,transcrib]'s ,note3 ,inconsi/5cy betwe5 ,,toc & ,*apt] head+s h be5 reta9$ z 9 ! orig9al4 ,,se5 ,,& ,,unse5 ,,by ,e4 ,,ka?>9e ,,bates ,,new ,,york ,,dodge ,,publi%+ ,,company #bad-bbj ,,ea/ #bc,,rd ,,/reet #aijh ,fir/ ,publi%$ ,july #aijg ,second ,impression ,octob] #aijg ,?ird ,impression ,m>* #aijh ---------- ,popul> ,edition #aijh ,to ,c4 ,e4 ,b4 ,,9 ,,memory ,,( ,,"o ,,:o ,,lov$ ,,& ,,suff]$ ,,& ,,9 ,,! ,,sure ,,& ,,c]ta9 ,,hope ,,( ,a ,,joyful ,,meet+ ,,) ,,him1 ,,& ,,) ,,o!rs ,,:o ,,h ,,cross$ ,,! ,,b> ,,cont5ts ,,*apt] ,,page ,,introduction ix ,i4 ,,e>ly ,,recollections #a ,,ii4 ,,inve/igations ,,9 ,,am]ica1 #ahhe-ahhf #ac ,,iii4 ,,au/ralia ,,& ,,new ,,zeal& #di ,,iv4 ,,hong ,,kong1 ,,alaska1 ,,& ,,new ,,york #ga ,v4 ,,india1 #ahij-ahia #hj ,,vi4 ,,sw$5 ,,& ,,russia1 #ahib #ig ,,an ,,int]lude #abi ,,vii4 ,,lady ,,cai?ness ,,& ,,! ,,av5ue ,,wagram #add ,,viii4 ,,f ,,ox=d ,,to ,,wimbl$on #afa ,,ix4 #ahif1 ,,haunt+s ,,by ,,! ,,liv+ ,,& ,,! ,,dead #agf ,x4 ,,fur!r ,,exp]i5ces ,,9 ,,am]ica #aie ,,xi4 ,a ,,haunt$ ,,ca/le ,,9 ,,irel& #bah ,,xii4 #aijj-aija1 ,,odds ,,& ,,ends #bcb ,,xiii4 #aijc1 ,a ,,second ,,visit ,,to ,,india #bfj ,,xiv4 ,a ,,family ,,portrait ,,& ,,psy*ic ,,photography #bgd ,,app5dix #bih ,,introduction ,_m ye>s ago1 :il/ liv+ at ,ox=d1 ,i 0 invit$ by a v old fri5d1 :o _h rec5tly tak5 8 degree1 to a riv] picnic2 ) ,nuneham1 ,i ?9k1 z its alleg$ object4 ,un=tunately1 ! day prov$ unfav\rable1 & we return$ 9 op5 boats1 also ) op5 umbrellas2 a g5]ally dr5*$ & b$raggl$ appe>ance1 & no?+ to *e] u on ! physical plane except a quantity ( ic$ c(fee :i* _h be5 ord]$ 9 anticipation ( a tropical day4 ,"u ^! r try+ conditions ,i c rememb] gett+ a good deal ( amusem5t out ( ! companions 9 ! special boat :i* prov$ to be my fate4 ,our ho/1 be+ a clev] & int]e/+ man himself1 _h collect$ clev] & int]e/+ p r\nd him1 on ! ,birds ( a ,fea!r pr9ciple1 & ,i happ5$ to sit betwe5 two ladies1 "o ! wife 7n[1 alas6 ! wid[7 ( a man :o 0 to become lat] on "o ( our mo/ fam\s bi%ops2 ! o!r--h] bosom fri5d & deadly rival--! wife ( an equally di/+ui%$ ,ox=d don4 ,! ic$ c(fee comb9$ ) ! p\r+ ra9 may h be5 p>tly to blame1 b c]ta9ly ! conv]sation t w5t on betwe5 ! two ladies1 across my umbrella1 0 decid$ly ,fel9e4 ,to pass ! "t we 7 valiantly endeav\r+ to play ,tw5ty ,que/ions f ! bottom ( ! boat1 & ! ,bi%op's wid[ 0 ask+ ! que/ions4 ,%e _h triumphantly elicit$ ! fact t we _h ?\ght ( a c9d]--& an hi/orical c9d]--& ! tw5tie? & la/ p]missible "q 0 actually hov]+ on h] lips4 ,x 0 ! c9d] t ,ri*>d ,coeur de ,lion's horse fell ^u1 %e said eag]ly4 ,( c\rse1 we all realis$ t ?is 0 a mo/ obvi\s slip 9 ! case ( s highly educat$ a woman2 b ! ,bosom ,fri5d c\ld n resi/ putt+ out ! velvet paw3 ,a little confusion 9 ! c5turies1 ,i ?9k1 de>1 %e said sweetly4 ,! un=tunate que/ion] practically nev] smil$ aga9 dur+ t exp$ition4 ,b a /ill m cru%+ bl[ 0 9 /ore = h]4 ,! conv]sation turn$ lat] ^u que/ions ( /yle 9 writ+ or speak+1 & ) p]haps p>donable rev5ge1 %e said to h] rival3 ,i always notice t y say '"o' s (t5--'"o does ?is or t1' & s =?4 ,really1 de>8 ,t is curi\s4 ,n[ ,i always notice t y say ',i' s cont9ually6 ,! cut & ?ru/ came ) ! rapidity ( exp]t f5c]s4 ,& ?is br+s me to ! real gi/ ( my /ory4 ,x is consid]$ ! mo/ he9\s (f5ce to say ,i1 & e conceivable device is resort$ to1 no matt] h[ clumsy1 9 ord] to prev5t ! cata/rophe ( a writ] be+ =c$ to speak ( himself 9 ! fir/ p]son4 ,to my m9d1 !re is a good deal ( affectation & pose ab\t ?is1 & 9 any?+ ( an autobiography x becomes insupportable4 ,! writ] happ5$ ^u "o occasion to be pres5t1 etc4 ,he :o p5s ^! unwor?y pages 0 once travell+ to ,scotl&1 etc4 etc4 ,:i* ( u has n groan$ "u ^! self-consci\s euphemisms8 ,:y n say ',i' & h done ) x8 we are wont to exclaim 9 desp]ation aft] pages ( ?is k9d ( ?+4 ,n[ ,i propose to say ,i & h done ) x1 & n wa/e "t 9 try+ to f9d +5i\s & we>isome equival5ts4 ,t is my fir/ po9t4 ,secondly1 9 ?is record ( psy*ic exp]i5ces ,i mean to keep cle> ( ano!r intol]able nuisance--,i mean ! cont9ual introduction ( capital lett]s & long da%es 9 ord] to conceal id5tity 9 su* episodes4 ,! motive is admirable1 b ! me?od is dete/able4 ,"o c only judge by p]sonal exp]i5ce4 ,i "k t :5 ,i read a r involv$ n>rative ( suffici5tly involv$ psy*ic do+s1 & ,mr ,q----1 ,miss ,b----1 ,mr ,c----1 & ,mr ,c4's mat]nal aunt ,mrs ,g---- figure wildly 9 x1 ,i am driv5 desp]ate 9 try+ to =ce "s idea ( p]sonality into ^! mean+less lett]s ( ! alphabet4 ,to conceal ! id5tity ( ,mr ,br[n1 :o 0 once guilty ( see+ a gho/1 may be & mo/ frequ5tly is1 a po9t ( hon\r1 b :y n call him ,mr ,smi?1 & say he liv$ 9 ,buck+ham%ire1 & ?us r\se a def9ite m5tal conception 9 y\r read]'s bra91 in/ead ( call+ him ,mr ,z4 ( ,w----1 & ?us sett+ up m5tal irritation be=e ! gho/ comes ^u ! sc5e8 ,hav+ cle>$ ! gr\nd s f>1 ,i w n[ m5tion my ?ird & la/ po9t4 ,x is usual :5 writ+ rem9isc5ces ( any k9d to anticipate y\r read]'s criticisms1 & try to increase 8 int]e/ 9 y\r exp]i5ces by a sort ( false humility 9 deprecat+ _! value4 ,! idea is d\btless f\nd$ on a s\nd k ( ,human ,nature1 b x may easily fall into exagg]ation4 ,no?+ is1 ( c\rse1 s disa/r\s z to praise be=eh& a p]son1 a picture1 a voice1 a poem1 a book1 or any?+ else 9 ! wide _w1 9 :i* we wi% our fri5ds to take any special int]e/4 ,su* a c\rse naturally r\ses unconsci\s antagonism 9 poor1 fall5 ,human ,nature be=e we ev5 see or he> ! object ( our lat] bitt] av]sion4 ,b !re is a m$ium 9 all ?+s1 & x is sc>cely polite to put ! intellig5ce ( our read]s suffici5tly l[ to be manipulat$ by su* obvi\s arts4 ,moreov]1 x has be5 well said t ! hi/ory ( any "o human be+--tru?fully told 7,i w\ld add1 intellig5tly assimilat$7--w\ld be ( en?rall+ int]e/ & value4 ,if ?is be true on ! ord9>y physical1 intellectual1 & spiritual planes x %\ld n be less true1 surely1 :]e a f\r? plane ( psy*ic exp]i5ce is add$ to ! o!r ?ree8 ,!n aga91 !re is no ne$ to apologise = exp]i5ces limit$ 9 int]e/ or 9 am\nt4 ,^! t]ms are ( necessity comp>ative4 ,= example1 my exp]i5ces are limit$ comp>$ ) ^? ( "s p ,i h kn[n1 :o h be5 ei!r m highly end[$ ) psy*ic gifts or :o h consid]$ x advisable to cultivate su* gifts to a high po9t ( effici5cy2 or la/ly1 ) :om opportunities = exp]i5ce h be5 m num]\s4 ,b1 on ! o!r h&1 my exp]i5ces h be5 great comp>$ ) ^? ( "s p at lea/ equally int]e/$ 9 ^! subjects4 ,geographically speak+1 ,i h be5 peculi>ly =tunate1 hav+ _h ! opportunity ( witness+ ph5om5a ( ?is k9d 9 _m c\ntries1 diff]+ widely 9 ,race1 ,climate1 & o!r conditions4 ,i h be5 told _m times t ,i c\ld develop clairvoyance1 clairaudi5ce1 or sit z a mat]ialis+ m$ium1 b h _h no desire to g fur!r 9 ^! matt]s4 ,i h se5 q z mu* z ,i wi% to see1 ,i h he>d q z mu* z ,i wi% to he>1 & %\ld be v sorry p]sonally to increase ei!r ( ^! psy*ic possibilities by ! practice t makes m p]fect4 ,"s consid] ?is lam5table c[>dice & want ( fai?4 ,ea* "o mu/ judge = himself 9 su* a matt]4 ,fai? 9 ?is connection may easily deg5]ate into foolh>d9ess4 ,great] is ,he t is = y ?an all ^? :o are aga9/ y has be5 quot$ to me aga9 & aga9 9 deprecation ( my attitude 9 ^! ?+s4 ,x has always appe>$ to me a matt] 9 :i* individual judgm5t mu/ be ex]cis$1 & ^u :i* no broad & g5]al l9es ( conduct c be laid d[n4 ,"o man c cycle fifty miles 9 ! day1 & dance all night1 & be ! bett] = ! exp]i5ce4 ,ano!r attempt+ ! same feat1 b n hav+ ! same con/itution1 might d himself la/+ injury4 ,x is exactly ! same ?+ on ! psy*ic plane4 ,our psy*ic con/itutions diff] at lea/ z mu* z our physical ones4 ,we may ov]tax ei!r1 & ) simil> consequ5ces4 ,we h no "r to expect protection or immunity on ei!r plane1 :]e we neglect ! w>n+s ( t inn] monitor :o is always our be/ guide4 ,z a f9al ^w ( w>n+1 ,i w\ld say3 ,bew>e ( y\r motives 9 cultivat+ psy*ic capacity4 ,x is s easy to mi/ake love ( notoriety1 ev5 9 "o's own little milieu1 = love ( ,tru?4 ,!re is always an eag]1 curi\s cr[d anxi\s to get messages or he> raps1 or to see any o!r little psy*ic p>l\r tricks :i* we may be induc$ to play = _! b5efit4 ,at fir/ "o feels x is almo/ a sacr$ duty to satisfy1 or attempt to satisfy1 ^! psy*ic cormorants2 b lat]1 wisdom comes ) exp]i5ce4 ,at "o "t ,i felt b\nd to collect my fri5ds & acqua9tances r\nd me & tell !m all ,i knew ^u ^! subjects1 & d\btless x 0 "r to d s :il/ ,i felt t way1 to quote an expressive ,am]icanism4 ,b ! inevitable day came :5 ,i realis$ t ,i _h sp5t my /r5g? & my muff9s 9 va92 = ^! ga!r+s g5]ally took ! =m ( tea-p>ties1 n too l>ge to cope ) s+le-h&$--say f t5 to tw5ty p4 ,!y came at #d4cj ,p4,m4 & /ay$ till #h ,p4,m41 :5 mo/ ( !m rememb]$ !y ought to h d9$ at #g4de ,p4,m41 & w5t away say+ ,h[ imm5sely !y _h enjoy$ !mselves1 & ,h[ int]e/+ x all 04 ,& s f> z any p]man5t good came ( x1 !re ! matt] end$4 ,believe me1 :5 p are prep>$ = ?is developm5t ( _! f9] s5ses !y w come to y4 ,!re is no ne$ to g into ! highways & h$ges & compel !m to come 94 ,if !y d come !y won't /ay--:y %\ld !y8 ,!y h n got !re yet1 to use a ?or\ghly hateful & ungrammatical b absolutely accurate s5t5ce4 ,if y try to c>ry !m on ! back ( y\r own k & exp]i5ces1 y c d s = a "t1 b ev5tually !y w /ruggle d[n1 or y w put !m d[n f %e] fatigue1 & !n !y w run back to ! spot :]e y f\nd !m1 & !nce "w out _! own psy*ic evolution ei!r 9 ?is or 9 "s future t]m ( exi/5ce4 ,:5 _! int]e/ is exhau/$--to say no?+ ( y\r pati5ce--y w he> t !y h call$ y a crank & lam5t$ y\r wa/+ y\r "t ov] su* nons5se4 ,t w be y\r %>e ( ! transaction4 ,i "k ?is because ,i h be5 !re--moi qui v\s p>le4 ,let e man be p]suad$ 9 8 own m9d1 b don't try to p]suade anyone else4 ,:5 ! "r "t comes he w ask y\r help & c\nsel )\t any p]suasion4 ,( c\rse1 ,i am speak+ only ( private "w4 ,lectures & congresses are ( ! greate/ possible value2 = no "o kn[s :om he may be address+ on ^! occasions1 & ! se$ may be fall+ into soil prep>$1 b (t5 unconsci\sly prep>$1 = its reception4 ,to sum up ! :ole matt]3 #a4 ,be /rong 9 ! conviction t ev5tually good mu/ always conqu] evil1 b rememb] also t y individually may h a v bad "t mean:ile if y g among/ mix$ influ5ces & evoke t :i* at pres5t y are n /rong en\gh to )/&4 #b4 ,"k :5 to speak & :5 to be sil5t4 #c4 ,receive :at comes to y spontane\sly1 b nev] all[ y\rself to be cajol$ or p]suad$ into develop+ y\r m$ium%ip to gratify curiosity2 n ev5 on ! plea ( sci5tific duty1 unless y are fully consci\s 9 y\r own m9d t ?is is ! special "w :i* is laid ^u y4 ,& be>+ ^! ?ree simple rules 9 m9d1 we may g =w>d ) brave he>ts & level heads on ! ,que/ :i* has be5 s pla9ly op5$ out to u 9 ?is tw5tie? c5tury4 ,e4 ,,ka?>9e ,,bates4 ,,se5 ,,& ,,unse5 ,,*apt] ,i ,,e>ly ,,recollections ,hav+ set myself to write a p]sonal record ( psy*ic exp]i5ces1 ,i mu/ beg9 at ! beg9n+1 z ! *ildr5 say4 ,:5 only n9e ye>s old ,i lo/ my fa!r--! ,rev4 ,john ,ellison ,bates ( ,*ri/ ,*ur*1 ,dov]--& my e>lie/ *ildi% exp]i5ce ( any?+ sup]normal 0 connect$ ) him4 ,he _h be5 an invalid all my %ort life1 & ,i 0 q accu/om$ to sp5d+ days at a "t )\t see+ him4 ,8 la/ illness1 :i* la/$ ab\t a =tnight1 _h !re=e no special significance = me1 & my nurse1 eld] bro!r1 & godmo!r1 :o 7 ! only ?ree p 9 ! h\se at ! "t1 gave /rict ord]s t none ( ! s]vants %\ld give me a h9t ( 8 be+ dang]\sly ill4 ,^! in/ructions 7 c>efully c>ri$ out1 & yet ,i dream$ ?ree nights runn+--! ?ree nights prec$+ 8 decease--t he 0 dead4 ,i 0 entirely devot$ to my fa!r1 :o _h be5 fa!r & "m to me 9 "o1 & ^! dreams no d\bt broke ! t]rible %ock ( 8 dea? to me4 ,h[ well ,i rememb]1 t cold1 dre>y ,febru>y morn+1 be+ ha/ily dress$ by c&le-light by /range h&s1 & !n my de> old nurse 7:o _h be5 by 8 b$side all night7 com+ 9 & tell+ me ! sad news ) te>s /ream+ d[n h] *eeks4 ,x seem$ no news at ! mom5t2 & yet ,i _h spok5 ( my dreams to no "o1 = fe> !y %\ld come true1 hav+ "s pa!tic1 *ildi% notion t sil5ce on my "p might av]t ! cata/rophe4 ,9 all 8 previ\s & num]\s illnesses ,i _h nev] dreamt t any special "o 0 fatal4 ,dur+ ! next few ye>s ( s*ool life my psy*ic faculty rema9$ absolutely 9 abeyance4 ,9 a fa%ionable s*ool1 surr\nd$ by *att]+ companions & ! usual p>aph]nalia ( s*ool "w1 classes1 & ma/]s1 etc41 ,i c1 h[ev]1 recall _m a "t :5 sudd5ly ev]y?+ ar\nd me became unreal & ,i alone seem$ to h any true exi/5ce2 & ev5 t 0 = ! "t m]g$ 9 a r unpleasant dream1 f :i* ,i hop$ soon to wake up4 ,?is s5sation 0 q di/9ct f ! "o--also well kn[n to me 9 ^? days & lat]--( hav+ done all ?is be=e1 & kn[+ j :at somebody 0 ab\t to say4 ,probably bo? ^! s5sations are common to mo/ "y p4 ,x w\ld be int]e/+ to note :i* ( ! two is ! m univ]sal4 ,i pass on n[ to ! "t :5 ,i 0 ab\t eighte5 ye>s old1 & a con/ant visitor1 = weeks & mon?s at a "t1 9 ! h\se ( my godfa!r1 ! ar*deacon ( a nor!rn diocese4 ,8 gr&son1 !n a "y /ud5t at ,ox=d1 ( ab\t my own age1 mu/ h be5 :at we %\ld n[ call a v good s5sitive4 ,x 0 ) him t ,i sat at my fir/ table1 m z a matt] ( amusem5t ?an any?+ else1 & c]ta9ly "y ,morton ,fre] treat$ ! spirits 9 ! mo/ cavali] fa%ion4 ,!y did n seem to res5t ?is1 & he c\ld d pretty mu* :at he lik$ ) !m4 ,?is may be a good opportunity = expla9+ t :5 ,i speak 9 ?is n>rative ( spirits ,i d s to save con/ant p]iphrasis1 & am q consci\sly begg+ ! "q v (t51 z a matt] ( v]bal conv5i5ce4 ,9 ^? days ,i don't ?9k we tr\bl$ ourselves mu* ab\t !ories1 & :5 we f\nd t ,morton & ,i alone c\ld move a heavy d9+-room table1 or any o!r piece ( heavy furniture q beyond our normal p[]s1 practically )\t ex]t+ any /r5g? at all1 we look$ ^u x z an amus+ exp]i5ce )\t c>+ to inquire :e!r ! en]gy involv$ _h be5 g5]at$ on ?is side ! veil or on ! o!r side4 ,we c\ld c]ta9ly n h mov$ su* weights "u ord9>y circum/ances1 ev5 by putt+ =? all our comb9$ /r5g?1 & we c\ld only d s1 = "s my/]i\s reason1 :5 we _h be5 sitt+ at ! table be=eh&4 ,+5i\s ,!ories ( ,human ,electricity rais$ to a high] p[] by mak+ a ,human ,batt]y1 etc4 etc41 7 n s common !n z n[1 & we accept$ facts )\t try+ to solve _! problems4 ,! de>1 hospitable ,ar*deacon w\ld put 8 v5]able head inside ! door n[ & !n1 %ake x at u half 9 fun1 & yet a good deal 9 e>ne/1 & ,i ?9k he 0 m ?an d\btful :e!r our p>l\r games 7 q lawful6 ,we 7 v innoc5t & v ignorant 9 ^? days on ! subject ( psy*ic laws2 & probably ?is 0 our salvation1 = ,i c rememb] no t]rible or weird exp]i5ce1 su* z "o reads ( n[adays :5 tyros take to exp]im5ts4 ,& yet my k & exp]i5ces ( lat] days lead me to endorse mo/ he>tily ! well-kn[n dictum ( ,lawr5ce ,oliphant--namely1 t :5 he saw p sitt+ d[n 9 a casual1 irresponsible way to get messages ?r\gh a table1 x rem9d$ him ( an ignorant *ild go+ into a p[d] magaz9e ) a light$ mat* 9 its h&4 ,/ay+ 9 ?is same h\se1 ,i c next recall a fly+ visit f a bro!r ( m9e1 :o _h j sp5t ?ree mon?s1 on leave f ,india1 9 ,am]ica1 :]e he _h tak5 introductions1 & _h be5 ! gue/ ( v>i\s hospitable naval & milit>y m51 :o _h %[n him r\nd ! ,wa%+ton ,ars5al1 ,we/ ,po9t ,academy1 & s =?4 ,my k9d old ho/ _h begg$ him to take u on 8 way back to ,london2 & ,i rememb] well 8 look ( utt] amazem5t :5 ,morton & ,i _h lur$ him to ! table "o aft]noon1 & he 0 told correctly ! names ( two or ?ree ( ^! ,am]ican g5tlem54 ,i mu/ h m5tion$ !m to my si/] 9 my lett]s1 he said1 turn+ to ! y\ng] man4 ,i knew ?is 0 n ! case1 b x 0 difficult to prove a negative4 ,x 0 a relief1 !re=e1 :5 my bro!r sugge/$ :at he consid]$ a real te/1 :]e previ\s k on my "p mu/ be exclud$4 ,let !m tell me ! "n ( a be>] ,i _h once 9 ,india--he liv$ ) me = m ?an twelve ye>s--always return+ to me :5 ,i came back f ,engli% furl\gh1 & yet at ! end ( t "t he sudd5ly disappe>$1 )\t rhyme or reason1 & ,i h nei!r se5 nor he>d ( him s9ce4 ,i "k my si/] has nev] he>d 8 "n4 ,t w\ld be some?+ l a te/1 b1 ( c\rse1 x won't come (f1 he add$ cynically4 ,! we>isome spell+ out began4 ,! table rose up at ,r1 !n at ,a4 ,q wrong1 my bro!r call$ out 9 triumph4 ,i knew h[ x w\ld be :5 any real te/ came4 ,=tunately1 too1 x is wildly wrong--nei!r ! lett] be=e nor ! lett] aft] ! "r "o1 s y _c wriggle out ( x t way4 ,nev] m9d1 ,major ,bates1 said ,morton ,fre] good-natur$ly4 ,let u g on all ! same1 & see :at !y mean to spell out4 ,=tunately1 we did s1 ) a mo/ int]e/+ result2 = ! "r "n 0 giv5 aft] all1 b spelt 9 ! ,h9doo/anee & n ! ,european fa%ion4 ,! "n 9 true ,h9doo/anee 0 ,rm ,dn--b ,europeans spelt x ,rham ,de5--& s my bro!r himself _h entirely =gott5 :5 ! ,a 0 giv5 t x _h any connection ) ! man's "n4 ,:5 ! :ole ^w 0 spelt out1 ( c\rse he rememb]$1 & !n 8 face 0 a /udy6 ,good graci\s6 x is "r en\gh1 & t is ! real ,h9doo/anee spell+1 too4 ,i nev] ?\ght ( t :5 ! ,a came6 ,i ?9k ?is episode knock$ ! bottom out ( 8 scepticism = "s ye>s to come4 ,ev5 n[ ?is case precludes ord9>y & consci\s telepa?y4 ,mr ,podmore w\ld be r$uc$ to expla9+ t ! ,h9doo/anee spell+ 0 lat5t 9 my bro!r's consci\sness1 ?\gh 8 normal self repudiat$ x4 ,ano!r curi\s incid5t--/ill m difficult to expla9 ^u ! ,?\ght ,transf]5ce ,!ory 7unless we /ret* x to include a possible impact ( all ?\ghts1 at all times & f all qu>t]s ( ! globe1 ^u ev]yone else's bra97--occurr$ "u ! same hospitable ro(4 ,"o ( ! ,ar*deacon's nieces came to /ay 9 ! h\se ab\t ?is "t4 ,%e 0 consid]ably my s5ior1 & 0 v k9d to me1 ) ! ?\ghtful k9dness an old] woman c %[ to a s5sitive "y girl4 ,?is awak5$ 9 me an affection :i*1 ,i am ?ankful to say1 /ill exi/s betwe5 u4 ,?is lady 0 consid]ably "u ?irty ye>s old at ! "t1 b to my "y ideas %e seem$ already 9 ! se> & yell[ leaf f ! matrimonial po9t ( view6 ,"o mu/ rememb] h[ diff]5t ! /&>d ( age 0 m ?an ?irty ye>s ago6 ,x 0 also ! "t :5 m>riage 0 look$ ^u n only z ! mo/ desirable1 b z almo/ ! only possible1 c>e] = a woman4 ,s :5 ,morton & ?is lady & ,i 7 sitt+ at ! table 9 ! gloam+ "o ev5+1 ,i said1 ) trembl+ eag]ness3 ,morton1 d ask if ,c>rie w ev] be m>ri$1 = ! case seem$ to me almo/ desp]ate at ! advanc$ age ( tw5ty-sev5 or tw5ty-eight6 ,i mu/ m5tion t = "s occult reason 7:i* ,i h entirely =gott57 ,i tru/$ f]v5tly t a ,hung>ian or ,poli% "n might be giv5 aft] ! satisfactory ,yes _h be5 spelt out1 b1 alas6 no?+ ( ! k9d occurr$4 ,! table began ) a ,d1 & !n successively ,e1 ,h1 ,a1 ,v 7 giv54 ,no "o ev] he>d ( a ,poli% or ,hung>ian "n ( ! k9d1 & ,i rememb] say+ petulantly3 ,oh1 give x up1 ,morton4 ,x's all nons5se6 ,nobody ev] he>d ( a ,mr ,dehav4 ,once m ,morton rescu$ a really good bit ( evid5ce by 8 imp]turbable p]sev]ance4 ,wait a bit6 ,let u see :at is com+1 he said4 ,i took no fur!r p]sonal int]e/ 9 ! exp]im5t4 ,ei!r ,morton conclud$ ! "n 0 f9i%$1 or !re 0 "s confusion 9 gett+ ! next lett]s1 ow+ d\btless to my impetu\s disgu/4 ,anyway1 he w5t on to say3 ,let u ask :]e ! fell[ lives at ! pres5t "t4 ,?is 0 in/antly answ]$ by ,fre%wat]1 & ! fur!r in=mation giv5 t he 0 a wid[]4 ,none ( u knew any man1 m>ri$ or s+le1 :o liv$ at ,fre%wat]1 & ! incid5t 0 relegat$ to ! limbo ( failures4 ,sev]al ye>s lat]1 h[ev]1 my fri5d did m>ry a g5tleman ^: "n 7a v pretty "o7 began ) ! five despis$ lett]s1 & he 0 a wid[]1 & _h be5 liv+ 9 8 own h\se at ,fre%wat] at ! "t m5tion$4 ,%e did n meet him until "s ye>s aft] our curi\s exp]i5ce4 ,ab\t ! same "t1 b 9 ! s\? ( ,engl&1 my att5tion 0 aga9 drawn to metapsy*ics by an exp]i5ce connect$ ) ! dea? ( ! fam\s ,m>quis ( ,ha/+s1 ( horse-rac+ repute4 ,z a "y girl ,i liv$ close to ! ,mote ,p>k at ,maid/one1 :]e 8 si/]1 ! pres5t ,lady ,romney1 0 !n liv+ z ,lady ,con/ance ,m>%am4 ,! ,rev]5d ,david ,dale ,/ew>t & 8 wife 7he 0 ,vic> ( ,maid/one1 & ,i made my home ) !m = "s ye>s aft] leav+ s*ool7 7 fri5ds ( h]s1 & %e sometimes came to see !m 9 a fri5dly way 9 ! morn+4 ,on "o ( ^! occasions1 :5 ,lady ,con/ance _h j return$ f pay+ h] bro!r a visit 9 a small %oot+-box 9 ! ea/]n c\nties 7,i ?9k71 ,mrs ,/ew>t rem>k$ t %e 0 afraid ! *ange _h n done ,lady ,con/ance mu* good1 z %e 0 look+ f> f well4 ,9 ^? days ,lady ,romney 0 an exceptionally /rong & heal?y "y woman4 ,%e said r impati5tly3 ,well1 ! fact is ,i did a v /upid ?+ ! o!r day--,i nev] did su* a ?+ be=e--,i fa9t$ dead away = ! fir/ "t 9 my life4 ,ask$ = ! reason ( ?is1 %e told u t %e & h] husb& & ,"l & ,lady ,ha/+s 7 d9+ quietly "o ev5+ toge!r1 two gue/s :o _h be5 expect$ n hav+ arriv$ by ! tra9 specifi$4 ,look+ up ,brad%aw1 & f9d+ no o!r tra9 t c\ld br+ !m until q late at night1 ! o!r f\r sat d[n to d9n]4 ,s\p & fi% _h already be5 discuss$1 :5 a c>riage 0 he>d driv+ up to ! door1 & !y naturally conclud$ t _! gue/s _h discov]$ "s means ( gett+ across c\ntry by ano!r l9e4 ,"l ,ha/+s said3 ,tell ,colonel & ,mrs ---- t we began d9n]1 ?9k+ !y c\ld n arrive till mu* lat]1 b t we are q alone1 & beg !y w jo9 u z soon z possible4 ,! s]vant w5t to ! door1 prep>$ ) ! message giv51 flung x op5--b no c>riage1 no horses 7 !re6 ,ev]ybody _h he>d x driv+ up1 nev]!less4 ,rememb]+ ! old family leg5d t a c>riage & pair is he>d driv+ up ! av5ue be=e ! head ( ! ,ha/+s family dies1 ,lady ,romney fa9t$ dead away1 v mu* to h] own surprise & mortification2 = %e 01 & d\btless is /ill1 an uncommonly s5sible woman1 q above all sup]/itions4 ,! episode /ruck me z curi\s at ! "t2 b ! impression pass$1 & a few days lat] ,i w5t to pay a visit to fri5ds ( m9e 9 ,buck+ham%ire4 ,soon aft] my arrival ,i happ5$ to m5tion ! /ory1 & 0 mu* laugh$ at z a sup]/iti\s little creature1 to ?9k twice ( su* nons5se4 ,( c\rse1 ev]yone _h be5 mi/ak5 9 suppos+ !y he>d :eels or horses' ho(s--no?+ c\ld be simpl]6 ,& yet be=e ,i left t h\se1 ?ree weeks lat]1 all ! newspap]s 7 full ( long obitu>y notices ( ! ,m>quis ( ,ha/+s4 ,^! 7 s int]e/+ t my fri5d's husb& _h rea*$ ! second long column 9 ,! ,times be=e any ( u rememb]$ my /ory1 :i* _h be5 treat$ ) s mu* contempt4 ,x sudd5ly fla%$ across my m9d3 ,ow56 ,rememb] ! c>riage & pair & h[ y laugh$ at me6 ,!y 7 =c$ to confess x 0 c]ta9ly r odd1 ! usual refuge ( ! psy*ically de/itute6 ,a %ake ( ! kaleidoscope1 & ,i see ano!r incid5t be=e me ( m p]sonal int]e/4 ,at ! "t ( ! outbreak ( ! ,afghan ,w>1 9 ! autumn ( #ahgh1 ,i 0 liv+ ) v old fri5ds 9 ,ox=d4 ,my bro!r ( ! ,rm ,dn incid5t 0 once m 9 ,india1 & _h be5 ,milit>y ,secret>y = "s ye>s at ,lahore to ,sir ,rob]t ,eg]ton1 :o 0 at t "t ,lieut5ant-,gov]nor ( ! ,punjab4 ,:5 ! w> broke out1 my bro!r1 ( c\rse1 w5t (f to jo9 8 regim5t = active s]vice2 b at ! "t ( my exp]i5ce x 0 impossible t he c\ld h rea*$ ! seat ( w>1 & ,i knew ?is well4 ,i 0 9 excell5t spirits ab\t him1 = he _h be5 ?r\gh _m campaigns1 & lov$ active s]vice1 z all good soldi]s d4 ,moreov]1 ,i _h j read a *>m+ lett] :i* ,sir ,rob]t ,eg]ton _h s5t him on resign+ 8 appo9tm5t z ,milit>y ,secret>y to take up m active duty to 8 c\ntry4 ,yet x 0 j at ?is juncture--:51 humanly speak+1 !re 0 no cause = any special anxiety--t ,i woke up "o morn+ ) ! gloomie/ & mo/ mis]able =ebod+s ab\t ?is special bro!r4 ,no?+ ( ! k9d _h ev] occurr$ to me be=e1 ?\gh he _h be5 ?r\gh _m campaigns 9 ,india1 ,*9a1 ,abyss9ia1 & else:]e4 ,x 0 an ov]:elm+ conviction ( "s great & def9ite disa/] to him1 & my fri5ds 9 va9 tri$ to argue me out ( su* an unreasonable t]ror by po9t+ out1 truly en\gh1 t he c\ld n possibly be )9 ! zone ( dang] at t "t4 ,i c\ld only repeat3 ,i "k t some?+ t]rible has happ5$ to him1 :]ev] he is4 ,x may n be dea?1 b x is "s t]rible calamity4 ,i sp5t ! day 9 te>s & 9 absolute despair1 & wrote to tell him ( my conviction4 ,all[+ = diff]5ce ( "t betwe5 ,quetta & ,ox=d1 my m5tal telegram rea*$ me 9 ! same h\r t my bro!r1 :il/ on ! m>*1 & only ?irty miles beyond ,quetta1 0 sudd5ly /ruck d[n 9 8 t5t by ! p>alysis :i* kept him conf9$ to 8 *air--a helpless suff]]--= tw5ty-eight ye>s4 ,p]haps1 n[ t ,i "k s mu* m ( m5tal curr5ts1 ,i might h receiv$ a m def9ite message z reg>ds ! true nature ( ! calamity4 ,x c\ld n h be5 m m>k$1 nor m def9ite z reg>ds ! fact ( x4 ,my condition ( hopeless mis]y oblig$ me to put (f all engagem5ts t day1 & ,i did no?+ b fret & lam5t ov] him1 ) ! exception ( writ+ ! "o lett] m5tion$1 9 :i* ,i told him ( my /range & sad exp]i5ce4 ,9 "t1 ( c\rse1 ! fir/ %>p impression pass$1 & soon a *e]y lett] arriv$ f him1 writt51 ( c\rse1 be=e ! fatal day4 ,my exp]i5ce 9 ,ox=d occurr$ on ! morn+ ( #d? ,decemb] #ahgh4 ,x 0 well on 9 ,janu>y #ahgi be=e ! corroboration arriv$1 9 a lett] writt5 to u by a /rang]4 ,communication 0 delay$ n only by ! w>1 b also by ! fact t my poor bro!r 0 ly+ at ! "t depriv$ ( bo? movem5t & spee*1 & c\ld only spell out lat]1 by ! alphabet1 ! address ( 8 p at home4 ,,*apt] ,,ii ,,inve/igations ,,9 ,,am]ica1 #ahhe-ahhf ,an int]val ( sev5 ye>s occurs betwe5 ! ev5ts record$ 9 ! la/ *apt] & my fir/ visit to ,am]ica1 :i* took place 9 ! autumn ( #ahhe4 ,dur+ ^! ye>s no abnormal exp]i5ces came to me1 nor _h ,i ! smalle/ wi% = any4 ,! table turn+s ) ,morton ,fre] 7 a ?+ ( ! pa/1 & 7 look$ back ^u by me 9 ! light ( a *ildi% amusem5t r ?an any?+ else4 ,q o!r int]e/s _h come into my life1 specially z reg>ds lit]ature & music2 & ,i nev] gave a ?\ght to spooks or spiritualism1 nor did ,i really "k any?+ ab\t ! latt] subject4 ,x is true t on "o occasion a curate at ,great ,m>l[ _h spok5 to me ab\t ,mr ,s4 ,c4 ,hall & 8 rese>*es1 & ,i ?9k he mu/ h giv5 me an introduction to ! de> old man1 = ,i rememb] go+ to see him ) a lady fri5d 7he made a great po9t ( ?is1 some:at to my amusem5t71 & f9d+ a *>m+ old man ) silv] locks1 a f9e head1 & a nice :ite frilly %irt4 ,he spoke ( 8 de> fri5d ,mrs ,j5ck51 :om he consid]$ ! only reliable m$ium1 & %[$ u "s %eets full ( hi]oglyphics1 :i* he said 7 messages obta9$ ?r\gh h] influ5ce f 8 de> wife4 ,x 0 all s mu* ,greek to me 9 ^? days1 & only true sympa?y ) ! poor old man's evid5t lonel9ess & adoration ( 8 wife's memory prev5t$ my mak+ m]ry ov] ! extraord9>y delusions ( ! old g5tleman1 :5 my companion & ,i _h left 8 rooms 9 ,sussex villas4 ,lat]1 ,i liv$ dur+ two ye>s ) ,mrs ,lanke/] & h] daught]s :il/ look+ aft] an invalid bro!r 9 ,london2 & ,i ne$ sc>cely po9t out t con/ant int]c\rse ) ,pr(essor ,ray ,lanke/] 9 8 "m's h\se 0 n calculat$ to enc\rage any psy*ic proclivities1 ev5 _h ^! latt] n be5 entirely lat5t ) me at t "t4 ,i he>d a great deal ab\t ! ,slade exposure1 bo? f ,pr(essor ,lanke/] & 8 fri5d ,dr ,donk91 :o (t5 came to u ) him4 ,:5 arrang+ my ,am]ican t\r 9 #ahhe1 ,mrs ,lanke/] k9dly gave me an introduction to ,mrs ,edna ,hall1 an old fri5d ( !irs1 :o _h be5 liv+ 9 _! h\se dur+ ! :ole p]iod ( ! ,slade trial4 ,?is lady--an ,am]ican--liv$ p]man5tly 9 ,bo/on1 & curi\sly en\gh 79 view ( ! prec$+ facts7 x 0 %e :o p]suad$ ,miss ,gre5l[ & me to att5d our fir/ sance 9 ,bo/on4 ,mrs ,edna ,hall _h hon\r$ ,mrs ,lanke/]'s introduction mo/ hospitably2 b %e 0 too busy a woman to d z mu* = u z h] k9dness sugge/$1 & %e _h !re=e introduc$ u to ano!r fri5d--,mrs ,m>ia ,port]--a mo/ picturesque1 clev]1 & *>act]i/ic figure 9 ,bo/on society 9 ! eighties4 ,bo? ^! ladies accompani$ u to ! ,si/]s ,b]ry4 ,mrs ,edna ,hall _h no sort ( illusions on ! subject4 ,%e said q frankly t %e only took u !re because x 0 a feature ( ,am]ican life :i* we ought n to miss1 & :i* w\ld probably amuse u1 if only by %[+ ! gullibility ( ,human ,nature4 ,"o is always apt to read pa/ exp]i5ces 9 ! light ( pres5t convictions4 ,=tunately1 ,i kept a di>y at ! "t1 & h a fai?ful record ( :at took place1 &1 :i* is /ill m valuable1 ( ! impressions =m$ at ! "t4 ,! extracts connect$ ) ?is sance 9 ,bo/on1 & lat] exp]i5ces 9 ,new ,york1 are tak5 p>tly f my record at ! "t & p>tly f ! *apt] on ,spiritualism 9 ,am]ica1 publi%$ 9 my book entitl$ ,a ,ye> 9 ! ,great ,republic4 ,speak+ ( ?is fir/ sance 9 ,bo/on1 ,i see t ,i h said3 ,i w5t to ! ',si/]s ,b]ry' 9 a v antagoni/ic frame ( m9d1 det]m9$ be=eh& t ! :ole ?+ 0 a sw9dle 7italics are rec5t71 accompani$ by fri5ds :o 7 ev5 m sceptical ?an myself1 if t 7 possible4 ,i g on !n to describe ! usual cab9et1 & pass on to ! foll[+ extract3-- ,an old ,egyptian n[ appe>$1 & a man 9 ! circle1 :o _h be5 sitt+ ne> my fri5d ,miss ,gre5l[ all ! ev5+1 w5t up & spoke to him1 & !n ask$ t ! lady :o _h be5 sitt+ ne> him might come up also1 :i* %e did2 b %e said %e c\ld di/+ui% no features1 & only felt a w>m1 damp h& pass$ ov] h]s4 ,miss ,gre5l[ 0 next call$ up by ! _s ( a "y man :o wi%$ to embrace h]1 b :o 0 f9ally prov$ to be ! dep>t$ fri5d ( ! lady :o sat next to h]4 ,miss ,gre5l[ return$ to h] seat1 furi\s1 decl>+ t x 0 a horrible1 co>se-look+ creature1 unlike anyone %e _h ev] se5 9 h] life4 ,mrs ,port] made valiant attempts to inve/igate ! figures :o came =? at int]vals1 b 0 inv>iably wav$ back by ! ma/] ( ! c]emonies4 ,w t lady k9dly sit d[n8 ,?is _s is n = h]4 ,x wi%es to communicate ) its own fri5ds1 & %e is di/urb+ ! conditions1 & =c+ ! _s back into ! cab9et4 ,!re 7 evid5tly _m old /ag]s !re1 :o flew up l lamp-light]s on e possible occasion1 ) exclamations (3 ,oh1 ,uncle ,*>lie1 is t y8 ,h[ d y d1 ,jem8 & s =?4 ,"o old lady1 9 a mob cap & black g[n1 0 introduc$ z a c]ta9 ,si/] ,m>g>et :o _h taught 9 ,/ ,pet]'s ,s*ool1 ,bo/on4 ,%e came to speak to a =m] pupil1 :o gave h] spirituali/ic exp]i5ces 9 su* rem>kably bad gramm> z reflect$ small cr$it on ,si/] ,m>g>et's tea*+ ( ! ,engli% language4 ,?is girl told u h[ anxi\s %e _h always be5 to see h] old tea*]1 :o _h appe>$ to h] sev]al times 9 ! sance room1 b nev] 9 h] old g>m5ts--a sort ( si/]'s dress4 ,aft] wi%+ v f]v5tly "o night1 ,si/] ,m>g>et appe>$ dress$ 9 mob cap & g[n1 say+3 ,don't y see my dress8 ,i came 9 x at y\r wi%4 ,yes1 answ]$ ! girl2 & ,i ?ank y = gratify+ my wi%4 ,s9ce :i* "t1 %e add$1 ,i h be5 a firm believ] 9 spiritualism4 ,a "y ,fr5* girl1 9 draggly black g>m5ts & a %ock ( ?ick black hair1 !n came =w>d & ru%$ among/ u1 try+ to f9d someone to talk ,fr5* ) h]4 ,my fri5d ,mrs ,hall w5t up fir/1 & !n ,i 0 told to g up & speak to h]4 ,i took hold ( h] h&s1 & grasp$ !m firmly = a mom5t4 ,!y seem$ to be ord9>y fle% & blood1 b ,i am b\nd to confess t !y appe>$ to l5g!n out 9 a some:at abnormal fa%ion :5 ! pressure 0 remov$4 ,h] face 0 v cadav]\s1 & %e spoke 9 a quick1 hurri$ way1 z if "t 7 an object4 ,%e said %e und]/ood a little ,engli%1 b c\ld n speak x4 ,h] "m _h be5 ,fr5*2 h] fa!r an ,indian1 un brave homme4 ,x seem$ to me t a good deal ( kiss+ & embrac+ w5t on4 ,"o old grey-head$ g5tleman 0 con/antly walk+ up to ! cab9et & be+ embrac$ by a :ite figure1 ^: arms we c\ld j see1 ?r[n r\nd 8 neck1 9 ! dim light4 7,i note t ! light "h 0 mu* less ?an ) ,mrs ,/odd>t ,gray 9 ,new ,york47 ,! only excitem5t 0 ! *ance ( "s di/urbance be=e we left2 = ,mrs ,port] became m & m indignant ) ! gross impo/ure1 :i* culm9at$ :5 at l5g? %e 0 call$ up & told t a "y man wi%$ to speak ) h]4 ,%e ass]t$ t x 0 ! mo/ horrible1 gr9n+1 pa9t$ creature :o hiss$ into h] e>s4 ,! ma/] ( ! h\se begg$ h] to be pati5t1 & try to he> :at ! _s wi%$ to say1 b ) a v emphatic ,,no1 ,,no1 ,,no %e resum$ h] seat1 amid/ a g5]al titt] ( laught]4 ,at ! la/ we 7 told t ?ree little girls1 ^: "m sat ne> ! cab9et1 wi%$ to mat]ialise1 b f\nd x difficult to d s1 ow+ to ! abs5ce ( *ildr5 9 ! audi5ce4 ,! "m seem$ v anxi\s to see !m2 b sudd5ly ! gas 0 turn$ up1 & ! sance decl>$ ov]--a v abrupt f9ale to a piece ( unmitigat$ humbug1 ,i %\ld say4 ,^! extracts suffici5tly %[ ! _s 9 :i* ,i ent]$ ^u my inve/igations & ! result ( t _s4 ,i ?9k ev5 ,mr ,podmore w\ld h consid]$ me ?or\ghly s\nd on t fir/ ev5+4 ,i h no d\bt t ! viol5ce ( ,mrs ,port]'s antagonism1 & ! smil+ cynicism ( ,mrs ,hall 9 face ( ! ,am]ican exp]i5ce %e _h propos$ = u1 add$ to my own preconceiv$ prejudices4 ,i am aw>e t ! ,b]ry ,si/]s h be5 expos$1 ?us %>+ ! fate ( all o!r public m$iums4 ,9 ! light ( lat] exp]i5ces1 h[ev]1 ,i feel sure t ,i might h receiv$ some?+ p]sonally evid5tial on ?is occasion _h my attitude ( m9d giv5 hospitality to any possible visitors f ! ,unse54 ,! next extracts f my di>y ref] to a sance :i* we att5d$ 9 ,new ,york a few days aft] our arrival !re1 & "s two or ?ree weeks lat] ?an ! ,bo/on sitt+ already describ$4 ,our /ay 9 ,bo/on _h ext5d$ to ?ree mon?s f ! orig9al =tnight we _h plann$ = ! visit4 ,i _h tak5 a few v good introductions !re3 to ,dr ,oliv] ,w5dell ,holmes1 ,colonel ,w5twor? ,higg9son1 & o!rs ( ! ,bo/on alumni1 & z sev]al receptions _h be5 k9dly arrang$ = u1 & my "n _h appe>$ _m times dur+ ! w9t] 9 v>i\s local pap]s1 x w\ld h be5 easy = ! ,si/]s ,b]ry to f9d out some?+ ab\t me & my companion1 & utilise ! k by fak+ up a conv5i5t _s1 :o c\ld h talk$ glibly ( my lit]>y ta/es1 & s =?4 ,no?+ ( ! sort occurr$1 h[ev]1 al?\gh our fir/ sance only took place a week or two be=e we left ,bo/on1 aft] my ?ree mon?s' /ay !re4 ,?is fact %\ld c]ta9ly be c\nt$ z righte\sness to ! mu* abus$ ,si/]s6 ,x 0 ! m curi\s1 t our fir/ sance 9 ,new ,york1 )9 a few days ( our arrival1 & 9 a metropolis :]e at ! "t we 7 absolute /rang]s1 %\ld h be5 s mu* m successful z reg>ds evid5tial exp]i5ces4 ,i w aga9 quote f my di>y ( #ahhf4 ,! m$ium visit$ on ?is occasion 0 ,mrs ,cadwell1 :o has s9ce di$4 99 99 99 99 99 ,we knew no?+ be=eh& ( ! m$ium1 :o liv$ 9 a small flat 9 an unfa%ionable qu>t]4 ,"s eight p only 7 assembl$ 9 ! extremely small room4 ,all 7 p]fect /rang]s to ,miss ,gre5l[ & me1 b a fanci$ lik5ess 9 "o lady pres5t to a picture ,i _h se5 ( ,mrs ,bee*] ,/[e l$ me to ask if x 7 %e1 & ,i 0 told t my surmise 0 correct4 ,!re 0 no room = a cab9et1 s a curta9 0 hung across a t9y alcove1 j ! ord9>y ar* f\nd 9 mo/ rooms ( ! k9d4 ,:5 ,i w5t beh9d ! curta9 ) ! female m$ium1 be=e ! sitt+ began1 !re 0 b>ely space = u bo? to turn r\nd 94 ,! c>pet on ei!r side ! curta9 0 "o piece4 ,!re 0 absolutely no room = any trap-door ma*9]y1 ev5 c\ld su* h be5 work$ successfully 9 ! p]fect sil5ce 9 :i* we sat1 )9 two feet ( ! alcove4 ,! room 0 ab\t ! size ( ! small back d9+-room 9 an ord9>y ,london lodg+--say 9 ,ox=d or ,cambridge ,t]race1 = example4 ,! m$ium sat among/ u at fir/1 only go+ beh9d ! curta9 aft] a few mom5ts1 :5 %e 0 "u control z x is call$4 ,a little *ild ( h]s1 :o di$ "s ye>s ago at ! age ( f\r1 is suppos$ to help 9 ! mat]ialisations1 b is nev] se5 outside ! curta9s4 ,if %e came out h]self %e w\ld n be able to help ! o!rs to d s4 ,i m5tion ^! ?+s 9 ! words 9 :i* !y 7 told to me1 (f]+ no comm5t1 b putt+ ! case = ! mom5t z spirituali/s w\ld put x4 ,to d ?is1 & !n to give a fai?ful & unprejudic$ acc\nt ( :at took place1 seems to me ! only fair way ( treat+ su* a subject4 ,i 0 told aga9 & aga9 t too mu* conc5tration ( ?\ght on ! "p ( ! audi5ce 0 det]r5t4 ,?is acc\nts = music z an inv>iable accompanim5t ( all su* sitt+s4 ,x seems to h>monise ! circle1 to break up ov]-conc5tration1 & may also1 un=tunately1 s]ve to cov] ! do+s ( di%one/ m$iums4 ,x mu/ n1 h[ev]1 be suppos$ t 9 ?is case ! mat]ialisations w5t on only :il/ we 7 s++4 ,?is might po9t to a possible trap-door !ory1 al?\gh 9 a city :]e flats ab\nd 7rooms1 n human be+s67 !re w\ld /ill be ! difficulty ( gett+ y\r d[n/airs neighb\rs to look k9dly ^u su* proce$+s4 ,z a matt] ( fact1 we 7 (t5 sitt+ 9 absolute sil5ce :5 fre% spirits appe>$4 ,i c corroborate ! ass]tion t too mu* conc5tration ( ?\ght ^u !m proves det]r5t to ! spirits1 = on m ?an "o occasion ,i he>d a voice f ! curta9 or cab9et say+3 ,d get ! p's m9ds (f u2 we c d no?+ :il/ !y are fix$ ^u u s int5sely1 z ?\gh ?\ght 9 _s life correspond$ to "s physical ob/acle on ! e>? plane4 ,! fir/ _s :o came 7! daught] ( an old g5tleman sitt+ ne> me7 intimat$ ?r\gh him t %e w\ld l me to g up & help h] to mat]ialise ! :ite veil :i* all 9 turn wore1 & :i*1 ?\gh p]fectly transp>5t1 is consid]$ a necess>y %ield betwe5 !m & ! e>?'s influ5ces2 on ! same pr9ciple1 ,i suppose1 t we put on blue spectacles to protect u f ! bl9d+ rays ( ! sun4 ,%e came out f ! alcove1 held bo? h] h&s 9 front ( h]1 turn+ !m backw>d & =w>d t ,i might be satisfi$ t no?+ 0 conceal$ 9 !m4 ,! s(t1 cl++ mat]ial ( h] g[n end$ high up on ! %\ld]s1 s !re 7 no sleeves to be reckon$ )4 ,i /ood close ov] h]1 hold+ out my own dress1 & z %e rubb$ h] h&s to & fro a sort ( :ite lace or net came f !m1 l a foam1 & lay ^u my g[n :i* ,i 0 hold+ up t[>ds h]4 ,i t\*$ ?is mat]ial1 & held x 9 my h&s4 ,x _h sub/ance1 b 0 light z gossam]1 & q unlike any /uff ,i ev] saw 9 a %op4 ,! v s(te/ gossam] tulle t old ladies sometimes produce z hav+ belong$ to _! gr&mo!rs is p]haps ! ne>e/ approa* to :at ,i !n lift$ 9 my h&s1 b ev5 ?is does n accurately describe x4 ,:5 long en\gh %e took up ! veil1 unfold$ x1 cov]+ h] head ) x1 & say+ v graci\sly ,?ank y to me4 ,o!r spirits n[ appe>$ = ! o!r p 9 ! room1 :o conv]s$ ) !m 9 l[ tones4 ,all ^! _h evid5tly mat]ialis$ be=e & c\ld consequ5tly speak ) comp>ative ease4 ,"o1 call$ ! ,angel ,"m 7! "m ( ! m$ium71 answ]$ que/ions on ! _s life 9 a l\d ,am]ican voice1 prefac+ e rem>k1 :e!r to man or woman1 by an affectionate ,well1 de-ar6 ,h] answ]s %[$ consid]able %rewdness1 b n mu* dep?1 & 7 (t5 r wide ( ! m>k4 ,nels ,seym\r 7:o appe>s to h belong$ to a sort ( ,*ri/y ,m9/rel ,company ov] "h7 crack$ jokes all ! "t ) a g5tleman among/ ! audi5ce 9 a good-natur$ b flippant & v unspiritual mann]1 & ev5 ! ladies jo9$ 9 ! undignifi$ punn+ & play ^u words t w5t on all ! "t4 ,! little *ild's voice came 9 z a relief e n[ & !n4 ,%e spoke brok51 *ildi% ,engli%1 b us$ ! expressions ( a gr[n-up p]son4 ,%e describ$ sev]al spirits z *y+ 7try+7 to come1 b n be+ /rong en\gh4 ,i 0 becom+ dr[sy1 & r tir$ ( ! p]=mance1 :5 my att5tion 0 once m ar\s$ by he>+ t a v beautiful female _s1 ) a diamond /> 9 h] =ehead1 _h appe>$ & ask$ = me1 say+ %e _h be5 a fri5d ( m9e on e>?1 & wi%$ to communicate ) me4 ,?is 0 convey$ to me by ! little *ild's voice1 ! _s h]self n hav+ yet em]g$ f ! curta92 b ! m$ium's husb& look$ beh9d x1 & told me ( ! diamond />1 :i* he said 0 "s ord] 9 _s life4 ,hav+ no idea :o ! fri5d might be1 ,i begg$ = "s fur!r p>ticul>s be=e go+ up to speak to h]4 ,%e pass$ f e>? life ab\t five ye>s ago1 & 9 ,g]many1 answ]$ ! m$ium's husb&1 :o _h conduct$ ! conv]sation beh9d ! curta94 ,?is 0 less vague1 & n[ = ! fir/ "t a suspicion ( ! _s's id5tity cross$ my m9d2 b ,i w\ld n g up until a "n _h be5 giv51 & ,i ask$ = ?is be=e leav+ my seat4 ,my travell+ companion--a rec5t acqua9tance--_h nev] he>d me m5tion ! lady 9 "q1 :o _h di$ 9 ,g]many at ! "t specifi$4 ,! little *ild said ! _s w\ld give ! "n ?r\gh h]1 & ! process 0 a curi\s "o4 ,in/ead ( m5tion+ ! :ole "n or ea* lett] ( x to h] fa!r1 ! *ild describ$ ea* lett] to him z y might describe ! l9es ( ! l>ge capitals 9 a *ild's read+-book4 ,! fa!r guess$ ! lett] f ! *ild's description1 & ask$ me if ! fir/ "o 7 correct8 ,x 02 b ,i did n tell him s1 m]ely say+ ,i %\ld l to h ! ,*ri/ian "n 9 full be=e giv+ any op9ion4 ,9 due "t ! six lett]s 7,muriel1 we w call x7 7 correctly giv51 & ,i _h !n no fur!r excuse = refus+ to speak to ! _s4 ,i w5t up to ! curta91 & %e appe>$ 9 front ( x4 ,i h be5 frequ5tly ask$3 ,%\ld y h recognis$ h] z y\r fri5d _h no "n be5 giv58 ,) e wi% to be p]fectly tru?ful1 ,i f9d x difficult to answ] ?is "q1 = ! foll[+ reason3--,none ( ! mat]ialisations ,i saw 7 exactly human 9 face4 ,!re 0 no idea ( a mask or clev] get up1 b if "o c\ld accept ! !ory ( a body ha/ily put toge!r & assum$ = a "t1 ! result is exactly :at might h be5 expect$ "u ! circum/ances4 ,my fri5d 9 real life 0 v pale1 & _h exquisitely *isell$ features1 & ! ones ,i n[ look$ ^u 7 ( ! same ca/4 ,! height 0 also simil>1 & an indescribable atmosph]e ( ref9em5t1 purity1 & quiet dignity1 = :i* %e _h be5 rem>kable2 all ?is 0 pres5t ) ?is mat]ialisation4 ,m ?an ?is ,i _c say1 = no mat]ialisation ,i h ev] se5 c\ld be tru?fully consid]$ id5tical ) ! human orig9al4 ,i did n feel fright5$1 b ,i did feel emb>rass$1 & naturally s1 consid]+ h[ unwill+ & grudg+ my recognition ( h] individuality mu/ h appe>$4 ,%e seem$ consci\s ( ?is1 = almo/ imm$iately %e m5tion$ h] h&s1 hold+ !m out = inspection1 & say+3 ,don't y rememb] my h&s8 ,i 0 s pr\d ( my h&s6 ,n[1 z a matt] ( fact1 my fri5d 0 not$ = h] beautiful h&s1 b %e 0 too s5sible & clev] a woman to h be5 conceit$ ab\t !m1 & _h too mu* good ta/e ev] to h made _! beauty a subject ( rem>k1 ev5 to an intimate fri5d4 ,moreov]1 ! h&s n[ en vid5ce1 al?\gh well %ap$ & ) tap]+ f+]s1 7 z little id5tical ) a human h& z ! face 0 id5tical ) a human face4 ,ca/+ ab\t = some?+ to say to h]1 my fir/ ?\ght 0 = an only & de>ly lov$ m>ri$ si/] ( h]s1 also a fri5d ( m9e1 & ,i m5tion$ ! latt] 9 a gu>d$ way1 say+3 ,if y are 9 reality my fri5d1 h y no message = y\r si/]8 ,9 a mom5t1 & )\t ! slighte/ hesitation1 %e said3 ,tell poor ,jessie1 go+ on ) a message peculi>ly appropriate to ! facts ( ! case1 b ( mu* too private a nature = publication4 ,almo/ imm$iately aft]w>ds1 & ) no %ad[ ( sugge/ion f me1 %e add$3 ,poor ,jessie6 ,%e suff]$ t]ribly :5 ,i pass$ away s sudd5ly4 ,my fri5d _h di$ 9 a =eign c\ntry1 "u peculi>ly sad circum/ances4 ,%e 0 "y1 beautiful1 & accompli%$2 a prom95t local figure 9 ! well-kn[n capital :]e %e _h sp5t sev]al w9t]s4 ,h] dea? 0 s sudd5 t !re 0 n ev5 "t to put (f a l>ge aft]noon ,at ,home arrang$ = t day4 ,moreov]1 ?is si/]1 by a mo/ m]ciful *ance1 happ5$ to be sp5d+ a few mon?s ) h]1 out ( ,engl&1 at ! "t4 ,^! 7 all special facts1 spontane\sly ref]r$ to by h]1 b :i* w\ld n h appli$ equally well to ! dea? ( any o!r fri5d1 ev5 suppos+ su* a dea? to h occurr$ abroad4 ,! _s spoke feebly & ) difficulty1 n hav+ mu* /r5g?1 %e told me4 ,i ask$ if h] fa!r 7:o _h di$ a few mon?s previ\sly7 7 ) h]4 ,n yet1 %e said g5tly2 b ,i "k t he has pass$ ov]4 ,%e !n kiss$ my h&1 & fad$ away be=e my eyes1 n app>5tly return+ to ! curta9 7close to :i* ,i /ood71 b vani%+ into ?9 air4 ,"s t5 days lat] my fri5d & ,i w5t aga9 to an ev5+ sance at ! same h\se1 diff]5t p be+ pres5t on ?is occasion4 ,a /upid1 un9tellig5t sceptic woman put u all out ( h>mony by mak+ inane sugge/ions1 always decl>+ t %e w\ld n = ! _w int]f]e ) ! conditions1 b do+ s all ! same4 ,! ,angel ,"m came aga91 & r lo/ h] temp]1 ,i ?\ght1 ) an aggravat+1 illogical man 9 ! circle1 :o hamm]$ away ab\t ,f>aday's op9ions on ! _s _w )\t mu* idea ( :at he 0 talk+ ab\t4 ,nels ,seym\r appe>$1 z well z spoke1 ?is "t4 ,he took my h& & kiss$ x2 b he does n leave ! cab9et1 z he is ! control4 ,x 0 elev5 ye>s on ?is day s9ce he _h pass$ ov]1 s he call$ x 8 bir?day4 ,a v beautiful female _s mat]ialis$ & (f]$ to sit on my lap2 an (f] ,i clos$ ) at once4 ,%e 0 "s five feet eight in*es 9 height1 & a l>ge1 well-develop$ woman4 ,anticipat+ ! possibility ( h] re/+ h] feet on ! gr\nd1 & s conceal+ h] real weight1 ,i mov$ my own feet f ! gr\nd ! mom5t %e sat d[n1 :i* 0 easily done1 z my *air 0 a high "o4 ,%e rema9$ = sev]al m9utes 9 ?is position1 re/+1 ( necessity1 h] :ole weight ^u me1 :i* 0 ab\t equal to t ( a small kitt5 or a lady's muff1 9 ! days :5 small muffs 7 9 fa%ion4 ,!re 0 an appreciable weight1 b ,i h nev] nurs$ any baby t 0 n f> heavi]4 ,! veil ?is "t 0 mat]ialis$ 9 ! usual way1 my fri5d go+ up to wat* ! process4 ,my _s fri5d appe>$ aga91 & m /rongly ?is "t4 ,at a public sance1 :]e s _m are eag] to communicate ) _! fri5ds1 x is impossible to monopolise m ?an a few m9utes ( ! public "t1 & consequ5tly any communications are z hurri$ & unsatisfactory z a conv]sation ) an intimate fri5d 9 ! public read+-room ( a hotel w\ld be4 99 99 99 99 99 ,i pass ov] ano!r mo/ excell5t & evid5tial incid5t z a concession to family prejudice4 ,x has already appe>$ 9 my book on ,am]ica entitl$ ,a ,ye> 9 ! ,great ,republic1 & may be f\nd !re4 99 99 99 99 99 ,at a ?ird mat]ialis+ sance at ! same h\se an excitable ,italian fri5d ( m9e1 :o _h nev] se5 any?+ ( ! k9d be=e1 came ) mu* ! same prejudices z ,i _h felt at ! ,bo/on sance1 & di/urb$ ! conditions v mu* by 8 attitude ( det]m9$ antagonism2 :il/ 8 comp>ative ignorance ( ,engli%1 & my feeble ,italian1 made explanations1 "u ! circum/ances1 r hopeless4 ,! :ole circle 0 put out ( h>mony1 & a dead weight lay ^u u all4 ,! mat]ialisations cont9u$1 x is true2 b p]sonally x 0 a great relief to me :5 my excitable fri5d left1 decl>+ t ev]y?+ he _h se5 0 physiquem5t impossible mon ange4 ,he dep>t$ s abruptly z to br+ d[n mu* abuse ^u 8 abs5t head = hav+ brok5 ! batt]y & almo/ kill$ ! m$ium by 8 sudd5 disappe>ance f ! circle4 ,?is awful ?reat _h s mu* p[] ov] ! re/ ( ! p>ty t we sat out to ! bitt] end1 leav+ ! m$ium at la/ /ill 9 h] trance1 ) husb& & son hov]+ ov] h] 9 an anxiety :i*1 if act$1 %[$ fir/-class dramatic p[]4 ,mean:ile ,i _h made ! acqua9tance ( a v beautiful & *>m+ woman 9 ,new ,york1 to :om ,i _h br\ght a lett] ( introduction4 ,%e has _h a tragic & rem>kable hi/ory2 is a woman ( great m5tal p[]s1 9 addition to v rem>kable beauty2 & is ( ! highe/ rank1 be+ an ,au/rian pr9cess1 ,i believe1 9 h] own "r1 & hav+ sp5t h] y\? 9 =eign c\rts4 ,ap>t f ^! facts1 :i* _h be5 told me by a mutual fri5d be=e we met1 ,i knew no?+ :atev] ( h] family hi/ory1 nor :e!r %e _h bro!rs or si/]s1 alive or dead4 ,i _h spok5 to h] ( my curi\s exp]i5ces1 & %e _h discuss$ ! matt] ) me f ! /&po9t ( a ?or\gh woman ( ! _w1 ( /rong m5tal p[]1 :o _h se5 too mu* ( life to be dogmatic or n>r[ 9 h] views1 b too mu* also to believe 9 :at is call$ ! sup]natural1 be=e e possible natural hypo!sis _h be5 admitt$ & dismiss$ z unt5able4 ,sitt+ 9 h] pretty room ! day be=e ,i left ,new ,york1 we _h talk$ = "s two h\rs on v>i\s subjects connect$ ) life & lit]ature1 & be=e ! f9al adieux %e said laugh+ly3 ,well1 h y be5 to any m sances8 ,i said ,no1 & t we did n int5d to d s1 z our "t 0 n[ s %ort4 ,a few mom5ts ( c>eless talk on ! subject ensu$1 & pick+ up a newspap]1 ,i ca/ my eye ov] ! usual li/ ( m$iums1 clairvoyants1 etc4 ,a half-def9$ wi% to see :e!r any _s fri5d w\ld come to me "u totally diff]5t conditions & surr\nd+s1 & 9 an entirely diff]5t qu>t] ( ! city1 l$ to my copy+ out "o ( ! addresses at haphaz>d4 ,i c\ld n prevail ^u my ho/ess to accompany me 7%e is delicate1 & dreads night air71 b ,i took ! slip ( pap] to my hotel1 ?9k+ t my fri5d !re might c>e to take ! c>s aft] d9n] to ?is di/ant end ( ! city4 ,my ,engli% companion prov$ r indiff]5t & dis9cl9$ t[>ds ! exp$ition4 ,?is 0 v natural4 ,%e 0 n magnetic 9 temp]am5t1 & _h no expectation ( see+ any ( h] own fri5ds1 al?\gh1 ( c\rse1 %e _h bo? se5 & spok5 to ^? :o came = me4 ,h[ev]1 a good d9n] at ! excell5t ,w9dsor ,hotel =tifi$ u s mu* aft] our fatigues t at ! la/ mom5t we agre$ to make "o m attempt1 no "o1 ourselves includ$1 hav+ kn[n five m9utes previ\sly t we %\ld leave ! h\se4 ,on ?is occasion we 7 u%]$ into a mu* m impos+ draw+-room1 & ! lady h]self 0 evid5tly "s degrees high] 9 ! social scale ?an our fir/ m$iumi/ic fri5d4 ,! arrangem5ts also 7 q diff]5t4 ,z we sat wait+ = a few m9utes 7hav+ arriv$ v punctually71 ,mrs ,gray look$ at my fri5d1 & !n describ$ an eld]ly lady ) grey hair :o 0 /&+ ov] h]1 b1 ( c\rse1 invisible to our eyes4 ,almo/ imm$iately ,mrs ,gray began rubb+ h] knees1 & compla9$ ( pa9 9 !m1 add+3 ,! impression ( dropsy is be+ convey$ to me4 ,?is _s seems to h suff]$ f disease ( t nature4 ,my fri5d--:o 0 v self-conta9$ & unemotional--gave no clue to ! fact t %e recognis$ anyone by ?is description1 b z we 7 return+ home 9 ! c>s %e said quietly3 ,x is curi\s ,mrs ,gray %\ld h describ$ t old lady ) grey hair--,i suppose %e meant my "m4 ,%e _h grey hair1 & di$ ( dropsy4 ,on my expo/ulat+ ) ?is lady = hav+ giv5 ! impression t %e did n recognise ! description at ! "t %e said1 ) consci\s pride3 ,y don't suppose ,i 0 go+ to let ! woman "k t %e _h describ$ my "m8 ,to give a false impression 9 s good a cause z det]m9$ incr$ulity1 seems n only ju/ifiable1 b actually praisewor?y to _m m9ds4 ,lat] 9 ! ev5+1 ! sance be+ 9 full sw+1 a _s dress$ 9 "s k9d ( :ite si/]'s dress appe>$ at ! door ( ! cab9et2 & ,mrs ,/odd>t ,gray ask$ if anyone 9 ! circle c\ld speak ,g]man1 z ?is _s did n seem to und]/& ,fr5*1 ,italian1 or ,engli%1 & %e h]self only recognis$ ,g]man by ! s\nd4 ,a g5tleman volunte]$ 8 assi/ance1 b app>5tly )\t mu* effect1 & be+ a ,g]man s*ol>1 ,i !n (f]$ to come to ! rescue4 ,! mom5t ,i w5t up to ! figure %e seem$ to ga9 /r5g?1 & came q out ( ! cab9et1 & said to me 9 ! mo/ ref9$ ,g]man 7any read]s :o h /udi$ ! language "k t !re is z wide a diff]5ce betwe5 ! highe/ & l[e/ type ( ,g]man acc5t z betwe5 an educat$ ,iri% acc5t & an ,iri% brogue73 ,i* b9 die s*we/] von ,madame ,s*ewits*1 m5tion+ ! "n ( ! =eign fri5d ) :om ,i _h be5 sp5d+ t aft]noon3 ,i* weisz das ,sie ,heute ,na* mittag bei me9] s*we/] w>54#a #a ,translation3 ,i am ! si/] ( ,madame ,s*ewits*--,i "k t y sp5t ?is aft]noon ) my si/]4 ,%e _h evid5tly a /rong1 almo/ ov]:elm+ desire to make "s communication to me = h] si/]1 b ! difficulty 9 do+ s seem$ equally /rong4 ,x lay beyond ! "q ( language4 ,%e spoke ) suffici5t /r5g?1 & ,i c\ld und]/& p]fectly h] well-*os5 & well-pron\nc$ words4 ,b "s insup]able ob/acle seem$ to prev5t h] tell+ me :at %e wi%$ to convey1 & ! despair+ attempt to surm\nt ?is 0 pa9ful 9 ! extreme4 ,i assur$ h] ( my will+ness to help 9 any way possible1 & made a few sugge/ions1 b all 9 va94 ,is x t y are n happy8 ,no--no6 ,t is n x4 ,x seem$ to me "s sort ( w>n+ :i* %e wi%$ to convey1 & _h "s connection ) illness1 = ! words a*tung & krankheit 7w>n+ & illness7 7 repeat$ m ?an once1 b no def9ite message came4 ,i !n ask$ if %e c\ld write x1 & %e caught eag]ly at ! idea4 ,s ,i borr[$ a p5cil & "s pap]1 & plac$ !m on a small table 9 ! middle ( ! room1 ) a *air 9 front ( x4 ,%e came q close to ! table 7five gas burn]s 7 m ?an half turn$ on1 s !re 0 pl5ty ( light71 sat d[n1 & took up ! p5cil1 b almo/ imm$iately ?rew x d[n aga91 say+ 9 a mo/ unhappy & despair+ voice3 ,ne96 ne96 ,i* kann es selb/ ni*t s*reib56#b & vani%$ be=e my v eyes z %e rose f ! table4 ,n[ _h ?is be5 a case ( fraud1 & suppos+ t "s woman _h means ( discov]+ ! "n ( my ,new ,york fri5d & ! fact ( my hav+ sp5t t v aft]noon ) h]1 :at w\ld h be5 easi] ?an to write or give "s commonplace message 9 a language ( :i* %e _h already prov$ h]self mi/ress8 #b ,translation3 ,no6 no6 ,i _c ev5 write x6 ,! episode 0 s pa9ful t ,i decid$ n to write to ,madame ,s*ewits* ab\t x4 ,i h !re=e no absolute corroboration ( ! fact t ! lady m5tion$ _h a si/] :o became a nun1 or :o 0 connect$ ) "s su* e/abli%m5t1 & _h pass$ ov]4 ,?is1 h[ev]1 is mu* m probable ?an n1 because 9 e high-born ,ca?olic family 9 ,au/ria1 "o memb] 9 a l>ge family almo/ inv>iably takes ! veil4 ,i h giv5 ! real "n 9 ?is case1 hop+ ,madame ,s*ewits* may p]*ance come across my book1 & supply ! in=mation ne$$4 ,i may rem>k1 f9ally1 t ?ree or f\r mon?s lat]1 :il/ travell+ 9 ,cali=nia1 ,i he>d f my excitable & sceptical ,italian fri5d 7:o _h giv5 me ! introduction to ,madame ,s*ewits*7 t ?is lady _h _h a long & mo/ s]i\s illness dur+ my abs5ce 9 ! ,we/1 & t h] husb& & he _h bo? fe>$ %e w\ld nev] recov] f x4 ,?is fe>1 =tunately1 prov$ to be gr\ndless4 ,to return to ! sitt+4 ,ab\t tw5ty m9utes aft] ! si/] _h disappe>$1 a figure 9 :ite came =w>d v swiftly1 & )\t a mom5t's hesitation po9t$ t[>ds me1 say+ quickly3 ,= y4 ,i w5t up at once1 recognis+ :o x 01 b det]m9$ to give no sign ( ?is fact4 ,! _s look$ at me = a mom5t ) surprise1 z "o might look at any well-kn[n fri5d :o pass$ u 9 ! /reet )\t a greet+4 ,z ,i rema9$ sil5t %e :isp]$3 ,don't y "k me8 ,i am afraid ,i gave ! false impression ?is "t1 & ask$ h] = h] "n4 ,:y1 ,i am ,muriel6 came ! in/ant answ]1 m5tion+ ! "n ( ! fir/ fri5d :o _h appe>$ to me1 aft] spell+ out h] "n1 at ! previ\s sances held 9 ano!r "p ( ,new ,york4 ,on ?is ?ird appe>ance my _s fri5d ask$ me to kiss h]4 ,i mu/ confess t ,i compli$ ) "s am\nt ( trepidation1 :i* prov$ to be q unnecess>y4 ,!re 0 no?+ ! lea/ repulsive to ! t\*1 al?