,,fantasia ,,( ,,! ,,unconsci\s by ,d4 ,h4 ,,lawr5ce ,new ,york ,?omas ,seltz] #aibb ,copyright1 #aibb1 by ,?omas ,seltz]1 ,inc4 ,,cont5ts ,,*apt] ,,=eword ,i4 ,,introduction ,,ii4 ,,! ,,holy ,,family ,,iii4 ,,plexuses1 ,,planes ,,& ,,s ,,on ,,iv4 ,,trees ,,& ,,babies ,,& ,,papas ,,& ,,mamas ,v4 ,,! ,,five ,,s5ses ,,vi4 ,,fir/ ,,glimm]+s ,,( ,,m9d ,,vii4 ,,fir/ ,,/eps ,,9 ,,education ,,viii4 ,,education ,,& ,,sex ,,9 ,,man1 ,,woman ,,& ,,*ild ,,ix4 ,,! ,,bir? ,,( ,,sex ,x4 ,,p>5t ,,love ,,xi4 ,,! ,,vici\s ,,circle ,,xii4 ,,litany ,,( ,,exhortations ,,xiii4 ,,cosmological ,,xiv4 ,,sleep ,,& ,,dreams ,,xv4 ,,! ,,l[] ,,self ,,epilogue ,,=eword ,! pres5t book is a cont9uation f ,psy*oanalysis & ! ,unconsci\s4 ,! g5]ality ( read]s _h bett] j leave x alone4 ,! g5]ality ( critics likewise4 ,i really don't want to conv9ce anybody4 ,x is q 9 opposition to my :ole nature4 ,i don't int5d my books = ! g5]ality ( read]s4 ,i c\nt x a mi/ake ( our mi/ak5 democracy1 t e man :o c read pr9t is all[$ to believe t he c read all t is pr9t$4 ,i c\nt x a mis=tune t s]i\s books are expos$ 9 ! public m>ket1 l slaves expos$ nak$ = sale4 ,b !re we are1 s9ce we live 9 an age ( mi/ak5 democracy1 we mu/ g ?r\gh ) x4 ,i w>n ! g5]ality ( read]s1 t ?is pres5t book w seem to !m only a r m revolt+ mass ( wordy nons5se ?an ! la/4 ,i w\ld w>n ! g5]ality ( critics to ?r[ x 9 ! wa/e pap] basket )\t m ado4 ,z = ! limit$ few1 9 :om "o mu/ p]=ce f9d an answ]]1 ,i may z well say /raight (f t ,i /ick to ! sol> plexus4 ,t /atem5t alone1 ,i hope1 w ?9 _! numb]s consid]ably4 ,f9ally1 to ! remnants ( a rema9d]1 9 ord] to apologize = ! sudd5 lur* into cosmology1 or cosmogony1 9 ?is book1 ,i wi% to say t ! :ole ?+ hangs inevitably toge!r4 ,i am n a sci5ti/4 ,i am an amateur ( amateurs4 ,z "o ( my critics said1 y ei!r believe or y don't4 ,i am n a prop] ar*aeologi/ nor an an?ropologi/ nor an e?nologi/4 ,i am no s*ol> ( any sort4 ,b ,i am v grateful to s*ol>s = _! s\nd "w4 ,i h f\nd h9ts1 sugge/ions = :at ,i say "h 9 all k9ds ( s*ol>ly books1 f ! ,yoga & ,plato & ,/4 ,john ! ,evangel & ! e>ly ,greek philosoph]s l ,h]akleitos d[n to ,fras] & 8 ,gold5 ,b\gh1 & ev5 ,freud & ,frob5ius4 ,ev5 !n ,i only rememb] h9ts--& ,i proce$ by intuition4 ,?is leaves y q free to dismiss ! :ole wordy mass ( revolt+ nons5se1 )\t a qualm4 ,only let me say1 t to my m9d !re is a great field ( sci5ce :i* is z yet q clos$ to u4 ,i ref] to ! sci5ce :i* proce$s 9 t]ms ( life & is e/abli%$ on data ( liv+ exp]i5ce & ( sure intuition4 ,call x subjective sci5ce if y l4 ,our objective sci5ce ( mod]n k conc]ns itself only ) ph5om5a1 & ) ph5om5a z reg>d$ 9 _! cause-&-effect relation%ip4 ,i h no?+ to say aga9/ our sci5ce4 ,x is p]fect z f> z x goes4 ,b to reg>d x z exhau/+ ! :ole scope ( human possibility 9 k seems to me j pu]ile4 ,our sci5ce is a sci5ce ( ! dead _w4 ,ev5 biology nev] consid]s life1 b only me*ani/ic function+ & app>atus ( life4 ,i hone/ly ?9k t ! great pagan _w ( :i* ,egypt & ,greece 7 ! la/ liv+ t]ms1 ! great pagan _w :i* prec$$ our own era once1 _h a va/ & p]haps p]fect sci5ce ( its own1 a sci5ce 9 t]ms ( life4 ,9 our era ?is sci5ce crumbl$ into magic & *>latanry4 ,b ev5 wisdom crumbles4 ,i believe t ?is great sci5ce previ\s to ours & q diff]5t 9 con/itution & nature f our sci5ce once 0 univ]sal1 e/abli%$ all ov] ! !n-exi/+ globe4 ,i believe x 0 esot]ic1 inve/$ 9 a l>ge prie/hood4 ,j z ma!matics & me*anics & physics are def9$ & exp\nd$ 9 ! same way 9 ! univ]sities ( ,*9a or ,bolivia or ,london or ,mosc[ to-day1 s1 x seems to me1 9 ! great _w previ\s to ours a great sci5ce & cosmology 7 taught esot]ically 9 all c\ntries ( ! globe1 ,asia1 ,polynesia1 ,am]ica1 ,atlantis & ,europe4 ,belt's sugge/ion ( ! geographical nature ( ?is previ\s _w seems to me mo/ int]e/+4 ,9 ! p]iod :i* geologi/s call ! ,glacial ,p]iod1 ! wat]s ( ! e>? mu/ h be5 ga!r$ up 9 a va/ body on ! high] places ( our globe1 va/ worlds ( ice4 ,& ! sea-b$s ( to-day mu/ h be5 comp>atively dry4 ,s t ! ,azores rose up m\nta9\s f ! pla9 ( ,atlantis1 :]e ! ,atlantic n[ wa%es1 & ! ,ea/] ,isles & ! ,m>quesas & ! re/ rose l(ty f ! m>vel\s great cont95t ( ! ,pacific4 ,9 t _w m5 liv$ & taught & knew1 & 7 9 "o complete correspond5ce ov] all ! e>?4 ,m5 w&]$ back & =? f ,atlantis to ! ,polynesian ,cont95t z m5 n[ sail f ,europe to ,am]ica4 ,! int]*ange 0 complete1 & k1 sci5ce 0 univ]sal ov] ! e>?1 cosmopolitan z x is to-day4 ,!n came ! melt+ ( ! glaci]s1 & ! _w flood4 ,! refugees f ! dr[n$ cont95ts fl$ to ! high places ( ,am]ica1 ,europe1 ,asia1 & ! ,pacific ,isles4 ,& "s deg5]at$ naturally into cave m51 neoli?ic & paleoli?ic creatures1 & "s reta9$ _! m>vel\s innate beauty & life-p]fection1 z ! ,s\? ,sea ,isl&]s1 & "s w&]$ savage 9 ,africa1 & "s1 l ,druids or ,etruscans or ,*aldeans or ,am]9dians or ,*9ese1 refus$ to =get1 b taught ! old wisdom1 only 9 its half-=gott51 symbolic =ms4 ,m or less =gott51 z k3 rememb]$ z ritual1 ge/ure1 & my?-/ory4 ,& s1 ! int5se pot5cy ( symbols is "p at lea/ memory4 ,& s x is t all ! great symbols & my?s :i* dom9ate ! _w :5 our hi/ory fir/ beg9s1 are v mu* ! same 9 e c\ntry & e p1 ! great my?s all relate to "o ano!r4 ,& s x is t ^! my?s n[ beg9 to hypnotize u aga91 our own impulse t[>ds our own sci5tific way ( und]/&+ be+ almo/ sp5t4 ,& s1 besides my?s1 we f9d ! same ma!matic figures1 cosmic graphs :i* rema9 among ! aborig9al peoples 9 all cont95ts1 my/ic figures & signs ^: true cosmic or sci5tific significance is lo/1 yet :i* cont9ue 9 use = purposes ( conjur+ or div9+4 ,if my read] f9ds ?is bo% & abracadabra1 all "r = him4 ,only ,i h no m reg>d = 8 little cr[+s on 8 own little dunghill4 ,myself1 ,i am n s sure t ,i am "o ( ! "o-&-onlies4 ,i l ! wide _w ( c5turies & va/ ages--mammo? worlds beyond our day1 & mank9d s wond]ful 9 8 di/ances1 8 hi/ory t has no beg9n+ yet always ! pomp & ! magnific5ce ( human spl5dor unfold+ ?r\gh ! e>?'s *ang+ p]iods4 ,floods & fire & convulsions & ice-arre/ int]v5e betwe5 ! great glamor\s civilizations ( mank9d4 ,b no?+ w ev] qu5* humanity & ! human pot5tiality to evolve some?+ magnific5t out ( a r5ew$ *aos4 ,i d n believe 9 evolution1 b 9 ! /rang5ess & ra9b[-*ange ( ev]-r5ew$ creative civilizations4 ,s mu*1 !n1 = my claim to rem>kable discov]ies4 ,i believe ,i am only try+ to /amm] out ! fir/ t]ms ( a =gott5 k4 ,b ,i h no desire to revive dead k+s1 or dead sages4 ,x is n = me to arrange fossils1 & deciph] hi]oglyphic phrases4 ,i c\ldn't d x if ,i want$ to4 ,b !n ,i c d some?+ else4 ,! s\l mu/ take ! h9t f ! relics our sci5ti/s h s m>vel\sly ga!r$ out ( ! =gott5 pa/1 & f ! h9t develop a new liv+ utt]ance4 ,! sp>k is f dead wisdom1 b ! fire is life4 ,& z an example--a v simple "o--( h[ a sci5ti/ ( ! mo/ innoc5t mod]n sort may h9t at tru?s :i*1 :5 /at$1 he w\ld laugh at z fanta/ic nons5se1 let u quote a ^w f ! already old-fa%ion$ ,gold5 ,b\gh4 ,x mu/ h appe>$ to ! anci5t ,aryan t ! sun 0 p]iodically recruit$ f ! fire :i* resid$ 9 ! sacr$ oak4 ,exactly4 ,! fire :i* resid$ 9 ! ,tree ( ,life4 ,t is1 life itself4 ,s we mu/ read3 ,x mu/ h appe>$ to ! anci5t ,aryan t ! sun 0 p]iodically recruit$ f life4--,:i* is :at ! e>ly ,greek philosoph]s 7 always say+4 ,& :i* /ill seems to me ! real tru?1 ! clue to ! cosmos4 ,in/ead ( life be+ drawn f ! sun1 x is ! emanation f life itself1 t is1 f all ! liv+ plants & creatures :i* n\ri% ! sun4 ,( c\rse1 my de> critic1 ! anci5t ,aryans 7 j dodd]+--! old duff]s3 or babbl+1 ! babes4 ,b z = me1 ,i h "s respect = my ance/ors1 & believe !y _h m up _! sleeve ?an j ! m>vel ( ! unborn me4 ,"o la/ we>y little ^w4 ,?is pseudo-philosophy ( m9e--pollyanalytics1 z "o ( my respect$ critics might say--is d$uc$ f ! novels & poems1 n ! rev]se4 ,! novels & poems come unwat*$ out ( "o's p54 ,& !n ! absolute ne$ :i* "o has = "s sort ( satisfactory m5tal attitude t[>ds oneself & ?+s 9 g5]al makes "o try to ab/ract "s def9ite conclusions f "o's exp]i5ces z a writ] & z a man4 ,! novels & poems are pure passionate exp]i5ce4 ,^! pollyanalytics are inf]5ces made aft]w>ds1 f ! exp]i5ce4 ,& f9ally1 x seems to me t ev5 art is utt]ly dep5d5t on philosophy3 or if y pref] x1 on a metaphysic4 ,! metaphysic or philosophy may n be any:]e v accurately /at$ & may be q unconsci\s1 9 ! arti/1 yet x is a metaphysic t gov]ns m5 at ! "t1 & is by all m5 m or less compreh5d$1 & liv$4 ,m5 live & see accord+ to "s gradually develop+ & gradually )]+ vision4 ,?is vision exi/s also z a dynamic idea or metaphysic--exi/s fir/ z su*4 ,!n x is unfold$ into life & art4 ,our vision1 our belief1 our metaphysic is we>+ woefully ?91 & ! art is we>+ absolutely ?readb>e4 ,we h no future2 nei!r = our hopes nor our aims nor our art4 ,x has all gone gray & opaque4 ,we've got to rip ! old veil ( a vision across1 & f9d :at ! he>t really believes 91 aft] all3 & :at ! he>t really wants1 = ! next future4 ,& we've got to put x d[n 9 t]ms ( belief & ( k4 ,& !n g =w>d aga91 to ! fulfillm5t 9 life & art4 ,rip ! veil ( ! old vision across1 & walk ?r\gh ! r5t4 ,& if ,i try to d ?is--well1 :y n8 ,if ,i try to write d[n :at ,i see--:y n8 ,if a publi%] likes to pr9t ! book--all "r4 ,& if anybody wants to read x1 let him4 ,b :y anybody %\ld read "o s+le ^w if he doesn't want to1 ,i don't see4 ,unless ( c\rse he is a critic :o ne$s to scribble a doll>'s wor? ( words1 no matt] h[4 ,,taorm9a ,octob] #h1 #aiba ,,fantasia ,,( ,,! ,,unconsci\s ,,*apt] ,i ,,introduction ,let u />t by mak+ a little apology to ,psy*oanalysis4 ,x wasn't fair to je] at ! psy*oanalytic unconsci\s2 or p]haps x 0 fair to je] at ! psy*oanalytic unconsci\s1 :i* is truly a negative quantity & an unpleasant m5ag]ie4 ,:at 0 really n fair 0 to je] at ,psy*oanalysis z if ,freud _h inv5t$ & describ$ no?+ b an unconsci\s1 9 all 8 !ory4 ,! unconsci\s is n1 ( c\rse1 ! clue to ! ,freudian !ory4 ,! real clue is sex4 ,a sexual motive is to be attribut$ to all human activity4 ,n[ ?is is go+ too f>4 ,we are b\nd to admit ?an an elem5t ( sex ent]s into all human activity4 ,b s does an elem5t ( gre$1 & ( _m o!r ?+s4 ,we are b\nd to admit t into all human relation%ips1 p>ticul>ly adult human relation%ips1 a l>ge elem5t ( sex ent]s4 ,we are ?ankful t ,freud has insi/$ on ?is4 ,we are ?ankful t ,freud pull$ u some:at to e>?1 out ( all our cl\ds ( sup]f95ess4 ,:at ,freud says is always p>tly true4 ,& half a loaf is bett] ?an no bread4 ,b really1 !re is ! o!r half ( ! loaf4 ,all is n sex4 ,& a sexual motive is n to be attribut$ to all human activities4 ,we "k x1 )\t ne$ to argue4 ,sex surely has a specific mean+4 ,sex means ! be+ divid$ into male & female2 & ! magnetic desire or impulse :i* puts male ap>t f female1 9 a negative or sund]+ magnetism1 b :i* also draws male & female toge!r 9 a long & inf9itely v>i$ approa* t[>ds ! critical act ( coition4 ,sex )\t ! consummat+ act ( coition is nev] q sex1 9 human relation%ips3 j z a eunu* is nev] q a man4 ,t is to say1 ! act ( coition is ! ess5tial clue to sex4 ,n[ does all life "w up to ! "o consummat+ act ( coition8 ,9 "o direction1 x does1 & x w\ld be bett] if psy*oanalysis pla9ly said s4 ,9 "o direction1 all life works up to ! "o supreme mom5t ( coition4 ,let u all admit x1 s9c]ely4 ,b we are n conf9$ to "o direction only1 or to "o exclusive consummation4 ,0 ! build+ ( ! ca!drals a work+ up t[>ds ! act ( coition8 ,0 ! dynamic impulse sexual8 ,no4 ,! sexual elem5t 0 pres5t1 & important4 ,b n pr$om9ant4 ,! same 9 ! build+ ( ! ,panama ,canal4 ,! sexual impulse1 9 its wide/ =m1 0 a v great impulse t[>ds ! build+ ( ! ,panama ,canal4 ,b !re 0 some?+ else1 ( ev5 high] importance1 & great] dynamic p[]4 ,& :at is ?is o!r1 great] impulse8 ,x is ! desire ( ! human male to build a _w3 n to build a _w = y1 de>2 b to build up out ( 8 own self & 8 own belief & 8 own ef=t some?+ wond]ful4 ,n m]ely some?+ useful4 ,some?+ wond]ful4 ,ev5 ! ,panama ,canal w\ld nev] h be5 built simply to let %ips ?r\gh4 ,x is ! pure dis9t]e/$ crav+ ( ! human male to make some?+ wond]ful1 out ( 8 own head & 8 own self1 & 8 own s\l's fai? & delight1 :i* />ts ev]y?+ go+4 ,?is is ! prime motivity4 ,& ! motivity ( sex is subsidi>y to ?is3 (t5 directly antagoni/ic4 ,t is1 ! ess5tially religi\s or creative motive is ! fir/ motive = all human activity4 ,! sexual motive comes second4 ,& !re is a great conflict betwe5 ! int]e/s ( ! two1 at all times4 ,:at we want to d1 is to trace ! creative or religi\s motive to its s\rce 9 ! human be+1 keep+ 9 m9d always ! ne> relation%ip betwe5 ! religi\s motive & ! sexual4 ,! two great impulses are l man & wife1 or fa!r & son4 ,x is no use putt+ "o "u ! feet ( ! o!r4 ,! great desire to-day is to d5y ! religi\s impulse altoge!r1 or else to ass]t its absolute ali5ity f ! sexual impulse4 ,! or?odox religi\s _w says faugh6 to sex4 ,:]eupon we ?ank ,freud = giv+ !m tit = tat4 ,b ! or?odox sci5tific _w says fie6 to ! religi\s impulse4 ,! sci5ti/ wants to discov] a cause = ev]y?+4 ,& !re is no cause = ! religi\s impulse4 ,freud is ) ! sci5ti/s4 ,jung dodges f 8 univ]sity g[n into a prie/'s surplice till we don't "k :]e we are4 ,we pref] ,freud's ,sex to ,jung's ,libido or ,b]gson's ,elan ,vital4 ,sex has at lea/ "s def9ite ref]5ce1 ?\gh :5 ,freud makes sex acc\ntable = ev]y?+ he z good z makes x acc\ntable = no?+4 ,we refuse any ,cause1 :e!r x be ,sex or ,libido or ,elan ,vital or e!r or unit ( =ce or p]petuum mobile or any?+ else4 ,b also we feel t we _c1 l ,moses1 p]i% on ! top ( our pres5t ideal ,pisgah1 or take ! next /ep into ?9 air4 ,!re we are1 at ! top ( our ,pisgah ( ideals1 cry+ ,excelsior & try+ to clamb] up into ! cl\ds3 t is1 if we are ideali/s ) ! religi\s impulse rampant 9 our brea/s4 ,if we are sci5ti/s we practice a]oplane fly+ or eug5ics or dis>mam5t or some?+ equally absurd4 ,! promis$ l&1 if x be any:]e1 lies away b5ea? our feet4 ,no m pranc+ upw>ds4 ,no m uplift4 ,no m little ,excelsiors cry+ _w-bro!rhood & int]national love & ,leagues ( ,nations4 ,idealism & mat]ialism am\nt to ! same ?+ on top ( ,pisgah1 & ! space is v cr[d$4 ,we're all corn]$ on our m\nta9 top1 climb+ up "o ano!r & /&+ on "o ano!r's faces 9 our scream ( ,excelsior4 ,to y\r t5ts1 ,o ,israel6 ,bre?r51 let u g d[n4 ,we w desc5d4 ,! way to our preci\s ,canaan lies obvi\sly d[nhill4 ,an end ( uplift4 ,d[nhill to ! l& ( milk & honey4 ,! blood w soon be fl[+ fa/] ?an ei!r1 b we c't help t4 ,we c't help x if ,canaan has blood 9 its ve9s1 in/ead ( pure milk & honey4 ,if x is a "q ( orig9s1 ! orig9 is always ! same1 :atev] we say ab\t x4 ,s is ! cause4 ,let t be a com=t to u4 ,if we want to talk ab\t ,god1 well1 we c please ourselves4 ,god has be5 talk$ ab\t q a lot1 & ,he doesn't seem to m9d4 ,:y we %\ld take x s p]sonally is a problem4 ,likewise if we wi% to h a tea p>ty ) ! atom1 let u3 or ) ! wriggl+ little unit ( en]gy1 or ! e!r1 or ! ,libido1 or ! ,elan ,vital1 or any o!r ,cause4 ,only don't let u h sex = tea4 ,we've all got too mu* ( x "u ! table2 & really1 = my "p1 ,i pref] to keep m9e !re1 no matt] :at ! ,freudians say ab\t me4 ,b x is tir+ to g to any m tea p>ties ) ! ,orig91 or ! ,cause1 or ev5 ! ,"l4 ,let u pron\nce ! my/ic ,om1 f ! pit ( ! /oma*1 & proce$4 ,!re's n a %ad[ ( d\bt ab\t x1 ! ,fir/ ,cause is j unkn[able to u1 & we'd be sorry if x wasn't4 ,:e!r x's ,god or ! ,atom4 ,all ,i say is ,om6 ,! fir/ bus9ess ( e fai? is to decl>e its ignorance4 ,i don't "k :]e ,i come f--nor :]e ,i exit to4 ,i don't "k ! orig9s ( life nor ! goal ( dea?4 ,i don't "k h[ ! two p>5t cells :i* are my biological orig9 became ! me :i* ,i am4 ,i don't 9 ! lea/ "k :at ^? two p>5t cells 74 ,! *emical analysis is j a f>ce1 & my fa!r & "m 7 j vehicles4 ,& yet1 ,i mu/ say1 s9ce ,i've got to "k ab\t ! two cells1 ,i'm glad ,i d "k4 ,! ,moses ( ,sci5ce & ! ,a>on ( ,idealism h got ! :ole bun* ( u "h on top ( ,pisgah4 ,x's a tight squeeze1 & we'll be fall+ v1 v f\l ( "o ano!r 9 five m9utes1 unless "s ( u climb d[n4 ,b be=e leav+ our em95ce let u h a look r\nd1 & get our be>+s4 ,!y say t way lies ! ,new ,j]usalem ( univ]sal love3 & ov] !re ! happy valley ( indulg5t ,pragmatism3 & !re1 q ne>1 is ! *irpy l& ( ! ,vitali/s3 & 9 ^? d>k groves ! home ( successful ,analysis1 surnam$ ,psy*o3 & ov] ^? blue hills ! ,sup]m5 are pranc+ ab\t1 ?\gh y c't see !m4 ,& !re is ,besan!im1 & !re is ,eddyh[e1 & !re1 on t que] little tablel&1 is ,wilsonia1 & j r\nd ! corn] is ,rab9drana?opolis4444 ,b ,"l1 ,i c't see any?+4 ,help me1 heav51 to a telescope1 = ,i see blank no?+4 ,i'm n go+ to try any m4 ,i'm go+ to sit d[n on my po/]ior & slu!r full spe$ d[n ?is ,pisgah1 ev5 if x co/ me my tr\s] seat4 ,s ho6--away we g4 ,9 ! beg9n+--!re nev] 0 any beg9n+1 b let x pass4 ,we've got to make a />t someh[4 ,9 ! v beg9n+ ( all ?+s1 "t & space & cosmos & be+1 9 ! beg9n+ ( all ^! 0 a little liv+ creature4 ,b ,i don't "k ev5 if x 0 little4 ,9 ! beg9n+ 0 a liv+ creature1 its plasm quiv]+ & its life-pulse ?robb+4 ,?is little creature di$1 z little creatures always d4 ,b n be=e x _h _h "y ones4 ,:5 ! daddy creature di$1 x fell to pieces4 ,& t 0 ! beg9n+ ( ! cosmos4 ,its little body fell d[n to a speck ( du/1 :i* ! "y ones clung to because !y mu/ cl+ to some?+4 ,its little brea? flew asund]1 ! hotness & brightness ( ! little bea/--,i beg y\r p>don1 ,i mean ! radiant en]gy f ! corpse flew away to ! "r h&1 & seem$ to %9e w>m 9 ! air1 :ile ! clammy en]gy f ! body flew away to ! left h&1 & seem$ d>k & cold4 ,& s1 ! fir/ little ma/] 0 dead & done =1 & in/ead ( 8 little liv+ body !re 0 a speck ( du/ 9 ! middle1 :i* became ! e>?1 & on ! "r h& 0 a brightness :i* became ! sun1 rampag+ ) all ! en]gy t _h come out ( ! dead little ma/]1 & on ! left h& a d>kness :i* felt l an unris5 moon4 ,& t 0 h[ ! ,"l creat$ ! _w4 ,except t ,i "k no?+ ab\t ! ,"l1 s ,i %\ldn't m5tion x4 ,b ,i =got ! s\l ( ! little ma/]4 ,x probably did a bit ( fly+ z well--& !n came back to ! "y ones4 ,x seems mo/ natural t way4 ,:i* is my acc\nt ( ! ,creation4 ,& ,i mean by x1 t ,life is n & nev] 0 any?+ b liv+ creatures4 ,t's :at life is & w be j liv+ creatures1 no matt] h[ l>ge y make ! capital ,l4 ,out ( liv+ creatures ! mat]ial cosmos 0 made3 out ( ! dea? ( liv+ creatures1 :5 _! little liv+ bodies fell dead & fell asund] into all sorts ( matt] & =ces & en]gies1 sun1 moons1 />s & worlds4 ,s y got ! univ]se4 ,:]e y got ! liv+ creature f1 t fir/ "o1 don't ask me4 ,he 0 j !re4 ,b he 0 a little p]son ) a s\l ( 8 own4 ,he wasn't ,life ) a capital ,l4 ,if y don't believe me1 !n don't4 ,i'll ev5 give y a little song to s+4 ,if x be n true to me ,:at c>e ,i h[ true x be 4 4 ,t's ! k9d ( man ,i really l1 *irp+ 8 ins\ciance4 ,& ,i *irp back3 ,?\gh x be n true to !e ,x's gay & gospel tru? to me4 4 4 ,! liv+ live1 & !n die4 ,!y pass away1 z we "k1 to du/ & to oxyg5 & nitrog5 & s on4 ,b :at we don't "k1 & :at we might p]haps "k a little m1 is h[ !y pass away direct into life itself--t is1 direct into ! liv+4 ,t is1 h[ _m dead s\ls fly ov] our untid9ess l swall[s & build "u ! eaves ( ! liv+4 ,h[ _m dead s\ls1 l swall[s1 twitt] & bre$ ?\ghts & in/9cts "u ! ?at* ( my hair & ! eaves ( my =ehead1 ,i don't "k4 ,b ,i believe a good _m4 ,& ,i hope !y h a good "t4 ,& ,i hope n too _m are bats4 ,i am sorry to say ,i believe 9 ! s\ls ( ! dead4 ,i am almo/ a%am$ to say1 t ,i believe ! s\ls ( ! dead 9 "s way re5t] & p]vade ! s\ls ( ! liv+3 s t life is always ! life ( liv+ creatures1 & dea? is always our affair4 ,?is bit1 ,i admit1 is bord]+ on my/icism4 ,i'm sorry1 because ,i don't l my/icism4 ,x has no tr\s]s & no tr\s]s seat3 n'a pas de quoi4 ,& ,i %\ld feel s uncom=table if ,i put my h& beh9d me & felt an absolute blank4 ,mean:ile a long1 ?91 br[n cat]pill> keeps on pret5d+ to be a dead ?9 bee*-twig1 on a little b\gh at my feet4 ,he _h got 8 h9d feet & 8 =e feet on ! twig1 & 8 body loop$ up l an ar* 9 ! air betwe51 :5 a fly walk$ up ! twig & began to m\nt ! ar* ( ! imitator1 n hav+ ! lea/ idea t x 0 on a g5tleman's coat-tails4 ,! cat]pill> %ook 8 /]n1 & ! fly made (f z if x _h se5 a gho/4 ,! dead twig & ! live twig n[ rema9 equally motionless1 enjoy+ _! diff]5t ways4 ,& :51 ) ?is v p5cil1 ,i pu% ! head ( ! cat]pill> (f f ! twig1 he rema9s on 8 tail1 ar*$ =w>d 9 air1 & oscillat+ unhappily1 l "s t9y p5dulum tick+4 ,tick+1 tick+ 9 mid-air1 ar*$ away f 8 plant$ tail4 ,till at la/1 aft] a long m9ute & a half1 he t\*es ! twig aga91 & subsides into twigg9ess4 ,! only ?+ is1 ! dead bee*-twig c't pret5d to be a wagg+ cat]pill>4 ,yet h[ ! two commune6 ,h[ev]--we h our exits & our entrances1 & "o man 9 8 "t plays _m p>ts4 ,m ?an he dreams (1 poor d>l+4 ,& ,i am entirely at a loss = a moral6 ,well1 !n1 we are born4 ,i suppose t's a safe /atem5t4 ,& we become at once consci\s1 if we w]5't s be=e4 ,nem con4 ,& our little baby body is a little function+ organism1 a little develop+ ma*9e or in/rum5t or organ1 & our little baby m9d beg9s to /ir ) all our wond]ful psy*ical beg9n+s4 ,& s we are 9 bud4 ,b x won't d4 ,x is too mu* ( a ,pisgah sight4 ,we ov]look too mu*4 ,desc5dez1 *] ,moise4 ,v\s voyez trop lo94 ,y see too f> all at once1 de> ,moses4 ,too mu* ( a bird's-eye view across ! ,promis$ ,l& to ! %ore4 ,come d[n1 & walk across1 old fell[4 ,& y won't see all t milk & honey & grapes ! size ( duck's eggs4 ,all ! de> little budd+ infant ) its t5d] virg9al m9d & v>i\s cl\ds ( glory in/ead ( a napk94 ,n at all1 my de> *ap4 ,no su* luck ( a promis$ l&4 ,climb d[n1 ,pisgah1 & g to ,j]i*o4 ,allons1 !re is no road yet1 b we are all ,a>ons ) rods ( our own4 ,,*apt] ,,ii ,,! ,,holy ,,family ,we are all v pleas$ ) ,mr4 ,e9/e9 = knock+ t et]nal axis out ( ! univ]se4 ,! univ]se isn't a sp9n+ :eel4 ,x is a cl\d ( bees fly+ & ve]+ r\nd4 ,?ank goodness = t1 = we 7 gett+ drunk on ! sp9n+ :eel4 ,s t n[ ! univ]se has escap$ f ! p9 :i* 0 pu%$ ?r\gh x1 l an impal$ fly va9ly buzz+3 n[ t ! multiple univ]se flies its own complicat$ c\rse q free1 & hasn't got any hub1 we c hope also to escape4 ,we won't be p9n$ d[n1 ei!r4 ,we h no "o law t gov]ns u4 ,= me !re is only "o law3 ,i am ,i4 ,& t isn't a law1 x's j a rem>k4 ,"o is "o1 b "o is n all alone4 ,!re are o!r />s buzz+ 9 ! c5t] ( _! own isolation4 ,& !re is no /raight pa? betwe5 !m4 ,!re is no /raight pa? betwe5 y & me1 de> read]1 s don't blame me if my words fly l du/ into y\r eyes & grit betwe5 y\r tee?1 in/ead ( l music into y\r e>s4 ,i am ,i1 b also y are y1 & we are 9 sad ne$ ( a !ory ( human relativity4 ,we ne$ x mu* m ?an ! univ]se does4 ,! />s "k h[ to pr[l r\nd "o ano!r )\t mu* damage done4 ,b y & ,i1 de> read]1 9 ! fir/ conviction t y are me & t ,i am y1 ow+ to ! on5ess ( mank9d1 :y1 we are always fall+ f\l ( "o ano!r1 & *ew+ ea* o!r's fur4 ,y are n me1 de> read]1 s make no pret5tions to x4 ,don't get al>m$ if ,i say ?+s4 ,x isn't y\r sacr$ m\? :i* is op5+ & %utt+4 ,z = ! pr(anation ( y\r sacr$ e>s1 j apply a little !ory ( relativity1 & realize t :at ,i say is n :at y he>1 b some?+ utt]$ 9 ! mid/ ( my isolation1 & arriv+ /rangely *ang$ & travel-worn d[n ! long curve ( y\r own individual circumambi5t atmosph]e4 ,i may say ,bob1 b heav5 alone kn[s :at ! goose he>s4 ,& y may be sure t a r$ rag is1 to a bull1 some?+ f> m my/]i\s & complicat$ ?an a sociali/'s necktie4 ,s ,i hope n[ ,i h put y 9 y\r place1 de> read]4 ,sit y l ,watts' ,hope on y\r own little blue globe1 & ,i'll sit on m9e1 & we won't bump into "o ano!r if we c help x4 ,y c twang y\r old hopeful lyre4 ,x may be music to y1 s ,i don't blame y4 ,x is a t]rible w[+ 9 my e>s4 ,b t may be some?+ 9 my individual atmosph]e2 "s /range deflection z y\r music crosses ! space betwe5 u4 ,c]ta9ly ,i nev] he> ! conc]t ( ,_w ,reg5]ation & ,hope ,reviv$ ,aga9 )\t gett+ a sort ( lock-jaw1 my tee? g s ke5 on edge f ! twang+ h>mony4 ,/ill1 ! _w-reg5]ators may really be q excell5t p]=m]s on _! own jews'-h>ps4 ,blame ! edg9ess ( my tee?4 ,n[ ,i am go+ to laun* words into space s m9d y\r cosmic eye4 ,z ,i said 9 my small b naturally immortal book1 ,psy*oanalysis & ! ,unconsci\s1 !re's m 9 x ?an meets ! eye4 ,!re's m 9 y1 de> read]1 ?an meets ! eye4 ,:at1 don't y believe x8 ,d y ?9k y're z obvi\s z a poa*$ egg on a piece ( toa/1 l ! poor lunatic8 ,n a bit ( x1 de> read]4 ,y've got a sol> plexus1 & a lumb> ganglion n f> f y\r liv]1 & ,i'm go+ to tell ev]ybody4 ,no?+ br+s a man home to himself l tell+ ev]ybody4 ,& ,i w drive y home to y\rself1 d y he>8 ,y've be5 poa*+ 9 my private atmosph]ic gr\nds long en\gh1 id5tify+ y\rself ) me & me ) ev]ybody4 ,a nice r[ !re'd be 9 heav5 if ,aldeb>an caught ,sirius by ! tail & said1 ,look "h1 y're n to look s gre51 y damm dog-/>6 ,x's an (f5se aga9/ />-regulations4 ,:i* rem9ds me t ! ,arabs say ! %oot+ />s1 meteorites1 are />ry /ones :i* ! angels fl+ at ! poa*+ demons :om !y cat* sight ( pr[l+ too ne> ! palisades ( heav54 ,i mu/ say ,i l ,arab angels4 ,my heav5 w\ld coruscate l a ca!r9e :eel1 ) :ite-hot />-/ones4 ,away1 y dog1 y pr[l+ cur4--,got him "u ! left e>-hole1 ,gabriel--6 ,see him1 see him1 ,mi*ael8 ,t hopeful blue devil6 ,l& him "o6 ,biff on y\r bottom1 y hop]4 ,b ,i wi% ! ,arabs w\ldn't entice me1 or y1 de> read]1 provoke me to ?is4 ,i feel ) y1 de> read]1 z ,i d ) a deaf-man :5 he pu%es 8 vulcanite e>1 8 li/5+ ma*9e1 t[>ds my m\?4 ,i want to %\t d[n ! telephone e>-hole all k9ds ( improp] ?+s1 to see :at effect !y w h on ! /upid de> face at ! end ( ! coil ( wire4 ,aft] all1 words mu/ be v diff]5t aft] !y've trickl$ r\nd & r\nd a long wire coil4 ,:atev] becomes ( !m6 ,& ,i1 :o am a bit deaf myself1 & may 9 ! end h a deaf-ma*9e to poke at my fri5ds1 x ill becomes me to be s unk9d1 yet t's h[ ,i feel4 ,s !re we are4 ,help me to be s]i\s1 de> read]4 ,9 t little book1 ,psy*oanalysis & ! ,unconsci\s1 ,i tri$ r wi/fully to conv9ce y1 de> read]1 t y _h a sol> plexus & a lumb> ganglion & a few o!r ?+s4 ,i don't "k :y ,i took ! tr\ble4 ,if a fell[ doesn't believe he's got a nose1 ! be/ way to conv9ce him is g5tly to waft a little pepp] into 8 no/rils4 ,& !re 0 ,i pa9t+ my own nose purple1 & wi/fully invit+ y to look & believe4 ,no m1 ?\gh4 ,y've got fir/ & =emo/ a sol> plexus1 de> read]2 & ! sol> plexus is a great n]ve c5t] :i* lies beh9d y\r /oma*4 ,i c't be accus$ ( impropriety or untru?1 because any book ( sci5ce or m$ic9e :i* deals ) ! n]ve-sy/em ( ! human body w %[ x to y q pla9ly4 ,s don't wriggle or try to look spiritual4 ,because1 willy-nilly1 y've got a sol> plexus1 de> read]1 among o!r ?+s4 ,i'm writ+ a good s\nd sci5ce book1 :i* !re's no ga9say+4 ,n[1 y\r sol> plexus1 mo/ g5tle ( read]s1 is :]e y are y4 ,x is y\r fir/ & greate/ & deepe/ c5t] ( consci\sness4 ,if y want to "k h[ consci\s & :5 consci\s1 ,i mu/ ref] y to t little book1 ,psy*oanalysis & ! ,unconsci\s4 ,at y\r sol> plexus y are prim>ily consci\s3 !re1 beh9d y /oma*4 ,!re y h ! pr(\nd & pri/9e consci\s aw>5ess t y are y4 ,don't say y hav5't4 ,i "k y h4 ,y might z well try to d5y ! nose on y\r face4 ,!re is y\r fir/ & deepe/ seat ( aw>5ess4 ,!re y are triumphantly aw>e ( y\r own individual exi/5ce 9 ! univ]se4 ,absolutely !re is ! keep & c5tral /ronghold ( y\r triumphantly-consci\s self4 ,!re y are1 & y "k x4 ,s /ick out y\r tummy gaily1 my de>1 ) a ,me voila4 ,) a ,"h ,i am6 ,) an ,ecco mi6 ,) a ,da b9 i*6 ,!re y are1 de>ie4 ,b n only a triumphant aw>5ess t ,!re y are4 ,an exultant aw>5ess also t outside ?is quiet gate1 ?is navel1 lies a :ole univ]se on :i* y c lay tribute4 ,aha--at bir? y clos$ ! c5tral gate = ev]4 ,too dang]\s to leave x op54 ,too ne> ! quick4 ,b !re are o!r gates4 ,!re are eyes & m\?s & e>s & no/rils1 besides ! two l[] gates ( ! passionate body1 & ! clos$ b n lock$ gates ( ! brea/s4 ,_m gates4 ,& besides ! actual gates1 ! m>vel\s wireless communication betwe5 ! great c5t] & ! surr\nd+ or contigu\s _w4 ,au?oriz$ sci5ce tells y t ?is fir/ great plexus1 ?is all-pot5t n]ve-c5t] ( consci\sness & dynamic life-activity is a sympa!tic c5t]4 ,f ! sol> plexus z f y\r ca/le-keep y look ar\nd & see ! fair l&s smil+1 ! corn & fruit & cattle ( y\r increase1 ! cottages ( y\r dep5d5ts & ! halls ( y\r belov$s4 ,f ! sol> plexus y "k t all ! _w is y\rs1 & all is goodly4 ,?is is ! great c5t]1 :]e 9 ! womb1 y\r life fir/ sp>kl$ 9 individuality4 ,?is is ! c5t] t drew ! ge/at+ mat]nal blood-/ream ^u y1 9 ! n9e-mon?s lurk+1 drew x on y = y\r increase4 ,?is is ! c5t] :5ce ! navel-/r+ broke1 b :]e ! invisible /r+ ( dynamic consci\sness1 l a d>k electric curr5t connect+ y ) ! re/ ( life1 w nev] break until y die & dep>t f corporate individuality4 ,!y say1 by ! way1 t doctors n[ p]=m a little op]ation on ! born baby1 s t no m navel %[s4 ,no m belly-buttons1 de> read]6 ,lucky ,i caught y ?is g5]ation1 be=e ! doctors _h sav$ y\r appe>ances4 ,yet1 c>o mio1 :e!r x %[s or n1 !re y once _h imm$iate connection ) ! mat]nal blood-/ream4 ,&1 because ! male nucleus :i* d]iv$ f ! fa!r /ill lies sp>kl+ & pot5t )9 ! sol> plexus1 !re=e t great n]ve-c5t] ( y1 /ill has imm$iate k ( y\r fa!r1 a subtl] b /ill vital connection4 ,we call x ! tie ( blood4 ,s be x4 ,x is a tie ( blood4 ,b mu* m def9ite ?an we imag9e4 ,= true x is t ! "o bright male g]m :i* w5t to y\r begett+ 0 drawn f ! blood ( ! fa!r4 ,& true x is t t same bright male g]m lies unqu5*$ & unqu5*able at ! c5t] ( y1 )9 ! fam\s sol> plexus4 ,& fur!rmore true is x t ?is unqu5*$ fa!r-sp>k )9 y s5ds =? vibrations & d>k curr5ts ( vital activity all ! "t2 connect+ direct ) y\r fa!r4 ,y w nev] be able to get away f x :ile y live4 ,! connection ) ! "m may be m obvi\s4 ,is !re n y\r o/5sible navel1 :]e ! rupture betwe5 y & h] took place8 ,b because ! "m-*ild relation is m plausible & flagrant1 is t any reason = suppos+ x deep]1 m vital1 m intr9sic8 ,n a bit4 ,because if ! l>ge p>5t "m-g]m /ill lives & acts vividly & my/]i\sly 9 ! great fus$ nucleus ( y\r sol> plexus1 does ! small]1 brilliant male-sp>k t d]iv$ f y\r fa!r act any less vividly8 ,by no means4 ,x is diff]5t--x is less o/5sible4 ,x may be ev5 9 magnitude small]4 ,b x may be ev5 m vivid1 ev5 m intr9sic4 ,s bew>e h[ y d5y ! fa!r-quick ( y\rself4 ,y may be d5y+ ! mo/ intr9sic quick ( all4 ,9 ! same way x foll[s t1 s9ce bro!rs & si/]s h ! same fa!r & "m1 !re=e 9 e bro!r & si/] !re is a direct communication su* z c nev] happ5 betwe5 /rang]s4 ,! p>5t nuclei d n die )9 ! new nucleus4 ,!y rema9 !re1 m>vel\s nak$ sp>kl+ dynamic life-c5t]s1 nodes1 well-heads ( vivid life itself4 ,!re=e 9 e individual ! p>5t nuclei live1 & give direction connection1 blood connection we call x1 ) ! re/ ( ! family4 ,x is blood connection4 ,= ! fecundat+ nuclei are ! v sp>k-ess5ce ( ! blood4 ,& :ile life lives ! p>5t nuclei ma9ta9 _! own c5trality & dynamic effectiv5ess )9 ! sol> plexus ( ! *ild4 ,s t e individual has "m & fa!r bo? sp>kl+ )9 himself4 ,b ?is is r a prelim9>y tru? ?an an intr9sic tru?4 ,! intr9sic tru? ( e individual is ! new unit ( unique individuality :i* emanates f ! fusion ( ! p>5t nuclei4 ,?is is ! incalculable & intangible ,holy ,gho/ ea* "t--ea* individual 8 own ,holy ,gho/4 ,:51 at ! mom5t ( conception1 ! two p>5t nuclei fuse to =m a new unit ( life1 !n takes place ! great my/]y ( creation4 ,a new individual appe>s--n ! result ( ! fusion m]ely4 ,some?+ m4 ,! quality ( individuality _c be d]iv$4 ,! new individual1 9 8 s+l5ess ( self1 is a p]fectly new :ole4 ,he is n a p]mutation & comb9ation ( old elem5ts1 transf]r$ ?r\gh ! p>5ts4 ,no1 he is some?+ und]iv$ & utt]ly unprec$5t$1 unique1 a new s\l4 ,?is quality ( pure individuality is1 h[ev]1 only ! "o supreme quality4 ,x consummates all o!r qualities1 b does n consume !m4 ,all ! o!rs are !re1 all ! "t4 ,& only at 8 maximum does an individual surpass all 8 d]ivative elem5ts1 & become purely himself4 ,& mo/ p nev] get !re4 ,9 8 own pure individuality a man surpasses 8 fa!r & "m1 & is utt]ly unkn[n to !m4 ,woman1 :at h ,i to d ) !e8 ,b ?is does n alt] ! fact t )9 him lives ! "m-quick & ! fa!r-quick1 & t ?\gh 9 8 :ol5ess he is rapt away beyond ! old "m-fa!r connections1 !y are /ill !re )9 him1 consummat$ b n consum$4 ,nor does x alt] ! fact t v few p surpass _! p>5ts n[adays1 & atta9 any individuality beyond !m4 ,mo/ m5 are half-born slaves3 ! little s\l !y are born ) j atrophies1 & m]ely ! organism emanates1 ! new self1 ! new s\l1 ! new swells into manhood1 l big potatoes4 ,s !re we are4 ,b consid]+ man at 8 be/1 he is at ! />t fac$ ) ! great problem4 ,at ! v />t he has to und]take 8 trip>tite be+1 ! "m )9 him1 ! fa!r )9 him1 & ! ,holy ,gho/1 ! self :i* he is suppos$ to consummate1 & :i* mo/ly he doesn't4 ,& !re x is1 a h>d physiological fact4 ,at ! mom5t ( our conception1 ! fa!r nucleus fuses ) ! "m nucleus1 & ! wond] emanates1 ! new self1 ! new s\l1 ! new individual cell4 ,b 9 ! new individual cell ! fa!r-g]m & ! "m-g]m d n rel9qui% _! id5tity4 ,!re !y rema9 /ill1 incorporat$ & nev] ext+ui%$4 ,& s1 ! blood-/ream ( race is "o /ream1 = ev]4 ,b ! mom5t ! my/]y ( pure individual newness ceas$ to be enact$ & fulfill$1 ! blood-/ream w\ld dry up & be f9i%$4 ,mank9d w\ld die out4 ,let u g back !n to ! sol> plexus4 ,!re sp>kle ! includ$ "m-g]m & fa!r-g]m1 giv+ u direct1 imm$iate blood-bonds1 family connection4 ,! connection is z direct & z subtle z betwe5 ! ,m>coni /ations1 two great wireless /ations4 ,a family1 if y l1 is a gr\p ( wireless /ations1 all adju/$ to ! same1 or v mu* ! same vibration4 ,all ! "t !y quiv] ) ! int]*ange1 !re is "o long endless fl[ ( vitali/ic communication betwe5 memb]s ( "o family1 a long1 /range rapport1 a sort ( life-unison4 ,x is a ripple ( life ?r\gh _m bodies z ?r\gh "o body4 ,b all ! "t !re is ! jolt1 ! rupture ( individualism1 ! individual ass]t+ himself beyond all ties or claims4 ,! highe/ goal = e man is ! goal ( pure individual be+4 ,b x is a goal y _c rea* by ! m]e rupture ( all ties4 ,a *ild isn't born by be+ torn f ! womb4 ,:5 x is born by natural process t is rupture en\gh4 ,b ev5 !n ! ties are n brok54 ,!y are only subtiliz$4 ,f ! sol> plexus fir/ ( all pass ! great vitali/ic communications betwe5 *ild & p>5ts1 ! fir/ int]play ( primal1 pre-m5tal k & sympa?y4 ,x is a great subtle int]play1 & f ?is int]play ! *ild is built up1 body & psy*e4 ,impell$ f ! primal consci\s c5t] 9 ! abdom51 ! *ild seeks ! "m1 seeks ! brea/1 op5s a bl9d m\? & gropes = ! nipple4 ,n m5tally direct$ & yet c]ta9ly direct$4 ,direct$ f ! d>k pre-m9d c5t] ( ! sol> plexus4 ,f ?is c5t] ! *ild seeks1 ! "m kn[s4 ,h5ce ! true m9dlessness ( ! pri/9e1 heal?y "m4 ,%e does n ne$ to ?9k1 m5tally to "k4 ,%e kn[s s pr(\ndly & actively at ! great abdom9al life-c5t]4 ,b if ! *ild ?us seeks ! "m1 does x !n "k ! "m alone8 ,to an infant ! "m is ! :ole univ]se4 ,yet ! *ild ne$s m ?an ! "m4 ,x ne$s z well ! pres5ce ( m51 ! vibration f ! pres5t body ( ! man4 ,!re may n be any actual1 palpable connection4 ,b f ! great volunt>y c5t] 9 ! man pass unkn[able communications & unreliable n\ri%m5t ( ! /ream ( manly blood1 rays :i* we _c see1 & :i* s f> we h refus$ to "k1 b none ! less ess5tial1 quick5+ d>k rays :i* pass f ! great d>k abdom9al life-c5t] 9 ! fa!r to ! correspond+ c5t] 9 ! *ild4 ,& ^! rays1 ^! vibrations1 are n l ! "m-vibrations4 ,f>1 f> f x4 ,!y d n ne$ ! actual contact1 ! h&l+ & ! c>ess+4 ,on ! contr>y1 ! true male in/9ct is to avoid physical contact ) a baby4 ,x may n ne$ ev5 actual pres5ce4 ,b pres5t or abs5t1 !re %\ld be betwe5 ! baby & ! fa!r t /range1 intangible communication1 t /range pull & circuit su* z ! magnetic pole ex]cises ^u a ne$le1 a vitali/ic pull & fl[ :i* lays all ! life-plasm ( ! baby into ! l9e ( vital quick5+1 /r5g?1 kn[+4 ,& any lack ( ?is vital circuit1 ?is vital int]*ange betwe5 fa!r & *ild1 man & *ild1 means an inevitable impov]i%m5t to ! infant4 ,! *ild exi/s 9 ! int]play ( two great life-waves1 ! womanly & ! male4 ,9 appe>ance1 ! "m is ev]y?+4 ,9 tru?1 ! fa!r has actively v little "p4 ,x does n matt] mu* if he h>dly sees 8 *ild4 ,yet see x he %\ld1 sometimes1 & t\* x sometimes1 & r5ew ) x ! connection1 ! life-circuit1 n all[ x to lapse1 & s vitally />ve 8 *ild4 ,b rememb]1 de> read]1 please1 t !re is n ! slighte/ ne$ = y to believe me1 or ev5 read me4 ,rememb]1 x's j y\r own affair4 ,don't implicate me4 ,,*apt] ,,iii ,,plexuses1 ,,planes ,,& ,,s ,,on ,! primal consci\sness 9 man is pre-m5tal1 & has no?+ to d ) cognition4 ,x is ! same z 9 ! animals4 ,& ?is pre-m5tal consci\sness rema9s z long z we live ! p[]ful root & body ( our consci\sness4 ,! m9d is b ! la/ fl[]1 ! cul de sac4 ,! fir/ seat ( our primal consci\snesses ! sol> plexus1 ! great n]ve-c5t] situat$ beh9d ! /oma*4 ,f ?is c5t] we are fir/ dynamically consci\s4 ,= ! primal consci\sness is always dynamic1 & nev]1 l m5tal consci\sness1 /atic4 ,?\ght1 let u say :at we w ab\t its magic p[]s1 is in/rum5tal only1 ! s\l's f9e/ in/rum5t = ! bus9ess ( liv+4 ,?\ght is j a means to action & liv+4 ,b life & action take rise actually at ! great c5t]s ( dynamic consci\sness4 ,! sol> plexus1 ! greate/ & mo/ important c5t] ( our dynamic consci\sness1 is a sympa!tic c5t]4 ,at ?is ma9 c5t] ( y\r fir/-m9d we "k z we c nev] m5tally "k4 ,prim>ily we "k1 ea* man1 ea* liv+ creature kn[s1 pr(\ndly & satisfactorily & )\t "q1 t ,i am ,i4 ,?is root ( all k & be+ is e/abli%$ 9 ! sol> plexus2 x is dynamic1 pre-m5tal k1 su* z _c be transf]r$ into ?\ght4 ,d n ask me to transf] ! pre-m5tal dynamic k into ?\ght4 ,x _c be done4 ,! k t ,i am ,i c nev] be ?