,h[ ,i ,"k ,god ,answ]s ,pray] ,! ,p]sonal ,te/imony ( ,"o ,life-,"t ,by ,,rosal9d ,,g(or? 7,mrs4 ,jona?an ,g(or?7 ,mission>y 9 ,*9a s9ce #ahhh ,!y %all abundantly utt] ! memory ( ?y great goodness4--,psalm #ade3g4 ,g 4 4 4 & tell !m h[ great ?+s ! ,"l ha? done = !e4--,m>k #e3ai4 ,,h>p] ,,bro!rs ,,publi%]s ,,new ,,york ,,& ,,london ,copyright1 #aiba1 by ,h>p] ,bro!rs ,,pr9t$ ,,9 ,,! ,,unit$ ,,/ates ,,( ,,am]ica ,,=eword ,,x seems fitt+ t ?is little book ( p]sonal te/imonies to answ]$ pray] %\ld h a brief introductory ^w z to h[ !y came to be writt54 ,! "q has be5 ask$ by "s :o read _m ( ^! te/imonies z !y appe>$ 9 ! pages ( ,! ,sunday ,s*ool ,times3 ,h[ c\ld y write su* p]sonal & sacr$ incid5ts 9 y\r life8 ,i c\ld n h writt5 !m b = a v cle>1 ,god-giv5 lead+4 ,! /ory is z foll[s3 ,:5 9 ,canada on our fir/ furl\ghs ,i 0 frequ5tly amaz$ at ! incr$ulity express$ :5 def9ite te/imony 0 giv5 to an answ] to pray]4 ,sometimes ?is 0 %[n by an expressive %rug ( ! %\ld]s1 sometimes by a sudd5 sil5ce or turn+ ( ! topic ( conv]sation1 & sometimes m op5ly by ! qu]y3 ,h[ d y "k t x might n h happ5$ s1 anyway8 ,gradually ! impression deep5$3 ,if !y w n believe "o1 two1 or a doz5 te/imonies1 w !y believe ! comb9$ te/imonies ( "o :ole life8 ,! m ,i ?\ght ( :at x w\ld mean to record ! sacr$ incid5ts connect$ ) answ]s to pray] ! m ,i %rank f ! publicity1 & f und]tak+ ! task4 ,!re 7 doz5s ( answ]s f> too sacr$ = ! public eye1 :i* 7 kn[n only to a few1 o!rs kn[n only to ,god4 ,b if ! record 7 to c>ry weight ) ^? :o did n believe 9 ! sup]natural elem5t 9 pray]1 _m p]sonal & sc>cely less sacr$ incid5ts mu/ ( necessity be made public4 ,aga9 & aga9 ,i laid ! matt] aside z impossible4 ,b ,i "k n[ t ! ?+ 0 ( ,god4 ,z mon?s1 ev5 ye>s1 pass$1 ! impell+ s5se t ! record ( answ]s to pray] mu/ be writt5 gave me no re/4 ,x 0 at ! close ( ! #aijh-aj furl\gh--dur+ :i*1 z a family1 we _h be5 bless$ ) _m &1 to our weak fai?1 wond]ful answ]s to pray]--t my olde/ son urg$ me to put d[n 9 "s def9ite =m ! answ]s to pray] ( my life1 & extract$ f me a solemn promise t ,i w\ld d s4 ,b mon?s pass$ aft] return+ to ,*9a1 & ! record _h n be5 t\*$4 ,!n came a sudd5 & s]i\s illness :i* ?reat5$ my life1 :5 ! doctor told me ,i mu/ n delay 9 gett+ my affairs 9 ord]4 ,x 0 !n t an ov]:elm+ s5se ( regret took possession ( me t ,i _h n set d[n ! pray] te/imonies1 & solemnly ,i cov5ant$ ) ! ,"l t if he w\ld raise me up !y %\ld be writt54 ,!re 0 no m "q ( :at o!rs might ?9k2 ! "o ?\ght 0 to obey4 ,! ,"l rais$ me up2 & al?\gh he _h to deal ) me v /]nly once m be=e ,i really set myself to ! task1 ! te/imonies t are giv5 "h 7 writt5 at la/--mo/ ( !m 9 odd mom5ts ( "t dur+ /r5u\s mission>y j\rneys among ! hea!n4 ,?us x w be se5 t ^! incid5ts ( answ]$ pray] are n giv5 z be+ m wond]ful1 or m wor?y ( record1 ?an multitudes ! _w ov] c\ld te/ify to2 b !y are writt5 & s5t out simply & only because ,i _h to write !m or disobey ,god4 ,,rosal9d ,,g(or?4 ,,cont5ts ,,=eword ,h[ ^! te/imonies came to be writt5 iii ,i ,,gett+ ,,?+s ,,f ,,god ,! simplicity ( petition #a ,,ii ,,e>ly ,,lessons ,,9 ,,! ,,life ,,( ,,fai? ,l$ by a bird4 ,too?a*e tak5 away4 ,rew>d ( seek+ fir/ ! ,k+dom4 ,f9ancial aid4 ,sunday-s*ool s*ol>s giv54 ,guidance 9 "t ( crisis4 ,a pray] prep>ation = ,*9a4 ,a beautiful seal on ! new life #f ,,iii ,,g ,,=w>d ,,on ,,y\r ,,knees 7#ahhg-ahid7 ,! key-note ( pione] ye>s4 ,help 9 ! language f ! ,home ,base4 ,pray]-op5$ doors4 ,deliv]ance 9 "t ( p]il4 ,kept by ! p[] ( ,god4 ,pray] & m$ical "w4 ,conv]ts f ! fir/4 ,wang ,f5g-ao1 ! pr\d ,confucian s*ol>4 ,wang ,fu-,l91 ! opium fi5d4 ,dr4 ,hunt] ,corbett's te/imony4 ,! result ( ob$i5ce4 ,f ! gates ( dea?4 ,"l ,s&wi*'s te/imony #ae ,,iv ,a ,,god-,,giv5 ,,field 7#ahid-aijj7 ,a promise giv54 ,! promise fulfill$4 ,our great ne$4 ,"o ne$ suppli$--an evangeli/4 ,a second ne$ suppli$--a ,bible-woman4 ,pay+ ! price ( petition4 ,a t\* ( heal+4 ,a ,*9aman's fai?1--! locu/ /ory6 ,a ,*ri/ian woman's fai? = h] *ild4 ,our *ild di$--a case ( unansw]$ pray]4 ,a ,god ( deliv]ances #bh ,v ,,our ,,deliv]ance ,,f ,,! ,,box]s 7#aijj7 ,a cle> answ] to pray]s 9 ! home *ur*4 ,l$ on ?r\gh dang]s & trials4 ,safely br\ght ?r\gh #dc ,,vi ,,prov+ ,,god',s ,,fai?fulness 7#aijb-aijh7 ,god mu/ come fir/4 ,a h>d proposition4 ,9 ! furnace4 ,made will+ 9 ! day ( ,god's p[]4 ,te/imony to ,god's abundant fai?fulness4 ,a ,bible-woman ( exceptional p[] giv54 ,god meet+ ! ,home message--,retr5*4 ,abundant funds provid$4 ,a beautiful in/ance ( ,god's wireless4 ,a case ( ,:ile !y are yet speak+ ,i w he>4 ,! life made easi]4 ,a *ild's fev] re/ra9$4 ,bless+ 9 ! "w1 conv]ts giv54 ,a ,god-sugge/$ rem$y4 ,*9ese prevail+ pray] = ,mr4 ,g(or?4 ,wom5 s5t to u4 ,doors = prea*+ op5$4 ,work]s suppli$ abundantly4 ,kept f smallpox4 ,we may tru/ ,him :olly4 #fi ,,vii ,,! ,,/ory ,,( ,,"o ,,furl\gh 7#aijh-aiaj7 ,meet+ a condition ( petition--ob$i5ce4 ,six difficult doors op5$4 ,tru/+ = ev]y?+4 ,apples s5t 9 abundance4 ,fruit1 ! be/1 9 abundance4 ,a telephone suppli$4 ,a fur coat4 ,god's wond]ful keep+ p[]1 a bless$ exp]i5ce4 ,help = ! *ildr5's sew+4 ,ano!r case ( ,god's wireless4 ,a timely (f]4 ,a daught]'s gu>dian provid$4 ,a case ( ! ,"l's lov+k9dness--a r$ clo? ul/]6 ,too _m to record #hi ,,viii ,,our ,,god ,,( ,,! ,,impossible ,a bless$ incid5t f ,keswick4 ,a v]se ( a hymn giv54 ,a gov]ness provid$4 ,ra9 )held 9 answ] to pray]4 ,five p\nds s5t4 ,sew+ & pray]4 ,a graci\s lead+1 & a great ne$ suppli$4 ,an incid5t 9 ,ti5ts94 ,m help ) ! sew+4 ,a sew+ ma*9e suppli$4 ,a case ( tub]culosis heal$4 ,two incid5ts ( pray] & revival4 ,fifty doll>s s5t = fri5ds 9 ne$4 ,ano!r case ( spiritual wireless4 ,l$ to a lo/ key #aje ,,ix ,,to ,,8 ,,praise6 ,tru/+ ,god to supply ne$s4 ,8 fai?fulness4 ,pray] & dress4 ,! re/ra9+ p[] ( pray]--my son 9 ! ,great ,w>4 ,a pray] answ]$ abundantly = "o at home4 ,our ,god-giv5 site4 ,clos+ words4 ,all 9 abide4 ,bible /udy on pray] #abd ,x ,,victory ,,f\nd ,*ildhood ye>n+s = ! pres5ce ( ,*ri/4 ,half-he>t$ conflict ) s9 9 e>ly ye>s 9 ,*9a4 ,pride & bad temp]4 ,secretly criticiz$ by ,*9ese wom54 ,h[ to live ,*ri/ z well z prea* him4 ,heights & dep?s ( spiritual exp]i5ce4 ,lifelong pray] = ! fulness ( ! ,_s4 ,! conf]5ce at ,niag>a-on-!-,lake1 ,june1 #aiaf4 ,a speak]'s message & leaflet on ,! ,victori\s ,life4 ,*ri/ accept$ z ,savi\r f ! p[] ( s9 z well z f its p5alty4 ,! joy ( realiz+ 8 ,indwell+ ,pres5ce4 ,all summ$ up 9 "o ^w1 ,re/+4 ,bible-/udy on ,! ,life ( ,victory 9 ,*ri/ #aca ,i ,,gett+ ,,?+s ,,f ,,god ,are n five sp>r[s sold = two f>?+s1 & n "o ( !m is =gott5 be=e ,god8 4 4 4 ,fe> n !re=e3 ye are ( m value ?an _m sp>r[s4--,! ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,,! pages ( ?is little book deal almo/ :olly ) j "o phase ( pray]--petition4 ,! record is almo/ entirely a p]sonal te/imony ( :at petition to my ,heav5ly ,fa!r has meant 9 meet+ ! ev]yday crises ( my life4 ,a prom95t ,*ri/ian work]1 :o read "s ( ^! te/imonies 9 ,! ,sunday ,s*ool ,times1 said to ! writ]3 ,to emphasize gett+ ?+s f ,god1 z y d1 is to make pray] too mat]ial4 ,to me ?is seems f> f true4 ,god is my ,fa!r1 ,i am 8 *ild4 ,z truly z ,i delight to be s\ght = by my *ild :5 he is cold or hungry1 ill1 or 9 ne$ ( protection1 s is x ) my ,heav5ly ,fa!r4 ,pray] has be5 h$g$ ab\t ) too _m man-made rules4 ,i am conv9c$ t ,god has int5d$ pray] to be z simple & natural1 & z con/ant a "p ( our spiritual life1 z ! int]c\rse betwe5 a *ild & 8 p>5t 9 ! home4 ,& z a l>ge "p ( t int]c\rse betwe5 *ild & p>5t is simply ask+ & receiv+1 j s is x ) u & our ,heav5ly ,p>5t4 ,p]haps1 h[ev]1 ! mo/ bless$ elem5t 9 ?is ask+ & gett+ f ,god lies 9 ! /r5g!n+ ( fai? :i* comes :5 a def9ite reque/ has be5 grant$4 ,:at m helpful & inspir+ ?an a r++ te/imony ( :at ,god has done8 ,z ,i h recall$ ! pa/ 9 writ+ ^! incid5ts1 "o ( ! mo/ preci\s memories is t ( an ev5+ :5 a numb] ( fri5ds _h ga!r$ 9 our home4 ,! conv]sation turn$ on answ]$ pray]4 ,= m ?an two h\rs we vi$ ) "o ano!r 9 rec\nt+ p]sonal incid5ts ( ,god's wond]ful "w2 & ! inspiration ( t ev5+ /ill abides4 ,a ,*ri/ian m9i/] once said to me3 ,is x possible t ! great ,god ( ! univ]se1 ! ,mak] & ,rul] ( mank9d1 c\ld or w\ld1 z y w\ld make out1 take int]e/ 9 su* a trifle z ! trimm+ ( a hat6 ,to me x is prepo/]\s6 ,yet did n our ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/ say3 ,! v hairs ( y\r head are all numb]$2 & n "o sp>r[ is =gott5 be=e ,god2 & aga91 ,y\r heav5ly ,fa!r kn[e? :at ye h ne$ ( be=e ye ask him8 ,x is true t ,!re is no?+ too great = ,god's p[]2 & x is j z true t ,!re is no?+ too small = 8 love6 ,if we believe ,god's ,^w we mu/ believe1 z ,dan ,craw=d has t]sely & beautifully express$ x1 t ,! ,god ( ! inf9ite is ! ,god ( ! inf9itesimal4 ,yes1 he ,:o cle>s ! gr\nd+ b]g ,& guides ! gr9d+ floe1 ,he he>s ! cry ( ! little kit fox ,& ! lemm+ ( ! sn[6 ,no m wond]ful te/imony1 p]haps1 has ev] be5 giv5 ( ,god's will+ness to help 9 e em]g5cy ( life1 ?an t :i* ,m>y ,slessor gave1 :5 ask$ to tell :at pray] _h meant to h]4 ,my life1 %e wrote1 is "o long daily1 h\rly record ( answ]$ pray]4 ,= physical heal?1 = m5tal ov]/ra91 = guidance giv5 m>vel\sly1 = errors & dang]s ev]t$1 = enmity to ! ,gospel subdu$1 = food provid$ at ! exact h\r ne$$1 = ev]y?+ t goes to make up life & my poor s]vice4 ,i c te/ify1 ) a full & (t5 wond]-/rick5 awe1 t ,i believe ,god answ]s pray]4 ,i "k ,god answ]s pray]6 ,i h be5 ask$ ! "q3 ,has ,god always giv5 y j :at y h ask$ =8 ,oh1 no6 ,= him to h done s w\ld h be5 great unk9dness4 ,= in/ance3 :5 ,i 0 a "y woman ,i pray$ = ?ree ye>s t ,god w\ld grant me a c]ta9 petition4 ,sometimes ,i plead$ = ?is z = life itself1 s int5sely did ,i want x4 ,!n ,god %[$ me v cle>ly t ,i 0 pray+ aga9/ 8 w4 ,i resign$ my w to 8 9 ! matt]1 & a few mon?s lat] ,god gave :at 0 inf9itely bett]4 ,i h (t5 prais$ him = d5y+ my pray]2 = _h he grant$ x ,i c\ld nev] h come to ,*9a4 ,!n1 too1 we mu/ rememb] t _m ( our pray]s1 ?\gh always he>d1 are n grant$ because ( "s s9 h>bor$ 9 ! life1 or because ( unbelief1 or ( failure to meet "s o!r ,bible-record$ condition gov]n+ prevail+ pray]4 7,see ,bible ,/udy on pages #abi1 #acj47 ,! foll[+ incid5ts ( answ]$ pray] are by no means a complete record4 ,h[ c\ld !y be1 :5 no record ( pray] has be5 kept all ^! fifty ye>s8 ,_h !re be51 ,i d\bt n t volumes c\ld h be5 writt5 to ! glory ( ,god's grace & p[] 9 answ]+ pray]4 ,b ev5 f :at is record$ "h ,i1 too1 c say f a full he>t1 ,i "k ,god answ]s pray]4 ,he answ]$ pray]3 s sweetly t ,i /& ,amid ! bless+ ( 8 wondr\s h& ,& m>vel at ! miracle ,i see1 ,! fav\rs t 8 love ha? wr\ght = me4 ,pray on = ! impossible1 & d>e ,^u ?y bann] ?is brave motto be>1 ',my ,fa!r answ]s pray]4' ,,ii ,,e>ly ,,lessons ,,9 ,,! ,,life ,,( ,,fai? ,i love ! ,"l1 because he ha? he>d my voice & my supplications4--,psalm #aaf3a4 ,,:5 a v little *ild1 s "y ,i c rememb] no?+ e>li]1 a sev]e ?und]/orm pass$ ov] our home4 ,t]rifi$1 ,i ran to my "m1 :o plac$ my h&s toge!r1 & po9t+ upw>d repeat$ ov] & ov] aga9 ! "o ^w ,jesus4 ,m ?an fifty ye>s h pass$ s9ce t day1 b ! impression left ^u my *ild-m9d1 ( a ,be+ invisible b able to he> & help1 has nev] be5 effac$4 99 99 99 99 99 ,! mo/ preci\s recollections ( e>ly *ildhood are associat$ ) /ories told u by our "m1 _m ( :i* illu/rat$ ! p[] ( pray]4 ,"o t made a specially deep impression ^u me 0 ab\t our gr&fa!r1 :o z a little boy w5t to visit c\s9s 9 ! s\? ( ,engl&1 _! home be+ situat$ close to a d5se =e/4 ,"o day ! *ildr51 lur$ by ! beautiful wild fl[]s1 became hopelessly lo/ 9 ! woods4 ,aft] try+ 9 va9 to f9d a way out1 ! elde/1 a "y girl1 call$ ! fright5$1 cry+ little ones ar\nd h] & said3 ,:5 "m di$ %e told u to always tell ,jesus if we 7 9 any tr\ble4 ,let u kneel d[n1 & ask him to take u home4 ,!y knelt1 & z %e pray$ "o ( ! little ones op5$ 8 eyes1 to f9d a bird s close to 8 h& t he rea*$ out = x4 ,! bird hopp$ away1 b kept s close to ! *ild z to lead him on4 ,soon all 7 jo9+ 9 ! *ase aft] ! bird1 :i* flew or hopp$ 9 front or j above1 & sometimes on ! gr\nd almo/ )9 rea*4 ,!n sudd5ly x flew into ! air & away4 ,! *ildr5 look$ up to f9d !mselves on ! edge ( ! woods & 9 sight ( home4 ,) su* influ5ces be>+ ^u "o at an impressionable age1 x is n surpris+ t ,i came ev5 z a v little *ild to j tell ,jesus :5 9 tr\ble4 99 99 99 99 99 ,?r\gh ! mi/s ( memory "o incid5t comes out cle>ly1 :i* occurr$ :5 ,i 0 six or sev5 ye>s ( age4 ,:ile play+ "o day 9 ! g>d51 ,i 0 seiz$ ) :at we !n call$ jump+ too?a*e4 ,i ran to my "m = com=t1 b no?+ %e c\ld d seem$ to ease ! pa94 ,! n]ve mu/ h become expos$1 = ! pa9 0 acute4 ,sudd5ly ,i ?\ght1 ,jesus c help me1 & j z ,i 01 ) my face press$ aga9/ my "m's brea/1 ,i said 9 my he>t3 ,"l ,jesus1 if y w take away ?is too?a*e "r n[1 n[1 ,i w be y\r little girl = ?ree ye>s4 ,be=e ! pray] 0 well utt]$ ! pa9 0 entirely gone4 ,i believ$ t ,jesus _h tak5 x away2 & ! result 0 t = ye>s1 :5 tempt$ to be naughty1 ,i 0 afraid to d :at ,i knew 0 wrong le/1 if ,i broke my side ( :at ,i felt to be a compact1 ! too?a*e w\ld return4 ,?is little incid5t _h a real influ5ce ov] my e>ly life1 gave me a con/ant s5se ( ! reality ( a div9e pres5ce1 & s help$ to prep>e me = ! public confession ( ,*ri/ z my ,savi\r a few ye>s lat]1 at ! age ( elev54 99 99 99 99 99 ,ab\t a ye> aft] my confession ( ,*ri/ an incid5t occurr$ :i* greatly /r5g!n$ my fai?1 & l$ me to look to ,god z a ,fa!r 9 a new way4 ,:5 ,ea/] ,sunday morn+ came x 0 s w>m only spr+ clo!s c\ld be worn4 ,my si/] & ,i decid$ at breakfa/ t we w\ld n g to *ur*1 z we _h only our old w9t] dresses4 ,go+ to my room1 ,i turn$ to my ,bible to /udy x1 :5 x op5$ at ! six? *apt] ( ,mat!w1 & my eye re/$ on ^! words3 ,:y take ye ?\ght = raim5t 4 4 4 seek ye fir/ ! k+dom ( ,god1 & all ^! ?+s %all be add$ unto y4 ,x 0 z if ,god spoke ! words directly to me4 ,i det]m9$ to g to *ur*1 ev5 if ,i _h to humiliate myself by go+ 9 my old w9t] dress4 ,! ,"l 0 true to 8 promise2 ,i c /ill feel ! p[] ! resurrection messages _h ^u my he>t t day s long ago4 ,& fur!r1 on ! foll[+ day a box came f a di/ant aunt1 conta9+ n only new dresses b mu* else t might well be includ$ 9 ! all ^! ?+s4 99 99 99 99 99 ,an un=getable pro( ( ,god's lov+ c>e came to u z a family ab\t ?is "t1 :5 my p>5ts 7 face to face ) a s]i\s f9ancial crisis4 ,isaiah #fe3bd 0 lit]ally fulfill$3 ,be=e !y call1 ,i w answ]2 & :ile !y are yet speak+1 ,i w he>4 ,at t "t1 x is necess>y to /ate1 we dep5d$ on a qu>t]ly income1 :i* came ?r\gh my "m's lawy] 9 ,engl&4 ,unusual circum/ances _h s dra9$ our res\rces t we f\nd ourselves1 9 ! middle ( ! qu>t]1 ) b>ely suffici5t to meet a week's ne$s4 ,my de> "m assur$ u t ! ,"l w\ld provide2 t he w\ld n =sake ^? :o put _! tru/ 9 him4 ,t v day a lett] came f ! lawy] 9 ,engl&1 enclos+ a draft = a sum ample to meet our ne$s till ! regul> remittance %\ld arrive4 ,?is unexpect$ & timely draft prov$ to be a bonus1 :i* did n occur aga94 99 99 99 99 99 ,"s ye>s lat]1 hav+ mov$ to a /range city1 a great long+ came to d "s def9ite s]vice = my ,ma/]4 ,"o day !re came to ! ,bible class ,i att5d$ a call = tea*]s1 to aid 9 a ,sunday-s*ool ne> by4 ,:5 ,i pres5t$ myself be=e ! sup]9t5d5t ( ?is ,sunday-s*ool ! foll[+ ,sunday1 & (f]$ my s]vices1 x is n mu* wond] ,i receiv$ a rebuff1 = ,i 0 "y & q unkn[n4 ,i 0 told t if ,i wi%$ a class1 x w\ld be well = me to f9d my own s*ol>s4 ,i c rememb] h[ a lump seem$ *ok+ me all ! way home t day4 ,at la/1 det]m9+ n to be baffl$1 ,i pray$ ! ,"l to help me get "s s*ol>s4 ,i w5t =? pray+ e /ep ( ! way1 ! foll[+ ,saturday aft]noon2 & canvass+ j "o %ort /reet ne> our home1 ,i receiv$ ! promise ( n9ete5 *ildr5 = ,sunday-s*ool4 ,! next day a r victori\s "y woman walk$ up to ! ,sunday-s*ool sup]9t5d5t ) sev5te5 *ildr5 foll[+4 ,ne$less to say ,i 0 giv5 a class4 ,9 ! autumn ( #ahhe ! ,toronto ,mission ,union1 a fai? mission1 decid$ to e/abli% a bran* mission 9 ! ,ea/ ,end slums ( t city4 ,?ree o!rs ) myself 7 deput$ to op5 ?is "w4 ,ev]y?+ connect$ ) x 0 entirely new to me2 b mo/ helpful & inspir+ ,i f\nd x4 ,= 9 face ( trem5d\s difficulties1 t seem$ to my inexp]i5c$ eyes insurm\ntable1 ,i le>n$ t pray] 0 ! secret :i* ov]came e ob/acle1 ! key t unlock$ e clos$ door4 ,i felt l a *ild le>n+ a new & wond]ful lesson--z ,i saw b5*es1 tables1 *airs1 /ove1 fuel1 lamps1 oil1 ev5 an organ1 com+ 9 answ] to def9ite pray] = ^! ?+s4 ,b be/ sight ( all 0 :5 m5 & wom51 deep 9 s91 7 conv]t$ & *ang$ into work]s = ,god1 9 answ] to pray]4 ,praise ,god = ! lessons !n le>n$1 :i* 7 invaluable lat] :5 fac+ ! hea!n4 99 99 99 99 99 ,! "t came :5 two div]se pa?s lay be=e me--"o to ,engl&1 z an arti/2 "o to ,*9a1 z a mission>y4 ,circum/ances made a def9ite decision mo/ difficult4 ,i ?\ght ,i _h tri$ e means to f9d out ,god's w = me1 & no light _h come4 ,b 9 a day ( great tr\ble1 :5 my preci\s "m's v life seem$ to hang 9 ! balance1 ,i %ut myself up ) ,god's ,^w1 pray+ def9itely = him to guide me to "s passage by :i* ,i might "k 8 w = my life4 ,my ,bible op5+ at ! fifte5? *apt] ( ,john's ,gospel1 ! sixte5? v]se seem$ to come z a message to me3 ,ye h n *os5 me1 b ,i h *os5 y1 & orda9$ y1 t ye %\ld g & br+ =? fruit4 ,go+ to my de> "m & tell+ h] ( ! message ,god _h giv5 me1 %e said3 ,i d>e n fight aga9/ ,god4 ,f t "t ! la/ h9drance f go+ to ,*9a 0 remov$4 ,surely ! wond]ful way ,god has kept 8 *ild = m ?an ?irty ye>s 9 ,*9a is pro( t ?is call 0 n a mi/ak5 "o4 ,9 all ?y ways ackn[l$ge him1 & he w make pla9 ?y pa?s 7,prov4 #c3 #f1 m>g474 ,dur+ ! summ] ( #ahhg a book writt5 by ,dr4 ,hudson ,taylor came into my h&s4 ,9 ,*9a's ,spiritual ,ne$s & ,claims ! writ] told _m in/ances ( ,god's graci\s provision 9 answ] to pray]4 ,! incid5ts relat$ impress$ me deeply4 ,a little lat]1 a few weeks be=e my m>riage1 :5 ,i f\nd ,i 0 %ort fifty doll>s ( :at ,i w\ld ne$ to be m>ri$ free ( debt1 ,i resolv$ n to let o!rs "k ( my ne$1 b to j tru/ ,god to s5d x to me4 ,! ?\ght came--if y _c tru/ ,god = ?is1 :5 ,hudson ,taylor c\ld tru/ = s mu* m1 are y wor?y to be a mission>y8 ,x 0 my fir/ exp]i5ce ( tru/+ q alone = money4 ,i 0 sorely tempt$ to give o!rs j a h9t ( my ne$4 ,b ,i 0 kept back f do+ s2 & ?