little ,sellamal leave all ?is = t6 ,b aft]w>ds8 ,:at comes aft]w>ds8 ,:at "k ,i8 ,:at c>e ,i8 ,t is a matt] = ! gods4 ,! *ild ,sellamal li/5$ to ?is1 glanc+ f face to face ) wi/ful1 wond]+ eyes2 & z ,i look$ d[n ^u h] %e look$ up at me1 & ,i look$ deep into ^? eyes--su* innoc5t eyes4 ,!n some?+ seem$ to move ! *ild1 & %e held up h] face = a kiss4 ,?is is only "o ,temple t[n4 ,!re are _m su* 9 ! ,s\?4 ,^! ?+s are n easy to look at = long4 ,we turn away ) burn+ eyes1 & only = ! *ildr5's sake c\ld we ev] look aga94 ,= _! sake look aga94 ,x 0 e>ly ev5+ 9 a home ( re/ on ! hills4 ,a m$ical mission>y1 a woman ( wide exp]i5ce1 0 talk+ to a y\ng] woman ab\t ! ,temple *ildr54 ,%e _h liv$ = "s "t1 unkn[+ly1 next door to a ,temple h\se 9 an ,indian city4 ,night aft] night %e said %e 0 wak5$ by ! cries ( *ildr5--fright5$ cries1 indignant cries1 sometimes %>p cries z ( pa94 ,%e inquir$ 9 ! morn+1 b 0 always told ! *ildr5 _h be5 puni%$ = "s naught9ess4 ,!y 7 only be+ beat54 ,%e 0 n satisfi$1 & tri$ to f9d out m ?r\gh ! police4 ,b %e fe>$ ! police 7 brib$ to tell no?+1 = %e f\nd out no?+ ?r\gh !m4 ,lat]1 by means ( h] m$ical "w1 %e came full ^u ! tru?4 4 4 4 ,:y leave spaces ) dott$ l9es8 ,:y n write ! :ole fact8 wrote "o :o did n "k :at %e ask$4 ,once m we repeat x1 to write ! :ole fact is impossible4 ,x is true ?is is n univ]sal2 9 our "p ( ! c\ntry x is n g5]al1 = ! ,temple *ild is consid]$ ( too mu* value to be lightly injur$4 ,b x is true beyond a d\bt t inhumanity :i* may n be describ$ is possible at any "t 9 any ,temple h\se4 ,out 9 ! g>d5 little gr\ps ( mission>ies walk$ toge!r & talk$4 ,f a room ne> came ! s\nd ( a hymn4 ,x 0 peaceful & beautiful ev]y:]e1 & ! gold ( sunset fill$ ! air1 & made ! g>d5 a glory l& ( radiant wond]ful col\r4 ,b = "o woman at lea/ ! _w turn$ black4 ,only ! ?\ght ( ! *ildr5 n]v$ h] to g on4 ,,*apt] ,,xxxii ,! ,p[] beh9d ! ,"w ,to ,him difficulties are z no?+1 & improbabilities ( less ?an no acc\nt4--,/ory ( ! ,*9a ,inl& ,mission4 ,,! ,p[] beh9d ! "w is ! int]position ( ,god 9 answ] to pray]4 ,rec5tly--s rec5tly t x w\ld be unwise to g into detail--we 7 9 tr\ble ab\t a little girl ( t5 or elev51 :o1 ?\gh n a ,temple *ild1 0 expos$ to imm95t dang]1 & sorely ne$$ deliv]ance4 ,i happ5$ to be alone at ,dohnavur at ! "t1 & did n "k :at to answ] to ! *ild's urg5t message3 ,if ,i c escape to y 7?is meant if %e brav$ capture & its consequ5ces1 & fl$ across ! fields alone at night71 c y protect me f my p8 ,to say ,yes might h _h fatal results4 ,to say ,no seem$ too impossible4 ,! circum/ances 7 su* t great c>e 0 ne$$ to avoid be+ entangl$ 9 legal complications2 & z ! ,collector 7,*ief ,magi/rate7 = our "p ( ! di/rict happ5$ j !n to be 9 our neighb\rhood1 ,i wrote ask+ = an appo9tm5t4 ,e>ly next morn+ we met by ! roadside4 ,i _h be5 up mo/ ( ! night1 & 0 tir$ & anxi\s2 & ,i %all nev] =get ! com=t t came ?r\gh ! quiet sympa?y ) :i* "o :o 0 q a /rang] to u all li/5$ to ! /ory1 n z if x 7 a m]e mission>y trifle1 b some?+ wor?y 8 att5tion4 ,b no?+ c\ld be done4 ,x 0 n a case :]e we _h any gr\nd = appeal to ! law2 & any attempt ^u our "p to help ! *ild c\ld only h result$ 9 m tr\ble aft]w>ds1 = we %\ld c]ta9ly h _h to give h] up if %e came to u4 ,z ! inevitabl5ess ( ?is conclusion became m & m evid5t to me1 x seem$ z if a great /rong wall 7 ris+ foot by foot betwe5 me & t little girl--a wall l ! walls t enclose ! ,temples "h1 v high1 v massive4 ,b ev5 ,temple walls h doors1 & ,i c\ld n see any door 9 ?is wall4 ,no?+ c\ld br+ t *ild to u b a ,p[] en?ron$ above ! wall1 :i* c\ld /oop & lift h] ov] x4 ,i d n rememb] :at l$ to ! "q ab\t :at we expect$ w\ld happ52 b ,i rememb] t ) t wall full 9 view ,i c\ld only answ]1 ,! int]position ( ,god4 ,no?+ else1 no?+ less1 c\ld d any?+ = t *ild4 ,h] case 0 complicat$1 if ,i may express x s1 by ! fact t ?\gh %e knew v little--%e _h only _h a few weeks' tea*+ & c\ld n read--%e _h believ$ all we told h] mo/ simply & lit]ally1 & witness$ to h] own p1 ^: reply to h] _h be53 ,y w see :o is /rong]1 y\r ,god or ours6 ,d y ?9k y\r ,"l ,jesus c deliv] y f our h&1 or prev5t u f do+ z we *oose ) y8 ,we %all see6 ,& ! case ( an old] girl :o _h be51 z ^? :o knew h] be/ believ$1 drugg$ & !n b5t to h] p's w1 0 quot$3 ,did y\r ,"l ,jesus deliv] h]8 ,:]e is %e to-day8 ,& y ?9k ,he w deliv] y6 ,b ,he w n let y hurt me1 ! *ild _h answ]$ fe>lessly1 ?\gh h] /r5g? 0 weak5$ ev5 !n by ?irty h\rs )\t food2 &1 rememb]+ "o ( ! ,bible /ories %e _h he>d dur+ ^? weeks1 %e add$1 ,i am ,daniel1 & y are ! lions--& %e told !m h[ ! angel 0 s5t to %ut ! lions' m\?s4 ,b %e knew s little aft] all1 & ! brave/ c be ov]borne1 & %e 0 only a little girl2 s our he>ts a*$ = h] z we s5t h] ! message3 ,y mu/ n try to come to u4 ,we _c protect y4 ,b ,jesus is ) y4 ,he w n fail y4 ,he says1 ',fe> ?\ n1 = ,i am ) !e4' ,t night !y %ut h] up ) a demon-possess$ woman1 t ! t]ror ( x might %ake h] fai? 9 ,*ri/4 ,next day !y h9t$ t worse w\ld happ5 soon4 ,our fe> 0 le/ h] fai? %\ld fail be=e deliv]ance came4 ,?ree & a half mon?s ( su* t5sion z we h r>ely kn[n pass$ ov] u4 ,(t5 dur+ t "t1 :5 "o ?+ aft] ano!r happ5$ contr>iwise1 z x appe>$1 & ea* ev5t z x occurr$ seem$ to add ano!r foot to ! wall t /ill grew high]1 help to fai? came to u ?r\gh unexpect$ s\rces l voices bl[n on ! w9ds4 ,once x 0 some?+ ,lieut4 ,%ackleton is report$ to h said to ,reut]'s correspond5t conc]n+ 8 exp$ition to ! ,s\? ,pole3 ,ov] & ov] aga9 !re 7 times :5 no mortal lead]%ip c\ld h avail$ u4 ,x 0 dur+ ^? times t we le>n$ t "s ,p[] beyond our own guid$ our foot/eps4 ,& ! illu/rations :i* foll[$ ( ,div9e int]position 7 su* t "o at lea/ :o read1 took c\rage2 = ! ,god ( ! great ,ice-fields is ! ,god ( ! ,tropics4 ,once x 0 a passage op5$ by *ance 9 a fri5d's book--,pa/or ,agnorum4 ,! subject ( ! p>agraph is ! s*oolboy's attitude t[>ds games3 ,glimpses ( 8 m9d are sometimes giv5 u1 z on t day at ,ris+ham :5 y refus$ to play 9 y\r boys' h\se-mat*1 unless ! o!r h\se exclud$ f _! team a half-back :o 0 "u atta9d] ?r\gh a rec5t r[4 ,!y decl9$1 & y /ood out ( x4 ,! hu% 9 ! field :5 y\r orphan$ team1 9 defiance ( ! odds1 scor$ & aga9 scor$6 ,_! support]s1 9 *a/e awe at ! m>vel1 c\ld h>dly %\t3 x 0 m l a sob3 a judgm5t _h s manife/ly def5d$ ! "r4 ,! cricket pr(essional1 a man naturally dev\t1 look$ at me ) eyes t confess$ an int]position1 & all came away quiet z a cr[d f a cemet]y4 ,x 0 n a game ( football we _h look$ at1 x 0 a ,my/]y ,play3 we _h be5 edifi$1 & we hid x 9 our he>ts4 ,& once1 on ! d>ke/ day ( all1 x 0 ! brave old family motto1 on a lett] :i* came by po/3 ,dieu df5d le droit4 ,x 0 some?+ to be rem9d$ t1 9 spite ( appe>ances to ! contr>y1 ! k+dom is ! ,"l's1 & ,he is ,gov]nor among ! p4 ,eyes t confess$ an int]position4 ,! phrase 0 illum9at$ = u :5 ,god 9 v tru? int]pos$ 9 su* fa%ion t e "o saw x 0 ,8 ,h&1 = no o!r h& c\ld h done x4 ,!n we1 too1 look$ at ea* o!r ) eyes t confess$ an int]position4 ,we _h se5 t :i* we %\ld nev] =get2 & until ! "t comes :5 x may be m fully told to ! glory ( our ,god1 we h hid x 9 our he>ts4 ,! reason we h outl9$ ! /ory is to lead to a ^w we want to write v e>ne/ly2 x is ?is3 ,fri5ds :o c>e = ! *ildr51 & believe ?is "w on _! behalf is some?