\gh x 0 n exactly l kiss+ anyone on e>?2 b an indescribable atmosph]e ( fre%ness & purity1 :i* seem$ always to surr\nd ?is fri5d :il/ liv+1 0 v app>5t "u ^! *ang$ conditions4 ,ano!r curi\s little po9t is t ,i _h entirely =gott5 my fri5d's love ( violets 7%e always wore !m :5 possible1 & us$ violet sc5t7 until ,i smelt !m di/9ctly :il/ speak+ to h]4 ,x mu/ be rememb]$ t until ! day ( ! sitt+1 we _h nev] dream$ ( go+ to ,mrs ,gray's h\se1 nor _h we ev5 he>d h] "n4 ,i pick$ x out ( a newspap] by *ance--among/ at lea/ ?irty o!rs4 ,until pa/ sev5 o'clock t ev5+ we _h n decid$ to visit h]1 & ! sance began at eight ,p4,m41 no s+le p]son 9 ! room be+ pres5t :o _h be5 at ! h\se ( ! o!r m$ium "s weeks previ\sly4 ,"u ^! circum/ances x w\ld be difficult to acc\nt = ! fact ( my fri5d's reappe>ance on ! gr\nd ( collusion betwe5 ! two m$iums4 ,moreov]1 su* collusion w\ld n acc\nt = ! appe>ance e>li] 9 ! ev5+ ( a _s claim+ to be ! si/] ( ,madame ,s*ewits*4 ,no "o hi!rto has be5 able to sugge/ any intellig5t explanation ( my p]sonal exp]i5ces on ^! occasions4 ,conjur+ tricks & trap doors are1 ( c\rse1 trott$ out by ! un9tellig5t sceptic1 b ^! d n meet ! difficulty ( an accurate k ( names & ( family matt]s ( comp>atively small importance4 ,z ,i am j n[ *iefly conc]n$ ) pres5t+ incid5ts 9 my life r ?an 9 pros+ ov] !m1 ,i resi/ ! temptation to g fur!r into ! "q ( ,mat]ialisations ei!r f ! hi/orical or e?ical po9t ( view1 & pass on to ! subject ( clairvoyance4 ,,*apt] ,,ii--cont9u$ ,,inve/igations ,,9 ,,am]ica1 #ahhe-ahhf ,9 speak+ ( clairvoyance ,i %all aga9 h rec\rse to my notes tak5 at ! "t ( my ,am]ican visit & on ! spot4 ,i am q conv9c$ t :]e a life has be5 9 any way ev5tful or at all m>k$1 any fairly develop$ clairvoyant c 9 "s way s5se y\r m5tal & moral atmosph]e4 ,9 "s ?ree or f\r p]sonal cases1 ! notes tak5 at ! "t ( su* visits1 paid sev]al ?\s&s ( miles ap>t1 might almo/ be read z descriptive ( ! same int]view1 ) diff]5t witnesses4 ,my travell+ companion1 :o _h l$ a v unev5tful life1 seem$ to puzzle !m mu* m4 ,!re 0 app>5tly no?+ to lay hold (1 & only a v %ad[y1 indi/9ct picture 0 giv5 9 consequ5ce4 ,9 my own case ! col\rs 7 put on freely1 firmly1 & )\t ! lea/ hesitation1 & 9 e s+le in/ance ! sket* 0 rem>kably tru?ful1 & yet w\ld n h describ$ ! life ( "o o!r woman 9 ?ree or f\r hundr$4 ,t !re is a good deal ( guesswork done ev5 "u ! suppos$ influ5ce ( trance is q evid5t to me4 ,i am n prep>$ to say t su* trances 7 9 no case g5u9e1 b ! rem>ks made dur+ !m 7 frequ5tly ( a t5tative nature1 & ! slighte/ good hit 0 foll[$ up ) z mu* +5uity z ,sir ,ri*>d ,ow5 display$ 9 putt+ toge!r 8 skeleton f a s+le bone4 ,i 0 told "s six or sev5 times t my "m 7:o di$ dur+ my infancy7 0 my gu>dian _s1 & six times h] "n 0 giv5 to me1 ) "s difficulty 9 "o or two cases1 b inv>iably )\t ! smalle/ guess+ on ! "p ( ! clairvoyant or any h9t f me4 ,"o ( my mo/ successful int]views 9 ,new ,york 0 ) a ,mrs ,p>ks ( ,philadelphia--a v pleasant1 good-look+1 heal?y woman1 q unlike ! usual cadav]\s m$ium ) :om "o is m famili>4 ,h] t]ms be+ r high] ?an ^? usually ask$ 9 ,am]ica 7:]e competition has made m$iums a *eap luxury71 ,i demurr$ at fir/2 ^u :i* %e said brightly3 ,well1 don't come if y don't feel l pay+ t2 b ,i nev] alt] my prices4 ,b ,i won't take y\r money if ,i don't give y satisfaction4 ,"s get satisfaction f "o p]son & "s f ano!r--y w soon see if ,i am tell+ y ! tru? ab\t y\r fri5ds1 & ,i won't take a p5ny f y if y are dissatisfi$4 ,i left ! h\se say+ ,i w\ld ?9k x ov]1 & ,mrs ,p>ks did n at all press me to come1 & f my mann] c\ld h>dly h expect$ to see me4 ,i _h a mo/ satisfactory int]view ) h] next day4 ,aft] ref]r+ to my "m's pres5ce1 & giv+ h] "n )\t any hesitation1 %e gave me sev]al messages ) reg>d to "* :i* 7 s+ul>ly appropriate1 & f9i%$ up by say+3 ,y\r "m does n wi% y to g to m$iums or mix y\rself too mu* up ) su* p]sons4 ,x is n necess>y = y to d s2 %e says y h en\gh m$iumi/ic p[] = h] to be able to communicate ) y directly4 ,i c\ld n help say+3 ,well1 ,mrs ,p>ks1 y are go+ v mu* aga9/ y\r own int]e/s 9 giv+ me ?is message4 ,i am a p]fect /rang] to y 9 ?is city4 ,i h told y t ,i am mak+ "s little /ay "h1 & z y h giv5 me s mu* satisfaction ,i might h be5 induc$ to come & see y sev]al times aga9 be=e leav+4 ,%e laugh$1 & answ]$3 ,t is q true2 b ,i am an hone/ woman1 & ,i am b\nd to give y ! message t is giv5 to me = y1 ev5 :5 x goes aga9/ my int]e/4 ,see+ h] bright1 pleasant home1 ) e trace ( com=t ab\t x1 & hav+ receiv$ p]sonal pro( t money alone 0 n h] consid]ation1 ,i c\ld n help ask+ :y %e cont9u$ su* an ardu\s life4 ,well1 %e answ]$1 ! tru? is t ,i d x n[ aga9/ my own wi%4 ,my husb& has always object$ to x m or less4 ,he 0 afraid x might injure my heal?1 & = two ye>s ,i gave x up entirely4 ,b1 %e add$1 ! spirits w\ld n leave me alone4 ,x seem$ z if ,i _h to come back to x1 z if ,i 7 refus+ to use ! p[]s t _h be5 giv5 to me = ! help & com=t ( my fell[-creatures4 ,i "n a high] price ?an o!rs1 to limit my "w & to keep away ^? :o w\ld only come f idle curiosity4 ,%e also told me t sometimes %e _h to give ord]s be=eh& t c]ta9 p %\ld n be admitt$ on any pretext :atev]4 ,i c see _! spirits r\nd !m be=e !y rea* ! door v (t51 & ,i w\ld n h su* p1 br++ su* an atmosph]e into my h\se--no1 n if !y gave me a hundr$ doll>s = ea* sitt+4 ,i mu/ m5tion "o m incid5t connect$ ) ?is p]iod ( my inve/igations1 because x ?r[s a /rong light on "s obscure problems4 ,:il/ consult+ ^! clairvoyants1 9 widely diff]5t p>ts ( ,am]ica1 two v ne> relatives ( m9e 7 almo/ inv>iably describ$1 & ! names--"o male & "o female--7 g5]ally giv54 ,! m$iums inv>iably w5t on to say t ! female _s 0 fur!r on 9 developm5t ?an ! male _s4 ,n[ !re 7 circum/ances :i* made ?is /atem5t1 view$ f ?is _w's /&po9t1 n only absolutely mi/ak51 b almo/ ludicr\sly s4 ,! woman's nature _h be5 a f> m faulty "o--m impetu\s1 less balanc$1 & s =?4 ,! male _s describ$ _h be5 a man ( v exceptional "* & spirituality1 :il/ on e>?4 ,9 spite ( ^! facts ! same mi/ake1 z ,i consid]$ x1 _h consi/5tly be5 made by e clairvoyant :o describ$ !m2 :i*1 by-!-by1 rules out telepa?y z an explanation ( ^! special exp]i5ces4 ,x c]ta9ly seem$ /range t aft] giv+ accurate descriptions ( ! two relatives ref]r$ to--names includ$--ea* clairvoyant %\ld make exactly ! same mi/ake ^u s obvi\s a matt] z ! "q involv$4 ,"s mon?s lat]1 9 ! c\rse ( my travels1 ,i f\nd myself at ,d5v] 9 ,colorado4 ,we /ay$ "h1 at fir/1 "o day only1 to break our j\rney f>!r up into ! ,rocky ,m\nta9s4 ,! previ\s day1 :5 w&]+ ab\t ,colorado ,spr+s1 my fri5d & ,i _h come across a lady doctor by *ance2 & hav+ ask$ "s trivial "q1 we 7 invit$ into h] pretty little h\se1 :]e we *att$ = half-an-h\r on v>i\s subjects--includ+ spiritualism4 ,we gave no acc\nt ( our exp]i5ces1 b simply m5tion$ ! fact t we _h "s int]e/ 9 ! inve/igation4 ,he>+ ?is1 & t we 7 go+ on to ,d5v] next day1 ?is lady gave me ! address ( a "y m>ri$ fri5d :o liv$ 9 t city1 & :o _h dur+ ! previ\s two ye>s sudd5ly develop$ /rong m$iumi/ic p[]1 b 0 9 no way a pr(essional4 ,%e begg$ u to call if possible1 & ,i took d[n ! address1 b said x 0 v d\btful if we c\ld d s 9 ! %ort "t we %\ld h at our disposal4 ,at ! end ( a long aft]noon's drive to ! mo/ int]e/+ po9ts ( view 9 ,d5v]1 we f\nd ourselves close to ! qu>t] :]e ?is "y woman liv$1 & call$ at ! h\se m5tion$4 ,! lady 0 n at home1 & a fri5d :o receiv$ u expla9$ t x w\ld be impossible = h] to come d[n 9 ! ev5+ to see u1 z %e 0 delicate1 & n all[$ to g out at night4 ,z we 7 leav+ ,d5v] e>ly next morn+1 ?is made a meet+ impossible1 s we left our c>ds1 & a note to expla9 our visit4 ,go+ into ! hotel (fice aft] d9n] t ev5+1 ,i he>d a g5tleman inquir+ = me by "n1 say+ he _h br\ght 8 wife to see me4 ,i expla9$ t ,i 0 ! lady he ask$ =1 & he !n said1 ) ! /oical resignation ( ! typical ,am]ican husb&3 ,i did n l h] to come out1 b %e 0 b\nd to h h] own way4 ,! lady 9 "q came into my b$room up/airs aft] dismiss+ h] husb&1 & said %e pref]r$ a room already p]meat$ by my influ5ce4 ,%e !n cont9u$ v simply3 ,i d n "k :e!r ,i %all be able to help y at all1 b x seems !re is some?+ ,i h to tell y or expla94 ,:5 ,i read y\r note ,i felt b\nd to come1 al?\gh my husb& tri$ to dissuade me4 ,x seem$ to me z if ! spirits came all ! way ) me 9 ! c>s4 ,%e !n gave me q a good sitt+1 b on ! ord9>y l9es1 end+ up by ! description ( ! relatives m5tion$1 & by mak+ ! usual mi/ake ab\t _! relative spiritual positions4 ,?is 0 all said 9 trance4 ,:5 %e return$ to consci\sness ,i said3 ,n[1 ,mrs ,br[n 7h] real "n71 ,i mu/ tell y hone/ly t y h made "o c>d9al mi/ake1 b ,i am also b\nd to say t five or six pr(essional m$iums h done j ! same z reg>ds ! same matt]4 ,i !n expla9$1 & ask$ if %e c\ld acc\nt = su* a p]si/5t & obvi\s misconception4 ,wait a mom5t1 %e answ]$2 p]haps ! spirits w tell me4 ,%e look$ up ) a v int5t expression = a m9ute1 z ?\gh li/5+ to "s explanation :i* did n cov] ! gr\nd ( h] own exp]i5ce1 & !n said v quickly & 9 a monoton\s voice1 z ?\gh repeat+ a v]bal message3 ,x has no?+ exactly to d ) our e>?ly idea ( 'goodness4' ,spiritual life c only come to ^? prep>$ = x1 )9 ! limits ( _! capacity4 ,! male _s y m5tion 0 a cl]gyman ( ! ,*ur* ( ,engl&4 ,he 0 a v holy man1 b he 0 9 "s way cre$ b\nd4 ,he 0 a man ( /rong cre$2 he clung to 8 cre$ "h1 & _c q free himself f x ev5 n[1 al?\gh he has advanc$ v mu* 9 spiritual p]ception4 ,n[ 8 wife _h a v sympa!tic1 appreh5d+ nature4 ,%e c !re=e receive spiritual light m fully & freely4 ,t is :y %e has ris5 to a high] plane4 ,?is is n a "q ( "* s mu* z ( spiritual capacity1 & 9 ?is %e is ! m highly gift$ ( ! two4 ,%e is on a diff]5t plane1 b %e is able to help h] husb& v mu*1 & 9 "t he w jo9 h]1 & !y w progress toge!r4 ,all ?is 0 said 9 a quick1 decid$ way1 & )\t ! smalle/ hesitation4 ,"o w\ld h>dly h expect$ a "y woman 9 ! mid/ ( ! ,rocky ,m\nta9s to "k ! exact mean+ ( ! t]m cl]gyman ( ! ,*ur* ( ,engl&1 = ! ^w is almo/ unkn[n 9 ,am]ica1 :]e !y speak inv>iably ( a m9i/]4 ,yet ! words 7 giv5 ) quick1 firm precision1 exactly z writt5 d[n4 ,lat]1 9 ,san ,francisco1 a clairvoyant at once ref]r$ to my fri5d ,muriel1 & describ$ h]1 b 9 r vague t]ms4 ,:5 ,i po9t$ ?is fact out %e said a little impati5tly1 z ?\gh we 7 wa/+ "t 9 quibbl+3 ,oh1 well1 x does n matt]4 ,! _s tells me y "k p]fectly well :o x is4 ,%e has already appe>$ to y 9 ,new ,york4 ,i _h gone to ?is p>ticul> m$ium ) sev]al "y fri5ds1 :o 7 all 9 a v sceptical & r frivol\s /ate ( m9d4 ,%e describ$ an uncle1 app>5tly ov] ! heads ( two ( my fri5ds1 & gave ! fur!r in=mation t he 0 surr\nd$ by wat]1 & appe>$ to h be5 dr[n$2 also t he 0 extremely musical4 ,?is 0 decl>$ to be p]fectly untrue & )\t a gra9 ( f\ndation1 9 fact4 ,! woman look$ puzzl$ & a little mortifi$1 b turn$ to o!rs 9 ! circle1 ) bett] success1 let u hope6 ,on our return home1 :5 ! "y p 7 tell+ _! "m ( ! awful humbug amid %\ts ( laught]1 ! "m said quietly3 ,b surely y rememb]1 my de> *ildr51 he>+ ( y\r ,uncle ,rob]t1 :o 0 dr[n$ ye>s ago1 be=e any ( y 7 born8 ,he 0 a great musician4 ,he want$ to give up 8 life to art1 b he 0 p]suad$ to take up ano!r pr(ession4 ,i give ?is z an in/ance ( ! c>elessness ) :i*1 :5 we are det]m9$ to f9d fraud1 we may d s sometimes at ! exp5se ( tru?4 ,^! "y girls _h d\btless he>d ( _! uncle1 b ! fact _h possibly escap$ _! memories = ! mom5t1 & probably !y _h no wi% to recall any?+ :i* c\ld ca/ a d\bt on _! preconceiv$ notion t ! :ole ?+ 0 a sw9dle6 ,be=e clos+ ! *apt] ( my ,am]ican exp]i5ces 9 ! ye>s #ahhe & #ahhf1 ,i mu/ give "o m p]sonal detail4 ,:5 inve/igat+ v>i\s clairvoyants 9 ! ,ea/]n ,/ates 9 ,m>* & ,april ( ! ye> #ahhf1 ,i _h be5 told m ?an once t a gu>dian b& ( six spirits 0 =m+ r\nd me1 & w\ld be lat] supplem5t$ by ano!r b& ( six protectors4 ,:e!r ?is _h any be>+ ^u ! foll[+ incid5t1 ,i mu/ leave my read]s to decide4 99 99 99 99 99 ,ab\t ?ree mon?s aft] ?is pron\ncem5t ,i f\nd myself at ,victoria1 ,vanc\v]'s ,isl&4 ,miss ,gre5l[ & ,i _h gone !re f ,san ,francisco = a week or two1 n be+ able at t "t to make ! fur!r trip to ,alaska4 ,aft] a v /ormy voyage ( two or ?ree days we rea*$ ,victoria "o morn+ ab\t six ,a4,m4 ,!re 0 only "o l>ge d\ble-b$d$ room available at ! hotel1 & we took ?is on ! und]/&+ t two sep>ate rooms %\ld be f\nd = u be=e ! ev5+4 ,z we lay on our b$s = a few h\rs ( mu* ne$$ re/1 q sudd5ly ,i realis$ t ,i saw some?+ abnormal 9 ! air--j above & 9 front ( my head4 ,i m5tion$ ?is ) mu* surprise to my companion1 :o at once sugge/$ ! effects ( liv] aft] a sea voyage s tempe/u\s z ours _h be54 ,= ! fir/ few mom5ts ,i 0 incl9$ to agree ) h]1 & said s2 b v %ortly my op9ion 0 alt]$ by ! fact t :at ,i saw fir/ z an indi/9ct blur gradually assum$ a def9ite %ape1 & ,i !n f\nd !re 7 six little swall[s 9 front ( me1 app>5tly connect$ ) ea* o!r by a wav+ ribbon1 or s x appe>$ to me4 ,op5+ & %utt+ "o's eyes did n affect ! vision4 ,!re !y rema9$1 bo? at ! mom5t & = sev]al succe$+ ye>s1 dur+ :i* "t ,i 0 con/antly 9 ! habit ( see+ my birds1 z we us$ to call !m4 ,ab\t six mon?s aft] _! fir/ appe>ance 9 ! pure1 cle> atmosph]e ( ,victoria 7,vanc\v]71 ,i 0 driv+ across ! ,blackhea? ,common on a v bright1 fro/y day1 & look+ out ( ! op5 w9d[ ( my c>riage1 ,i saw my six birds z usual2 b = ! fir/ "t1 p>allel ) !m & l[] d[n1 7 six new birds ( j ! same size & appe>ance 7ab\t half-an-in* betwe5 ! tips ( ! w+s74 ,a few days lat] ! new birds & ! old ones _h amalgamat$1 & twelve little swall[s float$ 9 ! air be=e my eyes4 ,i c\ld n see !m 9 ! h\se4 ,x ne$$ ! backgr\nd ( un9t]rupt$ sky app>5tly to ?r[ !m into suffici5t relief to be recognis$4 ,aft] "s ye>s1 ?is special sign 0 )drawn1 & o!rs h tak5 its place4 ,= example1 ,i h se5 9 ! same way1 dur+ ! la/ f\rte5 ye>s1 an an*or1 ) ! *a9 atta*$ to x1 & caught ?r\gh "o end ( ! =m]1 a %ort reap+ hook4 ,?is1 d\btless1 has "s symbolical mean+4 ,ne> ! an*or ,i see a sacrificial alt>1 ) flames ris+ up f x2 !n a triangle1 ) loops at ! corn]s1 :i* ,i 0 once told 0 ! sign ( ,no/radamus4 ,!n an old-fa%ion$ mirror 9 a qua9tly-%ap$ frame1 & f9ally a long /aff1 ) ! sign ( ,aries at "o end4 ,i h s9ce realis$ t ?is is v mu* l ! ,/aff ( ,fai? f\nd on ! top ( _m ( ! tombs 9 ! ,roman catacombs4 ,all ^! latt] emblems come toge!r z a rule1 ) a connect+ ?read b9d+ !m to ea* o!r4 ,i _c see !m at w1 b :5 ! atmosph]e is at all cle> !y are r>ely abs5t1 :5 ,i h "t to look = !m4 ,i 0 mu* amus$ once by an e>ne/ ,*ri/ian sci5ti/1 ) :om ,i happ5$ to be sp5d+ a few days on ! coa/ ( ! ea/]n c\nties4 ,%e _h w>n$ me repeat$ly aga9/ ph5om5a ( e k9d1 spontane\s or induc$4 ,on a specially bright morn+ we 7 sitt+ toge!r 9 a beautiful p>k1 :i* is ?r[n op5 to /rang]s on special days1 &1 =gett+ my companion's prejudices1 ,i exclaim$ involunt>ily3 ,i nev] saw my signs m cle>ly ?an j n[6--!re mu/ be some?+ v pure ab\t ! atmosph]e4 ,?is 0 too mu* = my fri5d1 :o b5t =w>d eag]ly1 say+3--,d let me try if ,i _c see !m too6 ,well1 %e tri$ = ! great] "p ( two h\rs1 b absolutely 9 va91 & !n got up1 & sugge/$ go+ home to lun*eon4 ,%e add$ navely3 ,i ?\ght !y mu/ h some?+ wrong ab\t !m1 & ,i am q sure ( x n[1 or ,i %\ld h se5 !m4 ,b x _h tak5 h] two h\rs ( failure to be absolutely conv9c$ t !y came /raight f ! devil6 ,"o sign--also birds--appe>$ to me on "o occasion only4 ,we _h return$ to ,d5v]1 :]e ,miss ,gre5l[ & ,i 7 to sep>ate aft] a ye>'s con/ant travel toge!r4 ,%e 0 go+ back to ,san ,francisco to take /eam] = ! ,s&wi* ,isl&s1 & !nce on to ,au/ralia2 :il/ ,i 0 return+ to ,engl& = family reasons4 ,i _h arrang$ to d9e ) ! hospitable ,dean ( ,d5v] ! ev5+ ( ! day ( h] dep>ture1 & ,i _h n realis$ h[ mu* less lonely "o w\ld h felt _h my j\rney ,ea/ correspond$ m closely ) h] j\rney ,we/1 especially z %e 0 oblig$ to leave ! hotel ab\t n9e o'clock 9 ! morn+4 ,wak+ e>ly1 & ly+ 9 b$1 feel+ v melan*oly at ! idea ( be+ left beh9d & alone 9 ! v c5tre ( ,am]ica1 ,i look$ up1 &1 to my delight1 saw a new sign4 ,n my little birds ?is "t1 b two big1 plump fa!r & "m birds1 ) a %ort /r+ atta*$1 n horizontally z be=e1 b p]p5dicul>ly4 ,at ! end ( ?is little /r+ 0 a t9y bird1 ev5 small] ?an ! swall[s1 be+ evid5tly guid$ by ! two big birds1 & q safe 9 _! *>ge4 ,my room communicat$ ) t ( my companion1 ^: door 0 op51 & ,i told h] ( ?is new sign 9 ! heav5s1 add+ t ,i hop$ x _h come to /ay4 ,=tunately1 ,i f\nd a p5cil1 & made a r\gh sket* at ! "t1 or ,i might h be5 tempt$ to imag9e t ,i _h nev] se5 x at all1 = ! trio nev] appe>$ aga91 ?\gh ,i h long$ to see !m1 & h c]ta9ly requir$ ! consolation q z mu*1 _m times1 s9ce t f>-away summ] morn+ 9 ,d5v]1 ,colorado4 99 99 99 99 99 ,on rea*+ home aft] ?is long ,am]ican trip1 ,i f\nd a budget ( lett]s await+ me--among/ !m a little regi/]$ box conta9+ a k9d bir?day pres5t f ! bro!r :o has be5 m5tion$ 9 ! ,introduction to ?is book4 ,0 x ano!r case ( m5tal aff9ity :i* _h induc$ him unconsci\sly to *oose a gold broo* ) two swall[s 9 gold & pe>ls8 ,n an uncommon design2 b ! birds 7 exactly ! same size z ^? ,i 0 9 ! habit ( see+ j at t "t4 ,i nev] told him h[ extraord9>ily propos 8 pres5t _h prov$1 b ,i h always look$ ^u t broo* z a mascot1 & h c]ta9ly worn x e day s9ce x came into my possession4 ,,*apt] ,,iii ,,au/ralia ,,& ,,new ,,zeal& ,%ortly aft] ! ,jubilee ( #ahhg _h tak5 place1 ,i sail$ = ,au/ralia & ,new ,zeal&4 ,my fir/ psy*ic exp]i5ce 9 ! ,colonies took place 9 ,melb\rne1 "s mon?s aft] my l&+ 9 ,tasmania4 ,! wife ( "o ( ! prom95t citiz5s 9 ,melb\rne _h be5 specially invit$ to meet me at an aft]noon reception 9 ! h\se ( fri5ds to :om ,i _h c>ri$ lett]s ( introduction1 z %e 0 said to be s deeply int]e/$ 9 ev]y?+ psy*ic1 & w\ld greatly enjoy he>+ my ,am]ican exp]i5ces4 ,=tunately1 ! lady arriv$ late1 & we _h already enjoy$ "s int]e/+ conv]sation be=e %e came4 ,a wett] wet blanket x has nev] be5 my =tune to enc\nt]4 ,%e 0 a v h&some woman1 & !re=e good to look at1 b 9 ! rle ( sympa!tic audi5ce %e 0 a mis]able failure4 ,%e sat ) a cold1 glassy eye fix$ ^u me1 :il/ ,i endeav\r$ to cont9ue ! conv]sation :i* _h be5 int]rupt$ by h] arrival4 ,%e might j z well h said z h look$ ! words3 ,n[ g on mak+ a fool ( y\rself6--t is j :at ,i h come to see4 ,! position 0 hopeless4 ,s ,i began to talk ab\t ! wea!r1 :i* is disagreeable en\gh f sirocco 9 ! hot spr+ mon?s 7x 0 ! end ( ,octob]7 to be useful4 ,pres5tly ! daught] ( ! h\se came up to me1 & said3 ,d1 please1 g on tell+ u y\r int]e/+ exp]i5ces1 ,miss ,bates2 we c talk ab\t o!r ?+s at any "t1 & we ask$ ,mrs ,burr\ghes on purpose to meet y4 ,! lady 9 "q _h jo9$ ano!r gr\p by ?is "t1 s ,i 0 able to :isp] 9 reply3 ,i am s v sorry1 b ,i _c possibly talk ( ^! ?+s be=e y\r fri5d--%e p>alyses me absolutely f any psy*ic po9t ( view4 ,%e is v h&some1 & ,i l look+ at h]1 b ,i _c talk to h] except ab\t ! wea!r4 ,h[ v odd6 0 ! unexpect$ reply4 ,t is j :at ,lizzie ,mayn>d says4 ,& ,i did v mu* want ,lizzie to he> ab\t ,am]ica too1 b %e has gone (f to ! o!r end ( ! room1 say+ %e kn[s y won't be able to talk :il/ ,mrs ,burr\ghes is "h4 ,?is 0 int]e/+1 = ,i _h n notic$ ! "y girl m5tion$1 :o _h n be5 introduc$ to me4 ,s :5 my "y ho/ess ask$ if %e might br+ ,lizzie to see me at my hotel next day1 ,i gladly acquiesc$1 9 spite ( feel+ v f> f well at ! mom5t4 ,?is feel+ ( malaise increas$ 9 ! night1 & 01 9 fact1 ! precursor ( a %ort b %>p attack ( a =m ( typhoid :i* 0 runn+ ?r\gh ! hotel at ! "t4 ,be+ 9 b$ next aft]noon ab\t f\r o'clock1 ,i 0 dismay$ to he> t ,miss ,mayn>d _h arriv$ to see me1 &1 moreov]1 _h arriv$ alone4 ,i _h nev] spok5 to ! girl nor ev5 consci\sly set eyes on h] be=e1 b ,i knew %e mu/ h come at lea/ ?ree miles f ! suburb :]e %e liv$1 & w\ld probably refuse to h a cup ( tea d[n/airs dur+ my abs5ce4 ,!re 0 no?+ = x1 !re=e1 b to make an ef=t1 ord] tea to be br\ght = h] to my room1 & s5d a message hop+ %e w\ld n m9d see+ me 9 my b$room4 ,%e came up--a mode/1 *>m+-look+ girl ( ab\t tw5ty4 ,i expla9$ ! circum/ances1 & apologis$ = be+ unable to jo9 9 ! tea-p>ty1 b felt r desp]ate :5 ,i realis$ t ev5 ! ef=t ( tak+ any %>e 9 ! conv]sation 0 beyond me4 ,sudd5ly a brilliant idea pass$ ?r\gh my ?robb+ head4 ,! day be=e1 9 plann+ ! visit1 :i* ,miss ,boyle _h be5 unable to c>ry out h]self1 %e _h m5tion$ t h] fri5d ,lizzie ,mayn>d 0 a v good automatic writ]1 & ?is seem$ a solution ( ! difficulty4 ,s :5 my little fri5d _h f9i%$ h] tea1 b 0 /ill look+ tir$ f ! long walk1 ,i said to h]3 ,i am s sorry to be s /upid to-day1 ,miss ,mayn>d4 ,i _c talk1 b ,i c li/52 or d y ?9k possibly y c\ld get a little writ+ = me8 ,miss ,boyle told me y wrote automatically sometimes8 ,i w try1 c]ta9ly1 0 ! ready response4 ,i nev] "k1 ( c\rse1 :at may come1 & z ?is is our fir/ meet+1 x may be a little m difficult1 b ,i %\ld l to try4 ,%e f\nd pap] & p5cil1 & sat by my b$side1 hold+ ! p5cil v loosely betwe5 ! second & ?ird f+]s1 in/ead ( betwe5 ! ?umb & fir/ two f+]s 9 ! usual way4 ,%e cont9u$ talk+ to me dur+ ! :ole "t1 & n be+ well v]s$ 9 automatic writ+ !n1 ,i c\ld n believe t any writ+ c\ld really be go+ on 9 ?is v casual sort ( way4 ,is any writ+ really com+8 ,i que/ion$ at la/4 ,oh yes2 b ,i c't make out ! la/ long ^w1 %e said1 turn+ ! pap] r\nd1 s t %e c\ld see x1 = ! fir/ "t4 ,k9dly give me t ^w aga91 %e rem>k$ casually1 & cont9u$ h] conv]sation ) me4 ,f9ally ! ?ree or f\r %eets ( r l>ge b n always v di/9ct caligraphy 7 submitt$ to me1 & ,i saw t ,miscellane\s _h be5 ! long ^w at ! beg9n+ :i* ,lizzie _h ask$ to h repeat$4 ,! :ole message 0 int5sely int]e/+ to me1 = x began3 ,i :o on e>? 0 kn[n z ,george ,eliot4 ,n[ ,i _h m ?an once se51 b _h nev] spok5 to1 ,george ,eliot 9 e>? life1 & al?\gh admir+ h] g5ius1 z all :o read h] books are b\nd to d1 !re seem$ no v obvi\s reason :y %e %\ld come to me4 ,moreov]1 ,lizzie ,mayn>d1 a *>m+ b n highly educat$ girl 7z ,i discov]$ lat]71 seem$ to "k little ab\t ! fam\s au?or beyond h] "n4 ,ano!r1 & inf9itely inf]ior1 lady writ] _h be5 discuss$ ) bat$ brea? ! day be=e 9 ,lizzie's pres5ce4 ,h] books--j !n 9 ! z5i? ( _! popul>ity--_h newly p5etrat$ to ! ,colonies1 & 7 be+ talk$ ( !re z ?\gh ,m9]va h]self1 helmet & all complete1 _h sudd5ly arriv$ 9 ,melb\rne4 ,i _h p]sonally be5 greatly int]e/$ by "o ( ?is lady's e>li] books1 & _h a mu* less def9ite op9ion ( ! au?or !n1 ?an ,i h at ! pres5t mom5t4 ,?re%+ my bra9s = any sort ( tie ) ,george ,eliot1 ,i rememb]$ hav+ (t5 /ay$ at ,ox=d z a "y woman1 :5 ,j[ett ( ,balliol 0 ent]ta9+ h] & ,mr ,lewes1 9 8 own home4 ,( c\rse1 !re 0 no "q 9 ^? f>-away days ( my be+ ask$ to meet su* a brilliant />2 b x amus$ me (t5 to he> ! dull & un9t]e/+ p ( "s /&+ 9 ! ,univ]sity1 :om ,j[ett _h n fav\r$ ) an invitation1 decl>+ t no?+ w\ld h induc$ !m to accept x6 ,?is 01 h[ev]1 b a feeble l9k1 ev5 :5 add$ to ! righte\s indignation "o _h s (t5 exp]i5c$ on he>+ simil> rem>ks made1 ab\t a woman too f> above h] critics bo? 9 g5ius & morals1 = !m to be able to cat* ! fa9te/ glimpse ( h] p]sonality4 ,app>5tly x only n[ lay ) me to cease ask+ :y1 & accept ! goods provid$ by ! gods1 mak+ ! mo/ ( su* an opportunity4 ,on ^! occasions s _m possible que/ions tumble ov] ea* o!r 9 ! bra9 t x is difficult to select any "o to />t )4 ,at l5g? ,i ask$ ! foll[+ "q3-- ,:at did ,george ,eliot ?9k ( ! au?or :o _h be5 s mu* discuss$ & s highly applaud$ on ! previ\s aft]noon8 ,v quickly came ! answ]3 ,i h no sympa?y !re--a m]e puppet4 ,c]ta9ly ?is 0 n ?\ght read+2 = my own op9ion !n 0 v indef9ite1 & ,lizzie's views1 z x turn$ out1 7 z en?usia/ic z ^? ( mo/ p 9 ! ,colony4 ,x 0 n until sev]al ye>s lat] t ,i realis$ t an extraord9>ily apt criticism _h be5 made2 = a puppet is made to dance by o!r entities4 ,i 0 long+ to ask ano!r "q1 b _h "s natural hesitation 9 do+ s be=e su* a "y girl4 ,moreov]1 ,i fe>$ ! answ] mu/ almo/ ( necessity be col\r$ by ! traditions ( ! latt]1 & !re=e w\ld be ( no great value ei!r way4 ,b tak+ my c\rage 9 bo? h&s1 ,i put ! "q3 ,please ask ,george ,eliot if %e n[ ?9ks t %e 0 ju/ifi$ 9 ! position %e took up ) reg>d to ,george ,lewes8 ,! answ] came 9 a fla%3 ,,c]ta9ly4 ,we are "o "h1 z we 7 on e>?4 ,any?+ less likely to emanate f ! bra9 ( an or?odox "y girl c h>dly be conceiv$6 ,among/ o!r details1 ,george ,eliot said f9ally t %e _h come to "k my "m 9 _s life1 :]e %e 0 call$ ,,/ella4 ,n[ my "m's "n 9 e>? life 0 ,ell51 :i* has ! same root = its orig94 ,( c\rse1 ,miss ,mayn>d did n !n "k :e!r my "m 7 alive or dead1 & no?+ naturally conc]n+ h] ,*ri/ian "n4 ,! la/ /atem5t made by ,george ,eliot on ?is occasion 0 t be=e ano!r ye> _h roll$ by1 a great gift w\ld come to me1 & ,i mu/ be v c>eful to use )\t abus+ x4 ,i 0 too tir$ at ! mom5t to ask :e!r ano!r ye> roll+ by meant a :ole ye> f #bh? ,octob] #ahhg 7! date ( ! message71 or ! end ( ! curr5t ye>--namely1 #ca/ ,decemb] #ahhg4 ,:5 ! message _h come to an end1 ,miss ,mayn>d ga!r$ up ! scatt]$ %eets1 & promis+ to copy !m out = me1 took h] dep>ture1 & left me to muse--s f> z a rack+ bra9 w\ld all[--on ! curi\s & int]e/+ result ( h] visit4 ,no cup ( tea to ?ir/y wayf>] 0 ev] surely s gr&ly rew>d$6 ,my next adv5ture _h a di/ant connection ) ^! ,au/ralian exp]i5ces4 ,i _h come out to jo9 ! fri5d 7,miss ,gre5l[7 :o _h be5 my companion 9 ,am]ica1 & :o _h !nce sail$ = ,sydney :5 ,i return$ = a ye> to ,engl&4 ,%e _h be5 anxi\s = me to rejo9 h] 9 ,au/ralia1 & f !nce visit ,japan & ,*9a2 b my arrival hav+ be5 delay$ by lit]>y matt]s1 ?is lady _h f9ally lo/ pati5ce1 &1 )\t my k1 _h gone on to ,new ,zeal&1 & !nce1 z x turn$ out1 to ,samoa4 ,:5 ,i he>d ( ! ,new ,zeal& episode !re 0 no?+ = x b to foll[ h] !re1 on a w-o'-!-wisp exp$ition1 z x turn$ out1 b1 =tunately1 ,i 0 unaw>e ( ?is at ! "t4 ,i say =tunately1 because _h ,i kn[n t %e _h already left ,au/ralia = ,samoa1 ,i %\ld c]ta9ly h return$ to ,engl&1 9 despair ( trac+ h] any fur!r1 & !reby "o ( my mo/ int]e/+ exp]i5ces w\ld h be5 lo/4 ,! illness 9 ,melb\rne1 already ref]r$ to1 deta9$ me = ov] a =tnight1 s x 0 necess>y to transf] my ,new ,zeal& ticket f "o boat to ano!r4 ,s ! illness also mu/ h be5 "o ( ! factors t 0 involv$ 9 ! adv5ture1 z ,i h call$ x4 ,= ! delay l$ to my meet+--9 a fri5d's h\se--,mr ,ar?ur ,kit*5] 7a y\ng] bro!r ( ,"l ,kit*5]71 :o 0 introduc$ to me on ! special gr\nd t we 7 to be fell[-travell]s to ,new ,zeal& a day or two lat]4 ,z a matt] ( fact1 ,mr ,kit*5] 0 on 8 way f ,engl& to ,new ,zeal&1 :]e he 0 sup]9t5d+ a %eep-run = 8 fa!r 9 ^? days4 ,he _h come out by ,p4 ,o41 & tran%ipp$ at ,melb\rne aft] two or ?ree days' delay !re4 ,sev]al o!r pass5g]s f ! ,massilia 7 also go+ on to ,new ,zeal&1 & naturally !y felt l old fri5ds aft] ! five or six weeks already sp5t toge!r4 ,!y ?\ght ,i want$ to be alone1 & ,i ?\ght !y want$ to be alone1 & s ,i kept sev]ely to ! upp] deck1 feel+ (t5 lonely1 & !y all rema9$ on ! l[] deck1 wi%+ ,i w\ld come d[n & talk to !m sometimes4 ,9 spite ( ^! misconceptions on ei!r side1 ,mr ,kit*5] & ,i became suffici5tly fri5dly = him to give me a v k9d & hospitable invitation to sp5d ! la/ few days ( ! ye> at 8 /ation1 ab\t n9e miles f ,dunback1 9 ! ,dun$9 di/rict4 ,i ?9k ,i mu/ h told him ( my disappo9tm5t 9 miss+ my companion 9 ,sydney1 aft] travell+ s _m ?\s& miles to jo9 h]1 & d\btless he felt "s int]e/ 9 ?is ,/anley & ,liv+/one sort ( *ase1 ) two wom5 tak+ ! pr9cipal *>act]s6 ,anyway1 ! invitation 0 giv5 & accept$1 & he k9dly promis$ to ask "o or two p to meet me 9 8 h\se4 ,all ?is came to pass "s weeks lat]1 on my return f ! ,new ,zeal& lakes1 & j be=e an exp$ition to ! ,s\nds1 g5]ally kn[n z ! ,s\nds ,trip4 ,?is is a pleasure trip1 organis$ = e>ly ,janu>y1 :i* is1 ( c\rse1 midsumm] !re4 ,x la/s = t5 days1 & gives "o ! opportunity ( see+ to ! be/ advantage ^! glori\s inlets ( ! sea4 ,my week at ! %eep /ation 0 to prec$e ?is1 z ,i h expla9$2 9 fact1 z ! /eam] sail$ late 9 ! aft]noon1 x 0 possible to g on bo>d )\t /opp+ = ! night at ,dun$91 :5ce we 7 to sail4 ,b at ! la/ mom5t a slight contretemps took place4 ,ow+ to "s delay ! /eam] w\ld n be able to leave till ,monday1 in/ead ( ! ,saturday morn+ z arrang$1 & our k9d ho/ insi/$ on ext5d+ 8 hospitality = ! two extra days4 ,n[ ea* day !re _h be5 "s talk ab\t hav+ an impromptu sance1 & ea* day ,i _h successfully evad$ ! arrangem5t4 ,i h a great dislike to sitt+ 9 casual circles ) /rang]s1 & x seem$ to me t no good purpose w\ld be s]v$ by do+ s4 ,x is impossible on ^! occasions to conv9ce anyone else t y are n pu%+ or muscle mov+1 or g5]ally play+ tricks1 & x has always seem$ to me t ! "t wa/$ ov] mutual recrim9ations on ^! po9ts1 or ! silly jokes t appe> inevitable1 :5 two or ?ree human be+s at a table get toge!r 9 a private h\se2 might be mu* m pr(itably sp5t4 ,table turn+ z a p>l\r game is ab\t z /upid & aimless an amusem5t z ,i "k4 ,i repres5t$ all ?is to ,mr ,kit*5]1 b 9 va94 ,he _h att5d$ "s psy*ic meet+s 9 ,dunback or ,dun$91 & evid5tly wi%$ me to reconsid] ! matt]4 ,also x happ5$ to be ! la/ day ( ! ye>1 :5 p are always m incl9$ to be oblig+1 ,i suppose2 anyway t ,saturday night1 #ca/ ,decemb] #ahhg1 f\nd me sitt+ d[n to a table 9 ! little draw+-room ( t f>-away %eep /ation4 ,z "s rew>d = any virtue !re may h be5 9 yield+ my po9t1 ,i rememb]$ sudd5ly t ,george ,eliot's message on #bh? ,octob]--two mon?s previ\sly--_h be5 r vague1 & t x might be int]e/+1 if ! *ance came1 to f9d out :e!r be=e ano!r ye> has roll$ away meant a ye> f #bh? ,octob]1 or ! ye> ( :i* s few h\rs /ill rema9$ to u4 ,aft] ! usual inanities--,i am sure y are pu%+4 ,no2 y are6 ,i saw y\r f+]s press+ heavily4 ,:y1 h[ extraord9>y6 t is exactly :at ,i ?\ght ab\t y1 etc4 etc41 x 0 intimat$ t a _s 0 !re giv+ ! "n ( ,george ,eliot1 s ,i put my "q at once4 ,i did n mean ano!r ye> f ,octob] la/--,i ref]r$ to ?is ye>1 0 ! answ]4 ,%all ,i be able to write automatically8 0 my next qu]y4 ,no2 leave t alone--x w\ld be v dang]\s = y at pres5t4 ,%all ,i be able to he>8 ,%all ,i become clair-audi5t8 ,no1 came = ! second "t4 ,my next "q naturally 03 ,!n %all ,i be able to see v soon8 ,yes2 = y w become clairvoyant = ! fir/ "t4 ,rememb] my w>n+ to use b n abuse ! gift4 ,n[ ,i mu/ expla9 t all ?is "t a good deal ( ! usual k9d ( jok+ _h be5 go+ on4 ,moreov]1 ,i felt intuitively t ,mr ,kit*5] ?\ght ,i 0 deceiv+ myself into ! idea t human muscles c\ld n acc\nt = ! movem5ts1 &1 9 fact1 ! v wor/ possible conditions = gett+ any?+ ( value 7 pres5t4 ,s mu* s t ,i did n = "o mom5t suppose t x 0 really ,george ,eliot1 or t %e w\ld c\nt5ance t p>ticul> sort ( buffoon]y1 & ! incid5t made no impression ^u me at all4 ,i _h already tak5 my h&s (f ! table1 :5 someone--,mr ,kit*5]1 ,i ?9k--bang$ x d[n f\r times1 & !n triumphantly obs]v$3 ,yes1 ( c\rse1 y w see somebody dur+ ! night1 or r at f\r o'clock 9 ! morn+1 y see6 ,! :ole ?+ 0 ! k9d ( fiasco ,i _h expect$1 deg5]at+ into a romp1 z poor ,corney ,gra9 us$ to rem>k ab\t ! ,lanc]s & ! /]n old lady 9 ! suburban villa4 ,! ba?os ( table turn+ _h surely be5 rea*$ :5 x came to bang+ ! leg ( ! table d[n f\r times1 & calmly ann\nc+ f\r o'clock z ! "t = my fir/ vision6 ,b ! rem>kable po9t is t ,i did h my fir/ vision t night1 ?\gh x _h come & gone long be=e f\r ,a4,m4 ,x is necess>y to rememb] t ! sun rises ab\t ?ree-?irty ,a4,m4 dur+ ! end ( ,decemb] or fir/ week 9 ,janu>y out !re1 s x w\ld h be5 fairly light be=e f\r ,a4,m42 :]eas :5 ,i woke out ( my fir/ sleep t night1 x 0 pit* d>k4 ,my room 0 ! usual :itewa%$ ap>tm5t to be f\nd 9 ! ord9>y colonial /ation1 ) a wood5 b$ /&+ ab\t two or ?ree feet f ! wall1 & p>allel ) ! only w9d[ 9 ! room2 :i* fac$ ! door 7at ! foot ( my b$71 & 0 fitt$ ) a v d>k gre5 bl9d1 on acc\nt ( ! hot summ] sun%9e4 ,b x 0 n[ pit* d>k 9 ! room4 ,i woke fac+ ! w9d[1 b turn$ on my side1 z "o g5]ally does on su* occasions1 & ?is br\ght me face to face ) ! wall4 ,to my inf9ite amazem5t !re /ood betwe5 ! wall & my b$1 a diaphan\s figure ( a woman1 q life size or r m1 ) "o arm held out 9 a protect+ fa%ion t[>ds me1 & "s drap]y ab\t ! head4 ,! features 71 moreov]1 q di/9ct1 &1 z ,i aft]w>ds realis$1 ! c\nt]p>t ( ,george ,eliot's curi\s & ,savon>ola-l c\nt5ance4 ,b at ! mom5t1 oddly en\gh1 ,i only ?\ght ( two ?+s--fir/1 h[ extraord9>y t :at _h appe>$ to me su* a silly wa/e ( "t ov]night %\ld h _h any elem5t ( reality ab\t x6 ,!n swiftly came ! second idea3 ,& h[ 9 ! _w does x happ5 t ,i don't feel a bit fright5$8 ,i lay !re absolutely cont5t & peaceful1 ) a feel+ ( blissful satisfaction :i* ,i h nev] exactly realis$ ei!r be=e or s9ce t "o occasion4 ,ev]y?+ is all "r--no?+ c really ev] g wrong--no?+ at lea/ t matt]s at all4 ,all ! real ?+s are all "r4 ,i c nev] d\bt ! tru? ( ^! ?+s aft] ?is exp]i5ce4 ,x 0 promis$1 & ! promise has be5 r$eem$4 ,^! 7 ! ?\ghts t pass$ idly ?r\gh my bra9 z ,i lay--fully awake--& look$ up at ! com=t+ woman's figure4 ,= x seem$ m--mu* m--?an a m]e vision4 ,i h spok5 ( ! figure z diaphan\s because x 0 n z solid z an ord9>y human be+1 b1 on ! o!r h&1 ,i c\ld n see ! wall ?r\gh x3 x 0 too solid = t4 ,!n ,i rememb]$ a /ory told 9 ,! ,a!num--( all pap]s--& writt5 by a ,dr ,jephson1 ( 8 exp]i5ce :il/ pay+ a visit to ,"l ,(=d1 & mak+ notes--late at night--9 ! libr>y ( ! h\se = "s lit]>y "w on h&4 ,he _h f9i%$ 8 notes1 put away ! book ( ref]5ce1 look$ at 8 wat*1 f\nd ! h&s m>k+ two ,a4,m4 7s f> z ,i rememb]71 & _h j said to himself3 ,well1 ,i %all be 9 b$ by two-?irty aft] all1 :51 turn+ r\nd1 he f\nd a l>ge lea!r *air close to 8 own1 t5ant$ by a ,spani% prie/ 9 "s anci5t dress6 ,?9k+ x might be an halluc9ation1 he delib]ately turn$ r\nd--away f ! prie/--rubb$ 8 eyes1 & !n sl[ly look$ back aga94 ,/ill ! prie/ 0 !re1 & ,dr ,jephson !n realis$ = ! fir/ "t t1 al?\gh n consci\sly fright5$ or al>m$ 9 any way1 he 0 q unable to speak to ! intrud]4 ,s he quietly *ose a p5cil1 sat d[n1 & calmly took 8 portrait4 ,! prie/ politely rema9$ until ! sket* 0 complet$1 & !n vani%$4 ,?is /ory1 read "s ye>s previ\sly1 fla%$ ?r\gh my bra91 & ,i ?\ght3 ,i w try turn+ r\nd1 & !n see+ if %e is /ill !re4 ,i turn$ delib]ately1 fac+ ! w9d[1 & !n realis$ t x 0 pit* d>k 9 my room--n ! fa9te/ glimm] ( light came ?r\gh ! heavily %r\d$ w9d[4 ,!n x c't be f\r o'clock1 0 my triumphant comm5t4 ,x w\ld h be5 too disappo9t+ _h my di/+ui%$ visitor condon$ ! unblu%+ bang+ d[n f\r times ( ! table leg1 by *oos+ t h\r = h] arrival 9 my room6 ,b !n aga91 h[ c\ld ,i see h]1 s9ce ! room 0 q d>k8 ,x 0 only necess>y to turn r\nd once m to ! wall to realise t ,i did see h] 9 fact1 al?\gh ,i ought n to h done s 9 !ory6 ,i saw h] z di/9ctly z ,i ev] saw a m>ble /atue 9 ! ,vatican ,gall]y by ! light ( noon4 ,al?\gh ,i _h recall$ ! ,jephson /ory s circum/antially1 x nev] /ruck me t x might be int]e/+ to attempt any conv]sation1 & see :e!r ,i also 7 tongue-ti$4 ,i did n want to speak--!re seem$ no special reason = speak+4 ,x 0 q en\gh to lie !re ) ?is blissful feel+ ( protection & love fold+ me r\nd l a cl\d ) gold5 l9+4 ,& z ?is consci\sness held me 9 its lov+ grasp1 to my inf9ite sorr[ ! k9d1 protect+ figure disappe>$1 g5tly & v sl[ly1 s9k+ into ! gr\nd on ! spot :]e ,i _h fir/ se5 h]2 & once m all 0 d>k 9 ! room4 ,i lay1 too happy & peaceful = movem5t or ev5 speculation = "s t5 m9utes1 & !n x /ruck me t ,i _h bett] light ! c&le by my side1 & f9d out :at o'clock x might be4 ,n[ ,i h a r accurate idea ( "t1 & c g5]ally tell )9 a m9ute or two h[ long any special "w may h tak5 me4 ,look+ at my wat*1 ,i saw x 0 j two-tw5ty-five ,a4,m41 s ,i settl$ 9 my own m9d t ,i mu/ h se5 ! figure at two-fifte5 ,a4,m41 or possibly at two-t5 ,a4,m41 = ,i ?9k ! exp]i5ce la/$ ne>ly five m9utes altoge!r4 ,anyway1 ,i felt sure t t5 m9utes1 z ne>ly z possible1 _h elaps$ betwe5 ! s9k+ ( ! figure out ( sight & my light+ ! mat* 9 ord] to consult my wat*4 ,x may h be5 n9e m9utes1 or possibly elev51 b ,i feel confid5t ! "t m5tion$ w\ld be )9 ^! limits4 ,!re=e next morn+1 :5 our ho/ appe>$1 & ,i 0 *aff$ ab\t ! vision1 ,i said boldly3 ,y ?9k x all nons5se1 & ,i confess ,i did n believe any?+ t came la/ night :5 s mu* jok+ 0 go+ on1 b ,i 0 mi/ak54 ,i did see1 = ! fir/ "t 9 my life1 any?+ abnormal4 ,& ,i repeat$ my exp]i5ce1 j z ,i h n[ writt5 x d[n4 ,incr$ul\s looks greet$ me1 & !n ,mr ,kit*5] said quietly3 ,oh yes1 y saw some?+ at f\r ,a4,m4 ,i am n at all surpris$ to he> t4 ,n at f\r ,a4,m41 ,i answ]$1 b at two-fifte5 ,a4,m4 ,i made a special note ( ! "t4 ,i 0 asleep aga9 long be=e f\r ,a4,m41 & nev] slept bett] 9 my life4 ,he look$ puzzl$1 & !n sugge/$ t my wat* mu/ h gone wrong2 b we comp>$ notes1 & our wat*es 7 regi/]+ exactly ! same h\r )9 a m9ute or two4 ,i f\nd out lat] t1 hav+ le>nt some?+ ( ! ,?\ght ,transf]5ce ,!ory at ! ,dun$9 ,circle or ,metaphysical ,club :i* he _h att5d$1 ,mr ,kit*5] _h attempt$ to make me see a vision at f\r ,a4,m41 b z he confess$ he _h be5 fa/ asleep :5 ,i did see 7an h\r & ?ree qu>t]s be=e 8 ef=ts />t$71 x w\ld take a v +5i\s p]son to prove t ! latt] _h any?+ to d ) ! occurr5ce4 ,a deeply int]e/+ corroboration rea*$ me1 h[ev]1 a few weeks lat]1 by :i* "t ,i _h visit$ ! ,s\nds1 & _m o!r places ( int]e/1 & _h arriv$ safely at ,auckl&1 9 ! ,nor? ,isl&4 ,on ! morn+ ( my vision1 ,i mu/ n =get to m5tion1 t ,i _h spok5 ( x to ,mr ,kit*5]'s fai?ful ,iri% h\sekeep]1 ^: nationality ,i knew w\ld prev5t h] ?9k+ me a m]e lunatic4 ,by ?is "t scepticism _h ! upp] h&1 & ,i 0 beg9n+ to try to expla9 away ev]y?+ 9 ! true ,podmorian _s4 ,c\ld ,mr ,kit*5] or any o!r p]son pres5t h _h to d ) ! matt]8 ,9 ?is case my blissful feel+s w\ld naturally be m]ely ! result ( imag9ation1 & easily dispos$ ( on ?is gr\nd4 ,s ,i que/ion$ ! little h\sekeep] :5 %e br\ght my hot wat] z to :e!r x c\ld h be5 possible = ,mr ,kit*5] or anyone else 9 ! h\se to h access to a clean %eet or tableclo?1 & to h masqu]ad$ 9 ! g>d5 outside my room4 ,%e indignantly d5i$ ! possibility4 ,! l95 is all lock$ up by me2 besides1 no "o w\ld h be5 s wick$4 ,x might h fright5$ y out ( y\r s5ses1 ma'am6 ,d y suppose ! ma/] w\ld h done su* a ?+8 ,no2 ,i did n really accuse anyone ( su* a cruel & /upid joke4 ,moreov]1 x 0 a little difficult1 ev5 = ,podmorian +5uity1 to expla9 h[ man or woman1 masqu]ad+ 9 a :ite %eet 9 ! g>d5 outside1 c\ld convey ! fairly solid figure ( a fak$ ,george ,eliot1 :o /ood well out betwe5 ! wall & my b$2 & ?is ?r\gh a ?ick gre5 bl9d & curta9s1 :5 g>d5 & room alike 7 %r\d$ 9 absolute d>kness6 ,foil$ 9 all my attempts to f9d a s5sible solution to ! my/]y1 ,i det]m9$ to write & ask ,lizzie ,mayn>d ( ,melb\rne if %e c\ld ?r[ any light ^u matt]s1 my decision 9 tak+ ?is /ep be+ /r5g!n$ by ! curi\s co9cid5ce :i* ,i _h j discov]$--i4e4 t ,mr ,kit*5]'s h\sekeep] _h liv$ ) ! ,mayn>ds :5 !y _h _h a h\se 9 ,dun$91 :i* 0 lat] burnt d[n1 z s (t5 happ5s 9 ! ,colonies4 ,jane _h lo/ sight ( ! ,mayn>d family = ye>s1 & 0 mu* excit$ by my promis+ to write & tell !m ( my meet+ ) h]4 ,( c\rse1 ,i m5tion$ my /range exp]i5ce & all ! details connect$ ) x--except ! exact h\r ( ! occurr5ce4 ,x 0 by a pure ov]sight 7z ,i suppos$7 t ?is fact 0 omitt$4 ,i h _h reason s9ce to believe t ,i 0 unconsci\sly impress$ to leave out ?is special detail1 9 ord] t ,i might receive f> bett] evid5ce ?an w\ld h be5 possible "u o!r circum/ances4 ,_h ,i m5tion$ ! h\r ( ! vision1 ! imag9ation ( my "y fri5ds 9 ,melb\rne might h be5 at "w z reg>ds ! h\r ( _! exp]i5ce1 :i* 0 z foll[s3-- ,sev]al weeks aft] leav+ ,dunback ,i rea*$ ,auckl&1 & receiv$ among/ o!r lett]s "o f ,lizzie ,mayn>d 9 answ] to m9e4 ,mr ,kit*5] _h also writt51 say+ :at nice girls my fri5ds ! ,mayn>ds mu/ be1 & h[ k9dly !y _h writt5 to 8 excell5t little h\sekeep]1 s5d+ h] welcome gifts1 & say+ t h] place _h nev] be5 fill$ 9 _! he>ts1 & s =?4 ,lizzie's lett] to me began also ab\t ! excell5ces ( ,jane1 & ! curi\s co9cid5ce ?r\gh :i* %e _h be5 once m put 9 t\* ) h]2 !n %e w5t on to say3 ,x is inde$ v rem>kable ab\t y\r exp]i5ce1 de> ,miss ,bates1 b ,i ?9k y w consid] x mu* m rem>kable :5 ,i tell y :at we 7 do+ t night4 ,i 0 sp5d+ ! week-end ) our mutual fri5ds ,capta9 & ,mrs ,boyle 79 ^: h\se %e & ,i _h enc\nt]$ ,mrs ,burr\ghes71 & ,lily ,boyle & ,i 7 sleep+ 9 ! same room1 z ! h\se 0 full4 ,on ! ev5+ ( #ca/ ,decemb] !re 0 a little dance arrang$1 to 'dance ! old ye> out & ! new ye> 91' & at midnight we disp]s$1 ! visitors go+ home1 & ^? 9 ! h\se retir+ to b$4 ,lily & ,i 7 too mu* excit$ to get into b$ at once1 s ,i sugge/$ t we %\ld try to compose a lett] to ,miss ,pe>l 7?is be+ ! lady ^: writ+s !y greatly admir$4 ,i _h all[$ !m to use my "n z an introduction1 %\ld !y wi% to communicate ) h] at any "t74 ,lizzie w5t on to say h[ n]v\s !y 7 ab\t writ+ ! lett]1 fe>+ t s popul> an au?or might n take any notice ( ! badly express$ lett] ( two "y colonial girls4 ,h[ev]1 %e did h] be/1 & ,lily ,boyle did h] be/1 & ! result 0 a hopeless failure6 ,!n1 cont9u$ ,lizzie1 a happy ?\ght /ruck me--,george ,eliot _h us$ my h& to convey h] message to y la/ ,octob]2 might we n1 rememb]+ ?is1 appeal to h] to help u 9 our difficulty8 ,s we gave up try+ to write ! lett] ourselves1 took d[n plan*ette f its %elf1 & />t$ aga94 ,9 a few mom5ts an excell5t lett] 0 writt51 giv+ y\r "n z an introduction1 ) all ! little po9ts y _h specially begg$ u to rememb] 9 connection ) ,miss ,pe>l's probable prejudices4 ,x 0 s spl5didly writt51 & s quickly1 t y c imag9e our delight6 ,we c\ld n be> to give up plan*ette ev5 aft] bo? our names _h be5 sign$1 & ,i said plead+ly3 ',oh1 don't g away6 ,d /op & tell u some?+ m4' ,9 l>ge lett]s1 z y see 7,lizzie enclos$ ! script71 0 writt5 v decid$ly3 ,,no1 ,i ,,_c ,,/ay ,,) ,,y ,,n[--,i ,,h ,,promis$ ,,to ,,g ,,& ,,see ,,/ella',s ,,daught]4 ,i rememb]$1 de> ,miss ,bates1 t ,g4 ,eliot _h said y\r "m's "n 9 _s life 0 ,/ella1 s1 ( c\rse1 we knew t %e meant u to und]/& t %e 0 go+ to see y4 ,un=tunately1 y did n m5tion ! h\r ( h] visit1 b we took ! "t :5 enclos$ message 0 writt5--v accurately--9 ord] to tell y ab\t x1 & ! h\r 0 j twelve-?irty ,a4,m4 ,d write & tell u t 0 ! "t :5 %e appe>$ to y--we feel sure x mu/ h be5--b are long+ to h our idea confirm$1 etc4 etc4 ,n[ my "y fri5ds _h evid5tly entirely =gott5 ! diff]5ce 9 "t betwe5 ,dun$9 & ,melb\rne1 & ,i mu/ confess to my own amazem5t :5 ,i f\nd t x 0 consid]ably ov] ! sixty m9utes1 :i* ,i %\ld h vaguely suppos$ x to be4 ,9 fact1 ,i 0 r disappo9t$ to ?9k !re 0 s wide a m>g9 betwe5 ! two occurr5ces1 until ,i casually ask$ a g5tleman1 :o 0 /ay+ 9 my hotel1 if he c\ld tell me ! diff]5ce 9 "t betwe5 ! two cities4 ,n exactly1 ,i'm afraid1 b x is consid]ably ov] an h\r4 ,ah1 !re is a good atlas6 ,i c easily calculate x = y4 ,he rema9$ sil5t = a mom5t1 & !n rais+ 8 head1 said3 ,z ne>ly an h\r & ?ree qu>t]s z possible4 ,?is 0 pretty good evid5ce ( ! practically simultane\s exp]i5ce ( my fri5ds 9 ,melb\rne at twelve-?irty ,a4,m41 ) my own at two-fifte5 ,a4,m4 9 ! neighb\rhood ( ,dun$94 ,:5 ,i fir/ became acqua9t$ ) ,mr ,my]s1 %ortly aft] my return f ,au/ralia & ,new ,zeal&1 ,i told him ?is /ory4 ,he 0 greatly int]e/$1 b po9t$ out t x 0 useless f ! evid5tial po9t ( view unless ,i w\ld take ! tr\ble to write "o or two lett]s to ! ,colonies4 ,s ,i wrote to ,mr ,kit*5] = confirmation ( ! fact t ,i 0 /ay+ 9 8 h\se on ! night ( #ca/ ,decemb] #ahhg1 & _h told him ( my exp]i5ce next morn+1 exactly z "h relat$4 ,!n ,i _h to get ,miss ,lizzie ,mayn>d's te/imony ) reg>d to h] lett] to me1 & f9ally1 ,i ?9k1 ! te/imony ( ,lily ,boyle & h] fa!r t ,miss ,mayn>d 0 _! gue/ 9 ,melb\rne on ! occasion ( ! ,new ,ye>'s ,eve dance4 ,^! lett]s are presumably /ill among/ ! ar*ives ( ! ,society ( ,psy*ical ,rese>*1 & ! /ory 0 pr9t$ by !m 9 _! ,proce$+s "s ye>s ago4 ,i may add a la/ evid5tial t\* by say+ t :5 ,i met ,miss ,pe>l = ! fir/ "t aft] my travels1 %e ref]r$ to ! lett] %e _h receiv$--"u fav\r ( my introduction--& q spontane\sly rem>k$ ^u its excell5ce1 add+3 ,i c\ld sc>cely believe t two "y ,au/ralian girls1 z !y describ$ !mselves to me1 c\ld h writt5 su* an admirable lett]4 ,i did n disclose ! real s\rce ( ! composition1 z ! popul> au?or ?9ks t %e has no belief 9 spiritualism4 ,,*apt] ,,iv ,,hong ,,kong1 ,,alaska1 ,,& ,,new ,,york ,! spr+ mon?s ( #ahhh f\nd me at ,brisbane1 en r\te = ,*9a1 aft] sp5d+ a pleasant mon? ) old fri5ds on a well-kn[n /ation belong+ to ! late ,sir ,ar?ur ,hodgson1 nam$ ,eton ,vale1 & situat$ on ! beautiful & heal?y ,d>l+ ,d[ns ( ,que5sl&4 ,be=e return+ to ,sydney f ,new ,zeal&1 my female ,dr ,liv+/one _h reappe>$ ^u ! sc5e 9 ! mo/ unexpect$ mann]4 ,our hi/orical meet+ took place 9 an ,auckl& hotel1 :]e %e sudd5ly turn$ up "o day1 driv5 back f ,samoa by ! int5se heat4 ,s aft] "s g5tle recrim9ations1 %e hav+ suppos$ ! delay on my "p might mean an entire *ange ( plan1 & ,i hav+ suppos$--f h] lett]s--t ,sydney 0 su* a ,p>adise t %e c\ld h>dly be dragg$ f x ev5 by a flam+ sword1 we agre$ to cry quits1 & cont9ue our travels toge!r4 ,s ,miss ,gre5l[ sp5t ! mon? ( ,m>* 9 ,sydney1 :il/ ,i paid my visit to ,que5sl&1 & we met once m at ,brisbane to take /eam] = ,?ursday ,isl&1 ,cape ,d>w91 & ev5tually ,hong ,kong4 ,only "o small matt] ( psy*ic int]e/ occurr$ dur+ ?is voyage4 ,i h m5tion$ 9 a previ\s *apt] ! little swall[s1 :i* ,i fir/ saw 9 ,san ,francisco 9 ! ye> #ahhf4 ,i _h be5 accu/om$ to see+ !m ev] s9ce t date1 & _h be5 frequ5tly commis]at$ = incipi5t eye tr\ble 9 consequ5ce1 by m ?an "o sceptical fri5d4 ,on ! v day we w5t on bo>d ! ,hong ,kong /eam] at ,brisbane1 a new sign appe>$3 a s+le bird1 hold+ 9 its beak a r+ ) half hoop ( five /ones1 presumably diamonds4 ,i told my fri5d ab\t ?is1 b nei!r %e nor ,i c\ld imag9e any significance 9 x4 ,at t "t we _h n ev5 met any ( our fell[-pass5g]s to speak to1 = we 7 all tak5 up ) settl+ into our cab9s & try+ to make ourselves z com=table z circum/ances w\ld p]mit4 ,= a :ole week ! same little bird & ! same r+ 7 p]si/5tly held up be=e me4 ,!n an inkl+ ( ! possible mean+ broke ^u me sudd5ly4 ,)9 a =tnight ( our sail+ ?is suspicion 0 confirm$1 & ! little bird's w>n+ or sugge/ion amply ju/ifi$4 ,b t is ano!r /ory6 ,curi\sly en\gh1 ! new sign 9 ! heav5s 0 )drawn z soon z ,i _h grasp$ its mean+4 ,i mu/ ha/5 ov] our delightful /ay 9 ,japan1 because among/ mu* ( extreme int]e/ f arti/ic1 social1 & v>i\s o!r po9ts ( view1 no?+ occurr$ :i* has any special be>+ on my pres5t subject4 ,leav+ ,japan ev5tually by sail+ f ,yokohama to ,vanc\v] 7,wa%+ton t]ritory71 ! old ?reads 7 once m put into my h&s4 ,we made ! acqua9tance on bo>d ! old ,p4 ,o4 ,abyss9ia ( ! late ,capta9 ,mac,arthur1 a k9dly & g5ial naval man4 ,he 0 an ,au/ralian by bir?1 b belong$ to our ,engli% navy1 & 0 j return+ home on 8 promotion z comm&]4 ,he became r int]e/$ 9 my que] ideas1 & end$ by sugge/+ "s exp]im5ts ) ! table1 s he p]suad$ ! %ip's c>p5t] to put toge!r a small r\gh wood5 table4 ,! sitt+s 7 held1 g5]ally aft] d9n]1 9 ei!r my cab9 or t ( my /able companion ,miss ,gre5l[4 ,s f> z ,i rememb]1 we ?ree 7 ! only sitt]s1 & ,i am b\nd to confess ! sitt+s 7 sometimes v monoton\s1 ev5 view$ f ! indulg5t p]spective ( a sea voyage4 ,9 fact1 ,i c n[ recall only "o incid5t ( any real value4 ,! de> old nurse1 spok5 ( 9 my op5+ *apt]1 _h n[ be5 = ?ree or f\r ye>s on ! o!r side ( ! veil1 b _h nev] giv5 me ! slighte/ sign ( h] pres5ce4 ,b %e came sev]al times dur+ ?is voyage1 & always ) ! same object--namely1 to entreat1 & f9ally implore me1 to give up a project$ t\r 9 ,alaska4 ,miss ,gre5l[ & ,i _h be5 prev5t$ f und]tak+ ?is1 two ye>s e>li]1 :5 visit+ ,victoria 7,vanc\v]71 & %e 0 v ke5 to g !re f ,wa%+ton t]ritory on ?is occasion4 ,i 0 n ke5 = ! exp$ition1 b _h made no /rong objection to x1 & x 0 und]/ood t we %\ld g toge!r4 ,?is 0 ! t\r :i* my old nurse n[ plead$ s anxi\sly %\ld be giv5 up1 s f> z ,i 0 conc]n$4 ,x w ru9 y\r heal?1 my d>l+1 %e said m ?an once4 ,don't g !re2 take my advice4 ,& on "o occasion1 j be=e l&+1 %e add$3 ,y w f9d lett]s await+ y :i* w enable y to make o!r plans4 ,?is prov$ true--9 a c]ta9 way4 ,! fir/ lett] op5$ 9 ! budget :i* fell to my %>e1 told me ( ! sudd5 dea? ( our family solicitor1 :i* w\ld h be5 a good excuse = a ha/y return to ,engl& _h any su* pretext be5 necess>y4 ,b ?is 0 n ! case1 = my companion1 al?\gh q det]m9$ to g to ,alaska h]self1 0 n 9 ! lea/ incl9$ to ov]-p]suade me to accompany h]4 ,%e 0 a v indep5d5t woman1 q accu/om$ to travell+ alone1 & ,i knew t nei!r h] enjoym5t nor h] conv5i5ce w\ld be affect$ by my decision "o way or ! o!r4 ,i _h no wi% to g myself1 &1 moreov]1 ?\ght x q probable t my de> old nurse's w>n+s might be amply ju/ifi$4 ,b !re 7 o!r grave consid]ations to be tak5 into acc\nt1 & ,i /ill feel t ,i adopt$ ! "r1 al?\gh n ! pleasant] c\rse1 :5 ,i all[$ my fell[-pass5g]s to dep>t ,ea/1 jok+ me on my want ( fai? 9 ! w>n+s f ! spirits1 & accompani$ my fri5d1 v unwill+ly1 to ,alaska4 ,my nurse's e>ne/ entreaties 7 only too fully ju/ifi$ on ! physical plane1 to say no?+ ( ! mis]able discom=t ( ! trip 7:i* 9 ^? days _h to be made 9 an ov]cr[d$ c>go boat47 ,i took a *ill 9 ^? ,arctic regions1 :i* lat] develop$ into ! longe/ & mo/ s]i\s illness ( my life4 ,x took mon?s to make ev5 a p>tial recov]y1 & ! effects w rema9 dur+ my life4 ,yet ,i h nev] regrett$ my decision4 ,?is little episode seems to ?r[ "s light ^u ! way su* w>n+s %\ld be treat$4 ,to give no he$ to !m on ! "o h&1 or to foll[ !m bl9dly1 9 spite ( e o!r consid]ation1 on ! o!r2 ^! seem to me ! ,scylla & ,*>ybdis ( our lives4 ,x %[s t we mu/ judge = ourselves2 we _c %ift ! burd5 ( responsibility on any o!r %\ld]s4 ,h[ c\ld we ga9 ! real education ( life 7 x o!rwise8 ,_h ,i turn$ my back on ,alaska ,i %\ld h ga9$ enorm\sly1 physically speak+1 & yet fail$ 9 a moral te/4 ,b my de> old nurse1 :o consid]$ only--probably saw only--! physical evils to be avoid$1 0 entirely 9 ! "r1 f h] /&po9t4 ,! fai?ful s\l 0 do+ h] be/ to %ield h] nursl+ f dang]4 ,a sev]e illness 0 entail$ by my ,alaska exp]i5ces4 ,liv+/one & ,/anley 7 once m sep>at$4 ,9 o!r words1 ,miss ,gre5l[ 0 oblig$ to return to ,engl& alone1 leav+ me to be nurs$ ?r\gh a long & pa9ful illness by k9d fri5ds & connections 9 ,toronto4 ,"o ( my doctors--! bro!r ( my ho/ess--k9dly made "t to take me & my nurse to ,new ,york1 9 ord] t he might put me "u ! special c>e ( ! %ip's doctor1 & also be able to c]tify1 z requir$1 t ,i 0 9 a fit condition to und]take ! voyage4 ,x 0 dur+ ! day or two sp5t 9 ,new ,york be=e sail+1 t ,i induc$ ?is g5tleman to accompany me "o ev5+ to a sance held by ,mrs ,/odd>t ,gray1 :o has be5 previ\sly m5tion$ 9 ?is n>rative4 ,dr ,!odore ,cov]nton _h all ! ord9>y doctor's prejudices aga9/ any?+ unse5 or unkn[n4 ,he _h read my book on ,am]ica1 & consid]$ ! *apt] on ,spiritualism a lam5table lapse f ! good s5se %[n 9 ! re/ ( ! book6 ,i repres5t$ to him t = a physician to d5y all possibilities ( ,hypnotism or ,mesm]ism1 ,?\ght ,transmission1 etc41 meant los+ "s v valuable aids 9 8 pr(ession1 & w\ld probably soon mean be+ left pretty badly beh9d 9 ! race4 ,kn[+ ( no specially good hypnoti/ 9 ,new ,york1 & z !re 0 no "t to f9d "o out1 ,i boldly sugge/$ t he %\ld plunge into /ill deep] dep?s ( folly1 & accompany me to ! h\se ( ,mrs ,/odd>t ,gray4 ,! usual p]=mances w5t on1 b :e!r ow+ to ,dr ,cov]nton's attitude ( m9d or o!r causes1 no?