\gh ,i _h a week or m ( sev]e te/+1 peace ( m9d & ! assurance t ,god w\ld supply my ne$1 came at l5g?4 ,! answ]1 h[ev]1 did n come till ! v la/ night be=e ! w$d+4 ,t ev5+ a numb] ( my fell[-work]s f ! ,ea/ ,end ,mission call$1 & pres5t$ me ) a beautifully illum9at$ address & a purse4 ,aft] ^! fri5ds _h left ,i return$ to my home circle assembl$ 9 ! back p>lor1 & %[$ !m ! address & ! purse unop5$6 ,n = a mom5t did ,i ?9k !re 0 any?+ 9 ! purse till my bro!r said3 ,y fooli% girl1 :y don't y op5 x8 ,i op5$ ! purse1 & f\nd x conta9$ a *eck = fifty doll>s6 ,?is incid5t has ev] rema9$ peculi>ly preci\s2 = x seem$ to u a seal ( ,god ^u ! new life op5+ be=e u4 ,,iii ,,g ,,=w>d ,,on ,,y\r ,,knees #ahhg-ahid ,i w g be=e !e1 & make ! crook$ places /raight3 ,i w break 9 pieces ! gates ( brass1 & cut 9 sund] ! b>s ( iron 7,isa4 #de3b74 ,,9 ,,attempt+ to record :at pray] meant 9 our e>ly pione] days1 o!r ?an purely p]sonal te/imonies mu/ be giv52 = we 71 z a little b& ( mission>ies1 b\nd toge!r 9 our common ne$s & dang]s by a v close bond4 99 99 99 99 99 ,9 ,octob]1 #ahhg1 my husb& 0 appo9t$ by ! ,canadian ,presbyt]ian ,*ur* to op5 a new field1 9 ! nor!rn section ( ! ,prov9ce ( ,honan1 ,*9a4 ,we left ,canada ! foll[+ ,janu>y1 rea*+ ,*9a 9 ,m>*1 #ahhh4 ,n till !n did we realize ! trem5d\s difficulties ( ! task be=e u4 ,dr4 ,hudson ,taylor1 ( ! ,*9a ,inl& ,mission1 writ+ to u at ?is "t1 said3 ,we und]/& ,nor? ,honan is to be y\r field2 we1 z a mission1 h tri$ = t5 ye>s to ent] t prov9ce f ! s\?1 & h only j succe$$4 ,x is "o ( ! mo/ anti-=eign prov9ces 9 ,*9a4 4 4 4 ,bro!r1 if y w\ld ent] t prov9ce1 y mu/ g =w>d on y\r knees4 ,^! words gave ! key-note to our e>ly pione] ye>s4 ,w\ld t a fai?ful record _h be5 kept ( ,god's fai?fulness 9 answ]+ pray]6 ,our /r5g? z a mission & z individuals1 dur+ ^? ye>s s fraught ) dang]s & difficulties1 lay 9 ! fact t we did realize ! hopelessness ( our task ap>t f div9e aid4 99 99 99 99 99 ,! foll[+ incid5t occurr$ :ile we 7 /ill outside ,honan1 /udy+ ! language at a si/] mission4 ,x illu/rates ! importance ( pray] f ! home base = ^? on ! field4 ,my husb& 0 f9d+ great difficulty 9 acquir+ ! language2 he /udi$ fai?fully _m h\rs daily1 b made pa9fully sl[ progress4 ,he & 8 colleague w5t regul>ly toge!r to ! /reet *apel1 to practise prea*+ 9 ,*9ese to ! p2 b1 ?\gh ,mr4 ,g(or? _h come to ,*9a almo/ a ye> be=e ! o!r mission>y1 ! p w\ld ask ! latt] to speak in/ead ( ,mr4 ,g(or?1 say+ !y und]/ood him bett]4 ,"o day1 j be=e />t+ z usual = ! *apel1 my husb& said3 ,if ! ,"l does n give me v special help 9 ?is language ,i fe> ,i %all be a failure z a mission>y4 ,"s h\rs lat] he return$1 8 face beam+ ) joy4 ,he told me t he realiz$ mo/ unusual help :5 8 turn came to speak2 s5t5ces came to 8 m9d z nev] be=e2 & n only _h he made himself und]/ood1 b "s _h appe>$ mu* mov$1 com+ up aft]w>d to h fur!r conv]sation ) him4 ,s delight$ & enc\rag$ 0 he ) ?is exp]i5ce t he made a c>eful note ( x 9 8 di>y4 ,"s two mon?s & a half lat] a lett] came f a /ud5t 9 ,knox ,college1 say+ t on a c]ta9 ev5+ a numb] ( /ud5ts _h met specially to pray = ,mr4 ,g(or?4 ,! p[] ( pray] 0 su*1 & ! pres5ce ( ,god s manife/ly felt1 t !y decid$ to write & ask ,mr4 ,g(or? if any special help _h come to him at t "t4 ,look+ 9 8 di>y1 he f\nd t ! "t ( _! meet+ correspond$ ) t "t ( special help 9 ! language4 ,i _c tell :y !re %\ld come to me ,a ?\ght ( "s "o miles & ye>s away1 ,9 swift insi/5ce on ! memory1 ,unless !re is a ne$ t ,i %\ld pray4 ,we are too busy to sp>e ?\ght ,= days toge!r ( "s fri5ds away2 ,p]haps ,god does x = u--& we ought ,to read 8 signal z a sign to pray4 ,p]haps j !n my fri5d has fi]c] fight1 ,a m appall+ weakness1 a decay ,( c\rage1 d>kness1 "s lo/ s5se ( "r2 ,& s1 9 case he ne$s my pray]s--,i pray4 ,at la/ ! joyful news rea*$ u wom51 wait+ outside ( ,honan1 t our bre?r5 _h secur$ prop]ty 9 two c5t]s4 ,x w\ld be difficult = ^? 9 ! homel& to und]/& :at ! ye>s ( wait+ _h meant to "s ( u4 ,! dang] to ^? de> to u1 t\r+ 9 ,honan1 0 v great4 ,= ye>s !y nev] left u to g on a t\r )\t our be+ fill$ ) dread le/ !y %\ld nev] return2 yet ! ,"l1 9 8 m]cy1 he>d our pray]s = !m2 & ?\gh (t5 9 grave dang]1 none receiv$ s]i\s injury4 ,?is is n a hi/ory ( ! mission1 b ,i _c =be> giv+ "h "o incid5t illu/rat+ h[ !y 7 kept dur+ ^? e>ly days4 99 99 99 99 99 ,two ( our bre?r51 aft] r5t+ prop]ty at a t[n j )9 ! b\nd>y ( ,honan1 & ne> ! ,wei ,riv]1 mov$ 91 int5d+ to sp5d ! w9t] !re2 b a sudd5 & bitt] p]secution arose1 j z !y _h become settl$4 ,! mission premises 7 attack$ by a mob1 & ev]y?+ 0 loot$4 ,! two m5 7 r\ghly h&l$1 "o be+ dragg$ ab\t ! c\rty>d4 ,!y f\nd !mselves at la/ left alone1 _! lives sp>$1 b ev]y?+ gone4 ,_! position 0 s]i\s 9 ! extreme--sev]al days' j\rney away f fri5ds1 ) no money1 no b$d+1 & no clo!s b ^? ^u !m1 & ! cold w9t] begun4 ,9 _! extremity1 !y knelt d[n & committ$ !mselves to ! ,"l4 ,& accord+ to 8 promise he deliv]$ !m out ( _! di/resses2 = ev5 :ile !y pray$ a bro!r mission>y f a di/ant /ation 0 at h&4 ,he arriv$ unexpect$ly1 )\t kn[+ :at _h occurr$1 a few h\rs aft] ! loot+ _h tak5 place4 ,8 com+ at su* an opportune mom5t fill$ ! he>ts ( _! hea!n enemies ) fe>4 ,money & goods 7 return$1 & f t "t ! viol5t opposition ( ! p ceas$4 99 99 99 99 99 ,a few mon?s aft] ! above incid5t sev]al families mov$ into ,honan1 & a p]man5t occupation 0 effect$2 b ! he>ts ( ! p seem$ z adamant aga9/ u4 ,!y hat$ & di/ru/$ u z if we 7 _! wor/ enemies4 ,! di/rict 9 :i* we settl$ 0 kn[n = its turbul5t & anti-=eign _s1 & z a b& ( mission>ies we 7 frequ5tly 9 ! grave/ dang]4 ,_m times we realiz$ t we1 z well z our fell[-work]s at ! o!r /ations1 7 kept f s]i\s h>m only by ! ov]-rul+1 protect+ p[] ( ,god 9 answ] to ! _m pray]s :i* 7 go+ up = u all at ?is critical juncture 9 ! hi/ory ( our mission4 ,! foll[+ are concrete examples ( h[ ,god he>d our pray]s at ?is "t4 ,we _h = our /ation doctor a man ( spl5did gifts4 ,he 0 a gold m$ali/1 ) ye>s ( special tra9+ & hospital exp]i5ce1 & 0 look$ ^u z "o ( ! ris+ physicians 9 ! city f :i* he came4 ,imag9e 8 disappo9tm5t1 !re=e1 :5 mon? aft] mon? pass$ & sc>cely a good case came to ! hospital4 ,! p did n "k :at he c\ld d1 & moreov] !y 7 afraid to tru/ !mselves into 8 h&s4 ,we1 z a little b& ( mission>ies1 began to pray def9itely t ! ,"l w\ld s5d cases to ! hospital :i* w\ld op5 ! he>ts ( ! p t[>d u & our message4 ,x 0 n long be=e we saw ?is pray] answ]$ beyond all expectation4 ,sev]al v important cases came almo/ toge!r1 "o s s]i\s t ! doctor hesitat$ = days be=e op]at+4 ,:5 at la/ ! op]ation did take place ! doctor's h&s 7 /r5g!n$ by our pray]s1 ! pati5t came ?r\gh safely1 & a few days lat] 0 go+ ar\nd a liv+ wond] to ! p4 ,v mu* dep5d$ ^u ! outcome ( ?is & o!r s]i\s op]ations4 ,_h ! pati5ts di$ "u ! doctor's h&s1 x w\ld h be5 q suffici5t to h caus$ ! de/ruction ( ! mission premises & ! life ( e mission>y4 ,?ree ye>s lat] ! hospital records %[$ t !re _h be5 tw5ty-eight ?\s& treatm5ts 9 "o ye>4 ,aga91 we kept pray+ t ! ,"l w\ld give u conv]ts f ! v beg9n+4 ,we _h he>d ( mission>ies 9 ,india1 ,*9a1 & else:]e1 :o _h work$ = _m ye>s )\t ga9+ conv]ts2 b we did n believe t ?is 0 ,god's w = u4 ,we believ$ t x 0 8 pleasure & purpose to save m5 & wom5 ?r\gh 8 human *annels1 & :y n f ! beg9n+8 ,s we kept pray+ & work+ & expect+ conv]ts1 & ,god gave !m to u4 ,! exp]i5ce ( ?irty ye>s has confirm$ ?is belief4 ,space p]mits ! m5tion ( b two ( ^! e>lie/ conv]ts4 ,! fir/ 0 ,wang ,f5g-ao1 :o came ) u into ,honan z ,mr4 ,g(or?'s p]sonal tea*]4 ,he 0 a man ( high degree1 equal to ! ,we/]n ,m4 ,a41 & 0 "o ( ! pr\de/ & mo/ ov]be>+ ( ,confucian s*ol>s4 ,he despis$ ! mission>ies & _! tea*+1 & s great 0 8 opposition t he w\ld beat 8 wife e "t %e came to see u or li/5 to our message4 ,b ,mr4 ,g(or? kept pray+ = ?is man1 & us+ all 8 influ5ce to w9 him = ,*ri/4 ,be=e _m mon?s pass$ a great *ange _h come ov] ,mr4 ,wang2 8 pr\d1 ov]be>+ mann] _h *ang$1 & he became a humble1 dev\t foll[] ( ! l[ly ,naz>5e4 ,god us$ a dream to awak5 ?is man's consci5ce--z is n uncommon 9 ,*9a4 ,"o night he dream$ he 0 /ruggl+ 9 a deep1 miry pit2 b try z he w\ld he c\ld f9d no way ( escape4 ,:5 ab\t to give up 9 despair1 he look$ up & saw ,mr4 ,g(or? & ano!r mission>y on ! bank above him1 ) _! h&s /ret*$ out to save him4 ,aga9 he s\ght = "s o!r way ( escape2 b f9d+ none1 he all[$ !m to draw him up4 ,?is man1 lat] on1 became ,mr4 ,g(or?'s mo/ valu$ evangeli/4 ,= _m ye>s 8 spl5did gifts 7 us$ to ! glory ( 8 ,ma/] 9 ! "w among ! s*ol> class 9 ! ,*angtefu di/rict4 ,he has long s9ce pass$ to 8 rew>d1 dy+ z he _h liv$1 tru/+ only 9 ! m]it ( ,jesus ,*ri/ = salvation4 99 99 99 99 99 ,ano!r ( ! bright gl9ts1 9 ! d>kness ( ^? e>lie/ days 9 ,honan1 0 ! rem>kable conv]sion ( ,wang ,fu-,l94 ,= _m ye>s 8 bus9ess _h be5 t ( a public /ory-tell]2 b :5 ,mr4 ,g(or? came across him he 0 r$uc$ to an utt] wreck ?r\gh opium smok+4 ,he accept$ ! ,gospel1 b = a long "t seem$ too weak to break (f ! opium habit4 ,aga9 & aga9 he tri$ to d s1 b fail$ hopelessly ea* "t4 ,! poor fell[ seem$ almo/ pa/ hope1 :5 "o day ,mr4 ,g(or? br\ght him to ! mission 9 8 c>t4 ,! t5 days t foll[$ c nev] be =gott5 by ^? :o wat*$ ,wang ,fu-,l9 /ruggle = physical & spiritual life4 ,i v]ily believe no?+ b pray] c\ld h br\ght him ?r\gh4 ,at ! end ( ! t5 days ! p[] ( opium 0 brok51 & ,wang ,fu-,l9 came out ( ! /ruggle a new man 9 ,*ri/ ,jesus4 ,i %all h occasion to speak ( ?is man aga94 99 99 99 99 99 ,9 all ! cases ( div9e heal+ cit$ 9 ?is record x w be not$ t ,god heal$ 9 answ] to pray] ei!r :5 ! doctors _h done all 9 _! p[] & hope _h be5 ab&on$1 or :5 we 7 out ( rea* ( m$ical aid4 ,soon aft] com+ to ,*9a ! ,rev4 ,hunt] ,corbett1 "o ( ! mo/ devot$ & sa9tly ( ,god's mission>ies1 gave a te/imony :i* lat] 0 us$ ( ,god to save ! writ] f giv+ up s]vice 9 ,*9a & return+ home to ,canada4 ,dr4 ,corbett said t = fifte5 ye>s he _h be5 laid aside e ye> ) t t]rible sc\rge ( ! ,ea/--dys5t]y2 & ! doctors at la/ gave a def9ite decision t he mu/ return at once to ! homel& & =sake ,*9a4 ,b1 said ! gr& old man3 ,i knew ,god _h call$ me to ,*9a1 & ,i also knew t ,god did n *ange4 ,s :at c\ld ,i d8 ,i d>$ n g back on my call2 s ,i det]m9$ t if ,i c\ld n live 9 ,*9a ,i c\ld die !re2 & f t "t ! disease lo/ its hold on me4 ,?is te/imony 0 giv5 ov] tw5ty-five ye>s ago1 :5 he _h be5 almo/ ?irty ye>s 9 ,*9a6 ,9 ,janu>y1 #aibj1 :5 well-nigh n9ety ye>s ( age1 ?is belov$ & honor$ sa9t ( ,god pass$ to high] s]vice4 ,= sev]al ye>s ,i _h be5 affect$ j z ,dr4 ,corbett _h be51 & ea* ye> ! t]rible disease seem$ to be gett+ a firm] hold ^u me4 ,at la/1 "o day my husb& br\ght me ! decision ( ! doctors1 t ,i %\ld return home4 ,& z ,i lay !re ill & weak1 ! temptation came to yield4 ,b1 z ,i rememb]$ ,dr4 ,corbett's te/imony1 & my own cle> call1 ,i felt t to g back w\ld be to g aga9/ my own consci5ce4 ,i !re=e det]m9$ to d z ,dr4 ,corbett _h done--leave myself 9 ! ,"l's h&s--:e!r = life or = dea?4 ,?is happ5$ m ?an tw5ty ye>s ago1 & s9ce !n ,i h _h v little tr\ble f t dread disease4 ,yes1 ! deep] ! ne$1 & ! m bitt] ! extremity1 ! great] ! opportunity = ,god to %[ =? 8 mighty p[] 9 our lives1 if we b give him a *ance by unsw]v+ ob$i5ce at any co/4 ,9 ! day :5 ,i cri$ ?\ answ]$/ me1 & /r5g!n$/ me ) /r5g? 9 my s\l 7,psa4 #ach3c74 99 99 99 99 99 ,dur+ our f\r? ye> 9 ,*9a1 :5 we 7 sp5d+ ! hot season at ! coa/1 our little son1 eighte5 mon?s old1 0 tak5 v ill ) dys5t]y4 ,aft] sev]al days' fight = ! *ild's life came ! realization1 "o ev5+1 t ! angel ( dea? 0 at h&4 ,my :ole s\l rebell$2 ,i actually seem$ to hate ,god2 ,i c\ld see no?+ b cruel inju/ice 9 x all2 & ! *ild seem$ to be fa/ go+4 ,my husb& & ,i knelt d[n beside ! little "o's b$side1 & he plead$ e>ne/ly ) me to yield my w & my *ild to ,god4 ,aft] a long & bitt] /ruggle ,god ga9$ ! victory1 & ,i told my husb& ,i w\ld give my *ild to ! ,"l4 ,!n my husb& pray$1 committ+ ! preci\s s\l into ! ,"l's keep+4 ,:ile he 0 pray+ ,i notic$ t ! rapid1 h>d brea?+ ( ! *ild _h ceas$4 ,?9k+ my d>l+ 0 gone1 ,i ha/5$ = a light1 = x 0 d>k2 b on exam9+ ! *ild's face ,i f\nd t he _h sunk into a deep1 s\nd1 natural sleep1 :i* la/$ mo/ ( ! night4 ,! foll[+ day he 0 practically well ( ! dys5t]y4 ,to me x has always seem$ t ! ,"l te/$ me to almo/ ! la/ mom5t2 !n1 :5 ,i yield$ my de>e/ treasure to him & put my ,"l fir/1 he gave back ! *ild4 99 99 99 99 99 ,:ile writ+ ! above ,i came across an extract f ! ,*ri/ian ( ,m>* #ab1 #aiad1 9 :i* ! editor said3 ,speak+ at ! annual meet+ ( ! ,hunt+don ,c\nty ,hospital1 ,"l ,s&wi* ref]r$ to ! p[] ( spiritual heal+1 & premis+ t ! f9ite m9d _c measure ! p[] ( ! inf9ite1 said he 'look$ =w>d to ! day :5 ! spiritual doctr9e ( heal+ & ! physical discov]ies ( sci5ce w bl5d 9 h>moni\s comb9ation1 to ! glory ( ,god & ! b5efit ( humanity4' ,,iv ,a ,,god-,,giv5 ,,field 7#ahid-aijj7 ,"l1 !re is none beside !e to help1 betwe5 ! mighty & him t ha? no /r5g?2 help u1 ,o ,"l our ,god2 = we rely on !e1 & 9 ?y "n are come aga9/ ?is multitude 7#b ,*ron4 #ad3aa74 ,,! /ory ( ! op5+ ( ,*angte is s connect$ by a *a9 ( pray] t to give isolat$ in/ances ( pray] w\ld be to break ! *a94 99 99 99 99 99 ,a few mon?s aft] our arrival 9 ,*9a an old1 exp]i5c$ mission>y k9dly volunte]$ to conduct ,mr4 ,g(or? & 8 colleague1 :o _h j arriv$1 ?r\gh ,nor? ,honan1 t !y might see ! field = !mselves4 ,travel+ s\?w>d by c>t1 !y cross$ ! bord] into ,honan e>ly "o morn+4 ,z my husb& walk$ beside ! c>ts1 t morn+1 he felt l$ to pray t ! ,"l w\ld give t section ( ,honan to him z 8 field4 ,! assurance came t 8 pray] 0 grant$4 ,op5+ 8 daily textbook1 he f\nd ! passage = t morn+ 0 f ,isaiah #ee3h-ac4 ,l a preci\s promise ( future bless+ = t field came ! words3 ,z ! ra9 come? d[n1 & ! sn[ f heav51 & returne? n ?i!r1 b wat]e? ! e>?1 & make? x br+ =? & bud1 t x may give se$ to ! s[]1 & bread to ! eat]3 s %all my ^w be t goe? =? out ( my m\?3 x %all n return unto me void4 ,= six ye>s1 h[ev]1 our fai? 0 sorely te/$4 ,( all places1 ,*angte seem$ mo/ det]m9$ to keep out ! mission>y4 ,& !re 7 o!r difficulties 9 ! way4 ,a presbyt]y _h be5 =m$ z o!rs jo9$ u1 & all matt]s _h to be decid$ by t body4 ,two /ations t _h be5 op5$1 :]e a foo?old c\ld fir/ be ga9$1 requir$ all1 & m ?an all1 ! =ce we !n _h4 ,s = six ye>s ! door to ,*angte rema9$ fa/ clos$4 ,b dur+ all ^? ye>s ,mr4 ,g(or? nev] once lo/ sight ( ,god's promise to him1 nor fail$ to believe x4 ,aga9 & aga91 :5 ,mr4 ,g(or? & 8 colleague visit$ ! city1 !y 7 mobb$ & ?reat5$1 ! p %[+ ! utmo/ ho/ility4 ,b ! day came1 at la/1 :5 ! long-pray$-= p]mission f ! presbyt]y to op5 ,*angte 0 grant$4 ,! v next morn+ f\nd ,mr4 ,g(or? en r\te = ,*angte1 to secure prop]ty = a mission site4 ,(t5 has he told h[1 all ! way ov] t day to ,*angte1 he pray$ ! ,"l to op5 ! he>ts ( ! p1 & make !m will+ to give him ! prop]ty mo/ suitable = ! "w4 ,)9 ?ree days ( 8 rea*+ ,*angte he _h ?irty-five (f]s ( prop]ty1 & 0 able to secure ! v piece ( l& he _h e>li] *os5 z mo/ ideal = ! mission4 ,?us ! ,"l did break 9 pieces ! gates ( brass :i* _h kept u s long f our promis$ l&4 99 99 99 99 99 ,a ye> lat] ,i jo9$ my husb& !re1 ) our ?ree little *ildr54 ,x 0 arrang$ t our colleague %\ld take *>ge ( ! outside evangelism1 :ile we op5$ "w at ! ma9 /ation4 ,to und]/& :at x meant = u to h our ne$ suppli$1 !re %\ld be "s k ( :at t ne$ 04 ,we decid$1 f ! fir/1 t no "o %\ld be turn$ f our doors4 ,mr4 ,g(or? receiv$ ! m5 9 ! front gue/ room1 :ile ! wom5 & *ildr5 came to our private qu>t]s4 ,dur+ ^? fir/ weeks & mon?s hundr$s1 nay ?\s&s1 cr[d$ to see u4 ,day by day we 7 lit]ally besieg$4 ,ev5 at meal-"t our w9d[s 7 bank$ ) faces4 ,! que/ions ev] be=e u ^? days 7--h[ to make ! mo/ ( ?is wond]ful opportunity1 :i* w\ld nev] come aga9 aft] ! p]iod ( curiosity 0 pa/2 h[ to w9 ! fri5d%ip ( ?is p1 :o %[$ 9 a hundr$ ways _! hatr$ & di/ru/ ( u2 h[ to rea* _! he>ts ) our wond]ful message ( a ,savi\r's love8 ,all t 0 9 our p[] 0 to d1 day by day1 :at we c\ld ) ! /r5g? t 0 giv5 u4 ,f e>ly morn+ till d>k1 sometimes n9e or t5 h\rs a day1 ! /ra9 ( receiv+ & prea*+ to ^! cr[ds 0 kept up4 ,my husb& _h numb]s ( workm5 to ov]see1 mat]ial = build+ to pur*ase1 & to see to all ! hundr$ & "o ?+s s necess>y 9 build+ up a new /ation4 ,besides all ?is he _h to receive1 & prea* to1 ! cr[ds t came4 ,he _h no evangeli/1 ,mr4 ,wang be+ !n loan$ to ,mr4 ,mac,g----4 ,i _h my ?ree little *ildr51 & no nurse or ,bible-woman4 ,:5 too exhau/$ to speak long] to ! c\rty>d ( wom51 ,i w\ld s5d = my husb&1 :o ?\gh tir$ out w\ld speak 9 my /ead4 ,!n we w\ld re/ ourselves1 & ent]ta9 ! cr[d1 by s++ a hymn4 ,s ! days pass$4 ,b we soon realiz$ t help mu/ come1 or we w\ld bo? break d[n4 ,"o day ,mr4 ,g(or? came to me ) 8 ,bible op5 at ! promise1 ,my ,god %all supply all y\r ne$1 & ask$3 ,d we believe ?is8 ,if we d1 !n ,god c & w supply u ) "s "o to help prea* to ^! cr[ds1 if we ask 9 fai?4 ,he pray$ v def9itely = a man to prea*4 ,) my d\bt-bl9d$ he>t1 ,i ?\ght x 0 z if he 7 ask+ = ra9 f a cle> sky4 ,yet1 ev5 :ile he pray$1 ,god 0 mov+ "o to come to u4 ,a day or two lat] !re appe>$ at ! mission ! conv]t$ opium fi5d1 ,wang ,fu-,l91 ^: conv]sion has be5 already record$4 ,no "o c\ld h look$ less l ! answ] to our pray]s ?an he did4 ,fe>fully emaciat$ f long ye>s ( excessive opium smok+1 rack$ ) a c\gh :i* ?ree ye>s lat] end$ 8 life1 dress$ 9 su* fil?y rags z only a begg> w\ld we>1 he pres5t$ a pitiable sight4 ,yet ! ,"l see? n z man see?4 ,aft] consult+ toge!r ,mr4 ,g(or? decid$ to try him = a few days1 believ+ t he c\ld at lea/ te/ify to ! p[] ( ,god to save a man f 8 opium4 ,soon he 0 reclo!d 9 "s ( my husb&'s ,*9ese g>m5ts2 & )9 an h\r or two ( 8 ent]+ ! mission gate1 practically a begg>1 he 0 seat$ 9 *>ge ( ! m5's *apel1 s *ang$ "o c\ld sc>cely h recogniz$ him4 ,f ! fir/ day ( 8 m9i/ry at ,*angte !re 0 no d\bt 9 ! m9ds ( any :o he>d him t he _h inde$ be5 s5t to u by our graci\s ,god1 = he _h 9 a rem>kable degree ! unction & p[] ( ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,8 gifts z a speak] 7 all consecrat$ to "o object--! w9n+ ( s\ls to ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,he seem$ consci\s t 8 days 7 few1 & always spoke z a dy+ man to dy+ m54 ,little wond] is x1 !re=e1 t f ! v beg9n+ ( 8 m9i/ry 9 our *apel m5 7 won to ,*ri/4 ,god sp>$ him to u = ! f\ndation lay+ ( ! *ur* at ,*angte1 !n call$ him high]4 99 99 99 99 99 ,mr4 ,g(or?'s ne$ 0 reliev$ by ! com+ ( ,wang ,fu-,l91 b n m9e4 ,! rem>kable way ,god _h s5t him1 h[ev]1 gave me c\rage & fai? to tru/ ,god to give me a ,bible-woman4 ,^? :o "k any?