\ght3 only kn[n4 ,?is be+ ! v fir/ t]m ( our life-k1 a k e/abli%$ physically & psy*ically ! mom5t ! two p>5t nuclei fus$1 at ! mom5t ( ! conception1 x rema9s integral z a piece ( k 9 e subsequ5t nucleus d]iv$ f ?is "o orig9al4 ,b yet ! orig9al nucleus1 =m$ f ! two p>5t nuclei at our conception1 rema9s always primal & c5tral1 & is always ! orig9al f\nt & home ( ! fir/ & supreme k t ,i am ,i4 ,?is orig9al nucleus is embodi$ 9 ! sol> plexus4 ,b ! orig9al nucleus divides4 ,! fir/ division1 z sci5ce kn[s1 is a division ( recoil4 ,f ! p]fect one+ ( ! two p>5t nuclei 9 ! egg-cell results a recoil or new ass]tion4 ,t :i* 0 p]fect "o n[ divides aga91 & 9 ! recoil becomes aga9 two4 ,?is second nucleus1 ! nucleus born ( recoil1 is ! nucle> orig9 ( all ! great nuclei ( ! volunt>y sy/em1 :i* are ! nuclei ( ass]tive individualism4 ,& x rema9s c5tral 9 ! adult human body z x 0 9 ! egg-cell4 ,9 ! adult human body ! fir/ nucleus ( indep5d5ce1 fir/-born f ! great orig9al nucleus ( our conception1 lies always e/abli%$ 9 ! lumb> ganglion4 ,"h we h our positive c5t] ( indep5d5ce1 9 a multif>i\s univ]se4 ,at ! sol> plexus1 ! dynamic k is ?is1 t ,i am ,i4 ,! sol> plexus is ! c5t] ( all ! sympa!tic sy/em4 ,! great prime k is sympa!tic 9 nature4 ,i am ,i1 9 vital c5trality4 ,i am ,i1 ! vital c5t] ( all ?+s4 ,i am ,i1 ! clew to ! :ole4 ,all is "o ) me4 ,x is ! "o id5tity4 ,b at ! lumb> ganglion1 :i* is ! c5t] ( sep>ate id5tity1 ! k is ( a diff]5t mode1 ?\gh ! t]m is ! same4 ,at ! lumb> ganglion ,i "k t ,i am ,i1 9 di/9ction f a :ole univ]se1 :i* is n z ,i am4 ,?is is ! fir/ trem5d\s fla% ( k ( s+l5ess & sep>ate id5tity4 ,i am ,i1 n because ,i am at "o ) all ! univ]se1 b because ,i am o!r ?an all ! univ]se4 ,x is my di/9ction f all ! re/ ( ?+s :i* makes me myself4 ,because ,i am set utt]ly ap>t & di/+ui%$ f all t is ! re/ ( ! univ]se1 !re=e ,i am ,i4 ,& ?is root ( our k 9 sep>at5ess lies root$ all ! "t 9 ! lumb> ganglion4 ,x is ! second t]m ( our dynamic psy*ic exi/5ce4 ,x is f ! great sympa!tic c5t] ( ! sol> plexus t ! *ild rejoices 9 ! "m & 9 its own blissful c5trality1 its unison ) ! z yet unkn[n univ]se4 ,look at ! pictures ( ,madonna & ,*ild1 & y w ev5 see x4 ,x is f ?is c5t] t x draws all ?+s unto itself1 w9n+ly1 draw+ love = ! s\l1 & actively draw+ 9 milk4 ,! same c5t] controls ! great intake ( love & ( milk1 ( psy*ic & ( physical n\ri%m5t4 ,& x is f ! great volunt>y c5t] ( ! lumb> ganglion t ! *ild ass]ts its di/9ction f ! "m1 ! s+le id5tity ( its own exi/5ce1 & its p[] ov] its surr\nd+s4 ,f ?is c5t] issues ! viol5t little pride & lu/9ess :i* kicks ) glee1 or cr[s ) t9y exultance 9 its own be+1 or :i* claws ! brea/ ) a savage little rapacity1 & an incipi5t ma/]fulness ( :i* e "m is aw>e4 ,?is incipi5t ma/]y1 ?is %e] joy ( a "y ?+ 9 its own s+le exi/5ce1 ! m>vel\s playfulness ( e>ly y\?1 & ! rogui% mock]y ( ! "m's love1 z well z ! bur/s ( temp] & rage1 all belong to infancy4 ,& all ?is fla%es spontane\sly1 mu/ fla% spontane\sly f ! fir/ great c5t] ( indep5d5ce1 ! p[]ful lumb> ganglion1 great dynamic c5t] ( all ! volunt>y sy/em1 ( all ! _s ( pride & joy 9 indep5d5t exi/5ce4 ,& x is f ?is c5t] too t ! milk is urg$ away d[n ! infant b[els1 urg$ away t[>ds excretion4 ,! motion is ! same1 b "h x applies to ! mat]ial1 n to ! vital relation4 ,x is f ! lumb> ganglion t ! dynamic vibrations are emitt$ :i* ?rill f ! /oma* & b[els1 & promote ! excrem5tal function ( dige/ion4 ,x is ! sol> plexus :i* controls ! assimilatory function 9 dige/ion4 ,s1 9 ! fir/ division ( ! egg-cell is set up ! fir/ plane ( psy*ic & physical life1 rema9+ radically ! same ?r\gh\t ! :ole exi/5ce ( ! individual4 ,! two orig9al nuclei ( ! egg-cell rema9 ! same two orig9al nuclei )9 ! corpus ( ! adult individual4 ,_! psy*ic & _! physical dynamic is ! same 9 ! sol> plexus & lumb> ganglion z 9 ! two nuclei ( ! egg-cell4 ,! fir/ great division 9 ! egg rema9s always ! same1 ! un*ang+ great division 9 ! psy*ic & ! physical /ructure2 ! un*ang+ great division 9 k & function4 ,x is a division into pol>iz$ duality1 psy*ical & physical1 ( ! human be+4 ,x is ! great v]tical division ( ! egg-cell1 & ( ! nature ( man4 ,!n1 ?is division hav+ tak5 place1 !re is a new ?rill ( conjunction or collision betwe5 ! divid$ nuclei1 & at once ! second bir? takes place4 ,! two nuclei n[ split horizontally4 ,!re is a horizontal division across ! :ole egg-cell1 & ! nuclei are n[ f\r1 two above1 & two bel[4 ,b ^? bel[ reta9 _! orig9al nature1 ^? above are new 9 nature4 ,& ^? above correspond aga9 to ^? bel[4 ,9 ! develop$ *ild1 ! great horizontal division ( ! egg-cell1 result+ 9 f\r nuclei1 ?is rema9s ! same4 ,! horizontal division-wall is ! diaphragm4 ,! two upp] nuclei are ! two great n]ve-c5t]s1 ! c>diac plexus & ! ?oracic ganglion4 ,we h aga9 a sympa!tic c5t] primal 9 activity & k1 & a correspond+ volunt>y c5t]4 ,9 ! c5t] ( ! brea/1 ! c>diac plexus acts z ! great sympa!tic mode ( new dynamic activity1 new dynamic consci\sness4 ,& ne> ! sp9e1 by ! wall ( ! %\ld]s1 ! ?oracic ganglion acts z ! p[]ful volunt>y c5t] ( sep>at5ess & p[]1 9 ! same v]tical l9e z ! lumb> ganglion1 b horizontally s diff]5t4 ,n[ we mu/ *ange our :ole feel+4 ,we mu/ put (f ! deep way ( und]/&+ :i* belongs to ! l[] body ( our nature1 & transf] ourselves into ! upp] plane1 :]e be+ & function+ are diff]5t4 ,at ! c>diac plexus1 !re 9 ! c5t] ( ! brea/1 we h n[ a new great sun ( k & be+4 ,"h !re is no m ( self4 ,"h !re is no long] ! d>k1 exultant k t ,i am ,i4 ,a *ange has come4 ,"h ,i "k no m ( myself4 ,"h ,i am n4 ,"h ,i only "k ! delightful revelation t y are y4 ,! wond] is no long] )9 me1 my own d>k1 c5trifugal1 exultant self4 ,! wond] is )\t me4 ,! wond] is outside me4 ,& ,i c no long] exult & "k myself ! d>k1 c5tral sun ( ! univ]se4 ,n[ ,i look ) wond]1 ) t5d]ness1 ) joyful ye>n+ t[>ds t :i* is outside me1 beyond me1 n me4 ,behold1 t :i* 0 once negative has n[ become ! only positive4 ,! o!r be+ is n[ ! great positive reality1 ,i myself am z no?+4 ,positivity has *ang$ places4 ,if we want to see ! portray$ look1 !n we mu/ turn to ! ,nor?1 to ! fair1 wond]+1 blue-ey$ infants ( ! ,nor!rn ma/]s4 ,!y seem s frail1 s innoc5t & wond]+1 t\*+ outw>ds to ! my/]y4 ,!y are n ! same z ! ,s\!rn *ild1 nor ! opposite4 ,_! :ole life my/]y is diff]5t4 ,in/ead ( consummat+ all ?+s )9 !mselves1 z ! d>k little ,s\!rn infants d1 ! ,nor!rn ,jesus-*ildr5 rea* out delicate little h&s ( wond]+ innoc5ce t[>ds delicate1 fl[]-rev]5tial mo!rs4 ,comp>e a ,botticelli ,madonna1 ) all h] w\nd$ & abnegat+ s5suality1 ) a ,hans ,meml+ ,madonna1 ^: s\l is pure & only rev]5tial4 ,beyond me is ! my/]y & ! glory1 says ! ,nor!rn "m3 let me h no self1 let me only seek t :i* is all-pure1 all-wond]ful4 ,b ! ,s\!rn "m says3 ,?is is m9e1 ?is is m9e1 ?is is my *ild1 my wond]1 my ma/]1 my "l1 my sc\rge1 my own4 ,f ! c>diac plexus ! *ild goes =? 9 bliss4 ,x seeks ! revelation ( ! unkn[n4 ,x wond]+ly seeks ! "m4 ,x op5s its small h&s & spreads its small f+]s to t\* h]4 ,& bliss1 bliss1 bliss1 x meets ! wond] 9 mid-air & 9 mid-space x f9ds ! lovel9ess ( ! "m's face4 ,x op5s & %uts its little f+]s ) bliss1 x laughs ! wond]ful1 selfless laugh ( pure baby-bliss1 9 ! fir/ ec/asy ( f9d+ all its treasure1 grop+ ^u x & f9d+ x 9 ! d>k4 ,x op5s wide1 *ild-wide eyes to see1 to see4 ,b x _c see4 ,x is puzzl$1 x wr9kles its face4 ,b :5 ! "m puts h] face q ne>1 & laughs & coos1 !n ! baby trembles ) an ec/asy ( love4 ,! glam\r1 ! wond]1 ! treasure beyond4 ,! great uplift ( rapture4 ,all ?is surges f t fir/ c5t] ( ! brea/1 ! sun ( ! brea/1 ! c>diac plexus4 ,& f ! same c5t] acts ! great function ( ! he>t & brea?4 ,ah1 ! aspiration1 ! aspiration1 l a hope1 l a ye>n+ con/ant & unfail+ ) :i* we take 9 brea?4 ,:5 we brea!1 :5 we take 9 brea?1 x is n z :5 we take 9 food4 ,:5 we brea! 9 we aspire1 we ye>n t[>ds ! heav5 ( air & light4 ,& :5 ! he>t dilates to draw 9 ! /ream ( d>k blood1 x op5s its arms z to a belov$4 ,x dilates ) rev]5t joy1 z a ho/ op5+ 8 doors to an honor$ gue/1 :om he delights to s]ve3 op5+ 8 doors to ! wond] :i* comes to him f beyond1 & )\t :i* he 7 no?+4 ,s x is t our he>t dilates1 our lungs exp&4 ,!y are bidd5 by t great & my/]i\s impulse f ! c>diac plexus1 :i* bids !m seek ! my/]y & ! fulfillm5t ( ! beyond4 ,!y seek ! beyond1 ! air ( ! sky1 ! hot blood f ! d>k "u-_w4 ,& s we live4 ,& !n1 !y relax1 !y contract4 ,!y are driv5 by ! opposite motion f ! p[]ful volunt>y c5t] ( ! ?oracic ganglion44 ,t :i* 0 drawn 91 0 invit$1 is n[ rel9qui%$1 all[$ to g =?1 negatively4 ,n positively dismiss$1 b rel9qui%$4 ,!re is a wond]ful complem5t>y duality betwe5 ! volunt>y & ! sympa!tic activity on ! same plane4 ,b betwe5 ! two planes1 upp] & l[]1 !re is a fur!r dualism1 /ill m />tl+1 p]haps4 ,betwe5 ! d>k1 gl[+ fir/ t]m ( k at ! sol> plexus3 ,i am ,i1 all is "o 9 me2 & ! fir/ t]m ( volitional k3 ,i am myself1 & ^! o!rs are n z ,i am2--!re is a _w ( diff]5ce4 ,b :5 ! _w *anges aga91 & on ! upp] plane we realize ! wond] ( o!r ?+s1 ! diff]5ce is almo/ %att]+4 ,! ?oracic ganglion is a ganglion ( p[]4 ,:5 ! *ild 9 its delicate bliss seeks ! "m & f9ds h] & is add$ on to h]1 !n x fulfills itself 9 ! great upp] sympa!tic mode4 ,b !n x rel9qui%es h]4 ,x ceases to be aw>e ( h]4 ,& if %e tries to =ce its love to play ^u h] aga91 l light reveal+ h] to h]self1 !n ! *ild turns away4 ,or x w lie1 & look at h] ) ! /range1 odd1 curi\s look ( k1 l a little imp :o is spy+ h] out4 ,?is is ! curi\s look t _m mo!rs _c be>4 ,involunt>ily x ar\ses a sort ( hate 9 !m--! look ( scrut9iz+ curiosity1 ap>t1 & z x 7 /udy+1 balanc+ !m up4 ,yet x is a look :i* comes into e *ild's eyes4 ,x is ! reaction ( ! great volunt>y plexus betwe5 ! %\ld]s4 ,! "m is sudd5ly set ap>t1 z an object ( curiosity1 coldly1 sometimes dreamily1 sometimes puzzl$1 sometimes mock+ly obs]v$4 ,aga91 if a "m neglect h] *ild1 x cries1 x weeps = h] love & att5tion4 ,its pitiful lam5t is "o ( ! =ms ( compulsion f ! upp] c5t]4 ,?is insi/5ce on pity1 on love1 is q diff]5t f ! rage\s weep+1 :i* is compulsion f ! l[] c5t]1 bel[ ! diaphragm4 ,aga91 "s *ildr5 j drop ev]y?+ !y c lay h&s on ov] ! edge ( _! crib1 or _! table4 ,!y drop ev]y?+ out ( sight4 ,& !n !y look up ) a curi\s look ( negative triumph4 ,?is is aga9 a =m ( recoil f ! upp] c5t]1 ! oblit]ation ( ! ?+ :i* is outside4 ,& "h a *ild is act+ q diff]5tly f ! *ild :o joy\sly sma%es4 ,! desire to sma% comes f ! l[] c5t]s4 ,we c q well recognize ! w ex]t$ f ! l[] c5t]4 ,we call x head/rong temp] & ma/]fulness4 ,b ! peculi> w ( ! upp] c5t]--! sort ( n]v\s1 critical objectivity1 ! delib]ate =c+ ( sympa?y1 ! play ^u pity & t5d]ness1 ! pla9tive bully+ ( love1 or ! b5evol5t bully+ ( love--^! we don't c>e to recognize4 ,!y are ! extravagance ( spiritual w4 ,b 9 its true h>mony ! ?oracic ganglion is a c5t] ( happi] activity3 ( real1 eag] curiosity1 ( ! delightful desire to pick ?+s to pieces1 & ! desire to put !m toge!r aga91 ! desire to f9d out1 & ! desire to inv5t3 all ?is arises on ! upp] plane1 at ! volitional c5t] ( ! ?oracic ganglion4 ,,*apt] ,,iv ,,trees ,,& ,,babies ,,& ,,papas ,,& ,,mamas ,oh1 damn ! mis]able baby ) its complicat$ p+-pong table ( an unconsci\s4 ,i'm sure1 de> read]1 y'd r h to li/5 to ! brat h[l+ 9 its crib ?an to me exp\nd+ its plexuses4 ,z = mix+ ^? babies up1 ,i'd mix him up l a %ot if ,i'd any?+ to mix him )4 ,un=tunately he's my own anatomical specim5 ( a pickl$ rabbit1 s !re's no?+ to be done ) ! bits4 ,b he gets on my n]ves4 ,i come out solemnly ) a p5cil & an ex]cise book1 & take my seat 9 all gravity at ! foot ( a l>ge fir-tree1 & wait = ?\ghts to come1 gnaw+ l a squirrel on a nut4 ,b ! nut's holl[4 ,i ?9k !re are too _m trees4 ,!y seem to cr[d r\nd & />e at me1 & ,i feel z if !y nudg$ "o ano!r :5 ,i'm n look+4 ,i c feel !m /&+ !re4 ,& !y won't let me get on ab\t ! baby ?is morn+4 ,j _! cuss$ness4 ,i felt !y enc\rag$ me l a h>em ( wond]ful sil5t wives1 ye/]day4 ,x is half ra9y too--! wood s damp & /ill & s secret1 9 ! remote morn+ air4 ,morn+1 ) ra9 9 ! sky1 & ! =e/ subtly brood+1 & me feel+ no bigg] ?an a pea-bug betwe5 ! roots ( my fir4 ,! trees seem s mu* bigg] ?an me1 s mu* /rong] 9 life1 pr[l+ sil5t ar\nd4 ,i seem to feel !m mov+ & ?9k+ & pr[l+1 & !y ov]:elm me4 ,ah1 well1 ! only ?+ is to give way to !m4 ,x is ! edge ( ! ,black ,=e/--sometimes ! ,rh9e f> (f1 on its ,rh9e pla91 l a bit ( magnesium ribbon4 ,b n to-day4 ,to-day only trees1 & leaves1 & vegetable pres5ces4 ,huge /raight fir-trees1 & big bee*-trees s5d+ riv]s ( roots into ! gr\nd4 ,& cuckoos1 l noise fall+ 9 drops (f ! leaves4 ,& me1 a fool1 sitt+ by a grassy wood-road ) a p5cil & a book1 hop+ to write m ab\t t baby4 ,nev] m9d4 ,i li/5 aga9 = noises1 & ,i smell ! damp moss4 ,! loom+ trees1 s /raight4 ,& ,i li/5 = _! sil5ce4 ,big1 tall-bodi$ trees1 ) a c]ta9 magnific5t cruelty ab\t !m4 ,or b>b>ity4 ,i don't "k :y ,i %\ld say cruelty4 ,_! magnific5t1 /rong1 r\nd bodies6 ,x almo/ seems ,i c he> ! sl[1 p[]ful sap drumm+ 9 _! trunks4 ,great full-blood$ trees1 ) /range tree-blood 9 !m1 s\ndlessly drumm+4 ,trees t h no h&s & faces1 no eyes4 ,yet ! p[]ful sap-sc5t$ blood ro>+ up ! great columns4 ,a va/ individual life1 & an ov]%ad[+ w4 ,! w ( a tree4 ,some?+ t fright5s y4 ,suppose y want to look a tree 9 ! face8 ,y c't4 ,x hasn't got a face4 ,y look at ! /rong body ( a trunk3 y look above y into ! matt$ body-hair ( twigs & b\ghs3 y see ! s(t gre5 tips4 ,b !re are no eyes to look into1 y c't meet its gaze4 ,y keep on look+ at x 9 "p & p>cel4 ,x's no good look+ at a tree1 to "k x4 ,! only ?+ is to sit among ! roots & ne/le aga9/ its /rong trunk1 & n bo!r4 ,t's h[ ,i write all ab\t ^! planes & plexuses1 betwe5 ! toes ( a tree1 =gett+ myself aga9/ ! great ankle ( ! trunk4 ,& !n1 z a rule1 z a squirrel is /rok$ into its wick$ness by ! faceless magic ( a tree1 s am ,i usually /rok$ into =getfulness1 & into scribbl+ ?is book4 ,my tree-book1 really4 ,i come s well to und]/& tree-wor%ip4 ,all ! old ,aryans wor%ip$ ! tree4 ,my ance/ors4 ,! tree ( life4 ,! tree ( k4 ,well1 "o is b\nd to spr\t out "s "t or o!r1 *ip ( ! old ,aryan block4 ,i c s well und]/& tree-wor%ip4 ,& fe> ! deepe/ motive4 ,naturally4 ,?is m>vel\s va/ individual )\t a face1 )\t lips or eyes or he>t4 ,?is t[]+ creature t nev] _h a face4 ,"h am ,i betwe5 8 toes l a pea-bug1 & him noiselessly ov]-rea*+ me4 ,& ,i feel 8 great blood-jet surg+4 ,& he has no eyes4 ,b he turns two ways4 ,he ?ru/s himself trem5d\sly d[n to ! middle e>?1 :]e dead m5 s9k 9 d>kness1 9 ! damp1 d5se "u-soil1 & he turns himself ab\t 9 high air4 ,:]eas we h eyes on "o side ( our head only1 & only gr[ upw>ds4 ,plung+ himself d[n into ! black humus1 ) a root's gu%+ ze/1 :]e we c only rot dead2 & 8 tips 9 high air1 :]e we c only look up to4 ,s va/ & p[]ful & exultant 9 8 two directions4 ,& all ! "t1 he has no face1 no ?\ght3 only a huge1 savage1 ?\ghtless s\l4 ,:]e does he ev5 keep 8 s\l8--,:]e does anybody8 ,a huge1 plung+1 trem5d\s s\l4 ,i w\ld l to be a tree = a :ile4 ,! great lu/ ( roots4 ,root-lu/4 ,& no m9d at all4 ,he t[]s1 & ,i sit & feel safe4 ,i l to feel him t[]+ r\nd me4 ,i us$ to be afraid4 ,i us$ to fe> _! lu/1 _! ru%+ black lu/4 ,b n[ ,i l x1 ,i wor%ip x4 ,i always felt !m huge primeval enemies4 ,b n[ !y are my only %elt] & /r5g?4 ,i lose myself among ! trees4 ,i am s glad to be ) !m 9 _! sil5t1 int5t passion1 & _! great lu/4 ,!y fe$ my s\l4 ,b ,i c und]/& t ,jesus 0 crucifi$ on a tree4 ,& ,i c s well und]/& ! ,romans1 _! t]ror ( ! bri/l+ ,h]cynian wood4 ,yet :5 y look f a height d[n ^u ! roll+ ( ! =e/--?is ,black ,=e/--x is z suave z a roll+1 oily sea4 ,inside only1 x bri/les horrific4 ,& x t]rifi$ ! ,romans4 ,! ,romans6 ,!y too seem v ne>4 ,ne>] ?an ,h9d5burg or ,fo* or ev5 ,napoleon4 ,:5 ,i look across ! ,rh9e pla91 x is ,rome1 & ! legion>ies ( ! ,rh9e t my s\l notices4 ,x mu/ h be5 wond]ful to come f ,s\? ,italy to ! %ores ( ?is sea-l =e/3 ?is d>k1 moi/ =e/1 ) its enorm\sly p[]ful int5sity ( tree life4 ,n[ ,i "k1 com+ myself f rock-dry ,sicily1 op5 to ! day4 ,! ,romans & ! ,greeks f\nd ev]y?+ human4 ,ev]y?+ _h a face1 & a human voice4 ,m5 spoke1 & _! f\nta9s pip$ an answ]4 ,b :5 ! legions cross$ ! ,rh9e !y f\nd a va/ imp5etrable life :i* _h no voice4 ,!y met ! faceless sil5ce ( ! ,black ,=e/4 ,?is huge1 huge wood did n answ] :5 !y call$4 ,its sil5ce 0 too crude & massive4 ,& ! soldi]s %rank3 %rank be=e ! trees t _h no faces1 & no answ]4 ,a va/ array ( non-human life1 d>kly self-suffici5t1 & bri/l+ ) indomitable en]gy4 ,! ,h]cynian wood1 n to be fa?om$4 ,! enorm\s p[] ( ^! collective trees1 /rong] 9 _! somb] life ev5 ?an ,rome4 ,no wond] ! soldi]s 7 t]rifi$4 ,no wond] !y ?rill$ ) horror :51 deep 9 ! woods1 !y f\nd ! skulls & trophies ( _! dead comrades ^u ! trees4 ,! trees _h dev\r$ !m3 sil5tly1 9 m\?fuls1 & left ! :ite bones4 ,bones ( ! m9dful ,romans--& savage1 preconsci\s trees1 indomitable4 ,! true ,g]man has some?+ ( ! sap ( trees 9 8 ve9s ev5 n[3 & a sort ( pri/9e savag5ess1 l trees1 helpless1 b mo/ p[]ful1 "u all 8 m5tality4 ,he is a tree-s\l1 & 8 gods are n human4 ,8 in/9ct /ill is to nail skulls & trophies to ! sacr$ tree1 deep 9 ! =e/4 ,! tree ( life & dea?1 tree ( good & evil1 tree ( ab/raction & ( imm5se1 m9dless life2 tree ( ev]y?+ except ! _s1 spirituality4 ,b aft] bone-dry ,sicily1 & aft] ! gibb]+ ( myriad p all rattl+ _! p]sonalities1 ,i am glad to be ) ! pr(\nd indiff]5ce ( faceless trees4 ,_! rudim5t>9ess _c "k :y we c>e = ! ?+s we c>e =4 ,!y h no faces1 no m9ds & b[els3 only deep1 lu/ful roots /ret*+ 9 e>?1 & va/1 lissome life 9 air1 & primeval individuality4 ,y c sacrifice ! :ole ( y\r spirituality on _! alt> /ill4 ,y c nail y\r skull on _! limbs4 ,!y h no skulls1 no m9ds nor faces1 !y c't make eyes ( love at y4 ,_! va/ life disp5ses ) all ?is4 ,b !y w live y d[n4 ,! normal life ( "o ( ^! big trees is ab\t a hundr$ ye>s4 ,s ! ,h]r ,b>on told me4 ,"o ( ! few places t my s\l w haunt1 :5 ,i am dead1 w be ?is4 ,among ! trees "h ne> ,eb]/e9burg1 :]e ,i h be5 alone & writt5 ?is book4 ,i c't leave ^! trees4 ,!y h tak5 "s ( my s\l4 99 99 99 99 99 ,excuse my digression1 g5tle read]4 ,at fir/ ,i left x out1 ?9k+ we might n see wood = trees4 ,b x doesn't mu* matt] :at we see4 ,x's nice j to look r\nd1 any:]e4 ,s !re are two planes ( be+ & consci\sness & two modes ( relation & ( function4 ,we w call ! l[] plane ! s5sual1 ! upp] ! spiritual4 ,! t]ms may be unwise1 b we c ?9k ( no o!r4 ,please read t aga91 de> read]2 y'll be a bit dazzl$1 com+ out ( ! wood4 ,x is obvi\s t f ! "t a *ild is born1 or conceiv$1 x has a p]man5t relation ) ! out] univ]se1 relation 9 ! two modes1 n "o mode only4 ,!re are two ways ( love1 two ways ( activity & indep5d5ce4 ,& !re ne$s "s sort ( equilibrium betwe5 ! two modes4 ,9 ! same way1 9 physical function !re is eat+ & dr9k+1 & excrem5tation1 on ! l[] plane & respiration & he>tbeat on ! upp] plane4 ,n[ ! equilibrium to be e/abli%$ is f\rfold4 ,!re mu/ be a true equilibrium betwe5 :at we eat & :at we reject aga9 by excretion3 likewise betwe5 ! sy/ole & dia/ole ( ! he>t1 ! inspiration & expiration ( our brea?+4 ,suffice to say ! equilibrium is nev] q p]fect4 ,mo/ p are ei!r too fat or too ?91 too hot or too cold1 too sl[ or too quick4 ,!re is no su* ?+ z an actual norm1 a liv+ norm4 ,a norm is m]ely an ab/raction1 n a reality4 ,! same on ! psy*ical plane4 ,we ei!r love too mu*1 or impose our w too mu*1 are too spiritual or too s5sual4 ,!re is n & _c be any actual norm ( human conduct4 ,all dep5ds1 fir/1 on ! unkn[n inw>d ne$ )9 ! v nucle> c5t]s ( ! individual himself1 & secondly on 8 circum/ance4 ,"s m5 mu/ be too spiritual1 "s mu/ be too s5sual4 ,"s mu/ be too sympa!tic1 & "s mu/ be too pr\d4 ,we h no desire to say :at m5 ought to be4 ,we only wi% to say !re are all k9ds ( ways ( be+1 & !re is no su* ?+ z human p]fection4 ,no man c be any?+ m ?an j himself1 9 g5u9e liv+ relation to all 8 surr\nd+s4 ,b t :i* ,i am1 :5 ,i am myself1 w c]ta9ly be ana!ma to ^? :o hate individual integrity1 & want to sw>m4 ,& t :i* ,i1 be+ myself1 am 9 myself1 may make ! hair bri/le ) rage on a man :o is also himself1 b v diff]5t f me4 ,!n let x bri/le4 ,& if m9e bri/le back aga91 !n let u1 if we mu/1 fly at "o ano!r l two enrag$ m54 ,x is h[ x %\ld be4 ,we've got to le>n to live f ! c5t] ( our own responsibility only1 & let o!r p d ! same4 ,to return to ! *ild1 h[ev]1 & 8 developm5t on 8 two planes ( consci\sness4 ,!re is all ! "t a direct dynamic connection betwe5 *ild & "m1 *ild & fa!r also1 f ! />t4 ,x is a connection on two planes1 ! upp] & l[]4 ,f ! l[] sympa!tic c5t] ! pr(\nd intake ( love or vibration f ! liv+ co-respond5t outside4 ,f ! upp] sympa!tic c5t] ! outgo+ ( devotion & ! passionate vibration ( giv5 love1 giv5 att5tion4 ,! two sympa!tic c5t]s are always1 or %\ld always be1 c\nt]balanc$ by _! correspond+ volunt>y c5t]s4 ,f ! great volunt>y ganglion ( ! l[] plane1 ! *ild is self-will$1 indep5d5t1 & ma/]ful4 ,9 ! activity ( ?is c5t] a boy refuses to be kiss$ & paw$ ab\t1 ma9ta9+ 8 pr\d indep5d5ce l a little wild animal4 ,f ?is c5t] he likes to comm& & to receive ob$i5ce4 ,f ?is c5t] likewise he may be de/ructive & defiant & reckless1 det]m9$ to h 8 own way at any co/4 ,f ?is c5t]1 too1 he le>ns to use 8 legs4 ,! motion ( walk+1 l ! motion ( brea?+1 is tw(old4 ,fir/1 a sympa!tic cleav+ to ! e>? ) ! foot3 !n ! volunt>y rejection1 ! spurn+1 ! kick+ away1 ! exultance 9 p[] & fre$om4 ,f ! upp] volunt>y c5t] ! *ild wat*es p]si/5tly1 wilfully1 = ! att5tion ( ! "m3 to be tak5 notice (1 to be c>ess$1 9 %ort to exi/ 9 & ?r\gh ! "m's att5tion4 ,f ?is c5t]1 too1 he coldly refuses to notice ! "m1 :5 %e insi/s on too mu* att5tion4 ,?is cold refusal is diff]5t f ! active rejection ( ! l[] c5t]4 ,x is passive1 b cold & negative4 ,x is ! great =ce ( our day4 ,f ! ganglion ( ! %\ld]s1 also1 ! *ild brea!s & 8 he>t beats4 ,f ! same c5t] he le>ns ! fir/ use ( 8 arms4 ,9 ! ge/ure ( sympa?y1 f ! upp] plane1 he embraces 8 "m ) 8 arms4 ,9 ! motion ( curiosity1 or int]e/1 :i* d]ives f ! ?oracic ganglion1 he spreads 8 f+]s1 t\*es1 feels1 explores4 ,9 ! motion ( rejection he drops an undesir$ object delib]ately out ( sight4 ,& !n1 :5 ! f\r c5t]s ( :at we call ! fir/ field ( consci\sness are fully active1 !n x is t ! eyes beg9 to ga!r _! sight1 ! m\? to speak1 ! e>s to awake to _! intellig5t he>+s2 all z a result ( ! great f\rfold activity ( ! fir/ dynamic field ( consci\sness4 ,& !n also1 z a result1 ! m9d wak5s to its impressions & to its incipi5t control4 ,= at fir/ ! control is non-m5tal1 ev5 non-c]ebral4 ,! bra9 acts only z a sort ( swit*bo>d4 ,! bus9ess ( ! fa!r1 9 all ?is incipi5t *ild-developm5t1 is to /& outside z a f9al au?ority & make ! necess>y adju/m5ts4 ,:]e !re is too mu* sympa?y1 !n ! great volunt>y c5t]s ( ! sp9e are weak1 ! *ild t5ds to be delicate4 ,!n ! fa!r by in/9ct supplies ! r\ghness1 ! /]nness :i* /iff5s 9 ! *ild ! c5t]s ( resi/ance & indep5d5ce1 "r f ! v e>lie/ days4 ,(t51 = a m]e infant1 x is ! fa!r's fi]ce or /]n pres5ce1 ! vibration ( 8 voice1 :i* />ts ! frictional & indep5d5t activity ( ! great volunt>y ganglion & gives ! fir/ impulse to ! indep5d5ce :i* lat] on is life itself4 ,b on ! o!r h&1 ! fa!r1 f 8 di/ance1 supports1 protects1 n\ri%es 8 *ild1 & x is ultimately on ! remote b p[]ful fa!r-love t ! infant re/s1 9 a re/ :i* is beyond "m-love4 ,= 9 ! male ! dom9ant c5t]s are naturally ! volitional c5t]s1 c5t]s ( responsibility1 au?ority1 & c>e4 ,x is ! fa!r's bus9ess1 aga91 to ma9ta9 "s sort ( equilibrium betwe5 ! two modes ( love 9 8 infant4 ,a "m may wi% to br+ up h] *ild f ! lovely upp] c5t]s only1 f ! c5t]s ( ! brea/1 9 ! mode ( :at we call pure or spiritual love4 ,!n ! *ild w be all g5tle1 all t5d] & t5d]-radiant1 always enfold$ ) g5tl5ess & =be>ance1 always %ield$ f grossness or pa9 or r\ghness4 ,n[ ! fa!r's in/9ct is to be r\gh & crude1 good-natur$ly brutal ) ! *ild1 call+ ! deep] c5t]s1 ! s5sual c5t]s1 into play4 ,:at d y want8 ,my wat*8 ,well1 y c't h x1 d y see1 because x's m9e4 ,n a lot ( explanations ( ! ,y see1 d>l+4 ,no su* nons5se4--,or if a *ild wails unnecess>ily = its "m1 ! fa!r mu/ be ! *eck4 ,/op y\r noise1 y little brat6 ,:at ails y1 y :9]8 ,& if *ildr5 be too s5sitive1 too sympa!tic1 !n x w d ! *ild no h>m if ! fa!r occasionally ?r[s ! cat out ( ! w9d[1 or kicks ! dog1 or raises a /orm 9 ! h\se4 ,/orms !re mu/ be4 ,& if ! *ild is old en\gh & robu/ en\gh1 x c occasionally h its bottom s\ndly spank$--by ! fa!r1 if ! "m refuses to p]=m t mo/ necess>y duty4 ,= a *ild's bottom is made occasionally to be spank$4 ,! vibration ( ! spank+ acts direct ^u ! sp9al n]ve-sy/em1 !re is a direct reciprocity & reaction1 ! spank] transf]s 8 wra? to ! great w-c5t]s 9 ! *ild1 & ^! w-c5t]s react int5sely1 are vivifi$ & educat$4 ,on ! o!r h&1 giv5 a "m :o is too g5]ally h>d or indiff]5t1 !n x re/s ) ! fa!r to provide ! delicate sympa?y & ! ref9$ discipl9e4 ,!n ! fa!r mu/ %[ ! t5d] s5sitiv5ess ( ! upp] mode4 ,! sad ?+ to-day is t s few mo!rs h any deep b[els ( love--or ev5 ! brea/ ( love4 ,:at !y h is ! b5evol5t spiritual w1 ! w ( ! upp] self4 ,b ! w is n love4 ,& b5evol5ce 9 a p>5t is a poison4 ,x is bully+4 ,9 ^! circum/ances ! fa!r mu/ give delicate adju/m5t1 &1 above all1 "s w>m1 native love f ! ri*] s5sual self4 ,! "q ( corporal puni%m5t is important4 ,x is no use r\ghly smack+ a %r9k+1 s5sitive *ild4 ,& yet1 if a *ild is too %r9k+1 too s5sitive1 x may d x a _w ( good *e]fully to spank its po/]ior4 ,n brutally1 n cruelly1 b ) real s\nd1 good-natur$ exasp]ation4 ,& let ! adult take ! full responsibility1 half humor\sly1 )\t apology or explanation4 ,let u avoid self-ju/ification at all co/s4 ,real corporal puni%m5ts apply to ! s5sual plane4 ,! ref9$ puni%m5ts ( ! spiritual mode are usually mu* m indec5t & dang]\s ?an a good smack4 ,! pa9$ b resign$ disapprobation ( a "m is usually a v bad ?+1 mu* worse ?an ! fa!r's %\ts ( rage4 ,& s5d+s to b$1 & no dess]t = a week1 & s on1 are cruell] & mean] ?an a bang on ! head4 ,:5 a p>5t gives 8 boy a beat+1 !re is a liv+ passionate int]*ange4 ,b 9 ^! ref9$ puni%m5ts1 ! p>5t suff]s no?+ & ! *ild is dead5$4 ,! bully+ ( ! ref9$1 b5evol5t spiritual w is simply vitriol to ! s\l4 ,yet p>5ts adm9i/] x ) all ! righte\sness ( virtue & good int5tion1 sp>+ !mselves p]fectly4 ,! po9t is "h4 ,if a *ild makes y s t y really want to spank x s\ndly1 !n s\ndly spank ! brat4 ,b "k all ! "t :at y are do+1 & always be responsible = y\r ang]4 ,nev] be a%am$ ( x1 & nev] surpass x4 ,! fla%+ int]*ange ( ang] betwe5 p>5t & *ild is "p ( ! responsible relation%ip1 necess>y to gr[?4 ,aga91 if a *ild (f5ds y deeply1 s t y really c't communicate ) x any m1 !n1 :ile ! hurt is deep1 swit* (f y\r connection f ! *ild1 cut (f y\r correspond5ce1 y\r vital communion1 & be alone4 ,b nev] p]si/ 9 su* a /ate beyond ! "t :5 y\r deep hurt dies d[n4 ,! only rule is1 d :at y really1 impulsively1 wi% to d4 ,b always act on y\r own responsibility s9c]ely4 ,& h ! c\rage ( y\r own /rong emotion4 ,!y enri*5 ! *ild's s\l4 ,= a *ild's prim>y education dep5ds almo/ entirely on its relation to its p>5ts1 bro!rs1 & si/]s4 ,betwe5 "m & *ild1 fa!r & *ild1 ! law is ?is3 ,i1 ! "m1 am myself alone3 ! *ild is itself alone4 ,b !re exi/s betwe5 u a vital dynamic relation1 = :i* ,i1 be+ ! consci\s "o1 am basically responsible4 ,s1 z f> z possible1 !re mu/ be 9 me no dep>ture f myself1 le/ ,i injure ! preconsci\s dynamic relation4 ,i mu/ absolutely act accord+ to my own true spontane\s feel+4 ,b1 moreov]1 ,i mu/ also h wisdom = myself & = my *ild4 ,always1 always ! deep wisdom ( responsibility4 ,& always a brave responsibility = ! s\l's own spontaneity4 ,love--:at is love8 ,we'd bett] get a new idea4 ,love is1 9 all1 g5]\s impulse--ev5 a good spank+4 ,b wisdom is some?+ else1 a deep collect$ness 9 ! s\l1 a deep abid+ by my own integral be+1 :i* makes me responsible1 n = ! *ild1 b = my c]ta9 duties t[>ds ! *ild1 & = ma9ta9+ ! dynamic fl[ betwe5 ! *ild & myself z g5u9e z possible3 t is to say1 n p]v]t$ by ideals or by my w4 ,mo/ fatal1 mo/ hateful ( all ?+s is bully+4 ,b :at is bully+8 ,x is a desire to sup]impose my own w ^u ano!r p]son4 ,s5sual bully+ ( c\rse is fairly easily detect$4 ,:at is m dang]\s is ideal bully+4 ,bully+ p into :at is ideally good = !m4 ,i embrace = example an ideal1 & ,i seek to enact ?is ideal 9 ! p]son ( ano!r4 ,?is is ideal bully+4 ,a "m says t life %\ld be all love1 all delicacy & =be>ance & g5tl5ess4 ,& %e proce$s to sp9 a hateful /icky web ( p]man5t =be>ance1 g5tl5ess1 hu%$ness ar\nd h] naturally passionate & ha/y *ild4 ,?is s foils ! *ild z to make him half imbecile or crim9al4 ,i may h ideals if ,i l--ev5 ( love & =be>ance & meekness4 ,b ,i h no "r to ask ano!r to h ^! ideals4 ,& to impose any ideals ^u a *ild z x gr[s is almo/ crim9al4 ,x results 9 impov]i%m5t & di/ortion & subsequ5t defici5cy4 ,9 our day1 mo/ dang]\s is ! love & b5evol5ce ideal4 ,x results 9 neura/h5ia1 :i* is l>gely a dislocation or collapse ( ! great volunt>y c5t]s1 a d]angem5t ( ! w4 ,x is 9 u an insi/5ce ^u ! "o life-mode only1 ! spiritual mode4 ,x is a suppression ( ! great l[] c5t]s1 & a liv+ a sort ( half-life1 almo/ entirely f ! upp] c5t]s4 ,!nce1 s9ce we live t]ribly & exhau/ively f ! upp] c5t]s1 !re is a t5d5cy n[ t[>ds p?isis & neura/h5ia ( ! he>t4 ,! great sympa!tic c5t] ( ! brea/ becomes exhau/$1 ! lungs1 burnt by ! ov]-insi/5ce ( "o way ( life1 become diseas$1 ! he>t1 /ra9$ 9 "o mode ( dilation1 retaliates4 ,! p[]ful l[] c5t]s are no long] fully active1 p>ticul>ly ! great lumb> ganglion1 :i* is ! clue to our s5sual passionate pride & indep5d5ce1 ?is ganglion is atrophi$ by suppression4 ,& x is ?is ganglion :i* holds ! sp9e erect4 ,s1 weak-*e/$1 r\nd-%\ld]$1 we /oop holl[ly =w>d on ourselves4 ,x is ! result ( ! all-fam\s love & *>ity ideal1 an ideal n[ q dead 9 its sympa!tic activity1 b /ill fix$ & det]m9$ 9 its volunt>y action4 ,let u bew>e & bew>e1 & bew>e ( hav+ a high ideal = ourselves4 ,b p>ticul>ly let u bew>e ( hav+ an ideal = our *ildr54 ,s do+1 we damn !m4 ,all we c h is wisdom4 ,& wisdom is n a !ory1 x is a /ate ( s\l4 ,x is ! /ate :]e9 we "k our :ol5ess & ! complicate1 manifold nature ( our be+4 ,x is ! /ate :]e9 we "k ! great relations :i* exi/ betwe5 u & our ne> ones4 ,& x is ! /ate :i* accepts full responsibility1 fir/ = our own s\ls1 & !n = ! liv+ dynamic relations :]e9 we h our be+4 ,x is no use expect+ ! o!r p]son to "k4 ,ea* mu/ "k = himself4 ,b n[adays m5 h ev5 a /unt ( pret5d+ t *ildr5 & idiots alone "k be/4 ,?is is a pretty piece ( sophi/ry1 & crim9al c[>dice1 try+ to dodge ! life-responsibility :i* no man or woman c dodge )\t disa/]4 ,! only ?+ is to be direct4 ,if a *ild has to swall[ ca/or-oil1 !n say3 ,*ild1 y've got to swall[ ?is ca/or-oil4 ,x is necess>y = y\r inside4 ,i say s because x is true4 ,s op5 y\r m\?4 ,:y try coax+ & logic & tricks ) *ildr58 ,*ildr5 are m sagaci\s ?an we are4 ,!y twig soon en\gh if !re is a flaw 9 our own int5tion & our own true spontaneity4 ,& !y play up to our bit ( falsity till !re is hell to pay4 ,y love "m1 don't y1 de>8--,j a piece ( indec5t trick]y ( ! spiritual w4 ,! great emotions l love are unspok54 ,speak+ !m is a sign ( an indec5t bully+ w4 ,poor pussy6 ,y mu/ love poor pussy6 ,:at cant6 ,:at sick5+ cant6 ,an appeal to love bas$ on false pity4 ,t's ! way to inculcate a fil?y ph>isaic conceit into a *ild4--,if ! *ild ill-treats ! cat1 say3 ,/op maul+ t cat4 ,x's got its own life to live1 s let x live x4 ,!n if ! brat p]si/s1 give tit = tat4 ,:at1 y pull ! cat's tail6 ,!n ,i'll pull y\r nose1 to see h[ y l x4 ,& give 8 nose a prop] h>d p9*4 ,*ildr5 mu/ pull ! cat's tail a little4 ,*ildr5 mu/ /eal ! sug> sometimes4 ,!y mu/ occasionally spoil j ! ?+s "o doesn't want !m to spoil4 ,& !y mu/ occasionally tell /ories--tell a lie4 ,circum/ances & life are su* t we mu/ all sometimes tell a lie3 j z we we> tr\s]s1 because we don't *oose t ev]ybody %all see our nak$ness4 ,morality is a delicate act ( adju/m5t on ! s\l's "p1 n a rule or a prescription4 ,beyond a c]ta9 po9t ! *ild %all n pull ! cat's tail1 or /eal ! sug>1 or spoil ! furniture1 or tell lies4 ,b ,i'm afraid y c't fix ?is c]ta9 s\l's humor4 ,& s x mu/4 ,if at a sudd5 po9t y fly into a temp] & ?or\ghly beat ! boy = h>dly t\*+ ! cat--well1 t's life4 ,all y've got to say to him is3 ,!re1 t'll s]ve y = all ! times y h pull$ h] tail & hurt h]4 ,& he w feel outrag$1 & s w y4 ,b :at does x matt]8 ,*ildr5 h an inf9ite und]/&+ ( ! s\l's passionate v>iabilities1 & =give ev5 a real inju/ice1 if x 0 spontane\s & n int5tional4 ,!y "k we ar5't p]fect4 ,:at !y don't =give u is if we pret5d we are3 or if we bully4 ,,*apt] ,v ,,! ,,five ,,s5ses ,sci5ce is wret*$ 9 its treatm5t ( ! human body z a sort ( complex me*anism made up ( num]\s little ma*9es work+ automatically 9 a r unsatisfactory relation to "o ano!r4 ,! body is ! total ma*9e2 ! v>i\s organs are ! includ$ ma*9es2 & ! :ole ?+1 giv5 a />t at bir?1 or at conception1 trundles on by itself4 ,! only god 9 ! ma*9e1 ! human w or intellig5ce1 is absolutely at ! m]cy ( ! ma*9e4 ,su* is ! or?odox view4 ,s\l1 :5 x is all[$ an exi/5ce at all1 sits some:at vaguely )9 ! ma*9e1 nev] def9$4 ,if any?+ goes wrong ) ! ma*9e1 :y1 ! s\l is =gott5 in/antly4 ,we summon ! ar*-me*anic ( our day1 ! m$ic9e-man4 ,& a m>vel\s e>ne/ fraud he is1 do+ 8 be/4 ,he is really wond]ful z a me*anic ( ! human sy/em4 ,b ! life )9 u fails m & m1 :ile we m>vel\sly t9k] at ! eng9es4 ,doctors are n to blame4 ,x is obvi\s t1 ev5 consid]+ ! human body z a v delicate & complex ma*9e1 y _c keep su* a ma*9e runn+ = "o day )\t mo/ exact c5tral control4 ,/ill m is x impossible to consid] ! automatic evolution ( su* a ma*9e4 ,:5 did any ma*9e1 ev5 a s+le sp9n+-:eel1 automatically evolve itself8 ,!re 0 a god 9 ! ma*9e be=e ! ma*9e exi/$4 ,s !re we are ) ! human body4 ,!re mu/ h be51 & mu/ be a c5tral god 9 ! ma*9e ( ea* animate corpus4 ,! little s\l ( ! beetle makes ! beetle toddle4 ,! little s\l ( ! homo sapi5s sets him on 8 two feet4 ,don't ask me to def9e ! s\l4 ,y might z well ask a bicycle to def9e ! "y damsel :o s :imsically & s god-l p$als h] way along ! highroad4 ,a "y lady skelt]+ (f on h] bicycle to meet h] "y man--:y1 :at c\ld ! bicycle make ( su* a my/]y1 if y expla9$ x till doomsday4 ,yet ! bicycle w\ldn't be sp9n+ f ,/rea?am to ,croydon by itself4 ,s we may z well settle d[n to ! little god 9 ! ma*9e4 ,we may z well call x ! individual s\l1 & leave x !re4 ,x's z f> z ! bicycle w\ld ev] get1 if x _h to def9e ,mademoiselle4 ,b be sure ! bicycle w\ld n d5y ! exi/5ce ( ! "y miss :o seats h]self 9 ! saddle4 ,n l u1 :o try to pret5d !re is no "o 9 ! saddle4 ,:y ev5 ! sun w\ld no m sp9 )\t a rid] ?an w\ld a cycle-p$al4 ,b1 s9ce we h innum]able planets to reckon )1 9 ! sp9n+ we mu/ n beg9 to def9e ! rid] 9 t]ms ( our own exclusive planet4 ,nev]!less1 rid] !re is3 ev5 a rid] ( ! _m-:eel$ univ]se4 ,b let u leave ! univ]se alone4 ,x is too big a bauble = me4--,rev5ons4--,at ! />t ( me !re is me4 ,!re is a my/]i\s little entity :i* is my individual self1 ! god :o builds ! ma*9e & !n makes 8 gay excursion ( sev5ty ye>s )9 x4 ,n[ we are talk+ at ! mom5t ab\t ! ma*9e4 ,= ! mom5t we are ! bicycle1 & n ! fea!r-bra9$ cycli/4 ,s t all we c d is to def9e ! cycli/ 9 t]ms ( ourself4 ,a bicycle c\ld say3 ,"h1 ^u my lea!r saddle1 re/s a /range & animat$ =ce1 :i* ,i call ! =ce ( gravity1 z be+ ! "o great =ce :i* controls my univ]se4 ,& yet1 on second ?\ghts1 ,i mu/ modify myself4 ,?is great =ce ( gravity is n always 9 ! saddle4 ,sometimes x j is n !re--& ,i lean /rangely aga9/ a wall4 ,i h be5 ev5 kn[n to turn upside d[n1 ) my :eels 9 ! air2 spun by ! same my/]i\s ,miss4 ,s t ,i mu/ introduce a !ory ( ,relativity4 ,h[ev]1 mo/ly1 :5 ,i am awake & alive1 %e is 9 ! saddle2 or x is 9 ! saddle1 ! my/]i\s =ce4 ,& :5 x is 9 ! saddle1 !n two subsidi>y =ces plunge & claw ^u my two p$als1 plunge & claw ) ine/imable p[]4 ,& at ! same "t1 a k9d & my/]i\s =ce sways my head-/ock1 sways mo/ incalculably1 & gov]ns my :ole motion4 ,?is =ce is n a driv+ =ce1 b a subtle direct+ =ce1 b5ea? ^: grip my bright /eel body is flexible z a dipp+ highroad4 ,!n let me n =get ! sudd5 clut* ( arre/ ^u my hurry+ :eels4 ,oh1 ?is is pa9 to me6 ,:ile ,i am ru%+ =w>d1 surpass+ myself 9 an elan vital1 sudd5ly ! awful *eck grips my back :eel1 or my front :eel1 or bo?4 ,sudd5ly !re is a fe>ful arre/4 ,my s\l ru%es on be=e my body1 ,i feel myself /ra9$1 torn back4 ,my fib]s groan4 ,!n p]haps ! t5sion relaxes4 ,s ! bicycle w cont9ue to babble ab\t itself4 ,& x w inevitably w9d up ) a philosophy4 ,oh1 if only ! great & div9e =ce re/$ = ev] ^u my saddle1 & if only ! my/]i\s w :i* sways my /e]+ ge> rema9$ 9 place = ev]3 !n my p$als w\ld revolve ( !mselves1 & nev] cease1 & no hide\s brake %\ld te> ! p]petuity ( my motions4 ,!n1 oh !n ,i %\ld be immortal4 ,i %\ld leap ?r\gh ! _w = ev]1 & sp9 to inf9ity1 till ,i 0 id5tifi$ ) ! dizzy & timeless cycle-race ( ! />s & ! great sun4444 ,poor old bicycle4 ,! v ?