+ ,god int5ds %\ld be done1 pray z if on t alone hung ! issue ( ! day4 ,m ?an we "k dep5ds ^u our hold+ on 9 pray]4 ,all ?r\gh ^? mon?s !re 0 pray] = t *ild 9 ,india & 9 ,engl&4 ,! matt] 0 s urg5t t we made x widely kn[n1 & "s at lea/ ( ^? :o he>d gave !mselves up to pray]2 n to ! m]e easy pray] :i* co/s little & does less1 b to t wait+ ^u ,god :i* does n re/ till x kn[s x has obta9$ access1 kn[s t x has ! petition t x desires ( ,him4 ,?is sort ( pray] co/s4 ,b to u d[n 9 ! ?ick ( ! battle1 x 0 /r5g? to ?9k ( t pray]4 ,we 7 v we>y ) hope def]r$2 = x 0 z if all ! human hope 9 u 7 torn out ( u1 & toss$ & buffet$ e way till !re 0 no?+ left ( x b an a*+ place :]e x _h be54 ,god works by means1 z we all admit2 & s e fre% developm5t 9 a ,c\rt case 9 :i* ! *ild 0 involv$1 e turn ( affairs1 :]e h] relatives 7 conc]n$ 7& ^! turns 7 frequ5t71 e little movem5t :i* seem$ to promise some?+1 0 eag]ly wat*$ 9 ! expectation t 9 x lay ! int]position = :i* we wait$4 ,b x seem$ z if our hopes 7 rais$ only to be da%$ l[] ?an ev]1 till we 7 ca/ ^u ! b>e ^w ( our ,god4 ,x 0 giv5 to u !n z p]haps nev] be=e to p5etrate to ! inn]mo/ spr+ ( consolation conta9$ 9 ^? v old words3 ,i %\ld utt]ly h fa9t$1 b t ,i believe v]ily to see ! goodness ( ! ,"l 9 ! l& ( ! liv+4 ,oh1 t>ry ?\ ! ,"l's leisure3 be /rong1 & ,he %all com=t ?9e he>t2 & put ?\ ?y tru/ 9 ! ,"l4 ,?is ,div9e ,int]position has be5 v inspir+4 ,we feel afre% ! =ce ( ! "q3 ,is any?+ too h>d = ! ,"l8 ,& we ask ^? ^: he>ts are ) u to pray = m su* manife/ations ( ! ,p[] t has n pass$ ) ! ages4 ,"l1 tea* u to pray6 ,= x has nev] be5 ) u1 ,come1 see1 & conqu]1 z if victory 7 an easy ?+ & a common4 ,we h kn[n :at x is to toil = ! salvation ( "s little life1 & we h kn[n ! bitt]ness ( defeat4 ,we h _h to /& on ! %ore ( a d>k & b\ndless sea1 & wat* t little :ite life swept (f z by a great black wave4 ,we h wat*$ x drift fur!r & fur!r out on ^? desolate wat]s1 till sudd5ly some?+ f und]nea? caught x & suck$ x d[n4 ,& our v s\l has gone out 9 ! cry1 ,w\ld ,god ,i _h di$ = !e6 & we too h gone to ! *amb] ov] ! gate :]e we c\ld be alone ) our grief & our ,god--,o little *ild1 lov$ & lo/1 w\ld ,god ,i _h di$ = !e6 ,%\ld we =get ^! ?+s8 ,%\ld we bury !m away le/ !y hurt "s s5sitive s\l8 ,r1 c\ld we =get !m if we w\ld1 & d>e we hide away ! k le/ some:]e someone %\ld be hurt8 ,= x is n z if t black wave's "w 7 a ?+ ( ! pa/3 x has gone on = c5turies un*eck$3 x is go+ on to-day4 ,sev]al mon?s h pass$ s9ce ! *apt]s :i* prec$e ?is 7 writt54 ,we are n[1 ) "s ( our conv]ts :o ne$$ re/ & *ange1 9 a place "u ! m\nta9s a day's j\rney f ,dohnavur4 ,x is "o ( ! holy places ( ! ,s\?2 = ! nor!rn tribut>y ( ! *ief riv] ( ?is di/rict falls ov] ! cliffs at ?is po9t 9 a d\ble leap ( "o hundr$ & eighty feet1 & ! wat]s are s dispos$ ov] a great r\nd$ %\ld] ( rock t _m p c ba! bel[ 9 a long s+le file4 ,to ?is fall ?\s&s ( pilgrims come f all p>ts ( ,india1 believ+ t su* ba?+ is m]itori\s & cleanses away all s94 ,& z !y are f> f _! own homes1 & 9 measure out on holiday1 we f9d !m m ?an usually accessible & fri5dly4 ,?is morn+ ,i 0 on my way home aft] talk ) ! wom51 & 0 turn+ = a mom5t to look back ^u ! beautiful sorr[ful sc5e--! fla%+ wat]fall1 ! pass+ cr[d ( pilgrims1 ! radiance ( sun%9e on wat]1 wood1 & rock1 :5 a ,brahman1 fre% f ba?+1 foll[$ my look1 & glanc+ at ! ,new ,te/am5t & bag ( ,gospels 9 my h&1 smil$ indulg5tly & ask$ if we s]i\sly ?\ght ^! books & _! tea*+ w\ld ev] mat]ially influ5ce ,india4 ,look at t cr[d1 & he po9t$ to ! p1 8 own ca/e p *iefly4 ,h we be5 influ5c$8 ,!n he told me ! /ory ( ! ,falls1 h[ ages ago a god1 pity+ ! s9s & ! suff]+s ( ! p1 ba!d on ! l$ge :]e ! wat]s leap1 & !reaft] ^? wat]s 7 efficaci\s to ! cleans+ ( s9 f ! "o :o believ+ly ba!s4 ,to ! "o :o believes n1 no?+ happ5s beyond ! cleans+ ( 8 body & its invigoration4 ,ev5 to y1 he add$1 9 8 fri5dl9ess1 virtue ( a sort is all[$2 = d y n exp]i5ce a c]ta9 exhil>ation & a buoyancy ( _s & a pleasure beyond any?+ obta9able else:]e :i* is p]fectly true8 ,?is is due to ! b5evol5ce ( our god1 ^: m]its ext5d ev5 to y4 ,he 0 an educat$ man2 he _h /udi$ 9 a mission s*ool1 & aft]w>ds 9 a ,gov]nm5t college4 ,he _h read ,engli% books1 & p>ts ( our ,bible 7 famili> to him4 ,he assur$ me he f\nd no m difficulty 9 accept+ ?is leg5d ?an we did 9 accept+ ! /ory ( our ,savi\r's inc>nation4 ,& !n1 /&+ 9 ! ,temple por* ) its c>v$ /one pill>s1 almo/ )9 t\* ( ! great door t op5s beh9d into ! %r9e1 he l$ ! way into ! ,high] ,h9duism--t my/]i\s l& :i* lies all ar\nd u 9 ,india1 b is s seldom %[n to u4 ,& ,i li/5$ till 9 turn he 0 p]suad$ to li/51 & we read toge!r f ! ,gospel :i* transc5ds 9 its simplicity ! pr(\nde/ rea* ( ,h9du ?\ght3 ,9 ! beg9n+ 0 ! ,^w1 & ! ,^w 0 ) ,god1 & ! ,^w 0 ,god4 ,we did n pause till we came to ! end ( ! p>agraph4 ,i c\ld see h[ x appeal$1 = deep calle? unto deep2 b he rose aga9 up & up1 & t unkn[n "p ( "o's be+ :i* is m ak9 to ! ,ea/ ?an to ! ,we/1 foll[$ him & und]/ood--:5 ! door beh9d u creak$1 & a sudd5 bla/ ( turbul5t music sprang out ^u u1 deaf5+ u = a mom5t1 & he said1 ,x is ! morn+ wor%ip4 ,! prie/s & ! ,s]vants ( ! gods are wor%ipp+ )94 ,x 0 l a fall f f>-away heights to ! v floor ( ?+s4 ,!n he told me h[ 9 ! t[n ?ree miles di/ant1 ! ,b5>es ( ! ,s\?1 ! s]vice ( ! gods 0 conduct$ ) m elaborate c]emonial4 ,i c\ld arrange = y to see x if y wi%$4 ,i expla9$ :y ,i c\ld n wi% to see x1 & ask$ him ab\t ! ,s]vants ( ! gods1 & ab\t ! little *ildr54 ,c]ta9ly !re are little *ildr54 ,! ,s]vants ( ! gods adopt !m to cont9ue ! succession4 ,h[ else c\ld x be cont9u$8 ,,*apt] ,,xxxiii ,if ?is 7 ,all ,,an h\r e>li] ?ree ( u _h /ood toge!r by ! pool at ! foot ( ! ,falls1 & wat*$ ! p ba!4 ,at ! edge ( ! rock an old gr&mo!r _h dealt valiantly ) an indignant baby ( two1 :om1 despite its /ruggles1 %e ba!d aft] prolong$ prep>ation ( div]s ano9t+s1 by hold+ x grimly1 kick+ & slipp]y ?\gh x 01 "u :at mu/ h seem$ to x a t]rible hurry+ horror4 ,:5 at la/ t baby em]g$1 x 0 too cru%$ 9 _s to cry4 ,beyond ?is little dome/ic sc5e 0 a gr\p ( half-reluctant wom51 long+ & yet fe>+ to v5ture "u ! plung+ wat]s2 & beyond !m aga9 7 ! ba!rs1 cr[d+ b nev] jo/l+ ea* o!r1 on ! n>r[ l$ge ^u & ov] :i* ! ,falls desc5d4 ,"s 7 /&+ upright1 ) b[$ heads1 "u ! /rong *a/isem5t ( ! ne>] heavi] fall2 "s b5t "u x1 z if ov]:elm$ ) ! ?und]+ ?ud ( its wat]s4 ,"s 7 fur!r on1 :]e ! :ite furies la% l liv+ :ips1 & sc\rge & /+ & scurry2 & !re ! pilgrims 7 h>dly visible1 = ! wat]s swept ov] !m l a veil1 & !y look$ 9 _! weirdness & mut5ess l m>tyr gho/s4 ,fur!r /ill "s 7 c>efully climb+ ! /eps cut into ! cliff1 or /&+ z high z !y c\ld g ^u an ungu>d$ projection ( rock1 ) eyes %ut & fold$ h&s1 entirely oblivi\s app>5tly to ! fact t %[]s ( spray envelop$ !m1 & ! deep pool lay bel[4 ,i _h nev] se5 any?