+ ( any special int]e/ to him or to me occurr$4 ,"o incid5t impress$ him1 ,i ?9k2 c]ta9ly he c\ld sugge/ no possible explanation ( x1 = x happ5$ 9 a v fair am\nt ( light & close to our feet4 ,a g5tleman & lady 7 sitt+ 9 ! circle :o _h br\ght ) !m _! little boy1 a *ild ( sev5 ye>s old4 ,i _h ask$ ! lady if %e consid]$ x wise to br+ s "y a *ild into su* a milieu1 sev]al h\rs aft] an ,engli% *ild w\ld h be5 put to b$1 & h] answ] 0 *e]y & *>act]i/ic3 ,well1 ,i guess we %\ldn't h mu* peace at home if we didn't br+ ,*>lie along ) u to see 8 ,granny4 ,we took him once1 & s9ce !n he always insi/s ^u com+4 ,he loves talk+ to 8 ,granny1 & he is n a bit afraid ( h]4 ,at ?is mom5t a small frail woman /epp$ out f ! cab9et1 & came "r up t[>ds u1 motion+ to ! little gr&son t %e wi%$ him to g into ! cab9et ) h]4 ,?is he did )\t a mom5t's hesitation1 & ! curta9 fell1 & conceal$ !m bo? f view4 ,! int]view la/$ = "s m9utes1 & :5 ! little boy reappe>$1 he 0 hold+ 8 ,granny by ! h&1 & 0 evid5tly on ! be/ ( t]ms ) h]4 ,i d n expect my read]s to believe me1 b ?is is exactly :at happ5$ next3 ,! *ild _h br\ght "s toys--a little tra9 & "s build+ blocks--to get ,granny to play ) him z usual1 & ! fragile old lady knelt d[n on ! floor1 & play$ ) him j z any ord9>y ,granny might h done1 only ) f> m agility4 ,9 ! v mid/ ( _! brick build+ & tra9 />t+1 a t]rible cata/rophe occurr$1 :i* spoilt ! re/ ( ! ev5+ = ! poor *ild4 ,granny _h evid5tly =gott5 t h] "t 0 limit$1 by conditions ( :i* we are /ill pr(\ndly ignorant4 ,q sudd5ly1 & )\t a ^w ( w>n+1 %e disappe>$1 n into ! cab9et at h] back1 b "r ?r\gh ! c>pet "u our feet1 & well )9 a y>d ( ! said feet1 & ?is ) two or ?ree gas-jets burn+ ov] our heads6 ,!re 0 no mi/ake ab\t x4 ,dr ,cov]nton & ,i 7 sitt+ next to ! fa!r & "m1 :il/ ! *ild & 8 gr&mo!r play$ at our feet4 ,"o mom5t %e 0 !re2 ! next %e _h disappe>$ l a fla% into a m]e cl\d ( mi/1 & ev5 ?is 0 quickly )drawn1 app>5tly ?r\gh ! floor4 ,no trap-door !ory c\ld acc\nt = ?is1 because ! woman _h disappe>$1 & only ! wisp ( e!real g>m5ts rema9$1 be=e ! latt] 7 also dissipat$4 ,we mu/1 moreov]1 note ! difficulty ( work+ a trap door imm$iately "u ! feet ( a sceptical "y physician1 :o at once inve/igat$ ! c>pet1 hop+ 9 va9 to f9d 9 x "s solution ( ! my/]y6 ,i h already m5tion$ t ! :ole incid5t took place1 9 light suffici5tly good to read a book )\t /ra9+ ! eyes4 ,! poor little boy 0 t]ribly upset1 & sobb$ bitt]ly4 ,8 p>5ts said !y _h br\ght him _m times be=e1 & su* a fiasco _h nev] be=e tak5 place4 ,mrs ,/odd>t ,gray 0 v indignant ab\t x4 ,too bad6 ,%e ought to h kn[n %e 0 /ay+ too long1 & risk+ a fright = ! *ild4 ,if %e _h only gone back into ! cab9et he w\ld n h be5 fright5$4 ,b %e /ay$ too long & _h n en\gh /r5g? to get back4 ,! *ild 0 too ?or\ghly fright5$ & upset to admit ( any consolation1 & ! p>5ts 7 oblig$ to take him away1 /ill sobb+1 & ask+ :y ,granny _h gone away l t & giv5 him su* a fright4 ,a ye> lat]1 9 ,london1 ,i took ,dr ,cov]nton--by appo9tm5t--to see ,dr ,c>l ,hans51 :o 0 !n giv+ hypnotic treatm5t1 & also do+ "s "w 9 demon/rations = ! ,society = ,psy*ical ,rese>*4 ,dr ,hans5 tri$ 9 va9 to put ei!r ,dr ,!odore ,cov]nton or myself "u ! influ5ce1 s 0 oblig$ to h rec\rse to 8 wife4 ,naturally ?is 0 consid]$ a mo/ suspici\s circum/ance by my companion2 b ,i notic$ t he 0 v mu* int]e/$ 9 8 conv]sation ) h]--f ! m$ical po9t ( view--& he 0 suffici5tly hone/ to admit t he c\ld n expla9 :at happ5$ 9 8 pres5ce1 ^u any normal hypo!sis4 ,,*apt] ,v ,,india1 #ahij-ahia ,9 ! mon? ( ,novemb] #ahij ,i />t$ ) a "y fri5d = my fir/ visit to ,india4 ,my companion 0 /ill at ! age :5 social ,india 0 naturally m int]e/+ to h] ?an ei!r ! hi/orical or my/ical aspects ( ! c\ntry4 ,&1 = myself1 ,i w5t !re 9 ^? days r to see ! glori\s build+s ( a magnific5t ,pa/1 ?an ) any view ( wre/+ occult secrets f ! ,fakirs & ,yogis ( ! ,pres5t4 ,x 0 well p]haps t "o's ambitions 7 s limit$ by ! ,possible1 = ,i am v mu* incl9$ to ?9k t ,my/ic ,india is & mu/ rema9 a seal$ book = ! ,engli%4 ,we mu/ always rememb] ! natural prejudices ( a conqu]$ race t[>ds ! conqu]or4 ,9 addition to ?is1 ! ,h9doo/anees consid] 7& :o %all say )\t ample cause87 t ,engli%m5 are hopelessly born & sunk 9 mat]ialism1 incapable ( ex]cis+ an imag9ation :i* !y don't possess2 ) a top dress+ ( conv5tional or?odoxy1 s f> z _! own special religion is conc]n$1 b ) no?+ b ridicule or ?9ly veil$ contempt = ! religi\s *annels ?r\gh :i* o!r races may be tak+ _! spiritual food4 ,we h giv5 !m only too mu* reason = ^! conclusions4 ,z a consequ5ce ( ?is /ate ( ?+s1 ,engli%m5 & wom5 are look$ ^u z q impossible f ! ,indian po9t ( view1 & a dev\t & educat$ ,h9doo w\ld no m ?9k ( discuss+ 8 transc5d5tal ideas ) su* p ?an we %\ld ?9k ( discuss+ delicate que/ions ( ,art--9 its v>i\s bran*es--) ! fir/ village yokel we happ5$ to meet 9 ! road4 ,i 0 confirm$ 9 ^! ideas by notic+ ! diff]5ce 9 ! welcome accord$ to a *>m+ "y ,sw$i% lady1 :om we met at ,b5>es on h] w$d+ t\r4 ,%e _h br\ght excell5t native introductions f h] own c\ntry1 :]e c]ta9 ,rajahs & ,mah>ajahs _h be5 ent]ta9$ by h] ,k+1 & ?anks to ^!1 &1 z %e said1 to ! fact ( my n be+ ,engli%1 %e _h access to _m int]e/+ places1 & took "p 9 int]e/+ functions1 f :i* ! re/ ( u 7 deb>r$4 ,i am hop+ to pay a ?ird visit to ,india "s day1 ) ! special object 9 view ( occult inve/igation4 ,x rema9s to be se5 :e!r1 by any =tunate accid5t1 ,i may !n be m successful 9 enc\nt]+ any?+ m int]e/+ ?an ! ord9>y clev] conjur]s1 :o sometimes pose z ,fakirs1 & may be f\nd by ! t\ri/ on e hotel v]&a 9 ,india4 ,mean:ile ,i am limit$ by ! title ( my book to p]sonal incid5ts1 z to :i* ,i f9d "o or two notes 9 my ,indian di>y4 ,mak+ ! usual t\r1 b includ+ ,lahore--:]e my bro!r _h liv$ at ,gov]nm5t ,h\se = sev]al ye>s z ,milit>y ,secret>y to ,sir ,rob]t ,eg]ton 7:o 0 9 8 day71 ,lieut5ant-,gov]nor ( ! ,punjab--we came 9 due c\rse to ,delhi4 ,our fir/ day !re 0 devot$ to trac+ ,mut9y relics ( all k9ds1 & ab\t f\r ,p4,m4 9 ! aft]noon we drove out to ! fam\s ,ridge to see ! ,mut9y ,memorial4 ,?is1 z mo/ p n[adays "k1 is a r$ /&/one t[]1 ) /aircase ( r\gh /one inside1 & small w9d[s pi]c$ ?r\gh at v>y+ int]vals4 ,x /&s ^u an ext5sive m>ble floor+1 :i* is inscrib$ ) ! names ( ! v>i\s regim5ts--(fic]s & m5--:o took "p 9 ! r5[n$ siege1 & di$ = _! c\ntry 9 consequ5ce4 ,z we drove t[>ds ! ,memorial1 ! :ole place seem$ to be 9 a flutt] ( excitem5t4 ,hundr$s ( coolies 7 flock+ r\nd1 & we bo? rem>k$ h[ mu* m int]e/$ !y appe>$ to be 9 ^! monum5ts ( pa/ ev5ts ?an ! correspond+ class ( ,engli% lab\r]s w\ld h be54 ,b on arrival we f\nd !re 0 no "q ( intellig5t hi/orical int]e/4 ,! fact 0 t a poor coolie--:o _h j climb$ up ! ,memorial ,t[] by ! inn] /aircase--_h fall5 out ( "o ( ! w9d[s describ$1 & 0 ly+ on ! m>ble floor bel[1 at ! f> side f u1 cru%$ & dy+4 ,we 7 told t an ,engli%man _h1 =tunately1 be5 pres5t1 & _h driv5 (f at once = a doctor4 ,s no?+ c\ld be done = ! poor man until ! latt] arriv$4 ,mean:ile our native s]vant--,bobajee--_h1 ( c\rse1 ru%$ (f to see :at 0 to be se5 ( ! trag$y1 &1 r to my horror1 my girl fri5d seem$ ab\t to foll[ 8 example6 ,x 0 t]rible to ?9k ( ! poor man ly+ !re 9 8 dea? agony2 b he 0 already surr\nd$ by natives1 & no real help c\ld be giv5 )\t fe> ( do+ m h>m ?an good be=e ! doctor 0 br\ght to ! spot4 ,!re=e m]ely to g & look on1 )\t be+ able to succ\r1 seem$ to me an add$ horror to ! trag$y1 & ,i turn$ r\nd r %>ply on my "y fri5d1 & expo/ulat$ ) h]4 ,z a matt] ( fact1 %e did n g2 b ,i am oblig$ to m5tion ! incid5t z acc\nt+ = a c]ta9 mom5t>y excitem5t & annoyance on my "p1 :i* prov$ to be factors 9 ! /ory ab\t to be relat$4 ,all[+ = diff]5ce ( "t betwe5 ,delhi & ,london1 a v old fri5d ( m9e1 ,lady ,w9cote 7:o 0 !n liv+ 9 ,london1 :]e ,i 0 9 ! habit ( visit+ h] con/antly :5 9 t[n71 0 ly+ 9 b$1 re/+ aft] a di/urb$ night1 at ! v h\r ( our visit to ! ,mut9y ,memorial4 ,x 0 ab\t noon 9 ,engl&2 %e 0 fully awake1 & _h be5 read+4 ,look+ at h] wat* %e realis$ x 0 "t to make a move if %e meant to come d[n = lun*eon4 ,sudd5ly ! door op5$1 & ,i walk$ into h] b$room1 & "r r\nd ! b$1 until ,i /ood betwe5 h] & ! w9d[1 :i* 0 to h] left z %e lay 9 b$4 ,i 0 dress$ 9 ord9>y outdoor attire1 & seem$ mu* excit$ & annoy$ ab\t some?+4 ,i 0 talk+ cont9u\sly1 z x seem$ to h]2 b %e c\ld n make out any connect$ s5t5ces1 & wond]$ :at _h upset me s mu*4 ,%e spoke to me1 ask+ :at _h happ5$2 b ,i took no notice ( h] que/ions1 /&+ ) my face to ! w9d[ & my back to h] = a few mom5ts4 ,!n ,i turn$ r\nd1 & delib]ately retrac$ my /eps1 pa/ ! ottoman1 skirt+ r\nd ! b$1 & 0 j disappe>+ ?r\gh ! door1 :5 %e made a f9al ef=t to attract my att5tion1 ask+ a v practical "q3 ,emmie6 ,d tell me be=e y g1 :at numb] y are /ay+ at 9 ,ox=d ,t]race 7! "p ( t[n :]e ,i always /ay$ at t "t74 ,lady ,w9cote said3 ,y made no answ] at all1 b :isk$ out ( ! door 9 a great hurry1 & !n = ! fir/ "t ,i rememb]$ t y 7 9 ,india4 ,x _h all seem$ s natural1 z y _h (t5 be5 9 my b$room1 t ,i only ?\ght at ! mom5t t y mu/ h return$ unexpect$ly to ,london f ! c\ntry4 ,my "o anxiety 0 to "k :i* numb] on ! ,t]race w\ld f9d y1 9 case y _h *ang$ y\r address !re4 ,n[ all ?is 01 =tunately1 writt5 out to me by my fri5d on ! v day t x happ5$--i4e4 #h? ,janu>y #ahia--;& cross$ my lett] to h] tell+ h] ( ! incid5t4 ,my lett] 0 writt5 a day or two lat] ,i ?9k2 b ,i 0 keep+ a /rict di>y at ! "t1 & "u date ( #h? ,janu>y h ! record ( ! ev5t1 correspond+ ) ! date ( ,lady ,w9cote's lett] to me4#c #c ,bo? my di>y & ,lady ,w9cote's lett] 7 %[n to ,mr ,my]s on my return to ,engl&1 also my lett] :i* cross$ ! "o f ,lady ,w9cote to me4 ,he 0 greatly int]e/$ 9 ! acc\nt4 ,probably 9 any case ,i %\ld h writt5 to tell ?is fri5d ( ! incid5t1 on acc\nt ( a conv]sation ,i _h ) ,bobajee :5 he return$ f 8 gha/ly ent]ta9m5t4 ,i _h look$ inside ! ,memorial1 & _h se5 t ! /one /eps 7 crumbl+ away & look$ v unsafe1 s :5 he came back & said3 ,some?+ bad inside !re1 ,lady ,sahib1 ,i conclud$ naturally t he 0 ref]r+ to ! /ate ( ! /aircase1 & attribut+ ! poor coolie's fall to "s su* cause4 ,b he d5i$ ?is /r5u\sly3 ,no6 no6 ,lady ,sahib--"s bad debil inside !re4 ,he ?rew coolie ov]6 ,!n he w5t on to tell u t on "o special night 9 ! ye> no native man1 woman1 or *ild 9 ! :ole city c\ld be induc$ to pass ! ,mut9y ,memorial at midnight4 ,! few d>+ s\ls :o _h pass$ !re1 _h f\nd ! t[] all light$ up inside1 & ! ,sepoys & ! ,briti% soldi]s _h come back1 & 7 fight+ _! battles ov] aga96 ,! man spoke 9 simple good fai?1 & assur$ me t all ,delhi p knew ?is to be a fact1 & gave ! place a wide b]? on t anniv]s>y4 ,! idea ( ! bad debil ?r[+ ! poor coolie d[n f ! top ( ! t[]1 foll[$ by ?is curi\s leg5d1 int]e/$ me z a bit ( folk-lore1 b my companion 0 dra/ic 9 h] rem>ks4 ,silly nons5se1 ,bobajee6 0 h] reception ( ! /ory2 & ?is made me feel int5sely sorry = ! mom5t1 t ,lady ,w9cote1 :o w\ld h be5 z mu* int]e/$ z myself1 %\ld n h be5 pres5t4 ,did ?is mom5t ( int5se desire = h]1 project itself into ! appe>ance %e saw 9 h] room8 ,:o c say8 ,c]ta9ly x 0 a curi\s co9cid5ce t %e %\ld see me 9 an annoy$ & excit$ /ate j :5 ,i 0 feel+ annoy$ & excit$--s _m ?\s& miles away4 ,delhi seems to h be5 specially fav\rable to psy*ic exp]i5ces1 = ,i f9d ano!r "o record$ on ! v day succe$+ ! la/ ev5t4 ,my fri5d1 hav+ "s slight ailm5t1 ,i _h driv5 out alone ) our native s]vant1 & we made a long t\r1 return+ ab\t six ,p4,m4 pa/ ,ludl[ ,ca/le1 ( fam\s ,mut9y memory1 & /ill--9 ! ye> #ahia--;a ,gov]nm5t bungal[4 ,! pres5t ,cz> ( ,russia 0 travell+ ?r\gh ,india at ! "t z ,cz>ewit*1 ) 8 c\s91 ,pr9ce ,george ( ,greece1 & !y 7 expect$ to arrive 9 ,delhi t same ev5+4 ,! ,royal p>ty & suite 7 to be lodg$ at ,ludl[ ,ca/le1 & 7 expect$ )9 an h\r4 ,bobajee jump$ (f ! box ( my c>riage1 & urg$ me to g look1 see6 ,no1 ,bobajee6 ,drive on--c't g look see--!y no let me 94 ,yes1 yes1 ,lady ,sahib1 he said eag]ly--ev]y?+ ready--all gone away--nobody 9 !re yet4 ,) our ,engli% notions ?is seems inconceivable1 b x prov$ to be absolutely true4 ,i w5t 91 expect+ to be turn$ back ignom9i\sly be=e ,i _h cross$ ! hall1 b !re 0 positively no "o !re6 ,! place 0 l a ,city ( ! ,dead4 ,yet )9 an h\r1 a banquet arrang$ = ab\t sev5ty p 0 to take place6 ,i made ! be/ ( my opportunity1 rang$ ?r\gh ! num]\s b$rooms--) hang+ ,japanese bl9ds %utt+ !m (f & ea* "o inscrib$ ) ! c>d ( ! special ,russian or ,greek g5]al :o =m$ "p ( ! suite4 ,at l5g? ,i /roll$ into ! d9+-room--a long1 n>r[ room--arrang$ = ! com+ fe/ivity 7at lea/ sixty to sev5ty cov]s 7 laid71 ! fl[]s arrang$ on ! tableclo? 9 ! pretty1 arti/ic ,indian fa%ion1 all ! beautiful glass & silv] plac$ 9 read9ess4 ,no?+ 0 want+ b ! pres5ce ( ! gue/s = :om all ?is prep>ation _h be5 made4 ,! %ort ,indian twilight 0 already ^u u z ,i /ood !re = a mom5t1 contra/+ ! dead & almo/ e]ie sil5ce1 ) ! lights & laught] t w\ld s quickly replace x4 ,a fireplace 0 close to me z ,i /ood at ! f> end ( ! room1 look+ d[n ! :ole l5g? ( ! table4 ,glanc+ up1 ,i realis$ t ! only picture 9 ! room 0 hung ov] ?is fireplace4 ,! picture 9 "q _h no arti/ic value--! pa9t+ 0 flat & poor2 ev5 ! subject did n /rike me = ! fir/ mom5t z any?+ v rem>kable4 ,x 0 ! portrait ( a man 9 ! prime ( life--ab\t ?irty-five1 ,i %\ld h suppos$--) ! long :isk]s & r prim pose ( a portrait made by an evid5tly poor arti/1 probably ?irty or =ty ye>s previ\s to my visit4 ,b z ,i look$ aga91 a curi\s s5sation came ov] me4 ,9 spite ( ! pa9t]'s failure to convey any?+ m l a liv+ man ?an a dead press$ rose is l a liv+ rose1 !re 0 some?+ 9 ! eyes ( ! portrait t held me1 some?+ t rose triumphant above ! arti/'s limitations4 ,at ! same mom5t ,i 0 consci\s ( a ,pres5ce beh9d my back2 ( somebody :o 0 look+ at ! picture ) me2 ( somebody :o 0 say+ to me 7n ) ! out]1 b an inn] voice73 ,t is a picture ( me1 b ,i am n !re--,i am "h1 close to y2 beh9d y\r %\ld]--,i am look+ at x ) y4 ,! impression 0 s /rong t x seem$ almo/ z if a h& 7 press+ on my %\ld]4 ,i turn$ r\nd involunt>ily1 b no "o 0 !re4 ,!n ,i look$ at ! picture aga91 & always ) ! same weird s5sation t ! man :om ! picture repres5t$ _h be5 /rong en\gh to make me feel 8 actual pres5ce 9 ! room1 al?\gh ,i c\ld see no?+4 ,!re 0 no "n on ! picture ( ei!r subject or arti/1 no possible clue to id5tity1 & look$ at z a picture alone1 !re 0 no?+ 9 ! flat1 conv5tional pres5tm5t ( ! features to acc\nt = my exp]i5ce4 ,?is made x ! m rem>kable4 ,i c\ld sc>cely te> myself away f ! almo/ ov]:elm+ s5se ( ! pres5ce ( "s /rong & /rangely magnetic p]sonality1 b ! fa/ fad+ twilight w>n$ me n to risk an ignom9i\s retreat4 ,s ,i w5t hurri$ly ?r\gh ! l>ge & h&some draw+-room1 :i* 0 fill$ ) portraits1 *iefly ( deceas$ gov]nors & g5]als1 _m ( !m admirably pa9t$1 & a /rik+ contra/ to ! "o poor & commonplace picture already se54 ,! absolute incongruity betwe5 ! impression receiv$ & ! object :i* r\s$ x1 l$ me to make inquiries1 9 spite ( my fri5d's jokes ov] my p[]s ( imag9ation4 ,anyway1 ,i am go+ to cle> ?is up1 ,i said ) det]m9ation2 & 9 a few days my p]sev]ance 0 rew>d$1 & my impression amply ju/ifi$1 by f9d+ t ,i _h be5 look+ at ! portrait--feeble & poor z x 0--( ,brigadi]-,g5]al ,ni*olson4 ,none ( my read]s ne$ to be told t if any dead man c\ld impress himself ^u ! liv+1 ?is w\ld be ! man capable ( su* a feat4 ,ev5 to ?is day !re is a small religi\s sect 9 ,india call$ ! ,ni*olasa91 :o h h&$ d[n ! memory ( ?is god r ?an man1 :o _h to dism\nt f 8 horse occasionally1 to ?ra% 8 w\ld-be wor%ipp]s1 & put a /op to _! inconv5i5t adoration6 ,ni*olson's brilliant a*ievem5ts 9 ! ,mut9y2 8 absolute control ov] m5 ( ! mo/ div]se "*2 ! devotion ) :i* he inspir$ 8 soldi]s1 & 8 own glori\s dea? 9 ! v mom5t ( victory--all ^! are matt]s ( hi/ory4 ,i feel glad & grateful to h kn[n1 ev5 = a few pass+ mom5ts1 :at t influ5ce _h be52 & :5 ,i f\nd out ,brigadi]-,g5]al ,ni*olson's grave at ,delhi1 aft] my ,ludl[ ,ca/le exp]i5ce1 ,i left my fl[]s on ! grave ( an hon\r$ acqua9tance1 r ?an ( a man kn[n to me only ?r\gh hi/orical records4 ,"o m incid5t1 or r co9cid5ce1 & ,i mu/ close my ,indian *apt]4 ,?is also is connect$ ) ! ,mut9y & ) ,delhi1 b ! special co9cid5ce1 to :i* ,i ref]1 took place at ,agra1 :5 my fri5d & ,i 7 /ay+ at ! hotel !re 9 ! e>ly spr+ ( #ahia4 ,"o ( my olde/ & mo/ valu$ fri5ds is ,lieut5ant-,colonel ,alfr$ ,s4 ,jones1 ,v4,c41 =m]ly ( ! #i? ,lanc]s1 & "o ( our ,mut9y h]oes4 ,z ev]y?+ connect$ ) t hi/orical trag$y seems to h p]5nial int]e/ = e ,engli%man--no matt] :at 8 cre$ or politics--,i make no excuse = furni%+ "s details connect$ ) my fri5d's c>e]4 ,8 record f ,h>t's ,army ,li/ is z foll[s3-- ,lieut5ant-,colonel ,jones 0 pres5t at ! battle ( ,budlekee ,s]ai1 & at ,delhi ?r\gh\t ! siege op]ations1 includ+ ! assault & capture ( ! city1 hav+ be5 ,d4,a4,q4,m4,g4 f #h? ,augu/ to #bcrd ,septemb] #aheg4 ,s]v$ ) ! #i? ,lanc]s 9 ,grea!ad's pursu+ column1 & 0 pres5t 9 ! actions ( ,bolim%uhur & ,alighur & battle ( ,agra--:]e he 0 dang]\sly w\nd$1 hav+ receiv$ a musket-%ot w\nd & tw5ty-two sabre cuts4 ,he 0 m5tion$ 9 ! despat*es ( ,sir ,hope ,grant on ?ree diff]5t occasions1 & has receiv$ ! ,victoria ,cross = tak+ a n9e-p\nd] gun1 ) ! assi/ance ( "s m5 f 8 squadron1 9 ! action ( ,budlekee ,s]ai 7m$al ) clasp & ,brevet ( ,major74 ,al?\gh1 z a *ild1 ,i _h he>d ( ! brav]y & ! t]rible w\nds ( "o :o 0 to become lat] 9 life "o ( my greate/ fri5ds1 ! actual details ( ! ,agra cata/rophe 7 hazy 9 my memory4 ,two ?+s1 h[ev]1 _h rema9$ firmly imb$d$ 9 my m9d--fir/1 t a bro!r (fic] _h told me t he 0 /&+ close by ,colonel ,jones :51 z a "y (fic]1 ! latt] att5d$ ! ,leve to receive 8 ,victoria ,cross1 & t ! ,que5 0 s mu* agitat$ by 8 appe>ance t %e c\ld h>dly p9 x on4 ,also1 t ?is bro!r (fic] he>d h] :isp] to h] husb&3 ,my ,god1 ,alb]t6 look at t poor boy6 ,he has be5 cut to pieces6 ,! o!r *ildi% memory is t ! ,taj _h be5 turn$ into a hospital at ! "t ( ! ,mut9y1 & t my fri5d1 among/ o!rs1 _h be5 nurs$ !re4 ,?is latt] prov$ to h be5 a mi/ake on ! "p ( my in=mants4 ,x 0 ! ,moti ,musjid 7! ,pe>l ,mosque7 :i* 0 turn$ to ?is acc\nt1 & 9 :i* my fri5d 0 nurs$ back to life1 to ! surprise ( all :o knew ! ext5t ( 8 disa/]4 ,x is specially important = p bless$1 or curs$1 ) psy*ic gifts to give no occasion to ! enemy by exagg]ation or inexact memory ( details4 ,s1 ) ! :olesome dread ( a well-read review] be=e my eyes1 ,i det]m9$ to g to ! f\nta9-head1 & ask ,colonel ,jones himself to supply me ) ! true incid5ts :i* make ! ,agra episode a mov+ picture be=e our eyes4 ,he has k9dly cons5t$ to d ?is1 & ,i give ! n>rative 9 8 own words3-- ,aft] ! fall ( ,delhi1 a column1 "u ,g5]al ,grea!ad1 0 s5t d[n to ,luckn[1 & z ?ree squadrons ( ! #i? ,lanc]s 7 told (f to g1 ,i resign$ my /aff appo9tm5t1 & w5t ) my troop4 ,aft] two fights--,bolim%uhur & ,alighur--we 7 hurri$ (f to ,agra1 sixty-six miles 9 ?irty-six h\rs4 ,b on arrival we f\nd t ! ,agra p _h recov]$ f _! fright & ,grea!ad 0 fool en\gh to believe _! /ory t ! enemy 0 twelve miles away1 & !re=e took up gr\nd = our camp1 j by ! gravey>d & p>ade-gr\nd1 :i* y w rememb]4 ,!re 0 a high crop ( sug>-cane1 conceal+ ev]y?+ beyond ! p>ade-gr\nd1 & aft] mo/ ( ! (fic]s ( ! :ole =ce _h gone (f to ,agra ,=t to breakfa/ ) fri5ds1 cannon-%ot began to fall among/ u2 & ev]yone _h "t to fall 91 z ! horses _h n be5 unsaddl$4 ,my squadron1 consi/+ ( ,fr5*'s & my troops1 0 told (f z an escort to ,blunt's ,batt]y1 ,f4,a41 :i* =m$ ! left ( ! l9e1 consi/+ ( our o!r two squadrons1 m ,f4 ,artill]y1 #h? & #ge? ,regim5ts1 etc41 all mov+ to ! front ?r\gh high crops4 ,!n we saw ! enemy--#gjj or #hjj y>ds (f--& ,blunt unlimb]$ 8 guns1 & began to fire1 :5 we soon saw a body ( cavalry mov+ (f across our front1 to turn our left flank1 & ,blunt said we mu/ g back to def5d our camp4 ,s he limb]$ up1 & we all 7i4e4 our squadron & ,blunt's guns7 began to /raggle back ?r\gh ! high crops4 ,b ,blunt said he mu/ leave "o troop ) two ( 8 guns1 & ,fr5*'s troop 0 /opp$ = ! purpose4 ,in/ead ( /ay+ ) x1 he felt s sure we %\ld h a *ance at ! cavalry we _h se5 7,mut9e]s7 t he came on ) me1 & toge!r we =m$ up my troop on ! p>ade-gr\nd1 close to ,blunt's guns1 :i* we saw already unlimb]$4 ,a squadron ( ,irregul> 7mut9i$7 cavalry 0 com+ 9 our direction ov] ! p>ade-gr\nd1 ) a blue squadron ( 7mut9i$7 regul> cavalry 9 support1 bo? trott+2 s1 ( c\rse1 we w5t = ! ,r$ 7head ( ! e*ellon !y =m$74 ,!n ,i saw ,fr5* %ot1 & ! h9d qu>t]s ( 8 grey horse pass r\nd ! left flank ( my little troop2 !n ,i gave ! ^w ,,gallop1 & ! ,r$ squadron1 to my surprise1 halt$4 ,obs]v+ its lead] tak+ aim at me ) 8 c>b9e1 ,i incl9$ a little to my left1 9 ord] to /ick him1 nev] dream+ t ,i %\ld be hit be=e ,i c\ld d s1 & ,i 0 almo/ )9 rea* be=e he fir$1 & 8 bullet w5t ?r\gh my bridle arm1 s ,i _h to take my re9s on my sword h& & jam my horse into ! ranks1 j beh9d ! squadron lead] :o _h %ot me4 ,n[ to cle> up y\r my/]y ab\t my be+ left to my fate 7,i _h specially ask$ ,colonel ,jones h[ he happ5$ to be left alone among/ ! ,sepoys1 ^: numb]s 7 regi/]$ by 8 sabre cuts 9 s gha/ly a fa%ion71 ,i 0 n left to my fate2 on ! contr>y1 ! man on ! left ( my troop1 :o alone c\ld see1 put 8 lance ?r\gh ! squadron lead]1 & /ay$ ab\t--outside ! r+--try+ to get to me to ! la/1 & got ! ,v4,c4 on my report to t effect4 ,my troop1 occupy+1 9 d\ble rank1 ab\t tw5ty y>ds1 w5t /raight on aft] ! tw5ty y>ds or s front ( ! enemy's probable front ( p]haps fifty y>ds4 ,s !re 7 pl5ty ( ,s[>s left to mob r\nd me & to keep (f ! man :o tri$ to save me4 ,( c\rse1 my m5 7 q "r 9 pursu+ ! brok5 =ce z !y did1 "r (f ! field4 ,?is acc\nt has ! imm5se advantage ( be+ tak5 v]batim f ,colonel ,jones' lett] j receiv$ by me4 ,x has ! disadvantage t su* a lett]1 f a brave man1 w\ld naturally possess--i4e4 t ( m9imis+ 8 %>e 9 ! episode to ! po9t ( mak+ x difficult = ! lay m9d to realise :]e ! h]oism came 9--:i* h]oism is a vital po9t 9 my co9cid5ce4 ,=tunately1 ,i h ! be/ au?ority = say+ t ! ,blunt m5tion$ 9 ?is record always ma9ta9$ t ,colonel ,alfr$ ,jones _h sav$ 8 guns4 ,x appe>s t at ! "t ( ! unexpect$ attack f ! enemy1 ,colonel ,jones & two or ?ree fri5ds 7:o _h n gone to ! =t7 7 breakfa/+ "u ! %ade ( ! cemet]y wall :5 ! al>m 0 giv54 ,my fri5d1 wi%+ to re/ 8 *>g] aft] ! long =c$ m>* f ,agra1 _h tak5 a sp>e troop horse1 saddl$ ) a hunt+ saddle4 ,:5 ! r\nd %ot began to fall1 !re 0 no "t to get 8 *>g]4 ,!re 0 no?+ = x b to put on sword & pi/ol & ride /raight 9 to ! enemy's ranks4 ,no wond] ! poor p %ut up 9 ,agra 7 en?usia/ic ov] ?is *>ge ( cavalry 9 _! %irt sleeves1 z !y call$ x4 ,9 #ahia ,i 0 /ay+ 9 ,agra1 at ! hotel1 ) my fri5d ( ! ,delhi incid5t4 ,a c]ta9 ,major ,pul=d1 :o _h come to ,agra to race "s ponies1 divid$ u at ! table d'hte4 ,he & ,i _h be5 neighb\rs = two or ?ree days1 :5 he ask$ me c>elessly "o ev5+ :at ,i _h be5 do+ t aft]noon1 z my fri5d confess$ to hav+ tak5 a day (f4 ,n[ ,i _h sp5t ! aft]noon at ! ,taj1 & _h made _m inquiries ab\t ! tradition t ?is build+ _h once be5 turn$ into a hospital4 ,no "o knew any?+ ab\t x4 ,"o old ,h9doo1 evid5tly ?9k+ ,i wi%$ him to say ,yes1 rememb]$ he>+ t ?is _h be5 ! case ab\t eighty ye>s ago4 ,?is la/ arti/ic t\* ( accuracy 0 fatal to 8 bon fides1 & ,i turn$ away 9 disgu/4 ,s ,i told ,major ,pul=d my /ory1 & we laugh$ ov] ! well-kn[n fact t a ,h9doo ( t class always tries to f9d out :at y wi% him to say1 & !n says x6 ,major ,pul=d ask$ :y ,i 0 s ke5 on ! subject4 ,because a v old fri5d ( m9e 0 badly w\nd$ at ,agra dur+ ! ,mut9y1 & f a *ild ,i h _h ! impression t he 0 nurs$ 9 ! ,taj4 ,no1 he answ]$4 ,i am sure ! ,taj 0 nev] us$ z a hospital1 b ,i ?9k ! ,pe>l ,mosque may h be54 ,?is w\ld acc\nt = ! mi/ake1 probably4 ,n[ ! po9t 9 ?is incid5t is ! fact t ,i _h n m5tion$ my fri5d's "n to ,major ,pul=d4 ,_h ! "n be5 a m di/9ctive "o1 ,i might h m5tion$ x1 al?\gh realis+ t ,major ,pul=d 0 too "y a man to h kn[n any?+ ab\t ! ,mut9y at fir/ h&4 ,we talk$ casually on ! subject = a few m9utes1 & !n he said3 ,( c\rse1 ,i 0 a baby at ! "t1 b ,i h read & he>d any am\nt ab\t x1 naturally4 ,my boyi% h]o 0 a fell[ nam$ ,jones ( ! #i? ,lanc]s1 :o 0 s awfully plucky 9 _! celebrat$ *>ge1 :5 surpris$ by ! enemy on ! ,agra p>ade-gr\nd4 ,i "k no?+ ab\t ! fell[ except :at ,i h read4 ,i believe he is alive /ill1 b !y say he 0 almo/ cut to pieces !n4 ,t is ! fri5d :om ,i ?\ght _h be5 nurs$ 9 ! ,taj1 0 my a/oni%$ answ]4 ,major ,pul=d's delight 0 unb\nd$ to h come by s /range a co9cid5ce ev5 ?us ne> to ! h]o ( 8 y\?4 ,= myself1 ,i recognis$ t ,i _h sat next to ! only man1 probably !n 9 ,india1 :o c\ld h giv5 me ! accurate & precise details ( ! :ole affair6 ,i "k e in* ( ! gr\nd1 & j :]e x all happ5$1 he said eag]ly4 ,d let me drive y & y\r fri5d ov] !re to-morr[ 9 my buggy1 & ,i w po9t out e detail4 ,he did s next day1 leav+ me ) ! mo/ vivid impression ( ! sc5e ( my fri5d's gallant fight = life1 aga9/ su* ov]:elm+ odds4 ,t he %\ld /ill be alive & active--ne>ly fifty ye>s lat]--seems little %ort ( a miracle6 ,,*apt] ,,vi ,,sw$5 ,,& ,,russia1 #ahib ,travell+ 9 ,sw$5 9 ! spr+ ( #ahib1 ,i c>ri$ ) me f ,engl& an introduction to ! ,sw$i% ,consul at ,gott5burg4 ,"o ( ! si/]s ( ?is g5tleman 0 m>ri$ to an ,engli%man--a ,mr ,romilly--& he & 8 wife *anc$ to come ov] = a visit dur+ my /ay4 ,speak+ ( psy*ic matt]s "o day1 ,mr ,romilly told me ! /ory ( 8 fir/ c\s9 7a well-kn[n woman ( title7 & h] ,egyptian necklace4 ,a pres5t _h be5 made to h] 7,i ?9k on h] m>riage7 ( a v beautiful ,egyptian necklace ) /ones ( ! exquisite blue %ade s well kn[n by travell]s 9 ,egypt4 ,^! special /ones1 alas6 mu/ evid5tly h be5 g5u9e1 & rifl$ f "s old tomb1 = ! own] ( ! necklace appe>$ "o night by ! lady's b$side1 & w>n$ h] t %e w\ld h no peace s long z %e p]si/$ 9 we>+ 8 prop]ty4 ,s ! lady v wisely lock$ up ! necklace 9 h] dress+-case1 & fondly tru/$ ! ,egyptian gho/ w\ld be satisfi$4 ,n a bit ( x6 ,9 a %ort "t he appe>$ aga91 & told h] t %e w\ld be haunt$ by 8 unwelcome pres5ce s long z ! necklace rema9$ 9 h] possession4 ,%e !n drove (f ) x1 & deposit$ x ) h] lawy]1 :o lock$ x up 9 a t9 case1 d\btless ) a secret smile at 8 noble cli5t's sup]/itions4 ,b ,nemesis lay 9 wait = him1 & ! la/ ?+ ,mr ,romilly _h he>d ^u ! subject 0 t ! lawy] himself 0 made s exce$+ly uncom=table by ! att5tions ( ! ,egyptian g5tleman t he 0 oblig$ to h necklace & t9 case buri$ toge!r 9 8 back g>d56 ,to h =c$ a lawy] into su* extreme measures 0 c]ta9ly a score = ! gho/6 ,a few mon?s lat]1 ,i met ! h]o9e ( ! /ory at a fri5d's h\se at tea1 & speak+ ( h] relation1 :o _h m>ri$ a ,sw$i% wife1 & :om ,i _h met 9 ,gott5burg1 ,i allud$ discreetly to ! /ory ( ! blue necklace4 ,my companion at once endors$ x 9 toto1 & did n seem at all annoy$ by ! fact t h] c\s9 _h m5tion$ x to me4 ,i rememb] t ,mrs ,romilly laid ! c>ds = me1 ) a/oni%+ success1 & told me %e _h le>nt ! my/ic lore f an old ,f9ni% nurse1 :o _h be5 br\ght ov] f ,f9l& by h] own ,sw$i% gr&fa!r :5 q a "y girl1 & _h liv$ 9 ! family until h] dea?4 ,%e assur$ me t ! ,f9ns 7 specially gift$ 9 all k9ds ( gipsy lore4 ,f ,/ockholm we paid a visit to ,russia1 & 9 ,/ ,pet]sburg ,i _h my fir/ p]sonal exp]i5ce s9ce leav+ home4 ,we _h engag$1 z c\ri] dur+ our /ay 9 ! city1 a ,g]man :o _h liv$ !re = =ty ye>s1 nam$ ,kntze1 ,i ?9k4 ,we 7 /ay+ at ! ,hotel de ,france1 & ?is man told me "o day t a celebrat$ ,fr5* modi/e _h rooms 9 our hotel1 hav+ come !re to %[ h] beautiful ,p>isian co/umes1 & to take ord]s z usual f ! ,russian ,royal ,family & ,ladies ( ! ,c\rt4 ,he also m5tion$ ! ,fr5*woman's rec5t mis=tune 9 he>+--s9ce h] arrival 9 ,russia--t h] tru/$ manag] 9 ,p>is _h disappe>$ sudd5ly1 c>ry+ away ) him #ajj1jjj francs4 ,two nights lat] ,i _h gone to b$ z usual ab\t t5-?irty ,p4,m41 & mu/ h slept = ne>ly f\r h\rs1 :5 ,i awoke feel+ ! heat v oppressive4 ,x 0 almo/ ! end ( ,june at ! "t4 ,gett+ out ( b$ to op5 my w9d[ /ill f>!r1 ,i gaz$ d[n ^u ! c\rty>d :i* x ov]look$1 not+ ! absolute /illness ( ! h\se & ! hot1 oppressive air outside4 ,sudd5ly ?is /illness 0 r5t by ! mo/ horrible & appall+ %rieks6 ,peal aft] peal rang out4 ,i h nev] he>d any?+ s gha/ly nor s blood-curdl+ ei!r be=e or s9ce4 ,= a mom5t x seem$ t "o mu/ be dream+4 ,:at horrors1 to ju/ify su* awful %rieks1 c\ld be tak+ place at ?is quiet h\r & 9 ?is quiet1 respectable hotel8 ,no?+ less ?an murd] sugge/$ itself to me1 & ,i quickly cross$ ! room1 & turn$ ! key 9 ! lock4 ,my next ?\ght 0 = my companion--! ,miss ,gre5l[ ( ,am]ican days4 ,%e 0 sleep+ next door to me1 ) an int]v5+ door betwe5 u4 ,i hamm]$ l\dly ^u ?is1 & f9ally op5$ x4 ,i knew %e always lock$ h] out] door1 b fe>$ %e might g into ! passage1 n realis+ ! dang] 9 ! mom5t ( wak+1 & might fall into ! murd]]'s h&s4 ,s ,i call$ out3 ,wake up--wake up1 ,miss ,gre5l[6--b don't op5 y\r door4 ,someone is be+ murd]$ out !re4 ,i _h he>d e o!r door 9 ! passage op5+1 & ! sc>$ inmates ru%+ to & fro1 s !re 0 no "q ( feel+ b\nd to give ! al>m4 ,miss ,gre5l[1 be+ an extremely lymphatic p]son1 0 /ill sleep+ ! sleep ( ! j4 ,i gave h] a good %ake at la/1 f9d+ knocks & calls ( no avail2 b %e only turn$ ov] sleepily1 murmur+3 ,oh1 x's all "r6 ,i don't suppose !re is any?+ mu* ! matt]--d g to b$ aga96 ,s ,i return$ to my own room1 & z ! horrible screams _h n[ ceas$1 ,i op5$ my door v g5tly1 & look$ d[n ! dimly light$ passage4 ,my room 0 a corn] "o1 exactly at ! head ( ! wide /aircase2 to ! left-h& side1 = anyone m\nt+ ! /airs4 ,exactly opposite my door1 ) a wide passage betwe51 0 ! room :i* _h be5 po9t$ out to me z belong+ to ! fam\s ,fr5* modi/e4 ,miss ,gre5l[ 0 evid5tly ! only p]son 9 ! hotel :o _h slept ?r\gh ! horrors ( t night1 = small gr\ps 7 ga!r$ toge!r at v>i\s po9ts along ! corridor1 & at e door "s sc>$ man or woman 0 look+ out1 anxi\s1 l myself1 to solve ! dreadful my/]y4 ,at t mom5t my eyes light$ on my special ,g]man wait] talk+ 9 a hu%$ :isp] to a musjig--9 ! usual r$ coat4 ,s ,i beckon$ to him1 & v reluctantly he came to my door4 ,be+ ask$ 9 ,g]man :at 0 ! mean+ ( ! %rieks we _h he>d1 he said at once t a lady _h be5 tak5 ill sudd5ly4 ,! man 0 a bad li>1 & a *ild w\ld h se5 t he 0 repeat+ a made-up /ory4 ,b no?+ m c\ld be got out ( him1 s ,i dismiss$ him impati5tly1 say+3 ,:at is ! good ( tell+ me su* nons5se8 ,i %all f9d out = myself to-morr[4 ,once m ,i %ut & lock$ ! door1 & lay = an h\r or two ?9k+ ov] ! gha/ly di/urbance1 & wond]+ :o c\ld h be5 ! hapless victim4 ,x 0 n[ ab\t five ,a4,m41 & full dawn4 ,z s (t5 happ5s1 ev5 aft] ! mo/ sleepless night1 ,i doz$ (f !n1 & slept = m ?an an h\r1 & dur+ my sleep ,i dream$--& ?is 0 my dream4 ,x mu/ fir/ be not$ t ! wide /aircase ,i h describ$ z pass+ close to my room 0 !nce cont9u$ upw>d to ! next floor4 ,9 my dream or vision ,i saw di/9ctly a woman 9 a :ite nightg[n1 ) d>k hair /ream+ d[n h] back1 ru%+ up ?is second flight ( /airs 9 ! mo/ di/raught & reckless fa%ion4 ,9 "o h& %e held a knife1 & 0 try+ to /ab h]self ) x1 z a musjig--9 crimson coat--ru%$ aft] h]1 & endeav\r$ to wr5* x out ( h] h&4 ,two or ?ree o!r p ran up ! /airs beh9d h]1 b only ?is peasant seem$ to h ! c\rage or pres5ce ( m9d to grapple ) h]4 ,9 a few mom5ts1 z x seem$ to me1 ! vision1 s />tl+ & cle> cut1 fad$ away1 & ,i sank into a dreamless sleep1 ,i suppose1 = x 0 pa/ six ,a4,m4 :5 ,i woke f9ally4 ,:5 ! ,g]man wait] appe>$ ) my breakfa/ ,i said r curtly to him3 ,y ne$ n h tr\bl$ to make up t fooli% /ory la/ night2 ,i "k :at happ5$--,i h se5 x4 ,he look$ v incr$ul\s1 s ,i w5t on3 ,! lady 0 try+ to kill h]self1 & ru%$ up to ! next floor ) a knife 9 h] h&4 ,i saw ! musjig run aft] h] & =ce x f h]4 ,! man 0 absolutely spee*less4 ,he said n "o syllable1 ei!r ( corroboration or d5ial1 b left ! room z quickly z possible1 look+ sc>$1 & c]ta9ly left ! impression ^u my m9d t my vision repres5t$ :at _h actually tak5 place an h\r or two previ\sly4 ,to my great surprise1 h[ev]1 our respectable & dep5dable c\ri]1 ,kntze1 gave q a diff]5t v]sion ( ! affair4 ,he came z usual to my room to take 8 ord]s = ! day--,miss ,gre5l[ be+ pres5t--& at once ref]r$ to ! t]rible trag$y4 ,ah1 poor lady6 y rememb] my tell+ y ab\t h] ! o!r day1 & h[ h] manag] _h run away ) all t money8 ,n[ ?is frightful mis=tune has happ5$ to h]1 & no "o kn[s if %e w survive x4 ,%e is /ill alive1 h[ev]1 & is to be tak5 to ! hospital at "o ,p4,m4 ,b :at has happ5$1 ,kntze8 ,i said impati5tly1 r irritat$1 if ! tru? mu/ be told1 by 8 my/]i\s allusions & ,miss ,gre5l['s assumption ( pr(\nd indiff]5ce4 ,( c\rse1 no self-respect+ p]son1 hav+ calmly slept ?r\gh su* a trag$y1 c\ld be o!rwise ?an indiff]5t next morn+6 ,kntze's /ory 0 f> m arti/ic ?an t ( ! wait]1 & 0 skilfully int]wov5 ) %r$s ( tru?1 z ,i discov]$ lat]4 ,he said t ! poor lady 0 9 ! habit ( mak+ h]self a cup ( tea 9 ! middle ( ! night :5 wakeful2 also t %e wore wide1 hang+ musl9 sleeves ) h] night attire4 ,%e _h ris5 z usual f a sleepless b$ to make tea ) h] little ,etna4 ,un=tunately1 %e _h set fire to a sleeve1 :i* at once burn$ up1 & 9 a few mom5ts %e 0 envelop$ 9 flames1 ow+ to ! flimsy mat]ial %e wore4 ,!n ! %rieks began :i* _h s ?rill$ our n]ves4 ,a ,russian g5tleman1 sleep+ ne> h]1 0 awak5$ by ! noise1 & kn[+ t %e 0 a ri* woman1 & _h br\ght _m valuables ) h]1 he conclud$ %e 0 be+ murd]$2 s he ru%$ to ! rescue ) a revolv]1 f\nd ! burn+ woman1 & he & ! musjig at l5g? succe$$ 9 putt+ out ! flames4 ,! /ory 0 well told1 & p]fectly cr$ible4 ,miss ,gre5l[ c\ld n resi/ po9t+ out h[ entirely x annihilat$ my vision4 ,no suicide6--no knife6--no ru% up ! /aircase6--no?+1 9 fact1 t might n h be51 &1 ( c\rse1 mu/ h be5 a m]e freak ( imag9ation dur+ my tr\bl$ sleep4 ,9 ! face ( ,kntze's quiet & detail$ /atem5t ,i c\ld only agree ) h]1 & s ! matt] re/$ = "s mon?s4 ,! poor woman mean:ile rema9$ 9 ! hospital1 & h] son & daught] 7 telegraph$ = f ,p>is4 ,we f\nd !m at ! hotel on our return !re1 ?ree weeks lat]1 f ,mosc[4 ,!re 0 !n "s slight hope ( ultimate recov]y1 b )9 six or sev5 weeks f ! accid5t ! un=tunate woman di$ f %ock & exhau/ion4 ,f ,russia we return$ to ,/ockholm & ,*ri/iania1 :]e ,miss ,gre5l[ took ! /eam] = ,hull1 & ,i w5t up into ! ,dovre ,feld ,m\nta9s to jo9 a ,sw$i% fri5d1 already m5tion$ 9 my *apt] on ,india4 ,i told h] my /ory ( ! poor ,fr5* modi/e & h] sad & pa9ful accid5t1 also ab\t my curi\sly vivid & yet inaccurate vision1 & we discuss$ ! latt] 9 q an ,s4,p4,r4 _s6 ,we 7 !n 9 a v remote "p ( ! ,dovre ,feld1 :]e =eign pap]s 7 practically inaccessible4 ,i _h left my fri5d 9 ,norway1 & return$ to ,engl& a week or two be=e receiv+ a v int]e/+ lett] f h]4 ,9 x %e said3 ,i h j got hold ( "s ,fr5* pap]s1 & ,i see t poor woman y told me ab\t1 has j di$ 9 ,pet]sburg1 & ! real /ory has n[ come out4 ,x seems t x 0 suicide aft] all1 s y\r vision 0 q true6 ,%e _h receiv$ l>ge sums 9 advance = commissions f "s ( ! ,russian nobility1 & _h ei!r sp5t or speculat$ ) !m4 ,t 0 :y %e _h to inv5t ! /ory ( an embezzl+ manag]1 to cov] h] own %ortcom+s4 ,b ! tru? 0 leak+ out 9 spite ( h] endeav\rs1 & %e made up h] m9d to commit suicide r ?an face ! horrors ( a ,russian prison4 ,! pap] goes on to say t %e *ose a mo/ t]rible dea?1 little realis+ :at ! torture w\ld be4 ,x seems t %e wait$ till ! middle ( ! night y describ$1 & !n cov]$ h] :ole body ) oil1 & set fire to x6 ,?is acc\nts1 ( c\rse1 = ! horrible %rieks y he>d4 ,9 h] awful agony %e seiz$ a knife--t %e _h ei!r secret$ or f\nd 9 h] room--ru%$ out into ! passage 9 a blaze1 & :5 ! musjig tri$ to /op h]1 %e ran f him1 & attempt$ to /ab h]self z %e made h] way up ! /airs4 ,all ?is y seem to h se5 accurately2 also ! fact t ! musjig pursu$ h] & succe$$ 9 wr5*+ ! knife f h] h&s be=e %e _h injur$ h]self ) x4 ,! pap] m5tions t a ,russian g5tleman _h gone to ! rescue :5 he he>d ! %rieks1 b ?is 0 be=e %e _h got hold ( ! knife1 & x 0 ! musjig alone :o sav$ h]1 9 ! end1 f imm$iate dea?4 ,dur+ ?is ,russian visit we _h gone d[n to ,mosc[ f ,pet]sburg1 & "h aga9 a curi\s adv5ture befell me4 ,x 01 z ,i h said1 9 ! height ( ! summ]1 & "o 0 ?ankful to h a l>ge1 h&some room1 ) ?ree w9d[s look+ ov] ! squ>e1 & ! fam\s ,kreml9 ,palace 9 ! di/ance4 ,my room 0 divid$ into two unequal p>ts1 sep>at$ f ea* o!r by a door :i* 01 dur+ ! hot season1 ?r[n wide op5 & fa/5$ back securely4 ,betwe5 ?is door & ! "o op5+ into ! out] corridor ! wa%+ app>atus /ood1 & also a w>drobe ( :ite pa9t$ deal1 ) a v poor lock to x1 z ,i discov]$ lat]4 ,on retir+ to re/ ! fir/ night1 ,i lock$ ! out] door1 undress$ 9 ?is ante-room1 & f9ally hung up my g[n 9 ! w>drobe ,i h m5tion$4 ,!n1 aft] look+ out ( ! w9d[s on ! fa/ dim9i%+ cr[d bel[ 9 ! squ>e1 ,i w5t to b$1 feel+ q *e]ful1 & look+ =w>d to a long night's re/ aft] a j\rney :i* _h be5 hot & tir+4 ,z s (t5 happ5s1 "o 0 probably ov]-tir$1 & sleep 0 n to be woo$ by any ( ! usual me?ods4 ,9 va9 ,i c\nt$ %eep gett+ ov] a h$ge1 add$ a hundr$ up backw>d & =w>d1 tri$ deep brea?+1 & o!r little p>l\r games4 ,x 0 absolutely useless4 ,twelve o'clock /ruck1 !n ! half h\r1 & ,i ga!r$ f ! /illness bel[ t ! good ,mosc[ citiz5s _h retir$ to _! respective homes4 ,?is seem$ an add$ insult6 ,!n "o o'clock /ruck1 & aft] t ,i lay = a seem+ et]nity1 be=e two /rokes f ! clock outside indicat$ ! half h\r4 ,sc>cely _h ! rev]b]ation ceas$ :5 ,i he>d cauti\s s\nds 9 ! corridor1 :i* gave me a good fright1 & made me regret ! sil5ce ,i _h f\nd s irksome4 ,! out] door ( my room 0 quietly be+ op5$1 creak+ on its h+es 9 ! mo/ ord9>y & commonplace way1 b evid5tly op5+ "u a v w>y h&4 ,!n ,i c\ld n h lock$ x aft] all6 ,& yet ,i felt s conv9c$ t ,i _h done s6 ,c]ta9ly ,i _h int5d$ to d s on my fir/ night 9 a /range hotel6 ,! be/ ,i c\ld hope 0 t "s o!r new arrival _h mi/ak5 8 room1 & 0 return+ late1 & consequ5tly try+ to be z quiet z possible4 ,?is fla%$ ?r\gh my m9d1 & br\ght a mom5t's com=t4 ,i expect$ to see a man's head r\nd ! op5 door at ! foot ( my b$1 & to he> a hurri$ apology & /ill m hurri$ retreat4 ,i say a man's head1 = ! foot/eps1 ?\gh s quiet & cauti\s1 7 )\t d\bt a man's foot/eps4 ,b sev]al mom5ts pass$ 9 horrible susp5se4 ,! out] door _h creak$ on its h+es & op5$ )\t a %ad[ ( d\bt4 ,:]e 0 ! man8 ,! door _h n clos$ aga91 s f> z ,i c\ld he>4 ,f my b$ ,i c\ld n comm& a view ( ! small] portion ( ! room1 :]e1 presumably1 he mu/ be hidd54 ,!re 0 no?+ b ! wa%-h& /& & ! w>drobe !re4 ,:at c\ld he be do+ or wait+ =8 ,my com=t+ supposition ( a mi/ake 9 ! numb] ( 8 room1 made by an innoc5t gue/1 c\ld n be /ret*$ wide en\gh to acc\nt = ! long pause4 ,p]haps x 0 "s robb] lurk+ ab\t ! passages6 ,he _h tri$ my door g5tly1 & f\nd x op54 ,i _h he>d ! door creak on its h+es 9 spite ( all 8 c>e4 ,n[ he 0 d\btless wait+ to make sure t ?is noise _h n awak5$ me be=e beg9n+ 8 op]ations6 ,?is 0 ! only reasonable supposition1 & ,i lay 9 absolute t]ror = "s m9utes1 fe>+ to /ir or almo/ to brea! at su* close qu>t]s1 & q incapable ( ris+ & putt+ an end to my t]rible susp5se4 ,i long$ to he> ! next qu>t] /rike1 b no?+ reliev$ ! dead sil5ce 9 my room & 9 ! /reets outside4 ,at long la/ ! qu>t] to two /ruck1 & some?+ 9 ! fri5dly tones ( ! massive clock reliev$ ! t5sion & gave me c\rage--! c\rage ( desp]ation--to /rike a mat* & light my c&le be=e />t+ on a t\r ( discov]y4 ,! middle door 0 fa/5$ back1 z ,i _h f\nd x :5 tak+ possession ( ! room4 ,9 any case1 t 0 n ! door :i* _h be5 op5$--! s\nd came f ! out] door4 ,i mu/ f9d out if anyone 7 hid+ 9 ! little dress+-room2 & 9 any case1 ,i mu/ lock ! out] door1 :i* ,i _h felt s c]ta9 ,i _h lock$ on com+ up to my room4 ,i pass$ ?r\gh ! op5 inn] door ) fe> & trembl+4 ,to my relief1 ! small ap>tm5t 0 app>5tly empty4 ,! w>drobe /ood p>tly op51 b no?+ m t]rible ?an my own g[n 0 inside x4 ,!n ,i made my way to ! out] door1 :i* gave on to ! corridor1 det]m9$ to make sure ( lock+ x firmly ?is "t4 ,aft] all1 x mu/ h be5 a w&]+ gue/1 :o _h discov]$ 8 mi/ake at once1 & retreat$ noiselessly6 ,i h seldom be5 m absolutely dumf\nd$ ?an :5 ,i turn$ ! h&le ( t door1 prep>atory to lock+ x1 & f\nd t x 0 securely lock$ already1 j z ,i _h suppos$6 ,h[ c\ld ! h+es h creak$ !n1 & ^: cauti\s foot/eps _h ,i he>d8 ,once m my eyes fell ^u ! w>drobe1 ) its *eap v>ni% & lock4 ,i _h c]ta9ly n lock$ ?is ov]night4 ,c\ld x h creak$ itself f>!r op58 ,x did n = ! mom5t /rike me t ! noise came f ano!r qu>t]1 & t ! foot/eps 7 /ill to be expla9$4 ,i 0 only too ?ankful to f9d ! b>e/ apology ( an explanation4 ,s ,i lock$ ! w>drobe z c>efully z possible1 notic+ t ! lock 0 n "o ( ! fir/ quality1 & once m retir$ to b$1 & put out my c&le1 greatly reliev$4 ,sc>cely t5 m9utes _h pass$ 7z ,i aft]w>ds asc]ta9$7 :5 ! :ole sc5e 0 enact$ once m6 ,! same cauti\s tread1 ! same s\nd ( ! out] door creak+ sl[ly on its h+es--!re 0 no?+ 9 ! lea/ uncanny ab\t x p] se4 ,x 0 j ! normal noise t any late com] w\ld make :o 0 ?\ghtful en\gh n to di/urb a sleep+ h\se4 ,b my impati5ce got ! bett] ( my fe>s ?is "t4 ,i 0 n go+ to be decoy$ out ( b$ a second "t on a wild-goose *ase4 ,x mu/ h be5 t w>drobe door aft] all6 ,z to ! foot/eps1 ,i don't "k & ,i don't c>e6 ,! *eap lock mu/ h giv5 way1 & ,i %all f9d ! w>drobe door has swung op51 ,i am sure4 ,) ?is com=t+ assurance ,i turn$ r\nd1 & 9 a few m9utes fell into a deep sleep1 aft] ! v>i$ excitem5ts ( ! night4 ,next morn+ ,i /epp$ gaily into ! small] division ( ! room to beg9 my toilet1 & triumphantly turn$ r\nd to conv9ce myself ( ! tru? ( my !ory ab\t ! w>drobe door4 ,to my inf9ite a/oni%m5t & p]plexity ! w>drobe 0 securely lock$1 j z ,i _h left x 9 ! middle ( ! night4 ,i h nev] _h any explanation ( ?is my/]y2 b ,i *ang$ my f9e big room = a mu* less desirable "o t morn+1 & made "s excuse ab\t wi%+ = a quiet] room at ! back ( ! h\se4 ,! next ev5+1 sitt+ 9 my new abode ) my travell+ companion1 %e %[$ f> m int]e/ 9 my adv5ture ?an 9 ! ,pet]sburg trag$y & subsequ5t vision ( m9e4 ,s mu* s t ,i invit$ h] to take a p5cil & see if %e c\ld get any sort ( explanation ( ! my/]y2 = al?\gh n at all intuitive1 %e knew some?+ ( :at is call$ automatic writ+4 ,i give h] n>rative1 n z be+ 9 ! slighte/ degree evid5tial1 b = its intr9sic int]e/1 & because ,i am p]sonally conv9c$ t %e _h n suffici5t imag9ation to h made x up on ! spur ( ! mom5t4 ,miss ,gre5l['s message 0 to ! foll[+ effect3-- ,ab\t fifty ye>s previ\sly1 a ,russian g5tleman 7an (fic]1 ,i ?9k1 b am n c]ta9 ( ?is7 & 8 mi/ress _h occupi$ ?is l>ge front room4 ,! man _h sp5t all day at a rifle competition1 comb9$ ) "s sort ( m]ry-mak+1 & _h return$ home v late--at "o-?irty ,a4,m41 9 fact--v mu* ! worse = dr9k4 ,he _h op5$ ! door v c>efully1 tru/+ he %\ld f9d ! lady asleep2 b1 un=tunately1 %e 0 n only wide awake1 b extremely annoy$ by 8 late return & ! /ate 9 :i* he _h come back to h]4 ,a desp]ate qu>rel _h ensu$1 & gett+ fright5$ by 8 viol5ce1 %e seiz$ 8 rifle1 giv+ him a bl[ on ! head ) ! butt end ( x1 hop+ to /un him1 b ) no idea ( murd] 9 h] m9d4 ,:e!r %e gave a m sev]e bl[1 9 h] n]v\sness1 ?an %e _h int5d$1 or :e!r ! rifle fell on "s specially vital spot1 0 n expla9$ 9 ! writ+4 ,anyway1 ! bl[ prov$ fatal--to h] extreme regret & remorse4 ,"u ^! circum/ances "o w\ld h suppos$ t x w\ld be m reasonable = ! lady to haunt ! room1 & n ! g5tleman2 b ,i tell ! tale z 'twas told to u4 ,x is1 h[ev]1 rem>kable t 9 mo/ ( ^! /ories x is ! victim :o appe>s--det]m9$ to enact ! sc5e ( 8 or h] dea?--& n ! murd]]4 ,i ?9k we 7 also told1 by-!-by1 t ,i _h slept 9 ! room on ! anniv]s>y ( ! occurr5ce4 ,x 0 obvi\sly impossible to get any corroboration ( su* a /ory4 ,two small po9ts 9 x1 h[ev]1 7 prov$ to be true4 ,! ,mosc[ hotels1 z a rule1 7 comp>atively mod]n at ! "t ( our visit1 & !re=e ! fifty ye>s ago seem$ highly improbable4 ,we le>n$1 h[ev]1 ?r\gh a few discreet que/ions lat]1 t ?is p>ticul> hotel _h be5 9 exi/5ce s f> back z fifty ye>s1 & also t rifle competitions _h tak5 place on c]ta9 occasions 9 ^? f>-(f days4 ,= ! re/ ,i claim no?+4 ,i h tru?fully rec\nt$ my exp]i5ce )\t a ^w ( exagg]ation1 & h nev] be5 able to acc\nt = x normally4 ,! explanation giv5 to u is1 ( c\rse1 j wor? ! pap] x 0 writt5 ^u f any evid5tial po9t ( view4 ,,*apt] ,,vi--cont9u$ ,,sw$5 ,,& ,,russia1 #ahib ,tak+ my exp]i5ces *ronologically1 ,i mu/ n[ c>ry my read]s back to ,engl&1 :]e ! autumn ( ?is ye> f\nd me 9 ,london4 ,i _h be5 ask$ to recomm5d a h\se = pay+ gue/s1 well situat$1 9 ! ,we/ ,end ( ,london1 & newly />t$ by a lady :o _h be5 left a wid[ ) v sl5d] provision4 ,sev]al k9d wom5 _h int]e/$ !mselves 9 ! case1 & _h wisely sugge/$ ?9k+ out a means ( livelihood 9 ! future r ?an m]ely supply+ pres5t wants4 ,x w\ld be difficult to imag9e a p]son less suit$ = ! sort ( employm5t *os52 b t is ano!r /ory4 ,i nev] c>e to recomm5d any?+ or anybody ( :i* or ( :om ,i h no p]sonal k2 at ! same "t1 ,i 0 anxi\s to help my k9dly acqua9tance 9 h] philan?ropy1 & z ,i _h arrang$ to sp5d "s weeks 9 ,london t autumn--to be ne> an invalid bro!r--x /ruck me t ,i might /ay at ! h\se s /rongly recomm5d$1 in/ead ( tak+ private rooms z usual4 ,s ,i j\rney$ to ,sussex ,g>d5s1 f\nd a *>m+ h\se1 newly furni%$ & decorat$1 & z clean z ! prov]bial new p91 &1 moreov]1 a v good-look+ mi/ress ( ! h\se1 /ill a y\ngi% woman ( five or six & ?irty4 ,%e spoke mo/ w>mly ( ! k9dness %e _h receiv$ f ! lady :o _h giv5 me h] address1 %[$ me "s pleasant rooms1 & ! arrangem5t 0 quickly complet$4 ,i *ose a small sitt+-room 9 addition to my b$room1 al?\gh1 z a matt] ( fact1 ?is 0 sc>cely necess>y1 z ,i 0 ! fir/ gue/ receiv$4 ,only "o deaf old lady appe>$ ^u ! sc5e dur+ ! six weeks ,i sp5t !re4 ,i _h n be5 =ty-eight h\rs 9 ! h\se be=e ,i discov]$ t my ho/ess 0 a conv9c$ & v rem>kable psy*ic4 ,naturally %e 0 delight$ to f9d someone to :om %e c\ld speak ( h] v>i\s exp]i5ces )\t be+ laugh$ at or put d[n z a lunatic4 ,at ! same "t ,i am b\nd to confess t ,mrs ,pet]s1 al?\gh extremely int]e/+1 0 also r agitat+1 & c]ta9ly mu* too erratic to make an entirely satisfactory ,*atela9e4 ,%e 0 giv5 to read+ ,aurora ,leigh1 in/ead ( ord]+ d9n]1 & _h to be s5t = occasionally to sit at ! head ( ! table1 ) a volume ( ,br[n+ or ,t5nyson firmly clut*$ 9 h] reluctant h&4 ,ev5 :5 duly f\nd & deliv]$1 curi\s ?+s happ5$ dur+ ! meals--especially at d9n] 9 ! ev5+1 :5 %e (t5 put d[n knife & =k & direct$ my att5tion to ! f> end ( ! h&some d9+-room1 :]e %e 0 wont to see ! gho/ ( h] late husb&4 ,look1 de> ,miss ,bates6 ,surely y mu/ see him--de> ,h5ry1 ,i mean4 ,!re he /&s1 be>d & all1 j betwe5 ! s(a & ! wall4 ,i c see him z cle>ly z ,i see y6 ,i am b\nd to say ,i nev] did see de> ,h5ry2 b ! f9e tabby cat c]ta9ly saw some?+ 9 t corn]1 = x w\ld ru% mo/ frantically to ! s(a1 jump on to "o end1 & sit />+ at ,h5ry 7presumably71 ) its tail /uck out & its fur ris+ up1 gl>+ into ! corn] ) a look ( comb9$ fe> & fasc9ation4 ,my little sitt+-room 0 invad$ at all h\rs by my too int]e/+ l&lady1 :o w\ld sudd5ly rememb] "s ?rill+ exp]i5ce1 :i* %e wi%$ to %>e ) me4 ,at l5g? ,i took to my b$ = ?ree days1 n 9 ! lea/ ill1 b simply = a mu*-ne$$ re/ 9 ! mid/ ( all ^! excitem5ts4 ,a day or two aft] em]g+ f ?is hav5 ( peace1 ,i receiv$ a visit f a "y lady1 ^: p>5ts 7 well kn[n to me 9 ,york%ire1 & :o _h rec5tly become engag$ to a v ri* man1 _m ye>s h] s5ior2 9 fact1 consid]ably old] ?an h] own fa!r1 :o _h lately pass$ away4 ,! daught]s ( ?is family 7 all devot$ to _! fa!r1 & mo/ ( ! visit 0 occupi$ 9 giv+ me details ( 8 la/ illness1 & 9 my sympa?is+ ) h] ^u 8 loss4 ,x 01 9 fact1 f> m a visit ( condol5ce ?an ( congratulation ^u h] future prospects ( happ9ess4 ,z to ! latt]1 ,i f\nd x difficult to be q tru?ful & yet conv5tionally ec/atic4 ,to m>ry a man ne>ly old en\gh to be y\r gr&fa!r /ruck me z risky1 to say ! lea/ ( x1 ev5 ) all ! emolli5ts :i* ri*es & position und\bt$ly add to dome/ic life4 ,! "y woman 9 "q did n at all res5t my frankness on ! subject1 b assur$ me t h] greate/ consolation 9 ?9k+ ( h] late fa!r 0 ! fact t %e 0 ab\t to make a m>riage :i* he _h always wi%$1 & ( :i* he _h emphatically giv5 8 approval on 8 dea?-b$4 ,i told him ,i _h decid$ ^u x1 j be=e he di$1 & he 0 s reliev$ & happy ab\t x1 %e said simply z %e turn$ to leave ! room4 ,hav+ m5tion$ t a y\ng] si/] 0 also 9 t[n1 ,i s5t a message to ! latt]1 ask+ h] to take e>ly d9n] ) me on ! foll[+ ,sunday1 :i* happ5$ to be my only sp>e day j !n4 ,on ! ev5+ ( ?is visit f ! com+ bride1 ,i _h accept$ an invitation to a l>ge musical p>ty 9 ! h\se ( ! lady :o _h begg$ me to int]e/ myself 9 ,mrs ,pet]s4 ,x 0 )9 a /one's-?r[ ( ,sussex ,g>d5s1 & ,i came d[n to d9n] at sev5-?irty ,p4,m41 int5d+ to dress lat]1 & g r\nd !re ab\t n9e ,p4,m4 ,= an h\r or s be=e d9n] ,i _h be5 consci\s ( a gr[+ despond5cy1 to :i* ,i c\ld attribute no cause1 & ?is increas$ s mu* dur+ ! meal t ,mrs ,pet]s notic$ x at la/1 & ask$ me if ,i 7 feel+ unwell4 ,no--n unwell--b ,i am absolutely mis]able1 & _c imag9e :y4 ,!n y h n _h bad news8 0 ! next rem>k4 ,i fe>$ y mu/ h _h1 see+ y s sil5t & n able to eat any?+4 ,9 answ] to ?is ,i said t ,i _h n ev5 ! excuse ( he>+ ( o!r p's mis=tunes1 = a "y lady _h be5 call+ ^u me t aft]noon1 :o 0 ab\t to make :at ! _w calls a v successful m>riage4 ,i did n1 h[ev]1 m5tion h] "n1 z ,mrs ,pet]s knew none ( my fri5ds4 ,d9n] ov]1 ,i felt /ill s unacc\ntably wret*$ t ,i det]m9$ to give up ! ev5+ p>ty1 & write my excuses4 ,mrs ,pet]s did h] be/ to combat ?is decision1 fe>+ t h] k9d b5efactress might be disappo9t$1 & also urg+ t ! ev5+'s enjoym5t w\ld *e] me up4 ,b f9d+ me inexorable1 %e !n said3 ,well1 if y h q det]m9$ n to g1 %all ,i come into y\r sitt+-room & see if we c get any explanation ( y\r curi\s feel+ ( depression8 ,i clos$ ) ?is sugge/ion1 kn[+ ,mrs ,pet]s to be a really rem>kable s5sitive4 ,s we sat 9 ! d>k = a few m9utes2 & !n ,i he>d a s(t fr\-fr\ on ,mrs ,pet]s' silk g[n1 & knew %e 0 trac+ out words ) h] h& 9 a fa%ion ( h] own4 ,x is a _s t "y lady br\ght ) h]1 %e ann\nc$ at l5g?4 ,! _s has rema9$ "h ) y1 & is worri$ ab\t ?is m>riage y spoke (4 ,%e wants y to try & break x (f4 ,%e seems to h be5 ne>ly relat$ to ! lady1 or p]haps a godmo!r2 anyway1 %e takes great int]e/ 9 h]4 ,w %e give a "n8 ,i ask$4 ,,eliza is all ,i get1 ,mrs ,pet]s repli$4 ,x !n occurr$ to me t my "y fri5d's "n 0 ,eliza1 & t %e _h be5 s nam$ aft] a great-aunt1 to ! be/ ( my recollection2 b z %e 0 inv>iably call$ ,elsa1 by fri5ds & relations alike1 x 0 only by *ance t ,i rememb]$ he>+ h] teas$ ab\t h] f> less romantic baptismal "n4 ,i ask$ if no surname c\ld be giv51 ?9k+ at ! mom5t t x w\ld be ,wav]ly--! family "n2 b my ?\ght 0 evid5tly n transf]r$ to ,mrs ,pet]s1 :o said %e c\ld n get ! "n accurately1 b t x 0 c]ta9ly n ,wav]ly4 ,i f\nd lat] t ! ,great-,aunt ,eliza _h a "n entirely diff]5t f t ( h] desc5dants4 ,no?+ fur!r happ5$ on ?is occasion1 except t ,i s5t a message to ,great-,aunt ,eliza to say t no?+ w\ld induce me to take ! responsibility ( try+ to break (f any m>riage1 ei!r by ! advice ( p 9 ?is sph]e or 9 any o!r sph]e4 ,9 ?is case ,i %\ld h _h nei!r ! au?ority nor ! influ5ce to make any su* unwise attempt4 ,sunday came r\nd 9 due c\rse1 & br\ght ! bride's y\ng] si/]1 !n a girl ( tw5ty-f\r or tw5ty-five4 ,we discuss$ ! usual midday ,sunday d9n] ( roa/ beef & ,york%ire pudd+1 ,mrs ,pet]s sitt+ at ! head ( ! table1 ,i on h] "r h&1 & ,c>rie ,wav]ly next to me4 ,sudd5ly realis+ t my rem>ks to ! latt] 7 receiv+ v scant att5tion1 ,i look$ up1 & f\nd ! girl's black eyes fix$ 9 a basilisk />e ^u our un=tunate ho/ess1 ^: own eyes 7 ca/ d[n1 b :o appe>$ uneasy & tr\bl$ by ! det]m9$ gaze ( my gue/4 ,at l5g? ! poor woman ?rew d[n h] knife & =k1 rose ha/ily f ! d9+-table1 & made h] way eag]ly to ! s(a at ! o!r end ( ! room1 :]e %e lay d[n at full l5g?1 murmur+3 ,i c't /& x any long]6 ,c>rie ,wav]ly 0 at l5g? induc$ to come away to my sitt+-room & leave ! poor woman 9 peace1 :i* %e did1 ass]t+ h] complete innoc5ce1 & assur+ me %e only want$ to see if %e c\ld make ,mrs ,pet]s look up at h]6 ,i expla9$ to h] t s5sitives may be z mu* upset by ?is sort ( ?+ z ano!r p]son w\ld be by a bl[ on ! back4 ,%e look$ incr$ul\s1 & !n said *e]fully3 ,well1 if x is z bad z t1 don't y ?9k y ought to g & see h[ %e is8 ,two = y\rself & y\r own curiosity & "o = h]6 ,i ?