,frontispiece3 ,=bes ,rob9son           
,,lett]s ,,to ,,8 ,,fri5ds   ,,by       
,,=bes ,,rob9son     ,,late ,,fell[ ,,( 
,,*ri/',s ,,college1 ,,cambridge   ,,&  
,,exam9+ ,,*apla9 ,,to ,,! ,,bi%op ,,(  
,,s\?well      ,,edit$ ,,) ,,an         
,,introductory ,,notice   ,,by ,,8      
,,bro!r ,,*>les    ,,second ,,edition   
,,pr9t$ ,,= ,,private ,,circulation ,,by
  ,,spottiswoode  ,,co4 ,,ltd41         
,,london4 #aijd     ,,note   ,?is volume
 has be5 pr9t$ = private circulation at 
! reque/ ( _m ( ,=bes ,rob9son's p]sonal
 fri5ds4  ,! fir/ edition hav+ be5      
exhau/$1 a second has be5 prep>$1 9 :i* 
are includ$ six additional lett]s 7cf4  
pp4 #aea1 #aed1 #afd1 #aff1 #afg1 #ahb74
  ,copies ( ?is volume w be suppli$     
7price #bs4 #f;d4 po/ free7 to all :o   
desire to obta9 !m1 on application to ! 
,rev4 ,canon ,*>les ,h4 ,rob9son1 ,hill 
,br[1 ,wok+4  ,! volume ( ,college &    
,ord9ation ,addresses :i* w be publi%$  
by ,longmans 9 ab\t two mon?s' "t c be  
ord]$ ?r\gh any booksell]4  ,octob]     

#aijd4     ,transcrib]'s note3 ,! book  
conta9s a numb] ( %ort ,greek phrases1  
all ( :i* h be5 translit]at$ accord+ to 
,project ,gut5b]g's ,greek ,h[-,to4  ,a 
m detail$ translit]ation note foll[s ea*
 p>agraph or article :]e ! ,greek phrase
 occurs4  ,transcrib]'s note3 ,page     
numb]s 9 ?is book are indicat$ by numb]s
 enclos$ 9 curly braces1 e4g4 #ii4  ,!y 
h be5 locat$ :]e page breaks occurr$ 9 !
 orig9al book1 9 accordance ) ,project  
,gut5b]g's ,,faq-,v-#ii4  ,= its ,index1
 a page numb] has be5 plac$ only at !   
/>t ( t section4  ,9 ! ,,html v]sion (  
?is book1 page numb]s are plac$ 9 ! left
 m>g94     ,,cont5ts   ,,introductory   
,,sket*  ,,*apt]4                       
,,page     ,i4 ,,s*ooldays 4 4 4 4 4 4 4
 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4   #a   ,,ii4     
,,life ,,z ,,an ,,und]graduate ,,at     
,,cambridge  4 4 4 4  #aj  ,,iii4 ,,"w  
,,at ,,cambridge  4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 
4 4 4  #ba   ,,iv4 ,,! ,,la/ ,,few      
,,mon?s  4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4  #cb 
,v4 ,,two ,,appreciations  4 4 4 4 4 4 4

 4 4 4 4 4 4 4  #cf  ,,lett]s ,,to ,,8  
,,fri5ds   4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4  
#ed  ,,app5dix 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4
 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 #aic  ,,index  4 4 4 
4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 
#aii     ,,illu/rations  ,=bes ,rob9son 
4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 ,frontispiece  ,=bes
 ,rob9son 7#ahhj7  ,=bes ,rob9son       
7#ahhg7     #a  ,,introductory ,,sket*  
,,*apt] ,i  ,,s*ooldays  ,=bes ,rob9son 
0 born on ,novemb] #ac1 #ahfg1 9 !      
vic>age ( ,keyn%am1 a village 9 ,som]set
 ly+ betwe5 ,bri/ol & ,ba?4  ,he 0 !    
elev5? *ild 9 a family ( ?irte51 ( :om  
eight 7 sons & five daught]s4  ,8 p>5ts 
7 bo? f ! nor? ( ,irel&1 & 8 ,*ri/ian "n
 _h be5 8 "m's surname4  ,! motto atta*$
 to 8 fa!r's family cre/ 0 ',non nobis  
solum s$ toti mundo nati4' ,be=e he 0   
?ree ye>s old 8 fa!r mov$ to ,liv]pool &
 became incumb5t ( ,/4 ,augu/9e's1      
,ev]ton4  ,he di$ be=e ,=bes 0 ?irte51 b
 ! memory ( 8 holy life rema9$ z an     
abid+ influ5ce4  ,?us he writes ( him 9 
#aijc3  ',! old memories =m a k9d (     

sacr$ hi/ory urg+ me onw>ds & upw>ds4   
,i l to feel t ,i reap ! pray]s &       
?anksgiv+s ( my fa!r1 t ,god blesses !  
son ( su* a fa!r4  ,! same "w1 ! same   
,god1 ! same promises1 ! same hope1 !   
same sure & c]ta9 rew>d4  ,i ?ank ,god &
 take c\rage4'  #b ,z a boy he 0 nev]   
robu/ & might ev5 be reg>d$ z delicate4 
,aft] att5d+ "o or two private s*ools he
 0 ent]$1 at ! age ( twelve1 at         
,liv]pool ,college1 :]e five ( 8 bro!rs 
_h be54  ,:5 8 fa!r di$ 9 ,febru>y      
#ahha1 ! h\se 9 ,liv]pool 0 giv5 up &   
,=bes 0 s5t to ,rossall4  ,he cont9u$ at
 ,rossall till he ent]$ ,*ri/'s         
,college1 ,cambridge1 9 #ahhg4  ,!      
photograph :i* is ins]t$ on p4 #d 0 tak5
 j be=e he w5t to ,rossall4  ,he 0 !n a 
%y retir+ boy1 fond] ( read+ ?an (      
a?letic ex]cise4  ,"o :o 0 9 ! same h\se
 ) him at ,rossall1 & :o is n[ vic> ( a 
p>i% 9 ,lanca%ire1 writes3  ',8 life at 
,rossall 0 n an outw>dly ev5tful "o4  ,n
 be+ a?letic1 he liv$ r ap>t f & above !
 re/ ( u 9 a _w ( books4  ,! walls ( 8  

/udy us$ to be almo/ cov]$ ) extracts1  
l>gely1 ,i ?9k1 f ! poets1 copi$ on to  
scraps ( pap] & p9n$ up all r\nd1 p>tly 
to be le>nt by he>t & p>tly1 ,i ?9k1 =  
companion%ip4  ,he 0 mu* old] ?an ! re/ 
( u ^: ye>s 7 ! same z 84  ,8 s*ool life
 0 a "t ( retirem5t & prep>ation = !    
wid] life among m5 at ,cambridge4 ,?\gh 
my memory ( him z a quiet /udi\s memb] (
 ! h\se1 m (t5 alone ?an n1 & q happy to
 be alone s long z 8 books 7 ne> him1 is
 v di/9ct1 ,i c recall almo/ no?+ ( !   
nature ( incid5t or ab\t :i* "o c       
write4'  ,! pres5t headma/] (           
,m>lbor\gh1 :o 0 #c also a contempor>y  
at ,rossall1 writes 9 a lett] to !      
editor ( ?is memoir3  ',y\r bro!r 0 a   
great recluse at ,rossall1 & ,i mu* d\bt
 :e!r y w\ld get any great am\nt (      
in=mation ab\t him f ,rossallians4  ,i  
knew him because we 7 bo? int]e/$ 9     
read+1 & ,i ow$ a good deal to 8        
influ5ce4 4 4 4  ,y w f9d1 ,i believe1 t
 8 ,cambridge days %[ him 9 a f> cle>]  
light ?an 8 s*ool days4  ,i "k t :5 ,i  

saw him at ,cambridge ,i realis$ )      
pleasure t he 0 a welcom$ visitor 9 !   
rooms ( v v>i\s types ( und]graduates1  
:]eas 8 circle at s*ool _h be5 v limit$1
 & mo/ boys no d\bt reg>d$ him z q out (
 x4 ,?is is ( c\rse to "s ext5t ! fault 
( ! a?letic /&>ds ( our s*ools1 b ,i    
also ?9k t he himself develop$ a great  
deal socially at ,cambridge4'  ,a sket* 
( ,=bes1 by ,dr4 ,james1 writt5 = ',!   
,rossallian1' w be f\nd at ! close ( ?is
 *apt]4  ,dr4 ,tancock1 :o succe$$ ,dr4 
,james z headma/] ( ,rossall a ye> be=e 
,=bes left1 writes3  ',:5 ,i 0 appo9t$  
to ,rossall 9 #ahhf1 ,i f\nd him a memb]
 ( ! upp] six? =m4 4 4 4  ,he always    
gave me ! impression ( an e>ne/-m9d$1   
h>d-work+ boy1 ) a deep s5se ( duty4  ,x
 0 r sugge/$ to my m9d sometimes1       
possibly errone\sly1 t z a y\ng] boy he 
_h felt himself misund]/ood1 & a c]ta9  
res]ve 0 ! consequ5ce1 n p]haps         
unnaturally4  ,he 0 already mu* int]e/$ 
9 !ological "w4 4 4 4  ,x #d has be5 a  
great pleasure to me 9 lat] ye>s to he> 

( 8 excell5t "w at ,*ri/'s & ! /rong    
influ5ce he ex]t$ ov] und]graduates4  ,x
 0 q ! natural result ( ! qualities ,i  
saw 9 him at s*ool1 provid$ once 8      
res]ve c\ld be brok54'  ,illu/ration3   
,=bes ,rob9son 7#ahhj7  ,?\gh ( ,iri%   
desc5t he only once visit$ ,irel&4  ,?is
 0 dur+ 8 summ] holidays 9 #ahhd1 :5 he 
travell$ r\nd a good "p ( ! nor? & we/  
coa/s4  ,! only adv5ture ( special      
int]e/ 0 8 un9t5d$ voyage across ! ,bay 
( ,donegal1 :i* 0 ne>ly att5d$ ) fatal  
consequ5ces4  ,he & 8 bro!r1 ! editor ( 
?is memoir1 />t$ 9 a small op5 sail+    
boat f ! h>b\r ( ,killybegs1 int5d+ to  
return )9 a few m9utes2 b no soon] _h !y
 got outside ! h>b\r ?an !y 7 caught 9 a
 squall1 :i* rapidly develop$ into a    
gale1 & made x impossible to turn ! boat
 or head x = ! %ore1 ow+ to ! imm$iate  
risk ( swamp+4  ,! only means ( secur+  
mom5t>y safety 0 to head ! boat out into
 ! ,atlantic1 b z ! ne>e/ l& 9 ?is      
direction 0 ! coa/ ( ,am]ica1 ! prospect
 0 f> f *e]ful4  ,ev5tually ! boat 0    

turn$ a few po9ts fur!r s\?1 9 !        
direction ( l& :i* c\ld n be se51 b :i* 
0 kn[n to lie ab\t fifte5 miles away on 
! o!r side ( ! ,bay ( ,donegal4  ,aft]  
hav+ be5 ne>ly swamp$ _m times1 & runn+ 
) b>e poles1 ow+ to ! viol5ce ( ! gale1 
! boat arriv$ at l5g? at ,bundoran4  ,z 
?is place 0 di/ant "s sixty miles f     
,killybegs1 #e x seem$ we>isome to      
return by l&1 & a return by sea 0 out ( 
! "q4 ,accord+ly1 ,=bes & ! writ]1 dr5*$
 to ! sk9 & )\t a ve/ige ( baggage1 />t$
 =?) on a walk+ t\r along ! we/ coa/ (  
,irel&1 arriv+ at ,connem>a 9 ! c\rse ( 
! foll[+ week4  ,=bes's dislike ( sea   
voyages 9 aft] ye>s may 9 "p be trac$ to
 ?is exp]i5ce4  ,dur+ ! great] "p ( !   
voyage across ,donegal ,bay he 0        
helpless f sea-sickness2 8 companion 0  
busily occupi$ 9 bal+ out ! wat] to     
prev5t ! boat f s9k+4  ,! lett]s :i*    
,=bes wrote f s*ool to memb]s ( 8 family
 are a curi\s mixture ( hum\r &         
religion4  ,x 0 8 ke5 s5se ( hum\r :i*  
pres]v$ him f becom+ morbid4  ,x 0 ?is  

same s5se ( hum\r :i* help$ to attract  
to him at ! ,univ]sity m5 on :om he     
ev5tually ex]cis$ a /rong religi\s      
influ5ce1 b :om religi\s conv]sation    
w\ld h inevitably repell$4  ,9 two      
lett]s writt5 to "o ( 8 si/]s f ,rossall
 9 #ahhf1 ! foll[+ s5t5ces occur4  ,!y  
%[ t he f\nd "t :ile at s*ool = a       
consid]able am\nt ( read+ :i* 0 n       
connect$ ) 8 s*ool "w3  ',y ask me to   
tell y :at books ,i h be5 read+4  ,among
 o!rs1 ,longfell['s ,hiawa?a &          
,evangel9e1 bo? exquisite2 cont9ually ! 
,9 ,memoriam1 ,idylls ( ! ,k+2 "s (     
,bu*anan1 :i* ,i sc>cely recomm5d2 ,m4  
,arnold1 :i* ,i d mo/ he>tily recomm5d2 
& ,walt ,:itman1 ! #f great poet (      
democracy2 ,confessions ( an ,engli%    
,opium ,eat]1 by ,de ,qu9cey1 good 9 its
 way2 ,g4 ,eliot & ,mrs4 ,br[n+1 c41 c4 
,p]haps y w\ld l "s ( ^?4  ,i read ,*as4
 ,k+sley's ,&rom$a--x is really a       
spl5did rhy?mical piece ( hexamet]--& "s
 ( 8 ,life4  ,i r l pieces ( 8 poetry1 &
 ! "o y s5t me ,i lik$4  ',my only      

bir?day advice is3 ,read m ,longfell[4  
,if y h any writ]s1 s5d me ^w1 ?\gh ,i  
am sorry to say ,i c appreciate b few4 4
 4 4'  ,ano!r lett]1 writt5 ! same ye>1 
is entirely compos$ ( selections f      
,t5nyson's ',pr9cess1' :i*1 he says1 ',i
 h j read ?r\gh4'  ,he ends1 ',m9d y s5d
 me glean+s ( ,milton if y h "t4'  ,9   
ano!r1 ',i h be5 read+ a fair am\nt (   
,c>lyle at pres5t1 z we _h an essay on  
,! influ5ce ( individuals on great      
movem5ts ( religion1 politics1 & ?\ght1 
= :i* ,i read especially ,c>lyle's      
,h]oes & ,h]o ,wor%ip1 & ,em]son's      
,repres5tative ,m51 & = :i*1 ,i am glad 
to say1 ,i n only got full m>ks1 b !    
highe/ maximum possible4  ,h read       
,t5nyson's ,que5 ,m>y4  ,am read+       
,h>old4  ,i lik$ ! fir/ v mu*1 b ! latt]
 a great deal m4  ,! sc5e :]e ,h>old    
debates ab\t tell+ a lie or ! tru? is v 
f9e4 4 4 4'  ,! re/ ( ! lett] is compos$
 ( quotations f ',h>old4'  ,9 o!r lett]s
 he says1 ',get ,em]son's ,essays = me4'
  ',i s5d y ,aurora ,leigh4 4 4 4'  ,he 

left ,rossall 9 ! summ] ( #ahhg1 :5 he  
#g 0 ne>ly tw5ty1 & ent]$ ,*ri/'s       
,college1 ,cambridge1 9 ! foll[+        
,octob]4  ,8 bro!r ,armitage1 n[ ,dean (
 ,we/m9/]1 0 !n fell[ & dean ( ,*ri/'s  
,college1 & ,=bes occupi$ ! attic rooms 
ov] 84   ,! foll[+ notice by ,dr4       
,james1 n[ headma/] ( ,rugby & =m]ly    
headma/] ( ,rossall1 appe>$ 9 ',!       
,rossallian' & is repr9t$ "h at 8       
sugge/ion3  ',=bes ,rob9son came to     
,rossall 9 #ahha4  ,he 0 a memb] ( a v  
able family2 an eld] bro!r is ,dean (   
,we/m9/]2 ano!r is ,*>les ,h4 ,rob9son1 
,editorial ,secret>y ( ! ,s4,p4,g4 &    
translator ( "p ( ! ,gospels into       
,hausa4  ,he 0 a delicate boy1 & liv$ = 
a ye> or two 9 ! headma/]'s private     
h\se1 f :i* he pass$ on into ,mr4       
,batson's4  ,r %y & retir+ 9            
disposition1 & unable to take mu* "p 9  
games1 he 0 n conspicu\s 9 ! ,s*ool     
until he rea*$ ! ,six?1 & did n make    
fri5ds z easily z "s boys d4  ,b ! few  
:o knew him well recognis$ 9 him a      

deeply affectionate if v s5sitive       
nature1 & saw h[ ! religi\s side ( x1   
aft]w>ds s conspicu\s1 0 ev5 !n         
develop+4  ,8 p[]s z a classical s*ol>1 
?\gh consid]able1 7 n exceptional2 !y   
enabl$ him to rea* ! ,upp] ,six?1 b n to
 w9 a s*ol>%ip at 8 entrance to !       
univ]sity1 & ,i well rememb] advis+ him 
to make !ology1 to :i* 8 incl9ations 7  
already draw+ him1 8 special subject at 
,cambridge4  ,to ?is ,i knew he w\ld br+
 n only int]e/ b p[] ( reason+ & lit]>y 
culture4 ,he _h won ! ,div9ity ,prize ( 
! ,s*ool 9 #ahhe & aga9 9 #ahhf1 & !    
,engli% ,essay ,prize 7= an essay on ,! 
relative value ( art1 sci5ce1 &         
lit]ature 9 education7 9 ! latt] ye>4   
#h  ',he w5t up to ,*ri/'s1 ,cambridge1 
9 #ahhg1 & at once address$ himself to 8
 fav\rite /udy4  ,:at /rides he 0 mak+ 9
 x 7 app>5t at once f ! extraord9>y     
s]ies ( di/9ctions :i* he won--a        
s*ol>%ip at ! college1 ! ,c>us ,greek   
,te/am5t ,prize = und]graduates1 !      
,j]emie ,septuag9t ,prize1 a fir/ class 

9 ! ,!ological ,tripos1 ! ,burney       
,!ological ,essay ,prize1 ! ,c>us ,prize
 = ,ba*elors1 ! ,crosse ,div9ity        
,s*ol>%ip1 & ! ,hulsean ,prize all fell 
to him betwe5 #ahhh & #ahic1 & f9ally 9 
#ahif he 0 elect$ to a ,fell[%ip at     
,*ri/'s1 :]e he _h already be5          
,!ological ,lectur] = a ye>4  ',8 essay 
:i* ga9$ ! ,burney ,prize 9 #ahia 0 on  
,! ,au?ority ( our ,"l 9 its be>+ ^u !  
,int]pretation ( ! ,old ,te/am5t4  ,he  
pr9t$ x 9 #ahic "u ! title ( ,!         
,self-limitation ( ! ,^w ( ,god z       
manife/$ 9 ! ,inc>nation4 ,) *>act]i/ic 
mode/y he says 9 8 preface3 ,i c claim b
 little ( ! "w z /rictly orig9al4  ,?is 
is f> too deprecatory2 ! essay is a     
s+ul>ly lucid /atem5t & attempt$        
solution ( a mo/ difficult !ological    
problem1 9 :i* all :o believe 9 ! ,deity
 ( ,*ri/ mu/ be deeply int]e/$1 & ,i c  
be> p]sonal te/imony to its helpfulness4
  ,x 0 only ! o!r day t ,i 0 read+ x    
afre%1 = ,i _h j recov]$ x1 :5 ,i fe>$ t
 ! copy he gave me 0 hopelessly lo/ &   

irreplaceable1 f ,s\? ,africa1 :]e a    
fri5d to :om ,i _h l5t x _h tak5 x among
 8 books4  ,among ,=bes ,rob9son's lat] 
activities 7 a "w on ! ,coptic          
,apocryphal ,gospels 7! subject1 he     
wrote to me1 0 s te*nical & un9t]e/+ t  
,i did n s5d y a copy71 & ! edit+ ( a   
,sahidic fragm5t ( ! ,gospels4  ',b 8   
value to ,cambridge & to 8 college lay  
ma9ly 9 ! influ5ce = good :i* he 0 able 
to ex]t ov] und]graduates4 ,aga9 & aga9 
,i h be5 told #i !re h[ great ?is 02 & x
 0 no little a*ievem5t = "o ^: v mode/y 
& humble-m9d$ness mu/ h made x          
difficult4  ,b 8 he>t 0 9 ! "w1 & 9 !   
ma9ta9+ ( ,*ri/ian influ5ces 9 univ]sity
 life4  ,x is h>d to ov]-e/imate ! loss 
:i* 8 dea? at s e>ly an age implies     
alike to /ud5ts ( !ology & to ^? among  
:om he 0 m imm$iately work+4  ,b he has 
left u ! example ( a simple & devot$    
life & ! consecration ( great & gr[+    
p[]s to 8 ,ma/]'s s]vice4  ,god buries  
,8 workm51 b c>ries on ,8 "w4'     #aj  
,,*apt] ,,ii  ,,life ,,z ,,an           

,,und]graduate ,,at ,,cambridge  ,f ?is 
po9t =w>d ! sket* ( ,=bes's life c be   
giv5 almo/ entirely 9 ! words ( ^? :o   
knew him at ,cambridge4  ,a writ] 9 !   
,*ri/'s ,college ,magaz9e = ! ,l5t t]m  
#aijd says3 ',_m old] fri5ds w always   
?9k ( him 9 8 attic rooms1 :]e he began 
to make 8 m>k 9 our ,college society ^u 
8 fir/ com+ up4  ,only two o!r ,fre%m5  
_h rooms 9 ,college1 & ,rob9son's rooms 
became at once a c5tre = 8 ye>1 & lat] a
 meet+-place :]e ! gulfs betwe5 high] & 
l[] ye>s 7 bridg$ ov]4  ,a little old]  
?an mo/ m5 ( 8 ye>1 he 0 consid]ably _! 
s5ior 9 "* & 9 intellect4  ,he %[$ at   
once ! qualities :i* he reta9$ to su* a 
unique degree 9 lat] ye>s--an           
inexhau/ible p[] ( mak+ fri5ds ) all    
sorts & conditions ( m51 & an insatiable
 int]e/ 9 all sides ( ,college life2 !  
mo/ s]i\s ?+s 7 f ! fir/ n beyond 8     
compreh5sion1 & ! mo/ trivial did n     
appe> to bore him1 ev5 :5 _! fre%ness _h
 worn (f4  ,8 love ( books 0 ca?olic2 he
 possess$ a great _m & read !m #aa to 8 

fri5ds4  ,at ! ,college ,debate1 ( :i*  
he became secret>y & presid5t 9 8 second
 ye>1 he 0 a frequ5t & flu5t speak]1 ) a
 rem>kable comm& ( language1 ?\gh       
sometimes 8 eloqu5ce 0 m ?an half       
burlesque4  ,8 p[]s ( ?\ght & real /r5g?
 9 argum5t 7 m (t5 display$ 9 private   
discussions1 :]e irony & hum\r h>dly    
veil$ ! dep? ( e>ne/ness bel[4'         
,illu/ration3 ,=bes ,rob9son 7#ahhg7    
,dur+ 8 fir/ ?ree ye>s at ,cambridge he 
read = ! ,!ological ,tripos4  ,9 ! c\rse
 ( 8 fir/ ye> he 0 elect$ a s*ol> ( 8   
,college4  ,at ! beg9n+ ( 8 second ye>  
he won 8 fir/ ,univ]sity di/9ction1 !   
,c>us prize = ! ,greek ,te/am5t4  ,! o!r
 ,univ]sity prizes :i* he ga9$ 7 !      
,j]emie prize = ! ,septuag9t 9 #ahhi1 ! 
,burney prize essay 9 #ahia1 ! ,c>us    
prize = ,ba*elors1 ! ,hulsean prize     
essay1 & ! ,crosse ,univ]sity ,s*ol>%ip 
9 #ahib4  ,he took 8 degree 9 ! fir/    
class ( ! ,!ological ,tripos 9 #ahij1 & 
obta9$ a second class 9 ! ,moral ,sci5ce
 ,tripos ( #ahia4  ,! ye> :i* he sp5t 9 

read+ moral sci5ce he aft]w>ds look$    
back ^u z "o ( ! mo/ useful 9 8 life4   
,aft] he _h be5 read+ = "s "t 9 view (  
?is ,tripos1 he wrote to a fri5d3 ',i h 
come to ! conclusion t ,i "k no?+1 & am 
an awful fool into ! b>ga94 4 4 4  ,!   
subject is s utt]ly fre% to me1 s       
completely unlike !ology ( any sort at  
,cambridge1 t ,i f9d x h>d to d any?+ at
 x4  ,9 fact1 ,i *uck$ x up = ab\t t5   
days 9 ! middle ( ! t]m1 & det]m9$ to h 
no?+ m to #ab d ) x2 b aft] t re/ ,i    
?\ght bett] & r5ew$ ! /udy4  ,x is an   
excell5t tra9+ = ! m9d4  ,i nev]        
di/9ctly rememb] ?9k+ at all be=e ?is   
t]m4'  ,hav+ le>nt to ?9k himself1 8    
desire 0 to help o!rs by tea*+ !m to    
?9k4  ,"o :o came "u 8 influ5ce sev]al  
ye>s lat] says ( him3 ',i owe s mu* to  
him 9 e way4  ,above ev]y?+ else he     
taught me to ?9k4  ,i rememb] s well !  
fir/ "t ,i w5t to him ) a difficulty4   
,i expect$ him to solve x = me1 in/ead (
 :i*1 at ! end ( half an h\r1 ,i /ill   
f\nd t ,i _h to ?9k x out = myself4  ,x 

0 a revelation to me1 & has help$ me 9  
my deal+s ) m54'  ,! same fri5d writes3 
',i may m5tion a conv]sation ,i once _h 
) him4  ,he _h 9 front ( him ! answ]s to
 "s ,!ological ,tripos pap]s4  ,he took 
up two ( !m & comp>$ ! answ]s giv5 to ! 
same "q by ! two m54  ,! answ] requir$ 0
 a translation ( a passage ( ,greek )   
notes4 ,&1 z f> z ,i c rememb]1 8 words 
7 ^!3 ,n[1 ,w----1 ?is man has pass$ ov]
 ! real difficulty4  ,z f> z ,i c tell1 
he has n ev5 notic$ t !re is a          
difficulty4  ,i h giv5 him two m>ks out 
( a possible t54  ,?is o!r man has se5 !
 difficulty & grappl$ ) x4  ,8 solution 
is )\t d\bt incorrect1 b t is q         
immat]ial4  ,result1 eight m>ks out (   
t54  ,i _c b ?9k t ?is attitude ( m9d 0 
l>gely ! secret ( 8 influ5ce4'  ,9 ano!r
 case1 :5 urg+ a man to attempt "s      
indep5d5t inve/igation ( ! ,synoptic    
problem1 he said2 #ac ',y\r conclusions 
may be wrong1 b y c correct !m1 & x w   
tea* y to ?9k4'  ,"o :o 0 an            
und]graduate ) ,=bes says ( him3 ,he    

'did n take a prom95t "p 9 religi\s     
movem5ts 9 ! ,college1 su* z ! ,college 
pray] meet+ or ,bible read+s1 ?\gh he 0 
occasionally pres5t at !m4  ,9 *apel 8  
rev]5ce 0 quiet1 ?\gh 9 no way          
obtrusive4  ,i ?9k t by n id5tify+      
himself ) any p>ticul> religi\s p>ty he 
_h great] influ5ce ) ^? m5 ^: m9ds ran 9
 v diff]5t grooves4  ,i always felt :5 9
 8 company t ,i 0 conv]s+ ) "o va/ly    
sup]ior to myself 9 intellectual p[]s1 &
 yet he nev] appe>$ consci\s ( x        
himself4  ,x is surpris+ h[ consid]ate  
he 0 ( ! feel+s ( o!rs4  ,i rememb] a   
l>ge pr9t ( ,pope ,leo ,,xiii4 :i* us$  
to hang 9 8 rooms z an und]graduate1 :i*
 delight$ 8 gyp1 :o 0 a ,romani/1 b     
sc&alis$ 8 ,prote/ant fri5ds4  ,i begg$ 
e>ne/ly = a copy ( "o ( 8 prize essays1 
:i* _h be5 pr9t$ ?\gh n publi%$4  ,he at
 fir/ cons5t$1 b almo/ imm$iately ask$  
me to return x1 say+ t he did n wi% x to
 g out to ! _w z express+ 8 matur$      
views4  ,he !n ask$ me to accept in/ead 
a small booklet1 :i* he said ,i %\ld f9d

 useful to h 9 visit+4 ,x conta9$ !     
v]ses call$ ,! ,old1 ,old ,/ory4  ,he   
also gave me a copy ( ! ,practice ( !   
,pres5ce ( ,god1 by ,bro!r ,lawr5ce4'   
,be=e he decid$ to read = ! ,moral      
,sci5ce ,tripos he _h ?\ght ( go+ 9 = ! 
,semitic ,languages ,tripos4  ,) ?is    
object 9 view he #ad comm5c$ ! /udy (   
,syriac4  ,f9d+ t ! be/ ,syriac gramm> 0
 writt5 9 ,g]man & _h n be5 translat$1  
he decid$ to le>n ,g]man also4  ,he 0   
advis$ t ,switz]l& 0 a suitable place 9 
:i* to /udy ,g]man1 & accord+ly1 aft]   
tak+ 8 degree1 he />t$ 9 ! summ] ( #ahij
 = ,switz]l&4  ,! two foll[+ lett]s are 
ins]t$ 9 ord] to illu/rate 8 s5se (     
hum\r1 z well z to describe ! way 9 :i* 
he sp5t ?is summ]4 ,he ev5tually return$
 f ,switz]l&1 hav+ made m progress 9    
,syriac ?an 9 ,g]man1 b )\t hav+ obta9$ 
any great k ( ei!r language4  ,soon aft]
 8 return he decid$ to comm5ce ! /udy ( 
,moral ,sci5ce in/ead ( ! ,semitic      
languages4   ,to ,h4 ,m4 ,s4  ',habk]n3 
,july #ahij4  ',a few days aft] ,i got  

to ,switz]l&1 by d9t ( incessant        
inquiries & correspond5ce ,i f\nd out ! 
"n ( a pa/or :o liv$ 9 a suffici5tly    
heal?y place & :o talk$ ,g]man4  ,s ,i  
gird$ up my lo9s & w5t to visit him4    
,spre*5 ,sie ,englis*1 me9 ,h]r8 ,i     
ask$4  ,ne9 0 ! reply4  ,z ,i sc>cely   
knew a ^w ( ,g]man ,i 0 9 a consid]able 
fix4  ,b ,i f\nd out t ! ,pf>r] spoke   
,late9is* & c\ld read ,engli% a little  
:5 x 0 writt54  ,s ,i w5t up to 8 /udy &
 we got pap] & p5cil & began4  ,i tri$  
to tell him 9 a mixture ( brok5 ,engli% 
& dog-,lat9 t ,i int5d$ to give him !   
hon\r ( my company4  ,he said he w\ld be
 pleas$ to take me en p5sion4  ,he !n   
#ae ask$ h[ mu* ,i wi%$ to pay4  ,i     
hadn't = ! life ( me an idea ( :at ,i   
ought to pay4  ,ut tibi optimum videtur1
 ,i said4  ,b he made me fix my price4  
,!n1 :5 ,i _h fix$ x1 ,i _h to turn x   
into ,swiss money4  ,! good ,pf>r] 0 s  
pleas$ ) ! hon\r ( my company t he took 
me = less ?an ,i ask$4  ,our greate/    
difficulty next arose3 ,h[ 0 my luggage 

to be convey$ ! five miles f ! ne>e/ t[n
 up a /eep hill8  ,lat91 ,fr5*1 ,engli%1
 ,g]man1 fail$ to make me und]/& !      
situation4 ,at la/ ,i took 9 ! ,pf>r]'s 
mean+4  ,i 0 to s5d x by ! milkman aft] 
leav+ x at a c]ta9 hotel4  ,ja1 ,i cri$ 
9 an ec/asy ( joy1 at la/ grasp+ 8      
mean+1 ,ja1 i* mittam d] ,gepck von d]  
milkman4  ,i arriv$ ! next day4  ,i f\nd
 ! ,pf>r] knew ,lat91 ,greek 7b he      
pron\nces bo? q diff]5tly f me71 ,g]man1
 ,fr5*1 ,russian1 ,syriac1 ,hebrew1 & a 
little ,engli%4  ,8 usual cu/om is to   
address me 9 ,g]man4  ,if ,i fail to    
und]/&1 he tries ,lat9 & int]sp]ses 8   
rem>ks ) ,greek & ,hebrew4  ,s my great 
difficulty is fir/ ( all to f9d out :at 
language he ?9ks he is speak+ 94        
',ye/]day we 7 sitt+1 smok+ & dr9k+1 9 !
 village ,wir?%aus among ! natives ( !  
place1 ! ,pf>r] address+ me 9 ,lat91 !  
villag]s />+ at 8 le>n+ 9 adoration &   
a/oni%m5t1 & laugh+ at my attempts at   
,g]man4  ,! l&lord came up to me :5 ,i  
arriv$ & s5t 9 a bottle ( w9e = me1     

refus+ to be paid = x1 = he said t !    
natives ( ,int]lak5 fleec$ ! ,engli%2 b 
:5 ,habk]n 0 = once hon\r$ by ! #af     
pres5ce ( "o1 ! p 7 n go+ to treat him 9
 ! same way4  ',x is curi\s h[ ! ,pf>r] 
goes & sits & dr9ks & gossips 9 !       
,wir?%aus1 ev5 on ,sunday1 ,i ?9k4  ,la/
 ,sunday !y _h a c\ntry dance1 & v      
curi\s & pretty 0 ! sc5e--! old-fa%ion$ 
wood5 room--! odd national dress ( !    
wom5--! curi\sly cut br[n clo!s ( !     
m5--! ?ick boots--! fiddl]s rais$ above 
! re/--! qua9t urn ) its inscriptions   
above--! gap+ cr[d ( villag]s4  ,!n !   
*ur* is /range--v rude & simple1 all    
:itewa%$4  ,! wom5 sit on "o side1 ! m5 
on ! o!r4  ,!y /& to pray & he> ! text1 
& sit to s+ & he> ! s]mon4  ,! organ &  
font are plac$ at "o end4  ,! eld]s /&  
bel[ ! organ1 ! ,pf>r] is lo/ 9 ! f>    
di/ance1 "r up 9 a big pulpit4  ,!      
,pr$igt or s]mon is ev]y?+4  ,!y h "o   
writt5 pray] be=e & "o aft] ! ,pr$igt4  
,! p nev] say ,am5 or any?+--only s+4   
,!y s+ s sl[ly t1 al?\gh ,i _h only be5 

) ! ,pf>r] ?ree days1 ,i c\ld almo/ s+ &
 look out ! words 9 ! diction>y at !    
same "t6  ,i talk ,g]man ) e "o :o w    
talk ) me4  ,s well did ,i sp9 y>ns :5  
,i _h be5 9 ! c\ntry ?ree or f\r days1 t
 ) a mixture ( ,lat9 & ,g]man ,i manag$ 
to make a ,g]man use /rong language at  
"s ( my tales1 :i* he 0 pleas$ to ?9k 7 
n exactly true4 ,reflect+ on ! situation
 aft]w>ds1 ,i rememb]$ t ,i _h told him1
 among o!r ?+s1 t ,i _h walk$ ne>ly     
fifty /und5 #ag 9 a day4  ,8 language 0 
awful4  ,i f\nd aft]w>ds t /unde 0 n1 z 
,i _h suppos$1 an ,engli% mile1 b an    
,engli% h\r4 ,b ,i keep on talk+4  ,i h 
come to ! conclusion t ! way to le>n a  
language is to argue 9 x4  ,accord+ly ,i
 d s4  ,i h tri$ to conv9ce !m t ! ord] 
( bi%ops is semi-apo/olic1 & t if ,/4   
,paul did n actually we> a surplice     
himself1 8 successors %ortly aft]w>ds   
did4  ',"o o!r ?+1 if y ev] reply to ?is
 lett]3 w\ld y copy out a few ( ! mo/   
?ickly m>k$ l9es 9 ! ,gramm>ian's       
,fun]al 9 my edition ( ,br[n+8  ,!y are 

always 9 my m9d1 b ,i c't q recollect h[
 !y g4  ,!re is no poem ,i l s mu* z t4 
,i w\ld s5d y "s butt]flies1 b ,i d>5't 
kill !m4  ,"s ( u may h once be5        
butt]flies3 z ,m4 ,arnold says1    ',:at
 0 be=e u we "k n1   ,& we "k n :at %all
 succe$4'   ,to ,h4 ,m4 ,s4  ',habk]n3  
,augu/ #ahij4  ',!re is a ,fr5*         
p5sionnaire /ay+ "h1 ! same z ,i am4    
,he is v polite1 b 8 ta/es are          
diametrically opposite to m9e4  ,he     
likes w9e1 walk+1 wom51 smok+1 pa9t+1   
viol9 & piano play+1 dogs1 & ! l4  ',he 
ask$ me :e!r ,i lik$ ! ,fr5*4  ,i told  
him ,no1 & gave him a good _m reasons4  
,he abhors ! ,g]mans4  ,i told him ,i   
?\ght ! ,g]mans 7 a f9e race4  ,i'm     
occupy+ my "t #ah 9 sleep+1 argu+1      
obs]v+ ! natives1 & read+ a ,tau*nitz   
edition ( ,m>t9 ,*uzzlewit1 :i* is good1
 ?\gh already a "y girl ( sev5te5 has   
be5 introduc$1 v beautiful & all ! re/1 
& ,i'm afraid %e won't be poison$1 b    
m>ry a c]ta9 "y man already introduc$4  
,i'd give a good deal to be able to     

write a novel 9 :i* all ! "y ladies     
tumbl$ out ( w9d[s1 six /ories high1 & 7
 pick$ up dead4  ,i ?9k ,i mu/ try &    
write "o4  ,%all ,i d$icate x to y8  ,! 
h]o9e w be a pla9 old lady ) :ite curls1
 close on sixty-five1 )\t any money1 b )
 a c]ta9 am\nt ( intellect4  ,!re w be  
no m>riages1 b suicides & murd]s if     
necess>y4  ',i'm inv5t+ a ,g]man ^w (   
#a1jjj lett]s4  ,x is to be divid$ into 
"s #aej or #bjj comp>tm5ts4  ,aft] ea*  
comp>tm5t !re is five m9utes =          
refre%m5ts4  ,aft] ab\t ! #ejj? lett]   
!re w be half an h\r all[$ = d9n]4      
,aft] ! #fjj? lett] or s !re w be a     
notice to ! effect t no p]son ) a weak  
he>t may proce$ fur!r )\t consult+ a    
m$ical man4  ,aft] ab\t ! #ihj? !re w be
 a notice =bidd+ any "o to g fur!r until
 _! family doctor is 9 att5dance4  ,i h 
?\ght ( ! gr\ndwork ( ! ^w--! f9i%$ ^w  
,i'm go+ to s5d to ,m----1 z he has !   
/ronge/ con/itution ( any "o ,i "k4  ,!n
 ,i %all get ,duke ,bism>ck to pat5t x2 
aft] :i* ,i %all take out a pr(essor%ip 

on ! /r5g? ( x at ,b]ne4  ,x w1 ( c\rse1
 be ! ,hauptsa*e ( my exi/5ce4'  #ai    
,=bes 0 f> f be+ an a?lete1 b 9 #ahia1  
%ortly be=e 8 ord9ation1 he accompli%$ !
 feat ( walk+ ) two a?letic fri5ds f    
,london to ,cambridge 9 a day1 a di/ance
 ( m ?an fifty miles4  ,! foll[+        
description is by ,mr4 ,a4 ,n4 ,c4      
,kitt]ma/]1 :o 0 "o ( 8 companions4     
,walk f ,london to ,cambridge4  ,"s ( u 
_h read t ,*>les ,k+sley _h walk$ f     
,london to ,cambridge2 s we det]m9$ to  
foll[ 9 8 foot/eps4  ,we 7 a p>ty (     
?ree--,=bes ,rob9son1 ,d4 ,d4 ,rob]tson1
 & myself4  ,we sp5t ! previ\s day at ! 
,naval ,exhibition1 ! night at !        
,liv]pool ,/reet ,hotel1 & at #d4cj     
,a4,m4 ( ,tuesday1 ,augu/ #be1 #ahia1 we
 />t$ on our fifty-mile trudge4  ,we    
walk$ /eadily1 at fir/ ov] imm5se       
/ret*es ( pavem5t1 till we rea*$ ,w>e1  
tw5ty-"o miles out4 ,!re we _h breakfa/ 
or lun* ( huge *ops at #aj4ae4  ,aft] t 
we took ! road aga91 & did n call a halt
 ( any l5g? till we _h put ano!r tw5ty  

miles beh9d u4  ,! day 0 f9e b dull1 &  
we 7 n tr\bl$ by ! heat4  ,at ! =tie?   
mile/one x began to appe> d\btful :e!r  
we %\ld all rea* ! j\rney's end4  ,i h  
an entry 9 my di>y3 ',at #dj ,rob]tson  
bad1 ,i worse1 ,deanlet 7i4e4 ,=bes7 q  
fit4'  ,s at ,f\lmire1 n9e miles f      
,cambridge1 we /opp$ = tea4  ,by ?is "t 
,i 0 9 a /ate ( tempor>y collapse1 b ,i 
rememb] ! o!r two dur+ tea c>ri$ on an  
animat$ discussion ^u ! creation z      
describ$ 9 ,g5esis4  ,we all felt bett] 
aft] ! #bj re/ & cov]$ ! la/ /age fairly
 easily1 arriv+ at ,*ri/'s at #i4cj     
,p4,m4  ,we _h a meal 9 ,=bes's rooms1  
f\ght our battles ov] aga91 & retir$ to 
re/ ab\t midnight4  ,! ?+ :i* rema9s )  
me be/ is ! amaz+ ease ) :i* ,=bes      
accompli%$ ! j\rney4  ,x is a matt] (   
common exp]i5ce t prolong$ physical ef=t
 reacts on ! m9d2 conv]sation becomes   
difficult1 & *e]fulness =c$4  ,i mu/ say
 t 9 my case ! ?\ght :i* = a consid]able
 p]iod occupi$ my m9d 0 h[ ,i 0 to get  
to ! end4  ,b x 0 n s ) ,=bes4  ,he     

travell$ lightly1 talk+ happily on all  
subjects ! :ole day4  ,x seem$ to make  
little diff]5ce to him :e!r he took food
 or no1 & he 0 z will+ to /op at e place
 ( refre%m5t we sugge/$ z to m>* ! :ole 
day )\t a meal4     #ba  ,,*apt] ,,iii  
,,"w ,,at ,,cambridge  ,9 ,septemb]     
#ahia ,=bes 0 orda9$ z curate to 8 bro!r
 ,armitage1 :o 0 at t "t vic> ( ,all    
,sa9ts'1 ,cambridge4 ,sev]al ( ! lett]s 
:i* are giv5 lat] ref] to 8 ?\ghts &    
feel+s at ! "t ( 8 ord9ation4  ,8       
connection ) ,all ,sa9ts' did n la/ m   
?an a ye>1 z 8 bro!r resign$ 9 ! foll[+ 
spr+4  ,=bes _h already be5 lic5s$ z    
*apla9 to ,emmanuel ,college4  ,he      
receiv$ prie/'s ord]s 9 #ahib4  ,9 #ahie
 he 0 appo9t$ !ological lectur] at      
,*ri/'s ,college1 & 9 ! foll[+ ye>1 ,may
 #cj1 #ahif1 0 elect$ a fell[4  ,dur+ ! 
same ye> he 0 appo9t$ an exam9+ *apla9  
to ! ,bi%op ( ,s\?well4  ,"o :o knew him
 well1 soon aft] ! "t ( 8 ord9ation1    
writes3 ',i _c rememb] h[ we fir/ became
 acqua9t$1 beyond ! fact t ,i us$ to    

meet him 9 ! rooms ( "s prom95t memb]s (
 ! ,college ,football ,,xv4  ,all ,i "k 
is t sev]al ( our ye> got to "k him q   
well1 & ! fri5d%ip grew ) "t4  ,! fact t
 he _h di/+ui%$ himself 9 ! ,moral      
,sci5ce ,tripos at #bb fir/ r aw$ me1 a 
fre%man4  ,b ,i soon got ov] t feel+1 = 
he 0 ! la/ p]son 9 ! _w to tr\ble any "o
 ) a s5se ( intellectual inf]iority4    
',i am sure ! private bus9ess h\rs ( !  
,debat+ ,society 7 "s ( 8 happie/       
mom5ts4  ,8 magnific5t assumption ( wra?
 on ! mo/ absurd gr\nds2 8 va/ int5sity 
ov] trivialities2 8 love = ! heat & play
 ( debate1 w\ld h made a /rang] believe 
he liv$ = no?+ else4  ',physical /r5g? &
 virtue seem$ to h a /range attraction =
 him4  ,8 assortm5t ( a?lete fri5ds 0   
peculi>ly wide1 & 8 frank admiration (  
_! qualities gave !m a pleasant feel+ t 
9 "s way he look$ up to !m--a feel+ :i* 
,i am sure /r5g!n$ ! hold he _h ov] !m4 
',he 0 a tireless walk]1 & c\ld g f> on 
v little4  ,a p>ty ( u us$ to take long 
walks1 (t5 on a ,sunday1 to v>i\s places

 9 ! c\ntry4  ,!re 0 g5]ally a volume ( 
,burke or ,em]son 9 8 pocket1 ^: sonor\s
 p]iods fill$ ! int]val :5 we lun*$     
frugally or re/$4  ,i h nev] kn[n him   
any?+ b good-hum\r$ "u any conditions4  
,8 en?usiasm = our mo/ commonplace je/s 
0 unfail+--p]haps "o ( ! sure/ ways (   
gett+ to a man's he>t & /ay+ !re--& he  
_h a wide tol]ance = ! m9or (f5ces (    
und]graduate ?\ght & de$4  ,yet1 z = !  
tone ( conv]sation :5 he 0 ne>1 ,i ne$  
sc>cely say t "o simply did n ?9k (     
any?+ unpleasant or vulg>1 mu* less say 
x4  ',i us$ to admire 8 imm5se p[] (    
putt+ #bc 8 ?\ghts into words1 b he c\ld
 be sil5t too4  ,sometimes he w\ld come 
to my rooms :5 ,i 0 work+1 ?r[ himself  
into an arm-*air1 & absolutely refuse to
 speak4  ,aft] a consid]able int]val    
p]haps he w\ld consid] ,i _h work$ long 
en\gh1 & cocoa & conv]sation w\ld foll[4
  ,b x 0 :5 ,i visit$ him 9 8 own rooms 
t ,i rememb] ?+s mo/ vividly4  ',i c    
/ill see t little room "u ! ro(2 !      
picture on ! wall ( ! dead sa9t float+  

on ! d>k wat]2 ! well-fill$ bookcase2 ! 
table pil$ ) volumes2 himself ?r[+      
ev]y?+ aside to greet "o4  ,x 0 almo/ ) 
a feel+ ( awe t ,i sometimes climb$ ^?  
/airs & ent]$ into 8 pres5ce4  ,p]haps x
 w\ld be = a lesson on ! ,new           
,te/am5t--= :5 ,i 0 read+ = a ,!ological
 ,tripos he 0 g5]\s1 ev5 prodigal1 (    
help4  ,! lesson ov]--& !re are _m :o "k
 :at a goodly ?+ a lesson f him on !    
,new ,te/am5t 0--he w\ld op5 a volume ( 
,t5nyson--,9 ,memoriam mo/ likely--read 
a few /anzas1 & beg9 to talk ab\t !m4   
,gradually1 x w\ld seem1 ! ?+s ( ! _w   
w\ld fade f him4  ,he =got ! h\r & my   
pres5ce z 8 ?\ghts p\r$ out4  ,i sat &  
li/5$1 g5]ally sil5t1 sometimes haz>d+ a
 "q4  ,pres5tly--x 0 (t5 late--,i w\ld  
rise to leave4  ,rapt f 8 surr\nd+s1 he 
seem$ sc>cely consci\s ( my dep>ture2 & 
,i w\ld g quietly out1 almo/ z ?\gh ,i  
_h be5 on holy gr\nd1 :]e n once nor    
twice ! dwell] _h se5 ,god face to      
face4'  ,8 p[] ( help+ m5 by sil5t      
sympa?y is #bd ref]r$ to by "o :o       

writes3 ',! _m words ( k9dness1 b m     
p>ticul>ly ! sil5t sympa?y he convey$ 9 
"s my/]i\s mann]1 w ev] keep him pres5t 
) u4'  ,ano!r1 :o _h kn[n him 9 8 e>ly  
days at ,*ri/'s1 & aga9 9 lat] ye>s1    
writes3 ',:5 ,i 0 up he 0 a n]v\s retir+
 man1 at 8 be/ :5 "o f\nd him alone 9 8 
own room4  ,ev5 !n he w\ld sometimes    
talk little4  ,s9ce my return f ,s\?    
,africa ,i h f\nd him mu* m at home ) m5
 & mu* m ready to talk1 b reta9+ 8 old  
p[] ( sympa?y )\t words4'  ,8 own fai? 0
 bas$ r ^u intuitive p]ception ( !      
,div9e love ?an ^u argum5t4  ,on "o     
occasion1 q t[>ds ! end ( 8 life1 he    
said to "o ) :om he 0 /ay+1 ',sometimes 
,i sit & ?9k1 till ,i c f9d no reason = 
! exi/5ce ( ,god2 & !n !re rises up 9 me
 some?+ :i* is /rong] ?an ! love ,i h = 
^? :o are de> to me--& !y are v de>--!  
love ( ,god4  ,x seems to smile at my   
d\bts4'  ,sev]al ( 8 fri5ds h ref]r$ to 
,=bes's influ5ce z a p[] :i* help$ to   
develop _! own sympa?y t[>ds o!rs4  ,?us
 "o writes3  ',i ?9k p]haps x 0 my      

int]c\rse ) him t fir/ taught me to look
 out = & appreciate ! real goodness--or1
 bett]1 ,*ri/lik5ess--( o!rs f :om "o   
diff]$ 9 important matt]s & ) :om "o    
seem$ p]haps to h little 9 common4'  ,9 
"s in/ances fri5d%ip betwe5 ,=bes & an  
acqua9tance seems to h aris5 :]e v #be  
little direct int]c\rse _h tak5 place4  
,"o :o 0 greatly 8 s5ior says ( him1 ',i
 h nev] kn[n any "o ) :om !re 0 s /rong 
a s5se ( intimacy f\nd$ on s little     
positive int]c\rse4'  ,9 ,july          
#ahib--;i4e4 ab\t n9e mon?s aft] 8      
ord9ation z deacon--he took "p 9 a k9d (
 p]egr9at+ mission t\r ?r\gh "p ( ,s\?  
,cornwall4  ,dress$ simply 9 cassock &  
cape1 & c>ry+ a small br[n pap] p>cel   
conta9+ necess>y luggage1 he & 8 bro!r  
7! compil] ( ?is book7 walk$ f village  
to village1 prea*+ aft]noon & ev5+ 9 !  
op5 air4  ,at ! end ( ! ev5+ s]vice an  
appeal 0 made to ! p4  ,x 0 expla9$ to  
!m t ! prea*]s _h come )\t provision or 
money1 & hop$ to receive hospitality f  
^? to :om !y m9i/]$4  ,night aft] night 