+ ( mission "w 9 ,*9a w agree ) me t x is f> m difficult to f9d wom5 ?an m5 :o are able to prea* ! ,gospel2 or if able1 :o are free = ! "w4 ,b ,i 0 beg9n+ to le>n t ,god is limit$ only f ! human side2 & t he is always will+ to give beyond our ask+1 if ! human conditions he has s pla9ly laid d[n 9 8 ,^w are fulfill$4 ,a %ort "t aft] ,i _h begun to ask my ,heav5ly ,fa!r def9itely = a ,bible-woman1 ,mr4 ,mac ,g---- came 9 f a t\r1 & 8 fir/ words 73 ,well1 ,mrs4 ,g(or?1 ,i believe we h a ready-made ,bible-woman = y6 ,!n he told me h[ he _h come across a wid[ & h] son 9 a m\nta9 village1 :o _h he>d ! ,gospel f a rec5t conv]t out ( "o ( ! o!r /ations4 ,?is man _h be5 a memb] ( ! same religi\s sect z ! wid[ & h] son4 ,:5 he f\nd ,*ri/ he at once ?\ght ( 8 fri5ds1 & w5t ov] ! m\nta9 to tell !m4 ,mrs4 ,*ang receiv$ ! ,gospel gladly4 ,%e _h be5 a prea*] 9 t hea!n sect1 & _h ga9$ ! flu5cy 9 speak+1 & p[] 9 hold+ audi5ces1 s necess>y 9 ! prea*+ ( ! ,gospel4 ,! way 0 soon op5$ = h] to come to me1 & %e became my con/ant companion & valuable assi/ant 9 ! wom5's "w dur+ ^? e>ly ye>s4 ,%e witness$ a good confession 9 #aijj--;be+ /rung up by h] ?umbs :5 refus+ to d5y h] ,"l4 ,fai?fully %e s]v$ ! ,"l z a ,bible-woman1 until ! "t ( h] dea? 9 #aijc4 ,dur+ ! fir/ two or ?ree ye>s at ,*ang ,te ,fu we liv$ 9 unheal?y ,*9ese h\ses1 :i* 7 l[ & damp4 ,x 0 !re=e ?\ght be/ t we %\ld h a good semi-=eign h\se built = u4 ,! "w at ?is "t 0 s enc\rag+--conv]ts be+ add$ weekly1 & sometimes almo/ daily--t we fe>$ le/ ! new h\se w\ld h9d] ! "w1 & become a sep>at+ b>ri] betwe5 ourselves & ! p4 ,we !re=e pray$ t ,god w\ld make ! new h\se a means ( rea*+ ! p--a bless+1 & n a h9drance4 ,! answ] to ?is pray]1 z is (t5 ! case1 dep5d$ l>gely ^u ourselves4 ,we _h to be made will+ to pay ! price t ! answ] dem&$4 ,9 o!r words1 we came to see t 9 ord] t our pray] c\ld be answ]$ we w\ld h to keep op5 h\se e day & all day1 :i* 0 by no means easy4 ,"s assur$ u x 0 wrong1 because x w\ld make u *eap 9 ! eyes ( ! ,*9ese2 o!rs said x 0 wrong because ( ! dang] ( infection to ! *ildr54 ,b "t prov$ ^! objections to be unf\nd$4 ,! v highe/ z well z ! l[e/ 7 receiv$1 & _! fri5d%ip won by ?is means4 ,&1 s f> z ,i c rememb]1 our *ildr5 nev] met any contagion because ( ?is way ( receiv+ ! p into our h\se4 ,! climax 9 numb]s 0 rea*$ 9 ! spr+ ( #ahii1 :5 eighte5 hundr$ & ?irty-five m5 & sev]al hundr$ wom5 7 receiv$ by u 9 "o day4 ,^! 7 fir/ prea*$ to 9 l>ge b&s1 & !n l$ ?r\gh ! h\se4 ,we h se5 evid5ces ( ! good ( ?is plan 9 all p>ts ( our field4 ,x op5$ ! he>ts ( ! p t[>d u1 & help$ u to live d[n suspicion & di/ru/ z no?+ else c\ld h done4 99 99 99 99 99 ,9 ,may ( #ahih we />t$ d[n to ,ti5ts9 by h\seboat1 ) our *ildr51 = a mu*-ne$$ re/ & *ange4 ,cold1 wet wea!r soon set 94 ,twelve days lat]1 z we came 9 sight ( ,ti5ts91 ) a bitt] nor? w9d bl[+1 our elde/ *ild w5t on deck )\t 8 ov]coat1 9 disob$i5ce to my ord]s4 ,%ortly aft] ! *ild came 9 ) a viol5t *ill4 ,t aft]noon1 :5 we arriv$ 9 ,ti5ts91 ! doctors pron\nc$ ! v]dict--pneumonia4 ,! foll[+ day1 %ortly aft] noon1 a second doctor1 :o _h be5 call$ 9 consultation1 met a fri5d on 8 way f our boy's b$side & told h] he did n ?9k ! *ild c\ld live till morn+4 ,i _h tak5 8 temp]ature1 & f\nd x to be #ajf4 ,he 0 extremely re/less1 toss+ 9 ! burn+ fev]4 ,sitt+ d[n beside him1 ) a cry to ! ,"l to help me1 ,i said di/9ctly3 ,p----1 y disobey$ me1 & h ?us br\ght ?is illness ^u y\rself4 ,i =give y2 ask ,jesus to =give y1 & give y\rself to him4 ,! *ild look$ at me = a mom5t /eadily1 !n clos$ 8 eyes4 ,i saw 8 lips move = a mom5t2 !n quietly he sank into a s\nd sleep4 ,:5 he awoke1 ab\t dusk1 ,i took 8 temp]ature1 & f\nd x #aja4 ,by ! "t ! doctor return$ x 0 normal1 & did n rise aga94 ,al?\gh he _h be5 hav+ hemorrhage f ! lungs1 ?is ceas$4 ,is n ,jesus ,*ri/ ! same ye/]day1 to-day1 & =ev]8 ,:y %\ld we wond]1 !re=e1 at 8 heal+ t\* 9 ?is age8 ,accord+ to y\r fai? be x unto y4 99 99 99 99 99 ,dur+ ^? e>ly pione] ye>s1 :5 lay+ ! f\ndation ( ! ,*angte ,*ur*1 my own weak fai? 0 (t5 rebuk$ :5 ,i saw ! results ( ! simple1 *ild-l fai? ( our ,*9ese ,*ri/ians4 ,"s ( ^? answ]s to pray] 7 ( su* an extraord9>y "* t1 :5 told 9 ! homel&1 ev5 m9i/]s express$ d\bts z to _! g5u95ess4 ,b1 praise ,god1 ,i "k !y are true4 ,"h are two concrete examples4 ,li-m+1 a w>m-he>t$1 e>ne/ evangeli/1 own$ l& "s miles nor? ( ,*ang ,te ,fu4 ,on "o occasion1 :5 visit+ ! place1 he f\nd ! neighbors all busy plac+ ar\nd _! fields little /icks ) t9y flags4 ,!y believ$ ?is w\ld keep ! locu/s f eat+ _! gra94 ,all urg$ ,li-m+ to d ! same1 & to wor%ip ! locu/ god1 or 8 gra9 w\ld be de/roy$4 ,li-m+ repli$3 ,i wor%ip ! "o only true ,god1 & ,i w pray him to keep my gra91 t y may "k t he only is ,god4 ,! locu/s came & ate on all sides ( ,li-m+'s gra91 b did n t\* 84 ,:5 ,mr4 ,g(or? he>d ?is /ory he det]m9$ to get fur!r pro(1 s he visit$ ! place = himself1 & inquir$ ( ,li-m+'s hea!n neighbors :at !y knew ( ! matt]4 ,"o & all te/ifi$ t1 :5 ! locu/s came1 _! gra9 0 eat5 & ,li-m+'s 0 n4 ,! ,"l ,jesus once said1 aft] a conflict ) unbelief & hypocrisy3 ,i ?ank !e1 ,o ,fa!r1 ,"l ( heav5 & e>?1 because ?\ ha/ hid ^! ?+s f ! wise & prud5t1 & ha/ reveal$ !m unto babes4 ,our little ,gracie became ill ) a t]ribly fatal disease1 s common 9 mal>i\s di/ricts--enl>g$ sple54 ,! doctors pron\nc$ h] condition q hopeless4 ,"o day a ,*9ese ,*ri/ian woman came 9 ) h] little *ild1 ( ab\t ! same age z our ,gracie1 & v ill ) ! same disease4 ,! poor "m 0 9 great di/ress1 = ! doctor _h told h] also t !re 0 no hope4 ,%e ?\ght t if we w\ld plead ) ! doctor he c\ld save h] *ild4 ,at la/ ,mr4 ,g(or? po9t$ to our little ,gracie1 say+3 ,surely1 if ! doctor _c save our *ild1 nei!r c he save y\rs2 y\r only hope & ours is 9 ! ,"l himself4 ,! "m 0 a poor1 h>d-work+1 ignorant woman1 b %e _h ! simple fai? ( a little *ild4 ,"s few weeks lat] %e call$ aga91 & told me ! foll[+ /ory3 ,:5 ! pa/or told me my only hope 0 9 ! ,"l1 ,i believ$ him4 ,:5 ,i rea*$ home ,i call$ my husb&1 & toge!r we _h committ$ our *ild into ! ,"l's h&s4 ,i felt p]fectly sure ! *ild w\ld get well1 s ,i did n take m c>e ( him ?an ( a well *ild4 ,9 ab\t two weeks he seem$ s p]fectly well t ,i took him to ! doctor aga91 & ! doctor said t he c\ld discov] no?+ ! matt] ) him4 ,t ,*9ese *ild is n[ a gr[n-up1 heal?y man4 ,& our *ild di$4 ,yet we _h pray$ = h] z few1 p]haps1 h pray$ = any *ild4 ,:y1 !n1 0 %e n sp>$8 ,i d n "k4 ,b ,i d "k t !re 0 9 my life1 at t "t1 ! s9 ( bitt]ness t[>d ano!r1 & an unwill+ness to =give a wrong4 ,?is 0 q suffici5t to h9d] any pray]1 & did h9d] = ye>s1 until x 0 set "r4 ,does ?is case ( unansw]$ pray] %ake my fai? 9 ,god's will+ness & p[] to answ] pray]8 ,no1 no6 ,my own *ild might j z reasonably decide nev] aga9 to come to me ) a reque/ because ,i h1 9 my sup]ior wisdom1 d5i$ a petition4 ,is x n true1 9 our human relation%ips ) our *ildr51 t we see be/ to grant at "o "t :at we )hold at ano!r8 ,:at ,i d ?\ kn[e/ n n[1 b ?\ %alt "k h]eaft]4 ,& "o ( ! mo/ preci\s exp]i5ces ( ,god's lov+ m]cy came to me 9 connection ) our little ,gracie's dea?4 ,we _h be5 w>n$ t ! end w\ld probably come 9 convulsions2 two ( our de> *ildr5 _h be5 s tak54 ,only a "m :o has gone ?r\gh su* an exp]i5ce c fully und]/& ! horror ( ! possibility t su* might come aga9 at any "t4 ,"o ev5+ ,i 0 wat*+ beside our little "o1 ,miss ,p---- be+ ) me1 :5 sudd5ly ! *ild said v decid$ly3 ,call ,papa2 ,i want to see ,papa4 ,i hesitat$ to r\se h] fa!r1 z x 0 8 "t to re/2 s ,i tri$ to put h] (f ) "s excuse2 b aga9 %e repeat$ h] reque/1 & s ,i call$ h] fa!r1 ask+ him to walk up & d[n ) h] until ,i return$4 ,go+ into ! next room ,i cri$ 9 an agony to ! ,"l n to let ,gracie suff]2 b1 if x 0 inde$ 8 w to take ! *ild1 !n to d s )\t h] suff]+4 ,z ,i pray$ a wond]ful peace came ov] me1 & ! promise came s cle>ly x 0 z if spok53 ,be=e !y call ,i w answ]2 & :ile !y are yet speak+ ,i w he>4 ,ris+1 ,i 0 met at ! door by ,miss ,p----:o said3 ,gracie is ) ,jesus4 ,:ile ,i 0 on my knees our belov$ *ild1 aft] re/+ a few mom5ts 9 h] fa!r's arms1 _h look$ into 8 face ) "o ( h] lovelie/ smiles1 & !n quietly clos$ h] eyes & _h ceas$ to brea!4 ,no /ruggle1 no pa91 b a fall+ on sleep4 ,l z a fa!r pitie?1 4 4 4 s ! ,"l pitie?4 99 99 99 99 99 ,ev]-d>k5+ cl\ds ga!r$ ab\t u dur+ ! mon?s foll[+ ,gracie's dea?2 & :ile ! /orm did n bur/ 9 all its fury till ! e>ly summ] ( #aijj1 yet ! prec$+ w9t] 0 full ( =ebod+s & con/ant al>ms4 ,on "o occasion ?\s&s ga!r$ inside & outside our mission1 evid5tly b5t on s]i\s mis*ief4 ,my husb& & 8 colleagues mov$ 9 & out all t day among ! d5se cr[d :i* fill$ ! front c\rty>ds2 :ile we wom5 rema9$ %ut )9 clos$ h\ses1 n kn[+ :at mom5t ! mob w\ld break loose & de/roy u all4 ,:at kept !m back t day8 ,:at b tru/ful pray]6 ,& ! ,"l he>d t day1 & wond]fully re/ra9$ ! viol5ce ( our enemies4 ,we did n "k !n1 b ^? exp]i5ces 7 prep>+ u = ! great] trials & p]ils await+ u all4 ,v ,,our ,,deliv]ance ,,f ,,! ,,box]s 7#aijj7 ,god is unto u a ,god ( deliv]ances 7,psa4 #fh3bj1 ,r4 ,v474 ,:o deliv]$ u out ( s great a dea?1 & w deliv]3 on :om we h set our hope t he w also /ill deliv] 7#b ,cor4 #a3aj1 ,r4 ,v474 ,,_m times we 7 ask$ 9 ! homel& to tell ! /ory ( our escape dur+ ! ,box] upris+1 & (t5 ! "q 0 put1 ,if x 0 really ,god's p[] t sav$ y & o!rs on t j\rney1 !n :y did he n save ^? ( 8 *ildr5 :o 7 s cruelly done to dea?8 ,= a "t ?is "q tr\bl$ me4 ,:y inde$8 ,"o day :5 seek+ = light on ! matt] ,i 0 direct$ to ! twelf? *apt] ( ,acts4 ,!re ,i f\nd ! only answ] t c be giv54 ,we are told 9 ! second v]se t ,james 0 put to dea? by ! sword2 !n ! re/ ( ! *apt] is giv5 to ! detail$ record ( ,pet]'s wond]ful deliv]ance 9 answ] to pray] 7vs4 #e1 #ab74 ,9 t day :5 all ?+s %all be reveal$ ,i am conv9c$ we %all see t pray] _h mu* to d 9 ! work+ out ( our deliv]ance4 ,:5 ! fir/ cable 0 receiv$ 9 ,canada in=m+ ! home *ur* ( our p>ty />t+ on t p]il\s j\rney1 we are told a great wave ( pray] w5t up = u f ,*ri/ians ( all d5om9ations4 ,! ,presbyt]ian ,assembly ( ,canada 0 meet+ at ! "t1 & "o session 0 giv5 up entirely to pray] on behalf ( ! mission>ies 9 ,*9a4 ,nev] _h t body witness$ su* a season ( int5se1 unit$ int]cession4 ,lat] :5 giv+ ! /ory ( our escape 9 ! homel&1 repeat$ly we h _h p come to u tell+ h[1 dur+ ! weeks :i* elaps$ betwe5 ! fir/ cable in=m+ ! home *ur* ( our dang]1 & ! second cable1 :i* told ( our safe arrival at ! coa/1 !y _h nev] ceas$ to cry to ,god to save u4 ,!n1 too1 aft] all is said1 we mu/ believe ,god 0 glorifi$ & ,god's purposes 7 fulfill$ 9 ! dea? ( "s z 9 ! sav$ lives ( o!rs4 ,! blood ( ! m>tyrs is /ill ! se$ ( ! ,*ur*4 ,x 0 9 ! mon? ( ,june1 #ahie1 t an incid5t occurr$ :i* has ev] be5 l9k$ 9 my m9d ) ! ev5ts ( #aijj4 ,i 0 ab\t to leave ,toronto ) my f\r *ildr5 to jo9 my husb& 9 ,*9a1 :5 a cable 0 receiv$ tell+ ( ! cruel massacre ( ,mr4 & ,mrs4 ,/ew>t & o!rs4 ,deep & widespread sympa?y 0 express$ & mu* anxiety felt = mission>ies g5]ally 9 ,*9a4 ,_m urg$ me to delay our return2 b ,i felt x be/ to keep to our orig9al plans1 & a few days lat] f\nd u bidd+ f>ewell to fri5ds at ! ,union ,/ation1 ,toronto4 ,j z ! tra9 0 leav+ a lady /epp$ =w>d quickly to ! w9d[ & said1 ,y d n "k me1 b ,i h pray$ ! ,"l to give me a promise = y2 x is ?is1 take x z f ,him1 & h&$ me a slip ( pap]4 ,i op5$ ! pap] & read1 ,no weapon t is =m$ aga9/ !e %all prosp] 7,isa4 #ed3ag74 ,!n & !re ,i rais$ my he>t to ,god 9 pray] t he w\ld fulfil ?is promise to me & ^? de> to me2 & z ,i pray$ !re came ! cle> assurance t ! ,"l he>d4 ,nev] c we =get t w9t] ( #ahii-aijj4 ,! cl\ds _h begun to ga!r1 & ! mutt]+s ( ! com+ /orm 7 he>d on all sides ( u4 ,repeat$ly we 7 z a mission 9 grave/ dang]1 & at su* times 7 lit]ally %ut up to ,god4 ,! temp] ( ! p 0 su* t any little ?+ ang]+ !m w\ld h be5 z a sp>k to gunp[d]4 ,f ! "t ( ! gov]nm5t crisis ( ! autumn ( #ahii1 we1 9 company ) all o!r =eign]s 9 ,*9a1 realiz$ t conditions 7 becom+ s]i\s1 yet nev] did we expect or prep>e = su* a cataclysm z took place :5 ! /orm cl\ds sudd5ly bur/ 9 ! e>ly summ] ( #aijj4 ,! fir/ indication we _h ( com+ dang] 0 :5 our mail c>ri]s runn+ to & f ,ti5ts9 7 /opp$ & our mails return$4 ,?us1 cut (f f ! outside _w1 we _h to dep5d solely ^u ! wild rumors afloat among ! ,*9ese = in=mation4 ,! c\ntry ar\nd u became daily m di/urb$2 day by day we c\ld he> ! beat+ ( drums & ! cries ( ! p = ra94 ,! d>kness & horror ( ^? days1 9 ! mid/ ( :i* sickness & dea? ent]$ our home1 c nev] be =gott54 ,on ! n9ete5? ( ,june our elde/ daught]1 ,flor5ce1 aft] a week ( int5se suff]+1 0 releas$ f pa94 ,x 0 :ile h] life 0 /ill hang+ 9 ! balance t we receiv$ ! fir/ communication f ! ,am]ican ,consul 9 ,*efoo urg+ u to flee4 ,?is message 0 quickly foll[$ by ano!r /ill m urg5t4 ,! "q 01 :]e c\ld we flee8 ,our usual r\te 0 by riv] boat two weeks to ,ti5ts91 b ?is way 0 block$1 ! :ole region be+ infe/$ ) ,box]s1 & ,ti5ts9 ev5 !n 9 a /ate ( siege4 ,! only possible r\te left op5 to u 0 s\?w>d by c>t1--f\rte5 days to ,fan-*5g1--!n t5 or m days by h\seboat to ,hank[4 ,we fac$ su* a j\rney at t "t ( ! ye> ) fe> & trembl+ because ( ! *ildr51 ! dang] f heat & sun be+ v great4 ,gladly w\ld we h /ay$1 b ! ,*9ese ,*ri/ians urg$ u to g1 say+ !y c\ld escape m easily 7 we n !re4 ,we _h ) u our f\r rema9+ *ildr53 ,paul1 n9e2 ,hel51 six2 ,ru?1 "u ?ree2 & baby ,wallace1 eight mon?s4 ,_! fai?ful ,*9ese nurse1 ?\gh weep+ bitt]ly at p>t+ f h] old "m ( almo/ eighty1 decid$ to come ) u4 ,!re 7 altoge!r 9 ! p>ty five m51 six wom51 & five *ildr51 besides ! s]vants & c>t]s4 ,_m 7 ! difficulties 9 ! way ( gett+ c>ts & o!r necess>y ?+s = ! j\rney1 b "o by "o all ?+s ne$$ 7 provid$ z we bes\ght ! ,"l to op5 ! way4 ,!re 7 _m indications on t j\rney t ,god's purpose 0 to save u2 "o ( ! mo/ /rik+ ( ^! happ5$ j z we 7 ab\t to leave4 ,! day previ\s to our dep>ture a message pass$ ?r\gh ! city ( ,*ang ,te ,ho1 ! mess5g] rid+ at breakneck spe$4 ,?is mess5g]1 we le>n$ lat]1 0 en-r\te = ! ,prov9cial ,capital ) ! seal$ message f ! ,empress ,d[ag] comm&+ ! dea? ( all =eign]s4 ,we _h plann$ fir/ to take ! direct r\te s\?1 :i* w\ld1 z f> z we c n[ see1 h l$ u to our dea?1 = ?is r\te w\ld h tak5 u ?r\gh ! capital4 ,almo/ at ! la/ mom5t1 & q unaw>e ( ! dang] on ! direct r\te1 we 7 l$ to *ange our plans & take a r\te f>!r we/1 ?\gh x made a consid]ably long] j\rney4 ,we left ,*ang ,te1 ,june #bh1 #aijj1 at daybreak4 ,at ,wei ,hwei ,fu1 ! fir/ l>ge city to :i* we came1 an attempt 0 made to break into our inn1 b z we pray$ ! mob disp]s$ & we 7 left 9 peace4 ,on ,july fir/ we rea*$ ! nor? bank ( ! ,yell[ ,riv]1 & !re = a %ort "t 7x 0 ,sunday aft]noon7 we re/$ "u ! trees4 ,little did we dream t ev5 !n _m1 v _m1 ( our fell[-mission>ies & p]sonal fri5ds 7 be+ done to dea? by ! m]ciless ,box]s4 ,at sunset ! f]ry :i* c>ri$ u across ! riv] rea*$ ! s\? bank1 & "h we f\nd sev]al mission>ies & a p>ty ( eng9e]s wait+ = u4 ,^! latt] 7 fully arm$ & _h a fair escort4 ,aft] "s difficulty x 0 decid$ t we %\ld all keep toge!r1 b 9 reality ?is p>ty kept by !mselves1 except t we /ay$ 9 ! same t[ns at night4 ,ea* day t pass$ seem$ h>d] ?an ! la/1 ! heat 0 int5se1 & ! t5 or twelve h\rs ( bump+ ov] r\gh roads 9 spr+less c>ts made ev5 a b$ spread on ! gr\nd a welcome re/+-place4 ,once1 :5 ,mr4 ,g(or? _h jump$ (f our c>t to get fre% wat] = our head clo?s1 a cr[d ga!r$ r\nd him & became v ?reat5+1 rais+ ! cry1 ,kill1 kill4 ,all ! o!r c>ts 7 ahead1 & ! c>t] w\ld n wait = ,mr4 ,g(or?1 z he 0 afraid4 ,dur+ ! few mom5ts t elaps$ be=e my husb& 0 all[$ to jo9 u ev5 ! c>t] turn$ pale ) susp5se1--& oh1 h[ ,i pray$6 ,except = a few simil> pass+ dang]s1 no?+ special occurr$ until ! ev5+ ( ,july sev5?1 :5 we rea*$ ! small t[n ( ,hs9ti54 ,we _h he>d dur+ ! day t ! :ole c\ntry ahead ( u 0 9 a /ate ( f]m5t aga9/ ! ,roman ,ca?olics4 ,sc>cely _h we rea*$ ! inn :5 ! eng9e]s & ! mission>ies ) !m :o _h become increas+ly al>m$ at ! condition ( ! c\ntry1 in=m$ u t !y 7 go+ on to ! l>ge city ( ,nan ,yang ,fu t night1 b w\ld leave u two soldi]s & two ( _! c>ts4 ,mr4 ,g(or? did n wi% !m to g1 = he felt x w\ld greatly increase our dang]4 ,%ortly aft] !y left u ! mob began to ga!r outside our inn4 ,! gate 0 b>ricad$ ) c>ts4 ,= h\rs /ones 7 ?r[n aga9/ ! gate & dem& 0 made = our money4 ,a mess5g] 0 at once s5t aft] ! eng9e]s' p>ty1 ask+ !m to return4 ,all t night 0 sp5t 9 sleepless susp5se4 ,e>ly 9 ! morn+ ! mess5g] return$ ) ! reply t !y _h fail$ to get help f ! ,nan ,yang ,fu (ficial & 7 oblig$ to pu% on4 ,z soon z ! c>t]s he>d we 7 ?us left helpless a panic seiz$ !m1 & x 0 ) great difficulty !y c\ld be p]suad$ to h>ness _! animals4 ,all ?is "t ! cr[d _h be5 becom+ m d5se1 z we c\ld see ?r\gh ! cracks ( ! gate1 & 7 om9\sly quiet4 ,h9ts _h be5 giv5 u ( com+ dang]1 b t 0 all2 none spoke ( :at all felt1--t we 7 probably go+ to our dea?4 ,sudd5ly1 )\t ! slighte/ w>n+1 ,i 0 seiz$ ) an ov]:elm+ fe> ( :at might be await+ u4 ,x 0 n ! fe> ( aft] dea?1 b ( probable torture1 t took su* awful hold ( me4 ,i ?\ght1 ,c ?is be ! ,*ri/ian c\rage ,i h look$ =8 ,i w5t by myself & pray$ = victory1 b no help came4 ,j !n "s "o call$ u to a room = pray] be=e gett+ into our c>ts4 ,sc>cely able to walk = trembl+1 & utt]ly a%am$ t o!rs %\ld see my /ate ( panic1--= su* x und\bt$ly 01--,i manag$ to rea* a b5* beside :i* my husb& /ood4 ,he drew f 8 pocket a little book1 ,cl>ke's ,scripture ,promises1 & read ! v]ses 8 eye fir/ fell ^u4 ,!y 7 ! foll[+3 ,! et]nal ,god is ?y refuge1 & und]nea? are ! ev]la/+ arms3 & he %all ?ru/ out ! enemy f be=e !e2 & %all say1 ,de/roy !m4 ,! ,god ( ,jacob is our refuge4 ,?