\ght2 b ,i took ! h9t1 & f\nd ,mrs ,pet]s /ill pro/rate on ! s(a1 b full ( apologies = h] sudd5 collapse3 ,y mu/ h ?\ght me s v rude1 etc41 etc4 ,i reassur$ h] on ?is po9t1 & express$ regret t my visitor %\ld h upset h] s mu* by look+ s fix$ly at h]4 ,x 0 n h] fault1 said ,mrs ,pet]s eag]ly4 ,x 0 ! man /&+ ov] h]4 ,he _h 8 h&s ^u h] %\ld]s1 & 0 try+ s h>d to influ5ce h]1 & %e 0 resi/+ x all ! "t1 & ! :ole conflict ( _! wills 0 ?r[n ^u me1 & ,i c\ld n /& x at la/--t 0 :y ,i left ! table1 %e gasp$ out4 ,c\ld y describe ! man at all8 ,q cle>ly1 %e said4 ,i %all nev] =get 8 face--,i saw him s di/9ctly4 ,%e !n proce$$ to describe 9 detail ! v cle>-cut features & bu%y eyebr[s ( ,c>rie ,wav]ly's fa!r1 giv+ also 8 col\r+1 :i* 0 v di/9ctive4 ,i sugge/$ try+ to f9d out :at he want$ to say to 8 daught]1 b ?is di/ress$ ,mrs ,pet]s s mu* t ,i 0 sorry to h made ! sugge/ion4 ,no6 no6 de> ,miss ,bates6--don't ask me to d t--de> ,h5ry nev] likes my tak+ messages f /rang]s--,i h promis$ him t ,i w\ld nev] d x )\t 8 p]mission4 ,x upsets me s mu*1 & ,i feel s weak already4 ,s ,i came away1 promis+ to look 9 lat] & see if ,i c\ld d any?+ = h]4 ,c>rie 0 naturally greatly int]e/$ by ! accurate description giv5 ( h] fa!r1 & 0 v impati5t = me to pay ,mrs ,pet]s a second visit4 ,i w5t 9 pres5tly1 & f\nd ! latt] /&+ up1 & 9 a /ate ( great excitem5t4 ,%e _h1 9 fact1 be5 on ! po9t ( com+ to u :5 ,i ent]$4 ,de> ,h5ry told me to take t message aft] all1 7 ! words ) :i* %e greet$ me4 ,!re 0 "s misund]/&+ betwe5 ! fa!r & ?is daught]1 & he wants h] to "k t x is all "r n[4 7,?is seem$ to me mo/ improbable1 z ! devot$ daught]s & fa!r 7 always on t]ms ( ! greate/ h>mony & mutual und]/&+4 ,yet x prov$ to be q true47 ,mrs ,pet]s cont9u$3 ,he is v mu* upset ab\t ?is m>riage4 ,he tells me he 0 s anxi\s = x :5 on ?is side1 b n[ he sees all ! difficulties & possible dang]s4 ,b he says x is too late to reconsid] ! /ep n[2 only he is s v anxi\s to secure ! int]e/s ( 8 daught] be=e %e m>ries4 ,he wi%es to "k :e!r h] settlem5t is sign$4 ,x is n "o ( :i* he w\ld h approv$4 ,& he says !re are two h\ses1 & "o ought to be settl$ ^u h]--y mu/ ask ab\t x1 de> ,miss ,bates4 ,he is mo/ decid$ & s dreadfully upset ab\t x all1 because he says x 0 he :o urg$ ! m>riage ^u h]4 ,i sp5t ! foll[+ fifte5 or tw5ty m9utes z a sort ( mess5g]-boy betwe5 ,mrs ,pet]s 9 ! d9+-room & ,c>rie ,wav]ly 9 my sitt+-room4 ,ne$less to say1 ,i knew no?+ at all ab\t ! settlem5ts or h[ _m h\ses ! prospective bridegroom might possess1 & hav+ no sort ( curiosity ab\t ! f9ancial affairs ( my neighb\rs1 x 0 n at all pleasant to be employ$ 9 ?is way4 ,mrs ,pet]s1 on ! contr>y1 seem$ to "k ev]y?+ connect$ ) ! e/ate & ! m>riage settlem5t1 except ! fact t ! latt] _h n yet be5 sign$1 al?\gh reluctantly pass$ by bo? ! lady's tru/ees4 ,:]e=e ?is special limitation 9 ! fa!r's k x is impossible to say4 ,he c]ta9ly %[$ no limitation 9 8 k ( ! bridegroom's "* & disposition1 & gave ! mo/ elaborate & detail$ in/ructions z to h[ 8 daught] %\ld behave t[>ds h] husb&1 & :]e %e might1 ) advantage1 cultivate tact & pati5ce4 ,my advice to ,miss ,wav]ly 0 to say no?+ on ! subject to h] si/]1 b %e wisely1 z x turn$ out1 det]m9$ to take ! responsibility ( tell+ h] ev]y?+4 ,%e telegraph$ to me next day1 ask+ if %e might come & see ,mrs ,pet]s & br+ ! bride ) h]4 ,?is 0 done1 & !y arriv$1 ) sev]al photographs1 l>ge & small1 ( ! fa!r1 & also ( ! bridegroom1 = id5tification4 ,c>rie1 9 fact1 tri$--a little unfairly p]haps--to make ,mrs ,pet]s id5tify ! wrong p]son by =c+ into notice a l>ge photograph ( ! bridegroom 7"s ye>s s5ior to ! fa!r71 & say+ c>elessly3 ,!re1 ,mrs ,pet]s--t is ! face y saw ye/]day ( my fa!r1 is x n8 ,b ,mrs ,pet]s w\ld h none ( x4 ,%e look$ /agg]$ = a mom5t1 !n caught sight ( ! second picture1 & turn$ to x ) relief3 ,?is is ! face ,i saw1 :e!r x is y\r fa!r or n1 %e answ]$1 ) decision4 ,! bride begg$ = a private int]view ) ,mrs ,pet]s1 :i* la/$ = a consid]able "t4 ,( c\rse1 ,i knew no?+ ( ?is int]view1 nor %\ld ,i feel at lib]ty to speak ( x if ,i did "k4 ,i may1 h[ev]1 be p]mitt$ to say t ,i h ! bride's own assurance t ! accurate k !n giv5 h] ( h] future husb&'s *>act]i/ics physical & m5tal1 & ! be/ way ( deal+ ) !m1 made all ! diff]5ce 9 h] m>ri$ life4 ,dur+ t int]view ,mrs ,pet]s also told h] ! numb] ( ye>s %e w\ld be m>ri$2 & ! prophecy 0 accurately fulfill$1 :i* is ! m rem>kable1 because1 z a rule1 x seems impossible to pr$icate "t1 ev5 :5 ev5ts c be =ese54 ,i am happy to add t ! m>riage turn$ out a complete success1 & t a m>riage settlem5t 0 made m 9 accordance ) ! fa!r's wi%es1 al?\gh nei!r tru/ees nor pr9cipal 9 ! transaction1 _h any idea t ! actual arrangem5ts 7 9 any way due to ! /rongly express$ wi%es ( a disc>nate _s4 ,if ?is book %\ld ev] fall into _! h&s1 & !y %\ld trace ! /ory 9 spite ( ! ?ick veil ,i h ?r[n ov] all ! circum/ances1 ,i c only tru/ t1 9 gratitude = ! results1 !y may become reconcil$ ) ! *annel ?r\gh :i* ^! 7 made possible4 ,p may say3 ,:at a t]rible idea t a fa!r or a husb& %\ld tr\ble himself ab\t su* sordid details z money1 h\ses1 etc4 ,b ?is is an extremely fooli% rem>k1 al?\gh x may appe> v spiritual on ! surface4 ,x is surely ! mo/ natural ?+ 9 ! _w t a ne> relation--if p]mitt$--%\ld endeav\r to secure com=t & happ9ess = a de>ly lov$ wife or daught]2 especially :51 z 9 ! above case1 he felt ma9ly responsible = a /ate ( affairs :i* might h turn$ out s disa/r\sly1 save = 8 lov+ c>e & =esight1 ex]cis$ z ^! 7 f ! o!r side ( ! veil4 ,at anyrate x disposes once = all ( ! we>y old ,cui ,bono argum5t1 :i* is s futile1 & yet s con/antly & triumphantly quot$ by /upid p1 :o seem to took ^u x z a pat5t ext+ui%] = any psy*ic gifts or exp]i5ces4 ,x is ma9ly 9 ord] to meet ?is s5seless obs]vation t ,i h includ$ ?is /ory 9 my rem9isc5ces4 ,mo/ ( u are deb>r$ f answ]+ ! ,cui ,bono bray1 by ! fact t our mo/ helpful exp]i5ces are g5]ally ( a too intimate & (t5 sacr$ nature to be giv5 to a sc(f+ _w4 ,b ?is in/ance has ! advantage ( deal+ entirely ) mat]ial matt]s1 & ?us be+ on a level ) ! ord9>y intellig5ce4 ,nobody c say 9 ?is case no good 0 done4 ,x only rema9s to be deeply %ock$ by ! undignifi$1 nay1 almo/ blasphem\s1 int]v5tion 9 mundane affairs ( a _s :o %\ld c]ta9ly h _h "s m wor?y occupation4 ,x is ano!r case ( ! old man & ! donkey4 ,if disc>nate spirits don't tr\ble ab\t ! p]sonal affairs ( ^? on e>?1 ! ,cui ,bono argum5t is hurl$ at !m4 ,if !y d1 !y are call$ blasphem\s & irrev]5t6 ,! m5tion ( ! ,wav]ly family rem9ds me ( an incid5t :i* took place :5 ,i 0 /ay+ 9 _! h\se 9 ! c\ntry1 a ye> or two e>li] ?an ! "t ( :i* ,i am writ+4 ,i h res]v$ x purposely z a sequel to ?is la/ /ory1 :i* is 9 its prop] *ronological sett+4 ,9 ! ye> #ahhi ,i 0 sp5d+ a pleasant =tnight ) ! ,wav]lys 9 ,york%ire1 at ! v "t :5 a de> old fri5d ( m9e 7,mrs ,t5nant7 0 dy+ 9 ,london4 ,i _h se5 h] only a week or two be=e1 b _h no k ( h] illness1 z we 7 n 9 con/ant correspond5ce1 al?\gh !re 0 a deep & /rong affection betwe5 u4 ,i did n ev5 he> ( h] dea?1 9 fact1 till a few weeks aft] x took place1 hav+ miss$ ! ann\ncem5t 9 ! pap]s4 ,:5 ,mrs ,t5nant's si/]1 ,mrs ,lane1 wrote me ! details1 ,i _h left ,york%ire1 & 0 /ay+ ) c\s9s 9 ,worce/]%ire4 ,?9k+ ov] ! dates m5tion$ 9 describ+ ! illness1 ,i realis$ ) a %ock ( pa9$ surprise t ! f9al /ate ( unconsci\sness mu/ h set 9 ! v ev5+ :5 ,i 0 enjoy+ myself 9 ,york%ire1 at a l>ge d9n]-p>ty giv5 by my ho/ & ho/ess4 ,x seem$ t]rible to ?9k t my de> & mu* lov$ fri5d %\ld h be5 ly+ unconsci\s ^u h] dea?-b$1 & t no ^w or sign %\ld h come to me4 ,!n sudd5ly ,i rememb]$ a curi\s little incid5t connect$ ) t d9n]-p>ty4 ,i _h be5 admir+ a pretty little slate-col\r$ kitt5 belong+ to ! h\se1 :i* 0 calmly sitt+ ^u ! gr& piano aft] d9n]1 :5 ! ladies 7 alone 9 ! draw+-room4 ,aft] ! g5tlem5 jo9$ u1 ,i 0 deep 9 conv]sation ) my ho/ 7a rem>kably int]e/+ & intellig5t man71 :5 ,i notic$ a small black kitt5 run pa/ my dress4 ,probably ,i %\ld h rem>k$ ^u x _h we be5 less occupi$ 9 talk+1 = ,i am extremely fond ( cats & animals 9 g5]al4 ,i did glance up1 z a matt] ( fact1 & satisfi$ myself t x 0 n ! little slate-col\r$ kitty1 :i* sat 9 /ill triumph on ! piano4 ,besides1 ?is kitt5 0 black1 n slate4 ,i ?\ght no m ( x until ! gue/s _h left & ,mrs ,wav]ly & ,i 7 go+ up/airs to b$4 ,%e & ,i 7 v aff9itive1 b nei!r %e nor h] family _h any special int]e/ 9 psy*ology4 ,on ?is occasion1 h[ev]1 %e said r my/]i\sly3 ,i ?9k some?+ w happ5 to-night to y4 ,a good _m jokes _h be5 made ab\t ! probably uncanny atmosph]e ( my room1 & ! v>i\s spooks :o 7 d\btless %>+ x ) me1 s ,i laugh$1 ?9k+ ?is 0 only ! usual family joke4 ,b ,mrs ,wav]ly 0 q 9 e>ne/4 ,at fir/ %e w\ld give no reason = h] rem>k1 fe>+ ,i %\ld tell h] daught]s1 & t %e w\ld be laugh$ at 9 consequ5ce4 ,reassur$ on ?is po9t1 %e said to me q s]i\sly3 ,:il/ y 7 talk+ to my husb& ?is ev5+ ,i saw a black kitt5 run /raight across y\r dress--j opposite to me4 ,well1 ( c\rse1 ,i saw ! kitt56 ,i answ]$1 to h] surprise2 b !re is no?+ v rem>kable ab\t a black kitt5 9 ! h\se4 ,b we h no black kitt5 9 ! h\se1 or any:]e on ! premises4 ,:]e did x g to8 ,y nev] saw x aga98 ,no2 x 0 n an ord9>y kitt51 & ,i did n suppose till ?is mom5t t anyone _h se5 x b myself4 ,x 0 a fact t no "o b ,mrs ,wav]ly & ,i _h se5 any kitt5 b ! slate-col\r$ "o already m5tion$4 ,?9k+ ov] ?is 9 ! light ( ! sad news ( my de> old fri5d's dea?1 & not+ ! correspond5ce 9 "t betwe5 h] loss ( consci\sness & ! appe>ance ( ! my/]i\s black kitt5--se5 only by ,mrs ,wav]ly & myself--x 0 impossible n to ask 9 ! dep?s ( my he>t :e!r1 p]*ance1 ! _s ( my fai?ful fri5d _h be5 try+ to s5d me "s symbol ( h] approa*+ dea?4 ,x may be object$ t black cats are g5]ally connect$ ) good luck4 ,well1 ,i ?9k my de> ,london "m1 z %e call$ h]self sometimes1 w\ld h expla9$ ?is app>5t contradiction v simply4 ,%e _h liv$ ?r\gh mu* sorr[1 & 0 (t5 oppress$ by sore d\bts ( ! ,cosmic ,love4 ,i nev] knew any woman ) su* /rong & passionate human sympa?y1 & to su* f9e spirits1 ! _w1 "u pres5t conditions1 mu/ always (f] t]rible problems4 ,h] sympa?ies 7 sometimes too ke5 = t robu/ fai? :i* c always say3 ,god's 9 ,8 heav56 ,all's "r ) ! _w6 ,yet h] la/ words 73 ,i am s tir$1 & ,god w und]/&2 & ,i am s glad to g4 ,to f9i% my *apt] on a m]ri] note1 ,i w m5tion an amus+ episode connect$ ) ! ev5+ ( ! black kitt5's appe>ance4 ,among/ ! gue/s invit$ to t d9n]-p>ty 0 a cl]gyman-squire1 a man ( "s means :o _h tak5 ord]s4 ,a squ>son is ! portmanteau "n = su* a g5tleman 9 ,york%ire1 ,i believe2 "o :o comb9es squire & p>son4 ,?is p>ticul> specim5 ( ! g5us 0 bo? a veget>ian & a celibate4 ,! latt] fact _h be5 made cle> to me by ! _m regrets express$ 9 ! neighb\rhood t he _h rema9$ a ba*elor ow+ to religi\s scruples4 ,! veget>ianism 0 equally c]ta91 = ,i _h he>d ord]s giv5 = special di%es to be prep>$ = ?is gue/2 & sitt+ next to him at ! d9n]-table1 ,i knew t he _h n t\*$ ei!r meat or game1 al?\gh x 0 n a fa/ day4 ,aft] d9n]1 :5 ! g5tlem5 _h jo9$ u 9 ! draw+-room1 ! conv]sation turn$ ^u psy*ic matt]s & my exp]i5ces 9 ,am]ica ( a few ye>s be=e4 ,?is extreme ,high ,*ur*man d5\nc$ all ^!1 lock1 /ock1 & b>rel4 ,he believ$ t ev]y?+ might h happ5$ z describ$1 b 0 equally c]ta9 t ! devil alone c\ld h _h a h& 9 su* go+s on6 ,p]haps x w be wise to expla9 t he did n make use ( ?is latt] expression6 ,my ho/1 in/ead ( com+ to ! rescue1 :i* he might h done1 z "o ( ! ,clo?2 look$ mu* amus$ :5 ,i field$ mo/ ( my adv]s>y's !ological balls4 ,at l5g?1 be+ unaccu/om$ to su* irrev]5t h&l+1 my enemy lo/ 8 temp]1 &1 z usual on su* occasions1 he tri$ to take my wicket by quot+ texts aga9/ me6 ,well1 all ,i c say is t ev]y?+ y h told u is 9 direct opposition to ,holy ,writ4 ,9 fact1 we are specially w>n$ 9 ! ,scriptures t 9 ! latt] days s$uc+ spirits %all arise4 ,at ?is fatal mom5t1 :5 ! ,!ological ,closure 0 desc5d+ ^u my unhappy head1 a really brilliant ?\ght occurr$ to me4 ,0 x a s$uc+ _s or a fri5dly intellig5ce :o rem9d$ me t my oppon5t _h only quot$ half ! text--! half t suit$ him8 ,i po9t$ ?is fact out meekly4 ,he look$ puzzl$1 & probably _h hone/ly =gott5 :at he did n wi% to rememb]4 ,f9i% ! text8 ,:at d y mean8 he said irritably4 ,s ,i f9i%$ x = him3 ,9 ! latt] days s$uc+ spirits %all arise1 =bidd+ to m>ry & comm&+ to ab/a9 f meats4 ,he _h press$ me v h>d & r unfairly4 ,/ill1 ! c\nsel ( p]fection w\ld h be5 to refra9 f ! comm5t t1 if ,i 7 a celibate & veget>ian1 x 0 n ! text ,i %\ld h *os5 ) :i* to cl9* an argum5t6 ,,an ,,int]lude ,i h head$ ?is *apt] an ,int]lude1 = ! foll[+ reason3-- ,x is ! only "o 9 ?is book :i* does n record a p]sonal exp]i5ce4 ,! opportunity came to me at ,flor5ce1 two ye>s ago1 ( he>+ "o ( ! be/ old-fa%ion$ ,*ri/mas gho/ /ories ,i ev] came across2 also a gho/ /ory :i* has two r unique advantages4 ,fir/1 x has nev] be5 publi%$ be=e2 secondly1 ! p]cipi5t 0 ! matron ( a boys' s*ool 7a well-kn[n "o71 & wrote out h] exp]i5ces )9 twelve h\rs ( _! occurr5ce4 ,n[1 ! matron ( a l>ge boys' s*ool mu/1 ( necessity1 be an exceptionally practical woman1 & h] daily exp]i5ces c sc>cely t5d to enc\rage undue ,romance or ,imag9ation4 ,:5 ,i add t ?is /ory 0 giv5 to me1 & a copy ( ! orig9al lett] plac$ 9 my h&s1 by a si/] ( two ( ! s*oolboys :o 7 "u ! matron's sup]vision1 ,i %all h cle>$ ! way = my gho/ to appe> ^u ! sc5e4 ,i mu/ add1 h[ev]1 t ,i met ?is si/]1 a "y wid[1 9 ,flor5ce1 two ye>s ago4 ,%e !n told me ?is /ory1 f9d+ t ,i 0 intimately acqua9t$ bo? ) ! c\nty & ! small c\nty t[n :]e x happ5$4 ,! matron _h gone !re = ! prosaic purpose ( tak+ ! ba?s = h] rheumatism4 ,! adv5ture took place 9 ! e>ly morn+ ( #ad? ,april #ahge1 & 0 record$1 )9 a few h\rs1 9 a long lett] writt5 by ! p]cipi5t to a fav\rite c\s94 ,my fri5d1 ,mrs ,b>k]'s bro!rs be+ at s*ool at ! "t1 begg$ to be all[$ to read ?is lett] & take a copy ( x4 ,! copy 0 made by _! si/]--!n a "y girl--& ,i h x 9 my h&s at ! pres5t mom5t ( writ+4 ,x is1 ( c\rse1 necess>y to *ange ! "n ( ! c\nty & t[n1 z ! old family mansion1 let 9 lodg+s 9 #ahge1 has s9ce !n be5 sold & turn$ into a bo>d+-h\se4 ,mrs ,b>k]'s "m made an exp$ition to ?is t[n1 a few ye>s ago1 to v]ify ! facts1 & w5t ov] ! h\se1 :i* has be5 consid]ably alt]$ & recon/ruct$ inside s9ce #ahge4 ,! small p>k m5tion$ 9 ! /ory is n[ built ov] entirely1 z ! t[n has increas$ 9 popul>ity1 ow+ to its ba?s1 & ! family portraits "h m5tion$ h be5 remov$ s9ce ! h\se 0 sold4 ,i w n[ quote v]batim f ! matron's lett]1 writt5 on ! morn+ ( h] exp]i5ces4 ,! ,priory1 ,grantwi*4 #ad? ,april #ahge4 ,,my ,,de> ,,edie1--,:5 y ask$ me once = a gho/ /ory1 ,i d>esay y z little expect$1 z ,i did1 h[ soon ,i %\ld h to reveal to y an exp]i5ce :i* w d\btless give y1 z x has me1 mu* gr\nd = ?\ght & speculation ab\t ^? my/]i\s laws :i* rule ! _s _w4 ,h[ true x is t ,?\ght & ,feel+ annihilate ,"t & ,space6 ,s9ce la/ night1 ,i seem to h liv$ ?r\gh half a lifetime1 su* an effect h its ev5ts _h ^u my inn] life4 ,b be=e ,i beg9 to relate ! /range circum/ances ,i h to tell y1 ,i mu/ describe to y m p>ticul>ly ?is h\se 9 :i* !y happ5$4 ,i ?9k ,i told y t ',! ,priory'--:]e ,i am n[ lodg+--is an old mansion1 belong+ to ! ,c>bury family4 ,= "s ye>s pa/1 x has be5 let to ! pres5t occupi]s :o make ! r5t by lett+ lodg+s4 ,"s anci5t pieces ( furniture rema91 & a great _m portraits1 none ( ! e>lie/ date1 b a h&some & respectable collection--soldi]s1 bi%ops1 & judges1 9 _! uni=ms1 robes1 & wigs1 & ladies ) p[d]$ hair1 hoops1 & tra9s4 ,( ^! portraits1 two h engag$ my att5tion1 especially1 f ! fir/ mom5t ( see+ !m1 b ,i am n go+ to speak ( !m yet2 my fir/ object is to give y an idea ( ! h\se1 or r t "p ( x ) :i* my /ory is connect$4 ,i ?9k ,i h told y t ! gr& /aircase goes up f ! inn] hall1 & t r\nd ! /aircase runs a gall]y2 9 ?is gall]y & 9 ! hall bel[1 are hung mo/ ( ! portraits4 ,on ! fir/ turn & l&+ ( ! /aircase1 !re is a door op5+ into a trellis$ walk :i* leads into ! g>d54 ,on a level ) ?is door is a l>ge w9d[ :i* looks on to sweeps ( s(t turf1 %ad$ by f9e trees4 ,/&+ (t5 to look f ?is w9d[1 z ,i pass$ up & d[n ! /aircase1 "o tree has always rivet$ my att5tion4 ,x is a l>ge old plane-tree1 /&+ by itself1 & hav+ a /range1 melan*oly1 decay$ look ab\t x4 ,i notic$--:y1 ,i _c imag9e--t on "o side ( x ! gr\nd 0 b>e & black1 ?\gh ev]y:]e else ! grass 0 gre5 & fre%4 ,i m5tion ?is1 because x _h /ruck me be=e ! /range ev5ts occurr$ :i* ,i am go+ to tell y4 ,y mu/ n[ g ) me to ! top ( ! /aircase4 ,j at ! top1 on y\r "r h&1 hangs "o ( ! portraits ,i m5tion$4 ,x is a life-siz$ pa9t+ ( ,capta9 ,ri*>d ,c>bury1 :o l&$1 on ! #ai? ,septemb] #agch1 9 ! ,colony ( ,georgia1 ) ,g5]al ,ogle?orpe's regim5t4 ,opposite to ?is1 on ! o!r side ( ! gall]y1 is ! portrait ( a lady1 ) black1 resolute br[s & full1 voluptu\s m\? & *94 ,%e has a high col\r1 an exquisite h& & arm1 & an ,amazonian be>+4 ,pass+ f ! gall]y1 y ent] a long passage1 lead+ to o!r passages & /aircases1 ) :i* we h no?+ to d4 ,i only want y n[ to become acqua9t$ ) my own rooms4 ,z y ent] ! passage f ! gall]y1 two doors op51 "o on ei!r h&4 ,to ! "r is my sitt+-room1 a squ>e1 *e]ful room1 look+ on ! /reet2 to ! left is my b$room1 :i* w require a m p>ticul> description4 ,x is a l>ge1 l[ room4 ,z y ent] f ! passage1 ! w9d[1 :i* looks into ! g>d51 is opposite to y4 ,9 ! middle ( ! wall to y\r "r h& /&s ! b$1 & opposite to t1 ! fireplace1 &1 z y w see1 if y h tak5 9 my description1 j at ! back ( ! portrait ( ! lady ) ! black eyebr[s1 is ano!r door4 ,opposite to ?is la/ is yet ano!r1 :i* caught my att5tion :5 ,i fir/ ent]$ ! room f a peculi>ity ab\t x4 ,! upp] "p ( ?is door is ( glass1 r5d]$ opaque by be+ wa%$ or l9$ ) "s r$ sub/ance4 ,z soon z ,i 0 alone 9 ! room ,i tri$ to op5 ?is door1 b x 0 firmly fa/5$4 ,i don't "k :y ,i %\ld h felt disquiet$ by ?is circum/ance1 b c]ta9ly ,i did feel annoy$4 ,i ?\ght at fir/ t x probably op5$ into a dress+-room4 ,!re mu/ h be5 a /rong light beh9d x1 = a r$ light always fell on t side ( ! room ?r\gh ! col\r$ glass1 & ,i c\ld see t r$ light 9 ! morn+1 be=e any light p5etrat$ ! w9d[-bl9d4 ,i ?9k ,i h n[ told y all t is necess>y = und]/&+ my exp]i5ce4 ,i mu/ ask y to rememb] t ye/]day 0 ! ?irte5? ( ,april4 ,i w5t to b$ ab\t elev5 o'clock1 & soon fell asleep4 ,i c\ld n1 h[ev]1 h slept long be=e ,i woke ) an unusual feel+ t some?+ /range 0 go+ to happ54 ,i awoke1 n z "o does 9 ! morn+1 ) a dr[sy resolve n to g to sleep aga9 because x is "t to get up1 b z "o awakes :5 a j\rney or "s simil> ev5t is imm95t1 = :i* "o's faculties h to be cle>1 & "o's body active & al]t4 ,i 0 r wond]+ at & enjoy+ ! unusual cle>ness & en]gy ( ?\ght ( :i* ,i felt capable1 :5 ! clock 9 ! hall began /rik+1 &1 almo/ at ! same mom5t1 ! clock ( ! old ,*ur* ( ,/ ,&rew began /rik+ also4 ,i knew t bo? 7 /rik+ twelve1 ?\gh ,i did n c\nt ! bl[s1 b j z ! la/ /roke ( ! *ur* clock di$ away1 ano!r s\nd caught my e>4 ,! door by ! fireplace gave a l\d crack & !n op5$1 z if ) "s difficulty4 ,! r$ door at ! same "t rattl$1 z if someone 7 try+ va9ly to op5 x4 ,! room _h previ\sly be5 d>k1 b ,i n[ pla9ly saw a tall figure come ?r\gh ! doorway & /& ne> ! foot ( ! b$4 ,!re 0 a dull1 yell[i% light r\nd ! figure1 :i* illum9$ x1 leav+ ! re/ ( ! room 9 d>kness2 b ?is yell[ light1 ,i p]ceiv$1 became r$ at "o po9t ( ! figure's left side1 & %one d[n on ! floor ) a r$ gl[1 l t :i* came ?r\gh ! opposite door4 ,! app>ition /ood q sil5t :il/ ,i look$ at x4 ,! features & figure 7 famili> to me = !y 7 ^? ( ,capta9 ,ri*>d ,c>bury1 9 ! portrait1 :o _h gone out to ,georgia ) ! regim5t ( ,8 ,excell5cy1 ,g5]al ,ogle?orpe6 ,z soon z ,i 0 sure ( ?is1 ,i said3 ',y are ,capta9 ,ri*>d ,c>bury8' ,! app>ition nodd$4 ',:y d y come to me8' ,i said4 ',_c y speak8' ,he seem$ to h "s difficulty 9 do+ s1 b aft] two or ?ree ef=ts1 su* z "o makes to move a ru/y h+e1 he p>t$ 8 lips1 & said3 ',yes6 ,i am ,ri*>d ,c>bury1 & ,i am come to make y a witness4' ',a witness ( :at8' ,i said4 ',c ,i be ( use to y8 ,y come f ! _s _w4 ,is x !n p]mitt$ to mortals to h p]sonal int]c\rse ) spirits8' ,he held up 8 h& z if to sil5ce me4 ',li/5 to me1' he said4 ',y are n fright5$ ( me8' ',no1' ,i repli$2 nor did ,i feel ! slighte/ awe or fe>4 ,i felt /imulat$1 a k9d ( electricity ran ?r\gh my ve9s--,i long$ e>ne/ly to le>n some?+ ( ! my/]i\s realm f :i* he came1 b ,i _h no vulg> or sup]/iti\s fe>4 ',nor ne$ y h any dread1' he return$4 ',i h no wi% nor p[] to hurt y1 b y mu/ li/5 to my /ory4 ,once 9 fifty ye>s ,i am all[$ to leave my grave & revisit ! sc5e ( my tragical dea?1 & ?is mu/ always be on ! #ad? ( ,april1 :i* is ! anniv]s>y ( ! ev5t4#d ,i am also p]mitt$ to rec\nt my /ory if ,i f9d anyone sleep+ 9 ?is room :o is will+ to li/5 to me4 ,are y will+8' #d ,!re is evid5tly "s mi/ake "h 9 ! figures giv5 by ! gho/ or receiv$ by ! matron4 ,if 8 dea? took place 9 #agda 7?ree ye>s aft] l&+ 9 ,georgia71 8 fir/ _s return 0 due 9 #agia1 ! second1 #ahda1 & ! ?ird1 n till #ahia4 ,x appe>s to h be5 anticipat$ by sixte5 ye>s1 if ! dates giv5 are correct4 ,a fri5d sugge/s t once 9 fifty ye>s does n necessitate exact int]vals ( fifty ye>s4 ,i repli$ t ,i %\ld gladly he> :at he _h to tell1 b w\ld he all[ me to ask him "o "q8 ,he incl9$ 8 head 9 ass5t1 & ,i said ,i _h always ?\ght t ! spirits ( ! dead1 if !y 7 all[$ to appe> on e>?1 came ) %ad[y & skeleton =ms4 ,:y did he appe> ) fle% l a liv+ man8 ',ah6' he said1 't is ow+ to ! peculi>ity ( my grave4 ,i am buri$ 9 salt4' ' ,h y any?+ m to ask8' said my visitor4 ',no?+ m at pres5t1' ,i repli$4 ',i am ready n[ to he> y\r /ory4' ',i w make x z %ort z possible & n deta9 y long4 ,y h notic$ my portrait 9 ! gall]y8' ',yes4' ',& t ( ! lady opposite1 my c\s91 ,lucretia ,c>bury8' ',c]ta9ly4' 7,"h ! r$ door 0 viol5tly %ak574 ',%e _c op5 x1' said ,capta9 ,c>bury1 'x is seal$4' ',:5 ,i w5t out to ,georgia1' he resum$1 '9 #agch1 ,i 0 engag$ to be m>ri$ to h]2 we _h be5 betro!d by our p>5ts 9 our *ildhood1 & family reasons made x almo/ a necessity t we %\ld be unit$1 b z we grew up nei!r ( u 0 v anxi\s to fulfil ! engagem5t1 &1 to tell ! tru?1 ,i 0 glad ( ! summons to jo9 my regim5t4 ,h[ev]1 aft] ?ree ye>s 9 t di/ant colony1 ,i came home1 hav+ made up my m9d ,i w\ld m>ry ,lucretia & settle d[n on ! family prop]ty--:i* c\ld only be enjoy$ by t means--= we 7 ! only repres5tatives ( ! family1 & ! prop]ty 0 s left by our fa!rs t only by m>ry+ c\ld we ent] into possession4 ,ei!r by m>ry+ or by ! dea? ( "o ( u2 :5 ! :ole ( ! prop]ty w\ld g to ! o!r4 ,i knew t ,lucretia 0 at ! old h\se at ,grantwi*1 & ,i came /raight to h]4 ',i _h writt5 to say :5 %e might expect me1 & %e receiv$ me ) app>5t k9dness & agre$ to all my propositions ab\t our m>riage4 ,i arriv$ late at night1 & %e let me into ! h\se h]self & got food = me4 ,we supp$ toge!r1 & %e pl$g$ me 9 a cup1 :i* ,i n[ "k 0 drugg$ to make me sleep heavily4 ',i !n retir$ to my room--?is room1 ?is b$1 on :i* y n[ lie6 ',:at ,i am n[ go+ to tell y has be5 made cle> to me s9ce2 at ! "t ,i 0 consci\s ( no?+4 ,z soon z ,i got into b$1 ,i fell asleep1 & :il/ ,i ?us slept ,lucretia came ?r\gh t door 7po9t+ to ! r$ door opposite71 & /abb$ me to ! he>t4 ,i w %[ y ! in/rum5t ) :i* %e did x1 if y l4' ',pray d1' ,i said1 & he unbutton$ 8 sc>let uni=m coat & drew f 8 left side a sl5d] dagg] or /iletto4 ,i look$ at x ) great int]e/ & ask$ if ,i might take x 9 my h&4 ',c]ta9ly1 if y wi% x1' he said1 'b ,i d n advise y to t\* x4 ,x is ru/y n[ f ! salt1 b ,i assure y x 0 bright & ke5 :5 %e drove x into my he>t4 ,! /roke 0 s clev]ly aim$ t ,i di$ in/antly4 ,lucretia !n made a signal1 :i* 0 answ]$ by ! entrance ( a man1 & betwe5 !m !y c>ri$ my body ?r\gh ! door by :i* ,i ent]$ to-night4' ,he paus$1 & ,i ?\ght he look$ m gha/ly4 ',is any?+ ! matt]8' ,i ask$4 ',i am ?9k+1' he answ]$1 't ,i c %[ y ! re/1 if y w foll[ me1 b ,i mu/ tell y t :5 we leave ?is room & ent] ! gall]y1 x is possible ! murd]ess w foll[ u4 ,%all y be afraid8' ',n 9 ! lea/1' ,i said1 ',i w foll[ y ) pleasure1 b y mu/ all[ me to put some?+ on1 z ,i am suff]+ f rheumatism1 & am afraid ( ! cold & damp4' ',by all means1' said ,capta9 ,c>bury4 ',i w wait = y 9 ! gall]y4' ,i !n got up & put on my dress+-g[n & slipp]s4 ,:il/ ,i 0 do+ s1 ,i he>d a ru/l+ 9 ! passage z ( a woman pass+ sl[ly along4 ,i f\nd ,capta9 ,c>bury1 & foll[$ him along ! gall]y )\t look+ r\nd1 b :5 we rea*$ ! end ( ! gall]y & turn$ to g d[n ! fir/ flight ( /airs1 ,i saw ! lady ) ! black br[s--:om ,i n[ knew to be ,lucretia ,c>bury1 ! murd]ess--/&+ 9 ! doorway1 betwe5 ! gall]y & ! passage4 ',i d n ?9k %e c come any f>!r1' said my guide1 & he op5$ ! door lead+ f ! /aircase into ! g>d54 ',i am %[+ y j :]e !y br\ght me1' said he4 ',:o 0 ! man8' ,i ask$4 ',i nev] knew 8 "n1 b %e m>ri$ him aft]w>ds4' ,he !n mov$ across ! lawn to ! b>e spot "u ! plane-tree4 ,"h he /opp$1 &1 po9t+ d[nw>ds1 %[$ me on ! b>e gr\nd an exact outl9e ( ! dagg] :i* he _h drawn f 8 side4 ',"h !y dug my grave & "h !y buri$ me2 a salt spr+ wa%es ov] me4' ,at ?is mom5t ! great clock ( ,/ ,&rew /ruck ,,"o4 ',all t y h told me is v sad & /range1' ,i said1 'b n[1 w y all[ me to ask y :y y h appe>$ to me8 ,is !re any?+ y want done on e>? t ,i c d8 ,is !re any re/itution to be made1 or ju/ice to be adm9i/]$8 ,any?+ t y require1 ,i am ready to d1 if y w grant me "o fav\r :5 y return to ! _s realm4' ,i _h be5 speak+ ) my eyes fix$ on ! gr\nd1 b n[1 happ5+ to raise !m1 ,i 0 surpris$ to see t my companion appe>$ to be s9k+ into ! gr\nd4 ',my "t is up1' he said4 ',rememb]6'--&1 z 8 head disappe>$1 8 words came 9 a holl[1 sepul*ral voice f b5ea? t spot ( black e>?--'rememb] y are my witness6' ,i 0 left /&+ alone "u ! plane-tree1 ) ! ?\ght1 t 9 return+ to my room1 ,i might probably meet ! re/less _s ( ,lucretia ,c>bury4 ,no?+ ( ! k9d1 h[ev]1 occurr$4 ,i pass$ ?r\gh ! doors t _h op5$ at ! t\* ( ,capta9 ,c>bury1 & ,i notic$ t !y clos$ beh9d me )\t any ef=t on my "p4 ,i rega9$ my b$1 & almo/ imm$iately fell asleep4 ,all _h pass$ s naturally1 & z a matt] ( c\rse1 t only :5 ,i woke ?is morn+1 & ?\ght ov] ! ev5ts ( ! night1 did ,i realise t ,i _h pass$ ?r\gh su* an exp]i5ce z is giv5 to few human be+s4 ,y see1 de> ,edie1 t my n>rative has tak5 s long to write t ,i h no "t to speak ( o!r ?+s1 ev5 if ,i c\ld br+ my m9d to ?9k ( any?+ else1 :i*1 ,i confess1 ,i %\ld h great difficulty 9 do+4--,ev] y\r v affectionate1 ,m4 ,,port]4 ,copi$ v]batim f ,miss ,port]'s lett]1 writt5 on ! morn+ ( #ad? ,april #ahge4 99 99 99 99 99 ,s ends ! /ory1 ) apologies to ! ,s4,p4,r46 ,i claim no?+ = x beyond ! foll[+ facts3 ,! ,priory /ill exi/s at ,grantwi*1 & is kn[n to h be5 ! family mansion ( ! ,c>bury family4 ,miss ,port] 0 und\bt$ly matron ( ! s*ool :]e my fri5d's bro!rs 7 educat$4 ,%e 0 a woman ( unblemi%$ "* & tru?fulness1 & w\ld c]ta9ly n h inv5t$ ?is long & detail$ acc\nt ( h] p]sonal exp]i5ces )9 a few h\rs ( _! occurr5ce4 ,my fri5d mo/ c]ta9ly copi$ ?is lett]1 :i* h] bro!rs _h obta9$ leave to read1 f _! s*ool matron--,miss ,port] h]self4 ,la/ly1 my fri5d1 ,mrs ,b>k]'s "m 7:o is /ill alive71 v]ifi$ ! exi/5ce ( ! ,priory 7z ,i h call$ x7 9 ! t[n ( ,grantwi*1 & x _h be5 turn$ into a bo>d+-h\se at ! "t ( h] visit1 hav+ be5 previ\sly let 9 lodg+s4 ,also %e f\nd t ,capta9 ,ri*>d ,c>bury 0 suppos$ to h di$ 9 ,georgia 9 ! ye> #agda1 z is inf]r$ 9 ! /ory4 ,z ! murd]ess & h] accomplice alone seem to h be5 aw>e ( 8 return on t fateful night1 ?is w\ld be ! natural op9ion ( ! _w4 ,z an old associate ( ! ,s4,p4,r41 & q conv]sant ) _! me?ods1 two criticisms ( ! /ory at once sugge/ !mselves1 9 addition to ! confusion ( dates1 :i* might p]haps be excus$1 ow+ to ! abnormal nature ( ! int]view describ$4 ,b ! obvi\s ,podmorian rem>k w\ld be t ! :ole adv5ture 0 a dream on ! "p ( ,miss ,port]1 induc$ by h] int]e/ 9 ! two family portraits %e _h se51 & ! curi\s s5sations %e _h exp]i5c$ 9 look+ at a specially gloomy tree 9 ! p>k4 ,?is w\ld c]ta9ly cov] ! gr\nd1 b x proves1 p]haps1 r too mu*4 ,x requires v robu/ ,fai? 9 ,unfai? to suppose t a s5sible1 practical woman1 suff]+ f rheumatism1 %\ld c>ry h] dream to ! v]ge ( foll[+ h] dream man into ! g>d5 & gr\nds ( ! h\se4 ,x may be urg$ t %e dreamt all ?is also1 b t way madness lies4 ,we mu/ be able to =mulate t c]ta9 acts ( ours took place dur+ full consci\sness1 or daily life w\ld become impossible & moral responsibility w\ld cease4 ,miss ,port] might h be5 9 a dream all ?r\gh ! night--grant$4 ,b 9 ^! cases x is ! morn+ t br+s c\nsel4 ,we are all aw>e ( ! extraord9>y lifelike dreams :i*1 ) ! return ( normal memory1 we recognise z dream visions1 no matt] h[ vivid & cr$ible !y may h appe>$ to u 9 ! night4 ,b ) ,miss ,port] ?is normal process 0 rev]s$4 ,%e w5t to sleep q calmly1 & fir/ realis$1 ^u wak+ 9 ! morn+1 h[ ?or\ghly abnormal h] exp]i5ces _h be54 ,i pass on to ! next criticism1 :i* a little edit+ on my "p c\ld h av]t$3 ,is x cr$ible t a woman1 only j recov]+ f ! surprise & m>vel ( su* an exp]i5ce1 %\ld write ab\t x1 )9 a few h\rs1 to a fav\rite c\s91 z if %e 7 prep>+ a /ory = ,! ,family ,h]ald8 ,i confess t ?is 0 my own feel+ :5 ! record 0 plac$ 9 my h&s4 ,we mu/1 h[ev]1 rememb]--fir/1 t ! p]cipi5t 0 obvi\sly a lady ( great c\rage1 or %e w\ld n h foll[$ h] gho/ into ! g>d52 secondly1 t %e 0 a ke5 obs]v] & v accurate 9 details4 ,probably1 _m g5]ations ( s*oolboys1 pass+ ?r\gh h] h&s1 may h quick5$ h] p]ceptions 9 bo? ^! ways4 ,z = ! /ilt$ /yle1 t pres5ts little difficulty1 :5 "o rememb]s t p ( a c]ta9 rank 9 life nev] use a %ort ^w :5 a long "o w answ] ! purpose6 ,i claim no?+ = ! /ory1 beyond ! po9ts already m5tion$4 ,^! are matt]s ( fact4 ,ea* "o mu/ int]pret x accord+ to 8 own views & prejudices4 ,x is q en\gh = me to be responsible = ! tru? & accuracy ( my own exp]i5ces1 to :i* we w n[ return4 99 99 99 99 99 ,note4--,s9ce writ+ ! above ,i h consult$ ! ,c5tury ,encyclopdia1 & f9d !re3 ,ogle?orpe--,james ,edw>d1 born 9 ,london1 ,decemb] #ba/1 #afif1 di$ at ,cranham ,hall1 ,essex1 ,engl&1 #aghe4 ,an ,engli% ,g5]al & ,philan?ropi/4 ,he project$ ! ,colony ( ,georgia = insolv5t debtors1 & p]secut$ ,prote/ants2 conduct$ ! exp$ition = its settlem5t1 #agcc1 & return$ to ,engl&1 #agdc4 ,! app>5t discrepancy betwe5 ! date #agcc giv5 9 ! ,encyclopdia1 & ! #agch ( ,capta9 ,c>bury's gho/ly n>rative1 may be due to "o ( two causes3 ,! "y girl copy+ ,miss ,port]'s lett] may h mi/ak5 a ?ree = an eight r easily4 ,aga91 ,capta9 ,c>bury did n /ate t he l&$ ) ,g5]al ,ogle?orpe1 #ai? ,septemb] #agch1 b ) ,g5]al ,ogle?orpe's regim5t4 ,?is latt] may h be5 a re9=cem5t s5t out to ! ,g5]al aft] 8 fir/ l&+ 9 ! ,colony4 ,,*apt] ,,vii ,,lady ,,cai?ness ,,& ,,av5ue ,,wagram ,hav+ sp5t ! w9t] mon?s ( #ahid 7f ,janu>y to ,april7 9 ,egypt1 ,i 0 return+ !nce 9 ! latt] mon? ) my fri5d ,mrs ,judge ( ,w9dsor4 ,our r\te 0 via ,p>is1 & ,i _h arrang$ to sp5d a week !re 9 ! same hotel z ! "y ,sw$i% lady :om ,i fir/ met 9 ,india1 & :o has be5 ref]r$ to m ?an once 9 ?is record4 ,%e told me %e _h made ! acqua9tance t w9t] ( ! fam\s ,c\ntess ( ,cai?ness & ,du*esse de ,pom>1 & ?9k+ x w\ld int]e/ me to meet ?is lady1 %e _h ask$ = p]mission to introduce me to h]4 ,z x turn$ out1 ,madame ,brgel 0 unable to accompany me to ! h\se1 hav+ sev]al engagem5ts = ! aft]noon1 b %e promis$ to put 9 an appe>ance lat]4 ,s ,mrs ,judge & ,i drove (f to ! well-kn[n mansion 9 ! ,av5ue de ,wagram1 & 7 receiv$ v cordially by ,lady ,cai?ness4 ,i _h once tri$ to read a v ab/ruse & my/ic book by ?is lady1 & _h he>d h] spok5 ( z a m or less hopeless lunatic1 :o imag9$ h]self ,m>y ,que5 ( ,scots1 & s =?4 ,o!rwise ,i w5t )\t prejudice1 & be+ accu/om$ to judge = myself 9 su* matt]s1 came to ! conclusion t ,lady ,cai?ness 0 an extremely %rewd woman1 ) h] head rem>kably well screw$ on1 z ! say+ is4 ,z reg>ds h] claims to be ,m>y ,que5 ( ,scots1 ,i nev] he>d ^! f h] own lips1 al?\gh ,i saw h] daily = a week1 & we _h _m int]e/+ talks4 ,%e c]ta9ly did claim to be 9 v close relations ) ! ill-fat$ ,que5 ( ,scotl&1 b ,i d n "k :at views %e may h held privately z to v>i$ manife/ations ( ! "o _s4 ,i h he>d ,"l ,monkswell prop\nd an int]e/+ !ory1 ) ,ar*deacon ,wilb]=ce 9 ! *air1 to ! effect t z "o %ort e>? life gave small scope = spiritual exp]i5ce & developm5t1 he ?\ght x q possible t ! same _s might h sev]al bodily manife/ations simultane\sly1 & t ! judge & ! crim9al might conceivably be "o & ! same individual 9 two p]sonalities6 ,x is possible t ,lady ,cai?ness may h _h "s su* view1 n !oretically 7z 0 ! case ) ,"l ,monkswell71 b z a matt] ( conviction1 & ap>t f ! limits ( ,"t & ,space involv$ 9 ! conception ( ! latt]4 ,i c only say t ,i nev] he>d h] speak ( ,m>y ,que5 ( ,scots except z an entity1 q di/9ct f h]self4 ,b t %e c>ri$ ! ,m>ie culte to great extremes is an und\bt$ fact4 ,! hall & rooms on ! gr\nd floor ( ! ,av5ue ,wagram ,h\se 7 arrang$ & furni%$ 9 close imitation ( ,holyrood ,palace4 ,i c\nt$ ov] fifty m9iatures & o!r pictures ( ! ,scotti% ,que5 9 ! ,c\ntess's beautiful b$room alone1 & lat] on %all h to speak m def9itely ( "o life size & exquisitely pa9t$ portrait ( ! ,que54 ,b to return to ?is fir/ reception4 ,i mu/ confess t a some:at inconv5i5tly ke5 s5se ( hum\r f\nd only too mu* n\ri%m5t on ?is occasion4 ,! ,c\ntess 0 magnific5tly dress$1 z 0 usual ) h]1 9 priceless lace1 fall+ ov] head & %\ld]s1 & a beautiful ti>a ( v>i\s col\r$ jewels arrang$ ov] ! lace4 ,?is 0 ecc5tric p]haps1 consid]+ ! occasion1 b n laughable4 ,lady ,cai?ness1 9 addition to g5iality1 _h en\gh quiet dignity to c>ry (f ! lace & jewels ) success4 ,i 0 *iefly amus$ by ! attitude ( ador+ humility & flatt]+ appreciation %[n by ! num]\s ladies already assembl$ :5 we arriv$4 ,only "o man 0 pres5t1 & he 0 a prie/4 ,lat] ,i le>n$ to appreciate ! fri5dl9ess ( ! ,abb ,petit & to admire 8 intellectual c\rage & manl9ess4 ,= ! mom5t1 see+ him surr\nd$ by ^! female wor%ipp]s1 hang+ ^u 8 lips z he disc\rs$ to u ab\t new read+s ( old tru?s1 "o 0 irresi/ibly rem9d$ ( c]ta9 sc5es 9 ,molire's ,femmes ,savantes4 ,a lively little ,am]ican lady 7m>ri$ to an ,italian c\nt7 pli$ him ) num]\s que/ions 9 flu5t ,fr5*1 spok5 ) an atroci\s acc5t4 ,f9ally1 %e wi%$ to he> ! ,abb's views ^u ,mel*is$e*6 ,9 ! mid/ ( o!r que/ions & answ]s1 ! k9dly little man manag$ to turn r\nd to h] ) a *e]y ,ah1 ,madame la ,comtesse6 p\r le ,mel*is$e*--n\s revi5drons t\t de suite ,mel*is$e*6 ,all ! affairs ( ! religi\s univ]se 7 be+ w\nd up at a simil> pace & 9 l fa%ion1 & ?is f9al ^w ( *e]ful assurance w\ld h prov$ absolutely disa/r\s to me _h ,i n be5 sitt+ close to my fri5d & able to :isp] to h]3 ,please dig y\r nails into my wri/--h>d4 ,any bodily pa9 0 pref]able to ! hy/]ical laught] :i* _h be5 s long suppress$ & seem$ n[ imm95t4 ,b !re 0 worse to come6 ,an ,engli%woman1 ! v type ( ! *>act]i/ic ,briti% sp9/]1 turn$ r\nd1 & address$ ,m4 l',abb 9 lab\r$ & extremely ,briti% ,fr5* 7,i mu/ leave ! acc5t to be imag9$ & suppli$ by my read]73 ,mais1 ,monsieur l',abb6 c'e/ le ,prote/antisme que v\s n\s enseignez la4 ,he turn$ r\nd ^u h] 9 8 wra?3 ,mais1 ,madame--ou ,,mademoiselle4 7,no pr9t c convey ! utt] scorn & contempt ( ?is la/ ^w47 ,! re/ ( ! s5t5ce 0 lo/ to u 9 ! l\d laugh ( ! g5ial1 good-temp]$ woman3 ,moi1 ,mademoiselle6 ,j'ai t m>ie v+t ans et j'ai six enfants6 ,! :ole sc5e 0 too funny = words1 &1 ) ! exception ( ?is good lady1 all pres5t took !mselves z s]i\sly z a ,univ]sity don6 ,x 0 a real relief :5 ! solemnity ( ! reception broke up & we 7 u%]$ into ! adjo9+ d9+-room = an excell5t tea4 ,"h ,i came ^u my ,sw$i% fri5d1 :o _h only j arriv$1 & miss$ all ! fun4 ,%e told me !re 0 to be a sance held 9 ! h\se next day1 & t %e _h be5 ask+ ! ,c\ntess if ,i might n be pres5t4 ,x might amuse y1 ,kat6 0 h] irrev]5t way ( putt+ x4 ,un=tunately1 !re seems to be "s difficulty ab\t x4 ,at ?is mom5t ,lady ,cai?ness came up1 & cordially express$ h] regrets t %e c\ld n acc$e to ,madame ,brgel's sugge/ion4 ,_h y be5 /ay+ until next week1 ,miss ,bates1 ,i w\ld gladly h arrang$ = x1 b to-morr[ is a v special occasion4 ,z a matt] ( fact1 ,i h promis$ ,m4 ,petit t no "o %all be pres5t except himself & me1 & ! two female m$iums1 ( c\rse4 ,on ,w$nesday we are to h a cr[d$ meet+ "h--all ! well-kn[n p 9 ,p>is w come--& ,m4 l',abb w read 8 pap] expla9+ t he c no long] bl9d 8 eyes to ! new light break+ ^u ! _w ?r\gh sci5tific discov]y1 etc41 b t he rema9s a loyal son ( ! ,*ur*1 if ! ,*ur* w all[ him to d s4 ,x is1 ( c\rse1 a v try+ & anxi\s ordeal2 = _m prie/s w be pres5t1 also a c>d9al & "o or m ( our bi%ops4 ,s ! sance to-morr[ w be specially devot$ to receiv+ la/ in/ructions = ! pap] he is ab\t to read1 & "s words1 we tru/1 ( enc\ragem5t & hope4 ,( c\rse1 ,i ha/5$ to assure ,lady ,cai?ness ( my full compreh5sion ( h] po9t1 & add$ t ,i 0 only sorry %e %\ld h be5 ask$ to alt] h] arrangem5ts on my acc\nt4 ,b y w jo9 u on ,w$nesday at ! meet+1 ,i tru/8 ,x w be held at ?ree ,p4,m41 9 a l>ge room on ! gr\nd floor1 :i* is arrang$ = su* ga!r+s4 ,i %all expect y !n1 s we w n say good-bye4 ,?is 0 heap+ coals ( fire on my head2 = s obs]vant a woman z ,lady ,cai?ness mu/ h notic$ my difficulty 9 keep+ a grave face e>li] 9 ! aft]noon6 ,n[ comes a curi\s po9t4 ,z we left ! h\se ,madame ,brgel 9 express+ disappo9tm5t ab\t ! next ev5+1 add$3 ,& yet someh[ ,i ?9k y w g aft] all4 ,yes1 ,i said involunt>ily4 ,i believe ,i %all g1 b ,i _c ?9k h[ x w come ab\t2 no?+ c\ld be m decid$ ?an :at we h j he>d1 & ,i _c possibly put (f my j\rney to ,engl& ! end ( ?is week4 ,i ?9k we 7 bo? a little disappo9t$ :5 no lett] arriv$ by ! morn+'s po/4 ,local lett]s (t5 come by second po/1 urg$ my fri5d1 :o 0 v ke5 ^u h] pres5tim5t4 ,a long morn+ at ! ,l\vre prev5t$ my rea*+ home till "o ,p4,m41 :5 ! djeun] la f\r*ette 0 half way ?r\gh its c\rse4 ,no lett] on my plate6 ,s ,madame ,brgel & ,i agre$ t ! wi% mu/ h be5 fa!r to ! ?\ght ) bo? ( u1 & put ! matt] out ( our heads once = all4 ,at two-?irty ,p4,m41 h[ev]1 a dp*e lett] arriv$ = me4 ,lady ,cai?ness wrote to beg t ,i w\ld make a po9t ( be+ ) h] t ev5+ by n9e p4m4 ,y w ?9k ?is v inconsi/5t ) :at ,i told y ye/]day1 %e wrote1 b ,i said only :at 0 ! exact tru?1 z matt]s !n /ood4 ,x is ! ,que5 h]self :o has communicat$ ) me ?is morn+1 & insi/s ^u y\r be+ pres5t ?is ev5+4 ,! ,abb & ,i c only b[ to ?is decision4 ,i ne$ n tell y h[ pleas$ ,i %all be p]sonally to greet y ?is ev5+4 ,i 0 aga9 %[n into ! spaci\s b$room ( ! ,c\ntess1 :]e %e receiv$ 9 g5]al1 q aft] ! mann] ( ! ,fr5* k+s 9 ! days ( ! old mon>*y4 ,h] b$ 0 q a ,/ate b$ too1 ) its beautiful silk furni%+s & heavy velvet hang+s4 ,on ! wall beh9d ?is1 0 a v valuable fresco pa9t+1 repres5t+ ,jacob's ladd]1 ) ! angels asc5d+ & desc5d+1 execut$ by a fam\s mod]n arti/4 ,we soon desc5d$ to ! gr\nd floor1 & pass+ ?r\gh ! l>ge lecture-room1 ( :i* ,lady ,cai?ness _h spok51 & :i* _h suffici5t gilt & cane *airs to seat a l>ge audi5ce2 we /epp$ d[n "s m>ble /airs into a small b exquisitely appo9t$ room4 ,x 0 a sort ( *apel1 9 fact1 built by ! ,que5's in/ructions1 & us$ = all purposes & occasions ( direct communication ) h]4 ,a g5]al impression rema9s ) me ( r>e woods & exquisite m>bles1 & ! walls 7 hung ) fram$ tape/ries repres5t+ v>i\s sc5es 9 ! ,que5's life4 ,to me ! mo/ /rik+ & beautiful ?+ 9 ! room 0 a full-l5g?1 life-siz$ portrait ( ,m>y h]self1 s arrang$ t a hidd5 lamp ?rew its s(t light on ! features2 :il/ ! hang+ velvet curta9s ( deep crimson on ei!r side conceal$ ! frame ( ! picture1 & convey$ ! illusion t a liv+ woman 0 /&+ !re ready to receive h] gue/s4 ,i h nev] se5 any?+ m p]fect ?an ! way 9 :i* ?is impression 0 convey$1 )\t a j>r+ note ( s5sational effect4 ,! two ,fr5* wom5 m$iums 7 already 9 ! room1 & ,i am b\nd to say !y did n attract me pleasantly nor impress me v fav\rably4 ,!y 7 "m & daught]1 & ,h>py 0 writt5 l>ge ov] ei!r c\nt5ance4 ,d\btless !y 7 v good m$iums1 9 spite ( ?is fact4 ,!y mu/ h be5 s1 unless "o supposes t ,lady ,cai?ness & ! ,abb ,petit 7 !mselves abnormally /rong s5sitives2 9 :i* case "o w\ld h ?\ght ?is extrane\s help w\ld h be5 unnecess>y4 ,we sat d[n at a fairly l>ge wood5 table1 poli%$1 b )\t cov]+ ( any k9d1 & hav+ only "o solid support to x1 com+ f ! c5tre1 pass+ d[n z a s+le wood5 pill>1 & spread+ out 9 ! usual fa%ion at ! bottom4 ,i _h not$ ?is on fir/ ent]+ ! room4 ,! two wom5 sat toge!r on my "r-h& side4 ,on my left 0 ! ,abb1 & ! ,c\ntess sat exactly opposite to me1 ) a pr9t$ alphabet pa/$ on to a c>d1 & a long p5cil z po9t]4 ,?is made up ! p>ty4 ,at a side table1 plac$ "s di/ance away1 sat a pleasant "y ,fr5* lady1 :o 0 writ+ automatically all ! "t2 a secret>y to ! ,c\ntess1 ,i believe4 ,?is "y lady _h no possible connection ) ! table4 ,! sance began ) a few words ( pray] f ! ,abb = light & guidance4 ,! process 0 z foll[s3--,fir/1 ! ,c\ntess & !n ,i took ! pr9t$ alphabet1 & po9t$ sil5tly & at a fair pace to ! lett]s1 go+ on f "o to ! o!r )\t pause4 ,at ! lett] ne$$ ! table did n rise1 b gave a s\nd m l a bang ?an a rap4 ,i h nev] he>d any?+ q s l\d & def9ite 9 my long inve/igation4 ,! s\nd seem$ to come f )9 ! wood1 z 9 ord9>y raps1 :5 ^! are g5u9e1 b x 0 f> l\d] & m rapid & decid$ ?an ! usual sance rap4 ,!re 0 no hesitation1 no ga!r+ up ( =ce4 ,any am\nt ( vitality 0 evid5tly pres5t1 & ! intellig5ce1 f :atev] s\rce1 0 un]r+4 ,! ,c\ntess & ,i 7 ! only two p]sons :o held ! alphabet & po9t$1 & :5 %e held x ! m$iums c\ld n h se5 ! lett]s f _! position at ! table ) reg>d to h]s4 ,yet ! lett]s 7 bang$ out 7,i c use no o!r expression7 ) absolute accuracy1 & at a pace :i*1 quick to />t )1 became m & m rapid z we we>i$ ( ! monoton\s task & h&$ ! alphabet to ea* o!r 9 turn4 ,:5 ! "n ( ,,god or ( ,,our ,,"l came1 only ! fir/ lett] 0 indicat$1 & !n ! table sway$ sl[ly to & fro 9 a v rev]5t & *>act]i/ic way = a few seconds2 aft] :i* we began ! alphabet aga9 = ! next ^w4 ,:5 ^! l\d bangs came ,i c\ld trace ! rev]b]ation 9 ! wood1 & x seem$ to me practically impossible t ! ,h>pies c\ld be produc+ !m by any unlawful me?ods1 :il/ sitt+ 9 full light & ) immovable faces1 ! daught] writ+ d[n ! lett]s z quickly z ^! 7 indicat$4 ,"o did n feel q com=table ab\t mak+ inve/igations 9 a private h\se )\t be+ invit$ to d s4 ,aga91 if ! wom5 7 trick+1 & ,i caught !m at x1 !re 0 always ! *ance ( a disagreeable sc5e ) p ( _! class4 ,on ! o!r h&1 x 0 los+ a great opportunity1 to refra91 z a m]e matt] ( c\rtesy4 ,also ,i com=t$ myself by ?9k+ t if anyone ne$$ to feel a%am$ x w\ld be ! ones :o *eat$1 & n ! detective4 ,s ,i pu%$ my *air a little ne>] to ! table1 & ! next "t ! ,c\ntess took ! alphabet f me & ! bangs 7 9 full sw+1 ,i put my foot cauti\sly b v effectually entirely r\nd ! "o leg ( ! table1 mov+ x also up & d[n freely4 ,n a ve/ige ( ano!r foot1 nor ev5 ( ! flimsie/ p>ticle ( dress or o!r ob/ruction6 ,i c\ld positively & di/9ctly he> ! rev]b]ation ( ! l\d bangs on ! wood1 betwe5 me & ! c5tre ( ! table1 :il/ my own leg & foot 7 firmly embrac+ ! s+le wood5 pill> ^u :i* ! latt] /ood4 ,s ! ,h>pies 7 ju/ifi$1 s f> z ?is "o ph5om5on 0 conc]n$4 ,! lett]s writt5 d[n s rapidly by ! daught] on l>ge %eets ( pap] pres5t$ an app>5tly hopeless jumble1 b :5 ! sitt+ 0 ov] at ! la/1 ! ,abb & ,i 7 able to make out ! words & s5t5ces )\t great difficulty 7he be+ accu/om$ to ! task71 & we !n f\nd a long1 coh]5t1 & at anyrate p]fectly s5sible1 message address$ to him1 & ref]r+ to ! po9ts ( 8 com+ disc\rse4 ,?is _h to be prov$ ^u its own m]its1 & )\t prejudice1 aris+ f ! fact t ,/ ,paul's "n 0 giv5 z ! au?or4 ,x 0 q z helpful z "s ( ! ,apo/le's lett]s1 ) ! advantage ( be+ up to date z reg>d$ ! "q 9 h&4 ,aft] all1 ! ,abb 0 ab\t to emb>k ^u an ent]prise requir+ mu* c\rage & great tact1 9 ! =lorn hope t ! walls ( n>r[ ,or?odoxy & ,prie/craft might fall d[n be=e ! trumpets ( advanc+ ,k & ,light4 ,x may or may n h be5 ,/ ,paul :o /ood by ! ,abb ) words ( enc\ragem5t t night2 b ,i1 = "o1 f9d no difficulty 9 ?9k+ x conceivable t ! great ,apo/le %\ld take a ke5 int]e/ 9 ! evolution ( ! planet ^u :i* he once liv$4 ,! *>m+ "y lady deliv]$ up h] script also4 ,x 0 int]e/+ & well writt51 b ! only p>agraph :i* rema9s 9 my memory 0 an excell5t analysis ( ! initial diff]5ce betwe5 ,*ri/ianity & ,!osophy4 ,! ,abb k9dly copi$ x out = me next day1 b ,i mu/ quote f memory4 ,*ri/ianity is a /ret*+ d[n ( ! ,div9ity to ,man4 ,!osophy is ! attempt ( ,man1 by 8 own ef=ts1 to rea* ! ,div9e4 ,?is seems to me bo? t]se & true4 ,we _h sat f n9e ,p4,m4 till "o ,a4,m41 & ,i ?9k we 7 all reliev$ :5 an adj\rnm5t = supp] 0 sugge/$ by ,lady ,cai?ness4 ,h] son1 ! ,duc de ,pom>1 jo9$ u = ?is "p ( ! ev5+1 & 0 introduc$ to me4 ,my enjoym5t ( ! excell5t f>e1 aft] s _m h\rs ( exhau/ion1 0 only temp]$ by an un=tunate & viol5t qu>rel betwe5 ! "m & daught] m$iums1 on ! score ( ! age ( ! latt]6 ,! "m decl>$ h] daught] 0 =ty-five2 ! daught] said3 ,n a day ov] ?irty-five1 & intimat$ t %e surely might be suppos$ to "k h] own age6 ,! "m1 h[ev]1 murmur$ provok+ly3 ,moi1 je sais mieux que a2 & s ! wrangle w5t on1 until ,i made a div]sion by tak+ leave ( my ho/ess & promis+ to be pres5t at ! lecture ! foll[+ aft]noon1 :i*1 by ! way1 _h become ?is aft]noon by ! "t ,i left ! ,hotel ,wagram4 ,:5 ,i ent]$ ! h\se once m1 x 0 to be %[n into ! l>ge lecture-room previ\sly describ$1 :i* 0 already ?ree p>ts full1 & v %ortly entirely s4 ,lady ,cai?ness _h k9dly res]v$ a front seat = me1 s ,i c\ld see & he> )\t difficulty4 ,on ! rais$ plat=m /ood my fri5d ! ,abb look+ v grave & r n]v\s4 ,a c>d9al1 two bi%ops1 & "s half-doz5 prie/s 7 seat$ close to him1 & v %ortly ! lecture1 :i* 01 ,i ?9k1 extempore1 began4 ,! ,abb 0 s manife/ly 9 dead e>ne/ & )\t any suspicion ( pose1 t "o c\ld n fail to be deeply impress$ by ! sc5e4 ,x ne$$ all ! help ( a s9c]e purpose & a brave he>t1 to /& up among/ ^? ( 8 own clo?1 &1 9 face ( a p>tially indiff]5t & p>tially unfri5dly audi5ce1 to decl>e boldly ! fai? t 0 9 him--a fai? t burn$ all ! m brightly & w>mly f ! fact t x 0 be+ purg$ ( ! sup]/itions :i* mu/ always become ! accretions ( e =m ( religion2 ! cl++ refuse ( we$ & %ell1 :i* f "t to "t mu/ be scrap$ (f ! bottom ( ! gr& old %ip if x is to convey u safely f port to h>b\r4 ,! ,c>d9al sat twirl+ 8 big seal r+1 ) a look ( cynical amusem5t on 8 face1 or s x seem$ to me4 ,z ! ,abb proce$$ to m5tion ! advances made 9 sci5ce & ! necessity = a re/atem5t ( old tru?s1 :i* %\ld br+ !m into l9e ) o!r tru?s ( ! n9ete5? c5tury1 prov+ ! ess5tial unity ( all tru?1 & break+ d[n ! fallacy t ! vital "p ( religion & ! vital "p ( sci5ce h any?+ to fe> f "o ano!r1 ! ,c>d9al's face 0 a /udy to me4 ,yes1 ( c\rse1 we "k all t1 y & ,i1 b :at is ! use ( mak+ ?is fuss ab\t x8 ,we belong to a sy/em1 & ?is sy/em has work$ v well = c5turies pa/1 & w "w v well = c5turies to come if fools don't attempt to upset ! coa* by re/atem5ts & readju/m5ts1 z !y are call$4 ,! p don't want re/atem5ts2 !y want a dead c]ta9ty1 & t is j :at we give !m4 ,all ?is ,i seem$ to read 9 8 clev]1 cynical c\nt5ance1 9 direct opposition to ! ?rill+ s5t5ces ( ! ,abb ,petit z he leant =w>d & said1 ) uplift$ f+] & prophetic int5sity3 ,la lumire e/ v5ue1 mes frres--et si v\s ne la suivez pas--v\s s]ez laisss seuls dans vos glises4 ,x is impossible to exagg]ate ! affectionate solemnity ( ?is appeal to 8 bro!r prie/s4 ,! tragic note 0 reliev$ lat] by an amus$ smile :i* rippl$ r\nd ! audi5ce4 ,?is puzzl$ me until a k9d ,fr5* lady sitt+ next to me expla9$ t ! audi5ce 7 amus$ by ! trs *]s frres 7de>ly belov$ bre?r571 ) :i* ! ,abb address$ !m 9 ?is r unor?odox lecture4 ,x 0 evid5tly look$ ^u z a curi\s bit ( pr(essional survival4 ,on ! foll[+ day 7,?ursday7 ,i 0 invit$ to lun* ) ,lady ,cai?ness at two ,p4,m41 & be+ a punctual p]son1 ,i arriv$ at t h\r4 ,! p[d]$ footman ann\nc$ t 8 mi/ress _h n yet em]g$ f h] b$room1 & %[$ me up into ! d9+-room adjo9+1 :]e ,i await$ h]4 ,9 a few m9utes ,i 0 jo9$ "h by ! ,abb1 :o politely express$ 8 sorr[ t he _h n kn[n ( my arrival e>li]4 ,z we sat *att+ toge!r1 he told me a curi\s exp]i5ce ( 8 ( ! previ\s night1 :i* w c]ta9ly cause ! enemy to smile1 if n to blaspheme4 ,he said 7( c\rse1 9 ,fr5*73 ,i 0 sitt+ la/ night 9 my room1 :i* looks ov] ! back ( ! h\se1 & :]e ,i c he> no s\nds f ! ,av5ue1 & ,i 0 talk+ to ',la ,re9e4' ,sudd5ly ',elle m'a frapp sur l'paule1' & !n said %e mu/ leave me at once1 9 ord] to meet ! ,du*esse1 :o _h j return$ home4 ,at t mom5t twelve o'clock /ruck f a neighb\r+ *ur*1 & ,i look$ at my wat*1 & f\nd x 0 inde$ midnight4 ,:5 ,madame la ,du*esse comes 91 ,i am mo/ anxi\s to f9d out :e!r %e & ! ,duc 7 return+ home at t h\r4 ,y w be my witness1 madame1 t ,i h told y ( ?is occurr5ce be=e see+ ! ,du*esse4 ,i assur$ him t ,i w\ld gladly te/ify to ?is2 & 9 a few mom5ts ! ,duc de ,pom> arriv$1 & almo/ imm$iately aft] him1 ,lady ,cai?ness em]g$ f h] b$room on ! o!r side ( ! d9+-room4 ,we sat d[n to lun*eon1 & ,i 0 mu* amus$ by ! =m ( ! ,abb's "q lat] 9 ! meal4 ,madame la ,du*esse6 puis je v\s dem&] sans indiscrtion1 a quelle heure v\s tes rev5ue hi] au soir8 ,lady ,cai?ness look$ a little surpris$1 b answ]$ readily en\gh3 ,well1 x mu/ h be5 pa/ midnight2 ,i did n notice v specially4 ,n pa/ midnight1 "m1 correct$ ! ,duc de ,pom>2 ,i he>d a clock /rike twelve j z we 7 driv+ ?r\gh ! ,porte ,co*re4 ,bi51 ,madame1 qu'e/-ce-que je v\s ai dit8 dem&$ ! ,abb1 turn+ to me 9 triumph4 ,he !n repeat$ 8 /ory1 & ,i 0 able to c]tify t he _h already m5tion$ x to me on my arrival4 ,! foll[+ day ,i took my leave ( ,lady ,cai?ness1 ) a happy remembrance ( h] & h] great k9dness & hospitality to me dur+ ?is pleasant week4 ,%e made me promise to let h] "k :5ev] ,i might happ5 to be pass+ ?r\gh ,p>is4 ,i wrote to h] ! next ye>1 :5 ab\t to make a %ort /ay 9 ,p>is1 on return+ f ,alg]ia1 & receiv$ an answ] f ! ,rivi]a4 ,%e _h be5 w9t]+ !re1 & _h be5 pack$ & ready = ! return to ,p>is1 :5 an ob/9ate *ill _h upset all plans4 ,%e begg$ me to g to ! ,av5ue ,wagram :5 ,i arriv$ & f9d out ! late/ news ( h]1 z ! doctors might give leave = ! j\rney at any mom5t4 ,t5 days lat] ,i did g to h] h\se & int]view ! lady secret>y 7n ! "o ,i _h se571 :o 0 v grudg+ 9 h] answ]s1 & gave me ! impression t %e 0 accu/om$ to deal ) p]sons :o _h "s axe to gr9d by claim+ acqua9tance ) ! ,c\ntess4 ,i did n happ5 to h ! lett] 9 my pocket :i* au?oris$ my visit1 & %\ld probably n h produc$ x 9 any case4 ,s ,i turn$ away r %ortly1 leav+ my c>d1 say+3 ,i mu/ tr\ble y to =w>d ?is at once to ,lady ,cai?ness4 ,! mom5t ! secret>y saw my "n1 h] mann] entirely *ang$1 & became z s]vile z x _h be5 cavali]4 ,miss ,bates1 ,i see8 ,oh1 c]ta9ly1 ,i %all communicate at once ) h] lady%ip4 ,i _h no idea x 0 ,miss ,bates4 ,pray excuse me1 s _m come & ask = ! ,du*esse1 & we h to be s v p>ticul>4 ,b1 ( c\rse1 y mu/ be ! lady ! ,du*esse is s v fond (4 ,%e has m5tion$ y (t51 & w>n$ u to receive y ) e c\rtesy4 ,& t is my la/ recollection ( ! k9dly woman1 :o di$ a few mon?s lat]4 ,no1 n absolutely my la/ recollection3 visit+ ,scotl& 9 #ahif1 ,i made a po9t ( go+ to ,holyrood ,*apel = ! express purpose ( f9d+ h] grave4 ,! pla9 /one slab & simple inscription seem$ at fir/ a curi\s contra/ to ! gorge\s magnific5ce ( h] home & dress & surr\nd+s4 ,yet ,i am incl9$ to ?9k t !y repres5t$ a side ( h] "* :i* 0 q z real z ! o!r4 ,9 l mann]1 no "o :o knew ( h] only z a wild vision>y c\ld h realis$ ! %rewd1 practical woman ( bus9ess & ( common-s5se :o %>$ ! p]sonality ( ,c\ntess ( ,cai?ness & ,du*esse de ,pom>4 ,i rememb] t ,mr ,fr$]ic ,my]s made ! same rem>k to me aft] a visit he paid to h]1 j aft] my return to ,engl&1 = ! purpose ( arrang+ matt]s ) reg>d to h] g5]\s beque/ to ! ,society = ,psy*ical ,rese>*4 ,,*apt] ,,viii ,,f ,,ox=d ,,to ,,wimbl$on ,f ,p>is to ,engl& is n a long cry1 & my next rem9isc5ce is connect$ ) ! ,univ]sity ( ,ox=d4 ,i 0 sp5d+ a few days !re ) a fri5d 9 ! spr+ ( #ahif1 & w5t ) h] "o aft]noon to an ,ox=d tea-p>ty1 ) its usual spr9kl+ ( wom51 m>ri$ & unm>ri$2 a few dons captur$ z a "q ( fri5d%ip1 & m ?an a few und]graduates4 ,among/ ! latt] ,i *anc$ to he> ! "n ( a v well-kn[n bi%op1 :om ,i _h fir/ met & kn[n r intimately :5 ,i 0 a "y girl1 & he a "y m>ri$ curate4 ,i _h also kn[n 8 wife 7a few ye>s my s5ior7 v intimately 9 ^? f>-(f days1 s my curiosity 0 ar\s$ to "k if ! "y man 9 ?is ,ox=d draw+-room %\ld *ance to be a son ( ?is bi%op1 :om we w call ! ,bi%op ( ,gran*e/]4 ,i f\nd t my surmise 0 correct2 ! "y man 0 introduc$ to me1 & we 7 soon deep 9 an int]e/+ conv]sation ab\t 8 p>5ts1 especially 8 "m1 :o _h di$ :5 he 0 b>ely ?ree ye>s old4 ,he knew little or no?