\ght is en\gh to />t a philan?ropic society = ! prev5tion ( cruelty to bicycles4 ,well1 !n1 our human body is ! bicycle4 ,& our individual & incompreh5sible self is ! rid] !re(4 ,& see+ t ! univ]se is ano!r bicycle rid+ full tilt1 we are b\nd to suppose a rid] = t also4 ,b we ne$n't say :at sort ( rid]4 ,:5 ,i see a cockroa* scuttl+ across ! floor & turn+ up its tail ,i /& affront$1 & ?9k3 ,a rum sort ( rid] y mu/ h4 ,y've no bus9ess to h su* a rid]1 d y he>8--,& :5 ,i he> ! monoton\s & pla9tive cuckoo 9 ! ,june woods1 ,i ?9k3 ,:o ! devil made t clock8--,& :5 ,i see a politician mak+ a fi]y spee* on a plat=m1 & ! cr[d gawp+1 ,i ?9k3 ,"l1 save me--!y've all got rid]s4 ,b ,holy ,moses6 y c\ld nev] guess :at 0 com+4--,& s ,i %\ldn't l1 myself1 to />t guess+ ab\t ! rid] ( ! univ]se4 ,i am all too flummox$ by ! masqu]ade 9 ! t\rney r\nd ab\t me4 ,we ourselves !n3 wisdom1 l *>ity1 beg9s at home4 ,we've ea* ( u got a rid] 9 ! saddle3 an individual s\l4 ,mo/ly x c't ride1 & c't /e]1 s mank9d is l squadrons ( bicycles runn+ amok4 ,we %\ld e "o fall (f if we didn't ride s ?ick t we hold ea* o!r up4 ,horrid nightm>e6 ,z = myself1 ,i h a horror ( rid+ en bloc4 ,s ,i gr9d away uphill1 & sweat my guts out1 z !y say4 ,well1 well--my body is my bicycle3 ! :ole middle ( me is ! saddle :]e sits ! rid] ( my s\l4 ,& my front :eel is ! c>diac plane1 & my back :eel is ! sol> plexus4 ,& ! brakes are ! volunt>y ganglia4 ,& ! /e]+ ge> is my head4 ,& ! "r & left p$als are ! "r & left dynamics ( ! body1 9 "s way correspond+ to ! sympa!tic & volunt>y division4 ,s t n[ ,i "k m or less h[ my rid] rides me1 & f :at c5t]s controls me4 ,t is1 ,i "k ! po9ts ( vital contact betwe5 my rid] & my ma*9e3 betwe5 my invisible & my visible self4 ,i don't attempt to say :at is my rid]4 ,a bicycle might z well try to def9e its "y ,miss by wriggl+ its h&le-b>s & r++ its bell4 ,h[ev]1 hav+ m or less det]m9$ ! f\r prim>y motions1 we c see ! fur!r unfold+4 ,9 a *ild1 ! sol> plexus & ! c>diac plexus1 ) correspond+ volunt>y ganglia1 are awake & active4 ,f ^! c5t]s develop ! great functions ( ! body4 ,z we h se51 x is ! sol> plexus1 ) ! lumb> ganglion1 :i* controls ! great dynamic sy/em1 ! function+ ( ! liv] & ! kidneys4 ,any excess 9 ! sympa!tic dynamism t5ds to accel]ate ! action ( ! liv]1 to cause fev] & con/ipation4 ,any collapse ( ! sympa!tic dynamism causes anaemia4 ,! sudd5 /imulat+ ( ! volunt>y c5t] may cause di>rhoea1 & s on4 ,b all ?is dep5ds s completely on ! pol>iz$ fl[ betwe5 ! individual & ! correspond5t1 betwe5 ! *ild & "m1 *ild & fa!r1 *ild & si/]s or bro!rs or tea*]1 or circumambi5t univ]se1 t x is impossible to lay d[n laws1 unless we /ate p>ticul>s4 ,nev]!less1 ! :ole ( ! great organs ( ! l[] body are controll$ f ! two l[] c5t]s1 & ^! organs "w well or ill accord+ z !re is a true dynamic psy*ic activity at ! two prim>y c5t]s ( consci\sness4 ,by a true dynamic psy*ic activity we mean an activity :i* is true to ! individual himself1 to 8 own peculi> s\l-nature4 ,& a dynamic psy*ic activity means a dynamic pol>ity betwe5 ! individual himself & o!r individuals conc]n$ 9 8 liv+2 or betwe5 him & 8 imm$iate surr\nd+s1 human1 physical1 geographical4 ,on ! upp] plane1 ! lungs & he>t are controll$ f ! c>diac plane & ! ?oracic ganglion4 ,any excess 9 ! sympa!tic mode f ! upp] c5t]s t5ds to burn ! lungs ) oxyg51 weak5 !m ) /ress1 & cause consumption4 ,s x is j crim9al to make a *ild too lov+4 ,no *ild %\ld be induc$ to love too mu*4 ,x means d]angem5t & dea? at la/4 ,b beyond ! prim>y physiological function--& x is ! bus9ess ( doctors to discov] ! relation betwe5 ! function+ ( ! prim>y organs & ! dynamic psy*ic activity at ! f\r prim>y consci\sness-c5t]s1--beyond ^! physical functions1 !re are ! activities :i* are half-psy*ic1 half-functional4 ,su* z ! five s5ses4 ,( ! five s5ses1 f\r h _! function+ 9 ! face-region4 ,! fif?1 ! s5se ( t\*1 is di/ribut$ all ov] ! body4 ,b all h _! roots 9 ! f\r great prim>y c5t]s ( consci\sness4 ,f ! con/ellation ( y\r n]ve-nodes1 f ! great field ( y\r poles1 ! n]ves run out 9 e direction1 end+ on ! surface ( ! body4 ,inw>dly ?is is an inextricable ramification & communication4 ,& yet ! body is plann$ out 9 areas1 !re is a def9ite area-control f ! f\r c5t]s4 ,on ! back ! s5se ( t\* is n acute4 ,!re ! volunt>y c5t]s act 9 resi/ance4 ,b 9 ! front ( ! body1 ! brea/ is "o great field ( sympa!tic t\*1 ! belly is ano!r4 ,on ^! two fields ! /imulus ( t\* is q diff]5t1 has a q diff]5t psy*ic quality & psy*ic result4 ,! brea/-t\* is ! f9e al]tness ( quiv]+ curiosity1 ! belly-t\* is a deep ?rill ( delight & avidity4 ,correspond+ly1 ! h&s & arms are in/rum5ts ( sup]b delicate curiosity1 & delib]ate execution4 ,?r\gh ! elb[s & ! wri/s fl[s ! dynamic psy*ic curr5t1 & a dislocation 9 ! curr5t betwe5 two individuals w cause a feel+ ( dislocation at ! wri/s & elb[s4 ,on ! l[] plane1 ! legs & feet are in/rum5ts ( unfa?omable gratifications & repudiations4 ,! ?ighs1 ! knees1 ! feet are int5sely alive ) love-desire1 d>kly & sup]bly dr9k+ 9 ! love-contact1 bl9dly4 ,or !y are ! great c5t]s ( resi/ance1 kick+1 repudiat+4 ,sudd5 flu%+ ( great g5]al sympa!tic desire w make a man feel weak at ! knees4 ,hatr$ w h>d5 ! t5sion ( ! knees l /eel1 & grip ! feet l talons4 ,?us ! fields ( t\* are f\r1 two sympa!tic fields 9 front ( ! body f ! ?roat to ! feet1 two resi/ant fields beh9d f ! neck to ! heels4 ,!re are two fields ( t\*1 h[ev]1 :]e ! di/ribution is n s simple3 ! face & ! buttocks4 ,nei!r 9 ! face nor 9 ! buttocks is !re "o s+le mode ( s5se communication4 ,! face is ( c\rse ! great w9d[ ( ! self1 ! great op5+ ( ! self ^u ! _w1 ! great gateway4 ,! l[] body has its own gates ( exit4 ,b ! bulk ( our communication ) all ! out] univ]se goes on ?r\gh ! face4 ,& e "o ( ! w9d[s or gates ( ! face has its direct communication ) ea* ( ! f\r great c5t]s ( ! fir/ field ( consci\sness4 ,take ! m\?1 ) ! s5se ( ta/e4 ,! m\? is prim>ily ! gate ( ! two *ief s5sual c5t]s4 ,x is ! gateway to ! belly & ! lo9s4 ,?r\gh ! m\? we eat & we dr9k4 ,9 ! m\? we h ! s5se ( ta/e4 ,at ! lips1 too1 we kiss4 ,& ! kiss ( ! m\? is ! fir/ s5sual connection4 ,9 ! m\? also are ! tee?4 ,& ! tee? are ! in/rum5ts ( our s5sual w4 ,! gr[? ( ! tee? is controll$ entirely f ! two great s5sual c5t]s bel[ ! diaphragm4 ,b almo/ entirely f ! "o c5t]1 ! volunt>y c5t]4 ,! gr[? & ! life ( ! tee? dep5d almo/ entirely on ! lumb> ganglion4 ,dur+ ! gr[? ( ! tee? ! sympa!tic mode is held 9 abeyance4 ,!re is a sort ( arre/4 ,!re is pa91 !re is di>rhoea1 !re is mis]y = ! baby4 ,& we1 9 our age1 h no re/ ) our tee?4 ,our m\?s are too small4 ,= _m ages we h be5 suppress+ ! avid1 negroid1 s5sual w4 ,we h be5 conv]t+ ourselves into ideal creatures1 all spiritually consci\s1 & active dynamically only on "o plane1 ! upp]1 spiritual plane4 ,our m\? has contract$1 our tee? h become s(t & un-quick5$4 ,:]e 9 u are ! %>p & vivid tee? ( ! wolf1 ke5 to def5d & dev\r8 ,if we _h !m m1 we %\ld be happi]4 ,:]e are ! :ite negroid tee?8 ,:]e8 ,9 our little p9*$ m\?s !y h no room4 ,we are sympa?y-rott51 & _s-rott51 & idea-rott54 ,we h =feit$ our fla%+ s5sual p[]4 ,& we h false tee? 9 our m\?s4 ,9 ! same way ! lips ( our s5sual desire g ?9n] & m mean+less1 9 ! compression ( our upp] w & our idea-driv5 impulse4 ,let u break ! consci\s1 self-consci\s love-ideal1 & we %all gr[ /rong1 resi/ant tee? once m1 & ! tee?+ ( our "y w n be ! hell x is4 ,tee?+ is /rictly ! p]iod :5 ! volunt>y c5t] ( ! l[] plane fir/ comes into full activity1 & takes = a "t ! prec$5ce4 ,s1 ! m\? is ! great s5sual gate to ! l[] body4 ,b let u n =get x is also a gate by :i* we brea!1 ! gate ?r\gh :i* we speak & g impalpably =? to our object1 ! gate at :i* we c kiss ! p9*$1 delicate1 spiritual kiss4 ,!re=e1 al?\gh ! ma9 s5sual gate ( entrance to ! l[] body1 x has its ref]5ce also to ! upp] body4 ,ta/e1 ! s5se ( ta/e1 is an intake ( a pure communication betwe5 u & a body f ! outside _w4 ,x conta9s ! elem5t ( t\*1 & 9 ?is x ref]s to ! c>diac plexus4 ,b ta/e1 qua ta/e1 ref]s purely to ! sol> plexus4 ,& !n smell4 ,! no/rils are ! great gate f ! wide atmosph]e ( heav5 to ! lungs4 ,! extreme sigh ( ye>n+ we cat* ?r\gh ! m\?4 ,b ! delicate nose advances always into ! air1 our palpable communicator ) ! inf9ite air4 ,?us x has its fir/ delicate root 9 ! c>diac plexus1 ! root ( its intake4 ,& ! root ( ! delicate-pr\d exhalation1 rejection1 is 9 ! ?oracic ganglion4 ,b ! no/rils h _! o!r function ( smell4 ,"h ! delicate n]ve-ends run direct f ! l[] c5t]s1 f ! sol> plexus & ! lumb> ganglion1 or ev5 deep]4 ,!re is ! ref9$ s5sual intake :5 a sc5t is sweet4 ,!re is ! s5sual repudiation :5 a sc5t is unsav\ry4 ,& j z ! fullness ( ! lips & ! %ape ( ! m\? dep5d on ! developm5t f ! l[] or ! upp] c5t]s1 ! s5sual or ! spiritual1 s does ! %ape ( ! nose dep5d on ! direct control ( ! deepe/ c5t]s ( consci\sness4 ,a p]fect nose is p]haps ! result ( a balance 9 ! f\r modes4 ,b :at is a p]fect nose6--,we only "k t a %ort snub nose goes ) an ov]-sympa!tic nature1 n pr\d en\gh2 :ile a long nose d]ives f ! c5t] ( ! upp] w1 ! ?oracic ganglion1 our great c5t] ( curiosity1 & b5evol5t or objective control4 ,a ?ick1 squat nose is ! s5sual-sympa!tic nose1 & ! high1 ar*$ nose ! s5sual volunt>y nose1 hav+ ! curve ( repudiation1 z :5 we turn up our nose f a bad smell1 b also ! pr\d curve ( haught9ess & subjective au?ority4 ,! nose is "o ( ! greate/ indicators ( "*4 ,t is to say1 x almo/ inevitably indicates ! mode ( pr$om9ant dynamic consci\sness 9 ! individual1 ! pr$om9ant prim>y c5t] f :i* he lives4--,:5 savages rub noses in/ead ( kiss+1 !y are ex*ang+ a m s5sitive & a deep] s5sual salute ?an our lip-t\*4 ,! eyes are ! ?ird great gateway ( ! psy*e4 ,"h ! s\l goes 9 & out ( ! body1 z a bird fly+ =? & com+ home4 ,b ! root ( consci\s vision is almo/ entirely 9 ! brea/4 ,:5 ,i g =? f my own eyes1 9 delight to dwell ^u ! _w :i* is beyond me1 outside me1 !n ,i g =? f wide op5 w9d[s1 ?r\gh :i* %[s ! full & liv+ lamb5t d>kness ( my pres5t inw>d self4 ,i g =?1 & ,i leave ! lovely op5 d>kness ( my s5si5t self reveal$2 :5 ,i g =? 9 ! wond] ( vision to dwell ^u ! belov$1 or ^u ! wond] ( ! _w1 ,i g f ! c5t] ( ! glad brea/1 ?r\gh ! eyes1 & :o w may look into ! full s(t d>kness ( me1 ri* ) my undiscov]$ pres5ce4 ,b if ,i am displeas$1 !n h>d & cold my self /&s 9 my eyes1 & refuses any communication1 any sympa?y1 b m]ely />es outw>ds4 ,x is ! motion ( cold objectivity f ! ?oracic ganglion4 ,or1 f ! same c5t] ( w1 cold b int5se my eyes may wat* ) curiosity1 z a cat wat*es a fly4 ,x may be into my curiosity w creep an elem5t ( w>m gladness 9 ! wond] :i* ,i am behold+ outside myself4 ,or x may be t my curiosity w be purely & simply ! cold1 almo/ cruel curiosity ( ! upp] w1 direct$ f ! ganglion ( ! %\ld]s3 su* z is ! acute att5tion ( an exp]im5tal sci5ti/4 ,! eyes h1 h[ev]1 _! s5sual root z well4 ,b ?is is h>d to transf] into language1 z all our vision1 our mod]n ,nor!rn vision is 9 ! upp] mode ( actual see+4 ,!re is a s5sual way ( behold+4 ,!re is ! d>k1 desir\s look ( a savage :o appreh5ds only t :i* has direct ref]5ce to himself1 t :i* /irs a c]ta9 d>k ye>n+ )9 8 l[] self4 ,!n 8 eye is fa?omless blackness4 ,b !re is ! d>k eye :i* glances ) a c]ta9 fire1 & has no dep?4 ,!re is a ke5 quick vision :i* wat*es1 :i* beholds1 b :i* nev] yields to ! object outside3 z a cat wat*+ its prey4 ,! d>k glanc+ look :i* kn[s ! /rang5ess1 ! dang] ( its object1 ! ne$ to ov]come ! object4 ,! eye :i* is n wide op5 to /udy1 to le>n1 b :i* p[]fully1 pr\dly or cauti\sly glances1 & kn[s ! t]ror or ! pure desirability ( /rang5ess 9 ! object x beholds4 ,! savage is all 9 all 9 himself4 ,t :i* he sees outside he h>dly notices1 or1 he sees z some?+ odd1 some?+ automatically desirable1 some?+ lu/fully desirable1 or some?+ dang]\s4 ,:at we call vision1 t he has n4 ,we mu/ comp>e ! look 9 a horse's eye ) ! look 9 a c['s4 ,! eye ( ! c[ is s(t1 velvety1 receptive4 ,%e /&s & gazes ) ! /range/ int5t curiosity4 ,%e goes =? f h]self 9 wond]4 ,! root ( h] vision is 9 h] ye>n+ brea/4 ,! same "o he>s :5 %e moos4 ,! same massive weight ( passion is 9 a bull's brea/2 ! passion to g =? f himself4 ,8 /r5g? is 9 8 brea/1 8 weapons are on 8 head4 ,! wond] is always outside him4 ,b ! horse's eye is bright & glanc+4 ,8 curiosity is cauti\s1 full ( t]ror1 or else aggressive & fright5+ = ! object4 ,! root ( 8 vision is 9 8 belly1 9 ! sol> plexus4 ,& he fights ) 8 tee?1 & 8 heels1 ! s5sual weapons4 ,bo? ^! animals1 h[ev]1 are e/abli%$ 9 ! sympa!tic mode4 ,! life mode 9 bo? is s5sitively sympa!tic1 or prepond]antly sympa!tic4 ,^? animals :i* l cats1 wolves1 tig]s1 hawks1 *iefly live f ! great volunt>y c5t]s1 ^! animals are1 9 our s5se ( ! ^w1 almo/ visionless4 ,sight 9 !m is %>p5$ or n>r[$ d[n to a po9t3 ! object ( prey4 ,x is exclusive4 ,!y see no m ?an ?is4 ,& ?us !y see un?9kably f>1 un?9kably ke5ly4 ,mo/ animals1 h[ev]1 smell :at !y see3 vision is n v highly develop$4 ,!y "k bett] by ! m direct contact ( sc5t4 ,& vision 9 u becomes faulty because we proce$ too mu* 9 "o mode4 ,we see too mu*1 we att5d too mu*4 ,! d>k1 glanc+ sightlessness ( ! int5t savage1 ! n>r[$ vision ( ! cat1 ! s+le po9t ( vision ( ! hawk--^! we d n "k any m4 ,we live f> too mu* f ! sympa!tic c5t]s1 )\t ! balance f ! volunt>y mode4 ,& we live f>1 f> too mu* f ! upp] sympa!tic c5t] & volunt>y c5t]1 9 an endless objective curiosity4 ,sight is ! lea/ s5sual ( all ! s5ses4 ,& we /ra9 ourselves to see1 see1 see--ev]y?+1 ev]y?+ ?r\gh ! eye1 9 "o mode ( objective curiosity4 ,!re is no?+ inside u1 we />e endlessly at ! outside4 ,s our eyes beg9 to fail2 to retaliate on u4 ,we g %ort-sight$1 almo/ 9 self-protection4 ,he>+ ! la/1 & p]haps ! deepe/ ( ! s5ses4 ,& "h !re is no *oice4 ,9 e o!r faculty we h ! p[] ( rejection4 ,we h a *oice ( vision4 ,we c1 if we *oose1 see 9 ! t]ms ( ! wond]ful beyond1 ! _w ( light into :i* we g =? 9 joy to lose ourselves 9 x4 ,or we c see1 z ! ,egyptians saw1 9 ! t]ms ( _! own d>k s\ls3 see+ ! /rang5ess ( ! creature outside1 ! gulf betwe5 x & !m1 b f9ally1 its exi/5ce 9 t]ms ( !mselves4 ,!y saw accord+ to _! own un*angeable idea1 subjectively1 !y did n g =? f !mselves to seek ! wond] outside4 ,^? are ! two *ief ways ( sympa!tic vision4 ,we call our way ! objective1 ! ,egyptian ! subjective4 ,b objective & subjective are words t dep5d absolutely on y\r />t+ po9t4 ,spiritual & s5sual are mu* m descriptive t]ms4 ,b !re are1 ( c\rse1 also ! two ways ( volitional vision4 ,we c see ) ! endless mod]n critical sight1 analytic1 & at la/ delib]ately ugly4 ,or we c see z ! hawk sees ! "o conc5trat$ spot :]e beats ! life-he>t ( our prey4 ,9 ! f\r modes ( sight we h "s *oice4 ,we h "s *oice to refuse ta/es or smells or t\*4 ,9 he>+ we h ! m9imum ( *oice4 ,s\nd acts direct ^u ! great affective c5t]s4 ,we may volunt>ily quick5 our he>+1 or make x dull4 ,b we h really no *oice ( :at we he>4 ,our w is elim9at$4 ,s\nd acts direct1 almo/ automatically1 ^u ! affective c5t]s4 ,& we h no p[] ( go+ =? f ! e>4 ,we are always & only recipi5t4 ,nev]!less1 s\nd acts ^u u 9 v>i\s ways1 accord+ to ! f\r prim>y poles ( consci\sness4 ,! s++ ( birds acts almo/ entirely ^u ! c5t]s ( ! brea/4 ,birds1 :i* live by flight1 impell$ f ! /rong consci\s-activity ( ! brea/ & %\ld]s1 h become = u symbols ( ! _s1 ! upp] mode ( consci\sness4 ,_! legs h become idle1 almo/ ins5ti5t twigs4 ,only ! tail flirts f ! c5t] ( ! s5sual w4 ,b _! s++ acts direct ^u ! upp]1 or spiritual c5t]s 9 u4 ,s does almo/ all our music1 :i* is all ,*ri/ian 9 t5d5cy4 ,b mod]n music is analytical1 critical1 & x has discov]$ ! p[] ( ugl9ess4 ,l our m>tial music1 x is ( ! upp] plane1 l our m>tial songs1 our fifes & our brass-b&s4 ,^! act direct ^u ! ?oracic ganglion4 ,"t 01 h[ev]1 :5 music act$ ^u ! s5sual c5t]s direct4 ,we he> x /ill 9 savage music1 & 9 ! roll ( drums1 & 9 ! ro>+ ( lions1 & 9 ! h[l+ ( cats4 ,& 9 "s voices /ill we he> ! deep] resonance ( ! s5sual mode ( consci\sness4 ,b ! t5d5cy is = ev]y?+ to be br\ght on to ! upp] plane1 :il/ ! l[] plane is j work$ automatically f ! upp]4 ,,*apt] ,,vi ,,fir/ ,,glimm]+s ,,( ,,m9d ,we c n[ see :at is ! true goal ( education = a *ild4 ,x is ! full & h>moni\s developm5t ( ! f\r prim>y modes ( consci\sness1 always ) reg>d to ! individual nature ( ! *ild4 ,! goal is n ideal4 ,! aim is n m5tal consci\sness4 ,we want effectual human be+s1 n consci\s ones4 ,! f9al aim is n to "k1 b to be4 ,!re nev] 0 a m risky motto ?an t3 ,"k ?yself4 ,y've got to "k y\rself z f> z possible4 ,b n j = ! sake ( kn[+4 ,y've got to "k y\rself s t y c at la/ be y\rself4 ,be y\rself is ! la/ motto4 ,! :ole field ( dynamic & effectual consci\sness is always pre-m5tal1 non-m5tal4 ,n ev5 ! mo/ kn[+ man t ev] liv$ w\ld "k h[ he w\ld be feel+ next week2 :e!r "s new & utt]ly %att]+ impulse w\ld h aris5 9 him & laid 8 nicely-conceiv$ self 9 ru9s4 ,x is ! impulse we h to live by1 n ! ideals or ! idea4 ,b we h to "k ourselves pretty ?or\ghly be=e we c break ! automatism ( ideals & conv5tions4 ,! savage 9 a /ate ( nature is "o ( ! mo/ conv5tional ( creatures4 ,s is a *ild4 ,only ?r\gh f9e delicate k c we recognize & release our impulses4 ,n[ our :ole aim has be5 to =ce ea* individual to a maximum ( m5tal control1 & m5tal consci\sness4 ,our poor little plans ( *ildr5 are put into horrible =c+-b$s1 call$ s*ools1 & ! "y idea is !re =c$ to %oot4 ,x %oots1 poor ?+1 l a potato 9 a w>m cell>4 ,"o mass ( pallid sickly ideas & ideals4 ,& no root1 no life4 ,! ideas %oot1 h>d en\gh1 9 our sad (fspr+1 b !y %oot at ! exp5se ( life itself4 ,nev] 0 su* a mi/ake4 ,m5tal consci\sness is a purely individual affair4 ,"s m5 are born to be highly & delicately consci\s4 ,b = ! va/ majority1 mu* m5tal consci\sness is simply a cata/rophe1 a blight4 ,x j /ops _! liv+4 ,our bus9ess1 at ! pres5t1 is to prev5t at all co/ ! "y idea f %oot+4 ,! ideal m9d1 ! bra91 has become ! vampire ( mod]n life1 suck+ up ! blood & ! life4 ,!re is h>dly an orig9al ?\ght or orig9al utt]ance possible to u4 ,all is sickly repetition ( /ale1 /ale ideas4 ,let all s*ools be clos$ at once4 ,keep only a few te*nical tra9+ e/abli%m5ts1 no?+ m4 ,let humanity lie fall[1 = two g5]ations at lea/4 ,let no *ild le>n to read1 unless x le>ns by itself1 out ( its own individual p]si/5t desire4 ,t is my s]i\s admonition1 g5tle read]4 ,b ,i am n s flighty z to imag9e y w pay any he$4 ,b if ,i ?\ght y w\ld1 ,i %\ld feel my hope surge up4 ,& if y don't pay any he$1 calamity w at l5g? %ut y\r s*ools = y1 sure en\gh4 ,! process ( transf] f ! prim>y consci\sness to recogniz$ m5tal consci\sness is a my/]y l e o!r transf]4 ,yet x foll[s its own laws4 ,& "h we beg9 to approa* ! conf9es ( or?odox psy*ology1 ^u :i* we h no desire to trespass4 ,b ?is we c say4 ,! degree ( transf] f prim>y to m5tal consci\sness v>ies ) e individual4 ,b 9 mo/ individuals ! natural degree is v l[4 ,! process ( transf] f prim>y consci\sness is call$ sublimation1 ! sublimat+ ( ! pot5tial body ( k ) ! def9ite reality ( ! idea4 ,& ) ?is process we h id5tifi$ all education4 ,! v d]ivation ( ! ,lat9 ^w education %[s u4 ,( c\rse x %\ld mean ! lead+ =? ( ea* nature to its fullness4 ,b ) u1 fools t we are1 x is ! lead+ =? ( ! prim>y consci\sness1 ! pot5tial or dynamic consci\sness1 into m5tal consci\sness1 :i* is f9ite & /atic4 ,n[ be=e we set out s gayly to lead our *ildr5 en bloc out ( ! dynamic into ! /atic way ( consci\sness1 let u consid] a mom5t :at we are do+4 ,a *ild 9 ! womb c h no idea ( ! "m4 ,i ?9k or?odox psy*ology w all[ u s mu*4 ,& yet ! *ild 9 ! womb mu/ be dynamically consci\s ( ! "m4 ,o!rwise h[ c\ld x ma9ta9 a def9ite & progressively develop+ relation to h]8 ,?is consci\sness1 h[ev]1 is utt]ly non-ideal1 non-m5tal1 purely dynamic1 a matt] ( dynamic pol>iz$ int]c\rse ( vital vibrations1 z an ex*ange ( wireless messages :i* are nev] translat$ f ! pulse-rhy?m into spee*1 because !y h no ne$ to be4 ,x is a dynamic pol>iz$ int]c\rse betwe5 ! great prim>y nuclei 9 ! foetus & ! correspond+ nuclei 9 ! dynamic mat]nal psy*e4 ,?is =m ( consci\sness is e/abli%$ at conception1 & cont9ues long aft] bir?4 ,nay1 x cont9ues all life long4 ,b ! p>ticul> int]*ange ( dynamic consci\sness betwe5 "m & *ild suff]s no int]ruption at bir?4 ,x cont9ues almo/ ! same4 ,! *ild has no conception :atsoev] ( ! "m4 ,x _c see h]1 = its eye has no focus4 ,x c he> h]1 because he>+ ne$s no transmission into concept1 b x has no oral notion ( s\nds4 ,x kn[s h]4 ,b only by a =m ( vital dynamic correspond5ce1 a sort ( magnetic int]*ange4 ,! idea does n int]v5e at all4 ,gradually1 h[ev]1 ! d>k %ad[ ( our object beg9s to loom 9 ! =mless m9d ( ! infant4 ,! idea ( ! "m is1 z x 71 gradually photograph$ on ! c]ebral plasm4 ,x beg9s ) ! fa9te/ %ad[--b ! figure is gradually develop$ ?r\gh ye>s ( exp]i5ce4 ,x is nev] q complet$4 ,h[ does ! figure ( ! "m gradually develop z a conception 9 ! *ild m9d8 ,x develops z ! result ( ! positive & negative reaction f ! prim>y c5t]s ( consci\sness4 ,f ! fir/ great c5t] ( sympa?y ! *ild is drawn to a lovely one+ ) ! "m4 ,f ! fir/ great c5t] ( w comes ! indep5d5t self-ass]tion :i* locates ! "m z some?+ outside1 some?+ objective4 ,& z a result ( ?is tw(old notion1 a tw(old increase 9 ! *ild4 ,fir/1 ! dynamic e/abli%m5t ( ! individual consci\sness 9 ! infant3 & !n ! fir/ %ad[ ( a m5tal conception ( ! "m1 9 ! infant bra94 ,! developm5t ( ! orig9al m9d 9 e *ild & e man always & only foll[s f ! dual fulfillm5t 9 ! dynamic consci\sness4 ,b m>k fur!r4 ,ea* "t1 aft] ! f\rfold int]*ange betwe5 two dynamic pol>iz$ lives1 !re results a developm5t 9 ! individuality & a sublimation into consci\sness1 bo? simultane\sly 9 ea* p>ty3 & ?is dual developm5t causes at once a dim9ution 9 ! dynamic pol>ity betwe5 ! two p>ties4 ,t is1 z its individuality & its m5tal concept ( ! "m develop 9 ! *ild1 !re is a correspond+ wan+ ( ! dynamic relation betwe5 ! *ild & ! "m4 ,& ?is is ! natural progression ( all love4 ,z we h said be=e1 ! accompli%m5t ( individuality nev] f9ally exhau/s ! dynamic fl[ betwe5 p>5ts & *ild4 ,9 ! same way1 a *ild c nev] h a f9ite conception ( ei!r ( its p>5ts4 ,x c h a v mu* m f9ite1 f9i%$ conception ( its aunts or its fri5ds4 ,! portrait ( ! p>5t c nev] be q complet$ 9 ! m9d ( ! son or daught]4 ,z long z "t la/s x mu/ be left unf9i%$4 ,nev]!less1 ! inevitable photography ( "t ^u ! m5tal plasm does pr9t at la/ a v sub/antial portrait ( ! p>5t1 a v well-fill$ concept 9 ! *ild m9d4 ,& ! ne>] a conception comes t[>ds f9ality1 ! ne>] does ! dynamic relation1 out ( :i* ?is concept has aris51 draw to a close4 ,to "k1 is to lose4 ,:5 ,i h a f9i%$ m5tal concept ( a belov$1 or a fri5d1 !n ! love & ! fri5d%ip is dead4 ,x falls to ! level ( an acqua9tance4 ,z soon z ,i h a f9i%$ m5tal conception1 a full idea ev5 ( myself1 !n dynamically ,i am dead4 ,to "k is to die4 ,b k & dea? are "p ( our natural developm5t4 ,only1 ( c\rse1 mo/ ?+s c nev] be kn[n by u 9 full4 ,:i* means we d nev] absolutely die1 ev5 to our p>5ts4 ,s t ,jesus' "q to ,8 "m1 ,woman1 :at h ,i to d ) !e6--:ile express+ a major tru?1 /ill has an exagg]at$ s\nd1 :i* comes f its d5ial ( ! m9or tru?4 ,?is progression f dynamic relation%ip t[>ds a f9i%$ individuality & a f9i%$ m5tal concept is c>ri$ on f ! f\r great prim>y c5t]s ?r\gh ! correspond5ce m$ium ( all ! s5ses & s5sibilities4 ,fir/ ( all1 ! *ild kn[s ! "m only ?r\gh t\*--p]fect & imm$iate contact4 ,& yet1 f ! mom5t ( conception1 ! egg-cell repudiat$ complete adhesion & ev5 communication1 & ass]t$ its individual integrity4 ,! *ild 9 ! womb1 p]fect a contact ?\gh x may h ) ! "m1 is all ! "t also dynamically pol>iz$ aga9/ ?is contact4 ,f ! fir/ mom5t1 ?is relation 9 t\* has a dual pol>ity1 &1 no d\bt1 a dual mode4 ,x is a f\rfold int]*ange ( consci\sness1 ! mom5t ! egg-cell has made its two spontane\s divisions4 ,z soon z ! *ild is born1 !re is a real sev]ance4 ,! contact ( t\* is int]rupt$1 x n[ becomes occasional only4 ,true1 ! dynamic fl[ betwe5 "m & *ild is n sev]$ :5 simple physical contact is miss+4 ,?\gh "m & *ild may n t\*1 /ill ! dynamic fl[ cont9ues betwe5 !m4 ,! "m kn[s h] *ild1 feels h] b[els & h] brea/ drawn to x1 ev5 if x be a hundr$ miles away4 ,b if ! sev]ance cont9ue long1 ! dynamic fl[ beg9s to die1 bo? 9 "m & *ild4 ,x wanes fairly quickly--& p]haps c nev] be fully reviv$4 ,! dynamic relation betwe5 p>5t & *ild may fairly easily fall into quiesc5ce1 a /atic condition4 ,= a full dynamic relation%ip x is necess>y t !re be actual contact4 ,! n]ves run f ! f\r prim>y dynamos1 & end ) live ends all ov] ! body4 ,& x is necess>y to br+ ! live ends ( ! n]ves ( ! *ild into contact ) ! live ends ( correspond+ n]ves 9 ! "m1 s t a pure circuit is e/abli%$4 ,:]ev] a pure circuit is e/abli%$1 !re occurs a pure developm5t 9 ! individual creation1 & ?is is inevitably accompani$ by s5sation2 & s5sation is ! fir/ t]m ( m5tal k4 ,s1 f ! field ( ! brea/ & arms1 ! upp] circuit1 & f ! field ( ! knees & feet & belly1 ! l[] circuit4 ,& !n1 ! mom5t a *ild is born1 ! face is alive4 ,& ! face communicates direct ) bo? planes ( prim>y consci\sness4 ,! mom5t a *ild is born1 x beg9s to grope = ! brea/4 ,& sudd5ly a new great circuit is e/abli%$1 ! f\r poles all work+ at once1 z ! *ild sucks4 ,!re is ! pr(\nd desir\sness ( ! l[] c5t] ( sympa?y1 & ! sup]ior avidity ( ! c5t] ( w1 & at ! same "t1 ! cleav+ ye>n+ to ! nipple1 & ! t9y curiosity ( lips & gums4 ,! nipple ( ! "m's brea/ is "o ( ! great gates ( ! body1 h5ce ( ! liv+ psy*e4 ,9 ! nipple t]m9ate vivid n]ves :i* fla% _! v p[]ful vibrations ?r\gh ! m\? ( ! *ild & deep into its f\r great poles ( be+ & kn[+4 ,ev5 ! nipples ( ! man are gateways to ! great dynamic fl[3 /ill gateways4 ,t\*1 ta/e1 & smell are n[ active 9 ! baby4 ,& ^! s5ses1 s-call$1 are /rictly s5sations4 ,!y are ! fir/ t]m ( ! *ild's m5tal k4 ,& on ^! ?ree c]ebral reactions ! f\ndation ( ! future m9d is laid4 ,! mom5t !re is a p]fect pol>iz$ circuit betwe5 ! fir/ f\r poles ( dynamic consci\sness1 at t mom5t does ! m9d1 ! t]m9al /ation1 fla% into cognition4 ,! fir/ cognition is m]ely s5sation3 s5sation & ! remembrance ( s5sation be+ ! fir/ elem5t 9 all kn[+ & 9 all conception4 ,! circuit ( t\*1 ta/e1 & smell mu/ be well e/abli%$1 be=e ! eyes beg9 actually to see4 ,all m5tal k is built up ( s5sation & ( memory4 ,x is ! cont9ually recurr+ s5sation ( ! t\* ( ! "m :i* =ms ! basis ( ! fir/ conception ( ! "m4 ,aft] t1 ! gradually discrim9at$ ta/e ( ! "m1 & sc5t ( ! "m4 ,till gradually sight & he>+ develop & l>gely usurp ! fir/ ?ree s5ses1 z m$ium ( correspond5ce & ( k4 ,& :ile1 ( c\rse1 ! s5sational k is be+ secret$ 9 ! bra91 9 "s mu* m my/]i\s way ! liv+ individuality ( ! *ild is be+ develop$ 9 ! f\r fir/ nuclei1 ! f\r great n]ve-c5t]s ( ! prim>y field ( consci\sness & be+4 ,z "t goes on1 ! *ild le>ns to see ! "m4 ,at fir/ he sees h] face z a blur1 & ?\gh he kn[s h]1 kn[s h] by a direct gl[ ( communication1 z if h] face 7 a w>m gl[+ life-lamp :i* rejoic$ him4 ,b gradually1 z ! circuit ( t\*1 ta/e1 & smell become p[]fully e/abli%$2 gradually1 z ! individual develops 9 ! *ild1 & s retreats t[>ds isolation2 gradually1 z ! *ild /&s m immune f ! "m1 ! circuit ( correspond5ce ext5ds1 & ! eyes n[ communicate across space1 ! e>s beg9 to discrim9ate s\nds4 ,la/ ( all develops discrim9ate he>+4 ,n[ gradually ! picture ( ! "m is transf]r$ to ! *ild's m9d1 & ! s\nd ( ! fir/ baby-words is impr9t$4 ,& z ! *ild le>ns to discrim9ate visually1 objectively1 betwe5 ! "m & ! nurse1 he le>ns to *oose1 & becomes individually free4 ,& /ill1 ! dynamic correspond5ce is n f9i%$4 ,x only *anges its circuit4 ,:ile ! bra9 is regi/]+ s5sations1 ! f\r dynamic c5t]s are com+ into p]fect relation4 ,or r1 z we see1 ! rev]se is ! case4 ,z ! dynamic c5t]s come into p]fect relation1 ! m9d regi/]s & rememb]s s5sations1 & beg9s consci\sly to "k4 ,b ! great field ( activity is /ill & always ! dynamic field4 ,:5 a *ild le>ns to walk1 x le>ns almo/ entirely f ! sol> plexus & ! lumb> ganglion1 ! c>diac plexus & ! ?oracic ganglion balanc+ ! upp] body4 ,!re is a p]fect$ circuit ( pol>ity4 ,! two l[] c5t]s are ! positive1 ! two upp] ! negative poles4 ,& s ! *ild /rikes out ) 8 feet = ! e>?1 presses1 & /rikes away aga9 f ! e>?1 ! two upp] c5t]s mean:ile correspond+ implicitly 9 ! balance ( ! upp] body4 ,x is a *a9 ( spontane\s activity 9 ! f\r prim>y c5t]s1 e/abli%+ a circuit ?r\gh ! :ole body4 ,b ! positive poles are ! l[] c5t]s4 ,& ! bra9 has probably no?+ at all to d ) x4 ,ev5 ! desire to walk is n born 9 ! bra91 b 9 ! prim>y nuclei4 ,! same ) ! use ( ! h&s & arms4 ,x means ! e/abli%m5t ( a pure circuit betwe5 ! f\r c5t]s1 ! two upp] poles n[ be+ ! positive1 ! l[] ! negative poles1 & ! h&s ! live end ( ! wire4 ,aga9 ! bra9 is n conc]n$4 ,probably1 ev5 9 ! fir/ delib]ate grasp+ ( an object1 ! bra9 is n conc]n$4 ,n until !re is an elem5t ( recognition & s5sation-memory4 ,all our primal activity orig9ates & circulates purely 9 ! f\r great n]ve c5t]s4 ,all our active desire1 our g5u9e impulse1 our love1 our hope1 our ye>n+1 ev]y?+ orig9ates my/]i\sly at ^! f\r great c5t]s or well-heads ( our exi/5ce3 ev]y?+ vital & dynamic4 ,! m9d c only regi/] t :i* results f ! emanation ( ! dynamic impulse & ! collision or communion ( ?is impulse ) its object4 ,s n[ we see t we c nev] "k ourselves4 ,k is to consci\sness :at ! signpo/ is to ! travel]3 j an indication ( ! way :i* has be5 travel$ be=e4 ,k is n ev5 9 direct proportion to be+4 ,!re may be great k ( *emi/ry 9 a man :o is a r poor be+3 & ^? :o "k1 ev5 9 wisdom l ,solomon1 are (t5 at ! end ( ! matt] ( liv+1 n at ! beg9n+4 ,z a matt] ( fact1 ,david did ! liv+1 ! dynamic a*ievem5t4 ,to ,solomon 0 left ! consummation & ! f9i%1 & ! dy+ d[n4 ,yet we mu/ "k1 if only 9 ord] to le>n n to "k4 ,! supreme lesson ( human consci\sness is to le>n h[ n to "k4 ,t is1 h[ n to int]f]e4 ,t is1 h[ to live dynamically1 f ! great ,s\rce1 & n /atically1 l ma*9es driv5 by ideas & pr9ciples f ! head1 or automatically1 f "o fix$ desire4 ,at la/1 k mu/ be put into its true place 9 ! liv+ activity ( man4 ,& we mu/ "k deeply1 9 ord] ev5 to d t4 ,s a new conception ( ! mean+ ( education4 ,education means lead+ out ! individual nature 9 ea* man & woman to its true fullness4 ,y c't d t by /imulat+ ! m9d4 ,to pump education into ! m9d is fatal4 ,t :i* sublimates f ! dynamic consci\sness into ! m5tal consci\sness has alone any value4 ,?is1 9 mo/ individuals1 is v little inde$4 ,s t mo/ individuals1 "u a wise gov]nm5t1 w\ld be mo/ c>efully protect$ f all vici\s attempts to inject extrane\s ideas into !m4 ,e extrane\s idea1 :i* has no inh]5t root 9 ! dynamic consci\sness1 is z dang]\s z a nail driv5 into a "y tree4 ,= ! mass ( p1 k mu/ be symbolical1 my?ical1 dynamic4 ,?is means1 y mu/ h a high]1 responsible1 consci\s class3 & !n 9 v>y+ degrees ! l[] classes1 v>y+ 9 _! degree ( consci\sness4 ,symbols mu/ be true f top to bottom4 ,b ! int]pretation ( ! symbols mu/ re/1 degree aft] degree1 9 ! high]1 responsible1 consci\s classes4 ,to ^? :o _c dive/ !mselves aga9 ( m5tal consci\sness & def9ite ideas1 m5tality & ideas are dea?1 nails ?r\gh _! h&s & feet4 ,,*apt] ,,vii ,,fir/ ,,/eps ,,9 ,,education ,! fir/ process ( education is obvi\sly n a m5tal process4 ,:5 a "m talks to a baby1 %e is n enc\rag+ its little m9d to ?9k4 ,:5 %e is coax+ h] *ild to walk1 %e is n mak+ a !oretic exposition ( ! sci5ce ( equilibration4 ,%e cr\*es be=e ! *ild1 at a little di/ance1 & spreads h] h&s4 ,come1 baby--come to "m4 ,come6 ,baby1 walk6 ,yes1 walk6 ,walk to "m6 ,come along4 ,a little walk to its "m4 ,come6 ,come !n6 ,:y yes1 a pretty baby6 ,oh1 he c toddle6 ,yes--yes--,no1 don't be fright5$1 a de>4 ,no--,come to "m-- & %e cat*es 8 little p9a=e by ! tip--& ! infant lur*es =w>d4 ,!re6 ,!re6 ,a beautiful walk6 ,a beautiful walk]1 yes6 ,walk$ all ! way to "m1 baby did4 ,yes1 he did-- ,n[ :o w tell me t ?is talk has any rhyme or reason8 ,n a sp>k ( reason4 ,yet a real rhyme3 or rhy?m1 mu* m important4 ,! song & ! urge ( ! "m's voice plays direct on ! affective c5t]s ( ! *ild1 a wond]ful /imulus & tuition4 ,! words h>dly matt]4 ,true1 ?is con/ant repetition 9 ! end =ms a m5tal association4 ,at ! mom5t !y h no m5tal significance at all = ! baby4 ,b !y r+ ) a /range palpitat+ music 9 8 flutt]+ s\l1 & lift him into motion4 ,& ?is is ! way to educate *ildr53 ! in/9ctive way ( mo!rs4 ,!re %\ld be no ef=t made to tea* *ildr5 to ?9k1 to h ideas4 ,only to lift !m & urge !m into dynamic activity4 ,! voice ( dynamic s\nd1 n ! words ( und]/&+4 ,damn und]/&+4 ,ge/ures1 & t\*1 & expression ( ! face1 n !ory4 ,nev] h ideas ab\t *ildr5--& nev] h ideas = !m4 ,if we are go+ to tea* *ildr5 we mu/ tea* !m fir/ to move4 ,& n by rule or m5tal dictation4 ,horror6 ,b by play+ & teas+ & ang]1 & amusem5t4 ,a *ild mu/ le>n to move bli! & free & pr\d4 ,x mu/ le>n ! fullness ( spontane\s motion4 ,& ?is x c only le>n by cont9u\s reaction f all ! c5t]s1 ?r\gh all ! emotions4 ,a *ild mu/ le>n to conta9 itself4 ,x mu/ le>n to sit /ill if ne$ be4 ,"p ( ! fir/ phase ( education is ! le>n+ to /ay /ill & be physically self-conta9$4 ,!n a *ild mu/ le>n to be alone1 & to adv5ture alone1 & to play alone4 ,any peevi% cl++ %\ld be q r\ghly rebuff$4 ,f ! v fir/ day1 ?r[ a *ild back on its own res\rces--ev5 a little cruelly sometimes4 ,b don't neglect x1 don't h a negative attitude to x4 ,play ) x1 tease x & roll x ov] z a dog h] puppy1 mock x :5 x is too timor\s1 laugh at x1 scold x :5 x really bo!rs y--= a *ild mu/ le>n n to bo!r ano!r p]son--& :5 x makes y g5u9ely angry1 spank x s\ndly4 ,b always rememb] t x is a s+le little s\l by itself2 & t ! responsibility = ! wise1 w>m relation%ip is y\rs1 ! adult's4 ,!n always wat* its deportm5t4 ,above all ?+s enc\rage a /raight backbone & pr\d %\ld]s4 ,above all ?+s despise a slov5ly movem5t1 an ugly be>+ & unpleas+ mann]4 ,& make a mock ( petulance & ( too mu* timidity4 ,we are imbeciles to />t bo!r+ ab\t love & s =? 9 a *ild4 ,=get utt]ly t !re is su* a ?+ z emotional reciprocity4 ,b nev] =get y\r own honor z an adult individual t[>ds a small individual4 ,x is a "q ( honor1 n ( love4 ,a tree gr[s /raight :5 x has deep roots & is n too /ifl$4 ,love is a spontane\s ?+1 com+ out ( ! spontane\s effectual s\l4 ,z a delib]ate pr9ciple x is an unmitigat$ evil4 ,also morality :i* is bas$ on ideas1 or on an ideal1 is an unmitigat$ evil4 ,a *ild :i* is pr\d & free 9 its movem5ts1 9 all its deportm5t1 w be q z moral z ne$ be4 ,honor is an in/9ct1 a sup]b in/9ct :i* %\ld be kept ke5ly alive4 ,immorality1 vice1 crime1 ^! come f a suppression or a collapse at "o or o!r ( ! great prim>y c5t]s4 ,if "o ( ^! c5t]s fails to ma9ta9 its true pol>ity1 !n !re is a physical or psy*ic d]angem5t1 or bo?4 ,& vici\sness or crime are ! result ( a d]angem5t 9 ! prim>y sy/em4 ,pure morality is only an in/9ctive adju/m5t :i* ! s\l makes 9 e circum/ance1 adju/+ "o ?+ to ano!r liv+ly1 delicately1 s5sitively4 ,!re c be no law4 ,!re=e1 at e co/ & *>ge keep ! fir/ f\r c5t]s alive & al]t1 active1 & vivid 9 reaction4 ,& !n y ne$ fe> no p]v]sion4 ,:at we h done1 9 our era1 is1 fir/1 we h tri$ z f> z possible to suppress or subord9ate ! two s5sual c5t]s4 ,we h s unduly insi/$ on & exagg]at$ ! upp] spiritual or selfless mode--! liv+ 9 ! o!r p]son & ?r\gh ! o!r p]son--t we h caus$ already a dang]\s ov]-balance 9 ! natural psy*e4 ,to correct ?is we g "o worse1 & try to rule ourselves m & m by ! old ideas ( sympa?y & b5evol5ce4 ,we ?9k t love & b5evol5ce w cure any?+4 ,:]eas love & b5evol5ce are our poison1 poison to ! giv]1 & /ill m poison to ! receiv]4 ,poison only because !re is practically no spontane\s love left 9 ! _w4 ,x is all w1 ! fatal love-w & insatiable morbid curiosity4 ,! pure sympa!tic mode ( love long ago broke d[n4 ,!re is n[ only deadly1 exagg]at$ volition4 ,?is is also :y g5]al education %\ld be suppress$ z soon z possible4 ,we h fall5 into a /ate ( fix$1 deadly w4 ,ev]y?+ we d & say to our *ildr5 9 s*ool t5ds simply to fix 9 !m ! same deadly w1 "u ! pret5ce ( pure love4 ,our idealism is ! clue to our fix$ w4 ,love1 beauty1 b5evol5ce1 progress1 ^! are ! words we use4 ,b ! pr9ciple we evoke is a pr9ciple ( b>r51 sanctifi$ compulsion ( all life4 ,we want to put all life "u compulsion4 ,h[ to outwit ! n]ves1 = example4--,& !re=e1 to save ! *ildr5 z f> z possible1 elem5t>y education %\ld be /opp$ at once4 ,no *ild %\ld be s5t to any sort ( public in/itution be=e ! age ( t5 ye>s4 ,if ,i c\ld b advise1 ,i w\ld advise t ?is notice %\ld be s5t ?r\gh ! l5g? & bread? ( ! l&4 ,p>5ts1 ! ,/ate c no long] be responsible = ! m9d & "* ( y\r *ildr54 ,f ! fir/ day ( ! com+ ye>1 all s*ools w be clos$ = an indef9ite p]iod4 ,fa!rs1 see t y\r boys are tra9$ to be m54 ,mo!rs1 see t y\r daught]s are tra9$ to be wom54 ,all s*ools w %ortly be conv]t$ ei!r into public work%ops or into gymnasia4 ,no *ild w be admitt$ into ! work%ops "u t5 ye>s ( age4 ,active tra9+ 9 primitive modes ( fight+ & gymna/ics w be compulsory = all boys ov] t5 ye>s ( age4 ,all girls ov] t5 ye>s ( age mu/ att5d at "o dome/ic work%op4 ,all girls ov] t5 ye>s ( age may1 9 addition1 att5d at "o work%op ( skill$ labor1 or ( te*nical indu/ry1 or ( art4 ,admission = ?ree mon?s' probation4 ,all boys ov] t5 ye>s ( age mu/ att5d at "o work%op ( dome/ic crafts1 & at "o work%op ( skill$ labor1 or ( te*nical indu/ry1 or ( art4 ,a boy may *oose1 ) 8 p>5ts' cons5t1 8 s*ool ( labor1 or te*nical indu/ry or art1 b ! directors res]ve ! "r to transf] him to a m suitable dep>tm5t1 if necess>y1 aft] a ?ree mon?s' probation4 ,x is ! int5tion ( ?is ,/ate to =m a body ( active1 en]getic citiz5s4 ,! dang] ( a helpless1 presumptu\s1 news-pap]-read+ population is univ]sally recogniz$4 ,all elem5t>y education is left 9 ! h&s ( ! p>5ts1 save su* z is necess>y to ! diff]5t bran*es ( indu/ry4 ,s*ools ( m5tal culture are free to all individuals ov] f\rte5 ye>s ( age4 ,univ]sities are free to all :o obta9 ! fir/ culture degree4 ,! fact is1 our process ( univ]sal education is to-day s unc\?1 s psy*ologically b>b>ic1 t x is ! mo/ t]rible m5ace to ! exi/5ce ( our race4 ,we seize hold ( our *ildr51 & by p>rot-compulsion we =ce into !m a set ( m5tal tricks4 ,by unnatural & unheal?y compulsion we =ce !m into a c]ta9 am\nt ( c]ebral activity4 ,& !n1 aft] a few ye>s1 ) a c]ta9 numb] ( w9dmills 9 _! heads1 we turn !m loose1 l s _m inf]ior ,don ,quixotes1 to make a mess ( life4 ,all t !y h le>nt 9 _! heads has no ref]5ce at all to _! dynamic s\ls4 ,! w9dmills sp9 & sp9 9 a w9d ( words1 ,dulc9ea del ,toboso beckons r\nd e corn]1 & our nation ( inf]ior ,quixotes jumps on & (f tram-c>s1 tra9s1 bicycles1 motor-c>s1 buses1 9 "o mad *ase ( ! div9e ,dulc9ea1 :o is all ! "t *ew+ *ocolates & feel+ v1 v bor$4 ,x is no use tell+ ! poor devils to /op4 ,!y read 9 ! newspap]s ab\t m ,dulc9eas & m *ivalry due to !m & m horrid p]sons :o injure ! fair fame ( ^! bor$ females4 ,& r\nd !y skelt]1 aft] _! own tails4 ,t is1 :5 !y are n =c$ to gr9d out _! lives = a wage4 ,?