\ art my help & my deliv]]2 make no t>ry+1 ,o my ,god4 ,i w /r5g!n !e2 yea1 ,i w help !e2 yea1 ,i w uphold !e ) ! "r h& ( my righte\sness4 4 4 4 ,! ,"l ?y ,god w hold ?y "r h&1 say+ unto !e1 ,fe> n2 ,i w help !e4 ,if ,god be = u1 :o c be aga9/ u8 ,we may boldly say1 ,! ,"l is my help]1 & ,i w n fe> :at man %all d unto me4 ,! effect ( ^! words at su* a "t 0 rem>kable4 ,all realiz$ t ,god 0 speak+ to u4 ,nev] 0 !re a message m directly giv5 to mortal man f 8 ,god ?an t message to u4 ,f almo/ ! fir/ v]se my :ole s\l seem$ flood$ ) a great peace2 all trace ( panic vani%$2 & ,i felt ,god's pres5ce 0 ) u4 ,inde$1 8 pres5ce 0 s real x c\ld sc>cely h be5 m s _h we se5 a visible =m4 ,aft] pray] we all got on our c>ts1 & "o by "o pass$ out into ! d5sely cr[d$ /reet4 ,z we approa*$ ! city gate we c\ld see t ! road 0 black ) cr[ds await+ u4 ,i _h j rem>k$ to my husb& on h[ well we 7 gett+ ?r\gh ! cr[ds1 :5 our c>ts pass$ ?r\gh ! gates4 ,my husb& turn$ pale z he po9t$ to a gr\p ( sev]al hundr$ m51 fully arm$1 await+ u4 ,!y wait$ till all ! c>ts _h pass$ ?r\gh ! gate1 !n hurl$ d[n ^u u a %[] ( /ones1 at ! same "t ru%+ =w>d & maim+ or kill+ "s ( ! animals4 ,mr4 ,g(or? jump$ d[n f our c>t & cri$ to !m1 ,take ev]y?+1 b don't kill4 ,8 only answ] 0 a bl[4 ,! confusion t foll[$ 0 s great x w\ld be impossible to describe ! escape ( ea* "o 9 detail4 ,ea* "o lat] _h 8 or h] own te/imony ( t mighty & m]ciful deliv]ance4 ,b ,i mu/ give ! details ( ,mr4 ,g(or?'s exp]i5ce4 ,"o man /ruck him a bl[ on ! neck ) a great sword wield$ ) two h&s4 ,someh[ ! blunt edge ( ! sword /ruck 8 neck2 ! bl[ left a wide m>k almo/ ar\nd 8 neck1 b did no fur!r h>m4 ,_h ! %>p edge /ruck 8 neck he w\ld c]ta9ly h be5 behead$6 ,8 ?ick helmet 0 cut almo/ to pieces1 "o bl[ cutt+ ?r\gh ! lea!r l9+ j ov] ! temple1 b )\t ev5 scrat*+ ! sk96 ,aga9 he 0 fell$ to ! gr\nd1 ) a fe>ful sword cut1 :i* ent]$ ! bone ( ! skull beh9d & almo/ cleft x 9 two4 ,z he fell he seem$ to he> di/9ctly a voice say+1 ,fe> n1 !y are pray+ = y4 ,ris+ f ?is bl[1 he 0 aga9 /ruck d[n by a club4 ,z he 0 fall+ almo/ unconsci\s to ! gr\nd he saw a horse com+ at full spe$ t[>d him2 :5 he became consci\s aga9 he f\nd ! horse _h tripp$ & fall5 7on level gr\nd7 s ne> t its tail almo/ t\*$ him4 ,! animal1 kick+ furi\sly1 _h s]v$ z a b>ri] betwe5 him & 8 assailants4 ,:ile daz$ & n kn[+ :at to d a man came up z if to /rike1 b :isp]$1 ,leave ! c>ts4 ,by t "t ! onlook]s began to ru% =w>d to get ! loot1 b ! attack+ p>ty felt ! ?+s 7 !irs1 s desi/$ 9 _! attack ^u u 9 ord] to secure _! booty4 ,a ^w z to myself & ! *ildr54 ,sev]al fi]ce m5 ) swords jump$ on my c>t4 ,"o /ruck at ! baby1 b ,i p>ri$ ! bl[ ) a pill[1 & ! little fell[ only receiv$ a slight scrat* on ! =ehead4 ,!n !y dropp$ _! swords & began te>+ at our goods at ! back ( ! c>t4 ,heavy boxes 7 dragg$ ov] u1 & ev]y?+ 0 tak54 ,j !n a dreadful look+ man tri$ to rea* u f ! back ( ! c>t ) 8 sword1 miss+ by an in*4 ,i ?\ght he w\ld come to ! front & cont9ue 8 attack1 b he did n4 ,i _h se5 ,mr4 ,g(or? s9k to ! gr\nd cov]$ ) blood twice1 & _h giv5 him up = dead4 ,j !n ,paul1 :o _h be5 9 ! la/ c>t1 jump$ 91 wild ) delight at :at he seem$ to ?9k 0 great fun1 = he _h run ?r\gh ! ?ick ( ! fight1 dodg+ sword ?ru/s f all sides1 & _h succe$$ 9 rea*+ me )\t a scrat*4 ,a mom5t lat] my husb& came to ! edge ( ! c>t sc>cely able to /&1 say+1 ,get d[n quickly2 we mu/ n delay 9 gett+ away4 ,z ,i 0 gett+ d[n "o man snat*$ away my hat1 ano!r my %oes2 b we 7 all[$ to g4 ,ru? 0 n[h]e to be se51 & we hop$ %e 0 ) ! mission>ies :o _h *>ge ( h] at ! "t ( attack4 ,i saw t ,mr4 ,g(or?'s /r5g? 0 fail+ fa/1 = he c\ld sc>cely walk1 & z m5 began to foll[ ,i urg$ him =w>d ) ! baby & ! o!r two *ildr51 & turn+ fac$ ! m51 begg+ !m to h m]cy on my *ildr51 = !y _h begun to /one u4 ,"s ( u 7 black = days f ! bl[s receiv$ !n4 ,!y /opp$ & li/5$1 !n ! lead] said1 ,we've kill$ h] husb&1 let h] g4 ,) ?is !y ran back to ! c>ts4 ,i knew ,mr4 ,g(or? c\ld n g f>4 ,we c\ld see a small village n f> di/ant1 & to ?is we ha/5$1 pray+ z we w5t t ! ,"l w\ld op5 ! he>ts ( ! p to receive u4 ,"h aga9 ,paul seem$ to feel no fe>1 b said1 ,"m1 :at does ?is put y 9 m9d (8 ,x puts me 9 m9d ( ! ,h5ty books6 ,z we ne>$ ! village m5 came out to drive u away1 b ,i begg$ !m to help u4 ,by ?is "t ,mr4 ,g(or? _h sunk to ! gr\nd4 ,putt+ ! baby 9 an old woman's arms1 ,i knelt d[n beside my husb&4 ,! *ildr5 7 cry+ bitt]ly4 ,mr4 ,g(or? look$ z if he 7 dy+4 ,! wom5 /&+ r\nd u 7 weep+ n[4 ,?is 0 too mu* = ! m51 :o came =w>d say+1 ,we w save y4 ,"o ran & got "s /uff to put 9 ! w\nds1 assur+ u x w\ld /op ! fl[ ( blood1 & x did4 ,?is man help$ me to b&age up ! w\nds ) b&ages made f g>m5ts tak5 f myself & ! *ildr54 ,!y help$ my husb&1 & we foll[$ !m into a little hut1 :]e !y laid him on a /raw b$ & lock$ u 94 ,hot wat] = ba?+ our bruises1 food & dr9k 7 h&$ u ?r\gh a small w9d[1 & we c\ld he> !m plann+ h[ !y w\ld save u4 ,we told !m h[ anxi\s we 7 to he> ( our fri5ds & little ,ru?1 s !y s5t a man to inquire4 ,we f\nd t ^! p--! :ole village--7 ,mohamm$ans1 & _h tak5 no "p 9 ! attack4 ,we felt t ,god _h wond]fully direct$ our /eps to t village4 ,all t day ,mr4 ,g(or? lay /ill1 b look$ at times s v :ite t ,i fe>$ ! wor/4 ,nev] = "o mom5t1 ,i believe1 dur+ t day did ,i cease to pray = 8 life4 ,& :5 ,mr4 ----1 "o ( our p>ty1 arriv$ ab\t f\r o'clock look+ = u1 ,mr4 ,g(or? at once got up z if p]fectly well1 insi/+ on walk+ to ! c>t4 ,to me1 kn[+ h[ he _h look$ t day1 x seem$ only a miracle4 ,8 only answ] to my prote/ 01 ,only pray2 ! ,"l w give me /r5g?1 z long z he has "w = me to d4 ,z we 7 leav+1 ! k9d fri5ds ( ! village ga!r$ r\nd insi/+ on my tak+ "s old clo!s to put r\nd ! *ildr51 :o 7 almo/ nak$1 say+1 ,x w be *illy at night4 ,z we w5t =w>d to jo9 ! o!rs1 ,mr4 ---- told u h[ "o by "o all _h escap$4 ,dr4 ---- 0 ! only "o beside ,mr4 ,g(or? s]i\sly injur$1 ! poor fell[ hav+ _h 8 kneecap sev]$ & ! t5dons ( 8 "r wri/ badly cut1 besides _m o!r w\nds4 ,all t day our fri5ds _h be5 wait+ by ! roadside1 unable to proce$ )\t c>ts1 ow+ to ! doctor's condition4 ,!y _h jo9$ 9 "o petition1 t ,god w\ld move ! c>t]s to come4 ,^? :o "k ,*9a & hea!n c>t]s w readily ackn[l$ge t x 0 no?+ %ort ( a miracle--! miracle ( answ]$ pray]--t made ^! hea!n c>t]s come1 aft] all !y _h already gone ?r\gh4 ,= come !y did1 five ( !m1 all t 7 ne$$1 n[ t our luggage 0 gone4 ,we le>n$ too1 t our fai?ful ,*9ese nurse1 :o _h *>ge ( ,ru?1 _h sav$ ! *ild at ! risk ( h] own life1 ly+ ^u ! *ild & tak+ _m cruel bl[s1 till gre$ = loot drew ! m5 (f4 ,we soon jo9$ ! re/ ( ! p>ty1 & by six o'clock t ev5+ we rea*$ ! l>ge city ( ,nang ,yang ,fu4 ,! city wall 0 black ) p1 & z we ent]$ ! gate ! wild cr[ds cru%$ aga9/ our c>ts4 ,sometimes ! animals /agg]$1 & x seem$ z if no?+ c\ld save ! c>ts f be+ ov]turn$4 ,e mom5t or two a brick or /one w\ld be hurl$ aga9/ ! c>ts1 & t cry1 ,kill1 kill1 :i* c nev] be =gott5 :5 once he>d1 0 %\t$ by p]haps hundr$s ( voices4 ,yet ! ,"l br\ght u ?r\gh1 & no weapon prosp]$4 ,:5 we rea*$ ! inn a wild mob ( ov] a ?\s& m5 fill$ ! inn y>d2 & z we alight$ f ! c>t ^! m5 lit]ally drove u be=e !m into "o room1 :i* 9 a few mom5ts 0 pack$ to suffocation4 ,= probably an h\r ! cr[d kept cru%+ u into "o corn]2 !n ^? outside became impati5t at n be+ able to get 91 & dem&$ t we be br\ght out4 ,we manag$ to keep "s ( ! ladies f go+ out2 b ! re/ ( u--m51 wom51 & *ildr5--/ood fac+ t see?+ multitude until relief came 9 ! d>kness4 ,:y did !y n kill u !n8 ,:y1 inde$8 ,none b an ,almighty ,god kept t cr[d back4 ,z soon z we _h rea*$ ! city a s]vant 0 s5t to ! (ficial dem&+ protection4 ,x 0 d>k :5 ?is man return$1 9 a /ate ( great agitation2 8 /ory 0 t z he 0 wait+ = an answ] f ! (ficial he ov]he>d a conv]sation betwe5 two soldi]s1 & ga!r$ f :at !y said t ! (ficial _h s5t a p>ty ( fifty soldi]s along ! road t we w\ld h to take1 ) ! ord] t e "o ( u mu/ be put to dea?4 ,! (ficial 0 afraid to h u kill$ 9 ! city le/ he %\ld aft]w>d be blam$2 b by ?is plan he c\ld say brig&s _h done ! de$4 ,s sure 0 ?is s]vant t we 7 all to be massacr$ t he w\ld rema9 ) u no long]1 b return$ t night to ,honan ) ! report t we 7 all kill$4 ,a consultation 0 held1 & ! "q 01 %\ld we /ay 9 ! city & aga9 dem& protection1 or %\ld we g on & tru/ ,god to op5 our way8 ,! latt] c\rse 0 decid$ ^u4 ,b = a long "t ! c>t]s utt]ly refus$ to g f>!r ) u4 ,aga9 pray] op5$ up our way1 & by two o'clock 9 ! morn+ all 7 ready to />t4 ,! (ficial _h s5t a few foot-soldi]s to guide u to ! "r road6 7to ! waylay+ p>ty74 ,! night 0 v d>k1 & z we 7 pass+ ?r\gh ! gate ( ! city we notic$ :at seem$ to be signal lights put out & drawn 94 ,we all felt ^! to be signals to ! waylay+ p>ty ahead4 ,a %ort di/ance f ! city1 probably ab\t "o hundr$ y>ds1 our c>ts sudd5ly /opp$4 ,"s "o ran up & :isp]$ to ,mr4 ,g(or?1 ,paul & ,mr4 ---- are miss+4 ,se>* 0 made = !m1 b )\t success4 ,a veil mu/ be drawn ov] ^? t]rible h\rs ( susp5se2 my fai? seem$ to fail me1 & ,i c\ld only cry 9 my agony1 ,if ,paul is gone1 c ,i ev] tru/ ,god aga98 ,!n ,i rememb]$ h[ m>vel\sly ,god _h giv5 me back my de> husb&'s life1 & ,i j committ$ ,paul into 8 h&s & wait$ to see :at he w\ld d4 ,:5 all hope 0 giv5 up ( f9d+ ! miss+ ones1 a c>t 0 left beh9d ) a tru/$ s]vant1 & we w5t on4 ,!n we saw ,god's wond]ful plan = u4 ,:ile we 7 wait+ ! soldi]s _h fall5 asleep 9 ! c>ts1 & 7 n aw>e t ! c>t]s 7 tak+ a side road until we _h gott5 miles f ! city & beyond ! rea* ( our w\ld-be murd]]s6 ,! soldi]s 7 infuriat$ at ?is discov]y2 b aft] "s ?reat5+ !y left u & return$ to ! city4 ,?us aga9 we saw t ,god 0 inde$ unto u a ,god ( deliv]ances4 ,aga9 & aga9 t day we 7 surr\nd$ by mobs4 ,_m times ,i held up ! poor1 dirty clo!s :i* ! ,mohamm$ans _h giv5 u1 & ! /ory ( h[ ^! _h be5 giv5 quiet$ ! p p]haps m ?an any?+4 ,once ! cry 0 rais$ to drag our *ildr5's nurse out ( ! c>t2 b z we cri$ to ,god = h] ! p let u alone1 & we pass$ on4 ,at ano!r "t a man snat*$ ! rema9s ( ,mr4 ,g(or?'s helmet away f u1 & tore x to pieces4 ,i _h hop$ to keep x z a trophy %\ld we ev] get out safely4 ,we 7 at ?is "t 9 a pitiable condition4 ,mo/ ( ! m5 _h head or arms b&ag$2 ,dr4 ---- 0 unable to raise 8 head4 ,:at we suff]$ 9 ^? c>ts ) no?+ b ! bo>ds "u u _c be told4 ,n9e p]sons 7 pack$ 9 our c>t1 :i* "u ord9>y circum/ances w\ld h held f\r or five4 ,at noon we rea*$ a l>ge city1 :]e ! animals _h to re/ & fe$4 ,!n aga9 we saw an evid5ce ( ! ,"l's lov+ k9dness ov] u4 ,j z we 7 gett+ d[n f our c>ts ! cr[d became v ?reat5+1 & x look$ n[ z if our h\r _h inde$ come2 b at ?is critical juncture two well-dress$ "y m5 ( (ficial class came ?r\gh ! cr[d1 greet+ ,mr4 ,g(or? 9 great surprise4 ,!y _h be5 receiv$ by him 9 our home at ,*ang ,te ,ho4 ,a few words ( explanation 7 spok51 !n !y turn$ quickly to ! cr[d & told !m :o we 7 & ( ! "w at ,*ang ,te ,ho4 ,! attitude ( ! p *ang$ in/antly1 & !y made way = u1 giv+ u good rooms1 & food 0 br\ght :i* 0 greatly ne$$4 ,t noon1 z "o aft] ano!r came up to express _! sympa?y at ,paul's loss1 ,i c\ld say no?+--,i 0 wait+ to see :at ,god w\ld d4 ,:5 ,mr4 ,g(or? told ! "y (ficials ab\t ,paul & ,mr4 ----1 !y 7 greatly conc]n$1 & promis$ to s5d m5 at once to se>* = !m4 ,^! fri5ds 9 ne$ s5t ) u a man ( ! di/rict to guide & help u1 & also wrote an urg5t lett] to ! (ficial ( ! city we 7 to /ay 9 t night1 ask+ him to give u an escort & help u 9 e way he c\ld4 ,ab\t f\r o'clock t aft]noon a man came runn+ aft] u ) ! joyful news t ,paul & ,mr4 ---- 7 safe1 & w\ld rea* u t night4 ,z ,i he>d ?is news my unbelief & fai?lessness 9 ! h\r ( te/+ came ov] me ) ov]:elm+ =ce1 & ,i c\ld only b[ my head & weep4 ,oh1 ! goodness & m]cy ( ,god6 ,nev] _h ! love ( ,god seem$ s wond]ful z 9 t h\r4 ,c\ld we ) ink ! ocean fill1 ,7 ! :ole sky ( p>*m5t made1 ,7 e blade ( grass a quill1 ,& e man a scribe by trade2 ,to write ! love ( ,god above ,w\ld dra9 t ocean dry1 ,nor c\ld ! scroll conta9 ! :ole ,?\gh /ret*$ f sky to sky4 ,t night we rea*$ our de/9ation ab\t n9e o'clock1 hav+ travel$ sev5te5 h\rs ov] ^? roads1 ) b a %ort break at noon4 ,x 0 m>vel\s h[ ,mr4 ,g(or? 0 su/a9$1 = he 0 oblig$ to />t at once = ! (ficial's resid5ce ) ! note ,i h already ref]r$ to4 ,on ! way ?r\gh ! /reet ! mob ab\t succe$$1 sev]al times1 9 gett+ him d[n "u _! feet2 b ,god 0 ) him1 & he rea*$ ! ,yam5 9 safety1 be+ c\rte\sly receiv$ by ! (ficial1 :o promis$ u protection1 & s5t him back to ! inn "u escort4 ,:5 ,paul & ,mr4 ---- arriv$ t night1 !y tri$ 9 va9 to wake me1 b nature _h to h h] way4 ,i knew no?+ till ,i wak5$ ) a />t at ab\t two ,a4,m4 ,jump+ up1 ,i />t$ to look = ,paul1 & nev] c ,i =get ! sc5e6 ,! :ole p>ty 0 ly+ on ! b>e e>!n floor1 practically )\t b$d+ or mattresses4 ,a ^w conc]n+ ! exp]i5ces ( ,mr4 ----& ,paul4 ,! two _h got d[n f _! c>t & 7 walk+ beh9d4 ,9 "s way !y miss$ ! road 9 ! d>k1 & became sep>at$ f u4 ,dur+ t day !y 7 repeat$ly 9 ! grave/ dang]4 ,on "o occasion1 :5 surr\nd$ by a viol5t mob1 & "o man _h rais$ a club above ,paul's head to /rike him d[n1 ,mr4 ----felt impell$ by "s unse5 p[] to %\t out1 ,we are n ,roman ,ca?olics1 b ,prote/ants4 ,at ?is ! man l[]$ 8 club1 exclaim+1 ,:y1 ^! are n ! bad =eign devils1 b ! good =eign devils1 l ^? mission>ies at ,*[ ,*ia ,k'eo 7,*9a ,inl& ,mission74 ,at ?is same place ! he>ts ( ! p seem$ turn$ t[>d !m 9 a wond]ful way4 ,"o man gave ,paul "o hundr$ ca% 7five c5ts7 to buy "s food2 ano!r man c>ri$ ! lad on 8 back = miles to give 8 feet a re/1 !y 7 s sore4 ,?is same man1 :5 he c\ld c>ry ,paul no long]1 ran ahead to try & f9d u4 ,:5 !y rea*$ ! inn :]e we _h be5 s help$ by ! two ,*9ese g5tlem51 !y f\nd t ^! fri5ds _h food prep>$ & a b>r[ wait+1 also a guide ready to lead !m to u6 ,less ?an an h\r f ! "t ,i awak5$ we 7 on ! road aga94 ,! (ficial 0 true to 8 promise1 & a l>ge m\nt$ escort accompani$ u4 ,t day we 7 on ! road tw5ty h\rs1 rea*+ ,fan ,*5g at midnight4 ,"h we f\nd ! eng9e]s' p>ty wait+ = u ) boats hir$1 b we 7 oblig$ to rema9 tw5ty-f\r h\rs 9 ! mo/ loa?some inn we ev] _h ! mis=tune to be 9 9 ,*9a4 ,x 0 an unspeakable relief to get into ! h\seboats1 ev5 ?\gh we only _h b>e bo>ds to lie on1 & ! boat p's food to eat4 ,we 7 t5 days go+ d[n /ream to ,hank[4 ,"o aft] ! o!r became ill4 ,:5 /ill a day f ,hank[1 a /eam tug met u ) provisions4 ,our *ildr5 cri$ at ! sight ( bread & milk6 ,we 7 n all[$ to /op long en\gh at ,hank[1 z we _h hop$1 to get clo!s & o!r necess>ies1 b 7 oblig$ to ha/5 on by ! fir/ /eam]1 :i* left ! foll[+ morn+4 ,i 0 oblig$ to borr[ g>m5ts = myself & ! *ildr5 f our fell[-pass5g]s4 ,at ,%anghai ! /reets 7 be+ p>ad$1 & e prep>ation 0 be+ made = an attack4 ,we le>n$ ) deep sorr[ ( ! dea? ( _m de> fri5ds at ! h&s ( ! ,box]s4 ,ord]$ home by ! fir/ /eam]1 )\t any?+ left to u b ! old clo!s we _h on at ! "t ( ! attack1 h[ c\ld we get ready 9 su* a %ort "t = ! long home voyage8 ,!re 0 no lack ( money1 = our ,bo>d _h cabl$ all we ne$$4 ,! "q t fac$ u 0 h[ c\ld ,i get clo!s made = six ( u 9 su* a %ort "t1 ) ,*9ese tailors too busy to help1 no ma*9e to be _h1 & no ready-made clo!s to be b\ght except = ,mr4 ,g(or? & ,paul4 ,aga9 ,i f\nd t man's extremity 0 b ,god's opportunity4 ,he 0 true to 8 promise1 ,god %all supply all y\r ne$4 ,ev5 z ,i knelt 9 an agony ( pray]1 besee*+ ,god's help1 & ask+ def9itely t "s "o %\ld be s5t to me to help ) ! sew+1 two ladies 7 at ! door ask+ = me6 ,^! 7 p]fect /rang]s1 b _h se5 our names among ! rec5t refugees1 & ,god _h mov$ !m to come & (f] _! assi/ance6 ,!y work$ = me night & day until we _h to get on bo>d ! /eam]4 ,nev] %all ,i =get _! ,*ri/ian fell[%ip & practical help at t "t4 ,b 9 ! ru% to get ! old] *ildr5 ready1 baby ,wallace's clo!s 7 neglect$4 ,!re 0 no?+ = x b to take mat]ials & make ?+s = him on ! voyage4 ,9 ?is connection came a mo/ wond]ful & preci\s evid5ce ( ,god's p[] to answ] pray]4 ,= ! fir/ few days ( ! j\rney ,i work$ e>ly & late try+ to make some?+ = ! little "o1 :o _h sc>cely any?+ to we>2 b z we 7 ne>+ ,yokohama ,i realiz$ ,i _h almo/ rea*$ ! end ( my /r5g?4 ,my ne$le refus$ to "w2 try z ,i w\ld ,i c\ld n ev5 see :]e to put ! ne$le4 ,fold+ up my "w ,i w5t d[n to ! /at]oom1 & kneel+ d[n ,i spread ! "w be=e ! ,"l4 ,too f> gone to agonize 9 pray]1 ,i c\ld only quietly1 almo/ mutely1 j tell him h[ ! poor *ild _h no clo!s4 ,ris+ ) a great s5se ( ! burd5 hav+ be5 lift$1 ,i put ! "w away1 lock+ x 9 a trunk1 !n w5t up on deck & lay d[n almo/ ins5sible f exhau/ion4 ,h[ long a "t pass$ ,i d n "k1 b x c\ld n h be5 m ?an half an h\r :5 "s "o came & t\*$ me1 say+1 ,we h dropp$ an*or 9 ,yokohama ,bay1 & a l>ge bundle has be5 ?r[n up on deck f ! light] = y4 ,= me6 ,i cri$4 ,surely n2 ,i "k no "o 9 ,japan4 ,!n ,i ?\ght1 ,x is ! answ] come6 ,go+ d[n ,i f\nd a lett] f ,mrs4 ,o4 ,e41 ( ! ,*9a ,inl& ,mission4 ,%e said t h] little son1 ! same age z baby ,wallace1 _h di$ f\r mon?s be=e1 & ! ,"l _h press$ h] to s5d 8 complete outfit to me = my *ild6 ,op5+ ! p>cel1 ,i f\nd n only ev]y?+ ! *ild c\ld possibly ne$ = a ye> or m1 b mu* else4 ,_h "s "o /ood beside t de> si/] & told h] :at ,i mo/ ne$$1 %e c\ld n h done diff]5tly4 ,yes1 surely ,"s ,"o did direct h] lov+ h&s1 & ,"s ,"o j us$ h] z "o ( 8 *annels2 = %e liv$ ne> to him1 & 0 an op5 *annel4 ,?ree days lat] my own collapse came2 b praise 8 great "n1 he 0 ) me 9 ! d>kness & br\ght me ?r\gh4 ,,vi ,,prov+ ,,god',s ,,fai?fulness 7#aijb-aijh7 ,! safe/ place 4 4 4 is ! pa? ( duty4 ,,"o ( ! results ( our graci\s & m]ciful deliv]ance f ! h&s ( ! ,box]s 0 an increas$ desire to make our lives tell 9 ! s]vice ( ,god--to sp5d & be sp5t = him4 ,our ,heav5ly ,fa!r saw ?is & j took u at our ^w1 & l$ u out into ! pa? :i* meant absolute surr5d] z ,i _h nev] kn[n x be=e4 ,x is s true t ,god w be no man's debtor4 ,:5 he asks = & receives our all1 he gives 9 return t :i* is above price--8 own pres5ce4 ,! price is n great :5 comp>$ ) :at he gives 9 return2 x is our bl9dness & our unwill+ness to yield t make x seem great4 99 99 99 99 99 ,! foll[+ /ory has be5 ask$ = _m times4 ,believ+ t x has a lesson = o!rs1 ,i give x1 ?