,a ,,n>rative ,,( ,,"s ,,( ,,! ,,"l',s ,,deal+s ,,) ,,george ,m,ue,l,l,e,r ,,writt5 ,,by ,,himself ,,fir/ ,,"p ,,n9? ,,edition ,j4 ,,nisbet ,,co41 ,,b]n]s ,,/reet1 ,,london4 ,,to ,,be ,,also ,,_h ,,9 ,,bri/ol1 ,,at ,,! ,,bible ,,& ,,tract ,,w>eh\se ,,( ,,! ,,scriptural ,,k ,,in/itution ,,= ,,home ,,& ,,abroad1 ,no4 #gh ,,p>k ,,/reet1 ,,& ,,?r\gh ,,all ,,booksell]s4 #ahfe ,ent]$ at ,/ation]s' ,hall4 ,,london3 ,,dryd5 ,,press3 ,j4 ,,davy ,,& ,,sons1 #acg1 ,,long ,,acre4 ,,preface ,,to ,,! ,,fir/ ,,edition ,,( ,,! ,,fir/ ,,"p4 ,x 0 only aft] ! consid]ation ( _m mon?s1 & aft] mu* self-exam9ation z to my motives1 & aft] mu* e>ne/ pray]1 t ,i came to ! conclusion to write ?is little "w4 ,i h n tak5 "o s+le /ep 9 ! ,"l's s]vice1 conc]n+ :i* ,i h pray$ s mu*4 ,my great dislike to increas+ ! numb] ( religi\s books w\ld1 9 itself1 h be5 suffici5t to h kept me = ev] f x1 _h ,i n *]i%$ ! hope ( be+ in/rum5tal 9 ?is way to lead "s ( my bre?r5 to value ! ,holy ,scriptures m1 & to judge by ! /&>d ( ! ^w ( ,god ! pr9ciples on :i* !y act4 ,b t :i* weigh$ m ) me ?an any ?+ 01 t ,i h reason to believe f :at ,i h se5 among ! *ildr5 ( ,god1 t _m ( _! trials arise1 ei!r f want ( confid5ce 9 ! ,"l z x reg>ds temporal ?+s1 or f c>ry+ on _! bus9ess 9 an unscriptural way4 ,on acc\nt1 !re=e1 ( ! rem>kable way 9 :i* ! ,"l has dealt ) me 9 temporal ?+s1 )9 ! la/ t5 ye>s1 ,i feel t ,i am a debtor to ! ,*ur* ( ,*ri/1 & t ,i ought1 = ! b5efit ( my poor] bre?r5 especially1 to make kn[n1 z mu* z ,i c1 ! way 9 :i* ,i h be5 l$4 ,9 addition to ?is1 ,i "k x to be a fact1 t to _m s\ls ! ,"l has bless$ :at ,i h told !m ab\t ! way 9 :i* ,he has l$ me1 & !re=e x seem$ to me a duty to use su* means1 :]eby o!rs also1 ) :om ,i c\ld n possibly conv]se1 might be b5efit$4 ,t :i* at la/1 on ,may #f1 #ahcf1 induc$ me f9ally to det]m9e to write ?is ,n>rative 01 t1 if ! ,"l %\ld p]mit ! book to sell1 ,i might1 by ! pr(its aris+ f ! sale1 be enabl$ 9 a great] degree to help ! poor bre?r5 & si/]s among :om ,i lab\r1 a matt] :i* j at t "t weigh$ mu* on my m9d4 ,i !re=e at la/ began to write4 ,b aft] ?ree days ,i 0 oblig$ to lay ! "w aga9 aside1 on acc\nt ( my o!r press+ engagem5ts4 ,on ,may #ae? ,i 0 laid aside on acc\nt ( an abscess & n[ be+ unable1 = _m weeks1 to walk ab\t z usual1 ?\gh able to "w at home1 ,i _h "t = writ+4 ,:5 ! manuscript 0 ne>ly complet$1 ,i gave x to a bro!r to look x ov]1 t ,i might h 8 judgm5t2 & ! ,"l s refre%$ 8 _s ?r\gh x1 t he (f]$ to advance ! means = hav+ x pr9t$1 ) ! und]/&+ t if ! book %\ld n sell1 he w\ld nev] consid] me 8 debtor4 ,by ?is (f] n a small ob/acle 0 remov$1 z ,i h no means ( my own to defray ! exp5se ( pr9t+4 ,^! two la/ circum/ances1 connect$ ) _m o!r po9ts1 confirm$ me t ,i _h n be5 mi/ak51 :5 ,i came to ! conclusion t x 0 ! w ( ,god1 t ,i %\ld s]ve ,8 *ur* 9 ?is way4 ,! fact ( my be+ a =eign]1 & !re=e b v imp]fectly acqua9t$ ) ! ,engli% language1 ,i judg$ to be no suffici5t reason = keep+ me f writ+4 ,! ,*ri/ian read] be+ acqua9t$ ) ?is fact1 w c&idly excuse any inaccuracy ( expression4 ,= ! poor among ! bre?r5 ?is ,n>rative is especially int5d$1 & to _! pray]s ,i comm5d x 9 p>ticul>4 ,,george ,m,ue,l,l,e,r4 ,bri/ol1 ,july #e1 #ahcg4 ,,extract ,,f ,,! ,,preface ,,to ,,! ,,second ,,edition ,,( ,,! ,,fir/ ,,"p ,z to ?is second edition ,i w\ld m5tion1 t1 :ile 9 sub/ance x is ! same z ! fir/1 yet1 on acc\nt ( my increas$ acqua9tance ) ! ,engli% language1 _m v]bal alt]ations h be5 made2 also sev]al alt]ations h be5 made on acc\nt ( ! increas$ light :i* ! ,"l has be5 pleas$ to grant me s9ce ,july1 #aicg2 a few p>agraphs h be5 entirely left out1 & a few new p>agraphs h be5 add$4 ,,george ,m,ue,l,l,e,r4 ,bri/ol1 ,octob] #bh1 #ahdj4 ,,extract ,,f ,,! ,,preface ,,to ,,! ,,?ird ,,edition ,,( ,,! ,,fir/ ,,"p ,z ! second edition ( f\r ?\s& copies is exhau/$1 & z ! ,"l condesc5ds to bless ?is ,n>rative m & m1 bo? to believ]s & unbeliev]s1 x has appe>$ to me a debt :i* ,i owe to ! *ur* ( ,god to publi% ?is ?ird edition4 ,sev]al new p>agraphs ( consid]able l5g? h be5 introduc$4 ,,george ,m,ue,l,l,e,r4 ,bri/ol1 ,june #ag1 #ahde4 ,,preface ,,to ,,! ,,eigh? ,,edition ,,( ,,! ,,fir/ ,,"p ,! ,sev5? edition ( eight ?\s& copies is also exhau/$1 & ! ,"l condesc5ds to bless yet m & m ?is ,n>rative1 bo? to ! ! conv]sion ( unbeliev]s1 & to ! edification ( ,8 own *ildr54 ,on ?is acc\nt ,i feel x my duty1 z well z my privilege1 to s5d =? ?is new edition1 9 :i* sc>cely any alt]ations h be5 made4 ,,george ,m,ue,l,l,e,r4 ,bri/ol1 ,decemb]1 #ahha4 ,,preface ,,to ,,! ,,n9? ,,edition ,! reason :i* l$ me to ! publication ( ! ,eigh? edition ( ?is ,n>rative1 has influ5c$ me also to publi% ?is ,n9? edition4 ,,george ,m,ue,l,l,e,r4 ,bri/ol1 ,m>*1 #ahie4 ,a ,,n>rative1 c4 c4 ,i 0 born at ,kropp5/a$t1 ne> ,halb]/adt1 9 ! k+dom ( ,prussia1 on ,septemb] #bg?1 #ahje4 ,9 ,janu>y #ahaj my p>5ts remov$ to ,heim]sleb51 ab\t f\r miles f ,kropp5/a$t1 :]e my fa!r 0 appo9t$ collector 9 ! excise4 ,z a w>n+ to p>5ts ,i m5tion1 t my fa!r pref]r$ me to my bro!r1 :i* 0 v injuri\s to bo? ( u4 ,to me1 z t5d+ to produce 9 my m9d a feel+ ( self-elevation2 & to my bro!r1 by creat+ 9 him a dislike bo? t[>ds my fa!r & me4 ,my fa!r1 :o educat$ 8 *ildr5 on worldly pr9ciples1 gave u mu* money1 consid]+ our age2 n 9 ord] t we might sp5d x1 b1 z he said1 to accu/om u to possess money )\t sp5d+ x4 ,! result 01 t x l$ me & my bro!r into _m s9s4 ,= ,i repeat$ly sp5t a "p ( ! money 9 a *ildi% way1 & aft]w>ds1 :5 my fa!r look$ ov] my little treasure1 ,i s\ght to deceive him 9 mak+ up ! acc\nts1 ei!r by n putt+ d[n all ! money :i* he _h giv5 me1 or by pr(ess+ to h m money 9 h& ?an 0 ! case1 & c\nt+ x out accord+ly be=e him4 ,n[1 ?\gh ?is deceit 0 f\nd out at la/1 & ,i 0 puni%$1 yet ,i rema9$ ! same4 ,= be=e ,i 0 t5 ye>s old ,i repeat$ly took ( ! gov]nm5t money :i* 0 intru/$ to my fa!r1 & :i* he _h to make up2 till "o day1 z he _h repeat$ly miss$ money1 he detect$ my !ft1 by deposit+ a c\nt$ sum 9 ! room :]e ,i 01 & leav+ me to myself = a :ile4 ,be+ ?us left alone1 ,i took "s ( ! money1 & hid x "u my foot 9 my %oe4 ,:5 my fa!r1 aft] 8 return1 _h c\nt$ & miss$ ! money1 ,i 0 se>*$ & my !ft detect$4 ,?\gh ,i 0 puni%$ on ?is & o!r occasions1 yet ,i d n rememb] t at any "t1 :5 my s9s 7 f\nd out1 x made any o!r impression ^u me ?an to make me ?9k h[ ,i might d ! ?+ ! next "t m clev]ly1 s z n to be detect$4 ,h5ce x came1 t ?is 0 n ! la/ "t t ,i 0 guilty ( /eal+4 ,:5 ,i 0 betwe5 t5 & elev5 ye>s ( age1 ,i 0 s5t to ,halb]/adt1 to ! ca!dral classical s*ool1 !re to be prep>$ = ! univ]sity2 = my fa!r's desire 01 t ,i %\ld become a cl]gyman3 n1 inde$1 t ?us ,i might s]ve ,god1 b t ,i might h a com=table liv+4 ,my "t 0 n[ sp5t 9 /udy+1 read+ novels1 & indulg+1 ?\gh s "y1 9 s9ful practices4 ,?us x cont9u$ till ,i 0 f\rte5 ye>s old1 :5 my "m 0 sudd5ly remov$4 ,! night %e 0 dy+1 ,i1 n kn[+ ( h] illness1 0 play+ at c>ds till two 9 ! morn+1 & on ! next day1 be+ ! ,"l's day1 ,i w5t ) "s ( my companions 9 s9 to a tav]n1 & !n we w5t ab\t ! /reets1 half intoxicat$4 ,! foll[+ day ,i att5d$1 = ! fir/ "t1 ! religi\s in/ruction1 :i* ,i 0 to receive previ\s to my confirmation4 ,?is likewise 0 att5d$ to 9 a c>eless mann]2 & :5 ,i return$ to my lodg+s1 my fa!r _h arriv$ to fet* my bro!r & me home to our "m's fun]al4 ,?is b]eavem5t made no la/+ impression on my m9d4 ,i grew worse & worse4 ,?ree or f\r days be=e ,i 0 confirm$1 7& ?us admitt$ to p>take ( ! ,"l's supp]17 ,i 0 guilty ( gross immorality2 & ! v day be=e my confirmation1 :5 ,i 0 9 ! ve/ry ) ! cl]gyman to confess my s9s1 7accord+ to ! usual practice17 aft] a =mal mann]1 ,i defraud$ him2 = ,i h&$ ov] to him only ! twelf? "p ( ! fee :i* my fa!r _h giv5 me = him4 ,9 ?is /ate ( he>t1 )\t pray]1 )\t true rep5tance1 )\t fai?1 )\t k ( ! plan ( salvation1 ,i 0 confirm$1 & took ! ,"l's supp]1 on ! ,sunday aft] ,ea/] #ahbj4 ,yet ,i 0 n )\t "s feel+ ab\t ! solemnity ( ! ?+1 & ,i /ay$ at home 9 ! aft]noon & ev5+1 :il/ ! o!r boys & girls1 :o _h be5 confirm$ ) me1 walk$ ab\t 9 ! fields ,i also made resolutions to turn f ^? vices 9 :i* ,i 0 liv+1 & to /udy m4 ,b z ,i _h no reg>d to ,god1 & attempt$ ! ?+ 9 my own /r5g?1 all soon came to no?+1 & ,i /ill grew worse4 ,six weeks aft] my confirmation ,i w5t = a =tnight to ,brunswick1 to a si/] ( my fa!r1 :]e ,i became atta*$ to a "y female1 :o 0 a ,roman ca?olic4 ,my "t till ,midsumm] #ahba 0 sp5t p>tly 9 /udy1 b 9 a great degree 9 play+ ! piano-=te & guit>1 read+ novels1 frequ5t+ tav]ns1 =m+ resolutions to become diff]5t1 yet break+ !m almo/ z fa/ z !y 7 made4 ,my money 0 (t5 sp5t on my s9ful pleasures1 ?r\gh :i* ,i 0 n[ & !n br\ght into tr\ble1 s t once1 to satisfy my hung]1 ,i /ole a piece ( co>se bread1 ! all[ance ( a soldi] :o 0 qu>t]$ 9 ! h\se :]e ,i lodg$4 ,:at a bitt]1 bitt] ?+ is ! s]vice ( ,satan1 ev5 9 ?is _w66 ,at ,midsumm] #ahba my fa!r obta9$ an appo9tm5t at ,s*o5ebeck1 ne> ,magdeburg1 & ,i embrac$ ! opportunity ( entreat+ him to remove me to ! ca!dral classical s*ool ( ,magdeburg2 = ,i ?\ght1 t1 if ,i c\ld b leave my companions 9 s91 & get out1 ( c]ta9 sn>es1 & be plac$ "u o!r tutors1 ,i %\ld !n live a diff]5t life4 ,b z my dep5d5ce 9 ?is matt] also 0 n ^u ,god1 ,i fell into a /ill worse /ate4 ,my fa!r cons5t$1 & ,i 0 all[$ to leave ,halb]/adt1 & to /ay at ,heim]sleb5 till ,mi*aelmas4 ,dur+ t "t ,i sup]9t5d$1 accord+ to my fa!r's wi%1 c]ta9 alt]ations1 :i* 7 to be made 9 8 h\se !re1 = ! sake ( lett+ x pr(itably4 ,be+ ?us q my own ma/]1 ,i grew /ill m idle1 & liv$ z mu* z be=e 9 all sorts ( s94 ,:5 ,mi*aelmas came1 ,i p]suad$ my fa!r to leave me at ,heim]sleb5 till ,ea/]1 & to let me read ! classics ) a cl]gyman liv+ 9 ! same place4 ,z ,dr4 ,nagel 0 a v le>n$ man1 & also 9 ! habit ( hav+ pupils "u 8 c>e1 & a fri5d ( my fa!r1 my reque/ 0 grant$4 ,i 0 n[ liv+ on ! premises belong+ to my fa!r1 "u little real control1 & intru/$ ) a consid]able sum ( money1 :i* ,i _h to collect = my fa!r1 f p]sons :o ow$ x to him4 ,my habits soon l$ me to sp5d a consid]able "p ( ?is money1 giv+ receipts = diff]5t sums1 yet leav+ my fa!r to suppose ,i _h n receiv$ !m4 ,9 ,novemb] ,i w5t on a pleasure excursion to ,magdeburg1 :]e ,i sp5t six days 9 mu* s92 & ?\gh my abs5ce f home _h be5 f\nd out by my fa!r1 be=e ,i return$ f !nce2 yet ,i took all ! money ,i c\ld obta91 & w5t to ,brunswick1 aft] ,i _h1 ?r\gh a numb] ( lies1 obta9$ p]mission f my tutor4 ,! reason ( my go+ to ,brunswick 01 ! atta*m5t ,i _h =m$ eighte5 mon?s previ\sly to ! "y female resid+ !re4 ,i sp5t a week at ,brunswick1 9 an exp5sive hotel4 ,at ! end ( ! week my money 0 exp5d$4 ,?is1 z well z ! want ( a passport1 prev5t$ my /ay+ any long] 9 ! hotel2 b z ,i /ill wi%$ to rema9 at ,brunswick1 ,i w5t to my uncle1 ! husb& ( my fa!r's si/]1 & made "s excuse = n hav+ gone to him 9 ! fir/ in/ance4 ,my uncle1 see+ ,i suppose my un/eady life1 intimat$ aft] a week1 t he did n wi% me to rema9 ) him any long]4 ,i !n w5t1 )\t money1 to ano!r hotel1 9 a village ne> ,brunswick1 :]e ,i sp5t ano!r week 9 an exp5sive way ( liv+4 ,at la/1 ! own] ( ! hotel suspect+ t ,i _h no money1 ask$ = paym5t1 & ,i 0 oblig$ to leave my be/ clo!s z a security1 & c\ld sc>cely ?us escape f be+ arre/$4 ,i !n walk$ ab\t six miles1 to ,wolf5buttel1 w5t to an inn1 & began aga9 to live z if ,i _h pl5ty ( money4 ,"h ,i /ay$ two days1 look+ out = an opportunity to run away2 = ,i _h n[ no?+ rema9+ to leave z a pl$ge4 ,b ! w9d[ ( my room 0 too high to all[ ( my escap+1 by gett+ d[n at night4 ,on ! second or ?ird morn+ ,i w5t quietly out ( ! y>d1 & !n ran (f2 b be+ suspect$ & obs]v$1 & !re=e se5 to g (f1 ,i 0 imm$iately call$ aft]1 & s _h to return4 ,i n[ confess$ my case1 b f\nd no m]cy4 ,i 0 arre/$1 & tak5 betwe5 two soldi]s to a police (fic]4 ,be+ suspect$ by him to be a vagabond or ?ief1 ,i 0 exam9$ = ab\t ?ree h\rs1 & !n s5t to gaol4 ,i n[ f\nd myself at ! age ( sixte51 an inmate ( ! same dwell+ ) ?ieves & murd]]s1 & treat$ accord+ly4 ,my sup]ior mann]s pr(it$ no?+4 ,= ?\gh1 z a p>ticul> fav\r1 ,i receiv$ ! fir/ ev5+ "s meat ) my bread1 ,i _h ! next day ! common all[ance ( ! prison]s1--v co>se bread & wat]1 & = d9n] vegetables1 b no meat4 ,my situation 0 mo/ wret*$4 ,i 0 lock$ up 9 ?is place day & night1 )\t p]mission to leave my cell4 ,! d9n] 0 su* t on ! fir/ day ,i completely loa!d x2 & left x unt\*$4 ,! second day ,i took a little1 ! ?ird day all1 & ! f\r? & foll[+ days ,i w\ld fa9 h _h m4 ,on ! second day ,i ask$ ! keep] = a ,bible1 n to consid] its bless$ cont5ts1 b to pass away ! "t4 ,h[ev]1 ,i receiv$ none4 ,"h !n ,i 02 no creature ) me2 no book1 no "w 9 my h&s1 & l>ge iron rails be=e my n>r[ w9d[4 ,dur+ ! second night ,i 0 awak5$ out ( my sleep by ! rattl+ ( ! bolts & keys4 ,?ree m5 came into my room4 ,:5 ,i ask$ !m 9 my fright :at x meant1 !y laugh$ at me1 cont9u+ quietly to try ! iron rails1 to see :e!r ,i c\ld escape4--,aft] a few days ,i f\nd out1 t a ?ief 0 imprison$ next to me1 &1 z f> z a ?ick wood5 p>tition w\ld all[ ( x1 ,i conv]s$ ) him2 & %ortly aft] ! gov]nor ( ! prison all[$ him1 z a fav\r to me1 to %>e my cell4 ,we n[ pass$ away our "t 9 relat+ our adv5tures1 & ,i 0 by ?is "t s wick$1 t ,i 0 n satisfi$ ) relat+ ?+s ( :i* ,i _h be5 really guilty1 b ,i ev5 inv5t$ /ories1 to %[ him :at a fam\s fell[ ,i 04 ,i wait$ 9 va9 day aft] day to be lib]at$4--,aft] ab\t t5 or twelve days my fell[ prison] & ,i disagre$1 & ?us we two wret*$ be+s1 to increase our wret*$ness1 sp5t day aft] day )\t conv]s+ toge!r4--,i 0 9 prison f ,decemb] #ah?1 #ahba1 till ,janu>y #ab?1 #ahbb1 :5 ! keep] came & told me to g ) him to ! police (fice4 ,"h ,i f\nd1 t ! ,commission]1 be=e :om ,i _h be5 tri$1 _h fir/ writt5 to my uncle at ,brunswick1 & :5 he _h writt5 9 reply1 t x 0 bett] to acqua9t my fa!r ) my conduct1 ! ,commission] _h done s2 & ?us ,i 0 kept 9 prison till my fa!r s5t ! money :i* 0 ne$$ = my travel+ exp5ses1 to pay my debt 9 ! inn1 & = my ma9t5ance 9 ! prison4 ,s ungrateful 0 ,i n[1 = c]ta9 little k9dnesses %[n to me by my fell[-prison]1 t1 al?\gh ,i _h promis$ to call on 8 si/]1 to deliv] a message f him1 ,i omitt$ to d s2 & s little _h ,i be5 b5efit$ by ?is my *a/isem5t1 t1 ?\gh ,i 0 go+ home to meet an angry fa!r1 only two h\rs aft] ,i _h left ! t[n :]e ,i _h be5 imprison$1 ,i *ose an av[$ly wick$ p]son z my travel+ companion = a great "p ( my j\rney4 ,my fa!r1 :o arriv$ two days aft] ,i _h rea*$ ,heim]sleb51 aft] hav+ sev]ely beat5 me1 took me home to ,s*o5ebeck1 int5d+ to keep me !re till ,ea/]1 & !n to s5d me to a classical s*ool at ,halle1 t ,i might be "u /rict discipl9e & ! cont9ual inspection ( a tutor4 ,9 ! meantime ,i took pupils1 :om ,i in/ruct$ 9 ,lat91 ,fr5*1 ari?metic1 & ,g]man ,gramm>4 ,i n[ endeav\r$1 by dilig5ce 9 /udy1 to rega9 ! fav\r ( my fa!r4 ,my habits 71 z to outw>d appe>ance1 exempl>y4 ,i made progress 9 my own /udies1 b5efit$ my pupils1 & 0 soon lik$ by e body ar\nd me1 & 9 a %ort "t my fa!r _h =gott5 all4 ,b all ?is "t ,i 0 9 he>t z bad z ev]2 = ,i 0 /ill 9 secret habitually guilty ( great s9s4 ,ea/] came1 & on acc\nt ( my good behavi\r1 my dilig5ce 9 /udy1 & also because ,i 0 no exp5se to my fa!r1 b e>n$ mu* m ?an ,i co/ him1 ,i easily p]suad$ him to let me /ay at home till ,mi*aelmas4 ,b aft] t p]iod he w\ld n cons5t to my rema9+ any long] ) him1 & !re=e ,i left home1 pret5d+ to g to ,halle to be exam9$4 ,b hav+ a he>ty dislike to ! /rict discipl9e ( :i* ,i _h he>d1 & kn[+ also t ,i %\ld meet !re "y m5 att5d+ ! univ]sity ) :om ,i 0 acqua9t$1 enjoy+ all ! lib]ty ( ,g]man /ud5ts1 :il/ ,i myself 0 /ill at s*ool3 = ^! & o!r reasons ,i w5t to ,nordhaus51 & _h myself exam9$ by ! director ( ! gymnasium1 to be receiv$ into t s*ool4 ,i !n w5t home1 b nev] told my fa!r a ^w ( all ?is deception1 till ! day be=e my dep>ture1 :i* oblig$ me to inv5t a :ole *a9 ( lies4 ,he 0 !n v angry2 b at la/1 ?r\gh my entreaties & p]suasion1 he gave way & all[$ me to g4 ,?is 0 9 ! beg9n+ ( ,octob]1 #ahbb4 ,i cont9u$ at ,nordhaus5 two ye>s & six mon?s1 till ,ea/]1 #ahbe4 ,dur+ ?is "t ,i /udi$ ) consid]able dilig5ce ! ,lat9 classics1 ,fr5*1 hi/ory1 my own language1 c42 b did little 9 ,hebrew1 ,greek1 & ! ,ma!matics4 ,i liv$ 9 ! h\se ( ! director1 & got1 ?r\gh my conduct1 highly into 8 fav\r1 s mu* s1 t ,i 0 held up by him 9 ! fir/ class z an example to ! re/1 & he us$ to take me regul>ly ) him 9 8 walks1 to conv]se ) me 9 ,lat94 ,i us$ n[ to rise regul>ly at f\r1 w9t] & summ]1 & g5]ally /udi$ all ! day1 ) little exception1 till t5 at night4 ,b :il/ ,i 0 ?us outw>dly ga9+ ! e/eem ( my fell[-creatures1 ,i did n c>e 9 ! lea/ ab\t ,god1 b liv$ secretly 9 mu* s91 9 consequ5ce ( :i* ,i 0 tak5 ill1 & = ?irte5 weeks conf9$ to my room4 ,dur+ my illness ,i _h no real sorr[ ( he>t1 yet be+ "u c]ta9 natural impressions ( religion1 ,i read ?r\gh ,klop/ock's works )\t we>9ess4 ,i c>$ no?+ ab\t ! ^w ( ,god4 ,i _h ab\t ?ree hundr$ books ( my own1 b no ,bible4 ,i practically set a f> high] value ^u ! writ+s ( ,horace & ,cic]o1 ,voltaire & ,moli]e1 ?an ^u ! volume ( inspiration4 ,n[ & !n ,i felt t ,i ought to become a diff]5t p]son1 & ,i tri$ to am5d my conduct1 p>ticul>ly :5 ,i w5t to ! ,"l's supp]1 z ,i us$ to d twice e ye>1 ) ! o!r "y m54 ,! day previ\s to att5d+ t ord9ance1 ,i us$ to refra9 f c]ta9 ?+s2 & on ! day itself ,i 0 s]i\s1 & also swore once or twice to ,god1 ) ! emblem ( ! brok5 body 9 my m\?1 to become bett]1 ?9k+ t = ! oa?'s sake ,i %\ld be induc$ to re=m4 ,b aft] "o or two days 7 ov]1 all 0 =gott51 & ,i 0 z bad z be=e4 ,i _h n[ gr[n s wick$1 t ,i c\ld habitually tell lies )\t blu%+4 ,& fur!r1 to %[ h[ fe>fully wick$ ,i 01 ,i w m5tion1 out ( _m o!rs1 only "o great s91 ( :i* ,i 0 guilty1 be=e ,i left ?is place4 ,?r\gh my dissipat$ life ,i _h contract$ debts1 :i* ,i _h no means ( dis*>g+2 = my fa!r c\ld all[ me only ab\t z mu* z ,i ne$$ = my regul> ma9t5ance4 ,"o day1 aft] hav+ receiv$ a sum ( money f him1 & hav+ purposely %[n x to "s ( my companions1 ,i aft]w>ds feign$ t x 0 /ol51 hav+ myself by =ce injur$ ! lock ( my trunk1 & hav+ also design$ly =c$ op5 my guit> case4 ,i also feign$ myself greatly fright5$ at :at _h happ5$1 ran into ! director's room ) my coat (f1 & told him t my money 0 /ol54 ,i 0 greatly piti$4 ,"s fri5ds also gave me n[ z mu* money z ,i pret5d$ to h lo/1 & ! circum/ance af=d$ me a gr\nd ^u :i* to ask my cr$itors to wait long]4 ,b ?is matt] turn$ out bitt]ly2 = ! director1 hav+ gr\nd to suspect me1 ?\gh he c\ld n prove any?+1 nev] fully re/or$ me to 8 confid5ce4 ,z x reg>ds my own feel+1 ?\gh ,i 0 v wick$1 yet ?is desp]ate act ( depravity 0 too mu*1 ev5 = my h>d5$ consci5ce2 = x nev] aft]w>ds all[$ me to feel easy 9 ! pres5ce ( ! director's wife1 :o1 l a k9d "m1 _h wait$ on me 9 my illness1 & on :om ,i _h n[ s willfully br\ght tr\ble4 ,h[ long-suff]+ 0 ,god at ?is "t1 n to de/roy me at once6 ,& h[ m]ciful t he did n suff] me to be tri$ be=e ! police1 :o easily w\ld h detect$ t ! :ole 0 a fabrication6 ,i 0 he>tily glad = _m reasons1 b p>ticul>ly on acc\nt ( ?is latt] circum/ance1 to be able soon aft] to ex*ange ! s*ool = ! univ]sity4 ,i _h n[ obta9$ :at ,i _h fondly look$ =w>d to4 ,i became a memb] ( ! univ]sity1 & t ) v hon\rable te/imonials4 ,i _h ?us obta9$ p]mission to prea* 9 ! ,lu!ran ,e/abli%m5t1 b ,i 0 z truly unhappy1 & z f> f ,god z ev]4 ,i _h made /rong resolutions1 n[ at la/1 to *ange my c\rse ( life1 = two reasons3 fir/1 because1 )\t x1 ,i ?\ght no p>i% w\ld *oose me z _! pa/or2 & secondly1 t )\t a consid]able k ( div9ity ,i %\ld nev] get a good liv+1 z ! obta9+ ( a valuable cure1 9 ,prussia1 g5]ally dep5ds ^u ! degree :i* ! c&idates ( ! m9i/ry obta9 9 pass+ ! exam9ation4 ,b ! mom5t ,i ent]$ ,halle1 ! univ]sity t[n1 all my resolutions came to no?+4--,be+ n[ m ?an ev] my own ma/]1 & )\t any control z long z ,i did n fight a duel1 mole/ ! p 9 ! /reets1 c41 ,i r5ew$ my pr(ligate life afre%1 ?\gh n[ a /ud5t ( div9ity4 ,:5 my money 0 sp5t1 ,i pawn$ my wat* & a "p ( my l95 & clo!s1 or borr[$ 9 o!r ways4 ,yet 9 ! mid/ ( x all ,i _h a desire to r5\nce ?is wret*$ life1 = ,i _h no enjoym5t 9 x1 & _h s5se en\gh left to see1 t ! end "o day or o!r w\ld be mis]able2 = ,i %\ld nev] get a liv+4 ,b ,i _h no sorr[ ( he>t on acc\nt ( (f5d+ ,god4 ,"o day :5 ,i 0 9 a tav]n ) "s ( my wild fell[-/ud5ts1 ,i saw among !m "o ( my =m] s*ool-fell[s1 nam$ ,beta1 :om ,i _h kn[n f\r ye>s be=e at ,halb]/adt1 b :om at t "t _h despis$1 because he 0 s quiet & s]i\s4 ,x n[ appe>$ well to me to *oose him z my fri5d1 ?9k+ t if ,i c\ld b h bett] companions1 ,i %\ld by t means improve my own conduct4 ,i ent]$ into famili> disc\rse ) him1 & we 7 soon mu* knit to "o ano!r4 ,curs$ be ! man t tru/e? 9 man1 & make? fle% 8 arm4 ,j]emiah xvii4 #e4 ,?is ,beta 0 a backslid]4 ,:5 =m]ly he 0 s quiet at s*ool1 ,i h reason to believe x 0 because ! ,_s ( ,god 0 work+ on 8 he>t2 b n[1 hav+ dep>t$ f ! ,"l1 he tri$ to put (f ! ways ( ,god m & m1 & to enjoy ! _w ( :i* he _h kn[n b little be=e4 ,i s\ght 8 fri5d%ip because ,i ?\ght x w\ld lead me to a /eady life2 & he gladly =m$ an acqua9tance ) me1 z he told me aft]w>ds1 because he ?\ght x w\ld br+ him into gay society4 ,?us my poor fooli% he>t 0 aga9 deceiv$4 ,& yet1 ,god1 9 ,8 abundant m]cy1 made him1 aft] all1 9 a way :i* 0 nev] ?\ght ( by me1 ! in/rum5t ( do+ me good1 n m]ely = "t1 b = et]nity4 ,ab\t ?is p]iod1 ,june #ahbe1 ,i 0 aga9 tak5 ill 9 consequ5ce ( my pr(ligate & vici\s life4 ,my /ate ( heal? w\ld !re=e no long] all[ me to g on 9 ! same c\rse1 b my desires 7 /ill un*ang$4 ,ab\t ! end ( ,july ,i recov]$4 ,aft] ?is1 my conduct 0 outw>dly r bett]2 b ?is arose only f want ( money4 ,at ! comm5cem5t ( ,augu/1 ,beta & ,i ) two o!r /ud5ts1 drove ab\t ! c\ntry1 = f\r days4 ,all ! money = ?is exp5sive pleasure _h be5 obta9$ by pl$g+ "s ( our rema9+ articles4 ,:5 we return$1 in/ead ( be+ truly sorry on acc\nt ( ?is s91 we ?\ght ( fre% pleasures1 &1 z my love = travel+ 0 /rong] ?an ev]1 ?r\gh :at ,i _h se5 on ?is la/ j\rney1 ,i propos$ to my fri5ds to set (f = ,switz]l&4 ,! ob/acles 9 ! way1 ! want ( money1 & ! want ( ! passports1 7 remov$ by me4 ,=1 ?r\gh =g$ lett]s f our p>5ts1 we procur$ passports2 & ?r\gh pl$g+ all we c\ld1 p>ticul>ly our books1 we obta9$ z mu* money z we ?\ght w\ld be en\gh4 ,beta 0 "o ( ! p>ty4 ,on ,augu/ #ah? we left ,halle4 ,x w be en\gh to say t we w5t z f> z ,m\nt ,rigi 9 ,switz]l&1 by ! way ( ,erfurt1 ,frank=t1 ,heidelb]g1 ,/uttg>t1 ,zuri*1 & return$ by ! way ( ,con/ance1 ,ulm1 & ,nuremb]g4 ,=ty-?ree days we 71 day aft] day1 travel+1 almo/ always on foot4 ,i _h n[ obta9$ ! desire ( my he>t4 ,i _h se5 ,switz]l&4 ,b /ill ,i 0 f> f be+ happy4 ,! ,"l mo/ graci\sly pres]v$ u f _m calamit\s circum/ances1 :i*1 b = ,8 graci\s provid5ce1 might h ov]tak5 u4 ,b ,i did n see ,8 h& at t "t1 z ,i h se5 x s9ce4 ,sickness ( "o or m ( u1 or sep>ation f "o ano!r1 :i* might h s easily befall5 u1 w\ld h br\ght u1 be+ s f> f home1 & hav+ b j z mu* money z 0 absolutely ne$$1 into a mo/ mis]able condition4 ,i 0 on ?is j\rney l ,judas2 =1 hav+ ! common purse1 ,i 0 a ?ief4 ,i manag$ s1 t ! j\rney co/ me b two-?irds ( :at x co/ my fri5ds4 ,oh6 h[ wick$ 0 ,i n[4 ,at la/ all ( u became tir$ ( see+ ev5 ! mo/ beautiful views2 & :il/ at fir/1 aft] hav+ se5 c]ta9 sc5es1 ,i _h be5 say+ ) ,horace1 at ! end ( ! day1 9 my pagan he>t1 ,vixi1 7,i h liv$71 ,i 0 n[ glad to get home aga94 ,septemb] #bi? we rea*$ ,halle1 f :5ce ea* ( u1 = ! rema9d] ( ! vacation1 w5t to 8 fa!r's h\se4 ,i _h n[1 by _m lies1 to satisfy my fa!r conc]n+ ! travel+ exp5ses1 & succe$$ 9 deceiv+ him4 ,dur+ ! ?ree weeks ,i /ay$ at home ,i det]m9$ to live diff]5tly = ! future4 ,once m ! ,"l %[$ me :at resolutions come to1 :5 made 9 man's /r5g?4 ,i 0 diff]5t = a few days2 b :5 ! vacation 0 ov]1 & fre% /ud5ts came1 &1 ) !m1 fre% money1 all 0 soon =gott54 ,at t "t ,halle 0 frequ5t$ by #abfj /ud5ts1 ab\t #ijj ( :om /udi$ div9ity1 all ( :i* #ijj 7 all[$ to prea*1 al?\gh1 ,i h reason to believe1 n n9e ( !m fe>$ ! ,"l4 ,! "t 0 n[ come :5 ,god w\ld h m]cy ^u me4 ,8 love _h be5 set ^u su* a wret* z ,i 0 be=e ! _w 0 made4 ,8 love _h s5t ,8 ,son to be> ! puni%m5t due to me on acc\nt ( my s9s1 & to fulfill ! law :i* ,i _h brok5 times )\t numb]4 ,& n[ at a "t :5 ,i 0 z c>eless ab\t ,him z ev]1 ,he s5t ,8 ,_s into my he>t4 ,i _h no ,bible1 & _h n read 9 x = ye>s4 ,i w5t to *ur* b seldom2 b1 f cu/om1 ,i took ! ,"l's supp] twice a ye>4 ,i _h nev] he>d ! gospel prea*$1 up to ! beg9n+ ( ,novemb] #ahbe4 ,i _h nev] met ) a p]son :o told me t he meant1 by ! help ( ,god1 to live accord+ to ! ,holy ,scriptures4 ,9 %ort1 ,i _h n ! lea/ idea1 t !re 7 any p]sons really diff]5t f myself1 except 9 degree4 ,"o ,saturday aft]noon1 ab\t ! middle ( ,novemb] #ahbe1 ,i _h tak5 a walk ) my fri5d ,beta4 ,on our return he said to me1 t he 0 9 ! habit ( go+ on ,saturday ev5+s to ! h\se ( a ,*ri/ian1 :]e !re 0 a meet+4 ,on fur!r enquiry he told me t !y read ! ,bible1 sang1 pray$1 & read a pr9t$ s]mon4 ,no soon] _h ,i he>d ?is1 ?an x 0 to me z if ,i _h f\nd some?+ aft] :i* ,i _h be5 seek+ all my life long4 ,i imm$iately wi%$ to g ) my fri5d1 :o 0 n at once will+ to take me2 = kn[+ me z a gay "y man1 he ?\ght ,i %\ld n l ?is meet+4 ,at la/1 h[ev]1 he said he w\ld call = me4--,i w\ld "h m5tion1 t ,beta seems to h _h conviction ( s91 & probably also a degree ( acqua9tance ) ! ,"l1 :5 ab\t fifte5 ye>s old4 ,aft]w>ds1 be+ 9 a cold & worldly /ate1 he jo9$ me 9 ?is s9ful ,j\rney to ,switz]l&4 ,on 8 return1 h[ev]1 be+ extremely mis]able1 & conv9c$ ( 8 guilt1 he made a full confession ( 8 s9 to 8 fa!r2 & :il/ ) him1 s\ght ! acqua9tance ( a ,*ri/ian bro!r1 nam$ ,ri*t]4 ,?is ,dr4 ,ri*t]1 :o himself _h /udi$ a few ye>s be=e at ,halle1 gave him1 on 8 return to ! univ]sity1 a lett] ( introduction to a believ+ tradesman1 ( ! "n ( ,wagn]4 ,x 0 ?is bro!r1 conc]n+ :om ,beta spoke to me1 & 9 ^: h\se ! meet+ 0 held4 ,we w5t toge!r 9 ! ev5+4 ,z ,i did n "k ! mann]s ( believ]s1 & ! joy !y h 9 see+ poor s9n]s1 ev5 9 any measure c>+ ab\t ! ?+s ( ,god1 ,i made an apology = com+4 ,! k9d answ] ( ?is de> bro!r ,i %all nev] =get4 ,he said3 ,come z (t5 z y please2 h\se & he>t are op5 to y4 ,we sat d[n & sang a hymn4 ,!n bro!r ,kays]1 n[ a mission>y 9 ,africa1 9 connection ) ! ,london ,mission>y ,society1 :o 0 !n liv+ at ,halle1 fell on 8 knees1 & ask$ a bless+ on our meet+4 ,?is kneel+ d[n made a deep impression ^u me2 = ,i _h nev] ei!r se5 any "o on 8 knees1 nor _h ,i ev] myself pray$ on my knees4 ,he !n read a *apt] & a pr9t$ s]mon2 = no regul> meet+s = exp\nd+ ! ,scriptures 7 all[$ 9 ,prussia1 except an orda9$ cl]gyman 0 pres5t4 ,at ! close we sang ano!r hymn1 & !n ! ma/] ( ! h\se pray$4 ,:il/ he pray$1 my feel+ 0 some?+ l ?is3 ,i c\ld n pray z well1 ?\gh ,i am mu* m le>n$ ?an ?is illit]ate man4 ,! :ole made a deep impression on me4 ,i 0 happy2 ?\gh1 if ,i _h be5 ask$1 :y ,i 0 happy1 ,i c\ld n h cle>ly expla9$ x4 ,:5 we walk$ home1 ,i said to ,beta1 ,all we h se5 on our j\rney to ,switz]l&1 & all our =m] pleasures1 are z no?+ 9 comp>ison ) ?is ev5+4 ,:e!r ,i fell on my knees :5 ,i return$ home1 ,i d n rememb]2 b ?is ,i "k1 t ,i lay peaceful & happy 9 my b$4 ,?is %[s t ! ,"l may beg9 ,8 "w 9 diff]5t ways4 ,= ,i h n ! lea/ d\bt1 t on t ev5+1 ,he began a "w ( grace 9 me1 ?\gh ,i obta9$ joy )\t any deep sorr[ ( he>t1 & ) sc>cely any k4 ,t ev5+ 0 ! turn+ po9t 9 my life4--,! next day1 & ,monday1 & once or twice besides1 ,i w5t aga9 to ! h\se ( ?is bro!r1 :]e ,i read ! ,scriptures ) him & ano!r bro!r2 = x 0 too long = me to wait till ,saturday came aga94 ,n[ my life became v diff]5t1 ?\gh n s1 t all s9s 7 giv5 up at once4 ,my wick$ companions 7 giv5 up2 ! go+ to tav]ns 0 entirely discont9u$2 ! habitual practice ( tell+ falsehoods 0 no long] indulg$ 91 b /ill a few times aft] ?is ,i spoke an untru?4--,at ! "t :5 ?is *ange took place1 ,i 0 engag$ 9 translat+ a novel out ( ,fr5* into ,g]man1 = ! press1 9 ord] to obta9 ! means ( gratify+ my desire to see ,p>is1 c4 ,?is plan ab\t ! j\rney 0 n[ giv5 up1 ?\gh ,i _h n light en\gh to give up ! "w 9 :i* ,i 0 engag$1 b f9i%$ x4 ,! ,"l1 h[ev]1 mo/ rem>kably put v>i\s ob/acles 9 ! way & did n all[ me to sell ! manuscript4 ,at la/1 see+ t ! :ole 0 wrong1 ,i det]m9$ nev] to sell x1 & 0 enabl$ to abide by ?is det]m9ation4 ,! manuscript 0 burnt4 ,i n[ no long] liv$ habitually 9 s91 ?\gh ,i 0 /ill (t5 ov]come1 & sometimes ev5 by op5 s9s1 ?\gh f> less frequ5tly ?an be=e1 & n )\t sorr[ ( he>t4 ,i read ! ,scriptures1 pray$ (t51 lov$ ! bre?r51 w5t to *ur* f "r motives1 & /ood on ! side ( ,*ri/2 ?\gh laugh$ at by my fell[-/ud5ts4 ,x _h pleas$ ,god to tea* me some?+ ( ! mean+ ( t preci\s tru?3 ,god s lov$ ! _w1 t ,he gave ,8 only begott5 ,son1 t :osoev] believe? 9 ,him %\ld n p]i%1 b h ev]la/+ life4 ,i und]/ood some?+ ( ! reason :y ! ,"l ,jesus di$ on ! cross1 & suff]$ su* agonies 9 ! ,g>d5 ( ,ge?semane3 ev5 t ?us1 be>+ ! puni%m5t due to u1 we might n h to be> x ourselves4 ,&1 !re=e1 appreh5d+ 9 "s measure ! love ( ,jesus = my s\l1 ,i 0 con/ra9$ to love ,him 9 return4 ,:at all ! exhortations & precepts ( my fa!r & o!rs c\ld n effect2 :at all my own resolutions c\ld n br+ ab\t1 ev5 to r5\nce a life ( s9 & pr(ligacy3 ,i 0 enabl$ to d1 con/ra9$ by ! love ( ,jesus4 ,! individual :o desires to h 8 s9s =giv51 mu/ seek = x ?r\gh ! blood ( ,jesus4 ,! individual :o desires to get p[] ov] s91 mu/ likewise seek x ?r\gh ! blood ( ,jesus4 ,9 ,janu>y #ahbf1 ,i began to read mission>y pap]s1 & 0 greatly /irr$ up to become a mission>y myself4 ,i pray$ frequ5tly conc]n+ ?is matt]1 & ?us made m decid$ progress = a few weeks4 ,b soon1 alas6 ,i 0 drawn aside4 ,i us$ frequ5tly to meet a "y female1 :o also came to ! meet+s on ,saturday ev5+s2 & be+ ! only pi\s female ( my own age1 :om ,i knew1 ,i soon felt myself greatly atta*$ to h]4 ,?is l$ away my he>t f mission>y "w1 = ,i _h reason to believe t h] p>5ts w\ld n all[ h] to g ) me4 ,my pray]s n[ became cold & =mal1 & at l5g? 7 almo/ entirely giv5 up4 ,my joy 9 ! ,"l left me4 ,9 ?is /ate ,i cont9u$ = ab\t six weeks4 ,at ! end ( t "t1 ab\t ,ea/] #ahbf1 ,i saw a devot$ "y bro!r1 nam$ ,h]mann ,ball1 a le>n$ man1 & ( weal?y p>5ts1 :o1 con/ra9$ by ! love ( ,*ri/1 pref]r$ lab\r+ 9 ,pol& among ! ,jews z a mission>y1 to hav+ a com=table liv+ ne> 8 relations4 ,8 example made a deep impression on me4 ,i 0 l$ to apply 8 case to my own1 & to comp>e myself ) him2 = ,i _h giv5 up ! "w ( ! ,"l1 &1 ,i may say1 ! ,"l ,himself1 = ! sake ( a girl4 ,! result ( ?is comp>ison 01 t ,i 0 enabl$ to give up ?is connexion1 :i* ,i _h ent]$ into )\t pray]1 & :i* ?us _h l$ me away f ! ,"l4 ,:5 ,i 0 enabl$ to be decid$1 ! ,"l smil$ on me1 & ,i 01 = ! fir/ "t 9 my life1 able fully & unres]v$ly to give up myself to ,him4 ,x 0 at ?is "t t ,i began truly to enjoy ! peace ( ,god1 :i* passe? all und]/&+4 ,9 ?is my joy ,i wrote to my fa!r & bro!r1 entreat+ !m to seek ! ,"l1 & tell+ !m h[ happy ,i 02 ?9k+1 t if ! way to happ9ess 7 b set be=e !m1 !y w\ld gladly embrace x4 ,to my great surprise an angry answ] 0 return$4--,ab\t ?is p]iod ! ,"l s5t a believ]1 ,dr4 ,?oluck1 z pr(essor ( div9ity to ,halle1 9 consequ5ce ( :i* a few believ+ /ud5ts came f o!r univ]sities4 ,?us also1 ?r\gh becom+ acqua9t$ ) o!r bre?r51 ! ,"l l$ me on4 ,) ! revival ( ! "w ( grace 9 my he>t1 aft] ! sn>e above ref]r$ to _h be5 brok51 my =m] desire1 to give myself to mission>y s]vice1 return$1 & ,i w5t at la/ to my fa!r to obta9 8 p]mission1 )\t :i* ,i c\ld n be receiv$ into any ( ! ,g]man mission>y in/itutions4 ,my fa!r 0 greatly displeas$1 & p>ticul>ly reproa*$ me1 say+ t he _h exp5d$ s mu* money on my education1 9 hope t he might com=tably sp5d 8 la/ days ) me 9 a p>sonage1 & t he n[ saw all ^! prospects come to no?+4 ,he 0 angry1 & told me he w\ld no long] consid] me z 8 son4 ,b ! ,"l gave me grace to rema9 /eadfa/4 ,he !n entreat$ me1 & wept be=e me2 yet ev5 ?is by f> h>d] trial ! ,"l enabl$ me to be>4 ,be=e ,i w5t away ,i took an opportunity ( rem9d+ my bro!r ( my =m] wick$ life1 & told him t n[1 hav+ be5 ?us bless$ by ,god1 ,i c\ld n b live = ,him4 ,aft] ,i _h left my fa!r1 ?\gh ,i want$ m money ?an at any previ\s p]iod ( my life1 z ,i _h to rema9 two ye>s long] 9 ! univ]sity1 ,i det]m9$1 nev] to take any m f him2 = x seem$ to me wrong1 s f> z ,i rememb]1 to suff] myself to be support$ by him1 :5 he _h no prospect t ,i %\ld become1 :at he w\ld wi% me to be1 namely1 a cl]gyman ) a good liv+4 ,?is resolution ,i 0 enabl$ to keep4 ,by ! way ,i w\ld "h obs]ve1 t ! ,"l aft]w>ds1 9 a mo/ rem>kable way1 suppli$ my temporal wants4 ,= %ortly aft] ?is _h occurr$1 sev]al ,am]ican g5tlem51 ?ree ( :om 7 pr(essors 9 ,am]ican colleges1 came to ,halle = lit]>y purposes2 & z !y did n und]/& ,g]man1 ,i 0 recomm5d$ by ,dr4 ,?oluck to tea* !m4 ,^! g5tlem51 "s ( :om 7 believ]s1 paid s h&somely = ! in/ruction :i* ,i gave !m1 & = ! lectures ( c]ta9 pr(essors :i* ,i wrote out = !m1 t ,i _h en\gh & to sp>e4 ,?us did ! ,"l ri*ly make up to me ! little :i* ,i _h rel9qui%$ = ,8 sake4 #j fe> ! ,"l1 ye ,8 sa9ts2 = !re is no want to !m t fe> ,him4 ,psalm xxxiv4 #i4 ,on my return f my fa!r to ,halle1 ,i f\nd t ! m exp]i5c$ bre?r5 ?\ght t ,i ought = ! pres5t to take no fur!r /eps respect+ my desire to g out z a mission>y4 ,b /ill x 0 m or less 9 my m9d4--,:itsuntide & ! two days foll[+ ,i sp5t 9 ! h\se ( a pi\s cl]gyman 9 ! c\ntry3 = all ! m9i/]s at ,halle1 a t[n ( m ?an #cj1jjj inhabitants1 7 un5light5$ m51 ,god greatly refre%$ me ?r\gh ?is visit4 ,de> ,beta 0 ) me4 ,on our return we relat$ to two ( our =m] fri5ds1 ^: society we _h n q giv5 up1 ?\gh we did n any long] live ) !m 9 s91 h[ happy we _h be5 on our visit4 ,i !n told !m h[ ,i wi%$ !y 7 z happy z ourselves4 ,!y answ]$1 we d n feel t we are s9n]s4 ,aft] ?is ,i fell on my knees1 & ask$ ,god to %[ !m t !y 7 s9n]s4 ,hav+ done s1 ,i left !m1 & w5t into my b$-room1 :]e ,i cont9u$ to pray = !m4 ,aft] a little :ile ,i return$ to my sitt+-room1 & f\nd !m bo? 9 te>s1 & bo? told me t !y n[ felt !mselves to be s9n]s4 ,f t "t a "w ( grace comm5c$ 9 _! he>ts4 ,%ortly aft] ?is1 be+ /ill greatly ex]cis$ ab\t go+ out z a mission>y1 & wi%+ mu* 7accord+ to my natural m9d1 z ,i n[ see17 to h ! matt] settl$1 9 "o way or ! o!r1 )\t be+ will+ quietly1 pati5tly1 & pray]fully to wait on ! ,"l1 ,i came to ! conclusion to asc]ta9 ! ,"l's m9d by ! lot4 ,to ?is end ,i n m]ely drew a lot 9 private1 b ,i b\ght a ticket 9 ! royal lott]y2 & ,i left x ?us ) ! ,"l1 t if ,i ga9$ any ?+1 ,i %\ld take x to be ,8 w t ,i %\ld become a mission>y1 if n1 t ,i %\ld rema9 at home4 ,my ticket came out ) a small sum1 on acc\nt ( :i* x appe>$ to me t ,i %\ld be a mission>y4 ,i !re=e appli$ to ! ,b]l9 ,mission>y ,society1 b 0 n accept$1 because my fa!r _h n giv5 8 cons5t4 ,v soon aft]w>ds ,i 0 l$ to see 9 "s degree1 & s9ce !n mu* m fully1 ! error into :i* ,i _h fall5 respect+ ! lot4 ,9 ! fir/ place x 0 altoge!r wrong1 t ,i1 a *ild ( ,god1 %\ld h any ?+ to d ) s worldly a sy/em z t ( ! lott]y4 ,b x 0 also unscriptural to g to ! lot at all = ! sake ( asc]ta9+ ! ,"l's m9d1 & ?is ,i gr\nd on ! foll[+ reasons4 ,we h nei!r a comm&m5t ( ,god = x1 nor ! example ( our ,"l1 nor t ( ! apo/les1 aft] ! ,holy ,_s _h be5 giv5 on ! day ( ,p5teco/4 #a4 ,we h _m exhortations 9 ! ^w ( ,god to seek to "k ,8 m9d by pray] & se>*+ ! ,holy ,scriptures1 b no passage :i* exhorts u to use ! lot4 #b4 ,! example ( ! apo/les 7,acts i47 9 us+ ! lot1 9 ! *oice ( an apo/le1 9 ! room ( ,judas ,isc>iot1 is ! only passage1 :i* c be br\ght 9 fav\r ( ! lot1 f ! ,new ,te/am5t1 7& to ! ,old we h n to g "u ?is disp5sation1 = ! sake ( asc]ta9+ h[ we ought to live z disciples ( ,*ri/74 ,n[ conc]n+ ?is circum/ance we h to rememb]1 t ! ,_s 0 n yet giv5 7,john vii4 #ci2 *4 xiv4 #af1 #ag2 *4 xvi4 #g1 #ac71 by ^: tea*+ especially x is t we may "k ! m9d ( ! ,"l2 & h5ce we f9d1 t1 aft] ! day ( ,p5teco/1 ! lot 0 no m us$1 b ! apo/les gave !mselves to pray] & fa/+ to asc]ta9 h[ !y ought to act4 ,9 addition to ?is ,i w\ld give my own exp]i5ce conc]n+ ! lot1 b only by way ( illu/rat+ ! view j giv52 = ! ^w ( ,god is q suffici5t on ! subject4 ,& fir/ z x reg>ds my us+ ! lot 9 ! above case4 ,h[ did x turn out8 ,i _h repeat$ly ask$ ! ,"l to %[ me ,8 m9d1 :e!r ,he w\ld h me to be a mission>y or n4 ,b n com+ to a satisfactory assurance1 & be+ v anxi\s to h ! matt] settl$1 ,i f\nd out 9 my own judgm5t a mu* %ort] way1 namely1 ! lot4 ,i ought to h said to myself1 h[ c an individual1 s ignorant z y are1 ?9k ab\t be+ a tea*] to o!rs8 ,= ?\gh ,i 0 truly begott5 aga91 & re/$ ^u ,*ri/ alone = salvation1 /ill ,i %\ld n h be5 able to give a cle> explanation ( ev5 ! mo/ elem5t>y tru?s ( ! ,gospel4 ,h[ !n c\ld ,i be fit to tea* o!rs8 ,! fir/ ?+ !re=e ,i ought to h done1 01 to seek ?r\gh mu* pray]1 & se>*+ ! ,scriptures1 & a holy life1 to obta9 m k ( div9e ?+s4 ,fur!r1 z to my impati5ce 9 wi%+ ! matt] settl$1 h[ c\ld ,i h be5 fit to endure 9 t /ate ! h>d%ips & trials ( a mission>y life1 9 :i* my pati5ce1 no d\bt1 w\ld h be5 mu* m sev]ely tri$8 ,i !re=e ought to h said to myself1 if ,i _c wait quietly1 ?\gh x be _m mon?s long]1 be=e ! ,"l %[s me cle>ly ,8 w conc]n+ ! matt]1 h[ !n c ,i be fit = mission>y "w8 ,in/ead ( ?us comp>+ my /ate ( he>t & k1 ) :at is requir$ 9 ! ,scriptures f him :o is to be a tea*]1 ,i ran ha/ily to ! lot1 & ?\ght ,i _h done x pray]fully4 ,& h[ did x end8 ,accord+ to my pray]s ! lot decid$ ,i %\ld be a mission>y among ! hea!n 7& my m9d1 at t "t1 especially incl9$ to ! ,ea/ ,indies74 ,b ! way 9 :i* ! ,"l has l$ me s9ce has be5 v diff]5t4 ,& x ought n to be said 9 def5se ( ! practice ( decid+ by lot--,p]haps ! ,"l meant y to be a mission>y among ! hea!n1 b y did n give y\rself to ! "w8 = ,i actually (f]$ myself to a society1 b 0 n accept$4 ,moreov]1 s9ce #ahbf ,i h repeat$ly (f]$ myself mo/ solemnly to ! ,"l = ?is "w1 & am z sure t x is n ,8 w t ,i %\ld g out a mission>y = ! pres5t1 z ,i am sure ( any ?+4 ,nor c\ld x be said1 t p]haps ! ,"l yet may call me = ?is "w4 ,= if ,he %\ld be pleas$ to d s tomorr[1 yet t w\ld prove no?+ conc]n+ ! above po9t4 ,= ,i did n use ! lot to asc]ta9 :e!r at any p]iod ( my life ,i %\ld be engag$ 9 mission>y "w1 b :e!r ,i %\ld !n set ab\t x4 ,& to put su* an explanation on ! matt]1 w\ld be act+ z false prophets1 :o1 :5 _! prophecies fail1 try to f9d out "s way or o!r1 :]eby !y may %[ t _! prophecies 7 true4 ,ab\t two ye>s aft] ,i us$ ! lot 9 ano!r in/ance4 ,i w5t "o day to a village ab\t fifte5 miles f ,halle1 to see ! few believ]s !re4 ,:5 ,i 0 ab\t ?ree miles f ! place1 x began to get d>k2 & f9d+ myself 9 a spot :]e ! road divid$1 & n kn[+ :i* way ,i %\ld *oose1 ,i 0 greatly p]plex$4 ,i /ood a mom5t1 & !n pray$ to ,god to %[ me by ! lot1 :i* 0 ! "r way4 ,n[1 truly "o may say1 if ! use ( ! lot 9 our day is accord+ to ! w ( ,god1 ?is 0 p>ticul>ly a case = ! ,"l to direct me ?r\gh ?is means4 ,= "h 0 "o ( ,8 *ildr5 9 ne$1 look+ up to 8 ,fa!r to help him1 ?r\gh ! lot1 out ( 8 difficulty1 & ?is ,8 *ild also on a j\rney 9 ,8 s]vice4 ,i drew ! lot & w5t ! way to ! left4 ,aft] "s "t ,i f\nd ,i 0 on ! wrong road4 ,n[1 at la/1 z ,i did n "k h[ to get into ! "r "o1 ,i did :at ,i ought to h done be=e1 & :at ,i believe to be a scriptural way ( act+2 ,i pray$ t ! ,"l graci\sly w\ld s5d "s "o to put me into ! "r way2 & almo/ imm$iately a c>riage came up1 & ,i 0 direct$ on my j\rney4 ,9 "o o!r in/ance ,i us$ ! lot "s ye>s aft]4 ,x conc]n$ a mo/ important matt]1 important = my :ole life4 ,i _h !n a degree ( conviction1 t ,i ought pray]fully & pati5tly to wait = ! ,"l's decision4 ,b my natural m9d w\ld h ! decision at once1 & ?us aft] pray] ,i drew ! lot1 to h ! matt] 9 "o way or o!r settl$4 ,b facts turn$ out completely diff]5t f :at ! lot decid$4 ,to asc]ta9 ! ,"l's w we ought to use scriptural means4 ,pray]1 ! ^w ( ,god1 & ,8 ,_s %\ld be unit$ toge!r4 ,we %\ld g to ! ,"l repeat$ly 9 pray]1 & ask ,him to tea* u by ,8 ,_s ?r\gh ,8 ^w4 ,i say1 by ,8 ,_s ?r\gh ,8 ^w4 ,= if we %\ld ?9k t ,8 ,_s l$ u to d s & s1 because c]ta9 facts are s & s1 & yet ,8 ^w is oppos$ to ! /ep :i* we are go+ to take1 we %\ld be deceiv+ ourselves4 ,= in/ance3 ,a bro!r 9 bus9ess ?9ks he ought to leave ! h\se 9 :i* he lives1 because x is n 9 a good situation4 ,he wi%es to "k ! ,"l's m9d1 z he says1 & prays ab\t ! matt]4 ,aft] a few days1 unexpect$ly1 a h\se is (f]$ to him )\t seek+ aft] x1 9 a mu* bett] situation4 ,! h\se is v suitable1 z he ?9ks2 ! r5t v mod]ate2 & moreov] ! p]son :o (f]s him ! h\se tells him1 t1 because he is a believ] he w let him h x at ?is *eap r5t4 ,!re is1 h[ev]1 ?is scriptural objection 9 ! way4 ,if he goes into ?is h\se1 he mu/ c>ry on s l>ge a bus9ess1 to cov] 8 exp5ses1 t 8 "t w be s occupi$ z to encroa* ^u ^? h\rs1 :i* ought to be devot$ to 8 spiritual int]e/s4 ,n[ ! scriptural way ( decid+ w\ld be ?is3 ,no situation1 no bus9ess w be giv5 to me by ,god1 9 :i* ,i h n "t en\gh to c>e ab\t my s\l 7,mat!w vi4 #cc74 ,!re=e1 h[ev] outw>d circum/ances may appe>1 x c only be consid]$ z p]mitt$ ( ,god1 to prove ! g5u95ess ( my love1 fai?1 & ob$i5ce1 b by no means z ! lead+ ( ,8 provid5ce to induce me to act contr>y to ,8 reveal$ w4 ,9 connexion ) ?is ,i w\ld m5tion1 t ! ,"l v graci\sly gave me1 f ! v comm5cem5t ( my div9e life1 a measure ( simplicity & ( *ildlike disposition 9 spiritual ?+s1 s t :il/ ,i 0 exce$+ly ignorant ( ! ,scriptures1 & 0 /ill f "t to "t ov]come ev5 by outw>d s9s1 yet ,i 0 enabl$ to c>ry mo/ m9ute matt]s to ! ,"l 9 pray]4 ,& ,i h f\nd godl9ess pr(itable unto all ?+s1 hav+ promise ( ! life t n[ is1 & ( t :i* is to come4 ,?\gh v weak & ignorant1 yet ,i _h n[1 by ! grace ( ,god1 "s desire to b5efit o!rs1 & he :o s fai?fully _h once s]v$ ,satan1 s\ght n[ to w9 s\ls = ,*ri/4 ,i may m5tion a few in/ances4 ,i circulat$ e mon?1 9 diff]5t p>ts ( ! c\ntry1 ab\t #cjj mission>y pap]s4 ,i also sold & di/ribut$ a consid]able numb] ( tracts1 & (t5 took my pockets full 9 my walks1 & di/ribut$ !m1 & spoke to poor p :om ,i met4 ,i also wrote lett]s to "s ( my =m] companions 9 s94 ,i visit$ = ?irte5 weeks a sick man1 :o1 :5 ,i fir/ began to speak to him ab\t ! ?+s ( ,god1 0 completely ignorant ( 8 /ate z a s9n]1 tru/+ = salvation 9 8 upright & moral life4 ,aft] "s weeks1 h[ev]1 ! ,"l all[$ me to see a decid$ *ange 9 him1 & he aft]w>ds repeat$ly express$ 8 gratitude1 t ,i _h be5 s5t to him by ,god1 to be ! means ( op5+ 8 bl9d eyes4 ,may ?is enc\rage ! believ+ read] to s[ ! se$1 ?\gh he does n see x spr+ up at once4 ,?us ! ,"l condesc5d$ to beg9 to use me soon aft] my conv]sion1 ?\gh b little2 = ,i c\ld be> b v little1 z ,i did n see at t "t1 z ,i d n[1 t ,god alone c give spiritual life at ! fir/1 & keep x up 9 ! s\l aft]w>ds4 ,h[ imp]fectly1 h[ev]1 on acc\nt ( my ignorance1 "s ( ^! ?+s 7 done1 ,i w %[ by ! foll[+ in/ance4 ,once ,i met a begg> 9 ! fields1 & spoke to him ab\t 8 s\l4 ,b :5 ,i p]ceiv$ x made no impression ^u him1 ,i spoke m l\dly2 & :5 he /ill rema9$ unmov$1 ,i q bawl$ 9 talk+ to him2 till at la/ ,i w5t away1 see+ x 0 ( no use4 ,?\gh none _h s\ght ! ,"l less ?an myself1 :5 ,he 0 pleas$ to beg9 ,8 "w 9 me2 yet s ignorant 0 ,i ( ! "w ( ! ,_s1 t ,i ?\ght my speak+ v l\dly w\ld =ce him into rep5tance t[>ds ,god1 & fai? 9 ! ,"l ,jesus4 ,hav+ he>d t !re 0 a s*oolma/] liv+ 9 a village1 ab\t six miles f ,halls1 :o 0 9 ! habit ( hold+ a pray] meet+ at f\r o'clock e morn+1 ) ! m9]s1 be=e !y w5t into ! pit1 giv+ !m also an address1 ,i ?\ght he 0 a believ]2 & z ,i knew s v few bre?r51 ,i w5t to see him1 9 ord]1 if x might be1 to /r5g!n 8 h&s4 ,ab\t two ye>s aft]w>ds he told me1 t :5 ,i came to him fir/1 he knew n ! ,"l1 b t he _h held ^! pray]-meet+s m]ely out ( k9dness to a relative1 ^: (fice x 01 b :o bad gone on a j\rney2 & t ^? addresses :i* lie _h read 7 n 8 own1 b copi$ out ( a book4 ,he also told me1 t he 0 mu* impress$ ) my k9dness1 &1 :at he consid]$ condesc5sion on my "p 9 com+ to see him1 & ?is1 toge!r ) my conv]sation1 _h be5 in/rum5tal 9 lead+ him to c>e ab\t ! ?+s ( ,god2 & ,i knew him ev] aft]w>ds z a true believ]4 ,?is s*oolma/] ask$ me1 :e!r ,i w\ld n prea* 9 8 p>i%1 z ! ag$ & infirm cl]gyman w\ld be v glad ( my assi/ance4 ,up to ?is "t ,i _h nev] prea*$1 ?\gh = fifte5 mon?s pa/ ,i might h done s z a /ud5t ( div9ity2 = be=e ,*ri/mas #ahbe ,i _h be5 m]cifully kept f attempt+ to prea*1 7?\gh ,i wrote to my fa!r ab\t ,july t ,i _h prea*$1 because ,i knew x w\ld please him71 & aft] ,*ri/mas1 :5 ,i knew ! ,"l1 ,i refra9$ f do+ s1 because ,i felt t ,i 0 yet too little in/ruct$ 9 ! ?+s ( ,god4 ,! same reason ought to h /ill kept me f prea*+2 yet ,i ?\ght1 t1 by tak+ a s]mon1 or ! great] "p ( "o1 writt5 by a spiritual man1 & committ+ x to memory1 ,i might b5efit ! p4 ,_h ,i reason$ scripturally1 ,i %\ld h said1 surely x _c be ! w ( ,god1 t ,i %\ld prea* 9 ?is way1 if ,i h n en\gh k ( ! ,scriptures to write a s]mon4 ,moreov]1 ,i _h n en\gh light nor t5d]ness ( consci5ce to see1 t ,i 0 a deceiv] 9 ! pulpit2 = e body supposes1 t ! s]mon a man prea*es is1 if n entirely1 at lea/ z to ! mo/ "p1 8 own composition4 ,i n[ set ab\t putt+ a pr9t$ s]mon into a suitable =m1 & committ+ x to memory4 ,x 0 h>d "w4 ,!re is no joy 9 man's own do+s & *oos+s4 ,x took me ne>ly a :ole week to commit to memory su* a s]mon z w\ld take up ne>ly an h\r 9 repeat+4 ,i got ?r\gh x1 b _h no enjoym5t 9 ! "w4 ,x 0 on ,augu/ #bg1 #ahbf1 at eight 9 ! morn+1 9 a *apel ( ease1 9 connexion ) :i* my fri5d 0 s*oolma/]4#e ,at elev5 ,i repeat$ ! same s]mon v]batim 9 ! p>i% *ur*4 ,!re 0 "o s]vice m1 9 ! aft]noon1 at :i* ,i ne$$ n to h done any ?+2 = ! s*oolma/] might h read a pr9t$ s]mon1 z he us$ to d4 ,b hav+ a desire to s]ve ! ,"l1 ?\gh ,i (t5 knew n h[ to d x scripturally2 & kn[+ t ?is ag$ & un5light5$ cl]gyman _h _h ?is liv+ = =ty-eight ye>s1 & hav+ !re=e reason to believe1 t ! gospel sc>cely ev] _h be5 prea*$ 9 t place2 ,i _h x 9 my he>t to prea* aga9 9 ! aft]noon4 ,b ,i _h no second s]mon committ$ to memory4 ,x came1 h[ev]1 to my m9d to read ! #e? *apt] ( ,mat!w1 & to make su* rem>ks z ,i 0 able4 ,i did s4 ,imm$iately ^u beg9n+ to exp\nd ,bless$ are ! poor 9 _s1 c4 ,i felt myself greatly assi/$2 & :]eas 9 ! morn+ my s]mon _h n be5 simple en\gh = ! p to und]/& x1 ,i n[ 0 li/5$ to ) ! greate/ att5tion1 & ,i ?9k 0 also und]/ood4 ,my own peace & joy 7 great4 ,i felt ?is a bless$ "w4 ,aft] ! s]vice ,i left ! ag$ cl]gyman z soon z possible1 le/ ,i %\ld lose my enjoym5t4 ,on my way to ,halle ,i ?\ght1 ?is is ! way ,i %\ld l always to prea*4 ,b !n x came imm$iately to my m9d1 t su* sort ( prea*+ might d = illit]ate c\ntry p1 b t x nev] w\ld d be=e a well educat$ assembly 9 t[n4 ,i ?\ght1 ! tru? ought to be prea*$ at all haz>ds1 b x ought to be giv5 9 a diff]5t =m1 suit$ to ! he>]s4 ,?us ,i rema9$ unsettl$ 9 my m9d z x reg>ds ! mode ( prea*+2 & x is n surpris+ t ,i did n !n see ! tru? conc]n+ ?is matt]1 = ,i did n und]/& ! "w ( ! ,_s1 & !re=e saw n ! p[]lessness ( human eloqu5ce4 ,fur!r1 ,i did n keep 9 m9d1 t if ! mo/ illit]ate p]sons 9 ! congregation c compreh5d ! disc\rse1 ! mo/ educat$ w und]/& x too2 b t ! rev]se does n hold true4 ,x 0 n till ?ree ye>s aft]w>ds t ,i 0 l$1 ?r\gh grace1 to see :at ,i n[ consid] ! "r mode ( prep>ation = ! public prea*+ ( ! ,^w4 ,b ab\t ?is1 if ,god p]mit1 ,i w say m :5 ,i come to t p]iod ( my life4 ,i n[ prea*$ frequ5tly1 bo? 9 ! *ur*es ( villages & t[ns1 b nev] _h any enjoym5t 9 do+ s1 except :5 speak+ 9 a simple way2 ?