+ q l ?is3 x 0 su* a /range comm+l+ ( ! beautiful & sorr[ful4 ,! wom5--fair-sk9n$ ,brahman wom5 !y *anc$ to be--7 9 _! usual graceful raim5t ( silk or cotton1 all %ades ( s(t r$s1 crimson1 purple1 blue1 light5$ ) yell[ & orange1 :i* 9 ! wat] look$ l dull fire4 ,_! gold5 & silv] jewels gleam$ 9 ! sunlight1 & _! long black hair hung r\nd faces l ! faces "o sees 9 pictures4 ,! m5 wore _! ord9>y :ite1 & ! ascetics ! salmon-t9t$ saffron ( _! pr(ession4 ,!n1 z if to add an e!real t\* to x all1 a ra9b[ spann$ ! ,falls at t mom5t1 & we saw ! pilgrims ?r\gh x or ar*$ by x z !y /ood1 "s at ei!r end ( ! b[ :]e ! col\rs pa9t$ ! rock & ! spray1 & "s 9 ! space betwe54 ,! sun /ruck ! =e/ hang+ on ! /eeps above1 & x became a vivid ?+ 9 quick delight ( gre5ness4 ,x 0 some?+ :i*1 once se51 c\ld h>dly be =gott54 ,! triumphant /ream ( :ite set deep 9 ! he>t ( a great horse%oe ( rock & woods2 ! delicate1 exquisite pleasure ( col\r2 & ! p 9 _! un-self-consci\sness1 ba?+ & wor%ipp+ j z !y wi%$1 ) = backgr\nd rock & spray1 & = a halo ra9b[4 ,to "o :o look$ ) sympa?y ! picture 0 a p>able4 ,y c\ld n b see visions3 y c\ld n b dream dreams4 ,!n f ! quiet heights crept a colony ( monkeys1 _! *att] dr[n$ 9 ! ro> ( ! ,falls4 ,on !y came1 wise & qua9t1 l ! half-he>d :isp]s ( old-"t jokes4 ,& !y ba!d 9 ! mimic pools above1 z x seem$ 9 imitation ( ! pilgrims1 hold+ comical little heads "u ! light trickles4 ,& bel[ ! sc5e *ang$ z a company ( wid[s came & ent]$ ! ,falls4 ,!y 7 all ,brahmans & all old1 & !y %iv]$ 9 _! poor scanty g>m5ts ( co>se :ite4 ,mo/ ( !m 7 frail ) long fa/+ & p5ance1 & !y pray$ z !y /ood 9 ! wat] or cr\*$ "u its weight4 ,su* a "o _h sat on ! /one "u ! special fall :i*1 z ! fri5d :o _h tak5 me obs]v$ ) m =cefulness ?an s5tim5t1 comes d[n l a sack ( potatoes4 ,i _h tri$ to /& x = a m9ute1 b x pelt$ & p\nd$ me s t less ?an a m9ute 0 en\gh1 & ,i mov$ to make room = a ,brahman wid[ :o 0 ba?+ ) me4 ,& !n %e sat d[n on ! /one1 & ! wat]s beat v heavily on ! old grey head2 b %e sat on 9 h] pati5ce1 h] h&s cov]+ h] face1 & %e pray$ )\t "o mom5t's int]mission4 ,h[ little %e knew ( ! o!r pray] t rose beside h]s ?r\gh ! ru%+ wat]--x 0 ! fir/ "t ,i at lea/ _h ev] pray$ 9 a wat]fall--,oh1 s5d =? ,?y light & ,?y tru?2 let !m lead h]6 ,%e /ruggl$ up at la/ & caught my h&2 !n1 /eady+ h]self ) an ef=t1 %e felt = ! iron rod t protects ! l$ge1 & bl9d$ by ! driv+ spray & b5umb$ by ! beat ( ! wat]1 %e /umbl$ sl[ly out4 ,b ! wi/ful face _h a look ( cont5t ^u x1 & h] only conc]n 0 to f9i% ! c]emonial out 9 ! sun%9e--%e _h br\ght h] little (f]+s ( a few fl[]s ) h]--& s1 mu* z ,i long$ to foll[ h] & tell h] ( ! cleans+ ( :i* ?is 0 only a type1 x c\ld n h be5 !n4 ,oh1 ! re/ x is at su* a "t to rememb] t ! ,"l is good to all1 & ,8 t5d] m]cies are ov] all ,8 works4 ,bel[ ! pool1 9 ! broad b$ ( ! /ream & on its banks1 all 0 animation & happy simple life4 ,"h ! wom5 7 dry+ _! g>m5ts1 )\t tak+ !m (f1 9 a clev] fa%ion ( _! own4 ,!re "s 7 wa%+ !m 9 ! /ream4 ,*ildr5 play$ ab\t z !y will$4 ,b 9 & among ! ?rong1 any:]e1 ev]y:]e1 we saw wor%ipp]s1 /&+ or sitt+ fac+ ! ea/1 alone or 9 company1 *ant+ names = ! deity1 or ador+ & m$itat+ 9 sil5ce4 ,d\btless "s 7 =mal en\gh1 b "s 7 c]ta9ly s9c]e2 & we felt if ?is 7 all !re is to "k 9 ,h9duism1 ! "t mu/ soon come :5 a p s prep>$ w\ld recognise 9 ! ,savi\r & ,lov] ( _! s\ls1 ,him = :om !y _h be5 seek+ s long1 if haply !y might feel aft] ,him & f9d ,him4 ,b ?is is n all !re is to "k4 ,back out ( sight beh9d ! simple joy\sness ( life1 to :i* ! :olesome wat]s & ! sp>kl+ air & ! beauty ev]y:]e s graci\sly m9i/]$1 beh9d t wond]ful weal? ( ?\ght z reveal$ 9 ! ,high] ,h9duism :i* is born surely ( no?+ less ?an a long+ aft] ,god--beh9d all ?is :at d we f9d8 ,glory ( m\nta9 & wat]fall1 *>m & delight ( ra9b[ 9 spray2 b :at lies beh9d ! col\r$ veil8 ,:at symbols are c>v$ into ! cliff8 ,^: "n & p[] d !y repres5t8 ,?is book t\*es "o ( ! hidd5 ?+s2 w\ld t we c\ld =get x6 ,sometimes1 ?r\gh ^! days z we sat on ! rocks by ! wat]side1 9 ! unobtrusive fa%ion ( ! ,indian religi\s tea*]1 :o makes no noise b waits = ^? :o c>e to come1 we h almo/ =gott5 9 ! happ9ess ( human t\* ) ! p1 ! lovable wom5 & *ildr5 m especially1 t any?+ d>k & wick$ & sad lay s v ne>4 ,& !n1 sudd5ly z we h told1 we h be5 rem9d$ ( x4 ,we may n =got x if we w\ld4 ,x is true t ! ?+ we mean is dis[n$ by ! spiritual few1 b to ! multitude x is "p ( _! religion4 ,( c\rse1 ,temple wom5 mu/ adopt "y *ildr52 & !y mu/ be c>efully tra9$1 or !y w n be meet = ! s]vice ( ! gods4 ,s said ! ,brahman :o only a mom5t be=e _h l$ me into ! my/ic l&1 deep )9 :i* he loves to dwell3 :at does ! tra9+ mean8 ,a =tnight ago ! fri5d to :om ! *ild is de> took me to see ! little girl describ$ 9 a lett] f an ,indian si/] z a little dove 9 a cage4 ,i did n f9d t %e m9d$ h] cage4 ,! b>s h be5 gild$1 ! gold5 glitt] has dazzl$ ! *ild4 ,%e ?9ks h] cage a pretty place1 & %e does n beat aga9/ its b>s z %e did 9 ! e>li] days ( h] captivity4 ,z we talk$ ) h] we und]/ood ! *ange4 ,:5 fir/ %e 0 tak5 f s*ool ! woman to ^: tra9+ h] "m has committ$ h] gave h] pollut+ poetry to read & le>n1 & %e %rank f x1 & w\ld slip h] ,bible ov] ! op5 page & read x in/ead4 ,b gradually ! poetry seem$ less impossible2 ! atmosph]e 9 :i* ^? vile /ories grew & fl\ri%$ 0 all ab\t h]2 z %e brea!d x day by day %e became accu/om$ to x2 ! s5se ( be+ /ifl$ pass$4 ,! process ( m5tal acclimatisation is n yet complet$1 ! lovely little face is /ill pure & /rangely innoc5t 9 its expression2 b !re is a *ange1 & x breaks ! he>t ( ! fri5d :o loves h] to see x4 ,i mu/ le>n my poetry4 ,!y w be angry if ,i d n le>n x4 ,:at c ,i d8 ,& aga91 ,oh1 ! /ories d n mean any?+1 said ) a d[nw>d glance1 z if ! *ild-consci5ce /ill prote/$4 ,b ?is 0 a =tnight ago4 ,x is worse ) t little girl to-day2 !re is less inw>d revolt2 & to-morr[ h[ w x be ) h]8 ,,*apt] ,,xxxiv ,to ,cont9ue ! ,succession ,,= to-morr[ holds no hope = ^! *ildr5 s f> z our p[] to save !m to-day is conc]n$4 ,x w be rememb]$ t we felt we c\ld d m = !m by work+ quietly on our own l9es ?an by appeal+ to ! law2 b lately1 fe>+ le/ we 7 possibly do+ ! law an inju/ice by tak+ x = grant$ t x 0 p[]less to help u1 we c>efully ga!r$ all ! evid5ce we c\ld ab\t ?ree typical *ildr53 "o a *ild 9 moral dang]1 ?\gh n 9 actual ,temple dang]2 ano!r ! adopt$ *ild ( a ,temple woman2 ! ?ird a ,temple woman's own *ild3 & we submitt$ ?is evid5ce to a ke5 ,indian ,*ri/ian b>ri/]1 & ask$ = 8 advice4 ,l41 ! fir/ *ild he deals )1 ! little dove 9 ! cage1 is 9 *>ge ( a woman ( bad "*1 by ! cons5t & arrangem5t ( h] "m4 ,! "m speaks ,engli% z well z an ,engli%woman1 & h] elde/ son is /udy+ = 8 degree 9 a ,gov]nm5t college4 ,al?\gh ,temple s]vice is n int5d$1 ! propos$ life is su* t a simil> c\rse ( tra9+ z t to :i* ! ,temple *ild is subject$1 is n[ be+ c>ri$ on4 ,?is is ! b>ri/]'s reply to my lett]3-- ,i h c>efully p]us$ ! /atem5ts ( ! probable witnesses4 ,l4's "m is n a ,temple woman1 & ! fo/]-"m also is n a ,temple woman4 ,! law ( adoption relat+ to ,temple wom5 does n apply to !m4 ,! fo/]-"m1 !re=e1 c h no legal claim to ! *ild4 ,b ! "m has absolute control ov] ! br++-up ( ! *ild1 & x w\ld n be possible 9 ! pres5t /ate ( ! law to d any?