\gh to d s means lift+ ! veil f a v sacr$ "p ( my life4 ,aft] ! ,box] exp]i5ce1 my husb& return$ to ,*9a 9 #aija2 &1 ) my *ildr51 ,i left = ,*9a 9 ! summ] ( #aijb1 leav+ ! two elde/ *ildr5 at ! ,*efoo s*ools1 en r\te to ,honan4 ,mr4 ,g(or? met me at ,ti5ts91 & toge!r we travel$ by riv]-boat inl& a j\rney ( ab\t tw5ty-f\r days4 ,dur+ ^? long1 quiet days on ! riv]-boat my husb& unfold$ to me a c>efully ?\ght out plan = future mission "w4 ,he rem9d$ me t six mission>ies1 f a mission-/ation :i* _h be5 de/roy$ by ! ,box]s1 7 n[ p]man5tly /ation$ at ,*angte2 & t ! ma9 /ation1 n[ fully equipp$1 no long] ne$$ u z be=e4 ,he felt t ! "t _h come :5 we %\ld give ourselves to ! evangelization ( ! great regions nor? & nor!a/ ( ,*angte--regions :i* up to t "t _h be5 sc>cely t\*$ by ! ,gospel1 because ( lack ( work]s4 ,8 plan 0 t we--husb& & wife1 ) our *ildr5--%\ld g & live & "w among ! p4 ,to make ?is possible a native comp\nd w\ld be r5t$ 9 ! c5t]1 :]e we w\ld /ay a mon? = our fir/ visit1 leav+ beh9d an evangeli/ to c>ry on ! "w2 & we w\ld revisit ?is & o!r places s op5$ z _m times z possible 9 ! ye>4 ,:at ?is proposition meant to me c sc>cely be und]/ood by ^? unfamili> ) ,*9a & ,*9ese life4 ,smallpox1 diph!ria1 sc>let fev]1 & o!r contagi\s diseases are *ronic epidemics2 & ,*9a1 outside ! p>ts rul$ by =eign]s1 is absolutely devoid ( sanitation4 ,f\r ( our *ildr5 _h di$4 ,to take ! ?ree little ones1 !n ) me1 into su* conditions & dang] seem$ lit]ally l /epp+ ) !m ov] a precipice 9 ! d>k & expect+ to be kept4 ,b1 on ! o!r h&1 ,i _h ! language & exp]i5ce = j su* "w1 ! ne$ 0 truly appall+1 & !re 0 no o!r woman to d x4 ,9 my inn]mo/ s\l ,i knew ! call _h come f ,god1 b ,i w\ld n pay ! price4 ,my "o plea 9 refus+ to ent] t life 0 ! risk to ! *ildr54 ,aga9 & aga9 my husb& urg$ t ! safe/ place = myself & ! *ildr5 0 ! pa? ( duty2 t ,i c\ld n keep !m 9 our com=table home at ,*angte1 b ,god c\ld keep !m any:]e4 ,/ill ,i refus$4 ,j be=e rea*+ our /ation he begg$ me to reconsid] my decision4 ,:5 ,i gave a f9al refusal1 8 only answ] 03 ,i fe> = ! *ildr54 ,! v day aft] rea*+ home our de> ,wallace 0 tak5 ill4 ,= weeks we f\ght = 8 life2 at la/ ! crisis pass$ & he began to recov]4 ,!n my husb& />t$ (f alone on 8 fir/ trip6 ,he _h be5 gone only a day or two :5 our preci\s baby ,con/ance1 a ye> old1 0 tak5 d[n ) ! same disease t ,wallace _h4 ,f ! fir/ !re seem$ little or no hope4 ,! doctors1 a nurse1 & all ! little mission circle jo9$ 9 ! fight = h] life4 ,h] fa!r 0 s5t =1 b arriv$ j z %e 0 los+ consci\sness4 ,a few h\rs lat]1 :5 we 7 kneel+ r\nd h] b$side wait+ = ! end1 my eyes seem$ sudd5ly op5$ to :at ,i _h be5 do+--,i _h d>$ to fight aga9/ ,almighty ,god4 ,9 ! mom5ts t foll[$ ,god reveal$ himself to me 9 su* love & maje/y & glory t ,i gave myself up to him ) unspeakable joy4 ,!n ,i knew t ,i _h be5 mak+ an awful mi/ake1 & t ,i c\ld inde$ safely tru/ my *ildr5 to him :]ev] he might lead4 ,"o ?+ only seem$ pla91 t ,i mu/ foll[ :]e ,god %\ld lead4 ,i saw at la/ t ,god mu/ come fir/4 ,be=e ! preci\s body 0 laid away prep>ations = our fir/ trip 7 begun4 ,0 ,god fai?ful to ! vision he _h giv5 me8 ,or did he all[ ! *ildr5 to suff] 9 ! ye>s t foll[$1 :5 mon?s ea* ye> 7 sp5t ) !m "r out among ! p8 ,z ,i write ?is1 eighte5 ye>s h pass$ s9ce we />t$ on t fir/ trip1 & none ( our *ildr5 h di$4 ,nev] _h we z little sickness z dur+ t life4 ,nev] _h we s mu* evid5ce ( ,god's favor & bless+ 9 a hundr$ ways--z may be ga!r$ f ! def9ite te/imonies :i* foll[4 ,)\t "o exception1 e place 9 :i* we /ay$ = a mon?1 & op5$ z my husb& _h plann$1 became 9 "t a gr[+ *ur*4 ,& ,i f\nd1 to my surprise1 t ,i 0 able to give m "t to ! *ildr51 t ,i 0 able to gu>d !m bett] :5 on ^? trips ?an :5 9 ! ,*angte ,/ation4 ,= ! mission comp\nd 0 l>ge1 & (t5 ! *ildr5 7 out ( my sight = h\rs at a "t2 :]eas ! outside native comp\nds we liv$ 9 7 s small ! *ildr5 7 always )9 sight & rea*4 ,ev5 :5 gr\ps ( wom5 7 li/5+ to ! ,gospel1 ,i 0 able to direct ! *ildr5's lessons4 ,z ,i look back on t "t1 my he>t is fill$ ) ov]fl[+ gratitude to ,god = ! wond]ful grace & /r5g? he gave = t life4 ,my great regret is t ,i did n keep a record ( answ]s to pray]4 ,i f9d x mo/ difficult to record j :at ask+ & gett+ ?+s f ,god meant at t "t1 b x n[ seems to me to h be5 ! v f\ndation ( ! :ole life4 ,! in/ances ( answ]s to pray]1 "h record$1 are simply ! ones connect$ ) t life :i* /& out mo/ cle>ly 9 my memory ( ^? ye>s4 99 99 99 99 99 ,! fir/ answ] came ! morn+ aft] our de> ,con/ance di$1 & 0 ! "o t _h ! greate/1 mo/ f>-rea*+ effect on ! new life & its "w4 ,z ,i ?\ght ( fac+ ! cr[ds ( hea!n wom5 day by day1 & :at x w\ld mean to c>ry on aggressive evangelism outside1 !re 0 "o ne$ ,i felt mu/ be met--t ( a ,bible-woman4 ,z ,i pray$ = direction1 a ,mrs4 ,wang ,hsieh-%5g came to m9d z ! "o ,i %\ld ask4 ,b :5 ,i laid my reque/ be=e h]1 t %e come ) me1 %e bur/ into te>s1 say+3 ,i d>e n4 ,i h only "o *ild left1 & x w\ld risk h] life too mu*4 ,see+ h[ %e felt1 ,i did n urge h]1 b told h] to g & pray ab\t x = a day1 & br+ me h] answ] aft] ! fun]al t night4 ,:5 %e came t ev5+ h] face 0 %9+ ?r\gh te>s1 z %e said3 ,o my ,%eph]d ,"m1 ,i w g4 ,if y are will+ to risk y\r *ildr5 = ! sake ( my si/]s1 h[ mu* m %\ld ,i6 ,eighte5 ye>s h pass$ s9ce t day4 ,i w\ld ne$ to write a volume to record all t ,mrs4 ,wang meant to me 9 ^? ye>s2 yes1 & to ! "w4 ,z ! ye>s pass$ %e became my belov$ companion1 %>+ 9 all ! responsibilities & h>d%ips ( t life1 & also 9 its joys4 ,i realiz$ m & m t %e 0 inde$ a ,god-giv5 co-work]4 ,?\gh circum/ances h l$ me away f t life1 %e /ill rema9s & works = h] si/]s 9 ! ,*angte ,*ur*4 99 99 99 99 99 ,"o ( ! h>de/ words a mission>y c get f 8 ,home ,bo>d is ! ^w retr5*4 ,my husb& & ,i 7 on "o ( our evangeli/ic t\rs nor? ( ,*angte4 ,e door seem$ wide op5 be=e u1 & ! "t ripe = a specially aggressive campaign ( evangelism = ! hea!n4 ,b1 j z we 7 plann+ = ?is1 ^w rea*$ u f our /ation treasur] ( a message receiv$ f ! ,home ,bo>d t funds 7 l[1 & retr5*m5t mu/ be c>ri$ out along all l9es4 ,to u ?is meant dismiss+ help]s1 & a g5]al curtail+ ( our "w4 ,we fac$ ! "q squ>ely4 ,our own ti! _h be5 long ov]drawn4 ,h[ !n c\ld we support ! m5 we _h1 & g on ) ! "w :i* 0 op5+ s glori\sly be=e u aft] ye>s ( h>d pione] prep>ation8 ,b we decid$ to g on z we _h plann$1 & to tru/ ,god = ! necess>y funds2 believ+ t1 ?\gh = ! "t be+ ! home *ur* _h disappo9t$ u1 ,god w\ld n fail u4 ,! foll[+ ,friday a home mail rea*$ u1 9 :i* 0 a lett] f a lady 9 ,new ,zeal&4 ,! writ] said %e _h read a lett] ( ours 9 ,! ,life ( ,fai?1 & wi%$ to support an evangeli/ "u u4 ,?is reliev$ u ( ! support ( "o man1 b !re 7 _m o!r ne$s z yet unmet4 ,! foll[+ ,monday1 :5 our next mail 0 =w>d$ to u1 a lett] came f a lady 9 ,au/ralia1 enclos+ a draft ample to meet e special ne$ 9 ! "w = a ye> to come4 ,%e /at$ v pla9ly t %e did n wi% ! money put into ! g5]al funds ( ! mission1 b to be us$ by ourselves 9 any way we ?\ght be/4 ,inde$1 _h %e kn[n ! special circum/ances 9 :i* ! lett] w\ld f9d u1 %e c\ld sc>cely h writt5 m exactly to fit our case4 ,aga91 a ye> aft] ?is exp]i5ce ( ,god's fai?fulness to meet all our ne$s1 we began to feel ! ne$ ( special funds = ! "w4 ,my husb&1 z usual1 seem$ q sure t we %\ld keep on z we _h be5 do+1 & t ! money ne$$ w\ld be s5t4 ,9 spite ( all ! bless$ lessons ( ! pa/1 my fai? seem$ to fail me2 & ,i spoke decid$ly aga9/ us+ our sal>y1 :5 we ne$$ x all = ourselves & our *ildr5's education4 ,we 7 travel+ homew>d by c>t at ! "t & ! matt] 0 dropp$2 ?\gh ,i felt my husb& 0 hurt by my lack ( fai?4 ,:5 we rea*$ home1 t ev5+1 a lett] f a lady 9 ,canada 0 await+ my husb&4 ,he read x fir/2 & ,i _c =get ! look on 8 face z he h&$ x to me1 ) ! words ,i told y s4 ,z ne> z ,i c recall x ! lett] said3 ,my "m & ,i are /rang]s to y1 nev] hav+ se5 or he>d ei!r y or y\r wife4 ,b my "m1 :o is an invalid1 has = "s "t be5 re/less because ( a conviction t has come ov] h] t %e %\ld s5d y "s money4 ,s to quiet my "m ,i am s5d+ y fifty doll>s4 ,z ,i read ! lett]1 ,i c]ta9ly did feel a%am$ ( my lack ( fai?4 ,9 writ+ our ackn[l$gm5t1 ,i told h[ wond]fully opportune ! gift _h be54 ,a c\ple ( mon?s or s lat] came a reply1 tell+ u t ! invalid "m pass$ away soon aft] my lett] rea*$ !m2 & t ! /ory ( h[ ,god _h us$ h] 9 ?is matt] greatly /r5g!n$ h] fai?1 bless+ & help+ h] dur+ ! clos+ days ( h] life4 99 99 99 99 99 ,on "o occasion1 :5 we 7 travel+ f ,wuanhsi5 to ,p5g*5g1 we rea*$ ! t[n ( ,hotsun late 9 ! aft]noon1 expect+ to /ay ov] night4 ,b on our arrival we f\nd t ! ,*ri/ian :om we _h s5t to arrange = our accommodation _h fail$ to get u a place1 e "o absolutely refus+ to take u 94 ,:ile ! animals 7 fe$+1 & we 7 try+ to eat our d9n] ( ,*9ese d\gh-/r+s 9 ! mid/ ( a curi\s cr[d1 my husb& told ! ,*ri/ian to g out aga9 & look = a place :ile we pray$4 ,we d>$ n close our eyes1 le/ ! sup]/iti\s hea!n cr[d cru%+ aga9/ u on all sides w\ld take fright1 ?9k+ we 7 mesm]iz+ !m4 ,s we j lift$ up our he>ts sil5tly to our ,fa!r2 & be=e _m m9utes _h pass$1 inde$ be=e we _h f9i%$ our meal1 ! ,*ri/ian return$ greatly rejoic$1 say+3 ,a weal?y man has (f]$ y a f9e empty place :i* has j be5 fix$ ov]4 ,& y c h x z long z y l1 free ( r5t4 ,= ?ree days we prea*$ 9 t place--morn+1 noon1 & night--to great cr[ds2 & a "w 0 begun :i* has gone on ev] s9ce4 99 99 99 99 99 ,!re 7 times :5 my fai? 0 sev]ely te/$1 & ,i fe> too (t5 ,i did n /& ! te/2 b oh1 h[ pati5t ,god is ) u 9 our human weakness4 ,l z a fa!r pitie?1 4 4 4 s ! ,"l pitie?4 ,! ,*9ese h (t5 said to me1 ,y\r *ildr5 seem made = ?is life4 ,b ,i "k x 0 ,god's great goodness4 ,he knew h[ h>d ! life 01 & h[ difficult x w\ld h be5 = me to cont9ue t "w _h ! *ildr5 be5 peevi% or h>d to manage4 ,"t & "t aga9 we _h to get ! little ones up be=e daybreak to />t on a c>t j\rney1 b ,i d n rememb] t !y ev] ev5 cri$4 ,!y w\ld j wake up en\gh to get dress$ & ask sleepily1 ,are we go+ aga91 ,mama8 & !n g (f to sleep z soon z we 7 settl$ 9 our c>ts4 99 99 99 99 99 ,on "o occasion1 arriv+ at a c]ta9 t[n1 we f\nd ! place 9 :i* we 7 to /ay unfit = ! *ildr54 ,x 0 simply horrible4 ,on ei!r side ( u1 almo/ rea*+ to our door1 7 two great pig/ys--,*9ese pig/ys6 ,9 front ( ! door 7 eight or t5 great vessels1 fill$ ) f]m5t+ /uff :i* _h be5 !re all summ]1 & :i* add$ to ! o!r v>i$ & oppressive odors4 ,i greatly fe>$ = ! *ildr51 & want$ to leave at once1 b my husb& seem$ calmly c]ta9 ( ! ,"l's p[] to keep !m f all h>m4 ,on ! second ev5+ ! y\nge/ *ild became v fev]i%4 ,mr4 ,g(or? 0 hold+ a meet+ ) ! m54 ,i 0 almo/ ov]:elm$ ) fe> le/ ! *ild _h diph!ria4 ,kneel+ d[n beside him1 ,i cri$ to ! ,"l z only a "m "u l circum/ances c\ld pray4 ,at la/1 tir$ out1 ,i fell asleep on my knees4 ,awak5$ by ! entrance ( my husb&1 ,i felt ! *ild's head aga9 & x seem$ cool]1 & ! *ild quiet]4 ,! foll[+ day he 0 q well4 ,is x mu* wond] ,i c say ,i "k ,god answ]s pray]8 99 99 99 99 99 ,return+ f our summ] holiday ! fir/ ( ,septemb]1 #aiab1 we hop$ to f9d a place r5t$ at a c]ta9 l>ge c5t] :]e we _h plann$ to beg9 "w2 b to our disappo9tm5t le>n$ t ! evangeli/s _h secur$ premises 9 a small m>ket village1 :]e !re 0 j "o ,*ri/ian4 ,!re 0 no?+ to d b to g !re1 ?\gh x seem$ almo/ useless1 = x 0 ! busie/ season = ^? f>m+ p4 ,on our way to ?is place we pray$ mu* t ! ,"l w\ld prep>e ! p1 & op5 _! he>ts to ! ,gospel4 ,we _h n be5 !re _m days :5 we became conv9c$ t we _h be5 l$ !re1 & t ! ,"l 0 op5+ ! he>ts ( ! p 9 a mo/ unusual way4 ,cr[ds ( m5 & wom5 he>d ! prea*+ e day4 ,our ev5+ ,gospel meet+s1 ) organ & hymn scroll1 7 cr[d$ out on to ! /reet4 ,ev]y:]e we met ) ! utmo/ fri5dl9ess1 & be=e our mon?'s visit 0 end$ we _h ! joy ( see+ "s ( ! lead+ p 9 ! village & di/rict come out boldly = ,*ri/4 ,"o 0 ! *ief doctor2 ano!r 0 ! head man 9 ! m>ket4 ,9 ! /ore1 ?r\gh :i* we wom5 _h to pass to get to ! ev5+ meet+1 !re 7 ?ree m5 & a "y lad ( fifte52 all ( ^! 7 br\ght to ,*ri/4 ,! m5 7 opium us]s1 gambl]s1 m5 ( evil lives4 ,two ( !m are n[ prea*]s ( ! ,gospel1 & "o is ! lead+ man 9 ! little gr[+ *ur* !re4 ,_h ,i "t & space ,i c\ld g on multiply+ cases :]e ! same results h foll[$ :5 ! cross ( ,*ri/ has be5 ! pivot ( all ,*ri/ian tea*+1 & pray] has be5 ! s\rce ( p[]4 99 99 99 99 99 ,on "o ( ! e>ly visits to ! city ( ,l9*ang1 a woman came ) a little *ild ^: foot 0 t]ribly burn$4 ,! :ole foot 0 badly swoll51 ! inflammation rea*+ "s di/ance up ! leg4 ,! *ild 0 fev]i%1 & seem$ 9 a s]i\s condition4 ,x happ5$ t on t trip ,i _h =gott5 to br+ ! simple rem$ies :i* ,i 0 accu/om$ to take out ) me1 s ! woman 0 told no?+ c\ld be done4 ,b %e begg$ s pite\sly t ,i c\ld n turn away2 & lift+ up my he>t 9 pray] ,i ask$ ! ,"l to guide me1 if !re 0 any?+ ,i c\ld d4 ,ev5 :ile ,i pray$ ! ?\ght ( a bread p\ltice came to m9d4 ,?is rem$y seem$ almo/ absurd4 ,i _h nev] he>d ( su* a ?+ be+ us$ be=e "u l circum/ances1 b ,i resolv$ to try x4 ,twice a day ! foot 0 cleans$ & put 9 ! p\ltice1 & x 0 really wond]ful to see h[ x heal$4 ,we 7 !re t5 days1 & :5 we left ! foot 0 almo/ completely well4 ,! "m1 fa!r1 ! *ild h]self1 & inde$ ! :ole family1 became ,*ri/ians4 ,on a lat] visit ,i exam9$ ! foot1 & f\nd n ev5 ! sign ( a sc> rema9+4 ,i told ?is incid5t n long ago to a m$ical doctor1 & he said3 ,:y1 !re is no miracle 9 t6 ,x 0 j up-to-date hygi5e--giv+ nature a *ance by cleanl9ess6 ,i repli$3 ,doctor1 to me ! miracle lay1 n 9 ! p\ltice1 b 9 ,god's tell+ me :at to use2 & n[ x is to me all ! m a miracle ( pray]1 s9ce y say x 0 up-to-date hygi5ic treatm5t4 99 99 99 99 99 ,at ! same place1 "s ye>s lat]1 we 7 conduct+ special t5t meet+s = ,*ri/ians 9 ! day "t1 & = ! hea!n at night4 ,j aft] our meet+s began ! wea!r turn$ bitt]ly cold1 ) w9d & sleety ra94 ,! t5t 0 l a drafty ice-h\se4 ,my husb& caught a sev]e cold1 :i* became worse ea* day4 ,he _h fev] & sev]e pa9s 9 head & *e/1 b w\ld n give up 8 meet+s4 ,"o noon he came f ! meet+ look+ v ill1 & lay d[n to re/ till ! aft]noon meet+4 ,i det]m9$ to take ! ,*ri/ians into my confid5ce1 & tell !m ( my anxiety = ,mr4 ,g(or?4 ,s1 "s "t be=e ! aft]noon meet+ ,i slipp$ out & call$ !m into ! t5t1 tell+ !m ( my husb&'s condition & ask+ !m to pray = him4 ,oh1 :at a wave ( e>ne/1 he>t-ov]fl[ ( pray] w5t up )\t a mom5t's pause6 ,! te>s came to my eyes z ,i ?\ght1 ,surely ,god w answ] su* pray]s6 ,!n1 fe>+ my husb& might arrive1 ,i gave out a hymn4 ,a few mom5ts lat] he walk$ into ! t5t 9 8 old brisk way1 look+ q well4 ,at ! close ( ! meet+ he told me t %ortly aft] he he>d me g out ! pa9 9 8 head & *e/ ceas$1 ! fev] seem$ to leave him1 & :5 he />t$ = ! t5t he felt q well4 ,! symptoms did n return4 99 99 99 99 99 ,:5 on a visit to a c]ta9 out-/ation1 aft] be+ !re two :ole days1 sc>cely any wom5 _h come to see u4 ,we 7 s circum/anc$ t ,i c\ld n leave ! *ildr54 ,! ?ird day ,i became s burd5$ 9 pray] t ,i c\ld only %ut myself up 9 an empty room & cry to ! ,"l to s5d wom5 to u1 z he knew ,i c\ld n leave ! *ildr54 ,f t day we always _h pl5ty ( visitors to keep u busy1 ei!r ,*ri/ian wom5 /udy+ or hea!n wom5 li/5+ to ! ,gospel4 ,at ,tzu*[1 ! fir/ place we op5$ toge!r1 ! p seem$ mu* set aga9/ u4 ,aft] ! fir/ p]iod ( curiosity 0 ov]1 no "o came to he> ! ,gospel4 ,z we _h a nice place = ! *ildr5 to play 9 ) _! fai?ful nurse1--! "o :o sav$ ,ru?'s life 9 #aijj1--,mrs4 ,wang & ,i det]m9$ to g out ea* aft]noon & try to rea* ! hea!n wom5 ) ! ,gospel4 ,be=e go+ out we always pray$ ! ,"l to op5 a door to u = prea*+4 ,& z ,i n[ recall t "t1 nev] once did we return home )\t be+ invit$ into "s home to prea*1 or at lea/ be+ ask$ to sit on a door/ep & tell ( a ,savi\r f s94 99 99 99 99 99 ,"o ( ! mo/ out/&+ evid5ces ( ,god's favor & bless+ 0 se51 at ?is "t1 9 ! way he provid$ my husb& ) native help]s4 ,to c>ry on ! plan ( "w we _h adopt$ requir$ a good =ce ( tru/y evangeli/s4 ,"t & aga9 we look$ to ! ,"l = m5 & wom5 to help u1 & ! answ] always came4 ,z my husb& always seem$ to h pl5ty ( m5 to help him1 he 0 frequ5tly ask$ = evangeli/s by 8 fell[-mission>ies ( bo? our own & o!r missions4 ,i 0 at fir/ oppos$ to 8 giv+ away 8 be/ m51 b he w\ld answ]1 ,! ,"l has be5 good to me2 %\ld ,i be less g5]\s ) my bre?r58 ,& x c]ta9ly 0 rem>kable h[1 :5ev] he gave a really valuable evangeli/1 ano!r man1 ev5 bett]1 0 rais$ up %ortly aft]4 ,! secret ( 8 gett+ m5 may be se5 be/ ?r\gh words ( 8 own1 tak5 f a lett] to a fri5d 9 ,canada ab\t ! "t ( :i* ,i am n[ writ+3 ,we came to ?is little m>ket t[n 9 ,septemb] ( la/ ye>4 ,my wife _h two wom5 work]s4 ,i _h ,mr4 ,tung1 ! old evangeli/1 & a "y high s*ool graduate )\t exp]i5ce1 & ! only ,*ri/ian man 9 ! di/rict1 v ignorant b ) ?is to recomm5d him1 t he 0 conv]t$ or quick5$ by ! ,holy ,_s 9 ! ,*angte revival1 & 0 int5sely 9 e>ne/4 ,we 7 "h only ab\t tw5ty days :5 doz5s began to inquire1 among :om 7 robb]s1 opium sots1 & gambl]s4 ,! "w w5t on all day & well on till midnight4 ,we 7 all tir+ out4 ,we _h n en\gh work]s4 ,x 0 l a v heavy burd5 t =c$ me to my knees4 ,i told ! ,"l t he 0 ! ,"l ( ! h>ve/1 & t he mu/ s5d m h>ve/]s4 ,!re 0 a "t ( int5se look+ to ,god1 almo/ am\nt+ to agony1 & !n ! burd5 lift$1 & ,i knew t ,god _h answ]$4 ,i told my wife t ,i 0 sure t ,god 0 go+ to s5d me work]s4 ,n[ :at is ! result8 ,s9ce !n he has s5t me two ,*9ese ,b4,a4's1 bo? excell5t speak]s4 ,he mov$ an excell5t eld] to give up 8 bus9ess1 & he has be5 appo9t$ an evangeli/4 ,at ?is c5t] a s*ol>1 :o 0 an opium us] & gambl]1 got conv]t$ la/ ye>4 ,8 progress has be5 mo/ rem>kable1 & x looks z if he is go+ to make "o ( ! front-rank prea*]s4 ,also two bro!rs "h1 :o 7 among ! fir/ conv]ts la/ ye>1 help to prea*1 _! fa!r--also a conv]t ( la/ ye>--provid+ _! food4 99 99 99 99 99 ,ano!r graci\s evid5ce ( ,god's ov]-rul+ provid5ce 0 se5 9 ! way we1 especially ! *ildr51 7 kept f contract+ contagi\s diseases4 ,! ,*9ese c>ry _! *ildr5 ab\t ev]y:]e 9 _! arms1 ev5 :5 sick ) all sorts ( contagi\s diseases4 ,i give ! foll[+ in/ance to %[ h[ impossible x 0 to "k :5 "o w\ld run into dang]4 ,go+ to a c]ta9 village = a day's prea*+1 ,i took ) me little ,m>y1 !n ?ree ye>s ( age4 ,we 7 wait$ on by a ,*ri/ian woman :o 0 mo/ k9d & att5tive1 br++ wat] & food = bo? ,m>y & myself4 ,be+ mu* tak5 up ) prea*+ to ! wom51 x did n occur to me to ask :y %e kept h] baby's face cov]$1 = ! *ild 0 always 9 h] arms4 ,j z we 7 leav+ ,i ask$ h]2 !n %e uncov]$ ! baby's face1 & to my horror ,i f\nd t ! *ild 0 suff]+ f smallpox6 ,= weeks ,i wat*$ ,m>y's temp]ature1 b no?