+ ab\t h]4 ,8 fa!r _h m>ri$ aga91 & 8 pat]nal gr&mo!r 7/ill alive 9 #ahif7 _h nev] c>$ = 8 "m--f feel+s ( jeal\sy probably--s !re 0 no "o to speak to ! boy ab\t h]1 & he 0 naturally delight$ to he> all my girli% recollections ( h]4 ,d come & h tea ) me to-morr[ aft]noon1 or any day t suits y1 he said eag]ly4 ,i h "o or two old photographs tak5 ( my "m :5 %e 0 "y1 & ,i %\ld l s mu* to "k :i* ( !m y consid] ! be/4 ,( c\rse1 ,i agre$ to g1 ,mr ,blake-,mason promis+ to ask a *um to ent]ta9 my ho/ess :il/ he & ,i discuss$ ! photographs & ! old days be=e he 0 born4 ,return+ home f 8 rooms t ,febru>y ev5+1 ,i 0 consci\s once m ( an unacc\ntable depression1 & also a c]ta9 am\nt ( n]v\s irritability1 :i* o!r s5sitives w und]/&1 & :i* (t5 prec$es "s psy*ic happ5+4 ,j aft] we _h f9i%$ d9n]1 x /ruck me sudd5ly1 & = ! fir/ "t1 t my discom=t might be connect$ ) my aft]noon visit4 ,?is "y man's "m might be wi%+ to impress me 9 "s way6 ,i f\nd t ?is 0 ! fact1 b felt unequal to go+ fur!r into ! matt] t night4 ,i promis$ to li/5 to any?+ %e might wi% to say next morn+1 & hav+ giv5 ?is promise1 all unpleasant & di/urb+ influ5ces disappe>$1 & ,i _h a good night's re/4 ,next morn+1 aft] breakfa/1 my ho/ess said v practically3 ,n[ d get ?is matt] (f y\r m9d at once1 or y w be worri$ ab\t x all day4 ,i am go+ to ord] d9n]1 & %all !n be 9 ! draw+-room1 s y c h ?is room entirely to y\rself4 ,i sat d[n1 & a v beautiful message 0 giv5 to me by ! fri5d ( my girlhood4 ,%e 0 evid5tly v mu* p]turb$ & v anxi\s ab\t some?+ connect$ ) h] y\nge/ son1 :om ,i _h met = ! fir/ "t two days previ\sly1 & ab\t ^: affairs1 ,i ne$ sc>cely say1 ,i 0 9 a /ate ( pr(\nd ignorance4 ,! little "m 0 anxi\s n to give him away1 nor betray confid5ces1 & s h] words 7 v gu>d$4 ,!re 0 evid5tly no?+ 9 ! lea/ di%on\rable or 9 any way unwor?y ( h] son 9 "q4 ,i ga!r$1 r1 t he might be contemplat+ "s /ep :i* %e1 f h] wid] outlook1 consid]$ undesirable & inexp$i5t2 possibly ev5 disa/r\s 9 ! future4 ,x 0 no bus9ess ( m9e1 & ,i make x a po9t ( hon\r n to try to guess m ?an ,i am told1 & to =get :at ,i am told z soon z possible1 :]e ! affairs ( o!r p are involv$4 ,?is is1 =tunately1 easy = me z a rule1 b 9 ?is case "o s5t5ce rema9s ev5 n[ r++ 9 my e>s1 & if ! son ev] comes across ?is record ,i hope he w =give my reproduc+ 8 "m's la/ beautiful words to me3 ,tell my d>l+ boy t life is s solemn & true love s sacr$ a ?+4 ,tell him to be v1 v sure1 le/ he lose ! sub/ance 9 pursu+ ! %ad[4 ,! fir/ s5t5ce is giv5 v]batim4 ,9 ! second my memory may be produc+ ! s5se )\t ! exact word+1 b ,i h no d\bt at all t my words practically convey :at ! "m wi%$ me to tell h] boy4 ,?is message gave me a h>d problem to solve3 ,:at %\ld ,i d ) x8 ,on ! "o h&1 my hav+ agre$ to take ! message1 tacitly b\nd me to let him h x4 ,on ! o!r h&1 !re 7 v>i\s que/ions to consid]4 ,9 ! fir/ place1 ,mr ,blake-,mason might probably1 & v naturally1 res5t my writ+ to him on ! subject1 especially z ,i _h no reason to suppose he _h any k ( psy*ic matt]s4 ,secondly1 he might suppose 7q untruly7 t ,i _h he>d "s private affairs ( 8 discuss$1 & _h tak5 ^u myself to convey a p]sonal w>n+1 "u cov] ( 8 dead "m's wi%es4 ,?is 0 p]haps exagg]at+ a possibility1 :i*1 nev]!less1 c\ld n be ignor$4 ,?irdly1 he might consid] me a h>mless lunatic1 convey+ a message :i* _h no slighte/ f\ndation 9 tru?4 ,f\r?ly1 x might1 on ! o!r h&1 give him ! impression t 8 "m mu/ h "s access to 8 mo/ private affairs2 9 :i* case he might become int5sely int]e/$ 9 psy*ic matt]s1 to ! exclusion ( m mundane affairs--always a dang] ) "y p--n to m5tion o!r possibilities ( psy*ic disa/] = inexp]i5c$ inve/igators4 ,i w5t ov] all ^! *ances con1 to put aga9/ ! "o pro ( 8 "m's lov+ anxiety1 & my s5se ( responsibility to h]4 ,f9ally1 ,i decid$ t !re 0 no *oice left = me b to s5d ! message1 & tru/ ! consequ5ces to a ,high] ,wisdom4 ,i did ?is1 add+ a few words ( explanation1 & also ( w>n+1 9 case he %\ld recognise my absolute bon fides & 8 "m's p]sonality1 & become too mu* absorb$ by ^! psy*ic possibilities4 ,un=tunately1 ,i add$1 9 8 own int]e/s1 t x 0 n necess>y to ackn[l$ge ! lett]4 ,x w\ld d\btless rea* him1 & ,i _h no?+ m to d ) ! matt]4 ,i left ,ox=d next day1 & h nev] se5 ! "y man s9ce2 nor h ,i ev] he>d f him4 ,i conclud$ t he 0 annoy$1 or t ! message 0 q wide ( ! m>k4 ,i nev] d\bt$ 8 "m's pres5ce ) me1 b ,i might h fail$ to reproduce h] words to h] son ) suffici5t accuracy = recognition4 ,anyway1 ,i put ! matt] out ( my head z "o ( ^? try+ episodes to :i* all s5sitives are expos$ at times1 :5 !y ?9k m ( consci5ce ?an p]sonal conv5i5ce4 ,?ree or f\r ye>s pass$ be=e ! corroboration ( t message came to me1 9 a r curi\s mann]4 ,a c\s9 ( m9e1 hav+ be5 badly w\nd$ 9 ! ,we/ ,african ,w>1 0 s5t to a ,london hospital to h ! bullet1 :i* _h puzzl$ all ! local surgeons1 locat$ & extract$4 ,he 0 at ! hospital = sev]al weeks dur+ ! ,london season ( #ahii1 ,i ?9k4 ,dur+ ^! weeks ,i1 9 common ) _m o!r fri5ds & relations1 0 9 ! habit ( pay+ him occasional visits4 ,i _h gone to say good-bye to him on leav+ t[n1 :5 by *ance 7z we call x7 he m5tion$1 = ! fir/ "t1 ! "n ( 8 w>d si/]1 add+ h[ *>m+ & k9d & capable %e _h prov$4 ,by ! way1 %e is a daught] ( ! ,bi%op ( ,gran*e/]1 he add$4 ,y "k ev]ybody1 ,c\s9 ,emmie6 p]haps y "k h]1 he said1 smil+4 ,no2 ,i don't "k h]1 ,b]tie6 b ,i knew h] "m & fa!r v well _m ye>s ago4 ,no?+ w\ld satisfy him b t ,i %\ld ask to see h] :5 ,i left ! hospital1 & z he seem$ really anxi\s on ! po9t ,i promis$ to d s1 ?\gh inw>dly av]se f di/urb+ a busy woman4 ,i ask$ ! hall port] = h]1 b said ,i _h no special bus9ess1 & w\ld n ask to see h] unless %e happ5$ to be q free4 ,9 a few mom5ts he return$1 & %[$ me into a pretty sitt+-room on ! gr\nd floor1 say+ t ! si/] w\ld be ) me %ortly4 ,! door op5$ aga9 to admit a bright1 pleasant-look+ "y woman ( sev5 or eight & tw5ty1 :o gave me a mo/ cordial greet+ :5 %e he>d my "n1 say+3 ,oh yes1 ,frank told me all ab\t meet+ y at ,ox=d4 ,i did n feel v ke5 ab\t talk+ ( ,frank j !n2 b we sat d[n1 & _h a long half h\r's *at on mu* ! same l9es z my conv]sation ) h] bro!r ?ree ye>s be=e4 ,i _h said good-bye1 & %e _h accompani$ me across ! hall to ! f9e /one /eps lead+ f ! hospital--%e _h1 9 fact1 turn$ t[>ds h] own ap>tm5ts--:5 ,i felt ,i mu/ ask h] "o m "q1 s ,i also turn$1 & hurri$ back to h]4 ,did y\r bro!r ,frank ev] tell y ( a lett] he receiv$ f me 9 ,ox=d8 ,i ask$4 ,oh yes1 %e answ]$1 )\t a t\* ( emb>rassm5t4 ,!n ,i cont9u$3 ,i nev] he>d f him ab\t x4 ,i told him he ne$ n write at ! "t1 b ,i h be5 afraid he 0 hurt or annoy$1 & ?\ght x an imp]t95ce on my "p p]haps4 ,did ,frank nev] write8 %e ask$1 ) g5u9e a/oni%m5t4 ,i "k he int5d$ to d s4 ,c]ta9ly he 0 n annoy$ 9 any way4 ,f> f x4 ,he 0 int5sely int]e/$1 & ,i h ! be/ ( reasons = kn[+ t t message f our "m made a v great diff]5ce 9 8 life4 ,i ?ank$ h] = ^! words1 )\t ask+ any?+ fur!r4 ,z ,i h said1 x 0 no affair ( m9e1 f fir/ to la/2 b ! v]ification1 aft] su* a lapse ( "t1 0 d\bly satisfactory to me4 ,aga9 ,i ask3 ,h[ ab\t ! ,cui ,bono argum5t8 99 99 99 99 99 ,ano!r %ake ( ! kaleidoscope1 & ,i f9d myself at ,wimbl$on1 /ay+ ) a fri5d--n[1 alas6 pass$ away--:o _h !n a pretty h\se n f> f ! ,common1 & ) :om ,i (t5 sp5t a few days :5 9 ,london4 ,on ?is occasion %e _h ask$ "s fri5ds to meet me at tea1 among/ !m ,mrs ,alfr$ ,w$gwood1 to :om ,i _h introduc$ h] "s ye>s previ\sly1 & my fri5ds ,v4 ,c4 ,des]tis & 8 wife4 ,a ,miss ,f>quh>1 :om ,i knew v slightly1 0 %>+ a s(a ) me1 %e sitt+ at "o end & ,i at ! o!r1 leav+ a vacant space betwe5 u4 ,mrs ,w$gwood 0 talk+ to ,mr ,des]tis at ! mom5t1 b sudd5ly look$ across ! room at our s(a1 & began describ+ v graphically an old man ( b5evol5t aspect sitt+ betwe5 ,miss ,f>quh> & myself1 lean+ on a /ick1 & we>+ a s(t felt hat4 ,he has long hair1 almo/ d[n to 8 coat coll>1 & he looks su* a de>1 k9d old man6 ,mrs ,w$gwood said2 !n turn+ r\nd1 %e add$3 ,surely "s ( y mu/ recognise him6 he is s v cle> & di/9ct 9 8 :ole p]sonality4 ,mrs ,des]tis :isp]$ some?+ to h] husb&1 :o ask$ at once if ! old g5tleman's hair 0 v :ite4 ,yes2 q :ite1 said ,mrs ,w$gwood hopefully4 ,& curly & long8 ,yes2 curly & q long1 rea*+ to 8 coll>1 cont9u$ ,mrs ,w$gwood1 /ill m confid5tly4 ,b our hopes 7 da%$ :5 ,mr ,des]tis turn$ r\nd drily to 8 wife3 ,!n x _c possibly be my fa!r1 z y sugge/$4 ,8 hair 0 :ite1 b q %ort4 ,x 0 a cruel bl[6 ,b ,mrs ,w$gwood /ill affirm$ t %e _h nev] se5 anyone m di/9ctly1 :e!r we recognis$ him or n4 ,i may "h m5tion t ,i _h be5 sleep+ v badly 9 ?is h\se = "s nights pa/1 & regrett$ ?is ! m1 because ,i 0 %ortly go+ to /ay ) a fri5d at ,w9dsor = my fir/ ,f\r? ( ,june1 & wi%$ to be specially bright & well = ! com+ fe/ivities4 ,^! bad nights 7 lat] prov$ to h "s connection ) ! b5evol5t old g5tleman j describ$6 ,n[ ,i w cont9ue ! sequ5ce ( ev5ts4 ,mrs ,w$gwood's clairvoyant description _h be5 =gott5 by u all1 z ,i suppos$1 long be=e ! aft]noon came to an end4 ,x _h pass$ unrecognis$1 & o!r int]e/+ matt]s arose 9 conv]sation4 ,! foll[+ day ,miss ,f>quh> wrote a l9e to my ho/ess1 ask+ if %e might come to tea t[>ds ! end ( ! week1 z %e _h some?+ v int]e/+ to tell u4 ,%e came1 ( c\rse1 & ?us unfold$ h] budget3 ,none ( y seem$ v mu* impress$ ab\t t old g5tleman ,mrs ,w$gwood describ$ "h ! o!r day1 b h] words 7 s graphic t ,i felt sure %e 0 really see+ him at ! mom5t1 s ,i det]m9$ to try & f9d out some?+ ab\t him4 ,i w5t to an old lady ,i "k1 "o ( ! olde/ inhabitants1 & ask$ h] if %e knew any?+ ( y\r pr$ecessors 9 ?is h\se4 ,%e told me an eld]ly c\ple _h liv$ "h1 a husb& & wife1 t ! husb& _h di$1 & t al?\gh ! wife liv$ away f ,wimbl$on n[1 %e c\ld n be> to "p ) ! h\se :i* h] husb& _h be5 s fond (2 s let x4 ,9 fact1 my old fri5d seem$ to ?9k %e mu/ be y\r pres5t l&lady4 ,?is 0 said to my ho/ess1 & prov$ to be q true4 ,! h\se _h be5 let ?r\gh an ag5t1 & z ! pres5t own] liv$ 9 a di/ant c\nty1 no?+ 0 kn[n ( h] p]sonally by my fri5d4 ,!n ,miss ,f>quh> cont9u$3 ,he>+ t ! old man 0 s devot$ to ! h\se r sugge/$ a reason = ,mrs ,w$gwood see+ him "h1 s ,i ask$ my old lady if %e _h kn[n ?is g5tleman1 & if s1 w\ld %e describe him4 ,%e did ?is1 almo/ ^w = ^w z ,mrs ,w$gwood _h se5 him4 ,also1 %e add$1 t he 0 a good deal ( an invalid1 (t5 sat indoors1 ) a hat on = fe> ( draughts1 & c>ri$ a /ick1 ^u :i* he con/antly leant = support4 ,?is 0 v satisfactory1 & we applaud$ ,miss ,f>quh>'s detective in/9cts1 & promis$ to let ,mrs ,w$gwood "k ab\t ! matt]4 ,! latt] took x all v quietly1 only rem>k+ t %e felt sure someone ought to be able to f9d out ab\t ! old man4 ,a sudd5 ?\ght /ruck me t my di/urb$ nights & uncom=table feel+s1 9 a v *e]ful & pretty b$room1 might possibly be connect$ ) ! same old man4 ,)\t say+ a ^w ab\t ?is1 ,i ask$ ,mrs ,w$gwood to come up into my room be=e %e return$ to ,london1 & !n ,i told h] t ,i c\ld n sleep1 & _h n _h a peaceful night s9ce ,i arriv$4 ,c\ld %e f9d out :at 0 ! cause8 ,mrs ,w$gwood look$ r\nd = a mom5t1 & !n said 9 ! mo/ casual way3 ,n ! smalle/ d\bt ( ! cause4 ,x is t old man1 ( c\rse4 ,he is e>?-b\nd1 ,i expect1 & haunt+ ! h\se4 ,y _h bett] take a message f him if y want to get rid ( him4 ,i w\ld help y if ,i c\ld1 b ,i %all be late = my tra9 if ,i don't />t at once4 ,next morn+ ,i took ! poor old g5tleman's message1 :i* began ) an apology & regrets = di/urb+ me1 b w5t on pa!tically3 ,y mu/ =give me1 ,i 0 s v anxi\s to s5d a message to my wife1 & ,i saw t y 7 a s5sitive & c\ld take x f me--,i did n realise t x might cause y s mu* discom=t4 ,t lady call$ me e>?-b\nd1 b if ,i am1 x is only ?r\gh my deep love = my de> wife1 & ,i am p]mitt$ to wat* ov] h]4 ,i 0 drawn "h by my old affection = ?is h\se1 & also by y\r pres5ce "h1 kn[+ y c\ld help me4 ,he !n gave ! message1 ( :i* ,i c only rememb] t x 0 mo/ t\*+ 9 its expressions ( deep affection & wat*ful c>e = 8 wid[4 ,z we did n "k ?is lady's pres5t address1 & c\ld n procure x )\t rais+ inconv5i5t que/ions1 my ho/ess & ,i settl$ t %e %\ld lock up ! message1 9 ! hope t "s day we might be able to =w>d x4 ,a ye> lat] ,i _h a mo/ unpleasant exp]i5ce ( be+ made to feel s]i\sly ill :5 ,i came d[n = a night f t[n1 & z ano!r clairvoyant assur$ me t ?is result$ f ! message rema9+ undeliv]$ & ! poor old man's frantic endeav\rs to rea* 8 wife's consci\sness1 ,i told my ,wimbl$on fri5d t some?+ mu/ be done4 ,ei!r %e mu/ procure ! lady's address cote que cote1 or ,i c\ld n come d[n aga9 to ,wimbl$on until ?is /ep _h be5 tak54 ,"u pressure ( ?is det]m9ation ( m9e ! address 0 procur$1 & ?is l$ to a r unpleasant exp]i5ce4 ,i wrote a v c\rte\s lett] to ! lady1 enclos+ ! message1 & expla9+ t ,i 0 q deb>r$ f visit+ my ,wimbl$on fri5d until x 0 deliv]$1 t ,i hop$1 !re=e1 %e w\ld excuse my s5d+ x1 aft] m ?an a ye>'s consid]ation ( ! "q4 ,i fur!r intimat$ t al?\gh %e might consid] me a lunatic = my pa9s1 ,i tru/$ !re c\ld be no?+ to vex or hurt h] 9 s t\*+ an evid5ce ( h] husb&'s con/ant c>e & love1 h[ev] little fai? %e might be dispos$ to place 9 ! s\rce f :i* ! message 0 suppos$ to emanate4 ,! answ] came z a %[] ba? on my un=tunate head4 ,! old lady 787 0 furi\s4 ,%e _h nev] he>d ( su* wick$ nons5se6 ,h] de> husb& 0 q ! g5tleman1 bo? 9 clo!s & appe>ance1 & he 0 n old--n a day ov] sixty-eight--:5 he di$1 etc4 etc4 ,x w\ld h be5 amus+ if x _h n be5 r pitiful to ?9k ( ! poor "y man ( sixty-eight try+ s h>d to rea* su* a t]magant6 ,lat]1 ,i he>d t ! milit>y man1 ?r\gh :om ! old lady's address _h be5 giv5 to my ,wimbl$on ho/ess1 _h ask$ ! husb& ( ! latt] if ,i 7 a lunatic1 by any *ance6 ,& ?is is h[ "s ( u welcome our fri5ds f ! o!r side ( ! veil6 ,! m>vel to me is t ,love c /ill be /rong] ?an ,dea?1 9 face ( su* +ratitude & /upidity6 ,i h already m5tion$ my extreme s5sitiv5ess to ! atmosph]e 7psy*ic7 ( rooms1 especially rooms :]e "o sleeps4 ,i f9d ano!r in/ance ( ?is 9 my notes4 ,i 0 pay+ a fir/ visit to a fri5d 9 ! s\? ( ,engl&1 & a v bright1 *e]ful room _h be5 allott$ to me !re4 ,f ! fir/ night ,i felt a /rong influ5ce ( a man 9 ! room4 ,k9dly note t ,i d n say ! influ5ce ( a /rong man2 on ! contr>y1 ! "* appe>$ to me t ( an ess5tially weak man--weak r ?an wick$--s5sual z well z s5su\s--self-indulg5t1 & greatly want+ 9 grit & w p[]4 ,my ho/ess _h two sons1 "o :om ,i knew1 & ! o!r1 liv+ abroad1 :om ,i _h nev] met4 ,! influ5ce ,i felt 0 c]ta9ly n t ( ! son ,i knew1 :o 0 bo? manly & /rong-will$1 a f9e soldi]1 & h>d z nails1 z m5 w\ld say4 ,i fe>$ x might be ! o!r son1 h[ev]1 & took an e>ly opportunity ( ask+ to see a photograph ( ! latt]4 ,my m9d 0 q set at re/4 ,x 0 c]ta9ly n ?is man's influ5ce t ,i _h felt s /rongly 9 my room4 ,ask+ my ho/ess1 :o _h *iefly occupi$ ! room1 %e said at once3 ,bo? my sons h slept !re at diff]5t times1 add+1 ,i am sure y h "s ( y\r que] ideas ab\t ! room--:at is ! matt] ) x8 ,i told h]2 ,n[ t ,i am q conv9c$ t nei!r ( y\r sons is implicat$1 ,i w describe to y ! "* ( a man :om ,i feel sure mu/ h slept 9 t room & has left a /rong psy*ic influ5ce beh9d him4 ,i !n m5tion$ ! *>act]i/ics already giv51 & "o or two m :i* h escap$ my memory4 ,my sceptical fri5d look$ a little surpris$4 ,%e said no?+ at ! mom5t1 b cross$ ! room to a cab9et1 :5ce %e took a photograph ( a man :i* ,i _h nev] se51 & plac$ x 9 my h&s4 ,i am b\nd to confess1 %e add$1 t y h exactly describ$ ! "* ( my bro!r-9-law1 :o c]ta9ly has occupi$ ! room m ?an once4 ,! sequel to ?is little incid5t is r significant4 ,a ye> or two lat]1 ?is lady & ,i1 hav+ bo? succumb$ to influ5za & bron*itis1 7 s5t (f to ! same place abroad to recup]ate4 ,h] attack _h end$ soon] ?an m9e1 s t ,i jo9$ h] !re1 & "o ( ! fir/ pieces ( news %e gave me 0 ( ! dea? ( ?is bro!r-9-law1 add+3 ,poor fell[6 ,he di$ f a v pa9ful disease1 & suff]$ t]ribly4 ,he _h grave faults1 b1 z y said1 !y came f weakness r ?an wick$ness4 ,at anyrate1 he 0 humble-m9d$1 = he wrote a t\*+ lett] to me :5 ,i lo/ a v de> relation lately1 wond]+ :y su* a valuable life %\ld h be5 tak5 & su* a 'useless log' z himself be left alive4 ,?is poor man _h only j pass$ ov] :5 ,i jo9$ my fri5d1 & ,i felt t he 0 9 a v bewild]$ & sad /ate ( m9d4 ,i c\ld realise 8 pres5ce s cle>ly1 p>tly1 no d\bt1 f hav+ s5s$ 8 "* s /rongly1 t ! obvi\s ?+ seem$ to be to try & help him on 8 new plane ( life4 ,to ! sup]ficial m9d x appe>s v absurd1 & equally irrev]5t1 to suppose t a faulty creature on ?is side ! veil c help a faulty creature on ! o!r side4 ,p]sonally1 ,i h nev] _h any difficulty 9 realis+ ! p[] ( pray] = ^? :o h pass$ beyond our mortal sight4 ,surely we are "o l>ge family1 :e!r "h or !re8 ,! be/ way to make *ildr5 love ea* o!r is to p]suade !m to help ea* o!r4 ,is x /range t ! same rule %\ld apply to ! univ]se t applies to ! t9y portion ( x t we "k8 ,anyway1 ,i am q sure 9 ?is case t my pray]s did help & com=t ?is poor man 9 8 d>k exp]i5ce4 ,9 a few weeks ! position seem$ to be altoge!r light5$4 ,he ?ank$ me = my sympa?y & companion%ip1 & ,i h nev] he>d ( him s9ce4 ,! cavill] w say at once3 ,c\ld n someone else h done ! "w equally well--ei!r a ne> relation 9 ! o!r sph]e or a m9i/]+ angel8 ,! answ] is3 ,c]ta9ly !y c\ld h done x equally well1 probably f> bett]4 ,b ! po9t is t x happ5$ to be ! bit ( "w put into my h&s1 & at lea/ ,i did my be/4 ,:at m c any ( u say8 ,aga9 ,i ask3 ,h[ ab\t ! ,cui ,bono argum5t8 ,,*apt] ,,ix ,,haunt+s ,,by ,,! ,,liv+ ,,& ,,! ,,dead #ahif ,9 ?is same ye> 7#ahif7 ,i rememb] ano!r curi\s incid5t4 ,i 0 /ay+ 9 ,london dur+ ! season1 & "s girl fri5ds 7 v anxi\s t ,i %\ld meet a lady :om !y knew intimately & wi%$ me to "k also4 ,z s (t5 happ5s "u ^! circum/ances1 we 7 n 9 ! lea/ degree int]e/$ 9 ea* o!r2 b t has no?+ to d ) my /ory4 ,! girls _h ask$ v>i\s o!r fri5ds1 b ?is special lady 0 ! raison d'tre ( ! tea-p>ty1 & !y begg$ me to come 9 good "t1 because ,mrs ,halifax _h sev]al o!r engagem5ts1 & c\ld n pay !m a long visit4 ,s ,i dress$ hurri$ly 9 ord] to keep ! appo9tm5t1 & w5t to ! h\se feel+ r bor$ by ! :ole arrangem5t1 little dream+ t x w\ld be ! occasion ( su* an int]e/+ p]sonal exp]i5ce4 ,! lady turn$ out to be exce$+ly prosp]\s & extremely un9t]e/+1 f my po9t ( view4 ,probably %e w\ld h giv5 h] ideas ( me 9 mu* ! same way6 ,i realis$ t %e _h br\ght a son & a daught] ) h]1 b did n "k t ano!r "y man 7^: face ,i h nev] se57 0 also a son ( h]s4 ,i talk$ to ! "m = ! conv5tional qu>t] ( an h\r1 & !n turn$ ) relief to ! o!r son :om %e _h m5tion$1 & ) :om ,i f\nd sev]al old fri5ds 9 common4 ,mean:ile ! room 0 fill+ up ) gue/s2 among/ ^! late com]s ,i notic$ ! entrance ( a man ^: face did n impress me at all fav\rably4 ,he look$ dissipat$ & conceit$4 ,i did n speak to ?is man1 b my /rong impression ab\t him is a factor 9 ! /ory4 ,:5 ! lady1 p> excell5ce1 ( ! ent]ta9m5t rose to leave ! room1 foll[$ by h] son & daught]1 ,i notic$ t a second "y man 0 also 9 h] tra92 b ,i _h n se5 him previ\sly1 = ! v good reason t he _h be5 sitt+ beh9d my back all ! aft]noon4 ,i did n see 8 face ev5 n[4 ,my att5tion _h be5 div]t$ f ! ,halifax p>ty z !y rose to take leave1 & ,i only notic$ ! back ( ! second "y man z !y left ! room1 & 0 told lat] t ?is 0 ano!r son ( ,mrs ,halifax1 no o!r comm5t ^u him be+ made4 ,9 ^? days ,i 0 able to d m "w on ! psy*ic plane ?an at pres5t1 & (t5 tri$ to help sad or w&]+ spirits by pray+ = !m :5 made consci\s ( _! pres5ce ne> me4 ,:5 ,i woke 9 ! night--aft] ?is tea-p>ty--!re=e1 & felt a pres5ce ne> me1 x did n at fir/ al>m me 9 any way4 ,:5 fully awake1 h[ev]1 ,i quickly realis$ t ?is 0 no poor1 sad1 bewild]$ _s1 b a v malignant & rev5geful "o4 ,i did n recognise ! sex at ! mom5t4 ,9 fact1 my consci\sness 0 entirely engross$ by realis+ t ?is 0 a "q ( my pray]s be+ ne$$ by no _s m urg5tly ?an by my own4 ,some?+ v malignant 0 9 ! room--some?+ or someone f> too actively & insi/5tly wra?ful & malignant to li/5 to any pray]s or entreaties4 ,?is conviction grew s /rong ^u me t ,i light$ my c&le1 & gett+ out ( b$1 pray$ = protection aga9/ ! evil ?+ t 0 pres5t 9 my room4 ,i ?9k ,i mu/ h rema9$ at lea/ t5 m9utes on my knees1 & ,i c rememb] di/9ctly ! feel+ ( al>m & hopelessness t came ov] me :5 ,i realis$ h[ /rong 7 ! ,p[]s ( ,d>kness & h[ little my pray]s seem$ to avail me4 ,%ortly1 h[ev]1 fai? return$1 & ) x ! confid5ce ( victory4 ,i return$ to my b$ q calm & /rong1 & fell asleep kn[+ t ! malignant pres5ce 0 no long] !re to worry & torm5t me4 ,i h always f\nd x z easy to communicate ) inc>nate spirits at a di/ance z ) disc>nate ones1 s on awak+ 9 ! morn+1 & rememb]+ my disagreeable exp]i5ce1 ,i ask$ a fri5d1 /ill 9 ! body1 :at 0 ! mean+ ( x4 ,i _h made up my m9d t if x 7 9 any way connect$ ) ! visitors ( ! previ\s aft]noon1 x mu/ be ) ! dissipat$-look+ "y man1 = :om ,i _h conceiv$ an in/9ctive av]sion4 ,to my inf9ite surprise 8 "n 0 n giv51 b t ( ! y\ng] ,halifax son4 ,x 0 ,h5ry ,halifax4 ,x is a _s :i* 0 haunt+ him & came to y aft]w>ds4 ,n[1 z ,i _h n ev5 se5 ?is "y man1 z already expla9$1 ,i c\ld n be> to ?9k ( any false & fanciful accusation be+ made aga9/ him2 s remon/rat$ ) my fri5d4 ,d be c>eful 9 giv+ me ! "n4 ,are y q sure y mean ,h5ry ,halifax8 ,are y n ?9k+ ( ,mr ,loseby8 7,m5tion+ ! "n t _h be5 giv5 me ( ! o!r g5tleman47 ,no2 ,i mean ,h5ry ,halifax4 ,b ,i did n ev5 see him1 ,i urg$4 ,no2 b y 7 sitt+ ) y\r back to him all aft]noon4 ,don't y "k ! back is m psy*ically s5sitive ?an any o!r "p ( ! body8 ,no?+ 0 said ab\t ! malignant _s beyond ! fact t x 0 someone haunt+ ,h5ry ,halifax4 ,! matt]1 once expla9$1 ,i put x out ( my head1 hav+ no special curiosity z to ! reason ( ! haunt+1 & suppos+ x might h be5 "s male acqua9tance ( 84 ,t morn+ ,i w5t d[n to my ,wimbl$on fri5d = a night4 ,i arriv$ 9 "t = lun*eon on ,saturday morn+1 & aft] a pleasant walk on ! ,common 9 ! aft]noon my fri5d sugge/$ our com+ home by a c]ta9 flori/'s %op1 z %e wi%$ to buy "s plants = h] draw+-room4 ,i _h already met ?is flori/'s wife1 a v spooky p]son1 :o _h be5 introduc$ by u to ,mr ,my]s & ! ,society = ,psy*ical ,rese>*4 ,%e 0 a h&some1 fre%-col\r$1 practical woman1 ) no?+ ( ! weird & pallid gho/ se] ab\t h] comely face4 ,b %e _h _h "s wond]ful exp]i5ces1 & h] *ildr5 also2 & ^! _h be5 already imp>t$ to ,mr ,fr$]ic ,my]s4 ,:5 ! bus9ess "p ( our int]view 0 conclud$ ,mrs ,levret turn$ to me1 & said3 ,well1 ma'am1 ,i am glad to see y aga9 9 ^! p>ts4 ,h y _h any curi\s exp]i5ces s9ce ,i saw y la/8 ,n[ ,mrs ,levret _h s _m curi\s exp]i5ces ( h] own1 z to :i* %e 0 wont to be v voluble1 t ,i _h nev] be=e kn[n h] express curiosity ab\t ^? ( anybody else4 ,?is j fla%$ ?r\gh my m9d z ,i answ]$ h]3 ,no2 no?+ p>ticul>1 ,mrs ,levret4 ,by-!-by1 ,i _h a r disagreeable exp]i5ce la/ night1 b x has be5 expla9$4 ,& 9 a few words ,i m5tion$ :at has be5 already describ$ at l5g?4 ,f my words %e mu/ h ga!r$ t ,i suppos$ ! haunt+ _s to be t ( a man1 & t ,i did n atta* mu* importance to x any way4 ,z we left ! %op my *>m+ ho/ess1 :o 0 equally belov$ by ^? 9 h] own class & ^? out ( x1 turn$ r\nd1 & said pleasantly3 ,we mu/ hurry home n[1 ,mrs ,levret1 b d come up to-morr[ & see ,miss ,bates4 ,%e does n leave me till ! ev5+1 & ,i "k y w enjoy hav+ a talk ) h]4 ,mrs ,levret promis$ to come1 & appe>$ next morn+1 hav+ fir/ asc]ta9$ t ! sceptical husb& ( my ho/ess w\ld n be ^u ! premises4 ,he does laugh at me s1 ma'am1 %e said apologetically4 ,s %e 0 br\ght /raight up to my b$room next day1 & we _h an int]e/+ talk ov] h] own /range adv5tures4 ,sudd5ly %e look$ up1 & said3 propos des bottes4 ,h[ ab\t t "y man1 ma'am8 ,:at are y go+ to d ab\t him8 ,:at "y man8 ,i said1 hone/ly puzzl$4 ,& :at c ,i d ab\t any "y man8 ,! ,halifax incid5t _h s completely fad$ f my m9d t ,i c\ld n = ! mom5t imag9e :at %e meant4 ,! "y man y told me ab\t ye/]day aft]noon1 ma'am1 ,mrs ,levret answ]$ /\tly4 ,b ,i c't d any?+ ab\t him4 ,:at %\ld ,i d8 ,!n %e took up h] p>able 9 ^! words3 ,well1 ma'am1 ,i h be5 ?9k+ a deal ab\t t "y man s9ce ye/]day4 ,x seem$ to take a sort ( hold ^u me4 ,x seems giv5 to me1 ma'am1 t x is a "y woman :o is haunt+ him--a "y woman :o is n 9 8 own rank 9 life--someone :om he wrong$4 ,i 0 amaz$ by ^! words1 & /ill m by ! ke5 int]e/ ,mrs ,levret %[$ 9 ! subject4 ,b :at c ,i d 9 ! matt]1 ev5 if x be z y say8 0 my next "q4 ,well1 ma'am1 !y give me to und]/& t ! "y man mu/ be made to confess4 ,he w nev] h any peace until he does4 ,x seems to me y might get him to confess4 ,n[ !re c\ld be no "q ( confession on ! out] plane1 z ! "y man 0 a p]fect /rang] to me1 & !re 0 small *ance ( our ev] meet+ aga94 ,b ,i 0 aw>e t ,mrs ,levret 0 n speak+ ( ! out] plane1 s ,i agre$ to take p5cil & pap]1 & see if ,i c\ld br+ ! _s ( ,h5ry ,halifax to me1 & hav+ done s1 :e!r ,i c\ld induce him to tell me ! tru?4 ,he came1 b = a long "t w\ld say nei!r ,,yes nor ,,no4 ,:at bus9ess is x ( y\rs8 0 ! con/ant reply to my que/ions4 ,& ,i am b\nd to say x appe>$ a v p]t95t "o1 f ! ord9>y po9t ( view4 ,cle>ly x 0 no bus9ess ( m9e2 b ,mrs ,levret 0 s mu* 9 e>ne/1 & _h impress$ me s /rongly ) :at _h be5 giv5 to h]1 t ,i felt ,i mu/ p]sev]e1 9 ! "y fell['s own int]e/s4 ,s ,i expla9$ t ,i _h no wi% to pry into 8 private affairs f any m]e unwor?y curiosity1 b t hav+ myself felt ! malignant pres5ce t 0 said to be haunt+ him1 & be+ told t only confession w\ld remove x1 ,i hop$ he w\ld consid] ! matt] s]i\sly be=e ob/9ately clos+ ! door ( opportunity n[ op5 to him4 ,:o c\ld =etell :5 he might h ano!r *ance8 ,a long pause succe$$ ^! words4 ,i felt t ! angry1 irritable mood 0 pass+ ov]1 & :5 my h& 0 next influ5c$ to write1 ! words t came 7 n ! usual curt ,none ( y\r bus9ess1 b an apology = 8 rude reception ( my ef=ts to help him1 & a full confession1 :i* entirely bore out ,mrs ,levret's impressions4 ,he told me t x 0 only too true t he _h betray$ a "y woman 9 a diff]5t rank ( life f 8 own4 ,%e _h di$ 9 *ild-bir? ! prec$+ midsumm]1 & _h di$ curs+ him = 8 p]fidy4 ,ev] s9ce 7x 0 n[ late 9 ,june7 he _h be5 haunt$ by h] pres5ce1 see+ no?+1 b always consci\s ( a malignant _s tempt+ him to 8 own de/ruction4 ,! m5tal agony 0 s great t he told me he did n ?9k he c\ld endure x mu* long]1 & _h almo/ decid$ to put an end to 8 life 7little realis+1 poor fell[1 t bad z ?is life might be1 ! next phase w\ld be f> worse = him74 ,aft] try+ to soo! & com=t him1 )\t 9 any way m9imis+ ! weight ( 8 s9 or attempt+ to less5 8 remorse = x1 x /ruck me t x w\ld be well to try & h a little talk ) 8 poor "y victim4 ,s say+ good-bye1 & promis+ to rememb] him 9 future1 ,i ask$ m5tally = h] _s to come1 & !n tri$ to influ5ce h] 9 ! direction ( =giv5ess4 ,x 0 a h>d /ruggle1 & no wond]4 ,! poor "y woman _h tru/$ him1 _h be5 deceiv$1 & f9ally laun*$ into ano!r sph]e )\t any prep>ation = x4 ,:at wond] t %e haunt$ ! man :o _h wrong$ h] s t]ribly1 ?r\gh pure selfi%ness1 & t any love %e _h ev] borne him _h long s9ce turn$ to deadly hate6 ,x ne$$ bo? "t & pati5ce to r\se ev5 m]e passive feel+s t[>ds him4 ,i spoke ( 8 deep remorse & mis]y4 ,at fir/ %e only answ]$ t %e 0 v glad to he> x1 because x %[$ %e _h succe$$ 9 mak+ h] pres5ce felt4 ,by degrees1 h[ev]1 a m womanly view ( ! subject seem$ to come to h]4 ,aft] all1 he 0 ! fa!r ( h] *ild2 ! poor little baby t _h m]cifully foll[$ its "m into ! ,great ,unse54 ,%e _h lov$ him once1 by h] own %[+4 ,i made ! mo/ ( ?is po9t1 & v sl[ly1 v grudg+ly1 %e gave me ! promise ,i ask$ =--i4e4 t %e w\ld at lea/ cease ?is rev5geful haunt+1 ev5 if %e c\ld n yet feel m k9dly t[>ds ! "o :o _h injur$ h] s deeply4 ,hav+ extract$ ?is promise ,i felt t no m c\ld be done = ! "t be+1 & ,mrs ,levret1 :o _h be5 sitt+ 9 unwont$ sil5ce dur+ bo? int]views1 !n took h] leave4 ,i h giv5 ?is case & its treatm5t v mu* 9 ext5so1 n only because x may be helpful to o!rs deal+ ) err+ & rev5geful spirits1 b because on my return to ,london e important po9t 9 ?is true n>rative 0 amply corroborat$4 ,x took "s "t & a good deal ( tact be=e ! case 0 complete4 ,fir/1 ,i le>n$ t ,h5ry ,halifax 0 by no means a p]sona grata 9 ! h\se :]e ,i fir/ met him1 & t my "y fri5ds !re _h only be5 all[$ to ask him "u "s prote/1 & because ! re/ ( 8 family 7 to be pres5t4 ,ask$ :y ?is %\ld be ! case1 _! answ]s 7 naturally vague3 !y only knew he 0 n v welcome4 ,( c\rse1 ,i did n pursue ! matt] ) ^! "y p4 ,!y told me1 h[ev]1 t he 0 v mu* *ang$ ( late1 & seem$ s (t5 moody1 unhappy1 & discont5t$4 ,i am sure we %\ld be happy en\gh if we _h su* a luxuri\s home & all t money1 said "o ( !m navely4 ,n[ ,i happ5$ to "k r intimately at t "t ano!r fri5d ( ! ,halifax family2 a woman consid]ably old] ?an ! "y girls m5tion$1 & z %e _h "s little k ( psy*ic possibilities ,i det]m9$ to lay ! :ole /ory be=e h]1 tru/+ to h] hon\r to keep x to h]self1 & n to all[ any prejudice aga9/ ,h5ry ,halifax to arise 9 h] m9d %\ld %e "k no?+ ( ! circum/ances4 ,%e _h kn[n ! family f h] *ildhood1 & ,i knew1 !re=e1 w\ld n be influ5c$ by ! ^w ( an outsid] "u ^! circum/ances4 ,b ,i discov]$ t ! confession ( ,h5ry ,halifax1 ! _s1 0 no illusion on my "p1 b ! absolute tru?4 ,"y1 h&some1 ri*1 ) all ! _w be=e him 7he 0 only tw5ty-f\r at ! "t71 ?is lady _h be5 greatly puzzl$ by 8 int5se depression ( ! la/ few mon?s1 & told me t he 0 con/antly speak+ ( suicide4 ,x 0 suppos$ to be a purely physical condition by 8 p>5ts & o!rs4 ,%e1 h[ev]1 knew an intimate man fri5d ( 84 ,by "o ( ^? n uncommon mi/akes1 :]eby ea* "o supposes ! o!r to be 9 ! confid5ce ( a mutual acqua9tance1 %e _h discov]$ t ! real tr\ble 0 m5tal r ?an physical1 & t ! dea? ( ! "y woman ( l[] social position1 9 *ild-bir?1 la/ midsumm] 0 an actual fact6 ,ne$less to say h[ great 0 h] a/oni%m5t to f9d t ! :ole /ory _h be5 made kn[n to me ?r\gh su* a curi\s tra9 ( circum/ances--fir/1 my exp]i5ce ( ! malignant _s2 secondly1 my happ5+ to g to ,wimbl$on next day & m5tion ! circum/ances to ! wife ( ! flori/ !re2 ?irdly1 h] /rong &1 z x prov$1 q accurate impressions ^u ! subject2 & f\r?ly1 my two int]views3--fir/1 ) ! betray]1 & !n ) ! betray$ on ! psy*ic plane4 ,"s few mon?s lat] ,i 0 ask$ by ! lady j m5tion$ if ,i %\ld object to meet+ ,h5ry ,halifax at d9n] next ev5+4 ,n at all1 0 my answ]4 ,9 fact1 ,i felt x might be "p ( "s psy*ic plan t ,i %\ld d s4 ,evid5tly ?is 0 n ! case1 = at ! la/ mom5t a telegram came to 8 ho/ess to say he 0 unexpect$ly prev5t$ f return+ to t[n4 ,s we h nev] met at all6 ,b ,i tru/ ! confession may h be5 z efficaci\s z ,mrs ,levret 0 told t x w\ld be4 ,anyway1 ,i c te/ify t ! g5tleman 9 "q is n[ happily m>ri$1 &1 !re=e1 presumably no long] haunt$ by ! rev5geful _s1 :o has long s9ce1 let u tru/1 f\nd happ9ess & peace 9 a high] _w ?an ?is4 99 99 99 99 99 ,speak+ ( haunt+ by ! s-call$ dead rem9ds me ( haunt+ by ! s-call$ liv+4 ,9 ?is same ye> 7#ahif7 ,i 0 /ay+ 9 ,cambridge = ! fir/ "t 9 my life4 ,ox=d ,i h kn[n s9ce girlhood1 b ?is 0 my fir/ visit to ! ,si/] ,univ]sity2 ne$less to say1 h[ev]1 t ,i h met _m m5 :o h graduat$ !re4 ,n kn[+ ! t[n ( ,cambridge myself1 ,i _h nev] made x a subject ( discussion1 & t5 ye>s ago ,i 0 n ev5 aw>e t su* a /reet z ,trump+ton ,/reet exi/$1 difficult z x may be = ,cambridge p to cr$it ?is /atem5t4 ,9 any case1 mo/ emphatically1 ,i did n "k t a v old fri5d ( m9e1 :o became lat] 9 life a judge1 _h ev] liv$ 9 ?is /reet4 ,hav+ be5 a sailor 9 y\?1 he _h gone up to ,cambridge comp>atively late2 ?is 0 %ortly be=e my acqua9tance ) him began4 ,n kn[+ ,cambridge at all1 ! "q ( :]e he liv$ !re _h nev] ent]$ into our conv]sations toge!r4 ,probably ,i took x = grant$ t he 0 liv+ 9 8 college 7,pet]h\se74 ,! /rong feel+ ( fri5d%ip betwe5 u _h become a w>m] s5tim5t on 8 side1 & ?is l$ lat]1 & inevitably1 to a ?or\gh break 9 our pleasant relations ) ea* o!r4 ,long ye>s pass$1 dur+ :i* ,i nei!r saw nor he>d ( my fri5d4 ,i knew t he _h m>ri$1 & _h _h a some:at successful c>e] z a b>ri/] 9 ,london1 & t 0 all ,i knew ab\t him4 ,aft] /ay+ = a week or two ) fri5ds 9 ! neighb\rhood ( ,cambridge 9 #ahif1 ,i _h tak5 rooms = a mon? 9 ,cambridge1 invit+ "o ( ^! fri5ds to /ay ) me z my gue/4 ,we came ^u ^! special rooms 9 a curi\s way4 ,hav+ work$ ?r\gh a li/ ( ^? sugge/$ to u by a fri5d1 none ( :i* q suit$1 ,i he>d1 by ! m]e/ *ance1 t possibly ,i might f9d :at ,i want$ 9 ,trump+ton ,/reet1 at ! h\se ( a v respectable ,cambridge tradesman4 ,we w5t !re1 b only to f9d t ! rooms vacant c\ld n be ready = me at ! "t specifi$1 z "s old cu/om]s 7 com+ to !m = ?ree or f\r days4 ,b ,i want !m = a mon?1 ,i expo/ulat$4 ,! l&lady 0 firm2 %e c\ld n disappo9t ^! p aft] promis+ to take !m 94 ,9 spite ( my disappo9tm5t1 ,i admir$ h] s mu* = ?is /rict s5se ( hon\r t ,i det]m9$ to look at ! rooms 9 case ( requir+ any at a future date4 ,we w5t up/airs4 ,! rooms 7 exactly :at ,i requir$1 & v clean & well furni%$1 s x end$ by my agree+ to take !m = a week lat]1 al?\gh at a consid]able inconv5i5ce4 ,x 0 9 ?is casual way t ,i ent]$ ! h\se ab\t ! middle ( ,may #ahif4 ,my fri5d 0 n able to jo9 me until ! morn+ aft] my arrival1 s ,i sp5t ! fir/ ev5+ alone1 & retir$ to b$ r e>ly4 ,i slept well en\gh dur+ ! e>li] "p ( ! night1 b awoke ab\t two ,a4,m41 hav+ _h a tiresome1 worry+ dream ab\t ! v man ,i h m5tion$1 :o _h c]ta9ly n be5 9 my ?\ghts = _m mon?s1 or possibly ye>s4 ,ev5 :5 fully awake1 8 influ5ce 0 /ill 9 ! room ) me1 & fall+ asleep aga91 !re he 0 once m 9 my dream1 twitt+ me ) my want ( appreciation ( him 9 ! pa/1 & sugge/+ :at a mu* m successful c>e] ,i might h _h ?r\gh m>ry+ him4 ,?is sort ( ?+ w5t on = ! re/ ( ! night4 ,ei!r ,i woke up ) a disagreeable />t1 /ill feel+ ! man's influ5ce 9 ! room1 or sank into a tr\bl$ sleep1 to be once m at ! m]cy ( 8 reproa*es6 ,:5 morn+ came ,i 0 only too ?ankful to get up1 & :5 my fri5d arriv$ on h] bicycle ab\t noon1 & ask$ me h[ ,i _h slept 9 ! /range h\se1 ,i 0 =c$ to confess t my night _h be5 mu* tr\bl$ by dreams ab\t an old fri5d1 ( :om %e _h nev] he>d1 by-!-by4 ,oh1 well1 we all dream ab\t old fri5ds sometimes1 %e said1 b ,i'm afraid 9 ?is case y\r dreams 7 n pleasant2 y look tir$ out6 ,anyway1 x is a m]cy t x 0 n ,f----'s6 ,& s ) a joke ! matt] dropp$4 ,b ! foll[+ night ! tr\ble 0 r5ew$4 ,ev5 !n ,i did n 9 any way connect x ) ! room 9 :i* ,i 0 sleep+1 & ,i said no?+ next day to my fri5d on ! subject4 ,b ! ?ird night matt]s _h gone beyond a joke4 ,! influ5ce 0 /rong] ?an ev]1 ! gibes & reproa*es m acc5tuat$1 &1 9 addition to ^!1 !re 0 on my side ! exasp]ation eng5d]$ by ?ree sleepless nights4 ,in/ead ( feel+ depress$--z on ! two previ\s occasions--! worm turn$ at la/6 ,i spoke out l\d 9 my vexation1 z ?\gh ! man himself 7 !re li/5+ to me4 ,well1 ,i said1 ,i h no unk9dly feel+ t[>ds y ( any k9d4 ,if y h no?+ bett] to d ?an to come worry+ me & keep+ me awake 9 ?is way1 x j %[s h[ wise ,i 0 n to m>ry y6 ,y h no?+ to d ) my life n[4 ,& ,,y ,,c ,,g4 ,/&+ up 9 ?is way to ! gho/ ( ! liv+ _h a mo/ excell5t effect1 ^u my m9d at anyrate4 ,i felt int5sely reliev$1 & soon fell into a long & dreamless sleep4 ,?is la/ exp]i5ce fir/ sugge/$ ! idea t ?is old fri5d mu/ h "s special connection ) t h\se4 ,9 ! morn+ ,i confess$ to my fri5d t my second night _h be5 z di/urb$ z ! fir/1 & ! la/ ! wor/ ( all1 add+3 ,t man is simply haunt+ ! place4 ,i am det]m9$ to try & f9d out if he ev] lodg$ "h4 ,?is 0 by no means easy1 z x turn$ out4 ,8 ,college c>e] 0 already buri$ 9 ! sn[s ( "s tw5ty-five ye>s4 ,moreov]1 :5 ,i que/ion$ ! "y daught] ( our l&lady z to h[ long h] p>5ts _h liv$ 9 ! h\se1 %e said at once3 ,j sev5te5 ye>s1 ma'am4 ,fa!r & "m came "h ! ye> ,i 0 born4 ,?is did n help me mu*4 ,i ask$ :o _h r5t$ ! h\se previ\sly4 ,ref]r+ ?is "q to h] "m1 %e told me x _h be5 tak5 f "s p :o _h left ,cambridge1 & ,"m ?\ght !y 7 bo? dead n[4 ,?is 0 a second cul-de-sac = me6 ,b ,i 0 det]m9$ to g on ) my inve/igations1 simply gr\nd$ ^u ! /rong conviction t su* repeat$ exp]i5ces mu/ h "s f\ndation 9 fact4 ,! girl saw ,i look$ disappo9t$4 ,did y want to "k ab\t anyone :o liv$ "h long ago8 %e v5tur$ timidly4 ,yes2 ,i want$ to f9d out :e!r an old fri5d ( m9e ev] lodg$ "h2 he belong$ to ,pet]h\se1 0 my answ]4 ,ah1 !n1 ,i am sure he w\ld n h lodg$ "h1 said ! girl confid5tly4 ,none ( ! ,pet]h\se g5tlem5 come "h4 ,x is always ! ,pembroke m5 :o come to ?is h\se4 ,x seem$ fat$ t ,i %\ld he> no m ab\t my liv+ gho/4 ,a few days lat]1 h[ev]1 ! luck turn$4 ,i 0 told q casually t ,mr ,p\nd1 ! well-kn[n ,cambridge *emi/1 _h occupi$ our h\se ye>s be=e1 & ,i det]m9$ to v]ify ?is "s day4 ,z ,mr ,p\nd comb9$ ! po/ (fice ) 8 drugs1 "o (t5 w5t into ! %op1 b hi!rto ,i _h only se5 8 assi/ants4 ,go+ 9 "o day ) my fri5d = "s /amps1 ,mr ,p\nd himself h&$ !m to me4 ,"h 0 my *ance6 ,i mu/ confess t ,i hesitat$ to ask su* an app>5tly absurd "q on su* sl5d] gr\nds4 ,9 any case1 0 x likely t he w\ld rememb] ! names ( all ! und]graduates 9 ! ,univ]sity :o might h lodg$ ) him tw5ty or ?irty ye>s be=e8 ,i :isp]$ to my fri5d3 ,%all ,i ask him8 b %e did n he>1 s ev5 ?is small enc\ragem5t 0 d5i$ me4 ,i 0 actually turn+ to leave ! %op1 :5 resolution at l5g? took ! re9s1 & ,i f\nd myself ask+3 ,is x true1 ,mr ,p\nd1 t y liv$ _m ye>s ago at ,no4 -- ,trump+ton ,/reet8 ,q true1 0 ! ready answ]4 ,i w5t !re 9 ! ye> fifty-five4 7,i quote ?is f memory1 b x 0 9 ! fifties c]ta9ly47 ,i want$ to ask a "q ab\t a g5tleman :o may h lodg$ ) y a good deal lat] ?an t--ab\t sev5ty1 ,i %\ld ?9k4 ,& ,i m5tion$ ! "n ( my fri5d4 ,mr ,p\nd's br[ cle>$ at once1 & he look$ up ) a beam+ smile4 ,mr ,=bes1 he said--:y1 ( c\rse1 ,i rememb] him well4 ,he lodg$ ) me ov] eighte5 mon?s4 ,!n turn+ to 8 assi/ant1 he told him to g into ! p>l\r & br+ out ! l>ge photograph album4 ,!re 0 my fri5d1 sure en\gh1 ) 8 big dog--! v photograph ,i _h ( him1 giv5 me 9 ! e>ly days ( our acqua9tance4 ,mr ,p\nd 0 full ( rem9isc5ces4 ,my fri5d _h evid5tly be5 a prime fav\rite ) him1 & x 0 "s m9utes be=e ,i c\ld squeeze 9 my crucial "q4 ,x seem$ almo/ impossible to expect him to rememb] ! exact rooms occupi$ by ,mr ,=bes1 consid]+ !re 7 two or ?ree sets ( rooms 9 ! h\se1 9 addition to sev]al b$rooms :i* 7 let sep>ately4 ,b ev5 "h ,mr ,p\nd's memory prov$ invaluable4 ,:i* room he slept 98 ,:y1 ( c\rse1 ,i rememb] di/9ctly4 ,he _h ! l>ge front sitt+-room & ! b$room at ! back ( x2 ov] our liv+-room 9 ^? days4 ,s ,i 0 liv+ 9 ,mr ,=bes' sitt+-room1 & sleep+ 9 ! b$room1 he _h occupi$ = m ?an eighte5 mon?s4 ,my ,cambridge%ire fri5d 01 =tunately1 pres5t z a witness t no ^w ( m9e _h indicat$ ?is fact be=e ,mr ,p\nd corroborat$ my intuitive impression4 ,%e said aft]w>ds1 laugh+ly1 t ,mr ,my]s w\ld c]ta9ly ?9k ,i _h got up a special gho/ /ory = him ! mom5t ,i set foot 9 ,cambridge4 ,h[ev] ?is may be1 bo? he & ,pr(essor ,sidgwick 7 greatly int]e/$ 9 x1 =1 z !y expla9$1 !re 7 fifty acc\nts ( haunt+ by ! dead to "o su* example ( haunt+ by ! liv+4 ,( c\rse1 su* a case pres5ts innum]able difficulties2 /ill ! sali5t fact rema9s1 t aft] a lapse ( ne>ly ?irty ye>s ,i trac$ ! rooms occupi$ by an old fri5d1 9 a city ,i _h nev] be=e ent]$1 & t ?is k did n come to me by *ance1 b z ! result ( a s]ies ( inve/igations1 />t$ by me solely on acc\nt ( ! exp]i5ces t came to me 9 a h\se & 9 a room ( :i* ,i _h absolutely no previ\s k4 ,^? int]e/$ 9 ^! subjects w naturally ask3 ,d y suppose t ! _s ( ,mr ,=bes came to y at ! mom5t ( y\r rem>ks to him & 8 to y8 ,if s1 0 he consci\s ( any su* exp]i5ce8 ,i c answ] ?is la/ "q decid$ly1 & 9 ! negative2 = f\r ye>s lat]1 circum/ances br\ght me once m )9 ! orbit ( ,mr ,=bes' life4 ,he 0 !n liv+ 9 ! nor? ( ,engl&1 & he & 8 wife & ,i h discuss$ ! "q m ?an once4 ,we c only suppose t ! impression ( 8 pres5ce did 9 "s way cl+ to ! surr\nd+s2 t my sleep+ !re1 ev5 9 complete ignorance ( 8 t5ancy1 enabl$ me1 z a s5sitive1 to pick up ?is special influ5ce f _m o!rs presumably pres5t2 & t ! memories ( ! pa/ galvanis$ ! impression into "s sort ( tempor>y a/ral exi/5ce4 ,! entity to :om ,i seem$ to be speak+ 0 d\btless n ! ,judge ,=bes ( lat] life1 b "s di/ort$ image ( 8 e>li] days ( disappo9t$ & (t5 reproa*ful affection4 ,:5 ,mr ,my]s sugge/$ t ,i %\ld get ,mr ,p\nd to sign a pap] m5tion+ t he _h told me t ,mr ,=bes _h occupi$ ^! special rooms tw5ty-sev5 ye>s previ\sly1 ! latt] did s readily1 only rem>k+ t he _h naturally conclud$ t ,i knew my fri5d _h lodg$ ) him4 ,p\nd w 'smell a rat' if ,i g1 said ,mr ,my]s4 ,s ,i w5t myself1 & ?us ! /ory 0 made evid5tially complete4 ,,*apt] ,x ,,fur!r ,,exp]i5ces ,,9 ,,am]ica ,my second visit to ,am]ica 0 paid 9 ! ye> ( ! ,diamond ,jubilee1 #ahig4 ,aft] w9t]+ 9 ! ,we/ ,indies1 ,i w5t on to ,am]ica 9 ! spr+1 *iefly ) ! view ( meet+ ,mrs ,pip] = ! fir/ "t1 & secur+ a few sitt+s ) h] if possible4#e #e ,! portion ( ?is *apt] ref]r+ to ,mrs ,pip] & h] ,controls is publi%$ by k9d p]mission ( ,mr ,ralph ,%irley1 editor ( ,! ,occult ,review1 9 :i* my article "u ?is head+ appe>$ 9 ,m>* #aijf4 ,i 0 writ+ "s articles = ,bord]l& at ! "t1 & ,mr ,/ead 0 specially anxi\s = me to take ?is opportunity ( sampl+ ! fam\s ,am]ican s5sitive4 ,?is prov$ no easy task4 ,my visit to ,bo/on1 un=tunately1 occurr$ at ! v "t :5 an organis$ attempt 0 be+ made by ! ,am]ican bran* ( ! ,society = ,psy*ical ,rese>* to get into "s sort ( evid5tial communication ) ! late ,mr ,/a9ton ,moses ?r\gh 8 controls ,imp]ator1 ,rector1 etc4 ,9 va9 ,i wrote to ,dr ,hodgson 7to :om ,i c>ri$ lett]s ( introduction7 tell+ him ( my *ief reason = visit+ ,am]ica a second "t4 ,ev5 ! plea t ,i _h kn[n ,mr ,/a9ton ,moses 9 e>? life1 & t we _h sev]al intimate fri5ds 9 common1 0 ( no avail4 ,dr ,hodgson express$ regrets1 b assur$ me t no sitt+s c\ld be all[$ "u exi/+ circum/ances1 & t x 0 impossible to make any exception to ?is rule4 ,we seem$ to h arriv$ at a cul-de-sac1 :5 a bright idea /ruck me4 ,:y n ask ! ,,unse5 !mselves = a decision 9 ! matt]8 ,i wrote aga91 !re=e1 to ,dr ,hodgson1 sugge/+ ?is idea1 & m5tion+ t ,i %\ld arrive 9 ,bo/on on a c]ta9 date1 & c\ld be f\nd at ! ,hotel ,bellevue 9 t city4 ,! next day b "o aft] my arrival1 & q e>ly 9 ! morn+1 ,dr ,hodgson came to call ^u me4 ,x 0 my fir/ sight ( t g5ial & delightful p]sonality4 ,at ! v mom5t ( %ak+ h&s1 he said *e]ily1 & ) a look ( half-rueful amusem5t at 8 own discomfiture3 ,well1 y've got to come6 ,!y insi/ ^u x1 s !re is no?+ m to be said4 ,my preconceiv$ ideas ( a critical1 eld]ly1 & :ite-hair$ pr(essor1 tak+ himself v s]i\sly1 7 dissipat$ on ! spot2 & ?is 0 ! beg9n+ ( a s9c]e & loyal fri5d%ip betwe5 u :i* la/$ = n9e ye>s on ?is sph]e1 & w la/1 ,i tru/ & believe1 ?r\gh :atev] =ms ( exi/5ce may succe$ to ?is "o4 ,we made arrangem5ts at once = my jo9+ ,dr ,hodgson next morn+ at ,arl+ton ,heights1 :]e my fir/ sitt+ ) ,mrs ,pip] took place1 & :]e ,i met = ! fir/ "t ?is ref9$ & int]e/+-look+ woman4 ,i 0 told t ) ! adv5t ( ! ,imp]ator & ,/a9ton ,moses' controls1 ! "* ( ,mrs ,pip]'s m$ium%ip _h und]gone a complete *ange4 ,! =m] communications ?r\gh ! voice ceas$1 & gave place to automatic writ+1 except at ! mom5t ( return to ! physical body1 :5 a *ance s5t5ce or two might be utt]$ dur+ ! transition p]iod1 b t ^! 7 n always intelligible to ! li/5]4 ,mrs ,pip]'s arm & h& became curi\sly dead & limp :5 unconsci\sness set 92 ! blood dep>t$1 leav+ x z :ite & helpless z t ( a corpse4 ,by degrees ?is dead look disappe>$4 ,! blood fl[$ once m ?r\gh ! ve9s1 & z ,i notic$ ?is *ange1 ! h& mov$ grop+ly t[>ds ! p5cil held out by ,dr ,hodgson1 & f9ally grasp$ x4 ,! latt]'s long practice & inf9ite pati5ce 7 invaluable 9 mak+ out ! (t5 r illegible script4 ,! hospitality he gave to all attempts at def9ite communications1 h[ev] vague & %ad[y at fir/2 ! inf9ite pati5ce ) :i* he repeat$ aga9 & aga9 a "q n fully compreh5d$--all ?is1 comb9$ ) intellig5t criticism1 al]t1 dispassionate judgm5t & balance ( m9d1 made an inve/igator ( psy*ic ph5om5a v r>ely to be met 9 a _w :]e mo/ ( u ev9ce 9 a m>k$ degree les dfauts de nos qualits4 ,to comb9e sympa?y1 pati5ce1 & receptivity ) cool & critical judgm5t is well-nigh impossible = ord9>y m5 & wom54 ,dr ,ri*>d ,hodgson c]ta9ly solv$ ! problem to a v rem>kable ext5t4 ,! fir/ ?+ t /ruck me 9 ! two sitt+s ,i _h ) ,mrs ,pip]1 0 ! hopeless breakd[n ( ! ,?\ght ,transf]5ce ,!ory1 z acc\nt+ = ! automatic writ+4 ,! o/5sible reason = my pres5ce at ,arl+ton ,heights 0 ! idea ent]ta9$ by ! controls t1 hav+ kn[n ,mr ,/a9ton ,moses 9 e>? life1 ,i might be able to facilitate 8 communications4 ,i hope ?is may h be5 ! case1 b if s1 x 0 c]ta9ly n due to any p[] ( ,?\ght ,transf]5ce ,i may h possess$4 ,aga9 & aga9 ,i ask$ = names ( fri5ds we _h kn[n 9 common1 b ne>ly always 9 va94 ,ev5 :51 9 despair ( gett+ ^! normally1 ,i conc5trat$ my m9d consci\sly on "s %ort & easy "n1 ! latt] 0 n giv54 ,yet next day "s ( ^! names w\ld appe> spontane\sly on ! script1 :5 my m9d 0 entirely occupi$ by o!r subjects4 ,ref]5ces 7 made to ,mr ,moses' lack ( appreciation = music1 & he ask$ :e!r our mutual fri5d ,mrs ,/ratton /ill play$ ,,liszt4 ,he also ref]r$ to 8 visit+ ! ,/rattons1 & f9d+ !m play+ duets toge!r1 9 ,london4 ,on my return to t[n ,mrs ,/ratton fully endors$ ! fact t ,mr ,moses dislik$ music 7?is 0 unkn[n to me71 b %e d5i$ emphatically t %e & h] husb& ev] play$ duets 9 8 pres5ce4 ,mr ,/ratton1 h[ev]1 correct$ ?is impression1 & rem9d$ h] ( sev]al occasions :5 ,mr ,moses _h come to !m f ,univ]sity ,college1 f\nd !m at ! piano1 & be+ on v intimate t]ms1 _h begg$ !y w\ld f9i% ! passage or movem5t2 & on "o or two occasions ?is _h be5 done4 ,^! slight b evid5tial incid5ts1 =gott5 by ,mrs ,/ratton h]self1 & unkn[n to me1 7 convey$ q correctly 9 ! automatic script ?r\gh ,mrs ,pip]--?ree ?\s& miles across ! ,atlantic--& ne>ly six ye>s aft] ! dea? ( ,mr ,/a9ton ,moses4 ,! mo/ conv9c+ te/ ^u ^! occasions1 h[ev]1 0 ! ref]5ce to a ,mrs ,lane--! lady to :om ,mr ,moses _h be5 engag$ :5 he pass$ away4 ,v few ( 8 fri5ds knew ( ?is engagem5t1 ev5 9 ,engl&4 ,dr ,hodgson1 :o _h nev] met ,/a9ton ,moses 9 e>? life1 _h naturally n he>d ( x4 ,x 0 only by *ance t ,i knew any?+ ( ! matt]1 & ?is m]ely ?r\gh once meet+ ! lady at ,mrs ,/ratton's h\se "s "t aft] ,mr ,moses _h di$4 ,on t occasion ,mrs ,lane _h a "y daught] ) h]2 ,i knew no?+ ( any o!r memb]s ( ! family4 ,dur+ my second visit to ,mrs ,pip] ,i m5tion$ meet+ ?is lady--already a dim memory ) me--& ! control at once ask$ if ,i _h met a si/] also4 ,i answ]$ ,no1 rem>k+ t a "y daught] _h be5 ) h]4 ,! writ+ at once cont9u$ 9 ^! words3 ,well1 n[ ,i am giv+ y ?is z a te/3 %e has a si/]1 & "o :o has be5 ! cause ( ! deepe/ sorr[ ( h] life4 ,y w f9d ?is is true :5 y g back to ,engl&4 ,^! words 7 amply ju/ifi$4 ,on apply+ to ,mrs ,/ratton = in=mation1 %e d5i$ ! possibility ( !re be+ any tru? 9 ! te/4 ,%e said3 ,i h come to "k ,mrs ,lane v intimately s9ce y met h] "h4 ,i don't believe %e has any si/]2 anyway1 ,i am q sure %e w\ld h told me if a si/] _h caus$ h] su* sorr[ z y m5tion4 ,i p]sev]$1 h[ev]1 9 gett+ at ! tru? ( ! matt] by writ+ to ,mrs ,lane h]self 7an almo/ entire /rang]71 & ask+ if %e c>$ to he> ! ref]5ces to h]self 9 ! ,pip] records2 if s1 w\ld %e come & lun* ) me8 ,%e came1 & :5 ,i rea*$ ! passage ab\t ! si/]1 expect+ t %e w\ld endorse ,mrs ,/ratton's d5ial1 ,i notic$1 to my great surprise1 t h] eyes fill$ sudd5ly ) te>s1 & t %e 0 lit]ally unable to speak ?r\gh emotion4 ,! te>s ran d[n h] *eeks1 :5 at l5g? %e said 9 a brok5 voice3 ,t is ! mo/ conv9c+ te/ he c\ld h giv5 me6 ,no6 ,i h nev] m5tion$ t si/]1 ev5 to ,mrs ,/ratton1 k9d & good z %e has be5 7by ?is "t ,i _h spok5 ( ,mrs ,/ratton's d5ial ( ! si/]'s exi/5ce74 ,i c\ld n speak ( h] to anyone4 ,%e 0 ! cause ( ! greate/ sorr[ 9 my life2 b no "o ^u e>? knew ?is except ,mr ,/a9ton ,moses4 ,i 0 engag$ to him at ! "t1 & he 0 ! natural p]son to turn to 9 my deep tribulation4 ,no "o else ev] he>d ( ! circum/ances4 ,at ?is second sitt+ ( m9e ,mr ,/a9ton ,moses spoke also ( a valuable wat* he _h possess$1 & express$ "s regret t x _h n be5 giv5 to ,mrs ,lane at ! "t ( 8 dea?4 ,i knew no?+ at all ab\t any wat* ( 81 b on appeal+ to "o ( 8 executors1 an old fri5d ( m9e1 f\nd !re 0 su* a wat*1 :i* _h be5 a pres5tation "o1 & 0 ( consid]able value4 ,^u ! dea? ( ,mr ,moses x _h be5 giv5 7q ) ! approval ( ,mrs ,lane7 to ! son ( a v old & e/eem$ fri5d4 ,?is executor also told me1 z a curi\s co9cid5ce1 t :5 ,i 0 /ay+ ) ! excitable s5sitive 9 ,sussex ,g>d5s1 m5tion$ 9 a previ\s *apt]1 & he & 8 wife _h come to tea ) me "o aft]noon 7to be introduc$ to ?is rem>kable lady71 %e _h giv5 him a simil> message ab\t ! same wat*1 purport+ to come f ,/a9ton ,moses4 ,i rememb] p]fectly well hav+ ask$ ,mr & ,mrs ,h>r+ton to come to tea ) me "o aft]noon to meet my ecc5tric l&lady1 & ,i also rememb] 8 hav+ a long talk ) h] :il/ 8 wife & ,i 7 imm]s$ 9 our own conv]sation4 ,b ,i he>d no details ( ?is talk4 ,he _h m]ely said h[ mu* int]e/$ he _h be5 9 meet+ ,mrs ,pet]s1 & t %e evid5tly _h "s m$iumi/ic p[]4 ,x 0 c]ta9ly curi\s t ! wat* %\ld h be5 m5tion$1 fir/ 9 ,sussex ,g>d5s1 ,london1 & six ye>s lat] 9 ,arl+ton ,heights1 ,bo/on1 & t on ea* occasion ! same wi% ) reg>d to x %\ld h be5 express$6 ,dur+ ?is ,arl+ton ,heights sitt+ 7! second "o71 ,mr ,moses also ref]r$ to an ,,ms41 ( :i* ,i knew no?+ at ! "t4 ,?is allusion also 0 v]ifi$ by 8 o!r executor1 ! late ,mr ,al>ic ,watts1 ^u my return to ,engl&4 99 99 99 99 99 ,dur+ ?is visit to ,am]ica ,i also came across a ,mr ,knapton ,?ompson1 a h>d-head$ ,york%ire man1 :o _h inv5t$ a new k9d ( smokeless combu/ion /ove1 :i* mu/ h be5 a good "o1 = our %rewd ,am]ican c\s9s 7 employ+ him to put up ^! /oves 9 sev]al public build+s1 includ+ ! ,smi?sonian ,in/itute 9 ,wa%+ton4 ,mr ,?ompson comb9$ psy*ic proclivities ) 8 smokeless inv5tion1 & _h become greatly int]e/$ 9 ! ,new ,york m$ium1 ,mrs ,/odd>t ,gray1 :o has be5 already m5tion$ 9 connection ) my own inve/igations1 twelve ye>s previ\s to my pres5t visit4 ,he _h writt5 to tell ,mr ,/ead ( 8 exp]i5ces1 :i* includ$ sev]al 9 :i* ! ,julia ( ,julia's ,lett]s _h purport$ to be pres5t4 ,mr ,/ead _h turn$ ?is g5tleman ov] to me by giv+ me an introduction1 accompani$ by ! reque/ t ,i %\ld see ! man & report :at ,i ?