,=bes & 8 companion 7 tak5 9 & ent]ta9$1
 (t5 by v poor p4  ,a unique opportunity
 0 ?us af=d$ ( gett+ to "k some?+ ( !   
home life z well z ( ! religi\s beliefs 
( ! poor4  ,z a rule1 ^? :o act$ z ho/s 
7 ,noncon=mi/s4  ,=bes spoke once or    
twice ea* day to ! p :o ga!r$1 & 8      
addresses1 :i* 7 g5]ally bas$ on ! words
 ',our ,fa!r1' 7 admirably suit$ to !   
compreh5sion & ne$s ( ! simple c\ntry p4
  ,= sev]al mon?s dur+ #ahie he took    
*>ge ( a small c\ntry p>i% ne>          
,cambridge1 call$ ,t(t4  ,:ile /ay+ at  
,t(t he wrote to a fri5d1 ',i l liv+    
among c\ntry folk & talk+ ) #bf & visit+
 !m4  ,i want to get out ( my life into 
_! lives4  ,?is p>i% "w humiliates if x 
does n humble "o4 4 4 4  ,! smalle/ p>i%
 is a trem5d\s responsibility4'   ,!    
foll[+ are a few additional notes       
contribut$ by o!rs :o knew ,=bes at     
,*ri/'s3 ',8 broad sympa?ies1 8 unfail+ 
ef=ts to f9d out ! good 9 p]sons &      
sy/ems--! rays ( tru? :i* ea*           
possess$--comb9$ ) ! r>e faculty ( go+  

deep d[n b5ea? vex$ que/ions1 & ?us     
lift+ controv]sies to a high] & s]5]    
atmosph]e3 ^! 7 qualities 9 him :i* 7   
kn[n especially by ^? privileg$ to h m  
intimate k ( him ?an t v\*saf$ by =mal  
lectures or social ga!r+s4 4 4 4  ,he is
 n[ ano!r l9k ) ! life beyond ^!        
conflict+ voices1 "o :o lov$ ,heav5's   
sil5ce m ?an fame4'  ,! same writ] says 
( him 9 ano!r lett]3 ',8 extreme        
fairness & tol]ation1 :i* at fir/ seem$ 
to me to r$uce half "o's *]i%$ beliefs  
to op5 que/ions1 0 ( ! greate/ value 9  
dispell+ ignorance & prejudice1 & 9     
promot+ true *>ity & a m intellig5t     
fai?4  ,he delight$ to call att5tion to 
! fact t our ,"l f\nd some?+ comm5dable 
& exempl>y 9 ! s]p5t4 ,& s1 9 deal+ ) ^?
 ) :om he mo/ disagre$1 he tri$ to fix  
att5tion on t portion ( tru? :i* lay    
beh9d _! op9ions1 or on ^? real         
difficulties1 to be slight$ only by #bg 
! sup]ficial1 ) :i* !y 7 grappl+4       
,t]tullian1 ) 8 love ( scor+ (f         
oppon5ts1 f>$ badly at 8 h&s1 & he us$  

to treat ,clem5t ( ,alex&ria m          
sympa!tically ?an ,ir5aeus4  ',x 0 /rik+
 to f9d a m9d s ev5ly balanc$ &         
philosophical become fir$ ) en?usiasm z 
he spoke 9 simple/ language1 9 *apel or 
else:]e1 ( great ,*ri/ian tru?s or !    
victories ( fai?4  ,8 s]mons influ5c$1  
,i believe1 _m ( ! naturally c>eless4   
,simple1 imp>tial1 e>ne/ & sympa!tic1 he
 won1 ,i "k1 ! deepe/ affection &       
respect ( _m4'  ,ano!r writes3 ',bright1
 pure1 & /rong--?is 0 ! impression he   
gave me 4 4 4 4  ,_m m5 w be v sorry t  
he is n "h any m1 b e "o :o knew him w  
be v ?ankful t he 0 "h1 & t !y _h an    
opportunity ( he>+ him ?9k sometimes4   
,i recall him mo/ 9 8 own rooms1 beg9n+ 
to talk on "s small matt]1 & gradually  
lift+ u high] & /ill high]1 until we all
 sil5tly li/5$1 foll[+ z be/ we1 ) our  
muddi] m9ds1 c\ld2 & ev5 :5 he got      
beyond u !re 7 /ill inspiration & /r5g? 
to be got f 8 fla%+ eyes & on-ru%+      
e>ne/ness2 b if "s small] m9d broke 91 9
 a mom5t he 0 d[n at ! level ( t m9d1   

half bant]+ & :olly sympa?is+4          
,nev]!less1 "s ( u h nev] =gott5 ! ?+s  
he %[$ u z he l$ u up1 & ! possibility (
 so>+ v high )\t los+ t\* ) ^? ^: levels
 are pa!tically human4 4 4 4  ,i d "k t 
he help$ #bh me mu*1 & t _m ?+s he said 
,i %all nev] =get1 & ?ank ,god = /ill4' 
,a ,cambridge & int]national a?lete1 an 
intimate fri5d ( ,=bes1 writes3 ',?\gh  
,i h lo/ y\r bro!r ,=bes1 & life w be = 
ev] poor] to me1 ,i c't ?ank ,god en\gh 
t ,i ev] knew him & lov$ him1 & t he    
call$ himself my fri5d4  ,he 0 s de> to 
me--my greate/ fri5d 9 ! _w4  ,8        
goodness & 8 help to me 9 my ,cambridge 
days 7 wond]ful4  ,he alt]$ my life4    
,god has call$ him home & to ! bless$   
re/ ( ! *ildr5 ( ,god1 & we are ri* /ill
 ) 8 memory & ! influ5ce ( 8 beautiful1 
pati5t1 ,*ri/like life4'  ,9 ano!r lett]
 he writes3 ',! dea?1 or1 z ,i l to ?9k 
( x1 ! pass+ ( ,=bes into ! ,great      
,beyond has be5 su* a grief to me4  ,y h
 no idea :at he 0 to me--a real man s5t 
f ,god into my life4  ,i c\ld d no?+ :5 

,i he>d ! sad1 & to me utt]ly unexpect$1
 news1 b kneel d[n by my b$side1 & weep 
till ,i c\ld weep no m = my belov$      
fri5d4  ,i feel s ri* & pr\d to h _h him
 = my fri5d1 & to h _h 8 love2 & s d _m 
,cambridge m54  ,oh1 b ,i did s love    
him6 & my pray] n[ is t ! memory ( him )
 me always may /r5g!n my weak & feeble  
life1 & help me to live some:at m z he  
liv$1 v ne> ! ,ma/]4'  ,he obta9$ b     
little help f self-introspection or     
self-exam9ation4  ,?us he writes 9 "o ( 
! lett]s giv5 lat] on3 ',i am n sure t  
we _c le>n m ab\t o!rs ?an we c ab\t    
ourselves4  #bi ,i nev] ?9k x is        
pr(itable to /udy oneself too closely4  
,i nev] c\ld m$itate ) any pr(it on my  
s9s4  ,b !re1 ,i d>e say ,i diff] f _m  
o!rs4'  ,to v intimate fri5ds he w\ld 9 
r>e in/ances admit t ! secret ( any     
influ5ce :i* he possess$ ov] m5 0 !     
outcome ( 8 ef=ts to pray = !m4  ,"o :o 
_h kn[n him intimately at ,*ri/'s writes
 9 #aijd3  ',ab\t eighte5 mon?s ago ,i  
_h ! privilege ( sp5d+ a night ) him1 & 

!n = ! fir/ "t ,i realis$ h[ mu* ( 8    
spiritual p[] 0 ! outcome ( pray]4  ,he 
told me t 9 8 y\ng] days he _h tak5 e   
opportunity ( p]sonally appeal+ to m5 to
 come to ,*ri/4  ,b1 he w5t on1 z ,i gr[
 old] ,i become m diffid5t1 & n[ (t51 :5
 ,i desire to see ! ,tru? come home to  
any man1 ,i say to myself1 ',if ,i h him
 "h he w sp5d half an h\r ) me4         
,in/ead1 ,i w sp5d t half-h\r 9 pray] = 
him4'  ,lat] on1 :5 ,i _h retir$ = !    
night1 he came to me aga9 & said1       
,w----1 :at ,i h said to y is 9 !       
/ricte/ confid5ce3 don't m5tion x to any
 "o4  ,& ?is revelation ( 8 inn] life is
 my la/ memory ( him4'  ,on ano!r       
occasion he said to "o ) :om he 0 /ay+1 
:5 speak+ ( ! little t m5 c\ld d = ea*  
o!r1 ',i ?9k t ,i %\ld g mad 7 x n =    
pray]4'  ,z an in/ance ( 8 common s5se 9
 a matt] 9 :i* z a ba*elor he c\ld h _h 
no p]sonal exp]i5ce1 he /rongly urg$ a  
m>ri$ man1 be=e #cj decid+ to accept a  
curacy :i* _h be5 (f]$ to him1 to let 8 
wife see ! vic>'s wife or wom5-folk4    

',%e w "k intuitively1' he said1 ':e!r  
%e c get on ) !m & !y ) h]1 & x w make  
all ! diff]5ce to y\r "w & happ9ess4'   
,! man to :om ?is advice 0 (f]$ writes3 
',! advice 0 giv5 s]i\sly1 b ) t bright 
tw9kle ( 82 & ,i owe mu* to x1 = we h   
be5 "h s9ce 4 4 4 & ,i don't want to g4'
   ,! foll[+ is an extract f a notice   
:i* appe>$ 9 ! ',gu>dian '6  ',by 8     
publi%$ "w he is be/ kn[n to ! out] _w z
 "o ( ! few ,engli% s*ol>s :o h giv5    
att5tion to ,coptic4  ,9 #ahif he edit$ 
,! ,coptic ,apocryphal ,gospels 9 !     
,cambridge ,texts & ,/udies4  ,!        
important article on ! ,coptic ,v]sion 9
 ,ha/+s's ,bible ,diction>y came also f 
8 p51 & he 0 engag$ on an edition ( !   
,sahidic fragm5ts ( ,/4 ,luke's ,gospel4
  ,8 deepe/ int]e/1 h[ev]1 lay n 9 ^!   
subsidi>y /udies1 b 9 ! fundam5tal      
problems ( !ology prop]4  ,8 ,burney    
,prize essay1 pr9t$ at ! ,univ]sity     
,press 9 #ahic "u ! title ( ,!          
,self-limitation ( ! ,^w ( ,god z       
manife/$ 9 ! ,inc>nation1 is no d\bt    

comp>atively slight1 & 9 "s respects    
immature2 b its rev]5t & fe>less        
treatm5t ( ! difficulties ( 8 great !me 
gave promise ( "w ( p]man5t value 9 ?is 
field4  ,8 int]e/ 9 ! great problems    
nev] flagg$1 & 8 sympa!tic t\* ) ! life 
& ?\ght ( ! y\ng] m5 9 8 college kept   
him con/antly #ca engag$ on ! task (    
putt+ into cle> & ev] cle>] expression  
su* solutions z he 0 able to atta94  ,8 
s]mons 9 ,college ,*apel 7 s+ul>ly      
effective1 because he nev] wa/$ a ^w1 & 
because e s5t5ce 0 felt to be ! outcome 
( /r5u\s ?\ght te/$ by liv+ exp]i5ce4   
',x is n surpris+1 !re=e1 t he ex]cis$  
an unusual influ5ce ^u y\ng] /ud5ts4  ,8
 fri5ds 7 v closely b\nd to him inde$1 9
 bonds :i* dea? c consecrate b _c sev]4 
,!y c nev] cease to ?ank ,god = ! pure1 
bright1 t5d]1 utt]ly s9c]e1 fe>less1 &  
fai?ful _s ,he has giv5 !m to love4'    
#cb  ,,*apt] ,,iv  ,,! ,,la/ ,,few      
,,mon?s  ,f ! "t t ,=bes took 8 degree  
at ,cambridge 8 heal? 0 f> f /rong4  ,he
 suff]$ f "t to "t f a =m ( eczema :i*  

caus$ him a good deal ( discom=t & pa94 
,_m ( 8 lett]s conta9 ref]5ces to ! fact
 t he _h be5 unwell & _h be5 unable to d
 z mu* "w z he _h hop$4  ,9 ,septemb]   
#ahig he w5t ) 8 bro!r ,armitage on a   
visit to ,/4 ,pet]sburg & ,mosc[4 ,he   
/ay$ 9 ! h\se ( a ,russian prie/ at ,/4 
,pet]sburg1 & 0 mu* int]e/$ 9 ! "w (    
,fa!r ,john ( ,kron/adt1 ) :om an       
int]view 0 arrang$ :i* un=tunately fell 
?r\gh at ! la/ mom5t4  ,t[>ds ! end (   
#ahig he develop$ a bad c\gh & 0 ?reat5$
 ) ph?isis4  ,he accord+ly sp5t ,*ri/mas
 & ! fir/ two or ?ree mon?s ( #ahih at  
,/4 ,moritz 9 ,switz]l&4  ,8 heal? !n   
seem$ to be mu* improv$4  ,= sev]al ye>s
 he w5t back to ,/4 ,moritz to sp5d !   
great] "p ( ! ,*ri/mas vacation4  ,he   
took great delight 9 toboggan+1 & on "o 
occasion 0 aw>d$ a prize = a race 9 :i* 
he took "p4  ,9 ! summ] ( #ahii he w5t  
out to ,s\? ,africa #cc dur+ ! ,long    
,vacation4  ,he visit$ ,pretoria & _h an
 int]view ) ,presid5t ,krug] & 8 wife4  
,"o ( 8 lett]s records 8 impressions ( !

 ,presid5t4  ,he 0 = "s "t dispos$ to   
believe t ! w>1 :i* broke out soon aft] 
8 return1 c\ld & %\ld h be5 avoid$1 b he
 subsequ5tly modifi$ 8 views on ?is     
po9t4  ,t[>ds ! end ( ,augu/ #aijc ! pa9
 f :i* he _h suff]$ int]mitt5tly = ye>s 
became s mu* worse t he came up to      
consult a ,london doctor1 & by 8 advice 
rema9$ 9 t[n z a pati5t at ,/4 ,?omas's 
,home4  ,:5 he ent]$ ! home he fully    
expect$ to und]go an op]ation )9 a      
=tnight2 b ! doctor :o _h sugge/$ x     
decl>$1 aft] fur!r exam9ation1 t no     
op]ation 0 necess>y4  ,mean:ile ,=bes   
l+]$ on 9 ! home week aft] week4        
,ev5tually a p>tial op]ation 0 p]=m$1 & 
aft] he _h sp5t ?irte5 weeks 9 ! home ! 
surgeon sugge/$ 8 removal to a private  
nurs+ home1 :]e he c\ld keep him "u     
clos] obs]vation4 ,"h he p]=m$ a second 
op]ation4  ,?is seem$ at fir/ to h be5 a
 success1 & aft] a =tnight 9 ?is private
 home he 0 well en\gh to />t = ,switz]l&
 aga94  ,he w5t at fir/ to ,/4 ,moritz1 
:]e he _h be5 s (t5 be=e2 b1 f9d+ t !   

pa9 return$ & t he c\ld n sleep1 he w5t 
d[n to ,alassio on ! ,rivi]a4 ,"h he 0 =
 sev]al weeks till 8 return to ,engl&4  
,he rea*$ ,we/m9/] on ,janu>y #ac & w5t 
up to ,cambridge on ! foll[+ day4  ,= a 
few days he 0 well en\gh to lecture1 & x
 seem$ z ?\gh he might be able to #cd   
resume 8 old "w4  ,on ,sunday ev5+1     
,janu>y #ag1 he 0 'at home' 9 8 rooms & 
receiv$ ov] sixty und]graduates :o came 
to welcome him back4  ,soon ! old tr\ble
 return$1 & he rapidly grew worse4  ,8  
pa9 became almo/ con/ant1 & he 0 remov$ 
) great difficulty to ano!r ,london     
nurs+ home on ,janu>y #bi4  ,x 0 !n     
propos$ t ! orig9al op]ation :i* _h be5 
sugge/$1 b _h nev] be5 p]=m$1 %\ld take 
place1 & he fully expect$ t ?is w\ld    
result 9 8 re/oration to heal? & to "w4 
,a few days lat] he 0 ?reat5$ )         
blood-poison+1 & x became obvi\s t !    
op]ation mu/ be delay$4  ,on ,saturday  
ev5+1 ,febru>y #f1 he seem$ fairly      
*e]ful4 ,nei!r he nor 8 doctors _h any  
idea t he 0 9 an extremely critical     

/ate4  ,ab\t midnight1 z ! pa9 _h become
 worse1 8 doctor 0 s5t =1 & he gave him 
an injection ( morphia4  ,soon aft] ?is 
he ask$ 8 nurse to turn ! light d[n &   
said to h]1 ',if ,i am asleep 9 ! morn+ 
d n wake me4'  ,%e look$ 9 ab\t #c4cj   
,a4,m4 to see if he 0 asleep1 &1 f9d+   
him awake1 inquir$ if he w\ld l a dr9k (
 *ampagne4  ,he said yes1 & ask$ h] fir/
 ( all to help him turn ov] to ! o!r    
side4  ,z %e 0 9 ! act ( assi/+ him1 he 
pass$ away1 )\t a movem5t ( any k9d4  ,a
 happy smile l+]$ long on 8 face aft] ! 
end _h come4  ,8 body 0 remov$ ! same   
ev5+ to ,/4 ,fai?'s ,*apel1 9 ,we/m9/]  
,abbey4  ,"h on ! foll[+ ,?ursday morn+1
 ,febru>y #aa1 at #i ,a4,m41 ! fun]al   
s]vice 0 said4  ,! *apel #ce 0 fill$ ) 8
 fri5ds1 :o _h come f ,cambridge &      
else:]e4 ,8 body 0 buri$ ! same aft]noon
 at ,ea/b\rne 9 ! same grave ) t ( 8    
si/]1 ! ,deaconess ,cecilia1 :o _h pass$
 away five mon?s be=e4  ,! inscription  
on ! memorial c>d issu$ to 8 fri5ds 03  
,,cum ,,*ri/o ,,victurus   ,,de ,,morte 

,,ad ,,vitam ,,migravit   ,,dom9ica ,,9 
,,sexagesima   ,,anno ,,salutis ,,mcmiv 
,,aetatis ,,suae ,,xxxvii4     ,&1      
d\btless1 unto !e is giv5     ,a life t 
be>s immortal fruit     ,9 ^? great     
(fices t suit   ,! full-gr[n en]gies (  
heav54     #cf  ,,*apt] ,v  ,,two       
,,appreciations  ,! two foll[+ sket*es (
 ,=bes ,rob9son's life at ,cambridge h  
be5 contribut$1 ! fir/ by ! ,rev4 ,t4   
,c4 ,fitzpatrick1 ,fell[ & ,dean (      
,*ri/'s ,college1 & ! second by ! ,rev4 
,digby ,b4 ,kitt]ma/]1 ( ,cl>e ,college1
 n[ ,head ( ! ,%rewsbury ,s*ool ,mission
 9 ,liv]pool4   ,mr4 ,fitzpatrick       
writes3  ',college life has *ang$ a good
 deal s9ce ! days :5 a "y graduate1 on 8
 election to a fell[%ip1 0 advis$ n to  
see too mu* ( ! und]graduate memb]s ( ! 
,college1 t ! division betwe5 ! s5ior & 
junior memb]s ( ! ,college might be     
pres]v$4  ,a cu/om ( t k9d1 once        
e/abli%$1 is n easy to break1 =         
traditions ( all sorts1 good & bad1 live
 long 9 ,college4  ',=tunately1 !       

relations betwe5 ! und]graduates & !    
fell[s ( ! ,college are gradually becom+
 m natural1 to ! b5efit ( ! :ole body4  
,=bes ,rob9son w be long rememb]$ = !   
influ5ce t he ex]t$ 9 ?is #cg direction1
 & :at he has effect$ x w be            
comp>atively easy = o!rs to c>ry on4    
',x is my desire to give "s slight      
impression ( 8 life 9 ,college1 & ,i d n
 wi% to say mu* ab\t 8 tea*+ "w4  ,i mu/
 m5tion1 h[ev]1 :at frequ5tly /ruck me1 
! great joy he _h 9 tea*+2 8 success 0 n
 surpris+4  ,:5 he f\nd 79 ,janu>y la/7 
t he c\ld n take up all 8 lecture "w he 
w\ld n all[ ano!r to give 9 8 place !   
c\rse ( lectures on ,*ur* ,hi/ory4  ,i  
want1 he said to me1 to give !m myself 9
 my own way1 & he hop$ to h giv5 !m ?is 
,ea/] t]m4  ,i 0 n surpris$ to he> f a  
pupil ( ! int]e/ t he & o!rs f\nd 9 a   
simil> c\rse ( lectures :i* he _h giv5 !
 previ\s ye>4  ,he put ?+s s1 ! pupil   
told me1 t y c\ld n =get :at he _h said4
  ',my la/ recollection ( him z a tea*] 
be>s witness to 8 int]e/ & purpose4  ,^w

 0 br\ght me be=e morn+ *apel t he _h   
be5 oblig$ to call 9 ! doctor 9 ! middle
 ( ! night4  ,i w5t to 8 rooms aft]     
*apel & f\nd t he 0 asleep1 ,i put up a 
notice t he w\ld be unable to lecture4  
,he awoke soon aft] ,i _h left 8 rooms2 
he _h ano!r notice put up t he w\ld     
lecture 9 8 rooms4  ,:5 ,i came back to 
,college lat] 9 ! morn+ ,i look$ 9 &    
f\nd him ly+ on 8 s(a ) ! room full (   
m51 sitt+ :]e !y c\ld4  ,! class w n    
=get t lecture1 nor %all ,i =get !      
sight4  ',:5 two m5 h liv$ a numb] (    
ye>s )9 ! same ,college1 x is difficult 
= !m to #ch realise ! *ange 9 _!        
relation%ip t has come ) "t4  ,!re is a 
comrade%ip t comes ?r\gh ! influ5ce (   
circum/ances r ?an f t p]sonal          
attraction :i* two m5 feel = "o ano!r1 &
 :i* arose !y don't rememb] :5 or h[4   
,x 0 ?is comrade%ip ( "w & ! %>+ (      
responsibilities t l$ me to "k ,=bes    
,rob9son4  ,we _h liv$ "s ye>s 9        
,college be=e ,i knew mu* ( him2 ,i 0 "s
 ye>s 8 s5ior1 & our l9es ( "w 7 v      

diff]5t4  ,z f> z ,i "k1 he nev] talk$  
to old] m5 9 t frank way :i* 0 8 cu/om )
 ^? ( 8 own age1 & /ill m ) m5 y\ng] ?an
 himself4  ,"s weeks ago ,i 0 /ay+ at ! 
hotel on ! ,rivi]a :]e he _h be5 at     
,*ri/mas "t4  ,! ,engli% lady1 ^: husb& 
keeps ! h\se1 told me t ) !m ,=bes      
,rob9son h>dly talk$ at all1 b t he took
 _! boy out = long walks & talk$ to him2
 & ! boy's face lit up z ,i spoke to him
 ( ,=bes4  ',!re is /ill ! recollection 
9 ,college1 h&$ on f ye> to ye>1 ( !    
walk :i* he took at ! end ( a ,long     
,vacation f ,london to ,cambridge ) two 
o!r m51 & h[ he talk$ all ! way4 ,x 0 ^!
 conv]sations1 (t5 prolong$ = two or    
?ree h\rs1 t impress$ ^? to :om he op5$ 
out 8 ?\ghts1 & :o 9 turn let him see   
some?+ ( _! inn] life4  ',=bes always _h
 "o or two special fri5ds among ! y\ng] 
m51 :om he seem$ to me to look ^u z     
h]oes2 he always ye>n$ = sympa?y1 & he 0
 prep>$ to give to o!rs all t #ci he _h 
got4  ,?is clos] relation%ip ) a few m5 
did n 9 ! lea/ n>r[ 8 int]e/ 9 ! life ( 

! ,college4  ,he ga9$1 ,i _c believe t x
 c h be5 )\t an ef=t long & h>d1 ! p[] (
 tak+ an int]e/ 9 all sorts ( ?+s t =m  
no small "p ( ! life ( ! av]age man4    
,!re 0 no?+ /ra9$ or exagg]at$ 9 8      
relations ) o!r m52 he 0 at all times j 
himself4  ',:5 he 0 elect$ a ,fell[1 be+
 also ,!ological ,lectur]1 he 0 anxi\s  
to d some?+ to int]e/ & help ^? :o 7 n  
!ological /ud5ts1 & he _h1 fir/ on      
,sunday morn+s aft] ,*apel1 & aft]w>ds 9
 ! latt] "p ( ! aft]noons1 ,greek       
,te/am5t read+s = non-!ological m51 & "s
 t]ms he took up "s ( ! problems t      
pres5t !mselves z difficulties to !     
?\ghtful man4  ,^! pap]s 7 prep>$ )     
great c>e1 &1 z ,i "k1 at no small co/ (
 "t & en]gy4  ',on ,sunday ev5+s he 0 at
 home f #i to #aa to any memb]s ( !     
,college :o c>$ to come4  ,on ^?        
occasions x 0 a curi\s sight t met !    
eyes ( any late com] z he op5$ ! door & 
saw m5 9 gr\ps sitt+ on ! floor1 z *airs
 7 insuffici5t2 z a rule !re 0 no g5]al 
subject ( conv]sation--numb]s made t    

impossible4  ,mo/ ,sunday ev5+s !re 0   
music1 b n always1 & x 0 difficult at ! 
end ( ! ev5+ to say :at c\ld h br\ght s 
_m m5 toge!r4  ,x 0 a common gr\nd (    
meet+ = diff]5t k9ds ( m54  ,=bes       
,rob9son 0 (t5 at 8 be/ on ^! occasions2
 he w\ld jo9 #dj fir/ "o gr\p & !n      
ano!r1 & take "p 9 ! subject :i* 0 be+  
discuss$4  ,g5]ally "o or two w\ld rema9
 :5 ! o!rs left1 & deep] problems w\ld  
!n be talk$ ov]4  ,only on "o ,sunday ( 
la/ t]m 0 ,=bes ,rob9son well en\gh to  
be at home4  ,! room 0 m cr[d$ ?an ,i _h
 ev] se5 x4  ,x 0 a sort ( welcome back 
aft] 8 abs5ce ! previ\s t]m4  ,x 0      
evid5t t x gave him pleasure1 & evid5t1 
too1 t he 0 all ! "t 9 pa94  ,yet ) a   
brightness1 :i* mu/ h co/ him mu*1 he   
talk$ ) "o & ano!r ( simple daily       
int]e/s 9 ! way t %[$ 8 sympa?y ) life1 
& ga9$ = him ! p[] ( say+ on o!r        
occasions deep] ?+s4  ',no?+ c\ld h be5 
simpl] ?an ! "* ( ^! ga!r+s4            
,simplicity 0 ! secret ( 8 p[]4  ',i f9d
 x impossible to write ( my own         

conv]sations ) him2 !y dealt *iefly ) ! 
difficulties ( ,cambridge1 ( ,college   
life1 & ( ! lives ( ^? 9 our ,college = 
:om we felt we _h a responsibility4     
,talk+ ( ! difficulties ( belief1 ,i 0  
/ruck by 8 quiet answ]3 ,i d n believe  
"s ?+s :i* ,i did :5 ,i 0 y\ng]2 b ^?   
:i* ,i believe1 ,i believe m firmly4    
,=bes ,rob9son _h a great belief 9 ! p[]
 ( int]cession4  ,q rec5tly a man 9 8   
ye> told me t :5 ,=bes ,rob9son 0 an    
und]graduate he _h kn[n him sp5d two    
h\rs dur+ ! aft]noon 9 int]cession = 8  
fri5ds4  ,"o is n surpris$ t pray] 0 a  
subject on :i* he #da ?\ght mu*4  ,he 0 
to h writt5 an important article on x4  
',z we talk$ toge!r ( diff]5t m51 ,i    
rememb] be+ /ruck ) ! desire he express$
 t m5 %\ld be good & /rong1 & n ( any "o
 type4  ,he _h a great confid5ce 9 !    
ess5tial goodness t !re is 9 m51 & he   
always =m$ a high e/imate ( ano!r4  ',8 
lett]s w indicate h[ deeply he ent]$    
into ! lives ( o!rs1 & h[ wide 7 8      
sympa?ies4  ,a memb] ( ano!r ,college   

told me t ! news ( ! dea? ( ,=bes       
,rob9son rea*$ him j aft] ! close ( _!  
ev5+ *apel1 & he _h n long return$ to 8 
rooms :5 an ,indian g5tleman call$1 an  
und]graduate ( ?is ,college1 :o almo/ 9 
te>s told him ( all t ,=bes _h done =   
him1 & h[ he _h le>nt 9 ,hall at ,*ri/'s
 f ! /range sil5ce t some?+ mu/ h       
happ5$1 & 0 told ( ! loss t came s      
unexpect$ly ^u u on ,sunday1 ,febru>y   
#g4  ',i close ?is %ort acc\nt ( my     
fri5d ) extracts f ?ree lett]s casually 
tak5 f ^? :i* h rea*$ me4  ,a "y        
cl]gyman writes3 ,i feel ,i owe a v     
great debt to him1 bo? z a lectur] & z a
 fri5d4  ,8 cle>ness ( m9d & p[] ( ?\ght
 7 su* z ,i h nev] se5 9 any o!r man4   
,b f> m preci\s ?an ^! intellectual     
gifts 0 ! inspiration ( 8 p]sonal "*4   
,8 ideals 7 s high1 & he liv$ s close to
 !m4 ,few lives h bett] express$ ! tru? 
( ! words ( :i* he 0 s fond3 ',he t #db 
lose? 8 life %all f9d x4'  ,a s*oolma/] 
writes3 ,! la/ talk ,i _h ) him 0 a mon?
 be=e my ord9ation1 & ,i rememb] !      

emphasis t he laid on ! pray+ side ( a  
cl]gyman's life4  ,a doctor writes3     
,look+ back ^u my "t at ,*ri/'s1 ,i ?9k 
t ( all ! influ5ces :i* help$ me1 ! mo/ 
pot5t 0 my fri5d%ip ) ,=bes ,rob9son4 4 
4 4  ,i came to "k him some:at          
intimately by sp5d+ an ,ea/] vacation ) 
him1 & sev]al ( our conv]sations !n h   
left a la/+ impression on my m9d4 4 4 4 
,i suppose1 z "o gets old] & sees s mu* 
m ( dea?1 t a deep5+ fai? takes away t  
s5se ( p]sonal loss & leaves beh9d a    
feel+ ( gladness t yet ano!r fri5d has  
pass$ to ! ,communion ( ,sa9ts4  ',( 8  
life we may use ! motto ( 8 ,college3   
',,ad ,,honorem ,,*ri/i ,,jesu ,,et     
,,fidei ,,ejus ,,increm5tum4'   ,mr4    
,kitt]ma/] writes3  ',=bes ,rob9son did 
n reg>d any "o ( u z a m]e und]graduate1
 "o ( a mass2 t 0 ! fir/ ?+ :i* ^? ( u  
:o knew him z und]graduates le>nt4  ,he 
0 g5u9ely int]e/$ f ! fir/ 9 8          
und]graduate acqua9tances2 int]e/$ 9 !m 
z m51 n z promis+ pupils1 n z likely    
s*ol>s1 n z a?letes1 n z mat]ial =      

improv+ influ5ce1 b z m5--individuals1  
ea* possess+ a sep>ate & di/9ct human   
#dc p]sonality1 & !re=e ( ! true/ &     
deepe/ int]e/ to him4  ',our public     
s*ools taught u 7& = mo/ ( u ,cambridge 
cont9u$ ! tea*+7 t to be ( any real     
importance & consequ5ce among 8 fell[s a
 man mu/ be good at games1 or p]haps--b 
?is m r>ely--good at "w4  ,su* is !     
simple cre$ ( ! und]graduate4 ,if he    
satisfies nei!r ( ! above requirem5ts1  
!n he recognises1 ) great] or less      
sadness1 t he is an ord9>y man1 ! av]age
 und]graduate4  ,he is "o ( ! cr[d if he
 has no a?letic p[]s to comm5d him to ! 
notice ( 8 fell[s 9 /atu pupill>i2 he is
 "o ( ! cr[d if he has no slighte/ hope 
( mak+ = himself any "n 9 ! intellectual
 _w1 to comm5d him to ! lead]s ( ?\ght  
at ,cambridge4  ,& ?is k is to _m a     
,cambridge boy1 play+ at be+ a man1 a   
matt] ( real1 if unconfess$1 grief4  ',b
 !re is no su* ?+ z ! av]age man1 or at 
lea/ z ! av]age und]graduate4  ,?is 0 ! 
belief :i* ,=bes ,rob9son held )        

increas+ conviction z 8 life w5t on4  ,&
 x 0 ?is belief :i* acc\nt$ to "s ext5t 
= ! v l>ge "p :i* 8 fri5d%ip und\bt$ly  
play$ 9 ! life ( _m a ,cambridge        
und]graduate4  ',= a man condemn$ by 8  
fell[s & himself to ! position ( !      
ord9>y man f\nd himself 9 ! pres5ce (   
,=bes 7z all ( u univ]sally call$ him7  
to be no su* ?+4  ,gradually & ) g5u9e  
surprise he le>n$ f him--n by any       
def9ite #dd ^w ( tea*+--t ?\gh x might  
co/ him ef=ts pa9ful & _m to get ! bett]
 ( 8 special1 & ?\gh a?letic fame knew  
him n at all1 yet ! possibilities ( 8   
own peculi> p]sonal life 7 wond]ful &   
great4  ,= "h 0 "o :o compell$ m5 by 8  
g5u9e unaffect$ int]e/ 9 _! lives & "w  
to be !mselves g5u9ely int]e/$ 9 !m too4
  ,a man c\ld n "k ,=bes = long & n be  
quickly consci\s ( a new s5se ( ! value 
( himself1 :i* made him believe t 8 own 
p]sonality & life 7 ?+s ( great         
importance4  ,= ,he is int]e/$ 9 me is  
:at almo/ e man felt f ! />t ( 8        
acqua9tance ) ,=bes4  ,he is int]e/$ 9  

me we felt :5 he pass$ u 9 ! /reet ) 8  
qua9t humor\s smile ( recognition2 we   
felt ! same :5 we ent]$ 8 room1 to be   
receiv$ (t5 )\t a ^w b ) ! same half    
smile3 we felt ! same aga9 if we knew t 
he 0 wat*+ ! progress ( a football mat* 
or boat race 9 :i* we 7 tak+ "p4  ,& he 
is int]e/$ 9 me--mo/ wond]ful ( all--we 
felt z we li/5$ to him 9 ! lecture room1
 & 7 compell$ to att5tion2 = 8 int]e/ 9 
! m5 9 front ( him1 c\pl$ ) 8 int]e/ 9 8
 subject1 =c$ u all--pass m5 & hon\rs m5
 alike--to li/5 to ! hi/ory ( ,*ur* &   
,doctr9e & ,cre$s4  ,x 0 ?is unfeign$   
int]e/ 9 m51 simply z m51 t 9 ! fir/    
in/ance gave him ! influ5ce :i* he      
c]ta9ly ex]cis$ ov] all sorts ( m51     
includ+ ! k9d ( m5 :om ! majority ( _!  
fell[s disreg>d$1 #de or p]haps despis$2
 ! babes & suckl+s ( ! und]graduate _w1 
to quote ano!r4  ,su* m51 9 :om mo/ ( u 
c\ld f9d little to attract u1 7 to him  
va/ly int]e/+--int]e/+ = _! simple human
 p]sonality4  ',"s m5 p]haps nev]       
discov]$ f :at s\rce 8 int]e/ 9 !m      

sprang4  ,!y knew t _! views ( !        
possibilities ( _! own life 7 enl>g$1 t 
!y believ$ 9 !mselves m = hav+ be5 )    
him2 b x 0 n all at once t !y discov]$ !
 reason ( 8 int]e/ & belief 9 !m4  ,x 0 
due to ! ,*ri/4  ,) ea* new fri5d%ip &  
acqua9tance :i* ,=bes made--& ?is is    
especially true ( "y m5--he saw deep]   
into ! mean+ ( ! ,inc>nation ( ,*ri/4   
,?is 0 ! secret ( 8 extraord9>y int]e/ &
 amaz+ belief 9 ne>ly e "o ( u4 ,he saw 
9 u all1 h[ev] ord9>y1 h[ev]            
commonplace--yes1 h[ev] unlovely 7 our  
lives--some?+ some:]e ( ,jesus ,*ri/4   
',!n "s ( u 7 privileg$ to discov] t :at
 he felt = u 0 some?+ f> deep] & holi]  
?an is express$ by ! ^w int]e/4  ,x 0   
love4  ,9 e fulle/ s5se he und]/ood !   
gr& full mean+ ( ! ^w4  ,8 love = 8     
fri5ds 0 some?+ altoge!r l>g] & deep] & 
tru] ?an is g5]ally und]/ood by ! ^w4   
,x 0 s holy a ?+ t x is h>d to write (  
x4  ,he knew1 & ! k is p]haps r>] ?an is
 suppos$1 :at 9 all its fulness 0 !     
mean+ ( ! love ( "o man = ano!r4  ,?is  

is :y he c\ld ent] into ! _s (          
,t5nyson's ,9 #df ,memoriam z almo/ no  
"o else c\ld4  ,t5nyson's exp]i5ce might
 h be5 s entirely 8 own4  ,8 love = 8   
fri5ds 0 inde$ a wond]ful1 sacr$ ?+1    
beautiful to see4  ,) ,h5ry ,drummond he
 felt t x 0 bett] n to live ?an n to    
love4  ,love 0 to him a "p ( all 8 be+3 
= 9 him dwelt ! /rong ,son ( ,god1      
,immortal ,love1 compell+ him to love 8 
fell[-m54  ',x 0 to him a real grief t  
7z he (t5 q wrongly suppos$7 "o or two (
 ^?1 = :om he w\ld q will+ly h cut (f 8 
"r h& if 9 any way x c\ld h advantag$   
!m1 c>$ n at all = him1 nor ev] und]/ood
 h[ he c>$ = !m4  ,b he f\nd relief f ! 
/range unsatisfi$ long+1 eng5d]$ 9 him  
by ?is belief1 9 int5se cont9u\s pray] =
 ^? :om he lov$4  ,he pray$1 x is c]ta91
 z few m5 pray4  ,pray] 0 to him ! v    
brea? ( life4  ,& 8 pray]s1 l 8 life1   
mu/ h be5 utt]ly selfless4  ,_m d n     
und]/& ! am\nt !y owe to 8 pray]s4 ,"s (
 u may "s day realise ! magnitude ( !   
debt2 at pres5t x is n se54  ,b he pray$

 ) all ! ef=t ( 8 be+ = 8 fri5ds3       
eag]ly1 passionately1 unceas+ly he      
pray$4  ,pray = him1 believe 9 him2     
believe 9 him1 pray = him1 he 0 nev]    
tir$ ( say+ to ^? :o spoke to him ( "s  
disappo9t+ fri5d4  ,& 8 own life 0 a    
pro( ( ! p[] :i* lay beh9d su* pray]4   
',to ^? read+ ?is :o did n "k ,=bes     
,rob9son x may seem t a man ( su*       
int5sity ( feel+ & hol9ess ( life w\ld  
be m likely #dg to fright5 away ?an to  
attract to close qu>t]s ! av]age        
und]graduate 7^: exi/5ce he d5i$74  ,?is
 mo/ c]ta9ly 0 n ! case4  ,=1 if !re 0 9
 him some?+ utt]ly div9e1 he 0 also     
human z ev] man c\ld be4  ,he admir$1 l 
! v]ie/ fre%man1 ! physical /r5g? & p[]s
 ( ! a?lete4  ,9 8 pres5ce ! man (      
bodily atta9m5ts & /r5g? ( limb exp]i5c$
 ! /range s5sation ( be+ look$ up to by 
"o :om he knew to be utt]ly sup]ior to  
him4  ,b p]haps ne>ly all :o knew him   
exp]i5c$ ?is at "o "t or ano!r2 = he mu/
 h be5 "o ( ! mo/ humble m5 t h ev]     
liv$4  ,8 humility 0 almo/ a fault4  ,x 

l$ him to depreciate himself s f>4  ,&  
yet h[ beautiful a ?+ x 06  ,he did     
inde$ c\nt all m5 bett] ?an himself4    
',he easily condon$ (f5ces :i* 9 "s     
eyes1 & especially ! eyes ( dons1 loom z
 a g5]al rule he9\s & l>ge4  ,& ! riot\s
 und]graduate1 :o cuts *apels &         
lectures1 f\nd t a don--yes1 & a junior 
dean--c\ld be a fri5d ( 84  ',he        
possess$ too a ke5 & real s5se ( hum\r4 
,he c\ld1 & (t5 did1 laugh ) all 8 he>t4
  ,he *aff$ cont9u\sly 8 l>ge circle (  
und]graduate fri5ds4  ,:5 he 0 que/ion+ 
a man 9 ! lecture-room1 y felt t all !  
"t he 0 half *aff+ him4  ,he address$ u 
all 9 lectures z ,mr41 9 a half s]i\s1  
half amus$ /yle4  ,x is ! only *ance =  
"s m5 to reta9 any self-respect--to     
address !m z ',mr4'--he w\ld say1 aft] !
 discov]y ( "s m ?an usual piece ( #dh  
ignorance 9 8 class ( special m52 = h[ c
 a man h any self-respect unless        
address$ z ',mr4' :o does n "k :i* are !
 ,pa/oral ,epi/les1 or :o is ! ,bi%op ( 
,durham 7!n ,bi%op ,we/cott78  ',he c\ld

 n rememb] ! "n ( 8 be/ fri5d on        
occasions1 & he w\ld rec\nt ) real glee 
h[ he _h be5 kn[n successfully to       
introduce two m51 n kn[+ ! "n ( ei!r4   
,on "o occasion x fell to him to        
introduce to ea* o!r a l[-ca/e ,we/     
,african native & a p>ticul>ly high-ca/e
 ,brahm9 rejoic+ 9 a l(ty s\nd+         
polysyllabic title3 ( c\rse he transpos$
 ! names--) results1 s he decl>$1 almo/ 
fatal to himself4  ',he w\ld display )  
humor\s pride to 8 a?letic fri5ds a     
photograph ( himself com+ 9 second 9 a  
toboggan h&icap race at ,/4 ,moritz1 :i*
 he always ma9ta9$ he morally won4  ,he 
0 full ( spontane\s hum\r4  ,:5 he      
greet$ y1 :5 he look$ at y1 :5 he talk$ 
) y1 x 0 always ) a half smile on 8     
face4  ,x 0 8 s5se ( hum\r :i* procur$  
him a quick entrance into _m a man's    
life & he>t4  ,x 0 8 s5se ( hum\r :i*   
made ! ho/ile und]graduate1 haul$ =     
cutt+ lectures or *apels1 =get 8        
ho/ility & ! pres5ce ( ! don2 ?\gh at ! 
end ( ! int]view he1 probably = ! fir/  