+ = ! *ild n[4 ,s4 ,?is is ! little "o :o :isp]$ h] texts to me 9 ! moonlight1 & ^: fo/]-"m told h] to tell me %e 0 be+ tra9$ = ! ,s]vice ( ! gods4 ,%e is evid5tly de/9$ to be a ,temple woman4 ,! fir/ "q = consid]ation is h[ ! old woman is relat$ to h]4 ,if %e is ! adopt$ "m1 or if %e c\ld successfully plead adoption ( ! *ild1 ! ,civil ,c\rts w be p[]less to help4 ,if we c get "s reliable evid5ce t ! *ild has n be5 adopt$ 7?is is impossible7 we may be able to induce ! ,briti% ,c\rts to int]f]e on h] behalf & say %e %all n be devot$ to ,temple s]vice until %e atta9s h] majority2 b x w\ld n be possible to induce ! ,c\rts to h& ! *ild ov] to ! ,mission4 ,k41 ! little girl ^: own "m is a ,temple woman4 ,%e has be5 taught danc+1 :i* to our m9d 0 conclusive pro( ( h] "m's int5tions4 ,to make sure we ask$ ! "q1 to :i* ! foll[+ is ! reply3 ,no *ildr5 ( good ,h9du p>5ts are taught danc+4 ,ev5 ! l[e/ ca/e woman ?9ks x b5ea? h] dignity to dance1 except+ pr(essional devil-danc]s1 :o are g5]ally old wom51 mo/ly wid[s1 ( an hy/]ical temp]am5t4 ,:5 "y *ildr5 ( wom5 ( d\btful "* are taught danc+1 x means !y are go+ to be m>ri$ to ! idol4 ,:5 *ildr5 ( ,temple wom5 are taught danc+ ! presumption is all ! great]4 ,b ! difficulty 9 ! case ( ,k4 is to get "o :o has high] claims to gu>dian%ip ?an ! "m4 ,9 ! case ( a ,temple woman's *ild !re is no "o4 ,x is ?is :i* makes x impossible = ! well-wi%]s ( ! *ildr5 to int]f]e4 4 4 4 ,! law puni%es only ! (f5ce committ$ & n ! int5t to commit1 or ev5 ! prep>ation1 unless x am\nts to an attempt "u ! ,p5al ,code4 99 99 99 99 99 ,bluebe>ds are n an in/itution 9 ,engl&2 b if !y 71 & if "o ( ! ord] 7 kn[n to possess a cupbo>dful ( p5d5t heads1 w\ld ,engli%m5 sit quiet :ile he :ett$ 8 but*]'s knife q calmly on 8 door/ep8 ,w\ld !y say z he sat !re 9 untr\bl$ assurance ( safety1 feel+ ! edge ( ! blade ) 8 ?umb1 & mutt]+ almo/ audibly ! "n ( 8 int5d$ victim1 ,we h no "r to int]f]e1 he is only %>p5+ 8 knife2 an int5t to commit1 or ev5 ! prep>ation = crime1 is n puni%able by law1 unless x am\nts to an attempt1 & he has n 'attempt$' yet4 ,surely1 if su* int5t 7 n puni%able x v soon w\ld be4 ,x w\ld be f\nd possible--:o c d\bt x8--to frame a new law1 or am5d ! old "o1 s z to deal ) ,bluebe>ds4 ,& a ,committee ( ,vigilance w\ld be appo9t$ to ensure its effectual work+4 ,( c\rse1 ! simile is absurdly inadequate1 & breaks d[n at sev]al important po9ts1 & ! circum/ances are va/ly m difficult 9 ,india ?an !y ev] c\ld be 9 ,engl&1 j because ,india is ,india2 b w x n at lea/ be admitt$ t ! law meant 9 k9dness to ! innoc5t is fatal to our purpose8--:i* is to save ! *ildr5 :ile !y are /ill innoc5t4 99 99 99 99 99 ,we d n want to ask = any?+ unreasonable1 b x seems to u t ! law conc]n+ adoption requires revision4 ,9 ,mayne's ,h9du ,law & ,usage x is /at$ t among ,temple wom5 x is cu/om>y 9 ,madras & ,pondi*]ry & 9 ,we/]n ,india to adopt girls to foll[ _! adopt$ "m's pr(ession3 & ! girls s adopt$ succe$ to _! prop]ty2 no p>ticul> c]emonies are necess>y1 recognition alone be+ suffici5t4 ,9 ,calcutta & ,bombay su* adoptions h be5 held illegal1 b 9 ! ,madras ,presid5cy !y are held to be legal4 ,9 a case :]e ! validity ( su* adoption 0 que/ion$1 ! ,madras ,high ,c\rt affirm$ x1 & x has n[1 by a s]ies ( decisions1 adopt$ ! rule 4 4 4 :i* limits ! illegality ( adoption to cases :]e !y involve ! commission ( an (f5ce "u ! ,crim9al ,code4 ,?is1 z we h said1 makes x entirely impossible to save ! *ild ?r\gh ! law be=e h] tra9+ is complete2 & aft] x is complete x is too late to save h]4 ,tra9 a *ild f infancy to look ^u a c]ta9 l9e ( life z ! "o & only l9e = h]1 make ! prospect attractive1 & surr\nd h] ) e possible unholy influ5ce2 9 %ort1 b5d ! twig & keep x b5t = ! great] "p ( sixte5 ye>s1 or ev5 only six--is !re mu* room = d\bt z to h[ x w gr[8 ,an heir to ! prop]ty may be requir$2 b ) ! facts ( life be=e u1 c we be cont5t to all[ ! adoption ( a *ild by a ,temple woman to be s legalis$ t ev5 if x c be prov$ to a moral c]ta9ty t h] int5tion is to cont9ue ! succession1 no?+ c be done8 ,!n z to ! gu>dian%ip3 aga9 we d n want to ask too mu*1 b surely if x c be %[n t no "o else has mov$ to save ! *ild 7:i* argues t no "o else has c>$ mu* ab\t h] salvation7 we %\ld n be disqualifi$ = gu>dian%ip on ! sole gr\nd t we are n relat$8 ,9 su* a case ! relatives are ! la/ p ) :om %e w\ld be safe4 ,an ord] may g =? f t nebul\s & di/ant ,imp]sonality1 ! ,briti% ,gov]nm5t1 to ! effect t a c]ta9 *ild is n to be d$icat$ to gods dur+ h] m9ority4 ,b f> away 9 _! villages ! p smile at a simplicity :i* c imag9e t comm&s c ev5tually affect purposes4 ,!y may delay ! fulfilm5t ( su* purpose2 b ,india c af=d to wait4 ,we w\ld h ! law s am5d$1 t :oev] has be5 9 e>ne/ en\gh ab\t ! matt] to try to save ! *ild f de/ruction1 %\ld be giv5 ! "r to protect h]1 if 9 spite ( ! odds aga9/ him he has hone/ly f\ght ?r\gh a case & won4 ,is x n a sad ?+1 writes ! ,indian b>ri/]--we quote 8 words because !y seem to u wor?y ( notice at home--t a ,*ri/ian ,gov]nm5t is unable to legislate to save ! *ildr5 ( ,temple wom58 ,i am sorry my op9ion has made y sad4 ,giv+ my op9ion z a lawy]1 ,i c\ld n take an optimi/ic view ( ! matt]4 ,! law z x /&s at pres5t is aga9/ re=m 9 matt]s ( ?is k9d4 ,ev5 %\ld a good judge take a /rong view ( ! matt]1 ! ,high ,c\rt w /ick to ! v lett] ( ! law4 ,s t1 z ?+s are1 x comes to ?is3 ,we mu/ /& aside & wat* ! cup ( poison be+ prep>$--s op5ly prep>$ t ev]yone kn[s = :i* *ild x is be+ mix$4 ,we mu/ /& & wait & d no?+4 ,we mu/ see ! little girl l$ up to ! cup & p]suad$ to ta/e x4 ,we mu/ wat* h] gradually gr[+ to l x1 = x is flav\r$ & sweet4 ,we mu/ n beckon to h] be=e %e has drunk ( x & say1 ,come to u & we w tell y :at is 9 t cup1 & keep y safely f ^? :o w\ld make y dr9k x2 = any attempt to induce ! *ild to come to y1 or any assi/ance giv5 to help h] to escape to y1 w\ld r5d] y liable to prosecution = kidnapp+--a crim9al (f5ce "u ! ,p5al ,code4 ,any "o ( u w\ld gladly g to prison if x w\ld save ! *ild2 b ! tr\ble is1 x w\ld n3 = ! law c\ld only return h] to h] lawful gu>dians f ^: hold we unlawfully deta*$ h]4 ,we1 n !y1 w\ld be 9 ! wrong2 !y did no?+ unlawful 9 only prep>+ ! cup4 ,does someone say t we put ! case unfairly--t ! law does n =bid u to w>n ! *ild1 x only =bids u to snat* h] away :5 ! cup is m]ely be+ (f]$ h]8 ,b rememb]1 9 our "p ( ,india at lea/1 ^! cups are n giv5 9 public4 ,! prep>ation is public en\gh1 ! b>e ta/+ is public too2 b ! cup 9 its fulness is giv5 9 private1 & once giv51 ! poison works ) /eal?y b />tl+ rapidity4 ,w>n ! *ild be=e %e has drunk ( x1 & %e does n und]/& y4 ,w>n h] aft] %e has drunk1 & ! poison holds h] f he$+4 ,besides1 to be v practical1 :at is ! use ( w>n+ if we may only w>n8 ,suppose our "o isolat$ ^w weighs ) ! *ild aga9/ ! ^w ( "m or adopt$ "m1 & all :o /& = home to h]2 suppose %e says 7%e w\ld v r>ely h ! c\rage = any su* proposal1 b suppose %e does say x73 ,may ,i come to y8 & w y %[ me ! way1 = x is su* a long way & ,i d n "k h[ to f9d x8 ,i %\ld be s fright5$1 alone 9 ! night 7! only "t escape w\ld be possible71 = ,i "k !y w\ld run aft] me1 & !y c run fa/] ?an ,i6 ,:at may we say to h]8 ,:at may ,i say to ! ,h>ebell suppos+ %e asks me ?is "q8 ,%e is only six1 & !re are six long miles ov] brok5 c\ntry betwe5 h] home & ours4 ,we c\ld n f9d x ourselves 9 ! d>k4 ,b suppos+ %e d>$ x all1 & an angel 7 s5t to guide h]1 h we any "r to protect h]8 ,none :atev]4 ,if !re are p>5ts1 or a p>5t1 !y or %e h ! "r ( p>5tage2 if an adopt$ "m1 ! "r ( adoption4,f ,we "k t ! law is fram$ to protect ! good1 & ! rights ( p>5tage _c be too c>efully gu>d$2 b to "o :o has n a legal m9d1 b only sees a little girl 9 dang] ( h] life1 & has to /& ) h&s ti$ by a law int5d$ to deal ) totally diff]5t matt]s1 x seems /range t ?