,transcrib]'s ,notes3 v[els ) macrons are %[n by an equals sign be=e ! v[el 9 brackets4 a ,bold is surr\nd$ by equal signs4 ,italics are %[n by und]scores4 ,illu/ration3 ,old ,india4 ,y ?9k y "k u2 y "k no?+ at all ab\t u6 & ! old eyes pe] int5tly into y\rs1 & ! old head %akes & he smiles to himself z he moves (f4 ,e bit ( ?is picture is sugge/ive3 ! clos$ door beh9d1--only a ,brahman may op5 t door2 ! my?ological c>v+1--only a ,brahman has ! "r to und]/& x2 ! ?ree-ske9 cord1--only a ,brahman may t\* x4 ,ev5 ! ragg$ old clo? is sugge/ive4 ,9 old ,india no?+ b ,ca/e c\nts = any?+1 & a reign+ ,pr9ce lately gave 8 weight 9 gold to ! ,brahmans1 z "p paym5t = c]emonies :i* enabl$ him to eat ) m5 ( ?is old man's social position4 ,look at ! m>ks on ! baby's =ehead2 !y are sugge/ive too4 ,,?+s ,,z ,,!y ,,are ,,mission ,,"w ,,9 ,,s\!rn ,,india ,,by ,,amy ,,wilson-,,c>mi*ael ,keswick ,mission>y ,c4,e4,z4,m4,s4 ,,au?or ,,( ,,f ,,sunrise ,,l&1 ,,etc4 ,,) ,,preface ,,by ,,eug5e ,,/ock ,illu/ration3 ,tamil ,text3 ,,victory ,,to ,,jesus' ,,"n6 ,,london3 ,,morgan ,,& ,,scott 7,,(fice ,,( ,! ,*ri/ian7 #ab1 ,,pat]no/] ,,build+s1 ,e4,c4 ,& may be ord]$ ( any booksell] #aije ,,fir/ ,,edition ,april #aijc ,repr9t$ ,augu/ #aijc ,janu>y #aijd ,novemb] #aijd ,janu>y #aije ,to ! ,memory ( ,my ,de> ,fri5d1 ,,eleanor ,,c>r1 ,^: la/ message to ! ,b&1 be=e h] translation on ,june #af1 #aija1 03 ,,y ,,w ,,be ,,9 ,,! ,,?ick ,,( ,,! ,,fight ,,by ,,! ,,"t ,,?is ,,rea*es ,,y1 ,illu/ration3 ,tamil text3 ,,! ,,battle ,,is ,,! ,,"l',s6 ,note ,,)9 a few weeks ( ! publication ( ,?+s z ,!y ,are1 lett]s 7 receiv$ f mission>ies work+ 9 diff]5t p>ts ( ,india1 confirm+ its tru?4 ,b "s 9 ,engl& d\bt x4 ,& s x 0 propos$ t if a f\r? edition 7 call$ =1 a few confirmatory notes1 writt5 by exp]i5c$ ,s\? ,indian mission>ies1 o!r ?an ^? ( ! di/rict describ$1 w\ld be helpful4 ,sev]al su* notes are app5d$4 ,! ,indian view ( "o ( ! *ief facts set =? 9 ! book is express$ 9 ! note writt5 by "o :o1 bett] ?an any mission>y1 & surely bett] ev5 ?an any onlook] at home1 has ! "r to be he>d 9 ?is matt]--& ! "r to be believ$4 ,& n[ at ,8 feet1 :o c use ! lea/1 we lay ?is book aga92 = to ! ,mighty ,"o1 z ! ,tamil prov]b says1 ev5 ! blade ( grass is a weapon4 ,may x be us$ = ,8 ,"n's sake1 to w9 m pray] = ,india--& all d>k l&s--! pray] t prevails4 ,,amy ,,wilson-,,c>mi*ael1 ,dohnavur1 ,t9nevelly ,di/rict1 ,s4 ,india4 ,confirmatory ,notes ,f ,rev4 ,d4 ,,d[nie1 ,d4,d41 ,am]ican ,bapti/ ,mission1 ,nizam's ,dom9ions1 ,s4 ,india4 ,i h felt = _m ye>s t we mission>ies 7 f> too prone to dwell on :at is call$ ! bright side ( mission "w4 ,t x has a bright side no "o c "q4 ,t x has a d>k side "s d "q2 b ,i = "o1 aft] ?irty ye>s ( exp]i5ce1 "k x to be j z true z ! bright side is true4 ,i h he>d ,miss ,c>mi*ael's book d5\nc$ z pessimi/ic4 ,j :at is meant by t ,i am n q sure2 b if x means t :at %e has writt5 is untrue1 !n ,i am prep>$ to say t x is ,,n pessimi/ic1 = !re is n a l9e ( x t _c be duplicat$ 9 ?is ,telugu ,mission4 ,t %e has pa9t$ a d>k picture ( ,h9du life _c be d5i$1 b1 s9ce x is e ^w true1 ,i rejoice t %e _h ! c\rage to d :at 0 s mu* ne$$1 & yet :at s _m ( u %rank f do+1 le/ x %\ld injure ! cause4 ,f ,rev4 ,t4 ,,/ew>t1 ,m4,a41 ,secret>y1 ,unit$ ,free ,*ur* ,mission1 ,madras4 ,?is book1 ,?+s z ,!y ,are1 meets a real ne$--x depicts a phase ( mission "w ( :i*1 z a rule1 v little is he>d4 ,e mission>y c tell ( cases :]e p h be5 won = ,*ri/1 & m5tion incid5ts ( m ?an pass+ int]e/4 ,miss ,c>mi*ael is no exception1 & c\ld tell ( n a few trophies ( grace4 ,! dang] is1 le/ 9 describ+ su* incid5ts ! impression %\ld be giv5 t !y repres5t ! normal /ate ( ?+s1 ! rev]se be+ ! case4 ,! p ( ,india are n ?ir/+ = ! ,gospel1 nor call+ u to deliv] _! l& f error's *a94 ,! night is /ill "o 9 :i* ! spiritual ho/s ( wick$ness h to be ov]come be=e ! captive c be set free4 ,! writ] has laid all int]e/$ 9 ! ext5sion ( ! ,k+dom ( ,god "u a deep debt ( obligation by su* a graphic & accurate picture ( ! difficulties t h to be fac$ & ! ob/acles to be ov]come4 ,c\nt]p>ts ( ! incid5ts record$ c be f\nd 9 o!r p>ts ( ,s\? ,india1 & !re are probably few mission>ies engag$ 9 v]nacul> "w :o c\ld n illu/rate "s ( !m f _! own exp]i5ce4 ,f ,dr4 ,a4 ,w4 ,,rudisill1 ,me?odi/ ,episcopal ,press1 ,madras4 ,9 ,?+s z ,!y ,are are pictur$1 by cam]a & p51 "s ?+s 9 ,s\!rn ,india4 ,! p51 z fai?fully z ! cam]a1 has told ! tru?1 & no?+ b ! tru?4 ,! e>ly *apt]s br+ out ) vivid1 /rik+1 almo/ />tl+ reality ! wayside he>]s 9 ,india4 ,"o c almo/ see ! devil pluck+ away ! words z fa/ z !y fall1 & he> ! oppos]s ( ! ,gospel cry+ out aga9/ x4 ,paul did n hesitate to write ?+s z !y 7 ( ! idolat]s to :om he prea*$1 ev5 ?\gh ! picture 0 v d>k4 ,x is all ! m ne$ful n[1 :5 s _m are deceiv$ & be+ deceiv$ z to ! true nature ( idolatry1 t p at home :o give & pray %\ld be told pla9ly t :at ,paul wrote ( idolat]s 9 ,rome & ,cor9? is /ill true ( idolat]s 9 ,india4 ,miss ,c>mi*ael has giv5 only glances & glimpses1 n full insights4 ,let ^? :o ?9k ! picture %e has drawn is too d>k "k t1 if ! :ole tru? 7 told1 an evil _s only c\ld produce ! pictures1 & hell itself w\ld be ! only fit place 9 :i* to publi% !m1 because 9 ,*ri/ian l&s eyes h n se5 & e>s h n he>d ( su* ?+s4 ,f ,rev4 ,c4 ,w4 ,,cl>ke1 ,m4,a41 ,pr9cipal1 ,noble ,college1 ,masulipatam4 ,i h work$ z ,pr9cipal ( a ,college = ov] sev5te5 ye>s among/ ! ca/e p ( ,s\? ,india1 & ,i entirely endorse ,miss ,c>mi*ael's views z to ! actual risks run by /ud5ts & o!rs desir\s ( break+ ca/e & be+ baptiz$4 ,:ile ! tea*+ ( ! ,bible & ,engli% education g5]ally h remov$ a great deal ( prejudice1 & greatly rais$ ! e?ical /&>d among/ a numb] ( ^? :o come "u su* influ5ces1 ,h9duism z held & practis$ by ! va/ majority ( ca/e p rema9s ess5tially un*ang$4 ,to break ca/e is held to be ! greate/ evil a p]son c inflict ^u himself & 8 community1 !re=e practically any means may be resort$ to to prev5t su* a calamity4 ,x is a commonplace among/ mission>ies1 t :5 a ca/e man or woman %[s any s]i\s int5tion ( be+ baptiz$1--9 any case1 :]e ca/e feel+ is n modifi$ by special circum/ances1--! mo/ /r+5t precautions mu/ be tak5 to protect ! inquir] f ! s*emes ( 8 ca/e bre?r54 ,f ,,kri%na ,,ran1 ,esq41 ,b4,a41 ,editor1 ,*ri/ian ,patriot1 ,madras 7himself a conv]t74 ,! "q is (t5 ask$ :e!r a high ca/e ,h9du conv]t c live ) 8 own p aft] 8 baptism4 ,x is only ^? :o "k no?+ ( ! conditions ( life 9 ,india1 & ( ! p[] ( ca/e z x exi/s 9 ?is c\ntry1 :o raise ! "q4 ,! conv]t has to be prep>$ = ! loss ( p>5ts & _! t5d] affection2 ( bro!rs & si/]s1 relatives & fri5ds2 ( wife & *ildr51 if he has any2 ( 8 bir?right1 social position1 means ( livelihood1 reputation1 & all ! p[] :i* hides beh9d ! magic ^w ca/e2 ( all t he is taught f 8 *ildhood to hold z sacr$4 ,f ,miss ,,reade1 ,s\? ,arcot1 ,s\? ,india4 ,i am n surpris$ t anyone unacqua9t$ ) mission "w 9 ,india %\ld be /agg]$ at ! facts n>rat$ 9 ,?+s z ,!y ,are4 ,b z "o :o has work$ = ne>ly ?irty ye>s 9 ! he>t ( hea!nism1 away f ! haunts ( civilisation1 ,i c be> te/imony t ! reality ( ?+s f> exce$s any?+ t x w\ld be possible to put into pr9t4 ,"o's tongue falt]s to tell ( :at is cu/om 9 ?is c\ntry4 ,i "k a case :]e a "y girl ( t5 0 plac$ 9 su* a position t h] *oice lay betwe5 two s9ful c\rses ( life1 no "r way be+ op5 to h]4 ,i ?9k "o ( ! mo/ di/ress+ ?+s we h to meet 9 ca/e "w 9 ?is c\ntry is ! fact t (t5 z soon z a s\l beg9s to %[ int]e/ 9 ,*ri/ he or %e disappe>s1 & "o ei!r he>s next t he is dead1 or c get no reliable in=mation at all4 ,extract f a lett] to ,miss ,,c>mi*ael on ,?+s z ,!y ,are4 7,! writ] is a vet]an ,am]ican mission>y47 ,i c\ld duplicate ne>ly e incid5t 9 ! book2 s ,i "k x is a true picture1 n alone because ,i believe y\r ^w1 b because my exp]i5ce has be5 s simil> to y\rs4 ,_m times1 :ile read+ x1 ! memory ( ! old he>t-break has be5 s vivid t ,i h _h to lay ! book d[n & look r\nd ! famili> room 9 ord] to conv9ce myself t x 0 y1 & n ,i1 :o 0 agonis+ ov] "o ( ! ,k+'s own *ildr5 :o 0 be+ cr[d$ back into d>kness & hurl$ d[n to de/ruction1 because ,satan's wra? is great z he realises t 8 "t is %ort4 ,i wi% ! book might be read by all ! ,*ri/ians 9 ! homel&4 ,f ,,p&ita ,,ramabai4 ,:ile ,i 0 read+ ,?+s z ,!y ,are1 ,i fanci$ ,i 0 liv+ my old life among ,h9dus ov] aga94 ,i c hone/ly corroborate ev]y?+ said 9 reg>d to ! religi\s & social life ( ! ,h9dus4 ,i came f t "p ( ! c\ntry1 & ,i am v glad t ! book has succe$$ 9 br++ ! tru? to light4 ,f ,miss ,l4 ,,trott]4 ,!re is h>dly a phase ( all ! he>t-suff]+ retold t we h n kn[n3 page aft] page might h be5 writt5 out "h1 ^w = ^w4 ,preface ,,! writ] ( ^! ?rill+ *apt]s is a ,keswick mission>y1 well kn[n to _m fri5ds z ! adopt$ daught] ( ,mr4 ,rob]t ,wilson1 ! mu*-respect$ *airman ( ! ,keswick ,conv5tion4 ,%e work$ = a "t ) ! ,rev4 ,b>clay ,buxton 9 ,japan2 & = ! la/ few ye>s %e has be5 ) ! ,rev4 ,t4 ,walk] 7also a ,c4,m4,s4 ,mission>y7 9 ,t9nevelly1 & is on ! /aff ( ! ,*ur* ( ,engl& ,z5ana ,society4 ,i d n ?9k ! realities ( ,h9du life h ev] be5 portray$ ) great] vividness ?an 9 ?is book2 & ,i "k t ! au?oress's accuracy c be fully reli$ ^u4 ,! picture is drawn )\t prejudice1 ) all sympa?y1 ) full recognition ( :at is good1 & yet ) an unsw]v+ det]m9ation to tell ! tru? & let ! facts be kn[n1--t is1 s f> z %e d>es to tell !m4 ,:at %e says is ! tru?1 & no?+ b ! tru?2 b x is n ! :ole tru?--t %e c\ld n tell4 ,if %e wrote x1 x c\ld n be pr9t$4 ,if x 7 pr9t$1 x c\ld n be read4 ,b if we read betwe5 ! l9es1 we d j cat* glimpses ( :at %e calls ! ,actual4 ,x is evid5t t ! au?oress deeply felt ! responsibility ( writ+ su* a book2 & ,i too feel ! responsibility ( recomm5d+ x4 ,i d s ) ! pray] ( my he>t t ,god w use x to move _m4 ,x is n a book to be read ) a lazy k9d ( s5tim5tal int]e/4 ,x is a book to s5d ! read] to 8 knees--/ill m to h] knees4 ,mo/ ( ! *apt]s are conc]n$ ) ! lives ( ,hea!n m5 & wom5 & *ildr5 surr\nd$ by ! trem5d\s b>s & gates ( ! ,ca/e sy/em4 ,b "o *apt]1 & n ! lea/ important "o1 tells ( native ,*ri/ians4 ,x has long be5 "o ( my own objects to correct ! curi\s g5]al impression among p at home t native ,*ri/ians1 z a body1 are--n inde$ p]fect1--no "o ?9ks t1 b--e>ne/ & consi/5t foll[]s ( ,*ri/4 ,n>ratives1 true n>ratives1 ( true conv]ts are read1 & ^! are suppos$ to be specim5s ( ! :ole body4 ,b 7#a7 :]e !re h be5 mass movem5ts t[>ds ,*ri/ianity1 :]e :ole villages h put !mselves "u ,*ri/ian in/ruction1 mix$ motives are c]ta92 7#b7 :]e !re h be5 two or ?ree g5]ations ( ,*ri/ians x is unreasonable to expect ! desc5dants ( m5 :o may h be5 !mselves mo/ true conv]ts to be necess>ily l !m4 ,h]$it>y ,*ri/ianity 9 ,india is mu* l h]$it>y ,*ri/ianity at home4 ,! ,*ur* 9 ,t9nevelly1 ( :i* ?is book incid5tally tells a little1 is m>k$ by bo? ^! features4 ,:ole families or ev5 villages h come ov] at times2 & ! l>ge majority ( ! ,*ri/ians 7 7s to speak7 born ,*ri/ians1 & 7 baptiz$ 9 infancy4 ,?is is n 9 itself a result to be despis$4 ,*ri/ian ,engl&1 un*ri/ian z a great "p ( its population really is1 is bett] ?an ,hea!n ,india2 & 9 ! *apt] n[ ref]r$ to1 ,miss ,c>mi*ael h]self notices ! diff]5ce betwe5 a ,h9du & a ,*ri/ian village4 ,b ! m widely ,*ri/ianity spreads1 ! m w !re assur$ly be ( m]e nom9al pr(ession4 ,is ! incorrect impression ,i allude to caus$ by mission>ies dwell+ mo/ly on ! bright] side ( _! "w8 ,"h & !re 9 ! book !re is j a sugge/ion t !y are wrong 9 do+ s4 ,b h[ c !y help x8 ,:at does a cl]gyman or an evangeli/ 9 ,engl& tell (8 ,does he tell ( 8 _m daily disappo9tm5ts1 or ( 8 occasional enc\rag+ cases8 ,! latt] are ! ev5ts ( 8 life1 & he naturally tells ( !m4 ,! =m] he comprises 9 "s g5]al /atem5t4 ,h[ c he d o!rwise8 ,& :at c ! mod]n mission>y d 9 ! %ort reports he is able to write8 ,fifty ye>s ago mission>y j\rnals ( imm5se l5g? came home1 & 7 duly publi%$2 & !n ! details ( ,h9du idolatry & cruelty & impurity1 & ! trem5d\s ob/acles to ! ,gospel1 7 bett] kn[n by ! few regul> read]s4 ,mu* t ,miss ,c>mi*ael tells 0 !n told ov] & ov] aga91 ?\gh n p]haps ) a skilful p5 l h]s4 ,b ! "w has s greatly develop$ 9 ea* mission1 & ! missions are s f> m num]\s & ext5d$1 t nei!r c mission>ies n[ write z _! pr$ecessors did1 nor1 if !y did1 c\ld all ! mission>y p]iodicals toge!r f9d space = _! j\rnals4 ,! fault ( incorrect impressions lies ma9ly 9 ! want ( k & want ( ?\ght ( home speak]s & prea*]s4 ,i rememb]1 ?irty ye>s ago1 an eloqu5t ,bi%op 9 ,exet] ,hall triumphantly fl++ 9 ! face ( critics ( missions ! "q1 ,is ,t9nevelly a fiction8--z if ,t9nevelly _h become a ,*ri/ian c\ntry1 :i* app>5tly "s p /ill suppose x to be1 not)/&+ ! w>n+ words to ! contr>y :i* ! ,c4,m4,s4 publications h aga9 & aga9 utt]$4 ,ev5 n[1 !re are 9 ,t9nevelly ab\t tw5ty hea!n to e "o ,*ri/ian2 & ( :at sort ! tw5ty are ?is book tells4 ,t9nevelly is inde$ no fiction1 b 9 a v diff]5t s5se f t ( ! good ,bi%op's spee*4 ,aga91 a few mon?s ago1 ,i he>d a prea*]1 n v fav\rable to ! ,c4,m4,s41 say t ! ,c4,m4,s41 despite its %ortcom+s1 des]v$ well ( ! ,*ur* because x _h conv]t$ a nation 9 ,ug&a6--z if ! nation compris$ only #cj1jjj s\ls4 ,"s day ! ,actual ( ,ug&a w be bett] und]/ood1 & ! inevitable %ortcom+s ( ev5 its ,*ri/ian population realis$1 & !n we %all be told t we deceiv$ ! public--al?\gh we h w>n$ !m ov] & ov] aga94 ,b ! l>g] "p ( ?is book is a revelation--s f> z is possible--( ! ,actual ( ,h9duism & ,ca/e4 ,god grant t its t]rible facts & its burn+ words may s9k into ! he>ts ( its read]s6 ,p]haps1 :5 !y h read x1 !y w at la/ agree t we h us$ no s5sational & exagg]at$ language :5 we h said t ! ,*ur* is only play+ at missions6 ,s]vice1 & self-d5ial1 & pray]1 mu/ be on a diff]5t scale inde$ if we are ev]--,i d n say to conv]t ! _w--b ev5 to evangelise x4 ,,eug5e ,,/ock4 ,cont5ts ,,*apt] ,,page ,i4 ,,ab\t ,,! ,,book #a ,,ii4 ,,?ree ,,aft]noons ,,(f ,,! ,,track #e ,,iii4 ,,humdrum #ah ,,iv4 ,,correspond5ces #bf ,v4 ,,! ,,prey ,,( ,,! ,,t]rible #cc ,,vi4 ,,miss$ ,,ends #da ,,vii4 ,,! ,,du/ ,,( ,,! ,,actual #eg ,,viii4 ,,roots #ga ,,ix4 ,,! ,,classes ,,& ,,! ,,masses #hc ,x4 ,,! ,,cre$ ,,*asm #ia ,,xi4 ,,ca/e ,,view$ ,,z ,a ,,do] #if ,,xii4 ,,petra #aje ,,xiii4 ,,dea? ,,by ,,disuse #aaa ,,xiv4 ,,:at ,,happ5$ #aah ,,xv4 ,,simply ,,murd]$ #abd ,,xvi4 ,,want$1 ,,volunte]s #acb ,,xvii4 ,,if ,,x ,,is ,,s ,,v ,,important4 4 4 8 #ada ,,xviii4 ,,! ,,call ,,int5sifi$ #ade ,,xix4 ,,attract$ ,,by ,,! ,,influ5ce #afj ,,xx4 ,,! ,,elf #aga ,,xxi4 ,,deifi$ ,,devilry #ahh ,,xxii4 ,,beh9d ,,! ,,door #aid ,,xxiii4 ,,pan1 ,,pan ,,is ,,dead #bjc ,,xxiv4 ,,m>ri$ ,,to ,,! ,,god #bag ,,xxv4 ,,skirt+ ,,! ,,abyss #bbc ,,xxvi4 ,,f ,a ,,h9du ,,po9t ,,( ,,view #bcf ,,xxvii4 ,,?\gh ,,ye ,,"k ,,him ,,n #bdi ,,xxviii4 ,,h[ ,,long8 #bef ,,xxix4 ,,:at ,,d ,,we ,,c\nt ,,!m ,,wor?8 #bfb ,,xxx4 ,,two ,,safe #bgc ,,xxxi4 ,,?ree ,,objections #bgg ,,xxxii4 ,,%[ ,,me ,,?y ,,glory6 #bhi ,,app5dix4 ,,"s ,,indian ,,sa9ts #cjc ,illu/rations ,,an ,,old ,,brahman ,frontispiece ,,b&y ,,cross+ ,a ,,pool ,fac+ page #e ,a ,,"y ,,tamil ,,girl #aa ,a ,,pott] ,,at ,,8 ,,:eel #bd ,a ,,devotee ,,( ,,siva #bf ,,! ,,r$ ,,lake ,,village #bh ,,dea? ,,sc5e #ea ,,wail+ #ec ,,?ree ,,c]emonial ,,m\rn]s #ed ,,c]emonial ,,ba?+ #ef ,,an ,,anci5t ,,p>iah #eh ,,vellala ,,wid[ #ff ,,typical ,,old ,,wid[ #gc ,,h9du ,,s*oolma/] ,,& ,,boys #hg ,,%an> ,,"m ,,& ,,*ild #ia ,,cook+ ,,9 ,a ,,%an> ,,h\se #ih ,,fairly ,,typical ,,vellal> #aje ,,*ri/ian ,,wid[ #aab ,,brahman ,,girl #aah ,,?ree ,,types ,,( ,,brahmanhood-- ,,ke5 #acb ,,?\ghtful #acd ,,dull #ach ,,an ,,old ,,woman ,,& ,,baby #adc ,,brahman ,,wid[ #ade ,,brahman ,,/reet #adg ,,%eph]d-,,ca/e ,,h\se #aea ,,vellala ,,*ild #afa ,,ugly ,,duckl+ #agh ,,designs ,,9 ,,*alk #aid ,,h&m>ks ,,on ,,! ,,door #bjb ,a ,,holy ,,brahman #bba ,,woman ,,& ,,wat]-,,vessel #bfb ,gloss>y ,,agni ,god ( ,fire4 ,,aiyo ,alas6 ,ai runs toge!r almo/ l eye4 ,! ^w is repeat$ rapidly1 ,eye-eye ,yo ,eye-eye ,yo6 ,,amm,a ,"m6 7vocative case74 ,a is pron\nc$ l u 9 up4 ,! ^w is also us$ by all wom5 9 speak+ to ea* o!r1 & by girls 9 speak+ to wom54 ,,amm,a,l ,lady or woman4 ,a is pron\nc$ l u 9 up4 ,,anna ,"o p5ny4 ,,areca ,,nut ,nut eat5 by ! ,indians ) betel leaf or lime4 ,,betel ,leaf ( a creep]4 ,,b&y ,a bullock c>t4 ,,brahma ,! fir/ p]son 9 ! ,h9du ,triad1 reg>d$ z ! ,creator4 ,,brahman ,! highe/ ( ! ,h9du ,ca/es4 ,,bramo ,,sam,j ,a sect ( ,h9du re=m]s :o hon\r ,*ri/ z a man1 b reject ,him z a ,savi\r4 ,,*ee6 ,exclamation ( d]ision1 disgu/1 or remon/rance4 ,,comp\nd ,a piece ( gr\nd surr\nd+ a h\se4 ,,coolie ,a paid lab\r]4 ,coolie is ! ,tamil ^w = pay4 ,,curry ,a prep>ation ( meat or vegetables made by gr9d+ v>i\s condim5ts & mix+ !m toge!r4 ,,fake] ,religi\s begg>4 ,,guru ,a religi\s tea*]4 ,,iy] ,title giv5 to ,brahmans & ,gurus4 ,,paddy ,rice 9 ! husk4 ,paddy fields rice fields4 ,,p>iah ,a depress$ class4 ,p,u,,jah ,wor%ip4 u is pron\nc$ l oo4 ,,rupee ,value #as4 #d;d4 ,,saivite ,a wor%ipp] ( ,siva4 ,,salaam ,a salutation mean+ peace1 us$ 9 greet+ & f>ewell1 & (t5 9 ! s5se ( ?ank y4 ,! "r h& is rais$ to ! =ehead z "o says salaam4 ,,seeley ,tamil woman's dress ( silk1 musl91 or cotton4 ,,%an> ,a ,ca/e ( ,palmyra-palm climb]s4 ,,siva ,! ?ird p]son 9 ! ,h9du ,triad4 ,! ,de/roy]4 ,,tom-,,tom ,an ,indian drum4 ,,vai%navite ,a wor%ipp] ( ,vi%nu4 ,,vellal> ,a ,ca/e ( l&[n]s & cultivators4 ,,vi%nu ,! second p]son 9 ! ,h9du ,triad4 ,! ,pres]v]4 ,,?+s ,,z ,,!y ,,are ,,mission ,,"w ,,9 ,,s\!rn ,,india ,,*apt] ,i ,ab\t ! ,book ,we c d no?+ aga9/ ! ,tru?1 b = ! ,tru?4 ,/4 ,paul1 ,asia & ,europe4 ,!re is too little desire to "k :at is ! actual /ate ( mission "w 9 ,india1 & a reg>d to ! %[y & attractive r ?an to ! solid & practical4 ,i w try1 h[ev]1 to avoid be+ c>ri$ away by ! tide1 & to set myself ! task ( giv+ z pla9 & unv>ni%$ a /atem5t z possible ( :at is actually be+ done or n done 9 ! great field ( our =eign lab\r4 ,bi%op ,fr5*1 ,india & ,arabia4 ,,?ree fri5ds sat ,native fa%ion on ! floor ( an ,indian v]&ah4 ,two ( ! ?ree _h come out to ,india = a few mon?s to see ! fight z x is4 ,& !y saw x4 ,!y n[ propos$ t ! ?ird %\ld ga!r "s lett]s writt5 f ! hot he>t ( ?+s1 & make !m into a book1 to ! int5t t o!rs %\ld see exactly :at !y _h se54 ,! ?ird 0 n sure4 ,! _w has _m books4 ,does x want ano!r1 & especially ano!r ( ! k9d ?is "o w\ld be8 ,bra9 & "t are ne$$ = all t writ+ a book means4 ,! ?ird has n mu* ( ei!r4 ,b ! two und]took to d all ! mo/ burd5some "p ( ! bus9ess4 ,give u ! lett]s1 we w make ! book1 & !y urg$ reasons :i* end$ 9--?is4 ,?is1 ! book1 has tri$ to tell ! ,tru?4 ,t is all x has to say ab\t itself4 ,! quotations :i* head ! *apt]s1 & :i* are meant to be read1 n skipp$1 are m wor?ful ?an any?+ else 9 x4 ,!y are *os5 f ! writ+s ( mission>ies1 :o saw ! ,tru? & :o told x4 ,! /ory cov]s ab\t two ye>s4 ,we _h come f ! ea/]n side ( ?is ,s\? ,indian di/rict1 to "w = a:ile 9 ! s\? ( ! ,s\?1 ! f>!/ s\!rn outpo/ ( ! ,c4,m4,s4 9 ,india4 ,*apt] ,,ii4 plunges into ! middle ( ! beg9n+4 ,! ,b& ,si/]s are ! memb]s ( a small ,wom5's ,it9]at+ ,b&2 ! girls m5tion$ by translat$ names are ! "y conv]t-girls :o are ) u2 ! ,iy] is ,rev4 ,t4 ,walk]2 ! ,ammal is ,mrs4 ,walk]2 ! ,missie ,ammal expla9s itself4 ,! ,picture-cat*+ ,missie ,ammal is ! fri5d :o propos$ ! book's mak+4 ,?is is h] ,tamil "n1 giv5 because x describes h] z %e /ruck ! ,tamil m9d4 ,! pictures %e caught 7 n easy to cat*4 ,res]v$ & cons]vative ,india consid]$ ! cam]a intrusive1 & we 7 (t5 foil$ 9 gett+ :at we mo/ desir$4 ,ev5 :]e we 7 all[$ to cat* our object peaceably1 x 0 a case ( work+ "u difficulties :i* w\ld h daunt$ a less ard5t picture-cat*]4 ,:]ev] ! cam]a 0 set up1 !re sw>ms ( *ildr5 sprang into be+1 burr[$ 9 & out l rabbits1 & scuttl$ ab\t ov] ev]y?+1 to ! confusion ( ! poor arti/1 :o _h to fix focus & look aft] ! safety ( h] cam]a legs at ! same "t1 :ile ! second ,missie ,ammal held an umbrella ov] h] head1 & ! ?ird exhort$ ! picture1 :i* spe$ily got re/ive1 to sit /ill4 ,s mu* = ! m]e me*anical4 ,f9ally1 ,i %\ld expla9 ! book's "*4 ,tell ab\t ?+s z !y actually are2 s said ! ,two ) emphasis4 ,i tri$1 b ! ,actual elud$ me4 ,x 0 z if "o pa9t$ smoke1 & !n1 po9t+ to ! feeble blur1 said1 ,look at ! battle6 '! smok+ hell ( battle6' ,!re is ! smoke6 ,! ,poet's ?\ght 0 n ?is1 ,i "k1 :5 %e co9$ t sugge/ive phrase1 ,! ,du/ ( ! ,actual1 b x has be5 ! pr$om9at+ ?\ght 9 my m9d1 = x holds t :i* def9es ! scope & expresses ! purpose ( ! book1 & ,i use x z ! title ( "o ( ! *apt]s4 ,x does n %[ ! ,actual4 ,pr9cipalities1 ,p[]s1 ,rul]s ( ! ,d>kness1 ,pot5tialities unkn[n & unimag9$1 ga!r$ up into "o /up5d\s ,=ce--we h nev] se5 x4 ,h[ c we describe x8 ,:at we h se5 & tri$ to describe is only an indication ( ,some?+ undescrib$1 & is z no?+ 9 comp>ison ) x--z ,du/ 9 comp>ison ) ! ,actual4 ,! book's scope1 !n1 is b\nd$ by ?is3 x only t\*es ! ,du/2 b its purpose goes deep]1 /ret*es wid]1 has to d ) ! ,actual & our relation to x4 ,b 9 t\*+ ! ,du/ we t\* ! outwork+s ( an ,en]gy s awful 9 op]ation t descriptive *apt]s are awful too4 ,& su* *apt]s are be/ read alone 9 "s quiet place ) ,god4 ,= ! book is a battle-book1 writt5 f a battle-field :]e ! fight+ is n pretty play b /]n reality2 & almo/ e page looks /raight f ! place :]e ,*>les ,k+sley /ood :5 he wrote-- ,god6 fight we n )9 a cursd _w1 ,^: v air teems ?ick ) leagud fi5ds-- ,ea* ^w we speak has inf9ite effects-- ,ea* s\l we pass mu/ g to heav5 or hell-- ,& ?is our "o *ance ?r\gh et]nity ,to drop & die1 l dead leaves 9 ! brake6 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 ,be e>ne/1 e>ne/1 e>ne/2 mad if ?\ wilt3 ,d :at ?\ do/ z if ! /ake 7 heav51 ,& t ?y la/ de$ ere ! judgm5t day4 ,illu/ration3 ,?is is our bullock-b&y4 ,! wat] 0 up to ! top ( ! bank :5 we cross$ la/4 ,! palms are cocoanuts4 ,,*apt] ,,ii ,?ree ,aft]noons (f ! ,track ,!y are l$ captive by ,satan at 8 w 9 ! mo/ quiesc5t mann]4 ,david ,bra9]d1 ,nor? ,am]ica4 ,oh t ! ,"l w\ld p\r out ^u !m a _s ( deep conc]n = _! s\ls6 ,h5ry ,m>tyn1 ,india4 ,i ask y e>ne/ly to pray t ! ,gospel may take sav+ & work+ effect4 ,james ,gilm\r1 ,mongolia4 ,,! ,we/]n ,ghauts sweep d[n to ! sea 9 curves4 ,dohnavur is 9 "o ( ! la/ ( ^! curves4 ,!re are no prop] roads runn+ "u ! m\nta9s1 only r\gh c\ntry ruts cross+ ! pla94 ,we 7 roll+ along "o ( ^! at ! rate ( two miles an h\r4 ,cra% & tumble w5t ! b&y1 a spr+less con/ruction ) a mat ro(2 bang ov] /ones & slabs ( rock1 d[n on "o side1 up on ! o!r2 !n bo? :eels 7 %>p aslant4 ,b ?is is usual4 ,on t p>ticul> ,fir/ ,aft]noon ! wat] 0 out1 :i* is ! ,s\? ,indian way ( say+ t ! tanks1 great lake-l res]voirs1 h ov]fl[$ & flood$ ! l&4 ,once we w5t smoo?ly d[n a bank & into a %all[ swoll5 pool1 & ! wat] swi%$ 9 at ! l[] end & float$ our books out quietly4 ,s we _h to /op1 & fi% !m up2 & !n1 huddl$ close at ! upp] end we sat1 some:at damp1 b happy4 ,at la/ we got to our de/9ation1 rea*$ ?r\gh a lane :i* !n 0 a /ream ) q a swift little curr5t ( its own4 ,cupid's ,lake ! place is call$4 ,we ?\ght ! "n appropriate4 ,cupid's ,lake is peopl$ by ,ca/es ( v>i\s p]suasions2 we made = ! ,robb] qu>t] fir/4 ,! ,robb] ,ca/e is hon\rable "h2 x furni%es our wat*m5 & ! coolies :o c>ry our money4 ,!re is good /uff 9 ! ,robb] ,ca/e p3 a valiant p are !y1 & ?\gh !y 7 n prep>$ = ! ?+ t 0 com+ t[>ds !m1 !y met x ) =titude4 ,a little girl saw x fir/4 ,"o glance at my hat ?r\gh ! end ( ! c>t1 & %e flew to spread ! news-- ,oh6 ev]yone come runn+ & see6 ,a great :ite man is "h6 ,oh :at an appall+ spectacle6 ,a great :ite man6 ,!n !re 0 a g5]al ru%2 *ildr5 seem$ to spr+ f ! gr\nd1 all eyes & tongues & a/oni%m5t4 ,%e isn't a man6 ,he is6 ,%e isn't6 ,he has got a man's turban6 ,b look at h] seeley6 7,tamil dress47 ,a woman1 & :ite--x /agg]$ !m till ! assurances ( ! ,b& ,si/]s prevail$2 & !y let me into a neighb\r+ h\se1 out ( ! sun :i* made t hat a necessity4 ,once x 0 (f !y lo/ all fe>1 & cr[d$ r\nd 9 ! fri5dlie/ fa%ion2 b lat]1 "o ( ! ,b& 0 amus$ by he>+ me describ$ 9 full3 ,n a man1 ?\gh great & :ite1 & we>+ a :ite man's turban1 too6 ,0 x n an appall+ spectacle8 ,& ! old body :o 0 address$ held up bo? h] h&s amaz$1 & ha/5$ (f to inve/igate4 ,an ,engli% magaz9e told u lately exactly :at ^! poor wom5 ?9k :5 !y see1 = ! fir/ "t 9 _! lives1 ! lady mission>y4 ,!y greatly admire h]1 ! article said1 & consid] h] fair] & m div9e ?an any?+ ev] imag9$ be=e--:i* is v nice inde$ to read2 b "h :at !y say is ?is3 ,0 x n an appall+ spectacle8 ,a great :ite man6 ,& n[ t ! spectacle 0 safe 9 ! h\se1 ! in/9cts ( hospitality urg$ clean mats & betel4 ,betel 7pron\nc$ beetle7 is ! leaf ( a climb+ plant1 into :i* !y roll a morsel ( areca nut & lime4 ,! :ole is made up into a p>cel & mun*$1 b n swall[$4 ,?is does n s\nd elegant2 nei!r is ! ?+4 ,x is "o ( ! m9or trials ( life to h to sit ?r\gh ! process4 ,we took a leaf or two1 b expla9$ t x 0 n our cu/om to eat x2 & !n we answ]$ que/ions /raight (f = t5 m9utes4 ,:at is y\r ,ca/e8 ,*ee6 9 a tone ( remon/rance1 don't y see %e is :ite8 ,m>ri$ or wid[8 ,:y no jewels8 ,:at relations8 ,:]e are !y all8 ,:y h y left !m & come "h8 ,:atev] c be y\r bus9ess "h8 ,:at does ! ,gov]nm5t give y = com+ "h8 ,^! la/ que/ions gave u ! *ance we 7 wat*+ =1 & we began to expla94 ,n[ :at d ^! p d :51 = ! fir/ "t1 !y he> ! ,good ,tid+s8 ,!y simply />e4 ,9 t h\se t day !re 0 an old woman :o seem$ to und]/& a little :at x 0 all ab\t4 ,%e _h probably he>d be=e4 ,b nobody else und]/ood 9 ! lea/2 !y did n und]/& en\gh to make rem>ks4 ,!y sat r\nd u on ! floor & ate betel1 z ev]ybody does "h 9 all leisure mom5ts1 & !y />$4 ,! "o old woman :o seem$ to und]/& foll[$ u out ( ! h\se1 & rem>k$ t x 0 a good religion b a mi/ak5 "o1 z x advocat$1 or result$ 91 ! de/ruction ( ,ca/e4 ,9 ! next h\se we f\nd sev]al girls1 & tri$ to p]suade ! mo!rs to let !m le>n to read4 ,if a girl is le>n+ regul>ly x gives "o a sort ( "r ( entrance to ! h\se4 ,"o's go+ !re is n s mu* obs]v$ & "o gets good *ances1 b to all our p]suasions !y only said x 0 n _! cu/om to all[ _! girls to le>n4 ,_h !y to d ,gov]nm5t "w8 ,le>n+ 0 = m5 :o want$ to d ,gov]nm5t "w4 ,we expla9$ a little1 & m5tion$ ! _m villages :]e girls are le>n+ to read4 ,!y ?\ght x a :olly ridicul\s idea4 ,!n we told !m z mu* z we c\ld 9 an h\r ab\t ! great love ( ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,i 0 9 ! middle ( x1 & ?9k+ only ( x & _! s\ls1 :5 an old lady ) fluffy :ite hair lean$ =w>d & gaz$ at me ) a beautiful1 e>ne/ gaze4 ,%e did n speak2 %e j li/5$ & gaz$1 dr9k+ x all 94 ,& !n %e rais$ a skeleton claw1 & grabb$ h] hair1 & po9t$ to m9e4 ,are y a wid[ too1 %e ask$1 t y h no oil on y\rs8 ,aft] a few su* exp]i5ces t beautiful gaze loses its *>m4 ,x really means no?+ m nor less ?an ! sweet expression sometimes obs]v$ 9 ! eyes ( a sorr[ful animal4 ,b h] "q _h set ! ball roll+ aga94 ,oil6 no oil6 ,c't y ev5 af=d a halfp5ny a mon? to buy good oil8 ,x isn't y\r cu/om8 ,:y n8 ,don't any :ite ,ammals ev] use oil8 ,:at sort ( oil d ! girls use8 ,d y nev] use ca/or oil = ! hair8 ,oh1 ca/or oil is excell5t6 ,& !y w5t into _m details4 ,! fir/ ?+ !y d :5 a baby is born is to sw+ x head d[nw>ds1 hold+ its feet1 & advise x n to s92 & ! second ?+ is to fe$ x ) ca/or oil1 & put ca/or oil 9 its eyes4 ,d we d none ( ^! ?+s8 ,we sang to !m4 ,!y always l t1 & sometimes x t\*es !m3 b ! ,tamils are n easily t\*$1 & c\ld nev] be describ$ z unduly emotional4 ,all ?r\gh !re 7 con/ant & v>i\s int]ruptions4 ,two bulls saunt]$ 9 ?r\gh ! op5 door1 & e/abli%$ !mselves 9 _! accu/om$ places2 !n a c[ foll[$1 & somebody w5t (f to tie ! animals up4 ,*ildr5 came 9 & want$ att5tion1 babies made _! usual noises4 ,we r>ely _h five consecutive quiet m9utes4 ,:5 !y seem$ to be gett+ tir$ ( u1 we said ! "t 0 pass+1 to :i* !y agre$1 &1 ) a ^w ab\t hop+ to come aga91 to :i* !y answ]$ cordially1 ,oh yes6 ,come to-morr[6 we w5t out into ! /reet1 & f9i%$ up 9 ! op5 air4 ,!re is a tree at "o end ( ! village2 we /ood "u x & sang a *orus & taught ! *ildr5 :o _h foll[$ u f h\se to h\se to s+ x1 & ?is attract$ "s pass+ gr[n-ups1 :o li/5$ :ile we witness$ unto ,jesus1 ,:o _h sav$ u & giv5 u ,8 joy4 ,no?+ tells m ?an j ?is simple witness4 ,to he> "o ( _! own p say+1 ) evid5t s9c]ity1 ,"o ?+ ,i "k1 t :]eas ,i 0 bl9d n[ ,i see1 makes !m look at ea* o!r & nod _! heads sympa!tically4 ,?is is some?+ t appeals1 some?+ !y c appreciate2 _m a "t x arre/s att5tion :5 no?+ else w\ld4 ,illu/ration3 ,we 7 n able to get ! photo ( t special girl 9 ! blue seeley1 b ?is girl is s l h] t ,i put h] "h4 ,%e is a ,vellal>4 ,! jewels worn by a girl ( ?is class run into ?\s&s ( rupees4 ,!y are "p ( ! ord9>y dress4 ,?is girl did n "k we 7 com+1 %e 0 caught j z %e 04 ,%e _h a ball ( p9k ole&] fl[]s 9 h] h&s & :ite fl[]s 9 h] hair4 ,we 7 ?or\ghly tir$ by ?is "t1 & c\ld nei!r talk nor s+ any m4 ,! cr[d melt$--all b ! *ildr51 :o nev] melt--"o by "o go+ _! respective ways1 hav+ he>d1 "s ( !m1 = ! fir/ "t4 ,:at diff]5ce w x make 9 _! lives8 ,did !y und]/& x8 ,none ( !m seem$ specially int]e/$1 none ( !m said any?+ int]e/+4 ,! la/ "q ,i he>d 0 ab\t soap--,:at sort ( soap d y use to make y\r sk9 :ite8 ,mo/ ( !m w\ld f> pref] to be told t secret ?an h[ to get a :ite he>t4 ,aft]noon ,numb] ,two f\nd u 9 ! ,village ( ! ,temple1 a tumble-d[n little place1 b a v citadel ( pride & ! arrogance ( ignorance4 ,we did n "k t at fir/1 ( c\rse1 b we v soon f\nd x out4 ,!re 0 ! usual skirmi% at ! sight ( a live :ite woman2 no "o !re _h se5 su* a curiosity4 ,b ev5 curiosity c\ld n draw ! ,brahmans4 ,!y live 9 a s+le /raggl+ /reet1 & w\ld n let u 94 ,g6 said a fat old ,brahman disda9fully2 no :ite man has ev] trodd5 our /reet1 & no :ite woman %all4 ,z = t l[-ca/e *ild ) y--,victory look$ up 9 h] g5tle way1 & he v>i$ x to--t *ild :o eats ) ^? l[-ca/e p--%e %all n speak to "o ( our wom54 ,g by ! way y h come6 ,?is 0 n enc\rag+4 ,we salaam$ & dep>t$1 & w5t to our b&y left outside 7l[-ca/e b&ies are n all[$ to drive d[n ,brahman /reets71 & ask$ our ,ma/] to op5 ano!r door4 ,:ile we 7 wait+1 a tall1 f9e-look+ ,h9du came & said1 ,w y come to my h\se8 ,i w %[ y ! way4 ,s we w5t4 ,he l$ u to ! ,vellala qu>t] next to ! ,brahmans1 & we f\nd 8 h\se 0 ! great h\se ( ! place4 ,! out] door op5$ into a l>ge squ>e inn] c\rty>d4 ,a wide v]&ah1 support$ by pill>s qua9tly c>v$1 ran r\nd x4 ,! wom5's rooms1 l[ & w9d[less1 op5$ on ei!r side2 ^! are ! rooms we rejoice to get into1 & n[ we 7 l$ "r 94 ,b fir/ ,i _h to talk to ! m54 ,!y 7 regul> ,ca/e ,h9dus2 c\rte\s--= !y h _h no cause to fe> ! p[] ( ! ,gospel--yet ke5 & argum5tative4 ,"o ( !m _h evid5tly read a good deal4 ,he quot$ f _! classics2 knew all ab\t ,mrs4 ,besant & ! late/ p]v]t to h] views2 & 0 up 9 ! bewild]+ tangle ( ?\ght kn[n z ,h9du ,philosophy4 ,fog-wrea?s ( d\bt1 9 bl9d+ eddies drift$--t is :at x really is1 b x is v difficult to prove x s4 ,"o tru? /ruck him especially--,*ri/ianity is ! only religion :i* provides a way by :i* !re is deliv]ance f s9 n[4 ,!re is a c]ta9 sy/em ( philosophy :i* pr(esses to provide deliv]ance 9 ! future1 :5 ! s\l1 hav+ pass$ ?r\gh ! fir/ ?ree /ages ( bliss1 loses its id5tity & becomes absorb$ 9 ,god2 b !re is no way by :i* deliv]ance c be obta9$ "h & n[4 ,s9 %all n h dom9ion ov] y--!re is no su* l9e z ?is 9 all ! million /anzas ( ! ,h9du classics4 ,he admitt$ ?is freely1 admitt$ t ?is "o t5et m>k$ out ,*ri/ianity z a unique religion2 b he did n g on fur!r2 he %[$ no desire to prove ! tru? ( x4 ,aft] ?is !y let u g to ! wom51 :o _h all ?is "t be5 wat*+ u1 & discuss+ u ) int]e/4 ,once safely into _! inn] room1 we sat d[n on ! floor 9 ! mid/ ( !m1 & began to make fri5ds4 ,!re 0 a gr&mo!r :o _h he>d t :ite p 7 n :ite all ov]1 b piebald1 s to speak2 might %e exam9e me8 ,!re 7 sev]al matronly wom5 :o want$ to "k :at arrangem5ts ,engli% p>5ts made conc]n+ _! daught]s' m>riages4 ,!re 7 ! usual wid[s ( a l>ge ,indian h\sehold--"o always looks at !m ) a special long+2 & !re 0 a de> "y girl1 9 a s(t blue seeley 7,tamil dress71 h] e>s clu/]$ ab\t ) pe>ls1 & h] neck lad5 ) five or six necklets wor? "s hundr$s ( rupees4 ,%e 0 go+ to be m>ri$2 & beyond ! usual g5tle c\rtesy ( a well-br\ght-up ,tamil girl1 %[$ no int]e/ 9 u4 ,almo/ all ! wom5 _h que/ions to ask4 ,on ! track x is diff]5t2 !y h already satisfi$ _! lawful curiosity conc]n+ ,missie ,ammals2 b "h !y h n _h ! *ance2 & if we ignore _! desires1 we defeat our own4 ,!y may seem to li/51 b !y are really occupi$ 9 wond]+ ab\t u4 ,we got !m to li/5 f9ally1 & left !m1 *e]$ by w>m invitations to return4 ,!n we ?\ght ( ! poor pr\d ,brahmans1 & hop+ t1 p]haps1 9 ! int]val !y _h inquir$ ab\t u1 & w\ld let u 91 we w5t to !m aga94 ,we c\ld see ! fair faces & sl5d] =ms ( ! y\ng] ,brahman wom5 /&+ 9 ! %ad[ beh9d _! v]&ah pill>s1 & "s ( !m look$ z if !y w\ld l to let u 91 b ! /reet _h n rel5t$2 & a ,brahman /reet is l a h\se--y _c g 9 unless y are all[$4 ,!re 0 "o k9d-fac$1 c\rtly old man1 & he seem$ to sympa?ise ) u1 = he left ! mock+ gr\p ( m51 & came to see u (f2 & !n1 z if to div]t u f ! great] topic1 he po9t$ to "o ( ! m\nta9s1 a spur ( ! ,god ,k+'s m\nta91 fam\s 9 all ,s\? ,india1 & volunte]$ to tell me its /ory4 ,we 7 glad to make fri5ds ) him ev5 ov] s small a ?+ z a m\nta92 b he w\ld speak ( no?+ else1 & :5 he left u we felt baffl$ & sorry1 & tir$ ) ! tir$ness t comes :5 y _c give y\r message2 & we sat d[n on a rock outside ! ,brahman /reet1 to wait till ! ,b& ,si/]s ga!r$ = ! homew>d walk4 ,x 0 sunset "t1 & ! sky 0 ov]ca/ by dull grey cl\ds2 b j ov] ! ,brahman qu>t] !re 0 a rift 9 ! grey1 & ! p5t-up gold %one ?r\gh4 ,x seem$ z if ,god 7 p\r+ out ,8 beauty ^u ^? ,brahmans1 try+ to make !m look up1 & !y w\ld n4 ,"o by "o we saw !m g to _! diff]5t c\rty>ds1 :]e ! gold5 gl[ c\ld n rea* !m1 & we he>d !m %ut _! great heavy doors1 z if !y 7 %utt+ ,him out4 ,9 !re x 0 d>k2 out "h1 out ) ,god1 x 0 light4 ,! aft]-gl[1 t lovelie/ gl[ ( ! ,ea/1 0 %9+ ?r\gh ! r5t ( ! cl\ds1 & ! r$-til$ ro(s & ! sc>let fl[]s ( ! ,flame ( ! ,=e/1 & e t9t & col\r :i* w\ld respond 9 any way1 7 agl[ ) ! beauty ( x4 ,! ,brahman qu>t] 0 set 9 ! deep gre5 ( %ad[y trees2 j beh9d x ! m\nta9s rose outl9$ 9 mi/1 & out ( ! mi/ a wat]fall gleam$ :ite aga9/ blue4 ,we sp5t ,aft]noon ,numb] ,?ree 9 ! ,village ( ! ,w>rior1 a lonely little place1 left all by itself on a great r\gh moorl&--if y c call a pat* ( b>e l& moor :i* is de/itute ( hea!r1 & gr[s palms & scrub 9 clumps in/ead4 ,x took u r a long "t to get to x1 ov] v brok5 gr\nd on a v hot day2 b :5 we did get !re we f\nd su* a good op5+ t we =got ab\t our feel+s1 & ent]$ 9 rejoic+4 ,!re 7 "s little *ildr5 play+ at ! entrance to ! village1 & !y l$ u /raight to _! own h\se1 mak+ fri5ds 9 ! mo/ *>m+ way z !y trott$ along beside u4 ,!y told u _! family hi/ory1 & we told !m z mu* ( ours z 0 necess>y1 & !y introduc$ u to _! mo!rs z old acqua9tances4 ,! mo!rs 7 indulg5t1 & let u h a room all to ourselves 9 ! inn] c\rty>d1 :]e a doz5 or m *ildr5 ga!r$ & li/5$ ) refre%+ ze/4 ,!y und]/ood1 de> little ?+s1 ?\gh s (t5 _! eld]s did n4 ,!n ! mo!rs got int]e/$1 & sat ab\t ! door4 ,! girls 7 ) me4 7,we usually divide into two p>ties2 ! eld] & m exp]i5c$ ,si/]s g (f 9 "o direction1 & ! "y conv]t-girls come ) me47 ,& be=e long1 ,jewel ( ,victory 0 tell+ out ( a full he>t all ab\t ! great ?+s ,god _h done = h]4 ,%e has a v sweet way ) ! wom51 & !y li/5$ fasc9at$4 ,!n ! o!rs spoke1 & /ill ^? wom5 li/5$4 ,!y 7 m intellig5t ?an our audi5ce ( ye/]day2 & ?\gh !y did n foll[ ne>ly all1 !y li/5$ spl5didly to ! /ory-"p ( our message4 ,9 ! mean+1 z is (t5 ! case1 _! int]e/ 0 simply nil4 ,b we 7 sorry1 & ,i ?9k s 7 !y1 :5 a commotion outside di/urb$ u1 & we 7 sorri] :5 we knew ! cause4 ,! village po/man1 :o only visits ^! out-(-!-way places once a week1 _h appe>$ ) a lett] = ! head ( ! h\se4 ,"o ( ! m5 folk _h read x4 ,x told ( ! dea? ( ! son 9 =eign p>ts--,madras1 ,i ?9k--& ! poor old "m's "o desire 0 to see u out ( ! room4 ,%e _h n lik$ to turn u out2 b1 z ! news spread1 m wom5 ga!r$ clam\r+ r\nd ! door2 & ! mom5t we left ! room empty1 9 !y ru%$1 ) ! "m & ! wom5 :o _h li/5$ to u1 & fl++ !mselves on ! floor1 cri$ ! ,tamil cry ( sorr[1 full ( a pa?os ( its own3 ,ai-yo6 ,ai-yo6 ,ai-,ai-yo6 ,x 0 sad to leave !m cry+ s1 b at t mom5t we 7 c]ta9ly bett] away4 ,! *ildr5 came ) u to ! well outside ! village1 & we sat on its wall & w5t on ) our talk4 ,!y w\ld h>dly let u g1 & begg$ u to come back & tea* !m e day1 n ! ,gospel--d n imag9e _! little he>ts crav$ = t--b read+ & writ+ & sums6 ,z we drove (f "s ( ! villag]s smil$ & salaam$1 & ! little *ildr5's la/ words foll[$ u z f> z we c\ld he> !m3 ,come back soon6 ,sometimes1 z n[1 :5 we come to a new place1 we dream a dream1 dream t p]haps at la/ x may be possible to w9 s\ls peacefully4 ,p]haps ^! c\rte\s1 k9dly p w welcome ! message we br+ !m :5 !y und]/& x bett]4 ,p]haps homes ne$ n be brok5 up1 p]haps :ole families w believe1 or individual memb]s believ+ may /ill live 9 _! own homes & witness !re4 ,p]haps--p]haps--6 ,& snat*es ( v]se float ?r\gh our dream-- ,oh1 might "s sweet song ,?y lips h taught u1 ,"s glad song1 & sweet1 ,guide amid/ ! mi/1 & ?r\gh ! d>kness1 ,lo/ ones to ,?y feet6 ,x s\nds s beautiful1 s easy1 s++ s\ls to ,jesus4 ,& we dream our dream4 ,till sudd5ly & ) viol5ce we are awak5$4 ,someone--a m]e girl1 or a lad1 or ev5 a little *ild--has believ$1 has confess$1 wants to be a ,*ri/ian4 ,& ! :ole ,ca/e is r\s$1 & ! :ole c\ntryside jo9s ) ! ,ca/e2 & ! p we almo/ ?\ght lov$ u1 hate u4 ,& till we g to ! next new place we nev] dream t dream aga94 ,,*apt] ,,iii ,humdrum ,a mission>y's life is m ord9>y ?an is suppos$4 ,plod r ?an clev]ness is (t5 ! be/ mission>y equipm5t4 ,rev4 ,j4 ,heywood ,horsburgh1 ,*9a4 ,truly to und]/& ! facts ( "w = ,*ri/ 9 any l&1 we mu/ /rip x ( all romance1 & ( ev]y?+ :i* is unreal4 ,miss ,s4 ,s4 ,hewlett1 ,india4 ,,!re h be5 times ( late :5 ,i h _h to hold on to "o text ) all my might3 ,x is requir$ 9 /ew>ds t a man be f\nd fai?ful4 ,praise ,god1 x does n say successful4 ,"o ev5+ ?+s came to a climax4 ,we all sp5t a :ole aft]noon )\t gett+ "o good li/5]4 ,we sep>at$ z usual1 go+ two & two to ! diff]5t qu>t]s ( a big sleepy /raggly village4 ,life & ,i w5t to ! pott]s4 ,life spoke mo/ e>ne/ly & well to an un9t]e/$ gr\p ( wom54 ,aft] %e _h f9i%$ "o ( !m po9t$ to my hat 7! only =eign ?+ ab\t me :i* 0 visible--oh t ,i c\ld disp5se ) x674 ,:at is t8 %e said4 ,n "o bit did !y c>e to he>4 ,"o by "o !y w5t back to _! "w1 & we 7 left alone4 ,we w5t to ano!r qu>t]4 ,x 0 j ! same4 ,at a re/-h\se by ! way ,i notic$ a ,brahman1 & w5t to see if he w\ld li/54 ,he w\ld if ,i w\ld talk ab\t politics or education1 b n if x 0 ab\t religion4 ,h[ev]1 ,i did get a *ance ( plead+ ) him to consid] ! "q ( 8 s\l's salvation1 & he took a book & said he w\ld read x at 8 leisure4 ,& !n he ask$ me h[ _m p]sons ,i _h succe$$ 9 jo9+ to my ,way s9ce ,i began to try4 ,x 0 exactly ! "q1 only ask$ 9 ano!r =m1 :i* ! devil _h be5 press+ on me all ! aft]noon4 ,aft] ?is he told me politely t we 7 knock+ our heads aga9/ a rock2 we might sma% our heads1 b we nev] w\ld affect ! rock4 ,rock6 ,rock6 :5 wilt ?\ op58 ,x is an old cry2 ,i cri$ x afre%4 ,b ! ,brahman only smil$1 & !n ) a ge/ure express+ at once 8 s5se ( 8 own condesc5sion 9 speak+ ) me1 & 8 utt] contempt = ! fai? ,i held1 motion$ to me to g4 ,outside 9 ! road a numb] ( ,h9dus 7 /&+2 "s ( !m 7 8 reta9]s & fri5ds4 ,i he>d !m say1 z ,i pass$ ?r\gh _! mid/1 ,:o w fall into ! pit ( ! ,*ri/ian ,way6 ,& !y laugh$1 & ! ,brahman laugh$4 ,z ! fil? ( ! _w1 ! (fsc\r+ ( all ?+s1 unto ?is day4 ,we walk$ along ! road bord]$ ) beautiful banyan trees4 ,we sat d[n "u _! %ade1 & wait$ = :at w\ld come4 ,"s little *ildr5 foll[$ u1 b be=e we c\ld get a s+le idea cle>ly into _! heads a man came & *as$ !m away4 ,x is gett+ d>k1 he said4 ,!y are only little gre5 ?+s2 !y mu/ n be out late4 ,x 0 broad daylight !n1 & w\ld be = ano!r h\r4 ,"s coolies pass+ t way /opp$ to look at u2 b be=e !y _h "t to get int]e/$ !y too rem>k$ t d>kness 0 com+1 & !y mu/ be (f1 & (f !y w5t4 ,we 7 left alone aft] t4 ,)9 five m9utes' walk 7 at lea/ five hundr$ s\ls1 r$eem$1 b !y don't "k x2 r$eem$1 b !y don't want to "k x4 ,sometimes !y seem to want to "k1 b h[ev] t5d]ly y tell x1 ! ke5 ,h9du m9d soon p]ceives ! drift ( x all--,r$emption mu/ mean loss ( ,ca/e4 ,"o day la/ week ,i 0 visit+ 9 ! ,village ( ! ,r$ ,lake4 ,/&+ 9 "o ( its c\rty>ds y see ! ,we/]n ,ghauts ris+ /raight up beh9d4 ,! ,r$ ,lake lies at ! m\nta9 foot2 we call x ,d]w5twat]1 b !re are palms & bamboos1 & !re is no ,fri>'s ,crag4 ,t aft]noon ,i 0 b\nd = a h\se 9 ! c5tre ( ! village1 :5 an old lady call$ me to come to h] h\se1 & ,i foll[$ h] gladly4 ,!re 7 six or eight wom5 all m or less will+ to li/52 among !m 7 two :o 7 v old4 ,old p 9 ,india are usually too atta*$ to _! own fai?1 or too utt]ly /upid & dull1 to c>e to he> ab\t ano!r2 b ?is old lady _h be5 /irr$ to some?+ almo/ l active ?\ght by ! rec5t dea? ( a relative1 & %e felt t %e ne$$ some?+ m ?an %e _h to make h] ready = dea?4 ,%e 0 app>5tly dev\t4 ,a%es 7 m>k$ on h] br[ & arms1 & %e wore a v l>ge ros>y4 ,x is worn to accumulate m]it4 ,i did n ref] to x z ,i talk$1 b 9 "s dim way %e seem$ to feel x did n fit ) :at ,i 0 say+1 =1 ) trembl+ h&s1 %e took x (f & ?rew x to a *ild4 ,i hop$ ?is meant some?+ def9ite1 & tri$ to lead h] to ,jesus4 ,b z soon z %e und]/ood ,:o ,he 01 %e drew back4 ,i _c be a disciple ( y\r ,guru1 "h1 %e said2 w\ld my relations be> su* defilem5t8 ,be+ a ,*ri/ian really meant soon] or lat] leav+ h] home & all h] p = ev]4 ,c y wond] an old lady ( p]haps sev5ty-five /opp$ at t8 ,! little *ildr5 9 ! ,village ( ! ,w>rior are n all[$ to le>n4 ,! m5 ( ! place h consult$ & come to ! decision4 ,! *ill ( x has /ruck ! little ones1 & !y d n c>e to run ! *ance ( ! scold+ !y w\ld receive if !y %[$ too mu* int]e/ 9 u4 ,! mo!rs are z fri5dly z ev]1 b indiff]5t4 ,we he> ?is is a religion :i* spoils our ,ca/e1 !y say1 & t is ! end ( x4 ,9 ! great h\se ( ! ,temple ,village !y li/5$ well = "s weeks4 ,!n1 z x gradually op5$ to !m t !re is no ,ca/e :atev] 9 ,*ri/ianity1 _! int]e/ di$4 ,h[ mu* "o w\ld l to tell a diff]5t /ory6 ,b a made-up /ory is "o ?+ & a /ory ( facts is ano!r4 ,s f> we h only f\nd two g5u9e e>ne/ s\ls "h4 ,b if ^? two g on--6 ,praise ,god = ! joy on be=e6 ,we w5t aga9 to ! pott]s' village & sat on ! n>r[ v]&ah & talk$ to a girl z %e patt$ ! pots into %ape und]nea? :]e ! :eel _h left an op5 place4 ,%e li/5$ = a:ile2 !n %e said1 ,if ,i come to y\r ,way w y give me a new seeley & good curry e day8 ,& back aga9 we w5t to ! v beg9n+ ( ?+s1 :ile ! old gr&fa!r sp9n+ 8 :eel *uckl$ at u = our folly 9 wa/+ our "t ov] pott]s4 ,z if we w\ld ev] turn to y\r religion6 he said4 ,h y ev] he>d ( a pott] :o *ang$ 8 ,ca/e8 ,ca/e & religion6 ,!y are s mix$ up t we d n "k h[ to unmix !m4 ,8 ,ca/e to ! pott] meant 8 trade1 ! trade ( 8 clan = g5]ations2 x meant all ! obs]vances b\nd up ) x2 x meant1 9 %ort1 8 life4 ,x w\ld nev] /rike him t he c\ld be a ,*ri/ian & a pott] at ! same "t1 & v probably he c\ld n2 ! feel+ ( ! ,ca/e w\ld be aga9/ x4 ,!n :at else c\ld he be8 ,he does n argue all ?is out2 he does n c>e en\gh ab\t ! matt] to take ! tr\ble to ?9k at all4 ,he has only "o conc]n 9 life--he lives to make pots & sell !m1 & make m & sell !m1 & s eat & sleep 9 peace4 ,b ! girl _h ! look ( m possibility2 %e ask$ que/ions & seem$ int]e/$1 & f9ally sugge/$ we %\ld wait till %e _h f9i%$ h] bat* ( pots1 & !n %e w\ld tell u all h] m9d4 ,s we wait$ & wat*$ ! deft br[n h&s z !y work$ r\nd ! gap+ hole till x grew toge!r & clos$2 & at la/ %e _h f9i%$4 ,!n %e drew u away f ! gr\p ( curi\s *ildr51 & told u if we w\ld come 9 ?ree days %e w\ld be prep>$ to jo9 our ,way & come ) u1 = %e _h to "w v h>d at home1 & h] food 0 poor & h] seeley old1 & %e ?\ght x w\ld be wor? risk+ ! wra? ( h] p to get all %e knew we %\ld give h] if %e came2 & ?is 0 all h] m9d4 ,%e _h t\*$ a great p]plexity4 ,h[ are we to live 9 ,india )\t rais+ desires ( ?is sort8 ,x is true ! ,brahmans look d[n ^u u1 & ! high] ,ca/es c]ta9ly d n look up1 b to ! great] numb] ( ! p we seem ri* & gr& & desirable to cultivate4 ,! ,ult]ior-,object-,society is a fact 9 ,s\? ,india4 ,we may bani% exp5sive-look+ ?+s f our tables1 & all pictures & ornam5ts f our walls1 & conf9e ourselves to texts4 ,?is c]ta9ly helps2 !re is less to di/ract ! att5tion ( ! p :5 !y come to see u1 & we h s _m ! few] ?+s to take c>e (--a v great advantage--b x does n g f> t[>ds disillusion+ !m z to :at !y imag9e is our true position4 ,we are /ill up above to !m2 n on a level1 n "o ( !mselves4 ,! h\ses we live 9 are airy & l>ge1 & !y d n und]/& ! ne$ ( protection f ! sun4 ,! food we eat is abundant & good1 & to !m x looks luxuri\s1 = !y live on rice & vegetable curry1 at a co/ ( twop5ce a day4 ,our walls may be b>e1 b !y are clean1 & ! texts a=esaid are n torn at ! corn]s2 s1 :atev] we say1 we are ri*4 ,id5tification ) ! p :om we h come to w9 is ! aim ( _m a mission>y1 b ! difficulty always is ! same--climate & cu/oms are dead aga9/ x2 h[ c we d x8 ,george ,b[5 /ruck at ,engli% life & became a true ,indian1 s f> z he c\ld1 b ev5 he c\ld n g all ! way4 ,no matt] h[ f> y may g1 !re is always a di/ance y _c cov]--y>ds or in*es x may be1 b always t fatal hiatus4 ,we seem s und5iably up1 f> up above !m 9 ev]y?+1 & we want to get to ! l[e/ /ep d[n1 l[ en\gh d[n to lift lo/ s\ls up4 ,illu/ration3 ,i w5t d[n to ! pott]'s h\se1 &1 behold1 he wr\ght a "w on ! :eels4 ,! vessel ! pott]s are mak+ "h is wor? ab\t a halfp5ny1 b x is p]fect ( its k9d4 ,! m\ld] nev] lifts 8 h& f x f ! mom5t he puts a lump ( %apeless clay on ! :eel till ! mom5t he takes x (f f9i%$1 s f> z ! :eel c f9i% x4 ,if x is m>r$1 x is m>r$ 9 ! h& ( ! pott]1 & in/antly he makes x aga9 ano!r vessel z x seems good to him4 ,he nev] wa/es ! clay4 ,on & on1 if !y w let u1 "t aft] "t1 by text & hymn & /ory1 we h to expla9 :at ?+s really mean be=e !y are able to und]/& ev5 a fraction ( ! tru?4 ,! fact t ?is girl _h ?\ght en\gh to get h] ideas into %ape 0 enc\rag+1 & ) su* sl5d] cause = hope we /ill hop$4 ,b :5 aft] "s weeks' visit+ %e began to see t ! "q 0 n "o ( curries & seeleys b ( inw>d invisible gifts1 h] int]e/ di$1 & %e 0 out :5 we w5t1 or too busy patt+ h] pots to h "t to li/5 to u4 ,humdrum we h call$ ! "w1 & humdrum x is4 ,!re is no?+ romantic ab\t pott]s except 9 poetry1 nor is !re mu* ( romance ab\t missions except on plat=ms & 9 books4 ,yet ?\gh x's dull at :iles1 !re is joy 9 ! do+ ( x1 !re is joy 9 j obey+4 ,he said ,g1 tell1 & we h come & are tell+1 & we meet ,him z we g & tell4 ,b1 de> fri5ds1 d n1 we entreat y1 expect to he> ( u do+ great ?+s1 z an ev]yday matt] ( c\rse4 ,our aim is great--x is ,india = ,*ri/6 & be=e ! gods 9 possession "h1 we s+ songs unto ,him4 ,b :at we say to y is ?is3 ,d n expect e true /ory to dovetail into "s o!r true /ory & end ) "s m>vell\s co9cid5ce or miracul\s conv]sion4 ,mo/ days 9 real life end exactly z !y began1 s f> z visible results are conc]n$4 ,we d n f9d1 z a rule1 :5 we g to ! h\ses--! lit]al little mud h\ses1 ,i mean1 ( lit]al hea!ndom--t anyone inside has be5 pray+ we might come4 ,i read a mission>y /ory f\nd$ on fact ! o!r day1 & ! ?+s t happ5$ 9 t /ory on ^! l9es 7 mo/ rem>kable4 ,!y d n happ5 "h4 ,practical mission>y life is an unexcit+ ?+4 ,x is n sp>kl+ all ov] ) incid5t4 ,x is v prosaic at times4 ,,*apt] ,,iv ,correspond5ces ,x is v pleasant :5 y are 9 ,engl&1 & y see s\ls be+ sav$1 & y see ! conviction ( s91 & y see ! p[] ( ! ,gospel to br+ new life & new joy & purity to he>ts4 ,b x is /ill m glori\s among/ ! hea!n to see ! same ?+s1 to see ! ,"l !re work+ ,8 own "w ( salvation1 & to see ! s\ls convict$ & ! he>ts brok51 & to see !re ! new life & ! new joy com+ out 9 ! faces ( ^? :o h f\nd ! ,"l ,jesus4 ,rev4 ,b>clay ,f4 ,buxton1 ,japan4 ,,be=e putt+ ?is *apt] toge!r1 ,i h look$ long at ! photograph :i* fronts x4 ,! long] "o looks ! m pitiful x seems4 ,p]haps "o reads into x all t "o kn[s ( h]1 all "o has done = h]1 h[ "o has fail$--& ?is makes x sadd] ?an x may be to o!r eyes4 ,& yet c x fail to be sad8 ,hood's l9es rev]s$ describe h]-- ,all t is left ( h] ,n[ is n womanly4 ,! day we took h] photo %e 0 return+ f h] morn+ wor%ip at ! %r9e4 ,%e _h p\r$ h] libation ov] ! idol1 walk$ r\nd & r\nd x1 pro/rat$ h]self be=e x1 gone ?r\gh ! pray]s %e _h le>n$ (f by he>t1 & n[ 0 on h] way home4 ,illu/ration3 ,a ,saivite ascetic4 ,siva repres5ts ! sev]] side ( ,h9duism1 ! ,p[]s ( ,nature :i* de/roy4 ,b z all dis9tegrat$ ?+s are re9tegrat$ 9 "s o!r =m1 ! two ,p[]s1 ,de/ruction & ,recon/ruction1 7 unit$ 9 ! ?\ght ( ! old ,h9dus1 & ,siva repres5ts ! d\ble ,p[]4 ,! ,saivite =m ( ,h9duism is old] ?an ! ,vai%navite1 & m widely spread ov] ,india4 ,!re are said to be #cj1jjj1jjj symbols ( ! god ,siva scatt]$ ab\t ! l&4 ,saivites are in/antly recognis$ by ! m>k ( :ite a%es on _! =eheads1 & sometimes on ! brea/ & arms1 & (t5 a necklet ( b]ries is worn4 ,we _h gone to h] village to take photographs1 & _h j got ! /reet sc5e 9 ! morn+ light4 ,! cr[d foll[$ u1 eag] to see m ( ! do+s ( ! picture-cat*+ box2 & %e1 fe>+ ! defil+ t\* ( ! mix$ ,ca/es repres5t$ !re1 _h climb$ up on a granite slab by ! side ( ! road1 & /ood wait+ till we pass$4 ,!re we saw h]1 & !re we took h]1--=1 to our surprise1 %e did n object1--& n[ "h %e is1 to %[ ) all ! =ce ( tru? h[ f> f ideal ! real may be4 ,we look$ at h] z ,i look at h] n[1 /ripp$ ( all ,god meant h] to h :5 ,he made h]1 deep 9 ! mire ( ! l[e/ =m ( idolatry1 a devotee ( ,siva4 ,%e _h be5 to ,b5>es & ba!d 9 ! sacr$ ,ganges1 & !re=e %e is holy beyond ! rea* ( d\bt4 ,%e has no room = any s5se ( ! ne$ ( ,*ri/4 ,%e pities our ignorance :5 we talk to h]4 ,is %e n a devotee8 ,has %e n be5 to ,b5>es8 ,(t5 & (t5 we meet h] 9 ! high-ca/e h\ses ( ! place1 :]e %e is always an hon\r$ gue/ because ( h] wond]ful sanctity4 ,%e wat*es ke5ly !n le/ any ( ! y\ng] memb]s ( ! h\sehold %\ld incl9e to li/5 to u4 ,"o ( h] relatives is an ,engli%-educat$ lawy]1 a bitt] ?