\gh ! repetition ( s]mons1 :i* _h be5 committ$ to memory1 br\ght m praise f my fell[-creatures4 ,b f nei!r way ( prea*+ did ,i see any fruit4 ,x may be1 t ! la/ day may %[ ! b5efit ev5 ( ^! feeble endeav\rs4 ,"o reason :y ! ,"l did n p]mit me to see fruit1 seems to me1 t ,i %\ld h be5 mo/ probably lift$ up by success4 ,x may be also1 because ,i pray$ exce$+ly little respect+ ! m9i/ry ( ! ,^w1 & because ,i walk$ s little ) ,god1 & 0 s r>ely a vessel unto hon\r1 sanctifi$1 & meet = ! ,ma/]'s use4 ,ab\t ! "t t ,i fir/ began to prea* ,i liv$ = ab\t two mon?s 9 free lodg+s1 provid$ = poor /ud5ts ( div9ity 9 ! ,orphan-,h\se1 built 9 dep5d5ce ^u ,god1 by t devot$ & em95t s]vant ( ,*ri/1 ,a4 ,h4 ,franke1 ,pr(essor ( ,div9ity at ,halle1 :o di$ #agbg4 ,i m5tion ?is1 z "s ye>s aft]w>ds ,i 0 b5efit$ myself ?r\gh ! fai? ( ?is de> man ( ,god4--,ab\t t "t ,i 0 /ill s weak t ,i fell repeat$ly into op5 s9s1 yet c\ld n cont9ue 9 !m1 nay1 n ev5 = a few days1 )\t sorr[ ( he>t1 confession be=e ,god1 & flee+ to ! blood ( ! ,lamb4 ,& s ignorant 0 ,i /ill1 t ,i b\ght a crucifix 9 a frame1 & hung x up 9 my room1 hop+ t be+ ?us frequ5tly rem9d$ ( ! suff]+s ( my ,savi\r1 ,i %\ld n fall s frequ5tly into s94 ,b 9 a few days ! look+ to ! crucifix 0 z no?+1 & ,i fell ab\t t v "t m ?an once deeply4 ,ab\t ?is "t ,i =m$ an intimate acqua9tance ) a bro!r1 :o 0 also a div9ity /ud5t3 & z we lov$ "o ano!r s mu*1 & 7 s happy 9 "o ano!r's society1 we ?\ght t x w\ld greatly add to our joy1 & to "o ano!r's b5efit1 to live toge!r1 & t ?us we might mutually help "o ano!r4 ,accord+ly 9 ,septemb] #ahbf1 ,i left ! free lodg+s 9 ! ,orphan-,h\se1 & liv$ ) him4 ,b alas6 we 7 n aw>e1 t because ,god is greatly glorifi$ by ! love & union ( ,8 p1 = ?is v reason ,satan p>ticul>ly hates x1 & w1 !re=e1 9 e possible way1 seek to divide !m4 ,we ought to h especially pray$1 & t frequ5tly1 t ! ,"l w\ld keep u toge!r 9 love2 in/ead ( :i*1 ,i d n ?9k t we at all fe>$ disunion1 z we lov$ "o ano!r s mu*4 ,= ?is reason our great adv]s>y soon got an advantage by our neglect+ pray] conc]n+ ?is po9t1 & we 7 disunit$1 & love & union 7 n fully re/or$ betwe5 u till aft] we _h be5 = "s "t sep>at$4 ,hav+ he>d t a v ri* lady ( title1 resid+ at ,frank=t-on-!-,ma9e1 ab\t two hundr$ miles f ,halle1 0 a v pi\s p]son1 &19 visit+ a *>itable in/itution at ,dussel?al1 _h giv5 v lib]ally2 & wi%+ mu* ab\t ! comm5cem5t ( ! ye> #ahbg to help a poor relative ) a small sum ( money1 & also to pay ! rema9d] ( ! debt :i* ,i _h contract$ = my travel+ exp5ses to ,switz]l&3 ,i wrote to ?is lady1 ask+ h] to l5d me a small sum ( money1 9 actual am\nt only little above ,l#e41 b1 z money 9 ! ,nor? ( ,g]many has mu* m value ?an 9 ,engl&1 x 0 z mu* z ,l #ab4 or ,l #ae4 9 ?is c\ntry4 ,:il/ ,i 0 writ+1 h[ev]1 ! ?\ght occurr$ to me1 ,suppose ?is lady %\ld n be a believ]8 ,i1 !re=e1 po9t$ out to h] ! way ( salvation1 & relat$ to h] h[ ,i _h be5 br\ght to ! k ( ! tru?4 ,b ,i receiv$ no answ] by ! "t ,i might h _h "o4--,i w\ld j notice1 t s9ce #ahbi my practice1 on acc\nt ( :at ,i f\nd 9 ! ,scriptures1 ,rom4 xiii4 #h1 z x reg>ds borr[+ money1 has be5 diff]5t4 ,&1 moreov]1 ,i h consid]$ t !re is no gr\nd to g away f ! door ( ! ,"l to t ( a believ]1 s long z ,he is s will+ to supply our ne$4 ,ab\t ,janu>y #bj? ,i 0 "o day v wret*$4 ,satan obta9$ an advantage ov] me ?r\gh ov]-mu* "w2 = ,i 0 9 ! habit ( writ+ ab\t f\rte5 h\rs a day4 ,"o morn+ ,i 0 9 s wret*$ a /ate1 t ,i said 9 my he>t1 :at h ,i n[ ga9$ by becom+ a ,*ri/ian8 ,aft]w>ds ,i walk$ ab\t 9 ! /reets 9 ?is wret*$ /ate ( he>t1 & at la/ ,i w5t into a confection]'s %op1 :]e w9e & ard5t spirits 7 sold1 to eat & to dr9k4 ,b z soon z ,i _h tak5 a piece ( cake ,i left ! %op1 hav+ no re/1 z ,i felt t x 0 unbecom+ a believ]1 ei!r to g to su* places1 or to sp5d 8 money 9 su* a way4 ,9 ! aft]noon ( ! v day on :i*1 9 ! +ratitude ( my he>t1 ,i _h _h su* unk9d ?\ghts ab\t ! ,"l1 7:o 0 at t v "t 9 s rem>kable a mann] supply+ my temporal wants1 by my be+ employ$ 9 writ+ = an ,,am]ican ,pr(essor71 ,he graci\sly %[$ me my s91 n by a sev]e *a/isem5t1 z ,i mo/ righte\sly des]v$1 b by add+ ano!r m]cy to ! _m ,he _h already %[n me4 ,oh6 h[ long-suff]+ is our ,"l4 ,h[ does ,he be> ) u6 ,may ,i at lea/ n[ seek1 = ! few days :il/ ,i may /ay 9 ?is _w1 to be m grateful = all ,8 m]cies6 ,at two o'clock ,i receiv$ a p>cel f ,frank=t1 conta9+ ! exact sum ( money ( :i* ,i _h reque/$ ! loan4 ,!re 0 no lett] to be f\nd4 ,i 0 ov]:elm$ ) ! ,"l's m]cy1 b v mu* regrett$ t !re 0 no lett]4 ,at la/1 on c>efully exam9+ ! pap] 9 :i* ! silv] _h be5 pack$1 ,i f\nd "o1 :i* ,i h kept1 & :i* ,i translate f ! ,g]man4 ,a peculi> provid5ce has br\ght me acqua9t$ ) ! lett] :i* y h writt5 to ,lady ,b4 ,b y are "u a mi/ake conc]n+ h]1 bo? z x reg>ds h] "*1 & h] /ay at ,d41 :]e %e nev] 04 ,%e has be5 tak5 = ano!r individual4 ,b t ,i may less5 9 "s measure ! difficulties 9 :i* y seem to be1 ,i s5d y ! enclos$ small sum1 = :i* y may ?ank1 n ! unkn[n giv]1 b ! ,"l1 :o turne? ! he>ts l riv]s ( wat]4 ,hold fa/ ! fai? :i* ,god has giv5 y by ,8 ,holy ,_s2 x is ! mo/ preci\s treasure 9 ?is life1 & x conta9s 9 itself true happ9ess4 ,only seek by wat*+ & pray] m & m to be deliv]$ f all vanity & self-complac5cy1 by :i* ev5 ! true believ] may be ensn>$ :5 he lea/ expects x4 ,let x be y\r *ief aim to be m & m humble1 fai?ful1 & quiet4 ,may we n belong to ^? :o say & write cont9ually1' ,"l1' ',"l1' b :o h ,him n deeply 9 _! he>ts4 ,*ri/ianity consi/s n 9 words1 b 9 p[]4 ,!re mu/ be life 9 u4 ,=1 !re=e1 ,god lov$ u fir/ t we might love ,him 9 return2 & t lov+ we might receive p[]1 to be fai?ful to ,him1 & to conqu] ourselves1 ! _w1 di/ress1 & dea?4 ,may ,8 ,_s /r5g!n y = ?is1 t y may be an able mess5g] ( ,8 ,gospel6 ,am54 ,,an ,,ador+ ,,wor%ipp] ,,( ,,! ,,savi\r1 ,,jesus ,,*ri/4 ,frank=t-on-!-,ma9e1 ,janu>y #ad?1 #ahbg4 ,i saw1 9 "s measure1 at ! "t :5 ,i receiv$ t lett]1 h[ mu* ,i ne$$ su* a fai?ful1 &1 at ! same "t1 lov+ ^w ( admonition2 b ,i h se5 x m fully s9ce4 ,self-complac5cy1 & a want ( quietness & say+ & writ+ m frequ5tly ,"l1 ,"l1 ?an ackn[l$g+ ,him by my life z su*2 ^! 7 ! evils aga9/ :i* at t "t ,i p>ticul>ly ne$$ to be caution$2 & up to ?is day ,i am /ill mu*1 v mu*1 lack+ 9 ^! po9ts3 ?\gh ! ,"l1 to ,8 praise ,i w\ld say x1 has done mu* = me 9 ^! p>ticul>s s9ce t "t4 ,aft] hav+ read ?is lett]1 my he>t 0 full ( joy1 %ame & gratitude4 ,truly x 0 ! goodness ( ,god :i* br\ght my he>t into ?is /ate1 & n ! money = t 0 gone 9 a few h\rs aft] = ! two purposes above ref]r$ to4 ,) my he>t full ( peculi> feel+s1 & a%am$ ( my conduct 9 ! morn+1 ,i left ! t[n t[>ds ! ev5+1 to walk alone 9 a solit>y place4 ,& n[1 be+ p>ticul>ly consci\s ( my +ratitude to ! ,"l = all ,8 m]cies1 & ( my want ( /eadfa/ness 9 ,8 ways1 ,i c\ld n =be> fall+ d[n on my knees beh9d a h$ge1 ?\gh ! sn[ 0 a foot deep1 anew to surr5d] myself :olly to ,him1 & to pray = /r5g? t ,i might = ! future live m to ,8 glory1 & also to ?ank ,him = ,8 late m]cy4 ,x 0 a bless$ "t1 ,i cont9u$ ab\t half an h\r 9 pray]4 ,aft] su* an exp]i5ce1 x may be difficult = "o1 :o does n "k ! plague ( 8 own he>t1 to ?9k t ,i 0 at t "t a true believ]1 :5 ,i tell h9t t s base 0 ,i1 s altoge!r l a bea/ be=e my ,god1 & unm9dful ( ,8 m]cies to me 9 ,*ri/1 t only a few weeks aft] ,i fell into a wret*$ backslid+ /ate1 9 :i* ,i cont9u$ = _m days1 dur+ :i* "t pray] 0 almo/ entirely giv5 up4 ,x 0 on "o ( ^! days t ,i rang my bell1 & ord]$ ! s]vant to fet* me w9e4 ,& n[ ,i began to dr9k4 ,b h[ good 0 ! ,"l6 ,?\gh ,i desir$ to dr9k1 t ,i might be able m easily to g on 9 s91 yet ,he w\ld n all[ me to give up myself to ! wick$ness ( my he>t4 ,= :il/ 9 my ungodly days ,i _h drunk once ab\t five qu>ts ( /rong be] 9 "o aft]noon1 9 ! way ( bravado1 & once also mu* w9e at "o "t1 )\t remorse ( consci5ce1 ,i c\ld n[ take only two or ?ree glasses be=e ! wick$ness ( my conduct 0 br\ght be=e me2 & my consci5ce told me t ,i drank m]ely = ! sake ( dr9k+1 & ?us ,i gave x up4 ,x 0 ab\t ?is "t t ,i =m$ ! plan ( ex*ang+ ! ,univ]sity ( ,halle = t ( ,b]l91 on acc\nt ( !re be+ a great] numb] ( believ+ pr(essors & /ud5ts 9 ! latt] place4 ,b ! :ole plan 0 =m$ )\t pray]1 or at lea/ )\t e>ne/ pray]4 ,:51 h[ev]1 ! morn+ came on :i* ,i _h to take decid$ /eps conc]n+ x1 & to apply = ! univ]sity-te/imonials1 ! ,"l graci\sly /irr$ me up1 pray]fully to consid] ! matt]2 & f9d+ t ,i bad no suffici5t reason = leav+ ,halle1 ,i gave up ! plan1 & h nev] _h reason to regret hav+ done s4 ,9 ! vacations1 ,mi*aelmas1 #ahbf1 & ,ea/]1 #ahbg1 & at o!r times1 ,i visit$ a ,moravian settlem5t1 call$ ,gnadau1 :i* 0 only ab\t ?ree miles di/ant f ! place :]e my fa!r !n resid$4 ,?r\gh ! in/rum5tality ( ! bre?r51 :om ,i met !re1 my _s 0 (t5 refre%$4 ,! public means ( grace by :i* ,i c\ld be b5efit$ 7 v few4 ,?\gh ,i w5t regul>ly to *ur* :5 ,i did n prea* myself1 yet ,i sc>cely ev] he>d ! tru?2 = !re 0 no enlight5$ cl]gyman 9 ! t[n4 ,& :5 x s happ5$ t ,i c\ld be> ,dr4 ,?oluck1 or any o!r godly m9i/]1 ! prospect ( x be=eh&1 & ! look+ back ^u x aft]w>ds1 s]v$ to fill me ) joy4 ,n[ & !n ,i walk$ t5 or fifte5 miles to enjoy ?is privilege4 ,may ^? :o enjoy ! fai?ful m9i/ry ( ! ,^w feel exce$+ly ?ankful = x4 ,!re are few bless+s on e>? great] = a believ]2 & yet ! ,"l is frequ5tly oblig$ to tea* u ! value ( ?is bless+ by depriv+ u ( x = a season4 ,ano!r means ( grace :i* ,i att5d$1 besides ! ,saturday ev5+ meet+s 9 bro!r ,wagn]'s h\se1 0 a meet+ e ,"l's day ev5+ ) ! believ+ /ud5ts1 :i* consi/$ ( six or m 9 numb]1 & increas$1 be=e ,i left ,halle1 to ab\t #bj2 & :i*1 aft] ! ,ea/] vacation ( #ahbg1 0 held 9 my room till ,i left ,halle4 ,9 ^! meet+s "o1 or two1 or m ( ! bre?r5 pray$1 & we read ! ,scriptures1 sang hymns1 & sometimes also "o or ano!r ( ! bre?r5 spoke a little 9 ! way ( exhortation1 & we read also su* writ+s ( godly m5 z 7 calculat$ = edification4 ,i 0 (t5 greatly /irr$ up & refre%$ 9 ^! meet+s2 & twice1 be+ 9 a backslid+ /ate1 & !re=e cold & mis]able1 ,i op5$ my he>t to ! bre?r51 & 0 br\ght out ( t /ate ?r\gh ! means ( _! exhortations & pray]s4 ,=sake n ! assembl+ ( y\rselves toge!r1 is a mo/ important exhortation4 ,ev5 if we %\ld n d]ive any especial b5efit1 at ! "t1 s f> z we are consci\s1 yet we may be kept f mu* h>m4 ,& v frequ5tly ! beg9n+ ( coldness ( he>t is n\ri%$ by keep+ away f ! meet+s ( ! sa9ts4 ,i "k1 :5 ,i 0 cold1 & _h no real desire to be br\ght out ( t /ate1 ,i w5t a few times into ! villages1 :]e ,i 0 sure n to meet ) bre?r51 t ,i might n be spok5 to ab\t ! ?+s ( ,god4 ,yet s graci\s 0 ! ,"l1 t my v wret*$ness br\ght me back aft] a few h\rs4 ,! ,"l _h begun a good "w 9 me2 & be+ fai?ful1 ?\gh ,i 0 fai?less1 ,he w\ld n give me up1 b c>ri$ on ,8 graci\s "w 9 me2 ?\gh x w\ld h progress$ mu* m rapidly1 _h n my rebelli\s he>t resi/$4 ,z to ! o!r means ( grace ,i w\ld say3 ,i fell into ! sn>e1 into :i* s _m "y believ]s fall1 ! read+ ( religi\s books 9 pref]5ce to ! ,scriptures4 ,i c\ld no long] read ,fr5* & ,g]man novels1 z ,i _h =m]ly done1 to fe$ my c>nal m9d2 b /ill ,i did n put into ! room ( ^? books ! be/ ( all books4 ,i read tracts1 mission>y pap]s1 s]mons1 & biographies ( godly p]sons4 ,! la/ k9d ( books ,i f\nd m pr(itable ?an o!rs1 & _h !y be5 well select$1 or _h ,i n read too mu* ( su* writ+s1 or _h any ( !m t5d$ p>ticul>ly to ende> ! ,scriptures to me1 !y might h done me mu* good4--,i nev] _h be5 at any "t 9 my life 9 ! habit ( read+ ! ,holy ,scriptures4 ,:5 "u fifte5 ye>s ( age1 ,i occasionally read a little ( !m at s*ool2 aft]w>ds ,god's preci\s book 0 entirely laid aside1 s t ,i nev] read "o s+le *apt] ( x1 z f> z ,i rememb]1 till x pleas$ ,god to beg9 a "w ( grace 9 my he>t4 ,n[ ! scriptural way ( reason+ w\ld h be53 ,god ,himself has condesc5d$ to become an au?or1 & ,i am ignorant ab\t t preci\s book1 :i* ,8 ,holy ,_s has caus$ to be writt5 ?r\gh ! in/rum5tality ( ,8 s]vants1 & x conta9s t :i* ,i ought to "k1 & ! k ( :i* w lead me to true happ9ess2 !re=e ,i ought to read aga9 & aga9 ?is mo/ preci\s book1 ?is book ( books1 mo/ e>ne/ly1 mo/ pray]fully1 & ) mu* m$itation2 & 9 ?is practice ,i ought to cont9ue all ! days ( my life4 ,= ,i 0 aw>e1 ?\gh ,i read x b little1 t ,i knew sc>cely any?+ ( x4 ,b in/ead ( act+ ?us1 & be+ l$ by my ignorance ( ! ^w ( ,god to /udy x m1 my difficulty 9 und]/&+ x1 & ! little enjoym5t ,i _h 9 x1 made me c>eless ( read+ x 7= mu* pray]ful read+ ( ! ,^w1 gives n m]ely m k1 b increases ! delight we h 9 read+ x72 & ?us1 l _m believ]s1 ,i practically pref]r$1 = ! fir/ f\r ye>s ( my div9e life1 ! works ( un9spir$ m5 to ! oracles ( ! liv+ ,god4 ,! consequ5ce 01 t ,i rema9$ a babe1 bo? 9 k & grace4 ,9 k ,i say2 = all true k mu/ be d]iv$1 by ! ,_s1 f ! ,^w4 ,& z ,i neglect$ ! ,^w1 ,i 0 = ne>ly f\r ye>s s ignorant1 t ,i did n cle>ly "k ev5 ! fundam5tal po9ts ( our holy fai?4 ,& ?is lack ( k mo/ sadly kept me back f walk+ /eadily 9 ! ways ( ,god4 ,= x is ! tru? t makes u free1 7,john viii4 #ca1 #cb17 by deliv]+ u f ! slav]y ( ! lu/s ( ! fle%1 ! lu/s ( ! eyes1 & ! pride ( life4 ,! ,^w proves x4 ,! exp]i5ce ( ! sa9ts proves x2 & also my own exp]i5ce mo/ decid$ly proves x4 ,= :5 x pleas$ ! ,"l 9 ,aug4 #ahbi1 to br+ me really to ! ,scriptures1 my life & walk became v diff]5t4 ,& ?\gh ev5 s9ce t ,i h v mu* fall5 %ort ( :at ,i might & ought to be1 yet1 by ! grace ( ,god1 ,i h be5 enabl$ to live mu* ne>] to ,him ?an be=e4 ,if any believ]s read ?is1 :o practically pref] o!r books to ! ,holy ,scriptures1 & :o enjoy ! writ+s ( m5 mu* m ?an ! ^w ( ,god1 may !y be w>n$ by my loss4 ,i %all consid] ?is book to h be5 ! means ( do+ mu* good1 %\ld x please ! ,"l1 ?r\gh its in/rum5tality1 to lead "s ( ,8 p no long] to neglect ! ,holy ,scriptures1 b to give !m t pref]5ce1 :i* !y h hi!rto be/[$ on ! writ+s ( m54 ,my dislike to increase ! numb] ( books w\ld h be5 suffici5t to det] me f writ+ ^! pages1 _h ,i n be5 conv9c$1 t ?is is ! only way 9 :i* ! bre?r5 at l>ge may be b5efit$ ?r\gh my mi/akes & errors1 & be5 influ5c$ by ! hope1 t 9 answ] to my pray]s1 ! read+ ( my exp]i5ce may be ! means ( lead+ !m to value ! ,scriptures m highly1 & to make !m ! rule ( all _! actions4 ,be=e ,i leave ?is subject ,i w\ld only add3 ,if ! read] und]/&s v little ( ! ^w ( ,god1 he ought to read x v mu*2 = ! ,_s expla9s ! ,^w by ! ,^w4 ,& if he enjoys ! read+ ( ! ,^w little1 t is j ! reason :y he %\ld read x mu*2 = ! frequ5t read+ ( ! ,scriptures creates a delight 9 !m1 s t ! m we read !m1 ! m we desire to d s4 ,& if ! read] %\ld be an unbeliev]1 ,i w\ld likewise entreat him to read ! ,scriptures e>ne/ly1 b to ask ,god previ\sly to give him a bless+4 ,= 9 do+ s1 ,god may make him wise unto salvation1 #b ,tim4 iii4 #af4 ,if any "o %\ld ask me1 h[ he may read ! ,scriptures mo/ pr(itably1 ,i w\ld advise him1 t ,i4 ,above all he %\ld seek to h x settl$ 9 8 own m9d1 t ,god alone1 by ,8 ,_s1 c tea* him1 & t !re=e1 z ,god w be inquir$ ( = bless+s1 x becomes him to seek ,god's bless+ previ\s to read+1 & also :il/ read+4 ,,ii4 ,he %\ld h x1 moreov]1 settl$ 9 8 m9d1 t al?\gh ! ,holy ,_s is ! be/ & suffici5t tea*]1 yet t ?is tea*] does n always tea* imm$iately :5 we desire x1 & t1 !re=e1 we may h to entreat ,him aga9 & aga9 = ! explanation ( c]ta9 passages2 b t ,he w surely tea* u at la/1 if inde$ we are seek+ = light pray]fully1 pati5tly1 & ) a view to ! glory ( ,god4 ,,iii4 ,x is ( imm5se importance = ! und]/&+ ( ! ^w ( ,god1 to read x 9 c\rse1 s t we may read e day a portion ( ! ,old & a portion ( ! ,new ,te/am5t1 go+ on :]e we previ\sly left (f4 ,?is is important--#a1 because x ?r[s light ^u ! connexion1 & a diff]5t c\rse1 accord+ to :i* "o habitually selects p>ticul> *apt]s1 w make x utt]ly impossible ev] to und]/& mu* ( ! ,scriptures4 #b1 ,:il/ we are 9 ! body1 we ne$ a *ange ev5 9 spiritual ?+s1 & ?is *ange ! ,"l has graci\sly provid$ 9 ! great v>iety :i* is to be f\nd 9 ,8 ^w4 #c1 ,x t5ds to ! glory ( ,god2 = ! leav+ out "s *apt]s "h & !re1 is practically say+1 t c]ta9 portions are bett] ?an o!rs2 or1 t !re are c]ta9 p>ts ( reveal$ tru? unpr(itable or unnecess>y4 #d1 ,x may keep u1 by ! bless+ ( ,god1 f errone\s views1 z 9 read+ ?us regul>ly ?r\gh ! ,scriptures1 we are l$ to see ! mean+ ( ! :ole1 & also kept f lay+ too mu* /ress ^u c]ta9 fav\rite views4 #e1 ,! ,scriptures conta9 ! :ole reveal$ w ( ,god1 & !re=e we ought to seek to read f "t to "t ?r\gh ! :ole ( t reveal$ w4 ,!re are _m believ]s1 ,i fe>1 9 our day1 :o h n read ev5 once ?r\gh ! :ole ( ! ,scriptures2 & yet 9 a few mon?s1 by read+ only a few *apt]s e day1 !y might accompli% x4 ,,iv4 ,x is also ( ! greate/ importance to m$itate on :at we read1 s t p]haps a small portion ( t :i* we h read1 or1 if we h "t1 ! :ole may be m$itat$ ^u 9 ! c\rse ( ! day4 ,or a small portion ( a book1 or an epi/le1 or a gospel1 ?r\gh :i* we g regul>ly = m$itation1 may be consid]$ e day1 )\t1 h[ev]1 suff]+ oneself to be br\ght into bondage by ?is plan4 ,le>n$ comm5t>ies ,i h f\nd to /ore ! head ) _m notions1 & (t5 also ) ! tru? ( ,god2 b :5 ! ,_s tea*es1 ?r\gh ! in/rum5tality ( pray] & m$itation1 ! he>t is affect$4 ,! =m] k9d ( k g5]ally puffs up1 & is (t5 r5\nc$1 :5 ano!r comm5t>y gives a diff]5t op9ion1 & (t5 also is f\nd good = no?+1 :5 x is to be c>ri$ out into practice4 ,! latt] k9d ( k g5]ally humbles1 gives joy1 leads u ne>] to ,god1 & is n easily reason$ away2 & hav+ be5 obta9$ f ,god1 & ?us hav+ ent]$ into ! he>t1 & become our own1 is also g5]ally c>ri$ out4 ,if ! inquir] aft] tru? does n und]/& ! ,hebrew & ,greek languages1 s z to be able to comp>e ! common translation ) ! orig9al1 he may1 conc]n+ sev]al passages1 get light by an improv$ r5d]+1 provid$ he c be sure t ! translator 0 a truly spiritual p]son4 ,! la/ & mo/ important means (1 grace1 namely1 pray]1 0 comp>atively b little improv$ by me4 ,i pray$1 & ,i pray$ (t54 ,i also pray$1 9 g5]al1 by ! grace ( ,god1 ) s9c]ity2 b _h ,i be5 m e>ne/ly pray+1 or ev5 only z mu*1 z ,i h pray$ ( late ye>s1 ,i %\ld h made mu* m rapid progress4 ,9 ,augu/1 #ahbg1 ,i he>d t ! ,cont95tal ,society 9 ,engl& int5d$ to s5d a m9i/] to ,bu*>e/1 ! resid5ce ( _m nom9al ,g]man ,*ri/ians1 to help an ag$ bro!r 9 ! "w ( ! ,"l2 ! two o!r ,g]man ,prote/ant m9i/]s 9 t place be+1 ! "o a ,soc9ian1 & ! o!r an un5light5$ or?odox prea*]4 ,aft] consid]ation & pray] ,i (f]$ myself = ?is "w to pr(essor ,?oluck1 :o 0 reque/$ to look out = a suitable individual2 = ) all my weakness ,i _h a great desire to live :olly = ,god4 ,mo/ unexpect$ly my fa!r gave 8 cons5t1 ?\gh ,bu*>e/ 0 above a ?\s& miles f my home1 & z completely a mission>y /ation z any o!r4 ,i consid]$ ?is a rem>kable provid5ce2 ?\gh ,i see n[1 t a s]vant ( ,*ri/ has to act = 8 ,ma/]1 :e!r x be accord+ to ! w ( 8 e>?ly fa!r or n4 ,i !n w5t home to1 sp5d a %ort "t ) my fa!r4 ,9 ! t[n :]e he liv$1 conta9+ ab\t #cjjj inhabitants1 ,i c\ld n he> ( a s+le believ]1 ?\gh ,i made _m inquiries4 ,! "t ,i /ay$ ) my fa!r 0 m pr(itably sp5t ?an x _h =m]ly be54 ,i 0 enabl$ m ?an ev] be=e to realize my high call+4 ,i _h by ! grace ( ,god p[] ov] s92 at lea/ mu* m ?an at any =m] p]iod ( my life4 ,i return$ to ,halle1 & n[ prep>$ ) e>ne/ness = ! "w ( ! ,"l4 ,i set be=e me ! suff]+s :i* might await me4 ,i c\nt$ ! co/4 ,& he1 :o once s fully-s]v$ ,satan1 0 n[ will+1 con/ra9$ by ! love ( ,*ri/1 r to suff] affliction = ! sake ( ,jesus1 ?an to enjoy ! pleasures ( s9 = a season4 ,i also pray$ )1 a degree ( e>ne/ness conc]n+ my future "w4 ,"o day1 at ! end ( ,octob]1 ! above-m5tion$ bro!r1 ,h]mann ,ball1 mission>y to ! ,jews1 att5d$ ! ,"l's day ev5+ meet+ 9 my room1 on 8 way ?r\gh ,halle1 & /at$ t he fe>$1 on acc\nt ( 8 heal?1 8 %\ld be oblig$ to give up lab\r+ among ! ,jews4 ,:5 ,i he>d ?is1 ,i felt a peculi> desire to fill up 8 place4 ,ab\t ?is v "t also ,i became exce$+ly fond ( ! ,hebrew language1 :i* ,i _h c>$ ab\t v little up to t "t1 & :i* ,i _h m]ely /udi$ n[ & !n1 f a s5se ( duty4 ,b n[ ,i /udi$ x1 = _m weeks1 ) ! greate/ eag]ness & delight4 ,:il/ ,i ?us f "t to "t felt a desire to fill up ,bro!r ,ball's place z a mission>y to ! ,jews1 7ab\t :i*1 h[ev]1 ,i did n s]i\sly ?9k1 because ,dr4 ,?oluck daily expect$ a lett] f ,london1 f9ally to settle ! p>ticul>s respect+ my go+ to ,bu*>e/72 & :il/ ,i ?us greatly delight$ 9 ! /udy ( ,hebrew3 ,i call$ 9 ! ev5+ ( ,nov4 #ag? on ,dr4 ,?oluck4 ,9 ! c\rse ( conv]sation he ask$ me1 :e!r ,i _h ev] _h a desire to be a mission>y to ! ,jews1 z ,i might be connect$ ) ! ,london ,mission>y ,society1 = promot+ ,*ri/ianity among !m1 = :i* he 0 an ag5t4 ,i 0 /ruck ) ! "q1 & told him :at _h pass$ 9 my m9d1 b add$ t x 0 n prop] to ?9k any?+ ab\t t1 z ,i 0 go+ to ,bu*>e/3 to :i* he agre$4 ,:5 ,i came home1 h[ev]1 ^! few words 7 l fire )9 me4 ,! next morn+ ,i felt all desire = go+ to ,bu*>e/ gone1 :i* appe>$ to me v wrong & fle%ly1 & ,i !re=e entreat$ ! ,"l1 to re/ore to me ! =m] desire = lab\r+ on t mission>y /ation4 ,he graci\sly did s almo/ imm$iately4 ,my e>ne/ness 9 /udy+ ,hebrew1 & my peculi> love = x1 h[ev]1 cont9u$4 ,ab\t ?is "t ,i _h an (f] ( becom+ tutor to ! sons ( a pi\s ,g5tleman ( title1 :i* ,i did n accept on acc\nt ( my purpose ( go+ to ,bu*>e/1 & if t %\ld come to no?+1 on acc\nt ( my desire ( be+ a mission>y to ! ,jews4 ,ab\t t5 days aft]1 ,dr4 ,?oluck receiv$ a lett] f ! ,cont95tal ,society1 /at+1 t1 on acc\nt ( ! w> betwe5 ! ,turks & ,russians1 x appe>$ well to ! committee1 = ! "t be+ to give up ! ?\ght ( s5d+ a m9i/] to ,bu*>e/1 z x 0 ! seat ( w> betwe5 ! two armies4 ,dr4 ,?oluck !n ask$ me aga91 :at ,i n[ ?\ght ab\t be+ a mission>y to ! ,jews4 ,my reply 01 t ,i c\ld n !n give an answ]1 b t ,i w\ld let him "k1 aft] ,i _h pray]fully consid]$ ! matt]4 ,aft] pray] & consid]ation1 & consult+ ) exp]i5c$ bre?r51 9 ord] t !y might probe my he>t z to my motives1 ,i came to ?is conclusion1 t1 ?\gh ,i c\ld n say ) c]ta9ty x 0 ! w ( ,god t ,i %\ld be a mission>y to ! ,jews1 yet1 t ,i ought to (f] myself to ! committee1 leav+ x ) ! ,"l to d ) me aft]w>ds1 z x might seem good 9 ,8 sight4 ,accord+ly ,dr4 ,?oluck wrote1 ab\t ! beg9n+ ( ,decemb]1 #ahbg1 to ! committee 9 ,london4 ,at ,*ri/mas ,i sp5t a few days at ,belleb51 a village ab\t fifte5 miles f ,halle1 :]e ,i _h be5 once or twice be=e1 bo? = ! sake ( refre%+ ! few bre?r5 liv+ !re1 & also ( hav+ my own _s refre%$ by _! love4 ,"o ev5+1 :5 ,i 0 exp\nd+ ! ,scriptures to !m1 an unconv]t$ "y man happ5$ to be pres5t1 & x pleas$ ! ,"l to t\* 8 he>t1 s t he 0 br\ght to ! k ( ! tru?4 ,9 ! beg9n+ ( ! ye> #ahbh !re 0 a new workh\se e/abli%$ at ,halle1 into :i* p]sons ( bad "* 7 put = a "t1 & made to "w4 ,be+ dispos$ to b5efit unbeliev]s1 ,i he>tily desir$ to h p]mission /at$ly to prea* ! ^w ( tru? to !m :ile ,i /ay$ at ,halle1 p>ticul>ly z ,i und]/ood t "o ( ! lectur]s ( div9ity 9 ! univ]sity1 :o 0 a ,soc9ian1 _h appli$ = ?is liv+4 ,i wrote to ! magi/rates ( ! city1 & (f]$ to prea* to ^? crim9als gratuit\sly1 hop+ t 9 ?is way !re w\ld be less objection to my do+ s4 ,! reply 01 t ,dr4--_h appli$ = ?is liv+1 & t x _h be5 laid be=e ! prov9cial gov]nm5t = consid]ation1 b t !y w\ld be glad if ,i w\ld prea* 9 ! workh\se till ! matt] 0 decid$4 ,! decision did n come = "s "t1 & ,i _h ?us an opportunity ( prea*+ twice e ,"l's day1 & once or twice on ! week ev5+s2 & besides ?is ,i took ! crim9als "o by "o into a room1 to conv]se ) !m ab\t _! s\ls4 ,?us ! ,"l condesc5d$ to give to "o s unwor?y1 s ignorant1 s weak 9 grace1 & s "y 9 ! fai? & 9 ye>s1 a mo/ important field ( lab\r4 ,h[ev]1 x 0 well1 t ev5 "u ^! circum/ances ,i %\ld h lab\r$ !re2 = humanly speak+1 _h ,i n be5 !re1 !y w\ld h _h ei!r no in/ruction at all1 or a ,soc9ian1 or an un5light5$ prea*] w\ld h prea*$ to !m4 ,& besides ?is1 ,i _h at lea/ "s qualification = m9i/]+ !re2 = ,i knew ! /ate ( ^? poor s9n]s1 hav+ be5 myself =m]ly1 9 all probability1 a great deal worse ?an mo/ ( !m1 & my simplicity & pla9ness ( spee* !y w\ld n h f\nd 9 e m9i/]4 ,aft] "s mon?s ! matt] 0 decid$1 ! ,soc9ian lectur] ( div9ity1 ,dr4 --1 0 appo9t$ to ! liv+1 & ,i _h to discont9ue my lab\rs4 ,x 0 n be=e ,m>* #ahbh1 t ,pr(essor ,?oluck receiv$ an answ] f ,london respect+ me1 9 :i* ! committee put a numb] ( que/ions to me1 on ! satisfactory answ]s to :i* my be+ receiv$ by !m w\ld dep5d4 ,aft] reply+ to ?is fir/ communication1 ,i wait$ daily = an answ]1 & 0 s mu* ! m desir\s ( hav+ x1 z my c\rse 9 ! univ]sity 0 complet$4 ,b no answ] came4 ,_h my desire1 to s]ve ! ,"l among ! ,jews1 be5 ( ! fle%1 x w\ld 9 all likelihood n h cont9u$2 b ,i /ill ?\ght ab\t x1 & cont9u$ to make x a subject ( pray]4 ,at la/1 on ,june #ac?1 ,i receiv$ a lett] f ,london1 /at+ t ! committee _h det]m9$1 to take me z a mission>y /ud5t = six mon?s on probation1 provid$ t ,i w\ld come to ,london4 ,i _h n[ _h ! matt] be=e me ab\t sev5 mon?s1 hav+ suppos$1 n only t x w\ld h be5 settl$ 9 a few weeks1 b also1 t1 if ,i 7 accept$1 ,i %\ld be s5t out imm$iately1 z ,i _h pass$ ! univ]sity4 ,in/ead ( ?is1 n only sev5 mon?s pass$ ov] be=e ! decision came1 b ,i 0 also expect$ to come to ,london1 & n only s1 b1 ?\gh ,i _h f my infancy be5 m or less /udy+1 & n[ at la/ wi%$ actively to be engag$1 x 0 requir$ t ,i %\ld aga9 become a /ud5t4 ,= a few mom5ts1 !re=e1 ,i 0 greatly disappo9t$ & tri$4 ,b1 on calmly consid]+ ! matt]1 x appe>$ to me b "r t ! committee %\ld "k me p]sonally1 & t x 0 also well = me to "k !m m intimately ?an m]ely by correspond5ce1 z ?is aft]w>ds w\ld make our connexion mu* m com=table4 ,i det]m9$ !re=e1 aft] ,i _h se5 my fa!r1 & f\nd no difficulty on 8 "p1 to g to ,london4 ,!re 01 h[ev]1 an ob/acle 9 ! way ( my leav+ ! c\ntry4 ,e ,prussian male subject is "u ! necessity ( be+ = ?ree ye>s a soldi]1 provid$ 8 /ate ( body all[s x2 b ^? :o h _h a classical education up to a c]ta9 degree1 & especially ^? :o h pass$ ! univ]sity1 ne$ to be only "o ye> 9 ! army1 b h to equip & ma9ta9 !mselves dur+ t ye>4 ,n[1 z ,i _h be5 consid]$ fit = s]vice1 :5 ,i 0 exam9$ 9 my tw5tie? ye>1 & _h only be5 put back1 at my own reque/1 till my tw5ty-?ird ye>1 & z ,i 0 n[ ne>ly tw5ty-?ree1 ,i c\ld n obta9 a passport out ( ! c\ntry1 till ,i _h ei!r s]v$1 my "t1 or _h be5 exempt$ by ! ,k+ himself4 ,! latt] ,i hop$ w\ld be ! case2 = x 0 a well kn[n fact t ^? :o _h giv5 !mselves to mission>y s]vice1 _h be5 always exempt$4 ,c]ta9 bre?r5 ( influ5ce1 liv+ 9 ! capital1 to :om ,i wrote on ! subject1 advis$ me1 h[ev]1 to write fir/ to ! presid5t ( ! gov]nm5t ( ! prov9ce to :i* ,i belong$4 ,?is 0 done1 b ,i 0 n exempt$4 ,!n ^? bre?r5 wrote to ! ,k+ himself2 b he repli$1 t ! matt] mu/ be ref]r$ to ! m9i/ry & to ! law1 & no exception 0 made 9 my fav\r4 ,i n[ knew n :at to d4 ,9 ! meantime1 at ! beg9n+ ( ,augu/1 ,i 0 tak5 ill4 ,x 0 a common cold at fir/1 b ,i c\ld n get rid ( x1 z =m]ly4 ,at la/ a skillful physician 0 consult$1 & p[]ful means 7 us$4 ,aft] "s "t1 he prescrib$ tonics & w9e4 ,= a day or two ,i seem$ to get bett]1 b aft] t x appe>$1 by ! return ( gidd9ess 9 my head1 t ! tonics _h be5 too soon resort$ to4 ,at la/1 hav+ us$ /ill o!r means1 ,i seem$ 9 a fit /ate = tonics1 & began aga9 to take !m4 ,at ! same "t "o ( my fri5ds1 an ,am]ican ,pr(essor1 took me z a companion ) him to ,b]l9 & o!r places1 s t we rode ab\t ! c\ntry = ab\t t5 days toge!r4 ,z long z ,i 0 day aft] day 9 ! op5 air1 go+ f place to place1 dr9k+ w9e & tak+ tonics1 ,i felt well2 b z soon z ,i return$ to ,hale1 ! old symptoms return$4 ,a second "t ! tonics 7 giv5 up1 & ! =m] means us$4 ,ab\t t5 weeks _h by ?is "t pass$ away1 s9ce ,i 0 fir/ tak5 ill4 ,?is illness1 9 :i* a p>ticul> c>e = ! body seem$ to be s "r1 & 9 :i* !re=e frequ5t walks 7 tak51 & 9 :i* ,i ?\ght myself ju/ifi$ 9 lay+ aside ! /udy ( ,hebrew1 c41 _h n at all a b5eficial effect on my s\l4 ,9 connexion ) ?is "o ( my *ief companions at ?is "t1 ! la/-m5tion$ ,am]ican ,pr(essor1 0 a backslid]4 ,if ! believ+ read] does n "k mu* ( 8 own he>t & ( man's weakness1 he w sc>cely ?9k x possible t1 aft] ,i _h be5 borne ) by ! ,"l s long1 & _h receiv$ s _m m]cies at ,8 h&s1 & _h be5 s fully & freely p>don$ ?r\gh ! blood ( ,jesus1 :i* ,i bo? knew f ,8 ^w1 & _h also enjoy$2 & aft] t ,i _h be5 9 su* v>i\s ways engag$ 9 ! "w ( ! ,"l2 ,i %\ld h be5 once m guilty ( great backslid+1 & t at ! v "t :5 ! h& ( ,god 0 ly+ heavily ^u me4 ,oh6 h[ desp]ately wick$ is ! human he>t4 ,x 0 9 ?is cold /ate ( he>t1 t ,i rode ) my fri5d to ,leipsic1 at ! "t ( ! fam\s ,mi*aelmas fair4 ,he wi%$ me to g ) him to ! ,op]a4 ,i w5t1 b _h n ! lea/ enjoym5t4 ,aft] ! fir/ act ,i took a glass ( ice = refre%m5t4 ,aft] ! second act ,i 0 tak5 fa9t 9 consequ5ce ( ?is1 my /oma* be+ 9 a v weak /ate2 b ,i 0 well en\gh2 aft] a :ile1 to g to ! hotel1 :]e ,i pass$ a tol]able night4 ,on ! next morn+ my fri5d ord]$ ! c>riage = our return to ,halle4 ,?is circum/ance ! ,"l graci\sly us$ z a means ( ar\s+ me2 & on our way home1 ,i freely op5$ my m9d to my fri5d ab\t ! way 9 :i* we _h be5 go+ on2 & he !n told me t he 0 9 a diff]5t /ate ( he>t1 :5 he left ,am]ica4 ,he also told me1 :5 ,i 0 tak5 fa9t1 t he ?\ght x 0 an awful place to die 94 ,?is 0 ! second & la/ "t1 s9ce ,i h believ$ 9 ! ,"l ,jesus1 t ,i 0 9 a !atre2 & b once1 9 ! ye> #ahbg1 ,i w5t to a conc]t1 :5 ,i likewise felt1 t x 0 unbecom+ = me1 z a *ild ( ,god1 to be 9 su* a place4 ,on my return to ,halle ,i broke a blood-vessel 9 my /oma*1 9 consequ5ce ( ! glass ( ice4 ,i 0 n[ exce$+ly weak1 9 :i* /ate ,i cont9u$ f> sev]al weeks1 & !n w5t = *ange ( air into ! c\ntry1 to ! h\se ( a belov$ bro!r 9 ! ,"l1 :o1 up to ?is day1 has cont9u$ a k9d & fai?ful fri5d to me4 ,my he>t 0 n[ aga9 9 a bett] /ate ?an x _h be5 be=e ! rupture ( ! blood-vessel1 ,?us ! ,"l1 9 ! fai?ful love ( ,8 he>t1 see+ t ,i 0 9 a backslid+ /ate1 *a/is$ me = my pr(it2 & ! *a/isem5t yield$1 9 a measure at lea/1 ! peaceable fruit ( righte\sness4 ,heb4 xii4 #aj1 #aa4 ,:il/ ,i 0 /ay+ 9 ! c\ntry1 ,i receiv$ a lett] f ! ,am]ican ,pr(essor1 :o _h 9 ! meantime *ang$ ,halle = ,b]l91 & :o wi%$ me to come to ,b]l91 :]e1 be+ ne> ! ,c\rt1 ,i %\ld be m likely to obta9 an exemption f my milit>y duty2 & he m5tion$1 at ! same "t1 t all ! exp5ses1 connect$ ) my /ay+ 9 ,b]l91 w\ld be fully cov]$ by ! remun]ation ,i %\ld receive = tea*+ ,g]man to himself & two ( 8 fri5ds1 = a few h\rs e week4 ,z ,i _h no m connexion ) ! univ]sity at ,halle1 my c\rse hav+ be5 f9i%$ = m ?an six mon?s pa/1 & z ,i _h ! prospect ( be+ spiritually b5efit$ ?r\gh my /ay 9 ,b]l91 & !re 0 no probability1 if ,i rema9$ at ,halle1 ( obta9+ ! above-m5tion$ exemption1 ,i came to ! conclusion to g to ,b]l94 ,two ladies ( title travel$ ) me to ,b]l9 9 a hir$ c>riage4 ,z ,i knew t we %\ld be = two days toge!r1 ,i ?\ght1 9 my fle%ly wisdom1 t ?\gh ,i ought to speak to !m ab\t ! ?+s ( ,god1 ,i %\ld fir/ %[ !m k9dness & att5tion1 & t1 aft] hav+ ?us op5$ a way to _! he>ts1 ,i might fully set be=e !m _! /ate by nature1 & po9t !m to ! ,lamb ( ,god4 ,we w5t on toge!r mo/ amicably1 ,i mak+ only a few g5]al rem>ks ab\t div9e ?+s4 ,on ! second ev5+1 h[ev]1 :5 we 7 ne> ! end ( our j\rney1 ,i felt t x 0 high "t to speak4 ,& no soon] _h ,i begun pla9ly to d s1 ?an "o ( !m repli$1 ,oh6 ,sir1 ,i wi% y _h spok5 soon] ab\t ^! ?+s1 = we h1 = a long "t1 wi%$ to h "s "o to :om we might op5 our he>ts2 b see+ t ! m9i/]s :om we "k d n live consi/5tly1 we h be5 kept f speak+ to !m4 ,i n[ f\nd t !y _h be5 "u conviction ( s9 = "s "t1 b did n "k ! way to obta9 peace1 ev5 by fai? 9 ! ,"l ,jesus4 ,aft] ?is ,i spoke freely to !m dur+ ! h\r t yet rema9$4 ,!y p>t$ f me "u feel+s ( gratitude & regret t !y c\ld he> no m1 = !y only pass$ ?r\gh ,b]l94 ,i felt myself greatly reprov$1 & all ,i c\ld d 01 by a long lett]1 to seek to make up = my defici5cy 9 m9i/]+ to !m on ! j\rney4 ,may ?is circum/ance nev] be =gott5 by me1 & may x prove a bless+ to ! believ+ read]4 ,my *ief conc]n n[ 0 h[ ,i might obta9 a passport = ,engl&1 ?r\gh exemption f milit>y duty4 ,b ! m c]ta9 bre?r5 tri$1 ?\gh !y knew h[ to set ab\t ! matt]1 & 7 also p]sons ( rank1 ! great] difficulty !re appe>$ to be 9 obta9+ my object2 s t 9 ! middle ( ,janu>y #ahbi x seem$ z if ,i mu/ imm$iately become a soldi]4 ,!re 0 n[ b "o m way untri$1 & x 0 at la/ resort$ to4 ,a believ+ major1 :o 0 on good t]ms ) "o ( ! *ief g5]als1 propos$ t ,i %\ld actually (f] myself = ent]+ ! army1 & t !n ,i %\ld be exam9$ z to my bodily qualifications1 9 ! hope1 t1 z ,i 0 /ill 9 a v weak /ate ( body1 ,i %\ld be f\nd unfit = milit>y s]vice4 ,9 t case x w\ld belong to ! *ief g5]al f9ally to settle ! matt]2 :o1 be+ a godly man himself1 on ! major's recomm5dation w\ld1 no d\bt1 ha/5 ! decision1 on acc\nt ( my desire to be a mission>y to ! ,jews4 ,at ! same "t x /ood s1 t1 if ,i %\ld be f\nd fit = s]vice1 ,i %\ld h to ent] ! army imm$iately4 ,?us f> ! ,"l _h all[$ ?+s to g1 to %[ me1 x appe>s1 t all my fri5ds c\ld n procure me a passport till ,8 "t 0 come4 ,b n[ x 0 come4 ,! ,k+ ( k+s _h int5d$ t ,i %\ld g to ,engl&1 because ,he w\ld bless me !re1 & make me a bless+1 ?\gh ,i 0 at t "t1 & am /ill mo/ unwor?y ( x2 &1 !re=e1 ?\gh ! ,k+ ( ,prussia _h n be5 pleas$ to make an exemption 9 my fav\r1 yet n[ all 0 made pla91 & t at a "t :5 hope _h almo/ be5 giv5 up1 & :5 ! la/ means _h be5 resort$ to4 ,i 0 exam9$1 & 0 decl>$ to be unfit = milit>y s]vice4 ,) a m$ical c]tificate to ?is effect1 & a lett] ( recomm5dation f ! major ,i w5t to ?is *ief g5]al1 :o receiv$ me v k9dly & :o himself wrote in/antane\sly to a second milit>y physician1 likewise to exam9e me at once4 ,?is 0 done1 & x 0 by him confirm$ t ,i 0 unfit4 ,n[ ! *ief g5]al himself1 z 8 adjutants happ5$ to be abs5t1 9 ord] to ha/5 ! matt]1 wrote ) 8 own h&s ! pap]s :i* 7 ne$$1 & ,i got a complete dismissal1 & t = life1 f all milit>y engagem5ts4 ,?is 0 mu* m ?an ,i c\ld h expect$4 ,?is milit>y g5tleman spoke to me 9 a v k9d way1 & po9t$ out c]ta9 p>ts ( ! ,scriptures1 :i* he 9 p>ticul> advis$ me to br+ be=e ! ,jews1 especially ,romans xi4 ,on consid]+ :y ! ,"l delay$ my obta9+ ?is p]mission1 ,i f9d t "o ( ! reasons may h be51 t ,i might bo? be pr(it$ myself by my /ay 9 ,b]l91 & t ,i also might be in/rum5tal 9 b5efit+ o!rs4 ,z to ! fir/1 ,i w\ld m5tion1 t ,i le>n$ a lesson 9 ,b]l9 :i* ,i did n "k be=e4 ,:il/ ,i 0 at ,halle1 ,i ?\ght ,i %\ld mu* enjoy be+ among s _m *ri/ians z !re are 9 ,b]l94 ,b :5 ,i 0 !re ,i f\nd1 t enjoym5t 9 ! ,"l does n dep5d ^u ! multitude ( believ]s1 by :om we are surr\nd$4 ,z to ! second po9t1 p]haps ! la/ day may %[1 t ! ,"l _h "s "w = me 9 ,b]l93 =1 f ! "t ( my com+ until ,i left1 ,i prea*$ ?ree1 f\r1 or five times e week 9 ! w>ds ( a poorh\se1 :i* 0 inhabit$ by ab\t ?ree hundr$ ag$ & infirm p4 ,i also prea*$ once 9 a *ur*1 & likewise visit$ "o ( ! prisons sev]al times on ,"l's days to conv]se ) ! prison]s ab\t _! s\ls1 :]e ,i 0 lock$ 9 by ! keep] ) ! crim9als 9 _! cells4 ,on ! :ole my "t 9 ,b]l9 0 n lo/2 & ,i 0 9 a bett] /ate ( he>t ?an ,i _h be5 = any l5g? ( "t be=e1 ,i 0 n once ov]come by my =m] outw>d besett+ s9s1 ?\gh ,i h no?+ to boa/ ( ev5 z x reg>ds t p]iod2 & 7 only ! s9s ( ^? days br\ght aga9/ me1 _h ,i n ! blood ( ,jesus to plead1 ,i %\ld be mo/ mis]able4 ,b ,i ?9k x "r to m5tion1 = ! glory ( ,god1 z ,i h s freely spok5 ab\t my falls1 t :il/ ,i 0 m ?an ev] unobs]v$ by o!rs2 & :il/ ,i 0 liv+ 9 ! mid/ ( m gaiety & temptations ?an ev]2 & _h f> m money ?an at any previ\s "t ( my life2 ,i 0 kept f ?+s ( :i* ,i _h be5 habitually guilty 9 my unconv]t$ days6--,my heal? 0 9 a v weak /ate1 almo/ ! :ole "t :il/ ,i 0 /ay+ 9 ,b]l91 & 0 9 no degree bett]1 till1 on ! advice (1 a believ+ m$ical pr(essor1 ,i gave up all m$ic9e4 ,hav+ n[ )\t any fur!r difficulty obta9$ my passport1 ,i left ,b]l9 on ,febru>y #crd1 #ahbi1 = ,london4 ,! ,"l gave me m grace on my way f ,b]l9 ?an on my way to x2 = my m\? 0 almo/ imm$iately op5$ to my fell[-travel]s1 & ! message ( ! ,gospel seem$ to be li/5$ to ) int]e/1 p>ticul>ly by "o4 ,on ,febru>y #e? ,i arriv$ at my fa!r's h\se2 x 0 ! place :]e ,i _h liv$ z a boy1 & ! sc5e ( _m ( my s9s1 my fa!r hav+ n[ return$ to x aft] 8 retirem5t f (fice4 ,i came to x ) peculi> feel+s4 ,^! feel+s 7 n excit$ m]ely by ! fact ( my hav+ be5 sev5 ye>s abs5t f x1 b arose f ! spiritual *ange ,i _h und]gone s9ce ,i la/ saw ! place2 = ,i _h nev] be5 at ,heim]sleb5 s9ce my fa!r fet*$ me f !nce1 :i* 0 a few days aft] my imprisonm5t at ,wolf5buettel _h come to an end4 ,!re 7 b ?ree p]sons 9 ! :ole t[n ) :om my s\l _h any fell[%ip4 ,"o ( !m _h sp5t all 8 money 9 coal m9es1 & 0 !n e>n+ 8 daily bread by ?ra%+ corn4 ,z a boy ,i _h 9 my he>t laugh$ at him1 = he seem$ s diff]5t f all o!r p4 ,n[ ,i s\ght him out1 hav+ previ\sly be5 in=m$ t he 0 a believ]1 to ackn[l$ge him z su*1 by hav+ fell[%ip ) him1 & att5d+1 a meet+ 9 8 h\se on ! ,"l's day ev5+4 ,my s\l 0 refre%$1 & 8 also4 ,su* a spiritual fea/1 z meet+ ) a bro!r1 0 a r>e ?+ to him4 ,may we believ]s :o live 9 ,great ,brita91 & especially ^? ( u :o are surr\nd$ by _m *ildr5 ( ,god1 seek = grace1 m highly to prize ! bless+s :i*1 we enjoy ?r\gh fell[%ip ) bre?r56 ,?is de> bro!r1 :o _h !n be5 a believ] = m ?an tw5ty ye>s1 _h only a few times he>d ! gospel prea*$ dur+ all t p]iod4 ,:at a wond]ful ?+ t ,i1 "o ( ! vile/ ( ^? br\ght up 9 t small t[n1 %\ld h be5 s abundantly fav\r$1 z to h be5 br\ght to ! k ( ! tru?1 :il/ none ( all my relations1 & sc>cely "o ( ^? :o grew up ) me1 s f> z x has come to my k1 "k ! ,"l6 ,i left my fa!r's h\se on ,febru>y #aj?1 ) ! prospect ( see+ him aga9 9 ab\t a twelvemon?1 z a mission>y among ! ,jews4 ,b h[ has ! ,"l graci\sly alt]$ matt]s6--,i 0 k9dly lodg$ = a night at ,halb]/adt by an ag$ bro!r1 & !n proce$$ t[>ds ,rott]dam1 by ! way ( ,mun/]4 ,at ,mun/] ,i re/$ a few days1 & 0 v k9dly receiv$ by sev]al bre?r54 ,!y 7 (fic]s 9 ! army1 & two ( !m _h be51 b a little :ile be=e ?is1 ,roman ,ca?olics4 ,i lodg$ 9 ! h\se ( a belov$ bro!r1 a tailor1 :o likewise _h be5 a ,roman ,ca?olic4 ,ab\t ,febru>y #bbnd ,i arriv$ at ,rott]dam4 ,i took lodg+s 9 ! h\se ( a believ]1 :]e two ,g]man bre?r5 lodg$1 :om ,i _h kn[n at ,halle1 & :o int5d$ to g out z mission>ies 9 connexion ) ! ,dut* ,mission>y ,society4 ,x 0 a peculi> feel+ to me1 = ! fir/ "t 9 my life to f9d myself among ,*ri/ians ( ano!r nation1 to att5d _! family pray]1 he> !m s+1 c4 ,9 _s ,i _h fell[%ip ) !m1 ?\gh our communication 0 b brok51 z ,i und]/ood b little ( ! ,dut* language4 ,"h also ,i he>d = ! fir/ "t ! prea*+ ( ! ,gospel 9 ,engli%1 ( :i* ,i knew en\gh to und]/& a "p ( :at 0 said4--,my go+ to ,engl& by ! way ( ,rott]dam 0 n ! usual way2 b consult+ ) a bro!r 9 ,b]l91 :o _h be5 twice 9 ,engl&1 ,i 0 told t ?is 0 ! *eape/ r\te4 ,my ask+ ?is bro!r1 to be pr(it$ by 8 exp]i5ce1 w\ld h be5 q "r1 _h ,i1 besides ?is1 l ,ezra1 s\ght ( ! ,"l ! "r way4 ,ezra viii4 #ba4 ,b ,i s\ght unto m5 only1 & n at all unto ! ,"l1 9 ?is matt]4 ,:5 ,i came to ,rott]dam1 ,i f\nd t no vessels w5t at t "t f t port to ,london1 on acc\nt ( ! ice hav+ j brok5 up 9 ! riv]1 & t x w\ld be sev]al weeks be=e ! /eam]s w\ld aga9 beg9 to ply4 ,?us ,i _h to wait ne>ly a mon? at ,rott]dam1 &1 !re=e1 n only ne$$ mu* m "t ?an ,i %\ld h requir$ to g by way ( ,hamburgh1 b also mu* m money4 ,on ,m>* #ai?1 #ahbi1 ,i l&$ 9 ,london4 ,i n[ f\nd myself1 9 a great measure1 z x reg>ds lib]ty1 br\ght back to ! ye>s :5 ,i 0 at s*ool2 yea1 almo/ all ! "t ,i _h be5 at s*ool1 & c]ta9ly = ! la/ f\r ye>s1 previ\s to my com+ to ,engl&1 ,i 0 n s mu* b\nd to "t & ord] z ,i 0 9 ?is sem9>y2 & _h n !re be5 a degree ( grace 9 me1 yea1 s mu* z n to reg>d ! lib]ty ( ! fle%1 ,i %\ld n[ probably h giv5 up all idea ( be+ a mission>y to ! ,jews4 ,b z ,i did n see t any?+ 0 expect$ f me :i* ,i c\ld n consci5ti\sly acc$e to1 ,i ?\ght x "r to submit myself1 = ! ,"l's sake1 to all ! regulations ( ! in/itution4 ,my bre?r5 9 ! sem9>y1 mo/ ( !m ,g]mans1 _h in/ruction 9 ,hebrew1 ,lat91 ,greek1 ,fr5*1 ,g]man1 c41 sc>cely any ( !m hav+ _h a classical education2 ,i read only ,hebrew1 & 0 exempt$ f all ! re/4 ,i rememb] h[ ,i long$ to be able to exp\nd ! ,scriptures 9 ,engli%1 :5 ,i he>d a ,g]man bro!r d s1 a few days aft] my arrival4 ,& ,i also rememb] :at joy x gave me1 :5 a few weeks aft]1 = ! fir/ "t1 ,i spoke 9 ,engli% to a little boy1 :om ,i met alone 9 ! fields1 ab\t 8 s\l1 ?9k+ t he w\ld be> ) my brok5 ,engli%4--,i n[ /udi$ mu*1 ab\t twelve h\rs a day1 *iefly ,hebrew2 comm5c$ ,*aldee2 p]fect$ myself 9 read+ ! ,g]man-,jewi% 9 ,rabb9ic *>act]s1 committ$ portions ( ! ,hebrew ,old ,te/am5t to memory1 c42 & ?is ,i did ) pray]1 (t5 fall+ on my knees1 leav+ my books = a little1 t ,i might seek ! ,"l's bless+1 & also1 t ,i might be kept f t spiritual deadness1 :i* is s frequ5tly ! result ( mu* /udy4 ,i look$ up to ! ,"l ev5 :il/ turn+ ov] ! leaves ( my ,hebrew diction>y1 ask+ ,8 help1 t ,i might quickly f9d ! words4 ,i made comp>atively little progress 9 ,engli%2 = liv+ ) "s ( my c\ntrym51 ,i 0 cont9ually l$ to conv]se 9 ,g]man4 ,my exp]i5ce 9 ?is p>ticul> leads me to rem>k1 t1 %\ld ?is fall into ! h&s ( any :o are desir\s to lab\r z mission>ies among a p ^: language is n _! own1 !y %\ld seek n m]ely to live among !m1 = ! sake ( soon le>n+ _! language1 b also1 z mu* z possible1 to be sep>at$ f ^? :o speak _! own language2 =1 :51 "s mon?s aft]1 ,i 0 9 ,devon%ire1 completely sep>at$ f ^? :o spoke ,g]man1 ,i daily made mu* progress1 :il/ ,i made comp>atively little 9 ,london4 ,soon aft] my arrival 9 ,engl&1 ,i he>d "o ( ! bre?r5 9 ! sem9>y speak ab\t a ,mr4 ,groves1 a d5ti/ 9 ,exet]1 :o1 = ! ,"l's sake1 _h giv5 up 8 pr(ession1 :i* br\ght him 9 ab\t fifte5 hundr$ p\nds a ye>1 & :o int5d$ to g z a mission>y to ,p]sia1 ) 8 wife & *ildr51 simply tru/+ 9 ! ,"l = temporal supplies4 ,?is made su* an impression on me1 & delight$ me s1 t ,i n only m>k$ x d[n 9 my j\rnal1 b also wrote ab\t x to my ,g]man fri5ds4 ,i came to ,engl& weak 9 body1 & 9 consequ5ce ( mu* /udy1 z ,i suppose1 ,i 0 tak5 ill on ,may #ae1 & 0 soon1 at lea/ 9 my own e/imation1 app>5tly1 beyond recov]y4 ,! weak] ,i became 9 body1 ! happi] ,i 0 9 _s4 ,nev] 9 my :ole life _h ,i se5 myself s vile1 s guilty1 s altoge!r :at ,i ought n to h be51 z at ?is "t4 ,x 0 z if e s91 ( :i* ,i _h be5 guilty1 0 br\ght to my remembrance2 b1 at ! same "t1 ,i c\ld realize t all my s9s 7 completely =giv5 t ,i 0 wa%$ & made clean1 completely clean1 9 ! blood ( ,jesus4 ,! result ( ?is 01 great peace4 ,i long$ exce$+ly to dep>t & to be ) ,*ri/4 ,:5 my m$ical att5dant came to see me1 my pray] 0 some?+ l ?is3 ,"l1 ,?\ kn[e/ t he does n "k :at is = my real welf>e1 !re=e d ,?\ direct him4 ,:5 ,i took my m$ic9e1 my he>ty pray] ea* "t 0 some?+ l ?is3 ,"l1 ,?\ kn[e/ t ?is m$ic9e is 9 itself no?+1 no m ?an z if ,i 7 to take a little wat]4 ,n[ please1 #j ,"l1 to let x produce ! effect :i* is = my real welf>e1 & = ,?y glory4 ,let me ei!r be tak5 soon to ,?yself or let me be soon re/or$2 let me be ill = a long] "t1 & !n tak5 to ,?yself1 or let me be ill = a long] "t1 & !n re/or$4 #j ,"l1 d ) me z seeme? ,!e be/6 ,"o s9 9 p>ticul> 0 br\ght to my m9d1 :i* ,i nev] _h se5 be=e1 viz41 t :il/ all my life1 ev5 9 =m] sicknesses1 ,i _h be5 bless$ ) un9t]rupt$ refre%+ sleep1 :i* n[1 = "s nights1 _h almo/ entirely fl$ f my eyes1 ,i _h nev] he>tily ?ank$ ,god = x4 ,aft] ,i _h be5 ill ab\t a =tnight1 my m$ical att5dant unexpect$ly pron\nc$ me bett]4 ,?is1 in/ead ( giv+ me joy1 b[$ me d[n1 s great 0 my desire to be ) ! ,"l2 ?\gh almo/ imm$iately aft]w>ds grace 0 giv5 me to submit myself to ! w ( ,god4 ,aft] "s days ,i 0 able to leave my room4 ,:il/ recov]+ ,i /ill cont9u$ 9 a spiritual /ate ( he>t1 desir+ to dep>t & to be ) ,*ri/4 ,z ,i recov]$ b sl[ly1 my fri5ds entreat$ me to g into ! c\ntry = *ange ( air2 b my he>t 0 9 su* a happy & spiritual frame1 t ,i did n l ! ?\ght ( travel+ & see+ places4 ,s f> 0 ,i *ang$1 :o once _h be5 s passionately fond ( travel+4 ,b z my fri5ds cont9u$ to advise me to g into ! c\ntry1 ,i ?\ght at la/ t x might be ! w ( ,god t ,i %\ld d s1 & ,i pray$ !re=e ?us to ! ,"l3 ,"l1 ,i w gladly submit myself to ,?y w1 & g if ,?\ wilt h me to g4 ,& n[ let me "k ,?y w by ! answ] ( my m$ical att5dant4 ,if1 9 reply to my "q1 he says x w\ld be v good = me1 ,i w g2 b if he says x is ( no great importance1 !n ,i w /ay4 ,:5 ,i ask$ him1 he said t x 0 ! be/ ?+ ,i c\ld d4 ,i 0 !n enabl$ will+ly to submit1 & accord+ly w5t to ,teignm\?4 ,x 0 !re t ,i became acqua9t$ ) my belov$ bro!r1 fri5d1 & fell[-lab\r]1 ,h5ry ,craik4 ,a few days aft] my arrival at ,teignm\?1 ! *apel1 call$ ,eb5ez]1 0 reop5$1 & ,i att5d$ ! op5+4 ,i 0 mu* impress$ by "o ( ^? :o prea*$ on ! occasion4 ,= ?\gh ,i did n l all he said1 yet ,i saw a gravity & solemnity 9 him diff]5t f ! re/4 ,aft] he _h prea*$1 ,i _h a great desire to "k m ( him2 & be+ invit$ by two bre?r5 ( ,exm\?1 9 ^: h\se he 0 /ay+1 to sp5d "s "t ) !m1 ,i _h an opportunity ( liv+ t5 days ) him "u ! same ro(4 ,?r\gh ! in/rum5tality ( ?is bro!r ! ,"l be/[$ a great bless+ ^u me1 = :i* ,i %all h cause to ?ank ,him ?r\gh\t et]nity4 ,i w m5tion "s po9ts :i* ,god !n began to %[ me4 #a4 ,t ! ^w ( ,god alone is our /&>d ( judgm5t 9 spiritual ?+s2 t x c be expla9$ only by ! ,holy ,_s2 & t 9 our day1 z well z 9 =m] times1 ,he is ! tea*] ( ,8 p4 ,! (fice ( ! ,holy ,_s ,i _h n exp]im5tally und]/ood be=e t "t4 ,inde$1 ( ! (fice ( ea* ( ! bless$ p]sons1 9 :at is commonly call$ ! ,tr9ity1 ,i _h no exp]im5tal appreh5sion4 ,i _h n be=e se5 f ! ,scriptures t ! ,fa!r *ose u be=e ! f\ndation ( ! _w2 t 9 ,him t wond]ful plan ( our r$emption orig9at$1 & t ,he also appo9t$ all ! means by :i* x 0 to be br\ght ab\t4 ,fur!r1 t ! ,son1 to save u1 _h fulfill$ ! law1 to satisfy its dem&s1 & ) x also ! hol9ess ( ,god2 t ,he _h borne ! puni%m5t due to our s9s1 & _h ?us satisfi$ ! ju/ice ( ,god4 ,& fur!r1 t ! ,holy ,_s alone c tea* u ab\t our /ate by nature1 %[ u ! ne$ ( a ,savi\r1 enable u to believe 9 ,*ri/1 expla9 to u ! ,scriptures1 help u 9 prea*+1 c4 ,x 0 my beg9n+ to und]/& ?is latt] po9t 9 p>ticul>1 :i* _h a great effect on me2 = ! ,"l enabl$ me to put x to ! te/ ( exp]i5ce1 by lay+ aside comm5t>ies1 & almo/ e o!r book1 & simply read+ ! ^w ( ,god & /udy+ x4 ,! result ( ?is 01 t ! fir/ ev5+ t ,i %ut myself into my room1 to give myself to pray] & m$itation ov] ! ,scriptures1 ,i le>n$ m 9 a few h\rs ?an ,i _h done dur+ a p]iod ( sev]al mon?s previ\sly4 ,b ! p>ticul> diff]5ce 01 t ,i receiv$ real /r5g? = my s\l 9 do+ s4 ,i n[ began to try by ! te/ ( ! ,scriptures ! ?+s :i* ,i _h le>n$ & se51 & f\nd t only ^? pr9ciples1 :i* /ood ! te/1 7 really ( value4 #b4 ,be=e ?is p]iod ,i _h be5 mu* oppos$ to ! doctr9es ( election1 p>ticul> r$emption1 & f9al p]sev]+ grace2 s mu* s t1 a few days aft] my arrival at ,teignm\?1 ,i call$ election a devili% doctr9e4 ,i did n believe t ,i _h br\ght myself to ! ,"l1 = t 0 too manife/ly false2 b yet ,i held1 t ,i might h resi/$ f9ally4 ,& fur!r1 ,i knew no?