\gh "w is ! only ?+ t prev5ts our masses f go+ q mad4 ,to tell ! tru?1 ideas are ! mo/ dang]\s g]ms mank9d has ev] be5 inject$ )4 ,!y are introduc$ into ! bra9 by injection1 9 s*ools & by means ( newspap]s1 & !n we are done =4 ,an idea :i* is m]ely introduc$ into ! bra91 & />t$ sp9n+ !re l "s outrage\s insect1 is ! cause ( all our mis]y to-day4 ,in/ead ( liv+ f ! spontane\s c5t]s1 we live f ! head4 ,we *ew1 *ew1 *ew at "s !ory1 "s idea4 ,we gr9d1 gr9d1 gr9d 9 our m5tal consci\sness1 till we are beside ourselves4 ,our prim>y affective c5t]s1 our c5t]s ( spontane\s be+1 are s utt]ly gr\nd r\nd & automatiz$ t !y squeak 9 all /ages ( di%>mony & incipi5t collapse4 ,we are a p--& n we alone--( idiots1 imbeciles & epileptics1 & we don't ev5 "k we are rav+4 ,& all is due1 directly & solely1 to t hateful g]m we call ! ,ideal4 ,! ,ideal is always evil1 no matt] :at ideal x be4 ,no idea %\ld ev] be rais$ to a gov]n+ ?rone4 ,?is does n mean t man %\ld imm$iately cut (f 8 head & try to develop a pair ( eyes 9 8 brea/s4 ,b x does mean ?is3 t an idea is j ! f9al concrete or regi/]$ result ( liv+ dynamic int]*ange & reactions3 t no idea is ev] p]fectly express$ until its dynamic cause is f9i%$2 & t to cont9ue to put into dynamic effect an already p]fect$ idea means ! nullification ( all liv+ activity1 ! sub/itution ( me*anism1 & all ! resultant horrors ( ennui1 ec/asy1 neura/h5ia1 & a collaps+ psy*e4 ,! :ole tree ( our idea ( life & liv+ is dead4 ,!n let u leave (f hang+ ourselves & our *ildr5 f its bran*es l m$l>s4 ,! idea1 ! actual idea1 mu/ rise ev] fre%1 ev] displac$1 l ! leaves ( a tree1 f out ( ! quickness ( ! sap1 & accord+ to ! =ev] incalculable efflu5ce ( ! great dynamic c5t]s ( life4 ,! tree ( life is a gay k9d ( tree t is =ev] dropp+ its leaves & budd+ out afre%1 q diff]5t ones4 ,if ! la/ lot 7 ?i/le leaves1 ! next lot may be v9e4 ,y nev] c tell ) ! ,tree ( ,life4 ,s we come back to t preci\s *ild :o co/s u su* a lot ( ink4 ,by :at "r1 ,i ask y1 are we go+ to inject into him our own disease-g]ms ( ideas & infallible motives8 ,by ! "r ( ! diseas$1 :o want to infect ev]ybody4 ,!re are few1 few p 9 :om ! liv+ impulse & reaction develops & sublimates into m5tal consci\sness4 ,!re are all k9ds ( trees 9 ! =e/4 ,b few ( !m inde$ be> ! apples ( k4 ,! mod]n _w insi/s1 h[ev]1 t e individual %all be> ! apples ( k4 ,s we g ?r\gh ! =e/ ( mank9d1 cut back e tree1 & try to graft x into an apple-tree4 ,a nice wood ( mon/]s we make by s do+4 ,x is n ! nature ( mo/ m5 to "k & to und]/& & to reason v f>4 ,!re=e1 :y %\ld !y make a pret5se ( x8 ,x is ! nature ( "s few m5 to reason1 !n let !m reason4 ,^? ^: nature x is to be rational w in/9ctively ask :y & :]e=e1 & wre/le ) !mselves = an answ]4 ,b :y e ,tom1 ,dick & ,h>ry %\ld h ! :y & :]e=e ( ! univ]se ramm$ into him1 & %\ld be all[$ to draw ! conclusion h5ce t he is ! ideal p]son & responsible = ! univ]se1 ,i don't "k4 ,x is a lie anyway--= nei!r ! :ys nor ! :]e=es are 8 own1 & he is b a p>rot ) 8 nut ( a univ]se4 ,:y %\ld we cram ! m9d ( a *ild ) facts t h no?+ to d ) 8 own exp]i5ces1 & h no relation to 8 own dynamic activity8 ,let u realize t e extrane\s idea effectually introduc$ into a man's m9d is a direct ob/ruction ( 8 dynamic activity4 ,e idea :i* is introduc$ f outside into a man's m9d1 & :i* does n correspond to 8 own dynamic nature1 is a fatal /umbl+-block = t man3 is a cause ( arre/ = 8 true individual activity1 & a d]angem5t to 8 psy*ic be+4 ,= in/ance1 if ,i tea* a man ! idea t all m5 are equal4 ,n[ ?is idea has no f\ndation 9 exp]i5ce1 b is logically d$uc$ f c]ta9 e?ical or philosophic pr9ciples4 ,b !re is a disease ( idealism 9 ! _w1 & we all are born ) x4 ,p>ticul>ly tea*]s are born ) x4 ,s !y seize on ! idea ( equality1 & proce$ to in/il x4 ,) :at result8 ,y\r man is no long] a man1 liv+ 8 own life f 8 own spontane\s c5t]s4 ,he is a !oretic imbecile try+ to fru/rate & dislocate all life4 ,x is ! dea? ( all life to =ce a pure idea into practice4 ,life mu/ be liv$ f ! deep1 self-responsible spontane\s c5t]s ( e individual1 9 a vital1 non-ideal circuit ( dynamic relation betwe5 individuals4 ,! passions or desires :i* are ?\ght-born are deadly4 ,any p>ticul> mode ( passion or desire :i* receives an exclusive ideal sanction at once becomes poison\s4 ,if ?is is true = m51 x is mu* m true = wom54 ,tea* a woman to act f an idea1 & y de/roy h] womanhood = ev]4 ,make a woman self-consci\s1 & h] s\l is b>r5 z a s&bag4 ,:y 7 we driv5 out ( ,p>adise8 ,:y did we fall into ?is gnaw+ disease ( unappeasable dissatisfaction8 ,n because we s9n$4 ,ah1 no4 ,all ! animals 9 ,p>adise enjoy$ ! s5sual passion ( coition4 ,n because we s9n$4 ,b because we got our sex into our head4 ,:5 ,eve ate t p>ticul> apple1 %e became aw>e ( h] own womanhood1 m5tally4 ,& m5tally %e began to exp]im5t ) x4 ,%e has be5 exp]im5t+ ev] s9ce4 ,s has man4 ,to ! rage & horror ( bo? ( !m4 ,^! sexual exp]im5ts are really ana!ma4 ,b once a woman is sexually self-consci\s1 :at is %e to d8 ,!re x is1 %e is born ) ! disease ( h] own self-consci\sness1 z 0 h] "m be=e h]4 ,%e is b\nd to exp]im5t & try "o idea aft] ano!r1 9 ! long run always to h] own mis]y4 ,%e is b\nd to h fix$ "o1 & !n ano!r idea ( h]self1 h]self z woman4 ,fir/ %e is ! noble sp\se ( a n-q-s-noble male3 !n a ,mat] ,dolorosa3 !n a m9i/]+ ,angel3 !n a compet5t social unit1 a ,memb] ( ,p>liam5t or a ,lady ,doctor or a plat=m speak]3 & all ! :ile1 z a side %[1 %e is ! ,isolde ( "s ,tri/an1 or ! ,gu9ev]e ( "s ,lancelot1 or ! ,fata ,morgana ( all m5--9 h] own idea4 ,%e c't /op hav+ an idea ( h]self4 ,%e c't get h]self out ( h] own head4 ,& !re %e is1 function+ away f h] own head & h] own consci\sness ( h]self & h] own automatic self-w1 till ! :ole man & woman game has become j a hell1 & m5 ) any backbone w\ld r kill !mselves ?an g on ) x--or kill somebody else4 ,yet we are go+ to inculcate m & m self-consci\sness1 tea* e little ,m>y to be m & m a nice little ,m>y out ( h] own head1 & e little ,joseph to !orize himself up to ! scrat*4 ,& ! po9t lies "h4 ,!re w h to come an end4 ,e race :i* has become self-consci\s & idea-b\nd 9 ! pa/ has p]i%$4 ,& !n x has all />t$ afre%1 9 a diff]5t way1 ) ano!r race4 ,& man has nev] le>nt any bett]4 ,we are really f>1 f> m life-/upid ?an ! dead ,greeks or ! lo/ ,etruscans4 ,our day is pretty %ort1 & clos+ fa/4 ,we c pass1 & ano!r race c foll[ lat]4 ,b !re is ano!r alt]native4 ,we /ill h 9 u ! p[] to discrim9ate betwe5 our own idealism1 our own self-consci\s w1 & t o!r reality1 our own true spontane\s self4 ,c]ta9ly we are s ov]load$ & diseas$ ) ideas t we c't get well 9 a m9ute4 ,b we c set our faces /ubbornly aga9/ ! disease1 once we recognize x4 ,! disease ( love1 ! disease ( _s1 ! disease ( nic5ess & b5evol5ce & feel+ good on our own behalf & good on somebody else's behalf4 ,pah1 x is all a gangr5e4 ,we c retreat ^u ! pr\d1 isolate self1 & rema9 !re alone1 l lep]s1 till we are cur$ ( ?is gha/ly :ite disease ( self-consci\s idealism4 ,& we really c make a move on our *ildr5's behalf4 ,we really c refra9 f ?ru/+ our *ildr5 any m into ^? hot-b$s ( ! self-consci\s disease1 s*ools4 ,we really c prev5t _! eat+ mu* m ( ! tissues ( leprosy1 newspap]s & books4 ,= a "t1 !re %\ld be no compulsory tea*+ to read & write at all4 ,! great mass ( humanity %\ld nev] le>n to read & write--nev]4 ,& in/ead ( ?is gnaw+1 gnaw+ disease ( m5tal consci\sness & awful1 unheal?y crav+ = /imulus & = action1 we mu/ sub/itute g5u9e action4 ,! w> 0 really n a bad beg9n+4 ,b we w5t out "u ! bann]s ( idealism1 & n[ ! m5 are home aga91 ! virus is m active ?an ev]1 rott+ _! v s\ls4 ,! mass ( ! p w nev] m5tally und]/&4 ,b !y w soon in/9ctively fall into l9e4 ,let u sub/itute action1 all k9ds ( action1 = ! mass ( p1 9 place ( m5tal activity4 ,ev5 twelve h\rs' "w a day is bett] ?an a newspap] at f\r 9 ! aft]noon & a grievance = ! re/ ( ! ev5+4 ,b p>ticul>ly let u take c>e ( ! *ildr54 ,at all co/1 try to prev5t a girl's m9d f dwell+ on h]self1 ,make h] act1 "w1 play3 assume a rule ov] h] girlhood4 ,let h] le>n ! dome/ic arts 9 _! p]fection4 ,let u ev5 artificially set h] to sp9 & weave4 ,any?+ to keep h] busy1 to prev5t h] read+ & becom+ self-consci\s4 ,let u awake z soon z possible to ! repulsive ma*9e quality ( ma*9e-made ?+s4 ,!y smell ( dea?4 ,& let u insi/ t ! home is sacr$1 ! he>?1 & ! v ?+s ( ! home4 ,!n keep ! girls ap>t f any famili>ity or be+ pals ) ! boys4 ,! nice clean intimacy :i* we n[ s admire betwe5 ! sexes is /]iliz+4 ,x makes neut]s4 ,lat] on1 no deep1 magical sex-life is possible4 ,! same ) ! boys4 ,fir/ & =emo/ e/abli% a rule ov] !m1 a pr\d1 h>%1 manly rule4 ,make !m "k t at e mom5t !y are 9 ! %ad[ ( a pr\d1 /rong1 adult au?ority4 ,let !m be soldi]s1 b z individuals n ma*9e units4 ,!re are w>s 9 ! future1 great w>s1 :i* n ma*9es w f9ally decide1 b ! free1 indomitable life _s4 ,no m w>s "u ! bann]s ( ! ideal1 & 9 ! _s ( sacrifice4 ,b w>s 9 ! /r5g? ( individual m54 ,& !n1 pure individuali/ic tra9+ to fight1 & prep>ation = a :ole new way ( life1 a new society4 ,put money into its place1 & sci5ce & indu/ry4 ,! lead]s mu/ /& = life1 & !y mu/ n ask ! simple foll[]s to po9t out ! direction4 ,:5 ! lead]s assume responsibility !y relieve ! foll[]s =ev] ( ! burd5 ( f9d+ a way4 ,reliev$ ( ?is hateful incubus ( responsibility = g5]al affairs1 ! populace c aga9 become free & happy & spontane\s1 leav+ matt]s to _! sup]iors4 ,no newspap]s--! mass ( ! p nev] le>n+ to read4 ,! evolv+ once m ( ! great spontane\s ge/ures ( life4 ,we c't g on z we are4 ,poor1 n]ve-worn creatures1 frett+ our lives away & hat+ to die because we h nev] liv$4 ,! secret is1 to commit into ! h&s ( ! sacr$ few ! responsibility :i* n[ lies l torture on ! mass4 ,let ! few1 ! lead]s1 be increas+ly responsible = ! :ole4 ,& let ! mass be free3 free1 save = ! *oice ( lead]s4 ,lead]s--?is is :at mank9d is crav+ =4 ,b m5 mu/ be prep>$ to obey1 body & s\l1 once !y h *os5 ! lead]4 ,& let !m *oose ! lead] = life's sake only4 ,beg9 !n--!re is a beg9n+4 ,,*apt] ,,viii ,,education ,,& ,,sex ,,9 ,,man1 ,,woman ,,& ,,*ild ,! "o ?+ we h to avoid1 !n1 ev5 :ile we c>ry on our own old process ( education1 is ?is developm5t ( ! p[]s ( s-call$ self-expression 9 a *ild4 ,let u bew>e ( artificially /imulat+ 8 self-consci\sness & 8 s-call$ imag9ation4 ,all t we d is to p]v]t ! *ild into a gha/ly /ate ( self-consci\sness1 mak+ him affect$ly try to %[ (f z we wi% him to %[ (f4 ,! mom5t ! lea/ little trace ( self-consci\sness ent]s 9 a *ild1 good-by to ev]y?+ except falsity4 ,mu* bett] j p\nd away at ! ,,abc & simple ari?metic & s on4 ,! mod]n me?ods d make *ildr5 %>p1 give !m a sort ( slick f9esse1 b x is ! beg9n+ ( ! mis*ief4 ,x ends 9 ! great unre/ ( a n]v\s1 hy/]ical prolet>iat4 ,beg9 to tea* a *ild ( five to und]/&4 ,to und]/& ! sun & moon & daisy & ! secrets ( procreation1 bless y\r s\l4 ,und]/&+ all ! way4--,& :5 ! *ild is tw5ty he'll h a hy/]ical und]/&+ ( 8 own inv5t$ grievance1 & !re's an end ( him4 ,und]/&+ is ! devil4 ,a *ild mu/n't und]/& ?+s4 ,he mu/ h !m 8 own way4 ,8 vision isn't ours4 ,:5 a boy ( eight sees a horse1 he doesn't see ! correct biological object we int5d him to see4 ,he sees a big liv+ pres5ce ( no p>ticul> %ape ) hair dangl+ f its neck & f\r legs4 ,if he puts two eyes 9 ! pr(ile1 he is q "r4 ,because he does n see ) optical1 photographic vision4 ,! image on 8 ret9a is n ! image ( 8 consci\sness4 ,! image on 8 ret9a j does n g into him4 ,8 unconsci\sness is fill$ ) a /rong1 d>k1 vague presci5ce ( a p[]ful pres5ce1 a two-ey$1 f\r-legg$1 long-man$ pres5ce loom+ imm95t4 ,& to =ce ! boy to see a correct "o-ey$ horse-pr(ile is j l pa/+ a plac>d 9 front ( 8 vision4 ,x simply kills 8 inw>d see+4 ,we don't want him to see a prop] horse4 ,! *ild is n a little cam]a4 ,he is a small vital organism :i* has direct dynamic rapport ) ! objects ( ! out] univ]se4 ,he p]ceives f 8 brea/ & 8 abdom51 ) deep-sunk5 realism1 ! elem5tal nature ( ! creature4 ,s t to ?is day a ,noah's ,ark tree is m real ?an a ,corot tree or a ,con/able tree3 & a flat ,noah's ,ark c[ has a deep] vital reality ?an ev5 a ,cuyp c[4 ,! mode ( vision is n "o & f9al4 ,! mode ( vision is manifold4 ,& ! optical image is a m]e vibrat+ blur to a *ild--&1 inde$1 to a passionate adult4 ,9 ?is vibrat+ blur ! s\l sees its own true correspond5t4 ,x sees1 9 a c[1 horns & squ>5ess1 & a long tail4 ,x sees1 = a horse1 a mane1 & a long face1 r\nd nose1 & f\r legs4 ,& 9 ea* case a d>kly vital pres5ce4 ,n[ horns & squ>5ess & a long ?9 ox-tail1 ^! are ! fe>ful & wond]ful elem5ts ( ! c[-=m1 :i* ! dynamic s\l p]fectly p]ceives4 ,! ideal-image is j outside nature1 = a *ild--some?+ false4 ,9 a picture1 a *ild wants elem5tal recognition1 & n correctness or expression1 or lea/ ( all1 :at we call und]/&+4 ,! *ild di/orts inevitably & dynamically4 ,b ! dynamic ab/raction is m ?an m5tal4 ,if a huge eye sits 9 ! middle ( ! *eek1 9 a *ild's draw+1 ?is %[s t ! deep dynamic consci\sness ( ! eye1 its relative exagg]ation1 is ! life-tru?1 ev5 if x is a sci5tific falsehood4 ,on ! o!r h&1 :at on e>? is ! good ( say+ to a *ild1 ,! _w is a flatt5$ sph]e1 l an orange4 ,x is simply p]nici\s4 ,y _h mu* bett] say ! _w is a poa*$ egg 9 a fry+ pan4 ,t might h "s dynamic mean+4 ,! only ?+ ab\t ! flatt5$ orange is t ! *ild j sees ?is orange disport+ itself 9 blue air1 & nev] bo!rs to associate x ) ! e>? he treads on4 ,& yet x w\ld be s mu* bett] = ! mass ( mank9d if !y nev] he>d ( ! flatt5$ sph]e4 ,!y %\ld nev] be told t ! e>? is r\nd4 ,x only makes ev]y?+ unreal to !m4 ,!y are balk$ 9 _! impression ( ! flat good e>?1 !y c't get ov] ?is sph]e bus9ess1 !y live 9 a fog ( ab/raction1 & no?+ is any?+4 ,save = purposes ( ab/raction1 ! e>? is a great pla91 ) hills & valleys4 ,:y =ce ab/ractions & kill ! reality1 :5 !re's no ne$8 ,z = *ildr51 w we nev] realize t _! ab/ractions are nev] bas$ on obs]vations1 b on subjective exagg]ations8 ,if !re is an eye 9 ! face1 ! face is all eye4 ,x is ! *ild s\l :i* _c get ov] ! my/]y ( ! eye4 ,if !re is a tree 9 a l&scape1 ! l&scape is all tree4 ,always ?is p>tial focus4 ,! attempt to make a *ild focus = a :ole view--:i* is really a g5]alization & an adult ab/raction--is simply wick$4 ,yet ! fir/ ?+ we d is to set a *ild mak+ relief-maps 9 clay1 = example3 ( 8 own di/rict4 ,imbecility6 ,he has n ev5 ! fa9te/ impression ( ! total hill on :i* 8 home /&s4 ,a /eepness go+ up to a door--& front g>d5 rail+s--& p]haps w9d[s4 ,t's ! lot4 ,! top & bottom ( x is1 t x is a crime to tea* a *ild any?+ at all1 s*ool-wise4 ,x is j evil to collect *ildr5 toge!r & tea* !m ?r\gh ! head4 ,x causes absolute />vation 9 ! dynamic c5t]s1 & /]ile sub/itute ( bra9 k is all ! ga94 ,! *ildr5 ( ! middle classes are s vitally impov]i%$1 t ! miracle is !y cont9ue to exi/ at all4 ,! *ildr5 ( ! l[] classes d bett]1 because !y escape into ! /reets4 ,b ev5 ! *ildr5 ( ! prolet>iat are n[ infect$4 ,&1 ( c\rse1 z my critics po9t out1 "u all ! s*ool-sm>m & newspap]-cant1 man is to-day z savage z a cannibal1 & m dang]\s4 ,! liv+ dynamic self is d5aturaliz$ in/ead ( be+ educat$4 ,we talk ab\t education--lead+ =? ! natural intellig5ce ( a *ild4 ,b ours is j ! opposite ( lead+ =?4 ,x is a ramm+ 9 ( bra9 facts ?r\gh ! head1 & a consequ5t di/ortion1 suffocation1 & />vation ( ! prim>y c5t]s ( consci\sness4 ,a nice day ( reckon+ we've got 9 front ( u4 ,let u lead =?1 by all means4 ,b let u n h m5tal k be=e u z ! goal ( ! lead+4 ,mu* less let u make ( x a vici\s circle 9 :i* we lead ! unhappy *ild-m9d1 l a c[ 9 a r+ at a fair4 ,we don't want to educate *ildr5 s t !y may und]/&4 ,und]/&+ is a fallacy & a vice 9 mo/ p4 ,i don't ev5 want my *ild to "k1 mu* less to und]/&4 ,i don't want my *ild to "k t five fives are tw5ty-five1 any m ?an ,i want my *ild to we> my hat or my boots4 ,i don't want my *ild to "k4 ,if he wants five fives let him c\nt !m on 8 f+]s4 ,z = 8 little m9d1 give x a re/1 & let 8 dynamic self be al]t4 ,he w ask :y (t5 en\gh4 ,b he m (t5 asks :y ! sun %9es1 or :y m5 h mu/a*es1 or :y grass is gre51 ?an any?+ s5sible4 ,mo/ ( a *ild's que/ions are1 & %\ld be1 unansw]able4 ,!y are n que/ions at all4 ,!y are exclamations ( wond]1 !y are rem>ks half-sceptically address$4 ,:5 a *ild says1 ,:y is grass gre58 he half implies4 ,is x really gre51 or is x j tak+ me 98 ,& we solemnly beg9 to prate ab\t *lorophyll4 ,oh1 imbeciles1 idiots1 inexcusable owls6 ,! :ole ( a *ild's developm5t goes on f ! great dynamic c5t]s1 & is basically non-m5tal4 ,to introduce m5tal activity is to arre/ ! dynamic activity1 & /ultify true dynamic developm5t4 ,by ! age ( tw5ty-"o our "y p are helpless1 hopeless1 selfless1 fl\nd]+ m5tal entities1 ) no?+ 9 front ( !m1 because !y h be5 />v$ f ! roots1 sy/ematically1 = tw5ty-"o ye>s1 & f$ ?r\gh ! head4 ,!y h _h all _! m5tal excitem5ts1 sex & ev]y?+1 all ?r\gh ! head1 & :5 x comes to ! actual ?+1 :y1 !re's no?+ 9 x4 ,blase4 ,! affective c5t]s h be5 exhau/$ f ! head4 ,be=e ! age ( f\rte51 *ildr5 %\ld be taught only to move1 to act1 to d4 ,& !y %\ld be taught z little z possible ev5 ( ?is4 ,adults simply _c & d n "k any m :at ! mode ( *ildi% intellig5ce is4 ,adults always int]f]e4 ,!y always =ce ! adult m5tal mode4 ,!re=e *ildr5 mu/ be pres]v$ f adult in/ructions4 ,make a *ild "w--yes4 ,make x d little jobs4 ,keep a f9e & delicate & fi]ce discipl9e1 s t ! little jobs are p]=m$ z p]fectly z is consi/5t ) ! *ild's nature4 ,make ! *ild al]t1 pr\d1 & becom+ 9 its movem5ts4 ,make x "k v def9itely t x %all n & mu/ n trespass on o!r p's privacy or pati5ce4 ,tea* x songs1 tell x tales4 ,b nev] in/ruct x s*ool-wise4 ,& mo/ly1 leave x alone1 s5d x away to be ) o!r *ildr5 & to get 9 & out ( mis*ief1 & 9 & out ( dang]4 ,=get y\r *ild altoge!r z mu* z possible4 ,all ?is is ! active & /r5u\s bus9ess ( p>5ts1 & mu/ n be %elv$ (f on to /rang]s4 ,x is ! bus9ess ( p>5ts m5tally to =get b dynamically nev] to =sake _! *ildr54 ,x is no use expect+ p>5ts to "k :y s*ools are clos$1 & :y !y1 ! p>5ts1 mu/ be q responsible = _! own *ildr5 dur+ ! fir/ t5 ye>s4 ,if x is q useless to expect p>5ts to und]/& a !ory ( relativity1 mu* less w !y und]/& ! developm5t ( ! dynamic consci\sness4 ,b :y %\ld !y und]/&8 ,x is ! bus9ess ( v few to und]/& & = ! mass1 x is _! bus9ess to believe & n to bo!r1 b to be honorable & humanly to fulfill _! human responsibilities4 ,to give active ob$i5ce to _! lead]s1 & to possess _! own s\ls 9 natural pride4 ,"s mu/ und]/& :y a *ild is n to be m5tally educat$4 ,"s mu/ h a fa9t inkl+ ( ! processes ( consci\sness dur+ ! fir/ f\rte5 ye>s4 ,"s mu/ "k :at a *ild beholds1 :5 x looks at a horse1 & :at x means :5 x says1 ,:y is grass gre58 ,! answ] to ?is "q1 by ! way1 is ,because x is4 ,! int]play ( ! f\r dynamic c5t]s foll[s no "o conceivable law4 ,m5tal activity cont9ues accord+ to a law ( co-relation4 ,b !re is no logical or rational co-relation 9 ! dynamic consci\sness4 ,x pulses on inconsequ5tial1 & x w\ld be impossible to det]m9e any sequ5ce4 ,out ( ! v lack ( sequ5ce 9 dynamic consci\sness does ! individual himself develop4 ,! dynamic ab/raction ( a *ild's precepts foll[s no m5tal law1 & ev5 no law :i* c ev] be m5tally prop\nd$4 ,& ?is is :y x is utt]ly p]nici\s to set a *ild mak+ a clay relief-map ( its own di/rict1 or to ask a *ild to draw conclusions f giv5 obs]vations4 ,dynamically1 a *ild draws no conclusions4 ,all ?+s /ill rema9 dynamically possible4 ,a conclusion drawn is a nail 9 ! c(f9 ( a *ild's develop+ be+4 ,let a *ild make a clay l&scape1 if x likes4 ,b entirely accord+ to its own fancy1 & )\t conclusions drawn4 ,only1 let ! l&scape be vividly made--always ! discipl9e ( ! s\l's full att5tion4 ,oh1 b :]e are ! factory *imneys8--or else--,:y h y left out ! gas-works8 or ,d y call t sloppy ?+ a *ur*8 ,! p>ticul> focus %\ld be vivid1 & ! record 9 "s way true4 ,! s\l mu/ give e>ne/ att5tion1 t is all4 ,& s actively discipl9$1 ! *ild develops = ! fir/ t5 ye>s4 ,we ne$ n be afraid ( lett+ *ildr5 see ! passions & reactions ( adult life4 ,only we mu/ n /ra9 ! sympa?ies ( a *ild1 9 any direction1 p>ticul>ly ! direction ( love & pity4 ,nor mu/ we introduce ! fallacy ( "r & wrong4 ,spontane\s di/a/e %\ld take ! place ( "r & wrong4 ,& lea/ ( all mu/ !re be a cry3 ,y see1 de>1 y don't und]/&4 ,:5 y are old]-- ,a *ild's sagacity is bett] ?an an adult und]/&+1 anyh[4 ,( c\rse x is t5 times crim9al to tell "y *ildr5 facts ab\t sex1 or to implicate !m 9 adult relation%ips4 ,a *ild has a /rong evanesc5t sex consci\sness4 ,x in/9ctively writes impossible words on back walls4 ,b ?is is n a fully consci\s m5tal act4 ,x is a k9d ( dream act--q natural4 ,! *ild's curi\s1 %ad[y1 indec5t sex-k is q 9 ! c\rse ( nature4 ,& does nobody any h>m at all4 ,adults _h f> bett] n notice x4 ,b if a *ild sees a cock]el tread a h51 or two dogs c\pl+1 well & good4 ,x %\ld see ^! ?+s4 ,only1 )\t comm5t4 ,let no?+ be exagg]at$ly hidd54 ,by in/9ct1 let u pres]ve ! dec5t privacies4 ,b if a *ild occasionally sees its p>5t nude1 tak+ a ba?1 all ! bett]4 ,or ev5 sitt+ 9 ! ,w4 ,c4 ,exagg]at$ secrecy is bad4 ,b indec5t exposure is also v bad4 ,b wor/ ( all is dragg+ 9 ! m5tal consci\sness ( ^! %ad[y dynamic realities4 ,9 ! same way1 to talk to a *ild ab\t an adult is vile4 ,let adults keep _! adult feel+s & communications = p ( _! own age4 ,b if a *ild sees its p>5ts viol5tly qu>rel1 all ! bett]4 ,!re mu/ be /orms4 ,& a *ild's dynamic und]/&+ is f> deep] & m p5etrat+ ?an our sophi/icat$ int]pretation4 ,b nev] make a *ild a p>ty to adult affairs4 ,nev] drag ! *ild 94 ,refuse its sympa?y on su* occasions4 ,always treat x z if x _h no bus9ess to he>1 ev5 if x is pres5t & mu/ he>4 ,truly1 x has no bus9ess m5tally to he>4 ,& ! dynamic s\l w always weigh ?+s up & dispose ( !m prop]ly1 if !re be no int]f]5ce ( adult comm5t or adult desire = sympa?y4 ,x is despicable = any "o p>5t to accept a *ild's sympa?y aga9/ ! o!r p>5t4 ,& ! "o :o receiv$ ! sympa?y is always m contemptible ?an ! "o :o is hat$4 ,( c\rse s _m *ildr5 are born to-day unnaturally m5tally awake & alive to adult affairs1 t !re is no?+ left b to tell !m ev]y?+1 crudely3 or else1 mu* bett]1 to say3 ,ah1 get out1 y "k too mu*1 y make me sick4 ,to return to ! "q ( sex4 ,a *ild is born sex$4 ,a *ild is ei!r male or female1 9 ! :ole ( its psy*e & physique is ei!r male or female4 ,e s+le liv+ cell is ei!r male or female1 & w rema9 ei!r male or female z long z life la/s4 ,& e s+le cell 9 e male *ild is male1 & e cell 9 e female *ild is female4 ,! talk ab\t a ?ird sex1 or ab\t ! indet]m9ate sex1 is j to p]v]t ! issue4 ,biologically1 x is true1 ! rudim5t>y =mation ( bo? sexes is f\nd 9 e individual4 ,t doesn't mean t e individual is a bit ( bo?1 or ei!r1 ad lib4 ,aft] a suffici5t p]iod ( idealism1 m5 become hopelessly self-consci\s4 ,t is1 ! great affective c5t]s no long] act spontane\sly1 b always wait = control f ! head4 ,?is always bre$s a great flu/] 9 ! psy*e1 & ! poor self-consci\s individual _c help pos+ & po/ur+4 ,our ideal has taught u to be g5tle & wi/ful3 r girli% & yield+1 & v yield+ 9 our sympa?ies4 ,9 fact1 _m "y m5 feel s v l :at !y imag9e a girl mu/ feel1 t h5ce !y draw ! conclusion t !y mu/ h a l>ge %>e ( female sex inside !m4 ,false conclusion4 ,^! girli% m5 h (t51 to-day1 ! f9e/ mal5ess1 once x is put to ! te/4 ,h[ is x !n t !y feel1 & look1 s girli%8 ,x is l>gely a "q ( ! direction ( ! pol>iz$ fl[4 ,our ideal has taught u to be s lov+ & s submissive & s yield+ 9 our sympa?y1 t ! mode has become automatic 9 _m m54 ,n[ 9 :at we w call ! natural mode1 man has 8 positivity 9 ! volitional c5t]s1 & wom5 9 ! sympa!tic4 ,9 fulfill+ ! ,*ri/ian love ideal1 h[ev]1 m5 h rev]s$ ?is4 ,man has assum$ ! g5tle1 all-sympa!tic role1 & woman has become ! en]getic p>ty1 ) ! au?ority 9 h] h&s4 ,! male is ! s5sitive1 sympa!tic nature1 ! woman ! active1 effective1 au?oritative4 ,s t ! male acts z ! passive1 or recipi5t pole ( attraction1 ! female z ! active1 positive1 ex]tive pole1 9 human relations4 ,:i* is a rev]sal ( ! old fl[4 ,! woman is n[ ! initiator1 man ! respond]4 ,!y seem to play ea* o!r's p>ts4 ,b man is purely male1 play+ woman's "p1 & woman is purely female1 h[ev] manly4 ,! gulf betwe5 ,heliogabalus1 or ! mo/ womanly man on e>?1 & ! mo/ manly woman1 is j ! same z ev]3 j ! same old gulf betwe5 ! sexes4 ,! man is male1 ! woman is female4 ,only !y are play+ "o ano!r's p>ts1 z !y mu/ at c]ta9 p]iods4 ,! dynamic pol>ity has swung ar\nd4 ,if we look a little clos]1 we c def9e ?is positive & negative bus9ess bett]4 ,z a matt] ( fact1 positive & negative1 passive & active cuts bo? ways4 ,if ! man1 z ?9k] & do]1 is active1 or positive1 & ! woman negative1 !n1 on ! o!r h&1 z ! initiator ( emotion1 ( feel+1 & ( sympa!tic und]/&+ ! woman is positive1 ! man negative4 ,! man may be ! initiator 9 action1 b ! woman is initiator 9 emotion4 ,! man has ! initiative z f> z volunt>y activity goes1 & ! woman ! initiative z f> z sympa!tic activity goes4 ,9 love1 x is ! woman naturally :o loves1 ! man :o is lov$4 ,9 love1 woman is ! positive1 man ! negative4 ,x is woman :o asks1 9 love1 & man :o answ]s4 ,9 life1 ! rev]se is ! case4 ,9 kn[+ & 9 do+1 man is positive & woman negative3 man initiates1 & woman lives up to x4 ,naturally ?is nicely arrang$ ord] ( ?+s may be rev]s$4 ,action & utt]ance1 :i* are male1 are pol>iz$ aga9/ feel+1 emotion1 :i* are female4 ,& :i* is positive1 :i* negative8 ,0 man1 ! et]nal protagoni/1 born ( woman1 f h] womb ( fa?omless emotion8 ,or 0 woman1 ) h] deep womb ( emotion1 born f ! rib ( active man1 ! fir/ creat$8 ,man1 ! do]1 ! kn[]1 ! orig9al 9 be+1 is he "l ( life8 ,or is woman1 ! great ,"m1 :o bore u f ! womb ( love1 is %e ! supreme ,goddess8 ,?is is ! "q ( all "t4 ,& z long z man & woman endure1 s w ! answ] be giv51 fir/ "o way1 !n ! o!r4 ,man1 z ! utt]]1 usually claims t ,eve 0 creat$ out ( 8 sp>e rib3 f ! field ( ! creative1 upp] dynamic consci\sness1 t is4 ,b woman1 z soon z %e gets a ^w 91 po9ts to ! fact t man inevitably1 poor d>l+1 is ! issue ( 8 "m's womb4 ,s ! battle rages4 ,b "s m5 always agree ) ! woman4 ,"s m5 always yield to woman ! creative positivity4 ,& 9 c]ta9 p]iods1 su* z ! pres5t1 ! majority ( m5 concur 9 reg>d+ woman z ! s\rce ( life1 ! fir/ t]m 9 creation3 woman1 ! "m1 ! prime be+4 ,& !n1 ! :ole pol>ity %ifts ov]4 ,man /ill rema9s ! do] & ?9k]4 ,b he is s only 9 ! s]vice ( emotional & procreative woman4 ,8 highe/ mom5t is n[ ! emotional mom5t :5 he gives himself up to ! woman1 :5 he =ms ! p]fect answ] = h] great emotional & procreative ask+4 ,all 8 ?9k+1 all 8 activity 9 ! _w only contributes to ?is great mom5t1 :5 he is fulfill$ 9 ! emotional passion ( ! woman1 ! bir? ( rebir?1 z ,:itman calls x4 ,9 8 consummation 9 ! emotional passion ( a woman1 man is reborn1 :i* is q true4 ,& !re is ! po9t at :i* we all n[ /ick4 ,life1 ?\ght1 & activity1 all are devot$ truly to ! great end ( ,woman1 wife & "m4 ,man has n[ ent]$ on to 8 negative mode4 ,n[1 8 consummation is 9 feel+1 n 9 action4 ,n[1 8 activity is all ( ! dome/ic ord] & all 8 ?\ght goes to prov+ t no?+ matt]s except t bir? %all cont9ue & woman %all rock 9 ! ne/ ( ?is globe l a bird :o cov]s h] eggs 9 "s tall tree4 ,man is ! fet*]1 ! c>ri]1 ! sacrifice1 ! crucifi$1 & ! reborn ( woman4 ,?is be+ s1 ! :ole t5d5cy ( 8 nature *anges4 ,in/ead ( be+ ass]tive & r ins5ti5t1 he becomes wav]+ & s5sitive4 ,he beg9s to h z _m feel+s--nay1 m ?an a woman4 ,8 h]oism is all 9 altrui/ic endurance4 ,he wor%ips pity & t5d]ness & weakness1 ev5 9 himself4 ,9 %ort1 he takes on v l>gely ! orig9al role ( woman4 ,woman mean:ile becomes ! fe>less1 inw>dly rel5tless1 det]m9$ positive p>ty4 ,%e grips ! responsibility4 ,! h& t rocks ! cradle rules ! _w4 ,nay1 %e makes man discov] t cradles %\ld n be rock$1 9 ord] t h] h&s may be left free4 ,%e is n[ a que5 ( ! e>?1 & inw>dly a fe>some tyrant4 ,%e keeps pity & t5d]ness emblazon$ on h] bann]s4 ,b ,god help ! man :om %e pities4 ,ultimately %e te>s him to bits4 ,!re=e we see ! rev]sal ( ! old poles4 ,man becomes ! emotional p>ty1 woman ! positive & active4 ,man beg9s to %[ /rong signs ( ! peculi>ly /rong passive sex desire1 ! desire to be tak51 :i* is consid]$ *>act]i/ic ( woman4 ,man beg9s to h all ! feel+s ( woman--or all ! feel+s :i* he attribut$ to woman4 ,he becomes m fem99e ?an woman ev] 01 & wor%ips 8 own fem99ity1 call+ x ! highe/4 ,9 %ort1 he beg9s to exhibit all signs ( sexual complexity4 ,he beg9s to imag9e he really is half female4 ,& c]ta9ly woman seems v male4 ,s ! h]maphrodite fallacy revives aga94 ,b x is all a fallacy4 ,man1 9 ! mid/ ( all 8 effem9acy1 is /ill male & no?+ b male4 ,& woman1 ?\gh %e h>angue 9 ,p>liam5t or patrol ! /reets ) a helmet on h] head1 is /ill completely female4 ,!y are only play+ ea* o!r's roles1 because ! poles h swung into rev]sion4 ,! compass is rev]s$4 ,b t doesn't mean t ! nor? pole has become ! s\? pole1 or t ea* is a bit ( bo?4 ,( c\rse a woman %\ld /ick to h] own natural emotional positivity4 ,b !n man mu/ /ick to 8 own positivity ( be+1 ( action1 dis9t]e/$1 non-dome/ic1 male action1 :i* is n devot$ to ! increase ( ! female4 ,once man vacates 8 camp ( s9c]e1 passionate positivity 9 dis9t]e/$ be+1 8 supreme responsibility to fulfill 8 own pr(\nde/ impulses1 ) ref]5ce to none b ,god or 8 own s\l1 n tak+ woman into c\nt at all1 9 ?is prim>y responsibility to 8 own deepe/ s\l2 once man vacates ?is /rong citadel ( 8 own g5u9e1 n spuri\s1 div9ity2 !n 9 comes woman1 picks up ! scept] & beg9s to conduct a rag-"t b&4 ,man rema9s man1 h[ev] he may put on wi/fulness & t5d]ness l petticoats1 & s5sibilities l pe>l ornam5ts4 ,y\r s5sitive little big-ey$ boy1 s mu* m g5tle & lov+ ?an 8 h>d] si/]1 is male = all t1 believe me4 ,p]haps evilly male1 s mo!rs may le>n to _! co/3 & wives /ill m4 ,( c\rse !re %\ld be a great balance betwe5 ! sexes4 ,man1 9 ! daytime1 mu/ foll[ 8 own s\l's greate/ impulse1 & give himself to life-"w & risk himself to dea?4 ,x is n woman :o claims ! highe/ 9 man4 ,x is a man's own religi\s s\l t drives him on beyond woman1 to 8 supreme activity4 ,= 8 highe/1 man is responsible to ,god alone4 ,he may n pause to rememb] t he has a life to lose1 or a wife & *ildr5 to leave4 ,he mu/ c>ry =w>d ! bann] ( life1 ?\gh sev5 worlds p]i%1 ) all ! wives & mo!rs & *ildr5 9 !m4 ,h5ce ,jesus1 ,woman1 :at h ,i to d ) !e8 ,e man t lives has to say x aga9 to 8 wife or "m1 once he has any "w or mission 9 h&1 t comes f 8 s\l4 ,b aga91 no man is a bloom+ m>vel = tw5ty-f\r h\rs a day4 ,jesus or ,napoleon or any o!r ( !m ought to h be5 man en\gh to be able to come home at tea-"t & put 8 slipp]s on & sit "u ! spell ( 8 wife4 ,= !re y are1 ! woman has h] _w1 h] positivity3 ! _w ( love1 ( emotion1 ( sympa?y4 ,& x behooves e man 9 8 h\r to take (f 8 %oes & relax & give himself up to 8 woman & h] _w4 ,n to give up 8 purpose4 ,b to give up himself = a "t to h] :o is 8 mate4--,& s x is "o dete/s ! clock-"w ,kant1 & ! petit-b\rgeois ,napoleon divorc+ 8 ,joseph9e = a ,hapsburg--or ev5 ,jesus1 ) 8 ,woman1 :at h ,i to d ) !e8--,he might h add$ j n[4--,!y 7 all failures4 ,,*apt] ,,ix ,,! ,,bir? ,,( ,,sex ,! la/ *apt] 0 a *apt] ( semi-digression4 ,we n[ return to ! /raight c\rse4 ,is ! /raightness none too evid5t8 ,ah well1 x's a matt] ( relativity4 ,a *ild is born ) "o sex only1 & rema9s always s+le 9 8 sex4 ,!re is no int]m+l+1 only a great *ange ( roles is possible4 ,b man 9 ! female role is /ill male4 ,sex--t is to say1 mal5ess & femal5ess--is pres5t f ! mom5t ( bir?1 & 9 e act or de$ ( e *ild4 ,b sex 9 ! real s5se ( dynamic sexual relation%ip1 ?is does n exi/ 9 a *ild1 & _c exi/ until pub]ty & aft]4 ,true1 *ildr5 h a sort ( sex consci\sness4 ,little boys & little girls may ev5 commit indec5cies toge!r4 ,& /ill x is no?+ vital4 ,x is a sort ( %ad[ activity1 a sort ( dream-activity4 ,x has no v pr(\nd effect4 ,b /ill1 boys & girls %\ld be kept ap>t z mu* z possible1 t !y may h "s sort ( respect & fe> = ! gulf t lies betwe5 !m 9 nature1 & = ! great /rang5ess :i* ea* has to (f] ! o!r1 f9ally4 ,we are all wrong :5 we say !re is no vital diff]5ce betwe5 ! sexes4 ,!re is e diff]5ce4 ,e bit1 e cell 9 a boy is male1 e cell is female 9 a woman1 & mu/ rema9 s4 ,wom5 c nev] feel or "k z m5 d4 ,& 9 ! rev]se m5 c nev] feel & "k1 dynamically1 z wom5 d4 ,man1 act+ 9 ! passive or fem99e pol>ity1 is /ill man1 & he doesn't h "o s+le unmanly feel+4 ,& wom51 :5 !y speak & write1 utt] n "o s+le ^w t m5 h n taught !m4 ,m5 le>n _! feel+s f wom51 wom5 le>n _! m5tal consci\sness f m54 ,& s x w ev] be4 ,mean:ile1 wom5 live =ev] by feel+1 & m5 live =ev] f an inh]5t s5se ( purpose4 ,feel+ is an end 9 itself4 ,?is is unspeakable tru? to a woman1 & nev] true = "o m9ute to a man4 ,:5 man1 9 ! ,epicurean _s1 embraces feel+1 he makes himself a m>tyr to x--l ,maupassant or ,osc> ,wilde4 ,woman w nev] und]/& ! dep? ( ! _s ( purpose 9 man1 8 deep] _s4 ,& man w nev] und]/& ! sacr$ness ( feel+ to woman4 ,ea* w play at ! o!r's game1 b !y w rema9 ap>t4 ,! :ole mode1 ! :ole ev]y?+ is really diff]5t 9 man & woman4 ,!re=e we %\ld keep boys & girls ap>t1 t !y are pure & virg9 9 !mselves4 ,on mix+ ) "o ano!r1 9 becom+ famili>1 9 be+ pals1 !y lose _! own male & female integrity4 ,& !y lose ! treasure ( ! future1 ! vital sex pol>ity1 ! dynamic magic ( life4 ,= ! magic & ! dynamism re/s on o!rness4 ,= actual sex is a vital pol>ity4 ,& a pol>ity :i* r\ses into action1 z we "k1 at pub]ty4 ,& h[8 ,z we "k1 a *ild lives f ! great field ( dynamic consci\sness e/abli%$ betwe5 ! f\r poles ( ! dynamic psy*e1 two great poles ( sympa?y1 two great poles ( w4 ,! sol> plexus & ! lumb> ganglion1 great n]ve-c5t]s bel[ ! diaphragm1 act z ! dynamic orig9 ( all consci\sness 9 man1 & are imm$iately pol>iz$ by ! o!r two n]ve-c5t]s1 ! c>diac plexus & ! ?oracic ganglion above ! diaphragm4 ,at ^! f\r poles ! :ole fl[1 bo? )9 ! individual & f )\t him1 ( dynamic consci\sness & dynamic creative relation%ip is c5t]$4 ,^! f\r fir/ poles con/itute ! fir/ field ( dynamic consci\sness = ! fir/ twelve or f\rte5 ye>s ( ! life ( e *ild4 ,& !n a *ange takes place4 ,x takes place sl[ly1 gradually & inevitably1 utt]ly beyond our provision or control4 ,! liv+ s\l is unfold+ itself 9 ano!r great metamorphosis4 ,:at happ5s1 9 ! biological psy*e1 is t deep] c5t]s ( consci\sness & function come awake4 ,deep 9 ! l[] body ! great sympa!tic c5t]1 ! hypoga/ric plexus has be5 act+ all ! "t 9 a k9d ( dream-automatism1 balanc$ by its correspond+ volunt>y c5t]1 ! sacral ganglion4 ,at ! age ( twelve ^! two c5t]s beg9 sl[ly to rumble awake1 ) a deep rev]b]ant =ce t *anges ! :ole con/itution ( ! life ( ! individual4 ,& z ^! two c5t]s1 ! sympa!tic c5t] ( ! deep] abdom51 & ! volunt>y c5t] ( ! lo9s1 gradually sp>kle into wakeful1 consci\s activity1 _! correspond+ poles are r\s$ 9 ! upp] body4 ,9 ! region ( ! ?roat & neck1 ! s-call$ c]vical plexuses & ! c]vical ganglia dawn into activity4 ,we h n[ ano!r field ( dawn+ dynamic consci\sness1 t w ext5d f> beyond ! fir/4 ,& n[ v>i\s ?+s happ5 to u4 ,fir/ ( all actual sex e/abli%es its /range & tr\blesome pres5ce )9 u4 ,?is is ! massive wak5+ ( ! l[] body4 ,& !n1 9 ! upp] body1 ! brea/s ( a woman beg9 to develop1 h] ?roat *anges its =m4 ,& 9 ! man1 ! voice breaks1 ! be>d beg9s to gr[ r\nd ! lips & on to ! ?roat4 ,!re are ! obvi\s physiological *anges result+ f ! gradual bur/+ into free activity ( ! hypoga/ric plexus & ! sacral ganglion1 9 ! l[] body1 & ( ! c]vical plexuses & ganglia ( ! neck1 9 ! upp] body4 ,:y ! gr[? ( hair %\ld />t at ! l[] & upp] sympa!tic regions we _c say4 ,p]haps = protection4 ,p]haps to pres]ve ^! p[]ful yet sup]s5sitive nodes f ! inclem5cy ( *anges 9 temp]ature1 :i* might cause a d]angem5t4 ,p]haps = ! sake ( protective w>n+1 z hair w>ns :5 x is t\*$4 ,p]haps = a scre5 aga9/ v>i\s dynamic vibrations1 & z a receiv] ( o!r suit$ dynamic vibrations4 ,x may be t ev5 ! hair ( ! head acts z a s5sitive vibration-m$ium = convey+ curr5ts ( physical & vitali/ic activity to & f ! bra94 ,& p]haps f ! c5t]s ( int5se vital sur*>ge hair spr+s z a sort ( annunciation or decl>ation1 l a cre/ ( life-ass]tion4 ,p]haps all ^! ?+s1 & p]haps o!rs4 ,b ) ! bur/+ awake ( ! f\r new poles ( dynamic consci\sness & be+1 *ange takes place 9 ev]y?+1 ! features n[ beg9 to take individual =m1 ! limbs develop out ( ! s(t r\nd matrix ( *ild-=m1 ! body resolves itself into di/9ctions4 ,a /range creative *ange 9 be+ has tak5 place4 ,! *ild be=e pub]ty is q ano!r ?+ f ! *ild aft] pub]ty4 ,/range inde$ is ?is new bir?1 ?is ris+ f ! sea ( *ildhood into a new be+4 ,x is a resurrection :i* we fe>4 ,& n[1 a new _w1 a new heav5 & a new e>?4 ,n[ new relation%ips are =m$1 ! old ones retire f _! prom95ce4 ,n[ "m & fa!r inevitably give way be=e ma/]s & mi/resses1 bro!rs & si/]s yield to fri5ds4 ,?is is ! p]iod ( ,s*wa]m]ei1 ( "y adoration & ( real initial fri5d%ips4 ,a *ild be=e pub]ty has playmates4 ,aft] pub]ty he has fri5ds & enemies4 ,a :ole new field ( passional relation%ip4 ,& ! old bonds relax+1 ! old love retreat+4 ,! fa!r & "m bonds n[ relax1 ?\gh !y nev] break4 ,! family love wanes1 ?