\gh cov]t foe1 :o n long ago /irr$ up su* opposition t we 7 w>n$ n to g ne> ! place4 ,m5 _h be5 hir$ to fall ^u u & beat u4 ,?is because a girl1 a connection ( 81 read h] ,bible op5ly1 in/ead ( 9 secret z %e _h done be=e4 ,he connect$ ?is action on h] "p ) a visit we _h paid to ! h\se1 & s induc$ c]ta9 ( ! bas] sort to d ?is ?+4 ,we w5t1 h[ev]1 j ! same1 z we _h "w we _h promis$ to d1 & saw ! old g5tleman sitt+ on ! v]&ah read+ 8 ,engli% newspap] 9 ! mo/ pacific fa%ion4 ,he seem$ surpris$ to see u z we pass$ ) a salaam2 we saw no?+ ( ! beat]s1 & return$ ) :ole bones1 to ! relief ( ! community at l>ge4 ,only ,i rememb] "o ( our ,b& 0 woefully disappo9t$3 ,i ?\ght1 p]haps1 we 7 go+ to be m>tyrs1 %e said4 ,illu/ration3 ,/reet 9 ! ,r$ ,lake ,village4 ,an ord9>y typical village sc5e1 except t j !n !re 7 m p ?an usual be=e ! picture-cat*+ box4 ,! only way to keep !m f cr[d+ r\nd x 0 to %[ !m some?+ else3 ?is expla9s ! gr\p on ! /ones at ! side4 ,& s we realise1 z s (t5 9 ,india1 ! p[] ( bo? extremes2 ! "o ) all ! =ce ( 8 education1 & ! o!r ) all ! =ce ( h] sup]/ition1 ea* unit+ ) ! o!r 9 repell+ ! com+ ( ! ,savi\r bo? equally ne$4 ,z "o looks at ! photograph1 does x n help 9 ! ef=t to realise ! utt] hopelessness1 f e human po9t ( view1 ( try+ to w9 su* a "o1 = example1 to ev5 c>e to ?9k ( ,*ri/8 ,!re is1 ov] & above ! natural apa?y common to all1 an imm5se b>ri] ( accumulat$ m]it ga9$ by pilgrimages1 au/]ities1 & religi\s obs]vances1 & ! s\l is p]fectly satisfi$1 & has no desire :atev] aft] ,god4 ,x is j ?is self-satisfaction :i* makes x s hopeless to try to d any?+ ) x4 ,& yet no?+ is hopeless to ,god2 ,set no bord]s to ,8 /r5g?1 a ,japanese mission>y said4 ,we say x ov] & ov] aga9 to ourselves1 9 ! face ( "s great hopelessness1 l t photograph be=e u2 & sometimes1 z if to assure u x is s1 ,god lifts "s su* s\l into light4 ,j n[ we are rejoic+ 9 a lett] f ! ea/]n side ( ! di/rict1 tell+ u ( ! gr[? 9 ! new life ( "o :o only a little :ile ago 0 a temple devotee4 ,"o has (t5 long$ to see ,him "w z ,he work$ ( old1 heal+ ! sick by ! ^w ( ,8 p[]1 rais+ ! dead4 ,b :5 we see ,him ga!r+ "o--& su* a "o6--f among ! hea!n to give ?anks unto ,8 holy ,"n & to triumph 9 ,8 praise1 "o feels t inde$ x is a miracle ( miracles1 & t great] ?an a miracle wr\ght on ! body is a miracle wr\ght on ! s\l4 ,b no?+ ,i c write c %[ y ! miracle x 04 ,9 t p>ticul> case x 0 l see+ a s\l drawn out ( ! h& ( ! ,rul] ( ,d>kness4 ,all salvation is t 9 reality1 b sometimes1 z 9 h] case1 :5 ! :ole environm5t ( ! s\l has be5 /rongly = evil 9 its mo/ dang]\s phase1 !n x is m evid5tly s4 ,p]haps we %\ld expla94 ,we "k t 9 its wide/ s5se environm5t simply means all t is4 ,we "k t all t is includes ! exi/5ce ( c]ta9 be+s1 describ$ z ,p[]s 9 ,ephesians vi4 #ab4 ,"s ( u are m or less unconsci\s ( ?is "p ( our environm5t4 ,we h no consci\s correspond5ce ) x1 b x is !re4 ,o!rs1 aga91 seek & f9d su* correspond5ce1 to _! c]ta9 & awful loss4 ,su* a subject c h>dly be> h&l+ 9 language4 ,?ank ,god we "k s little ab\t x t we d n "k h[ to speak ( x accurately4 ,nei!r1 inde$1 d we wi% to intrude into ^? ?+s :i* we h n se5 by any attempt at close def9ition2 b we "k !re is ?is unhall[$ correspond5ce betwe5 m5 & demons1 :i* 9 old days drew d[n1 z a lightn+ conductor1 ! fla% ( ! wra? ( ,god4 ,"h 9 ,india x exi/s2 we (t5 almo/ t\* x1 b n q4 ,we w\ld n g :]e we knew we %\ld see x1 ev5 if we might2 s1 unless we happ5 ^u x1 :i* is r>e1 we nev] see x at all4 ,a ye> ago ,i saw x1 & t "o look made me realise1 z no am\nt ( explanations ev] c\ld1 h[ absolutely out ( rea* ( all human influ5ce su* s\ls are4 ,no?+ c rea* !m1 no?+ b ! might ( ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,s ,i close ) ?is "o look4 ,w y pray = ^? to :om 9 ! moonless night1 at ! alt> by ! temple1 !re is ! sudd5 com+ ( t :i* !y h s\ght--! possession1 ! afflatus1 :i* = ev] aft] m>ks !m out z ^? ^: correspond5ces rea* beyond mortal k54 ,all devotees h n receiv$ ?is awful baptism1 b 9 ?is "p ( ,india _m h4 ,we 7 visit+ 9 a high-ca/e h\se4 ,! walls 7 decorat$ ) my?ological devices1 & ev5 ! old wood-c>v+s 7 full ( idolatr\s symbols4 ,! wom5 7 li/5+ well1 ask+ que/ions & argu+1 until "o1 an old lady1 came 94 ,!n !y 7 sil5t4 ,%e sat d[n & discuss$ u4 ,we ?\ght we w\ld *ange ! subject1 & we began to s+4 ,%e li/5$1 z !y always d1 int]rupt+ only to say1 ,t's true6 t's true6 ,till sudd5ly--,i _c describe :at--some?+ seem$ to come ov] h]1 & %e bur/ into a fr5zy1 exclaim+1 ,let me s+6 let me s+6 ,& !n %e sang z ,i nev] he>d anyone s+ be=e--! wilde/1 weirde/ wail ( a song all ab\t idolatry1 its uselessness & folly1 its sorr[ & s94 ,s f> ,i foll[$ h]1 = ,i knew ! poem well1 b %e soon turn$ (f into regions ( language & ?\ght unrea*$ z yet by me4 ,"h %e got madly excit$1 &1 sway+ h]self to & fro1 seem$ la%+ h]self into fury4 ,ne>] & ne>] %e drew to u 7we 7 on ! floor beside h]72 !n %e /ret*$ out h] arm ) its cl5*$ fi/1 & swung x /raight = my eye4 ,)9 a hair's-bread? %e drew back1 & /ruck out = ,victory's2 b ,god help$ h] n to fl9*4 ,!n ,i _c tell :at happ5$1 only h] =m dilat$1 & %e seem$ z if %e w\ld spr+ ^u u1 b z if %e 7 someh[ held back4 ,we d>e n move = fe> ( excit+ h] m4 ,!re we sat = ,i "k n h[ long1 ) ?is awful old woman's cl5*$ fi/ circl+ r\nd our heads1 or all b /rik+ into our eyes1 :ile )\t int]mission %e croon$ h] song 9 t holl[ hum t works ^u ! li/5] till ! n]ve ( ! s\l is drawn out1 z x 71 to its v f>!/ /ret*4 ,x 0 q d>k by ?is "t2 only ! yell[ flick] ( ! w9d-bl[n flame ( ! lamp made unc]ta9 lights & %ad[s r\nd ! place :]e we 7 sitt+1 & an e]ie influ5ce fell on u all1 almo/ mesm]ic 9 effect4 ,i did n ne$ ! awe/ruck :isp]s r\nd me to tell me :at x 04 ,b oh6 ,i felt1 z ,i nev] felt be=e1 ! reality ( ! pres5ce ( unse5 p[]s1 & ,i knew t ! ,actual itself 0 9 ! room ) me4 ,at la/ %e fell back exhau/$1 trembl+ 9 e limb4 ,h] old head hit ! wall z %e fell1 b ,i knew we mu/ n help h]2 x w\ld be pollution to h] if we t\*$ h]4 ,! p all r\nd 7 too fright5$ to move4 ,s %e fell & lay !re quiv]+1 h] glitt]+ eyes /ill fix$ on u2 & %e tri$ to speak1 b c\ld n4 ,s(tly we /ole away1 & we felt we _h be5 v ne> :]e ,satan's seat is4 ,?9k ( someone y love--z ,i did !n--( someone ^: hair is :ite l h]s2 b ! face y ?9k ( has peace 9 x1 & ,god's light light5s x4 ,!n ?9k ( h] z we saw h] la/--! old face torn ) ! fury ( hell1 & = light ! d>kness !re(4 ,oh1 fri5ds1 d y c>e en\gh8 ,d we c>e en\gh out "h8 ,god give u he>ts t c c>e6 ,,*apt] ,v ,! ,prey ( ! ,t]rible ,i believe we are 9 ! mid/ ( a great battle4 ,we are n ourselves fight+1 we are simply accept+ ev]y?+ t comes2 b ! ,p[]s ( ,light are fight+ aga9/ ! ,p[]s ( ,d>kness1 & !y w c]ta9ly prevail4 ,! ,holy ,_s is work+1 b ! p d n z yet "k x is ! ,_s4 ,he/] ,ne$ham1 ,sumatra4 ,,! devil's fav\rite device j n[ is to move int]e/$ p to f>-away places4 ,we h _h sev]al :o seem$ v ne> to ! ,k+dom4 ,!n sudd5ly !y h disappe>$4 ,!re 0 ,wrea?1 ( ! ,village ( ! ,temple4 ,%e us$ to li/5 9 ! %ad[ ( ! door :ile we sat on ! outside v]&ah4 ,!n %e got bold]1 & op5ly ask$ to see ,gold51 & talk ) h]4 ,"o day1 unexpect$ly1 ,gold5 0 l$ to ! ,r$ ,lake ,village1 & to h] surprise f\nd ,wrea? !re4 ,%e _h be5 s5t away f ! ,village ( ! ,temple1 & 0 n[ ) "s o!r relations1 "u ev5 /rict] gu>d4 ,b ,god l$ ,gold51 all unkn[+ly1 to g /raight to ! v h\se :]e %e 04 ,s %e he>d aga94 ,next "t ,gold5 w5t %e c\ld n see h] alone1 b someh[ ,wrea? got h] to und]/& t if %e w5t to a c]ta9 tree ne> ! wom5's ba?+-place1 at a c]ta9 "t next week1 %e w\ld try to meet h] !re4 ,gold5 w5t1 & !y met4 ,wrea? told h] %e believ$ x all1 b %e c\ld n !n face break+ ,ca/e & de/roy+ h] family's "n4 ,!y _h be5 good to h]1 h[ c\ld %e disgrace !m8 ,/ill1 %e eag]ly want$ to g on he>+1 & we felt t if %e did1 ! love ( ,god w\ld w94 ,s we 7 full ( hope4 ,next "t ,gold5 w5t %e c\ld f9d no trace ( h]4 ,%e has nev] se5 h] s9ce4 ,!re is a rum\r t %e has be5 c>ri$ (f ov] ! m\nta9s1 hundr$s ( miles away4 ,9 ano!r village a bright1 ke5 boy ( sev5te5 li/5$ "o day :5 we taught ! wom51 &1 becom+ greatly int]e/$1 op5ly took ! ,gospel's "p :5 ! village eld]s attack$ x4 ,aft] "s weeks he ga!r$ c\rage to come & see ! ,iy]4 ,he 0 a v intellig5t boy1 well kn[n all ov] ! c\ntryside1 because he _h /udi$ ! ,tamil classics1 & also because ( 8 connection ) "o ( ! *ief temples ( ! di/rict4 ,a =tnight aft] 8 visit "h1 our ,b& w5t to 8 village4 ,!y he>d t he 0 m>ri$ & gone1 :]e1 no "o w\ld say4 ,! relations mu/ h he>d ( 8 com+ to u 7( c\rse he 0 urg$ to tell !m71 & !y ru%$ him ?r\gh a m>riage1 & s5t him (f po/ ha/e4 ,s n[ !re is ano!r key turn$1 lock+ him into ,h9duism4 ,9 ! ,village ( ! ,w9d a "y girl became kn[n z an inquir]4 ,h] ,ca/e pass$ ! ^w along f village to village :]ev] its memb]s 7 f\nd1 & all ^! relations & connections 7 spe$ily leagu$ 9 a compact to keep h] f he>+ m4 ,:5 we w5t to see h]1 we f\nd %e _h be5 po/$ (f some:]e else4 ,:5 we w5t to ! some:]e else 7always freely m5tion$ to u1 ) invitations to g71 we f\nd %e _h be5 !re1 b _h be5 =w>d$ else:]e4 ,= weeks %e 0 toss$ ab\t l ?is2 !n we trac$ h]1 & f\nd h]4 ,b %e 0 ?or\ghly c[$1 & d>$ n %[ ! lea/ int]e/ 9 u4 ,x is (t5 l t4 ,j at ! po9t :]e ! s\l-poise is s delicate t ! lighte/ t\* affects x1 some?+1 someone1 pu%es x r\ghly1 & x trembles a mom5t1 !n falls--on ! wrong side4 ,! reason = all ?is al]tness ( opposition is1 t scatt]$ ab\t ! five ?\s& squ>e miles we call our field1 "h & !re se$s are beg9n+ to gr[4 ,"s ( ! s[]s are 9 ,engl& n[1 & "s are 9 heav5--s[]s & reap]s1 ,engli% & ,tamil1 rejoice toge!r6 ,?is is kn[n ev]y:]e1 = ! news spreads f t[n to t[n1 & !n out to ! villages1 & ! result is opposition4 ,sometimes ! little pat* ( gr\nd :i* look$ s hopeful is trampl$1 & ! "y se$l+s kill$2 sometimes !y seem to be root$ up4 ,:5 we g to our ,ma/] & tell ,him1 ,he expla9s x3 ,an ,enemy ha? done ?is4 ,b z ! measure ( ! ,enemy's activity is 9 direct proportion to ! measure ( ,god's work+1 we take x z a sign ( enc\ragem5t1 h[ev] h9d]+ x may be4 ,satan w\ld n tr\ble to fight if he saw no?+ wor? attack+2 he does n seem to m9d ! spread ( a head k ( ! ,doctr9e1 or ev5 a cordial appreciation ( x4 ,(t5 we he> ! p say h[ excell5t x is1 & h[ !y nev] wor%ip idols n[1 b only ! true ,god2 & ev5 a hea!n "m w make h] *ild repeat its texts to y1 & a fa!r w tell y h[ x tells him ,bible /ories2 & if y are q new to ! "w y put x 9 ! ,magaz9e1 & at home x s\nds l conv]sion4 ,all ?is goes on mo/ peacefully2 !re is n ! slighte/ /ir1 till some?+ happ5s to %[ ! p t ! ,doctr9e is n j a ,cre$1 b conta9s a liv+ ,p[]4 ,& !n1 & n till !n1 !re is opposition4 ,?is opposition is suffici5tly /rong 9 ! case ( a boy or "y man 7old] ,ca/e m5 & wom5 r>ely *ange _! religion 9 ?is "p ( ,s\? ,india71 b if a girl is 9 "q1 ! ,ca/e is t\*$ at its mo/ s5sitive po9t1 & ! feel+ is simply int5se4 ,m5 & demons seem to conspire to hold su* a "o 9 ! clut* ( ! ,t]rible4 ,!re is a "y girl 9 ,cupid's ,lake ,village ^: he>t ! ,"l op5$ "s weeks ago4 ,%e is a g5tle1 timid girl1 & devot$ to h] "m4 ,c x be "r to break my "m's he>t8 %e us$ to ask u pitifully4 ,we urg$ h] to try to w9 h] "m1 b ! "m 0 j furi\s4 ,! mom5t %e und]/ood t h] daught] want$ to foll[ ,jesus1 or jo9 ! ,way1 z %e w\ld express x1 %e ga!r$ ! girl's books & burnt !m1 & =bade h] ev] to m5tion ! subject2 & %e w5t all r\nd ! villages try+ to /op our "w4 ,at la/ ?+s came to a crisis4 ,! girl 0 told to d :at %e felt w\ld be s9 aga9/ ,god4 ,%e refus$4 ,!y tri$ =ce1 %e] brute =ce4 ,%e n]v$ h]self = ! leap 9 ! d>k1 & tri$ to escape to u4 ,b 9 ! d>k night %e lo/ ! way1 & _h to run back to h] home4 ,next morn+ ! village prie/ spread a /ory to ! effect t 8 god _h appe>$ to him1 told him ( h] attempt to escape1 & t %e w\ld try twice aga91 b ea* "t ,i w /& 9 ! way & turn h] back1 he said4 ,?is naturally />tl$ ! girl4 ,is 8 god /rong] ?an ,jesus8 %e ask$ 9 real p]plexity4 ,we told h] we ?\ght ! tale 0 concoct$ to fright5 h]2 ! prie/ _h se5 h]1 & made up ! re/4 ,b twice s9ce !n1 driv5 by dire dang]1 t girl has tri$ to get to u1 & ea* "t %e has be5 turn$ back4 ,& n[ %e is kept 9 rigor\s gu>d1 z h] det]m9ation to be a ,*ri/ian is well kn[n to all 9 ! place4 ,d y say1 ,tell h] to /ay at home & be> x pati5tly8 ,we d tell h] s1 :5 we c see h]1 b we add1 till ,god makes a way ( escape2 & if y knew all !re is to be kn[n ab\t a ,h9du home1 & :at may happ5 9 x1 y w\ld n tell h] o!rwise4 ,b suppos+ !re is no?+ m ?an negative difficulty to be fe>$1 h y ev] tri$ 9 ?\ght to *ange places ) su* a girl8 ,h y ev] consid]$ h[ impossible x is = su* a "o to gr[8 ,! simple grace ( cont9uance is 9 dang] ( )]+ :5 all help ( e sort is absolutely cut (f1 & ! s\l is1 to beg9 )1 n deeply root$ 9 ,god4 ,plants1 ev5 :5 !y h life1 ne$ wat] & sun%9e & air4 ,babes ne$ milk4 ,y f9d x h>d en\gh to gr[1 if "o may judge f ! con/ant wails ab\t leanness1 & yet y are surr\nd$ by e possible help to gr[?4 ,y h a :ole ,bible1 n j a scrap ( x2 & y c read x all1 & und]/& at lea/ mo/ ( x4 ,y h endless good books1 hymn-books1 & spiritual pap]s2 y h s]mons e week1 num]\s meet+s = edification1 & p]haps an annual ,conv5tion4 ,n[ /rip y\rself ( all ?is4 ,%ut y\r ,bible1 & =get z completely z if y _h nev] kn[n x all y ev] read or he>d1 except ! ma9 facts ( ! ,gospel4 ,=get all ^? /r5g!n+ v]ses1 all ^? beautiful hymns1 all ^? inspir+ addresses4 ,likewise1 ( c\rse1 entirely =get all ! lov+ deal+s ( ,god ) y\rself & ) o!rs--a ,h9du has no su* memories to help h]4 ,!n g & live 9 a devil's d5 & develop sa9tl9ess4 ,! tru? is1 ev5 y w\ld f9d x difficult2 b ?is ,h9du girl's case is worse ?an t1 a million times worse4 ,?9k ( ! life1 & !n1 if y c1 tell h] %e mu/ be q satisfi$ ) x1 t x is ! w ( ,god4 ,y c\ld n say t x is ,8 w6 ,x is ! w ( ! ,t]rible1 :o holds on to 8 prey1 & w\ld r r5d x limb f limb ?an ev] let x g4 ,we are (t5 ask$ to tell conv]ts' /ories2 & c]ta9ly !y w\ld ?rill1 = ! way ( escape ,god op5s sometimes is1 l ,pet]'s f prison1 miracul\s2 & tru? is /rang] ?an fiction1 & f> m int]e/+4 ,b we :o "w 9 ! ,t]rible's lair1 & "k h[ he fights to get back 8 prey1 ev5 aft] x has escap$ f him1 are afraid to tell ^! /ories too mu*1 & feel t sil5ce is safe/1 &1 /range z x may seem to "s1 = ! pres5t mo/ glorifies ,god4 ,= a c]ta9 connection has be5 obs]v$ betwe5 publicity & p]il4 ,& we h le>n$ by exp]i5ce to fe> any attempt to photograph spiritual fruit4 ,! old ,greek arti/ turn$ away ! face t held too mu* = him to pa9t2 & t turn$-away face _h p[] 9 x1 !y say1 to t\* m5's he>ts4 ,we turn ^! faces away f y2 may ! v fact t we d x tea* "s at home to realise h[ mu* m lies 9 ea* ( !m ?an we c say1 h[ great a ne$ !re is to pray t ea* may be kept safe4 ,! names ( "o & ano!r occur1 because !y came 9 ! lett]s s (t5 t ,i c\ld n cross !m all out )\t alt]+ ! "* ( ! :ole2 !y are "p ( "o's v life4 ,b z ev5 a pass+ m5tion may mean dang]1 unless a c\nt]act+ influ5ce ( real pray] protects !m1 we ask y to pray t ! t5d] protection ( ,god may be fold$ r\nd ea* "o ( !m2 & !n :5 we meet :]e no s9 c creep into ! tell+1 & no h>m c foll[ x1 !y w tell y _! /ories !mselves1 & ,god w give y y\r %>e 9 ! joy1 comrades by pray] at home6 ,b let u press x on y n[--pray1 oh1 pray = ! conv]ts6 ,pray t !y may gr[ 9 ,*ri/4 ,pray t ,he may see ( ! travail ( ,8 s\l1 & be satisfi$ ) ea* ( !m4 ,& pray t we may ent] into t travail ( s\l ) ,him4 ,no?+ less is any good4 ,spiritual *ildr5 mean travail ( s\l--spiritual agony4 ,i wond] :o among ^? :o read ?is w realise :at ,i mean4 ,"s w1 ,i ?9k2 s ,i write x4 ,x is a solemn ?+ to f9d oneself drawn out 9 pray] :i* kn[s no relief till ! s\l x is burd5$ ) is born4 ,x is no less solemn aft]w>ds1 until ,*ri/ is =m$ 9 !m4 ,conv]ts are a responsible joy4 ,& n[ we h told y a little ( :at is go+ on4 ,!re are days :5 no?+ seems to be done1 & !n aga9 !re are days :5 ! ,t]rible seems almo/ visible1 z he ga!rs up 8 /r5g?1 & te>s & mauls 8 prey4 ,& s x is true we h to fight a sep>ate fight = ea* s\l4 ,b ano!r view ( ! case is a /r5g? to u _m a "t4 ,we are n ourselves fight+1 b ! ,p[]s ( ,light are fight+ aga9/ ! ,p[]s ( ,d>kness1 & ! com+ ( ! victory is only a "q ( "t4 ,%all ! prey be tak5 f ! ,mighty or ! captives ( ! ,t]rible be deliv]$8 ,b ?us sai? ! ,"l1 ,ev5 ! captives ( ! ,mighty %all be tak5 away & ! prey ( ! ,t]rible %all be deliv]$4 ,,*apt] ,,vi ,miss$ ,ends ,if y c\ld only "k :at "o feels on f9d+ oneself 4 4 4 :]e ! lea/ ray ( ! ,gospel has n p5etrat$6 ,if ^? fri5ds :o blame 4 4 4 c\ld see f af> :at we see1 & feel :at we feel1 !y w\ld be ! fir/ to wond] t ^? r$eem$ by ,*ri/ %\ld be s backw>d 9 devotion & "k s little ( ! _s ( self-sacrifice4 ,!y w\ld be a%am$ ( ! hesitations t h9d] u4 4 4 4 ,we mu/ rememb] t x 0 n by int]c$+ = ! _w 9 glory t ,jesus sav$ x4 ,he gave ,himself4 ,our pray]s = ! evangelisation ( ! _w are b a bitt] irony s long z we only give ( our sup]fluity1 & draw back be=e ! sacrifice ( ourselves4 ,m4 ,franois ,coill>d1 ,africa4 ,someone mu/ g1 & if no "o else w g1 he :o he>s ! call mu/ g2 ,i he> ! call1 = inde$ ,god has br\ght x be=e me on e side1 & g ,i mu/4 ,rev4 ,h5ry ,watson ,fox1 ,india4 ,,! tom-toms ?ump$ /raight on all night1 & ! d>kness %udd]$ r\nd me l a liv+1 feel+ ?+4 ,i c\ld n g to sleep1 s ,i lay awake & look$2 & ,i saw1 z x seem$1 ?is3 ,t ,i /ood on a grassy sw>d1 & at my feet a precipice broke %e] d[n into inf9ite space4 ,i look$1 b saw no bottom2 only cl\d %apes1 black & furi\sly coil$1 & great %ad[-%r\d$ holl[s1 & unfa?omable dep?s4 ,back ,i drew1 dizzy at ! dep?4 ,!n ,i saw =ms ( p mov+ s+le file along ! grass4 ,!y 7 mak+ = ! edge4 ,!re 0 a woman ) a baby 9 h] arms & ano!r little *ild hold+ on to h] dress4 ,%e 0 on ! v v]ge4 ,!n ,i saw t %e 0 bl9d4 ,%e lift$ h] foot = ! next /ep 4 4 4 x trod air4 ,%e 0 ov]1 & ! *ildr5 ov] ) h]4 ,oh1 ! cry z !y w5t ov]6 ,!n ,i saw m /reams ( p fl[+ f all qu>t]s4 ,all 7 bl9d1 /one bl9d2 all made /raight = ! precipice edge4 ,!re 7 %rieks z !y sudd5ly knew !mselves fall+1 & a toss+ up ( helpless arms1 cat*+1 clut*+ at empty air4 ,b "s w5t ov] quietly1 & fell )\t a s\nd4 ,!n ,i wond]$1 ) a wond] t 0 simply agony1 :y no "o /opp$ !m at ! edge4 ,i c\ld n4 ,i 0 glu$ to ! gr\nd1 & ,i c\ld n call2 ?\gh ,i /ra9$ & tri$1 only a :isp] w\ld come4 ,!n ,i saw t along ! edge !re 7 s5tries set at int]vals4 ,b ! int]vals 7 f> too great2 !re 7 wide1 ungu>d$ gaps betwe54 ,& ov] ^! gaps ! p fell 9 _! bl9dness1 q unw>n$2 & ! gre5 grass seem$ blood-r$ to me1 & ! gulf yawn$ l ! m\? ( hell4 ,!n ,i saw1 l a little picture ( peace1 a gr\p ( p "u "s trees1 ) _! backs turn$ t[>ds ! gulf4 ,!y 7 mak+ daisy *a9s4 ,sometimes :5 a pi]c+ %riek cut ! quiet air & rea*$ !m x di/urb$ !m1 & !y ?\ght x a r vulg> noise4 ,& if "o ( _! numb] />t$ up & want$ to g & d some?+ to help1 !n all ! o!rs w\ld pull t "o d[n4 ,:y %\ld y get s excit$ ab\t x8 ,y mu/ wait = a def9ite call to g6 ,y hav5't f9i%$ y\r daisy *a9s yet4 ,x w\ld be really selfi%1 !y said1 to leave u to f9i% ! "w alone4 ,!re 0 ano!r gr\p4 ,x 0 made up ( p ^: great desire 0 to get m s5tries out2 b !y f\nd t v few want$ to g1 & sometimes !re 7 no s5tries set = miles & miles ( ! edge4 ,once a girl /ood alone 9 h] place1 wav+ ! p back2 b h] "m & o!r relations call$1 & rem9d$ h] t h] furl\gh 0 due2 %e mu/ n break ! rules4 ,& be+ tir$ & ne$+ a *ange1 %e _h to g & re/ = a:ile2 b no "o 0 s5t to gu>d h] gap1 & ov] & ov] ! p fell1 l a wat]fall ( s\ls4 ,once a *ild caught at a tuft ( grass t grew at ! v br9k ( ! gulf2 x clung convulsively1 & x call$--b nobody seem$ to he>4 ,!n ! roots ( ! grass gave way1 & ) a cry ! *ild w5t ov]1 its two little h&s /ill hold+ tight to ! torn-(f bun* ( grass4 ,& ! girl :o long$ to be back 9 h] gap ?\ght %e he>d ! little "o cry1 & %e sprang up & want$ to g2 at :i* !y reprov$ h]1 rem9d+ h] t no "o is necess>y any:]e2 ! gap w\ld be well tak5 c>e (1 !y knew4 ,& !n !y sang a hymn4 ,!n ?r\gh ! hymn came ano!r s\nd l ! pa9 ( a million brok5 he>ts wrung out 9 "o full drop1 "o sob4 ,& a horror ( great d>kness 0 ^u me1 = ,i knew :at x 0--! ,cry ( ! ,blood4 ,!n ?und]$ a ,voice1 ! ,voice ( ! ,"l3 ,& ,he said1 ,:at ha/ ?\ done8 ,! voice ( ?y bro!rs' blood crie? unto ,me f ! gr\nd4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 ,! tom-toms /ill beat heavily1 ! d>kness /ill %udd]$ & %iv]$ ab\t me2 ,i he>d ! yells ( ! devil-danc]s & ! weird wild %riek ( ! devil-possess$ j outside ! gate4 ,:at does x matt]1 aft] all8 ,x has gone on = ye>s2 x w g on = ye>s4 ,:y make su* a fuss ab\t x8 ,god =give u6 ,god ar\se u6 ,%ame u out ( our call\sness6 ,%ame u out ( our s96 99 99 99 99 99 ,"o aft]noon1 a few weeks aft] t night at ! precipice edge1 ,victory & ,i 7 visit+ 9 ! ,r$ ,lake ,village1 :5 we he>d ! dea?-beat ( ! tom-tom & ! %riek ( ! con* %ell1 & we knew t ano!r _h gone beyond our rea*4 ,"o c nev] get accu/om$ to ?is4 ,we /opp$ = a mom5t & li/5$4 ,! wom5 we 7 tea*+ broke 9 ) eag] explanations4 ,oh1 he 0 su* a great "o6 ,he _h receiv$ ! ,initiation4 ,!re w be a gr& c]emonial1 gr&] ?an ev] y h6 ,!n !y told u h[ ?is great "o _h be5 initiat$ into ! ,h9du my/]ies by 8 family prie/1 & t ! my/ical b5efits accru+ f ?is initiation 7 to be caus$ to rev]t to ! prie/4 ,?is ,rev]t+ ( ! ,initiation 0 to be "o ( ! c]emonies4 ,we wat*$ ! procession pass d[n ! /reet4 ,!y 7 go+ = wat] f a sacr$ /ream = ! ba?+ ( purification4 ,:5 !y return1 said ! wom51 ! c]emonies w beg94 ,a little lat] we pass$ ! h\se1 & /ood look+ 9 ?r\gh ! doorway4 ,!re 0 ! usual l>ge squ>e c\rty>d1 ) ! v]&ah runn+ r\nd ?ree sides4 ,! v]&ah 0 full ( wom54 ,we long$ to g 91 b did n ?9k !y w\ld let u4 ,! c\rty>d 0 r confus$2 m5 7 ru%+ ab\t1 putt+ up ar*es & decorat+ !m2 s]vants 7 sweep+1 & cook+1 & %\t+ to "o ano!r2 ! wom5 7 talk+ & laugh+4 ,& all ! "t f )9 ! h\se came ! s\nd ( ! dirge = ! dead1 & ! laugh & ! wail /ruck aga9/ ea* o!r1 & j>r$4 ,no "o notic$ u = a:ile1 b at la/ a woman saw u1 & beckon$ u to come4 ,we are all defil$ to-day2 y may sit ) u1 !y said2 & yield+ to ! in/9cts ( _! k9dly ,tamil nature1 !y cru%$ clos] toge!r to make room = u beside !m4 ,h[ ,i did enjoy be+ squeez$ up !re among !m4 ,b to appreciate t 9 ! lea/ y w\ld h to "w 9 a ca/e-b\nd "p ( old ,india2 y c h no idea1 until y try1 h[ h>d x is to refra9 f t\*+ ^? :om y love4 ,! h\se door op5$ ^u ! v]&ah1 & we c\ld he> ! moan ( ! dirge4 ,!re is sorr[ on ! sea2 x _c be quiet4 ,!re 0 no quietness1 only ! ceaseless moan1 t kept ris+ into a wail2 !re 7 te>s 9 ! s\nd ( ! wail1 & ,i felt l a sort ( liv+ h>p ) all its /r+s drawn tight4 ,b ! wom5 outside c>$ no?+ at all4 ,x 0 /range to see h[ call\s !y 74 ,x 0 n _! own :o _h di$1 s !y *att$ & laugh$ & wat*$ ! proce$+s--! ty+ ( ! g>l&s r\nd ! ar*es1 ! arrangem5t ( (f]+s = ! ,brahmans4 ,x 0 all full ( int]e/ to !m4 ,we tri$ to turn _! ?\ghts to ! ,p[]s ( ! ,_w to ,come4 ,b no4 ,!y did n c>e4 ,pres5tly !re 0 a /ir4 ,! m5 are com+6 !y said4 ,run6 !re is a %ady corn] "u ^? palms on ! f> v]&ah6 ,run & hide6 ,!y are "h6 ,&1 ev5 z !y spoke1 9 /ream$ ! m51 ea* ) 8 brass wat]-vessel pois$ on 8 head1 & !y saw u /&+ !re4 ,we ?\ght !y w\ld turn u out1 & 7 q prep>$ to g at a sign f ! head ( ! clan4 ,b he 0 a fri5d ( ours1 & he smil$ z we salaam$1 & po9t$ to a quiet corn]1 out ( ! way1 :]e we c\ld see x all )\t be+ too mu* se54 ,to und]/& ?is1 :i* to me 0 a surprise1 "o mu/ rememb] t by nature ! ,indian is mo/ c\rte\s1 & if x 7 n = ,ca/e rules we %\ld be all[$ to come mu* clos] to !m ?an is possible n[4 ,to-day !y 7 all c]emonially unclean1 s our pres5ce 0 n consid]$ pollut+4 ,also ! ,indian loves a function2 sad or glad1 x matt]s little4 ,life is a bubble on ! wat]2 enjoy x :ile y may4 ,& !y sympa?is$ ) :at !y ?\ght 0 our desire to see ! %[4 ,?is 0 human2 !y c\ld und]/& x4 ,s !y let u /ay2 & we /ay$1 hop+ = a *ance lat] on4 ,!n ! c]emonies began4 ,!y c>ri$ ! dead man out & laid him 9 ! c\rty>d "u ! ar* ( palms4 ,he 0 old & worn & ?94 ,"o c\ld see ! f9e old face1 ) ! m>ks ( ! ,h9du trid5t pa9t$ d[n ! =ehead4 ,he _h be5 a mo/ e>ne/ ,h9du2 all ! rites 7 duly p]=m$1 & morn+ & night = _m ye>s he _h m>k$ ^? m>ks on 8 br[4 ,_h he ev] once li/5$ to ! ,tru?8 ,i d n "k4 ,he mu/ h he>d ab\t x1 b he _h n receiv$ x4 ,he di$1 !y told u1 n kn[+ :at lay on ! o!r side4 ,! wat]-be>]s laid _! vessels on ! gr\nd4 ,ea* _h a leaf across its m\?4 ,! prie/ 0 cr[n$ ) a *aplet ( fl[]s4 ,!n came ! ba?+4 ,!y ?rew up a %elt]1 & c>ri$ him !re4 ,x 0 rev]5tly done4 ,!re 0 a t\* ( ref9em5t 9 ! ?\ght :i* bani%$ ! wom5 & *ildr5 be=e ! ba?+ began4 ,tamils ba! 9 ! op5 air1 & always clo!d1 b always ap>t4 ,& z ! wom5's v]&ah ov]look$ ! scre5$ enclosure1 !y 7 all ord]$ (f4 ,!y w5t & wait$1 sil5t n[1 aw$ by ! pres5ce ( ! m54 ,:ile ! ba?+ 0 go+ on ! prie/s *ant$ & mutt]$ incantations1 & n[ & aga9 a bell 0 rung1 & inc5se wav$1 & tap]s light$4 ,n[ !y 7 caus+ t my/]i\s ,some?+ :i* /ill hov]$ r\nd ! lifeless =m to leave x & return to !m1 & :5 ! ba?+ 0 ov] !y signifi$ t all 0 done2 ! ,influ5ce _h dep>t$1 desc5d$2 ! fun]al c]emonies might proce$4 ,& all ?is "t1 )\t a break1 ! dirge 0 be+ sung by ! m\rn]s 9 ! h\se4 ,x 0 a sort ( und]note to all ! s\nds outside4 ,!n ! old man1 rob$ 9 :ite & cr[n$ & wrea!d ) fl[]s1 0 c>ri$ r\nd to ! o!r side2 & oh1 ! pitifulness ( x all6 ,/4 ,paul mu/ h be5 ?9k+ ( "s su* sc5e :5 he wrote to ! conv]ts1 ,t ye sorr[ n ev5 z o!rs :i* h no hope4 ,& ,i ?\ght h[ /rangely call\s we 71 h[ sup]ficial our sympa?y4 ,! ,"l's comm& does n /ir u1 ! sorr[ ( ^? we neglect does n t\* u2 we ?9k s mu* m ( ourselves & our own selfi% pleasure ?an we ?9k ( ! purpose = :i* we 7 sav$--& at su* a trem5d\s co/6 ,oh = a baptism ( reality & ob$i5ce to sweep ov] u6 ,oh to be true to ! hymns we s+ & ! v[s we make6 ,god make u true4 ,=give all ?is4 ,x 0 burnt into me afre% t day z ,i sat !re wat*+ ! ?+s !y did & li/5+ to :at !y said4 ,we _h come too late = t old dead man1 too late = mo/ ( ! liv+ ones too4 ,c y wond] if at su* solemn times "o yields oneself afre% & = ev] to obey8 ,rice 0 prep>$ = ! dead man's use1 & balls ( rice 7 ready to be (f]$ to 8 _s aft] 8 cremation2 = ! ,h9dus ?9k t an int]m$iate body mu/ be =m$ & n\ri%$1 :i* on ! ?irte5? day aft] dea? is conduct$ to ei!r heav5 or hell1 accord+ to ! de$s done on e>?4 ,! c]emonies 7 all *>act]is$ by a belief 9 "s future /ate4 ,! _s 0 some:]e--9 ! d>k--s !y tri$ to light ! way = him4 ,?is rem9ds me ( "o c]emony especially sugge/ive4 ,all ! little gr&*ildr5 7 br\ght1 & light$ tap]s giv5 to !m2 !n !y procession$ r\nd ! bi]1 r\nd & r\nd _m times1 hold+ ! tap]s /eadily1 & look+ s]i\s & impress$4 ,!n ! wid[ came out ) a woman on ei!r side support+ h]4 ,& %e walk$ r\nd & r\nd h] husb&1 ) ! te>s roll+ d[n h] face1 & %e wail$ ! wid['s wail1 ) h] v he>t 9 x4 ,:y _h he gone away & left h] desolate8 ,8 0 ! _s ( fragrance l ! sc5t$ s&al-wood2 8 0 ! arm ( /r5g? l ! lock t b>r$ ! door4 ,gone 0 ! sc5t ( ! s&al1 brok5 & op5 ! door2 :y _h ! bird fl[n & left b ! empty cage8 ,gone6 0 he gone8 ,0 he really gone8 ,0 x c]ta9 he 0 dead8 ,he :o _h toss$ & turn$ on ! s(te/ b$ !y c\ld make1 mu/ he lie on ! b$ ( 8 fun]al pyre8 ,mu/ he burn ^u logs ( wood8 ,say1 0 !re no way to rea* him1 no way to help him n[8 ,i h se>*$ = !e1 b ,i f9d !e n4 ,& s ! dirge moan$ on4 ,i c\ld n he> all ?is !n2 ,victory told x to me1 & mu* m1 aft]w>ds4 ,la/ "t ,i he>d x1 %e said1 ,i 0 inside1 wail+ too4 ,z ! poor wid[ w5t r\nd & r\nd %e /opp$ ea* "t %e got to ! feet1 & embrac$ !m f]v5tly4 ,sometimes %e broke ?r\gh all re/ra9t1 & clasp$ him 9 h] arms4 ,illu/ration3 ,a photo r>ely possible4 ,! dead woman lies 9 h] bi]2 ! :ite on h] eyes & br[ is ! m>k ( ,siva's a%es4 ,"s ( ! m\rn]s are s m>k$1 z !y are all ,saivites4 ,! fire is light$ f ! pot ( fire to ! "r4 ,j be=e x is light$1 ! *ief m\rn] takes a vessel ( wat]1 pi]ces a hole 9 x1 walks r\nd ! dead1 lett+ ! wat] trickle out1 pi]ces ano!r hole & repeats ! walk4 ,aft] ! ?ird pi]c+ & walk1 he ?r[s ! pot backw>ds ov] 8 %\ld]1 & z x sma%es ! wat] all spla%es out4 ,?is is to refre% ! _s if x %\ld be ?ir/y :ile its body is be+ burn$4 ,aft] _m c]emonies _h be5 p]=m$1 ! m5 all w5t away1 & ! wom5 7 left to bid f>ewell to ! =m soon to be c>ri$ out4 ,!n ! m5 came back & bore him across ! c\rty>d1 & paus$ "u ! ar* outside1 :ile ! wom5 all ru%$ out1 te>+ _! hair & beat+ !mselves & wail+ wildly4 ,z !y 7 lift+ ! bi] to dep>t ! cry 01 ,/op6 /op6 ,w he n speak8 ,& ?is1 *ant$ aga9 & aga91 w\ld h made ! colde/ c>e4 ,!n :5 all 0 ov]1 & ! long procession1 head$ by ! tom-toms & con* %ells1 _h pass$ out ( sight1 ! wom5 press$ 9 aga91 & ea* fir/ let d[n h] hair1 & seiz$ h] ne>e/ neighb\r1 & !y all flung !mselves on ! gr\nd & knock$ _! heads aga9/ x1 & !n1 ris+ to a sitt+ po/ure1 !y held on to "o ano!r1 sway+ backw>ds & =w>ds & *ant+ 9 "t to ! sway+1 9 *orus & antiphone4 ,all ?is1 ev5 to ! hair-te>+ & head-knock+1 0 copi$ by ! *ildr5 :o 7 pres5t ) t]rible fidelity4 ,we sat d[n among !m4 ,!y took our h&s & rock$ u 9 ! or?odox way4 ,b we did n wail & we did n undo our hair4 ,we tri$ to speak com=t+ words to ^? :o 7 really 9 grief1 b we f\nd x 0 n ! "t4 ,a =tnight lat] we w5t aga91 & f\nd ! h\se door op5 because we _h be5 ) !m t day4 ,b we c\ld n help !m !n1 s we rose & 7 go+ away1 :51 held by ! p[] ( t dirge ( !irs1 ,i turn$ to look aga94 ,! la/ rays ( ! aft]noon sun 7 light+ up ! c\rty>d1 & %9+ on ! masses ( black hair & grey4 ,z ,i look$ !y got up "o by "o1 & put _! disord]$ dress to rights1 & %ook out ! du/ f _! glossy hair1 & did x up aga94 ,& "o by "o1 )\t f>ewell ( any sort1 !y w5t away4 ,an h\r lat] we met gr\ps ( !m com+ home f ba?+4 ,!y w\ld n t\* u !n4 ,aft]w>ds ! *ief m\rn]s came out & ba!d1 & w5t all r\nd ! village wail+4 ,& ! la/ ?+ ,i saw1 z ! sun set ov] ! hills & ! place grew *ill & d>k1 0 ! old wid[1 worn out n[1 return+ home 9 h] wet ?+s1 wail+ /ill4 ,i write ?is "u a s5se ( ! solemnity ( be+ a s]vant 4 4 4 sep>at$ unto ! ,gospel4 ,i w\ld n write "o ^w lightly4 ,b oh6 may ,i ask y to face x8 ,are we hone/ t[>ds ,god8 ,if we 71 w\ld ^! p be left to die z !y are be+ left to die8 ,we feel = !m4 ,b feel+s w n save s\ls2 x co/ ,god ,calv>y to w9 u4 ,x w co/ u z mu* z we may "k ( ! fell[%ip ( ,8 suff]+s1 if ^? = :om ,he di$ t day are ev] to be won4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 ,i am writ+ 9 ! mid/ ( ! sights & ! s\nds ( life4 ,!re is life 9 ! gr\p ( wom5 at ! well2 life 9 ! voices1 9 ! spla% ( ! wat]1 9 ! cry ( a *ild1 9 ! call ( ! "m2 life 9 ! flight ( ! p>rots z !y flock f tree to tree2 life 9 _! *att] z !y qu>rel & scream2 life1 ev]y:]e life4 ,h[ c ,i ?9k out ( all ?is1 back into dea? aga98 ,b ,i want to1 = y may live = _m a ye> 9 ,india )\t be+ all[$ to see once :at we h se5 twice )9 two mon?s1 & x _c be = no?+ t we saw x4 ,we mu/ be meant to %[ x to y4 ,illu/ration3 ,?is ne$s to be look$ into4 ,gradually ! middle cle>s4 ,! wom5 are hold+ ea* o!r's h&s prep>atory to sway+ backw>ds & =w>ds z !y *ant ! dirge = ! dead4 ,! lamp 7y see its top ne> ! vessel on ! "r7 0 light$ z soon z ! old woman di$1 & plac$ at h] head on ! floor4 ,s bl9dly !y %[ _! s5se ( ! d>kness ( dea?4 ,! brass wat] vessel1 ) ! leaves laid across its m\?1 0 fill$ ) ! wat] ( purification4 ,?is 0 p\r$ 9 a circle on ! floor r\nd ! body4 ,! bits ( grass are ! sacr$ ,kusa grass us$ 9 _m religi\s c]emonies4 ,! ,picture-cat*+ ,missie & ,i 7 9 ! ,village ( ! ,tam>9d ,tree1 :5 = ! second "t ,i saw x4 ,!y are v fri5dly !re1 & j z 9 ! ,r$ ,lake ,village !y let u look beh9d ! curta91 s "h aga9 !y pu%$ x back1 & let u 91 & w5t on ) _! bus9ess1 n m9d+ u4 ,we cr\*$ up close toge!r on ! only scrap ( empty space1 & wat*$4 ,ev]y?+ 0 less int5se2 ! dead 0 only a poor & v old wid[ :o _h liv$ h] life out1 & 0 n want$4 ,!re 7 no ne> k9dr$1 only relations by m>riage2 x 0 evid5t ev]yone w5t ?r\gh ! =m )\t emotion ( any sort4 ,! woman lay on a r\gh bi] on ! floor1 & r\nd h] cr[d$ a doz5 old wom54 ,at h] head !re 0 a brass vessel ( wat]1 a lamp-/&1 "s uncook$ rice1 & "s brok5 cocoanuts4 ,j be=e we came 9 !y _h fill$ a little brass vessel f ! l>g] "o4 ,n[ "o ( ! old hags walk$ r\nd ! dead ?ree times1 p\r+ ! wat] out z %e walk$4 ,!n ano!r f$ h]--f$ t poor dead m\?1 /uff$ x 9 s r\ghly x made u sick & fa9t4 ,!re 7 o!r ?+s done hurri$ly1 c>elessly2 we c\ld n foll[ !m4 ,! la/ 0 ! rubb+ on ( a%es--%e _h be5 a wor%ipp] ( ,siva--also !y cov]$ ! clos$ eyes ) a%es & patt$ !m d[n flat4 ,& all ! "t ! gabble ( ! wom5 mock$ at ! sil5ce ( dea?4 ,!re 0 no rev]5ce1 no s5se ( solemnity2 ! c]emonial s full ( symbol to its mak]s1 ! ?9k]s ( ,vdic times1 0 to !m simply a cu/om1 a set ( cu/oms1 to be foll[$ & got ?r\gh z quickly z might be by he$less h&s4 ,& yet !y fai?fully c>ri$ out e detail !y knew1 & !y f9i%$ _! he>tless "w & call$ to ! m5 to come4 ,! m5 7 wait+ outside4 ,!y came 9 & c>ri$ h] out4 ,x seem$ impossible to ?9k ( a photograph !n2 x 0 mo/ unlikely !y w\ld let u take "o1 & we h>dly felt 9 ! _s ( picture-cat*+4 ,yet we ?\ght ( y1 & ( h[ y c]ta9ly c\ld nev] see x unless we c\ld %[ x to y2 & we want$ to %[ x to y1 s we ask$ !m if we might4 ,( c\rse if !re _h be5 real grief1 z 9 ! o!r ,i _h se51 we c\ld n h ask$ x1 x w\ld h be5 intrusion2 b "h !re 0 none--t 0 ! pa?os ( x4 ,& !y 7 v fri5dly1 s !y put _! burd5 on ! gr\nd1 & wait$4 ,!re x is4 ,to ! "r ! b>b] /&s ) 8 fire-b[l hang+ f a *a92 ?is is to light ! fun]al pyre4 ,! smoke int]f]$ ) ! photo1 b !n x is true to life4 ,to ! left /&s ! man ) ! %ell ready to bl[4 ,at ! back1 ) ! sacr$ a%es rubb$ on =ehead & brea/ & arms1 /& ! two ne>e/ relatives1 :o to-morr[ w ga!r ! a%es & ?r[ !m into ! /ream4 ,! picture 0 caught4 ,! man ) ! %ell blew x1 ! man ) ! fire came 9 front1 ! be>]s lift$ ! bi]2 !y w5t away ) _! dead4 ,illu/ration3 ,^! are ?ree ( ! m\rn]s1 b !y 7 only m\rn+ c]emonially2 & s1 releas$ = ! mom5t f _! duty1 !y q enjoy$ !mselves4 ,!n ! old wom51 :o _h be5 press+ ?r\gh ! op5 door1 ru%$ back 9 ! usual way & began ! usual rock & dirge4 ,^! ,comp>ison ,songs are always full ( s\l4 ,!y h sprung into be+ 9 times ( deepe/ feel+1 tak5 %ape :5 he>ts 7 z f9ely wr\ght m\lds :i* left _! impress ^u !m4 ,& to he> !m *ant$ )\t any s\l is someh[ a pitiful ?+1 a sort ( pr(anation1 l ! s++ ( sacr$ words = pay4 ,! photograph 0 n easy to take1 ! space 0 s conf9$1 ! movem5t s cont9u\s1 ! commotion s confus+4 ,h[ x 0 tak5 ,i "k n2 ! wom5 mass$ on ! floor 7 n /ill = m ?an a mom5t4 ,9 t mom5t x 0 done4 ,!n we p]suad$ ?ree ( !m to risk ! p]il ( be+ caught alone4 ,!y w\ld n move f>!r ?an ! wall ( ! h\se1 & z x 0 9 a n>r[ /reet1 aga9 !re 7 difficulties4 ,b ! cr[n+ p]plexity 0 at ! wat]-side4 ,x 0 w9dy1 & our calls 7 bl[n away1 s !y did n he> :at we want$ !m to d1 & !y spla%$ too vigor\sly4 ,_! only idea j !n 0 to get !mselves & _! g>m5ts c]emonially clean1 defil$ z !y 7 by contact ) ! dead4 ,b let ^? six :om y c p>tly see /& = ! ?\s&s ^u ?\s&s :om y _c see at all4 ,^? ?\s&s are /&+ 9 wat] to-day f ! ,nor? to ! utt]mo/ ,s\?1 z ! la/ act 9 ! drama :i* !y h play$ 9 ! pres5ce ( ! dead4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 ,! wom5 h gone f ! well4 ,! p>rots h fl[n to o!r trees4 ,! ,tamils say ! body is ! %ea? ( ! s\l4 ,i ?9k ( t empty %ea? ,i saw1 & wond] :]e ! s\l has fl[n4 ,x has gone--b :]e8 ,has x gone home1 l ! wom5 f ! well8 ,has x fl[n f>1 l ! birds among ! trees8 ,x has gone1 x has gone1 t is all we "k4 ,x has gone4 ,!n ,i read ^! words f ,conybe>e & ,h[son's translation3 ,if ! t5t :i* is my e>?ly h\se be de/roy$ ,i h a mansion built by ,god 4 4 4 et]nal 9 ! heav5s4 ,& h]e9 ,i groan ) e>ne/ long+s1 desir+ to cov] my e>?ly raim5t ) ! robes ( my heav5ly mansion4 4 4 4 ,& ,he :o has prep>$ me = ?is v end is ,god4 ,! dead man miss$ 8 ,end4 ,t old dead woman miss$ x too4 ,& ! millions ar\nd u /ill alive are miss+ _! ,end to-day4 ,?is v ,end--?9k ( x--,mortality swall[$ up 9 ,life--,dea? only an abs5ce1 ,life = ev] a pres5ce--,pres5t ) ! ,"l :o has prep>$ u = ?is v ,end4 ,c we enjoy x all by ourselves8 ,w !re be no s5se ( incomplet5ess if ! _m are outside1 miss+ x all because !y miss$ _! ,end8 ,w ! glory make u glad if !y are some:]e f> away f x & ,god8 ,w n heav5 be almo/ an empty place to "o :o has nev] tri$ to fill x8 ,yet !re is room1 oh s mu* room1 = ^? we are meant to br+ 9 ) u6 ,& !re is room1 oh s mu* room1 along ! edge ( ! precipice4 ,!re are gaps left all ungu>d$4 ,c x be t y are meant to gu>d "o ( ^? gaps8 ,if s1 x w always rema9 z x is1 a fall+-po9t = ^? riv]s ( s\ls1 unless y come4 ,are ^! ?+s tru? or are !y imag9ation8 ,if !y are imag9ation--!n let ! pap] on :i* !y are writt5 be burnt1 burnt till x curls up & ! words fall into du/4 ,b if !y are true--!n :at are we go+ to d8 ,n :at are we go+ to say or s+1 or ev5 feel or pray--b :at are we go+ to d8 ,illu/ration3 ,! c]emonial ba?+4 ,!y are all old wom51 b ! v olde/ old woman 9 ,india ba!s mo/ vigor\sly4 ,aft] ?is ba?+ is ov]1 !y are purifi$ f ! defilem5t contract$ by go+ to ! h\se ( ! dead4 ,,*apt] ,,vii ,! ,du/ ( ! ,actual ,?is may be c\nt$ z our ri*e/ ga91 to h le>n$ afre% "o's utt] impot5cy s completely t ! pa/ axiom ( s]vice1 ',i c no m conv]t a s\l ?an create a />1' comes to be an awful revelation1 s t ,god alone may be exalt$ 9 t day4 ,rev4 ,walt] ,se>le1 ,africa4 ,,we h j come back f a ,p>iah village4 ,n[ see x all ) me4 ,su* a curi\s little collection ( huts1 ?r[n d[n any:]e2 su* half-fright5$1 half-fri5dly faces2 su* a scurry+ 9 ( "s & out ( o!rs2 & we wond] :i* h\se we _h bett] make =4 ,we /op be=e "o a %ade clean] ?an mo/1 & l>g] & m op54 ,may we come 98 ,*orus1 ,come 96 oh1 come 96 & 9 we g4 ,x is a t9y1 n>r[ slip ( a room4 ,at "o end !re is a fire burn+ on ! gr\nd2 ! smoke f9ds its way out ?r\gh ! ro(1 & a pot ( rice set on ?ree /ones is bubbl+ *e]fully4 ,no fe> ( defilem5t "h4 ,!y w\ld n l u to t\* _! rice or to see !m eat+ x1 b !y d n m9d our be+ 9 ! room :]e x is be+ cook$4 ,at ! o!r end ( ! n>r[ slip !re is a goat-p51 n v clean2 & d[n "o side !re is a rais$ mud place :]e ! family app>5tly sleep4 ,?is side & ! two ends are ro($ by palmyra palm4 ,x is dry & crackles at a t\*1 & y t\* x e "t y /& up1 s bits ( x are con/antly fall+ & help+ to litt] ! op5 space bel[4 ,illu/ration3 ,an anci5t ,p>iah1 b ! baby 9 h] arms is a son ( ! ,ca/e ( ,palmyra ,climb]s4 ,bo? faces--! old crone's & ! baby boy's--are v typical4 ,! baby is a ,*ri/ian1 ,i %\ld expla91 & 8 p>5ts are true ,*ri/ians1 o!rwise ! ,p>iah woman w\ld n h be5 all[$ to t\* him4 ,five babies at diff]5t /ages ( refractor9ess are sprawl+ ab\t on ?is /rip ( floor2 !y make noises all ! "t4 ,half a doz5 imbecile-look+ old wom5 cr[d 9 ?r\gh ! l[ door1 & />e & ex*ange obs]vations4 ,?ree "y m5 ) no?+ p>ticul> to d l\nge at ! f> end ( ! plat=m ne> ! goats4 ,a bright girl1 ) m jewell]y on ?an is usual among ,p>iahs1 is t5d+ ! fire at ! end ne> ! door2 %e ?r[s a /ick or two on z we ent]1 & hurries =w>d to get a mat4 ,we sit d[n on ! mat1 & %e sits beside u2 & ! usual que/ions are ask$ & answ]$ by way ( introduction4 ,!re is a n v clean old woman dilig5tly dev\r+ betel2 ano!r ) an enorm\s m\?1 :i* %e always holds wide op52 ano!r ) a v l\d voice & a %ock ( unspeakable hair4 ,b !y li/5 fairly well till a goat creates a div]sion by mak+ a rem>k1 & a baby--a jolly little scrap 9 its nice br[n sk9 & a bangle--yells1 & ev]yone's att5tion conc5trates ^u x4 ,! goat subsides1 ! baby is n[ 9 its "m's arms2 s we g on :]e we left (f1 & ,i wat* ! bright "y girl1 & notice t %e li/5s z "o :o und]/&s4 ,%e looks r sup]ior2 h] rose-col\r$ seeley is clean1 & two l>ge gold jewels are 9 ea* e>2 %e has a little gold necklet r\nd h] ?roat1 & silv] bangles & toe r+s4 ,all ! o!rs are hopelessly grubby & v un5light5$1 b !y li/5 j z mo/ p li/5 9 *ur*1 ) a sort ( pati5t expression4 ,x is ! prop] ?+ to d4 ,i am talk+ to !m n[1 & till ,i am half-way ?r\gh nobody says any?+1 :5 sudd5ly ! girl rem>ks1 ,we h t5 f+]s1 n j "o6 :i* is s a/oni%+ t ,i /op & wond] :at %e c be ?9k+ (4 ,i 0 talk+ ab\t ! "o %eep lo/ out ( "o hundr$4 ,:at has t got to d ) "o f+] & t58 ,%e goes on to expla91 ,i h he>d all ?is be=e4 ,i h a si/] :o is a ,*ri/ian1 & once ,i /ay$ ) h]1 & ,i he>d all ab\t y\r religion1 & ,i felt 9 my he>t x 0 good4 ,b !n ,i 0 m>ri$ 7ti$1 %e said71 & ( c\rse ,i =got ab\t x2 b n[ ,i rememb]1 & ,i say if t5 ( our p w jo9 & g ov] to y\r ,way1 t w be well1 b :at w\ld be ! use ( "o go+8 ,:at is ! use ( "o f+] mov+ by itself8 ,x takes t5 to d ! day's "w4 ,if t5 ( y _h *ol]a1 & ,i br\ght y *ol]a m$ic9e1 w\ld y say1 ',i won't take x unless n9e o!rs take x too'8 ,i repli$4 ,%e laughs & ! o!rs laugh1 b a little uneasily4 ,!y h>dly l ?is ref]5ce to ! dread$ *ol]a2 dea? ( ! body is s mu* m trem5d\s 9 prospect ?an dea? ( ! s\l4 ,y w\ld take x1 & !n ! o!rs1 see+ x d y good1 w\ld p]haps take x too2 & we try to press home ! po9t ( ! illu/ration4 ,b a po9t pricks1 & prick+ is uncom=table4 ,! ?ree m5 beg9 to %uffle _! feet & talk ab\t o!r ?+s2 ! old "m-9-law proposes betel all r\nd1 & h&s u "s grimy-look+ leaves ) a press+ invitation to p>take4 ,! v>i\s onlook]s make rem>ks1 & ! girl devotes h]self to h] baby4 ,b %e is ?9k+2 "o c see old memories are /irr$4 ,at la/ ) a sigh %e gets up1 looks r\nd ! little indiff]5t gr\p1 goes ov] to ! fireplace1 & bl[s up ! fire4 ,?is means we _h bett] say salaam2 s we say x & !y say x1 add+ ! usual ,g & come4 ,x w be easi] to help ^! p out ( _! l[ levels ?an x w be to help _! ma/]s ( ! high] walks ( life4 ,b to d any?+ g5u9e or radical among ei!r set ( p is nev] really easy4 ,x takes ! ,ideal to bl[ a hair's-bread? (f ! ,du/ ( ! ,actual4 ,x takes m4 ,x takes ,god4 ,x takes ,god to d any?+ any:]e4 ,ye/]day we 7 visit+ 9 "o ( ! ,ca/e villages1 & "o old lady1 :o really seems to c>e = u1 said %e w\ld greatly l to take my h& 9 h]s2 b1 %e expla9$1 ?is morn+ "o ( ! *ildr5 ( ! place lean$ ov] ! edge ( ! tank to dr9k1 & he fell 9 & 0 dr[n$2 s ,i h be5 to condole ) 8 p1 & ,i h n[ return$ f ba?+1 & d n feel equal to ba?+ aga94 ,if %e t\*$ me %e w\ld h to ba! to get rid ( ! defilem5t4 ,( c\rse ,i assur$ h] ,i q und]/ood1 b z %e sat !re )9 two in*es ( me1 yet s c>efully pres]v+ inviolate ^? two in*es ( cle> space1 ,i felt :at a small ?+ ?is ca/e-creat$ di/ance 01 ! m]e/ ,du/ ( ! ,actual on ! surface ( ! sy/em ( h] life2 & yet1 to bl[ a hair's-bread? ( x (f1 no?+ less is ne$$ ?an ! brea? ( ! p[] ( ,god4 ,come1 ,o ,brea?1 & brea!6 we cry4 ,no?+ else w d4 ,some?+ 9 our talk l$ to a "q ab\t ! "* ( ,jesus1 &1 z we tri$ to describe a little ( ! lovel9ess ( our de> ,"l to h]1 h] d>k eyes k9dl$4 ,h[ beautiful x is6 %e said2 h[ beautiful ,he mu/ be6 ,%e seem$ almo/ p]suad$1 b we knew x 0 only almo/1 n q2 = %e does n yet "k h] ne$ ( a ,savi\r1 %e has no s5se ( s94 ,sometimes1 x is true1 t comes lat]2 b we f9d t if ! s\l is to resi/ ! trem5d\s oppos+ =ces :i* w in/antly be br\ght to be> ^u x if x turns 9 ! lea/ t[>ds ,*ri/1 !re mu/ be a conviction wr\ght )9 x2 no?+ s sup]ficial z a feel+1 be x ev] s appreciative or hopeful or lov+1 w /& t /ra94 ,s1 ?\gh ! eyes ( ?is de> woman fill ) te>s z %e he>s ( ! price ( pa9 ,he paid1 & ?\gh %e gladly li/5s z we read & talk ) h] & pray1 yet we "k ! "w has n gone deep1 & we make our petitions deep = h]1 & g on4 ,9 ,india m5 mu/ "w among m51 & wom5 among wom51 b sometimes1 9 new places1 z ,i h told be=e1 we h to /op & talk ) ! m5 be=e !y w let u pass4 ,= example1 "o aft]noon ,i 0 waylaid on my way to ! wom5 by ! head ( ! h\sehold ,i 0 visit+1 a f9e old man ( ! usual type1 c\rte\s b oppos$4 ,he ask$ to look at my books4 ,i _h a ,bible1 a lyric book1 & a book ( /anzas be>+ ^u ! ,tru?1 copi$ f ! old ,tamil classics4 ,he p\nc$ ^u ?is4 ,!n he began to *ant ! /anzas 9 _! inimitable way1 & at ! s\nd sev]al o!r old m5 drew r\nd ! v]&ah1 till soon a doz5 or m 7 li/5+ ) t appreciative expression !y seem to res]ve = _! own belov$ poetry4 ,aft] ! read] _h *ant$ ?r\gh a doz5 or m /anzas1 he /opp$ abruptly & ask$ me if ,i really c>$ = x4 ,( c\rse ,i said ,i did imm5sely1 & only wi%$ ,i knew m1 = ! ,tamil classics are a /udy 9 !mselves1 & ^! beautiful anci5t v]ses ,i _h copi$ out 7 only glean+s f two l>ge volumes1 full ( ! wisdom ( ! ,ea/4 ,!y 7 all ?or\ghly fri5dly n[1 & we got into conv]sation4 ,"o ( ! gr\p held t !re are ?ree co-et]nal sub/ances--,god1 ! ,s\l1 & ,s94 ,s9 is et]nally b\nd up 9 ! s\l1 z v]digris is inh]5t 9 copp]4 ,x c be remov$ ev5tually by int5se m$itation ^u ,god1 & by ! p]=mance ( ardu\s works ( m]it4 ,b ^! ex]cises !y all admitt$ 7 incompatible ) ! ord9>y life ( mo/ p1 & g5]ally impracticable4 ,& s ! fact is1 ! v]digris ( s9 rema9s4 ,i rememb] ! delight ) :i* ,i discov]$ t ,isaiah i4 #be uses ?is v illu/ration2 = ! ^w translat$ dross 9 ,engli% is ! colloquial ^w = v]digris 9 ,tamil2 s ! v]se reads1 ,i w turn ,my h& to !e1 & ?or\ghly purify !e1 s z to remove ?y v]digris4 ,mo/ ( ! o!rs held a diametrically opposite view4 ,s f> f ,s\l & ,s9 be+ co-et]nal ) ,god !y are n really exi/5t at all4 ,bo? are illusory4 ,!re is only "o exi/5t entity4 ,x is ! ,div9e ,_s1 & x has nei!r p]sonality nor any p]sonal qualities4 ,all app>5t sep>ate exi/5ces are delusive4 ,m$itation1 ( ! same absorb+ type held necess>y by ! o!r1 is ! only way to rea* ! /age ( enlight5m5t :i* leads to reabsorption into ! ,div9e ess5ce1 9 :i* we f9ally m]ge1 & lose :at appe>$ to be our sep>ate id5tity4 ,we are lo/ 9 ,god1 z a drop is lo/ 9 ! ocean4 ,"s ( ! m5 advocat$ a phase ( tru? :i* rem9ds "o ( ,calv9ism gone mad1 & o!rs exactly opposite are extravagantly ,arm9ian4 ,! ,calv9i/s illu/rate _! belief by a s+le illum9at+ ^w1 ,cat-hold1 & ! ,arm9ians by ano!r1 ,monkey-hold4 ,c\ld y f9d bett] illu/rations8 ,! cat takes up ! kitt5 & c>ries x 9 its m\?2 ! kitt5 is passive1 ! cat does ev]y?+4 ,b ! little monkey holds on to its "m1 & cl+s ) might & ma94 ,^? :o h wat*$ ! cat-hold 9 ! h\se1 & ! monkey-hold out 9 ! jungle1 c appreciate ! accuracy ( ^! two illu/rations4 ,b runn+ ?r\gh e =m ( ,h9duism1 h[ev] contradictory ea* to ! o!r may be1 !re is ! und]ly+ ?\ght ( pure & simple ,pan!ism4 ,& ?is expla9s _m ( ! a=esaid contradictions1 & _m ( ! incongruities :i* are con/antly cropp+ up & bewild]+ "o :o is try+ to und]/& ! ,h9du tr5d ( ?\ght4 ,s1 ?\gh ^? m5 all affirm$ t !re is only "o ,god1 !y admitt$ t !y ea* wor%ipp$ sev]al4 ,!y saw no?+ inconsi/5t 9 ?is4 ,j z ! air is 9 ev]y?+1 s ,god is 9 ev]y?+1 !re=e 9 ! v>i\s symbols4 ,& z our ,k+ has div]s repres5tative ,vic]oys & ,gov]nors to rule ov] 8 dom9ions 9 8 "n1 s ! ,supreme has ^! sub-deities1 less 9 p[] & only exi/+ by =ce ( ,himself1 & ,he1 be+ all-p]vasive1 c be wor%ipp$ "u _! =ms4 ,?is argum5t !y all unit$ly press$ ^u me t aft]noon1 & ?\gh capital answ]s probably pres5t !mselves to y\r m9d1 y might n f9d !y satisfi$ ! ,h9du :o argues along l9es ( logic peculi> to ! ,ea/1 & subtle en\gh to my/ify ! practical ,we/]n bra92 & !n--= we are conceit$ z well z practical--we are apt to pity ! poor ,h9du = be+ s unlike ourselves2 & if we are :olly unsympa!tic1 we gr[l t !re is no?+ 9 ! argum5t1 :]eas !re is a good deal 9 x1 only we d n see x1 because we h nev] ?\ght out ! difficulty 9 "q4 ,q opposite1 sometimes we h to meet a type ( m9d l t ( ,mac,donald's /ud5t ( ,%akespe>e1 :o miss$ a pla9 po9t f 8 eyes be+ s %>p t !y look$ ?r\gh x )\t see+ x1 hav+ focuss$ !mselves beyond x4 ,assur$ly !re is mu* to le>n be=e "o c hope to und]/& ! w9d+ ( ! ?read ( ?\ght :i* mu/ be trac$ if "o w\ld foll[ ! work+ ( ! ,h9du m9d4 ,let no "o ) a facility = unty+ m5tal knots ?9k t 8 gift w\ld be wa/$ 9 ,india6 ,! ^w t /ruck ^? m5 t aft]noon 0 #a ,john v4 #aa & #ab3 ,god ha? giv5 u et]nal life1 & ?is life is 9 ,8 ,son4 ,he t ha? ! ,son ha? life1 & he t ha? n ! ,son ( ,god ha? n life4 ,i 0 long+ to get to ! wom51 b :5 !y began to read ^? v]ses & ask ab\t ! mean+1 ,i c\ld n g )\t try+ to tell !m4 ,oh1 h[ "o ne$$ at t mom5t ,*ri/ to become to u ,wisdom1 = x is j "h "o may s easily make mi/akes4 ,put ! tru? ( ,god's relation to ! s\l subjectively--,he t ha? ! ,son ha? life--be=e ?\ghtful ,h9dus su* z ^! m5 71 & !y w be p]fectly en*ant$2 = ! ,inc>nation pres5ts no difficulty to !m1 z x w\ld to a ,mohamm$an2 & p]haps1 to y\r sudd5 surprise & joy1 !y w say1 t is exactly :at !y are prep>$ to believe4 ,*ri/ 9 me--?is is compreh5sible4 ,! indwell+ ( ! ,_s ( ,god--?is is analog\s to _! own phrase3 ,! indwell+ ( ! ,deity 9 ! lotus ( ! he>t4 ,b probably by trad+ on words & expressions :i* are already "p ( ! ,h9du t]m9ology1 & :i* sugge/ to !m mat]iali/ic ideas1 we may s]i\sly mislead & be misl$4 ,we ne$ to und]/& n only :at ! ,h9du says1 b also :at 8 words mean to himself1 a v diff]5t ?+4 ,t talk end$ 9 a promise f ! m5 t !y w\ld arrange a meet+ ( ,h9dus = ! ,iy]1 if he w\ld come & take x1 :i* ( c\rse he did4 ,i %\ld l to f9i% up by say+1 & sev]al 7 conv]t$1 b z yet t w\ld n be true4 ,^! deep-root$ anci5t & /rong philosophies are =midable en\gh1 :5 rightly und]/ood1 to make u feel h[ little we c d to ov]turn !m2 b !y are j z ,du/ 9 comp>ison ) ! =ce ( ! ,actual entr5*$ beh9d !m4 ,only sup]ficial ,du/2 & yet1 z 9 e o!r case1 no?