+ ab\t ! *oice ( ,god's p1 & did n believe t ! *ild ( ,god1 :5 once made s1 0 safe = ev]4 ,9 my fle%ly m9d ,i _h repeat$ly said1 ,if once ,i c\ld prove t ,i am a *ild ( ,god = ev]1 ,i might g back into ! _w = a ye> or two1 & !n return to ! ,"l1 & at la/ be sav$4 ,b n[ ,i 0 br\ght to exam9e ^! preci\s tru?s by ! ^w ( ,god4 ,be+ made will+ to h no glory ( my own 9 ! conv]sion ( s9n]s1 b to consid] myself m]ely z an in/rum5t2 & be+ made will+ to receive :at ! ,scriptures said2 ,i w5t to ! ,^w1 read+ ! ,new ,te/am5t f ! beg9n+1 ) a p>ticul> ref]5ce to ^! tru?s4 ,to my great a/oni%m5t ,i f\nd t ! passages :i* speak decid$ly = election & p]sev]+ grace1 7 ab\t f\r times z _m z ^? :i* speak app>5tly aga9/ ^! tru?s2 & ev5 ^? few1 %ortly aft]1 :5 ,i _h exam9$ & und]/ood !m1 s]v$ to confirm me 9 ! above doctr9es4 ,z to ! effect :i* my belief 9 ^! doctr9es _h on me1 ,i am con/ra9$ to /ate1 = ,god's glory1 t ?\gh ,i am /ill exce$+ly weak1 & by no means s dead to ! lu/s ( ! fle%1 & ! lu/ ( ! eyes1 & ! pride ( life1 z ,i might & z ,i ought to be1 yet1 by ! grace ( ,god1 ,i h walk$ m closely ) ,him s9ce t p]iod4 ,my life has n be5 s v>iable1 & ,i may say t ,i h liv$ mu* m = ,god ?an be=e4 ,& = ?is h ,i be5 /r5g!n$ by ! ,"l1 9 a great measure1 ?r\gh ! in/rum5tality ( ^! tru?s4 ,= 9 ! "t ( temptation1 ,i h be5 repeat$ly l$ to say3 ,%\ld ,i ?us s98 ,i %\ld only br+ mis]y into my s\l = a "t1 & di%on\r ,god2 =1 be+ a son ( ,god = ev]1 ,i %\ld h to be br\ght back aga91 ?\gh x might be 9 ! way ( sev]e *a/isem5t4 ,?us1 ,i say1 ! elect+ love ( ,god 9 ,*ri/ 7:5 ,i h be5 able to realize x7 has (t5 be5 ! means ( produc+ hol9ess1 in/ead ( lead+ me into s94 ,x is only ! notional appreh5sion ( su* tru?s1 ! want ( hav+ !m 9 ! he>t1 :il/ !y are 9 ! head1 :i* is dang]\s4 #c4 ,ano!r tru?1 into :i*1 9 a measure1 ,i 0 l$ dur+ my /ay 9 ,devon%ire1 respect$ ! ,"l's com+4 ,my views conc]n+ ?is po9t1 up to t "t1 _h be5 completely vague & unscriptural4 ,i _h believ$ :at o!rs told me1 )\t try+ x by ! ,^w4 ,i ?\ght t ?+s 7 gett+ bett] & bett]1 & t soon ! :ole _w w\ld be conv]t$4 ,b n[ ,i f\nd 9 ! ,^w1 t we h n ! lea/ ,scriptural w>rant to look = ! conv]sion ( ! _w be=e ! return ( our ,"l4 ,i f\nd 9 ! ,scriptures1 t t :i* w u%] 9 ! glory ( ! *ur*1 & un9t]rupt$ joy to ! sa9ts1 is ! return ( ! ,"l ,jesus1 & t1 till !n1 ?+s w be m or less 9 confusion4 ,i f\nd 9 ! ,^w1 t ! return ( ,jesus1 & n dea?1 0 ! hope ( ! apo/olic ,*ri/ians2 & t x became me1 !re=e1 to look = ,8 appe>+4 ,& ?is tru? ent]$ s into my he>t1 t1 ?\gh ,i w5t into ,devon%ire exce$+ly weak1 sc>cely expect+ t ,i %\ld return aga9 to ,london1 yet ,i 0 imm$iately1 on see+ ! tru?1 br\ght (f f look+ = dea?1 & 0 made to look = ! return ( ! ,"l4 ,hav+ se5 ?is tru?1 ! ,"l also graci\sly enabl$ me to apply x1 9 "s measure at lea/1 to my own he>t1 & to put ! solemn "q to myself--,:at may ,i d = ! ,"l1 be=e ,he returns1 z ,he may soon come8 #d4 ,9 addition to ^! tru?s1 x pleas$ ! ,"l to lead me to see a high] /&>d ( devot$ness ?an ,i _h se5 be=e4 ,he l$ me1 9 a measure1 to see :at is my true glory 9 ?is _w1 ev5 to be despis$1 & to be poor & mean ) ,*ri/4 ,i saw !n1 9 a measure1 ?\gh ,i h se5 x m fully s9ce1 t x ill becomes ! s]vant to seek to be ri*1 & great1 & hon\r$ 9 t _w1 :]e 8 ,"l 0 poor1 & mean1 & despis$4 ,i d n mean to say t all t :i* ,i believe at pres5t conc]n+ ^! tru?s1 & ^? :i*1 9 connexion ) !m1 ! ,"l has %[n me s9ce ,augu/ #ahbi1 7 appreh5d$ all at once2 & mu* less did ,i see !m all at once ) ! same cle>ness1 z1 by ! grace ( ,god1 ,i d n[2 yet my /ay 9 ,devon%ire 0 a mo/ pr(itable "t to my s\l4 ,my pray] _h be51 be=e ,i left ,london1 t ! ,"l w\ld be pleas$ to bless my j\rney to ! b5efit ( my body & s\l4 ,?is pray] 0 answ]$ 9 bo? respects2 = 9 ! beg9n+ ( ,septemb] ,i return$ to ,london mu* bett] 9 body2 &1 z to my s\l1 ! *ange 0 s great1 t x 0 l a second conv]sion4 ,aft] my return to ,london1 ,i s\ght to b5efit my bre?r5 9 ! sem9>y1 & ! means :i* ,i us$ 7 ^!4 ,i propos$ to !m to meet toge!r e morn+ f six to eight = pray] & read+ ! ,scriptures1 & t !n ea* ( u %\ld give out :at he might consid] ! ,"l _h %[n him to be ! mean+ ( ! portion read4 ,"o bro!r 9 p>ticul> 0 br\ght into ! same /ate z myself2 & o!rs1 ,i tru/1 7 m or less b5efit$4 ,sev]al times1 :5 ,i w5t to my room aft] family pray] 9 ! ev5+1 ,i f\nd communion ) ,god s sweet1 t ,i cont9u$ 9 pray] till aft] twelve1 & !n1 be+ full ( joy1 w5t into ! room ( ! bro!r j ref]r$ to2 &1 f9d+ him also 9 a simil> frame ( he>t1 we cont9u$ pray+ until "o or two & ev5 !n ,i 0 a few times s full1 ( joy1 t ,i c\ld sc>cely sleep1 & at six 9 ! morn+ aga9 call$ ! bre?r5 toge!r = pray]4 ,all ?is moreov] did n leave me idle1 z x reg>ds actual engagem5ts 9 ! ,"l's "w1 z ,i w n[ %[4 ,aft] ,i _h be5 = ab\t t5 days 9 ,london1 & _h be5 conf9$ to ! h\se on acc\nt ( my /udies1 my heal? began aga9 to decl9e2 & ,i saw t x w\ld n be well1 my poor body be+ only l a wreck or br& br\ght out ( ! devil's s]vice1 to sp5d my little rema9+ /r5g? 9 /udy1 b t ,i n[ ought to set ab\t actual engagem5ts 9 ! ,"l's "w1 p>ticul>ly z ,he _h n[ giv5 me m light ab\t ,8 tru?1 & also a he>t to s]ve ,him4 ,i consequ5tly wrote to ! committee ( ! ,society1 reque/+ !m to s5d me out at once1 z !y _h n[ _h an opportunity ( kn[+ me2 &1 t !y might d s ) m confid5ce1 to s5d me z a fell[-lab\r] to an exp]i5c$ bro!r4 ,h[ev] ,i receiv$ no answ]4 ,aft] hav+ wait$ ab\t five or six weeks1 9 ! meantime seek+ 9 "o way or o!r to lab\r = ! ,"l1 x /ruck me t ,i 0 wrong & act+ unscripturally1 9 wait+ = ! appo9tm5t to mission>y "w f my fell[-m52 b t1 consid]+ myself call$ by ! ,"l to prea* ! gospel1 ,i ought to beg9 at once to lab\r among ! ,jews 9 ,london1 :e!r ,i _h ! title ( mission>y or n4 ,9 consequ5ce ( ?is ,i di/ribut$ tracts among ! ,jews1 ) my "n & resid5ce writt5 on !m1 ?us invit+ !m to conv]sation ab\t ! ?+s ( ,god2 prea*$ to !m 9 ^? places :]e !y mo/ num]\sly collect toge!r2 read ! ,scriptures regul>ly ) ab\t fifty ,jewi% boys2 & became a tea*] 9 a ,sunday s*ool4 ,9 ?is "w ,i _h mu* enjoym5t & ! hon\r ( be+ reproa*$ & ill-treat$ = ! "n ( ,jesus4 ,b ! ,"l gave me grace1 nev] to be kept f ! "w by any dang]1 or ! prospect ( any suff]+4 ,my light increas$ m & m dur+ ! mon?s ( ,septemb]1 ,octob]1 & ,novemb]4 ,at ! end ( ,novemb] x became a po9t ( solemn consid]ation ) me1 :e!r ,i c\ld rema9 connect$ ) ! ,society 9 ! usual way4 ,my *ief objections 7 ^!3 #a4 ,if ,i 7 s5t out by ! ,society1 x 0 m ?an probable1 yea1 almo/ ne$ful1 if ,i 7 to leave ,engl&1 t ,i %\ld lab\r on ! ,cont95t1 z ,i 0 unfit to be s5t to ea/]n c\ntries on acc\nt ( my heal?1 :i* w\ld probably h suff]$1 bo? on acc\nt ( ! climate1 & ( my hav+ to le>n o!r languages4 ,n[1 if ,i did g to ! ,cont95t1 x 0 evid5t1 t )\t ord9ation ,i c\ld n h any ext5sive field ( usefulness1 z unorda9$ m9i/]s are g5]ally prev5t$ f lab\r+ freely !re2 b ,i c\ld n consci5ti\sly submit to be orda9$ by unconv]t$ m51 pr(ess+ to h p[] to set me ap>t = ! m9i/ry1 or to communicate some?+ to me = ?is "w :i* !y d n possess !mselves4 ,besides ?is1 ,i _h o!r objections to be+ connect$ ) any /ate *ur* or national religi\s e/abli%m5t1 :i* arose f ! increas$ light :i* ,i _h obta9$ ?r\gh ! reception ( ?is tru?1 t ! ^w ( ,god is our only /&>d1 & ! ,holy ,_s our only tea*]4 ,= z ,i n[ began to comp>e :at ,i knew ( ! e/abli%m5t 9 ,engl& & ^? on ! ,cont95t1 ) ?is only true /&>d1 ! ^w ( ,god1 ,i f\nd t all e/abli%m5ts1 ev5 because !y are e/abli%m5ts1 i4e4 ! _w & ! *ur* mix$ up toge!r1 n only conta9 9 !m ! pr9ciples :i* necess>ily mu/ lead to dep>ture f ! ^w ( ,god2 b also1 z long z !y rema9 e/abli%m5ts1 entirely preclude ! act+ ?r\gh\t accord+ to ! ,holy ,scriptures4--,!n aga91 if ,i 7 to /ay 9 ,engl&1 ! ,society w\ld n all[ me to prea* 9 any place indiscrim9ately1 :]e ! ,"l might op5 a door = me2 & to ! ord9ation ( ,engli% bi%ops ,i _h /ill great] objections1 ?an to ! ord9ation ( a ,prussian ,consi/ory4 #b4 ,i fur!r _h a consci5ti\s objection aga9/ be+ l$ & direct$ by m5 9 my mission>y lab\rs4 ,z a s]vant ( ,*ri/ x appe>$ to me1 ,i ought to be guid$ by ! ,_s1 & n by m51 z to "t & place2 & ?is ,i w\ld say1 ) all def]5ce to o!rs1 :o may be mu* m taught & mu* m spiritually m9d$ ?an myself4 ,a s]vant ( ,*ri/ has b "o ,ma/]4 #c4 ,i _h love = ! ,jews1 & ,i _h be5 enabl$ to give pro(s ( x2 yet ,i c\ld n consci5ti\sly say1 z ! committee w\ld expect f me1 t ,i w\ld sp5d ! great] "p ( my "t only among !m4 ,= ! scriptural plan seem$ to me1 t1 9 com+ to a place1 ,i %\ld seek out ! ,jews1 & comm5ce my lab\r p>ticul>ly among !m2 b t1 if !y reject$ ! gospel1 ,i %\ld g to ! nom9al ,*ri/ians--,! m ,i weigh$ ^! po9ts1 ! m x appe>$ to me t ,i %\ld be act+ hypocritically1 7 ,i to suff] !m to rema9 9 my m9d1 )\t mak+ !m kn[n to ! committee4 ,! "q t next occurr$ to me 01 h[ ,i ought to act if n s5t out by ! ,society4 ,) my views ,i c\ld n return to ,prussia2 = ,i mu/ ei!r refra9 f prea*+1 or imprisonm5t w\ld be ! result4 ,! only plan t pres5t$ itself to me 01 t ,i %\ld g f place to place ?r\gh\t ,engl&1 z ! ,"l might direct me1 & give me opportunity1 prea*+ :]ev] ,i w5t1 bo? among ,jews & nom9al ,*ri/ians4 ,to ?is mode ( s]vice ,i 0 especially /irr$ up ?r\gh ! rec5tly receiv$ tru? ( ! ,"l's second com+1 hav+ x impress$ ^u my he>t to seek to w>n s9n]s1 & to /ir up ! sa9ts2 z ,he might soon come4 ,at ! same "t x appe>$ to me well1 t ,i %\ld d ?is 9 connexion ) ! ,society = promot+ ,*ri/ianity among ! ,jews1 s]v+ !m )\t any sal>y1 provid$ !y w\ld accept me on ^! conditions4 ,an objection :i* came to my m9d aga9/ tak+ any /ep :i* might lead to ! dissolution ( my connexion ) ! ,society1 namely1 t ,i _h be5 "s exp5se to x1 & t ?us ,i %\ld appe> ungrateful1 & ! money w\ld seem to h be5 ?r[n away1 0 easily remov$ 9 ?is way3 #a4 ,:5 ,i engag$ ) ! ,society1 ,i did x accord+ to ! light ,i !n _h4 #b4 ,i h b "o ,ma/]2 ,8 is ! money1 & to ,him ,i h to give an acc\nt4 #c4 ,?\gh ,i h no?+ to boa/ (1 b mu* reason to be a%am$ be=e ,god on acc\nt ( my lack ( s]vice2 yet1 speak+ aft] ! mann] ( m51 9 "s measure ,i did "w1 n only 9 ! ,"l's s]vice1 b ev5 9 t p>ticul> l9e = :i* ! money _h be5 put into ! h&s ( ! committee4 ,!re rema9$ n[ only "o po9t m to be settl$3 ,h[ ,i %\ld d = ! future z x reg>d$ ! supply ( my temporal wants1 :i* naturally w\ld h be5 a great ob/acle1 especially z ,i 0 n m]ely a =eign]1 b spoke s little ,engli%1 t :il/ ,i 0 greatly assi/$ 9 exp\nd+ ! ,scriptures1 x 0 ) difficulty ,i c\ld conv]se ab\t common ?+s4 ,on ?is po9t1 h[ev]1 ,i _h no anxiety2 = ,i consid]$1 t1 z long z ,i really s\ght to s]ve ! ,"l1 t is1 z long z ,i s\ght ! k+dom ( ,god & ,8 righte\sness1 ^! my temporal supplies w\ld be add$ to me4 ,! ,"l mo/ m]cifully enabl$ me to take ! promises ( ,8 ^w1 & re/ ^u !m1 & su* z ,mat!w vii4 #g1 #h1 ,john xiv4 #ac1 #ad1 ,mat!w vi4 #be-cd1 7 ! /ay ( my s\l conc]n+ ?is po9t4 ,9 addition to ?is1 ! example ( bro!r ,groves1 ! d5ti/ be=e allud$ to1 :o gave up 8 pr(ession1 & w5t out z a mission>y1 0 a great enc\ragem5t to me4 ,= ! news1 :i* by ?is "t _h arriv$1 ( h[ ! ,"l _h aid$ him on 8 way to ,pet]sburg1 & at ,pet]sburg1 /r5g!n$ my fai?4 ,at la/1 on ,decemb] #ab1 #ahbi1 ,i came to ! conclusion to dissolve my connexion ) ! ,society1 if !y w\ld n accept my s]vices "u ! above conditions1 & to g ?r\gh\t ! c\ntry prea*+1 7be+ p>ticul>ly con/ra9$ to d s f a desire to s]ve ! ,"l z mu* z 9 me lay1 ,,be=e ,,8 ,,return71 & to tru/ 9 ,him = ! supply ( my temporal wants4 ,yet at ! same "t x appe>$ well to me to wait a mon? long]1 & to consid] ! matt] /ill fur!r1 be=e ,i wrote to ! committee1 t ,i might be sure ,i _h weigh$ x fully4 ,on ,decemb] #bd? ,i w5t to ! ,*ur* ,mission>y ,in/itution at ,isl+ton1 9 ! hope ( b5efit+ ! /ud5ts !re1 if x 7 ! ,"l's w4 ,i return$ v happy1 z ,i almo/ inv>iably 0 at t "t1 & w5t to b$ full ( joy4 ,next morn+1 7be+ t ( ,*ri/mas day71 ,i awoke 9 a v diff]5t /ate ( he>t f :at ,i _h exp]i5c$ = _m weeks pa/4 ,i _h no enjoym5t1 & felt cold & lifeless 9 pray]4 ,at our usual morn+ meet+1 h[ev]1 "o ( ! bre?r5 exhort$ me to cont9ue to pray1 say+ t ! ,"l surely w\ld aga9 smile on me1 ?\gh n[ = a season1 = wise purposes1 ,he seem$ to h )drawn ,himself4 ,i did s4 ,at ! ,"l's table1 9 ! morn+1 a measure ( enjoym5t return$4 ,aft]w>ds ,i d9$ 9 a family1 9 company ) ! bro!r j ref]r$ to4 ,my =m] enjoym5t gradually return$4 ,t[>ds ev5+ ! ,"l gave me an opportunity ( speak+ ab\t ,8 return1 & ,i _h great enjoym5t 9 do+ s4 ,at eight o'clock ,i 0 ask$ to exp\nd at family pray]1 & 0 mu* assi/$ by ! ,"l4 ,ab\t half an h\r aft] ! exposition 0 ov]1 ,i 0 reque/$ to come out ( ! room to see "o ( ! s]vants1 & ! "m ( ano!r ( ! s]vants1 :o _h be5 pres5t at family pray]4 ,i f\nd !m 9 te>s1 & bo? deeply impress$ & "u conc]n ab\t _! s\ls4 ,i !n w5t home1 at lea/ z happy z on ! previ\s ev5+4 ,i h relat$ ?is circum/ance1 because ,i am aw>e t x is a common temptation ( ,satan to make u give up ! read+ ( ! ,^w & pray] :5 our enjoym5t is gone2 z if x 7 ( no use to read ! ,scriptures :5 we d n enjoy !m1 & z if x 7 ( no use to pray :5 we h no _s ( pray]2 :il/ ! tru? is1 9 ord] to enjoy ! ,^w1 we ought to cont9ue to read x1 & ! way to obta9 a _s ( pray]1 is1 to cont9ue pray+2 = ! less we read ! ^w ( ,god1 ! less we desire to read x1 & ! less we pray1 ! less we desire to pray4 ,ab\t ! beg9n+ ( ! next ye> my fell[ /ud5ts _h a =tnight's vacation1 & z ) !m ,i _h con=m$ myself to ! ord] ( ! ,in/itution1 ,i felt t ,i might also p>take ( _! privileges2 n inde$ to please ! fle%1 b to s]ve ! ,"l4 ,on ,decemb] #cj?1 ,i !re=e left ,london = ,exm\?1 :]e ,i int5d$ to sp5d my vacation 9 ! h\se ( my ,*ri/ian fri5ds1 :o _h k9dly lodg$ me ! summ] be=e1 t ,i might prea* !re dur+ ?is =tnight1 & /ill m fully weigh ! matt] respect+ my proposal to "t ,society4 ,i arriv$ at ,exm\? on ,decemb] #ca/1 at six 9 ! ev5+1 an h\r be=e ! comm5cem5t ( a pray]-meet+ at ,eb5ez] ,*apel4 ,my he>t 0 burn+ ) a desire to tell ( ! ,"l's goodness to my s\l1 & to speak =? :at ,i consid]$ might n be kn[n to mo/ ) :om ,i met4 ,be+1 h[ev]1 n call$ on1 ei!r to speak or pray1 ,i 0 sil5t4 ,! next morn+ ,i spoke on ! diff]5ce betwe5 be+ a ,*ri/ian & a happy ,*ri/ian1 & %[$1 :5ce x g5]ally comes1 t we rejoice s little 9 ! ,"l4 ,?is my fir/ te/imony 0 bless$ to _m believ]s1 t ,god1 z x appe>s1 might %[ me t ,he 0 ) me4 ,among o!rs x prov$ a bless+ to a ,*ri/ian female1 :o _h be5 = t5 ye>s 9 bondage1 & :o1 9 ! provid5ce ( ,god1 _h be5 br\ght f ,exet] to be pres5t t morn+4 ,?is %e told me _m mon?s aft]1 :5 ,i met h] on a j\rney4 ,at ! reque/ ( sev]al believ]s ,i spoke aga9 9 ! aft]noon1 & also propos$ a meet+ 9 ! *apel e morn+ at t51 to exp\nd ! epi/le to ! ,romans4 ,i _h also mo/ days a meet+ 9 a room ) sev]al ladies1 = read+ ! ,scriptures ) !m4 ,?is ,i did t ,i might make ! be/ ( my =tnight4 ,! second day aft] my arrival1 a bro!r said to me3 ,i h be5 pray+ = ?is mon? pa/ t ! ,"l w\ld d some?+ = ,lymp/one1 a l>ge p>i% :]e !re is little spiritual light4 ,!re is a ,wesleyan *apel1 & ,i d\bt n y w\ld be all[$ to prea* !re4 ,be+ ready to speak ( ,jesus :]ev] ! ,"l might op5 a door1 yet s1 t ,i c\ld be fai?ful to ! tru?s :i* he _h be5 pleas$ to tea* me1 ,i w5t1 & easily obta9$ lib]ty to prea* twice on ! next day1 be+ ! ,"l's day4 ,besides ?is ,i prea*$ 9 ano!r village ne> ,exm\?2 s t ,i spoke once1 twice1 or ?ree times 9 public or private meet+s e day = ! fir/ t5 or twelve days1 & t ) great enjoym5t to my own s\l4 ,dur+ ! fir/ days ( ,janu>y1 #ahcj1 :il/ at ,exm\?1 x became m & m cle> to me1 t ,i c\ld n be connect$ ) ! ,society "u ! usual conditions2 & z ,i _h an abundance ( "w :]e ,i 01 & little money to sp5d 9 travel+ 7= all ,i possess$ 0 ab\t five p\nds71 x appe>$ be/ to me to write at once to ! committee1 t1 :il/ !y 7 com+ to a decision respect+ me1 ,i might cont9ue to prea*4 ,i !re=e wrote to !m1 /at+ :at _h be5 my views be=e ,i became acqua9t$ ) !m1 & :at !y 7 n[4 ,i also /at$ my difficulty 9 rema9+1 connect$ ) !m on ! usual t]ms1 z /at$ 9 sub/ance above2 & !n conclud$1 t z1 h[ev]1 ,i ow$ !m mu*1 z hav+ be5 in/rum5tal 9 br++ me to ,engl&1 :]e ! ,"l _h bless$ me s abundantly3 & z ,i1 also1 %\ld l to obta9 f !m ! ,hebrew ,scriptures & tracts = ! ,jews3 ,i w\ld gladly s]ve !m )\t any sal>y1 if !y w\ld all[ me to lab\r 9 reg>d to "t & place z ! ,"l might direct me4 ,"s "t aft] ,i receiv$ a v k9d private lett] f "o ( ! secret>ies1 :o always _h be5 v k9d to me1 toge!r ) ! foll[+ (ficial communication f ! committee4 ,london ,society = promot+ ,*ri/ianity among/ ! ,jews4 ,at a ,meet+ ( ! ,mission>y ,sub-,committee1 held ,janu>y #bg1 #ahcj1 ,society ,h\se1 #aj1 ,w>drobe ,place1 ,doctors' ,commons1 a ,lett] 0 read f ,mr4 ,g4 ,f4 ,muell]4 ,resolv$1 ,t ,mr4 ,muell] be in=m$1 t :ile ! committee cordially rejoice 9 any real progress 9 k & grace :i* he may h made "u ! tea*+ ( ! ,holy ,_s1 !y1 nev]!less1 consid] x inexp$i5t = any society to employ ^? :o are unwill+ to submit !mselves to _! guidance ) respect to mission>y op]ations2 & t :ile1 !re=e1 ,mr4 ,muell] holds 8 pres5t op9ions on t po9t1 ! committee _c consid] him z a mission>y /ud5t2 b %\ld m mature reflection cause him to alt] t op9ion1 !y w readily ent] into fur!r communication ) him4 ,?us my connexion ) ! ,society 0 entirely dissolv$4 ,fifty-two ye>s h pass$ away s9ce1 & ,i nev] h1 ev5 = "o s+le mom5t1 regrett$ ! /ep ,i took1 b h to be sorry t ,i h be5 s little grateful = ! ,"l's goodness to me 9 t matt]4 ,! foll[+ "p ( ! ,n>rative also w prove to ! enlight5$ read]1 h[ ,god bless$ my act+ out ! light ,he _h be5 pleas$ to give me4 ,b ,i _c leave ?is subject1 )\t add+1 t x is f> f my int5tion to ?r[ any blame ^u ! ,society4 ,i h no wi% to d s3 nay1 ,i confess1 7 ! la/-m5tion$ circum/ances n s intimately connect$ ) my be+ 9 ,engl&1 ,i w\ld r h left out ! matt] altoge!r4 ,b be+ "u ! necessity ( say+ some?+ ab\t my connexion ) x1 x appe>$ be/ to me to relate ! circum/ances j z !y 74 ,yet ,i d te/ify t ,i h n done x 9 ! lea/ = ! sake ( injur+ ! ,society2 = ,i h receiv$ mu* k9dness f "s ( ^? connect$ ) x1 p>ticul>ly f two wor?y m51 !n tak+ a prom95t "p 9 manag+ its affairs4 ,if ,i be judg$ diff]5tly1 ,i c only say1 ,judge no?+ be=e ! "t1 until ! ,"l come4 ,aft] ,i _h prea*$ ab\t ?ree weeks at ,exm\? & its neighb\rhood1 ,i w5t to ,teignm\?1 ) ! int5tion ( /ay+ !re t5 days1 to prea* ! ,^w among ! bre?r5 ) :om ,i _h become acqua9t$ dur+ ! previ\s summ]1 & ?us to tell !m ( ! ,"l's goodness to me4 ,"o ( ! bre?r5 said almo/ imm$iately on my arrival at ,teignm\?1 ,i wi% y w\ld become our m9i/]1 z ! pres5t "o is go+ to leave u4 ,my answ] 01 ,i d n int5d to be /ation>y 9 any place1 b to g ?r\gh ! c\ntry1 prea*+ ! ,^w z ! ,"l may direct me4 ,9 ! ev5+1 ,monday1 ,i prea*$ = bro!r ,craik1 at ,%aldon1 9 ! pres5ce ( ?ree m9i/]s1 none ( :om lik$ ! s]mon2 yet x pleas$ ,god1 ?r\gh x1 to br+ to ! k ( ,8 de> ,son1 a "y woman :o _h be5 s]vant to "o ( ^! m9i/]s1 & :o _h he>d h] ma/] prea* _m times4 ,h[ diff]5tly does ! ,"l judge f man6 ,"h 0 a p>ticul> opportunity = ! ,"l to get glory to ,himself4 ,a =eign] 0 ! prea*]1 ) great natural ob/acles 9 ! way1 = he 0 n able to speak ,engli% ) flu5cy2 b he _h a desire to s]ve ,god1 & 0 by ?is "t also br\ght into su* a /ate ( he>t z to desire t ,god alone %\ld h ! glory1 if any good 7 done ?r\gh 8 in/rum5tality4 ,h[ (t5 has x /ruck me1 bo? at t "t & s9ce1 t ,8 /r5g? 0 made p]fect 9 my weakness4 ,on ,tuesday ev5+ ,i prea*$ at ,eb5ez] ,*apel1 ,teignm\?1 ! same *apel at ! op5+ ( :i* ,i became acqua9t$ ) ! bro!r1 :om ! ,"l _h aft]w>ds us$ z an in/rum5t ( b5efit+ me s mu*4 ,my prea*+ 0 also dislik$ !re by _m ( ! he>]s2 b ! ,"l op5$ ! he>ts ( a few to receive ! tru?1 & ano!r "y woman 0 br\ght to ! ,"l ?r\gh ! in/rum5tality ( ! ^w !n prea*$4 ,on ,w$nesday ,i prea*$ aga9 9 ! same *apel1 & ! ^w 0 dislik$ /ill1 p]haps m1 ?\gh ! few1 :o receiv$ ! tru? 9 ! love ( x1 increas$ 9 numb]4 ,on ,?ursday ,i prea*$ aga9 at ,%aldon1 & on ,friday at ,teignm\?4 ,! effect 0 ! same2 dislike on ! "o side1 & joy & delight 9 ! tru? on ! o!r4 ,by ?is "t ,i began to reflect ab\t ! cause ( ?is opposition2 = ! same bre?r5 :o _h treat$ me ) mu* k9dness ! summ] previ\s1 :5 ,i 0 less spiritually m9d$1 & und]/ood mu* less ( ! tru?1 n[ seem$ to oppose me1 & ,i c\ld n expla9 x 9 any o!r way ?an ?is1 t ! ,"l int5d$ to "w ?r\gh my in/rum5tality at ,teignm\?1 & t !re=e ,satan1 fe>+ ?is1 s\ght to raise opposition aga9/ me4 ,on ! ,"l's day ,i d9$ ) a bro!r1 ^: he>t ! ,"l _h op5$ to receive me z a s]vant ( ,*ri/4 ,aft] d9n] ,i talk$ to a "y woman1 8 s]vant1 at ! reque/ ( h] si/]1 :o on ! ,tuesday previ\s _h be5 conv9c$ ( s91 & on ! ,friday br\ght to enjoy peace 9 ! ,"l4 ,?is "y woman also 01 ?r\gh ! in/rum5tality ( ?is conv]sation1 br\ght to see h] s9ful /ate1 ?\gh %e c\ld n rejoice 9 ! ,"l until ab\t sev5 mon?s aft]4 ,h[ diff]5tly ! ,"l dealt ) h] si/]1 & yet ! "w ( grace 0 z real 9 ! "o z 9 ! o!r1 z ,i _h full opportunity ( see+ aft]w>ds6 ,on ?is same ,"l's day ,i prea*$ twice at ,teignm\?1 & once at ,%aldon2 = s preci\s did e opportunity seem to me1 & s p[]fully did ,i feel ! importance ( ^? preci\s tru?s1 :i* ,i _h s rec5tly be5 l$ to see1 t ,i long$ to be in/rum5tal 9 communicat+ !m to o!rs4 ,by ?is "t ! reque/1 t ,i might /ay at ,teignm\?1 & be ! m9i/] ( ! above *apel1 _h be5 repeat$ly express$ by an increas+ numb] ( ! bre?r52 b o!rs 7 decid$ly aga9/ my rema9+ !re4 ,?is opposition 0 in/rum5tal 9 settl+ x 9 my m9d t ,i %\ld /ay = a:ile1 at lea/ until ,i 0 =mally reject$4 ,9 consequ5ce ( ?is conclusion ,i took ! foll[+ /ep1 :i*1 x may be1 ,i %\ld n repeat "u simil> circum/ances1 b :i* 0 c]ta9ly tak5 9 love to ^? :o 7 conc]n$ 9 ! matt]1 & = ! glory ( ,god1 z f> z ,i !n _h light4 ,on ! ,tuesday foll[+1 aft] prea*+1 ,i told ! bre?r5 h[1 9 ! provid5ce ( ,god1 ,i _h be5 br\ght to !m )\t ! lea/ int5tion ( /ay+ among !m1 b t1 on f9d+ !m )\t a m9i/]1 ,i _h be5 l$ to see x to be ! w ( ,god to rema9 ) !m4 ,i also told !m1 z f> z ,i rememb]1 t ,i 0 aw>e ( ! opposition ( "s1 b t ,i nev]!less int5d$ to prea* to !m till !y reject$ me2 & if !y %\ld say1 ,i might prea*1 b !y w\ld give me no sal>y1 t w\ld make no diff]5ce on my "p1 z ,i did n prea* = ! sake ( money2 b ,i told !m1 at ! same "t1 t x 0 an hon\r1 to be all[$ to supply ! temporal wants ( any ( ! s]vants ( ,*ri/4 ,! latt] po9t ,i add$1 z x seem$ "r to me1 to give out ! :ole c\nsel ( ,god1 z f> z ,i knew x4 ,on ! next day1 ,w$nesday1 ,i left1 & hav+ prea*$ 9 two or ?ree places ne> ,exm\?1 & tak5 leave ( my fri5ds !re1 ,i return$ to ,teignm\?4 ,"h ,i prea*$ aga9 ?ree times on ! ,"l's day1 none say+ we wi% y n to prea*1 ?\gh _m ( ! he>]s did n he> ) enjoym5t4 ,"s ( !m left1 & nev] return$2 "s left1 b return$ aft] a:ile4 ,o!rs came to ! *apel1 :o _h n be5 9 ! habit ( att5d+ !re previ\s to my com+4 ,!re 0 suffici5t pro( t ! "w ( ,god 0 go+ on1 = !re 7 ^? :o 7 glad to he> :at ,i prea*$1 ov]look+ ! infirmities ( ! =eign]1 delight+ 9 ! food = _! s\ls1 )\t c>+ mu* ab\t ! =m 9 :i* ! tru? 0 set be=e !m2 & ^! 7 n less spiritual ?an ! re/3 & !re 7 ^? :o object$ decid$ly2 "s1 h[ev]1 manife/+ m]ely ! weakness ( bre?r51 & o!rs ! bitt]ness ( ! oppos]s ( ! cross4 ,!re 01 9 addition to ?is1 a great /ir1 a _s ( inquiry1 & a se>*+ ( ! ,scriptures1 :e!r ^! ?+s 7 s4 ,& :at is m ?an all1 ,god set ,8 seal ^u ! "w1 9 conv]t+ s9n]s4 ,twelve weeks ,i /ood 9 ?is same position1 :il/ ! ,"l graci\sly suppli$ my temporal wants1 ?r\gh two bre?r51 unask$ =4 ,aft] ?is "t1 ! :ole little *ur*1 eighte5 9 numb]1 unanim\sly gave me an invitation to become _! pa/or4 ,my answ] to !m 01 t _! invitation did n %[ me m ?an ,i _h se5 be=e1 t x 0 ! w ( ,god t ,i %\ld rema9 ) !m1 yet t = _! sakes ,i c\ld n b rejoice 9 ?is invitation1 z x 0 a pro( to me t ,god _h bless$ !m ?r\gh my in/rum5tality1 9 mak+ !m ?us ( "o m9d4 ,i also expressly /at$ to ! bre?r51 t ,i %\ld only /ay s long ) !m1 z ,i saw x cle>ly to be ! w ( ! ,"l2 = ,i _h n giv5 up my int5tion ( go+ f place to place1 if ! ,"l w\ld all[ me to d s4 ,! bre?r51 at ! same "t1 n[ (f]$ to supply my temporal wants1 by giv+ me ,l#ee4 a ye>1 :i* sum 0 aft]w>ds some:at increas$1 on acc\nt ( ! increase ( ! *ur*4 ,i n[ _h ,teignm\? = my resid5ce1 b ,i did n conf9e my lab\rs to ?is place2 = ,i prea*$ regul>ly once a week 9 ,exet]1 once a =tnight at ,top%am1 sometimes at ,%aldon1 (t5 at ,exm\?1 sometimes 9 ! above-m5tion$ villages ne> ,exm\?1 regul>ly once a week at ,bi%op/eignton1 :]e a "p ( ! *ur* liv$1 & aft]w>ds repeat$ly at ,*udleigh1 ,collumpton1 ,newton ,bu%el1 & else:]e4 ,t :i* ,i n[ consid]$ ! be/ mode ( prep>ation = ! public m9i/ry ( ! ,^w1 no long] adopt$ f necessity1 on acc\nt ( want ( "t1 b f deep conviction1 & f ! exp]i5ce ( ,god's bless+ ^u x1 bo? z x reg>ds my own enjoym5t1 ! b5efit ( ! sa9ts1 & ! conv]sion ( s9n]s1 is z foll[s3--#a4 ,i d n presume to "k myself :at is be/ = ! he>]s1 & ,i !re=e ask ! ,"l 9 ! fir/ place1 t ,he w\ld graci\sly be pleas$ to tea* me on :at subject ,i %all speak1 or :at portion ( ,8 ^w ,i %all exp\nd4 ,n[ sometimes x happ5s1 t previ\s to my ask+ ,him1 a subject or passage has be5 9 my m9d1 on :i* x has appe>$ well = me to speak4 ,9 t case ,i ask ! ,"l1 :e!r ,i %\ld speak on ?is subject or passage4 ,if1 aft] pray]1 ,i feel p]suad$ t ,i %\ld ,i fix ^u x1 yet s1 t ,i w\ld desire to leave myself op5 to ! ,"l to *ange x1 if ,he please4 ,frequ5tly1 h[ev]1 x occurs1 t ,i h no text or subject 9 my m9d1 be=e ,i give myself to pray] = ! sake ( asc]ta9+ ! ,"l's w conc]n+ x4 ,9 ?is case ,i wait "s "t on my knees = an answ]1 try+ to li/5 to ! voice ( ! ,_s to direct me4 ,if !n a passage or subject1 :il/ ,i am on my knees1 or aft] ,i h f9i%$ pray+ = a text1 is br\ght to my m9d1 ,i aga9 ask ! ,"l1 & t sometimes repeat$ly1 especially if1 humanly speak+1 ! subject or text %\ld be a peculi> "o1 :e!r x be ,8 w t ,i %\ld speak on su* a subject or passage4 ,if aft] pray] my m9d is peaceful ab\t x1 ,i take ?is to be ! text1 b /ill desire to leave myself op5 to ! ,"l = direction1 %\ld ,he please to alt] x1 or %\ld ,i h be5 mi/ak54 ,frequ5tly also1 9 ! ?ird place1 x happ5s1 t ,i n only h no text nor subject on my m9d previ\s to my pray+ = guidance 9 ?is matt]1 b also ,i d n obta9 "o aft] once1 or twice1 or m times pray+ ab\t x4 ,i us$ =m]ly at times to be mu* p]plex$1 :5 ?is 0 ! case1 b = m ?an =ty-five ye>s x has pleas$ ! ,"l1 9 g5]al at lea/1 to keep me 9 peace ab\t x4 ,:at ,i d is1 to g on ) my regul> read+ ( ! ,scriptures1 :]e ,i left (f ! la/ "t1 pray+ 7:il/ ,i read7 = a text1 n[ & !n also lay+ aside my bible = pray]1 till ,i get "o4 ,?us x has happ5$1 t ,i h _h to read five1 t52 yea tw5ty *apt]s1 be=e x has pleas$ ! ,"l to give me a text3 yea1 _m times ,i h ev5 _h to g to ! place ( meet+ )\t "o1 & obta9$ x p]haps only a few m9utes be=e ,i 0 go+ to speak2 b ,i h nev] lack$ ! ,"l's assi/ance at ! "t ( prea*+1 provid$ ,i _h e>ne/ly s\ght x 9 private4 ,! prea*] _c "k ! p>ticul> /ate ( ! v>i\s individuals :o compose ! congregation1 nor :at !y require1 b ! ,"l kn[s x2 & if ! prea*] r5\nces 8 own wisdom1 he w be assi/$ by ! ,"l2 b if he w *oose 9 8 own wisdom1 !n let him n be surpris$ if he %\ld see little b5efit result f 8 lab\rs4 ,be=e ,i leave ?is "p ( ! subject1 ,i w\ld j obs]ve "o temptation conc]n+ ! *oice ( a text4 ,we may see a subject to be s v full1 t x may /rike u x w\ld d = "s o!r occasion4 ,= in/ance1 sometimes a text1 br\ght to "o's m9d = a week-ev5+ meet+1 may appe> m suitable = ! ,"l's day1 because !n !re w\ld be a great] numb] ( he>]s pres5t4 ,n[1 9 ! fir/ place1 we d n "k :e!r ! ,"l ev] w all[ u to prea* on ano!r ,"l's day2 &1 9 ! second place1 we "k n :e!r t v subject may n be especially suitable = "s or _m individuals pres5t j t week-ev5+4 ,?us ,i 0 once tempt$1 aft] ,i _h be5 a %ort "t at ,teignm\?1 to res]ve a subject1 :i* _h be5 j op5$ to me1 = ! next ,"l's day4 ,b be+ able1 by ! grace ( ,god1 to ov]come ! temptation by ! above reasons1 & prea*+ ab\t x at once1 x pleas$ ! ,"l to bless x to ! conv]sion ( a s9n]1 & t too an individual :o meant to come b t once m to ! *apel1 & to ^: case ! subject 0 mo/ rem>kably suit$4 #b4 ,n[ :5 ! text has be5 obta9$ 9 ! above way1 :e!r x be "o or two or m v]ses1 or a :ole *apt] or m1 ,i ask ! ,"l t ,he w\ld graci\sly be pleas$ to tea* me by ,8 ,holy ,_s1 :il/ m$itat+ ov] x4 ,)9 ! la/ fifty ye>s1 ,i h f\nd x ! mo/ pr(itable plan to m$itate ) my p5 9 my h&1 writ+ d[n ! outl9es1 z ! ,^w is op5$ to me4 ,?is ,i d1 n = ! sake ( committ+ !m to memory1 nor z if ,i meant to say no?+ else1 b = ! sake ( cle>ness1 z be+ a help to see h[ f> ,i und]/& ! passage4 ,i also f9d x useful aft]w>ds to ref] to :at ,i h ?us writt54 ,i v seldom use any o!r help besides ! little ,i und]/& ( ! orig9al ( ! ,scriptures1 & "s good translations 9 o!r languages4 ,my *ief help is pray]4 ,i h ,,nev] 9 my life begun to /udy "o s+le "p ( div9e tru?1 )\t ga9+ "s light ab\t x1 :5 ,i h be5 able really to give myself to pray] & m$itation ov] x4 ,b t ,i h (t5 f\nd a difficult matt]1 p>tly on acc\nt ( ! weakness ( ! fle%1 & p>tly also on acc\nt ( bodily infirmities & multiplicity ( engagem5ts4 ,?is ,i mo/ firmly believe1 t no "o ought to expect to see mu* good result+ f 8 lab\rs 9 ^w & doctr9e1 if he is n mu* giv5 to pray] & m$itation4 #c4 ,hav+ pray$ & m$itat$ on ! subject or text1 ,i desire to leave myself entirely 9 ! h&s ( ! ,"l4 ,i ask ,him to br+ to my m9d :at ,i h se5 9 my room1 conc]n+ ! subject ,i am go+ to speak on1 :i* ,he g5]ally mo/ k9dly does1 & (t5 tea*es me mu* additionally1 :il/ ,i am prea*+4 ,9 connection ) ! above1 ,i mu/1 h[ev]1 /ate1 t x appe>s to me !re is a prep>ation = ! public m9i/ry ( ! ,^w1 :i* is ev5 m excell5t ?an ! "o spok5 (4 ,x is ?is3 to live 9 su* con/ant & real communion ) ! ,"l1 & to be s habitually & frequ5tly 9 m$itation ov] ! tru?1 t )\t ! above ef=t1 s to speak1 we h obta9$ food = o!rs1 & "k ! m9d ( ! ,"l z to ! subject or ! portion ( ! ,^w on :i* we %\ld speak4 ,b ?is ,i h only 9 a small measure exp]i5c$1 ?\gh ,i desire to be br\ght into su* a /ate1 t habitually out ( my belly may fl[ riv]s ( liv+ wat]4 ,t :i* ,i h f\nd mo/ b5eficial 9 my exp]i5ce = ! la/ fifty-"o ye>s 9 ! public m9i/ry ( ! ,^w1 is1 exp\nd+ ! ,scriptures1 & especially ! go+ n[ & !n ?r\gh a :ole gospel or epi/le4 ,?is may be done 9 a two-fold way1 ei!r by ent]+ m9utely into ! be>+ ( e po9t occurr+ 9 ! portion1 or by giv+ ! g5]al outl9es1 & ?us lead+ ! he>]s to see ! mean+ & connexion ( ! :ole4 ,! b5efits :i* ,i h se5 result+ f exp\nd+ ! ,scriptures are ^!3 #a4 ,! he>]s are ?us1 ) ,god's bless+1 l$ to ! ,scriptures4 ,!y f9d1 z x 71 a practical use ( !m 9 ! public meet+s4 ,?is induces !m to br+ _! bibles1 & ,i h obs]v$ t ^? :o at fir/ did n br+ !m1 h aft]w>ds be5 induc$ to d s3 s t 9 a %ort "t few1 ( ! believ]s at lea/1 7 9 ! habit ( com+ )\t !m4 ,?is is no small matt]2 = e ?+1 :i* 9 our day w lead believ]s to value ! ,scriptures1 is ( importance4 #b4 ,! exp\nd+ ( ! ,scriptures is 9 g5]al m b5eficial to ! he>]s ?an if1 on a s+le v]se1 or half a v]se1 or two or ?ree words ( a v]se "s rem>ks are made1 s t ! portion ( ,scripture is sc>cely any?+ b a motto = ! subject2 = few h grace to m$itate mu* ov] ! ,^w1 & ?us exposition may n m]ely be ! means ( op5+ up to !m ! ,scriptures1 b may also create 9 !m a desire to m$itate = !mselves4 #c4 ,! exp\nd+ ( ! ,scriptures leaves to ! he>]s a connect+ l9k1 s t ! read+ ov] aga9 ! portion ( ! ,^w1 :i* has be5 exp\nd$1 br+s to _! remembrance :at has be5 said2 & ?us1 ) ,god's bless+1 leaves a m la/+ impression on _! m9ds4 ,?is is p>ticul>ly ( importance z x reg>ds ! illit]ate1 :o sometimes h nei!r mu* /r5g? ( memory nor capacity ( compreh5sion4 #d4 ,! exp\nd+ ( l>ge portions ( ! ,^w1 z ! :ole ( a gospel or an epi/le1 besides lead+ ! he>] to see ! connexion ( ! :ole1 has also ?is p>ticul> b5efit = ! tea*]1 t x leads him1 ) ,god's bless+1 to ! consid]ation ( portions ( ! ,^w1 :i* o!rwise he might n h consid]$1 & keeps him f speak+ too mu* on fav\rite subjects1 & lean+ too mu* to p>ticul> p>ts ( tru?1 :i* t5d5cy mu/ surely soon] or lat] injure bo? himself & 8 he>]s4--,exp\nd+ ! ^w ( ,god br+s little hon\r to ! prea*] f ! un5light5$ or c>eless he>]1 b x t5ds mu* to ! b5efit ( ! he>]s 9 g5]al4 ,simplicity 9 expression1 :il/ ! tru? is set =?1 is1 9 connexion ) :at has be5 said1 ( ! utmo/ importance4 ,x %\ld be ! aim ( ! tea*] to speak s1 t *ildr51 s]vants1 & p :o _c read1 may be able to und]/& him1 s f> z ! natural m9d c compreh5d ! ?+s ( ,god4 ,x ought also to be rememb]$1 t !re is1 p]haps1 n a s+le congregation 9 :i* !re are n p]sons ( ! above classes pres5t1 & t if !y c und]/&1 ! well-educat$ or lit]>y p]sons w und]/& likewise2 b ! rev]se does n hold good4 ,x ought fur!r to be rememb]$ t ! exp\nd] ( ! tru? ( ,god speaks = ,god1 = et]nity1 & t x is n 9 ! lea/ likely t he w b5efit ! he>]s1 except he uses pla9ness ( spee*1 :i* nev]!less ne$s n to be vulg> or rude4 ,x %\ld also be consid]$1 t if ! prea*] /rive to speak accord+ to ! rules ( ?is _w1 he may please _m1 ,p>ticul>ly ^? :o h a lit]>y ta/e2 b1 9 ! same proportion1 he is less likely to become an in/rum5t 9 ! h&s ( ,god = ! conv]sion ( s9n]s1 or = ! build+ up ( ! sa9ts4 ,= nei!r eloqu5ce nor dep? ( ?\ght make ! truly great prea*]1 b su* a life ( pray] & m$itation & spirituality1 z may r5d] him a vessel meet = ! ,ma/]'s use1 & fit to be employ$ bo? 9 ! conv]sion ( s9n]s & 9 ! edification ( ! sa9ts4 ,ab\t ! beg9n+ ( ,april ,i w5t to prea* at ,sidm\?4 ,:ile ,i 0 /ay+ !re1 ?ree si/]s 9 ! ,"l _h1 9 my pres5ce1 a conv]sation ab\t baptism1 "o ( :om _h be5 baptiz$ aft] %e _h believ$4 ,:5 !y _h conv]s$ a little on ! subject1 ,i 0 ask$ to give my op9ion conc]n+ x4 ,my reply 01 ,i d n ?9k1 t ,i ne$ to be baptiz$ aga94 ,i 0 !n ask$ by ! si/] :o bad be5 baptiz$1 ,b h y be5 baptiz$8 ,i answ]$1 ,yes1 :5 ,i 0 a *ild4 ,%e !n repli$1 ,h y ev] read ! ,scriptures1 & pray$ ) ref]5ce to ?is subject8 ,i answ]$1 ,no4 ,!n1 %e said1 ,i entreat y1 nev] to speak any m ab\t x till y h done s4 ,x pleas$ ! ,"l to %[ me ! importance ( ?is rem>k2 = :il/ at t v "t ,i 0 exhort+ e "o to receive no?+ :i* c\ld n be prov$ by ! ^w ( ,god1 ,i _h repeat$ly spok5 aga9/ believ]s' baptism1 )\t hav+ ev] e>ne/ly exam9$ ! ,scriptures1 or pray$ conc]n+ x2 & n[ ,i det]m9$1 if ,god w\ld help me1 to exam9e t subject also1 & if infant baptism 7 f\nd to be scriptural1 ,i w\ld e>ne/ly def5d x2 & if believ]s' baptism 7 "r1 ,i w\ld z /r5u\sly def5d t1 & be baptiz$4 ,z soon z ,i _h "t1 ,i set ab\t exam9+ ! subject4 ,! mode ,i adopt$ 0 z foll[s3 ,i repeat$ly ask$ ,god to tea* me conc]n+ x1 & ,i read ! ,new ,te/am5t f ! beg9n+1 ) a p>ticul> ref]5ce to ?is po9t4 ,b n[1 :5 ,i e>ne/ly set ab\t ! matt]1 a numb] ( objections pres5t$ !mselves to my m9d4 #a4 ,s9ce _m holy & enlight5$ m5 h be5 divid$ 9 op9ion conc]n+ ?is po9t1 does ?is n prove1 t x is n to be expect$ we %\ld come to a satisfactory conclusion ab\t ?is "q 9 ! pres5t imp]fect /ate ( ! *ur*8--,?is "q 0 ?us remov$3 ,if ?is ord9ance is reveal$ 9 ! ,bible1 :y may ,i n "k x1 z ! ,holy ,_s is ! tea*] 9 ! *ur* ( ,*ri/ n[ z well z =m]ly8 #b4 ,!re h be5 b few ( my fri5ds baptiz$1 & ! great] "p ( !m are oppos$ to believ]s' baptism1 & !y w turn _! backs on me4 ,answ]3 ,?\gh all m5 %\ld =sake me1 if ! ,"l ,jesus takes me up1 ,i %all be happy4 #c4 ,y w be sure to lose "o half ( y\r income if y are baptiz$4 ,answ]3 ,z long z ,i desire to be fai?ful to ! ,"l1 ,he w n suff] me to want4 #d4 ,p w call y a bapti/1 & y w be reckon$ among t body1 & y _c approve ( all t is go+ on among !m4 ,answ]3 ,x does n foll[ t ,i mu/ 9 all po9ts g along ) all ^? :o hold believ]s' baptism1 al?\gh ,i %\ld be baptiz$4 #e4 ,y h be5 prea*+ = "s ye>s1 & y w h ?us publicly to confess1 t y h be5 9 an error1 %\ld y be l$ to see t believ]s' baptism is "r4 ,answ]3 ,x is mu* bett] to confess t ,i h be5 9 error conc]n+ t po9t ?an to cont9ue 9 x4 #f4 ,ev5 if believ]s' baptism %\ld be "r1 yet x is n[ too late to att5d to x1 z y ought to h be5 baptiz$ imm$iately on believ+4 ,answ]3 ,x is bett] to fulfill a comm&m5t ( ! ,"l ,jesus ev] s late1 ?an to cont9ue 9 ! neglect ( x4 ,x _h pleas$ ,god1 9 8 abundant m]cy1 to br+ my m9d into su* a /ate1 t ,i 0 will+ to c>ry out into my life :atev] ,i %\ld f9d 9 ! ,scriptures conc]n+ ?is ord9ance1 ei!r ! "o way or ! o!r4 ,i c\ld say1 ,i w d ,8 w1 & x 0 on t acc\nt1 ,i believe1 t ,i soon saw :i* doctr9e is ( ,god1 :e!r infant baptism or believ]s' baptism4 ,& ,i w\ld obs]ve "h1 by ! way1 t ! passage to :i* ,i h j n[ allud$1 ,john vii4 #ag1 has be5 a mo/ rem>kable comm5t to me on _m doctr9es & precepts ( our mo/ holy fai?4 ,= in/ance3 ,resi/ n evil3 b :osoev] %all smite !e on ?y "r *eek1 turn to him ! o!r also4 ,& if any man w sue !e at ! law1 & take away ?y coat1 let him h ?y cloak also4 ,& :osoev] %all compel !e to g a mile1 g ) him twa94 ,give to him t aske? !e1 & f him t w\ld borr[ ( !e turn n ?\ away4 ,love y\r enemies1 bless !m t curse y1 d good to !m t hate y1 & pray = !m :i* despitefully use y1 & p]secute y4 ,mat!w v4 #ci-dd4 ,sell t ye h1 & give alms4 ,luke xii4 #cc4 ,owe no man any ?+1 b to love "o ano!r4 ,rom4 xiii4 #h4 ,x may be said1 surely ^! passages _c be tak5 lit]ally1 = h[ !n w\ld ! p ( ,god be able to pass ?r\gh ! _w4 ,! /ate ( m9d enjo9$ 9 ,john vii4 #ag1 w cause su* objections to vani%4 ,:osoev] is ,,will+ ,to ,,act ,,out ^! comm&m5ts ( ! ,"l ,,lit]ally1 w1 ,i believe1 be l$ ) me to see t1 to take !m ,,lit]ally1 is ! w ( ,god4--,^? :o d s take !m w d\btless (t5 be br\ght into difficulties1 h>d to ! fle% to be>1 b ^! w h a t5d5cy to make !m con/antly feel t !y are /rang]s & pilgrims "h1 t ?is _w is n _! home1 & ?us to ?r[ !m m ^u ,god1 :o w assur$ly help u ?r\gh any difficulty into :i* we may be br\ght by seek+ to act 9 ob$i5ce to ,8 ^w4 ,z soon z ,i 0 br\ght into ?is /ate ( he>t1 ,i saw f ! ,scriptures t believ]s ,,only are ! prop] subjects = baptism1 & t imm]sion is ! only true ,scriptural mode1 9 :i* x ought to be att5d$ to4 ,! passage :i* p>ticul>ly conv9c$ me ( ! =m]1 is ,acts viii4 #cf-ch1 & ( ! latt]1 ,rom4 vi4 #c-e4 ,"s "t aft]1 ,i 0 baptiz$4 ,i _h mu* peace 9 do+ s1 & nev] h ,i = "o s+le mom5t regrett$ x4--,be=e ,i leave ?is po9t1 ,i w\ld j say a few words conc]n+ ! result ( ?is matt]1 s f> z x reg>ds "s ( ! objections :i* occurr$ to my m9d :5 ,i 0 ab\t to exam9e ! ,scriptures conc]n+ baptism4 #a4 ,conc]n+ ! fir/ objection1 my conviction n[ is1 t ( all reveal$ tru?s n on is m cle>ly reveal$ 9 ! ,scriptures1 n ev5 ! doctr9e ( ju/ification by fai?1 & t ! subject has only become obscur$ by m5 n hav+ be5 will+ to take ! ,scriptures alone to decide ! po9t4 #b4 ,n "o ( my true fri5ds 9 ! ,"l has turn$ 8 back on me1 z ,i suppos$1 & almo/ all ( !m h be5 !mselves baptiz$ s9ce4 #c4 ,?\gh 9 "o way ,i lo/ money 9 consequ5ce ( be+ baptiz$1 yet ! ,"l did n suff] me to be really a los]1 ev5 z x reg>ds temporal ?+s2 = ,he made up ! loss mo/ b\ntifully4 ,9 conclusion1 my example has be5 ! means ( lead+ _m to exam9e ! "q ( baptism1 & to submit1 f conviction1 to ?is ord9ance & see+ ?is tru? ,i h be5 l$ to speak on x z well z on o!r tru?s2 & dur+ ! =ty-five ye>s t ,i h n[ resid$ 9 ,bri/ol1 m ?an ?ree ?\s& believ]s h be5 baptiz$ among u4 ,9 ,june ( ?is ye> 7#ahcj7 ,i w5t to prea* at ! op5+ ( a *apel 9 a village ne> ,b>n/aple1 built by t bless$ man ( ,god1 ,?omas ,pugsley1 n[ ) ! ,"l4 ,x pleas$ ,god to br+ two s\ls to ,himself ?r\gh ?is my visit1 & "o m 0 conv]t$ on ano!r visit4 ,s graci\sly did ! ,"l condesc5d to use me1 t almo/ ev]y:]e ,he bless$ ! ,^w :i* ,i prea*$1 !reby te/ify+ t ,he _h s5t me1 & !reby also gett+ glory to ,himself 9 us+ su* an in/rum5t4 ,x 0 s usual = me to prea* ) p>ticul> assi/ance1 especially dur+ ! fir/ mon?s ( ?is ye>1 t once1 :5 x 0 o!rwise1 x 0 mu* notic$ by myself & o!rs4 ,! circum/ance 0 ?is4 ,"o day1 be=e prea*+ at ,teignm\?1 ,i _h m "t ?an usual1 & !re=e pray$ & m$itat$ ab\t six h\rs1 9 prep>ation = ! ev5+ meet+1 & ,i ?\ght ,i saw _m preci\s tru?s 9 ! passage on :i* ,i _h m$itat$4 ,x 0 ! fir/ "p ( ! fir/ *apt] ( ! epi/le to ! ,ephesians4 ,aft] ,i _h spok5 a little "t1 ,i felt t ,i spoke 9 my own /r5g?1 & ,i1 be+ a =eign]1 felt p>ticul>ly ! want ( words1 :i* _h n be5 ! case be=e4 ,i told ! bre?r51 t ,i felt ,i 0 left to myself1 & ask$ _! pray]s4 ,b aft] hav+ cont9u$ a little long]1 & feel+ ! same z be=e1 ,i clos$1 & propos$ t we %\ld h a meet+ = pray]1 t ! ,"l /ill might be pleas$ to help me4 ,we did s1 & ,i 0 p>ticul>ly assi/$ ! next "t4 ,dur+ ?is summ] also x appe>$ to me scriptural1 accord+ to ! example ( ! ,apo/les1 ,acts xx4 #g1 to break bread e ,"l's day1 ?\gh !re is no comm&m5t giv5 to d s1 ei!r by ! ,"l1 or by ! ,holy ,gho/ ?r\gh ! ,apo/les4 ,& at ! same "t x appe>$ to me scriptural1 accord+ to ,eph4 iv41 ,rom4 xii41 c41 t !re %\ld be giv5 room = ! ,holy ,gho/ to "w ?r\gh any ( ! bre?r5 :om ,he pleas$ to use2 t ?us "o memb] might b5efit ! o!r ) ! gift :i* ! ,"l has be/[$ ^u him4 ,accord+ly at c]ta9 meet+s any ( ! bre?r5 _h an opportunity to exhort or tea* ! re/1 if !y consid]$ t !y _h any ?+ to say :i* might be b5eficial to ! he>]s4--,i obs]ve "h1 t1 z ! ,"l gave me grace to endeav\r at once to c>ry out ! light :i* ,he _h be5 pleas$ to give me on ?is po9t1 & z ! tru? 0 b 9 "p appreh5d$1 !re 0 mu* infirmity mix$ ) ! mann] ( c>ry+ x out4 ,nor 0 x until sev]al ye>s aft] t ! ,"l 0 pleas$ to tea* me ab\t ?is po9t m p]fectly4 ,t ! disciples ( ,jesus %\ld meet toge!r1 on ! fir/ day ( ! week1 = ! break+ ( bread1 & t t %\ld be _! pr9cipal meet+1 & t ^?1 :e!r "o or sev]al1 :o are truly gift$ by ! ,holy ,_s = s]vice1 be x = exhortation1 or tea*+1 or rule1 c41 are responsible to ! ,"l = ! ex]cise ( _! gifts3 ^! are to me no matt]s ( unc]ta9ty1 b po9ts on :i* my s\l1 by grace1 is e/abli%$1 ?r\gh ! reveal$ w ( ,god4 ,on ,octob] #g?1 #ahcj1 ,i 0 unit$ by m>riage to ,miss ,m>y ,groves1 si/] ( ! bro!r ^: "n has already be5 m5tion$4 ,?is /ep 0 tak5 aft] pray] & delib]ation1 f a full conviction t x 0 bett] = me to be m>ri$3 & ,i h nev] regrett$ s9ce1 ei!r ! /ep itself or ! *oice1 b desire to be truly grateful to ,god = hav+ giv5 me su* a wife4 ,ab\t ?is "t ,i began to h consci5ti\s objections aga9/ any long] receiv+ a /at$ sal>y4 ,my reasons aga9/ x 7 ^!3-- #a4 ,! sal>y 0 made up by pew-r5ts2 b pew-r5ts are1 accord+ to ,james ii4 #a-f1 aga9/ ! m9d ( ! ,"l1 z1 9 g5]al1 ! poor bro!r _c h s good a seat z ! ri*4 7,all pew-r5ts 7 !re=e giv5 up1 & all ! seats made free1 :i* 0 /at$ at ! entrance ( ! *apel74 #b4 ,a bro!r may gladly d some?+ t[>ds my support if left to 8 own "t2 b :5 ! qu>t] is up1 he has p]haps o!r exp5ses1 & ,i d n "k1 :e!r he pays 8 money grudg+ly1 & ( necessity1 or *e]fully2 b ,god love? a *e]ful giv]4 ,nay1 ,i knew x to be a fact1 t sometimes x _h n be5 conv5i5t to individuals to pay ! money1 :5 x _h be5 ask$ = by ! bre?r5 :o collect$ x4 #c4 ,?\gh ! ,"l _h be5 pleas$ to give me grace to be fai?ful1 s t ,i _h be5 enabl$ n to keep back ! tru?1 :5 ,he _h %[n x to me2 /ill ,i felt t ! pew-r5ts 7 a sn>e to ! s]vant ( ,*ri/4 ,x 0 a temptation to me1 at lea/ = a few m9utes1 at ! "t :5 ! ,"l _h /irr$ me up to pray & se>* ! ,^w respect+ ! ord9ance ( baptism1 because ,l#cj4 ( my sal>y 0 at /ake1 if ,i %\ld be baptiz$4 ,= ^! reasons ,i /at$ to ! bre?r51 at ! end ( ,octob]1 #ahcj1 t ,i %\ld = ! future give up hav+ any regul> sal>y4 ,aft] ,i _h giv5 my reasons = do+ s1 ,i read ,philippians iv41 & told ! sa9ts1 t if !y /ill _h a desire to d some?+ t[>ds my support1 by volunt>y gifts1 ,i _h no objection to receive !m1 ?\gh ev] s small1 ei!r 9 money or provisions4 ,a few days aft] x appe>$ to me1 t !re 0 a bett] way /ill2 = if ,i receiv$ p]sonally e s+le gift1 (f]$ 9 money1 bo? my own "t & t ( ! donors w\ld be mu* tak5 up2 & 9 ?is way also ! poor might1 ?r\gh temptation1 be kept f (f]+ _! p5ce1 a privilege ( :i* !y ought n to be depriv$2 & "s also might 9 ?is way give m ?an if x 7 n kn[n :o 0 ! giv]2 s t x w\ld /ill be d\btful :e!r ! gifts 7 giv5 grudg+ly or *e]fully4 ,= ^! reasons especially1 !re 0 a box put up 9 ! *apel1 ov] :i* 0 writt51 t :oev] _h a desire to d some?+ t[>ds my support1 might put 8 (f]+ into ! box4 ,at ! same "t x appe>$ to me "r1 t h5ce=? ,i %\ld ask no man1 n ev5 my belov$ bre?r5 & si/]s1 to help me1 z ,i _h done a few times accord+ to _! own reque/1 z my exp5ses1 on acc\nt ( travel+ mu* 9 ! ,"l's s]vice1 7 too great to be met by my usual income4 ,= unconsci\sly ,i _h ?us aga9 be5 l$1 9 "s measure1 to tru/ 9 an arm ( fle%2 go+ to man1 in/ead ( go+ to ! ,"l at once4 ,to come to ?is conclusion be=e ,god1 requir$ m grace ?an to give up my sal>y4 ,ab\t ! same "t also my wife & ,i _h grace giv5 to u to take ! ,"l's comm&m5t1 ,sell t ye h1 & give alms1 ,luke xii4 #cc1 lit]ally1 & to c>ry x out4 ,our /aff & support 9 ?is matt] 7 ,mat!w vi4 #ai-cd1 ,john xiv4 #ac1 #ad4 ,we lean$ on ! arm ( ! ,"l ,jesus4 ,x is n[ fifty-"o ye>s1 s9ce we set out 9 ?is way1 & we d n 9 ! lea/ regret ! /ep we !n took4 ,our ,god also has1 9 ,8 t5d] m]cy1 giv5 u grace to abide 9 ! same m9d conc]n+ ! above po9ts1 bo? z x reg>ds pr9ciple & practice2 & ?is has be5 ! means ( lett+ u see ! t5d] love & c>e ( our ,god ov] ,8 *ildr51 ev5 9 ! mo/ m9ute ?+s1 9 a way 9 :i* we nev] exp]im5tally knew !m be=e2 & x has1 9 p>ticul>1 made ! ,"l kn[n to u m fully ?an we knew ,him be=e1 z a pray] he>+ ,god4 ,z ,i h writt5 d[n h[ ! ,"l has be5 pleas$ to deal ) u s9ce1 ,i %all be able to relate "s facts conc]n+ ?is matt]1 z f> z !y may t5d to edification4 ,extracts f my ,j\rnal4 ,nov4 #ah?1 #ahcj4--,our money 0 r$uc$ to ab\t eight %ill+s4 ,:5 ,i 0 pray+ ) my wife 9 ! morn+1 ! ,"l br\ght to my m9d ! /ate ( our purse1 & ,i 0 l$ to ask ,him = "s money4 ,ab\t f\r h\rs aft]1 we 7 ) a si/] at ,bi%op/eignton1 & %e said to me1 ,d y want any money8 ,i told ! bre?r51 said ,i1 de> si/]1 :5 ,i gave up my sal>y1 t ,i w\ld = ! future tell ! ,"l only ab\t my wants4 ,%e repli$1 ,b ,he has told me to give y "s money4 ,ab\t a =tnight ago ,i ask$ ,him1 :at ,i %\ld d = ,him1 & ,he told me to give y "s money2 & la/ ,saturday x came aga9 p[]fully to my m9d1 & has n left me s9ce1 & ,i felt x s =cibly la/ night1 t ,i c\ld n help speak+ ( x to ,bro!r ,p4 ,my he>t rejoic$1 see+ ! ,"l's fai?fulness1 b ,i ?\ght x bett] n to tell h] ab\t our circum/ances1 le/ %e %\ld be influ5c$ to give accord+ly2 & ,i also 0 assur$1 t1 if x 7 ( ! ,"l1 %e c\ld n b give4 ,i !re=e turn$ ! conv]sation to o!r subjects1 b :5 ,i left %e gave me two gu9eas4 ,we 7 full ( joy on acc\nt ( ! goodness ( ! ,"l4--,i w\ld call ^u ! read] to admire ! g5tl5ess ( ! ,"l1 t ,he did n try our fai? mu* at ! comm5cem5t1 b gave u fir/ enc\ragem5t1 & all[$ u to see ,8 will+ness to help u1 be=e ,he 0 pleas$ to try x m fully4 ,! next ,w$nesday ,i w5t to ,exm\?1 our money hav+ !n aga9 be5 r$uc$ to ab\t n9e %ill+s4 ,i ask$ ! ,"l on ,?ursday1 :5 at ,exm\?1 to be pleas$ to give me "s money4 ,on ,friday morn+1 ab\t eight o'clock1 :il/ 9 pray]1 ,i 0 p>ticul>ly l$ to ask aga9 = money2 & be=e ,i rose f my knees ,i _h ! fulle/ assurance1 t we %\ld h ! answ] t v day4 ,ab\t n9e o'clock ,i left ! bro!r ) :om ,i 0 /ay+1 & he gave me half a sov]eign1 say+1 ,take ?is = ! exp5ses connect$ ) y\r com+ to u4 ,i did n expect to h my exp5ses paid1 b ,i saw ! ,"l's fa!rly h& 9 s5d+ me ?is money )9 "o h\r aft] my ask+ ,him = "s4 ,b ev5 !n ,i 0 s fully assur$ t ! ,"l w\ld s5d m t v day1 or _h done s already1 t1 :5 ,i came home ab\t twelve o'clock1 ,i ask$ my wife :e!r %e _h receiv$ any lett]s4 ,%e told me %e _h receiv$ "o ! day be=e f a bro!r 9 ,exet]1 ) ?ree sov]eigns4 ,?us ev5 my pray] on ! prec$+ day _h be5 answ]$4 ,! next day "o ( ! bre?r5 came & br\ght me ,l#d41 :i* 0 due to me ( my =m] sal>y1 b :i* ,i c\ld nev] h expect$1 z ,i did n ev5 "k t ?is sum 0 due to me4 ,?us ,i receiv$1 )9 ?irty h\rs1 9 answ] to pray]1 ,l#g4 #ajs4 ,9 ! comm5cem5t ( ,decemb] ,i w5t to ,collumpton1 :]e ,i prea*$ sev]al times1 & likewise 9 a neighb\r+ village4 ,9 driv+ home f ! village late at night1 our driv] lo/ 8 way4 ,z soon z we f\nd out our mi/ake1 be+ !n ne> a h\se1 x /ruck me t ! h& ( ,god 0 9 ?is matt]2 & hav+ awak5$ ! p ( ! h\se1 ,i (f]$ a man some?