"t1 began to ?9k :e!r *apel-go+ _h any  
mean+1 :e!r a lecture1 if li/5$ to1     
might conceivably pr(it ! li/5]4  ,x 0 8
 s5se ( hum\r :i* made all feel at home 
) him1 :i* at ! fir/ attract$ ! mo/     
unlikely m51 #di :i* inspir$ ) confid5ce
 ! %ye/1 & made ! mo/ frivol\s &        
?\ghtless n afraid ( him4  ,yet :ile he 
w\ld laugh1 & make u laugh1 = z long z  
ev] any "o wi%$1 ?r\gh all 8 unaffect$  
m]rim5t he made m5 feel ! /range        
e>ne/ness ( 8 life4  ,& all knew t1 :ile
 he nev] obtrud$ on u religi\s or ev5   
s]i\s matt]s1 he 0 ready at a mom5t's   
notice to speak ) u ( spiritual ?+s4  ,&
 mo/ m5 felt some?+ ( :at a fri5d ( 8   
wrote ( him aft] 8 dea?3 ,he und]/ood ( 
'! ?+s t matt]' m ?an any man t ,i %all 
ev] meet4 ,& _m m5 :o owe to ,=bes      
,rob9son _! fir/ s]i\s ?\ghts ( & _!    
fir/ insight into ! ?+s t matt] mu/ feel
 ! same4  ,x is ?is fact t makes x      
impossible to measure ! f>-rea*+ deep   
influ5ce ( 8 life4  ,= ! greatness ( t  
life lay n 9 any l>ge influ5ce on any   

l>ge body ( und]graduates1 ?\gh !       
und]graduate life ( ,*ri/'s ,college    
mu/1 z a :ole1 h felt 8 real influ5ce2  
nor 0 8 life great simply because he 0 a
 s*ol> & a ?9k]4  ,b 8 life 0 great1 & w
 = all "t rema9 great1 because x 0 an   
inspiration--!re is no o!r ^w3 x 01 &   
is1 a la/+1 vivid1 real inspiration to a
 few4  ,:at ,bi%op ,we/cott did on a    
l>ge scale1 ,=bes ,rob9son did on a     
small4  ,he inspir$ m5--inspir$ !m to   
se>* = & hold to ! realities ( life4    
',to sum up3 a man admitt$ into ! inn]  
*amb] ( 8 life le>nt !re some?+ ( ^!    
?ree ?+s3 7a7 ,! value ( 8 own          
p]sonality1 7b7 ! mean+ ( love1 7c7 !   
p[] ( pray]4  #ej  'a4 ,! value ( 8 own 
p]sonality4--,a man1 z he talk$ ) ,=bes1
 0 taught ) increas+ cle>ness ! amaz+   
possibilities ( life = any "o :o has    
tri$ to ?9k :at x means to say t ?is is 
,i4  ,_m ( u1 consci\s 9 ourselves only 
( v ord9>y atta9m5ts1 ( no v high       
ideals1 ( weaknesses ( "*1 le>nt f our  
fri5d t 9 spite ( all ?is1 our own      

p]sonality 0 ,god's greate/ gift to u4  
,we le>nt f him t our own p>ticul>      
commonplace life 01 ) all its failures &
 inconsi/5cies1 a trem5d\s ent]prise1   
big ) opportunities4  ,he taught u ?is  
by 8 belief 9 u4  ,he held 7aga9 l      
,bi%op ,we/cott7 ?r\gh ev]y?+ to ! fai? 
( man naturally ,*ri/ian4 ,by 8 belief 9
 a man he =c$ him at la/ to believe 9   
himself4  ,= he taught u t we 71 ea* "o1
 two m5--! real ,ego & ! false--& t !   
real self mu/ 9 ! end h ! ma/]y ov] !   
false1 because t real self 0 ! ,*ri/4   
'b4 ,! mean+ ( love4--,x is impossible =
 less] natures to ent] into all t ! ^w  
love meant to ,=bes4  ,8 love = 8 fri5ds
 0 wond]ful1 pass+ ! love ( wom54  ,he  
lov$ "s m5 ) an int5sity ( feel+        
impossible to describe4  ,x 0 almo/ pa9 
to him4  ,if he lov$ a man he lov$ him )
 a passionate love 7no weak] expression 
w d74  ,we und]graduates f\nd our       
natures too small to und]/& x4  ,yet1 z 
we le>nt to "k him m & m1 we began too  
to le>n a little ( :at real love is--we 

began to le>n :at c be ! mean+ & ! wond]
 & ! p[] #ea & ! dep? ( ! love ( man =  
man4  ,& we und]/ood 9 "t t 8 love = u &
 8 belief 9 u sprang f ! same high      
s\rce--f ! ,*ri/ 9 him1 9 u4  'c4 ,! p[]
 ( pray]4--,?is la/ lesson expla9$ ! o!r
 two4 ,p]haps only a few ( ^? :o knew   
,=bes z und]graduates le>nt x4  ,yet an 
intimate k ( him mu/ h =c$ almo/ any man
 to ! belief t 'm ?+s are wr\ght by     
pray] ?an ?is _w dreams (4'  ,he pray$ =
 ^? he lov$1 x is c]ta91 = h\rs at a "t4
  ,all 8 ?\ghts ab\t "s m5 gradually    
became pray]s4  ,he c\ld n tea* u ev]y?+
 t pray] meant to him2 he c\ld n tea* u 
to pray z he pray$4  ,yet ?r\gh him "o  
or two at lea/ ( 8 und]graduate fri5ds  
saw a little fur!r into ! et]nal my/]y (
 pray]4  ,& m5 mu/ sometimes--) all     
rev]5ce be x said--h exp]i5c$ 9 8       
pres5ce ! same k9d ( a feel+ ( "s great 
unse5 influ5ce at "w z t :i* ! disciples
 mu/ h exp]i5c$ 9 ! pres5ce ( ,*ri/ aft]
 ,he1 ap>t & alone1 _h wat*$ ?r\gh !    
night ) ,god 9 pray]4  ,= _m an h\r ( 8 

life did ,=bes sp5d l t1 /riv+ ) ,god = 
^? he lov$4 ,he believ$--he knew 7?is 0 
8 own te/imony7--t he c\ld 9 ?is way br+
 to be> ^u a man's life m real effective
 influ5ce ?an by any ^w ( direct p]sonal
 tea*+ or advice4  ,s did he prove once 
m t ! man ( p[] 9 ! spiritual _w is !   
man ( pray]4  ',^! are ! great lessons (
 ,=bes ,rob9son's #eb life--lessons :i* 
_m a c>eless und]graduate le>nt 9 a     
great] or less degree1 &1 le>n+1 caught 
f ! tea*] some?+ ( 8 passion = life &   
love & pray]1 = s]vice ( ,god & man4    
',!re mu/ be _m :o w n soon =get !      
lessons2 !re mu/ be _m 9 ^: lives !     
influ5ce & inspiration ( t sa9tly life w
 be = ev] a p[] mak+ = hol9ess & high   
ideals ( liv+2 !re are1 x is c]ta91 v _m
 :o w ?ank ,god cont9ually t !y 71 9 _! 
und]graduate days1 all[$ to call ,=bes  
,rob9son fri5d4  ',h[ _m ( u1 :5 we he>d
 ) a %ock ( almo/ horror t he _h pass$ f
 u1 conjur$ up be=e u ! picture we %all 
nev] see aga9--! picture ( our fri5d    
sitt+ any ev5+ at 8 table 9 ,d>w9's     

hi/oric rooms at ,*ri/'s1 dimly light$ )
 c&les6  ,we %all rememb] long ! quick  
look up at our entrance1 ! half-smile on
 8 face1 ! welcome ( a man's love 9 8   
eyes1 h[ev] busy & tir$ he might be4    
,!n1 ?\gh x co/ him lat] h\rs out ( b$1 
! invitation to sit d[n1 foll[$ quickly 
by an indignant remon/rance z we ou/$ 8 
cat f ! be/ arm-*air4  ,& !n ! talk t   
foll[$3 sometimes almo/ trivial2        
sometimes 7b only if we wi%$ x7 deeply  
s]i\s2 sometimes--& ^! occasions 7      
preci\s--a k9d ( soliloquy on 8 "p1 z he
 spoke ( ,god1 ( ! realities ( life1 (  
love1 ( pray]4  ,!n1 ) /ill ! same      
half-smile1 he w\ld bid u ,good night1 &
 wat* u out ( ! room ) ! same look (    
love 9 8 eyes ) :i* he welcom$ u1 #ec z 
he turn$ back to 8 table to "w & ?9k &  
pray f> into ! night4  ',s _m a "o ( u  
has left him aga9 & aga91 to return to !
 m]ry1 c>eless1 selfi% und]graduate _w a
 nobl]1 bett] man4  ,& n[ he has pass$ f
 u--dead ere 8 prime we %\ld say1 did we
 n und]/& t some:]e ! fai?ful1 hopeful1 

lov+ s\l has bett] "w to d4  ,he is1 z  
he ev] 01 9 ,*ri/4  ,he lives4  ,8 life 
rema9s "h & beyond4  ,8 fai? 9 ,god1 9  
pray]2 8 hope = e man2 8 utt]ly         
wond]ful1 amaz+ love1--!y /ill rema94 ,=
 nuni m5ei 7no?+ c rob u ( ! ^w7 pi/is1 
elpis1 agape1 ta tria tauta2 meizpon de 
t\ton he agape4'   ,transcrib]'s note3  
,! above ,greek phrases 7 translit]at$ z
 foll[s3 nuni--nu1 upsilon1 nu1 iota2   
m5ei--mu1 epsilon1 nu1 epsilon1 iota2   
pi/is--pi1 iota1 sigma1 tau1 iota1 f9al 
sigma2 elpis--epsilon1 lambda1 pi1 iota1
 f9al sigma2 agape--alpha 7s(t brea?+   
m>k71 gamma1 alpha1 pi1 eta2 ta--tau1   
alpha2 tria--tau1 rho1 iota1 alpha2     
tauta--tau1 alpha1 upsilon1 tau1 alpha2 
meizpon--mu1 epsilon1 iota1 zeta1 omega1
 nu2 de--delta1 epsilon2 t\ton--tau1    
omicron1 upsilon1 tau1 omega1 nu2       
he--7r\gh brea?+ m>k7 epsilon2          
agape--alpha 7s(t brea?+ m>k71 gamma1   
alpha1 pi1 eta    #ed  ,,lett]s   ,to   
,a4 ,v4 ,r4  ,brisl+ton ,hill1 ,bri/ol3 
,septemb] #bd1 #ahij4  4 4 4  ,i h be5  

p]suad$ to try ! ,semitic ,languages    
,tripos4  ,i h be5 le>n+ ,g]man &       
,syriac a little ?is ,long ) t aim 9    
view4 4 4 4  ,i don't really "k :at to  
d4  ,i am try+ to d :at w be/ fit me =  
my future "w4  ,x is h>d to "k :at is   
"r4  4 4 4  ,! only ?+ ,i want is n to  
develop into a m]e bookworm4 4 4 4  ,!  
atmosph]e ( ,cambridge s t5ds to dead5  
"o1 & to make "o unsympa!tic ) humanity2
 & yet ! ,*ur* today does s ne$ m5 :o "k
 some?+1 m5 :o c express ) no unc]ta9   
s\nd ! tru? ( ,old ,te/am5t & ,new      
,te/am5t criticism4 ,i want s to f9d out
 :at ! ,old ,te/am5t is1 & h[ f> we c   
believe 9 x1 9 its ess5tial tru?1 9 its 
hi/orical accuracy4  ,! "q c only be    
settl$ by s*ol>s--by s*ol>s fill$ ) ! _s
 ( humility & und]/&+4  ,x _c be settl$ 
by ! s-call$ spiritual faculty alone1 b 
only by ! intellect guid$ by ! ,_s (    
,tru?4  ,i h be5 read+ ,/4 ,john's      
,gospel 9 ,greek & ,syriac1 & m & m ,i  
become conv9c$ #ee t :at x says is tru?3
 zoe--life--any?+ wor? call+ life--any?+

 t c la/--any?+ t is ( use "h &         
h]eaft]--is to be ga9$ alone by actually
 eat+ & dr9k+ ! ,body ( ! ,son ( ,man4  
,! expression is awfully /rong--!       
expression 9 itself4  ,i am n talk+ (   
all sorts ( mod]n explanations ( !      
expression4  ,take x z x /&s 9 !        
orig9al3 ',y h no life1 unless y eat &  
dr9k4 4 4 4'  ,transcrib]'s note3 ,! ^w 
zoe 9 ! above p>agraph 0 translit]at$ f 
! ,greek lett]s zeta1 omega1 eta4  ,i   
wi% !re c\ld be a small ,greek ,te/am5t 
read+ 9 ! ,college = consid]+ :at ! ,new
 ,te/am5t really means1 ap>t f mod]n    
int]pretations4  ,is x possible to f9d  
out ! true1 orig9al mean+ ( t book1 & to
 und]/& its problems a little & its     
solutions8  ',quid importat sci5tia s9e 
timore ,dei8'    ,to ,t4 ,h4 ,m4        
,aldeburgh ,h\se1 ,blackhea?3 ,m>* #bj1 
#ahia4  ,i am gradually f9d+ out h[     
ignorant ,i am ( ! mean+ ( ! ,new       
,te/am5t1 & h[ mis]ably ,i h read my own
 mis]able notions & glosses into ! words
 ( ,/4 ,paul4  ,i am sure t ! solution (

 ! greate/ problems :i* conc]n humanity 
is to be f\nd 9 8 ,epi/les1 if we c\ld  
only approa* !m )\t bias & ) m          
*ildi%ness4  ,i feel c]ta9 t !          
,inc>nation is ! great fact ( ! _w's1 & 
probably ( ! univ]se's1 hi/ory4  ',! ,^w
 0 made fle%4'    ,& s ! ,^w _h brea?1 &
 wr\ght     ,) human h&s ! cre$ ( cre$s 
,9 lovel9ess ( p]fect de$s1   ,m /rong  
?an all poetic ?\ght4   #ef  ,! dea? on 
,calv>y mu/ h _h effects f> beyond ?is  
p>ticul> _w4  ',he desc5d$ into hell4'  
,he claim$ ,8 p[] ov] all p>ts ( ,8     
univ]se4  ,! ,good has conqu]$4  ,! ,bad
 is defeat$4    ,to ,t4 ,h4 ,m4  ,*ri/'s
 ,college1 ,cambridge3 ,july #ah1 #ahia4
  ,we h b lately he>d t my mission>y    
bro!r#a has pass$ away into ! et]nal _w4
  ,he di$ 9 ,africa4  ,he gave up all1  
he gave up 8 life = ,*ri/4  ,t]ribly z  
we feel ! loss1 & %all feel x /ill m1 ,i
 _c help ?ank+ ! ,et]nal ,fa!r t ,he has
 accept$ ! life-sacrifice1 & feel+ t ,he
 calls ^u u "h & n[1 ea* day & mom5t (  
our lives1 to (f] up ourselves on ! alt>

 ( univ]sal ?anksgiv+4  ,life is        
sacrifice1 r5unciation3 true life is    
dep5d5ce on ,god4  ,s9 is isolation1    
dea?--a failure to recognise & act on   
our dep5d5ce4  ,i d feel z ,i seldom    
felt be=e some?+ ( ! love ( ! ,fa!r1 !  
grace ( ! ,son1 ! communion ( ! ,_s4    
,we mu/ le>n t an individual hope1      
aspiration1 ambition1 is aga9/ ! law ( !
 univ]se--! law ( self-sacrifice4  ,we  
mu/ le>n t our wills are ours to make !m
 ,god's2 t if we h a s+le hope or ?\ght 
:i* ,he does n inspire1 :i* true        
humanity _c %>e1 ! hope & ?\ght are     
wrong4  ,god grant t y & ,i may r5\nce  
#eg our individual lives1 & become truly
 ourselves by m>tyrdom1 by all[+ ! ,*ri/
 9 u to live4  ,i am to be orda9$ 9     
,septemb]4  ,pray = me4  ,!re is no p[] 
l pray]4  ,let u pray = "o ano!r4  ,!   
great ,fa!r longs = simple lives1 simple
 piety1 p]petual ?anksgiv+4  ,& we h s  
mu* to be ?ankful =--s mu* "h & n[4  ,i 
d long to (f] body1 m9d1 s\l1           
affections1 w1 hope1 to ,him z a        

?anksgiv+4 ,self-r5unciation1 life 9 a  
,*ur*1 a ,body1 is ! only life4  ,god   
grant we may live x6   #a ,john ,alfr$  
,rob9son1 =m]ly a s*ol> ( ,*ri/'s       
,college1 :o di$ at ,lokoja on ! ,riv]  
,nig]1 on ,june #be1 #ahia4    ,to ,t4  
,h4 ,m4  ,*ri/'s ,college1 ,cambridge3  
,novemb] #ag1 #ahia4  ,d y "k t x isn't 
a bad ?+ to feel a babe8  ,we mu/ all   
become simple little *ildr5 be=e we ent]
 ! k+dom ( heav51 because ,god1 :o lives
 9 t k+dom1 has ! simple/ he>t 9 all !  
wide univ]se--! mo/ *ildlike1 = ,god is 
,love4  ,he has no cross purposes4      
,?\gh ,he is /rong] & bett] & bigg] ?an 
we are1 ,he is simpl]4  ,he w love a    
poor1 simple old woman 9 ,8 simple way )
 a wond]ful affection4  ,he is s simple1
 because ,he does n "k :at s9 is4  ,god 
nev] s9s4  ,god is ,light1 & 9 ,him is  
no d>kness at all4  ,x is ?is           
simplicity1 ?is love ( ,"o :o is        
omnipot5t1 uncreate1 illimitable1       
et]nal1 t makes me rev]5ce ,him1 adore  
,him1 live = ,him1 love ,him4           

,simplicity is wond]fully attractive4   
,! man :o kn[s lea/ ( s9 is mo/ helpful 
to me1 because #eh he is mo/ simple &   
,godlike4  ,! 'man ( ! _w' is mo/       
repulsive1 because he is mo/ l ! ,devil4
    ,to ,e4 ,n4 ,l41 on ! occasion ( 8  
ord9ation4  ,cambridge3 ,m>* #aj1 #ahib4
  ,x gives me great pleasure to ?9k t on
 ,sunday next y w be made a ,deacon 9   
,god's ,*ur*4  ,i ?ank ,god t ,he has   
call$ y to "o ( ! highe/ (fices on e>?1 
t h5ce=? y w be '9' or 7%all we say87   
'"u' ord]s--,god's ord]s--t y will+ly   
r5\nce y\r life1 y\r ?\ghts1 y\r hopes1 
y\r ambitions to ,him4 ,y w probably he>
 mu* & be told mu* at ?is "t4  ,i h no?+
 to say t y h n he>d & w n he> said f>  
bett] by o!rs4  ,our ,*ur* gives !      
keynote 9 ! collect = ,sunday3 ',we h no
 p[]4'  ,i nev] realis$ my weakness1 my 
pride1 my holl[ness s mu* z ,i did at my
 ord9ation4  ,god has be5 tea*+ me1 ev5 
9 ! %ort "t s9ce ,i 0 orda9$1 wond]ful  
lessons--lessons ( /r5g? be+ p]fect$ 9  
weakness4  ,he alone kn[s ! dep?s ( our 

hypocrisy1 our vanity1 our a!ism1 & ,he 
alone c help u4  ,to get ne>] to ,him1  
to "k ,him bett]--?is is :at ,i want1   
?is is et]nal life4  ,z we believe 9 a  
,p]son :o is by our side1 :o is help+ u1
 tra9+ u1 we %all be able to proclaim   
,him to o!rs4  ,d n m9d ab\t feel+s4  ,y
 may h beautiful feel+s at y\r ord9ation
 "t4  ,?ank ,god if y h4  ,he s5ds !m4  
,y may h none4  ,?ank ,god if y h n1 =  
,he has kept !m back4  ,we d #ei n want 
to feel bett] & /rong]2 we want to be   
bett] & /rong]4  ,& ,he has made u bett]
 & /rong]4 ,he has giv5 u ,8 ,_s z we   
knelt be=e ! bi%op4  ,we mu/ g =? 9 t   
/r5g?4  ,we mu/ use x1 live on x1 & x w 
be ours4  ,kata t5 pi/9 humon g5e!to    
hum94  ,:5 we feel mo/ hopeless1 mo/    
wret*$1 mo/ di/ant f ,god1 rememb]      
'feel+s don't matt]4'  ,rememb] t ,god's
 ,son felt ! same temptation1 rememb] t 
,he too 0 =sak5 by ,8 ,god4  ,& :5 all  
seems lo/1 ,satan seems ma/]1 we are    
misund]/ood2 rememb] t ',i believe 9 !  
,holy ,gho/1' :o is /rong] ?an sep>ation

 or dea?1 ?an feel+s1 ?an our he>ts4    
,all our feel+s & ?\ghts & wi%es are    
no?+4  ,god is ev]y?+ & 9 all4  ,all our
 conceptions w be %att]$1 all our s*emes
 ov]?r[n1 t a ,great ,p]son beh9d may be
 reveal$4  ,to "k1 to love1 to make     
kn[n1 to make m5 love t ,p]son is our "w
 9 life 4 4 4 4  ,transcrib]'s note3 ,! 
,greek words 9 ! above p>agraph 7       
translit]at$ z foll[s3 ,kata--,kappa1   
alpha1 tau1 alpha2 t5--tau1 eta1 nu2    
pi/9--pi1 iota1 sigma1 tau1 iota1 nu2   
humon--7r\gh brea?+ m>k7 upsilon1 mu1   
omega1 nu2 g5e!to--gamma1 epsilon1 nu1  
eta1 !ta1 eta1 tau1 omega2 hum9--7r\gh  
brea?+ m>k7 upsilon1 mu1 iota1 nu  ,we  
are m5 s5t f ,god4  ,we come to be>     
witness ( a ,light4  ,d n let u confuse 
ourselves ) our message4  ,! message is 
ev]y?+2 we are no?+4  ,! ,light simply  
%9es ?r\gh u4  ,we mu/ be glad to be    
%att]$1 reject$1 if s be t ! ,light %9+ 
?r\gh u may be manife/$4  ,"o sugge/ion 
,i make3 t y d :at ,i believe y are     
expect$ by ! words ( ! ,pray]-book to   

d--say ! ,morn+ & ,ev5+ ,pray] daily    
always1 unless y are ill1 at home or 9  
*ur*1 & ! ,litany on ,w$nesday1 ,friday1
 & ,sunday4  ,y w f9d ?is a great] help 
?an almo/ any?+ else--a help aga9/      
sup]/ition1 n>r[ness1 bigotry1 #fj      
he>tlessness4  ,if y decide n to d s1 d 
x ) "s really good reason1 & n because  
o!rs d ! same1 or because x is a bo!r4  
,& n[ good-bye4  ,& may ,god grant u to 
"k ,him on e>?1 s t we may toge!r "k    
,him bett] h]eaft]4    ,to ,w4 ,a4 ,b4  
,blackhea?3 ,april #cj1 #ahib4  4 4 4   
,no am\nt ( philosophical !ories are    
wor? mu* comp>$ ) a simple picture (    
home life4  ,x is ^! common relations ( 
life :i* are mo/ awful & sacr$4  ,!     
highe/ life we "k is1 ,i ?9k ,i may say 
) rev]5ce1 family life--life ( ,fa!r &  
,son2 family life on e>? is a fa9t      
picture ( some?+ bett] 9 heav54  ,we    
%all be surpris$ "s day to f9d t1 :ile  
we h be5 se>*+ = ! noble & div9e1 we h x
 all ! :ile at home4  ,! relations (    
bro!r & bro!r1 son & fa!r1 are et]nal   

realities1 :i* we %all nev] fa?om1 =    
,god ,himself is bel[ !m4 ',omnia exeunt
 9 my/]ium1' z ,k+sley says 9 ',yea/4'  
,i am v pleas$ ) t novel4  ,!           
description he gives ( ! suff]+s &      
squalor ( villages is positively awful4 
,we d want m5 :o believe t              
self-sacrifice1 n selfi%ness1 is at !   
top ( all1 :o are sure t family life is 
made 9 heav5 & is made 9 ! image (      
,god's life1 :o "k t 9 ! pres5t is !    
et]nal1 to g & live & "w & die 9 our    
villages4  ,b ,k+sley %[s x is n en\gh  
to give alms or o!r social b5efits--we  
mu/ d m ?an t1 we mu/ raise _! :ole #fa 
life & condition4  ,i believe myself t  
?is c only be done f inside4  ,?us1 :5  
,god wi%$ to r$eem man1 ,he did x f     
inside4  ,man himself f\ght & conqu]$4  
,deity ent]$ into humanity4  ,x is n    
m]ely t we mu/ live simply1 ?9k simply1 
"w1 z !y d4  ,t is well1 b we mu/ d m4  
,if we want to look at !m f ! inside1 ,i
 "k only "o way--! old1 old way :i* ,god
 ,himself adopts4  ,we mu/ love !m1 love

 ! ,*ri/1 ! ,_s 9 !m--n ! bea/1 ! devil 
9 !m4  ,l attracts l4  ,to love & to    
detect t1 we mu/ h "s ( t ,_s1 t ,*ri/4 
,t means to say t to help o!rs f !      
inside1 we mu/ be "r inside ourselves4  
,& yet none ( u are "r inside4  ,b !re  
is t 9 u :i* is "r1 t 9 u :i* is n      
ourselves1 b is deep] ?an ourselves4  ,a
 ,son :o w make u true sons1 a ,bro!r :o
 w tea* u h[ to be bro!rs1 a ,human ,be+
 :o w %[ u :at is 9 all human be+s2 a   
,love :o w tea* u :at we always fancy we
 "k1 b :at we don't "k 7else we %\ld be 
div9e7--h[ to love2 a ,man :o w make u  
sa9ts & g5tlem5--! ,man ,*ri/ ,jesus4   
,yes1 & !re is 9 u a ,great ,_s :o is   
unit+ u by invisible bonds to all t is  
good & heal?y & ,godlike1 a ,_s :o      
discipl9es our w :5 x is weake/ & mo/   
self-indulg5t1 :o tra9s our _s & fights 
our battles aga9/ ! evil _s1 a ,p]son :o
 makes u p]sons4  ,h[ !n d m5 diff]8    
,if 9 e man !re is ! ,light :i* light5s 
him1 ! ,*ri/1 ! ,_s1 :at is ! diff]5ce  
betwe5 good & bad m58  ,does #fb a good 

man possess religion1 or fai?1 or love8 
,no1 ! be/ m5 w\ld tell y !y 7 possess$ 
by fai? & love1 r ?an t !y possess$ !m4 
,:at fai? or love !y h is n a           
possession--x is 9 !m1 n ( !m1 n belong+
 to !m4  ,x comes f ! ,*ri/ 9 !m4  ,!   
diff]5ce betwe5 m5 is n t "o is inspir$ 
& ano!r is n1 b t "o yields to ! ,_s1   
ano!r does n4  ,we beg9 to obey :5 we   
lose ourselves 9 t ,_s & =get all b     
,god4  ,we ought nev] to settle any     
detail 9 life )\t tak+ ,him into acc\nt3
 we are fools if we d4  ,h[ c we be     
logical8  ,= ,he is 9 t detail1 & n to  
?9k ( ,him is n to und]/& t detail4  ,= 
e detail is m ?an a detail--x is !      
expression ( a ,p]son4  ,i h w&]$ into a
 tra9 ( ?\ght sugge/$ by ',yea/1' & 9 "p
 copi$ directly f x4  ,=give me4  ,i 0  
half ?9k+ al\d4 ,t is my "o excuse =    
say+ :at ,i am try+ to ?9k4  ,i nev]    
play$ golf4  ,i d t sort ( ?+ by deputy4
  ,k---- is ! sort ( man to d x = me4   
,at any rate1 ,i tru/ him ) my football 
& r[+4  ,x doesn't tire y s mu* if y d x

 t way4  ,only let me give y "o piece ( 
advice1 :i* ,i only wi% ,i act$ ^u3     
',don't d y\r ?9k+ by deputy3' d y\r    
r[+1 golf1 football1 cricket1 skittles1 
talk+ if y l1 b n y\r ?9k+4   #fc  ,to  
,d4 ,d4 ,r2 writt5 apropos ( a          
discussion on ,/4 ,paul's idea ( !      
relation betwe5 ,s9 & ! ,law4  #b ,new  
,squ>e1 ,cambridge2 ,monday be=e ,ea/]1 
#ahib4  ,i _c b help feel+ t "p ( y\r   
difficulties are self-made4 ,is !re su* 
a diff]5ce betwe5 ,jewi% law & law 9    
g5]al8  ,:at is law--law 9 ! ab/ract8   
,:at d y mean :5 y talk ab\t laws (     
sci5ce or morality8  ,surely !re is no  
su* ?+ z law 9 ! ab/ract4  ,y really    
mean ,god's ?\ght4  ,all law exi/$ long 
be=e ?is _w exi/$1 z ! ?\ght ( ,god4    
,?is ?\ght expresses itself1 :5 ! _w is 
actually made1 9 animals1 nature1 man4  
,b ?is ?\ght is some:at long be=e x     
expresses itself1 because x is ,god's   
?\ght4  ,) ,him 'to ?9k' is 'to d4'     
,be=e y & ,i 7 born1 be=e m5 7 made1 man
 exi/s 9 ,god z a ?\ght4  ,ea* ( u is an

 expression ( "p ( t ?\ght4  ,! :ole    
?\ght is ! image ( ,god1 n any "o "p4   
,n[1 :5 ,i speak ( man z some?+ 9       
contra-di/9ction to m51 ,i mean ! ?\ght 
( ,god 9 contradi/9ction to its         
individual realisation4  ,s :5 ,i speak 
( law z di/9ct f special laws1 ,i mean a
 ?\ght ( ,god z di/9ct f its special    
expressions4  ,o!rwise 'man' & 'law' are
 ab/ractions & non5tities4  ,! nom9ali/ 
is "r 9 s f> z he d5ies t law z an      
ab/ract ?+ 7consid]$ ap>t f a p]son--z 8
 ?\ght7 is any?+3 ! reali/ is "r 9 s f> 
z he affirms t law1 ap>t f #fd any      
p>ticul> manife/ation1 is an et]nal     
reality4  ,! reconciliation ( nom9alism 
& realism is f\nd 9 ,god4  ,apply+ ?is  
to ! case 9 h&--y admit t ! ,t5         
,comm&m5ts are ! gr\nd ( morality2      
!re=e1 ,i say1 !y mu/ be an expression (
 a ?\ght ( ,god1 ! ,au?or ( morality4   
,b y are puzzl$ to f9d t ! mo/ trivial  
sanit>y arrangem5ts are consid]$ by !   
,jew z equally a manife/ation ( ,god4   
,ne$ we be8  ,9 e little sanit>y        

precaution ,i recognise1 or ought to    
recognise1 an expression ( t same m9d z 
,i see x 9 ! ,t5 ,comm&m5ts4  ,god is   
,light1 !re=e ! clean1 ! heal?y1 ! dec5t
 is an expression ( ,him4  ,god is      
,love1 !re=e ! social1 ! self-sacrific+1
 is an expression ( ,him z well4  ,b    
sanit>y arrangem5ts & ! l1 ?\gh an      
expression ( an un*ang+ pr9ciple1 *ange 
accord+ to /ate ( civilisation1 climate1
 c\ntry4  ,!re=e we take ! pr9ciple1 n !
 expression1 z ! ultimate reality 9 !   
case ( ^! sanit>y laws4  ,i am afraid ,i
 am r /upid1 & _c make my mean+ pla94   
,i want to %[ y t ! ,jewi% law only     
diff]s f ,engli% law z be+ 9 "s ways a m
 complete expression ( ,god's nature4   
,b 9 all sanit>y law1 c41 n[ we h ,god's
 nature express$4  ,& x w\ld be true to 
say1 ',god spake unto ,engl&1           
say+'--e4g4 9 a "r decision 9 c\rt2 x   
w\ld be true to say1 ',god spake unto ! 
judge1 say+4'  ,!re=e1 :at holds good ( 
,moses' law holds good ( all law1       
because all law is a ?\ght ( ,god4  #fe 

,!re=e ,/4 ,paul uses indiff]5tly nomos 
& ho nomos1 = :at is true ( ,god's ?\ght
 is true ( e expression ( x4  ,9 fact1  
he m (t5 p]haps argues ab\t "o p>ticul> 
expression ( x4  ,:y8  ,because we c    
only tell :at ! ?\ght is by /udy+ !     
expression4  ,transcrib]'s note3 ,!     
,greek words 9 ! above p>agraph 7       
translit]at$ z foll[s3 nomos--nu1       
omicron1 mu1 omicron1 f9al sigma2       
ho--7r\gh brea?+ m>k71 omicron  ,don't  
be tak5 9 by ab/ractions4  ,an ideal is 
no?+--worse ?an no?+--unless our ideal  
is ,god's idea4  ,!n x is ! only        
reality1 because ,god's idea w take     
effect4  ,8 idea is to make man 9 ,8    
image1 & be sure x w take effect4       
,comm&m5ts1 judgm5ts1 /atutes1 mean mu* 
! same 9 ! ,old ,te/am5t1 ,i conceive1 z
 we mean :5 we use !m4  ,! ,t5          
,comm&m5ts are n s call$ 9 ! ,bible1 ,i 
?9k4  ,!y are call$ 'words1' ,i ?9k4  ,i
 d n ?9k ,/4 ,paul at all re/rict$ nomos
 to ! ,t5 ,comm&m5ts4  ,9 fact1 ,i don't
 "k t he ev] v cle>ly sep>at$ ^? (f f   

all ! re/4  ,d n 9 y\r essay make ! same
 mi/ake z _m ( ! ,jews 9 ,/4 ,paul's "t4
  ,d n try to consid] law ap>t f !      
,law-giv]4 ,!y look$ ^u law z a dead ?+ 
by itself1 n z an expression ( ! "* ( a 
p]son4  ,?us ! ,comm&m5t ab\t re/+ on ! 
,sabba? day 0 consid]$ by !m z an ord] z
 ?\gh f a tyrant4  ,b ,god1 :5 ,he gave 
x1 did n simply say1 ',"h x is3 d x'--b 
',d x because1' & ,he gives ! reason :y4
  ,! reason is diff]5t 9 ,exodus &      
,deut]onomy1 because ! books 71 to a    
c]ta9 degree p]haps1 writt5 to #ff      
illu/rate diff]5t aspects ( ,god's "*4  
,exodus says3 ',"w & re/1 because ,god's
 life is "w & re/4 ,!re=e human life    
made 9 ,8 image is "w & re/4'           
,deut]onomy says3 ',"w & re/4  ,god has 
emancipat$ y f slav]y4  ,he bids y re/4'
  ,9 bo? cases ,god is ! gr\nd ( ! law4 
,/udy law--any law--,engli% law--& 9 s  
f> z x is law1 & n lawlessness "u guise 
( law1 y w be /udy+ ,god ,himself2 = if 
,/4 ,paul's pr9ciples are true at all1  
!y mu/ be true ( all law4  ,b1 oh6 don't

 deal ) ab/ractions1 :i* s\nd well1 b   
mean little4  ,let u use :at we h4  ,x  
is a gr& ?+ to "k t ! highe/ ideal we c 
conceive mu/ be realis$1 = ! highe/     
ideal mu/ be "p ( ,god's idea4  ,don't  
try to look at moral law ap>t f national
 life4  ,/4 ,paul did n4  ,law is se5 9 
national life4  ,a nation is a bett]    
expression ( ,god ?an an individual1    
because ,god is ?ree1 n simply "o4  ,he 
is a social ,be+1 a ,be+ ( relations4   
,& nations w la/ = ev]4 ,law w always be
 se5 work$ out 9 national life4  ,god   
has m worlds ?an "o4  ,ea* nation is a  
?\ght ( ,god work$ out 9 human clay 7cf4
 ,j]emiah xviii4 #a-f74  ,human clay    
la/s = ev] 7',i believe 9 ! resurrection
 ( ! body'74  ,law w always be work$ out
 ?us4 ,we are "p ( a ?\ght ( ,god--"p ( 
an ,engli% nation--little fragm5ts ( a  
huge :ole4  ,our immortality dep5ds on !
 fact t we are p>ts ( a nation1 p>ts ( a
 ,div9e idea1 :i* la/s = ev]4 ,law is m 
completely se5 9 consci\s ?an unconsci\s
 life1 because ,god's life is consci\s4 

,law is m completely se5 #fg 9 family & 
national ?an individual life1 because 9 
,god ,himself are se5 ! ar*etypes (     
human relations4  ,?is lett] is         
disjo9t$1 b conta9s a few ?\ghts :i* may
 prove helpful--?\ghts ,i h be5 le>n+ f 
o!rs ( late4  ,we are hav+ lovely wea!r4
  ,! buds 'feel+' aft] ea* o!r--new life
 & resurrection life--a type1 a pl$ge ( 
full] resurrection1 ( ,ea/] life--nay1 !
 same ,life--',i am ! ,resurrection & ! 
,life'--work+ 9 trees & fl[]s & man4    
,:at a glori\s ?+ to live 9 a _w :i* has
 be5 unit$ ) its ,mak]--a _w ( p]fect   
law & ord]--a _w :]e e infraction ( law 
mu/ & w be puni%$--a _w :]e ,love is    
,law & ,law is ,love--a _w :]e a great  
?\ght is be+ realis$1 & w be realis$ 9 &
 = u6  ,y use ',!ology'                 
loosely--',!ology' is ! ?+ & ',religion'
 is n1 ,i ?9k1 ne>ly su* a f9e ^w4      
,!ology is ! ,le>n+1 ,kn[+1 ,/udy+ ,god4
  ,i am sorry ,i h said no?+ ab\t ,jewi%
 sacrificial law4  ,i meant to4  ,t     
expresses a great fact4  ,x dimly h9ts  

7z sacrificial law 9 o!r nations does7  
at ! fact t ! gr\nd ( ! univ]se is      
self-sacrifice--t ! gr\nd ( all human1  
:e!r family or national1 life is a      
filial sacrifice4  ,i ?9k o!r nations   
besides ,jews reg>d$ all law z com+ f   
,god2 nay1 ,i ?9k all nations did 9 "p  
at lea/4    #fh  ,to ,e4 ,n4 ,l41 on !  
occasion ( ! dea? ( 8 bro!r1 :o 0 kill$ 
by lightn+ at ,cambridge4#a  ,june #ah1 
#ahib4  4 4 4  ,i d feel = y1 & c\ld d a
 great deal to help y4  ,i c only tell y
 :at ,i h felt to be ! only ?+ :i* makes
 life endurable at a "t ( real          
sorr[--,god ,himself4  ,he comes        
unutt]ably ne> 9 tr\ble4  ,9 fact1 "o   
sc>cely kn[s ,he exi/s until "o loves or
 sorr[s4  ,!re is no 'gett+ ov]' sorr[4 
,i hate ! idea4  ,b !re is a 'gett+     
into' sorr[1 & f9d+ "r 9 ! he>t ( x !   
de>e/ ( all human be+s--! ,man (        
,sorr[s1 a ,god4  ,?is may s\nd z       
commonplace1 b x is awfully real to me4 
,i cl+ to ,god4  ,i believe ,he exi/s4  
,if ,he does n1 ,i c expla9 no?+4  ,if  

,he does1 all :om we love are saf] )    
,him ?an ) u4  ,if we c only get ne>]   
ourselves to ,god1 we %all get ne>] to  
^? :om we love1 = !y too are 9 ,god4    
,we %all be "o1 ev] m & m really "o1 !  
ne>] & ! lik] we get to ,god4 4 4 4  ,my
 de> fri5d1 words are poor com=t at a "t
 l ?is1 :5 we see into et]nity4  ,a     
,p]son is our only hope1 & t ,p]son is  
,god4  ,god (t5 takes ^? :om ,he loves  
be/ home to ,himself z soon z ,he c4  ,9
 ! process ( _! developm5t !y break     
?r\gh ! bonds ( space & "t4  ,he has    
tak5 y\r bro!r1 b n tak5 him away f y4  
,we are #fi all 9 ! same home--pray+ =1 
kn[+1 lov+ ea* o!r4 4 4  ,i believe 9 ! 
communion ( sa9ts--,i believe t ^? :o   
began to "k ,god "h1 & :om we call dead1
 are n dead4  ,!y are j beg9n+ to live1 
because !y are f9d+ out ,god3 !y are j  
beg9n+ to "k u1 because !y see u z we   
are--!y see u 9 ,god4  ,!y are ) ,jesus1
 & ,jesus is a human be+4  ,because !y  
are ) a human be+1 a man1 ! man1 ! ,son 
( man1 !y mu/1 !y d1 take a deep int]e/ 

9 ! affairs ( ! sons ( m51 &--may we n  
believe8--9 u1 :om !y knew bel[4 4 4 4  
,^! are tru?s :i* sorr[ helps me to make
 my own4  ,i pray t y may nev]1 nev]    
'get ov]' ! sorr[1 b get ?r\gh x1 into  
x1 into ! v he>t ( ,god4   #a ,writ+ to 
ano!r fri5d at ?is "t he says1 ',he 0   
walk+ ) a fri5d1 & 9 a mom5t1 )\t any   
app>5t pa91 ,god's f+] t\*$ him & he    
slept4'    ,to ,a4 ,w4 ,g4  ,blackhea?3 
,june #bg1 #ahib4  ,i h m & m come to ! 
conclusion = "s "t pa/ t ! only reality 
und]ly+ & expla9+ ! _w mu/ be p]sonal4  
,i "k t ,i am a p]son1 & t x is         
p]sons--especially a few p>ticul>       
p]sons--n ?+s1 :o h influ5c$ me & _h a  
p[] 9 my life4  ,all my ideas ( ju/ice &
 purity & goodness are insep>ably b\nd  
up ) p]sons4  ,at la/ ,i h come to !    
conclusion t no?+ exi/s except !        
p]sonal1 & t bel[ all is ,"o :o is      
p]sonal4  ,t means to say t ! _w & ?+s 9
 x are only real 9 s f> z !y are ?\ghts 
( ,god4  ,we are real only 9 s f> z we  
are ?\ghts ( ,god4  ,a #gj ,roman       

,ca?olic poet1 speak+ ( ! ,virg9 ,m>y1  
says3    ,if ,m>y is s beautiful1   ,:at
 mu/ h] ,mak] be8   ,i look r\nd ! _w & 
,i see p]sons :o attract me 9 a wond]ful
 way--p]sons :o are m graci\s & simple  
?an ,i am2 & !n ,i _c help feel+ t !y   
all are a k9d ( fa9t picture ( ,"o :o is
 bett] ?an all ( !m1 ,"o 9 ^: image !y  
are made4  ,i l1 ,i _c help lik+1       
int5sely "s ( !m2 & f !m ,i am l$ on to 
,him :o made !m & :o !re=e mu/--if ,i   
only knew ,him--be m attractive ev5 ?an 
!y are4  ,i believe t we are int5d$ to  
rise f !m to ,him :o made !m1 t if we   
/op %ort ) ! creature1 we l[]           
ourselves--we become idolat]s4  ,we     
wor%ip beauty or intellect or goodness z
 ?\gh !y belong$ to ! creature2 we !reby
 l[] ourselves & ! p]sons :om we wor%ip4
 ,if1 on ! contr>y1 we rise f !m to !   
,p]sonal ,be+1 we see m 9 !m ?an we ev] 
saw be=e1 & we get ne>] to !m ?an we ev]
 got be=e4  ,= life is a circle ^: c5tre
 is ,god4  ,ea* ( u is unconnect$ ) 8   
neighb\r1 b connect$ ) ! c5tre f :om he 

comes4  ,! ne>] ! c5tre1 ! ne>] we get  
to ea* o!r4 ,:5 we get to ! c5tre1 we   
really become unit$ ) ea* o!r4  ,to die 
is to get a /ep ne>] ! c5tre4  ,! clos] 
we are connect$ ) ! c5tre1 ! ne>] we are
 to ^? :om we call dead4  ,our communion
 ) !m is spiritual1 because ',god is _s'
 & !y are 9 ,him4  ,b ! #ga spiritual is
 n ! unsub/antial1 ! nebul\s1 ! gase\s2 
x is ! p]sonal--to my m9d !             
awful--reality4  ,! m truly we und]/&   
p]sons1 ! m we %all f9d !y are spirits4 
,i tell y :at has be5 ! greate/ possible
 /r5g? to me ( late4 ,god is n m]ely a  
,p]son1 ,he is ,?ree ,p]sons 9 ,"o4  ,i 
am always try+ to get clos] to ^? :om ,i
 love be/1 to "k !m m1 to s]ve !m bett]4
  ,yet some?+ is ev] keep+ u ap>t4  ,i  
said 'some?+1' ,i mean '"s "o1' = only a
 p]son c keep a p]son f ano!r--only a   
malici\s1 a devili% p]son--yet ,i feel t
 "s day ,i %all be able to love1 & "k !m
 bett]4  ,!n ,i look out on life & ,i   
see h[ aga9 & aga9 dea?1 & "s "o worse  
?an dea?1 is sep>at+ u1 mis9t]pret+     

motives1 keep+ m5 ap>t2 m5 are /ruggl+  
to be "o1 & _c be2 on e>? p]sons long to
 be "o1 p]sons :o love feel !y ought to 
be1 !y mu/ be "o4  ,9 heav5 ,?ree       
,p]sons are really1 p]fectly1 q ,"o4    
,:at we are try+ to d has be5 done !re4 
,m5 try to be "o4  ,god is ,"o4  ,& !   
com=t comes 9 :5 "o kn[s t '9 ! image ( 
,god made ,he man4'  ,our life is a     
copy2 ,god's life is ! orig9al4         
,because ,god is ,"o1 we1 ^: life is a  
picture ( ,81 %all "s day be "o1 z ,he  
is4  ,! unity ( ,deity is a pl$ge ( !   
unity ( humanity4  ,! m we make our life
 l ! orig9al ! m %all we realise :at we 
long to realise--tru]1 deep]1 m et]nal  
unity4  ,b we are n simply try+ to be1  
we are "o4  ,all we h to d1 ,i believe1 
is to act z ?\gh we 7 "o4  ,we h #gb    
pro(s ( ?is unity4 ,we f9d ourselves do+
 an action :i* we %\ld nev] h done      
unless we _h kn[n "s "o4  ,t "o lives   
ov] 8 life1 or "p ( 8 life1 aga9 9 u4   
,s too we are liv+ ov] our lives 9 o!r  
p1 p]haps 9 "s :o h pass$ into o!r      

worlds ( full] activity ?an ?is4  ,9    
liv+ our lives ov] 9 ea* o!r1 we %[ t we
 are m ?an we ?\ght2 & x is gr& to ?9k  
h[ big our lives may become 9 ?is way1 =
 ^? :om we influ5ce--into :om our life  
fl[s 9--9 turn may influ5ce o!rs4  ,:5  
,i get q quiet1 & my m9d is sane1 & my  
consci5ce at re/1 :5 ,i almo/ /op ?9k+1 
& li/51 ,i am q sure t a ,p]sonal ,be+  
comes to me1 &1 z ,he comes1 br+s "s (  
,8 own life to fl[ into my life4  ,i am 
also sure t ) ,him come ^? :o live 9    
,him1 t all :om ,i h kn[n or "k1 & long$
 or long to "k bett]1 :o 7 wor? kn[+1   
are ne> me1 are1 if ,i let !m1 liv+ _!  
lives 9 my life1 mak+ me :at ,i %\ld n  
be )\t !m4  7,^! are facts1 ( :i* ,i ?9k
 ,i may say ,i h m c]ta9ty 9 ! be/      
mom5ts ( my life ?an ,i h n[ t ,switz]l&
 exi/s4  ,b ,i may be exagg]at+4        
,p]haps z reg>ds ! second fact--( ! o!r 
p]sons ) ,him--,i may h spok5 too       
/rongly z reg>ds my c]ta9ty4  ,x is s   
h>d to say exactly :at "o means47  ,i   
don't "k t ^! ?\ghts w be ( mu* use to  

y4  ,!y may s\nd some:at too            
philosophical4  ,b ,i h m or less       
purposely put !m 9 a philosophical =m1  
because we are n ?us s #gc easily l$    
a/ray into vague pleasant feel+s1 :i* we
 sometimes get f rhetoric4  ,b ,i d wi% 
,i c\ld put a little m ( my feel+s into 
?is cold pap]1 & cruel1 unsympa!tic ink4
  ,= :at ,i h writt5 is n a m]e         
philosophy ( life2 x is ! only ?+ t     
makes life tol]able = a mom5t to me2 x  
is ! "o ?+ :i* ,i int5sely long to      
realise4  ,to my m9d life is love1 &    
love is life4 ,love is n s5tim5tal      
affection1 simply ! read9ess to die = a 
p]son4  ,b love is ! lay+ d[n ( life = a
 p]son1 absolutely r5\nc+ y\r life =    
ano!r4  ,x means liv+ ! be/ life y c    
conceive ( = ! sake ( "o y love2 kn[+ = 
c]ta9 t y\r life is fl[+ into t o!r     
p]son1 ?\gh y may nev] see him aga9 9   
?is _w4  ,love is purify+ y\rself t     
ano!r may be pure4  ,love = "o p]son1 if
 x be true love1 leads y at once to     
,god1 = ',god is ,love4'  ,i d n "k :at 

t means1 b ,i d "k t ! little mean+ ,i c
 see 9 x expla9s ev]y?+4  ,z we love1   
,god is !re2 we see ,god1 we are 9 ,god4
  ,s we are l$ on f unselfi% love on e>?
 to t unselfi% family life ( ,?ree 9 ,"o
 9 heav52 we are l$ on to ,him 9 ^:     
image we are made1 & ^: image we nev] s 
cle>ly reflect z :5 we love mo/4  ,i    
c\ld g on talk+ on ?is subject almo/ =  
ev]1 b ,i ?9k ,i _h bett] n tax y\r     
pati5ce4    #gd  ,to ,w4 ,a4 ,b4        
,*ri/'s ,college1 ,cambridge3 ,july #e1 
#ahib4  ,h[ v jolly = y to get out "r   
away into ! c\ntry6  ,i hope "s day to  
be able to d ! same4  ,b ,i ?9k1 on !   
:ole1 ,i am bett] suit$ = retir+ f ! _w 
?an y are6  ,if x 7 "r to wi% x1 ,i     
might almo/ wi% to ex*ange places ) y4  
,b yet ,i don't4  ,x is v curi\s--,i d>e
 say y h ?\ght ( x--h[ v1 v few p1 if   
any1 y w\ld delib]ately wi% to *ange    
into1 if y c\ld4  ,"o admires _m p1 &   
w\ld l to h _! goodness1 _! intellect1  
or _! beauty or /r5g?--b h[ few ( !m "o 
w\ld really be3 to cease at once to be  

y\rself1 & sudd5ly to be "s "o else--to 
look at life ) _! eyes1 to h _! pa/1 _! 
hopes = ! future1 _! s9s1 _! inmo/      
?\ghts1 _! anxieties4  ,!re is only ab\t
 "o man 9 ! _w1 :om ,i "k1 :om ,i w\ld l
 to be--& ev5 ( t ,i am n sure4  ,x is !
 wond]ful s5se ( p]sonality4  ,we abuse 
'me'2 we (t5 vaguely say we w\ld r be "s
 "o else2 yet v few ( u wi% to lose     
'me'3 & mo/ ( u p]haps nev] w4  ,liddon 
is1 ,i %\ld ?9k1 some:at /iff &         
un9t]e/+4  ,gore's ,bampton ,lectures on
 mu* ! same subject are f> m int]e/+ to 
my m9d1 f> m human4  ,lectures ,,iv1 ,v1
 ,,vi ( ,gore w\ld p]haps int]e/ &      
educate y on ! subject4  ,are y s sure t
 y\r c\rse at ,cambridge is 'ov]'8    ,i
 look$ beh9d to f9d my pa/1     ,& lo1 x
 _h gone be=e4  #ge  ,y w f9d traces ( t
 c\rse1 be=e y h done1 9 y\rself & 9    
o!rs = good or = evil4  ,x is a good ?+ 
to ?9k t no?+ good is ev] 'ov]'--t      
:atev] we d is done = et]nity1 is "p (  
ourselves & ( o!rs--t we live on 9 o!rs1
 live on a nobl] life ?an we liv$ 9     

ourselves4  ,:5 we influ5ce ano!r1 our  
life fl[s into ano!r3 we live our life  
ov] aga9 9 him4  ,! day w come :5 we    
%all see m cle>ly into :at we h be5 do+4
 ,z yet we are l *ildr5 play+ ) knives3 
!y little "k h[ ne> !y are to kill+     
!mselves at times4  ,s we are play+ )   
big issues3 we call !m small & secul>1  
we treat !m z su*--yet e speck ( du/ is 
big ) inf9ity4  ,w\ld t we c\ld see !   
,inf9ite ,be+ at e turn1 !n we %\ld beg9
 to live4  ,y w get wrong 9 all y\r     
plans unless y see !m 9 ,him1 & ,him 9  
!m1 & correct !m z y see !m ?us--correct
 y\r ?\ghts to fit 9 ) ,8 ?\ghts1 n ,8  
?\ghts to fit 9 ) y\r ?\ghts4  ,b y'll  
le>n x is true4  ,y'll und]/& lat] on :y
 ,i am always talk+ ab\t a ,p]son2 :y to
 "k t ,p]sonal ,be+ is life4 ,mean:ile1 
?ank y v1 v mu* = :at y h taught me4  ,i
 feel ,i am d[n 9 ! bottom class ( t    
s*ool1 b ,i am glad t ,i h got into !   
s*ool at all4  ,lat] on ,i may rea* a   
high] /&>d1 & "k ! ,tea*] bett]4  ,9 t  
s*ool ! lesson ea* ( u is set to le>n is

 love1 & ! "n we are all try+ to spell  
out is ! "n ( ! ,fa!r & ( ! ,son & ( !  
,holy ,_s4  ,"s ( u1 p]haps1 h le>nt to 
spell "o "p ( ! "n1 #gf "s ( u ano!r4   
,b none ( u h prop]ly le>nt to love "o  
s+le p]son z we ought2 & few ( u h le>nt
 to see ! ,fa!r's love 9 all1 ! ,son's  
grace 9 all1 & ! ,_s's fell[%ip 9 all4  
,b pati5ce mu/ h h] p]fect "w3 & if we  
"w h>d at our lessons1 we %all "k m1    
love m1 ?9k 9 a simple way1 & d m4  ,b  
we mu/ n be le>n+ m]ely f ea* o!r2 !    
pupils mu/ look away to ! ,ma/] ( all 9 
! c5tre1 & z we all le>n f ,him & love  
,him1 we %all be m mode/1 !re w be no   
competition--save :o c love mo/ &       
sacrifice mo/--& d mo/ = ,him :o has    
done all = u4  ,?is lett] is hurri$4    
,=give x4  ,write aga94  ,accept ! w = !
 de$4  ,?9k1 ?9k1 ?9k6    ,to ,t4 ,h4   
,m4  ,ivy ,h\se1 ,holkham3 ,septemb] #a1
 #ahib4  ,! sacram5ts are trem5d\s      
realities to me1 j because !y are a liv+
 prote/ aga9/ all ,popi%1 ,high ,*ur*1  
,l[ ,*ur* s*emes ( ?\ght--because !y are

 a prote/ t man does no?+1 ,god does    
all--t ev]y?+ is a sacram5t ( ! grace ( 
,god4  ,!y expla9 all life to me4  ,!y  
tea* me :at love means1 = :5 man might  
lea/ expect x1 love comes delug+ 91 & ! 
outw>d & visible is ov]:elm$ ) ! inw>d &
 spiritual4  ,oh1 if bread & w9e & wat] 
are capable ( be+ trans=m$ into ! highe/
 means ( grace & hopes ( glory2 may n   
liv+1 human1 brea?+ p]sons--may n ^? #gg
 ,i love--be sacram5ts z well8  ,:5 we  
come ne> human be+s we love1 we %\ld    
come ) ! same feel+s ( rev]5ce z :5 we  
kneel at t alt>1 = we are com+ to t :i* 
is "p ( ,god's image--made 9 ,8 lik5ess4
  ,& z we speak to !m1 :5 !y answ]      
purely & simply1 ! ,^w ( ,god speaks    
?r\gh !m4  ,?is is n degrad+ !          
sacram5ts--nay1 b rais+ all human       
life--nay1 rais+ ! sacram5ts z well1 = x
 br+s !m into relation ) real life1 &   
trans=ms ! poor magical ab/ractions into
 et]nal realities4    ,to ,w4 ,a4 ,b41  
:o _h told him t he _h made up 8 m9d to 
take up s*ool "w till he 0 old en\gh to 

be orda9$4  ,holkham3 ,septemb] #c1     
#ahib4  ,a home circle rem9ds me1 ,i    
?9k1 m ?an any?+ else ( t o!r home1 t   
o!r family--! home ( a ,fa!r & ( a ,son1
 ! family circle ( ! ,?ree :o live 9 "o 
unity4  ,we %\ld ?ank ,god = e family   
circle on e>? into :i* we are all[$ to  
ent]1 & 9 ^: life ,he all[s u to %>e--= 
any true family on e>?--yes1 & e little 
*ild :o is born into ?is /range _w (    
ours is a sure & c]ta9 pl$ge--a real    
sacram5t--t ,god loves u /ill1 has n    
=gott5 u1 is giv+ u little glimpses into
 ,8 own family life1 is mak+ exi/5ce "h 
a m p]fect image ( life 9 heav54  ,we   
%\ld come into su* a family circle ) !  
same feel+s ( awe z :5 we b5d on our    
knees to receive ! ,holy ,communion4  ,=
 "h1 too1 we ent] into ,holy            
,communion--! #gh communion ( simple1   
human1 happy family life2 "h1 too1 we   
approa* a sacram5t1 outw>d & visible    
signs ( happy1 quiet1 home life--! signs
 ( an inw>d & spiritual grace--! grace  
:i* lies bel[ & int]prets all human     

grace 9 man & woman--! grace ( our de>  
,"l & ,savi\r ,jesus ,*ri/4  ,true1 t   
grace is b little realis$ 9 ! be/ (     
families--little consci\sly realis$ 9 ! 
noble/ life4  ,b1 oh6 surely a human    
family--bro!rs & si/]s 9 a home on      
e>?--are a sure & c]ta9 pl$ge t ?is     
grace does exi/--t ,god is--= "h we h an
 exquisite ?\gh imp]fect copy ( ! family
 life ( ,god4  ,?ank ,god :5 y see a    
good or a beautiful man or woman1 a pure
 & a simple family--?ank ,god1 because x
 is a revelation1 a manife/ation1 an    
unveil+1 a copy1 a lik5ess ( ,himself4  
,= ?\gh beauty (t5 is pr\d & trivial1   
yet x is a manife/ation ( ,him f :om all
 beauty comes1 9 :om all beauty dwells1 
by :om all beauty exi/s4  ,& s n only   
?ank--pray4 ,pray to ,him t ! outw>d &  
visible may be ev] m & m b an expression
 ( some?+ inw>d & unse5 & spiritual4  ,=
 beauty1 grace1 intellect1 ev]y?+ is    
doom$1 unless x is sacram5tal--unless x 
draws its life f ,god bel[1 unless x    
lives b to te/ify ( ,him :o is4  ,x is  

an awful problem--a beautiful face ) no 
true moral beauty bel[--spl5did physical
 grace ) no deep] grace b5ea?--a /rong1 
capable intellect :i* is n ! expression 
( a noble s\l4  ,:at does x all mean8   
,h[ 9 a _w1 :]e ! outw>d & visible is b 
a manife/ation ( ! #gi good ,god1 c su* 
awful anomalies exi/8 ,p>tly x is due to
 ! law t goodness is rew>d$ to a ?\s&   
g5]ations 7,exodus xx4 #f4 ,r4,v4 m>g91 
cf4 ,deut4 vii4 #i71 :ile wick$ness is  
visit$ ^u ! ?ird & f\r?--t is1 t "o :o  
is beautiful 9 body or intellect1 & :o  
kn[s ,god1 leaves ! bless+ ( su* beauty 
long aft] him to desc5dants :o are      
little consci\s ( ! reason ( its orig91 
& :o h little ?\ght ( ,god4  ,beautiful 
eyes1 :]e !re is no beauty ( s\l b5ea?1 
are ! eyes ( o!rs1 long s9ce dead1 look+
 at u /ill--m5 :o s]v$ ,god 9 _!        
g5]ation4  ,an exquisitely t\*+ voice1  
:]e !re is no music 9 ! life ( ! "o :o  
possesses x1 may be ! voice ( "o :o knew
 ,god1 & left 8 legacy = a ?\s&         
g5]ations4  ,b /ill ! problem rema9s4   