+ b ! ,brea? ( ,god c bl[ ?is ,du/ away4 ,illu/ration3 ,ano!r wid[4 ,%e 0 nev] a wife2 &1 mov$ by "s sort ( pity1 !y let h] keep "o jewel 9 ea* e>4 ,%e is a ,vellal>2 h] p are weal?y l&[n]s4 ,%e 0 a%am$ ( hav+ yield$ to ! weakness ( lett+ u take h] photo2 & :5 we w5t to %[ x to h]1 %e w\ld n look at x4 ,%e has no desire :atev] to he>2 & %e & ! "y girl on ! /ep at h] feet are resolute 9 oppos+ ! tea*+4 ,we left ! old m5 to _! books & endless disquisitions1 & w5t on to ! wom5's qu>t]4 ,!re we saw a "y *ild-wid[1 v fair & sweet & g5tle1 b quiet] ?an a *ild %\ld be2 = %e is a wid[ accurs$4 ,h] m9d is ke5--%e wants to le>n2 b :y %\ld a wid[ le>n1 !y say1 :y %\ld h] m9d break b\nds8 ,%e lives 9 a t9y mud-built h\se1 9 a t9y mud-wall$ y>d2 %e may n g out beyond ^? walls1 !n :y %\ld %e ?9k beyond8 ,b %e is bett] (f ?an mo/1 = %e lives ) h] "m1 :o loves h]1 & h] fa!r makes a pet ( h]1 & s %e is %elt]$ m or less f ! cruel sc\rge ( ! tongue4 ,!re is ano!r 9 ! next c\rty>d2 %e is n %elt]$ s4 ,%e lives ) h] "m-9-law1 & ! _w has la%$ h] he>t = ye>s2 x is simply call\s n[4 ,!re %e sits ) h] *9 9 h] h&1 j h>d4 ,ye>s ago !y m>ri$ h]1 an innoc5t1 playful little *ild1 to a man :o di$ :5 %e 0 n9e ye>s old4 ,!n !y tore h] jewels f h]1 all b two little e>-r+s1 :i* !y left 9 pity to h]2 & ?is poor little scrap ( jewell]y 0 h] "o little bit ( joy4 ,%e c\ld n und]/& x at fir/1 & :5 h] pretty col\r$ seeleys 7 tak5 away1 & %e _h to we> ! co>se :ite clo? %e hat$ s1 %e cri$ ) impot5t *ildi% wra?2 & !n %e 0 puni%$1 & call$ bitt] names1--! v ^w wid[ means bitt]ness1--& gradually %e und]/ood t !re 0 some?+ ! matt] ) h]4 ,%e 0 n l o!r little girls4 ,%e _h br\ght ill-=tune to ! home4 ,%e 0 accurs$4 ,x is true t "s are m g5tly dealt )1 & _m belong to ,ca/es :]e ! yoke ( ,cu/om lies light]2 = ^! ! po9t ( ! curse is blunt$1 !re is only a dull s5se ( wrong4 ,b 9 all ! upp] ,ca/es ! pressure is heavy1 & !re are ^? :o feel int5sely1 feel to ! c5tre ( _! s\l1 ! /+ ( ! %ame ( ! curse4 ,x is fate1 says ! tr\bl$ "m2 :o c escape 8 fate8 ,x is s91 says ! "m-9-law2 & ! re/ ( ! _w agrees4 ',:]e ! bull goes1 !re goes its rope4' ',de$s done 9 a =m] bir?1 9 ?is bir? burn4' ,mu* ( ! work+ ( ! curse is hidd5 beh9d %ut doors4 ,i saw a "y wid[ la/ week ^: m9d is becom+ d]ang$ 9 consequ5ce ( ! sev]ity ( ! p5ance %e is compell$ to p]=m4 ,:51 z !y put x1 ! god ( ill-=tune seizes h]1 t is1 :5 %e becomes viol5t1 %e is quietly remov$ to ano!r place4 ,no "o sees :at is done to h] !re1 b ,i "k t "p ( ! treatm5t consi/s 9 scrat*+ h] head ) ?orns1 & !n rubb+ raw lime juice 9--lime juice is l lemon juice1 only m acid4 ,:5 ! p>oxysm passes %e reappe>s1 & does p5ance till ! next fit comes4 ,?is has be5 repeat$ ?ree times )9 ! la/ few mon?s4 ,i 0 visit+ 9 a ,h9du h\se = two ye>s be=e ,i f\nd out t all t "t a girl ( sev5te5 0 kept alone 9 an upp] room4 ,let h] weep1 !y said1 quot+ a prov]b2 '?\gh %e weeps1 w a wid['s sorr[ pass8' ,once a day1 aft] d>k1 %e 0 br\ght d[n/airs = a few m9utes1 & once a day1 at noon1 "s co>se food 0 tak5 up to h]4 ,%e is all[$ d[n/airs n[1 b only 9 ! back "p ( ! h\se2 %e nev] ?9ks ( resi/+ ?is decree--x1 & all x /&s =1 is h] fate4 ,sometimes ! glad girl-life reass]ts itself1 & %e plays & laughs ) h] si/]-9-law's pretty baby boy2 b if %e he>s a man's voice %e disappe>s up/airs4 ,!re are prov]bs 9 ! language :i* tell :y4 ,i sat on ! v]&ah ( a well-to-d ,h9du h\se "o day1 & talk$ to ! bright-look+ wom5 9 _! jewels & silks4 ,& all ! "t1 ?\gh little ,i knew x1 a wid[ 0 ti$ up 9 a sack 9 "o ( ! inn] rooms4 ,?is wrong is a hidd5 wrong4 ,i d n ?9k t anyone w\ld call ! ,h9dus di/9ctively cruel2 9 comp>ison ) mo/ o!r ,asiatics _! in/9cts are k9d4 ,a cu/om s m]ciless z ?is cu/om1 :i* puni%es ! innoc5t ) s griev\s a puni%m5t1 does n seem to u to be natural to !m4 ,x seems l a p>asite cu/om1 :i* has /ruck its roots deep into ! tree ( ,h9du social life1 b is n "p ( x4 ,?9k ( ! p[] :i* mu/ h be5 ex]t$ some:]e by someone be=e ! disposition ( a nation c\ld be *ang$4 ,?is cu/om z x /&s is =midable en\gh4 ,_m a man1 ,indian & =eign1 has f\ght x & fail$4 ,x is a huge & mo/ rigor\s sy/em ( tyrannical oppression1 a v pyramid to look at1 old1 immovable4 ,b !re is ,some?+ great] beh9d x4 ,x is only ! effect ( a ,cause--! ,du/ ( ! ,actual4 ,:at c alt] ! cu/om8 ,/rong writ+ or speak+1 agitations1 ,acts ( ,p>liam5t8 ,all ^! surely h _! "p4 ,!y raise ! "q1 /ir ! ,du/--b bl[ x (f8 ,oh no6 no?+ c t\* ! consci5ce ( ! p1 & utt]ly rev]se _! view ( ?+s1 & radically alt] !m1 b ,god4 ,yes1 x is true1 we may make ! mo/ ( :at has be5 done by ,gov]nm5t1 by mission>ies & re=m]s1 b !re are times 9 ! he>t hi/ories ( all :o look f> en\gh d[n to see :at goes on "u ! surface ( ?+s1 :5 ! sorr[ takes %ape 9 ! ,prophet's cry1 ,we h n wr\ght any deliv]ance 9 ! e>?6 ,x is true4 ,we h n4 ,we _c ev5 e/imate ! real weight ( ! lighte/ speck ( ! ,du/ t has settl$ on ! life ( ?is p4 ,b we believe t our ,god1 ,:o compreh5d$ ! du/ ( ! e>? 9 a measure1 compreh5ds to ! utt]mo/ ! ,du/ ( ! ,actual1 & we believe to see ,him "w1 ) ,:om is /r5g? & effectual work+4 ,we believe to see1 & believ+ ev5 n[ we see2 & :5 we see any?+1 be x ev] s little1 :5 ! ,brea? brea!s1 & ev5 a hair's-bread? ( t ,du/ is bl[n away1 !n1 ) an int5sity ,i _c describe1 we feel ! pres5ce ( ! ,"l our ,god among u1 & look up 9 ! sil5ce ( joy & expectation = ! com+ ( ! ,day :5 all rule1 & all au?ority & p[]1 yea1 ! p[] ( ! v ,actual itself1 %all be put d[n1 t ,god may be all 9 all4 ,s aga9 & yet aga9 we ask y to pray n less = ! ,re=m movem5t1 & ! ,educational movem5t1 & ! ,civilis+ movem5t ( ,india1 b f> m = ! ,movem5t ( ! ,brea? ( ,god1 & f> m = u ,8 work]s "h1 t we may abide 9 ,him )\t ,:om we c d no?+4 ,,*apt] ,,viii ,roots ,x is n an easy ?+ 9 ,engl& to lead an old man or woman to ,*ri/1 ev5 ?\gh ! only 'root' :i* holds !m f ,him is love ( ! _w4 ,z ! ,tamil prov]b says1 ',t :i* did n b5d at five w n be b5t at fifty1' /ill less at sixty or sev5ty4 ,:5 a s\l 9 ,india is held d[n1 n by "o root only1 b by a myriad roots1 :o is suffici5t to deliv] x8 ,only ,he :o ov]turne? ! m\nta9s by ! roots4 ',?is k9d goe? n out b by pray] & fa/+4' ,an ,indian ,mission>y4 ,,amma1 y are gett+ old4 ,yes 7grunt71 yes4 ,:5 we are old !n dea? is ne>4 ,yes 7grunt71 yes4 ,!n we mu/ leave our bodies & g some:]e else4 ,?ree m grunts4 ,amma1 d y "k :]e y are go+8 ,!n ! old woman wakes up a little1 grunts a little m1 ,:o kn[s :]e %e is go+8 %e mumbles1 & relapses into grunts4 ,i "k :]e ,i am go+1 ! girl answ]s4 ,amma1 don't y want to "k8 ,don't ,i want to "k :at8 ,:]e y are go+4 ,:y d ,i want to "k :at8 ,! girl goes ov] x aga94 ,! old woman turns to h] daught]-9-law4 ,is ! rice ready8 %e says4 ,! girl tries aga94 ,! old woman agrees we all mu/ die4 ,dea? is ne> to ! anci5t2 %e is anci5t1 !re=e dea? is ne> to h]1 %e mu/ g some:]e aft] dea?4 ,x w\ld be well to "k :]e %e is go+4 ,%e does n "k :]e %e is go+4 ,!n %e gazes & grunts4 ,illu/ration3 ,enl>gem5t ( "o ( ! old dames se5 9 *apt] vi4 ,a capital typical face4 ,we h a numb] ( ^! ke51 int]e/+ old p1 b v r>ely f9d !y h any desire to *ange _! religion4 ,!y are root$4 ,! girl tries on diff]5t l9es4 ,:om is ! old woman look+ to1 to help h] :5 dea? comes8 ,god4 ,:at ,god8 ,! great ,god4 ,& r\s+ h]self to express h]self %e decl>es t ,he is h] con/ant m$itation1 !re=e all is well4 ,is ! rice ready8 ,no4 ,!n give me "s betel leaf1 & %e settles d[n to roll small pieces ( lime into little balls1 & ^! balls %e rolls up 9 a betel leaf1 ) a bit ( areca nut = ta/e1 & ?is betel leaf %e puts into h] m\?--all ?is v sl[ly1 & ) _m in>ticulate s\nds1 :i* ,i h translat$ grunts4 ,& ?is is all %e does4 ,%e does n want to li/5 or talk1 %e only wants to scrun* betel1 & grunt4 ,?is is n a t\*+ tale4 ,x is only true4 ,x happ5$ ?is ev5+ exactly z ,i h told x1 & ! girl1 a di/ant connection ( ! old woman1 :o _h come ) me s delight$ly1 eag] to tell ! ,good ,tid+s1 _h to give x up4 ,%e _h begun by speak+ ab\t ! love ( ,jesus1 b t _h fall5 p]fectly flat2 s %e _h tri$ ! m />tl+ =m ( address1 ) ?is result--grunts4 ,i sp5t an aft]noon n long ago ) a m intellig5t specim54 ,"h %e is1 a f9e /urdy old "*1 "o ( ! ?ree y saw be=e4 ,%e 0 imm5sely int]e/$ ) h] photo1 :i* ,i %[$ h]1 & %e c\ld n und]/& at all h[1 9 ! "o mom5t :5 %e /ood aga9/ a wall1 h] face _h be5 caught on a piece ( :ite pap]4 ,a little explanation op5$ ! way = ! great] ?+ ,i _h come ab\t4 ,we 7 sitt+ on a mud v]&ah1 op5+ on to a squ>e c\rty>d2 two wom5 p\nd+ rice1 two m gr9d+ x1 ano!r sweep+1 a c[1 "s f[ls1 a great _m *ildr51 & sev]al babies1 made x exce$+ly difficult to conc5trate "o's att5tion on any?+1 & /ill m difficult to get ! w&]+ bra9s ( an old woman to conc5trate on a subject 9 :i* %e _h no int]e/4 ,%e _h be5 int]e/$ 9 ! photograph1 b t 0 diff]5t4 ,! conv]sation end$ by h] rem>k+ t x 0 gett+ d>k1 ought ,i n to be go+ home8 ,x 0 n gett+ d>k yet1 b x meant t %e _h _h en\gh1 s ,i salaam$ & w5t1 hop+ = a bett] *ance aga94 ,next "t we visit$ ! ,village ( ! ,tam>9d %e 0 n[h]e to be se52 %e _h gone to h] own village1 %e _h only come "h = ! fun]al4 ,w\ld %e return1 we ask$8 ,n probable1 !y said1 %e _h come & gone4 ,come & gone4 ,z !y said x1 "o felt h[ true x 04 ,come1 = t "o %ort aft]noon )9 our rea*2 gone1 out ( x n[ = ev]4 ,9 t same village !re is "o :o m ?an any o!r drew "o's he>t out 9 affection & long+1 b s f> all 9 va94 ,i fir/ saw h] 9 ! ev5+ z we 7 return+ home4 ,%e 0 sitt+ on h] v]&ah1 giv+ ord]s to ! s]vants z !y /ood 9 ! c\rty>d bel[4 ,!n %e turn$ & saw u4 ,we 7 /&+ 9 ! /reet1 look+ ?r\gh ! op5 door4 ,! old lady1 9 h] :ite g>m5ts1 ) h] :ite hair1 sat among a gr\p ( wom5 9 vivid %ades ( r$1 beh9d h] ! d>k wood ( ! pill> & door1 & above ! c>v$ v]&ah ro(4 ,! m5 7 fre% f ! fields1 & /ood ) _! r\gh-look+ husb&ry implem5ts slung across _! %\ld]s2 ! ox51 great meek-ey$ bea/s1 7 mun*+ _! /raw & swi%+ _! tails z !y /ood 9 _! places 9 ! c\rty>d1 :]e "s little *ildr5 play$4 ,! paddy-birds1 :i* are small :ite /orks1 7 fly+ ab\t f frond to frond ( ! cocoanut palms t hung ov] ! wall1 & ! sunset light1 /rik+ slant+ up1 caught ! und]side ( _! w+s1 & made !m %9e ) a cle> pale gold1 gold birds 9 a d>kness ( gre54 ,a brok5 mud wall ran r\nd "o end1 & ! sunset col\r pa9t$ x too till all ! r$ 9 x gl[$2 & !n x came s(tly ?r\gh ! palms1 & t\*$ ! :ite head ) a sort ( %e51 & lit up ! br[ ( ! f9e old face z1 b5d+ =w>d1 %e beckon$ to u4 ,come 96 come 96 %e said4 ,we soon made fri5ds ) h]4 ,%e 0 a ,saivite & we he>d aft]w>ds _h receiv$ ! ,initiation2 ! gold5 symbol ( h] god _h be5 br&$ ^u h] %\ld]1 & %e 0 sworn to lifelong devotion to ,siva2 b %e _h f\nd t he 0 va91 & %e nev] wor%ipp$ him1 %e wor%ipp$ ,god alone1 & at night1 :5 ! h\sehold is sleep+1 ,i g up alone to an upp] room1 & /ret* out my h&s to ! ,god ( all1 & cry ) a long1 l\d cry4 ,!n %e sudd5ly turn$ & fac$ me full4 ,tell me1 is t en\gh8 %e said4 ,is x all ,i mu/ d = salvation8 ,say6 ,i did n feel %e 0 ready = a plunge into ! deep sea ( full k yet1 & ,i tri$ to p]suade h] to leave t "q1 tell+ h] t if %e believ$ :at we told h] ( ,jesus our ,"l1 %e w\ld soon "k ,him well en\gh to ask ,him direct :at %e want$ to "k1 & ,he ,himself w\ld expla9 to h] all t x meant to foll[ ,him4 ,b %e 0 det]m9$ to he> x !n1 &1 z %e insi/$1 ,i read h] a little ( :at ,he says ab\t x ,himself4 ,%e knew q en\gh to und]/& & take 9 ! =ce ( ! =ceful words4 ,%e w\ld n cons5t to be l$ g5tly on4 ,no1 ,i mu/ "k x n[1 %e said2 & z v]se by v]se we read to h]1 h] face settl$ sorr[fully4 ,s f> mu/ ,i foll[1 s f>8 %e said4 ,i _c foll[ s f>4 ,x 0 too late = mu* talk !n1 b %e promis$ to li/5 if we w\ld come & read to h]4 ,%e c\ld n read1 b %e seem$ to "k a great deal ab\t ! ,bible4 ,= "s weeks "o ( u w5t once a week2 sometimes ! m5 ( ! h\se 7 91 & !n we c\ld n read to h]1 z !y seem$ to object2 b (t5] no "o 0 ab\t1 & %e _h h] way1 & we read4 ,%e told u h] /ory "o aft]noon4 ,%e 0 ! head ( a fam\s old h\se2 h] husb& _h di$ _m ye>s ago2 %e _h br\ght up h] *ildr5 successfully1 & n[ !y 7 settl$ 9 life4 ,%e _h a ,*ri/ian relation1 b %e _h nev] se5 him2 %e ?\ght he _h a son /udy+ 9 a l>ge s*ool 9 ,engl&--,cambridge1 ,i knew1 :5 ,i he>d ! "n2 ! fa!r is "o ( our true fri5ds4 ,all h] sons are greatly oppos$1 b "o ( h] little girls le>nt = a "t1 & s ! "m he>d ! ,tru?1 &1 be+ conv9c$ t x 0 true1 greatly desir$ to he> m4 ,b ! *ild 0 m>ri$1 & w5t away1 & %e fe>$ to ask ! ,missie ,ammal to come aga91 le/ p %\ld notice x & talk4 ,s ! ye>s pass$ emptily1 & oh1 my he>t 0 an empty place1 a void z empty z air6 ,& %e /ret*$ out h] arms1 & clasp+ h] h&s %e look$ at ! empty space betwe51 & !n at me ) inquir+ eyes1 to see if ,i und]/ood4 ,h[ well "o und]/ood6 ,i am an empt9ess = ,!e to fill1 ,my s\l a cav]n = ,?y sea1 4 4 4 ,i h done n\ght = ,!e1 am b a ,want4 ,%e _h nev] he>d x1 b %e _h said x4 ,we d n (t5 he> x said1 & :5 we d our :ole he>t goes out to meet ! he>t ( ! "o :o says x2 ev]y?+ t is 9 u ye>ns ) a ye>n+ t _c be told1 to br+ h] to ,him ,:o said ,come4 ,we 7 full ( hope ab\t h]1 & we wrote to h] ,*ri/ian relative1 & he wrote back ) joy4 ,x seem$ s likely !n t %e w\ld decide = ,*ri/4 ,b "o day1 = ! fir/ "t1 %e did n c>e to read4 ,i rememb] t day s well2 x 0 ! "t ( our monsoon1 & ! c\ntry 0 "o great m>%4 ,we _h promis$ to g t morn+1 b ! night be=e ! riv]s fill$1 & ! pool betwe5 h] & u 0 a lake4 ,we call$ ! b&yman & expla9$ ! situation4 ,he debat$ a little1 b at la/--,well1 ! bulls c swim1 he said1 & !y swam4 ,we ne$ n h gone1 %e 0 out4 ,out1 or n at home to-day1 is a phrase n conf9$ to ,society circles :]e c\rtesy c\nts = m ?an tru?4 ,i am 91 b ,i d n want to see y1 w\ld h be5 true1 b rude4 ,?is 0 ! fir/ *ill1 b %e 0 9 next "t1 & cont9u$ to be 91 until aft] a long talk we _h1 :5 aga9 ! "q rose & _h to be fac$1 ,c ,i be a ,*ri/ian "h8 ,x 0 a quiet aft]noon2 we 7 alone1 only ! little gr&*ildr5 7 ) h]--innoc5t1 fe>less1 m]ry little creatures1 runn+ to h] ) _! wants1 & pull+ at h] h&s & dress z babies d at home4 ,_! gr&mo!r took no notice ( !m beyond an occasional pat or two1 b ! *ildi% ?+s1 ) _! bright br[n eyes & little fat1 s(t1 cl++ h&s w5t into ! photo "o's memory took1 & help$ "o ! bett] to und]/& & sympa?ise 9 ! humanness ( ! pretty home sc5e1 t humanness :i* is s natural1 & :i* ,god meant to be4 ,i ?9k !re is no?+ 9 all our "w :i* s r5ds & te>s at ! he>t-/r+s )9 u1 z see+ ! spiritual cla% ) ! natural1 & to "k t :ile ,ca/e & bigotry reign x always mu/ be s4 ,we _h a good long talk4 ,i want to be a ,*ri/ian1 %e said1 & = a mom5t ,i hop$ great ?+s1 = %e z ! mi/ress ( ! h\se 0 almo/ free to d z %e *ose4 ,i ?\ght ( h] influ5ce ov] h] sons & _! wives1 & ! little gr&*ildr52 & ,i ?9k my face %[$ ! hope ,i _h1 = %e said1 look+ v direct at me1 ,by a ,*ri/ian ,i mean "o :o wor%ips y\r ,god1 & ceases to wor%ip all o!r gods2 = ,he alone is ! ,liv+ ,god1 ! ,p]vad] ( all & ,provid]4 ,?is ,i fully believe & affirm1 b ,i _c break my ,ca/e4 ,w\ld y cont9ue to keep x 9 all ways8 ,h[ c\ld ,i possibly break my ,ca/e8 ,& cont9ue to sme> ,siva's sign on y\r =ehead8 ,t is inde$ "p ( my ,ca/e4 ,m especially "p ( x1 ,i knew1 s9ce %e _h receiv$ ! ,initiation4 ,!n ! disappo9tm5t got into my voice1 & %e felt x1 & said1 ,oh1 d n be griev$6 ,^! ?+s are ext]nal4 ,h[ c m]e a%es affect ! int]nal1 ! real ess5tial1 ! s\l8 ,x 0 su* a plausible argum5t1 & we he> x ov] & ov] aga92 = hi/ory repeats itself1 !re is no?+ new "u ! sun4 ,i rem9d$ h] t a%es 7 sacr$ to ,siva4 ,i w\ld n s]ve ,siva1 %e answ]$ me1 b ! sme>+ ( a%es on "o's br[ is ! cu/om ( my ,ca/e1 & ,i _c break my ,ca/e4 ,!n %e look$ at me v e>ne/ly ) h] se>*+1 beautiful1 ke5 old eyes1 & %e w5t ov] gr\nd %e knew ,i knew4 ,%e rem9d$ me :at ! requirem5ts ( h] ,ca/e _h always be51 t !y mu/ be fulfill$ by all :o live 9 ! h\se1 & %e told me 9 measur$ words & sl[ t ,i knew %e c\ld n live at home if %e broke ! laws ( h] ,ca/e4 ,b :y make s mu* ( trifl+ ?+s8 ,= matt] & _s are di/9ct1 & :5 ! h&s are rais$ 9 pray]1 :5 ! lamp is light$ & wrea!d ) fl[]s1 ! outw>d obs]v] may mi/ake & ?9k ! action is pujah to ,agni1 b ,god :o reads ! he>t und]/&s1 & judges ! ?\ght & n ! act4 ,yes1 my h& may sme> on ,siva's a%es1 :ile at ! same mom5t my s\l may commune ) ,god ! ,et]nal1 ,:o only is ,god4 ,i turn$ to v]se aft] v]se to %[ h] ?is sort ( ?+ c\ld nev] be1 h[ x w\ld mock at ! love ( ,*ri/ & nullify ,8 sacrifice4 ,i urg$ ^u h] t if %e 7 true1 & ! c5tral ?\ght ( h] life 7 t[>ds ,god1 all ! outwork+s w\ld correspond1 cre$ fitt+ de$1 & de$ fitt+ cre$ )\t ! lea/ %ade ( div]sity4 ,b fai? & practice are n to be confus$1 ea* is sep>ate f ! o!r2 ! two may unite or ! "o may be divorc$ f ! o!r )\t ! integrity ( ei!r be+ affect$3 ?is is ! unwritt5 ,h9du code :i* %e & h]s _h ev] held2 & n[1 aft] ye>s ( belief 9 x1 to face r\nd sudd5ly to its opposite--?is 0 m ?an %e c\ld d4 ,%e held1 z x 71 ! ,tru? 9 h] h&1 & turn$ x r\nd & r\nd & r\nd1 b %e always end$ :]e %e began2 %e w\ld n1 c\ld n1 see x z ,tru?1 or p]haps m truly1 w\ld n accept x4 ,x meant too mu*4 ,!re %e sat1 que5 ( h] home4 ,! sons 7 expect$1 & %e _h be5 mak+ prep>ations = _! com+4 ,h] little gr&*ildr5 play$ ab\t h]1 ea* "o ( !m de> z ! jewel ( h] eye4 ,h[ c\ld %e leave x all1 h[ c\ld %e leave !m all--home1 all t x /&s =2 *ildr51 all t !y mean8 ,!n %e look$ at me aga91 & ,i %all nev] =get ! look4 ,x seem$ z if %e 7 look+ me ?r\gh & ?r\gh1 & =c+ ! answ] to come4 ,%e spoke 9 little %ort s5t5ces1 in/9ct ) int5sity4 ,i _c live "h & break my ,ca/e4 ,if ,i break x ,i mu/ g4 ,i _c live "h )\t keep+ my cu/oms4 ,if ,i break !m ,i mu/ g4 ,y "k all ?is4 ,i ask y1 !n1 tell me yes or no4 ,c ,i live "h & keep my ,ca/e1 & at ! same "t foll[ y\r ,god8 ,tell me yes or no6 ,i did n tell h]--h[ c\ld ,i8 ,b %e read ! answ] 9 my eyes1 & %e said1 z %e _h said be=e1 ,i _c foll[ s f>--s f>1 ,i _c foll[ s f>6 ,rev]5ce = op9ions & practice held sacr$ by 8 ance/ors is +ra9$ 9 e fibre ( a ,h9du's "*1 & is1 s to speak1 br$ 9 ! v bone ( 8 physical & moral con/itution4 ,s writes ,sir ,moni] ,williams4 ,x is absolutely true4 ,oh1 fri5ds1 is x easy "w8 ,my he>t is sore z ,i write1 ) ! sor5ess t fill$ x t day4 ,i w\ld h giv5 any?+ to be able tru?fully to say yes to h] "q4 ,b across ! w ( nature leads on ! pa? ( ,god = !m2 & !y h to foll[ s v f>1 s v1 v f>6 ,all trees h roots4 ,to te> up a full-gr[n tree by ! roots1 & transplant x bodily1 is nev] a simple process4 ,b 9 ,india we h a tree ) a d\ble sy/em ( roots4 ,! banyan tree drops roots f its b\ghs4 ,^! b\gh roots 9 "t run z deep und]gr\nd z ! orig9al root4 ,& ! tap root & its runn]s1 & ! bran* roots & !irs1 get knott$ & knit into ea* o!r1 till ! :ole =ms "o solid mass ( roots1 ?\s&s ( y>ds ( a tangle ( roots1 s9u\s & /rong4 ,conceive ! uproot+ ( su* a tree1 l ! fam\s "o ( ,nor? ,india1 = in/ance1 :i* %elt]$ an army ( sev5 ?\s& m54 ,y _c conceive x2 x c\ld n be done1 ! e>?w>d hold is s /rong4 ,! old 9 ,india are l ^! trees2 !y are d\bly1 inextricably root$4 ,!re is ! usual great tap root common to all human trees 9 all l&s--fai? 9 ! cre$ ( ! race2 !re are ! usual runn+ roots too--devotion to family & home4 ,all ^! hold ! s\l d[n4 ,b 9 ,india we h m--we h ! bran*-root$ sy/em ( ,ca/e2 ,ca/e s intricate1 s precise1 t no ,we/]n lives :o has trac$ x ?r\gh its ramifications back to ! b\gh f :i* x dropp$ 9 ! old5 days4 ,?is ,ca/e1 !n1 ^! hold+ laws1 :i* mo/ w\ld r die ?an break1 are l ! bran* roots ( ! banyan tree ) _! inf9ite /r5g? ( grip4 ,b ! /range/ ?+ to u is ?is3 ! p love to h x s2 !y d n reg>d !mselves z held1 ^! roots are _! pride & joy4 ,take a *ild ( f\r or five1 ask x a "q conc]n+ its ,ca/e1 & y w see h[ t baby tree has begun to drop bran* rootlets d[n4 ,sixty ye>s aft]w>ds look aga91 & e rootlet has gr[n a tree1 ea* aga9 s5d+ rootlets d[n2 & s ! sy/em spreads4 ,b we look up f ! banyan tree4 ,god6 :at are ^! roots to ,!e8 ,^! ,ca/e-root sy/ems are no?+ to ,!e6 ,india is n too h>d = ,!e6 ,o ,god1 come6 ,,*apt] ,,ix ,! ,classes & ! ,masses ,we speak ( "w done aga9/ ! =ce ( gravitation4 ,if ! magnitude ( a =ce c be e/imat$ 9 any s5se by ! resi/ance :i* x has to ov]come1 !n v]ily !re is no l& "u ! sun m calculat$ ?an ,india to display ! ,gr& ,=ces ( ,god's ,omnipot5t ,grace4 ,= "h x has to face & ov]come ! comb9$ resi/ances ( ! ,ca/e sy/em1 entr5*$ hea!nism1 & deeply subtle philosophies4 ,praise ,god6 x c & w be done4 ,?\1 :o alone doe/ wondr\s ?+s1 "w on4 ',s w we s+ & praise ,?y p[]4' ,rev4 ,t4 ,walk]1 ,india4 ,,p]haps x w\ld help t[>ds ! bett] und]/&+ ( ^! lett]s if we /opp$ & expla9$ ?+s a little4 ,"s may h be5 wond]+1 z !y read1 h[ x is t :ile ! ,s\? ,indian fields are con/antly quot$ z among ! mo/ fruitful 9 ! _w1 we seem to be deal+ ) a class :]e fruit is v r>e1 & s subject to blight+ influ5ces aft] x has appe>$1 t we h>dly l to speak ( x till x is ripe & reap$ & safe 9 ! heav5ly g>n]4 ,i ?9k x w be easi] to und]/& all ?is if we view ,h9du ,tamil ,s\? ,india 7) :i* alone ?is book deals7 f ! outside1 & let x fall into two divisions ! ,classes & ! ,masses4 ,!re is1 ( c\rse1 ! bord] l9e betwe51 cross$ ov] on ei!r side by "s :o belong to ! ,classes b are almo/ ( ! ,masses1 & by "s :o belong to ! ,masses b are almo/ ( ! ,classes4 ,broadly speak+1 h[ev]1 !re is a di/9ct diff]5ce betwe5 ! two4 ,z to _! attitude t[>ds ! ,gospel1 ! ,classes & ! ,masses unite2 !y are :olly indiff]5t to x4 ,9 a pap] read at ! ,/ud5t ,volunte]s' ,conf]5ce 9 #aijj1 a ,s\? ,indian mission>y summ$ up ! matt] 9 a compreh5sive s5t5ce3 ,%ut 9 = mill5niums by ! gigantic wall ( ! ,himalayas on ! ,nor?1 & by ! impassable ocean on ! ,s\?1 !y h liv$ 9 seclusion f ! re/ ( ! _w1 & h develop$ social in/itutions & conceptions ( ! univ]se1 & ( "r & wrong1 q _! own4 ,_! own religion & tradition>y cu/oms are accept$ z suffici5tly meet+ _! ne$s1 & !y are n consci\s ( ne$+ any tea*+ f =eign]s4 ,!y w always li/5 c\rte\sly to :at we say1 & ?is con/itutes an op5 door = ! ,gospel1 b ( consci\s ne$ & hung]+ = ! ,gospel !re is little or none4 ,s long z x is only a matt] ( prea*+1 !re are 9 ! _w no m pati5t li/5]s ?an ! ,h9dus4 ,b z soon z a case arises ( "o ( _! numb] ab&on+ ! ,ca/e cu/oms & tradition>y wor%ip1 all _! ho/ility is ar\s$1 & ! :ole community feels x a duty ( patriotism to d its utmo/ to deprive t individual ( lib]ty ( action1 & to def5d ! ve/$ rights ( ,h9duism4 ,= ! true ,h9du is f]v5tly ,h9du4 ,8 religion may be describ$ z b\nd up 9 ! bundle ( 8 ev]yday exi/5ce4 ,8 int5se belief 9 x1 & 9 8 ,ca/e1 :i* is "p ( x1 gives edge to ! blade ) :i* he fights ! entrance ( a new religion to 8 home4 ,?is new religion he conceives ( z some?+ inh]5tly antagoni/ic to 8 ,ca/e1 & z ,ca/e is at e po9t connect$ ) ,h9duism1 a ?+ int]wov5 ) x1 z if ,h9duism 7 ! w>p & ,ca/e ! wo( ( ! fabric ( ,indian life1 we _c say he is mi/ak5 9 reg>d+ ,*ri/ianity z a foe to be f\ght if he w\ld cont9ue a ,ca/e ,h9du4 ,s f>1 9 ,s\? ,indian religi\s hi/ory1 we h no example on a l>ge scale ( any?+ approa*+ ! ,bramo ,samj ( ! ,nor?4 ,9 ! m cons]vative ,s\? !re is almo/ no compromise )1 & little assimilation (1 ! doctr9e :i* makes all m5 "o 9 ,*ri/4 ,to return to ! division--,classes & ,masses--! ,classes comprise memb]s ( :at are kn[n z ! high] ,ca/es1 & 9 speak+ ( t[ns & villages :]e ^! dwell1 & ( conv]ts f among !m1 ! prefix ,ca/e is sometimes us$4 ,among ! ,classes we f9d wom5 ( mu* t5d]ness ( feel+ & a culture ( _! own1 b _! m9ds are n>r[$ by ! petty lives !y live1 lives 9 _m in/ances b\nd$ by no wid] horizon ?an ?\ghts conc]n+ _! husb&s & *ildr5 & jewels & curries1 & always _! next-door neighb\r's squabbles & ! gossip ( ! place4 ,mu* ( ?is gossip deals ) matt]s :i* are n ( an elevat+ "*4 ,x takes u ye>s to und]/& x1 because mo/ ( ! conv]sation is c>ri$ on 9 allusion or innu5do4 ,b x is und]/ood by ! *ildr54 ,"o ( our conv]ts told me t %e (t5 prays = p[] to =get ! words %e he>d1 & ! ?+s %e saw1 & ! games %e play$1 :5 %e 0 a little *ild 9 h] "m's room4 ,illu/ration3 ,?is old man is ! ,h9du village s*oolma/]4 ,! boys write on a /rip ( palm leaf ) an iron /yle4 ,^! little lads come to u e ,sunday aft]noon4 ,w "s "o rememb] !m8 ,! "y girls belong+ to ! high] ,ca/es are kept 9 /rict seclusion4 ,dur+ ^! =mative ye>s !y are %ut up )9 ! c\rty>d walls to ! dw>f+ life )91 & z a result !y get dw>f$1 & lose 9 res\rcefulness & indep5d5ce ( m9d1 & above all 9 c\rage2 & ?is tells t]ribly 9 our "w1 mak+ x s difficult to p]suade su* a "o to ?9k = h]self or d>e to decide to believe4 ,su* seclusion is n felt z imprisonm5t2 a girl is tra9$ to reg>d x z ! prop] ?+1 & we nev] f9d any desire among ^? s seclud$ to break b\nds & ru% out into ! free1 op5 air4 ,!y d n feel x cramp$ z we %\ld2 x is _! cu/om4 ,x is ?is cu/om :i* makes "w among girls exce$+ly sl[ & unresultful4 ,!y h to be rea*$ "o by "o1 & x takes _m mon?s ( tea*+ be=e ! m9d op5s en\gh to und]/& t x may be free4 ,! reaction ( ! physical ^u ! m5tal is nev] m cle>ly illu/rat$ ?an 9 su* cases4 ,sometimes x seems z if ! m9d c\ld n g out beyond ! cramp+ walls2 b :5 x has1 by ,god's illum9ation1 receiv$ light en\gh to see into ! d>kness ( ! s\l1 & ! glory t waits to %9e 9 on x1 conceive ( ! trem5d\s upheaval1 ! %ock ( f9d+ solid gr\nd s9k1 z gradually or sudd5ly ! conviction comes ^u su* a "o t if %e acts ^u ?is new k !re is no place = h] at home4 ,%e mu/ give ev]y?+ up--ev]y?+6 ,d y wond] t few are f\nd will+ to foll[ s f>8 ,d y wond] t our he>ts ne>ly break sometimes1 z we realize ! co/ = !m8 ,d y wond] t1 kn[+ h[ ea* is set z a t>get = ! ar*] :o %oots at s\ls1 we fe> to say mu* ab\t !m1 le/ we %\ld set ! t>gets cle>] 9 8 sight8 ,! m5 & boys ( ! ,classes live a m lib]al life1 & "h y f9d all v>y+ %ades ( ref9em5t4 ,!re is education1 too1 & a great respect = le>n+1 & rev]5ce = _! classic lit]ature & language1 a language s anci5t t we f9d c]ta9 ,tamil words 9 ! ,hebrew ,scriptures1 & s ri*1 t :ile ne>ly all ! v]nacul>s ( ,india h be5 greatly enri*$ f ! ,sanscrit1 ,sanscrit has borr[$ f ,tamil4 ,almo/ e ,ca/e village has its own little s*ool1 & e t[n has _m1 :]e ! boys are taught read+1 writ+1 poetry1 & m5tal ari?metic4 ,!re is n mu* education among ! ,masses4 ,"h & !re a man /&s out :o has f\ght 8 way ?r\gh ! ignorance ( c5turies1 up into ! light ( ! k ( books4 ,su* a man is greatly respect$ by ! :ole community4 ,! wom5 h ! same k9dly nature z ! wom5 ( ! ,classes1 & !re is surpris+ responsiv5ess sometimes1 :]e "o w\ld lea/ expect x4 ,we h kn[n a ,tamil woman1 di/9ctly ( ! ,masses1 nev] seclud$ 9 h] girlhood1 b left to bloom z a wild fl[] 9 ! field1 z s5sitive 9 _s z any lady born4 ,! p are r\gh & ru/ic 9 _! ways1 b !re are c]ta9 laws obs]v$ :i* %[ a _s ( ref9em5t lat5t among !m2 !re are cu/oms :i* comp>e fav\rably ) ! cu/oms ( ! masses at home4 ,z a :ole1 !y are l ! masses ( o!r l&s1 ) good po9ts & bad po9ts 9 /rong relief1 & j ! same s\ls to be sav$4 ,conv]ts f among ! ,masses1 z a g5]al rule1 are able to live at home4 ,!re is p]secution1 b !y are n turn$ out ( village1 /reet1 or h\se4 ,(t5 !y come 9 gr\ps1 two or ?ree families toge!r p]haps1 or a :ole village l$ by its headman comes ov]4 ,!re is less ( ! s+le "o-by-"o conv]sion & confession1 ?\gh !re is an increas+ numb] ( su*1 & !y are ! be/ we h4 ,x is easy to und]/& h[ mu* m rapidly ,*ri/ianity spreads "u su* conditions ?an among ^? prevail+ among ! ,classes2 we see x illu/rat$ ov] & ov] aga94 ,= example1 9 a c]ta9 high-ca/e ,h9du t[n "s miles di/ant f our /ation on ! ,ea/]n side1 a "y man he>d ! ,gospel prea*$ at an op5-air meet+2 he believ$1 & confess$ 9 baptism1 ?us break+ ,ca/e & becom+ an ali5 to 8 own p4 ,he has nev] be5 able to live at home s9ce1 & s !re has be5 no witness borne1 no *ance to let ! life %[ out ! love ( ,god4 ,! m5 ( t h\sehold d\btless "k some?+ ( ! tru?2 !y "k en\gh1 at lea/1 to make !m responsible = refus+ x2 b :at c ! wom5 "k8 ,only t ! son ( ! h\se has disgrac$ 8 h\se & "n2 only t he has de/roy$ 8 ,ca/e & brok5 8 "m's he>t4 ,%ame ^u him1 !y cry ) "o voice1 & curses on ! cause ( ! %ame1 ! ',way' ( ,jesus ,*ri/6 ,x is useless to say !y are m]ely wom51 & d n c\nt2 !y d c\nt4 ,_! influ5ce c\nts = a v great deal4 ,!oretically1 wom5 9 ,india are no?+ :]e religion is conc]n$2 practically1 !y are ! he>t ( ! ,h9du religion1 z ! m5 are its s9ew & bra94 ,!re has nev] be5 a conv]t 9 t t[n s9ce t "y man 0 bani%$ f x1 out-ca/$ by 8 ,ca/e4 ,b 9 a village only a few miles f t t[n a hea!n lad believ$1 & 0 baptis$1 & return$ home1 n s welcome z be=e1 b n consid]$ too defil$ to be reckon$ a son ( ! h\sehold /ill4 ,8 fa!r is dead1 8 "m is a bitt] oppon5t1 b 8 bro!r has come s9ce1 & )9 a /one's-?r[ ano!r2 & s x goes on3 ! life has a *ance to tell4 ,almo/ e "t we h gone to t village we h f\nd "s ready = baptism1 & ?\gh none ( ! mo!rs h be5 won1 !y witness to ! *ange 9 ! life ( _! sons4 ,my boy's he>t is z :ite z milk n[1 said "o1 :o _h /ood by & se5 t boy ti$ up & flogg$ = ,*ri/'s sake4 ,!y r>ely *ange _! religion1 ^! /aun* old s\ls2 let me g :]e my husb& is2 he w\ld h none ( x6 said "o1 & no?+ seems to move !m2 b !y let _! boys live at home1 & p]haps1 ev5 yet1 ! love w break d[n _! resi/ance4 ,!y are giv+ x a *ance4 ,i ?9k ?is "o illu/ration expla9s m ?an _m words w\ld ! diff]5ce betwe5 "w among ! ,classes & ! ,masses1 & :y x is t "o =m ( "w is s mu* m fruitful ?an ! o!r4 ,! ,masses mu/ n be und]/ood z a va/ ca/eless ,mass1 out-ca/$ by ! ,classes1 = ! ,ca/e sy/em runs d[n to ! v l[e/ /ratum1 b _! ,ca/e rules all[ ( fre] int]c\rse ) o!rs4 ,we may visit 9 _! h\ses m freely1 ent] m freely into _! ?\ghts1 %>e m freely 9 ! int]e/s ( _! lives4 ,we are less outside1 z x 74 ,b ! ma9 diff]5ce betwe5 ! "o set ( p & ! o!r lies deep]2 x is a diff]5ce und]gr\nd4 ,x works out1 h[ev]1 into some?+ all c see4 ,among ! ,masses1 mass movem5ts are ( common occurr5ce2 among ! ,classes1 ) r>e exceptions1 ea* "o mu/ come out alone4 ,illu/ration3 ,a village woman ( ! ,%an> ,ca/e4 ,! photo %[s ! baby's e>s be+ prep>$ = ! jewels h] "m hopes w fill !m by & by4 ,holes are made fir/ & fill$ ) cotton wool1 graduat$ lead5 weights are add$ till ! lobes are long en\gh4 ,?is is (t5 =gott5 by obs]v]s ( ! ,indian ,field f ! home side4 ,!re are p>ts ( t field :]e ! lab\r]s seem to be always b9d+ up %eaves & s++ h>ve/ songs2 & f o!r p>ts come few] songs1 = ! %eaves are few] !re1 or x may be !re are none at all1 only a few poor e>s ( corn1 & !y _h to be ga!r$ "o by "o1 & !y d n %[ 9 ! field4 ,,*apt] ,x ,! ,cre$ ,*asm ,i h _h to deal 9 ! same aft]noon's "w1 on ! "o h& ) m5 ( ke5 p[]s ( intellect1 ^: subtle reason+ made "o look to ! f\ndations ( "o's own fai?2 & on ! o!r h& ) ignorant cr[ds1 ^: conception ( s9 0 t ( a cubit measure1 & to :om ! t]ms 'fai?' & 'love' 7 z absolutely unkn[n z ?\gh !y _h be5 born & br$ 9 "s undevelop$ race ( ,an?ropoids4 ,rev4 ,t4 ,walk]1 ,india4 ,,9 writ+ ab\t ! ,classes & ! ,masses ( ,s\? ,india1 "o great diff]5ce :i* does n exi/ at home %\ld be expla9$4 ,9 ,engl& a pr9ce & a peasant may be divid$ by outw>d ?+s--social position1 /yle ( life1 & ! duty ( life--b 9 all inw>d ?+s !y may be "o--"o 9 fai?1 "o 9 purpose1 "o 9 hope4 ,! diff]5ce :i* divides !m is only accid5tal1 ext]nal2 & ! peasant1 p]haps be+ 9 advance ( ! pr9ce 9 ^! v]ities ( exi/5ce1 may be reg>d$ by ! pr9ce z nobl] ?an himself3 !re is no spiritual *asm betwe5 !m4 ,x is ! same 9 ! realm ( s*ol>%ip4 ,all true ,*ri/ians1 h[ev] le>n$ or h[ev] unle>n$1 hold "o & ! same fai?4 ,b 9 ,india x is n s4 ,! s*ol> w\ld smile at ! fai? ( ! simple villag]s1 he w\ld ev5 tea* !m to believe t :i* he did n believe himself1 hold+ t x 0 m suitable = !m1 & he w\ld m>vel at y\r ignorance if y conf\nd$ 8 cre$ ) !irs2 & yet 9 "n bo? he & !y are ,h9dus4 ,sir ,moni] ,williams expla9s ! exi/5ce ( ?is diff]5ce by describ+ ! receptivity & all-compreh5siv5ess ( ,h9duism4 ,x has some?+ to (f] :i* is suit$ to all m9ds1 its v /r5g? lies 9 its inf9ite adaptability to ! inf9ite div]sity ( human *>act]s & human t5d5cies4 ,x has its highly spiritual & ab/ract side1 suit$ to ! metaphysical philosoph]2 its practical & concrete side1 suit$ to ! man ( affairs & ! man ( ! _w2 its /hetic & c]emonial side1 suit$ to ! man ( poetic feel+ & imag9ation2 its quiesc5t & contemplative side1 suit$ to ! man ( peace & lov] ( seclusion4 ,nay1 x holds out ! "r h& ( bro!rhood to nature wor%ipp]s1 demon wor%ipp]s1 animal wor%ipp]s1 tree wor%ipp]s1 feti* wor%ipp]s4 ,x does n scruple to p]mit ! mo/ grotesque =ms ( idolatry & ! mo/ degrad+ v>ieties ( sup]/ition1 & x is to ?is latt] fact t yet ano!r rem>kable peculi>ity ( ,h9duism is ma9ly due--namely1 t 9 no o!r ,sy/em ( ! _w is ! *asm m va/ :i* sep>ates ! religion ( ! high]1 cultur$1 & ?\ghtful ,classes1 f t ( ! l[]1 uncultur$1 & un?9k+ ,masses4 ,naturally1 !re=e1 "w among !m is diff]5t2 "o almo/ ne$s a diff]5t vocabul>y = ea*1 & c]ta9ly "o ne$s a diff]5t set ( ideas4 ,i rememb] h[1 9 "o aft]noon's "w1 we saw ! two types mo/ p]fectly4 ,9 ?9k+ ( x1 x is z if "o saw aga9 ! quiet face ( ! old s*ol> aga9/ a backgr\nd ( confusion1 ! cle> calm features c>v$ z 9 ivory1 & set ) a light ^u x2 *aotic d>kness beh9d4 ,we 7 visit+ 8 wife1 :5 he came out f ! inn] room1 & ask$ if he might talk ) u4 ,usually to su* a "q ,i say no2 we h come to ! wom51 :o are f> ! m ne$y1 ! m5 c easily he> if !y w4 ,b he 0 su* an old man1 ,i felt ,i c\ld n refuse2 s he began to tell me :at he held z tru?1 :i* 01 9 brief1 t !re are two sets ( atta*m5t1 "o out]1 "o inn]2 t deliv]ance f ^!1 & f ,self1 ! ,ego1 :i* reg>ds itself z ! do]1 con/itutes ,hol9ess2 t is1 t "o mu/ be completely dis5tangl$ & completely self-less4 ,?is atta9$1 ! next is ,bliss1 :i* is progressive4 ,fir/ comes exi/5ce 9 ! same place z ,god4 ,second1 ne>ness to ,god4 ,?ird1 lik5ess to ,god4 ,f\r?1 id5tity ) ,god4 ,!n he quot$ f a classic belov$ by all ! old ,tamil s*ool1 /anza aft] /anza1 to prove ! tru? ( ! above1 end+ ) "o :i* ,dr4 ,pope has ?us translat$-- ,cl+ ?\ to t :i* ,he to ,:om n\ght cl+s ha? bid !e cl+1 ,cl+ to t bond1 to get !e free f e cl++ ?+4 ,he knew ,sanscrit1 & read me /range-s\nd+ passages f a huge anci5t book1 & !n1 9 return = a booklet1 he gave me "o ( ,mrs4 ,besant's translations f ! ,bhagavad ,gita4 ,! talk end$ 9 my quot+ :at he c\ld n d5y 0 ! true he>t-cry ( "o ( 8 greate/ poets4 ,i "k no?+6 no?+6 ,i am 9 d>kness6 ,"l1 is !re no light = me8 ,& ano!r1 f ! poem he _h quot$1 :i* asks ! "q1 ,:at is ! use ( k1 m]e k1 if "o does n draw ne> to ! ,all-kn[+1 ,all-pure ,"o8 ,& ?is l$ into :at he w\ld n li/5 to at fir/1 a little read+ f ! ,book ( books1 be=e ^: light ev5 ^! wond]ful books pale z tap]s 9 cle> sun%9e4 ,! m>vel ( our ,bible nev] %[s m m>vell\s ?an at su* times1 :5 y see x 9 de$ & 9 tru? ! ,sword ( ! ,_s1 & x cuts4 ,! old man ask$ me to come aga91 & ,i did1 z ! ,iy] 0 away4 ,he (t5 got out ( my dep?1 & ,i long$ to "k m2 b ,i always f\nd ! ,bible _h ! v ^w he ne$$1 if he w\ld only take x4 ,s f> z ,i "k1 he did n1 & ,i left him--to quote 8 own words1 ?\gh n spok5 ( himself1 alas6--bewild]$ by num]\s ?\ghts1 me%$ 9 ! web ( delusion4 ,z we left our old s*ol>1 we came ^u a ?+ :olly fooli% & bra9less1 animalism 9 =ce4 ,x 0 ! diff]5ce betwe5 ! ,classes & ! ,masses once = all pa9t$ 9 gl>e4 ,a huge procession 0 te>+ along ! /reets & roads1 ) all ! usual upro>4 ,!y /opp$ :5 !y got to a big ?orn bu%1 & !n danc$ r\nd x1 c>ry+ _! idols rais$ on plat=ms1 & borne by two or ?ree doz5 to ea*4 ,we pass$1 s++ z h>d z ev] we c\ld ,victory to ,jesus' ,"n6 ,victory6 & :5 we got r out ( ! /ream1 /opp$1 & sang mo/ vigor\sly1 till q a little cr[d ga!r$1 & we _h a *ance to witness4 ,x 0 d>k1 & ! flam+ tor*es lit up ! wilde/1 mo/ b>b>ic bit ( hea!nism ,i h se5 = a long "t4 ,! great black mov+ mass seem$ l "s helli% sea :i* _h bur/ its b\nds1 & ! hundr$s ( r$-fire tor*es mov+ up & d[n ^u x l lights 9 inf]nal fi%]m5's boats1 lur+ lo/ s\ls to _! doom4 ,z we wait$ & spoke to ^? :o w\ld he>1 a sudd5 ru% f ! c5tre ( ?+s w>n$ u to g2 b be=e we c\ld get out ( ! way1 a r\gh lad ) a ?orn-bran* tor* /uck x "r into ! b&y1 & all b set fire to u4 ,he ran on ) a laugh1 & ano!r foll[$ ) an idol1 a hide\s creature1 r$ & :ite1 :i* he also pu%$ 9 ^u u4 ,our bullocks trott$ z fa/ z !y c\ld1 & we soon got out ( x all1 & look+ back saw ! great squ>e ( ! devil temple blaz+ ) tor*es & firebr&s1 & he>d ! drumm+s & clang+s & yells :i* ann\nc$ ! arrival ( ! procession4 ,all t night ! riot\s drumm+ cont9u$1 &1 z "o lay awake & li/5$1 "o pictur$ ! old s*ol> sitt+ 9 ! cool night air on 8 v]&ah1 read+ 8 anci5t palm-leaf books by ! light ( ! little lamp 9 ! ni*e ( 8 cottage wall4 ,,*apt] ,,xi ,ca/e view$ z a ,do] ,x is matt] = especial notice t 9 e dep>tm5t ( appli$ sci5ce we h to deal ) ! unse54 ,all =ces1 :e!r 9 physics1 me*anics1 or electricity1 are invisible4 ,alex&] ,mackay1 ,africa4 ,,! division ( ! ,tamil p1 ov] fifte5 million /rong1 into ,classes & ,masses1 ?\gh conv5i5t & simple1 is f> too simple to be ( value 9 giv+ an accurate idea ( ! matt] z x is und]/ood f )94 ,z we said1 x is only an outside view ( ?+s4 ,a /udy ( ,ca/e f an ,indian po9t ( view is a /udy f :i* y rise bewild]$4 ,:at is ,ca/e8 ,:at is electricity8 ,"l ,kelv9 said1 on ! occasion ( 8 jubilee1 t he knew no m ( electric & magnetic =ce 4 4 4 ?an he knew & tri$ to tea* 8 /ud5ts ( natural philosophy fifty ye>s ago 9 8 fir/ session z ,pr(essor4 ,we "k t electricity exi/s1 we are consci\s ( its pres5ce 9 ! ph5om5a ( light1 heat1 s\nd2 b we d n "k :at x is4 ,no?+ c\ld m p]fectly illu/rate ,ca/e4 ,y _c live long 9 a cons]vative "p ( ,india1 9 close contact ) its p1 )\t be+ consci\s ( its pres5ce2 if y come into conflict ) x1 x manife/s itself 9 a fla% ( opposition1 hot rage ( p]secution1 ! ro> ( ! tumult ( ! cr[d4 ,b try to def9e x1 & y f9d y _c d x4 ,x is n m]ely bir?1 class1 a code ( rules1 ?\gh x includes all ^!4 ,x is a =ce1 an en]gy2 !re is _s 9 x1 ess5ce1 hidd5 z ! invisible ess5ce :i* we call electricity4 ,look at :at x does4 ,a few mon?s ago a boy ( twelve resolv$ to be a ,*ri/ian4 ,8 clan1 eight ?\s& /rong1 7 enrag$4 ,!re 0 a riot 9 ! /reets2 9 "o h\se ! poison cup 0 ready4 ,bett] dea? ?an loss ( ,ca/e4 ,9 ano!r t[n a boy took 8 /&1 & 0 baptis$1 ?us cross+ ! l9e t divides secret belief f op5 confession4 ,8 ,ca/e m5 got hold ( him aft]w>ds2 next "t he 0 se5 he 0 a rav+ lunatic4 ,! ,ca/e 0 av5g$4 ,x may be someone w wond] if ^! ?+s are conf9$ to "o "p ( ! field1 s ,i quote f ano!r1 work+ 9 a neighb\r+ field1 ,tamil1 b n ours4 ,%e tells ( a poor l[-ca/e woman :o le>n$ 9 h] home1 & believ$4 ,h] husb& also believ$1 & bo? ?\ght ( becom+ ,*ri/ians4 ,! village soo?say] w>n$ !m t _! fa!r's god w\ld be angry2 !y did n he$ him1 b w5t on1 & sudd5ly _! baby di$4 ,?is 0 too mu* = _! fai? !n1 & !y bo? w5t back to idolatry4 ,a few ye>s aft]w>ds _! elde/ *ild began to le>n to read1 & ! "m's fai? reviv$4 ,! soo?say] & h] husb& rem9d$ h] ( ! infant's fate1 b %e 0 brave1 & let h] *ild le>n4 ,!n h] c[ sudd5ly di$4 ,did we n tell y s8 !y said1 & = ! mom5t %e 0 /agg]$2 b %e ralli$1 & only became m e>ne/ 9 fai?4 ,s ! soo?say] ?reat5$ worse4 ,illu/ration3 ,cook+ 9 a h\se ( ! ,%an> ,ca/e1 always ! mo/ accessible ( all ,ca/es "h1 b ?is is a specially fri5dly h\se1 or we %\ld n h be5 all[$ to take ! photo4 ,! small girl :o is gr9d+ curry /uff on ! /one is ! ,imp ( *apt] xx4 ,!n a ,ca/e meet+ 0 call$ to det]m9e :at c\ld be done ) ?is woman4 ,! husb& att5d$ ! meet+1 & 0 treat$ to "s rice & curry2 be=e he rea*$ home he 0 tak5 viol5tly ill1 & 9 ?ree days he di$4 ,! relatives d5\nc$ ! woman z ! cause ( h] husb&'s dea?1 took h] only son f h]1 & entreat$ h] to return to h] fa!r's gods be=e !y %\ld all be annihilat$4 ,!y gave h] two weeks to fa/ & m\rn = h] husb&1 !n f9d+ h] m9d z firmly fix$ on ,*ri/ z be=e1 !y s5t h] to ,burmah4 ,?is happ5$ rec5tly4 ,x is told )\t any ef=t to appeal to ! sympa?ies ( anyone1 simply z a fact2 a witness1 e l9e ( x1 to ! p[] ( ,ca/e z a ,do]4 ,b !re is some?+ 9 ! tale1 told s t]ribly quietly1 t makes "o's he>t burn ) indignation at ! unrel5t+ cruelty :i* w\ld h\nd a poor woman d[n1 & s5d h]1 b]eft ( all %e lov$1 into exile1 su* z a =eign l& w\ld be to "o :o knew only h] own little village4 ,& :5 y rememb] ! ,ca/e 0 l[1 :i* !y took su* inf9ite pa9s to gu>d1 y c judge1 p]haps1 :at ! hate w\ld be1 ! conc5tration ( scorn & hate1 if ! ,ca/e 7 high] or high4 ,b look at ,ca/e 9 ano!r way1 9 its p[] 9 ! commonplace phases ( life4 ,= example1 take a kit*5 & cook+1 & see h[ ,ca/e rules !re4 ,= cook+ is n vulg> "w1 or infra dig4 9 any s5se1 9 ,india2 all ,ca/e wom5 9 good or?odox ,h9du families ei!r d _! own or sup]9t5d ! do+ ( x by y\ng] memb]s ( ! same family or s]vants ( ! same ,ca/e4 ,we ,europeans _c und]/& ! ext5t to :i* cul9>y op]ations may be associat$ ) religion4 ,! kit*5 9 e ,indian h\sehold is a k9d ( sanctu>y or holy gr\nd4 4 4 4 ,! m]e glance ( a man ( inf]ior ,ca/e makes ! greate/ delicacies uneatable1 & if su* a glance happ5s to fall on ! family supplies dur+ ! cook+ op]ations1 :5 ! c]emonial purity ( ! wat] us$ is a matt] ( almo/ life & dea? to e memb] ( ! h\sehold1 ! :ole repa/ has to be ?r[n away z if poison$4 ,! family is = t day d9n]less4 ,food ?us contam9at$ w\ld1 if eat51 communicate a ta9t to ! s\ls z well z bodies ( ! eat]s1 a ta9t :i* c\ld only be remov$ by long & pa9ful expiation4 ,?us f> ,sir ,moni] ,williams 7quot$ z a great] au?ority ?an any m]e mission>y674 ,?9k ( ! defilem5t :i* w\ld be contract$ if a memb] ( ! h\sehold :o _h brok5 ,ca/e 9 baptism took any "p 9 ! cook+4 ,x w\ld nev] be all[$4 ,su* a woman c\ld take no %>e 9 ! family life4 ,h] pres5ce1 h] %ad[1 above all h] t\*1 w\ld be simply pollution4 ,!re=e1 & = _m o!r reasons1 h] life at home is impossible1 & ! ,h9du1 )\t argu+ ab\t x1 reg>ds x z impossible4 ,x does n ent] into ! s*eme ( life z laid d[n by ! rules ( 8 ,ca/e4 ,he nev]1 if he is or?odox1 contemplates x = a mom5t z a ?+ to be ev5 desir$4 ,cook+ & kit*5 "w may seem small 7?\gh x w\ld n be easy = ev5 ! greate/ to live )\t ref]5ce to x71 s let u look out on ! _w ( trade1 & see ,ca/e aga9 z a ,do] !re4 ,if a m]*ant becomes a ,*ri/ian1 no "o w buy 8 goods2 if he is a weav]1 no "o w buy 8 clo?2 if he is a dy]1 no "o w buy 8 ?read2 if he is a jewell]1 no "o w employ him4 ,if x is rememb]$ t e p>ticul> occupation 9 life repres5ts a p>ticul> ,ca/e1 x w be easily und]/ood h[ matt]s are complicat$ :]e conv]ts f ! great ,trades ,unions are conc]n$4 ,h5ce ! ne$ ( ,indu/rial ,missions1 & ! fact t !y exi/4 ,a man wants to become a ,*ri/ian1 say1 f ! blacksmi? or c>p5t] ,ca/e4 ,z a ,*ri/ian he loses 8 trade1 & he has be5 tra9$ to no o!r4 ,8 =efa!rs work$ 9 iron or wood1 & he _c attempt to le>n o!r "w4 ,let ! ,*ri/ians employ him1 y say4 ,"s d2 b ! "q involves o!r que/ions f> too involv$ = discussion "h4 ,& ev5 if we discuss$ x1 we %\ld probably end :]e we began--fac+ a practical problem :i* no "o c hope to solve :ile ,ca/e is :at x is4 ,j n[ ?is sy/em is 9 full op]ation 9 ! case ( a lad ( ! brasswork] ,ca/e4 ,he is a ?\ghtful boy1 & he has come to ! conclusion t ,*ri/ianity is ! true religion2 he w\ld l to be a ,*ri/ian2 if ! conditions 7 a little easi] he w\ld be enroll$ z an inquir] to-morr[4 ,b "h is ! difficulty4 ,8 fa!r is n /rong1 8 "m & little si/]s & bro!rs are 8 c>e2 if he 7 a ,*ri/ian he c\ld n support !m2 no "o w\ld sell him brass1 no "o w\ld buy ! vessels he makes4 ,he kn[s only 8 inh]it$ trade4 ,he c make f9e wat]-pots1 lamps1 vases1 & vessels ( all sorts1 no?+ else4 ,he is too old to le>n any o!r trade2 b suppos+ su* an arrangem5t c\ld be made1 :o w\ld support ! family 9 ! meantime8 ,p]haps we might d x2 we c]ta9ly c\ld n let !m />ve2 b x w\ld n d to tell him s1 or to hold out hopes ( e>?ly help1 till we "k beyond a d\bt t he is true4 ,?is is :at is hold+ him back4 ,he reads ov] & ov] aga91 ,he t love? fa!r or "m m ?an ,me is n wor?y ( ,me1 & !n he looks at 8 fa!r & "m & ! little *ildr52 & he reads ! v]se aga91 & he looks at !m aga94 ,x is too h>d4 ,x is easy en\gh to tell him t ,god w\ld take c>e ( !m if he obeys4 ,we d tell him s1 b c we wond] at ! boy = hesitat+ to take a /ep :i* w1 s f> z he c see1 take h\se & food & all !y ne$ f 8 "m & ^? little *ildr58 ,^! are "s ( ! ?+s :i* make "w 9 ,india :at is simply call$ difficult4 ,we d n want to exagg]ate4 ,we "k all l&s h _! difficulties1 b :5 be+ a ,*ri/ian means all ?is1 ov] & above :at x means else:]e1 !n ! bonds :i* b9d s\ls are visibly /r5g!n$1 & ! "w c nev] be describ$ z o!r ?an v difficult4 ,or take ! p[] ( ,ca/e 9 ano!r direction--its call\s cruelty4 ,i give "o illu/ration f la/ ye>'s life4 ,i 0 visit+ 9 ! h\se :]e ! old lady lives ^u :om ! afflatus fell4 ,! fir/ "t we w5t !re we saw a little lad ( ?ree or f\r1 :o seem$ to be suff]+ ) 8 eyes4 ,he lay 9 a sw++ bag hung f ! ro(1 & cri$ pite\sly all ! "t we 7 !re4 ,n[1 two mon?s aft]w>ds1 !re he lay cry+ /ill1 only 8 cries 7 s we>y he _h h>dly /r5g? to cry4 ,!y lift$ him out4 ,i %\ld n h kn[n ! *ild--! pretty face drawn & full ( pa91 ! little h&s press$ ov] ! burn+ eyes4 ,only "o :o has _h x kn[s ! agony ( oph?almia4 ,!y told me he _h n slept1 n ev5 ! measure ( a rape-se$1 = ?ree mon?s4 ,night & day he cri$ & cri$2 b he does n make mu* noise n[1 !y add$4 ,he c\ldn't1 poor little lad6 ,i begg$ !m to take him to ! hospital1 tw5ty-five miles away1 b !y said to g to a hospital 0 aga9/ _! ,ca/e4 ,! *ild lay moan+ s pitifully x wrung my he>t1 & ,i plead$ & plead$ ) !m to let me take him if !y w\ld n4 ,ev5 if 8 sight c\ld n be sav$1 some?+ c\ld be done to ease ! pa91 ,i knew4 ,b no1 he might die away f home1 & t w\ld disgrace _! ,ca/e4 ,!n he is to suff] till he is bl9d or dead8 & ,i felt half wild ) ! cold cruelty ( x4 ,:at c we d8 !y ask$2 c we de/roy our ,ca/e8 ,oh1 ,i did blaze out = a mom5t6 ,i really c\ld n help x4 ,& !n ,i knelt d[n among !m all1 j brok5 ) ! pity ( x1 & pray$ ) all my he>t & s\l t ! ,good ,%eph]d w\ld come & ga!r ! lamb 9 ,8 arms6 ,i wond] if y c be> to read x8 ,i c h>dly be> to write x4 ,b y h n se5 ! little wa/$ h&s press$ ov] ! eyes1 & !n fall+ helplessly1 too tir$ to hold up any long]2 & y h n he>d ^? weak little wails--& to ?9k x ne$ n h be56 ,b we c\ld d no?+4 ,we 7 leav+ ! place next day1 & ev5 if we c\ld h help$ him1 !y w\ld n h let u4 ,!y _h _! own doctor1 !y said2 ! case 0 9 8 h&s4 ,z we came away !y expla9$ t "o ( ! boy's di/ant relatives _h di$ two ye>s ago1 & t ?is 0 :at prev5t$ any ( !m leav+ ! h\se1 z "s obscure ,ca/e rule w\ld be brok5 if !y did2 o!rwise1 p]haps !y might h be5 able to take him some:]e = *ange ( treatm5t4 ,s !re t *ild mu/ lie 9 8 pa91 "o m little liv+ sacrifice on ! alt> ( ,ca/e4 ,! la/ ?+ ,i he>d !m say z we left ! h\se 01 ,cry s(tly1 or we'll put m m$ic9e 96 ,& ! la/ ?+ ,i saw 0 ! tight5+ ( ! little h&s ov] ! poor %ut eyes1 z he tri$ to /ifle 8 sobs & cry s(tly4 ,?is told "o :at ! m$ic9e meant to him4 ,"o ( ! ?+s !y _h put 9 0 raw pepp] mix$ ) alum4 ,is n ,ca/e a cruel ?+8 ,^? wom5 7 n he>tless1 b !y w\ld r see t baby die 9 torture by in*es1 ?an dim ) "o brea? ! lu/re ( _! braz5 escut*eon ( ,ca/e6 ,illu/ration3 ,i det]m9$ n to laugh6 ,t 0 :at %e said :5 %e saw x1 & %e 0 fairly satisfi$ ) ! result ( h] ef=ts4 ,! jewels are gold1 ! seeley a ri* r$4 ,a woman ( ?is type makes a f9e picture1--! /rong intellig5t face1 ! p]fect arms & h&s1 ! gli/5+ gold on ! cle> br[n1 & ! graceful dress h>monis+ s p]fectly ) ! col\r ( eyes & hair4 ,! "o de=mity is ! e>1 cut s z to hold ! jewels1 :i* are s heavy t "o wond]s ! /ret*$ lobes d n break4 ,?is is "o glimpse ( "o phase ( a p[] :i* is only a "n at home4 ,x is its weake/ phase2 = ! hold ( ,ca/e ^u ! body is z no?+ to ! hold x has ^u ! m9d & s\l4 ,x yields to ! t\* ( pa9 sometimes1 z our m$ical mission>ies "k2 b x tight5s aga9 too (t5 :5 ! ne$ = relief is pa/4 ,x is unspeakably /rong1 unm]cifully cruel1 & yet x w\ld seem z ?\gh ! v blood ( ! p ran r$ ) x4 ,x is 9 !m1 "p ( _! v be+4 ,?is1 !n1 is ,ca/e view$ z a ,do]4 ,x does /range ?+s1 h>d ?+s1 ?+s mo/ cruel4 ,x is1 all :o fight x are agre$1 ! /ronge/ foe to ! ,gospel ( ,*ri/ on ! ,h9du fields ( ,s\? ,india4 ,,*apt] ,,xii ,petra ,?is "w 9 ,india 4 4 4 is "o ( ! mo/ crucial te/s ! ,*ur* ( ,*ri/ has ev] be5 put to4 ,! p y ?9k to measure y\r =ces aga9/ are su* z ! giant races ( ,canaan are no?+ to4 ,bi%op ,fr5*1 ,india & ,arabia4 ,,x 0 v hot1 & we 7 tir$1 & ! fri5dly voice call+ ,come 96 come 96 ,oh1 come & re/6 0 a welcome s\nd1 & we w5t 94 ,%e 0 a de> old fri5d ( m9e1 ! only real fri5d ,i h 9 t anci5t ,h9du t[n4 ,h] h\se is always op5 to u1 ! upp] room always empty--or said to be s--:5 we are ne$+ a re/4 ,b %e is a ,h9du ( ! ,h9dus1 & ?\gh s enlight5$ t = love's sake %e t\*es u freely1 tak+ our h&s 9 h]s1 & ev5 kiss+ u1 aft] we g !re is a g5]al purification2 e scrap ( clo?+ worn :ile we 7 9 ! h\se is c>efully wa%$ be=e sunset4 ,%e insi/$ n[ ^u fe$+ u1 call$ = planta9s & sug>1 broke up ! planta9s1 dabb$ ! pulp 9 ! sug>1 & comm&$ u to eat4 ,!n %e sat d[n satisfi$1 & 0 photograph$4 ,?is t[n1 a little anci5t ,h9du t[n1 is two h\rs j\rney f ,dohnavur4 ,!re are ?irty-eight /one temples & %r9es 9 & ar\nd x1 & five hundr$ alt>s4 ,no "o has c\nt$ ! numb] ( idols2 !re are two hundr$ "u a s+le tree ne> "o ( ! small] %r9es4 ,ea* ( ! l>g] temples has its att5dant temple-wom52 !re are two hundr$ recognis$ ,s]vants ( ! gods1 & two hundr$ annual fe/ivals4 ,wond]ful sums are be+ work$ j n[ conc]n+ ! progress ( ,*ri/ianity 9 ,india4 ,a fav\rite sum is /at$ ?us3 ! numb] ( ,*ri/ians has increas$ dur+ ! la/ decade at a c]ta9 ratio4 ,giv5 ! cont9uance ( ?is uni=m rate ( increase1 x w foll[ t )9 a computable p]iod ,india w be a ,*ri/ian l&4 ,"o flaw 9 ?is me?od ( calculation is t x takes = grant$ t ,brahmans1 high-ca/e ,h9dus1 & ,mohamm$ans w be ,*ri/ianis$ at ! same rate ( progress z prevails at pres5t among ! depress$ classes4 ,!re are sums less frequ5tly /at$4 ,"h 9 ! he>t ( ?is ,h9du t[n !y come ) =ce2 "o su* sum work$ out c>efully %[s t1 accord+ to ! pres5t rate ( advance1 x w be m ?an tw5ty ?