\gh x nev] dies4 ,x is ! h\r ( ! /rang]4 ,let ! /rang] n[ ent] ! s\l4 ,& x is ! fir/ h\r ( true individuality1 ! fir/ h\r ( g5u9e1 responsible solit>9ess4 ,a *ild kn[s ! abyss ( =lornness4 ,b an adolesc5t alone kn[s ! /range pa9 ( gr[+ into 8 own isolation ( individuality4 ,all ?is *ange is an agony & a bliss4 ,x is a cataclysm & a new _w4 ,x is our mo/ s]i\s h\r1 p]haps4 ,& yet we _c be responsible = x4 ,n[ sex comes into active be+4 ,until pub]ty1 sex is subm]g$1 nasc5t1 incipi5t only4 ,aft] pub]ty1 x is a trem5d\s factor4 ,:at is sex1 really8 ,we c nev] say1 satisfactorily4 ,b we "k s mu*3 we "k t x is a dynamic pol>ity betwe5 human be+s1 & a circuit ( =ce always fl[+4 ,! psy*oanaly/ is "r s f>4 ,!re c be no vivid relation betwe5 two adult individuals :i* does n consi/ 9 a dynamic pol>iz$ fl[ ( vitali/ic =ce or magnetism or electricity1 call x :at y w1 betwe5 ^! two p4 ,yet is ?is dynamic fl[ inevitably sexual 9 nature8 ,?is is ! moot po9t = psy*oanalysis4 ,b let u look at sex1 9 its obvi\s manife/ation4 ,! sexual relation betwe5 man & woman consummates 9 ! act ( coition4 ,n[ :at is ! act ( coition8 ,we "k its functional purpose ( procreation4 ,b1 aft] all our exp]i5ce & all our poetry & novels we "k t ! procreative purpose ( sex is1 to ! individual man & woman1 j a side-%[4 ,to ! individual1 ! act ( coition is a great psy*ic exp]i5ce1 a vital exp]i5ce ( trem5d\s importance4 ,on ?is vital individual exp]i5ce ! life & v be+ ( ! individual l>gely dep5ds4 ,b :at is ! exp]i5ce8 ,untellable4 ,only1 we "k some?+4 ,we "k t 9 ! act ( coition ! blood ( ! individual man1 acutely sur*>g$ ) int5se vital electricity--we "k no ^w1 s say electricity1 by analogy--rises to a culm9ation1 9 a trem5d\s magnetic urge t[>ds ! magnetic blood ( ! female4 ,! :ole ( ! liv+ blood 9 ! two individuals =ms a field ( int5se1 pol>iz$ magnetic attraction4 ,s1 ! two poles mu/ be br\ght into contact4 ,9 ! act ( coition1 ! two seas ( blood 9 ! two individuals1 rock+ & surg+ t[>ds contact1 z ne> z possible1 cla% into a on5ess4 ,a great fla% ( int]*ange occurs1 l an electric sp>k :5 two curr5ts meet or l lightn+ out ( ! d5sely sur*>g$ cl\ds4 ,!re is a lightn+ fla% :i* passes ?r\gh ! blood ( bo? individuals1 !re is a ?und] ( s5sation :i* rolls 9 dim9i%+ cra%es d[n ! n]ves ( ea*--& !n ! t5sion passes4 ,! two individuals are sep>ate aga94 ,b are !y z !y 7 be=e8 ,is ! air ! same aft] a ?und]-/orm z be=e8 ,no4 ,! air is z x 7 new1 fre%1 t+l+ ) newness4 ,s is ! blood ( man & woman aft] successful coition4 ,aft] a false coition1 l pro/itution1 !re is n newness b a c]ta9 dis9tegration4 ,b aft] coition1 ! actual *emical con/itution ( ! blood is s *ang$1 t usually sleep int]v5es1 to all[ ! "t = *emical1 biological readju/m5t ?r\gh ! :ole sy/em4 ,s1 ! blood is *ang$ & r5ew$1 refre%$1 almo/ recreat$1 l ! atmosph]e aft] ?und]4 ,out ( ! newness ( ! liv+ blood pass ! new /range waves :i* beat ^u ! great dynamic c5t]s ( ! n]ves3 prim>ily ^u ! hypoga/ric plexus & ! sacral ganglion4 ,f ^! c5t]s rise new impulses1 new vision1 new be+1 ris+ l ,aphrodite f ! foam ( ! new tide ( blood4 ,& s individual life goes on4 ,p]haps1 !n1 we w all[ ourselves to say :at1 9 psy*ic individual reality1 is ! act ( coition4 ,x is ! br++ toge!r ( ! sur*>g$ electric blood ( ! male ) ! pol>iz$ electric blood ( ! female1 ) ! result ( a trem5d\s fla%+ int]*ange1 :i* alt]s ! con/itution ( ! blood1 & ! v quality ( be+1 9 bo?4 ,& ?is1 surely1 is sex4 ,b is ?is ! :ole ( sex8 ,t is ! "q4 ,aft] coition1 we say ! blood is r5ew$4 ,we say t f ! new1 f9ely sp>kl+ blood new ?rills pass into ! great affective c5t]s ( ! l[] body1 new ?rills ( feel+1 ( impulse1 ( en]gy4--,& :at ab\t ^! new ?rills8 ,n[1 a new /ory4 ,! new ?rills are pass$ on to ! great upp] c5t]s ( ! dynamic body4 ,! individual pol>ity n[ *anges1 )9 ! individual sy/em4 ,! upp] c5t]s1 c>diac plexus & c]vical plexuses1 ?oracic ganglion & c]vical ganglia n[ assume positivity4 ,^!1 ! upp] pol>iz$ c5t]s1 h n[ ! positive role to play1 ! sol> & ! hypoga/ric plexuses1 ! lumb> & ! sacral ganglia1 ^! h ! submissive1 negative role = ! "t be+4 ,& :at !n8 ,:at n[1 t ! upp] c5t]s are f9ely active 9 positivity8 ,n[ x is a diff]5t /ory4 ,n[ !re is new vision 9 ! eyes1 new he>+ 9 ! e>s1 new voice 9 ! ?roat & spee* on ! lips4 ,n[ ! new song rises1 ! bra9 t+les to new ?\ght1 ! he>t craves = new activity4 ,! he>t craves = new activity4 ,= new collective activity4 ,t is1 = a new pol>iz$ connection ) o!r be+s1 o!r m54 ,is ?is new crav+ = pol>iz$ communion ) o!rs1 ?is crav+ = a new unison1 is x sexual1 l ! orig9al crav+ = ! woman8 ,n at all4 ,! :ole pol>ity is diff]5t4 ,n[1 ! positive poles are ! poles ( ! brea/ & %\ld]s & ?roat1 ! poles ( activity & full consci\sness4 ,m51 be+ !mselves made new aft] ! act ( coition1 wi% to make ! _w new4 ,a new1 passionate pol>ity spr+s up betwe5 m5 :o are b5t on ! same activity1 ! pol>ity betwe5 man & woman s9ks to passivity4 ,x is n[ daytime1 & "t to =get sex1 "t to be busy mak+ a new _w4 ,is ?is new pol>ity1 ?is new circuit ( passion betwe5 comrades & co-work]s1 is ?is also sexual8 ,x is a vivid circuit ( pol>iz$ passion4 ,is x h5ce sex8 ,x is n4 ,because :at are ! poles ( positive connection8--! upp]1 busy poles4 ,:at is ! dynamic contact8--a unison 9 _s1 9 und]/&+1 & a pure comm+l+ 9 "o great "w4 ,a m+l+ ( ! individual passion into "o great purpose4 ,n[ ?is is also a gr& consummation = m51 ?is m+l+ ( _m ) "o great impassion$ purpose4 ,b is ?is sex8 ,kn[+ :at sex is1 c we call ?is o!r also sex8 ,we _c4 ,?is meet+ ( _m 9 "o great passionate purpose is n sex1 & %\ld nev] be confus$ ) sex4 ,x is a great motion 9 ! opposite direction4 ,& ,i am sure t ! ultimate1 greate/ desire 9 m5 is ?is desire = great purposive activity4 ,:5 man loses 8 deep s5se ( purposive1 creative activity1 he feels lo/1 & is lo/4 ,:5 he makes ! sexual consummation ! supreme consummation1 ev5 9 8 secret s\l1 he falls into ! beg9n+s ( despair4 ,:5 he makes woman1 or ! woman & *ild ! great c5t] ( life & ( life-significance1 he falls into ! beg9n+s ( despair4 ,man mu/ bravely /& by 8 own s\l1 8 own responsibility z ! creative vangu>d ( life4 ,& he mu/ also h ! c\rage to g home to 8 woman & become a p]fect answ] to h] deep sexual call4 ,b he mu/ nev] confuse 8 two issues4 ,prim>ily & supremely man is always ! pione] ( life1 adv5tur+ onw>d into ! unkn[n1 alone ) 8 own tem]>i\s1 dauntless s\l4 ,woman = him exi/s only 9 ! twilight1 by ! camp fire1 :5 day has dep>t$4 ,ev5+ & ! night are h]s4 ,! psy*oanaly/s1 driv+ u back to ! sexual consummation always1 d u inf9ite damage4 ,we h to break away1 back to ! great unison ( manhood 9 "s passionate purpose4 ,n[ ?is is n l sex4 ,sex is always individual4 ,a man has 8 own sex3 nobody else's4 ,& sexually he goes z a s+le individual2 he c m+le only s+ly4 ,s t to make sex a g5]al affair is j a p]v]sion & a lie4 ,y c't get p & talk to !m ab\t _! sex1 z if x 7 a common int]e/4 ,we h got to get back to ! great purpose ( manhood1 a passionate unison 9 actively mak+ a _w4 ,?is is a real comm+l+ ( _m4 ,& 9 su* a comm+l+ we =feit ! individual4 ,9 ! comm+l+ ( sex we are alone ) "o p>tn]4 ,x is an individual affair1 !re is no sup]ior or inf]ior4 ,b 9 ! comm+l+ ( a passionate purpose1 ea* individual sacr$ly ab&ons 8 individual4 ,9 ! liv+ fai? ( 8 s\l1 he surr5d]s 8 individuality to ! great urge :i* is ^u him4 ,he may h to surr5d] 8 "n1 8 fame1 8 =tune1 8 life1 ev]y?+4 ,b once a man1 9 ! integrity ( 8 own individual s\l1 believes1 he surr5d]s 8 own individuality to 8 belief1 & becomes "o ( a unit$ body4 ,he kn[s :at he does4 ,he makes ! surr5d] honorably1 9 agreem5t ) 8 own s\l's deepe/ desire4 ,b he surr5d]s1 & rema9s responsible = ! purity ( 8 surr5d]4 ,b :at if he believes t 8 sexual consummation is 8 supreme consummation8 ,!n he s]ves ! great purpose to :i* he pl$ges himself only z long z x pleases him4 ,aft] :i* he turns x d[n1 & goes back to sex4 ,) sex z ! "o accept$ prime motive1 ! _w drifts into despair & an>*y4 ,( all c\ntries1 ,am]ica has mo/ to fe> f an>*y1 ev5 f "o s+le mom5t's lapse into an>*y4 ,! old nations are organically fix$ into classes1 b ,am]ica n4 ,y c %ake ,europe to atoms4 ,& yet peasants fall back to peasantry1 artisans to indu/rial labor1 upp] classes to _! control--inevitably4 ,b c y say ! same ( ,am]ica8 ,am]ica mu/ n lapse = "o s+le mom5t into an>*y4 ,x w\ld be ! end ( h]4 ,%e mu/ drift no ne>] to an>*y4 ,%e is ne> en\gh4 ,well1 !n1 ,am]icans mu/ make a *oice4 ,x is a *oice betwe5 belief 9 man's creative1 spontane\s s\l1 & man's automatic p[] ( production & reproduction4 ,x is a *oice betwe5 s]v+ man1 or woman4 ,x is a *oice betwe5 yield+ ! s\l to a lead]1 lead]s1 or yield+ only to ! woman1 wife1 mi/ress1 or "m4 ,! great collective passion ( belief :i* br+s m5 toge!r1 comrades & co-work]s1 passionately obey+ _! s\l-*os5 lead] or lead]s1 ?is is n a sex passion4 ,n 9 any s5se4 ,sex holds any two p toge!r1 b x t5ds to dis9tegrate society1 unless x is subord9at$ to ! great dom9at+ male passion ( collective purpose4 ,b :5 ! sex passion submits to ! great purposive passion1 !n y h fulness4 ,& no great purposive passion c endure long unless x is e/abli%$ ^u ! fulfillm5t 9 ! va/ majority ( individuals ( ! true sexual passion4 ,no great motive or ideal or social pr9ciple c endure = any l5g? ( "t unless bas$ ^u ! sexual fulfillm5t ( ! va/ majority ( individuals conc]n$4 ,x cuts bo? ways4 ,ass]t sex z ! pr$om9ant fulfillm5t1 & y get ! collapse ( liv+ purpose 9 man4 ,y get an>*y4 ,ass]t purposiv5ess z ! "o supreme & pure activity ( life1 & y drift into b>r5 /]ility1 l our bus9ess life ( to-day1 & our political life4 ,y become /]ile1 y make an>*y inevitable4 ,& s !re y are4 ,y h got to base y\r great purposive activity ^u ! int5se sexual fulfillm5t ( all y\r individuals4 ,t 0 h[ ,egypt endur$4 ,b y h got to keep y\r sexual fulfillm5t ev5 !n subord9ate1 j subord9ate to ! great passion ( purpose3 subord9ate by a hair's bread? only3 b /ill1 by t hair's bread?1 subord9ate4 ,p]haps we c see n[ a little bett]--to g back to ! *ild--:]e ,freud is wrong 9 attribut+ a sexual motive to all human activity4 ,x is obvi\s !re is no real sexual motive 9 a *ild1 = example4 ,! great sexual c5t]s are n ev5 awake4 ,true1 ev5 9 a *ild ( ?ree1 rudim5t>y sex ?r[s /range %ad[s on ! wall1 9 its approa* f ! di/ance4 ,b ^! are only an uneasy intrusion f ! z-yet-uncreat$1 unready biological c5t]s4 ,! great sexual c5t]s ( ! hypoga/ric plexus1 & ! imm5sely p[]ful sacral ganglion are sl[ly prep>$1 develop$ 9 a k9d ( pr5atal ge/ation dur+ *ildhood be=e pub]ty4 ,b ev5 an unborn *ild kicks 9 ! womb4 ,s d ! great sex-c5t]s give occasional bl9d kicks 9 a *ild4 ,x is "p ( ! ph5om5on ( *ildhood4 ,b we mu/ be mo/ c>eful n to *>ge ^! r unpleasant app>itions or ph5om5a aga9/ ! individual boy or girl4 ,we mu/ be v c>eful n to drag ! matt] into m5tal consci\sness4 ,%oo x away4 ,reprim& x ) a pah6 & a faugh6 & a bit ( contempt4 ,b d n get into any heat or any fe>4 ,d n />tle a passional att5tion4 ,drive ! :ole ?+ away l ! %ad[ x is1 & be v c>eful n to drive x into ! consci\sness4 ,be v c>eful to plant no se$ ( burn+ %ame or horror4 ,?r[ ov] x m]ely ! cold wat] ( contemptu\s indiff]5ce1 dismissal4 ,aft] pub]ty1 a *ild may z well be told ! simple & necess>y facts ( sex4 ,z ?+s /&1 ! p>5t may z well d x4 ,b briefly1 coldly1 & ) z cold a dismissal z possible4--,look "h1 y're n a *ild any m2 y "k x1 don't y8 ,y're go+ to be a man4 ,& y "k :at t means4 ,x means y're go+ to m>ry a woman lat] on1 & get *ildr54 ,y "k x1 & ,i "k x4 ,b 9 ! meantime1 leave y\rself alone4 ,i "k y'll h a lot ( bo!r ) y\rself1 & y\r feel+s4 ,i "k :at is happ5+ to y4 ,& ,i "k y get excit$ ab\t x4 ,b y ne$n't4 ,o!r m5 h all gone ?r\gh x4 ,s don't y g creep+ (f by y\rself & do+ ?+s on ! sly4 ,x won't d y any good4--,i "k :at y'll d1 because we've all be5 ?r\gh x4 ,i "k ! ?+ w keep com+ on y at night4 ,b rememb] t ,i "k4 ,rememb]4 ,& rememb] t ,i want y to leave y\rself alone4 ,i "k :at x is1 ,i tell y4 ,i've be5 ?r\gh x all myself4 ,y've got to g ?r\gh ^! ye>s1 be=e y f9d a woman y want to m>ry1 & :om y c m>ry4 ,i w5t ?r\gh !m myself1 & got myself work$ up a good deal m ?an 0 good = me4--,try to conta9 y\rself4 ,always try to conta9 y\rself1 & be a man4 ,t's ! only ?+4 ,always try & be manly1 & quiet 9 y\rself4 ,rememb] ,i "k :at x is4 ,i've be5 ! same1 9 ! same /ate t y are 94 ,& probably ,i've behav$ m fooli%ly & p]nici\sly ?an ev] y w4 ,s come to me if any?+ really bo!rs y4 ,& don't feel sly & secret4 ,i d "k j :at y've got & :at y hav5't4 ,i've be5 z bad & p]haps worse ?an y4 ,& ! only ?+ ,i want ( y is to be manly4 ,try & be manly1 & quiet 9 y\rself4 ,t is ab\t z mu* z a fa!r c say to a boy1 at pub]ty4 ,y h to be v c>eful :at y d3 especially if y are a p>5t4 ,to translate sex into m5tal ideas is vile1 to make a sci5tific fact ( x is dea?4 ,z a matt] ( fact !re %\ld be "s sort ( initiation into true adult consci\sness4 ,boys %\ld be tak5 away f _! mo!rs & si/]s z mu* z possible at adolesc5ce4 ,!y %\ld be giv5 into "s real manly *>ge4 ,& !re %\ld be "s actual initiation into sex life4 ,p]haps l ! savages1 :o make ! boy die aga91 symbolically1 & pull him =? ?r\gh "s n>r[ ap]ture1 to be born aga91 & make him suff] & endure t]rible h>d%ips1 to make a great dynamic effect on ! consci\sness1 a t]rible dynamic s5se ( *ange 9 ! v be+4 ,9 %ort1 a long1 viol5t initiation1 f :i* ! lad em]ges emaciat$1 b cut (f =ev] f *ildhood1 ent]$ into ! s]i\s1 responsible pale ( manhood4 ,& ) 8 :ole consci\sness convuls$ by a great *ange1 z 8 dynamic psy*e actually is convuls$4--,& some?+ 9 ! same way1 to initiate girls into womanhood4 ,!re %\ld be ! int5se dynamic reaction3 ! physical suff]+ & ! physical realization s9k+ deep into ! s\l1 *ang+ ! s\l = ev]4 ,sex %\ld come ^u u z a t]rible ?+ ( suff]+ & privilege & my/]y3 a my/]i\s metamorphosis come ^u u1 & a new t]rible p[] giv5 u1 & a new responsibility4 ,tell+8--,:at's ! good ( tell+8--,! my/]y1 ! t]ror1 & ! trem5d\s p[] ( sex %\ld nev] be expla9$ away4 ,! mass ( mank9d %\ld nev] be acqua9t$ ) ! sci5tific biological facts ( sex3 nev]4 ,! my/]y mu/ rema9 9 its d>k secrecy1 & its d>k1 p[]ful dynamism4 ,! reality ( sex lies 9 ! great dynamic convulsions 9 ! s\l4 ,& z su* x %\ld be realiz$1 a great creative-convulsive seizure ^u ! s\l4--,to make x a matt] ( te/-tube mixtures1 *emical demon/rations & tra%y lock-&-key symbols is j bla/+4 ,ev5 m sick5+ is ! l9e3 ,y see1 de>1 "o day y'll love a man z ,i love ,daddy1 m ?an any?+ else 9 ! :ole _w4 ,& !n1 de>1 ,i hope y'll m>ry him4 ,because if y d y'll be happy1 & ,i want y to be happy1 my love4 ,& s ,i hope y'll m>ry ! man y really love 7kisses ! *ild74--,& !n1 d>l+1 !re w come a lot ( ?+s y "k no?+ ab\t n[4 ,y'll want to h a de> little baby1 won't y1 d>l+8 ,y\r own de> little baby4 ,& y\r husb&'s z well4 ,because x'll be 81 too4 ,y "k t1 don't y1 de>8 ,x w be born f bo? ( y4 ,& y don't "k h[1 d y8 ,well1 x w come f "r inside y1 de>1 out ( y\r own inside4 ,y came out ( "m's inside1 etc41 etc4 ,b ,i suppose !re's really no?+ else to be done1 giv5 ! _w & society z we've got !m n[4 ,! "m is do+ h] be/4 ,b x is all wrong4 ,x is wrong to make sex appe> z if x 7 "p ( ! de>-d>l+-love sm>m3 ! spiritual love4 ,x is ev5 worse to take ! sci5tific te/-tube l9e4 ,x all kills ! great effective dynamism ( life1 & sub/itutes ! m]e a% ( m5tal ideas & tricks4 ,! sci5tific fact ( sex is no m sex ?an a skeleton is a man4 ,yet y'd ?9k twice be=e y /ock a skeleton 9 front ( a lad & said1 ,y see1 my boy1 ?is is :at y are :5 y come to "k y\rself4--,& ! ideal1 lovey-dovey explanation ( sex z some?+ wond]ful & extra lovey-dovey1 a bill-&-coo process ( obta9+ a sweet little baby--or else ,god made u s t we mu/ d ?is1 to br+ ano!r de> little baby to life--well1 x j makes "o sick4 ,x is disa/r\s to ! deep sexual life4 ,b p]haps t is :at we want4 ,:5 humanity comes to its s5ses x w realize :at a fe>ful ,sodom apple our und]/&+ is4 ,:at t]rible m\?s & /oma*s full ( bitt] a% we've all got4 ,& !n we %all take away k & und]/&+1 & lock !m up along ) ! re/ ( poisons1 to be adm9i/]$ 9 small doses only by compet5t p4 ,we h almo/ poison$ ! mass ( humanity to dea? ) und]/&+4 ,! p]iod ( actual dea? & race-ext]m9ation is n f> (f4 ,we c\ld h produc$ ! same b>r5ness & fr5zy ( no?+ness 9 p1 p]haps1 by d9n+ x into !m t e man is j a *>nel-h\se skeleton ( unclean bones4 ,our und]/&+1 our sci5ce & idealism h produc$ 9 p ! same /range fr5zy ( self-repulsion z if !y saw _! own skulls ea* "t !y look$ 9 ! mirror4 ,a man is a ?+ ( sci5tific cause-&-effect & biological process1 drap$ 9 an ideal1 is he8 ,no wond] he sees ! skeleton gr9n+ ?r\gh ! fle%4 ,our lead]s h n lov$ m53 !y h lov$ ideas1 & h be5 will+ to sacrifice passionate m5 on ! alt>s ( ! blood-dr9k+1 ev]-a%-?ir/y ideal4 ,has ,presid5t ,wilson1 or ,k>l ,m>x1 or ,b]n>d ,%aw ev] felt "o hot blood-pulse ( love = ! work+ man1 ! half-consci\s1 delud$ work+ man8 ,nev]4 ,ea* ( ^! lead]s has want$ to ab/ract him away f 8 own blood & be+1 into "s f\l ,me?uselah or ab/raction ( a man4 ,& me8 ,!re is no dang] ( ! work+ man ev] read+ my books1 s ,i %an't hurt him t way4 ,b oh1 ,i w\ld l to save him alive1 9 8 liv+1 spontane\s1 orig9al be+4 ,i c't help x4 ,x is my passionate in/9ct4 ,i w\ld l him to give me back ! responsibility = g5]al affairs1 a responsibility :i* he c't acquit1 & :i* saps 8 life4 ,i w\ld l him to give me back ! responsibility = ! future4 ,i w\ld l him to give me back ! responsibility = ?\ght1 = direction4 ,i wi% we c\ld take hope & belief toge!r4 ,i w\ld und]take my %>e ( ! responsibility1 if he gave me 8 belief4 ,i w\ld l him to give me back books & newspap]s & !ories4 ,& ,i w\ld l to give him back1 9 return1 8 old ins\ciance1 & ri*1 orig9al spontaneity & fullness ( life4 ,,*apt] ,x ,,p>5t ,,love ,9 ! s]i\s h\r ( pub]ty1 ! individual passes into 8 second phase ( accompli%m5t4 ,b !re _c be a p]fect transition unless all ! activity is 9 full play 9 all ! fir/ f\r poles ( ! psy*e4 ,*ildhood is a *rysalis f :i* ea* mu/ extricate himself4 ,& ! /ruggl+ y\? or maid _c em]ge unless by ! en]gy ( all p[]s2 he c nev] em]ge if ! :ole mass ( ! _w & ! tradition ( love hold him back4 ,n[ we come to ! great] p]il ( our p>ticul> =m ( idealism4 ,x is ! idealism ( love & ( ! _s3 ! idealism ( ye>n+1 outgo+ love1 ( pure sympa!tic communion & und]/&+4 ,& ?is idealism recognizes z ! highe/ e>?ly love1 ! love ( "m & *ild4 ,& :at does ?is mean8 ,x means1 = e delicately br\ght up *ild1 inde$ = all ! *ildr5 :o matt]1 a /eady & p]si/5t pressure ^u ! upp] sympa!tic c5t]s1 & a /eady & p]si/5t />v+ ( ! l[] c5t]s1 p>ticul>ly ! great volunt>y c5t] ( ! l[] body4 ,! c5t] ( s5sual1 manly indep5d5ce1 ( exultation 9 ! /urdy1 defiant self1 willfulness & ma/]fulness & pride1 ?is c5t] is /eadily suppress$4 ,! w>m1 swift1 s5sual self is /eadily & p]si/5tly d5i$1 damp$1 weak5$1 ?r\gh\t all ! p]iod ( *ildhood4 ,& by s5sual we d n mean gre$y or ugly1 we mean ! deep]1 m impulsive reckless nature4 ,life mu/ be always ref9$ & sup]ior4 ,love & happ9ess mu/ be ! wat*word4 ,! willful1 critical elem5t ( ! spiritual mode is nev] abs5t1 ! sil5t1 if =be>+ disapproval & di/a/e is always ready4 ,vile bully+ =be>ance4 ,) :at result8 ,! c5t] ( upp] sympa?y is abnormally1 inflam$ly excit$2 & ! c5t]s ( w are s d]ang$ t !y op]ate 9 j]ks & spasms4 ,! true pol>ity ( ! sympa!tic-volunt>y sy/em )9 ! *ild is s di/urb$ z to be almo/ d]ang$4 ,!n we h an exagg]at$ s5sitiv5ess alt]nat+ ) a sort ( helpless fury3 & we h delicate frail *ildr5 ) n]ves or ) /range :ims4 ,& we h ! /range cold ob/9acy ( ! spiritual w1 cold z hell1 fix$ 9 a *ild4 ,!n "o p>5t1 usually ! "m1 is ! object ( bl9d devotion1 :il/ ! o!r p>5t1 usually ! fa!r1 is an object ( resi/ance4 ,! *ild is taught1 h[ev]1 t bo? p>5ts %\ld be lov$1 & only lov$3 & t love1 g5tl5ess1 pity1 *>ity1 & all high] emotions1 ^! alone are g5u9e feel+s1 all ! re/ are false1 to be reject$4 ,) :at result8 ,! upp] c5t]s are develop$ to a degree ( unnatural acut5ess & reaction--or aga9 !y fall numb$ & b>r54 ,& !n betwe5 p>5ts & *ildr5 a pa9fully false relation gr[s up3 a relation z ( two adults1 ei!r ( two pure lov]s1 or ( two love-appe>+ p :o are really try+ to bully "o ano!r4 ,in/ead ( leav+ ! *ild ) its own limit$ b deep & incompreh5sible feel+s1 ! p>5t1 hopelessly involv$ 9 ! sympa!tic mode ( selfless love1 & spiritual love-w1 /imulates ! *ild into a consci\sness :i* does n belong to x1 on ! "o plane1 & robs x ( its own spontane\s consci\sness & fre$om on ! o!r plane4 ,& ?is is ! fatality4 ,long be=e pub]ty1 by an exagg]ation & an int5sity ( spiritual love f ! p>5ts1 ! second c5t]s ( sympa?y are artificially ar\s$ into response4 ,& !re is an irrep>able disa/]4 ,in/ead ( see+ z a *ild %\ld see1 ?r\gh a glass1 d>kly1 ! *ild n[ op5s premature eyes ( sympa!tic cognition4 ,in/ead ( kn[+ 9 "p1 z x %\ld "k1 x beg9s1 at a fe>fully small age1 to "k 9 full4 ,! c]vical plexuses & ! c]vical ganglia1 :i* %\ld only beg9 to awake aft] adolesc5ce1 ^! c5t]s ( ! high] dynamic sympa?y & cognition1 are bo? artificially /imulat$1 by ! adult p]sonal love-emotion & love-w into response1 9 a q "y *ild1 sometimes ev5 9 an infant4 ,?is is a holy obsc5ity4 ,our p>ticul> mode ( idealism causes u to suppress z f> z possible ! s5sual c5t]s1 to make !m negative4 ,! :ole ( ! activity is conc5trat$1 z f> z possible1 9 ! upp] or spiritual c5t]s1 ! c5t]s ( ! brea/ & ?roat1 :i* we w call ! c5t]s ( dynamic cognition1 9 contra/ to ! c5t]s ( s5sual compreh5sion bel[ ! diaphragm4 ,& !n a *ild arrives at pub]ty1 ) its upp] nature already r\s$ into precoci\s action4 ,! *ild n[adays is almo/ inv>iably precoci\s 9 und]/&+4 ,9 ! nor?1 spiritually precoci\s1 s t by ! "t x arrives at adolesc5ce x already has exp]i5c$ ! ext5d$ sympa!tic reactions :i* %\ld h la9 utt]ly d>k4 ,& x has exp]i5c$ ^! ext5d$ reactions ) :om8 ,) ! p>5t or p>5ts4 ,:i* is man dev\r+ 8 own (fspr+4 ,= to ! p>5ts belongs1 once & = all1 ! dynamic reaction on ! fir/ plane ( consci\sness only1 ! reaction & relation%ip at ! fir/ f\r poles ( dynamic consci\sness4 ,:5 ! second1 ! f>!r plane ( consci\sness r\ses into action1 ! relation%ip is ) /rang]s4 ,all human in/9ct & all e?nology w prove ?is to u4 ,:at sex-in/9ct !re is 9 a *ild is always adv]se to ! p>5ts4 ,b also1 ! p>5ts are all too quick4 ,!y all proce$ to swall[ _! *ildr5 be=e ! *ildr5 c get out ( _! clut*es4 ,& ev5 if p>5ts d s5d away _! *ildr5 at ! age ( pub]ty--to s*ool or else:]e--x is n mu* good4 ,! mis*ief has be5 done be=e4 ,= ! fir/ twelve ye>s ! p>5ts & ! :ole community =cibly insi/ on ! *ild's liv+ f ! upp] c5t]s only1 & p>ticul>ly ! upp] sympa!tic c5t]s1 )\t ! balance ( ! w>m1 deep s5sual self4 ,p>5ts & community alike insi/ on r\s+ an adult sympa!tic response1 & a m5tal answ] 9 ! *ild-s*ools1 ,sunday-s*ools1 books1 home-influ5ce--all works 9 ?is "o p]nici\s way4 ,b x is ! home1 ! p>5ts1 t "w mo/ effectively & int5sely4 ,!re is ! mo/ intimate me% ( love1 love-bully+1 & und]/&+ 9 :i* a *ild is entangl$4 ,s t a *ild arrives at ! age ( pub]ty already /ripp$ ( its *ildhood's d>kness1 b\nd1 & deliv]$ ov]4 ,in/ead ( wak+ n[ to a :ole new field ( consci\sness1 a :ole va/ & wond]ful new dynamic impulse t[>ds new connections1 x f9ds itself fatally b\nd4 ,pub]ty accompli%es itself4 ,! h\r ( sex /rikes4 ,b !re is y\r *ild1 b\nd1 helpless4 ,y h already ar\s$ 9 x ! dynamic response to y\r own insatiable love-w4 ,y h already e/abli%$ betwe5 y\r *ild & y\rself ! dynamic relation 9 ! fur!r plane ( consci\sness4 ,y h got y\r *ild z sure z if y _h wov5 its fle% aga9 ) y\r own4 ,y h done :at x is vici\s = any p>5t to d3 y h e/abli%$ betwe5 y\r *ild & y\rself ! bond ( adult love3 ! love ( man = man1 woman = woman1 or man = woman4 ,all y\r t5d]ness1 y\r *]i%+ w n excuse y4 ,x only deep5s y\r guilt4 ,y h e/abli%$ betwe5 y\r *ild & y\rself ! bond ( fur!r sympa?y4 ,i d n speak ( sex4 ,i speak ( pure sympa?y1 sacr$ love4 ,! p>5ts e/abli% betwe5 !mselves & _! *ild ! bond ( ! high] love1 ! fur!r spiritual love1 ! sympa?y ( ! adult s\l4 ,& ?is is fatal4 ,x is a sort ( ince/4 ,x is a dynamic spiritual ince/1 m dang]\s ?an s5sual ince/1 because x is m intangible & less in/9ctively repugnant4 ,b let psy*oanalysis fall into :at discr$it x may1 x has done u ?is great s]vice ( prov+ to u t ! int5se upp] sympa?y1 inde$ ! dynamic relation ei!r ( love-w or love-sympa?y1 betwe5 p>5t & *ild1 ^u ! upp] plane1 inevitably involves u 9 a conclusion ( ince/4 ,= al?\gh x is our aim to e/abli% a purely spiritual dynamic relation on ! upp] plane only1 yet1 because ( ! inevitable pol>ity ( ! human psy*ic sy/em1 we %all ar\se at ! same "t a dynamic s5sual activity on ! l[] plane1 ! deep] s5sual plane4 ,we may be z pure z angels1 & yet1 be+ human1 ?is w & mu/ inevitably happ54 ,:5 ,mrs4 ,rusk9 said t ,john ,rusk9 %\ld h m>ri$ 8 "m %e spoke ! tru?4 ,he 0 m>ri$ to 8 "m4 ,= 9 spite ( all our int5tion1 all our cre$1 all our purity1 all our desire & all our w1 once we ar\se ! dynamic relation 9 ! upp]1 high] plane ( love1 we inevitably evoke a dynamic consci\sness on ! l[]1 deep] plane ( s5sual love4 ,& !n :at8 ,( c\rse1 p>5ts c reply t _! love1 h[ev] int5se1 is pure1 & has absolutely no s5sual elem5t4 ,maybe--& maybe n4 ,b admit t x is s4 ,x does n help4 ,! int5se excitem5t ( ! upp] c5t]s ( sympa?y willy-nilly ar\ses ! l[] c5t]s4 ,x ar\ses !m to activity1 ev5 if x d5ies !m any expression or any pol>iz$ connection4 ,our psy*e is s fram$ t activity ar\s$ on "o plane provokes activity on ! correspond+ plane1 automatically4 ,s ! int5se pure love-relation betwe5 p>5t & *ild inevitably ar\ses ! l[] c5t]s 9 ! *ild1 ! c5t]s ( sex4 ,n[ ! deep] s5sual c5t]s1 once ar\s$1 %\ld f9d response f ! s5sual body ( "s o!r1 "s fri5d or lov]4 ,! response is impossible betwe5 p>5t & *ild4 ,myself1 ,i believe t biologically !re is radical sex-av]sion betwe5 p>5t & *ild1 at ! deep] s5sual c5t]s4 ,! s5sual circuit _c adju/ itself spontane\sly betwe5 ! two4 ,s :at h y8 ,*ild & p>5t int5sely l9k$ 9 adult love-sympa?y & love-w1 on ! upp] plane1 & 9 ! *ild1 ! deep] s5sual c5t]s ar\s$1 b f9d+ no correspond5t1 no objective1 no pol>iz$ connection ) ano!r p]son4 ,!re !y are1 ! p[]ful c5t]s ( sex1 act+ spasmodically1 )\t balance4 ,!y mu/ be pol>iz$ someh[4 ,s !y are pol>iz$ to ! active upp] c5t]s )9 ! *ild1 & y get an introv]t4 ,?is is h[ introv]sion beg9s4 ,! l[] sexual c5t]s are ar\s$4 ,!y f9d no sympa?y1 no connection1 no response f outside1 no expression4 ,!y are dynamically pol>iz$ by ! upp] c5t]s )9 ! individual4 ,t is1 ! :ole ( ! sexual or deep] s5sual fl[ goes on upw>ds 9 ! individual1 to 8 own upp]1 f 8 own l[] c5t]s4 ,! upp] c5t]s hold ! l[] 9 positive pol>ity4 ,! fl[ goes on upw>ds4 ,!re mu/ be "s reaction4 ,& s y get1 fir/ & =emo/1 self-consci\sness1 an int5se consci\sness 9 ! upp] self ( ! l[] self4 ,?is is ! fir/ disa/]4 ,!n y get ! upp] body exploit+ ! l[] body4 ,y get ! h&s exploit+ ! s5sual body1 9 feel+1 f+]+1 & 9 ma/urbation4 ,y get a pornographic long+ ) reg>d to ! self4 ,y get ! obsc5e po/ c>ds :i* mo/ y\?s possess4 ,y get ! absolute lu/ = dirty /ories1 :i* s _m m5 h4 ,& y get v>i\s mild sex p]v]sions1 su* z ma/urbation1 & s on4 ,:at does all ?is mean8 ,x means t ! activity ( ! l[] psy*e & l[] body is pol>iz$ by ! upp] body4 ,eyes & e>s want to ga!r sexual activity & k4 ,! m9d becomes full ( sex3 & always1 9 an introv]t1 ( 8 own sex4 ,if we exam9e ! app>5t extrov]ts1 l ! flaunt+ ,italian1 we %all see ! same ?+4 ,x is 8 own sex :i* obsesses him4 ,& to-day :at h we b ?is8 ,almo/ inevitably we f9d 9 a *ild n[ an int5se1 precoci\s1 secret sexual preoccupation4 ,! upp] self is rabidly engag$ 9 exploit+ ! l[] self4 ,a *ild & its own r\s$1 inflam$ sex1 its own %ame & ma/urbation1 its own cruel1 secret sexual excitem5t & sex curiosity1 ?is is ! greate/ trag$y ( our day4 ,! *ild does n s mu* want to act z to "k4 ,! ?\ght ( actual sex connection is usually repulsive4 ,!re is an av]sion f ! normal coition act4 ,b ! crav+ to feel1 to see1 to ta/e1 to "k1 m5tally 9 ! head1 ?is is insatiable4 ,any?+1 s t ! s5sation & exp]i5ce %all come ?r\gh ! upp] *annels4 ,?is is ! secret ( our introv]sion & our p]v]sion to-day4 ,any?+ r ?an spontane\s direct action f ! s5sual self4 ,any?+ r ?an ! m]ely normal passion4 ,introduce any trick1 any idea1 any m5tal elem5t y c into sex1 b make x an affair ( ! upp] consci\sness1 ! m9d & eyes & m\? & f+]s4 ,?is is our vice1 our dirt1 our disease4 ,& ! adult1 & ! ideal are to blame4 ,b ! trag$y ( our *ildr51 9 _! inflam$1 solit>y sexual excitem5t1 di/resses u beyond any blame4 ,x is "t to drop ! ^w love1 & m ?an "t to drop ! ideal ( love4 ,e fr5zi$ individual is told to f9d fulfillm5t 9 love4 ,s he tries4 ,:]eas1 !re is no fulfillm5t 9 love4 ,half ( our fulfillm5t comes ?r\gh love1 ?r\gh /rong1 s5sual love4 ,b ! c5tral fulfillm5t1 = a man1 is t he possess 8 own s\l 9 /r5g? )9 him1 deep & alone4 ,! deep1 ri* alon5ess1 rea*$ & p]fect$ ?r\gh love4 ,& ! pass+ beyond any fur!r que/ ( love4 ,?is c5tral fullness ( self-possession is our goal1 if goal !re be any4 ,b !re are two great ways ( fulfillm5t4 ,! fir/1 ! way ( fulfillm5t ?r\gh complete love1 complete1 passionate1 deep love4 ,& ! second1 ! great]1 ! fulfillm5t ?r\gh ! accompli%m5t ( religi\s purpose1 ! s\l's e>ne/ purpose4 ,we "w ! love way falsely1 f ! upp] self1 & "w x to dea?4 ,! second way1 ( active unison 9 /rong purpose1 & 9 fai?1 ?is we only sne] at4 ,b to return to ! *ild & ! p>5t4 ,! com+ to ! fulfillm5t ( s+le alon5ess1 ?r\gh love1 is made impossible = u by ! ideal1 ! monomania ( m love4 ,at ! v age dang]euse1 :5 a woman %\ld be accompli%+ h] own fulfillm5t into maturity & ri* quiesc5ce1 %e turns rabidly to seek a new lov]4 ,at ! v crucial "t :5 %e %\ld be com+ to a /ate ( pure equilibrium & re/ ) h] husb&1 %e turns rabidly aga9/ re/ or peace or equilibrium or husb& 9 any %ape or =m1 & dem&s m love1 m love1 a new sort ( lov]1 "o :o w und]/& h]4 ,& z (t5 z n %e turns to h] son4 ,x is true1 a woman rea*es h] goal ( fulfillm5t ?r\gh feel+4 ,b ?r\gh be+ und]/ood %e rea*es n[h]e1 unless ! lov] und]/&s :at a vice x is = a woman to get h]self & h] sex into h] head4 ,a woman rea*es h] fulfillm5t ?r\gh love1 deep s5sual love1 & exquisite s5sitive communion4 ,b once %e rea*es ! po9t ( fulfillm5t1 %e %\ld n break (f to ask = m excitem5ts4 ,%e %\ld take ! beauty ( maturity & peace & quiet fai?fulness ^u h]4 ,?is %e won't d1 h[ev]1 unless ! man1 h] husb&1 goes on beyond h]4 ,:5 a man approa*es ! beg9n+ ( maturity & ! fulfillm5t ( 8 individual self1 ab\t ! age ( ?irty-five1 !n is n 8 "t to come to re/4 ,on ! contr>y4 ,deeply fulfill$ ?r\gh m>riage1 & at "o ) 8 own s\l1 he mu/ n[ und]take ! responsibility = ! next /ep into ! future4 ,he mu/ n[ give himself p]fectly to "s fur!r purpose1 "s passionate purposive activity4 ,till a man makes ! great resolution ( alon5ess & s+l5ess ( be+1 till he takes ^u himself ! sil5ce & c5tral appeas$ness ( maturity2 & !n1 aft] ?is1 assumes a sacr$ responsibility = ! next purposive /ep into ! future1 !re is no re/4 ,! great resolution ( alon5ess & appeas$ness1 & ! fur!r deep assumption ( responsibility 9 purpose--?is is necess>y to e p>5t1 e fa!r1 e husb&1 at a c]ta9 po9t4 ,if ! resolution is nev] made1 ! responsibility nev] embrac$1 !n ! love-crav+ w run on into fr5zy1 & lay wa/e to ! family4 ,9 ! woman p>ticul>ly ! love-crav+ w run on to fr5zy & disa/]4 ,seek+1 seek+ ! fulfillm5t 9 ! deep passional self2 diseas$ ) self-consci\sness & sex 9 ! head1 foil$ by ! v lov+ weakness ( ! husb& :o has n ! c\rage to )draw into 8 own /illness & s+l5ess1 & put ! wife "u ! spell ( 8 fulfill$ decision2 ! unhappy woman beats ab\t = h] insatiable satisfaction1 seek+ :om %e may dev\r4 ,& usually1 %e turns to h] *ild4 ,"h %e provokes :at %e wants4 ,"h1 9 h] own son :o belongs to h]1 %e seems to f9d ! la/ p]fect response = :i* %e is crav+4 ,he is a m$ium to h]1 %e provokes f him h] own answ]4 ,s %e ?r[s h]self into a la/ great love = h] son1 a f9al & fatal devotion1 t :i* w\ld h be5 ! ri*ness & /r5g? ( h] husb& & is poison to h] boy4 ,! husb&1 irresolute1 nev] accept+ 8 own high] responsibility1 b[s & accepts4 ,& ! fatal r\nd ( introv]sion & complex />ts once m4 ,if man w nev] accept 8 own ultimate be+1 8 f9al alon5ess1 & 8 la/ responsibility = life1 !n he mu/ expect woman to da% f disa/] to disa/]1 rootless & uncontroll$4 ,on revi5t t\j\rs a son premi] am\r4 ,x s\nds l a cynicism to-day4 ,z if we really meant3 ,on ne revi5t jamais a son premi] am\r4 ,b z a matt] ( fact1 a man nev] leaves 8 fir/ love1 once ! love is e/abli%$4 ,he may leave 8 fir/ attempt at love4 ,once a man e/abli%es a full dynamic communication at ! deep] & ! high] c5t]s1 ) a woman1 ?is c nev] be brok54 ,b sex 9 ! head breaks d[n1 & half circuits break d[n4 ,once ! full circuit is e/abli%$1 h[ev]1 ?is c nev] break d[n4 ,n[adays1 alas1 we />t (f self-consci\s1 ) sex 9 ! head4 ,we f9d a woman :o is ! same4 ,we m>ry because we are pals4 ,! sex is a r na/y fiasco4 ,we keep up a pret5se ( pals--& nice love4 ,sex sp9s wild] 9 ! head ?an ev]4 ,!re is ei!r a family ( *ildr5 :om ! dissatisfi$ p>5ts c devote !mselves to1 !reby p]v]t+ ! mis]able little creatures3 or else !re is a divorce4 ,& at ! great dynamic c5t]s no?+ has happ5$ at all4 ,blank no?+4 ,!re has be5 no vital int]*ange at all 9 ! :ole ( ?is beautiful m>riage affair4 ,e/abli% betwe5 y\rself & ano!r individual a dynamic connection at only two ( ! f\r fur!r poles1 & y w h ! devil ( a job to break ! connection4 ,especially if x be ! fir/ connection y h made4 ,especially if ! o!r individual be ! fir/ 9 ! field4 ,?is is ! case ( ! p>5ts4 ,p>5ts are fir/ 9 ! field ( ! *ild's fur!r consci\sness4 ,!y are crim9al trespass]s 9 t field4 ,b t makes no matt]4 ,!y are fir/ 9 ! field4 ,!y e/abli% a dynamic connection betwe5 ! two upp] c5t]s1 ! c5t]s ( ! ?roat1 ! c5t]s ( ! high] dynamic sympa?y & cognition4 ,!y e/abli% ?is circuit4 ,& break x if y c4 ,v (t5 n ev5 dea? c break x4 ,& z we see1 ! e/abli%m5t ( ! upp] love-&-cognition circuit inevitably provokes ! l[] sex-s5sual c5t]s into action1 ev5 ?\gh !re be no correspond5ce on ! s5sual plane betwe5 ! two individuals conc]n$4 ,!n see :at happ5s4 ,if y want to see ! real desirable wife-_s1 look at a "m ) h] boy ( eighte54 ,h[ %e s]ves him1 h[ %e /imulates him1 h[ h] true female self is 81 is wife-submissive to him z nev]1 nev] x c\ld be to a husb&4 ,?is is ! quiesc5t1 fl[]+ love ( a mature woman4 ,x is ! v fl[] ( a woman's love3 sexually ask+ no?+1 ask+ no?+ ( ! belov$1 save t he %all be himself1 & t = 8 liv+ he %all accept ! gift ( h] love4 ,?is is ! p]fect fl[] ( m>ri$ love1 :i* a husb& %\ld put 9 8 cap z he goes =w>d into ! future 9 8 supreme activity4 ,= ! husb&1 x is a great pl$ge1 & a blossom4 ,= ! son also x seems wond]ful4 ,! woman n[ feels = ! fir/ "t z a true wife might feel4 ,& h] feel+ is t[>ds h] son4 ,or1 in/ead ( "m & son1 read fa!r & daught]4 ,& !n :at8 ,! son gets on swimm+ly = a "t1 till he is fac$ ) ! actual fact ( sex necessity4 ,he gleefully inh]its 8 adolesc5ce & ! _w at l>ge1 )\t an ob/acle 9 8 way1 "m-support$1 "m-lov$4 ,ev]y?+ comes to him 9 glam\r1 he feels he sees wondr\s mu*1 und]/&s a :ole heav51 "m-/imulat$4 ,?9k ( ! p[] :i* a mature woman ?us infuses into h] boy4 ,he fl>es up l a flame 9 oxyg54 ,no wond] !y say g5iuses mo/ly h great mo!rs4 ,!y mo/ly h sad fates4 ,& !n8--& !n1 ) ?is glamor\s y\?8 ,:at is he actually to d ) 8 s5sual1 sexual self8 ,bury x8 ,or make an ef=t ) a /rang]8 ,= he is taught1 ev5 by 8 "m1 t 8 manhood mu/ n =ego sex4 ,yet he is l9k$ up 9 ideal love already1 ! be/ he w ev] "k4 ,no woman w give to a /rang] t :i* %e gives to h] son1 h] fa!r or h] bro!r3 t beautiful & glamor\s submission :i* is truly ! wife-submission4 ,to a /rang]1 a husb&1 a woman insi/s on be+ que51 goddess1 mi/ress1 ! positive1 ! ador$1 ! fir/ & =emo/ & ! "o & only4 ,?is %e w n ask f h] ne> blood-k94 ,( h] blood-k91 !re is always "o %e w love devot$ly4 ,& s1 ! *>m+ "y girl :o adores h] fa!r1 or "o ( h] bro!rs1 is s\ght 9 m>riage by ! attractive "y man :o loves 8 "m devot$ly4 ,& a pretty bus9ess ! m>riage is4 ,we c't ?9k ( x4 ,( c\rse !y may be good pals4 ,x's ! only ?+ left4 ,& !re we are4 ,! game is spoilt be=e x is begun4 ,)9 ! circle ( ! family1 ow+ to our cre$ ( insatiable love1 int5se adult sympa?ies are provok$ 9 q "y *ildr54 ,9 ,italy1 ! ,italian /imulates adult sex-consci\sness & sex-sympa?y 9 8 *ild1 almo/ delib]ately4 ,b ) u1 x is usually spiritual sympa?y & spiritual criticism4 ,! adult exp]i5ces are provok$1 ! adult devotional sympa?ies are l9k$ up1 prematurely1 z f> z ! *ild is conc]n$4 ,we h ! he>t-wr++ spectacle ( int5se p>5t-*ild love1 a love int5se z ! love ( man & woman1 b n sexual2 or else ! great bro!r-si/] devotion4 ,& ?us1 ! great love-exp]i5ce :i* %\ld lie 9 ! future is =e/all$4 ,)9 ! family1 ! love-bond =ms quickly1 )\t ! %ocks & ruptures inevitable betwe5 /rang]s4 ,& s1 x is easie/1 int5se/--& seems ! be/4 ,x seems ! highe/4 ,y w n easily get a man to believe t 8 c>nal love = ! woman he has made 8 wife is z high a love z t he felt = 8 "m or si/]4 ,! cream is lick$ (f f life be=e ! boy or ! girl is tw5ty4 ,aft]w>ds--repetition1 disillusion1 & b>r5ness4 ,& ! cause8--always ! same4 ,t p>5ts w n make ! great resolution to come to re/ )9 !mselves1 to possess _! own s\ls 9 quiet & fullness4 ,! man has n ! c\rage to )draw at la/ into 8 own s\l's /illness & alon5ess1 & !n1 passionately & fai?fully1 to /rive = ! liv+ future4 ,! woman has n ! c\rage to give up h] hopeless insi/5ce on love & h] endless dem& = love1 dem& ( be+ lov$4 ,%e has n ! greatness ( s\l to rel9qui% h] own self-ass]tion1 & believe 9 ! man :o believes 9 himself & 9 8 own s\l's ef=ts3--if !re are any su* m5 n[adays1 :i* is v d\btful4 ,alas1 alas1 ! future6 ,y\r son1 :o has ta/$ ! real beauty ( wife-response 9 8 "m or si/]4 ,y\r daught]1 :o adores h] bro!r1 & :o m>ries "s woman's son4 ,!y are s *>m+ to look at1 su* a lovely c\ple4 ,& at fir/ x is all su* a good game1 su* good sport4 ,!n ea* "o beg9s to fret = ! beauty ( ! lo/1 non-sexual1 p>tial relation%ip4 ,! sexual "p ( m>riage has prov$ s--s empty4 ,:ile t o!r lovelie/ ?