+ if he w\ld be k9d en\gh to br+ u into ! "r road4 ,i n[ walk$ ) ! man be=e ! gig1 & conv]s$ ) him ab\t ! ?+s ( ,god1 & soon f\nd out t he 0 an awful backslid]4 ,may ,god1 9 m]cy1 bless ! ^w spok5 to him1 & may we le>n f ?is circum/ance1 t we h to ask on su* occasions1 :y ! ,"l has all[$ su* & su* ?+s to happ5 to u4--,s9ce ! publication ( ! fir/ edition1 "o day1 ab\t eight ye>s aft] ?is circum/ance _h happ5$1 ! individual :o drove me t night introduc$ himself to me z a believ]1 & told me t on t ev5+ he receiv$ 8 fir/ impressions "u ! prea*+ ( ! ,^w4 ,! miss+ ( ! "r road may h be5 connect$ ) 8 /ate ( m9d4 ,may ,i & my fell[-lab\r]s 9 ! ,gospel be enc\rag$ by ?is1 pati5tly to cont9ue to s[ ! se$1 ?\gh only aft] eight ye>s or m we %\ld see ! fruit ( x4 ,i only add1 t up to t "t1 ! individual _h be5 a v dissipat$ "y man1 :o caus$ 8 believ+ p>5ts v mu* grief4 ,_! love l$ !m to convey me & my wife to ?is village & back aga91 & truly ! ,"l gave !m a rew>d 9 do+ s4 ,betwe5 ,*ri/mas & ! new ye>1 :5 our money 0 r$uc$ to a few %ill+s1 ,i ask$ ! ,"l = m2 :5 a few h\rs aft] !re 0 giv5 to u a sov]eign by a bro!r f ,axm9/]4 ,?is bro!r _h he>d mu* aga9/ me1 & 0 at la/ det]m9$ to he> = himself1 & ?us came to ,teignm\?1 a di/ance ( =ty miles2 & hav+ he>d ab\t our mann] ( liv+1 gave u ?is money4 ,) ?is closes ! ye> #ahcj4 ,?r\gh\t x ! ,"l ri*ly suppli$ all my temporal wants1 ?\gh at ! comm5cem5t ( x ,i _h no c]ta9 human prospect = "o s+le %ill+2 s t1 ev5 z x reg>ds temporal ?+s1 ,i _h n be5 9 ! smalle/ degree a los] 9 act+ accord+ to ! dictates ( my consci5ce2 &1 z x reg>ds spiritual ?+s1 ! ,"l _h inde$ dealt b\ntifully ) me1 & l$ me on 9 _m respects1 &1 moreov]1 _h condesc5d$ to use me z an in/rum5t 9 do+ ,8 "w4 ,on ,janu>y #f?1 #g?1 & #h?1 #ahca1 ,i _h repeat$ly ask$ ! ,"l = money1 b receiv$ none4 ,on ! ev5+ ( ,janu>y #h? ,i left my room = a few m9utes1 & 0 !n tempt$ to di/ru/ ! ,"l1 ?\gh ,he _h be5 s graci\s to u1 9 t ,he n only up to t day _h suppli$ all our wants1 b _h giv5 u also ^? answ]s ( pray]1 :i* h be5 9 "p j m5tion$4 ,i 0 s s9ful1 = ab\t five m9utes1 z to ?9k x w\ld be ( no use to tru/ 9 ! ,"l 9 ?is way4 ,i also began to say to myself1 t ,i _h p]haps gone too f> 9 liv+ 9 ?is way4 ,b1 ?anks to ! ,"l6 ?is trial la/$ b a few m9utes4 ,he enabl$ me aga9 to tru/ 9 ,him1 & ,satan 0 imm$iately conf\nd$2 = :5 ,i return$ to my room 7out ( :i* ,i _h n be5 abs5t t5 m9utes71 ! ,"l _h s5t deliv]ance4 ,a si/] 9 ! ,"l1 :o resid$ at ,exet]1 _h come to ,teignm\?1 & br\ght u ,l#b4 #ds42 s ! ,"l triumph$1 & our fai? 0 /r5g!n$4 ,jan4 #aj4 ,today1 :5 we _h aga9 b a few %ill+s1 ,l#e4 0 giv5 to u1 :i* _h be5 tak5 out ( ! box4 ,i _h1 once = all1 told ! bre?r51 :o _h ! c>e ( ^! temporal ?+s1 to h ! k9dness to let me h ! money e week2 b z ^! belov$ bre?r5 ei!r =got to take x out weekly1 or 7 a%am$ to br+ x 9 su* small sums1 x 0 g5]ally tak5 out e ?ree1 f\r1 or five weeks4 ,z ,i _h /at$ to !m1 h[ev]1 f ! comm5cem5t1 t ,i desir$ to look nei!r to man nor ! box1 b to ! liv+ ,god1 ,i ?\ght x n "r on my "p1 to rem9d !m ( my reque/ to h ! money weekly1 le/ x %\ld h9d] ! te/imony :i* ,i wi%$ to give1 ( tru/+ 9 ! liv+ ,god alone4 ,x 0 on ?is acc\nt t on ,janu>y #bh?1 :5 we _h aga9 b little money1 ?\gh ,i _h se5 ! bre?r5 on ,janu>y ! #bd? op5 ! box & take out ! money1 ,i w\ld n ask ! bro!r1 9 ^: h&s x 01 to let me h x2 b1 /&+ 9 ne$ ( x1 z our coals 7 almo/ gone1 ,i ask$ ! ,"l to incl9e 8 he>t to br+ x1 & b a little "t aft]w>ds x 0 giv5 to u1 ev5 ,l#a4 #hs4 #f;d4 ,i w\ld "h m5tion1 t s9ce ! "t ,i began liv+ 9 ?is way1 ,i h be5 kept f speak+1 ei!r directly or indirectly1 ab\t my wants1 at ! "t ,i 0 9 ne$4 ,b :il/ ,i h refra9$1 & d /ill habitually refra91 f speak+ to my fell[ creatures ab\t my wants at ! "t1 ,i desire to speak well ( ! ,"l's goodness1 aft] ,he has deliv]$ me2 n only 9 ord] t ,he ?us may get glory1 b also t ! *ildr5 ( ,god may be enc\rag$ to tru/ 9 ,him4 ,on ,febru>y #ad? we _h aga9 v little money1 &1 :il/ pray+1 ,i 0 l$ to ask ! ,"l1 graci\sly to supply our wants2 & ! in/ant t ,i rose f my knees1 a bro!r gave me ,l#a41 :i* _h be5 tak5 out ( ! box4 ,on ,m>* #g? ,i 0 aga9 tempt$ to disbelieve ! fai?fulness ( ! ,"l1 & ?\gh ,i 0 n mis]able1 /ill ,i 0 n s fully re/+ ^u ! ,"l1 t ,i c\ld triumph ) joy4 ,x 0 b "o h\r aft]1 :5 ! ,"l gave me ano!r pro( ( ,8 fai?ful love4 ,a ,*ri/ian lady at ,teignm\? _h be5 f home = "s "t1 & on h] return %e br\ght f ! si/]s 9 ! ,"l1 ) :om %e _h be5 /ay+1 five sov]eigns = u1 ) ^! words writt5 9 ! pap]2--,i 0 an hung]$1 & ye gave me meat2 ,i 0 ?ir/y1 & ye gave me dr9k4 ,"l1 :5 saw we ,!e an hung]$1 & f$ ,!e8 or ?ir/y1 & gave ,!e dr9k8 ,! ,k+ %all answ] & say unto !m1 ,v]ily1 v]ily1 ,i say unto y1 inasmu* z ye h done x unto "o ( ! lea/ ( ^! my bre?r51 ye h done x unto me4 ,on ,m>* #af? ,i w5t to ,axm9/]1 & prea*$ 9 sev]al places 9 t neighb\rhood1 besides hold+ a meet+ at ,axm9/]4 ,:il/ /ay+ !re ,i 0 reque/$ to prea* at ,*>d2 b z ,i _h nev] be5 away f ,teignm\? on ! ,"l's day1 ,i _h to pray mu*1 be=e ,i came to ! conclusion to comply ) ! reque/4 ,at la/ ,i _h ! fulle/ assurance t ,i ought to prea* at ,*>d4 ,i h s9ce he>d t ! ,"l us$ me 9 edify+ ! bre?r51 & ?r\gh a g5]al exhortation to all1 to read ! ,scriptures ) e>ne/ness1 a woman 0 /irr$ up to d s1 & ?is 0 ! means ( h] conv]sion4 ,z to myself1 ,i _h a mo/ refre%+ season4 ,i m5tion ?is circum/ance to %[ h[ important x is to asc]ta9 ! w ( ,god1 be=e we und]take any ?+1 because we are !n n only bless$ 9 our own s\ls1 b also ! "w ( our h&s w prosp]4--,"o ( ! bre?r5 at ,*>d =c$ a sov]eign ^u me1 aga9/ ! acceptance ( :i* ,i /rove mu*1 le/ x %\ld appe> z if ,i _h prea*$ = money4 ,ano!r w\ld give me a pap] ) money4 ,i refus$ x = ! same reason4 ,at la/ he put x by =ce into my pocket1 & ran away4 ,! pap] conta9$ #aas4 #f;d4 ,april #af?4 ,?is morn+ ,i f\nd t our money 0 r$uc$ to #cs41 & ,i said to myself1 ,i mu/ n[ g & ask ! ,"l e>ne/ly = fre% supplies4 ,b be=e ,i _h pray$1 !re 0 s5t f ,exet] ,l#b1 z a pro( t ! ,"l he>s be=e we call4 ,i w\ld obs]ve "h1 by ! way1 t if any ( ! *ildr5 ( ,god %\ld ?9k t su* a mode ( liv+ leads away f ! ,"l1 & f c>+ ab\t spiritual ?+s1 & has ! effect ( caus+ ! m9d to be tak5 up ) ! "q1 ,:at %all ,i eat8 ,:at %all ,i dr9k8--& ,:]e)al %all ,i be clo!d8 & t on t acc\nt x w\ld be mu* bett] to h a /at$ sal>y1 p>ticul>ly = "o :o lab\rs 9 ! ^w & doctr9e1 9 ord] t he may be above ^! c>es2 ,i say1 %\ld any believ] ?9k s1 ,i w\ld reque/ him1 pray]fully to consid] ! foll[+ rem>ks3--#a4 ,i h _h exp]i5ce ( bo? ways1 & "k t my pres5t mode ( liv+1 z to temporal ?+s1 is connect$ ) less c>e4 #b4 ,confid5ce 9 ! ,"l1 to :om alone ,i look = ! supply ( my temporal wants1 keeps me1 at lea/ :il/ fai? is 9 ex]cise1 :5 a case ( di/ress comes be=e me1 or :5 ! ,"l's "w calls = my pecuni>y aid1 f anxi\s reckon+ l ?is3 ,w my sal>y la/ out8 ,%all ,i h en\gh myself ! next mon?8 c4 ,9 ?is my fre$om1 ,i am1 by ! grace ( ,god1 g5]ally at lea/1 able to say to myself some?+ l ?is3--,my ,"l is n limit$2 ,he c aga9 supply2 ,he kn[s t ?is pres5t case has be5 s5t to me2 & ?us1 ?is way ( liv+1 s f> f lead+ to anxiety1 z x reg>ds possible future want1 is r ! means ( keep+ f x4 ,& truly x 0 once said to me by an individual1--,y c d su* & su* ?+s1 & ne$ n to lay by1 = ! *ur* 9 ! :ole ( ,devon%ire c>es ab\t y\r wants4 ,my reply 03 ,! ,"l c use n m]ely any ( ! sa9ts ?r\gh\t ,devon%ire1 b ^? ?r\gh\t ! _w1 z in/rum5ts to supply my temporal wants4 #c4 ,?is way ( liv+ has (t5 be5 ! means ( reviv+ ! "w ( grace 9 my he>t1 :5 ,i h be5 gett+ cold2 & x also has be5 ! means ( br++ me back aga9 to ! ,"l1 aft] ,i h be5 backslid+4 ,= x w n d1--x is n possible1 to live 9 s91 &1 at ! same "t1 by communion ) ,god1 to draw d[n f heav5 e ?+ "o ne$s = ! life t n[ is4 #d4 ,frequ5tly1 too1 a fre% answ] to pray]1 obta9$ 9 ?is way1 has be5 ! means ( quick5+ my s\l1 & fill+ me ) mu* joy4 ,ab\t ,april #bj? ,i w5t to ,*umleigh4 ,"h & 9 ! neighb\rhood ,i prea*$ repeat$ly1 & f !nce ,i w5t to ,b>n/aple4 ,:il/ we 7 at ,b>n/aple1 !re 0 f\nd 9 my wife's bag a sov]eign1 put !re anonym\sly4 ,a si/] also gave u ,l#b4 ,on our return to ,teignm\?1 ,may #b1 :5 we empti$ our travell+ bag1 !re fell out a pap] ) money4 ,x conta9$ two sov]eigns & ?reep5ce1 ! latt] put 91 no d\bt1 to make a noise 9 empty+ ! bag4 ,may ! ,"l bless & rew>d ! giv]6 ,9 a simil> way we f\nd #ds4 put anonym\sly into "o ( our draw]s1 a few days aft]4 ,june #f4 ,hav+ pray$ mu* on ! previ\s days1 t1 :5 we want$ money1 ! ,"l w\ld be pleas$ to s5d "s1 today1 aft] ,i _h aga9 ask$ = x1 a poor si/] br\ght half a sov]eign1 #es4 f h]self1 & #es4 f ano!r v poor si/]4 ,?is is n only a fre% pro( t ! ,"l he>s pray]1 b also t ,he s5ds by :om ,he w4 ,our money _h be5 r$uc$ to #hs4 ,june #ab4 ,"l's day4 ,on ,?ursday la/ ,i w5t ) bro!r ,craik to ,torquay1 to prea* !re4 ,i _h only ab\t #cs4 ) me & left my wife ) ab\t #fs4 at home4 ,! ,"l provid$ b$s = u ?r\gh ! hospitality ( a bro!r4 ,i ask$ ! ,"l repeat$ly = money2 b :5 ,i came home my wife _h only ab\t #cs4 left1 hav+ receiv$ no?+4 ,we wait$ /ill ^u ! ,"l4 ,ye/]day pass$ away1 & no money came4 ,we _h #i;d4 left4 ,?is morn+ we 7 /ill wait+ ^u ! ,"l1 & look+ = deliv]ance4 ,we _h only a little butt] left = breakfa/1 suffici5t = bro!r ,e4 & a relative liv+ ) u1 to :om we did n m5tion our circum/ances1 t !y might n be made uncom=table4 ,aft] ! morn+ meet+1 bro!r ,y4 mo/ unexpect$ly op5$ ! box1 &1 9 giv+ me q z unexpect$ly ! money at su* a "t1 he told me t he & 8 wife c\ld n sleep la/ night on acc\nt ( ?9k+ t we might want money4 ,! mo/ /rik+ po9t is1 t1 aft] ,i _h repeat$ly ask$ ! ,"l1 b receiv$ no?+1 ,i !n pray$ ye/]day1 t ! ,"l w\ld be pleas$ to impress x on bro!r ,y4 t we want$ money1 s t he might op5 ! box4 ,!re 0 9 x ,l#a4 #hs4 #aj #a_/b;d4 ,our joy on acc\nt ( ?is fre% deliv]ance 0 great1 & we prais$ ! ,"l he>tily4 ,june #ah4 ,bro!r ,craik call$ on u today1 & he !n _h only #a #a_/b;d4 left4 ,a few m9utes aft]1 he receiv$3 a sum ( money1 & 9 return+ to u on 8 way home1 he gave u #ajs41 :5 we _h b #cs4 left4 ,july #bj4 ,a %\ld] ( mutton & a loaf 7 s5t to u anonym\sly4--,i und]/ood "s "t aft]w>ds1 t ,satan _h rais$ ! false report t we 7 />v+1 9 consequ5ce ( :i* a believ] s5t ^! provisions4 ,i w\ld m5tion by ! way1 t v>i\s reports h be5 circulat$1 on acc\nt ( ?is our way ( liv+4 ,sometimes x has be5 said t we _h n en\gh to eat1 & t surely su* & su* an infirmity ( body we _h br\ght on u1 because we _h n ! necess>ies ( life4 ,n[1 ! tru? is1 t1 :il/ we h be5 (t5 br\ght l[2 yea1 s l[1 t we h n _h ev5 z mu* z "o s+le p5ny left2 or s z to h ! la/ bread on ! table1 & n z mu* money z 0 ne$$ to buy ano!r loaf2--yet nev] h we _h to sit d[n to a meal1 )\t our good ,"l hav+ provid$ n\ri%+ food = u4 ,i am b\nd to /ate ?is1 & ,i d x ) pleasure4 ,my ,ma/] has be5 a k9d ,ma/] to me1 & if ,i _h to *oose ?is day aga91 z to ! way ( liv+1 ! ,"l giv+ me grace1 ,i w\ld n *oose diff]5tly4 ,b ev5 ^! v reports1 false z !y 71 ,i d\bt n ! ,"l has sometimes us$ z a means1 to put x into ! he>ts ( ,8 *ildr51 to rememb] our temporal necessities4 ,ab\t ,july #be? ,i prea*$ sev]al times at ,collumpton1 & 9 a neighb\r+ village1 9 ! op5 air4 ,my exp]i5ce z x reg>ds prea*+ 9 ! op5 air has be5 v diff]5t f :at ,i might h expect$4 ,i h (t5 prea*$ out ( doors1 & b once has x be5 bless$1 z f> z ,i "k1 & t 0 9 ! case ( an (fic] 9 ! army1 :o came to make sport ( x2 :il/ almo/ 9 e place1 if n 9 e place1 :]e ,i h prea*$ 9 rooms or *apels1 ! ,"l has giv5 te/imony to ! ,^w4 ,p]haps ! ,"l has n be5 pleas$ to let me see fruit f ?is "p ( my "w1 ?\gh ,i h be5 _m times engag$ 9 x2 or x may be1 t1 because ,i did n pray s e>ne/ly respect+ my out-door prea*+ z respect+ my 9-door prea*+1 ! =m] has n be5 s mu* bless$ z ! latt]4 ,b ?is te/imony ,i _c b be>1 t1 ?\gh ,i d n consid] x at pres5t my "w1 on acc\nt ( want ( bodily /r5g?1 yet x is a mo/ important "w1 & ,i %\ld delight 9 be+ s hon\r$ n[1 z to be all[$ to be engag$ 9 x4 ,augu/ #i4 ,aft] extreme suff]+1 :i* la/$ ab\t sev5te5 h\rs1 my wife 0 ?is day deliv]$ ( a /ill-born *ild4--,:o ( my read]s w\ld suppose1 t :il/ ,i 0 s abundantly bless$ by ,god1 & t 9 s _m respects1 my he>t %\ld h be5 aga9 _m times dur+ sev]al mon?s previ\s to ?is day1 cold1 wret*$1 c>nal8 ,h[ long-suff]+ is ! ,"l6 ,repeat$ly1 dur+ ?is "t1 ,i c\ld let h\rs run on1 aft] ,i _h ris5 9 ! morn+1 be=e ,i pray$2 at lea/1 be=e ,i retir$ = pray]4 ,& at t "t :5 ,i appe>$ mo/ zeal\s = ,god1 p]haps m s ?an at any "t be=e or s9ce1 ,i 0 (t5 f> f be+ 9 a spiritual /ate4 ,i 0 n n[1 inde$1 indulg+ 9 gross outw>d s9s1 :i* c\ld be notic$ by my bre?r52 b (t5--v (t51 ! eye ( my k9d lov+ ,fa!r mu/ h look$ on me ) mu* grief4 ,on ?is acc\nt1 ,i h no d\bt1 ! ,"l n[1 9 great compassion1 s5t ?is heavy bl[4 ,i _h n s]i\sly ?\ght ( ! great dang] connect$ ) *ildbe>+1 & !re=e _h nev] e>ne/ly pray$ ab\t x4 ,n[ came ?is solemn "t4 ,! life ( my de> wife 0 hang+1 z x 71 on a ?read1 &1 9 ! mid/ ( x1 my consci5ce told me1 t my /ate ( he>t made su* a *a/isem5t ne$ful4 ,yet1 at ! same "t1 ,i 0 mu* support$4--,:5 ! *ild 0 /ill-born1 ,i saw almo/ imm$iately aft]w>ds1 t ?is c\ld n h be5 expect$ o!rwise1 = ,i _h n look$ on ! prospect ( hav+ a *ild z on a bless+1 :i* ,i 0 ab\t to receive f ,god1 b r consid]$ x z a burd5 & a h9drance 9 ! ,"l's "w2 = ,i did n "k !n1 t1 :il/ a wife & *ildr5 may be 9 c]ta9 respects1 on ! "o h&1 a h9drance to ! s]vant ( ,*ri/1 !y also may fit him1 on ! o!r h&1 = c]ta9 p>ts ( 8 "w1 9 tea*+ him ?+s :i* are important to be kn[n1 especially = ! pa/oral "w4 ,! ,"l n[ br\ght1 9 addition to ?is1 v great suff]+s ^u my belov$ wife1 :i* la/$ = six weeks1 comb9$ ) a p>tial lam5ess ( ! left side4--,imm$iately aft] ! ev5tful "t ( ,augu/ #h? & #i?1 ! ,"l br\ght me1 9 ,8 t5d] m]cy1 aga9 into a spiritual /ate ( he>t1 s t ,i 0 enabl$ to look on ?is *a/isem5t z a great bless+4 ,may ?is my exp]i5ce be a w>n+ to believ+ read]s1 t ! ,"l may n ne$ to *a/ise !m1 on acc\nt ( _! /ate ( he>t6 ,may x also be a fre% pro( to !m1 t ! ,"l1 9 ,8 v love & fai?fulness1 w n1 & _c let u g on 9 backslid+1 b t ,he w visit u ) /ripes1 to br+ u back to ,himself6 ,!re 0 "o po9t1 h[ev]1 9 :i*1 by grace1 ,i _h cont9u$ to be fai?ful to ,god1 i4e4 9 my mode ( liv+1 &1 !re=e1 9 z f> z ,i _h be5 fai?fully s[+1 ,i n[ reap$ abundantly2 = ! ,"l mo/ graci\sly suppli$1 9 ri* abundance1 all our temporal wants1 ?\gh !y 7 _m4 ,ano!r reason = ?is may h be51 t ! ,"l nev] lays m on u1 9 ! way ( *a/isem5t1 ?an our /ate ( he>t makes ne$ful2 s t :il/ ,he smites ) ! "o h&1 ,he supports ) ! o!r4--,we saw x to be aga9/ ! ,"l's m9d to put by any money = my wife's conf9em5t1 ?\gh we might h1 humanly speak+1 v easily sav$ ,l#bj4 or ,l#cj4 dur+ ! six mon?s previ\s to ,augu/ #g?4 ,i say1 humanly speak+1 & judg+ f :at we _h receiv$ dur+ all ^! mon?s1 we might h laid by z mu* z ! above sums2 b ,i h e reason to believe1 t1 _h ,i begun to lay up1 ! ,"l w\ld h /opp$ ! supplies1 & ?us1 ! ability ( do+ s 0 only app>5t4 ,let no "o pr(ess to tru/ 9 ,god1 & yet lay up = future wants1 o!rwise ! ,"l w fir/ s5d him to ! ho>d he has amass$1 be=e ,he c answ] ! pray] = m4 ,we 7 p]suad$1 t1 if we laid out our money 9 ! ,"l's s]vice1 ,he w\ld s5d m :5 we ne$$ x2 & ?is our fai?1 ,8 own gift1 ,he graci\sly hon\r$1 inasmu* z ,he n m]ely gave u :at we ne$$1 b mu* m4 ,on ,augu/ #f?1 j be=e ?is "t ( ne$1 ! ,"l s5t u ,l#e4 f a di/ance ( ab\t =ty miles1 & t f a si/]1 :om1 up to ?is day1 nei!r ( u "k p]sonally4 ,on ,augu/ #g? ,i receiv$ ,l#a4 #js4 #i #a_/b;d4 out ( ! box4 ,augu/ #ae?1 f a di/ance ( tw5ty-five miles 0 s5t ,l#e41 & f a di/ance ( ab\t sev5ty miles ,l#a4 ,augu/ #ah?1 :il/ prea*+ at ,*udleigh1 ,l#a4 0 s5t to me1 & a bro!r s5t f ,exet] ,l#b4 ,augu/ #ba/ 0 aga9 s5t f a di/ance ( sev5ty miles ,l#e41 & ,augu/ #bcrd ano!r ,l#e4 f ! same place4 ,also1 ,augu/ #bbnd1 #afs4 #i;d4 0 giv5 out ( ! box4 ,augu/ #bd?1 a bro!r1 :o is a day lab\r]1 gave me #bs4 #f;d4 ,augu/ #ca/1 #es4 0 giv5 to me4 ,septemb] #crd1 :il/ prea*+ at ,*udleigh1 ,l#c4 #ajs4 0 giv5 to me by a bro!r & ?ree si/]s4 ,septemb] #d?1 a si/] gave me a gu9ea1 & also out ( ! box 0 giv5 #is4 #h;d4 ,septemb] #aj?1 ,l#f4 0 giv5 to me4 ,?us1 )9 ab\t "o mon?1 ! ,"l n only s5t u ne>ly ,l#dj41 b likewise all sorts ( suitable provisions & refre%m5ts1 ne$ful at su* a "t2 &1 9 addition to ?is1 ! two m$ical g5tlem5 :o att5d$ my wife w\ld n take any remun]ation = _! unwe>i$ att5tion & k9dness1 dur+ ! space ( six weeks4 ,?us ! ,"l gave u ev5 m ?an we c\ld h sav$1 if we _h endeav\r$ to d s4 ,novemb] #af?4 ,?is morn+ ,i propos$ unit$ pray] respect+ our temporal wants4 ,j z we 7 ab\t to pray1 a p>cel came f ,exm\?4 ,9 pray] we ask$ ! ,"l = meat = d9n]1 hav+ no money to buy any4 ,aft] pray]1 on op5+ ! p>cel1 we f\nd1 among o!r ?+s1 a ham1 s5t by a bro!r at ,exm\?1 :i* s]v$ u = d9n]4 ,?us n only our own family 0 provid$ =1 b also a si/] 9 ! ,"l !n /ay+ ) u4 ,novemb] #ag?4 ,today we _h n a s+le p5ny left4 ,we _h ask$ ! ,"l ye/]day & today4 ,we desir$ only en\gh money to be able to buy bread4 ,we 7 r$uc$ m ?an ev] we _h be5 be=e4 ,b our graci\s & fai?ful ,"l1 :o nev] lays m ^u ,8 *ildr5 ?an ,he enables !m to be>1 deliv]$ u aga9 ?is "t1 by s5d+ u ,l#a4 #ajs4 #f;d41 ab\t an h\r be=e we want$ money to buy bread4 ,novemb] #ai?4 ,we _h n en\gh to pay our weekly r5t2 b ! ,"l graci\sly s5t u aga9 today #ads4 #f;d4 ,i w\ld j obs]ve1 t we nev] contract debts1 :i* we believe to be unscriptural 7accord+ to ,romans xiii4 #h27 & !re=e we h no bills ) our tailor1 %oemak]1 groc]1 but*]1 bak]1 c42 b all we buy we pay = 9 ready money4 ,! ,"l help+ u1 we w\ld r suff] privation1 ?an contract debts4 ,?us we always "k h[ mu* we h1 & h[ mu* we h a "r to give away4 ,may ,i entreat ! believ+ read]1 pray]fully to consid] ?is matt]2 = ,i am well aw>e t _m trials come ^u ! *ildr5 ( ,god1 on acc\nt ( n act+ accord+ to ,rom4 xiii4 #h4 ,novemb] #bg?1 ,"l's day4 ,our money _h be5 r$uc$ to #b #a_/b;d42 our bread 0 h>dly en\gh = ?is day4 ,i _h sev]al times br\ght our ne$ be=e ! ,"l4 ,aft] d9n]1 :5 ,i return$ ?anks1 ,i ask$ ,him to give u our daily bread1 mean+ lit]ally t ,he w\ld s5d u bread = ! ev5+4 ,:il/ ,i 0 pray+1 !re 0 a knock at ! door ( ! room4 ,aft] ,i _h conclud$1 a poor si/] came 91 & br\ght u "s ( h] d9n]1 & f ano!r poor si/]1 #es4 ,9 ! aft]noon %e also br\ght u a l>ge loaf4 ,?us ! ,"l n only lit]ally gave u bread1 b also money4 ,9 read+ ab\t all ^! answ]s to pray]1 ! believ+ read] may be l$ to ?9k t ,i am spiritually m9d$ above mo/ ( ! *ildr5 ( ,god1 & t1 !re=e1 ! ,"l fav\rs u ?us4 ,! true reason is ?is4 ,j 9 z _m po9ts z we are act+ accord+ to ! m9d ( ,god1 9 s _m are we bless$ & made a bless+4 ,our mann] ( liv+ is accord+ to ! m9d ( ! ,"l1 = ,he delights 9 see+ ,8 *ildr5 ?us come to ,him 7,matt4 vi472 & !re=e1 ?\gh ,i am weak & err+ 9 _m po9ts1 yet ,he blesses me 9 ?is p>ticul>1 &1 ,i d\bt n1 w bless me1 z long z ,he %all enable me to act accord+ to ,8 w 9 ?is matt]4 ,aft] we _h1 on ,decemb] #ca/1 #ahca1 look$ ov] ! ,"l's graci\s deal+s ) u dur+ ! pa/ ye>1 9 provid+ = all our temporal wants1 we _h ab\t #ajs4 left4 ,a little :ile aft]1 ! provid5ce ( ,god call$ = t1 s t n a s+le f>?+ rema9$4 ,?us we clos$ ! old ye>1 9 :i* ! ,"l _h be5 s graci\s 9 giv+ to u1 )\t our ask+ any "o3-- #a4 ,?r\gh ! in/rum5tality ( ! box1 ,l#ca4 #ads4-- #b4 ,f bre?r5 ( ! ,*ur* at ,teignm\?1 9 pres5ts ( money1 ,l#f4 #ahs4 #f;d4 #c4 ,f bre?r5 liv+ at ,teignm\? & else:]e1 n connect$ ) ! ,*ur* at ,teignm\?1 ,l#ic4 #fs4 #b;d4 ,altoge!r1 ,l#aca4 #ahs4 #h;d4 ,!re _h be5 likewise _m articles ( provision & "s articles ( clo?+ giv5 to u1 wor? at lea/ ,l#bj4 ,i am s p>ticul> 9 m5tion+ ^! ?+s1 to %[ t we are nev] los]s by act+ accord+ to ! m9d ( ! ,"l4 ,= _h ,i _h my regul> sal>y1 humanly speak+1 ,i %\ld n h _h ne>ly z mu*2 b :e!r ?is w\ld h be5 ! case or n1 ?is is pla91 t ,i h n s]v$ a h>d ,ma/]1 & t is :at ,i delight to %[4 ,=1 to speak well ( ,8 "n1 t ?us my belov$ fell[-pilgrims1 :o may read ?is1 may be enc\rag$ to tru/ 9 ,him1 is ! *ief purpose ( my writ+4 ,we _h n[ 9 ! new ye> to look up to our k9d ,fa!r = new m]cies1 & dur+ ! ye> #ahcb also we f\nd ,him z fai?ful & compassionate z be=e1 n lay+ m on u ?an ,he enabl$ u to be>1 ?\gh space w only p]mit me to m5tion a few p>ticul>s4 ,janu>y #g1 #ahcb4 ,we _h be5 aga9 repeat$ly ask+ ! ,"l today & ye/]day to supply our temporal wants1 hav+ no means to pay our weekly r5t2 & ?is ev5+1 z late z elev5 o'clock1 a bro!r gave u #ais4 #f;d41 a pro( t ! ,"l is n limit$ to "t4 ,janu>y #ac4 ,! ,"l has aga9 graci\sly f$ u today4 ,we h #e;d4 left1 "s bread1 rice1 meat1 potatoes1 & o!r good ?+s1 &1 above all1 ! ,"l ,jesus4 ,he :o has provid$ w provide4 ,janu>y #ad4 ,?is morn+ we _h no?+ b dry bread ) our tea2 only ! second "t s9ce we h be5 liv+ by simple fai? ^u ,jesus = temporal supplies4 ,we h m ?an ,l#dj4 ( ready money 9 ! h\se = two bills1#b :i* w n be payable = sev]al weeks2 b we d n consid] ?is money to be our own1 & w\ld r suff] great privation1 ,god help+ u1 ?an take ( x4 ,i ?ank ! ,"l1 :o gives me grace to be m fai?ful 9 ^! matt]s ?an ,i us$ to be =m]ly1 :5 ,i w\ld h tak5 ( x1 & said1 t by ! "t ! money 0 actually due1 ,i %\ld be able to replace x4 ,we 7 look+ to our ,fa!r1 & ,he has n suff]$ u to be disappo9t$4 ,= :5 n[ we _h b #c;d4 left1 & only a small piece ( bread1 we receiv$ #bs4 & #es41 ! p>ticul>s conc]n+ :i* w\ld take up too mu* space4 ,febru>y #ah4 ,?is aft]noon ,i broke a blood vessel 9 my /oma*1 & lo/ a consid]able quantity ( blood4 ,i 0 v happy imm$iately aft]w>ds4 ,febru>y #ai4 ,?is morn+1 ,"l's day1 two bre?r5 call$ on me1 to ask me :at arrangem5t !re %\ld be made today1 z x reg>d$ ! f\r villages1 :]e "s ( ! bre?r5 7 9 ! habit ( prea*+1 z1 on acc\nt ( my n be+ able to prea*1 "o ( ! bre?r5 w\ld ne$ to /ay at home to take my place4 ,i ask$ !m1 k9dly to come aga9 9 ab\t an h\r1 :5 ,i w\ld give !m an answ]4 ,aft] !y 7 gone1 ! ,"l gave me fai? to rise4 ,i dress$ myself1 & det]m9$ to g to ! *apel4 ,i 0 enabl$ to d s1 ?\gh s weak :5 ,i w5t1 t walk+ ! %ort di/ance to ! *apel 0 an ex]tion to me4 ,i 0 enabl$ to prea* ?is morn+ ) z l\d & /rong a voice z usual1 & = ! usual l5g? ( "t4 ,aft] ! morn+ meet+1 a m$ical fri5d call$ on me1 & entreat$ me n to prea* aga9 9 ! aft]noon1 z x might greatly injure me4 ,i told him1 t ,i %\ld inde$ consid] x great presumption to d s1 _h ! ,"l n giv5 me fai?4 ,i prea*$ aga9 9 ! aft]noon1 & ?is m$ical fri5d call$ aga91 & said ! same conc]n+ ! ev5+ meet+4 ,nev]!less1 hav+ fai?1 ,i prea*$ aga9 9 ! ev5+4 ,aft] ea* meet+ ,i became /rong]1 :i* 0 a pla9 pro( t ! h& ( ,god 0 9 ! matt]4 ,aft] ! ?ird meet+ ,i w5t imm$iately to b$1 consid]+ t x w\ld be presumption to try my /r5g? ne$lessly4 ,febru>y #bj4 ,! ,"l enabl$ me to rise e>ly 9 ! morn+1 & to g to our usual pray]-meet+1 :]e ,i read1 spoke1 & pray$4 ,aft]w>ds ,i wrote f\r lett]s1 exp\nd$ ! scriptures at home1 & att5d$ ! meet+ aga9 9 ! ev5+4 ,febru>y #ba4 ,i att5d$ ! two meet+s z usual1 prea*$ 9 ! ev5+1 & did my o!r "w besides4 ,febru>y #bb4 ,today ,i att5d$ ! meet+ 9 ! morn+1 walk$ aft]w>ds six miles ) two bre?r5 to ,newton ,bu%el1 & rode f !nce to ,plym\?3 ,febru>y #bc4 ,i am n[ z well z ,i 0 be=e ,i broke ! blood vessel4--,9 relat+ ! p>ticul>s ( ?is circum/ance ,i w\ld e>ne/ly w>n e "o :o may read ?is1 n to imitate me 9 su* a ?+ if he has no fai?2 b if he has1 x w1 z good co91 mo/ assur$ly be hon\r$ by ,god4 ,i c\ld n say1 t1 if su* a ?+ %\ld happ5 aga91 ,i w\ld act 9 ! same way2 = :5 ,i h be5 n ne>ly s weak z :5 ,i _h brok5 ! blood-vessel1 hav+ no fai?1 ,i did n prea*2 yet if x 7 to please ! ,"l to give me fai?1 ,i might be able to d ! same1 ?\gh ev5 /ill weak] ?an at ! "t j spok5 (4 ,ab\t ?is "t ,i repeat$ly pray$ ) sick believ]s till !y 7 re/or$4 ,unconditionally ,i ask$ ! ,"l = ! bless+ ( bodily heal?1 7a ?+ :i* ,i c\ld n d n[71 & almo/ always _h ! petition grant$4 ,9 "s in/ances1 h[ev]1 ! pray] 0 n answ]$4 ,9 ! same way1 :il/ 9 ,london1 ,nov4 #ahbi1 9 answ] to my pray]s1 ,i 0 imm$iately re/or$ f a bodily infirmity "u :i* ,i _h be5 lab\r+ = a long "t1 & :i* has nev] return$ s9ce4 ,! way 9 :i* ,i n[ acc\nt = ^! facts is z foll[s4 ,x pleas$ ! ,"l1 ,i ?9k1 to give me 9 su* cases some?+ l ! gift 7n grace7 ( fai?1 s t unconditionally ,i c\ld ask & look = an answ]4 ,! diff]5ce betwe5 ! gift & ! grace ( fai? seems to me ?is4 ,accord+ to ! gift ( fai? ,i am able to d a ?+1 or believe t a ?+ w come to pass1 ! n do+ ( :i*1 or ! n believ+ ( :i* w\ld n be s92 accord+ to ! grace ( fai? ,i am able to d a ?+1 or believe t a ?+ w come to pass1 respect+ :i* ,i h ! ^w ( ,god z ! gr\nd to re/ ^u1 &1 !re=e1 ! n do+ x1 or ! n believ+ x w\ld be s94 ,= in/ance1 ! gift ( fai? w\ld be ne$$1 to believe t a sick p]son %\ld be re/or$ aga9 ?\gh !re is no human probability3 = !re is no promise to t effect2 ! grace ( fai? is ne$$ to believe t ! ,"l w give me ! necess>ies ( life1 if ,i fir/ seek ! k+dom ( ,god & ,8 righte\sness3 = !re is a promise to t effect4 ,matt4 vi4 ,m>* #ah4 ,^! two days we h n be5 able to pur*ase meat4 ,! si/] 9 ^: h\se we lodge gave u today "p ( h] d9n]4 ,we are /ill look+ to ,jesus = deliv]ance4 ,we want money to pay ! weekly r5t & to buy provisions4 ,m>* #ai4 ,our l&lady s5t aga9 ( h] meat = our d9n]4 ,we h b a halfp5ny left4 ,i feel myself v cold 9 ask+ = money3 /ill ,i hope = deliv]ance1 ?\gh ,i d n see :5ce money is to come4 ,we 7 n able to buy bread today z usual4 ,m>* #bj4 ,?is has be5 aga9 a day ( v great m]cies4 ,9 ! morn+ we met r\nd our breakfa/ :i* ! ,"l _h provid$ = u1 ?\gh we _h n a s+le p5ny left4 ,! la/ half-p5ny 0 sp5t = milk4 ,we 7 !n /ill look+ to ,jesus = fre% supplies4 ,we bo? _h no d\bt t ! ,"l w\ld int]f]e4 ,i felt x a trial t ,i _h b little e>ne/ness 9 ask+ ! ,"l1 & _h ?is n be5 ! case1 p]haps we might h _h our wants soon] suppli$4 ,we h ab\t ,l#g4 9 ! h\se2 b consid]+ x no long] our own1 ! ,"l kept u f tak+ ( x1 ) ! view ( replac+ :at we _h tak51 z =m]ly ,i might h done4 ,! meat :i* 0 s5t ye/]day = our d9n]1 0 en\gh also = today4 ,?us ! ,"l _h provid$ ano!r meal4 ,two si/]s call$ ^u u ab\t noon1 :o gave u two p\nds ( sug>1 "o p\nd ( c(fee1 & two cakes ( *ocolate4 ,:il/ !y 7 ) u1 a poor si/] came & br\ght #as4 f h]self1 & #bs4 #f;d4 f ano!r poor si/]4 ,our l&lady also s5t u aga9 ( h] d9n]1 & also a loaf4 ,our bread w\ld sc>cely h be5 en\gh = tea1 _h ! ,"l n ?us graci\sly provid$4 ,9 ! aft]noon ! same si/] :o br\ght ! money1 br\ght u also f ano!r si/]1 "o p\nd ( butt] & #bs41 & f ano!r si/] #es4 ,?us ! ,"l graci\sly has aga9 answ]$ our feeble & cold brea?+s4 ,"l1 /r5g!n our fai?4 ,m>* #bi4 ,i w5t to ,%aldon ?is morn+4 ,bro!r ,craik has left = ,bri/ol = f\r weeks4 ,i ?9k he w only return to take leave1 & t ! ,"l w give him "w !re4 ,:at a rem>kable pres5tim5t1 :i* came to pass1 conc]n+ my belov$ bro!r & fell[-lab\r]6 ,april #d4 ,besides our own family1 !re are n[ f\r visitors /ay+ ) u1 & we h b #bs4 ,april #e4 ,f\r p\nds ( *eese1 & "o p\nd ( butt] 7 s5t to u4 ,april #g4 ,anonym\sly 0 s5t to u1 f ,plym\?1 a l>ge ham1 ) two sov]eigns ti$ 9 ! corn] ( ! clo? 9 :i* ! ham 0 wrapp$ up4 ,?us ! ,"l1 once m1 9 ?is our "t ( ne$1 :5 our exp5ses are d\ble1 has graci\sly appe>$ = u4 ,april #h4 ,i h aga9 felt mu* ?is day t ,teignm\? is no long] my place1 & t ,i %all leave x4 ,i w\ld obs]ve t 9 ,augu/ ( ! prec$+ ye> 7#ahca71 ,i began greatly to feel z if my "w at ,teignm\? 7 done1 & t ,i %\ld g some:]e else4 ,on writ+ ab\t ?is to a fri5d1 ,i 0 l$1 f ! answ] ,i receiv$1 to consid] ! matt] m maturely1 & at la/ _h x settl$ 9 ?is way1 t x 0 n likely to be ( ,god1 because1 = c]ta9 reasons1 ,i %\ld naturally h lik$ to leave ,teignm\?4 ,aft]w>ds ,i felt q com=table 9 rema9+ !re4 ,9 ! comm5cem5t ( ! ye> #ahcb ,i began aga9 mu* to d\bt :e!r ,teignm\? 0 my place1 or :e!r my gift 0 n mu* m t ( go+ ab\t f place to place1 seek+ to br+ believ]s back to ! ,scriptures1 ?an to /ay 9 "o place & to lab\r z a pa/or4 ,i ?\ght s p>ticul>ly :il/ at ,plym\?1 9 ,febru>y4 ,on my return1 h[ev]1 ,i resolv$ to try :e!r x 7 n ! w ( ,god t ,i %\ld /ill give myself to pa/oral "w among ! bre?r5 at ,teignm\?2 &1 ) m e>ne/ness & fai?fulness ?an ev]1 ,i 0 enabl$ to att5d to ?is "w1 & 0 c]ta9ly mu* refre%$ & bless$ 9 x2 & ,i saw imm$iately bless+s result f x4 ,?is my exp]i5ce seem$ m ?an ev] to settle me at ,teignm\?4 ,b not)/&+ ?is1 ! impression t my "w 0 done !re1 came back aft] "s "t1 z ! rem>k 9 my j\rnal ( ,april #h? %[s1 & x became /rong] & /rong]4 ,!re 0 "o po9t rem>kable 9 connexion ) ?is4 ,:]ev] ,i w5t1 ,i prea*$ ) mu* m enjoym5t & p[] ?an at ,teignm\?1 ! v rev]se ( :i* _h be5 ! case on my fir/ go+ !re4 ,moreov]1 almo/ e :]e ,i _h _m m he>]s ?an at ,teignm\?1 & f\nd ! p hung]+ aft] food1 :i*1 g5]ally speak+1 0 no long] ! case at ,teignm\?4 ,april #aj4 ,i ask$ ! ,"l = a text1 b obta9$ none4 ,at la/2 aft] hav+ aga9 mu* felt t ,teignm\? is n my place1 ,i 0 direct$ to ,isaiah li4 #i-aa4 ,april #aa4 ,felt aga9 mu* t ,teignm\? w n mu* long] be my resid5ce4 ,april #ab4 ,/ill feel ! impression t ,teignm\? is no long] my place4 ,april #ac4 ,f\nd a lett] f ,bro!r ,craik1 f ,bri/ol1 on my return f ,torquay1 :]e ,i _h be5 to prea*4 ,he invites me to come & help him4 ,x appe>s to me f :at he writes1 t su* places z ,bri/ol m suit my gifts4 ,o ,"l1 tea* me6 ,i h felt ?is day m ?an ev]1 t ,i %all soon leave ,teignm\?4 ,i fe>1 h[ev]1 !re is mu* connect$ ) x :i* sav\rs ( ! fle%1 & t makes me fe>ful4 ,x seems to me z if ,i %\ld %ortly g to ,bri/ol1 if ! ,"l p]mit4 ,april #ad4 ,wrote a lett] to ,bro!r ,craik1 9 :i* ,i said ,i %\ld come1 if ,i cle>ly saw x to be ! ,"l's w4 ,h felt aga9 v mu* today1 yea1 f> m ?an ev]1 t ,i %all soon leave ,teignm\?4 ,at la/ ,i 0 press$ 9 _s to det]m9e t tomorr[ ,i w\ld tell ! bre?r5 s1 9 ord] t by ! result ( ?is ,i might see m ( ! ,"l's m9d2 & t1 at all ev5ts1 ,i might h _! pray]s1 to be direct$ 9 ?is matt] by ! ,"l4 ,april #ae4 ,"l's day4 ,?is ev5+ ,i prea*$ aga9 once m1 z fully z "t w\ld p]mit1 on ! ,"l's second com+4 ,aft] hav+ done s1 ,i told ! bre?r5 :at effect ?is doctr9e _h _h ^u me1 on fir/ receiv+ x1 ev5 to det]m9e me to leave ,london1 & to prea* ?r\gh\t ! k+dom2 b t ! ,"l _h kept me *iefly at ,teignm\? = ^! two ye>s & ?ree mon?s1 & t x seem$ to me n[ t ! "t 0 ne> :5 ,i %\ld leave !m4 ,i rem9d$ !m ( :at ,i told !m :5 !y reque/$ me to take ! ov]sight ( !m1 t ,i c\ld make no c]ta9 engagem5t1 b /ay only s long ) !m z ,i %\ld see x to be ! ,"l's w to d s4 ,!re 0 mu* weep+ aft]w>ds4 ,b ,i am n[ aga9 9 peace4 ,?is w\ld n h be5 ! case1 _h ! matt] n be5 ( ,god4 ,i knew ( no place to g to4 ,my m9d 0 mu* direct$ to ,torquay1 to prea* !re = a mon? or s1 & !n to g fur!r4 ,= ?\gh ,i _h writt5 t ,i w\ld come to ,bri/ol1 ,i meant only to /ay !re = a few days1 & to prea* a few times4 ,april #af4 ,?is morn+ ,i am /ill 9 peace4 ,i am glad ,i h spok5 to ! bre?r51 t !y may be prep>$1 9 case ! ,"l %\ld take me away4--,hav+ aga9 little money1 & be+ ab\t to leave ,teignm\? = sev]al days1 ,i ask$ ! ,"l = a fre% supply1 & )9 ab\t f\r h\rs aft]w>ds he s5t me1 f six diff]5t qu>t]s1 ,l#c4 #gs4 #f;d4 ,i left today = ,d>tm\?1 :]e ,i prea*$ 9 ! ev5+4--,!re 0 mu* weep+ today among ! sa9ts at ,teignm\?4 ,?is is already a trial to me1 & x w be /ill m s %\ld ,i actually leave4--,x is a mo/ important "w to g ab\t & /ir up ! *ur*es2 b x requires mu* grace1 mu* self-d5ial1 mu* say+ ov] ! same ?+s1 & ! greate/ wat*fulness & fai?fulness1 9 mak+ use ( "o's "t = pray]1 m$itation1 & read+ ! ,scriptures4--,i _h five answ]s to pray] today4 #a4 ,i awoke at five1 = :i* ,i _h ask$ ! ,"l la/ ev5+4 #b4 ,! ,"l remov$ f my de> wife an indisposition1 "u :i* %e _h be5 suff]+4 ,x w\ld h be5 try+ to me to h _h to leave h] 9 t /ate4 #c4 ,! ,"l s5t u money4 #d4 ,!re 0 a place vacant on ! ,d>tm\? coa*1 :i* only passes ?r\gh ,teignm\?4 #e4 ,?is ev5+ ,i 0 assi/$ 9 prea*+1 & my own s\l refre%$4 ,april #ag4 ,i prea*$ aga9 at ,d>tm\?4 ,april #ah4 ,i am /ill at ,d>tm\?4 ,i wrote to ,bro!r ,craik1 t1 ! ,"l will+1 ,i %\ld be ) him at ,bri/ol on ! #ba/4 ,i prea*$ aga9 ?is ev5+1 ) especial assi/ance1 be=e a l>ge congregation4 ,april #ai4 ,i awoke e>ly1 & _h a good :ile to myself = pray] & read+ ! ,^w1 & left happy 9 _s = ,torquay1 :]e ,i prea*$ 9 ! ev5+ ) mu* help4 ,! bre?r5 are sorry1 t1 on acc\nt ( my go+ to ,bri/ol1 my regul> weekly prea*+ w be giv5 up !re = a :ile4 ,i walk$ home aft] prea*+1 & arriv$ at ,teignm\? at twelve o'clock4 ,april #bj4 ,i left ?is morn+ = ,bri/ol4 ,i prea*$ ) little p[] 7z to my own feel+7 9 ,exet]1 f ?ree till half-pa/ f\r4 ,at five ,i left = ,tale=d1 :]e ,i prea*$ 9 ! ev5+1 likewise ) little p[]4 ,i 0 v tir$ 9 body1 & _h _h !re=e little pray]4 ,b /ill1 9 bo? places1 ! believ]s seem$ refre%$4 ,i w5t to b$ at elev51 v1 v tir$4 ,april #ba4 ,?is morn+ ,i rose a little be=e five1 & att5d$ a pray] meet+ f a qu>t] pa/ five1 to a qu>t] pa/ six4 ,i spoke = "s "t at ! meet+4 ,aft]w>ds ,i pray$ & read aga9 ) "s believ]s1 & likewise exp\nd$ ! ,scriptures4 ,! ,bri/ol coa* took me up ab\t t54 ,i 0 v fai?less on ! j\rney4 ,i did n speak a s+le ^w = ,*ri/1 & 0 !re=e wret*$ 9 my s\l4 ,?is has %[n me aga9 my weakness4 ,?\gh ! ,"l _h be5 s graci\s to me ye/]day1 9 ?is p>ticul>1 bo? on my way f ,teignm\? to ,exet]1 & f ,exet] to ,tale=d1 & _h giv5 me mu* enc\ragem5t1 9 t ,he made my fell[-travell]s ei!r ?ankfully to receive ! ^w1 or con/ra9$ !m quietly to li/5 to ! te/imony2 yet ,i did n confess ,him today4 ,nor did ,i give away a s+le tract1 ?\gh ,i _h my pockets full on purpose4 ,o wret*$ man t ,i am6 ,i w\ld (f] "h a ^w ( w>n+ to my fell[-believ]s4 ,(t5 ! "w ( ! ,"l itself may be a temptation to keep u f t communion ) ,him :i* is s ess5tial to ! b5efit ( our own s\ls4--,on ! #ai? ,i _h left ,d>tm\?1 conv]s$ a good deal t day1 prea*$ 9 ! ev5+1 walk$ aft]w>ds eight miles1 _h only ab\t five h\rs sleep1 travel$ aga9 ! next day tw5ty-five miles1 prea*$ twice1 & conv]s$ v mu* besides1 w5t to b$ at elev51 & rose be=e five4 ,all ?is %[s t my body & _s requir$ re/1 &1 !re=e1 h[ev] c>eless ab\t ! ,"l's "w ,i might h appe>$ to my bre?r51 ,i ought to h _h a great deal ( quiet "t = pray] & read+ ! ,^w1 especially z ,i _h a long j\rney be=e me t day1 & z ,i 0 go+ to ,bri/ol1 :i* 9 itself requir$ mu* pray]4 ,in/ead ( ?is1 ,i hurri$ to ! pray] meet+ aft] a few m9utes' private pray]4 ,b let none ?9k t public pray] w make up = closet communion4 ,!n aga91 aft]w>ds1 :5 ,i ought to h )drawn myself1 z x 71 by =ce1 f ! company ( belov$ bre?r5 & si/]s1 & giv5 my te/imony = ! ,"l 7&1 inde$1 x w\ld h be5 ! be/ te/imony ,i c\ld h giv5 !m71 by tell+ !m t ,i ne$$ secret communion ) ! ,"l3 ,i did n d s1 b sp5t ! "t1 till ! coa* came1 9 conv]sation ) !m4 ,n[1 h[ev] pr(itable 9 "s respects x may h be5 to ^? ) :om ,i 0 on t morn+1 yet my own s\l ne$$ food2 & n hav+ _h x1 ,i 0 lean1 & felt ! effects ( x ! :ole day1 & h5ce ,i believe x came t ,i 0 dumb on ! coa*4 ,april #bb4 ,?is morn+ ,i prea*$ at ,gideon ,*apel1 ,bri/ol4 ,?\gh ?is s]mon gave rise to false reports1 yet ! ,"l 0 pleas$ to bless x to sev]al2 & ! false reports 7 likewise in/rum5tal 9 br++ _m individuals "u ! s\nd ( ! ,^w4 ,9 ! aft]noon ,i prea*$ at ! ,pi?ay ,*apel4 ,?is s]mon 0 a bless+ to _m1 _m s\ls2 & _m 7 br\ght ?r\gh x1 to come aft]w>ds to he> ,bro!r ,craik & me4 ,among o!rs x 0 ! means ( conv]t+ a "y man :o 0 a notori\s drunk>d1 & :o 0 j aga9 on 8 way to a public h\se1 :5 an acqua9tance ( 8 met him1 & ask$ him to g ) him to he> a =eign] prea*4 ,he did s2 & f t mom5t he 0 s completely alt]$1 t he nev] aga9 w5t to a public h\se1 & 0 s happy 9 ! ,"l aft]w>ds t he (t5 neglect$ 8 supp]1 f eag]ness to read ! ,scriptures1 z 8 wife told me4 ,he di$ ab\t five mon?s aft]w>ds4 ,?is ev5+ ,i 0 mu* in/ruct$ 9 he>+ ,bro!r ,craik prea*4 ,i am n[ fully p]suad$ t ,bri/ol is ! place :]e ! ,"l w h me to lab\r4 ,april #bc4 ,?is ev5+ ,i prea*$ aga9 ) mu* assi/ance at ,gideon4 ,i 0 v happy4 ,! ,"l made ?is te/imony a bless+ to sev]al4 ,i feel t ,bri/ol is my place = a :ile4 ,! ,"l m]cifully tea* me6 ,april #bg4 ,x seems to ,bro!r ,craik & myself ! ,"l's w t we %\ld g home next week1 9 ord] t 9 quietness1 )\t be+ influ5c$ by :at we see "h1 we may m inquire into ! ,"l's w conc]n+ u4 ,x especially appe>s to u mu* m likely t we %\ld come to a "r conclusion among ! bre?r5 & si/]s 9 ,devon%ire1 ^: te>s we %all h to witness1 & ^: entreaties to /ay ) !m we %all h to he>1 ?an "h 9 ,bri/ol1 :]e we see only ^? :o wi% u to /ay4 ,"s ask$ me to /ay ) !m :ile ,bro!r ,craik goes home4 ,b x seems bett] t we %\ld bo? g4 ,i obs]ve "h1 x 0 evid5t t _m pref]r$ my belov$ bro!r's gifts to my own2 yet1 z he w\ld n come1 except ,i came ) him3 & z ,i knew t ,i also _h be5 call$ by ! ,"l = ! m9i/ry ( ! ,^w1 ,i knew t ,i also %\ld f9d my "w 9 ,bri/ol1 & t ?\gh x might be a diff]5t "o1 yet ,i %\ld fill up 9 "s measure 8 lack1 :il/ he suppli$ my defici5cies2 & t ?us we might bo? be a b5efit to ! *ur* & to ! _w 9 ,bri/ol4 ,! result has evid5tly confirm$ ?is4 ,i am1 moreov]1 by ! grace ( ,god1 /r5g!n$ to rejoice 9 my fell[-lab\r]'s hon\r1 in/ead ( envy+ him2 hav+1 9 "s measure1 be5 enabl$ to ent] into ! mean+ ( t ^w3 ,a man c receive no?+1 except x be giv5 him f above4 ,april #bh4 ,x /ill seems to u ! ,"l's w t we %\ld bo? leave soon1 to h quiet "t = pray] conc]n+ ,bri/ol4 ,?is aft]noon ,i felt ! want ( retirem5t1 f9d+ afre%1 t ! society ( bre?r5 _c make up = communion ) ! ,"l4 ,i sp5t ab\t ?ree h\rs ov] ! ,^w & 9 pray]1 ?is ev5+1 :i* has be5 a great refre%m5t to my inn] man4 ,april #bi4 ,i prea*$ ?is morn+ ) mu* outw>d p[]1 b ) little inw>d enjoym5t1 on ,rev4 iii4 #ad-bb4 ,z x aft]w>ds appe>$1 t te/imony 0 bless$ to _m1 ?\gh ,i lack$ enjoym5t 9 my own s\l4 ,may ?is be an enc\ragem5t to ^? :o lab\r 9 ^w & doctr9e6 ,?is aft]noon ,bro!r ,craik prea*$ 9 a vessel call$ ! ,clifton ,ark1 fitt$ up = a *apel4 ,9 ! ev5+ ,i prea*$ 9 ! same vessel4 ,^! te/imonies also ,god greatly hon\r$1 & made !m ! means ( aft]w>ds br++ sev]al1 :o !n he>d u1 to our meet+ places4 ,h[ did ,god bless u 9 ev]y?+ we took into our h&s6 ,h[ 0 ,he ) u1 & h[ did ,he help u1 !reby evid5tly %[+ t ,he ,himself _h s5t u to ?is city6 ,bro!r ,craik prea*$ ?is ev5+ at ,gideon = ! la/ "t previ\s to our go+4 ,! aisles1 ! pulpit /airs1 & ! ve/ry 7 fill$1 & multitudes w5t away on acc\nt ( ! want ( room4 ,april #cj4 ,x 0 mo/ affect+ to take leave ( ! de> *ildr5 ( ,god1 doz5s press+ u to return soon1 _m ) te>s 9 _! eyes4 ,! bless+ :i* ! ,"l has giv5 to our m9i/ry1 seems to be v great4 ,we bo? see x fully ! ,"l's w to come "h1 ?\gh we d n see "u :at circum/ances4 ,a bro!r has promis$ to take ,be!sda ,*apel = u1 & to be answ]able = ! paym5t ( ! r5t3 s t ?us we %\ld h two l>ge *apels4-,i saw1 aga91 two in/ances today1 9 :i* my prea*+ has be5 bless$4 ,may #a4 ,bro!r ,craik & ,i left ?is morn+ = ,devon%ire4 ,may #b4 ,i prea*$ ?is ev5+ at ,bi%op/eignton1 & told ! bre?r51 t1 ! ,"l will+1 ,i %\ld soon leave !m4 ,may #c4 ,i saw sev]al ( ! bre?r5 today1 & felt s fully assur$ t x is ! ,"l's w t ,i %\ld g to ,bri/ol1 t ,i told !m s4 ,?is ev5+ ,i _h a meet+ ) ! ?ree deacons1 :5 ,i told !m pla9ly ab\t x2 ask+ !m1 if !y see any ?+ wrong 9 me conc]n+ ?is matt]1 to tell me ( x4 ,!y _h no?+ to say aga9/ x2 yea1 ?\gh mu* wi%+ me to /ay1 !y 7 conv9c$ !mselves t my go+ is ( ,god4 ,may #d4 ,i saw aga9 sev]al bre?r5 today1 & told !m ab\t my int5tion to g to ,bri/ol4 ,!re is mu* sorr[+ & sigh+1 b x does n move me 9 ! lea/1 ?\gh ,i desire to sympa?ize ) !m4 ,i am /ill fully p]suad$ t ! ,"l w h u g to ,bri/ol4 ,may #e4 ,"o o!r /rik+ pro( to my m9d1 t my leav+ ,teignm\? is ( ,god1 is1 t "s truly spiritual believ]s1 ?\gh !y mu* wi% me to /ay1 !mselves see t ,i ought to g to ,bri/ol4 ,may #g4 ,hav+ receiv$ a lett] f ,bri/ol on ,may #e?1 x 0 answ]$ today 9 su* a way t ! ,"l may h ano!r opportunity1 to prev5t our go+ ?i!r1 if x be n ( ,him4 ,especially we w n move a s+le /one out ( ! way 9 our own /r5g?1 & mu* less /ill be guilty ( a want ( op5ness & pla9ness1 nor w\ld we wi% by su* means to obta9 ,be!sda *apel4 ,may #aa4 ,! ,"l seems to try u ab\t ,bri/ol4 ,!re 0 reason to expect a lett] ! day be=e ye/]day1 b none came2 also today !re is no lett]4 ,ev5 ?is is v good = u4 ,yea1 ,i d wi% mo/ he>tily t we may n h ,be!sda *apel1 if x be n good = u4 ,may #ae4 ,j :5 ,i 0 9 pray] conc]n+ ,bri/ol1 ,i 0 s5t = to come to ,bro!r ,craik4 ,two lett]s _h arriv$ f ,bri/ol4 ,! bre?r5 assembl+ at ,gideon accept our (f] to come "u ! conditions we h made1 i4e41 = ! pres5t to consid] u only z m9i/]+ among !m1 b n 9 any fix$ pa/oral relation%ip1 s t we may prea* z we consid] x to be accord+ to ! m9d ( ,god1 )\t ref]5ce to any rules among !m2 t ! pew-r5ts %\ld be done away ) & t we %\ld g on1 respect+ ! supply ( our temporal wants1 z 9 ,devon%ire4 ,we int5d1 ! ,"l will+1 to leave 9 ab\t a week1 ?\gh !re is no?+ settl$ respect+ ,be!sda *apel4 ,may #af4 ,i prea*$ = ! la/ "t at ,bi%op/eignton1 & took leave ( ! bre?r54 ,may #ag4 ,i w5t to ,exm\?1 &1 aft] prea*+1 took leave ( ! bre?r54 ,may #ba4 ,i began today to take leave ( ! bre?r5 at ,teignm\?1 call+ on ea* ( !m4 ,9 ! ev5+ ,i w5t ov] to ,%aldon to take leave ( ! bre?r51 ( :om bro!r ,craik has _h ! ov]sight4 ,x has be5 a try+ day4 ,mu* weep+ on ! "p ( ! sa9ts4 ,7 ,i n s fully p]suad$ t x is ! w ( ,god we %\ld g to ,bri/ol1 ,i %\ld h be5 h>dly able to be> x4 ,may #bb4 ,! bre?r5 at ,%aldon & ,teignm\? say1 t !y expect u soon back aga94 ,z f> z ,i und]/& ! way 9 :i* ,god deals ) 8 *ildr51 ?is seems v unlikely4 ,9 e respect we h se5 ! ,"l's goodness1 & all proves t x is ,8 w t we %\ld g to ,bri/ol4 ,?is full p]suasion has help$ me to )/& all ! te>s ( ! sa9ts4 ,t[>ds ! ev5+ ! ,"l1 aft] repeat$ pray]1 gave me ,col4 i4 #ba-bc1 z a text1 = ! la/ ^w ( exhortation4 ,x seem$ to me be/ to speak z little z possible ab\t myself1 & z mu* z possible ab\t ,*ri/4 ,i sc>cely allud$ to our sep>ation1 & only comm5d$ myself & ! bre?r51 9 ! conclud+ pray]1 to ! ,"l4 ,! p>t+ sc5es are v try+1 b my full p]suasion is1 t ! sep>ation is ( ! ,"l4 ,may #bc4 ,my belov$ wife1 ,mr4 ,groves1 my fa!r-9-law1 & ,i left ?is morn+ = ,exet]4 ,de> bro!r ,craik int5ds to foll[ u tomorr[4 ,review ( ! "t s9ce ,i left ,london1 up to my removal f ,teignm\?4 ,i4 ,all ?is "t ! ,"l nev] all[$ me to regret ! /ep ,i _h tak51 9 sep>at+ f ! ,society4 ,,ii4 ,! results h mo/ abundantly %[n1 t x 0 ( ,god2 =1 by ,8 help1 #a1 ,i h n lo/ 9 tru? or grace s9ce4 #b1 ,i h be5 9 peace conc]n+ ! matt]4 #c1 ! ,"l made x a bless+ to _m s\ls4 ,,iii4 ,dur+ ?is p]iod x pleas$ ! ,"l1 to conv]t1 ?r\gh my in/rum5tality1 _m s\ls at ,teignm\?1 ,exm\?1 ,bi%op/eignton1 ,exet]1 ,*udleigh1 9 ! neighb\rhood ( ,b>n/aple1 at ,*>d1 & else:]e4 ,! *ur* at ,teignm\? increas$ f eighte5 to fifty-"o4 ,,iv4 ,! ,"l mo/ graci\sly suppli$ all my temporal wants dur+ ?is p]iod1 s t ,i lack$ no good ?+4 ,v4 ,we _h unexpect$ly receiv$1 j be=e we left ,teignm\?1 ab\t ,l#ae41 else we %\ld n h be5 able to defray all ! exp5ses connect$ ) leav+1 travel+1 c4 ,by ?is also ! ,"l %[$ ,8 m9d conc]n+ our go+ to ,bri/ol4 ,,vi4 ,dur+ ^! two ye>s & five mon?s1 s9ce ,i left ,london1 ,i h s9n$ 9 _m respects1 ?\gh walk+1 x may be1 9 ! eyes ( ! bre?r51 v ne> to ,god4 ,inde$1 my confession conc]n+ ?is "t also is1 t ,i h be5 an unpr(itable s]vant4 ,! foll[+ record w n[ %[ to ! believ+ read] h[ f>1 :at ,i h said conc]n+ my p]suasion1 t x 0 ! w ( ,god t we %\ld g to ,bri/ol1 has be5 prov$ by facts4 ,may #be?1 #ahcb4 ,?is ev5+ we arriv$ 9 ,bri/ol4 ,may #bg4 ,?is morn+ we receiv$ a sov]eign1 s5t to u by a si/] resid+ 9 ,devon%ire1 :i* we take z an e>ne/ t ! ,"l w provide = u "h also4 ,may #bh4 ,:5 we 7 go+ to speak to ! bre?r51 :o manage ! temporal affairs ( ,gideon *apel1 ab\t giv+ up ! pew-r5ts1 hav+ all ! seats free1 & receiv+ ! free-w (f]+s ?r\gh a box1 a matt] :i* 0 n q settl$ on _! "p1 z bro!r ,craik & ,i _h ?\ght2 we f\nd t ! ,"l _h s graci\sly ord]$ ?is matt] = u1 t !re 0 n ! lea/ objection on ! "p ( ^! bre?r54 ,june #d4 ,= sev]al days we h be5 look+ ab\t = lodg+s1 b f9d+ none pla9 & *eap en\gh1 we 7 l$ to make ?is also a subject ( e>ne/ pray]2 & n[1 imm$iately aft]w>ds1 ! ,"l has giv5 u su* z are suitable4 ,!y are ! pla9e/ & *eape/ we c f9d1 b /ill too good = s]vants ( ,jesus1 z our ,ma/] _h n :]e to lay ,8 head4 ,we pay only #ahs4 a week = two sitt+-rooms & ?ree b$rooms1 coals & att5dance4 ,x 0 p>ticul>ly difficult to f9d *eap furni%$ lodg+s1 hav+ five rooms 9 ! same h\se1 :i* we ne$1 z bro!r ,craik & we live toge!r4 ,h[ good is ! ,"l to h ?us appe>$ = u1 9 answ] to pray]1 & :at an enc\ragem5t to commit e ?+ to ,him 9 pray]6 ,june #e4 ,today we _h already a te/imony ( a s9n] hav+ be5 conv]t$ by bro!r ,craik's in/rum5tality1 on ! fir/ ,"l's day 9 ,april1 simply ?r\gh he>+ ! text read4 ,?is ag$ si/] liv$ elev5 ye>s aft]w>ds1 dur+ :i* "t h] walk 0 accord+ to ! pr(ession %e made4 ,%e fell asleep 9 #ahdc4 ,june #g4 ,we h daily fre% enc\ragem5ts1 & fre% pro(s t our be+ "h is ( ,god4 ,june #af4 ,we saw ano!r in/ance ( conv]sion ?r\gh bro!r ,craik's in/rum5tality4 ,june #be4 ,today x 0 f9ally settl$ to take ,be!sda *apel = a twelvemon?1 on condition t a bro!r at once paid ! r5t1 ) ! und]/&+1 t1 if ! ,"l %all bless our lab\rs 9 t place1 s t believ]s are ga!r$ toge!r 9 fell[%ip1 he expects !m to help him2 b1 if n1 t he w pay all4 ,?is 0 ! only way 9 :i* we c\ld take ! *apel2 = we c\ld n ?9k x to be ( ,god to h _h ?is *apel1 ?\gh !re %\ld h be5 e prospect ( usefulness1 if x _h made u 9 any way debtors4 ,we _h tri$ to obta9 a *eap] meet+-place1 b c\ld f9d none l>ge en\gh to accommodate ! he>]s4 ,july #f4 ,today we comm5c$ prea*+ at ,be!sda ,*apel4 ,x 0 a good day4 ,july #ac4 ,today we he>d ( ! fir/ cases ( *ol]a 9 ,bri/ol4 ,july #af4 ,?is ev5+1 f six to n9e o'clock1 we _h appo9t$ = conv]s+ at ! ve/ry1 "o by "o1 ) individuals1 :o wi%$ to speak to u ab\t _! s\ls4 ,!re 7 s _m1 t we 7 engag$ f six till tw5ty m9utes pa/ t54 ,^! meet+s we h cont9u$ ev] s9ce twice a week1 or once a week1 or once a =tnight1 or once a mon?1 z our /r5g? & "t all[$ x1 or z !y seem$ ne$$4 ,we h f\nd !m b5eficial 9 ! foll[+ respects3 #a4 ,_m p]sons1 on acc\nt ( timidity1 w\ld pref] com+ at an appo9t$ "t to ! ve/ry to conv]se ) u1 to call+ on u 9 our own h\se4 #b4 ,! v fact ( appo9t+ a "t = see+ p1 to conv]se ) !m 9 private conc]n+ ! ?+s ( et]nity1 has br\ght "s1 :o1 humanly speak+1 nev] w\ld h call$ on u "u o!r circum/ances2 yea1 x has br\ght ev5 ^? :o1 ?\gh !y ?\ght !y 7 conc]n$ ab\t ! ?+s ( ,god1 yet 7 completely ignorant2 & ?us we h _h an opportunity ( speak+ to !m4 #c4 ,^! meet+s h also be5 a great enc\ragem5t to ourselves 9 ! "w1 = (t51 :5 we ?