+s %\ld be s4 ,?is is n ! mom5t 7if ev] !re is su* a mom5t7 to *oose1 = delib]ate lawlessness2 b !re are times :5 ! temptation is /rong to break ! law 9 ! hope t1 once brok51 x may be am5d$4 ,only ^? :o h _h to g ?r\gh x "k :at x is to /& & see t cup ( poison be+ prep>$ = an unsuspici\s *ild4 ,! la/ s5t5ce 9 ! b>ri/]'s lett] beg9s ) ,i despair4 ,! s5t5ce is too pung5t 9 its outspok5 c&\r to copy into a book :i* may come back to ,india3 ,i despair3 !n unto ,!e we turn1 ,o ,"l our ,god2 = n[1 ,"l1 :at is our hope8 truly our hope is ev5 9 ,!e3 oh1 help u aga9/ ! enemy2 = va9 is ! help ( man4 ,ha? ,god =gott5 to be graci\s8 ,w ! ,"l abs5t ,himself = ev]8 ,o ,god1 :]e=e art ,?\ abs5t f u = s long8 ,look ^u ! ,cov5ant1 = all ! e>? is full ( d>kness & cruel habitations4 ,surely ,?\ ha/ se5 x1 = ,?\ beholde/ ungodl9ess & wrong4 ,! wick$ boa/e? ( 8 he>t's desire4 ,he sitte? 9 ! lurk+-places ( ! villages3 9 ! secret places do? he murd] ! innoc5t4 ,he sai? 9 8 he>t1 ,god ha? =gott53 ,he hide? ,8 face2 ,he w nev] see x4 ,arise1 ,o ,"l ,god1 lift up ,?9e h&6 ,up1 ,"l1 disappo9t him1 & ca/ him d[n2 deliv] ! *ildr56 ,%[ ,?y m>vell\s lov+k9dness1 ,?\ t art ! ,savi\r ( !m :i* put _! tru/ 9 ,!e1 f su* z resi/ ,?y "r h&4 ,?y voice is mighty 9 op]ation3 ! voice ( ! ,"l is a glori\s voice4 ,we wait = ,?y lov+k9dness1 ,o ,god3 be m]ciful unto ! *ildr53 ,o ,god1 be m]ciful unto ! *ildr51 = our s\l tru/e? 9 ,!e1 & we call unto ! ,mo/ ,high ,god1 ev5 unto ! ,god t %all p]=m ! cause :i* we h 9 h&4 ,= ,?\ ha/ look$ d[n f ,?y sanctu>y2 out ( heav5 did ! ,"l behold ! e>?1 t ,he might he> ! m\rn+s ( su* z are 9 captivity1 & deliv] ! *ildr5 appo9t$ to dea?4 ,arise1 ,o ,god1 ma9ta9 ,?9e own cause6 ,our hope is 9 ,!e1 ,:o helpe? !m to "r t suff] wrong4 ,! ,"l loose? ! prison]s4 ,god is unto u a ,god ( deliv]ances4 ,p[] belonge? unto ,!e4 ,our s\l hange? ^u ,!e3 ,?\ %alt %[ u wond]ful ?+s 9 ,?y righte\sness1 ,o ,god ( our salvation1 ,?\ t art ! hope ( all ! ends ( ! e>?4 ,& all m5 t see x %all say1 ,?is ha? ,god done2 = !y %all p]ceive t x is ,8 "w4 ,he %all deliv] ! *ildr5's s\ls f falsehood & wrong2 = ,god is our ,k+ ( old2 ! help t is done ^u e>? ,he doe? x ,himself4 ,sure ,i am1 ! ,"l w av5ge ! poor1 & ma9ta9 ! cause ( ! helpless4 ,:y art ?\ s heavy1 ,o my s\l1 & :y art ?\ disquiet$ )9 me8 ,oh1 put ?y tru/ 9 ,god2 = ,i w yet praise ,him :i* is ! help ( my c\nt5ance & my ,god6 ,are !re any pray]s l ! old psalms 9 _! int5se s9c]ity8 ,9 ! times :5 our he>t is w\nd$ )9 u we turn to ^! anci5t human cries1 & we f9d :at we want 9 !m4 ,let u pray = ! *ildr5 ( ?is g5]ation be+ tra9$ n[ to cont9ue ! succession1 :om no?+ less ?an a ,div9e int]position c save4 ,! hunt]s on ^! m\nta9s dig pits to ensn>e ! poor wild bea/s1 & !y cov] !m w>ily ) leaves & grass3 ?is s5t5ce ab\t ! succession is j su* a pit1 ) words = leaves & grass4 ,let u pray = miracles to happ5 :]e individual *ildr5 are conc]n$1 t ! little feet 9 _! ignorance may be h9d]$ f runn+ across ^? pits1 = ! fall is into miry clay1 & ! sides ( ! pit are slipp]y & v /eep4 ,m & m z we g on1 & le>n our utt] inability to move a s+le pebble by ourselves1 & ! mighty p[] ( ,god to upturn m\nta9s ) a t\*1 we realise h[ inf9itely important x is to "k h[ to pray4 ,!re is ! re/ful pray] ( committal to :i* ! imm$iate answ] is peace4 ,we c\ld n live )\t ?is sort ( pray]2 we %\ld be cru%$ & ov]borne1 & give up brok5-he>t$ if x 7 n = t peace4 ,b ! ,apo/le speaks ( ano!r pray] t is wre/le1 conflict1 agony4 ,& if ^! little *ildr5 are to be deliv]$ & protect$ aft] _! deliv]ance1 & tra9$ t if ! ,"l t>ry & life's fi]ce battle has to be f\ght--& = !m x may be v fi]ce--all t w be attempt$ aga9/ !m %all fall h>mless at _! feet l arr[s turn$ to fea!r-d[n2 !n "s ( u mu/ be /rong to meet ! p[]s t w combat e in* ( ! field ) u1 & "s ( u mu/ le>n deep] ?+s ?an we "k yet ab\t ! solemn secret ( prevail+ pray]4 ,,footnote3 ,f ,to-day 7,febru>y #af1 #aiab7 z ,i g ?r\gh pro(s ( ! second edition1 ,i he> by po/ ( a "y girl 9 a di/ant city :o lately escap$ to a mission>y1 & ask$ = :at he c\ld n give h]--protection4 ,%e _h to return to h] own home4 ,9 h] despair1 %e dr[n$ h]self4 ,,*apt] ,,xxxv ,:at if %e misses h] ,*ance8 ,:o w\ld be plant$ *oose? n ! soil ,or "h or !re1 4 4 4 ,"l ev5 s ,i ask "o pray]1 ,! :i* if x be grant$ ,x skills n :]e ,?\ plante/ me1 only ,i w\ld be plant$4 ,t4 ,e4 ,,br[n4 ,,two pictures ( two ev5+s rise z ,i write4 ,"o is ( an ,engli% fireside 9 a c\ntry h\se4 ,! lamps h be5 light$1 & ! curta9s drawn4 ,! air is full ( ! undef9$ sc5t ( *rysan!mums1 & ! /rong] sweetness ( hyac9?s comes f a /& 9 ! w9d[4 ,curl$ up 9 a roomy arm-*air by ! fire sits a girl ) a kitt5 asleep on h] lap4 ,%e is read+ a mission>y book4 ,! o!r ?is3 a :ite c>v$ cupola 9 ! c5tre ( a piece ( wat] enclos$ by :ite walls4 ,p are sitt+ on ! walls & press+ close ab\t !m 9 _! ?\s&s4 ,a gorge\s b>ge is float+ sl[ly r\nd ! %r9e4 ,!re is v little moon1 b ! :ole place is alight2 sometimes ! wat] is ablaze ) ruby & amb]2 ?is fades1 & a weird blue-gre5 %imm]s across ! b>ge1 & electric lamps at ! corn]s ( ! squ>e l5d brilliancy to ! sc5e4 ,! b>ge is cov]$ ) crimson trapp+s1 & hundr$s ( wrea?s ( :ite ole&] hang curta9-wise r\nd :at is )9--! god & goddess deck$ ) jewels & smo!r$ 9 fl[]s4 ,r\nd & r\nd ! b>ge is pol$1 & 9 ! col\r$ light all t is gaudy & tawdry is ton$1 & becomes only ori5tal & impressive2 & ! :ite %r9e 9 ! c5tre reflect$ 9 ! calm col\r$ wat] appe>s 9 its alt]nat+ dimness1 & %9+ m l a fairy creation ?an common h&iwork4 ,we :o 7 at ! fe/ival1 ?ree ( u lad5 ) packets ( m>k$ ,gospels1 met sometimes z we w&]$ ab\t unobs]v$1 los+ ourselves 9 ! cr[d1 t we might ! m quietly cont9ue t = :i* we 7 !re2 & 9 "o su* *ance meet+ we spoke ( ! ,engli% girl by ! fireside1 & long$ to %[ h] :at we saw2 & to %[ x ) su* e>ne/ness t %e w\ld be drawn to inquire :]e h] ,ma/] _h mo/ ne$ ( h]4 ,b no e>ne/ness ( writ+ c d mu* aft] all4 ,x is true ! eye affects ! he>t1 & we w\ld %[ :at we h se5 9 ! hope t ev5 ! second-h& sight might d some?+2 b words are clumsy1 & _c discov] to ano!r t poignant ?+ ! eye has p[] to transmit to ! he>t4 ,& x is well t x is s1 = some?+ /rong] & m consum+ ?an human emotion c ev] be mu/ op]ate ^u ! he>t if ! life is to be mov$ to purpose4 ,a mov+ /ory is wor? little if x only moves ! feel+s4 ,h[ f> out ( its selfi% track does x move ! life into ways ( sacrifice8 ,t is ! "q t matt]s4 ,:at if x co/8 ,did n ,calv>y co/8 ,away ) ! cold1 calculat+ love t talks to itself ab\t co/6 ,god give u a pure passion ( love t kn[s no?+ ( hesitation & grudg+1 & measur+1 no?