\ght ab\t him & 8 wond]ful exp]i5ces4 ,s ,i ask$ ,mr ,?ompson to call ^u me1 & arrang$ to be pres5t ) him next day 7,saturday7 at ,mrs ,/odd>t ,gray's circle4 ,i f\nd t he _h tak5 up 8 abode ) ! m$ium & h] son dur+ 8 %ort /ays 9 ,new ,york1 ) ! op5ly express$ int5tion ( f9d+ out if !re 7 any trick]y beh9d ! sc5es4 ,he _h1 h[ev]1 conv9c$ himself ( h] bon fides1 & 0 deeply int]e/$ 9 ! int]views he 0 able to obta9 by means ( ^! m$iums1 ) a daught] he _h lo/ "s ye>s previ\sly4 ,he 0 mu* pleas$ to f9d t ,i knew ,mrs ,gray already & c\ld also te/ify to "s v rem>kable ph5om5a occurr+ to me at h] h\se4 ,s ,i met him !re next aft]noon1 ) e expectation ( a good sitt+4 ,^! hopes1 h[ev]1 7 entirely de/roy$ ow+ to ! pres5ce ( a noisy1 vulg> man1 :om !y call$ ! ,:isky ,k+4 ,he made ! mo/ inane rem>ks1 crack$ /upid jokes1 antagonis$ e respectable p]son 9 ! room1 ,i %\ld suppose2 & z all ?is took place )\t a ^w ( prote/ f ! lady ( ! h\se1 "o c only conclude t %e consid]$ x wor? h] :ile to endure 8 vulg>ities4 ,c]ta9ly ! aft]noon 0 spoilt = ! re/ ( u1 & ,i rem>k$ ^u ?is to a v pleasant1 sm>t-look+ "y ,am]ican lady :5 ! sitt+ 0 ov] & we _h retir$ to ! reception-room to f9d wraps & galo%es1 etc4 ,oh yes2 wasn't he j exasp]at+8 %e said1 ) ready sympa?y4 ,%e look$ mu* too "y & sm>t & good-look+ = ! ord9>y type ( inve/igator1 & ,i c\ld n refra9 f ask+ h[ %e _h come into ?is galre4 ,%e expla9$ h] position readily1 & x 0 v int]e/+ to me4 ,%e 0 a "y m>ri$ lady1 & _h fir/ be5 br\ght to ! h\se1 six mon?s be=e1 by a c\s9 ( h]s :o 0 /ay+ ) !m 9 ,new ,york1 & ?\ght ! exp]i5ce might be amus+4 ,we j came 9 = a joke1 %e said2 b some?+ happ5$ :i* int]e/$ me s mu* t ,i h come aga9 sev]al times1 & until to-day h always _h an int]e/+ "t4 ,!n %e told me ab\t h] fir/ sitt+4 ,i _h notic$ ^u h] unglov$ h& a v beautiful sc>abu1 set 9 f9e gold1 & evid5tly by an arti/ 9 ! craft4 ,yes1 x is a ,tiffany sett+1 %e obs]v$1 see+ my eyes drawn to x4 ,%e took (f ! r+1 & gave x into my h&s4 ,t r+ is really ! cause ( my be+ "h to-day1 %e cont9u$4 ,! sc>abu 0 giv5 to me "s ye>s ago by ,pr(essor---- 7%e gave ! "n ( a well-kn[n ,am]ican ,egyptologi/74 ,he made a great pet ( me :5 ,i 0 a *ild1 & ,i begg$ x f him4 ,:5 ,i 0 go+ to be m>ri$ la/ ye> he insi/$ ^u hav+ x set = me by ,tiffany z a w$d+ pres5t1 & he !n told me !re 0 no d\bt at all ab\t its be+ a g5u9e antique4 ,he _h come across x _m ye>s be=e by a curi\s *ance :5 travell+ 9 ,egypt1 & _h be5 assur$ t x 0 a g5u9e ,cleopatra relic4 ',i c't answ] = t1' he said1 laugh+1 'b x is c]ta9ly _m c5turies old4 ,i h no d\bt x is g5u9e s f> z age goes4' ,well1 ! night my c\s9 & ,i came "h toge!r ,i did n take (f my gloves until aft] we _h gone 9 to ! sance room1 s no "o c\ld h se5 my r+--& y "k ,mrs ,gray's sitt+s always beg9 9 ! d>k8 ,i took my gloves (f :5 ,i f\nd we _h to sit 9 a circle hold+ h&s1 & "o ( ! fir/ mat]ialisations 0 ann\nc$ to be t ( ,cleopatra4 7,i _h se5 ,cleopatra m ?an once 9 #ahhf1 9 ! same h\se--,e4 ,k4 ,b47 ,%e ru%$ across ! room 9 ! complete d>kness1 seiz$ my "r h&1 among/ all ! h&s 9 a circle ( tw5ty p or m1 almo/ tore ?is special r+ f my f+]1 & said 9 a tone ( indescribable grief & long+3 ',m9e6 ,m9e6 ,ah1 ,*em6 ,,*em6' ,?is 0 suffici5tly />tl+1 ev5 ap>t f ! m5tion ( ,*em1 z ! anci5t "n = ,egypt1 9 a milieu ( ?is k9d6 ,! r+ 0 fai?fully re/or$ lat] 9 ! ev5+2 & ! "y lady :o own$ x _h be5 suffici5tly impress$ by ! circum/ances to confide !m to h] k9d pr(essor1 & also to pay m ?an "o visit to ,mrs ,/odd>t ,gray s9ce ! episode _h occurr$1 :i* 0 j six mon?s be=e our meet+ !re4 ,dur+ ?is second visit to ,am]ica ,i made ! acqua9tance1 &1 ,i tru/ ,i may say1 ga9$ ! fri5d%ip1 ( ,miss ,lilian ,:it+1 s well kn[n by _m ?\s&s ( grateful read]s4 ,we saw a great deal ( ea* o!r 9 ,bo/on1 & dur+ "o ( my long *ats ) h] 9 h] pretty sitt+-room at ! ,brunswick ,hotel1 %e told me ( ! visit ( ,lady ,h5ry ,som]set & ,miss ,frances ,will>d to t city1 "s ye>s be=e our conv]sation4 ,miss ,:it+ also m5tion$ a fri5d :o _h accompani$ ^! two ladies1 & :o _h be5 tak5 ill1 & _h di$ v sudd5ly 9 ! hospital at ,bo/on4 ,i nev] met ! lady1 said ,miss ,:it+1 b ,miss ,will>d & ,lady ,h5ry told me !y _h be5 oblig$ to leave _! fri5d beh9d ow+ to an attack ( influ5za1 & ask$ me to call ^u h] som$ay4 ,i w5t a day or two lat]1 c>ry+ "s fruit & newspap]s ) me4 ,! matron1 :om ,i knew well1 said h] pati5t 0 do+ spl5didly1 & 0 likely to be leav+ 9 a few days1 b t z ,i 0 a /rang]1 x w\ld p]haps be bett] = me n to come 9 & see h] t aft]noon4 ,s ,i left my little gifts1 & 0 %ock$ next day to he> ( h] sudd5 & q unexpect$ dea?4 ,by-!-by1 ,i believe %e 0 ,/ead's ',julia'--,i am n sure ab\t ?is1 b somebody told me s lately4 ,miss ,:it+ !n m5tion$ ! lady's "n1 :i* ,i )hold1 z ,mr ,/ead /ill makes use ( x z a te/ :5 /rang]s pr(ess to be 9 communication ) ,julia4 ,! day foll[+ ! sance j describ$ z tak+ place 9 ,new ,york1 ,mr ,knapton ,?ompson call$ at my hotel to ask me to accompany him to ,mrs ,/odd>t ,gray1 z he _h arrang$ to h a %ort writ+ sance t aft]noon4 ,! son 0 ! ag5t z usual4 ,on ?is occasion he _h an alphabet m\nt$ on c>d1 & po9t$ to ! lett]s 9 turn1 :il/ 8 "m wrote !m d[n z indicat$4 ,?9k+ ,i w\ld v]ify ,miss ,:it+'s /ory if possible1 my fir/ "q 03 ,c ,/ead's ,julia give me h] surname8 ,julia ,o4 0 spelt out1 & !n ! ,o 0 giv5 aga94 ,!y (t5 d t1 said ,mrs ,gray casually--beg9 ! "n ov] aga91 ,i mean4 ,s x pass$ at t4 ,! re/ ( ! lett]s corroborat$ ! surname m5tion$ by ,miss ,:it+4 ,!n ,i ask$3 ,9 :at c\ntry did y pass away--,europe or ,am]ica1 or else:]e8 ,am]ica 0 spelt out at once4 ,9 :at city8 ,bo/on4 ,0 x 9 a private h\se1 a hospital1 a hotel1 or :]e did y die8 ,9 a hospital 0 aga9 spelt out4 ,h[ long ago8 ,five ye>s 0 ! answ]4 ,i may note "h t ,miss ,:it+ _h n m5tion$ ! numb] ( ye>s1 only hav+ said ,a few ye>s ago :5 speak+ ( ! ev5t4 ,five ye>s prov$ to be true4 ,my la/ "q 03 ,:at 0 y\r age :5 y pass$ ov]8 ,tw5ty-?ree 0 ! answ]4 ,?is la/1 ,i felt sure1 mu/ be wrong4 ,miss ,:it+ _h n m5tion$ any age1 b x seem$ to me unlikely t s "y a woman %\ld h be5 travell+ r\nd ! c\ntry ) two temp]ance lectur]s4 ,:5 ^! answ]s 7 be+ giv51 ,mrs ,gray's son1 ! m$ium1 ask$ if he might put "o h& on my wri/ to come into magnetic conditions ) me4 ,i agre$ to ?is1 b said ,i %\ld turn my eyes away f ! alphabet1 le/ my muscles %\ld give him any unconsci\s indications4 ,:5 ,i s5t ^! answ]s to ,mr ,/ead on return+ to ,engl&1 ,i wrote d[n ,julia ,o4 7ignor+ ! repetition ( ! ,o72 & 9 connection ) ! o!r answ]s1 told him1 ( c\rse1 ( my previ\s conv]sation ) ,miss ,:it+1 :i* r$uc$ ! :ole episode to "o ( possible ,?\ght ,transf]5ce4 ,9 answ]+ me he said3 ,i am glad ,julia 0 able to give h] "n1 ev5 if x 7 ,?\ght ,transf]5ce2 b1 z a matt] ( fact1 x is n h] :ole "n :i* y receiv$--%e always sign$ h] lett]s to me ',julia ,o4 ,o4444' ,?is makes r a good bit ( evid5ce1 see+ t ! second ,o _h be5 giv51 b disc>d$ by ,mrs ,gray & myself z a repetition ( ! fir/ lett] ( ! surname6 ,to resume my exp]i5ces ) ,mr ,knapton ,?ompson4 ,9 ! ev5+ ( ?is writ+ incid5t ,mrs ,gray _h ano!r public sance1 at :i* ,i 0 aga9 pres5t1 ,mr ,?ompson sitt+ on "o side ( me4 ,aft] "s mat]ialisations1 = o!r memb]s ( ! circle _h appe>$1 ,mrs ,gray ann\nc$ t ,/ead's ,julia 0 pres5t 9 ! cab9et1 & wi%$ to speak to me4 ,i w5t up at once1 & ! =m came out & /ood 9 v fair light f ! gas-burn]s4 ,%e seiz$ my h&s ) e appe>ance ( delight & eag]ness1 & h] grasp 0 /rong & t5se4 ,x is my peculi>ity always to notice h&s v accurately4 ,!y always seem to me to indicate "* v closely2 & ap>t f ?is1 ,i am attract$ by p :o h well-%ap$ h&s 7n necess>ily small ones71 & f9d x v difficult to ignore clumsy or ugly f+]s1 :i*1 un=tunately1 nev] escape my notice4 ,n[ ! m$ium's h&s 7 broad1 %ort1 & flabby1 z ,i _h _h pl5ty ( opportunities ( not+ 9 ! aft]noon :5 he held my wri/4 ,! h&s :i* grasp$ m9e n[ 71 on ! contr>y1 well made1 small1 & r n>r[1 ! true type ( ! ,am]ican female h&4 ,mr ,?ompson _h come up also to greet ,julia1 & ,i :isp]$ to him3 ,d ask ,julia if !re 0 n a mi/ake ab\t h] age ?is aft]noon4 ,no2 y ask ! "q y\rself1 ,miss ,bates1 he answ]$4 ,s ,i said r eag]ly3 ,julia1 d tell u1 please1 if !re 0 n a mi/ake ?is aft]noon 9 y\r age--! answ] 0 tw5ty-?ree4 ,is t correct8 ,a v emphatic %ake ( ! head signify+ ,no 0 ! reply to ?is la/ "q1 b no s\nds proce$$ f ! lips4 ,disappo9t$ by ?is1 ,i ask$2 ,c y n speak to u8 ,%e made a little ge/ure ( r helpless diss5t2 & ,mrs ,gray1 :o /ood by1 expla9$ t probably all h] /r5g? _h gone to build+ up ! mat]ialis$ body suffici5tly to make x visible to u4 ,julia b[$ h] head 9 ass5t to ?is1 & !n1 /ill spee*less1 retir$ once m beh9d ! curta9s4 ,i did n m5tion ?is appe>ance ( ,julia :5 writ+ to ,mr ,/ead on my return--,i 0 s anxi\sly hop+ t %e might h tri$ to impress ! fact ( hav+ appe>$ to me1 ^u 8 consci\sness1 z a te/2 b he said no?+ ab\t x 9 8 fir/ lett]s4 ,s ,i let ! matt] alone = a "t1 det]m9+ to tell him "s day1 b mu* disappo9t$ by ! usual failure 9 gett+ corroborative evid5ce4 ,a week lat]1 h[ev]1 at ! end ( a long lett] on o!r subjects1 ,i put ?is %ort ,p4 ,s4 9 a casual way to him3 ,did ,julia ev] tell y t %e _h appe>$ to me 9 ,new ,york8 ,9 answ]+ my lett] he repli$--also 9 a ,p4 ,s43 ,by-!-by1 to answ] y\r la/ qu]y--yes4 ,julia told me weeks ago t %e _h appe>$ to y 9 ,new ,york1 b t %e c\ld n give y h] age on t occasion1 because %e 0 n accu/om$ to speak+ ?r\gh ! embodim5t4 ,n[ 9 s5d+ ! li/ ( que/ions & answ]s to ,mr ,/ead ,i _h m]ely m>k$ aga9/ ! answ] z to h] age1 tw5ty-?ree1 t d\btless x 0 an error1 b ,i _h nev] h9t$ to him t ,i _h ask$ h] to correct ! error 9 ,new ,york1 or t %e _h be5 unable to speak on t occasion4 ,?is aga9 0 a good bit ( indep5d5t evid5ce4 ,i w n[ give a description ( ,mr ,knapton ,?ompson's int]view ) 8 daught]1 on ! same ev5+ t ,julia appe>$ to me4 ,i h already said t ! magnet :i* drew ,mr ,?ompson to ^! sances 0 ! opportunity giv5 to him ( meet+ & talk+ to a daught] :o _h pass$ away "s ye>s previ\sly4 ,on ?is special ev5+ ! daught] mat]ialis$ z usual1 & came out f ! cab9et4 ,z ,mr ,?ompson 0 sitt+ next to me at ! "t1 ,i c\ld di/9ctly he> ,mrs ,gray :isp] to him3 ,w\ld y n l to take y\r daught] into ! o!r room1 ,mr ,?ompson8 ,x is r cr[d$ "h to-night4 ,y w\ld be quiet] 9 !re4 ,mr ,?ompson got up at once1 & greet$ ! mat]ialis$ =m1 & !y disappe>$ ?r\gh ! fold+ doors to ! reception-room4 ,o!r matt]s ( int]e/ 7 occurr+1 & ,i _h q =gott5 ! abs5ce ( ,mr ,?ompson 9 ! dimly light$ room 79 ^? days ! light 0 always dim at fir/71 until ,i f\nd he 0 aga9 occupy+ ! seat next to my own4 ,i _h n notic$ 8 return1 & ask$ him at once ':at he _h done ) 8 daught]4' ,a good half h\r mu/ h elaps$ betwe5 8 disappe>ance & return4 ,he said1 q simply & z a matt] ( c\rse3 ,oh1 %e did n c>e to come back into ?is cr[d$ room4 ,we _h half-an-h\r's *at1 & !n %e de-mat]ialis$ 9 ! o!r room1 & ,i return$ alone4 ,i c only repeat t ,mr ,knapton ,?ompson 0 a %rewd1 practical ,york%ireman1 & a v successful man ( bus9ess1 z 0 prov$ by ! ord]s he receiv$ 9 ,am]ica = ! /oves he _h inv5t$4 ,he 0 c]ta9ly "u ! impression t he c\ld be tru/$ to recognise 8 own daught] :5 all[$ ! privilege ( half-an-h\r's conv]sation ) h]1 tte--tte 9 a private room4 ,i _c end ?is *apt] )\t say+ some?+ ab\t ,keely ( ,philadelphia & 8 intuitional g5ius4 ,i _h hop$ to h ! opportunity ( meet+ ?is wond]ful man dur+ my la/ /ay 9 ,philadelphia1 ,u4,s4,a4 7,m>* #ahig71 b 0 disappo9t$ 9 ?is expectation4 ,!re=e1 on ! out] plane1 my connection ) ,keely nev] w5t beyond a s+le int]view ) 8 wife2 b ?is is a record ( p]sonal intuitions z well z ( p]sonal ev5ts1 & ,i "k no "o ) reg>d to :om my intuitions--absolutely lack+ 9 any physical gr\nd ( pro(1 or ev5 m5tal gr\nd ( compreh5sion--h be5 /rong] or m ob/9ate4 ,at ! "t ( my fir/ visit to ,am]ica1 s f> back z #ahhe1 ,i _h n ! fa9te/ conception ( ,keely's "w1 or :at he claim$ to h discov]$ or to be on ! track ( discov]+4 ,i nev] he>d 8 "n m5tion$ )\t be+ told at ! same "t t he 0 ei!r a silly madman or a consci\s impo/or1 & z ,i came ) an entirely unprejudic$ m9d 7= ,i _h nev] he>d ( ,keely be=e l&+ 9 ,am]ica71 x w\ld h be5 natural to accept ?is univ]sal op9ion4 ,yet some?+ /rong] ?an reason 0 always sil5tly contradict+ ^! ass]tions1 :5 made 9 my pres5ce4 ,fri5ds & acqua9tances alike 9 ^? days laugh$ at ,keely's claims1 & d5\nc$ 8 boa/$ discov]y z pure impo/ure4 ',tisn't6 ',tisn't6 ',tisn't6 t p]si/5t little voice kept :isp]+ 9 my e> all ! "t1 l a naughty1 ob/9ate *ild :o contradicts f %e] ignorance--or 0 x a spiritual intuition8 ,"t alone c answ] t "q2 anyway1 ,i kept my ideas to myself1 = !y _h no f\ndation 9 fact at ! "t ( :i* ,i speak4 ,9 #ahig ! position = me 0 alt]$4 ,a s5sible & dep5dable fri5d ( m9e--a well-kn[n bank] 9 ,philadelphia--describ$ to me 8 exp]i5ces & ^? ( o!r prom95t citiz5s dur+ a demon/ration ( ,mr ,keely's p[]s2 & ! old insi/5t voice t spoke to my ignorance be=e1 spoke n[ to "s glimm]+ und]/&+ ( ! claim put =?4 ,?is claim--ev5 !n je]$ at by ! _w at l>ge--_h to wait %iv]+ 9 ! cold ano!r n9e ye>s1 be=e ,mr ,fr$]ic ,soddy clo!d x 9 respectable sci5tific g>b by speak+ publicly ( ! possibilities 9 ! future connect$ ) atomic dis9tegration & consequ5t lib]ation ( en]gy4 ,b ! yelp+ curs ( ,calumny t pursu$ ,keely dur+ 8 lifetime are /ill ^u ! dead man's tracks4 ,8 me?ods 7 fraud & impo/ure1 anyway2 ,8 wires 7 tubes conta9+ compress$ air1 & s =?4 ,! ,m4,f4,h4 ( ?is pack ( h\nds 0 ! son ( a lady ^: "n w always be hon\rably m5tion$ ) t ( ,keely z "o ( 8 mo/ g5]\s support]s4 ,! initial mis=tune 9 ! :ole matt] 0 ! =m+ & />t+ ( ! ,keely ,motor ,company to utilise ! discov]y1 :i* %\ld fir/ h be5 plac$ "u ! protection ( ,sci5ce4 ,ignorant & impati5t %>ehold]s ?\ght only ( _! own mat]ial advantages & divid5ds4 ,!y 7 ,keely's fir/ enemies1 ) _! s5sational & premature adv]tisem5ts ( results & #bjj horse-p[] eng9es ready to pat5t1 etc41 :il/ ! poor man 0 /ill /ruggl+ ) 8 trem5d\s problem--i4e4 to control ! =ce t he _h discov]$4 ,he attempt$ ?is fir/ by conf9+ x1 b x blew ev]y?+ to atoms1 & 8 own f+]s (f into ! b>ga96 ,occulti/s--includ+ ,madame ,blavatsky--always decl>$ ?is lat5t atomic en]gy 0 a fact1 b t ,keely w\ld nev] be all[$ to demon/rate x1 = ! _w 0 n yet prep>$ = su* a trem5d\s dynamic =ce to be let loose ^u x1 & t ! mo/ s]i\s abuses & disa/]s w\ld foll[1 if once he succe$$ 9 br++ 8 discov]y into practical work+ ord]4 ,!y said x w\ld be "o ( two ?+s3 ei!r ,keely's exp]im5ts 9 ?is direction w\ld cont9ue to fail 9 ! crucial po9t necess>y1 or t if he succe$$ x w\ld be 8 own dea? w>rant1 le/ any mis*ief %\ld accrue f 8 mak+ 8 me?ods public4 ,9 view ( ^! pron\ncem5ts1 ! succe$+ ev5ts 9 ,keely's c>e] are int]e/+4 ,! ,times 7,u4,s4,a47 ( #f? ,m>* #ahih conta9$ ! foll[+ ann\ncem5t1 "u ,keely's own signature3-- ,aft] tw5ty-five ye>s' lab\r ,i h solv$ ! problem ( h>ness+ ! e!r 7:i* else:]e he says is only ! m$ium ( ! =ce he discov]$7 & adapt+ x to comm]cial uses4 ,i h f9i%$ exp]im5t+4--,my "w is n[ complet$4 7,sign$7 ,,john ,w4 ,,keely4 ,on #ah? ,novemb] ( ?is same ye> he di$4 ,)9 two mon?s1 8 g5]\s fri5d & patron1 ,mrs ,blomfield ,moore1 foll[$ him to ano!r sph]e4 ,keely's f9al discov]y ( ! means ( h>ness+ ! e!r1 z he calls x1 0 ?r\gh hold+ x 9 rotation in/ead ( 9 conf9em5t4 ,i am all[$ to quote an extract f a private lett] ) reg>d to ?is /atem5t4 ,?is in/rum5t ruptures ! lum9\s envelopes ( ! hydrog5 corpuscles1 lib]at+ ! my/]i\s sub/ance1 :i* is put into su* high rotation t x =ms its own wall ( conf9em5t at #dbj1jjj revolutions p] second1 z calculat$4 ,indep5d5t ( ?is rotation 9 ! tube1 :]e x is project$1 x c\ld be no m held 9 susp5sion ?an a ray ( sun%9e c\ld be held 9 a d>k5$ room4 ,i h be5 giv5 to und]/& t a fai?ful acc\nt ( ev]y?+ t has occurr$ 9 connection ) ,keely's discov]y has be5 compil$1 & w be publi%$ :5 ! "t comes = ! tru? to be made kn[n4 ,x is1 ( c\rse1 possible t ?is disclosure may be anticipat$ by ! arrival ( ano!r crank & impo/or ( ! ,keely type4 ,let u tru/ he may arise f )9 & n f )\t1 sci5tific circles1 & ?us avoid 8 m>tyrdom6 ,mean:ile x may be int]e/+ to quote f a publi%$ lett] ( ,lascelles-,scott1 ! ,gov]nm5t physici/ f ,=e/ ,gate1 :o visit$ ,keely's work%op 9 ! int]e/s ( ,sci5ce1 & :o 0 all[$ to cut & br+ away ) him pieces ( ! wire ,keely 0 us+4 7,said to be tubes by ! wiseacres67 ,! foll[+ is ! ess5tial portion ( ,mr ,lascelles-,scott's lett]4 ,i only omit c\rte\s expressions ( gratitude to ! editor & to ! in/itutions & individuals alike ( ! beautiful city ( ,philadelphia :]e he 0 able to c>ry out 8 inve/igations4 ,lett] f ,mr ,lascelles-,scott to ! ,editor ( ,! ,public ,l$g]1 ,philadelphia4 ,! only corrections ( suffici5t importance1 to ! g5]al s5se ( my obs]vations at ! ,frankl9 ,in/itute la/ ,w$nesday night1 to call = notice 9 y\r o!rwise admirable report1 are ! foll[+3-- ,al?\gh my obs]vations 7 only put =w>d z prelim9>y1 inasmu* z ,i h n yet complet$ ! outl9$ programme ,i _h 9 view1 no words actually us$ by me ju/ifi$ ! expression t ,i _h =m$ no v def9ite op9ions4 ,on ! contr>y1 ,i /at$ m ?an once ! v def9ite op9ion t ,mr ,keely has demon/rat$ to me1 9 a way :i* is absolutely unque/ionable1 ! exi/5ce ( a =ce hi!rto unkn[n4 7,! italics are m9e4--,e4 ,k4 ,b47 ,! conditions "u :i* ! exp]im5ts 7 c>ri$ out 7z ,i di/9ctly /at$7 7 su* z to preclude ! possibility ( ! results obta9$ be+ due to any ord9>y s\rce ( p[]1 evid5t or conceal$4 ,moreov]1 ,i satisfi$ myself t ! rotation ( ! vibrodyne 0 nei!r due to1 nor accompani$ by1 any traces ( electricity or magnetism4 ,s f> my op9ion is & 0 express$ z be+ ( ! mo/ def9ite k9d possible4 444 ,i /at$1 & ! /atem5t 0 greet$ by ! audi5ce ) great & prolong$ applause1 t1 aft] a little adju/m5t ( ! ,sympa!tic ,transmitt]1 x 0 f\nd t by ! s\nd+ ( "o ( ! small ,engli% tun+ =ks ,i _h br\ght ) me f ! o!r side ( ! ,atlantic1 ^u ! said ,transmitt]1 ,i c\ld myself />t ! vibrodyne1 & cause x to revolve rapidly1 )\t ,mr ,keely's int]v5tion1 & ,i exhibit$ to ! meet+1 ! =k actually us$ by me4--,?ank+ y 9 anticipation1 etc41 ,i am1 sir1 y\rs ob$i5tly1 ,w4 ,,lascelles-,,scott4 ,"o w\ld h suppos$ t ?is te/imony1 9 addition to t ( o!r sci5ti/s & practical electricians1 w\ld h suffic$ to dis9tegrate ,atomic ,/upidity & ,calumny1 & lib]ate ! =ces ( ,humility & ,sane ,inve/igation4 ,b prejudic$ ,ignorance dies h>d6 99 99 99 99 99 ,to end my *apt] on a pleasant] note ?an ?is1 ,i w quote f a private lett] :i* ,i h be5 privileg$ to read1 ! beautiful words 9 :i* ,keely describes 8 own a*ievem5ts4 ,i h no p[] t is n communicat$ to me 9 ! same way t ?is ma*9e receives its p[]3 ?r\gh cele/ial radiation f ! ,s\l ( ,matt]1 ! ,m9d =ce ( ! ,creator1 ^: in/rum5t ,i am4 ,i "k :o is lead+ me & mak+ all ?+s "w toge!r = good4 ,,*apt] ,,xi ,a ,,haunt$ ,,ca/le ,,9 ,,irel& ,9 ! ye> #ahih ,i 0 sp5d+ a few days 9 ,ca/le ,ru%1 :i* has be5 describ$ by ,mr ,w4 ,t4 ,/ead z ! mo/ haunt$ ca/le 9 ,irel&4 ,x is "o ( ! few old ,iri% ca/les /ill inhabit$1 & is naturally haunt$ by ! gho/s ( ! pa/ 9 e mean+ ( ! ^w4 ,at ! "t ( my /ay ,i 0 recov]+ f a sev]e illness1 &1 9 fact1 0 s5t (f to b$ imm$iately ^u arrival by my k9d ho/ess1 :o1 ) true hospitality1 ?\ght m ( h] gue/'s com=t ?an ! conv5tionalities ( life1 & w\ld n he> ( my l+]+1 ev5 to make acqua9tance ) my ho/1 on ! d>k autumnal ev5+ ( my arrival4 ,?is _h tak5 place aft] driv+ _m miles & wait+ = a dre>y long "t 9 ! little inn ( a small ,iri% t[n%ip4 ,my doctor w\ld n he> ( any railway travell+ j !n1 s ! :ole =ty miles f my la/ /opp+-place _h to be negotiat$ betwe5 ! c>riages ( my pa/ & pres5t hospitable ho/s4 ,z a matt] ( fact1 ,i believe ,i slept 9 "o ( ! haunt$ rooms1 b x look$ *e]ful en\gh :5 ,i ent]$ f ! gloom & d>kness outside2 & a da9ty little d9n] s5t up by my k9d fri5ds bel[1 & eat5 :5 snugly tuck$ 9 betwe5 ! %eets & re/+ on s(t d[ny pill[s1 0 en\gh to drive all ?\ghts ( gho/ly visitors f my head4 ,i am ?ankful to say t ,i nei!r he>d nor saw any?+ dur+ my %ort visit1 & %\ld n ev5 h kn[n t my room _h _h any evil reputation b = ! visit ( an ecc5tric & clev] old lady1 :o _h be5 specially ask$ to ! ca/le to meet me4 ,aft] lun*eon we adj\rn$ to my b$room1 at h] sugge/ion1 & %e said casually3 ,ah1 y h ?is room1 ,i see4 ,x 0 t]ribly haunt$ once1 b ,i held a sort ( little s]vice "h "s "t ago1 & cle>$ !m all out4 ,i mu/ expla9 t ?is good lady took a v optimi/ic view ( h] own capacities & p[]s 9 g5]al1 & spoke--f ! psy*ic po9t ( view--) ! hone/ pride t a fle% & blood *>woman might display on go+ ov] premises t %e _h ?or\ghly scrubb$ & clean$ out6 ,"o morn+ aft] breakfa/1 my ho/ess1 ,mrs ,k5t1 call$ to me to come quickly & see a curi\s sight4 ,x 0 a p\r+ wet day--"o ( ^? days :5 ! heav5s op5 & ! ra9 desc5ds 9 buckets6 ,i c\ld see no?+ m rem>kable ?an ! damp1 autumnal leaves1 ! b>e trees sway+ 9 ! w9d-wa%$ spaces1 & ! p\r+1 ceaseless ra94 ,don't y see t girl ov] !re8 ,i look$ aga91 & did see a girl j em]g+ f a clump ( bee*es1 & c>ry+ a small trunk ^u h] head4 ,:at an extraord9>y day to *oose = travell+1 ,i said drily4 ,ah1 t is ,iri% sup]/ition6 rejo9$ my ho/ess4 ,t is my la/ kit*5-maid y see--%e is walk+ sev5 miles1 ) t trunk on h] head1 soon] ?an wait a few h\rs1 :5 ,i c\ld h s5t h] to ! /ation4 ,is %e mad8 0 my natural comm5t4 ,oh no6 only desp]ately fright5$4 ,%e has n be5 "h a week yet1 & %e is mu* too t]rifi$ to be coh]5t4 ,all ,i c make out is t no?+ on e>? w\ld induce h] to sp5d ano!r night at ,ru%4 ,i c\ld h s5t h] ov] to ,m>ley easily to-morr[ morn+ at eight o'clock1 b %e w\ld n he> ( x4 ,& :e!r %e has really se5 any?+1 or only be5 fright5$ by ! /ories ( ! o!r s]vants1 ,i don't "k4 ,anyway1 %e has c]ta9ly ! c\rage ( h] op9ions1 & is prep>$ to suff] = !m6 ,i w\ld r meet half-a-doz5 gho/s ?an c>ry t trunk on my head sev5 miles 9 ?is p\r+ ra94 ,!n turn+ r\nd c>elessly1 %e rem>k$3 ,i suppose y h n se5 or he>d any?+1 ,miss ,bates1 s9ce y came8 ,i hope n1 = ,i am sure y are n /rong en\gh = mundane visitors yet1 let alone ! o!r k9d4 ,we 7 pass+ ?r\gh ! h&some circul> hall at ! "t1 & ,i said eag]ly3 ,oh no6 ,?ank goodness1 ,i've se5 & he>d no?+4 ,i don't ?9k ,i %\ld be all[$ to see any?+ :il/ ,i am s weak & poorly4 ,almo/ at ! mom5t ( say+ ^! words some?+ impell$ me to place my h& ^u a p>ticul> spot 9 ! great /one wall by my side4 ,b !re is some?+ "h ,i don't l1 ,i said1 tapp+ x--some?+ uncanny--b ,i don't "k :at x is4 ,mrs ,k5t made no rem>k2 & ,i ?\ght no m ( ! circum/ance until ! foll[+ ye>1 :5 ,i 0 told by ,mr ,/ead t ,mrs ,k5t 0 ov] 9 ,engl&1 & _h be5 lun*+ ) him & ask+ = me4 ,%e 0 giv+ me a mo/ graphic acc\nt ( ! way y 'spott$' ^? skeletons at ,ru% ,ca/le1 he said4 ,i 0 completely puzzl$ by ?is rem>k4 ,i _h nev] spott$ a s+le skeleton to my k1 ei!r at ,ru% or else:]e1 & ,i told him s2 b he p]si/$ 9 say+ t ,mrs ,k5t _h told him a v diff]5t /ory1 & t mo/ c]ta9ly %e _h m5tion$ me z ! p]cipi5t4 ,%e mu/ h mix$ me up ) somebody else1 0 my f9al comm5t4 ,no d\bt _m p h que] exp]i5ces !re1 & %e might naturally make su* a mi/ake4 ,well1 ,i gave h] y\r address1 & %e is writ+ to ask y to h tea ) h] at ! club1 s y & %e c fight x out !re1 he said2 & ! conv]sation drift$ into o!r *annels4 ,next aft]noon ,i met ,mrs ,k5t at h] club1 & be=e leav+1 =tunately rememb]$ ! curi\s mi/ake ab\t ! skeletons ,i _h spott$4 ,b y did 'spot' !m1 %e said1 laugh+4 ,don't y rememb] my ask+ y if y _h notic$ any?+ curi\s1 or he>d or se5 any?+1 dur+ y\r visit8 ,at fir/ y said ',?ank goodness1 no6' ,b imm$iately aft]w>ds y put y\r h& on a p>ticul> "p ( ! circul> hall1 & said3 ',!re is some?+ uncanny j "h--some?+ ,i don't l4' ,yes2 ,i rememb] all t4 ,b :at ( x8 ,y nev] told me any?+ ab\t skeletons4 ,( c\rse n--y 7 n 9 a condition ( heal? to discuss su* e]ie que/ions j !n4 ,all ! same1 y _h locat$ ! exact spot :]e only a week be=e y\r visit1 my husb&'s ag5t told him t two skeletons _h be5 f\nd brick$ up6 ,%e !n expla9$ t ! ag5t _h be5 on ! e/ate = _m ye>s1 ev5 be=e ! dea? ( ! late own] ( ,ru%--h] fa!r-9-law4 ,hav+ "s bus9ess ) h] husb& ! week be=e my arrival1 ?is ag5t _h casually m5tion$ t he & ! =m] own] _h f\nd ^! skeletons 9 ! v spot indicat$ by me1 ab\t =ty ye>s previ\sly1 &1 /range to relate1 _h brick$ !m up aga9 in/ead ( bury+ !m4 ,?is la/ fact may acc\nt 9 "p at lea/ = ! spooky reputation ( ,ca/le ,ru%4 ,all good psy*ics "k t no?+ di/urbs a _s s mu* z any in=mality ab\t 8 fun]al arrangem5ts6 ,to return to my visit to ,ca/le ,ru%4 ,"s ye>s previ\sly ,i _h met1 on an ,ori5t /eam] sail+ f ,ceylon to ,naples1 a bro!r ( ! own] ( ,ru%4 ,he 0 a sailor1 & z h>d-head$ & practical a man z x has ev] be5 my lot to meet4 ,x 0 9 no way ?r\gh meet+ him t my visit to ,ru% came ab\t1 b ow+ to my acqua9tance ) ,mrs ,k5t & h] family4 ,i _h be5 greatly tak5 by ! g5ial common-s5se ( ?is ,capta9 ,k5t1 & 0 mu* griev$ to he> ( 8 dea? :5 ,i /ay$ ) 8 si/]-9-law4 ,x _h occurr$ %ortly be=e my visit1 & "u sad circum/ances4 ,on ! surface he 0 c]ta9ly m lack+ 9 s5tim5t ?an anyone ,i ev] met1 b mu/ h be5 capable ( v deep affection4 ,:5 ,i met him he _h only be5 m>ri$ = a few mon?s4 ,8 wife di$ )9 two ye>s ( _! m>riage1 & go+ = a %ort holiday to ,ca/le ,ru% soon aft]w>ds1 he said to 8 si/]-9-law3 ,i %all n live a ye> aft] h]1 ,i "k6 ,he 0 ! la/ k9d ( man to make su* a spee*1 z bo? ,mrs ,k5t & ,i obs]v$ :5 %e m5tion$ x to me4 ,b he 0 q "r1 all ! same1 %e add$4 ,he di$ j ?ree days )9 ! ye> f ! "t ( 8 wife's dea?4 ,yet he 0 an exceptionally /rong1 /urdy1 & wiry man at ! "t ( 8 great sorr[4 ,f ,ca/le ,ru% ,i 0 go+ to ! s\? ( ,irel& to visit relations at ,cork4 ,on ! morn+ ( my dep>ture ,i 0 d[n 9 ! draw+-room1 r wond]+ :y ,i _h be5 br\ght to ?is old ,iri% ca/le4 ,no special object seem$ to h be5 a*iev$ by my visit4 ,i did n ev5 "k !n t ,i _h discov]$ two skeletons6 ,9 ^? days ,i f\nd s (t5 "s tra9 ( circum/ances--a borr[$ book1 a /rang] com+ across my pa?1 "s unexpect$ visit paid1 :i* 7 lat] f\nd to h be5 factors 9 a special exp]i5ce--t ,i 0 r surpris$ to realise t ,i 0 leav+ ! mo/ haunt$ ca/le 9 ,irel& & t no?+ _h happ5$4 ,b 9 ! v mom5t ( say+ ?is to myself a curi\sly insi/5t impression came to me q sudd5ly1 & out ( ! blue4 ,! impression 0 t ! bro!r ( my ho/1 ,capta9 ,k5t1 0 wi%+ v urg5tly to communicate some?+ ?r\gh me4 ,i did n feel equal to tak+ any message at ! "t--,i h already expla9$ t ,i 0 only j recov]+ f a sev]e illness4 ,lun* & a long drive to ! /ation & a we>y railway j\rney lay be=e me1 s ,i det]m9$ to d no?+ until ,i 0 safely e/abli%$ ) my c\s9s ne> ,cork4 ,aft] a long1 cold1 & wet j\rney ,i arriv$ 9 p\r+ ra91 my tra9 be+ m ?an a h\r late4 ,! k9d ,g5]al :o came to meet me 0 /ill pati5tly /&+ on ! plat=m1 b "o ( ! two c>s he _h engag$ = me & my baggage _h tak5 itself (f6 ,z ! ra9 0 desc5d+ 9 wat]-sp\ts1 ,i ne$ sc>cely say x 0 ! cov]$ c> :i* _h driv5 away6 ,?is meant a ?or\gh wett+ = my c\s9 & me4 ,h[ all ! luggage 7includ+ a l>ge bicycle1 & two p1 9 addition to ! driv]7 0 ev] pil$ up on t small outside ,iri% c> ,i h nev] be5 able to und]/&4 ,suffice x to say ! miracle 0 p]=m$1 & we drove up a hill at an angle ( ab\t =ty-five degrees into ! b>ga96 ,cle>ly ^! 7 n ideal conditions = receiv+ automatic messages6 ,i 0 put to b$ at once ) hot bottles & hot s\p1 & soon =got my pa/ tr\bles 9 a long refre%+ sleep4 ,i 0 /ill 9 ! invalid /age ( breakfa/ 9 b$1 & :5 ?is _h be5 cle>$ away1 ! remembrance ( ,capta9 ,k5t fla%$ into my m9d1 & ,i f\nd p5cil & pap]s at once1 9 ord] to r$eem my promise4 ,! message 0 r a curi\s "o1 & its op5+ s5t5ce evid5tly ref]r$ to ! ecc5tric old lady :om ,i h m5tion$ z be+ ask$ to meet me at lun*eon at ,ca/le ,ru%4 ,s f> z ,i c rememb] !m1 ! words 7v *>act]i/ic ( ,capta9 ,k5t's g5ial b r brusque /yle7 ran z foll[s3-- ,aft] speak+ ( ! alleg$ haunt+s at ,ca/le ,ru% z hav+ only too mu* f\ndation 9 fact1 he w5t on3 ,x's all rubbi%1 t old woman say+ %e _h cle>$ !m all away6 ,no?+ ( ! k9d4 ,!re are pl5ty ( malici\s spirits ab\t /ill1 & n[ t an heir is com+ to ,ru% !y are ke5] ?an ev] to try & "w "s mis*ief4 ,no use say+ any?+ to ,tom 78 bro!r74 ,he w only laugh1 & say x is all skittles4 ,b tell my little si/]-9-law to ,,pray--,,pray--,,pray4 ,t is all !y ne$ & all %e ne$s ei!r4 ,n[ ?is 0 n exactly ! message "o c>$ to s5d to a r rec5t acqua9tance4 ,to beg9 )1 ! ref]5ce to ,mrs ,k5t's valu$ fri5d 9 ! op5+ s5t5ce 0 sc>cely polite6 ,!n aga91 ! prophecy ( an heir to ,ru% 0 "o t ,i regrett$ %\ld h be5 made1 z x w\ld probably only lead to disappo9tm5t4 ,mrs ,k5t's fir/ *ild _h be5 a little son1 f ^: loss %e _h nev] recov]$4 ,:5 ,i 0 /ay+ at ! ca/le1 two nice little girls1 old en\gh to come d[n to e>ly d9n]1 at our lun*eon h\r1 compris$ ! family4 ,ano!r *ild 0 c]ta9ly expect$ to arrive ab\t ,*ri/mas-"t 7my visit 0 paid 9 ,septemb]71 b ,mrs ,k5t h]self 0 fully conv9c$ t ?is w\ld be ano!r girl1 z %e said r sadly4 ,x seem$ a pity to di/urb h] m9d by rais+ false hopes4 ,b1 z usual1 ,i felt b\nd to s5d ! message1 ) ! cu/om>y explanations & apologies4 ,mrs ,k5t 0 greatly int]e/$ by x & by ! ,,pray--,,pray--,,pray1 :i*1 z %e expla9$ to me1 _h a v special mean+ = h]4 ,x _h only /ruck me z an exce$+ly unlikely message = ! ,capta9 ,k5t ,i _h kn[n1 to s5d to anyone4 ,i am glad to be able to record t ! ,*ri/mas gift did arrive 9 ! %ape ( a baby boy1 heir to ,ru%1 :o is /ill alive & fl\ri%+1 ?ank ,god6 ,i he> t he calls himself ! ma/]1 ) a true ,iri% brogue1 & lords x ov] 8 eld] si/]s 9 ! regul> *iefta9 /yle6 ,to ?is ye> belongs ano!r /rong impression ( psy*ic atmosph]e1 left 9 a room :i* ,i occupi$ 9 ! s\? ( ,engl&4 ,x 0 a mo/ com=table room1 ) no?+ 9 ! lea/ gho/ly ab\t x4 ,m]ely ,i _h an unpleasant feel+ t controv]sies & discussions _h tak5 place 9 ! room1 & t a want ( h>mony hung ab\t x 9 consequ5ce4 ,on m5tion+ ?is r t5tatively to ! ma/] ( ! h\se--a v or?odox cl]gyman--,i 0 told3 ,oh de>1 no6 ,no?+ ( ! k9d--y are c]ta9ly mi/ak56 ,b :5 an opportunity arose ,i *ang$ my room1 & felt v mu* m com=table 9 consequ5ce ( do+ s4 ,sev]al times ,i _h notic$ on ! hall table1 lett]s :i* _h come by po/ address$ to ano!r cl]gyman1 ^: "n ,i _h n he>d1 & :o 0 c]ta9ly n /ay+ 9 ! h\se4 ,rem>k+ ^u ?is casually to a nice "y gov]ness "o day1 %e said at once t ! g5tleman 9 "q _h sp5t sev]al mon?s ) ,mr & ,mrs ,dale 9 ! ,vic>age1 b t he _h di$ a few weeks be=e my arrival4 ,he slept 9 ! room y _h :5 y fir/ came1 by-!-by4 ,i 0 s glad :5 y *ang$ y\r room4 ,he 0 a cl]gyman1 ,i see1 0 my next rem>k2 & ,i look$ at ! envelope :i* _h l$ to ?is explanation4 ,yes2 he 0 9 ord]s1 b he _h become a complete agno/ic = "s ye>s4 ,dur+ ! la/ few weeks ( 8 life--:5 he _h to keep 8 b$--,mr ,dale 0 always go+ up !re1 & hav+ long argum5ts & discussions ) him2 b ,i don't suppose x did mu* good3 x only worri$ him v mu*4 ,he 0 too ill to li/5 to long argum5ts !n1 & want$ j k9d1 soo?+ words1 ,i %\ld h ?\ght4 ,z ! girl retreat$ to ! s*ool-room ,i naturally pond]$ ov] ?is fre% te/imony to ! tru? ( psy*ic atmosph]e4 ,no s5sitive c "q ! fact1 b at pres5t we "k little or no?+ ( ! laws :i* condition ! fact4 ,my fri5d ,mr ,w4 ,t4 ,/ead k9dly all[s me to m5tion ano!r incid5t connect$ ) p]sonal exp]i5ces ( m9e 9 ! ye> #ahih4 ,9 ! op5+ mon? ( t ye> he lo/ a mu*-valu$ fri5d1 :o _h work$ = him loyally1 bo? 9 8 (fice & also ) reg>d to "s ( 8 philan?ropic s*emes4 ,?is lady 9 a fit ( delirium1 incid5t ^u a sev]e attack ( illness1 ?rew h]self out ( a w9d[ 9 h] flat4 ,a =tnight be=e ?is sad occurr5ce1 %e _h se5 ano!r resid5t 9 ! same set ( flats ?r[ h]self out ( ! w9d[1 & ,mr ,/ead has always fe>$ t ?is act$ z a sugge/ion ^u h] m9d 9 delirium1 & l$ h] to d ! same ?+4 ,h] own acc\nt ( ! cause ( h] action diff]s some:at f ?is impression1 z w be se5 lat]4 ,mr ,/ead 0 naturally greatly affect$ by ,mrs ,morris' sudd5 dea? & ! circum/ances att5d+ x1 & hav+ "s ( h] hair cut (f aft] h] dea?1 he s5t portions ( x to at lea/ twelve well-kn[n clairvoyants1 hop+ to receive "s satisfactory solution ( ! my/]y1 & also1 possibly1 a sign decid$ ^u betwe5 him & ?is lady4 ,!y 7 bo? int]e/$ 9 psy*ic matt]s1 & _h agre$ to believe 9 no communications f ! o!r side purport+ to come f "o or o!r ( !m1 unless ?is prelim9>y sign 7 giv54 ,mrs ,besant--an intimate fri5d ( ,mr ,/ead--0 "o ( ! oracles consult$1 & 0 v confid5t ( be+ able to f9d out all details1 includ+ ! my/ic sign4 ,b bo? %e & ,mr ,leadbeat] 7 z absolutely unsuccessful z less gift$ mortals prov$ to be4 ,9 spite ( exceptional opportunities = com+ 9 t\* ) ! mo/ not$ psy*ics1 9 spite ( ! valuable clue giv5 by hair cut aft] dea?1 ! te/ seem$ q hopeless1 s9ce twelve ( ! be/ clairvoyants _h be5 consult$1 & all _h fail$ 9 turn4 ,a few weeks aft] he>+ ab\t ?is f ,mr ,/ead1 ,i 0 invit$ by an old fri5d 9 ,london to meet at h] h\se1 at lun*eon1 ,miss ,r[an ,v9c5t1 a non-pr(essional s5sitive1 well kn[n to _m ( my read]s4 ,i _h nev] se5 ?is lady be=e1 & _h little spee* ) h] dur+ ! meal4 ,%e 0 talk+ v e>ne/ly to a milit>y man--! son-9-law ( our ho/ess--:il/ ! latt] & ,i 7 hav+ an int]e/+ conv]sation to ourselves4 ,g5]al ,maxwell1 hav+ a tra9 to cat*1 did n accompany u to ! draw+-room4 ,on arrival !re ,miss ,r[an ,v9c5t said to me v k9dly3 ,c ,i d any?+ = y n[1 ,miss ,bates8 ,%all ,i try if ,i c see any?+ = y8 ,some?+ induc$ me1 q aga9/ my w1 to say3 ,d y ev] get messages by writ+1 ,miss ,v9c5t8 ,no2 ,i h nev] done s1 b ,i c try1 %e answ]$ r eag]ly4 ,h[ ,i bewail$ my /upidity 9 mak+ su* a sugge/ion6 ,i _h div]t$ h] m9d f h] own special gift1 :i* 0 t ( see+ a p]son's psy*ic surr\nd+s1 & _h swit*$ h] on to an entirely novel & untri$ exp]im5t4 ,i _h n ev5 ! excuse ( be+ specially int]e/$ 9 automatic writ+1 :i* 0 s easily obta9$ at home2 :]eas ,i 0 greatly int]e/$ 9 see+ :e!r any ( my o!r side fri5ds c\ld make !mselves p]ceptible ?r\gh ?is s5sitive4 ,h[ev]1 ! mis*ief 0 done pa/ rem$y4 ,! sugge/ion _h tak5 firm root 9 ,miss ,r[an ,v9c5t's m9d1 & %e 0 n to be div]t$ f x4 ,s ,i resign$ myself pati5tly to ! results ( my own fooli% rem>k1 :il/ %e took p5cil & pap] & sat d[n expectantly4 ,soon %e look$ up1 ! writ+ hav+ already begun4 ,d y "k any ,william8 ,!re seems to be "s message f a ,william1 z f> z ,i c make out4 ,hav+ _h a fav\rite c\s9 ( t "n1 ,i told h] x might be q correct1 & ,i %\ld be glad to receive any message t came4 ,a few mom5ts pass$1 & !n ,miss ,v9c5t said1 9 a puzzl$ tone3 ,x is n f ,william--! message is to "s ,william--,i _c und]/& x at all4 ,%e pu%$ ! pap] r impati5tly t[>ds me4 ,writt5 ^u x cle>ly b fa9tly 7 ^! words3 ,,de> ,,william1--,i want to expla9 to y h[ ,i came to fall out ( t w9d[--x 0 n my fault really--someone came up beh9d & pu%$ me out4 ,,e!l4 ,! signature 0 r indi/9ct1 b q unmi/akable to me2 b !n ,i knew ! ,*ri/ian "n ( ,mr ,/ead's fri5d1 & realis$ at once t %e 0 tak+ ?is opportunity ( s5d+ a message to him4 ,i ask$ ,miss ,v9c5t :at "n 0 writt5 at ! bottom ( ! pap]4 ,x looks l ,e!l1 %e said1 b x is n v cle>4 ,i w ask ! _s to write x aga94 ,a v bold & unmi/akable signature 0 at once giv54 ,i conceal$ my excitem5t1 & said quietly to ,miss ,v9c5t3 ,i ?9k ,i "k f :om ! message comes & = :om x is int5d$1 b to make q sure x w\ld be v satisfactory if ! _s c\ld give ?r\gh y a sign agre$ ^u by ! s5d] & ! recipi5t & unkn[n to ev]yone else4 ,well1 ,i w try1 said ,miss ,v9c5t at once4 ,%e _h sc>cely t\*$ ! p5cil :5 x began describ+ a circle4 ,!re is no d\bt ab\t my hav+ to make a circle1 %e said1 laugh+4 ,oh1 n[ ,i am to put a cross into x1 %e add$4 ,)9 a few seconds bo? ^! 7 giv51 & to our great delight--z well z to 8--! sign 0 recognis$ by ,mr ,/ead z be+ ! "o agre$ ^u1 & :i* _h hopelessly puzzl$ all ! o!r m$iums4 ,,*apt] ,,xii #aijj-aija ,i mu/ n[ note a curi\s episode connect$ ) my fri5d ,judge ,=bes1 ^: a/ral influ5ce ,i _h trac$ cl++ to ! rooms he once occupi$ 9 ,cambridge4 ,z be=e m5tion$1 he _h m>ri$1 & ,i _h lo/ sight ( him & 8 :ole family = _m ye>s4 ,b we _h sev]al mutual fri5ds1 ?r\gh :om ,i _h he>d ( ! bir? ( 8 only son & only *ild1 & lat] ( ! boy be+ s5t to ,eton1 & ev5tually ent]+ ! army4 ,?is 0 v %ortly be=e ! break+ out ( ! ,s\? ,african ,w>1 & ! "y fell[ 0 "o ( _m :o 7 draft$ f ,india1 aft] a few mon?s' s]vice !re1 to help to def5d _! ,que5's possessions & _! c\ntrym5's lives & prop]ty 9 ,s\? ,africa4 ,lat]1 "y ,=bes 0 %ut up 9 ,ladysmi?1 & "o cold1 dismal day 9 ,janu>y 7#f? ,janu>y #aijj7 ,i 0 ly+ v ill 9 b$ ) a sev]e bron*ial attack 9 ! h\se ( my elde/ bro!r 9 ,hamp%ire1 :5 ! latt] came home "o ev5+ f ! ,w9*e/] ,club & told u ( ! celebrat$ sortie & ! dea? ( ?ree "y ,engli% (fic]s4 ,! "n ( ,=bes ( ! ,royal ,rifles figur$ among/ ^!1 & ,i felt conv9c$ t x mu/ be ! only *ild ( my old fri5d4 ,)\t hesitation ,i prep>$ to write a few %ort l9es ( sympa?y ) ! he>t-brok5 fa!r4 ,9 va9 my si/]-9-law prote/$ aga9/ my conclud+ at once t x mu/ be ! judge's son1 s9ce o!r memb]s ( ! family ( ! same "n 7 kn[n to be 9 ! army4 ,i _h n a mom5t's d\bt t ?is 0 ! boy already m5tion$1 & ev5 a sil5ce ( ov] tw5ty ye>s seem$ to pres5t no difficulty 9 express+ "o's deep sympa?y1 9 ! face ( su* a sorr[4 ,! real drawback lay 9 my weak /ate ( heal? & physical inability to write m ?an a few l9es4 ,b 9 ^! ,i express$ a hope t 9 "t my poor fri5d might come to realise t 8 boy 0 z mu* alive & z ne> to him z ev]--p]haps ne>]4 ,x w indicate h[ entirely all relations betwe5 u _h be5 brok5 (f = _m ye>s1 :5 ,i say t ,i did n ev5 "k ! judge's private address1 & 0 =c$ to s5d my lett] to 8 c\rt4 ,9 a day or two ,i receiv$ a v t\*+ & grateful answ]1 pa!tic n only 9 its grief1 b ev5 m 9 8 frankly av[$ inability to d]ive any consolation f ! ?\ghts t my %ort note _h sugge/$4 ,resignation to ! inscrutable w ( ,god 0 ! keynote ( ! lett]4 ,9 "s f>-di/ant future he might be p]mitt$ once m to see 8 belov$ son1 b mean:ile all 0 gloom & mis]y4 ,! episode 0 ov]4 ,i _h express$ my s9c]e sympa?y ) an ov]:elm+ sorr[1 ,i _h receiv$ a mo/ k9d & appreciative answ]--no m c\ld be done 9 ! matt]4 ,?is 0 my conclusion1 b evid5tly n ! conclusion ( "y ,talbot ,=bes4 ,i _h nev] se5 ?is boy 9 my life1 nor 8 "m2 b ,i suppose my old fri5d%ip ) 8 fa!r1 & my deep sympa?y ) ! latt]1 enabl$ ! son to approa* me soon aft] he _h pass$ into ! next sph]e4 ,anyway1 he made me consci\s ( 8 pres5ce by my b$side dur+ ! great] "p ( ! night foll[+ my receipt ( 8 fa!r's lett]4 ,ow+ to my sev]e illness ,i 0 sleep+ v little1 & once or twice 9 ! night an att5dant came 9 to make up my fire & keep ! temp]ature ( ! room ev51 s t ,i _h ample opportunity = realis+ ! pres5ce ( my hi!rto unkn[n visitor4 ,^? :o "k :at he>+ ) ! inn] e> means w realise ! me?od ?r\gh :i* ! foll[+ conv]sation took place1 s f> z ,i c n[ recall x3-- ,,talbot4--,yes1 x is ,talbot ,=bes4 ,i want to speak to y4 ,please li/5 to me6 ,i want to tell y1 y mu/ d m = !m ?an ?is--y h to help !m ab\t me4 ,e4 ,k4 ,b4--,:o d y mean by '!m'8 ,,talbot4--,my p>5ts1 ( c\rse4 ,don't y und]/& :at ,i am say+8 ,y h to d m = !m--y mu/ make !m "k ,i am close to !m4 ,n[ ,i c\ld only suppose t he wi%$ me to write aga9 to 8 fa!r1 & expla9 m fully my own ideas on ! subject ( our dep>t$ fri5ds4 ,z ?is w\ld h involv$ a we>isome & almo/ c]ta9ly useless discussion on a topic :i* ,i _h reason to "k 0 v di/a/eful to ! boy's fa!r1 ,i said r %ortly1 & ,i am afraid ) "s ( ! petulance ( an invalid3 ,oh1 d be quiet1 & leave me alone6 ,i h done all ,i c1 & !re is no m to be said ab\t x4 ,i am v sorry = y1 b ,i really c't help y 9 ?is4 ,i don't "k y\r "m or :at h] views ab\t x may be2 & z = y\r fa!r--well1 ,i am n go+ to worry & torm5t him ab\t ideas t he dislikes & disapproves (1 & j n[1 too1 :5 he is s mis]able6 ,no1 ,i won't d x1 n ev5 if y come & worry me ab\t x e night4 ,i 0 feel+ ill & we>y1 & long+ = sleep1 & hop$ ?is w\ld be a quietus to my "y fri5d4 ,n a bit ( x6 ,8 next rem>k 03 ,:at does x matt] :at ,,y ?9k or :at y mean to d or n to d8 ,y h to help !m1 n to ?9k ab\t y\r own feel+s4 ,?is 0 frank at anyrate1 b n altoge!r conv9c+4 ,soon aft]w>ds1 tir$ out ) ! discussion1 ,i really did fall asleep1 & only woke a %ort "t be=e my breakfa/ & daily budget ( lett]s arriv$4 ,among/ ^! lett]s 0 "o 9 an unkn[n h&writ+1 :i* prov$ to be f ,mrs ,=bes1 say+ %e _h se5 my lett] to h] husb&1 & begg+ t ,i w\ld tell h] ! gr\nds ,i _h = my assurance t ^? we love are close to u aft] ! great *ange we call dea?4 ,evid5tly ! boy knew t ?is lett] 0 com+ to me1 & 0 try+ to prep>e me to answ] x 9 su* a way z %\ld help him to conv9ce 8 "m ( 8 cont9u$ exi/5ce 9 h] imm$iate pres5ce4 ,z ?is case is "o well kn[n to ! ,society = ,psy*ical ,rese>* 7! lady ,i h call$ ,mrs ,=bes appe>+ on _! records bo? z ,mrs ,scott & "u ! pseudonym ,i h borr[$ f !m71 x is unnecess>y to g into fur!r details4 ,suffice x to say t my nocturnal visitor 0 successful 9 8 aim4 ,i answ]$ 8 "m's lett] z he wi%$4 ,?is l$ to a long correspond5ce betwe5 u1 & to my mak+ h] acqua9tance %ortly aft]w>ds & r5ew+ my old fri5d%ip ) h] husb&4 ,mrs ,=bes _h sev]al sitt+s ) ,mrs ,?ompson & o!r m$iums1 became conv9c$ ( h] son's pres5ce ) h]1 & v soon 0 indep5d5t ( outside assi/ance 9 communicat+ ) him4 ,! judge also decl>$ himself unable to resi/ ! evid5ce1 b ,i don't ?9k he ev] q hone/ly rejoic$ 9 8 convictions4 ,x is h>d to eradicate prejudices & traditions aft] fifty ye>s ( age1 & ! human elem5t 9 8 son's bright & happy messages always seem$ to worry & p]plex him a little4 ,he kn[s all ab\t x n[6 ,mu* z ,i deplore ! e>?ly disappe>ance ( su* an old & fai?ful fri5d ( my y\?1 ,i c s9c]ely rejoice 9 ?9k+ ( him z once m unit$ ) 8 son1 9 ways t w no long] appe> to him unnatural or undesirable4 ,dur+ ! judge's lifetime1 & aft] ! son's dea?1 ,i (t5 /ay$ ) him & 8 wife 9 _! nor!rn home4 ,mrs ,=bes us$ frequ5tly to say3 ,x 0 ,talbot :o br\ght u all ?ree toge!r1 we mu/ rememb]6 ,,pek9 ,,/ory ,x 0 dur+ my fir/ visit to ,judge & ,mrs ,=bes1 9 ! nor? ( ,engl&1 t ano!r curi\s exp]i5ce came to me4 ,?is happ5$ on ! #d? ( ,july #aijj1 = ,i rememb] say+ to ,mrs ,=bes next morn+3 ,i %all rememb] ! date f its be+ ,am]ican ,indep5d5ce ,day4 ,x 0 ! ye> ( ! ,box] rebellion 9 ,*9a1 :5 ! ,pek9 ,embassy 0 9 a /ate ( siege1 & by ,july almo/ all hope t any ,europeans w\ld be sav$ f _! dire p]il _h fad$ away4 ,! ,memorial ,s]vice1 arrang$ by a too eag] dignit>y ( ! ,*ur* to take place 9 ,/ ,paul's1 _h c]ta9ly be5 adj\rn$ at ! la/ mom5t2 b z days & weeks pass$1 & ! little g>rison 0 /ill unreliev$1 v little hope 0 ent]ta9$4 ,9 fact1 by ,july mo/ p hop$ & believ$ t _! tr\bles mu/ be already ov]1 ?r\gh ! m]ciful int]position ( dea?4 ,a connection ( m9e1 :om ,i _h kn[n well :5 %e 0 a *ild1 b _h n se5 = _m ye>s1 0 %ut up ) h] husb&1 *ildr51 & si/] 9 ! ,pek9 ,embassy at ! "t4 ,?\s&s 7 lam5t+ h] sad fate1 & ,i naturally among/ !m2 b ,i wi% to make cle> t1 ow+ to ! ye>s t _h elaps$ s9ce ,i _h se5 ?is special memb] ( ! family1 x 0 n 9 any s5se a v p]sonal sorr[1 nor 0 ,i !n--nor am ,i n[--aw>e ( any special tie ( aff9ity betwe5 ?is lady & myself4 ,i _h gone to b$ ab\t elev5 o'clock on ! night ( #d? ,july #aijj1 & _h be5 9 b$ ab\t half-an-h\r1 )\t any attempt at go+ to sleep1 :5 sudd5ly ,i felt extremely al]t 9 m9d1 v mu* z ,miss ,port] describ$ h]self 9 ! ,capta9 ,c>bury episode4 ,almo/ imm$iately ^u ?is feel+ ( m5tal al]tness came ! conviction t ,mabel ,m',leod 7z ,i w call h]7 0 9 ! room1 close to me1 & t %e 0 9 "s dire & urg5t ne$ ( help--in/antane\s help1 ,i mean4 ,i c\ld nei!r see nor he> on ?is occasion--,i only knew ^! facts ?r\gh "s p[] ( intuition1 all ! m rem>kable because1 hav+ made up my m9d t all 0 ov] at ! ,embassy1 ,i _h n be5 ?9k+ ( h] or ( h] fell[-suff]]s = "s days pa/4 ,my ?\ghts 7 fully engag$ at ! "t ) ! grief ( my ho/ & ho/ess4 ,) ! k ( ,mabel's pres5ce came also ! conviction t %e 0 /ill alive--9 ! physical body--& t x 0 no exc>nate _s t 0 appeal+ to me = help4 ,! impression 0 s vivid t ,i call$ out in/9ctively3 ,:at is x1 ,mabel8 ,:at c ,i d = y8 ,!re 0 no response1 ei!r by outw>d or inn] voice1 only ! insi/5t appeal = help1 & k ( "s imm95t dang] at h& = h]4 ,i am try+ to expla9 t some?+ m ?an ! usual h\rly p]il 9 :i* !y mu/ be liv+1 if on ?is side ! veil1 0 impli$ by ! impression ,i receiv$4 ,x 0 "s acute & additional dang] :i* ?reat5$ h] at ! mom5t4 ,feel+ x 0 useless to wa/e "t try+ to f9d out by writ+ or o!r means :at ! exact nature ( ?is dang] might be1 ,i jump$ out ( b$ z quickly z possible1 say+3 ,nev] m9d try+ to make me und]/&--,i w pray = y1 :atev] x is6 ,s ,i knelt d[n1 & pray$ mo/ e>ne/ly t ?is poor woman1 ^: _s _h appeal$ = help at "s dread crisis1 might be com=t$1 & deliv]$ f any dang]s ?reat5+ h] at ! "t4 ,i _h be5 v com=tably tuck$ up 9 b$1 look+ =w>d to ! pleasant dr[s9ess :i* promises sleep1 & ,i am q sure ,i %\ld n h put myself to all ?is inconv5i5ce )\t a v /rong motive4 ,:5 ,i felt ! poor1 torm5t$ _s 0 calm$ & soo!d by ! atmosph]e ( pray]1 ,i return$ to my b$1 & ev5tually fell asleep4 ,next morn+ ,i told ,mrs ,=bes ( my exp]i5ce1 mak+ ! rem>k quot$ ab\t ! date4 ,! foll[+ week %e & ,i 7 toge!r at "o ( ! meet+s ( ! ,society = ,psy*ical ,rese>*1 at ! close ( :i*1 9 %ak+ h&s ) ,mr ,fr$]ic ,my]s1 ,i begg$ him to make a note ( my exp]i5ce & ! date4 ,ah1 ,miss ,bates6 he said1 tak+ out a small note-book1 ,i w make a note ( x1 b ,i fe> !re is n ! remote/ *ance ( any ( !m hav+ be5 alive t5 days ago4 ,!n my exp]i5ce goes = no?+1 ,i answ]$4 ,x 0 a liv+ woman1 n an exc>nate "o1 :o came to my b$side on ! #d? ,july4 ,lat]1 :5 ! ,embassy 0 reliev$1 & ?is lady 7:o _h pres5t$ su* a /iff upp] lip to ,=tune7 0 once m safe at home = a mu*-ne$$ re/1 ,i f\nd t %e _h gone ?r\gh a special "t ( acc5tuat$ suff]+ j :5 ,i felt h] pres5ce 9 my room4 ,h] husb& 0 d[n ) dys5t]y1 & %e _h n en\gh food ei!r = him or = h] poor little *ildr51 & ! /ra9 0 almo/ too great1 ev5 = t brave s\l4 ,( c\rse1 %e _h be5 q unconsci\s ( any appeal to me4 ,b %e has ,scotti% z well z ,iri% blood 9 h] ve9s1 & ?is h]$ity may h enabl$ h] subconsci\s self to s5se my locality & to realise my p[] & w to help h] 9 h] desp]ate ne$4 ,truly x 0 a case ( va9 is ! help ( man1 or woman ei!r6 ,b we "k too little ( spiritual laws to be able to d5y (f-h& ! efficacy ( any e>ne/ pray]4 ,i saw ,mr ,my]s make a note ( ! circum/ance1 b1 un=tunately1 ?is _c be f\nd among/ 8 pap]s4 ,i ask$ ,mrs ,my]s ab\t x1 & %e rememb]$ di/9ctly h] husb& hav+ m5tion$ ! case to h] :5 he return$ home aft] t meet+1 b :5 ,i la/ saw h]1 %e _h hunt$ among/ 8 pap]s 9 va9 = ! note :i* he made at ! "t4 99 99 99 99 99 ,e>ly 9 ,janu>y #aija1 ! day aft] ,"l ,rob]t's triumphant procession ?r\gh ,london1 ,i w5t to sp5d "s weeks at an op5-air cure 9 ,devon%ire1 high up 9 ! hills1 & 9 a bleak "p ( ! c\nty4 ,sev]al sev]e illnesses _h left me s sup]s5sitive to colds & draughts t x seem$ a vital necessity to take "s su* dra/ic /ep1 ev5 at ?is inclem5t "t ( ! ye>1 unless ,i 7 prep>$ to s9k into a /ate ( *ronic invalidism1 & become a burd5 to myself & my neighb\rs = ! re/ ( my natural life4 ,an old fri5d 0 second 9 comm& 9 ?is special e/abli%m5t1 :i* %e _h ask$ me to recomm5d1 & a bright ?\ght /ruck me t ,i might d my fri5d a good turn1 & myself also1 by sp5d+ a few weeks 9 ! h\se4 ,i did n b>ga91 h[ev]1 = ! deep sn[ :i* fell on ! v day aft] my arrival1 nor = ! h[l+ we/ w9ds1 :i* cont9u$ to bl[ dur+ ! :ole ( my /ay4 ,9 ^! p>ts1 ! we/ w9d corresponds ) our ea/]n v>iety1 & is q z cold & disagreeable4 ,nor 7 ! surr\nd+s inside ( a v *e]ful nature4 ,all ! o!r pati5ts 7six or sev57 7 q "y girls1 & all m or less consumptive4 ,sev]al ( !m 7 v attractive1 :i* made x seem all ! m sad4 ,)\t exception1 all 71 or _h be51 engag$ to be m>ri$1 z ! cop+-/one to ?is trag$y ( _! lives6 ,9 sev]al cases ! engagem5ts _h be5 brok5 (f1 sometimes by mutual cons5t1 on ! score ( heal?4 ,9 a few exceptions1 :]e love _h prov$ /rong] ?an prud5ce & common-s5se1 x 0 equally melan*oly to realise t ! future c\ld hold no?+ b disappo9tm5t on ! "o side1 & a hopeless regret on ! o!r4 ,"u ^! circum/ances x 0 p]haps only to be expect$ t my fir/ impressions ( ! e/abli%m5t %\ld n be entirely c\leur de rose4 ,yet ! h\se itself 0 pleasant en\gh1 & ! view f ! draw+-room w9d[s 0 simply magnific5t1 includ+ sea z well z moor4 ,curta9less w9d[s1 ) sa%es ?r[n wide op51 & *illy l9oleum to replace w>m c>pets1 7 r a trial to ! un9itiat$1 e>ly 9 ,janu>y1 ) deep sn[ on ! gr\nd & fires none too pl5tiful4 ,9 addition to ^! drawbacks ,i _h ano!r p]sonal "o4 ,com+ 9 ! middle ( ! w9t]1 x 0 naturally ,hobson's *oice z reg>d$ ! b$rooms4 ,all ! be/ & w>me/ aspects _h be5 appropriat$ 9 ! autumn1 & an ugly little room1 ) cold1 we/ outlook & depress+1 mu/>d-col\r$ di/emp]$ walls1 fell to my lot4 ,yet ev5 ^! facts did n suffici5tly acc\nt = ! extremely depress+ effect ( t room ^u me4 ,has anyone di$ "h lately8 0 my fir/ & natural qu]y 9 a h\se ( ?is k9d4 ,i _h he>d ! girls casually m5tion two g5tlem5 pati5ts :o _h be5 9 ! h\se ! previ\s ye>--"o ( ^! _h gone into rooms 9 a neighb\r+ t[n ) 8 nurse4 ,i did n he> :at _h become ( ! o!r "o1 & _h n suffici5t curiosity to ask ! "q4 ,my fri5d reassur$ me by say+ %e 0 sure no "o _h di$ rec5tly 9 my room4 ,%e _h only lately come to ! h\se h]self1 z ,i knew2 hav+ be5 matron = "s ye>s ( a small hospital 9 ! c\ntry4 ,! second poor g5tleman1 :o 0 a pati5t "h1 did die 9 ! h\se1 ,i believe1 b t 0 mon?s ago1 %e said1 & ,i und]/& t he _h ,laura ,pe>ce's room1 m5tion+ "o ( ! girls1 :o _h a specially *e]ful ap>tm5t4 ,x seem$ q natural t a sick man1 conf9$ to 8 b$1 %\ld occupy a l>ge & sunny room1 s ,i ?\ght no m ( ! matt]4 ,/ill1 ,i 0 always consci\s ( an unpleasant & sad atmosph]e 9 my own room1 & took occasion "o day to ask ! lady at ! head ( ! e/abli%m5t :e!r %e knew any?+ ( ! pr$ecessors 9 ! h\se4 ,x /ruck me t ! psy*ic atmosph]e 9 my room might be connect$ ) "s ( !m4 ,miss ,hunt] repli$ laugh+ly3 ,i c't tell y any?+ ab\t !m1 = ! v good reason t !y don't exi/4 ,i am ! fir/ t5ant ( ?is h\se4 ,x 0 only built two ye>s ago1 & rema9$ vacant = ! fir/ twelve mon?s4 ,!n ,i told h] v cauti\sly ( my feel+ ab\t my room1 & t ,i _h suppos$ x might h to d ) someone :o _h slept !re be=e %e took ! h\se4 ,two or ?ree ( ! "y girls 7 9 ! room at ! "t1 & x /ruck me t "o ( !m--! "o :o 0 !re = h] second w9t]--look$ a little surpris$ & int]e/$2 b ! matron pass$ (f ! subject ) a few bant]+ words1 & aga9 ,i _h no suspicion ( ! tru?4 ,six weeks pass$1 & my la/ night 9 ! h\se _h arriv$4 ,my nurse fri5d 0 9 ! habit ( giv+ me massage twice a day1 be=e gett+ up 9 ! morn+ & ! la/ ?+ at night4 ,%e left me on ?is occasion ab\t t5-?irty ,p4,m41 express+ a hope t ,i %\ld soon sleep1 & h a good night be=e my long j\rney next day4 ,n mu* d\bt ( t1 ,i murmur$4 ,:y1 ,i'm half asleep already6 ,& ,i turn$ r\nd1 tir$ & yet soo!d by ! massage1 & soon fell into a deep & dreamless sleep4 ,sev]al h\rs mu/ h pass$1 :5 ,i woke up1 trembl+ & t]ror-/ruck1 aft] pass+ ?r\gh an exp]i5ce :i* seems z vivid to me to-day z on t ,febru>y night or e>ly morn+4 ,my he>t 0 beat+1 my limbs trembl+1 beads ( p]spiration cov]$ my face1 z ,i discov]$ lat]4 ,no wond]6 ,i _h be5 ?r\gh an exp]i5ce f :i* few1 ,i imag9e1 return to tell ! tale4 ,= ,i _h pass$ ?r\gh e detail ( dy+1 & dy+ a v h>d & difficult dea?4 ,body & s\l 7 be+ lit]ally torn ap>t1 9 spite ( ! desp]ate ef=t to cl+ toge!r1 & my _s seem$ to be laun*$ into unkn[n dep?s ( d>kness & possible horror4 ,x 0 ! feel+ t ,i did n "k :]e ,i 0 go+ nor :at await$ me t seem$ s t]rible--?is & ! horrible fight = ma/]y betwe5 my poor body & s\l & "s unkn[n =ce t 0 inexorably set ^u divid+ !m4 ,?is1 s f> z ,i c express x1 exactly describes ! exp]i5ce ,i _h j gone ?r\gh1 & f :i* ,i _h awak5$ 9 su* abject t]ror4 ,z ! beat+ ( my he>t subsid$1 & ,i c\ld ?9k m calmly1 ,i rememb]$ ) />tl+ di/9ctness t 9 ! v wor/ ( ! /ruggle ,i _h be5 va9ly endeav\r+ to say t text 9 ! tw5ty-?ird ,psalm :i* beg9s3 ,?\gh ,i walk ?r\gh ! valley ( ! %ad[ ( dea?1 ,i w fe> no evil2 = ,?