\ght t su* & su* expositions ( ! ,^w _h done no good at all1 x 01 ?r\gh ^! meet+s1 f\nd to be ! rev]se2 & likewise1 :5 our h&s 7 hang+ d[n1 we h be5 afre% enc\rag$ to g =w>d 9 ! "w ( ! ,"l1 & to cont9ue s[+ ! se$ 9 hope1 by see+ at ^! meet+s fre% cases1 9 :i* ! ,"l _h condesc5d$ to use u z in/rum5ts1 p>ticul>ly z 9 ?is way in/ances h sometimes occurr$ 9 :i* individuals h spok5 to u ab\t ! b5efit :i* !y d]iv$ f our m9i/ry1 n only a few mon?s be=e1 b ev5 z long z two1 ?ree1 & f\r ye>s be=e4 ,= ! above reasons ,i w\ld p>ticul>ly recomm5d to o!r s]vants ( ,*ri/1 especially to ^? :o live 9 l>ge t[ns1 if !y h n already introduc$ a simil> plan1 to consid] :e!r x may n be well = !m also to set ap>t su* times = see+ inquir]s4 ,^? meet+s1 h[ev]1 require mu* pray]1 to be enabl$ to speak aright1 to all ^? :o come1 accord+ to _! diff]5t ne$2 & "o is l$ cont9ually to feel t "o is n suffici5t ( "o's self = ^! ?+s1 b t our suffici5cy c be alone ( ,god4 ,^! meet+s also h be5 by f> ! mo/ we>+ out "p ( all our "w1 ?\gh at ! same "t ! mo/ refre%+4 ,july #ah4 ,today ,i sp5t ! :ole morn+ 9 ! ve/ry1 to procure a quiet season4 ,?is has n[ = "s "t be5 ! only way1 on acc\nt ( ! multiplicity ( engagem5ts1 to make sure ( "t = pray]1 read+ ! ,^w & m$itation4 ,july #ai4 ,i sp5t f half-pa/ n9e till "o 9 ! ve/ry1 & _h real communion ) ! ,"l4 ,! ,"l be prais$1 :o has put x into my m9d to use ! ve/ry = a place ( retirem5t6 ,augu/ #e4 ,:5 all our money 0 gone today1 ! ,"l aga9 graci\sly suppli$ our wants4 ,augu/ #f4 ,?is aft]noon1 f two till aft] six1 bro!r ,craik & ,i sp5t 9 ! ve/ry1 to see ! inquir]s4 ,we h _h aga91 9 see+ sev]al in/ances ( bless+ ^u our lab\rs1 abundant reason br\ght be=e u to praise ! ,"l = hav+ s5t u to ,bri/ol4 ,augu/ #ac1 #ahcb4 ,?is ev5+ "o bro!r & f\r si/]s unit$ ) bro!r ,craik & me 9 *ur* fell[%ip at ,be!sda1 )\t any rules1 desir+ only to act z ! ,"l %all be pleas$ to give u light ?r\gh ,8 ^w4 ,augu/ #ad4 ,?is day we set ap>t = pray] conc]n+ ! *ol]a1 & _h ?ree meet+s4 ,augu/ #ag4 ,?is morn+1 f six to eight1 we _h a pray] meet+ at ,gideon1 on acc\nt ( ! *ol]a4 ,betwe5 two & ?ree hundr$ p 7 pres5t4 ,we cont9u$ ^! meet+s e morn+1 z long z ! *ol]a rag$ 9 ,bri/ol1 & aft]w>ds *ang$ !m into pray] meet+s = ! *ur* at l>ge1 s t we _h !m = ab\t f\r mon?s4 ,augu/ #bd4 ,?is morn+ a si/] 9 ! ,"l1 )9 fifty y>ds ( our lodg+1 0 tak5 ill 9 ! *ol]a1 & di$ ?is aft]noon4 ,h] husb&1 also a believ]1 has be5 attack$1 & may be ne> dea?4 ,! ravages ( ?is disease are becom+ daily m & m fe>ful4 ,we h reason to believe t great numb]s die daily 9 ?is city4 ,:o may be ! next1 ,god alone kn[s4 ,i h nev] realis$ s mu* ! ne>ness ( dea?4 ,except ! ,"l keep u ?is night1 we %all be no m 9 ! l& ( ! liv+ tomorr[4 ,j n[1 t5 9 ! ev5+1 ! fun]al bell is r++1 & has be5 r++ ! great] "p ( ?is ev5+4 ,x r+s almo/ all ! day4 ,into ,?9e h&s1 ,o ,"l1 ,i comm5d myself6 ,"h is ,?y poor wor?less *ild6 ,if ?is night ,i %\ld be tak5 9 ! *ol]a1 my only hope & tru/ is 9 ! blood ( ,jesus ,*ri/1 %$ = ! remission ( all my _m s9s4 ,i h be5 ?or\ghly wa%$ 9 x1 & ! righte\sness ( ,god cov]s me4--,z yet !re h n be5 any ( ! sa9ts1 among :om bro!r ,craik & ,i lab\r1 tak5 9 ! *ol]a4 ,only "o ( !m fell asleep aft]w>ds 9 consequ5ce ( ?is disease4 ,i w\ld obs]ve1 t ?\gh bro!r ,craik & ,i visit$ _m *ol]a cases1 by day & by night1 yet ! ,"l mo/ graci\sly pres]v$ u & our families f x4 ,septemb] #ag4 ,?is morn+ ! ,"l1 9 addition to all ,8 o!r m]cies1 has giv5 u a little girl1 :o1 ) h] "m1 are do+ well4 ,septemb] #ba4 ,on acc\nt ( ! bir? ( our little "o1 & bro!r ,craik's int5d$ m>riage1 x is ne$ful t we *ange our lodg+s1 z !y w n[ be too small = u1 because we %all want "o room m4 ,j :5 we 7 ?9k+ ab\t ?is1 ! h\se belong+ to ,gideon *apel1 :i* _h be5 let = ?ree ye>s1 0 unexpect$ly giv5 up by ! t5ant1 & x 0 n[ (f]$ to u by ! *ur*4 ,we said we c\ld n ?9k ( go+ into x1 z we _h no furniture1 & no money to buy any4 ,! bro!r :o propos$ our go+ into t h\se1 h[ev]1 repli$ t ! bre?r5 w\ld gladly furni% x = u1 to :i* we object$1 fe>+ x w\ld bur!n !m4 ,:51 h[ev]1 ! matt] 0 repeat$ly m5tion$1 & :5 x 0 p>ticul>ly express$ t x w\ld be a pleasure to ! bre?r5 to furni% ! h\se1 we began to consid] ! subject 9 pray]1 & we saw no scriptural objection to accept ?is k9dness1 provid$ ! furniture 0 v pla94 ,?is 0 promis$4 ,! h\se 0 furni%$1 yet ! love ( ! bre?r5 _h done x m exp5sively ?an we wi%$ x4 ,septemb] #bc4 ,today an individual desir$ publicly to return ?anks to ! ,"l1 = hav+ be5 support$ "u ! loss ( a *ild1 "m1 bro!r1 & wife1 9 ! *ol]a1 )9 "o mon?4 ,septemb] #be4 ,la/ night bro!r ,craik & ,i 7 call$ out ( b$ to a poor woman ill 9 ! *ol]a4 ,%e 0 suff]+ int5sely4 ,we nev] saw a case s di/ress+4 ,we c\ld h>dly say any ?+ to h] on acc\nt ( h] l\d cries4 ,i felt z if ! *ol]a 0 com+ ^u me4 ,we comm5d$ ourselves into ! h&s ( ! ,"l :5 we came home1 & ,he m]cifully pres]v$ u4 ,! poor woman di$ today4 ,oct4 #a4 ,a meet+ = inquir]s ?is aft]noon f two to five4 ,_m m are conv9c$ ( s9 ?r\gh bro!r ,craik's prea*+ ?an my own4 ,?is circum/ance l$ me to inquire into ! reasons1 :i* are probably ^!3--#a4 ,t bro!r ,craik is m spiritually m9d$ ?an ,i am4 #b4 ,t he prays m e>ne/ly = ! conv]sion ( s9n]s ?an ,i d4 #c4 ,t he m frequ5tly addresses s9n]s1 z su*1 9 8 public m9i/rations1 ?an ,i d4--,?is l$ me to m frequ5t & e>ne/ pray] = ! conv]sion ( s9n]s1 & to address !m m frequ5tly z su*4 ,! latt] _h nev] be5 int5tionally left undone1 b x _h n be5 s frequ5tly br\ght to my m9d z to t ( bro!r ,craik4 ,s9ce !n1 ! cases 9 :i* x has pleas$ ! ,"l to use me z an in/rum5t ( conv]sion h be5 q z _m z ^? 9 :i* bro!r ,craik has be5 us$4 ,may ! ,"l be pleas$ to use ?is z a means to lead any ( ,8 s]vants1 :o may n h act$ accord+ to ^! two la/ po9ts1 to seek to d s1 & may ,he graci\sly enable me to d s m abundantly6 ,octob] #c4 ,?is day we set ap>t z a day ( ?anksgiv+1 ! *ol]a hav+ decreas$4 ,oct4 #e4 ,pray] meet+ ?is morn+ z usual4 ,! *ol]a is v mu* decreas+1 & ! numb] at our morn+ pray] meet+s likewise4--,hundr$s ( p 7 /irr$ up at t "t1 b _m ( !m1 :5 ! judgm5t ( ,god _h pass$ away1 c>$ no long] ab\t _! s\ls4 ,yet a goodly numb]1 :o 7 fir/ l$ ?r\gh ! in/rum5tality ( ! *ol]a to seek ! ,"l1 are n[ break+ bread ) u1 & are walk+ 9 ! fe> ( ! ,"l4 ,h[ m]ciful 9 its results has ?is heavy judgm5t be5 to _m6 ,janu>y #d1 #ahcc4 ,?is morn+ we receiv$ lett]s f ,bagdad4 ,! mission>y bre?r5 !re invite bro!r ,craik & me to come & jo9 !m 9 _! lab\rs4 ,! invitation 0 accompani$ by drafts to ! am\nt ( ,l#bjj41 = our travel+ exp5ses4 ,:at wilt ,?\ h me to d1 graci\s ,"l8 ,i d n "k :at may be ! ,"l's m9d4 ,!re are po9ts :i* ought to be mu* consid]$ & pray$ ov]3 ,!re are ,g]man villages n v f> f ,bagdad1 :]e ,i might lab\r2 ^u our go+1 t ( c]ta9 o!r individuals may dep5d2 ! bre?r5 at ,bagdad are ( "o m9d respect+ our go+ out2 good may be done on ! way2 ! go+ out )\t any visible support f a society1 simply tru/+ 9 ! ,"l = ! supply ( our temporal wants1 w\ld be a te/imony = ,him2 ,i h _h = ye>s a feel+ z if "o day ,i %\ld g out z a mission>y to ! hea!n or ,mahom$ans2 & la/ly1 ! h&s ( ! bre?r5 at ,bagdad may be /r5g!n$2 ^! are ! po9ts1 :i* mu/ appe> ( no suffici5t weight 9 comp>ison ) ! importance ( our "w "h1 be=e ,i c det]m9e n to g4 ,janu>y #e4 ,i consid]$ ) bro!r ,craik ab\t go+ to ,bagdad4 ,we see no?+ cle>ly4 ,if ! ,"l w h me to g1 "h ,i am4 ,janu>y #g4 ,i sp5t aga9 "s "t 9 pray]1 respect+ our go+ to ,bagdad1 & exam9$ m fully into x4 ,janu>y #h4 ,i _h f half-pa/ five till eight ?is morn+ to myself 9 pray] & read+ ! ,^w4 ,i pray$ !n1 & repeat$ly besides ?is day1 respect+ our go+ to ,bagdad4 ,i wrote also a lett] to "s believ]s at & ne> ,b>n/aple1 to ask _! pray]s conc]n+ ?is matt]4 ,i d n see m cle>ly ?an ,i did be=e4 ,janu>y #i4 ,i aga9 ask$ ! ,"l conc]n+ ,bagdad1 b see no?+ cle>ly respect+ x4 ,i told ! ,"l ,i %\ld /ay at my po/1 unless ,he ,himself %\ld mo/ evid5tly take me away1 & ,i did n feel aft]w>ds my rema9+ "h to be aga9/ ,8 w4 ,janu>y #ad4 ,i feel m & m satisfi$ t x is n ( ! ,"l t ,i %\ld g to ,bagdad4 ,janu>y #ai4 ,= "s days pa/ ,i h be5 read+ bro!r ,groves' j\rnal ( 8 resid5ce at ,bagdad1 bo? = ! sake ( in=mation respect+ 8 position !re1 & also1 if x please ! ,"l1 t ,he may use ?is z a means to %[ me cle>ly we!r ,i %\ld g or /ay4 ,bless$ be ,8 "n t ,i h no desire ( my own 9 ?is matt]6 ,=ty-sev5 ye>s h s9ce pass$ away1 & ,i ?9k ,i may say ?is day /ill1 accord+ to ! be/ ( my k1 ,i _h no desire ( my own 9 ?is matt]2 b ,i nev] saw x to be ! ,"l's w to leave ! "w :i* ,he ,himself _h s evid5tly giv5 me4 ,febru>y #i4 ,i read a "p ( ,franke's life4 ,! ,"l graci\sly help me to foll[ him1 z f> z he foll[$ ,*ri/4 ,! great] "p ( ! ,"l's p :om we "k 9 ,bri/ol are poor1 & if ! ,"l 7 to give u grace to live m z ?is de> man ( ,god did1 we might draw mu* m ?an we h z yet done out ( our ,heav5ly ,fa!r's bank1 = our poor bre?r5 & si/]s4 ,may #bg4 ,today ! two *ur*es1 assembl+ at ,gideon & ,be!sda1 met toge!r at tea4--,^! meet+s we h (t5 repeat$1 & f\nd !m pr(itable on sev]al acc\nts4 #a4 ,!y give a te/imony to ! _w ( ! love ( ! bre?r51 by ri* & poor meet+ ?us toge!r to p>take ( a meal4 #b4 ,su* meet+s may be in/rum5tal 9 unit+ ! sa9ts m & m toge!r4 #c4 ,!y give u a sweet =eta/e ( our meet+ toge!r at ! m>riage supp] ( ! ,lamb4--,at ^! meet+s we pray & s+ toge!r1 & any bro!r has an opportunity to speak :at may t5d to ! edification ( ! re/4 ,may #bh4 ,?is morn+1 :il/ sitt+ 9 my room1 ! di/ress ( sev]al bre?r5 & si/]s 0 br\ght to my m9d1 & ,i said to myself1 ,oh t x might please ! ,"l to give me means to help !m6 ,ab\t an h\r aft]w>ds ,i receiv$ ,l#fj4 f a bro!r1 :om up to ?is day ,i nev] saw1 & :o !n liv$1 z he does /ill1 at a di/ance ( sev]al ?\s& miles4 ,?is %[s h[ ! ,"l c provide 9 any way = ,8 p1 & t ,he is n conf9$ to places4 ,oh t my he>t might ov]fl[ ) gratitude to ! ,"l6 ,s9ce ! fir/ edition 0 pr9t$1 ,i h become p]sonally acqua9t$ ) ! donor4 ,may #bi4 ,review ( ! la/ twelve mon?s1 s9ce we h be5 9 ,bri/ol1 z x reg>ds ! fruits ( our lab\rs4 #a4 ,x has pleas$ ! ,"l to ga!r a *ur*1 ?r\gh our in/rum5tality1 at ,be!sda1 :i* is increas$ to #fj 9 numb]1 & !re h be5 add$ to ,gideon *ur* #di2 !re=e ! total numb] ( ^? add$ to u )9 ! ye>1 has be5 #aji4 #b4 ,!re h be5 conv]t$ ?r\gh our in/rum5tality1 s f> z we h he>d & c judge respect+ ! individuals1 #fe4 #c4 ,_m backslid]s h be5 reclaim$1 & _m ( ! *ildr5 ( ,god h be5 enc\rag$ & /r5g!n$ 9 ! way ( tru?4 ,:at cle> pro(s t we 7 n suff]$ to be mi/ak51 z x reg>ds our com+ to ,bri/ol4 ,june #ab4 ,i felt1 ?is morn+1 t we might d some?+ = ! s\ls ( ^? poor boys & girls1 & gr[n-up or ag$ p1 to :om we h daily giv5 bread = "s "t pa/1 9 e/abli%+ a s*ool = !m1 read+ ! ,scriptures to !m1 & speak+ to !m ab\t ! ,"l4 ,z f> z ,i see at pres5t1 x appe>s well to me to take a place 9 ! mid/ ( ^? poor /reets ne> u1 to collect ! *ildr5 9 ! morn+ ab\t eight1 giv+ !m ea* a piece ( bread = breakfa/1 & !n to tea* !m to read1 or to read ! ,scriptures to !m1 = ab\t an h\r & a half4 ,aft]w>ds ! ag$1 or gr[n-up p1 may h _! appo9t$ "t1 :5 bread may be giv5 to !m1 & ! ,scriptures read & exp\nd$ to !m1 =1 p]haps1 half an h\r4 ,ab\t simil> ?+s ,i h n[ & !n ?\ght ^! two ye>s4--,!re 0 bread giv5 to ab\t #cj or #dj p]sons today2 & ?\gh ! numb] %\ld increase1 9 ! above way1 to #bjj or m1 surely our graci\s & ri* ,"l c give u bread = !m also4 ,no soon] _h ^! ?\ghts aris51 & ,i communicat$ !m to my de> bro!r ,craik1 ?an ,i 0 also direct$ to a place :]e ! p may be assembl$1 hold+ com=tably #aej *ildr54 ,we w5t ab\t x1 & may h x at ! r5t ( #ajl41 ye>ly4 ,! ,"l direct$ u1 also1 to an ag$ bro!r z a tea*]1 & he gladly accept$ ( our (f]4 ,surely1 ?is matt] seems to be ( ,god4 ,moreov]1 z ,i h j n[ a good deal ( money left ( ! #fjl41 we h :]e) to beg92 & if x be ! ,"l's w1 & if ,he w accept x1 ,i am will+ to lay out at once #bjl4 ( x 9 ?is way1 yea1 all t is left1 if ,he w b speak2 &1 by ! "t t ?is is gone1 ,he c s5d m4 ,o ,"l1 if ?is matt] be ( ,!e1 !n prosp] x6 ,?is desire 0 n c>ri$ out4 ,z f> z ,i rememb]1 ! *ief ob/acle 9 ! way 0 a pressure ( "w com+ ^u bro!r ,craik & me j ab\t t "t4 ,%ortly aft]1 ! numb] ( ! poor :o came = bread increas$ to betwe5 #fj & #hj a day1 :]eby our neighb\rs 7 mole/$1 z ! begg>s 7 ly+ ab\t 9 troops 9 ! /reets1 on acc\nt ( :i* we 7 oblig$ to tell !m no long] to come = bread4 ,b ?\gh1 at ?is "t1 ?is matt] 0 n c>ri$ out1 ! ?\ght 01 f "t to "t1 reviv$ & /r5g!n$ 9 my m9d1 & x ultimately issu$ 9 ! =mation ( ! ,scriptural ,k ,in/itution1 & 9 ! e/abli%m5t ( ! ,orphan-,h\ses4 ,june #bb4 ,a bro!r s5t a hat to bro!r ,craik1 & "o to me1 z a tok5 ( 8 love & gratitude1 l a ?ank-(f]+1 z he says4 ,?is is n[ ! f\r? hat :i* ! ,"l has k9dly s5t me successively1 :5ev]1 or ev5 be=e1 ,i ne$$ "o4 ,betwe5 ,augu/ #ai? & #bg? 0 s5t to u1 by sev]al individuals1 a consid]able quantity ( fruit4 ,h[ v k9d ( ! ,"l1 n m]ely to s5d u ! necess>ies ( life1 b ev5 su* ?+s z1 on acc\nt ( ! weakness ( our bodies1 or ! want ( appetite1 we might h desir$6 ,?us ! ,"l has s5t w9e or port] :5 we requir$ x2 or1 :5 !re 0 want ( appetite1 &1 on acc\nt ( ! pov]ty ( our bre?r51 we %\ld n h consid]$ x "r to sp5d money ^u su* ?+s1 ,he has k9dly s5t f[ls1 game1 c41 to suit our appetite4 ,we h1 inde$1 n s]v$ a h>d ,ma/]4 ,i am q a%am$ :5 ,i /ill1 sometimes1 f9d my he>t dissatisfi$1 or1 at lea/1 n grateful z x ought to be4 ,decemb] #ag4 ,?is ev5+ bro!r ,craik & ,i took tea ) a family1 ( :om five h be5 br\ght to ! k ( ! ,"l ?r\gh our in/rum5tality4 ,:5 we took tea ) !m aga91 ab\t a twelvemon? aft]w>ds1 ! numb] _h increas$ to sev54 ,z an enc\ragem5t to bre?r5 :o may desire to prea* ! ,gospel 9 a language n _! own1 ,i w\ld m5tion1 t ! fir/ memb] ( ?is family :o 0 conv]t$1 came m]ely out ( curiosity to he> my =eign acc5t1 "s words hav+ be5 m5tion$ to h] :i* ,i did n pron\nce prop]ly4 ,sc>cely _h %e ent]$ ! *apel1 :5 %e 0 l$ to see h]self a s9n]4 ,h] int5tion _h be51 to /ay only a few m9utes4 ,b %e felt h]self z if b\nd to ! seat :il/ ,i 0 speak+1 & rema9$ to ! close ( ! meet+4 ,%e !n w5t ha/ily home1 in/ead ( pursu+ h] pleasures1 wa%$ ! pa9t (f h] face1 /ay$ at home t ,"l's day1 till ! meet+ began aga91 & f t day 0 truly conv]t$4 ,hav+ f\nd ! ,"l1 %e entreat$ h] bro!rs & si/]s to g & he> ! ,gospel prea*$1 :o1 9 do+ s1 7 likewise conv]t$4 ,may my de> mission>y bre?r5 always be m9dful t ! ,"l c bless a few brok5 s5t5ces1 h[ev] badly ! words are pron\nc$1 z a means 9 ! conv]sion ( s9n]s6 ,decemb] #ca1 #ahcc4 ,9 look+ ov] my j\rnal1 ,i f9d3--,i4 ,t at lea/ #bfj p]sons 7accord+ to ! numb] ( names we h m>k$ d[n1 b !re h be5 _m m17 h come to conv]se ) u ab\t ! conc]ns ( _! s\ls4 ,out ( ^!1 #aec h be5 add$ to u 9 fell[%ip ^! la/ eighte5 mon?s1 #fj ( :om h be5 br\ght to ! k ( ! ,"l ?r\gh our in/rum5tality4 ,besides ^! #fj1 five h fall5 asleep be=e !y 7 receiv$ into communion4 ,9 addition to ^!1 !re are _m among ! inquir]s & c&idates = fell[%ip1 :om we h reason to believe ,god has giv5 to u z seals to our m9i/ry 9 ?is city4 ,"s also 7 conv]t$ ?r\gh our in/rum5tality :o are 9 fell[%ip ) o!r *ur*es 9 ?is city4 ,,ii4 ,9 look+ ov] ! ,"l's deal+s ) me z to temporal ?+s1 ,i f9d t ,he has s5t me1 dur+ ! pa/ ye>1-- #a4 ,9 freewill (f]+s ?r\gh ! boxes1 z my "p ,l#aeb #ads4 #e #a_/d;d4 #b4 ,pres5ts 9 money giv5 to me ,l#be #as4 #c;d4 #c4 ,pres5ts 9 clo!s & provisions wor? at lea/ ,l#bj #js4 #j;d4 ,altoge!r f ! bre?r5 9 ,bri/ol ,l#aig #aes4 #h #a_/d;d4 #d4 ,a bro!r s5t me1 f a di/ance ( sev]al ?\s& miles ,l#fj #js4 #j;d4 #e4 ,we live free ( r5t1 :i* is wor? = our "p ,l#aj #js4 #j;d4 ,total+ ,l#bfg #aes #h #a_/d;d4 ,x is j n[ f\r ye>s s9ce ,i fir/ began to tru/ 9 ! ,"l alone = ! supply ( my temporal wants4 ,my little all ,i !n _h1 at mo/ wor? #ajjl4 a ye>1 ,i gave up to ! ,"l1 hav+ !n no?+ left b ab\t #el4 ,! ,"l greatly hon\r$ ?is little sacrifice1 & ,he gave me1 9 return1 n only z mu* z ,i _h giv5 up1 b consid]ably m4 ,= dur+ ! fir/ ye>1 ,he s5t me already1 9 "o way or o!r1 7includ+ :at came to me ?r\gh family connexion7 ab\t #acjl4 ,dur+ ! second ye>1 #aeal4 #ahs4 #h;d4 ,dur+ ! ?ird ye>1 #aiel4 #cs4 ,dur+ ?is ye>1 #bfgl4 #aes4 #h #a_/d;d4 ,! foll[+ po9ts require p>ticul> notice3--#a4 ,dur+ ! la/ ?ree ye>s & ?ree mon?s ,i nev] h ask$ any "o = any ?+2 b1 by ! help ( ! ,"l1 ,i h be5 enabl$ at all times to br+ my wants to ,him1 & ,he graci\sly has suppli$ !m all4 ,& ?us1 ! ,"l help+ me1 ,i hope to be enabl$ to g on to ! la/ mom5t ( my life4 #b4 ,at ! close ( ea* ( ^! f\r ye>s1 ?\gh my income has be5 comp>atively great1 ,i h _h only a few %ill+s1 or no?+ at all left2 & ?us x is also today1 by ! help ( ,god4 #c4 ,dur+ ! la/ ye> a consid]able "p ( my income has come f a di/ance ( sev]al ?\s& miles1 f a bro!r :om ,i nev] saw4 #d4 ,s9ce we h be5 oblig$ to discont9ue ! giv+ away bread to ab\t #ej poor p e day1 on acc\nt ( our neighb\rs1 our income has n be51 dur+ ! second "p ( ?is ye>1 ne>ly s great1 sc>cely "o-half z mu*1 z dur+ ! fir/ "p ( x2 z if ! ,"l w\ld !reby %[ u t :5 ! calls ^u u are _m1 ,he is able to s5d 9 accord+ly4 ,obs]ve ?is6 ,janu>y #a1 #ahcd4 ,x seem$ well to bro!r ,craik & me1 to h an especial public meet+ = ?anksgiv+ to ! ,"l1 = ,8 _m m]cies t[>ds u s9ce we h be5 9 ,bri/ol1 & = ! great success :i* x has pleas$ ,him to grant to our lab\rs2 & also = confession ( our s9fulness & unwor?9ess1 & to entreat ,him to cont9ue ,8 goodness t[>ds u4 ,accord+ly we met la/ ev5+1 & cont9u$ toge!r f sev5 o'clock till half-pa/ twelve4 ,ab\t f\r hundr$ individuals1 or m1 met ) u on ! occasion4 ,janu>y #c4 ,?is ev5+1 f six to a qu>t] pa/ t51 we conv]s$ ) inquir]s4 ,aft] we _h se5 twelve1 we _h to s5d away six4 ,!re 7 sev]al fre% cases ( conv]sion among !m4 ,! "w ( ! ,"l is /ill go+ on among u4 ,"o ( ! individuals1 :o has lately be5 br\ght to ! k ( ! tru?1 us$ to say 9 8 unconv]t$ /ate1 :5 he 0 tempt$ n to g to ! *apel1--,i w g2 ! ,"l may bless me "o day1 & s(t5 my h>d he>t4 --,8 expectation has n come to no?+4 ,janu>y #i4 ,bro!r ,craik & ,i h prea*$ dur+ ^! eighte5 mon?s1 once a mon?1 at ,brisl+ton1 a village ne> ,bri/ol1 b h n se5 any fruit ( our lab\rs !re4 ,?is l$ me1 today1 v e>ne/ly to pray to ! ,"l = ! conv]sion ( s9n]s 9 t place4 ,i 0 also1 9 ! *apel1 especially l$ to pray aga9 ab\t ?is1 & ask$ ! ,"l 9 p>ticul> t ,he w\ld be pleas$ to conv]t1 at lea/1 "o s\l ?is ev5+1 t we might h a little enc\ragem5t4 ,i prea*$ ) mu* help1 & ,i hope !re has be5 good done ?is ev5+4 ,! ,"l did accord+ to my reque/4 ,!re 01 t ev5+1 a "y man br\ght to ! k ( ! tru?4 ,janu>y #ac4 ,! ,"l v]ifi$ 9 our exp]i5ce ! tru?s :i* ,i _h prea*$ la/ ev5+ 9 speak+ on ,ha/ ?\ n made an h$ge ab\t him1 & ab\t 8 h\se1 & ab\t all t he ha?1 on e side8 ,job i4 #aj4 ,?ieves attempt$ to break into ,gideon ,*apel4 ,!y _h brok5 x op51 b 7 ei!r smitt5 ) bl9dness1 s z n to see a c]ta9 door :i* _h be5 left unlock$1 or 7 di/urb$ be=e accompli%+ _! design2 = !re 0 no?+ miss+4 ,janu>y #ad4 ,i 0 greatly tri$ by ! difficulty ( fix+ ^u a text1 f :i* to prea*1 on ! morn+ ( ,octob] #bj1 & at la/ prea*$ )\t enjoym5t4 ,today ,i he>d ( a ,,n9? in/ance 9 :i* ?is v s]mon has be5 bless$4 ,may my bre?r5 9 ! m9i/ry ( ! ,^w be enc\rag$ by ?is to g quietly1 yet pray]fully1 =w>d 9 ! "w ( ! ,"l6 ,janu>y #ca4 ,?is ev5+ a ,dorcas ,society 0 =m$ among ! si/]s 9 communion ) u1 b n accord+ to ! mann] 9 :i* we f\nd "o :5 we came to ,bri/ol2 = z we h dismiss$ all tea*]s f ! ,sunday ,s*ool :o 7 n believ]s1 s n[ believ+ females only w meet toge!r to make clo!s = ! poor4 ,! be+ mix$ up ) unbeliev]s _h n only prov$ a b>ri] to spiritual conv]sation among ! si/]s1 b mu/ h be5 also injuri\s to bo? p>ties 9 sev]al respects4 ,"o si/]1 n[ unit$ to u 9 fell[%ip1 ackn[l$g$ t ! be+ connect$ ) ! ,dorcas ,society1 previ\s to h] conv]sion1 _h be51 9 a measure1 ! means ( keep+ h] 9 security2 z %e ?\ght1 t1 by help+ on su* l ?+s1 %e might ga9 heav5 at la/4 ,oh t ! sa9ts 9 fai?ful love1 accord+ to ! ^w ( ,god1 7#b ,cor4 vi4 #ad-ah7 might be m sep>at$1 9 all spiritual matt]s1 f unbeliev]s1 & n be unequally yok$ toge!r ) !m6 ,febru>y #ab4 ,i pray$ little1 read little ( ! ,^w1 & lab\r$ little to day4 ,on ! :ole an unpr(itable day4 ,may ! ,"l 9 m]cy give me f]v5cy ( _s6 ,febru>y #ai4 ,bro!r ,craik prea*$ ?is ev5+ on ,m>k iv4 #cj-da1 & 0 enabl$ to give out preci\s tru?s4 ,oh t ,i did fe$ m ^u !m6 ,= sev]al weeks ,i h _h v little real communion ) ! ,"l4 ,i long = x4 ,i am cold4 ,i h little love to ! ,"l4 ,b ,i am n1 yea1 ,i _c be satisfi$ ) su* a /ate ( he>t4 ,oh t once m ,i might be br\ght to f]v5cy ( _s1 & t ?us x might cont9ue ) me =ev]6 ,i long to g home t ,i maybe ) ! ,"l1 & t ,i may love ,him ) all my he>t4 ,i fe> t ! ,"l w *a/ise me at ! "t ( my de> wife's conf9em5t4 ,"l ,jesus1 take ,?y mis]able s9ful s]vant soon to ,?yself1 t ,i may s]ve ,!e bett]6 ,)9 ! la/ week ,i h repeat$ly set out1 z x 71 afre%2 b soon1 v soon1 all has come aga9 to no?+4 ,! ,"l alone c help me4 ,oh t x might please ,him to br+ me into a m spiritual /ate6 ,febru>y #bj4 ,by ! m]cy ( ,god ,i 0 today melt$ into te>s on acc\nt ( my /ate ( he>t4 ,oh t x might please ! ,"l to br+ me into a m spiritual /ate6 ,febru>y #ba4 ,?r\gh ! help ( ! ,"l ,i am r 9 a bett] /ate ( he>t ?an = "s "t pa/4--,i 0 l$ ?is morn+ to =m a plan = e/abli%+1 ^u scriptural pr9ciples1 an ,in/itution = ! spread ( ! ,gospel at home & abroad4 ,i tru/ ?is matt] is ( ,god4--,?is ev5+ we _h aga91 f six to half-pa/ t51 a meet+ ) inquir]s4 ,! "w ( ! ,"l is go+ on among u z mu* z ev]4 ,oh t our he>ts might ov]fl[ ) gratitude6 ,ev5 aft] we 7 worn out to ! utmo/1 we c\ld n see all1 b _h to s5d away sev]al individuals4 ,febru>y #be4 ,! inquiries 7 s _m ye/]day1 t ?\gh we conv]s$ m ?an f\r h\rs ) !m1 we _h to appo9t ano!r meet+ = today1 & saw aga9 sev]al f two till five4 ,i 0 l$ aga9 ?is day to pray ab\t ! =m+ ( a new ,mission>y ,in/itution1 & felt /ill m confirm$ t we %\ld d s4 ,"s read]s may ask :y we =m$ a new ,in/itution = ! spread ( ! ,gospel1 & :y we did n unite ) "s ( ! religi\s societies1 already 9 exi/5ce1 see+ t !re are sev]al ,mission>y-1 ,bible-1 ,tract-1 & ,s*ool ,societies4 ,i give1 !re=e1 our reasons1 9 ord] to %[1 t no?+ b ! desire to ma9ta9 a good consci5ce l$ u to act z we did4 ,= z1 by ! grace ( ,god1 we ackn[l$g$ ! ^w ( ,god z ! only rule ( action = ! disciples ( ! ,"l ,jesus1 we f\nd1 9 comp>+ ! !n exi/+ religi\s ,societies ) ! ^w ( ,god1 t !y dep>t$ s f> f x1 t we c\ld n be unit$ ) !m1 & yet ma9ta9 a good consci5ce4 ,i only m5tion "h ! foll[+ po9ts4 #a4 ,! end :i* ^! religi\s societies propose to !mselves1 & :i* is con/antly put be=e _! memb]s1 is1 t ! _w w gradually become bett] & bett]1 & t at la/ ! :ole _w w be conv]t$4 ,to ?is end !re is con/antly ref]5ce made to ! passage 9 ,habakkuk ii4 #ad4 ,= ! e>? %all be fill$ ) ! k ( ! glory ( ! ,"l1 z ! wat]s cov] ! sea1 or ! "o 9 ,isaiah xi4 #i1 ,= ! e>? %all be full ( ! k ( ! ,"l1 z ! wat]s cov] ! sea4 ,b t ^! passages c h no ref]5ce to ! pres5t disp5sation1 b to ! "o :i* w comm5ce ) ! return ( ! ,"l1 t 9 ! pres5t disp5sation ?+s w n become spiritually bett]1 b r worse1 & t 9 ! pres5t disp5sation x is n ! :ole _w t w be conv]t$1 b only a p ga!r$ out f among ! ,g5tiles = ! ,"l1 is cle> f _m passages ( ! div9e te/imony1 ( :i* ,i only ref] to ! foll[+3 ,matt4 xiii4 #bd-cj1 & v]se #cf-dc1 #b ,tim4 iii4 #a-ac1 ,acts4 xv4 #ad4 ,a he>ty desire = ! conv]sion ( s9n]s1 & e>ne/ pray] = x to ! ,"l1 is q scriptural2 b x is unscriptural to expect ! conv]sion ( ! :ole _w4 ,su* an end we c\ld n propose to ourselves 9 ! s]vice ( ! ,"l4 #b4 ,b t :i* is worse1 is ! connexion ( ^? religi\s societies ) ! _w1 :i* is completely contr>y to ! ^w ( ,god 7#b ,cor4 vi4 #ad-ah74 ,9 temporal ?+s ! *ildr5 ( ,god ne$1 :il/ !y rema9 "h on e>?1 to make use ( ! _w2 b :5 ! "w to be done requires1 t ^? :o att5d to x %\ld be possess$ ( spiritual life 7( :i* unbeliev]s are utt]ly de/itute71 ! *ildr5 ( ,god are b\nd1 by _! loyalty to _! ,"l1 entirely to refra9 f association ) ! unreg5]ate4 ,b alas6 ,! connexion ) ! _w is b too m>k$ 9 ^! religi\s societies2 = e "o :o pays a gu9ea1 or1 9 "s societies1 half-a-gu9ea1 is consid]$ z a memb]4 ,al?\gh su* an individual may live 9 s92 al?\gh he may manife/ to e "o t he does n "k ! ,"l ,jesus2 if only ! gu9ea or ! half-gu9ea be paid1 he is consid]$ a memb]1 & has a "r z su* to vote4 ,moreov]1 :oev] pays a l>g] sum1 = in/ance1 ,l#aj4 or ,l#bj4 c be1 9 _m societies1 a memb] = life1 h[ev] op5ly s9ful 8 life %\ld be = ! "t1 or %\ld became aft]w>ds4 ,surely1 su* ?+s aught n to be6 #c4 ,! means :i* are made use ( 9 ^! religi\s societies1 to obta9 money = ! "w ( ! ,"l1 are also1 9 o!r respects1 unscriptural2 = x is a mo/ common case to ask ! unconv]t$ = money1 :i* ev5 ,abraham w\ld n h done 7,g5esis xiv4 #ba-bd73 & h[ mu* less %\ld we d x1 :o are n only =bidd5 to h fell[%ip ) unbeliev]s 9 all su* matt]s 7#b ,cor4 vi4 #ad-ah71 b :o are also 9 fell[%ip ) ! ,fa!r & ! ,son1 & c !re=e obta9 ev]y?+ f ! ,"l :i* we possibly c ne$ 9 ,8 s]vice1 )\t be+ oblig$ to g to ! unconv]t$ _w6 ,h[ altoge!r diff]5tly ! fir/ disciples act$ 9 ?is respect1 we le>n f #c ,john #g4 #d4 ,n m]ely1 h[ev]1 9 ^! p>ticul>s is !re a connexion ) ! _w 9 ^! religi\s societies2 b x is n a r>e ?+ = ev5 ,committee ,memb]s 7! individuals :o manage ! affairs ( ! societies7 to be manife/ly unconv]t$ p]sons1 if n op5 enemies to ! tru?2 & ?is is suff]$ because !y are ri*1 or ( influ5ce1 z x is call$4 #e4 ,x is a mo/ common ?+ to endeav\r to obta9 = patrons & presid5ts ( ^! societies1 & = *airm5 at ! public meet+s1 p]sons ( rank or weal? to attract ! public4 ,nev] once h ,i kn[n a case ( a ,,poor1 b v devot$1 wise1 & exp]i5c$ s]vant ( ,*ri/ be+ invit$ to fill ! *air at su* public meet+s4 ,surely1 ! ,galilean fi%]m51 :o 7 apo/les1 or our ,"l ,himself1 :o 0 call$ ! c>p5t]1 w\ld n h be5 call$ to ?is (fice1 accord+ to ^! pr9ciples4 ,^! ?+s ought n s to be among ! disciples ( ! ,"l ,jesus1 :o %\ld n judge ) ref]5ce to a p]son's fitness = s]vice 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,*ri/ by ! position he fills 9 ! _w1 or by ! weal? he possesses6 #f4 ,almo/ all ^! societies contract debts1 s t x is a comp>atively r>e case to read a ,report ( any ( !m1 )\t f9d+ t !y h exp5d$ m ?an !y h receiv$1 :i*1 h[ev]1 is contr>y bo? to ! _s & to ! lett] ( ! ,new ,te/am5t4 7,rom4 xiii4 #h74 ,n[1 al?\gh bro!r ,craik & ,i 7 ready1 by ! grace ( ,god1 he>tily to ackn[l$ge t !re are n only _m true *ildr5 ( ,god connect$ ) ^! religi\s societies1 b t ! ,"l has also bless$ _! ef=ts 9 _m respects1 not)/&+ ! exi/5ce ( ^! & o!r pr9ciples & practices :i* we judg$ to be unscriptural1 yet x appe>$ to u to be ,8 w1 t we %\ld be entirely sep>ate f ^! societies1 7?\gh we %\ld be consid]$ z s+ul> p]sons1 or ?\gh x %\ld ev5 appe> t we despis$ o!r p]sons1 or w\ld elevate ourselves above !m71 9 ord] t1 by ! bless+ ( ,god1 we might direct ! att5tion ( ! *ildr5 ( ,god 9 ^! societies to _! unscriptural practices2 & we w\ld r be entirely unconnect$ ) ^! societies ?an act contr>y to ! ,holy ,scriptures4 ,we !re=e sep>at$ entirely f !m1 al?\gh we rema9$ unit$ 9 bro!rly love ) individual believ]s belong+ to !m2 & w\ld by no means judge !m = rema9+ 9 connexion ) !m1 if !y d n see t su* ?+s are contr>y to ,scripture4 ,b see+ !m to be s ourselves1 we c\ld n ) a cle> consci5ce rema94 ,aft] we _h ?us gone on = "s "t1 we consid]$ t x w\ld h an injuri\s t5d5cy ^u ! bre?r5 among :om we lab\r$1 & also be at v>iance ) ! _s ( ! ,gospel ( ,*ri/1 if we did no?+ at all = ,mission>y objects1 ! circulation ( ! ,holy ,scriptures1 ,tracts1 etc42 & we 7 !re=e l$ = ^! & o!r reasons to d some?+ = ! spread ( ! ,gospel at home & abroad1 h[ev] small ! beg9n+ might be4 ,?is 0 ! orig9 ( ! ,in/itution1 ( :i* ! foll[+ "p ( my ,n>rative speaks4 ,m>* #e4 ,?is ev5+1 at a public meet+1 bro!r ,craik & ,i /at$ ! pr9ciples on :i* we int5d to c>ry on ! in/itution :i* we propose to e/abli% = ! spread ( ! ,gospel at home & abroad4 ,!re 0 no?+ outw>dly influ5tial1 ei!r 9 ! numb] ( p pres5t1 or 9 our spee*es4 ,may ! ,"l graci\sly be pleas$ to grant ,8 bless+ ^u ! in/itution1 :i* w be call$ ,! ,scriptural ,k ,in/itutions = ,home & ,abroad4 ,i4 ,,! ,,pr9ciples ,,( ,,! ,,in/itution4 #a4 ,we consid] e believ] b\nd1 9 "o way or o!r1 to help ! cause ( ,*ri/1 & we h ,scriptural w>rant = expect+ ! ,"l's bless+ ^u our "w ( fai? & lab\r ( love3 & al?\gh1 accord+ to ,matt4 xiii4 #bd-dc1 #b ,tim4 iii4 #a-ac1 & _m o!r passages1 ! _w w n be conv]t$ be=e ! com+ ( our ,"l ,jesus1 /ill1 :ile ,he t>ries2 all ,scriptural means ought to be employ$ = ! +a!r+ ( ! elect ( ,god4 #b4 ,! ,"l help+ u1 we d n mean to seek ! patronage ( ! _w2 i4e41 we nev] int5d to ask unconv]t$ p]sons ( rank or weal? to c\nt5ance ?is ,in/itution1 because ?is1 we consid]1 w\ld be di%on\rable to ! ,"l4 ,9 ! "n ( our ,god we set up our bann]s1 ,ps4 xx4 #e2 ,he alone %all be our ,patron1 & if ,he helps u we %all prosp]1 & if ,he is n on our side1 we %all n succe$4 #c4 ,we d n mean1 to ask unbeliev]s = money 7#b ,cor4 vi4 #ad-ah72 ?\gh we d n feel ourselves w>rant$ to refuse _! contributions1 if !y1 ( _! own accord %\ld (f] !m4 ,acts xxviii4 #b-aj4 #d4 ,we reject altoge!r ! help ( unbeliev]s 9 manag+ or c>ry+ on ! affairs ( ! ,in/itution4 #b ,cor1 vi4 #ad-ah4 #e4 ,we int5d nev] to enl>ge ! field ( lab\r by contract+ debts 7,rom4 xiii4 #h71 & aft]w>ds appeal+ to ! ,*ur* ( ,*ri/ = help1 because ?is we consid] to be oppos$ bo? to ! lett] & ! _s ( ! ,new ,te/am5t2 b 9 secret pray]1 ,god help+ u1 we %all c>ry ! wants ( ! ,in/itution to ! ,"l1 & act accord+ to ! means t ,god %all give4 #f4 ,we d n mean to reckon ! success ( ! ,in/itution by ! am\nt ( money giv51 or ! numb] ( ,bibles di/ribut$1 c1 b by ! ,"l's bless+ ^u ! "w 7,ze*4 iv4 #f72 & we expect ?is1 9 ! proportion 9 :i* ,he %all help u to wait ^u ,him 9 pray]4 #g4 ,:ile we w\ld avoid aim+ aft] ne$less s+ul>ity1 we desire to g on simply accord+ to ,scripture1 )\t compromis+ ! tru?2 at ! same "t ?ankfully receiv+ any in/ruction :i* exp]i5c$ ,believ]s1 aft] pray]1 ^u ,scriptural gr\nd1 may h to give u conc]n+ ! ,in/itution4 ,,ii4 ,,! ,,objects ,,( ,,! ,,in/itution ,,are3 #a4 ,to assi/ ,day-,s*ools1 ,sunday-,s*ools1 & ,adult-,s*ools1 9 :i* in/ruction is giv5 ^u ,scriptural pr9ciples1 &1 z f> z ! ,"l may give ! means1 & supply u ) suitable tea*]s1 & 9 o!r respects make our pa? pla91 to e/abli% ,s*ools ( ?is k9d4 a4 ,by ,day-,s*ools ^u ,scriptural pr9ciples1 we und]/& ,day ,s*ools 9 :i* ! tea*]s are godly p]sons1--9 :i* ! way ( salvation is scripturally po9t$ out1--& 9 :i* no in/ruction is giv5 oppos$ to ! pr9ciples ( ! gospel4 b4 ,sunday-,s*ools1 9 :i* all ! tea*]s are believ]s1 & 9 :i* ! ,holy ,scriptures alone are ! f\ndation ( in/ruction1--are su* only z ! ,in/itution assi/s ) ! supply ( ,bibles1 ,te/am5ts1 c42 = we consid] x unscriptural1 t any p]sons1 :o d n pr(ess to "k ! ,"l !mselves1 %\ld be all[$ to give religi\s in/ruction4 c4 ,! ,in/itution does n assi/ any ,adult-,s*ools ) ! supply ( ,bibles1 ,te/am5ts1 ,spell+ ,books1 c41 except ! tea*]s are believ]s4 #b4 ,to circulate ! ,holy ,scriptures4 ,we sell ,bibles & ,te/am5ts to poor p]sons at a r$uc$ price4 ,b :ile we1 9 g5]al1 ?9k x bett] t ! ,scriptures %\ld be sold1 & n giv5 altoge!r gratis1 /ill1 9 cases ( extreme pov]ty1 we ?9k x "r to give1 )\t paym5t1 a *eap edition4 #c4 ,! ?ird object ( ?is ,in/itution is1 to aid ,mission>y ef=ts4 ,we desire to assi/ ^? ,mission>ies ^: proce$+s appe> to be mo/ accord+ to ! ,scriptures4 ,x is propos$ to give su* a portion ( ! am\nt ( ! donations to ea* ( ! =e-m5tion$ objects1 z ! ,"l may direct2 b if none ( ! objects %\ld claim a m p>ticul> assi/ance1 to lay out an equal portion ^u ea*2 yet s1 t if any donor desires to give = "o ( ! objects exclusively1 ! money %all be appropriat$ accord+ly4 ,m>* #g4 ,today we h only "o %ill+ left4 ,_m times also 9 ,bri/ol our purse has be5 ei!r empty or ne>ly s1 ?\gh we h n be5 br\ght q s l[ z x reg>ds provisions1 z 0 sometimes ! case at ,teignm\?4 ,?is ev5+1 :5 we came home f our "w1 we f\nd a bro!r1 our tailor1 wait+ = u1 :o br\ght a new suit ( clo!s bo? = bro!r ,craik & me1 :i* a bro!r1 ^: "n 0 n to be m5tion$1 _h ord]$ = u4 ,m>* #h4 ,our bro!r br\ght u ?is ev5+ also1 f ! same fri5d1 a new hat = ea* ( u4 ,m>* #aj4 ,"s "t s9ce1 a bro!r :o _h be5 br\ght to ! k ( ! ,"l ?r\gh our in/rum5tality1 hav+ be5 previ\sly guilty ( habitual drunk5ness & o!r op5 s9s1 reque/$ ) te>s our pray]s on behalf ( 8 wife1 :o1 l himself =m]ly1 0 /ill giv5 to dr9k+1 & :o grew worse & worse4 ,ab\t t5 days1 aft] he _h spok5 to u1 x pleas$ ,god to beg9 a "w ( grace 9 h] he>t1 9 answ] to ! _m pray]s ( h] husb&1 & ?is ev5+ %e 0 add$ to u 9 fell[%ip4 ,!re h come _m in/ances be=e u1 s9ce we h be5 9 ,bri/ol1 9 :i* unbeliev+ p>tn]s h be5 giv5 to believ+ ones1 9 answ] to _! pray]s2 yea1 ev5 su* z _h ?reat5$ to murd] _! wives1 or leave !m1 !y w\ld /ill cont9ue to g to our *apels4 ,m>* #ai4 ,?is aft]noon at five1 my wife 0 9 mu* pa91 :i* %e %ortly aft]w>ds consid]$ z ! tok5 ( h] h\r be+ ne>4 ,i !re=e set (f to call 9 a si/]1 & !n ,i w5t = ! nurse1 & my wife's si/]1 & our s]vant1 :o 7 at ,clifton4 ,! ,"l hav+ graci\sly spe$$ all ?is1 ,i w5t to ,be!sda ,*apel1 :]e ,i _h to prea* %ortly aft]4 ,i ?\ght x bett] to sp5d ! few m9utes1 :i* ,i _h be=e prea*+1 9 pray] = my wife1 ?an to return home aga91 z ,i %\ld h _h to set (f directly aft]w>ds1 believ+ t my m9d w\ld be ?us m quiet & calm1 & t ,i also might ?us help my de>e/ wife mu* m effectually4 ,! ,"l mo/ graci\sly kept me f excitem5t & anxiety1 s t ,i w5t 9 peace1 prea*$ 9 peace1 & walk$ home 9 peace1 look+ up to ,jesus to prep>e me = all t might await me1 z ,i rememb]$ b too well ! two =m] times ( my wife's conf9em5t4 ,i might h ask$ bro!r ,craik to prea*1 & h gone home2 b ,i ?\ght x m hon\r+ ! ,"l to d ,8 "w4 ,9 walk+ home1 ! foll[+ words 7 a p>ticul> refre%m5t to me3-- ,make y ,8 s]vice y\r delight1 ,y\r wants %all be ,8 c>e4 ,:5 ,i came home1 ,i he>d ! joyful news1 t all 0 ov]1 & t my de> ,m>y _h be5 deliv]$ at tw5ty m9utes pa/ eight ( a little boy4 ,obs]ve6 #a4 ,! ,"l graci\sly s5t ! m$ical att5dant & ! nurse 7! latt] ne>ly ?ree miles (f71 9 ! "r "t4 #b4 ,! ,"l put x into my he>t to hon\r ,him1 by pref]r+ ! c>e ( ,8 h\se to t ( my own1 & ?us ,he lov+ly sp>$ me ?ree pa9ful h\rs4 ,may ,he be pleas$ to give me grace m ?an ev] to love & s]ve ,him6 ,m>* #ca4 ,today ! bre?r5 & si/]s 9 communion at ,be!sda d9$ toge!r1 hav+ be5 invit$ by a si/]2 & 9 ! ev5+ ! *ur*es ( ,gideon & ,be!sda took tea toge!r4 ,bo? times 7 refre%+ seasons4 ,at d9n] we 7 toge!r f "o till half pa/ ?ree1 at tea f five to n9e4 ,bo? times we pray$ repeat$ly1 sang hymns1 read a little ( ! ,^w1 & sev]al bre?r5 spoke ( ! ,"l's deal+s ) !m4 ,april #c4 ,today ,i h _h aga9 mu* reason to see h[ weak ,i am1 & h[ prone to give way to e s9 if ,i am n kept by ,god4 ,may ,he h m]cy ^u me1 & keep me f br++ an op5 disgrace ^u ,8 holy "n6 ,o wret*$ man t ,i am66 ,april #ad4 ,bro!r & si/] ,craik & ourselves h be5 liv+ toge!r hi!rto2 b n[1 z ! ,"l has giv5 to !m "o *ild1 & to u two1 & !re are b six rooms 9 our h\se1 s t ( late de> bro!r ,craik & ,i h _h repeat$ly to g to ano!r h\se to be un9t]rupt$3 we came at la/ to ! conclusion1 t x w\ld be bett] = our s\ls & ! ,"l's "w t we %\ld sep>ate4 ,april #ae4 ,today ,i receiv$ f sev]al si/]s #bel4 t[>ds furni%+ a h\se4 ,april #bc4 ,ye/]day & today ,i _h ask$ ! ,"l to s5d u #bjl41 t we might be able to procure a l>g] /ock ( ,bibles & ,te/am5ts ?an our small funds ( ! ,scriptural ,k ,in/itution w\ld all[ u to pur*ase2 & ?is ev5+ a si/]1 unask$1 promis$ to give u t sum1 add+ t %e felt a p>ticul> pleasure 9 circulat+ ! ,holy ,scriptures1 z ! simple read+ ( !m _h be5 ! means ( br++ h] to ! k ( ! ,"l4 ,april #bf4 ,we h repeat$ly conv]s$ ab\t ! "n :i* we %\ld give to our babe2 b1 be+ unsettl$ ab\t x1 & consid]+ t 9 all our ways we ought to ackn[l$ge ! ,"l1 ,i gave myself today to pray] conc]n+ ?is matt]1 & ! "n ,elijah1 ab\t :i* ,i nev] _h ?\ght1 0 p>ticul>ly1 :il/ pray+1 impress$ on my m9d1 & !re=e we int5d to "n ! *ild ,elijah1 i4 e41 my ,god is ,jah1 ,jehovah4 ,may ! ,"l 9 m]cy grant ,elijah's _s & ,elijah's bless+ to our little "o6 ,may #d4 ,today #ael4 m 0 giv5 to me t[>ds furni%+ a h\se4 ,?us ! ,"l has n[ graci\sly suppli$ our ne$ 9 ?is p>ticul> also4 ,may #ac4 ,today #bl4 m 0 giv5 to u t[>ds furni%+ ! h\se1 & also "s c>pet4 ,may #ae4 ,today we mov$ into our h\se1 hav+ liv$ ne>ly two ye>s ) bro!r & si/] ,craik4 ,june #d4 ,today a si/] call$ on me1 & ,i felt irritat$ at h] /ay+1 aft] hav+ giv5 h] to und]/& t ,i _h b a few m9utes "t4 ,i s9n$ ?us aga9/ ! ,"l4 ,help ,?\ me1 bless$ ,jesus1 9 future6 ,june #h4 ,"l's day4 ,i obta9$ no text ye/]day1 not)/&+ repeat$ pray] & read+ ( ! ,^w4 ,?is morn+ ,i awoke ) ^! words3--,my grace is suffici5t = !e4 ,z soon z ,i _h dress$ myself1 ,i turn$ to #b ,cor4 xii4 to consid] ?is passage2 b 9 do+ s1 aft] pray]1 ,i 0 l$ to ?9k t ,i _h n be5 direct$ to ?is portion = ! sake ( speak+ on x z ,i at fir/ ?\ght1 & ,i !re=e foll[$ my usual practice 9 su* cases1 i4 e41 to read on 9 ! ,scriptures :]e ,i left (f la/ ev5+4 ,9 do+ s1 :5 ,i came to ,heb4 xi4 #ac-af1 ,i felt t ?is 0 ! text4 ,hav+ pray$1 ,i 0 confirm$ 9 x1 & 9 a few m9utes ! ,"l 0 pleas$ to op5 ?is passage to me4 ,i prea*$ on x ) great enjoym5t1 bo? at ,gideon & at ,be!sda1 p>ticul>ly 9 ! ev5+ at ,be!sda4 ,?is help 0 evid5tly f ,god4 ,may ,he fill my he>t ) gratitude1 & enc\rage me by ?is1 to tru/ 9 ,him = ! future6 ,i n[ und]/& :y ^? words1 ,my grace is suffici5t = !e1 7 br\ght to my m9d :5 ,i awoke ?is morn+4--,x pleas$ ,god1 z ,i h he>d s9ce1 greatly to bless :at ,i said on t passage1 & at lea/ "o s\l 0 br\ght ?r\gh x to ! ,"l4 ,june #be4 ,^! la/ ?ree days ,i h _h v little real communion ) ,god1 & h !re=e be5 v weak spiritually1 & h sev]al times felt irritability ( temp]4 ,may ,god 9 m]cy help me to h m secret pray]6--,let none expect to h ! ma/]y ov] 8 inw>d corruption 9 any degree1 )\t go+ 9 8 weakness aga9 & aga9 to ! ,"l = /r5g?4 ,nor w pray] ) o!rs1 or conv]s+ ) ! bre?r51 make up = secret pray]2 = ,i _h be5 engag$ 9 bo? repeat$ly1 dur+ ! ?ree previ\s days1 z my j\rnal %[s4 ,june #bf4 ,i 0 enabl$1 by ! grace ( ,god1 to rise e>ly1 & ,i _h ne>ly two h\rs 9 pray] be=e breakfa/4 ,i feel n[ ?is morn+ m com=table4 ,may ,god 9 m]cy help me to walk be=e ,him ?is day1 & to d ,8 "w2 & may ,he keep me f all evil6 ,july #e4 ,! ,"l v m]cifully kept u today f a great calamity1 ! apron ( our ,*ri/ian s]vant hav+ caught fire2 b ! fire 0 ext+ui%$1 & %e 0 kept f be+ burn$6 ,july #aa4 ,i h pray$ mu* ab\t a ma/] = a boys' s*ool1 to be e/abli%$ 9 connexion ) our little ,in/itution4 ,eight h appli$ = ! situation1 b none seem$ to be suitable4 ,n[ at la/ ! ,"l has giv5 u a bro!r1 :o w comm5ce ! "w4 ,! ,"l all[$ u to call ^u ,him _m times be=e ,he answ]$1 b at la/ ,he grant$ our reque/4 ,july #ac4 ,today we f9i%$ read+ ?r\gh ! ,scriptures1 at family pray]1 ! second "t s9ce we came to ,bri/ol1 :i* is little m ?an two ye>s4 ,i m5tion ?is circum/ance to %[ h[ (t5 we may read ?r\gh ! :ole ( ! ,scriptures1 ?\gh we %\ld read b little e day1 if we g regul>ly onw>d4 ,augu/ #ah4 ,today bro!r ,craik & ,i engag$ a si/] to be gov]ness ( ano!r girls' s*ool1 :i* we int5d to e/abli%1 9 dep5d5ce ^u ! ,"l = supplies4 ,augu/ #bg4 ,i _h pray$ repeat$ly1 & _h read t5 *apt]s ( ! ,^w to get a text1 b obta9$ none1 & _h to g ?is ev5+ to ! *apel )\t kn[+ on :at portion ( ,8 ,holy ,^w ! ,"l w\ld h me to speak4 ,at ! comm5cem5t ( ! meet+ ,i 0 direct$ to ,lam5t4 iii4 #bb-bf1 on :i* ,i spoke ) mu* assi/ance & enjoym5t4 ,septemb] #ah4 ,a bro!r1 a tailor1 0 s5t to measure me = new clo!s4 ,my clo!s are aga9 gett+ old1 & x is !re=e v k9d ( ! ,"l to provide ?us4 ,septemb] #be4 ,a bro!r s5t me a new hat today4 ,octob] #i4 ,our little in/itution1 e/abli%$ 9 dep5d5ce ^u ! ,"l1 & suppli$ by ,him ) means1 has n[ be5 sev5 mon?s 9 op]ation1 & ?r\gh x h be5 b5efit$ ) in/ruction1--#a4 ,9 ! ,sunday-,s*ool1 ab\t #abj *ildr54 #b4 ,9 ! ,adult-,s*ool1 ab\t #dj ,adults4 #c4 ,9 ! two ,day-,s*ools = boys &1 ! two ,day-,s*ools = girls1 #bji *ildr51 ( :om #ed h be5 entirely free2 ! o!rs pay ab\t "o-?ird ( ! exp5se4 ,!re h be5 also circulat$ #dhb ,bibles1 & #ebj ,new ,te/am5ts4 ,la/ly1 #egl4 has be5 sp5t to aid mission>y ex]tions4 ,! means :i* ! ,"l has s5t u1 z ! fruit ( _m pray]s1 dur+ ^! sev5 mon?s1 am\nt to #afgl4 #ajs4 #j #a_/b;d4 ,octob] #bh4 ,?is aft]noon bro!r ,craik & ,i took tea ) sev5 bre?r5 & si/]s1 :om ! ,"l has br\ght to a k ( ,himself ?r\gh our in/rum5tality1 )9 ! la/ two ye>s2 all b "o belong+ to ! same family4 ,we he>d !re a mo/ affect+ acc\nt ( a poor little orphan boy1 :o = "s "t att5d$ "o ( our s*ools1 & :o seems !re1 z f> z we c judge1 to h be5 br\ght to a real conc]n ab\t 8 s\l1 ?r\gh :at ,i said conc]n+ ! torm5ts ( hell1 & :o "s "t ago 0 tak5 to ! poor-h\se "s miles out ( ,bri/ol4 ,he has express$ great sorr[ t he c no long] att5d our s*ool & m9i/ry4 ,may ?is1 if x be ! ,"l's w1 lead me to d some?+ also = ! supply ( ! temporal wants ( poor *ildr51 ! pressure ( :i* has occasion$ ?is poor boy to be tak5 away f our s*ool6 ,novemb] #a4 ,today1 our means be+ completely gone1 we _h !m suppli$ 9 ! foll[+ mann]3--"s "t s9ce "s silv] spoons 7 giv5 to u1 :i* we nev] us$1 f ! consid]ation1 t = s]vants ( ,*ri/ x 0 bett]1 = ! sake ( example1 to use *eap] ones1 & = t reason we _h sold our plate at ,teignm\?4 ,yet up to ?is day ^? spoons rema9$ unsold4 ,b n[1 z we want$ money1 we dispos$ ( !m1 consid]+ t ! k9d giv] w\ld n be displeas$ at our do+ s to supply our ne$4 ,novemb] #d4 ,i sp5t ! great] "p ( ! morn+ 9 read+ ! ,^w & 9 pray]1 & ask$ also = our daily bread1 = we h sc>cely any money left4--,we obta9$ today two l>ge s*ool-rooms1 :i* we mu* ne$$4 ,?us ! ,"l graci\sly helps u conc]n+ ! ,in/itution1 & gives u fai? to g =w>d 9 ! "w1 enl>g+ ! field m & m 7?\gh we h b little money71 yet s t we d n contract debts4 ,novemb] #e4 ,i sp5t almo/ ! :ole ( ! day 9 pray] & read+ ! ,^w4 ,i pray$ also aga9 = ! supply ( our own temporal wants1 b ! ,"l has n z yet appe>$4 ,/ill my eyes are up to ,him4 ,novemb] #h4 ,saturday4 ,! ,"l has graci\sly aga9 suppli$ our temporal wants dur+ ?is week1 ?\gh at ! comm5cem5t ( x we _h b little left4 ,i h pray$ mu* ?is week = money1 m ?an any o!r week1 z f> z ,i rememb]1 s9ce we h be5 9 ,bri/ol4 ,! ,"l has n answ]$ our pray]s by caus+ means to be s5t 9 ! way ( a gift1 b has suppli$ u ?r\gh our sell+ :at we did n ne$1 or by our be+ paid :at 0 aw$ to u4 ,decemb] #aj4 ,today we f\nd t a dep>t$ bro!r _h left bo? to bro!r ,craik & me #abl4 ,decemb] #ca1 #ahcd4--;,i4 ,s9ce bro!r ,craik & ,i h be5 lab\r+ 9 ,bri/ol1 #bbg bre?r5 & si/]s h be5 add$ to u 9 fell[%ip4 ,we f\nd #fh believ]s 9 ! *ur* at ,gideon1 s t n[ ! :ole numb] w\ld be #bie1 _h !re be5 no *anges1 b x is only #beg2 = twelve h fall5 asleep2 six h left ,bri/ol2 twelve h left ! *ur*es dur+ ! two ye>s & six mon?s1 b are /ill 9 ,bri/ol2 eight are "u *ur* discipl9e1 respect+ "s ( :om1 h[ev]1 we hope t !y maybe soon re/or$ to communion4 ,( ^? #beg1 !re belong #abe to ,be!sda *ur*1 & #acb to ,gideon *ur*4 ,out ( ! #bbg :o h be5 add$ to u1 #ajc h be5 conv]t$ ?r\gh our in/rum5tality1 & _m h be5 br\ght into ! lib]ty ( ! ,gospel1 or reclaim$ f backslid+4 ,=ty-sev5 "y conv]ts are at ,gideon1 & fifty-six at ,be!sda4 ,consid]+ t "s h fall5 asleep :o nev] 7 9 communion ) u1 & yet conv]t$ ?r\gh our in/rum5tality2 & t "s are unit$ to o!r *ur*es 9 & out ( ,bri/ol2 & t _m are n[ /&+ z c&idates = fell[%ip1 ( ^? :o h be5 giv5 to u 9 ?is city1 z seals to our m9i/ry2 ! numb] add$ may be only "o-half1 or two-?irds ( ! real numb]4 ,may ! ,"l fill our he>ts ) gratitude1 = hav+ ?us condesc5d$ to use u6 ,,ii4 ,! income :i* ! ,"l has giv5 me dur+ ?is ye> is3-- #a4 ,my "p ( ! freewill (f]+s ?r\gh ! boxes ,l#ace #acs4 #b #a_/d;d4 #b4 ,money giv5 to me by sa9ts 9 & out ( ,bri/ol ,l#ib #gs4 #f;d4 ,altoge!r4 4 4 ,l#bbh #js4 #h #a_/d;d4 #c4 ,besides ?is1 _m articles 9 provisions1 clo?+1 & furniture1 wor? to u ab\t ,l#fj #js4 #j;d4 ,janu>y #a1 #ahce4 ,we _h la/ ev5+ an especial pray]-meet+ ( ! two *ur*es1 & any o!r p]sons hat *ose to att5d1 = ! sake ( prais+ ! ,"l = all ,8 _m m]cies :i* we h receiv$ dur+ ! pa/ ye>1 & to ask ,him to cont9ue to u ,8 fav\r dur+ ?is ye> also4 ,x 0 op5 to any ( ! bre?r5 to pray1 z !y felt dispos$1 & eighte5 did s1 z ,i aft]w>ds reckon$4 ,we cont9u$ 9 pray] & praise1 mix$ ) s++1 read+ ! ,^w1 & exhortation1 f sev5 9 ! ev5+ till "o 9 ! morn+4 ,janu>y #ac4 ,f t5 till "o 9 ! fir/ "p ( ! day1 & f six to half-pa/ eight ?is ev5+1 ,i visit$1 f h\se to h\se1 ! p liv+ 9 ,orange ,/reet1 & saw 9 ?is way ! families liv+ 9 n9e h\ses1 to asc]ta9 :e!r any individuals want$ ,bibles1 :e!r !y c\ld read1 :e!r !y wi%$ _! *ildr5 to be put to our ,day-,s*ools or ,sunday-,s*ool1 ) ! view ( help+ !m accord+ly4 ,?is af=d$ opportunities to conv]se ) !m ab\t _! s\ls4 ,9 ?is way ,i sold eight ,bibles & two ,te/am5ts at r$uc$ prices1 & gave away "o ,te/am5t2 engag$ "o woman z an adult s*ol>1 "o boy z a day s*ol>2 & spoke besides ?is to ab\t ?irty p ab\t _! s\ls4--,janu>y #ae4 ,?is morn+1 f t5 till "o1 ,i w5t aga9 f h\se to h\se 9 ,orange ,/reet4 ,i visit$ n9e h\ses1 sold a ,bible & ,te/am5t at r$uc$ prices1 & engag$1 a few *ildr5 = ! s*ools1 & conv]s$ ) fifte5 p]sons ab\t _! s\ls4 ,i %\ld greatly delight 9 be+ frequ5tly engag$ 9 su* "w1 = x is a mo/ important "o2 b our h&s are s full ) o!r "w1 t we c d b little 9 ?is way4--,janu>y #ag4 ,today bro!r ,groves arriv$ f ! ,ea/ ,indies4 ,"o reason ( 8 com+ to ,engl& is1 to g to ,g]many to obta9 mission>y bre?r5 = ! ,ea/ ,indies1 hav+ reason to believe t he w f9d !m !re2 & he ask$ me1 on acc\nt ( my acqua9tance ) ! language1 to accompany him1 t ?us1 ?r\gh me1 he may be enabl$ to judge ab\t ! /ate ( ! bre?r51 & to communicate to !m :at he ?9ks ne$ful = !m to "k4 ,?is is a mo/ important "w4 ,may ! ,"l direct me 9 ?is matt]1 & make me to act accord+ to ,8 w6--,i receiv$ aga9 today1 aft] pray] respect+ ! funds1 #ajl4 = ! ,scriptural ,k ,in/itution4--,janu>y #ba4 ,receiv$1 9 answ] to pray]1 f an unexpect$ qu>t]1 #el4 = ! ,scriptural ,k ,in/itution4 ,! ,"l p\rs 91 :il/ we seek to p\r out4 ,= dur+ ! pa/ week1 m]ely among ! poor1 9 go+ f h\se to h\se1 fifty-eight copies ( ! ,scriptures 7 sold at r$uc$ prices1 ! go+ on ) :i* is mo/ important1 b x w require mu* means4 ,janu>y #bh4 ,i h1 = ^! sev]al days1 aga9 pray$ mu* to asc]ta9 :e!r ! ,"l w h me to g z a mission>y to ! ,ea/ ,indies1 & ,i am mo/ will+ to g1 if ,he w condesc5d to use me 9 ?is way4 ,janu>y #bi4 ,i h be5 greatly /irr$ up to pray ab\t go+ to ,calcutta z a mission>y4 ,may ! ,"l guide me 9 ?is matt]6 ,aft] all my repeat$ & e>ne/ pray] 9 ! comm5cem5t ( #ahce1 & will+ness on my "p to g1 if x 7 ! ,"l's w1 /ill ,he did n s5d me4 ,febru>y #d4 ,i h be5 pray+ repeat$ly & e>ne/ly ( late respect+ my j\rney to ! ,cont95t4 ,i desire to g1 or n to g1 j z ! ,"l w h x to be4 ,may ,he graci\sly direct me6 ,i feel ! same ab\t go+ to ,india4 ,z a means to asc]ta9 ! ,"l's w1 ,i h be5 read+ ab\t ! ,h9doos1 t ,i may "k m cle>ly ! /ate 9 :i* !y are4 ,may ! ,"l 9 m]cy /ir me up to c>e m ab\t _! /ate1 :e!r x be ,8 w t ,i %\ld lab\r p]sonally among !m1 or n6 ,febru>y #af4 ,i m5tion$ ?is ev5+1 be=e ! *ur* at ,be!sda1 z also on ! #ac? be=e ! *ur* at ,gideon1 t ,i see x ! ,"l's w to g to ! ,cont95t1 = ! sake ( assi/+ bro!r ,groves by my k ( ! ,g]man language1 9 conf]r+ ) ^? :o may desire to g out z mission>ies4 ,!re is n "o believ] among/ u :o sees any objection to x1 & sev]al h express$ t x seems to be ( ! ,"l1 & t ?us we c\ld help1 z *ur*es1 9 ! go+ =? ( mission>ies4 ,?is is v com=t+ to me1 z ! ,"l confirms me /ill m1 ?r\gh ?is unanimity1 9 its be+ ,8 w t ,i %\ld g4 ,febru>y #be4 ,9 ! "n ( ! ,"l1 & 9 dep5d5ce ^u ,him alone = support1 we h e/abli%$ a fif? ,day-,s*ool = poor *ildr51 :i* today has be5 op5$4 ,we h n[ two boys' s*ools1 & ?ree girls' s*ools4 ,febru>y #bf4 ,?is aft]noon ,i left ,bri/ol = ! ,cont95t4 ,febru>y #bg4 ,london4 ,?is morn+ ,i w5t to ! ,ali5 ,(fice = my passport4 ,on ent]+ ! (fice ,i saw a pr9t$ pap]1 9 :i* x is /at$ t e ali5 neglect+ to r5ew1 e six mon?s1 8 c]tificate ( resid5ce :i* he receives on deposit+ 8 passport1 subjects himself to a p5alty ( ,l#ej1 or imprisonm5t4 ,?is law ,i h ignorantly brok5 ev] s9ce ,i left ,london 9 #ahbi4 ,x appe>$ to me mu* bett] to confess at once t ,i _h ignorantly done s1 ?an n[ willfully break x2 tru/+ 9 ! ,"l z x reg>d$ ! consequ5ces ( ! /ep4 ,i did s1 & ! ,"l incl9$ ! he>t ( ! (fic] ) :om ,i _h to d1 to pass ov] my noncompliance ) ! law1 on acc\nt ( my hav+ brok5 x ignorantly4 ,hav+ obta9$ my passport1 ,i f\nd an unexpect$ difficulty 9 ! ,prussian ambassador refus+ to sign x1 z x did n conta9 a description ( my p]son1 & !re=e ,i ne$$ to prove t ,i 0 ! individual spok5 ( 9 ! passport4 ,?is difficulty 0 n remov$ = ?ree days1 :51 aft] e>ne/ pray]1 ?r\gh a pap] sign$ by same citiz5s ( ,london1 to :om ,i am kn[n1 ! ambassador 0 satisfi$4 ,?is v difficulty1 :5 once ! ,"l _h remov$ x1 af=d$ me cause = ?anksgiv+2 = ,i n[ obta9$ a new passport1 word$ 9 su* a way1 t1 %\ld ,i ev] ne$ x aga91 w prev5t simil> difficulties4 ,m>* #c4 ,?is ev5+ ,i prea*$ com=tably 9 ,john/reet ,*apel1 = ,bro!r ,evans4 ,i nev] prea*$ 9 any place :]e ,i s mu* felt t he :o /at$ly m9i/]s 0 m wor?y ?an myself4 ,?is feel+ l$ me to e>ne/ pray]1 & ! ,"l he>d & assi/$ me4 ,m>* #g4 ,dov]4 ,la/ ev5+ ,i left ,london1 & arriv$ "h ?is morn+4 ,! ,"l enabl$ me to confess ,him be=e my fell[-pass5g]s4 ,i h _h a good deal ( pray] & read+ ! ,^w 9 quietness1 ?