,9 _m cases ! outw>d & inw>d seem       
divorc$4 ,n[ let u n try ra%ly to solve 
! problem ourselves4  ,we are incl9$ :5 
we see su* beauty to say1 ',x is no use 
talk+4  ,i am q sure1 :atev] y say1 t   
!re mu/ be "s f9e traits 9 ! "* ( "o ^: 
face is l ! face ( an angel1 ^: voice is
 sweet] ?an t ( ! sons ( m54'  ,we may  
be1 ,i believe we are1 p>tly "r--at lea/
 9 _m cases1 = ! spiritual p[]s ( ^? :o 
are gone may /ill 9 "p live on 9 _!     
desc5dants4  ,b (t51 if we are c&id1 we 
mu/ admit t app>5tly ! outw>d & visible 
are sep>at$ f ! inw>d & spiritual1 t we 
h outw>d beauty & grace :i* is no sign  
at all ( any?+ deep]--nay1 t ! v        
spiritual qualities1 ( :i* x is ! sign1 
#hj & :i* may once h exi/$ 9 ! p]son1 h 
be5 us$ = ! vile/ ends4  ,?is be+ !     
case1 we are /ill left ) ! problem1 ,is 
! outw>d & visible n int5d$ to be a sign
 ( some?+ deep]8  ,"h x is n a sign4    
,:y n8  ,w x ev] be s8  ,to put ! case 9
 its %ort1 simple1 concrete =m1 h[ c a  
'flirt' exi/ :5 by all ! laws ( !       

univ]se beauty %\ld surely be a sign n (
 in/ability1 insipidity1 unspirituality1
 worldl9ess1 %all[ness1 hypocrisy1 b ( !
 ,supreme8  ,i _c answ] ?is "q4  ,i d\bt
 :e!r any man c4  ,b ,i c %[ y :]e its  
ultimate solution mu/ lie4  ,x lies 9 ! 
sacram5ts4  ,yes1 !y are ! answ] to !   
:ole problem4  ,!y tell u t ! outw>d &  
visible--! commone/ objects1 wat]1 w9e1 
bread--may be ! signs ( some?+ :i* is   
deep] ?an any?+ we "k4  ,& !y tell u m4 
,!y are to my m9d a sure & c]ta9 pl$ge t
 "s day ! outw>d & visible %all really  
correspond to ! inw>d & invisible4  ,=1 
rememb]1 ?is _w la/s = ev]4  ,! good    
la/s1 & is purifi$ by fire4  ,! evil    
alone is consum$4  ,! sacram5ts are a   
pl$ge to me t "s day ^u ?is _w our      
long+s aft] a correspond5ce ( ! inw>d ) 
! outw>d w be fulfill$--h[1 ,god only   
kn[s--probably n 9 ! way we expect1 b 9 
a way f>1 f> bett]4  ,= ,8 ?\ghts are n 
our ?\ghts1 & ,8 ways are n our ways4   
,:5 !re=e y are utt]ly bewild]$ &       
p]plex$ by f9d+ s mu* t is attractive   

:i* seems utt]ly divorc$ f ,god's life2 
:5 y f9d y\rself t ! outw>d & #ha       
visible 9 y\r own life--! words y say1 !
 actions y d1 t5d to become absolutely  
diff]5t f y\r real inw>d life2 :5 y feel
 t e "o is a hypocrite1 & y are ! wor/ (
 all1 kneel d[n at t wond]ful s]vice1 & 
take :at is ! "o p[] ( mak+ outw>d &    
inw>d correspond1 ( mak+ our words a    
true index ( our ?\ghts1 our actions a  
true pres5tation ( our lives2 kneel d[n 
& pray t all y love may ent] m & m into 
! mean+ ( t s]vice1 t !y too may flee f 
self to ,"o :o is /rong] ?an self--to ! 
p[] :i* is capable ( trans=m+ our       
actions--to ! p[] :i* rais$ ,*ri/ f !   
dead1 & is capable ( rais+ u up also4   
,!n y w gradually be taught t all life  
is ( ! nature ( a sacram5t--t all food  
is to be tak5 because !reby we h heal? &
 /r5g? to manife/ =? ! grace ( ,god 9 a 
too (t5 graceless _w--y w be taught     
lessons :i* ,i _c ev5 sugge/2 = ,god    
kn[s s mu* m ?an any ( u :at unse>*able 
ri*es ,he has z an inh]itance = u4  ,let

 u ent] ^u t inh]itance4  ,god has call$
 u to be sa9ts1 call$ u1 *os5 u--*os5 u 
be=e ! _w 0 made--,he has *os5 u t 9 u1 
?r\gh u1 ,he might manife/ ,himself4  ,x
 is n humility t prev5ts u recognis+ !  
fact4  ,x is our selfi%ness & /upidity4 
,= ! v fact t ,he has call$ & *os5 y &  
me & all ,8 ,*ur* be=e we 7 born %[s t  
ev]y?+ comes f ,him4  ,we are utt]ly    
wor?less & vile1 b :5 unit$1 z we are   
unit$ to ,god1 we are trans=m$ into ,8  
#hb image1 we p>take ( ,8 life4  ,only  
let u be :at we are--sons ( ,god4  ,9   
reg>d to ^? words1 ',i look$ beh9d to   
f9d my pa/1 & lo x _h gone be=e1' ,i d n
 "k :e!r y are "r or wrong ab\t ! ,greek
 idea4  ,! pa/ has gone be=e u1 we are  
always com+ ^u x4 ,"s day we %all be    
confront$ ) x4  ,e day t we live we are 
mak+ some?+ t we %all meet aga94  ,!    
only way to get unity into our lives--to
 make x possible to look back )\t       
s5tim5tal rep9+ or an awful s5se (      
dread--is to get ,god z ! c5tre1 ,god z 
! f\ndation4  ,z we look back !n we %all

 f9d days 'l9k$ ea* to ea* by natural   
piety'--we %all see t our life =ms a    
connect$ :ole a real progress1 some?+   
wor? call+ life4  4 4 4  ,d y "k t ! be/
 way to /r5g!n y\r be/ ?\ghts is to try 
& express !m8  ,get !m out2 y help o!rs1
 y help y\rself4  ,don't be c>eful ( !  
grammatical accuracy & ! f9i% ( y\r     
s5t5ces2 ,i don't ?9k ,/4 ,paul 04  ,i 0
 ?9k+ to-day t p]haps a man :o nev]     
wrote lett]s nev] c\ld appreciate ,/4   
,paul4 ,he 0 a great lett]-writ]4  ,copy
 him4  ,read him4  ,read him fairly     
quickly4  ,get into him4  ,f9d out 8    
motive p[]1 8 real mean+4 ,read !       
,greek1 n f a critical po9t ( view only1
 b read ! ,greek4  ,d n tr\ble too mu*  
ab\t ! diction>y & accurate             
translations1 b keep read+ & p]haps say+
 al\d ! ,greek4  ,/4 ,paul knew s mu* ( 
,god4  ,read him1 & z y read1 a great]  
?an ,/4 ,paul w come into y1 int]pret   
#hc him1 expla9 him4  ,/4 ,paul himself 
w be ) y1 ,i ?9k1 try+ to %[ y :at he   
meant1 & :at he has f\nd out t he means 

n[4  ,b d write me a prop] lett]4  ,we  
are j beg9n+ life1 & we h s mu* to le>n 
f & to tea* ea* o!r4  ,ev]y?+ is new to 
u4 ,ev]y?+ is /range4  ,already x seems 
to me ,i h be5 tra9$ 9 a h>d            
s*ool--h>d]1 ,i hope1 ?an y w ev] ne$ to
 be tra9$ 9--to und]/& :at ,god & love  
mean4  ,i seem to h _h a r\gh "t ( x1   
p]haps r\gh] ?an mo/2 & ev5 n[ ,i am    
tra9$ 9 a way :i* is n attractive to me1
 tra9$ to ?r[ myself n on any m]ely     
human love1 b on ,him :o is p]fectly    
human & p]fectly div9e4  ,may ,god tra9 
y 9 a less r\gh s*ool1 if possible6  ,b 
at any rate1 may ,he tra9 y--tra9 y to  
get out ( self1 br+ y into deep]        
sympa?ies1 /rong] atta*m5ts1 simpl]     
e>ne/ness6  ,he alone c give unity to   
all our ?\ghts & desires4  ,he alone c  
give /ability4  ,& we poor little       
creatures1 :o seem to h twice z mu*     
affection z we h m9d1 h[ we d ne$ t     
/ability6  ,we want n to be bl[n hi!r & 
?i!r by e manife/ation ( /r5g?1 beauty1 
bra9--we want to be able to ent] into ! 

mean+ ( :at we see & _c help admir+1 )\t
 becom+ ! slaves ( ! visible & ! f9ite4 
,we mu/ build on ! "o f\ndation t is    
laid4  ,we mu/ lay our affections deep  
d[n 9 ! man ,*ri/ ,jesus4  ,z we see    
,him 9 m5--&1 :5 we _c see t1 see m5 9  
,him--we %all be m /able1 less *ildi%1  
less fickle4  ,we nev] g deep en\gh4    
,we skim ov] #hd life4 ,we mu/ get into 
its he>t4  ,we mu/ nev] beg9 an         
affection :i* c h an end4  ,= all       
affection mu/ draw u into ,god1 & ,god  
has no end4  ,! mom5t we see any "o ^:  
/r5g?1 grace1 goodness1 beauty1 or      
simplicity attracts u1 we h dea?less    
duties by t p]son4  ,= ! attraction is !
 outw>d sign ( a spiritual connection--a
 sign t we ought to pray = t p]son1 to  
?ank ,god = ! manife/ation ( ,8 "*1 :i* 
we see 9 a riddle1 ?r\gh a glass 9 t    
life1 t human life4  ,& !n we %all be   
prep>$ to realise deep] relation%ips1 m 
wond]ful my/]ies ( love--to see ) cle>] 
eyes ! he>t ( ! ,supreme4  ,we _c make  
relation%ips too spiritual4  ,we _c be  

too c>eful to see !m 9 ,god & ,god 9 !m4
  ,?9k :at x is to see a relation%ip 9  
,god1 to see x exi/+ !re 9 ,8 life1 z ,8
 ?\ght1 long1 long be=e we 7 born1 long 
be=e we _h an idea t we 7 int5d$ to     
realise x4  ,:at a new light on old     
relation%ips--bro!r & bro!r1 bro!r &    
si/]1 fa!r & *ild1 husb& & wife1 all    
?\ghts ( ,god1 all be+ gradually ent]$  
into1 appropriat$1 realis$1 und]/ood1   
work$ out by u4  ,!y seem s common &    
natural1 & yet !y are int5sely awful &  
sacr$ & my/]i\s4  ,& !n ?9k :at x is to 
see ,god 9 !m--to see ,"o f :om all     
family life fl[s1 p5etrat+ ^? :om we h  
nev] prop]ly le>nt to love & ^? :om we  
love z mu* z we c4  ,god 9 !m--all t is 
good & attractive--n _! own1 b ,god's4  
,! eyes :i* seem to be #he contemplat+  
some?+ :i* we _c see1 ! face :i* lights 
up at times ) ano!r ?an human light2 !  
eyes1 ! face1 a realisation & expression
 ( t ,be+ :o is at once human & div9e1  
,god & man4  ,:y1 ?is is br++ heav5 d[n 
to e>?1 ?is is a realisation 9 "p ( !   

holy city com+ d[n f heav54  ,= z we ?9k
 ( !m1 above all z we pray = !m1 we are 
l$ beyond !m1 we =get our own selfi%    
int]e/s 9 !m1 we are br\ght out f !     
'g>d5' life ( individual s\ls into !    
'city' corporate life ( a great human   
society1 a family1 ! ,*ur* ( ,god4  ,we 
%\ld live1 we %\ld die = ,*ri/ & ,8     
,body--! ,*ur*--! fulness ( ,8 life1 :o 
is fill+ all 9 all4  ,we mu/ cease ?9k+ 
& pray+ = ourselves & = o!rs1 z ?\gh we 
7 alone4  ,we are all "p ( "o great     
society4  ,ar\nd u--nay1 9 u--are o!rs1 
"s :om we c see1 "s :o 9 ! c\rse (      
developm5t h bur/ ! bonds ( space & "t &
 matt]1 all "o1 "o1 = ev] "o4  ,we all h
 "o common ,"l1 "o common hope1 "o      
common life1 "o common enemy1 "o common 
,savi\r1 :o is work+ ?r\gh u1 9 u1 9 ^? 
:om we lea/ und]/&1 9 ^? 9 :om we %\ld  
lea/ expect x1 9 ^? :o are almo/        
repulsive to u1 9 all--work+ out "o big 
purpose ?r\gh ! ages1 ! purpose ( !     
,et]nal4  ,rememb] me at my ord9ation z 
prie/1 please4  ,rememb] me1 = ,i ne$ x 

s mu*1 y d n "k h[ mu*4  ,x is su* an   
important "t1 & ,i _c und]/& or ent]    
into its significance1 z ,i long to d4  
,discipl9e1 discipl9e1 discipl9e1 #hf   
self-discipl9e--ob$i5ce to 'ord]s4'     
,oh6 h[ ,i long to h ! p[] to realise   
^!6  ,pray = me t ,i may2 t y may1 pray 
also4  ,be v /rict ) y\rself4 ,compel   
y\rself to obey rules4  ,y are hurt+ s  
_m besides y\rself :5 y are n /rict )   
y\rself4  ,= we are '"o body4'  ,y are  
injur+ ^? :om y l be/1 = y h less p[]   
ov] !m1 :5 y h less p[] ov]             
y\rself--less p[] to influ5ce1 to pray1 
to ?ank = !m4  ,d rememb] h[ m>vell\sly 
sacr$ a s*oolma/]'s "w is3 x is n en\gh 
to be able to play games--h[ ,i         
sometimes wi% ,i c\ld6--x is n en\gh to 
be able to tea* ,lat9 & ,greek3 a       
s*oolma/] %\ld be s mu* m4  ,he         
repres5ts ! au?ority ( ,god4  ,he c be s
 mu*1 he may be s little to boys4  ,we c
 nev] ent] into a boy's life1 into 8    
deepe/ ?\ghts1 8 'long1 long ?\ghts1'   
unless we too become little *ildr51     

unless we become "y & fre% & simple--&  
all "y life comes f ,him1 :o makes all !
 little *ildr5 :o ev] come into ?is big 
_w4  ,let u ent] into ,8 life4  ,d n    
become a s*oolma/] simply to fill up "t1
 to h some?+ to d4    ,to ,w4 ,a4 ,b4   
,*ri/'s ,college1 ,cambridge3 ,novemb]  
#bj1 #aijb4  4 4 4  ,i am glad t y l y\r
 s*ool1 t y l y\r boys4 4 4 4  ,?9k ( ! 
weak *aps1 ^? :o are 'out ( ! way1' ^?  
:o are n naturally #hg attractive1 ^? :o
 positively repel y4  ,!y (t5 mo/ ne$   
y\r sympa?y1 y\r pray]s4  ,& n[ ab\t y\r
 ord9ation4  ,d y "k ,i am d\btful :e!r 
x w\ld be a good ?+ = y to be orda9$ to 
a s*ool *apla9cy4  ,i am almo/ m ?an    
d\btful4  ,y w\ld1 ,i suppose1 h no p>i%
 "w1 nor any?+ to d ) poor folk4  ,y\r  
"w w\ld be read+ pray]s1 & prea*+ ab\t  
?ree times a ye>1 ,i suppose4  ,y w\ld  
sc>cely c>e to be a curate 9 a c\ntry or
 poor t[n p>i% lat] on1 w\ld y1 if y    
began ?us8  ,b1 aft] all1 ,i mu/ n1 ,i  
d>e n1 advise y4 ,i c only po9t y to !  
,be+ :o alone c advise u4  ,! great ?+  

is to r5\nce all plans1 all ?\ghts (    
self1 to give up all we are & expect to 
be1 to come into ,8 pres5ce1 & !n to ask
 ,8 advice4  ,or r we mu/ come to ,him l
 little helpless *ildr5 & ask ,him to   
help u to r5\nce plann+ & arrang+ ) self
 z goal--to beg ,him to give u /r5g? to 
give up all4  ,! great ?+ is to get !   
life :]e we %all develop be/ all our    
p[]s--viz4 ! life 9 :i* we %all h mo/   
opportunities ( sacrifice4  ,c y get1 c 
y use1 opportunities ( self-sacrifice 9 
y\r s*ool life8  ,c y get full] & bett] 
else:]e8 4 4 4  ,( c\rse1 if y f9d t y h
 m influ5ce ov] boys ?an y w\ld be      
likely to h ov] o!r folk1 t might alt] !
 case4  ,h y f\nd t y c influ5ce !m m = 
good ?an y w\ld be likely to influ5ce   
o!rs8  ,our "o "w 9 life mu/ be to      
advance ,god's glory1 ,god's k+dom4  ,! 
"t is %ort4  ,! night #hh soon comes4   
,! great problem is h[ to d mo/ 9 t %ort
 "t2 h[ we ourselves c be/ lose         
ourselves 9 ! little "t t we h = los+   
ourselves4  ',he t lose? himself1 f9de? 

himself4'    ,to ,d4 ,d4 ,r4  #ad ,/4   
,m>g>et's ,road1 ,/4 ,leon>ds2 ,janu>y  
#aj1 #ahic4  ,i h be5 ?9k+ to-day ( t   
/range /atem5t ',i no long] call y      
slaves 4 4 4 b ,i h call$ y fri5ds4'    
,to und]/& any "o y mu/ be _! fri5d3 y  
are able !n to judge _! life f ! inside1
 to see :y & h[ !y d :at !y d2 all _!   
actions :i* seem$ disconnect$ &         
purposeless be=e are se5 to be "p ( a   
plan1 to h an end1 a goal4  ,we _c      
und]/& ! riddle ( life1 ! necessity (   
all ! details 9 ! great s*eme (         
r$emption1 ! reason = c]ta9 means (     
grace1 ! real significance ( ! hope (   
glory1 :ile we are slaves4  ,! :ole     
appe>s s purposeless1 su* wa/e ( en]gy1 
su* un9telligible & irrational          
self-sacrifice4  ,:y mu/ ! ,*ri/ suff]8 
,:y c\ld n s9 be ov]come 9 a less co/ly 
way8 ,:y is ! victory ( ! ,*ri/ s       
incomplete8  ,:y d "s1 :o are bett] ?an 
we1 take s little int]e/ 9 ! et]nal8    
,we _c answ] ^! & a ?\s& o!r que/ions   
:ile we are slaves4  ,all is a hopeless 

enigma1 a play )\t a plot1 a novel ) no 
plan4  ,b become a fri5d ( a man & all  
is *ang$4  ,ea* act 9 8 life1 ea* ?\ght 
9 8 life1 ea* ^w f 8 lips--!y h n ceas$ 
to be a problem1 #hi !y are t5 ?\s&fold 
m wond]ful ?an !y ev] 7 be=e3 !y are    
/ill a problem2 b !re is1 !re mu/ be1 we
 feel1 a purpose runn+ ?r\gh ! :ole4    
,we h b "o object--to und]/& him m1 to  
see :at div9e ideal he is try+ to "w out
 9 all ! details ( 8 common life4  ,ea* 
detail is important2 ea* ?\ght1 h[ev]   
wayw>d1 mu/ be recognis$ & und]/ood4    
,all are se5 9 ! cle>1 dry light (      
et]nity2 ea* is se5 9 some?+ l its "r   
proportion4  ,we feel t 8 life is our   
life--nay1 m int]e/+ ?an our own        
mis]able life--t if we are ev] to "k    
ourselves we mu/ "k him fir/4  ,s1 too1 
become a fri5d ( ,him :o alone is1 & all
 is *ang$4  ,gradually1 p]haps pa9fully1
 yet surely1 z we become l v little     
*ildr51 ! mean+ ( ! :ole dawns ^u u4    
,we see x all3 we see t x c\ld n be     
o!rwise3 we _c say :y1 b we are q sure t

 we see x--at lea/1 we see a little way1
 & :]e ! light ends & x beg9s to get    
d>k1 we feel t x is all "r beyond--t ,he
 :o is ) u 9 ! light w be ) u 9 !       
d>kness4  ,we are no long] slaves1 do+  
,8 w because we mu/4  ,we are fri5ds1 & 
we _c help tak+ deep int]e/ 9 all t ,he 
does4  ,8 acts1 ,8 ?\ghts1 ,8 words1 !y 
are /ill a problem--we _c make !m all   
out4  ,b !y are ! same k9d ( problem z a
 fri5d is--a /range exquisite torture4  
,we d n "k :at ! :ole ( 8 life means2 he
 c d ?+s :i* we _c1 & :i* we rejoice to 
"k t we c nev] d4  ,we only see "o side 
( him ev]1 & ! re/ is only kn[n to ,god4
  #ij ,& yet we d "k "p ( 8 life1 & we  
are cont5t to "k no m2 :at we "k is     
good1 & :at we d n "k or und]/& mu/ also
 be good4  ,we judge f :at we see :at t 
mu/ be :i* we _c see4  ,we d n wi% x    
o!rwise4  ,we feel t x w\ld be impi\s to
 try & und]/& him fully1 = is he n      
connect$ ) ,god ,himself8  ,s we see "o 
side ( ! life ( ! ,et]nal2 b we are     
fri5ds2 we d n wi% x o!rwise4 ,we _c    

und]/& ,him--we nev] c4  ,& yet ',i h   
call$ y fri5ds4'  ,8 ma9 purposes we    
see3 ! plan by :i* ,he realises !m we   
see 9 "p4  ,& z we "k ,him bett]1 we    
%all be able to track ,8 foot/eps ev5   
:]e we did n expect to f9d ,him4  ,we   
%all le>n t ,8 me?ods are simpl] & bett]
 ?an ours1 t ,8 ?\ghts are sur]1 deep]1 
high] ?an all our s*emes & plans4  ,i am
 con/antly f9d+ t ord9ances1 cu/oms1    
beliefs1 :i* ,i us$ to despise z /range1
 antiquat$1 or useless1 are yet ! v ones
 :i* ,i ne$1 t my fa!rs knew bett] ?an  
,i my ne$s1 t above all ,god ,himself _h
 provid$ in/itutions & cu/oms1 & _h     
wait$ until ,i 0 old en\gh to le>n _!   
use & to bless ,him z ,i us$ !m4  ,s1 z 
we "k a man bett]1 we feel t we mu/ pray
 = him & 8 ! m4  ,z we become ! fri5ds (
 ! ,^w1 we feel we mu/ pray t ,8 w may  
be done ev] m & m--,8 purposes realis$  
by u & ours4  ,let u !n n beg9 by       
criticis+ ! _w & ,god2 let u fir/ be !  
fri5ds ( ,god1 & !n 9 ! light ( undy+   
fri5d%ip & pray] beg9 to criticise4  #ia

 ,we mu/ be ! fri5d ( a man be=e we     
und]/& 8 life2 we mu/ be ! fri5ds (     
,jesus ,*ri/ be=e we und]/& ,8 life n[  
^u e>?4  ,i us$ to skate3 ,i don't n[4  
,i obey h]e9 "o ( ! great maxims ( my   
life3 ',if y want to get a ?+ well done1
 don't d x y\rself4' ,i consid] t       
,k----1 9 ?is z 9 o!r simil> pursuits1  
p]=ms ! anci5t & 'sacr$ duty (          
delegation4'  ,i h no d\bt t he does x  
admirably4  ,:y mu/ p try :at !y c't d  
well8  ,:y n leave x to ^? :o l x & c d 
x well8  ,! wret*$ public-s*ool-boy     
conception ( dull uni=mity is an        
abom9ation to me6 ,if ,k---- does !     
walk+1 y d ! ?9k+2 ,g---- does ! d&y1   
,m---- ! grumbl+1 ,s---- ! jack-9-!-box1
 ,g---- ! runn+1 ,m---- ! philosoph]1 & 
,d---- ! little vulg> boy--all[ me to d 
:at aft] all is ! h>de/ ( all tasks1 'to
 d no?+ gracefully4'  7,i am afraid t ,i
 beg9 by try+ 'to d no?+--gracefully1' b
 end by 'do+ no?+ gracefully4'  ,y see !
 diff]5ce67  ,i believe 9 division (    
lab\r--let ea* man d :at he is made to d

 be/--& ^? :o feel _! vocation to be    
no?+ b receiv+ ! results ( ! lab\r (    
o!rs--:y1 let !m try to d x ) ! be/     
grace !y c6  ,=give me if su* be my     
case4    ,to ,j4 ,l4 ,d4  ,*ri/'s       
,college1 ,cambridge3 ,may #ae1 #ahic4  
,i ?9k y are "r 9 believ+ 9 ! int5se    
wor? ( sympa?y4  ,b 'sympa?y' is !      
,greek #ib z 'compassion' is ! ,lat9 =m 
( 'suff]+ toge!r )4'  ,he :o has suff]$ 
mo/ has p]haps ! mo/ p[] to sympa?ise2 n
 simply to pity or console1 b to g "r   
out ( self & to get "r into ano!r1 to   
see life ) 8 eyes1 to feel z he feels4  
,if1 !n1 y f9d _m ( ^? among :om y\r lot
 is ca/ almo/ incapable ( sympa?y1 may x
 n be t !y h n yet le>n$ ! mean+ (      
suff]+8  ,!y may n h _h s _m            
opportunities ( suff]+ z y1 or1 if !y h 
_h z _m1 !y may n h f\nd any "o to      
int]pret to !m :at x all meant4  ,?ank  
,him f :om all sympa?y comes if y h kn[n
 any?+ ( ! suff]+s ( life1 any?+ ( !    
worries & disappo9tm5ts & delays &      
unsatisfi$ ambitions :i* s _m h2 if y h 

kn[n ^!--kn[n _! inn] mean+1 & h be5 l$ 
out & beyond y\r own into t wid] life ( 
suff]+1 & h le>n$ :at x is to fill up 9 
y\r turn ta hu/]emata ton ?lipseon t\   
,*ri/\4  ,transcrib]'s note3 ,! above   
,greek phrase 0 translit]at$ z foll[s3  
ta--tau1 alpha2 hu/]emata--7r\gh brea?+ 
m>k7 upsilon1 sigma1 tau1 epsilon1 rho1 
eta1 mu1 alpha1 tau1 alpha2 ton--tau1   
omega1 nu2 ?lipseon--!ta1 lambda1 iota1 
psi1 epsilon1 omega1 nu2 t\--tau1       
omicron1 upsilon2 ,*ri/\--,*i1 rho1     
iota1 sigma1 tau1 omicron1 upsilon  ,"o 
hates to see o!rs ^: c5tre is self4  ,_!
 :ole life looks s mean & l[4  ,life    
ov]1 ! ,ego alone left2 & :at a poor1   
wret*$1 snivell+ creature aft] all--?is 
:at we pamp]$1 ?is :at we ?ru/ =w>d =   
o!rs to admire & flatt]6  ,if we 7 n 9  
mu* ! same case1 we might be able to    
view x 9 o!rs ) some:at diff]5t eyes4   
,& yet d y "k t1 z a matt] ( fact1 our  
,ego is dead--self is n--& ! devil's    
greate/ lie is to make u believe 9 ?is  
self8  ,= d n y & ,i belong to ,"o      

/rong] ?an #ic self--,"o ^: own self may
 live 9 u--does live 9 u--:e!r we       
recognise ! fact or n8  ,we di$ ye>s ago
 to self :5 ,he claim$ u = ,himself1 &  
we rose aga9 to a selfless life 9 ,him3 
zo de ouketi ego1 ze de en emoi ,*ri/os4
  ,transcrib]'s note3 ,! above ,greek   
phrase 0 translit]at$ z foll[s3         
zo--zeta1 omega2 de--delta1 epsilon2    
ouketi--omicron1 upsilon1 kappa1        
epsilon1 tau1 iota2 ego--epsilon1 gamma1
 omega2 ze--zeta1 eta2 de--delta1       
epsilon2 en--epsilon1 nu2 emoi--epsilon1
 mu1 omicron1 iota2 ,*ri/os--,*i1 rho1  
iota1 sigma1 tau1 omicron1 f9al sigma   
,we act a lie :5ev] we make our ,ego    
in/ead ( ,8 ,ego ! c5tre4  ,if ,he is   
our c5tre & our goal1 !n be sure our    
,ego w beg9 to live1 because x is       
'gr\nd$' & root$ 9 ,84  ,any tr\ble &   
anxiety t leads y out ( self to !       
,inf9ite ,ego1 t makes y feel helpless &
 lonely & 9 ne$ ( a ,human ,help] & a   
,human ,com=t]1 ?ank ,god = x4  ,he is  
tea*+ y to ca/ y\rself ^u ,"o :o is     

p]fectly human because p]fectly div9e4  
,he is tea*+ y t y are n y\r own2 t     
long1 long ago y\rself di$3 ei oun      
suneg]!te to ,*ri/o1 ta ano zeteite4    
,transcrib]'s note3 ,! above ,greek     
phrase 0 translit]at$ z foll[s3         
ei--epsilon1 iota2 oun--omicron1        
upsilon1 nu2 suneg]!te--sigma1 upsilon1 
nu1 eta1 gamma1 epsilon1 rho1 !ta1 eta1 
tau1 epsilon2 to--tau1 omega2           
,*ri/o--*i1 rho1 iota1 sigma1 tau1      
omega2 ta--tau1 alpha2 ano--alpha1 nu1  
omega2 zeteite--zeta1 eta1 tau1 epsilon1
 iota1 tau1 epsilon  ,?us we are l$ to  
und]/& some?+ ( ! mean+ ( our ,*ri/ian  
names--to see t !y are liv+ pl$ges to u1
 :atev] we d1 :]ev] we g--t ,*ri/'s "n  
is call$ ^u u--t :5 t9y little *ildr5 we
 7 br\ght home to ! ,great ,ego 9 :om   
alone our ,ego c ev] f9d                
satisfaction--to feel t we are ,8 & ,he 
is ours4    ,to ,j4 ,l4 ,d4  ,*ri/'s    
,college1 ,cambridge3 ,octob] #i1 #ahic4
  ,! /ep :i* y contemplate tak+ is "o ) 
f>-rea*+ issues--rea*+ away ?r\gh "t &  

beyond x4  ,i advise y to try & ga9 a   
g5]al idea ( ! mean+ ( ! fir/ half ( ,/4
 ,paul's #id second lett] to ! ,cor9?ian
 ,*ur*--to try & ent] into its g5]al _s4
  ,few ?+s w humble y m3 y w see some?+ 
( ! unspeakable dignity ( ! (fice ( him 
:o repres5ts ,god to 8 fell[-m51 & ( !  
trem5d\s en?usiasm & love :i* a man mu/ 
h if he w\ld be ! m9i/] t ,/4 ,paul w\ld
 h him be4  ,i d n "k :at ,/4 ,paul     
means :5 he says t we are ambassadors on
 behalf ( ,*ri/3 b ! m ,i ?9k ( :at !   
words seem to mean1 ! m ,i am />tl$ at !
 awful responsibility t we h laid ^u u4 
,to repres5t ,*ri/1 to treat ) m51 to   
attempt to arrange--if "o may s         
speak--t]ms1 to use all our p[]s 9 p]=m+
 ! "w ( ! embassy--?is at lea/ is       
involv$ 9 ! words4  ,:at /rikes me s mu*
 9 ! lett] is ! mann] 9 :i* ,/4 ,paul   
lit]ally loves ! ,*ur*2 h[ he longs to  
communicate 8 own en?usiasm to x2 h[ he 
w\ld die1 almo/ does die1 himself to br+
 life to !m4  ,all 8 hopes are b\nd up )
 !irs--8 salvation ) _! salvation4  ,he 

seems to 'fail f out 8 blood1 & gr[     
incorporate' into !m4  ,we are call$ to 
! same (fice z ,/4 ,paul1 we h ! same   
p[] work+ 9 u z he _h work+ 9 him3 we   
too %all h success 9 s f> z we love--z  
we id5tify ourselves ) ^? :om ,god has  
giv5 u to take c>e (4  ,! m we are      
discipl9$ & yet en?usia/ic1 ! m capable 
%all we be ( love--( gett+ out ( self--(
 work+ our way into o!rs--( repres5t+ ! 
,*ri/ to !m--( und]/&+ & mak+ all[ances 
= !m--( see+ !m 9 ! ideal1 ! only real1 
light 9 #ie :i* ,god sees !m--see+ !m 9 
! ,*ri/1 9 :om we live--m9d t1 ) all y\r
 intellectual tra9+1 y don't =get ! o!r4
  ,n[ is ! "t to le>n1 to =ce y\rself to
 le>n1 to pray--to pray n = a few m9utes
 at a "t1 b to pray = an h\r at a "t--to
 get alone ) y\rself--to get alone ) y\r
 ,mak]4  ,we %all n h to talk s mu* to  
o!rs if we pray m = !m4  ,we talk & we d
 n influ5ce1 or we influ5ce only = a "t1
 because our lives are n m pray]-full4  
,to ,j4 ,l4 ,d4  ,aldeburgh ,h\se1      
,blackhea?1 ,s4,e43 ,decemb] #af1 #ahic4

  ,i _c help ?9k+ ( y bo? at ?is "t4  ,x
 means s mu* to y bo?--m ?an ei!r ( y   
dreams t x means4  ,! issues ( y\r      
,ord9ation day are v f> rea*+ inde$4    
,!y /ret* away & beyond ?is _w 9 :i* we 
n[ are4  ,! ru% ( s*ool "w & (          
prep>ation = exam9ation has probably n  
left y z mu* "t z y c\ld h wi%$ = ?9k+  
ov] :at x all means4  ,i hope y w h m "t
 aft] ! s]vice is ov]4  ,b y may be     
com=t$ 9 ! ?\ght t ! la/ few ye>s h be5 
a def9ite prep>ation = y\r life-"w4     
,?\gh y mu/ regret1 z y nev] regrett$   
be=e1 misuse ( "t & p[]s 9 ! pa/1 yet y 
h _h an education :i* has 9 "s degree   
prep>$ y = ?is "t1 an education = :i* y 
may ?ank our common ,ma/]4  ,b ?is #if  
?\ght by itself w\ld be b a small com=t4
  ,= y mu/ feel1 if y are ! man ,i take 
y =1 h[ unwor?y y are to be :at y are   
call$ to be4  ,n[ !re are two ways (    
deal+ ) ?is feel+4  ,y may say1 ',i am n
 call$ to be an absolute sa9t2 b ,i w   
try to rea* a fairly high /&>d2' or y   
may say1 ',yes1 ,i am call$ to be an    

absolute sa9t4  ,i w n l[] my ideal4  ,i
 w com=t myself ) t s+le ^w call$4  ,if 
,he has call$ me1 ,he w d 9 me & = me   
:at ,he wills4'  ,?is second way is !   
true way ( deal+ ) feel+s ( unwor?9ess &
 unfitness4  ,y & ,i are utt]ly unfit4  
,b we are bo? call$--call$ f our "m's   
womb--call$ to be sa9ts & to be m9i/]s4 
,he :o call$ u w help u4  ,) man ! call 
seems quixotic1 impossible2 ) ,him all  
?+s are possible4  ,at times :5 ! call  
is l\de/ we c b reply1 ',ah6 ,"l1 ,i am 
b a little *ild4'  ,we are int5sely     
consci\s ( feebl5ess &1 :at is worse1 ( 
trea*]y & meanness )92 we half love :at 
we are call$ ^u to d5\nce2 we play ) !  
s9 we are to tea* m5 to abhor4  ,yet !  
call is sure1 is def9ite1 is p]petual1 &
 aga9 & aga9 y w 9 all probability f9d  
:at a help x is to look back to t day 9 
:i* ! call took =mal %ape4  ,y h t z a  
def9ite fact to re/ ^u1 to reprove1 to  
enc\rage1 to urge to r5ew$ ef=t1 to =ce 
y to be true & en]getic4  ,"o ?+ y mu/  
le>n to d4  ,:atev] y leave undone y mu/

 n leave ?is undone4  ,y\r "w w be /unt$
 & half develop$ unless y #ig att5d to  
x4  ,y mu/ =ce y\rself to be alone & to 
pray4 ,d make a po9t ( ?is4  ,y may be  
eloqu5t & attractive 9 y\r life1 b y\r  
real effectiv5ess dep5ds on y\r         
communion ) ! et]nal _w4  ,y w easily   
f9d excuses4  ,"w is s press+1 & "w is  
necess>y4  ,o!r engagem5ts take "t4  ,y 
are tir$4  ,y want to g to b$4  ,y g to 
b$ late & want to get up late4  ,s      
simple pray] & devotion are cr[d$ out4  
,& yet1 ,t----1 ! necessity is p>am\nt1 
is inexorable4  ,if y & ,i are ev] to be
 ( any good1 if we are to be a bless+1 n
 a curse1 to ^? ) :om we are connect$1  
we mu/ ent] into ourselves1 we mu/ be   
alone ) ! only s\rce ( unselfi%ness4    
,if we are ( use to o!rs1 x w *iefly be 
because we are simple1 pure1 unselfi%4  
,if we are to be simple1 pure1 unselfi%1
 x w n be by read+ books or talk+ or    
work+ prim>ily1 x w be by com+ 9        
cont9ual contact ) ! gr\nd ( simplicity1
 purity1 selfi%ness4  ,heav5 is !       

possibility ( fre% acts (               
self-sacrifice1 ( a full] life (        
unselfi%ness4  ,y are a man & a m9i/] 9 
s f> z y are unselfi%4  ,y _c le>n      
unselfi%ness save f ! "o ,s\rce4        
,def9ite habits ( real devotion--^! we  
mu/ make & keep to & r5ew & increase4   
,!n we %all gradually f9d t we are less 
dep5d5t on self--t ev5 9 ! busie/ sc5es 
we d>e n act on our own                 
responsibility--t1 be ! act ev] s small 
& trifl+1 :5 we are 9 difficulty we %all
 naturally1 inevitably1 spontane\sly    
turn to t place :5ce help alone c come4 
,b x is a wond]ful help aga9 & aga9 to  
feel t we h be5 #ih alone ) ,him1 t we  
are n work+ on our own responsibility1 t
 ,he is ! ',liv+ ,w' t rises & fl[s     
'?r\gh our de$s & makes !m pure4'    ,to
 ,d4 ,d4 ,r4  #h ,alex&ra ,g>d5s1       
,v5tnor3 ,jan4 #b1 #ahid4  ,:ile hold+ z
 firmly & unres]v$ly to ! belief t a    
revelation is a possibility t has       
actually be5 realis$1 ,i am becom+ m    
aw>e ( ! p>tial & limit$ view :i* any   

s+le individual c h ( ! significance (  
su* a revelation2 & ) ?is conviction    
comes a desire n to h9d] by any words or
 prejudices ( m9e ! education ( "o to   
:om ,i owe m ?an ,i at pres5t "k4  ,yet1
 z ,i believe t no individual life is   
beyond ! wise ord]+ ( a ,div9e economy1 
,i am sure t he mu/ h lessons to le>n f 
me z well z ,i to le>n f him4  ,h5ce ,i 
d>e n refra9 f sugge/+ to him--(t5 9    
answ] to que/ions t he puts to me--sides
 ( tru? :i*1 z ,i believe1 ,i h be5     
all[$ to appreh5d4  ,! k ( tru? 79 h[ev]
 small a degree7 is a tru/ t we hold = !
 sake ( o!rs4  ,:at ,i fe> = him & =    
y--= y ev5 m ?an = him--is n t y w =m   
wrong op9ions on religi\s or e?ical     
subjects1 b t y w lack t moral e>ne/ness
 t =ces a man1 :e!r he w or n1 to look !
 facts ( life 9 ! face1 t deadly        
e>ne/ness t refuses to all[ u to        
contemplate cre$s z works ( art1 b =ces 
u to ask :e!r ^! ?+s be s4  ,life z a   
:ole mu/ be fac$4  ,:at has induc$ m5 to
 #ii believe ?is & t t5et8  ,:y h m5    

crav$ = a k ( an unse5 ,be+8  ,:y h     
sy/ems ( prie/craft aris58  ,h[ is x t  
^? :o mo/ revolt aga9/ su* sy/ems are   
slaves to o!r sy/ems be>+ diff]5t names1
 b 9 sub/ance ! same8  ,is !re a        
,deliv]]8  ,is !re a unity b5ea? all ?is
 confusion8  ,c man "k su* a unity if   
!re be "o8 ,c su* a unity be reveal$8   
,has x be5 reveal$8  ,:y d m5 ?9k x has 
be5 reveal$ if x has n8  ,:ile ,i am sl[
 to =ce ^u ^? :om ,i mo/ respect & love 
lessons :i* ,i believe t ,i h sl[ly     
le>nt 9 a s*ool 9 :i* p]haps !y h n be51
 & nev] w be1 educat$1 yet ,i am sure t 
,i _c be wrong 9 pray+ = !m & 9 urg+ !m 
to be increas+ly e>ne/ 9 ! se>* = & !   
practice ( tru?4  ,y are a man 9 s f> z 
y live4  ,y live 9 s f> z y are         
self-sacrific+4  ,y are self-sacrific+ 9
 s f> z y unsw]v+ly practise ! tru? y "k
 & foll[ aft] t :i* y d n yet appreh5d4 
,& ,i am sure1 if !re be a unity b5ea?  
our lives1 if !re be ,"o :o is educat+ u
 :5 we are mo/ wayw>d1 we %all ev5tually
 be l$ by1 x may be1 v diff]5t pa?s to a

 s+le goal4  ,mean:ile ea* failure to be
 e>ne/1 ea* relapse into s5tim5tality1  
unmanl9ess1 morbidness1 despair1        
unreality1 laz9ess1 passiv5ess1 may     
itself be a discipl9e1 mak+ u utt]ly    
mi/ru/ ourselves1 :e!r at our wor/ or at
 our be/1 & =c+ u to inquire :e!r !re be
 any help else:]e1 any p[] t c sweep    
?r\gh our lives & =ce u to be human4  ,=
 ?is reason ,i w\ld impress on y ! #ajj 
necessity ( try+ to ?9k out y\r         
position1 ( ask+ y\rself h[ y may be mo/
 human & be/ s]ve ,god 7if1 inde$1 y    
believe t ?is is possible7 & y\r        
g5]ation4  ,!re are ar\nd y social =ces 
mak+ = good4  ,ought y to be--nay1 c y  
be--isolat$8  ,does isolation give      
great] /r5g?8  ,does x enable y to d m  
or to be bett]8  ,^! que/ions are n     
m]ely sugge/$ by me4  ,!y h already     
sugge/$ !mselves 9 "o =m or ano!r to y4 
,i am fright5$ ( _! n receiv+ ! att5tion
 !y m]it4    ,to ,t4 ,h4 ,m4  #h        
,alex&ra ,g>d5s1 ,v5tnor3 ,janu>y #c1   
#ahid4  ,! fact t y h n all ! sympa?y & 

manly help & advice t y c\ld wi% = f ^? 
ar\nd y w1 ,i tru/1 =ce y to dep5d )    
simpl] confid5ce ^u ! un*ang+ ,gr\nd (  
all human sympa?y4  ,y w1 ,i hope1 take 
all ^! exp]i5ces )\t grumbl+ z a real & 
necess>y /age 9 y\r education2 rememb]+ 
t if y f9d y\rself rep9+ at ! di/ressful
 circum/ances 9 :i* y are plac$1 y may  
be di%on\r+ ,him :o has plac$ y :]e y   
are4  ,i d n1 ( c\rse1 mean t su*       
reflection w make y condone & excuse !  
lukew>mness ( o!rs1 b y w grasp ! tru? t
 ,god uses ev5 ! s9 ( ?is _w z an       
in/rum5t 9 ! education ( ,8 p1 & t y    
y\rself may h y\r "* =m$ p>tly ?r\gh !  
faults ( o!rs1 = :om y are /ill b\nd to 
pray4 #aja ,?is great ,*ri/mas fe/ival t
 is pa/ mu/ be a p[] to u 9 ! ye> t is  
com+ on4  ,we mu/ ent] into & be        
p5etrat$ by ! ,life t has be5 manife/$4 
,= x is life t y & ,i ne$4  ,our own    
puny individuali/ic life ( morbid       
self-consci\sness & s5sibility mu/ be   
trans=m$ by ! full] ,life 9 :i* all may 
h a %>e2 & ?us we %all come to ?9k less 