\s& ye>s be=e ! ,h9du t[ns ( ?is di/rict are ev5 nom9ally ,*ri/ian4 ,ano!r /ill m />tl+ gives u ?is result3 accord+ to ! laws :i* gov]n /ati/ics1 ?irte5 hundr$ ?\s& ye>s mu/ pass be=e ! ,brahmans 9 ?is "o ,s\? ,indian di/rict are ,*ri/ianis$4 ,& if ! sum is work$ s z to cov] all ,india1 ! result is q z /agg]+ to fai? bas$ on /ati/ics4 ,praise ,god1 ?is is n ,8 ari?metic6 ,x is a purely human inv5tion4 ,we believe 9 ! ,holy ,gho/1 ! ,"l & ,giv] ( ,life2 we believe 9 ,god1 ev5 ,god ,:o calle? ! ?+s t are n z ?\gh !y 73 !re=e ^! sums prove no?+4 ,b if su* sums are work$ at all1 !y ought to be work$ on bo? sides1 & n only on ! side :i* yields ! mo/ enc\rag+ results4 ,two ( u sp5t a morn+ 9 ! ,brahman /reet4 ,9 ^! old ,h9du t[ns ! ,brahman /reet is built r\nd ! temple1 & 9 l>ge t[ns ?is /reet is a ?or\ghf>e1 & we are all[$ 94 ,! wom5 /ood 9 ! %ad[ ( ! cool little d>k v]&ahs1 & we /ood out 9 ! sun & tri$ to make fri5ds ) !m4 ,!n "s ,mission ,college boys saw u & felt a%am$ t we %\ld /& 9 t blaz+ heat1 & !y (f]$ u a v]&ah2 b ! wom5 in/antly cle>$ (f1 & ! m5 came1 & ! boys bes\ght u "u _! brea? to say no?+ ab\t our religion4 ,we spoke = a few m9utes1 ?r[+ our :ole s\l into ! *ance4 ,we felt t our words 7 z fea!rs float+ aga9/ rocks2 b we witness$1 & !y li/5$ till1 z "o ( !m rem>k$1 x 0 "t to g = _! noontide ba!1 & we knew !y wi%$ u to g4 ,we w5t !n1 & f\nd a wall at ! head ( ! ,brahman /reet1 & we /ood 9 its %ad[ & tri$ aga94 ,cr[ds ( m5 & lads ga!r$ ab\t u1 b our ,college boys /ood by our side & help$ to quiet !m4 ,n[ y see1 !y said to u1 z !y walk$ ) u d[n ! out] /reet1 h[ q impossible = u is ,*ri/ianity4 ,x is good sometimes to take "t to take 9 ! might ( ! foe we fight4 ,t ev5+ two ( u _h a quiet few m9utes "u ! temple walls4 ,^? great walls1 rea*+ s high above u1 /ret*+ s f> beyond u1 seem$ a type ( ! wall ,satan has built r\nd ^! s\ls4 ,we c\ld t\* ?is visible wall1 press aga9/ x1 feel its solid /r5g?4 ,run h>d aga9/ x1 & y w\ld be hurt1 y might fall back ble$+2 x w\ld n h yield$ "o in*4 ,& ! o!r invisible wall8 ,oh1 we c t\* x too6 ,_s-t\* is a real ?+4 ,& s is _s-pa94 ,b ! wall1 x /ill /&s /rong4 ,x 0 moonlight4 ,we _h walk$ all r\nd ! great temple squ>e1 d[n ! sil5t ,brahman /reets1 & we _h /ood 9 ! pill>$ hall1 & look$ across to ! op5 door1 & se5 ! light on ! %r9e4 ,n[ we 7 out 9 ,god's clean light1 look+ up at ! mass ( ! t[]1 z x rose pit*-black aga9/ ! sky4 ,& we felt h[ small we 74 ,!n ! influ5ces ( ! place began to take hold ( u4 ,x 0 n only masonry2 x 0 my/]y4 ,! ,sov]eigns ( ?is pres5t ,d>kness 7 !re4 ,h[ futile all ( e>? seem$ !n1 aga9/ ^? trem5d\s =ces & p[]s4 ,:at toy-swords seem$ all weapons ( ! fle%4 ,praise ,god = ! ,holy ,gho/6 ,:ile we 7 sitt+ !re a ,brahman came to see :at we 7 do+1 & we told him "s ( our ?\ghts4 ,he ask$ u !n if we w\ld c>e to he> 84 ,we told him1 gladly4 ,he po9t$ up to ! temple t[]4 ,t is my fir/ /ep to ,god4 ,we li/5$1 & he unfold$1 ?\ght by ?\ght1 t /range old ,vdic philosophy1 :i* holds t ,god1 be+ omnipres5t1 reveals ,himself 9 v>i\s ways1 9 visible =ms 9 inc>nations1 or 9 _s4 ,! visible-=m me?od ( revelation is ! l[e/2 x is only1 z x 71 ! fir/ ( a s]ies ( /eps :i* lead up to ! highe/1 intellig5t adoration ( & absorption into ! ,"o ,supreme ,_s4 ,we are only little *ildr5 yet4 ,we take ?is small fir/ /ep1 x crumbles b5ea? u z we rise to ! next1 & s /ep by /ep we rise f ! visible to ! invisible1 f matt] to _s--to ,god4 ,b1 he add$ c\rte\sly1 z my fai? is good = me1 s1 d\btless1 y f9d y\rs = y4 ,next morn+ we w5t d[n to ! riv] & _h talks ) ! p :o pass$ on _! way to ! t[n4 ,x 0 all s pretty 9 ! e>ly morn+ light4 ,m5 7 wa%+ _! bullocks1 & *ildr5 7 scamp]+ 9 & out ( ! wat]4 ,f>!r d[n/ream ! wom5 7 ba?+ _! babies & poli%+ _! brass wat]-vessels4 ,trees met ov]head1 b ! light broke ?r\gh 9 places & made yell[ pat*es on ! wat]4 ,out 9 "o ( ^? rea*es ( yell[ a girl /ood b5d+ to fill h] vessel2 %e wore ! common crimson ( ! ,s\?1 b ! light /ruck x1 & /ruck ! %9+ brass z %e swung x up "u h] arm1 & made h] into a picture z %e /ood 9 h] cl++ wet r$ ?+s aga9/ ! br[n & gre5 ( wat] & wood4 ,ev]y:]e we look$ !re 0 some?+ beautiful to look at1 & all ab\t u 0 ! s\nd ( voices & laught]1 & ! musical spla%+ ( wat]2 !n1 z we enjoy$ x all1 we saw ?is3 ,"u an anci5t tree fifte5 m5 7 walk+ sl[ly r\nd & r\nd1 foll[+ ! c\rse ( ! sun4 ,"u ! tree !re 7 numb]s ( idols1 & piles ( ole&] & jessam9 wrea?s1 br\ght fre% t morn+4 ,! m5 7 eld]ly1 f9e-look+ m52 !y 7 :olly engross$ 9 :at !y 7 do+4 ,x 0 no fooli% f>ce to !m2 x 0 reality4 ,!re is some?+ 9 ! sight ( ?is ord9>y1 evid5t de?ronem5t ( our ,god :i* /irs "o to "o's inmo/ s\l4 ,we c\ld n look at x4 ,aga9 & aga9 we h gone to t t[n1 b to-day ^? m5 g r\nd t tree1 & to-day t t[n is a =t unwon4 ,petra1 ,i h call$ x2 ! ^w /&s = _m a t[n wall$ 9 z t "o is4 ,9 ,kei?'s ,evid5ce ( ,prophecy !re is a map ( ,petra1 ! old /rong city ( ,edom1 & 9 /udy+ x a light fell ^u ,david's "q conc]n+ x1 & 8 own triumphant answ]1 ,:o w lead me into ! /rong city8 ,:o w br+ me into ,edom8 ,wilt n ,?\1 ,o ,god8 = ! map %[s ! m\nta9s all r\nd except at ! ,ea/1 :]e !y break into a s+le n>r[ passage1 ! "o way 94 ,!re 0 only "o way 91 b !re 0 t "o way 96 ,"h is a t[n wall$ up to heav5 by walls ( ,ca/e & bigotry1 b !re mu/ be "o way 94 ,"h is a s\l wall$ all r\nd by utt] indiff]5ce & pride1 b !re mu/ be "o way 94 ,:o w lead me into ! /rong city8 ,:o w br+ me into ,edom8 ,wilt n ,?\1 ,o ,god8 ,,*apt] ,,xiii ,dea? by ,disuse ,!re is a /rong t5d5cy to look ^u ! ,atonem5t ( ,*ri/ z possess+ "s quality by virtue ( :i* ,god c excuse & ov]look s9 9 ! ,*ri/ian1 a read9ess to look ^u s9n+ z ! inevitable accompanim5t ( human nature 'until dea? d u "p1' & to look ^u ,*ri/ianity z a sub/itute = r ?an a cause ( p]sonal hol9ess ( life4 ,rev4 ,i4 ,w4 ,*>lton1 ,india4 ,f _m ?+s ,i h he>d ,i fancy _m at home ?9k ( ! mission z a sort ( little heav5 ^u e>?1 b :5 "o looks "u ! surface !re is mu* to sadd5 "o4 4 4 4 ,oh1 fri5ds1 mu* pray] is ne$$6 ,_m ( ! ag5ts "k app>5tly no?+ ab\t conv]sion4 ,y may n l my writ+ s pla9ly1 b sometimes x seems z if only ! bright side 7 giv51 & "o feels t if ,god's pray+ p at home und]/ood ?+s m z !y really are 4 4 4 m pray] = an outp\r+ ( ! ,holy ,_s on our ag5ts & conv]ts w\ld asc5d to ,god4 4 4 4 ,we d long to see all our pa/ors & ag5ts really conv]t$ m51 m5 ( pray] & fai?1 :o1 kn[+ t !y !mselves are sav$1 long ) a great long+ to see ! hea!n r\nd !m br\ght out ( d>kness into ,8 light1 & ! ,*ri/ians :o =m _! congregations1 e>ne/ conv]t$ m5 & wom54 ,a4 ,j4 ,c>r1 ,india4 ,fifty add$ to ! ,*ur* s\nds f9e at home1 b if only five ( !m are g5u9e :at w x pr(it 9 ! ,great ,day8 ,david ,liv+/one1 ,africa4 ,oh = ! ,fire to set ! :ole alight1 & melt u all into "o mighty ,holy-,gho/ ,*ur*6 ,m9nie ,app]son1 ,*9a4 ,,! lamps 7 be+ light$1 ! drums beat51 ! cymbals /ruck1 & ! horns bl[n = ev5+ pujah 9 all ! l>g] temples & %r9es ( ! ,/rong ,city1 :5 we turn$ out ( x1 &1 cross+ ! /ream t divides ! two places1 w5t to ! ,*ri/ian hamlet1 :i* by contra/ at t mom5t seem$ l a little corn] ( ! g>d5 ( ! ,"l4 ,beh9d 0 ! hea!ni% cla% & clang ( e possible discord1 & "h ! /eady r++ ( ! bell = ev5+ s]vice2 beh9d 0 all t ev] 0 meant by ! my/]y ( iniquity1 & "h ! purity & peace ( ,*ri/ianity4 ,?is is h[ x /ruck me at fir/2 & ev5 n[1 aft] a spell ( "w 9 ! he>t ( hea!ndom1 ,*ri/5dom1 or ! bit ( x ly+ alongside1 is beautiful by contra/4 ,!re y h nak$ dea?1 dea? unadorn$1 ! corpse exhibit$2 "h1 if !re is a corpse1 at lea/ x is dec5tly dress$4 ,& yet t ev5+ x 0 =c$ ^u me t dea? is dea? :]ev] f\nd & h[ev] c>efully cov]$4 ,illu/ration3 ,i d feel s %y6 %e 0 j on ! po9t ( say+ to me1 by ! way ( appeal to be releas$1 :5 ! cam]a click$ & %e 0 caught4 ,wid[s d n we> jewels1 z a rule1 among ! ,h9dus ( ! high] ,ca/es1 b ,*ri/ians d z !y l4 ,%e is a village woman ( fairly good position4 ,! fir/ ( ! ,*ri/ians to welcome u 0 a bright-look+ wid[--?is is h] photograph4 ,we soon made fri5ds4 ,%e told u %e _h be5 born 9 ! ,way2 h] gr&fa!r jo9$ x1 & none ( ! family _h gone back1 s %e 0 sure t all 0 "r4 ,we 7 n s sure1 & we tri$ to f9d out if %e knew ! diff]5ce betwe5 jo9+ ! ,way & com+ to ,*ri/4 ,?is 0 only a poor little c\ntry hamlet1 b ev]y:]e we h travell$1 among educat$ & un$ucat$ alike1 we h f\nd mu* confusion ( ?\ght ^u ?is subject4 ,god kn[s my he>t1 %e said1 ,god he>s my pray]s4 ,if ,i see a bad dream 9 ! night1 ,i pray to ,god1 & putt+ a ,bible "u my head1 ,i sleep 9 p]fect peace4 ,c\ld any?+ be m conclusive8 ,!re 7 numb]s ( o!r pro(s =?com+3 ,if y\r gr&fa!r gave six lamps to ! *ur*1 value ?ree & a half rupees ea* 7! lamps are hang+ to-day1 & be> witness to ! fact72 if y\r fa!r nev] fail$ to pay 8 ye>ly dues1 besides regul> ,sunday collections 78 "n is 9 ! *ur* report1 & h[ mu* he gave is pr9t$72 if y freely help ! poor1 & give !m paddy on ,*ri/mas ,day 7q a sackful ( x72 if y nev] (f] to demons 7no1 n :5 y\r *ildr5 are sick1 & ! o!r fai?less ,*ri/ians advise y72 if y nev] tie on ! cyl9d] 7a *>m frequ5tly ?\gh cov]tly worn by purely nom9al ,*ri/ians72 & f9ally1 if y h be5 baptis$ & confirm$1 & )\t a break jo9 ! ,night-supp]1 surely no "o c reasonably d\bt t y are a ,*ri/ian ( a v prop] sort8 ,z to que/ions ab\t *ange ( he>t1 & *ronic indulg5ce 9 s9s1 su* z ly+--:o 9 ?is wick$ _w lives )\t ly+8 ,& :5 x pleases ,god to d x ,he w *ange y\r he>t4 ,we took ! ev5+ meet+ = ! villag]s1 :o mean:ile _h ga!r$ & 7 li/5+ ) approval4 ,privacy1 z we und]/& x1 is a ?+ unkn[n 9 ,india4 ,t is "r1 !y rem>k$ *e]fully2 give h] pl5ty ( good advice6 ,& we all troop$ into ! pray]-room4 ,once 9 !re1 ev]yone put on a sort ( *ur* expression1 & ea* "o took 8 or h] accu/om$ seat 9 decor\s sil5ce4 ,! little s*ool-*ildr5 sat 9 r[s 9 front on ! mats ) arms demurely fold$1 & sp>kl+ eyes fix$ solemnly2 ! gr[n-up p sat on _! mats on ei!r side beh9d1 & we sat on ours fac+ !m4 ,we began ) a *orus1 :i* ! *ildr5 pick$ up quickly & %\t$ lu/ily1 ! gr[n-ups jo9+ 9 ) m res]ve2 & !n we got to "w4 ,bless+ spoke4 ,%e _h once be5 a nom9al ,*ri/ian1 & %e knew exactly :]e ^! p 71 & h[ !y look$ at ?+s4 ,h] he>t 0 greatly mov$ z %e spoke1 & ! te>s 7 9 h] eyes1 = %e knew none ( ^! fri5ds _h ! joy ( consci\s salvation1 & %e told me aft]w>ds %e _h ?ir/ & hung] = !m4 ,b !y li/5$ unimpress$4 ,!n we _h pray] & a quiet "t2 sometimes ! ,_s works mo/ 9 quiet1 & we rose expectantly2 b !re 0 no sign ( life4 ,aft] ! meet+ 0 ov] !y ga!r$ r\nd u aga94 ,!y are always s lov+ & fri5dly 9 ^! little villages2 b !y c\ld n und]/& :at x 0 t tr\bl$ u4 ,7 !y n all ,*ri/ians8 ,%ortly aft]w>ds !y came1 z _! k9dly cu/om is1 to br+ u fruit & wrea?s ( fl[]s on ,new ,ye>'s ,day4 ,i miss$ my fir/ fri5d ( t ev5+1 & ask$ = h]4 ,t wid[ y talk$ to8 said ! old cate*i/1 ?ree days ago fev] seiz$ h]1 &--,he broke (f & look$ up4 ,!n ,i long$ to he> h[ %e _h di$1 b no "o c\ld tell me any?+4 ,oh1 ! curta9 ( sil5ce t cov]s ! pass+ ( s\ls6 ,we w5t soon aft]w>ds to ! village1 sure t at la/ ! p w\ld be /irr$2 = %e _h be5 a lead] among ! wom51 & h] call1 ev5 9 ?is l& ( sudd5 calls1 _h be5 v sudd54 ,b we did n f9d x _h affect$ anyone4 ,!y all ref]r$ to h] 9 ! *a/5$ tone adopt$ ^u su* occasions1 &1 sigh+1 rem9d$ ea* o!r t ,god 0 m]ciful1 & %e _h always be51 up to ! measure ( h] ability1 a v good woman4 ,we felt z if we 7 /&+ ) ea* "o ( ^? p sep>ately1 9 ! "o little /&+ space we 7 sure (1 be=e t curta91 & we spoke ) !m z y speak ) ^? :om y "k y may nev] see aga9 on ?is side ( x4 ,b !y look$ at u1 & wond]$ :at 0 ! matt] ) u4 ,7 !y n ,*ri/ians8 ,did !y n believe 9 ,god8 ,did !y n pray regul>ly night & morn+ = =giv5ess1 protection1 & bless+8 ,s !y c\ld n und]/&4 ,0 x t ! p[] to und]/& _h be5 )]$ up )9 !m8 ,0 ! s\l ,god gave !m dead--s5t5c$ to dea? by disuse8 ,dead !y are 9 apa?y & ignorance & putrefy+ cu/oms1 & ! false security t comes f adh]5ce to ! ,*ri/ian cre$ )\t vital connection ) ,*ri/4 ,^! poor ,*ri/ians are dead4 ,:y %\ld x be ?\ght a ?+ incr$ible ) y t ,god %\ld raise ! dead8 ,"l1 x is n a ?+ incr$ible4 ,?\ ha/ done x be=e4 ,oh1 d x aga94 ,d x soon6 ,i h told y h[ mu* we ne$ y\r help = ! "w among ! hea!n2 b (t5 we feel we ne$ x almo/ z mu* = ! "w among ! ,*ri/ians4 ,ov] & ov] aga9 x is told1 b /ill x is h>dly und]/ood1 t ! ,*ri/ians ne$ to be conv]t$2 t ! va/ majority are n conv]t$2 t /ati/ics may mislead1 & d n /& = ,et]nity "w2 t _m a pa/or1 cate*i/1 tea*]1 has a "n to live1 b is dead2 t ! ,*ur* is v dead z a :ole--?ank ,god = e exception4 ,we d n say ?is ?\ghtlessly2 ! words are a grief to write4 ,we humble ourselves t x is s1 & take to ourselves ! blame4 ,x is true t ! corpse ( ! dead ,*ur* is dress$1 j z x is at home1 only "h x is ev5 m dress$2 & because ! _s ( ! l& is int5sely religi\s1 its grave-clo!s are ve/m5ts4 ,b dress$ dea? is /ill dea?4 ,?is w come z a %ock to ^? :o h read /ories ( ?is or t native ,*ri/ian1 & g5]alis+ f ^! /ories1 picture ! ,*ur* z a company ( sa9ts4 ,god has ,8 sa9ts 9 ,india1#a m5 & wom5 hidd5 away 9 quiet places out ( sight1 & "s few out 9 ! front2 b ! cry ( our he>ts is = m4 ,s we tell y ! tru? ab\t ?+s z !y are1 ?\gh we "k x w n be acceptable1 = ! be/ is ! ?+ t is be/ lik$ at home2 s ! be/ is mo/ frequ5tly writt54 ,?is may seem to cross out :at 0 said be=e1 ab\t ! d>k] side ( ! tru? be+ (t5 told4 ,x does n cross x out3 read ?r\gh ! magaz9es & reports1 & y w f9d tru?-reveal+ s5t5ces1 :i* %[ facts to ^? :o h eyes to see2 b ?\gh ?is is s1 all w admit t ! sangu9e view1 z x is call$1 is by f> ! mo/ 9 evid5ce1 = ! sangu9e man is by f> ! mo/ popul> writ]1 & s is m press$ to write4 ,p w read :at is buoyant & bright2 ! m ( t sort we h ! bett]1 wrote a ,mission secret>y out 9 ! field n long ago1 to a mission>y :o did n feel free to write 9 q t way4 ,^? :o1 to quote ano!r secret>y1 are afraid ( writ+ at all1 = fe> ( tell+ lies--excuse ! en]getic language2 ,i am quot+1 n inv5t+--naturally write mu* less1 & s ! be/ gets kn[n4 ,?is is nobody's fault exactly4 ,! home au?orities pr9t = ! mo/ "p :at is s5t to !m4 ,!y ev5 call att5tion sometimes to ! less *e]ful view ( ?+s2 & if1 yield+ occasionally to ! pressure :i* is br\ght to be> ^u !m by a public :i* loves to he> :at x likes1 !y take ! /+ out ( "s /rong p>agraph by add+ an editorial ,nev]!less1 is x v a/oni%+8 ,d y ?9k we are writ+ l ?is because we are disc\rag$8 ,no1 we are n disc\rag$1 except :5 sometimes we fe> le/ y %\ld gr[ we>y 9 pray] be=e ! answ] comes4 ,?is ,india is ,god's ,india4 ,?is "w is ,84 ,oh1 jo9 ) u !n1 z we jo9 ) all our de> ,indian bro!rs & si/]s :o are alive 9 ! ,"l1 9 wait+ ^u ,him 9 t int5se/ =m ( wait+ :i* waits on till ! answ] comes2 jo9 ) u z we pray to ! mighty ,god ( revivals1 ,o ,"l1 revive ,?y "w6 ,revive ,?y "w 9 ! mid/ ( ! ye>s6 ,9 ! mid/ ( ! ye>s make kn[n6 ,,footnote3 #a ,see ,app5dix1 p4 #cjc4 ,,*apt] ,,xiv ,:at ,happ5$ ,"s ye>s ago ,engl& 0 /irr$ ?r\gh & ?r\gh by revelations :i* 7 made z to ! ',bitt] ,cry' ( wrong$ womanhood4 ,9 ,india ! bitt] cry is f> m bitt]1 b x is /ifl$ & smo!r$ by ! cruel gag ( ,ca/e4 ,or?odox ,h9dus w\ld r see _! girls betray$1 tortur$1 murd]$1 ?an suff] !m to break ?r\gh ! trammels ( ,ca/e4 ,rev4 ,t4 ,walk]1 ,india4 ,,!re is ano!r anci5t t[n ne> ,dohnavur1 & 9 t t[n ano!r temple1 & r\nd ! temple ! usual ,brahman squ>e4 ,9 "o ( ! /reets ( ?is squ>e we saw ! girl ^: face looks out at y4 ,x /ruck u z a typical face1 n beautiful z _m are1 b *>act]i/ic 9 ! lat5t p[] ( eyes & br[1 a face full ( possibilities4 ,illu/ration3 ,"h is "o :o might be a que54 ,:at %e may be is v diff]5t4 ,%e is a ,brahman girl2 all h] p are ,h9dus4 ,%e has nev] ev5 felt a desire1 or se5 any "o 9 h] t[n :o felt a desire1 to fall into ! pit ( ,*ri/ianity4 ,we 7 r>ely able to get any?+ we specially want$1 b we got ?is4 ,i look at x n[1 & wond] h[ x w develop z ! s\l beh9d x %apes & gr[s4 ,t *ild is enfold$ 9 influ5ces :i* w>d (f ! t\* ( ! grace ( life4 ,we saw numb]s ( wom5 t day1 b only at ! di/ance ( a /reet bread?2 !y w\ld n come ne>]1 = ! t[n is /ill a ,petra to u1 we are wait+ to be l$ 94 ,b if we 7 able to get 9 en\gh to take a photograph1 surely we 7 9 en\gh to prea* ! ,gospel8 ,:y n /op & !re speak ( m important matt]s8 ,:at 0 to h9d] !n8 ,only ?is3 9 t t[n !y h he>d ( conv]ts com+ out1 & break+ ,ca/e 9 baptism1 & !y h made a law t we 7) :om !y "k "s ( ^! conv]ts are7 %all nev] be all[$ to speak to any ( _! wom54 ,t h9d]$ u !re4 ,b ev5 suppos+ we _h be5 free to speak1 z we tru/ we %all be soon1 & suppos+ %e _h want$ to he>1 ! b>ri]s :i* lie betwe5 su* a *ild & confession ( ,*ri/ are s _m & s great t :51 z n[1 "o wants to tell y ab\t !m1 "o h>dly kn[s h[ to d x4 ,words seem l little feeble %ad[s ( "s grim rock1 l little feeble %ad[s ( ! grasses gr[+ on x1 r ?an ( x1 9 its solidity2 or1 to rev]t to ! old ?\ght1 all "o c say is j po9t+ to ! ,du/ z evid5ce ( ! ,actual4 ,:at is to h9d] high-ca/e wom5 f be+ baptis$1 & liv+ z ,*ri/ians 9 _! own homes8 ,! "q 0 ask$ by an ,engli%man1 a w9t] visitor1 :o1 be+ int]e/$ 9 ,missions1 0 ga!r+ impressions4 ,we told him no high-ca/e woman w\ld be all[$ to live z an op5 ,*ri/ian 9 h] own home2 & we told him ( "s :o1 only because !y 7 suspect$ ( incl9+ t[>ds ,*ri/ianity1 _h be5 caus$ to disappe>4 ,:at d y suppose happ5$ to !m8 he ask$1 & we told him4 ,we 7 talk+ 9 ! pleasant draw+-room ( an ,indian ,hotel4 ,our fri5d smil$1 & assur$ u we mu/ be mi/ak54 ,we 7 "u ! ,engli% ,gov]nm5t2 su* ?+s c\ld n be possible4 ,we look$ r\nd ! quiet room1 ) its air ( ,engli% com=t & ,engli% safety2 we look$ at ! quiet faces1 faces t _h nev] look$ at fe>1 & we h>dly wond]$ t !y c\ld n und]/&4 ,!n 9 a mom5t1 ev5 z !y talk$1 we 7 f> away 9 ano!r room1 look+ at o!r faces1 faces unquiet1 v full ( fe>4 ,we knew t all r\nd u1 = /reets & /reets1 !re 7 only ! foes ( our ,"l2 we knew t a cry t 0 rais$ = help w\ld be dr[n$ long be=e x c\ld escape ?r\gh ^? _m /reets to ! great ,engli% h\se outside4 ,!re 7 policem51 y say4 ,b policem5 9 ,india are n z at home4 ,policem5 c be brib$4 ,& n[ we are look+ 9 aga94 ,!re is a v d>k inn] room1 no w9d[1 "o small door2 ! walls are solid1 s is ! door4 ,if y cri$ 9 !re1 :o w\ld he>8 ,& n[ we are li/5+--someone is speak+3 ,once !re 0 "o2 %e c>$ = y\r ,god4 ,%e 0 buri$ into ! wall 9 !re1 & t 0 ! end ( h]4 4 4 4 ,b we are back 9 ! draw+-room1 he>+ !m tell u ^! ?+s c\ld nev] be4 4 4 4 ,?ree ye>s pass$1 & a girl came = refuge to u4 ,%e lov$ h] p well2 %e w\ld nev] h come to u _h !y let h] live z a ,*ri/ian at home4 ,b no1 ,r ?an t %e %all burn1 !y said4 ,we 7 d\btful ab\t h] age1 & we fe>$ we %\ld h to give h] up if ! case came on 9 ! c\rts4 ,& if we _h to give h] up8 ,we look$ at ! g5tle1 tru/ful face1 & we c\ld n be> ! ?\ght2 & yet1 accord+ to our fri5ds1 ! ,gov]nm5t made all safe4 ,ab\t t "t a pap] came to ! h\se2 names1 dates1 means ( id5tification1 all 7 giv54 ,?is 0 ! /ory 9 brief4 ,a "y ,brahman girl 9 ano!r ,s\? ,indian t[n want$ to be a ,*ri/ian1 & confess$ ,*ri/ at home4 ,%e e>ne/ly wi%$ to be baptis$1 b %e 0 too "y !n1 & wait$1 le>n+ /eadily & cont9u+ fai?ful1 ?\gh ev]y?+ 0 done t c\ld be done to turn h] f h] purpose4 ,%e 0 betro!d aga9/ h] w to h] c\s91 & =bidd5 to h any?+ to d ) ! ,*ri/ians4 ,%e 0 nev] all[$ to g out alone1 & 0 practically a prison]4 ,= ?ree ye>s t *ild held on1 witness+ /eadfa/ly at home1 & lett+ x be cle>ly kn[n t %e 0 & w\ld be a ,*ri/ian4 ,a ,h9du c]emony ( importance 9 ! family 0 held 9 h] gr&fa!r's h\se1 & %e refus$ to g4 ,?is br\ght ?+s to a crisis4 ,h] p appo9t$ a c\ncil ( five to inve/igate ! matt]4 ,%e ma9ta9$ a glori\s witness be=e !m all1 says ! mission>y2 decl>$ boldly t %e 0 a ,*ri/ian1 & int5d$ to jo9 u2 & :5 *all5g$ ab\t ! ,bible1 %e held x out1 & read x to ! assembl$ p4 ,= a "t x seem$ z if %e _h won ! day1 b fre% attempts 7 made ^u h] con/ancy by c]ta9 religi\s bigots ( ! t[n4 ,!y (f]$ h] jewels--t fail$2 tri$ to get h] to turn ,mussulman1 t be+ less disgraceful ?an to be a ,*ri/ian2 & la/ & wor/1 tri$ to /a9 t :ite s\l black--b1 ?ank ,god6 /ill !y fail$4 ,at la/ ! wait+ "t 0 ov]2 %e 0 ( age to be baptis$1 & %e wrote to tell h] mission>y fri5d ab\t x4 ,he s5t h] books to read1 & promis$ to let h] "k )9 two days :at he c\ld arrange to d4 ,h] lett] 0 dat$ f h] gr&fa!r's h\se1 ! mission>y writes1 to :i* %e said %e _h be5 s5t1 & put 9 a room alone4 ,on ! foll[+ day1 he>+ a rum\r ( h] dea?1 ,i w5t to ,n4's h\se1 & !re f\nd h] body1 outside ! door4 ,i caus$ x to be seiz$ by ! police1 & ! po/-mortem has reveal$ ! fact t ! poor *ild 0 poison$ by ars5ic4 ,bribes h be5 freely us$ & atroci\s lies h be5 told1 & ! net result ( all ! police inquiries1 s f>1 is t no *>ge c be br\ght aga9/ anyone4 ,la/ ye> we met "o ( ! mission>ies f ?is ,mission1 on ! hills1 & we ask$ him if anyone _h be5 convict$4 ,he said no "o _h be5 convict$1 ! ,ca/e _h se5 to t4 ,"h1 !n1 is a /atem5t ( facts1 dive/$ ( all emotion or s5sationalism4 ,a *ild is %ut up 9 a room alone1 & poison$2 :5 %e is dead1 h] body is ?r[n outside ! door4 ,x 0 f\nd4 ,!re h be5 bodies :i* h n be5 f\nd2 b we are "u ! ,briti% ,gov]nm5t--no?+ c h happ5$ to !m6 ,! ,briti% ,gov]nm5t does mu*1 b x _c d ev]y?+4 ,x is notori\s 9 ,india t false witnesses c be b\ght at s mu* a head1 accord+ to ! nature ( witness requir$4 ,brib]y & corruption are n m]e names "h1 b facts1 mo/ difficult = any /raight=w>d (ficial to trace & track & deal )4 ,we "k1 & ev]yone kn[s1 t ! ,:ite ,man's ,gov]nm5t1 ?\gh /rong en\gh to w9 & rule ?is million-peopl$ ,empire1 is weak z a :ite *ild :5 x /&s outside ! door ( an ,indian h\se1 & wants to "k :at has gone on inside1 or proposes to regulate :at %all g on4 ,x _c d x4 ,! ?\ght is va94 ,:y n h h] put "u surveillance8 ask$ a fri5d1 a milit>y man1 ab\t a c]ta9 girl :o want$ to be a ,*ri/ian2 z if su* surveillance 7 practicable1 or ev] c\ld be1 "u su* conditions z obta9 9 high-ca/e ,h9du & ,mohamm$an circles1 except 9 places directly "u ! eye ( ,gov]nm5t4 ,we "k !re are h\ses :]e1 at an h\r's notice1 any k9d & any /r5g? ( poison c be prep>$ & adm9i/]$3 quick poison to kill )9 a few m9utes2 sl[ poisons t und]m9e ! con/itution1 & d _! "w s safely t no "o c f9d x out2 bra9 poisons1 worse ?an ei!r1 & p]haps m commonly us$1 z !y are z effective & mu* less dang]\s4 ,b we c\ld n prove :at we "k1 & k )\t pro( is1 legally speak+1 valueless4 ,& yet we "k ^! ?+s1 we h he>d a cry ( te>s1 we h he>d a cry ( blood-- ,te>s & blood h a cry t pi]ces heav5 ,?r\gh all its hallelujah swells ( mir?2 ,god he>s _! cry1 & ?\gh ,he t>ry1 yet ,he do? n =get4 ,,*apt] ,,xv ,simply ,murd]$ ',agonia'--t ^w s (t5 on ,/4 ,paul's lips1 :at did x mean8 ,did x n j mean ! ?\s& we>9esses 4 4 4 & deep]1 ! /riv+s1 ! travail+s1 ! bitt] disappo9tm5ts1 ! 'dea?s (t' ( a mission>y's life8 ,rev4 ,rob]t ,/ew>t1 ,*9a4 ,,!re are worse ?+s ?an m>tyrdom4 ,!re are "s :o are simply murd]$4 ,!re is "o :o belongs to a ,ca/e :i* m ?an any o!r is consid]$ tol]ant & safe4 ,m5 conv]ts f ?is ,ca/e c live at home1 & if a husb& & wife believe1 !y may cont9ue liv+ 9 _! own h\se1 among ! hea!n4 ,& yet ?is is :at happ5$ to a girl because x 0 kn[n t %e want$ to be a ,*ri/ian4 ,fir/ p]secution4 ,treasure1 z h] "n may be translat$1 _h le>nt z a *ild 9 ! little mission s*ool1 & :5 we w5t to h] village %e respond$1 & took h] /&4 ,%e refus$ to take "p 9 a ,h9du c]emony4 ,%e 0 beat51 at fir/ slightly1 !n sev]ely4 ,?is fail$1 s !y s5t h] out ( our rea* to a hea!n village miles away4 ,?is also fail$1 & %e 0 br\ght home1 & = "s mon?s w5t /eadily on1 read+ & le>n+ :5 %e c\ld1 & all ! "t brightly witness+4 ,%e 0 a joy to u4 ,%e 0 v anxi\s to come out & be baptis$1 b h] age 0 ! difficulty4 ,:5 a conv]t comes1 ! fir/ ?+ to be done is to let ! police au?orities "k4 ,!y s5d a con/able1 :o takes d[n ! conv]t's deposition1 :i* is !n =w>d$ to headqu>t]s4 ,"o ( ! fir/ que/ions conc]ns age4 ,9 "s cases a m$ical c]tificate is dem&$1 & ! girl's fate turns on t2 if we c get "o = ov] sixte5 we are safe f prosecution 9 ! ,crim9al ,c\rts1 b eighte5 is ! safe/ age1 z ! ,civil ,c\rts1 if ! case 7 to proce$1 w\ld =ce u to give h] up if %e 7 "u eighte54 ,! difficulty ( prov+ ! age1 unless ! girl is evid5tly well ov] x1 is v s]i\s4 ,! m$ical c]tificate usually takes (f a ye> f :at we h e reason to believe is ! true age4 ,"o o!r pro( rema9s--! horoscope4 ,?is is a ,h9du docum5t writt5 on a palm leaf at ! bir? ( ! *ild2 b x is always c>efully kept by ! head ( ! family1 & s1 z a rule1 unobta9able4 ,:5 a case comes on 9 ,c\rt a false horoscope may be produc$ by ! relatives2 ?is 0 done 9 a rec5t case tri$ 9 our ,c\rts1 s we _c c\nt ^u t4 ,9 ?is girl's case we got ! ,gov]nm5t regi/]s se>*$ = bir?-records ( h] village1 b all su* regi/]s we f\nd _h be5 de/roy$2 none 7 kept ( bir?s sixte5 ye>s back4 ,s1 ?\gh %e believ$ h]self to be1 & we believ$ h] to be1 & ! ,*ri/ians :o _h kn[n h] all h] life 7 sure %e 01 ab\t sixte51 we knew x c\ld n be prov$4 ,%e 0 a v slight girl1 delicate & small = h] age4 ,?is 0 aga9/ h]1 & !re 7 o!r reasons aga9/ h] com+ j !n4 ,%e _h to wait4 ,i %all nev] =get ! day ,i _h to tell h] s4 ,%e c\ld n und]/& x4 ,%e knew t all ! high] ,ca/es _h ?reat5$ to comb9e1 & back up h] fa!r 9 a lawsuit1 if %e became a ,*ri/ian2 b %e ?\ght x w\ld be q en\gh if %e /ood up be=e ! judge1 & said %e knew %e 0 ( age1 & %e want$ to come to u4 ,i w n be afraid ( ! p1 %e plead$1 ,i w /& up /raight be=e !m all1 & speak )\t any fe>6 ,i rememb] h[ ! te>s fill$ h] eyes z ,i expla9$ ?+s2 x 0 s h>d = h] to und]/& t we _h no p[] :atev] to protect h]4 ,x w\ld be worse = h] if %e came & _h to be giv5 up4 ,%e 0 fully s5sible ( ?is1 b ,w\ld ,god let !m take me away8 ,w\ld ,he n take c>e ( me8 %e ask$4 ,i suppose x is "r to obey ! laws4 ,!y are1 on :ole1 righte\s laws1 made 9 ! def5ce ( ^! v girls4 ,x w\ld nev] d if anyone c\ld decoy away a m]e *ild f h] p>5ts or natural gu>dians4 ,b ! unrighte\s ?+1 z x seems to u1 is t ! :ole burd5 ( pro( lies ^u u1 & t 9 ^! c\ntry villages no facilities su* z ,gov]nm5t regi/]s ( bir? are to be _h1 by :i* we c\ld hope legally to prove a po9t ab\t :i* we are morally sure4 ,we feel t z ! burd5 ( pro( re/s ^u u1 surely facilities %\ld be obta9able by :i* we c\ld f9d out a girl's age be=e %e comes1 s t we might "k :e!r or n we might legally protect h]4 ,/ill m /rongly we feel x is /range ju/ice :i* decrees t ?\gh a *ild ( twelve may be legally held compet5t to und]take ! responsibilities ( wifehood1 six ye>s m mu/ pass be=e %e may be legally held free to obey h] consci5ce4 ,free6 ,%e is nev] legally free6 ,a wid[ may be legally free2 a wife 9 ,india1 nev]6 ,h>dly a s+le ,ca/e wife 9 all ?is ,empire w\ld be f\nd 9 ! little b& ( op5 ,*ri/ians to-day1 if ! mission>y conc]n$ _h n risk$ m ?an c be told "h1 & put ,god's law be=e man's4 ,b oh1 ! numb] :o h be5 turn$ back6 ,"o /ops1 =ces ! words d[n--!y come too hot & fa/4 ,!re are reasons4 ,z ,i write1 a "y wife de> to u is ly+ bruis$ & unconsci\s on ! floor ( ! inn] room ( a ,h9du h\se4 ,h] husb&1 enc\rag$ by h] own "m1 set himself to make h] con=m to a c]ta9 ,ca/e cu/om4 ,x 0 idolatr\s4 ,%e refus$4 ,he beat h] !n1 bl[ ^u bl[1 till %e fell s5seless4 ,!y br\ght h] r\nd & began aga94 ,!re is no satisfactory r$ress4 ,%e is 8 wife4 ,%e is n free to be a ,*ri/ian4 ,he kn[s x4 ,h] relations "k x4 ,%e kn[s x1 poor *ild4 ,o ,god1 =give u if we are too hot1 too sore at he>t1 = easy pleasantness6 ,&1 ,god1 raise up 9 ,india ,*ri/ian /atesm5 :o w inquire into ?is matt]1 & refuse to be bl9dfold$ & deceiv$4 ,8 laws & ours cla% some:]e2 ! "q is1 :]e8 ,to return to ,treasure1 we left h] wait+ to come4 ,a ,*ri/ian tea*] liv$ next door1 & ,treasure us$ to slip 9 sometimes1 z ! two c\rty>ds adjo9$4 ,we _h put up a text on ! wall = h]3 ,fe> n3 = ,i h r$eem$ !e1 ,i h call$ !e by ?y "n2 ?\ art ,m9e4 ,?is 0 h] special text1 & %e look$ at x n[2 & !n %e grew brav]1 & promis$ to be pati5t & try to w9 h] "m1 :o 0 bitt]ly oppos$4 ,b oh1 h[ ,i rememb] ! wi/fulness ( h] face z ,i w5t out2 & "o's v he>t c feel aga9 ! /ab ( pa91 l a knife cutt+ deep1 z ,i left h]--to h] fate4 ,y h se5 a tree /&+ />k & b>e1 a bleak black ?+1 on a sunny day aga9/ a sky ( blue4 ,y h look$ at x1 fasc9at$ by ! sil5t horror ( x1 a di/ort$ c9d]1 n a tree1 & someone tells y x 0 /ruck 9 ! la/ great ?und]/orm4 ,next "t we saw ,treasure %e 0 l t4 ,:at happ5$ betwe51 s f> z x is kn[n1 0 ?is4 ,!y tri$ to p]suade h]1 !y tri$ to co]ce h]2 %e witness$ to ,jesus1 & nev] falt]$1 ?\gh once !y dragg$ h] out ( ! h\se by h] hair1 & hold+ h] d[n aga9/ ! wall1 /ruck h] h>d ) a lea!r /rap4 ,"o ( ! ,*ri/ians saw x1 & he>d ! poor tortur$ *ild cry out1 ,i d n fe>6 ,i d n fe>6 ,x w only s5d me to ,jesus6 ,!n !y tri$ ?reats4 ,we w take y out to ! lake at night1 & cut y 9 little pieces1 & ?r[ y into x4 ,%e fully believ$ !m1 b ev5 s1 we he> %e did n fl9*4 ,!n !y did _! wor/ to h]4 ,x 0 a ,sunday morn+4 ,! ,saturday ev5+ be=e %e _h manag$ to see ! tea*]4 ,%e told h] hurri$ly h[ "o _h come1 a bridegroom %e call$ him1 a /ud5t f a ,mission ,college2 he 0 tell+ h] all sorts ( ?+s--t ,*ri/ianity 0 an explod$ religion2 & h[ a great & le>n$ woman 7,mrs4 ,besant7 _h expos$ ! mission>ies & _! ways1 s t no ?9k+ p _h any excuse = be+ deceiv$ by !m4 ,!n %e add$ e>ne/ly1 ,x is ! devil4 ,d pray = me4 ,!y want me to m>ry him secretly6 ,oh1 ,i mu/ g to ! ,missie ,ammal6 ,& if we _h only kn[n1 we w\ld h risk$ any?+1 any brea* ( ! law ( ! l&1 to save h] f a brea* ( ! law ( heav56 ,= all ?is talk1 betwe5 an ,indian girl ( good repute & h] prospective husb&1 is utt]ly =eign to :at is consid]$ "r 9 ,old ,india4 ,x 9 itself meant dang]4 ,b we knew no?+1 & next day1 all t ,sunday1 %e 0 %ut up1 & no "o kn[s :at happ5$ to h]4 ,on ,monday %e 0 se5 aga92 b *ang$1 s utt]ly *ang$6 ,we he>d no?+ ( ?is till ! foll[+ ,w$nesday4 ,! ,*ri/ians 7 hone/ly conc]n$1 b ! ,tamil is ev] casual1 & !y saw no reason = di/ress+ u ) bad news soon] ?an c\ld be help$4 ,z soon z we he>d1 ,i s5t two ( ! ,si/]s :o knew h] be/1 to try & see h] if possible4 ,!y manag$ to see h] = two or ?ree m9utes1 b f\nd h] hopelessly h>d4 ,e bit ( c>e 0 gone4 ,%e laugh$ 9 a que]1 /ra9$ way1 !y said4 ,x 0 no use my try+ to see h]4 ,b ,i det]m9$ to see h]4 ,i _c g ov] x all aga91 x is l te>+ ! sk9 (f a w\nd2 s ! lett] writt5 at ! "t may tell ! re/ ( x4 ,on ,saturday ,i w5t4 ,i w5t /raight to ! tea*]'s h\se1 & s5t (f ! b&y at once1 & by ,god's special arrangem5t got 9 unnotic$4 ,= h\rs we sat 9 ! little inn] room1 wait+2 we c\ld he> h] voice 9 ! c\rty>d outside--a h>d1 *ang$ voice4 ,! tea*] tri$ to get h] 91 b no1 %e w\ld n come4 ,oh1 h[ we held on to ,god6 ,i c\ld n be> to g till ,i _h se5 h]4 ,at la/ we _h to g4 ,! c>t came back = u1 ?us proclaim+ :]e we 71 & ! la/ human *ance 0 gone4 ,& !n1 j !n1 l "o walk+ 9 a dream1 ,treasure w&]$ 9 & /ood1 />tl$4 ,%e did n "k we 7 !re4 ,we 7 kneel+ ) our backs to ! door4 ,i turn$ & saw h]4 ,i _c write ab\t ! next five m9utes2 ,i ?\ght ,i realis$ some?+ ( :at ,satan c\ld d 9 ?is l&1 b ,i knew no?+ ab\t x4 ,oh1 :5 w ,jesus come & end x all8 ,j once x seem$ z if ! spell 7 brok54 ,my arms 7 r\nd h]1 ?\gh %e _h %runk away at fir/1 & tri$ to pu% me f h]2 %e 0 quiet n[1 & seem$ to und]/& a little h[ "o c>$4 ,%e knelt d[n ) me1 & cov]$ h] eyes z if 9 pray]1 :ile ,i p\r$ out my s\l = h]1 & !n we 7 all v /ill1 & ! ,"l seem$ v ne>4 ,b %e rose1 unmov$1 & look$ at u4 ,we 7 all q brok5 d[n1 & %e smil$ 9 a /range1 h>d1 fooli% way--t 0 all4 ,! cause no "o kn[s4 ,!re are only two possible explanations4 ,"o is poison4 ,!re is "s sort ( m9d-bewild]+ m$ic9e :i* x is kn[n is giv5 9 su* cases4 ,?is is ! view held by ! ,*ri/ians on ! spot4 ,"o ( !m says h] c\s9 0 dealt ) 9 ?is way4 ,he 0 ke5 to be a ,*ri/ian1 & 0 %ut up = a day1 & came out--dead4 ,dead1 %e means1 to all :i* be=e _h be5 life to him4 ,! o!r1 & worse1 is s94 ,has %e be5 =c$ into "s s9 :i* to "o s enlight5$ z %e is mu/ mean an awful d>kness1 ! hid+ ( ,god's face8 ,i _c tell y h[ bright ?is de> *ild 04 ,up till t ,saturday ev5+ h] fai? nev] wav]$2 %e 0 a liv+ sign to all ! t[n t ! ,"l is ,god4 ,! hea!n are triumphant n[4 ,i h told y pla9ly :at has happ5$4 ,god's ,tru? ne$s no pa9t+4 ,i leave x ) y4 ,d y believe x is p]fectly true8 ,!n :at are y go+ to d8 ,,*apt] ,,xvi ,want$1 ,volunte]s ,we h a great & impos+ ,w> ,(fice1 b a v small army4 4 4 4 ,:ile va/ cont95ts are %r\d$ 9 almo/ utt] d>kness1 & hundr$s ( millions suff] ! horrors ( hea!nism or ( ,islam1 ! burd5 ( pro( lies ^u y to %[ t ! circum/ances 9 :i* ,god has plac$ y 7 meant by ,him to keep y out ( ! =eign mission field4 ,ion ,kei? ,falcon]1 ,arabia4 ,,9 "o ( ! addresses deliv]$ at ! ,int]national ,/ud5t ,mission>y ,conf]5ce1 ,london1 9 ,janu>y #aijj1 a ,s\? ,indian mission>y spoke ( ! ,brahman race z ! bra9 ( ,india4 ,_! numb]s are comp>atively small--betwe5 t5 & fifte5 millions--b ?\gh num]ically few--only five p] c5t4 ( ! ,h9du population--!y hold all t population 9 ! holl[ ( _! h&4 ,!y occupy e position ( influ5ce 9 ! l&4 ,!y are ! /atesm5 & politicians1 ! judges1 magi/rates1 ,gov]nm5t (ficials1 & cl]ks ( e grade4 ,if !re is any position conf]r+ influ5ce ov] _! fell[-m51 x w be held by a ,brahman4 ,moreov]1 !y are a sacr$ ,ca/e1 admitt$ by ! p to be gods ^u e>?--a rank suppos$ to h be5 atta9$ by wor? ma9ta9$ ?r\gh _m transmigrations4 ,illu/ration3 ,a typical ,brahman face4 ,x is ke5] ?an ! photo %[s1 & has ! cynical expression s _m ,brahman faces h4 ,su* a man is h>d to w94 ,among ! ,petras ( ?is di/rict is a little old-fa%ion$ c\ntry t[n1 held 9 /r5g? by ! ,brahmans4 ,no conv]t has ev] come f t t[n1 & ! t[n boa/s t none ev] %all4 ,none ( ! h\ses are op5 yet to tea*+1 or ev5 visit+1 b we are mak+ fri5ds1 & hope = an entrance soon4 ,we sp5t a morn+ out 9 ! /reet2 !y _h no objection to t1 & z ! free "y ,brahmans ga!r$ r\nd u1 or /ood = a mom5t aga9/ a wall to be caught1 x 0 difficult1 ev5 = u :o knew x1 to realise h[ b\nd !y 74 ,b\nd1 :o %\ld conqu]2 slaves1 :o %\ld be k+s4 ,b\nd1 body & s\l1 9 a bondage p]fectly incompreh5sible to ! ,engli% m9d4 ,aft]w>ds1 :5 we saw ! photographs1 we recall$ "o & ano!r :o1 :ile !y 7 "y /ud5ts l ^!1 d>$ to desire to escape f _! bondage2 b back !y 7 dragg$1 & ! *a9s 7 rivet$ fa/] ?an ev]1 & e l9k 0 te/$ aga91 & hamm]$ d[n h>d4 ,we want$ to be sure ( our facts ab\t ea* ( !m1 t ^! facts may fur!r answ] t smile :i* assures u ?+s are n z we imag9e2 s ! ,iy] wrote to a bro!r mission>y :o _h kn[n ^! lads well1 & ask$ him to tell :at happ5$ to ea* ( !m4 ,?is morn+ ! answ] to t lett] came1 & 0 h&$ to me ) ,i h>dly l to give x to y1 b x tells ! tru? ab\t :at goes on4 ,^! boys 7 /ud5ts 9 our ,c4,m4,s4 ,college4 ,! fir/ "o m5tion$ 9 ! lett] is a "y ,brahman :o confess$ ,*ri/ 9 baptism1 & bravely )/ood ! trem5d\s opposition rais$ by 8 fri5ds1 :o came 9 cr[ds = _m weeks1 & tri$ by e argum5t to p]suade him to return to ,h9duism2 b he prea*$ ,*ri/ to !m4 ,!y br\ght 8 "y wife1 & %e tore h] hair & wail$1 & bes\ght him n to condemn h] to ! %ame ( a wid['s life4 ,?is 0 ! h>de/ ( all to )/&2 he turn$ to ! mission>y & said1 ,oh my fa!r1 take h] away6 ,%e is te>+ out my he>t6 ,illu/ration3 ,a typical ,brahman /ud5t4 ,! m>ks on ! =ehead are made ( bright r$1 yell[1 & :ite pa/e1 & repres5ts ! footpr9t ( ! god ,vi%nu4 ,^! ,brahmans are ,vai%navites4 ,!n came ! baptism day ( ano!r ,brahman /ud5t1 8 fri5d1 :o previ\s to ?is _h be5 seiz$ by 8 relatives1 %ut up & />v$1 & !n f$ ) poison$ food2 b ! poison 0 n /rong en\gh to kill1 & he _h escap$1 & 0 n[ safe & ready = baptism4 ,x 0 rememb]$ aft]w>ds h[ ! fri5d ( ! newly baptis$ /ood & rejoic$1 & prais$ ,god4 ,!n1 ! baptism ov]1 fe>+ no dang] 9 op5 day1 he w5t to ! tank to ba!4 ,he 0 nev] se5 aga94 ,:at happ5$ exactly no "o kn[s4 ,x is ?\ght t m5 hir$ to wat* him seiz$ _! opportunity1 & c>ri$ him (f4 ,:at !y did !n has nev] be5 told4 ,contradictory reports ab\t ! boy h rea*$ ! mission>ies4 ,"o1 t he is /ill hold+ on1 ano!r t he is n[ a prie/ 9 "o ( ! great ,saivite temples ( ,s\? ,india4 ,:i* is true1 ,god kn[s4 ,b we are "u ! ,engli% ,gov]nm5t4 ,c\ld no?+ be done8 ,"o ( 8 ne> relatives is ! pres5t ,judge ( ! ,high ,c\rt ( "o ( our ,indian cities4 ,& among ! cr[d ( ,brahmans :o came dur+ ^? weeks1 !re 7 influ5tial m51 graduates ( colleges1 memb]s ( ! legal pr(ession--a fav\rite pr(ession 9 ,india4 ,& yet ?is ?+ 0 done4 ,!re 0 ano!r2 ! means us$ to get hold ( him _c be writt5 "h4 ,t is ! difficulty :i* fronts u :5 we try to tell ! tru? z x really is4 ,x simply _c be told4 ,! ,du/ may be %[n--or a little ( x2 ! :ole ( ! ,actual1 nev]4 ,!re 7 o!rs ne> ! ,k+dom1 b x is ! same /ory ov] aga94 ,!y 7 all spirit$ away f ! college2 ! mission>y writes1 x makes "o's he>t sick to ?9k ( !m1 & ! helli% means inv5t$ to turn !m f ,*ri/4 ,^! are n ! words ( s5tim5tal imag9ation4 ,!y are ! words ( a man :o gives evid5ce z a witness4 ,b ev5 a witness may feel4 ,he tells u ( "o1 a bright1 happy fell[1 he says he 01 ^: fri5ds made no objection to 8 return+ home aft] 8 baptism1 & he return$1 ?9k+ he w\ld be able to live z a ,*ri/ian ) 8 wife4 ,!y drugg$ 8 food1 !n :at !y did has to be cov]$ ) sil5ce aga94 4 4 4 ,!y did _! wor/4 4 4 4 ,:5 he awoke f t nightm>e ( s91 he s\ght out 8 mission>y fri5d4 ,"s ( ! ,h9dus ev51 a%am$ ( ! vile means us$ to entice him & de/roy him1 w\ld h wi%$ him to be receiv$ aga9 z a ,*ri/ian1 b 8 _s 0 brok54 ,he said he c\ld n disgrace ! cause ( ,*ri/ by com+ back2 he w\ld g away :]e he w\ld n be kn[n4 ,he left 8 wife1 & w5t4 ,he has nev] be5 he>d ( s9ce4 ,our comrade tells ( ano!r1 & aga91 9 tell+ x1 we h to leave x half untold4 ,?is "o 0 eag] to confess ,*ri/ 9 baptism2 he 0 a /ud5t at college !n1 & v ke54 ,8 fa!r knew ( 8 son's desire1 & he did :at few ,h9du fa!rs w\ld d1 he turn$ 8 home into a hell1 9 ord] to ru9 8 boy4 ,! inf]nal plot succe$$4 ,god only kn[s h[ f> ! s\l is responsible :5 ! m9d is daz$ & !n inflam$ by ^? fe>ful drugs4 ,b we d "k t ! s\l ,he meant %\ld rise & %9e1 s9ks1 weight$ d[n by ! unspeakable %ame ( "s awful memory d>k5$1 z by "s d>k dye t has /a9$ x ?r\gh & ?r\gh4 ,i ?9k ( o!rs z ,i write3 "o 0 a boy we knew well1 a spl5did1 e>ne/ lad1 ke5 to witness = ,*ri/4 ,he told u "o ev5+ h[ he _h be5 deliv]$ f ^? :o 7 plott+ 8 de/ruction4 ,= sev]al mon?s aft] 8 decision to be a ,*ri/ian1 he liv$ at home & tri$ to w9 8 p2 b !y 7 inc5s$ aga9/ him = ev5 ?9k+ ( break+ ,ca/e1 & w\ld n li/5 to him4 ,/ill he wait$1 & witness$ to !m1 n fe>+ any?+4 ,!n "o day1 sudd5ly "s m5 ru%$ into ! room :]e he 0 sitt+1 seiz$ & b\nd & gagg$ him4 ,!y =c$ some?+ into 8 m\? z he lay on ! floor at _! m]cy2 he fe>$ x 0 a drug1 b x 0 only "s disgu/+ /uff :i*1 to a ,h9du1 meant unutt]able defilem5t4 ,!n !y left him b\nd alone1 & at night he manag$ to escape4 ,a few mon?s aft] he told u ?is1 we he>d he _h be5 seiz$ aga91 & ?is "t drugg$ & done =4 ,9 ,s\? ,india baptism does n prev5t ! ,ca/e f us+ e possible means to get ! conv]t back2 once back1 c]ta9 c]emonies are p]=m$1 aft] :i* he is reg>d$ z purifi$1 & re9/at$ 9 8 ,ca/e4 ,! policy ( ! :ole ,ca/e conf$]ation is ?is3 get him back unbaptis$ if y c1 b anyh[ get him back4 ,two ,brahman lads belong+ to diff]5t p>ts ( ?is di/rict decid$ = ,*ri/1 w5t ?r\gh all t is involv$ 9 op5 confession1 & 7 baptis$4 ,"o ( ! two 0 s5t ,nor? = safety2 8 p trac$ him1 foll[$ him1 turn$ up unexpect$ly at a wayside /ation 9 ,c5tral ,india1 & =c$ him back to 8 home 9 ! ,s\?4 ,once !re1 !y took _! own measures to keep him4 ,! o!r lad 0 s5t to ,madras4 ,! ,brahmans f\nd out :]e he 01 broke into ! h\se at night1 ov]p[]$ ! boy's protectors1 & c>ri$ him (f4 ,!y too did :at seem$ good to !m !re1 & !y too succe$$4 ,no "o outside c\ld int]f]e4 ,! ,ca/e gu>ds its own conc]ns4 ,o ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/6 wrote "o1 a ,h9du /ill1 :o kn[e/ u to be plac$ 9 su* dang] t x is z if we 7 )9 "s magical circle drawn r\nd u1 & ,satan /&+ ) 8 w& )\t1 keep+ u 9 t]ror1 break ! spell ( ,satan1 & set u free to s]ve ,!e6 ,all ?is may be easy read+ to ^? :o are f> away f ! place :]e x happ5$4 ,di/ance has a way ( s(t5+ too di/9ct an outl9e2 b x is n easy to write1 x comes s close to u4 ,:y write x1 !n8 ,we write x because x seems to u x %\ld be m fully kn[n1 s t m5 & wom5 :o "k our ,god1 & ! secret ( h[ to lay hold ^u ,him1 %\ld lay hold1 & hold on = ! w9n+ ( ! ,ca/es = ,*ri/4 ,illu/ration3 ,ano!r ,brahman1 mu* dull] ?an ! la/4 ,?is & ! two prec$+ photographs are p]fect z a /udy ( ?ree types ( ,brahmanhood z we h x 9 ,s\!rn ,india--ke51 ?\ghtful1 dull4 ,surely ! v h>dness ( an ent]prise1 ! v fact t x is :at a soldi] w\ld call a =lorn hope1 is 9 itself a call & a claim /rong] ?an any put =? by some?+ easi]4 ,! soldi] does n give 9 because ! hope is =lorn4 ,x is a hope1 be x ev] s desp]ate4 ,he volunte]s = x1 & w9 or n1 he fights4 ,!re is t 9 ?is ent]prise :i* may m>k x out z =lorn4 ,= ages ! race has brok5 "o ( nature's laws ) bl9d p]si/5cy1 & ! result is a c]ta9 lack ( moral fibre1 grit1 tone4 ,no sep>ate individual is responsible = ?is1 h>% judgm5ts are entirely out ( place2 b ! fact rema9s t x is s1 & x mu/ be tak5 into acc\nt 9 deal+ ) ! ,brahmans & sev]al ( ! upp] ,ca/es ( ,india4 ,side by side ) ?is elem5t ( weakness !re is1 9 app>5t contradiction1 t /ubborn elem5t ( /r5g? kn[n z ! ,ca/e _s4 ,?is _s is se5 9 all ,i h %[n y ( :at happ5s :5 a conv]t comes4 ,x is z if all ! million wills ( ! million ,ca/e m5 & wom5 7 cond5s$ into "o s+le ,w1 a conc5tration ( ess5ce ( ,w n comp>able ) any?+ kn[n at home4 ,look at ?is face--x is a photograph$ fact4 ,does x n %[ y an abs5ce ( t some?+ :i* n]ves to endurance1 /imulates to d>e8 ,!n li/5 to ?is3--,a ,*ri/ian man lies dead4 ,! way to ! cemet]y lies ?r\gh ! ,brahman /reet1 9 ! *ief t[n ( ?is ,di/rict2 !re is no o!r way4 ,! ,brahman /reet is a ?or\ghf>e1 x _c be clos$ to traffic1 b ! ,brahmans refuse po9t blank to all[ t dead man to be c>ri$ ?r\gh4 ,! ,bi%op expo/ulates4 ,no2 he 0 a ,*ri/ian1 he %all n be c>ri$ ?r\gh4 ,"t is pass+4 ,9 ! ,tropics ! dead mu/ be buri$ quickly4 ,! ,bi%op appeals to ! ,collector 7,repres5tative ( ,gov]nm5t "h74 ,! ,collector gives an ord]4 ,! ,brahmans refuse to obey4 ,he ord]s out a company ( soldi]s4 ,! ,brahmans mass on ! h\setops & /one ! soldi]s4 ,! ord] is giv5 to fire4 ,!n1 & n till !n1 ! ,*ri/ians may c>ry out _! dead2 & lat] on ! ,brahmans c>ry out !irs4 ,?is happ5$ "s ye>s ago1 & outw>dly times h *ang$ s9ce !n 9 t p>ticul> t[n4 ,b ! _s t x %[s is 9 possession to ?is day1 & z small ?+s %[ great1 s ?is /reet sc5e %[s ! pres5ce ( t some?+ :i* int5sifies ! difficulty ( w9n+ ! ,ca/es = ,*ri/4 ,ea* unit is weak 9 itself1 b 9 comb9ation1 /rong4 ,a =lorn hope we h call$ ! attempt to d :at we are told to d4 ,! ^w is a misnom]2 ) our ,capta9 z our ,lead] no hope is ev] =lorn6 ,b our ,lead] calls = m51 m5 l ! brave ( old :o jeop>dis$ _! lives unto ! dea? 9 ! high places ( ! field1 9 ! day t !y came to ! help ( ! ,"l1 to ! help ( ! ,"l aga9/ ! mighty4 ,a jeop>dis$ life may be lo/4 ,*ri/ our ,capta9 is call+ = volunte]s2 "h are ! t]ms3 ,:osoev] %all lose 8 life = ,my sake & ! ,gospel's ! same %all f9d x4 ,! tea*]s' life may seem lo/ :o lives = 8 college boys2 ! /ud5t's life may seem lo/ :o sp5ds h\r aft] h\r ?r\gh ! long hot days 9 quiet talks 9 ! h\se4 ,be x s1 = x may mean t4 ,b ! life lo/ = ,8 ,"n's sake1 ! same %all be f\nd aga94 ,,*apt] ,,xvii ,if x is s v important4 4 4 8 ,let u = a mom5t imag9e :at w\ld h happ5$ on ! ,galilean hillside1 :5 our ,"l f$ ! five ?\s&1 if ! ,apo/les _h act$ z "s act n[4 ,! twelve w\ld be go+ backw>ds1 help+ ! fir/ rank ov] & ov] aga91 & leav+ ! back r[s unsuppli$4 ,let u suppose "o ( !m1 say ,&rew1 v5tur+ to say to 8 bro!r ,simon ,pet]1 ',ought we all to be fe$+ ! front r[8 ,ought we n to divide1 & "s ( u g to ! back r[s8' ,!n suppose ,pet] reply+1 ',oh no2 don't y see ^! front p are s hungry8 ,!y h n _h half en\gh yet2 besides1 !y are ne>e/ to u1 s we are m responsible = !m4' ,!n1 if ,&rew resumes 8 appeal1 suppose ,pet] go+ on to say1 ',v well2 y are q "r4 ,y g & fe$ all ^? back r[s2 b ,i c't sp>e anyone else4 ,i & ! o!r t5 ( u h m ?an we c d "h4' ,once m1 suppose ,&rew p]suades ,philip to g ) him2 !n1 p]haps1 ,mat!w w cry out & say1 ',:y1 !y're all go+ to ^? f>!r r[s6 ,is no "o to be left to ^! ne$y p 9 front8' ,let me ask ! memb]s ( ,congress1 ,d y recognise ^! s5t5ces at all8 ,eug5e ,/ock1 at ,%rewsbury ,*ur* ,congress4 ,,x 0 only a common ?+4 ,a girl1 v ill1 & 9 t]rible pa91 :o turn$ to u = help4 ,we c\ld d no?+ = h]4 ,h] p resort$ to hea!n rites4 ,!y prep>$ h] to meet ! fi]ce god !y ?\ght 0 wait+ to snat* h] away4 ,we w5t aga9 & aga91 b %e suff]$ s t "o c\ld n say mu*1 x did n seem any use4 ,! la/ "t we w5t1 ! crisis _h pass$2 %e w\ld live1 !y told u ) joy4 ,!y 7 eag] to li/5 to u n[4 ,tell u all ab\t y\r ,way6 clam\r$ ! wom51 speak+ toge!r1 & v l\d4 ,tell u ! news f beg9n+ to end6 ,b1 alas6 !y c\ld take 9 v little4 ,"o :ole new ,tru? 0 too mu* = !m4 ,nev] m9d1 !y consol$ u1 come e day1 & !n :at y say w take hold ( our he>ts4 ,& ,i _h to tell !m we 7 leav+ t ev5+1 & c\ld n come e day4 ,illu/ration3 ,is n ! contra/ good8 ,! old woman s intellig5t1 ! baby s inane4 ,%e made a picture sitt+ !re1 9 h] crimson edg$ seeley1 ) h] d>k old face %[+ up aga9/ ! d>k] wall4 ,%e is "o ( ! _m we h miss$ by com+ s sl[ly & s late4 ,h[ c ,i *ange n[8 %e says4 ,! girl turn$ h] pati5t face t[>ds u4 ,%e _h smil$ at ! ,"n ( ,jesus1 & x seem$ z if d[n 9 ! dep?s ( h] weakness %e _h li/5$ :5 we spoke be=e1 & tri$ to und]/&4 ,n[ %e look$ puzzl$ & tr\bl$1 & ! wom5 all ask$1 ,:y8 ,!re1 9 t cr[d$1 hot little room1 a s5se ( ! unequal di/ribution ( ! ,bread ( ,life came ov] u4 ,! front r[s ( ! ,five ,?\s& are gett+ ! loaves & ! fi%es ov] & ov] aga91 till x seems z ?\gh !y h to be brib$ & bes\ght to accept !m1 :ile ! back r[s are almo/ =gott54 ,is x t we are s busy ) ! front r[s1 :i* we c see1 t we h no "t = ! back r[s out ( sight8 ,b is x fair8 ,is x :at ,jesus our ,ma/] int5d$8 ,c x be really call$ fair8 ,! wom5 look$ v reproa*ful4 ,!n "o ( !m said1 look+ up at me1 ,y say ?is is v important4 ,if x is s v important1 :y did y n come be=e8 ,y say y w come back aga9 if y c1 b h[ c we be sure t no?+ w happ5 to /op y8 ,we are1 "s ( u1 v old2 we may die be=e y come back4 ,?is go+ away is n good4 ,& aga9 & aga9 %e repeat$1 ,if x is s v important1 :y did y n come be=e8 ,don't ?9k t ! "q meant m ?an x did4 ,x 0 only a human expression ( wond]2 x 0 n a real desire aft] ,god4 ,b ! =ce ( ! "q 0 /rong] f> ?an ! poor old que/ion] knew2 x appeal$ to our v he>ts4 ,! p saw we 7 greatly mov$1 & !y press$ clos] r\nd u to com=t u1 & "o de> old gr&mo!r put h] arms r\nd me1 & /rok$ my face ) h] wr9kl$ old h&1 & said1 ,don't be tr\bl$2 we w wor%ip y\r ,god4 ,we w wor%ip ,him j z we wor%ip our own4 ,n[1 w y g away glad8 ,! de> old woman 0 really 9 e>ne/1 %e want$ s mu* to com=t u4 ,b h] voice seem$ to m+le ) voices f ! homel&2 & ano!r--we he>d ano!r--! ,voice ,i _h he>d on ! precipice-edge--! voice ( our bro!rs'1 our si/]s' blood call+ unto ,god f ! gr\nd4 ,fri5ds1 are ^! wom5 real to y8 ,look at ?is photo ( "o ( !m4 ,surely x 0 n j a happy *ance :i* br\ght out ! detail s p]fectly4 ,look at ! ?\ghtful1 f9e old face4 ,c y look at x & say1 ,yes1 ,i am on my way to ! ,light1 & y are on y\r way to ! ,d>k4 ,at lea/1 ?is is :at ,i pr(ess to believe4 ,& ,i am sorry = y1 b ?is is all ,i c d = y2 ,i c be v sorry = y4 ,i "k t ?is w n %[ y ! way f ! ,d>k1 :]e y are1 to ! ,light1 :]e ,i am4 ,to %[ y ! way ,i mu/ g to y1 or1 p]haps1 s5d y "o :om ,i want = myself1 or d )\t some?+ ,i wi% to h2 & ?is1 ( c\rse1 is impossible4 ,x might be done if ,i lov$ ,god en\gh--b ,i love myself bett] ?an ,god or y4 ,illu/ration3 ,a ,brahman wid[1 ! only ,brahman woman :o w\ld let u take h] photo4 ,brahman wom5 we> _! seeleys fa/5$ 9 a peculi> way1 & nev] cut _! e>s4 ,brahman wid[s are always %av51 & we> no jewels4 ,?is "o is a muscul> "*1 /rong & resolute1 an ord9>y look+ woman1 b !re mu/ be an "u-!-surface life :i* does n %[4 ,a wid['s fate is describ$ 9 "o ^w "h1 accurs$4 ,y w\ld n say su* a ?+1 ,i "k1 b ,:oso ha? ?is _w's good1 & see? 8 bro!r h ne$1 & %utte? up 8 compassion f him1 h[ dwelle? ! love ( ,god 9 him8 ,,*apt] ,,xviii ,! ,call ,int5sifi$ ,sometimes ! m5 & boys w n g away & let u talk to ! wom52 9 su* cases ,i f9d sil5t pray] ! be/ refuge4 ,9 o!r places ! p welcome y1 b w li/5 to any?+ b ! ,doctr9e ( ,jesus ,*ri/2 & ?is is h>d] to be> ?an any?