\gh /ay+ 9 an hotel4--,m>* #h4 ,i prea*$ ?is morn+ & ev5+ com=tably 9 "o ( ! *apels at ,dov]4 ,m>* #i4 ,all ?is day too we h be5 oblig$ to rema9 at ,dov]1 ! sea be+ s r\gh t no packet sails4 ,i sp5t ! day 9 writ+ lett]s1 9 read+ ! ,^w1 & 9 pray]4 ,we dep5d entirely ^u ! ,"l z x reg>ds our movem5ts4 ,?is ev5+ we ask$ ! ,"l twice1 unit$ly1 t ,he w\ld be pleas$ to calm ! w9d & ! waves1 & ,i n[ feel q com=table 9 leav+ ! matt] ) ,him6 ,m>* #aj4 ,! ,"l he>d our pray]4 ,we awake e>ly 9 ! morn+1 & f\nd ! w9d comp>atively calm4 ,we left ! hotel be=e break ( day1 to g to ! packet4 ,all be+ 9 great hurry1 on our way t[>ds ! sea1 ,i 0 sep>at$ f bro!rs ,g4 & ,y4 ,i n[ lift$ up my he>t to ! ,"l1 z ,he g5]ally helps me to d on su* occasions1 to direct my /eps t[>ds ! boat :i* w5t out to meet ! packet1 & ,i f\nd x almo/ imm$iately4 ,we _h1 9 answ] to pray]1 a good passage4 ,at ,calais we obta9$ our passports1 luggage out ( ! cu/om h\se1 & places 9 ! dilig5ce )\t difficulty1 & left a little aft] t5 9 ! morn+ = ,p>is4 ,:at a bless$ ?+ x is1 9 all su* matt]s1 to h a ,fa!r to g to = help6 ,:at a diff]5t ?+1 also1 to travel 9 ! s]vice ( ! ,"l ,jesus1 f :at x is to travel 9 ! s]vice ( ! fle%6 ,m>* #aa4 ,p>is4 ,we arriv$ "h ab\t t5 ?is ev5+4 ,m>* #ab4 ,today we w5t ab\t our passports1 & ,i saw ?us a good deal ( ! be/ "p ( ,p>is4 ,bless$ be ,god1 my he>t is above ^! ?+s6 ,if t5 ye>s ago1 :5 my poor fooli% he>t 0 full ( ,p>is1 ,i _h come "h1 h[ %\ld ,i h be5 tak5 up ) ^! palaces1 c42 b n[ ,i look at ^! ?+s1 & my he>t does n c>e ab\t !m1 ,:at a diff]5ce grace makes6 ,!re 7 few p1 p]haps1 m passionately fond ( travel+1 & see+ fre% places1 & new sc5es1 ?an myself2 b n[1 s9ce1 by ! grace ( ,god1 ,i h se5 beauty 9 ! ,"l ,jesus1 ,i h lo/ my ta/e = ^! ?+s4 ,m>* #ac4 ,we aga9 f\nd difficulty 9 obta9+ our passports1 aris+1 probably1 f a mi/ake ( ! police (fic]s4 ,may ! ,"l ord] ?is matt] s1 t x %all be = our real welf>e6--,m>* #ad4 ,by ! help ( ! ,"l we obta9$ our passports1 & bro!r ,groves & ,i took our places 9 ! ,malle ,po/e = ,/rasburg1 to leave tomorr[ ev5+4 ,bro!r ,y4 int5ds to rema9 "h a few days1 on acc\nt ( 8 heal?4 ,m>* #ae4 ,?is morn+ ,i prea*$ 9 a little *apel 9 ,palais ,royal4 ,we left ,p>is ?is ev5+ at six4--,m>* #ag4 ,f six o'clock 9 ! ev5+ ( ! #ae?1 till ?is aft]noon at half-pa/ "o1 :5 we arriv$ at ,/rasburg1 ,we 7 cont9ually %ut up 9 ! ,malle ,po/e1 ) ! exception ( ye/]day morn+ ab\t sev51 & la/ night ab\t elev51 :5 we 7 all[$ half an h\r = our meals4 ,i _h refre%+ communion ) my belov$ bro!r4 ,?is quicke/ ( all conveyances 9 ,france c>ries only two pass5g]s1 & we 7 ?us able freely to conv]se & to pray toge!r1 :i* 0 refre%+ inde$4 ,?\gh we _h travel$ =ty-f\r h\rs1 yet z we _h soon f9i%$ our bus9ess at ,/rasburg1 we left ?is ev5+ = ,basle1 tru/+ 9 ! ,"l = /r5g? = ! ?ird night's travel+4 ,a little aft] we _h />t$1 we /uck fa/ 9 a new road4 ,i lift$ up my he>t to ! ,"l1 & we 7 soon deliv]$1 o!rwise ! circum/ance1 9 a cold night1 & dur+ a fall ( sn[1 w\ld h be5 try+1 z we _h to get out ( ! mail4 ,i n[ f\nd myself aga91 aft] six ye>s1 amid/ fell[-pass5g]s :o spoke my native language2 b alas6 !y spoke n = ,*ri/4 ,m>* #ah4 ,?is aft]noon we arriv$ at ,basle1 :]e we 7 v k9dly receiv$ by ! bre?r54--,m>* #bc4 ,basle4 ,^! six days we h receiv$ great k9dness f ! bre?r54 ,! ,"l has giv5 me an opportunity ( br++ be=e sev]al :o are already engag$ 9 ! m9i/ry ( ! ,^w1 & be=e _m :o int5d to give !mselves to ?is "w1 _m important tru?s1 s t 9 ^! opportunities ,i h be5 ri*ly repaid = ! j\rney4 ,?is morn+ ,i conv]s$ also ) ?ree bre?r51 j\rneym51 :o h a desire to give !mselves to mission>y "w2 b no?+ c\ld be decid$ n[4 ,i awake v fa9t1 b h be5 m]cifully help$ ?r\gh ! "w4 ,bro!r ,groves int5ds to g to ,g5eva1 & ,i to ,tub+51 9 ord] to become acqua9t$ ) a bro!r1 a /ud5t1 :o is likely to g out ) ,bro!r ,groves z a tutor to 8 sons1 & to comb9e ) ?is1 mission>y s]vice4 ,dur+ my /ay at ,basle ,i att5d$ "o day a meet+ at :i* a v5]able pi\s cl]gyman exp\nd$ ! ,greek ,new ,te/am5t to sev]al bre?r51 :o purpos$ to give !mselves to mission>y s]vice4 ,! passage to :i* ?is de> ag$ bro!r _h !n come1 9 ! orig9al ( ! ,new ,te/am5t1 0 #a ,pet] iii4 #a1 #b1 :i*1 9 our ,engli% translation1 reads ?us3 ,likewise1 ye wives1 be 9 subjection to y\r own husb&s2 t1 if any obey n ! ^w1 !y also may )\t ! ^w be won by ! conv]sation ( ! wives2 :ile !y behold y\r *a/e conv]sation c\pl$ ) fe>4 ,aft] ?is ag$ bro!r _h exp\nd$ ! passage1 he relat$ a circum/ance :i* _h occurr$ 9 8 own days1 & "u 8 own eyes1 at ,basle1 :i* has appe>$ to me s enc\rag+ = ^? *ildr5 ( ,god :o h unbeliev+ relatives1 & especially = si/]s 9 ! ,"l :o h unbeliev+ husb&s2 & :i*1 at ! same "t1 is su* a beautiful illu/ration ( #a ,pet] iii1 #a42 t ,i judge x desirable to ins]t ! n>rative ( ?is fact "h4 ,i w d s z exactly z ,i rememb] x4 ,!re liv$ at ,basle an opul5t citiz51 ^: wife 0 a believ]1 b he himself fe>$ n ! ,"l4 ,8 practice 01 to sp5d 8 ev5+s 9 a w9e-h\se1 :]e he w\ld (t5 t>ry till elev51 twelve1 or ev5 "o o'clock4 ,on su* occasions 8 wife always us$ to s5d h] s]vants to b$1 & sat up h]self2 to await ! return ( h] husb&4 ,:5 at la/ he came1 %e us$ to receive him mo/ k9dly1 nev] reproa* him 9 ! lea/1 ei!r at ! "t or aft]w>ds1 nor compla9 at all on acc\nt ( 8 late h\rs1 by :i* %e 0 kept f seasonable re/4 ,moreov]1 if x %\ld be ne$ful to assi/ him 9 undress+ himself1 :5 he _h drunk to excess1 %e w\ld d ?is also 9 a v k9d & meek way4 ,?us x w5t on = a long "t4 ,"o ev5+1 ?is g5tleman 0 aga91 z usual1 9 a w9e-h\se1 & hav+ t>ri$ !re ) 8 m]ry companions till midnight1 he said to !m3 ,i bet1 t if we g to my h\se1 we %all f9d my wife sitt+ up & wait+ = me1 & %e h]self w come to ! door & receive u v k9dly2 & if ,i ask h] to prep>e u a supp]1 %e w d x at once )\t ! lea/ murmur1 or unk9d expression1 or look4 ,8 companions 9 s9 did n believe 8 /atem5t4 ,at la/1 h[ev]1 aft] "s m conv]sation ab\t ?is /range /atem5t1 7z x appe>$ to !m17 x 0 agre$ t !y w\ld all g1 to see ?is k9d wife4 ,accord+ly !y w5t1 &1 aft] !y _h knock$1 f\nd ! door imm$iately op5$ by ! lady h]self1 & !y 7 all c\rte\sly & k9dly receiv$ by h]4 ,! p>ty hav+ ent]$1 ! ma/] ( ! h\se ask$ 8 wife to prep>e supp] = !m1 :i* %e1 9 ! meeke/ way1 at once agre$ to d2 &1 aft] a:ile1 supp] 0 s]v$ by h]self2 )\t ! lea/ sign ( dissatisfaction1 or murmur1 or compla9t4 ,hav+ n[ prep>$ all = ! company1 %e retir$ f ! p>ty to h] room4 ,:5 %e _h left ! p>ty1 "o ( ! g5tlem5 said3 ,:at a wick$ & cruel man y are1 ?us to torm5t s k9d a wife4 ,he !n took 8 hat & /ick1 &1 )\t t\*+ a morsel ( ! supp]1 w5t away4 ,ano!r made a simil> rem>k1 & left1 )\t t\*+ ! supp]4 ,?us "o aft] ano!r left1 till !y 7 all gone1 )\t ta/+ ! supp]4 ,! ma/] ( ! h\se 0 n[ left alone1 & ! ,_s ( ,god br\ght be=e him all 8 dreadful wick$ness1 & especially 8 great s9s t[>ds 8 wife2 & ! p>ty _h n left ! h\se half an h\r1 be=e he w5t to 8 wife's room1 reque/+ h] to pray = him1 told h] t he felt himself a great s9n]1 & ask$ h] =giv5ess = all 8 behavi\r t[>ds h]4 ,f t "t he became a disciple ( ! ,"l ,jesus4 ,obs]ve "h1 de> read]1 ! foll[+ po9ts 9 p>ticul>1 :i* ,i affectionately comm5d to y\r consid]ation3 #a1 ,! wife act$ 9 accordance ) #a ,pet] iii4 #a4 ,%e kept h] place z be+ 9 subjection1 & ! ,"l own$ x4 #b1 ,%e reproa*$ n h] husb&1 b meekly & k9dly s]v$ him :5 he us$ to come home4 #c1 ,%e did n all[ ! s]vants to sit up = _! ma/]1 b sat up h]self2 ?us hon\r+ him z h] head & sup]ior1 & conceal$ also1 z f> z %e 0 able1 h] husb&'s %ame f ! s]vants4 #d1 ,9 all probability a "p ( ^? h\rs1 dur+ :i* %e _h to sit up1 0 sp5t 9 pray] = h] husb&1 or 9 read+ ! ^w ( ,god1 to ga!r fre% /r5g? = all ! trials connect$ ) h] position4 ,b :e!r ?is 0 ! case or n1 x is c]ta9 t ?us1 "u simil> circum/ances1 ! "t might be sp5t1 & x w\ld !n inde$ be sp5t pr(itably4 #e1 ,be n disc\rag$ if y h to suff] f unconv]t$ relatives4 ,p]haps v %ortly ! ,"l may give y ! desire ( y\r he>t1 & answ] y\r pray] = !m2 b 9 ! meantime seek to comm5d ! tru?1 n by reproa*+ !m on acc\nt ( _! behavi\r t[>ds y1 b by manife/+ t[>ds !m ! meekness1 g5tl5ess1 & k9dness ( ! ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,m>* #be4 ,tub+5 9 ,wirtemb]g4 ,! day be=e ye/]day ,i left ,basle 9 ! aft]noon4 ,! ,"l enabl$ me to confess ,him be=e a "y man & 8 wife1 :o 7 go+ to ,vi5na to increase _! ri*es4 ,:at a m]cy t grace has made me to diff]1 & t ,i travel ! s]vice ( ano!r ma/]6 ,!y li/5$ v att5tively1 & 7 n at all oppos$4 ,!y also e/eem ! p ( ,god1 & h be5 9 ! habit ( meet+ ) !m4 ,our p>t+ 0 v affectionate & solemn1 aft] ,i _h *>g$ !m to c>e e>ne/ly ab\t ! "o ?+ ne$ful4 ,i arriv$1 ye/]day morn+ at six1 at ,s*affhaus54 ,i f\nd a bro!r wait+ = me at ! po/ (fice1 a g5tleman ( title1 :o1 hav+ be5 in=m$ by bre?r5 at ,basle ( my arrival1 k9dly took me to 8 h\se = ! two h\rs ,i _h to /ay 9 t t[n1 to refre% my body ) breakfa/1 & my s\l ) communion ) ! bre?r5 :om he _h invit$ to meet me4 ,i 0 9 ?is t[n ab\t t5 ye>s ago4 ,i 0 n[ aga9 )9 a %ort di/ance ( ! fall ( ! ,rh9e1 :i* 0 !n mo/ attractive to me4 ,n[ ,i consid]$ t my "t c\ld be sp5t mu* m pr(itably ?an by go+ !re4 ,! little "t t ,i 0 at ,s*affhaus51 ,i receiv$ mu* in=mation conc]n+ ! /ate ( ! *ur* 9 _m p>ts ( ! ,cont95t1 f a believ+ physician & a cl]gyman2 & ,i also communicat$ ?+s :i*1 ) ,god's bless+1 may be pr(itable4 ,aft] ?is ,i cont9u$ my j\rney to ,tub+54 ,x 0 ) peculi> feel+s2 = all ?is way ,i _h trav]s$ ne>ly t5 ye>s ago1 to gratify my natural desire = travell+1 & n[ ,i w5t ov] ! same gr\nd 9 ! s]vice ( ! ,"l ,jesus4 ,i arriv$ "h ?is morn+ at n9e1 hav+ be5 /r5g!n$ to travel two nights & a day & a half1 ?\gh ,i left ,basle v weak4 ,?is morn+ ,i saw bro!r ,gund]t1 ! /ud5t ( div9ity1 on ^: acc\nt ,i am "h1 & sp5t ab\t ?ree h\rs 9 conv]sation ) him4 ,aft]w>ds ,i call$ on a ,*ri/ian pr(essor 9 ! univ]sity1 :o receiv$ me k9dly4 ,?is ev5+ ,i _h a meet+ ) ! believ+ /ud5ts1 = :om ! ,"l gave me a ^w4 ,m>* #bf4 ,?is morn+ ,i drove ) bro!r ,gund]t to ,/uttg>t1 bo? = ! sake ( see+ m ( him1 & also t we might unit$ly talk ov] ! matt] ) 8 fa!r1 :o lives !re4 ,i am n[ /ay+ at ! h\se ( bro!r ,gund]t s5ior1 :]e ,i am k9dly lodg$4 ,i ?9k bro!r ,gund]t junior1 w g to ! ,ea/ ,indies4 ,8 fa!r is n only will+ to give him up = ! ,"l's sake1 b seems to consid] x an hon\r to h a son to give to ! ,"l 9 ?is way4 ,?is ev5+ ,i aga9 met sev]al bre?r51 to :om ,i spoke ab\t ! ?+s ( ,god4 ,m>* #cj4 ,halle4 ,f ! ev5+ ( ! #bg? till ?is aft]noon1 :5 ,i arriv$ "h1 ,i h travel$ day & night1 & h be5 /r5g!n$ by ! ,"l = x4 ,! :ole ( ?is way1 sev]al hundr$ miles1 ,i _h gone /ep by /ep be=e4 ,my ?\ghts 7 peculi>ly affect+1 z ,i retrac$ ! m]cies :i* ,i _h exp]i5c$ at ! h&s ( ,god4--,! ,"l enabl$ me repeat$ly to confess ,8 "n be=e my *ang+ fell[-travel]s4 ,a /ud5t spoke to me ab\t ! peculi>ly good & *eap w9e ( ,we9heim1 ne> ,heidelb]g4 ,i told him t :51 ye>s ago1 z a /ud5t l himself1 ,i came ?r\gh t place1 ,i c>$ ab\t su* ?+s1 b t n[ ,i knew :at 0 mu* bett] ?an w9e4--,ye/]day a ,fr5*man1 hav+ he>d my te/imony = ,jesus once or twice1 :5 ! la/ m]ry companion _h left ! coa*1 quitt$ my society1 x be+ too dull = him1 & jo9$ himself to an (fic] 9 ! army1 sitt+ 9 ! =ep>t ( ! coa*4 7,! coa* 0 divid$ into ! =ep>t & inside47 ,?is gave me a bless$ & mo/ refre%+ opportunity to pray = ab\t an h\r al\d 9 ! coa*1 :i* /r5g!n$ & refre%$ my s\l4 ,x 0 p>ticul>ly k9d ( ! ,"l to give me an opportunity ( pray+ al\d1 z1 on acc\nt ( hav+ !n already travel$ =ty-eight h\rs un9t]rupt$ly1 my body 0 too tir$ to all[ me to cont9ue = any l5g? ( "t 9 m5tal pray]4--,ye/]day aft]noon1 at ,eis5a* 7situat$ j "u ! hill on :i* /&s ! decay$ ca/le call$ ! ,w>tburg1 :]e ,lu!r translat$ ! ,holy ,scriptures71 ,i saw fe>ful sc5es ( pr(anity4 ,h[ has ! c&le/ick be5 remov$6--,?is aft]noon ,i rea*$ ,halle1 :]e x pleas$ ! ,"l to br+ me to ! k ( ,himself1 hav+ be5 graci\sly pres]v$ hi!rto1 ?\gh a spr+ 0 f\nd brok5 :5 ,i got out ( ! mail4 ,i greatly ne$$ re/1 b my he>t 0 too full4 ,i c\ld n sleep4 ,i w5t fir/ to ! h\se ( ! bro!r1 :]e ,i 0 fir/ impress$1 & aft]w>ds ,i call$ on my e/eem$ tutor1 pr(essor ,dr4 ,?oluck1 c\nsellor ( ! ,consi/ory1 :o receiv$ me1 aft] sev5 ye>s' sep>ation1 ) 8 =m] k9dness & bro!rly love4 7,he made me lodge ) him1 & gave !reby a te/imony t diff]5ces ( views1 conc]n+ c]ta9 p>ts ( ,god's tru?1 ought n to sep>ate ! *ildr5 ( ,god2 = ,i _h writt5 to him my m9d f ,bri/ol two ye>s be=e47 ,m>* #ca4 ,today ,i rode ) ,dr4 ,?oluck & two "y bre?r5 to a believ+ cl]gyman1 liv+ 9 ! neighb\rhood ( ,halle1 :]e we sp5t ! day4 ,dr4 ,?oluck told me _m enc\rag+ ?+s1 p>ticul>ly ?is1 t sev]al ( my =m] fell[-/ud5ts1 :o1 at ! "t :5 ,i 0 at ,halle1 knew n ! ,"l1 _h be5 br\ght to "k ,him s9ce1 & are n[ lab\r+ 9 ,8 v9ey>d4 ,& fur!r1 t c]ta9 bre?r51 =m]ly v weak 9 ! fai?1 _h be5 e/abli%$1 & are n[ go+ on well4 ,may ?is enc\rage ! he>t ( ! believ+ read] /ill to pray = 8 unconv]t$ fri5ds1 & may x /r5g!n him to hope = bett] days conc]n+ ^? ( 8 bre?r5 9 ! ,"l :o are n[ weak 9 ! fai?6 ,april #a4 ,today ,i saw a cl]gyman1 9 :om ,i recogniz$ an individual :o /udi$ at ,halle1 :il/ ,i 0 !re1 liv+ !n 9 op5 s91 & :o is n[1 by div9e m]cy1 po9t+ s9n]s to ! ,lamb ( ,god4 ,9 ! ev5+ ,i w5t to ! l>ge ,orphan-h\se1 built1 9 dep5d5ce on ! ,"l1 by ,a4 ,h4 ,franke1 to see "o ( ! classical tea*]s1 :o is ! son ( my fa!r's neighb\r1 & :om ,i _h n se5 = ab\t fifte5 ye>s4 ,i f\nd him1 to ! joy ( my he>t1 to be a bro!r 9 ! ,"l4 ,?is ev5+ ,i sp5t 9 ! same room :]e x pleas$ ! ,"l to beg9 a "w ( grace 9 my he>t1 ) sev]al ( ! same bre?r5 & si/]s ) :om ,i us$ to meet sev5 ye>s ago1 & told !m ( ! ,"l's fai?fulness1 g5tl5ess1 k9dness1 & =be>ance t[>ds me1 s9ce ,i _h se5 !m la/4 ,truly h[ good has ! ,"l be5 to me s9ce6 ,april #b4 ,?is morn+ ,i aga9 sp5t 9 call+ on ! bre?r5 & si/]s1 be+ enabl$1 e :]e1 be=e le>n$ & unle>n$1 to te/ify ab\t ! bless$ness ( adh]+ to ! ,scriptures z our only guide 9 spiritual ?+s4 ,i left ,halle ?is aft]noon1 hav+ receiv$ mu* love f ! bre?r51 & drove fifte5 miles fur!r1 to a belov$ bro!r & old fri5d1 bro!r ,/ahls*midt at ,s&]sleb51 :o has %[n me mu* k9dness ev5 s9ce ,i h be5 9 ,engl&4 ,i 0 receiv$ ) mu* love by ?is bro!r & 8 de> wife1 & 8 man s]vant1 also a belov$ bro!r4 ,?is bro!r 7! man s]vant7 ,i met fifty-f\r ye>s ago at ,gnadau1 a ,moravian settlem5t1 :]e ,i sev]al times sp5t a few days = ! refre%m5t ( my s\l1 to :i* place he also came1 a di/ance ( ab\t =ty-five miles1 = ! same purpose4 ,he 0 !n liv+ ) a f>m]1 pl\gh+ 8 fields1 c4 ,at t "t our he>ts 7 knit toge!r2 = ,i wi% x to be und]/ood by any unconv]t$ read]1 t1 :il/ ,i %\ld at "o "t h look$ ) scorn ^u su* a p]son1 if he _h attempt$ to be famili> ) me1 n[ ! love ( ,jesus1 9 :om we 7 "o1 fill$ my he>t ) love to him1 & ^! outw>d di/9ctions 7 brok5 d[n4 ,9 consequ5ce ( ?is acqua9tance1 he wrote me sev]al lett]s to ,halle1 & ,i wrote to him4 ,^? lett]s 7 p>ticul>ly refre%+ & spiritual1 & !re=e ,i read !m to o!r bre?r51 & also to bro!r ,/ahls*midt1 a w9e m]*ant4 ,on acc\nt ( ?is1 he _h a great desire to h bro!r ,kroll liv+ 9 8 h\se4 ,! ,"l1 aft] a "t1 br\ght x ab\t1 & ?is bro!r liv$ ) him above =ty ye>s1 & 0 a fri5d1 a bro!r1 & a mo/ fai?ful s]vant to ?is m]*ant1 s t 8 consid]able bus9ess 0 9 a great measure intru/$ to him2 & yet he treat$ 8 ma/] ) all due respect1 & kept 8 place z a s]vant4 ,?is latt] po9t is v important1 & br+s glory to ,god4 ,= :il/ a believ+ ma/] %\ld treat a believ+ s]vant ) all k9dness & bro!rly love2 yet ! believ+ s]vant %\ld ) all ob$i5ce1 ) all fai?fulness1 & p>ticul>ly ) due respect1 treat 8 believ+ ma/] or mi/ress4 ,april #c4 ,s&]sleb54 ,today ,i saw sev]al bre?r5 & si/]s1 & among o!rs a bro!r1 :o is 9 ab\t ! same /ate 9 :i* he 0 eight ye>s ago4 ,he has v little enjoym5t1 & makes no progress 9 ! ?+s ( ,god4 ,! reason is1 t1 aga9/ 8 consci5ce1 he rema9s 9 a call+1 :i* is oppos$ to ! pr(ession ( a believ]4 ,we are exhort$ 9 ,scripture to abide 9 our call+2 b only if we c abide 9 x ) ,god4 #a ,cor4 vii4 #bd4--,?is ev5+ a believ+ cl]gyman1 & ! bre?r5 & si/]s ( ?is small t[n & "s neighb\r+ villages1 7 collect$ toge!r 9 bro!r ,/ahls*midt's h\se1 & ,i spoke to !m = two h\rs ab\t ! ?+s ( ,god1 p>ticul>ly ab\t ! way 9 :i* ,god has l$ me1 s9ce ,i saw !m1 & s\ght to /r5g!n _! h&s 9 ,god1 & exhort$ !m to give !mselves fully to ! ,"l4 ,x 0 a "t ( refre%+4 ,inde$1 ! ,"l has greatly refre%$ my own s\l1 at ,basle1 ,tub+51 ,/uttg>t1 ,halle1 & else:]e1 :5ev] ,i h spok5 well ( ,8 "n4 ,! *ild ( ,god %\ld make x 8 p>ticul> bus9ess to enc\rage s9n]s to seek aft] ! ,"l1 & to increase ! fai? & love ( ! bre?r51 ?r\gh speak+ well ( ! "n ( ! ,"l4 ,april #d4 ,i left ,s&]sleb5 ?is morn+4 ,my bro!r & ho/ act$ accord+ to #c ,john1 #e & #f2 = he s5t me on t5 miles 9 8 c>riage4 ,:5 ,i arriv$ at ,as*]sleb51 to :i* place bro!r ,/ahls*midt _h convey$ me1 ,i _h b "o /ation m to my fa!r's h\se4 ,on ! way ,i ask$ ! driv] ab\t a c]ta9 individual1 ) :om ,i /udi$ at ,halle1 once a companion ) me 9 op5 s94 ,i f\nd t he is /ill 9 ! same /ate4 ,:at a diff]5ce has grace made betwe5 him & me6 ,no?+1 no?+ b grace has made ?is diff]5ce6 ,i1 guilty s9n]1 might n[ be /ill on ! same road1 & he1 9 my room1 might h be5 pluck$ z a br& out ( ! fire4 ,b x is n s4 ,may ! ,"l help me to love him mu*1 v mu*1 = ,8 di/+ui%+ grace6--,su* feel+s ,i _h 9 p>ticul> ?is aft]noon1 :5 ,i saw ! t[n be=e me 9 :i* my fa!r lives1 z !re are b two 9 ! :ole place1 z f> z ,i c f9d out1 :o love ! ,"l4 ,h[ diff]5t is ev]y?+ ) me n[ f :at x 0 :51 z a wick$ y\?1 ,i us$ to g to ?is t[n1 at ! "t ( my vacation4 ,h[ truly happy am ,i n[6 ,h[ is my he>t n[ rais$ above all ^? ?+s 9 :i* ,i s\ght1 & also fanci$ ,i f\nd happ9ess6 ,truly all ^! ?+s are l bubbles to me n[6 ,my he>t is n "h2 yea1 my he>t is n ev5 9 ,engl&4 ,my he>t is1 at lea/ 9 a measure1 9 heav51 ?\gh ,i am /ill no?+ b a poor weak worm4 ,i felt ! solemnity & importance ( hav+ once m ! privilege ( see+ my ag$ fa!r4 ,i also felt ! importance ( be+ at ! place1 :]e ,i _h sp5t mu* ( my "t 9 my y\?1 & :]e ,i _h be5 kn[n z liv+ 9 s94 ,my desire 01 t ,i might be enabl$ to walk1 ! ?ree days ,i int5d$ to /ay !re1 z x becomes a s]vant ( ,*ri/4 ,= ?is ,i _h be5 l$ to pray] be=e ,i left ,bri/ol1 & s9ce ,i h be5 on ! ,cont95t4 ,at la/ ,i arriv$ at my fa!r's h\se4 ,h[ affect+ to meet him once m6 ,april #e4 ,heim]sleb54 ,?is aft]noon a fri5d ( my fa!r call$-"o :o kn[s n ! ,"l4 ,aft] a few m9utes ! ,"l gave me an opportunity ( sett+ be=e him ! fundam5tal tru?s ( ! ,gospel1 & ! joy & com=t !y af=d1 & h af=d$ to me4 ,?us a way 0 op5$ to me ( /at+ ! tru? m fully ?an ev] ,i _h be5 able to d be=e1 by ^w ( m\?1 9 ! pres5ce ( my fa!r & bro!r1 )\t say+ to !m1 ,?\ art ! man4 ,i 0 assi/$ by ! ,"l4 ,may ,he wat] ! se$ s[n6 ,?is ev5+ ,i w5t to ! only two bre?r5 9 ?is little t[n1 ?us to own !m z su*4 ,x has appe>$ well to me to call on none :om ,i "k1 else ,i %\ld be expect$ to call on all2 & z ,i see x "r to sp5d b ?ree days "h1 ,i consid] t t little "t %\ld be :olly giv5 to my fa!r1 z x may be ! la/ "t t ,i %all see him2 yet1 at ! same "t1 ,i judg$ t x 0 well pleas+ 9 ! sight ( ! ,"l1 t ,i %\ld call on ^! bre?r5 to /r5g!n _! h&s4 ,:5 ,i saw ^! bre?r5 la/1 9 ,febru>y1 #ahbi1 two or ?ree m us$ to meet ) !m2 b s9ce !n ! reproa* ( ! cross has driv5 ! o!rs back into ! _w4 ,f t "t1 ^! bre?r5 h sc>cely se5 a believ]1 & nev] he> ! ,gospel prea*$2 x 0 !re=e a great joy to !m to see me4 ,!y told me t ! ,"l _h bless$ my la/ visit to !m2 & hav+ be5 in=m$ ( my com+1 !y 7 prep>$ to ask me _m que/ions4 ,"o ( !m1 ,knabe1 ab\t ?irty ye>s ago be+ possess$ ( prop]ty1 0 p]suad$ to lay x out 9 coal m9es4 ,he jo9$ ) two m5 :o sp5t 8 prop]ty1 & aft] "s "t !y became bankrupts1 s t !re 0 n money en\gh to pay ! workm5 & "s o!r cr$itors1 ev5 aft] all _! goods _h be5 sold4 ,?is ev5+ bro!r ,knabe ask$ me :at he ought to d ab\t ! money :i* _h be5 left unpaid ?ree & tw5ty ye>s2 :e!r he 0 /ill "u an obligation to pay x1 if he c\ld4 ,my answ] 0 at once t he 01 be+ 9 ! sight ( ! ,"l /ill a debtor1 ?\gh cle>$ by ! laws ( m54 ,he !n told me1 t "s ye>s s9ce "s prop]ty 0 left to him1 & t he also1 9 ! ye>s #ahaf1 #ahag1 & #ahah1 :5 ! corn prices 7 v high1 _h laid by "s money1 & t !re=e he 0 fully able to pay ! debt4 ,he saw imm$iately t ?is 0 ! "r way1 & said t he w\ld act accord+ly4 ,he add$ t n[ he saw :y he _h made s little progress 9 div9e ?+s4 ,i h le>n$ t ?is bro!r has lately tak5 two de/itute orphans into 8 h\se1 :om he entirely supports by ! lab\r ( 8 h&s 7he e>ns 8 bread by ?ra%+ corn71 & t ! p1 ?\gh !y consid] him1 on acc\nt ( 8 love = ! ,"l1 a weak & fooli% p]son1 yet look ^u him ) respect4 ,april #f4 ,i sp5t ?is morn+ 9 answ]+ que/ions :i* my fa!r put to me ab\t secul> ?+s 9 ,engl&4 ,?is ,i did = ! foll[+ reasons3--#a4 ,i _h sc>cely ev] spok5 ab\t ^! ?+s 9 my lett]s1 inde$ s little1 t my fa!r told me1 he _h (t5 int5d$ to ask me :e!r x 0 =bidd5 9 ,engl& to s5d lett]s abroad ab\t su* matt]s1 z ,i nev] wrote ab\t !m4 ,i _h refra9$ f do+ s1 p>tly1 on acc\nt ( want ( "t2 &1 p>tly1 because ,i _h bett] ?+s to write ab\t1 wi%+ to direct 8 m9d to ! ?+s ( ,god4 #b4 ,n[1 h[ev]1 ,i spoke on ^! subjects1 because ,i p>ticul>ly desir$ to be z k9d1 affectionate1 & oblig+ z ,i consci5ti\sly c\ld1 consid]+ t ?is 0 ! te/imony ,i 0 especially call$ on to give4 ,=m]ly ,i _h mu* press$ ! ?+s ( ,god on him1 & n ) suffici5t t5d]ness1 kn[+ n !n exp]im5tally ! helplessness ( ! creature4 ,aft] x _h pleas$ ! ,"l to %[ me ! tru? m cle>ly1 9 ! summ] ( #ahbi1 ,i wrote 9 a diff]5t way2 b 9 ! comm5cem5t ( ! ye> #ahcc ,i felt press$ 9 _s once m1 mo/ fully1 n s mu* z a son1 b z a s]vant ( ,*ri/1 to write1 & to po9t out to him m9utely 8 /ate1 %[+ him ! dang] ( 8 s\l1 ! gr\nds ( :i* ,i fully laid be=e him4 ,:5 ?is1 z =m]ly1 greatly displeas$ him1 ,i ceas$ to speak any m 9 ?is way1 & f t "t ,i aim$ & /ill aim m & m to %[ him love 9 action1 z x becomes a believ+ son1 tell+ him only h[ happy ,i am--h[ ,i am support$ "u su* & su* trials--h[ ,i am n c>+ ab\t c]ta9 ?+s z =m]ly ,i did--9 :at an awful /ate ,i 0 once liv+1 & h[ ,god br\ght me out ( x2 & h[ any s9n]1 by =sak+ 8 evil ways1 & believ+ on ! ,"l ,jesus1 may be br\ght to ! same joy & happ9ess1 & :at a delight x w\ld be to me to meet my fa!r at la/ 9 heav51 c4 ,s9ce ,i h correspond$ ) him 9 ?is way1 ?+s h be5 v com=table1 ?\gh ,i h br\ght z mu* tru? be=e him z =m]ly1 & ?\gh ,i h nev] s5t a lett] )\t speak+1 comp>atively1 mu* ab\t ^! ?+s4 ,on ! same gr\nd ,i h n on ?is visit spok5 directly to my fa!r ab\t ! /ate ( 8 s\l1 ?\gh he has m ?an ev] he>d ! tru? f my lips4 ,god has inde$ be5 ) me1 & ,i believe t ,i h be5 l$ by ,him to pursue ?is c\rse4 ,diff]5t1 h[ev]1 has be5 ! way 9 :i* ,i h dealt ) my unconv]t$ bro!r2 = ! relation%ip 9 :i* ,i /& to him is a diff]5t "o4 ,= ?is aft]noon1 ,i n only po9t$ out to him 8 dang]1 b spoke also respect+ 8 s9s1 & h done s 9 my lett]s1 & int5d to d s /ill1 if ! ,"l p]mit4 ,?is aft]noon bro!r ,knabe call$ on me4 ,he told me t he _h already exp]i5c$ a trial on acc\nt ( 8 int5tion to pay ! money1 z 8 wife tri$ to keep him f x1 by endeav\r+ to p]suade him t ,god does n require him to d su* a ?+1 z he has tak5 two orphan *ildr5 into 8 h\se4 ,he nev]!less is det]m9$ to d x4 ,he saw1 h[ev]1 ano!r difficulty1 :i* 01 t1 :5 he look$ ov] ! pap]s conta9+ ! names ( 8 cr$itors1 x 0 f\nd t all b ?ree1 out ( ab\t ?irty1 7 dead1 & he did n "k :at to d conc]n+ !m4 ,i told him to g to ^? places :]e 8 cr$itors us$ to live1 & he might f9d1 p]haps1 "s ne$y wid[s & fa!rless *ildr51 :om !y _h left beh9d2 &1 if n1 he %\ld inquire aft] ! lawful heirs1 & pay ! money to !m4 ,he saw ) me1 & decl>$ 8 full int5tion to d s1 :atev] x might co/1 & seem$ truly glad t ,god at la/1 ?r\gh my advice1 _h deliv]$ him f ?is burd52 = f "t to "t ! matt] _h press$ on 8 consci5ce t he ought to d x4--,i sp5t ?is ev5+ 9 relat+ to my fa!r & bro!r "s ( ! ,"l's deal+s ) me 9 ,engl&1 p>ticul>ly h[ ,he has graci\sly provid$ = my temporal wants 9 answ] to pray]1 & !y bo? seem$ to feel1 = ! mom5t at lea/ ! bless$ness ( su* a life4 ,april #g4 ,i saw bro!r ,knabe ?is morn+1 :o is /ill det]m9$ to pay ! money1 ?\gh tri$ by 8 wife4 ,i exhort$ him to /eadfa/ness4 ,i also saw "s p]sons :o call$ on me to he> ab\t ,engl&1 = e "o ( :om ! ,"l gave me a ^w )\t any ef=t4 ,x 0 especially s la/ night4 ,a fri5d ( my fa!r1 a ,roman ,ca?olic1 call$1 & ,i 0 enabl$ to set ! tru?s ( ! gospel be=e him1 ) _! bless$ effects1 )\t ent]+ ^u ! ,roman ,ca?olic controv]sy4--,a "p ( ?is morn+ ,i sp5t 9 walk+ ab\t ) my fa!r to see "o ( 8 g>d5s1 & "s ( 8 fields1 because ,i knew x w\ld give him pleasure2 & ,i felt t ,i ought 9 e way to %[ him k9dness & att5tion1 z f> z ,i consci5ti\sly c\ld4 ,tomorr[1 ,god will+1 ,i int5d to leave1 & to return to ,engl&4 ,! ,"l1 9 ,8 ri* m]cy1 9 answ] to my pray]1 has enabl$ me s to walk be=e my fa!r1 & has also impress$ :at ,i h said s f> ^u 8 he>t1 z to cause him to say today1 ,may ,god help me to foll[ y\r example1 & to act accord+ to :at y h said to me4 ,april #i4 ,celle4 ,ye/]day morn+ ,i drove ) my fa!r to ,halb]/adt1 :]e1 ) _m te>s1 he sep>at$ f me4 ,i 0 alone 9 ! mail1 :i* 0 a great com=t to me4 ,x 0 a solemn "t4 ,i f\nd myself aga9 on ! road to ,brunswick1 :i* ,i _h trav]s$ twice 9 ! s]vice ( ! devil1 & n[ ,i 0 travel+ on x 9 ! "n ( ,jesus4 ,i disc]n$1 9 pass+1 ! inn at ,wolf5buttel1 f :5ce ,i int5d$ to run away1 & :]e ,i 0 arre/$4 ,h[ peculi> 7 my feel+s6 ,9 ! ev5+ we rea*$ ,brunswick1 f :5ce we />t$ ! same night4 ,dur+ ! night ,i he>d a fe>fully wick$1 mo/ pr(ligate1 infidel1 & sc(f+ conv]sation betwe5 ! conducteur & a /ud5t1 & ! only te/imony ,i gave 01 complete sil5ce all ! "t4 ,i arriv$ "h ?is morn+ at eight1 & h be5 "h all ! morn+1 z ! mail w n />t = ,hamburg until f\r ?is aft]noon4 ,x has be5 f> f well ) me 9 my s\l today4 ,t awful conv]sation la/ night has be5 spiritual poison to me4 ,h['s v soon d we1 ev5 unconsci\sly1 receive evil6 ,april #aj4 ,hamburg4 ,i arriv$ "h at t5 ?is morn+4--,april #aa4 ,i w5t on bo>d la/ night1 & at twelve we sail$4 ,?is morn+ at half-pa/ elev5 we arriv$ at ,cuxhav51 :]e we ca/ an*or1 on acc\nt ( a /rong contr>y w9d4--,april #ac4 ,?\gh ,i desir$ z mu*1 p]haps1 z any ( ! pass5g]s spe$ily to get to ! end ( our voyage1 long+ to get back aga9 to my "w 9 ,bri/ol1 & also to my wife & *ildr51 yet ,i 0 kept 9 peace2 & :il/ "s murmur$ at ! contr>y w9d1 ! ,"l enabl$ me to lift up my he>t 9 pray] t ,he w\ld calm x1 if x 7 ,8 holy w1 &1 accord+ly1 aft] a delay ( ab\t n9ete5 h\rs1 we pli$ aga9 ye/]day morn+1 at sev54 ,at t5 ,i 0 tak5 ) sea sickness1 f :i* ,i _h be5 kept dur+ my f\r previ\s %ort voyages 9 answ] to pray]2 b ?is "t ,i on purpose refra9$ f pray+ ab\t x1 z ,i did n "k :e!r x 0 bett] = my heal? to be seasick or n4 ,! sickness cont9u$ ! :ole ( ye/]day4 ,today ,i am well4 ,we h f9e & calm wea!r4 ,i consid] x a m]cy t ! ,"l has all[$ me to be sea-sick4 ,april #ae4 ,bri/ol4 ,ye/]day at "o we l&$ 9 ,london4 ,9 answ] to pray] ,i soon obta9$ my ?+s f ! ,cu/om-h\se1 & rea*$ my fri5ds 9 ,*anc]y ,lane a little be=e two1 :]e ,i f\nd a lett] f my wife1 /at+ t bro!r ,craik is ill1 hav+ an inflammation 9 ! w9d-pipe1 & !re=e1 humanly speak+1 w be unable to prea* = "s "t4 ,9 consequ5ce ( ?is ,i />t$ imm$iately = ,bri/ol1 :]e ,i arriv$ ?is morn+4 ,i f\nd bro!r ,craik bett] ?an ,i _h expect$1 ?\gh completely unable to att5d to ! m9i/ry ( ! ,^w4 ,april #af4 ,today bro!r ,craik & ,i receiv$ #aal4 #aes4 #i;d4 ea*1 be+ a legacy left to u "s "t s9ce4 ,we said once or twice to "o ano!r1 t p]haps ?is money might be paid at a "t :5 we mu* ne$$ x4 ,& s x is j n[4 ,may ,i & all my bre?r5 leave ! managem5t ( all our affairs entirely to ! ,"l1 :o be/ kn[s :at is good = u2 & may x be our conc]n to seek fir/ ! k+dom ( ,god & ,8 righte\sness1 & all temporal supplies %all be add$ to u6 ,may #a4 ,i w5t to see bro!r ,craik1 & f\nd him bett]1 b he>d f 8 m$ical att5dant t he ought n to prea* = sev]al mon?s4 ,may #e4 ,my fa!r-9-law has be5 = sev]al days v ill4 ,may #ae4 ,mr4 ,groves cont9ues v ill4 ,may #bi4 ,?is morn+ bro!r ,craik w5t into ,devon%ire = *ange ( air4 ,june #c4 ,today we _h a public meet+ on acc\nt ( ! ,scriptural ,k ,in/itution = home & abroad4 ,x is n[ fifte5 mon?s1 s9ce1 9 dep5d5ce ^u ! ,"l = ! supply ( means1 we h be5 enabl$ to provide poor *ildr5 ) s*ool+1 circulate ! ,holy ,scriptures1 & aid mission>y lab\rs4 ,dur+ ?is "t1 ?\gh ! field ( lab\r has be5 cont9ually enl>g$1 & ?\gh we h n[ & !n be5 br\ght l[ 9 funds1 ! ,"l has nev] all[$ u to be oblig$ to /op ! "w4 ,we h be5 enabl$ dur+ ?is "t to e/abli% ?ree day-s*ools1 & to connect ) ! ,in/itution two o!r *>ity day-s*ools1 :i*1 humanly speak+1 o!rwise w\ld h be5 clos$ = want ( means4 ,9 addition to ?is1 ! exp5ses connect$ ) a ,sunday-s*ool & an adult s*ool h be5 likewise defray$1 mak+ sev5 s*ools altoge!r4 ,! numb] ( ! *ildr5 t h be5 ?us provid$ ) s*ool+1 9 ! day-s*ools only1 am\nts to #dci4 ,! numb] ( copies ( ! ,holy ,scriptures1 :i* h be5 circulat$1 is #gie ,bibles & #gec ,new ,te/am5ts4 ,we h also s5t1 9 aid ( mission>y lab\rs 9 ,canada1 9 ! ,ea/ ,indies1 & on ! ,cont95t ( ,europe1 #aagl4 #aas4 ,! :ole am\nt ( ! free-w (f]+s put into our h&s = c>ry+ on ?is "w1 f ,m>* #e1 #ahcd1 to ,may #ai1 #ahce1 is #cfcl4 #abs4 #j #c_/d;d4 ,june #bj4 ,our fa!r is evid5tly today ne> 8 end4 ,june #bb4 ,?is morn+ at two our fa!r di$4 ,june #bc4 ,bo? our *ildr5 are ill4 ,june #bd4 ,our little boy is v ill4 ,june #be4 ,! de> little boy is s ill1 t ,i h no hope ( 8 recov]y4 ,! disease is inflammation on ! *e/4 ,i spoke ?is ev5+ com=tably at ,gideon1 on ,psalm cxlv4 #a-d1 ?9k+ x "r t nei!r ! dea? ( my fa!r-9-law1 nor my dy+ *ild %\ld keep me f ! ,"l's "w4 ,! ,"l's holy w be done conc]n+ ! de> little "o4 ,june #bf4 ,my pray] la/ ev5+ 01 t ,god w\ld be pleas$ to support my de> wife "u ! trial1 %\ld ,he remove ! little "o2 & to take him soon to ,himself1 ?us sp>+ him f suff]+4 ,i did n pray = ! *ild's recov]y4 ,x 0 b two h\rs aft] t ! de> little "o w5t home4 ,! elde/ & ! y\nge/ ! ,"l has ?us remov$ f our family 9 ! same week4 ,my de> ,m>y feels h] loss mu*1 b yet is greatly support$4 ,z to myself1 ,i am s fully enabl$ to realize t ! de> infant is s mu* bett] (f ) ! ,"l ,jesus ?an ) u1 t ,i sc>cely feel ! loss at all1 & :5 ,i weep1 ,i weep = joy4 ,june #bg4 ,my de> wife is graci\sly support$4 ,may ! ,"l grant t ^! afflictions may n be lo/ ^u u6 ,june #bh4 ,i prea*$ today bo? times com=tably4 ,june #bi4 ,?is morn+ 0 ! fun]al4 ,! rema9s ( our fa!r & infant 7 put into ! same grave4 ,july #c4 ,our taxes are due1 & may be call$ = any day1 & = ! fir/ "t we h no money to pay !m1 z we 7 oblig$1 on acc\nt ( our late afflictions1 to sp5d ! money :i* we _h put by = !m4 ,may ! ,"l 9 m]cy provide6 ,july #f4 ,i 0 enabl$ today1 by ! free-w (f]+s ?r\gh ! boxes1 & by :at ,i _h left1 to pay ! taxes be=e !y 7 call$ =4 ,h[ k9d ( ! ,"l to answ] my pray] s soon6 ,july #h4 ,?is ev5+ ,i _h #el4 s5t f ,we/on-sup]-,m>e4 ,s ! ,"l has aga9 appe>$4 ,may ,i praise ,8 holy "n = ?is seasonable help1 :i* came :5 ,i _h sc>cely any money left6 ,july #ad4 ,today ,i _h aga9 a suit ( new clo!s giv5 to me by a bro!r4 ,my clo!s 7 mu* worn & old1 & our late fun]al might h giv5 a second reason = hav+ new ones4 ,b ,i did n ord] any1 because ,i _h no money to pay = !m1 & ?\ght x wrong to contract debts4--,a fre% pap] 0 br\ght 9 today = taxes1 :i* ought to h be5 ask$ = _m mon?s s9ce4 ,may ! ,"l give u ! means to pay !m6 ,july #ae4 ,we _h aga9 an especial pray]-meet+ = ! re/oration ( bro!r ,craik1 :o1 ?\gh well 9 8 g5]al heal?1 is yet unable to prea*1 or ev5 to conv]se = any l5g? ( "t4 ,july #ah4 ,i h felt = sev]al days weak 9 my *e/4 ,?is weakness has be5 increas+1 & today ,i h felt x m ?an ev]4 ,i h ?\ght x well to refra9 next week f all public speak+4 ,may ! ,"l grant t ,i may be br\ght ne>] to ,him ?r\gh ?is1 = ,i am n at all 9 ! /ate 9 :i* ,i ought to be1 & ,i ?9k sometimes t our late afflictions h be5 lo/ ^u me1 & t ! ,"l w ne$ to *a/ise me sev]ely4 ,july #bb4 ,! la/ m5tion$ taxes 7 call$ = ?is morn+1 j aft] ! ,"l _h s5t u #el41 f a di/ance ( ab\t eighty miles4 ,s ! ,"l has aga9 ( late1 repeat$ly1 9 answ] to pray]1 s5t help4 ,may ?is lead u to tru/ 9 ,him = ! future6 ,july #bh4 ,s9ce ! #ad? ,i h felt unwell1 & ?\gh sometimes a little bett]1 on ! :ole ,i h be5 gett+ worse & worse4 ,?is morn+ ,i h se5 our m$ical att5dant1 :o ?9ks t all ! disease arises f a disord]$ /oma*4 ,july #ca4 ,today bro!r ,c-r1 =m]ly a m9i/] 9 ! e/abli%m5t1 :o came to u a few days s9ce1 began1 9 connexion ) ! ,scriptural ,k ,in/itution1 to g f h\se to h\se1 to spread ! tru? z a city mission>y4 ,?is 0 a rem>kable int]position ( ,god4 ,bro!r ,craik _h be=e ?is1 = "s mon?s1 be5 unable on acc\nt ( bodily infirmity1 to lab\r 9 ! "w ( ! s*ools1 ! circulation ( ! ,scriptures1 c41 & my own weakness1 %ortly aft] bro!r ,c-r's arrival1 increas$ s t ,i 0 oblig$ to give up ! "w entirely3 ,h[ graci\s1 !re=e1 ( ! ,"l1 to s5d bro!r ,c-r1 t ?us ! "w might g on6 ,up to ,july1 #ahcg1 ?is bro!r 0 enabl$ to cont9ue 9 8 "w1 & ?us ?is little ,in/itution 0 9 a mo/ important way enl>g$ z x reg>ds ! field ( lab\r4 ,augu/ #ae4 ,today de> bro!r ,craik return$ f ,devon%ire1 mu* bett] 9 8 g5]al heal?1 b n bett] z x reg>ds 8 voice4--,augu/ #bd4 ,i feel v weak1 & suff] m ?an be=e f ! disease4 ,i am 9 d\bt :e!r to leave ,bri/ol entirely = a "t4 ,i h no money to g away = a *ange ( air4 ,i h _h an invitation to /ay = a week ) a si/] 9 ! c\ntry1 & ,i ?9k ( accept+ ! invitation1 & go+ tomorr[4 ,augu/ #bf4 ,today ,i _h #el4 giv5 to me = ! express purpose ( us+ *ange ( air4 ,aug4 #bi4 ,today ,i receiv$ ano!r #el4 = ! same purpose4 ,augu/ #cj4 ,today1 = ! fir/ ,"l's day s9ce our arrival 9 ,bri/ol1 ,i h be5 kept f prea*+ ?r\gh illness4 ,h[ m]cifully has ! ,"l dealt 9 giv+ me s mu* /r5g? = ^! ye>s6 ,i _h ano!r #el4 s5t1 to aid me 9 procur+ *ange ( air4 ,h[ k9d is ! ,"l 9 ?us provid+ me ) ! means ( leav+ ,bri/ol6 ,septemb] #b4 ,w5t ) my family to ,porti%ead4 ,septemb] #c to #e4 ,i read ! lives ( ! ,engli% m>tyrs at ! "t ( ! re=mation4 ,my _s has be5 greatly refre%$4 ,may ! ,"l help me to foll[ ^! holy m5 z f> z !y foll[$ ,*ri/6 ,( all read+1 besides t ( ! ,holy ,scriptures1 :i* %\ld be always ,,! book1 ,,! ,,*ief book to u1 n m]ely 9 !ory1 b also 9 practice1 su* l books seem to me ! mo/ useful = ! gr[? ( ! inn] man4 ,yet "o has to be cauti\s 9 ! *oice1 & to gu>d aga9/ read+ too mu*4 ,at su* a "t z ! pres5t1 :5 my m9d & body are too weak = mu* ex]tion1 z ! /udy ( ! ,^w1 conv]sation1 writ+ lett]s1 or walk+1 c41 ,i f9d x mo/ refre%+ to read a few pages ( ?is k9d1 ?\gh ^! la/ six ye>s ,i h n read ! fif? "p1 p]haps n ! t5? "p z mu* ( o!r books z ( ! ,holy ,scriptures4 ,septemb] #ad4 ,we are /ill at ,porti%ead4 ,i am b little bett]4 ,i am greatly b[$ d[n today on acc\nt ( my inw>d corruptions & c>nality ( he>t4 ,:5 w ,god deliv] me f ?is /ate86 ,h[ ,i long to be m l ,him6 ,my pres5t way ( liv+ is also a great trial to me4 ,! c>+ s mu* ab\t ! body2 ! hav+ = my *ief employm5t eat+ & dr9k+1 walk+1 ba?+1 & tak+ horse ex]cise2 all ?is to :i* ,i h n be5 at all accu/om$ ^! six ye>s1 ,i f9d to be v try+4 ,i w\ld mu* r be aga9 9 ! mid/ ( ! "w 9 ,bri/ol1 if my ,"l w condesc5d to use ,8 mo/ unwor?y s]vant4 ,septemb] #ae4 ,z ,i cle>ly und]/ood t ! p]son1 :o lets me 8 horse1 has no lic5se1 ,i saw1 t be+ b\nd z a believ] to act accord+ to ! laws ( ! c\ntry1 ,i c\ld use x no long]3 & z horse ex]cise seems mo/ important1 humanly speak+1 = my re/oration1 & z ?is is ! only horse1 :i* is to be _h 9 ! place1 we came to ! conclusion to leave ,porti%ead tomorr[4 ,imm$iately aft]1 ,i receiv$ a k9d lett] f a bro!r & two si/]s 9 ! ,"l1 :o liv$ 9 ! ,isle ( ,wight1 :i* conta9$ a f\r? invitation1 m press+ ?an ev]1 to come & /ay ) !m = "s "t4 ,9 addition to ?is1 !y wrote t !y _h repeat$ly pray$ ab\t ! matt]1 & 7 p]suad$ t ,i ought to come4 ,?is matt] has be5 today a subject = pray] & consid]ation to u4 ,septemb] #af4 ,we came ?is morn+ to ! conclusion to leave ,porti%ead today1 & t ,i %\ld g to ! ,isle ( ,wight2 b we saw n h[ my wife & *ild & our s]vant c\ld accompany me1 z we _h n suffici5t money = travel+ exp5ses2 & yet ?is seem$ ( importance1 z o!rwise my wife w\ld be ov]burd5$ 9 my abs5ce1 & my m9d w\ld n be suffici5tly free2 & besides ?is1 %e also seems to ne$ *ange ( air4 ,! ,"l graci\sly remov$ ! difficulty ?is ev5+2 = we receiv$ mo/ unexpect$ly & unask$ = #fl4 #acs41 :i* 0 ow$ to u1 &1 also1 :5 we _h already retir$ to re/1 a lett] 0 br\ght1 conta9+ a pres5t ( #bl4 ,h[ v1 v k9d1 & t5d] is ! ,"l6 ,septemb] #ai4 ,?is ev5+ we arriv$ at our fri5ds' 9 ! ,isle ( ,wight1 by :om we 7 mo/ k9dly receiv$4--,septemb] #ba to #bf4 ,no?+ rem>kable has occurr$4 ,i feel v com=table 9 ?is place1 & f9d my /ay "h refre%+ to my s\l4 ,my heal? is ab\t ! same4 ,i am n fit = m5tal ex]cise1 & am soon fatigu$ ev5 by conv]sation4 ,i h read dur+ ! la/ days1 ) great int]e/ & admiration ( ! goodness ( ,god1 & to ! refre%m5t ( my s\l1 ! life ( ,john ,newton1 & ! lives ( "s ( ! ,engli% m>tyrs at ! "t ( ! re=mation4 ,sept4 #bg4 ,today ,i am ?irty ye>s ( age4 ,i feel myself an unpr(itable s]vant4 ,h[ mu* m might ,i h liv$ = ,god ?an ,i h done6 ,may ! ,"l grant1 t1 if ,i am all[$ to /ay a few days m 9 ?is _w1 !y may be sp5t entirely = ,him6 ,septemb] #bi4 ,la/ ev5+1 :5 ,i retir$ f ! family1 ,i _h a desire to g to re/ at once1 = ,i _h pray$ a %ort :ile be=e2 & feel+ weak 9 body1 ! coldness ( ! night 0 a temptation = me to pray no fur!r4 ,h[ev]1 ! ,"l did help me to fall ^u my knees2 & no soon] _h ,i comm5c$ pray+1 ?an ,he %one into my s\l1 & gave me su* a _s ( pray]1 z ,i _h n enjoy$ = _m weeks4 ,he graci\sly once m reviv$ ,8 "w 9 my he>t4 ,i enjoy$ t ne>ness to ,god & f]v5cy 9 pray]1 = m ?an an h\r1 = :i* my s\l _h be5 pant+ = _m weeks pa/4 ,= ! fir/ "t1 dur+ ?is illness1 ,i _h n[ also a _s ( pray] z x reg>ds my heal?4 ,i c\ld ask ! ,"l e>ne/ly to re/ore me aga91 :i* _h n be5 ! case be=e4 ,i n[ long to g back aga9 to ! "w 9 ,bri/ol1 yet )\t impati5ce1 & feel assur$ t ! ,"l w /r5g!n me to return to x4 ,i w5t to b$ especially happy & awoke ?is morn+ 9 great peace1 rose soon] ?an usual1 & _h aga91 = m ?an an h\r1 real communion ) ! ,"l be=e breakfa/4 ,may ,he 9 m]cy cont9ue ?is /ate ( he>t to ,8 mo/ unwor?y *ild6 ,octob] #h4 ,my /r5g? has be5 dur+ ! la/ days increas+1 b ,i feel /ill ! symptoms ( indige/ion4 ,i h be5 able to speak sev]al times at family pray]1 & to exp\nd ! ,scriptures to ! s*ool *ildr51 )\t suff]+ 9 consequ5ce ( x4 ,octob] #i4 ,i h _m times _h ?\ghts ( giv+ 9 pr9t "s acc\nt ( ! ,"l's goodness to me1 = ! in/ruction1 com=t1 & enc\ragem5t ( ! *ildr5 ( ,god2 & ,i h be5 m ?an ev] /irr$ up to d s s9ce ,i read ,newton's life a few days ago4 ,i h consid]$1 today1 all ! reasons = & aga9/1 & f9d t !re are sc>cely any aga9/1 & _m = x4 ,octob] #ae4 ,today we left our de> fri5ds = ,bri/ol4 ,novemb] #ae4 ,bro!r ,c-r & ,i h be5 pray+ toge!r1 ! la/ five days1 t ! ,"l w\ld be pleas$ to s5d u means = ! c>ry+ on ( ! "w ( ! ,scriptural ,k ,in/itution4 ,?is ev5+ a bro!r gave me #fs4 #a;d41 be+ money :i* he =m]ly us$ to pay t[>ds ! support ( a trade club1 :i* he has lately giv5 up = ! ,"l's sake4--,novemb] #ah4 ,?is ev5+ ,l#cj 0 giv5 to me2 ,l#be4 = ! ,scriptural ,k ,in/itution1 & ,l#e4 = myself4 ,?is is a mo/ rem>kable answ] to pray]4 ,bro!r ,c-r & ,i h pray$ repeat$ly toge!r dur+ ! la/ week1 conc]n+ ! "w1 & especially t ! ,"l w\ld be pleas$ to give u ! means to cont9ue1 & ev5 to enl>ge1 ! field4 ,9 addition to ?is1 ,i h sev]al times ask$ = a supply = myself1 & ,he has k9dly grant$ bo? ^! reque/s4 ,oh t ,i may h grace to tru/ ,him m & m6--,novemb] #bj4 ,?is ev5+ ,i took tea at a si/]'s h\se1 :]e ,i f\nd ,franke's life4 ,i h frequ5tly1 = a long "t1 ?\ght ( lab\r+ 9 a simil> way1 ?\gh x might be on a mu* small] scale2 n1 to imitate ,franke1 b 9 reliance ^u ! ,"l4 ,may ,god make x pla96 ,novemb] #ba4 ,today ,i h _h x v mu* impress$ on my he>t1 no long] m]ely to ?9k ab\t ! e/abli%m5t ( an ,orphan-,h\se1 b actually to set ab\t x1 & ,i h be5 v mu* 9 pray] respect+ x1 9 ord] to asc]ta9 ! ,"l's m9d4--,i receiv$ ?is day1 f an unexpect$ qu>t]1 ,l#e4 = ! ,scriptural ,k ,in/itution1 9 answ] to pray]2 & ,i _h also ,l#a4 #ads4 #f;d4 s5t f a di/ance ( "o hundr$ & tw5ty miles4-,novemb] #bb4 ,?is ev5+ ,i _h s5t = ! ,in/itution ,l#a4 #ds4--,novemb] #bc4 ,today ,i _h ,l#aj4 s5t f ,irel& = our ,in/itution4 ,?us ! ,"l1 9 answ] to pray]1 has giv5 me1 9 a few days1 ab\t ,l#ej4 ,i _h ask$ only = ,l#dj4 ,?is has be5 a great enc\ragem5t to me1 & has /ill m /irr$ me up to ?9k & pray ab\t ! e/abli%m5t ( an ,orphan-,h\se4--,novemb] #be4 ,i h be5 aga9 mu* 9 pray] ye/]day & today ab\t ! ,orphan-,h\se1 & am m & m conv9c$ t x is ( ,god4 ,may ,he 9 m]cy guide me6 ,! ?ree *ief reasons = e/abli%+ an ,orphan-,h\se are3--#a4 ,t ,god may be glorifi$1 %\ld ,he be pleas$ to furni% me ) ! means1 9 its be+ se5 t x is n a va9 ?+ to tru/ 9 ,him2 & t ?us ! fai? ( ,8 *ildr5 may be /r5g!n$4 #b4 ,! spiritual welf>e ( fa!rless & mo!rless *ildr54 #c4 ,_! temporal welf>e4 ,x may be well to ent] some:at m m9utely1 ?an my j\rnal does1 ^u ! reasons :i* l$ me to e/abli% an ,orphan-,h\se4 ,?r\gh my pa/oral lab\rs among ! sa9ts 9 ,bri/ol1 ?r\gh my consid]able correspond5ce1 & ?r\gh bre?r5 :o visit$ ,bri/ol2 ,i _h con/antly cases br\ght be=e me1 :i* prov$1 t "o ( ! especial ?+s :i* ! *ildr5 ( ,god ne$$ 9 our day1 01 to h _! fai? /r5g!n$4 ,= in/ance3 ,i might visit a bro!r1 :o work$ f\rte5 or ev5 sixte5 h\rs a day at 8 trade1 ! necess>y result ( :i* 01 t n only 8 body suff]$1 b 8 s\l 0 lean1 & he _h no enjoym5t 9 ! ?+s ( ,god4 ,"u su* circum/ances ,i might po9t out to him t he ought to "w less1 9 ord] t 8 bodily heal? might n suff]1 & t he might ga!r /r5g? = 8 inn] man1 by read+ ! ^w ( ,god1 by m$itation ov] x1 & by pray]4 ,! reply1 h[ev]1 ,i g5]ally f\nd to be some?+ l ?is3 ,b if ,i "w less1 ,i d n e>n en\gh = ! support ( my family4 ,ev5 n[1 :il/ ,i "w s mu*1 ,i h sc>cely en\gh4 ,! wages are s l[1 t ,i mu/ "w h>d 9 ord] to obta9 :at ,i ne$4 ,!re 0 no tru/ 9 ,god4 ,no real belief 9 ! tru? ( t ^w3 ,seek ye fir/ ! k+dom ( ,god1 & ,8 righte\sness3 & all ^! ?+s %all be add$ unto y4 ,i might reply some?+ l ?is3 ,my de> bro!r1 x is n y\r "w :i* supports y\r family1 b ! ,"l2 & ,he :o has f$ y & y\r family :5 y c\ld n "w at all1 on acc\nt ( illness1 w\ld surely provide = y & y\rs1 if = ! sake ( obta9+ food = y\r inn] man1 y 7 to "w only = s _m h\rs a day1 z w\ld all[ y prop] "t = retirem5t4 ,& is x n ! case n[1 t y beg9 ! "w ( ! day aft] hav+ _h only a few hurri$ mom5ts = pray]2 & :5 y leave (f y\r "w 9 ! ev5+1 & mean !n to read a little ( ! ^w ( ,god1 are y n too mu* worn out 9 body & m9d1 to enjoy x1 & d y n (t5 fall asleep :il/ read+ ! ,scriptures1 or :il/ on y\r knees 9 pray]8 ,! bro!r w\ld all[ x 0 s2 he w\ld all[ t my advice 0 good2 b /ill ,i read 9 8 c\nt5ance1 ev5 if he %\ld n h actually said s1 ,h[ %\ld ,i get on1 if ,i 7 to c>ry out y\r advice8 ,i long$1 !re=e1 to h some?+ to po9t ! bro!r to1 z a visible pro(1 t our ,god & ,fa!r is ! same fai?ful ,god z ev] ,he 02 z will+ z ev] to ,,prove ,himself to be ! ,,liv+ ,,god1 9 our day z =m]ly1 to all :o put _! tru/ 9 ,him4--,aga91 sometimes ,i f\nd *ildr5 ( ,god tri$ 9 m9d by ! prospect ( old age1 :5 !y might be unable to "w any long]1 & !re=e 7 h>ass$ by ! fe> ( hav+ to g into ! poor-h\se4 ,if 9 su* a case ,i po9t$ out to !m1 h[ _! ,heav5ly ,fa!r has always help$ ^? :o put _! tru/ 9 ,him1 !y might n1 p]haps1 always say1 t times h *ang$2 b yet x 0 evid5t en\gh1 t ,god 0 n look$ ^u by !m z ! ,,liv+ ,god4 ,my _s 0 (ttimes b[$ d[n by ?is1 & ,i long$ to set some?+ be=e ! *ildr5 ( ,god1 :]eby !y might see1 t ,he does n =sake1 ev5 9 our day1 ^? :o rely ^u him4--,ano!r class ( p]sons 7 bre?r5 9 bus9ess1 :o suff]$ 9 _! s\ls1 & br\ght guilt on _! consci5ces1 by c>ry+ on _! bus9ess1 almo/ 9 ! same way1 z unconv]t$ p]sons d4 ,! competition 9 trade1 ! bad times1 ! ov]-peopl$ c\ntry1 7 giv5 z reasons :y1 ,if ! bus9ess 7 c>ri$ on simply accord+ to ! ^w ( ,god1 x c\ld n be expect$ to d well4 ,su* a bro!r1 p]haps1 w\ld express ! wi%1 t he might be diff]5tly situat$2 b v r>ely did ,i see1 t !re 0 a /& made = ,god1 t !re 0 ! holy det]m9ation to tru/ 9 ! liv+ ,god1 & to dep5d on ,him1 9 ord] t a good consci5ce might be ma9ta9$4 ,to ?is class likewise ,i desir$ to %[1 by a visible pro(1 t ,god is un*angeably ! same4--,!n !re 0 ano!r class ( p]sons1 individuals :o 7 9 pr(essions 9 :i* !y c\ld n cont9ue ) a good consci5ce1 or p]sons :o 7 9 an unscriptural position ) ref]5ce to spiritual ?