+ develop$4 ,?r\gh repeat$ in/ances ( ?is k9d ,i came to see t ,mr4 ,g(or? 0 "r :5 he said1 ,! safe/ place = y\rself & ! *ildr5 is 9 ! pa? ( duty4 ,z ,i recall ^? ye>s ( t\r+ life ) our *ildr51 words fail me to tell ( all ! ,"l's goodness to !m & to me4 ,?\gh !re 7 _m h>d1 h>d places1 ^! 7 b opportunities = special grace & help4 ,_m times1 :5 disc\rag$ almo/ to ! po9t ( nev] go+ out aga9 ) ! *ildr51 !re w\ld come evid5ce t ! ,"l 0 us+ our family life1 liv$ among ! p1 to w9 !m to ,*ri/4 ,!n ,i w\ld take new c\rage1 & g aga94 ,oh1 x is s true t ,we may tru/ him fully ,all = u to d2 ,^? :o tru/ him :olly ,f9d him :olly true4 ,,vii ,,! ,,/ory ,,( ,,"o ,,furl\gh 7#aijh-aiaj7 ,call ^u me 9 ! day ( tr\ble3 ,i w deliv] !e1 & ?\ %alt glorify me 7,psa4 #ej3ae74 ,,9 ,,! summ] ( #aijh ,i 0 oblig$ to return to ,canada ) five ( our *ildr51 leav+ ,mr4 ,g(or? 9 ,*9a = ! revival "w4 ,rea*+ ,toronto1 ,i le>n$ t my elde/ son 0 at dea?'s door f repeat$ attacks ( rheumatic fev]4 ,he 0 !n almo/ a day's j\rney away4 ,on my way !re1 z ,i recall$ ! times 9 :i* he _h be5 giv5 back to u f ! v gates ( dea?1 my fai? 0 /r5g!n$ to believe = 8 recov]y aga94 ,b1 z ,i pray$1 x became v cle> t ! answ] to my petition dep5d$ on myself2 9 o!r words1 t ,i mu/ yield myself & my w to ,god4 ,i _h be5 plann+ to take no meet+s dur+ t furl\gh1 b to devote myself :olly to my *ildr54 ,i confess$ ! s9 ( plann+ my own life1 & def9itely cov5ant$ ) ! ,"l t if he w\ld raise my son = 8 s]vice ,i w\ld take meet+s1 or d any?+1 z he op5$ ! way = ! c>e ( ! *ildr54 ,!re 7 six difficult doors1 h[ev]1 t w\ld h to be op5$--n "o1 b all--be=e ,i c\ld possibly g out & speak = ,*ri/ & ,*9a1 z ,god seem$ to be ask+4 ,fir/1 ! ,"l w\ld ne$ to re/ore my son to complete heal?1 z ,i c\ld nev] feel ju/ifi$ 9 leav+ a sick *ild4 ,second1 he w\ld ne$ to re/ore my own heal?1 = ,i _h be5 ord]$ to ! hospital = an op]ation4 ,?ird1 he w\ld ne$ to keep all ! o!r *ildr5 well4 ,f\r?1 a s]vant mu/ be s5t to take c>e ( ! h\se--?\gh my income 0 s small t a s]vant seem$ out ( ! "q1 & only ! /ricte/ economy 0 mak+ bo? ends meet4 ,fif?1 a ,*ri/ian lady w\ld ne$ to be will+ to take c>e ( ! *ildr51 & act z my h\sekeep] 9 my abs5ce f home4 ,six?1 suffici5t money w\ld ne$ to be s5t to meet ! extra exp5ses incurr$ by my leav+ home4 ,yet1 z ,i laid ^! difficulties be=e ! ,"l1 ,i receiv$ ! def9ite assurance t he w\ld op5 ! way4 ,my son 0 br\ght back to ,toronto on a /ret*]1 ! doctor n all[+ him to raise 8 head2 b on arrival he w\ld n obey ord]s1 decl>+ t he 0 s well he c\ld n & w\ld n rema9 /ill4 ,fe>+ ! consequ5ces ( 8 disobey+ ord]s1 ,i telephon$ = ! doctor to come at once4 ,on 8 arrival he gave ! lad a ?or\gh exam9ation1 & !n said3 ,well1 ,i _c make him out2 all ,i c say is1 let him d z he pleases4 ,)9 a mon? ! boy 0 go+ back to 8 high s*ool1 app>5tly q well4 ,"s mon?s lat] he appli$ = a position z =e/] "u ! gov]nm5t4 ,he _h to pass ?r\gh ! h&s ( ! (ficial doctor4 ,my son told him ( 8 rec5t illness1 & ( :at ! doctor _h said conc]n+ 8 he>t2 b ?is physician repli$3 ,9 spite ( all y h told me ,i c discov] no?+ :atev] ! matt] ) y1 & w !re=e give y a cle> bill ( heal?4 ,z = myself1 ,i did n g to ! hospital2 = all ! symptoms t _h seem$ to require x left me1 & ,i became p]fectly well4 ,a s]vant 0 s5t to me :o did h] "w sympa!tically1 z help+ me to d ! ,"l's "w4 ,a m>ri$ niece1 liv+ ne>1 (f]$ to /ay 9 ! home :5ev] ,i ne$$ to be abs5t4 ,& s !re rema9$ b "o condition unfulfill$--! money4 ,b ,i believ$ ?is w\ld come z ,i w5t =w>d2 & x did4 ,ea* mon? t foll[$1 z ,i made up my acc\nts1 ,i f\nd t my receipts exce$$ my exp5ditures suffici5tly to enable me to sp5d money = "w 9 ,*9a1 & to pur*ase ?+s :i* ,i ne$$ = ,*9a1 includ+ an organ4 ,all ^! acc\nts 7 laid be=e our belov$ ,mission ,bo>d secret>y1 :o approv$ !m4 ,"u ^! circum/ances ,i d>$ n refuse invitations to speak4 ,yet1 s weak 0 my fai?1 = mon?s ,i nev] left home = a few days )\t dread+ le/ some?+ %\ld happ5 to ! *ildr5 dur+ my abs5ce4 ,i ev5 accept$ meet+s ) ! proviso t if ! *ildr5 ne$$ me ,i mu/ fail to keep my appo9tm5t4 ,b z ! days & weeks & mon?s pass$1 & all w5t well1 ,i le>n$ to tru/4 ',be /ill2 be /rong to-day4' ,b1 ,"l1 to-morr[8 ,:at ( to-morr[1 ,"l8 ,%all !re be re/ f toil1 ,be truce f sorr[8 ',did ,i n die = !e8 ,d ,i n live = !e8 ,leave me to-morr[4' ,9 giv+ ! foll[+ ,i wi% to make cle> t1 _h ,i be5 liv+ a life ( ease or self-indulg5ce1 ,i c\ld n h be5 ju/ifi$ 9 expect+ ,god to und]take = me 9 su* matt]s z are "h record$4 ,x mu/ be rememb]$ t ,i _h /epp$ out into a life :i* meant tru/+ = ev]y?+4 ,be=e leav+ ,*9a = ,canada my husb& _h said to me3 ,d n /9t ! *ildr5 ) apples2 give !m all !y want4 ,b :5 ,i began h\sekeep+ ,i f\nd ?is 0 n v easy to d4 ,apples 7 exp5sive1 & ! appetites ( my six *ildr5 = !m seem$ insatiable4 ,h[ev]1 ,i began by buy+ a few small baskets2 & !n ,i did n ne$ to buy m1 = apples came 9 a mo/ wond]ful way4 ,fir/ 9 baskets2 !n1 z ! season advanc$1 9 b>rels4 ,^! came f _m diff]5t s\rces2 & 9 "s cases long di/ances1 express paid to ! door4 ,on "o occasion a b>rel ( l>ge1 h>d ,gre5+s came j z we _h f9i%$ ! la/ b>rel4 ,! *ildr5 compla9$ t !y 7 too h>d to eat1 & begg$ me to buy !m "s ,sn[s--v exp5sive1 b delici\s apples = eat+4 ,i _h only pur*as$ "o small basket ( ,sn[s :5 a l>ge supply1 almo/ a b>relful1 came f a di/ant fri5d4 ,i feel t ! ,"l saw t ,i _h giv5 up all = him1 s j %[$ h[ he c\ld provide1 ?us evid5c+ 8 love & c>e = my de> *ildr54 ,we _h set up h\sekeep+ at ! end ( ! fruit season1 & s ,i _h n be5 able to d cann+ = w9t] use4 ,t w9t]1 aga9 & aga91 gifts ( cann$ fruit came1 sometimes f unkn[n s\rces4 ,altoge!r1 sev5ty j>s ( ! f9e/ fruit 7 s5t to u4 ,i w give ! details ( j "o ( ^! gifts4 ,%ortly be=e leav+ home = t5 days1 ! s]vant in=m$ me t ! cann$ fruit 0 f9i%$4 ,accord+ly1 ,i w5t d[n & ord]$ en\gh dri$ fruit to la/ till ,i %\ld return4 ,on rea*+ home ,i 0 greet$ at ! door by a ru% f ! *ildr51 all try+ at once to tell me t a lovely val5t9e _h j arriv$4 ,lead+ me back to ! kit*51 !y %[$ me ! table cov]$ ) tw5ty j>s ( ! mo/ delici\s look+ fruit1 & a l>ge c ( maple syrup4 ,on a c>d accompany+ ! gift 0 writt53 ,a val5t9e = our de> 'sub/itute 9 ,*9a1' f h] si/]s 9 ,r5frew4 99 99 99 99 99 ,e>ly 9 ! w9t] x became evid5t t a telephone 0 a necessity1 ) my num]\s calls & engagem5ts4 ,i hesitat$ ab\t go+ into ?is exp5se1 n be+ q sure t x 0 "r to use 9 t way ! money giv5 me4 ,at la/1 ,i pray$ t ! ,"l w\ld %[ me 8 w 9 ! matt] by s5d+ me half ! am\nt ne$$ = ! telephone )9 a c]ta9 "t1 if x 0 "r = me to get x4 ,be=e ! "t expir$ ! money _h come2 s ,i got ! telephone4 99 99 99 99 99 ,z ! wea!r became cold ,i began to suff] on ! long drives 9 ! c\ntry to appo9tm5ts1 & 0 soon long+ = a fur coat4 ,i consult$ our mission secret>y z to :e!r1 if suffici5t money 7 giv5 me1 ,i c\ld put x into a fur coat4 ,! answ] 0 a decid$ ,yes4 ,!re 0 no d\bt t ! coat 0 a necessity 9 ! ,"l's "w4 ,s ,i began to pray ! ,"l to s5d ! money quickly1 = ! cold 0 sev]e4 ,9 less ?an two weeks ,i receiv$ ! money ne$$1 & ( c\rse got ! coat4 99 99 99 99 99 ,! ladies ( ! ,w9nipeg ,presbyt]ial _h arrang$ a s]ies ( meet+s = me 9 ,w9nipeg1 ,br&on1 & o!r places 9 t vic9ity1 ab\t t5 9 all4 ,! collections f ! meet+s 7 to defray my travel+ exp5ses1 :i* w\ld am\nt to ov] "o hundr$ doll>s4 ,on my way by tra9 f ,toronto to ,w9nipeg ,i caught a sev]e cold1 :i* settl$ 9 my ?roat & *e/4 ,i did n want ! wom5 to be disappo9t$1 & also put to all ! exp5se1 if ,i fail$ !m4 ,j be=e rea*+ ,w9nipeg ,i 0 enabl$ to commit myself def9itely into ! ,"l's h&s1 = /r5g? & voice = ! meet+s4 ,! days t foll[$ c nev] be =gott51 = ! bodily weakness1 fev]1 & ?roat tr\ble 7 remov$ only :ile ,i 0 giv+ my addresses4 ,9 ea* case1 ?\gh s ho>se be=e & aft] speak+ z to be sc>cely able to make myself he>d above a :isp]1 my voice cle>$ = ! address4 ,= example3 :ile at ,dr4 & ,mrs4 ,c4 ,w4 ,gordon's home ! ,sunday ,i 0 to speak 9 ,w9nipeg1 ,i 0 adv]tis$ to speak t night 9 ,dr4 ,gordon's *ur*4 ,at ! supp] table ,i ask$ ,dr4 ,gordon if he w\ld be ready to speak %\ld ,i fail4 ,j be=e my "t came to speak ,i slipp$ up on to ! plat=m beh9d ,dr4 ,gordon1 :o 0 pray+2 & oh1 h[ ,i cri$ to ! ,"l = help & c\rage6 ,= ! *ur* 0 pack$1 & ev5 ! ,sunday-s*ool room p>titions 7 op5$ to accommodate ! cr[d4 ,my ?roat 0 z if 9 a vise1 & ,i felt weak & ill4 ,b1 z ,dr4 ,gordon introduc$ me1 ,i /epp$ =w>d possess$ by a feel+ ( wond]ful calm & absolute confid5ce4 ,x seem$ ,i c\ld j feel ,"o l unto ! ,son ( man beside me1 & nev] _h ,i felt s completely & only a *annel4 ,= m ?an an h\r ,i spoke s t e "o he>d di/9ctly2 b :5 ,i sat d[n my ?roat tight5$ z be=e4 ,dr4 ,gordon told me lat] t he _h a man sit 9 ! mo/ difficult place 9 :i* to he>1 & t he _h he>d e ^w4 ,s x 0 till ! end ( my appo9tm5ts4 ,on ! homew>d j\rney ,i ask$ ! ,"l ei!r to heal my ?roat1 or to provide a way = me to get a ne$$ re/ f speak+1 = ,i _h _m appo9tm5ts await+ me 9 ,ont>io4 ,a few days aft] rea*+ home f\r ( my *ildr5 7 tak5 d[n ) measles4 ,dur+ ! weeks ,i 0 9 qu>ant9e ) !m my ?roat receiv$ ! re/ x ne$$1 & became q re/or$4 99 99 99 99 99 ,"o day ! foll[+ e>ly summ]1 9 look+ ov] ! *ildr5's clo!s1 ,i f\nd !re 0 s mu* to be done ,i 0 fairly ov]:elm$4 ,i saw x 0 q impossible to d ! necess>y sew+ & keep my appo9tm5ts too4 ,! "q t weigh$ heavily 01 ,%\ld ,i cancel ! meet+s = :i* ,i _h giv5 my ^w8 ,my husb& urg$ me to buy ready-made clo!s1 b ,i knew h[ exp5sive !y w\ld be1 & c\ld n br+ myself to d s4 ,i w5t alone & laid my burd5 be=e ! ,"l1 pray+ t1 if he want$ me to speak fur!r = ,*9a1 he w\ld %[ 8 w by s5d+ me "s gift t w\ld enable me to get ready-made clo!s = ! *ildr54 ,a few days lat] ,i 0 speak+ at a ,presbyt]ial ga!r+ 9 we/]n ,ont>io4 ,at ! close ( ! ev5+ meet+ an old g5tleman put into my h&s "s money4 ,i ask$ him :at he wi%$ me to use x =1 & he repli$1 ,= y\r *ildr54 ,use x 9 a way t w help y to be free = ,god's "w4 ,my he>t rose 9 ?anksgiv+1 & ,i decid$ to accept x z ! tok5 ,i _h ask$ ( ! ,"l4 ,on my return to ,toronto ,i sp5t ?is gift 9 buy+ ready-made clo!s = ! *ildr51 to save my "t & /r5g? = ! ,"l's "w4 99 99 99 99 99 ,:5 busy 9 my home "o day1 ! ?\ght ( two de> fri5ds ( ! ,*9a ,inl& ,mission kept com+ con/antly to m9d1 & ,i began to wond] if ,i %\ld n s5d !m "s money4 ,look+ into my purse1 ,i f\nd ,i _h only fifty c5ts on h&4 ,i put ! matt] out ( my m9d1 ) ! ?\ght t if ! ,"l want$ me to s5d !m any?+ he w\ld provide a way4 ,t aft]noon's mail br\ght a lett] f a di/ant place 9 ,ont>io :]e1 a ye> be=e1 ,i _h visit$ & spok5 = a fri5d4 ,! lett] 0 f ! treasur] ( ! ,*ri/ian ,endeavor ,society = :i* ,i _h spok54 ,he enclos$ five doll>s1 & said ! money 0 to h be5 giv5 me at ! "t ,i spoke = !m1 b _h be5 ov]look$4 ,my fir/ ?\ght 0 to return x1 z x w\ld be di%onor+ my fri5d to accept money = su* a s]vice2 & !n ,i rememb]$ my fri5ds = :om ,i want$ money1 & ,i decid$ to s5d ! five doll>s to !m4 ,my husb&1 return+ ! foll[+ morn+1 h&$ me ano!r five to put ) x1 & ! t5 doll>s 0 s5t (f4 ,9 due c\rse a reply came f my fri5ds1 say+ t ! v morn+ my lett] arriv$ !y bo? _h be5 giv5 assurance t a c]ta9 sum w\ld come1 = :i* !y _h be5 pray+4 ,?is 0 to meet a ne$ :i* !y did n wi% to br+ be=e _! ,bo>d4 ,my lett] br\ght ! t5 doll>s2 & ano!r lett] 9 ! aft]noon's mail conta9$ a sum :i*1 ) m9e1 exactly made ! am\nt !y _h be5 ask+ ! ,"l =4 ,say n my s\l1 ',c ,god relieve my c>e8' ,rememb] t ,omnipot5ce ha? s]vants ev]y:]e6 ,on "o occasion1 :5 ab\t to leave home on a t5 days' trip to ,montreal & o!r places1 ^w came t ! *ildr5's ,sunday-s*ool treat 0 to take place dur+ my abs5ce4 ,little ,m>y _h no be/ dress = ! occasion4 ,i _h plann$ to make h] a :ite wool5 dress1 b n[ !re 0 no "t2 & ,i knew ,i c\ld n make x :ile away1 ) s _m meet+s ahead4 ,b1 t v day1 a lady f our *ur* call$ & said %e _h want$ = a long "t to help me1 & ask$ if %e c\ld d any sew+ = me4 ,) dim eyes & a grateful he>t ,i accept$ h] (f]4 ,on my return1 ,m>y told me ( h] we>+ a pretty :ite clo? dress = ! ,sunday-s*ool treat4 99 99 99 99 99 ,once m we plann$ to leave ,canada = ,*9a1 & a s]i\s problem fac$ me4 ,our elde/ son c\ld be left to face ! _w alone1 b n our daught] ( sixte54 ,x 0 necess>y t a suitable gu>dian be f\nd = h]4 ,i call$ on ?ree diff]5t ones :om ,i ?\ght w\ld feel "s responsibility t[>d ! mission>y's daught]1 b all ?ree decl9$ to accept ! responsibility4 ,i !n saw t x 0 n = me to try to op5 doors1 b = ?is also ,i mu/ look to ! ,"l4 ,i pray$ t1 if he wi%$ me to return to ,*9a1 he w\ld s5d me "o to :om ,i c\ld commit h]4 ,a %ort "t pass$2 !n a lady call$1 ^: life _h be5 devot$ to ! tra9+ ( "y wom54 ,h] beautiful ,*ri/ian "* made h] ! "o above all o!rs 9 ^: c>e ,i c\ld gladly leave my daught]4 ,?is lady told me t 9 h] e>ly ye>s %e _h hop$ to give h] life = s]vice 9 ,*9a1 b ! way _h be5 clos$4 ,%e n[ felt t ! ,"l _h laid x ^u h] he>t to (f] to take *>ge ( my *ild4 ,ye>s h pass$ s9ce !n1 & %e has fulfill$ my highe/ expectations ( h]4 ,r>ely has a m def9ite answ] come f a lov+ ,fa!r1 nor "o t br\ght great] relief & help2 = ?is (f]1 com+ z x did 9 answ] to my pray]s1 seem$ to be unmi/akable pro( t ! ,"l w\ld keep my *ild z ,i gave h] up4 99 99 99 99 99 ,! "t _h almo/ arriv$ = beg9n+ ! la/ prep>ations = ! long j\rney to ,*9a1 :5 "o day ,ru? came 9 f h] play ) h] heavy coat almo/ 9 %r$s1 %e hav+ 9 "s way torn x on a b>b$ wire f5ce4 ,! coat 0 ! only heavy "o %e _h1 & ,i _h plann$ to make x d = ! ocean voyage1 int5d+ to get a new "o 9 ,engl&4 ,i tri$ to f9d a new "o 9 ! /ores1 b ! season 0 pa/ & ,i c\ld n2 & ,i _h no "t to make ano!r4 ,i j took ! ne$ to ! ,"l & left x !re1 believ+ t 9 "s way he w\ld provide4 ,a few days lat] a fri5d telephon$ me t h] "m _h rec5tly return$ f a visit to ,*icago1 & wi%$ me to come ov] to see a p>cel %e _h br\ght = me4 ,oh1 ! relief t came :5 ,i f\nd t ! p>cel conta9$1 among o!r ?+s1 a h&some r$ clo? ul/]1 :i* fitt$ ,ru? p]fectly4 ,?is fre% evid5ce ( ! ,"l's ov]%ad[+ c>e t\*$ me deeply4 ,^? :o h nev] kn[n su* tok5s ( ! ,"l's lov+ c>e 9 ! little ?+s ( life c sc>cely und]/& ! bless$ness t su* exp]i5ces br+4 ,:e!r x be s heavy t o!rs _c be> ,to "k ! heavy burd5 !y _c come & %>e2 ,:e!r x be s t9y t o!rs _c see ,:y x %\ld be a burd51 & seem s real to me1 ,ei!r & bo? ,i lay !m d[n at ! ,ma/]'s feet ,& f9d !m alone ) ,jesus my/]i\sly sweet4 99 99 99 99 99 ,z ,i attempt to recall ! answ]s to pray] on ?is furl\gh1 s _m come to m9d x is impossible to record !m all--help 9 keep+ my appo9tm5ts1 c\rage & p[] = public speak+1 physical /r5g?1 & guidance 9 fac+ _m difficult problems4 ,x 0 at ?is "t ,i =m$ a habit ( gett+ a message = a meet+ on my knees4 ,x (t5 seem$ to me v wond]ful h[1 z 9 a fla%1 sometimes1 an outl9e = a talk on ,*9a w\ld come4 ,nev] hav+ kept notes1 nor ev5 outl9es ( addresses1 ,i h frequ5tly be5 plac$ 9 circum/ances :5 ,i h felt utt]ly ca/ on ! ,"l4 ,& ,i c te/ify t he nev] fail$ to give ! ne$$ help1 & ! realiz$ div9e p[]4 ,yet sad1 sad is x t (t5 at j su* times1 no soon] w\ld ! address be end$ ?an ! ,satan-:isp]$ ?\ght w\ld come1 ,i h done well to-day4 ,oh1 is n ! goodness & =be>ance ( our ,god wond]ful2 wond]ful t he ev] aga9 w\ld deign to give help :5 ask$ = x8 99 99 99 99 99 ,a %ort "t s9ce ,i ask$ a de> fri5d ^: writ+s h rea*$ & inspir$ multitudes ?r\gh\t ! ,*ri/ian _w3 ,h[ did y d x8 ,s(tly1 ) deep rev]5ce 9 look & tone1 %e repli$3 ,x has be5 done all 9 & ?r\gh pray]6 ,) deepe/ gratitude & praise to our ev] fai?ful ,god1 ,i too c te/ify t any little s]vice ,i h be5 able to d has be5 done by 8 grace 9 answ] to pray]4 ,i /ood amaz$ & :isp]$1 ',c x be ,t he ha? grant$ all ! boon ,i s\ght1 ,h[ wond]ful t he = me ha? wr\ght6' 99 99 99 99 99 99 ,oh1 fai?less he>t6 he said t he w\ld he>1 ,& prov$ 8 promise1 :]e=e did/ ?\ fe>8 ,h[ wond]ful if he %\ld fail to bless ,expectant pray] ) good success6 ,,viii ,,our ,,god ,,( ,,! ,,impossible ,behold ,i am ! ,"l1 4 4 4 is !re any?+ too h>d = ,,me8 7,j]4 #cb3bg47 ,ah1 ,"l ,god6 !re is no?+ too wond]ful = !e 7,j]4 #cb3ag1 m>g974 ,,! foll[+ illu/ration ( ! tru?1 ,:at is impossible ) man is possible ) ,god1 occurr$ :ile we 7 att5d+ ! ,keswick ,conv5tion 9 ,engl&1 9 #aiaj4 ,"o ev5+ my husb& return$ f an ev5+ meet+1 :i* ,i _h n att5d$1 & told me ( a woman :o _h come to him 9 great di/ress4 ,%e _h be5 an e>ne/ ,*ri/ian work]1 b love = light1 tra%y fiction _h s gr[n ^u h] z to "w havoc 9 h] ,*ri/ian life4 ,%e _h come to ,keswick ?ree ye>s 9 succession1 hop+ to get victory1 b _h fail$4 ,my :ole s\l w5t out to ! poor woman2 ,i long$ to help h]4 ,b ,mr4 ,g(or? did n "k h] "n1 & ! t5t _h be5 s d>k he c\ld n recognize h] aga92 besides1 !re 7 ab\t f\r ?\s& p att5d+ ! conv5tion4 ,t night ,i lay awake ask+ ! ,"l1 if he knew ,i c\ld help h]1 to br+ u toge!r1 = ,i1 too1 _h at "o "t be5 almo/ wreck$ on ! same rock4 ,?ree ev5+s lat] ! t5t 0 s cr[d$ t ,i f\nd difficulty 9 gett+ a seat4 ,j z ! meet+ 0 ab\t to beg91 ,i notic$ a woman *ange h] seat twice1 & !n rise a ?ird "t & come to :]e ,i 01 ask+ me to make room = h]4 ,i cr[d$ ! o!rs 9 ! seat & made room = h]--,i fe> n too graci\sly4 ,:ile ,mr4 ,f4 ,b4 ,mey] 0 speak+ ,i notic$ %e 0 9 great di/ress1 h] te>s fall+ fa/4 ,i laid my h& on h]s1 & %e grasp$ x convulsively4 ,at ! close ( ! meet+ ,i said1 ,c ,i help y8 ,oh1 no1 %e repli$1 !re is no hope = me2 x is ^? curs$ novels t h be5 my ru94 ,i look$ at h] 9 amazem5t1 & almo/ gasp$3 ,are y ! "o :o spoke to ,mr4 ,g(or? ,saturday night8 ,yes2 b :o are y8 ,sc>cely able to speak = emotion1 ,i told h]1 & also ( my pray]4 ,= ! next few mom5ts we c\ld only weep toge!r4 ,!n ! ,"l us$ me to lead ! poor cru%$ & brok5 s\l back to himself4 ,z we p>t$1 a few days lat]1 h] face 0 beam+ ) ! joy ( ! ,"l4 ,:ile address+ a ga!r+ ( ,*ri/ians 9 ,glasg[ ,i 0 giv+ a c]ta9 incid5t1 ! po9t ( :i* dep5d$ ^u a v]se ( a c]ta9 hymn4 ,:5 ,i came to quote ! v]se1 x _h utt]ly slipp$ my memory4 ,9 "s confusion ,i turn$ to ! lead]1 hop+ t he c\ld help me out2 b he said he _h no idea :at ! hymn 04 ,turn+ aga9 to ! p1 ,i _h to ackn[l$ge t my memory _h fail$ me1 &1 feel+ emb>rass$1 ,i clos$ my message some:at hurri$ly4 ,sitt+ d[n1 ,i lift$ my he>t 9 a cry to ! ,"l to lead me to ! v]se ,i want$1 if x 0 9 ! hymn-book us$ !re4 ,i took up a hymn-book & op5$ x1 & ! v fir/ l9es my eyes fell on 7 ^? ( ! v]se ,i want$1 ?