+ ( compromise6 ,:at if x seem impossible to face all t surr5d] may mean8 ,is !re n provision = ! impossible8 ,9 ! ,old ,te/am5t we f9d t 9 almo/ e case ( p be+ clo!d ) ! ,_s x 0 = ?+s :i* 7 impossible to !m4 ,to be fill$ ) ! ,_s means read9ess = ,him to take u out ( our pres5t sph]e & put u any:]e away f our own *oice into ,8 *oice = u4 ,^! words hold a message alike = u z we meet & pass 9 t ,indian cr[d1 & = ! girl by ! fireside at home :o wants to "k h] ,"l's w t %e may d x1 & ^: he>t's pray] is3 ,may ,?y grace1 ,o ,"l1 make t possible to me :i* is impossible by nature4 ,let u h done ) limitations1 let u be simply s9c]e4 ,h[ a%am$ we %all be by & by ( our ins9c]ities3-- ,?y v[s are on me1 oh to s]ve ,!e truly1 ,pants1 pants my s\l to p]fectly obey6 ,burn1 burn1 ,o ,fire1 ,o ,w9d1 n[ w9n[ ?r\ghly6 ,con/ra91 inspire to foll[ all ! way6 ,oh t 9 me ,?\1 my ,"l1 may see ,( ! travail ( ,?y s\l1 ,& be satisfi$4 ,we _h only a few h\rs to sp5d 9 ! t[n ( ! ,float+ ,fe/ival2 & be+ anxi\s to discov] h[ ?+s 7 among ! ,temple community1 ,i sp5t ! fir/ h\r 9 _! qu>t]1 a block ( sub/antial build+s ea* 9 its own comp\nd1 ne> ! ,temple4 ,i saw ! h\se f :i* two ( our de>e/ *ildr5 came1 deliv]$ by a miracle2 x look$ l a =tress ) its wall all r\nd1 & up/airs balcony b>r$ by a trellis4 ,! /reet door 0 lock$ z ! wom5 7 at ! ,fe/ival4 ,9 ano!r ( less dignifi$ appe>ance ,i saw a pretty woman ( ab\t tw5ty1 dress$ 9 pale blue & gold1 evid5tly j ready to g out4 ,"o ( ^? ab&on$ be+s ^: function x is to secure little *ildr5 to cont9ue ! succession 0 9 ! h\se1 & s no?+ c\ld be attempt$ b ! mo/ casual conv]sation4 ,all ! o!r h\ses 9 ! block 7 lock$ z ! wom5 7 out2 b ,i saw a new h\se outside1 built 9 be/ ,indian /yle1 & f9ely f9i%$4 ,x _h be5 built =1 & giv5 z a free gift1 to a not$ ,temple woman4 ,^! h\ses w\ld op51 9 ! mission>y s5se ( ! ^w1 b n 9 an aft]noon4 ,x w\ld take "t & c>eful endeav\r to w9 an entrance4 ,su* a work] w\ld ne$ to be "o :om no disappo9tm5t c\ld disc\rage1 a woman to :om ! ^w _h be5 spok51 ,g1 love1 4 4 4 accord+ to ! love ( ! ,"l4 ,:5 w su* a work] come8 ,z ,i left ! ,temple qu>t]1 ,i met my two companions :o _h be5 at "w else:]e1 & we walk$ toge!r to ! place ( fe/ival4 ,tripp+ gaily along 9 front 0 a little maid ) fl[]s 9 h] hair4 ,x 0 easy to "k :o %e 01 !re 0 some?+ 9 ! v /ep t m>k$ ! light-foot$ ,temple *ild4 ,poor little all-unconsci\s illu/ration ( ,india's ne$ ( ,god6 ,lat] on we saw ! same illu/ration aga91 light$ up l a great transp>5cy1 ! focus = a ?\s& eyes4 ,= on ! das ( ! b>ge1 9 ! place ( hon\r ne>e/ ! idols1 /ood ?ree wom5 & a *ild4 ,! wom5 7 swa!d 9 fold ^u fold ( ri* violet silk1 spr9kl$ all ov] ) t9sel & gold2 !y 7 cr[n$ ) :ite fl[]s1 wrea!d r\nd a gold5 ornam5t l a full moon set 9 _! d>k hair2 & ! effect ( ! :ole1 se5 9 ! lum9\s flu% ( col\r ?r[n ^u !m f ! %ore1 0 z if ! night sky sp>kl+ ) />s _h come d[n & rob$ !m :]e !y /ood4 ,!n :5 x pal$1 & %eet-lightn+ play$1 z x seem$1 across wat] & b>ge & %r9e1 ! effect 0 :olly my/]i\s4 ,! ?ree sway+ =ms--= !y sway$ keep+ "t to ! music t nev] ceas$--resembl$ "o's idea ( goddesses r ?an famili> wom5k9d4 ,to ! ,indian m9d x 0 beautiful1 bewild]+ly beautiful2 & ! simple c\ntry-folk ar\nd drew deep brea?s ( admiration z !y pass$4 ,! little girl look$ m human4 ,%e too 0 9 violet silk & spangles & gold1 & h] little head 0 wrea!d ) fl[]s4 ,x may h be5 h] fir/ ,float+ ,fe/ival1 = %e gaz$ ab\t h] ) eyes full ( guileless wond]1 & ! woman beside :om %e /ood laid a light1 protect+ h& ^u h] %\ld]4 ,t little *ild6 ,h[ ! sight ( h] held u 9 pity z ! b>ge sail$ sl[ly r\nd4 ,%e 0 s ne> to u at times t we c\ld almo/ h t\*$ h] :5 ! b>ge came ne> ! wall2 & yet %e 0 utt]ly remote1 miles ( space might h la9 betwe52 x 0 z if we & %e belong$ to diff]5t planets4 ,& yet our little ones :o might h be5 z %e1 7 s close--we c\ld almo/ feel _! lov+ little arms r\nd our necks at t mom5t--?is *ild1 h[ f> away %e 06 ,_h "o ( u set foot on ! place :]e %e /ood1 ! fri5dly ?\s&s ab\t u w\ld h *ang$ 9 a second into indignant furies1 & s long z ! memory ( su* impiety rema9$ no :ite face w\ld h be5 welcome at ! ,float+ ,fe/ival4 ,we /ood by ! wall a:ile & wat*$2 ! sorr[ ( x all sank into u4 ,!re 9 ! holie/ place ( all1 accord+ to _! ?9k+1 close to ! emblems ( deity1 !y _h set ?is griev\s p]v]sion ( ! holy & ! pure4 ,"r on ! topmo/ p9nacle ( ev]y?+ kn[n z religi\s !re !y _h en?ron$ x1 & rob$ x 9 />light & cr[n$ x z que5s are cr[n$4 ,oh1 wor%ip ! ,"l 9 ! beauty ( hol9ess6 ,"o ?+ h ,i desir$ ( ! ,"l 4 4 4 to behold ! fair beauty ( ! ,"l--su* words op5 *asms ( contra/4 ,god pity !m2 l ^? ( old1 !y "k n :at !y d4 ,we came away1 our books all sold & our /r5g? ( voice sp5t out1 = ev]y:]e p _h li/5$2 & z we came home1 /rong ?anksgiv+ fill$ our he>ts1 ?anks & praise unspeakable = ! little lives safe 9 our nurs]y1 = ! two especially :o b = ,god's int]position might h be5 on t b>ge--& oh1 f ! gr\nd ( our he>t we 7 grateful t ,he _h n let u miss ,8 w conc]n+ ^! little *ildr54 ,we ?\ght ( ^? special two ) _! de> little innoc5t ways4 ,we c\ld n ?9k ( !m on ! b>ge4 ,we c\ld n be> to ?9k ( x--aga9 & aga9 we ?ank$ ,god1 ) humble ador+ ?anksgiv+1 t ,he kept u f miss+ our *ance4 ,b ! m]e ?9k+ ( t intol]able ?\ght br\ght u back ^u ano!r ?\ght4 ,:at ( t girl by ! fireside8 ,:at if %e misses h] *ance8 ,we "k1 = lett]s confess x1 t _m a life has miss$ its *ance4 ,:at ( ! woman1 /rong & ke51 ) p5t-up en]gies wait+ = %e kn[s n :at8 ,:at ( ! girl by ! fireside cru%+ d[n ! s5se ( an ,"u-call t w n let h] re/8 ,! "w to :i* t ,call w\ld lead h] w n be any?+ great3 x w only mean little humble ev]yday do+s :]ev] %e is s5t4 ,b if ! ,call is a true ,call f heav51 x w *ange to a song z %e obeys2 & ?r\gh all ! aft]w>d ( life1 ?r\gh all ! lonel9ess t may come1 ?r\gh all ! disillusions :5 h] dreams ( fair romance :i* no day br+s slip away f h]--& ! usual & commonplace are all ab\t h]--!n & = ev] t song ( ! ,"l w s+ itself ?r\gh ! quiet places ( h] s\l1 & %e w be sure--) ! sur5ess t is j pure peace--t %e is :]e h] ,ma/] meant h] to be4 ,n t we w\ld write z if ob$i5ce mu/ always mean s]vice 9 ! =eign field4 ,we "k x is n s3 we "k x may be q ! opposite2 b %all we n be =giv5 if we sometimes wond] h[ x is t ) s mu* e>ne/ ,*ur* life at home1 ) s _m evangeli/ic campaigns1 & conv5tions1 !re is s poor an output s f> z ^! l&s abroad are conc]n$8 ,c x be t s _m are meant to /ay at home8 ,we w\ld nev] urge any individual fri5d to come1 f> less w\ld we plead = numb]s1 h[ev] great ! ne$2 we w\ld only say ?is3 ,w ! girl by ! fireside1 if su* a "o reads ?is book1 lay ! book aside1 & sp5d an h\r alone ) h] ,"l8 ,w %e1 if %e is 9 d\bt ab\t ,8 w1 wait ^u ,him to %[ x to h]8 ,w %e ask ,him to fit h] to obey8 ,& ?is ,i wi% to d1 ?is ,i desire2 :atsoev] is want+ 9 me1 d ,?