( ourselves1 our successes1 our         
failures1 :at o!rs ?9k ab\t u & :at o!rs
 ought to ?9k ab\t u--we %all =get all  
?is because we %all %>e 9 ! ,univ]sal   
,life1 :i* p5etrates ?r\gh all & :i*    
makes m5 =get !mselves & _! ills1 & be  
pure1 simple1 heal?y1 unselfi%4  ,& ?is 
life has be5 realis$ & m5 h se5 x1 & x  
is /ill ) u to-day4  ,9 s f> z we %>e 9 
x we %all become natural1 unaffect$1    
human4  ,nay1 m4  ,because ! life !re   
manife/$ is div9e z well z human1 we    
%all realise also ) full] =ce :at x is  
to be a *ild ( a ,fa!r :o is 9 heav54   
,x is life1 n a sy/em1 t we ne$4  ,x is 
life :i* is giv5 u :5 we are adopt$ z   
sons2 x is life t we receive :5 ! ,s\rce
 ( all life gives u ,himself to fe$ ^u2 
x is life t ,*ri/ be/[s ^u u :5 we      
gradually realise our position z memb]s 
( a society 9 :i* no man c live =       
himself alone4  ,life is life 9 s f> z x
 is unselfi%4  ,may ,he :o has call$ u &
 giv5 to u all our privileges tea* u to 
live out t :i* we "k & believe6    #ajb 

,to ,f4 ,s4 ,h4  ,cambridge3 ,augu/ #d1 
#ahie4  ,life w n be ! same )\t hav+ y  
up "h4  ,i am v dep5d5t ^u o!rs1 & ,i   
soon beg9 to be d[nca/ if ,i h n "s "o  
to help or to be help$ by4  ,b happily  
,he :o takes away is ! same z ,he :o    
gives1 & ,8 great he>t ( affection      
und]/&s our manifold & seem+ly          
contradictory ne$s4  ,life w\ld be      
intol]able if we _h no "o :o knew u     
p]fectly1 n simply ! outside "p ( our   
life1 b t inside & app>5tly             
incommunicable "p4  ,^? :o are lea/ able
 to express !mselves 9 words1 or :o 7if 
!y did express !mselves7 fe> t !y w\ld  
be misund]/ood1 f9d 9 ,him an           
unspeakable consolation4  ,b ,i mu/ n   
look at ?+s f ! individuali/ic /&po9t4  
,no problem c ev] be solv$ until we h 9 
"s measure realis$ t ! ,life :i* fl[s   
?r\gh u is l>g] ?an our own individual  
life4  ,we get morbid1 & our reason     
becomes w>p$1 :5 we ?9k ( our own future
 alone4 ,e ob/acle 9 our pa?1 e         
int]ruption to ! c\rse :i* we h plann$ =

 ourselves1 e r\gh discipl9e1 tells u t 
our life & future are n our own1 t !y   
are intimately connect$ ) a l>g] life1 a
 great] future4  ,i h be5 ?9k+ ( ^?     
words--s l ,jesus ,*ri/ to h utt]$      
!m--me m]imnesete4  ,we are always      
anxi\s ab\t a set ( circum/ances :i* w  
soon be ^u u--engagem5ts :i* we tremble 
to meet4  ,jesus ,*ri/ tells u1 me      
m]imnesete4  ,i believe t "w 9 ! #ajc   
pres5t _w w\ld be f> m free & effective 
if we w\ld obey ! comm&4  ,we _c ent]   
into life z x comes1 because we are liv+
 9 an imag9>y future4  ,! man ( ,god    
lives 9 ! pres5t2 he leaves ! future to 
,god1 me m]imnesete4  ,if ,god has      
conduct$ u s f>1 ,he w n leave u4  ,x is
 easy to talk1 h>d to act4  ,i ?9k we   
ga9 ! p[] to act1 we ga9 ! calm peace ( 
,god1 by compell+ ourselves to rema9 at 
c]ta9 times 9 ,8 pres5ce4  ,habits (    
pray] are sl[ly =m$1 b :5 =m$ are h>d to
 break4  ,talk+ may be a great sn>e :5 x
 takes ! place ( pray]--& h[ easily x   
does6  ,x is easi] to talk ) a man ?an  

to pray = him--9 _m cases4              
,transcrib]'s note3 ,! ,greek phrases 9 
! above p>agraph 7 translit]at$ z       
foll[s3 me--mu1 eta2 m]imnesete--mu1    
epsilon1 rho1 iota1 mu1 nu1 eta1 sigma1 
eta1 tau1 epsilon    ,to ,f4 ,s4 ,h4    
,clovelly3 ,septemb] #aa1 #ahie4  ,i am 
read+ ',! ,newcomes'3 h y ev] read x8   
,i f9d x h>d to appreciate ,?ack]ay z   
mu* z "s p d4  ,occasionally he says "s 
v true ?+s & %[s t he is acqua9t$ )     
human nature 9 its bright] & d>k]       
aspects4  ,b1 on ! :ole1 ! /ory (       
m>riage & giv+ 9 m>riage--sell+ y\r     
daught] = money or a title--! picture ( 
"y m5 :o s[ _! wild oats & !n rep5t &   
m>ry innoc5t ladies & live virtu\sly &  
die 9 ! od\r ( sanctity--on ! :ole !    
/ory does n seem to correspond to !     
ideals :i* haunt me1 ev5 ?\gh ,i d n act
 up to !m4  ,surely life is some?+      
utt]ly diff]5t f all ?is4  ,surely      
some:]e !re is a picture ( #ajd human   
life1 some:]e 9 ! m9d ( ,god ,himself1  
:]e ! "y man gr[s up )\t any h>ve/ (    

wild oats1 ) cle> & unselfi% ideals1 ) a
 long+ to make ! _w pur] & div9] ?an he 
f\nd x1 a picture :i* is 9 "s measure   
realis$ ar\nd u to-day4  ,may ,god      
deliv] u n only f vici\s b f selfi%     
?\ghts6  ,i believe ,?ack]ay saw some?+ 
( t picture1 b he didn't draw x ) !     
col\rs ,i c\ld h wi%$4 ,!re is a solemn 
text 9 ,ezekiel1 :i* came 9 ! lesson    
lately1 ',! righte\sness ( ! righte\s   
%all n deliv] him 9 ! day ( 8           
transgression4'  ,pa/ religi\s exp]i5ces
 are ( little value )\t pres5t          
righte\sness4    ,to 8 c\s9 ,g4 ,f4     
,clovelly1 ,n4 ,devon3 ,septemb] #ab1   
#ahie4  ,i am 9 p]haps ! qua9te/ & "o ( 
! lovelie/ villages 9 ,engl&1 j do+     
no?+1 & enjoy+ ! simple life ar\nd me4  
,y w\ld l ?is village1 ) its "o /eep1   
n>r[1 picturesque /reet1 ! great sea f> 
d[n bel[1 ! little /one pi] jutt+ out & 
help+ to =m a small h>b\r4  ,!n on ei!r 
side ( ! village are woods rea*+ d[n to 
! cliffs--beautiful woods1 :]e oaks1 & 9
 places hea!r1 are glad to gr[4  ,/4    

,paul says 9 ! lesson to-day t ! ?+s :i*
 are se5 are temporal1 b ! ?+s :i* are n
 se5 are et]nal4  ,& "o feels h[ true   
are 8 words--h[ ! trees1 woods1 fl[]s   
fade & die2 h[ ! old sea we>s sl[ly away
 ! cliffs2 h[ m5 & #aje _! dwell+s pass 
away2 h[ all ^! ?+s :i* are se5 are     
temporal2 & yet ! beauty1 ! love1 ! joy1
 ! purity1 are m p]man5t ?an ! p>ticul> 
manife/ations ( !m are4  ,! beauty :i*  
is manife/$ 9 ! c\ntry ar\nd is et]nal4 
,! life :i* is se5 9 man has a future   
beyond ?is _w4  ,z we ent] 9 beh9d !    
veil1 z we see t life & love :i* are    
express+ !mselves 9 objects ar\nd u1 we 
are already 9 ! et]nal1 9 t :i* endures4
  ,x is n1 z we are con/antly ?9k+1 !   
?+s t are pres5t :i* are temporal1 & !  
?+s t are future :i* are et]nal4 ,no2 ! 
?+s :i* are pres5t h an et]nal side to  
!m--! unse5 side4  ,! man :o is a slave 
to ! se5 has lea/ ( ! et]nal ab\t him3 !
 man :o despises n ! se51 b :o ?r\gh !  
se5 rises to ! unse51 is p>tak+ ( et]nal
 life4 4 4 4    ,to ,f4 ,s4 ,h4         

,cambridge3 ,octob] #bc1 #ahie4  ,let me
 congratulate y on ! way y ran aga9/    
,yale4#a  ,i 0 delight$ to read ( y\r   
'romp+' home66 4 4 4 4  ,x seems to me t
 e unfulfill$ long+ is no accid5tal "p (
 life4  ,! long+1 9 s f> z x is g5u9ely 
human1 is d]iv$ f ,him 9 ^: image man is
 made4  ,:5 x is h>d to see :y x is n   
gratifi$1 yet we #ajf may confid5tly    
believe t ?is is "p ( our tra9+4  ,is x 
n a noble "w to ent] into &1 9 "s       
measure1 be> ! burd5s ( o!r m5's lives1 
ev5 if !y h only imp]fect sympa?y )     
ours8  ,may we n sometimes ev5 le>n m 9 
?is way--or at lea/ le>n diff]5t        
lessons--?an if !y 7 s simil> to        
ourselves t !y c\ld at once und]/& u8   
,i am afraid t y h a h>d /ruggle be=e y4
  ,y mu/ take c>e n to act ^u fir/      
impressions1 or impulse--n ev5 if ^?    
impressions are fav\rable 4 4 4 y\r be/ 
'pe>ls' mu/ be us$ c>efully4   #a ,9 !  
int]national a?letic sports 9 ,u4,s4,a4 
,to ,f4 ,s4 ,h4 on 8 go+ to a curacy 9  
,liv]pool4  ,cambridge3 ,octob] #ah1    

#ahif4  ,9 "s respects ,i am glad to he>
 ( y\r *ange ( plans4  ,i ?9k y w be m 9
 y\r elem5t work+ 9 a poor "p ( a l>ge  
t[n4 4 4 4  ,our dean has j be5 prea*+  
on ! words ',"o s[e?1 & ano!r reape?4'  
,x is a help to realise ! cont9uity (   
"w4 ,we ent] into ! "w ( _m a man :o has
 pass$ away1 & :o1 :ile he work$1 (t5   
despair$ & ?\ght t he 0 a*iev+ no?+4    
,no "w is lo/4  ,! obscure & petty--^!  
are relative t]ms4  ,we use !m1 b we are
 told on ! be/ au?ority t !re is no?+   
secret :i* %all n be made manife/4  ,!  
consci\sness ( ! cont9uity & p]petuity (
 "w quiets & calms u2 we ne$ n hurry ov]
 any?+4  ,:5 we h left (f s[+1 o!rs w   
reap4  ,god give u grace to "w1 = !     
night #ajg come? :5 no man c "w4  ,i am 
s sorry t ,i h n be5 able to come up &  
see y4  ,b we are work+ 9 ! same field1 
?\gh x is too l>ge across to see "o     
ano!r6    ,to ,c4 ,t4 ,w4  ,/4 ,moritz3 
,febru>y #ahih4  ,two new toboggan runs 
h be5 op5$3 "o is a ,canadian run on s(t
 sn[ )\t turns1 %ort & sweet2 ! o!r is  

"p ( ! ,cri/a run1 an ice run1 :i* ,i   
suppose is q ! f9e/ 9 ! _w1 ) spl5did   
corn]s4  ,:5 x is all made x w be ab\t a
 mile 9 l5g?4 4 4 4  ,9 a noisy salon x 
is difficult to collect my scatt]$      
?\ghts4  ,music & o!r atrocities are 9  
full sw+2 & z ,i seldom use my bra9 n[1 
! works are ru/y4  ,i wi% y c\ld see ?is
 c\ntry 9 w9t]4 4 4 4  ,a male rival (  
,! ,brook has appe>$4 ,he is impress$ ) 
! du/ & dampness ( ! atmosph]e--takes   
out trays to toboggan on into           
,italy--spr9kles wat] on 8 b$room floor1
 because he consid]s a damp atmosph]e   
conducive to sleep4  ,s f> we h n fall5 
out altoge!r ) "o ano!r2 "s ( u are on  
speak+ t]ms4  ,we only confid5tially    
discuss :e!r s-&-s has come "h = 8 m9d4 
,we h an ar*deacon1 a canon1 a curate1  
two capta9s2 "o ,plym\?-bro!r-l1 :o     
takes mo/ gloomy views ab\t ! future (  
u1 or mo/ ( u1 includ+ ! p>sons2 ! o!r v
 noisy1 :o attempt$ ! ,canadian toboggan
 run :i* is suppos$ to be safe = ladies 
& #ajh *ildr51 & swe>s t he almo/ broke 

8 neck4  ,he _h an upset & w5t head     
=emo/ into ! sn[1 &1 accord+ to 8 own   
acc\nt1 _h to be dug out4  ,if he _h be5
 a heavi] man1 ,i und]/& t he w\ld h    
brok5 8 neck4  ,z two accid5ts h occurr$
 !re1 x is n absolutely safe4 4 4 4     
,?is place is a spl5did pick-me-up4  ,i 
am a re=m$ "*--g to b$ betwe5 #f &      
#aj4cj ,p4,m4  ,i 0 detect$ la/ night   
*eat+ at c>ds4 ,b re=mation to be       
effective requires "t4  ,give up1 ,i    
say1 "o bad habit at a "t1 & !n tackle !
 next4  ,i h giv5 up e>ly ris+ z be+ !  
mo/ pat5t ( my evil practices4    ,to   
,j4 ,k4  ,*ri/'s ,college1 ,cambridge3  
,augu/ #ai1 #ahih4  4 4 4 4  ,i am sure 
t we h ne$ to le>n n only 9 ! s*ool (   
heal? b also 9 ! s*ool ( sickness4  ,^! 
breaks 9 life1 & ! s5se ( helplessness &
 weakness :i* att5d !m1 are n simply    
p]iods to be 'got ov]'--to be made ! be/
 ( till we c '/>t aga9'--b !y h a mean+ 
:i* we c f9d1 if we only look ) ! eye ( 
fai?4  ,x is /range h[1 al?\gh ,god sees
 ! :ole way 9 :i* we ought to g1 ,he    

leaves u 9 comp>ative d>kness4  ,we ne$1
 ,i am sure1 revelation4  ',"l1 op5 ! "y
 man's eyes1 t he may see4'  ,we %all   
take ! wrong turn+ if we tru/ to our    
ord9>y eyes2 we %all f9d ! pa? if we h !
 eye ( fai? to see :at ,god is reveal+4 
4 4 4  ,& n[ at ?is "t ,i ne$ y\r       
pray]s4  ,i h--& #aji ?is1 ,i ne$ h>dly 
say1 is private--an invitation f !      
,bi%op ( ---- to come & lecture to      
!ological /ud5ts1 :om he hopes to ga!r  
r\nd him4  ,( c\rse ! s*eme is r 9 ! air
 s f>4  ,he has n yet got ! m54  ,b he  
has an attractive p[]1 & he might on a  
small] scale d "s su* "w z ,vaughan us$ 
to d = m5 :o did n g to def9ite         
!ological colleges4  ,w y pray = me t ,i
 may g if ,i ought1 & n g if ,i ought n1
 please8      ,our wills are ours1 we "k
 n h[1   ,our wills are ours1 to make !m
 ,?9e4    ,to ,j4 ,l4 ,d4  ,cliff ,dale1
 ,crom]3 ,octob] #c1 #ahih4  ,i d n     
belong & ,i nev] h belong$ to any ( !   
societies or guilds :i* y m5tion4  ,i am
 a memb] ( a ,*ur*4  ,= t reason ,i d>e 

n jo9 any p>ty4  ,9 fact1 ,i _c und]/&  
:at 'p>ties' h to d ) a ,*ur*4  ,! ,*ur*
 by its v exi/5ce is a witness aga9/    
p>ties & divisions4  ,x w take me m ?an 
a lifetime to le>n :at x is to be a     
memb] ( a ,*ur*2 & no "o c le>n ! lesson
 :ile he p]si/s 9 cl++ to a p>ty4  ,he  
mu/ be a memb] n ( a "p b ( a :ole4  ,i 
!re=e h no "t to wa/e 9 jo9+ a p>ty4  ,i
 feel /rongly t ! v>i\s societies &     
guilds1 bas$ ^u p>ty life1 are eat+ away
 ! v life ( ! ,*ur*4  ,b ,i am sl[ 9    
condemn+ my neighb\r = consci5ti\sly    
jo9+ any su* #aaj society4  ,he may only
 be able to see "o side ( tru?1 & x is  
bett]--f> bett]--t he %\ld see t side   
?an no?+ at all4    ,to ! "m ( 8        
god*ild1 ,m>g>et ,=bes4  ,april #ab1    
#ahii4  ,x is su* a joy to me to be     
all[$ to be h] godp>5t1 & ,i %all       
rememb] h] (t5 9 my pray]s4  ,:at a     
wond]ful revelation %e mu/ be to y      
bo?--mak+ ! ,heav5ly ,home a full]      
reality ?an ev] be=e6  ,x is ?r\gh e>?ly
 relation%ips t we realise ! mean+ ( !  

unse5 _w4  ,i l ^? l9es ( ,fab]3    ,all
 fa!rs le>n _! craft f ,!e3     ,all    
loves are %ad[s ca/   ,by ! beautiful   
et]nal hills     ,( ,?9e unbeg9n+ pa/4  
,to 8 "m4  ,r\xville1 ,orange ,free     
,/ate2 ,july #h1 #ahii4  ,x is a /range 
& some:at t]rible /udy 9 religion--?is  
,bo] religion4  ,x seems to h little or 
no connection ) morality4 ,krug] seems  
to h amass$ great weal? by d\btful      
means4  ,a man comes to him & (f]s him1 
say1 #h1jjjl4 on condition t he may h ! 
"r to sell m9]al wat]s4  ,mrs4 ,krug]   
comes 9 & c\nts ! money2 & if x is "r1 !
 concession is grant$4  ,yet he is      
religi\s1 v religi\s4  ,a %ort "t ago !y
 want$ to fire %ells into ! l[-ly+ cl\ds
 dur+ a "t #aaa ( dr\ght4  ,! cl\ds     
ga!r1 b !y w n break4  ,fir+ %ells 0    
f\nd to h a good effect 9 br++ ! ra94   
,b ,krug] /opp$ x because x 0 wrong to  
'fire %ells at ! ,almighty4'  ,y w\ld   
?9k t a little /ate l ?is might be an   
ideal "o ) its simple scatt]$ population
 ( f>m]s4  ,b x is by no means s4       

,corruption & inju/ice are only too     
preval5t4  ,at ! />t (f !y 7 un=tunate 9
 _! *oice ( ,presid5t4  ,! /ate 0 at w> 
) ! ,basutos at ! "t :5 he 0 elect$2 &  
?ree mon?s aft] he 0 made ,presid5t he  
_h to be depos$1 because he 0 discov]$  
sell+ arms to ! ,basutos4  ,! ,dut*     
don't treat ! natives z well z we d4    
,yet 9 "s respects _! laws are wise4  ,a
 native may n live 9 ! ,free ,/ate )\t  
do+ "s def9ite "w1 unless he pays a tax 
( #es4 a mon?3 ?is is1 ,i ?9k1 a wise   
rule4  ,we _h two v nice s]vices la/    
,sunday at ! ,engli% *ur*2 ,i prea*     
twice to-morr[4    ,to ,c4 ,t4 ,w4      
,durban2 ,july #ahii4  ,i write to      
congratulate y mo/ he>tily on y\r ,fir/ 
,class4 4 4 4  ,i believe y w f9d 9 a   
ye>'s "t t :atev] y\r "w may be1 contact
 ) o!rs--! necessity ( influ5c+ & guid+ 
!m--w be a trem5d\s help to y 9 y\r own 
life4 4 4 4  ,good man6  ,i am delight$ 
to ?9k t y may see ! ,bi%op ( ,durham4  
,prophets' eyes are #aab ne$$ out "h to 
cat* ! glory :i* mu/ be sl[ly--s        

sl[ly--ga9+ on ! %ade4  ,!re is s mu*   
mat]ialism1 s little ref9em5t &         
spirituality4  ,i _h a gr& voyage3 only 
?ree p rescu$ f dr[n+ be=e ,i got on    
bo>d1 & two /[aways aft] we left        
,madeira1 & two or ?ree days ( r\gh     
wea!r4  ,i enjoy$ x4 4 4 4  ,i _h       
aft]noon tea1 or r c(fee1 ) ,uncle      
,paul4  ,he is a /rong1 f9e old man4    
,he 0 sitt+ puff+ away at 8 l>ge pipe4  
,x 0 aft] a long day's "w 9 ! secret    
,volksraad4  ,he 0 tir$4 ',x is h>d "w1'
 he said1 '= ! head4'  ,! ,/ate         
attorney1 a "y ,*ri/'s man1 expla9$ to  
him t 'we 7 bo? at ! same s*ool 9       
,engl&4'  ,krug] 0 eloqu5t on ! subject 
( ! ,petition4  ,he told me t "s ( !    
#ba1jjj _h di$ ?ree ye>s be=e !y sign$  
x1 & "s _h sign$ x ow+ to a bottle (    
:isky4  ',& ,i want y to let t be kn[n 9
 ,engl&' 7,i "k any?+ said to y w       
circulate--by exp]i5ce74  ,he said1 did 
! subtle old man1 t he want$ to d :at 0 
"r & fair irrespective ( nationality4   
,?is ,transvaal "q is complicat$4  ,i   

?\ght x easy at fir/4 ,b n[ ,i c see no 
moral gr\nds ( any sort = a w> ) !      
,bo]s1 9 spite ( _! iniquities4  ,!re is
 a great deal to be said on _! side1 &  
mu* iniquity conceal$ "u su* speci\s    
phrases z ',imp]ialism1' ',supremacy (  
,great ,brita9 9 ,s\? ,africa4'  ,i _c  
see t we h a real cause = w>1 b x is a  
big "q ) _m sides4  ,if ,engl& goes to  
w> & w9s1 %e #aac w h h] "w cut out4    
',c %e af=d1' said ! ,attorney ( !      
,transvaal to me1 'to h a second ,irel& 
at ! di/ance ( "s #e1jjj or #f1jjj miles
 f home8  ,:at if %e _h w> 9 ,india8    
,to ,w4 ,a4 ,b4  ,luckn[ ,lodge1 ,b]ea1 
,durban3 ,augu/ #bb1 #ahii4  ,i ?ank my 
,god 9 my pray]s on y\r behalf = ,8     
goodness 9 grant+ y ,8 be/ gift--a human
 s\l to love & to inspire4 ,toge!r y w  
be able to "k & love ,him bett] ?an ei!r
 ( y c\ld alone4  ,y _c make y\r love   
too sacr$2 z y "k ,god y w le>n to "k "o
 ano!r4  ,we are incl9$ to ?9k t we "k  
all t love means4  ,! tru? is1 we are   
only beg9n]s4  ,?ank ,god t we are 9 !  

s*ool1 al?\gh only 9 "o ( ! l[e/ =ms4   
,he w tea* u1 z ye>s g by1 to sanctify  
ourselves = ! sake ( ano!r4  ,we h n    
le>n$ to love until we are liv+ ! highe/
 possible life1 9 ord] t ! object ( our 
affection may become a sa9t4  ,god is   
giv+ y a pres5t1 ! value ( :i* y see 9  
"p n[1 y w realise fully h]eaft]4  ,y   
mu/ wre/le ) ,god = h] & = y\rself4 ,if 
y are true to ! highe/1 bo? ( y w rise  
toge!r & see ,god4  ,if y are n1 %e may 
n be able to m\nt alone4  ,i am fill$ ) 
joy & hope z ,i ?9k ( y bo?4  ,i believe
 t y w live = ,god m completely n[ ?an  
ev] be=e1 & t y w be a full] bless+ to  
y\r p4  ,y h my pray]s4 #aad ,i want y  
to make y\r ideals high] & high]4  ,!n1 
:5 y h ga9$ "o height1 y w f9d t :at y  
took = ! summit f ! pla9 0 n really s3  
!re 7 fur!r peaks beyond4  ,x is !      
beg9n+ ( an endless life4  ,if ,god     
,himself be ! c5tre ( all1 ! ne>] we are
 to ,him1 ! ne>] we are to "o ano!r4  ,i
 am glad t y\r wife is "o :o %>es 9 y\r 
ideals1 :o lives = ! highe/4  ,:at a    

life 9 /ore = y "h6  ,& !re--           
,be=e ! judgm5t seat1     ,?\gh *ang$ & 
glorifi$ ea* face1   ,n unrememb]$ y w  
meet     ,= endless ages to embrace4  ,y
 w be ne>] ! c5tre !n1 & ne>] to "o     
ano!r4  ,may ,god ,himself bless y1 de> 
old fell[6  ,=give ?is poor attempt at a
 lett]4  ,i %>e 9 y\r joy1 al?\gh ,i am 
n actually ) y4 ,i nev] rememb] any w$d+
 outside my own family :i* has giv5 me  
great] pleasure4  ,x 0 good ( y to ask  
me to be pres5t--v good4  ,b----1 ,i am 
glad4  ,y mu/ ?ank ,god & ask ,him to   
tell y :at x all means1 & = h] sake live
 z good a life z y possibly c4  ,) be/  
love ,i am y\r fri5d1  ,,=bes4    ,to a 
,fri5d aft] he>+ ( 8 int5d$ ord9ation4  
,durban3 ,augu/ #ahii4  ,y\r ord9ation w
 be l my own ov] aga94  ,x is unutt]ably
 good ( ,god 4 4 4 to put x into #aae   
y\r he>t to live ! life :i* ,i _h pray$ 
might be y\rs4  ,meizot]an t\ton ouk    
*>91 h9a ak\o ta ema tekna en te ale!ia 
p]ipat\nta 4 4 4  ,transcrib]'s note3 ,!
 ,greek phrases 9 ! above p>agraph 7    

translit]at$ z foll[s3 ,meizot]an--,mu1 
epsilon1 iota1 zeta1 omicron1 tau1      
epsilon1 rho1 alpha1 nu2 t\ton--tau1    
omicron1 upsilon1 tau1 omega1 nu2       
ouk--omicron1 upsilon1 kappa2 *>9--*i1  
alpha1 rho1 iota1 nu2 h9a--7r\gh brea?+ 
m>k7 iota1 nu1 alpha2 ak\o--alpha1      
kappa1 omicron1 upsilon1 omega2 ta--tau1
 alpha2 ema--epsilon1 mu1 alpha2        
tekna--tau1 epsilon1 kappa1 nu1 alpha2  
en--epsilon1 nu2 te--tau1 eta2          
ale!ia--alpha1 lambda1 eta1 !ta1        
epsilon1 iota1 alpha2 p]ipat\nta--pi1   
epsilon1 rho1 iota1 pi1 alpha1 tau1     
omicron1 upsilon1 nu1 tau1 alpha  4 4 4 
,if y\r temptations are great x is      
because y\r nature is ri* & noble2 & :5 
x is discipl9$ y w h trem5d\s p[]4 ,i   
%all n be cont5t until y\r e ?\ght is l$
 captive to '! ob$i5ce ( ! ,*ri/4'  ,y  
are born to be a sa9t1 & y w be wret*$  
until y are "o4  ,y are n ! k9d ( man :o
 c d ?+s by halves4  ,i ?9k ,i h told y 
( my fa!r's words spok5 dur+ 8 la/      
illness3 ',if ,i _h a ?\s& lives1 ,i    

w\ld give !m all--all to ! m9i/ry4'  ,y 
w n regret y\r decision4  ,if angels    
c\ld envy1 h[ !y w\ld envy u our spl5did
 *ance--to be able1 9 a _w :]e ev]y?+   
unse5 mu/ be tak5 on %e] fai?1 9 a _w   
:]e ! conte/ betwe5 ! fle% & ! _s is be+
 decid$ = ! univ]se1 n only to w9 !     
battle ourselves b also to w9 x = o!rs6 
,to help a bro!r up ! m\nta9 :ile y     
y\rself are only j able to keep y\r     
foo?old1 to /ruggle ?r\gh ! mi/         
toge!r--t surely is bett] ?an to /& at !
 summit & beckon4 ,y w h a h>d "t ( x1  
,i "k2 & ,i w\ld l to make x smoo!r & to
 'let y d[n' easi]2 b ,i am sure t ,god1
 :o loves y ev5 m ?an ,i d1 & has       
absolute wisdom1 w n tax y beyond y\r   
/r5g?4 4 4 4  ,i'll pray = y1 l ! wid[ 9
 ! p>able1 & ,i h imm5se belief 9 pray]4
 4 4 4  ,y rememb] :at 0 said (         
,maurice1 ',he #aaf always impress$ me z
 a man :o 0 naturally weak 9 8 w2 b an  
iron w seem$ to "w ?r\gh him4'  ,t ,w c 
"w ?r\gh y & trans=m y1 b = ,god's sake 
don't tru/ to y\r own w4 4 4 4  ,if y   

are orda9$ x w be because !re is "o :o 9
 ,/4 ,paul's words--ho aphorisas me ek  
koilias metros m\--0 sep>at+ y f bir? & 
educat+ y ) a view to ! ,gospel ( ,*ri/4
 4 4 4    ,tasks 9 h\rs ( insight will$ 
,c be ?r\gh h\rs ( gloom fulfill$4#a    
#a ,mat!w ,arnold1 ,morality4           
,transcrib]'s note3 ,! ,greek phrases 9 
! above p>agraph 7 translit]at$ z       
foll[s3 ho--7r\gh brea?+ m>k7 omicron2  
aphorisas--alpha1 phi1 omicron1 rho1    
iota1 sigma1 alpha1 f9al sigma2 me--mu1 
epsilon2 ek--epsilon1 kappa2            
koilias--kappa1 omicron1 iota1 lambda1  
iota1 alpha1 f9al sigma2 metros--mu1    
eta1 tau1 rho1 omicron1 f9al sigma2     
m\--mu1 omicron1 upsilon    ,to 8 "m4   
,e/c\rt1 ,natal2 ,augu/ #ah1 #ahii4     
,g5]al ,gordon came to ,kok/ad on 8 way 
to ,basutol&4  ,:5 he arriv$ he w5t to !
 ,royal ,hotel1 ord]$ a room1 ?rew op5 !
 w9d[1 & sp5t two h\rs 9 pray] &        
m$itation4  ,! next day 0 ,sunday4  ,he 
ask$ ,mr4 ,adk9 :at 0 be+ done = #a1jjj 
,cape ,m\nt$ ,infantry !n /ation$ !re1 &

 :5 he le>nt t no?+ 0 be+ done = _!     
spiritual food1 he bur/ into te>s4  ,on 
,monday morn+ ! fir/ telegram :i* he s5t
 (f to ! ,cape ,gov]nm5t 0 a reque/ t a 
*apla9 %\ld be appo9t$4  ,mr4 ,adk9 0   
appo9t$ & rema9$ *apla9 until ! =ce 0   
disb&$4  ,g5]al ,gordon w5t on to       
,basutol&1 & _h wond]ful p[] ov] !      
natives4  ,he told !m t no =ce w\ld be  
br\ght aga9/ #aag !m2 he himself 0 )\t  
weapons4  ,he 0 settl+ ! c\ntry1 :5 news
 came to him t ! ,cape ,gov]nm5t 01     
contr>y to /ipulation1 s5d+ an arm$ =ce 
aga9/ !m2 s he left ! c\ntry 9 tw5ty-f\r
 h\rs4  ,cecil ,rhodes 0 once at        
,kok/ad4  ,:5 he 0 ne> ! place1 he lay  
d[n on ! hillside & exclaim$3 ',oh1 h[  
,i wi% !y w\ld let me alone--let me /ay 
"h6'  ,h[ev]1 he _h to g d[n to be ft$4 
,he 0 li/less1 & bor$ by ! banquet1     
until ! pres5t mayor began to attack him
 viol5tly 9 8 spee*1 & to compla9 ab\t !
 ,cape ,gov]nm5t1 & to express a desire 
t ,natal w\ld take !m ov]4 ,!n ,rhodes  
woke up ) a v5geance & gave !m a great  

spee*4 ,ixopo is :]e ,rhodes />t$ out 9 
,s\? ,africa4  ,8 "n /ill figures on !  
magi/rates' books--f9$ #ajl41 = sell+ a 
gun to a native4    ,to 8 c\s91 ,j4 ,c4 
,h2 on ! occasion ( ! dea? ( 8 bro!r4   
,decemb] #g1 #ahii4  ,y "k1 )\t my say+ 
x1 t y h my deep sympa?y & pray]s at ?is
 "t4 4 4 4  ,we d>e n & _c sorr[ z d    
o!rs :o h no c]ta9 hope4  ,our sorr[ is 
( ano!r k9d4  ,= ,i am q sure t         
,9 ,8 va/ _w above1       ,a _w ( broad]
 love1   ,god ha? "s gr& employm5t = ,8 
son4#a  #aah ,h[ real x all makes t o!r 
_w1 to h our own bro!rs !re6  ,x makes x
 9 a deep] s5se our home4  #a ,fab]1 ,! 
,old ,lab\r]4    ,to ! "m ( 8 god*ild1  
,m>g>et ,=bes4  ,dore ,h\se1 ,/4        
,leon>ds3 ,janu>y #aj1 #aijj4  ,i am s  
glad to feel t my little god*ild w h    
real tra9+4 ,i don't "k h[ f> ,i receiv$
 su* a tra9+ myself at an e>ly age 4 4 4
  ,i came t[>ds ! end ( a l>ge family4  
,! only p]man5t in/ruction :i* ,i c     
rememb] imp>t$ to me by my nurs]y maid 0
 a caution n to look beh9d me :5 ,i     

pass$ p 9 ! /reet1 en=c$ by ! biblical  
precept1 ',rememb] ,lot's wife4'  ,i "k 
:at a fasc9ation ,i _h to look beh9d1   
accompani$ by a t]rible dread ( !       
consequ5ces4  ,i h always felt t ,fab]'s
 ',god ( my ,*ildhood' describes !      
normal & true developm5t ( a *ild's     
life4  ,i am sure t1 al?\gh ! gravity ( 
s9 %\ld be e>ly recognis$1 great] /ress 
%\ld be laid ^u ! ,fa!rhood & k9dness ( 
,god4  ,i 0 notic+ to-day1 :5 read+ !   
second lesson1 h[ ,we/cott & ,hort h    
plac$ ! clause 9 ! ,"l's ,pray] :i*     
speaks ( ! ,fa!rhood ( ,god 9 a l9e by  
itself z a head+ to ! :ole pray]1 putt+ 
a colon aft] ! clause1 & beg9n+ ! fir/  
petition ) a capital lett]4  ,! pray]   
beg9s ) ',fa!rhood' & ends ) a ref]5ce  
to ',s9fulness4'  ,i ?9k ?is fact is    
significant4  ,we may n all be int5d$ to
 come to #aai "k religi\s tru? 9 t ord]4
  ,b ,i ?9k we are int5d$1 :5 we d "k x1
 to lay ev5 m /ress on ! ,fa!rhood (    
,god ?an on our own imp]fections4  ,x is
 a wond]ful & t]rible ?+ to wat* !      

developm5t ( a human _s4  ,we c und]/& s
 little ab\t any life1 ev5 :5 x is ne> &
 de> to u4  ,b ,i am n sure t we _c le>n
 m ab\t o!rs ?an we c ab\t ourselves4   
,i nev] ?9k x is pr(itable to /udy      
oneself too closely6  ,i nev] c\ld      
m$itate ) any pr(it on my s9s4  ,b !re1 
,i d>e say1 ,i diff] f _m o!rs4  ,well1 
,i hope t ! hair ( my god*ild is gr[+1 &
 t %e has n[ m ?an h] god-fa!r4  ,8 is  
com+ to an untimely end4    ,to ,f4 ,s4 
,h2 :o _h rec5tly become a *apla9 9 !   
,navy4  ,/4 ,leon>ds3 ,janu>y #aa1      
#aijj4  ,i am ?9k+ ( y 9 y\r new1       
difficult1 & int]e/+ life1 & wond]+ h[ y
 l x4  ,or1 r1 ,i am sure t y l x 9 its 
ma9 features4  ,!re are 9 e life        
drawbacks & disc\ragem5ts1 = we live by 
fai? & n by sight1 & fai? mu/ be p]fect$
 9 ! mid/ ( p]plexities &               
contradictions4  ,! mi/s are useful4  ,x
 w\ld n d to h brilliant sun%9e all !   
"t4  ,= 9 t case1 :]e w\ld fai? come 98 
,/e]+ t[>ds our port 9 ! fog means tru/+
 ! ,pilot4  ',m]cifully grant t we1 :i* 

"k ,!e n[ by fai?1 may aft] ?is life h !
 fruition ( ,?y glori\s ,godhead4'  ,i  
suppose t none ( u fully #abj kn[s :at  
?is pray] means4  ,i ?9k t !re w be m   
ne$ ( fai? h]eaft] ?an we usually ?9k4  
,c we ev] appreh5d ! ,fa!r or ! ,son )\t
 fai?8  ,! deepe/ tru?s are grasp$ by   
fai? n sight4  ,! man :o has le>n$ to   
ex]cise fai? "h w h full] scope = 8 fai?
 h]eaft]4  ,:at a %ock to wake up 9 !   
next _w & to f9d t ! riddles ( life /ill
 ne$ fai? = _! solution6  ,yet ,i imag9e
 t x w be s4  ,only fai? w be able to g 
deep] ?an "h4  ,! fai? p]fect$ 9 ! mi/s 
( life w1 9 ! sun%9e ( et]nity1 see     
deep] into ! mean+ ( ev5ts4  ,i wi% ,i  
_h m fai?4  ,n sudd5 flights ( fai?     
annihilat+ "t & space & ris+ up to !    
?rone ( heav54  ,b ,i wi% ,i c\ld gr\nd 
all my actions on fai?1 & regul>ly see !
 invisible & live z "o :o c\ld see      
always & ev]y:]e ! ,unse54  ,we are     
s*ool$ 9 diff]5t ways4  ,we _c atta9 to 
p]fection 9 a night4 ,z we advance 9 !  
,*ri/ian life progress seems sl[]4  ,9  

"s s5se x is s4  ,x is easi] to ca/ (f a
 numb] ( def9ite bad habits cle>ly      
inconsi/5t ) ! ideal j at fir/1 ?an to  
p]fect self-sacrifice1 humility1 &      
self-discipl9e4  ,b we are advanc+1 ?\gh
 we "k x n4  ,if ! eng9es are always    
kept work+1 we %all rea* our goal6      
,to ,c4 ,n4 ,w2 :o _h rec5tly be5       
orda9$4  ,/4 ,leon>ds-on-,sea3 ,janu>y  
#ab1 #aijj4  ,y mu/ rememb] h[ mu* y\r  
future effici5cy is dep5d5t ^u a        
judici\s use ( y\r #aba /r5g? dur+ !    
next two or ?ree ye>s4  ,i am sure y are
 "r 9 look+ back ^u y\r life & trac+ 9  
its developm5ts a high] ?an human       
guidance4  ,x is a helpful ?+ to trace  
n[ & anon ,god's h& 9 our individual    
life4 ,x br+s ,him ne>] to u1 & x is an 
awful ?\ght t ,he is actually work+ )9  
u4  ,x makes u tru/ ,him = "t to come   
ev5 :5 ! prospect is gloomy4  ,i ?9k t  
we d well to sp5d "s "t 9 try+ to       
int]pret details ( our pa/ life4  ,z    
ye>s g on1 we %\ld h su* a firm fai?    
f\nd$ on ! rock ( exp]i5ce t we w n be  

lightly %ak54  ,peace %\ld be a         
*>act]i/ic ( our life--! joy & peace :i*
 come f a c]ta9ty t !re is a ,purpose 9 
all ev5ts4  ,! s5se t ,god has be5 ) u 9
 ! pa/ is a help 9 int]pret+ ! hi/ory ( 
our nation4  ,ev5 our tr\bles are a pro(
 t ,he is discipl9+ u4  ,= ! s]vice (   
,int]cession1 :i* my bro!r uses 9       
,we/m9/] ,abbey at ! "t ( ?is w>1 ! op5+
 s5t5ce is ',! ,"l our ,god be ) u1' & !
 answ] is1 ',z ,he 0 ) our fa!rs4'  ,!  
,college is gett+ on well4  ,y mu/ come 
up & see me ?is ye>1 :ile y /ill "k a   
numb] ( m54  ,i h n[ a little ev5+      
s]vice--compl9e--9 my rooms at #aj      
o'clock2 ,ma/]man ask$ me to h x4  ,he  
ask$ m5 to come1 & !y ask$ o!rs4  ,i    
purposely refra9$ f ask+ any "o4  ,we   
are sometimes a goodly numb]4  ,i ?9k x 
is helpful to ^? :o come4  ,x is1 ,i "k1
 to me4  ,we h a hymn :5 we h suffici5t 
musical tal5t6    #abb  ,to ,g4 ,j4 ,c4 
,*ri/'s ,college1 ,cambridge3 #aijj4    
,gwatk9 has explod$ ,an?ony1 ':o nev]   
exi/$4'  ,b = all t ,i ?9k ,an?ony is   

mu* l ,adam & ,eve4  ,! orig9als may    
'nev] h exi/$4'  ,yet _! /ory belongs to
 all "t4  ,& !re w be ,an?onies & ,adams
 & ,eves to ! end ( "t4  ,x com=ts me to
 feel t t :i* makes = evil is n my true 
self1 b a wret*$1 cunn+ animal exi/5ce  
indep5d5t ( me1 exi/+ be=e ,i came into 
be+1 al?\gh capable ( appeal+ to me--a  
s]p5t4  ,i am half glad & half sorry to 
he> ( y\r h>monium4  ,public wor%ip is a
 t]ribly difficult ?+1 & x is well at   
times t we %\ld realise its             
difficulties1 & h x /ripp$ b>e ( _m     
helpful accessories4  ,yet wor%ip 9 a   
village *ur* impresses me4  ,z 9 a      
college *apel1 ,i realise !n ! cont9uity
 ( ! race4  ,an old *ur* tells me (     
g5]ations ( m5 :o liv$ my life1 to :om !
 pres5t 0 ev]y?+1 & ! dead almo/ no?+1  
:o nev] c\ld s]i\sly believe t "s day ! 
_w w\ld :irl & foll[ ! sun )\t !m4  ,x  
tells me m ?an mo/ ?+s ( :at ,/4 ,paul  
means :5 he said t we 7 all mak+ "o     
p]fect man4  ,& ,i am humbl$ & ?ankful  
to "k t ,i 9 my g5]ation c d some?+     

t[>ds ! ,*ri/ 't is to be4'  ,read !    
,old ,te/am5t itself4  ,no?+ w #abc     
atone = lack ( k ( ! ,bible4  ,rob]tson 
,smi?'s & ,adam ,smi?'s books           
7especially ! latt]'s7 on ! ,old        
,te/am5t ,prophets ought to prove       
useful4 4 4 4  ,:5 ,i call a man by 8   
,*ri/ian "n1 ,i usually make x a rule to
 pray = him4  ,i %all d s 9 y\r case4   
,i w try to pray e day4  ,i wond] :e!r y
 w\ld sometimes pray = me3 ,i believe   
imm5sely 9 ! p[] ( pray]4  ,x is !      
greate/ fav\r ,i c ask ( y1 & ,i "k ,i h
 no "r to pref] ! reque/2 b x w\ld be   
k9d ( y if y c\ld occasionally4  ,"o    
ne$s all ! help "o c get 9 ?is /range   
life up "h4  ,n[ ,i w end4  ,i h writt5 
y a /range1 unres]v$ lett]4  ,=give me4 
,h[ ,i wi% ?is dreadful w> 0 at an end6 
,u----'s go+ 0 a bl[ to me2 b ,i am sure
 he did ! "r ?+4  ,i admire & love t    
man4 4 4 4    ,to ,g4 ,j4 ,c4           
,ca/leton1 ,swanage3 #aijj4  4 4 4  ,y w
 n h mis9t]pret$ my sil5ce4  ,i c\ld n  
answ] y\r lett] until ,i _h secur$ a "t 

= quiet ?\ght & = pray]4  ,:5 ,i try to 
write1 ,i feel ! uselessness ( words4   
,i am do+ bett] :5 ,i am pray+ = y ?an  
:5 ,i am writ+ to y4 ,yet ,i mu/ write4 
4 4 4  ,x is /range t ,god %\ld h made u
 ?us4  ,to ^? :om ,he hon\rs mo/ ,he    
gives l>ge/ capacity = love1 & !re=e    
l>ge/ capacity = suff]+4  ,x is /ill m  
/range t we w\ld n wi% to be #abd )\t ! 
love 9 spite ( ! agony :i* x br+s4  ,x  
mu/ be because      ,all loves are %ad[s
 ca/   ,by ! beautiful et]nal hills     
,( ,?9e unbeg9n+ pa/4  ,i feel ?is tru? 
'9 seasons ( calm wea!r4'  ,b at o!r    
times ,i ask myself1 ,i ask ,god1       
angrily1 ,:y %\ld "s m5 h no ob/acle to 
_! love8  ,:y %\ld ano!r suff] m ?an any
 "o c tell--m ?an1 x sometimes seems to 
me1 c ev] be requit$8  ,i _c answ] ! "q4
  ,b ,i (t5 ?9k ( ! great unsatisfi$    
he>t ( ,god1 & !n ,i ?9k ( ?is poor     
unsatisfi$ he>t made 9 ,8 image1 & ,i   
feel t ,he und]/&s me1 & t ,i und]/&    
,him bett] ?an ,i us$ to d1 be=e ?is    
t]rible hung] ( love began4  ,i pray    

,god t ,he w deal t5d]ly ) y1 ,g----1 & 
,i am sure t ,he w4  ,x cuts me to !    
he>t to ?9k ( y\r suff]+1 & ,i w\ld /op 
x ?is mom5t if ,i c\ld4  ,s w\ld ,god--=
 ,he loves y m ?an ,i d--unless x 7 !   
be/ ?+ = y4  ,x is writt5 ( ! ,son (    
man1 ema!n aph on epa!n4  ,may ! same   
words be true ( y & ( me6  ,god bless y 
& give y ,light & ,peace6    ,peace is  
some?+ m ?an joy1     ,ev5 ! joys above2
   ,= peace1 ( all creat$ ?+s1     ,is  
like/ ,him we love4  ,transcrib]'s note3
 ,! ,greek phrase 9 ! above p>agraph 0  
translit]at$ z foll[s3 ema!n--epsilon1  
mu1 alpha1 !ta1 epsilon1 nu2 aph--alpha1
 phi2 on--emega1 nu2 epa!n--epsilon1 pi1
 alpha1 !ta1 epsilon1 nu   ,?is lett]   
may appe> cold to y4  ,x is n4  ,i feel 
m deeply ?an ,i write4 4 4 4  ,"s day1  
if #abe y c>e to he>1 ,i w tell y some?+
 ab\t my own imp]fect life4  ,i c't     
write x d[n4 ,lat] ! day w dawn4  ,b    
,god s5ds ! d>kness t we may le>n to    
tru/ ,him1 ,i h nev] yet f\nd ,him to   
fail4  ,we _c tru/ ,him too mu*4    ,to 