+--! poignant t\* ( devotion felt = "m or fa!r or bro!r--:y1 ?is is miss+ altoge!r4 ,! be/ is miss+4 ,! re/ isn't wor? mu*4 ,ah well1 su* is life4 ,settle d[n to x1 & br+ up ! *ildr5 c>efully to m ( ! same4--,! future6--,y've _h all y\r good days by ! "t y're tw5ty4 ,&1 ,i ask y1 :at good w psy*oanalysis d y 9 ?is /ate ( affairs8 ,introduce an extra sex-motive to excite y = a bit & make y feel h[ ?rill+ly immoral ?+s really are4 ,& !n--x all goes flat aga94 ,fa!r complex1 "m complex1 ince/ dreams3 pah1 :5 we've _h ! little excitem5t out ( !m we %all =get !m z we h =gott5 s _m o!r cat*-words4 ,& we %all be j :]e we 7 be=e3 unless we are worse1 ) m sex 9 ! head1 & m introv]sion1 only m braz54 ,,*apt] ,,xi ,,! ,,vici\s ,,circle ,"h is a v vici\s circle4 ,& h[ to get out ( x8 ,9 ! fir/ place1 we h to break ! love-ideal1 once & = all4 ,love1 z we see1 is n ! only dynamic4 ,tak+ love 9 its greate/ s5se1 & mak+ x embrace e =m ( sympa?y1 e fl[ f ! great sympa!tic c5t]s ( ! human body1 /ill x is n ! :ole ( ! dynamic fl[1 x is only ! "o-half4 ,!re is always ! o!r volunt>y fl[ to reckon )1 ! int5se motion ( indep5d5ce & s+l5ess ( self1 ! pride ( isolation1 & ! pr(\nd fulfillm5t ?r\gh p[]4 ,! v fir/ ?+ ( all to be recogniz$ is ! dang] ( idealism4 ,x is ! "o besett+ s9 ( ! human race4 ,x means ! fall into automatism1 me*anism1 & nullity4 ,we "k t life issues spontane\sly at ! great nodes ( ! psy*e1 ! great n]ve-c5t]s4 ,at fir/ ^! are f\r only3 !n1 aft] pub]ty1 !y become eight3 lat] !re may /ill be an ext5sion ( ! dynamic consci\sness1 a fur!r pol>ization4 ,b eight is en\gh at ! mom5t4 ,fir/ at f\r1 & !n at eight dynamic c5t]s ( ! human body1 ! human n]v\s sy/em1 life />ts spontane\sly into be+4 ,! s\l bur/s day by day into fre% impulses1 fre% desire1 fre% purpose1 at ^! our pol> c5t]s4 ,& f ^! dynamic g5]ative c5t]s issue ! vital curr5ts :i* put u into connection ) our object4 ,we h really no w & no *oice1 9 ! fir/ place4 ,x is our s\l :i* acts )9 u1 day by day unfold+ u accord+ to our own nature4 ,f ! objective circuits & f ! subjective circuits :i* e/abli% & fulfill !mselves at ! fir/ f\r c5t]s ( consci\sness we d]ive our fir/ be+1 our *ild-be+1 & also our fir/ m9d1 our *ild-m9d4 ,by ! objective circuits we mean ^? circuits :i* are e/abli%$ betwe5 ! self & "s ext]nal object3 "m1 fa!r1 si/]1 cat1 dog1 bird1 or ev5 tree or plant1 or ev5 fur!r /ill1 "s p>ticul> place1 "s p>ticul> inanimate object1 a knife or a *air or a cap or a doll or a wood5 horse4 ,= we mu/ insi/ t e object :i* really ent]s effectively into our lives does s by direct connection4 ,if ,i love my "m1 x is because !re is e/abli%$ betwe5 me & h] a direct1 p[]ful circuit ( vital magnetism1 call x :at y w1 b a direct fl[ ( dynamic vital int]*ange & int]c\rse4 ,i w n call ?is vital fl[ a =ce1 because x dep5ds on ! incompreh5sible initiative & control ( ! individual s\l or self4 ,=ce is t :i* is direct$ only f "s univ]sal w or law4 ,life is always individual1 & !re=e nev] controll$ by "o law1 "o ,god4 ,& !re=e1 s9ce ! liv+ really sway ! univ]se1 ev5 if unkn[+ly2 !re=e !re is no "o univ]sal law1 ev5 = ! physical =ces4 ,because we insi/ t ev5 ! sun dep5ds1 = its he>tbeat1 its respiration1 its pivotal motion1 on ! beat+ he>ts ( m5 & bea/1 on ! dynamic ( ! s\l-impulse 9 individual creatures4 ,x is f ! aggregate he>tbeat ( liv+ individuals1 ( we "k n h[ _m or :at sort ( worlds1 t ! sun re/s /able4 ,:i* may be dismiss$ z metaphysics1 al?\gh x is q z valid or ev5 z demon/rable z ,newton's ,law ( ,gravitation1 :i* law /ill rema9s a law1 ev5 if n q s absolute z h]et(ore4 ,b ?is is a digression4 ,! argum5t is1 t betwe5 an individual & any ext]nal object ) :i* he has an affective connection1 !re exi/s a def9ite vital fl[1 z def9ite & concrete z ! electric curr5t ^: pol>iz$ circuit sets our tram-c>s runn+ & our lamps %9+1 or our ,m>coni wires vibrat+4 ,:e!r ?is object be human1 or animal1 or plant1 or q inanimate1 !re is /ill a circuit4 ,my dog1 my can>y has a pol>iz$ connection ) me4 ,nay1 ! v cells 9 ! a%-tree ,i lov$ z a *ild _h a dynamic vibratory connection ) ! nuclei 9 my own c5t]s ( prim>y consci\sness4 ,& fur!r /ill1 ! boots ,i h worn are s saturat$ ) my own magnetism1 my own vital activity1 t if anyone else we> !m ,i feel x is a trespass1 almo/ z if ano!r man us$ my h& to knock away a fly4 ,i d\bt v mu* if a blood-h\nd1 :5 x takes a sc5t1 smells1 9 our s5se ( ! ^w4 ,x receives at ! inf9itely s5sitive telegraphic c5t] ( ! dog's no/rils ! vital vibration :i* rema9s 9 ! inanimate object f ! individual ) :om ! object 0 associat$4 ,i %\ld l to "k if a dog w\ld trace a pair ( q new %oes :i* _h m]ely be5 dragg$ at ! end ( a /r+4 ,t is1 does he foll[ ! smell ( ! lea!r itself1 or ! vibration track ( ! individual ^: vitality is communicat$ to ! lea!r8 ,s1 !re is a def9ite vibratory rapport betwe5 a man & 8 surr\nd+s1 once he def9itely gets into contact ) ^! surr\nd+s4 ,any p>ticul> locality1 any h\se :i* has be5 liv$ 9 has a vibration1 a transf]r$ vitality ( its own4 ,?is is ei!r sympa!tic or antipa!tic to ! succe$+ individual 9 v>y+ degree4 ,b c]ta9 x is t ! inhabitants :o live at ! foot ( ,etna w always h a c]ta9 pit* ( life-vibration1 antagoni/ic to ! pit* ( vibration ev5 ( a ,pal]mitan1 9 "s measure4 ,& old h\ses are saturat$ ) human pres5ce1 at la/ to a degree ( indec5cy1 unbe>able4 ,& tradition1 9 its mo/ elem5tal s5se1 means ! cont9u+ ( ! same peculi> pit* ( vital vibration4 ,su* is ! objective dynamic fl[ betwe5 ! psy*ic poles ( ! individual & ! sub/ance ( ! ext]nal object1 animate or inanimate4 ,! subjective dynamic fl[ is e/abli%$ betwe5 ! f\r prim>y poles )9 ! individual4 ,e dynamic connection beg9s f "o or ! o!r ( ! sympa!tic c5t]s3 is1 or %\ld be1 almo/ imm$iately pol>iz$ f ! correspond+ volunt>y c5t]4 ,!n a complete fl[ is set up1 9 "o plane4 ,b ?is always r\ses ! activity on ! o!r1 correspond+ plane1 m or less int5se4 ,!re is a :ole field ( consci\sness e/abli%$1 ) positive pol>ity ( ! fir/ plane1 negative pol>ity ( ! second4 ,:i* be+ s1 a :ole f\rfold field ( dynamic consci\sness n[ work+ )9 ! individual1 direct cognition takes place4 ,! m9d beg9s to "k1 & to /rive to "k4 ,! bus9ess ( ! m9d is fir/ & =emo/ ! pure joy ( kn[+ & compreh5d+ ! pure joy ( consci\sness4 ,! second bus9ess is to act z m$ium1 z int]pret]1 z ag5t betwe5 ! individual & 8 object4 ,! m9d %\ld n act z a director or controll] ( ! spontane\s c5t]s4 ,^! ! s\l alone mu/ control3 ! s\l be+ t =ev] unkn[able reality :i* causes u to rise into be+4 ,!re is cont9ual conflict betwe5 ! s\l1 :i* is = ev] s5d+ =? incalculable impulses1 & ! psy*e1 :i* is cons]vative1 & wi%es to p]si/ 9 its old motions1 & ! m9d1 :i* wi%es to h fre$om1 t is spasmodic1 idea-driv5 control4 ,m9d1 & cons]vative psy*e1 & ! incalculable s\l1 ^! ?ree are a tr9ity ( p[]s 9 e human be+4 ,b !re is some?+ ev5 beyond ^!4 ,x is ! individual 9 8 pure s+l5ess1 9 8 totality ( consci\sness1 9 8 on5ess ( be+3 ! ,holy ,gho/ :i* is ) u aft] our ,p5teco/1 & :i* we may n d5y4 ,:5 ,i say to myself3 ,i am wrong1 kn[+ ) sudd5 insight t ,i am wrong1 !n ?is is ! :ole self speak+1 ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,x is no piece ( m5tal inf]5ce4 ,x is n j ! s\l s5d+ =? a fla%4 ,x is my :ole be+ speak+ 9 "o voice1 s\l & m9d & psy*e transfigur$ into on5ess4 ,?is voice ( my be+ ,i may nev] d5y4 ,:5 at la/1 9 all my /orms1 my :ole self speaks1 !n !re is a pause4 ,! s\l collects itself into pure sil5ce & isolation--p]haps aft] mu* pa94 ,! m9d susp5ds its k1 & waits4 ,! psy*e becomes /rangely /ill4 ,& !n1 aft] ! pause1 !re is fre% beg9n+1 a new life adju/m5t4 ,consci5ce is ! be+'s consci\sness1 :5 ! individual is consci\s 9 toto1 :5 he kn[s 9 full4 ,x is some?+ :i* includes & :i* f> surpasses m5tal consci\sness4 ,e man mu/ live z f> z he c by 8 own s\l's consci5ce4 ,b n accord+ to any ideal4 ,to submit ! consci5ce to a cre$1 or an idea1 or a tradition1 or ev5 an impulse1 is our ru94 ,to make ! m9d ! absolute rul] is z good z mak+ a ,cook's t\ri/-int]pret] a k+ & a god1 because he c speak sev]al languages1 & make an ,arab und]/& t an ,engli%man wants fi% = supp]4 ,& to make an ideal a rul+ pr9ciple is ab\t z /upid z if a bun* ( travel]s %\ld nev] cease giv+ ea* o!r & _! dragoman sixp5ce1 because ! dragoman's ma9 idea ( virtue is ! virtue ( sixp5ce-giv+4 ,9 ! same way1 we "k we _c live purely by impulse4 ,nei!r c we live solely by tradition4 ,we mu/ live by all ?ree1 ideal1 impulse1 & tradition1 ea* 9 its h\r4 ,b ! real guide is ! pure consci5ce1 ! voice ( ! self 9 its :ol5ess1 ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,we h fall5 n[ into ! mi/ake ( idealism4 ,man always falls into "o ( ! ?ree mi/akes4 ,9 ,*9a1 x is tradition4 ,& 9 ! ,s\? ,seas1 x seems to h be5 impulse4 ,ours is idealism4 ,ea* ( ! ?ree modes is a true life-mode4 ,b any "o1 alone or dom9ant1 br+s u to de/ruction4 ,we mu/ dep5d on ! :ol5ess ( our be+1 ultimately only on t1 :i* is our ,holy ,gho/ )9 u4 ,:]eas1 9 an ideal ( love & b5evol5ce1 we h tri$ to automatize ourselves into little love-eng9es always /ok$ ) ! sorr[s or beauties ( o!r p1 s t we c get up /eam ( *>ity or righte\s wra?4 ,a great trick is to p\r on ! fire ! oil ( our indignation at somebody else's wick$ness1 & !n1 :5 we've got up /eam l hell1 back ! eng9e & run bi%6 sma%6 aga9/ ! belly ( ! (f5d]4 ,because he said he didn't want to love any m1 we hate him = ev]more1 & try to run ov] him1 e bit ( him1 ) our love-tanks4 ,& all ! "t we yell at him3 ,w y d5y love1 y villa98 ,w y8 ,& by ! "t he fa9tly squeaks1 ,i want to be lov$6 ,i want to be lov$6 we h got s us$ to runn+ ov] him ) our love-tanks t we don't feel 9 a hurry to leave (f4 ,sois mon fr]e1 ou je te tue4 ,sois mon fr]e1 ou je me tue4 ,!re are ! two p>rot-?reats ( love1 on :i* our lov+ c5turies h run z on a pair ( railway-l9es4 ,excuse me if ,i want to get out ( ! tra94 ,excuse me if ,i c't get up any love-/eam any m4 ,my boil]s are bur/4 ,we h made a mi/ake1 lay+ d[n love l ! p]man5t way ( a great emotional transport sy/em4 ,!re we are1 h[ev]1 runn+ on :eels on ! l9es ( our love4 ,& ( c\rse we h only two directions1 =w>ds & backw>ds4 ,onw>d1 ,*ri/ian soldi]s1 t[>ds ! great t]m9us :]e bottles ( /]iliz$ milk = ! babies are deliv]$ at ! b$room w9d[s by noiseless a]oplanes ea* morn1 :]e ! sci5ce ( d5ti/ry is s p]fect t tee? are plant$ 9 a man's m\? )\t 8 kn[+ x1 :]e twilight sleep is s delici\s t e woman longs = h] next conf9em5t1 & :]e nobody ev] has to d any?+ except turn a h&le n[ & !n 9 a _s ( univ]sal love-- ,t is ! =w>d direction ( ! ,engli%-speak+ race4 ,! ,g]mans unwisely back$ _! eng9e4 ,we h a city ( light4 ,b in/ead ( ly+ ahead x lies direct beh9d u4 ,s rev]se eng9es4 ,rev]se eng9es1 & away1 away to our city1 :]e ! /]iliz$ milk is deliv]$ by noiseless a]oplanes1 at ! v precise m9ute :5 our great doctors ( ! ,fa!rl& h diagnos$ t x is good = y3 :]e ! tee? are n only s pa9lessly plant$ t !y gr[ l liv+ rock1 b :]e _! composition is su* t ! friction ( eat+ /imulates ! cells ( ! jaw-bone & develops ! sup]man /r5g? ( w :i* makes u gods3 & :]e n only is twilight sleep s]5e1 b into ! sleep] are inculcat$ ! mo/ useful & in/ructive dreams1 calculat$ to p]fect ! "* ( ! "y citiz5 at ?is crucial p]iod1 & to enlight5 p]man5tly ! m9d ( ! happy "m1 ) reg>d to h] new duties t[>ds h] *ild & t[>ds our great ,fa!rl&-- ,"h y see we are1 on ! railway1 ) ,new ,j]usalem ahead1 & ,new ,j]usalem away beh9d u4 ,b ( c\rse x 0 v wrong ( ! ,g]mans to rev]se _! eng9es1 & cause "o long collision all along ! l9e4 ,:y %\ld we g _! way to ! ,new ,j]usalem1 :5 ( c\rse !y might s easily h kept on go+ our way4 ,& n[ !re's wreckage all along ! l9e6 ,b cle> ! way is our motto--or make ! ,g]mans cle> x4 ,because get on we w4 ,mean:ile we sit r 9 ! cold1 wait+ = ! tra9 to get a />t4 ,p keep on signal+ ) gre5 lights & r$ lights4 ,& x's all v bewild]+4 ,z = me1 ,i'm (f4 ,i'm damn$ if ,i'll be %unt$ along any m4 ,& ,i'm ?rice damn$ if ,i'll g ano!r y>d t[>ds t /]iliz$ ,new ,j]usalem1 ei!r =w>ds or backw>ds4 ,new ,j]usalem may rot1 if x waits = me4 ,i'm n go+4 ,s good-by6 ,!re we leave humanity1 encamp$ 9 an appall+ mess beside ! railway-sma% ( love1 sitt+ d[n1 h[ev]1 & hav+ n a bad "t1 "s ( 'em1 fe$+ !mselves fat on ! plund]3 o!rs1 fur!r d[n ! l9e1 ) m\?s gre5 f eat+ grass4 ,b all grossly1 /upidly1 automatically gabbl+ ab\t gett+ ! love-s]vice runn+ aga91 ! tra9s book$ = ! ,new ,j]usalem well on ! way once m4 ,& occasionally a good eng9e gives a scree* ( love1 & some?+ seems to be ab\t to happ54 ,& sometimes !re is en\gh /eam to set ! indignation-:i/les :i/l+4 ,b nev] any m w !re be en\gh love-/eam to get ! sy/em prop]ly runn+4 ,x is done4 ,good-by1 !n6 ,y may h laid y\r l9e f "o end to ! o!r ( ! inf9ite4 ,b /ill !re's pl5ty ( h9t]l&4 ,i'll g4 ,good-by4 ,a*1 x w be s nice to be alone3 n to he> y1 n to see y1 n to smell y1 humanity4 ,i wi% y no ill1 b wisdom4 ,good-by6 ,to be alone ) "o's own s\l4 ,n to be alone )\t my own s\l1 m9d y4 ,b to be alone ) "o's own s\l6 ,?is1 & ! joy ( x1 is ! real goal ( love4 ,my own s\l1 & myself4 ,n my ego1 my conceit ( myself4 ,b my v s\l4 ,to be at "o 9 my own self4 ,n to be que/+ any m4 ,n to be ye>n+1 seek+1 hop+1 desir+1 aspir+4 ,b to pause1 & be alone4 ,& to h "o's own g5tle sp\se by "o's side1 ( c\rse1 to dig "o 9 ! ribs occasionally4 ,because really1 be+ alone 9 peace means be+ two p toge!r4 ,two p :o c be sil5t toge!r1 & n consci\s ( "o ano!r outw>dly4 ,me 9 my sil5ce1 %e 9 h]s1 & ! balance1 ! equilibrium1 ! pure circuit betwe5 u4 ,) occasional lapses ( c\rse3 digs 9 ! ribs if "o gets too vague or self-suffici5t4 ,!y say x is bett] to travel ?an to arrive4 ,x's n be5 my exp]i5ce1 at lea/4 ,! j\rney ( love has be5 r a lac]at+1 if well-wor?-x1 j\rney4 ,b to come at la/ to a nice place "u ! trees1 ) y\r amiable sp\se :o has at la/ le>n$ to hold h] tongue & n to bo!r ab\t rights & wrongs3 h] own p>ticul>ly4 ,& !n to pit* a camp1 & cook y\r rabbit1 & eat him3 & to possess y\r own s\l 9 sil5ce1 & to feel all ! clamor lapse4 ,t is ! be/ ,i "k4 ,i ?9k x is t]rible to be "y4 ,! ec/asies & agonies ( love1 ! agonies & ec/asies ( fe> & d\bt & drop-by-drop fulfillm5t1 realization4 ,! awful process ( human relation%ips1 love & m>ital relation%ips especially4 ,because we all make a v1 v bad />t to-day1 ) our idea ( love 9 our head1 & our sex 9 our head z well4 ,all ! fight till "o is bl$ ( "o's self-consci\sness & sex-9-!-head4 ,all ! bitt]ness ( ! conflict ) ?is devil ( an amiable sp\se1 :o has got h]self s /uck 9 h] own head4 ,x is t]rible to be "y4--,b "o fights "o's way ?r\gh x1 till "o is clean$3 ! self-consci\sness & sex-idea burn$ out ( "o1 caut]iz$ out bit by bit1 & ! self :ole aga91 & at la/ free4 ,! be/ ?+ ,i h kn[n is ! /illness ( accompli%$ m>riage1 :5 "o possesses "o's own s\l 9 sil5ce1 side by side ) ! amiable sp\se1 & has left (f crav+ & rav+ & be+ only half "o's self4 ,b ,i mu/ say1 ,i "k a great deal m ab\t ! crav+ & rav+ & sore ribs1 ?an ab\t ! accompli%m5t4 ,& ,i mu/ confess t ,i feel ?is self-same accompli%m5t ( ! fulfill$ be+ is only a prep>ation = new responsibilities ahead1 new unison 9 ef=t & conflict1 ! ef=t to make1 ) o!r m51 a little new way into ! future1 & to break ?r\gh ! h$ge ( ! _m4 ,b--to y\r t5ts1 my ,israel4 ,& to t preci\s baby y've left slumb]+ !re4 ,:at ,i meant to say 01 9 ea* phase ( life y h a great circuit ( human relation%ip to e/abli% & fulfill4 ,9 *ildhood1 x is ! circuit ( family love1 e/abli%$ at ! fir/ f\r consci\sness c5t]s1 & gradually fulfill+ itself1 complet+ itself4 ,at adolesc5ce1 ! fir/ circuit ( family love %\ld be complet$1 dynamically f9i%$4 ,& !n1 x falls into quiesc5ce4 ,aft] pub]ty1 family love %\ld fall quiesc5t 9 a *ild4 ,! love nev] breaks4 ,x cont9ues /atic & basic1 ! basis ( ! emotional psy*e1 ! f\ndation ( ! self4 ,x is l ! moon :5 ! moon at la/ subsides into h] et]nal orbit1 r\nd ! e>?4 ,%e travels 9 h] orbit s inevitably t %e =gets1 & becomes unaw>e4 ,%e only knits h] br[s ov] ! e>?'s great] ab]rations 9 space4 ,! circuit ( p>5tal love1 once fulfill$1 is n done away )1 b only e/abli%$ into sil5ce4 ,! *ild is !n free to e/abli% ! new connections1 9 :i* he surpasses 8 p>5ts4 ,& let u repeat1 p>5ts %\ld nev] try to e/abli% adult relations1 ( sympa?y or int]e/ or any?+ else1 betwe5 !mselves & _! *ildr54 ,! attempt to d s only d]anges ! deep prim>y circuit :i* is ! dynamic basis ( our liv+4 ,x is a clamb]+ upw>ds only by means ( a brok5 f\ndation4 ,p>5ts %\ld rema9 p>5ts1 *ildr5 *ildr51 = ev]1 & ! great gulf pres]v$ betwe5 ! two4 ,honor ?y fa!r & ?y "m %\ld always be a lead+ comm&m5t4 ,b ?is c only take place :5 fa!r & "m keep _! true p>5tal di/ances1 dignity1 res]ve1 & limitation4 ,z soon z fa!r & "m try to become ! fri5ds & companions ( _! *ildr51 !y break ! root ( life1 !y rupture ! deepe/ dynamic circuit ( liv+1 !y d]ange ! :ole fl[ ( life = !mselves & _! *ildr54 ,= let u reit]ate & reit]ate3 y _c m+le & confuse ! v>i\s modes ( dynamic love4 ,if y try1 y produce horrors4 ,y _c plant ! he>t bel[ ! diaphragm or put an ocul> eye 9 ! navel4 ,no m c y transf] p>5t love into fri5d love or adult love4 ,p>5t love is e/abli%$ at ! great prim>y c5t]s1 :]e man is fa!r & *ild1 playmate & bro!r1 b :]e he _c be comrade or lov]4 ,comrade & lov]1 ?is is ! dynamic activity ( ! fur!r c5t]s1 ! second f\r c5t]s4 ,& ^! second f\r c5t]s mu/ be active 9 ! p>5t1 _! int5se circuit e/abli%$ ev5 if n fulfill$1 long be=e ! *ild is born4 ,! circuit ( fri5d%ip1 ( p]sonal companion%ip1 ( sexual love mu/ ne$s be e/abli%$ be=e ! *ild is begott51 or at lea/ be=e x atta9s to adolesc5ce4 ,^! circuits ( ! ext5d$ field are already fully e/abli%$ 9 ! p>5t be=e ! c5t]s ( correspond5ce 9 ! *ild are ev5 =m$4 ,:5 !re=e ! f\r great c5t]s ( ! ext5d$ consci\sness ar\ses 9 a *ild1 at adolesc5ce1 !y mu/ ne$s seek a /range complem5t1 a =eign conjunction4 ,n only is ?is ! case1 b ! actual dynamic impulse ( ! new life :i* r\ses at pub]ty is ali5 to ! orig9al dynamic fl[4 ,! new wave-l5g? by no means corresponds4 ,! new vibration by no means h>monizes4 ,=ce ! two toge!r1 & y cause a t]rible frictional excitem5t & j>r+4 ,x is ?is in/9ctive recognition ( ! diff]5t dynamic vibrations f diff]5t c5t]s1 9 diff]5t modes1 & 9 diff]5t directions ( positive & negative1 :i* lies at ! base ( savage taboo4 ,aft] pub]ty1 memb]s ( "o family %\ld be taboo to "o ano!r4 ,!re %\ld be ! mo/ def9ite limits to ! degree ( contact4 ,& mo!rs-9-law %\ld be taboo to _! daught]s' husb&s1 & fa!rs-9-law to _! sons' wives4 ,we mu/ aga9 beg9 to le>n ! great laws ( ! fir/ dynamic life-circuits4 ,^! laws we n[ make havoc (1 & consequ5tly we make havoc ( our own s\l1 psy*e1 m9d & heal?4 ,?is book is writt5 prim>ily conc]n+ ! *ild's consci\sness4 ,x is n int5d$ to ent] ! field ( ! po/-pub]ty consci\sness4 ,b yet1 ! dynamic relation ( ! *ild is e/abli%$ s directly ) ! physical & psy*ical s\l ( ! p>5t1 t to get any inkl+ ( dynamic *ild-consci\sness we mu/ und]/& some?+ ( p>5t-consci\sness4 ,we ass]t t ! p>5t-*ild love-mode excludes ! possibility ( ! man-&-woman1 or fri5d-&-fri5d love mode4 ,we ass]t t ! pol>ity ( ! fir/ f\r poles is inconsi/5t ) ! pol>ity ( ! second f\r poles4 ,nay1 betwe5 ! two great fields is a c]ta9 dynamic opposition1 resi/ance1 ev5 antipa?y4 ,s t 9 ! natural c\rse ( life !re is no possibility ( confus+ p>5t love & adult love4 ,b we are m5tal creatures1 & ) ! explosive & me*ani/ic aid ( ideas we c p]v]t ! :ole psy*e4 ,only1 h[ev]1 9 a de/ructive degree1 n 9 a positive or con/ructive4 ,let u return !n4 ,9 ! ord9>y c\rse ( developm5t1 by ! "t t ! *ild is born & gr[n to pub]ty ! :ole dynamic s\l ( ! "m is engag$3 fir/1 ) ! *ildr51 & second1 on ! fur!r1 high] plane1 ) ! husb&1 & ) h] own fri5ds4 ,s t :5 ! *ild rea*es adolesc5ce x mu/ inevitably ca/ abroad = connection4 ,b n[ let u rememb] ! actual /ate ( affairs to-day1 :5 ! poles are rev]s$ betwe5 ! sexes4 ,! woman is n[ ! responsible p>ty1 ! law-giv]1 ! culture-be>]4 ,%e is ! consci\s guide & director ( ! man4 ,%e be>s 8 s\l betwe5 h] two h&s4 ,& h] sex is j a function or an in/rum5t ( p[]4 ,?is be+ s1 ! man is really ! s]vant & ! f\nt ( emotion1 love & o!rwise4 ,:i* is all v well1 :ile ! fun la/s4 ,b l all p]v]t$ processes1 x is exhau/ive1 & l ! fun we>s out4 ,leav+ an exhau/ion1 & an irritation4 ,ea* looks on ! o!r z a p]v]t] ( life4 ,almo/ inv>iably a m>ri$ woman1 z %e passes ! age ( ?irty1 conceives a dislike1 or a contempt ( h] husb&1 or a pity :i* is too ne> contempt4 ,p>ticul>ly if he be a good husb&1 a true mod]n4 ,& he1 = 8 "p1 ?\gh j z j>r$ inside himself1 res5ts only ! fact t he is n lov$ z he ought to be4 ,!n />ts a new game4 ,! woman1 ev5 ! mo/ virtu\s1 looks abroad = new sympa?y4 ,%e w h a new man-fri5d1 if no?+ m4 ,b z a rule %e has got some?+ m4 ,%e has got h] *ildr54 ,a relation betwe5 "m & *ild to-day is practically nev] p>5tal4 ,x is p]sonal--:i* means1 x is critical & delib]ate1 & adult 9 provocation4 ,! "m1 9 h] new role ( ideali/ & life-manag] nev]1 practically = "o s+le mom5t1 gives h] *ild ! un?9k+ response f ! deep dynamic c5t]s4 ,no1 %e gives x :at is good = x4 ,%e %oves milk 9 its m\? z ! clock /rikes1 %e %oves x to sleep :5 ! milk is swall[$1 & %e %oves x ideally ?r\gh ba?s & massage1 prom5ades & practice1 till ! little organism develops l a mu%room to /& on its own feet4 ,!n %e cont9ues h] ideal %ov+ ( x ?r\gh all ! /ages ( an ideal up-br++1 %e loves x z a *emi/ loves 8 te/-tubes 9 :i* he analyzes 8 salts4 ,! poor little object is 8 "m's ideal4 ,b ( h] head %e dictates 8 provid5tial days1 & by ! =ce ( h] delib]ate m5tally-direct$ love-w %e pu%es him up into boyhood4 ,! poor little devil nev] kn[s "o mom5t :5 he is n encompass$ by ! beautiful1 b5evol5t1 ideali/ic1 ,botticelli-pure1 & f9ally obsc5e love-w ( ! "m4 ,nev]1 nev] "o m\?ful does he dr9k ( ! milk ( human k9dness3 always ! /]iliz$ milk ( human b5evol5ce4 ,!re is no "m's milk to-day1 save 9 tig]s' udd]s1 & 9 ! udd]s ( sea-:ales4 ,our *ildr5 dr9k a decoction ( ideal love1 at ! brea/4 ,nev] = "o mom5t1 poor baby1 ! deep w>m /ream ( love f ! "m's b[els to 8 b[els4 ,nev] = "o mom5t ! d>k pr\d recoil into re/1 ! s\l's sep>ation into deep1 ri* indep5d5ce4 ,nev] ?is lovely ri* =getfulness1 z a cat trots (f & utt]ly =gets h] kitt5s1 utt]ly1 ri*ly =gets !m1 till sudd5ly1 click1 ! dynamic circuit rev]ses itself 9 h]1 & %e rememb]s1 & rages r\nd 9 a fr5zy1 %\t+ = h] "y4 ,our mis]able infants nev] "k ?is joy & ri*ness & pang ( real mat]nal w>m?4 ,our wond]ful mo!rs nev] let u out ( _! m9ds = "o s+le mom5t4 ,n = a second d !y all[ u to escape f _! ideal b5evol5ce4 ,n "o s+le brea? does a baby draw1 free f ! imposition ( ! pure1 unselfi%1 ,botticelli-holy1 dete/able love-w ( ! "m4 ,always ! w1 ! w1 ! love-w1 ! ideal w1 direct$ f ! ideal m9d4 ,always ?is /one1 ?is scorpion ( mat]nal n\ri%m5t4 ,always ?is inf]nal self-consci\s ,madonna />v+ our liv+ guts & bully+ u to dea? ) h] love4 ,we h made ! idea supplant bo? impulse & tradition4 ,we h no sp>k ( :ol5ess4 ,& we live by an evil love-w4 ,alas1 ! great spontane\s mode is abrogat$4 ,!re is no lovely great flux ( vital sympa?y1 no ri* rejoic+ ( pride into isolation & indep5d5ce4 ,!re is no rev]5ce = great traditions ( p>5?ood4 ,no1 !re is sub/itute = ev]y?+--life-sub/itute--j z we h butt]-sub/itute1 & meat-sub/itute1 & sug>-sub/itute1 & lea!r-sub/itute1 & silk-sub/itute1 s we h life-sub/itute4 ,we h bea/ly b5evol5ce1 & f\l good-w1 & /9k+ *>ity1 & poison\s ideals4 ,! poor mod]n brat1 %ov$ horribly into life by an ef=t ( w1 & %ov$ up t[>ds manhood by e appliance t c be appli$ to x1 especially ! appliance ( ! mat]nal w1 x is really too pa!tic to contemplate4 ,! only ?+ t prev5ts u wr++ our h&s is ! remembrance t ! little devil w gr[ up & beget o!r simil> little devils ( 8 own1 to inv5t m a]oplanes & hospitals & g]m-kill]s & food-sub/itutes & poison gases4 ,! problem ( ! future is a "q ( ! /ronge/ poison-gas4 ,:i* is c]ta9ly a v sure way out ( our vici\s circle4 ,!re is no way out ( a vici\s circle1 ( c\rse1 except break+ ! circle4 ,& s9ce ! "m-*ild relation%ip is to-day ! vici\se/ ( circles1 :at are we to d8 ,j wait = ! results ( ! poison-gas competition presumably4 ,oh1 ideal humanity1 h[ dete/able & despicable y are6 ,& h[ y des]ve y\r own poison-gases6 ,h[ y des]ve to p]i% 9 y\r own /9k4 ,x is no use contemplat+ ! developm5t ( ! mod]n *ild1 born out ( ! m5tal-consci\s love-w1 born to be ano!r unit ( self-consci\s love-w3 an ideal-born bea/ly little entity ) a devil's own w ( its own1 b5evol5t1 ( c\rse1 & a ,satan's own s]aphic self-consci\sness1 l a bea/ly ,botticelli brat4 ,once we really consid] ?is mod]n process ( life & ! love-w1 we c\ld ?r[ ! p5 away1 & spit1 & say ?ree *e]s = ! inv5tors ( poison-gas4 ,is !re n an ,am]ican :o is suppos$ to h inv5t$ a brea? ( heav5 :]eby1 drop "o pop-cornful 9 ,hamp/ead1 "o 9 ,brixton1 "o 9 ,ea/ ,ham1 & "o 9 ,isl+ton1 & ,london is a ,pompeii 9 five m9utes6 ,or 0 ! ,am]ican only bragg+8 ,because anyh[1 :om has he exp]im5t$ on8 ,i read x 9 ! newspap]1 ?\gh4 ,london a ,pompeii 9 five m9utes4 ,makes ! gods look silly6 ,,*apt] ,,xii ,,litany ,,( ,,exhortations ,i ?\ght ,i'd bett] turn ov] a new leaf1 & />t a new *apt]4 ,! int5tion ( ! la/ *apt] 0 to f9d a way out ( ! vici\s circle4 ,& x end$ 9 poison-gas4 ,yes1 de> read]1 s x did4 ,b y've n sil5c$ me yet1 = all t4 ,we're 9 a na/y mess4 ,we're 9 a vici\s circle4 ,& we're mak+ a c>eful /udy ( poison-gases4 ,! secret ( ,greek fire 0 lo/ long ago1 :5 ! _w left (f be+ wond]ful & ideal4 ,n[ x is wond]ful & ideal aga91 mu* wond]full] & mu* m ideal4 ,s we ought to d some?+ r>e 9 ! way ( poison-gas4 ,london a ,pompeii 9 five m9utes6 ,h[ to outdo ,vesuvius6--title ( a new book by ,am]ican au?ors4 ,!re is only "o s+le o!r ?+ to d4 ,& x's m difficult ?an poison-gas4 ,x is to leave (f lov+4 ,x is to leave (f b5evol5t+ & hav+ a good w4 ,x is to cease utt]ly4 ,j leave (f4 ,oh1 p>5ts1 see t y\r *ildr5 get _! d9n]s & clean %eets1 b don't love !m4 ,don't love !m "o s+le gra91 & don't let anybody else love !m4 ,give !m _! d9n]s & leave !m alone4 ,y've already lov$ !m to p]dition4 ,n[ leave !m alone1 to f9d _! own way out4 ,wives1 don't love y\r husb&s any m3 ev5 if !y cry = x1 ! great babies6 ,s+3 ,i've _h en\gh ( t old sauce4 ,& leave (f lov+ !m or c>+ = !m "o s+le bit4 ,don't ev5 hate !m or dislike !m4 ,don't h any /ew ) !m at all4 ,j boil ! eggs & fill ! salt-cell>s & be q nice1 & 9 y\r own s\l1 be alone & be /ill4 ,be alone1 & be /ill1 pres]v+ all ! human dec5cies1 & ab&on+ ! indec5cy ( desires & b5evol5cies & devotions1 ^? bea/ly poison-gas apples ( ! ,sodom v9e ( ! love-w4 ,wives1 don't love y\r husb&s nor y\r *ildr5 nor anybody4 ,sit /ill1 & say ,hu%6 ,& :ile y %ake ! du/] out ( ! draw+-room w9d[1 say to y\rself--,9 ! sweetness ( solitude4 ,& :5 y\r husb& comes 9 & says he's afraid he's got a cold & is go+ to h d\ble pneumonia1 say quietly surely n4 ,& if he wants ! ammoniat$ qu99e1 give x him if he c't get x = himself4 ,b don't let him drive y out ( y\r solitude1 y\r s+l5ess )9 y\rself4 ,& if y\r little boy falls d[n ! /eps & makes 8 m\? ble$1 nurse & com=t him1 b say to y\rself1 ev5 :ile y tremble ) ! %ock3 ,alone4 ,alone4 ,be alone1 my s\l4 ,& if ! s]vant sma%es ?ree electric-light bulbs 9 ?ree m9utes1 say to h]3 ,h[ v inconsid]ate & c>eless ( y6 ,b say to y\rself3 ,don't he> x1 my s\l4 ,don't take fright at ! pop ( a light-bulb4 ,husb&s1 don't love y\r wives any m4 ,if !y flirt ) m5 y\ng] or old] ?an y\rselves1 let y\r blood n /ir4 ,if y c g away1 g away4 ,b if y mu/ /ay & see h]1 !n say to h]1 ,i w\ld r y didn't flirt 9 my pres5ce1 ,eleanora4 ,!n1 :5 %e goes r$ & loos5s torr5ts ( indignation1 don't answ] any m4 ,& :5 %e floods into te>s1 say quietly 9 y\r own self1 ,my s\l is my own2 & g away1 be alone z mu* z possible4 ,& :5 %e works h]self up1 & says %e mu/ h love or %e w die1 !n say3 ,n my love1 h[ev]4 ,& to all h] ?reats1 h] te>s1 h] entreaties1 h] reproa*es1 h] cajolem5ts1 h] w9som5esses1 answ] no?+1 b say to y\rself3 ,%all ,i be implicat$ 9 ?is display ( ! love-w8 ,%all ,i be bla/$ by ?is false lightn+8 ,& ?\gh y tremble 9 e fib]1 & feel sick1 vomit-sick ) ! sc5e1 /ill conta9 y\rself1 & say1 ,my s\l is my own4 ,x %all n be violat$4 ,& le>n1 le>n1 le>n ! "o & only lesson wor? le>n+ at la/4 ,le>n to walk 9 ! sweetness ( ! possession ( y\r own s\l4 ,& :e!r y\r wife weeps z %e takes (f h] amb] beads at night1 or :e!r y\r neighbor 9 ! tra9 sits 9 y\r coat bottoms1 or :e!r y\r sup]ior 9 ! (fice makes sup]cili\s rem>ks1 or y\r inf]ior is famili> & impud5t2 or :e!r y read 9 ! newspap] t ,lloyd ,george is p]=m+ ano!r iniquity1 or ! ,g]mans plott+ ano!r plot1 say to y\rself3 ,my s\l is my own4 ,my s\l is ) myself1 & beyond implication4 ,& wait1 quietly1 9 possession ( y\r own s\l1 till y meet ano!r man :o has made ! *oice1 & kept x4 ,!n y w "k him by ! look on 8 face3 half a dang]\s look1 a look ( ,ca91 & half a look ( ga!r$ beauty4 ,!n y two w make ! nucleus ( a new society--,ooray6 ,bis6 ,bis66 ,b if y %\ld nev] meet su* a man3 & if y\r wife %\ld torture y e day ) h] love-w3 & ev5 if %e %\ld =ce h]self into a consumption1 l ,ca!r9e ,l9ton 9 ,wu!r+ ,heights1 ow+ to h] ob/9ate & det]m9$ love-w 7:i* is q ano!r matt] ?an love73 & if y see ! _w inv5t+ poison-gas & fall+ into its poison$ grave3 nev] give 91 b be alone1 & utt]ly alone ) y\r own s\l1 9 ! /illness & sweet possession ( y\r own s\l4 ,& don't ev5 be angry4 ,& nev] be sad4 ,:y %\ld y8 ,x's n y\r affair4 ,b if y\r wife %\ld accompli% = h]self ! sweetness ( h] own s\l's possession1 !n g5tly1 delicately let ! new mode ass]t itself1 ! new mode ( relation betwe5 y1 ) some?+ ( spontane\s p>adise 9 x1 ! apple ( k at la/ dige/$4 ,b1 my ^w1 :at belly-a*es mean:ile4 ,t apple is h>d] to dige/ ?an a lead gun-c>tridge4 ,,*apt] ,,xiii ,,cosmological ,well1 de> read]1 ,*apt] ,,xii 0 %ort1 & ,i hope y f\nd x sweet4 ,b rememb]1 ?is is an essay on ,*ild ,consci\sness1 n a tract on ,salvation4 ,x isn't my fault t ,i am l$ at mom5ts into exhortation4 ,well1 !n1 :at ab\t x8 ,"o fact n[ seems v cle>--at any rate to me4 ,we've got to pause4 ,we hav5't got to gird our lo9s ) a new fr5zy & our l>ynxes ) a new ,glory ,song4 ,n a bit ( x4 ,be=e y da% (f to put salt on ! tail ( a new religion or ( a new ,lead] ( ,m51 de> read]1 sit d[n quietly & pull y\rself toge!r4 ,say to y\rself3 ,come n[1 :at is x all ab\t8 ,& y'll realize1 de> read]1 t y're all 9 a flu/]1 inw>dly4 ,!n say to y\rself3 ,:y am ,i 9 su* a flu/]8 ,& y'll see y've no reason at all to be s3 except t x's r excit+ to be 9 a flu/]1 & x may seem r /ale eggs to be 9 no flu/] at all ab\t any?+4 ,& yet1 de> little read]1 once y consid] x quietly1 x's s mu* nic] n to be 9 a flu/]4 ,x's s mu* nic] n to feel "o's deep] inn>ds /orm+ l ! ,bay ( ,biscay4 ,x is s mu* bett] to get up & say to ! wat]s ( "o's own tr\bl$ _s3 ,peace1 be /ill 4446 ,& !y w be /ill 444 p]haps4 ,& !n "o realizes t all ! wild /orms ( anxiety & fr5zy 7 only s mu* break+ ( eggs4 ,x isn't our bus9ess to live anybody's life1 or to die anybody's dea?1 except our own4 ,nor to save anybody's s\l1 nor to put anybody 9 ! "r2 nor yet 9 ! wrong1 :i* is m ! po9t to-day4 ,b to be /ill1 & to ignore ! false f9e fr5zy ( ! see?+ _w4 ,to turn away1 n[1 ea* "o into ! /illness & solitude ( 8 own s\l4 ,& !re to rema9 9 ! quiet ) ! ,holy ,gho/ :i* is to ea* man 8 own true s\l4 ,?is is ! way out ( ! vici\s circle4 ,n to ru% r\nd on ! p]iph]y1 l a rabbit 9 a r+1 try+ to break ?r\gh4 ,b to retreat to ! v c5t]1 & !re to be fill$ ) a new /range /ability1 pol>iz$ 9 unfa?omable ri*ness ) ! c5t] ( c5t]s4 ,we are s silly1 try+ to inv5t devices & ma*9es = fly+ (f f ! surface ( ! e>?4 ,in/ead ( realiz+ t = u ! deep satisfaction lies n 9 escap+1 b 9 gett+ into ! p]fect circuit ( ! e>?'s t]re/rial magnetism4 ,n 9 break+ away4 ,:at is ! good ( try+ to break away f "o's own8 ,:at is ! good ( a tree desir+ to fly l a bird 9 ! sky1 :5 a bird is root$ 9 ! e>? z surely z a tree is8 ,nay1 ! bird is only ! topmo/ leaf ( ! tree1 flutt]+ 9 ! high air1 b atta*$ z close to ! tree z any o!r leaf4 ,mr4 ,e9/e9's ,!ory ( ,relativity does n sup]s$e ! ,newtonian ,law ( ,gravitation or ( ,in]tia4 ,x only says1 ,bew>e6 ,! ,law ( ,in]tia is n ! simple ideal proposition y w\ld l to make ( x4 ,x is a va/ complexity4 ,gravitation is n "o elem5tal unc\? =ce4 ,x is a /range1 inf9itely complex1 subtle aggregate ( =ces4 ,& yet1 h[ev] mu* x may waggle1 a /one does fall to e>? if y drop x4 ,we %\ld l1 vulg>ly1 to rejoice & say t ! new ,!ory ( ,relativity releases u f ! old obligation ( c5trality4 ,x does no su* ?+4 ,x only makes ! old c5trality mu* m /range1 subtle1 complex1 & vital4 ,x only robs u ( ! nice old ideal simplicity4 ,:i* ideal simplicity & logicalness has become su* a fi%-bone /uck 9 our ?roats4 ,! univ]se is once m 9 ! m5tal melt+-pot4 ,& y c melt x d[n z long z y l1 & mutt] all ! j>gon & abracadabra1 aldeboronti fosco =nio ( sci5ce t m5tal monkey-tricks c tea* y1 y won't get any?+ 9 ! end b a =mula & a lie4 ,! atom8 ,:y1 ! mom5t y discov] ! atom x w explode "u y\r nose4 ,! mom5t y discov] ! e!r x w evaporate4 ,! mom5t y get d[n to ! real basis ( any?+1 x w dissolve into a ?\s& problematic con/itu5ts4 ,& ! m problems y solve1 ! m w spr+ up ) _! f+]s at _! nose1 mak+ a fool ( y4 ,!re is only "o clue to ! univ]se4 ,& t is ! individual s\l )9 ! individual be+4 ,t out] univ]se ( suns & moons & atoms is a second>y affair4 ,x is ! dea?-result ( liv+ individuals4 ,!re is a great pol>ity 9 life itself4 ,life itself is dual4 ,& ! duality is life & dea?4 ,& dea? is n j %ad[ or my/]y4 ,x is ! negative reality ( life4 ,x is :at we call ,matt] & ,=ce1 among o!r ?+s4 ,life is individual1 always 0 individual & always w be4 ,life consi/s ( liv+ individuals1 & always did s consi/1 9 ! beg9n+ ( ev]y?+4 ,!re nev] 0 any univ]se1 any cosmos1 ( :i* ! fir/ reality 0 any?+ b liv+1 incorporate individuals4 ,i don't say ! individuals 7 exactly l y & me4 ,& !y 7 nev] wildly diff]5t4 ,& !re=e x is "t = ! ideali/ & ! sci5ti/--!y are "o & ! same1 really--to /op 8 monkey-j>gon ab\t ! atom & ! orig9 ( life & ! me*anical clue to ! univ]se4 ,!re isn't any su* ?+4 ,i might z well say3 ,!n !y took ! c>t1 & rubb$ x all ov] ) grease4 ,!n !y spray$ x ) :ite w9e1 & spun r\nd ! "r :eel five hundr$ revolutions to ! m9ute & ! left :eel1 9 ! opposite direction1 sev5 hundr$ & sev5ty-sev5 revolutions to ! m9ute4 ,!n a burn+ tor* 0 appli$ to ea* axle4 ,& lo1 ! footbo>d ( ! c>t began to swell1 & sudd5ly z ! c>t groan$ & wri!d1 ! horse 0 born1 & lay pant+ betwe5 ! %afts4 ,! :ole sci5tific !ory ( ! univ]se is n wor? su* a tale3 t ! c>t conceiv$ & gave bir? to ! horse4 ,i d n believe "o-fif? ( :at sci5ce c tell me ab\t ! sun4 ,i d n believe = "o second t ! moon is a dead _w spel*$ (f f our globe4 ,i d n believe t ! />s came fly+ (f f ! sun l drops ( wat] :5 y sp9 y\r wet hanky4 ,i h believ$ x = tw5ty ye>s1 because x seem$ s ideally plausible4 ,n[ ,i don't accept any ideal plausibilities at all4 ,i look at ! moon & ! />s1 & ,i "k ,i don't believe any?+ t ,i am told ab\t !m4 ,except t ,i l _! names1 ,aldeb>an & ,cassiopeia1 & s on4 ,i h tri$1 & ev5 br\ght myself to believe 9 a clue to ! out] univ]se4 ,& 9 ! process ,i h swall[$ su* a lot ( j>gon t ,i w\ld r li/5 n[ to a negro wit*-doctor ?an to ,sci5ce4 ,!re is no?+ 9 ! _w t is true except empiric discov]ies :i* "w 9 actual appliances4 ,i "k t ! sun is hot4 ,b ,i won't be told t ! sun is a ball ( blaz+ gas :i* sp9s r\nd & fizzes4 ,no1 ?ank y4 ,at l5g?1 = my "p1 ,i "k t life1 & life only is ! clue to ! univ]se4 ,& t ! liv+ individual is ! clue to life4 ,& t x always 0 s1 & always w be s4 ,:5 ! liv+ individual dies1 !n is ! realm ( dea? e/abli%$4 ,!n y get ,matt] & ,elem5ts & atoms & =ces & sun & moon & e>? & />s & s =?4 ,9 %ort1 ! out] univ]se1 ! ,cosmos4 ,! ,cosmos is no?+ b ! aggregate ( ! dead bodies & dead en]gies ( bygone individuals4 ,! dead bodies decompose z we "k into e>?1 air1 & wat]1 heat & radiant en]gy & free electricity & innum]able o!r sci5tific facts4 ,! dead s\ls likewise decompose--or else !y don't decompose4 ,b if !y d decompose1 !n x is n into any elem5ts ( ,matt] & physical en]gy4 ,!y decompose into "s psy*ic reality1 & into "s pot5tial w4 ,!y re5t] into ! liv+ psy*e ( liv+ individuals4 ,! liv+ s\l p>takes ( ! dead s\ls1 z ! liv+ brea/ p>takes ( ! out] air1 & ! blood p>takes ( ! sun4 ,! s\l1 ! individuality1 nev] resolves itself ?r\gh dea? into physical con/itu5ts4 ,! dead s\l rema9s always s\l1 & always reta9s its individual quality4 ,& x does n disappe>1 b re5t]s into ! s\l ( ! liv+1 ( "s liv+ individual or individuals4 ,& !re x cont9ues its "p 9 life1 z a dea?-witness & a life-ag5t4 ,b x does n1 ord9>ily1 h any sep>ate exi/5ce !re1 b is incorporate 9 ! liv+ individual s\l4 ,b 9 "s extraord9>y cases1 ! dead s\l may really act sep>ately 9 a liv+ individual4 ,h[ ?is all is1 & :at are ! laws ( ! relation betwe5 life & dea?1 ! liv+ & ! dead1 ,i don't "k4 ,b t ?is relation exi/s1 & exi/s 9 a mann] z ,i describe x1 = my own "p ,i "k4 ,& ,i am fully aw>e t once we direct our liv+ att5tion ?is way1 in/ead ( to ! absurdity ( ! atom1 !n we h a :ole liv+ univ]se ( k be=e u4 ,! univ]se ( life & dea?1 ( :i* we1 ^: bus9ess x is to live & to die1 "k no?+4 ,:il/ conc]n+ ! univ]se ( ,=ce & ,matt] we pile up !ories & make /agg]+ & disa/r\s discov]ies ( ma*9]y & poison-gas1 all ( :i* we 7 mu* bett] )\t4 ,x is life we h to live by1 n ma*9es & ideals4 ,& life means no?