+ else ,i "k4 ,anna ,gordon1 ,*9a4 ,let ! p t are at home n c>e only to he> ab\t successes2 we mu/ tra9 !m t !y take an int]e/ 9 ! /ruggle4 ,rev4 ,a4 ,s*reib]1 ,sumatra & ,india4 ,x is a fight mak+ its dem&s ^u physical1 m5tal1 & spiritual p[]s1 & !re are _m adv]s>ies4 ,! dead weight ( hea!nism1 ! little appreciation ( "o's object & purpose1 & ! actual1 vigor\s opposition ( ! p[]s ( d>kness1 make x a real fight1 & only m5 ( grit1 ( c\rage1 devotion1 & inf9ite pati5ce & p]sev]ance1 w w94 ,h ,i pa9t$ a disc\rag+ picture8 ,am ,i fright5+ good m5 :o might h volunte]$ & done well8 ,i ?9k n4 ,i ?9k ! "r sort ( m51 ^? :o ought to volunte]1 w be attract$ r ?an repell$ by ! difficulties4 ,rev4 ,j4 ,lamp>d1 ,india4 ,,we got ?is photograph t day 9 ,decemb] :i* we sp5t 9 ! fri5dly ,brahman /reet4 ,!re is n ano!r woman 9 ! t[n :o w\ld /& = y l t6 said ! m51 z %e came =w>d1 &1 )\t a ?\ght ( pos+1 /ood aga9/ ! wall = a mom5t1 & look$ at ! cam]a /raight4 ,mo/ ( ! wom5 7 afraid ev5 to glance at x1 b %e 0 n afraid4 ,%e w\ld n /ay to talk to u1 h[ev]1 b m>*$ (f ) ! same resolute air4 ,= ,brahman wid[s z a :ole are by no means an approa*able race4 ,sometimes we f9d "o :o w op5 out to u1 & let u tell h] ( ! ,com=t :]e) we are com=t$2 b (t5] we f9d !m h>d1 or h>d5+ rapidly4 ,illu/ration3 ,!re is no?+ to say ab\t x except :at is said 9 ! *apt]4 ,!re is no?+ mu* to look at 9 a ,brahman /reet4 ,b t s+le simple /reet sc5e repres5ts =ces :i* control two hundr$ & sev5 million m9ds4 ,x is too soon to write ab\t any ( ^? :o h li/5$ dur+ ! pa/ few mon?s1 b we put ?is photo 9 to rem9d y to rememb] ^? :o are fre] ?an mo/ wom5 9 ,india to foll[ ! ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/1 if only !y w\ld let ,8 love h a *ance ( draw+ !m4 ,we h be5 to ! v>i\s t[ns 9 ?is & ! upp] curve ( ! m\nta9s1 b we h n rea*$ ! l[] curve t[ns1 or half ( ! _m villages scatt]$ close "u ! m\nta9s1 &1 except :5 we w5t out 9 camp1 we h n ( c\rse t\*$ ^? f>!r afield4 ,!re are only five work+ aft]noons 9 a week1 = ,saturday is giv5 up to o!r ?+s1 & ,sunday belongs to ! ,*ri/ians2 & :5 any int]e/ is %[n1 we return aga9 to ! same village1 :i* delays u1 b is c]ta9ly wor? :ile4 ,!n !re are int]ruptions--sometimes on ! ,h9du side2 fe/ivals1 = in/ance1 :5 no woman has "t to he>2 & on ours1 & on ! wea!r's1 s to speak1 :5 great heat or great ra9 make outdoor "w impossible4 ,!oretically1 it9]at+ is delightfully rapid2 b practically1 z e it9]at+ mission>y kn[s1 x is q sl[4 ,!re are o!r ?+s to be done2 ^? already br\ght 9 h to be taught & tra9$ & mo!r$1 & mu* "t has to be sp5t 9 wait+ ^u ,god = m2 s t1 look+ back1 we seem to h done v little = ! ?\s&s ab\t u1 & n[ we mu/ return to ! ea/]n side ( ! di/rict1 = "s ( ! boy conv]ts are !re at s*ool1 & !re may be fruit to ga!r 9 aft] la/ ye>'s s[+4 ,b ,i look up f my writ+ & see a /ret* ( m\nta9 range ?irty miles long1 & ?is range /ret*es unbrok5 = a ?\s& miles to ! ,nor?4 ,i "k h[ little is be+ done on ! pla9s bel[1 & ,i wond] :5 ,god's p w awake1 & und]/& t !re is yet v mu* l& to be possess$1 & arise & possess x4 ,look d[n ?is m\nta9 /rip ) me2 !re are t[ns :]e "w is be+ done1 b x ne$s sup]vision1 & ! mission>ies are too few to d x ?or\ghly4 ,!re are t[ns & numb]s ( villages :]e no?+ is ev5 attempt$1 except t once 9 two ye>s1 if possible1 ! ,m5's ,it9]ant ,b& comes r\nd2 b t does n rea* ! wom5 well1 & ev5 if x did1 h[ mu* w\ld y "k ( ,jesus if y only he>d a p>able or a miracle or a few facts f ,8 life or a few po9ts ( ,8 doctr9e once 9 two ye>s8 ,i d n want to write t\*+ appeals1 or to draw "o work] f any:]e else1--x w\ld be a joy to "k t ,god us$ ^! lett]s to help to s5d someone to ,*9a1 or any:]e :]e ,he has ne$ ( ,8 work]s1--b ,i _c help wond]+1 z ,i look r\nd ?is bit ( ! field1 h[ x is t ! work]s are /ill s few4 ,we h f\nd ! p 9 ! t[ns & villages will+ to let u d :at we call v]&ah "w :5 !y w n let u into _! h\ses4 ,v]&ah "w1 l op5-air prea*+1 is unsatisfactory z reg>ds ! wom51 b x is bett] ?an no?+4 ,we sp5t an aft]noon 9 ! /reet ?is photo %[s4 ,x is a ?or\ghf>e1 & s we 7 n =bidd52 b ev5 s1 we always ask p]mission be=e we walk d[n x4 ,su* an ord9>y1 commonplace /reet x looks to y2 !re is no ar*itectural gr&eur to awe ! behold]1 & impress him ) ! maje/y ( ,brahmanhood2 & yet t /reet1 & e /reet l x1 is a v ,petra to u1 = x is wall$ r\nd by walls high] & /rong] ?an ! temple walls r\nd :i* x is built2 walls built1 z x seems1 ( "s cry/al rock1 imp]ceptible till y come up to x1 & ev5 !n n visible1 only recognisable z some?+ y _c get ?r\gh4 ,our fir/ day !re 0 enc\rag+4 ,we began at ! f> end ( ! /reet1 & aft] "s p]suasion ! m5 agre$ to move to "o side1 & let u h ! o!r = any wom5 :o w\ld come4 ,no?+ p>ticul> happ5$1 b we c\nt a day good if we get a s+le good *ance to speak 9 quietness to ! wom54 ,next "t we w5t x 0 n s good4 ,!y _h he>d 9 ! meantime all ab\t u1 & t we _h girls f ! high] ,ca/es ) u1 & ?is 0 t]rible 9 _! eyes4 ,= ! ,brahman1 f 8 l(ty position ( absolute supremacy1 holds 9 v small acc\nt ! s\ls ( ^? he calls l[-ca/e2 b if any f ! middle di/ance 7he w\ld n describe !m z ne> himself1 only dang]\sly ne>] ?an ! o!rs7 fall into ! pit ( ! ,*ri/ian religion1 he ?9ks x is "t to beg9 to take c>e t ! ,p[] :i* took su* effect on !m %\ld n h a *ance to p]=m ^u him1 &1 above all1 ^u 8 womank9d4 ,s t day we 7 politely in=m$ t no "o _h "t to li/51 &1 :5 "s wom5 want$ to come1 a muscul> wid[ *as$ !m (f4 ,we look$ long+ly back at ^? de> ,brahman wom51 b appeal 0 useless1 s we w5t4 ,9 "o ( ! o!r ,ca/es1 ! ,ca/e repres5t$ by ?is r[ ( m51 we f\nd m fri5dl9ess2 !y let u sit on "o end ( ! n>r[ v]&ah fronts1 & q a numb] ( wom5 clu/]$ ab\t on ! o!r4 ,!y 7 greatly afraid ( defilem5t !re1 & w\ld n come too close4 ,& !y _h ! /range/ ideas ab\t u4 ,!y 7 sure we _h a p[d] :i*1 if !y inhal$ x1 w\ld compel !m to be ,*ri/ians4 ,!y _h he>d t we w5t r\nd call+ *ildr51 t is1 beckon+ !m1 & draw+ !m to foll[ aft] u1 & t we 7 paid s mu* a head = conv]ts4 ,x takes a :ole aft]noon sometimes simply to disabuse _! m9ds ( su* misconceptions4 ,i he>d ?is comm]cial aspect ( ?+s expla9$ by "o :o app>5tly knew4 ,a k9dly old ,brahman woman _h all[$ u to sit on h] door/ep out ( ! sun1 & bit by bit we _h work$ our way to ! end ( ! v]&ah1 :i* 0 a little m %ad$1 :]e a girl 0 sitt+ alone :o seem$ to want to he>4 ,! old woman sat d[n beh9d u1 & !n an old man came up1 & ! two began to talk4 ,said ! old woman to ! old man1 ,%e is try+ to make u jo9 h] ,way4 7,i _h c>efully ab/a9$ f any su* expression47 ,! old man agre$ t su* 0 my probable object4 ,:at w %e get if we jo98 ,d y "k8 ,oh yes2 d ,i n "k6 ,= "o ( u a ?\s& rupees1 & = a ,vellal> five hundr$4 ,%e ev5 gets some?+ = a l[-ca/e *ild1 b %e gets a :ole ?\s& = "o ( u6 ,illu/ration3 ,a ,%eph]d-,ca/e h\se ( ! bett] sort4 ,we w\ld give a great deal to get into ?is h\se1 b s f> x is clos$4 ,y c see /raight ?r\gh to ! back c\rty>d :]e ! wom5 are1 :]e we may n g4 ,! old man is typical ( 8 class1 a ?\ghtful man ( ref9em5t ( m9d1 b :olly indiff]5t to ! tea*+4 ,!y 7 bo? v int]e/$ 9 ?is conv]sation1 & s inde$ 0 ,i1 & ,i ?\ght ,i w\ld fur!r enlight5 !m1 :5 ! old woman got up 9 a hurry & hobbl$ into ! h\se4 ,aft] t1 :5ev] we pass$1 %e us$ to %ake h] head at u1 & say1 ,*ee1 *ee6 ,no p]suasions c\ld ev] induce h] to let u sit on h] door/ep aga94 ,we 7 cle>ly aft] t ?\s& rupees1 & %e w\ld h none ( u4 ,9 ! same village !re 0 a little ,brahman *ild :o (t5 tri$ to speak to u1 b nev] 0 all[$4 ,"o day %e risk$ capture & its consequ5ces1 & ran across ! n>r[ /ream :i* divides ! ,brahman /reet f ! village1 & spoke to "o ( our ,b& 9 a hurri$ little :isp]4 ,oh1 ,i d want to he> ab\t ,jesus6 ,& %e told h[ %e _h le>nt at s*ool 9 h] own t[n1 & !n %e _h be5 s5t to h] "m-9-law's h\se 9 ?is jungle village1 t "o1 po9t+ to a h\se :]e !y nev] _h smiles = u2 b h] "m-9-law object$ to ! prea*+1 & _h ?reat5$ to ?r[ h] d[n ! well if %e li/5$ to u4 ,j !n a h>d voice call$ h]1 & %e flew4 ,next "t we w5t to t village %e 0 %ut up some:]e inside4 ,(t5 z "o passes "o sees %y faces look+ out f beh9d ! little pill>s :i* support ! v]&ahs1 & "o longs to get ne>]4 ,b x does n d to make any advance unless "o is sure ( "o's gr\nd4 ,x only results 9 a sudd5 />tl$ scurry+ into ! h\se1 & y _c foll[ !m !re4 ,to try to d s w\ld be m ?an rude--x w\ld be consid]$ pollution4 ,only ye/]day we 7 try+ to get to ! wom5 :o live 9 ! great h\se ( ! village beh9d ! bungal[4 ,?is photo %[s y ! door we /ood fac+ = t5 m9utes or m1 fir/ wait+1 & !n plead+ ) ! old "m-9-law to let u 9 to ! little d>k room 9 :i* y may see a woman's =m hid+ beh9d ! door4 ,b we c\ld n g to !m1 & !y c\ld n come to u4 ,!re 7 only two n>r[ rooms betwe51 b ! second ( ! two _h brass wat]-vessels 9 x4 ,if we _h gone 91 ^? vessels & ! wat] 9 !m w\ld h be5 defil$4 ,! wom5 7 n all[$ to come out1 ! "m-9-law saw well to t2 nev] 0 "o m vigilant4 ,%e /ood l a great fat h5 at ! door1 ) h] :ite wid['s skirts outspread l w+s1 & gu>d$ h] *ick5s effectually4 ,g6 g by ! way y h come6 0 all %e _h to say to u4 ,! fri5dly old man ( ! h\se 0 out4 ,a fri5dly "y man came 9 ) "s rice1 & began to measure x4 ,he invit$ u to sit d[n1 :i* we did1 & he measur$ ! rice 9 little iron tumbl]s1 c\nt+ al\d z he did s 9 a s+-song *ant4 ,he 0 pleas$ t we %\ld wat* him1 & x 0 int]e/+ to wat*1 = he did x exactly z ! v]se describes1 press+ ! rice d[n1 %ak+ ! iron measure1 heap+ up ! rice till x 0 runn+ ov]1 & yet c\nt+ ?is abundant tumbl]ful only z "o2 !n he h&$ ! basketful ( rice to a *ild :o /ood wait+1 & ask$ :at he c\ld d = u4 ,we told him h[ mu* we want$ to see ! wom5 ( ! h\se1 b he did n reli% ! idea ( tackl+ ! vigor\s old "m-9-law1 s we gave up ! attempt1 & w5t out4 ,z we pass$ ! wall at ! back :i* encloses ! wom5's qu>t]s1 we saw a girl look ov] ! wall z if %e want$ to speak to u1 b %e 0 in/antly pull$ back by t tyrannical dame1 & a dog came jump+ ov]1 b>k+ mo/ furi\sly1 :i* set a doz5 m yelp+ all ab\t u1 & s escort$ we retir$4 ,?is h\se is 9 ! ,village ( ! ,m]*ant1 n five m9utes f our gate1 b ! wom5 9 x are f> en\gh f any *ance ( he>+4 ,! m5 let u 9 t day to take ! photograph1 & we hop$ !reby to make fri5ds2 b ?\gh !re are six families liv+ !re 7= ! h\se is l>ge2 ! photograph only %[s "o end ( ! v]&ah :i* runs d[n its :ole l5g?71 we h nev] be5 once all[$ to speak to "o ( ! wom52 ! "m-9-law ( all ! six takes c>e we nev] get ! *ance4 ,"o ( ! *ildr51 a de> little girl1 foll[s u outside sometimes1 b %e is only sev51 & n v c\rage\s2 s1 ?\gh %e evid5tly picks up "s ( ! *oruses we s+1 %e is afraid ( be+ se5 li/5+1 & nev] gets mu* at a "t4 ,^! are "s ( ! practical difficulties 9 ! way ( rea*+ ! wom54 ,!re are o!rs4 ,suppose y d get 91 or1 :at is m probable 9 pione] "w1 suppose y get a v]&ah1 ev5 !n x is n pla9 sail+ by any means4 ,=1 fir/ ( all1 x is dang]\sly hot4 ,! sun beats d[n on ! /reet or c\rty>d to )9 a foot or two ( ! /one l$ge y are sitt+ ^u1 & /rikes up4 ,reflect$ gl>e means fev]1 s y try to edge a little f>!r out ( x )\t di/urb+ anyone's feel+s1 expla9+ m9utely :y y are do+ x1 le/ !y %\ld ?9k y\r design is to cov]tly t\* !m2 & !n1 _! confid5ce won s f>1 y beg9 p]haps ) ! wordless book1 or a lyric set to an ,indian tune1 or a picture ( "s p>able--nev] ( our ,"l--or1 (t5] /ill1 we f9d ! be/ way is to op5 our ,bibles1 = !y all respect a ,sacr$ ,book1 & read some?+ f x :i* we "k !y w und]/&4 ,we g5]ally f9d "o or two wom5 ab\t ! v]&ahs1 & two or ?ree m come )9 a few m9utes1 & see+ ?is1 two or ?ree m4 ,b gett+ !m & keep+ !m are two diff]5t ?+s4 ,x is n easy to hold p to he> :at !y h no special desire to he>4 ,b we are help$2 we are n alone4 ,x is always a /r5g? to rememb] t4 ,once fairly laun*$1 int]ruptions beg94 ,y are 9 ! middle ( a miracle1 p]haps1 & by ?is "t a doz5 wom5 h ga!r$1 & rejoice y\r he>t by li/5+ well1 :5 a man f ! opposite side ( ! /reet saunt]s ov] & asks may he put a "q1 or asks x =?)4 ,he has he>d t our ,book says1 t if y h fai? y c lift a m\nta9 into ! sea4 ,n[1 !re is a m\nta91 & he po9ts to ! pill> out on ! pla91 /&+ /raight up = five ?\s& feet1 a column ( solid rock4 ,!re is sea on ! o!r side1 he says2 ca/ x 91 & we w believe6 ,& ! wom5 laugh4 ,b "o m intellig5t turns to y1 ,does y\r ,book really say t8 %e asks1 !n :y c't y d x1 & let u see8 ,& ! man /rikes 9 ) ano!r rem>k1 & a woman at ! edge moves (f1 & y wi% ! man w\ld g4 ,p]haps he does1 or p]haps y are able to deta* him f ! visible1 & get him & ^? wom5 too to li/5 to "s bit ( witness+ to ! ,p[] t moves ! invisible1 & y are 9 its v he>t :5 ano!r objection is />t$3 ,y say !re is only "o true ,god1 b we h he>d t y wor%ip ?ree6 or1 ,c y\r ,god keep y f s98 ,& y try1 ,god help+ y1 to answ] s z to avoid discussion1 & p]haps to y\r joy succe$1 & "s are li/5+ int5tly aga91 :5 a woman int]rupts ) a "q ab\t y\r relations :i* y answ]$ be=e1 b %e came late1 & wants to he> x all ov] aga94 ,y satisfy h] z f> z y c1 & !n1 feel+ h[ fa/ ! preci\s m9utes are pass+1 y try1 oh s e>ne/ly1 to buy !m up & fill !m ) et]nity "w1 :5 sudd5ly ! :ole community conc5trates itself ^u y\r ,tamil si/]4 ,:o is %e8 ,y _h waiv$ ! "q at ! outset1 kn[+ :at w\ld sequel x1 b !y r5ew ! *>ge4 ,if %e is a born ,*ri/ian1 !y exclaim1 & draw away = fe> ( defilem5t--,l[-ca/e1 l[-ca/e6 & ! ^w runs r\nd contemptu\sly4 ,if %e is a conv]t1 !y ask que/ions ab\t h] relations 7!y h probably be5 guess+ among !mselves ab\t h] ,ca/e = ! la/ t5 m9utes72 if %e does n answ] !m1 !y let _! imag9ation run riot2 if %e does1 !y break out 9 indignation1 ,left y\r own "m6 ,brok5 y\r ,ca/e6 & !y call h] by names n sweet to ! e>1 & p]haps rise up 9 a body1 & refuse to h any?+ m to d ) su* a disgraceful p]son4 ,or p]haps y are try+ to p]suade "s ( !m to le>n to read1 kn[+ t1 if y c succe$1 !re w be s mu* m *ance ( tea*+ !m1 b !y assure y x is n ! cu/om = wom5 9 t village to read1 :i* unhappily is true2 or x may be y are tell+ !m1 z y tell ^? y may nev] see aga91 ( ! ,love t is lov+ !m1 & 9 ! middle ( ! tell+ a baby h[ls1 & all ! att5tion goes (f ^u x2 or somebody wants to g into ! h\se1 & a way has to be made = h]1 ) mu* ga!r+ toge!r & confusion2 or a dog comes yelp+ r\nd ! corn]1 ) a /one at its heels1 & a pack ( small boys 9 full *ase aft] x2 or ! m5 call out x is "t to be go+2 or ! wom5 sugge/ x is "t to be cook+2 or someone says or does some?+ upsett+1 & ! gr\p breaks up 9 a mom5t1 & ea* unit makes = its sep>ate hole1 & /&s 9 x1 look+ out2 & y look up at ^? d>k little doorways1 & feel y w\ld give any?+ !y c\ld ask1 if only !y w\ld let y 91 & let y sit d[n beside !m 9 "o ( ^? rooms1 & tell !m ! end ( ! /ory !y int]rupt$2 b !y w n d t4 ,oh1 x makes "o sorr[ful to be s ne> to anyone1 & yet s v f>1 z "o sometimes is f ^! wom54 ,y look at !m1 z !y /& 9 _! doorways1 )9 rea*1 b out ( rea*1 z out ( rea* z if !y 7 ?\s&s ( miles away4 4 4 4 ,j z ,i wrote ^? words a ,brahman woman came to ! door & look$ 94 ,!n %e walk$ 9 & sat d[n1 b did n speak4 ,c y ?9k h[ "o's he>t b\nds ev5 at su* a little ?+ z t8 ,brahman wom5 d n come to see u e day4 ,%e pull$ out a book ( palm-leaf slips1 & we read x4 ,x told h[ %e 0 "o ( a family ( sev51 all born deaf & dumb2 h[ h& 9 h& !y _h set (f to walk to ,b5>es to dr[n !mselves 9 ! ,ganges2 h[ a ,sepoy _h /opp$ !m & tak5 !m to an ,engli% ,collector2 h[ he _h provid$ = ! sev5 = a ye>1 !n let !m g2 h[ !y _h scatt]$ & w&]$ ab\t1 visit+ v>i\s holy places1 support$ by ! virtu\s :]ev] !y w5t2 & h[ ! be>] w\ld be glad to receive :atev] we w\ld give h]4 4 4 4 ,%e has gone1 a poor deaf & dumb & :olly hea!n woman2 we c\ld n p]suade h] to /ay & re/4 ,%e is m>ri$1 %e told u by signs2 h] husb& is deaf & dumb1 & %e has "o bl9d *ild4 ,%e sat on ! floor beside u = a few m9utes & ask$ que/ions--! usual ones1 ab\t me1 all by signs2 b no?+ we c\ld sign c\ld 9 any way make h] und]/& any?+ ab\t our ,god4 ,& yet %e seems to "k some?+ at lea/ ab\t h] own4 ,%e po9t$ to h] m\?1 & !n up1 & !n d[n & r\nd1 to %[ ! w9d+ ( a riv]1 & sign$ cle>ly en\gh h[ %e w5t f holy riv] to holy riv]1 & wor%ipp$ by ea*1 & %e po9t$ up & clasp$ h] h&s4 ,!re we 71 j z ,i _h be5 writ+1 s ne> to h]1 yet s f> f h]4 ,b ! greate/ difficulty ( all 9 rea*+ ! wom5 is t !y h no desire to be rea*$4 ,sometimes1 z on t aft]noon :5 ! *ild came & want$ to he>1 we f9d "o :o has desire1 b ! great] numb] h none2 & except 9 ! m advanc$ t[ns & villages1 :]e !y are all[$ to le>n ) a ,bible-woman1 !y h h>dly a *ance to he> en\gh to make !m want to he> m4 ,!n1 z if to make ! case d\bly h>d 7& ?is law applies to e woman1 ( :atev] ,ca/e71 %e is1 9 ! eyes ( ! law1 ! prop]ty ( h] husb&2 & ?\gh a ,*ri/ian _c by law compel 8 ,h9du wife to live ) him1 a ,h9du husb& c compel 8 ,*ri/ian wife to live ) him2 s t no m>ri$ woman is ev] legally free to be a ,*ri/ian1 = if ! husb& dem&$ h] back1 %e c\ld n be protect$1 b w\ld h to be giv5 up to a life :i* no ,engli% woman c\ld be> to contemplate4 ,%e may say %e is a ,*ri/ian2 he c>es n\ght = :at %e says4 ,god help ! woman ?us =c$ back6 ,b1 believ+ a high] ,p[] w /ep 9 ?an ! p[] ( ?is mo/ unju/ law1 we w\ld risk any p5alty & receive su* a wife %\ld %e come4 ,only1 9 deal+ ) ! difficulties & b>ri]s :i* lie betwe5 an ,indian woman & life z a free ,*ri/ian1 x is useless to %ut "o's eyes to ?is la/ & lea/ compreh5sible ( all difficulties1 an ,engli% law1 import$ into ,india1 & en=c$ ) imprisonm5t1 an obsolete ,engli% law6 ,we h no ,brahman wom5 conv]ts 9 our ,tamil ,mission4 ,we he> ( a few 9 ,travancore2 we "k ( m 9 ! ,nor?1 :]e ! ,brahmans are m num]\s & less exclusive2 b !re is n a s+le bon fide ,brahman conv]t woman or *ild 9 ! :ole ( ?is ,di/rict4 ,!re 0 "o1 a v old woman2 b %e di$ two ye>s ago4 ,we may com=t ourselves ) ! ?\ght t surely "s ( ^? :o h he>d h become secret believ]s4 ,b w a true believ] rema9 secret always8 ,we may tru/ t _m a de> little *ild di$ "y1 lov+ ,jesus1 & w5t to ,him4 ,b :at ab\t ^? :o h n di$ "y8 ,i "k t a bright] view may be tak51 & if ! sadd] has be5 emphasis$ 9 ^! lett]s1 x is only because we feel y "k less ab\t x4 ,= m has be5 writt5 ab\t ! successes ?an ab\t ! failures1 & x seems to u t x is m important t y %\ld "k ab\t ! rev]ses ?an ab\t ! successes ( ! w>4 ,we %all h all et]nity to celebrate ! victories1 b we h only ! few h\rs be=e sunset 9 :i* to w9 !m4 ,we are n w9n+ !m z we %\ld1 because ! fact ( ! rev]ses is s little realis$1 & ! ne$$ re9=cem5ts are n =?com+1 z !y w\ld be if ! position 7 ?or\ghly und]/ood4 ,re9=cem5ts ( m5 & wom5 are ne$$1 b1 f> above all1 re9=cem5ts ( pray]4 ,& s we h tri$ to tell y ! tru?--! un9t]e/+1 unromantic tru?--ab\t ! hea!n z we f9d !m1 ! "w z x is4 ,m work]s are ne$$4 ,no words c tell h[ mu* !y are ne$$1 h[ mu* !y are want$ "h4 ,b we w nev] try to allure anyone to ?9k ( com+ by pa9t+ col\r$ pictures1 :5 ! facts are 9 black & :ite4 ,:at if black & :ite w nev] attract l col\rs8 ,we c>e n = x2 our bus9ess is to tell ! tru?4 ,! "w is n a pretty ?+1 to be look$ at & admir$4 ,x is a fight4 ,& battlefields are n beautiful4 ,b if "o is truly call$ ( ,god1 all ! difficulties & disc\ragem5ts only int5sify ! ,call4 ,if ?+s 7 easi] !re w\ld be less ne$4 ,! great] ! ne$1 ! cle>] ! ,call r+s ?r\gh "o1 ! deep] ! conviction gr[s3 x 0 ,god's ,call4 ,& z "o obeys x1 !re is ! joy ( ob$i5ce1 q ap>t f ! joy ( success4 ,!re is joy 9 be+ ) ,jesus 9 a place :]e ,8 fri5ds are few2 & sometimes1 :5 "o w\ld lea/ expect x1 com+ home tir$ out & di%e>t5$ aft] a day 9 an oppos+ or indiff]5t t[n1 sudd5ly--h[1 y c h>dly tell--su* a wave ( ! joy ( ,jesus fl[s ov] y & ?r\gh y1 t y are /ill$ ) ! s5se ( utt] joy4 ,!n1 :5 y see ,him w9n+ s\ls1 or he> ( y\r comrades' victories1 oh6 all t is )9 y s+s1 ,i h m ?an an ov]weight ( joy6 ,,*apt] ,,xix ,attract$ by ! ,influ5ce ,x seems to h be5 a mi/ake to imag9e t ! ,div9e ,maje/y on high 0 too exalt$ to take any notice ( our mean affairs4 ,! great m9ds among u are rem>kable = ! att5tion !y be/[ ^u m9uti 4 4 4 'a sp>r[ _c fall to ! gr\nd )\t y\r ,fa!r4' ,david ,liv+/one1 ,africa4 ,,we h n[ left ,dohnavur1 on ! ,we/1 & return$ to our old battlefield on ! ,ea/4 ,! ev5+ aft] our arrival "o ( ^? special ?+s happ5$1 ?\gh only a little ?+ "s w say--a little *ild 0 br\ght4 ,illu/ration3 ,?is is n ,pe>l-eyes4 ,pe>l-eyes is t9i]1 & has m sp>kle2 b ! ,ca/e is ! same1 & z we h n got ,pe>l-eyes1 we put ?is small girl "h4 ,!re is a temple 9 ! ,h9du village ne> u4 ,we h (t5 tri$ to rea* ! temple wom51 poor slaves ( ! ,brahmans4 ,we h (t5 se5 ! little girls1 "s ( !m b\ght z infants f _! mo!rs1 & tra9$ to ! t]rible life4 ,9 "o ( ! ,mission day s*ools !re is a *ild :o 0 sold by h] ,*ri/ian "m to ^! ,s]vants ( ! gods2 b ?\gh ?is is kn[n x _c be prov$1 & ! *ild has no wi% to leave ! life1 & %e _c be tak5 by =ce4 ,sometimes we see ! little girls play+ 9 ! c\rty>ds ( ! h\ses ne> ! temple1 graci\s little maid5s1 w9some 9 _! ways1 almo/ always m ref9$ 9 mann] ?an ord9>y *ildr51 & (t5 beautiful4 ,"o longs to help ! little ?+s1 b no h& ( ours c /ret* ov] ! wall & lift ev5 "o *ild out4 ,among ! little temple girls 9 ! ,great ,lake ,village 0 a t9y girl call$ ,pe>l-eyes1 ( :om we knew no?+2 b ,god mu/ h "s purpose = h]1 = ,he s5t ,8 ,angel to ! h\se "o aft]noon1 & ! ,angel f\nd little ,pe>l-eyes1 & he took h] by ! h& & l$ h] out1 across ! /ream1 & ?r\gh ! wood1 to a ,*ri/ian woman's h\se 9 our village4 ,next morn+ %e br\ght h] to u4 ,?is is :at really happ5$1 ,i ?9k2 !re is no o!r way to acc\nt = x4 ,no "o rememb]s su* a ?+ happ5+ "h be=e4 ,i 0 sitt+ read+ 9 ! v]&ah :5 ,i saw !m come4 ,! woman 0 look+ surpris$4 ,%e did n "k ab\t ! ,angel1 ,i expect1 & %e c\ld n und]/& x at all4 ,! little *ild 0 *att]+ away1 lift+ up a bright little face z %e talk$4 ,:5 %e saw me %e ran /raight up to me1 & climb$ on my knee )\t ! lea/ fe>1 & told me all ab\t h]self at once4 ,i took h] to ! ,iy]1 & he s5t = ! ,pa/or1 :o s5t a mess5g] to ! ,village ( ! ,lake1 to say ! *ild 0 "h1 & to inquire into ! tru? ( h] /ory4 ,my "n is ,pe>l-eyes1 ! *ild began1 & ,i want to /ay "h always4 ,i h come to /ay4 ,& %e told u h[ h] "m _h sold h] :5 %e 0 a baby to ! ,s]vants ( ! gods4 ,%e 0 n happy ) !m4 ,!y did n love h]4 ,nobody lov$ h]4 ,%e want$ to live ) u4 ,b :y _h %e run away n[8 ,%e h>dly seem$ to "k1 & look$ puzzl$ at our que/ions4 ,! only ?+ %e 0 sure ab\t 0 t %e _h run & come1 & t %e want$ to /ay4 ,!n ! ,ammal came 91 & %e w5t ?r\gh exactly ! same /ory ) h]4 ,we felt1 if ?is prov$ to be fact1 t we c\ld surely keep h]2 ! ,gov]nm5t w\ld be on our side 9 su* a matt]4 ,only ! great difficulty might be to prove x4 ,mean:ile we gave h] a doll1 & h] little he>t 0 at re/4 ,%e did n seem to h a fe>4 ,) ! prettie/1 mo/ confid+ little ge/ure1 %e sat d[n at our feet & began to play ) x4 ,we wat*$ h] wond]+ly4 ,%e 0 p]fectly at home ) u4 ,%e ran out1 ga!r$ leaves & fl[]s1 & came back ) !m4 ,^! 7 c>efully arrang$ 9 r[s on ! floor4 ,!n ano!r exp$ition1 & 9 aga9 ) ?ree pebbles = he>?/ones1 a %ell = a cook+ pot1 bits ( /raw = firewood1 a /ick = a mat*1 & s& = rice4 ,%e w5t ?r\gh all ! m9uti ( ,tamil cook]y ) ! greate/ s]i\sness4 ,!n we1 toge!r ) h] doll1 7 invit$ to p>take4 ,! little ?+ walk$ /raight into our he>ts1 & we felt we w\ld risk any?+ to keep h]4 ,our mess5g] return$4 ,! /ory 0 true4 ,! wom5 f ^: h\se %e _h come 7 c]ta9ly temple wom54 ,b w\ld !y admit x to u1 &1 above all1 w\ld !y admit !y _h obta9$ h] illegally8--a fact easy to d5y4 ,almo/ ^u ?is !y came2 & to ! ,iy]'s "q1 ,:o are y8 "o said1 ,we are ,s]vants ( ! gods6 ,i he>d an in/ructive aside1 ,:y did y tell !m8 ,oh1 nev] m9d1 said ! "o :o _h answ]$1 !y don't und]/&6 ,b we _h und]/ood1 & we 7 ?ankful = ! fir/ po9t ga9$4 ,!y /ood & />$ & call$ ! *ild1 b %e w\ld n g1 & we w\ld n =ce h]4 ,!n !y w5t away1 & we 7 left = an h\r 9 t curi\s quiet :i* comes be=e a /orm4 ,our poor little girl 0 fright5$4 ,oh1 if !y come aga91 hide me6 %e begg$4 ,"o saw x 0 almo/ too mu* = h]1 high-spirit$ *ild ?\gh %e is4 ,! next 0 worse4 ,a great cr[d ga!r$ on ! v]&ah1 & an evil-fac$ woman1 :o seem$ to h "s sort ( p[] ov] ,pe>l-eyes1 fi]cely dem&$ h] back4 ,:5 we refus$ to make h] g1 ! evil-fac$ woman1 ^: v glance s5t a tremble ?r\gh ! little "o1 decl>$ t ,pe>l-eyes mu/ say out l\d t %e w\ld n g ) h]1 ,out l\d s t all %\ld he>4 ,b ! poor little ?+ 0 dumb ) fe>4 ,%e j /ood & look$1 & %iv]$4 ,we c\ld n p]suade h] to say a ^w4 ,/> 0 hov]+ ne>4 ,%e _h be5 ?r\gh x all h]self be=e1 & h] face 0 anxi\s1 & our he>ts 71 ,i "k4 ,x is impossible to describe su* a half-h\r's life to y2 x has to be liv$ ?r\gh to be und]/ood4 ,! clam\r & excitem5t1 & ! feel+ ( h[ mu* hangs on ! ^w ( a *ild :o does n prop]ly und]/& :at %e is accept+ or refus+4 ,! t5sion is t]rible4 ,i d>$ n g ne> h] le/ !y %\ld ?9k ,i 0 bewit*+ h]4 ,any movem5t on my "p t[>ds h] w\ld h be5 ! signal = a ru% on !irs2 b ,i sign$ to ,/> to take h] away = a mom5t4 ,! bewild]m5t on ! poor little face 0 fright5+ me4 ,"o m look up at t woman1 "o m pull at ! /ra9$ cord1 & to _! "q1 ,w y come8 %e might z likely say yes z no4 ,/> c>ri$ h] (f4 ,once out ( rea* ( ^? eyes1 ! words came fa/ en\gh4 ,/> told me %e clung to h] & sobb$1 ,oh1 if ,i say no1 %e w cat* me & puni% me dreadfully aft]w>ds6 ,%e w6 ,i "k %e w6 ,& %e %[$ cuts 9 ! s(t br[n sk9 :]e %e _h be5 puni%$ be=e2 b ,/> soo!d h] & br\ght h] back1 & %e /ood--su* a little girl--be=e !m all4 ,i won't6 ,i won't6 %e cri$1 & %e turn$ & ran back ) ,/>4 ,& ! cr[d w5t (f1 & ,i 0 glad to see ! la/ ( t fe>ful face1 ) its evil1 cruel eyes4 ,b !y said !y w\ld write to ! "m1 :o _h giv5 h] to !m4 ,we not$ ?is--! second po9t we %\ld h to prove if !y lodg$ a suit aga9/ u--& any day ! "m may come & complicate matt]s by work+ on ! *ild's affections4 ,also1 we h he>d ( a plot to decoy h] away1 %\ld we be = a mom5t (f gu>d2 s we are v mu* on ! wat*1 & we nev] let h] out ( our sight4 ,by ?is "t--x is five days s9ce %e came--x seems impossible to ?9k ( hav+ ev] be5 )\t h]4 ,ap>t f h] /ory1 :i* w\ld t\* anyone1 !re is h] little p]sonality1 :i* is v int]e/+4 ,%e plays all day long ) h] preci\s dolls1 talk+ to !m1 tell+ !m ev]y?+ we tell h]4 ,ye/]day x 0 a ,bible /ory1 to-day a new *orus4 ,%e insi/$ on h] be/-belov$ infant com+ to *ur* ) h]1 & x _h to h its collection too4 ,ev]y?+ is mo/ reali/ic4 ,tamil *ildr5 usually hang _! dolls up by _! limbs to a nail 9 ! wall1 or /[ !m away on a %elf1 b ?is mite has imag9ation & mu* sympa?y4 ,9 ?9k+ ov] x1 z1 bit by bit1 h] little /ory came to light1 we h be5 /ruck by ! t\*es t tell h[ ,god c>es4 ,! "t ( h] com+ told ( c>e4 ,"s mon?s e>li]1 ! temple woman :o kept h] _h burnt h] little f+]s across1 z a puni%m5t = "s *ildi% fault1 & ,pe>l-eyes ran away4 ,%e knew :at %e want$--h] "m2 %e knew t h] "m liv$ 9 a t[n tw5ty miles to ! ,ea/4 ,x 0 a long way = a little girl to walk1 b "s k9d p f\nd me on ! road1 & !y 7 go+ to ! same t[n1 & !y let me g ) !m1 s ,i 0 n afraid1 only ,i 0 v tir$ :5 we got !re4 ,x took ?ree days to walk4 ,i did n "k :]e my "m liv$ 9 ! t[n1 & x 0 a v big t[n1 b ,i describ$ my "m to ! p 9 ! /reets1 & at la/ ,i f\nd my "m4 ,= j a little :ile !re 0 some?+ ( ! "m-love1 my "m cri$4 ,b ! temple woman _h trac$ h] & foll[$ h]1 & ! "m gave h] up4 ,!n comes a blank 9 ! /ory2 %e only rememb]s %e 0 lonely1 & %e felt a "m-want ab\t ! _w1 & w&]$ we>ily-- ,z re/less z a ne/-des]t$ bird ,gr[n *ill ?r\gh some?+ be+ away1 ?\gh :at ,x kn[s n4 ,!n comes a bit ( life di/9ct 9 e detail1 & told ) t]ribly un*ildi% horror4 ,%e he>d !m :isp] toge!r ab\t h]2 !y did n "k t %e und]/ood4 ,%e 0 to be m>ri$ to ! god1 ti$ to a /one4 ,t]rifi$1 %e flew to ! temple1 slipp$ pa/ ! ,brahmans1 cross$ ! c\rt1 /ood be=e ! god 9 ! dim half-d>kness ( ! %r9e1 clasp$ h] h&s1--%e %[$ u h[1--pray$ to x1 plead$1 ,let me die6 ,oh1 let me die6 ,b>ely sev5 ye>s old1 & %e pray$1 ,oh1 let me die6 ,%e tri$ to run away aga92 if %e _h come to our village !n1 %e c\ld n h be5 sav$4 ,we 7 9 ,dohnavur1 & !re 0 no "o "h :o c\ld h protect$ h] aga9/ ! temple p4 ,s ,god kept h] f com+ !n4 ,ab\t t "t1 "o aft]noon "o ( our ,tamil ,si/]s1 :om we _h left beh9d to hold ! =t1 pass$ ?r\gh ! ,great ,lake ,village1 & ! temple wom5 call$ ! *ild1 & said1 ,see6 ,x is %e6 ,! *ild-/eal+ ,ammal6 ,run6 ,x 0 only said to fright5 h]1 b x did a diff]5t "w4 ,"o day1 ! day aft] we return$1 ! ?\ght sudd5ly came to h]1 ,i w g & look = t *ild-/eal+ ,ammal2 & %e w&]$ away 9 ! twilight & came to our village1 & /ood alone 9 front ( ! *ur*1 & no "o knew4 ,!re "o ( our ,*ri/ian wom51 ,s]vant ( ,jesus by "n1 f\nd h] "s "t aft]w>ds1 a v small & desolate mite1 ) tumbl$ hair & tr\bl$ eyes1 = %e c\ld n f9d ! "o %e s\ght1 t *ild-/eal+ ,ammal %e want$ s mu*1 & %e 0 fright5$1 all alone 9 ! ga!r+ d>k by ?is big1 big *ur*2 & v big x mu/ h look$ to s t9y a ?+ z %e4 ,s]vant ( ,jesus ?\ght at fir/ ( tak+ ! little "o back to h] home1 b m]cifully x 0 late 7ano!r t\* ( ! h& ( ,god71 & s in/ead %e took h] /raight to h] own little h\se1 :i* satisfi$ ,pe>l-eyes p]fectly4 ,b %e w\ld n t\* ! curry & rice ! k9d woman (f]$ h]4 ,%e drew h]self up to h] full small height & said1 ) ! greate/ dignity1 ,am ,i n a ,vellala *ild8 ,may y ask me to break my ,ca/e8 ,s ,s]vant ( ,jesus gave h] "s sug>1 t be+ c]emonially safe1 & ,pe>l-eyes ate x hungrily1 & !n w5t (f to sleep4 ,next morn+1 aga9 ! woman's fir/ ?\ght 0 to take h] to h] own p4 ,b ! *ild 0 s insi/5t t %e want$ ! *ild-cat*+ ,ammal1 t ,s]vant ( ,jesus1 ?9k+ ,i 0 ! ,ammal %e meant 7= ?is is "o ( my v>i\s names71 br\ght h] to me1 z ,i h said1 & oh1 ,i am glad %e did6 ,no?+ escapes ^? cle> br[n eyes4 ,t morn+1 9 ! mid/ ( ! confusion1 "o ( ! temple wom5 call$ out t ! *ild 0 a wick$ ?ief4 ,?is is an ord9>y *>ge4 ,!y ?9k x w compel submission4 ,we w make out a case1 & s5d ! police to drag y (f to gaol6 !y yell2 & sometimes !re is risk ( s]i\s tr\ble1 = a case c be made out *eaply 9 ,india4 ,b ?is did n promise to be s]i\s1 s we inquir$ ! /ol5 sum4 ,x came to f\rp5ce halfp5ny1 :i* we paid = ! sake ( peace1 ?\gh %e told !m :]e ! money 01 & we f\nd out lat] t %e _h told ! tru?4 ,i nev] ?\ght %e w\ld rememb] x--! excitem5ts ( ! day cr[d$ x out ( my m9d--b weeks aft]w>ds1 :5 ,i 0 tea*+ h] ! text1 ,n r$eem$ ) corruptible ?+s1 z silv] & gold1 & expla9+ h[ mu* ,jesus _h paid = u1 %e int]rupt$ me ) ! rem>k1 ,oh yes1 ,i und]/&6 ,i "k h[ mu* y paid = me--f\rp5ce halfp5ny6 ,& n[ to turn f small-seem+ ?+s to l>ge4 ,ragl&1 ,tamil mission>y1 is writ+ to a fri5d 9 #ahdg4 ,he is try+ to express a/ronomically ! value ( a s\l4 ,he asks1 ,h[ does ! a/ronom] correct ! k ( ! />s :i* simple vision br+s him8 ,fir/1 hav+ discov]$ t ! little dot ( light is ?\s&s ( miles di/ant1 & hav+ disc]n$ by ! telescope t x subt5ds at ! eye a s5sible angle1 & hav+ measur$ t angle1 a simple calculation %[s him ! size ( ! object to be great] p]haps ?an t ( ! huge ball :i* he calls 8 e>?4 ,!n1 ,take ! s\l ( "o ( ! poore/1 l[e/ ,p>iahs ( ,india1 & =m x by imag9ation into1 or suppose x repres5t$ by1 a sph]e4 ,place ?is at ! extremity ( a l9e :i* is to repres5t "t4 ,ext5d ?is l9e & move (f y\r sph]e1 f>!r & f>!r ad inf9itum1 & :at has become ( y\r sph]e8 ,:y1 !re x is1 j z be=e4 4 4 4 ,x is /ill :at x 01 & ?is ev5 aft] ?\s&s ( ye>s4 ,9 %ort1 ! disc appe>s undim9i%$1 ?\gh view$ f an almo/ inf9ite di/ance4 ,oh1 :at an angle ( ! m9d ought t poor s\l to subt5d6 ,! lett] goes on to sugge/ ano!r p>allel betwe5 ?+s a/ronomical & ?+s spiritual4 ,he supposes an objector admits ! size z prov$1 b demurs z to ! importance ( ^! heav5ly bodies4 ,!y are1 p]haps1 only unsub/antial fro?1 m]e puffs ( air1 vap\ry no?+s4 ,b ! a/ronom] kn[s _! mass & weight1 z well z _! size3 ,long obs]vation has taught him t planets 9 ! neighb\rhood ( "o giv5 heav5ly body h be5 turn$ out ( _! c\rse1 h[1 & by :at1 he is at fir/ q at a loss to tell b he has guess$ & reason$1 has f\nd cause = suspect+ ! planet4 ,he wat*es1 obs]ves1 & comp>es2 & aft] a long sift+ ( evid5ce1 he br+s x 9 guilty ( ! di/urbance4 ,if x be s1 x mu/ h a p[] to di/urb1 a p[] to attract2 & if s1 x is n a m]e %ell1 mu* less a m]e vap\r4 ,x has mass & x has weight1 & he calculates & det]m9es f ! di/urbances :at t weight is4 ,j s ) ! ,p>iah's s\l4 ,oh1 :at a di/urbance has x creat$6 ,:at a cele/ial body has x drawn out f its cele/ial sph]e6 ,n a />1 n ! :ole visible heav5s1 n ! heav5 ( heav5s itself1 b ,him ,:o fills heav5 & e>?1 by ,:om all ?+s 7 creat$4 ,him did t ,p>iah's s\l attract f heav5 ev5 to e>? to save x4 ,oh t we w\ld !nce le>n1 & le>n+1 lay to he>t ! weight & ! value ( t "o s\l4 ,& j z ! maje/y ( ! glory ( ! ,"l is %[n =? n[h]e m maje/ically ?an 9 ! *apt] :i* tells u h[ ,he fe$s ,8 flock l a %eph]d1 & ga!rs ! lambs ) ,8 arm1 & c>ries !m 9 ,8 bosom1 s n[h]e1 ,i ?9k1 d we see ! glory ( our ,god m ?an 9 *apt]s ( life :i* %[ ,him b5d+ d[n f ! circle ( ! e>?1 yea r1 com+ d[n all ! way to help x1 attract$ by ! influ5ce ( ! ne$ ( a little *ild4 ,,*apt] ,,xx ,! ,elf ,y rememb] :at ,i said once1 t y c\ld n1 p]haps1 put a :ole cr[n on ! head ( ,jesus--t is1 br+ a :ole c\ntry to be ,8--b y might put "o little jewel 9 ,8 cr[n4 ,bi%op ,fr5*1 ,india & ,arabia4 ,,pe>l-,,eyes1 o!rwise ! ,elf1 because x exactly describes h]1 0 v good = ! fir/ few weeks1 aft] :i* we began to "k h]4 ,%e is n a conv]t 9 any s5se ( ! t]m4 ,%e is j a v wilful1 tru?ful1 exasp]at+1 fasc9at+ little ,ori5tal4 ,:5 %e is1 z %e expresses x1 mov$ to s91 nobody ( h] own col\r c manage h]4 ,y are only me gr[n up1 is h] attitude t[>ds !m all4 ,%e is always ready to rep5t1 b1 z ,pe>l sorr[fully says1 be=e h] te>s are dry1 %e goes & s9s aga91 & !n1 q unaba%$1 %e w trot up to y z if no?+ _h happ5$ & expect to be lavi%ly pett$4 ,i nev] saw anyone except ! ,elf look int]e/+ :5 naughty4 ,%e does look int]e/+4 ,%e is a r light br[n1 & any emotion makes ! br[n light]2 h] long la%es droop ov] h] eyes 9 ! mo/ pa!tic mann]1 & :5 %e looks up appeal+ly %e might be an innoc5t m>tyr ab\t to die = h] fai?4 ,we h two o!r small girls ) u2 ! ,imp--b h] "n is a libel1 %e re=m$ "s mon?s ago--& ,tangles1 :o ties h]self into knots :5ev] %e makes a rem>k4 ,^! ?ree h _m an argum5t 7= ,indian *ildr5 delight 9 discussion71 & sometimes ! ?+s t are br\ght to me w\ld %ock ! or?odox4 ,?is is ! la/1 br\ght ye/]day3 ,ob$i5ce is n s important z love4 ,orpah 0 v ob$i5t4 ,h] "m-9-law said1 ',g1 return1' & %e did z %e 0 told4 ,b ,ru? 0 n ob$i5t at all4 ,f\r times h] "m-9-law said1 ',g1' & yet %e w\ld n g4 ,b ,god bless$ ,ru? mu* m ?an ,orpah1 because %e lov$ h] "m-9-law4 ,s ob$i5ce is n s important z love4 ,only ! day be=e ,i _h be5 lab\r+ to expla9 ! absolute necessity = ! cultivation ( ! grace ( ob$i5ce2 b n[ x 0 prov$ a second>y matt]1 = ,ru? 0 c]ta9ly disob$i5t1 b good & greatly bless$4 ,! ,elf's *ief del9qu5cies at pres5t1 h[ev]1 spr+ f a root$ av]sion to h] %>e 9 ! family h\sework 7t5 m9utes' rubb+ up ( brass wat]-vessels72 an appetite = slate p5cils--%e w\ld nibble !m by ! in* if we w\ld let h]--!y are s nice to eat1 %e says2 &1 mo/ fruitful ( all 9 sad consequ5ces1 a love ( be+ fir/4 ,z reg>ds s9 ,no4 #a1 ,i hope x w soon be a ?+ ( ! pa/1 = %e has j made a valuable discov]y3 ,satan doesn't come v close to me if ,i s+ all ! "t ,i'm rubb+ ! brasses4 ,he runs away :5 he he>s me s+1 s ,i s+ v l\d1 & t keeps him away4 ,satan doesn't l hymns4 ,& ,i q agree1 & /rongly advise h] to p]sev]e4 ,s9 ,no4 #b is likely to pass1 z %e hates ! na/y m$ic9e we give h] to correct h] deprav$ proclivities2 b ,no4 #c is m s]i\s4 ,x op5s ! door1 or1 z %e once express$ x1 x calls s _m o!r s9s to come1--qu>rell+1 pride1 & sev]al v>ieties ( temp]1 come at ! call ( ?is s9 ,no4 #c4 ,%e is a born lead] 9 h] v small way1 & %e has n le>n$ yet1 t be=e we c lead we mu/ be will+ to be l$4 ,i w *oose ! game1 %e rem>ks & all ( y mu/ d z ,i tell y4 ,sometimes !y d1 = h] directions1 ?\gh decisive1 are giv5 ) a c]ta9 grace t w9s ob$i5ce2 b sometimes !y d n1 & !n ! ,elf is (f5d$1 & walks (f4 ,b %e is ! life ( ! game1 & !y *ase h] & propitiate h]2 & %e g5]ally condesc5ds to return1 = solit>y dignity is dull4 ,if any ( ! s5iors happ5 to see x1 x is *eck$ z mu* z possible1 b (t5] we he> ( x 9 t v in=m+ pray]1 :i* is to h] q ! ev5t ( ! ev5+2 = %e takes to ! outw>d =ms ( religion ) great avidity1 & ! ev5+ pray] especially is a deep delight to h]4 ,%e c\nts up all h] num]\s %ortcom+s c>efully & p]fectly tru?fully1 z !y appe> to h]1 & ) equal accuracy h] bless+s l>ge & small4 ,%e sometimes includes h] good de$s 9 ! li/1 le/1 ,i suppose1 !y %\ld be =gott5 9 ! record ( ! day4 ,all ! self-righte\sness lat5t 9 human nature comes out1 or us$ to1 9 h] e>li] days1 9 ! ev5+ revelations4 ,"h is a specim51 tak5 at r&om f ! fir/ mon?'s %eaf4 ,%e & ! ,imp _h come to my room = _! devotions1 pret]naturally pi\s1 bo? ( !m1 ?\gh q unreg5]ate4 ,x 0 ! ,elf's turn to beg94 ,%e settl$ h]self circumspectly1 sigh$ deeply1 & !n began4 ,fir/ came ! day's s9s1 c\nt$ on ! f+]s ( ! "r h&1 beg9n+ ) ! f\r? f+]4 ,once1 & d[n w5t ! little f+] on ! palm1 ,i 0 cross ) ,l4 7,l4 be+ ! ,imp1 n9e & a half to ! ,elf's sev5 & a half1 b mo/ submissive z a rule47 ,i 0 cross because %e did n d z ,i told h]4 ,t 0 wrong ( me2 b x 0 wrong ( h] too1 s x 0 only half a s94 ,twice1 & ! ?ird f+] 0 fold$ d[n1 :5 ,i did n d my "w well4 ,t 0 q all my fault4 ,?ree times1 & d[n w5t ! middle f+]1 :5 ,i caught a qu>rel ) ^? naughty little *ildr52 !y 7 /upid little *ildr51 & !y w\ld n play my game1 s ,i spoil$ unity4 ,b !y came runn+ aft] me1 & !y said1 ',please =give u1' s ,i =gave !m4 ,t 0 v good ( me1 & ,i also =gave ,l42 s t is ?ree bad ?+s & two good ?+s to-day4 ,i /opp$ h]1 & expatiat$ on ! s9 ( pride1 b h] m9d 0 full ( ! bus9ess 9 h&4 ,!n !re 7 f\r bless+s--no1 five2 b ,i c't rememb] ! fif?4 ,! ,ammal gave me a box = my doll1 & y gave me "s sweets2 & ,i f\nd "s nice rags 9 y\r wa/e-pap] basket--grubb+ 9 rag-bags & wa/e-pap] baskets is "o ( ! joys ( life2 rags are s useful :5 y h a l>ge family ( dolls :o are always we>+ out _! clo!s--& ,i h "s cakes 9 my own box n[4 ,!re are f\r bless+s4 ,b ,i =get ! fif?4 ,i advis$ h] to leave x1 & beg91 = ! ,imp 0 pati5tly wait+ h] turn4 ,%e1 good *ild1 sugge/$ ! miss+ fif? mu/ be ! soap--! ,ammal _h giv5 ea* ( !m a piece ! size ( a walnut4 ,yes1 t 0 x app>5tly1 = ! ,elf1 cont5t$1 began-- ,o lov+ ,"l ,jesus6 ,i h done ?ree wrong ?+s to-day 7!n foll[$ ! details & pray] = =giv5ess74 ,"l1 give ,l4 grace to d :at ,i want h] to d2 & :5 %e does n d x1 ,"l1 give me grace to be pati5t ) h]4 ,i ?ank ,!e = caus+ me to =give ^? little *ildr5 :o w\ld n play ! game ,i lik$4 ,oh make !m good1 & make me also good2 & next "t we play toge!r give me grace to play pati5tly ) !m4 ,& oh1 =give all ! bad ?+s ,i h done to-day2 & ,i ?ank ,!e v mu* = all ! good ?+s ,i h done1 = ,i did !m by ,?y grace4 ,praise = m]cies foll[$ 9 ord]3 ! c>dbo>d box1 ! lump ( sug>-c&y1 ! spoils f ! wa/e-pap] basket1 ^? /icky honey-cakes--:i*1 to my disquietude1 ,i !n und]/ood 7 secret$ 9 h] seeley box--& t preci\s bit ( soap4 ,!n--& ?is is nev] omitt$--a f]v5tly express$ desire = safe pres]vation = h]self & h] fri5ds f ! bites ( snakes & scorpions1 & all o!r noxi\s creatures1 ?r\gh ! d>kness ( ! night1 & :5 ,i wake may ,i f9d myself at ,?y holy feet4 ,am54 ,no matt] h[ sleepy %e is1 ^! la/ phrases1 :i* are q ( h] own devis+1 are always includ$ 9 ! tail-end ( h] pray]4 ,%e w\ld n feel at all safe on h] mat1 spread on ! gr\nd out ( doors 9 hot wea!r1 unless %e _h s =tifi$ h]self f all attacks ( ! reptile _w4 ,& :51 "o day1 we discov]$ a ne/ ( "s few doz5 scorpions )9 six y>ds ( h] mat1 n "o ( :i* _h ev] di/urb$ h] or any ( h] fri5ds1 we really did feel t funny little pray] _h p[] 9 x aft] all4 ,y _c int]rupt 9 ! middle ( ^? r confus+ confessions1 %e is f> too mu* engag$ to be di/urb$1 b :5 ! communication is fairly ov]1 & %e cuddles on y\r knee = ! kiss+ & c>ess+ %e s mu* appreciates1 y h a *ance ( expla9+ ?+s a little4 ,%e li/5$ s]i\sly t ev5+1 ,i rememb]1 !n1 slipp+ d[n (f my knee1 %e add$ z a sort ( po/script1 v rev]5tly1 ,o ,"l ,jesus1 ,i pray$ x wrong4 ,i 0 naughti] ?an ,l41 mu* naughti]4 ,b inde$ ,?\ wilt rememb] t %e 0 naughty fir/4 4 4 4 ,oh1 t's n x6 ,x 0 n ,l41 x 0 me6 ,& ,i 0 impati5t ) ^? little *ildr54 ,b 4 4 4 b !y caus$ impati5ce )9 me4 ,!n gett+ hopelessly mix$ up betwe5 self-condemnation & self-ju/ification1 %e gave x up1 add+1 h[ev]1 ,next "t we play toge!r1 give !m m grace to play pati5tly ) me1 :i* 0 s f> satisfactory1 z at fir/ %e _h sc\t$ ! idea t !re c\ld be any ne$ ( pati5ce on ! o!r side4 ,sometimes %e br+s me p]plexities n new to mo/ ( u4 ,?is morn+ ,i pray$ ) great desire1 ',"l1 keep me to-day f be+ naughty at all1' & ,i 0 naughty an h\r aft]w>ds2 ,i look$ at ! clock & saw4 ,h[ 0 x ,i 0 naughty :5 ,i want$ to be good8 ,! naught9ess jump$ up inside me1 s--7illu/rat+ its suppos$ action )971 & x came runn+ out4 ,s :at is ! use ( pray+8 ,once ! difficulty 0 r opposite4 ,c y be good )\t ,god's grace8 ,i told h] ,i c]ta9ly c\ld n4 ,well1 ,i c6 %e answ]$ delight$ly4 ,i want to pray n[4 ,n[8 ,x is eight o'clock n[4 ,hav5't y _h pray] long ago8 7,we all get up at six o'clock47 ,no4 ,t's j :at ,i meant4 ,i skipp$ my pray] ?is morn+1 & s ( c\rse ,i got no grace2 b ,i h be5 help+ ! eld] ,si/]s4 ,wasn't t "r8 ,yes1 q "r4 ,& yet ,i hadn't got any grace6 ,b ,i suppose1 %e add$ reflectively1 x 0 ! grace ov] f ye/]day t did x4 ,z a rule %e is n di/+ui%$ = v deep p5it5ce1 b at "o "t %e _h :at %e call$ a true s5se ( s9 :i* fluctuat$ r1 b 0 always hail$1 :5 x appe>$ 9 =ce1 z a sign ( bett] ?+s4 ,aft] a day ( mix$ goodness & badness ! ,elf pray$ mo/ dev\tly1 ,i ?ank ,!e = giv+ me a s5se ( s9 to-day4 ,o ,god1 keep me f be+ at all naughty to-morr[4 ,b if ,i am naughty1 ,"l1 give me a true s5se ( s96 ,illu/ration3 ,we value ?is photo exce$+ly1 x 0 s h>d to get4 ,we 7 9 a big hea!n village :5 we saw ?is ,ugly ,duckl+1 9 fact %e 0 "o ( ! mo/ tiresome ( ! rabbits m5tion$ 9 ,*apt] ,i4 ,%e saw u1 & d>t$ (f & climb$ a wall & made faces at u 9 a truly delightful mann]4 ,we ?\ght we w\ld take h]1 & tri$4 ,z well try to pick up quicksilv]2 %e w\ld n be caught4 ,! de$ 0 f9ally done :5 %e _h n ! lea/ idea ( x1 & ! cam]a gave a triumphant click z x snapp$ h] unaw>es4 ,:at d !y want h] =8 inquir$ a gr[n-up by/&]1 :o _h obs]v$ our little game4 ,look at h] hair1 said ano!r1 !y nev] saw hair l t 9 ,engl&1 t's :at !y want h] =6 ,pr(essor ,drummond speaks ( our :ole life z a long-drawn brea? ( my/]y1 betwe5 ! two great wond]s--! fir/ awak5+ & ! la/ sleep4 ,i (t5 ?9k ( t z ,i li/5 to ! little *ildr5 talk+ to ea* o!r & to u4 ,!y are always wond]+ ab\t some?+4 ,"o day x 01 ,d fi%es love ,jesus8 foll[$ by ,:at is a s\l8 ,! conclusion 01 ,x's ! ?+ we love ,jesus )4 ,:5 !y fir/ come to u !y inv>iably ?9k t m\nta9s gr[ l trees3 ,/ones are "y m\nta9s1 ar5't !y8 & hills are middle-ag$ m\nta9s4 ,lat] on1 e pr9t$ ?+ on a wall is a text4 ,we 7 9 a railway /ation1 on our way to ! hills3 ,look6 oh1 :at numb]s & numb]s ( texts6 ,b :at que] pictures to h on texts6 ,"o 0 specially p]plex+2 x 0 a well-kn[n adv]tisem5t1 & ! picture %[$ a monkey smok+ a cig>4 ,:at c\ld t deprav$ animal h to d ) a text8 ,:5 we got to ! hills ! fir/ amazem5t 0 ! sight ( ! fa%ionable ladies we>+ veils4 ,don't !y l to look at ,god's beautiful _w8 ,d !y l x bett] spotty8 ,tangles has ano!r "n2 x is ! ,ugly ,duckl+1 & x is extremely descriptive2 b ,ugly ,duckl+ or n1 %e is ( an inquir+ turn ( m9d1 & "o ,saturday aft]noon1 aft] /&+ "u a tree = fully five m9utes lo/ 9 ?\ght1 %e came to me ) a "q3 ,:at are ! birds say+ to ea* o!r8 ,i look$ at ! ,ugly ,duckl+1 & %e twi/$ h]self into a note ( int]rogation1 9 ! ridicul\s way %e has1 b h] face 0 full ( anxiety = enlight5m5t ab\t ! language ( ! sp>r[s4 ,!re1 %e said1 po9t+ vigor\sly to ! a/oni%$ birds1 :i* in/antly flew away1 t little sp>r[ & ?is "o are mak+ q diff]5t noises4 ,:at are !y say+8 ,i d want to "k s mu*6 ,z ,i imag9$ ! birds 9 "q _h j be5 hav+ supp]1 ,i told h] :at ,i ?\ght !y 7 probably say+4 ,next day1 9 ! s]mon1 !re 0 some?+ ab\t ! praise all creation (f]s to ,god1 & ,i saw ,tangles knott+ h] h&s toge!r & go+ into ! que]e/ contortions 9 appreciation ( ! "o bit ( ! s]mon %e c\ld und]/&4 ,! ,imp's que/ions 7 v>i\s4 ,:at is t8--po9t+ to a busy-bee clock--is x an ,engli% k9d ( insect8 ,don't its legs get tir$ go+ r\nd8 ,oh6 is x dead n[8 7:5 x /opp$74 ,:o made ,satan8 0 an e>ly "o4 ,:y doesn't ,god kill him imm$iately1 & /amp on him8 ,"o day ,i 0 try+ to f9d & t\* h] he>t by tell+ h] h[ v sorry ,jesus is :5 we are naughty4 ,%e seem$ subdu$1 !n--,amma1 :]e 0 ! ,que5's _s aft] %e di$ & be=e !y buri$ h]1 & :at did !y give x to eat8 ,did y see ,lot's wife8 0 a "q :i* tickl$ ! ,bi%op :51 on 8 la/ visitation1 he gave himself up to an h\r's cate*is+ ^u 8 t\r 9 ! ,holy ,l&4 ,!y 7 disappo9t$ t he _h to confess he _h n4 ,oh1 ,i suppose ! salt has melt$1 0 ! ,elf's comm5t ^u ?is4 ,tangles is di/9ctly incl9$ to peace4 ,! ,elf1 ,i grieve to say1 is n4 ,ye/]day %e ann\nc$ a qu>rel3 ,i feel cross6 ,tangles object$ to qu>rel4 ,i d feel cross6 & ! ,elf app>5tly %[$ corroborative symptoms4 ,!n ,tangles look$ at h] /raight3 ,i'm n go+ to qu>rel4 ,! devil has arriv$ 9 ! middle ( ! aft]noon to int]rupt our unity1 & ,i won't let him6 :i* s t\*$ ! ,elf t %e embrac$ h] on ! spot2 & !n1 9 detail+ x all 9 h] pray] 9 ! ev5+1 ?is incorrigible little s9n] add$1 ) real emotion1 ,"l1 ,i am n good4 ,i spoil$ unity ) ,l4 7! ,imp71 & ,?\ did/ feel oblig$ to remove h] to a bo>d+-s*ool4 ,n[ d help me n to spoil unity ) ,p4 7:o is ,tangles71 le/ ,?\ %\ld/ feel oblig$ to remove h] also to a bo>d+-s*ool1--a view ( ! ,imp's promotion :i* _h n /ruck me be=e4 ,tangles & %e belong to ! same ,ca/e1 & ,tangles has ! "* ( t ,ca/e z fully develop$ z ! ,elf1 & c hold h] own effectually4 ,also %e is a little old] & tall]1 & be+ ! ,elf's eld] si/]1 is1 !re=e1 entitl$ to a c]ta9 measure ( respect4 ,all ^? small ?+s t5d to ! discipl9e ( ! ,elf1 :o is v small = h] age1 & :o w\ld h pref]r$ a junior1 ( a meek & mild disposition1 & ^: con/ant pray] is ?is3 ,o ,"l1 br+ ano!r little girl out ( ! lion's m\?1 b1 ,o ,"l1 please let h] be a v little girl6 ,%ortly aft] ?is pray] began1 a v little girl 0 br\ght2 b %e 0 a vulg> infant1 & greatly tri$ ! ,elf1 & %e 01 = v>i\s reasons1 promptly return$ to h] p>5ts4 ,aft] ?is episode ! pray] v>i$ some:at3 ,"l1 let h] be a suitable *ild1 & give me grace to love h] f my he>t :5 %e comes4 ,! conv]sation ( ^! "y creatures is (t5 v illum9at+1 & always mo/ miscellane\s4 ,! ,elf's m9d especially is a sort ( small curiosity %op1 & displays _m assortm5ts4 ,! ,elf1 ,tangles1 & little ,delight 7,delight is a y\?ful ,*ri/ian7 are curl$ up on ! w>m r$ s& ) _! ?ree little heads close toge!r4 ,! ,elf is tell+ a /ory4 ,i li/51 & he> a m>vell\s muddle ( ! ,ug&a ,boys & ,cyril ( ,nor? ,africa4 ,he 0 only six ye>s old1 & he /ood up & said1 ',:at y are go+ to d1 d quickly6 ,i am n afraid4 ,i am go+ to ! ,gold5 ,city6' ,& !y %[$ him ! sword & ! fire1 & he said1 ',d x quickly6' & !y *opp$ (f 8 arm1 & said1 ',w y d5y ,jesus8' & he said1 ',no6' & !y *opp$ (f 8 o!r arm1--& s on ?r\gh all ! v>i\s limbs 9 mo/ vivid detail1--& !n !y ?rew him on ! fire1 & burnt him till he 0 a%es2 & he sang praises to ,jesus6 ,! ,elf leans to ! tragic4 ,tangles' "m _h a diff]5ce ( op9ion ) a fri5d4 ,! fri5d snat*$ at h] oppon5t's e> jewels1 & tore ! e>4 ,life ) a torn e> 0 intol]able1 s ,tangles' "m walk$ ?ree times r\nd ! well1 repeat$ ?ree times1 ,my blood be on y\r head6 & sprang 94 ,%e rose ?ree times1 ea* "t said ! same words1 & !n sank4 ,all ?is ,tangles confid$ to ! ,elf1 :o concoct$ a game bas$ ^u ! incid5t--:i*1 h[ev]1 we ru?lessly squa%$4 ,!y are toss+ pebbles n[1 accord+ to rules ( _! own1 & talk+ vigor\sly4 ,! ,ammal told me all ! p 9 ,engl& are :ite1 & ,i ask$ h] :at !y did )\t s]vants1 & %e said !y _h :ite s]vants1 :ite s]vants66 & ! note ( exclamation is int5se4 ,! o!rs are equally a/oni%$4 ,:ite p z s]vants6 ,! two ideas cla%4 ,!y h nev] se5 a :ite s]vant4 ,9 all _! ext5sive acqua9tance ) :ite p !y h only se5 mission>ies 7:o are truly _! s]vants1 ?\gh !y h>dly realise x yet71 & occasionally ,gov]nm5t (ficials1 ^: ma/]%ip is v mu* 9 evid5ce4 ,s !y are puzzl$4 ,!y get out ( ! difficulty1 h[ev]4 ,at ! beg9n+ ( ! beg9n+ ( ,engl&1 black p mu/ h gone to be ! :ite p's s]vants1 & !y gradually grew :ite4 ,yes1 t's x app>5tly2 !y fad$4 ,! conv]sation spr+s high]4 ,d y "k :at lightn+ is8 ,i'll tell y4 ,i wat*$ x "o :ole ev5+1 & ,i ?9k x's j a little bit ( heav5's light com+ ?r\gh & go+ back aga94 ,?is s\nds probable1 & great int]e/ is ar\s$4 ,!y are discuss+ ! %eet lightn+ :i* plays ab\t ! sky 9 ! ev5+ be=e ra94 ,( c\rse x isn't mu* ( heav5's light1 only a little t9y bit gett+ out & runn+ d[n "h to %[ u :at x is l inside4 ,"o night ,i %ut my eyes1 & x ran 9 & out1 9 & out1 oh s fa/6 ,ev5 if ,i %ut my eyes ,i saw x runn+ inside my eyes4 ,did y get can$ 9 s*ool to-day8 ,no1 n exactly can$1 & an explanation foll[s4 ,i 0 /&+ beside a v naughty little girl1 & ! tea*] meant to cane h]1 b ! cane fell on me by mi/ake4 ,i want$ to cry1 because x hurt1 b ,i ?\ght x w\ld be silly to cry :5 x hurt me q by mi/ake4 ,s ,i didn't cry "o te>6 ,! ,elf hit ^u a capital exp$i5t = escap+ ca/igation 7:i* is nev] v sev]e74 ,i f\nd ?is cane myself4 ,x 0 ly+ on ! gr\nd 9 ! comp\nd1 & ,i am go+ to take x to ! tea*]4 ,*orus ( ,:y8 ,because1 & ! ,elf look$ elfi%1 if ,i give x to him ) my own h&s1 h[ w he cane my h&s ) x8 ,8 he>t w n be h>d en\gh to cane me ) ! cane ,i gave him6 & ! little scamp looks r\nd = applause4 ,*orus ( admir+ ,oh6 ,!n !y beg9 aga91 ! ,elf z usual *ief in=mant4 ,i "k some?+6 ,*orus1 ,:at8 ,a beautiful doll is wait+ = me 9 a box1 & ,i'm go+ to h x at ,ki-rismas6 ,:at sort ( a doll8 is ! eag] inquiry4 ,i don't "k exactly1 b ,god s5t x1 ( c\rse1 s ,i ?9k x mu/ be some?