! "m ( a fri5d1 aft] hav+ be5 pres5t at 
8 fun]al4  ,cambridge3 ,april #bb1      
#aijj4  ,i feel ,i mu/ write & tell y h[
 grateful ,i am to y = y\r k9dness 9    
all[+ me to be pres5t on ,?ursday4      
,:5ev] ,i ?9k ( y\r son :o has pass$    
away1 t text comes into my m9d3 ',bless$
 are ! pure 9 he>t1 = !y %all see ,god4'
  ,he 0 pure 9 he>t1 & ,i _c ?9k ( him z
 lifeless1 b z actually see+ ,god4 4 4 4
  ,i am ?ankful to h be5 all[$ to be 8  
fri5d4  ,i %all nev] =get him2 8 life   
rema9s a s\rce ( /r5g? & inspiration to 
me4  ,x com=ts me n[ to "k t he is s9k+ 
deep] & deep] into ! peace ( ,god1 :i*  
passe? all und]/&+4  ,y 7 talk+ to me   
ab\t ,w----2 ,i c\ld n say all t ,i wi%$
 to say4 4 4 4  ,i am v1 v sl[ to sugge/
 ord9ation to a man4  ,i realise !      
responsibility ( do+ s1 b !re is no man 
:om ,i desire to see orda9$ m ?an       
,w----2 he has be5 to me m help ?an ,i c
 possibly say4  ,i d>e n try to tell y  
all t he has done = me1 because y w\ld  
?9k ,i 0 exagg]at+4  ,i _c help feel+ t1

 if he helps me s mu*1 he might help    
o!rs also1 & t1 if he 7 orda9$1 #abf he 
w\ld h s+ul> opportunities = r5d]+ su*  
help4  ,b ,i d n press him 9 ! matt]1   
because ,i might d wrong2 b ,i pray aga9
 & aga9 t1 if ,god wi%es him to be      
orda9$1 ,he w make ,8 purpose cle>1 & ,i
 am q sure t ,he w n leave u 9 ! d>k4   
,to ,c4 ,t4 ,w4  ,cambridge3 ,july      
#aijj4  ,i 0 delight$ to read 9 ! pap]  
ye/]day ( y\r election to a fell[%ip4 4 
4 4  ,! life w be a h>d] "o ?an t ( an  
ord9>y p>i% cl]gyman2 x w be easi] to   
lose sight ( ideals4 ,b ! importance ( !
 "w is 9 proportion to its difficulty4  
,bless$ is ! man :o f9ds 8 "w1 & does x2
 & y w be bless$4 4 4 4  ,y %\ld read   
,/4 ,patrick's ',confession1' a g5u9e "w
 ( my di/+ui%$ c\ntryman4  ,x is full ( 
humility & zeal4  ,i give y a quotation3
 ',aft] ,i _h come to ,irel& ,i us$     
daily to fe$ cattle1 & ,i (t5 pray$ dur+
 ! day4  ,m & m did ! love ( ,god & !   
fe> ( ,him increase1 & fai? became      
/rong] & ! _s 0 mov$2 s t 9 "o day ,i   

said z _m z a hundr$ pray]s1 & 9 ! night
 ne>ly ! same4 4 4 4  ,& !re 0 no       
sluggi%ness 9 me1 z ,i n[ see !re is1 = 
at t "t ! _s 0 f]v5t )9 me4'  ,pa!tic--t
 la/ "p4  ,he might h be5 liv+ at       
,cambridge6  ,b ,i hope bett] ?+s = y4  
#abg  ,to ,c4 ,t4 ,w4  ,?irlm]e3        
,septemb] #aijj4  ,my ?\ghts are ) y    
n[--& my pray]s4  ',he _h sev5 />s--9 ,8
 "r h&1' 0 ! ?\ght :i* com=t$ me at my  
own ord9ation1 :5 ,i felt1 z seldom     
be=e1 my own holl[ness & incapacity4    
,we c %$ light--we are safe--because we 
are '9 ,8 "r h&4'  ',! et]nal ,god is   
our refuge1 & und]nea? are ! ev]la/+    
arms4'  ,we c nev] g beyond ,8 love &   
c>e4  ,9 mom5ts ( p]plexity & unc]ta9ty1
 al?\gh we _c feel ,8 pres5ce1 ,he is   
!re4  ',9 ,8 "r h&4'  ',!y t turn _m to 
righte\sness %all %9e z ! />s = ev] &   
ev]4'  ,may ,god give y ! p[] to love & 
! p[] to pray6  ,mu* pray] & mu* love   
are ne$$ = a successful m9i/ry4         
,good-bye1 & ,god bless y & make y a    
true & fai?ful pa/or6  ,rememb] ,/4     

,paul's words3 he dunamis en a/h5eia    
teleitai4  edi/a oun mallon kau*esomai  
en tais a/h5eiais1 h9a episk5ose ep eme 
he dunamis t\ ,*ri/\2 hotan g> ar!no1   
tote dunatos eimi4   ,transcrib]'s note3
 ,! ,greek phrases above 7 translit]at$ 
z foll[s3 he--7r\gh brea?+ m>k7 eta2    
dunamis--delta1 upsilon1 nu1 alpha1 mu1 
iota1 f9al sigma2 en--epsilon1 nu2      
a/h5eia--alpha1 sigma1 !ta1 epsilon1 nu1
 epsilon1 iota1 alpha2 teleitai--tau1   
epsilon1 lambda1 epsilon1 iota1 tau1    
alpha1 iota2 edi/a--eta1 delta1 iota1   
sigma1 tau1 alpha2 oun--omicron1        
upsilon1 nu2 mallon--mu1 alpha1 lambda1 
lambda1 omicron1 nu2 kau*esomai--kappa1 
alpha1 upsilon1 *i1 eta1 sigma1 omicron1
 mu1 alpha1 iota2 en--epsilon1 nu2      
tais--tau1 alpha1 iota1 f9al sigma2     
a/h5eiais--alpha1 sigma1 !ta1 epsilon1  
nu1 epsilon1 iota1 alpha1 iota1 f9al    
sigma2 h9a--7r\gh brea?+ m>k7 iota1 nu1 
alpha2 episk5ose--epsilon1 pi1 iota1    
sigma1 kappa1 eta1 nu1 omega1 sigma1    
eta2 ep--epsilon1 pi2 eme--epsilon1 mu1 

epsilon2 he--7r\gh brea?+ m>k7 eta2     
dunamis--delta1 upsilon1 nu1 alpha1 mu1 
iota1 f9al sigma2 t\--tau1 omicron1     
upsilon2 ,*ri/\--,*i1 rho1 iota1 sigma1 
tau1 omicron1 upsilon2 hotan--7r\gh     
brea?+ m>k7 omicron1 tau1 alpha1 nu2    
g>--gamma1 alpha1 rho2 ar!no--alpha1    
rho1 !ta1 epsilon1 nu1 omega2 tote--tau1
 omicron1 tau1 epsilon2 dunatos--delta1 
upsilon1 nu1 alpha1 tau1 omicron1 f9al  
sigma2 eimi--epsilon1 iota1 mu1 iota    
,to ,w4 ,d4 ,h4  ,dale ,head ,po/       
,(fice1 ,?irlm]e1 ,septemb] #bj1 #aijj4 
,my ?\ghts & my pray]s are ) y at ?is   
"t4  ,i rememb] h[ at my own ord9ation1 
:5 ,i felt z nev] be=e my own utt]      
weakness & incapacity1 ! ?\ghts 9 ! fir/
 *apt] ( ! ,revelation1 ( ,*ri/ian      
m9i/]s z '/>s 9 ,8 #abh "r h&' com=t$ & 
support$ me4  ,9 ,8 "r h&--) ,8 p[] we c
 d all ?+s4 ,z ! lesson = to-day says1  
he dunamis en a/h5eia teleitai1 /r5g? is
 p]fect$ 9 weakness4  hotan a/h5o tote  
dunatos eimi4  ,transcrib]'s note3 ,!   
,greek phrases above 7 translit]at$ z   

foll[s3 he--7r\gh brea?+ m>k7 eta2      
dunamis--delta1 upsilon1 nu1 alpha1 mu1 
iota1 f9al sigma2 en--epsilon1 nu2      
a/h5eia--alpha1 sigma1 !ta1 epsilon1 nu1
 epsilon1 iota1 alpha2 teleitai--tau1   
epsilon1 lambda1 epsilon1 iota1 tau1    
alpha1 iota2 hotan--7r\gh brea?+ m>k7   
omicron1 tau1 alpha1 nu2 a/h5o--alpha1  
sigma1 !ta1 epsilon1 nu1 omega2         
tote--tau1 omicron1 tau1 epsilon2       
dunatos--delta1 upsilon1 nu1 alpha1 tau1
 omicron1 f9al sigma2 eimi--epsilon1    
iota1 mu1 iota  ,y w feel m1 z ye>s g   
on1 ! greatness ( ! task :i* y are      
und]tak+--! ov]:elm+ responsibility--!  
dread le/ ?r\gh any c>elessness on y\r  
"p "o ( ! lea/ ( ! %eep may be lo/4  ,b 
y w also feel m & m t y are '9 ,8 "r    
h&4'  ,& if ! et]nal ,god is y\r refuge 
& und]nea? are ! ev]la/+ arms1 y ne$ n  
fe> :at ! devil or man c d unto y4  ,i  
pray t ,god may be ) y & give y ! _s (  
pray] & ! _s ( love4  ,y\r m9i/ry w only
 be effective if y pray mu* & love mu*4 
,& if y make mi/akes1 yet if y love mu* 

y\r s9s w be =giv54    ,to 8 bro!r1 a   
doctor 9 ,s\? ,africa4  ,septemb] #aijj4
  ,:5 ,i feel :at ! grace ( ,god has    
done = my life1 :at x is do+1 :at x w d1
 ,i c despair ( no "o else4  ,i am fill$
 ) wond] & amazem5t & ?anksgiv+s &      
hopes4  ,i am sometimes s ?ankful t ,i  
/ill live1 t 9 a _w ( light & d>k %ad[s 
,i c %[ my fai? 9 ,god1 be=e ! o!r _w   
dawns ) its full day & uncl\d$          
brightness--& mo/ ( all t ,i c "h & n[  
pray = ^? :om ,he has taught me to love4
  ,i _c conceive ?is _w )\t pray]4  ,x  
is #abi wor? :ile mak+ any ef=ts1 h[ev] 
desp]ate1 to le>n to pray4  ,:5 ! ,day  
dawns1 h[ wond]ful x w be to look back &
 trace ! pa? ?r\gh :i* ,he has l$ u 9 ! 
,twilight6    ,to ,f4 ,j4 ,c4  ,*ri/'s  
,college1 ,cambridge3 #aijj4  ,! m ,he  
tries y by ,8 sil5ce1 ! great] to my m9d
 is ! pro( t ,he believes 9 y4  ,he kn[s
 y w come ?r\gh4  ,he has great "w = y  
to d1 & !re=e y ne$ a /rong p]fect$     
fai?1 & ,he is try+ to give y x4  ,i am 
s sorry at :at y tell me ab\t pray]4  ,b

 d g on4  ,:5 ?+s are at _! d>ke/ light 
comes4  ,aft] all ,god kn[s h[ mu* y c  
be>1 & ,he w n1 if y w only p]sev]e1    
all[ y to be utt]ly conf\nd$4  ,don't be
 9 ! lea/ disc\rag$ at y\r inability to 
conc5trate y\r att5tion4  ,ev5 a man :o 
_h liv$ 9 ! pres5ce ( ,god = ye>s has   
told u t    ,! _w t looks s dull all day
     ,gl[s bright on me at pray]1   ,&  
plans t ask no ?\ght b ^!1     ,wake up 
& meet me !re4   ,my v fle% has re/less 
fits2     ,my *angeful limbs conspire   
,) all ^! phantoms ( ! m9d     ,my inn] 
self to tire4   ,d y expect to f>e      
bett]1 :5 y are ex]cis+ faculties :i* h 
be5 = long m or less dormant8  ,! same  
man goes on to say--& ,i #acj ?9k x is a
 com=t+ tru?--t ,god sees fur!r ?an we  
d1 sees :at we mean3    ,^! surface     
tr\bles come & g1     ,l ruffl+s ( !    
sea2   ,! deep] dep? is out ( rea*      
,to all1 my ,god1 b ,!e4   ,ev5 if y\r  
consci5ce condemns y1 rememb] t ,god is 
great] ?an y\r consci5ce4  ,he sees t y 
want to pray1 & ! battle is half won :5 

!re is ev5 ! want4  ,i l ^! old words ( 
! hymn3    ,satan trembles :5 he sees   
,! weake/ sa9t ^u 8 knees1  ev5 if he   
c't collect 8 ?\ghts4  ,i f9d x usually 
easi] to pray = o!rs ?an = myself4  ,i  
believe 9 beg9n+ by pray+ = :at is      
easie/4  ,i don't kneel d[n4  ,i f9d x m
 possible to conc5trate my att5tion :5  
,i am walk+ ab\t or sitt+ d[n4  ,& ,i   
tell ,god :at ,i "k ab\t a man1 & h[ ,i 
want him to live a bett] life4          
,sometimes ,i seem to /ruggle = him z   
?\gh = v life4  ,i g on & on &          
on--sometimes repeat+ ! same reque/4  ,i
 try to copy ! poor wid[ :o we>i$ out ! 
di%one/ judge4  ,i am n di/ress$ :5 my  
?\ghts w&]1 ,i "k t !y w always w&] )\t 
,god's help4  ,! di/ress occasion$ by   
w&]+ ?\ghts1 & ! attempt to trace !     
/ages by :i* !y w&]$1 ,i reg>d z        
temptations ( ! devil4 4 4 4  ,i g back 
z calmly z possible to ! matt] 9 h&4    
,excuse my 'egoism4'  ,i put x 9 ! fir/ 
p]son1 #aca because ,i believe my own   
exp]i5ce w help y m ?an rules d]iv$ f ! 

exp]i5ce ( o!rs4  ,suppose y sp5d half  
an h\r 9 ?is way1 & only really pray =  
?ree or f\r m9utes1 y\r ef=ts w be m ?an
 rew>d$4  ,y w h done m ?an y "k = !    
p]son = :om y h pray$4  ,& ! next       
half-h\r y w f9d t y c conc5trate y\r   
att5tion = a m9ute or two long]4  ,don't
 ?9k too mu* ab\t y\rself :5 y pray4  ,y
 mu/ lose y\r s\l if y w\ld save x4     
,!re is probably "s "o ?+ or "s "o p]son
 easi] ?an o!rs = y to pray =4  ,beg9 ) 
t4  ,i nev] try1 z "s p d1 to classify &
 ent] into details ab\t my s9s4  ,i br+ 
! :ole contradictory1 we>y1 &           
un9telligible mass ( !m to ,god1 & leave
 !m ) ,him4  ,i am q sure ,i %all nev] d
 bett] )\t ,him4  ,b ,i "k t ,he        
believes 9 me1 & w help me 9 spite (    
myself4  ,he believes 9 y too1 de> old  
fell[6  ,may ,god bless y = y\r k9dness 
to me6 ,write me j a %ort note to tell  
me t y don't despise me 9 spite ( :at   
mu/ seem to y r un9telligible &         
ridicul\s confessions4  ,i c't help x4  
,& if y c br+ y\rself to d x1 call me   

too by my ,*ri/ian "n4    ,to ! same4   
,*ri/'s ,college1 ,cambridge3 ,septemb] 
#bh1 #aijj4  ,i feel m & m ! necessity (
 be+ alone occasionally = "s "t--to get 
"t en\gh to #acb pray4  ,i ?9k my       
supreme desire is to be a man ( pray]4  
,y mu/ help me to accompli% ! desire3   
',gutta cavat lapidem non vi1 s$ saepe  
cad5do4'  ,s x is ) pray]4  ,z ! /one   
gets worn away1 n by ! =ce ( ! drop (   
wat] b by its con/ant trickl+1 s pray]  
(t5 r5ew$ mu/ at l5g? atta9 its end4  ,x
 is a wond]ful privilege to be able to  
/ate all "o's wi%es & hopes = o!rs 9    
pray]--to "k t !re c be !re no          
possibility ( misund]/&+--to tell to    
,god ! incompreh5sible dep? ( "o's love1
 & to feel t ,he kn[s :at x means1      
because ,he ,himself is love4  ,x is    
glori\s to be made 9 ,8 image1 & to be  
sure t all "o's highe/ ye>n+s are a     
reflection--h[ev] brok51 p>tial1 &      
unsightly--( ,8 own m>vell\s life4  ,we 
h inde$ cause to be grateful = our      
'creation4'  ,i (t5 look at ! poor dumb 

creatures1 & ?ank ,god t ,he has giv5 me
 su* full p[]s ( love1 :i* !y _c und]/&3
 = ,i w\ld r h ! pa9s ( love ?an any o!r
 pleasure4    ,to ,f4 ,s4 ,h41 a *apla9 
9 ! ,navy4  ,cambridge3 ,novemb] #d1    
#aijj4  ,i ought to h writt5 be=e ?is4  
,! fact t ,i did n answ] at once is     
p>tly acc\nt$ = by my hav+ a good deal (
 "w to d1 & p>tly by physical weakness4 
,i h n be5 v well ?is t]m4 ,x is cruel (
 y to suspect me ( hav+ =gott5 all ab\t 
y4  ,i am n t sort4  ,i owe too mu* to y
 9 ! pa/ ev] to =get y4  #acc ,i don't  
?9k t y really suspect$ me ( incon/ancy4
 ,i am s sorry t y are sometimes lonely 
& v mis]able4  ,i feel at times weak1   
physically weak4  ,i ?9k t at su* times 
"o c lean back1 z x 71 on ! ,div9e arms4
  ,he und]/&s our weakness & we>9ess4   
,he kn[s :at lonel9ess & sadness mean4  
,& ,he is n extreme to m>k :at we d     
amiss4  ,he kn[s t we are b fle%4 ,& ,he
 'dwells n 9 ! light alone1 b 9 !       
d>kness & ! light4'  ,ev5 :5 ! d>kness  
hides ,him & we _c f9d :]e ,he is1 we c1

 z x 71 rea* out our h&s to ,him1 & we  
are safe4 ,god has mu* to tea* u :ile we
 are tea*+ o!rs4  ,& life is n exactly !
 same z we ?\ght at ! beg9n+4  ,he      
tea*es u by unexpect$ exp]i5ces4  ,b !  
com=t is t ,he nev] *anges2 we may be   
we>y1 b ,he nev] slumb]s nor sleeps4    
,sometimes we feel v fit & capable4  ,!n
 is ! "t to pray & to rise to ! heights4
 ,lat]1 :5 we are incapable1 al?\gh x is
 h>d to rise1 we ne$ n fall4  ,:5 ! mi/ 
cle>s we c g on aga91 & x may be t we   
%all f9d t ev5 9 ! mi/ we _h gone fur!r 
?an we ?\ght4 ,! deep sn[ & ! long d>k  
ra9y days are necess>y = ! p]fect+ ( !  
fruit1 z well z ! sun%9e4  ,& we d ne$  
sun%9e4  ,i feel m & m grateful &       
?ankful to ,god = ,8 goodness4  ,he has 
be5 s good to me1 & ,i don't des]ve x4  
,& ,i ?9k t if y look back & look =w>d y
 w feel m & m ,8 m>vell\s sympa?y &     
affection4  ,i am glad y h be5 read+    
,rob]tson's ,life4  ,?\gh he #acd may h 
be5 almo/ morbid at times1 he 0 a great 
man & did a great "w4 4 4 4  ,y w f9d   

lat] t y\r "w has be5 f> m effective ?an
 y expect$4 ,don't try to ru% x4  ,y c't
 help m5 mu* until y "k !m v well2 & :5 
y "k !m y f9d h[ utt]ly diff]5t !y are f
 :at y _h expect$ !m to be4  ,at lea/ ,i
 d4  ,no two m5 are alike4  ,ea* man t y
 come really to "k is utt]ly diff]5t f  
any man y h ev] met or w meet4    ,to   
,f4 ,j4 ,c4  ,*ri/'s ,college1          
,cambridge3 ,novemb] #e1 #aijj4  ,x is  
good ( y to ?9k ( me & above all to pray
 = me4  ,i ne$ y\r pray]s--& mo/ ( all  
:5 ,i am run d[n & unable to pray       
myself4  ,i c see ! m\nta9 top at times3
 !n ! mi/ comes d[n1 & ,i _c see ! way2 
,i try to keep :]e ,i am1 ?\gh ,i may n 
be able to advance2 & :5 ! mi/ cle>s ,i 
g on aga94  ,possibly1 sometimes1 we may
 be go+ =w>d ev5 9 ! mi/1 al?\gh we seem
 to be mak+ no progress1 or go+ backw>d4
    ,god judges by a light   ,:i*       
baffles mortal sight4  ,i (t5 wi% ,i _h 
m physical /r5g? & 0 able to d :at o!r  
m5 c d2 b ,i c't4  ,& ,i h no d\bt t all
 is well--t ,i am made to d "o p>ticul> 

piece ( "w1 & t ,i h /r5g? en\gh = t--& 
?ank ,god = t4  #ace  ,to a bro!r 9 ,s\?
 ,africa4  ,decemb] #aijj4  ,x is a     
m>vell\s ?\ght t ,god c reveal ,himself 
to man--ev5 primitive man4  ,9 ^? /ories
 ,jehovah is v ne> to man4  ,he walks 9 
! g>d5 at nightfall4  ,he %uts ,noah    
into ! ,ark4  ,he comes d[n to see !    
city & ! t[] ':i* ! *ildr5 ( m5 build$4'
  ,he talks ) ,moses face to face z a   
man speake? to 8 fri5d--& a ladd]       
connects heav5 & e>?1 & ! angels1 in/ead
 ( us+ w+s1 walk up & d[n ! ladd]--&1   
behold1 ,jehovah /ood above x4  ,at any 
mom5t y might meet ,jehovah ,himself4   
,?ree m5 come to see ,abraham--&        
,jehovah has appe>$ to him4  ,a man     
wre/les ) ,jacob1 & he has se5 ,god face
 to face4  ,!y 7 "r :5 !y ?\ght ( ,god z
 v ne> to man1 ( man z capable (        
reflect+ ,god's lik5ess4  ,ye too %all  
see heav5 op5$ & ! angels ( ,god asc5d+ 
& desc5d+ ^u--! ,son ( man4  ,x is good 
= u z *ildr5 to read ^! /ories to       
realise t heav5 is v ne> to e>?4  ,x is 

good = u z m5 to read !m aga9 to realise
 t heav5 is ev5 ne>] e>? ?an we ?\ght z 
*ildr54  ,z ,i said be=e1 h[ m>vell\s x 
is t ,god c reveal ,himself to man &    
?r\gh man1 t ,he has reveal$ ,himself   
entirely1 '! p]fect man1' z ,maurice    
says1 reflect+ ! p]fect ,god--,god & man
 s ne> "o to ! o!r t m5 c look ^u ! ,son
 ( man & see ,god--see ,him 9 ,8        
p]fection6  ,our ye>s ought to be b\nd  
ea* to #acf ea* by natural piety4  ,!   
*ild %\ld surely be ! fa!r ( ! man4     
,) age ,?\ gr[e/ m div9e1     ,m glori\s
 ?an be=e2   ,i fe> ,!e ) a deep] fe>   
,because--,i love ,!e m4  ,i h be5 read+
 ,moody's ,life4  ,x has mu* ! same     
effect z ,f9ney's us$ to h 9 days gone  
by--x creates a long+ to "w & live =    
,god1 to br+ m5 ne>] to ,him1 to come   
ne>] to ,him myself4 ,:om h ,i 9 heav5 b
 ,!e8 & !re is none ^u e>? t ,i desire 9
 comp>ison ( ,!e4  ,:at a wond]ful ?+ t 
we1 z a family1 are s unit$--t our      
,ideal is s mu* ! same--isn't x8    ,to 
,f4 ,s4 ,h4  ,/4 ,moritz3 ,janu>y #f1   

#aija4  ,i h succe$$ 9 unfreez+ my ink1 
s ,i c write &--al?\gh x is late to d   
s--wi% y a happy new c5tury4  ,x is only
 once 9 a lifetime t "o c d t sort ( ?+6
  ,i am out "h = my heal?4  ,i wasn't up
 to mu* la/ t]m4  ,h[ev]1 ,i am z fit z 
a "l n[1 & return to ,cambridge ?is     
week4  ,i h be5 read+ out "h two v      
diff]5t k9ds ( books4  ,"o is           
,wellhaus5's ',hi/ory ( ,israel1' ! o!r 
,moody's ,life by 8 son4  ,wellhaus5's  
book gives y 9 outl9e ! position ( mod]n
 advanc$ criticism ( ! ,old ,te/am5t4   
,i h nev] be=e /udi$ ! hi/ory f !       
critical po9t ( view really s]i\sly4  ,!
 /udy has prov$ extraord9>ily int]e/+1 &
 ,i #acg mu/ say t 9 ! ma9 ,i agree     
?or\ghly ) ,wellhaus5's position4  ,y w 
see x m or less cle>ly put 9 t ',hi/ory 
( ! ,hebrew ,p' 9 two small volumes by  
,k5t :i* ,i recomm5d$ to y be=e4  ,!    
hi/ory ( ! gradual progress ( ! div9e   
revelation to ! human race is a m>vell\s
 /udy3 ! way 9 :i* t p 7 educat$ to     
become ! tea*]s ( ! _w is utt]ly diff]5t

 f any?+ :i* we %\ld h devis$4 ,i am    
/ruck m & m by ! m>vell\s fact t ,god c 
& does reveal ,himself--9 ,8 ess5tial   
moral nature--to man2 t we are s made t 
we c appreh5d ! revelation2 nay1 t we 9 
turn c 9 measure reveal ,him to m56     
,moody's ,life /irs me up to realise m !
 wor? ( ! individual1 ! surpass+ value (
 man's moral & spiritual nature4  ,i    
long to help m5 to see :at ,i see1 to   
love ,him :om ,i love1 & ! failure ( my 
ef=ts is l>gely1 ,i feel1 due to defects
 9 myself4  ,/ill ,i d n despair ( do+  
some?+4    ,to 8 bro!r ,edw>d 9 ,s\?    
,africa4  ,brisl+ton1 ,bri/ol2 ,april   
#aj1 #aija4  ,i 0 mu* int]e/$ 9 4 4 4   
7y\r lett]7 & 9 see+ a little into y\r  
life4  ,!re is a /range family res]ve   
among u :i* ,i sometimes deplore4       
,p]haps x mu/ always be s1 t we c tell  
mo/ readily to /rang]s our deepe/ ?\ghts
 & feel+s4  ,yet ,i feel t we ought1 z  
f> z we c 9 ?is %ort life1 to und]/& "o 
ano!r4  ,we h be5 l$ by diff]5t pa?s to 
und]/& diff]5t aspects #ach ( ,tru?4    

,yet1 :5 we h climb$ to ! top ( ! hill1 
,i d>e say we %all f9d t our pa?s 7 ne>]
 to "o ano!r ?an we ev] realis$4  ,at   
any rate1 we %all meet on ! top4 ,i (t5 
?9k t y\r :ole me?od ( ga9+ tru? mu/ be 
unlike m9e4  ,i use my reason1 b ,i am m
 ?an half affection1 & x is t :i* helps 
me mo/4  ,my /range love = "s m5 makes  
me seek to live _! lives1 to see ! _w z 
!y see x2 above all1 x =ces me to pray4 
,pray] nev] seems to me irrational2 yet 
,i d n pray s mu* because my reason bids
 me z because my affection =ces me4  ,i 
sometimes feel t ,i %\ld g mad if ,i    
didn't or c\ldn't4 ,& !n1 aga91 ,i am   
incapable ( tell+ !m all ,i feel1 & ,i h
 to f9d "s "o to tell x to1 & ,i feel   
=c$ back on ,"o :o kn[s me ?r\gh &      
?r\gh1 & ,i f9d com=t 9 p\r+ out my s\l 
to ,him--9 tell+ ,him all1 mu* t ,i d>e 
say to no "o else--9 lett+ ,him sift !  
good & evil--9 ask+ ,him to develop &   
satisfy ! good1 & to ext]m9ate ! evil4  
,i _c help tru/+ ,him4    ,i "k n :]e ,8
 isl&s lift     ,_! frond$ palms 9 air2 

,i only "k ,i _c drift     ,beyond ,8   
love & c>e4   ,y w tell me p]haps t ,i  
am too mu* l a woman 9 matt]s ( fai?4   
,yet s ,i am made4  ,i mu/ foll[ ! lead 
( my :ole be+--n ( my m9d alone4  ,i (t5
 wond] h[ x is t ,i love ) su* a /range1
 passionate1 unutt]able affection1 &    
:e!r _m m5 are l me4  #aci ,i am mo/    
pleas$ to he> ( y\r do+s1 especially (  
y\r :i/ p>ties4    ,to ,f4 ,s4 ,h41     
*apla9 on bo>d ,h4,m4,s4 ,canopus4      
,brisl+ton2 ,april #aj1 #aija4  ,i am   
glad t y l y\r 'p>i%4'  ,i feel m & m t 
,i %\ld pref] be+ among sailors to be+  
among soldi]s4  ,i am afraid t ,i %\ld d
 little good among ei!r4  ,/ill ,i l1 or
 ?9k t ,i %\ld l1 naval (fic]s ev5 m ?an
 army (fic]s4  ,if !y d talk a great    
deal ( '%op1' t is a heal?y sign4  ,i   
only wi% our (fic]s 9 ! army 7--,i w n  
say m pr\d ( _! pr(ession 7= !y h1 ,i   
d>e say1 suffici5t pride7--b m anxi\s to
 le>n & to ?9k out matt]s connect$ ) x4 
,i d>e say ! naval (fic] is oblig$ to   
act m indep5d5tly & to ?9k = himself 9  

an em]g5cy2 = ! army discipl9e is c>ri$ 
to su* an extreme t ! man = "s ye>s has 
seldom any occasion to act on 8 own     
initiative--to rise to an occasion4  ,he
 simply has to ask a sup]ior :at to d   
next4  ,he t5ds to resemble ! ,h9du     
/ation-ma/] :o telegraph$ ',tig] on     
plat=m2 please wire in/ructions4'  ,if  
_! talk+ %op is worry+ occasionally1 yet
 be ( good com=t1 x is on ! :ole a good 
sign4  ,x is bett] ?an talk+ golf or    
polo all day1 & bett] f> ?an loose &    
unmanly conv]sation4  ,! m y are int]e/$
 9 ! matt]s y\rself1 n simply because y 
want to be all ?+s to all m51 if by any 
means y may ga9 "o or two1 b because y  
are a man #adj & a ,*ri/ian1 & !re=e all
 ?+s human h an int]e/ to y1 ! m y w    
enjoy su* '%op4'  ,we want n only to    
affect an int]e/ 9 :at is ( vital conc]n
 to our neighb\rs1 b to feel x4 ,i beg9 
to realise m n[ ?an ,i us$ to t ,i mu/ n
 simply wat* football mat*es1 or run ) !
 boats1 because ,i want to %[ int]e/1 b 
because ,i am le>n+--h[ev] late 9 ! day 

& h[ev] imp]fectly--to feel a real      
conc]n = su* matt]s4  ,&1 /range to say1
 ,i am m int]e/$ 9 !m ?an ,i us$ to be4 
,s9ce ! ,"l took human fle% & int]e/$   
,himself 9 all human life1 ,he has left 
u an example t we may foll[ 9 ,8 /eps4  
,we mu/ call no?+1 & no man1 common or  
unclean4  ,my own life & my own int]e/s 
are t]ribly contract$4  ,sometimes ,i h 
be5 fooli% en\gh to glory 9 ! fact1 & to
 ?9k t ,i hon\r ,god 9 c>+ only = my    
bro!r's s\l & n = 8 :ole life4  ,b love 
has taught me t ?is is a l[ & incomplete
 view4  ,god numb]s ! v hairs ( our     
head1 & he :o loves & tries to help     
ano!r mu/ ent] into 8 life & c>e = all t
 he c>es =4  ,i hope t ,god w sp>e me a 
little long] to "w 9 ,college1 & to le>n
 to become "o ) o!rs--to see life ) _!  
eyes1 to let !m tea* me--t s1 if x      
please ,him1 ,i may ga9 "s ( !m = ,8    
s]vice4  ,! disciple _c expect to be    
above ! ,ma/]4  ,! ,ma/] 0 n popul>4    
,he expla9$ ,8 deepe/ tea*+ to a few--a 
v few4  ,if y h "o or two to :om y c    

expla9 "p ( y\r be+1 ?ank ,god4  ,y w   
f9d t #ada "o man und]/&s "o side1 ano!r
 appreciates ano!r side4  ,x is a com=t 
t !re is ,"o :o kn[s u ?r\gh & ?r\gh4   
,:at a t]rible blank life w\ld be if we 
_h no ,god to :om to p\r out our :ole   
s\l6  ,!re are sides ( our be+ :i* no "o
 b ,god seems to be able to appreh5d4   
,i am feel+ n[ com=t at nights 9 simply 
tell+ ,him all--feel+s :i* ,i _c expla9 
to any "o else1 ask+ ,him to int]pret1  
to sift1 to all[ ! bett] to live1 to    
annihilate ! untrue4  ,i d n cease to   
expect great ?+s f ,him1 to expect t ,he
 w d = my 'p>i%' z a :ole m ?an ,i h    
dream$ ( or wi%$ =4  ,b !n ,i am cont5t 
if ,he works sl[ly1 & does :at ,i did n 
wi% or expect to happ54  ,he works sl[ly
 9 nature1 & ,i am n surpris$ if human  
nature is /ill m /ubborn mat]ial = ,him 
to "w ^u4  ,b :at a joy x is :5 "o "* 9 
:i* we are int]e/$1 = :i* we h pray$ &  
wre/l$ 9 pray]1 %[s slight b sure signs 
( heal?y developm5t6  ,i feel incl9$ to 
%\t = joy at ! miracle--= x is a        

miracle--& ,i ?ank ,god & take c\rage4  
,he does n let u see _m results1 b ,he  
lets u see j en\gh to help u to g =w>d4 
,x is a help :5 :at is cle> & true to u 
beg9s to dawn ^u ano!r4  ',my belief    
ga9s inf9itely1' says ,novalis1 ':5 x is
 %>$ by any human s\l4'  ,let y\r 'p>i%'
 cle>ly see t 'x is "o ?+ to be tempt$1 
ano!r ?+ to fall4'  ,vile1 f\l ?\ghts   
:i* come to u are n 9 !mselves a sign t 
we are fall+4  ,!y are fir/ ( all f #adb
 outside1 & are sugge/ions entirely ali5
 9 orig9 f ourselves2 !y are f ! devil4 
,!y only become wrong :5 ent]ta9$1 :5   
welcom$ 9 ! lea/ degree z gue/s & all[$ 
to /ay4  ,our aim is to br+ e ?\ght at  
once into captivity4  ,i h j come back f
 ! seaside1 & z ,i look$ at ! sea ,i    
?\ght m ?an once ( '! ocean ( ,?y love4'
  ,! waves ( ! sea beat aga9/ a /ubborn 
rock & seem to make no impression4  ,b 9
 a few ye>s' "t ! rock beg9s to yield4  
,! con/ant wa% ( ! waves we>s x away4   
,s ) our h>d1 /ubborn wills4  ,! ocean (
 ,8 love w r$uce !m sl[ly b surely1 &   

likewise ! /ubborn wills ( m5 ar\nd u1  
?ank ,god6  ,:5 y are tir$ & human /r5g?
 gives way1 rememb] '! be/ ( all        
is--,god is ) u4'  ,i (t5 feel worn out1
 & !n ,i love1 z x 71 to lean back ^u   
,him--)\t speak+--z a *ild on its "m's  
arms4    ,i "k n :]e ,8 isl&s lift      
,_! frond$ palms 9 air2   ,i only "k ,i 
_c drift     ,beyond ,8 love & c>e4     
,o bro!r6 if my fai? is va91     ,if    
hopes l ^! betray1   ,pray = me t ,i too
 may ga9     ,! sure & saf] way4    ,&  
,?\1 ,o ,god1 by :om are se5     ,?y    
creatures z !y be1   ,=give me if too   
close ,i lean     ,my human he>t on     
,!e4#a  #adc  ,i am1 ,i fe>1 b a poor   
fri5d4  ,i wi% y _h "s "o :o lov$ y z   
well z ,i did1 & :o 0 less weak &       
selfi%4  ,y mu/ n give me up 9 spite (  
my defects4  ,i love y & am pr\d (      
y--pr\d to ?9k t y are do+ "w among m5  
:om ,i %\ld be p[]less to influ5ce4     
,ea/] once m br+s new life & hope4  ,may
 ! ,god ( all life1 ( all peace1 ( all  
hope1 be ) y & all y\r flock6 ,may ,he  

guide pa/or & %eep6  ,don't despair2 g  
on manfully2 y are do+ great] "w ?an y  
"k1 & if y\r eyes 7 op5 t y c\ld see1 y 
w\ld f9d t ! ho/ t 0 ) y 0 m ?an all t 7
 aga9/ y4  ,into ,8 keep+ ,i commit y4  
,good-bye4 ,y\r fri5d  ,,=bes4   #a     
,:itti]4    ,to ,w4 ,o4  ,brisl+ton3    
,april #aija4  ,i am glad t ! lot has   
fall5 to y 9 fair places4  ',x has be5  
said ) true wisdom t ,god means man n   
only to "w b to be happy 9 8 "w4 4 4 4  
,)\t "s sun%9e we c nev] rip5 into :at  
we are meant to be4'  ,s writes ,dr4    
,hort4  ,i am read+ 8 ,life ) great joy4
  ,he drank deep ( life1 & ,i want to d 
s also4  ,i want to live 9 ! pres5t--9 !
 sun%9e ( et]nity4  ,i feel m & m incl9$
 to ?ank ,god = life & all ! good ?+s x 
br+s1 & = ! fri5ds ,he has giv5 me1 & ! 
measure ( /r5g? & heal? to use 9 !      
s]vice ( man4  ,i _h no idea :]e t      
,essay _h gone4  ,i #add suppose x is   
mo/ immature & unsatisfactory2 yet !    
c5tral idea1 h[ev] imp]fectly express$1 
mu/ surely be true4  ,he took           

,manhood--9 its weakness & /r5g?--up    
into ,god4  ,he 0 tempt$4  ,t ?\ght     
helps me imm5sely4  ',x is "o ?+ to be  
tempt$1 ano!r ?+ to fall4'  ,we (t5     
accuse ourselves wrongly :5 f\l ?\ghts  
spr+ up )9 u4 ,!y are temptations f     
)\t--f ! devil4  ,!y only become s9s :5 
ent]ta9$ z welcome gue/s4  ,i h lately  
?\ght t ,*ri/'s life1 l ours1 0 a life (
 fai?1 t x ne$$ a real & con/ant ef=t ( 
fai? = ,him to realise ,8 relation%ip ) 
! unse5 ,fa!r4  ,"h & h]eaft] human life
 is bas$ on fai?4 ,if we get ?is idea   
into our m9ds1 ,*ri/'s temptations      
become m real4  ,!y are temptations to  
fai?lessness4  ,i l y\r idea t ,*ri/ has
 ent]$ into our manhood1 into ! phases  
7if !re be su*7 '( ! life to come4'     
,re/ 9 ! ,"l4  ,?is ?\ght comes home to 
me m ?an x us$ to d4  ,i l to br+ all ! 
p]plexities ( life--! ?\ghts & feel+s   
:i* ,i c expla9 to no "o--( "s ( :i* ,i 
_c say :e!r !y are "r or wrong1 or :]e !
 "r %ades into wrong--& to leave !m )   
,him to develop 7if "r71 to sift1 to    

correct4  ,:at a blank life w\ld be )\t 
,god6 4 4 4  ,ea/] br+s fre% hope &     
life4  ,x is glori\s to beg9 exi/5ce 9 a
 _w :i* has be5 r$eem$4  ,i am          
sure--s9ce ,he rose & defeat$ dea?--we  
ought to tru/ to life1 to delight 9 x4  
',i am ! ,life4'  #ade  ,brea! 9 ! fre% 
air4  ,x is "o ( ! be/ gifts t ! good   
,god has be/[$ ^u u4  ,we want fre% air 
n only 9 our lungs b all ?r\gh1 if ,i   
may say s1 our be+4  ,i long to be m    
natural & happy--n t ,i wi% = 'religi\s 
happ9ess1' b some?+ q diff]5t--!        
happ9ess :i* comes 9 ! "r ex]cise ( p[] 
& 9 consci\s dep5d5ce ^u ,him 9 :om we  
live4    ,9 reply to a lett] f ,h4 ,p41 
a ma/] at ,clifton ,college1 :o 0 9 d\bt
 :e!r he ought to resign 8 ma/]%ip & g  
d[n to ! ,college ,mission 9 ,bri/ol4   
,*ri/'s ,college1 ,cambridge3 ,may #a1  
#aija4  ,i h n _h "t to ?9k ov] ! matt] 
yet1 b my fir/ feel+ is t y ought to be 
v sl[ to move4  ,if m5 9 y\r position1  
:o feel ke5ly int]e/$ 9 ! highe/ welf>e 
( _! pupils & long to influ5ce !m 9     

spiritual matt]s1 all g away to p>i% "w1
 :at is to become ( our public s*ool    
boys8  ,ma/]s are only too anxi\s to    
leave = m 'directly spiritual' "w1 z !y 
say4 ,b 9 do+ s !y leave a "w (         
exceptional difficulty & importance     
beh9d1 & :o is to take _! place8  ,i    
und]/& & appreciate y\r feel+s1 b ,i am 
n at all sure t y h any call to g4  ,h[ 
mu* directly 'spiritual' "w h y ) !     
boys8  ,c\ld y1 if y desir$1 get m8  ,i 
w pray ov] ! matt]4  ,d be sl[ be=e y   
decide to leave4  ,i believe y ought to 
/ay1 #adf al?\gh x may be m difficult to
 ma9ta9 y\r own spiritual life & ideals 
9 a s*ool ?an 9 a p>i%4  ,y may be do+ m
 good ?an y "k4  ,x is easi] to f9d m5  
to d p>i% "w ?an to d s*ool "w ( !      
highe/ k9d4  ,!re is a s]mon (          
,lightfoot's 9 :i* he urges cl]gym5 at !
 ,univ]sity n to g away1 because x is   
h>d to ma9ta9 _! spiritual ideals at    
,cambridge1 & because !y seem to h s    
little direct spiritual influ5ce4  ,may 
n ?is apply to y\r "w also8    ,to "o   

ab\t to be orda9$4  ,cambridge3 ,may    
#aija4  ,x seems s cle> to u t y h a    
call1 t ,i f9d x h>d to realise t y     
y\rself are unc]ta94  ,b ! v fact t y h 
be5 'c\nt+ ! co/1' & t y h no ec/atic   
joy at ! prospect be=e y1 enc\rages me4 
,i am glad y realise ! difficulties     
be=eh&4  ,:at y don't fully see is !    
/r5g? ^u :i* y w be able to draw4  ,i   
(t5 ?9k ( ^? l9es ( ,t5nyson3--    ,o   
liv+ ,w t %alt endure     ,:5 all t     
seems %all suff] %ock1     ,rise 9 !    
spiritual rock1   ,fl[ ?r\gh our de$s & 
make !m pure4#a  ,t ,w c trans=m our w1 
& ! v weakness ( our natural w is !n a  
help4  ,! /r5g? #adg is se5 & felt to   
come f an invisible s\rce3 ',?y w1 n my 
w4'  ,! t]rible ne$ ( m5 to fight aga9/ 
! =ces ( evil impresses me4  ,! call is 
s l\d on e side4  ,& if m5 l y _c he> x1
 ,i am driv5 almo/ to despair4 4 4 4  ,i
 (t5 ?9k ( my fa!r's words on 8 dea?b$3 
',if ,i _h a ?\s& lives ,i w\ld give !m 
all--all to ! m9i/ry4'  ,! ?\ght t gave 
me com=t at my own ord9ation 0 a text   

sugge/$ to me by my bro!r3 ',he _h 9 ,8 
"r h& sev5 />s4' ,9 ,8 "r h&--we are    
safe !re4  ,i felt su* a worm z ,i _h   
nev] felt be=e4  ',b fe> n1 ?\ worm     
,jacob4' 4 4 4  ,don't look = happ9ess  
or peace at ?is "t1 b = ! pres5ce & p[] 
7:e!r felt or unfelt7 ( t ,god :om we   
bo? love & try to love bett]4  ,d n     
p]suade y\rself t y d n love ,god4  ,y  
d1 m ?an y h any idea (4  ,! "p ( y\r   
',ego' :i* y w\ld lea/ wi% to lose is n 
ev5 y\r love = m5--b = ,god4  ,if y _h  
y\r *oice n[1 & _h to decide :at "p (   
y\r be+ y w\ld reta9 = et]nity1 x w\ld  
be ! latt]4  ,belov$1 if our he>t       
condemn u1 ,god is great] ?an our he>t4 
4 4 4  ',he :o loves makes 8 own !      
gr&eur t he loves4'  ,he _h 9 ,8 "r h&  
sev5 />s4  ,he is ! ,judge1 b ,he also  
is our refuge & /r5g? & hope4   #a ,9   
,memoriam1 cxxi4   #adh  ,to ,d4 ,b4 ,k4
  ,cambridge3 ,july #aija4  ,:5 we set  
to "w to help o!rs we discov] some?+ (  
our own weakness4  ,b along ) t discov]y
 comes ! realisation ( an inexhau/ible  

fund ( /r5g? outside ourselves4  ,we are
 fight+ on ! w9n+ side4  ,god mu/ be    
/rong] ?an all t opposes4  ,x is uphill 
"w1 especially at fir/4  ,b j z 9 le>n+ 
a language or le>n+ h[ to swim1 aft]    
toil+ on ) no app>5t result1 !re comes a
 day :5 sudd5ly we realise t we c d     
x--h[ we "k n3 s x is 9 spiritual       
matt]s4  ,!re is ef=t /ill1 sometimes   
gruesome ef=t2 b x is all diff]5t f :at 
x 04 ,we f9d ! mean+ ( ! p>adox1 ',^:   
s]vice is p]fect fre$om4' ,love takes ! 
place ( law1 &1 al?\gh x is h>d at times
 to s]ve ,god1 x is /ill h>d] to be !   
p]man5t s]vant ( ,satan4  ,y\r en?usiasm
 ought to increase1 ! m y look life 9 ! 
face & see its s9 & mis]y4  ',god1' said
 ,moody1 'c d no?+ ) a man :o has ceas$ 
to hope4'  ,our hope 9 ! possibilities (
 ! individual & ( society ought to gr[  
bright] & san] z "t goes on4 4 4 4      
,mission>y "w--,i h (t5 wi%$ to d x     
myself1 b h be5 'let hi!rto4' 4 4 4  ,x 
is a trem5d\s help to me to "k t we are 
bo? s]v+ ! same ,ma/] & t ,i c tru/ y to

 ,8 love4  #adi  ,to an ,auckl& 'bro!r' 
aft] ,bi%op ,we/cott's ,dea?4           
,cambridge3 ,augu/ #aija4  ,my ?\ghts   
are ) y at ?is "t4  ,i am mo/ ?ankful t 
y h be5 a ye> ) t man ( ,god1 & h ga9$  
ideals & inspiration = "w :i* w haunt y 
all y\r life long4  ,9 mom5ts (         
weakness1 at times ':5 y\r light is l[1'
 ! memory ( 8 /r5u\s1 holy life w be a  
p[] mak+ = self-discipl9e &             
righte\sness4  ,& x is m ?an a memory4  
,= he taught u by ^w & de$ t we are all 
"o man1 t ^? :o h realis$ :at x is to   
belong to ! body "h w ent] m fully into 
its life !re4  ',we feebly /ruggle1 !y 9
 glory %9e'--yet we are v]ily & inde$   
"o4  ,t ?\ght is (t5 a com=t to me4  ,:5
 ,i feel ! contradictions & p]plexities 
& weaknesses ( my own life1 ,i love to  
?9k t ,i am "p ( a :ole--t ,i belong to 
! same body & %>e 9 ! same _s z "s o!r  
man :o is immeasurably my sup]ior4  ,:5 
"o :om we h kn[n & v5]at$ on e>? passes 
to ! et]nal home1 x seems m l home ?an x
 0 be=e4  ,x is peopl$ n only ) c\ntless

 sa9ts ( :om ,i h he>d1 b ) "o :om ,i h 
kn[n & se51 & hope to see aga94  ,8     
pray]s = u1 8 influ5ce ^u u !re are m   
effective ?an !y c\ld h be5 "h4  ,!     
great triumph ( ,*ri/ianity is to       
produce a few sa9ts4  ,!y raise our     
ideal ( humanity4  ,!y #aej make u      
re/less & discont5t$ ) our own lives1 z 
long z !y are liv$ on a l[] plane4  ,!y 
speak to u 9 language m eloqu5t ?an     
words3 ',come up high]4'    ,to ,f4 ,j4 
,c4  ,belv$]e ,hotel1 ,/4 ,moritz3      
,sunday1 ,decemb] #ae1 #aija4  ,i feel m
 & m ?ankful t ,i h n _h to wait till ! 
next _w to "k ,god's true nature & "* & 
w4  ,x is pass+ /range t ,he %\ld love u
 s mu*1 & wi% to unveil ,himself to u1  
't we might be a k9d ( fir/fruits ( ,8  
creatures4'  ,b t phrase '/ew>ds ( ,8   
my/]ies' almo/ appals me4  ,a /ew>d mu/ 
be fai?ful1 & mu/ r5d] an acc\nt ( ! way
 9 :i* he has us$ 8 ma/]'s goods4  ,god 
grant t at ! f9al reckon+ we may n be   
f\nd unpr(itable s]vants4  ,h[ ^? simple
 words 9 ! tw5ty-?ird ,psalm satisfy u m