\gh x 0 ! la/ v]se ( a long hymn4 ,ris+ aga91 ,i told ! p ( my pray] & ! answ]1 & gave !m ! v]se4 ,! solemn /illness :i* prevail$ indicat$ t a deep impression _h be5 made4 ,"s two ye>s aft]1 a newly arriv$ mission>y 9 ,*9a told me he _h be5 pres5t at t meet+1 & h[ ?is little incid5t _h be5 a great bless+ to him4 ,!y cri$ unto !e1 & 7 deliv]$3 !y tru/$ 9 !e1 & 7 n conf\nd$ 7,psa4 #bb3e74 ,be=e leav+ ,canada we _h writt5 to ! ,*9a ,inl& ,s*ool at ,*efoo1 ,*9a1 hop+ to get our *ildr5 admitt$ !re2 b1 %ortly be=e we left ,engl& = ,*9a1 ^w rea*$ u t bo? ! boys' & girls' s*ools 7 ov]fl[+1 ) long li/s ( wait+ applicants4 ,?is 0 a great bl[ to me1 = ,i _h be5 look+ =w>d to engag+ once m 9 ! aggressive out-/ation "w4 ,b ! *ildr5 c\ld n be left1 & 7 too old to be tak5 away f _! /udies4 ,x seem$ necess>y1 !re=e1 t a good ,*ri/ian gov]ness %\ld be f\nd1 :o w\ld tea* ! *ildr5 & take *>ge ( ! home 9 my abs5ce4 ,all ! way across ! ,sib]ian r\te ?is matt] 0 be=e u4 ,e>ne/ly did ,i pray t ! ,"l w\ld direct ! "r "o to u2 = ,i knew t to get a "y woman1 :o c\ld fill ! position we want$ h] =1 w\ld be v difficult 9 ,*9a4 ,we _h plann$ to g direct to our /ation1 b illness =c$ u to break ! j\rney at ,peitaiho1 :]e we met a "y lady1 ! daught] ( a mission>y4 ,_m difficulties appe>$ 9 ! way ( h] com+ on ) u1 b "o by "o ^! 7 remov$2 & :5 we cont9u$ our j\rney ?is "y woman 0 "o ( our p>ty4 ,"t prov$ h] to be truly ,god-giv54 ,n only 0 %e all & m ?an ,i c\ld h hop$ =1 b ! ,"l answ]$ my pray]s t h] "y life might be consecrat$ to ! ,"l's s]vice 9 ,*9a4 ,%e lat] w5t ?r\gh h] tra9+ 9 ,engl& z a nurse1 & is n[ 9 ,*9a z a mission>y ( ! ,*9a ,inl& ,mission4 99 99 99 99 99 ,! summ] holidays at ,peitaiho 7 draw+ to a close4 ,heavy ra9s _h fall51 mak+ ! roads to ! /ation1 six miles di/ant1 almo/ impassable4 ,^w _h come t our two *ildr51 ,ru? & ,wallace1 mu/ leave by ! ,monday morn+ tra9 9 ord] to rea* ! /eam] at ,ti5ts91 :i* 0 to take !m to ,*efoo1 :]e !y 7 att5d+ ! ,*9a ,inl& ,mission s*ools4 ,all day ,saturday & ,sunday torr5ts ( ra9 cont9u$ to fall1 ) a fi]ce w9d f ! nor?4 ,i rose be=e daybreak ,monday morn+1 to f9d ! ra9 /ill p\r+ d[n 9 torr5ts4 ,i r\s$ ! s]vant1 & s5t him (f to make sure ab\t ! *air1 c>t1 & donkeys4 ,a little lat] he return$ to say t ! *air _h be5 bl[n ov]1 & ! *air-be>]s _h refus$ to come4 ,! c>t]s also refus$1 say+ ! roads 7 impassable2 & ev5 ! donkey boys said !y w\ld n g4 ,i 0 truly at wit's end corn]4 ,i w5t alone1 & did n take "t ev5 to kneel d[n1 b j lift$ up my he>t to my ,fa!r to /op ! ra9 & op5 a way = ! *ildr5 to get to ! /ation4 ,i felt a sudd51 /rong confid5ce t ! ,"l w\ld help1 & go+ out aga9 ,i ord]$ ! s]vant to run fa/ to ! village ne> by & get fre% donkeys4 ,he 0 unwill+1 say+ x 0 useless1 no "o w\ld v5ture2 b ,i said3 ,g at once1 ,i "k !y w come4 ,:ile he 0 gone ! *ildr5 _h _! breakfa/1 boxes 7 clos$ & tak5 out1 & ! *ildr5 put on _! wraps4 ,!n ! ra9 /opp$6 ,j !n ! s]vant return$ ) sev]al donkeys4 ,)9 five m9utes1 *ildr5 & baggage 7 on donkeys1 & />t$ = ! /ation4 ,a few h\rs lat] "o ( ! donkey boys return$ ) a ha/ily writt5 note f ,ru?1 say+ !y _h rea*$ ! /ation )\t any mi%ap1 & q dry2 = x _h n ra9$ on ! way ov]1 b _h />t$ to p\r aga9 j aft] !y _h got on ! tra94 ,! ra9 cont9u$ = days aft]4 99 99 99 99 99 ,at ! close ( our f\r mon?s ( meet+s 9 ,great ,brita91 9 #aiaj1 ,i felt a /rong desire to s5d a gift ( five doll>s to five diff]5t objects 9 ,brita91 to %[ 9 a practical way our sympa?y ) ! work]s 9 ^! v>i\s bran*es ( ! ,"l's "w4 ,my husb& 0 9 ! mid/ ( 8 acc\nts :5 ,i ask$ him to give me five p\nds = ?is purpose4 ,he told me x 0 impossible1 z we _h b>ely en\gh = ! j\rney to ,*9a4 ,z ,i left him ,i wond]$ :y ,i seem$ to h ^! gifts s def9itely laid ^u me to s5d away1 :5 !re 0 no money4 ,reason+ t if ! ?+ 7 really ( ! ,"l he c\ld himself give me :at he wi%$ me to s5d1 ,i put ! matt] f my m9d4 ,t ev5+'s mail br\ght a lett] f a /rang] liv+ "s di/ance away1 judg+ f ! po/m>k2 = ! lett] _h no address1 & 0 n sign$4 ,! lett] said3 ,i d n "k y1 nor h ,i met y1 b ! ,"l seems to h laid x on my he>t to s5d y ?is five-p\nd note z a f>ewell gift1 to d :at y ?9k be/ )4 ,x 0 ) a joyful he>t ,i s5t (f ! gifts to ! five ,*ri/ian work]s 9 ,brita94 ,_h ! giv] said x 0 = "w 9 ,*9a1 z 0 usually ! case1 ,i c\ld n h us$ x = any o!r purpose4 ,h[ to get ! sew+ done = my family & yet meet ! press+ calls made ^u me z ! wife ( a pione] mission>y1 = almo/ ?irty ye>s has be5 p]haps ! mo/ difficult & con/ant problem ( my mission>y life4 ,9 connection ) ! solv+ ( ?is problem1 ,i h se5 "s ( ! mo/ preci\s evid5ces ( ,god's will+ness to und]take 9 ! daily details ( life4 ,! foll[+ /ory mu/ be giv5 9 detail to be really und]/ood1 z "o ( ! /rik+ in/ances ( h[ ,god1 9 8 own wond]ful way1 c "w out ! seem+ly impossible4 ,return+ home to our /ation f an unusually /r5u\s autumn's t\r+1 ,i plann$ z usual to give ! mon? ( ,decemb] to ! *ildr5's sew+1 s z to leave ,janu>y l>gely free = a ,bible-wom5's tra9+ class4 ,b my heal? broke d[n1 & ,i c\ld make sc>cely any headway ) ! ?irty-five or =ty g>m5ts :i* _h to be made or fix$ ov]1 be=e ! *ildr5 return$ to _! s*ool 9 ,*efoo4 ,by ! eighte5? ( ,decemb] we decid$ to cancel ! class on acc\nt ( my ill-heal?2 & to all ! wom51 except "o :om ,i entirely =got1 ,i s5t ^w n to come4 ,z ! days pass$1 ! burd5 ( ! almo/ unt\*$ sew+ became v great4 ,at la/ ,i cri$ to ! ,"l to und]take = me4 ,& h[ wond]fully he did6 ,on ,decemb] tw5ty-eigh?1 :5 ,i 0 conduct+ ! ,*9ese wom5's pray]-meet+1 ,i notic$ 9 ! audi5ce ,mrs4 ,lu1 ! v woman to :om ,i _h =gott5 to s5d ^w4 ,%e _h come a long di/ance1 ) h] little *ild1 ov] r\gh m\nta9\s roads1 s ,i felt v sorry = my ?\ghtlessness4 ,mrs4 ,lu accompani$ me home1 & ,i gave h] money = a b>r[ on :i* to return ! next day4 ,i !n sat d[n to ! sew+ ma*9e4 ,! woman /ood beside me = a little1 & !n said3 ,y are look+ v tir$1 ,mrs4 ,g(or?2 let me run ! ma*9e = y4 ,y6 ,i exclaim$1 a/oni%$1 :y1 y don't "k h[4 ,yes1 ,i d1 %e repli$4 ,%e 0 s insi/5t t at la/1 9 fe> & trembl+1 ,i v5tur$ to let h] try--= ,i _h only "o ne$le4 ,x took b a few mom5ts to conv9ce me %e 0 a real exp]t at ! ma*9e4 ,:5 ,i urg$ h] to /ay & help me1 %e repli$ t1 s9ce ! class 0 giv5 up1 %e w\ld return home on ! morr[4 ,t night ,i 0 puzzl$4 ,:y %\ld ! ,"l lead ?is woman to me--! only "o1 s f> z we knew1 :o c\ld d ! ma*9e "w--& !n p]mit h] to leave8 ,i c\ld only lay ! :ole matt] be=e ! ,"l1 & tru/ him to und]take4 ,& aga9 he answ]$4 ,t night a fi]ce /orm came on1 la/+ sev]al days & mak+ ! roads q impassable4 ,mrs4 ,lu1 f9d+ h]self /orm-ti$1 gladly gave all h] "t to me4 ,! roads rema9$ impassable = a :ole mon?1 dur+ :i* "t ,i did n once ne$ to sit d[n at ! ma*9e4 99 99 99 99 99 ,:ile 9 ,ti5ts9 ) my *ildr5 dur+ ! revolution 9 #aiab1 ,i _h occasion to g into ! ,*9ese city ) my s]vant4 ,we visit$ ?ree /ores4 ,on our way home by ! tramway ,i discov]$ ,i _h lo/ a five-doll> bill & "o ( my gloves4 ,i _h fooli%ly put ! bill inside ! glove4 ,a%am$ to let ! ,*9ese s]vant "k ( my c>elessness1 ,i s5t him home :5 we rea*$ ! end ( ! tram l9e4 ,z soon z he 0 out ( sight ,i took ! tram back to ! city4 ,on ! way ,i confess$ to ! ,"l my c>elessness1 & ask$ him to keep ! glove & money1 & lead me to :]e !y 74 ,i retrac$ my /eps back to two ( ! /ores :]e we _h be54 ,z ,i ent]$ ! second1 :i* 0 a %oe /ore1 a numb] ( m5 7 9 ! %op2 b !re1 "r 9 sight ( all1 on ! floor lay my glove1 & ,i knew ( c\rse ) ! five doll>s inside4 ,x 0 ) a he>t full ( gratitude to my lov+ ,heav5ly ,fa!r1 & an enl>g$ vision ( 8 love1 t ,i pick$ up ! glove & return$ home t day4 99 99 99 99 99 ,on "o occasion :5 on furl\gh ) sev]al little *ildr51 & my husb& 9 ,*9a1 ,i _h no settl$ home4 ,:5 ! "t came to d ! sew+ = ! long j\rney back to ,*9a1 ,i _h simply no way to get x done4 ,i j _h to look to ! ,"l2 &1 z s (t5 be=e1 he 0 aga9 fai?ful1 & op5$ ! way4 ,:5 %opp+ d[n t[n1 "o day1 ,i met a m9i/]'s wife f a di/ant c\ntry *>ge1 :o said3 ,i want y to come ) all y\r *ildr51 & get y\r sew+ done ) me4 ,a numb] ( ! ladies ( our congregation sew well1 & w be delight$ to help y4 ,i gratefully accept$ h] invitation1 & :ile /ay+ ) h] a sew+-bee 0 held 9 ! *ur*4 ,9 "o week ! sew+ 0 f9i%$1 :i* w\ld h tak5 me _m weeks ( h>d1 con/ant labor to accompli% alone4 99 99 99 99 99 ,! w9t] ( our return f ,*9a1 aft] ! ,box] trag$ies1 ,i felt ke5ly ! ne$ ( a good sew+ ma*9e1 z ,i c\ld n possibly d ! *ildr5's sew+ by h& & /ill get "t = meet+s4 ,"o day1 z my husb& 0 leav+ on a deputation t\r1 ,i ask$ him = money = a ma*9e4 ,he assur$ me x 0 impossible2 t we _h only suffici5t = b>e necessities4 ,i knew well he w\ld gladly give me money = ! ma*9e if he _h x4 ,s ,i laid my ne$ be=e my ,fa!r1 confid5t t he knew x 0 a real ne$1 & t accord+ to 8 promise he c\ld & w\ld supply x4 ,i 0 s sure t someh[ ! money w\ld come1 t ,i w5t d[n t[n especially to *oose a suitable ma*9e4 ,i f\nd x w\ld co/ ?irty-six doll>s4 ,a few days lat] ,i receiv$ a lett] f a b& ( ladies 9 ,m\nt ,=e/1 ,ont>io1 enclos+ tw5ty-?ree doll>s & "s odd c5ts1 & say+3 ,please accept ! enclos$ to buy some?+ y h lo/ z our sub/itute 9 ,*9a4 ,only a day or two lat] ano!r lett] came1 f q ano!r "p ( ,ont>io1 enclos+ twelve doll>s & "s c5ts4 ,! two am\nts came to exactly ! sum ,i ne$$ to pur*ase ! ma*9e4 ,! second lett] /at$ t ! money 0 s5t to help me buy a sew+ ma*9e4 ,x has always be5 a puzzle to me h[ !y came to s5d ! money 9 t way1 = ,i _h n spok5 to any "o b my husb& ab\t want+ a ma*9e4 ,:5 ,mr4 ,g(or? return$ ,i 0 able to %[ him :at ! ,"l c\ld give me1 ?\gh he c\ld n4 99 99 99 99 99 ,i _h be5 hold+ a class = wom5 at an out-/ation1 /ay+ 9 ! home ( ! eld]1 ,dr4 ,fan4 ,! day be=e ,i 0 to return home1 ,mrs4 ,fan ask$ me to g ) h] to visit a v sick boy :om ! mission>y doctor _h s5t home f ! boys' s*ool1 ,wei ,hwei1 because ( 8 hav+ tub]culosis ( ! lungs4 ,mrs4 ,fan told me ! "m 0 9 great di/ress1 & begg$ me to come & pray ) h]4 ,i f\nd ! lad 9 a truly pitiable condition4 ,8 m\? 0 swoll51 8 face a gha/ly hue1 & e mom5t a c\gh rack$ 8 frame4 ,he seem$ to me q beyond hope1 & look$ z if he c\ld n live long4 ,on our way home to ,mrs4 ,fan's1 ! message ( ,james #e3ad1 #ae1 kept com+ p]si/5tly to me1 z if spok5 by a voice3 ,is any sick among y8 let him call = ! eld]s ( ! *ur*2 & let !m pray ov] him1 4 4 4 & ! pray] ( fai? %all save ! sick1 & ! ,"l %all raise him up4 ,i simply c\ld n get away f ^? words4 ,on rea*+ ,dr4 ,fan's home1 ,i s5t = him1 & ask$ if he & ! o!r eld]s w\ld be will+ to pray ) me ov] ! lad4 ,he cons5t$1 ?\gh at fir/ he seem$ r dubi\s4 ,!re 7 q a numb] ( ,*ri/ians ga!r$ ar\nd z we plac$ ! boy 9 our mid/4 ,all knelt d[n1 & ,i read ! words f ,james4 ,i told !m pla9ly t ,i c\ld n say t x 0 inde$ ! ,"l's w to heal ! boy2 all t 0 cle> to me 0 t we mu/ obey z f> z we _h light1 & leave ! re/ 9 ,god's h&s = life or dea?4 ,sev]al pray$1 & we !n disp]s$4 ,e>ly ! foll[+ morn+ ,i left = home4 ,circum/ances prev5t$ my return to t place1 & 9 "t we mov$ to ano!r field4 ,m ?an two ye>s lat]1 :ile visit+ ,wei ,hwei1 ,i met ,mrs4 ,fan1 :o told me t ! lad _h completely recov]$ & 0 !n work+ ) 8 fa!r4 ,/ill a ye> lat] ,i met ,dr4 ,fan1 & ^u inquir+ ab\t ! lad1 ! doctor told me he 0 p]fectly well1 & 0 9 bus9ess 9 ,wei ,hwei ,city4 99 99 99 99 99 ,! p[] ( int]cession is %[n 9 ! foll[+ two incid5ts3 ,9 ! w9t] ( #aije a call came = my husb& to hold special meet+s 9 ,man*uria4 ,on rea*+ ,liao ,yang = ^! meet+s1 "o ( ! mission>ies %[$ him a lett] f ,mr4 ,m(fat1 ( ,korea1 :i* said3 ,i h a ?\s& ,*ri/ians "h :o h promis$ to pray = ,mr4 ,g(or?1 & ,i "k _! pray]s w prevail ) ,god4 ,c we d\bt t _! pray]s _h some?+ to d ) ! m>vel\s revival movem5t :i* foll[$8 ,:5 9 ,engl&1 9 #aiji1 my husb& 0 ! gue/ ( a lady 9 ,london :o 0 not$ = h] p[] 9 int]cession4 ,he 0 tell+ h] ( ! great revival movem5ts he _h be5 ?r\gh1 :i* took place 9 diff]5t prov9ces ( ,*9a2 & %e ask$ him to look at h] di>y1 9 :i* 7 notes ( times :5 %e _h be5 l$ out 9 special int]cession = ,mr4 ,g(or?4 ,^! dates exactly correspond$ to ! times ( greate/ revival p[]4 99 99 99 99 99 ,a few mon?s aft] we return$ to ,*9a f a furl\gh1 ,i invit$ a c]ta9 mission>y & 8 wife & *ildr5 to pay u a visit4 ,peculi>ly t\*+ circum/ances _h l$ me to give ?is invitation4 ,bo? husb& & wife 7 9 ill heal?1 & greatly ne$$ a *ange4 ,!y resid$ 9 a f> inl& /ation1 q cut (f f o!r mission>ies4 ,!y 7 n connect$ ) any ,society1 & 7 look+ only to ! ,"l = _! support4 ,j z ^! fri5ds _h />t$ t[>d u1 on _! five-days' j\rney1 smallpox broke out at our /ation1 & "o ( ! mission>ies di$4 ,a telegram 0 s5t1 hop+ to cat* !m be=e !y left1 b x did n rea* !m until !y 7 a %ort di/ance f our /ation4 ,!n ! :ole family _h to turn ar\nd1 & once m take ! long1 try+ j\rney1 homew>d4 ,z ! wea!r 0 v cold at ! "t1 "o c\ld imag9e :at a t]rible trial to fai? ! :ole exp]i5ce meant to !m4 ,i felt s deeply = !m t ,i plann$ to s5d suffici5t to cov] at lea/ ! exp5se ( ! j\rney4 ,b1 on gett+ out ( qu>ant9e1 ,i f\nd ,i c\ld n draw on our treasur] = ! fifty doll>s ne$$1 z ,mr4 ,g(or? 0 n at home4 ,h[ev]1 ! ,"l _h se5 ! ne$ long be=e ,i felt x1 & _h ! exact am\nt ready4 ,?ree days aft] ,i got out ( qu>ant9e ,i receiv$ a lett] f ,mr4 ,horace ,gov51 ( ! ,fai? ,mission1 ,glasg[1 enclos+ a draft = five p\nds :i*1 at ! rate ( ex*ange at t "t1 came to fifty doll>s ,mexican4 ,! gift came f ! work]s ( ! mission1 & he /at$ t !y wi%$ me to accept x z a p]sonal gift4 ,ne$less to say1 ! draft 0 s5t (f t same day to ! ne$y fri5ds 9 ! f>-(f /ation4 ,on "o occasion1 :ile we 7 tempor>ily /ation$ at ,wei ,hwei1 ,honan1 ,i 0 call$ to nurse a fell[ mission>y :o _h contract$ black smallpox4 ,?is mission>y di$2 & x 0 :ile %ut away f e "o dur+ ! "t ( qu>ant9e t ,i _h ! foll[+ exp]i5ce3 ,i awoke sudd5ly "o night feel+ greatly tr\bl$ = "o 9 ,canada4 ,s /rong 0 ! impression t ?is fri5d ne$$ my pray]s1 t ,i felt compell$ to rise & sp5d a long "t wre/l+ ) ,god on ?is "o's behalf2 !n peace came1 & ,i aga9 slept4 ,z soon z ,i 0 out ( qu>ant9e ,i wrote to my fri5d & told ( ?is exp]i5ce1 giv+ ! date4 ,9 "t ! answ] came1 :i* said t--?\gh no date c\ld be giv51 z no note _h be5 made ( x--z f> z c\ld be judg$1 x 0 ab\t ! same "t t ,i _h _h ! burd5 ( pray] t my fri5d 0 pass+ ?r\gh a "t ( su* temptation z seem$ almo/ ov]:elm+4 ,b ! lett] said3 ,i 0 br\ght ?r\gh victori\sly2 ,i "k t x 0 y\r pray]s t help$ me4 99 99 99 99 99 ,! foll[+ incid5t may seem trifl+ to "s2 b to me no answ] 9 my life ev] br\ght m int5se relief4 ,= ?is reason ,i h res]v$ x1 z ! f9al te/imony ( ! orig9al pray] record4 ,my husb& _h gone to hold revival meet+s 9 a di/ant prov9ce1 & :ile he 0 away ,i w5t ) my ,bible-woman to a c]ta9 out-/ation at ! urg5t reque/ ( ! ,*ri/ians1 to prea* at a f\r-days' !atrical1 :i* br\ght great cr[ds4 ,! f\r days !re 7 en\gh to we> out ! /ronge/2 = _m h\rs daily we _h to face unruly cr[ds com+ & go+2 & at ! end ( our /ay ,i turn$ my face homew>d utt]ly worn out4 ,my "o ?\ght 0 to get to ,wei ,hwei1 our next /ation1 = a few days' re/ ) my y\nge/ *ildr51 :o 7 att5d+ s*ool !re4 ,a sight ( !m1 ,i knew1 w\ld recov] my en]gies bett] ?an any?+ else4 ,b 9 gett+ home ,i 9 "s way lo/ ! key ( ! money-draw]4 ,x 0 ,friday1 & ! tra9 = ,wei ,hwei left on ,saturday at t5 o'clock4 ,diff]5t p]sons came = money1 b ,i _h to put !m (f ) "s excuse4 ,!re 0 too mu* money 9 ! draw] = me to leave ) ! key ly+ ar\nd some:]e2 besides1 ,i myself c\ld n g )\t money4 ,z soon z ,i _h my supp] ,i />t$ se>*+ ev]y:]e4 ,draw]s1 pigeonholes1 %elves1 7 all se>*$ 9 va94 ,aft] hunt+ = two h\rs1 until ,i 0 too exhau/$ to hunt any m1 ,i sudd5ly ?\ght1 ,i h nev] pray$ ab\t x4 ,/opp+ /ill j :]e ,i /ood by ! d9+-table1 ,i lift$ my he>t to ! ,"l4 ,o ,"l1 y "k h[ mu* ,i ne$ a re/2 y "k h[ mu* ,i long to see ! *ildr52 pity me1 & lead me to ! key4 ,!n1 )\t wa/+ a /ep1 ,i walk$ ?r\gh ! d9+-room1 hall1 & wom5's gue/ room into ,mr4 ,g(or?'s /udy1 to ! book-case 7:i* cov]s "o side ( ! room71 op5$ ! door1 slipp$ two books aside1 & !re 0 ! key4 ,s ne> did ! ,"l seem at t mom5t t ,i c\ld almo/ feel 8 bodily pres5ce4 ,x 0 n t ,i rememb]$ putt+ ! key !re1 b he l$ me !re4 ,yes1 ,i "k ,god answ]s pray]4 ,,ix ,,to ,,8 ,,praise6 ,!y %all abundantly utt] ! memory ( ?y great goodness4 ,,?is *apt] is writt5 m ?an sev5 ye>s lat] ?an ! =ego+1 9 fur!r te/imony & praise4 ,return+ to ,canada at ! "t ( ! ,great ,w>1 we came face to face ) a s]i\s f9ancial crisis4 ,only two ways seem$ op5 to u4 ,"o 0 to lay our affairs frankly be=e ! ,bo>d1 %[+ t our sal>y 0 q insuffici5t1 ) w> conditions & prices1 to meet our requirem5ts4 ,! o!r c\rse 0 to j g =w>d1 get a suitable home & :atev] we requir$1 & tru/ our ,fa!r to supply :at 0 ne$$ above our income4 ,we decid$ on ! latt] c\rse4 ,a de> daught] felt indignant t we %\ld h a sal>y insuffici5t = our ne$s2 b we assur$ h] t to tru/ ,god = :at 0 lack+ 0 n begg+4 ,! day came :5 ?is *ild & myself took possession ( our new home4 ,z we ent]$ ! d9+-room we f\nd a l>ge mail f ,*9a on ! table4 ,"o lett] 0 =w>d$ f ! lady 9 ,au/ralia ^: gifts1 9 ! pa/1 seem$ always to h met "s felt ne$4 ,h] lett] enclos$ fifty p\nds1 ) ! express$ wi% t ?irty p\nds %\ld be us$ = "w 9 ,*9a1 b tw5ty p\nds 0 to be us$ to meet "s p]sonal ne$4 ,i h&$ ! lett] to my daught]1 say+3 ,%all we n believe t ,god w und]take = u8 ,x seems to me z if our ,fa!r 7 beside u say+1 ',my *ild1 take ?is hundr$ doll>s z an e>ne/ ( :at ,i am go+ to d = y4' ,te>s /ood 9 h] eyes z my daught] gave ! lett] back1 say+3 ,"m1 we don't tru/ ,god half en\gh6 ,7 ,i to attempt to write ! hi/ory ( ! mon?s t foll[$1 a long *apt] w\ld be requir$2 b my te/imony along ?is l9e is surely suffici5t4 99 99 99 99 99 ,x 0 on ?is same furl\gh t ,i came to h an enl>g$ vision ( my ,heav5ly ,fa!r's will+ness to und]take 9 :at "s might t]m ! m9or details ( ev]yday life4 ,mission>ies1 especially we mission>y wom51 "k only too well h[ we are criticiz$ 9 ! matt] ( dress1 :5 9 ! homel& & :5 travel+4 ,i h _h1 ?r\gh ! ye>s1 n only _m amus+ b try+ exp]i5ces 9 ?is connection1 & ,i resolv$ to make ! "q ( dress a def9ite matt] ( pray]4 ,& ,i rejoice to te/ify t ! result ( ?is decision became a con/ant s\rce ( wond] & praise4 ,yes1 ,i f\nd ! ,"l c\ld guide me ev5 9 trimm+ my hat to 8 glory6 ,t is1 s t ,i c\ld /& up be=e an audi5ce & n br+ discr$it to my ,ma/]4 ,praise 8 "n6 ,!re is no?