+ l an angel4 ,*orus1 delight$ly1 ,ah6 ,yes1 if x came f ,god1 !n ( c\rse x came f heav51 & heav5 is ! place all ! angels come f1 & !y are :ite & %9+1 s ,i ?9k x w be :ite & %9+ l an angel4 ,! doll 9 "q is a negress ) a woolly head & a sc>let-/rip$ p9a=e4 ,x _h n /ruck me z angelic4 ,x is an exp]im5t 9 dolls4 ,w x take8 ,ki-rismas came at la/1 & ! heav5ly doll ) x1 b x did n take4 ,griev\s 7 ! te>s & sobs1 & ! bitt]e/ wail ( all 01 ,i ?\ght ,god w\ld h s5t me a nic] doll6 ,we *ang$ x = a nic] doll1 = ! poor ,elf 0 n wick$1 only brok5-he>t$1 & ,/>1 :o is suppos$ to be mu* too old = dolls1 begg$ = ! despis$ black beauty2 because1 z ! ,elf malici\sly rem>k$ z %e hugg$ h] :ite dolly cont5t$ly1 ,t black ?+ has a curly head1 j l ,/>'s6 ,! habit ( pray+ ab\t ev]y?+ is *>act]i/ic ( ! ,elf1 & m ?an once h] un9/ruct$ little s\l has griev$ ov] ! /range way our pray]s are sometimes answ]$4 ,"o day %e came ru%+ 9 full ( excitem5t4 ,oh1 may ,i g & be exam9$8 ,! ,gov]nm5t ,missie ,ammal is go+ to exam9e our s*ool6 ,please let me g6 ,! ,gov]nm5t ,missie ,ammal1 a great celebrity :o only comes r\nd once a ye>1 0 /ay+ ) u1 & ,i ask$ h] if ! *ild might h ! joy ( be+ exam9$ ev5 ?\gh %e _h n _h ne>ly h] ye> at s*ool4 ,%e agre$1 = ! sake ( ! little "o's delight--= an ,indian *ild likes no?+ bett] ?an a fuss ( any k9d--to let h] come into ! exam9ation room1 & take h] exam9ation in=mally4 ,we knew %e 0 sure ( a pass4 ,an h\r or two aft]w>ds a sc\t came fly+ ov] to tell u ! awful news4 ,! ,elf _h fail$1 utt]ly fail$1 & %e 0 s a%am$ %e w\ldn't come back1 w\ldn't come back any m4 ,i w5t = h]1 & f\nd h] a little heap ( sobs & te>s1 outside ! s*oolroom4 ,i ga!r$ h] up 9 my arms & c>ri$ h] home1 & tri$ to com=t h]1 b %e 0 cru%$4 ,i ask$ ,god s e>ne/ly to let me pass1 & ,i didn't pass6 ,& ,i ?\ght ,he _h li/5$1 b n[ ,i "k ,he didn't li/5 at all6 ,i 0 puzzl$ too1 ?\gh = a diff]5t reason4 ,i knew %e %\ld easily h pass$1 & ,i c\ld only conclude h] wild excitem5t _h made h] n]v\s1 = ) _m te>s %e told me1 ,i did n "k "o answ]6 n ev5 "o6 ,& aga9 %e came back to ! fir/ & sore/1 ,oh1 ,i did ?9k ,god 0 li/5+1 & ,he wasn't li/5+ at all6 ,at la/ ,i got h] quiet$1 & expla9$1 by means ( a rupee & an anna1 h[ sometimes ,god gives u some?+ bett] ?an we ask =2 we ask = an anna1 & ,he gives u a rupee4 ,a rupee holds sixte5 annas4 ,%e grew int]e/$3 ,!n my pass+ t exam9ation 0 ! anna4 ,b :at is ! rupee8 ,n[ ! ,elf1 z y may h obs]v$1 is n weight$ ) ov] mu* humility1 s ,i told h] ,i ?\ght ! rupee mu/ be humility4 ,%e consid]$ a :ile1 !n slid+ (f my knee1 %e knelt d[n & said1 ) ! utmo/ gravity & purpose1 ,o ,god6 ,i did n want t k9d ( answ]1 b ,i d want x n[4 ,give me ! rupee ( humility6 ,!n spr++ up ) eyes danc+ ) mis*ief1 ,next "t ,i fall into pride y w say1 ',oh1 :]e is t rupee8' ,:5 ! s*ool exam9ations 7 ov]1 & ! ,missie ,ammal came back to re/1 ,i ask$ h] ab\t ! ,elf4 ,%e really did v badly1 seem$ to "k no?+ ( h] subjects2 %\ld n h gone 91 poor mite6 ,x sudd5ly /ruck me to ask :at class %e _h gone into4 ,! fir/1 said ! ,missie ,ammal4 ,b %e is 9 ! infants'6 ,!n we und]/ood4 ,! ,elf _h only be5 at s*ool = a few mon?s1 & _h j f9i%$ ! infant /&>d book1 & _h be5 mov$ into ! fir/ a day or two be=e1 z ! tea*] felt %e 0 well able to cle> ! fir/ c\rse 9 ! next six mon?s & take h] exam9ation 9 ! foll[+ ye>1 two ye>s' "w 9 "o4 ,b x 0 n int5d$ %e %\ld g 9 = ! ,gov]nm5t exam9ation1 :i* requires a c]ta9 "t to be sp5t 9 prep>ation2 s :51 9 ! confusion ( ! arrangem5t ( ! classes1 %e /ood ) h] little class-fell[s ( two days only1 ! mi/ake 0 n notic$4 ,no wond] ! poor ,elf fail$6 ,we nev] told h] ! reason1 n desir+ to raise fre% que/ions ^u ! my/]i\s ways ( ,provid5ce 9 h] busy little bra92 & to ?is day1 :5 %e is betray$ into pride1 %e %akes h] head solemnly at h]self1 & rememb]s ! rupee4 ,%e has lately be5 /ay+ ) ! ,missie ,ammals1 my v p>ticul> fri5ds1 z %e calls !m1 at ! ,c4,e4,z4 ,h\se1 9 ,palamcottah4 ,%e return$ to u full ( matt]1 & *>g$ ) a new idea4 ,i am no m go+ to sp5d my pocket money ^u vanities4 ,i am go+ to save x all up1 & buy a ,gee-lit ,bible4 ,?is gilt-edg$ treasure is a fruitful s\rce ( conv]sation4 ,x w take ab\t six ye>s at ! rate ( "o f>?+ a week to save en\gh to buy exactly ! k9d %e desires4 ,i don't want a common ,bible4 ,x mu/ be gee-lit1 ) %9+ gee-lit all d[n ! leaves on ! outside1 & ! "n on ! back all gee-lit too4 ,t's ! k9d ( ,bible ,i want6 ,j z ,i wrote t1 %e trott$ 9 & p\r$ ?ree half-annas 9 small *ange ^u ! table4 ,t's all ,i've got1 & x's six weeks' sav+s4 ,six ye>s is a long1 long "t6 ,%e confid$ to me t %e f\nd ! fle% want$ to p]suade h] to sp5d ^! ?ree half-annas on cakes4 ,x is ! fle%1 isn't x1 t feel+ y get inside1 t says 'sweets & cakes6 sweets & cakes6' 9 a v l\d voice8 ,i li/5$ to x = a little1 & !n ,i want$ ^? sweets & cakes6 ,s ,i said to myself1 ,if ,i buy !m !y w all be gone 9 an h\r1 b if ,i buy t ,gee-lit ,bible x w la/ = ye>s & ye>s4 ,s ,i w\ld n li/5 any m to my fle%4 ,!n a sudd5 ?\ght /ruck h]1 & %e add$ impressively1 ,b :5 y give me sweets & cakes1 t is diff]5t2 ! feel+ t likes !m is n 'fle%' !n4 ,x is only 'fle%' :5 ,i'm tempt$ to sp5d my ,gee-lit ,bible money on !m4 ,?is 0 a po9t ,i 0 int5d$ ?or\ghly to und]/&4 ,sweets & cakes 7 n to be confus$ ) fle% except :]e a ,gee-lit ,bible 0 conc]n$4 ,%e seem$ reliev$ :5 ,i agre$ ) h] t su* ?+s might p]haps sometimes be innoc5tly enjoy$1 & ) a sudd5 & r />tl+ *ange ( subject inquir$1 ,d !y nev] h holidays 9 hell8 ,,*apt] ,,xxi ,deifi$ ,devilry ,next to ! sacrific]s1 !y 7! temple wom57 are ! mo/ important p]sons ab\t ! temple4 ,t a temple int5d$ z a place ( wor%ip1 & att5d$ by hundr$s ( simple-he>t$ m5 & wom51 %\ld be s pollut$1 & t 9 ! "n ( religion1 is almo/ beyond belief2 & t ,indian boys %\ld gr[ up to manhood1 accu/om$ to see immorality %ield$ 9 ^! temples ) a div9e cloak1 makes our he>ts gr[ sick & fa9t4 ,mrs4 ,full]1 ,india4 ,,excuse ! title ( ?is *apt]4 ,i c write no o!r4 ,sometimes ! broad smoo? levels ( life are cross$ by a black-edg$ jagg$ crack1 r5t1 z x seems1 by an outbur/ ( ! fi]y =ce bel[4 ,we f9d ourselves sudd5ly close ^u x2 x op5s "r at our v feet4 ,two girls came to see u to-day2 si/]s1 b tun$ to diff]5t keys4 ,"o 0 ord9>y en\gh1 a bright girl ) pl5ty ( jewels & a m]ry1 cont5t$ face4 ,! o!r 0 f9] gra9$2 y look$ at h] z y w\ld look at ! cov]s ( a book1 wond]+ :at 0 inside4 ,bo? 7 m>ri$2 nei!r _h *ildr54 ,?is 0 ! only sorr[ ! y\ng] _h ev] _h1 & x did n seem to weigh heavily4 ,! eld] look$ z if %e _h =gott5 h[ to smile4 ,sometimes1 :5 ! o!r laugh$1 h] eyes w\ld light = a mom5t1 b ! %ad[ 9 !m deep5$ almo/ be=e ! light _h come2 great s(t br[n eyes1 full ( ! dumb look t animals h :5 !y are suff]+4 ,i knew h] /ory1 & und]/ood4 ,%e 0 betro!d z a baby ( f\r to a lad consid]ably old]2 a lovable boy1 !y say he 01 g5]\s & frank4 ,! two ( c\rse belong$ to ! same ,ca/e1 ! ,vellal>1 & 7 ?or\ghly well br\ght up4 ,9 ,s\? ,india no c]emony ( importance is consid]$ complete )\t ! pres5ce ( ! ,s]vants ( ! gods4 ,^! are girls & wom5 belong+ to ! temple 7t is1 belong+ to ! prie/s ( ! temple71 :o1 z !y are nev] m>ri$1 except to ! god :o nev] dies1 c nev] become wid[s4 ,h5ce ! auspici\sness ( _! pres5ce at betro?als1 m>riages1 fea/s ( all sorts1 & ev5 fun]als4 ,b ?is set ( ,vellal>s _h z a clan ris5 above ! popul> sup]/ition1 & ! demoralis+ pres5ce ( ^! wom5 0 n all[$ to pr(ane ei!r ! betro?al or m>riage ( any *ild ( ! family4 ,s ! boy & girl grew up z unsulli$ z ,h9dus ev] are4 ,!y knew ( :at happ5$ 9 o!r homes1 b _! clan 0 a l>ge "o1 & !y f\nd _! society 9 x1 & did n come across o!rs mu*4 ,%ortly be=e 8 m>riage ! boy w5t to wor%ip 9 ! great temple ne> ! sea4 ,he _h he>d ( its sanctity all 8 life1 & z a little lad _h (t5 gone ) 8 p>5ts on pilgrimage !re1 b n[ he w5t to wor%ip4 ,he took 8 (f]+ & w5t4 ,he w5t aga9 & aga94 ,all t he saw !re 0 religion1 all t he did 0 religi\s4 ,c\ld !re be h>m 9 x8 ,he 0 m>ri$2 8 little bride w5t ) him tru/fully4 ,%e knew m ( him ?an mo/ ,indian brides "k ( _! husb&s4 ,%e _h he>d he 0 lov+1 & %e ?\ght he w\ld be k9d to h]4 ,a ye> or two pass$1 & ! *ild's face _h a look 9 x :i* ev5 ! c>eless saw1 b %e nev] spoke ab\t any?+ to give !m ! clue to x4 ,%e w5t to /ay 9 h] fa!r's h\se = a few weeks1 & !y saw ! *ange1 b %e w\ld n speak ev5 to !m4 ,!n ?+s got worse4 ,! girl grew ?91 & ! neighb\rs talk$1 & ! fa!r he>d & und]/ood2 &1 to save a sc&al1 he took !m away f ! t[n :]e !y liv$1 & made e ef=t to give !m ano!r />t 9 a place :]e !y 7 n kn[n4 ,b ! coils ( t snake ( deifi$ s9 _h twi/$ r\nd ! boy1 body & s\l2 he c\ld n escape f x4 ,!y mov$ aga9 to ano!r t[n2 x foll[$ him !re1 = a temple 0 !re1 & a temple means t4 ,!n ! devil ( cruelty seiz$ ^u him2 he w\ld dr9k1 a disgraceful ?+ 9 8 ,ca/e1 & !n hold 8 little wife d[n on ! floor1 & /uff a bit ( clo? into h] m\?1 & beat h]1 & kick h]1 & trample ^u h]1 & te> ! jewels out ( h] e>s4 ,! neighb\rs saw x1 & told4 ,!n he refus$ to br+ money to h]1 & %e sl[ly />v$1 q sil5t /ill1 till at la/ hung] broke d[n h] resolute w1 & %e begg$ ! neighb\rs = rice4 ,& he did m1 b x _c be told4 ,h[ (t5 "o /ops 9 writ+ home-lett]s4 ,! :ole tru? c nev] be told4 ,%e is only a girl yet1 9 ye>s at lea/2 9 suff]+1 oh1 h[ old %e is6 ,n half is kn[n1 = %e nev] speaks2 loyal & true to him ?r\gh x all4 ,we only "k :at ! neighb\rs "k1 & :at h] sil5t d>k eyes tell1 & ! little ?9 face & h&s4 ,%e 0 v we>y & ill to-day1 b %e w\ld n own x1 brave little s\l6 ,i c\ld see t neuralgia 0 rack+ h] head1 & e limb trembl$ :5 %e /ood up2 b :at made x s pa!tic to me 0 ! sil5ce ) :i* %e bore x all4 ,i h only se5 h] once be=e1 & n[ %e is go+ f> away ) h] husb& to ano!r t[n1 & ,i may n see h] aga94 ,%e 0 too tir$ to li/5 mu*1 & %e kn[s s little1 n ne>ly en\gh to re/ h] s\l ^u4 ,%e _c read1 s x is useless to write to h]4 ,%e is go+ away q out ( our rea*2 ?ank ,god1 n out ( ,84 ,we wat*$ !m drive (f 9 ! bullock c>t1 a s]vant walk+ beh9d4 ,! little pale face ( ! eld] girl look$ out at ! op5 end ( ! c>t2 %e salaam$ z !y drove away4 ,su* a sweet face 9 its sil5t /r5g?1 s wondr\sly g5tle1 yet s /rong1 /rong to endure4 ,d y wond] ,i call ?is sort ( ?+ a look deep d[n into hell8 ,d y wond] we burn z we ?9k ( su* ?+s go+ on 9 ! ,"n ( ,god8 ,= !y ?9k ( _! god z ,god4 ,9 ,8 ,"n ! temples are built & end[$1 & provid$ ) ,s]vants to d devil's "w4 ,yes1 s9 is deifi$ "h4 ,& ! %ame ( %ames is t "s ,engli%m5 patronise & 9 measure support ! iniquity4 ,!y att5d ent]ta9m5ts at :i* ^! girls are pres5t to s+ & dance1 & see no?+ disgraceful 9 s do+4 ,z lately z #ahic1 :5 ! ,indian ,social ,re=m]s ( ?is ,presid5cy petition$ two notable ,engli%m5 to disc\nt5ance ?is p]nici\s practice 7! in/itution ( ,slaves ( ! gods7 by decl9+ to att5d any ent]ta9m5t at :i* !y are invit$ to be pres5t1 ^! two di/+ui%$ m51 repres5tatives ( our ,que51 refus$ to take action 9 ! matt]4 ,surely ?is is a /range misuse ( our position z rul]s ( ,india4#b 99 99 99 99 99 ,!re are s _m ne$s ev]y:]e t ,i h>dly l to speak ( our own1 b we d ne$ someone to "w among ^! temple wom5 & girls4 ,!re is practically no?+ be+ done = !m2 because x is impossible = any ( u to "w among !m & o!rs at ! same "t4 ,! ne>e/ ,home to :i* we c\ld s5d su* a "o is f\r hundr$ miles away4 ,someone is ne$$1 old en\gh to h _h exp]i5ce ( ?is k9d ( "w1 & yet "y en\gh to le>n ! language4 ,_m ( ^! ,slaves ( ! gods 7 b\ght1 or 9 "s o!r way obta9$1 :5 !y 7 little innoc5t girls1 & !y _c be held responsible = ! t]rible life to :i* !y are doom$ by ! law ( ! ,h9du religion4 ,_m ( !m h h>d5$ pa/ any desire to be o!r ?an !y are2 b sometimes we see ! face ( a girl :o looks z if %e might h desire1 if only %e _h a *ance to "k !re is some?+ bett] = h]4 ,c x be t1 out ( ! _m at home1 ,god has "o1 or bett]1 two1 :o c come ) ,him to ?is ,s\? ,indian ,di/rict to d :at mu/ always be awful "w1 along ! c\rse ( t crack8 ,if %e comes1 or if !y come1 let !m come 9 ! p[] ( ! ,holy ,gho/1 baptis$ ) ! love t endures6 ,?is1 !n1 is "o look into ,h9duism1 ?is gha/ly :it5$ sepul*re1 )9 :i* are dead m5's bones4 ,,footnote3 #b ,= details1 see ,! ,wrongs ( ,indian ,womanhood1 by ,mrs4 ,full]4 ,,*apt] ,,xxii ,beh9d ! ,door ,:5 any p]son is kn[n to be consid]+ ! new ,religion1 all 8 relations & acqua9tances rise en masse2 s t to get a new conv]t is l pull+ out ! eye-too? ( a live tig]4 ,adoniram ,judson1 ,burmah4 ,,e mission>y :o has despair$ ( hitt+ ^u an illu/ration vivid en\gh to %[ y :at ! "w is really l among ,mohamm$ans & ,ca/e ,h9dus w appreciate ?is simile4 ,aft] our return f ,dohnavur we f\nd t ! long-clos$ villages ( ?is ea/]n c\ntryside _h op5$ aga91 & ! p 7 will+ to all[ u to tea* ! girls & wom54 ,= two mon?s ?is la/$1 & !n ?ree boys1 belong+ to ?ree diff]5t ,ca/es1 became kn[n z inquir]s4 ,in/antly ! news spread ?r\gh all ! villages4 ,x 0 9 va9 we told !m we 7wom5-work]s7 _h nev] once ev5 se5 ! boys1 _h 9 no way influ5c$ !m2 ! p held to x t1 p]sonally responsible or n1 ! book we taught to ! girls 0 ! same ^? boys _h read 7an und5iable fact72 t its poison ent]$ ?r\gh ! eyes1 asc5d$ to ! bra91 desc5d$ to ! he>t1 & !n drew ! read] out ( 8 ,ca/e & 8 religion2 & t !re=e we c\ld n be tol]at$ 9 ! /reets or 9 ! h\ses any m1 & s we 7 turn$ out4 ,illu/ration3 ,x took me su* a long "t to le>n to draw nicely1 said ,victory :5 %e saw ?is photo2 ,i us$ to g to ! ,brahman /reet e morn+ & practise x !re4 ,a design is drawn ) a piece ( *alk on ! gr\nd 9 front ( e h\se ea* morn+ dur+ "p ( ,decemb] & ,janu>y1 9 memory ( a goddess :o us$ to amuse h]self by draw+ ^! patt]ns & plant+ fl[]s 9 !m4 ,all sorts ( geometrical designs are drawn by ! wom5 & *ildr51 & ! regul> morn+ draw+ is "p ( ! day's "w4 ,9 "o village :]e _m ( ! relations ( "o ( ^! ?ree lads live1 ! tig] gr[l$ consid]ably4 ,"o furi\s old dame call$ u ,*ild-snat*]s & ,p[d]-mong]s1 & :ite snakes ( ! cobra species1 & a p>ticul> g5us ( liz>d1 :i* :5 /amp$ ^u m]ely wriggles1 & _c be p]suad$ to die 7?is appli$ to our p]si/5ce 9 evil71 & a great _m o!r ?+s4 ,! wom5 /ood out 9 ! /reet 9 defiant gr\ps & w\ld n let u ne> en\gh to expla94 ,! m5 sat on ! v]&ah fronts & smil$1 bl&ly sup]ior to ! *ildi% nons5se ! wom5 talk$1 b !y did n int]f]e4 ,villages l ?is--& ,old ,india is made up ( su* villages--are f> remov$ f ! influ5ce ( ! few enlight5$ c5tres :i* exi/4 ,madras is only a "n to !m1 di/ant f\r hundr$ miles or s1 a place :]e ,ca/e notions are v lax & p are mix$ up & jumbl$ toge!r 9 a mo/ unbecom+ way4 ,education1 or ,le>n+1 z !y call x1 !y consid] an excell5t ?+ = boys :o want to come to ! front & e>n money & gr[ ri*4 ,b = girls1 :at possible use is x8 ,c !y pass exam9ations & get into ,gov]nm5t employ8 ,if y answ]$ ?is "q y w\ld only disgu/ !m4 ,!n !re is a lat5t feel+ common en\gh 9 ^! old ,ca/e families1 t x is r infra dig4 = _! wom5 to "k too mu*4 ,x may be all v well = ^? :o h no pret5sions to greatness1 !y may ne$ a ladd] by :i* to climb up ! social scale1 b we :o are already at ! top1 :at d we want ) x8 ,h n our daught]s got _! ,ca/e8 ,?is feel+ is pass+ away 9 ! t[ns1 b ! villages hold out long]4 ,9 t p>ticul> village we _h "s de> little girls :o 7 gett+ v ke51 & x 0 s h>d to move out1 & leave ! field to ! devil z undisput$ victor !reon1 & ,i s5t "o ( our work]s to try aga94 ,%e is a plucky little s\l1 b ev5 %e _h to beat a retreat4 ,!y w h none ( u4 ,we w5t on t day to a village :]e !y _h li/5$ spl5didly only a week be=e4 ,!y _h no "t1 x 0 ! busy season4 ,!n to a t[n1 f>!r on1 b x 0 q impracticable4 ,s we w5t to our fri5d ! de> old ,evangeli/ !re1 ! bl9d old man4 ,he & 8 wife are lights 9 t d>k t[n4 ,x is s refre%+ to sp5d half an h\r ) two g5u9e good old ,*ri/ians aft] a tug ( w> ) ! hea!n2 !y h no idea !y are help+ y1 b !y are1 & y return home ev] s mu* ! happi] = ! sight ( !m4 ,z we came home we 7 almo/ mobb$4 ,9 ! old days mobs !re 7 ( common occurr5ce4 ,x is a r\gh m>ket t[n1 & ! p1 aft] ! fir/ conv]ts came1 us$ to hoot u ?r\gh ! /reets1 & ?r[ h&fuls ( s& at u1 & %[] a%es on our hair4 ,9 !ory ,i l ?is v mu*1 b 9 practice n at all4 ,! yell+s ( ! cr[d1 m5 *iefly1 are n polite2 ! yelp+s ( ! dogs1 set on by sympa!tic spectators2 ! sick5+ blaze ( ! sun & ! reflect$ gl>e f ! h\ses2 ! bl9d+ du/ 9 y\r eyes1 & ! que] feel ( a%es d[n y\r neck2 above all1 ! s5se t ?is sort ( ?+ does no mann] ( good--= x is n p]secution 7no?+ s h]oic71 & x w n end 9 m>tyrdom 7no su* hon\rs come our way7--all ?is r[1 & all ^! feel+s1 "o on ! top ( ! o!r1 comb9e to make mobb+ less int]e/+ ?an might be expect$4 ,y hold on1 & look up = pati5ce & good nature & su* l common graces1 & y pray t y may n be d[n ) fev] to-morr[--= fev] has a way ( /opp+ "w--& y get out ( x all1 z quickly z y c1 )\t %[+ undue hurry4 ,& !n1 ?\gh little !y "k x1 y g & get a fre% baptism ( love = !m all4 ,b h[ delight$ "o w\ld be to g ?r\gh su* unromantic trifles e h\r ( e day1 if only at ! end "o c\ld get into ! he>ts & ! homes ( ! p4 ,z x is1 j n[1 our grief is t we _c4 ,we "k ( sev]al :o want u1 & we are %ut out f !m4 ,"o is a "y wife1 :o saw u "o day by ! wat]side1 & ask$ u to come & tea* h]4 ,= do+ ?is %e 0 publicly beat5 t ev5+ 9 ! op5 /reet1 by a man1 be=e m52 s1 = fe> ( :at !y w\ld d to h]1 we d>e n g ne> ! h\se4 ,ano!r is a wid[ :o has sp5t all h] =tune 9 build+ a re/-h\se = ! ,brahmans1 & :o has n f\nd ,re/4 ,%e li/5$ once1 too e>ne/ly2 %e has n be5 all[$ to li/5 aga94 ,oh1 h[ t tig] bites6 ,next door to h] is a *ild we h pray$ = = ?ree ye>s4 ,%e 0 a lov+1 cl++ *ild :5 ,i knew h] !n1 little ,gold1 ) ! e>ne/ eyes4 ,t la/ day ,i saw h]1 %e put h] h&s into m9e1 c>+ no?+ = defilem5t2 ,are we n "o ,ca/e8 %e said4 ,i did n "k x 0 ! la/ "t ,i %\ld see h]2 t ! next "t :5 ,i spoke to h] ,i %\ld only see h] %ad[ 9 ! d>k2 & "o wi%es n[ "o _h kn[n--h[ mu* "o w\ld h said6 ,b ! h\se 0 op5 !n1 & all ! h\ses 74 ,!n ! fir/ girl conv]t1 aft] bravely witness+ at home1 took h] /& z a ,*ri/ian4 ,h] ,ca/e p burn$ d[n ! little ,mission s*ool--a boys' s*ool--& *alk$ up _! s5tim5ts on ! *>r$ walls4 ,!y burn$ d[n ! ,bible-woman's h\se & a s*ool sixte5 miles away2 & ! c\ntryside clos$1 e t[n & village 9 x1 z if ! :ole 7 a s+le door1 ) ! devil on ! o!r side ( x4 ,b "s ( ! girls beh9d ! door manag$ to s5d u messages4 ,gold 0 "o ( ^!4 ,%e want$ s mu* to see u aga91 %e begg$ u to come & try4 ,we tri$2 we met ! "m outside1 & ask$ h] to let u come4 ,%e is a h>d old woman1 ) eyes l bits ( black ice1 set deep 9 h] head4 ,%e froze u1 & refus$4 ,aft]w>ds we he>d :at ! *ild's puni%m5t 04 ,!y took h] d[n to ! wat]1 & l$ h] 94 ,%e /ood trembl+1 wai/ deep1 n kn[+ :at !y meant to d4 ,!n !y held h] head "u ! wat] till %e made "s sign to %[ %e w\ld give 94 ,!y releas$ h] !n1 rubb$ a%es on h] br[1 sign ( recantation1 & !y l$ h] back sobb+--poor little girl4 ,%e is n made ( m>tyr /uff2 %e 0 only mis]able4 ,= "s mon?s we saw no?+ ( h]4 ,we us$ to g to ! next h\se & p]suade ! p to let u s+ to !m4 ,we sang = ,gold2 b we nev] knew if %e he>d4 ,"o ev5+1 z two ( u came home late f "w1 a woman pass$ u & said hurri$ly to me1 ,come1 come quickly1 & alone4 ,x is ,gold :o calls y6 ,come6 ,i foll[$ h] to ! h\se4 ,i am ,gold's m>ri$ si/]1 %e expla9$4 ,sit d[n outside 9 ! v]&ah ne> ! door & wait till ! *ild comes out4 ,!n %e w5t 91 & ,i sat /ill & wait$4 ,^? m9utes 7 l he>t-beats4 ,:at 0 happ5+ inside8 ,b app>5tly ! "m 0 away1 = soon ! door op5$ s(tly1 & a %ad[ flitt$ out1 & ,i knew x mu/ be ,gold4 ,%e dropp$ on h] knees on ! little n>r[ v]&ah on ! o!r side ( ! door & crept along to its f>!r end1 & !n ,i c\ld only di/+ui% a d>k %ape 9 ! d>k4 ,= p]haps five m9utes no "o came except ! si/]1 :o /ood at ! door & wat*$4 ,& = ^? five m9utes "o 0 free to speak z freely z "o c\ld speak to a %ape :i* "o c\ld b>ely see1 & :i* %[$ no sign1 & spoke no ^w4 ,five :ole m9utes6 ,h[ "o valu$ e mom5t ( !m6 ,!n a man came & sat d[n on ! v]&ah4 ,he mu/ h be5 a relative1 = he did n mean to g4 ,i wi%$ he w\ld4 ,x 0 impossible to talk pa/ him to h]1 )\t lett+ him "k %e 0 !re2 s "o _h to talk to him1 b = h]1 & ev5 ?is c\ld n la/ long4 ,dusk "h soon is d>k2 we _h to g4 ,z we w5t1 we look$ back & saw him /ill keep+ 8 unconsci\s gu>d ov] ! *ild 9 h] hid+-place4 ,!re are no secrets 9 ,india4 ,x 0 kn[n t we _h be5 !re1 & t /]n old "m puni%$ h] *ild2 b h[1 we nev] knew4 ,if any blame u = go+ at all1 let x be rememb]$ t "o ( ,*ri/'s little ones 0 ?ir/y1 & %e held out h] h& = a cup ( cold wat]4 ,we c\ld n h left t h& empty1 ,i ?9k4 ,aft] t we he>d no?+ = a ye>2 !n an old man :om we _h help$1 & :o hop$ we int5d$ to help him m1 came "o ev5+ to tell u he meant to set ,gold free4 ,x 0 all to be secretly done1 & x 0 to be done t night4 ,we told him we c\ld h no?+ to d ) 8 plan1 & we expla9$ to him :y4 ,b1 he object$1 :at folly is ?is8 ,i ?\ght y ,*ri/ians help$ poor girls1 & ?is "o c]ta9ly wants to come4 ,%e is ( age4 ,?is is ! "t4 ,if y wait y w nev] get h] at all4 ,we knew ?is 0 m ?an probable2 to refuse 8 help 0 l turn+ ! key & lock+ h] body & s\l into prison--an awful ?\ght to me1 z ,i rememb]$ ,treasure4 ,b !re 0 no?+ else to be done2 & aft]w>ds1 :5 we he>d :o he 01 & :at 8 real int5tions 71 we 7 ?ankful we _h done x4 ,he look$ at u curi\sly z he w5t1 z if our view ( ?+s /ruck him z /range2 & he begg$ u nev] to brea! a ^w ( :at he _h said4 ,we nev] did1 b x someh[ ooz$ out1 & soon aft] t he sick5$ & v sudd5ly di$4 ,8 body 0 burnt )9 two h\rs4 ,po/-mortems are r>e 9 ,india4 ,ano!r ye> pass$ 9 sil5ce z to ,gold4 ,h[ (t5 we w5t d[n ! /reet & look$ across at h] home1 ) its door almo/ always %ut1 & t icy-ey$ "m on gu>d4 ,we us$ to see h] go+ ab\t1 nev] f> f ! h\se4 ,:5 we saw h] we salaam$2 !n %e w\ld gl>e at u grimly1 & turn h] back on u4 ,once ! :ole family w5t to a fe/ival2 b ! girl ( c\rse 0 bundl$ 9 & out ( a cov]$ c>t1 & se5 by no "o1 n ev5 ! next-door neighb\rs4 ,!re 0 talk ( a m>riage = h]4 ,mo/ girls ( h] ,ca/e are m>ri$ mu* y\ng]2 b to our relief ?is fell ?r\gh1 & once "o ( u saw h] = a mom5t1 & %e /ill seem$ to c>e to he>1 ?\gh %e 0 f> too c[$ by ?is "t to %[ x4 ,!n we he>d a rum\r t a girl f ! ,lake ,village _h be5 se5 by "s ( our ,*ri/ians 9 a wood ne> a village five miles di/ant4 ,^! ,*ri/ians are v out-&-out & ke5 ab\t conv]ts1 & !y manag$ to discov] t ! girl 9 ! wood _h "s ?\ght ( be+ a ,*ri/ian1 & t h] be+ !re _h "s connection ) ?is1 s !y told u at once4 ,! description fitt$ ,gold4 ,b we c\ld n acc\nt = a girl ( h] ,ca/e be+ se5 9 a wood2 %e 0 always kept 9 seclusion4 ,at la/ we f\nd out ! tru?4 ,%e _h %[n "s sign ( a l+]+ love = ,*ri/1 & h] "m _h tak5 h] to a fam\s ,brahman ascetic :o liv$ 9 t wood2 & !re toge!r1 "m & daught] /ay$ 9 a hut ne> ! h]mit's hut1 & = ?ree days he _h devot$ himself to confuse & conf\nd h]1 & f9ally he succe$$1 & report$ h] conv9c$4 ,illu/ration3 ,?is is ! tangible brass-boss$ door outside ( :i* we s (t5 /& on ! /one /ep & knock1 & he> voices f )9 call1 ,ev]yone is out4 ,! h&-m>ks are ! h&-pr9ts ( ! ,p[] t keeps ! door %ut4 ,once a ye>1 e door & ! l9tel ( e w9d[1 & sometimes ! walls1 are m>k$ l ?is4 ,t ev5+1 j be=e d>k1 ! god comes r\nd1 !y say1 & looks = 8 m>k on ! door1 &1 see+ x1 blesses all 9 ! h\se4 ,if !re is no m>k he leaves a curse4 ,?is is ! devil's ,s\? ,indian p>ody on ! ,passov]4 ,we he>d all ?is1 & sorr[$1 & wond]$ h[ x 0 done4 ,we nev] he>d all1 b we he>d "o delusion !y practis$ ^u h]1 appeal+ z !y s (t5 d to ! ,ori5tal imag9ation1 :i* f9ds su* solid satisfaction 9 ! sup]natural4 ,no?+ is s conv9c+ z a vision or a dream2 s a vision appe>$ be=e h]1 an inc>nation1 !y told h]1 ( ,siva1 9 ! =m ( ,*ri/4 ,siva & ,*ri/1 !n1 7 "o1 z !y _h s (t5 assur$ h]1 "o id5tity "u two names4 ,h9duism is cramm$ ) inc>nations2 ?is pres5t$ no difficulty4 ,l ! old monk1 ! bewild]$ *ild look$ = ! pr9t ( ! nails & ! spe>4 ,yes1 !y 7 !re1 m>k$ 9 h&s & foot & side4 ,x mu/ be h>d to di/ru/ "o's own "m4 ,gold /ill tru/$ h]s4 ,li/56 said ! "m1 & ! vision spoke4 ,if ! spee* ( ! ,*ri/ians is true1 ,i w return )9 tw5ty-f\r days2 if ! spee* ( ! ,h9dus is true1 ,i w n return4 ,!n h\r by h\r = ^? tw5ty-f\r days !y wove _! webs ab\t h]1 webs ( wond]ful sophi/ry :i* h entangl$ ke5] bra9s ?an h]s4 ,%e 0 entangl$4 ,! tw5ty-f\r days did _! "w4 ,%e yield$ h] w on ! tw5ty-fif?4 ,s ! "m & ! ,brahman won4 ,^! lett]s are writt51 z y "k1 ) a def9ite purpose4 ,we try to %[ y :at goes on beh9d ! door1 ! v door ( ! photograph1 type ( all ! doors1 t see+ beh9d y may und]/& h[ fi]cely ! tig] bites4 ,,*apt] ,,xxiii ,pan1 ,pan is ,dead ,if !re is "o ?+ t refre%es my s\l above all o!rs1 x is t ,i %all behold ! ,r$eem] glori\sly triumphant at ! w9d+ up ( all ?+s4 ,h5ry ,m>tyn1 ,n4 ,india4 ,,p>tly f\nd$ ^u a well-kn[n tradition1 m5tion$ by ,plut>*1 accord+ to :i*1 at ! h\r ( ! ,savi\r's ,agony1 a cry (1 ',great ,pan is dead1' swept across ! waves 9 ! he>+ ( c]ta9 m>9]s1 & ! oracles ceas$4 ,s reads ! head-note to "o ( ,elizabe? ,b>rett ,br[n+'s poems4 ,we look up a classical diction>y1 & f9d ! leg5d !re4 ,?is 0 readily believ$ by ! ,emp]or1 & ! a/rolog]s 7 consult$1 b !y 7 unable to expla9 ! mean+ ( s sup]natural a voice4 ,pan1 & ) him all ! false gods ( ! old _w1 die 9 ! day ( ! dea? ( our ,savi\r1--?is accord+ to ! poem-- ,gods1 we va9ly d adjure y1-- ,ye return nor voice nor sign6 ,n a vot>y c\ld secure y ,ev5 a grave = y\r ,div9e2 ,n a grave1 to %[ !reby1 ,"h ^! grey old gods d lie4 ,pan1 ,pan is dead4 ,& yet--is he dead8 q dead8 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 ,night1 moonless & hot4 ,our camp is pit*$ on ! we/ bank ( ! riv]2 we are asleep4 ,sudd5ly !re is :at s\nds l an explosion j outside4 ,!n ano!r & ano!r1--su* a bur/+ bang1--!n a s-s-swi%1 & ,i am out ( b$1 /&+ out on ! s&2 & = a mom5t ,i am sure ! kit*5 t5t is on fire4 ,!n x dawns on me1 9 ! sl[ way ?+s dawn 9 ! middle ( ! night3 x is only fireworks be+ let (f by ! fe/ival p--only fireworks6 ,b ,i /& & look1 & 9 ! d>kness ev]y?+ seems mu* bigg] ?an x is & mu* m awful4 ,!re is ! gleam+ ( wat]1 lit by ! fires ( ! cr[d on ! ea/]n bank ( ! riv]4 ,!re are tor*es wav+ unc]ta9ly 9 & out ( ! va/ black mass--black ev5 9 ! black ( night--:]e ! p are4 ,!re is ! sudd5 bur/ & s-s-swi% ( ! rockets z !y ru% up into ! night1 & fall 9 %[]s ( col\rs on ! black mass & ! wat]2 & !re is ! ho>se ro> ( _m voices1 m+l$ ) ! bleat ( _m goats4 ,i /& & look1 & "k :at is go+ on4 ,!y are kill+ ^? goats--?irty ?\s& ( !m--kill+ !m n[4 ,is ,pan dead8 4 4 4 ,morn+1 blaz+ sun1 rel5tless sun1 %[+ up all t is go+ on4 ,we are cross+ ! riv]-b$ 9 our c>t4 ,don't look6 says my comrade1 & ,i look ! o!r way4 ,!n we sep>ate4 ,%e goes among ! cr[ds 9 ! riv] b$1 :]e ! sun is hotte/ & ! air mo/ pollut$ & ! sc5es on e side mo/ sick5+1 & ,i g up ! bank among ! p4 ,we h ea* a ,tamil ,si/] ) u1 & f>!r d[n ! /ream ano!r little gr\p ( ?ree is at "w4 ,9 all sev51 to t5s ( ?\s&s4 ,b we hope m w come lat] on4 ,we h arrang$ to meet at ! c>t at ab\t t5 o'clock4 ,! b&y-man is direct$ to "w 8 way up to a big banyan tree ne> ! temple4 ,he /ruggles up ?r\gh a tangle ( c>ts1 & f9ds a slant+ /&+-gr\nd on ! edge ( ! %ade ( ! tree4 ,all ! way up ! bank !y are kill+ & sk9n+ _! goats4 ,y look to ! "r1 & put y\r h&s ov] y\r eyes4 ,y look to ! left1 & d x aga94 ,y look /raight 9 front1 & see an ext5d$ sk9n$ victim hung f ! bran* ( a tree4 ,e hang+ rootlet ( ! great banyan tree is hung ) horrors--all dead1 mo/ m]cifully1 b horrible /ill4 ,we _h ?\ght ! kill+ ov]1 or we %\ld h>dly h v5tur$ to come2 b ^! :o are busy are late arrivals4 ,"o tells oneself ov] & ov] aga9 t a headless creature _c possibly feel1 b x looks z if x felt 4 4 4 x goes on mov+4 ,we look away1 & we g on1 try+ to get out ( x1--b ?irty ?\s& goats6 ,x takes a long "t to get out ( x4 ,we see gr\ps ( little *ildr5 wat*+ ! process delight$ly4 ,!re is no int5tional cruelty1 = ! god w n accept ! sacrifice unless ! head is sev]$ by a s+le /roke--a great relief to me4 ,b x is mo/ disgu/+ & demoralis+4 ,& to ?9k t ^! *ildr5 are be+ taught to connect x ) religion6 ,) me is "o :o us$ to enjoy x all4 ,%e tells me h[ %e twi/$ ! f[ls' heads (f ) h] own h&s4 ,i look at ! f9e little br[n h&s1 su* lov+ little h&s1 & ,i c h>dly believe x4 ,y--y d su* a ?+6 ,i say4 ,& %e says1 ,yes2 :5 ! day came r\nd to sacrifice to our family div9ity1 my little bro!r held ! goat's head :ile my fa!r /ruck x (f1 & ,i twi/$ ! *ick5s' heads4 ,x 0 my pleasure6 ,we g up along ! bank2 /ill ^? cr[ds1 & ^? goats kill$ or be+ kill$4 ,we _c get away f !m4 ,at la/ we rea* a tree p>tly unoccupi$1 b x is leafless1 alas6 ,on "o side ( x a family p>ty is *e]fully fe$+ beh9d a %elt] ( mats4 ,a little l[] d[n "s ,p>iahs are haggl+ ov] less polite portions ( ! goat's economy4 ,!y wrap up ! /r+y ?+s 9 leaves & tuck !m into a fold ( _! seeleys4 ,at our feet a small boy plays ) ! head4 ,we sit d[n 9 ! b& ( %ade ca/ by ! trunk ( ! tree1 &1 grateful = s mu* %elt]1 invite ! pass]s-by to li/5 :ile we s+4 ,"s li/54 ,an old hag :o is *ap]on+ a bright "y wife draws ! girl t[>ds u1 & sits d[n4 ,%e has nev] he>d a ^w ( our ,doctr9e be=e1 & nei!r has ! girl4 ,!n "s boys come1 full ( mis*ief & fun1 & ?reat5 an upset4 ,s we pick out ! r[die/ ( !m & sugge/ he %\ld keep ord]1 :i* he does ) great alacrity1 sw++ a swit* mo/ vigor\sly at anyone likely to int]f]e ) ! welf>e ( ! meet+4 ,my little companion speaks to !m1 z only "o :o 0 once :]e !y are ev] c4 ,i li/5 to h]1 & long = ! fl[ at h] comm&4 ,d y n d ?is & ?is8 %e says1 nam+ ! v ?+s !y d2 & don't y say s & s8 ,!y />e1 & !n1 ,oh1 %e 0 once "o ( u6 ,:at is h] ,ca/e8 ,:5 did %e come8 ,:]e are h] fa!r & "m8 ,:at is h] village8 ,is %e n m>ri$8 ,:y is %e n8 ,& :]e are h] jewels8 ,above all1 ev]yone asks x at once1 ,:at is h] ,ca/e8 ,& !y guess x1 & probably guess "r4 ,y c h no idea1 unless y h work$ among !m1 h[ difficult x is to get a hea!n woman to li/5 ) full att5tion = t5 consecutive m9utes4 ,!y are easily di/ract$1 & to-day !re are s _m ?+s to di/ract !m1 !y don't li/5 v well4 ,!y are tir$1 too1 !y say2 ! wild1 r\gh night has done its "w4 ,ye/]day x 0 diff]5t2 we got good li/5]s4 ,be+ wom51 & alone 9 su* a cr[d ( idolat]s1 we d n attempt an op5-air meet+1 b j sit quietly :]e we c1 & talk to any we c p]suade to sit d[n beside u4 ,h9dus are saf] f> ?an ,mohamm$ans2 !y are v seldom rude2 b to-day we "k en\gh ( :at is go+ on to make u keep cle> ( all m51 if we c4 ,!y w\ld n say any?+ mu* to u1 b !y might say a good deal to ea* o!r :i* is bett] left unsaid4 ,by ! "t we h ga!r$1 & held1 & !n _h to let g1 ?ree or f\r ( su* little gr\ps1 x is breakfa/ "t1 & we want our breakfa/ badly4 ,s we press ?r\gh ! cr[d1 div+ "u mat %$s & among unspeakable messes1 heaps ( sk9s on ei!r side1 & "o h>dly kn[s :at "u e foot ( innoc5t-look+ s&2 = ! p bury ! dbris lightly1 ?r[+ a h&ful ( s& on ! wor/1 & ! sun does ! re/ ( ! sanitation4 ,x is r horrible4 ,at la/ we rea* ! c>t1 tilt$ sideways on ! bank1 & get ?r\gh our breakfa/ someh[1 & re/ = a few blissful m9utes1 9 mo/ uncom=table positions1 be=e plung+ aga9 into t sea ( sun & s& & animals1 human & o!rwise2 & !n we "p1 arrang+ to meet :5 we _c g on any m4 ,is ,pan dead8 4 4 4 ,noon1 & hott]1 f> hott]1 ?an ev]4 ,oh1 h[ ! p ?rong & pu%1 & kill & eat1 & bury rema9s6 ,h[ c !y enjoy x s8 ,:at c be ! pleasure 9 x8 ,we f9d our way back to t ribbon ( %ade4 ,x is a n>r[] ribbon n[1 because ! sun1 rid+ ov]head1 ?r[s ! %ad[ ( a s+le b\gh1 in/ead ( ! broad] trunk4 ,b su* z x is1 we are glad ( x1 & aga9 we ga!r little gr\ps1 & talk to !m1 & s+4 ,"s beautiful girls pass u close1 ! only girls to be se5 any:]e4 ,only little *ildr5 & wives come "h2 no good unm>ri$ girls4 ,"o ( ! gr\p is dress$ 9 :ite1 b mo/ are 9 vivid purples & crimsons4 ,! girl 9 :ite has a we>y look1 ! "w ( ! night aga94 ,b mo/ ( ! si/]hood are indoors2 9 ! ev5+ we %all see m ( !m1 scatt]$ among ! p1 do+ _! t]rible ma/]'s "w4 ,^! pass u )\t speak+1 & m+le 9 ! cr[d4 ,aft] an h\r 9 ! b& ( %ade1 we sl[ly climb ! bank aga91 & f9d ourselves among ! pott]s1 hundr$s & hundr$s ( !m4 ,e family buys a pot1 & p]haps two or ?ree ( diff]5t sizes2 s ! pott]s drive a brisk trade to-day1 & h no leisure to li/5 to u4 ,x is gett+ v mu* hott] n[1 = ! burn+ s& & ! ?\s&s ( fires radiate heat-waves up ?r\gh ! air1 heat$ already /ifl+ly4 ,we ?9k ( our comrades d[n 9 ! riv] b$1 reek+ ) od\rs ( kill+ & cook+1 a comb9ation ( abom9ations unimag9$ by me be=e4 ,we look d[n ^u a collection ( c>t tops4 ,! palm-wov5 mat cov]s are mass$ 9 br[n pat*es all ov] ! s&1 & ! mov+ cr[ds are betwe54 ,we d n see ! o!rs4 ,h !y f\nd x z difficult z we f9d x1 we wond]1 to get any dis5gag$ en\gh to want to li/58 ,at la/ we rea* ! long /one aisle lead+ to ! temple4 ,on ei!r side !re are l9es ( boo?s1 op5 to ! air b %ad$ f ! sun1 & we p]suade a fri5dly /all-keep] to let u creep into h] %elt]4 ,%e is cook+ cakes on ! gr\nd4 ,%e lets u into an empty corn]1 fac+ ! pass+ cr[ds1 & "o or two1 & !n two or ?ree1 & s on till we h q a gr\p1 /op z !y pass1 & squat d[n 9 ! %ade & li/5 = a little4 ,!n an old lady1 ) a ke5 old face1 buys a ,gospel portion at half price1 & folds x c>efully 9 a corn] ( h] seeley4 ,two or ?ree o!rs buy ,gospels1 & all ( !m want tracts4 ,! %op-woman gets a bit re/ive at ?is rivalry ( w>es4 ,we sp5d our f>?+s1 proce$s ( our sales1 on h] cakes1 & %e is mollifi$4 ,b "s new attraction 9 ! gall]y lead+ to ! temple disp]ses our little audi5ce1 to collect x r\nd itself4 ,! old woman expla9s t ! ,gospel %e has b\ght is = h] gr&son1 a s*ol>1 %e tells u1 ag$ five1 & moves (f to see ! new %[1 & we move (f ) h]4 ,!re1 9 ! fir/ /all1 betwe5 ! d\ble r[ ( pill>s1 a man is /&+ on a =m1 :irl+ a sort ( crackl+ rattle high above 8 head4 ,9 ! next1 ano!r is yell+ to call att5tion to 8 clocks4 ,!re !y are1 rang$ ti] ^u ti]1 regul> ,engli% busy-bee clocks1 tick+ away1 z a small *ild rem>ks1 z if !y 7 alive4 ,!n come sweet-/alls1 clo!s-/alls1 lamp-/alls1 fruit-/alls1 book-/alls1 /alls ( pott]y1 & brass vessels1 & jewell]y1 & basket "w1 & cutl]y1 & bangles 9 :eelb>r[ loads1 & m$ic9es1 & mats1 & money boxes1 & any?+ & ev]y?+ ( e description obta9able "h4 ,9 ea* /all is a /all-keep]4 ,occasionally "o1 l ! clock-/all man1 ex]ts himself to sell 8 goods2 m (t5 he lazes 9 true ,ori5tal fa%ion1 & sells or n z =tune decides = him1 equally satisfi$ ) ei!r decree4 ,h[ ,indian %opkeep]s live at all is always a puzzle to me4 ,!y h>dly ev] seem to d any?+ b moon4 ,on & on1 9 disord]ly b p]fectly good-natur$ /reams1 ! p are pass+ up to ! temple1 or com+ d[n f wor%ip !re4 ,all :o come d[n h _! =eheads sme>$ ) :ite a%es4 ,ev5 "h !re are goats2 !y are be+ pull$1 poor reluctant bea/s1 "r to ! /eps ( ! %r9e1 !re to be d$icat$ to ! god )94 ,!n !y w be dragg$1 /ill reluctant1 r\nd ! temple walls outside1 !n decapitat$4 ,i wat* a baby tug a goat by a rope ti$ r\nd its neck4 ,! goat has horns1 & ,i expect e mom5t to see ! baby gor$4 ,b x nev] seems to ent] into ! goat's head to d any?+ s aggressive4 ,x tugs1 h[ev]1 & ! baby tugs1 till a gr[n-up comes to ! baby's assi/ance1 & all ?ree /ruggle up to ! %r9e4 ,we are /&+ n[ 9 an empty /all1 j a little out ( ! cru%4 ,next door is an assortm5t ( small ,tamil booklets 9 m>vell\s col\rs1 orange & gre5 pr$om9at+4 ,!re is an empty b>rel roll$ into ! corn]1 & we sit d[n on x1 & beg9 to read f our ,book4 ,?is causes a div]sion 9 ! fl[ ( ! /ream1 & we get ano!r *ance4 ,b x gr[s hott] & hott]1 & we get s ?ir/y1 & long = a dr9k ( cocoanut wat]4 ,x is always safe to dr9k t4 ,no cocoanuts are available1 ?\gh1 & we h no money4 ,!n a man sell+ native butt]-milk comes work+ 8 way 9 & out ( ! press1 & we become consci\s t ( all ?+s 9 ! _w ! ?+ we ye>n = mo/ is a dr9k ( butt]-milk4 ,! man /ops 9 front ( our /all1 p\rs out a cupful ( t preci\s liquid1 & see+ ! ?ir/ 9 our eyes1 ,i suppose1 besee*es u to dr9k4 ,we expla9 our p5niless plight4 ,buy our books1 & we'll buy y\r butt]-milk1 b he does n want our books4 ,!n we wi% we _h n squ&]$ our f>?+s on ^? impossible cakes4 ,! butt]-milk man proposes he %\ld tru/ u = ! money2 he is sure to come across u aga94 ,he is a k9d-he>t$ man2 b debt is a s92 x is n likely we %all see him aga94 ,! butt]-milk man consid]s4 ,he is poor1 b we are ?ir/y4 ,to give dr9k to ! ?ir/y is an act ( m]it4 ,acts ( m]it come 9 useful1 bo? 9 ?is _w & ! next4 ,he p\rs out a cupful ( butt]-milk 7he _h p\r$ ! fir/ "o back :5 we %[$ our empty h&s74 ,we hesitate2 he is poor1 b we are s v ?ir/y4 ,! next /all-keep] reads our he>ts1 ?r[s a halfp5ny to ! butt]-milk man4 ,!re6 he says1 dr9k to ! limit ( y\r capacity6 & we dr9k4 ,x is a comical feel+1 to be behold5 to a sell] ( small ,tamil lit]ature ( que/ionable description2 b we really are pa/ draw+ nice di/9ctions4 ,nev] 0 butt]-milk s good2 we get ?r\gh ?ree brass tumbl]-fuls betwe5 u1 & feel life wor? liv+ aga94 ,we give ! good booksell] pl5ty ( books to cov] 8 halfp5ny1 & to gratify u he accepts !m2 b z he does n really require !m1 d\btless ! m]it he has acquir$ is c\nt$ z undim9i%$1 & we "p mo/ excell5t fri5ds4 ,& n[ ! cr[d /ream+ up to ! temple gets d5s] e mom5t4 ,e conceivable phase ( devotion is repres5t$ "h1 e conceivable type ( wor%ipp] too4 ,"s are rev]5t1 "s are rampant1 "s are e>ne/1 "s are c>eless1 awe/ruck1 excit$1 b m usually p]fectly frivol\s2 on & on !y /ream4 ,i leave my ,tamil ,si/] safely ) two o!rs at ! c>t4 ,b ! comrade :om ,i am to meet aga9 at t same c>t "s "t to-day has n turn$ up4 ,s ,i g (f alone = ano!r try1 drawn by ! sight ( t /ream1 & ,i let myself drift along ) x1 & am caught 9 x & c>ri$ up--up1 till ,i am )9 ! temple wall1 "o ( a /ream ( m5 & wom5 /ream+ up to ! %r9e4 ,we rea* x at la/4 ,x is d>k2 ,i c j see an iron grat+ set 9 d>kness1 ) a light some:]e beh9d1 & !re1 /&+ on ! v /eps ( ,satan's seat1 !re is a s+le m9ute's *ance to witness = ,*ri/4 ,! p are all on _! faces 9 ! du/ & ! cru%1 & = t s+le m9ute !y li/51 amaz$ at he>+ any su* voice 9 "h2 b x w\ld n d to /ay1 &1 be=e !y h "t to make up _! m9ds :at to make ( x1 ,i am caught 9 ano!r /ream fl[+ r\nd to ! "r1 & f9d myself 9 a quiet] place1 a sort ( eddy on ! out] edge ( ! :irlpool1 :]e ! wor%ip is less int5se1 & v _m wom5 are sitt+ gossip+4 ,!re1 sitt+ on ! gr\nd beside "o ( ! small] %r9es :i* clu/] r\nd ! great]1 ,i h su* a *ance z ,i nev] expect$ to get2 = ! wom5 & *ildr5 are s a/oni%$ to see a :ite face 9 "h t !y ?r[ all re/ra9t to ! w9ds1 & cr[d r\nd me1 ask+ que/ions ab\t h[ ,i got 94 ,= ,indian temples are sacr$ to ,indians2 no ali5 may pass )9 ! walls to ! c5tre ( ! %r9e2 moreov]1 we nev] g to ! temples to see ! p>ts t are op5 to view1 because we "k ! /umbl+-block su* sight-see+ is to ! ,h9dus4 ,all ?is ! wom5 "k1 = ev]y?+ a mission>y does or does n d is obs]v$ by ^! obs]vant p1 & comm5t$ on 9 private4 ,n[1 z !y ga!r r\nd me1 ,i tell !m :y ,i h come 7h[ ,i got 9 ,i _c expla91 unless x 01 z ! wom5 decl>$1 t1 be+ 9 a seeley1 "o 0 n conspicu\s71 & !y take me into confid5ce1 & tell me ! tru? ab\t !mselves1 :i* is ! la/ ?+ !y usually tell1 & /rikes me z /range2 & !y li/5 spl5didly1 & w\ld li/5 z long z ,i w\ld /ay4 ,b x is n wise to /ay too long1 & ,i get into ! /ream aga91 :i* all ?is "t has be5 p\r+ r\nd ! inn] block ( ! temple1 & am c>ri$ r\nd ) x z x p\rs back & out4 ,& z ,i pass out1 /ill 9 t /ream1 ,i notice t ! temple area is cr[d$ ) all k9ds ( m]*&ise1 /alls ( all sorts1 j z outside4 ,v5dors ( ev]y?+1 f mud pots up to jewels1 are roam+ ov] ! place cry+ _! w>es1 z if !y _h be5 9 a m>ket2 & "r 9 ! middle ( !m ! wor%ip goes on at ! diff]5t %r9es & be=e ! diff]5t idols4 ,!re x is1 m>ket & temple1 z 9 ! days ( our ,"l2 nei!r seems to int]f]e ) ! o!r4 ,no "o seems to see any?+ incongru\s 9 ! sight ( a man pro/rat$ be=e a /one set at ! back ( a heap ( glass bangles4 ,& :5 someone drops sudd5ly1 & sometimes rev]5tly1 9 front ( a /all ( coils ( oily cakes1 no "o sees any?+ extraord9>y 9 x2 !y "k !re is a god some:]e on ! o!r side ( ! cakes4 ,on & out1 ?r\gh ! aisle ) its hundr$ pill>s1 all /one--/one pav+1 pill>s1 ro(2 on & out1 into ! gl>e & ! sight ( ! goats aga94 ,b "o h>dly sees !m n[1 = betwe5 !m & "o's eyes seem to come ! ?+s "o saw inside--^? m5 & wom51 hundr$s ( !m1 wor%ipp+ t :i* is n ,god4 ,is ,pan dead8 4 4 4 ,pan is dead6 ,oh1 ,pan is dead6 ,=1 cle>] ?an ! sight ( t idolatr\s cr[d1 ,i saw ?is--,i _h se5 x inside ^? temple walls3--a pile ( old1 dead gods4 ,!y 7 bundl$ away 9 a corn]1 beh9d ! c5tral %r9e--/one gods1 m]e headless /umps2 wood5 gods ) limbs lopp$ (f2 clay gods1 m]e lumps ( mud2 mutilat$ & neglect$1 worn-out old gods4 ,oh1 ! wor%ip once (f]$ to ^? brok51 batt]$ ?+s6 ,no "o wor%ips !m n[6 ,= full five m9utes ,i _h sat & look$ at !m-- ,gods b]eavd1 gods belat$1 ,) y\r purples r5t asund]6 ,gods discr[n$ & desecrat$1 ,dis9h]it$ ( ?und]6 ,!re 7 )]$ wrea?s ly+ at ! feet ( "s ( ! idols ne>2 !re 7 fre% wrea?s r\nd ! necks ( o!rs4 ,!re 7 no wrea?s 9 ?is corn] ( dead gods4 ,i look$1 & look$1 & look$ aga94 ,oh1 !re 0 prophecy 9 x6 ,& z ,i came out among ! liv+ p1 ! sight ( t gravey>d ( dead gods 0 ev] ) me1 & ! triumph-song ,god's prophetess sang1 sang itself ?r\gh & ?r\gh me--,pan is dead6 ,q dead6 ',twas ! h\r :5 ,"o 9 ,sion ,hung = love's sake on a cross2 ,:5 ,8 br[ 0 *ill ) dy+1 ,& ,8 s\l 0 fa9t ) loss2 ,:5 ,8 prie/ly blood dropp$ d[nw>d1 ,& ,8 k+ly eyes look$ ?ronew>d-- ,!n1 ,pan 0 dead4 ,by ! love ,he /ood alone 91 ,8 sole ,godhead rose complete1 ,& ! false gods fell d[n moan+1 ,ea* f (f 8 gold5 seat2 ,all ! false gods ) a cry ,r5d]$ up _! deity-- ,pan1 ,pan 0 dead4 ,,*apt] ,,xxiv ,m>ri$ to ! ,god ,"o ?+ "o notices v mu* z a 'fre%man'--t is1 ! unconsci\s influ5ce :i* ,*ri/ianity has ov] a nation4 ,g to ! mo/ deprav$ wret* y c f9d 9 ,engl&1 & he has probably got a consci5ce1 if only "o c get at x4 ,b "h ! result ( hea!nism seems to be to de/roy m5's consci5ces4 ,!y nev] feel s9 z su*4 ,rev4 ,e4 ,s4 ,c>r1 ,india4 ,i h he>d p say !y enjoy$ he>+ ab\t missions4 ,i (t5 wond] if !y w\ld enjoy wat*+ a %ipwreck4 ,mrs4 ,rob]t ,/ew>t1 ,*9a4 ,,leave ?is *apt] if y want some?+ int]e/+ to read2 hold y\r f+] 9 ! flame ( a c&le if y want to "k :at x is l to write x4 ,if y d ?is1 !n y w "k some?+ ( ! burn+ at he>t e mission>y goes ?r\gh :o has to see ! sort ( ?+ ,i h to write ab\t4 ,su* ?+s d n make int]e/+ read+4 ,fire is an uncompromis+ ?+1 its *>act]i/ic is t x burns2 & "o writes ) a hot he>t sometimes4 ,!re are ?+s l flames ( fire4 ,b p]haps "o c>es too mu*2 x is only ab\t a little girl4 ,i 0 com+ home f "w a few ev5+s ago :5 ,i met two m5 & a *ild4 ,!y 7 ,ca/e m5 9 fl[+ :ite sc>ves--dignifi$1 educat$ m54 ,b ! *ild8 ,%e glanc$ up at me1 smil$1 & salaam$4 ,!n ,i rememb]$ h]2 ,i _h se5 h] be=e 9 h] own home4 ,^! m5 belong$ to h] village4 ,:at 7 !y do+ ) h]8 ,!n a sudd5 fe> %ot ?r\gh me1 & ,i look$ at ! m51 & !y laugh$4 ,we are tak+ h] to ! temple !re1 & !y po9t$ across ?r\gh ! trees1 to m>ry h] to ! god4 ,x all pass$ 9 a mom5t4 ,"o ( !m caught h] h&1 & !y w5t on4 ,i /ood look+ aft] !m--j look+4 ,! *ild turn$ once & wav$ h] little h& to me4 ,!n ! trees came betwe54 ,! m5's faces haunt$ me all night4 ,i slept1 & saw !m 9 my dreams2 ,i woke1 & saw !m 9 ! d>k4 ,& t little girl--oh1 poor little girl6--always ,i saw h]1 "o h& 9 !irs1 & ! o!r wav+ to me6 ,& n[ x is ov]1 ! diabolical f>ce is ov]1 & %e is ti$1 z _! idiom has x1 ti$ to ! /one4 ,oh1 %e is ti$ inde$1 ti$ ) ropes ,satan twi/$ 9 8 cruelle/ h\r 9 hell6 ,we _h to drive ?r\gh ! village a night or two lat]1 & x 0 all ablaze4 ,!re 0 a cr[d1 & x broke to let our bullock c>ts pass1 !n x clos$ r\nd two palanqu9s4 ,!re 7 _m m5 !re1 & girls4 ,9 ! palanqu9s 7 two idols1 god & goddess1 out on view4 ,x 0 _! w$d+ night4 ,we saw x all z we pass$3 ! gorge\s decorations1 gaudy t9sels1 fl[]s fad+ 9 ! heat & gl>e2 saw1 long aft] we _h pass$1 ! gleam+ ( ! col\r$ lights1 z !y mov$ among ! trees2 he>d = a mile & m along ! road ! s\nd ( t hea!n revelry2 & e ?ud ( ! tom-tom 0 a ?ud ^u "o's he>t4 ,our little girl 0 !re1 z "o m>ri$ to t god4 ,i _h se5 h] only once be=e4 ,%e belong$ to an int]e/+ high-ca/e village1 "o ( ^? s lately clos$2 & because !re !y h a /ory ab\t ! magic p[d] :i*1 say :at we w1 !y imag9e ,i du/ ^u *ildr5's faces1 ,i _h n gone (t5 le/ x %\ld %ut ! doors4 ,b t la/ "t ,i w5t1 ?is *ild came up to me1 &1 ) all ! confid+ness ( a *ild1 ask$ me to take h] home ) me4 ,d let me come6 %e said4 ,!re 7 eyes ^u me 9 a mom5t & heads %ak5 kn[+ly1 & !re 7 :isp]s at once among ! wom54 ,! magic du/ _h be5 at "w6 ,i _h drawn ! little girl's he>t to myself4 ,:o c\ld d\bt x n[8 ,& "o "m ga!r$ h] *ild 9 h] arms & disappe>$ into ! h\se4 ,s ,i _h to answ] c>efully1 s t ev]yone c\ld he>4 ,( c\rse ,i knew !y w\ld n give h] to me1 & ,i ?\ght no m ( x4 ,i 0 talk+ to h] gr&mo!r !n1 a v rem>kable old lady4 ,%e c\ld repeat page aft] page f _! belov$ classics1 & r ?an let me s+ ,*ri/ian /anzas to h] & expla9 !m1 %e pref]r$ to s+ ,h9du /anzas to me & expla9 !m4 ,consid] ! age ( our great ,religion1 consid] its lit]ature--millions ( /anzas6 ,:at c y h to comp>e ) x8 ,^! ignorant p ab\t u d n appreciate ?+s4 ,!y "k no?+ ( ! classics2 z = ! language1 ! dep?s ( ,tamil are beyond !m--is x n a %oreless sea8 ,& s %e held ! conv]sation4 ,illu/ration3 ,?is is vile en\gh to look at1 b no?+ to ! reality4 ,if ! out] =m is ?is1 :at mu/ ! s\l )9 x be8 ,yet ?is is a holy ,brahman2 & if we sat d[n on t /one v]&ah he w\ld %uffle pa/ ! pill> le/ we %\ld defile him4 ,look at ! %ad[y %apes beh9d2 !y might be spirits ( d>kness4 ,x is he1 & su* z he1 :o h p[] ov] little temple fl[]s4 ,x 0 j at ?is po9t ! *ild reappe>$1 &1 /&+ by ! v]&ah ^u :i* we 7 sitt+1 h] little head on a level ) our feet1 %e jo9$ 9 ! /anza h] gr&mo!r 0 *ant+1 &1 to my a/oni%m5t1 cont9u$ ?r\gh ! next & ! next1 :ile ,i li/5$ wond]+4 ,!n jump+ up & d[n1 fir/ on "o foot1 !n on ! o!r1 ) h] little face full ( delight at my evid5t surprise1 %e told me %e 0 le>n+ mu* poetry n[2 & !n1 ) ! m]rie/ little laugh1 %e ran (f aga9 to play4 ,& ?is 0 ! *ild4 ,all t brightness1 all t intellig5ce1 m>ri$ to a god4 ,n[ ,i und]/ood ! "q %e _h ask$ me4 ,%e 0 an orphan1 z we aft]w>ds he>d1 liv+ 9 *>ge ( an old aunt1 :o _h "s connection ) ! temple4 ,%e mu/ h he>d h] future be+ discuss$1 & n und]/&+ x1 & be+ fright5$1 _h wond]$ if %e might come to u4 ,b !y _h tak5 _! own way ( reconcil+ h] to x2 a few sweets1 a cake or two1 & a promise ( m1 a vision ( ! gay "t ! magic ^w m>riage conjures up1 & ! *ild 0 cont5t to g ) !m1 to be l$ to ! temple--& left !re4 ,b h] p 7 s ?or\ghly ref9$ & nice1 s educat$ too1--c\ld x be1 c x be1 possibly true8 ,yes1 x is true2 ?is is ,h9duism--n 9 !ory ( c\rse1 b 9 practice4 ,?9k ( x2 x is done to-day4 ,a mom5t ago ,i look$ up f my writ+ & saw ! little ,elf runn+ t[>ds me1 *>m$ to f9d me all alone1 & q at leisure = h]4 ,& n[ ,i wat* h] z %e runs1 danc+ gleefully d[n ! pa?1 turn+ aga9--= %e kn[s ,i am wat*+--to ?r[ kisses to me4 ,& ,i ?9k ( h] & h] *ildi% ways1 naughty ways s (t51 too1 b 9 _! v naught9ess only *ildi% & small1 & ,i %iv] z ,i ?9k ( h]1 & a ?\s& ?\s& z small z %e1 be+ tra9$ to be devil's toys4 ,!y br\ght "o "h a few days ago to act z decoy to get ! ,elf back4 ,%e 0 a beautiful *ild ( five4 ,?9k ( ! %ame ( x6 ,we are told to modify ?+s1 n to write too vividly1 nev] to h>r[ s5sitive he>ts4 ,fri5ds1 we _c modify tru?1 we _c write half vividly en\gh2 & z = h>r[+ he>ts1 oh t we c\ld d x6 ,t we c\ld te> !m up1 t !y might p\r out l wat]6 t we c\ld see h&s lift$ up t[>ds ,god = ! life ( ^! "y *ildr56 ,oh1 to c>e1 & oh = p[] to make o!rs c>e1 n less b f>1 f> m6 c>e till our eyes d fail ) te>s = ! de/ruction ( ! daught]s ( our p6 ,?is photo is f dea? 9 life2 a c>cass1 mov+1 brea?+1 s9n+--su* a "o sits by t *ild to-day4 ,i saw him once4 ,!re is a mona/]y ne> ! temple4 ,he is ! holie/ man 9 x2 ! p wor%ip him4 ,! day ,i saw him !y _h wrea!d him ) fre%-cut fl[]s2 :ite fl[]s cr[n$ t hide\s head1 hung r\nd 8 neck & d[n 8 brea/2 a s]vant 9 front c>ri$ fl[]s4 ,0 !re ev] su* desecration8 ,t vil5ess cr[n$ ) fl[]s6 ,i knew some?+ ab\t ! man4 ,8 life is simply un?9kable4 ,talk ( bea/s 9 human %ape6 ,x is sl&]+ ! good animals to comp>e bad m5 to bea/s4 ,saf] f> a tig]'s d5 ?an t man's mona/]y4 ,b he is a temple sa9t1 wise 9 ! wisdom ( 8 cre$2 e>?ly1 s5sual1 devili%4 ,look at him till y feel z if y _h se5 him4 ,let ! photo d its "w4 ,x is loa?some--yes1 b true4 ,n[1 put a fl[] 9 8 h&--a human fl[] ?is "t4 ,n[ put beside him1 if y c1 a little girl--y\r own little girl--& leave h] !re--yes1 leave h] !re 9 8 h&4 ,,*apt] ,,xxv ,skirt+ ! ,abyss ,! fir/ ?+ = u all is to see & feel ! great ne$1 & to create a s5tim5t among ,*ri/ian p on ?is subject4 ,"o ( ! *>act]i/ics ( ?is great sy/em is its secrecy--its subtlety4 ,s few "k ( ! evils ( *ild-m>riage1 x is s hidd5 away 9 ! seclud$ lives & prison homes ( ! p4 ,& ^? ( u :o ent] beyond ^! veils1 & g d[n into ^! homes1 are s apt to feel t x is a case ( ! inevitable1 & no?+ c be done4 ,mrs4 ,lee1 ,india4 ,i ,,h be5 to ! ,great ,lake ,village to-day try+ aga9 to f9d out some?+ ab\t our little girl4 ,i w5t to ! ,h9du s*ool ne> ! temple4 ,! s*oolma/] is a fri5d ( ours1 "o ( ! hon\rable m5 ( ! village f :i* !y took t fl[]4 ,he 0 drill+ ! little ,brahman boys z !y /ood 9 a r[ *ant+ ! poem !y 7 le>n+ (f by he>t2 b he made !m /op :5 he saw u com+1 & call$ u 94 ,i ask$ him ab\t ! *ild4 ,x 0 true4 ,%e 0 9 ! temple1 m>ri$ to ! /one4 ,yes1 x 0 true !y _h tak5 h] !re t day4 ,i ask$ if ! family 7 poor2 b he said1 ,d n = a mom5t ?9k t pov]ty 0 ! cause4 ,c]ta9ly n4 ,our village is n poor6 ,& he look$ q (f5d$ at ! ?\ght4 ,i knew ! village 0 ri* en\gh1 b _h ?