\1 ,i besee* ,!e1 v\*safe to supply4 ,=give if we seem to intrude ^u holy gr\nd1 b sometimes we see 9 imag9ation "s great ga!r+ ( ,god's p1 & we he> !m s++ hymns2 & sometimes ! beautiful words *ange into o!rs n beautiful1 b only insi/5t3-- ,! ,"l our ,god ar\se u6 ,we are sleep+1 ,dream+ we wake1 :ile ?r\gh ! heavy night ,h>dly p]ceiv$1 ! foe moves on un*all5g$1 ,glad ( ! dream t do? delay ! fight4 ,o ,*ri/ our ,capta91 lead u out to battle6 ,%ame on ! slo? ( soldi]s ( ! light6 99 99 99 99 99 ,good ,%eph]d1 ,jesus1 pitiful & t5d]1 ,to :om ! lea/ ( /ray+ lambs is kn[n1 ,grant u ,?y love t we>ie? n1 nor faile?2 ,grant u to seek ,?y wayw>d %eep t roam ,f> on ! fell1 until we f9d & fold !m ,safe 9 ! love ( ,!e1 _! own true home4 ,,*apt] ,,xxxvi ,?y ,sweet ,orig9al ,joy ,beacons ( hope1 ye appe>6 ,languor is n 9 y\r he>t1 ,weakness is n 9 y\r ^w1 ,we>9ess n on y\r br[4 ,,)9 ! la/ few mon?s a fri5d1 a lov] ( books1 s5t me ,! ,trial & ,dea? ( ,socrates1 translat$ into ,engli% by ,f4 ,j4 ,*ur*4 ,op5+ x = ! fir/ "t1 ,i came ^u ?is passage3-- ,socrates3 ,does a man :o is 9 tra9+1 & :o is 9 e>ne/ ab\t x1 att5d to ! praise & blame ( all m51 or ( ! "o man :o is doctor or tra9]8 ,crito3 ,he att5ds only to ! op9ion ( ! "o man4 ,socrates3 ,!n he ought to fe> ! blame & welcome ! praise ( ! "o man1 n ! _m8 ,crito3 ,cle>ly4 ,& ,socrates sums ! argum5t ?us3 ,to be brief2 is x n ! same 9 ev]y?+8 ,surely ! wise man spoke ! tru?3 x is ! same 9 ev]y?+4 ,! "o ?+ t matt]s is ! op9ion ( ! ,"o4 ,if ,he is satisfi$1 all is well4 ,if ,he is dissatisfi$1 ! comm5dation ( ! _m is z fro?4 ,bless$ are ! s+le-he>t$1 = !y %all h mu* peace4 ,b ,nature is full ( pictures ( bright companion%ip 9 s]vice2 ! v />s %9e 9 con/ellations4 ,?is book ( ! skies has be5 op5+ up to u ( late4 ,:o1 to :om ! exp]i5ce is new1 w =get ! fir/ ev5+s sp5t ) ev5 a small telescope1 b p[]ful en\gh to di/+ui% d\ble />s & unveil nebul8 ,y look & see a s+le po9t ( light1 & y look aga9 & tw9 suns float l globes ( fire on a midnight sea2 & sometimes "o fla%es gold5 yell[ & ! o!r blue1 ea* ! complem5t ( ! o!r1 l two p]fectly responsive fri5ds4 ,y look & see a little lonely cl\d1 a brea? ( transp>5t mi/2 y look & see spaces spr9kl$ ) diamond du/1 or some?+ ev5 m awesome1 rea*es ( radiance t seem to lie on ! bord]l& ( ,et]nity4 ,& ! %9+ glory l+]s & lights up ! common day1 = ! /ory ( ! sky is ! /ory ( life4 ,f> 0 ! ,call1 & f>!r z ,i foll[$ ,grew !re a sil5ce r\nd my ,"l & me-- is = ev] ! inn] /ory1 z = ev] ! />s mu/ move alone1 h[ev] close !y are set 9 con/ellations or /rewn 9 clu/]s2 b 9 ano!r s5se is x n true t !re is ! joy ( companion%ip & ! pure inspiration ( comrade%ip8 ,god fits tw9 s\ls toge!r l tw9 suns2 & sometimes1 ) delicate ?\ght = ev5 ! s5sitive pleasure ( col\r1 x is z if ,he arrang$ !m s t ! gold & ! blue coalesce4 ,& we ?9k ( ! places :i* 7 once blank1 m]e mi/y no?+s to u4 ,!y sp>kle n[ ) fri5ds4 ,"s ( !m are famili> fri5ds kn[n ?r\gh ! we> & te> ( life2 "s we %all nev] see till we meet above ! />s4 ,& !re ! nebula speaks its ^w ( my/]y beyond my/]y1 b all illum9at$ by ! light f ! o!r side4 ,9 ! "w ( :i* ^! *apt]s h told !re has be5 ! wond]ful com=t ( sympa?y & help f fell[-mission>ies ( our own & si/] missions2 &1 z all :o h read1 und]/&1 no?+ c\ld h be5 done )\t ! loyal co-op]ation ( our ,indian fell[-work]s ^: t5d]ness & pati5ce c nev] be describ$4 ,we ?9k ( ! fri5ds 9 ! mission h\ses along ! r\te ( our long j\rney+s2 we rememb] h[ no h\r 0 too inconv5i5t to receive u & our tir$ baby travell]s2 we ?9k ( ^? :o 9 we>9ess & pa9fulness h s\ght = ! little *ildr52 & we ?9k ( ^? :o h made ! "w possible by be+ ,god's good ,rav5s to u4 ,we ?9k ( !m all1 & we wi% _! names c\ld be writt5 on ! cov] ( ?is book in/ead ( ! "n lea/ wor?y to be !re4 ,& n[ late/ & ne>e/ com=t & bless+1 !re are ! two new ,sitties1 ^: fir/ day ) u made !m "o ( u4 ,:at %all ,i r5d] unto ! ,"l = all ,8 b5efits t[>ds me8 ,! future is full ( problems4 ,ev5 n[ 9 ^! ,nurs]y days que/ions are ask$ t are m easily ask$ ?an answ]$4 ,we %\ld be afraid if we look$ too f> ahead1 s we d n look4 ,we sp5d our /r5g? on ! day's "w1 ! ne>e/ next ?+ to our h&s4 ,b we w\ld be bl9d & he$less if we made no provision = ! future4 ,we want to ga!r & lay up 9 /ore aga9/ t difficult "t 7%\ld x ev] come7 a b& ( fri5ds = ! *ildr51 :o w /& by !m 9 pray]4 ,!re has be5 ano!r compell+ influ5ce4 ,we recognise some?+ 9 ! ,temple-*ildr5 "q :i* t\*es a wid] issue ?an ! p]sonal or mission>y4 ,^? :o h read ,que5 ,victoria's ,lett]s mu/ h become consci\s ( a c]ta9 enl>gem5t4 ,que/ions become great or dw9dle into no?+ness accord+ z !y affect ! hon\r & ! good ( ! ,empire4 ,we f9d ourselves in/9ctively ?9k+ ,imp]ially1 reg>d+ ?+s f ! ,?rone side--f above in/ead ( f bel[4 ,we fe> exagg]at$ language4 ,we w\ld n exagg]ate ! importance ( ^! little *ildr5 or _! cause4 ,we h said t we realise1 z we did n :5 fir/ ?is "w began1 h[ v delicate & difficult a matt] x w\ld be = ,gov]nm5t to take any really effective action1 & less ?an effective action is useless4 ,we recognise ! value ( our pl$ge ( neutrality 9 religi\s matt]s1 & we "k :at might happ5 if ,gov]nm5t mov$ 9 a l9e :i* to ,india might appe> to be contr>y to ! _s ( t pl$ge4 ,x w\ld be f> bett] if ,india h]self l$ ! way & decl>$1 z ,engl& decl>$ :5 %e pass$ ! ,indu/rial ,s*ools ,am5dm5t ,act ( #ahhj1 t %e w n h h] little *ildr5 demoralis$ 9 ei!r ,temple h\ses recognis$ z su*1 or 9 any simil> h\ses1 su* z ^? :i* ab\nd 9 areas :]e ! ,temple *ild nom9ally is non-exi/5t4 ,b mu/ we wait till ,india leads ! way8 ,scatt]$ all ov] ! l& !re are m5 :o are aga9/ ?is iniquity1 & w\ld surely be 9 fav\r ( su* legislation z w\ld make = its de/ruction4 ,b few w\ld ass]t t ! p z a :ole are ev5 ne>ly ready4 ,a great wave ( ! ,p[] ( ,god1 a great national turn+ t[>ds ,him1 w\ld1 we "k1 sweep ! iniquity out ( ! l& z ! wat]s ( ! ,alpheus swept ! /able-valley clean1 9 ! old classic /ory4 ,oh = su* a sudd5 fl[ ( ! ,riv] ( ,god1 :i* is full ( wat]6 ,b mu/ we wait until x comes8 ,did we wait until ,india h]self ask$ = ! abolition ( suttee8 ,surely :at is ne$$ is su* legislation z has be5 f\nd necess>y at home1 :i* emp[]s ! magi/rate to remove a *ild f a dang]\s h\se1 & deprives p>5ts ( all p>5tal rights :o are f\nd responsible = its be+ =c$ into wrong4 ,surely su* action w\ld be ,imp]ially "r2 & c a ?+ "r 9 itself & c>ri$ out ) a wise e>ne/ness1 ev] ev5tually d h>m8 ,mu/ x n d good 9 ! end1 h[ev] agitat+ ! imm$iate result may appe>8 ,surely ! "o calm answ]1 ,x is ,"r1 w ev5tually sil5ce all prote/ & /ill all turbul5ce6 ,su* a law1 x is well to und]/& at ! outset1 w always be inf9itely m difficult to en=ce 9 ,india ?an 9 ,engl&1 because ( ! imm5sely great] difficulty "h 9 gett+ true evid5ce2 & because--unless t ,riv] ( ,god fl[ ?r\gh ! l&--!re w be = _m a ye> ! =ce ( public op9ion z a :ole aga9/ u1 or if n actively aga9/1 !n in]t & valueless4 ,ca/e feel+ w come 9 & %ield & circumv5t & get beh9d ! law4 ,! ,indian s5sitiv5ess conc]n+ ,cu/om w be all awake & t+l+ ) a hidd5 b int5se vitality2 & ?is1 :i* is inevitable because natural1 w h to be tak5 into acc\nt 9 e attempt made to en=ce ! law4 ,! :ole situation bri/les ) difficulties2 b are difficulties an argum5t = do+ no?