\ art ) me3 ,?y rod & ,?y /aff1 !y com=t me4 ,i c\ld say ! fir/ "p ( x q easily1 b "s fi5di% enemy seem$ b5t ^u prev5t+ my say+ ! la/ s5t5ce1 & 9 my t]rible dream1 rescue & safety dep5d$ ^u my gett+ to ! end ( ! text4 ,i tri$ aga9 & aga91 always to be driv5 back 9 despair be=e ! crucial words 7 utt]$4 ,at la/1 ) a desp]ate ef=t1 ,i seem$ to %ake (f ! incubus :i* 0 weigh+ me d[n1 & ,i f9i%$ ! words triumphantly1 & s l\d t ,i _h positively wak5$ myself up by %\t+ !m out4 ,) return+ memory ,i knew ?is _h happ5$1 & he>+ a door op5 & %ut on ! half l&+ bel[ my room1 ,i ?\ght = ! mom5t t someone mu/ h he>d me1 & mu/ be com+ to see :at 0 ! matt]4 ,i look$ at my wat*--j two-?irty ,a4,m4 ,no "o appe>$2 & to my relief ,i rememb]$ t ?is 0 j ! h\r :5 ei!r ,miss ,hunt] or my fri5d w5t r\nd to ! invalids1 giv+ !m milk or bovril1 9 ! night4 ,i _h no incl9ation to seek out ei!r ( ^! ladies4 ,! horror 0 pa/1 & no "o c\ld undo :at ,i _h endur$2 s ,i lay quiet1 & 9 c\rse ( "t manag$ to g to sleep aga91 n wak+ until ! s]vant came into my room to light ! fire at sev5-?irty ,a4,m4 ,x happ5$ to be a c]ta9 ,m9nie on ?is occasion1 a v respectable "y woman1 :o _h accompani$ ,miss ,hunt] :5 %e gave up ! matron%ip ( a well-kn[n hospital1 & :o _h !re=e be5 ) h] s9ce ?is e/abli%m5t _h be5 />t$4 ,my night's exp]i5ce conv9c$ me s absolutely t1 9 spite ( all t _h be5 said1 ! g5tleman pati5t _h di$ 9 ?is room1 & t ,i _h j gone ?r\gh 8 dea? agonies1 t in/ead ( ask+ any "q ab\t x1 ,i said v quietly to ,m9nie1 z %e 0 on h] knees light+ my fire3 ,! poor g5tleman :o di$ "h la/ summ] di$ 9 ?is room1 ,i f9d4 ,yes1 ma'am1 %e said quietly1 n kn[+1 z x turn$ out1 t any my/]y _h be5 made ab\t ! fact4 ,my p]sonal fri5d 0 guiltless ( any deceit1 = %e _h be5 told ! /ory ab\t ,laura ,pe>ce's room1 b ! "y girls confess$ :5 ,i w5t d[n to breakfa/ t !y _h be5 specially w>n$ n to let me "k ! true facts4 ,miss ,hunt] did n appe> at breakfa/1 z %e 0 suff]+ f a *ill1 s ,i w5t to h] b$room to say good-bye be=e go+ up to ,london4 ,feel+ naturally annoy$ & r %ak5 by my night's exp]i5ce1 ,i said to h] r drily3 ,y ne$ n h tak5 ! tr\ble to deceive me ab\t my room1 ,miss ,hunt]1 nor to w>n ! girls to d ! same4 ,i "k t g5tleman di$ !re1 = ,i h j gone ?r\gh 8 exp]i5ces4 ,& !n ,i told h] ab\t my t]rible night4 ,al?\gh =c$ to admit ! facts1 ,miss ,hunt] f\ght e in* ( ! gr\nd1 s f> z ! pa9ful exp]i5ces 7 conc]n$4 ,su* an excell5t man6 s int]e/$ 9 ev]y?+--a cl]gyman1 my de> ,miss ,bates1 & s good6 ,h[ c\ld !re be any?+ pa9ful connect$ ) 8 dea?8 etc4 etc4 ,i sugge/$ t1 z ,*ri/ians1 we _h ! mo/ ov]:elm+ pro( t hol9ess ( life does n always preclude ev5 m5tal suff]+ at dea?2 b %e w\ld n he> ( ?is argum5t1 & d\btless consid]$ x blasphem\s4 ,by d9t ( que/ion+1 h[ev]1 ,i made two discov]ies--fir/1 t ! dea? 0 q unexpect$4 ,! man _h only be5 a =tnight 9 ! h\se1 & :5 ,i express$ surprise t he %\ld h be5 mov$ !re s late 9 a fatal illness1 %e said ungu>d$ly3 ,oh1 b he 0 v slightly ill :5 he came--x 0 m a prev5tive measure4 ,none ( u _h any idea t he 0 a dy+ man1 ! symptoms develop$ s sudd5ly4 ,i also elicit$ ano!r fact--i4e4 t ?is delightfully int]e/+ p]sonality s intellectual--s full ( int]e/ 9 ev]y?+ 7to quote ,miss ,hunt]'s words71 _h di$ at ! age ( =ty1 9 ! v prime ( life4 ,no wond]1 "u ! circum/ances ( s %ort an illness1 9 ! v z5i? ( life & enjoym5t1 t body & s\l %\ld h be5 loa? to sep>ate1 & ?us free ! imprison$ _s6 ,b ,miss ,hunt] 0 adamant1 & w\ld admit no?+4 ,j be=e leav+ h]1 x /ruck me t ,i _h n yet told h] ab\t ! text1 s ,i repeat$ t episode1 & !n1 = ! fir/ "t1 a />tl$ look came into h] eyes4 ,%e 0 tak5 by surprise1 & said ha/ily3 ,t is extraord9>y6 ,i 0 ) him :5 he di$ 9 ! night1 & he kept on ask+ = t text4 ,t is n s rem>kable1 _m might h ask$ = t text1 b ,i /opp$ once or twice aft] ! fir/ s5t5ce1 & he kept on urg+ me3 ,say x to ! end1 ,miss ,hunt]6 ,say x to ! end6 ,lat] ! good lady ev5 cons5t$ to write out ! evid5tial po9ts 9 ?is /ory1 :i* ,i s5t at once to my fri5d ,dr ,ri*>d ,hodgson4 ,imm$iately ^u my return to ,london on ?is occasion1 ,i 0 attack$ q sudd5ly by a v acute =m ( rheumatism1 :i* laid me on my back--p]fectly helpless--= sev]al days4 ,:5 ! doctor arriv$1 8 fir/ "q 03 ,h y _h any special %ock lately8 ,?is p>ticul> =m ( rheumatism does n g5]ally come on ) s little w>n+ unless !re has be5 a previ\s %ock4 ,i 0 ab\t to d5y ?is1 ?9k+ he ref]r$ to unexpect$ news1 b ) ! memory ( my ,devon%ire exp]i5ce s ke5 & cle>1 ,i felt b\nd to tell him t ,i _h c]ta9ly _h a %ock to my n]ves tw5ty-f\r h\rs previ\sly4 ,soon aft] ?is sudd5 & %>p attack ( illness ,i f\nd myself 9 ,portugal = ! fir/ "t 9 my life4 ,i _h gone !re ) an ,engli% fri5d--,mrs ,frampton--9 ord] to be ne> connections :o _h liv$ 9 ! c\ntry = _m ye>s4 ,a c\s9 & ,i sp5t a delightful aft]noon 9 t ,c9tra p>adise ( ,mons]rat1 ) ,g5]al & ,mrs ,s>torius1 :o 7 liv+ !re at ! "t ( my visit to ,portugal4 ,i h he>d t ev5 ?is *>m+ h\se c\ld tell /range tales if only walls c\ld speak4 ,x is easy to imag9e t any spirits--c>nate or disc>nate--might deem x a privilege to haunt s exquisite a spot4 ,p]sonally1 ,i c only te/ify to ! hospitality ( our k9d ho/ & ho/ess & ! excell5ce ( ! _s ( ,robur1 :i* refre%$ our we>y bodies1 & made ! walk back to ! ,c9tra ,hotel1 ?r\gh ! lovely woodl& pa?s1 a ?+ ( beauty & a joy = ev]4 ,to return to ,lisbon4 ,my fri5d ,mrs ,frampton _h nev] be5 pres5t at any sort ( psy*ic ph5om5a1 s we plann$ a little sitt+ = h] dur+ "o ( ^! ,lisbon ev5+s4 ,%e & ,i desc5d$ 9 solemn /ate to ! f9e libr>y ( our ho/1 on ! gr\nd floor1 :il/ 8 wife & si/] elect$ to rema9 9 ! draw+-room up/airs4 ,a si/]-9-law also begg$ to be excus$ f accompany+ u1 & sp5t ! :ole "t occupi$ by our sance1 9 play+ ,moody & ,sankey hymns1 d\btless hop+ !reby to exorcise ! evil spirits :om we %\ld presumably evoke4 ,un=tunately1 %e did n play l\d en\gh to div]t ! att5tion ( ! ,portuguese cook1 :o promptly gave w>n+ next day1 say+ %e c\ld n /& ^! devili% practices6 ,we _h fail$ to realise t ! v wall1 close to :i* our small table 0 plac$1 divid$ ! kit*5 f ! l>ge gr\nd-floor libr>y1 s ! poor woman d\btless sat ) h] e> well jamm$ up aga9/ ?is p>tition1 & consid]$ e rap ( ! table leg on ! floor1 a di/9ct foot/ep ( ! devil6 ,no?+ m t]rible happ5$ to u t ev5+ ?an be+ =c$ to look up our ,engli% hi/ory once m1 9 ,hume & ,gre5's ,%ort ,hi/ory ( ! ,engli% ,p1 bo? ( :i* volumes 7 close at h&4 ,= ! :ole sance might h be5 an easy lesson 9 ,engli% hi/ory1 ) ,john1 ,duke ( ,nor?umb]l&1 ,lady ,jane ,grey1 ! ,e>l ( ,leice/]1 & ! fam\s ,elizabe? z its expon5ts4 ,all ^! purport$ to be ) u t ev5+1 & ,i am b\nd to say t all dates & details m5tion$1 :i* our middle-ag$ memories c\ld n v]ify at ! mom5t1 7 9 e case corroborat$ by ref]5ce to ! libr>y books lat]4 ,x 0 j be=e leav+ ,engl& = ,portugal t ,i fir/ met a lady 7) :om ,i h s9ce become m intimate71 "u r exceptional circum/ances--^! latt] 7 unkn[n to me at ! "t4 ,my bro!r1 ,colonel ,c4 ,e4 ,bates1 0 liv+ at ?is "t 7#aija7 9 rooms 9 ,cambridge ,t]race1 & ! draw+-room floor 0 occupi$ by a ,miss ,isabel ,smi?1 :o 0 !n only a "n to u bo?4 ,8 l&lady _h giv5 him to und]/& t ?is lady _h connections 9 ,india1 & 0 ! niece ( a ,g5]al ,prop]t1 /ill on ! active li/1 & an old fri5d ( my bro!r's 9 ,indian days4 ,! la/ ,sunday be=e />t+ = ,lisbon ,i call$ 9 z usual to sp5d ! aft]noon 9 ,cambridge ,t]race1 & f\nd t ! draw+-room lady _h j be5 pay+ him a visit1 & _h left him mo/ en?usia/ic4 ,?is visit surpris$ me1 because my bro!r1 be+ a v great invalid1 _h an invet]ate dislike to meet+ /rang]s1 ) :om he g5]ally f\nd x difficult to c>ry on any l5g?y conv]sation4 ,b ?is visitor _h evid5tly be5 an exception4 ,my bro!r express$ "s regret t ,i %\ld h miss$ see+ h]1 s to please him ,i sugge/$ s5d+ 8 valet up/airs ) 8 complim5ts1 & ask+ if ,i might pay ! lady a %ort visit1 %\ld %e be dis5gag$4 ,%e came d[n/airs k9dly1 a second "t1 & we _h a pleasant *at1 :il/ my bro!r & an old ,indian bro!r (fic] c>ri$ on _! conv]sation4 ,i left ,engl& a few days lat]1 & sc>cely expect$ to see or he> any m ( ,miss ,isabel ,smi?4 ,fate1 h[ev]1 orda9$ o!rwise4 ,"s weeks elaps$1 & !n ,i receiv$ a lett] f my bro!r1 m5tion+ ! curi\s circum/ances t1 he _h j he>d1 _h l$ to 8 mak+ ! acqua9tance ( ?is pleasant neighb\r4 ,x is too long a /ory to write1 he conclud$1 b ,i w tell y all ab\t x next "t we meet4 ,he did s1 & z 8 acc\nt exactly tallies ) ! "o ,miss ,isabel ,smi? 7n[ ,mrs ,f9*7 has k9dly writt5 out = me = ins]tion 9 ?is volume1 ,i w quote ! latt] f h] own words4 ,i mu/ premise t ,miss ,smi? turn$ out to be naturally clairvoyant & clair-audi5t1 r to ! disgu/ ( my bro!r1 :o consid]$ himself sup]ior to ^! sup]/itions4 ,h] n>rative is int]e/+ n only 9 itself1 b because x is an object lesson 9 ! curi\s hits & misses 9 psy*ic inve/igation4 ,9 ?is case a _s confess$ to an imp]sonation2 b x 0 an imp]sonation ( ! bro!r ( a man :om my bro!r _h really kn[n 9 ,india--a fact entirely ap>t f any possible k on ! "p ( ,miss ,smi?1 :o _h nev] met my bro!r at ! "t ( h] adv5ture4 ,i w n[ give ,miss ,smi?'s n>rative4 ,:5 at ,gr9delwald 9 ! w9t] #aijj-aija an exc>nate entity came & spoke to me4 ,he seem$ mu* int]e/$ 9 ! ,s\? ,african campaign2 told me he _h be5 a soldi]1 fir/ 9 ! ,rifle ,brigade1 !n 9 ! ,indian army4 ,:5 ,i ask$ 8 "n he said he 0 ,h5ry ,ar?ur ,*omley 7! "n ( a celebrat$ ambassador 0 ! "o giv571 t he 0 a bro!r ( ,sir ,fr$]ic ,*omley1 & _h be5 9 ! ,rifle ,brigade & 9 ,india1 & _h pass$ ov] two or ?ree ye>s be=e4 ,:51 %ortly aft]w>ds1 ,i return$ to ,cambridge ,t]race1 he realis$ ! *ang$ surr\nd+s1 & ask$ :]e ,i 04 ,on le>n+ ,i 0 9 rooms he ask$ :e!r !re 0 anyone else 9 ! h\se1 & on my tell+ him !re 0 a p>alys$ milit>y man d[n/airs nam$ ,bates1 he exclaim$ ',:at6 ,*>lie ,bates8 ,i knew him v well 9 ,india--d ask him if he rememb]s me6' ,i said ,i did n "k ! g5tleman1 b w\ld c]ta9ly ask him if an opportunity %\ld occur4 ,a few days aft] ?is1 a message 0 br\ght up to me f ,colonel ,bates1 ask+ = my uncle1 ,g5]al ,prop]t's1 address 9 ,burmah4 ,?is gave me ! op5+4 ,i wrote giv+ ! requir$ in=mation1 & sugge/$ t ,i might come & h a talk ) him4 ,9 my next conv]sation ) ',colonel ,*omley' ,i told him all ?is1 & he aga9 said3 ',m9d y ask him ab\t me6' ,i answ]$3 ',h[ c ,i1 :5 ,i don't "k :at ,colonel ,bates' ideas are on ^! subjects8 ,he might look on me z a dang]\s lunatic6' ,colonel ,*omley rem>k$3 ',i ?9k y w f9d t he is int]e/$ 9 psy*ic matt]s4' ,i discov]$ t ?is 0 true1 = on my fir/ visit ,i saw a copy ( ! ,s4,p4,r4 ,proce$+s ly+ on ! table4 ,i f\nd him int]e/$1 b unable to get beyond ! 'sublim9al consci\sness' !ory4 ,a few days lat] ,i ask$ ,colonel ,bates if he _h ev] met a ,colonel ,h5ry ,ar?ur ,*omley 9 ,india4 ,he ?\ght = a mom5t1 !n said3 ',*omley8 ,:y1 ( c\rse ,i knew a ,*omley1 b ,i don't "k 8 ,*ri/ian "n4 ,he 0 ,brigade ,major at ,meean ,me]1 & ,i took ov] ! brigade f him1 & b\ght 8 horses1 etc4 ,:]e did y "k him8' ,i !n told him ( ! _s :o _h giv5 me ! "n ( ,h5ry ,ar?ur ,*omley1 :o said he _h kn[n him 9 ,india1 & _h ov] & ov] aga9 begg$ to be rememb]$ to him4 ,! day foll[+ ?is conv]sation ,colonel ,bates s5t me up 8 ,army ,li/1 op51 & m>k$ at ! "n ( ,colonel ,walt] ,*omley1 & a note expla9+ t x 0 n ,h5ry ,ar?ur1 b ,walt] ,*omley :om he _h kn[n at ,meean ,me]4 ,i !n ask$ ',h5ry ,ar?ur' if 8 "n 0 ,walt] or ,h5ry ,ar?ur4 ,he said3 ',h5ry ,ar?ur4 ,surely ,i ought to "k my own "n6' ,colonel ,bates told ! /ory to y ! next "t y 7i4e4 ,e4 ,k4 ,bates7 came to see him1 & ,i rememb] we discuss$ x toge!r :5 we met aga94 ,%ortly aft]w>ds y wrote to tell me t y _h look$ up a ,debrett = #ahie1 & _h !re f\nd ,colonel ,h5ry ,ar?ur ,*omley1 a bro!r ( ,sir ,fr$]ic ,*omley1 ( ! ,rifle ,brigade1 etc41 s t ,h5ry ,ar?ur ,*omley 0 evid5tly alive 9 t ye>1 & _h be5 9 ! ,rifle ,brigade4 ,i 0 mu* pleas$ to get ?is corroborative evid5ce1 ?\gh ! mi/ake 9 initials mu/ h be5 ,colonel ,bates' error1 & apologis$ to ,colonel ,h5ry ,ar?ur ,*omley 9 ! ,unse54 ,a few weeks lat]1 h[ev]1 y wrote aga91 & told me t y _h be5 /ay+ ) a fri5d1 :o drove y ov] to call ^u ,colonel & ,mrs ,h5ry ,ar?ur ,*omley1 t he 0 a bro!r ( ,sir ,fr$]ic ,*omley1 & 0 c]ta9ly alive1 al?\gh n at home1 at ! "t ( y\r visit6 ,?is in=mation />tl$ me1 & my guide1 at my reque/1 w5t to look up ! soi-disant ,colonel to f9d out :at x all meant4 ,! latt] !n confess$ to hav+ tak5 a fri5d's "n1 said a sudd5 impulse came ov] him :5 ,i fir/ ask$ 8 "n1 & hav+ told "o lie1 he felt b\nd to g on deceiv+ me1 b t he _h kn[n bo? ,colonel ,bates & ,colonel ,h5ry ,ar?ur ,*omley 9 ,india1 & t 8 own real "n 0 ,an/ru!r6 ,?is 0 ,miss ,smi?'s n>rative4 ,n[ out ( ?is curi\s jumble ( true & false1 two po9ts rema9 cle>3 ,my bro!r _h kn[n a ,*omley 9 ,india1 & _h succe$$ him z ,brigade ,major at ,meean ,me]4 ,?is ,*omley 0 a bro!r ( ,sir ,fr$]ic ,*omley1 ! well-kn[n diplomati/1 b 8 "n 0 ,walt]1 n ,h5ry ,ar?ur4 ,yet ,sir ,fr$]ic _h a bro!r nam$ ,h5ry ,ar?ur1 & ! imp]sonat+ ,an/ru!r _h borr[$ ! wrong bro!r's "n :5 try+ to pose z ! fri5d ( ,colonel ,*>les ,bates4 ,to make confusion worse conf\nd$1 ,walt] ,*omley 0 alive1 z well z ,h5ry ,ar?ur1 at ! "t ( ,miss ,mabel ,smi?'s exp]i5ces1 = ,i h se5 8 dea? )9 ! la/ eight mon?s6 ,! second po9t is t1 p]sonally1 my bro!r & ,i _h reason to be grateful to ! deceiv+ ,an/ru!r4 ,he 0 c]ta9ly ! means ( introduc+ a pleasant acqua9tance to my bro!r & to me4 ,miss ,mabel ,smi?'s exp]i5ce at ,gr9delwald rem9ds me ( "o ( my own 9 ! same place dur+ ! foll[+ ye>4 ,i _h gone !re ) a c\s91 :o 0 eag] = skat+ & toboggan+1 9 ,janu>y #aijb1 on my way to ,rome4 ,aft] a pleasant week at a *>m+ly quiet & com=table hotel--! ,alp5rhe ,i ?9k 0 ! "n--my c\s9 wi%$1 = purposes ( policy1 to *ange ov] to a m fam\s1 b noisy & ov]cr[d$ "o4 ,s on ! ev5+ ( #crd ,febru>y we f\nd ourselves 9 ?is imm5se c>avans]ai1 hav+ ex*ang$ our l>ge1 com=table1 /eam-heat$ rooms = small1 oblong ap>tm5ts1 ea* provid$ ) ?ree doors z well z ! w9d[1 & a wood fire to be f$ f small five-franc baskets1 & always go+ out at t6 ,!re 0 deep sn[ on ! gr\nd & a heavy fog ( sn[ fall+ :5 we made our *ange1 s t "o 0 n 9 ! mo/ brilliant spirits2 & be+ sudd5ly ?ru/ into ! mid/ ( a big1 het]og5e\s company ( /rang]s is nev] exhil>at+4 ,our b$rooms1 ?\gh small & n specially com=table1 7 p]fectly commonplace1 ! v la/ milieu ) :i* "o w\ld h associat$ any int]e/+ exp]i5ce4 ,! w9d[ ( my room fac$ ! door into ! passage1 my b$ lay betwe5 ! two2 "r & left ( x 7 two o!r doors1 ea* communicat+ ) o!r occupi$ rooms4 ,!re=e ,i ?\ght little ! fir/ night ( noises & mov+ ( furniture1 tak+ = grant$ t ^! mu/ be occurr+ ei!r "r or left ( me1 & t ! cle>ness ( ! atmosph]e acc\nt$ = my odd impression t a table & *air--betwe5 my b$ & ! w9d[--7 be+ mov$4 ,! foll[+ night 7#d? ,febru>y71 h[ev]1 ?is fact 0 indisputable4 ,i _h he>d bo? my neighb\rs retire to b$ by t5 ,p4,m41 z s _m d :o h be5 skat+ & toboggan+ all day long4 ,i _h sat up read+ = half-an-h\r beyond ?is1 & w5t to b$ at elev5 ,p4,m41 by :i* "t !re 0 p]fect sil5ce 9 ! hotel1 z no special ent]ta9m5t 0 go+ on4 ,v %ortly1 ?is movem5t ( ! furniture began aga91 unmi/akably 9 my room ?is "t4 ,curi\sly en\gh1 x did n fright5 me at all nor sugge/ burgl>s 7a f> great] t]ror to me ?an gho/s674 ,i _c at ?is di/ance ( "t rememb] :y ! idea ( ,mr ,my]s %\ld h come to me 9 connection ) ^! noises2 b ,i am q c]ta9 t ,i did ?9k ( him at ! "t1 & fully expect$ 8 "n to be giv51 :5 ,i ask$ if anyone wi%$ to speak to me & 7 try+ to attract my att5tion by mov+ ! furniture ab\t4 ,x 0 greatly to my surprise1 !re=e1 t ! "n ( ,gif=d 0 giv54 ,i may "h note t ?is 0 ! real "n giv5 to me4 ,he said he 0 a judge1 "o :o _h liv$ fifty or sixty ye>s previ\sly1 t he _h once un9t5tionally condemn$ an innoc5t man to be hang$1 & he 0 evid5tly /ill greatly p]turb$ ab\t ?is1 & begg$ = my pray]s4 ,all ?is put ,mr ,my]s entirely out ( my head--un=tunately1 z ev5ts prov$4 ,i _h "s fur!r talk ) ,judge ,gif=d1 b d n rememb] x 9 detail4 ,next morn+ ,i told my c\s9 ( my exp]i5ce1 & on ! ev5+ ( ! foll[+ day m5tion$ x 9 ! pres5ce ( "s neighb\rs at table d'hte :o _h introduc$ psy*ic subjects to u4 ,?is g5tleman & 8 wife 7 bo? impress$1 & yet incr$ul\s1 & :5 my c\s9 laugh+ly decl>$ t ,gif=d _h come to h] ! second night1 b t %e told him %e 0 too tir$ out to li/5 to him1 we all ?ree suppos$ t %e 0 turn+ ! :ole subject into ridicule4 ,?is w\ld h be5 q *>act]i/ic ( h]1 al?\gh ,i h always ?\ght %e _h "s m$iumi/ic faculty1 & 0 "o ( ! _m p :om ,i %\ld advise to leave ^! matt]s alone4 ,i 0 ! m conv9c$ t %e 0 m]ely *aff+ on ?is occasion1 because :5 ,i w>n$ our acqua9tances ( h] p[]s ( exagg]ation 9 mak+ fun ( ?+s1 %e said no?+4 ,b :5 we _h return$ to our rooms t night %e rem>k$ q quietly3 ,b he did come1 ,emmie6 ,:5 y said t at table d'hte ab\t my exagg]at+ ?+s1 ,i let x pass1 because v (t5 x is true4 ,b :at ,i said ?is ev5+ 0 absolutely correct1 ?\gh p]haps x is z well ^? p %\ld n believe x4 ,someone did come to my b$side la/ night1 & said3 ',i am ,gif=d--w y li/5 to me8' ,& ,i said3 ',no2 n to-night4 ,i am too tir$1' j z ,i told y4 ,i ?9k poor ,gif=d came aga9 m ?an once to me2 b ,i _h done all ,i c\ld = him1 & expla9$ ?is1 add+ t he mu/ n[ leave me alone1 :i* he did4 ,lat] my c\s9 return$ to ,p>is1 & ,i w5t on to ,rome1 :]e ,i receiv$ a lett] f ,dr ,ri*>d ,hodgson enclos+ "s ,pip] script4 ,f4 ,w4 ,h4 ,my]s communicat+1 said t he _h come to me on ! ev5+ ( #d? ,febru>y1 t ,i seem$ to recognise him1 & t he ?\ght he _h got 8 message ?r\gh to me1 & hop$ t ,i %\ld write to ,dr ,hodgson to t effect4 ,9 answ]+ ,dr ,hodgson's lett] ,i d5i$ ! ,my]s' episode 9 toto1 s f> z my consci\sness 0 conc]n$4 ,9 fact1 ! ,gif=d incid5t put all else s entirely out ( my m9d t ,i fe> ,i did n ev5 m5tion to ,dr ,hodgson t my fir/ ?\ght t night _h be5 connect$ ) ,mr ,my]s4 ,anyway1 ! next lett] f ,bo/on enclos$ an acc\nt ( a sitt+1 :]e ,mr ,my]s came & apologis$ = hav+ misl$ ,dr ,hodgson ab\t my recognition ( him4 ,8 words 7 almo/ lit]ally z foll[s3-- ,i am extremely sorry1 my de> ,hodgson1 ab\t t affair ) ,miss ,bates4 ,i %\ld n h ?\ght ( m5tion+ x to y _h ,i n felt conv9c$ t %e recognis$ me4 ,h] a/ral body 0 q aw>e ( my pres5ce1 & ,i q ?\ght %e _h realis$ x on ! physical plane 7! italics are m9e74 ,x w\ld seem t ! ,my]s' message 0 9 ! v act ( transmission f my a/ral to my normal consci\sness :5 ?is man ,gif=d mu/ h come1 swit*+ (f ! telephone = ,mr ,my]s1 & gett+ on to x himself4 ,probably 8 great di/ress ( m9d w\ld h made him ! /rong] =ce ( ! two = ! "t be+4 ,!re mu/ always be _m disappo9tm5ts ( ?is k9d 9 our rese>*4 ,!re is always some?+ :i* s ne>ly succe$s & !n j fails at la/4 ,?is mu/ be ! case :]e conditions are s f9e & subtle & s easily di/urb$1 & :]e our own ignorance ( _m necess>y factors is s pr(\nd4 ,?is makes x none ! less di%e>t5+ at times6 ,lat] ,i made an attempt ) my fri5d ,b>oness ,ros5krantz ( ,rome to get a message ?r\gh ! o!r way--i4e4 f ,mr ,my]s & myself to ,dr ,hodgson1 via ,mrs ,pip]4 ,! ,b>oness & ,i _h a little sitt+ alone1 wrote "o or two %ort messages ) a c\ple ( extracts f ,mr ,my]s' own writ+s1 seal$ up ! envelope c>efully1 & ,i =w>d$ x to ,dr ,hodgson4 ,b ! te/ fail$4 ,two ye>s lat] ,dr ,hodgson spoke ( ! lett] z be+ /ill intact4 ,,*apt] ,,xiii ,a ,,second ,,visit ,,to ,,india1 #aijc ,my second visit to ,india took place 9 ! e>ly mon?s ( #aijc1 & ,i approa*$ x ?is "t f ,burmah4 ,field+ ,hall's ,s\l ( a ,p _h ?r[n its magic spell ov] me1 & ,miss ,gre5l[ & ,i 7 bo? anxi\s also to see ! f>-fam$ ,%w ,dagon ,temple4 ,i came to ! conclusion f :at ,i saw1 & /ill m f :at ,i he>d1 t ,mr ,field+ ,hall mu/ h appeal$ sometimes to 8 imag9ation = 8 facts1 & all[$ an exquisite poetical fancy to ca/ its glam\r ev5 ov] ^!4 ,b ! beautiful ,gold5 ,temple ( ,rangoon defies all p[]s ( exagg]ation4 ,we w5t !re aga9 & aga91 & w&]$ among/ its endless small temples1 repres5t+ v>i\s =ms ( wor%ip1 includ+ ev5 a ,*9ese joss-h\se1 :i* is /amp$ ^u my memory ?r\gh a disa/]1 :i* ,i h always connect$ ) ?is special temple2 rank sup]/ition ?\gh x be4 ,we _h sp5t sev]al weeks ^u ! ,irrawaddy ,riv]2 _h w&]$ ?r\gh beautiful1 du/y ,m&alay2 _h explor$ ,bhamo & m>vell$ ov] ! exquisite visions ( fairy-l beauty1 pa9t$ anew = u morn+ & ev5+1 on ?is mo/ glori\s riv]2 & _h f9ally return$ to ,rangoon = a few days' re/ be=e />t+ = ,calcutta4 ,x 0 an exquisite ev5+1 j be=e our dep>ture1 :5 we w5t1 t[>ds sunset1 to say f>ewell to ! ,%w ,dagon4 ,at t h\r x is to be se5 at its be/1 = ! level rays ( ! ,ea/]n sun1 light up ! gold5 cupola into />tl+ & fairy-l magnific5ce4 ,hav+ wat*$ ?is glori\s spectacle = "s m9utes1 ! air grew *illy1 comp>$ ) ! int5se heat ( ! day1 & d>kness 0 com+ on apace z we turn$ to retrace our /eps4 ,a few days be=e1 we _h notic$ a ,*9ese joss-h\se1 /&+ 9 "o corn] ( ! huge elevat$ plat=m ^u :i* ! ,%w ,dagon re/s4 ,9 ! maze ( build+s1 & ow+ to ! swiftly fall+ d>kness1 we c\ld n at once locate ?is temple2 & mo/ un=tunately = me1 ) ! /upid p]si/5ce :i* su* a failure sometimes br+s1 bo? ,miss ,gre5l[ & ,i 7 det]m9$ to f9d x out be=e leav+ ! ,gold5 ,temple4 ,at la/ a joy\s exclamation w>n$ me t my fri5d _h be5 successful 9 h] que/4 ,! fir/ "t ,i _h se5 ?is joss-h\se ,i _h run up ! /eps he$lessly1 b felt su* an unpleasant influ5ce on ent]+ x t ,i came away at once1 & only regret n hav+ be5 equally prud5t a second "t4 ,miss ,gre5l[ 0 gaz+ at "s grotesque c>v+s 9 "o corn] ( ! temple1 /ill dimly visible1 & call$ out to me to come & look at !m also4 ,v reluctantly ,i jo9$ h]1 & /ood = a few m9utes wait+1 till %e 0 ready to leave4 ,!re 0 some?+ s gloomy1 s uncanny1 & depress+--,i mu/ ev5 say malignant--9 ! build+ at ?is twilight h\r1 t ,i c\ld /& ! influ5ce no long]1 & z ,miss ,gre5l[ seem$ incl9$ to l+]1 ,i hurri$ d[n ! /one /eps1 say+3 ,i c't /ay 9 t place6 ,i w wait = y at ! top ( ! m>ble /airs4 ,n[ ^! /eps1 brok5 & dirty1 & l9$ by small boo?s sell+ e imag9able toy & bit ( t9sel1 includ+ small models ( ! v>i\s temples1 l$ by /eep flights up & d[n f ! huge plat=m ( gr\nd ,i h m5tion$4 ,"s small l9k-boys 7 cr[d+ r\nd z ,miss ,gre5l[ rejo9$ me1 clam\r+ to be all[$ to light u d[n ! /eps--a v necess>y precaution1 = ! d>kness 0 quickly replac+ ! exquisite sunset col\r+4 ,i am1 z a rule1 r a rem>kably sure-foot$ p]son1 & ! lant]ns ( ! boys ?rew ample light ^u ! /eps1 yet ! fir/ mom5t ( my desc5t ,i 0 consid]ably surpris$ to f9d myself at ! bottom ( ! fir/ :ole flight ( h>d m>ble /eps6 ,i _h no recollection ( a slip ev5--"o mom5t ,i 0 /&+1 c>efully prep>$ to desc5d2 ! next ,i 0 ly+ on my back at ! bottom ( a long flight ( /eps1 ) ! l9k-boys gap+ 9 a/oni%m5t4 ,!y c\ld n h be5 m a/oni%$ ?an ,i 06 ,! v swiftness ( ! fall 0 probably my salvation2 o!rwise ,i ?9k my sp9e mu/ h be5 injur$4 ,z x 01 ,i 0 v mu* hurt1 h[ev]2 ! pa9 0 int5se = a "t1 & ! muscles ( my back 7 s swoll5 t !y /ood up 9 ridges z big z a good-siz$ f+]1 = "s "t aft] ! escapade4 ,9 fact1 x 0 q six weeks be=e all local tr\ble 0 ov]1 & _m m weeks be=e ,i _h recov]$ f ! unexpect$ %ock4 ,i h _h sev]al falls 9 my life1 b nev] "o o!r :]e !re 0 absolutely no prelim9>y w>n+ or s5se ( slipp+1 h[ev] swift4 ,! exp]i5ce 0 exactly t ( be+ sudd5ly hurl$ d[n ! /eps by "s outside =ce4 ,i c only add t ,i deeply deplor$ my ungu>d$ words to ,miss ,gre5l[1 :5 ,i told h] ,i 0 sure !re 0 "s malignant _s 9 ! joss-h\se4 ,p]haps he wi%$ politely to demon/rate ! correctness ( my rem>k4 ,! %ort voyage f ,rangoon to ,calcutta 0 made pleasant by ! k9dness ( a ,european fri5d 9 ,rangoon1 :o came to see u (f1 & ask$ if he %\ld introduce to me a little ,burmese lady1 v ri* & v dvote1 :o 0 on bo>d ) u1 go+ to ,calcutta to pay a visit to h] husb&1 :o liv$ 9 t city4 ,%e is "o ( our pr9cipal native resid5ts1 my ,rangoon fri5d expla9$ to me be=e introduc+ h]4 ,%e is also int5sely int]e/$ 9 h] ,buddhi/ religion1 & ,i ?9k ?is may int]e/ y1 f :at y h told me ( y\r inve/igations4 ,s ! little lady 0 duly pres5t$1 & ?9k+ to op5 our conv]sation pleasantly1 ,i rem>k$ t ,mr ,r[ell _h told me t %e 0 mu* int]e/$ 9 religi\s que/ions1 & t al?\gh n a !osophi/ myself1 ,i numb]$ sev]al ( !m among/ my fri5ds4 ,b ,i f\nd myself q on ! wrong tack4 ,%e screw$ up h] little m\?1 z if ta/+ "s na/y m$ic9e1 & !n said 9 excell5t colloquial ,engli%3 ,oh1 !y are no good at all4 ,!y h muddl$ ev]y?+ up1 & got x all wrong4 ,t is :y we are beg9n+ to write tracts & s5d out mission>ies4 ,! great ,buddha made no propag&a2 nei!r did we = _m1 _m c5turies4 ,we believe t p mu/ gr[ into ?is k2 b n[ :5 y ,we/]n p come & take little bits ( our sy/em1 & piece !m toge!r all wrong--well1 !n1 we are =c$ to %[ y :at is ! tru?6 ,x is l a puzzle map1 & all y !osophi/s are try+ to fit ! pieces 91 wrong side upw>d4 ,& %e f9i%$ ) a m]ry & apologetic laugh1 rememb]+1 no d\bt1 t ,i _h spok5 ( hav+ fri5ds among/ ^! /upid muddl]s6 ,%e gave me q a numb] ( ! tracts ( :i* %e _h spok51 sett+ =? ! true ,buddhism1 & mo/ly pr9t$ 9 ,m&alay1 & ,i made a po9t ( pass+ ^! on to "s ( ! fri5ds ,i _h m5tion$ to h]4 ,i c only tru/ !y 7 appreciat$1 & efficaci\s 9 r$uc+ ! confusion result+ f try+ to adapt ,ea/]n my/icism to ,we/]n consumption6 ,our conv]sation became /ill m int]e/+ :5 ,i discov]$ t a my/]i\s fell[-pass5g] ( ours on bo>d ! ,devon%ire1 sail+ f ,m>seilles to ,rangoon1 _h tak5 ?is voyage at ! exp5se ( ! ,burmese lady1 &1 ,i am sorry to say1 _h occasion$ h] a great & q inexcusable disappo9tm5t4 ,?is man1 :om ,i w call ,dr ,grne1 0 a pr(essor at a celebrat$ univ]sity 9 ! s\? ( ,europe1 & 0 c]ta9ly a s*ol>--if n a g5tleman6 ,he _h /udi$ ! ,buddhi/ writ+s v deeply1 & 8 "n _h be5 convey$ to ?is ,burmese lady z t ( "o eag] to ?r[ (f all ties ( k9%ip1 & retire--l ! great ,buddha himself--f ! _w1 & f9d repose & enlight5m5t 9 a ,burmese mona/]y4 ,! only ?+ lack+ 9 c>ry+ out ?is excell5t resolve 0--z usual--money4 ,! native lady1 delight$ to he> ( s le>n$ a g5tleman1 & "o hold+ su* an hon\rable position 9 ,europe1 be+ conv]t$ to ! t5ets ( h] religion1 & ?us wi%+ to give ! be/ example ( _! influ5ce ^u him1 agre$ joyfully to =w>d ! funds = 8 j\rney & to make arrangem5ts = 8 /ay 9 ,rangoon be=e proce$+ to ,m&alay1 :]e he 0 to be receiv$ z a ,buddhi/ prie/ aft] a c]ta9 c\rse ( initiation4 ,we _h all rem>k$ ,dr ,grne on bo>d--p>tly because he 0 s ?9 & tall1 & walk$ ! deck s p]si/5tly 9 f9e wea!r or f\l2 p>tly because he own$ an exceptionally f9e & long be>d1 :i* p>t$ & wav$ 9 ! breeze z he pass$ to & fro 9 8 lonely p]ambulations4 ,i nev] saw him speak to anyone on bo>d except my own table companion1 ,dr ,gall1 ! ,secret>y ( ! ,*ur* ,mission>y ,society1 & a v int]e/+ & intellig5t man4 ,?is latt] 0 also a di/+ui%$ ,arabic s*ol>1 & _h l5t me "s /rik+ monographs he _h writt5 on ! ,mohamm$an fai?1 /rik+ bo? by ! s*ol>%ip & bread? ( view & tol]ance1 :i* "o does n g5]ally associate ) ! ,society t he repres5t$4 ,i _h se5 him m ?an once 9 ! company ( ,dr ,grne1 & :5 we rea*$ ,colombo1 & read 9 ! pap]s h&$ to u on broad t our %ip conta9$ ! fam\s ,european pr(essor :o 0 j\rney+ to ,m&alay to become a ,buddhi/ prie/1 aft] a t\*+ f>ewell ) wife & *ildr51 ,dr ,gall express$ bo? a/oni%m5t & incr$ulity4 ,he nev] said a ^w ab\t x to me1 0 8 rem>k4 ,i "k he has /udi$ ! ,buddhi/ religion v deeply1 & he is anxi\s to get access to "s ,,mss41 :i* he hopes to f9d 9 ,burmah2 b t is n ! same ?+ z becom+ a prie/4 ,i expect ! pap]s h exagg]at$ ! facts4 ,z a matt] ( fact1 ,dr ,grne c]ta9ly gave a lecture on ,buddhism 9 ,colombo on ! day ( our arrival1 = "o ( our fell[-pass5g]s _h ! curiosity to be pres5t1 b he1 also1 told me no?+ _h be5 said ab\t ! lectur] becom+ a prie/4 ,! matt] did n specially int]e/ me2 b on arrival at ,rangoon1 ! only dec5t 787 hotel 0 cr[d$1 & mo/ ( u _h to put up ) a v inf]ior class ( accommodation4 ,a few h\rs ( ?is e/abli%m5t suffic$ = mo/ ( ! pass5g]s1 :o promptly w5t up c\ntry or on ! riv]2 b ,miss ,gre5l[ & ,i 7 oblig$ to sp5d ?ree or f\r days 9 ,rangoon1 & ,dr ,grne 0 at fir/ our only companion4 ,s1 ( c\rse1 we spoke to ea* o!r 9 self-def5ce4 ,he talk$ ( 8 home life & univ]sity "w1 & casually m5tion$ ! dea? ( 8 wife1 five ye>s previ\sly1 & ! *ildr5 :o 7 await+ him at home4 ,?is c]ta9ly talli$ m ) ,dr ,gall's ideas ?an ! s5sational ,colombo newspap] acc\nt ( 8 wife & *ildr51 to :om1 l ! great ,buddha1 he _h bidd5 an et]nal f>ewell6 ,naturally "o did n t\* ^u ?is delicate subject1 b ,i ask$ him h[ long he expect$ to rema9 9 ,rangoon4 ,to my surprise1 he said at once t 8 /ay 0 q unc]ta9--he might ev5 be return+ by ! ,devon%ire1 :i* 0 to sail )9 a week ( h] arrival4 ,x seem$ a long & exp5sive j\rney to take = s %ort a /ay2 b d\btless he _h bus9ess reasons1 & ! matt] dropp$ f my m9d4 ,:5 we return$1 ?ree or f\r weeks lat]1 he 0 no long] 9 ,rangoon app>5tly1 & ,i did n expect to come ^u 8 tracks aga94 ,! ,burmese lady expla9$ ! ,grne my/]y ) "s bitt]ness1 & no wond]6 ,hav+ come out free1 ^u ! und]/&+ ) h]1 already m5tion$1 %e _h tak5 a room = him at ! hotel1 & _h busi$ h]self 9 buy+ blankets & a c>pet & o!r small luxuries1 to break ! ,m&alay mona/]y to him z g5tly z possible4 ,:5 ?ree days pass$ & he made no sign ( mov+ on1 %e quietly intimat$ t x might be z well to beg9 ! new life )\t delay1 & said %e _h writt5 to h] bro!r1 himself a prie/ 9 ! mona/]y1 to meet ,dr ,grne at ,m&alay & pres5t him to ! au?orities at ! mona/]y4 ,?is mu/ probably h be5 ab\t ! "t t ,i ask$ him innoc5tly h[ long he w\ld be /ay+ 9 ,rangoon4 ,8 plan _h d\btless be5 to g to ,m&alay 9 a dilettante sort ( fa%ion1 & to live 9 ! mona/]y = a "t1 ) ! hope ( gett+ access to "s valuable & little kn[n ,,mss42 b x did n suit 8 plans at all to be met at once by ! bro!r ( 8 b5efactress1 & kept "u ! eye ( ?is prie/1 :o knew exactly ! circum/ances "u :i* he _h be5 enabl$ to take ! long j\rney f ,m>seilles4 ,be+ evid5tly a prud5t man1 he det]m9$ to seize ! fir/ opportunity = retreat f an impossible situation4 ,h[ he rais$ en\gh money = ! return voyage is n kn[n4 ,my ,burmese acqua9tance ?\ght he mu/ h appli$ to "o ( ! ,consulates1 & t 8 univ]sity position w\ld d\btless ensure 8 rais+ a loan4 ,anyway1 he %ipp$ himself surreptiti\sly once m on bo>d ! ,devon%ire1 & arrang$ t ! lett]1 conta9+ ! usual excuse ( a sudd5 telegram f ,m>seilles ann\nc+ ! unexpect$ dea? ( a ne> relation1 %\ld n be h&$ to 8 b5efactress until ! an*or 0 safely weigh$4 ,x 0 n a pleasant /ory1 & trea*]y is no less p]fidi\s = hav+ an intellectual motive4 ,i felt glad t ,dr ,grne 0 n a fell[-c\ntryman4 ,hav+ disburd5$ h]self on ?is "o po9t ( righte\s indignation1 our little ,burmese lady became z bright & *e]y z a *ild1 we>+ h] collection ( pretty native dresses1 :i* c\ld all h be5 pack$ easily into a fair-siz$ doll's trunk1 ) s+ul> grace & *>m4 ,:5 ! t5d] arriv$ to disemb>k u 9 ,calcutta1 h] husb& came ) x1 & 0 spe$ily introduc$4 ,we _h tea ) !m a few days lat] 9 _! h&some ,calcutta flat1 & ?is gave me ! opportunity = a long & int]e/+ talk ) ! husb&1 :o prov$ to be a mo/ intellig5t & op5-m9d$ man4 ,he spoke ( ,field+ ,hall's delightful book ) appreciation t+$ by k9dly amusem5t4 ,he has be5 _m ye>s 9 ! c\ntry1 b he /ill judges u z a =eign]4 ,:5 ,i sugge/$ t ! judgm5t 0 at lea/ v flatt]+ to ! ,burmese1 ?is ,burmese g5tleman laugh$1 & said3 ,flatt]+8 ,yes--b n always q true4 ,"o mu/ see f inside1 n f outside1 to be q true 9 "o's judgm5ts2 & no =eign] c see f outside4 ,x is a "q ( race & h]$ity1 n ( hav+ sp5t tw5ty or ?irty ye>s1 or ev5 a lifetime1 9 a =eign l&4 ,i sugge/$ t ^? :o saw f inside only1 might also lack "s ess5tial factor 9 =m+ an accurate judgm5t4 ,he agre$ he>tily to ?is1 add+3 ,yes1 inde$4 ,! ideal critic mu/ h liv$ nei!r too ne> nor too f>--m5tally z well z physically2 also he mu/ h intuition4 ,n[ ,mr ,field+ ,hall is an arti/ z well z a poet1 b 9 judg+ my c\ntry he lets 8 intuition run riot sometimes1 z well z 8 imag9ation4 ,aft] report+ ?is conv]sation1 x is unnecess>y to add t my ,burmese fri5d spoke ,engli% r bett] ?an ,i did myself4 ,we !n talk$ ab\t ! position ( woman 9 ,burmah1 & h[ mu* ?is _h be5 extoll$ & held up z a object lesson to ! re/ ( ! _w4 ,if ! position ( woman is ! true te/ ( a nation's civilisation1 z has be5 s (t5 affirm$1 !n c]ta9ly ,burmah mu/ be 9 ! van ( ! nations6 ,yet ?is is sc>cely borne out by facts4 ,i put ?is po9t z politely z ,i c\ld1 & my m9d 0 at once set at ease by ! purely imp]sonal way 9 :i* he met my rem>k4 ,( c\rse1 we are n 9 ! van ( ! nations1 & yet x is q true t our wom5 h an exceptional position--q a good en\gh "o = an election cry = ! ,woman's ,suffrage6 ,ah1 yes6 ,i h be5 9 ,engl&1 he add$1 ) a m]ry tw9kle 9 8 little black eyes4 ,b y mu/ realise t ! unique position ( woman ) u is some:at accid5tal4 ,x is n ! result ( philosophical or moral conviction on ! "p ( our m52 x has be5 ! natural outcome ( circum/ances1 & a "q ( exp$i5cy r ?an ( e?ics4 ,s x 0 n really a 'te/ pap]' = u at all6 ,our frequ5t w>s 9 ! pa/ h tak5 ! m5 out ( _! homes1 & ! wom51 at su* times1 7 left alone to cope ) n only ! dome/ic1 b ! agricultural problems4 ,all bus9ess ( ?is k9d pass$ ?r\gh _! h&s1 & 9 "t !y develop$ ! qualities ( indu/ry1 good judgm5t & p[] ( tak+ responsibility1 necess>y = success 9 su* a life4 ,!n :5 ! husb&s came back & f\nd ev]y?+ go+ on s well & )\t tr\ble to !mselves1 !y 7 only too glad to fall 9 ) ! exi/+ /ate ( ?+s4 ,we ,burmese are lazy fell[s aft] all4 ,we c rise to a big call1 b if our wom5 w look aft] our bus9ess = u1 we are q cont5t to smoke our pipes 9 peace & look on--&1 ( c\rse1 ! "o :o makes ! :eels g r\nd is ! "o :o really drives ! coa*4 ,believe me1 !re is m ( exp$i5cy ?an nobility 9 ! attitude ( our m5 t[>ds our wom51 & m ( laz9ess ?an ei!r1 p]haps6 ,b ,field+ ,hall w\ld call ?is blasphemy1 ,i am afraid6 ,& s1 ) a jok+ ^w1 our int]e/+ talk came to an end1 leav+ me ) a s9c]e hope t ,i might "s day meet aga9 bo? ! intellig5t husb& & ! *>m+ wife4 ,i f\nd ! air at ,simla q m>vell\s = psy*ic possibilities1 & ?is 0 c]ta9ly a great surprise to me2 nor 0 x only a "q ( altitude & a dry atmosph]e4 ,miss\ri & ! ,dh]a ,doon are celebrat$ = ! purity ( air & climate g5]ally1 b ! influ5ces !re 7 q diff]5t4 ,ev5 ,pe%aw>1 ) its glori\s cr[n ( sn[-capp$ m\nta9s1 br\ght no special psy*ic atmosph]e to me2 nor ! ,khyb] ,pass1 :]e ,i _h ?or\ghly expect$ to be haunt$ by ! horrors ( ! pa/2 no?+ ( ! k9d occurr$4 ,! beauty ( ! day :5 we visit$ ?is hi/oric pass 0 only to be mat*$ by its own extreme natural beauty2 b no haunt+ memories hung r\nd x = me4 ,p]haps a night pass$ 9 ^? rocky defiles might h br\ght "s weird exp]i5ce1 b no ,european w\ld be all[$ to woo adv5ture 9 ?is way1 ev5 ) ! laudable desire = advance 9 psy*ological ph5om5a6 ,b ,i /ay$ !re q long en\gh to prove--= ! hundr$? "t--t an attitude ( expectation acts ) me z a det]r5t r ?an enc\ragem5t1 :]e ! ,unse5 is 9 "q4 ,i _h he>d s mu* ( ,simla ,society & ,simla ,sc&als1 & s little ( ,simla ,beauty & ,lovel9ess6--9 ,nature1 ,i mean--n ,human ,nature4 ,x is true we 7 !re at ! mo/ exquisite "t 9 ! ye>1 :5 ! air 0 /ill fre% & ke51 :5 ! la/ sn[s & ! fir/ blooms ( rhodod5drons 7 greet+ ea* o!r1 :5 ! long /ret*es ( valley1 br[n & purple & em]ald gre51 lay l s(t velvet 9 ! imm5se di/ances t[>ds ! horizon l9e4 ,z ,i look$ at all ?is1 day aft] day1 x seem$ to me t ,simla1 )\t its cr[ds ( social butt]flies1 male & female1 & ! du/ & ! flies1 & ev5 ! heat t !y br+ ) !m1 0 "o ( ! mo/ exquisitely beautiful spots t ! ,great ,creator ev] ?\ght out 9 ,8 m9d4 ,n[h]e h ,i se5 su* a velvety effect ( roll+ hill & s(t m\nta9-side2 su* gorge\s atmosph]ic visions2 su* a c>nival ( beauty & col\r4 ,we mu/ h se5 ,simla at ! mo/ ideal "t 9 ! ye>1 or p mu/ become blas & bl9d$ to its intoxicat+ beauty1 ?anks to t5nis t\rnam5ts & ,gov]nm5t ,h\se receptions & ! :ole /upid ,social mill4 ,n ev5 ! beauties ( ,ka%mir h dimm$ ! memory ( ,simla = me2 b ,i w\ld n g !re aga91 & 9 ! season1 = any?+ t c\ld be (f]$ to me4 ,all beauty is sacr$1 & ,i gu>d jeal\sly my sacr$ memory ( ! place1 kn[n to s _m m]ely z a byword = folly & flirtation4 ,"s /range & curi\s exp]i5ces came to me !re1 bo? 9 automatic writ+ & o!r ways2 b ^! are ( too private a nature = publication4 ,& s1 ) ! beauty ( ,simla & ! romance ( ,ka%mir z jewels 9 my memory1 ,i mu/ end my second visit to ,india4 ,x is said t pleasant z well z pa9ful exp]i5ces are apt to run 9 ?rees4 ,i tru/ ?is may be ! case4 ,if s1 x w mean t once aga9 ,i %all tread ^u ,indian soil4 ,,*apt] ,,xiv ,a ,,family ,,portrait ,,& ,,psy*ic ,,photography ,9 ! v he>t ( ,w>wick%ire !re is a beautiful old half timb] hall1 approa*$ by a noble av5ue ( elms4 ,! hall has come d[n f fa!r to son1 9 ! direct l9e1 = ne>ly six hundr$ ye>s1 z ! dates ^u ! front ( ! h\se te/ify4 ,! pres5t ,squire is n only an old fri5d ( my e>ly y\?1 b is connect$ ?r\gh m>riage1 & he & 8 wife & ,i h always be5 on v fri5dly t]ms4 ,he is ! usual type ( fox-hunt+ squire & c\nty magi/rate1 did good s]vice dur+ ! ,s\? ,african ,w> by rais+ a corps ( ,yeomanry f ! e/ate1 & go+ out ) !m to fight 8 c\ntry's battles1 &1 ne$less to say1 he receiv$ a he>ty ovation f 8 wife & 8 c\nty :5 he return$ to !m 9 safety4 ,he is devot$ to 8 beautiful h\se & e/ate1 & is ! la/ man to ent]ta9 fancies or sup]/itions 9 connection ) ei!r4 ,x is necess>y to give ^! few words ( explanation be=e relat+ an incid5t 9 my life = :i* ,i h always f\nd x difficult to acc\nt1 except on ! supposition t "s g]m ( psy*ic s5sitiv5ess may exi/1 ev5 "u a hunt+ squire's p9k coat & top-boots4 ,i h kn[n ,greba ,hall s9ce ,i 0 a *ild1 & all its qua9t old family portraits1 especially ^? 9 ! f9e oak-panell$ hall1 ) ! old-fa%ion$ op5 fireplace & dogs ( ! fifte5? c5tury4 ,b !re 7 s _m ( ^! pictures mass$ toge!r t ,i h nev] di/+ui%$ "o f ! o!r1 ) ! exception ( ! few imm$iate ance/ors ( my fri5d4 ,"s ye>s ago ,i 0 /ay+ ) a lady :o liv$ ab\t ?ree miles f ,greba1 & we _h driv5 ov] !re to h tea ) ! ,squire's wife1 :om ,i w call ,mrs ,lyon4 ,! fri5d ,i h m5tion$ _h become int]e/$ 9 psy*ic matt]s s9ce my acqua9tance ) h]1 & ,i _h discov]$ t %e possess$ "s psy*ometric capacity4 ,9 ! int]e/s ( non-psy*ic read]s1 ,i may expla9 t psy*ometry is ! sci5ce ( le>n+ to receive impressions & intuitions f ! atmosph]e surr\nd+ any mat]ial object--a lett]1 a r+1 a piece ( pebble or %ell1 & s =?4 ,we seem capable ( impress+ all mat]ial objects ) our p]sonality1 & naturally ?is is especially ! case 9 lett]s writt5 & sign$ by u4 ,! lady ) :om ,i 0 !n /ay+--,mrs ,fitz ,h]b]t--_h tri$ receiv+ impressions f lett]s sev]al times1 at my sugge/ion1 & always ) m or less success4 ,we _h be5 speak+ ( ?is ) ,mrs ,lyon1 :o 0 always v sympa!tic1 & %e sugge/$ giv+ "o ( h] own lett]s to ,mrs ,fitz ,h]b]t to be psy*ometris$4 ,! latt] 0 sitt+ fac+ a door :i* l$ f ! hall to an inn] room1 & ov] ?is door hung ! half-l5g? portrait ( an old g5tleman1 :om ,i _h nev] specially rem>k$ be=e1 z ! picture 0 hung r high1 & !re 0 no?+ v *>act]i/ic ab\t ! face4 ,mrs ,fitz ,h]b]t glanc$ at ! portrait once or twice z %e held ! lett]1 & began h] rem>ks ^u ! writ]2 b ,i _h no reason to suppose t ! glance 0 o!r ?an casual & accid5tal4 ,%e gave1 h[ev]1 a v rem>kably accurate description 7z x turn$ out7 ( ,mrs ,lyon's unkn[n fri5d1 bo? z to 8 "* & ! special & r unique conditions ( 8 life4 ,i 0 feel+ naturally gratifi$ t my pupil %\ld h acquitt$ h]self s well1 :5 %e sudd5ly utt]$ a little expression ( pa9 & compla9$ ( sev]e heada*e4 ,i knew t %e suff]$ f ^! heada*es at times1 & 0 !re=e n surpris$ by h] ask+ leave to r+ = ! pony c>riage at once1 & we 7 soon on our way home4 ,mrs ,fitz ,h]b]t 0 driv+ ! pony1 & z we turn$ out ( ! long elm av5ue %e murmur$ 9 a tone ( relief3 ,h[ ?ankful ,i am to h got away f t old man6 ,i knew he 0 tell+ me :at to say ab\t t lett]1 b aft]w>ds he want$ to give me "s message himself1 & ,i c\ld n und]/& x1 & t is :at made my head s bad4 ,!n %e expla9$1 see+ my bewild]m5t1 t %e 0 ref]r+ to ! old g5tleman ^: portrait hung ov] ! door ,i h m5tion$4 ,i sugge/$ t we _h bett] try to f9d out :at ! old man want$ to say1 & we arrang$ to d s t ev5+ aft] d9n]2 b z ,mr ,fitz ,h]b]t 7:o _h a v *>m+ t5or voice7 elect$ to come 9 & s+ to u1 ! old g5tleman's communication _h to be po/pon$ until ! morn+4 ,mrs ,fitz ,h]b]t & ,i sat d[n 9 ! draw+-room ! next day1 arm$ ) p5cils & pap]1 s soon z h] dome/ic duties 7 ov]4 ,%e 0 mo/ anxi\s t ,i %\ld take ! message1 b ?is seem$ to me absurd1 consid]+ t ,i _h receiv$ no sort ( impression ab\t ! picture & c\ld n ev5 recall ! face4 ,s %e took up ! p5cil v unwill+ly1 & aft] "s difficulty ! "n ( ,ri*>d ,lyon 0 giv51 ) ! in=mation t he _h own$ ,greba1 & _h pass$ ov] to ! next sph]e ab\t "o hundr$ & ?irty ye>s previ\sly4 ,b :5 x came to try+ to f9d out :at he want$ to say1 %e pr(ess$ h]self q unable to grasp x1 & pass$ ! p5cil det]m9$ly ov] to me4 ,mu* to my surprise 7= ,i _h seem$ to h no l9k ) ! old man at all71 he 0 able to write ?r\gh my h& ) great ease4 ,he expla9$ to me t he _h be5 mu* devot$ to ! prop]ty1 _h liv$ only to improve x 9 e possible way1 & t ?r\gh 8 conc5tration ( int]e/ on ?is "o subject 8 life _h be5 a v limit$ "o1 & t n[ he c\ld n get away f ! remembrance ( 8 e>? life & 8 belov$ ,greba4 ,i suppose he is try+ to expla9 t he is e>?-b\nd1 sugge/$ ,mrs ,fitz ,h]b]t4 ,yes2 t is j ! tru?1 0 ! eag] response ?r\gh my h&1 & x is s sad to ?9k t my own desc5dants are ! ones to keep me imprison$ 9 ?is way4 ,i am told t ,i c\ld progress1 z !y call x "h1 & be mu* happi] if ,i c\ld only =get ,greba1 ev5 = a "t4 ,& x worries me to see ?+s done s diff]5tly & n to be able to d any?+ myself = ! old place4 ,!re is no happ9ess = me "h4 ,d ask !m to set me free1 he cont9u$ r pa!tically4 ,b !y don't want to hold y d[n1 ,i answ]$4 ,tell me h[ !y d x & :at y wi% !m to d4 ,! old man !n expla9$ ! position v c>efully & s5sibly4 ,he admitt$ t 8 own deep love = 8 old prop]ty & surr\nd+s & 8 failure 9 life to develop any o!r v deep affection1 0 *iefly 9 fault1 b he add$1 t 8 portrait be+ hung !re1 9 ! hall ( 8 desc5dants1 0 also v un=tunate = him4 ,x drags me d[n--,i don't "k :y--b ,i am sure ,i c\ld get away m easily if !y w\ld n keep t picture 9 ! old hall4 ,a few m practical que/ions elicit$ ! foll[+ in/ructions3--,he said ! picture might rema9 9 ! c\nty1 s long z x 0 n 9 any h\se own$ by a ,lyon 7!re 7 sev]al memb]s ( ! family 9 ,w>wick%ire72 or x might be s5t to ,london or else:]e1 & kept by memb]s ( ! ,lyon family1 s long z !y 7 n 9 ! direct desc5t1 & did n live 9 8 old c\nty4 ,we drove ov] to ,greba t aft]noon1 & took ! message ) u1 kn[+ !re 0 no fe> ( enc\nt]+ ! gibes ( my fox-hunt+ fri5d at ?ree ,p4,m4 on any week day 9 ! hunt+ season4 ,mrs ,lyon 0 extremely int]e/$2 %e n only endors$ ! ,ri*>d ,lyon & 8 dates1 b told u t he _h done an imm5se deal = ! prop]ty1 z h] husb& _h (t5 impress$ ^u h]1 & t at 8 dea?1 ab\t "o hundr$ & ?irty ye>s be=e1 he _h la9 9 /ate = ?ree days 9 ! v hall :]e we _h tak5 our tea1 & :]e 8 picture n[ hung4 ,?is 0 great enc\ragem5t1 s we put our heads toge!r1 wond]+ h[ ! poor old man's entreaty might be compli$ )4 ,mrs ,lyon rememb]$ t sev]al ( ! old portraits 7 %ortly to be s5t to a picture deal] 9 ! neighb\r+ t[n 7"s t5 miles away7 to be clean$1 b ?is special picture 0 n 9 ne$ ( re/oration1 un=tunately4 ,/ill1 ,i c\ld put x ) ! o!rs1 & let x g to ,w>wick1 & !n tell ! man n to d any?+ ) x--b :at w\ld ,edw>d say8 ,c y imag9e 8 all[+ ! picture to be tak5 d[n ^u ?is evid5ce8 ,f an acqua9tance ) ,edw>d ext5d+ ov] l>ge tracts ( ye>s1 ,i 0 =c$ to admit t ev5 my robu/ imag9ation c\ld n rea* s f>4 ,skittles6 or ,conf\nd$ *eek6 w\ld be 8 milde/ reply to su* a reque/1 ev5 f ! fri5d ( 8 y\?6 ,i did n c>e to ?9k h[ mu* fur!r 8 indignation might c>ry him6 ,b ,i felt s /rongly t some?+ outside myself _h inspir$ ! message1 ) its accurate in/ructions1 t at la/ ,i prevail$ ^u ,mrs ,lyon to promise %e w\ld m5tion ! matt] to h] husb&1 & ?us leave ! responsibility ( refusal ) him4 ,%e did s1 & ! refusal 0 all my fancy _h pa9t$--& m6 ,sev]al mon?s pass$1 & ! foll[+ spr+ ,i 0 once m 9 ! neighb\rhood1 /ay+ ) my own relations ?is "t1 :o 7 relat$ also to ! ,squire & 8 wife4 ,! fir/ piece ( news ,i receiv$ at d9n] ! night ( my arrival 0 t ! ,greba ,hall picture _h be5 s5t 9 to ,w>wick6 ,i c\ld h>dly believe my e>s4 ,my relatives c\ld tell me no?+ beyond ! fact1 & advis$ my pay+ an e>ly visit to ,greba ,hall dur+ ! abs5ce ( ! ma/]4 ,i did ?is1 & ,mrs ,lyon told me all %e knew ab\t ! matt]1 :i* 0 n v mu*4 ,aft] y 7 "h la/1 %e said1 ,i spoke to ,edw>d z ,i promis$1 &1 ( c\rse1 he laugh$ ! :ole ?+ to scorn1 & 0 v rude ab\t our tomfool]y4 ,yes1 ,i "k all ab\t t1 ,i answ]$ ha/ily4 ,b :at happ5$ aft]w>ds--aft] ,i left ,w>wick%ire1 ,i mean8 ,t 0 ! que]e/ "p ( x all1 %e resum$4 ,a few days aft] y _h gone away he /ood "u ! picture "o ev5+1 com+ 9 f hunt+ & wait+ = tea 9 ! hall1 & said z he look$ up at old ,ri*>d ,lyon3 ',d y suppose ,i %\ld all[ y\r picture to be tak5 d[n--y :o did s mu* = my prop]ty8 ,( c\rse n6' ,?is happ5$ once or twice1 at int]vals4 ,!n he said no?+1 b ,i us$ to notice t he always look$ up at ! picture :5ev] he came into ! hall or /ood by ! fireplace4 ,at la/1 ab\t ?ree mon?s ago1 he turn$ r\nd sudd5ly1 & said3 ',:5 are y go+ to s5d ^? pictures to be clean$8' ,n[ y "k ,i _h be5 keep+ ! o!r pictures back1 ) a dim hope t ,edw>d might rel5t4 ,b ,i saw x 0 q useless1 s ,i told him !y 7 go+ next day4 ,to my int5se surprise he said r abruptly3 ',!n s5d ?is picture ) !m1 & don't ask me any que/ions4' ,8 wife took ! h9t1 & wait$ = no second bidd+4 ,(f w5t ! picture to ! ,w>wick %op1 & !re x rema9$ = ne>ly six mon?s4 ,:5 x came back ev5tually1 ! ,squire 0 v triumphant on ! subject1 b ,i 0 equally triumphant 9 po9t+ out t no?+ c\ld alt] ! fact t ! picture _h be5 s5t away1 9 spite ( 8 e>li] d5unciations ( our folly4 ,also ,i sugge/$ t a good deal c happ5 9 six mon?s on ei!r side ( ! veil1 & t no d\bt poor old ,ri*>d ,lyon _h _h ample opportunity to get free1 z he call$ x1 ?anks to ! unacc\ntable action ( 8 desc5dant6 ,i h res]v$ ?is /ory = my la/ *apt] = two reasons4 ,x happ5$ )9 ! la/ few ye>s1 b ,i _c rememb] ! exact date1 & d>e n inquire f my irascible hunt+ fri5d2 & also x did n specially l9k on to any ( ! previ\s incid5ts describ$4 99 99 99 99 99 ,i mu/ n[ pass on to ! autumn mon?s ( #aije1 :i* f\nd me 9 ,ea/b\rne1 :]e ,i h v>i\s k9d fri5ds4 ,i _h be5 go+ ?r\gh a "t ( great anxiety1 ow+ to family reasons1 & w5t d[n to ,ea/b\rne ) e prospect ( f9d+ re/ & peace !re4 ,i arriv$ on ! #aa? ( ,novemb]1 & ! fir/ few days amply ju/ifi$ my hopes4 ,!n a feel+ ( ! mo/ int5se depression came ov] me1 q unexpect$ & unacc\ntable4 ,my family anxieties & responsibilities 7 happily ov]4 ,i _h be5 able to make a wise1 &1 z x turn$ out1 mo/ admirable *oice1 9 f9d+ a fre% att5dant = an invalid bro!r1 & !re 0 no?+ n[ to be done b to re/ on my o>s & be ?ankful t a mo/ try+ "t--requir+ inf9ite pati5ce & tact--0 ov]4 ,:5 ?is unacc\ntable depression came on s sudd5ly1 ,i put x d[n to reaction1 & expect$ x to pass away ) return+ /r5g?1 aft] ! heavy /ra94 ,b x increas$ z ! weeks pass$ on into ,decemb]1 & did n lift until ab\t eight ,a4,m4 on ! morn+ ( #bbnd ,decemb]4 ,!n ,i _h "o ( ! mo/ vivid exp]i5ces ( my life4 ,z sudd5ly z !y _h envelop$ me "s weeks be=e1 s did ! heavy cl\ds n[ roll (f1 leav+ me ) a s5se ( fre$om & exaltation su* z ,i h seldom exp]i5c$4 ,?is s5se ( fre$om & joy & happ9ess 0 s m>k$ t ,i m5tion$ x at once to an intimate fri5d1 :o came to see me t day aft] breakfa/4 ,i said to h]3 ,i c only describe x z if "o _h sudd5ly be5 let out ( prison or tak5 f a d>k1 dismal room into "o ) glori\s sun%9e /ream+ ?r\gh ! w9d[s1 :]e ! v s5se ( be+ alive is suffici5t joy2 9 fact1 ,i nev] felt s ?or\ghly alive be=e4 ,& ! curi\s ?+ is t !re is no app>5t reason = ?is--no?+ is *ang$--,i h n ev5 _h any specially pleasant lett]s4 ,life is j ! same on ! out]2 b on ! inn]8 ,well1 ,i _c describe x6 ,b c't y acc\nt = x at all8 ask$ my fri5d1 :o _h be5 ) me ?r\gh all ! depress+ influ5ces ( ! =m] weeks & 0 a/\nd$1 z well z delight$1 by ! inexplicable *ange 9 my spirits4 ,well1 x is ! day aft] ! %orte/ day1 ,i said1 laugh+4 ,b x has nev] _h su* an extraord9>y effect ^u me be=e4 ,all day long ?is exub]ant feel+ ( delight & happ9ess rema9$4 ,i _h no specially spiritual or religi\s exp]i5ce 9 connection ) x1 b r ! happy feel+ ( confid5ce t a *ild might h1 :o1 aft] w&]+ ab\t 9 unkn[n lanes & ?orny pa?s1 sudd5ly f\nd himself transport$1 ) no ef=t ( 8 own1 to ! de>1 famili> h\se & lov+ home faces4 ,five days lat]1 9 a private lett]1 ,i read ! fir/ allusion to ! dea? ( ,dr ,ri*>d ,hodgson4 ,x came to me 9 a lett] f ,mrs ,=bes1 n z a fact1 b z an uncorroborat$ report1 :i* w\ld probably be f\nd incorrect4 ,!re is no?+ ab\t x 9 ,! ,times ?is morn+1 s ,i don't suppose x is true4 ,^! 7 h] exact words4 ,i don't ?9k ,i ev] really d\bt$ ! tru? ( x1 al?\gh x came z a bolt out ( ! blue4 ,only a few days previ\sly1 a lett] f an intimate fri5d ( ,dr ,hodgson 9 ,am]ica 7he _h br\ght u toge!r7 m5tion$ h] hav+ se5 him lately & ?9k+ he 0 really mu* depress$ ov] 8 "w & o!r matt]s1 ?\gh1 d\btless1 if ,i tax$ him ) ?is he w\ld say x 0 q untrue2 b ,i feel q conv9c$ t x is true4 ,^! words _h n at ! "t giv5 me any clue to my own curi\s depression1 b :5 ! fir/ rum\r ( 8 dea? rea*$ me1 ,i felt conv9c$ t x 0 true1 & t ,i mu/ h tak5 on 8 joyful conditions :5 he fir/ f\nd himself on ! o!r side ( ! veil4 ,i c only surmise1 !re=e1 t ! weeks ( my depression may h correspond$ ) feel+s allud$ to by 8 intimate fri5d2 al?\gh less intuitive1 if n less valu$ associates1 may h notic$ no?+ b 8 usual *e]y & g5ial spirits4 ,a telegram s5t to ,mr ,/ead %[$ me cle>ly t my inquiry _h be5 8 fir/ intimation ( any?+ wrong4 ,!n1 9 despair ( gett+ accurate in=mation1 ,i wrote to ,sir ,oliv] ,lodge1 :o k9dly respond$ at once1 confirm+ my wor/ fe>s4 ,he 0 good en\gh to s5d me lat] ! p>ticul>s ( ! ev5t1 suppli$ by ,pr(essor ,william ,james4 ,x 0 a bitt] bl[ = u1 b = him h[ joy\s an awak5+6 ,i am grateful = hav+ _h1 ?r\gh p]sonal exp]i5ce1 ev5 a dim reflection ( t wond]ful ,new ,life1 s ov]:elm+ & s exub]ant1 t its rays c\ld rea* to ! he>ts ( "s ( ^? :o _h be5 hon\r$ by 8 fri5d%ip4 ,on comp>+ notes ,i f\nd t1 all[+ = diff]5ce ( "t1 =ty-eight h\rs mu/ h elaps$ betwe5 8 physical dep>ture & my exp]i5ce ( 8 awak5+ to new conditions4 ,!re may be v>i\s ways ( acc\nt+ = ?is4 ,! _s may n h be5 :olly fre$ at once f its physical envelope1 b may h rema9$ possibly1 9 "s condition ( unconsci\sness1 aft] ! /rangely sudd5 sev]ance ( ! tie t b9ds body & s\l toge!r4 ,note4--,s9ce ! above 0 writt51 ,i h receiv$ an explanation ( ! lapse ( "t betwe5 ! pass+ ( ,doctor ,hodgson1 #bj? ,decemb]1 & my exp]i5ce ( #bbnd ,decemb] #aije4 ,on #f? ,febru>y #aijg ,i _h ! privilege ( a sitt+ ) ,miss ,mac,creadie1 :o n only gave an accurate description ( ,doctor ,hodgson's p]sonal appe>ance1 & ( 8 sudd5 call h5ce1 b add$ t ?is _s wi%$ to expla9 to me t he _h n be5 able to get entirely away f ! body = q two days aft] physical dea?1 & t mean:ile he mu/ h be5 9 a /ate ( trance4 ,miss ,mac,creadie did n "k ! "n ( ! _s :om %e describ$ s accurately1 & ^: message 0 ?us convey$ to me4--,e4 ,k4 ,b4 ,"s "t aft] ,dr ,hodgson left u1 a fri5d 9 ,london wrote to me t %e _h ei!r j read or he>d t he _h made "s communication1 to ! effect t he 0 n v happy1 z he _h reg>d$ 8 "w only f ! intellectual po9t ( view4 ,?is seem$ to me a mo/ unlikely sort ( message to come f su* a man4 ,9 su* cases !re is no?+ l go+ to ! f\nta9-head = in=mation1 & ?is came to me 9 ! foll[+ words1 :i* are1 ,i ?9k1 *>act]i/ic & c]ta9ly s5sible3-- ,my "w 0 intellectual--h[ c\ld ,i reg>d x f any o!r po9t ( view8 ,t has no?