\ght p]haps t p>ticul> family might be poor1 & s tempt$ to sell ! little "o2 b he exclaim$ ) great w>m?1 ,c]ta9ly n4 ,! *ild 0 a relative ( 8 own2 !re 0 no "q ( pov]ty6 ,we _h left ! s*ool1 & 7 talk+ out 9 ! /reet fac+ ! temple h\se4 ,i look$ at x1 he look$ at x4 ,f h5ce a passage broad1 smoo?1 easy1 in(f5sive1 d[n to hell2 he knew x well4 ,yes1 %e is a relative ( my own1 he cont9u$1 & expla9$ m9utely ! degree ( relation%ip4 ,h] gr&mo!r1 :om y d\btless rememb]1 is n l ! ignorant wom5 ( ^! p>ts4 ,%e has le>n+4 ,& aga9 he repeat$1 z if desir\s ( ?or\ghly conv9c+ me z to ! satisfactory nature ( ! transaction1 ,c]ta9ly %e 0 n sold4 ,%e is a relative ( my own4 ,a relative ( 8 own6 ,& he c\ld tea* 8 s*ool outside ^? walls1 & "k :at 0 go+ on inside1 & nev] raise a f+] to /op x1 educat$ ,h9du ?\gh he is4 ,i c\ld n und]/& x4 ,he seem$ q conc]n$ at my conc]n1 b expla9$ t = g5]ations "o ( t p>ticul> h\sehold _h always be5 devot$ to ! gods4 ,! practice c\ld n be def5d$2 x 0 ! cu/om4 ,t 0 all4 ,our cu/om4 ,a /one's-?r[ f 8 door is ano!r *ild :o is liv+ a /rangely unnatural life1 :i* /rikes no "o z unnatural because x is our cu/om4 ,%e is q a little girl1 & z playful z a kitt54 ,h] s(t r\nd arms & little dimpl$ h&s look$ fit = no h>d] "w ?an play1 b %e 0 p\nd+ rice :5 ,i saw h]1 & look$ tir$1 & z if %e want$ h] "m4 ,:ile ,i 0 ) h] a v old man hobbl$ 94 ,he 0 crippl$1 & lean$ full weight ) bo? h&s on 8 /ick4 ,he seem$ a/hmatic too1 & c\gh$ & pant$ woefully4 ,a )]$1 decrepit old gh\l4 ,! *ild /ood up :5 he came 9 & t\*$ h] neck :]e ! m>riage symbol lay4 ,!n ,i knew he 0 h] husb&4 ,:at1 ,no blu% at ! av[al--y d>$ to buy ,a girl ( age beseems y\r gr&-daught]1 l ox or ass8 ,are fle% & blood w>e8 are he>t & s\l a *attel8 ,yes6 l *attels !y are sold to ! highe/ bidd]4 ,9 t auction ,ca/e comes fir/1 !n weal? & position4 ,& ! *attel is b\ght1 ! bit ( brea?+ fle% & blood is conv]t$ into prop]ty2 & ! liv+1 ?robb+ he>t ( ! *ild may be trampl$ & /amp$ d[n "u foot 9 ! mire & ! mud ( t m>ket-place1 = all anyone c>es4 ,x is n long s9ce a "y wife came = refuge to our h\se4 ,?ree times %e _h tri$ to kill h]self2 at la/ %e fl$ to u4 ,h] husb& came4 ,get up1 slave1 he said1 z %e cr\*$ on ! floor4 ,%e w\ld n /ir or speak4 ,!n he got h] own p to come1 & !n x 0 z if a p5t-up torr5t 0 bur/+ out ( an ov] full he>t4 ,y gave me to him4 ,y gave me to him4 ,! words came ov] & ov] aga92 %e rem9d$ !m 9 a passion ( reproa* h[1 kn[+ :at 8 "* 01 !y _h h&$ h] ov] to him4 ,b we c\ld h>dly foll[ h]1 ! words p\r$ =? ) su* fi]ce emotion1 z ) /ream+ eyes1 & h&s t %[$ ev]y?+ 9 ge/ures1 %e bes\ght !m n to =ce h] back4 ,!y promis$1 & believ+ !m1 %e return$ ) !m4 ,! o!r day :5 ,i pass$ ! h\se someone said1 ,beautiful is !re4 ,he keeps h] lock$ up 9 ! back room n[4 ,s !y _h brok5 _! ^w to h]1 & giv5 h] back1 body & s\l1 to ! p[] ( a man ^: cruelty is s well kn[n t ev5 ! hea!n call him a demon4 ,:at mu/ he be to 8 wife8 ,& if t poor wife1 n]v$ by ! mis]y ( h] life1 d>$ all1 & appeal$ to ! ,gov]nm5t1 ! law w\ld d z h] p did--=ce h] back aga9 to him1 to fulfil a contract %e nev] made4 ,is x n a %ame8 ,oh1 :5 w ! day come :5 ?is m]*&ise 9 *ildr5's s\ls %all cease8 ,we "k t _m husb&s are k9d1 & _m wives p]fectly cont5t1 b sometimes we see ^? :o are n1 & !re is no r$ress4 ,ano!r ( our *ildr5 sold by auction 9 ! ,village ( ! ,lake is "o :o us$ to be su* a pretty little ?+1 ) a tangle ( curls1 & mis*iev\s1 m]ry br[n eyes4 ,b t 0 five ye>s ago4 ,!n a fi5d 9 a man's %ape saw h]1 & (f]$ inducem5ts to h] p>5ts :i* end$ 9 8 m>ry+ h]4 ,%e 0 n9e ye>s old4 ,"o ye> aft]w>ds %e 0 s5t to h] husb&'s home4 ,8 motives 9 m>ry+ h] 7 :olly evil1 b ! *ild knew some?+ ( "r & wrong1 & %e resi/$ him4 ,!n he dragg$ h] into an inn] room1 & he held h] d[n1 & smo!r$ h] %rieks1 & press$ a planta9 into h] m\?4 ,x 0 poison$4 ,%e knew x1 & did n swall[ x all4 ,b :at %e 0 =c$ to take made h] ill1 & %e lay = days s dizzy & sick t :5 h] husb& kick$ h] z %e lay %e did n c>e4 ,at la/ %e escap$1 & ran to h] "m's h\se4 ,b ! law 0 on h] own]'s side2 :at c\ld %e prove ( all ?is1 poor *ild8 ,& %e _h to g back to him4 ,aft] t he succe$$ 9 8 devil's "w1 & to-day t *ild is dead to all s5se ( s94 ,oh1 !re are worse ?+s f> ?an see+ a little *ild die6 ,x is worse to see x *ange4 ,to see ! innoc5ce pass f ! eyes1 & ! *ildi%ness gr[ into wick$ness1 & to "k1 )\t be+ able to /op x1 j :at is go+ on4 ,i am ?9k+ ( "o su* n[4 ,%e 0 f\r ye>s old :5 ,i fir/ began to visit 9 h] gr&mo!r's h\se4 ,%e is six n[--only six--b h] demoralisation is almo/ complete4 ,x is z if y saw a h& pull a rosebud on its /em1 crumple & cru% x1 rub ! p9k lovel9ess into pulp1 drop x !n--& y pick x up4 ,b x is n a rosebud n[4 ,oh1 ^! ?+s1 ! k ( !m1 is z a fire %ut up 9 "o's bones6 %ut up1 = "o _c let x all out--x mu/ /ay 9 & burn4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 ,^? :o "k no?+ ( ! facts w be sure to criticise4 ,x is n an unkn[n ?+ = p]sons to act z critics1 ev5 ?\gh supremely ignorant ( ! subject criticis$4 ,b ^? :o "k ! tru? ( ^! ?+s well "k t we h und]/at$ x1 c>efully ton$ x d[n p]=ce1 because x _c be writt5 9 full4 ,x c\ld nei!r be publi%$ nor read4 ,x _c be writt5 or publi%$ or read1 b oh1 x has to be liv$6 ,& :at y may n ev5 he>1 mu/ be endur$ by little girls4 ,!re are *ild-wives 9 ,india to-day1 ( twelve1 t51 n9e1 & ev5 eight ye>s old4 ,oh1 y mean betro!d6 ,ano!r in/ance ( mission>y exagg]ation6 ,we mean m>ri$4 ,b ( c\rse ! law int]f]es6 ,p]haps y h he>d ( ! law :i* makes wifehood illegal "u twelve4 ,) ref]5ce to ?is law ! ,hon4 ,manomoham ,ghose ( ! ,high ,c\rt ( ,calcutta writes3--,if ! ,gov]nm5t ?9ks t ! c\ntry is n yet prep>$ = su* legislation 7by :i* he means dra/ic legislation7 z ,i sugge/1 ,i c only express my regret t by introduc+ ! pres5t ,bill x has indef9itely po/pon$ ! introduction ( a sub/antial measure ( re=m1 :i* is urg5tly call$ =4 ,!re are m5 & wom5 9 ,india to :om _m a day is a nightm>e1 & ?is fair l& an ,inf]no1 because ( :at !y "k ( ! wrong t is go+ on4 ,= t is ! dreadful "p ( x4 ,x is n l ! burn+ alive ( ! wid[s1 x is n a horror pass$4 ,x is go+ on /eadily day & night4 ,sunlight1 moonlight1 & d>kness pass1 ! "o *ang+ into ! o!r2 b all ! "t !y are pass+1 ?is ,wrong holds ! h\rs ) firm & /rong h&s1 & uses !m = its purpose--! murd] ( little girls4 ,mean:ile1 :at c be done by y & by me to ha/5 ! day ( its end+8 ,^? :o "k c tell :at !y "k1 or s mu* z w be> ! tell+2 & ^? :o d n "k c believe x is true1 & if !y h influ5ce any:]e1 use x2 & all c c>e & pray6 ,pray+ alone is n en\gh1 b oh = m real pray+6 ,we are play+ at pray+1 & c>+1 & com+2 play+ at do+--if do+ co/s--play+ at ev]y?+ b play4 ,we are e>ne/ en\gh ab\t t4 ,god op5 our eyes & convict u ( our ins9c]ity6 burn out ! sup]ficial 9 u1 make u int5sely 9 e>ne/6 ,& may ,god quick5 our sympa?y1 & t\* our he>t1 & n]ve our arm = :at w prove a desp]ate fight aga9/ leagud fi5ds 9 bad m5's %apes1 :o d ! devil's "w to-day1 br&+ on little innoc5t s\ls ! v br& ( hell4 ,i h told ( "o--t little *ild :o is n[ z evil-m9d$ z a little *ild c be2 %e is only "o ( s _m4 ,let a m$ical mission>y speak4 ,a few days ago we _h a little *ild-wife "h z a pati5t4 ,%e 0 t5 or elev51 ,i ?9k1 j a scrap ( a creature1 play+ ) a doll1 & yet degrad$ unm5tionably 9 m9d4 4 4 4 ,b oh1 to ?9k ( ! hundr$s ( little girls6 4 4 4 ,x makes me feel lit]ally sick4 ,we d :at we c4 4 4 4 ,b :at c we d8 ,:at a drop 9 ! ocean x is6 ,:]e ! dott$ l9es come1 !re 0 writt5 :at _c be pr9t$4 ,b x _h to be liv$ ?r\gh1 e bit ( x1 by a scrap ( a creature ( t5 or elev54 ,ano!r--^! are f a fri5d :o1 ev5 9 writ+ a private lett]1 _c say "o-t5? ( ! ?+ %e really means4 ,a few days ago ! little "m 7a *ild ( ?irte57 0 cry+ bitt]ly 9 ! w>d4 ',:y are y cry+8' ',because he says ,i am too old = him n[2 he w get ano!r wife1 he says4' ',he' 0 h] husb&1 'q a lad1' :o _h come to ! hospital to see h]4 ,! end ( t /ory :i* _c be told is be+ liv$ ?r\gh ?is v day by t little wife ( ?irte54 ,& rememb] t ?irte5 9 ,india means b>ely elev5 at home4 ,%e 0 f\rte5 ye>s old1 !y said1 b su* a t9y ?+1 %e look$ ab\t n9e ye>s old 9 size & developm5t4 4 4 4 ,! little "m 0 s hurt1 %e c nev] be well aga9 all h] life4 ,! husb& !n m>ri$ aga9 4 4 4 z ! *ild 0 ru9$ 9 heal?4 4 4 4 ,&1 z be=e1 ! dots mu/ cov] all ! long-drawn-out mis]y ( t little *ild :o look$ ab\t n9e4 ,!re is an old1 old man liv+ ne> "h1 ) a little wife ( t5 or elev54 4 4 4 ,our pres5t cook's little girl1 n9e ye>s old1 has lately be5 m>ri$ to a man :o already has _h two wives4 ,9 ea* ( ^! cases1 z 9 ea* ,i h m5tion$1 m>riage means m>riage1 n j betro?al1 z s _m fondly imag9e4 ,only to-day ,i he>d ( "o :o di$ 9 :at ! nurse :o att5d$ h] describ$ z simple agony4 ,%e _h be5 m>ri$ a week be=e4 ,%e 0 b>ely twelve ye>s old4 ,we d n say ?is is univ]sal4 ,!re are _m exceptions2 b we d say ! work+s ( ?is cu/om %\ld be expos$ & n suppress$4 ,"q our facts2 we c prove !m4 ,to-day z ,i write x1 to-day z y read x1 hundr$s & ?\s&s ( little wives are go+ ?r\gh :at we h describ$4 ,b describ$ is n ! ^w to use--indicat$1 ,i %\ld say1 ) ! fa9te/ wa% ( sepia :]e ! ?+ meant is pit* black4 ,?9k ( x1 !n--d n try to escape f ! ?\ght--,engli% wom5 "k too little1 c>e too little--too little by f>4 ,?9k ( x4 ,/op & ?9k ( x4 ,if x is try+ to ?9k ( x1 & y w\ld pref] to turn ! page ov]1 & get to some?+ nic] to read1 :at mu/ x be to live ?r\gh x8 ,:at mu/ x be to ^? little girls1 s little1 s pitifully little1 & unequal to x all8 ,:at mu/ x be to ^! *ildi% ?+s to live on ?r\gh x day by day1 )1 9 "s cases1 no?+ to hope = till k9dly dea? comes & op5s ! door1 ! "o dread door ( escape !y "k1 & ! tortur$ little body dies8 ,& someone says1 ,! girl is dead1 take ! corpse out to ! burn+-gr\nd4 ,!n !y take x up1 g5tly p]haps4 ,b oh1 ! relief ( rememb]+ x6 ,x does n matt] n[4 ,no?+ matt]s any m4 ,little dead wives _c feel4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 ,i wond] :e!r x t\*es y8 ,i "k ,i _c tell x well4 ,b oh1 "o lives ?r\gh x all ) !m6--,i h /opp$ writ+ aga9 & aga91 & felt ,i c\ld n g on4 ,"m1 happy "m6 ,:5 y tuck up y\r little girl 9 h] cot1 & feel h] arms cl+ r\nd y\r neck & h] kisses on y\r *eek1 w y ?9k ( ^! o!r little girls8 ,w y try to conceive :at y w\ld feel if y\r little girl 7 "h8 ,oh1 y clasp h] tight1 s tight 9 y\r arms6 ,! ?\ght is a scorpion's /+ 9 y\r s\l4 ,y w\ld kill h]1 smo!r h] dead 9 y\r arms1 be=e y w\ld give h] to--t4 ,turn ! light d[n1 & come away4 ,?ank ,god %e is safe 9 h] little cot1 %e w wake up to-morr[ safe4 ,n[ ?9k = a mom5t /eadily ( ^? :o are somebody's little girls1 j z de> to !m & sweet1 ne$+ z mu* ! t5d]e/ c>e z ?is y\r own little girl4 ,?9k ( !m4 ,try to ?9k ( !m z if !y 7 y\r v own4 ,!y are j l y\r own1 9 s _m ways--only _! future is diff]5t4 ,oh1 de> mo!rs1 d y c>e8 ,d y c>e v mu*1 ,i ask8 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 ,we pass$ ! temple on our way home f ! ,village ( ! ,lake4 ,! great gate 0 op51 & ! ,brahmans & _! fri5ds 7 l\ng+ 9 & out1 or sitt+ 9 ! por* talk+ & laugh+ toge!r4 ,!y 7 talk+ ab\t u z we pass$4 ,!y 7 q aw>e ( our object 9 com+1 & 7 pleas$ t we _h fail$4 ,gov]nm5t (ficials1 ,engli%-speak+ graduates1 educat$ ,h9dus l our old fri5d ! s*oolma/]1 all w\ld admit 9 private t to take a *ild to ! temple & m>ry h] !re 0 wrong4 ,b v few h mu* desire to "r ! %ameful wrong4 ,!re are ?\s&s ( recognis$ ,slaves ( ! gods 9 ?is ,presid5cy4 ,"u o!r names !y exi/ all ov] ,india4 ,!re are ?\s&s ( little *ild-wives2 few] "h ?an else:]e1 we "k1 b _m ev]y:]e4 ,i d n = a mom5t sugge/ t all *ild-wives are cruelly h&l$1 any m ?an ,i w\ld h x ?\ght t all little girls are available = ! s]vice ( ! gods4 ,nor w\ld ,i h x suppos$ t we see d[n ?is hell-crack e day4 ,we may live = ye>s 9 ! c\ntry & "k v little ab\t x4 ,! m$ical work]s--,god help !m6--are ^? :o are mo/ frequ5tly =c$ to look d[n1 & ,i1 n be+ a m$ical1 "k inf9itely less ( its dep?s ?an !y4 ,b ?is ,i d "k1 & d mean1 & ,i mean x ) an int5sity ,i "k n h[ to express1 t ?is cu/om ( infant m>riage & *ild m>riage1 :e!r to gods or m51 is an infam\s cu/om2 t x holds possibilities ( wrong1 su* unutt]able wrong1 t descriptive words conc]n+ x c only skirt ! abyss1 & t 9 ! "n ( all t is j & all t is m]ciful x %\ld be swept out ( ! l& )\t a day's delay4 ,we look to our ,indian bro!rs4 ,india is s imm5se t a voice cry+ 9 ! ,nor? is h>dly he>d 9 ! ,s\?4 ,?ank ,god = ! "o or two voices cry+ 9 ! wild]ness4 ,b _m voices are ne$$1 n only "o or two4 ,let ! _m voices cry6 ,e man ) a he>t & a voice to cry1 %\ld cry4 ,!n all ! cries cry+ ov] ! l& w =ce ! deaf e>s to he>1 & =ce ! dull bra9s to ?9k & ! h&s ( ! law to act1 & some?+ at la/ w be done4 ,b cry+ is n ne>ly en\gh4 ,we look to y1 bro!rs ( ,india1 to d4 ,get convictions ^u ?is subject :i* w compel y to d4 ,_m c talk & _m c write1 & m w d bo?1 z ! ye>s pass1 b ! crux is conta9$ 9 ! do+4 ,god alone c /r5g!n y = x4 ,he :o set ,8 face z a fl9t1 c make y /eadfa/ & brave en\gh to set y\r faces z fl9ts1 till ! b&s ( wick$ness are loos$1 & ! heavy burd5s are undone1 & e yoke is brok51 & ! oppress$ g free4 ,x w co/4 ,x is b\nd to co/4 ,e battle ( ! w>rior is ) confus$ noise & g>m5ts roll$ 9 blood4 ,x is only %am battles t co/ some?+ less ?an blood4 ,ev]y?+ wor? any?+ co/s blood4 ,reproa* ha? brok5 ,my he>t4 ,a brok5 he>t ble$s4 ,is x ! reproa* ( ! battle y fe>8 ,?is fe> w conqu] y until y he> ! voice ( y\r ,god say+1 ,fe> ye n ! reproa* ( m51 nei!r be afraid ( _! revil+s4 4 4 4 ,:o art ?\ t ?\ %\lde/ be afraid ( a man t %all die1 & ! son ( man t %all be made z grass1 & =gette/ ! ,"l ?y ,mak]8 ,?is book is meant = our comrades at home1 b x may come back to ,india1 & s we h spok5 /raight f our he>ts to our ,indian bro!rs "h4 ,oh1 bro!rs1 rise1 & 9 ,god's ,"n fight2 9 ,8 p[] fight till y w91 = ^!1 y\r own l&'s little girls1 :o nev] c fight = !mselves6 ,& n[ we look to y at home4 ,w all :o pity ! little wives pray = ! m5 ( ,india8 ,pray = ^? :o are hone/ly /riv+ to rid ! l& ( ?is %ameful curse4 ,pray t !y may be n]v$ = ! fight by ! p[] ( ,god's "r arm4 ,pray = all ! irresolute4 ,a s\nd ( battle is 9 ! l&1 4 4 4 ! ,"l ha? op5$ ,8 arm\ry4 ,curs$ be he t keepe? back 8 sword f blood4 ,pray = resolution & ! c\rage ( conviction4 ,x is ne$$4 ,& to ?is end pray t ! ,_s ( ,life may come ^u our ,mission ,colleges1 & mightily en]gise ! ,mission>y ,educational ,movem5t1 t ,h9du /ud5ts may be won to out-&-out allegiance to ,*ri/ :ile !y are /ud5ts1 be=e !y become entangl$ 9 ! social me% ( ,h9duism4 ,& pray1 we e>ne/ly plead ) y1 t ! ,*ri/ian /ud5ts may meet ,god at college1 & come out /rong to fight ?is fi5d :i* trades 9 slaves & s\ls ( m5--& 9 ! s\ls ( little girls4 ,,*apt] ,,xxvi ,f a ,h9du ,po9t ( ,view ,! ,"l pres]ve u f innovations =eign to ! true pr9ciples ( ! ,prote/ant ,*ur*1 & =eign to ! pr9ciples ( ! ,c4,m4,s4 ,pictures1 crosses1 & bann]s1 ) processions1 w\ld d great h>m4 ,! ,mohamm$an natives w\ld say1 ',wah6 y wor%ip idols z ! ,h9dus d1 & h taziyas 7processions7 z well z ! ,mohamm$ans6' ,& our ,*ri/ians w\ld m\rn ov] su* ?+s4 ,rev4 ,c4 ,b4 ,leupolt1 ,india4 ,i ,,am sitt+ 9 ! nor?-we/ corn] ( ! v]&ah ( a little mission bungal[1 on ! outskirts ( a t[n sixte5 miles s\? ( our ,ea/]n headqu>t]s4 ,?is is ! t[n :]e !y set fire to ! s*oolroom :5 ,victory came4 ,s f> does ,ca/e feel+ fly4 ,z y sit 9 ! corn] ( ?is v]&ah y see a little temple fitt$ betwe5 two :itewa%$ pill>s1 r\ghly built & rudely decorat$1 b 9 ?is e>ly morn+ light x looks l a picture set 9 a frame4 ,x is j outside ! comp\nd1 s ne> t y see x 9 all its detail ( col\r2 ! sun /rik+ across x t\*es ! col\rs & makes !m beautiful4 ,!re is ! usual /rip$ wall1 r$ & :ite2 ! r$ is a f9e t]ra-cotta1 ! col\r ( ! s&4 ,! c5tral block1 ! %r9e itself1 has inlays ( gre51 r$1 & blue2 !re is m t]ra-cotta 9 ! ro(1 "s yell[ too1 & :ite4 ,beyond on ei!r side !re are h\ses1 & beyond ! h\ses1 trees & sky4 ,x is all v pretty & peaceful4 ,smoke is curl+ up 9 ! /ill air f "s e>ly light$ fire out ( doors2 !re are voices ( p go+ & com+1 s(t5$ by di/ance4 ,!re is ! musical j+le ( bullock bells "h 9 ! comp\nd & out on ! road1 & !re is ! twitt] ( birds4 ,9 front ( t temple !re are ?ree alt>s1 & 9 front ( ! alt>s a pill>4 ,i c see x f :]e ,i am sitt+ n[1 r\gh grey /one4 ,^u x1 !re is :at ,i ?\ght at fir/ 0 a sun-dial1 & ,i wond]$ :at x 0 do+ !re4 ,!n ,i saw x _h n a dial plate2 only a /rong cross-b> ( wood1 & ! index f+]1 s to speak1 0 long] ?an "o w\ld expect1 a %>p wood5 spike4 ,z ,i 0 wond]+ :at x 0 a pass]-by expla9$ x4 ,x is n a sun-dial1 x is an impal+ in/rum5t4 ,on t spike !y us$ to impale alive goats & kids & f[ls z (f]+s to ! god ,siva & 8 two wives1 ! deities to ^: hon\r ! ?ree alt>s /& be=e ! little %r9e4 ,! pill> on :i* /&s ?is inf]nal spike has ?ree circles scor$ into x1 sign ( ! ?ree div9ities4 ,! impal+ has /opp$1 say ! p1 greatly amus$ at "o's horror & di/ress1 = at fir/ ,i ?\ght p]haps !y /ill did x4 ,n[ we d n impale alive2 ! ,gov]nm5t has /opp$ x4 ,?ank ,god = t6 ,b oh1 let all lov]s ( ,god's creatures pray = & ha/5 ! com+ ( our ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/6 ,gov]nm5t may /ep 9 & /op ! public clubb+ to dea? ( buffaloes1 & ! impal+ ( goats & f[ls 9 sacrifice1 b x _c /op ! private cruelty1 & ! /ill wid]-spread indiff]5ce on ! "p ( ^? :o are n !mselves cruel2 only ! com+ ( ,*ri/ ! ,compassionate c d t4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 ,!re 0 ! s\nd ( voices j !n1 z ,i wrote1 _m voices1 com+ ne>]1 %rill wom5's voices1 cutt+ ?r\gh "o's ?\ghts1 & ,i w5t out to see :at 0 go+ on4 ,on ! o!r side ( ! road1 opposite our gate1 !re is a huge old d\ble tree1 ! sacr$ fig tree ( ,india1 int]tw9$ ) ano!r--a religi\s symbol to ?is symbol-lov+ p4 ,und]nea? is a /one plat=m1 & on x ! hide\s elephant-god4 ,on ! same side is a little h\se4 ,a gr\p ( wom5 7 ga!r$ "u ! %ade ne> ! h\se1 evid5tly wait+ = some?+ or someone4 ,!y 7 delight$ to talk4 ,we sp5t half an h\r "u ! tree1 & !y li/5$2 b we 7 int]rupt$ by "s well-dress$ ,gov]nm5t (ficials ) _! coats1 sa%es1 & badges1 & "o n /rictly ,gov]nm5tal got up 9 a m>vell\s fa%ion1 & !y jo9$ ! gr\p & monopolis$ ! conv]sation4 ,i wait$1 hop+ !y w\ld soon g away1 & ,i li/5$ to :at !y 7 say+4 ,yes6 %e actually appe>$6 ,%e 0 a goddess4 7,a goddess6 ,oh6 f ! wom547 ,%e came =w>d1 mov+ )\t walk+1 & %e /ood z a tree /&s1 & %e /ret*$ out h] arms & bless$ ! p1 & vani%$4 ,a woman po9t$ to me4 ,l h]8 ,0 %e l h]8 ,l h]6 & ! ,gov]nm5t (ficial 0 a little contemptu\s4 ,did ,i n say %e 0 a goddess8 ,is ?is ,missie ,ammal a goddess8 ,is %e n a m]e woman l y\rselves1 only :ite8 ,%e also came f ! bungal[1 object$ ! woman r feebly1 feel+ public op9ion aga9/ h]4 ,y oy/]6 said ! (ficial politely1 because a ,missie ,ammal comes f ! bungal[1 does x prove t ! goddess 0 a ,missie ,ammal8 ,! o!r wom5 agre$ ) him1 & snubb$ ! ignoramus1 :o retir$ f ! controv]sy4 ,! /ory 0 repeat$ ) v>iations1 su* a mixture ( ! probable ) ! improbable1 n to say impossible1 t "o got tangl$ up 9 x be=e he _h got half ?r\gh4 ,j !n an anci5t ,*ri/ian appe>$ on ! sc5e & quav]$ 91 9 ! middle ( ! m>vel1 ) words to ! effect t our ,god 0 ! true ,god1 & !y ought to h fai? 9 ,him4 ,x 0 n exactly propos ( any?+ !y 7 discuss+1 b he seem$ to ?9k x ! "r ?+ to say1 & !y accept$ x z a cu/om>y rem>k1 & w5t on ) _! conv]sation4 ,i ask$ ! old wor?y if he knew any?+ ab\t ! /ory1 & at fir/ he d5i$ x indignantly z sav\r+ too mu* ( idolatry to be connect$ ) ! bungal[1 b f9ally admitt$ t once 9 ! dim pa/ he _h he>d t an ,ammal 9 ! bungal[1 :o 0 ill & di/urb$ by ! tom-toms at night1 got up & w5t out & tri$ to speak to ! p4 ,& ! m51 li/5+ n[ to ! old man1 ?rew 9 a ^w :i* illum9$ ! :ole1 ,x 0 a great fe/ival4 ,i rememb]$ t impal+ /ake1 & und]/ood x all4 ,& 9 a fla% ,i saw x--! poor live bea/--& he>d its cries4 ,!y w\ld wr+ h] he>t z %e he>d !m 9 ! pauses ( ! tom-tom4 ,%e 0 ill1 b %e got up & /ruggl$ out1 & tri$ to /op x1 ,i am sure--tri$1 & fail$4 ,sev5 ?\s& miles away ^! ?+s may seem trivial4 ,"h1 ) t grey /one pill> full 9 view1 !y are real4 ,i came back to ! pres5t4 ,! wom5 7 /ill !re1 & m p 7 ga!r+4 ,some?+ 0 go+ to happ54 ,!n a sudd5 bur/ ( tom-toms1 & a bang+ & clang+ ( all mann] ( noise-produc]s1 & !n a bullock coa* drove up1 a great gild$ ?+4 ,x /opp$ 9 front ( ! little h\se2 someone got out2 ! p %\t$1 ,guru6 ,great ,guru6 ,"l ,guru6 ) wild en?usiasm4 ,! ,guru 0 n poor4 ,he _h two c>ts lad5 ) luggage--"o item1 a gre5 p>rot 9 a cage4 ,close to ! cage a small boy 0 ?und]+ away on a tom-tom1 b x did n di/urb ! p>rot4 ,! p seem$ to ?9k ?is display ( weal? dem&$ an apology4 ,x is n 81 x belongs to 8 foll[]s2 he1 be+ :at he is1 requires none ( ^! ?+s1 !y said4 ,i _h to g !n1 & we />t$ soon aft]w>ds on our day's r\nd1 & ,i d n "k :at happ5$ next2 b ,i _h nev] _h ! *ance ( a talk ) a celebrity ( ?is description1 & 9 ! ev5+1 on my homew>d way1 ,i /opp$ be=e ! little h\se & ask$ if ,i might see him1 ! fam\s ,guru ( "o ( ! greate/ ( ,s\? ,indian ,ca/es4 ,! ,gov]nm5t (ficials ( ! morn+ 7 !re1 b ! (ficialism 0 gone4 ,no coats & sa%es & badges n[1 only ! simple national dress1 a sc>f ( :ite musl94 ,! "o :o 9 ! morn+ _h be5 an illu/ration ( ! possible effect ( ! mixture ( ,ea/ & ,we/1 /ood 9 a dignity he _h n !n1 a f9e manly =m4 ,! door 0 op51 & !y 7 s5try1 = _! ,guru 0 re/+1 !y said4 ,!n he is v human1 j l y\rselves8 ,b ! /rong1 s5sible faces look$ almo/ fright5$ at ! words4 ,hu%1 !y answ]$ all 9 a brea?1 no su* ?\ghts may be ev5 ?\ght "h4 ,he is n j l u4 ,& z if to div]t u f ! expression ( su* s5tim5ts1 !y mov$ a little f ! door1 & said1 ,y may look1 if y d n speak1 & kn[+ su* looks are n (t5 all[$1 ,i look$ ) int]e/1 & saw all !re 0 to see4 ,! ,guru 0 9 ! f> corn] re/+2 a ri* purple silk1 ) gold int]wov5 9 bord]s & b&s1 0 flung ov] 8 ascetic's dress4 ,at ! f> end1 too1 0 a sort ( alt>1 cov]$ ) r$ clo?1 & on x 7 num]\s brass c&le/icks & vessels1 & on a little %elf above1 a r[ ( little div9ities1 "s brass ornam5ts1 & fl[]s4 ,to ! left ( ?is alt> !re 0 a high-back$ *air cov]$ by a de] sk92 !re 7 pictures ( gods & goddesses r\nd ! room1 especially ne> ! alt>1 & !re 7 ! usual c5s]s1 ros>ies1 & musical in/rum5ts1 & !re 0 ! p>rot4 ,! ,gov]nm5t (ficial po9t$ 91 & said1 ) an air ( pride 9 ! :ole1 & a c]ta9ty ( sympa?y too1 ,!re1 y see h[ closely x resembles y\r *ur*es2 !re is n s mu* diff]5ce betwe5 y & u aft] all6 ,n s mu* diff]5ce6 ,!re is a v great diff]5ce1 ,i told him2 & ,i ask$ him :]e he _h se5 a ,*ri/ian *ur* l ?is4 ,he m5tion$ two4 ,"o 0 a ,roman ,ca?olic *apel1 ! o!r an ,engli% *ur*4 ,:at c\ld ,i say8 ,!y be> our "n2 h[ c\ld he und]/& ! divisions t r5d u asund]8--,romani/s1 ,rituali/s1 & ,prote/ants--are we n all call$ ,*ri/ians8 ,i look$ aga91 & ,i c\ld n help be+ /ruck ) ! resemblance4 ,! alt> ) its brasses & fl[]s & c&le/icks1 & ! little %elf above2 ! pictures on ! walls2 ! *air1 s l a ,bi%op's *air ( /ate2 ! :ole air ( ! place heavy ) inc5se1 0 r$ol5t ( ,rome4 ,he w5t on to expla91 :ile ,i /ood !re a%am$4 ,look1 h y n got t8 & he po9t$ to ! alt>-l erection1 ) ! r$ clo? & ! fl[]s4 ,we h no?+ ( ! sort 9 our *ur*4 ,come & see2 we h only a table1 ,i said2 b he laugh$ & decl>$ he _h se5 x 9 o!r *ur*es1 & x 0 j l ours1 only y\rs has a cross above x1 & ours has images2 b y b[ to y\r cross1 s x mu/ repres5t a div9ity1 &1 )\t wait+ = any reply1 he po9t$ next to ! pictures4 ,!y are v l y\rs1 ,i ?9k1 he said1 only y\rs %[ y\r ,god on a cross1 /ret*$ out & dy+--s--,& he /ret*$ out 8 arms1 & dropp$ 8 head1 & said some?+ :i* _c be translat$2 & ,i c\ld n look or li/51 b broke 9 e>ne/ly3 ,inde$1 we h no su* pictures--at lea/ we "h h n2 b ev5 if "s %[ su* a picture1 d !y ev] call x a picture ( ,god8 ,!y only say x is a picture (--,b he int]rupt$ impati5tly3 ,d n ,i "k :at !y say8 ,& !n1 ) a t\* ( scorn at :at he ?\ght 0 an empty excuse on my "p1 he add$1 ,we also say ! same 7:i* is true2 no intellig5t ,h9du admits t he wor%ips idols or pictures2 he wor%ips :at ^! ?+s repres5t74 ,y\r p %[ y\r symbols1 he cont9u$1 9 ! tone ( "o :o is sure ( 8 gr\nd1 exactly z we %[ ours4 ,i h se5 y\r ,god on a great %eet at night2 x 0 %[n by means ( a magic lamp2 & sometimes y make x ( wood or brass1 z we make ours ( /one4 ,! "n may *ange & ! mann] ( mak+1 b ! ?+'s ess5ce is ! same4 ,! ,mohamm$ans d n %[ _! ,god's symbol2 b we d1 & s d ! ,*ri/ians4 ,!re=e betwe5 u & ! ,*ri/ians !re is m 9 common ?an betwe5 ! ,mohamm$ans & u4 ,?is 0 ano!r ,h9du's contribution to ! argum5t4 ,! *air n[ s]v$ z a text4 ,:5 y\r ,bi%op comes r\nd y\r *ur*es1 does he n sit 9 a *air l t1 himself ap>t f ! p8 ,& 9 l mann] our ,guru sits4 ,!re is mu* simil>ity4 ,also d n y\r ,*ri/ians /&--& he imitat$ ! peculi>ly def]5tial attitude adopt$ on su* occasions by "s--j 9 ! fa%ion t we /&8 ,& d n y\r p feel !mselves bless$ by ! pres5ce ( ! ,great8 ,oh1 !re is mu* simil>ity6 ,i expla9$ t all ?is1 ?\gh fooli%1 0 n int5d$ = m ?an respect1 & our ,bi%ops did n desire x2 at :i* he smil$4 ,!n he w5t on to expatiate ^u :at he _h se5 9 "s ( our *ur*es 7probably :ile on duty z ,gov]nm5t s]vant73 ! display1 z x seem$ to him1 s l ?is2 ! pomp1 z he ?\ght x1 s f9e1 l ?is2 ! b[+ & pro/rat+1 & ev5 on ! "p ( ^? :o did n d ^! ?+s1 ! evid5t p>ticipation 9 ! :ole gr& %[4 ,& ! o!r m51 :o app>5tly _h look$ 9 ?r\gh ! op5 w9d[s & doors1 agre$ ) him4 ,he is n ! fir/ :o has be5 /umbl$ 9 ! same way2 & ,i rememb]$1 z he talk$1 :at a ,mohamm$an woman said to a fri5d ( m9e ab\t "o ( our ,engli% *ur*es1 se5 ?r\gh h] husb&'s eyes4 ,y h idols 9 y\r *ur*1 %e said1 to :i* y b[ 9 wor%ip4 ,%e ref]r$ to ! ?+s on or above ! ,communion table4 ,my fri5d expla9$ ! ?+s 7 n idols4 ,!n :y d y\r p b[ to !m8 ,0 !re no?+ 9 ! "q8 ,(t5 we wond] :e!r ! rapid b insidi\s increase ( ritual 9 ,india is und]/ood at home4 ,9 ,engl& x is bad en\gh1 b 9 a hea!n & ,mohamm$an l& x is1 if possible1 worse2 & ! wor/ is1 ! _s ( x1 or ! _s ( tol]ance t[>d x1 :i* is on ! increase ev5 9 mission>y circles4 ,"s ( our ,tamil p att5d ! ,engli% s]vice 9 ^! advanc$ *ur*es aft] _! own s]vice is ov]1 & ?us become famili>is$ ) & gradually acclimatis$ to an ecclesia/ical atmosph]e =eign to !m z memb]s ( a ,prote/ant ,society4 ,i rememb] sp5d+ a ,sunday aft]noon ) a wor?y pa/or & 8 wife1 /ation$ 9 ! place :]e ! *ur* is 9 :i* ! idols are wor%ipp$ accord+ to ! ,mohamm$ans4 ,:5 ! bell rang = ev5+ s]vice he began to %uffle r z if he want$ me to g4 ,b he 0 too polite to say s1 & ! reason nev] /ruck me till 8 son came 9 ) an ,engli% ,bible & ,pray]-,book4 ,! old man put up 8 h& to 8 m\? 9 ! apologetic mann] ( ! ,tamils4 ,we d n notice ! fooli% p>ts ( ! s]vice4 ,we l to he> ! ,engli%4 ,= ! sake ( ! ,engli% we g4 ,he did n turn to ! ,ea/1 b he did n keep q /raight2 he j half turn$4 ,?is f a pa/or's wife1 ab\t "o :om %e _h be5 obs]v+ dur+ an ord9ation c]emony 9 ! ,engli% ca!dral4 ,he j half turn$4 ,x describes ! nebul\s attitude ( m9d ( _m a "o to-day4 ,india has n our hi/orical backgr\nd4 ,x has no ,foxe's ,book ( ,m>tyrs yet4 ,p]haps t is :y its p are s indiff]5t ^u po9ts :i* seem ( importance to u4 ,!y h n _h to fight = _! fre$om1 9 ! s5se at lea/ our =efa!rs f\ght2 !re is no ,puritan blood 9 _! ve9s2 & s !y are will+ to foll[ ! lead ( almo/ anyone1 provid$ t lead is giv5 /eadily & p]si/5tly2 :i* surely %\ld make ^? 9 au?ority c>eful z to ^? 9 ^: h&s t lead is plac$4 ,b ! natural in/9ct ( ! conv]t$ idolat] is dead aga9/ complexity 9 wor%ip1 & = simplicity4 ,he does n want some?+ z l 8 own old religion z possible1 b z diff]5t z possible f x2 & s we h good build+ mat]ial ready to h&1 & a f\ndation ready laid4 ,b let e man take he$ h[ he builde? !reupon4 ,i hope ?is does n s\nd unk9d4 ,we give ^? :o hold diff]5t views full cr$it = s9c]ity1 & a "r to _! own op9ions2 b convictions are convictions1 &1 )\t judg+ o!rs :o diff]1 ^! are ours1 & we want ^? at home :o are ) u 9 ^! ?+s to unite to help to /em ! tide t has already ris5 9 ,india f> high] ?an p]haps !y "k4 ,brave m5 are ne$$1 m5 ) a full] developm5t ( spiritual v]tebr ?an is common 9 ^! easy-go+ days1 & we ne$ su* m5 9 our ,native ,*ur*4 ,god create !m2 !y are n ! product ( !ological colleges4 ,& may ,god save ,8 ,missions 9 ,india f wa/+ ,8 "t1 & money1 & m51 on ! cultivation ( :at may evolve into some?+ ( no m use to creation ?an a new g5us ( jelly-fi%4 ,! ,gov]nm5t (ficial & 8 fri5ds 7 /ill talk+ among !mselves3 ,d we n "k :at ! ,*ri/ians d8 ,h we n e>s8 ,h we n eyes8 ,!y d x 9 _! way1 we d x 9 ours4 ,! ?+ itself is really ! same4 ,yes1 _! religion is j l ours4 ,!y c\ld n see ! vital diff]5ce betwe5 ev5 ! mo/ vitiat$ =ms ( ,*ri/ianity & _! own ,h9duism2 !re 7 s _m resemblances1 & ^! fill$ _! m5tal vision at ! mom5t4 ,"o c\ld h>dly wond] !y c\ld n4 ,!y turn$ to me aga91 & ) all ! vig\r ( language at my comm& ,i told !m t nei!r we nor ^? ) u ev] w5t to any *ur* :]e we _h reason to ?9k !re w\ld be an exhibition ( ecclesia/ical p>aph]nalia4 ,we did n believe x 0 9 accordance ) ! simplicity ( ! ,gospel2 & ,i told !m h[ simple ! ,tru? really 01 b !y w\ld n believe me4 ,^? sights !y _h se5 _h /ruck !m mu* z !y /ruck ! conv]t :o describ$ ! ,confirmation s]vice ?us3 ,we w5t up & knelt d[n be=e a /ick 7! ,bi%op's pa/oral /aff74 ,!y _h obs]v$ ! imm5se att5tion paid to all ^! sacr$ trifles1 & naturally !y appe>$ to !m z ess5tial to ! :ole2 "p ( x1 ne>ly all ( x1 9 fact2 & ev5 :]e ! s]vice 0 9 ! v]nacul>1 _! att5tion _h be5 entirely div]t$ f ! ?+ he>d by ! ?+s se54 ,!n ,i ?\ght ( ! description ( a primitive ,*ri/ianity s]vice z giv5 9 #a ,cor9?ians4 ,!re ! idea evid5tly 0 t if an outsid] came 91 or look$ 91 z ,h9dus & ,mohamm$ans s (t5 look 9 "h1 he %\ld und]/& :at 0 go+ on2 & be+ convict$ ( 8 s9 & ne$1 %\ld be conv9c$2 & s1 fall+ d[n on 8 face1 he w wor%ip ,god1 & report t ,god is 9 y ( a tru?4 ,comp>e ! effect produc$ ^u ! m9ds ( ^! ,h9du m5 by :at !y saw ( our s]vices1 ) ! effect int5d$ to be produc$ by ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,c we say we h improv$ ^u ,8 patt]n8 ,oh = a return to ! simplicity & p[] ( ! ,gospel ( ,*ri/6 ,!n we %\ld n roll /umbl+-blocks l ^! 9 our ,indian bro!r's way4 ,oh = a return to ! days ( ! beg9n+ ( ! ,acts ( ! ,apo/les1 to obscurity1 & pov]ty1 & suff]+1 & %ame1 & ! utt] abs5ce ( all e>?ly glory1 & ! w9n+ ( s\ls ( a diff]5t make to ! type ?\ght suffici5tly spiritual n[6 ,oh = m ( ! signs ( ,apo/le%ip--sc>s1 & ! cross--! real cross--! reproa* ( ,*ri/ ! ,crucifi$1--no mitre "h1 b !re ! cr[n6 ,,*apt] ,,xxvii ,?\gh ye "k ,him n ,i h kn[n cases ( "y m9i/]s dissuad$ f fac+ ! mission>y call by ^? :o pos$ z fri5ds ( ,=eign ,missions1 & yet presum$ to argue3 ',y\r spiritual p[] & intellectual atta9m5ts are ne$$ by ! ,*ur* at home2 !y w\ld be wa/$ 9 ! ,=eign ,field4' ',spiritual p[] wa/$' 9 a l& l ,india6 ,:]e is x s sorely ne$$ z 9 a cont95t :]e ,satan has con/ruct$ 8 /ronge/ =tresses & display$ ! *oice/ ma/]pieces ( 8 skill8 ',intellectual ability wa/$' among a p ^: s*ol>s smile inw>dly at ! ignorance ( ! av]age ,we/]n6 ,bro!rs1 if ,god is call+ y1 be n det]r$ by flimsy subt]fuges su* z ^!4 ,y w ne$ ! p[] ( ,god ! ,holy ,gho/ to make y an effici5t mission>y4 ,y w f9d y\r reputation = s*ol>%ip put to ! sev]e/ te/ 9 ,india4 ,"h is ample scope alike = m5 ( approv$ spiritual p[] & = intellectual giants4 ,& s ,i repeat1 if ,god is call+ y1 buckle on y\r sword1 come to ! fight1 & w9 y\r spurs among ! cultur$ sons ( ,india4 ,rev4 ,t4 ,walk]1 ,india4 ,,! s5sation y exp]i5ce is curi\s :5 y rise f ! /udy ( ,sir ,moni] ,william's ,brahmanism & ,h9duism & g out to y\r "w1 & meet 9 t "w someone :o seems to be quot+ t same book1 n 9 p>agraphs only1 b 9 pages4 ,he is talk+ ,tamil1 & ! book is writt5 9 ,engli%2 t is all ! diff]5ce4 ,he 0 /&+ by ! wayside :5 ,i saw him3 we got into conv]sation4 ,at fir/ he rem9d$ me ( a sea anemone1 ) all its t5tacles drawn inside1 b gradually "o by "o !y came out1 & ,i saw :at he really 02 & ,i ?9k ! great ,*ri/ian s*ol>1 :o lab\r$ s h>d to und]/& & translate into words ! intricacies & my/]ies ( ,indian ?\ght1 w\ld h felt a little repaid _h he kn[n h[ 8 "w w\ld help 9 ! practical bus9ess ( a mission>y's life4 ,"p ( our bus9ess is to meet ! m9d ) :i* we are deal+ half-way ) quick compreh5sion4 ,x is 9 ?is ,sir ,moni] ,williams helps4 ,:5 once ?is man felt himself und]/ood1 8 :ole attitude *ang$4 ,at fir/1 expect+1 ,i suppose1 t he 0 be+ mi/ak5 = an ignorant hea!n & wor%ipp] ( /ocks & /ones1 he h>dly took ! tr\ble to d m ?an answ]1 z he ?\ght1 a fool accord+ to 8 folly4 ,! t5tacles 7 all 9 !n4 ,b t pass$ soon1 & he po9t$ to ! %$ beh9d him1 :]e two or ?ree life-size idol horses /ood & said h[ *ildi% he knew x 01 fooli% & va94 ,b !n1 :at else c\ld be done8 ,idols are n objects ( wor%ip1 & nev] 7 int5d$ s to be2 _! only use is to help ! un9itiat$ to wor%ip ,some?+4 ,if no?+ 7 %[n !m1 !y w\ld wor%ip no?+2 & a non-wor%ipp+ human be+ is an animal1 n a man4 ,he w5t on to answ] ! objections to ?is means ( quick5+ intellig5t wor%ip by expla9+ h[1 9 high] & pur] ways1 ! ?9k]s ( ,h9duism _h tri$ to make ! un?9k+ ?9k4 ,look at our temples1 he said4 ,!re is a c5tral %r9e1 ) only "o light 9 x4 ,! d>kness ( ! %r9e symbolises ! d>kness ( ! _w1 ( life & dea? & be+4 ,= life is a d>kness1 a :irlpool ( d>k wat]s4 ,we /& on its edge1 b we d n und]/& x4 ,x is d>k1 b light !re mu/ be2 "o great light4 ,s we %[ ?is c]ta9ty by ! symbol ( ! "o light 9 ! %r9e1 9 ! v he>t ( our temples4 ,?is l$ on to quotations f 8 own books1 que/ion+ ! validity ( su* lights1 :i* he f9i%$ ! mom5t "o began !m1 & ?is aga9 l$ to our ,"l's words1--h[ /rong !y s\nd$1 & h[ direct--,i am ! ,light ( ! ,_w4 ,b he c\ld n accept !m 9 _! simplicity1 & "h x 0 t ! book ,i _h be5 read+ came 9 s helpfully4 ,he spoke rapidly & eag]ly1 & su* a mixture ( ,sanscrit & ,tamil t if ,i _h n _h ! clue ,i am n sure ,i c\ld h foll[$ him1 & to h misund]/ood him !n might h driv5 all ! t5tacles 91 & made x h>d] = ! next "o :om ! ,_s may s5d to w9 8 confid5ce4 ,he told me t1 aft] mu* /udy ( _m religions1 he held ! et]nal exi/5ce ( "o1 ,brahma4 ,! human _s1 he said1 is n really di/9ct f ! ,div9e ,_s1 b id5tical ) x2 ! app>5t di/9ction arises f our illusory view ( ?+s3 !re is absolutely no di/9ction 9 _s4 ,m9d is di/9ct1 he admitt$1 & body is di/9ct1 b _s is id5tical2 s t1 9 a def9itely def9$ s5se1 ,i am ,god1 ,god is ,i4 ,! s-call$ two are "o1 9 all ess5tials ( be+4 ,& he t\*$ himself & said1 ,i am ,brahma4 ,i myself1 my real ,i1 am ,god4 ,x s\nds t]ribly irrev]5t1 b he did n = a mom5t mean x s4 ,g back to ,g54 ii4 #g1 & try to def9e ! mean+ ( ! words1 ! brea? ( life1 & y w1 if y ?9k en\gh1 f9d y\rself 9 a position to und]/& h[ ! ,h9du1 )\t revelation1 ends z he does 9 delusion4 ,b1 int]tw9$ ) ?is c5tral fibre ( 8 fai?1 !re 7 /r&s ( a /range philosophy2 he held /rongly ! doctr9e ( ,illusion1 by :i* ! "o imp]sonal ,_s1 9 ! illusion :i* ov]spreads x1 is to ! ext]nal _w :at y>n is to clo?1 :at milk is to curds1 :at clay is to a j>1 b only 9 t illusion1 t is1 he is n ! actual mat]ial cause ( ! _w1 z clay ( a j>1 b ! illusory mat]ial cause1 z a rope might be ( a snake2 & ! _s ( man is t ,_s1 p]sonalis$ & limit$ by ! p[] ( illusion2 & ! life ( e liv+ _s is no?+ b an inf9itesimal arc ( ! "o endless circle ( inf9ite exi/5ce4 ,( c\rse !re are answ]s to ?is sort ( reason+ :i* are p]fectly conv9c+ to ! ,we/]n1 b !y fail to appeal to ! ,ea/]n m9d4 ,y sugge/ a practical te/ z to ! reality or o!rwise ( ?is ,illusion--t\* some?+1 run a p9 into y\rself1 d any?+ to prove to y\rself y\r own actuality1 & he has 8 answ] ready4 ,?\gh !oretically he holds t !re is "o1 & only "o1 ,_s1 he virtually believes 9 ?ree conditions ( be+--! real1 ! practical1 & ! illusory2 = :ile he affirms t ! "o ,_s1 ,brahma1 alone has a real exi/5ce1 he all[s a practical sep>ate exi/5ce to human spirits1 to ! _w1 & to ! p]sonal ,god or gods1 z well z an illusory exi/5ce4 ,h5ce e object is to be dealt ) practically1 z if x 7 really :at x appe>s to be4 ,?is is only ! end ( a long & v confus+ argum5t1 :i* ,i expect ,i did n half und]/&1 & he conclud$ x by quot+ a /anza1 ?us translat$ by ,dr4 ,pope1 f an anci5t ,tamil classic-- ,o ,be+ h>d to rea*1 ,o ,spl5d\r inf9ite1 unkn[n1 9 soo? ,i "k n :at to d6 ,he is f> away f me1 he said1 a di/ant ,god to rea*1 & :5 ,i quot$ f ,/4 ,augu/9e1 ,to ,him :o is ev]y:]e1 m5 come n by travell+1 b by lov+1 & %[$ him ! words1 :i* 9 ,tamil are spl5didly negative1 ,he is ,,n f> f e "o ( u1 he elud$ ! com=t & w5t back to ! old "q1 ,:at is ,tru?8 ,h[ c "o prove :at is ,tru?8 ,!re is an ,indian /ory ( a que5 :o prov$ ! tru? by ta/+ ! food4 ,! /ory tells h[ h] husb&1 :o de>ly lov$ h]1 & :om %e de>ly lov$1 lo/ 8 k+dom1 w&]$ away ) 8 que5 into ! =e/1 left h] !re z %e slept1 hop+ %e w\ld f>e bett] )\t him1 & foll[$ h] long aft]w>ds to h] fa!r's c\rt1 de=m$1 disguis$1 a s]vant among s]vants1 a cook4 ,!n h] maid5s came to h]1 told h] ( ! wond]ful cook+1 magical 9 mann]1 m>vell\s 9 flav\r & 9 fragrance4 ,!y are sure x is ! long-lo/ k+ come back to h]1 & !y bid h] believe & rejoice4 ,b ! que5 fe>s x may n be true4 ,%e mu/ prove x1 %e mu/ ta/e ! food4 ,!y br+ h] "s4 ,%e ta/es1 & kn[s4 ,& ! /ory ends 9 joy4 ,oh1 ta/e & see t ! ,"l is good4 ,if any man w d ,8 ,w1 he %all "k4 ,we got clos] 9 ?\ght aft] ?is4 ,= ! ,ori5tal1 a /ory is an illum9at+ ?+4 ,i h s\ght = ! way ( tru?1 he said1 & s\ght = ! way ( light & life4 ,beh9d me1 z ,i look1 !re is d>kness4 ,be=e me !re is only ! ,unkn[n4 ,& !n1 ) an e>ne/ness ,i _c describe1 he said1 ,i wor%ip ,him ,i "k n1 ! ,unkn[n ,god4 ,:om1 !re=e1 ye wor%ip1 ?\gh ye "k ,him n1 ,him decl>e ,i unto y4 ,"o c\ld only press home ,god's own answ] to 8 words4 ,"o o!r v]se held him 9 its p[] be=e ,i w5t3 ,i am ! ,way1 ! ,tru?1 & ! ,life4 ,) ^? two v]ses ,i left him4 ,x 0 ev5+1 & he /ood 9 ! %ad[1 look+ into x4 ,!re 0 a tangle ( und]gr[?1 & a heavy grove ( palms4 ,x 0 all d>k z y look$ 94 ,beh9d 0 ! %r9e ( ! demon /e$s1 ! god & 8 wife :o ride out at night to *ase evil spirits away4 ,ne> by 0 an old tree1 also 9 %ade1 ) an idol "u x4 ,x 0 all 9 %ad[1 & full ( %ad[y no?+s1 all d>k4 ,b j outside1 :5 ,i w5t1 !re 0 light2 ! s(t light ( ! aft]-gl[1 :i* comes soon aft] ! sun has set1 z a sign t !re is a sun some:]e1 & %9+4 ,& ,i ?\ght ( 8 v la/ words to me1 b ,i _c describe ! e>ne/ness ( !m1 ,i wor%ip ! ,unkn[n ,god4 ,fri5ds1 :o wor%ip a ,god :om y "k1 ^: joy 9 life is to "k ,him1 w y rememb] & pray = t "o1 :o to-day is seek+1 ,i ?9k 9 tru?1 to f9d ! ,unkn[n ,god8 ,,*apt] ,,xxviii ,h[ ,long8 ,i %iv]$ z if /&+ 9 ! neighb\rhood ( hell4 ,h5ry ,m>tyn1 ,india4 ,i ,,h come home f va9ly try+ to help ano!r *ild4 ,%e _h he>d ( ! *ildr5's ,savi\r1 & ,i ?9k %e w\ld h come to ,him1 b !y suff]$ h] n4 ,%e 01 :5 ,i fir/ saw h]1 sweet & innoc5t1 ) eyes full ( light1 great glanc+1 danc+ eyes1 :i* grew wi/ful = a mom5t sometimes1 & !n fill$ ) a laugh aga94 ,%e told me h] "m liv$ v ne>1 & ask$ me to come & see h]2 s ,i w5t4 ,! "m />tl$ me4 ,su* a face1 or su* a want ( a face4 ,"o 0 look+ at :at _h once be5 a face1 b 0 n[ a /range spoil$ ?+1 ) /range h>d eyes1 s unlike ! *ild's4 ,!re 0 no o!r feature fully %ap$2 x 0 "o dreadful blank4 ,%e li/5$ t day1 ) almo/ eag]ness4 ,%e und]/ood s quickly1 too1 "o felt %e mu/ h he>d be=e4 ,b %e told u no?+ ab\t h]self1 & we only knew t !re 0 some?+ v wrong4 ,h] surr\nd+s told u t4 ,be=e we w5t aga9 we he>d :o %e 02 a relative ( "o ( our mo/ hon\r$ pa/ors1 himself a conv]t ye>s ago4 ,!n a great long+ possess$ u to try to save h] f a life = :i* %e _h n be5 tra9$1 & especially we long$ to save h] little girl1 & we w5t to try4 ,?is "t ! "m welcom$ u1 & told u h[ our words _h br\ght back ?+s %e _h he>d :5 %e 0 "y4 ,b n[ x is all diff]5t1 = ,i am diff]5t1 & %e told u h] /ory4 4 4 4 ,s ,i took poison1 b x act$ n z ,i int5d$4 ,x only de/roy$ my face1 & %e t\*$ ! poor remnant ) h] h&1 & w5t on ) h] t]rible tale4 ,!re 7 p li/5+ outside1 & %e spoke 9 a ho>se :isp]4 ,we c\ld h>dly believe %e meant :at %e said1 z %e told ( ! fate propos$ = h] *ild4 ,& oh1 h[ we bes\ght h] !n & !re to give up ! life1 & let u help h]1 & t de> little "o4 ,%e seem$ mov$4 ,some?+ awoke )9 h] & /rove4 ,te>s fill$ ^? h>d eyes & roll$ d[n h] *eeks z we plead$ ) h]1 9 ! "n ( all t 0 mo!rly1 n to doom h] little innoc5t girl1 n to pu% h] ) h] own h&s d[n to hell4 ,at la/ %e yield$1 promis$ t if 9 "o week's "t we w\ld come aga9 %e w\ld give h] up to u1 & z = h]self1 %e w\ld ?9k ( x1 & p]haps %e also w\ld give up ! life2 %e hat$ x1 %e said4 ,!re 0 ano!r girl !re1 a fair1 quiet girl ( fifte54 ,%e 0 ill & v suff]+1 & we tri$ = h] too2 b !re seem$ no hope4 ,take ! little "o2 y are n too late = h]1 ! "m said1 & we w5t ) ! promise1 ,"o m week & %e is y\rs4 ,! week pass$1 & e day we pray$ = t little "o4 ,!n :5 ! "t came1 we w5t4 ,hope & fe> alt]nat$ )9 u4 ,"o felt sick ) dread le/ any?+ _h happ5$ to break ! "m's ^w1 & yet "o hop$4 ,! h\se door 0 op54 ,! p 9 ! /reet smil$ z we /opp$ our b&y1 got out1 & w5t 94 ,i rememb]$ _! smiles aft]w>ds1 & und]/ood4 ,! "m 0 !re3 9 a corn]1 cr\*+ 9 pa91 0 ! girl2 on ! floor asleep1 drugg$1 lay ! *ild ) h] little arms /ret*$ out4 ,! "m's eyes 7 h>d4 ,x 0 no use4 ,outside 9 ! /reet ! p sat on _! v]&ahs & laugh$4 ,(f] tw5ty ?\s& rupees1 & see if h] "m w give h] to y6 %\t$ "o4 ,inside we sat beside t "m1 n kn[+ :at to say4 ,! *ild /irr$ 9 h] sleep1 & turn$4 ,w y g8 said ! "m v r\ghly 9 h] e>4 ,%e op5$ li/less1 s5seless eyes4 ,%e _h no wi% to g4 ,%e want$ to come la/ week1 we said4 ,! "m h>d5$1 & pu%$ ! *ild1 & roll$ h] ov] ) h] foot4 ,%e w n g n[1 %e said4 ,oh1 x did seem pitiful6 ,"o ( ^? pitiful1 pitiful ?+s :i* nev] gr[ less pitiful because !y are common ev]y:]e4 ,t little girl1 & ?is6 ,we took ! "m's h&s 9 ours1 & plead$ once aga94 ,& !n words fail$ u4 ,!y sometimes d4 ,!re are ?+s t /ifle words4 ,at la/ !y ask$ u to g4 ,! girl 9 ! corn] w\ld n speak--c\ld n1 p]haps %e only moan$2 we pass$ h] & w5t out4 ,! "m foll[$ u1 half sorry = u1--!re is some?+ ( ! woman left 9 h]1--half sull51 ) a l[]+ sull5ness4 ,y w nev] see h] aga91 %e said1 & %e nam$ ! t[n1 "o ( ! ,sodoms ( ?is ,prov9ce1 to :i* ! *ild 0 soon to be s5t2 & !n1 j a little a%am$ ( h] brok5 promise1 %e add$1 ,i w\ld h let h] g1 b he w\ld n1 no1 nev]2 & %e does n belong to me n[1 s :at c\ld ,i d8 ,we did n ask h] :o he 04 ,we knew4 ,nor did we ask ! price he _h paid4 ,we knew2 fifty rupees1 ab\t ?ree p\nds1 0 ! price paid d[n = a y\ng] *ild b\ght = ! same purpose n long ago4 ,?is "o's price might be a little high]4 ,t is all4 ,we /ood by ! bullock c>t ready to get 94 ,! p 7 wat*+4 ,! "m _h gone back into ! h\se4 ,!n a great wave ( long+ = t *ild swept ov] u aga94 ,we turn$ & look$ at ! little =m z x lay on ! floor1 dead1 z x seem$1 to all outw>d ?+s4 ,oh t x _h be5 dead6 ,& we plead$ once m ) all our he>t1 & once m fail$4 ,we drove away4 ,we c\ld see !m cr[d+ to look aft] u1 & we %ut our eyes to %ut out ! sight ( _! smiles4 ,! bullock bells j+l$ too gladly1 x seem$1 & we %ut our e>s to %ut out ! s\nd4 ,& !n we %ut ourselves 9 ) ,god1 :o knew all ab\t x1 & c>$4 ,h[ long1 ,o ,god1 h[ long8 ,& n[ we h he>d t %e has gone1 & we "k1 f wat*+ :at happ5$ be=e1 j :at w happ5 n[4 ,h[ day by day !y w se> t *ild's s\l ) r$-hot irons1 till x does n feel or c>e any m4 ,& a *ild's se>$ s\l is an awful ?+4 ,=give u = words :i* may hurt & %ock2 we are tell+ ! day's life-/ory4 ,hurt or n1 %ock$ or n1 %\ld y n "k ! tru?8 ,h[ c y pray z y ought if y only "k fragm5ts ( tru?8 ,tru? is a loaf2 y may cut x up nicely1 l ?9 bread & butt]1 ) all ! cru/s c>efully trimm$4 ,no "o objects to x !n4 ,or y c cut x z x comes1 cru/ & all4 ,?9k ( t *ild to-night z y ga!r y\r *ildr5 ab\t y1 & look 9 _! innoc5t faces & _! cle>1 frank eyes4 ,our v la/ news ( h] 0 t %e _h be5 9 "s way influ5c$ to spread a lie ab\t ! place1 fir/ sign ( ! se>+ begun4 ,i ?9k ( h] z ,i saw h] t fir/ day1 bright z a bird2 & !n ( h] z ,i saw h] la/1 drugg$ on ! floor2 ,i ?9k ( h] z %e mu/ be n[1 bright aga91 b ) a diff]5t brightness--n ! little girl ,i knew--nev] to be q t little girl aga94 ,oh1 comrades1 d y wond] t we c>e8 ,d y wond] t we plead ) y to c>e8 ,d y wond] t we h no words sometimes1 & fall back into sil5ce1 or break out into words wrung f "o m gift$ ) expression1 :o knew :at x 0 to feel6 ,) su* words1 !n1 we close2 look+ back once m at t *ild on ! floor1 ) ! h&s /ret*$ out & ! heavy eyes %ut--& we "k :at x 0 !y saw :5 !y op5$ f t sleep-- ,my ,god6 c su* ?+s be8 ,ha/ ,?\ n said t :atsoe'er is done ,unto ,?y weake/ & ,?y humble/ "o1 ,is ev5 done to ,!e8 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 ,ho>se1 horrible2 & /rong1 ,rises to heav5 t agonis+ cry1 ,fill+ ! ar*es ( ! holl[ sky1 ,,h[ ,,long1 ,o ,,god1 ,,h[ ,,long8 ,,*apt] ,,xxix ,:at d we c\nt !m wor?8 ,if we are simply to pray to ! ext5t ( a simple & pleasant & enjoyable ex]cise1 & "k no?+ ( wat*+ 9 pray]1 & ( we>9ess 9 pray]1 we %all n draw d[n ! bless+ t we may4 ,we %all n su/a9 our mission>ies :o are ov]:elm$ ) ! appall+ d>kness ( hea!nism4 4 4 4 ,we mu/ s]ve ,god ev5 to ! po9t ( suff]+1 & ea* "o ask himself1 ,9 :at degree1 9 :at po9t am ,i ext5d+1 by p]sonal suff]+1 by p]sonal self-d5ial1 to ! po9t ( pa91 ! k+dom ( ,*ri/8 4 4 4 ,x is ev] true t :at co/s little is wor? little4 ,rev4 ,j4 ,hudson ,taylor1 ,*9a4 ,,%e pick$ up h] wat]-vessel1 & /ood survey+ u some:at curi\sly4 ,! ways ( ,picture-cat*+ ,missie ,ammals 7 beyond h]4 ,aft]w>ds %e sat d[n com=tably & talk$4 ,t 0 a ye> ago4 ,!n 9 ! ev5+ %e & all h] neighb\rs ga!r$ 9 ! m>ket squ>e = ! op5-air meet+4 ,%9+ ( ,life spoke = ! fir/ "t4 ,i 0 a ,h9du a ye> ago4 ,i wor%ipp$ ! gods y wor%ip4 ,did !y he> me :5 ,i pray$8 ,no6 ,!y are dead gods4 ,god is ! liv+ ,god6 ,come to ! liv+ ,god6 ,"o aft] ! o!r ! boys all witness$ t ev5+4 ,_! cle> boyi% voices rang out r\nd ! r+4 ,& "s li/5$1 & "s laugh$4 ,illu/ration3 ,%e pick$ up h] wat]-vessel1 & /ood survey+ u some:at curi\sly4 ,beh9d u !re 0 a little demon temple4 ,x _h a v]&ah b>r$ d[n ) heavy b>s4 ,)9 ^! b>s y c\ld see ! =m ( an idol4 ,beside u !re 0 a %r9e4 ,someone _h put our lant]ns on ! top ( ?is pyramid %r9e4 ,be=e u !re 0 ! mass ( d>k faces4 ,beh9d u1 !n1 black walls1 black b>s1 a black %ape2 be=e u ! black meet+1 black los+ itself 9 black4 ,ar\nd u light1 light %9+ into ! black4 ,t 0 z x 0 a ye> ago4 ,n[ we are back at ,dohnavur1 & almo/ ! fir/ place we w5t to 0 ?is village1 :]e we _h tak5 ! light & set x up 9 ! he>t ( ! d>k4 ,an e>ne/ "y s*oolma/] _h be5 s5t to keep t light burn+ !re1 & we w5t expectantly4 ,_h ! light spread8 ,we w5t /raight to our old fri5d's h\se4 ,%e 0 z fri5dly z ev] 9 h] que]1 r\gh1 c\ntry way1 b h] he>t _h n be5 set alight4 ,tell me :at is ! good ( y\r ,way8 ,w x fill ! cavity )9 me8 & %e /ruck h]self a res\nd+ smack 9 ! region :]e food is suppos$ to g4 ,w x /ock my paddy-pots1 or n\ri% my bulls1 or cause my palms to be> good juice8 ,if x w n d all ^! good ?+s1 :at is ! use ( x8 ,if x is s important1 :y did y n come be=e8 ,! de> old woman :o ask$ t liv$ "h1 & we se>*$ ?r\gh ! labyr9?ic c\rty>ds to f9d h]1 b fail$4 ,! girl :o li/5$ 9 h] pa9 is well n[1 b %e says ! desire %e _h has cool$4 ,we f\nd two or ?ree :o seem light+ up2 may ,god's w9d bl[ ! flame to a blaze6 ,b we came back feel+ t we mu/ le>n m ( ! p[] ( pray] ourselves if ^! cold s\ls are to cat* fire4 ,we rememb]$ h[1 :5 we 7 *ildr51 we caught ! sunlight1 & focuss$ x1 & set bits ( pap] on fire2 & we long$ t our pray]s might be a l5s to focus ! ,love-light ( our ,god1 & set _! s\ls on fire4 ,j "o little bit ( enc\ragem5t may be told by way ( *e]4 ,bless+ w5t (f "o day to see if ! ,village ( ! ,w>rior 7 m fri5dlily incl9$1 & ,gold5 w5t to ! ,petra :]e !y v[$ !y w\ld nev] let u 94 ,be=e ,bless+ ent]$ ! village %e knelt d[n "u a banyan tree1 &1 rememb]+ ,abraham's s]vant1 pray$ = a sign to /r5g!n h] fai? t ,god w\ld "w 9 ! place4 ,:ile %e pray$ a *ild came & look$ at h]2 !n see+ h] pray1 %e said1 ,has t ,missie ,ammal s5t y :o came "h m ?an a ye> ago8 ,bless+ said ,yes4 ,!n ! *ild repeat$ ! *orus we _h taught ! *ildr5 t fir/ day4 ,none ( u =get1 %e said2 & told ,bless+ h[ ! p>5ts _h agre$ to all[ u to tea* if ev] we %\ld return4 ,! village _h be5 op5$4 ,he goe? be=e4 ,gold5's exp]i5ce 0 equally /r5g!n+ to our fai?4 ,9 ! v /reet :]e !y held a public demon/ration to cleanse ! road defil$ by our l[-ca/e pres5ce1 tw5ty h\ses h op5$1 :]e %e is a welcome visitor4 ,b all ?is is only = ,love's sake1 !y say4 ,!y d n yet want ,*ri/2 s let u focus ! light6 ,!n !re is ne$ = ! fire ( ,god to burn ! cords t hold s\ls d[n4 ,!re is "o ) :om ! ,_s /rove la/ ye> :5 we 7 "h4 ,b a cord ( s9 0 tw9$ r\nd h] s\l4 ,%e has a wick$ bro!r-9-law1 & a /ill m wick$ si/]1 & toge!r !y plott$ s evil a plot t1 hea!n ?\gh %e is1 %e recoil$1 & indignantly refus$4 ,s !y quietly drugg$ h] food1 & did z !y *ose ) h]4 ,& n[ ! knot %e did n tie1 & :i* %e :olly dete/$ at fir/1 seems d\bly knott$ by h] own w4 ,oh1 to "k bett] h[ to use ! burn+-glass ( pray]6 ,!re may be a c]ta9 am\nt ( s5tim5t1 !oretically at lea/1 9 break+ up new gr\nd4 ,! unkn[n holds possibilities1 & x allures "o on4 ,b 9 retrac+ ! track !re is no?+ :atev] ( ?is4 ,! broad daylight ( b>e tru? %[s y ev]y?+ j z x is4 ,w y look once m at ?+s j z !y are1 ?\gh x is n an int]e/+ look4 ,a c\rty>d :]e ! wom5 h (t5 he>d4 ,may we come 98 ,oh yes1 come 96 ,b ) u 9 comes an old fake] ( a specially villa9\s type4 ,8 body is pla/]$ all ov] ) mud2 he has no?