+ too great = 8 p[]1 ,& no?+ too small = 8 love6 ,at ! "t ( ! ,great ,w> a son _h gone to ,engl& ) ! fir/ ,canadian cont+5t4 ,:5 ?is news rea*$ u 9 ,*9a1 ,i began to pray def9itely t ! ,"l w\ld use my son's gifts 9 ! be/ way = 8 c\ntry's good1 b w\ld keep him back f ! tr5*es & f actual w>f>e4 ,my boy did n "k ( ?is pray]4 ,"s weeks aft] rea*+ ,engl& he 0 look+ =w>d to leav+ = ! tr5*es 9 ,france1 :5 ord]s came t he 0 ne$$ 9 ! ,ord]ly ,room1 & 8 unit left )\t him4 ,mon?s lat] a call came = volunte]s1 to fill ! great gaps made at ! "t ( ! fir/ use ( gas4 ,my boy resign$ 8 position1 & jo9$ ! company ( volunte]s to be s5t to ,france4 ,j be=e !y 7 to leave he 0 aga9 s5t = f ,headqu>t]s1 & told he 0 to g to ! ,canadian ,base 9 ,france z adjutant4 ,8 duties 9 ?is capacity kept him at ! ,=w>d+ ,base4 ,a ye> lat] he aga9 plann$ to resign1 9 ord] to get to ! tr5*es4 ,he _h begun mak+ arrangem5ts = ?is /ep1 :5 he _h a fall f 8 horse1 :i* caus$ him to be invalid$ home to ,canada1 :]e he 0 kept till ! close ( ! w>4 ,x w\ld inde$ be difficult to p]suade 8 "m t all ?is happ5$ by *ance2 = "o day1 :5 9 great di/ress1 expect+ any day a cable to say he _h left = ! tr5*es1 ,i receiv$ a mo/ cle> assurance f ! ,"l t he _h ! boy 9 8 keep+4 99 99 99 99 99 ,aft] our return to ,*9a1 :5 9 great tr\ble1 ,i pray$ ! ,"l to grant me a cle> sign ( 8 favor by giv+ me a c]ta9 petition1 :i* affect$ a *ild 9 ! homel&4 ,! reque/ 0 a complicat$ "o1 includ+ sev]al def9ite details4 ,a little m ?an a mon? lat]1 a lett] rea*$ me f ! "o = :om ,i _h ask$ ! ,"l's favor4 ,%e wrote joy\sly1 tell+ t %e _h receiv$ j :at ,i _h ask$ =1 & 9 e detail z ,i _h pray$4 99 99 99 99 99 ,:5 my husb& resign$ ! regul> field "w ( ,*angte1 ,honan1 x became necess>y = u to f9d a home else:]e4 ,! only suitable place1 meet+ all our requirem5ts1 0 on ! hills at ,kikung%an1 ,s\? ,honan4 ,on go+ !re to get a site = our home1 ?\gh we look$ = m ?an a week1 we c\ld f9d no place4 ,z we />t$ d[n ! hill1 "o morn+ soon aft] midnight1 ,i 0 feel+ our failure v ke5ly1 = we _h giv5 up our old home4 ,:5 my husb& saw h[ bad ,i felt1 z he told me lat]1 he began to cry e>ne/ly to ! ,"l to give u a site4 ,& be=e we rea*$ ! /ation ! assurance _h come t we w\ld get a place4 ,a fri5d on ! tra91 travel+ ?ird class1 saw u gett+ on ! second class1 & came 9 = a few words be=e gett+ (f ! tra94 ,:5 he he>d we _h fail$ to get a site1 he said3 ,i "k ( a beautiful site :i* our ,mission is res]v+ = a future mission>y4 ,i'll ask !m to give x to y4 ,a few days lat] ! treasur] ( ?is ,mission wrote u t !y _h unanim\sly & gladly vot$ to give u ! site4 ,i am n[ writ+ ^! clos+ words 9 our ,god-giv5 home1 built on ?is beautiful site1 "o ( ! mo/ lovely spots to be f\nd 9 ,*9a4 ,s f ?is quiet m\nta9 retreat1 a monum5t ( :at ,god c give 9 answ] to pray]1 ?is little book ( ,pray] ,te/imonies is s5t =?4 ,z ! pa/ has be5 review$1 & ,god's wond]ful fai?fulness recall$1 !re has come a great s5se ( regret t ,i h n tru/$ ,god m1 & ask$ m ( him1 bo? = my family & ! ,*9ese4 ,yes1 x is truly wond]ful6 ,b ! wond] is n t ,god c answ] pray]1 b t he does1 :5 we s imp]fectly meet ! conditions cle>ly laid d[n 9 8 ,^w4 ,9 rec5t ye>s ,i h (t5 te/$ myself by ^! conditions1 :5 weeks1 & p]haps mon?s1 h pass$ )\t "s answ] to pray]1 & !re has come a consci\s spiritual sagg+4 ,z ! disc]n+ s\l c pla9ly see1 all ! conditions m5tion$ 9 ! li/ bel[ may be includ$ 9 ! "o ^w ,abide4 ,conditions ( ,prevail+ ,pray] #a4 ,contrite humility be=e ,god & =sak+ ( s94--#b ,*ron4 #g3ad4 #b4 ,seek+ ,god ) ! :ole he>t4--,j]4 #bi3ab1 #ac4 #c4 ,fai? 9 ,god4--,m>k #aa3bc1 #bd4 #d4 ,ob$i5ce4--#a ,john #c3bb4 #e4 ,dep5d5ce on ! ,holy ,_s4--,rom4 #h3bf4 #f4 ,importunity4--,m>k #g3bd-cj2 ,luke #aa3e-aj4 #g4 ,mu/ ask 9 accordance ) ,god's w4--#a ,john #e3ad4 #h4 ,9 ,*ri/'s ,"n4--,john #ad3ac1 #ad1 & _m o!r passages4 #i4 ,mu/ be will+ to make am5ds = wrongs to o!rs4--,matt4 #e3bc1 #bd4 ,causes ( ,failure 9 ,pray] #a4 ,s9 9 ! he>t & life4--,psa4 #ff3ah2 ,isa4 #ei3a1 #b4 #b4 ,p]si/5t refusal to obey ,god4--,prov4 #a3bd-bh2 ,ze*4 #g3aa1 #ac4 #c4 ,=malism & hypocrisy4--,isa4 #a3b-ae4 #d4 ,unwill+ness to =give o!rs4--,m>k #aa3be1 #bf4 #e4 ,wrong motives4--,james #d3b1 #c4 #f4 ,despis+ ,god's law4--,amos #b3d4 #g4 ,lack ( love & m]cy4--,prov4 #ba3ac4 ,x ,,victory ,,f\nd ,,at ,,! close ( ?is little volume x seems fitt+ to rec\nt aga9 a wond]ful p]sonal exp]i5ce1 n>rat$ 9 ,! ,sunday ,s*ool ,times ( ,decemb] #g1 #aiah4 ,i d n rememb] ! "t :5 ,i did n h 9 "s degree a love = ! ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/ z my ,savi\r4 ,:5 n q twelve ye>s ( age1 at a revival meet+1 ,i publicly accept$ & confess$ ,*ri/ z my ,"l & ,ma/]4 ,f t "t !re grew up 9 my he>t a deep ye>n+ to "k ,*ri/ 9 a m real way1 = he seem$ s unreal1 s f> away & vision>y4 ,"o night :5 /ill q "y ,i rememb] go+ out "u ! trees 9 my p>5ts' g>d5 &1 look+ up into ! />lit heav5s1 ,i long$ ) int5se long+ to feel ,*ri/ ne> me4 ,z ,i knelt d[n !re on ! grass1 alone ) ,god1 ,job's cry became m9e1 ,oh1 t ,i knew :]e ,i might f9d him6 ,c\ld ,i h borne x _h ,i kn[n !n t almo/ =ty ye>s w\ld pass be=e t ye>n+ w\ld be satisfi$8 ,) ! long+ to "k ,*ri/1 lit]ally to f9d him1 came a passionate desire to s]ve him4 ,b1 oh1 :at a t]rible nature ,i _h6 ,passionate1 pr\d1 self-will$1 inde$ j full 0 ,i ( ^? ?+s t ,i knew 7 unlike ,*ri/4 ,! foll[+ ye>s ( half-he>t$ conflict ) s9ful self mu/ be pass$ ov] till ab\t ! fif? ye> ( our mission>y "w 9 ,*9a4 ,i grieve to say t ! new life 9 a =eign l& ) its try+ climate1 provok+ s]vants1 & altoge!r irritat+ conditions1 seem$ to h develop$ r ?an subdu$ my natural disposition4 ,"o day 7,i c nev] =get x71 z ,i sat inside ! h\se by a pap] w9d[ at dusk1 two ,*9ese ,*ri/ian wom5 sat d[n on ! o!r side4 ,!y began talk+ ab\t me1 & 7wrongly1 no d\bt7 ,i li/5$4 ,"o said1 ,yes1 %e is a h>d work]1 a zeal\s prea*]1 &--yes1 %e ne>ly loves u2 b1 oh1 :at a temp] %e has6 ,if %e w\ld only live m z %e prea*es6 ,!n foll[$ a full & true del9eation ( my life & "*4 ,s true1 inde$1 0 x1 z to cru% out all s5se ( annoyance & leave me humbl$ to ! du/4 ,i saw !n h[ useless1 h[ worse ?an useless1 0 x = me to come to ,*9a to prea* ,*ri/ & n live ,*ri/4 ,b h[ c\ld ,i live ,*ri/8 ,i knew "s 7includ+ my de> husb&7 :o _h a peace & a p[]1--yes1 & a some?+ ,i c\ld n def9e1 t ,i _h n2 & (t5 ,i long$ to "k ! secret4 ,0 x possible1 ) su* a nature z m9e1 ev] to become pati5t & g5tle8 ,0 x possible t ,i c\ld ev] really /op worry+8 ,c\ld ,i1 9 a ^w1 ev] hope to be able to live ,*ri/ z well z prea* him8 ,i knew ,i lov$ ,*ri/2 & aga9 & aga9 ,i _h prov$ my will+ness to give up all = 8 sake4 ,b ,i knew1 too1 t "o hot fla% ( temp] ) ! ,*9ese1 or ) ! *ildr5 be=e ! ,*9ese1 w\ld l>gely undo weeks1 p]haps mon?s1 ( self-sacrific+ s]vice4 ,! ye>s t foll[$ l$ (t5 ?r\gh ! furnace4 ,! ,"l knew t no?+ b fire c\ld de/roy ! dross & subdue my /ubborn w4 ,^? ye>s may be summ$ up 9 "o l9e3 ,fight+ 7n f9d+71 foll[+1 keep+1 /ruggl+4 ,yes1 & fail+6 ,sometimes 9 ! dep?s ( despair ov] ^! failures2 !n go+ on det]m9$ to d my be/1--& :at a poor be/ x 06 ,9 ! ye> #aije1 & lat]1 z ,i witness$ ! wond]ful way ! ,"l 0 lead+ my husb&1 & saw ! ,holy ,_s's p[] 9 8 life & message1 ,i came to seek v def9itely = ! fulness ( ! ,holy ,_s4 ,x 0 a "t ( deep he>t-se>*+4 ,! he9\sness ( s9 0 reveal$ z nev] be=e4 ,_m1 _m ?+s _h to be set "r t[>d man & ,god4 ,i le>n$ !n :at pay+ ! price meant4 ,^? 7 times ( wond]ful m\nta9-top exp]i5ces1 & ,i came to honor ! ,holy ,_s & seek 8 p[] = ! ov]com+ ( s9 9 a new way4 ,b ,*ri/ /ill rema9$1 z be=e1 di/ant1 af> (f1 & ,i long$ increas+ly to "k--to f9d him4 ,al?\gh ,i _h mu* m p[] ov] besett+ s9s1 yet !re 7 times ( great d>kness & defeat4 ,x 0 dur+ "o ( ^! latt] times t we 7 =c$ to return to ,canada1 9 ,june ( #aiaf4 ,my husb&'s heal? prev5t$ him f public speak+1 & x seem$ t ?is duty = u bo? 0 to fall on me4 ,b ,i dread$ fac+ ! ,home ,*ur* )\t "s spiritual uplift1--a fre% vision = myself4 ,! ,"l saw ?is he>t-hung]1 & 9 8 own glori\s way he fulfill$ lit]ally ! promise1 ,he satisfie? ! long+ s\l1 & fille? ! hungry s\l ) goodness 7,psa4 #ajg3i1 ,a4 ,v474 ,a spiritual conf]5ce 0 to be held ! latt] "p ( ,june at ,niag>a-on-!-,lake1 ,ont>io1 & to ?is ,i 0 l$4 ,"o day ,i w5t to ! meet+ r aga9/ my incl9ation1 = x 0 s lovely "u ! trees by ! beautiful lake4 ,! speak] 0 a /rang] to me1 b f almo/ ! fir/ 8 message gripp$ me4 ,victory ov] ,s96 ,:y1 ?is 0 :at ,i _h f\ght =1 _h hung]$ =1 all my life6 ,0 x possible8 ,! speak] w5t on to describe v simply an ord9>y ,*ri/ian life exp]i5ce--sometimes on ! m\nta9-top1 ) visions ( ,god2 !n aga9 w\ld come ! sagg+1 & dimm+ ( vision1 coldness1 disc\ragem5t1 & p]haps def9ite disob$i5ce & a "t ( d[n-grade exp]i5ce4 ,!n p]haps a sorr[1 or ev5 "s special m]cy1 w\ld br+ ! w&]] back to 8 ,"l4 ,! speak] ask$ = all ^? :o felt ?is to be a picture ( _! exp]i5ce to raise ! h&4 ,i 0 sitt+ 9 ! front seat1 & %ame only kept me f rais+ my h& at once4 ,b ,i did s want to get all ,god _h = me1 & ,i det]m9$ to be true2 & aft] a /ruggle ,i rais$ my h&4 ,wond]+ if o!rs 7 l myself1 ,i v5tur$ to glance back & saw _m h&s 7 rais$1 ?\gh ! audi5ce 0 compos$ almo/ entirely ( ,*ri/ian work]s1 m9i/]s1 & mission>ies4 ,! lead] !n w5t on to say t life :i* he _h describ$ 0 n ! life ,god plann$ or wi%$ = ,8 *ildr54 ,he describ$ ! high] life ( peace1 re/ 9 ! ,"l1 ( p[] & fre$om f /ruggle1 worry1 c>e4 ,z ,i li/5$ ,i c\ld sc>cely believe x c\ld be true1 yet my :ole s\l 0 mov$ s t x 0 ) ! greate/ difficulty ,i c\ld control my emotion4 ,i saw !n1 ?\gh dimly1 t ,i 0 ne>+ ! goal = :i* ,i _h be5 aim+ all my life4 ,e>ly ! next morn+1 soon aft] daybreak1 ,i w5t ov] on my knees c>efully & pray]fully all ! passages on ! ,victori\s ,life t 7 giv5 9 a little yell[ leaflet t ! speak] _h di/ribut$4#a ,:at a com=t & /r5g? x 0 to see h[ cle> ,god's ,^w 0 t victory1 n defeat1 0 8 w = 8 *ildr51 & to see :at wond]ful provision he _h made6 ,lat]1 dur+ ! days t foll[$1 cle>] light came4 ,i did :at ,i 0 ask$ to d--,i quietly b def9itely accept$ ,*ri/ z my ,savi\r f ! p[] ( s9 z ,i _h s long be=e accept$ him z my ,savi\r f ! p5alty ( s94 ,& on ?is ,i re/$4 ,i left ,niag>a1 realiz+1 h[ev]1 !re 0 /ill some?+ ,i _h n got4 ,i felt mu* z ! bl9d man mu/ h felt :5 he said1 ,i see m5 z trees1 walk+ 7,a4 ,v474 ,i _h begun to see light1 b dimly4 ,! day aft] rea*+ home ,i pick$ up a little booklet1 ,! ,life ,t ,w9s1#b :i* ,i _h n read be=e1 & go+ to my son's b$side ,i told him x 0 ! p]sonal te/imony ( "o :om ,god _h us$ to br+ great bless+ into my life4 ,i !n read x al\d till ,i came to ! words1 ,at la/ ,i realiz$ t ,jesus ,*ri/ 0 actually & lit]ally )9 me4 ,i /opp$ amaz$4 ,! sun seem$ sudd5ly to come f "u a cl\d & flood my :ole s\l ) light4 ,h[ bl9d ,i'd be56 ,i saw at la/ ! secret ( victory--x 0 simply ,jesus ,*ri/ himself--8 own life liv$ out 9 ! believ]4 ,b ! ?\ght ( victory 0 = ! mom5t lo/ sight ( 9 ! inexpressible joy ( realiz+ ,,*ri/',s ,,indwell+ ,,pres5ce6 ,l a tir$1 worn-out w&]] f9d+ home at la/ ,i j re/$ 9 him4 ,re/$ 9 8 love--9 himself4 ,&1 oh1 ! peace & joy t came flood+ my life6 ,a re/fulness & quietness ( _s ,i nev] ?\ght c\ld be m9e took possession ( me s naturally4 ,lit]ally a new life began = me1 or r 9 me4 ,x 0 j ! ,life t is ,*ri/4 ,! fir/ /ep ,i took 9 ?is new life 0 to get /&+ on ,god's own ,^w1 & n m]ely on man's tea*+ or ev5 on a p]sonal exp]i5ce4 ,& z ,i /udi$ especially ! tru? ( ,*ri/'s indwell+1 victory ov] s91 & ,god's b\ntiful provision1 ! ,^w 0 fairly illum9$ ) new light4 ,! ye>s t h pass$ h be5 ye>s ( bless$ fell[%ip ) ,*ri/ & ( joy 9 8 s]vice4 ,a fri5d ask$ me n long ago if ,i c\ld give 9 a s5t5ce ! aft] result 9 my life ( :at ,i said _h come to me 9 #aiaf1 & ,i repli$1 ,yes1 x c be all summ$ up 9 "o ^w1 ',re/+4' ,"s h ask$1 ,b h y nev] s9n$8 ,yes1 ,i grieve to say ,i h4 ,s9 is ! "o ?+ ,i abhor--= x is ! "o ?+ t c1 if unrep5t$ (1 sep>ate u1 n f ,*ri/1 b f ! consci\sness ( 8 pres5ce4 ,b ,i h le>n$ t !re is in/antane\s =giv5ess & re/oration to be _h always4 ,t !re ne$ be no times ( despair4 ,"o ( ! bless$ results ( ?is life is n only ! consci\sness ( ,*ri/'s pres5ce1 b ! reality ( 8 pres5ce z manife/$ 9 def9ite results :51 9 ! daily details ( life1 matt]s are left ) him & he has und]tak54 ,my own ?\ght ( him is beautifully express$ 9 ,spurgeon's words3 ,:at ! h& is to ! lute1 ,:at ! brea? is to ! flute1 ,:at's ! "m to ! *ild1 ,:at ! guide 9 pa?less wild1 ,:at is oil to tr\bl$ wave1 ,:at is ransom to a slave1 ,:at is fl[] to ! bee1 ,t is ,jesus ,*ri/ to me4 ,! special ,bible-/udy :i* ,i made at t "t 0 embodi$ 9 a leaflet4 ,prov+ helpful to o!rs1 x is add$ bel[4#c ,god's ,pres5ce ,! secret ( ,victory is simply ,*ri/ himself 9 ! he>t ( ! believ]4 ,?is tru?1 ( ,*ri/'s indwell+1 is1 & always has be51 a my/]y4 ,romans #af3be4 ,ephesians #c3i ) ,colossians #a3bf1 #bg4 ,ephesians #e3cj1 #cb 7,r4 ,v474 ,colossians #d3c4 ,*ri/ himself taught ?is tru?4 ,john #ad3bj1 #bc2 #ae3a-g2 #ag3ba-bc4 ,mat!w #bh3bj4 ,revelation #c3bj4 7,see also ,m>k #af3bj74 ,x 0 a vital reality to ! ,apo/le ,paul4 ,romans #h3aj4 #a ,cor9?ians #f3ae4 #a ,cor9?ians #ab3bg 7,r4 ,v474 #b ,cor9?ians #e3ag4 #b ,cor9?ians #ac3e4 ,galatians #b3bj4 ,galatians #c3bg4 ,galatians #d3ai4 ,ephesians #c3ag4 ,philippians #a3ba #a ,!ssalonians #e3aj4 ,hebrews #c3f4 ,! words 9 ,*ri/1 :i* recur 9 _m o!r passages1 w h a new lit]alness :5 read 9 ! light ( ! above4 ,! ,apo/le ,john _h a l conception ( ,*ri/'s indwell+ pres5ce4 #a ,john #b3bh to #c3f1 #bd4 #a ,john #d3d1 #ab1 #ac1 #af4 #a ,john #e3bj4 ,god's ,purpose ,z ,victory is ! result ( ,*ri/'s ,life liv$ out 9 ! believ]1 x is important t we see cle>ly t ,victory1 & n defeat1 is ,god's ,purpose = 8 ,*ildr54 ,! ,scriptures are v decid$ ^u ?is tru?4 ,luke #a3gd1 #ge4 ,romans #e3b4 ,a,romans1 *aps4 #f & #h4 #a ,cor9?ians #ae3eg4 #b ,cor9?ians #b3ad4 #b ,cor9?ians #aj3e4 ,ephesians #a3c1 #d4 ,colossians #d3ab4 #a ,!ssalonians #e3bc4 #b ,!ssalonians #c3c 7,r4,v474 #b ,timo?y #b3ai4 ,titus #b3ab4 ,hebrews #g3be4 #a ,pet] #a3ae4 #b ,pet] #c3ad4 #a ,john #b3a4 #a ,john #c3f1 #i4 ,& _m o!r passages4 ,t ,*ri/ came z ! ,savi\r f ! p[] z well z ! p5alty ( s9 we see 9 ,mat!w #a3ba1 ) ,john #h3cd1 #cf1 & ,titus #b3ad4 ,god's ,provision ,god knew ! frailty ( man1 t 8 he>t 0 desp]ately wick$1 t ev5 8 righte\sness 0 z fil?y rags1 t man's only hope = victory ov] s9 mu/ come f ! ,god-w>d side4 ,he1 !re=e1 made k+ly provision s ri*1 s suffici5t1 s exce$+ abundant1 t z we /udy x1 we feel we h tapp$ a m9e ( weal?1 too deep to fa?om4 ,j a few sugge/ions ( its ri*es3 ,god's greate/ provision is ! gift ( a "p ( ,8 ,own ,be+ 9 ! p]son ( ! ,holy ,_s4 ,! foll[+ are b "s ( ! _m ?+s ! ,holy ,_s does = u1 z record$ 9 ! ,^w3 ,he begets u into ! family ( ,god4--,john #c3f4 ,he seals or m>ks u z ,god's4--,eph4 #a3ac4 ,he dwells 9 u4--#a ,cor4 #c3af4 ,he unites u to ,*ri/4--#a ,cor4 #ab3ac1 #bg4 ,he *anges u into ! lik5ess ( ,*ri/4--#b ,cor4 #c3ah4 ,he helps 9 pray]4--,rom4 #h3bf4 ,he com=ts4--,john #ad3af4 ,he guides4--,rom4 #h3ad4 ,he /r5g!ns ) p[]4--,eph4 #c3af4 ,he is ! s\rce ( p[] & fruitfulness4--,john #g3ch1 #ci4 ,"s ( ! victori\s results 9 our life1 z ,*ri/ has ,8 way 9 u1 are %[n 93 ,romans #h3cb1 #bg4 ,romans #ae3ac4 #b ,cor9?ians #i3h1 #aa4 #b ,cor9?ians #b3ad4 ,ephesians #a3ai4 ,ephesians #c3af1 #bj4 ,philippians #d3g1 #ac1 #ai4 ,colossians #a3aa4 #a ,pet] #a3e4 #b ,timo?y #c3ag4 ,jude #bd4 ,john #ae3g4 ,to ! seek] = fur!r ,scripture help ! writ] w\ld sugge/ a plan t has prov$ a great bless+ to h]self4 ,read ! ,psalms ?r\gh1 mak+ c>eful record ( all ! /atem5ts ( :at ! ,"l 0 to ! writ]s ( ! ,psalms4 ,! li/ w surprise y4 ,!n on y\r knees g ov] !m "o by "o1 ) ! pray] t ,*ri/ may be to y :at he 0 to ,david & ! o!rs4 ,take a ,crud5's1 or bett] /ill a ,"y's1 concordance & look up ! texts "u su* head+s z ,love1 ,fulness1 ,p[]1 ,ri*es1 ,grace1 etc41 gr\p+ !m into usable ,bible /udies4 ,z a sample1 tak+ ?is la/ ^w1 grace2 ! m "o /udies x ! m wond]ful does x become4 ,"h are "s ( ^! head+s3 ,grace = grace4--,john #a3af4 ,suffici5t grace4--#b ,cor4 #ab3i4 ,m ,grace4--,james #d3f4 ,all ,grace4--#b ,cor4 #i3h4 ,abundant grace4--,rom4 #e3ag4 ,exce$+ abundant grace4--#a ,tim4 #a3ad4 ,exce$+ ri*es ( ,8 grace4--,eph4 #b3ag4 ,b let u rememb] t to simply "k ( ri*es w nev] mat]ially b5efit u4 ,we mu/ make !m our own4 ,all fulness dwells 9 ,*ri/4 ,x is only z we appreh5d 7:i* means take hold or take 97 ,*ri/ ?r\gh ! ,holy ,_s c x be possible = ^! spiritual ri*es to become ours4 ,! slogan ( ?is glori\s life 9 ,*ri/ is j ,let g & let ,god4 ,,footnotes3 #a ,?is leaflet1 giv+ a c>efully select$ li/ ( ,scripture ref]5ces on ! ,victori\s ,life1 may be _h f ,! ,sunday ,s*ool ,times ,company1 #ajca ,walnut ,/reet1 ,philadelphia1 ,pa41 at #ej c5ts p] #ajj copies2 or #ae c5ts = #be copies2 po/paid4 #b ,! ,life t ,w9s may be obta9$ f ,! ,sunday ,s*ool ,times ,company at #b c5ts ea*2 or #bj c5ts a doz5 copies1 or #a4ej p] hundr$1 po/paid4 #c ,?is leaflet may be obta9$ f ! ,*ri/ian ,life ,lit]ature ,fund1 #fjj ,p]ry ,build+1 ,philadelphia1 at #ae cts4 a doz51 #fj cts4 a hundr$1 or #b cts4 ea*4 ,a ,! #g? *apt] ( ,romans %\ld be read 9 ! light ( ! #f? & #h? *apt]s4 99 99 99 99 99 ,transcrib]'s notes3 ,obvi\s punctuation errors repair$4 ,page #abi1 #d miss+ f li/ ( ,conditions ( ,prevail+ ,pray]4 ,! li/ 0 r5umb]$ to correct ?is4