+8 ,:oev] buys hires or o!rwise obta9s possession (1 :oev] sells lets to hire or o!rwise disposes ( any m9or "u sixte5 ) ! int5t t su* m9or %all be employ$ or us$ = 4 4 4 any unlawful purpose or kn[+ x likely t su* m9or w be employ$ or us$ = any su* purpose %all be liable to imprisonm5t up to a t]m ( t5 ye>s & is also liable to a f9e4 ,b :]e x appe>$ t c]ta9 m9or girls 7 be+ taught s++ & danc+ & 7 be+ made to accompany _! gr&mo!r & ,temple woman to ! ,temple ) a view to qualify !m z ,temple wom51 x 0 held t ?is did n am\nt to a disposal ( ! m9ors )9 ! mean+ ( ! section4 ,ought ?is int]pretation ( ! ,indian ,p5al ,code to be possible8 ,! pro( ! law requires at pres5t1 pro( ( ! sale ( ! *ild or its def9ite d$ication to ! idol1 is r>ely obta9able4 ,! fact t x is be+ taught s++ & danc+ 7al?\gh x is well kn[n1 z ! b>ri/]'s lett] proves1 t among or?odox ,h9dus su* arts are nev] taught to little *ildr5 except :5 ! int5tion is bad7 is n consid]$ suffici5t evid5ce ^u :i* to base a conviction4 ,to u x seems t ! pres5ce ( ! *ild 9 su* a h\se1 or 9 any h\se ( kn[n bad "*1 is suffici5t pro( t x is 9 dang] ( ! wor/ wrong t c be inflict$ ^u a def5celess *ild--! demoralisation ( its s\l1 ! spoil+ ( its :ole future life1 be=e x has ev] _h a *ance to "k & *oose ! good4 ,illu/ration3 ,f ! ,rock1 ,dohnavur4 ,& s we write x f9ally z our solemn conviction t !re is ne$ = a law l our own ,engli% law1 & we add--& ^? :o "k ,india "k h[ true ?is s5t5ce is--su* legislation1 h[ev] c>efully fram$1 w be a delusion1 a bl9d1 a dead lett]1 unless m5 ( no ord9>y insight & c\rage & "* are appo9t$ to see t x is c>ri$ out4 ,god grant t ^! *apt]s1 writt5 9 weakness1 may yet d some?+ t[>ds mov+ ! ,*ur* to su* pray] t ! answ] w be1 z once be=e1 t an angel w be s5t to op5 ! doors ( ! prison-h\se6 ,! frontispiece %[s ! rock to :i* we g sometimes :5 we feel ! ne$ ( a climb & a bl[4 ,x is associat$ 9 our m9ds ) a /ory3--,betwe5 ! passages by :i* ,jona?an s\ght to g ov] unto ! ,phili/9es' g>rison !re 0 a %>p rock on ! "o side & a %>p rock on ! o!r side4 4 4 4 ,& ,jona?an said to ! "y man t b>e 8 arm\r3 ',come & let u g ov] unto ! g>rison ( ^! uncircumcis$3 x may be t ! ,"l w "w = u3 = !re is no re/ra9t to ! ,"l to save by _m or by few4' ,& 8 arm\r-be>] said unto him3 ',d all t is 9 ?9e he>t3 turn !e1 behold ,i am ) !e accord+ to ?y he>t4' ,we h a rock to climb1 & !re is no?+ ! lea/ romantic ab\t x4 ,we %all h to climb x ^u our h&s & ^u our feet4 ,x is all grim e>ne/4 ,we make our way wrapp$ 9 glam\r to ! ,supreme ,good1 ! summit1 writes ,guido ,rey1 ! m\nta9e]1 9 ! joy ( 8 he>t4 ,b lat] x is3 ,"o precipice fell away at my feet1 & ano!r rose above me4 4 4 4 ,x 0 no place = s++4 ,fri5ds1 we %all come to su* places on ! ,matt]horn ( life4 ,z we foll[ ! ,gleam :]ev] x leads1 may we c\nt ^u ! uphold+ ( ^? = :om we h writt5--! lov]s ( little *ildr58 ,& n[1 9 conclusion1 all ,i w\ld say has already be5 s p]fectly said1 t ,i _c d bett] ?an copy f ! writ+s ( two :o f\ght a good fight & h be5 cr[n$--,miss ,ellice ,hopk9s1 brave1 s5sitive1 soldi]-s\l on ! h>de/ ( life's battlefields2 & ,george ,h]b]t1 c\rti]1 poet1 & sa9t4 ,(t5 9 t nameless disc\ragem5t1 wrote ,miss ,hopk9s1 z %e lay sl[ly dy+1 be=e unf9i%$ tasks1 unfulfill$ aims & brok5 ef=ts1 ,i h ?\ght ( h[ ! creative ,^w has fa%ion$ ! opal1 made x ( ! same /uff z des]t s&s1 m]e silica--n a cry/allis$ /one l ! diamond1 b r a /one ) a brok5 he>t1 trav]s$ by hundr$s ( small fissures :i* let 9 ! air1 ! brea?1 z ! ,_s is call$ 9 ! ,greek ( our ,te/am5t2 & ?r\gh ^? two transp>5t m$iums ( su* diff]5t d5sity x is enabl$ to refract ! light1 & reflect e lovely hue ( heav51 :ile at its he>t burns a my/]i\s spot ( fire4 ,:5 we feel1 !re=e1 z ,i h (t5 done1 no?+ b cracks & des]t du/1 we c say3 ,s ,god make? ,8 preci\s opal6 ,we w\ld nev] will+ly disguise "o fraction ( ! tru? 9 our desire to w9 sympa?y & true co-op]ation4 ,!re w be h\rs ( nameless disc\ragem5t = all :o climb ! rock4 ,= "s !re w be ! brok5 he>t4 ,& yet !re is a joy t is wor? x all a ?\s& times--well wor? x all4 ,:o t has kn[n x w d\bt x8 ,?is rea* ( wat] recalls x4 ,! palms1 z we look at !m1 seem to lift _! heads 9 solemn consci\sness ( x4 ,= ! wat]-side--:]e we /& ) ^? = :om we h travail$ 9 s\l1 :5 = ! fir/ "t !y publicly confess _! fai? 9 ,*ri/--is a sacr$ place to u4 ,illu/ration3 ,,! ,,place ,,( ,,baptism4 ,has our /ory w&]$ sometimes into sorr[ful ways8 ,to be true x has to be sorr[ful sometimes4 ,we look back to ! day ( its beg9n+1 ! day t our fir/ little ,temple *ild came & op5$ a new door to u4 ,s9ce t "t _m a bitt] /orm ,my s\l ha? felt1 e'en able to de/roy1 ,_h ! malici\s & ill-mean+ h>m ,8 sw+ & sway2 ,b /ill ,?y sweet orig9al joy ,sprung f ,?9e eye did "w )9 my s\l1 ,& surg+ griefs :5 !y grew bold control1 ,& got ! day4 ,x is true4 ,_m a bitt] /orm has come2 !re h be5 ! %ock & ! d>kness ( new k ( evil1 & grief beside :i* all o!r pa9 pales1 ! grief ( helplessness 9 ! face ( unspeakable wrong4 ,b /ill1 above & )91 & ar\nd1 l an atmosph]e1 l a f\nta91 !re has be5 some?+ bright1 ev5 t sweet orig9al joy :i* no?+ c d>k5 or qu5*4 ,if ,?y fir/ glance s p[]ful be ,a mir? b op5$ & seal$ up aga91 ,:at wond]s %all we feel :5 we %all see ,?y full-orb$ love6 ,:5 ,?\ %alt look u out ( pa91 ,& "o aspect ( ,?9e sp5d 9 delight1 ,m ?an a ?\s& worlds' disburse 9 light ,9 heav5 above6 ,& n alone1 oh1 n alone1 %all we see ,him z ,he is6 ,!re w be ! little *ildr5 too4 ,^? :o c>e to "k h[ ! ,temple ,*ildr5's "w began w f9d ! /ory 9 ,,?+s ,,z ,,!y ,,are4 ,preface by ,eug5e ,/ock2 #cbj pp4 & ,?irty-two ,illu/rations f ,photographs tak5 specially = ?is "w4 ,clo?1 #bs4 #f;d4 net 7po/ free #bs4 #aj;d47 ,also1 ,,ov]weights ,,( ,,joy4 ,preface by ,rev4 ,t4 ,walk]1 ,c4,m4,s4 ,) ,?irty-f\r ,illu/rations *iefly f ,photographs tak5 specially = ?is "w4 ,clo?1 #bs4 #f;d4 net 7po/ free #bs4 #aj;d471 ,morgan ,scott ,ld41 #ab1 ,pat]no/] ,build+s1 ,london4 ,,only ,a ,,limit$ ,,numb] ,,( ,,copies ,,rema9 ,,( ,,! ,,orig9al ,,edition ,,( ,,lotus ,,buds ,,conta9+ ,,fifty ,,photogravure ,,illu/rations4 99 99 99 99 99 ,clo? ,bo>ds1 #ads4 #f;d4 net 7po/ free1 #aes474 99 99 99 99 99 ,,! ,,mo/ ,,/rik+ ,,mission>y ,,book ,,ev] ,,publi%$4 ,h] ,maje/y ,que5 ,alex&ra graci\sly accept$ a copy4 ,! feature ( ! book is fifty photogravure illu/rations f photographs specially tak5 ( ! *ildr54 ,_m ( ^!--inde$1 all ( !m--are v *>m+4 ,"s ( !m are m]e babies1 o!rs ( l>g] gr[?1 b 9 ea* case ! photograph] has succe$$ 9 pres5t+ pictures :i* w elicit high admiration4 ,! laugh+ faces1 curly hair1 & f9e physical developm5t ( ! little ,indians1 make photographs exce$+ly attractive4 ,inde$1 we h nev] se5 a m 'tak+' s]ies ( *ildr5 ( ! ,ori5t4 4 4 4 ,! book w int]e/ n only support]s ( missions b all lov]s ( *ildr54--,! ,we/m9/] ,gazette4 ,! photogravure illu/rations--fifty 9 numb]--are p]fect z works ( art4 ,"s are pictures ( sc5]y2 mo/ are *>act]i/ic repres5tations ( ! *ildr54 ,all are full-page4--,briti% ,weekly4 4 4 4 ! beautiful little faces depict$ 9 ! photogravures :i* adorn ! volume4 ,!re are fifty ( ^! photogravures 9 ! book1 ! major portion be+ ( *ildr51 & we reg>d x z extremely improbable t m spl5did pictures are to be f\nd 9 any o!r "w4--,baby4 ,! mo/ wond]ful photographs4--,contempor>y ,review4 ,we h seldom se5 m attractive illu/rations ?an ^? 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