+ on b mud4 ,8 hair is matt$ & p[d]$ ) a%es1 8 face is daub$ ) v]milion & yell[1 8 wick$ old eyes squ9t vici\sly1 & he %[s all 8 tee?1 crimson ) betel1 & sn>ls 8 v>i\s wants4 ,! wom5 say ,*ee6 ,!n he rolls 9 ! du/1 & squirms1 & wriggles1 & h[ls2 & he p\rs out su* unclean vials ( wra? t ! wom51 co]c$1 give him all he dem&s1 & he rolls (f else:]e4 ,n[ may we read to ! wom58 ,no6 ,_m salaams1 b !y h no "t4 ,la/ night !re 0 a royal r[ betwe5 two fri5ds 9 adjo9+ c\rty>ds1 & family hi/ories 7 laid b>e1 & p$igrees discov]$4 ,!y are discuss+ ^! ?+s to-day1 & hav+ he>d x all be=e1 !y h no "t to read4 ,ano!r c\rty>d1 m ref9$2 "h ! fake]'s opposite1 a dignifi$ ascetic1 sits 9 sil5t m$itation4 ,we "k x all6 ,y told u be=e6 ,b ! wom5 are fri5dly1 & we g 92 & aft] a long & e>ne/ talk ! :ite-hair$ gr&mo!r t\*es h] ros>y4 ,?is is my ladd] to heav54 ,! b]ries are f9e & set 9 *as$ gold1 b !y are only solidifi$ te>s1 te>s %$ 9 wra? by _! god1 !y say1 :i* resolv$ !mselves into ^! b]ries4 ,h[ c te>s make ladd]s to heav58 ,%e does n "k4 ,%e does n c>e4 ,& a laugh runs r\nd1 b "o's he>t does n laugh4 ,su* ladd]s are dang]\s4 ,ano!r h\se2 "h ! m5 are k9d1 & freely let u 9 & out4 ,! ,way1 !y say1 is v good2 !y h he>d ! ,iy] prea*4 ,b "o day !re is a /ir 9 ! h\se4 ,"o ( ! sons is v ill4 ,he has be5 suff]+ = "s "t2 n[ he is sudd5ly gett+ worse1 & suspicions are ar\s$4 ,!n ! wom5 :isp] ! tru?3 ! fa!r & he are at dagg]s drawn1 & ! fa!r is sl[ly poison+ him--small doses ( /ry*n9e are do+ ! "w4 ,! /ir is n v viol5t1 b q suffici5t to make an excuse = n want+ to li/5 well4 ,?is sort ( ?+ ?r[s u back ^u ,god4 ,"l1 tea* u to pray6 ,tea* u ! real secret ( fi]y f]v5cy 9 pray]4 ,we "k s little ( x4 ,"l1 tea* u to pray6 ,oh1 ,amma6 ,amma6 d n pray6 ,y\r pray]s are tr\bl+ me6 ,we all look$ up 9 a/oni%m5t4 ,we _h j _h our ,b& ,pray] ,meet+1 :5 a woman came ru%+ into ! room1 & began to exclaim l ?is4 ,%e 0 ! "m ( "o ( our girls1 ( :om ,i told y once be=e4 ,%e is /ill 9 ! ,t]rible's d54 ,n[ ! "m 0 all excitem5t1 & p\r$ out a curi\s /ory4 ,:5 y w5t away la/ ye> ,i pray$4 ,i pray$ & pray$1 & pray$ aga9 to my god to dispel y\r "w4 ,my daught]'s he>t 0 impress$ ) y\r words4 ,i cri$ to my god to wa% ! words out4 ,has he wa%$ !m out8 ,oh no6 ,& ,i pray$ = a bridegroom1 & "o came2 & ! c>t 0 ready to take h] away1 & a h9drance occurr$2 ! m>riage fell ?r\gh4 ,& ,i wept till my eyes well-nigh dissolv$4 ,& aga9 ano!r bridegroom came1 & aga9 an ob/acle occurr$4 ,& yet aga9 did a bridegroom come1 & yet aga9 an ob/acle2 & ,i _c get my daught] 'ti$1' & ! neighb\rs mock1 & my ,ca/e is disgrac$--& ! poor old "m cri$1 j sobb$ 9 h] %ame & confusion ( face4 ,!n ,i w5t to my god aga91 & said1 ',:at m c ,i (f] y8 ,h ,i n giv5 y all ,i h8 ,& y reject my pray]6' ,!n 9 a dream my god appe>$1 & he said1 ',tell ! ,*ri/ians n to pray4 ,i c d no?+ aga9/ _! pray]s4 ,_! pray]s are h9d]+ me6' ,& s1 ,i besee* y1 /op y\r pray]s = f\rte5 days--only f\rte5 days--till ,i get my daught] ti$6 ,& aft] %e is ti$8 we ask$4 ,oh1 !n %e may freely foll[ y\r ,god6 ,i w h9d] h] no m6 ,poor old "m6 ,all lies are all[$ :]e su* ?+s are conc]n$4 ,we knew ! propos$ bridegroom came f a place ?ree hundr$ miles di/ant1 & ! idea 0 to c>ry ! poor girl (f by =ce1 z soon z %e 0 ti$4 ,we h be5 pray+ night & day to ,god to h9d] ?is4 ,& ,he is h9d]+6 ,b !re is ne$ to g on4 ,t "m is a devotee4 ,%e has receiv$ ! afflatus4 ,sometimes at night x falls ^u h]1 & %e dances ! wild1 wick$ dance1 & tries to seize ! girl1 :o %r9ks into ! f>!/ corn] ( ! little h\se2 & %e dances r\nd h]1 & *ants ! *ant :i* ev5 9 daylight has p[] 9 x1 b :i* at night appeals unspeakably4 ,once ! girl almo/ gave way1 & !n 9 h] desp]ation1 h>dly kn[+ ! s9 ( x1 ran to ! place :]e poison 0 kept1 drank en\gh to kill two1 /raight (f1 !n lay d[n on ! floor to die4 ,bett] die ?an d :at !y want$ h] to d1 %e ?\ght4 ,b !y f\nd out :at %e _h done1 & dra/ic means 7 imm$iately us$1 & ! poison only made h] ill1 & caus$ h] days ( viol5t pa94 ,s !re is ne$ = ! h9d]+ pray]4 ,"l1 tea* u h[ to pray6 ,is ,india cramm$ ) ! horrible8 ,picturesque1 !y call x1 :o h done x 9 a mon? or two1 & writt5 a book to describe x4 ,& ! mo/ picturesque "p1 !y agree1 is connect$ ) ! temples4 ,india ends (f 9 a po9t$ rock2 y c /& at ! v po9t ( ! rock1 ) only ocean be=e y1 & almo/ all ,asia beh9d4 ,a temple is set at ! end ( ! po9t1 z if claim+ ! l& = its own4 ,we took our conv]t boys & girls to ! ,cape = ! ,*ri/mas holidays1 & "o morn+ "s ( u sp5t an h\r "u an old wall ne> ! temple1 :i* wall1 be+ full ( h]mit crabs1 is v int]e/+4 ,we 7 wat*+ ! ent]ta9+ ways ( ^! deg5]ate creatures :51 ?r\gh ! s(t sea s\nds1 we he>d ! s\nd ( a ,brahman's voice1 & look+ up1 saw ?is3 ,a little gr\p ( five1 sitt+ betwe5 ! rocks & ! sea1 giv+ a t\* ( life to ! sc5e1 & mak+ ! picture p]fect4 ,!re 7 two m51 a woman1 a *ild1 & ! prie/4 ,!y 7 all m>k$ ) ! ,v-%ap$ ,vi%nu m>k4 ,! prie/ tw9$ ! sacr$ ,kusa grass r\nd ! f+]s ( 8 "r h&1 & gave ea* a h&ful ( grass1 & !y did z he _h done4 ,!n !y /rew$ ! grass on ! s&1 to purify x f ta9t ( e>?1 & !n !y began4 ,! prie/ *ant$ names ( ,god1 !n /opp$1 & drew signs on ! s&4 ,!y foll[$ him exactly4 ,!n !y ba!d1 b[+ to ! ,ea/ betwe5 ea* dip1 & wor%ipp+2 !n return$ & repeat$ x all4 ,b be=e repeat+ x1 !y c>efully pa9t$ ! m>ks on _! =eheads1 us+ :ite & r$ pigm5t1 & consult+ a small ,engli% h& mirror--! "o incongru\s bit ( ,we/ 9 ?is ,ea/1 b symbolical ( ! times4 ,! *ild foll[$ x all1 z a *ild w1 9 its pretty way4 ,%e 0 a da9ty little ?+ 9 a crimson seeley & _m gold jewels4 ,! eld] woman 0 dress$ 9 d>k gre52 ! col\r+ 0 a joy to ! eye1 crimson & gre51 & ! br[n ( ! rock1 aga9/ ! blue ( ! sea4 ,x 0 "o ( ^? exquisite morn+s we (t5 h 9 ! ,tropics1 :5 ev]y?+ ev]y:]e %[s y ,god2 %9es ! ^w out l a ^w illum9$2 s+s x out 9 ! ,univ]se ,song2 & "h 9 ?is ,s\? ni*e ( ,nature's ca!dral1 "u ! sky's transp>5cy1 ^! five1 9 ! only way !y knew1 ackn[l$g$ ! ,pres5ce ( "o great ,god1 & wor%ipp$ ,him4 ,!re 0 no?+ revolt+ "h1 no h9t ( repulsive idolatry4 ,!y wor%ipp$ ! ,unse54 ,v /ately ! ,sanscrit s\nd$ 9 :i* !y *ant$ _! adoration4 ,k+ ( ,imm5sity6 ,k+ ( ,et]nity6 ,b\ndless1 ,endless1 ,inf9ite ,"o6 ,x might h be5 ! e*o ( "s anci5t ,*ri/ian hymn4 ,x might h be51 b x 0 n4 ,!y are n wor%ipp+ ,god ! ,"l4 ,!y might be1 b !y are n4 ,^: is ! responsibility8 ,is x p>tly y\rs & m9e8 ,! beauty ( ! sc5e has pass$ f u2 ! blue ( ! blue sky is blott$ out-- ,only l s\ls ,i see ! folk !reund]1 ,b\nd :o %\ld conqu]1 slaves :o %\ld be k+s2 ,he>+ _! "o hope ) an empty wond]1 ,sadly cont5t$ ) a %[ ( ?+s4 ,!n ) a ru% ! intol]able crav+ ,%iv]s ?r\gh\t me l a trumpet call3 ,oh to save ^!6 ,to p]i% = _! sav+1 ,die = _! life1 be (f]$ = !m all6 ,! picture is made ( s\ls--s\ls to be sav$4 ,oh to save ^!6 ,to p]i% = _! sav+6 ,t is :at ! picture says4 ,picture6 ,!re is no picture4 ,9 ! place :]e x 01 !re is simply a pa9--,god's _w1 & ,god di%on\r$ 9 x6 ,oh to see ^! p z s\ls6 ,ref9$ or vulg>1 beautiful or horrible1 or j dull1 oh to see !m only z s\ls1 & to ye>n ov] !m1 & pray = !m z s\ls :o mu/ live et]nally some:]e1 & = :om ea* ( u1 9 our measure1 is responsible to ,god4 ,d y say we are n responsible = ^? p>ticul> s\ls8 ,:o said t sort ( ?+ fir/8 ,:]e we disav[ be+ keep] to our bro!r we're 8 ,ca94 ,if we are n responsible1 :y d we take ! responsibility ( appeal+ to !m 9 impassion$ poetry8 ,let e k9dr$1 e tribe1 ,on ?is t]re/rial ball1 ,to ,him all maje/y ascribe1 ,& cr[n ,him ,"l ( all6 ,:at is ! po9t ( tell+ p to d a c]ta9 ?+ if we h no conc]n 9 :e!r !y d x or n8 ,! angels & ! m>tyrs & ! sa9ts1 to :om we appeal$ be=e1 h cr[n$ ,him long ago4 ,our s++ to !m on ! subject w make no diff]5ce ei!r way2 b :5 we turn to e k9dr$ & tribe1 ! case alt]s4 ,h[ c !y cr[n ,him ,"l ( all :5 !y d n "k ab\t ,him8 ,:y d !y n "k ab\t ,him8 ,because we h n told !m4 ,x is true t _m :om we h told he>d _! "o hope ) an empty wond]2 b1 on ! o!r h&1 x is true t ! ev]la/+ song rises full] to-day because ( ^? :o1 out 9 ?is d>k hea!ndom1 he>d1 & respond$1 & cr[n$ ,him ,k+4 ,b s++ hymns f a di/ance w nev] save s\ls4 ,by ,god's grace1 com+ & giv+ & pray+ w4 ,are we prep>$ = ?is8 ,or w\ld we r s+8 ,se>*] ( he>ts1 turn ,?y se>*-light ^u u6 ,are we com+1 giv+1 pray+ till x hurts8 ,are we pray+1 yea agonis+ 9 pray]8 or is pray] b a pleasant ex]cise--a holy relief = our feel+s8 ,we h sat toge!r "u ! wall by ! ,s\!rn sea4 ,we h look$ at ! five z !y wor%ipp$ ,ano!r1 & n our ,god4 ,n[ let ?is little ,s\? w9d[ be l a little cle> pane ( glass1 ?r\gh :i* y may look up f> to ! ,nor?1 ov] ! bord] c\ntries & ! m\nta9s to ,tibet1 ov] ,tibet & away ?r\gh ! va/ness ( ,c5tral ,asia1 on to ,*9a1 ,mongolia1 ,man*uria2 & ev5 !n y h only se5 a few ( ! great d>k ,nor!rn l&s1 :i* wait & wait--= y4 ,& ?is is only ,asia1 only a "p ( ,asia4 ,god looks d[n on all ! _w2 & = e "o ( ! millions :o h nev] cr[n$ ,him ,k+1 ,*ri/ wore ! cr[n ( ?orns4 ,:at d we c\nt ^! millions wor?8 ,d we c\nt !m wor? ! re>rangem5t ( our day1 t we may h m "t to pray8 ,d we c\nt !m wor? ! lay+ d[n ( a s+le ambition1 ! loos5+ ( our hold on a s+le *ild or fri5d8 ,d we c\nt !m wor? ! yield+ up ( any?+ we c>e = v mu*8 ,let u be /ill = a mom5t & ?9k4 ,*ri/ c\nt$ s\ls wor? ,calv>y4 ,:at d we c\nt !m wor?8 ,,*apt] ,,xxx ,two ,safe ,god has giv5 me ! hung] & ?ir/ = s\ls2 w ,he leave me unsatisfi$8 ,no v]ily4 ,james ,gilm\r1 ,mongolia4 ,t "o s\l has be5 br\ght to ,*ri/ 9 ! mid/ ( su* ho/ile influ5ces is s entirely & m>vell\sly ! ,holy ,_s's "w1 t ,i am sometimes ov]joy$ to h be5 9 any degree in/rum5tal 9 effect+ ! emancipation ( "o4 ,rob]t ,noble1 ,india4 ,,two ( our boys are safe4 ,!y left u v sudd5ly4 ,we c h>dly realise !y are gone4 ,! y\ng] "o 0 our special boy1 ! fir/ ( ! boys to come1 a v de> lad4 ,i ?9k ( him z ,i saw him ! la/ ev5+ we all sp5t toge!r1 /&+ out on a wave-wa%$ rock1 ! w9d 9 8 hair & 8 face wet ) spray1 rejoic+ 9 x all4 ,n ano!r boy d>e g & /& 9 ! mid/ ( t see?+ foam1 b ! spice ( dang] drew him4 ,he 0 su* a ?or\gh boy6 ,! call to leave 8 home = ,*ri/ came to him 9 an op5-air meet+ held 9 8 village two ye>s ago4 ,!n !re 0 bitt]e/ %ame to endure4 ,8 fa!r & "m1 agha/ & di/ress$1 did all !y c\ld to prev5t ! disgrace incurr$ by 8 op5 confession ( ,*ri/4 ,he 0 an only son1 heir to consid]able prop]ty1 s ! matt] 0 mo/ s]i\s4 ,! fa!r lov$ him de>ly2 b he n]v$ himself to flog ! boy1 & twice he 0 ti$ up & flogg$4 ,b !y say he nev] wav]$2 only 8 "m's te>s he f\nd h>de/ to )/&4 ,weeks pass$ ( /eadfa/ confession1 & !n x came to ! place ( *oice betwe5 ,*ri/ & home4 ,he *ose ,*ri/1 & e>ly "o morn+ left all to foll[ ,him4 ,d y ?9k x 0 easy8 ,he 0 a lov+ boy4 ,c\ld x h be5 easy to /ab 8 "m's he>t8 ,:5 ! h\sehold woke t morn+ he 0 on 8 way to u4 ,! fa!r ga!r$ 8 clansm51 & !y came 9 a cr[d to ! bungal[4 ,!y sat on ! floor 9 a circle1 ) ! boy 9 _! mid/1 & !y plead$4 ,i rememb] ! ?rob ( t mom5t n[4 ,a s+le pulse seem$ to beat 9 ! room1 s t5se 0 ! t5sion1 until he spoke out bravely4 ,i w n g back1 he said4 ,!y promis$ ev]y?+--a h\se1 l&s1 8 inh]itance to be giv5 at once1 a wife ) a ri* d[ry ( jewels--all a ,tamil boy mo/ desires !y (f]$ him4 ,& !y promis$ him fre$om to wor%ip ,god2 only come back & save y\r ,ca/e1 & d n break y\r "m's he>t & disgrace y\r family4 ,day aft] day !y came1 sometimes s+ly1 sometimes 9 gr\ps1 b ! "m nev] came4 ,!y describ$ h] 9 he>t-mov+ language4 ,%e nei!r ate nor slept1 !y said1 b sat ) h] hair undone1 & wept & wail$ ! dea?-wail = h] son4 ,at la/ !y gave up com+1 & we 7 reliev$1 = ! long-cont9u$ /ra9 0 sev]e2 & ?\gh he nev] wav]$1 we knew ! boy felt x4 ,we us$ to he> him pray+ = 8 p1 p\r+ out 8 he>t :5 he ?\ght no "o 0 ne>1 sobb+ sometimes z he nam$ _! names4 ,! entreaty 9 ! tone w\ld make our eyes wet4 ,if only he c\ld h liv$ at home & be5 a ,*ri/ian !re6 ,b we knew :at _h happ5$ to o!rs1 & we d>e n s5d him back4 ,!n a ye> or s aft]w>d we all w5t to ! wat] toge!r1 & he & ?ree o!rs 7 baptis$4 ,! fir/ to g d[n into ! wat] 0 ! eld] boy1 ,%9+ ( ,victory4 ,%9+ ( ,life 0 second4 ,a few weeks ( bright life--^? happy days by ! sea--& !n 9 ! same ord]1 & call$ by ! same mess5g]--! swift ,indian mess5g]1 *ol]a--!y bo? w5t d[n into ! o!r wat]1 & cross$ ov] to ! o!r side4 ,%9+ ( ,life 0 well 9 ! morn+1 dead 9 ! ev5+4 ,:5 fir/ ! pa9 seiz$ him he 0 />tl$4 ,!n1 und]/&+1 he lay d[n 9 peace4 ,! hea!n cr[d$ 94 ,!y c\ld n be kept out4 ,!y taunt$ him z he lay4 ,?is is y\r rew>d = break+ y\r ,ca/e6 !y said4 ,! agony ( *ol]a 0 on him4 ,he c\ld n say mu*1 b he po9t$ up1 ,d n tr\ble me2 ?is is ! way by :i* ,i am go+ to ,jesus1 & he tri$ to s+ a l9e f "o ( our *oruses1 ,my ,/r5g? & my ,r$eem]1 my ,refuge--,jesus6 ,8 p>5ts _h be5 s5t = z soon z x 0 kn[n t he 0 ill4 ,!y hurri$ ov]1 ! poor despair+ "m cry+ al\d implor+ly to ! gods :o did n he>4 ,he po9t$ up aga92 he 0 almo/ pa/ spee* !n1 b he tri$ to say ,jesus & ,come4 ,!n1 :ile ! hea!n /ood & mock$1 & ! "m beat h] brea/ & wail$1 & ! fa!r1 sil5t 9 8 grief1 j /ood & look$ at 8 son1 ! boy pass$ quietly away4 ,!y h>dly believ$ him dead4 ,oh1 we miss him s mu*6 ,& our he>ts a*e = 8 p1 = !y m\rn z ^? :o h no hope4 ,b ,god kn[s :y ,he took him2 we "k x is all "r4 ,e memory ( him is good4 ,:5 ! fir/ %>p /ra9 0 ov] we f\nd :at a ?or\gh boy he 01 & 9 t week by ! sea all ! life & fun 9 him came out1 & he revell$ 9 ! ba?+ & boat+1 & ?rew 8 :ole he>t into ! holiday4 ,we _h _m hopes = him2 he 0 s full ( promise & ! en]gy ( life4 ,& n[ x is all ov] = bo?4 ,0 x wor? ! pa9 x co/8 ,su* a %ort "t to witness1 0 x wor? :ile8 ,x is true x 0 v %ort4 ,mo/ ( ! little space betwe5 _! com+ & _! go+ 0 fill$ ) prep>ation = a future ( s]vice "h4 ,& yet 9 t little "t ea* ( ! two f\nd "o o!r boy :o1 p]haps1 w\ld nev] h be5 f\nd if ! co/ _h be5 c\nt$ too great4 ,& ,i ?9k1 if y c\ld ask !m n[1 !y w\ld tell y ,jesus' welcome made x f> m ?an wor? :ile4 ,,*apt] ,,xxxi ,?ree ,objections ,may ,i h grace to live above e human motive2 simply ) ,god & to ,god1 & n sway$1 especially 9 mission>y "w1 by ! op9ions ( p n acqua9t$ ) ! /ate ( ?+s1 ^: judgm5t may be contr>y to my own4 ,h5ry ,m>tyn1 ,india4 ,,^! lett]s h be5 put toge!r to help our comrades at home to realise some?+ ( ! nature ( ! =ces rang$ aga9/ u1 t !y may br+ ! ,sup]human to be> ^u ! sup]human1 & pray ) an intellig5ce & int5sity impossible to un9=m$ fai?4 ,we h long en\gh "u-e/imat$ ! might ( ! ,actual4 ,we ne$ m ( ,abraham's type ( fai?1 :i*1 )\t be+ weak5$1 consid]$ ! facts1 & !n1 look+ unto ! promise1 wav]$ n1 b wax$ /rong4 ,ignorant fai? does n help u mu*4 ,"s ye>s ago1 :5 ! fir/ girl-conv]t came1 fri5ds wrote rejoic+ t n[ ! wall ( ,ca/e mu/ give way2 !y expect$ soon to he> x _h4 ,z if a gra9 ( du/ fall+ f "o ( ! bricks 9 t wall w\ld 9 anywise %ake ! wall itself6 ,su* fai? is k9d1 b !re x ends4 ,x talks ( :at x kn[s n4 ,!n1 z to ! p !mselves1 !re are c]ta9 fallacies :i* die h>d4 ,we read1 ! o!r day1 9 a home pap]1 t x 0 a well-kn[n fact t ,indian wom5 nev] smile4 ,we 7 surpris$ to he> x4 ,we _h n notic$ x4 ,p]haps1 if !y 7 "o & all s abnormally depress$1 we %\ld f9d !m less unwill+ to welcome ! ,glad ,tid+s4 ,aga91 we read t y c di/+ui% betwe5 hea!n & ,*ri/ian by ! wond]ful light on ! ,*ri/ians' faces1 z comp>$ ) ! sad expression on ! faces ( ! poor b5ight$ hea!n4 ,x is true t "s ,*ri/ians are really illum9at$1 b1 z a :ole1 ! hea!n are s rem>kably *e]ful t ! diff]5ce is n s def9$ z "o might ?9k4 ,!n1 aga91 we read 9 descriptive articles on ,india t ! we>y1 hopeless long+ ( ! p is mo/ t\*+4 ,b we f9d t our *ief difficulty is to get !m to believe t !re is any?+ to long =4 ,r we w\ld describe !m z ^? :o ?9k !y h ne$ ( no?+1 kn[+ n t !y h ne$ ( ev]y?+4 ,& aga9 & aga9 we read ?rill+ descriptions ( ,india's wom5 /&+ ) _! h&s /ret*$ out t[>ds ,god4 ,!y may d ?is 9 visions2 9 reality !y d n4 ,& x is ! utt] abs5ce ( all ?is sort ( ?+ :i* makes y\r help a necessity to u4 ,b none ( y c pray 9 ! way we want y to pray1 unless ! m9d is conv9c$ t ! ?+ conc]n+ :i* su* pray] is ask$ is :olly j & "r2 & x seems to u t _m ( ^? :o h foll[$ ! ,/ory ( ?is ,w> may h d\bts ab\t ! "r ( x--! "r1 = example1 ( conv]ts leav+ _! homes = ,*ri/'s sake & ,8 ,gospel's4 ,all w be 9 sympa?y ) u :5 we try to save little *ildr51 b p]haps "s are out ( sympa?y :5 we d :at results 9 sorr[ & misund]/&+--n peace1 b a sword4 ,s we purpose n[ to ga!r up into ?ree1 "s ( ! _m objections :i* are (t5 urg$ ^u ^? engag$ 9 ?is sort ( "w1 because we feel t !y ought to be fac$ & answ]$ if possible1 le/ we lose someone's prevail+ pray]4 ,! fir/ set ( objections may be cond5s$ into a "q z to ! "r or o!rwise ( our =c+ our religion ^u ^? :o d n want x4 ,we are rem9d$ t ! "w is mo/ disc\rag+1 conv]sions are r>e1 & :5 !y occur !y seem to create ! greate/ confusion4 ,x is evid5t en\gh t nei!r we nor our ,gospel are desir$2 & no wond]1 :5 ! conditions ( disciple%ip involve s mu*4 ,we %\ld n l /rang]s to come & int]f]e ) our religion1 write ! fri5ds :o object1 & draw our *ildr5 away f u2 we %\ld greatly res5t x4 ,no wond] ! ,h9dus d6 ,& "o read] ( ! lett]s wrote t %e wond]$ h[ ! girls :o came out ev] c\ld be happy = a mom5t aft] hav+ done su* a wrong & he>tless ?+ z to disobey _! p>5ts4 ,!y ri*ly des]ve all !y suff]1 %e wrote4 ,x is a p]fect %ame & disgrace = a girl to des]t h] own p6 ,"o turns f ! read+ ( ! lett]1 & looks at ! faces ( ^? :o h done x2 & kn[+ h[ !y ne$ e bit ( pray]-help "o c w9 = !m1 "o feels x w be wor? :ile try+ to %[ ^? :o blame !m :y !y d x1 & h[ x is !y _c d o!rwise if !y w\ld be true to ,*ri/4 ,?is objection z to ! "r or wrong ( ! "w z a :ole1 leads to ano!r relat+ to baptism4 ,x is a s]i\s ?+ to ?9k ( families divid$ ^u que/ions ( religion2 surely x w\ld be bett] t a conv]t %\ld live a consi/5t ,*ri/ian life at home1 ev5 )\t baptism1 ?an t %e %\ld break up ! peace ( ! h\sehold by leav+ h] home altoge!r8 ,or1 hav+ be5 baptis$1 %\ld %e n return home & live !re z a ,*ri/ian8 ,la/ly--& ?is comes 9 lett]s f ^? :o1 m ?an any1 are 9 sympa?y ) u--:y n devote our en]gies to "w ( a m fruitful "*8 ,we are rem9d$ ( ! mass-movem5t type ( "w1 9 :i* nations are born 9 a day2 & (t51 too1 ( ! nom9al ,*ri/ians :o sorely ne$ m enlight5m5t4 ,:y n "w along ! l9e ( lea/ resi/ance1 :]e conv]sion to ,god does n ( necessity mean fire & sword1 & :]e 9 a week we c\ld w9 m s\ls ?an 9 ye>s ( ?is unresultful "w8 ,we frankly admit t ^! objections & proposals are naturally reasonable1 & t :at !y /ate is p]fectly true4 ,x is true t "w among high-ca/e ,h9dus all ov] ,india 7z among ,moslems all ov] ! _w7 is v difficult4 ,x is true t op5 confession ( ,*ri/ creates disa/r\s division 9 families4 ,x is true !re is o!r "w to be done4 ,especially we feel ! =ce ( ! second objection rais$4 ,we fully recognise t ! "r ?+ is = ! conv]t to live among h] own p1 & let h] light %9e 9 h] own home2 & we deplore ! t]rible wr5* involv$ 9 :at is kn[n z com+ out4 ,to a p s t5aci\s ( cu/om z ! ,indians are1 to a nature s affectionate z ! ,indian nature is1 ?is cutt+ across ( all home ties is a v cruel ?+4 ,& n[1 only t we may n miss y\r pray]1 we set ourselves to try to answ] y4 ,&1 fir/ ( all1 let u grasp ?is fact3 x is n fair1 nor is x wise1 to comp>e "w1 & success 9 "w1 betwe5 "o set ( p & ano!r1 because ! conditions "u :i* t "w is c>ri$ on are diff]5t1 & ! unse5 =ces br\ght to be> aga9/ x diff] 9 "* & 9 p[]4 ,!re is sometimes m result writt5 d[n 9 a s+le column ( a religi\s weekly ?an is to be f\nd 9 ! #fdf pages ( "o ( ! noble/ mission>y books ( mod]n days1 ,on ! ,?re%old ( ,c5tral ,africa4 ,or take two typical opposite lives1 ,moody's & ,gilm\r's4 ,moody saw m s\l-w9n+ 9 a day ?an ,gilm\r 9 8 tw5ty-"o ye>s4 ,x 0 n t ! m5 diff]$4 ,bo? knew ! ,baptism ( ,p[]1 bo? liv$ 9 ,*ri/ & lov$4 ,b ^! are extremes 9 comp>ison2 take two1 bo? mission>ies1 tw9 bro!rs 9 _s1 ,bra9]d ( ,nor? ,am]ica & ,h5ry ,m>tyn ( ,india4 ,bra9]d saw _m com+ to ,jesus2 ,m>tyn h>dly "o4 ,ea* 0 a pione] mission>y1 ea* 0 a flame ( fire4 ,n[ let me burn out = ,god1 wrote ,h5ry ,m>tyn1 & he did x4 ,b ! conditions "u :i* ea* work$ v>i$ z widely spiritually z !y v>i$ climatically4 ,c we comp>e _! "w1 or measure x by its visible results8 ,did ,god8 ,let u leave (f comp>+ ?is ) t--we d n "k en\gh to comp>e4 ,let u leave (f weigh+ et]nal ?+s & balanc+ s\ls 9 e>?ly scales4 ,only ,god's scales are suffici5tly s5sitive = su* delicate "w z t4 ,we take up ! objections "o by "o4 ,fir/1 ,:y d y g :]e y are n want$8 ,we g because we believe our ,ma/] told u to g4 ,he said1 all ! _w1 & e creature4 ,our m>*+ ord]s are v famili>4 ,g ye into all ! _w & prea* ! ,gospel to e creature4 ,all ! _w means ev]y:]e 9 x1 e creature means ev]yone 9 x4 ,^! ord]s are s explicit t !re is no room to "q :at !y mean4 ,all mission>ies 9 all ages h s und]/ood ^! words all & e4 ,ne>ly sev5 hundr$ ye>s ago ! fir/ mission>y to ! ,moslems f\nd no welcome1 only a prison2 b he nev] d\bt$ he 0 s5t to !m4 ,god wills x1 he said1 & w5t aga94 ,!y /on$ him !n1 & he di$--di$1 b nev] d\bt$ he 0 s5t4 ,our ,ma/] ,himself w5t n only to ! common p1 :o he>d ,him gladly1 b to ! prie/ly & political classes1 :o _h no desire = ! tru?4 ,ye w n come to ,me t ye might h life1 ,he said1 & yet ,he gave !m ! *ance to come by go+ to !m4 ,! words1 ,if any man ?ir/1 let him come unto ,me & dr9k1 7 spok5 to an audi5ce :i* 0 n ?ir/+ = ! ,gospel4 ,/4 ,paul w\ld will+ly h sp5t 8 /r5g? prea*+ ! ,^w 9 ,asia1 especially 9 ,galatia1 :]e ! p lov$ him well2 b he 0 "u ord]s1 & he w5t to ,europe1 to ,philippi1 :]e he 0 put 9 prison2 to ,!ssalonica1 :]e ! opposition 0 s /rong t he _h to flee away by night2 to ,a!ns1 :]e he 0 ! butt ( ! philosoph]s4 ,b ,god gave s\ls 9 ea* ( ^! places2 only a few 9 comp>ison to ! great indiff]5t cr[d1 b he w\ld tell y ^? few 7 wor? go+ =4 ,y w\ld n h _h him miss a ,lydia1 a ,dam>is8 ,above all1 y w\ld n h _h him disobey 8 ,"l's comm&8 ,s :e!r our message is welcom$ or n1 ! fact rema9s we mu/ g to all2 & ! worse !y are & ! h>d] !y are1 ! m evid5t is x t1 want$ or n1 x is ne$$ by !m4 ,m4 ,coill>d 0 robb$ by ! p he _h travell$ f> to f9d4 ,y see we made no mi/ake1 he writes1 9 br++ ! ,gospel to ! ,zambesi4 ,! second objection is1 ,:y break up families by insi/+ on baptism z a s9e qu non ( disciple%ip8 ,& aga9 we answ]1 ,because we believe our ,ma/] tells u to4 ,he said1 ,baptis+ !m 9 ! ,"n ( ! ,fa!r1 & ( ! ,son1 & ( ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,:at "r h we1 ,8 s]vants1 to /op %ort ( full ob$i5ce8 ,did ,he n "k ! conditions ( high-ca/e ,h9du life 9 ,india :5 ,he gave ?is comm&8 ,0 ,he ignorant ( ! break+ up ( families :i* ob$i5ce to x w\ld involve8 ,suppose ye t ,i am come to give peace on e>?8 ,i tell y nay1 b r division4 ,& !n come words :i* we h se5 liv$ out lit]ally 9 ! case ( e high-ca/e conv]t :o has come4 ,= f h5ce=? !re %all be five 9 "o h\se divid$1 ?ree aga9/ two1 & two aga9/ ?ree4 ,! fa!r %all be divid$ aga9/ ! son1 & ! son aga9/ ! fa!r2 ! "m aga9/ ! daught]1 & ! daught] aga9/ ! "m2 ! "m-9-law aga9/ h] daught]-9-law1 & ! daught]-9-law aga9/ h] "m-9-law4 ,^! are truly awful v]ses2 no "o kn[s bett] ?an ! mission>y h[ awful !y are4 ,!re are times :5 we c h>dly be> ! pa9 caus$ by ! sight ( ?is division4 ,b are we m t5d] ?an ! ,t5d] ,"o8 ,is our sympa?y tru] ?an ,88 ,c we look up into ,8 eyes & say1 ,x co/s !m too mu*1 ,"l2 x co/s u too mu*1 to fully obey ,!e 9 ?is8 ,b grant$ ! comm& holds1 :y %\ld n ! baptis$ conv]t return home & live !re8 ,because he is n want$ !re1 z a ,*ri/ian4 ,exceptions to ?is rule are r>e 7we are speak+ ( ,ca/e ,h9dus71 & c usually be expla9$ by "s ext5uat+ circum/ance4 ,! high-ca/e woman :o said to u1 ,i _c live "h & break my ,ca/e2 if ,i break x ,i mu/ g1 spoke ! tru?4 ,keep+ ,ca/e includes )9 itself ! obs]vance ( c]ta9 cu/oms :i* by _! v nature are idolatr\s4 ,break+ ,ca/e means break+ ?r\gh ^! cu/oms2 & "o :o habitually disreg>d$ & disobey$ rules1 consid]$ b9d+ & au?oritative by all ! re/ ( ! h\sehold1 w\ld n be tol]at$ 9 an or?odox ,h9du home4 ,x is n a "q ( p]secution or dea?1 or ( want+ or n want+ to be !re2 x is a "q ( n be+ want$ !re1 unless1 inde$1 %e w compromise4 ,compromise is ! "o op5 door back into ! old home1 & ,god only kn[s :at x co/s :5 ! *oice is made & t "o door is %ut4 ,?is ev]-recurr+ reit]ation ( ! p[] & ! bondage ( ,ca/e may seem almo/ we>isome1 b ! ^w1 & :at lies beh9d x1 is ! "o great answ] to a ?\s& que/ions1 & s x comes aga9 & aga94 ,9 ,s\!rn ,india especially1 & /ill m s 9 ?is little fraction ( x1 & 9 ! adjo9+ k+doms ( ,travancore & ,co*91 ,ca/e feel+ is s /rong t sometimes x is said t ,ca/e is ! religion ( ,s\? ,india4 ,b ev]y:]e all ov] ,india x is1 to e or?odox ,h9du1 "p ( 8 v self4 ,get 8 ,ca/e out ( him8 ,c y8 ,y w\ld h to dra9 him ( 8 life-blood fir/4 ,x is ! /r5g? ( ?is ,ca/e _s :i* 9 ,s\? ,india causes x to take ! =m ( a det]m9ation to get ! conv]t back4 ,promises are giv5 t !y may live z ,*ri/ians at home4 ,we w s5d y 9 a b&y to *ur* e ,sunday6--promises giv5 to be brok54 ,if ! conv]t is a boy1 he may possibly reappe>4 ,if a girl--,i 0 go+ to say nev]2 b ,i rememb] he>+ ( "o :o did reappe>1 aft] sev5te5 ye>s imprisonm5t--a wreck4 ,s5d !m back1 d y say8 ,?9k ( ! dott$ l9es 9 "s *apt]s y h read2 pond] ! ?+s !y cov]2 !n s5d !m back if y c4 ,! ?ird objection divides into two halves4 ,! fir/ half is1 ,:y d y n g to ! ,*ri/ians8 ,to :i* we answ]1 we d1 & = exactly ! same reason z t :i* we h giv5 twice be=e1 because our ,ma/] told u to d s4 ,our m>*+ ord]s are ?reefold1 "o ord] conc]n+ ea* =m ( s]vice t\*$ by ! ?ree objections4 ,! ?ird ord] t\*es ?is1 ,tea*+ !m to obs]ve all ?+s :atsoev] ,i h comm&$ y4 ,s we g1 & try to tea* !m ! all ?+s2 & "s ( !m le>n !m1 & g to tea* o!rs1 & s ! message ( a full ,gospel spreads1 & ! ,bride gets ready = ! ,bridegroom4 ,! second half ( ?is la/ objection is1 ,:y n d easi] "w8 ,!re are s _m :o are m accessible1 :y n g to !m8 ,& !re does seem to be po9t 9 ! sugge/ion t if !re are op5 doors1 x might be bett] to ent] into !m1 r ?an keep on knock+ at clos$ ones4 ,we d seek to ent] ! s-call$ op5 doors1 b we nev] f9d !y are s v wide op5 :5 x is kn[n t we br+ no?+ tangible ) u4 ,spiritual ?+s are n consid]$ any?+ by mo/4 ,/ill1 "w among su* is inf9itely easi]1 & _m1 comp>atively speak+1 are do+ x4 ,! l>g] numb] "h are work+ among ! ,*ri/ians1 ! next l>g] numb] among ! ,masses1 & ! fewe/ always1 ev]y:]e1 among ! ,classes1 :]e conv]sion involves su* t]rible conflicts ) ! ,evil ,"o1 t all t is human 9 "o fa9ts & fails z x confronts ! co/ ( e victory4 ,b real conv]sion any:]e co/s4 ,by conv]sion we mean some?+ m ?an re=mation2 t raises few] /orms4 ,! k9d ( "w1 h[ev]1 :i* m ?an any o!r seems to fasc9ate fri5ds at home is :at is kn[n z ! mass movem5t1 & ?\gh we h t\*$ ^u x be=e1 p]haps we _h bett] expla9 m fully :at x really is4 ,?is movem5t1 or r ! visible result !re(1 is (t5 dilat$ ^u mo/ raptur\sly4 ,i quote f a ,w9t] ,visitor3 ,*ri/ian *ur*es c\nt$ by ! ?\s&1 _! memb]s by ! million2 :ole di/ricts are ,*ri/ian1 entire communities are trans=m$4 ,& we look at "o ano!r1 & ask ea* o!r1 ,:]e8 ,b to t "q c]ta9 w\ld answ] joy\sly1 ,"h6 ,!re are missions 9 ,india :]e ! av[$ policy is to baptise p at ! outset1 n on evid5ce ( :at is popul>ly call$ conv]sion4 4 4 4 ,we baptise !m 'unto' ! baptism ( ! ,holy ,_s1 & n because we h reason to believe t !y h receiv$ ! ,_s's baptism1--we quote a lead] 9 ! movem5t1 & he goes on to say1 if x is insi/$ t we %\ld wait until ?is *ange 7conv]sion7 is effect$ be=e baptis+ !m1 we reply t 9 mo/ cases we w\ld h to wait = a long "t1 & (t5 see ! poor creatures die )\t ! *ange4 ,( c\rse e ef=t is made by revival s]vices & camp meet+s to br+ ^! baptis$ ,*ri/ians to a true k ( ,*ri/1 & x is consid]$ t ?is policy yields m fruit ?an ! o!r1 :i* puts conv]sion fir/ & baptism second4 ,x is c]ta9ly ri*] 9 results1 = among ! depress$ classes & c]ta9 ( ! middle ,ca/es1 among :om alone ! s*eme c be c>ri$ out1 !re is no d\bt t _m are f\nd ready to embrace ,*ri/ianity1 z ! phrase goes1 sometimes g5u9ely feel+ x is ! true religion1 & desir+ to und]/& x1 sometimes = :at !y c get4 ,x mu/ be admitt$--= we want to /ate ! case fairly--t a mass movem5t gives "o a spl5did *ance to prea* ,*ri/1 & tea* ,8 ,gospel day by day4 ,& ! p[] 9 x does lay hold ( "s2 we h e>ne/ m5 & wom5 work+ & w9n+ o!rs to-day1 fruit ( ! mass movem5t ( _m ye>s ago4 ,b on ! :ole1 we fe> x1 & d n enc\rage x "h4 ,! dead weight ( hea!nism is heavy en\gh1 b :5 y pile on ! top ( t ! incubus ( a dead ,*ri/ianity--= a nom9al ?+ is dead--!n y are t]ribly weight$ d[n & h&icapp$1 z y try to g =w>d to break up new gr\nd4 ,s1 ?\gh we sympa?ise ) ev]y?+ t t5ds t[>ds life & light 9 ,india1 & rejoice ) our bro!rs :o b9d %eaves1 believ+ t ?\gh all is n g5u9e corn1 "s is1 yet we feel compell$ to give ourselves ma9ly to "w ( a "* :i*1 by its v nature1 c nev] be popul>1 & possibly nev] successful f a /ati/ical po9t ( view1 nev]1 till ! ,k+ comes1 ,^: ,com+ is our hope4 ,,*apt] ,,xxxii ,%[ me ,?y ,glory6 ,ye/]day ,i 0 call$ to see a pati5t1 a "y woman :o _h be5 suff]+ t]ribly = ?ree days4 ,x 0 ! sadde/ case ,i ev] saw 9 my life4 4 4 4 ,i _h to leave h] to die4 4 4 4 ,! exp]i5ce 0 su* a t]rible "o t1 old & accu/om$ surgeon z ,i am1 ,i h be5 q upset by x ev] s9ce4 ,z long z ,i live ! memory ( t sc5e w cl+ to me4 ,a ,*9ese ,mission>y4 ,if we refuse to be corns ( :eat fall+ into ! gr\nd & dy+2 if we w nei!r sacrifice prospects nor risk "* & prop]ty & heal?1 nor1 :5 we are call$1 rel9qui% home & break family ties1 = ,*ri/'s sake & ,8 ,gospel1 !n we %all abide alone4 ,?omas ,gajetan ,ragl&1 ,india4 ,n m]e pity = dead s\ls1 b a passion = ! ,glory ( ,god1 is :at we ne$ to hold u on to ,victory4 ,miss ,lilias ,trott]1 ,africa4 ,,we are all famili> ) ! facts & figures :i* /& = s mu* m ?an we realise4 ,we c repeat glibly en\gh t !re are ne>ly "o ?\s&1 five hundr$ million p 9 ! _w1 & t ( ^! ne>ly "o ?\s& million are hea!n or ,mohamm$an4 ,p]haps we c divide ?is un?9kable mass into compreh5sible figures4 ,we c tell ev]yone :o is int]e/$ 9 he>+ x1 t ( ?is "o ?\s& million1 two hundr$ million are ,mohamm$ans2 two hundr$ million m are ,h9dus2 f\r hundr$ & ?irty million are ,buddhi/s & ,confuciani/s2 & m ?an "o hundr$ & fifty million are ,pagans4 ,b h we ev] /opp$ & let ! awfulness ( ^! /atem5ts be> d[n ^u u8 ,d we take 91 t we are talk+ ab\t immortal s\ls8 ,we quote someone's computation t e day n9ety-six ?\s& p die )\t ,*ri/4 ,h we ev] = "o h\r sat & ?\ght ab\t x8 ,h we ?\ght ( x = half an h\r1 = a qu>t] ( an h\r1 = five unbrok5 m9utes8 ,i g fur!r1 & ,i ask y1 h y ev] sat /ill = "o :ole m9ute & c\nt$ by ! tick+ ( y\r wat*1 :ile s\l aft] s\l passes out alone into et]nity8 4 4 4 ,i h done x4 ,x is awful4 ,at ! l[e/ computation1 sixty-six = :om ,*ri/ di$ h di$ s9ce ,i wrote et]nity4 ,oh my ,god6 my ,god6 ,m5 are p]i%+1 & ,i take no he$6 4 4 4 ,sixty-six m h gone4 ,oh1 h[ c "o keep s calm8 ,dea? seems rac+ ) ! m9ute h& ( my wat*4 ,i feel l /opp+ t t]rible run ( ! m9ute h&4 ,r\nd & r\nd x goes1 & e "t x goes r\nd1 sixty-six p die4 ,i h j he>d ( ! dy+ ( "o ( ! sixty-six4 ,we knew h] well4 ,%e 0 a wid[2 %e _h no protectors1 & an unprotect$ wid[ 9 ,india /&s 9 a dang]\s place4 ,we knew x1 & tri$ to p]suade h] to take refuge 9 ,jesus4 ,%e li/5$1 almo/ decid$1 !n drew back2 aft]w>ds we f\nd out :y4 ,y h se5 ! picture ( a man suck$ "u sea by an octopus2 x 0 l t4 ,y h imag9$ ! dea?-/ruggle2 x 0 l t4 ,b x all w5t on "u ! surface ( ! wat]1 !re 0 no?+ se5 above1 till p]haps a bubble rose sl[ly & broke2 x 0 l t4 ,"o day1 9 ! broad noontide1 a woman sudd5ly fell 9 ! /reet4 ,someone c>ri$ h] into a h\se1 b %e 0 dead1 & ^? :o saw t body saw ! m>ks ( ! /ruggle ^u x4 ,! village life fl[$ on z be=e2 only a few :o knew h] knew %e _h murd]$ h] body to cov] ! murd] ( h] s\l4 ,we _h come too late = h]4 ,la/ week ,i /ood 9 a h\se :]e ano!r ( ^? sixty-six _h pass$4 ,cr\*+ on ! floor1 ) h] knees drawn up & h] head on h] knees1 a woman began to tell me ab\t x4 ,%e 0 my y\ng] si/]4 ,my "m gave u to two bro!rs--& %e /opp$4 ,i knew :o ! bro!rs 74 ,i _h se5 !m ye/]day--two h&some high-ca/e ,h9dus4 ,we _h visit$ _! wives1 little kn[+4 ,! woman said no m2 %e c\ld n4 ,%e j %udd]$ & hid h] face 9 h] h&s4 ,a neighb\r f9i%$ ! /ory4 ,some?+ w5t wrong ) ! girl4 ,!y call$ 9 ! b>b]'s wife--! only woman's doctor kn[n 9 ^! p>ts4 ,%e did h] bus9ess ignorantly4 ,! girl di$ 9 fe>ful pa94 ,h9du wom5 are inur$ to sick5+ sights1 b ?is girl's dea? 0 s t]rible t ! eld] si/] has nev] recov]$ f ! %ock ( see+ x4 ,!re %e sits1 !y tell me1 all day long1 cr\*+ on ! floor1 mute4 ,all d n pass l t2 "s pass v quietly1 !re are no b&s 9 _! dea?2 & "s are innoc5t *ildr5--?ank ,god = ! com=t ( t6 ,b x mu/ nev] be =gott5 t ! hea!n s9 aga9/ ! light !y h2 _! lives witness aga9/ !m4 ,!y "k !y s91 & !y fe> dea?4 ,an ,indian ,*ri/ian doctor1 practis+ 9 "o ( our ,h9du t[ns1 told me t he c\ld n speak ( :at he _h se5 & he>d at ! dea?b$s ( "s ( 8 pati5ts4 ,a girl came 9 a mom5t ago1 & ,i told h] :at ,i 0 do+4 ,!n ,i %[$ h] ! diagram ( ! ,w$ge2 ! great black disc = hea!ndom1 & ! n>r[ :ite slit = ! conv]ts won4 ,%e look$ at x amaz$4 ,!n %e sl[ly trac$ h] f+] r\nd ! disc1 & %e po9t$ to ! n>r[ slit1 & h] te>s came dropp+ d[n on x4 ,oh1 :at mu/ ,jesus feel6 %e said4 ,oh1 :at mu/ ,jesus feel6 ,%e is only a common village girl1 %e has be5 a ,*ri/ian only a ye>2 b x t\*$ h] to ! quick to see t great black blot4 ,i "k !re are ^? :o c>e at home1 b d all :o c>e1 c>e deeply en\gh8 ,d !y feel z ,jesus feels8 ,& if !y d1 are !y giv+ _! own8 ,!y are help+ to s5d out o!rs1 p]haps2 b are !y giv+ _! own8 ,oh1 are !y truly giv+ !mselves8 ,!re mu/ be m giv+ ( ourselves if t w$ge is to be wid5$ 9 ! disc4 ,"s :o c>e are "y1 & life is all be=e !m1 & ! "q t presses n[ is ?is3 ,:]e is t life to be sp5t8 ,"s are too old to come1 b !y h ^? :om !y might s5d1 if only !y w\ld /rip !mselves = ,jesus' sake4 ,mo!rs & fa!rs1 h y sympa?y ) ,jesus8 ,are y will+ to be lonely = a few brief ye>s1 t all ?r\gh et]nal ages ,he may h m ov] :om to rejoice1 & y ) ,him8 ,he may be com+ v soon1 & ! little int]val t rema9s1 holds our la/ *ance c]ta9ly to suff] = ,8 sake1 & possibly our la/ to w9 jewels = ,8 cr[n4 ,oh1 ! unwork$ jewel-m9es ( hea!ndom6 ,oh1 ! joy ,8 own are miss+ if !y lose ?is "o la/ *ance6 ,sometimes we ?9k t if ! ne$ 7 m cle>ly se51 some?+ m w\ld be done4 ,means w\ld be devis$2 two or ?ree l-m9d$ w\ld live toge!r1 s z to save exp5ses1 & set a *ild free :o mu/ o!rwise /ay = ! sake ( "o ( ! ?ree4 ,work]s abroad c live toge!r1 s9k+ self & its likes & dislikes = ! sake ( ! ,cause t /&s fir/4 ,b if su* an innovation is impossible at home1 some?+ else w be plann$1 by :i* m w be sp>$1 :5 ^? :o love our ,god love ,him well en\gh to put ,8 int]e/s fir/4 ,wor?y is ! ,lamb to receive6 ,oh1 we say x1 & we pray x6 ,d we act z if we meant x8 ,fa!rs & mo!rs1 is ,he n wor?y8 ,giv]s1 :o h giv5 y\r ,all1 h y n f\nd ,him wor?y8 ,b>e figures ov]:elm$ me1 said "o1 z he told h[ he _h be5 l$ to come out2 ,i 0 fairly /agg]$ z ,i read t tw5ty-eight ?\s& a day 9 ,india alone1 g to _! dea? )\t ,*ri/4 ,& ,i que/ion$1 ,d we believe x8 ,d we really believe x8 ,:at n>cotic has ,satan inject$ into our sy/ems t ?is awful1 woeful1 trem5d\s fact does n />tle u out ( our le?>gy1 our frightful neglect ( human s\ls8 ,!re is a riv] fl[+ ?r\gh ?is ,di/rict4 ,x rises 9 ! ,we/]n ,ghauts1 & fl[s = ! great] "p ( ! ye> a placid1 %all[ /ream4 ,b :5 ! monsoon ra9s ov]fl[ ! wat]%$s1 x fills ) a sudd51 magnific5t ru%2 y c he> x a mile away4 ,out 9 ! s&y riv] b$ a numb] ( high /one plat=ms are built1 :i* are us$ by travell]s z re/+-places :5 ! riv] is l[4 ,"s ye>s ago a p>ty ( lab\r]s1 be+ belat$1 decid$ to sleep on "o ( ^! plat=ms2 = ?\gh ! ra9y season 0 due1 ! riv] 0 v l[4 ,b 9 ! night ! riv] rose4 ,x swept !m on _! hold on ! /one4 ,x :irl$ !m d[n 9 ! d>k to ! sea4 ,suppose t1 kn[+1 z !y did n1 t ! ra9 _h begun to fall on ! hills1 & ! riv] 0 sure to fill1 y _h *anc$ to pass :5 ^? lab\r]s 7 settl+ d[n = ! night1 w\ld y1 c\ld y1 h pass$ on cont5t )\t an ef=t to tell !m s8 ,w\ld y1 c\ld y h gone to b$ & slept 9 p]fect tranquillity :ile ^? m5 & wom5 :om y _h se5 7 out 9 ! riv] b$8 ,if y _h1 ! ?und] ( ! riv] w\ld h wak5$ y1 & = ev] y\r v he>t w\ld h be5 cold ) a *ill *ill] ?an riv] wat]1 cold at ! ?\ght ( ^? y d>$ to leave to dr[n6 ,y _c see !m1 y say4 ,y c4 ,god has giv5 eyes to ! m9d4 ,?9k1 & y w see4 ,!n li/54 ,x is ,god ,:o speaks4 ,if ?\ =be> to deliv] !m t are drawn unto dea?1 & ^? t are ready to be sla92 if ?\ saye/1 ',behold we knew x n1' do? n ,he t pond]e? ! he>t consid] x1 & ,he t keepe? ?y s\l1 do? n ,he "k x8 & %all n ,he r5d] to e man accord+ to 8 works8 ,oh1 by ! ?\ght ( ! _m :o are drawn unto dea?1 & ! _m t are ready to be sla91 by ! ?\ght ( ! sorr[ ( ,jesus ,:o loves !m1 consid] ^! ?+s6 ,b all are n call$ to come6 ,we "k x4 ,we d n =get x4 ,b is x a fact s =gott5 at home t a mission>y ne$ press x8 ,:at is =gott5 surely is t ! field is ! _w4 ,y w\ld n d5ude ,engl&6 ,w\ld ,engl& be d5ud$8 ,w\ld a s+le seat on ! ,bi%op's b5*1 or a s+le p>i% or mission hall1 be left p]man5tly empty1 if ! man :o fills x n[ mov$ out to ! place :i* no "o fills--t gap on ! precipice edge8 ,b suppose x 7 left empty1 w\ld x be s dreadful aft] all8 ,w\ld !re n be "o true ,*ri/ian left to po9t ! way to ,*ri/8 ,& if ! wor/ came to ! wor/1 w\ld !re n /ill be ! ,bible1 & ability to read8 ,ne$ anyone die unsav$1 unless set ^u self-de/ruction8 ,if only ,*ri/ians 9 ,engl& knew h[ to draw supplies direct f ,god1 if only ^? :o _c come w\ld take up ! responsibility ( ! unconv]t$ ar\nd !m1 :y %\ld n a p>i% "h & !re be left empty = a:ile8 ,surely we %\ld n delib]ately leave s v _m to />ve to dea?1 because ^? :o h ! ,bread ( ,life h a /rong desire = sweets4 ,oh1 ! spiritual confection]y consum$ e ye> 9 ,engl&6 ,god op5 our eyes to see if we are do+ :at ,he meant1 & :at ,he means %\ld cont9ue6 ,b "s m5 are too valuable to be ?r[n away on ! mission field2 !y are su* successful work]s1 pa/ors1 evangeli/s1 lead]s ( ?\ght4 ,!y c\ld n possibly be sp>$4 ,?9k ( ! wa/e ( bury+ bra9 9 unproductive s&6 ,app>5tly x is s1 b is x really s8 ,does ,god view x l t8 ,:]e %\ld we h be5 to-day if ,he _h ?\ght ,jesus too valuable to be ?r[n away ^u u8 ,0 n ea* h\r ( ^? ?irty-?ree ye>s wor? m ?an a lifetime ( ours8 ,:at is ,god's def9ition ( t gold5 ^w success8 ,he looks at ,roman ,ca?olic ,europe1 & ,roman & hea!n ,s\? ,am]ica1 & ,mohamm$an & hea!n ,africa & ,asia1 & _m a =gott5 place 9 _m a great l&4 ,& !n ,he looks at u1 & ,i wond] :at ,he ?9ks4 ,ragl&1 ,fell[ ( ,corpus ,*ri/i ,college1 ,cambridge1 aft] ye>s ( bra9-bury+ wa/e1 wrote t ,he 0 tea*+ him t ( all plans = secur+ success ! mo/ c]ta9 is ,*ri/'s own1 becom+ a corn ( :eat1 fall+ into ! gr\nd & dy+4 ,if com+ abroad means t = anyone1 is x too mu* to ask8 ,x 0 :at our de> ,"l did4 ,?is br+s u to ano!r plea4 ,i f9d x 9 ! v]se t c>ves out ) two /rokes ! :ole result ( two lives4 ,if any man's "w abide4 4 4 4 ,if any man's "w %all be burn$4 ,! net result ( "o man's "w is gold1 silv]1 preci\s /ones2 ! net result ( ano!r man's "w is wood1 hay1 /ubble4 ,:i* is wor? ! sp5d+ ( a life8 ,an e>ne/ work] 9 h] special l9e ( "w is look+ back at x f ! place :]e ?+s %[ true/1 & %e says1 ,god help u all6 ,:at is ! good done by any su* "w z m9e8 ',if any man build ^u ?is f\ndation 4 4 4 wood1 hay1 /ubble4 4 4 4 ,if any man's "w %all be burn$ he %all suff] loss2 b he himself %all be sav$1 yet s z by fire6' ,an inf9itude ( pa9s & lab\r1 & all to disappe> l ! /ubble & ! hay4 ,success--:at is x wor?8 ,i 0 flu%$ ) praise1 ,b paus+ j a mom5t to draw brea?1 ,i c\ld n *oose b murmur to myself1 ',is ?is all8 ,all t's done8 & all t's ga9$8 ,if ?is1 !n1 be success1 'tis dismall] ,?an any failure4' ,s transp>5t a ?+ is ! glam\r ( success to cle>-see+ poet-eyes1 & %\ld x dazzle ! ,*ri/ian to :om no?+ is ( any wor? b ! ?+ t endures8 ,%\ld argum5ts bas$ ^u comp>isons betwe5 ! app>5t success ( "w at home z di/+ui%$ f "w abroad influ5ce u 9 any way8 ,is x n v solemn1 ?is calm1 cle> sett+ =? ( a tru? :i* t\*es ea* ( u8 ,e man's "w %all be made manife/1 = ! ,day %all decl>e x1 because x %all be reveal$ by fire1 & ! fire %all try e man's "w ( :at sort x is4 ,& z we realise ! p]i%abl5ess ( all "w1 h[ev] app>5tly successful1 except ! "o "w done 9 ! "o way ,god means1 oh1 does x n /ir u up to seek ) an int5sity ( purpose :i* w n be d5i$1 to f9d out :at t "o "w is8 ,! same ?\ght comes out 9 ! v]se :i* tells u t ! v ?+s we are to d are prep>$ be=e1 & we are creat$ 9 ,*ri/ ,jesus to d !m4 ,if ?is is s1 !n w ! do+ ( any?+ else seem wor? :ile1 :5 we look back & see life z ,god sees x8 ,x may be t ! ?+s prep>$ are ly+ close at our h& at home1 b x may be !y are abroad4 ,if !y are at home !re w be settl$ peace 9 ! do+ ( !m !re2 b if !y are abroad1 & we w n come & d !m8--,oh1 !n our v pray]s w fall z fall ! )]$ leaves1 :5 ! w9d t /irr$ !m falls1 yea m s1 = ! )]$ leaves h a "w to d1 b ! pray]s :i* are /irr$ up by "s pass+ breeze ( emotion d no?+1 no?+ = et]nity4 ,god w n he> our pray]s = ! hea!n if ,he means u to be out among !m in/ead ( at home pray+ = !m1 or if ,he means u to give up "s son or daught]1 & we pref] to pray4 ,"l save u f hypocrisy & %am6 ,%rivel ! falsehood f u if we say we love ,!e b obey ,!e n6 ,are we /ay+ at home1 & pray+ = missions :5 ,?\ ha/ said to u ,g8 ,are we hold+ back some?+ ( :i* ,?\ ha/ said1 ,loose x1 & let x g8 ,"l1 are we utt]ly ?r\gh & ?r\gh true8 ,"l ,god ( tru?fulness1 save u f %am6 ,make u p]fectly true6 ,i turn to y1 bro!rs & si/]s at home6 ,d y "k t if ,god is call+ y1 & y refuse to obey y w h>dly "k h[ to be> :at w happ5 aft]w>ds8 ,soon] or lat] y w "k1 yea burn ?r\gh e "p ( y\r be+1 ) ! k t y disobey$1 & lo/ y\r *ance1 lo/ x = ev]4 ,= t is ! awful "p4 ,x is r>ely giv5 to "o to g back & pick up ! *ance he kn[+ly dropp$4 ,! express ( "o's life has %ot pa/ ! po9ts1 & "o _c g back2 ! l9es div]ge4 ,"s ( u almo/ %udd] n[ to ?9k h[ ne>ly we /ay$ at home1 a mission>y writes4 ,d n1 ,i besee* y1 let ?is great matt] drift4 ,d n walk 9 unc]ta9ty4 ,d n be turn$ aside4 ,y w be et]nally ! poor] if y d4 ,x may be y are n cle> z to :at is ,god's w = y4 ,y are 9 d\bt1 y are hone/1 b a ?\s& que/ions p]plex y4 ,w y g to ,god ab\t x1 & get ! answ] direct8 ,if y are puzzl$ ab\t ?+s :i* a /raight=w>d mission>y c expla91 w y buy a copy ( ,d ,n ,say1 & read x alone ) ,god8 ,let me emphasise t ^w alone4 ,arise1 g =? into ! pla91 & ,i w !re talk ) !e4 ,!re 0 a ,voice 4 4 4 :5 !y /ood & _h let d[n _! w+s4 ,oh1 by ! ?\ght ( ! ,day t is com+1 :5 ! fire %all try all we are do+1 & only ! true %all /&1 ,i plead = an hone/ fac+ ( ! "q be=e x is too late6 ,b ?is is n our /ronge/ plea4 ,we c\ld pile !m up1 plea ^u plea1 & n exhau/ ! numb] :i* press & urge "o to write4 ,we pass !m all1 & g to ! place :]e ! /ronge/ waits3 ,god's ,glory is be+ giv5 to ano!r4 ,?is is ! mo/ solemn plea1 ! supreme imp]ative call4 ,n m]e pity = dead s\ls1 b a passion = ! ,glory ( ,god1 is :at we ne$ to hold u ?r\gh to victory4 ,i am ! ,"l1 t is ,my ,"n1 & ,my ,glory w ,i n give to ano!r1 nei!r ,my praise to grav5 images4 ,b ! m5 ,he made to glorify ,him take ,8 ,glory f ,him1 give x to ano!r2 t1 ! s9 ( x1 ! %ame1 calls ) a l[1 deep "u-call ?r\gh all ! o!r calls4 ,god's ,glory is be+ giv5 to ano!r4 ,d we love ,him en\gh to c>e8 ,or d we measure our private co/1 if ^! di/ant s\ls are to be won1 &1 f9d+ x consid]able1 cease to ?9k or c>e8 ,is x no?+ to y1 all ye t pass by8 ,behold & see--,!y took ,jesus & l$ ,him away4 ,& ,he1 be>+ ,8 cross1 w5t =? into a place call$ ! place ( a skull 4 4 4 :]e !y crucifi$ ,him4 4 4 4 ,h]e9 is love4 4 4 4 ,god s lov$ ! _w4 4 4 4 ,h we petrifi$ pa/ feel+8 ,c we /& & measure n[8 ,i "k t only ! ,_s1 ,:o c\nt$ e drop t fell f ! torn br[ ( ,*ri/ z de>] ?an all ! jewell$ gates ( ,p>adise1 c lift ! ,*ur* out ( h] appreciation ( ! _w1 ! _w z x appeals to h] own selfi% lu/s1 into an appreciation ( ! _w z x appeals to ! he>t ( ,god4 ,o ,_s1 come & lift u into ?is love1 inspire u by ?is love4 ,let u look at ! vision ( ! ,glory ( our ,god ) eyes t h look$ at ,8 love6 ,we w\ld n base a s+le plea on any?+ weak] ?an solid fact4 ,s5tim5t w n /& ! /ra9 ( ! real tug ( w>2 b is x fact1 or is x n1 t ,jesus c\nt$ y & me1 & ! o!r p 9 ! _w1 actually wor? dy+ =8 ,if x is true1 !n d we love ,him well en\gh to c>e ) ! :ole /r5g? ( our be+1 t to-day1 almo/ all ov] ! _w1 ,8 ,glory is be+ giv5 to ano!r8 ,if ?is does n move u1 is x because we d n love ,him v mu*1 or is x t we h nev] pray$ ) hone/ desire1 z ,moses pray$1 ,i besee* ,!e1 %[ me ,?y ,glory8 ,he only saw a little ( x4 ,behold !re is a place by ,me1 & ?\ %alt /& ^u a rock3 & x %all come to pass1 :ile ,my ,glory passe? by1 t ,i w put !e 9 a clift ( ! rock1 & w cov] !e ) ,my h& :ile ,i pass by4 ,& ! ,glory ( ! ,"l pass$1 & ,moses 0 aw>e ( some?+ ( x z x pass$1 b ,my face %all n be se51 ,& yet t little 0 en\gh to m>k him out z "o :o liv$ = "o purpose1 %one 9 ! light ( x1 burn$ ) ! fire ( x--he 0 jeal\s = ! ,glory ( 8 ,god4 ,& we--,we beheld ,8 ,glory1 ! ,glory z ( ! only begott5 ( ! ,fa!r1 full ( grace & tru?2 & we--we h se5 ! light ( ! k ( ! ,glory ( ,god 9 ! face ( ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,:ile ,my ,glory passe? by ,i w 4 4 4 cov] !e 4 4 4 ,my face %all n be se54 ,b we all ) op5 face1 reflect+1 z 9 a mirror1 ! ,glory ( ! ,"l1 are *ang$--,are we8 ,d we8 ,d we "k any?+ at all ab\t x8 ,h we ev] appreh5d$ ?is = :i* we are appreh5d$ ( ,*ri/ ,jesus8 ,h we se5 ! ,heav5ly ,vision t breaks u d[n1 & humbles u to he> ! ,voice ( ! ,"l ask1 ,:o w g = ,u8 & /r5g!ns u to answ]1 ,"h am ,i1 s5d me1 & holds u on to obey if we he> ,him say+ ,g8 ,i besee* ,!e1 %[ me ,?y ,glory6 ,%all we pray x1 mean+ x n[1 to ! v utt]mo/8 ,! utt]mo/ may hold h>d ?+s1 b1 easy or h>d1 !re is no o!r way to rea* ! place :]e our lives c receive an impetus :i* w make !m tell = et]nity4 ,! motive p[] is ! love ( ,*ri/4 ,n our love = ,him only1 b ,8 v love itself4 ,x 0 ! mighty1 resi/less fl[ ( t glori\s love t made ! fir/ mission>y p\r himself =? on ! sacrifice & s]vice4 ,& ! joy ( x r+s ?r\gh triumphantly1 ,yea1 & if ,i be p\r$ =? 4 4 4 ,i joy & rejoice ) y all6 ,yes1 ,god's ,glory is our plea1 highe/1 /ronge/1 mo/ impell+ & endur+ ( all pleas4 ,b oh1 by ! ?\ght ( ! myriads :o are pass+1 by ! ?\ght ( ! ,com+ ( ! ,"l1 by ! inf9ite realities ( life & dea?1 heav5 & hell1 by our ,savi\r's cross & ,passion1 we plead ) all ^? :o love ,him1 b :o h n consid]$ ^! ?+s yet1 consid] !m n[6 ,let ,him %[ u ! vision ( ! ,glory1 & br+ u to ! v end ( self1 let ,him t\* our lips ) ! live coal1 & set u on fire to burn = ,him1 yea1 burn ) consum+ love = ,him1 & a purpose none c turn u f1 & a passion l a pure :ite flame1 a passion = ! ,glory ( ,god6 ,oh1 may ?is passion consume u6 burn ! self out ( u1 burn ! love into u--= ,god's ,glory we ask x1 ,am54 ,wor?y is ! ,lamb t 0 sla9 to receive p[]1 & ri*es1 & wisdom1 & /r5g?1 & hon\r1 & glory1 & bless+ 4 4 4 ,bless+1 & hon\r1 & glory1 & p[] be unto ,him4 ,,app5dix ,"s ,indian ,sa9ts ,,!re 0 "o--he has jo9$ ! company ( ,indian sa9ts 9 glory n[--! poet ( ! ,mission1 & our fri5d1--"o s true 9 all 8 ways t a ,h9du lad obs]v+ him ) critical s*oolboy eyes1 saw 9 him1 z 9 a mirror1 some?+ ( ! hol9ess ( ,god1 &1 won by t look1 became a ,*ri/ian & a w9n] ( s\ls4 ,"s ( ! noble/ conv]ts ( our ,mission are ! direct result ( t ,tamil poet's life4 ,!re is ano!r2 he is old1 & all ?r\gh 8 _m ye>s he has be5 kn[n z ! "o-^w man1 ! man ( *angeless tru?4 ,he is a village pa/or1 :om all ! p love4 ,g into 8 cottage any "t1 any day1 & y w f9d "o & ano!r ) him1 & y w see ! old man1 ) 8 lov+ face & almo/ q bl9d eyes1 b5d+ pati5tly to cat* e ^w ( ! /ory !y are tell+1 & !n y w he> him advis+ & com=t+1 z a fa!r w\ld 8 *ild4 ,= miles r\nd t c\ntryside ! p "k him1 & he is hon\r$ by ,h9dus & by ,*ri/ians z ,india hon\rs sa9ts4 ,i rememb] once see+ ! poet & ! pa/or toge!r4 ,!y belong$ to widely diff]5t ca/es1 b t 0 =gott5 n[4 ,! two old :ite heads 7 b5t ov] ! same lett]--a lett] tell+ ( ! defection ( a "y conv]t ea* _h lov$ z a son1 & !y 7 weep+ ov] him4 ,x 0 ! anci5t ,ea/ liv+ its life be=e u3 ,o my son ,absalom1 my son1 my son ,absalom6 w\ld ,god ,i _h di$ = !e1 ,o ,absalom my son1 my son6 ,b :at made x a ?+ to rememb] 9 ?is l& ( ,ca/e divisions1 ev5 among ,*ri/ians1 0 ! ov]fl[+ ( ! love t made ^? two m5 "o4 ,!re are o!rs4 ,money1 ! place x holds 9 a man's affections1 is suppos$ to be a fair te/ ( "*4 ,we c\ld tell ( a lawy] :o is los+ money to-day r ?an t\* unrighte\s ga9s2 ( a doctor :o gives to 8 *ur* till he feels1 & travels any di/ance to help ! poor :o _c pay2 ( a peasant :o risks a c]ta9 am\nt ( injury to 8 palms r ?an climb !m on ,sunday2 & 9 _m an old-_w t[n & village1 dott$ ab\t on ! wide r$ pla91 we h simple1 humble1 holy p1 ( :om ! _w kn[s no?+--pa/ors 9 lonely out-/ations1 tea*]s1 & work]s1 & j ord9>y ,*ri/ians--:o d ! day's "w1 & %9e z !y d x4 ,we ?9k ( su* m5 & wom5 :5 we he> ! critic's cry1 & we wi% he c\ld "k !m z !y are4 ,x is ^! m5 & wom5 :o ask u to tell x out cle>ly h[ sorely our ,indian ,*ur* ne$s y\r pray]s4 ,!y h no desire to hide ?+s4 ,!y speak /raight] ?an we d1 & f> m /rongly1 & !y believe1 z we d1 t if y "k m y w pray m4 ,,london3 ,,morgan ,,& ,,scott 99 99 99 99 99 ,transcrib]'s ,notes3 ,obvi\s punctuation errors repair$4 ,page #adf 0 miss+ 9 ! #aije edition4 ,! text 0 replac$ f ! #aijc edition4