+ to d ) ! spiritual side ( ?+s4 ,my spiritual life 0 v lat5t1 x is true2 b x 0 s9c]e1 s f> z x w5t1 & 9 ?is m fav\rable atmosph]e1 ! buds are unfold+1 & ,i am le>n+ m & m ( ! love & wisdom :i* ,i always dimly saw & appreciat$4 ,x is ! attitude ( m9d :i* is all-important1 & my attitude1 ?\gh critical1 0 nev] ob/ructive1 z y "k4 99 99 99 99 99 ,i %\ld l to say a few words n[ on ! subject ( sup]/itions4 ,we are all sup]/iti\s 9 v>i\s ways & ^u diff]5t po9ts--,i may laugh at y\r sup]/ition because x does n happ5 to appeal to me1 b y may be q sure y c\ld f9d out my ,a*illes ,heel if we liv$ toge!r long en\gh4 ,! only diff]5ce betwe5 p is1 t "s are hone/ ab\t _! sup]/itions & o!rs--are n6 ,i met a lady n long ago at a =eign table d'hte :o />t$ our acqua9tance by rem>k+ t %e 0 ?ankful to say %e _h n a s+le sup]/ition4 ,be=e we _h sp5t t5 days "u ! same ro( ,i discov]$ t %e believ$ 9 port5ts & lucky /ones & ! :ole bag ( tricks1 & possess$ ! p[] ( see+ p 9 _! a/ral bodies4 ,?is is to introduce my own /ronge/ sup]/ition1 :i* is a horror ( see+ ! new moon = ! fir/ "t ?r\gh glass4 ,break+ glass is almo/ z disa/r\s 9 my exp]i5ce1 ev5 if ! article itself only co/s a few p5ce4 ,n[ ,i d n = "o mom5t sugge/ t ei!r "o or o!r is ! cause ( my subsequ5t mis=tunes4 ,no "o surely c be *ildi% en\gh to suppose su* a ?+2 yet ,i h kn[n s5sible p lab\r ?is po9t 9 ord] to %[ me ! folly ( my ways--& ?\ghts4 ,aga91 ,i am q aw>e t "s p may break z mu* glass or *9a z ! prov]bial bull1 & see ! moon ?r\gh ! =m] m$ium e mon? ( _! lives1 & n be a p5ny ! worse = x--beyond ! am\nt ( _! breakages4 ,i only ma9ta9 t = me ^! two ?+s are inv>iably ! precursors ( mis=tune4 ,:5 p say to me3 ,h[ c a s5sible woman l y\rself be s fooli% z to ?9k su* ?+s8 ,i c only tru?fully answ] t ,i %\ld be v mu* m fooli% if s _m ye>s ( my life _h pass$ )\t my notic+ ! sequ5ce ( ev5ts4 ,b to expla9 ! ph5om5a is q ano!r matt]4 ,x seems to me q reasonable t1 all[+ ! possibility ( influ5ces com+ to u f ! o!r side1 "s sign--no matt] h[ trivial--might be impress$ ^u u z a g5tle w>n+ to be prep>$ = disa/]s1 m or less sev]e4 ,ano!r curi\s ?+ is ?is3 ,i h nev] f\nd t avoid+ see+ ! moon ?r\gh glass 9 any artificial way prev5ts disa/]4 ,i us$ to let k9d fri5ds1 indulg5t to my folly1 lead me bl9dfold up to ! w9d[1 c>efully ?r[n op5 = my b5efit4 ,i c rememb] a mo/ elaborate sc5e ( precaution once1 9 an ,am]ican railway c>riage betwe5 ,philadelphia & ,bo/on1 :5 a *>m+ ,am]ican lady1 ab\t to lecture on ,woman's ,suffrage1 & grateful to me = "s po9ts ,i _h giv5 h] ) reg>d to ! woman's "q 9 ,new ,zeal&1 insi/$ ^u hav+ a heavy w9d[ pull$ up by a negro att5dant1 :5 %e f\nd out my little weakness4 ,x 0 all ( no avail4 ,left alone1 ,i %\ld mo/ c]ta9ly h se5 ! moon ?r\gh glass on t occasion1 & ,i felt1 ev5 at ! mom5t1 t ,i _h n really alt]$ any?+ by fall+ 9 ) ! k9d ,am]ican lady's sugge/ion4 ,9 ,septemb] #aijf ,i 0 go+ ?r\gh a c\rse ( ba?s at ,buxton1 & on a c]ta9 ,sunday 7#bnd ,septemb]7 ,i saw ! moon ?r\gh glass 9 my b$room w9d[ 9 ! mo/ unmi/akable way4 ,!re 0 no fri5dly cl\d1 no o!r tw9kl+ light to ?r[ ! smalle/ %ad[ ( d\bt ^u ! fact4 ,!re 0 mu* good-hum\r$ laught] ov] my sup]/ition 9 ! h\se2 b ,i knew "s tr\ble 0 on its way1 little dream+ t x 0 "o :i* w\ld alt] my :ole life4 ,on ! ,w$nesday morn+ 7#e? ,septemb]7 ,i receiv$ ! fir/ intimation ( :at prov$ to be ! la/ illness ( a bro!r :o has be5 m5tion$ 9 ^! pages already1 & :o _h be5 an invalid = ne>ly ?irty ye>s4 ,a po9t to be notic$ is t on ! ,sunday1 :5 ! sign came to me1 he 0 9 8 usual heal?1 & ev5 on ,monday w5t out = a long drive4 ,! fir/ attack ( ang9a pectoris only came on 9 ! middle ( ! night ( ,monday-,tuesday1 #crd to #d? ,septemb]4 ,lat]1 :5 ! disease _h become acute1 & ,i 0 9 ! s\? ( ,engl&1 liv+ 9 h\rly susp5se1 & receiv+ telegrams & lett]s sev]al times a day1 ano!r curi\s incid5t occurr$ :i* has a be>+ ^u our subject4 ,z my read]s are probably aw>e1 9 ?is sad & pa9ful illness ! only pro( ( unselfi% affection :i* "o c give1 may be to keep away f ! pati5t1 :5 y "k t all is be+ done = him t skill & devotion c sugge/4 ,! smalle/ agitation is almo/ c]ta9 to br+ on a fre% attack ( ! t]rible pa91 & s long z !re is any hope ( a rally1 or1 9 fact1 any consci\sness t c possibly result 9 increas$ suff]+1 ev]yone %\ld be kept away f ! pati5t except ^? :o are 9 actual & necess>y att5dance4 ,?is naturally entails great m5tal di/ress & suff]+ ^u ^? :o are liv+ f h\r to h\r1 9 a /ate ( t5sion & susp5se4 ,aft] m ?an a =tnight ( alt]nate hopes & fe>s1 ! position became almo/ un5durable1 & ,i 0 mak+ all prep>ations = a visit to ! pati5t1 or at lea/ to ! h\se :]e he lay 7aga9/ my bett] judgm5t71 :5 lett]s & a telegram arriv$ implor+ me n to come1 z a %ort visit f ano!r relative _h prov$ mo/ disa/r\s 9 br++ on ano!r attack ( ! t]rible pa92 f :i* he nev] really ralli$4 ,"u ^! di/ress+ circum/ances1 !re c\ld be b "o c\rse op5 to me4 ,i 0 /ay+ ) my k9d fri5ds ,admiral & ,mrs ,usborne ,moore at ?is sad "t1 & c nev] feel suffici5tly grateful = _! goodness to me & sympa?y ) my di/ress4 ,! ,admiral1 z _m ( u "k1 is a mo/ p]sev]+ /ud5t ( psy*ic sci5ce1 & ,i ?9k x 0 by 8 sugge/ion1 or at anyrate ) 8 approval1 t ,i det]m9$ to pay a visit to a lady ( :om he _h spok5 to me--,mrs ,arnold1 a daught]-9-law ( ,sir ,edw9 ,arnold--:o is a gift$ clairvoyant4 ,i w5t alone to ! h\se1 t %e might n be able to connect me ) my ho/ & ho/ess2 & ! int]view 0 a rem>kable "o4 ,!re 7 _m evid5tial po9ts giv51 :i*1 = family reasons1 x is impossible to publi%4 ,%e gave me ! cry/al ball to hold = a good five m9utes1 9 ord] t x might become impregnat$ by my influ5ce2 & !n %e took x f me1 & began mak+ a s]ies ( /atem5ts1 )\t paus+ = a mom5t or attempt+ to fi%1 to use a te*nical t]m4 ,^! /atem5ts includ$ my own life & /udies & *ief int]e/s1 & ! numb] & sex ( my imm$iate family2 also ! attitude ( ! v>i\s memb]s t[>ds myself1 & 9 ea* case ! special /atem5t 0 absolutely correct4 ,h] fir/ words 73 ,y are 9 great anxiety1 ,i see4 ,x is ab\t ! illness ( an eld]ly man4 ,two p ) :om y are 9 v intimate relations are ill1 ,i see1 b ,i w tell y n[ ( ! "o y wi% to he> ab\t especially4 ,%e w5t on to describe n only my bro!r's surr\nd+s & illness at ! "t1 b also 8 p]man5t /ate ( p>alysis1 add+ t he 0 n[ 9 ! c\ntry1 = %e saw gre5 trees all r\nd him & wav+ grass4 ,z my bro!r's life = _m ye>s _h be5 sp5t entirely betwe5 ,london & ! seaside1 ?is 0 a good bit ( evid5ce4 ,z a matt] ( fact1 he 0 sp5d+ a few weeks 9 a c\ntry cottage = ! fir/ "t 9 8 life4 ,! s+le po9t :]e %e fail$ 0 z to ! "t ( 8 pass+ away4 ,%e saw at once t ! illness 0 "o f :i* he c\ld n p]man5tly recov]1 & gave ! approximate "t v t5tatively4 ,we _c see times exactly--!y come only 9 symbols4 ,= in/ance1 ,i see n[ fall+ leaves2 x looks l an autumn sc5e1 & s ,i inf] t means lat] on--p]haps ,octob] or ,novemb]4 ,?is1 z ,i h said1 0 ! only mi/ake 9 ! :ole int]view4 ,my bro!r pass$ to ! ,high] ,life on #bd? ,septemb]4 ,:5 ,i saw 8 valet 9 t[n lat]1 ,i ask$ him ab\t ! trees1 & he expla9$ t ow+ to ! great heat1 ! leaves 7 all ov] ! gr\nd1 & gave an autumnal look to ev]y?+4 ,mo/ ( u notic$ ! same appe>ance 9 ,london & else:]e1 ev5 q e>ly 9 ,septemb] #aijf4 ,! second fri5d ly+ dang]\sly ill 0 a puzzle to me at ! "t2 b )9 five days ( my bro!r's transition1 ,i he>d ( ! dea? ( ,judge ,=bes1 :o 0 "o ( my mo/ intimate fri5ds1 z ,mrs ,arnold _h truly obs]v$4 ,8 illness 0 a v %ort "o2 b on comp>+ notes ) memb]s ( 8 family ,i f\nd t he _h tak5 to 8 b$ ?ree days be=e my visit to ,mrs ,arnold1 & 0 already v s]i\sly ill1 al?\gh ,i _h no k ( ! fact = m ?an a week aft] my int]view ) h]4 ,be=e clos+ ^! p]sonal records ,i mu/ say a few words on ! mu* vex$ "q ( psy*ic photographs4 ,z my fri5d ,admiral ,usborne ,moore obs]ves 9 a lett] receiv$ f him z ,i write ^! words3 ,we are deal+ ) a great my/]y "h4 ,he is himself "o ( ^? :o by p]sev]+ ef=t is help+ u to solve ! my/]y4 ,x is c]ta9ly ! bran* ( psy*ic sci5ce :i* promises ! be/ results f an evid5tial po9t ( view1 b x mu/ be a case ( ea* man 8 own photograph]4 ,!re is always a t5d5cy 9 human nature to be ov]-cr$ul\s z to our own a*ievem5ts1 & ov]-sceptical z to ^? ( our neighb\rs4 ,s = _m ye>s probably1 we %all only accept our v own psy*ic photographs z q g5u9e2 b :5 a suffici5t numb] ( p are conv9c$ by _! p]sonal exp]i5ces 9 ?is l9e ( rese>*1 !re w be "s hope t ! subject w g ?r\gh ! usual /ages--7#a7 ,impossible & absurd2 7#b7 ,possible1 b v improbable2 7#c7 ,possible1 & n ev5 abnormal2 7#d7 ,f9ally1 normal1 & ,j :at we knew all ab\t f ! fir/6 ,mean:ile "s ( u h be5 exp]im5t+1 ) pr(essional assi/ance1 & 9 ^! cases ! "q is n ,c su* photographs be fak$8 ,we all "k n[adays t fak+ photographs is ! easie/ ( all possible frauds4 ,i h sp5t _m a half h\r do+ ! fak+ myself1 ) an amateur photograph]1 by sitt+ = s _m seconds 9 a *air & !n vacat+ x 9 fav\r ( "s o!r spook6 ,no1 ! :ole "q at pres5t mu/ be det]m9$ by our recognition or non-recognition ( ! photographs produc$4 ,if ,mr ,b\rsnell or any o!r photograph] c produce 7z he has done7 my old nurse1 :o di$ tw5ty-?ree ye>s ago1 & 0 nev] photograph$ 9 h] life1 !n we mu/ f9d "s o!r sugge/ion ?an t ( common or g>d5 fak+ z a solution ( ! my/]y4 ,!re %e sits1 z 9 life1 ) a little knitt$ %awl r\nd h] %\ld]s & ! head ( a t9y *ild ^u h] lap4 ,! eyes are clos$1 & give a dead look to ! face1 yet ! features are to me q unmi/akable1 & no "o knew ! de> old woman s well z ,i did4 ,aga91 ,i h 9 my little picture gall]y1 an old & v well-kn[n ,ox=d pr(essor1 9 ^: h\se ,i /ay$ _m times4 ,q unexpect$ly he appe>$ on "o ( ,mr ,b\rsnell's plates la/ summ]1 & al?\gh ?is special photograph is fa9t] ?an ! "o j describ$1 ! lik5ess c only be d5i$ by someone m anxi\s to be sceptical ?an tru?ful4 ,i comp>$ ! photograph ) an engrav+ ( ! pr(essor 9 mu* e>li] life--:i* is to be f\nd 9 ! ,life publi%$ s9ce he pass$ away--) an arti/ fri5d 7:o _h n kn[n him74 ,we w5t ov] ! features "o by "o1 & my fri5d said %e notic$ only "o small diff]5ce1 ! exact l5g? ( ! upp] lip1 & ?is1 %e consid]$1 w\ld be amply acc\nt$ = by ! lapse ( "t betwe5 ! two pictures & ! slight l5g!n+ ( ! upp] lip ow+ to loss ( tee?4 ,! pr(essor pass$ away z an old man2 ! picture engrav$ 9 ! ,life repres5ts him z he 0 at lea/ tw5ty ye>s be=e 8 dea?4 ,b ! mo/ int]e/+ po9t to me 9 ?is photograph1 is ! appe>ance on 8 lap ( a mu* lov$ dog1 a r l>ge fox t]ri] nam$ ,bob4 ,i _h n notic$ ,bob until a daught] ( ! pr(essor po9t$ him out to me1 & n[ ,i _c und]/& hav+ miss$ him at fir/4 ,bob 0 n only ! mo/ important p]son 9 ! ,ox=d h\sehold1 b he 0 good en\gh to be v fond ( me1 s x seems to me q natural t he %\ld h come ) 8 ma/] to pay me a visit4 ,i rememb] arriv+ at ! h\se "o d>k w9t]'s ev5+ aft] an abs5ce ( ov] two ye>s1 & ,bob's welcome to me 0 s ec/atic t he ne>ly knock$ me d[n 9 a va9 attempt to get 8 paws r\nd my neck4 ,i he>d ! pr(essor1 :o 0 always r jeal\s ( ,bob's affections1 say 9 a :isp] to 8 wife3 ,mo/ t\*+ ?+ ,i ev] saw1 t dog's welcome :5 ,miss ,bates arriv$6 ,de> ,bob6 ,i am s glad he c /ill come & see me1 ) 8 de>ly lov$ ma/]4 ,ano!r %uffle ( ! photographs br+s to ! top a sweet girli% face & figure1 sixte5 summ]s or some?+ less4 ,%e appe>$ fir/ ^u a plate 9 ! summ] ( #aije1 b s indi/9ctly z to ! face t ,i c\ld n recognise x4 ,a few mon?s ago ! same figure appe>$ aga91 b q cle>ly ?is "t1 & involunt>ily1 z ,i look$ at x1 ,i exclaim$3 ,:y1 ( c\rse1 x is ,lily ,blake6 ,n[ x is ne>ly ?irty ye>s s9ce ,i met ?is *>m+ *ild2 dur+ my fir/ visit to ,egypt4 ,%e & h] fa!r 7a well-kn[n physician7 & h] aunt1 7 sp5d+ a six weeks' holiday 9 ,cairo1 & ,i saw m ( h] ?an w\ld o!rwise h be5 ! case1 because %e 0 ! playmate ( ano!r "y girl--! *ild ( fri5ds ( m9e at ,%ephe>d's ,hotel4 ,lily 0 a sweet-look+1 delicate girl1 ) s(t1 sleepy blue eyes1 & 0 always dress$ 9 a simple1 arti/ic fa%ion4 ,a few mon?s aft] our return to ,engl& ,i saw 9 ! pap]s ! dea? ( ?is pretty *ild2 = %e 0 little m at ! "t4 ,i wrote a lett] ( condol5ce & sympa?y1 :i* 0 at once answ]$ by ! aunt 9 v k9d fa%ion2 & s9ce !n ,i h se5 no?+ to rem9d me ( ,lily until ?is la/ ye> has br\ght h] once m )9 my k54 ,i am only too ?ankful to realise t any influ5ce s pure & beautiful z h]s1 may be ar\nd me sometimes 9 my daily life4 99 99 99 99 99 ,& n[ let me say1 9 ! words ( our great noveli/3 ,come1 *ildr51 let u %ut up ! box & ! puppets1 = our play is play$ out6 ,only ,i tru/ 9 ?is case we h manag$ to rise a little above ! usual atmosph]e ( ,vanity ,fair4 ,surely ! aim ( all psy*ic rese>* %\ld be to give u a sci5tific1 z we h already1 ?ank ,god1 a spiritual1 f\ndation = ! ,hope t is 9 u4 ,_s photographs & _s mat]ialisations & abnormal visions or abnormal s\nds am\nt to v little1 if we look ^u !m z an end 9 !mselves1 & n z ! symbols & ! e>ne/ ( ^? great] ?+s :i* ,eye ha? n se5 nor e> he>d1 nei!r ha? x ent]$ into ! he>t ( man to conceive4 ,i rememb]1 ye>s ago1 9 ! c\rse ( a deeply int]e/+ conv]sation ) ,phillipps ,brooks1 ! late ,bi%op ( ,massa*usetts1 t ,i ask$ him :at he ?\ght ab\t mod]n !osophy1 :i* 0 j !n becom+ a culte 9 8 native t[n ( ,bo/on4 ,!re 0 a great deal ( talk at ! "t ab\t ! new philosophy & ! wond]ful ph5om5a said to accompany its propag&a4 ,sir ,edw9 ,arnold _h writt5 8 ,light ( ,asia1 & ,oliv] ,w5dell ,holmes _h welcom$ x ) wond]+ awe1 z some?+ approa*+ a new revelation4 ,& small] p 7 talk+ ab\t ! hi/orical ,blavatsky tea-cups1 & hidd5 heirlooms f\nd 9 ,indian g>d5s1 & "s ( u 7 wond]+ h[ soon we %\ld le>n to fly1 & :at w\ld come next4 ,! bi%op's answ] to my "q 0 s g5ial1 s *>act]i/ic1 & %[$ su* div9e common-s5se6 ,x is n a "q ( fly+1 he said4 ,i %\ld l to fly z mu* z anybody2 & a que] sort ( bird ,i %\ld appe>6 7,he 0 well ov] six feet1 & broad 9 proportion47 ,if y sudd5ly f\nd y c\ld fly1 he cont9u$1 x w\ld be absorb+ on ,monday morn+1 int5sely int]e/+ on ,tuesday1 int]e/+ on ,w$nesday1 & q pleasant on ,?ursday1 b by ! end ( ! week x w\ld be gett+ normal1 & y w\ld want to discov] "s o!r new p[]4 ,no1 believe me1 ! real "q is n fly+1 b ,,:]e y w\ld fly1 & ,,:at ,,y ,,w\ld ,,d ,,:5 ,,y ,,got ,,!re4 ,?is sums up ! case 9 a nut %ell1 & seems to me only ano!r way ( say+3 ,don't =get ! spiritual significance b5ea? ! sci5tific symbol4 ,& ,i w\ld add3 ,let u all jo9 h&s 9 ! int]e/+ & absorb+ "w ( try+ to make our symbols z sci5tific z we c1 by f9d+ out ! laws :i* gov]n !m1 z well z all o!r ?+s1 9 ?is univ]se ( ,love & ,law4 ,probably we are "h to le>n1 above all ?+s else1 t ,love & ,law are ,,"o4 99 99 99 99 99 ,_m p h _h f> m rem>kable exp]i5ces ?an m9e4 ,= v>i\s good reasons ,i h c>efully ab/a9$ f any attempt to cultivate1 or 9 any way increase1 ! s5sitiv5ess :i* is natural to me4 ,i c only assure my read]s t my record has be5 absolutely accurate4 ,9 _m cases x w\ld h be5 v easy to write up ! /ories into "s f> m dramatic =m2 b by do+ s ! :ole aim & object ( my book w\ld h be5 de/roy$4 ,i want$ to trace ! ?read ( :at we at pres5t consid] abnormal1 ?r\gh ! :ole ske9 ( a s+le life1 hop+ !reby to enc\rage o!rs to d ! same4 ,x is only by putt+ ^! ?+s d[n1 if n = publication1 !n 9 "s di>y or commonplace book1 t we c realise h[ f> our normal life is1 ev5 n[ & "h1 int]p5etrat$ by ano!r plane ( exi/5ce4 ,& s f>ewell to all k9d read]s :o h foll[$ me to ! end ( my p]sonal record ( curi\s ev5ts--curi\s *iefly by reason ( our pres5t imp]fect k4 ,,app5dix ,i ,mu* has be5 said ( ! folly & triviality ( all messages com+1 or purport+ to come1 f ! ,unse54 ,i ?9k "h1 z else:]e1 l cl+s to l1 & we get v mu* :at we des]ve2 or r1 to put x 9 a m philosophical & ,em]sonian way1 we receive :at belongs to u4 ,em]son tells u 9 "o ( 8 mo/ illum9at+ passages1 t ev]y?+ :i* belongs to our spiritual e/ate is com+ to u z quickly z x c travel4 ,all ! w9ds ( heav51 all ! waves ( e>?1 are br++ x to u1 & nei!r angel nor devil c prev5t our tak+ :at is ours or reject+ :at is n ours4 ,?is is a univ]sal law1 & applies to automatic writ+ z to ev]y?+ else4 ,emphatically we get :at belongs to our spiritual e/ate4 ,!re=e any casual & g5]al rem>ks z to ! fooli%ness ( all automatic writ+1 mu/ ( necessity be made by ^? :o are ignorant ( ?is spiritual law1 or ^: exp]i5ce ( su* messages is v limit$4 ,i int5d to give a few :i* ,i h myself receiv$1 9 ! =m ( an ,app5dix to my book4 ,) "o exception1 !y all come f a v de> fri5d1 :o pass$ into ! o!r sph]e little m ?an a ye> ago "u peculi>ly happy circum/ances4 ,i d n wi% to give 8 "n1 al?\gh x w\ld add consid]ably to ! int]e/ ( ! n>rative4 ,i %all !re=e call him ,mr ,h>ry ,d5ton4 ,! messages w be giv5 exactly 9 ! =m 9 :i* !y 7 receiv$1 & )\t any edit+4 ,we nev] discuss$ !ological ideas f any /&po9t ( cre$2 b ,i imag9e t my fri5d1 :5 "h1 w\ld h look$ ^u ,jesus ,*ri/ z "o ( ! _m inspir$ tea*]s ( ! _w1 & t 8 views 7 cosmic r ?an religi\s--9 any n>r[ s5se--& c]ta9ly religi\s1 9 ! broad s5se ( ! t]m1 r ?an !ological4 ,! fir/ conv]sation 7= ?is is a bett] description ( my fri5d's communications ?an ! ^w message7 ref]s to my own attitude1 z comp>$ ) t ( a lady fri5d ( m9e1 reg>d+ ,jesus ( ,naz>e?4 ,h4 ,d4--,i see a great /ream ( light r\nd y1 ,kate1 & x seems to h come ) y\r tru] conception ( ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,x is all "r = y\r fri5d to say %e pref]s to put ! matt] aside & leave x alone4 ,t is j ! be/ ?+ %e c d2 9 fact1 ! only ?+ %e c d at pres5t4 ,! se$ is /ill und]gr\nd1 & ! mom5t ( em]g5ce has n come4 ,to try & =ce x above gr\nd j n[1 w\ld be fatal4 ,x w\ld also be immature & uncall$ =4 ,! old husks ( man-made cre$s mu/ drop (f gradually1 leav+ ! bud !y protect$ intact1 n be torn (f by an impati5t h&4 ,s f> h] in/9ct seems to me a true "o4 ,b ! case is widely diff]5t = y4 ,! husks h fall5 (f1 z a matt] ( fact1 & ! discom=t & s5se ( some?+ wrong arose f y\r kn[+ t y 7 only /riv+ desp]ately to clut* on to !m1 :5 ! f9e1 /rong bud 0 !re1 able & ready to take its prop] %>e ( sun%9e & ra91 & ev5 to be> ! cold w9ds ( misrepres5tation & misund]/&+ if ne$ be4 ,,quit ,,y ,,l ,,m51 ,,be ,,/rong4 ,t is y\r lesson-book1 & y w nev] feel happy or cont5t until y are le>n+ x4 ,surely y mu/ feel h[ mu* y h ga9$ s9ce y fac$ y\r own facts8 ,e4 ,k4 ,b4--,yes1 ,h>ry1 ,i d2 b ,i don't q und]/& y\r position4 ,are y at ! same po9t ( view8 ,h4 ,d4--,no2 n yet4 ,x is all r =eign to my previ\s notions4 ,i ?\ght ( ,jesus ( ,naz>e? z a great tea*]--"o ( ! great tea*]s ( ! _w--b ,i _h /ill to le>n ,8 unique position z reg>ds our *a9 ( worlds4 ,!y tell me "h t ,he 0 ! fir/ to atta9 to ! full /ature ( ! ,div9e ,man z he exi/$ 9 ! ?\ght ( ! ,absolute4 ,spiritual evolution is ! process1 app>5tly ! only process1 :]eby a ,son ( ,god 9 ?is s5se c appe>4 ,& ons ( "t h be5 necess>y to produce ?is f9e ,fl[] ( ,humanity4 ,y\r own b& are help+ me to und]/& ?is4 ,hav+ atta9$1 be+ ! ano9t$ ,"o1 x is giv5 to ,him to br+ ! :ole race aft] ,him4 ,?is is q a diff]5t conception f my =m] "o1 & ! "o held by mo/ ( ^? :om 9 old days we call$ ,unit>ians4 ,y h _h to unle>n1 or r to drop1 "s ( ! husks ( old tradition :i* h be5 gu>d+ ! tru? = y1 :]eas ,i h /ill to come up to ! tru?2 b ! po9t rea*$ w be ! same1 :e!r ! approa* to x is f nor? or s\?--d y see8 ,9 ,*ri/ ,jesus1 !y tell me1 we are all new creatures1 z a matt] ( fact2 because1 consci\sly or unconsci\sly1 we are work+ toge!r ) ,him to realise & manife/ ourselves1 z made aft] ! ,image ( ,god4 ,he is ! example & ! pl$ge = u4 ,/ ,paul saw ?is1 ( c\rse1 & y\r pres5t position illum9ates 8 tea*+ = me enorm\sly4 ,s ,i h mu* to ?ank y =1 ,kate4 ,x is easi] to le>n f ^? we "k & tru/1 ?an f /rang]s4 ,&1 moreov]1 :5 we c le>n f ! lov$ ones on e>? z well z ?r\gh ! lov$ ones "h1 x makes ! l9ks 9 ! gold5 *a9 complete1 & helps u to realise ! unity & solid>ity ( our common exi/5ce1 9 ! ,fa!r--) ! ,son4 ,h4 ,d4 ,,ii ,ano!r morn+ ,i _h told ,h4 ,d4 t ,i _h be5 read+ an article 9 ,! ,n9ete5? ,c5tury--& ,aft]1 ,i ?9k1 entitl$ ,an ,agno/ic's ,progress1 & ask$ if he _h s5s$ x ?r\gh me at all4 ,h4 ,d4--,yes4 ,we w beg9 ) t ?is morn+4 ,i am v glad y read x1 = x is curi\sly l my own exp]i5ces 9 ! same l9e4 ,s9ce com+ ov] "h1 & !reby com+ into su* direct t\* ) y1 ,i h be5 able to grasp ! key to mu* t puzzl$ me on ! o!r side4 ,z my views became m spiritualis$ ,i saw !re mu/ be m tru? 9 ! ,*ri/ian religion ?an outsid]s suppos$1 & yet ,i knew x c\ld n be absolutely true 9 ! =m 9 :i* x has be5 h&$ d[n4 ,t 0 = me un?9kable1 because ,i saw x w\ld be a sudd5 & cata/rophic incursion ^u a cosmos ( ,law & ,ord]4 ,x w\ld mean ,god work+ 9 ! highe/ dep>tm5ts ( ,8 ,creation1 z ,he is nev] se5 to "w 9 ! l[] ones4 ,& my fai? 9 ,him prev5t$ my ent]ta9+ su* an idea6 ,s*emes & plans ( salvation belong to ! comp>ative *ildhood ( ! race1 n to ! full-gr[n spiritual man4 ,!y are /ill 9 ! fairy-tale /age1 hold+ a tru?1 b act+ only z ! husk ( ! tru?4 ,! unity ( ! race2 ! necessity = self-sacrifice 9 realis+ t unity3 t by giv+ our life = our bro!rs we save our ,life1 :i* is t unity 9 :i* ! bre?r5 are includ$--all ?is ,i c\ld accept 9 ,*ri/'s tea*+ or ! tea*+ ( ! ,apo/les2 b ! re/3 ! detail1 ! c>efully arrang$ s*eme ( ! ,atonem5t1 etc41 z dogmatic doctr9es--all ^! seem$ to me s obvi\sly ! desp]ate attempts ( man at a c]ta9 /age ( developm5t to fit 9 spiritual facts ) ! mo/ probable !ories2 & to say t m5 :o wrote ( ^! ?+s 7 inspir$1 & !re=e infallible1 0 absurd4 ,ev5 9 my %ort life1 ,i _h se5 ! _w pass ?r\gh sev]al /ages ( belief & assimilate !m 9 turn4 ,z a *ild1 ,i 0 told t ,god 0 angry ) p = s9n+ & break+ ,8 comm&m5ts1 & s ,jesus ,*ri/ (f]$ to come & die on ! cross to appease ,8 j wra?4 ,t seem$ a great puzzle to me1 because1 al?\gh x might acc\nt = :at happ5$ be=e ,*ri/ came & until ,he came1 ,i c\ld n und]/& :y ,god %\ld g on lett+ p come into ! _w :o w\ld break ,8 laws1 & make ,him /ill m angry = c5turies & c5turies4 ,t seem$ to me1 z a *ild1 s unnecess>y4 ,lat] ,i 0 told x 0 n ,god's ang] b ,8 s5se ( ju/ice t _h to be appeas$ & satisfi$1 :i* 0 a di/9ct /ep 9 advance4 ,a little lat]1 h[ev]1 ,i read t ?is 0 n ! hidd5 tru? ( ! doctr9e4 ,! religi\s _w 7! ?\ghtful section ( x7 n[ arriv$ at ! idea t x 0 n ,god :o ne$$ to be satisfi$ or appeas$ 9 any ( ,8 attributes1 b ,,man1 & t ,,god--9 ! p]son ( 8 ,son--came into ! _w to reconcile ! _w to ,him1 & n ,himself to ! _w4 ,?is 0 a complete b\lev]sem5t ( ! :ole situation1 ?\gh x came s gradually t few appreciat$ t fact4 ,! la/ sugge/ion appe>$ to me by f> ! mo/ lum9\s4 ,9 human life x is inv>iably ! l[] nature t ne$s to be reconcil$ & conciliat$2 :il/ ! high] nature1 9 proportion to its developm5t1 is =giv+ & tol]ant & wide-m9d$1 & does n prate ab\t its own high s5se ( ju/ice requir+ to be appeas$4 ,! be/ type ( man puni%es a wrong-do] 9 ord] t he may le>n to d bett] & leave (f torm5t+ & wrong+ 8 fell[-creatures2 n to appease any in/9ct 9 8 own brea/1 = t w\ld be egotism1 no matt] h[ we might try to disguise ! fact4 ,n[ if x w\ld be a blot ^u ! be/ conceivable man to be egoti/ical1 a =tiori mu/ x be ^u ,god4 ,to conceive o!rwise is to make ,god 9 ! lik5ess ( ! l[] & n ! high] humanity4 ,i ?\ght all t out v cle>ly4 ,/ill ?is crux rema9$ = me1 t to be sudd5ly1 at any arbitr>y mom5t 9 ! _w's hi/ory1 oblig$1 z x 71 to s5d an absolutely div9e "p ( ,himself into ! _w1 0 ! way a man w\ld act fac$ by an un=ese5 cata/rophe1 b n ! way 9 :i* ,god has act$ ?r\gh\t ! re/ ( our hi/ory4 ,a succession ( tea*]s1 enlight5+ ! _w by degrees1 & culm9at+ 9 ! ,,ano9t$ ,son ( ,god--! ,fl[] ( ,humanity--?is is entirely 9 l9e ) ! processes ( ,nature & ! laws ( ,god1 s f> z we "k !m4 ,all progress has its culm9at+ po9t4 ons h pass$ to produce ! mo/ exquisite cry/als1 ! highe/ =ms ( vegetation1 ( animals1 ( m54 ,!n came ! sl[ processes ( civilis+ & educat+ m52 ! dim in/9cts ( fe> & propitiation1 m]g+1 by sl[ degrees1 9 ! fir/ conceptions ( ,love1 z some?+ ap>t f desire1 & s =?4 ,0 ,i to be expect$ to %ut my eyes to all ^! kn[n facts1 & bolt d[n ! !ories conta9$ 9 "o ,book1 writt5 by human au?ors1 no matt] h[ admirable8 ,i felt x 0 impossible4 ,!n ,i rememb]$ ) relief t ^! v dogmas1 z a matt] ( fact1 7 9 s flu5t a /ate1 t my own b>e fifty ye>s ( liv+ _h se5 at lea/ f\r diff]5t high-wat] m>ks6 ,"h aga9 !re=e1 "u my v eyes1 0 ! univ]sal law ( progress work+1 ! mom5t x c\ld "w1 by be+ releas$ f ! swaddl+-clo!s ( ! ,roman ,ca?olic ,*ur*1 :i*1 s f> z x is or?odox1 is fossilis$4 ,i saw also t ! :ole body ( diss5t _h mov$ on1 tak+ up its pegs & plant+ !m a little fur!r on ea* "t2 till a ,city temple1 ) its wid5+ !ology1 0 an e/abli%$ fact4 ,progress ev]y:]e--sl[1 b sure--& ! pace gett+ quick]1 ev5 9 my %ort span6 ,/ill1 ! uniqu5ess ( ,jesus ( ,naz>e? & ,8 influ5ce ov] ! n9ete5 c5turies 0 a puzzle4 ,buddha's influ5ce has la/$ long]1 ,mahomet's almo/ z long 7! two cancel any way71 b ,i h always recognis$ an advance 9 ! tea*+ ( ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,he br\ght a fre% elem5t1 9 ! p]sonal note ( ! ,son%ip ) ,,god4 ,i 0 at ?is po9t :5 ,i came ov] "h4 ,n[ ?r\gh y\r m9d ,i h be5 able to see1 &1 oddly en\gh1 to quick5 9 y\r s\l1 ! se$ already plant$ !re4 ,!y tell me ! illum9ation came to y ye>s ago1 at ,ob]amm]gau--no1 n :5 y 7 !re = ! ,passion ,play--f\r ye>s e>li]4 ,y took x 9 ) y\r head !n1 n ) y\r he>t4 ,old traditions 7 too /rong1 ,i suppose1 & y _h n made up ! la/ little bit ( y\r m9d1 to be true to ! convictions t _h come to y ?r\gh y\r pray]s = light4 ,& s y h gone on1 see-saw+ to & fro1 n really believ+ ! old or?odox ideas1 b n c\rage\sly sweep+ !m away = y\rself4 ,s al?\gh ! key 0 9 y\r h&s1 y h n us$ x until n[4 ,y h giv5 me ! key1 & ,i h be5 all[$1 z my ,new ,ye>'s gift1 to fit x 9 ! door4 ,?is is h[ ,jesus ,*ri/ has /ood s long at ! door ( y\r he>t & knock$4 ,he c\ld only ent] ?r\gh ! "o door--namely1 t "o op5$ 9 ! highe/ po9t ( y\r spiritual realisation4 ,i see n[ t ,he comes 9 at t door 9 ea* s\l1 &1 z spiritual evolution unfolds 9 ea* he>t1 s is ! special position ( t door %ift$2 b ! fact ( ,8 pres5ce is ! vital "o6 ,x 0 n possible = ,him to d o!rwise ?an hide ,8 face1 z x 71 :il/ y 7 b>r+ ,8 only door ( access--i4e4 y\r true po9t ( realisation4 ,x all seems s cle> to me n[4 ,& ?is is h[ ,he comes to s _m 9 diff]5t guises4 ,he is ! ,p]fect$ ,manife/ation ( ,,god1 z ! ,div9e ,man--! ,fl[] ( ,humanity4 ,b ,he c come into ! he>t 9 ! n>r[e/ cre$1 s long z ! hold] ( t cre$ is at 8 true po9t ( gr[? & n try+ to /ifle ,god's gift ( ev]-advanc+ tru? by c[>dly want ( tru/1 or fe> ( be+ worse (f 9 ! end1 by be+ absolutely hone/ to himself & 8 own convictions 9 ! pres5t4 ,x has be5 a long message1 & y h tak5 mu* ( x awkw>dly1 b on ! :ole x repres5ts :at ,i want$ to say4 ,h4 ,d4 ,,iii ,h4 ,d4--,i feel n[ t y want to "k :at ,i meant by tell+ ,miss ,r4 x 0 ! lik5ess to ! old _w :i* puzzl$ me "h4 ,y see1 we h all imbib$ traditional ideas ) our "m's milk1 h[ev] mu* our intellects may h modifi$ !m4 ,in/9ct is /rong] ?an intellect1 because x is m elem5tal4 ,! fir/ ?+ t /ruck me 0 t tru?s :i* are lat5t on e>? are made manife/ "h4 7,"h comes an int]polation47 ,y c take my words s easily t we mu/ gu>d aga9/ wa/+ "t 9 m]e v]bosity4 ,i mu/ tea* y to cond5se m4 ,we mu/ /rike "s sort ( balance betwe5 my brevity & y\r amplification4 ,at pres5t x is z well to get ! in/rum5t into prop] work+ ord] be=e worry+ too mu* ov] ^! details4 7,he !n resum$47 ,x is z if y turn$ ! old e>? g>m5t inside out1 & saw ! v fabric ( x1 :i* ! e>? looms h hi!rto conceal$ by ! w>p & wo( ( ! manufactur$ article4 ,= in/ance1 y are told on e>? t y are mak+ y\r own future conditions by "r or wrong ?9k+4 ,"h y see ! absolute1 mat]ial results ( "r & wrong ?9k+1 j z if y 7 look+ at two diff]5t patt]ns1 wov5 by two diff]5t work]s4 ,i said mat]ial results1 because matt] "h is j z real z x 0 on e>?1 & j z illusory1 9 "o s5se1 9 bo? sph]es4 ,y\r matt] is unreal to u4 ,our matt] is unreal to y4 ,! tru? is1 bo? are %ad[s ca/ by an antec$5t reality on ! ,scre5s ( ! ,univ]se4 ,! scre5s are ! s*ool-h\ses ?r\gh :i* humanity le>ns its lessons4 ,don't be worri$6 ,!re is no real difficulty 9 us+ y\r h&2 x is only try+ to compromise betwe5 y\r r$undancy & my brevity4 ,e>? is l a gall]y ( sculpture4 7,note by ,e4 ,k4 ,b4--,?is simile _h fla%$ ?r\gh my bra91 & ,h4 ,d4 at once said3 ,yes1 t is v good2 y />t$ x1 & ,i pick x up & apply x47 ,all ! figures & gr\ps are p]fect$ & complete 9 _! m>ble or bronze or t]ra-cotta1 z ! case may be4 ,"s gr\ps or figures are noble1 o!rs m$iocre1 o!rs aga9 may be s5sual & degrad+1 b !y h "o quality 9 common--= good or bad1 !y are ready made4 ,n[ g into ! sculptor's /udio1 hav+ /udi$ well 9 ! great sculpture gall]ies ( ! _w4 ,y g to ! /udio1 we w suppose1 z a pupil4 ,he puts a lump ( clay into y\r h&s1 & = ! fir/ "t y are invit$ to model y\r own /atues & figures1 to embody y\r own ideas 9 ?is clay1 :i* corresponds to ?\ght /uff "h4 ,y are ev5 made to und]/& t y\r h\ses w only be wor?ily furni%$ by ! "w ( y\r own h&s4 ,"h x is ! "w ( y\r own he>ts1 ( y\r lov+ or unlov+ ?\ghts4 ,s ! fir/ lesson we le>n ov] "h is t ,,?\ght is n only ,creative ,p[]1 z y are (t5 told on e>?1 b x is also ! v /uff out ( :i* ! creation mu/ be m\ld$4 ,x is1 9 v tru?1 ! clay ( ! modell]4 ,%akespe>e said truly en\gh ,we are su* /uff z dreams are made (1 b he 0 ref]r+ to our embodi$ selves4 ,! diff]5ce betwe5 ! two worlds seems to me1 s f> z ,i h arriv$1 z ! diff]5ce betwe5 ! pupil 9 ! sculpture gall]y & 9 ! exp]im5tal /udio4 ,! *ief "p ( ! e>? modell+ is ready made--made by ! racial ?\ght /uff & ! racial manipulation ( x4 ,"h1 = ! fir/ "t1 we mu/ turn to & take a h& 9 ! "w ourselves4 ,x w\ld n be possible to give su* individual p[] 9 any l[] sph]e ?an ?is1 = x w\ld be misus$1 & w\ld lead to t]rible trag$ies4 ,y see "s slight h9ts ( ?is 9 :at is call$ ,black ,magic--! wilful & int5tional ?r[+ ( evil conditions on o!r p1 mak+ h>d & cruel images ( !m 9 ! m9d1 & s =?4 ,b all t is z *ild's play to :at w\ld happ5 if ! absolute clay 7 put into _! h&s1 z x is "h4 ,x is ! diff]5ce betwe5 ?9k+ out an ugly picture2 & pa9t+ x & hang+ x up 9 a gall]y2 = we h objectivity "h z ) y4 ,naturally :at comes into objective exi/5ce has m p[] ?an :at rema9s lat5t4 ,! latt] c only influ5ce exceptionally s5sitive s\ls1 & t to a comp>atively small ext5t1 :]eas ! =m]1 "h z ) y1 has a mu* f>!r range ( influ5ce4 ,s ?is sort ( gunp[d] is n giv5 to u until we are old en\gh to "k bett] ?an to burn our f+]s ) x1 9 try+ to make fireworks6 ,at ! same "t1 z all /ages ( evolution ov]lap1 x is inevitable t "s h9t ( ^! possibilities %\ld be already 9 y\r _w4 ,woe be to ^? :o misuse !m6 ,y h tak5 en\gh = ?is morn+4 ,h4 ,d4 ,,iv ,! fri5d ,i h call$ ,mr ,h>ry ,d5ton1 dur+ 8 psy*ic rese>*es1 came1 z _m o!rs h done1 v /rongly "u ! influ5ce ( ,imp]ator1 ! *ief ( ! ,/a9ton ,moses controls4 ,i knew t ?is 0 ! case1 especially dur+ ! la/ ?ree or f\r ye>s ( my fri5d's life1 & ,i always r res5t$ ! fact1 = ! limitations ( ,imp]ator h always appeal$ to me s /rongly1 z to dim1 p]haps unduly1 8 und\bt$ claims to appreciation4 ,i h read _m ( ! private ,/a9ton ,moses' records 7?anks to my fri5d%ip ) ! executor1 ) :om ^! j\rnals 7 left71 & 9 all ^? ref]r+ to ,imp]ator's communications1 !re 0 to my m9d ! same note ( cock-sur5ess & m5tal tyranny4 ,!re 0 too mu* ( f9ality & self-ass]tion1 too mu* ( ,?us sai? ! ,"l1 ab\t ,imp]ator's rem>ks = my rebelli\s s\l4 ,i c\ld nev] be /rongly impress$ by any p]sonality1 h[ev] admirable1 t s palpably exact$ allegiance & unque/ion+ ob$i5ce4 ,^! mu/ be ! unconsci\s tribute to ! ,g5ius ( ,hol9ess1 z to any o!r sort ( g5ius2 nev] an en=c$ levy ^u u4 ,s at lea/ x seems to me4 ,c]ta9ly ,i w\ld n escape "o sort ( prie/craft to set up ano!r 9 its place1 :e!r ! ni*e be fill$ by ,mrs ,besant or ,mrs ,eddy or ,mr ,s9nett1 or any o!r fallible fell[-creature4 ,n ev5 ,imp]ator c /rike me z infallible2 & 8 own evid5t belief 9 t direction does n affect ! "q4 ,x seem$ to me r to be deplor$ t ,mr ,d5ton1 ) 8 wide outlook & cosmic conceptions1 %\ld fall s /rongly "u any special influ5ce1 ev5 t ( ! admirable ,imp]ator6 ,s ,i 0 curi\s to "k :at 8 views 7 ^u ?is subject f ! o!r side ( ! veil4 ,i w n[ leave him to speak = himself4 ,h4 ,d4--,y want me to tell y j my position ab\t ! ,imp]ator gr\p be=e & s9ce ,i pass$ to ?is side8 ,t is easily done4 ,rememb]1 ! tea*+ ,i got ?r\gh ,imp]ator 0 practically ! fir/ spiritual tea*+ ,i ev] _h--! fir/ ,i mean1 ( c\rse1 t ,i c\ld assimilate1 because x appeal$ to my reason1 z well z to my s5se ( ! fitness ( ?+s--& !re=e ,i c nev] feel suffici5tly grateful to him & 8 gr\p2 & ,i see t !y c tea* _m :o w\ld n be am5able to a m di/9ctly spiritual appeal4 ,imp]ator is a great =ce 9 8 way2 a sort ( pl\gh t goes ov] ! h>d1 cak$-up e>? & ?r[s x op5 to ! sun%9e & ra9 & all ,nature's beautiful influ5ces1 to all ! possibility ( ,div9e influ5ces on ! correspond+ sph]e4 ,b ! limitation ( ,imp]ator ,i see cle>ly n[1 z y always appe> to h done4 ,he is1 z y say1 too f9al & too dogmatic4 ,?is is at once 8 weakness & 8 /r5g?3 8 weakness1 because x limits 8 own spiritual receptivity2 8 /r5g?1 because x focusses 8 p[] 9 deal+ ) mat]iali/ic m9ds4 ,a m spiritually true p]spective 9 8 communications w\ld rule out half ! s\ls to :om 8 appeal is made4 ,/a9ton ,moses has also progress$ beyond ! ,imp]ator influ5ce1 & ?is is :y ! communications betwe5 !m _h become s clogg$ & s liable to error4 ,s4 ,m4 c\ld n swit* on to ! old wires1 z 9 ! days :5 8 horizon 0 b\nd$ by !m4 ,?is acc\nts1 ,i see1 = mu* ( ! misconception & app>5t inconsi/5cy ( ! rem>ks made ?r\gh ,mrs ,pip]1 b x 0 v di%e>t5+ = ! inve/igator z "t w5t on & ! ,light became m & m cl\d$4 ,!n !re 0 ! additional fact to be fac$1 t ,mrs ,pip] h]self became1 psy*ically r ?an physically1 exhau/$1 & less able to be us$ f ?is side4 ,n[ ,i see y want to "k ab\t ,frank ,/rong1 & :at he said ab\t s9 exi/+ only on y\r plane1 & h[ inconsi/5t ?is 0 ) ! previ\s tea*+s ( ,/a9ton ,moses1 :o 0 suppos$ to be speak+ ?r\gh ,frank's assi/ance4 ,x is s difficult to expla9 ev]y?+ 9 black & :ite :5 !re are s _m %ades ( grey1 s _m degrees & am\nts to be consid]$4 ,x is l a "q 9 me*anics4 ,) increas$ mom5tum y get an increas$ rate z multipli$ by space4 ,i am n an exp]t1 b ?is is practically true4 ,9 ! same way1 spiritual p]ception acts ) increas$ mom5tum4 ,all s9 is failure 9 spiritual p]ception4 ,spiritual p]ception corresponds ) ! mom5tum ( a fall+ body 9 me*anics4 ,only 9 ,div9e me*anics x is a ris+ body2 b ! same law holds good4 ,y say truly t an action c only be call$ s9ful :5 ! s9n] kn[s ! high] & delib]ately turns to ! l[]4 ,t is true2 b x is only half a tru?4 ,x is /ill ! lack ( k t causes s94 ,) ! fulness ( k ( ! high] 7only ano!r way ( putt+ fulness ( spiritual p]ception7 mu/ come ! righte\sness ( life4 ,x is ! brok5 gleams1 ! little k1 :i* is truly a dang]\s ?+1 = x br+s responsibility1 & !re=e ! capacity = s9n+4 ,yet ! *oice betwe5 good & evil fully made1 is ! s*oolma/] to br+ u to ! full realisation ( our nature z ,sons ( ,god4 ,n[ :5 ,frank came ov] "h1 he 0 s greatly impress$ by ! dynamic =ce ( spiritual p]ception t = ! "t he lo/ all s5se ( proportion & accuracy ( judgm5t4 ,comp>$ ) ! old e>? temptations1 ^? 9 8 sph]e seem$ non-exi/5t1 :il/ ! temptations to goodness 7 enorm\sly increas$4 ,:at wond] t 9 ! delightful s5sation caus$ by 8 s5se ( moral & spiritual fre$om f old %ackles1 he %\ld exclaim ) y\?ful f]v\r3 ,s9 is only possible 9 y\r sph]e--x is unkn[n "h6 ,any communications ( :i* he =m$ ! *annel1 w\ld ( necessity be col\r$ by ?is dom9ant idea ( 84 ,ev]y?+ is a "q ( degree1 & he is le>n+ t lesson n[1 ,i f9d4 ,he says3 ,:y d p 9 ! e>? life quote our words z if we 7 ,delphic ,oracles8 ,:y1 inde$8 ,b ,i am afraid ,i did mu* ! same :il/ s /rongly "u ! ,imp]ator influ5ce4 ,e4 ,k4 ,b4--,:y is ,imp]ator s sl[ 9 ?r[+ (f 8 own spiritual limitations8 ,h4 ,d4--,i c read y\r m9d s easily4 ,x is quick & al]t1 & has already answ]$ its own "q4 ,x is because he has a "w to d on y\r plane among/ ^? :o c\ld n come 9 t\* ) a high] spiritual developm5t4 ,!re are spiritual z well z sci5tific m>tyrs1 y mu/ rememb]2 & he is "o ( !m4 ,b ! ,div9e ,economy works v beautifully "h4 ,he is n consci\s ( any spiritual limitation1 & !re=e he is happy 9 8 "w1 & ! m>tyrdom ,i spoke ( is unconsci\s4 ,:5 x becomes consci\s1 ) him x w mean t 8 pres5t plane ( "w is f9i%$1 & t he w be remov$ to ano!r ,=m s soon z he is prep>$ to tea* !re4 ,he is ess5tially a tea*]1 & a valuable "o1 = ^? :o h n so>$ beyond 8 pres5t p]ceptions4 ,x is all s mu* m simple & reasonable ?an y suppose4 ,x is ^! cru/$ old cre$s t h misrepres5t$ actual conditions1 & yet !y also h be51 z ,imp]ator2 do+ _! own "w among/ ! p to :om !y h act$ z necess>y /epp+-/ones4 ,t is en\gh = to-day2 take a re/ n[4 ,h4 ,d4 ,v ,! foll[+ conv]sation betwe5 ,mr ,d5ton & myself 7! la/ ( ! s]ies :i* ,i propose to give7 took place1 ,i see1 at ,buxton1 #d? ,septemb] #aijf4 ,!re _h be5 "s correspond5ce 9 ,! ,daily ,telegraph ab\t ,"t z a f\r? ,dim5sion1 & ,i ask$ my fri5d if he c\ld say any?+ to me on ! subject4 ,8 reply 0 z foll[s3-- ,"t is really a =m ( p]ception1 n a ?+ 9 itself--d y und]/&8 ,y\r limitation ( p]ception y call ,"t4 ,ano!r limitation is call$ ,di/ance4 ,?is also is an illusion1 or a limitation1 :i*ev] y *oose to call x4 ,! ,:ite ,ray is ! ,absolute4 ,! spectroscope gives y ! limitation :i* makes ! col\rs p]ceptible to y\r human eyes4 ,= ! "o :o is free f ^! limitations1 all col\rs exi/ & are pres5t 9 consci\sness at ! same mom5t4 ,b !y mu/ be split up & obs]v$ sev]ally to ent] into ! e>? consci\sness4 ,x is exactly ! p>allel ( ,"t4 ,ev5ts 9 ,"t co9cide ) ! col\rs 9 ! ,ray4 ,all exi/ simultane\sly = ! "o :o is free f limitations4 ,all mu/ be br\ght into sequ5ce = ! "o :o is b\nd by limitations4 ,?is is really ! key to s _m puzzles1 & acc\nts = s _m occult ph5om5a4 ,z we transc5d ! normal e>? limits ev] s little1 s d we develop ^! abnormal p[]s1 z !y are call$4 ,b "h1 z ev]y:]e1 ! reality is j ! conv]se ( ! app>5t4 ,! true norm is ! ,p]fect ,ray--! ,ceaseless ,s\nd--! ,p]fect ,vision2 & ! abnormal is ! limitation ^u ! e>?1 or ^u any succe$+ plane1 %ort ( ! ,absolute4 ,b naturally we consid] t normal :i* happ5s to be our /&po9t = ! mom5t4 ,already to me ! e>? limitations appe> abnormal1 & my m ext5d$ capacities m>k ! norm ( exi/5ce = me4 ,?is mu/ be ! case naturally4 ,prevision w\ld be m accurately t]m$ ,:ole vision--see+ ! :ole & n ! t9y section4 ,9 mom5ts ( int5se joy or realisation ( any k9d1 ,"t seems to cease1 & a mom5t may hold an ,et]nity4 ,any absorb+ emotion1 joyful or sorr[ful1 may br+ ?is exp]i5ce4 ,= ! mom5t y are out ( y\rselves4 ,?is is lit]ally true4 ,y are liv+ 9 ! next ,dim5sion4 ,"t & ,space no long] exi/ = y4 ,mo/ ( y h _h "s su* exp]i5ce1 b ( necessity x c be a fla% only 9 ! mid/ ( y\r normal life4 ,ask me some?+ n[4 ,e4 ,k4 ,b4--,a man writ+ lately 9 ,! ,daily ,telegraph ( ,"t z a f\r? ,dim5sion said some?+ ab\t ! cube z be+ an inf9ite numb] ( flat planes ( inf9ite t5uity1 heap$ up "o ov] ! o!r4 ,to ! p]son :o knew only l5g? & bread?1 ! cube w\ld h no exi/5ce4 ,su* a p]son w\ld realise only an inf9ite numb] ( planes 9 sequ5ce4 ,yet !y w\ld all co-exi/ = ! ?ree-dim5sional man ( ! pres5t day4 ,! sugge/ion appe>$ to be t1 9 exactly a simil> way1 ev5ts :i* to ! ?ree-dim5sional man c only be p]ceiv$ normally 9 sequ5ce1 w\ld co-exi/ = a f\r-dim5sional be+4 ,?is w\ld mean practically ! annihilation ( ,"t1 z giv+ sequ5ce4 ,d y see ,tru? 9 ?is idea1 & c y tell me if x ext5ds also to ,space8 ,h4 ,d4--,c]ta9ly4 ,t is j :at ,i meant z reg>ds ,di/ance4 ,all limitations are m5tal1 z a matt] ( fact4 ,we h !m "h1 b inf9itely few] ?an 9 ! old e>? life4 ,m9d has always be5 able to fla% f pole to pole & to affect ^? at a di/ance1 because m9d & di/ance occupy two diff]5t planes4 ,! latt] is an e>? limitation4 ,z ! veil lifts a little1 ev5 on y\r side1 s y become consci\s t m9d has ^! p[]s2 b ! p[]s 7 always !re4 ,x m]ely means t y h come up ) y\r own m5tal capacities to "s small degree4 ,e4 ,k4 ,b4--,is !re any help "h = my con/ant problem3 ,:y %\ld "o's individual life be only n[ evolv+ 9 ,et]nity8 ,d y see :at ,i mean8 ,h4 ,d4--,yes2 b ,i h>dly "k ! answ] to t trem5d\s problem4 ,/ill1 ,i w try to sugge/ a few ?\ghts to y4 ,to be consci\s ( hol9ess & virtue we mu/ h kn[n its anti!sis--evil & sep>ation1 :i* are really synonym\s4 ,sep>ation f ,hol9ess is evil4 ,x is a condition1 a limitation4 ,x is to ! ,div9e ,ess5ce j su* a limitation z ,"t is to ! mortal4 ,sep>ation is !re=e ! antec$5t cause ( all limitations4 ,^! mu/ exi/ :]e ! ,:ol5ess or ,hol9ess is abs5t4 ,i mu/ use ! language ( e>? or y w\ld n und]/&4 ,logically1 ( c\rse1 ,hol9ess c nev] be abs5t1 s9ce x is ! cause ( all ,exi/5ce2 b x is app>5tly abs5t1 & ?is app>5t abs5ce1 ?is sep>ation1 ?is evil 9 fact1 acts z a spectroscope4 ,x analyses1 & ?us br+s into our consci\sness ! ,:ite ,ray ( ! ,div9e ,nature4 ,we c g no fur!r ?an t4 ,! ,div9e ,*emi/ry1 beyond ?is fact1 mu/ rema9 a my/]y1 probably = ages to come4 ,we _c tell :y ?+s are ?us arrang$2 we only "k t x is s4 ,z well ask :y ! ,:ite ,ray ( ,light gives out its col\rs only ?r\gh sep>at+ !m4 ,b x is easi] to speak ( ! co-ord9ation ( ev5ts4 ,take y\r own sugge/ion ( ! cube--t w help u be/4 ,take x t ea* life is a cube ( planes1 ( exp]i5ces4 ,^! exp]i5ces are co-exi/5t & knit toge!r1 z firmly 9 ! life ( a human be+ z ! _m planes are co-exi/+1 & knit toge!r 9 a ma!matical cube4 ,y c dissect ! cube & slice (f inf9itesimal small planes 9 sections4 ,s is ! individual life slic$ (f into an inf9ite numb] ( planes by ! sequ5ces ( ,"t 7our ?ree-dim5sional condition74 ,b ^! exp]i5ces--great or small1 important or trivial 7f y\r po9t ( view7--exi/ 9 ! cube ( t p]son's e>? pilgrimage1 z ! col\rs exi/ 9 ! ,:ite ,ray4 ,! ,ray may be split up into sequ5ce1 b ! col\rs belong to x all ! same1 & by a p]fectly see+ eye w\ld be kn[n & recognis$ )\t ! help ( ! spectroscope4 ,! true se] is ! "o :o sees ! cube ( y\r life2 be=e :om x is spread out1 )\t ,"t ,sep>ations1 into planes ( exp]i5ce4 ,?is is ! real secret ( all =etell+4 ,su* p1 :5 hone/1 h "s am\nt ( access to ! cube ( e>? life1 "s m1 "s less4 ,_m mix up & confuse :at !y see2 b !y d see beyond ! plane section :i* ,"t gives to ! normal human be+4 ,i ?9k y h tak5 en\gh n[4 ,i w only add t1 ( c\rse--z y "k--!re is no?+ arbitr>y 9 ! cube ( life1 z ,i h call$ x4 ,x is built up ( necess>y exp]i5ces & necess>y consequ5ces4 ,b x is built up by ,love & ,wisdom1 ! two ,elem5ts ( ! ,div9e ,nature1 9 :i* we live & move & h our be+4 ,h4 ,d4 ,,vi ,! next selection t ,i %all give f my automatic script comes f an entirely diff]5t p]sonality1 :i* c be suffici5tly indicat$ by ! initials ,e4 ,g4 ,e4 ,g4--,wor%ip is a necess>y "p ( ea* s\l's tra9+1 & we c only wor%ip t :i* we feel to be above & beyond ourselves4 ,z we gr[ old] & become m develop$ 9 spiritual consci\sness1 s d we t5d m & m to wor%ip ! inn] & intangible1 r ?an ! out] & manife/4 ,s :il/ ! in/9ct ( wor%ip is always ! same1 ! objects & me?ods mu/ cont9ually *ange ) our own advanc+ realisation & unfold+ consci\sness4 ,^? limitations :i* once made = rev]5ce are 9 "t f\nd to be cramp+ & to lead to sup]/ition4 ,x is ! same ) ! education ( ei!r *ildr5 or ( *ildi% nations4 ,9 bo? cases a display ( p[] is necess>y to comm& ob$i5ce1 because ! *ildi% m9d c only appreh5d f ! out]1 & realise ! exi/5ce ( t :i* x sees physically demon/rat$4 ,tell a *ild ( t5d] ye>s t to be naughty is to be unhappy1 & 9 n9ety-n9e cases out ( "o hundr$ he w nei!r und]/& nor believe y4 ,b take away 8 toys or 8 sweets or put him 9 a corn]2 make him1 9 fact1 physically aw>e ( ! tru? t to be naughty is to br+ unpleasant consequ5ces ^u himself1 & y h tak5 ! only argum5t :i* he is capable ( realis+ at a c]ta9 po9t ( consci\sness4 ,?is is :y c]ta9 nations1 at ! *ild po9t ( developm5t1 mu/ be treat$ z *ildr54 ,!y don't realise ! appeal to ! spiritual1 & w only misconceive y & y\r motives1 & read c[>dice 9 y\r attempt to treat f a /&po9t !y h n rea*$4 ,x is ! same ) c]ta9 religions1 & ?is is ! cause ( mu* failure 9 mission "w4 ,!osophy & ,roman ,ca?olicism appeal /rongly to comp>atively immature m9ds4 ,^? :o c>e m = =m ?an = ess5ce are always 9 ! immature /age4 ,!y love big words & my/]i\s say+s & do+s4 ,to h some?+ ap>t f o!rs--:e!r x be happ9ess or k--is _! idea ( bliss4 ,h5ce 9 mo/ !osophi/s1 z 9 all ,roman ,ca?olic conv]ts1 y f9d ?is note ( immaturity & monopoly4 ,i say conv]ts1 because ^? born 9 ! ,roman ,ca?olic fai? are on diff]5t gr\nd4 ,_! spiritual life may gr[ & develop 9 spite ( ! cre$ limitations into :i* ,fate has ca/ !m1 b ^? :o delib]ately *oose su* limitations give ! be/ possible pro( ( _! own /&po9t4 ,& ! same may be said also ( all /rict cre$ religions4 ,!y h _! great & valuable uses1 z prison b>s h _! uses 9 a community :i* has n le>nt to respect ! rights & prop]ty ( its neighb\rs4 ,)draw ^! b>s & y let loose ^u society a pe/il5tial crew ( murd]]s & m>aud]s4 ,relax ! b>s ( cre$ & y w f9d ! same result4 ,b z b>s are n necess>y = ! advanc$ s\ls :o recognise t to murd] or defraud _! fell[-creatures leads to _! own mis]y1 ap>t f any detection or puni%m5t1 s cre$s are n necess>y1 "u a correspond+ evolution ( ! spiritual in/9ct1 :i* tallies ) ! social & moral in/9cts not$ above4 ,& z treadmills & oakum pick+ c be dismiss$ 9 ! "o case1 s c mu* ( ! !ological ma*9]y = ! discipl9e & puni%m5t ( s9n]s aga9/ spiritual laws be disp5s$ )1 9 ! case ( ^? :o are1 spiritually speak+1 com+ ( age4 ,!y come !n into ! full lib]ty ( ,sons ( ,god1 & %all be no m treat$ z s]vants1 b z sons1 z ! ,apo/le puts x4 ,?is br+s me to my special subject4 ,!re are _m ?+s ( great & transc5d+ int]e/ :i* we are oblig$ to keep secret f our y\ng] *ildr51 p>tly because !y w\ld fail to und]/&1 b /ill m because !y w\ld misund]/&1 & ?is to _! own hurt & disadvantage2 n to speak ( possible injury to o!rs ?r\gh !m4 ,spiritual ,evolution is ! true ,doctr9e1 b x is n food = babes 9 spiritual life4 ,to h an unlimit$ s]ies ( advanc+ lives & advanc+ exp]i5ces unfold$ be=e _! eyes w\ld n only dismay & bewild]1 b w\ld also p>alyse _! en]gy = good1 & t]ribly augm5t _! capacity = evil--= ! n good4 ,until !y are suffici5tly v]s$ 9 spiritual exp]i5ce to realise ! diff]5ce betwe5 purity & impurity1 good & evil1 ,god & ! _w1 fame & peace1 pleasure & happ9ess1 ! peace :i* passes und]/&+ & ! false glam\r ( s5sual passion & s5su\s self-indulg5ce1 s long x is dang]\s = !m to "k1 ) absolute c]ta9ty1 ! real facts ( ! case4 ,ev5 ! t]rible & abhorr5t pictures ( an ,et]nal ,hell1 ( endless flames & ( undy+ worms1 h _h _! uses4 ,9 ?is =m alone c\ld ! ?or\ghly immature m9d be made to realise ! discom=t & mis]y t w\ld inevitably att5d wrong-do+4 ,x 0 a tru?1 al?\gh n a lit]al tru?4 ,_m lit]al tru?s convey a false impression to ! immature m9d1 :il/ a symbolic tru? may convey z true an impression z su* a m9d is capable ( receiv+4 ,! old ideas ( ,heav5 & ,hell are already doom$2 b o!r ideas1 equally untrue f ! lit]al po9t ( view1 /ill hold _! own1 & w be m sl[ly eradicat$4 ,x is well ?is %\ld be s4 ,! _w at l>ge is n prep>$ yet to take ?is fur!r /ep4 ,frequ5t exam9ations h be5 f\nd useful & inevitable 9 s*ool tra9+1 bo? z a te/ ( progress & /ill m z an enc\ragem5t4 ,if y tell a s*ool ( boys & girls 9 ,janu>y t a gr& exam9ation w be held ! foll[+ ,decemb]1 d y suppose !y w "w z well & z dilig5tly z if !y knew !re w be %ort exam9ations at ,ea/] & m important ones at midsumm]8 ,aga91 if y tell boys ( t5 ye>s old1 :o are le>n+ a little hi/ory1 geography1 & ari?metic1 j 9 ! ,rule ( ,?ree & simple fractions1 ) p]haps a little ,lat92 ( ! ,algebra & ,euclid & ,conic sections & high] ,ma!matics1 & ,lat9 & ,greek v]se & ,hebrew & ,philosophy1 :i* !y mu/ "s day confront1 y w puzzle & p>alyse _! bra9s1 & leave only a s5se ( mis]y & revolt & helplessness1 :i* w quickly %[ =? 9 reckless despair1 ev5 conc]n+ ! tasks :i* are well )9 _! pres5t capacity4 ,god1 9 ,8 ,inf9ite ,wisdom 7( :i* ours is ! feeble/ reflection71 acts 9 precisely ! same way z wise fa!rs & wise tea*]s4 ,y\r e>? is m or less ( an infant s*ool1 b be=e leav+ x1 "s ( y mu/ prep>e = ! high] classes & le>n to take y\r own spiritual responsibilities4 ,x is se5 t 9 ^! days ( reaction & readju/m5t1 _m m9ds are puzzl$ & p]plex$ by ! old doctr9es1 :i* !y h outgr[n1 & :i* 7 nev] m ?an ! out] husk & protection = ! inn] k]nel--! casket = ! jewel ( spiritual tru?4 ,! "o t]m ( probation--! "o *ance = progress--! imm$iate ,heav5 or ,hell--! ,great ,:ite ,?rone ( ,judgm5t1 in/ant & inevitable--all ^! correspond ) ! frequ5t exam9ations1 ) ! good & bad m>ks--! judg+ ( ! s*ool "w at ! end ( ea* t]m4 ,! only diff]5ce lies 9 ! fact t ! s*oolboy kn[s he has o!r t]ms 9 front ( him1 & we are all aw>e t ?is is a v un=tunate fact :]e an idle boy is conc]n$4 ,h[ (t5 y may he> !m say3 ,nev] m9d6 ,i'm a bit beh9d n[--b ,i h ?ree ye>s m--,i %all cat* up lat]4 ,& ?is is probably j :at !y fail to d2 = ) su* *>act]s x is always to-morr[ t is to see ! re=mation :i* s (t5 comes only :5 life has taught its h>d lessons to ! default]4 ,is x n app>5t1 !re=e1 t !re has be5 wisdom & goodness 9 our v !ological mi/akes & illusions8 ,! opposition to spirituali/ic tea*+s has its good & heal?y side4 ,x is really ! fi]ce antagonism ( ! undevelop$ nature t[>ds a tru? x dimly appreh5ds to be ahead ( its own developm5t2 &1 tiresome z x seems1 & is f "o po9t ( view1 x is ! be/ safegu>d = ! _w at l>ge4 ,unimag9able horrors w\ld come to pass ^u ! e>? 7 ,p[] z well z ,k put into ! h&s ( ! crude & undevelop$4 ,x w\ld be arm+ savages ) ,w9*e/] rifles & quick-fir+ guns4 ,nev] regret1 !re=e1 ?is opposition1 ev5 :il/ fight+ aga9/ x 9 individual cases4 ,bo? mu/ gr[ toge!r till ! ,h>ve/--! ,t>es & ,:eat1 ! ,crude & ! ,develop$--& ! =m] are ! enorm\s majority4 ,?is is ! reason :y all ,tru? mu/ be born into ea* _w ?r\gh a fight & an agony2 = x always comes z an advance ^u normal conditions1 no matt] 9 :i* sph]e x may be4 ,& x is ?r\gh ! /ruggle t ! ,victory comes & ! ,light is born4 ,let p je] & d]ide :5 !y he> ( a future life1 n s v diff]5t f y\r own2 ( h\ses & lectures & boats & horses1 ( pet animals1 & s =?4 ,^? :o je] & d]ide or talk ( blasphemy are /ill at ! or?odox /age1 :5 x is well = !m to "k only ( "o s*ool1 ( "o t]m1 ( "o *ance1 & ( an imm$iate & f9al judgm5t = ! de$s done on e>?4 ,o!rs are old en\gh 7spiritually speak+7 to "k ! tru? i4e4--t ,,god is 9 all1 ( an inf9ite s]ies ( sph]es1 ?r\gh :i* ea* travell+ s\l mu/ pass1 ga9+ ev] fre% light1 gr[+ ev] into fre% k & realisation ( ,div9e ,beauty & ,div9e ,love2 sph]es diff]+ little ext]nally f ! "o left beh9d1 b enorm\sly 9 ! capacities & qualities :i* by degrees ! s\l w unfold 9 ! ,cosmic ,j\rney4 ,! out] w become m & m ! result ( ! inn] condition2 = ! creative faculty1 sc>cely born ) y1 fl\ri%es 9 ! asc5d+ spiral4 ,d[n "h y are babes1 ) y\r clo!s made = y1 y\r bottles fill$ = y1 & dep5d5t on o!rs = ! conditions ( life1 b by degrees y w ent] on ! full responsibility & ! full joy & glory ( indep5d5t exi/5ce1 :i* yet w be unifi$--fir/ into ! life ( ! ,aff9ities--! ,true & complet$ ,be+--& !n into ! life ( t ,body ( ,*ri/1 ( :i* ,/ ,paul speaks 9 8 prophetic mom5ts1 :]e !re %all be nei!r ,greek nor ,jew1 ,b>b>ian1 ,scy?ian1 ,bond nor ,free1 b ,*ri/os1 ! glorifi$ & cr[n$ ,humanity1 %all be all 9 all--,,god ,,9 ,,man2 ! cop+-/one ( ! ,build+1 ^: f\ndations 7 laid z ,,man 7! ,image & ,lik5ess ( ,god7 ,,9 ,,god4