 & m z life advances1 & z we realise t  
,he is n our ,%eph]d only1 b ! *ief     
,%eph]d ( ! :ole flock1 & t ,he has yet 
o!r %eep :om ,he is look+ =1 & :om ,he w
 tea* to he> ,8 voice amid ! babel      
tongues ( ! _w4  ,x is a com=t to me to 
feel t ,he has no private bless+s = me  
ap>t f ! re/ ( ! family--t we are "o 9  
,him1 & t ea* bless+ unites u n only to 
! ,head ( ! family1 b to all ! bro!rs )9
 x4  ,i suppose at fir/ x is h>d to     
realise ! unse5 _w = long toge!r4  ,b   
gradually t _w #aea dom9ates our be+1 & 
int]prets ! _w we see1 & makes all life 
intelligible & well wor? ! liv+4    ,to 
,h4 ,j4 ,b4  ,hotel ,belv$]e1 ,/4       
,moritz3 ,decemb] #af1 #aija4  ,i feel a
 new man n[ 9 ?is fre% m\nta9 air4  ,if 
,i always liv$ "h ,i might be good =    
some?+4  ,:at a p>able ( life6  ,if we  
c\ld live 9 ! high] _w & brea! 9 its    
air1 :at /rong1 heal?y m5 we %\ld be6   
,i /ay$ a night once ) ,we/cott1 & x    
seem$ to me t he liv$ & mov$ & _h 8 be+ 
9 a high] region1 to :i* ,i n[ & !n came

 z a /rang]1 & he c\ld see habitually1  
:at ,i sometimes saw1 ! way ( ,god 9    
human life4  ,i am sure we are meant to 
h our home 9 t high] _w1 & t we only see
 life sanely1 /eadily1 & 9 its true     
proportions1 :5 we view x f t vantage   
gr\nd4  ,i h always be5 ?ankful t ,i    
sp5t t night ) ,we/cott1 & !reby ga9$1 n
 simply fre% inspiration1 b a radically 
new revelation ( human life & its       
possibilities4  ,x gave me an insight   
into ! dignity & ! de/9y ( our common   
human nature4  ,y h nev] be5 long abs5t 
f my ?\ghts1 & at la/ ,i h _h "t & /r5g?
 to beg9 to pray = y z ,i c\ld wi%4  ,x 
is ! only way 9 :i* ,i c %[ my gratitude
 to y4  ,i don't und]/& mu* ab\t pray]1 
b ,i ?9k ( t /range1 bold p>able ( !    
unrighte\s judge & ! wid[1 & ,i take my 
/& on t4  ,i %all #aeb n be cont5t until
 y\r true self is =m$2 & ,i ?9k t ,god  
mu/ be v ready to answ] ! pray]1 h[ev]  
imp]fect its =m may be1 ( "o :o loves   
ano!r m ?an he c und]/&4  ,i l ,/       
,paul's words3 teknia m\ ous od9o me*ris

 ou morpho! ,*ri/os en hum94  ,only ,i  
wi% ,i 7 n su* a worm myself4 ,h[ev]1 ! 
?\ght ( y compels me to live a bett]    
life4  ,if ,i c\ld only make all my     
?\ghts ( y into pray]s & actions = y ,i 
%\ld be m cont5t4  ,transcrib]'s note3  
,! ,greek phrase 9 ! above p>agraph 0   
translit]at$ z foll[s3 teknia--tau1     
epsilon1 kappa1 nu1 iota1 alpha2 m\--mu1
 omicron1 upsilon2 ous--omicron1        
upsilon1 f9al sigma2 od9o--omega1 delta1
 iota1 nu1 omega2 me*ris--mu1 epsilon1  
*i1 rho1 iota1 f9al sigma2 ou--omicron1 
upsilon2 morpho!--mu1 omicron1 rho1 phi1
 omega1 !ta1 eta2 ,*ri/os--,*i1 rho1    
iota1 sigma1 tau1 omicron1 f9al sigma2  
en--epsilon1 nu2 hum9--7r\gh brea?+ m>k7
 upsilon1 mu1 iota1 nu  ,don't imitate  
,uriah ,heep ) ',y\rs mo/ humbly4'  ,i  
won't /& t nons5se6 & y give y\rself    
away j a few l9es above1 :5 y ass]t t y 
are too pr\d to conf] a fav\r on me1 &  
read ,greek ,te/am5t ) me4  ,:at a funny
 *ap y are6  ,c't y see1 y idiot1 :at a 
pleasure y give me8  ,we %all h to      

compromise1 & ,i'll h to make "s        
concession to y\r pride4  ,nei!r ----   
nor ,i "k mu* ab\t y\r section1 b we    
c\ld help y 9 y\r fir/ "p pap]s4  ,(    
c\rse1 he c\ld d x miles bett] ?an ,i c2
 b1 all ! same1 y are go+ to be my      
pupil4  ,promise me t y won't make any  
arrangem5t ) him until y h talk$ ! matt]
 ov] ) me4 ,i'll make "s compromise = ! 
sake ( y\r mis]able pride1 y wret*$     
creature4  ,write to me soon aga91 if x 
isn't a great bore4  ,i c't recall z mu*
 z ,i c\ld wi% ( y\r conv]sations ) me4 
,9 fact1 ,i h ! unpleasant feel+        
sometimes t ,i did too mu* ( ! talk+6 ,b
 "o or two ?+s t y said to me live 9    
#aec my memory1 & make me wi% to be m   
fit to talk to y4  ,/4 ,moritz is mu* z 
usual4  ,x is a /range little _w 9      
itself4 ,! comic & ! tragic are bl5d$   
weirdly toge!r1 & nature is unimag9ably 
beautiful4  ,i wi% y c\ld see ?is sn[4  
,x has an attraction = me1 & ,i am sure 
x w\ld h = y4  ,i ?9k y und]/& m ab\t ! 
mean+ ( beauty ?an ,i d4  ,:5 ,i see a  

magnific5t l&scape1 ,i want to %>e !    
sight ) "s "o else4  ,i feel q lonely :5
 ,i am int]pret+ x alone4  ,i wond] :y t
 is8    ,to ,f4 ,j4 ,c4  ,hotel         
,belv$]e1 ,/4 ,moritz3 ,decemb] #ba1    
#aija4  ,*ri/mas seems to mean m to me1 
! long] t ,i live4  ,i gaze ) bewild]m5t
 on t /up5d\s my/]y ( love--! v ,god    
ent]+ into & rais+ our human nature4    
,my :ole conception ( ! mean+1 !        
possibilities ( our common human nature 
is trans=m$1 z ,i see t x c become a    
p]fect reflection & manife/ation ( !    
,div9e nature4  ',! ,^w became fle%1 &  
lodg$ 9 u4'  ,! mang] at ,be?lehem      
rev]ses all our human conceptions (     
dignity & greatness4  ',! folly ( ,god  
is wis] ?an m54'  ,x is to ! humble--to 
babes--t ,god c reveal ,himself4  ,9 !m 
,he c f9d ,8 home4      ,o ,fa!r1 t\* ! 
,ea/ & light   ,! light t %one :5 ,hope 
0 born4  ,x is 9 ,*ri/mas t ,t5nyson    
f\nd ! bir? ( #aed ,hope4  ,x is        
,*ri/mas t1 z life goes on1 bids u nev] 
despair--( our own or ( human nature    

ar\nd u4    ,to a fri5d at ,cambridge4  
,hotel ,belv$]e1 ,/4 ,moritz3 ,decemb]  
#cj1 #aija4  ,i %all nev] =get ?is la/  
,*ri/mas ,day1 = y\r lett] came 9 !     
ev5+4  ,i read x aga9 & aga91 & wond] at
 x m ea* "t ,i read x4  ,i c't tell y   
:at ,i feel ab\t x4  ,i knew t y m or   
less lik$ & respect$ me1 b ,i didn't "k 
t y lov$ me4  ,i've got :at ,i want$4   
,:5 y m]ely respect$ me1 ,i dread$ ! day
 :5 y w\ld f9d t ,i 0 diff]5t to :at y  
?\ght ,i 04  ,b n[ ,i feel ,i am safe   
phobos ouk e/9 en te agape1 h[ev]       
imp]fect y f9d me4  ,i "k n[ t ,i c tru/
 y n to ?r[ me (f4  ,& love is n extreme
 to m>k :at is amiss1 hoti agape        
kaluptei ple?os am>tion4  ,i c't ?ank y 
= y\r k9dness1 b ,i ?ank ,god = giv+ me 
! mo/ preci\s gift 9 ! _w1 a human s\l  
'to love & be lov$ by = ev]4'  ,z ,i    
look at y\r lett] ,i feel a m]e worm1 & 
my "o wond] is h[ on e>? a man l y c    
call me y\r fri5d4  ,i c't ?ank y2 b    
,i'll d my be/ to live up to ! /&>d y   
expect ( me1 & to be a true fri5d to y4 

,& my idea ( fri5d%ip is1 z y "k1 pray]4
  ,i c't1 worse luck1 d mu* = y1 b ,i d 
pray = y1 & ':atev] ye ask 9 pray]1     
believ+1 ye %all receive4'  ,x has be5  
truly said t ! h[1 ! :]e1 & ! :5 are n  
told u1 b only ! #aee :at4  ,& ,i am q  
c]ta9 t e pray] ,i (f] = y is he>d &    
answ]$1 :5 ,i believe :at ,i say2 b !   
mann]1 ! place1 & ! occasion ( !        
answ]--( ^! ?+s ,i "k no?+4  ,i am sure 
t ,god loves to see u happy1 & ! pure   
joy ( ! k t su* a man z y loves me is   
almo/ m ?an ,i c be>4  ,x ?r[s a new    
light on life "h1 & on t full] life to  
:i* ,god is lead+ u h]eaft]2 l y1 ?ank  
,god1 ,i _c compla9 ( lack ( fri5ds1 b  
,i h nev] _h "o :o has writt5 me su* a  
lett]1 full ( an affection = :i* ,i     
crave4  ,! wor/ is1 ,i c't repay y\r    
k9dness4  ,y br+ me ne>] to ,god1 y make
 me realise 9 ! /range/ way ,8          
affection1 y make me feel ! wor? & my/]y
 ( a human s\l4  ,i wi% ,i c\ld return  
y\r help someh[ or o!r4  ,d %[ me ! way4
  ,i wi% y did n f9d x s difficult to   

pray = me4  ,i am sure y are "r 9 go+   
back to su* a man z ,/4 ,paul = subjects
 ( pray]4  ,! op5+ *apt]s ( 8 lett]s to 
! ,ephesians & ,colossians give ! k9ds (
 reque/s :i* x is wor? mak+ on behalf ( 
any "o4  ,!re is surely no h>m 9 f9d+ t1
 z y pray = ano!r1 y\r own fai? is gr[+4
 ,!re is no?+ selfi% 9 t4  ,x is r !    
result ( ! law didote kai do!setai hum94
  ,transcrib]'s note3 ,! ,greek phrases 
9 ! above p>agraph 7 translit]at$ z     
foll[s3 phobos--phi1 omicron1 beta1     
omicron1 f9al sigma2 ouk--omicron1      
upsilon1 kappa2 e/9--epsilon1 sigma1    
tau1 iota1 nu2 en--epsilon1 nu2 te--tau1
 eta2 agape--alpha1 gamma1 alpha1 pi1   
eta2 hoti--7r\gh brea?+ m>k7 omicron1   
tau1 iota2 agape--alpha1 gamma1 alpha1  
pi1 eta2 kaluptei--kappa1 alpha1 lambda1
 upsilon1 pi1 tau1 epsilon1 iota2       
ple?os--pi1 lambda1 eta1 !ta1 omicron1  
f9al sigma2 am>tion--alpha1 mu1 alpha1  
rho1 tau1 iota1 omega1 nu2              
didote--delta1 iota1 delta1 omicron1    
tau1 epsilon2 kai--kappa1 alpha1 iota2  

do!setai--delta1 omicron1 !ta1 eta1     
sigma1 eta1 tai1 alpha1 iota2           
hum9--7r\gh brea?+ m>k7 upsilon1 mu1    
iota1 nu  ,y\r fai? c only gr[ )        
ex]cise1 & y ex]cise x by pray+ = o!rs4 
,y w\ld only be selfi% if y pray$ = "s  
"o else 9 ord] t y\r own s\l might be   
b5efit$4  ,b don't ?9k too mu* (        
selfi%ness4  ,br+ #aef all y\r half     
selfi% desires to ,him :o kn[s u ?r\gh &
 ?r\gh2 & 9 ,8 pres5ce1 almo/           
unconsci\sly1 y\r motives w gradually be
 purifi$4  ,y w le>n to walk 9 ! light z
 ,he ,himself is 9 ! light4  ,z ,i look 
back on ?is lett]1 a l>ge "p ( x seems  
selfi%4  ,i expect mu* is2 b1 ev5 9 !   
selfi% p>ts1 !re is some?+ m besides4   
,i c only j say :at ,i feel1 & ask ,god 
gradually to elim9ate :at is wrong4  ,9 
,8 light ,i %all see light4  ,life is   
l>ge1 & ,i am fe>ful le/1 9 attempt+ a  
r\gh & ready asceticism1 ,i %\ld exclude
 z wrong "s elem5ts :i* are 9 reality   
,god-giv54  ,i feel t 9 ! case ( our    
affections & our long+ = beauty4  ,!y   

are implant$ 9 u1 & t5d$ & wat]$ by ,"o 
:o is p]fect ,love & p]fect ,beauty4    
,!y easily lead u into s91 b t fact does
 n imply t !y are wrong 9 !mselves4  ,we
 h to br+ !m to _! s\rce t ,he may      
int]pret !m1 ',too late h ,i s\ght !e1' 
said ,augu/9e1 '?\ ,beauty1 s anci5t & s
 new1 too late h ,i s\ght !e4'  ,i _c   
und]/& ! my/]y ( y\r life1 de>e/1 b ,i  
feel t all t crav+ = beauty is 9 "s k9d 
( way a crav+ = ,god4  ,only ,god dem&s 
! fir/ place 9 y\r life be=e ,he w give 
y any satisfy+ int]pretation ( t aspect 
( ,8 life4  ,y mu/ love ,him = :at ,he  
is--n simply because ,he is ,beauty4    
,i slept & dream$ t life 0 ,beauty1   ,i
 woke & f\nd t life is ,duty4  #aeg  ,!y
 are n really contradictory conceptions4
  ,nay1 ,duty has a spiritual beauty (  
h] own4  ,b sometimes !y seem = a mom5t 
div]g5t1 & !n y mu/ at all co/s *oose ! 
latt]1 & y w f9d t    ,! topmo/ crags ( 
,duty scal$1   ,are close ^u t %9+      
tablel&   ,to :i* ,god ,himself is %ield
 & sun4  ,&1 if ,i am n mi/ak51 t l& w  

be utt]ly full ( an absolutely satisfy+ 
beauty4  ,b ,i feel t ,i sc>cely yet    
und]/& any?+ ab\t ! mean+ ( ,beauty4    
,all ,i c d is to relate x imm$iately to
 ,god4  ,if ,i see beautiful sc5]y1 ,i  
am usually ?9k+ ( ,god & ?ank+ ,him4    
,if ,i see human beauty1 ,i feel t ,i am
 on holy gr\nd1 & ,i always try to pray 
= a face t attracts me4  ,i feel t ,i h 
a duty 9 return = ! revelation t has be5
 giv54  ,b1 z y see1 ,i c expla9 b      
little4  ,^! are m]ely rules ( practical
 life :i* we v imp]fectly c>ry out4  ,i 
_c expla9 ! relation ( physical &       
spiritual beauty 9 human be+s4  ,i feel1
 ( c\rse1 t !re ought to be1 !re v (t5  
is1 "s su* relation4  ,b sometimes !re  
is some?+ utt]ly wrong1 & app>5tly no   
su* connective4  ,! connection1 ,i take 
x1 is m p]fect 9 nature2 b 9 man1 :y1   
some?+ has occurr$1 some?+ anomal\s1 :i*
 m>s ! :ole4  ,s9 has come 9 some:]e1 ,i
 suppose4  ,i c't express on pap] :at ,i
 feel1 or give y any real conception (  
:at y are to me4  ,y #aeh w\ld be />tl$ 

if y knew4  ,god bless y1 & "w out 9 y1 
n my mis]able ideal ( :at ,i ?9k y ought
 to be1 b ,8 own ideal1 :i* exce$s all  
our ?\ghts & imag9ation1 ( :at y are to 
be4    ,to ,g4 ,j4 ,c4  ,*ri/'s         
,college3 #aija4  4 4 4  ,i 0 nev] s    
pleas$ to he> ( any engagem5t z ( y\rs4 
,i ?ank ,god ) all my he>t4  ,i _c put  
my joy into words1 b someh[ or o!r x    
seems to br+ me ne>] to ! s\rce ( all   
joy4 ,i feel m ?an ev] t ,he c>es = u & 
is educat+ u1 & ,i feel t ,he has be5 s 
good to y1 because ,he loves y4  ,! old]
 ,i gr[ ! m ,i am impress$ by ,8 inf9ite
 sympa?y & conc]n = u4  ,& :5 ,he gives 
u n only love b a return ( love1 x seems
 to me t ,he is giv+ u ! v be/ ?+ t ,he 
has--a "p1 z x 71 ( ,himself4  ',!      
m]ciful & graci\s ,"l ha? s done ,8     
m>vell\s works1 t !y ought to be _h 9   
remembrance4'  ,i _c tell y h[ glad ,i  
am4  ,b ,i ?ank ,god 9 my pray]s = y2 & 
,i am sure t if ,he has be5 s good to y 
9 ! pa/1 ,he w n =get y 9 ! future4     
,to ! same :5 he _h j accept$ a ma/]%ip 

at ,eton4  ,brisl+ton1 ,bri/ol3 #aija4  
4 4 4 4  ,h[ good ( y to write & tell me
 ( y\r future "w6 4 4 4  ,!             
responsibility ( su* a #aei life is to  
my m9d almo/ ov]:elm+4  ',:o is         
suffici5t = ^! ?+s8  ,our suffici5cy is 
( ,god4'  ,i am ?ankful t ! (f] came z x
 did--uns\ght by y4  ,y w feel happi] 9 
accept+ x4  ',inf9ite sympa?y is ne$$ = 
! inf9ite pa?os ( human life'--m        
especially ( a boy's life4  ,! fir/1    
second1 ?ird1 requisite = a ma/] is1 9  
my judgm5t1 sympa?y4  ,z ,i look back on
 my own s*ool days1 ,i _c help feel+ t  
mo/ ( my ma/]s 7 ei!r lack+ 9 x or else 
/rangely incapable ( manife/+ x 9 a =m  
:i* ,i c\ld und]/&4 ,sympa?y ) ! dull1  
unpromis+ boy is a div9e gift1 & ,i tru/
 t ,holy ,ord]s w conf] ^u y ?is grace  
also4  ,i ?ank ,god t y are tak+ ord]s1 
& f9d+ y\r "w 9 tea*+4  ,=give ?is      
lecture f "o :o has no "r to speak1 & :o
 is himself /rangely defici5t 9 sympa?y4
    ,to ,d4 ,b4 ,k4  ,ea/b\rne3         
,septemb] #aija4  ,i am glad t y h be5  

home4  ,i feel t home is a revelation--a
 means :]eby ! ,et]nal ,fa!r %[s u      
,himself & ,8 purposes1 a /r5g!n+ &     
refre%+ ( our tir$ s\ls4 4 4 4  ,i h    
pray$ e>ne/ly = y t y\r fai? & love may 
n fail4  ,i feel int5sely ! same        
difficulty z y1 & ,i am only sl[ly le>n+
 to ov]come x4  ,i d n ?9k we c le>n to 
love p :o are altoge!r diff]5t f u 9 _m 
respects1 all at once4  ,i love "s m5 ) 
a /range1 unsatisfi$ affection4  ,all my
 ?\ghts ab\t !m ,i am #afj gradually    
le>n+ to resolve into pray]s = !m1 & ,i 
want to live long] t ,i may pray = !m m4
  ,well1 x seems to me t ,god gives u   
?is affection t we may le>n to d to o!rs
 z we w\ld d to ^!4  ,i _c pret5d to c>e
 = _m ) :om ,i come into contact z mu* z
 ,i d = ! few4  ,b ,i c pray = !m1 & !  
feel+ w m or less come 9 "t4 ,j try to  
pray = "s "o p]son committ$ to y\r      
*>ge--say = half an h\r or an h\r--& y w
 beg9 really to love him4  ,z y lay 8   
life be=e ,god1 z y ?9k ( 8 ne$s &      
hopes1 & fail+s & possibilities1 z y    

pray e>ne/ly = him z y w\ld = "s "o :om 
y feel int5se affection =2 at ! end ( ! 
"t y w feel m int]e/$ 9 him1 y w ?9k (  
him n z "o ( a class b z a sep>ate1     
my/]i\s p]son4  ,y w n1 x may be1 h "t  
to pray = _m 9 ?is way1 b y w le>n      
imp]ceptibly to ext5d y\r sympa?y--to   
feel real love = _m m4 ,i advise y to   
keep a record ( ^! pray]s4  ,x is q wor?
 y\r :ile to take practically a day (f  
sometimes1 & to =ce y\rself to pray4  ,x
 w be ! be/ day's "w y h ev] done 9 y\r 
life4 ,rememb] t6  ,don't be tr\bl$ by  
comp>+ y\rself ) o!r cl]gym54  ,i ?9k y 
are l me--n ecclesia/ically m9d$4  ,i   
don't h ! sort ( feel+s :i* a l>ge numb]
 ( p]sons h ab\t _! "w & _! prea*+4  ,i 
c't put ! diff]5ce into words1 yet ,i   
feel x4 ,b ,i mu/ s]ve ,god 9 my own    
way1 & ,i am sure t ,he w use me to d ! 
"w = :i* ,i am be/ fitt$4  ,& ! #afa    
same is true ( y4  ,try to ref] all y\r 
actions to ,8 /&>d2 & te/ y\r "w 9 ,8   
pres5ce2 & don't ask :at ,s-&-s ?9ks (  
x4  ,i v mu* wi% y _h "s g5tlem5 to     

associate ) besides p>sons4  ,y mu/ keep
 up z mu* z possible ) y\r college      
fri5ds2 & use e opportunity :i*         
reasonably pres5ts itself ( see+ "s     
'society4'  ,god kn[s :at is be/ = y at 
pres5t4    ,god no?+ does or suff]s to  
be done   ,b ?\ w\lde/ d ?yself1 c\lde/ 
?\ b see   ,! end ( all ev5ts z well z  
,he4  ,i am sure t ,he w n =get y4  ,he 
kn[s :at is be/ = y\r developm5t4  ,x   
may be t ,he takes y away f fri5ds t y  
may le>n to pray = !m m & to see ,him m 
cle>ly4  ,i ?9k y w influ5ce _m m5 :om a
 m ord9>y p>son w\ld n t\*4 4 4 4  ,i am
 q c]ta9 t if y h inf9ite hope--hope    
aga9/ hope--y w be a trem5d\s p[] 9 !   
place :]e ,god has put y4  ,get z mu*   
ex]cise z y c1 & always get a cle> day  
(f 9 ! week1 & don't give up any ( y\r  
old int]e/s4  ,don't always read        
'religi\s' lit]ature4 4 4 4  ,:5 ! long 
day is done & we /& be=e ! judgm5t seat1
 ,i believe t _m w rise up & call y     
bless$4  ,only pray = individuals--= a  
long "t toge!r4  ,to influ5ce1 y mu/    

love2 to love1 y mu/ pray4    #afb  ,to 
"o ab\t to be orda9$4  ,ea/b\rne3       
,septemb] #aija4  ,i %all inde$ rememb] 
y on ,sunday next4  ,! words ( ! lesson 
come home to me to-day--kai eirek5 moi  
,arkei soi he *>iu m\2 he g> dunamis en 
a/h5eia teleitai4  ,we are poor         
creatures1 b !re is ,grace--& we c come 
into contact ) x--& t is all we ne$4    
,we may h fail$ 9 ! pa/1 b ,*ri/ (f]s a 
new *ildlike life & endless hope4  ,i am
 glad to ?9k t y w be return+ to y\r    
difficult po/ at ,cambridge4  ,i am sure
 t y w return to x ) fre% humility &    
c\rage--en pl]omati eulogias ,*ri/\4    
,transcrib]'s note3 ,! ,greek phrases 9 
! above p>agraphs 7 translit]at$ z      
foll[s3 kai--kappa1 alpha1 iota2        
eirek5--epsilon1 iota1 rho1 eta1 kappa1 
epsilon1 nu2 moi--mu1 omicron1 iota2    
,arkei--,alpha1 rho1 kappa1 epsilon1    
iota2 soi--sigma1 omicron1 iota2        
he--7r\gh breat+ m>k7 eta2 *>iu--*i1    
alpha1 rho1 iota1 f9al sigma2 m\--mu1   
omicron1 upsilon2 he--7r\gh brea?+ m>k7 

eta2 g>--gamma1 alpha1 rho2             
dunamis--delta1 upsilon2 nu1 alpha1 mu1 
iota1 f9al sigma2 en--epsilon1 nu2      
a/h5eia--alpha1 sigma1 !ta1 epsilon1 nu1
 epsilon1 iota1 alpha2 teleitai--tau1   
epsilon1 lambda1 epsilon1 iota1 tau1    
alpha1 iota2 en--en--epsilon1 nu2       
pl]omati--pi1 lambda1 eta1 rho1 omega1  
mu1 alpha1 tau1 iota2 eulogias--epsilon1
 upsilon1 lambda1 omicron1 gamma1 iota  
alpha1 f9al sigma2 ,*ri/\--,*i1 rho1    
iota1 sigma1 tau1 omicron1 upsilon      
,to ,w4 ,d4 ,h4  ,/4 ,moritz3 ,janu>y   
#d1 #aijb4  ,i hope t y are n[ less     
ov]work$ ?an y 7 9 ,octob]4  ,y mu/ at  
all co/s make quiet "t4  ,give up "w1 if
 ne$ be4  ,y\r influ5ce f9ally dep5ds ^u
 y\r own fir/-h& k ( ! unse5 _w1 & on   
y\r exp]i5ce ( pray]4  ,love & sympa?y &
 tact & insight are born ( pray]4  ,i am
 glad y h a ,junior ,cl]gy ,s4 ,p4 ,g4  
,association4  ,try to take an          
intellig5t int]e/ 9 x1 & m9d y read a   
pap] be=e long4    ,to 8 bro!r ,edw>d 9 
,s\? ,africa4  ,hotel ,belv$]e1 ,/4     

,moritz3 ,janu>y #g1 #aijb4  ,i am glad 
to ?9k t we are n[ 9 _m respects agre$  
ab\t ! g5]al "q ( ! #afc w>4  ,i suppose
 9 any great hi/orical upheaval !re are 
at ! "t a numb] ( p :o are attempt+ to  
make capital = !mselves out ( !         
mis=tunes ( o!rs2 !re are _m :o are     
work+ = _! own h&2 & yet1 :5 we look    
back on ! crisis & judge x z a :ole 9 ! 
calm light ( hi/ory1 we see t a l>ge &  
rational purpose has be5 work$ out4  ,at
 ! "t ( ! ,engli% ,re=mation--z "s "o 0 
say+ to me lately1 po9t+ ! p>allel :i*  
,i am work+ out--!re mu/ h be5 a numb] (
 hone/ & pure s\ls :o held alo( f ! :ole
 ( :at appe>$ to be political jobb]y &  
=tune-mak+ at ! exp5se ( religi\s       
s5tim5t4  ,yet n[ mo/ ( u feel t !      
movem5t c\ld n h _h ! effects t x _h1   
unless d[n bel[ all !re 0 a /rong       
upheaval ( ! national consci5ce4  ,y w  
no d\bt see _m defects 9 ?is hi/orical  
p>allel2 b ! ?\ght is at any rate       
sugge/ive1 & full ( :at we require 9 ^! 
latt] days--hope4  ,( c\rse ,i feel t   

inju/ice1 di%one/y1 cruelty1 selfi%ness 
are 9 no way palliat$ because !y take   
cov] & occasion 9 a real movem5t (      
national feel+4  ,i feel = y mu* 9 y\r  
"w = exam9ations4  ,x mu/ come v h>d )  
ill heal? & 9 a hot climate1 ) !        
fre%ness ( y\? to "s ext5t pass$4  ,b   
,o well = him ^: w is /rong1   ,he      
suff]s1 b he %all n suff] long2   ,he   
suff]s1 b he _c suff] wrong  #afd ,x    
ne$s m c\rage ?an y 7 requir$ to %[ on !
 field ( battle4  ,b ! rew>d is sure4   
,i feel /rongly t ?is life is b !       
prelude to a l>g] life1 :5 ea* faculty w
 h its full ex]cise4    ,ah yet1 :5 all 
is ?\ght & said1   ,! he>t /ill ov]rules
 ! head2   ,/ill :at we hope we mu/     
believe1   ,& :at is giv5 u receive2    
,mu/ /ill believe1 = /ill we hope1   ,t 
9 a _w ( l>g] scope1   ,:at "h is       
fai?fully begun   ,w be complet$1 n     
undone4  ,^! words come f d\gh--! s\l ( 
hone/y4    ,to ,h4 ,j4 ,b4  ,d]w5t      
,hill1 ,eb*e/]1 ,durham3 ,april #ad1    
#aijb4  ,x seems to me a truism to say t

 we ought to look at life 9 ! light (   
et]nity4  ,only !n does ! true          
significance ( ! meane/ action 9 life   
appe>4  ,life is r$eem$ f triviality &  
vulg>ity4  ,s f> f worldly possessions  
los+ _! value1 & ord9>y occupations     
appe>+ insignificant1 _! importance is  
realis$ z nev] be=e4 ,if man does n live
 = ev]1 8 "* & actions seem ( comp>ative
 unimportance4  ,if he does live = ev]1 
x is rational = him to look at ea*      
action 9 ! light ( t l>g] life :i* he   
inh]its4  ,if some?+ l class di/9ctions 
are et]nal1 x is an inducem5t s to use  
y\r di/9ctive privileges "h 9 a wor?y   
mann]1 t h]eaft] y may use !m = nobl]   
ends4  #afe  ,i h express$ myself badly1
 b y w see :at ,i want to say4  ,my     
relations to y surely become n less1 b m
 important1 :5 ,i realise t ,i am only  
beg9n+ to "k & love y "h4  ,! et]nal    
elem5t 9 !m--! k t !re is ?r\gh\t an    
implicit ref]5ce to a ,?ird & ,unse5    
,p]son 9 all t ,i say to y or ?9k (     
y--fills me ) a s5se ( awe1 & makes !   

relations m real because m spiritual4   
,to ! "m ( 8 god*ild1 ,m>g>et ,=bes4    
,july #f1 #aijb4  ,i _c tell y :at a    
pleasure x 0 to see my god*ild4 4 4 4   
,i feel %e has a /r5g? ( purpose & a    
desire to "k ! tru? :i* w fit h] = high 
s]vice 9 ,god's k+dom on e>?4  ,i pray =
 h]1 & ,i %all d s 9 ! future ) full]   
und]/&+ & ) great hope4  ,:at ,god ha?  
begun ,he w assur$ly br+ to p]fection4  
,i hope t "s day %e w le>n to pray =    
,uncle ,=bes4  ,i %\ld value h] pray]s4 
,x is good to feel t 9 ! mid/ ( y\r we>y
 "t ( weakness ,god has giv5 y su* a    
*ild z a pl$ge ( ,8 affection = y1 z an 
assurance t ,he believes 9 y4  ,to give 
y a little *ild to tra9 = ,himself is a 
pro( t ,he tru/s y v mu*4  ,i d n "k t  
,he c\ld h giv5 a great] pro( ( ,8      
confid5ce 9 y4 ,& x is ,god's implicit  
tru/ 9 u t draws out our tru/ 9 turn4   
,we tru/ & love ,him1 because ,he fir/  
tru/$ & lov$ u4  ,i wond] m & m at ! way
 9 :i* ,he tru/s u4  ,to all[ u to suff]
 )\t #aff tell+ u ! reason1 :5 ,he kn[s 

t we %all be incl9$ to ?9k h>%ly (      
,him--t is1 p]haps1 ! greate/ pro( t ,he
 believes 9 u4  ,he c try our fai? &    
p]fect x by long-cont9u$ trial1 because 
,he kn[s t we %all respond1 t we %all   
prove 'wor?y to suff]4'    ,to ,h4 ,j4  
,b4  ,*ri/'s ,college1 ,cambridge3      
,augu/ #bf1 #aijb4  ,! wor/ ( see+ y =  
"s "t is t ,i feel x all ! m impossible 
to live )\t y4  ,i realise n[ z nev]    
be=e t y are out & away be=e me1 & bett]
 ?an ,i am2 & yet ,i feel t y are "p &  
p>cel ( my life4  ,y mu/n't be too h>d  
on me if ,i c't come up to y\r ideal4   
,intellectually ! ,hebrew & ,greek      
ideals may be irreconcilable4  ,yet     
'life is l>g] ?an logic2' & practically 
we may become heirs ( bo? ideals4  ,!   
man :o loses ! _w1 :o gives up all )\t  
any desire = ga91 is (t5 giv5 ! :ole    
back aga9 transfigur$1 glorifi$ by      
sacrifice4  ,to get y mu/ =get4  ,if y  
love ,god absolutely ) all y\r be+1 y   
inh]it ! life t is z well z t :i* is to 
come4  ,if all is n giv5 y1 yet en\gh is

 giv5 = ! developm5t ( "*4  ,b !re mu/1 
x seems to me1 be an absolute           
sacrifice--a surr5d] ( y\r :ole         
be+--:atev] ! result may be4 ,!re mu/ be
 no calculation4    ,high ,heav5 rejects
 ! lore   ,( nicely calculat$ less & m4 
#afg  ,y mu/ love ! ,"l y\r ,god ) all  
y\r he>t & all y\r m9d3 y mu/ tru/ ,him 
to d ! be/ by y4  ,y say ! ,hebrew ideal
 does n appeal to y4  ,b ,i "k bett]2 = 
y half l me1 & ,i am a ,hebrew ( !      
,hebrews6  ,!re mu/ be a da% (          
recklessness ab\t ! man :o ga9s ! o!r   
_w4  ',all or no?+' is ! requirem5t ( ! 
k+dom ( ,heav54  ,to ga9 y\rself y mu/  
?r[ y\rself away--'lose y\r s\l4'  ,y   
mu/ h fai?4  ',he :o loves makes 8 own !
 gr&eur t he loves' is a s5t5ce (       
,em]son :i* consoles me :5 ,i ?9k ( my  
love = y4    ,to a fri5d at ,cambridge4 
#dj ,upp]ton ,g>d5s1 ,ea/b\rne3         
,septemb] #h1 #aijb4  ,i h be5 ?9k+ ( y4
  ,i keep myself f becom+ morbid by mak+
 mo/ ( my ?\ghts into pray]s = y4  ,!   
glory--wond]--/rang5ess ( be+ lov$ by a 

man f ano!r & a bett] _w fills me )     
gratitude to ,god4  ,sometimes x seems a
 dream1 & ,i half dread t ,i %all wake  
up & f9d t y h ceas$ to c>e = a wor?less
 creature4  ,b phobos ouk e/9 en te     
agape1 all he teleia agape exo ballei   
ton phobon4  ,i ne$ n fe>4  ,i "k t y w 
love me1 :atev] happ5s4  ,transcrib]'s  
note3 ,! ,greek phrases 9 ! above       
p>agraph 7 translit]at$ z foll[s3       
phobos--phi1 omicron1 beta1 omicron1    
f9al sigma2 ouk--omicron1 upsilon1      
kappa2 e/9--epsilon1 sigma1 tau1 iota1  
nu2 en--epsilon1 nu2 te--tau1 eta2      
agape--alpha1 gamma1 alpha1 pi1 eta2    
all--alpha1 lambda1 lambda2 he--7r\gh   
brea?+ m>k7 eta2 teleia--tau1 epsilon1  
lambda1 epsilon1 iota1 alpha2           
agape--alpha1 gamma1 alpha1 pi1 eta2    
exo--epsilon1 xi1 omega2 ballei--beta1  
alpha1 lambda1 lambda1 epsilon1 iota2   
ton--tau1 omicron1 nu2 phobon--phi1     
omicron1 beta1 omicron1 nu  ,i want y to
 be "o ( ! be/ m5 t ev] liv$--to see    
,god & to reveal ,him to m54  ,?is is ! 

burd5 ( my pray]s4  ,my :ole be+ goes   
out 9 passionate entreaty to ,god t ,he 
w give me :at ,i ask4 ,i am sure ,he w1 
= ! reque/ #afh is aft] ,8 own he>t4  ,i
 d n pray t y may 'succe$ 9 life' or    
'get on' 9 ! _w4  ,i seldom ev5 pray t y
 may love me bett]1 or t ,i may see y   
(t5] 9 ?is or any o!r _w--mu* z ,i crave
 = ?is4  ,b ,i ask1 ,i implore1 t ,*ri/ 
may be =m$ 9 y1 t y may be made n 9 a   
lik5ess sugge/$ by my imag9ation1 b 9 ! 
image ( ,god--t y may realise1 n m9e1 b 
,8 ideal1 h[ev] mu* t ideal may bewild] 
me1 h[ev] little ,i may fail to         
recognise x :5 x is creat$4  ,i hate !  
?\ght t out ( love = me y %\ld accept my
 pres5tation--my feeble idea--( ! ,*ri/4
  ,i want ,god to reveal ,8 ,son 9 y    
indep5d5tly ( me--to give y a fir/-h& k 
( ,him :om ,i am only beg9n+ to see4    
,sometimes m selfi% ?\ghts w intrude1 b 
?is repres5ts ! ma9 curr5t ( my pray]s2 
& if ! ideal is to be won f heav5 by    
importunity1 by ceaseless begg+1 ,i ?9k 
,i %all get x = y4  ,b x grieves me to  

?9k t ,i c d no?+ else = y4  ,to receive
 s _m fav\rs f y1 & to be incapable (   
do+ m 9 return--?is is :at sadd5s me4   
,i feel an ungrateful brute4  ,y h      
br\ght new joy1 hope1 p[] into my life1 
& ,i want to %[ my gratitude4  ,y w\ld  
be do+ me a real k9dness if y w\ld tell 
me h[ ,i c\ld %[ x4  ,don't ?9k by :at  
,i h said t ,i simply c>e--z an         
',evangelical' w\ld say--= y\r 's\l4'   
,e "p ( y\r be+--ev]y?+ y d or say--all 
t y are--has a /range fasc9ation = me4  
,only ,i feel t ! :ole ( x is a         
revelation ( #afi ,god2 & ,i want t     
revelation to be cle>]1 tru]1 simpl]4   
,i am sure ,god does n only c>e = our   
s\ls4  ,x is e "p ( our complicat$      
be+--all sides ( our manifold life--t   
attracts ,him4  ,he loves our home life1
 our affection = ! de> old ,"m ,e>? :i* 
,he made1 our int]e/ 9 ! m5 & wom5 :om  
,he =m$ 9 ,8 own image4  ,he longs t all
 ^? int]e/s %\ld be develop$--t we %\ld 
live g5u9e1 sane human lives4  ,b true  
developm5t "h or else:]e--! law (       

exi/5ce 9 heav5 or on e>?--is life ?r\gh
 dea?4  ',v]ily1 v]ily1 ,i say unto y1  
,except a gra9 ( :eat fall into ! e>? & 
die1 x abide? by itself alone2 b if x   
die1 x be>e? mu* fruit4'  ,y mu/ give up
 all4  ,z ,i ?9k ( y1 ^? words keep r++ 
9 my e>s3 ',if any "o come? to ,me1 &   
hate? n 8 own fa!r & "m1 yea1 & 8 own   
self also1 he _c be ,my disciple4'  ,i  
_c tell y :at !y mean4  ,y mu/ f9d !m   
out = y\rself4  ,if ,i 7 a true disciple
 ( ,*ri/1 y c\ld see :at !y mean by     
look+ at me4  ,b ,i am n4  ,y mu/ le>n  
_! mean+ = y\rself4 ,y\r "m's life w    
speak l\d] ?an words ( m9e4  ,only ,i "k
 !y are true4  ,*ri/ w recreate ! _w1   
recreate ! home1 human be+s1 de> ,"m    
,e>?2 b ,he _c d s until y h be5 will+  
to give up all--until ,he has caus$ y to
 be 'born aga94'  ,:5 ! rul] ask$ h[ ^! 
?+s c\ld be1 ,*ri/ c\ld only repeat ,8  
words4  ,! man mu/ "w x out = himself4  
,b ,i am sure t he t wille? to d ! w    
#agj %all "k :e!r ! tea*+ be true4  ,!re
 are no d\bt "s m]e intellectual        

obscurities 9 ! ideal :i* ,i might make 
simpl] if ,i 7 n su* a duff]4  ,b f9ally
 a p>adox w\ld be left--a p>adox :i* c  
only be solv$ by liv+ ! ideal out1 &    
f9d+ x "w4  ,x is ! pa?os ( our love1 ( 
,god's love = u1 t ea* man1 h[ev] mu* he
 is lov$1 mu/ "w out ! ideal = himself4 
,no man c save 8 bro!r's s\l4  ,i d n l 
to weak5 ! p>adoxes ( ! ,gospel4  ,i ?9k
 !re is m 9 ,*ri/'s words conc]n+ 'lov+ 
"o's life' or 'self' ?an y sugge/4  ,y  
say x means 'self-d5ial4'  ,yes1 t is   
true1 b :at a trem5d\s mean+ 'd5y "o's  
self' has6  ,to dis[n y\r id5tity1 t is 
n mu* easi] :5 y come to ?9k ( x ?an to 
lose y\r life4 ,i "k y w f9d out :at x  
all means1 & t human love1 beauty1 home1
 social s]vice1 w be m real ?an ev]     
be=e1 because y w see ! et]nal reality  
und]nea?4  ,y w be a 'new creation4'    
,n[ ,i mu/ /op )\t satisfactorily answ]+
 y\r "q1 )\t ent]+ into any casui/ical  
que/ions conc]n+ con=mity su* z y       
sugge/4  ,i %\ld l y to ?9k out t       
problem 9 casui/ry m = y\rself1 be=e ,i 

attempt to answ] x4  ,=give me = talk+ s
 mu* ab\t myself4  ,:5 all is said &    
done1 words fail me4  ,i c only ?ank    
,god t y exi/1 & t y let me love y4     
#aga  ,to ,h4 ,p41 a ,clifton ,college  
ma/] :o _h giv5 up s*ool "w 9 ord] to   
devote himself to ! ,s*ool ,mission 9   
,bri/ol4  #dj ,upp]ton ,g>d5s1          
,ea/b\rne3 ,septemb] #cj1 #aijb4  4 4 4 
,i am glad t y feel y h done "r 9 giv+  
up y\r s*ool "w4  ,i am sorry t y left  
,clifton1 b y ?\ght y ought to g1 & t is
 an end ( ! matt]4  ,i c only hope t y  
are 9 "s measure a connect+-l9k betwe5 !
 s*ool & its mission4 4 4 4  ,don't =get
 me 9 my v diff]5t "w--& yet "w = ! same
 ,ma/]--at college4  ,i h ne$ ( y\r     
pray]s4  ,x is s easy to blund]1 & to   
drive a man fur!r f ! k+dom by lack (   
sympa?y & love4  ,i feel m ?an ,i us$ to
 my weakness1 & my absolute ne$ ( pray]4
    ,to 8 bro!r ,edw>d 9 ,s\? ,africa4  
#dj ,upp]ton ,g>d5s1 ,ea/b\rne3 ,octob] 
#a1 #aijb4  ,! ,octob] t]m has an int]e/
 ( its own1 br++1 z x does1 a bat* (    

fre%m54  ,i try m & m n simply to impose
 my ideals ^u !m1 b to f9d out _! ideals
 & to quick5 !m ) all my p[]4  ,b       
assur$ly 'inf9ite sympa?y is ne$$ = !   
inf9ite pa?os ( human life2' & my       
sympa?ies are z yet imp]fectly develop$4
  ,/ill1 z ye>s g by1 ,i ?9k ,i c       
sympa?ise m ) ^? :o h be5 tra9$ up 9 o!r
 s*ools ( ?\ght & exp]i5ce4  ,i 0 read+ 
9 a book lately t we are l>gely         
responsible = our #agb own exp]i5ces1 t 
we h a duty to get !m ( ! "r k9d4  ,!   
book 0 by an ,am]ican lady on social    
que/ions4  ,i ?9k !re is tru? 9 h]      
words4    ,to ,d4 ,b4 ,k41 head ( a     
,public ,s*ool ,mission4  ,ea/b\rne3    
,octob] #aijb4  ,i delight to "k m5     
bett]1 because ,i f9d s mu* m 9 !m ?an  
,i _h expect$4  ,!y diff] f me1 & ,i try
 to get out ( ! habit ( mak+ !m 9 my own
 image1 & try to f9d ! image 9 :i* ,god 
is mak+ !m4  ,i h be5 pray+ = y4  ,i    
want a _s ( sanity & sacrifice to       
possess y1 t y may be able to see ! good
 works :i* ,god has prep>$ be=eh& t y   

%\ld walk 9 !m4 4 4 4  ,i am /ruck by ! 
sacrifice :i* ,*ri/ dem&s4  ,unless !   
man hates fa!r1 "m1 family1 fri5ds1 yea1
 & himself also1 he '_c be' ,8 disciple1
 ,*ri/ gives !m all back aga9--only ')  
p]secutions4' ,we f9d m 9 ! _w1 :5 we   
are 'crucifi$ to x1' ?an ev] be=e2 b !re
 is a some?+ add$4  ,we h a deep] joy 9 
home ties1 9 human love1 9 social life1 
9 ! *ang+ seasons1 9 ! de> old e>?4     
,only ! joy has a note ( sorr[1 a pa?os1
 :i* ,*ri/ calls 'p]secutions4'  ,we see
 m 9 life1 & yet we are 9 a measure out 
( sympa?y ) our surr\nd+s4  ,we h he>d &
 we c nev] =get ! sorr[s ( ^? :o are '"o
 man' ) u4  ,!re is m 9 t ^w            
'p]secutions' ?an ?is1 z no d\bt #agc y 
h f\nd4 ,b ?is1 ,i ?9k1 is "p ( its     
signification1 isn't x8 4 4 4  ,i       
believe 9 y\r 'mission' ev5 m ?an y d4  
,x is m5 l y1 :o ?r\gh great            
tribulations /rive to ent] ! ,k+dom1 t  
,god uses4  ,! fact t y are two m51 & t 
! true man--! ,*ri/--is pa9fully yet    
surely be+ '=m$' 9 y1 means t y w be    

able to appeal to o!rs :o are pa9fully  
consci\s ( _! d\ble consci\sness & are  
(t5 ! slaves ( ! l[]1 inhuman self4 ,y\r
 weal? ( affection w make y feel z ,/4  
,paul did--teknia m\1 ous pal9 me*ris ou
 morpho! ,*ri/os en hum94  ,transcrib]'s
 note3 ,! ,greek phrases 9 ! above      
p>agraph 7 translit]at$ z foll[s3       
teknia--tau1 epsilon1 kappa1 nu1 iota1  
alpha2 m\--mu1 omicron1 upsilon2        
ous--omicron1 upsilon1 f9al sigma2      
pal9--pi1 alpha1 lambda1 iota1 nu2      
me*ris--mu1 epsilon1 *1 rho1 iota1 f9al 
sigma2 ou--omicron1 upsilon2            
morpho!--mu1 omicron1 rho1 phi1 omega1  
!ta1 eta2 ,*ri/os--,*i1 rho1 iota1      
sigma1 tau1 omicron1 f9al sigma2        
en--epsilon1 nu2 hum9--7r\gh brea?+ m>k7
 upsilon1 mu1 iota1 nu  ,^! words sum up
 = me1 bett] ?an any o!rs1 my deepe/ wi%
 = my fri5ds4  ,i fall back ) desp]ate  
en]gy ^u pray]1 z ! "o p[] by :i* my wi%
 c be realis$4  ,y seem to look ahead   
almo/ m ?an is necess>y4  ,i delight 9 !
 feel+ t ,i am 9 et]nity1 t ,i c s]ve   

,god n[ fully & effectively1 t ! next   
piece ( ! road w come 9 sight :5 ,i am  
ready to walk on x ',i d n ask to see ! 
di/ant sc5e4'  ,i hate ! unsettl$ feel+ 
t ,i h n yet begun my ma9 "w4  ,don't   
measure "w by human /&>ds ( greatness4  
,y\r pres5t occupation might well be !  
envy ( angels--if !y c\ld envy4  ,b n[  
,i am lectur+4  ,s x is "t to %ut up4 4 
4 4  ,i fe> t ! orig9 ( evil is m ( a   
my/]y to me n[ ?an :5 ,i wrote t essay6 
,b ,i /ill ?9k t we are fight+ a real   
be+1 "o :om #agd we c be/ describe z    
p]sonal4  ,8 w1 x seems to me1 mu/ be   
giv5 to him by ,god4  ,he has id5tifi$ x
 ) a hi!rto unrealis$ pot5tiality =     
disob$i5ce4  ,9 pla9 language1 8 w is   
free1 & !re=e capable ( resi/+ ,god4  ,i
 %\ld l to h a talk ) y "s day ab\t x4  
,b1 z y see1 ! problem is beyond me4 4 4
 4  ,x is a /r5g? to me to feel t y are 
fight+ ! devil 9 y\rself & o!rs up 9    
----1 & t ,i am '"o man' ) y4    ,to ,d4
 ,b4 ,k4  ,/4 ,moritz3 ,janu>y #aijc4   
,x is gett+ on = y\r bir?day1 isn't x8  