+ else1 ev51 b ! spontane\s liv+ s\l :i* is our c5tral reality4 ,! spontane\s1 liv+1 individual s\l1 ?is is ! clue1 & ! only clue4 ,all ! re/ is d]iv$4 ,h[ x is contriv$ t ! individual s\l 9 ! liv+ sways ! v sun 9 its c5trality1 ,i d n "k4 ,b x is s4 ,x is ! peculi> dynamic pol>ity ( ! liv+ s\l 9 e we$ or bug or bea/1 ea* "o sep>ately & individually pol>iz$ ) ! great return+ pole ( ! sun1 t ma9ta9s ! sun alive4 ,= ,i take x t ! sun is ! great sympa!tic c5t] ( our inanimate univ]se4 ,i take x t ! sun brea!s 9 ! efflu5ce ( all t fades & dies4 ,across space fly ! innum]able vibrations :i* are ! basis ( all matt]4 ,!y fly1 brea!d out f ! dy+ & ! dead1 f all t :i* is pass+ away1 ev5 9 ! liv+4 ,^! vibrations1 ^! elem5ts pass away across space1 & are brea!d back aga94 ,! sun itself is invisible z ! s\l4 ,! sun itself is ! s\l ( ! inanimate univ]se1 ! aggregate clue to ! sub/antial dea?1 if we may call x s4 ,! sun is ! great active pole ( ! sympa!tic dea?-activity4 ,to ! sun fly ! vibrations or ! molecules 9 ! great sympa?y-mode ( dea?1 & 9 ! sun !y are r5ew$1 !y turn aga9 z ! great gift back aga9 f ! sympa!tic dea?-c5t] t[>ds life1 t[>ds ! liv+4 ,b x is n ev5 ! dead :i* really su/a9 ! sun4 ,x is ! dynamic relation betwe5 ! sol> plexus ( individuals & ! sun's core1 a p]fect circuit4 ,! sun is mat]ially compos$ ( all ! efflu5ce ( ! dead4 ,b ! quick ( ! sun is pol>iz$ ) ! liv+1 ! sun's quick is pol>iz$ 9 dynamic relation ) ! quick ( life 9 all liv+ ?+s1 t is1 ) ! sol> plexus 9 mank9d4 ,a direct dynamic connection betwe5 my sol> plexus & ! sun4 ,likewise1 z ! sun is ! great fi]y1 vivify+ pole ( ! inanimate univ]se1 ! moon is ! o!r pole1 cold & ke5 & vivify+1 correspond+ 9 "s way to a volunt>y pole4 ,we live betwe5 ! pol>iz$ circuit ( sun & moon4 ,& ! moon is pol>iz$ ) ! lumb> ganglion1 prim>ily1 9 man4 ,sun & moon are dynamically pol>iz$ to our actual tissue1 !y affect ?is tissue all ! "t4 ,! moon is1 z x 71 ! pole ( our p>ticul> t]re/rial volition1 9 ! univ]se4 ,:at holds ! e>? sw++ 9 space is fir/1 ! great dynamic attraction to ! sun1 & !n c\nt]pos+ ass]tion ( indep5d5ce1 s+l5ess1 :i* is pol>iz$ 9 ! moon4 ,! moon is ! clue to our e>?'s individual id5tity1 9 ! wide univ]se4 ,! moon is an imm5se magnetic c5t]4 ,x is q wrong to say %e is a dead sn[y _w ) crat]s & s on4 ,i %\ld say %e is compos$ ( "s v int5se elem5t1 l phosphorus or radium1 "s elem5t or elem5ts :i* h v p[]ful *emical & k9etic activity1 & magnetic activity1 affect+ u ?r\gh space4 ,x is n ! sun :i* we see 9 heav54 ,x is ! ru%+ ?i!r & ! ru%+ !nce ( ! vibrations expell$ by dea? f ! body ( life1 & return$ back aga9 to ! body ( life4 ,possibly ev5 a dead s\l makes its j\rney to ! sun & back1 be=e we receive x aga9 9 our brea/4 ,j z ! brea? we brea! out flies to ! sun & back1 be=e we brea! x 9 aga94 ,& z ! wat] t evaporates rises "r to ! sun1 & returns "h4 ,:at we see is ! great gold5 ru%+ ?i!r1 f ! dea? exhalation1 t[>ds ! sun1 z a great cl\d ( bees fly+ to sw>m ^u ! invisible que51 circl+ r\nd1 & loos+ aga94 ,?is is :at we see ( ! sun4 ,! c5t] is invisible = ev]4 ,& ( ! moon ! same4 ,! moon has h] back to u = ev]4 ,n h] face1 z we l to ?9k4 ,! moon also pulls ! wat]1 z ! sun does4 ,b n 9 evaporation4 ,! moon pulls by ! magnetic =ce we call gravitation4 ,gravitation n be+ q su* a ,newtonian simple apple z we are accu/om$ to f9d x1 we are p]haps f>!r (f f und]/&+ ! tides ( ! ocean ?an we 7 be=e ! fruit ( ! tree fell to ,sir ,isaac's head4 ,x is c]ta9ly n simple little-?+s tumble-t[>ds-big-?+s gravitation4 ,9 ! moon's pull !re is peculi>1 q special =ce ex]t$ ov] ^? wat]-born sub/ances1 phosphorus1 salt1 & lime4 ,! dynamic en]gy ( salt wat] is some?+ q diff]5t f t ( fre% wat]4 ,& x is ?is dynamic en]gy :i* ! sea gives (f1 & :i* connects x ) ! moon4 ,& ! moon is "s /range coagulation ( sub/ance su* z salt1 phosphorus1 soda4 ,x c]ta9ly isn't a sn[y cold _w1 l a _w ( our own gone cold4 ,nons5se4 ,x is a globe ( dynamic sub/ance l radium or phosphorus1 coagulat$ ^u a c]ta9 vivid pole ( en]gy1 :i* pole ( en]gy is directly pol>iz$ ) our e>?1 9 opposition ) ! sun4 ,! moon is born f ! dea? ( individuals4 ,all ?+s1 9 _! one+1 _! unification into ! pure1 univ]sal on5ess1 evaporate & fly l an imitation brea? t[>ds ! sun4 ,ev5 ! crumbl+ rocks brea! !mselves (f 9 ?is rocky dea?1 to ! sun ( heav51 dur+ ! day4 ,b at ! same "t1 dur+ ! night !y brea! !mselves (f to ! moon4 ,if we come to ?9k ( x1 light & d>k are a "q bo? ( ! ?ird body1 ! int]v5+ body1 :at we w call1 by /ret*+ a po9t1 ! individual4 ,z we all "k1 ap>t f ! exi/5ce ( molecules ( individual matt]1 !re is nei!r light nor d>k4 ,a univ]se utt]ly )\t matt]1 we don't "k :e!r x is light or d>k4 ,ev5 ! pure space betwe5 ! sun & moon1 ! blue space1 we don't "k :e!r1 9 itself1 x is light or d>k4 ,we c say x is light1 we c say x is d>k4 ,b light & d>k are t]ms :i* apply only to ourselves1 ! ?ird1 ! int]m$iate1 ! sub/antial1 ! individual4 ,if we come to ?9k ( x1 light & d>k only mean :e!r we h our face or our back t[>ds ! sun4 ,if we h our face to ! sun1 !n we e/abli% ! circuit ( cosmic or univ]sal or mat]ial or inf9ite sympa?y4 ,^! f\r adjectives1 cosmic1 univ]sal1 mat]ial1 & inf9ite are almo/ int]*angeable1 & apply1 z we see1 to t realm ( ! non-individual exi/5ce :i* we call ! realm ( ! sub/antial dea?4 ,x is ! univ]se :i* has result$ f ! dea? ( individuals4 ,& to ?is univ]se alone belongs ! quality ( inf9ity3 to ! univ]se ( dea?4 ,liv+ individuals h no inf9ity save 9 ?is relation to ! total dea?-sub/ance & dea?-be+1 ! summ$-up cosmos4 ,light & d>k1 ^! great wond]s1 are relative to u alone4 ,^! are two va/ poles ( ! cosmic en]gy & ( mat]ial exi/5ce4 ,^! are ! va/ poles ( cosmic sympa?y1 :i* we call ! sun1 & ! o!r :ite pole ( cosmic volition1 :i* we call ! moon4 ,to ! sun belong ! great =ces ( heat & radiant en]gy1 to ! moon belong ! great =ces ( magnetism & electricity1 radium-en]gy1 & s on4 ,! sun is n1 9 any s5se1 a mat]ial body4 ,x is an inv>iable int5se pole ( cosmic en]gy1 & :at we see are ! p>ticles ( our t]re/rial decomposition fly+ ?i!r & return+1 z f9e gra9s ( iron w\ld fly to an int5se magnet1 or bett]1 z ! draught 9 a room ve]s t[>ds ! fire1 attract$ infallibly1 z a mo? t[>ds a c&le4 ,! mo? is drawn to ! c&le z ! draught is drawn to ! fire1 9 ! absolute spell ( ! mat]ial pol>ity ( fire4 ,& air escapes aga91 hot & diff]5t1 f ! fire4 ,s is ! sun4 ,fire1 we say1 is combu/ion4 ,x is m>vel\s h[ sci5ce proce$s l wit*craft & al*emy1 by means ( an abracadabra :i* has no e>?ly s5se4 ,pray1 :at is combu/ion8 ,y c try & answ] sci5tifically1 till y are black 9 ! face4 ,all y c say is t x is t :i* happ5s :5 matt] is rais$ to a c]ta9 temp]ature--& s =? & s =?4 ,y might z well say1 a ^w is t :i* happ5s :5 ,i op5 my m\? & squeeze my l>ynx & make v>i\s tricks ) my ?roat muscles4 ,all ^! explanations are s s5seless4 ,!y describe ! app>atus1 & ?9k !y h describ$ ! ev5t4 ,fire may be accompani$ by combu/ion1 b combu/ion is n necess>ily accompani$ by fire4 ,all ,a is ,b1 b all ,b is n ,a4 ,& !re=e fire1 no matt] h[ y jiggle1 is n id5tical ) combu/ion4 ,fire4 ,,fire4 ,i insi/ on ! absolute ^w4 ,y may say t fire is a sum ( v>i\s ph5om5a4 ,i say x isn't4 ,y might z well tell me a fly is a sum ( w+s & six legs & two bulg+ eyes4 ,x is ! fly :i* has ! w+s & legs1 & n ! legs & w+s :i* someh[ nab ! fly into ! middle ( !mselves4 ,a fly is n a sum ( v>i\s ?+s4 ,a fly is a fly1 & ! items ( ! sum are /ill fly4 ,s ) fire4 ,fire is an absolute unity 9 itself4 ,x is a dynamic pol> pr9ciple4 ,e/abli% a c]ta9 pol>ity betwe5 ! moon-pr9ciple & ! sun-pr9ciple1 betwe5 ! positive & negative1 or sympa!tic & volitional dynamism 9 any piece ( matt]1 & y h fire1 y h ! sun-ph5om5on4 ,x is ! sudd5 fl>e into ! "o mode1 ! sun mode1 ! mat]ial sympa!tic mode4 ,correspond+ly1 e/abli% an opposite pol>ity betwe5 ! sun-pr9ciple & ! wat]-pr9ciple1 & y h decomposition into wat]1 or t[>ds wat]y dissolution4 ,!re are two %e] dynamic pr9ciples 9 our univ]se1 ! sun-pr9ciple & ! moon-pr9ciple4 ,& ^! pr9ciples are kn[n to u 9 imm$iate contact z fire & wat]4 ,! sun is n fire4 ,b ! pr9ciple ( fire is ! sun-pr9ciple4 ,t is1 fire is ! sudd5 swoop t[>ds ! sun1 ( matt] :i* is sudd5ly sun-pol>iz$4 ,fire is ! sudd5 sun-ass]tion1 ! release t[>ds ! "o pole only4 ,x is ! sudd5 revelation ( ! cosmic ,"o ,pol>ity1 ,"o ,id5tity4 ,b !re is ano!r pole4 ,!re is ! moon4 ,& !re is ano!r absolute & visible pr9ciple1 ! pr9ciple ( wat]4 ,! moon is n wat]4 ,b x is ! s\l ( wat]1 ! invisible clue to all ! wat]s4 ,s t we beg9 to realize our visible univ]se z a va/ dual pol>ity betwe5 sun & moon4 ,two va/ poles 9 space1 invisible 9 !mselves1 b visible ow+ to ! circuit :i* swoops betwe5 !m1 r\nd !m1 ! circuit ( ! univ]se1 e/abli%$ at ! cosmic poles ( ! sun & moon4 ,?is !n is ! inf9ite1 ! positive inf9ite ( ! positive pole1 ! sun-pole1 negative inf9ite ( ! negative pole1 ! moon-pole4 ,& betwe5 ! two inf9ites all exi/5ce takes place4 ,b wait4 ,exi/5ce is truly a matt] ( propagation betwe5 ! two inf9ites4 ,b x ne$s a ?ird pres5ce4 ,sun-pr9ciple & moon-pr9ciple1 embrac+ ?r\gh ! aeons1 c\ld nev] by !mselves propagate "o molecule ( matt]4 ,! hail/one ne$s a gra9 ( du/ = its core4 ,s does ! univ]se4 ,midway betwe5 ! two cosmic inf9ites lies ! ?ird1 :i* is m ?an inf9ite4 ,?is is ! ,holy ,gho/ ,life1 individual life4 ,x is s easy to imag9e t betwe5 !m1 ! two inf9ites ( ! cosmos propagat$ life4 ,b "o s+le mom5t ( pause & sil5ce1 "o s+le mom5t ( ga!r+ ! :ole s\l into k1 w tell u t x is a falsity4 ,x 0 ! liv+ individual s\l :i*1 dy+1 flung into space ! two w+s ( ! inf9ite1 ! two poles ( ! sun & ! moon4 ,! sun & ! moon are ! two et]nal dea?-results ( ! dea? ( individuals4 ,matt]1 all matt]1 is ! ,life-born4 ,& :at we "k z in]t matt]1 ?is is only ! result ( dea? 9 individuals1 x is ! dead bodies ( individuals decompos$ & resmelt$ betwe5 ! hamm] & anvil1 fire & s& ( ! sun & ! moon4 ,:5 "t began1 ! fir/ individual di$1 ! poles ( ! sun & moon 7 flung into space1 & betwe5 ! two1 9 a /range *aos & battle1 ! dead body 0 torn & melt$ & smelt$1 & roll$ b5ea? ! feet ( ! liv+4 ,s ! _w 0 =m$1 always "u ! feet ( ! liv+4 ,& s we h a clue to gravitation4 ,we1 mank9d1 are all "o family4 ,9 our individual bodies burns ! positive quick ( all ?+s4 ,b b5ea? our feet1 9 our own e>?1 lies ! int5se c5t] ( our human1 individual dea?1 our grave4 ,! e>? has "o c5t]1 to :i* we are all pol>iz$4 ,! circuit ( our life is balanc$ on ! liv+ s\l )9 u1 z ! positive c5t]1 & on ! e>?'s d>k c5t]1 ! c5t] ( our abid+ & et]nal & sub/antial dea?1 our great negative c5t]1 away bel[4 ,?is is ! circuit ( our imm$iate individual exi/5ce4 ,we /& ^u our own grave1 ) our dea? fire1 ! sun1 on our "r h&1 & our dea?-damp1 ! moon1 on our left4 ,! e>?'s c5t] is no accid5t4 ,x is ! great individual pole ( u :o die4 ,x is ! c5t] ( ! fir/ dead body4 ,x is ! fir/ g]m-cell ( dea?1 :i* g]m-cell ?rew out ! great nuclei ( ! sun & ! moon4 ,to ?is c5t] ( our e>? we1 z humans1 are et]nally pol>iz$1 z are our trees4 ,inevitably1 we fall to e>?4 ,& ! clue ( u s9ks to ! e>?'s c5t]1 ! clue ( our dea?1 ( our weight4 ,& ! e>? fl+s u out z w+s to ! sun & moon3 or z ! dea?-g]m divid+ into two nuclei4 ,s f ! e>? our radiance is flung to ! sun1 our m>%-fire to ! moon1 :5 we die4 ,we fall into ! e>?4 ,b our ris+ 0 n f ! e>?4 ,we rose f ! e>?less quick1 ! unfad+ life4 ,& e>?1 sun1 & moon are born only ( our dea?4 ,b x is only _! pol>iz$ dynamic connection ) u :o live :i* su/a9s !m all 9 _! place & ma9ta9s !m all 9 _! own activities4 ,! inanimate univ]se re/s absolutely on ! life-circuit ( liv+ creatures1 is built ^u ! ar* :i* spans ! duality ( liv+ be+s4 ,,*apt] ,,xiv ,,sleep ,,& ,,dreams ,?is is go+ r f>1 = a book--nay1 a booklet--on ! *ild consci\sness4 ,b x c't be help$4 ,*ild-consci\sness x is4 ,& we h to roll away ! /one ( a sci5tific cosmos f ! tomb-m\? ( t imprison$ consci\sness4 ,n[1 de> read]1 let u see :]e we are4 ,fir/ ( all1 we are ourselves--:i* is ! refra9 ( all my *ants4 ,we are ourselves4 ,we are liv+ individuals4 ,& z liv+ individuals we are ! "o1 pure clue to our own cosmos4 ,to :i* cosmos liv+ individuals h always be5 ! clue1 s9ce "t began1 & w always be ! clue1 :ile "t la/s4 ,i "k x is n s fireworky z ! sudd5 evolv+ ( life1 some:]e1 some:5 & someh[1 out ( =ce & matt] ) a pop4 ,b t pop nev] popp$1 de> read]4 ,! boot 0 on ! o!r leg4 ,& ,i wi% ,i c\ld mix a few m metaphors1 l pops & legs & boots1 j to annoy y4 ,life nev] evolv$1 or evolut$1 out ( =ce & matt]1 de> read]4 ,!re is no su* ?+ z evolution1 anyh[4 ,!re is only developm5t4 ,man 0 man 9 ! v fir/ plasm-speck :i* 0 8 own individual orig91 & is /ill 8 own individual orig94 ,z = ! orig91 ,i don't "k mu* ab\t x4 ,i only "k !re is b "o orig91 & t is ! individual s\l4 ,! individual s\l orig9at$ ev]y?+1 & has itself no orig94 ,s t "t is a matt] ( liv+ exp]i5ce1 no?+ else1 & et]nity is j a m5tal trick4 ,( c\rse e liv+ speck1 amoeba or newt1 has its own individual s\l4 ,& we sit on our own globe1 de> read]1 "h individually locat$4 ,our own individual be+ is our own s+le reality4 ,b ! s+le reality ( ! individual be+ is dynamically & directly pol>iz$ to ! e>?'s c5t]1 :i* is ! aggregate negative c5t] ( all t]re/rial exi/5ce4 ,9 %ort1 ! c5t] :i* 9 life we ?ru/ away f1 & t[>ds :i* we fall1 9 dea?4 ,=1 our individual exi/5ce be+ positive1 we mu/ h a negative pole to ?ru/ away f4 ,& :5 our positive individual exi/5ce breaks1 & we fall into dea?1 our wond]ful individual gravitation-c5t] succumbs to ! e>?'s gravitation-c5t]4 ,s !re we are1 individuals1 s+le1 life-born1 life-liv+1 yet all ! :ile pois$ & pol>iz$ to ! aggregate c5t] ( our sub/antial dea?1 our e>?'s quick1 p[]ful c5t]-clue4 ,!re may be o!r individuals1 alive1 & hav+ o!r worlds "u _! feet1 pol>iz$ to _! own globe's c5t]4 ,b ! v sacr$ness ( my own individuality prev5ts my pron\nc+ ab\t !m1 le/ ,i1 9 attribut+ qualities to !m1 transgress aga9/ ! pure individuality :i* is !irs1 beyond me4 ,if1 h[ev]1 !re be truly o!r p1 ) _! own _w "u _! feet1 !n ,i ?9k x is fair to say t we all h our inf9ite id5tity 9 ! sun4 ,t 9 ! ru% & swirl ( dea? we pass ?r\gh fi]y ways to ! same sun4 ,& f ! sun1 c ! spores ( s\ls pass to ! v>i\s worlds8 ,& to ! worlds ( ! cosmos se$ across space1 ?r\gh ! wild beams ( ! sun8 ,is !re se$ ( ,m>s 9 my ve9s8 ,& is a/rology n altoge!r nons5se8 ,b if ! sun is ! c5t] ( our inf9ite one+ 9 dea? ) all ! o!r aft]-dea? s\ls ( ! cosmos3 & 9 t great c5tral /ation ( travel1 ! sun1 we meet & m+le & *ange tra9s = ! />s3 !n ought we to assume t ! moon is likewise a meet+-place ( dead s\ls8 ,! moon surely is a meet+-place ( cold1 dead1 angry s\ls4 ,b f our own globe only4 ,! moon is ! c5t] ( our t]re/rial individuality 9 ! cosmos4 ,%e is ! decl>ation ( our exi/5ce 9 sep>at5ess4 ,save = ! int5se :ite recoil ( ! moon1 ! e>? w\ld /agg] t[>ds ! sun4 ,! moon holds u to our own cosmic individuality1 z a _w individual 9 space4 ,%e is ! fi]ce c5t] ( retraction1 ( frictional )drawal into sep>at5ess4 ,%e x is :o sull5ly /&s ) h] back to u1 & refuses to meet & m+le4 ,%e x is :o burns :ite ) ! int5se friction ( h] )drawal into sep>ation1 t cold1 pr\d :ite fire ( furi\s1 almo/ malignant ap>tness1 ! /ruggle into fi]ce1 frictional sep>ation4 ,h] :ite fire is ! frictional fire ( ! la/ /range1 int5se wat]y matt]1 z ?is matt] fights its way out ( comb9ation & out ( combu/ion ) ! sun-/uff4 ,to ! pure pol>ity ( ! moon fly ! ess5tial wat]s ( our univ]se4 ,:i* ess5tial wat]s1 at ! moon's clue1 are only an int5se invisible en]gy1 a pol>ity ( ! moon4 ,!re are only ?ree great en]gies 9 ! univ]sal life1 :i* is always individual & :i* yet sways all ! physical =ces z well z ! vital en]gy2 & !n ! two great dynamisms ( ! sun & ! moon4 ,to ! dynamism ( ! sun belong heat1 expansion-=ce1 & all t range4 ,to ! dynamism ( ! moon ! ess5tial wat]y =ces3 n j gravitation1 b electricity1 magnetism1 radium-en]gy1 & s on4 ,! moon likewise is ! pole ( our night activities1 z ! sun is ! pole ( our day activities4 ,rememb] t ! sun & moon are b great self-ab&ons :i* individual life has ?r[n out1 to ! "r h& & to ! left4 ,:5 individual life dies1 x fl+s itself on ! "r h& to ! sun1 on ! left h& to ! moon1 9 ! dual pol>ity1 & s9ks to e>?4 ,:5 any man dies1 8 s\l divides 9 dea?2 z 9 life1 9 ! fir/ g]m1 x 0 unit$ f two g]ms4 ,x divides into two d>k g]ms1 flung asund]3 ! sun-g]m & ! moon-g]m4 ,!n ! mat]ial body s9ks to e>?4 ,& s we h ! cosmic univ]se su* z we "k x4 ,:at is ! exact relation%ip betwe5 u & ! dea?-realm ( ! aft]w>ds we %all nev] "k4 ,b ?is relation is none ! less active e mom5t ( our lives4 ,!re is a pure pol>ity betwe5 life & dea?1 betwe5 ! liv+ & ! dead1 betwe5 ea* liv+ individual & ! out] cosmos4 ,betwe5 ea* liv+ individual & ! e>?'s c5t] passes a nev]-ceas+ circuit ( magnetism4 ,x is a circuit :i* 9 man travels up ! "r side1 & d[n ! left side ( ! body1 to ! e>?'s c5t]4 ,x nev] ceases4 ,b :ile we are awake x is entirely "u ! control & spell ( ! total consci\sness1 ! individual consci\sness1 ! s\l1 or self4 ,:5 we sleep1 h[ev]1 !n ?is individual consci\sness ( ! s\l is susp5d$ = ! "t1 & we lie completely )9 ! circuit ( ! e>?'s magnetism1 or gravitation1 or bo?3 ! circuit ( ! e>?'s c5trality4 ,x is ?is circuit :i* is busy 9 all our tissue remov+ or arrang+ ! dead body ( our pa/ day4 ,= ea* "t we lie d[n to sleep we h )9 u a body ( dea? :i* dies ) ! day t is sp5t4 ,& ?is body ( dea? is remov$ or laid 9 l9e by ! activities ( ! e>?-circuit1 ! great active dea?-circuit1 :ile we sleep4 ,z we sleep ! curr5t sweeps its own way ?r\gh u1 z ! /reets ( a city are swept & flu%$ at night4 ,x sweeps ?r\gh our n]ves & our blood1 sweep+ away ! a% ( our day's sp5t consci\sness t[>ds "o =m or o!r ( excretion4 ,?is e>?-curr5t actively sweep+ ?r\gh u is really ! dea?-activity busy 9 ! s]vice ( life4 ,x behooves u to "k no?+ ( x4 ,& z x sweeps x /imulates 9 ! prim>y c5t]s ( consci\sness vibrations :i* fla% images ^u ! m9d4 ,usually1 9 deep sleep1 ^! images pass unrecord$2 b z we pass t[>ds ! twilight ( dawn & wakefulness1 we beg9 to reta9 "s impression1 "s record ( ! dream-images4 ,usually also ! images t are accid5tally swept into ! m9d 9 sleep are z disconnect$ & z unmean+ z ! pieces ( pap] :i* ! /reet clean]s sweep into a b9 f ! city gutt]s at night4 ,we %\ld n ?9k ( tak+ all ^! pap]s1 piec+ !m toge!r1 & mak+ a m>vel\s book ( !m1 prophetic ( ! future & pregnant ) ! pa/4 ,we %\ld n d s1 al?\gh e rag ( pr9t$ pap] swept f ! gutt] w\ld h "s connection ) ! pa/ day's ev5t4 ,b its significance1 ! significance ( ! words pr9t$ ^u x is s small1 t we relegate x into ! limbo ( ! accid5tal & mean+less4 ,!re is no vital connection betwe5 ! _m torn bits ( pap]--only an accid5tal connection4 ,ea* bit ( pap] has ref]5ce to "s actual ev5t3 a bus-ticket1 an envelope1 a tract1 a pa/ry-%op bag1 a newspap]1 a h&-bill4 ,b take !m all toge!r1 bus-ticket1 torn envelope1 tract1 pap]-bag1 piece ( newspap] & h&-bill1 & !y h no individual sequ5ce1 !y belong m to ! me*anical arrangem5ts ?an to ! vital consequ5ce ( our exi/5ce4 ,& ! same ) mo/ dreams4 ,!y are ! het]og5e\s odds & ends ( images swept toge!r accid5tally by ! besom ( ! night-curr5t1 & x is b5ea? our dignity to atta* any real importance to !m4 ,x is always b5ea? our dignity to g degrad+ ! integrity ( ! individual s\l by cr++ & scrap+ among ! rag-tag ( accid5t & ( ! inf]ior1 me*anic co9cid5ce & automatic ev5t4 ,only ^? ev5ts are significant :i* d]ive f or apply to ! s\l 9 its full integrity4 ,to g k[-t[+ be=e ! facts ( *ange1 z gambl]s & =tune-read]s & fatali/s d1 is m]ely a p]v]t+ ( ! s\l's pr\d integral priority1 a re>+ up ( idiotic idols & feti%es4 ,mo/ dreams are purely insignificant1 & x is ! sign ( a weak & paltry nature to pay any att5tion to !m :atev]4 ,only occasionally !y matt]4 ,& ?is is only :5 some?+ ?reat5s u f ! out] me*anical1 or accid5tal dea?-_w4 ,:5 any?+ ?reat5s u f ! _w ( dea?1 !n a dream may become s vivid t x ar\ses ! actual s\l4 ,& :5 a dream is s int5se t x ar\ses ! s\l--!n we mu/ att5d to x4 ,b we may h ! mo/ appall+ nightm>e because we eat pancakes = supp]4 ,"h aga91 we are ?reat5$ ) an arre/ ( ! me*anical fl[ ( ! sy/em4 ,?is arre/ becomes s s]i\s t x affects ! great organs ( ! he>t & lungs1 & ^! organs affect ! prim>y consci\s-c5t]s4 ,n[ we %all see t ?is is ! direct rev]se ( real liv+ consci\sness4 ,9 liv+ consci\sness ! prim>y affective c5t]s control ! great organs4 ,b :5 sleep is on u1 ! rev]se takes place4 ,! great organs1 be+ ob/ruct$ 9 _! spontane\s-automatism1 at la/ ) viol5ce ar\se ! active consci\s-c5t]s4 ,& ^! fla% images to ! bra94 ,^! nightm>e images are v frequ5tly purely me*anical3 z ( fall+ t]ribly d[nw>ds1 or be+ enclos$ 9 vaults4 ,& su* images are pure physical transcripts4 ,! image ( fall+1 ( fly+1 ( try+ to run & n be+ able to lift ! feet1 ( hav+ to creep ?r\gh t]ribly small passages1 ^! are direct transcripts f ! physical ph5om5a ( circulation & dige/ion4 ,x is ! directly transcrib$ image ( ! he>t :i*1 imp$$ 9 its action by ! gases ( indige/ion1 is swit*$ out ( its e/abli%$ circuit ( e>?-pol>ity1 & is z if susp5d$ ov] a void1 or plung+ into a void3 /ep by /ep1 fall+ d[n/airs1 maybe1 accord+ to ! /rangulation ( ! he>t beats4 ,! same p>alytic inability to lift ! feet :5 "o ne$s to run1 9 a dream1 comes directly f ! same imp$$ action ( ! he>t1 :i* is ?r[n (f its balance by "s mat]ial ob/ruction4 ,n[ ! he>t sw+s left & "r 9 ! pure circuit ( ! e>?'s pol>ity4 ,h9d] ?is sw+1 =ce ! he>t ov] to ! left1 by inflation ( gas f ! /oma* or by dead pressure ^u ! blood & n]ves f any ob/ruction1 & y get ! s5sation ( be+ unable to lift ! feet f e>?3 a gasp+ s5sation4 ,or =ce ! he>t to ov]-balance t[>ds ! "r1 & y get ! s5sation ( fly+ or ( fall+4 ,! he>t telegraphs its di/ress to ! m9d1 & wakes u4 ,! wakeful s\l at once beg9s to deal ) ! ob/ruction1 :i* 0 too mu* = ! me*anical night-circuits4 ,! same holds good ( dreams ( imprisonm5t1 or ( creep+ ?r\gh n>r[ passages4 ,!y are direct transf]s f ! squeez+ ( ! blood ?r\gh con/rict$ art]ies or he>t *amb]s4 ,mo/ dreams are /imulat$ f ! blood into ! n]ves & ! n]ve-c5t]s4 ,& ! he>t is ! transmission /ation4 ,= ! blood has a unity & a consci\sness ( its own4 ,x has a deep]1 elem5tal consci\sness ( ! me*anical or mat]ial _w4 ,9 ! blood we h ! body ( our mo/ elem5tal consci\sness1 our almo/ mat]ial consci\sness4 ,& dur+ sleep ?is mat]ial consci\sness transf]s itself into ! n]ves & to ! bra94 ,! transf] 9 wakefulness results 9 a feel+ ( pa9 or discom=t--z :5 we h indige/ion1 :i* is pure blood-discom=t4 ,b 9 sleep ! transf] is made ?r\gh ! dream-images :i* are me*anical ph5om5a l mirages4 ,nightm>es :i* h purely me*anical images may t]rify u1 give u a great %ock1 b ! %ock does n ent] our s\ls4 ,we are surpris$1 9 ! morn+1 to f9d t ! bri/l+ horror ( ! night seems n[ j no?+--dw9dl$ to no?+4 ,& ?is is because :at 0 a purely mat]ial ob/ruction 9 ! physical fl[1 tempor>y only1 is inde$ a no?+ness to ! liv+1 integral s\l4 ,we are subject to su* accid5ts--if we w eat pancakes = supp]4 ,& t is ! end ( x4 ,b !re are o!r dreams :i* l+] & haunt ! s\l4 ,^! are true s\l-dreams4 ,z we "k1 life consi/s ( reactions & int]relations f ! great c5t]s ( prim>y consci\sness4 ,i may />t a *a9 ( connection f "o c5t]1 :i* inevitably /imulates into activity ! correspond+ c5t]4 ,= example1 ,i may develop a pr(\nd & passional love = my "m1 9 my days ( adolesc5ce4 ,?is />ts1 willy-nilly1 ! :ole activity ( adult love at ! l[] c5t]s4 ,b admission is made only ( ! upp]1 spiritual love1 ! love dynamically pol>iz$ at ! upp] c5t]s4 ,nev]!less1 :e!r ! admission is made or n1 once e/abli% ! circuit 9 ! upp] or spiritual c5t]s ( adult love1 & y w get a correspond+ activity 9 ! l[]1 passional c5t]s ( adult love4 ,! activity at ! l[] c5t]1 h[ev]1 is d5i$ 9 ! daytime4 ,!re is a repression4 ,!n ! friction ( ! night-fl[ lib]ates ! repress$ psy*ic activity explosively4 ,& !n ! image ( ! "m figures 9 passionate1 di/urb+1 s\l-r5d+ dreams4 ,! ,freudians po9t to ?is z evid5ce ( a repress$ ince/ desire4 ,! ,freudians are too simple4 ,x is always wrong to accept a dream-mean+ at its face value4 ,sleep is ! "t :5 we are giv5 ov] to ! automatic processes ( ! inanimate univ]se4 ,let u n =get ?is4 ,dreams are automatic 9 _! nature4 ,! psy*e possesses rem>kably few dynamic images4 ,9 ! case ( ! boy :o dreams ( 8 "m1 we h ! ar\s$ b unatta*$ sex plung+ 9 sleep1 caus+ a sort ( ob/ruction4 ,we h ! image ( ! "m1 ! dynamic emotional image4 ,& ! automatism ( ! dream-process imm$iately unites ! sex-s5sation to ! great /ock image1 & produces an ince/ dream4 ,b does ?is prove a repress$ ince/ desire8 ,on ! contr>y4 ,! tru? is1 e man has1 ! mom5t he awakes1 a hatr$ ( 8 dream1 & a great desire to be free ( ! dream1 free ( ! p]si/5t "m-image or si/]-image ( ! dream4 ,x is a gh\l1 x haunts 8 dreams1 ?is image1 ) its hateful conclusions4 ,& yet he _c get free4 ,z long z a man lives he may1 9 8 dreams ( passion or conflict1 be haunt$ by ! "m-image or si/]-image1 ev5 :5 he kn[s t ! cause ( ! di/urb+ dream is ! wife4 ,b ev5 ?\gh ! actual subject ( ! dream is ! wife1 /ill1 ov] & ov] aga91 = ye>s1 ! dream-process w p]si/ 9 sub/itut+ ! "m-image4 ,x haunts & t]rifies a man4 ,:y does ! dream-process act s8 ,= two reasons4 ,fir/1 ! reason ( simple automatic cont9uance4 ,! "m-image 0 ! fir/ great emotional image to be introduc$ 9 ! psy*e4 ,! dream-process me*anically reproduces its /ock image ! mom5t ! int5se sympa?y-emotion is ar\s$4 ,aga91 ! "m-image ref]s only to ! upp] plane4 ,b ! dream-process is me*anical 9 its logic4 ,because ! "m-image ref]s to ! great dynamic /ress ( ! upp] plane1 !re=e x ref]s to ! great dynamic /ress ( ! l[]4 ,?is is a piece ( %e] automatic logic4 ,! liv+ s\l is n automatic1 & automatic logic does n apply to x4 ,b = our second reason = ! image4 ,9 becom+ ! object ( great emotional /ress = h] son1 ! "m also becomes an object ( poignancy1 ( angui%1 ( arre/1 to h] son4 ,%e arre/s him f f9d+ 8 prop] fulfillm5t on ! s5sual plane4 ,n[ x is almo/ always ! object ( arre/ :i* becomes impress$1 z x 71 ^u ! psy*e4 ,a man v r>ely has an image ( a p]son ) :om he is liv+ly1 vitally connect$4 ,he only has dream-images ( ! p]sons :o1 9 "s way1 oppose 8 life-fl[ & 8 s\l's fre$om1 & s become impress$ ^u 8 plasm z objects ( resi/ance4 ,once a man is dynamically caught on ! upp] plane by "m or si/]1 !n ! dream-image ( "m or si/] w p]si/ until ! dynamic rapport betwe5 himself & 8 "m or si/] is f9ally brok54 ,& ! dream-image f ! upp] plane w be automatically appli$ to ! di/urbance ( ! l[] plane4 ,because--& ?is is v important--! dream-process loves its own automatism4 ,x w\ld =ce ev]y?+ to an automatic-logical conclusion 9 ! psy*e4 ,b ! liv+1 wakeful psy*e is s flexible & s5sitive1 x has a horror ( automatism4 ,:ile ! s\l really lives1 its deepe/ dread is p]haps ! dread ( automatism4 ,= automatism 9 life is a =e/all+ ( ! dea? process4 ,! liv+ s\l has its great fe>4 ,! liv+ s\l fe>s ! automatically logical conclusion ( ince/4 ,h5ce ! sleep-process inv>iably draws ?is conclusion4 ,! dream-process1 fi5di%ly1 plays a triumph ( automatism ov] u4 ,b ! dream-conclusion is almo/ inv>iably j ! rev]se ( ! s\l's desire1 9 any di/ress-dream4 ,popul> dream-tell+ und]/ood ?is1 & pron\nc$ t y mu/ read dreams backw>ds4 ,dream ( a w$d+1 & x means a fun]al4 ,wi% y\r fri5d well1 & fe> 8 dea?1 & y w dream ( 8 fun]al4 ,e desire has its correspond+ fe> t ! desire %all n be fulfill$4 ,x is fe> :i* =ms an arre/-po9t 9 ! psy*e1 h5ce an image4 ,s ! dream automatically produces ! fe>-image z ! desire-image4 ,if y secretly wi%$ y\r enemy dead1 & fe>$ he might fl\ri%1 ! dream w\ld pres5t y ) 8 w$d+4 ,( c\rse ?is rule ( inv]sion is too simple to hold good 9 all cases4 ,yet x is "o ( ! mo/ g5]al rules = dreams1 & applies mo/ (t5 to desire-&-fe> dreams ( a psy*ic nature4 ,s t an ince/-dream w\ld n prove an ince/-desire 9 ! liv+ psy*e4 ,r ! contr>y1 a liv+ fe> ( ! automatic conclusion3 ! s\l's j dread ( automatism4 ,& ?\gh ?is may s\nd l casui/ry1 ,i believe x does expla9 a good deal ( ! dream-trick4--,t :i* is lovely to ! automatic process is hateful to ! spontane\s s\l4 ,! wakeful liv+ s\l fe>s automatism z x fe>s dea?3 dea? be+ automatic4 ,x seems to me ^! are ! fir/ two dream-pr9ciples1 & ! two mo/ important3 ! pr9ciple ( automatism & ! pr9ciple ( inv]sion4 ,!y w n resolve ev]y?+ = u1 b !y w help a great deal4 ,we h to be v w>y ( giv+ way to dreams4 ,x is really a s9 aga9/ ourselves to pro/itute ! liv+ spontane\s s\l to ! tyranny ( dreams1 or ( *ance1 or =tune or luck1 or any ( ! processes ( ! automatic sph]e4 ,!n consid] o!r dynamic dreams4 ,fir/1 ! dream-image g5]ally4 ,any significant dream-image is usually an image or a symbol ( "s arre/ or scot* 9 ! liv+ spontane\s psy*e4 ,!re is ano!r pr9ciple4 ,b if ! image is a symbol1 !n ! only safe way to expla9 ! symbol is to proce$ f ! quality ( emotion connect$ ) ! symbol4 ,= example1 a man has a p]si/5t passionate fe>-dream ab\t horses4 ,he sudd5ly f9ds himself among great1 physical horses1 :i* may sudd5ly g wild4 ,_! great bodies surge madly r\nd him1 !y re> above him1 ?reat5+ to de/roy him4 ,at any m9ute he may be trampl$ d[n4 ,n[ a psy*oanaly/ w probably tell y (f-h& t ?is is a fa!r-complex dream4 ,c]ta9 symbols seem to be put into complex catalogues4 ,b x is all too arbitr>y4 ,exam9+ ! emotional ref]5ce we f9d t ! feel+ is s5sual1 !re is a great impression ( ! p[]ful1 almo/ beautiful physical bodies ( ! horses1 ! ne>ness1 ! r\nd$ haun*es1 ! re>+4 ,is ! dynamic passion 9 a horse ! dang]-passion8 ,x is a great s5sual reaction at ! sacral ganglion1 a reaction ( int5se1 s5sual1 dom9ant volition4 ,! horse :i* re>s & kicks & neighs madly acts f ! int5sely p[]ful sacral ganglion4 ,b ?is int5se activity f ! sacral ganglion is male3 ! sacral ganglion is at its highe/ int5sity 9 ! male4 ,s t ! horse-dream ref]s to "s arre/ 9 ! deepe/ s5sual activity 9 ! male4 ,! horse is pres5t$ z an object ( t]ror1 :i* means t to ! man's automatic dream-s\l1 :i* loves automatism1 ! great s5sual male activity is ! greate/ m5ace4 ,! automatic pseudo-s\l1 :i* has got ! s5sual nature repress$1 w\ld l to keep x repress$4 ,:]eas ! greate/ desire ( ! liv+ spontane\s s\l is t ?is v male s5sual nature1 repres5t$ z a m5ace1 %all be actually accompli%$ 9 life4 ,! spontane\s self is secretly ye>n+ = ! lib]ation & fulfillm5t ( ! deepe/ & mo/ p[]ful s5sual nature4 ,!re may be an elem5t ( fa!r-complex4 ,! horse may also ref] to ! p[]ful s5sual be+ 9 ! fa!r4 ,! dream may mean a love ( ! dream] = ! s5sual male :o is 8 fa!r4 ,b x has no?+ to d ) ince/4 ,! love is probably a j love4 ,! bull-dream is a curi\s rev]sal4 ,9 ! bull ! c5t]s ( p[] are 9 ! brea/ & %\ld]s4 ,! horns ( ! head are symbols ( ?is va/ p[] 9 ! upp] self4 ,! woman's fe> ( ! bull is a great t]ror ( ! dynamic upp] c5t]s 9 man4 ,! bull's horns1 in/ead ( be+ phallic1 repres5t ! enorm\s pot5cy ( ! upp] c5t]s4 ,a woman ^: mo/ positive dynamism is 9 ! brea/ & %\ld]s is fasc9at$ by ! bull4 ,h] dream-fe> ( ! bull & 8 horns :i* may run into h] may be rev]s$ to a significance ( desire = connection1 n f ! c5t]s ( ! l[]1 s5sual self1 b f ! int5se physical c5t]s ( ! upp] body3 ! phallus pol>iz$ f ! upp] c5t]s1 & direct$ t[>ds ! great brea/ c5t] ( ! woman4 ,h] wakeful fe> is t]ror ( ! great brea/-&-%\ld]1 upp] rage & p[] ( man1 :i* may pi]ce h] def5seless l[] self4 ,! t]ror & ! desire are ne> toge!r--& g ) an admiration ( ! sl5d]1 ab/ract$ bull lo9s4 ,o!r dream-fe>s1 or /rong dream-impressions1 may be almo/ imageless4 ,!y may be a great t]ror1 = example1 ( a purely geometric figure--a figure f pure geometry1 or an example ( pure ma!matics4 ,or !y may h no image1 b only a s5sation ( smell1 or ( color1 or ( s\nd4 ,^! are ! dream-fe>s ( ! s\l :i* is fall+ out ( human integrity into ! purely me*anical mode4 ,if we idealize ourselves suffici5tly1 ! spontane\s c5t]s d at la/ "w only1 or almo/ only1 9 ! me*anical mode4 ,!y h no dynamic relation ) ano!r be+4 ,!y _c h4 ,_! :ole p[] ( dynamic relation%ip is qu5*$4 ,!y act n[ 9 ref]5ce purely to ! me*anical _w1 ( =ce & matt]1 s5sation & law4 ,s t 9 dream-activity s5sation or ab/raction1 ab/ract law or calculation occurs z ! pr$om9ant or exclusive image4 ,9 ! dream !re may be a s5sation ( admiration or delight4 ,! wak+ s5sation is fe>4 ,because ! s\l fe>s above all ?+s its fall f individual integrity into ! me*anic activity ( ! out] _w1 :i* is ! automatic dea?-_w4 ,& ?is is our dang] to-day4 ,we t5d1 ?r\gh delib]ate idealism or delib]ate mat]ial purpose1 to de/roy ! s\l 9 its fir/ nature ( spontane\s1 integral be+1 & to sub/itute ! second nature1 ! automatic nature ( ! me*anical univ]se4 ,= ?is purpose we /ay up late at night1 & we rise late 9 ! morn+4 ,to /ay up late into ! night is always bad4 ,let u be z ideal z we may1 :5 ! sun goes d[n ! natural mode ( life *anges 9 u4 ,! m9d *anges its activity4 ,z ! s\l gradually goes passive1 be=e yield+ up its sway1 ! m9d falls into its second phase ( activity4 ,x collects ! results ( ! sp5t day into consci\sness1 lays d[n ! honey ( quiet ?\ght1 or ! bitt]-sweet honey ( ! ga!r$ fl[]4 ,x is ! consci\sness ( t :i* is pa/4 ,ev5+ is our "t to read hi/ory & trag$y & romance--all ( :i* are ! utt]ance ( t :i* is pa/1 t :i* is ov]1 t :i* is f9i%$1 is conclud$3 ei!r sweetly conclud$1 or bitt]ly4 ,ev5+ is ! "t = ?is4 ,b ev5+ is ! "t also = revelry1 = dr9k1 = passion4 ,alcohol ent]s ! blood & acts z ! sun's rays act4 ,x inflames into life1 x lib]ates into en]gy & consci\sness4 ,b by a process ( combu/ion4 ,t life ( ! day :i* we h n liv$1 by means ( sun-born alcohol we c n[ fl>e into s5sation1 consci\sness1 en]gy & passion1 & live x out4 ,x is a lib]ation f ! laws ( idealism1 a release f ! re/riction ( control & fe>4 ,x is ! blood bur/+ into consci\sness4 ,b naturally ! c\rse ( ! lib]at$ consci\sness may be 9 ei!r direction3 %>p] m5tal action1 great] f]vor ( spiritual emotion1 or deep] s5suality4 ,n[adays ! la/ is becom+ mu* m unusual4 ,! active m9d-consci\sness ( ! night is a =m ( retrospection1 or else x is a =m ( impulsive exclamation1 direct f ! blood1 & unbalanc$4 ,because ! active physical consci\sness ( ! night is ! blood-consci\sness1 ! mo/ elem5tal =m ( consci\sness4 ,vision is p]haps our highe/ =m ( dynamic upp] consci\sness4 ,b our deepe/ l[] consci\sness is blood-consci\sness4 ,& ! dynamic l[] c5t]s are sway$ f ! blood4 ,:5 ! blood r\ses into its night int5sity1 x naturally k9dles fir/ ! l[e/ dynamic c5t]s4 ,x transf]s its voice & its fire to ! great hypoga/ric plexus1 :i* gov]ns1 ) ! help ( ! sacral ganglion1 ! fl[ ( ur9e ?r\gh u1 b :i* also voices ! deep sway+ ( ! blood 9 sex passion4 ,sex is our deepe/ =m ( consci\sness4 ,x is utt]ly non-ideal1 non-m5tal4 ,x is pure blood-consci\sness4 ,x is ! basic consci\sness ( ! blood1 ! ne>e/ ?+ 9 u to pure mat]ial consci\sness4 ,x is ! consci\sness ( ! night1 :5 ! s\l is almo/ asleep4 ,! blood-consci\sness is ! fir/ & la/ k ( ! liv+ s\l3 ! dep?s4 ,x is ! s\l act+ 9 "p only1 speak+ ) its fir/ ho>se half-voice4 ,& blood-consci\sness _c op]ate purely until ! s\l has put (f all its manifold degrees & =ms ( upp] consci\sness4 ,z ! self falls back into quiesc5ce1 x draws itself f ! bra91 f ! great n]ve-c5t]s1 into ! blood1 :]e at la/ x w sleep4 ,b z x draws & folds itself liv+ly 9 ! blood1 at ! d>k & p[]ful h\r1 x s5ds out its great call4 ,= ev5 ! blood is alone & 9 "p1 & ne$s an answ]4 ,l ! wat]s ( ! ,r$ ,sea1 ! blood is divid$ 9 a dual pol>ity betwe5 ! sexes4 ,z ! night falls & ! consci\sness s9ks deep]1 sudd5ly ! blood is he>d ho>sely call+4 ,sudd5ly ! deep c5t]s ( ! sexual consci\sness r\se to _! spontane\s activity4 ,sudd5ly !re is a deep circuit e/abli%$ betwe5 me & ! woman4 ,sudd5ly ! sea ( blood :i* is me heaves & ru%es t[>ds ! sea ( blood :i* is h]4 ,!re is a mom5t ( pure frictional crisis & contact ( blood4 ,& !n all ! blood 9 me ebbs back into its ways1 transmut$1 *ang$4 ,& ?is is ! pr(\nd basis ( my r5ewal1 my deep blood r5ewal4 ,& ?is has no?+ to d ) pretty faces or :ite sk9 or rosy brea/s or any ( ! re/ ( ! trapp+s ( sexual love4 ,^! trapp+s belong to ! day4 ,nei!r eyes nor h&s nor m\? h any?+ to d ) ! f9al massive & d>k collision ( ! blood 9 ! sex crisis1 :5 ! /range fla% ( electric transmutation passes ?r\gh ! blood ( ! man & ! blood ( ! woman4 ,!y fall ap>t & sleep 9 _! transmutation4 ,b ev5 9 its pr(\nde/1 & mo/ elem5tal movem5ts1 ! s\l is /ill individual4 ,ev5 9 its mo/ mat]ial consci\sness1 x is /ill integral & individual4 ,y w\ld ?9k ! great blood-/ream ( mank9d 0 "o & homog5e\s4 ,& x is inde$ m ne>ly "o1 m ne> to homog5eity ?an any?+ else )9 u4 ,! blood-/ream ( mank9d is almo/ homog5e\s4 ,b x isn't homog5e\s4 ,9 ! fir/ place1 x is dual 9 a p]fect d>k dynamic pol>ity1 ! sexual pol>ity4 ,no gett+ away f ! fact t ! blood ( woman is dynamically pol>iz$ 9 opposition1 or 9 diff]5ce to ! blood ( man4 ,! crisis ( _! contact 9 sex connection is ! mom5t ( e/abli%m5t ( a new fla%+ circuit ?r\gh\t ! :ole sea3 ! d>k1 burn+ r$ wat]s ( our "u-_w rock+ 9 a new dynamic rhy?m 9 ea* ( u4 ,& !n 9 ! second place1 ! blood ( an individual is 8 own blood4 ,t is1 x is individual4 ,& ?\gh we h a pot5tial dynamic sexual connection1 we m51 ) almo/ e woman1 yet ! great out/&+ fact ( ! individuality ev5 ( ! blood makes u ne$ a correspond+ individuality 9 ! woman we are to embrace4 ,! m individual ! man or woman1 ! m unsatisfactory is a non-individual connection3 promiscuity4 ,! m individual1 ! m does our blood cry out = its own specific answ]1 an individual woman1 blood-pol>iz$ ) u4 ,we h made ! mi/ake ( idealism aga94 ,we h ?\ght t ! woman :o ?9ks & talks z we d w be ! blood-answ]4 ,& we =ce x to be s4 ,to our disa/]4 ,! woman :o ?9ks & talks z we d is almo/ sure to h no dynamic blood-pol>ity ) u4 ,! dynamic blood-pol>ity w\ld make h] diff]5t f me1 & n l me 9 h] ?