+s2 b bo? classes fe>$1 on acc\nt ( ! consequ5ces1 to give up ! pr(ession 9 :i* !y c\ld n abide ) ,god1 or to leave _! position1 le/ !y %\ld be ?r[n out ( employm5t4 ,my _s long$ to be in/rum5tal 9 /r5g!n+ _! fai?1 by giv+ !m n only in/ances f ! ^w ( ,god1 ( ,8 will+ness & ability to help all ^? :o rely ^u ,him1 b to %[ !m by pro(s1 t ,he is ! same 9 our day4 ,i well knew t ! ^w ( ,god ought to be en\gh1 & x 01 by grace1 en\gh to me2 b /ill1 ,i consid]$ t ,i aught to l5d a help+ h& to my bre?r51 if by any means1 by ?is visible pro( to ! un*angeable fai?fulness ( ! ,"l ,i might /r5g!n _! h&s 9 ,god2 = ,i rememb]$ :at a great bless+ my own s\l _h receiv$ ?r\gh ! ,"l's deal+s ) ,8 s]vant ,a4 ,h4 ,franke1 :o1 9 dep5d5ce ^u ! liv+ ,god alone1 e/abli%$ an imm5se ,orphan-,h\se1 :i* ,i _h se5 _m times ) my own eyes4 ,i1 !re=e1 judg$ myself b\nd to be ! s]vant ( ! ,*ur* ( ,*ri/1 9 ! p>ticul> po9t on :i* ,i _h obta9$ m]cy3 namely1 9 be+ able to take ,god by ,8 ^w & to rely ^u x4 ,all ^! ex]cises ( my s\l1 :i* result$ f ! fact t s _m believ]s1 ) :om ,i became acqua9t$1 7 h>ass$ & di/ress$ 9 m9d1 or br\ght guilt on _! consci5ces1 on acc\nt ( n tru/+ 9 ! ,"l2 7 us$ by ,god to awak5 9 my he>t ! desire ( sett+ be=e ! *ur* at l>ge1 & be=e ! _w1 a pro( t ,he has n 9 ! lea/ *ang$2 & ?is seem$ to me be/ done1 by ! e/abli%+ ( an ,orphan-,h\se4 ,x ne$$ to be some?+ :i* c\ld be se51 ev5 by ! natural eye4 ,n[1 if ,i1 a poor man1 simply by pray] & fai?1 obta9$1 )\t ask+ any individual1 ! means = e/abli%+ & c>ry+ on an ,orphan-,h\se3 !re w\ld be some?+ :i* ) ! ,"l's bless+1 might be in/rum5tal 9 /r5g!n+ ! fai? ( ! *ildr5 ( ,god besides be+ a te/imony to ! consci5ces ( ! unconv]t$1 ( ! reality ( ! ?+s ( ,god4 ,?is1 !n1 0 ! prim>y reason1 = e/abli%+ ! ,orphan-,h\se4 ,i c]ta9ly did f my he>t desire to be us$ by ,god to b5efit ! bodies ( poor *ildr51 b]eav$ ( bo? p>5ts1 & seek1 9 o!r respects1 ) ! help ( ,god1 to d !m good = ?is life2--,i also p>ticul>ly long$ to be us$ by ,god 9 gett+ ! de> orphans tra9$ up 9 ! fe> ( ,god2--b /ill1 ! fir/ & prim>y object ( ! "w 01 7& /ill is37 t ,god might be magnifi$ by ! fact1 t ! orphans "u my c>e are provid$1 ) all !y ne$1 only by pray] & fai?1 )\t any "o be+ ask$ by me or my fell[-lab\r]s1 :]eby x may be se51 t ,god is ,,fai?ful ,,/ill1 & ,,he>s ,,pray] ,,/ill4 ,t ,i 0 n mi/ak51 has be5 abundantly prov$ s+e ,novemb]1 #ahce1 bo? by ! conv]sion ( _m s9n]s :o h read ! acc\nts1 :i* h be5 publi%$ 9 connexion ) ?is "w1 & also by ! abundance ( fruit t has foll[$ 9 ! he>ts ( ! sa9ts1 = :i*1 f my inmo/ s\l1 ,i desire to be grateful to ,god1 & ! hon\r & glory ( :i* n only is due to ,him alone1 b :i* ,i1 by ,8 help1 am enabl$ to ascribe to ,him4 ,novemb] #bh4 ,i h be51 e day ?is week1 v mu* 9 pray] conc]n+ ! ,orphan-,h\se1 *iefly entreat+ ! ,"l to take away e ?\ght conc]n+ x out ( my m9d1 if ! matt] be n ( ,him2 & h also repeat$ly exam9$ my he>t conc]n+ my motives 9 ! matt]4 ,b ,i h be5 m & m confirm$ t x is ( ,god4 ,decemb] #b4 ,i h aga9 ^! la/ days pray$ mu* ab\t ! ,orphan-,h\se1 & h frequ5tly exam9$ my he>t1 t if x 7 at all my desire to e/abli% x = ! sake ( gratify+ myself ,i might f9d x out4 ,to t end ,i h also conv]s$ ) bro!r ,craik ab\t x1 t he might be in/rum5tal 9 %[+ me any hidd5 corruption ( my he>t conc]n+ ! matt]1 or any o!r scriptural reason aga9/ my engag+ 9 x4 ,! "o only reason :i* ev] made me at all d\bt z to its be+ ( ,god1 t ,i %\ld engage 9 ?is "w1 is1 ! multiplicity ( engagem5ts :i* ,i h already4 ,b t :i* has ov]balanc$ ?is objection 9 my m9d has be53--#a4 ,t ! matt] is ( su* great importance4 #b4 ,t if ! matt] be ( ,god1 ,he w 9 due "t s5d suitable individuals1 s t comp>atively little ( my "t w be tak5 up 9 ?is s]vice4 ,?is morn+ ,i ask$ ! ,"l especially1 t ,he w\ld be pleas$ to tea* me ?r\gh ! in/rum5tality ( bro!r ,c42 & ,i w5t to him1 t he might h an opportunity ( prob+ my he>t4 ,= z ,i desire only ! ,"l's glory1 ,i %\ld be glad to be in/ruct$ ?r\gh ! in/rum5tality ( any bro!r1 if ! matt] be n ( ,him4 ,b bro!r ,c41 on ! contr>y1 greatly enc\rag$ me 9 x4 ,!re=e ,i h ?is day tak5 ! fir/ actual /ep 9 ! matt]1 9 hav+ ord]$ bills to be pr9t$1 ann\nc+ a public meet+ on ,decemb] #i?1 at :i* ,i int5d to lay be=e ! bre?r5 my ?\ghts conc]n+ ! ,orphan-,h\se1 z a means ( asc]ta9+ m cle>ly ! ,"l's m9d conc]n+ ! matt]4 ,decemb] #d4 ,bro!r ,craik told me ?is morn+1 t 8 voice is gett+ a little bett]4 ,decemb] #e4 ,?is ev5+ ,i 0 /ruck1 9 read+ ! ,scriptures1 ) ^! words3 ,op5 ?y m\? wide1 & ,i w fill x4 ,ps4 lxxxi4 #aj4 ,up to ?is day ,i _h n pray$ at all conc]n+ ! means or individuals ne$$ = ! ,orphan-,h\se4 ,i 0 n[ l$ to apply ?is scripture to ! ,orphan-,h\se1 & ask$ ! ,"l = premises1 #ajjjl41 & suitable individuals to take c>e ( ! *ildr54 ,decemb] #g4 ,today ,i receiv$ ! fir/ %ill+ = ! ,orphan-,h\se4 ,aft]w>ds ,i receiv$ ano!r %ill+ f a ,g]man bro!r4 ,decemb] #i4 ,?is aft]noon ! fir/ piece ( furniture 0 giv5--a l>ge w>drobe4 ,?is aft]noon & ev5+ ,i 0 l[ 9 _s z x reg>ds ! ,orphan-,h\se1 b z soon z ,i began to speak at ! meet+1 ,i receiv$ peculi> assi/ance f ,god1 felt great peace & joy1 & ! assurance t ! "w is ( ,god4 ,aft] ! meet+1 #ajs4 0 giv5 to me4 ,!re 0 purposely no collection1 nor did any "o speak besides myself2 = x 0 n 9 ! lea/ int5d$ to "w ^u ! feel+s1 = ,i s\ght to be q sure conc]n+ ! m9d ( ,god4 ,aft] ! meet+ a si/] (f]$ h]self = ! "w4 ,i w5t home happy 9 ! ,"l1 & full ( confid5ce t ! matt] w come to pass1 ?\gh b #ajs4 has be5 giv54 ,decemb] #aj4 ,?is morn+ ,i h s5t to ! press a /atem5t :i* conta9s ! sub/ance ( :at ,i said at ! meet+ la/ ev5+4 ,= ! sake ( ^? :o h n read x be=e1 x is giv5 "h4 ,proposal = ! ,e/abli%m5t ( an ,orphan-,h\se 9 connexion ) ! ,scriptural ,k ,in/itution = ,home & ,abroad4 ,s9ce ! la/ ,report ( ! op]ations ( ! ,scriptural ,k ,in/itution = home & abroad 0 publi%$1 ! ,"l has s5t u1 9 answ] to pray]1 bro!r ,john ,c-r1 =m]ly a m9i/] ( ! e/abli%m5t1 z a city mission>y1 :o goes f h\se to h\se1 among ! poor ( ?is city1 to conv]se ) !m ab\t ! ?+s ( ,god1 to circulate ! ,scriptures among !m1 to get !m to come to ! adult s*ool1 if !y _c read1 & to advise !m to put _! *ildr5 to our s*ools1 provid$ !y g to no o!r4 ,x 0 p>ticul>ly graci\s ( ! ,"l to s5d ?is bro!r1 ne>ly five mon?s ago1 z my bro!r & fell[ lab\r]1 ,h5ry ,craik1 has be5 = ^! eight mon?s laid aside f ! m9i/ry ( ! ,^w on acc\nt ( bodily infirmity1 & has !re=e be5 unable to take an active "p 9 ?is ,in/itution4 ,?us ,i h n only f\nd great help1 b ,i h be5 greatly enc\rag$ to enl>ge ! field4 ,t to :i* my m9d has be5 p>ticul>ly direct$1 is1 to e/abli% an ,orphan-,h\se 9 :i* de/itute fa!rless & mo!rless *ildr5 may be provid$ ) food & raim5t1 & scriptural education4 ,conc]n+ ?is int5d$ ,orphan-,h\se ,i w\ld say #a4 ,x is int5d$ to be 9 connexion ) ! ,scriptural ,k ,in/itution = home & abroad1 9 s f> z x respects ! ,reports1 acc\nts1 sup]9t5d5ce1 & ! pr9ciples on :i* x is conduct$1 s t1 9 "o s5se1 x may be consid]$ z a new object ( ! ,in/itution1 yet ) ?is diff]5ce1 t only ^? funds %all be appli$ to ! ,orphan-,h\se :i* are expressly giv5 = x4 ,if1 !re=e1 any believ] %\ld pref] to support ei!r ^? objects :i* h be5 hi!rto assi/$ by ! funds ( ?is ,in/itution1 or ! int5d$ ,orphan-,h\se1 x ne$ only be m5tion$1 9 ord] t ! money may be appli$ accord+ly4 #b4 ,x w only be e/abli%$ if ! ,"l %\ld provide bo? ! means = x1 & suitable p]sons to conduct x4 ,z to ! means1 ,i w\ld make ! foll[+ rem>ks4 ,! reason = propos+ to enl>ge ! field1 is n because we h ( late p>ticul>ly ab\nd$ 9 means2 = we h be5 r /rait5$4 ,! _m graci\s answ]s1 h[ev]1 :i* ! ,"l _h giv5 u conc]n+ ?is ,in/itution1 l$ bro!r ,c-r & me to give ourselves to pray]1 ask+ him to supply u ) ! means to c>ry on ! "w1 z we consid] x unscriptural to contract debts4 ,dur+ five days1 we pray$ sev]al times1 bo? unit$ly & sep>ately4 ,aft] t "t1 ! ,"l began to answ] our pray]s1 s t1 )9 a few days1 ab\t #ejl4 0 giv5 to u4 ,i w\ld fur!r say1 t ! v graci\s & t5d] deal+s ( ,god ) me1 9 hav+ suppli$1 9 answ] to pray]1 = ! la/ five ye>s1 my own temporal wants )\t any c]ta9 income1 s t money1 provisions & clo!s h be5 s5t to me at times :5 ,i 0 greatly /rait5$1 & t n only 9 small b l>ge quantities2 & n m]ely f individuals liv+ 9 ! same place ) me1 b at a consid]able di/ance2 & t n m]ely f intimate fri5ds1 b f individuals :om ,i h nev] se53 all ?is1 ,i say1 has (t5 l$ me to ?9k1 ev5 z long z f\r ye>s ago1 t ! ,"l _h n giv5 me ?is simple reliance on ,him m]ely = myself2 b also = o!rs4 ,(t51 :5 ,i saw poor neglect$ *ildr5 runn+ ab\t ! /reets at ,teignm\?1 ,i said to myself3 ,may x n be ! w ( ,god1 t ,i %\ld e/abli% s*ools = ^! *ildr51 ask+ ,him to give me ! means8 ,h[ev]1 x rema9$ only a ?\ght 9 my m9d = two or ?ree ye>s4 ,ab\t two ye>s & six mon?s s9ce ,i 0 p>ticul>ly /irr$ up afre% to d some?+ = de/itute *ildr51 by see+ s _m ( !m begg+ 9 ! /reets ( ,bri/ol1 & com+ to our door4 ,x 0 n1 !n1 left undone on acc\nt ( want ( tru/ 9 ! ,"l1 b ?r\gh an abundance ( o!r ?+s call+ = all ! "t & /r5g? ( my bro!r ,craik & myself2 = ! ,"l _h bo? giv5 fai?1 & _h also %[n by ! foll[+ in/ance1 9 addition to v _m o!rs1 bo? :at ,he c & :at ,he w d4 ,"o morn+1 :il/ sitt+ 9 my room1 ,i ?\ght ab\t ! di/ress ( c]ta9 bre?r51 & said ?us to myself3--,o t x might please ! ,"l to give me ! means to help ^! poor bre?r56 ,ab\t an h\r aft]w>ds ,i _h #fjl4 s5t z a pres5t = myself1 f a bro!r1 :om up to ?is day ,i h nev] se51 & :o 0 !n1 & is /ill1 resid+ sev]al ?\s& miles f ?is4 ,%\ld n su* an exp]i5ce1 toge!r ) promises l t "o 9 ,john xiv4 #ac1 #ad1 enc\rage u to ask ) all boldness1 = ourselves & o!rs1 bo? temporal & spiritual bless+s8 ,! ,"l1 = ,i _c b ?9k x 0 ,he1 aga9 & aga91 br\ght ! ?\ght ab\t ^! poor *ildr5 to my m9d1 till at la/ x end$ 9 ! e/abli%m5t ( ,! ,scriptural ,k ,in/itution1 = ,home & ,abroad2 s9ce ! e/abli%m5t ( :i*1 ,i h _h x 9 a simil> way br\ght to my m9d1 fir/ ab\t f\rte5 mon?s ago1 & repeat$ly s9ce1 b especially dur+ ^! la/ weeks1 to e/abli% an ,orphan-,h\se4 ,my frequ5t pray] ( late has be51 t if x be ( ,god1 ,he w\ld let x come to pass2 if n1 t ,he w\ld take f me all ?\ghts ab\t x4 ,! latt] has n be5 ! case1 b ,i h be5 l$ m & m to ?9k t ! matt] may be ( ,him4 ,n[1 if s1 ,he c influ5ce ,8 p 9 any "p ( ! _w1 7= ,i d n look to ,bri/ol1 nor ev5 to ,engl&1 b to ! liv+ ,god1 ^: is ! gold & ! silv]17 to intru/ me & bro!r ,c-r1 :om ! ,"l has made will+ to help me 9 ?is "w1 ) ! means4 ,till we h !m1 we c d no?+ 9 ! way ( r5t+ a h\se1 furni%+ x1 c4 ,yet1 :5 once z mu* z is ne$$ = ?is has be5 s5t u1 z also prop] p]sons to engage 9 ! "w1 we d n ?9k x ne$ful to wait till we h ! ,orphan-,h\se end[$1 or a numb] ( ye>ly subscrib]s = x2 b we tru/ to be enabl$ by ! ,"l1 :o has taught u to ask = our daily bread1 to look to ,him = ! supply ( ! daily wants ( ^? *ildr5 :om ,he may be pleas$ to put "u our c>e4 ,any donations w be receiv$ at my h\se4 ,%\ld any believ]s h tables1 *airs1 b$/eads1 b$d+1 e>!nw>e1 or any k9d ( h\sehold furniture to sp>e1 = ! furni%+ ( ! h\se2 or remnants or pieces ( calico1 l951 flannel1 clo?1 or any mat]ials useful = we>+ app>el2 or clo!s already worn2 !y w be ?ankfully receiv$4 ,respect+ ! p]sons :o are ne$$ = c>ry+ on ! "w1 a matt] ( no less importance ?an ! procur+ ( funds1 ,i w\ld obs]ve1 t we look = !m to ,god ,himself1 z well z = ! funds2 & t all :o may be engag$ z ma/]s1 matrons1 & assi/ants1 accord+ to ! smallness or l>g5ess ( ! ,in/itution1 mu/ be kn[n to u z true believ]s2 & moreov]1 z f> z we may be able to judge1 mu/ likewise be qualifi$ = ! "w4 #c4 ,at pres5t no?+ c be said z to ! "t :5 ! op]ations are likely to comm5ce2 nor :e!r ! ,in/itution w embrace *ildr5 ( bo? sexes1 or be re/rict$ ei!r to boys or girls exclusively2 nor ( :at age !y w be receiv$1 & h[ long !y may cont9ue 9 x2 = ?\gh we h ?\ght ab\t ^! ?+s1 yet we w\ld r be guid$ 9 ^! p>ticul>s by ! am\nt ( ! means :i* ! ,"l may put into our h&s1 & by ! numb] ( ! individuals :om he may provide = conduct+ ! ,in/itution4 ,%\ld ! ,"l condesc5d to use u z in/rum5ts1 a %ort pr9t$ /atem5t w be issu$ z soon z some?+ m def9ite c be said4 #d4 ,x has appe>$ well to u to receive only su* de/itute *ildr5 z h be5 b]eav$ ( bo? p>5ts4 #e4 ,! *ildr5 are int5d$1 if girls1 to be br\ght up = s]vice2 if boys1 = a trade2 & !re=e !y w be employ$1 accord+ to _! ability & bodily /r5g?1 9 useful occupations1 & ?us help to ma9ta9 !mselves2 besides ?is !y are int5d$ to receive a pla9 education2 b ! *ief & especial end ( ! ,in/itution w be to seek1 ) ,god's bless+1 to br+ !m to ! k ( ,jesus ,*ri/1 by in/ruct+ !m 9 ! ,scriptures4 ,,george ,,mull]4 ,bri/ol1 ,dec4 #aj?1 #ahce4 ,decemb] #aa4 ,i h be5 enabl$ to pray all ?is week ) increas$ confid5ce conc]n+ ! ,orphan-,h\se1 z x reg>ds means1 a h\se1 suitable individuals to take c>e ( ! *ildr51 furniture1 c4 ,decemb] #af4 ,bro!r ,c-n1 :om ! ,"l has k9dly all[$ to /ay above two mon?s among u1 to supply bro!r ,craik's lack ( s]vice1 left u today4 ,h[ v graci\s has ! ,"l be5 to u 9 ?is affliction6 ,_m bre?r5 h be5 s5t to u z help]s = a little :ile--bro!r ,c-t = ! great] "p ( ! "t1 & bro!r ,c-n = m ?an two mon?s4 ,&1 9 addition to ?is1 :5 bro!r ,craik & ,i 7 bo? ill1 ! bre?r5 7 kept 9 peace1 & !re 0 a _s ( pray] among !m4 ,decemb] #ca4 ,?is ev5+ we _h an especial meet+ = pray] & praise4 ,we cont9u$ toge!r f sev5 till aft] twelve4 ,!re h be5 receiv$ into ! *ur* at ,gideon dur+ ! pa/ ye>--#bi ,ditto1 ,be!sda--#cj ,altoge!r--#ei ,( ^! #ei1 #cj h be5 br\ght to ! k ( ! ,"l ?r\gh ! in/rum5tality ( bro!r ,craik & me4 ,!re are n[1 ( ^? :o h be5 begott5 aga9 ?r\gh u1 s9ce we h be5 9 ,bri/ol1 at ,gideon #fc1 & at ,be!sda #ga--;altoge!r #acd4 ,besides ?is1 sev]al h fall5 asleep 9 ! fai?1 :o nev] 7 9 communion ) u1 & sev]al ( our spiritual *ildr5 h jo9$ o!r *ur*es1 9 & out ( ,bri/ol1 & _m are n[ /&+ z hopeful *>act]s on ! li/ ( c&idates = communion4 ,!re h be5 add$ to ! *ur* at ,gideon1 s9ce we came1 #abe2 to ,be!sda1 #afc--;altoge!r #bhh2 s t ! numb] ( bo? *ur*es w\ld h be5 #cef 7#fh believ]s we f\nd at ,gideon71 _h !re be5 no *anges2 b ,( ,gideon are at pres5t "u *ur* discipl9e #f1 ( ,be!sda1 #g1 altoge!r1 #ac ,d4 h fall5 asleep #ab d4 #e d4 #ag ,d4 h left ,bri/ol #aj d4 #d d4 #ad ,d4 h left u1 b are /ill 9 ,bri/ol #aa d4 #d d4 #ae #ci #bj #ei ,s t !re are at pres5t 9 communion ) u #big3--adc at ,be!sda1 & #aed at ,gideon4 ,z x reg>ds ! way 9 :i* ! ,"l1 9 ,8 fai?ful love1 suppli$ my temporal wants1 dur+ ! pa/ ye>1 ,i m5tion t ,i receiv$-- #a4 ,9 free-w (f]+s1 giv5 ?r\gh ! boxes1 z my "p ,l#acj #cs4 #g #a_/d;d4 #b4 ,9 free-w (f]+s giv5 by believ]s 9 & out ( ,bri/ol1 n ?r\gh ! boxes ,l#abj #gs4 #f;d4 #c4 ,t[>ds ! h\se r5t ,i receiv$ f bro!r ,craik1 9 consid]ation t he has no r5t to pay1 = n9e mon?s ,l#g #ajs4 #j;d4 #d4 ,! pres5ts s5t to u 9 clo!s & provisions1 c41 7 wor? to u at lea/ ,l#bg #js4 #j;d4 ,altoge!r ,l#bhe #as4 #a #a_/d;d4 ,janu>y #c1 #ahcf4 ,?is morn+ bro!r ,craik spoke a little 9 public = ! fir/ "t aft] ab\t n9e mon?s4 ,janu>y #f4 ,today we _h ?ree especial pray] meet+s1 = ! full re/oration ( bro!r ,craik's voice4 ,we _h also1 on ,janu>y #g1 #h1 #i1 & #aj1 especial pray] meet+s = bro!r ,craik's full re/oration4 ,janu>y #af4 ,today ,i put into ! press ano!r /atem5t1 conta9+ a fur!r acc\nt respect+ ! ,orphan-,h\se4 ,x is "h repr9t$4 ,fur!r acc\nt respect+ ! ,orphan-,h\se1 int5d$ to be e/abli%$ 9 ,bri/ol1 9 connection ) ! ,scriptural ,k ,in/itution = ,home & ,abroad4 ,:51 ( late1 ! ?\ghts ( e/abli%+ an ,orphan-,h\se1 9 dep5d5ce ^u ! ,"l1 reviv$ 9 my m9d1 dur+ ! fir/ two weeks ,i only pray$1 t1 if x 7 ( ! ,"l1 ,he w\ld br+ x ab\t2 b1 if n1 t ,he graci\sly w\ld be pleas$ to take all ?\ghts ab\t x out ( my m9d4 ,my unc]ta9ty ab\t kn[+ ! ,"l's m9d did n arise f que/ion+ :e!r x w\ld be pleas+ 9 ,8 sight1 t !re %\ld be an abode & scriptural education provid$ = de/itute fa!rless & mo!rless *ildr52 b :e!r x 7 ,8 w t ,i %\ld be ! in/rum5t ( sett+ su* an object on foot1 z my h&s 7 already m ?an fill$4 ,my com=t1 h[ev]1 01 t1 if x 7 ,8 w1 ,he w\ld provide n m]ely ! means1 b also suitable individuals to take c>e ( ! *ildr51 s t my "p ( ! "w w\ld take only su* a portion ( my "t1 z1 consid]+ ! importance ( ! matt]1 ,i might give1 not)/&+ my _m o!r engagem5ts4 ,! :ole ( ^? two weeks ,i nev] ask$ ! ,"l = money1 or = p]sons to engage 9 ! "w4 ,on ,decemb] #e?1 h[ev]1 ! subject ( my pray] all at once became diff]5t4 ,i 0 read+ ,psalm lxxxi1 & 0 p>ticul>ly /ruck1 m ?an at any "t be=e1 ) v]4 #aj3 ,op5 ?y m\? wide1 & ,i w fill x4 ,i ?\ght a few mom5ts ab\t ^! words1 & !n 0 l$ to apply !m to ! case ( ! ,orphan-h\se4 ,x /ruck me t ,i _h nev] ask$ ! ,"l = any ?+ conc]n+ x1 except to "k ,8 w respect+ its be+ e/abli%$ or n2 & ,i !n fell on my knees1 & op5$ my m\? wide1 ask+ ,him = mu*4 ,i ask$ 9 submission to ,8 w1 & )\t fix+ a "t :5 ,he %\ld answ] my petition4 ,i pray$ t ,he w\ld give me a h\se1 i4e4 ei!r z a loan1 or t "s "o might be l$ to pay ! r5t = "o1 or t "o might be giv5 p]man5tly = ?is object2 fur!r1 ,i ask$ ,him = ,l#ajjj2 & likewise = suitable individuals to take c>e ( ! *ildr54 ,besides ?is1 ,i h be5 s9ce l$ to ask ! ,"l1 to put into ! he>ts ( ,8 p to s5d me articles ( furniture = ! h\se1 & "s clo!s = ! *ildr54 ,:5 ,i 0 ask+ ! petition1 ,i 0 fully aw>e :at ,i 0 do+1 i4e41 t ,i 0 ask+ = some?+ :i* ,i _h no natural prospect ( obta9+ f ! bre?r5 :om ,i "k1 b :i* 0 n too mu* = ! ,"l to grant4 ,z ,i h /at$1 t ,i desire to see cle>ly ! ,"l's w conc]n+ ! ,orphan-,h\se1 by ,8 provid+ bo? ! means & suitable individuals = x1 ,i w n[ m5tion h[ ,he has be5 deal+ ) me 9 ^! respects4 ,decemb] #g1 #ahce4--;,anonym\sly 0 giv5 #bs4 ,9 ! pap] 9 :i* !y 7 enclos$ 0 writt5 #as4 = ! ,orphan-,h\se1 & #as4 = ! ,scriptural ,k ,in/itution4 ,9 ! "n ( ! ,"l alone lift up y\r bann]s1 s %all y prosp]4 #as4 besides 0 giv54 ,decemb] #i4 ,i f\nd #cs4 9 ! box1 :i* ,i _h put up two days be=e 9 my room = ! ,orphan-,h\se1 & a l>ge w>drobe giv5 j be=e ! meet+ 9 ! ev5+1 :5 ,i /at$ publicly my desire conc]n+ ?is object be=e ! bre?r54 ,aft] ! meet+ #ajs4 0 giv54 ,also a si/] (f]$ h]self at ! same "t = ! "w4 ,decemb] #aj4 ,?is morn+ ,i receiv$ a lett]1 9 :i* a bro!r & si/] wrote ?us3--,we propose ourselves = ! s]vice ( ! int5d$ ,orphan-,h\se1 if y ?9k u qualifi$ = x2 also to give up all ! furniture1 c41 :i* ! ,"l has giv5 u1 = its use2 & to d ?is )\t receiv+ any sal>y :atev]2 believ+1 t if x be ! w ( ! ,"l to employ u1 ,he w supply all our ne$1 c4 ,9 ! ev5+ a bro!r br\ght f sev]al individuals ?ree di%es1 #bh plates1 ?ree bas9s1 "o jug1 f\r mugs1 ?ree salt /&s1 "o grat]1 f\r knives1 & five =ks4 ,decemb] #ab4 ,:ile ,i 0 pray+ ?is morn+ t ! ,"l w\ld give u a fre% tok5 ( ,8 fav\r conc]n+ ! ,orphan-,h\se1 a bro!r br\ght ?ree di%es1 #ab plates1 "o bas91 & "o blanket4 ,aft] ?is _h be5 giv51 ,i ?ank$ ,god1 & ask$ ,him to give ev5 ?is day ano!r enc\ragem5t4 ,%ortly aft]1 ,l#ej4 0 giv51 & t by an individual f :om1 = sev]al reasons1 ,i c\ld n h expect$ ?is sum4 ,?us ! h& ( ,god appe>$ s mu* ! m cle>ly4 ,ev5 !n ,i 0 l$ to pray1 t ?is day ! ,"l w\ld give /ill m4 ,9 ! ev5+1 accord+ly1 !re 7 s5t #bi y>ds ( pr9t4 ,also a si/] (f]$ h]self = ! "w4 ,dec4 #ac4 ,a bro!r 0 influ5c$ ?is day to give #ds4 p] week1 or #ajl4 #hs4 ye>ly1 z long z ! ,"l gives ! means2 #hs4 0 giv5 by him z two weeks' subscriptions4 ,today a bro!r & si/] (f]$ !mselves1 ) all _! furniture1 & all ! provisions :i* !y h 9 ! h\se1 if !y c be usefully employ$ 9 ! conc]ns ( ! ,orphan-,h\se4 ,decemb] #ad4 ,today a si/] (f]$ h] s]vices = ! "w4 ,9 ! ev5+ ano!r si/] (f]$ h]self = ! ,in/itution4 ,decemb] #ae4 ,a si/] br\ght f sev]al fri5ds1 t5 bas9s1 eight mugs1 "o plate1 five dess]t spoons1 six tea spoons1 "o skimm]1 "o toa/+ =k1 "o fl\r dr$ge1 ?ree knives & =ks1 "o %eet1 "o pill[ case1 "o table clo?2 also #al4 ,9 ! aft]noon 7 s5t #ee y>ds ( %eet+1 & #ab y>ds ( calico4 ,decemb] #af4 ,i took out ( ! box 9 my room #as4 ,decemb] #ag4 ,i 0 r ca/ d[n la/ ev5+ & ?is morn+ ab\t ! matt]1 que/ion+ :e!r ,i ought to be engag$ 9 ?is way1 & 0 l$ to ask ! ,"l to give me "s fur!r enc\ragem5t4 ,soon aft] 7 s5t by a bro!r two pieces ( pr9t1 ! "o sev5 & ! o!r #bc #c_/d y>ds1 #f #c_/d y>ds ( calico1 f\r pieces ( l9+1 ab\t f\r y>ds altoge!r1 a %eet1 & a y>d measure4 ,?is ev5+ ano!r bro!r br\ght a clo!s' horse1 ?ree frocks1 f\r p9a=es1 six h&k]*iefs1 ?ree c\nt]panes1 "o blanket1 two pewt] salt cell>s1 six t9 cups1 & six metal tea spoons2 he also br\ght #cs4 #f;d4 giv5 to him by ?ree diff]5t individuals4 ,at ! same "t he told me t x _h be5 put into ! he>t ( an individual to s5d tomorr[ #ajjl4 ,decemb] #ah4 ,?is aft]noon ! same bro!r br\ght f a si/]1 a c\nt]pane1 a flat iron /&1 eight cups1 & sauc]s1 a sug> bas91 a milk jug1 a tea cup1 #af ?imbles1 five knives & =ks1 six dess]t spoons1 #ab tea spoons1 f\r combs1 & two little grat]s2 f ano!r fri5d a flat iron & a cup & sauc]4 ,at ! same "t he br\ght ! #ajjl4 above ref]r$ to4 ,s9ce ! publication ( ! second edition x has pleas$ ! ,"l to take to ,himself ! donor ( ?is #ajjl41 & ,i !re=e give 9 ?is pres5t edition "s fur!r acc\nt ( ! donation & ! donor1 z ! p>ticul>s respect+ bo?1 ) ,god's bless+1 may t5d to edification4 ,inde$ ,i confess t ,i am delight$ to be at lib]ty1 9 consequ5ce ( ! dea? ( ! donor1 to give ! foll[+ %ort n>rative1 :i*1 dur+ h] lifetime1 ,i %\ld n h consid]$ x wise to publi%4 ,a4 ,l41 ! donor1 0 kn[n to me almo/ f ! beg9n+ ( my com+ to ,bri/ol 9 #ahcb4 ,%e e>n$ h] bread by ne$lework1 by :i* %e ga9$ f #bs4 to #es4 p] week2 ! av]age1 ,i suppose1 0 n m ?an ab\t #cs4 #f;d41 z %e 0 weak 9 body4 ,b ?is de>1 humble si/] 0 cont5t ) h] small e>n+s1 & ,i d n rememb] ev] to h he>d h] utt] a ^w ( compla9t on acc\nt ( e>n+ s little4 ,"s "t1 be=e ,i _h be5 l$ to e/abli% an ,orphan-,h\se1 h] fa!r _h di$1 ?r\gh :i* ev5t %e _h come into ! possession ( #dhjl41 :i* sum _h be5 left to h] 7& ! same am\nt to h] bro!r & two si/]s7 by h] gr&mo!r1 b ( :i* h] fa!r _h _h ! int]e/ dur+ 8 lifetime4 ,! fa!r1 :o _h be5 mu* giv5 to dr9k+1 di$ 9 debt1 :i* debts ! *ildr5 wi%$ to pay2 b ! re/1 besides ,a4 ,l41 did n l to pay ! full am\nt1 & (f]$ to ! cr$itors #es4 9 ! p\nd1 :i* !y gladly accept$1 z !y _h n ! lea/ legal claim ^u ! *ildr54 ,aft] ! debts _h be5 paid accord+ to ?is agreem5t1 ,a4 ,l4 said to h]self2 ,h[ev] s9ful my fa!r may h be51 yet he 0 my fa!r1 & z ,i h ! means ( pay+ 8 debts to ! full am\nt1 ,i ought1 z a believ+ *ild1 to d s1 see+ t my bro!rs & si/]s w n d x4 ,%e !n w5t to all ! cr$itors secretly1 & paid ! full am\nt ( ! debts1 :i* took #djl4 m ( h] money1 besides h] %>e :i* %e _h giv5 be=e4 ,h] bro!r & two si/]s n[ gave #ejl4 ea* ( _! prop]ty to _! "m2 b ,a4 ,l4 said to h]self3 ,i am a *ild ( ,god1 surely ,i ought to give my "m twice z mu* z my bro!r & si/]s4 ,%e1 !re=e1 gave h] "m #ajjl4 ,%ortly aft] ?is %e s5t me ! #ajjl4 t[>ds ! ,orphan-,h\se4 ,i 0 n a little surpris$ :5 ,i receiv$ ?is money f h]1 = ,i _h always kn[n h] z a poor girl1 & ,i _h nev] he>d any ?+ ab\t h] hav+ come into ! possession ( ?is money1 & h] dress _h nev] giv5 me ! lea/ indication ( an alt]ation 9 h] circum/ances4 ,be=e1 h[ev]1 accept+ ?is money f h]1 ,i _h a long conv]sation ) h]1 9 :i* ,i s\ght to probe h] z to h] motives1 & 9 :i* ,i s\ght to asc]ta9 :e!r1 z ,i _h fe>$1 %e might h giv5 ?is money 9 ! feel+ ( ! mom5t1 )\t hav+ c\nt$ ! co/4 ,i 0 ! m p>ticul>1 because1 if ! money 7 giv51 )\t its be+ giv5 f ,scriptural motives1 & !re %\ld be regret aft]w>ds1 ! "n ( ! ,"l w\ld be di%on\r$4 ,b ,i _h n conv]s$ long ) ?is belov$ si/]1 be=e ,i f\nd t %e 01 9 ?is p>ticul>1 a quiet1 calm1 consid]ate foll[] ( ! ,"l ,jesus1 & "o :o desir$1 9 spite ( :at human reason might say1 to act accord+ to ! words ( our ,"l3 ,lay n up = y\rselves treasures ^u e>?4 ,mat!w vi4 #ai4 ,sell t ye h1 & give alms4 ,luke xii4 #cc4 ,:5 ,i remon/rat$ ) h]1 9 ord] t ,i might see1 :e!r %e _h c\nt$ ! co/1 %e said to me3 ,! ,"l ,jesus has giv5 ,8 la/ drop ( blood = me1 & %\ld ,i n give ,him ?is #ajjl48 ,%e likewise said3 ,r ?an ! ,orphan-,h\se %\ld n be e/abli%$1 ,i w give all ! money ,i h4 ,:5 ,i saw t %e _h weigh$ ! matt] accord+ to ! ^w ( ,god1 & t %e _h c\nt$ ! co/1 ,i c\ld n b take ! money1 & admire ! way :i* ! ,"l took1 to use ?is poor1 sickly si/] z an in/rum5t1 9 s consid]able a measure1 = help+1 at its v comm5cem5t1 ?is "w1 :i* ,i _h set ab\t solely 9 dep5d5ce ^u ! liv+ ,god4 ,at t "t %e w\ld also h me take #el4 = ! poor sa9ts 9 communion ) u4 ,i m5tion "h p>ticul>ly1 t ?is de> si/] kept all ^! ?+s to h]self2 & did !m z mu* z possible 9 secret2 & dur+ h] life-"t1 ,i suppose1 n six bre?r5 & si/]s among u knew t %e _h ev] possess$ #dhjl41 or t %e _h giv5 #ajjl4 t[>ds ! ,orphan-,h\se4 ,b ?is is n all4 ,"s "t aft] ?is #ajjl4 _h be5 giv5 by h]1 bro!r ,c-r1 7:o 0 !n lab\r+ z a ,city ,mission>y 9 connexion ) ! ,scriptural ,k ,in/itution1 & :o ab\t t v "t happ5$ to visit f h\se to h\se 9 t "p ( ! city :]e ,a4 ,l4 liv$71 told me t he _h met ) _m cases1 9 :i* ,a4 ,l4 _h giv5 to "o poor woman a b$/ead1 to ano!r "s b$d+1 to ano!r "s clo!s1 to ano!r food2 & ?us in/ance ^u in/ance ( acts ( love1 on ! "p ( our de> si/] ,a4 ,l41 _h come be=e him4 ,i relate "o in/ance m4 ,augu/ #d1 #ahcf1 sev5 mon?s & a half aft] %e _h giv5 ! #ajjl41 %e came "o morn+ to me & said3 ,la/ ev5+ ,i felt myself p>ticul>ly /irr$ up to pray ab\t ! funds ( ! ,scriptural ,k ,in/itution2 b :il/ pray+ ,i ?\ght1 :at good is x = me to pray = means1 if ,i d n give1 :5 ,i h ! means1 & ,i h !re=e br\ght y ?is #el4 ,z ,i _h reason to believe t by ?is "t by f> ! great] "p ( h] money 0 gone1 ,i aga9 _h a good deal ( conv]sation ) h]1 to see :e!r %e really did c\nt ! co/1 & :e!r ?is donation also 0 giv5 unto ! ,"l1 or f mom5t>y excitem5t1 9 :i* case x 0 bett] n to give ! money4 ,h[ev]1 %e 0 at ?is "t also /eadfa/1 gr\nd$ ^u ! ^w ( ,god1 & evid5tly con/ra9$ by ! love ( ,*ri/2 & all ! effect my conv]sation _h ^u h] 01 t %e said3 ,y mu/ take five %ill+s 9 addition to ! #el41 z a pro( t ,i give ! #el4 *e]fully4 ,& ?us %e con/ra9$ me to take ! #el4 #es4 ,f\r ?+s are especially to be notic$ ab\t ?is belov$ si/]1 ) ref]5ce to all ?is p]iod ( h] e>?ly pilgrimage3 #a1 ,%e did all ^! ?+s 9 secret1 avoid+ to ! utmo/ all %[ ab\t !m1 & ?us prov$1 t %e did n desire ! praise ( man4 #b1 ,%e rema9$1 z be=e1 ( an humble & l[ly m9d1 & %e prov$ ?us1 t %e _h done :at %e did unto ! ,"l1 & n unto man4 #c1 ,h] dress rema9$1 dur+ all ! "t t %e _h ?is comp>ative abundance1 ! same z be=e4 ,x 0 clean1 yet z simple & inexp5sive z x 0 at ! "t :5 all h] income _h consi/$ ( #cs4 #f;d41 or at mo/ #es41 p] week4 ,!re 0 n ! lea/ diff]5ce z to h] lodg+1 dress1 mann] ( life1 etc4 ,%e rema9$ 9 e way ! poor h&-maid ( ! ,"l1 z to all outw>d appe>ance4 #d1 ,b t :i* is z lovely z ! re/1 %e cont9u$ work+ at h] ne$le all ?is "t4 ,%e e>n$ h] #bs4 #f;d41 or #cs41 or a little m1 a week1 by h] "w1 z be=e3 :il/ %e gave away ! money 9 ,sov]eigns or ,five ,p\nd ,notes4--,at la/ all h] money 0 gone1 & t "s ye>s be=e %e fell sleep1 & z h] bodily heal? nev] _h be5 good1 z long z ,i _h kn[n h]1 & 0 n[ mu* worse1 %e f\nd h]self peculi>ly dep5d5t ^u ! ,"l1 :o nev] =sook h] up to ! la/ mom5t ( h] e>?ly c\rse4 ,! v comm5cem5t ( h] life ( simple dep5d5ce ^u ! ,"l1 0 su* z greatly to enc\rage h]4 ,%e relat$ ! facts to me z ,i give !m "h4 ,:5 %e 0 completely )\t money1 & :5 h] little /ock ( tea & butt] 0 also gone1 two si/]s 9 ! ,"l call$ on h]4 ,aft] !y _h be5 a little :ile ) h]1 !y told h] t !y _h come to take tea ) h]4 ,%e said to h]self2 ,i %\ld n at all m9d to g )\t my tea1 b ?is is a great trial1 t ,i h no?+ to set be=e ^! si/]s2 & %e gave !m !re=e to und]/&1 t _! /ay+ to tea w\ld n be conv5i5t at t "t4 ,! si/]s1 h[ev]1 ,i suppose1 n und]/&+ ! h9t1 rema9$1 & pres5tly br\ght out ( a basket tea1 sug>1 butt] & bread1 & ?us !re 0 all t 0 requisite = ! tea1 & ! rema9d] ( ! provisions 0 left ) h]4 ,%e told me1 t at t "t %e 0 n accu/om$ to trials ( fai?1 z %e aft]w>ds 04 ,h] body became weak] & weak]1 9 consequ5ce ( :i* %e 0 able to "w v little1 = _m mon?s be=e %e di$2 b ! ,"l suppli$ h] ) all %e ne$$1 ?\gh %e nev] ask$ = any?+4 ,= in/ance1 a si/] 9 communion ) u s5t h] = _m mon?s all ! bread %e us$4--,h] m\? 0 full ( ?anksgiv+1 ev5 9 ! mid/ ( ! greate/ bodily suff]+s4 ,%e fell asleep 9 ,jesus 9 ,janu>y #ahdd4--;,i h relat$ ^! facts1 because !y t5d to ! praise ( ! ,"l1 & may be in/rum5tal 9 /irr+ up o!r *ildr5 ( ,god1 to foll[ ?is de> dep>t$ si/] 9 s f> z %e foll[$ ! ,"l ,jesus2 b19 p>ticul>1 t ,i may %[ 9 :at rem>kable ways ! ,"l prov$1 f ! v beg9n+1 t ! ,orphan-,h\se 0 ,8 & n m9e4 ,i n[ g on to n>rate fur!r h[ ! ,"l provid$ me ) means = x4 ,?is ev5+ a si/] s5t five small =ms4 ,decemb] #bj4 ,a si/] gave me #el4 ,decemb] #ba4 ,a fri5d s5t #al4 ,weekly subscription ( #ds4 ,decemb] #bb4 ,a si/] gave me #al4 & a fri5d s5t #bs4 #f;d4 ,decemb] #bc4 ,a bro!r gave ?is ev5+ a piece ( bl9d l9e & a doz5 ( bl9d tassels4 ,ab\t t5 9 ! ev5+1 a g5tleman br\ght me f an individual1 ^: "n he 0 n to m5tion1 #dl41 ( :i* ,i 0 all[$ to take #bl4 = ! ,orphan-,h\se1 & to give ! o!r #bl4 to poor believ]s4 ,decemb] #bh4 ,dur+ ! la/ f\r days ,i _h receiv$ no (f]+s1 & 0 r ca/ d[n ab\t x1 n kn[+ :y ! ,"l dealt ?us4 ,yet1 9 ! mid/ ( x1 ,i _h a hope1 t ,he 0 9 ! mean "t work+ = ! ,orphan-,h\se1 ?\gh no?+ _h be5 giv54 ,i 0 aga9 /irr$ up to pray1 t ! ,"l w\ld appe> today4 ,a little aft]1 ,i saw a bro!r :o told me1 t ev] s9ce he _h receiv$ ! pr9t$ proposal = ! e/abli%m5t ( an ,orphan-,h\se1 he _h consid]$ ! matt]1 & t he 0 will+ to give = ! use ( x c]ta9 premises1 :i* he built "s ye>s s9ce1 & :i* co/ him #b1fjjl41 provid$ !re c\ld be rais$ ab\t #ejjl41 to add to ! build+s :at may be ne$$1 to fit !m = ! purpose4 ,!re is a piece ( gr\nd belong+ to ! premises1 suffici5tly l>ge to build !reon :at may be requir$4 ,! build+s are v suitable = an ,orphan-,h\se1 conta9+ "s v l>ge rooms4 ,if1 !re=e1 ! ,"l %\ld put x into ! he>ts ( ,8 p1 :o h ! means1 to give ?is sum ( money1 ! premises w be giv54 ,! reason :y !y are (f]$ "u ! above-m5tion$ condition is1 t 9 ! /ate 9 :i* !y are n[1 on acc\nt ( ! peculi> purpose = :i* !y 7 built1 !y c\ld accommodate only ab\t #ae *ildr51 b1 by ! propos$ addition1 w\ld be l>ge en\gh = #ej or #fj4 ,= ! pres5t1 h[ev]1 ! premises are let1 & a notice ( six mon?s mu/ be giv54 ,if ?is matt] %\ld be br\ght ab\t by ! ,"l1 my pray] conc]n+ a h\se1 :i* has be5 repeat$ly br\ght be=e ,him s9ce ,decemb] #e?1 w h be5 answ]$4 ,yet ,i leave ! matt] 9 ! h&s ( ,him1 :o has ! p[] to give u a place1 ( :i* we may take imm$iate possession1 or :o c put x into ! he>ts ( ,8 *ildr5 to pay ! r5t = a h\se1 or to give u ! #ejjl4 necess>y to complete ! build+4--,weekly subscription ( #ds4 ,decemb] #bi4 ,a cl]gyman gave #ajs4 ,decemb] #cj4 ,a bro!r at ,sidm\? s5t #el4 ,janu>y #a1 #ahcf4 ,?r\gh a si/] 0 giv5 #fs41 be+ six diff]5t donations2 also f h]self #al4 z a donation1 besides #as4 z a mon?ly subscription4 ,also a lady s5t ?r\gh h] #al4 #as4 z a ye>ly subscription4 ,jan4 #b4 #d si/] s5t #el4 ,jan4 #c4 ,a g5tleman s5t #es1 ,jan4 #d4 ,weekly subscription ( #ds4 ,?r\gh a bro!r f two fri5ds1 #as4 ,! same bro!r br\ght also "o di%1 ?ree plates1 two bas9s1 two cups & sauc]s1 & two knives & =ks4 ,jan4 #e4 #ajs41 & #abs4 #i;d41 & #bl4 7 giv54 ,?is ev5+ "s "o rang our h\se bell4 ,:5 ! door 0 op5$1 no "o 0 !re1 b a kit*5 f5d] & a di% 7 f\nd at ! door1 :i*1 no d\bt1 7 giv5 = ! ,orphan-,h\se4 ,jan4 #g4 #ajs4 0 s5t4 ,jan4 #h4 #bl4 0 giv51 also #ajs4 ,a si/] (f]$ h]self = ! "w4 ,jan4 #i4 ,f ,e4 ,g4 #al4 #es41 & f a bro!r #f;d4 ,jan4 #aj4 #bs4 #f;d4 0 giv54 ,9 ! pap] 0 writt51 ,two wid[s mites = ! ,orphan-s*ool4 ,9 ! "n ( ! ,"l e/abli% x4 ,jan4 #aa4 ,weekly subscription #ds4 ,jan4 #ab4 #f;d41 #f;d41 #d;d41 #d;d41 & #a;d4 7 giv54 ,jan4 #ad4 ,an old great coat 0 giv52 #al4 by a bro!r4 ,a si/] 9 ,dubl9 (f]$ #bl4 #abs4 ye>ly4 ,!re 0 s5t a deal box1 a small look+-glass1 a c&le/ick1 a jug1 a bas91 two plates1 two knives & =ks1 & a t9 di%4 ,all ?is money1 & all ^! articles h be5 giv51 & all ^! above-m5tion$ (f]s h be5 made1 )\t my ask+ any individual = any?+2 moreov]1 almo/ all has be5 s5t f individuals conc]n+ :om ,i _h naturally no reason to expect any ?+1 & "s ( :om ,i nev] saw4 ,^u ! gr\nd ( ^! facts1 !re=e1 ,i am cle>ly p]suad$1 t x is ! w ( ! ,"l t ,i %\ld proce$ 9 ! "w1 & ,i %all !re=e n[ /ate some?+ m def9ite ?an ,i c\ld 9 ! =m] pap]4 #a4 ,if ! ,"l %\ld n provide previ\s to ! middle ( ,febru>y a h\se 9 ! way ( gift1 :i* 9 a few weeks may be occupi$ = an ,orphan-,h\se1 or put x into ! he>t ( "s "o :o loves ,him to pay ! r5t = "o1 or to l5d u "o = ?is purpose1 ,i int5d1 ,god will+1 to r5t c]ta9 suitable premises1 :i* are to be _h = ab\t #ejl4 ye>ly4 ,i purpose to take !m = a twelvemon?1 = t "t w\ld be requir$1 be=e ! build+ c\ld be f9i%$1 %\ld ! ,"l provide ! above-m5tion$ #ejjl4 #b4 ,x is int5d$1 ,god will+1 to op5 ! in/itution ab\t ,april #a4 #c4 ,x is purpos$ to conf9e ! ,orphan-h\se1 = ! pres5t1 to female *ildr54 ,my desire is to help bo? male & female orphans1 & t f _! e>lie/ y\?2 b hi!rto ! ,"l has po9t$ out only a small comm5cem5t4 ,%\ld x1 h[ev]1 please ,him to give me ! means1 & to increase my fai? & light1 ,i %all gladly s]ve ,him m ext5sively 9 ?is way4 ,x has appe>$ well to me to comm5ce ) female *ildr51 because !y are ! m helpless sex1 & !y ne$ m p>ticul>ly to be tak5 c>e (1 t !y may n fall a prey to vice4 ,! h\se :i* is to _h w accommodate ab\t #cj *ildr51 :i* numb] ,i int5d to receive at once1 %\ld ! ,"l give me ! means to clo! t numb]1 & to furni% ! h\se = s _m2 b1 if n1 ,i purpose1 at all ev5ts1 ! ,"l will+1 to comm5ce ! "w1 ?\gh ) a small] numb]4 #d4 ,x is int5d$ to receive ! *ildr5 f ! sev5? to ! twelf? ye>1 & to let !m /ay 9 ! h\se1 till !y are able to g to s]vice4 #e4 ,z ! *ildr5 w be br\ght up = s]vice1 !y w be employ$ 9 useful h\sehold "w4 ,,george ,m,ue,l,l,e,r4 ,bri/ol1 ,jan4 #af1 #ahcf4 ,jan4 #bd4 ,today bro!r ,craik prea*$ once = ! fir/ "t4 ,jan4 #cj4 ,today ,i w5t to meet two si/]s1 :o 7 expect$ f ,london4 ,i sat d[n 9 ! coa* (fice1 took out my ,bible1 & began to read2 & ?\gh 9 ! mid/ ( ! noise ( ! city1 ! ,"l mo/ especially refre%$ my s\l1 s mu* s1 t ,i rememb] sc>cely ev] to h _h m real communion ) ,him1 :i* la/$ = m ?an an h\r4 ,x 0 ! love ( ,*ri/ :i* l$ me !re4 ,i w\ld gladly h rema9$ at home1 to h _h "t = pray] & read+ ! ,^w1 especially z ,i _h to leave ! h\se e>ly 9 ! morn+4 ,yet ,i w5t = ! ,"l's sake1 & ,he gave me a bless+3 s t1 ?\gh ,i _h to wait m ?an two h\rs1 & aft] all ! si/]s did n arrive1 ,i 0 ri*ly repaid4 ,may ,i b leave myself m & m 9 ,8 h&s6 ,he ord]s all ?+s well6 ,febru>y #c4 ,i h be5 v weak = "s days4 ,?is ev5+ bro!r ,craik 0 able to prea* in/ead ( me1 = ! fir/ "t at ! week meet+s4 ,h[ good is ! ,"l 9 re/or+ him ?us f>6 ,feb4 #af4 ,today 0 a day ( ?anksgiv+ on acc\nt ( bro!r ,craik's re/oration4 ,we _h ?ree public meet+s4 ,feb4 #ag4 ,i _h be5 repeat$ly pray+ today f> a text1 b obta9$ none4 ,ab\t five m9utes be=e ! "t ( prea*+1 ,i 0 direct$ to ,rev4 ii4 #ai1 on :i* ,i prea*$ ) mu* assi/ance & enjoym5t to my own s\l1 )\t any previ\s prep>ation2 & ! ^w 0 felt by _m to be a ^w 9 season4 ,feb4 #bf4 ,?is ev5+ bo? *ur*es met at tea toge!r1 ) ! bre?r5 & si/]s :o int5d to leave u 9 a few days = mission>y "w4 ,feb4 #bi4 ,?is ev5+ we _h a meet+ on behalf ( ! mission>y bre?r5 & si/]s4 ,!y 7 by sev5 bre?r5 comm5d$ to ! ,"l 9 pray]4 ,m>* #a4 ,?is aft]noon bro!r & si/] ,groves1 & ! bre?r5 & si/]s go+ ) !m = mission>y purposes1 twelve 9 numb]1 left u = ! ,ea/ ,indies4 ,9 consequ5ce ( ! j\rney to ! ,cont95t1 at ! comm5cem5t ( la/ ye>1 f\r bre?r5 & two si/]s h gone out1 two bre?r5 9 ,octob] la/1 & two bre?r5 & two si/]s today4 ,?is ev5+ we _h aga9 a pray] meet+ = ! de> mission>y p>ty4 ,may ! ,"l soon give u ! privilege ( see+ "s "o ( our own numb] g =?4 ,april #ba4 ,?is day 0 set ap>t = pray] & ?anksgiv+ conc]n+ ! ,orphan-,h\se1 z x is n[ op5$4 ,9 ! morn+ sev]al bre?r5 pray$1 & bro!r ,craik spoke on ! la/ v]ses ( ,psalm xx4 ,9 ! aft]noon ,i address$ our ,day & ,sunday-,s*ool *ildr51 ! orphans & o!r *ildr5 pres5t4 ,9 ! ev5+ we _h ano!r pray]-meet+4 ,!re are n[ #ag *ildr5 9 ! ,orphan-,h\se4 ,may #c4 ,i h n[ be5 = _m days pray+ = ! supply ( our own temporal wants1 & = ! funds ( ! ,scriptural ,k ,in/itution2 b1 z yet1 ,i h _h n only no answ]s to my pray]1 b our income has be5 less ?an usual1 & we h _h also b v little com+ 9 = ! funds ( ! ,in/itution4 ,we h n be5 able to put by our taxes1 & expect !m daily to be call$ =4 ,my clo!s also are n[ worse ?an any ,i ev] wore1 & ,i h also b "o suit4 ,may #f4 ,i h n[ be5 = "s ye>s1 & especially ^! la/ few mon?s1 m or less ?9k+ & pray+ respect+ publi%+ a %ort acc\nt ( ! ,"l's deal+s ) me4 ,today ,i h at la/ settl$ to d s1 & h begun to write4 ,may #af4 ,= ^! sev]al weeks our income has be5 little2 & ?\gh ,i _h pray$ _m times t ! ,"l w\ld enable u to put by ! taxes1 yet ! pray] rema9$ unansw]$4 ,9 ! mid/ ( x all1 my com=t 0 t ! ,"l w\ld s5d help by ! "t x w\ld be ne$$4 ,"o ?+ p>ticul>ly has be5 a trial to u ( late1 f> m ?an our own temporal circum/ances1 :i* is1 t we h sc>cely 9 any measure be5 able to relieve ! di/ress among ! poor sa9ts4 ,today1 ! ,"l at la/1 aft] ,i _h _m times pray$ to ,him = ^! weeks pa/1 answ]$ my pray]s1 !re be+ #gl4 #abs4 #j #a_/d;d4 giv5 to me z my "p ( ! free-w (f]+s ?r\gh ! boxes1 two #el4 notes hav+ be5 put 9 ye/]day1 "o = bro!r ,craik & "o = me4 ,?us ! ,"l has aga9 deliv]$ u1 & answ]$ our pray]s1 & t n "o s+le h\r too late2 = ! taxes h n z yet be5 call$ =4 ,may ,he fill my he>t ) gratitude = ?is fre% deliv]ance1 & may ,he be pleas$ to enable me m & m to tru/ 9 ,him1 & to wait pati5tly = ,8 help6 ,may ,he also be pleas$ to tea* me m & m ! mean+ ( t ^w1 ) ref]5ce to my own circum/ances3--,m9e h\r is n yet came4 ,a ?ird /atem5t1 conta9+ ! ann\ncem5t ( ! op5+ ( ! ,orphan-,h\se = de/itute female *ildr51 & a proposal = ! e/abli%m5t ( an ,infant ,orphan-,h\se1 0 on ,may #ah?1 #ahcf1 s5t to ! press1 & is "h repr9t$4 ,op5+ ( ! ,orphan-,h\se = ,de/itute ,female ,*ildr51 e/abli%$ 9 ,bri/ol1 9 connexion ) ! ,scriptural ,k ,in/itution = ,home & ,abroad2 & ,proposal = ! ,e/abli%m5t ( an ,infant-,orphan-,h\se4 ,9 a previ\s pr9t$ acc\nt1 a /atem5t has be5 giv5 ( ! success ) :i* ! ,"l has be5 pleas$ to cr[n ! pray]s ( ,8 s]vant1 respect+ ! e/abli%m5t ( an ,orphan-,h\se 9 ?is city4 ,! subject ( my pray] 01 t ,he w\ld graci\sly provide a h\se1 ei!r z a loan1 or z a gift1 or t "s "o might be l$ to pay ! r5t = "o2 fur!r1 t ,he w\ld give me #ajjjl4 = ! object1 & likewise suitable individuals to take c>e ( ! *ildr54 ,a day or two aft]1 ,i 0 l$ to ask1 9 addition to ! above1 t he w\ld put x into ! he>ts ( ,8 p to s5d me articles ( furniture1 & "s clo!s = ! *ildr54 ,9 answ] to ^! petitions1 #ahdl4 #bs4 #f;d4 & _m articles ( furniture & clo?+ 7 s5t1 a conditional (f] ( a h\se1 z a gift1 0 made1 & individuals propos$ !mselves to take c>e ( ! *ildr51 ! p>ticul>s ( :i* h be5 giv5 9 ! /atem5t already ref]r$ to1 dat$ ,jan4 #af1 #ahcf4 ,i %all n[ proce$ to %[ h[1 s9ce t "t1 ! ,"l has cont9u$ to answ] my pray]s4 ,janu>y #af1 #ahcf1 !re 0 giv5 #f;d41 six y>ds ( calico1 ?ree plates1 a cup & sauc]1 & a jug4 ,janu>y #ah1 #ds4 ,jan4 #ai1 a saucepan & /eam]1 a t9 di%1 a teapot1 "s drugget2 also #d;d41 & #as4 ,jan4 #ba4 #al41 also #es4 ,jan4 #bb4 #bs4 #f;d4 ,jan4 #bc4 ,a bro!r gave #es41 ! fir/ fruits ( ! increase ( 8 sal>y4 ,jan4 #bd4 #es42 also #al41 & #al4 ,jan4 #be4 ,a bro!r promis$ to give #ejl4 )9 a twelvemon?1 ) ! p>ticul> object ( ?us secur+ ! paym5t ( ! r5t ( a h\se4 ,?us ! ,"l has answ]$ ! pray] respect+ ?is po9t4 ,!re 7 also giv5 #al41 #f;d4 & #ds4 ,jan4 #bg4 ,a =m 0 s5t4 ,jan4 #bh4 ,a deal table 0 giv51 also1 anonym\sly1 7 s5t a coal box & #ds41 also a b$/ead4 ,jan4 #bi4 ,two little wait]s1 two c&le/icks1 two *&eli]s1 two night %ades1 a t9 kettle1 a w>m]1 a bread basket1 a fire gu>d2 also "o doz5 t9 cups1 six plates1 & #as4 #f;d42 also #as41 a wat] jug1 six plates1 a sug> bas91 a teapot1 a tea cani/]1 & a knife4 ,jan4 #cj4 ,a fry+ pan1 a tea cani/]1 a metal teapot1 a t9 di%1 a pepp] box1 a fl\r scoop1 a skimm]1 a grat]1 two t9 saucepans1 a t9 w>m]1 #ee ?imbles1 five p>cels ( hooks & eyes2 also #al4 ,jan4 #ca4 #el4 #es42 an old :ite dress & a fur tippet4 ,febru>y #a4 #ds41 #bs4 #f;d41 also a si/] 9 ! ,"l (f]$ today to make ! bonnets = ! *ildr5 gratuit\sly1 if any "o w\ld buy ! /raw1 & t h] husb& w\ld make a b$/ead1 if any "o w\ld buy ! wood2 %e also m5tion$ t !y w\ld gladly give bo? ! /raw & ! wood1 if !y _h ! means4 ,feb4 #b4 #f;d41 #b;d & out ( ! box 9 my room 0 tak5 #cs4 ,feb4 #d4 #bs4 #f;d41#f;d42 also a desk & a kit*5 table2 !re 0 also promis$ a subscription ( #hs4 annually4 ,feb4 #e4 #as4 #f;d4 ,feb4 #f4 ,a bro!r s5t #ajjl41 be+ induc$ to d s an hav+ _h ! =m] pap] read to him4 ,feb4 #g4 #al4 #bs41 #as41 #f;d41 #bs4 #f;d41 #es41 #bs4 #f;d41 #es41 #bs4 #f;d41 #cl4 #ajs4 ,feb4 #h4 ,a table & two *airs1 #ds41 #el41 also #cjl4 0 s5t f ,irel&2 #ajs41 #ajs41 #al4 ,feb4 #i4 #al41 #ds4 #a;d41 #ajs41 #as4 #a;d41 #as4 #a;d41 #as41 #as41 #as41 #as41 #a;d41 #es41 #bs4 #f;d41 #bs4 #f;d41 #bs4 #f;d41 #bs4 #f;d41 #bs4 #f;d41 #f;d41 #f;d41 #f;d41 #d;d41 #d;d41 #a;d41 #as4 ,feb4 #aa4 ,?ree y>ds ( pr9t1 #bs4 #f;d41 #es42 #es41 #ajs4 ,feb4 #ab4 ,a clo!s' horse1 a c(fee pot1 & #as42 also a wa%+ tub1 a c(fee mill1 a pepp] mill1 two doz5 piec$ ( bobb91 ?ree doz5 /ay laces1 two doz5 ?imbles1 two doz5 bodk9s1 #cjj ne$les1 a gridiron1 six pots ( black+ pa/e1 a p\nd ( ?read1 & a l>ge deal table4 ,feb4 #ad4 #ajs41 #al41 put anonym\sly into ,be!sda boxes1 = ! ,orphan-,h\se4 ,feb4 #ae4 ,two glass salt cell>s1 a mu/>d pot1 a v9eg> cruet1 & a pepp] box1 also #ds41 #d;d41 #d;d41 #d;d41 #d;d41 #bs4 #f;d4 ,feb4 #af4 #d;d4 #as41 #d;d41 ,feb4 #ag4 #es4 ,feb4 #ah4 ,a b$/ead1 & by two poor p]sons1 #b;d4 ,feb4 #ai4 ,!re 7 s5t f ,london #cd y>ds ( pr9t1 six y>ds ( calico1 "o doz5 pocket h&k]*iefs1 f\r pairs ( /ock+s1 & two ,new ,te/am5ts4 ,feb4 #bj4 ,two salt cell>s1 two mugs1 two plates1 also two pocket h&k]*iefs4 ,feb4 #ba4 #al4 ,feb4 #bb4 #ds41 #as4 ,feb4 #bc4 ,twelve y>ds ( g+ham f two ,swiss si/]s4 ,feb4 #be4 #bs4 #f;d41 #bs4 #f;d4 ,feb4 #bh4 #al4 ,feb4 #bi4 #al41 #es41 #ds4 ,m>* #b4 #al41 #as41 #as4 #f;d41 #as41 #as41 #as41 #a_/b;d41 #bs41 #as41 #as41 #bs4 #f;d42 also out ( ! box 9 my room1 #al4 #bs4 #f;d42 two l>ge iron pots 7 s5t anonym\sly4 ,m>* #d4 #ajl41 #ajs41 #cs41 #g;d41 #ajs41 #bs4 #f;d41 #ajs41 #ajs41 #cs42 all ^! (f]+s 7 s5t f ,clapham2 also a desk4 ,m>* #e4 ,"s fancy wor/$ & #as41 ! produce ( ! sale ( "s old map roll]s4 ,m>* #g4 #ds41 #ajs41 #es41 #es41 #bs4 #f;d41 #bs4 #f;d41 #bs41 #bs4 #f;d41 #es42 all ^! (f]+s 7 s5t f ,cleve1 also #es42 also1 f a di/ance ( ab\t #ajj miles1 0 s5t ! valuable & useful pres5t ( five pewt] di%es1 ?ree doz5 pewt] plates1 ?ree doz5 metal spoons1 two coral necklaces1 a pair ( coral e>r+s1 & a l>ge gold broo*--! tr9kets to be sold = ! b5efit ( ! ,orphan-,h\se4 ,also f ! same place 0 s5t #ajs4 :i* _h be5 laid up = a "t ( ne$1 b :i* 7 s5t because ! donor ?\ght t ! "t ( tru/ 9 ! ,"l 9 ,bri/ol 0 h] "t ( ne$ to give4 ,m>* #aj4 #hs41 #as4 #f;d41 #bs4 #f;d41 #f;d41 #f;d41 #f;d41 #a;d41 #d;d41 #d;d41 #d;d41 #es41 #bs4 ,m>* #aa4 #al41 #es4 ,m>* #ac4 ,a little girl s5t1 f a di/ance ( m ?an #bjj miles1 #bs4 #f;d4 ,m>* #ad4 ,a bro!r at ,plym\? promis$ to s5d #bjl41 also #ds4 7 giv54 ,m>* #ae4 #g;d41 #ajs41 #f;d41 #as41 #as41 #a;d41 #f;d4 ,m>* #af4 #as42 anonym\sly 0 s5t f ,london #al41 also #bs4 #f;d4 ,m>* #ah4 #aj s4 ,m>* #ai4 #cs41 #as41 #d;d41 #d;d41 #d;d41 #d;d4 ,m>* #ba4 #ds4 ,m>* #bb4 #al4 ,m>* #bc4 ,a l>ge deal box1 also anonym\sly six di%es4 ,m>* #bd4 #es4 ,m>* #be4 ,a ton ( coals4 ,m>* #bg4 #al41 #al41 #al41 #ajs42 ^! (f]+s 7 s5t f ,tr[bridge1 also #ajs4 ,f ! ,isle ( ,wight1 #bl41 #bl41 #al41 #ajs41 a l>ge piece ( gre5 baize1 & two metal spoons4 ,m>* #bh4 #al41 #ds41 #c;d41 #ca41 #aj s41 #fs41 #aj s41 #bs4 #f;d41 #es41 #es41 also an iron kettle & "s drugget4 ,m>* #bi4 #as4 #c;d41 #as4 #c;d41 #as41 #as4 #f;d4 ,m>* #ca4 #bs4 ,april #b4 #as41 #bs4 #f;d41 #f;d41 #f;d41 also six blankets1 two c\nt]panes1 f\r %eets1 eight bonnets1 five frocks1 six p9a=es1 ) ! promise to s5d also six *emises 7s5t s9ce74 ,april #d4 #ds41 #as41 #as41 #h;d41 #as41 #a;d41 #as41 #c;d41 #fs41 #bs4 #f;d41 #al41 #al41 #cs41 also #ad tippets1 ?ree p9a=es1 "o frock1 ?ree *emises 7two m promis$71 six flannel petticoats2 also six /uff petticoats2 also six flannel petticoats 7& six *emises promis$71 also a %eet4 ,april #e4 #bl41 #gs41 #f;d41 #f;d41 #d;d41 #d;d41 #a;d41 #d;d41 #f;d4 ,april #f4 ,"o doz5 ( wa%+ bas9s & "o jug4 ,april #g4 #bs4 #b;d41 #cs41 #as41 #bs4 #b;d41 #as4 #a;d4 ,april #h4 #ajs41 #ajs41 #f;d41 #as41 #bs41 also a b5*4 ,april #i4 #d;d41 #d;d41 #d;d41 #d;d41 #bs41 also ?ree knives & =ks1 also "s m>k+ ink4 ,april #aj4 ,two pat5t locks4 ,april #aa4 #ds4 ,april #ab4 #as41 #h;d41 #bs41 a jug1 also twelve bonnets & six tippets4 ,april #ac4 ,a set ( fire irons1 a tea kettle1 a coal box1 a t9 saucepan1 a tripod1 a tea pot1 ?ree cups & sauc]s1 a wa%-h& bas91 ?ree small bas9s1 & two plates4 ,april #ae4 #ajs41 #ajs4 ,april #af4 #el41 also #al4 & #bb ,hymn ,books4 ,also anonym\sly 7 s5t two doz5 pocket h&k]*iefs1 also a hymn1 ,! ,orphan's ,hope1 9 a frame4 ,april #ag4 ,a cask1 also a hundr$ weight ( treacle1 & #cf p\nds ( moi/ sug>4 ,april #ah1 #ds4 ,april #ai4 #bs4 #f;d41 #as4 ,april #bj4 ,a new b$/ead4 ,f ,clapham 7 s5t #bal4 & #aal41 likewise ?ree flannel petticoats1 "s pr9t1 six frocks1 f\r p9a=es1 sev5 tippets1 #ab caps1 #ad *emises1 #bd furni%$ "w bags1 #ab pocket h&k]*iefs1 #af pairs ( /ock+s1 "o pair ( sleeves2 besides ?is1 ) an orphan *ild1 0 s5t f ,clapham1 a complete new outfit4 ,april #ba4 #bl41 #bs41 #as41 #f;d41 #f;d41 #f;d41 #es41 #bs41 also two c&le/icks1 a pepp] box1 & a h&k]*ief4 ,april #bb4 #as41 #ajs41 #bs4 #f;d41 #bs4 #b #c_/d;d41 also a long h&l$ bru% & #f;d41 also an iron+ blanket1 & #cb y>ds ( flannel4 ,april #bc4 #bl41 #es41 #ajs41 a *eese1 & #ah p\nds ( beef4 ,april #be4 #as4 & eight plates4 ,april #bf4 #f;d41 #f;d41 #es4 ,april #bg4 #aj;d4 ,april #bh4 #as41 also two tons ( coal1 also two pat*-"w quilts1 #ae "w bags & p9-cu%ions1 #ab ne$le cases1 ?ree little bags1 "o tippet1 two pairs ( /ock+s1 "o kettle hold]1 also six pairs ( wor/$ /ock+s4 ,may #b4 #hs41 #al41 #aj s4 ,may #c4 #h;d41 #bs4 #f;d41 & a pair ( %oes4 ,may #d4 ,a g5tleman & lady1 :o saw ! ,in/itution1 left six *emises1 sev5 pocket h&k]*iefs1 two flannel petticoats1 f\r pairs ( /ock+s1 & f\r pairs ( gloves2 !re 7 also s5t #ah ?imbles1 a gross ( buttons1 a gross ( hooks & eyes4 ,may #e4 #bs4 #f;d41 #as4 ,may #f4 #ae pairs ( wor/$ /ock+s4 ,may #g4 #es41 #bs4 #f;d4 ,may #h4 #es41 #f;d41 #bs4 #f;d4 ,may #i4 #ds41 #ajs41 #f;d41 #d;d41 #d;d41 #d;d4 ,may #aj4 #f;d41 #d;d41 #f;d41 #f;d41 #d;d41 #a;d41 #d;d41 #bs4 ,may #aa4 #al41 #bs4 #f;d41 #as4 ,may #ac4 ,a bonnet1 also a di%1 s5t by a poor p]son 9 an alm%\se2 a well-wi%] s5t1 = little orphan boys1 six frock p9a=es1 six little %irts1 six frocks & tr\s]s4 ,may #ad4 #i p\nds ( soap4 ,may #ae4 ,s4 ,s4 #bs4 #f;d4 ,may #af4 #ds4 ,may #ag4 ,out ( ! box 9 ! ,orphan-,h\se1 #cs4 #j #a_/b;d41 also #as4 #a4 ,x may be well to /ate1 t ! above results h foll[$ 9 answ] to pray]1 )\t any "o hav+ be5 ask$ by me = "o s+le ?