,congratulations4  ,i wi% ,i knew !     
exact day4  ,i ?9k m & m t a bir?day is 
a subject n--z poor ,job ?\ght--=       
ana!mas1 b = congratulations4  ,to be a 
reasonable human be+--) capacity = see+ 
some?+ ( ,god's purposes = ! race--) p[]
 to =w>d !m--) opportunities = love &   
sacrifice & pray]--oh6  ,i am s glad t  
,i 0 n a m]e animal4  ,& to be born at !
 end ( ! n9ete5? c5tury--,i pref] t     
p]iod ev5 to ,apo/olic times4  ,we c "k 
m ( ,god's purposes1 ent] m deeply into 
,8 m9d & ev5 ,8 he>t1 ?an primitive     
,*ri/ians4  ,i h be5 read+ to-day       
,temple's essay on ',! ,education ( !   
,_w' 9 ',essays & ,reviews4'  ,get hold 
( an old copy ( t book1 & read x4  ,x is
 /rong & manly1 & r+s true4  ,i #age    
love t old man ) 8 t5d]ness1 simplicity1
 ?\ghtfulness1 & w ( /eel4  ,i ?ank ,god
 = him4  ,!re is some?+ ab\t utt]       
goodness :i* makes me wor%ip1 & fills me
 ) ! *all5ge1 ',g & d ?\ likewise4'     
,goodness is z infecti\s z any disease4 
,i h be5 ?9k+ lately ( ! self-sacrifice 

( ,god's life4  ,i suppose t is ! reason
 :y ,he c ent] into our lives--see !m f 
! inside4    ,?\ can/ conceive our      
highe/ & our l[e/1   ,pulses ( nobl5ess 
& a*es ( %ame4  ,x mu/ h be5 ! weal? (  
,8 self-sacrifice :i* made ,him give u  
selves--wills--( our own4  ,!n ,he makes
 !m ,8 own by m self-sacrifice4  ,we are
 made 9 ,8 image--made to g out ( self1 
& f9d our self by los+ x4  ,o!r m5 at   
fir/ seem to limit our fre$om1 b lat] we
 f9d t ! app>5t limitations are only j  
scope = realis+ our true self4  ,ea* "t 
we g out ( self1 & ent] into ano!r      
'ego1' we return ! ri*] = our sacrifice4
  ,we take up o!r lives into our own1 & 
are ri*] ?an a millionaire4  ,i ?9k t :5
 ! o!r 'ego' is mo/ unlike our own--:5  
at fir/ sight ! man is repulsive1 &     
7worse /ill7 un9t]e/+ to u--:5 !        
sacrifice is great1 if we w\ld see life 
?r\gh 8 eyes1 %>e 8 ambitions1 fe>s1    
long+s1 & m5tal outlook1 !n is ! "t :5  
we are peculi>ly rew>d$ = our pa9s4     
,our consci\sness is l>g]1 m human1 m   

div9e ?an be=e4  ',by feeble/ ag5ts do? 
our ,god fulfil ,8 #agf righte\s w' is !
 ?\ght sugge/$ by "s ( our bro!r-cl]gy4 
,god does n *oose ! ag5ts we %\ld *oose4
  ,or p]haps ! latt] d n respond to ,8  
*oice4  ,yet ,i feel t ,i am "o ( !m1 & 
t x is my faults writ l>ge :i* ,i dete/ 
9 !m4  ,i feel t1 ) all ! ri*es ( !     
revelation :i* ,i possess1 ,i h t same  
self-satisfaction & lack ( sympa?y :i*  
,i loa! 9 o!rs4  ,x is my life :i* is ! 
/umbl+-block to my message4  ,!y h (t5  
f> less light ?an ,i h1 b walk 9 x m    
simply ?an ,i d4  ,! raft] 9 my own eye 
tr\bles me ev5 m ?an ! speck 9 !irs4  ,b
 x is h>d1 ,god kn[s1 sometimes to feel 
,8 pres5ce 9 _! pres5ce4  ,b ! =ces (   
good mu/ be unit$ 7',keep1 ah6 keep !m  
comb9$4  ,else 4 4 4'71 & if by any ef=t
 we c ent] into _! lives1 & transc5d !  
b>ri]s betwe5 u1 we are n only enri*+   
our own life1 b we are do+ our be/ to %[
 a comb9$ front aga9/ ! almo/ ov]:elm+  
=ces ( evil4  ,ev5 ! ,apo/les mu/ h f\nd
 x h>d to "w toge!r4  ,we "k !y did4    

,look at ,pet] & ,paul4  ,yet ! _s (    
unity 0 /rong] ?an all t oppos$ ,him1 & 
! ,"o ,body 0 9 "s measure realis$4 ,:at
 0 difficult 9 ! *ildhood ( ! ,body is  
/ill m difficult 9 its manhood4  ,&     
,engli%m51 ) _! /rong s5se (            
individuality1 f9d x a t]rible lesson to
 le>n4  ,b pray4  ,y ent] !n into ano!r 
man's 'ego4'  ,y see him 9 ,god4 ,y see 
him z an end 9 himself4  ,rememb]       
,kant's maxim--a wond]ful maxim f "o :o 
w\ld n1 ,i suppose1 be #agg te*nically  
call$ a ,*ri/ian--',treat humanity1 :e!r
 9 ?yself or 9 ano!r1 always z an end1 n
 simply z a means4'  ,put aside a c]ta9 
am\nt ( "t1 & pray = "o man4  ,if y\r   
?\ghts w&]1 d n be di/urb$1 d n try to  
f9d :5 !y began or h[ !y began to w&]2 d
 n despair1 g back to ! subject 9 h&4   
,& ,god w h m]cy4  ,y\r influ5ce1 y\r   
life1 y\r all1 dep5ds on pray]4  ,we mu/
 fa9t sometimes4  ,b let y\r sadde/     
times1 y\r deepe/ /ruggles be kn[n to   
,god4  ,ga9 !re ! /r5g? & quietness :i* 
y ne$ = life4  ,b don't let m5 see !    

agony--let !m see ! peace :i* comes f   
wre/l+ alone ) ,god--wre/l+ = !m4  ,y   
are n "o man1 b two or ?ree4  ,?ank ,god
 = t4  ,x means t y w h a h>d life--an  
awful /ruggle ) self or selves3 b x also
 means m influ5ce1 m p[] to ent] into   
man's life4 ,s _m ( ! f9e/ m5 owe _!    
attractiv5ess to _! div]se1 _m-sid$     
nature4  ,y w be able to feel = su*1 &  
p]haps to help !m4  ,y are half a ,greek
 ) y\r ye>n+ = beauty & k1 half a       
,hebrew ) y\r loa?+ = s9 & love ( ,god4 
,! ,greek 9 y mu/ n be annihilat$1 b x  
mu/ be subord9at$ to ! ,hebrew4         
,consci5ce mu/ be absolute ma/]4  ,y mu/
 sacrifice ! ',greek' to ,*ri/2 b ,he w 
give y back :at is be/ 9 ! ,greek ideal1
 all ! bett] = ! m>k ( ! ,cross on x4   
,he w give x y back p>tly 9 ?is _w1     
p>tly 9 ! next1 :5 y h le>nt to r5\nce  
x--if ne$ #agh 71 = ev]--= ,8 sake4  ,b 
y mu/ give up all = ,him )\t ?\ght (    
rew>d4  ,he c give no rew>d to ! man :o 
is look+ = x4  ,! ?\ght ( y\r life helps
 me4  ,g on1 = ! night come? :5 no man c

 "w4  ,?ank ,god x is yet day4    ,to 8 
bro!r ,edw>d 9 ,s\? ,africa4  ,mhl51    
,switz]l&3 ,janu>y #aa1 #aijc4  ,i f\nd 
walk+ a pleasant *ange aft] read+       
philosophy1 :i* ,i h be5 do+ dur+ my    
holidays4  ,i seem to h be5 gett+ my    
ideas a little cle>]1 & am no long] z   
cont5t z ,i 0 ) ! ,kantian doctr9e1 t   
our k 9 speculative matt]s nev] gets    
beyond 'appe>ances4'  ,i feel t at e    
turn we d get to t :i* is--to an und]ly+
 reality4  ,i _c feel t ,kant's h>d &   
fa/ division betwe5 'speculative' &     
'moral' reason holds good4  ,! ext]nal  
_w1 because x is intelligible1 mu/ be   
ak9 to u2 !re mu/ be an intellig5ce 9 x1
 o!rwise x w\ld nev] become an object ( 
k to our intellig5ce4  ,x is n only 9   
our e?ical life t we come across !      
absolute consci\sness4  ,i feel n[ m ?an
 ev] h[ we _c divide up ourselves into  
wat]-tight comp>tm5ts1 & ?9k ( reason1  
w1 & feel+ z sep>ate ?+s1 ly+ side by   
side4  ,!y c be sep>at$--ab/ract$--9    
?\ght1 b 9 actual life y nev] f9d "o )\t

 ! o!r4  ,we _c ?9k )\t "s degree (     
att5tion1 & att5tion involves an ex]cise
 ( w1 & w _c #agi be ex]cis$ )\t desire1
 & desire involves feel+4  ,i ?9k fai?  
also _c be reg>d$ z a sep>ate faculty4  
,reason1 w1 & feel+ are all involv$ ev5 
9 ! fai? ( a poor cottag]2 mu* m does   
reason ent] into ! fai? ( a ?\ghtful    
man4  ,i h be5 read+ ,butl]1 & hope :5  
,i g back to /udy ,hume4  ,:at a weal? (
 light ! conception ( ',developm5t' has 
%$ ^u ! problems :i* ex]cis$ ! eighte5? 
c5tury6  ,i h read half ?r\gh ,leslie   
,/eph5's ',?\ght 9 ! ,eighte5? ,c5tury1'
 & ,i h be5 /ruck aga9 & aga9 at ! new  
aspect t ! old que/ions take :5 look$ at
 f ! /&po9t ( ,evolution4  ,i feel also 
t we ne$ to /udy m ! evolution (        
?\ght--! necess>y phases t reason 7l    
man's physical life7 mu/ pass ?r\gh be=e
 p]fection4 4 4 4  ,i ?9k y are "r1 t   
education mu/ n[ include in/ruction 9   
imp]ial ideas--9 our relations ) t l>g] 
social life :i* is dawn+ ^u u--a /ep    
t[>ds a /ill l>g] social life to be     

realis$ 9 ! bro!rhood ( nations4    ,to 
,f4 ,j4 ,c4  ,*ri/'s ,college1          
,cambridge3 ,febru>y #a1 #aijc4  ,i am  
sl[ to sugge/ to ano!r man t :at seems  
bad luck is 9 reality ! voice ( ,god    
mak+ itself felt 9 8 busy life1 call+   
him to full] sacrifice4  ,b ,i am sure t
 we are "r :5 we int]pret x #ahj ?us =  
ourselves4  ,i %>e y\r wi% = '"s really 
/rong man' to come z a prophet & read ! 
writ+ on ! wall1 & tell u ':at x all    
means4'  ,yet ! abs5ce ( human help is n
 accid5tal4 ,x mu/ be design$1 9 ord] t 
we may le>n to fall back on ! ev]la/+   
arms--to f9d by exp]i5ce t ! unse5 is m 
real ?an ! se54    ,!re is an arm t nev]
 tires   ,:5 human /r5g? gives way4  ,i 
l t phrase1 'wor?y to suff]4'  ,x is to 
^? :om ,god loves be/ & mo/ t ,he       
gives--z ,he gave to ,8 ,son--! *ance ( 
suff]+4  ,sympa?y1 /r5g?1 reality--^!   
are "s ( its fruits = ^? :o all[ !m to  
gr[4  ',he _c be ,my disciple4'  ,i c't 
help sometimes ?9k+ ( ^! words4  ,unless
 ! man is prep>$ to make sacrifice !    

basis ( 8 life1 he _c be ,*ri/'s        
disciple4  ,i don't ?9k we always       
realise ! 'trans-valuation ( values'    
f\nd 9 ,*ri/'s tea*+4  ',bless$ are !   
poor--! hungry4  ,he t w\ld save 8 life 
%all lose x4  ,he t lose?1 save?4  ,he t
 w\ld be greate/ %all be lea/4  ,x is m 
bless$ to give ?an to receive4' ,z ,i   
?9k ov] su* /atem5ts z ^!1 ,i f9d t ,i h
 aga9 & aga9 to revise1 z x 71 my moral 
ari?metic--to *ange my /&>ds1 to revise 
my ideas ( great & little1 happ9ess &   
mis]y1 importance & insignificance4  ,i 
am sure t no?+ b ! highe/ w satisfy y4  
,god has giv5 y s+ul> p[]s ( influ5ce & 
( attract+ o!rs4  ,he w dem& an acc\nt  
#aha ( ^? p[]s4  ,y "k ,mat!w ,arnold's 
l9es on 8 fa!r4  ,i believe ! day w come
 :5 m5 w say l words ( y4    ,b ?\      
w\ld'/ n alone   ,be sav$1 my fa!r6     
alone   ,conqu] & come to ?y goal1      
,leav+ ! re/ 9 ! wild4 4 4 4   ,!re=e to
 !e x 0 giv5   ,_m to save ) ?yself4  ,t
 is :at ,i want y to be--a t[] (        
/r5g?--/r5g? p]fect$1 x may be1 9       

weakness--weakness =c+ y to despair (   
self1 & f9d ! ,rock ( ,ages4  ,y h be5 s
 mu* to me1 & help$ me s (t51 t ,i feel 
y mu/ be born to help o!rs z well4  ,&  
?is quiet "t1 x may be t ,god is us+ x  
to call y clos] to ,himself1 to tea* y  
to revise y\r 'values1' to %[ y a new   
fund ( /r5g?4      ,our wills are ours1 
we "k n h[1   ,our wills are ours1 to   
make !m ,?9e4  ,y mu/--lit]ally mu/--let
 ,8 w ov]p[] y\r w4  ,no?+ b complete   
sacrifice w satisfy y or ,him1 & ,i     
believe 9 y pr(\ndly4  ,i am sure t1    
:atev] be ! gha/ly /ruggle1 y w g ?r\gh 
) x1 & f9d y\r /r5g? 9 ,him4  ,i pray = 
y4    ,to 8 "m4  ,cambridge2 ,m>* #ae1  
#aijc4  ,! t]m is almo/ ov] 4 4 4  ,i am
 enjoy+ a quiet ,sunday4  ,:at a bless+ 
^! ,sundays are #ahb to u--a =eta/e ( a 
full] life ( s]vice & wor%ip h]eaft]6   
,i h be5 ?9k+ lately ) com=t ( ! quiet  
p]petual "w ( ! ,holy ,_s1 sil5tly b    
surely lead+ u on to high] ?+s--com=t+1 
correct+1 guid+4  ,x gives gr\nd = hope 
9 deal+ ) m51 ?is k t !re is ,"o :o     

p]fects :at we feebly /ruggle to beg91  
:o wat*es ov] m5 ) a love t w n let !m  
g4  ,we are n alone 9 our "w2 we h      
omnipot5ce & illimitable wisdom on our  
side1 =w>d+ our ef=ts4  ,:5 ,i consid]  
:at ! ,_s has accompli%$ 9 my own life1 
,i h l>ge hope = o!rs4  ,! argum5t f    
p]sonal exp]i5ce is s+ul>ly conv9c+4    
',! fell[%ip ( ! ,holy ,gho/'--x is ,he 
:o unites m5 & int]prets !m "o to ! o!r4
  ,x is ,he :o gives _s & life to our   
words4    ,to ,h4 ,j4 ,b4  ,bexley      
,h\se1 ,crom]3 ,m>* #ca1 #aijc4  ,x 0   
good ( y to s5d me t c>d f ,flor5ce4  ,y
 don't "k h[ glad x made me4  ,to "k t y
 7 ?9k+ ( me 0 a /r5g? to me4  ,y\r love
 = me comes z a p]petual surprise &     
inspiration4 ,i feel a brute comp>$ ) y1
 b ! k t y c>e = me m ?an y d = mo/ m5  
makes me feel t ,i mu/ try to be good4  
',9 ,italy ( ! fifte5? c5tury r5aissance
 we see 9 /range confusion all t we love
 9 art1 & all t we loa! 9 man6'  ,greek 
hi/ory 0 %ort comp>$ #ahc ) ! ,hebrew3  
,i suppose because intellectual &       

arti/ic ideals are m easily realis$ ?an 
e?ical & religi\s4  ,x takes "t to make 
a sa9t4  ,x is "p ( ! discipl9e ( life  
to f9d ! two sets ( ideas app>5tly      
antagoni/ic4 ,!re is a high] unity 9 :i*
 !y are bl5d$--9 ,god ,himself4  ,x mu/ 
be "r to foll[ ! dictates ( consci5ce :5
 x bids u lose our s\l if we w\ld ga9 x4
  ,we _c tru/ ,god too mu*4  ,if we =get
 our self1 ,he w see t our true/ self is
 ultimately realis$4  ,i c't express    
myself well1 = ,i h j f9i%$ a spell (   
h>d "w4  ,i h s5t away my tripos pap]s  
to-night4  ,i am go+ up to ,ed9burgh on 
,friday or ,saturday4  ,i fe> ,i %all n 
see y until ,april #ba4  ,w y tell      
,armitage t ,i w1 if conv5i5t to him1   
sleep at ,we/m9/] t night in/ead ( go+  
/raight to ,cambridge8  ,! hopelessness 
( ev] %[+ my gratitude to y or ( ev]    
mak+ y realise h[ mu* ,i love y         
oppresses me4  ,i don't "k :at ,i %\ld d
 if ,i _h n ,"o ,high] ?an ,i am to     
confide 9--if ,i c\ld n leave y 9 ,8    
h&s--if ,i c\ld n ga9 /r5g? & life = y  

by appeal+ to ,him4    ,o bro!r1 if my  
fai? is va91     ,if hopes l ^! betray1 
,pray = me1 t ,i too may ga9     ,! sure
 & saf] way4    ,& ,?\1 ,o ,god1 by :om 
are se5     ,?y creatures z !y be1      
,=give me if too close ,i lean     ,my  
human he>t on ,!e6  #ahd ,i lean clos] &
 clos] z life goes on4  ,i feel t our   
hope lies 9 despair--despair ( self4  ,!
 vessels :i* conta9 ! treasure are1 z   
to-night's lesson says1 e>!n1 't !      
excess ( ! p[] may be ,god's & n f u4'  
,& !re is a p[]1 !re is a life work+ 9  
u4  ,x is ! quiet1 sane1 con/ant "w ( ! 
,_s 9 & ^u our _s1 t nev] ha/es & nev]  
tires3 :i* gives me com=t = y1 = myself1
 = all ( u4  ,! same life t is at "w 9 !
 h$ge across ! road is 9 u1 only 9 u x  
atta9s full self-consci\sness & fre$om4 
,we c delib]ately use x or refuse x4    
,=give ! l5g? ( ! lett]4  ,b ,i felt s  
tir$ t ,i ?\ght x w\ld d me good to     
write to y1 selfi% brute t ,i am4  ,i   
expect y enjoy$ y\r "t 9 ,italy         
imm5sely4  ,i %\ld h lik$ to be ) y4  ,i

 wond] if ev] we %all be !re toge!r8    
,"s day we %all be 9 a _w :]e ! b>ri]s (
 space are brok5 d[n3 ',!re %all be no m
 sea4'  ,yet x seems to me t we h n     
altoge!r to wait = t o!r _w4  ,!y are   
half brok5 d[n already2 & if we _h fai? 
z a gra9 ( mu/>d se$1 we %\ld realise ! 
mean+ ( a unity deep] ?an any special or
 temporal bond4 ,if we fail to realise  
its mean+ n[1 %all we realise x !n8  ,is
 n life "h a tra9+ = life h]eaft]8  ,if 
we le>n no?+ 9 ?is s*ool1 we %all n be  
able to take our places 9 t s*ool (     
'broad] love4'  ,! be/ "p 9 me does n   
compla94  ,i ?ank ,god = ,8 ?\ghtful    
goodness 9 br++ y ne> to me4  ,i ?ank   
,him = ! my/]y ( life1 :i* enables me to
 realise t #ahe ,p[] ':i* lives n 9 !   
light alone1 ,b 9 ! d>kness & ! light4' 
,i become m & m incl9$ to ?ank ,him z ,i
 see ,him m cle>ly4    ,to ,f4 ,s4 ,h4  
on 8 accept+ ! po/ ( *apla9 at ! ,royal 
,naval ,college1 ,osborne4  ,cambridge3 
,april #cj1 #aijc4  ,i am satisfi$ ) y\r
 decision4  ,i ?\ght ov] ! matt]1 b ,i  

c\ld n see my way q cle>ly to say any?+ 
m def9ite1 s ,i did n write aga94       
,don't ?9k t my sil5ce 0 due to         
slackness4 ,i did :at ,i ?\ght 0 bett]  
?an writ+4  ,i sp5t an h\r 9 pray+ ov] !
 matt]4  ,n[ t ! matt] is settl$ ,i c   
tell y :at a ke5 pleasure x is to me to 
h my de> old ---- ne> me 9 ,engl&1#a &  
do+ a piece ( "w :i* is full ( hope &   
joy4  ,i w\ld n say ?is be=e1 because ,i
 did n wi% to influ5ce y\r decision by  
private consid]ations4  ,get "s quiet "t
 = pray] be=e ,septemb] #a1 t :5 y g to 
,osborne y may g en pl]omati eulogias   
,*ri/\ 7'fill$ full ) ! bless+ (        
,*ri/'74  ,i feel increas+ly ! ne$ ( su*
 times to le>n to walk by fai? )\t      
/umbl+1 & to accu/om myself to !        
atmosph]e ( fai?1 to see ?+s z !y appe> 
to a man :o has fai? 'z a gra9 ( mu/>d  
se$4'  ,transcrib]'s note3 ,! ,greek    
phrases 9 ! above p>agraph 7            
translit]at$ z foll[s3 en--epsilon1 nu2 
pl]omati--pi1 lambda1 eta1 rho1 omega1  
mu1 alpha1 tau1 iota2 eulogias--epsilon1

 upsilon1 lambda1 omicron1 gamma1 iota1 
alpha1 f9al sigma2 ,*ri/\--,*i1 rho1    
iota1 sigma1 tau1 omicron1 upsilon      
,we/cott records a visit 7see ',life1'  
i4 #bdi7 to 8 old s*oolma/]1 ,bi%op     
,pr9ce ,lee4  ',p quote v>i\s words ( ! 
,"l1 said ! ,bi%op1 z conta9+ ! sum ( ! 
,gospel--! ,"l's ,pray]1 #ahf ! ,s]mon  
on ! ,m\nt1 & ! l2 to me ! ess5ce ( !   
,gospel is 9 simpl] & %ort] t]ms3 me    
phob\1 monon pi/eue4#b  ,ah6 ,we/cott1  
m>k t monon1 & 8 eyes 7 fill$ ) te>s z  
he spoke4'  ,ah6  ,s----1 m>k t monon6 4
 4 4  ,god bless y 9 y\r new "w & make y
 a bless+ to o!rs z y h be5 to me4  #a  
,he _h be5 (f]$ "w 9 ,s\? ,africa4  #b  
',be n afraid1 only believe4'           
,transcrib]'s note3 ,! ,greek phrases 9 
! above p>agraph 7 translit]at$ z       
foll[s3 me--mu1 eta2 phob\--phi1        
omicron1 beta1 omicron1 upsilon2        
monon--mu1 omicron1 nu1 omicron1 nu2    
pi/eue--pi1 iota1 sigma1 tau1 epsilon1  
upsilon1 epsilon    ,to ,j4 ,k4  ,/4    
,?omas's ,home1 ,/4 ,?omas's ,hospital3 

,augu/ #bh1 #aijc4  4 4 4  ,i am mo/    
grateful = y\r k9d words1 ?\gh ,i "k    
full well h[ little x is t ,i h done =  
y4  ,we cl]gym5 s (t5 seem to be work+ 9
 ! d>k4  ,!re are no cle> results to %[1
 z e4g4 a doctor c com=t himself )1 :5  
he has visibly cur$ a pati5t4 ,& ,i = "o
 am too easily incl9$ to despair1 & to  
wond] :e!r ! "w is n 9 va94  ,b 'tru/ is
 tru] ?an our fe>s4'  ,yet x does me    
good :5 ,i feel ,i h done any?+1 h[ev]  
t9y1 = a man4 ,aft] all1 results are be/
 left 9 ,god's h&4  ,he gives u en\gh to
 help u ! next /ep onw>d1 b n en\gh to  
exalt u1 & to make u ?9k we c d any?+   
)\t ,8 assi/ance4  ,"w '9 ! ,"l' _c be 9
 va94  ,i am glad y h be5 read+ ,bi%op  
,we/cott's life4  ,he 0 a man ( ,god1 & 
8 life is an inspiration1 & a prophecy (
 :at our life may--nay1 "s day--w be4 4 
4 4  ,i l t passage #ahg :5 he goes to  
see 8 old s*oolma/]1 ,bi%op ,pr9ce ,lee1
 :o tells him ) te>s 9 8 eyes t to 8 m9d
 ! :ole ,gospel message is summ$ up 9 ! 
words 'me phob\1 monon pi/eue4'         

,transcrib]'s note3 see ! previ\s lett] 
= translit]ation notes on ! above ,greek
 phrase4    ,to a fri5d :o _h be5 an    
int]national a?lete4  ,/4 ,?omas's      
,home3 ,septemb] #e1 #aijc4  ,we _h a   
fairly good ',long' 9 spite ( ! mis]able
 wea!r4 ,congratulate me4  ,i won my    
fir/ a?letic di/9ction la/ ',long'--a   
t5-%ill+ prize4  ,i am ?9k+ ( *uck+ "w &
 becom+ a pr(essional4  ,x 0 a second   
prize 9 a t5nis t\rnam5t4  ,i _h 7,i mu/
 own7 ! be/ play] 9 ,college z my p>tn]4
  ,i want to get a v conspicu\s object z
 prize4  ,:at d y sugge/8    ,to ,c4 ,t4
 ,w4  ,/4 ,?omas's ,hospital3 ,septemb] 
#aijc4  ,i am gett+ on fir/-rate1 & ,i  
hope to be up e>ly next week4  ,i       
believe y are "r4  ,we %\ld d well if we
 _h m regul>ity & self-discipl9e 9 our  
life at ,cambridge1 & we %\ld h m p[]   
ov] o!rs4  ,pray = me4 4 4 4  ,y ne$n't 
pity me4  ,i am hav+ a v good "t4  ,x is
 jolly to d no?+1 & n ev5 to h to dress 
& undress--bo? exhau/+ & monoton\s      
occupations4  ,x has be5 a glori\s day1 

& al?\gh x is almo/ #g ,p4,m41 ,i am    
/ill out on ! balcony enjoy+ ! cool     
breezes4    #ahh  ,to ,w4 ,o4  ,alassio2
 ,decemb] #aijc4  ,dea? has come ne> to 
my family lately4  ,i told y t my       
si/]--! ,deaconess--_h pass$ away f u4#a
  ,x is n all sorr[1 :5 we "k t ! life  
has be5 sp5t 9 walk+ ) ,god1 :5 we "k t 
?is corruptible puts on incorruption1 & 
t :at is s[n 9 int5se bodily weakness is
 rais$ 9 /r5g?--et]nal /r5g?4  ,i am s  
glad t ,god has giv5 to y ,8 highe/     
bless+4  ,i long to meet y\r future     
wife4  ,x makes me v happy to ?9k ( !   
happ9ess 9 /ore = y--to "k t y are 9 !  
be/ ( all s*ools4  ,i ?ank ,god4  ,love 
w br+ y bo? ne>] to ! s\rce ( ,love4 4 4
 4 ,?is new bless+1 z y say1 is '! ga!r+
 up ( ! be/ t ,god gives4'  ,i c't      
express my ?\ghts z ,i w\ld1 b ,i am v1 
v glad4 4 4 4  ,illness tea*es "o _m    
lessons4  ,i tru/ ,i h le>n$ "s4  ,i h  
be5 amaz$ at ! goodness ( my fri5ds6  #a
 ,8 si/]1 ,deaconess ,cecilia1 'pass$   
away' at ! ,dean]y1 ,we/m9/]1 on        

,septemb] #h4    ,to ,w4 ,p41 an (fic] 9
 ! ,army4  ,hotel ,salisbury1 ,alassio1 
,italy3 ,decemb] #ba1 #aijc4  ,i don't  
?9k ?+s happ5 by *ance4  ,inde$ ,i am   
sure !y d n4  ,i h nev] felt s humbl$ to
 ! e>?4  ,"o sees "o's life z a :ole1 :5
 "o is helpless & c d no?+1 & ! :ole    
looks v poor & mean4  ,x is l ! #ahi    
judgm5t-day--only ) ?is gr& exception1 t
 life is n yet ov]1 t ! night has n yet 
come 9 :i* 'no man c "w1' t y h /ill a  
*ance to make ! future bett]1 m hone/1 m
 noble ?an ! pa/4  ,!n1 aga91 ,i le>nt !
 utt] & wond]ful k9dness ( my fri5ds4   
,i felt s selfi% & s surpris$ at !      
goodness !y %[$ me4  ,aga91 ,i saw      
some?+ ( ! my/]y ( pa94  ,my own 0 s    
trivial comp>$ ) t :i* "s o!rs _h to    
be>4  ,yet ,i _h en\gh to />tle me t su*
 a fact %\ld be p]mitt$ on e>? at all4  
,i don't suppose we c und]/& its mean+2 
b my consolation 0 t x is n necess>ily a
 sign ( ,god's displeasure--t ! highe/  
life 0 a life ( suff]+1 t ! ,son ( ,man 
0 a ',man ( ,sorr[s4'  ,ev]y?+ seems to 

me to dep5d ^u ! way 9 :i* "o takes !   
pa9--if "o volunt>ily says1 ',?y k+dom  
come1 ,?y w be done1' !n "o is ent]+    
into ! highe/ life1 & ! pa9 becomes a   
new me?od ( s]v+ & kn[+ ,god4  ,b       
physical pa91 if prolong$1 is a t]rible 
?+2 & !re is no "t on a b$ ( sickness = 
pray+ or ?9k+ mu* ( ,god unless "o is   
accu/om$ to d s 9 heal?4  ,! ne$s ( !   
poor body press 9 ^u "o4  ,dea?-b$      
rep5tances are realities1 b ,i am incl9$
 to ?9k t !y are v r>e4  ,x is t]ribly  
dang]\s to def] be+ good until we are   
ill4  ,illness does n necess>ily make u 
good4  ,i am afraid ,i 0 b a poor c[>d1 
& yet my fai? did n utt]ly fail4  ,god  
is ! "o hope = a man :o is ill1 & ,he is
 true to ,8 ^w4  ,he #aij hides ,8 face 
beh9d ! cl\ds2 b ev5 :5 ,i c\ldn't see  
,him at all1 ,i felt t ,he 0 !re4  ,pray
 = me2 at pres5t ,i feel too weak to    
pray mu* = myself4  ,i want--,i d       
want--to be a bett] man1 to help o!rs   
ne>] ! k+dom4  ,i want1 :5 life is ov]1 
to h a bett] record to look back ^u ?an 

,i _h 9 hospital4    ,to ,f4 ,s4 ,h4    
,alassio1 ,italy2 ,janu>y #b1 #aijd4    
,y\r lett] came to me at a "t :5 ,i 0 r 
l[4  ,i _h to h a second op]ation4      
,h[ev]1 aft] fifte5 weeks ( ,nurs+      
,homes ,i escap$1 &1 z soon z ,i c\ld1  
made my way to ,/4 ,moritz4  ,= once !  
place didn't seem to suit me v well4    
,s1 aft] little m ?an a week1 ,i came   
d[n into ,italy4  ,i am s f> recov]$ n[ 
t ,i q hope to be able to g back to     
college at ! beg9n+ ( ?is t]m4  ,illness
 & pa9 h taught me "s lessons--at lea/  
,i hope s4  ,i feel solemnis$1 />tl$1 :5
 ,i ?9k ( h[ life look$ :5 ,i c\ld d    
no?+ = ! "t4  ,pray = me t ,i may be m  
real4  ,i le>nt1 too1 h[ futile x is to 
put (f rep5tance till sickness4  ,x is  
h>d at su* a "t to ?9k ( aught save self
 & physical pa94  ,& my own pa9 0 s     
trivial comp>$ ) t ( o!rs4  ,o ,god6 x  
is a t]rible ?+4  ,"s day %all we be    
able to und]/&1 if n ) ! head1 ) ! he>t1
 "p ( its mean+8  ,mean:ile ! individual
 c say1 h[ev] feebly1 ',?y k+dom come1  

,?y w be done4'  #aia  ,to 8 bro!r1 a   
doctor 9 ,s\? ,africa4  ,alassio1       
,italy3 ,janu>y #g1 #aijd4  ,at la/ ,i  
am beg9n+ to get tir$ ( do+ no?+4  ,i   
hope t ev5tually ,i %all be /rong] ?an  
,i h be5 = "s ye>s pa/4  ,at any rate ,i
 hope a little fir/-h& exp]i5ce ( pa9 w 
make me m sympa!tic4  ,pa9 seems to me  
n[ a great] my/]y ?an ev] be=e4 ,b ,i   
com=t$ myself ) ! ?\ght t 9 ! highe/    
,life ev] se5 on e>?1 !re 0 a full      
measure ( spiritual1 m5tal1 & physical  
pa94  ,also x 0 a com=t to feel t :5 "o 
accept$1 n simply ) resignation b )     
fai?1 c]ta9 suff]+1 "o 0 9 sympa?y ) ! w
 ( ! univ]se1 'work+ toge!r ) ,god' 9 "s
 my/]i\s way4  ,:at a /range place a    
hospital is6  ,h[ wond]ful ! ,gospels   
are1 ) _! hope & com=t on e page--hope =
 ! physical z well z ! m5tal side (     
man's life6  ,i l m ?an ev] n[ to read  
h[ ,jesus w5t ab\t heal+ all mann] (    
diseases & all mann] ( sickness & br++  
life & /r5g? :]ev] ,he came1 %[+ u t    
,heav5 is on our side 9 our wre/le ) all

 t de=ms & degrades human nature4  ,i   
c]ta9ly don't regret my illness4        
,besides %[+ me ! m>vell\s k9dness (    
fri5ds1 x has1 ,i hope1 taught me mu*4  
#aic  ,,app5dix  ,! foll[+ lett]        
address$ to ! ,editor ( ?is volume 0    
receiv$ f ! ,rev4 ,h4 ,bissek]1 *apla9  
at ! ,leys ,s*ool1 ,cambridge1 too late 
= ins]tion 9 an e>li] portion ( ! book3 
',y\r bro!r's fri5d%ip1 z y mu/ h he>d s
 (t5 dur+ ! pa/ few mon?s1 0 valu$ 9    
,cambridge beyond t ( mo/ m51 & ,i am   
probably only "o ( _m :o /ill look to t 
fri5d%ip z among ! prom95t facts ( _! "t
 up "h4  ,?\gh p]sonally ,i did n le>n  
to "k ,mr4 ,rob9son :5 ,i fir/ came up1 
8 bro!rl9ess s deeply impress$ me dur+ !
 f\r ye>s = :i* our fri5d%ip la/$1 t ,i 
/ill f9d x difficult to believe t he is 
no long] to be f\nd 9 ! famili> rooms at
 ,*ri/'s1 & has ceas$ to be a "p ( our  
,cambridge life4  ,& yet1 9 ano!r s5se1 
he has n ceas$ to be a "p ( t life2 = "o
 feels t dur+ 8 resid5ce up "h he       
manag$1 if "o may s express x1 to put a 

bit ( himself into m ?an "o man1 & t 9  
?is way he w cont9ue to live among u    
long aft] he himself has be5 remov$4    
#aid ',i h (t5 ?\ght ab\t him & 8 quiet1
 /rong influ5ce s9ce we he>d t we _h lo/
 him1 & almo/ inv>iably ! same ?ree ( 8 
*>act]i/ics assume ! upp]mo/ place 9 my 
?\ght4 ,diff]5t sides ( 8 nature w\ld   
appeal to diff]5t m53 ,i c be/ s]ve y\r 
purpose by m5tion+ ^? :i* made ! deepe/ 
impression on my own m9d4  ',"o ( ! *ief
 causes ( y\r bro!r's influ5ce 0        
unque/ionably 8 s5se ( ! value ( !      
individual4  ,he us$ to take m5 "o by "o
 & make a sep>ate /udy ( ea*4  ,!       
consequ5ce 0 t he knew 8 m54  ,on any   
giv5 visit ! acqua9tance did n1 z x 71 h
 to be begun ov] aga94  ,on ! contr>y1 !
 acqua9tance once =m$1 "s common gr\nd  
already exi/$2 = s great 0 y\r bro!r's  
p[] ( sympa?y t1 :]e at ! fir/ no su*   
common gr\nd appe>$ to exi/1 he soon    
le>nt to f9d a /&+-place himself on t   
assum$ by ! man he 0 seek+ to "k4  ,& n 
only did ,mr4 ,rob9son possess ?is p[] (

 valu+ ! individual1 b he also 0 able to
 inspire ! objects ( 8 influ5ce ) ! k ( 
8 p>ticul> int]e/ 9 !m4  ,?us !y soon   
dropp$ ! idea ( acqua9tance%ip1 & began 
to ?9k ( him z fri5d1 & !re y h 9 a ^w !
 secret ( 8 wide influ5ce4  ,he 0       
int]e/$ 9 m51 b :at he lov$ 0 a man4    
',mr4 ,rob9son 0 no less m>k$ (f f !    
majority ( m5 by ! /ress :i* he laid ^u 
! reality & p[] ( pray]4  ,we us$ f "t  
to "t to h long talks toge!r on ?is     
subject1 s #aie t ,i c speak ) "s little
 k ( ! place :i* he assign$ x 9 8 life4 
,) *>act]i/ic mode/y he n infrequ5tly   
di/ru/$ himself 9 8 active contact ) m54
  ,8 v anxiety to help o!rs t[>ds !     
ideals by :i* 8 own life 0 dom9at$ l$   
him to see ! risk ( plac+ h9drances 9 _!
 way by an injudici\s intrusion into !  
secret places ( _! he>ts4 ,drawn 9      
diff]5t directions1 !re=e1 by 8         
passionate desire to w9 m5 = ,*ri/ & 8  
cauti\s fe> le/ untimely words ( 8 %\ld 
h9d] r ?an help1 he f\nd refuge 9 giv+  
himself up to e>ne/ pray] on _! behalf4 

,& pray] to him meant m ?an a light     
repetition ( words4  ,he us$ (t51 ,i    
believe1 to sp5d z long z half an h\r at
 a "t 9 seek+ bless+ = a s+le man4  ,we 
_c d\bt t1 9 ! /rong influ5ce :i* he    
himself ex]t$ ^u s _m ( ^? :o knew him1 
su* p]si/5t pray] receiv$ at lea/ a "p (
 its own answ]4  ',! la/ elem5t 9 y\r   
bro!r's individuality :i* always        
impress$ me 0 8 re/ra9$1 b g5u9e1       
my/icism4  ,9 ! few acc\nts ( 8 life t  
,i h read ,i d n rememb] any allusion to
 ?is *>act]i/ic4  ,t he possess$ x1     
h[ev]1 & ?is to no usual degree1 seems  
to my m9d q pat5t2 9 fact1 x 0 ?is      
sugge/ion ( my/icism t fir/ attract$ me 
to him4  ,! my/icism "o sees ar\nd "o is
 (t5 s unregulat$ & s ignorant t x 0    
refre%+ to f9d a my/ic :o 0 also an     
enlight5$ s*ol> & ?9k]4  ,x confirm$ !  
feel+1 in/9ctive 9 "o's he>t1 t1 despite
 ! abuse ( c>icature1 a deep1 intellig5t
 #aif appreh5sion ( unse5 realities is (
 ! ess5ce ( ! fulness ( religion4  ,mr4 
,=bes ,rob9son appe>$ to possess an     

unusually c]ta9 cognisance ( ! unse5 _w4
  ,h[ well ,i rememb] ! way 9 :i*1 aga9 
& aga91 tea ov] & our pipes light$1 he  
w\ld curl himself up 9 "o ( 8 or my own 
big *airs & discuss que/ions ( int]e/ to
 u bo? ) a f>-away look 9 8 eyes        
altoge!r sugge/ive ( a g5u9e            
o!rworldl9ess6  ,& ?is famili>ity )     
unse5 v]ities seem$ to run ?r\gh all ^? 
p>ts ( 8 life ) :i* ,i 0 acqua9t$1 &    
inde$ to be to him ! mo/ real fact ( all
 exi/5ce4  ,to use ! simple language (  
old5 days1 ,i believe t he walk$ ) ,god3
 & t expla9s 8 life4  ',^!1 !n1 7 ! ?ree
 *>act]i/ics ( y\r bro!r :i* m ?an any  
o!rs h impress$ !mselves ^u my m9d4  ,i 
d n ?9k t !y 7 ?ree sep>ate sides ( 8   
p]sonality3 ,i %\ld say1 r1 t !y 7 ?ree 
diff]5t expressions ( "o fundam5tal     
attribute4  ,x 0 because he walk$ s     
closely ) ,god t he s lov$ ! individual 
sons ( ,god4  ,x 0 because he s lov$ !  
,great ,fa!r & ea* *ild ( ,8 t he _h s  
/rong a fai? 9 ! p[] ( pray] & su*      
unwe>y+ pati5ce to p]si/ 9 x4  ',a life 

l y\r bro!r's1 if ,i may say "o ?+ m1   
=ms1 ,i sometimes ?9k1 "o ( ! /ronge/   
pl$ges ( human immortality4  ,9 "o s5se1
 x is true1 he seems to h done s mu*2 & 
yet1 9 ano!r s5se1 ^? ( u :o knew !     
faculties :i* he _h cultivat$1 8 k &    
pati5t #aig s*ol>%ip1 8 sympa?y &       
insight1 8 tact & passion = m51 &1 mo/  
preci\s ( all1 8 p[] ) ,god1 7 look+ =  
ev5 great] ?+s 9 ye>s to come4  ,su*    
fitness = influ5ce z he possess$ is n   
acquir$ 9 a day1 & j :5 its wor? 0 be+  
prov$ he 0 tak5 f u4 ,surely ^! gifts & 
graces are n n[ z if !y _h nev] be51 or 
z if1 once grant$1 !y _h be5 idly wa/$6 
,c t e>ne/1 pati5t cultivation really h 
be5 gratuit\s1 & ! unselfi% in/9ct t    
inspir$ x mi/ak58  ,7 x s1 ! :ole       
univ]se looks out ( jo9t4  ,! m ,i      
consid] su* lives z t ( y\r             
bro!r--lives1 ,i mean1 :i*1 be>+ promise
 ( s ri* a h>ve/1 are yet cut (f be=e ! 
full h>ve/ c possibly h be5 realis$--! m
 my conviction gr[s t ! pass+ ( su* m5 z
 he is n dea?1 b only ! bir? :i* we call

 dea?4'     #aii  ,,index               
,an?ropomorphism 9 ! ,o4,t41 #ace       
,av]age man1 !1 #dc     ,beauty1        
natural1 #aec1 #aef sq4   ,beauty1 orig9
 ( p]sonal1 #gh-ha   ,bo]s1 religion (  
!1 #aaj sq4   ,bo] w>1 !1 #afb sq4      
,*ri/mas1 mean+ (1 #aec   ,*ri/'s       
,college ,magaz9e1 extract f1 #aj       
,cl\gh1 quotation f1 #afd   ,communion (
 sa9ts1 #fi   ,cont9uity ( "w1 #ajf sq4 
,cornwall1 op5-air prea*+ 91 #be        
,criticism ( ,o4,t41 #ed1 #acf sq4      
,daily s]vice1 repetition (1 #ei        
,et]nity1 life 9 ! light (1 #afd        
,fai?1 function (1 #abj   ,fitzpatrick1 
,rev4 ,t4 ,c41 sket* by1 #cf-db         
,fri5d%ip1 p]man5t "* (1 #hd            
,fri5d%ip1 !1 ( ,*ri/1 #hi sq4   ,future
 life1 !1 #fi1 #aag sq41 #abe1 #adi1    
#aej sq4     ,gordon1 ,g5]al1 9 ,s4     
,africa1 #aaf sq4     ,hebrew & ,greek  
ideals1 #aff sq41 #ahc   ,holy ,_s1 "w (
 !1 #ahb1 #ahd   ,home life1            
significance (1 #fj1 #gg sq41 #hd1 #aaj1
 #aah1 #aei   ,hum\r1 s5se (1 #dg sq4   

,inc>nation1 results ( 8 belief 91 #de  
,influ5ce ^u o!rs1 #ge     ,james1 ,dr41
 sket* by1 #g sqq4     ,kant1 philosophy
 (1 #agf1 #agh   ,kitt]ma/]1 ,rev4 ,d4  
,b41 sket* by1 #db-ec   ,krug]1 int]view
 )1 #aab     ,law z reveal$ to ! ,jews1 
#fc sqq4   ,lett]-writ]1 ,/4 ,paul a1   
#hb   ,lett]s--   ,h4 ,j4 ,b41 #aea1    
#afd1 #aff1 #ahb   ,w4 ,a4 ,b41 #fj1    
#gd1 #gg1 #hf1 #aac   ,f4 ,j4 ,c41 #abi1
 #aca1 #acd1 #aec1 #agi   ,g4 ,j4 ,c41  
#abb1 #abc1 #aeh   ,j4 ,l4 ,d41 #ia1    
#ic1 #ie1 #aji   ,g4 ,f41 #ajd   ,a4 ,w4
 ,g41 #fi   ,f4 ,s4 ,h41 #ajb1 #ajc1    
#aje1 #ajf1 #aai1 #acb1 #acf1 #aci1     
#ahe1 #ahg1 #aij   ,j4 ,c4 ,h41 #aag    
,w4 ,d4 ,h41 #abg1 #afb   ,d4 ,b4 ,k41  
#adh1 #aei1 #agb1 #agd   ,j4 ,k41 #ajh1 
#ahf   ,e4 ,n4 ,l41 #eh1 #fh   ,t4 ,h4  
,m41 #ee1 #ef1 #eg1 #gf1 #ajj   ,w4 ,o41
 #adc1 #ahh   ,h4 ,p41 #ade1 #aga   ,w4 
,p41 #ahh   ,a4 ,v4 ,r41 #ed   ,d4 ,d4  
,r41 #fc1 #hh1 #ih   ,c4 ,n4 ,w41 #abj  
,c4 ,t4 ,w41 #ajg1 #aaa1 #abf1 #abg1    
#ahg   ,anonym\s1 #aad1 #abe1 #adf1     

#adi1 #afb   ,to a fri5d at ,cambridge1 
#aed1 #afg   ,to 8 bro!r ,edw>d 9 ,s4   
,africa1 #acg1 #aef1 #aga1 #agh   ,to 8 
bro!r1 a doctor 9 ,s4 ,africa1 #abh1    
#ace1 #aia   ,to 8 "m1 #aaf1 #aha   ,to 
! "m ( 8 god*ild1 ,m4 ,f41 #aaj1 #aah1  
#afe   ,life1 zoe z us$ 9 ,/4 ,john1 #ee
   ,life1 ! ,div9e1 manife/$1 #aja sq4  
,love1 81 = 8 fri5ds1 #de sq41 #ej1     
#aed1 #ahb   ,love1 mean+ & scope (1    
#gc1 #gf1 #aac sq41 #abd1 #adb   ,love1 
! action ( ! ,div9e1 #adb     ,motto1   
family1 #a4     ,national life1         
significance (1 #ff   ,natural beauty1  
et]nal1 #aje   ,naval (fic]s1 life (1   
#aci sq4     ,ord9ation1 lett]s to      
c&idates =1 #eh1 #abg sq41 #adf1 #afb   
,pa91 my/]y (1 #ahi1 #aia   ,p>ties 9 ! 
,*ur*1 #aji   ,p]son1 ,god reveal$ z a1 
#ga sq41 #ge   ,pray]1 8 habit (        
int]cessory1 #bi1 #dj1 #ea1 #abc1 #ach1 
#aea1       #aed1 #afg sq41 #agc1 #ahe  
,pray]1 ne$ (1 #ie1 #ig1 #abi-acb1 #afj 
sq41 #afb1 #agg   ,provid5ce reveal$ 9  
life ( individuals1 #aba     ,sacram5ts1

 !1 _! significance1 #gf sq41 #hj       
,sa9ts1 call$ to be1 #if1 #adi sq4      
,s*oolma/]1 ! "w ( a1 #hf sq41 #ade sq41
 #aeh   ,selfi%ness1 t5d5cy (1 #ib sq4  
,self-sacrifice1 #aff1 #agj             
,self-sacrifice ( ,god1 #age            
,simplicity ( ! ,div9e nature1 #eg      
,suff]+1 a pro( ( ! ,div9e love1 #afe   
sq41 #ahj   ,sunday ev5+ 'at homes1' #ci
 sq4   ,sympa?y1 mean+ & ne$ (1 #ia sq41
 #ajf1 #adj1 #aga1 #age-g   ,sympa?y1   
sil5t1 #bc sq4     ,tancock1 ,dr41      
impressions ( ,f4 ,r41 #c sq4           
,temptations ( ,*ri/1 #add   ,?ack]ay's 
novels1 #ajc sq4   ,?9k1 attempts to    
tea* m5 to1 #ab   ,t(t1 "w at1 #be sq4  
,tol]ation1 #bf sq4   ,tr9ity1          
significance ( doctr9e (1 #ga1 #ge      
,unity ( all m5 9 ,god1 #gj     ,walk f 
,london to ,cambridge1 #ai sq4          
,wor%ip1 public1 #abb