\ght mode4 ,blood-sympa?y is s mu* deep] ?an ?\ght-mode1 t x may result 9 v diff]5t expression1 v]bally4 ,we h made ! mi/ake ( turn+ life inside out3 ( dragg+ ! day-self into ! night1 & spread+ ! night-self ov] into ! day4 ,we h made love & sex a matt] ( see+ & he>+ & ( day-consci\s manipulation4 ,we h made m5 & wom5 come toge!r on ! gr\nds ( ?is sup]ficial lik5ess & commonalty--_! m5tal1 & upp] sympa!tic consci\sness4 ,& s we h =c$ ! blood to submission4 ,:i* means we =ce x into dis9tegration4 ,we h too mu* light 9 ! night1 & too mu* sleep 9 ! day4 ,x is an evil ?+ = u to prolong z we d ! m5tal1 visual1 ideal consci\sness f> into ! night :5 ! h\r has come = ?is upp] consci\sness to fade1 = ! blood alone to "k & to act4 ,by provok+ ! reaction ( ! great blood-/ress1 ! sex-reaction1 f ! upp]1 out] m5tal consci\sness & m5tal lascivi\sness ( consci\s purpose1 we !reby de/roy ! v blood 9 our bodies4 ,we prev5t x f hav+ its own dynamic sway4 ,we prev5t x f com+ to its own dynamic crisis & connection1 f f9d+ its own fundam5tal be+4 ,no matt] h[ we "w our sex1 f ! upp] or out] consci\sness1 we don't a*ieve any?+ b ! falsification & impov]i%m5t ( our own blood-life4 ,we h no *oice4 ,ei!r we mu/ )draw f int]f]5ce1 or sl[ly det]iorate4 ,we h made a correspond+ mi/ake 9 sleep+ on into ! day4 ,once ! sun rises our con/itution *anges4 ,once ! sun is well up our sleep--suppos+ our life fairly normal--is no long] truly sleep4 ,:5 ! sun comes up ! c5t]s ( active dynamic upp] consci\sness beg9 to wake4 ,! blood *anges its vibration & ev5 its *emical con/itution4 ,& !n we too ought to wake4 ,we d ourselves great damage by sleep+ too long into ! day4 ,! half-h\r's sleep aft] midday meal is a readju/m5t4 ,b ! long h\rs ( morn+ sleep are j a damage4 ,we submit our n[ active c5t]s ( upp] consci\sness to ! dom9ion ( ! blood-automatic fl[4 ,we *a9 ourselves d[n 9 our morn+ sleep4 ,we transmute ! morn+'s blood-/r5g? into false dreams & into an ev]-increas+ =ce ( in]tia4 ,& naturally1 9 ! same l9e ( in]tia we p]si/ f bad to worse4 ,) ! result t our *a9$-d[n1 active n]ve-c5t]s are half-%att]$ be=e we arise4 ,we nev] become newly day-consci\s1 because we h subject$ our p[]ful c5t]s ( day-consci\sness to be trampl$ & wa/$ into dreams & in]tia by ! heavy fl[ ( ! blood-automatism 9 ! morn+ sleeps4 ,!n we arise ) a feel+ ( ! monotony & automatism ( life4 ,!re is no good1 glad refre%+4 ,we feel tir$ to />t )4 ,& s we protract our day-consci\sness on into ! night1 :5 we d at la/ beg9 to come awake1 & we tell ourselves we mu/ sleep1 sleep1 sleep 9 ! morn+ & ! daytime4 ,x is bett] to sleep only six h\rs ?an to prolong sleep on & on :5 ! sun has ris54 ,e man & woman %\ld be =c$ out ( b$ soon aft] ! sun has ris53 p>ticul>ly ! n]v\s ones4 ,& =c$ into physical activity4 ,soon aft] dawn ! va/ majority ( p %\ld be h>d at "w4 ,if n1 !y w soon be n]v\sly diseas$4 ,,*apt] ,,xv ,,! ,,l[] ,,self ,s x comes ab\t t ! moon is ! planet ( our nights1 z ! sun ( our days4 ,& ?is is n j accid5tal1 or ev5 me*anical4 ,! influ5ce ( ! moon ^u ! tides & ^u u is n j an accid5t 9 ph5om5a4 ,x is ! result ( ! creation ( ! univ]se by life itself4 ,x 0 life itself :i* ?rew ! moon ap>t on ! "o h&1 ! sun on ! o!r4 ,& x is life itself :i* keeps ! dynamic-vital relation con/ant betwe5 ! moon & ! liv+ individuals ( ! globe4 ,! moon is z dep5d5t ^u ! life ( individuals1 = h] cont9u$ exi/5ce1 z ea* s+le individual is dep5d5t ^u ! moon4 ,! same ) ! sun4 ,! sun sets & has 8 p]fect pol>ity 9 ! life-circuit e/abli%$ betwe5 him & all liv+ individuals4 ,break t circuit1 & ! sun breaks4 ,)\t man1 bea/s1 butt]flies1 trees1 toads1 ! sun w\ld gutt] out l a sp5t lamp4 ,x is ! life-emission f individuals :i* fe$s 8 burn+ & e/abli%es 8 sun-he>t 9 its p[]ful equilibrium4 ,! same ) ! moon4 ,%e lives f u1 prim>ily1 & we f h]4 ,ev]y?+ is a "q ( relativity4 ,n only is e =ce relative to o!r =ce or =ces1 b e exi/5ce is relative to o!r exi/5ces4 ,n only does ! life ( man dep5d on man1 bea/1 & h]b1 b on ! sun & moon1 & ! />s4 ,& 9 ano!r mann]1 ! exi/5ce ( ! moon dep5ds absolutely on ! life ( h]b1 bea/1 & man4 ,! exi/5ce ( ! moon dep5ds ^u ! life ( individuals1 t :i* alone is orig9al4 ,)\t ! life ( individuals ! moon w\ld fall asund]4 ,& ! moon p>ticul>ly1 because %e is pol>iz$ dynamically to ?is1 our own e>?4 ,we d n "k :at f>-(f life brea!s betwe5 ! />s & ! sun4 ,b our life alone supports ! moon4 ,j z ! moon is ! pole ( our s+le t]re/rial individuality4 ,!re=e we mu/ "k t betwe5 ! moon & ea* individual be+ exi/s a vital dynamic fl[4 ,! life ( individuals dep5ds directly ^u ! moon1 j z ! moon dep5ds directly ^u ! life ( individuals4 ,b 9 :at way does ! life ( individuals dep5d directly ^u ! moon8 ,! moon is ! "m ( d>kness4 ,%e is ! clue to ! active d>kness4 ,& we1 bel[ ! wai/1 we h our be+ 9 d>kness4 ,bel[ ! wai/ we are sightless4 ,:51 9 ! daytime1 our life is pol>iz$ upw>ds1 t[>ds ! op51 sun-wak5$ eyes & ! m9d :i* sees 9 vision1 !n ! p[]ful dynamic c5t]s ( ! l[] body act 9 subs]vi5ce1 9 _! negative pol>ity4 ,& !n we fl[ upw>ds1 we g =? seek+ ! univ]se1 9 vision1 spee*1 & ?\ght--we g =? to see all ?+s1 to he> all ?+s1 to "k all ?+s by acqua9tance & by k4 ,"o flood ( dynamic fl[ are we1 upw>ds pol>iz$1 9 our tallness & our wide-ey$ _s seek+ to br+ all ! univ]se into ! range ( our consci\s individuality1 & eag] always to make new worlds1 out ( ?is old _w1 to bud new gre5 tips on ! tree ( life4 ,j z a tree w\ld die if x 7 n mak+ new gre5 tips ^u all its va/ old _w ( a body1 s ! :ole univ]se w\ld p]i% if man & bea/ & h]b 7 n always putt+ =? a newness3 ! toad tak+ a vivid] color1 spread+ 8 h&s a little m g5tly1 develop+ a m ruse intellig5ce1 ! birds add+ a new note to _! spee* & song1 a new %>p sw]ve to _! flight1 a new nicety to _! ne/s2 & man1 mak+ new worlds1 new civilizations4 ,if x 7 n = ?is /riv+ into new creation on ! "p ( liv+ individuals1 ! univ]se w\ld g dead1 gradually1 gradually & fall asund]4 ,l a tree t ceases to put =? new gre5 tips1 & to advance out a little fur!r4 ,b ea* new tip arises out ( ! app>5t dea? ( ! old1 ! prec$+ "o4 ,old leaves h got to fall1 old =ms mu/ die4 ,& if m5 mu/ at c]ta9 p]iods fall into dea? 9 millions1 :y1 s mu/ ! leaves fall e s+le autumn4 ,& dead leaves make good mold4 ,& s dead m54 ,ev5 dead m5's s\ls4 ,s if dea? has to be ! goal = a great numb]1 !n let x be s4 ,if ,am]ica mu/ inv5t ?is poison-gas1 let h]4 ,:5 dea? is our goal ( goals we %all inv5t ! means ( dea?1 let our pr(essions ( b5evol5ce be :at !y w4 ,b ?is "t1 x seems to me1 we h consci\sly & responsibly to c>ry ourselves ?r\gh ! w9t]-p]iod1 ! p]iod ( dea? & d5udation3 t is1 "s ( u h1 "s nation ev5 mu/4 ,= !re are n n[1 z 9 ! ,roman times1 any great res]voirs ( en]getic b>b>ic life4 ,go?s1 ,gauls1 ,g]mans1 ,slavs1 ,t>t>s4 ,! _w is v full ( p1 b all fix$ 9 civilizations ( _! own1 & !y all h all our vices1 all our me*anisms1 & all our means ( de/ruction4 ,?is "t1 ! lead+ civilization _c die out z ,greece1 ,rome1 ,p]sia di$4 ,x mu/ suff] a great collapse1 maybe4 ,b x mu/ c>ry ?r\gh all ! collapse ! liv+ clue to ! next civilization4 ,x's no good ?9k+ we c leave x to ,*9a or ,japan or ,india or ,africa--any ( ! great sw>ms4 ,& "h we are1 we don't look mu* l c>ry+ ?r\gh to a new era4 ,:at h we got t w c>ry ?r\gh8 ,! late/ craze is ,mr4 ,e9/e9's ,relativity ,!ory4 ,curi\s t ev]ybody cat*es fire at ! ^w ,relativity4 ,!re mu/ be some?+ 9 ! m]e sugge/ion1 :i* we h be5 wait+ =4 ,b :at8 ,z f> z ,i c see1 ,relativity means1 = ! common amateur m9d1 t !re is no "o absolute =ce 9 ! physical univ]se1 to :i* all o!r =ces may be ref]r$4 ,!re is no "o s+le absolute c5tral pr9ciple gov]n+ ! _w4 ,! great cosmic =ces or me*anical pr9ciples c only be kn[n 9 _! relation to "o ano!r1 & c only exi/ 9 _! relation to "o ano!r4 ,b1 says ,e9/e91 ?is relation betwe5 ! me*anical =ces is con/ant1 & may be express$ by a ma!matical =mula3 :i* ma!matical =mula may be us$ to equate all me*anical =ces ( ! univ]se4 ,i hope t is n sci5tifically all wrong4 ,x is :at ,i und]/& ( ! ,e9/e9 !ory4 ,:at ,i d\bt is ! equation =mula4 ,x seems to me1 also1 t ! velocity ( light ?r\gh space is ! deus ex ma*9a 9 ,e9/e9's physics4 ,somebody w "s day put salt on ! tail ( light z x travels ?r\gh space1 & !n its simple velocity w split up into some?+ complex1 & ! ,relativity =mula w fall to bits4--,b ,i am a confirm$ outsid]1 s ,i'll hold my tongue4 ,all ,i "k is t p h got ! ^w ,relativity into _! heads1 & cat*-words always ref] to "s lat5t idea or conception 9 ! popul> m9d4 ,x has tak5 a ,jew to knock ! la/ c5t]-p9 out ( our ideally sp9n+ univ]se4 ,! ,jewi% intellig5ce = c5turies has be5 pick+ holes 9 our ideal sy/em--sci5tific & sociological4 ,v good ?+ = u4 ,n[ ,mr4 ,e9/e91 we are glad to say1 has pull$ out ! v axle p94 ,at lea/ t is h[ ! vulg> m9d und]/&s x4 ,! equation =mula doesn't c\nt4--,s n[1 ! univ]se1 accord+ to ! popul> m9d1 c wobble ab\t )\t be+ p9n$ d[n4--,really1 an an>*ical conclusion4 ,b ! ,jewi% m9d insidi\sly drives u to an>*ical conclusions4 ,we are glad to be driv5 f false1 automatic fixities1 anyh[4 ,& once we are driv5 "r on to nihilism we may f9d a way ?r\gh4 ,s1 !re is no?+ absolute left 9 ! univ]se4 ,no?+4 ,"l ,haldane says pure k is absolute4 ,z f> z x goes1 no d\bt4 ,b pure k is only su* a t9y bit ( ! univ]se1 & always relative to ! ?+ kn[n & to ! kn[]4 ,i feel incl9$ to ,relativity myself4 ,i ?9k !re is no "o absolute pr9ciple 9 ! univ]se4 ,i ?9k ev]y?+ is relative4 ,b ,i also feel1 mo/ /rongly1 t 9 itself ea* individual liv+ creature is absolute3 9 its own be+4 ,& t all ?+s 9 ! univ]se are j relative to ! individual liv+ creature4 ,& t individual liv+ creatures are relative to ea* o!r4 ,& :at ab\t a goal8 ,!re is no f9al goal4 ,b e /ep tak5 has its own little relative goal4 ,s :at ab\t ! next /ep8 ,well1 fir/ & =emo/1 t e individual creature %all come to its own p>ticul> & individual fullness ( be+4--,v nice1 v pretty--b h[8 ,well1 ?r\gh a liv+ dynamic relation to o!r creatures4--,v nice aga91 pretty little adjectives4 ,b :at sort ( a liv+ dynamic relation8--,well1 n ! relation ( love1 t's "o ?+1 nor ( bro!rhood1 nor equality4 ,! next relation has got to be a relation%ip ( m5 t[>ds m5 9 a _s ( unfa?omable tru/ & responsibility1 s]vice & lead]%ip1 ob$i5ce & pure au?ority4 ,m5 h got to *oose _! lead]s1 & obey !m to ! dea?4 ,& x mu/ be a sy/em ( culm9at+ ari/ocracy1 society tap]+ l a pyramid to ! supreme lead]4 ,all ( :i* s\nds v di/a/eful at ! mom5t4 ,b ^u all ! vital lessons we h le>n$ dur+ our era ( love & _s & democracy we c f\nd our new ord]4 ,we want$ to be all ( a piece4 ,& we c\ldn't br+ x (f4 ,because we j ar5't all ( a piece4 ,we want$ fir/ to h no?+ b nice daytime selves1 awfully nice & k9d & ref9$4 ,b x didn't "w4 ,because :e!r we want x or n1 we've got night-"t selves4 ,& ! mo/ spiritual woman ev] born or made has to p]=m h] natural functions j l anybody else4 ,we mu/ always keep 9 l9e ) ?is fact4 ,well1 !n1 we h night-"t selves4 ,& ! night-self is ! v basis ( ! dynamic self4 ,! blood-consci\sness & ! blood-passion is ! v s\rce & orig9 ( u4 ,n t we c /ay at ! s\rce4 ,nor ev5 make a goal ( ! s\rce1 z ,freud does4 ,! bus9ess ( liv+ is to travel away f ! s\rce4 ,b y mu/ />t e s+le day fre% f ! s\rce4 ,y mu/ rise e day afre% out ( ! d>k sea ( ! blood4 ,:5 y g to sleep at night1 y h to say3 ,"h dies ! man ,i am & "k myself to be4 ,& :5 y rise 9 ! morn+ y h to say3 ,"h rises an unkn[n quantity :i* is /ill myself4 ,! self :i* rises nak$ e morn+ out ( ! d>k sleep ( ! passionate1 ho>sely-call+ blood3 ?is is ! unit = ! next society4 ,& ! pol>iz+ ( ! passionate blood 9 ! individual t[>ds life1 & t[>ds lead]1 ?is mu/ be ! dynamic ( ! next civilization4 ,! int5se1 passionate ye>n+ ( ! s\l t[>ds ! s\l ( a /rong]1 great] individual1 & ! passionate blood-belief 9 ! fulfillm5t ( ?is ye>n+ w give m5 ! next motive = life4 ,we h to s9k back into ! d>kness & ! elem5tal consci\sness ( ! blood4 ,& f ?is rise aga94 ,b !re is no ris+ until ! ba? ( d>kness & ext9ction is accompli%$4 ,z social units1 z civiliz$ m5 we h to d :at we d z physical organisms4 ,e day1 ! sun sets f ! sky1 & d>kness falls1 & e day1 :5 ?is happ5s1 ! tide ( life turns 9 u4 ,in/ead ( fl[+ upw>ds & outw>ds t[>ds m5tal consci\sness & activity1 x turns back1 to fl[ d[nw>ds4 ,d[nw>ds t[>ds ! dige/ion processes1 d[nw>ds fur!r to ! great sexual conjunctions1 d[nw>ds to sleep4 ,?is is ! s\l n[ retreat+1 back f ! out] life ( day1 back to ! orig9s4 ,& s1 x /ays its h\r at ! fir/ great s5sual /ations1 ! sol> plexus & ! lumb> ganglion4 ,b ! tide ebbs on1 d[n to ! imm5se1 almo/ inhuman passionate d>kness ( sex1 ! /range & moon-l int5sity ( ! hypoga/ric plexus & ! sacral ganglion1 !n deep1 deep]1 pa/ ! la/ great /ation ( ! d>ke/ psy*e1 d[n to ! e>?'s c5t]4 ,!n we sleep4 ,& ! moon is ! tide-turn]4 ,! moon is ! great cosmic pole :i* calls u back1 back out ( our day-self1 back ?r\gh ! moonlit d>knesses ( ! s5sual planes1 to sleep4 ,x is ! moon t sways ! blood1 & sways u back into ! ext9ction ( ! blood4--,& z ! s\l retreats back into ! sea ( its own d>kness1 ! m9d1 /age by /age1 enjoys ! m5tal consci\sness t belongs to ?is retreat back into ! s5sual deeps2 & !n x goes ext+ui%$4 ,!re is sleep4 ,& s we resolve back t[>ds our elem5tals4 ,we dissolve back1 out ( ! upp] consci\sness1 out ( m9d & sight & spee*1 back1 d[n into ! deep & massive1 sway+ consci\sness ( ! d>k1 liv+ blood4 ,at ! la/ h\r ( sex ,i am no m ?an a p[]ful wave ( m\nt+ blood4 ,:i* seeks to surge & jo9 ) ! answ]+ sea 9 ! o!r individual4 ,:5 ! sea ( individual blood :i* ,i am at t h\r heaves & f9ds its pure contact ) ! sea ( individual blood :i* is ! woman at t h\r1 !n ea* ( u ent]s into ! :ol5ess ( our deep] inf9itude1 our pr(\nd fullness ( be+1 9 ! ocean ( our on5ess & our consci\sness4 ,?is is "u ! spell ( ! moon1 ( sea-born ,aphrodite1 "m & bitt] goddess4 ,= ,i am c>ri$ away f my sunny day-self into ?is o!r trem5d\s self1 :]e k w n save me1 b :]e ,i mu/ obey z ! sea obeys ! tides4 ,yet h[ev] mu* ,i g1 ,i "k t ,i am all ! :ile myself1 9 my go+4 ,?is !n is ! duality ( my day & my night be+3 a duality s bitt] to an adolesc5t4 ,= ! adolesc5t ?9ks ) %ame & t]ror ( 8 night4 ,he w\ld wi% to h no night-self4 ,b x is ,molo*1 & he _c escape x4 ,! tree is born ( its roots & its leaves4 ,& we ( our days & our nights4 ,)\t ! night-consummation we are trees )\t roots4 ,& ! night-consummation takes place "u ! spell ( ! moon4 ,x is "o pure motion ( meet+ & one+4 ,b ev5 s1 x is a circuit1 n a /raight l9e4 ,"o pure motion ( meet+ & one+1 until ! fla% breaks =?1 :5 ! two are "o4 ,& ?is1 ?is fla%+ mom5t ( ! ignition ( two seas ( blood1 ?is is ! mom5t ( begett+4 ,b ! begett+ ( a *ild is less ?an ! begett+ ( ! man & ! woman4 ,woman is begott5 ( man at t mom5t1 into h] great] self3 & man is begott5 ( woman4 ,?is is ! ma94 ,& t :i* _c be fulfill$1 p]fect$ 9 ! two individuals1 t :i* _c take fire into individual life1 ?is trickles d[n & is ! se$ ( a new life1 de/9$ ultimately to fulfill t :i* ! p>5ts c\ld n fulfill4 ,s x is = ev]4 ,sex !n is a pol>ization ( ! individual blood 9 man t[>ds ! individual blood 9 woman4 ,x is m1 also4 ,b 9 its prime functional reality x is ?is4 ,& sex union means br++ into connection ! dynamic poles ( sex 9 man & woman4 ,9 sex we h our basic1 mo/ elem5tal be+4 ,"h we h our mo/ elem5tal contact4 ,x is f ! hypoga/ric plexus & ! sacral ganglion t ! d>k =ces ( manhood & womanhood sp>kle4 ,f ! d>k plexus ( sympa?y run out ! acute1 int5se sympa!tic vibrations direct to ! correspond+ pole4 ,or s x %\ld be1 9 g5u9e passionate love4 ,!re is no m5tal int]f]5ce4 ,!re is ev5 no int]f]5ce ( ! upp] c5t]s4 ,love is suppos$ to be bl9d4 ,?\gh mod]n love we>s /rong spectacles4 ,b love is really bl9d4 ,)\t sight or sc5t or he>+ ! p[]ful magnetic curr5t vibrates f ! hypoga/ric plexus 9 ! female1 vibrat+ on to ! air l "s int5se wireless message4 ,& !re is imm$iate response f ! sacral ganglion 9 "s male4 ,& !n sight & day-consci\sness beg9 to fade4 ,9 ! l[] animals app>5tly any male c receive ! vibration ( any female3 & if ne$ be1 ev5 across long di/ances ( space4 ,b ! high] ! developm5t ! m individual ! attunem5t4 ,e wireless /ation c only receive ^? messages :i* are 9 its own vibration key4 ,s ) sex 9 specializ$ individuals4 ,f ! p[]ful dynamic c5t] ! female s5ds out h] d>k summons1 ! int5se d>k vibration ( sex4 ,& accord+ to h] nature1 %e receives h] responses f ! males4 ,! male ent]s ! magnetic field ( ! female4 ,he vibrates helplessly 9 response4 ,!re is e/abli%$ at once a dynamic circuit1 m or less p[]ful4 ,x w\ld seem z if1 :ile ev] life rema9s free & wild & indep5d5t1 ! sex-circuit1 :ile x la/s1 is omnipot5t4 ,!re is "o electric fl[ :i* encompasses "o male & "o female1 or "o male & "o p>ticul> gr\p ( females all pol>iz$ 9 ! same key ( vibration4 ,?is circuit ( vital sex magnetism1 at fir/ loose & wide1 gradually closes & becomes m p[]ful1 contracts & gr[s m int5se1 until ! two individuals arrive into contact4 ,& ev5 !n ! pulse & fl[ ( attraction & recoil v>ies4 ,9 free wild life1 ea* t\* br+s ab\t an int5se recoil1 & ea* recoil causes an int5se sympa!tic attraction4 ,s goes on ! /range battle ( desire1 until ! consummation is rea*$4 ,x is ! precise p>allel ( :at happ5s 9 a ?und]-/orm1 :5 ! dynamic =ces ( ! moon & ! sun come into collision4 ,! result is ?reefold3 fir/1 ! electric fla%1 !n ! bir? ( pure wat]1 new wat]4 ,s x is 9 sex relation4 ,!re is a ?reefold result4 ,fir/1 ! fla% ( pure s5sation & ( real electricity4 ,!n !re is ! bir? ( an entirely new /ate ( blood 9 ea* p>tn]4 ,& !n !re is ! lib]ation4 ,b ! ma9 ?+1 z 9 ! ?und]-/orm1 is ! absolute r5ewal ( ! atmosph]e3 9 ?is case1 ! blood4 ,x w\ld no d\bt be f\nd t ! electro-dynamic condition ( ! :ite & r$ corpuscles ( ! blood 0 q diff]5t aft] sex union1 & t ! *emical composition ( ! fluid ( ! blood 0 q *ang$4 ,& 9 ?is r5ewal lies ! great magic ( sex4 ,! life ( an individual goes on app>5tly ! same f day to day4 ,b z a matt] ( fact !re is an inevitable electric accumulation 9 ! n]ves & ! blood1 an accumulation :i* weighs !re & broods !re ) intol]able pressure4 ,& ! only possible means ( relief & r5ewal is 9 pure passional int]*ange4 ,!re is & mu/ be a pure passional int]*ange f ! upp] self1 z :5 m5 unite 9 "s great creative or religi\s or con/ructive activity1 or z :5 !y fight ea* o!r to ! dea?4 ,! great goal ( creative or con/ructive activity1 or ( h]oic victory 9 fight1 mu/ always be ! goal ( ! daytime self4 ,b ! v possibility ( su* a goal arises out ( ! vivid dynamism ( ! consci\s blood4 ,& ! blood 9 an individual f9ds its great r5ewal 9 a p]fect$ sex circuit4 ,a p]fect$ sex circuit & a successful sex union4 ,& !re c be no successful sex union unless ! great] hope ( purposive1 con/ructive activity fires ! s\l ( ! man all ! "t3 or ! hope ( passionate1 purposive de/ructive activity3 ! two am\nt religi\sly to ! same ?+1 )9 ! individual4 ,sex z an end 9 itself is a disa/]3 a vice4 ,b an ideal purpose :i* has no roots 9 ! deep sea ( passionate sex is a great] disa/] /ill4 ,& n[ we h only ^! two ?+s3 sex z a fatal goal1 :i* is ! ess5tial !me ( mod]n trag$y3 or ideal purpose z a deadly p>asite4 ,sex passion z a goal 9 itself always leads to trag$y4 ,!re mu/ be ! great purposive inspiration always pres5t4 ,b ! automatic ideal-purpose is n ev5 a trag$y1 x is a sl[ humiliation & /]ility4 ,! great ?+ is to keep ! sexes pure4 ,& by pure we don't mean an ideal /]ile innoc5ce & simil>ity betwe5 boy & girl4 ,we mean pure mal5ess 9 a man1 pure femal5ess 9 a woman4 ,woman is really pol>iz$ d[nw>ds1 t[>ds ! c5t] ( ! e>?4 ,h] deep positivity is 9 ! d[nw>d fl[1 ! moon-pull4 ,& man is pol>iz$ upw>ds1 t[>ds ! sun & ! day's activity4 ,wom5 & m5 are dynamically diff]5t1 9 ev]y?+4 ,ev5 9 ! m9d1 :]e we seem to meet1 we are really utt] /rang]s4 ,we may speak ! same v]bal language1 m5 & wom53 z ,turk & ,g]man might bo? speak ,lat94 ,b :atev] a man says1 8 mean+ is some?+ q diff]5t & *ang$ :5 x passes ?r\gh a woman's e>s4 ,& ?\gh y rev]se ! sexual pol>ity1 ! fl[ betwe5 ! sexes1 /ill ! diff]5ce is ! same4 ,! app>5t mutual und]/&+1 9 companion%ip betwe5 a man & a woman1 is always an illusion1 & always breaks d[n 9 ! end4 ,woman c pol>ize h] consci\sness upw>ds4 ,%e c obta9 a h& ev5 ov] h] sex receptivity4 ,%e c div]t ev5 ! electric spasm ( coition into h] upp] consci\sness3 x 0 ! trick :i* ! snake & ! apple betwe5 !m taught h]4 ,! snake1 ^: consci\sness is only dynamic1 & non-c]ebral4 ,! snake1 :o has no m5tal life1 b only an int5sely vivid dynamic m9d1 he envi$ ! human race its m5tal consci\sness4 ,& he knew1 ?is int5sely wise snake1 t ! "o way to make humanity pay m ?an ! price ( m5tal consci\sness 0 to p]v]t woman into m5tality3 to /imulate h] into ! upp] fl[ ( consci\sness4 ,= ! true pol>ity ( consci\sness 9 woman is d[nw>ds4 ,h] deepe/ consci\sness is 9 ! lo9s & belly4 ,ev5 :5 p]v]t$1 x is s4 ,! great fl[ ( female consci\sness is d[nw>ds1 d[n to ! weight ( ! lo9s & r\nd ! circuit ( ! feet4 ,p]v]t ?is1 & make a false fl[ upw>ds1 to ! brea/ & head1 & y get a race ( intellig5t wom51 delightful companions1 tricky c\rtesans1 clev] pro/itutes1 noble ideali/s1 devot$ fri5ds1 int]e/+ mi/resses1 effici5t work]s1 brilliant manag]s1 wom5 z good z m5 at all ! manly tricks3 & bett]1 because !y are s v headlong once !y g 9 = m5's tricks4 ,b !n1 aft] a :ile1 pop x all goes4 ,! mom5t woman has got man's ideals & tricks drill$ into h]1 ! mom5t %e is compet5t 9 ! manly _w--!re's an end ( x4 ,%e's _h en\gh4 ,%e's _h m ?an en\gh4 ,%e hates ! ?+ %e has embrac$4 ,%e becomes absolutely p]v]se1 & h] "o end is to pro/itute h]self & h] ideals to sex4 ,:i* is h] bus9ess at ! pres5t mom5t4 ,we bruise ! s]p5t's head3 8 flat & bra9less head4 ,b 8 rev5ge ( bruis+ our heel is a good "o4 ,! heels1 ?r\gh :i* ! p[]ful d[nw>d circuit fl[s3 ^! are bruis$ 9 u1 numb$ ) a horrible neurotic numbness4 ,! d>k /rong fl[ t pol>izes u to ! e>?'s c5t] is hamp]$1 brok54 ,we become flimsy fungoid be+s1 ) no roots & no hold 9 ! e>?1 l mu%rooms4 ,! s]p5t has bruis$ our heel till we limp4 ,! lame gods1 ! enslav$ gods1 ! toil+ limp]s moan+ = ! woman4 ,y don't f9d ! sun & moon play+ at pals 9 ! sky4 ,_! beams cross ! great gulf :i* is betwe5 !m4 ,s ) man & woman4 ,!y mu/ /& cle> aga94 ,!y mu/ fight _! way out ( _! self-consci\sness3 !re is no?+ else4 ,or1 r1 ea* mu/ fight ! o!r out ( self-consci\sness4 ,in/ead ( ?is lepr\s =be>ance :i* we are taught to practice 9 our intimate relation%ips1 !re %\ld be ! mo/ int5se op5 antagonism4 ,if y\r wife flirts ) o!r m51 & y don't l x1 say s be=e !m all1 be=e wife & man & all1 say y won't h x4 ,if %e seems to y false1 9 any circum/ance1 tell h] s1 angrily1 furi\sly1 & /op h]4 ,nev] m9d ab\t be+ ju/ifi$4 ,if y hate any?+ %e does1 turn on h] 9 a fury4 ,h>ry h]1 & make h] life a hell1 s long z ! real hot rage is 9 y4 ,don't sil5tly hate h]1 or sil5tly =be>4 ,x is su* a dirty trick1 s mean & ung5]\s4 ,if y feel a burn+ rage1 turn on h] & give x to h]1 & nev] rep5t4 ,x'll probably hurt y mu* m ?an x hurts h]4 ,b nev] rep5t = y\r real hot rages1 :e!r !y're ju/ifiable or n4 ,if y c>e "o sweet /raw = ! woman1 & if %e makes y t y c't be> any m1 give x to h]1 & if y\r he>t weeps te>s ( blood aft]w>ds1 tell h] y're ?ankful %e's got x = once1 & y wi% %e _h x worse4 ,! same ) wives & _! husb&s4 ,if a woman's husb& gets on h] n]ves1 %e %\ld fly at him4 ,if %e ?9ks him too sweet & sm>my ) o!r p1 %e %\ld let him h x to 8 nose1 /raight out4 ,%e %\ld lead him a dog's life1 & nev] swall[ h] bile4 ,) wife or husb&1 y %\ld nev] swall[ y\r bile4 ,x makes y g all wrong inside4 ,always let fly1 too? & nail1 & nev] rep5t1 no matt] :at sort ( a figure y make4 ,we h a vice ( love1 ( s(tness & sweetness & sm>m9ess & intimacy & promiscu\s k9dness & all t sort ( ?+4 ,we ?9k x's s awfully nice ( u to be l t1 9 ourselves4 ,b 9 our wives or our husb&s x gets on our n]ves horribly4 ,yet we ?9k x oughtn't to1 s we swall[ our sple54 ,we %\ldn't4 ,:5 ,jesus said if ?9e eye (f5d !e1 pluck x out1 he 0 beside ! po9t4 ,! eye doesn't really (f5d u4 ,we are r fond ( our own squ9t eye4 ,x only (f5ds ! p]son :o c>es = u4 ,& x's up to ?is p]son to pluck x out4 ,?is holds p>ticul>ly good ( ! love & intimacy vice4 ,x'll nev] (f5d u 9 ourselves4 ,:ile x w be gall & wormwood to our wife or husb&4 ,& x is on ?is promiscu\s love & intimacy & k9dness & sweetness1 all a vice1 t our self-consci\sness really re/s4 ,if we are batt]$ out ( ?is1 we %all be batt]$ out ( self-consci\sness4 ,& s1 m51 drive y\r wives1 beat !m out ( _! self-consci\sness & _! s(t sm>m9ess & good1 lovely idea ( !mselves4 ,absolutely te> _! lovely op9ion ( !mselves to tatt]s1 & make !m look a holy ridicul\s sight 9 _! own eyes4 ,wives1 d ! same to y\r husb&s4 ,b fight = y\r life1 m54 ,fight y\r wife out ( h] own self-consci\s preoccupation ) h]self4 ,batt] h] out ( x till %e's /unn$4 ,drive h] back into h] own true mode4 ,rip all h] nice sup]impos$ mod]n-woman & wond]ful-creature g>b (f h]4 ,r$uce h] once m to a nak$ ,eve1 & s5d ! apple fly+4 ,make h] yield to h] own real unconsci\s self1 & absolutely /amp on ! self t %e's got 9 h] head4 ,drive h] =cibly back1 back into h] own true unconsci\s4 ,& !n y've got a h>d] ?+ /ill to d4 ,/op h] f look+ on y z h] lov]4 ,cure h] ( t1 if y hav5't cur$ h] be=e4 ,put ! fe> ( ! ,"l into h] t way4 ,& make h] "k %e's got to believe 9 y aga91 & 9 ! deep purpose y /& =4 ,b be=e y c d t1 y've got to /& = "s deep purpose4 ,x's no good fak+ "o up4 ,y won't take a woman 91 n really4 ,ev5 :5 %e *ooses to be tak5 91 = prett9ess' sake1 x won't d y any good4 ,b combat h]4 ,combat h] 9 h] sexual p]t9acity1 & 9 h] secret glory or arrogance 9 ! sexual goal4 ,combat h] 9 h] cock-sure belief t %e kn[s & t %e is "r4 ,take x all out ( h]4 ,make h] yield once m to ! male lead]%ip3 if y've got any:]e to lead to4 ,if y hav5't1 be/ leave ! woman alone2 %e has "o goal ( h] own1 anyh[1 & x's bett] ?an y\r nullity & empt9ess4 ,y've got to take a new resolution into y\r s\l1 & break (f f ! old way4 ,y've got to "k t y're a man1 & be+ a man means y mu/ g on alone1 ahead ( ! woman1 to break a way ?r\gh ! old _w into ! new4 ,& y've got to be alone4 ,& y've got to />t (f ahead4 ,& if y don't "k :i* direction to take1 look r\nd = ! man y\r he>t w po9t out to y4 ,& foll[--& nev] look back4 ,because if ,lot's wife1 look+ back1 0 turn$ to a pill> ( salt1 ^! mis]able m51 = ev] look+ back to _! wom5 = guidance1 !y are mis]able pill>s ( half-rott5 te>s4 ,y'll h to fight to make a woman believe 9 y z a real man1 a real pione]4 ,no man is a man unless to 8 woman he is a pione]4 ,y'll h to fight /ill h>d] to make h] yield h] goal to y\rs3 h] night goal to y\r day goal4 ,! moon1 ! planet ( wom51 sways u back f our day-self1 sways u back f our real social unison1 sways u back1 l a retreat+ tide1 9 a friction ( criticism & sep>ation & social dis9tegration4 ,t is woman's inevitable mode1 let h] words be :at !y w4 ,h] goal is ! deep1 s5sual individualism ( secrecy & night-exclusiv5ess1 ho/ile1 ) gu>d$ doors4 ,& y'll h to fight v h>d to make a woman yield h] goal to y\rs1 to make h]1 9 h] own s\l1 believe 9 y\r goal z ! goal beyond1 9 h] goal z ! way by :i* y g4 ,%e'll nev] believe until y h y\r s\l fill$ ) a pr(\nd & absolutely inalt]able purpose1 t w yield to no?+1 lea/ ( all to h]4 ,%e'll nev] believe until1 9 y\r s\l1 y are cut (f & gone ahead1 into ! d>k4 ,%e may ( c\rse already love y1 & love y = y\rself4 ,b ! love w be a ne/ ( scorpions unless x is ov]%ad[$ by a little fe> or awe ( y\r fur!r purpose1 a liv+ belief 9 y\r go+ beyond h]1 into futurity4 ,b :5 once a woman does believe 9 h] man1 9 ! pione] :i* he is1 ! pione] :o goes on ahead beyond h]1 into ! d>kness 9 front1 & :o may be lo/ to h] = ev] 9 ?is d>kness2 :5 once %e kn[s ! pa9 & beauty ( ?is belief1 kn[s t ! lonel9ess ( wait+ & foll[+ is inevitable1 t x mu/ be s2 ah1 !n1 h[ wond]ful x is6 ,h[ wond]ful x is to come back to h]1 at ev5+1 z %e sits half 9 fe> & waits6 ,h[ good x is to come home to h]6 ,h[ good x is !n :5 ! night falls6 ,h[ ri*ly ! ev5+ passes6 ,& !n1 = h]1 at la/1 all t %e has lo/ dur+ ! day to h x aga9 betwe5 h] arms1 all t %e has miss$1 to h x p\r$ out = h]1 & a ri*ness & a wond] %e _h nev] expect$4 ,x is h] h\r1 h] goal4 ,t's :at x is to h a wife4 ,ah1 h[ good x is to come home to y\r wife :5 %e believes 9 y & submits to y\r purpose t is beyond h]4 ,!n1 h[ wond]ful ?is nightfall is6 ,h[ ri* y feel1 tir$1 ) all ! burd5 ( ! day 9 y\r ve9s1 turn+ home6 ,!n y too turn to y\r o!r goal3 to ! spl5dor ( d>kness betwe5 h] arms4 ,& y "k ! goal is !re = y3 h[ ri* t feel+ is4 ,& y feel an unfa?omable gratitude to ! woman :o loves y & believes 9 y\r purpose & receives y into ! magnific5t d>k gratification ( h] embrace4 ,t's :at x is to h a wife4 ,b no man ev] _h a wife unless he s]v$ a great pr$om9ant purpose4 ,o!rwise1 he has a lov]1 a mi/ress4 ,no matt] h[ mu* %e may be m>ri$ to him1 unless 8 days h a liv+ purpose1 con/ructive or de/ructive1 b a purpose beyond h] & all %e /&s =2 unless 8 days h ?is purpose1 & 8 s\l is really committ$ to 8 purpose1 %e w n be a wife1 %e w be only a mi/ress & he w be h] lov]4 ,if ! man has no purpose = 8 days1 !n to ! woman alone rema9s ! goal ( h] nights3 ! great sex goal4 ,& ?is goal is no goal1 b always cries = ! some?+ beyond3 = ! ris+ 9 ! morn+ & ! go+ =? beyond1 ! man disappe>+ ahead into ! di/ance ( futurity1 t :i* 8 purpose /&s =1 ! future4 ,! sex goal ne$s1 absolutely ne$s1 ?is fur!r dep>ture4 ,& if !re be no fur!r dep>ture1 no great way ( belief on ahead3 & if sex is ! />t+ po9t & ! goal z well3 !n sex becomes l ! bottomless pit1 insatiable4 ,x dem&s at la/ ! dep>ture into dea?1 ! only available beyond4 ,l ,c>m51 or l ,anna ,k>59a4 ,:5 sex is ! />t+ po9t & ! return+ po9t bo?1 !n ! only issue is dea?4 ,:i* is pla9 z a pike-/aff 9 ,c>m5 or ,anna ,k>59a1 & is ! !me ( almo/ all mod]n trag$y4 ,our "o hackney$1 hackney$ !me4 ,ec/asies & agonies ( love1 & f9al passion ( dea?4 ,dea? is ! only pure1 beautiful conclusion ( a great passion4 ,lov]s1 pure lov]s %\ld say ,let x be s4 ,& "o is always tempt$ to say ,let x be s4 ,b no1 let x be n s4 ,only ,i say ?is1 let x be a great passion & !n dea?1 r ?an a false or fak$ purpose4 ,tol/oi said ,no to ! passion & ! dea? conclusion4 ,& !n drew into ! dre>y issue ( a false conclusion4 ,8 books 7 bett] ?an 8 life4 ,bett] ! woman's goal1 sex & dea?1 ?an "s false goal ( man's4 ,bett] ,anna ,k>59a & ,vronsky a ?\s& times ?an ,nata%a & t porpoise ( a ,pi]re4 ,?is pretty1 slightly sordid c\ple tri$ s h>d to kid !mselves t ! porpoise ,pi]re 0 puff+ ) great purpose4 ,bett] ,vronsky ?an ,tol/oi himself1 9 my m9d4 ,bett] ,vronsky's f9al /atem5t3 ,z a soldi] ,i am /ill "s good4 ,z a man ,i am a ru9--bett] t ?an ,tol/oi & ,tol/oi-ism & t bea/ly peasant bl\se ! old man wore4 ,bett] passion & dea? ?an any m ( ^! isms4 ,no m ( ! old purpose done up 9 aspic4 ,bett] passion & dea?4 ,b /ill--we might live1 mightn't we8 ,= heav5's sake answ] pla9ly ,no1 if y feel l x4 ,no good temporiz+4 ,,epilogue ,tutti i salmi f9iscono 9 gloria4 ,all ! psalms w9d up ) ! ,gloria4--,z x 0 9 ! beg9n+1 is n[1 & ev] %all be1 ,_w )\t end4 ,am54 ,well1 !n1 ,am54 ,i hope y say ,am56 along ) me1 de> little read]3 if !re be any de> little read] :o has got s f>4 ,if n1 ,i say ,am56 all by myself4--,b don't y ?9k ! %[ is all ov]4 ,i've got ano!r volume up my sleeve1 & aft] a ye> or two ye>s1 :5 ,i h %ak5 x d[n my sleeve1 ,i %all br+ x & lay x at ! foot ( y\r ,lib]ty /atue1 oh ,columbia1 z ,i d ?is "o4 ,i suppose ,columbia means ! ,/ates4--,hail ,columbia6--,i suppose1 etymologically1 x is a ne/ ( turtle-doves1 ,lat4 columba1 a dove4 ,coo me s(tly1 !n1 ,columbia2 don't ro> me l ! suck+ doves ( ! critics ( my ,psy*oanalysis & ! ,unconsci\s4 ,& :5 ,i lay ?is little book at ! foot ( ! ,lib]ty /atue1 t brawny lady is n to look d[n h] nose & bawl3 ,d y see any gre5 9 my eye8 ,( c\rse ,i don't1 de> lady4 ,i only see ! reflection ( t tor*--or is x a c>rot8--:i* y are hold+ up to light ! way into ,new ,york h>bor4 ,well1 _m an ass has /ray$ across ! uneasy paddock ( ! ,atlantic1 to nibble y\r c>rot1 de> lady4 ,& ,i mu/ say1 y c keep on slic+ (f nice little c>rot-slices ( gu9eas & d\bloons = an extraord9>ily inexhau/ible long "t4 ,& innum]able asses c collect !mselves nice little heaps ( gold5 c>rot-slices1 & !n lift up _! heads & brag ov] !m ) fairly pan-demoniac yells ( gratification4 ,( c\rse ,i don't see any gre5 9 y\r eye1 de> ,lib]tas1 unless x is ! smalle/ gl9t f ! c>rot-tips4 ,! gleam 9 y\r eye is gold51 oh ,columbia6 ,nev]!less1 & 9 spite ( all ?is1 up trots ?is "h little ass & makes y a nice pres5t ( ?is pretty book4 ,y ne$n't sniff1 & glance at y\r c>rot-sceptre1 lady ,lib]ty4 ,y ne$n't ?r[ d[n ! ?9ne/ c>rot-p>+ y c p>e (f1 & !n say3 ,:y %\ld ,i pay = ?is tripe1 ?is wordy mass ( r revolt+ nons5se6 ,y c't pay = x1 d>l+4 ,if ,i didn't make y a pres5t ( x y c\ld nev] buy x4 ,s don't %ake y\r c>rot-sceptre & feel sup]cili\s4 ,"h's a gift = y1 ,missis4 ,y c look 9 its m\?1 too4 ,m9d x doesn't bite y4--,no1 y ne$n't bo!r to put y\r c>rot beh9d y\r back1 nobody wants to snat* x4 ,h[ d y d1 ,columbia6 ,look1 ,i br\ght y a posy3 ?is nice little posy ( words & wisdom :i* ,i made = y 9 ! woods ( ,eb]/e9burg1 on ! bord]s ( ! ,black ,=e/1 ne> ,bad5 ,bad51 9 ,g]many1 9 ?is summ] ( scanty grace b nice wea!r4 ,i made x specially = y--,:itman1 = :om ,i h an imm5se reg>d1 says ,^! ,/ates4 ,i suppose ,i ought to say3 ,^? ,/ates4 ,if ! publi%] w\ld let me1 ,i'd d$icate ?is book to y1 to ,^? ,/ates4 ,because ,i wrote ?is book entirely = y1 ,columbia4 ,y may n take x z a complim5t4 ,y may ev5 smell a t9y bit ( ,s*w>zwald sap 9 x1 & be f9ally disgu/$4 ,i admit t trees ought to ?9k twice be=e !y fl\ri% 9 su* a disgrac$ place z ! ,fa!rl&4 ,*i va coi zoppi1 all' anno zoppica4 ,b y've n only to ga!r ye rosebuds :ile ye may1 b :]e ye may4 ,& s1 z ,i said be=e1 ! ,black ,=e/1 etc4 ,i "k1 ,columbia1 de> ,lib]tas1 y'll take my posy & put y\r c>rot aside = a m9ute1 & smile1 & say3 ,i'm sure1 ,mr4 ,lawr5ce1 x is a long "t s9ce ,i _h su* a p]fectly beautiful bun* ( ideas br\ght me4 ,& ,i %all blu% & look %eepi% & say3 ,s glad y ?9k s4 ,i believe y'll f9d !y'll keep fre% q a long "t1 if y put !m 9 wat]4 ,:]eupon y1 ,columbia1 ) real ,am]ican gallantry3 ,oh1 !y'll keep = ev]1 ,mr4 ,lawr5ce4 ,!y c\ldn't be s cruel z to g & die1 su* p]fectly lovely-color$ ideas4 ,lovely6 ,?ank y ev]1 ev] s mu*4 ,j ?9k ( x1 ,columbia1 h[ pleas$ we %all be ) "o ano!r3 & h[ mu* nic] x w be ?an if y snort$ ,high-falut9' ,nons5se--or ,wordy mass ( repulsive rubbi%4 ,:5 !y 7 busy mak+ ,italy1 & 7 j go+ to put x 9 ! ov5 to bake3 t is1 :5 ,g>ibaldi & ,vittorio ,emmanuele _h won _! victories at ,cas]ta1 ,naples prep>$ to give !m a triumphant entry4 ,s !re sat ! little k+ 9 8 c>riage3 he _h %ort legs & huge swagg] mu/a*es & a v big bump ( philoprog5iture4 ,! t[n 0 all done up1 9 spite ( ! ra94 ,& d[n ei!r side ( ! wide /reet 7 ha/y /atues ( l>ge1 well-fle%$ ladies1 ea* "o hold+ up a =e-f+]4 ,we don't "k :at ! k+ ?\ght4 ,b ! /aff held _! brea?4 ,! k+'s appetite = /rapp+ ladies 0 m ?an notori\s1 & naturally x look$ z if ,naples _h done x on purpose4 ,z a matt] ( fact1 ! =e-f+] meant ,italia ,una6 ,italy %all be "o4 ,ask ,don ,/urzo4 ,n[ y see h[ risky /atues are4 ,h[ _m nice little asses & poets trot ov] ! ,atlantic & cat* sight ( ,lib]ty hold+ up ?is c>rot ( desire at arm's l5g?1 & fairly he> h] say1 z "o does to "o's pug dog1 ) a lump ( sug>3 ,beg6 ,beg6--& ,jump6 ,jump1 !n6 ,& ea* little ass & poodle beg9s to beg & to jump1 & !re's a r>e game r\nd ab\t ,lib]ty1 zap1 zap1 zapp]ty-zap6 ,d l[] ! c>rot1 g5tle ,lib]ty1 & let u talk nicely & s5sibly4 ,i don't l y z a c>otaia1 preci\s4 ,talk+ ab\t ! moon1 x is ?rill+ to read ! ann\ncem5ts ( ,pr(essor ,pick]+ ( ,h>v>d1 t x's almo/ a dead c]t t !re's life on our satellite4 ,x is almo/ z c]ta9 t !re's life on ! moon z x is c]ta9 !re is life on ,m>s4 ,! pr(essor bases 8 ass]tions on photographs--hundr$s ( photographs--( a crat] ) a circumf]5ce ( ?irty-sev5 miles4 ,i'm n satisfi$4 ,i dem& to "k ! y>ds1 feet & in*es4 ,y don't come x ov] me ) ! trit5ess ( ^! r\nd numb]s4 ,hundr$s ( photographic reproductions h prov$ irrefutably ! spr++ up at dawn1 ) an unbelievable rapidity1 ( va/ fields ( foliage :i* come into blossom j z rapidly 7sic67 & :i* disappe> 9 a maximum p]iod ( elev5 days4--,aga9 ,i'm n satisfi$4 ,i want to "k if !y're cabbages1 cress1 mu/>d1 or m>igolds or d&elions or daisies4 ,fields ( foliage1 m>k y4 ,& blossom6 ,come n[1 if y c get s f>1 ,pr(essor ,pick]+1 y might h a %rewd guess z to :e!r ! blossoms are good to eat1 or if !y're purely = ornam5t4 ,i am only wait+ at la/ = an a]oplane to l& on "o ( ^! fields ( foliage & f9d a donkey graz+ peacefully4 ,hee-haw6 ,! plates moreov] %[ t great blizz>ds1 sn[-/orms1 & volcanic eruptions are also frequ5t4 ,s no d\bt ! blossoms are edelweiss4 ,we f9d1 says ! pr(essor1 a liv+ _w at our v doors :]e life 9 "s respects resembles t ( ,m>s4 ,all ,i c say is3 ,pray come 91 ,mr4 ,moony4 ,& h[ is y\r c\s9 ,signor ,m>tian8 ,n[ ,i'm sure ,pr(essor ,pick]+'s photographs & obs]vations are really wond]ful4 ,b 8 explanations6 ,come n[1 ,columbia1 :]e is y\r ,high-falut9' ,nons5se trumpet8 ,va/ fields ( foliage :i* spr+ up at dawn 76667 & come into blossom j z quickly 766667 are r too fl[]y ev5 = my fl[]y s\l4 ,b !re1 tru? is /rang] ?an fiction4 ,i'll bet my moon aga9/ ! ,pr(essor's1 anyh[4 ,s long1 ,columbia4 ,a riv]d]ci4