+1 f :i* ,i h refra9$1 n on acc\nt ( want ( confid5ce 9 ! bre?r51 or because ,i d\bt$ _! love to ! ,"l1 b t ,i might see ! h& ( ,god s mu* ! m cle>ly4 ,= z ! "w has be5 begun )\t any visible support1 9 dep5d5ce only ^u ! liv+ ,god1 x 0 ( ! utmo/ importance to be sure ( ,8 approbation at ! v comm5cem5t4 #b4 ,f ?is /atem5t1 & f t conta9$ 9 ! la/ pr9t$ acc\nt1 x w be se5 h[ ! ,"l1 9 a great measure1 has already answ]$ ! petition ( ,decemb] #e1 #ahce2 = a h\se has be5 giv51 suitable individuals h (f]$ !mselves to take c>e ( ! *ildr51 & mu* m furniture1 & _m m articles ( clo?+ h be5 s5t ?an ,i ev] _h expect$4 ,! only "p ( ! pray]1 :i* has n be5 z yet q fulfill$1 is1 t :i* respects ! #ajjjl41 :i*1 h[ev]1 ! ,"l1 ,i d\bt n1 w likewise s5d 9 ,8 own "t4 ,9 ! meantime1 let my bre?r5 help me to praise ,him1 t ,he has s5t already m ?an "o half ( t sum1 & !re=e m ?an = ! pres5t has be5 ne$$4 #c4 ,s f> z ,i rememb]1 ,i br\ght ev5 ! mo/ m9ute circum/ances conc]n+ ! ,orphan-,h\se be=e ! ,"l 9 my petitions1 be+ consci\s ( my own weakness & ignorance4 ,!re 01 h[ev]1 "o po9t ,i nev] _h pray$ ab\t1 namely1 t ! ,"l w\ld s5d *ildr52 = ,i naturally took x = grant$ t !re w\ld be pl5ty ( applications4 ,! ne>]1 h[ev]1 ! day came1 :i* _h be5 appo9t$ = receiv+ applications1 ! m ,i _h a secret consci\sness1 t ! ,"l might disappo9t my natural expectations1 & %[ me t ,i c\ld n prosp] 9 "o s+le ?+ )\t ,him4 ,! appo9t$ "t came1 & n ev5 "o application 0 made4 ,i _h be=e ?is be5 repeat$ly tri$1 :e!r ,i might n1 aft] all1 aga9/ ! ,"l's m9d1 h engag$ 9 ! "w4 ,?is circum/ance n[ l$ me to lie l[ be=e my ,god 9 pray] ! :ole ( ! ev5+1 ,febru>y #c1 & to exam9e my he>t once m z to all ! motives conc]n+ x2 & be+ able1 z =m]ly1 to say1 t ,8 glory 0 my *ief aim1 i4e41 t x might be se5 t x is n a va9 ?+ to tru/ 9 ! liv+ ,god1--& t my second aim 0 ! spiritual welf>e ( ! orphan-*ildr51--& ! ?ird _! bodily welf>e2 & /ill cont9u+ 9 pray]1 ,i 0 at la/ br\ght to ?is /ate1 t ,i c\ld say f my he>t1 t ,i %\ld rejoice 9 ,god be+ glorifi$ 9 ?is matt]1 ?\gh x 7 by br++ ! :ole to no?+4 ,b z /ill1 aft] all1 x seem$ to me m t5d+ to ! glory ( ,god1 to e/abli% & prosp] ! ,orphan-,h\se1 ,i c\ld !n ask ,him he>tily1 to s5d applications4 ,i enjoy$ n[ a peaceful /ate ( he>t conc]n+ ! subject1 & 0 also m assur$ ?an ev] t ,god w\ld e/abli% x4 ,! v next day1 ,febru>y #d1 ! fir/ application 0 made1 & s9ce !n #db m h be5 made4 #d4 ,! h\se m5tion$ 9 ! la/ pr9t$ acc\nt1 :i* we _h int5d$ to r5t1 hav+ be5 let be=e any applications _h be5 made1 & no?+ m hav+ be5 done ab\t ! premises (f]$ z a gift1 on acc\nt ( ! want ( money ne$$ to complete ! build+1 ,i r5t$1 at lea/ = "o ye>1 ! h\se ,no4 #f1 ,wilson ,/reet1 z be+1 on acc\nt ( its *eapness & l>g5ess1 v suitable1 & 9 :i*1 up to ,m>* #be?1 ,i _h be5 liv+ myself4 ,hav+ furni%$ x = #cj *ildr51 we began an ,april #aa?1 #ahcf1 to take !m 91 & on ,april #ba/ ! ,in/itution 0 op5$ by a day be+ set ap>t = pray] & ?anksgiv+4 ,!re are n[ #bf *ildr5 9 ! h\se1 & a few m are expect$ daily4 ,!y are "u ! c>e ( a matron & gov]ness4 #e4 ,9 ! la/ pr9t$ acc\nt x 0 m5tion$ t we int5d$ to take 9 ! *ildr5 f ! sev5? to ! twelf? ye>4 ,b aft] six applications _h be5 made = *ildr5 betwe5 f\r & six ye>s ( age1 x became a subject ( solemn & pray]ful consid]ation1 :e!r1 z long z !re 7 vacancies1 su* *ildr5 %\ld n be receiv$1 ?\gh s "y4 ,= x appe>$ to me1 t if x becomes ! sa9ts to c>e 9 ?is way1 accord+ to _! ability1 = ^? :om ,god has b]eav$ ( bo? p>5ts1 :5 !y become sev5 ye>s ( age1 t x becomes !m equally s1 to take c>e ( !m :il/ !y are "u sev5 ye>s1 & !re=e completely unable to help !mselves4 ,fur!r1 orphan *ildr5 are (t5 left to !mselves1 & ?us1 at ! age ( #aa or #ab ye>s1 h already made mu* progress 9 wick$ness4 ,!re=e ,i came at la/ to ! conclusion to take 9 ! little girls "u sev5 ye>s ( age1 = :om application _h be5 made4 ,fur!r1 !re are exce$+ly few in/itutions 9 ! k+dom1 9 :i* infant orphans are receiv$1 & provid$ ) scriptural education4 ,fur!r1 x has be5 repeat$ly br\ght be=e me1 h[ desirable x w\ld be to e/abli% also 9 ?is city an orphan-h\se = male *ildr51 & !re 7 ev5 ! above-m5tion$ articles s5t = little orphan boys4 ,p>tly1 !n1 on acc\nt ( ^! reasons2 & p>tly1 because ! ,in/itution already op5$ w be q fill$ 9 a few days1 & applications cont9ue to be made2 & p>tly1 because ! ,"l has done hi!rto f> above :at ,i c\ld h expect$3 ,i h at la/1 aft] repeat$ pray]1 come to ! conclusion1 9 ! "n ( ! ,"l1 & 9 dep5d5ce ^u ,him alone = support1 to propose ! e/abli%m5t ( an ,infant-,orphan-,h\se4 ,x is int5d$ to op5 ?is ,in/itution1 z soon z suitable premises & individuals1 to take c>e ( ! *ildr51 c41 h be5 obta9$4 a4 ,x is int5d$ to receive into ?is ,infant-,orphan-,h\se de/itute male & female infants b]eav$ ( bo? p>5ts1 f _! e>lie/ days up to ! sev5? ye>1 & to provide !m ) food1 clo?+1 ne$ful att5dance1 & ,scriptural education4 b4 ,x is int5d$ to let ! female *ildr5 /ay up to ! sev5? ye> 9 ! ,infant-,orphan-,h\se1 & !n to remove !m to ! ,in/itution already op5$1 till !y are able to g to s]vice4 c4 ,x is also int5d$1 z f> z ! ,"l may help1 to provide = ! boys1 :5 !y are above sev5 ye>s1 ?\gh we _c at pres5t say 9 :at mann]4 ,9 propos+ ! e/abli%m5t ( ?is second ,orphan-,h\se1 ,i d x 9 ! same simple dep5d5ce ^u ,god alone1 z 9 ! case ( ! =m]4 ,& feel+ my own weakness1 & kn[+ t x is n 9 my p[] to give fai? to myself1 ,i ask ! bre?r5 to help me ) _! pray]s1 t my fai? may n fail4 #f4 ,to avoid misund]/&+s1 ,i w\ld expressly /ate1 t bo? ! la/ m5tion$ ,in/itution1 & ! "o already op5$1 are = orphan *ildr5 liv+ 9 any "p ( ! ,unit$4 ,k+dom4 ,,george ,m,ue,l,l,e,r4 ,bri/ol1 ,may #ah1 #ahcf4 ,june #c4 ,f ,may #af up to ?is day ,i h be5 conf9$ to ! h\se1 & a "p ( ! "t to my b$1 on acc\nt ( a local inflammation1 :i* keeps me f walk+4 ,almo/ e day dur+ ?is "t ,i h be5 able to cont9ue writ+ a n>rative ( ! ,"l's deal+s ) me1 :i* _h be5 aga9 laid aside aft] ,may #g1 on acc\nt ( a numb] ( press+ engagem5ts4 ,x is v rem>kable1 t ! greate/ objection aga9/ writ+ x = ! press 0 want ( "t4 ,n[1 ?r\gh ?is affliction1 :i* leaves my m9d free1 & gives me "t1 on acc\nt ( conf9em5t to ! h\se1 ,i h be5 able to write ab\t #ajj qu>to pages4 ,may ! ,"l 9 m]cy tea* me ab\t ?is matt]6 ,june #h4 ,i am /ill gett+ bett]4 ,! abscess is n[ op54 ,?is affliction has be51 by ! m]cy ( ! ,"l1 an exce$+ly light "o4 ,n "o day h ,i _h sev]e pa91 & n "o day h ,i be5 kept altoge!r f work+4 ,june #i4 ,i 0 able to g aga9 today to ! ,orphan-,h\se1 & to read ! ,scriptures ) ! *ildr54 ,?is day came ?ree m *ildr51 :o h made up our numb]1 s t !re are n[ ?irty 9 ! h\se4 ,june #aa4 ,i am1 by ! m]cy ( ,god1 /ill gett+ bett]1 b1 z yet1 unable to walk ab\t4 ,all ?is week ,i h be5 aga9 enabl$ to g on writ+ = ! press4 ,june #ab4 ,today ! ,"l v k9dly all[$ me to prea* aga91 & t mo/ undes]v$ly1 & mu* soon] ?an ,i c\ld h expect$4 ,june #ad4 ,?is morn+1 bro!r ,c-r & ,i pray$ unit$ly1 *iefly ab\t ! s*ools & ! circulation ( ! ,scriptures4 ,besides ask+ = bless+s ^u ! "w1 we h also ask$ ! ,"l = ! means :i* are ne$$2 = on ,july #a1 #agl4 #ajs4 w be due = ! r5t ( s*ool-rooms1 &1 besides ?is1 we want at lea/ #djl4 m to g on ) ! circulation ( ! ,scriptures1 to pay ! sal>ies ( ! ma/]s1 c4 ,t[>ds all ?is we h only ab\t #gl4 ,i also pray$ = ! rema9d] ( ! #ajjjl4 = ! ,orphan-,h\se4 ,june #ah4 ,we h _h1 = _m weeks pa/1 g5]ally little money = our p]sonal exp5ses1 :i* has be5 a trial to u1 n on our own acc\nt1 b because we h ?us be5 able to d b v little = ! poor bre?r54 ,today1 ,saturday1 we h #cs4 left1 j en\gh to pay = a fly to take me to & br+ me back f ,be!sda tomorr[1 z ,i am unable to walk4 ,?is money we %\ld n h _h1 b = our bak]1 a bro!r1 :o refus$ today to take money = ! usual quantity ( bread1 :i* we daily take4 ,june #ba4 ,?is ev5+ bro!r ,c-r & ,i f\nd1 t ! ,"l has n only be5 pleas$ to s5d u1 ?r\gh ! (f]+s :i* h come 9 dur+ ! la/ week1 9 answ] to our pray]s1 ! #agl4 #ajs4 :i* w be due = ! r5t ( two s*ool-rooms on ,july #a/1 b t we h #el4 m ?an is ne$$4 ,?us ! ,"l once m has answ]$ our pray]s4 ,june #be4 ,saturday4 ,we h be5 aga9 help$ ?r\gh ?is week1 z x reg>ds our p]sonal ne$1 & h #cs4 left1 ?\gh we _h _m %ill+s to pay = driv+ ab\t4 ,n[ ! ,"l has put x into ! he>ts ( "s ( ,8 *ildr51 to provide me ) a fly e ,"l's-day1 z long z ,i may ne$ x4 ,july #a4 ,today a suit ( new clo!s 0 giv5 to me1 :i* came v seasonably4 ,may ?is fre% in/ance ( ! ,"l's lov+-k9dness lead me to love ,him m2 & may ,he also be pleas$ ri*ly to rew>d ^? bre?r51 :o h ?us m9i/]$ to my ne$6 ,july #af4 ,today a bro!r s5t me a new hat1 ! sev5? :i* 9 succession has be5 giv5 to me4 ,july #bh4 ,= "s weeks pa/ we h n be5 able to pay ! sal>y ( ! ma/]s & gov]nesses a mon? 9 advance1 b h be5 oblig$ to pay x weekly4 ,bro!r ,c-r & ,i h lately pray$ repeat$ly toge!r respect+ ! funds1 b we 7 n[ br\ght s l[1 t we %\ld n h be5 able to pay ev5 ?is weekly sal>y ( ! tea*]s1 _h n ! ,"l mo/ rem>kably help$ u aga9 today4 ,= besides #al4 :i* 0 giv5 to u1 ?is ev5+ a bro!r gave #hl41 :i* sum _h be5 made up by a numb] ( 8 workm5 pay+ weekly "o p5ny ea*1 ( _! own accord1 t[>ds our funds4 ,! money _h be5 collect+ = _m mon?s1 &1 9 ?is our necessity1 x _h be5 put into ! he>t ( ?is bro!r to br+ x4 ,my fai? has be5 greatly /r5g!n$ ?r\gh ?is circum/ance4 ,= be=e today1 ?\gh ,i h nev] be5 9 ! lea/ all[$ to d\bt ! ,"l's fai?fulness1 ,i did n und]/& ,8 purpose 9 ,8 deal+s ) u ( late1 9 n s5d+ u m ?an we h ne$$ j to be kept f /opp+2 & ,i h sometimes ?\ght1 :e!r x might n be ,8 w1 on acc\nt ( my want ( fai?fulness 9 ,8 "w1 to decrease ! field2 b n[ ,i see1 t not)/&+ my unwor?9ess1 ,8 all[+ u to pray s frequ5tly1 0 only t ! deliv]ance might be felt s mu* ! m :5 x came4 ,july #bi4 ,?is ev5+ f six to half-pa/ n9e we _h aga9 a meet+ = inquir]s4 ,!re came twelve fre% cases be=e u1 & !re 7 six m ?an we c\ld see4 ,?us we saw1 t ! "w ( ! ,"l1 ev5 z x reg>ds conv]sion1 is /ill go+ on among u4 ,octob] #a4 ,today1 9 dep5d5ce ^u ! ,"l alone = means1 we engag$ a bro!r z a ma/] = a six? day s*ool4 ,la/ ,saturday1 = ! fir/ "t1 we 7 s l[ 9 funds1 t we ne$$ #al4 m ?an we _h1 to pay ! sal>ies a week 9 advance2 b "o si/]1 on acc\nt ( ! dea? ( h] fa!r1 z we aft]w>ds le>n$1 0 kept f call+ = h] money1 & on ! next day we receiv$ m ?an 0 ne$$ to pay h]4 ,on acc\nt1 !re=e1 ( ! _m deliv]ances :i* we h _h ( late1 we h n hesitat$ to enl>ge ! field1 z ano!r boys' s*ool 0 greatly ne$$1 !re hav+ be5 _m applications = admission /&+ ^! sev]al mon?s pa/4 ,octob] #e4 ,?is ev5+ #bel4 0 giv5 to me = ! ,scriptural ,k ,in/itution4 ,?us ! ,"l has already giv5 ! means ( defray+ ! exp5ses ( ! new boys' s*ool = "s mon?s to come4 ,octob] #ai4 ,today1 aft] hav+ _m times pray$ respect+ ?is matt]1 ,i h at la/ engag$ a si/] z matron = ! ,infant-,orphan-,h\se1 nev] hav+ be5 able1 up to ?is day1 to meet ) an individual :o seem$ suitable3 ?\gh !re has be5 money en\gh 9 h& = "s "t pa/ = comm5c+ ?is "w1 & !re h be5 also applications made = sev]al infant orphans4 ,octob] #be4 ,today we obta9$ )\t1 any tr\ble1 ?r\gh ! k9d h& ( ,god1 v suitable premises = ! ,infant-,orphan-,h\se4 ,if we _h laid out _m hundr$ p\nds 9 build+ a h\se1 we c\ld sc>cely h built "o m suitable = ! purpose4 ,h[ evid5t is ! h& ( ,god 9 all ^! matt]s6 ,h[ important to leave our conc]ns1 great & small1 ) ,him2 = ,he arranges all ?+s well6 ,if our "w be ,8 "w1 we %all prosp] 9 x4 ,novemb] #cj4 ,on acc\nt1 z ,i suppose1 ( _m press+ engagem5ts1 ,i _h n be5 l$ = "s "t pa/ to pray respect+ ! funds4 ,b be+ 9 great ne$1 ,i 0 l$ ye/]day morn+1 e>ne/ly to ask ! ,"l1 & 9 answ] to ?is petition a bro!r gave me la/ ev5+ #ajl4 ,he _h _h x 9 8 he>t = sev]al mon?s pa/1 to give ?is sum1 b _h be5 hi!rto kept f x1 n hav+ ! means4 ,j n[1 9 ?is our great necessity1 ! ,"l furni%$ him ) ! means1 & we 7 help$ 9 ?is way4 ,9 addition to ?is #ajl41 ,i receiv$ la/ ev5+ a lett] ) #el41 f a si/] :om ,i nev] saw1 & :o has be5 sev]al times us$ by ,god z an in/rum5t to supply our wants4 ,%e writes ?us3 ,x has be5 s mu* on my m9d lately to s5d y "s money1 t ,i feel z if !re mu/ be "s ne$1 :i* ! ,"l purposes to hon\r me by mak+ me ! in/rum5t ( supply+4 ,i !re=e enclose y #el41 all ,i h 9 ! h\se at ?is mom5t2 b if y h occasion = x1 & w let me "k1 ,i w s5d y z mu* m4 ,besides ^! two donations1 ,i receiv$ today #cl4 #cs4 ,decemb] #ae4 ,?is day 0 set ap>t = pray] & ?anksgiv+ respect+ ! ,infant-,orphan-,h\se1 :i* 0 op5$ on ,novemb] #bh4 ,9 ! morn+ we _h a pray]-meet+4 ,9 ! aft]noon1 besides pray] & ?anksgiv+1 ,i address$ ! *ildr5 ( our day-s*ools & ! orphans1 ab\t #cej1 on ,ecclesia/es xii4 #a4 ,9 ! ev5+ ,i gave a fur!r acc\nt ( ! ,orphan-,h\ses1 comm5c+ f ! "t :5 ! la/ pr9t$ acc\nt _h be5 issu$1 dat$ ,may #ah1 #ahcf4 ,! sub/ance ( ?is acc\nt 0 pr9t$1 & is repr9t$ "h = ! sake ( ^? :o are z yet unacqua9t$ ) x4 ,fur!r acc\nt ( ! ,orphan-,h\se = ,female ,orphans above ,sev5 ,ye>s ( ,age2 & ,op5+ ( ! ,infant-,orphan-,h\se1 = de/itute ,male & ,female ,orphans "u ,sev5 ,ye>s ( ,age4 ,x is n[ a twelve-mon? s9ce ! proposal = ! e/abli%m5t ( an ,orphan-,h\se 0 fir/ made4 ,s9ce !n ! ,"l has giv5 me almo/ all ,i reque/$ ( ,him1 & 9 "s respects ev5 m4 ,?is 0 9 "p /at$ 9 ! la/ two pap]s :i* 7 pr9t$ on ?is subject dat$ ,janu>y #af1 & ,may #ah1 #ahcf4 ,( ! #a1jjjl4 :i* ,i _h ask$ ( ,god on ,decemb] #e1 #ahce1 ,i _h actually receiv$ on ,may #ah1 #ahcf1 #dejl4 #acs4 #f #c_/d;d42 & besides ?is1 #gjl4 _h be5 promis$ by two bre?r54 ,z x reg>ds premises1 articles ( clo?+1 furniture1 c41 ,i _h receiv$ ev5 beyond my petition4 ,i h n[ ! pleasure ( detail+1 /ill fur!r1 h[ ,god has cont9u$ to answ] my pray] s9ce ,may #ah1 #ahcf4 ,may #ai? 0 giv5 #al4 #bcrd #al4 & #ds4 ,!re 7 also s5t two buckets & #as4 #bd?41 #aj s4 #f;d41 #b;d41 #as4 #f;d4 #be?1 "o p\nd ( butt]1 #bs41 #as41 #as4 ,!re 0 also s5t #ads41 & 9 ! pap] 0 writt53 ,! hi/ory ( ?is money is3 ,a lady 0 go+ to pur*ase a dress4 ,! enclos$ sum 0 ! diff]5ce betwe5 ! fa%ionable "o1 :i* took h] fancy1 & "o less fa%ionable4 ,s %e ?\ght1 ! orphans %\ld pr(it by ?is sacrifice ( h] fancy4 ,may #bg?1 !re 0 left at my h\se a sov]eign1 & 9 ! pap] 0 writt53 #a ,!ss4 v4 #be4 ,pause ) me a few mom5ts1 de> read]1 be=e go+ on ) ! acc\nt4 ,9 prep>+ ! ?ird edition = ! press1 ,i h be5 /ruck ) ! v _m cases 9 :i* individuals1 :o are spok5 ( 9 ?is n>rative1 are no m 9 ! l& ( ! liv+4 ,s x is ) ! two donors ( ! la/ m5tion$ sums4 ,! de> si/] :o w\ld n indulge h] fancy 9 hav+ a m fa%ionable dress1 b :o w\ld r give ! f\rte5 %ill+s1 :i* ?us c\ld be sav$1 to ! orphans1 has be5 ) h] ,"l = m ?an two ye>s4 ,w %e regret n hav+ indulg$ h] fancy 9 t in/ance8 ,w %e n[ suff] loss on acc\nt ( x8 ,surely n6--,! de> bro!r :o gave ! sov]eign1 0 a graci\s devot$ cl]gyman ( ! ,city ( ,bri/ol4 ,he _h writt5 9 ! pap] 9 :i* ! sov]eign 0 enclos$1 #a ,!ss4 v4 #be4 7,bre?r51 pray = u47 ,?is de> man ( ,god does n[ no long] ne$ our pray]s4 ,he ent]$ into 8 re/ sev]al ye>s ago4 ,yet a little :ile1 de> believ+ read]1 &1 if ! com+ ( ! ,"l prev5t n1 we too %all fall asleep 9 ,jesus4 ,!re=e1 let u "w1 :ile x is day3 ! night come?1 :5 no man c "w4 ,&1 ,:atsoev] ?y h& f9de? to d1 d x ) ?y might3 = !re is no "w1 nor device1 nor k1 nor wisdom 9 ! grave1 :i!r ?\ goe/4--,b h[ w\ld x be ) y1 de> read]1 if y are unprep>$1 & %\ld be tak5 out ( ! _w8 ,let me besee* y to seek ! ,"l :ile ,he may be f\nd4 ,jesus di$ to save s9n]s4 ,he %$ ,8 blood4 ,he fulfill$ ! law ( ,god1 & di$ ! ,,j = ! ,,unju/3 & :osoev] dep5ds = salvation ^u ,8 p]fect ob$i5ce1 & ^u ,8 suff]+s & dea?1 %all be sav$2 = ,god has said x4 ,may #bh?1 ,a f5d] & two coal scuttles4 #bi?1 #el4 #cj?1 #ds4 ,also #bs4 #f;d41 ) two g[ns & a tippet4 ,! bro!r :o left a sov]eign ) #a ,!ss4 v4 #be1 gave today #ajs4 m2 #bs4 #d;d4 ,june #a/1 f a few si/]s 9 ,dubl91 n9e pocket h&k]*iefs1 #ai #a_/b y>ds ( /uff1 & =ty-two y>ds ( pr9t4 #d?1 #es4 #f;d41 eighte5 little books4 #e?1 #f;d41 #d;d41 #d;d41 #d;d4 #f?1 #ds4 #g?1 #es4 #a;d41 #bl4 #bs4 #f;d4 #h?1 #d;d41 #as41 #as41 #cs4 #i?1 six pairs ( g5tlem5's tr\s]s1 two coats1 "o wai/coat1 five pairs ( socks1 two g[ns--all worn4 #aj?1 #al41 also f a fri5d 9 ,irel& #al4 #ab?1 ,s4 ,s4 #bs4 #f;d4 #ac?1 #ds41 #el4 #ad?1 #as4 #a;d41 #as41 #bs4 #f;d41 #f;d41 #as41 #bs4 #f;d41 #bs4 #f;d41 #cs4 #c;d41 #as4 #a;d41 #as4 #a;d4 #ae?1 a bro!r at ,plym\? s5t #bel41 #bjl4 ( :i* _h be5 previ\sly promis$4 #ah?1 #al41 #a;d41 #f #a_/d p\nds ( bacon1 a =m1 a *opp+ knife4 #ai?1 #al4 #as41 #ajs42 #abs4 by sale ( ornam5ts4 #bj?1 #ds4 ,also f ,teignm\?1 #es41 #es41 #bs4 #f;d41 #bs4 #f;d41 #bs4 #f;d41 #bs4 #f;d41 #cl41 #ajs41 #bs4 #f;d41 #as4 #a;d41 #es41 toge!r ) a g[n1 a boy's p9a=e1 a pair ( socks1 col\r$ cotton = ?ree *ildr5's frocks1 two babies' b$ g[ns1 & five babies' night caps4 #ba/1 #el4 #ajs41 #f;d41 #d;d41 #b;d41 #d;d41 #b;d41 #f;d41 #f;d41 tw5ty p\nds ( bacon & t5 p\nds ( *eese4 #bb;d1 box 9 ! ,orphan-,h\se1 #bs4 #d;d4 #bd?1 #bs4 #f;d41 #cs4 #h #a_/b;d4 #bg?1 #ds4 #bh?1 #bs4 #f;d41 #ds41 #d;d41 #f;d41 #ajs41 #fs4 #f;d4 #bi?1 six /raw bonnets4 #cj?1 #es41 #bl4 ,july #d?1 #f;d41 #d;d41 #d;d41 #d;d41 #ds4 ,!re 0 also s5t f two orphans #dhl41 #as4 #a;d41 #ajs41 #hs4 #f;d41 #bs4 #f;d41 #as4 #a;d41 #as4 #a;d41 #as4 #a;d41 #as4 #d;d4 #e?1 #as41 #as4 #b;d41 #c;d41 #ds41 #d;d41 #as4 #f?1 six new cane *airs4 #g?1 #bl41 #abs41 #ajs41 #bs4 #h?1 #as41 #bs4 #f;d41 #cs4 #aj?1 #ajs41 #ajs41 #al41 #al4 #aa?1 #hs41 #acs4 #ab?1 #acs4 #b;d4 #ac?1 #abs4 #ad?1 !re 7 s5t six *emises1 :i* _h be5 promis$ on ,april #ad?4 ,also f\rte5 p9 cu%ions4 #ae?1 six night caps & #b petticoats4 #bj?1 #ajs41 #es41 #al41 #f;d41 #b;d41 #f;d41 #f;d41 #d;d41 #f;d41 #d;d41 #b;d41 #d;d4 #bd?1 #al4 #be?1 #hs41 ,s4 ,s4 #es4 ,also #be #c_/d y>ds ( pr9t1 #ab little %awls & #af y>ds ( flannel4 #bf?1 box 9 ! ,orphan-,h\se #es4 #i;d41 #d;d4 #bg?1 two pairs ( %oes4 #bh?1 #cs4 #h #a_/b;d4 #bi?1 #bs4 #f;d41 #f;d41 #d;d41 #d;d41 #d;d4 ,augu/ #a/1 #ds41 #al4 #aj41 two *emises1 ?ree night caps1 & t5 pocket h&k]*iefs2 two *emises1 ?ree night caps1 & six pocket h&k]*iefs4 #bnd1 #h;d41 #as41 #as4 #c;d41 #as4 #c;d41 #as41 #as41 #f;d441 #es41 #bs4 #f;d41 #as41 #a;d41 #a;d41 "o pat* "w quilt4 #e?1 #fs4 #h?1 #ds4 #aj?1 a box1 six cani/]s1 & an ink/&1 #ac?1 #es4 #ae?1 #al41 ,s4 ,s4 #bs4 #f;d41 #ds4 #af?1 #f;d41 #f;d41 #d;d41 #d;d41 #d;d41 #f;d41 #as41 #as4 #f;d4 #ai?1 #as4 #b #a_/b;d4 #bcrd1 #as41 #ajs41 #al41 #bs4 #f;d4 ,septemb] #a/1 #as4 #f;d41 #bs4 #f;d41 #bs41 #as41 #d;d41 #f;d41 #d;d41 #f;d41 #bs4 #f;d41 #bs4 #f;d41 #as4 #f;d41 #f;d41 #f;d41 #b;d41 #al41 #al41 twelve *emises1 "o worn /uff frock1 #d;d41 #d;d41 a basket ( apples1 & ?ree p\nds ( sug>4 #crd1 #al41 #el4 #e?1 #abs4 #g?1 #es41 #bs4 #f;d4 #h?1 #es4 #ac?1 #as41 #as41 #as41 #bs4 #f;d41 #bs4 #f;d41 #bs4 #f;d41 #bs4 #f;d41 #bs4 #c;d41 #as41 #as4 #a;d41 #as4 #a;d41 #b;d41 #f;d41 #f;d41 #bs4 #f;d41 #f;d4 #ad?1 #al41 #ajs41 #ajs41 #ad p9a=es1 a basket ( apples4 #ai?1 #hs41 #bs4 #f;d4 ,box 9 ! ,orphan-,h\se #al4 #fs4 #a #a_/d;d41 #ajs4 #bj?1 #f;d41 #f;d41 #d;d41 #d;d41 #a;d1 #d;d4 #bg?1 sev]al numb]s ( ! ,record 7 s5t to be sold = ! b5efit ( ! ,orphan-,h\se1 #d;d41 #d;d41 #bs41 #bs4 #f;d4 #cj?1 #al4 0 giv5 z ,a ,?ank-(f]+ = spiritual m]cies v\*saf$ to a *ild4 ,also ,mr4 ,b-s541 ,surgeon1 k9dly (f]$1 today1 to give 8 att5dance & m$ic9e gratuit\sly to ! orphans4 ,octob] #a/1 #f;d41 #d;d41 #d;d41 #d;d4 ,a worn cloak4 #crd1 #es41 #cs4 #c;d41 #as4 ,a gallon ( dri$ peas4 #d?1 #al4 #cs4 #f;d4 #aj?1 #ds41 #as4 #a;d41 #as4 #a;d41 #as4 #a;d41 #as4 #aa?1 #ajs41 #b;d41 #f;d41 #cs4 #c;d4 #ad?1 #d #a_/b gallons ( be]4 #af?1 ?ree tippets1 #h;d41 #d;d41 #es41 #es41 #es41 #bs4 #f;d41 #bs4 #f;d41 #ajs41 #ajs41 #bs41 #as41 #as41 #bs4 #f;d41 #es4 #ag?1 #ds4 #ah?1 #ajs41 #f;d41 #f;d41 #d;d41 #d;d41 #f;d41 #a;d41 #d;d41 #as4 #ai?1 #al4 #bd?1 #ds4 #be?1 ?ree frocks1 two p9a=es1 two tippets1 ?ree pairs ( sleeves1 #ajs41 #ajs41 #d;d41 #as4 #bg?1 ?ree tippets4 ,anonym\sly 0 s5t by po/1 #ajs41 ) ! reque/ t pray] %\ld be made = ! donor1 = div9e guidance "u circum/ances ( mu* d\bt & anxiety4 #bi?1 #ab clo? tippets4 #ca/1 #ds4 ,novemb] #bnd1 #as4 #c;d41 #as4 #c;d41 #as4 #d?1 two little cloaks1 f\r qu>t]ns ( bread4 #e?1 two turkeys1 #f;d41 #d;d41 #d;d41 #d;d4 ,!re 0 also giv5 by a bro!r ,l#ajj4--,l#ej4 ( :i* 0 previ\sly promis$1 to ensure ! r5t = premises4 ,x is a rem>kable fact conc]n+ ?is donation1 t ,i _h1 9 ,decemb] ( la/ ye>1 repeat$ly ask$ ! ,"l to incl9e ! he>t ( ?is bro!r to give "o hundr$ p\nds1 & ,i made a memor&um ( ?is pray] 9 my j\rnal ( ,decemb] #ab1 #ahce4 ,on ,janu>y #be?1 #ahcf1 fifty p\nds 0 promis$ by him1 & on ,novemb] #e1 fifty p\nds besides t sum 0 giv52 b x 0 n till "s days aft]1 t ,i rememb]$1 t ! v sum1 = :i* ,i _h ask$ ! ,"l1 _h be5 giv54 ,?us we (t5 may receive an answ] to pray]1 & sc>cely rememb] t x is an answ]4 ,:5 x came to my m9d t ?is pray] _h be5 not$ d[n 9 my j\rnal1 & ,i %[$ x to ! donor1 we rejoic$ toge!r2 he1 to h be5 ! in/rum5t 9 giv+1 & ,i to h _h1 ! reque/ grant$4 ,novemb] #f?1 ,s4 ,s4 #gs4 #f;d4 #g?1 anonym\sly 0 s5t a ton ( coals1 #ds41 "o petticoat1 two pairs ( gloves1 two ruffs4 #h?1 #el41 #bs4 #b;d41 #cs41 #bs4 #b;d41 #bs4 #b;d41 #as4 #f;d41 #b;d41 #f;d41 #as4 #f;d41 #bs4 #f;d41 #bs4 #f;d4 #ad?1 !re 0 giv5 #bjl4 = ! ,orphan-h\se1 & #bjl4 = ! ,infant-,orphan-,h\se4 ,bo? pap]s1 9 :i* ! money 0 enclos$1 conta9$ ^! words3 ,if ! ,"l prolongs ! life ( ! unwor?y giv] ( ! enclos$1 ! same sum w be giv5 at ,*ri/mas4--,x has be5 m ?an once obs]v$ to me t ,i c\ld n expect to cont9ue to receive l>ge sums2 = t p]sons1 :5 fir/ su* an in/itution is e/abli%$1 might be /irr$ up to give lib]ally1 b t aft]w>ds "o _h to look to a numb] ( regul> subscrib]s1 & t1 if ^? 7 lack+1 x 0 n likely t su* a "w c\ld g on4 ,on su* occasions1 ,i h said b little2 b ,i h _h ! fulle/ assurance1 t x is a small matt] = ! ,"l to incl9e donors to give lib]ally1 a second or ?ird "t1 if x 7 = our real welf>e4 ,& accord+ly ! donor1 above ref]r$ to1 add$ to ! fir/ #ejl4 ano!r #ejl41 & ! la/ m5tion$ b5efactor1 to ! #ejl41 giv5 on a =m] occasion1 add$ ! j m5tion$ #djl41 ) ! promise to give ano!r #djl4 at ,*ri/mas4 ,i w\ld only add on ?is subject1 t !re are "s subscrib]s1 & ev5 "s :o give consid]ably2 yet ,i w\ld /ate1 = ! ,"l's glory1 t if !y 7 tw5ty times z _m1 ,i %\ld desire t my eyes might n be direct$ to !m1 b to ! ,"l alone1 & t ,i might be enabl$ to take ! paym5t ( e subscription z a donation f ,,him4 ,on ! o!r h&1 if !re 7 no subscrib]s at all1 yet ! ,"l1 :o he>e? pray]1 is ri* to give accord+ to our ne$4--,!re 0 giv5 also today1 ,a wid['s mite1 #ajs4--also #d;d4 ,novemb] #ad?1 #ds41 also f\r ducks4 ,= ! ,infant-,orphan-,h\se1 five frocks1 f\r %irts1 f\r *emises1 a b$ g[n1 two petticoats2 ?ree qu>t]ns bread4 #ae? #f;d41 #f;d41 #d;d41 #f;d41 #d;d4 #af?1 by sale ( tr9kets1 #al4 #es41 #ds4 #ah?1 anonym\sly 7 s5t a boy's cap1 a bonnet1 a small piece ( pr9t4 #ai?1 f\r qu>t]ns ( bread4 #ba/1 #ds41 #bs4 #f;d4 #bbnd1 #d;d41 #f;d41 #f;d4 #bcrd1 ?ree frocks1 a tippet1 six pairs ( %eets1 ?ree pairs ( blankets4 #be?1 #ab hymn books1 a worn cloak1 a new t5t b$/ead4 #bg?1 anonym\sly put into ,be!sda boxes #es4 #bh?1 #ds4 #bi?1 two turkeys4 #cj?1 #ajs41 five y>ds ( blanket+1 a worn %awl4 ,decemb] #a/1 a pat*-"w quilt & five y>ds ( pr9t1 #c;d41 #ajs4 #d?1 #el4 #es4 #e?1 #ds41 #al4 #es4 #f?1 #f;d41 #b;d41 a worn cloak1 a petticoat1 a piece ( l95 = w9d[ curta9s4 #h?1 box 9 ! ,orphan-,h\se #bl4 #ds4 #a #a_/b;d4 #i?1 #al4 ,also #al4 ) ,m>k ix4 #cf1 #cg1 writt5 on ! pap]4 ,a mo/ enc\rag+ passage = ?is "w1 ! =ce ( :i* ,i _h nev] felt be=e4--,ab\t a hundr$ weight ( treacle4 ,i4 ,f ?is /atem5t x appe>s1 t #ggjl4 #js4 #i #a_/b;d4 has be5 actually giv51 & t #djl4 is promis$4 ,all ! money1 & all ! articles ( furniture1 clo?+1 provision1 c41 h be5 giv51 )\t "o individual hav+ be5 ask$ by me = any?+1 f :i* ,i h /ill refra9$1 t ! ,"l's own h& might be cle>ly se5 9 ! matt]1 & t ! :ole might cle>ly appe> z an answ] to pray]4 ,,ii4 ,aft] frequ5t pray]1 t1 if x 7 ! w ( ,god1 ,he w\ld be pleas$ to s5d u a ,matron & ,gov]ness = ! ,infant-,orphan-,h\se1 ?is petition also has be5 answ]$4 ,9 addition to ?is we obta9$ a conv5i5t h\se = ! purpose1 ,no4 #a1 ,wilson ,/reet1 toge!r ) a piece ( gr\nd = a play-gr\nd2 & we !re=e began to furni% x on ,novemb] #ba/1 & on ,novemb] #bh? we took 9 ! fir/ *ildr54 ,,iii4 ,( late x has appe>$ well to u to employ "s ( ! /ronge/ & elde/ girls ( ! ,orphan-,h\se 9 ! "w ( ! ,infant-,orphan-,h\se1 "u ! direction ( ! ,matron & ,gov]ness4 ,f ?is plan x appe>$ ! foll[+ advantages w\ld result4 #a/4 ,?us ! wages :i* we %\ld h to pay to assi/ants w\ld be sav$4 #bnd4 ,)\t any fur!r exp5se to ! ,in/itution1 we %\ld 9 ?is way be able to support five or six orphans m4 #crd4 ,if ?us ! bigg] girls ( ! ,orphan-,h\se pass ?r\gh ! ,infant-,orphan-,h\se1 be=e !y are s5t into s]vice1 !y w be accu/om$ to nurs]y "w1 :i* is s important = "y s]vants4 #d?4 ,?is plan w\ld all[ u to h ! bigg] girls long] "u our c>e1 z we %\ld h full employm5t = !m4 ,9 ! orig9al pap] foll[ eight o!r p>agraphs1 conta9+ ! audit$ acc\nt & v>i\s o!r po9ts ( in=mation respect+ ! two ,orphan-,h\ses1 :i*1 at ! "t :5 ?is ,report 0 issu$1 7 ( importance to ! donors1 b are left out n[1 z x seems desirable to make ?is edition ( ! ,n>rative z concise z may be4 ,?is plan has also be5 adopt$ conc]n+ ! ?ree previ\s pap]s1 & w be fur!r adh]$ to4 ,,george ,m,ue,l,l,e,r4 ,bri/ol1 ,dec4 #bj1 #ahcf4 ,decemb] #ca4 ,we _h ?is ev5+ a pray]-meet+ to praise ! ,"l = ,8 goodness dur+ ! pa/ ye>1 & to ask ,him = a cont9uance ( ,8 fav\rs dur+ ! com+ ye>4 ,we cont9u$ toge!r till half-pa/ elev54 ,dur+ ! pa/ ye> !re h be5 receiv$ into ! *ur* ( ,gideon1 #bc bre?r5 & si/]s1 & into t ( ,be!sda1 #bi--;altoge!r #eb4 ,( ^! #eb1 #ca h be5 br\ght to ! k ( ! ,"l ?r\gh ! in/rum5tality ( bro!r ,craik & me4 ,!re h n[ be5 admitt$ into ,gideon ,*ur*1 #gi bre?r5 & si/]s :o h be5 conv]t$ ?r\gh our in/rum5tality1 & #hf into ! ,*ur* ( ,be!sda3 #afe seals to our m9i/ry 9 ,bri/ol4 ,besides ?is1 sev]al h fall5 asleep 9 ! fai? :o nev] 7 9 communion ) u2 sev]al ( our spiritual *ildr5 are connect$ ) o!r *ur*es 9 & out ( ,bri/ol2 & _m are n[ /&+ z hopeful *>act]s on ! li/ ( c&idates = fell[%ip4 ,!re h be5 add$ to ! *ur* ( ,gideon1 s9ce we came to ,bri/ol1 #aed2 to ! *ur* at ,be!sda1 #aic--;altoge!r #cdg2 s t ! numb] ( bo? *ur*es w\ld be #dae 7#fh believ]s we f\nd at ,gideon71 _h !re be5 no *anges2 b3 ,( ,gideon *ur* are "u *ur* discipl9e #e2 ( ,be!sda #h2 altoge!r #ac ,d4 h fall5 asleep #ae d4 #g d4 #bb ,d4 h left ,bri/ol #ab d4 #f d4 #ah ,d4 h left u1 b are /ill 9 ,bri/ol 4 4 #i d4 #d d4 #ac #da #be #ff ,!re are1 !re=e1 at pres5t1 9 fell[%ip ) u at ,gideon #aha1 & at ,be!sda #afh--;altoge!r #cdi4 ,! ,"l has be5 pleas$ to give me dur+ ! pa/ ye>1 z x reg>ds my temporal supplies3-- #a4 ,9 (f]+s ?r\gh ! boxes ,l#acc #hs4 #i;d4 #b4 ,9 pres5ts ( money1 f bre?r5 9 & out ( ,bri/ol ,l#ef #acs4 #j;d4 #c4 ,?r\gh family connexion ,l#e #js4 #j;d4 #d4 ,besides ?is h be5 s5t to u clo!s1 provisions1 c41 :i* 7 wor? to u at lea/ ,l#cj #js4 #j;d4 #e4 ,we h be5 liv+ half free ( r5t dur+ ! la/ n9e mon?s1 :]eby we h sav$ at lea/ ,l#g #ajs4 #j;d4 ,altoge!r ,l#bcb #aas4 #i;d4 ,janu>y #b1 #ahcg4 ,?is ev5+ ! two *ur*es _h aga9 an especial pray]-meet+1 :i* 0 cont9u$ till half-pa/ t54 ,janu>y #e4 ,today a si/] call$ & told me ab\t ! conv]sion ( h] fa!r1 :o1 9 8 eightie? ye>1 aft] hav+ = _m ye>s liv$ op5ly 9 s91 is at la/ br\ght to ! k ( ! ,"l4 ,may ?is enc\rage ! *ildr5 ( ,god to cont9ue to pray = _! ag$ p>5ts & o!r p]sons2 = ?is si/] _h long pray$ = ! conv]sion ( h] fa!r1 & at la/1 ?\gh only aft] tw5ty ye>s1 ! ,"l gave h] ! desire ( h] he>t4 ,x 0 an especial refre%m5t to my _s to he> ! p>ticul>s ( ?is case1 z ,i _h kn[n s mu* ( ! s9ful life ( ?is ag$ s9n]4 ,janu>y #ca1 & ,febru>y #b4 ,^! two days we h _h especial meet+s = pray] & humiliation1 on acc\nt ( ! influ5za1 to ackn[l$ge ! h& ( ,god 9 ?is *a/isem5t1 z ! disease is s preval5t 9 ,bri/ol4 ,april #h4 ,!re are n[ #fj ,*ildr5 9 ! two ,orphan-,h\ses1 #cj 9 ea*4 ,april #bb4 ,! ,"l has m]cifully /ay$ ! typhus fev] 9 ! ,orphan-,h\se1 9 answ] to pray]4 ,!re 7 only two cases1 & ! *ildr5 are recov]+4 ,april #bd4 ,?is ev5+ we _h a com=table meet+ ) #cj bre?r5 & si/]s ov] ! ,^w4 7,( late bro!r ,craik & ,i h frequ5tly set ap>t an ev5+1 g5]ally once a week1 to meet ) t51 tw5ty or ?irty bre?r5 & si/]s1 to take tea ) !m1 & to sp5d ! re/ ( ! ev5+ 9 pray] & m$itation ov] ! ,scriptures4 ,we began ^! meet+s *iefly on acc\nt ( hav+ ?us an opportunity ( see+ m ( ! sa9ts1 z ! greatness ( ! numb] ( ^? 9 communion ) u makes x impossible to see !m z (t5 9 _! h\ses1 z x might be pr(itable1 or z (t5 z we desire4 ,we comm5c$ ^! meet+s 9 our own h\ses1 *oos+ ^? 9 p>ticul>1 ( :om we _h se5 little4 ,aft] we _h _h sev]al meet+s 9 our own h\ses1 we 7 invit$ by ! bre?r5 & si/]s1 & !y h ask$ o!rs to meet u4 ,sometimes also we h propos$ ^? = invitation :om we see b seldom4 ,^! meet+s we h f\nd bo? = ourselves & o!rs v useful1 & !y w1 no d\bt1 cont9ue to be a bless+1 z long z ! ,"l %all enable u to prec$e & foll[ !m ) pray]4 ,!y are also p>ticul>ly important z a means ( ! bre?r5 becom+ acqua9t$ ) ea* o!r1 & ( unit+ _! he>ts47 ,may #ac4 ,today ,i h _h aga9 mu* reason to m\rn ov] my corrupt nature1 p>ticul>ly on acc\nt ( want ( gratitude = ! _m temporal m]cies by :i* ,i am surr\nd$4 ,i 0 s s9ful z to be dissatisfi$ on acc\nt ( ! d9n]1 because ,i ?\ght x w\ld n agree ) me1 in/ead ( ?ank+ ,god = ! ri* provision1 & ask+ he>tily ! ,"l's bless+ ^u x1 & rememb]+ ! _m de> *ildr5 ( ,god :o w\ld h be5 glad ( su* a meal4 ,i rejoice 9 ! prospect ( t day :51 9 see+ ,jesus z ,he is1 ,i %all be l ,him4 ,may #ad4 ,"l's-day4 ,! ,"l1 in/ead ( *a/is+ me today = ! +ratitude & discont5t1 ( ye/]day1 by leav+ me to my own /r5g? 9 prea*+1 & br++ temporal want ^u me1 has giv5 me a good day4 ,i h prea*$ ) mu* assi/ance & com=t1 & ! ,"l has giv5 me ri* temporal supplies3 = besides ! freewill (f]+s ( #bl4 #hs4 #aj;d41 a #el4 note 0 put into my h& = ! supply ( any want ,i may h4 ,?us ! ,"l melt$ ! he>t by love1 & made me /ill m see ! bas5ess ( my conduct ye/]day4 ,?anks be to ,god1 ! day is com+1 :5 ,satan w triumph no m6 ,may #ah4 ,!re are n[ #fd *ildr5 9 ! two ,orphan-,h\ses1 & two m are expect$1 :i* w fill ! two h\ses4 ,may #bh4 ,! n>rative ( "s ( ! ,"l's deal+s ) me is n[ ne> be+ publi%$1 :i* has l$ me aga9 mo/ e>ne/ly ?is day week1 & repeat$ly s9ce1 to ask ! ,"l t ,he w\ld be pleas$ to give me :at is want+ ( ! #ajjjl41 = :i* sum ,i h ask$ ,him on behalf ( ! orphans2 = ?\gh1 9 my own m9d1 ! ?+ is z good z done1 s mu* s1 t ,i h repeat$ly be5 able to ?ank ,god1 t ,he w surely give me e %ill+ ( t sum1 yet to o!rs ?is w\ld n be en\gh4 ,z ! :ole matt]1 !n1 ab\t ! ,orphan-,h\se _h be5 comm5c$ = ! glory ( ,god1 t 9 ?is way be=e ! _w & ! *ur* !re might be ano!r visible pro(1 t ! ,"l delights 9 answ]+ pray]2 & z !re 0 yet a "p ( ! #ajjjl4 want+2 &1 z ,i e>ne/ly desir$1 ! book might n leave ! press1 be=e e %ill+ ( t sum _h be5 giv51 9 answ] to pray]1 )\t "o s+le individual hav+ be5 ask$ by me = any ?+1 t ?us ,i might h ! sweet privilege ( be>+ my te/imony = ,god 9 ?is book3--= ^! reasons1 ,i say1 ,i h giv5 myself e>ne/ly to pray] ab\t ?is matt] s9ce ,may #ba4 ,on ,may #bb came 9 #gl4 #ajs41 & on ,may #bc1 #cl4 ,on ,may #bd a lady1 :om ,i nev] saw be=e1 call$ on me & gave me #djl4 ,?is circum/ance has greatly enc\rag$ me2 = ! ,"l %[$ me !reby afre% ,8 will+ness to cont9ue to s5d u l>ge sums1 & t !y c ev5 come f individuals :om we h nev] se5 be=e4 ,on ,may #bf? #cl4 #fs4 0 s5t1 f two unexpect$ qu>t]s4 ,on ,may #bg 0 s5t anonym\sly1 a p>cel ( worn clo!s f ,london & a sov]eign4 ,today 7,may #bh7 ,i receiv$ aga9 #dl4 #cs4 #f;d42 & also a p>cel 0 s5t f a consid]able di/ance1 conta9+ sev5 pairs ( socks1 & ! foll[+ tr9kets1 to be sold = ! support ( ! orphans3 #a gold p9 ) an ,iri% pe>l1 #ae ,iri% pe>ls1 #b p9e1 #b broo*es1 #b lockets1 #a seal1 #b /uds1 #aa r+s1 #a *a91 & #a bracelet1 all ( gold4 ,june #ae4 ,today ,i gave myself once m e>ne/ly to pray] respect+ ! rema9d] ( ! #ajjjl4 ,?is ev5+ #el4 0 giv51 s t n[ ! :ole sum is made up4 ,to ! glory ( ! ,"l1 ^: ,i am1 & :om ,i s]ve1 ,i w\ld /ate aga91 t e %ill+ ( ?is money1 & all ! articles ( clo?+ & furniture1 :i* h be5 m5tion$ 9 ! =ego+ pages1 h be5 giv5 to me1 )\t "o s+le individual hav+ be5 ask$ by me = any ?+4 ,! reason :y ,i h refra9$ altoge!r f solicit+ any "o = help is1 t ! h& ( ,god evid5tly might be se5 9 ! matt]1 t ?us my fell[-believ]s might be enc\rag$ m & m to tru/ 9 ,him1 & t also ^? :o "k n ! ,"l1 may h a fre% pro( t1 inde$1 x is n a va9 ?+ to pray to ,god4 ,z ! ,"l !n has con-desc5d$ mo/ fully1 & ev5 above my expectations1 to answ] my pray]s1 arid to ,fill my m\? 7,psalm lxxxi4 #aj17 w y help me1 bre?r5 & si/]s belov$ 9 ! ,"l1 to praise ,him = ,8 condesc5sion4 ,x is a wond]ful ?+ t su* a wor?less1 fai?less s]vant z ,i am1 %\ld h p[] ) ,god4 ,take c\rage f ?is = y\rselves1 bre?r54 ,surely1 if su* a "o z ,i am1 s little con=m$ to ! m9d ( ,jesus1 has 8 pray]s answ]$1 may n y also1 at la/1 h y\r reque/s grant$ to y4 ,dur+ eighte5 mon?s & t5 days ?is petition has be5 br\ght be=e ,god almo/ daily4 ,f ! mom5t ,i ask$ x1 till ! ,"l grant$ x fully1 ,i _h nev] be5 all[$ to d\bt t ,he w\ld give e %ill+ ( t sum4 ,(t5 h ,i prais$ ,him be=eh& 9 ! assurance1 t he w\ld grant my reque/4 ,! ?+ aft] :i* we h especially to seek 9 pray] is1 t we believe t we receive1 accord+ to ,m>k xi4 #bd4 ,:at ?+s soev] ye desire1 :5 ye pray1 believe t ye receive !m1 & ye %all h !m4 ,b ?is ,i (t5 f9d lack+ 9 my pray]s4 ,:5ev]1 h[ev]1 ,i h be5 enabl$ to believe t ,i receive1 ! ,"l has dealt ) me accord+ to my fai?4 ,?is mom5t :ile ,i am writ+ 7,june #bh1 #ahcg71 ,i am wait+ on ! ,"l = #agl4 #ajs41 ! r5t = two s*ool-rooms1 :i* w be due 9 ?ree days1 & ,i h b #cl4 t[>ds t sum4 ,i believe ,god c give2 ,i believe ,god is will+ to give x1 if x be = our real welf>e2 ,i also h repeat$ly ask$ ,god = x2 b z yet ,i _c 9 ! triumph ( fai? praise ,him be=eh&1 t ,he w assur$ly give me ?is small sum4 ,i am wait+ at e deliv]y ( lett]s1 at e r+ at ! bell1 = help2 ,i am truly wait+ on ,god1 & ,god alone = x2 b z yet ,i d n feel z sure ( be+ able to pay ! r5t ( ^? s*ool rooms1 z ,i %\ld1 if ,i _h ! money already 9 my pocket4 ,z ! ,"l has s greatly condesc5d$ to li/5 to my pray]s1 & z ,i consid] x "o ( ! p>ticul> tal5ts :i* ,he has intru/$ to me1 to ex]cise fai? ^u ,8 promises reg>d+ my own temporal wants & ^? ( o!rs2 & z an ,orphan-,h\se = boys above sev5 ye>s ( age seems greatly ne$$ 9 ?is city2 & z also1 )\t x1 we "k n h[ to provide = ! little boys1 9 ! ,infant-,orphan-,h\se :5 !y are above sev5 ye>s ( age2 ,i purpose to e/abli% an ,orphan-,h\se = ab\t =ty boys above sev5 ye>s ( age4 ,b !re are ?ree difficulties 9 ! way1 :i* mu/ fir/ be remov$1 be=e ,i c\ld take any fur!r /ep 9 ?is "w4 #a4 ,my h&s are m ?an fill$ already ?r\gh ! "w aris+ f ! m9i/ry ( ! ,^w1 ! att5d+ to ! ord]+ ( *ur* affairs1 & ! ov]sight ( #cgj bre?r5 & si/]s4 ,& yet1 9 addition to ?is1 ,i h also ! "w :i* comes ^u me 9 connexion ) ! six day-s*ools1 a ,sunday-s*ool1 an adult-s*ool1 ! two ,orphan-,h\ses1 & ! circulation ( ! ,scriptures4 7,?is latt] "p ( ! "w is m & m increas+2 = m]ely )9 ! la/ sev5 mon?s #hcf copies ( ! ,scriptures h be5 circulat$74 ,= ^! reasons1 !n1 ,i c\ld n 9 any degree enl>ge ! field ( lab\r1 except ! ,"l %\ld be pleas$ to s5d u a bro!r1 :o1 z /ew>d1 c\ld take f me ! "w :i* arises f keep+ ! acc\nts1 obta9+ & circulat+ ! ,scriptures1 giv+ advice 9 ord9>y matt]s respect+ ! ,orphan-,h\ses1 att5d+ to ! applications = admission ( *ildr5 9 ! ,orphan-,h\ses1 c4 ,b :e!r !re is an ,orphan-,h\se = boys e/abli%$ or n1 su* a bro!r is greatly ne$$1 ev5 z ! ext5t ( ! "w is n[1 & ,i !re=e lay x on ! he>ts ( ! believ]s :o may read ?is1 to help me ) _! pray]s1 t su* a bro!r may be f\nd4 #b4 ,9 addition to ?is1 x w\ld be ne$ful1 be=e ,i c\ld take any fur!r /ep1 to obta9 a truly pi\s ma/] = ! boys1 add o!r suitable individuals :o may be ne$$ to take c>e ( ! *ildr54 #c4 ,! ?ird ?+ by :i* ,i desire to be assur$1 t x is ! w ( ,god t ,i %\ld g =w>d 9 ! ,orphan-,h\se is1 t ,he provide ! means = su* an enl>gem5t ( ! "w4 ,:il/1 on ! "o h& ,i w\ld confess to ! praise ( ,god1 t ,he has be5 pleas$ to give me fai? to tru/ 9 ,him2 yet1 on ! o!r h&1 ,i desire to be kept f presumption & en?usiasm4 ,i d n int5d to wait till ?\s&s are rais$1 or till ! ,in/itution is end[$2 b ,i mu/ h su* a sum giv5 to me z is ne$$ to furni% a h\se = =ty boys1 & to clo! t numb]1 & to h a little to beg9 )3 )\t su* a sum ,i %\ld n consid] x to be ! w ( ,god to enl>ge ! field4 ,:at ,i ask !n f ! bre?r5 :o may feel int]e/$ 9 see+ an ,orphan-,h\se = boys e/abli%$ 9 ,bri/ol is1 t !y w\ld help me ) _! pray]s1 t if x be ! w ( ,god1 ,he ,himself w\ld be pleas$ to remove ^! ?ree difficulties out ( ! way4 ,:il/ ! prec$+ pages ( ! fir/ edition ( ?is ,n>rative 7 9 ! press1 & be=e ! reception ( ! la/ pro( %eet = correction1 ! same fri5d :o gave me on ,may #bd1 #ahcg1 ,=ty ,p\nds = ! orphans1 & :om up to t "t ,i _h nev] se51 gave on ,july #ab1 #ahcg1 ,f\r ,hundr$ & ,sixty ,p\nds m1 be+ altoge!r ,five ,hundr$ ,p\nds4 ,,review ,,( ,,! ,,la/ ,,five ,,ye>s1 ,,! ,,"t ,,t ,i ,,h ,,lab\r$ ,,9 ,,bri/ol ,,) ,,bro!r ,,craik4 ,,july1 #ahcg4 ,i4 ,"s ( ! m]cies :i* ! ,"l has grant$ to u dur+ ?is p]iod4 ,conc]n+ all ?is "t ,i h mo/ especially to say1 t goodness & m]cy h foll[$ me e day4 ,my bless+s h be5 _m & great1 my trials few & small4 ,to ! praise ( ,god ,i w m5tion a few ( ! _m m]cies :i* ,he has be/[$ on me4 #a4 ,i consid] x "o ( ! especial m]cies t1 amid/ s _m engagem5ts ,i h be5 kept 9 ! ways ( ,god1 & t ?is day ,i h z mu* desire z ev]1 yea m ?an ev]1 to live alone = ,him1 :o has done s mu* = me4 ,my greate/ grief is t ,i love ,him s little4 ,i desire _m ?+s conc]n+ myself2 b ,i desire no?+ s mu*1 z to h a he>t fill$ ) love to ! ,"l4 ,i long = a w>m p]sonal atta*m5t to ,him4 #b4 ,i consid] x likewise a great m]cy1 = :i* ,i c nev] suffici5tly praise ,god1 t1 :il/ dur+ ^! la/ five ye>s s _m ( ,8 *ildr5 h fall5 into great errors1 & ev5 ^? :o once ran well1 ,i1 :o am s fai?less to ,him1 %\ld h be5 kept f !m4 ,!re is sc>cely "o po9t ( importance1 comp>atively speak+1 respect+ :i* ,i h _h scriptural reason to alt] my views1 s9ce ,i h come to ,bri/ol4 ,my views conc]n+ ! fundam5tal tru?s ( ! gospel are ! same z !y 7 at ! end ( ! ye> #ahbi ?\gh ,i h be5 m & m e/abli%$ 9 !m dur+ ^! la/ five ye>s1 & h se5 m m9utely ! m9d ( ,god conc]n+ _m tru?s4 ,my reli% = ! /udy ( ! ^w ( ,god has n decreas$4 #c4 ,i consid] x fur!r an exce$+ great m]cy1 t ,i h be5 kept 9 un9t]rupt$ love & union ) my bro!r1 fri5d1 & fell[-lab\r]1 ,h5ry ,craik4 ,v few ( ! bless+s t ! ,"l has be/[$ on him1 on me1 & on ! two *ur*es1 ^: s]vants we are1 are ( great] importance4 ,!re is n "o po9t ( importance1 z x reg>ds ! tru?1 on :i* we diff]4 ,9 judgm5t1 z to matt]s connect$ ) ! welf>e ( ! sa9ts among :om we lab\r1 we h be5 almo/ inv>iably at once ( "o m9d4 7,"l1 to ,!e is ! praise due = ?is6667 ,we are z mu*1 or m ?an ev] unit$ 9 _s2 & if ! ,"l p]mit1 we desire to lab\r toge!r till ,he come4 ,:o t kn[s ! pron5ess 9 man to seek 8 own1 & to get glory to himself2 :o t kn[s t ! he>t naturally is full ( envy2 :o t is acqua9t$ ) ! position :i* we bo? hold 9 ! *ur*1 & ! occasions !reby occurr+ = ! fle% to feel (f5d$3--:o t consid]s ^! ?+s w n ascribe our union1 our un9t]rupt$ union & love1 entirely to ! ,"l8 ,let ! bre?r5 among :om we lab\r praise ,god mu* = x6 ,let ! bre?r5 ev]y:]e1 :o may read ?is1 praise ,god = x6 ,?is union has glorifi$ ,god6 ,?is union has sprung f ,god6 ,b1 = ?is union we dep5d n[ z mu* z ev] ^u ,god1 & !re=e let ! bre?r5 pray1 t ,god 9 m]cy w\ld give u grace1 to put aside e ?+ t might h9d] x4 #d4 ,we h _h mu* joy on acc\nt ( ! scriptural conduct ( _m ( ! *ildr5 ( ,god among :om we lab\r4 ,! two *ur*es h on ! :ole %[n1 9 "s measure1 t ev5 9 our day !re c be love among ! bre?r54 ,i d n mean t we h be5 )\t trials on acc\nt ( ! behavi\r ( ! sa9ts "u our c>e2 nor d ,i mean to say1 t ei!r we or !y h foll[$ ,*ri/ z we might or ought to h done2 b only1 t we h be5 m]cifully kept hi!rto f great divisions2 t ! cases 9 :i* acts ( discipl9e 7 ne$$ 7z ! li/ at ! end ( ! la/ two ye>s %[s7 7 s few2 t we h _h mu* m joy ?an sorr[ on acc\nt ( ! bre?r5 & si/]s3--^! are matt]s1 wor?y to be notic$ among ! special bless+s :i* ,god has be/[$ on u dur+ ! la/ five ye>s4 #e4 ,ano!r m]cy ,i m5tion is1 t x has pleas$ ,god to keep u f "s mo/ awful *>act]s1 :o ei!r actually _h propos$ !mselves = fell[%ip1 or desir$ to d s1 & :o1 s f> z ! te/imony by ^w ( m\? w5t1 c\ld fully satisfy u4 ,f sev]al su* individuals :o liv$ 9 op5 s91 we h be5 kept1 by ! ,_s con/ra9+ !m to confess1 & t1 p]haps1 ev5 aga9/ _! own w1 _! wick$ de$s1 :i* !y 7 practic+2 9 o!r in/ances we suspect$ !m1 &1 on mak+ inquiry1 f\nd out _! s9s4 #f4 ,ano!r m]cy :i* ! ,"l has k9dly be/[$ on u is1 t ?\gh nei!r ,bro!r ,craik nor ,i am /rong 9 body1 yet we h be5 help$ ?r\gh mu* "w2 &1 at ! "t :5 we 7 laid aside1 ! ,"l made up our lack ( s]vice1 ei!r by s5d+ help f )\t1 or by putt+ into ex]cise ! gifts ( ! bre?r5 among u4 ,at ^? seasons disunion might s easily h sprung up among ! bre?r52 b ! good %eph]d ( ! %eep wat*$ s graci\sly ov] ! flock1 t !y 7 kept toge!r 9 mu* love & union1 :]eby also a te/imony 0 giv5 = ,god1 t _! fai? /ood n 9 ! p[] ( man4 #g4 ,sometimes1 :5 p>ticul> trials 7 laid on u1 & ?+s appe>$ v d>k1 ! ,"l mo/ m]cifully n only support$ u "u ^? trials1 b also unexpect$ly deliv]$ u mu* soon] out ( !m1 ?an we c\ld h at all anticipat$4 ,may ?is especially enc\rage bre?r5 :o lab\r 9 ^w & doctr9e1 or :o rule 9 ! *ur*1 to tru/ 9 ! ,"l 9 ,seasons ( peculi> trial6 #h4 ,my temporal wants h all ^! five ye>s be5 mo/ ri*ly suppli$1 s t n once h ,i lack$ ! necess>ies ( life1 & g5]ally ,i h ab\nd$2 & all ?is )\t hav+ "o %ill+ ( regul> income4 ,i am n tir$ ( ?is way ( liv+1 nor h ,i ev5 = once be5 all[$ to regret hav+ begun to live 9 ?is way4 ,,ii4 ,! "w ( ! ,"l 9 our h&s4 #a4 ,x has pleas$ ! ,"l to cont9ue to bless ! ^w prea*$ by u to ! conv]sion ( _m s9n]s1 & !re seems to h be5 no p]iod dur+ ^! five ye>s1 9 :i* ?is "w has be5 /opp$ by ,him4 ,!re h come aga9 sev]al cases be=e u lately1 9 :i* individuals h be5 rec5tly br\ght to appreh5d _! lo/ /ate by nature1 & to see t ,jesus ( ,naz>e? alone c save !m4 ,! :ole numb] ( ^? :o h be5 conv]t$ ?r\gh our in/rum5tality 9 ,bri/ol1 & :o h be5 receiv$ into fell[%ip ) u is #agh2 besides ?is1 ! ,"l has giv5 u _m seals to our m9i/ry 9 ?is city1 b ! individuals are n[ ei!r only /&+ on ! li/ ( c&idates = fell[%ip1 or are unit$ to o!r *ur*es 9 & out ( ,bri/ol1 or h fall5 asleep be=e !y 7 unit$ to u4 #b4 ,! :ole numb] ( ! bre?r5 & si/]s1 n[ 9 fell[%ip ) u1 is #cgj3 #ahi at ,gideon1 #aha at ,be!sda4 #c4 ,x is n[ ?ree ye>s & f\r mon?s s9ce bro!r ,craik & ,i began1 9 dep5d5ce ^u ! ,"l = funds1 to seek to help ! spread ( ! ,gospel ?r\gh ! in/rum5tality ( s*ools1 ! circulation ( ! ,holy ,scriptures1 & by aid+ ,mission>y ex]tions4 ,s9ce !n !re h be5 circulat$ ?r\gh our in/rum5tality #djcj copies ( ! ,scriptures2 f\r ,day-,s*ools = poor *ildr5 h be5 e/abli%$ by u2 #aaai *ildr5 h be5 in/ruct$ 9 ! six ,day-,s*ools1 & #cec *ildr5 are n[ 9 ^? six ,day-,s*ools4 ,besides ?is1 a ,sunday-,s*ool1 & an ,adult-,s*ool h be5 suppli$ ) all !y ne$$1 & ,mission>y ex]tions 9 ! ,ea/ ,indies1 9 ,upp] ,canada1 & on ! ,cont95t ( ,europe1 h be5 aid$4 ,9 addition to ?is ! ^w ( ,god has be5 prea*$ f h\se to h\se among ! poor1 9 connexion ) ! ,scriptural ,k ,in/itution1 by bro!r ,c-r1 )9 ! la/ two ye>s4 #d4 ,!re h be5 receiv$ into ! ,orphan-,h\ses #gd orphans1 & !re are n[ #fd 9 !m4 ,& n[1 9 conclusion1 ,i w\ld say t ! reason1 :y ,i h spok5 s pla9ly ab\t ! s9s ( my unconv]t$ days1 is1 t ,i may magnify ! ri*es ( ! grace ( ,god1 :i* has be5 be/[$ on me1 a guilty wret*4 ,i h weigh$ mu* :e!r ,i %\ld d s or n1 kn[+ well :at contempt x may br+ on me2 b x appe>$ to me1 aft] mu* pray]1 t z ! object ( ?is little "w is to speak well ( ! ,"l1 ,i %\ld say 9 a few words :at ,i once 01 9 ord] t x might be se5 s mu* ! m cle>ly1 :at ,he has done = me4 ,i also judg$ t1 9 do+ s1 "s1 :o live at pres5t 9 s91 might see ?r\gh my example ! mis]y into :i* s9 leads1 ev5 z x reg>ds ! pres5t life1 & ! happ9ess :i* is connect$ ) ! ways ( ,god2 & t !y also might be enc\rag$ ?r\gh :at ,god has done = me1 to turn to ,him4 ,i h made myself !re=e a fool1 & degrad$ myself 9 ! eyes ( ! inhabitants ( ,bri/ol1 t y1 my de> unconv]t$ fell[ s9n]s1 :o may read ?is1 may1 ) ,god's bless+1 be made wise4 ,! love ( ,*ri/ has con/ra9$ me to speak ab\t my =m] lies1 !fts1 fraud1 c41 t y might be b5efit$4 ,d n ?9k t ,i am a fool1 & !re=e ,i h told out my he>t 9 my folly2 b ,i h made myself a fool = ! b5efit ( y\r s\ls4 ,may ,god 9 m]cy1 = ,8 de> ,son's sake1 grant t ^! pages may be a sav\r ( life unto life to y6 ,! reason :y ,i h spok5 s pla9ly ab\t "s ( ! s9s & errors into :i* ,i h fall5 s9ce my conv]sion1 & ab\t my answ]s to pray]1 & ! supplies ( my temporal wants1 & "s ( my family conc]ns1 & ! success :i* ,god has giv5 to our lab\rs1--is n1 because ,i d n "k t x is contr>y to worldly cu/om1 & aga9/ ! int]e/s ( my worldly reputation2 nor is x1 z if ,i made light ( my falls2 nor z if ,i w\ld boa/ 9 hav+ _h my pray]s s (t5 answ]$1 & hav+ be5 9 su* a v>iety ( ways us$ z an in/rum5t 9 do+ ! ,"l's "w2 b1 ,i h writt5 :at ,i h writt5 = ! b5efit ( my bre?r54 ,i h m5tion$ "s ( my s9s & errors1 t ?r\gh my loss ! bre?r5 :o may read ?is may ga94 ,i h m5tion$ ! answ]s ( pray]1 t ?r\gh !m !y may be enc\rag$ to make kn[n _! reque/s unto ,god4 ,i h spok5 ab\t my temporal supplies1 t ?r\gh see+ h[ ri*ly ,god has suppli$ my temporal wants1 s9ce ! comm5cem5t ( #ahcj1 :5 ,i left ,london1 !y may be /irr$ up to seek fir/ ! k+dom ( ,god & ,8 righte\sness1 re/+ assur$1 t1 9 do+ s1 ,he w give !m :at is ne$ful = ! life t n[ is4 ,i h allud$ to "s family circum/ances1 t *ildr5 ( ,god may be enc\rag$ to ca/ _! family burd5s ^u ! ,"l1 9 ord] t1 9 do+ s1 !y may f9d ,him c>ry+ ! burd5s = !m4 ,& la/ly1 ,i h writt5 ab\t ! success :i* ,god has be5 pleas$ to grant u 9 ,8 "w1 t x may be se51 t1 9 act+ on scriptural pr9ciples1 we h ! ,"l on our side1 & t our mode ( prea*+ is hon\r$ by ,him4 ,if 9 any?+ :i* ,i h writt5 ,i h be5 mi/ak5 7& :at human "w is !re :i* is free f error71 ,i h be5 mi/ak5 aft] mu* pray]4 ,:il/ writ+ ,i h (t5 ask$ help ( ,god4 ,:il/ revis+ ! "w1 ,i h /ill aga9 & aga9 b[$ my knees4 ,i h also frequ5tly entreat$ ! ,"l to bless ?is feeble ef=t ( m9e to speak to ,8 praise1 & ,i h n ! slighte/ hesitation 9 say+1 t1 f ! e>ne/ness & com=t :i* ,i h enjoy$ 9 pray]1 & f ! s9c]e self-exam9ation ( my he>t1 ,i "k t ,god w bless ?is little "w4 ,may ,i ask y !n1 my bre?r5 & si/]s1 :o h be5 b5efit$ 9 read+ ?is book1 to help me ) y\r pray]s1 t x may be bless$ to o!rs4 ,may ,i also ask y1 my bre?r5 & si/]s1 :o ?9k ,i ought n to h publi%$ x1 to ask ,god to bless t :i* y y\rselves consid] good & scriptural 9 x4 ,&1 n[ la/ ( all1 bre?r5 belov$ 9 ! ,"l1 rememb] me 9 y\r pray]s4 ,,end ,,( ,,! ,,fir/ ,,"p